Aug. 3, 2025

(no music) Uncle Sausages is in Sausage Heaven | Whisper Sunday | LMBYTS #1403 | Jason Newland | 3rd August 2025

(no music) Uncle Sausages is in Sausage Heaven | Whisper Sunday | LMBYTS #1403 | Jason Newland | 3rd August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason new Land. Please only listen when you can safely

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close your eyes.

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This is.

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Whisper Sunday. This is Sunday is Sunday. Yeah, So I'm

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going to talk about some stuff todays.

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This might not.

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Be the correct thing to listen to go to sleep,

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because I'm just gonna talk about how I'm feeling.

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It's a start off with h kind of.

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I'll just say it and might we'll just say instead

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of being around the bush, of course, sausages passed away

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on during the night last night. Not it was actually

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after I found out after I made the recording yesterday.

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So it's during Friday night. He passed away peacefully. And

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it's really weird. It's just I can't I can't grasp

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by my mind around what's happened. It just doesn't make

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sense to me.

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Logically, I can get it. He was ill.

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And he died, you know, he had a serious illness

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and his organs shut down and he passed away. It's

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it's a simple, really, But at the same time, six

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weeks ago he was fine, but he wasn't. But he

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he felt fine. It's just weird, just in such a

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short time, especially the last week.

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I can't.

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I felt guilty because of the COVID. I wasn't able

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to visit him for a week. I saw him twice

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before he left, so I saw him on Thursday and Friday,

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and I knew that he was near the end. The

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nurses said that, you know, he had hours, if not

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days left, so I knew that. So it's not a

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shock in a sense, but it's an overall shock to

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my life.

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Yeah, I just I'm just confused, very confused. Yes, I can't.

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Yeah, I'm trying to make sense of it in a

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positive way. You know, I'm not sitting here feeling sorry

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for myself or being overly dramatic or I don't think.

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But why have noticed?

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Wow? If I noticed is.

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Yesterday I was very irritable, to the point of wanting

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to shout out the window for the neighbors to shut

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the fuck up.

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So I say, I was really if I.

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Did shout, but not out of the window, because I'm

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making so much noise and it was bugging me. I mean,

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it bugs me anyway, but this is like on a

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it was bugging me on a different level of intensity

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and I wanted to do something. I wanted to physically

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do something, which is I used to be when I

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was younger. And i'm you know, a bit more chilled

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with age and just not just age, but with practice

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and purposely it sort of trying to calm myself down.

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And I had a.

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Little retaste of that feelings, and yeah, I didn't like it.

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Anger.

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I guess I just had a bit of anger in me.

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I am angry about him.

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And this is sad because it's not.

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Okay, this is not necessarily logical or nice.

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But I know some horrible people.

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I know some people that are just they've got no

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redeeming qualities. Maybe they have, but it's hidden from me,

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and they've done horrible things to people, and they continue

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to do it. And and you've got Uncle Sausages, who

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didn't cause problems for anyone. Really, he's just kept himself,

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is a nice man, loved them, very passionate about sport,

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excited every day.

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About the next day coming up.

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Now, I'm not saying I think other people should suffer

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instead of him. That's not what I'm saying. I just

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don't think he should have suffered. If we push it

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even further, really, he deserves to be alive more than

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me because he's nicer. He's a nicer person than me.

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It's really he appreciated.

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Being alive more than I ever have. You know, I'm

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miserable old kid. A lot of the time he was happy.

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He was a happy man, and that just makes me

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feel a bit.

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Of a fraud or unappreciateive.

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Towards what I do. They have, which at the moment

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is I guess I've got a degree of health. I

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don't know what my health is like, but I'm here.

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I don't feel healthy, to be honest, but I feel

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I'm here. I feel better than I did last week,

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that's for sure, But or do I I don't know

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what days it's Sunday, Monday. You know when I had COVID.

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I mean, I didn't feel great then, But maybe I

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am just feeling sorry for myself. But I don't think

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I am.

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I'm just upset. And then there's the whole.

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I mean, I feel bad that I didn't get to

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see him for that week because he was upset with me.

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I was trying to explain to him I was ill, Okay,

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you just come and bring me some drinks, And I

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said no.

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I'm ill.

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You don't don't get it. I'm ready, And it's very

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hard to tell someone that's terminally ill the ure l

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was a cold and expect them to have some kind

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of sympathy. Now I didn't know it is COVID, but

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I mean, COVID is a cold, isn't it.

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It's a flu.

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It's that people have at different levels. Mine wasn't bad.

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I was just ill and I was then.

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I was recovered.

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My uncle had and he didn't recover back into Fairy twenty.

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So that's.

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The reason why I didn't go into hospital, well, apart

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from the fact that it's against the law. But once

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I found out was COVID, now I know some people

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would just say, Okay, I'm going to go and visit

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my friend.

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I'm going to carry on what I'm doing.

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The rules don't apply to me now, I know, And

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maybe in the past. I don't know if i'd have

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been like that in the.

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Past, but I like to think I wouldn't because I

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think my uncle.

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Was ill, so he was very poorly and COVID got him,

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so COVID finished him off. I didn't want to do

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that to other people, because you know, Uncle's sausages. His

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was peaceful. If I had gone in there with COVID,

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his last week might have been atrocious.

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So I don't. Yeah, I know, I've already talked about that.

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The idea of like spreading COVID to people, It's not

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really my thing, even colds, because I know some people

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didn't get a message about this and thinking you know

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you are, but about you know, having like a low

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immune system and stuff and doing the right thing sometimes.

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Is the good idea. Last year, I went to see

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a nurse to have my annual check up thing.

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My stomach's curculing, so my anal chatter, my anal chatter,

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my anal.

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Check up.

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Is cause of the pipolar and I'm on medications. So

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they checked my liver and my kidneys, my I suppose,

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my heart, my blood and you know they are that

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check in to make sure that I'm okay, which is

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a positive thing. Mean last time they found out that

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my blood sugar level was very low. Yeah, when they're

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gonna give me my next medical So I stopped having

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sugar and cut down. I've not cut down completely, but

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I have, and I did lose weight. I'm under I

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am under fifteen stone now. I was sixteen stone, so

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I'm offering. I'm moving between fourteen a half and fifteen.

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That's kind of my offering stage now. And I am slimmer,

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which is good. Oh yeah, the nurse was wearing a mask.

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This isn't my doctor's practice, the GP practice. So I said,

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taught me to wear a mask. She said, no, it's okay.

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I said, we can share if you like, which is

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a weird thing to say. And she's explained to me

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that she was immune division, so she had a condition

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where her immune system was practically zero, so she wore

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a mask. And you know what, again, no, I think

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I did wear a mask. Yeah, I did wear a mask.

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And again I was like that somebody can mention she's

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chosen to do a job where she's putting her own

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life at risk every day. She could be sitting at home,

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keeping away from people, but no, she goes to work

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and she helps people in an environment.

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So she's a nurse. She's around all kinds of you know,

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illnesses and stuff.

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Just every time she steps inside the doctor surgery, she's

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surrounded by people that are unwell.

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She chooses to do that to help people.

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That's amazing, isn't it really if you think about it,

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what a phenomenal person. That's dedication. If you wanna be

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a record breaker. Yes, that's that's it. Really, it's four o'clock.

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That's core plast four in the morning. Went about at

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eight o'clock last night. Kay, I'll be honest, I've just

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been restless. I was restless during the night. I was

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restless tonight before. There's something I just a little bit

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disturbed about the whole thing. I'm now wondering if the

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m some of the neighbors are planning to break into

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his flat to try and see if there's anything worth

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stealing so I can buy themselves crack.

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And that's not even exaggeration. That's what they're like around it,

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some of them. It's weird.

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So I can have new two new Dennants living in

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his place in the next few months. I wonder what

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it's gonna be. Will there be decent people, will be

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more of the same, more chaos and tends to be

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what happens now. I was just thinking about over the fence,

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so we had the amount of chaotic people we had

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living over there over the years.

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Seriously, it's just there's one flat and it's been three

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tenants and have all been absolutely who.

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Ill, just.

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I was supposed to find my boats the right word,

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but the degree of chaos. There was a couple living there.

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There's been a few people lived there since I've lived there,

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but it's a couple and they always arguing.

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And the bloke in there, he would, yeah, he would

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order palettes and he'd break up the palettes during the

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day and burn them at night.

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He did this for like a whole summer, and then

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one night he set fire to the clown.

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So I just wake up and I noticed that the

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garden's very bright out there over the fence. So go

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outside and m hm, the lawn.

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It basically he was using a dustbin to light the

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you know, to have the fire in, and the dustbin

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had fallen over, so it had spread all over the

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grass and the grass was on fire.

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And I came outside.

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Just to sort of check it out because I wanted to,

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you know, make sure it didn't spread. And the bloke

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was upset that I was outside, like we're doing it okay,

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So that was weird. Another time his girlfriend was over here.

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She was lying in the road outside. She wasn't injured,

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she's just lying in the road and her boyfriend was.

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Smashing up the furniture in the flat. I was just like, weird.

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They moved out, they probably got kicked out. And then

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another lady moved in the exact flat, and she used

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to scream at herself. She'd have arguments with herself and

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went on for hours, like you know, daily, And then

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she left, and then we got another.

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One moving really loud, just loud, and.

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It's hard for me.

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I grew up in chaos, being around crazy people, shouting

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and aggressive and swearing and.

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Doing stupid things and.

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Saying horrible things, and so I grew up in that.

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I spent years living that lifestyle when I was very young.

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I didn't like it then. I don't like it now.

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Now I have my moments. I'll be honest, like my

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moments when I'm a little bit like that myself, but.

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I don't.

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I don't involve other people. I keep it to myself.

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I know we're all different, but I don't live a

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chaotic lifestyle.

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And I won't. I can't do that.

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I mean, it's part of the reason why I didn't reproduce.

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It's a part of the reason why I'm not in

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a relationship with someone these.

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Gonna be I don't know.

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I just don't want that kind of lifestyle shouting and

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arguing And.

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Just now.

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My stomach's gurgling really bad.

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It's a proper gurglar. Yeah, I'm not I didn't.

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I mean, I know this is a counsel of state,

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but it's like it's only a few people. Honestly, Like

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in my block, everyone's fine. Now, okay, there's a there's

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a I help with everyone, but this, you know, there's

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always going to be problematic people. But it don't really

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cause me problems. It's just they're living a lifestyle that

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I don't.

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I'm not into. And most of the time the people

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on this state are pretty cool, which just takes a

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few who wanted to rely rely loud, obnoxious individuals. And

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there's one that just spends this things of being in

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the garden all.

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The time.

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Shouting, and then another neighbor always manages to be friend.

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Wherever new people move in. There's a family that loved

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this estate that don't they live. They don't live in

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the council bar, but their family have been there forever

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and they just love to be friends with the people

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on this little council. Probably They've been doing it probably

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for forty to fifty years, so when someone knew moves in,

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they'll find a way in so they can come into

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their home and they can spend time here and make

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lots of noise. I don't really get it, to be honest.

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I mean, I was curious.

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About what Luke's old flat would look like once he

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moved out and a new person moved in. So I

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was curious about that. And I have been in there

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because then they boo invited me in and it was

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like a different flat.

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Enough, is weird?

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The same same rooms, completely different.

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And I have been in.

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Every flat apart from one, so I've seen all the

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different flats in this building. But and they've all been

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in my flat as well, including.

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The one that I've not been in. He's only been

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in there a couple of times.

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Yeah, ok, yeah, a la la la la lahada.

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I'm just talking for the sake of talking now a night.

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So that that really that sort of is his uncle

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sausages passed away. See why I didn't realize.

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I guess I didn't realize how ill he was.

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Let it's easy to say that now, isn't he Now

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he's dead it's like, well, obviously he was ill, but

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he was I mean to say that he was really ill.

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He's also just an obvious statement, but there was u

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there was a question mark that he had and I had.

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We had questions.

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So, okay, so he's got this thing. Why can't they

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do anything about it? Why can't they remove it? Give

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him surgery, give him some hope, something, And they said

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there's nothing they could do. And his question I kind

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of had. We had this conversation outside a few weeks ago.

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In the sun and I kind of understood where he

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was coming from because I.

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Felt the same way. It's like, why can't they do something?

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And I said to the nurse at the time, why

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can't you just give him an operation and try and

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do something. She said, he wouldn't survive an operation. I said,

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that's not a bad thing. Give in his condition and whatever.

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I'm not saying it's a good thing. He doesn't survive,

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but give him that option to go peacefully and he

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won't know anything about it. He'll be on her prey

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at the at the table and if it helps him,

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it helps him, if if if that's it, then that's it.

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And she said it doesn't work like that. Operations are

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expensive and they don't do them unless there's a chance

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that can help.

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I don't know.

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There's also a part of me thinking about hypnosis and

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what use is it in situations like this. Yeah, I

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just wonder. On Thursday, he was very restless old Uncle

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sausages and I started to talk to him, and I

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did do some hypnosis with him, trying to get him

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to just calm down, to relax his body. And I

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didn't really get a chance to do it properly, but

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I told him that because he was he kept moving around.

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He was unconscious, but he was moving around his arms,

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raising his arms.

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Up and his legs is very uncomfortable.

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He was clearly cause he was moving around, but at

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the same time he may have been dreaming. I don't know,

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but I told him that his arms were heavy, and

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when I said that to him, he stopped moving his

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arms around. And I probably talked to him for maybe

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ten minutes m maybe longer, just telling him it's okay

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to relax, it's okay to let go. And I sat

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down on Friday as well. They're telling him it's okay

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to to let go. Doesn't have to struggle anymore. Doesn't

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have to hold on. It's okay to let go. But

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on Friday he was completely relaxed. He was on a

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morphine thing, morphine drip or drive or whatever it's called.

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H Then he's just lying there.

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I think.

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I mean, it's natural to be thinking about my own life.

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I suppose in situations like this, what have I done?

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What have I accomplished?

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Has there been any purpose to my existence? It's kind

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of the questions I've got. Maybe another nicer way is

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what is my legacy? Or I'll just be forgotten? Maybe

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that's it, just be forgot. But then there's some people

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that I think do get.

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To live on.

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In memories, different kinds of memories.

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So you've got famous writers, musicians.

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From hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of years ago, something

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thousands of years ago, but we don't necessarily know what

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they were like as people. I think you can probably

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get kind of an idea what I'm like, kind of

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from some of my recordings, not necessarily a good thing,

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thousands of hours of me talking.

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Thousands Is that my legacy? Just to leave my ramblings?

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I don't know. There's no boxing on last night this month.

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I think apart from one fight on the sixteenth August.

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That ain't much going on, which is a shame. And

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in September, I fin there's a couple of big fights.

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There's a big year in November. I think there's a

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big one as well, David Benevitez against Callum Smith. David

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Benevitez is gonna win that.

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David Benavas so he's now a world champion, like everyway,

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he was.

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One one three times super lightweight, a super middleweight champion.

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He won it.

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Wait a minute, he was the interims of twice and

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then he was interim I think anyway, he's really great.

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David benefitte Is he's pretty much my favorite boxer, but

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he hasn't been fighting hugely regularly the last few years

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because he was just drawling water waiting to fight Canelo,

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and Canelo wouldn't fight him. So in the end he

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went up to lie everyway and then that was wherever

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he went.

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It was blocked.

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Canelo held all the titles, and then he went up

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to light everyway and all the titles were all clogged

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up there as well, and currently Bivil has well he

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did have them be he gave up one of the

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titles because he's choosing to have another fight with what's

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his name, previous champion better beev so before and him.

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I think they're having a third fight. The first fight

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better be of one.

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Or was it a draw?

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I can't remember. I think it might have been a draw, blimey.

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The second one bevil one, the third one, I don't know.

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I'll always give it to Befol because he's.

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So good to me. He's gonna put him down as

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pound personally pound for pound number one. Maybe not, I

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don't know.

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I think it's sick, deserves to be number one.

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Pound for pound.

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Maybe it's hard when you got different weight boxes to

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really to compare someone like Inuy who is he has

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to wear heavy boots so he doesn't flow off. He's

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so light, and you've got bosics heavy heavyweight. I don't

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know how much he weighs, doesn't weigh a lot, actually,

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fifteen half sixteen stones.

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It's not heavy. He's heavy, but it's not like heavy heavy.

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Everyone he fights. It's a lot heavier than him.

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Oh yeah, So I suppose I should just go and

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have my breakfast, now, watch a pair TV. My brain's

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a bit fake at the moment.

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It just.

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I don't know. I don't shure what to do with myself.

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Oh well, thank you for listening. Remember to be kind

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to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Be

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gentle with yourself. You deserved to feel safe. Lots of

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love

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