July 13, 2025

(no music) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025

(no music) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land and I am sitting in my

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chair with my favorite little doggie, Finney Sidney. Oh he's

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colored up to me. I'm just stroking him. Oh yeah.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes.

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I thought i'd do a Sunday subbery as it's Sunday,

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so like a summary of last week, not a summary

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of Sunday, because I haven't done much today except sleep really,

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although I did get up very very early this morning

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to watch the boxing. So here's a summary. Let's see

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where do we start. Should we start Monday or should

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we start yesday to Yeah, let's start Monday and work

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awaited today. So I can't remember anything that happened on

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Sunday last week, so Monday. You know what? This is? Weird? Okay?

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The days seem to be mixing together, or rather the

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weeks are mixing together, and I'm not one hundred percent

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sure what happened last week and what happened this week,

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so I might get it a little bit wrong, a

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little bit wrong. So the day is Sunday, the something

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is it the twelfth of July? I think something like

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that and it's about three. It's twenty to three in

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the afternoon. I got the windows open because it's quite

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it's a stuffy day to day. It's like it's warm,

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but it's stuffy. It's overcast. The sun's not there. Obviously

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it's there, but there's no sunshine really, but it's very stuffy,

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very like there's less oxygen and normal, which is probably

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a weird thing to say. However, based on that, I'm

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wondering whether or not we're going to have a big

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old thunderstorm tonight. I hope so. And I like a

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big thunderstorm. Even Vinny doesn't care about them. Honestly, I

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know it's a bit selfish because I like something that

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a lot of people don't like, but I do. I

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love a thunderstorm, really really loud one. Yeah, So I

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think maybe it's I don't know, I don't know why,

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I just do. There's something. Ever since I was a kid,

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I quite like the idea that nature is just way

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more powerful than anything humans can produce. As far as

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you know, just every now and then, it seems that

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nature just pops his little head up and says just

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a little reminder to the humans. You know, I can

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do this in a second. Something that you can create,

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I can you know, it's I don't know, just it's

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very powerful, isn't it? Nature? But naturally? But at the

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same time I don't. I don't like things that cause

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damage and harm. But I guess because we don't really

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get that much here, which is nice, but just a

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big thunderstorm or a particularly winded day. It's something to

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be respected, isn't it. Really? I would say nature. I

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was thinking about, you know, the old argument about what

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what instincts we're born with nature versus nurture. So what

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we talk compared to what do we learn, you know,

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compared to what natural instincts do we have? And dogs

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have been studied for this, dogs, rats, animals and stuff

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any humans, of course, but the idea that a dog

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has that it made me rethink it because I just

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thought that dogs naturally, you know, a dog or pockets leg.

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A male dog would cock its leg to go for weeies.

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It will kick behind it after going to a toilet

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to cover up because you know, to keep away predators

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and stuff and not know why they're doing it, and

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it's instinctive. But with Vinnie it's not instinctive because he

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had no brothers or sisters when he was born. He

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was around no dogs, really, he had a female. He

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was around his mum. So when he went to a toilet,

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he crouched, which I guess is what his mum did.

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And I had him at ten months old, so he

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never cocked his leg and he never did the old like,

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you know, kicking back after going to a toilet, didn't

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do any of that stuff. Once he started going out

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for walks with Logi, my friend's dog downstairs, he started

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copying him. He started cocking his legs, started kicking. Did

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the weird thing about is ill. He'll go to toilet

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and then we'll turn around and he'll keep behind him,

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which is a complete different direction. So there's no point

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to always doing it, but he's just learned it so

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that that. Yeah, he had about eleven months with Logi, No,

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not eleven mode more than that, didn't he because my

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friend left in November and I had Logi to for

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another three months to the end of February I think,

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or was in March, I think February, so he had

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over I mean there three months of living with him

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solidly upstairs here, him and Logi together, but before that

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they would see each other every day, go for walks

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every day, so he copied him, but after living it

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like it didn't actually get on so well because Vinnie

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was Vinnie wanted his He wanted his own space, and

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this was his home. He didn't want He liked Vinni,

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he liked Logi visiting, but there's certain times when he

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came to bedtime, Logi took up needed a whole bed

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because it was a big old dog. Vinnie was trying

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to push Logi off. He couldn't physically do it. Even

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I couldn't physically do it. It was too strong and heavy,

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and Vinnie did not like that. That's when he started

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sleeping on the pillow next to me, because before that

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he always used to sleep at the bottom of the

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bed or maybe at the side, like cuddle up to

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me when I was asleep, because he didn't like to

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cuddle up to me when I was awake. Doesn't like

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to show it any kind of affection. Weird, weird old

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sausage is And so that's the pillow next to me.

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That was kind of the only space he had, or

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right behind him near the wall. Because Logi took up

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literally half the bed. Vinnie takes up half the bed,

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but he doesn't need half the bed. LOGI needed half

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the bed because he's big old thing. What's that guy

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i'd do with the last week? I don't know who

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expect me to keep track of what I'm saying. I'm

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sorry about the noise, but it's like a crush in

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the garden. I can't do anything about it. I'm not

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closing the windows, and at the same time, I do

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also want to make recordings, so it's one of those

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either I don't make a recording. Isn't it really weird?

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You know when you've got an adult that's really loud,

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and you've got a kid with that adult all the time,

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and then the kid starts being really loud verbally, then

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the adult gets upset with a kid for being loud. Now,

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that is funny. That's a funny old situation. Bless them

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loud people raise loud people. It's just because we just learned.

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It's the whole nature and nurture everything as well, isn't it.

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It's sometimes I feel lucky that I moved around so

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much when I was very young that I wasn't with

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the same people I wasn't with the same adults. And

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you know, it might seem weird because technically I probably

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lucky wasn't the right word. I didn't get caught up

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in that copying other people's behavior. So I didn't grow

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up like my dad, or like my mom or like

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my step mom. I didn't. I didn't grow up like

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them or like the nuns, although I do sometimes like

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to dress up and pace around with a big ruler,

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big bit of wood. But other than that, I'm not

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saying I wasn't influenced by them, because kids are influenced

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by what's around them, aren't they. And I think all

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humans are really to be honest, I know I am

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to a degree, but I didn't end up being like

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a little carbon copy or even even partially a carbon

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copy of a parent. So I didn't have the especially

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if you think back to the era that I grew up,

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like the seventies, So I didn't grow up racist or homophobic,

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or particularly sexist or anything like that. I didn't have

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those strong views about people from other countries and stuff,

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because I've just been I traveled, not traveled, but I've

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been around. You know, I was in this little town

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at the age of seven, I was in this little

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town and I was hearing people be I don't know,

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not very friendly towards non white people, let's just say.

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And this was standard in the seventies, standard almost kind

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of just flippant in a flippant way, not necessarily in

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a bullian way, just about people that were non white.

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Now there was only I think I met one black person.

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There's one black person in my school, or he was

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a mixed race, and there was probably one black person

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in the town. The only Chinese people in the town

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were people that had a Chinese takeaway. The only Indian

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people the people that had Indian restaurants. It was that

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kind of town, you know, early eighties, late seventies, early eighties.

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It's very like ninety nine point nine point nine point

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nine point nine point nine p nine percent Caucasian. So

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I go to that town and people are being all

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It wasn't just the people, but on television it was

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a very kind of prejudice. Being prejudiced was just okay.

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It was standard. It was on family entertainment. Was racist

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and homophobic. It was a standard thing. And I probably laughed, Yeah,

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I did laugh at it as well. I was a kid,

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I laughed. But the difference is I had been I

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knew I'd had black friends when I was in the

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kids home. In fact, my girlfriend was black. So I

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didn't have that attitude. I didn't have that kind of

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a lot of people in the town had never actually

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seen someone that was non white in the flesh, which

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is weird to imagine, but it's probably true actually, other

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than on television or in movies. So I didn't have that.

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I don't know, I just didn't have that attitude, that

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kind of that little brain defect that I think people

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that grew up in that time had a little bit

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if they lived in a completely kind of little, tiny

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little town in love nowhere, where you know, obviously, if

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you're in London it's different, or if you're in a

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big city it's multicultural, and it has been for for

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a long long time, since probably the fifties. I was

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going to say something heart might mildly intelligent then, but

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I forgot what it was. Yeah, I don't know. I

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just I don't mean know what I'm trying to say here.

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Just I don't know why thinking of nature and nurture

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because we're not born like that, are we? Was it

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the two things that babies are born with two fears,

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the fear of falling and loud noises. That seems to

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be the only two. I don't think that's true, though,

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because everyone's got their own thing in it. Babies don't

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like being left on their own, do they. Sometimes. I

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was quite a good father figure. Once in nineteen ninety five,

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I was dating this lady. She was I think she

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was two years old than me. I was twenty five,

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she was twenty seven. She had two kids, one of

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to She had a daughter who was about I don't know,

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four five, and she had a son who was probably

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about a year old. It's basically a baby still. And

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that little boy bonded with me, like really bonded, like

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just automatically, I don't know why. And I used to

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be able to send him to sleep, so when he cried,

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it put his arms out for me to pick him up.

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Is like he connected with me. And I used to

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sing to him and it's I'd sing Michael Jackson songs

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and he'd fall asleep. And one time I went away,

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I was in Buttling's and I got a phone call

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from her dad, my girlfriend's dad, saying that the little

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boy the little baby was in hospital cause he had

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an asthma attack. So I come back to London and

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I get in there. So I go into the baby ward,

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which is just a weird place to be, and the

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first thing the little boy does is put his arms

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out for me to pick him up, smiling, so happy

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to see me, and it was weird, Like, wow, imagine

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if other human beings were happy to see me. Imagine

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having that kind of welcome from everyone that you meet

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in life. Life, you would just be almost blissful, wouldn't it.

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It'd be weird. Yeah, definitely weird, especially if you Yeah,

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that would be weird, wouldn't it. Imagine you were robbing

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someone's house and they came in and caught you and

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they were so excited to see you, Oh how are you?

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That'd be weird. Not that I rob people's houses, although

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funny enough, the lady downstairs who've got her flat robbed

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about three months ago. She found out who did it

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as a local neighbor. According to her, and apparently that

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same neighbor. Again, I don't have proof of this, but

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actually the dots fitted together because she knew stuff that

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she wouldn't know otherwise. She you know that I've not

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said to her. The same neighbor was going around to

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people saying that I was a convicted I've been to

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prison for something really bad. And so the neighbor downstairs

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went online. Apparently the website can go on to check

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this stuff out, and it's weird. It's that really. I

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didn't know what to do with that information because this

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is someone that I actually visited. I visited this person

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in the hospital last week, not not. This isn't Uncle Sausages.

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This is another neighbor. When if it was Uncle Sausages,

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I wouldn't be visiting them anymore if I thought he'd

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said something like that about me. Yeah, that was weird.

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I said, like, okay, well if that was true, then

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I would not be living opposite of school for a fact.

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You know, there's a certain laws about stuff like that.

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But then it kind of like we had this conversation

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with me and the neighbor downstairs, and she said, yeah,

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but if she's going around telling people, you could end

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up really in a bad place, a spa, you know.

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I said yeah, And it kind of explains why some

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people are used to say to me down now, don't

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because it's the old saying, isn't it like the old

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no smoke about fire, that idiotic phrase. So, yeah, it's weird.

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I still trying to process this. It's not the best

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time to be trying to process any other serious stuff

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with what's going on with Uncle Sausages. I did not

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know what to do with that information. Also to find

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out that apparently the neighbor downstairs knows the person that

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broke into a flat. She's like a friend of a friend,

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and he didn't notice her flat. So he's gone and

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told her who organized it, which was the other neighbor.

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So I don't know she's going to go to the police.

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I've got no idea. I can't. It's not for me

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to get involved in that stuff. And also it's not

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for me to know what's what is it. I don't

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know what's true what's not true. But has absolutely blown

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my mind just thinking I'm walking around and people are

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thinking that of me. It's just absolutely, Yeah, it's weird.

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I should move on. I just it's all I've been

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thinking about since Friday. Yeah, Friday, That's when I've yeah, Friday,

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no Saturday, Saturday night, no Friday, Friday. Yeah, So since

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Friday afternoon, about five point thirty, I remember roughly, because Uncle,

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well actually it was Auntie Landlord came around and got

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me to sign that form, that legal document that Auntie

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the uncle Sausages wanted me to sign. So I did that,

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and then what's her name called me up asked me

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for something. I said, a couple of black bags or something.

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As I went down, and she started telling me all

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this stuff. Why why didn't you you know? It's like wow,

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Because I said to her she was saying this stuff,

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I said, well, I don't know. I get on quite

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well with her, and she said, oh, you should hear

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what she said about you. And then when she was

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telling me, actually was things that she wouldn't know that

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makes sense, things that I've not because I've had hardly

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any conversations with the neighbor downstairs, hardly any conversations at

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all since she moved in. Helped her out a few

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times actually, but never really had any sit down, proper

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normal conversations. And this was the first time that we

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sat and talked for like half an hour, hadn't hadn't

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done that before, And she knew things that she wouldn't

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know unless she'd actually spoken to the other person. There's

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no way she'd know that stuff. It's very unusual, very

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unusual situation. I'm thinking that with people like that about here.

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I was like, I need to get out of here.

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I said to her, why didn't you tell me when

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when she when you found out? When she said it,

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she said, I was going to, but you just let

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me know that you had bipolar, and I didn't want to.

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I was worried what your reaction would be. I said,

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I still got bipolar. You know, it wasn't just the

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weekend thing. I still here. And I mean generally my

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reactions were internal most of the time, not always, but

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most of the time. And you know, it's kind of limited,

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limited to what I can do in these situations. But yeah,

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so that that's probably one of the biggest things that's

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happened this week for me, is hearing that how much

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of it is gossip, how much of it is true,

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how much of it but a lot of it was

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based on stuff that my neighbor would not know. She

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wouldn't know. There's no way in the world she could know.

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Just say it one more time she couldn't have known,

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which because I've not talked to anyone else. I don't

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talk to anyone anymore because my friend Luke's gone, so

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don't have conversations with people about what's going on locally.

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We used to chat about stuff. I suppose we'll have

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a little bit of a gossip, but generally, you know,

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since then, I don't have contact with pretty much anyone

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at all around here, apart from people I bump into

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when I'm walking a viny. Yeah, don't have anyone knock

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on the door or ring me. But there's this one

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person that I see that I don't see it very often,

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but i'd usually see a couple of times a week actually,

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And as I said, I visited her in hospital when

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she was lying there on oxygen. I mean, you could

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argue while I was already I was at hospital anyway,

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so fair enough. But it's still, you know, it's a

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nice little bit of effort. I was going to give

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her a lift home as well, but she didn't get

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kicked out in time. She didn't get a parole. But

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the idea that someone's it's not even that they're going

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around if telling lots of people, you just say it

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to one person, that's enough to completely destroy everything for me.

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I suppose I'm lucky that the person she told didn't

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believe her, but at the same time still checked because

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it can be checked. You could check. There's a a

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whole website devoted to this subject. I've never even had

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I know, I don't drive, but I've never been arrested,

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never had a parking fine, never even had what do

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you call it a warning? Is it a warning about anything?

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I've never put in trouble for putting a cigarette out

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on the pavement. I've you know, it's literally nothing my

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whole entire life. Saying that. When I was seven, I

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did get in trouble with the police, but that was

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because of stealing from the school. But the police didn't

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do anything to me. They just made me stand up

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and be humiliated. That was when I was Yeah, I

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was seven. But other than that, I've yeah, I've never

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had any nothing. I've got a very clean record, and

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without getting into obvious statements, I could not have been

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a counselor a therapeutic counselor counseling children adults for charities

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such as mind if I had, or, to be fair,

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possibly any criminal record. I mean, they can kind of

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override some of it, you know. If I had a

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criminal record for I'm trying to think something completely unrelated

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to human beings thirty years ago, you know, something like that.

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Maybe they can kind of override it and say, well,

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fair enough, it's a long time ago. It's not I'm

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trying to think of a scenario robin a bank. Maybe now,

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it's probably not a good one. Is it stealing a

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tractor to carry home some pebbles from the beach for

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my petty. I'm just thinking something like that. It's like, Okay,

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I stole attract I didn't, I'm saying, But like, okay,

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stole attractor is taking pebbles from the beach, stealing. Technically

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they're not owned by anyone, I guess. But then you know,

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steal the tractor. It's not good. It's against the law.

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Get in trouble for that, get arrested, have a fine.

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The worst is going to be a suspended sentence, I imagine.

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But what I did know, I've got I've got a

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friend who anyway, I won't go into that. Yeah, so

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that's very, very unusual. I can't live in the mode

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of like wanting to just get out of here now,

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move away. But I can't. There's no there's nowhere to go.

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But at the same time, I guess it. At least

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it's taken my attention off of Uncle's sausages for a

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few hours. Eh. Wow, he's phoning me up quite a

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lot when I'm not there, and cause I gave him

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the an iPad to watch his TV, you know, the

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sports channels, and he's struggling a little bit working the thing,

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and I said, I showed him how to do it,

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but I do understand that a new thing can take

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a while to learn, and he's getting confused with it,

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and maybe just play round of it, just practice, open

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up the different apps like that, you know, because it's

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not really any different from his TV. It's just instead

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of using a remote control, he's just touching the screen instead.

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But it's Yeah, he was saying something about the nurses.

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They're always walking off to go and pray, which is

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throwing him off a bit. And then he was talking

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about nurses on horseback and I thought an award. He

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said no, I said, well, what nurses on horses I

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don't really know what you're saying, so I'll try and

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find out what that was about. He said, they're on TV.

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I said, they're on TV. Okay, really was confused with

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that today. And then he talks about something, and then

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I'm not sure what he's talking about because I can't

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hear him very well because he's like, I think almost

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he's whispering to me because he doesn't want to have

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a people to hear what's saying. Maybe or he doesn't

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want to disturb other people. I don't know. And I've

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noticed that he doesn't talk loudly anymore. He used to

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talk quiet, not it wasn't loud, but he was very yeah,

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probably above normal normal volume level. When he got animated

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and he was talking, it was never quiet. Now he's

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really quiet when he talks. I have to get my

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face really close to him. I mean literally, I have

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to get my ear inside his mouth in order for

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me to hear what he's saying, which is a weird visual.

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And it didn't used to be like that, I mean

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literally two weeks ago. He wasn't like that. Two weeks ago,

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he was with his neighbor, Del Boy, who is the

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bloke in the bed next to him, Uncle Sausages, is

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walking around talking about football and stuff, and he was animated,

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and he was talking loudly, and you know, enthusiastically, and

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now he's just sitting there. A del boy left, so

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he got out of the hospital, and it's just it

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kind of it feels a little bit like he's surrendered

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Uncle Sausages. He's just surrendered to the situation, which I

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understand is possibly part of the process. And he's he's

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doing problems with his tummy, not really quite bad problems

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with his tummy, which he didn't he was and experiencing

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before he went in there, although maybe it was a

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little bit, but it's you know, it's progressed, and he

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was saying, oh, I've got a tummy. Bugger must have

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called it from from the hospital, which is possible, but

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no one else has got it. And well, it's kind

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of I think it's part of what he's going through

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and and also could be a reaction to the medication

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and stuff. I just wish I could just pick him

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up and take him out. You're not even allowed to

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out of the hospital ward anymore, and he's in the

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discharge ward, so they're waiting for him to be I

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might just call this about Uncle's Uncle's Sausages update, because

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that way, if you don't want to hear about Uncle Sausages.

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You can just ignore this because not everyone's going to

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want to listen to recordings that are like this, because

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you know, even though I'm not going to go into

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any kind of graphic detail or whatsoever it might, it's

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not necessarily something people are going to want to listen to.

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So I will just put down Uncle's Sausages Update. That's fair,

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isn't it. Yeah, So if you get the Sunday Summary,

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unlet's record it Sunday Summary, Uncle Sausages Update. Ah. Maybe

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I don't know, doesn't really matter, does anyone? Does anyone

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even bother worried about what the titles are of the recordings?

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Wait a minute, that's supposed to be Mondays, but are

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in objects? Does anyone care? I don't know. I just

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don't know. I don't know. It's weird. He was moaning

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about the food. He's still moaning about the food, and

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he's I think there's a little bit of a clash

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of cultures there because he's a you know, he's nearly

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eighty years old, he's got his religion. He hasn't really

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spent any time around people with an outwardly different religion

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to him. And you wouldn't even know what religion he

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was because he doesn't dress up or anything, so I

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think that's some kind it's a little bit of a

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little bit of a shock to his system to be

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around people that are dressed differently, and he's never been

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in hospital before, so it's kind of I think that

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it's a little bit of a culture shock being around

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people that are maybe speaking very different with a very

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different accent, and I think communication wise, he's struggling with

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that because I think they might struggle with him because

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he's got a very strong Irish accent and some of

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his nurses and doctors have got a very strong accent

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from where they were born. So I think it's a

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little bit hard for both sides to understand what each

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other is saying. And because he can't understand, sometimes he's

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not asking for people to repeat. And I said to him,

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look if you don't if you don't know understand what

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someone's saying, maybe because they're not speaking loud enough. He's

466
00:40:04.280 --> 00:40:09.519
also I think he's a little bit he is hearing

467
00:40:09.559 --> 00:40:11.920
isn't as good as it used to be. He struggles

468
00:40:11.920 --> 00:40:18.400
to hear me on the phone, and how many people's

469
00:40:18.480 --> 00:40:20.199
hearing is as good as it used to be when

470
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:24.280
they're seventy eight realistically, you know. So I'm not saying

471
00:40:24.320 --> 00:40:30.159
anything prerogative. I'm not saying anything peroxide about him. So

472
00:40:31.960 --> 00:40:36.599
I said, look, I've got sausages. Just you can't ask

473
00:40:36.639 --> 00:40:39.719
people to repeat themselves, or you can even say I

474
00:40:39.719 --> 00:40:42.639
don't understand what you're saying, as long as you don't

475
00:40:42.760 --> 00:40:46.639
you know, don't say in a horrible way, but I

476
00:40:46.639 --> 00:40:52.280
don't understand what you're saying. And hopefully if that person

477
00:40:52.360 --> 00:40:57.559
has any communication skills, they will speak a little bit

478
00:40:57.559 --> 00:41:01.199
clearer and a little bit slower and maybe a little

479
00:41:01.199 --> 00:41:04.679
bit louder maybe or get closer to the person. It

480
00:41:05.119 --> 00:41:12.119
just seems like the obvious thing to do, although I've

481
00:41:12.159 --> 00:41:15.519
seen this so many times over the years, people with

482
00:41:15.639 --> 00:41:20.719
the same accent, like a really strong accent, not being

483
00:41:20.760 --> 00:41:26.840
able to understand each other. I've seen people from Glasgow, Liverpool,

484
00:41:27.119 --> 00:41:31.039
Newcastle talking to each other and they're talking so fast,

485
00:41:31.400 --> 00:41:36.559
and the other person says, huh what now. The person

486
00:41:36.599 --> 00:41:41.480
then repeats exactly the same sentence as they did before,

487
00:41:42.239 --> 00:41:45.920
in exactly the same way, at exactly the same speed,

488
00:41:46.519 --> 00:41:51.280
with the exact same amount of mumbling, and then a

489
00:41:51.320 --> 00:41:55.639
person uh, And then they can kind of put it

490
00:41:55.679 --> 00:42:02.480
together after hearing it two or three times. I've noticed

491
00:42:02.480 --> 00:42:07.400
that for thirty forty years that people have the tends

492
00:42:07.440 --> 00:42:10.400
I say people with Some people have a tendency of

493
00:42:11.639 --> 00:42:15.559
they just repeat themselves exactly how they did before. But

494
00:42:15.639 --> 00:42:19.320
the fact that the person listening to them didn't understand

495
00:42:19.360 --> 00:42:27.559
what they said or didn't catch the full sentence means maybe,

496
00:42:27.679 --> 00:42:32.400
you know, as I said, like speaking a little bit clearer.

497
00:42:34.039 --> 00:42:37.199
But I noticed that when people, for example, someone says

498
00:42:37.440 --> 00:42:39.119
I had a friend who used to sort of talk,

499
00:42:39.280 --> 00:42:44.679
and then he'd almost it's like his sentence would fall

500
00:42:44.719 --> 00:42:48.239
asleep at the end. So yeah, I'm going to head

501
00:42:48.239 --> 00:42:53.599
down to the what I'm now just going to head

502
00:42:53.599 --> 00:43:00.519
down to the world and it just drop off. Is

503
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:02.599
like the last bit, the last word or the last

504
00:43:02.599 --> 00:43:12.440
two words were almost like fall asleep. Now, if someone

505
00:43:12.800 --> 00:43:15.679
asks me to repeat myself, because I'm perfect, of course

506
00:43:16.440 --> 00:43:22.360
I would think, oh, they didn't understand what I said,

507
00:43:22.679 --> 00:43:25.920
so maybe I'm mumbled, and I mumble everyone. I'm imagine

508
00:43:25.960 --> 00:43:30.480
everyone mumbled. Sometimes I love mumbling. It makes me makes

509
00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:35.880
me horny. So it that was a really weird thing

510
00:43:35.880 --> 00:43:45.519
to say, and the has thrown me off. I thrown

511
00:43:45.559 --> 00:43:55.519
myself off. Wow, thrown myself off. That sounds weird as well,

512
00:43:55.599 --> 00:44:01.719
isn't it. Stop throwing yourself off. There's people we've got company. Ah,

513
00:44:02.039 --> 00:44:08.719
you're ruining the Christmas dinner. Well yeah, anyway, I just

514
00:44:10.159 --> 00:44:11.679
I don't even know why I'm talking about that while

515
00:44:11.679 --> 00:44:15.840
I'm talking about people mumbling, oh yeah, the nurses or

516
00:44:15.880 --> 00:44:21.079
the doctors. So in his last ward, so he'd been

517
00:44:21.119 --> 00:44:24.519
in one. This is fourth ward he's been in. The

518
00:44:24.559 --> 00:44:28.800
first one was in the accident emergency department, so it

519
00:44:28.840 --> 00:44:33.159
was in the ward there while he was being scanned

520
00:44:33.320 --> 00:44:36.519
and blood tests and all that stuff. So it was

521
00:44:36.559 --> 00:44:41.280
an award. But he then got moved after two days

522
00:44:41.400 --> 00:44:43.679
or it was. He had a Friday night, got moved

523
00:44:43.719 --> 00:44:52.519
on a Saturday to a new ward, another ward, but

524
00:44:52.559 --> 00:44:57.159
it was only in there for about two days, maybe

525
00:44:57.199 --> 00:45:00.880
three days, two or three days, and then he got

526
00:45:00.920 --> 00:45:03.840
moved to the ward he was in before he moved

527
00:45:04.199 --> 00:45:08.840
to this new one to start with. He liked it

528
00:45:08.880 --> 00:45:11.119
in there. I wouldn't I say liked. I mean he

529
00:45:11.159 --> 00:45:17.480
didn't didn't wake up every morning singing, you know, he didn't.

530
00:45:17.719 --> 00:45:21.760
He doesn't like it, but he liked the other patients.

531
00:45:25.360 --> 00:45:28.400
This Dell Boy lived next to him. I think some

532
00:45:28.559 --> 00:45:33.760
other bloke that Big Paul or every cardon was opposite.

533
00:45:33.960 --> 00:45:35.599
And then there was another bloke that was the other

534
00:45:35.679 --> 00:45:38.960
side opposite, but he he was asleep most of the time,

535
00:45:40.280 --> 00:45:42.199
but his wife used to come and chat to us.

536
00:45:43.079 --> 00:45:52.039
She was in there every single day and excused him

537
00:45:52.039 --> 00:46:04.440
a noise again outside when the that squeaky voice just

538
00:46:04.760 --> 00:46:10.199
put me off. What was I was going to say? Yeah,

539
00:46:10.239 --> 00:46:18.440
when del Boy moved out, he had a new person

540
00:46:18.840 --> 00:46:26.199
move in and he didn't like him. Uncle Sausages took

541
00:46:26.199 --> 00:46:28.599
a dislike to this person. He thought that they were

542
00:46:28.599 --> 00:46:33.480
talking about him and stuff, and he thought that he

543
00:46:33.599 --> 00:46:40.400
was getting a preferential treatment. But the ward nurse, because

544
00:46:40.519 --> 00:46:44.480
I called the ward nurse when Uncle Sausages told me this,

545
00:46:44.519 --> 00:46:48.599
and we got together and had a conversation. Has She

546
00:46:48.679 --> 00:46:52.599
explained that everybody had got different needs because they're all

547
00:46:52.639 --> 00:46:56.639
in the same ward for the same reason, but variations

548
00:46:56.760 --> 00:47:05.239
of that reason and at various stages of the condition

549
00:47:05.360 --> 00:47:10.760
as well. So this person had more personal needs than

550
00:47:11.199 --> 00:47:17.440
Uncle Sausages has. And Uncle Sausages was saying, oh, I

551
00:47:17.440 --> 00:47:20.960
think he's private because he keeps clicking his fingers, which

552
00:47:20.960 --> 00:47:23.760
I'm sure he didn't, but kept asking for help with stuff,

553
00:47:24.719 --> 00:47:28.800
and that was annoying. Uncle sausages, And I tried to

554
00:47:28.800 --> 00:47:31.840
explain it. If he was private, he wouldn't be in

555
00:47:31.960 --> 00:47:36.079
a ward with other people. You know that, you know,

556
00:47:36.159 --> 00:47:39.280
his own place is in his own room. He definitely

557
00:47:39.280 --> 00:47:45.960
wouldn't be in that ward with everyone. But I think

558
00:47:47.159 --> 00:47:49.920
I think it's kind of just being stuck in one place.

559
00:47:52.079 --> 00:47:55.880
It was really just winding them up. And then he

560
00:47:55.960 --> 00:47:58.639
started thinking that they were saying that he was yeah,

561
00:47:59.079 --> 00:48:01.119
I want to say the word, but that they were

562
00:48:01.199 --> 00:48:08.480
kind of talking about him as if he was a criminal,

563
00:48:10.320 --> 00:48:12.400
some kind of you know, because of his name or

564
00:48:12.440 --> 00:48:18.559
his accent or whatever. And he started saying, don't you

565
00:48:18.639 --> 00:48:22.880
call me paranoid, because because he sort of said, maybe

566
00:48:22.880 --> 00:48:31.119
you're just you know, it might just be boredom. It's

567
00:48:31.119 --> 00:48:36.480
almost like he was trying to create some drama but

568
00:48:36.559 --> 00:48:40.719
not meaning to. But then there's also confusion based on

569
00:48:40.880 --> 00:48:45.360
the condition, the medication. Just being in that environment. I

570
00:48:45.440 --> 00:48:50.079
feel confused now just back and forward there when I'm

571
00:48:50.079 --> 00:48:57.119
in there, I just it is it's quite a confusing experience.

572
00:48:57.920 --> 00:49:07.360
So he must be yeah, all over the place. And

573
00:49:07.400 --> 00:49:13.840
then they moved him to this new ward and he

574
00:49:14.000 --> 00:49:19.079
was saying, oh, that bloke one he got Uncle Sausages

575
00:49:19.159 --> 00:49:25.039
kicked out and moved, which isn't true at all. It's

576
00:49:25.039 --> 00:49:34.119
basically he was moved to the discharge ward. I'm sure

577
00:49:34.119 --> 00:49:37.960
there's a few discharge wards in the hospitals, but he

578
00:49:38.079 --> 00:49:42.280
was moved to one of the discharge wards because he's

579
00:49:42.320 --> 00:49:48.719
being discharged, although it might take a while because he

580
00:49:48.800 --> 00:49:56.400
got asked by the hospice or the discharged nurse. But

581
00:49:56.480 --> 00:50:00.039
I think she's part of the hospice as well. And

582
00:50:00.079 --> 00:50:03.199
she said, she said, Uncle Sausages, what have you? What

583
00:50:03.280 --> 00:50:06.840
have you decided? Because she she came a week before

584
00:50:07.800 --> 00:50:09.920
and she came in saying that you decided what you

585
00:50:09.960 --> 00:50:12.519
want to do yet? And he said, well, I don't

586
00:50:12.519 --> 00:50:15.079
want to go home. He didn't want to come back

587
00:50:15.119 --> 00:50:18.960
to the flat because of the mess and stuff like

588
00:50:19.000 --> 00:50:21.639
that there. She doesn't want to come back here what

589
00:50:21.719 --> 00:50:26.760
she did originally, And she said what do you want?

590
00:50:26.840 --> 00:50:29.960
He said, well, she said, do you want to go

591
00:50:30.039 --> 00:50:34.440
into a care home? She said he said, no, hospice.

592
00:50:35.239 --> 00:50:37.400
That's what he told her, which I was a little

593
00:50:37.400 --> 00:50:41.000
bit surprised about because I've never I didn't think that

594
00:50:41.119 --> 00:50:44.400
was something that you could choose to do. I thought

595
00:50:44.400 --> 00:50:47.920
it was something that you I don't know. I just

596
00:50:49.000 --> 00:50:50.960
I thought it had gone for a care home, because

597
00:50:52.199 --> 00:50:54.639
I imagine that would be a much nicer environment and he'd

598
00:50:54.679 --> 00:51:02.639
make friends and stuff, and thinking about it as possibly

599
00:51:02.880 --> 00:51:06.719
where he should have been anyway, not not like a

600
00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:10.079
care home, but in a kind of a residential home

601
00:51:12.760 --> 00:51:15.239
where he was having his he was being looked after.

602
00:51:16.119 --> 00:51:19.119
He's got a few needs, just he'd have been looked after,

603
00:51:19.239 --> 00:51:21.239
and I think that's I think he'd have been much

604
00:51:21.280 --> 00:51:25.480
happier if he'd have had that for the last few years,

605
00:51:25.559 --> 00:51:30.440
just somewhere where he had his own room, ideally getting

606
00:51:30.440 --> 00:51:34.360
fed every day, he could watch you know, I have

607
00:51:34.559 --> 00:51:37.280
an own TV. He could watch sport all day long

608
00:51:37.320 --> 00:51:40.280
if he wanted. He'd also be able to have company,

609
00:51:40.800 --> 00:51:44.159
because he loves to talk to people. He's a people's person,

610
00:51:45.280 --> 00:51:51.199
and which is ironic because he's also solitary like me.

611
00:51:53.480 --> 00:51:55.480
And I think that's part of the reason why I've

612
00:51:55.519 --> 00:51:59.559
really tried to help him over the last year or so.

613
00:52:00.400 --> 00:52:02.280
I've always been there if he needed me since I've

614
00:52:02.280 --> 00:52:05.519
been there for ten years, but it kind of got

615
00:52:05.559 --> 00:52:07.800
a bit closer over the last year because of stuff

616
00:52:07.800 --> 00:52:11.480
with his flat and bills, and he couldn't he couldn't

617
00:52:11.480 --> 00:52:14.239
communicate on the phone anymore with people, so he helped

618
00:52:14.239 --> 00:52:20.079
got me to help him do it. And he loves chatting,

619
00:52:21.760 --> 00:52:27.760
loves people really a bit like Vinny loves humans. But

620
00:52:27.800 --> 00:52:31.679
he lives a solitary life what has done where he

621
00:52:31.679 --> 00:52:35.679
doesn't see anyone really unless he goes out to the

622
00:52:35.679 --> 00:52:38.760
petrol station or goes to the chip van. They all

623
00:52:38.800 --> 00:52:42.320
know him at the chip van because he chats to everyone.

624
00:52:42.480 --> 00:52:46.719
They feel like they know him because every you know,

625
00:52:46.800 --> 00:52:51.760
once a week he's there waiting for the chips, fish

626
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:57.719
and chips and four cans of drink and a bad sausage.

627
00:52:58.480 --> 00:53:00.199
I even know what he gets now because I got

628
00:53:00.199 --> 00:53:07.880
it fro him before, mushy peas and curry sauce. I think.

629
00:53:09.199 --> 00:53:13.320
But they they really they love him in there. They're

630
00:53:13.360 --> 00:53:16.280
just because he talks then about because the thing is

631
00:53:16.400 --> 00:53:21.000
because they're I think they're I don't know what country

632
00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:29.280
they're from. Uncle Sausages does. And that's the thing. So

633
00:53:29.440 --> 00:53:32.079
Uncle Sasages hasn't He doesn't have a problem with people

634
00:53:32.119 --> 00:53:36.400
for being from other countries. It's just because his normal

635
00:53:36.440 --> 00:53:38.480
thing is. I've seen him do it with the security

636
00:53:38.480 --> 00:53:41.239
guards when we first went in to hospital. He was

637
00:53:41.280 --> 00:53:47.039
asking them where they were from specifically so he could

638
00:53:47.079 --> 00:53:50.440
talk about sport. So if he saw someone who like,

639
00:53:50.480 --> 00:53:54.719
they're from India or from Pakistan or from that kind

640
00:53:54.719 --> 00:53:58.599
of part of the world, he'd go cricket, So where

641
00:53:58.599 --> 00:54:03.280
are you from? If they said old Bangladesh and it

642
00:54:03.400 --> 00:54:11.519
goes to cricket. If if he got someone that says, oh,

643
00:54:11.519 --> 00:54:16.440
they're from Cingali or they're from Jamaica or whatever, it'd

644
00:54:16.519 --> 00:54:21.239
talk about whatever kind of probably football, you know, if

645
00:54:21.239 --> 00:54:25.760
someone is from Spain or Italy football, it kind of

646
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:28.880
go with whatever is the national sport. But if someone

647
00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:35.199
was from Australia, he'd go cricket, do you know what

648
00:54:35.199 --> 00:54:38.239
I mean. So he's kind of that's he's interesting where

649
00:54:38.280 --> 00:54:41.800
people are from. But because people aren't talking to him,

650
00:54:41.840 --> 00:54:43.679
the nurses are not and the doctors are not there

651
00:54:44.159 --> 00:54:49.079
to talk about sport. They're there to, yeah, save people's

652
00:54:49.079 --> 00:54:53.000
lives and to do their rounds, and they've got to

653
00:54:53.000 --> 00:54:59.000
get to the next person. So I think it's I

654
00:54:59.039 --> 00:55:01.480
guess since he feels like he's been silenced a bit,

655
00:55:02.360 --> 00:55:07.039
and I'm hoping that he gets out there as soon

656
00:55:07.079 --> 00:55:10.239
as possible. I hope it will be a care home

657
00:55:12.400 --> 00:55:18.920
because then he'll be around people and possibly he'll ever,

658
00:55:19.119 --> 00:55:21.039
you know, be able to have a nice chat with people,

659
00:55:21.320 --> 00:55:26.639
and I'll be able to just, I don't know, be

660
00:55:26.719 --> 00:55:30.320
himself again. But then I don't know how much of

661
00:55:30.400 --> 00:55:35.280
him not being himself is because of the see I'll

662
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:36.920
tell you what. It is breaking my heart. You know,

663
00:55:37.079 --> 00:55:40.199
this whole situation. I know it's supposed to perhaps I

664
00:55:40.199 --> 00:55:43.440
shouldn't call this to let me boy to sleep. It's hard.

665
00:55:43.599 --> 00:55:48.000
It's hard, but he doesn't seem to be himself anymore

666
00:55:48.320 --> 00:55:50.360
the way he used to. It goes in and out

667
00:55:50.360 --> 00:55:58.119
of it. It's not just personality wise. I mean, he

668
00:55:58.199 --> 00:56:00.119
was getting angry during the week and I've never I've

669
00:56:00.119 --> 00:56:03.719
seen him angry before, but he's gone through little periods

670
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:08.800
of anger and telling me off, and Okay, I will

671
00:56:08.920 --> 00:56:16.719
normally put up with that. Oh wow, Yeah, it's sometimes

672
00:56:16.760 --> 00:56:20.920
I would be like, you know, go go yourself, like

673
00:56:22.599 --> 00:56:27.760
that's it, but I can't because that would be the wrong,

674
00:56:27.880 --> 00:56:31.079
wrong thing to do. So I'm kind of just trying

675
00:56:31.119 --> 00:56:39.920
to stick with it and hope that he gets released

676
00:56:40.480 --> 00:56:46.280
or gets discharged. It's quite funny, isn't it, considering the

677
00:56:46.400 --> 00:56:48.880
nurses and the care workers. I have to deal with

678
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:53.840
discharges all day long. He's in the discharge ward, which

679
00:56:53.920 --> 00:57:01.199
there are anyway, so he is. I don't know if

680
00:57:01.199 --> 00:57:02.519
he's going to be out of there by the end

681
00:57:02.519 --> 00:57:05.440
of the week, the end of next week, Well it

682
00:57:05.559 --> 00:57:09.960
starts tomorrow, doesn't it really Monday? I don't know. But

683
00:57:10.199 --> 00:57:14.960
the nurse that he spoke to regarding getting discharged where

684
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:18.119
he'd like to go, she's on it, and they've been

685
00:57:18.159 --> 00:57:24.559
on it for They started last Thursday, not this Thursday,

686
00:57:24.920 --> 00:57:28.039
got on the one before, so they've been on it

687
00:57:28.280 --> 00:57:34.239
for over a week already, trying to find him somewhere

688
00:57:34.280 --> 00:57:44.000
to move. And if he doesn't come back here. I

689
00:57:44.039 --> 00:57:49.000
didn't realize this, they literally will stop his money and

690
00:57:49.039 --> 00:57:53.679
give him twenty pounds a week to live on. Someone

691
00:57:53.719 --> 00:57:55.440
told me that. I don't know if it's true or not,

692
00:57:58.199 --> 00:58:01.960
and I realized, he'll be getting on his meals and

693
00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:05.079
he'll be getting you know, he'll get somewhere to live

694
00:58:05.119 --> 00:58:15.039
in that, but he's twenty pounds a week. It's what

695
00:58:15.039 --> 00:58:19.480
if he wants some new clothes, what if he wants

696
00:58:19.519 --> 00:58:22.079
to buy you know what? I mean, just he wants

697
00:58:22.119 --> 00:58:25.960
to because who knows, you don't know. They're given him

698
00:58:27.440 --> 00:58:36.079
three an amount of time three and so how long

699
00:58:36.159 --> 00:58:39.000
a give? But he might, you know, he may be

700
00:58:39.159 --> 00:58:44.400
around for a lot longer. Hopefully he is. So he

701
00:58:44.519 --> 00:58:46.440
might because I said to him, when you do, if

702
00:58:46.440 --> 00:58:53.039
you get a nice room in a care home, get

703
00:58:53.079 --> 00:58:58.199
yourself a big old TV. You know, just just I

704
00:58:58.239 --> 00:59:00.440
didn't say. I didn't say you must get off or too,

705
00:59:00.719 --> 00:59:03.360
but get a nice TV. Big because he's just got

706
00:59:03.400 --> 00:59:05.800
a little one way he lives. I don't know why

707
00:59:05.880 --> 00:59:08.159
it was not little, but it's kind of quite small,

708
00:59:10.280 --> 00:59:12.840
although he likes it. He likes to set up he's

709
00:59:12.880 --> 00:59:16.599
got before. But I said, just get a massive TV

710
00:59:16.679 --> 00:59:21.480
if he can. And what's weird is he's got a

711
00:59:21.599 --> 00:59:27.400
huge collection of magazines, sports magazines like football programs and

712
00:59:27.440 --> 00:59:34.119
things like that, cricket, rugby. Yeah. I said to him,

713
00:59:34.280 --> 00:59:35.960
what do you want to do with that stuff? And

714
00:59:35.960 --> 00:59:43.199
he said, just get rid of it. I mean, he

715
00:59:43.400 --> 00:59:50.840
had his whole flat cleared out just before Christmas because

716
00:59:50.840 --> 00:59:55.599
of I'd just say his collection is collecting got out

717
00:59:55.599 --> 00:59:59.960
of hand, okay, but he still managed to keep whold

718
01:00:00.159 --> 01:00:06.719
with thousands and thousands of magazines, like every drawer, every

719
01:00:06.800 --> 01:00:14.480
cupboard's full, and now he's willing to just like just

720
01:00:14.599 --> 01:00:25.039
chuck it away, and that just seems it just seems

721
01:00:25.079 --> 01:00:31.000
wrong to do that. I mean, technically, I haven't got

722
01:00:31.000 --> 01:00:32.960
to do anything that counsel can come and do that,

723
01:00:33.039 --> 01:00:36.800
but I'd kind of like, I'll speak to him and say, look,

724
01:00:36.840 --> 01:00:39.639
is there anything personal you want me to go through

725
01:00:39.639 --> 01:00:42.920
and get rid of or get for you to take

726
01:00:42.960 --> 01:00:46.079
into the home or put into storage because he might

727
01:00:46.119 --> 01:00:48.320
have you know, he's got a big bible. I'm sure

728
01:00:48.360 --> 01:00:52.159
he doesn't want that chucked out, and he probably wants

729
01:00:52.159 --> 01:00:54.840
that to go to someone because honestly, it's like the

730
01:00:54.840 --> 01:00:58.280
size of the table massive. Someone gave it to him

731
01:00:58.320 --> 01:01:00.960
I think is uncle pay should go to him when

732
01:01:01.000 --> 01:01:06.159
he was a kid. So he's had that for forever,

733
01:01:08.039 --> 01:01:11.440
like big bound bible and it's like in a little

734
01:01:11.480 --> 01:01:14.599
booklet thing, so it's well, big booklet thing, so it's

735
01:01:14.679 --> 01:01:21.079
very kind of kept kept well. And he might have

736
01:01:21.199 --> 01:01:26.039
personal stuff. He might have photographs, you know, family photographs,

737
01:01:26.039 --> 01:01:29.400
things like that. I don't know where they are. So

738
01:01:29.480 --> 01:01:31.559
I'm going to ask him, is this stuff in your

739
01:01:31.599 --> 01:01:34.840
flat that you want me to get for you photographs,

740
01:01:35.800 --> 01:01:43.079
just I don't know any sentimental things because unless they

741
01:01:43.119 --> 01:01:46.920
allow him to come back to the flat to go

742
01:01:47.039 --> 01:01:52.880
through the stuff. But I imagine that'd be really hard

743
01:01:52.880 --> 01:01:54.360
for you. He said he doesn't want to set foot

744
01:01:54.360 --> 01:01:57.320
in the place again, but I imagine that'd be hard,

745
01:01:58.480 --> 01:02:00.280
very hard for him to go back into that flat

746
01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:05.840
now after this, because he's lived there for like thirty years,

747
01:02:05.880 --> 01:02:11.480
nearly twenty six years, ninety nine. I think he moved

748
01:02:11.519 --> 01:02:18.679
in there, So I don't know it's going to be.

749
01:02:21.480 --> 01:02:24.119
It just doesn't seem right that because I saw this

750
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:29.719
with Luke. When Luke left, left me, left us, left

751
01:02:29.719 --> 01:02:39.800
the world, his flat was completely full of stuff. His family,

752
01:02:39.920 --> 01:02:43.599
immediate family came around because I had the key to

753
01:02:43.679 --> 01:02:47.480
his flat. I had a spare key up here, so

754
01:02:47.599 --> 01:02:56.400
I let them in and they just took a few bits,

755
01:02:56.480 --> 01:03:00.280
like just like personal items like a T shirt still

756
01:03:00.280 --> 01:03:02.480
had his smell on and stuff like that, still like

757
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:05.960
his sisters and his mum just keepsakes, and that was it.

758
01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:12.440
And then they tossed me the keyback and they didn't

759
01:03:12.440 --> 01:03:14.480
want to go. They didn't want to set foot into

760
01:03:14.519 --> 01:03:21.599
that place again. And then I think a couple of

761
01:03:21.599 --> 01:03:27.679
week Yeah, then what happened is no, I didn't take

762
01:03:27.679 --> 01:03:29.719
the key back. I said to his sister, keep the key.

763
01:03:30.320 --> 01:03:32.960
I don't want to I'm not going in there anymore either,

764
01:03:34.480 --> 01:03:36.119
and I want to go in I didn't want to

765
01:03:36.159 --> 01:03:42.440
go in there. And so basically then another friend of

766
01:03:42.480 --> 01:03:46.840
his got ahold of the key, was given the key,

767
01:03:46.960 --> 01:03:49.760
and he went in there and started taking stuff out

768
01:03:51.639 --> 01:03:54.880
bit by bit, over like a week or two, got

769
01:03:54.920 --> 01:03:57.039
rid of as much as he could, anything that he

770
01:03:57.039 --> 01:04:06.480
could sell really to be honest or use. And then

771
01:04:07.760 --> 01:04:11.719
when the council came round to empty the place, this

772
01:04:11.800 --> 01:04:17.639
is something that I found very difficult actually, because they

773
01:04:17.639 --> 01:04:26.320
were very I only use the word unprofessional, but to

774
01:04:26.400 --> 01:04:30.599
be fair, what they're doing, they probably don't hire people

775
01:04:30.639 --> 01:04:35.320
with It's kind of perhaps they don't even think beyond

776
01:04:35.400 --> 01:04:39.920
what they're doing. They don't realize that actually, when they're

777
01:04:39.920 --> 01:04:45.599
empty in someone's flat of belongings, Okay, that person's not

778
01:04:45.679 --> 01:04:50.079
there anymore, but the other people around in the other flats,

779
01:04:50.559 --> 01:04:55.440
the neighbors may be very close to that person still

780
01:04:55.440 --> 01:05:00.679
be grieving, and the way they were treating his stuff,

781
01:05:02.119 --> 01:05:04.559
and we literally heard one and say, what a bunch

782
01:05:04.599 --> 01:05:07.599
of junk as he was chucking it onto the back

783
01:05:07.639 --> 01:05:10.679
of a lorry and he was smashing this stuff up

784
01:05:10.800 --> 01:05:15.079
with a big hammer, that big mallet thing like outside

785
01:05:15.119 --> 01:05:21.679
the front, just to make more room. And I just

786
01:05:21.880 --> 01:05:30.079
found that so disrespectful. But I don't think they did

787
01:05:30.159 --> 01:05:34.280
it with disrespect. I think they I think maybe they

788
01:05:34.440 --> 01:05:37.760
just to them, it's just a job. They're clearing out

789
01:05:37.760 --> 01:05:42.559
a flat. They don't know what the situation is. A

790
01:05:42.599 --> 01:05:46.800
lot of people leave flats. They just move out, you know,

791
01:05:47.000 --> 01:05:50.639
it's and leave all their stuff in there, so that

792
01:05:50.960 --> 01:05:53.039
before they know it could be just someone that's just

793
01:05:53.079 --> 01:05:55.760
moved to a different town or just hadn't paid the

794
01:05:55.800 --> 01:05:59.239
rent for two years and skipped, you know, ran out,

795
01:06:00.440 --> 01:06:02.719
so they didn't they didn't know what the situation was.

796
01:06:07.239 --> 01:06:13.199
But still just yeah, I don't know, it's hard to

797
01:06:13.280 --> 01:06:17.000
explain it. I mean, I'm pretty sure if i'd have

798
01:06:17.039 --> 01:06:21.920
done that job, I might I might have said the

799
01:06:21.960 --> 01:06:23.880
same thing. I might have liked, Oh what a bunch

800
01:06:23.960 --> 01:06:28.400
of rubbish? What's all this stuff? I might have done,

801
01:06:29.159 --> 01:06:31.039
And maybe I might even do now, if you know,

802
01:06:31.280 --> 01:06:33.599
but maybe in the past, if I because I've had

803
01:06:33.679 --> 01:06:37.400
jobs where I've cleaned and stuff, so maybe I'd have

804
01:06:37.800 --> 01:06:44.679
had the same attitude. Perhaps I've become a bit more.

805
01:06:45.519 --> 01:06:52.079
I've always been quite sensitive, but I think I was

806
01:06:52.119 --> 01:06:58.000
more sensitive about myself towards myself when I was younger.

807
01:06:59.079 --> 01:07:02.679
I've become more sensitive towards other people as I got older.

808
01:07:04.679 --> 01:07:08.400
It's yeah, I think that's probably what it was. So

809
01:07:08.599 --> 01:07:12.800
I've always been a sensitive person, I would say to

810
01:07:12.840 --> 01:07:16.840
a degree depending on the situation, depending on my mood.

811
01:07:18.559 --> 01:07:25.960
But yeah, so I don't really want someone to be

812
01:07:26.000 --> 01:07:31.719
doing that with uncle Sausages flat, going in there shouting

813
01:07:31.760 --> 01:07:38.360
out about how whatever messy it is, or orso this

814
01:07:39.039 --> 01:07:48.519
rubbish or because that would just be disrespectful. So I'm

815
01:07:48.599 --> 01:07:53.440
kind of in my in my mind thinking, well, maybe

816
01:07:53.559 --> 01:07:56.800
I'll say to Uncle's Sausages, if you want me to

817
01:07:56.920 --> 01:08:00.880
start bagging stuff up, clearing out the place so that

818
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:03.920
when the council come, all they've got to do is

819
01:08:03.960 --> 01:08:06.719
just get rid of the furniture. So I can't I

820
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:08.480
got nowhere to put the furniture, but I can get

821
01:08:08.559 --> 01:08:12.599
rid of the belongings and see if he's anything he needs. So,

822
01:08:13.400 --> 01:08:16.159
you know, because he's got thousands of well not thousands,

823
01:08:16.199 --> 01:08:20.920
but probably hundreds of newspaper articles on various sporting events,

824
01:08:21.560 --> 01:08:27.199
he's got tickets from sporting events that he's attended. Yeah,

825
01:08:28.760 --> 01:08:34.119
so much, because he loves sports. That's his it's not

826
01:08:34.199 --> 01:08:40.399
just a hobby, it's his life. But it's weird today.

827
01:08:41.880 --> 01:08:46.520
He said, the iPad's not working, or it wasn't working properly,

828
01:08:46.600 --> 01:08:50.760
or he couldn't get it to work. And I said, well,

829
01:08:50.319 --> 01:08:55.279
I'll try and talk it through with you. And I said,

830
01:08:55.279 --> 01:08:58.880
so you want the BBC app don't you actually want

831
01:08:58.920 --> 01:09:02.760
to watch Wimbledon? He said, oh, I can't involve with Wimbledon.

832
01:09:04.600 --> 01:09:06.600
I didn't think I'd ever hear that sentence come out

833
01:09:06.640 --> 01:09:11.720
of his mouth. Didn't care about Wimbledon, the wimbled men's finals,

834
01:09:12.680 --> 01:09:14.600
which is one of the biggest sporting events in this

835
01:09:14.720 --> 01:09:19.720
country in a year, it's one of the biggest events, well,

836
01:09:19.840 --> 01:09:24.279
the men's and the female finals, and maybe doubles and

837
01:09:24.439 --> 01:09:26.960
the wheelchair as well, but just the finals, you know,

838
01:09:27.000 --> 01:09:31.880
the final weekend. That's what I'm trying to say. And

839
01:09:31.920 --> 01:09:35.119
he just didn't have any interest. Yeah, he's been watching Wimbledon.

840
01:09:35.399 --> 01:09:37.640
He's had it on TV for the last two weeks

841
01:09:40.319 --> 01:09:43.520
in the other ward because he had a TV which

842
01:09:43.600 --> 01:09:47.439
was on the kind of not a ceiling, but wasn't

843
01:09:47.439 --> 01:09:49.359
on the ceiling, but it was quite high up, so

844
01:09:49.399 --> 01:09:51.920
we had that and it was playing the whole time,

845
01:09:52.000 --> 01:09:58.600
you know, all day long. So yeah, it's kind of strange,

846
01:10:00.199 --> 01:10:09.800
very very very strange. I do hope though, if he

847
01:10:09.920 --> 01:10:15.239
gets to go into a care home that is not

848
01:10:15.359 --> 01:10:20.960
too far away, because it's cost me a fortune getting

849
01:10:20.960 --> 01:10:31.000
to him the last three and a bit weeks, and

850
01:10:31.199 --> 01:10:33.439
the further he is away, the less I'm going to

851
01:10:33.439 --> 01:10:36.520
be able to travel to see him. Because it's not

852
01:10:36.640 --> 01:10:41.560
just about expense, which is quite a big thing, but

853
01:10:42.840 --> 01:10:47.960
it's also time and leaving a little Vinie on his

854
01:10:48.039 --> 01:10:52.319
own for too long. I know, technically I should be

855
01:10:52.359 --> 01:10:56.439
able to leave him all day long, but he's never

856
01:10:56.479 --> 01:11:01.560
been left alone. And since I've had him, I've been

857
01:11:01.600 --> 01:11:06.640
with him pretty much twenty four hours a day for

858
01:11:06.840 --> 01:11:10.800
two and a half years. However long it's been, so

859
01:11:14.000 --> 01:11:17.840
to suddenly be leaving him alone for five six hours

860
01:11:19.439 --> 01:11:25.560
is I think it's been a bit traumatic for him

861
01:11:25.720 --> 01:11:32.640
and he never gets used to it. I mean I

862
01:11:32.640 --> 01:11:36.680
have left him alone for a few hours, like really rarely,

863
01:11:37.600 --> 01:11:41.319
very rare, but generally if I go out, I take

864
01:11:41.359 --> 01:11:46.600
him with me pretty much all the time, and I

865
01:11:46.600 --> 01:11:49.800
haven't been able to do that. And you know why

866
01:11:49.840 --> 01:11:52.359
I didn't go. I didn't take him to the hospital.

867
01:11:52.680 --> 01:11:55.520
Organized to take him to the hospital, but I couldn't

868
01:11:55.560 --> 01:11:57.520
take him. You know why not. This was a couple

869
01:11:57.560 --> 01:12:00.359
of weeks ago because I was visit is it in

870
01:12:00.359 --> 01:12:05.319
that other neighbor who was on oxygen, and I thought

871
01:12:05.359 --> 01:12:07.920
i'd go and visit her. Can't take Vinnie into that ward,

872
01:12:08.720 --> 01:12:11.199
so I'd have to leave him here. Because you know,

873
01:12:11.239 --> 01:12:14.359
I was visiting Uncle's Sausages. I thought I visited her

874
01:12:14.399 --> 01:12:17.800
as well, So I didn't take Vinnie, So Uncle Sausages

875
01:12:17.840 --> 01:12:20.399
didn't get to say Vinnie, who he's been looking forward

876
01:12:20.439 --> 01:12:25.399
to seeing. Then I find out what she's been up to.

877
01:12:27.359 --> 01:12:34.840
Absolutely amazing. Let it go, baby, let it go. I

878
01:12:34.920 --> 01:12:42.920
have no you haven't, I know, I haven't. Oh, so

879
01:12:43.359 --> 01:12:52.720
you know this. I'm hoping that something happens in a

880
01:12:52.760 --> 01:13:00.600
positive way as far as his being moved out this week.

881
01:13:01.920 --> 01:13:04.039
It'd be great if he can find somewhere or if

882
01:13:04.039 --> 01:13:10.039
they can find somewhere for him that's relatively close to hear,

883
01:13:11.520 --> 01:13:13.920
although he's not going to ask for that, but he

884
01:13:14.520 --> 01:13:17.279
you know, as long as it's central, even central in

885
01:13:17.359 --> 01:13:20.239
the town. I can get to if it's central, I

886
01:13:20.239 --> 01:13:21.920
can get there a lot quick, a lot easier than

887
01:13:22.079 --> 01:13:24.880
where he is at the moment, you know, if it's

888
01:13:24.920 --> 01:13:36.039
just one bus rather than two buses, and then I can,

889
01:13:36.199 --> 01:13:44.800
you know, just he'll have people around him. And all

890
01:13:44.840 --> 01:13:47.039
the nurses were saying that they liked him. He was

891
01:13:47.039 --> 01:13:53.119
a lovely man, and you know he's he's a friendly bloke.

892
01:14:04.439 --> 01:14:06.640
I think he's just, you know, kind of had enough

893
01:14:06.680 --> 01:14:13.520
of being there. Really just wants to wants to get out,

894
01:14:14.199 --> 01:14:17.239
wants to have a bit of freedom. He wants his parole.

895
01:14:17.479 --> 01:14:20.439
That's what he wants. He wants his paroles, so he

896
01:14:20.479 --> 01:14:29.319
does bless him. So it was really weird. I didn't

897
01:14:30.000 --> 01:14:36.640
made an image yesterday used chat GBT. All I asked

898
01:14:36.840 --> 01:14:46.239
is make a man, elderly man made of sausages. Okay,

899
01:14:46.319 --> 01:14:51.399
his uncle sausages. Isn't he have sitting on a bed,

900
01:14:51.960 --> 01:14:57.359
Have Jack Russell next to the bed licking his lips.

901
01:14:59.279 --> 01:15:05.520
And then I said, add a whiskey, wispy white hair

902
01:15:05.760 --> 01:15:12.720
or wavy white hair, and a baseball cap. And the

903
01:15:12.760 --> 01:15:19.880
ironic thing is the face actually looks like him, like

904
01:15:20.039 --> 01:15:23.279
he's got the same kind of same features I'm talking

905
01:15:23.319 --> 01:15:26.079
about the same kind of eyes, same kind of mouth,

906
01:15:26.159 --> 01:15:32.560
same kind of jaw. He was uncanny. It's really strange,

907
01:15:32.960 --> 01:15:36.039
especially with that baseball cap and the hair, because he's

908
01:15:36.039 --> 01:15:38.079
got quite long hair and it's very well, you know,

909
01:15:38.960 --> 01:15:42.479
quite you know, I don't know, it looks like him,

910
01:15:42.840 --> 01:15:45.159
not the Sausages Park, because he's not made of sausages.

911
01:15:47.159 --> 01:15:51.359
We call him uncalled sausages or Vinnie does, because that's

912
01:15:51.399 --> 01:15:55.520
the thing that he gets thro him. He goes to

913
01:15:55.600 --> 01:15:57.479
the I don't know if he goes up the road

914
01:15:57.640 --> 01:16:00.239
to the shops, but he gets these sausage is in

915
01:16:00.319 --> 01:16:03.479
a pack. And there's those robbery ones that I don't

916
01:16:03.520 --> 01:16:06.000
think are fit for human consumption, but I think they

917
01:16:06.000 --> 01:16:12.159
are sold for humans and their robbery and savaloi ish

918
01:16:12.239 --> 01:16:18.920
I think. Never liked sabalois, could not, oh savalois. I

919
01:16:18.960 --> 01:16:20.880
couldn't believe when people used to come into the chip

920
01:16:20.880 --> 01:16:24.279
shop and actually ask for a savoy. They were willing

921
01:16:24.359 --> 01:16:30.439
to pay to eat a savalrooi. Literally, they were willing

922
01:16:30.479 --> 01:16:34.760
to give their own money. You couldn't. Honestly, I wouldn't.

923
01:16:34.880 --> 01:16:38.079
I wouldn't eat it if you gave me money. Savalois.

924
01:16:38.640 --> 01:16:41.760
I never liked them, but anyway, it's there. There's kind

925
01:16:41.760 --> 01:16:46.359
of those kinds of sausages robbery, not really sausages, but

926
01:16:46.520 --> 01:16:50.920
this one air. He loves them, absolutely loves them. He'd

927
01:16:50.920 --> 01:16:53.279
eat a whole pack if he could in one sitting.

928
01:16:56.039 --> 01:16:57.800
He doesn't get to, but he would if he could.

929
01:16:58.960 --> 01:17:04.880
So that's why he cause Uncle sausages, Uncle Sausages. He's

930
01:17:04.880 --> 01:17:07.640
also got a lady who doesn't have a dog, but

931
01:17:07.680 --> 01:17:12.239
she likes. All the dogs love her around here because

932
01:17:12.279 --> 01:17:17.319
she's they all call her Nanny treats. So she's known

933
01:17:17.359 --> 01:17:21.199
as Nanny Treats by all the dogs. Vinny started that

934
01:17:21.239 --> 01:17:26.079
one as well, and all the dogs either. It's quite

935
01:17:26.119 --> 01:17:28.279
weird because some of the other dog owners are starting

936
01:17:28.279 --> 01:17:35.079
to call her nanny treats. That's funny. If you say

937
01:17:35.159 --> 01:17:37.640
something enough people to start to pick it up, wuldn't they?

938
01:17:37.680 --> 01:17:42.600
I guess, Oh, it's Nanny treats. But wow, it's catching

939
01:17:42.640 --> 01:17:46.600
on baby. But Vinny. If I actually say to Vinny,

940
01:17:46.920 --> 01:17:51.600
there's Nanny treats, and he looks up like where you

941
01:17:51.600 --> 01:17:54.159
could say, oh, well, I've just said the word treats,

942
01:17:54.680 --> 01:17:58.880
but no, he's looking for nanny treats. He knows the

943
01:17:58.880 --> 01:18:03.640
difference between just saying treats and nanny treats, and he

944
01:18:03.680 --> 01:18:07.000
can spot off from a mile away, which is an exaggeration,

945
01:18:07.119 --> 01:18:12.800
but he can see her, you know, you know when

946
01:18:12.840 --> 01:18:15.039
you can see the outline of someone from a distance,

947
01:18:15.359 --> 01:18:18.199
but maybe not see their face properly to not really

948
01:18:18.239 --> 01:18:23.239
know whether or not to wave to them. He knows

949
01:18:23.319 --> 01:18:27.720
who it is. Maybe he's just got much better eyesight

950
01:18:27.800 --> 01:18:33.479
than me, and I don't generally, but sometimes I let

951
01:18:33.560 --> 01:18:35.520
him off the lead. Well, I let go of the

952
01:18:35.600 --> 01:18:41.000
lead and he runs to her, because I know that

953
01:18:41.039 --> 01:18:46.000
once he gets to her, he's not leaving her side.

954
01:18:46.640 --> 01:18:49.920
He will not leave her because I literally have to

955
01:18:50.000 --> 01:18:54.159
drag him away because he will eat every single treat

956
01:18:54.199 --> 01:18:59.880
that she gives him. He adores her, absolutely adores her,

957
01:19:00.239 --> 01:19:03.399
And even if she didn't give him any treats ever again,

958
01:19:03.600 --> 01:19:06.720
he'd still get excited to see her because he loves her,

959
01:19:07.119 --> 01:19:12.119
because he just she adores him. I mean, she loves

960
01:19:12.159 --> 01:19:14.760
all the dogs, but I think he's one of her

961
01:19:14.800 --> 01:19:17.760
favorite ones because he's been and there's another one who

962
01:19:17.760 --> 01:19:20.920
lives next door, but this one's been in a house

963
01:19:21.239 --> 01:19:24.319
at least once. She let him in and she ran

964
01:19:24.399 --> 01:19:30.159
her around and he loved it. Absolutely loved it. So

965
01:19:30.199 --> 01:19:34.439
she's so it's Nanny treats and you've got Uncle sausages.

966
01:19:36.560 --> 01:19:39.960
There's no one else at the moment. Really. There's a

967
01:19:40.000 --> 01:19:42.680
few people that I see it, you know, when I

968
01:19:43.199 --> 01:19:46.680
take him out, but there hasn't got any nicknames for

969
01:19:46.720 --> 01:19:49.479
any of them. There's Del Boy, but that's a different person.

970
01:19:49.560 --> 01:19:53.039
That's not the one in the hospital. That's just a

971
01:19:53.039 --> 01:19:56.439
wheeler and dealer that me and Luke used to call

972
01:19:56.520 --> 01:20:00.279
Del Boy. He worked on the market for the alas,

973
01:20:00.319 --> 01:20:03.199
like selling stuff out of his garage and just it'd

974
01:20:03.239 --> 01:20:06.359
buy stuff and sell it. That's what it was. Market trader,

975
01:20:07.399 --> 01:20:14.479
but we call him Del Boy. Other than that, there

976
01:20:14.560 --> 01:20:19.640
was pants, but he's don't live around her anymore. The

977
01:20:19.720 --> 01:20:23.159
lawnmower man, he doesn't live anymore because he'd spent about

978
01:20:24.039 --> 01:20:29.439
literally about eight hours mowing a tiny little beer grass.

979
01:20:31.159 --> 01:20:34.159
It taking so many pills or whatever he's took, and

980
01:20:34.199 --> 01:20:40.680
he would literally just be standing there one lader grass

981
01:20:40.720 --> 01:20:44.119
at a time. But with a lawnmower, I don't know

982
01:20:44.159 --> 01:20:46.399
how it's even possible. And all we hear is that

983
01:20:46.520 --> 01:20:51.439
lawnmower starting and stopping, starting and stopping from morning till

984
01:20:51.520 --> 01:20:56.960
night or day not so. I called him lawnmower man,

985
01:20:57.479 --> 01:21:11.239
among other things. We have a name other people. No,

986
01:21:11.319 --> 01:21:15.920
that's it. Really, I'm now beginning to wonder what my

987
01:21:16.000 --> 01:21:25.000
nickname is. Oh please, I'm worried to even ask. But

988
01:21:25.079 --> 01:21:29.720
that's it. Really, that's really what's happened this week been

989
01:21:30.039 --> 01:21:38.600
backward and forward. Dealt with taxi drivers and bus drivers, passengers,

990
01:21:40.520 --> 01:21:46.159
the heat, all of the nurses, and it's been a

991
01:21:46.279 --> 01:21:50.880
very strange week. And then Uncle's sausages started to get

992
01:21:51.239 --> 01:21:58.319
a little bit agitated thinking that people were doing stuff,

993
01:21:58.359 --> 01:22:03.319
and like ah, he got very very complicated, very difficult.

994
01:22:05.359 --> 01:22:12.720
But it seems to be hopefully heading towards the right

995
01:22:12.760 --> 01:22:20.279
direction in a sense of him being discharged. That's what

996
01:22:20.319 --> 01:22:27.239
I mean by the right direction, and fingers crossed, he

997
01:22:27.279 --> 01:22:34.119
will end up in a nice place where he's he

998
01:22:34.159 --> 01:22:40.319
feels okay. I know what I mean when I say that,

999
01:22:40.359 --> 01:22:44.560
but I still I am not sure what it means whatever okay,

1000
01:22:44.680 --> 01:22:51.920
is that he feels I want to use a word happy,

1001
01:22:52.000 --> 01:22:56.239
but that's probably the last word. Maybe, But I'd like

1002
01:22:56.359 --> 01:23:01.720
him to feel that he's been looked after and that

1003
01:23:01.840 --> 01:23:04.680
he feels safe. And yeah, I guess that's it, isn't

1004
01:23:04.680 --> 01:23:08.079
it to feel safe, and to feel looked after, to

1005
01:23:08.159 --> 01:23:14.760
feel heard when he speaks, to be listened to, and maybe,

1006
01:23:14.920 --> 01:23:20.439
you know, make a couple of friends along the way.

1007
01:23:20.560 --> 01:23:30.119
And yeah, very strange times. All my glasses just fell off. Well,

1008
01:23:30.159 --> 01:23:34.760
actually I just what did I do? I did something

1009
01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:37.079
and I knocked my glasses off with my thumb. I

1010
01:23:37.159 --> 01:23:39.520
didn't just fall off at all. But you want to

1011
01:23:39.560 --> 01:23:41.079
know that? Why did I have to tell you the truth?

1012
01:23:41.479 --> 01:23:45.640
Damn it? So I'm going to have a Chelsea bun

1013
01:23:45.720 --> 01:23:51.279
with icy and a big cherry on the top, pretend

1014
01:23:51.279 --> 01:23:55.039
it's no and when I eat that, and then I

1015
01:23:55.119 --> 01:23:57.159
might make myself another cup of tea as well to

1016
01:23:57.199 --> 01:24:07.159
have that with. And then I will possibly edit this recording.

1017
01:24:10.600 --> 01:24:16.199
It's now what time is it? It's four o three,

1018
01:24:17.159 --> 01:24:19.239
so I've been talking for nearly an hour and a half.

1019
01:24:22.760 --> 01:24:27.560
I'll probably watched maybe I'll watch a move V A

1020
01:24:27.840 --> 01:24:36.079
move I don't know, and then I'll have an early

1021
01:24:36.159 --> 01:24:39.640
night tonight, even though I spent half a day in bed. Oh,

1022
01:24:40.000 --> 01:24:43.520
I woke up. I just remembered, do you know what?

1023
01:24:43.640 --> 01:24:47.680
Here's how this is changing me. I woke up this morning.

1024
01:24:48.800 --> 01:24:51.239
I went to bed at eight, which I've been doing

1025
01:24:51.239 --> 01:24:58.199
a little bit during the week. Yeah, I just I'm

1026
01:24:58.279 --> 01:25:01.000
kind of ready to go to bed at that time,

1027
01:25:01.479 --> 01:25:03.199
so we're in a bit of eight. Woke up at

1028
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:10.079
half oh yeah, I woke up at half twelve. I

1029
01:25:10.119 --> 01:25:12.199
woke up a couple of times in that period as well,

1030
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:20.000
including getting a phone call. And I had this dream

1031
01:25:22.079 --> 01:25:26.560
where I actually said out loud and I felt it

1032
01:25:26.640 --> 01:25:32.640
that it's the first time I've ever been happy, And

1033
01:25:32.680 --> 01:25:42.279
it involved a lady involved fall in love, and it

1034
01:25:42.399 --> 01:25:44.840
was weird. I was kind of pursuing her, not in

1035
01:25:44.880 --> 01:25:48.520
a kind of weird way, but just but she was

1036
01:25:48.760 --> 01:25:52.279
allowing me in a sense like she I don't know.

1037
01:25:52.560 --> 01:25:54.680
It was a weird one because a dream, so it's

1038
01:25:54.720 --> 01:25:59.119
all completely involved elephants and swings and stuff. You know,

1039
01:25:59.119 --> 01:26:04.880
it could be ice scream, all kinds of weird things involved.

1040
01:26:06.159 --> 01:26:18.159
But basically I remember saying to her in this stream,

1041
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:20.279
telling her that I loved her or I love her

1042
01:26:20.359 --> 01:26:22.640
and I want to spend the rest of my life

1043
01:26:22.680 --> 01:26:27.760
with her or something like that. And she was concerned.

1044
01:26:27.760 --> 01:26:30.239
She said, how long was that going to be? I

1045
01:26:30.279 --> 01:26:32.159
said why? She said, well, I've got things to do,

1046
01:26:32.479 --> 01:26:36.479
I've got to make plans. So it was weird, and

1047
01:26:36.479 --> 01:26:38.840
then I woke up, but there was that whole thing

1048
01:26:38.880 --> 01:26:43.600
of like, okay, it's the first time I felt happy,

1049
01:26:44.159 --> 01:26:49.520
like that was the first time, and it was a

1050
01:26:49.600 --> 01:26:55.960
strange time to wake up, like okay, brilliant, and I'm

1051
01:26:56.000 --> 01:26:59.960
partially awake, you know, because half twelve I'll be spending

1052
01:27:00.039 --> 01:27:04.560
a fair bit of time in bed yesterday afternoon or

1053
01:27:04.640 --> 01:27:11.239
during the day actually, and the boxing was on Live Boxing,

1054
01:27:13.000 --> 01:27:17.119
which was multiple world title fights, well a couple, yeah,

1055
01:27:17.800 --> 01:27:20.720
So I just I thought, no, I'm not going to

1056
01:27:20.800 --> 01:27:23.399
watch it. I'm going to go back to bed because

1057
01:27:23.479 --> 01:27:25.840
you know, I don't get up in the middle of

1058
01:27:25.840 --> 01:27:31.039
the night anymore to watch boxing. And this little voice,

1059
01:27:31.399 --> 01:27:33.319
well it was not really little voice, but a thought

1060
01:27:33.359 --> 01:27:37.840
came into my head said why are you putting it off?

1061
01:27:38.760 --> 01:27:43.159
Why put off something that you enjoy? And I thought

1062
01:27:43.159 --> 01:27:51.000
of Uncle sausages. I thought, yeah, why am I putting

1063
01:27:51.039 --> 01:27:55.520
that off? Why am I not sitting up? Okay, it's

1064
01:27:55.640 --> 01:27:57.960
disruptive to the next day because I'm going to be

1065
01:27:57.960 --> 01:28:05.039
tired all day Sunday. But at the same time, it's

1066
01:28:05.039 --> 01:28:07.640
a lie. It's a live event, it's a big event

1067
01:28:07.800 --> 01:28:11.760
in a boxing calendar, and it was a really good

1068
01:28:11.840 --> 01:28:19.039
event as well. Every fight was good. Why why am

1069
01:28:19.079 --> 01:28:22.239
I just like and I'll go to bed, and I

1070
01:28:22.279 --> 01:28:24.680
need to make sure on bed to at least four

1071
01:28:24.680 --> 01:28:27.640
o'clock because it's twelve thirty. It's too early to be

1072
01:28:27.640 --> 01:28:33.039
getting up. So this whole thing seems to be changing

1073
01:28:33.079 --> 01:28:37.680
my attitude a little bit to the whole idea of

1074
01:28:37.720 --> 01:28:44.159
putting stuff off. Yeah, anyway, it's good. It was a

1075
01:28:44.199 --> 01:28:48.840
good night, and I've been tired all day bless. But

1076
01:28:49.039 --> 01:28:53.239
also in a few weeks time, there's a there's the

1077
01:28:53.399 --> 01:28:58.600
Canelo Crawford fight, which is is it September I think?

1078
01:28:59.359 --> 01:29:01.279
But that that that's going to be on during the

1079
01:29:01.399 --> 01:29:04.920
night and I'm watching it hopefully. I'm going to watch

1080
01:29:04.960 --> 01:29:10.880
that because that's arguably the biggest fight of the year,

1081
01:29:12.399 --> 01:29:17.880
arguably just from the sense of the two biggest names

1082
01:29:17.920 --> 01:29:23.600
in boxing fighting each other. It's huge, two unified world

1083
01:29:23.680 --> 01:29:32.560
champions fighting each other. I mean it, Yeah, it's quite

1084
01:29:32.720 --> 01:29:36.479
rare that that happens. It does happen, but this is, like,

1085
01:29:36.760 --> 01:29:40.439
you know, it's a big deal in the boxing world.

1086
01:29:40.439 --> 01:29:41.920
So I'm going to be watching that, and that's going

1087
01:29:42.000 --> 01:29:45.039
to be early hours in the morning on I think

1088
01:29:45.119 --> 01:29:55.079
September twelfth or thirteenth, something like that or fourteenth. Yeah,

1089
01:29:55.239 --> 01:29:57.680
and then next week is the world heavyweight title fight,

1090
01:29:58.039 --> 01:30:01.520
but that's in England, so that's good. And that's Duboir

1091
01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:09.319
against Usik for all the belts, so that's something to

1092
01:30:09.359 --> 01:30:14.119
look forward to. So I hope that Uncle Sausages by

1093
01:30:14.199 --> 01:30:20.239
next weekend, Uncle Sausages is out of the hospital, living

1094
01:30:20.399 --> 01:30:25.319
in a decent place, I mean where, you know, somewhere

1095
01:30:25.319 --> 01:30:31.520
that he wants to be, that he's happy with. And

1096
01:30:31.560 --> 01:30:36.399
I'm sitting here watching the boxing with Little Vinny. That's

1097
01:30:36.520 --> 01:30:43.000
my eating some pizza. I hope. Yeah, that's my dream.

1098
01:30:43.479 --> 01:30:46.319
So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember

1099
01:30:46.840 --> 01:30:50.279
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

1100
01:30:50.319 --> 01:30:55.239
be happy. Be gentle of yourself. He deserves to feel safe.

1101
01:30:58.079 --> 01:31:01.800
Lots of love. Five