July 30, 2025

(no music) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1399 | Jason Newland | 30th July 2025

(no music) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1399 | Jason Newland | 30th July 2025
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Hello, Welcome Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason new Land.

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This is Whisper Wednesday. Please only listen when you can

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safely close your eyes. Badah bada ba ba ba ba

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ba ba. So it is Wednesday, the thirtieth of July

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two thousand and twenty five. It's about called the past

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five in the morning. M just go out better. I

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s I really had the weirdest bunch of dreams. It

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all started off right where I was lying in bed

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and stided remembering a dream from years ago. It was

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like a specific I don't know how to explain it

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without ring. I It was just I have these dream sequences,

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these places that I visit in my dreams, and this

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just happened to be a place that I haven't visited

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for some while. And I started thinking about it, and

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I started wondering why why. But some of the dreams

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I had last night it was very fairy, strange, almost unnecessary.

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My voice is a little bit correctly due to the

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COVID though I'm on the mend. Uncle's Sausages is being

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moved into a nursing home today. His latest is he's

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just asleep all the time, very much so. He had

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a visitor last night and she caught she'd let me

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know that when she was with him. The whole time

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he was asleep and they couldn't wake him up. They

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tried to wake him up just to sort of, you know,

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let him know that he'd had a visitor, but he

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wouldn't wake up. So this is where he's at now. Now.

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The weird thing about it is, last time I saw him,

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he was wide awake. Apart from now he was asleep,

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I don't but outside of that, like, I saw him

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on the Monday last week, and the first thing he

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did is start moaning about some conspiracy or other that

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he's been going through. And then he started having a

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laugh and he started talking about other stuff. And you

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know he when he goes some drinks and things like

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that from downstairs in the shops. Did you hear that

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in in in my voice is crankly, very crankly. It's

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not a lar I can do about it. Yes, So

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he was kind of okay, groggy, slow, but still you know,

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verbally able to talk and communicate. When it went on

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a Wednesday, he was asleep, and because I felt so well,

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I just went home straight away. I took that as

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an opportunity to escape, which I'm glad I did because

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at the time I did not know that I had

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COVID HM. The last thing in the world I've thought

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about and pretty sure that's why I would have caught it,

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because that's all that's. The only place I've gone to

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the last five weeks was the hospital, so I must

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have caught it there, I guess. Yeah, just trying to think. Yes,

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I saw him, it was asleep, and since then they

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spend more more time asleep. He had a fall the

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other day. They found him on the floor in the bathroom,

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and so he's kind of bedridden there as well. It's weird.

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So since I last saw him when he was still

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fiery verbally, still talking and still chatty and still opinionated

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and all that, and the next time I see him,

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which will be in a couple of days time, when

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the covids cleared, hopefully he's just going to be there asleep.

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It's weird. I just how quickly that part happened. I

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started clearing now some of his stuff from the flat,

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and it's really weird because I was asked if i'd

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sort of look through some stuff to try and find

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something at his birth certificate. So I did it and

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I did find it, but always I found a bunch

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of photographs which he had to hid in away, photographs

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of him when he was a baby. It's weird. He's

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there in his grisee. He almost looks the same, same

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long hair, same beard. It's just it's yeah, it just

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looks the same. There's pictures of his mum. You know

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these are this is to me. This is sacred stuff,

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this is personal stuff. I don't think anyone's gonna want

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it because he's got no one, not no family. It's

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really got me thinking about life, don't don't do. It's

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just the idea that one day someone's gonna be walking

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w up here looking through my stuff and just chucking

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it into bags. Rubbish. That's rubbish, that's rubbish, just chucking

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into bags, and I'll just be forgotten like I was

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never here. It just seems weird. So I decided to

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start laying some booby traps. That's where people do you know,

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a few explosions and stuff like that. That's funny. Well

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so it was. Yeah, I started to think that there's

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no point on the NONTO stuff belongings, things like that,

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what's the point in gaining possessive when it's while looking

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at my stuff? No matter how important it may seem

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to me to whoever's in here, whether it's the council

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coming to empty in my flat, it's just going to

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be a bunch of chunk, just going to be rubbish.

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I struggled with that a little bit, just a little bit.

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Not that I've really got like a lot of stuff,

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because I got equipment, you know, for the podcasting and

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stuff like that, and I got some books and that's

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pretty much it. I got a dirty carpet, there's a

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lot of dust in here. Yeah, not as well as

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not a lot of stuff. But I just wonder, is

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there any point eving anything. I always used to love

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collecting things he has, specifically books, But at what point

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does collection become holding? And you know, I could collect

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I could have ten thousand books on the walls in

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this flat and look at them and to get all excited.

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I look at them, and that will be almost priceless

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to me. Then one day, knowing that she's going to

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be backed up and chucked onto a skip when I'm gone,

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that just seems sad, really sad. Yeah, start watching Happy

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Gilmore too. The other day, I know it's coming out

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soon on Netflix. So I watched the original Amby Gilmore

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from nineteen ninety six, I think, and that was quite

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weird watching it back. I don't actually think I've watched

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it within nearly thirty years. I might have done, but

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I don't recall watching it before rather than the first time.

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So I started watching Amby Gilmore two and I just

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couldn't believe that his wife or his girlfriend, and the

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wife in the movies was Claire Dumphrey or Dumpy Dumplee

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Dumphy from Modern Family. I recognized her in the second

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one because it looks like the one looks nothing like her.

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But then there was twenty nine years ago, where they

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probably made it thirty years ago. If it was released

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in ninety six, they probably made it ninety five. Looks

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so different. I didn't realize she's like fifty five years old.

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But just I don't know why I thought in it

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she was in her forties or something makes me feel younger.

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There's a lot of balls, wasn't it. What did they say?

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It should never it should never be any radio silence.

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That's tough. The rules had to be broken. Kicking. It's

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weird because technically I kind of feel like, possibly go

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out and just carry on doing what I need to do.

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But do you still not feel right yet? I still

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feel blocked up and you know, not not clear. And

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I promised myself that I wouldn't do the last COVID

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test to see if I was clear until my symptoms

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were clear, because I don't see the point in but

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do a thing and it says yet be clear. And

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I go in and I'm sneezing over everyone or coffeing

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over everyone, knowing that I've just come through COVID. That

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doesn't seem like a very bright thing to do in

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a place full of people that are very very ill.

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Because I'm not. I know this. There's people the think

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that they're heroes because they go out even when they're

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all So they're going out and they're sniffing and they're

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sneezing and they're coughing over everyone, and they go into

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the office and they they got the pride of never

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had a day off work since they started working nine

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hundred years ago. And they're sitting at their desk and

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in an office with air conditioning which spreads every single

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germ possible to all the other offices around the building,

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and they turn up and they're dripping and there it's

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like it's like a swamp. They're like a walking swamp,

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and they feel so proud. I don't have time enough.

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I got to work. I don't phoney ill me me.

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And I've never been one of them. I was a

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little bit like that when I was a kid. You know,

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work ethic and all that. My dad tried to force

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and work ethic in me. It's semi worked for a

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little while. But as I got older, you know, I

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used to work with a cold. I go to work

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with a cold. And once I hit my thirties, my

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middle thirties or my thirties, and it was like thirty five.

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I remember thinking to myself, stuff this. If I've got

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a cold staying at home, I'm not spreading it as

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an embloyer. If I was an employer, which I'm not,

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if I had a hundred staff working in an office

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and one person comes in swamp swampy man swampy and

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sneezing in coffee over everyone, I don't think. I mean,

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I don't know. I might have a completely differentity. If

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I was an owner of humans. But I like to

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think that I would send that person home so that

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they don't contaminate the whole building, because I've seen that.

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I've think we will come to work so proud, I

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don't ever have time off work at you. And then

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they recover. But during their recovery time, when they go

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from having a full on hold to being fine or

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flew wherever it is, you see that the people in

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the in the building dwildering, dwildering, dwindering, dwindling, dwelterering reducing, dwindling.

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That's it, dwindling. It doesn't sound right though, twiddling, biddling, twidling, twindling,

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twin dwindle, dwindle reducing anyway, people going off illm I've

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seen that in the past, and suddenly you got like

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ten to fifteen percent of the workforce off because one

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person was a hero. So I decided I wasn't going

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to be that hero. I was going to be a

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different kind of hero, one that has or was that

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word that word that's not very common in a human race,

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that is used and not really respect or to understood.

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What is it? What's that word? Ah? Consider I'd be considerate.

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Or at least dry, consider ah, oh, my goodness, I

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feel all tingly all down me bum oh. It's nice

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considerate gif that I go quite like consideration something that

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I've noticed seems to be lacking.

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I'm getting old and money instead of young and mony.

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The amount of inconsideration is, or the lack of consideration,

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amazes me. Just in this building, people slam indoors. They

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don't have to slam a door. They must be able

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to hear the door slamming because it shakes the entire building,

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But they still do it. Why do they do it?

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Is there anything going on inside their brain? There must be,

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So I'm a thinker. I'm not going to pretend that

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there's anything particularly intelligent going on, but I do think nevertheless,

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and you know, try and show consideration. Even if I

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cross a separate crossing and there's lights that've stopped at

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the car, a car is not allowed to go over

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because the lights have stopped. I will still wave thank

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you to the car, sometimes even to the driver, just occurtesy,

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just consideration like thank you, acknowledgment. But the amount of

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times I see when I'm on a bus coming traveling

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around the bell people they just walk across the road

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and don't even look when the traffic stopped. I guess

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maybe some people are shy if you don't have to

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look at the driver. I don't look at the driver.

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I just case my eyes in the general vicinity of

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where the driver may be sitting and just put my

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hand up. I don't actually go up to the driver,

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knock on the window and give them a big old kiss.

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There's nothing like that. It's just a quick wave, hi,

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thank you acknowledgement. Also, if they're sitting and they have

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already been sitting there for maybe twenty seconds, and then

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I go to cross the road, I put my hand

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up so they can see me, because they might be

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looking at their phone and then decide to drive, you know,

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And I don't want to be squashed, so I try

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and you know, let people know that I'm there. I

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remember once one time there was this. It was up

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near town and it was it wasn't a separate crossing,

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but it was a crossing, and the lights stopped and

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the car stopped, you know. But what this did is

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it it turned really quickly from being stopped to start,

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so the cars would just move and they didn't seem

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to take any notice of the people and because it

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was a busy, busy crossing, it was weird. Well, once

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the there was two lanes, so the first lane we

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were crossing and the person was there. Now the other

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lane was clear. But what people would do is sometimes

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we basically if you can across the road, you have

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to check both lanes. Just don't assume that the other

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lane's going to stop. Well, this person had a pram

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with them and they pushed the pram straight into the

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road ahead of them because the lights are on red,

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so they fall of traffic had to stop. I've never

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seen a light stop a car before, you know. And

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she pushed a pram out and the car was speeding

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on the other lane. Luckily there was no accident. She

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managed to pull pull it back in time. That's when

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I realized that prams are not really well suited for

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crossing the road, especially if the supplied spot you can't see.

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She'd better off pulling the prayer backwards if you cross

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the road. That's the second first thing I kind of

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learned from that. Well, the second thing is I guarantee

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you does she learned nothing from that as a human.

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Pretty much, I would bet any amount of money that

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I don't have that. She just continued the next time

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she was there. If that was a regular road, she

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would just continue pushing the pram out like she did

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that time, even though it was a near miss. But

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you nothing was learned. So that's that's something that I

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struggle with a little bit. I'm not saying I learned

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from every situation, because I don't. But I kind of

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study people a little bit. And while I noticed I

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can a call center atmosphere in an office place if

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you see someone this is weird. I don't know why,

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but male and females seem to do two different things

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with drinks bottles of drink. I don't know why. Of

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course a minute it might just it was years of studying.

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To be honest, I noticed this over a long period

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of time. Females seem to be more likely to have

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a bottle of drink with the lid left off, and

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males would have the lid, the lid on and just

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take it off when they wanted a drink. I've also

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noticed that over the years that if someone puts a drink,

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let's say they have it right on the edge of

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a table and it falls off onto the floor, what

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they do is they put the cup or the drink

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back at the edge of the table like it was before,

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don't learn from it and put it further up so

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it doesn't fall off the edge, or if they if

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it falls over, they don't put the lid on, leave

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the lid off still. Maybe it's because it takes so

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much time to take a lid off. If they can't

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flip lid that might be easier. I don't know. I

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mean the amount, the amount of things that I have

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not learned from probably adds up to thousands and thousands

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and thousands of things I do try I do, and

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I think this sometimes there's things that we almost have

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no choice about learning from. I kind of seem to

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be in that situation at the moment. I'm just trying

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to figure what it is I'm supposed to be learning.

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But if I listen to my dummy, dumb, dumb, all

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I need to do now is go and get something

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to eat because I'm hungry, hungry, So thank you for listening.

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Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

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to be happy, bitchenter with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

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Lots of love. Bye,