June 29, 2025

(no music) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025

(no music) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025
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Hello, oh, welcome to Sweaty Heatwave. My name's Sweaty Heatwave.

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My website is Sweatyheatwave dot com. Bla blur. It's hot.

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It's hot, hot, hot, hot, hot hot hot. I can't

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take video out until it gets cooler down because it'll

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be too hot for him out there, so he's stuck

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inside with me me. So yeah. Jasonnewland dot com is

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my website. My name is Jason Newland. Please. I'm only

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listen when you can safely close your eyes. And Vinnie

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has spotted a fly? Is it a same fly from

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last year? Vin same fly has been visited ten years now,

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it's been visiting us ten years. On breeze to chase

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the same fly. Eyes hot, I'm gonna scrunch my T

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shirt T shirt, T shirt up so my bellies feeling

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the cool breeze. There's a little bit of a cool

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breeze coming in through the window a little bit. Well,

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it's a breeze. I don't know if it's cool, but

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it's breezy. I'm just gonna imagine it's cool. I mean, technically,

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I don't have to take all my clothes off because

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once I kind of expose my belly area. That's about

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ninety five percent of my body, isn't it so? Oh lovely?

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By the way, there's any single women out there that

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looking for a new boyfriend, Oh, come and let me

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know me and my big wobbly belly war Okay, I'll

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stop now. Whoops. I want to say thank you to

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Tammy for your PayPal gift. Thank you very much. And

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it's Sunday, the uh, I don't know what the date is.

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I think it's a twenty ninth of or the thirtieth.

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It's either the twenty ninth the thirtieth of June twenty

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twenty five, because the first of July is Tuesday, and

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it's Sunday today. So if there's thirty one days in June,

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then this is the thirtieth today. If there's thirty days

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in June, than today's or twenty ninth.

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Were you the April, May, June, this September, thirty days

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in fourth for the bed member?

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I don't I can't remember the rhyme. I can't remember

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the rhyme. I don't. I don't remember it. But I've

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told you a thousand times. Yeah, Unfortunately, when you start

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telling me something that I'm not interested in. My brain

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shuts down. Sorry, I can't help it. Oh, my friend's

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still in hospital. I haven't been there this week end. Today,

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Alvin is you're going to hear me shuffling about a

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bit because he's hunting the fly today. Sunday is very,

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very difficult to travel anywhere unless you have a car

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of your own, and I was not going to ask

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neighbors for help today because it's Sunday, you know. So

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this is going to be like my summary of the week.

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That's what I'm going to talk about. Although I kind

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of went quite in depth, but there's probably stuff I've

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forgotten that I didn't mention. So the buses and the

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trains are not very regular on a Sunday Saturday. I needed.

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I needed to not go in yesterday. I needed a break.

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I just needed a little bit of time with my

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little baby boy over here. And I think he needed

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that because he's been acting strange towards me, especially the

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last few days before, you know, I had some time

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until I was back. For example, it's not really eating

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much at the moment, but that's I'm guessing that's down

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to the heat. A lot of that however, however, however, However,

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he stopped sleeping in bed with me again. It could

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be partially to do the heat, but he was just

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sitting down on the floor staring at me. There was

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he had definitely had an issue with me, really like

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he didn't he was angry or whatever. So I managed

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to get him back in the bedroom me and he's

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fine again, but for a few days. I mean, I

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woke up the other day he wasn't even in the

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same room because in the living room. He does do

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that occasionally, but it's rare, it's very rare. And I

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was starting to think. I wonder if I kicked him

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out of bed in my sleep one night and it

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upset him. If it was in my sleep, I didn't.

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I'm not responsible for what I do when I was sleep.

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I might have been a bit having a dream or something,

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dreaming I was a dad daddy leg long lick leg

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long a long leg, daddy long leg juggling or something.

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I don't know, and so I might have just acted.

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He kicked him out of the bed, and he might

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have he might have been a shock to him, because

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if he was asleep, and you know, he's got every

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right to be annoyed with me. For that, But at

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the same time, I would never do that. If I don't,

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I might do No, I wouldn't. I would never do

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that if I was awake, not necessarily really annoyed me. No,

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I would never do that. It's a little boy. It's

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only little Linnie. It's only little baby.

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It's my little baby, my little baby, my little baby.

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Vinny Vinnie, Vinnie Vini.

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He's a big grumpy as well. I think the heat's

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got to him a little bit. I don't care too

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much about the heat. Yeah, it's just heating it. I've

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been warmer, That's how I see it. It's like, you

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know what, I've been way hotter than this on numerous occasions.

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It's just you just have to adapt. It's not all.

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It's not forever. It's just for I don't know, a

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few days if that, and then everyone's going to start complaining,

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oh it's so cold. Guarantee you guarantee in October time,

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Guarantee people will be walking around saying, didn't you never summer?

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What happened to the summers? Almost it didn't exist completely,

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forgetting the fact that they couldn't leave the house because

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it was so hot you could fry an egg on

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your head, especially baldies like me. It's like short term

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memory in it. That's what it is. So you know,

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I've been to Thailand. This is cool in Thailand. This

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is not a hot day in time. And also I

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worked in a bakery, like a proper big industrial bakery

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when I was in my twenties that was hot all

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the time, like hot with all their otherns, ridiculously hot.

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So yeah, this this isn't really I'm not saying it's comfortable.

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I'm not hugely uncomfortable though, really, because I'm indoors, got

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the windows open, sitting down, just chatting with you, got

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me a little my little monkey lying by my feet,

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huge jelly belly. It wabbles even when I sit still.

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M m hmmm.

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If you haven't met me, you probably think, wow, what

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I thought you said he was massively fat? Ah, Well,

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it's all I mean. You know, if you met me,

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you wouldn't think, oh, I didn't realize he was slim

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because I'm not slim. I had been doing some stomach

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exer Okay, I had been doing some stomach exercises until

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last Friday, when any kind of routine I had went

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up in pooh basically, although it's kind of strange because

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it's always like I've started a new routine, but I

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don't want I don't want this new routine really because

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it's involving going to a hospital every day, and that's

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not what, let's face it, unless you work in the hospital,

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it's not what anyone wants to do is go to

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hospital every day.

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I mean, BlimE me, no, thank you, no, it's lovely,

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but I had enough now thanks, bye bye bye bye.

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Yeah not. I'm not even sure if I would make

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a very good patient, because that's pretty much where the

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word patients come from, isn't it. It's like he's a

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patient person. Any idea is to be because you have

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to wait around a lot, don't you if you're a

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patient and back in the old days, is a little

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bit similar to how my neighbor is because he's been

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in there since Friday, so it's that Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

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Saturday Sunday, nine days he's been in there, and it's

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rare to be in hospital for that long. Because there's

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a there's a term in this country, which is really

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there might be another countries. So I'm not saying that

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we're special, but we are. And it's a term which

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is being used by I don't know if it was

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created by the NHS, but it's definitely on the news

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about the NHS and people that were in beds, So

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the lack of hospital bed availability to new patients, that's

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basically what the subject was. So people that were in

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beds were called bed blockers, which it's such a horrible term,

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you know, for someone that's unwell, of course, someone a

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bed blocker. It's that's just like calling someone a coffin dodger,

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isn't it. It's you know, it's it's this in the

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kind of it's in that ballpark. So he actually said

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to me, my neighbor, oh, I don't want to be

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in there because I'm just blocking the bed. And I said,

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if you were my size, you would be blocking the bed.

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You'd probably be breaking the bed, but you're not blocking anything. Yeah,

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but I should This bed could be used for someone

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that needs it more. So, I'm like, okay, first of all,

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you're seventy eight years old, nearly you're nearly eighty years old.

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And I said, trust me, I'm not an expert on

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the NHS or anything, well anything. I'm not an expert

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on anything. However, I do know one thing about the

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NHS is they would not keep someone in the bed

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unless they had to, unless it was important. They get

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people out quickly as possible. I mean, there was a

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time when if I hope it's okay, need to say woman,

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but when a woman gives birth, I hope that's not

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offended anyone back in I'm going to I mean, the

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last time I really had any contact with births was

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nineteen eighty when my little brother was born and she

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was in hospital for a few days, and it was

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just a standard birth. I don't think there was any

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not that I know of any complications. I think she

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was a bit sore, like most people are, I guess,

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but when she pooed him out, she wasn't. There was

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nothing extra happening. But she was in hospital for probably

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three or four days probably, and then came out. And

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you know, nowadays, they're just like, as soon as you've

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had the baby, they wheel you out, it's okay, well,

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thanks by, and you're like, if they can ideal, if

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they will actually if you give birth in the ambulance,

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they just turn around and say you're home again. Seriously,

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I'm making it up, seriously. I mean, I had my

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appendix out when I was twelve, eleven twelve, I lose track,

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to be honest with you, I think about twelve ish

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and I was in hospital probably five or six days,

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maybe a whole week. Best time in my childhood. That

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was happiest moment, the happiest period of my life as

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a child. When I was in hospital strange and I

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literally I did have the time of my life. It

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was great. I mean there was parts I didn't enjoy,

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you know, like the pain being prodded around in that,

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but generally, you know, outside of the actual operation and

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the anesthetic, I had a jolly good time, jolly, jolly,

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jolly good time. I'm pretty sure that anyone had a

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kid having an operation now, providing everything goes to plan,

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they'll be out very fairly quickly. I've known people to

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have heart surgery and be out the next day. It's

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like what that used to be. Something you'd stay in

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hospital for weeks with, maybe even longer. It's changed, everything's

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changed so much. At this point, my neighbor said, you

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ain't half going on. I just said that I feel

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that I'm blocking the bed. I mean, you give me

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a lecture? And I said, yeah, I know. How does

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it feel? How does it feel? Hey, how does it feel?

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You do it to me? Now I'm doing it to you.

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How do you feel being on the receiving end? And

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he bunched me, But I said, like, look, they wouldn't

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keep you in here unless they need to. It's I

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think it's fair, it's safe to say that. I think

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they don't keep people in hospital beds unless it's necessary.

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And I think what happened is the news bulletins. This

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is a few years back. I mean it might even

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be going twenty years fifteen ten, fifteen, twenty years ago,

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but there was a big focus on it and a

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massive guilt trip on people to the whole almost for

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being ill. People shouldn't feel guilty for being ill. It's ridiculous.

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And they even got to the point where they are saying, well,

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just don't go to the A and E unless you're

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really ill. Are you sure you need to go that

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this is the accident emergency? Are you sure you really

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need to go to the A and E? Don't block

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the A and E up, It's there for emergencies and

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then they start giving examples of some people that would

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go in there because I don't know, I'm trying to

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think that's something really silly. But they'd always give the

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most extreme example as saying it's someone went in there

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because they wanted to order a taxi or something, you know,

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something seemed like that, or to they wanted to get

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a kebab. It's like, okay, there's going to be a kebab.

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There are going to be situations where someone walks into

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an emergency ward of a hospital and ask some how

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much for the suitcases or something like that, or I

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ordered where I need to get my dry cleaning done.

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It's going to happen occasionally, isn't it. But I wouldn't.

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I imagine it's not the norm. It's not the normal situation.

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But these news bulletins and even adverts they put on TV,

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you know, don't waste the NHA says time, don't go

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into the an unless it's an emergency. The thing is,

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most people, I'm guessing, you know, just from well I

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think it's a fair guess, But most people, I imagine are

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not medically trained. You know, the vast majority of people

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are not medically trained. Or at least not enough to

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know whether something is an emergency. Now, my friends in hospital.

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He feels absolutely fine now if it hadn't been for me,

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And I don't mean that as as she would just

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say it. Now, do it now, there's a he you

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will if you look inside your pants, right, we'll do

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that now, get that over and done with. If it

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hadn't been for me, and this is this is truth.

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I'm not saying it's nothing good about it. But he

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would still be in his home, having fun, watching the sport.

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He'd know nothing about this. He'd know nothing if he

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doesn't look. He didn't have a mirror, he didn't know

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he's yellow, and he would have had hadn't spent the

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last nine year, nine days in well. He thinks his prison,

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but it's honestly, he feels like he's locked up. But

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he wouldn't have been in hospital for the last nine days.

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But he also wouldn't have been having medication to help

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with his blood which is full of ammonia, which has

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caused him to be yellow. So who knows where he

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would be in nine you know, after nine days of

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no medication to help to clear that out of his blood,

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you know, he sort of goes different ways, doesn't it.

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Paramedics said it was the right thing to do. Everyone

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said it's everyone medical said it's the right thing to

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do to get him into the hospital, and the fact

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that he's still in there is kind of backing that up.

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I would say, but he had no physical symptoms, so

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that was an emergency situation and he didn't even know it. Now,

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I didn't call for an ambulance because I've still got

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that stuck in my head. Don't call for an ambulance

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unless it's an emergency. How are we supposed to know

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if something's an emergency. I was told that if someone

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turns yellow, that's a very serious situation. It's pretty much

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in most cases. I'm sure there are times when it's not,

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but you know it's the liver. It's an organ malfunction.

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And I didn't realize that the pancreas, the gall bladder,

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and the liver were all connected and any of those

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organs could cause someone to go yellow. I didn't know.

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I've done a bit of research since since this all happened.

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Apparently we've only got one liver. I thought we had three.

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Just shows you what I know. So I think I didn't,

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you know, I ended up calling one one one, which

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is what they brought into play to stop people from

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wasting the emergency accident emergency time, or the ambulances time.

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And there are time wasters out there, of course, there

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are that always will be. I mean I went to

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I knew someone that worked or volunteered at the Samaritans.

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I've known a few people actually that have volunteered at Samaritans,

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especially people that were counselors when I was training and stuff,

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and I applied myself once that they turned me down,

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apparently something to do with not wearing any pants. But hey,

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I didn't know. I didn't think it was a normal interview.

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It's not always acceptable to take a pack lunch to

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a job interview. Where's the rules? Where's the rule book?

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No flasks of coffee? Apparently they get quite a few

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time wasters at the Samaritans. And again they don't promote this.

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The reason I don't promote it is because they don't

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want people to stop phoning up. By the way, the Samaritans.

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If you don't know what it is, it there might

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be a version in every country. I don't know. It's

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basically a helpline. It's a phone. It's some way that

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you can phone up and talk to someone about anything.

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You're not really phoning up to get help as such.

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You know, if you need an ambulance, you need to call

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for an ambulance. If you need a police, you need

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to call for the police. The Samaritans, I think they

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can signpost you to different places, but they're really just

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an ear for you. You can talk about whatever's going on,

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and I think it's proven its usefulness millions of times

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over now. I didn't know. I've never I think I

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might have called the Samaritans once. Actually, oh yeah, they

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were engaged. That's it. That's why I phoned phone in

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once and they were engaged, which was just is weird

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and it the one time. But it's an amazing it's

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an amazing service. I didn't realize that some people phoned up.

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There's there's two I think probably two times. You could

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say three times, three types of time wasters. But the

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Samaritans don't class it as time wasters because if they

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start putting adverts on TV saying only call if it's serious,

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only call, don't wait, you know, it would be so

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negative that a lot of people wouldn't phone up thinking

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that they didn't need to, and that phone call could

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be it could be life saving for that person. They

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might not even realize how much they needed to talk

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to someone, because some people have the need to have

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a conversation with a human being so or to feel

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that kind of communication, that connection, I guess, and I

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suppose also if you're living, it's almost living on their own,

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and things become normalized, don't they. So to have I've

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had that a little bit in the past where someone's

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found out what I'm doing and they're like, no, that's

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not normal. You know, that's not normal behavior. And I

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didn't realize. Now you're probably wondering what I'm talking about

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right now. It's nothing horrible, it's just I'm not going

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to tell you what it was. But the psychiatrist said, no,

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that's that's weird. I said, okay, okay. Apparently sticking if

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you put if you kneel down and put shoes on

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your knees, so pretend to be really short and walk around,

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there's a thing you do that, But apparently it's weird

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if you do it around your house on your own,

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there's no one else around, it's and like just do

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that all the time. Apparently it's a strange thing to do. Yeah, okay,

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So there's three types of people that perhaps don't use

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the Samaritans in the best way potentially, But again I've

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always got a caveat for these I've always got like

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a a defense for the people doing it sometimes. So

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one is they phone up to they use it as

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some kind of horny chat line. I think that's a

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that's a nice way of saying it, you know, one

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of those premium number chat lines. Some people use it

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like that. I know it's I was quite surprised at that,

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and I didn't think they could hear what I was doing.

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And then there's people that I guess are just sort

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of wind up, you know, they just sort of wind up.

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They just like I think it's funny just to mess

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around with people. There's always going to be those types around.

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And then there's the I suppose that they said they

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get some people that phone every single day and maybe

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they feel this, I don't know, they don't necessarily feel

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they're helping that person, but they don't know they might

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really be helping them. Yeah, they get on first name

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turns with some people that literally call up every single

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day and if that's what they need, then do it,

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because that's what they're there for. They're there, it's a

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free service. And the way I say, I'm going from

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a different perspective. If I remember someone saying when I

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was doing the counseling training, someone said, there's whole theory

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about well, if someone comes in and just talks about it,

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talks absolutely rubbish for fifty minutes, a little bit like

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me now, really, but they come in and you know that,

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you know why they're come in. You've already they've already

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had a phone conversation with the counseling service to find

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out what's going on with them and the reason why

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they have applied for counseling or the reason they're being

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sent by the doctor the counseling. We're not going to

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have a full information, but it's going to have at

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least an idea. So let's say they're in there because

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I don't know for whatever thing, but maybe it's yeah,

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I can't think of anything that isn't problematic. But but

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then they come in and they end up talking about

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basketball or football, or they talk about UFOs, or they

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talk about dinosaurs for fifty minutes or they come in

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and they just make stuff up, blatantly, just make stuff up. Now,

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this seemed to frustrate some of the other counselors, and

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I've read books and stuff as well on it, and

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some people get upset with it. Say, you know, some

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counseling books will say, well, you've got to bring them

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back to why they're there, You've got to get them

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focused on all that stuff, which I do understand. But

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I kind of figured out that actually, sometimes people need

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to use I suppose they can still be gaining benefit

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from talking to someone, even if it is it's got

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nothing to do with why they're there, maybe just that

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human human interaction, maybe sitting in a room with someone

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that is listening. And what I've noticed that in most cases,

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I mean it's going back a while now, they'd start

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talking about why they're there. Not always, but you know,

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something quite often, And I found that interesting that Actually,

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I suppose you could say some people use metaphors stories.

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So maybe the given example, it's a little bit like

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say I need advice for a friend, and you pretty

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much always know that the person is talking about theirselves,

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don't you. So you know, if someone comes up to

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you if it's someone you know that or I need

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some advice for a friend. And he's thinking about getting

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an enlargement procedure, but he's not sure because he's seeing

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it on TV and he doesn't know whetheryone or it'd

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be safe if we're about getting a pump. But he

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didn't get it in the end, and he hasn't got

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a lot of money because you know, he's on benefits

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at the moment, and he's he's it's quite expensive, especially

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looking after his little dog, Vinnie. You know, if you

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make a mistake and you give too much information away.

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But I think sometimes that's useful for counselors or for

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clients or other patients to do it in their own way.

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And I think, I guess that's what I'm saying with Samaritans.

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Sometimes if someone's just they're not even talking about their

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own life, it might help them sort out certain blockages

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in their mind or in their energies or whatever. I

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don't know blockages in their energies what you're talking about, Jay,

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I'm not one hundred percent sure. Yeah, I'll make it.

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I make most of what I say up. The video

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is about twelve inches away from the fly. He's staring

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at it. He wants it badly, so he's rested his

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He was rested his chin on my left leg, and

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the fly was on my right leg, and he was

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I guess he was thinking, do dogs think? I don't know.

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I found a new technique, by the way, to stop

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internal dialogue, to turn it off. It's not really a

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new way, but it's a new way for me focus

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on the wind or the breeze. Because I noticed always

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noticing new things about myself, and then sometimes I forget

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about the thing I've noticed, and then I noticed it

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again a few years later, and then I forget about

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it again. Then I noticed it again. Something that I've

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got a habit of doing is so if something happened.

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If something happens, it can be just the most simple thing,

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an interaction or a non interaction. Or if someone with

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a dog they say something rude, which happens occasionally, Villie

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barks and maybe they don't like the fact that he's

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barking at their dog. And then I start thinking of

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all the different conversations I could have had with that person,

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how it could have gone. And I can go on

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for ages and then maybe I'll see them again, and

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I'll kind of keep my distance, and I start imaging

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all the different scenarios and conversations I might have with

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them if I did see them, And it's weird, and

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I thought, you know what, I'll focus on the wind,

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the wind outside my pants, you know, in the air.

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He switches it off into to me. I sometimes I

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feel that I'm rehearsing, practicing, rehearsing what I'm going to say,

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you know, And I'm going to go out with Vin

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in a few hours, and I kind of know roughly

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who I'm going to see, what dogs are going to

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be there. And I realized sometimes I kind of rehearse

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things that I'm going to say to these people. And

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it's weird because I don't rehearse anything I'm going to

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say here. I don't really think about what I'm going

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to say until I start doing a recording, unless it's

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like a specific recording where I might have a little

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bit of information in front of me and stuff, but

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not to let me pull you to sleeps. But when

465
00:38:00.519 --> 00:38:10.639
I'm dealing with a human, I kind of it's almost like, actually,

466
00:38:10.639 --> 00:38:13.199
I think sometimes I just say the same thing to everyone,

467
00:38:14.559 --> 00:38:19.119
or it's hot today, in it all. When there's one

468
00:38:19.400 --> 00:38:23.599
I was thing saying. I was walking around after him

469
00:38:24.119 --> 00:38:29.079
after Vinny, and I had the Pooh bag on my hand.

470
00:38:30.079 --> 00:38:32.039
I was walking around and he literally took me on

471
00:38:32.119 --> 00:38:36.719
a It took me on a very long walk. So

472
00:38:36.719 --> 00:38:40.639
I saw about three different dog walkers during that journey

473
00:38:40.639 --> 00:38:44.199
of me just following him around the field finding somewhere

474
00:38:44.239 --> 00:38:48.199
to do a nice, big smelly one so I could

475
00:38:48.239 --> 00:38:52.239
pick it up. So I'm walking with him, walking behind him,

476
00:38:52.599 --> 00:38:55.639
with this Pooh bag on my hand ready to use.

477
00:39:00.039 --> 00:39:03.159
And I thought to myself, I must look like the

478
00:39:03.159 --> 00:39:08.880
world's worst ventiloquist. You know, it's just because Pooh bag

479
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:12.800
on my head. So the next person I see, I

480
00:39:12.800 --> 00:39:15.840
say it to them, and then I say it to

481
00:39:15.880 --> 00:39:18.320
the next person. I say it three different people. I said,

482
00:39:18.360 --> 00:39:23.000
I must look like the worst world's worst ventiloquist. I

483
00:39:23.159 --> 00:39:26.320
just like I thought it's funny. So I think they

484
00:39:26.360 --> 00:39:30.400
did laugh. I'm not sure. I can't remember. I really

485
00:39:30.440 --> 00:39:36.039
don't want to be one of them people that that

486
00:39:36.239 --> 00:39:39.719
is out of touch with reality. That worries me a

487
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:42.079
little bit. I'm not saying I'm in touch with reality,

488
00:39:42.159 --> 00:39:47.679
but I don't want to. I don't want to be

489
00:39:47.760 --> 00:39:52.039
talking at people and not realizing that they don't want

490
00:39:52.079 --> 00:39:58.360
me to be because I have been that person, and

491
00:39:58.440 --> 00:40:00.440
I have to be very careful. I don't do that,

492
00:40:02.079 --> 00:40:14.400
because you know, conversation has to be two ways. But

493
00:40:14.440 --> 00:40:19.880
I've got my little special in my little interests. So

494
00:40:19.920 --> 00:40:26.280
I've got a tendency of h of making weird noises

495
00:40:27.079 --> 00:40:31.679
with my throat which I want to just add some water. Oh,

496
00:40:31.760 --> 00:40:35.159
God of the I don't know.

497
00:40:35.199 --> 00:40:35.639
I just.

498
00:40:39.760 --> 00:40:42.599
I think sometimes I'm just a bit too self aware.

499
00:40:45.159 --> 00:40:49.559
It's almost like, oh, I just found something in my

500
00:40:49.639 --> 00:41:01.159
belly bun. What is that? H It's a bit of chocolate.

501
00:41:02.880 --> 00:41:05.000
It's not, it's not really, it's a Mars bar. No,

502
00:41:05.079 --> 00:41:13.280
it's not. I'm constantly studying myself and I don't really

503
00:41:13.440 --> 00:41:21.239
know how useful that is, to be honest, but I

504
00:41:21.280 --> 00:41:26.679
seem to be observing what I'm doing, what I'm thinking,

505
00:41:26.920 --> 00:41:34.960
how I'm talking, my behavior, the things that I want

506
00:41:35.000 --> 00:41:37.320
to say and don't say, the things that I do

507
00:41:37.480 --> 00:41:45.079
say and don't want to say. Yeah, it's weird. It's

508
00:41:45.199 --> 00:41:49.519
kind of weird. Perhaps a little bit too self conscious,

509
00:41:50.800 --> 00:42:05.599
perhaps hm hmm, perhaps just a really big egotist. But

510
00:42:05.599 --> 00:42:07.760
it's not I don't think it's really in that way

511
00:42:08.280 --> 00:42:13.199
because I like to be in control of me, but

512
00:42:13.280 --> 00:42:15.280
I don't want to be in control of other people.

513
00:42:16.800 --> 00:42:20.239
So that's that's a big difference. I think I do

514
00:42:20.360 --> 00:42:24.440
like to have control over my environment, but I know

515
00:42:24.519 --> 00:42:27.280
that I can only do that in my environment, which

516
00:42:27.320 --> 00:42:30.800
is in this home, this flat, and even then there's

517
00:42:30.840 --> 00:42:36.400
limitations because I've got a very stubborn little doggie here,

518
00:42:37.239 --> 00:42:42.039
and I've also got people around here that are antisocial,

519
00:42:43.239 --> 00:42:45.440
that live outside and live in the other places, so

520
00:42:45.559 --> 00:42:50.599
I can't control them. I can't control him, but I've got,

521
00:42:50.800 --> 00:42:57.880
you know, a general control of the environment to a degree.

522
00:42:58.480 --> 00:43:04.679
When I go out that changes a little bit. I've

523
00:43:04.719 --> 00:43:08.760
noticed that the last week, getting on buses, getting in taxis,

524
00:43:11.800 --> 00:43:18.480
asking people for lifts. It's been, Yeah, it's been challenging.

525
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:21.719
When there was someone on the bus the other day

526
00:43:21.760 --> 00:43:24.480
that was listening to I think he was watching a

527
00:43:24.480 --> 00:43:32.679
YouTube video on his phone very loud, and again I

528
00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:35.079
might have been reading the signals wrong, but it looked

529
00:43:35.119 --> 00:43:37.159
to me like he was doing it because he wanted

530
00:43:37.199 --> 00:43:41.000
someone to say something. You know, he was being antisocial

531
00:43:41.239 --> 00:43:47.719
and he was just almost egging, egging the pass passengers

532
00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:53.000
to say something so that he could I don't know

533
00:43:53.039 --> 00:43:56.440
what do what. I don't know. It wouldn't have ended

534
00:43:56.440 --> 00:43:59.000
well for him, but it was I don't know what

535
00:43:59.079 --> 00:44:01.719
he wanted out of it. In the end, the bus

536
00:44:01.760 --> 00:44:04.880
driver just showered at him. He turned it down and

537
00:44:04.960 --> 00:44:08.800
he did. He still had on a little bit, but

538
00:44:08.800 --> 00:44:13.360
he was really like he was looking for trouble, and

539
00:44:13.400 --> 00:44:15.760
you're looking with trouble. You were in the ra blush.

540
00:44:18.880 --> 00:44:21.280
I cannot I can relate to that. I was a

541
00:44:21.320 --> 00:44:25.679
little bit like that in my early twenties, but this

542
00:44:25.719 --> 00:44:29.320
bloke was in his at least in his thirties, maybe forties,

543
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:34.039
so it was a little bit. Yeah, and it was

544
00:44:34.400 --> 00:44:36.280
it's not good to be like that at any age.

545
00:44:36.320 --> 00:44:41.280
But I suppose it's always a little phase because he's

546
00:44:41.320 --> 00:44:46.679
going through a little phase. Nice little phase. Oh oh,

547
00:44:47.039 --> 00:44:48.119
he's going through phase.

548
00:44:49.000 --> 00:44:52.480
He's got his he's got his ra his radio thing.

549
00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:56.239
He's a it's a phone, his phone. He's got his

550
00:44:56.320 --> 00:45:00.599
phone on really loud. He's watching one of those movies things.

551
00:45:00.679 --> 00:45:04.800
It's YouTube. He's watching a YouTube movie. It's a video.

552
00:45:05.119 --> 00:45:09.320
He's watching a YouTube video on his radio his phone

553
00:45:09.800 --> 00:45:14.679
on his phone. Oh and it's read loud he's going

554
00:45:14.719 --> 00:45:19.639
through a phase. It's a phase. Oh everyone, come on,

555
00:45:19.719 --> 00:45:22.840
let's give him a hark and push him off the bus.

556
00:45:23.760 --> 00:45:31.719
So yeah, bless him. A weird thing happened to A

557
00:45:31.800 --> 00:45:39.119
weird thing happened my neighbor. Actually, it got into kind

558
00:45:39.119 --> 00:45:41.119
of an argument with someone on one of the wards

559
00:45:41.119 --> 00:45:43.760
he was on, because he's now on a third ward

560
00:45:44.119 --> 00:45:49.000
since he's been there, and the second ward he was on,

561
00:45:51.039 --> 00:45:55.320
they some bloke was complaining about him being too noisy,

562
00:45:56.480 --> 00:46:01.320
and yeah, he was being a bit aggressive and stuff,

563
00:46:01.440 --> 00:46:10.159
and they ended up moving my neighbor, keeping that bloke there,

564
00:46:10.199 --> 00:46:14.039
but moving my neighbor. So I I've only got one

565
00:46:14.079 --> 00:46:16.719
side of the story. There's there's the old sailor. Isn't

566
00:46:16.719 --> 00:46:19.199
that You know, there's three sides to a story, the

567
00:46:19.320 --> 00:46:22.480
two sides and then the truth, you know, both sides,

568
00:46:22.559 --> 00:46:30.239
then the truth. So who knows what exactly occurred. But

569
00:46:30.280 --> 00:46:32.320
I did say to my neighbor and I thought this

570
00:46:32.480 --> 00:46:35.360
was funny, Actually, I said to him because he told

571
00:46:35.360 --> 00:46:38.159
me on the phone. I said, well, because he'd been

572
00:46:38.199 --> 00:46:40.320
moved to a new warden act to try and find

573
00:46:40.320 --> 00:46:42.840
out where it was. I said, well, you know, when

574
00:46:42.840 --> 00:46:45.679
we go out for a walk, because I take him

575
00:46:45.719 --> 00:46:51.119
out for a sit down in the because in front

576
00:46:51.159 --> 00:46:56.679
of the hospital there's all these chairs and stuff like that.

577
00:46:56.800 --> 00:46:59.599
You can sit down, there's a duck pond. It's very nice.

578
00:46:59.639 --> 00:47:04.960
That's it, actually, you know, especially in this weather. And

579
00:47:05.000 --> 00:47:06.840
I said to him, when we go out, perhaps we'll

580
00:47:06.840 --> 00:47:09.159
make a little visit to that bloke. Go back and

581
00:47:09.199 --> 00:47:13.039
have it all, make a little visit. Perhaps punch him

582
00:47:13.119 --> 00:47:18.000
or something. I was joking, okay, so I was go

583
00:47:18.119 --> 00:47:19.800
and see him. We go out for a walk that

584
00:47:19.880 --> 00:47:21.400
day and he said, on the way back, he said,

585
00:47:21.400 --> 00:47:22.800
are we going to go and visit that bloke? Then

586
00:47:24.760 --> 00:47:30.239
I said, I said no. Every I said, like, look,

587
00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:33.440
every everyone's in here because they're run well. No one's

588
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.840
in there for a jolly. They're not in there for fun.

589
00:47:36.440 --> 00:47:39.039
Apart from well even that, even the nurses and doctors

590
00:47:39.079 --> 00:47:45.360
are not in there for fun, are they. But different

591
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:49.280
people deal with with being unwell differently, And perhaps his

592
00:47:49.480 --> 00:47:55.320
way of dealing with it is by being annoyed by you, well,

593
00:47:55.360 --> 00:48:01.000
you know, by what's going on. And he was he

594
00:48:01.119 --> 00:48:03.199
was cool. I don't I'm not sure if he really

595
00:48:03.440 --> 00:48:05.079
I don't know if he was just joking or not.

596
00:48:05.400 --> 00:48:07.360
When he said that to me, should we go and

597
00:48:07.400 --> 00:48:12.320
see him now? But I think twenty years ago I

598
00:48:12.360 --> 00:48:15.239
think he would have well that that would have had

599
00:48:15.239 --> 00:48:18.880
a different outcome, because a bit fiery. But he's you know,

600
00:48:19.159 --> 00:48:27.280
he's pretty old now, maybe thirty years ago. So my

601
00:48:27.480 --> 00:48:29.960
that bloke would probably be a baby now, or he'd

602
00:48:29.920 --> 00:48:33.159
be he'd only be about ten so the other blocks,

603
00:48:33.199 --> 00:48:37.519
so that probably wouldn't have been too good. I don't

604
00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:43.320
know old he was mabe forties, fifties, I don't know. Anyway,

605
00:48:44.239 --> 00:48:46.119
I find my dad up just to sort of see

606
00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:48.920
how he's getting on with his treatments. He's in treatment now,

607
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:52.559
started last week for four weeks, it's going to be

608
00:48:53.559 --> 00:48:58.000
And I told him. I thought it was a funny

609
00:48:58.079 --> 00:49:01.440
story that you know my neighbor, you know, the fact

610
00:49:01.440 --> 00:49:03.400
that he said or she would go and see him.

611
00:49:03.719 --> 00:49:06.360
I thought that was quite quite amusing. I told my

612
00:49:06.440 --> 00:49:10.239
dad and he was like, we can't do that. Get

613
00:49:10.320 --> 00:49:11.920
kicked out of the wall. Do you get arrested rather

614
00:49:11.960 --> 00:49:16.320
than like My reaction was, well, I do what I

615
00:49:16.320 --> 00:49:19.679
want to do firstly, and tell me what I can do,

616
00:49:19.760 --> 00:49:21.440
but of course I'm not going to do it. Like

617
00:49:22.920 --> 00:49:26.840
it was so ridiculous. I just it was. I don't

618
00:49:26.880 --> 00:49:32.199
know it. It turned a nice conversation into just awkwardness

619
00:49:32.599 --> 00:49:35.320
for no reason on the phone with my dad, like

620
00:49:35.400 --> 00:49:38.480
why and his wife was there saying the same things,

621
00:49:39.000 --> 00:49:41.480
all but you're get in trouble, you won't be allowed

622
00:49:41.480 --> 00:49:44.119
back in the hospital. Like I didn't say I was

623
00:49:44.159 --> 00:49:47.119
going to actually do it. You really felt I'm going

624
00:49:47.159 --> 00:49:49.159
to walk up sold in the hospital bed and start,

625
00:49:50.320 --> 00:49:54.840
you know, being naughty, aggressive, and of course I'm not.

626
00:49:56.360 --> 00:50:03.880
I don't know what they think of me. Honestly, it's

627
00:50:05.639 --> 00:50:07.760
I got that off my chest. Now I'll move on.

628
00:50:08.239 --> 00:50:13.480
How has it really annoyed me? Ah? It's weird though,

629
00:50:13.519 --> 00:50:17.079
because my dad started treatment on Wednesday, and I spoke

630
00:50:17.159 --> 00:50:22.360
to him on the Tuesday. I didn't know was having

631
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:24.199
it because he had just been on holiday, just to

632
00:50:24.239 --> 00:50:27.760
see how his holiday was. And when his treatment starts, Oh,

633
00:50:27.800 --> 00:50:30.480
it starts tomorrow. I said, well, I was going to

634
00:50:30.559 --> 00:50:33.079
say to you, which I thought about for quite a while,

635
00:50:33.880 --> 00:50:38.599
is going up to the hospital with him on the

636
00:50:38.599 --> 00:50:40.559
first day of his treatment, just to be a bit

637
00:50:40.559 --> 00:50:43.559
of emotional support. I know his wife's going to be there,

638
00:50:43.559 --> 00:50:45.639
but I thought it'd just be a nice thing. And

639
00:50:45.840 --> 00:50:48.599
he said no, I said, for he'd just have a

640
00:50:48.599 --> 00:50:50.360
cup of coffee. I'm not go allowed to drink coffee.

641
00:50:51.119 --> 00:50:58.880
It was really negative towards me, like, okay, I just

642
00:50:58.920 --> 00:51:01.840
thought maybe it'd be no, And it just seemed weird

643
00:51:01.960 --> 00:51:07.239
that my neighbor wants me to visit, he wants me

644
00:51:07.320 --> 00:51:10.360
to be there with him, but my own dad doesn't.

645
00:51:11.559 --> 00:51:13.760
I know. It was only it was a hospital visit

646
00:51:13.800 --> 00:51:17.360
and it was to have treatment. But I just thought

647
00:51:17.360 --> 00:51:19.599
it'd be a nice thing to do, just to be

648
00:51:19.679 --> 00:51:25.480
there for him in a time of need, maybe rather

649
00:51:25.559 --> 00:51:31.079
than just just I don't know. I don't know what

650
00:51:31.199 --> 00:51:34.800
I was thinking. Really, I thought maybe it'd be a

651
00:51:34.920 --> 00:51:44.320
nice thing. But it's strange, very strange. But yeah, he

652
00:51:44.400 --> 00:51:47.559
definitely didn't want me visiting. He said he didn't want

653
00:51:47.599 --> 00:51:50.119
me visiting or not visiting. He didn't want me to

654
00:51:50.159 --> 00:51:54.239
go there. I said, well, I could just see you,

655
00:51:54.320 --> 00:51:56.239
give you a hug before you go in, or no,

656
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.159
it's all right. Just didn't didn't want me. Yes, some

657
00:52:02.280 --> 00:52:04.960
bloke that i've a neighbor I've known for ten years

658
00:52:06.480 --> 00:52:10.519
is asking me when I'm going to go up next,

659
00:52:11.159 --> 00:52:14.760
phone me up, you know. As well as being seeing

660
00:52:14.800 --> 00:52:16.400
them every day, I'm speaking to you on the phone,

661
00:52:16.440 --> 00:52:19.559
probably twice, one in the morning before I go and

662
00:52:19.559 --> 00:52:26.480
then one in the evening. It seems to be strange.

663
00:52:26.639 --> 00:52:29.679
I had this weird relationship with family. I seem to

664
00:52:29.719 --> 00:52:33.320
be more appreciated by strangers than by people that actually

665
00:52:33.400 --> 00:52:38.000
know me or think. I think I'm just known. I

666
00:52:38.039 --> 00:52:42.920
think I'm the real me is known better by people

667
00:52:42.960 --> 00:52:48.079
that don't know me. I don't know if that makes sense.

668
00:52:50.719 --> 00:52:53.119
Family don't know me, they don't know me the real me,

669
00:52:55.800 --> 00:53:02.000
and I think neighbors I've got to see the real

670
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:09.360
me people that I've helped, And I think if you

671
00:53:09.400 --> 00:53:14.559
help people for no reason, they get to see it's

672
00:53:14.599 --> 00:53:17.480
not the reason to do it for me, but they

673
00:53:17.519 --> 00:53:24.119
get to realize that. Oh, because I think for some

674
00:53:24.199 --> 00:53:28.760
people it's quite an unusual situation to give without expecting

675
00:53:28.800 --> 00:53:32.440
anything back. I mean, I've got help this week from

676
00:53:32.480 --> 00:53:38.960
people that want something back, then I've got you know, So,

677
00:53:39.000 --> 00:53:43.880
I've had lifts. I've had three lifts this week. Turn

678
00:53:43.960 --> 00:53:48.679
them by someone that gets paid to take me. The

679
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:54.159
other one was by someone they didn't want anything, So

680
00:53:54.199 --> 00:53:58.599
it's kind of I offered the money to both. One

681
00:53:58.639 --> 00:54:05.760
said no, the other person said yes, and one went

682
00:54:05.800 --> 00:54:07.960
out of their way to take me and the other

683
00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:11.039
one and he took me because it was going where

684
00:54:11.039 --> 00:54:18.280
they were going anyway, So it is that's the person

685
00:54:18.320 --> 00:54:19.679
that went out of their way to take me. It

686
00:54:19.679 --> 00:54:21.920
was the one they didn't want any money. It's kind

687
00:54:21.920 --> 00:54:25.119
of just a weird if they're both helping, and I

688
00:54:25.159 --> 00:54:30.800
was grateful for both. But it's just a different, different

689
00:54:30.840 --> 00:54:34.119
way of thinking. And I quite like that because that's

690
00:54:34.159 --> 00:54:42.039
the way I think is. I don't know, that just

691
00:54:42.119 --> 00:54:50.119
feels right, you know, helping someone feels right, It just

692
00:54:50.119 --> 00:54:56.280
feels nice. So technically, I suppose it could just be unselfish.

693
00:54:57.679 --> 00:55:03.440
I'm just just making myself feel nice by helping the

694
00:55:03.480 --> 00:55:07.000
neighbors and doing stuff. Maybe that's all it is. And

695
00:55:07.519 --> 00:55:11.559
to me, that's a win win because if I get

696
00:55:11.599 --> 00:55:16.119
to feel good and they feel the benefit as well,

697
00:55:16.559 --> 00:55:23.239
then that's a win win all around, I suppose. And

698
00:55:23.320 --> 00:55:26.599
I imagine my neighbor that gave me a lift, that

699
00:55:26.719 --> 00:55:33.360
didn't want anything, felt good for helping me. And he's

700
00:55:33.400 --> 00:55:35.960
only a young lad, he's only like twenty twenty one

701
00:55:36.079 --> 00:55:42.119
something like that, and I was lovely such a you know,

702
00:55:42.239 --> 00:55:47.119
he potentially hear the dogs in the back ground he

703
00:55:47.199 --> 00:55:52.199
potentially made himself late for work. So I said to him, look,

704
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:56.400
can you hear that? Dide? I just swear then, didn't I?

705
00:55:56.400 --> 00:56:01.639
I just said a naughty word, bloody dot. I can't

706
00:56:01.719 --> 00:56:03.920
moan about dogs because he does the same, this one

707
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:10.079
except him. He's like, he screeches is so high pitched

708
00:56:11.519 --> 00:56:23.880
it rattles the windows, rattles the windows of messle. So

709
00:56:23.920 --> 00:56:27.519
it's been a weird week. It's been a weird, weird week.

710
00:56:30.800 --> 00:56:40.559
It seems to have lasted. Really. The dog doesn't doesn't

711
00:56:40.559 --> 00:56:43.679
normally bark quite so much. It's probably a cat in

712
00:56:43.760 --> 00:56:47.360
the garden or the kid. Maybe the kid out there

713
00:56:47.440 --> 00:56:52.039
just playing with it. Of Ben, his tail's going now,

714
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:57.880
so he's hearing. He's hearing the dog. Did your tail disco? Vinnie?

715
00:56:58.880 --> 00:57:01.960
Are you excited about it here with the doggie? Here?

716
00:57:02.000 --> 00:57:02.760
You excited?

717
00:57:03.400 --> 00:57:06.199
Yeah?

718
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:19.320
The week feels like it's lasted a long time. It

719
00:57:19.440 --> 00:57:22.440
doesn't really feel as if it's gone. It's gone quickly

720
00:57:22.840 --> 00:57:27.920
at all. That might be partly because I've got a

721
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:34.199
lot done. I know, I haven't made loads of recordings,

722
00:57:34.239 --> 00:57:47.320
but I've done a few, and I've done a lot

723
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:52.639
of traveling, a lot of traveling and I worked it

724
00:57:52.639 --> 00:57:57.000
out the other day with yesterday that I think I've

725
00:57:57.039 --> 00:58:08.960
been out more in the last nine days, like probably

726
00:58:09.079 --> 00:58:14.960
than I have done the last two years, maybe three years,

727
00:58:17.280 --> 00:58:29.280
maybe two years. Actually leave in the area that I live. Yes,

728
00:58:30.239 --> 00:58:32.559
Oh wait, wait a minute. In January, didn't I did?

729
00:58:32.679 --> 00:58:35.880
Did I? Jiu jitsu didn't I? So I went there

730
00:58:35.880 --> 00:58:41.079
a few times or a couple of times. That's two

731
00:58:41.199 --> 00:58:53.000
journeys out. Hm hmm. That was in the winter. It

732
00:58:53.119 --> 00:59:01.119
was cold. It was cold. It's really I try not

733
00:59:01.239 --> 00:59:04.760
to moan too much about the weather. The only weather

734
00:59:04.800 --> 00:59:09.119
that annoys me, well, the only okay, the only weather

735
00:59:09.199 --> 00:59:16.519
that affects me really is rain, just because of this

736
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:25.599
little one, and he just refuses if it's raining, he

737
00:59:25.679 --> 00:59:31.840
refuses to do his business quickly. It's almost like he

738
00:59:31.880 --> 00:59:35.559
wants to take his time. Now. In reality, he might

739
00:59:35.639 --> 00:59:40.400
just be doing exactly what he normally does. But I'm

740
00:59:40.400 --> 00:59:44.079
getting wet and I don't want to get wet or

741
00:59:44.159 --> 00:59:46.199
the rain when it's windy as well, so I can't

742
00:59:46.280 --> 00:59:52.480
use me bolli, so the umbrella can't be used. It's

743
00:59:52.880 --> 01:00:02.360
just okay, yeah, especially at night, so I can't see

744
01:00:02.400 --> 01:00:08.719
anything much. It's raining and it's windy, or even if

745
01:00:08.719 --> 01:00:13.360
it's raining, and then I've got so, I've got my torch.

746
01:00:13.440 --> 01:00:15.000
My torch is broken, so I have to get a

747
01:00:15.039 --> 01:00:21.360
new torch. So holding a torch, holding a brolley and

748
01:00:21.400 --> 01:00:26.840
trying to steer this little one and pick up his

749
01:00:26.920 --> 01:00:33.119
bits and bobs after he's sprinkled them onto the floor,

750
01:00:33.719 --> 01:00:40.639
let them fall down like little anchors out a little boat.

751
01:00:43.760 --> 01:00:52.960
Phillers poos are very much like angers. Yeah, it's something

752
01:00:53.000 --> 01:00:56.119
I didn't realize. I was watching Words or Gummage earlier,

753
01:00:56.360 --> 01:00:59.000
and it was the original words are coming from the

754
01:00:59.159 --> 01:01:08.320
probably early eighties, late seventies, early eighties, And there was

755
01:01:08.360 --> 01:01:10.880
another character in it that I'd not seen before, or

756
01:01:10.880 --> 01:01:14.039
at least i'd forgotten about, and it was Barbara Windsor.

757
01:01:15.159 --> 01:01:21.119
She was like this porcelain statue and Barbara Windsor, I mean,

758
01:01:21.159 --> 01:01:29.440
she looked young there, and she would have been I mean,

759
01:01:29.480 --> 01:01:31.119
she wasn't old, but she would have probably been in

760
01:01:31.159 --> 01:01:35.960
her forties at that point, but she just looked so young.

761
01:01:37.760 --> 01:01:40.159
And because she I wait a minute, no, she was

762
01:01:40.199 --> 01:01:45.920
in Was she in the carry On movies in the

763
01:01:46.000 --> 01:01:50.079
sixties or was the seventies that Barbara Windsor was in

764
01:01:50.119 --> 01:01:58.800
the carry On movies. I'm not sure because yeah, she

765
01:01:58.880 --> 01:02:04.159
might have just been still in a thirties. She just

766
01:02:04.239 --> 01:02:06.880
looked so young. I had not seen her outside of

767
01:02:06.880 --> 01:02:10.480
the carry On movies. I'd not seen Barbara Windsor look

768
01:02:10.599 --> 01:02:16.000
young like that kind of you know, young, because when

769
01:02:16.000 --> 01:02:21.800
she was in EastEnders she was a lot older, and

770
01:02:21.840 --> 01:02:26.760
she was probably in her seventies, sixties and seventies or whatever, fifties, sixties, seventies.

771
01:02:29.639 --> 01:02:34.519
I've forgotten, like what she looked like. I've never seen her.

772
01:02:34.559 --> 01:02:37.320
It was out of context. I've seen her in two

773
01:02:37.400 --> 01:02:41.360
different places, the carry On Movies and EastEnders, and there

774
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:47.320
was many years between them. Never seen her in anything else.

775
01:02:48.719 --> 01:02:52.320
So this is the first time and I was like, wow, okay,

776
01:02:53.199 --> 01:02:56.039
that's the Barbara winds I remember from the carry On movies.

777
01:03:00.039 --> 01:03:02.119
This would mean nothing if you don't know who Barbara

778
01:03:02.159 --> 01:03:06.000
Windsor is, and if you don't know what to carry

779
01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:12.079
On movies are. And they are a I don't wanted

780
01:03:12.119 --> 01:03:23.119
to explain it. Really, they are a heritage from this country.

781
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:30.599
They were they were comedy comedy movies, and I love them.

782
01:03:30.719 --> 01:03:35.280
I still love them. Not everyone's cup of tea, of course, never,

783
01:03:35.400 --> 01:03:37.880
no one, and no one. No one's ever going to

784
01:03:37.960 --> 01:03:41.039
love everything, are they? By the way. I watched a

785
01:03:41.079 --> 01:03:51.159
movie called The Amateur, and it's really good. It's really good.

786
01:03:51.280 --> 01:03:57.679
It's got I can't remember his name. It's got quite

787
01:03:57.679 --> 01:04:00.400
a few famous people, quite yeah, quite a few big

788
01:04:00.480 --> 01:04:04.920
names in it. It's really good movie. Unfortunately, I think

789
01:04:04.960 --> 01:04:07.000
the problem with some of these movies that are coming

790
01:04:07.039 --> 01:04:11.920
out is the titles. The titles don't give away really.

791
01:04:12.199 --> 01:04:14.119
I mean it does, I guess if you think about it.

792
01:04:14.159 --> 01:04:17.880
But now seeing it, The Amateur makes kind of sense.

793
01:04:17.960 --> 01:04:24.440
But it's all like espionage, and that doesn't really interest

794
01:04:24.519 --> 01:04:35.199
me so much, you know. But it's really good, really good. Yeah,

795
01:04:35.320 --> 01:04:42.480
I liked it. And I find myself not watching movies

796
01:04:42.559 --> 01:04:47.920
because they just don't. They look a bit bland, like

797
01:04:48.000 --> 01:04:55.239
the cover. The descripture doesn't even sound interesting. Nice playing

798
01:04:55.320 --> 01:05:02.880
going past. I did watch a movie the other day called,

799
01:05:02.920 --> 01:05:09.440
I think it's called The Death of Stalin, very funny.

800
01:05:10.159 --> 01:05:13.840
Amando Nucci, I think is the person that wrote it.

801
01:05:15.880 --> 01:05:23.159
Amando Amando Anucci. I think that's his name. Is phenomenal.

802
01:05:23.719 --> 01:05:25.599
I think he wrote in the Thick of It or

803
01:05:25.679 --> 01:05:30.639
the Thick of It, very very funny bloke, great writer,

804
01:05:31.599 --> 01:05:36.880
and very different from anything. I think he's got a

805
01:05:36.920 --> 01:05:40.480
different a different way of looking at the world to

806
01:05:40.880 --> 01:05:47.760
any other writer or producer that I've seen. I don't

807
01:05:47.760 --> 01:05:52.159
know if he produced it, but he wrote it. It's

808
01:05:52.320 --> 01:05:56.800
really good. It's very funny. It's just and because they

809
01:05:56.800 --> 01:06:01.320
didn't do you know, when they do movies and they

810
01:06:01.320 --> 01:06:04.360
have they put on accents and stuff like that. They

811
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:08.920
didn't bother with this. It didn't need it, and I

812
01:06:08.960 --> 01:06:15.480
don't think it's needed really. I know some some producers

813
01:06:15.599 --> 01:06:22.159
or directors are looking for some kind of authenticity, so

814
01:06:22.199 --> 01:06:29.880
they'll you know, they'll have try and put on foreign accents.

815
01:06:29.920 --> 01:06:35.440
And this didn't even bother even Starling. Starling himself was

816
01:06:35.440 --> 01:06:41.039
a company, like a Londoner And it was funny. It's

817
01:06:41.119 --> 01:06:47.360
just it's great. It's a really, really, really good movie.

818
01:06:48.440 --> 01:06:51.000
I started to watch it years ago because not a

819
01:06:51.039 --> 01:06:53.639
new one started to watch it years ago, but I didn't.

820
01:06:54.840 --> 01:06:59.079
I don't know. Sometimes I'm not in the mood and

821
01:06:59.159 --> 01:07:02.320
I just give up watching something because it doesn't it

822
01:07:02.360 --> 01:07:08.039
doesn't catch me, doesn't grab me. I'll tell you a

823
01:07:08.079 --> 01:07:12.239
couple of things were like that. One was you're gonna

824
01:07:12.280 --> 01:07:18.800
be surprised at this Sopranos. I thought it was a

825
01:07:18.840 --> 01:07:23.840
part of Poo Poo when it first came out. Watched

826
01:07:23.840 --> 01:07:26.320
a little bit of it and I thought, now, see you,

827
01:07:28.320 --> 01:07:30.360
I don't want anything to do with it. I thought,

828
01:07:30.400 --> 01:07:33.400
oh god, this is boring. It's just another one, another

829
01:07:34.639 --> 01:07:38.400
Robert de Niro Want to Be movie. You know, It's like, nah,

830
01:07:39.679 --> 01:07:43.760
it's been done to death. It ended up being one

831
01:07:43.760 --> 01:07:49.239
of my favorite TV shows probably ever, because it was

832
01:07:49.280 --> 01:07:53.519
a great show. I mean arguably by millions of people

833
01:07:53.599 --> 01:07:58.079
that loved it. I just at the start, I just thought,

834
01:07:59.639 --> 01:08:02.800
and it was really promoted. It was, you know, this

835
01:08:03.000 --> 01:08:06.039
big thing. I watched a new TV show, The Soprano's

836
01:08:06.480 --> 01:08:09.840
new HBO show. It's going to be on Channel four

837
01:08:09.880 --> 01:08:16.840
on Sunday nights, starting with a double episode. So I thought, nyeah,

838
01:08:17.880 --> 01:08:21.399
now you're a right And then I ended up watching

839
01:08:21.439 --> 01:08:24.279
it for what ten eleven years whatever it was on.

840
01:08:27.720 --> 01:08:28.039
Yeah.

841
01:08:28.319 --> 01:08:34.279
Wow. It started when I was in London, started when

842
01:08:34.279 --> 01:08:38.279
I was in London, and it finished when I was

843
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:42.640
I think in the last the last year of university

844
01:08:43.199 --> 01:08:52.600
or the second year of university. That's crazy in it.

845
01:08:55.840 --> 01:09:02.439
Apologies for the squeaky sounds in the background to neighbors

846
01:09:04.479 --> 01:09:06.920
I think it's quite a little echoy area down there.

847
01:09:07.239 --> 01:09:11.439
That's what it was. I don't think it's so much

848
01:09:11.479 --> 01:09:14.399
that people are talking really loudly. They are, but I

849
01:09:14.399 --> 01:09:17.199
don't think it's it's I don't think they're talking. I

850
01:09:17.239 --> 01:09:19.760
think they probably just talking normal volume. No they're not.

851
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:24.199
It's echoy. So it's like a little echo chamber. And

852
01:09:27.359 --> 01:09:30.159
we have a similar thing in this garden, but it

853
01:09:30.239 --> 01:09:34.720
seems to catch the wind sometimes, like the wind seems

854
01:09:34.760 --> 01:09:46.119
to move around the garden. Another TV show was I

855
01:09:46.279 --> 01:09:53.039
tried to watch this multiple times. It was The Walking Dead.

856
01:09:54.560 --> 01:09:56.439
I tried to watch it and I only got as

857
01:09:56.479 --> 01:09:59.479
far as there's the beginning. I'm not going to spoil

858
01:09:59.520 --> 01:10:01.600
it really just tell you he wakes up in a

859
01:10:01.640 --> 01:10:06.359
hospital and he walks out of the hospital and then

860
01:10:06.399 --> 01:10:12.319
he sees her there, the first zombie or whatever, and

861
01:10:12.359 --> 01:10:15.520
I just turned it off. I just got off bored.

862
01:10:18.239 --> 01:10:20.920
I tried to watch it probably about five six times,

863
01:10:21.680 --> 01:10:24.600
thinking to myself, well, this is a popular TV show,

864
01:10:25.319 --> 01:10:28.680
I should really give it another go. And at this

865
01:10:28.880 --> 01:10:36.399
point I think there's probably into season three at that time.

866
01:10:36.479 --> 01:10:41.199
Because I hadn't yeah, because I hadn't had any decent

867
01:10:41.279 --> 01:10:46.359
internet that was even fast enough to to stream Netflix

868
01:10:46.640 --> 01:10:50.359
at that time, and back then Netflix was pretty much

869
01:10:50.399 --> 01:10:55.399
the I think Amazon was around as well, but they

870
01:10:55.399 --> 01:10:58.880
were the two main ones, Amazon and Netflix. There was

871
01:10:58.920 --> 01:11:02.600
no Apple teev, there was no now TV I don't

872
01:11:02.640 --> 01:11:11.920
think which was Sky, and there was no Paramount streaming,

873
01:11:13.000 --> 01:11:17.680
and there would have been no Disney Plus streaming, so

874
01:11:17.840 --> 01:11:22.359
it's you know, it's MGM streaming, so it's kind of

875
01:11:22.399 --> 01:11:26.680
a bit limited. Netflix was pretty much the main one,

876
01:11:26.960 --> 01:11:31.319
and apparently I only needed five megabytes a second to

877
01:11:31.439 --> 01:11:34.359
stream Netflix and I didn't. My internet didn't even cover that.

878
01:11:36.560 --> 01:11:46.119
It's like wow. So it wasn't really until I I

879
01:11:46.119 --> 01:11:52.560
think I moved in here that I started watching The

880
01:11:52.600 --> 01:12:00.840
Walking Dead. Unless I did, I might maybe downloaded it.

881
01:12:00.920 --> 01:12:04.520
I can't remember. I know I downloaded all of the

882
01:12:04.560 --> 01:12:10.079
episodes of Frasier. I think I downloaded all the episodes

883
01:12:10.119 --> 01:12:15.560
of Cheers and I watched them every day. This was

884
01:12:15.680 --> 01:12:23.039
during the period when I was I suppose probably waiting

885
01:12:23.199 --> 01:12:27.680
for this place, that year two year period when I

886
01:12:27.800 --> 01:12:40.279
was kind of in a bit of a limbo LIMBOI period. Yeah,

887
01:12:40.359 --> 01:12:44.479
I watched every single episode of Frasier. I think I

888
01:12:44.520 --> 01:12:46.680
probably watched a couple of episodes a day while I

889
01:12:46.720 --> 01:12:54.600
was having me breakfast. And I don't think I even

890
01:12:54.720 --> 01:13:05.239
had a television at that time, which is weird. No,

891
01:13:05.399 --> 01:13:08.039
I must have had a television. How could I not

892
01:13:08.119 --> 01:13:11.479
have had a television. I think I did. Yeah, I

893
01:13:11.479 --> 01:13:12.560
did have a television.

894
01:13:16.720 --> 01:13:26.880
Yeah.

895
01:13:27.039 --> 01:13:43.159
Another one was, oh what's his name? This? Hear this sounds?

896
01:13:43.159 --> 01:13:44.399
I don't know if you can hear them or not.

897
01:13:47.279 --> 01:13:49.000
I can hear them, so I imagine you can hear

898
01:13:49.039 --> 01:13:57.840
it will be less. Why the shouting? I sometimes think

899
01:13:57.880 --> 01:13:59.760
that the adults are just saying to the kids, shout

900
01:13:59.800 --> 01:14:05.680
now on he's making a podcast up there, show because

901
01:14:05.680 --> 01:14:15.159
they're bored. But I'm probably just imagining that. Maybe there was.

902
01:14:16.760 --> 01:14:19.319
Remember when I first moved in there, there was a

903
01:14:19.319 --> 01:14:23.279
little bit of a neighborly dispute going on between this

904
01:14:23.399 --> 01:14:26.000
bloke that lived downstairs and the bloke that lived upstairs

905
01:14:27.439 --> 01:14:31.880
and the bloke lived downstairs. I had a few friends,

906
01:14:33.640 --> 01:14:37.319
like other neighbors, and they were literally standing outside. This

907
01:14:37.399 --> 01:14:44.000
is early in the morning, and you know those things

908
01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:48.119
that go bang, you know, like little gunpowder, a little

909
01:14:48.199 --> 01:14:51.000
gunpowder packages and you used to chuck them on the

910
01:14:51.000 --> 01:14:55.479
floor and they go bang. But were really loud. They

911
01:14:55.520 --> 01:14:57.560
had them, and they were chucking them up at his window,

912
01:14:58.640 --> 01:15:06.279
at his bedroom window. And that was quite early on

913
01:15:06.359 --> 01:15:10.319
when I first moved in. And that's when I realized,

914
01:15:11.760 --> 01:15:19.560
uh uh, what I've I done, because that is the

915
01:15:19.600 --> 01:15:23.039
mentality of some of the people that have lived around it,

916
01:15:25.399 --> 01:15:32.039
because it's very That's not adult behavior, is it. And

917
01:15:32.079 --> 01:15:39.600
I thought, wow, that's very strange. I'll tell you one day,

918
01:15:39.640 --> 01:15:41.760
because I don't really tell I don't talk about what's

919
01:15:41.760 --> 01:15:46.600
happened around it. One day, I need to write a

920
01:15:46.640 --> 01:15:50.439
little book. I'll do it vaguely. I'm not going to

921
01:15:51.079 --> 01:15:54.199
mention anyone's names, the fact I can't remember anyone's names anyway,

922
01:15:54.760 --> 01:15:58.840
because they're just people have come and gone. But some

923
01:15:58.920 --> 01:16:03.680
of the things I've seen, Wow, some of the things

924
01:16:04.680 --> 01:16:10.119
you wouldn't believe it. I saw a couple of neighbors

925
01:16:10.159 --> 01:16:13.520
getting him to punch up over some frozen sausages. Hm,

926
01:16:14.079 --> 01:16:23.359
it's true. Wow. Uh. I remember once my friend downstairs,

927
01:16:23.680 --> 01:16:26.680
he came home. He was with his cousin and his

928
01:16:26.720 --> 01:16:31.159
cousin's kid, but he was a little bit worse for

929
01:16:31.279 --> 01:16:35.880
where before he even went out. He got escorted back

930
01:16:35.920 --> 01:16:40.159
by the police. We got brought back by the police.

931
01:16:40.560 --> 01:16:49.319
And I think this is before I got finny, but yeah,

932
01:16:49.359 --> 01:16:52.119
I'm not sure. I think it was yet, it would

933
01:16:52.119 --> 01:16:57.600
have probably been before that. So my friend was telling

934
01:16:57.640 --> 01:17:00.920
me he was a little bit bruised. So he said

935
01:17:00.920 --> 01:17:04.760
that he got started on by there was like six

936
01:17:04.800 --> 01:17:11.159
blokes and this is him outside. So he's outside the

937
01:17:11.159 --> 01:17:13.319
police car. He's not in trouble or anything. The police

938
01:17:13.319 --> 01:17:16.159
had brought him home, so I think he was struggling

939
01:17:16.199 --> 01:17:22.279
to really function, and I think he just went up

940
01:17:22.319 --> 01:17:26.239
to them and just they didn't like him approaching them

941
01:17:26.319 --> 01:17:33.880
or something. I don't know. And yeah, well we stopped

942
01:17:33.880 --> 01:17:36.000
a few because he could he was struggling to walk.

943
01:17:36.119 --> 01:17:38.800
It was because of what he had ingested, whether it

944
01:17:38.840 --> 01:17:42.319
was alcohol or whatever. So he was very worse aware,

945
01:17:42.359 --> 01:17:47.720
as I said, So we were stopping every few seconds,

946
01:17:48.520 --> 01:17:53.680
and he telled me this story. It'd tell it over again,

947
01:17:53.920 --> 01:17:56.439
and it'd changed every time. By the time we got

948
01:17:56.520 --> 01:18:01.039
inside his flat, there were thirty men that started on

949
01:18:01.159 --> 01:18:07.319
him in the park, three hundred. It just kept expanding,

950
01:18:08.159 --> 01:18:13.720
so like, you know, I don't know, I don't know

951
01:18:13.760 --> 01:18:16.960
what he was talking about. End it was funny, you know,

952
01:18:17.119 --> 01:18:21.760
started off at six, ended up at thirty and it

953
01:18:21.840 --> 01:18:26.159
started off there was six teenagers that were just being

954
01:18:26.159 --> 01:18:31.560
a bit obnoxious, and then it ended up being like

955
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:38.119
thirty raw marines in tanks. It was like, what the

956
01:18:38.159 --> 01:18:46.159
heck's going on here? I remember the only time because

957
01:18:46.159 --> 01:18:50.600
he used to love to lie, but sometimes it was obvious.

958
01:18:50.640 --> 01:18:54.720
Sometimes it was less obvious, and we'd laugh at stuff,

959
01:18:54.720 --> 01:18:57.800
you know. But remember once he said something and I said,

960
01:18:57.840 --> 01:19:02.319
I'm calling BS on that, and he couldn't stop laughing

961
01:19:02.680 --> 01:19:04.680
because he wasn't used to people standing up to him

962
01:19:04.720 --> 01:19:07.000
to be out I think, like pulling it or pulling

963
01:19:07.039 --> 01:19:09.680
him up on stuff like that. But it was so

964
01:19:10.239 --> 01:19:15.319
ridiculous what he said because I knew, I literally knew

965
01:19:15.600 --> 01:19:20.479
the truth. I knew what was what. I wasn't in

966
01:19:20.479 --> 01:19:23.319
the mood for just going along with it. You know,

967
01:19:23.399 --> 01:19:25.039
sometimes I just go along with it just for the

968
01:19:25.079 --> 01:19:28.079
sake of it. It was easier if it depended on

969
01:19:28.199 --> 01:19:30.359
how he was, what his mood was like, or what

970
01:19:30.399 --> 01:19:33.520
my mood was like. But on that occasion, my mood

971
01:19:33.600 --> 01:19:36.920
wasn't prepared to put up with it. And I said,

972
01:19:36.920 --> 01:19:41.119
I'm calling BS on that. That might not be in

973
01:19:41.119 --> 01:19:45.119
the words I used, but you know, and he just

974
01:19:45.119 --> 01:19:49.279
stopped and looked at me and literally he couldn't stop laughing.

975
01:19:49.399 --> 01:19:54.039
It was just because he said, you don't normally say

976
01:19:54.039 --> 01:19:55.640
stuff like that to me. I said, I know, but

977
01:19:55.800 --> 01:20:01.600
come on, I can't bothered. He's just talking rubbish, absolutely rubbish,

978
01:20:01.640 --> 01:20:05.720
and he just leid, I know, but he just I

979
01:20:05.760 --> 01:20:08.760
don't know. It's a very funny moment, a very funny moment.

980
01:20:09.600 --> 01:20:13.720
There was another time with him, So we had another

981
01:20:13.800 --> 01:20:17.439
friend who I'm still friends with, who came in here

982
01:20:17.560 --> 01:20:22.960
and he I think we was watching boxing. Very likely

983
01:20:23.000 --> 01:20:27.960
it was boxing, because that was often the only time

984
01:20:28.079 --> 01:20:31.880
the Saturday evening where my friend would be upstairs with

985
01:20:31.920 --> 01:20:36.479
me because normally, well normally on a Saturday night, I

986
01:20:36.560 --> 01:20:40.079
watched boxing or I'm left alone, So if he's up here,

987
01:20:40.119 --> 01:20:44.600
it's usually because boxing's on or when he was around

988
01:20:44.680 --> 01:20:50.479
d Is. So my other friend comes up. Well, it's

989
01:20:50.479 --> 01:20:52.399
more he was like mutual friend of both of us

990
01:20:52.399 --> 01:20:54.359
and other neighbors. So he came in. He was just

991
01:20:54.359 --> 01:20:57.560
sitting next to me and he said, I was sitting

992
01:20:57.560 --> 01:21:01.560
at my table. He was sitting on him here, and

993
01:21:03.359 --> 01:21:06.319
my other friend, my friend downstairs, was sitting on a

994
01:21:06.399 --> 01:21:13.039
chair over there. So the new friend that just come in.

995
01:21:13.119 --> 01:21:15.680
He said, Oh you O k if I if I

996
01:21:15.960 --> 01:21:23.279
light up a A j O I N t.

997
01:21:26.640 --> 01:21:26.680
H.

998
01:21:28.319 --> 01:21:37.039
It rhymes with point point point shoint loint point. I

999
01:21:37.079 --> 01:21:39.199
can't think of a word that is a proper word

1000
01:21:39.199 --> 01:21:47.560
that rhymes like that. Point hmmm, point point that's it

1001
01:21:47.640 --> 01:21:52.800
rhymes a point anyway, I said, yeah, I suppose, I

1002
01:21:52.800 --> 01:21:57.880
don't care. I think he was just sitting there having

1003
01:21:57.880 --> 01:22:00.000
a beer and I was sitting there probably drinking cocaine

1004
01:22:00.079 --> 01:22:07.600
cola and the stuff was so pungent because I don't

1005
01:22:07.680 --> 01:22:11.239
I don't touch that stuff, and he's like so pungent,

1006
01:22:12.720 --> 01:22:19.760
and I was I was coughing a little bit. He

1007
01:22:19.760 --> 01:22:24.640
he my friend downstairs was like looking at me like, oh,

1008
01:22:24.680 --> 01:22:31.199
it's awful smell. So my friend with the with thing

1009
01:22:31.520 --> 01:22:35.000
the rhymes with point, he said, kind of borrow the toilet.

1010
01:22:35.119 --> 01:22:37.119
I said, as long as you give it back. We

1011
01:22:37.239 --> 01:22:40.399
all laughed and he said okay, So he went to

1012
01:22:40.439 --> 01:22:45.079
a toilet. Luke, my mother friend from downstairs, he said

1013
01:22:45.079 --> 01:22:47.960
to me, you've got to please ask him just to

1014
01:22:48.039 --> 01:22:52.039
put that out. Is making me choke because Luke did

1015
01:22:52.079 --> 01:22:56.119
have really bad lungs. Anyway, he had I don't know

1016
01:22:56.640 --> 01:23:02.800
asthma and I see per copd whatever. So he said,

1017
01:23:03.199 --> 01:23:05.960
can you ask him to put it out? Because I

1018
01:23:06.760 --> 01:23:10.640
just can't struggling to breathe with that thing on there,

1019
01:23:11.000 --> 01:23:12.840
and I want to watch the boxing. We had the

1020
01:23:12.840 --> 01:23:14.760
windows open and everything, but it was just too much.

1021
01:23:15.920 --> 01:23:18.600
So I said, all right, I'll ask him. So he

1022
01:23:18.680 --> 01:23:21.800
comes out of the toilet and he sits down and says,

1023
01:23:21.920 --> 01:23:24.960
I don't mean to be rude or anything, but are

1024
01:23:24.960 --> 01:23:28.239
you okay to maybe smoke down in the kitchen or

1025
01:23:28.600 --> 01:23:30.720
put it out or maybe go in the garden because

1026
01:23:30.720 --> 01:23:37.399
it's a bit too pungent, too a bit too smoky.

1027
01:23:37.520 --> 01:23:39.800
So he was fine with it. He said, that's that's okay,

1028
01:23:39.800 --> 01:23:44.920
that's fine, Luke. Luke pipes up. He says, oh, really,

1029
01:23:44.960 --> 01:23:46.680
I'm fine with it. It's okay with me. It's not

1030
01:23:46.720 --> 01:23:53.279
bothering me. It's like and he looks at me and smiles.

1031
01:23:54.079 --> 01:23:57.279
It's almost like he did it purposely, just to make

1032
01:23:57.479 --> 01:24:03.680
me look silly. I didn't. I didn't say anything. I

1033
01:24:03.720 --> 01:24:09.439
was like, just shook my head. I can't believe. And

1034
01:24:09.479 --> 01:24:11.319
then we watched the box and he kept looking over

1035
01:24:11.399 --> 01:24:14.079
and smiling at me because he was so pleased with himself.

1036
01:24:15.359 --> 01:24:20.800
And when the other neighbor left. The other neighbor left,

1037
01:24:20.880 --> 01:24:23.600
Luke started laughing because he was holding the laughter in

1038
01:24:23.800 --> 01:24:28.000
right away. He's like giggling to himself and they started laughing.

1039
01:24:28.039 --> 01:24:32.279
As soon as my other neighbor left. He could think

1040
01:24:32.279 --> 01:24:34.439
a boxing finished or he had to go and do something.

1041
01:24:36.600 --> 01:24:41.359
And I've told that neighbor since because since Luke passed,

1042
01:24:41.560 --> 01:24:44.880
or when he'd left, I told the other that neighbor

1043
01:24:44.920 --> 01:24:50.359
about the story. He found it funny because it's just

1044
01:24:50.720 --> 01:24:53.279
it's how how Luke was. He's just had that his

1045
01:24:53.399 --> 01:24:58.399
sense of humor was. It was just it was a

1046
01:24:58.439 --> 01:25:02.840
funny moment. It's one of my one of my fond memories. Actually,

1047
01:25:03.800 --> 01:25:07.880
another one was when the same neighbor actually he spent

1048
01:25:07.960 --> 01:25:12.439
the summer living in Luke's flat because he had some problems.

1049
01:25:12.520 --> 01:25:15.800
He had his own flat, but he he Luke was

1050
01:25:15.840 --> 01:25:18.800
kind of looking after him really, sort of emotionally, and

1051
01:25:18.800 --> 01:25:25.600
they're spending time with him and another neighbor opposite in

1052
01:25:25.640 --> 01:25:34.039
the building. Opposite was mowing the lawn and apparently this

1053
01:25:34.079 --> 01:25:36.560
is what happened. Luke puts his head out the out

1054
01:25:36.560 --> 01:25:39.960
of the window says, excuse me, mate, I suppose you

1055
01:25:39.960 --> 01:25:42.680
could just hold off doing that for a little while

1056
01:25:42.800 --> 01:25:45.199
because I've only just got him to sleep. So the

1057
01:25:45.239 --> 01:25:47.640
neighbor came over, thinking it was a baby. He looked

1058
01:25:47.960 --> 01:25:50.319
through the window and there's a fully grown man on

1059
01:25:50.359 --> 01:25:56.439
the sofa asleep, and they both started laughing. The neighbors

1060
01:25:56.439 --> 01:26:03.840
started laughing. And it's when I was down there when

1061
01:26:03.840 --> 01:26:07.319
this happened, and when when Luke told me. Honestly, it

1062
01:26:07.359 --> 01:26:09.000
was one of the funniest things I heard for a

1063
01:26:09.079 --> 01:26:13.119
long time, because it was so ridiculous, like, oh, can

1064
01:26:13.159 --> 01:26:15.000
you keep it quiet. I've just got him off to sleep,

1065
01:26:15.840 --> 01:26:18.039
Like you don't think that's going to be a grown man,

1066
01:26:18.840 --> 01:26:22.920
a grown adult asleep on the sofa when you say that,

1067
01:26:24.079 --> 01:26:26.800
and I've just got him off to sleep, like it'd

1068
01:26:26.800 --> 01:26:31.359
be like cradling him and singing bedtime stories to him

1069
01:26:31.439 --> 01:26:38.159
or something, lullabies. I'll tell one maybe that as well.

1070
01:26:38.159 --> 01:26:42.439
He found it funny. So this it's weird because those

1071
01:26:42.479 --> 01:26:47.600
two stories were kind of a connection with that other neighbor.

1072
01:26:48.079 --> 01:26:51.800
There's always going to be there, however strange that might be.

1073
01:26:53.279 --> 01:26:59.159
It's there's that connection because we were both friends with Luke,

1074
01:27:00.479 --> 01:27:06.000
and yeah, Luke was kind of just looking out for

1075
01:27:06.159 --> 01:27:16.159
him for that summer. Yeah, wow, I don't know what

1076
01:27:16.239 --> 01:27:25.960
I'm talking about him, mister Lukey. Baby, I got a

1077
01:27:28.640 --> 01:27:34.560
thing in the winter, like before Christmas, and it was

1078
01:27:34.600 --> 01:27:38.359
going to be dangling on the tree outside because Luke

1079
01:27:38.479 --> 01:27:42.000
planted the Christmas tree that's in the front garden. It's

1080
01:27:42.039 --> 01:27:44.159
now as big as the building. But it was a

1081
01:27:44.159 --> 01:27:48.000
little sapling when he planted it, and it's grown to

1082
01:27:48.079 --> 01:27:58.119
be massive, so he's as funny as it grew. Once

1083
01:27:58.159 --> 01:28:04.720
he got above the length of the surrounding bushes that

1084
01:28:04.760 --> 01:28:11.079
are trimmed, the council kept coming out and starting to

1085
01:28:11.119 --> 01:28:13.840
trim the tree. So every time the trimmers were out,

1086
01:28:14.079 --> 01:28:15.960
Luke could run out and say, don't touch the tree,

1087
01:28:16.960 --> 01:28:20.359
don't touch the tree. And he did that for years,

1088
01:28:20.520 --> 01:28:22.720
don't touch the tree. And then the tree got too

1089
01:28:22.720 --> 01:28:24.760
big and everyone left the tree alone and they kind

1090
01:28:24.800 --> 01:28:28.079
of got to know. And now it is nearly as

1091
01:28:28.119 --> 01:28:31.119
tall as the building. So I kind of look at

1092
01:28:31.119 --> 01:28:33.560
that tree and I think of him because I know

1093
01:28:33.640 --> 01:28:37.399
that he planted it and I was. I mean, he

1094
01:28:37.439 --> 01:28:40.800
planted it before I was even here, because he'd lived

1095
01:28:40.840 --> 01:28:44.520
there a couple of years before me, maybe three years

1096
01:28:44.520 --> 01:28:51.479
before me, so he'd already planted that Yeah, he must

1097
01:28:51.479 --> 01:29:01.840
have been because he'd lived there for twelve years. Wow, So yeah,

1098
01:29:01.920 --> 01:29:05.119
maybe maybe more than maybe more than two years before me.

1099
01:29:08.479 --> 01:29:10.239
I think he might have lived here for four or

1100
01:29:10.239 --> 01:29:18.640
five years before I got here. Yeah, maybe it's I

1101
01:29:18.640 --> 01:29:21.600
can't I could find out, but I don't know exactly.

1102
01:29:23.079 --> 01:29:26.640
It's not really important, is that I suppose my neighbor

1103
01:29:26.840 --> 01:29:32.439
that's in hospital, he's been here since about nineteen ninety nine, which,

1104
01:29:32.479 --> 01:29:34.359
if I do remember, it is about the same time

1105
01:29:34.359 --> 01:29:46.399
as a soprano starting roughly roughly. That's a long time.

1106
01:29:47.680 --> 01:29:50.000
It's a lot. It doesn't seem like a long time,

1107
01:29:50.039 --> 01:29:53.560
but it does as well. At the same time, how

1108
01:29:53.560 --> 01:29:57.560
many times can I say in a sentence? Times, time, time, time,

1109
01:30:00.399 --> 01:30:11.560
A lot's happened. But then what is it now? Twenty nine,

1110
01:30:11.680 --> 01:30:18.239
thirty nine, forty nine fifty nine, So it's twenty twenty

1111
01:30:18.319 --> 01:30:26.279
six years. Because that period was potentially the highlight of

1112
01:30:26.319 --> 01:30:30.000
my life, of my adult life kind of, it was

1113
01:30:31.079 --> 01:30:35.079
one of the best periods of my life between the

1114
01:30:35.119 --> 01:30:43.960
ages of i'd say probably January nineteen ninety eight and

1115
01:30:48.560 --> 01:30:53.439
two thousand and one. Once it got to two thousand

1116
01:30:53.479 --> 01:30:58.479
and one, things when a little bit eerie, not eerie

1117
01:30:58.640 --> 01:31:09.079
bit bit not so great, but eighty eight, eighty nine,

1118
01:31:09.920 --> 01:31:19.119
ninety nine, two thousand, eighty ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine,

1119
01:31:19.239 --> 01:31:21.960
two thousand, two thousand and one. So yeah, I had

1120
01:31:22.159 --> 01:31:28.239
three three years which things were going fairly well in

1121
01:31:28.319 --> 01:31:37.640
some ways, and because I just started my interest in

1122
01:31:37.840 --> 01:31:43.199
hypnosis NLP, and then in two thousand I became super

1123
01:31:43.319 --> 01:31:52.760
interested in the Internet and building websites. So during two thousand,

1124
01:31:53.800 --> 01:31:59.159
the whole year I devoted to building websites, to learning

1125
01:31:59.199 --> 01:32:01.600
how to build ups sites, and it was the most

1126
01:32:01.640 --> 01:32:04.800
exciting thing I'd ever done in my life. For some reason,

1127
01:32:05.319 --> 01:32:12.359
I became obsessed with it, absolutely obsessed, and I missed

1128
01:32:12.359 --> 01:32:18.600
that feeling. And I kind of realize now that I

1129
01:32:18.800 --> 01:32:24.399
was probably for some of that period going through a

1130
01:32:24.560 --> 01:32:33.319
very big manic stage, But I didn't know. All I

1131
01:32:33.359 --> 01:32:39.680
knew I was enjoying myself and i'd be awake, I

1132
01:32:39.720 --> 01:32:42.600
was getting like four hours sleep a night if that,

1133
01:32:43.680 --> 01:32:47.199
I didn't need to eat, really, just like I'd forget

1134
01:32:47.239 --> 01:32:49.920
to eat because I was so busy focusing on the

1135
01:32:49.920 --> 01:32:52.720
web pages and how to build them, had all these

1136
01:32:52.840 --> 01:32:57.479
big pile of books, HTML code, how to. Yeah, I

1137
01:32:57.600 --> 01:33:02.039
just loved it. Loved everything about it. It's like a

1138
01:33:03.479 --> 01:33:08.640
code I was trying to crack. I had had the books,

1139
01:33:08.680 --> 01:33:10.359
but I was trying to crack it on my own,

1140
01:33:10.880 --> 01:33:14.800
trying to figure it out on my own, and I

1141
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:18.439
once spent There's a thing you know, with on the internet,

1142
01:33:18.800 --> 01:33:22.079
or you know on the phone, you press a link,

1143
01:33:22.520 --> 01:33:25.119
click a link, and it takes you somewhere else. Another

1144
01:33:25.199 --> 01:33:29.199
website opens up, another page on the website takes you

1145
01:33:29.279 --> 01:33:38.880
to an app whatever. They're called hyperlinks. So I wanted

1146
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.319
to figure out how to build a hyperlink on a website,

1147
01:33:44.640 --> 01:33:48.000
a web page, rather to take it to other pages.

1148
01:33:48.159 --> 01:33:49.520
You could also do it so it took you to

1149
01:33:49.520 --> 01:33:51.800
another part of the page as well, but I wanted

1150
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:55.920
just to figure out how to do it. Now. It's

1151
01:33:56.039 --> 01:33:58.840
very easy to do if you just look into a book,

1152
01:34:01.920 --> 01:34:06.279
but I refused to do that. I wanted to work

1153
01:34:06.319 --> 01:34:15.159
out how to build a hyperlink by dissecting a page,

1154
01:34:15.319 --> 01:34:19.960
and I spent days doing this, just dissecting a page,

1155
01:34:20.439 --> 01:34:24.119
taking a little bit of code off, and then seeing

1156
01:34:24.119 --> 01:34:27.039
if that page works with the link, and if it

1157
01:34:27.079 --> 01:34:29.039
didn't work, I put it back to what it was

1158
01:34:29.079 --> 01:34:33.920
before and taken a bit more off. So I stripped

1159
01:34:33.960 --> 01:34:38.840
down the page as bare as possible, to the point.

1160
01:34:39.039 --> 01:34:41.479
And this was a big page from the Internet. It's

1161
01:34:41.479 --> 01:34:46.720
like an Internet page that I had copied. I stripped

1162
01:34:46.760 --> 01:34:50.920
it down to the bare minimum, to the point where

1163
01:34:52.159 --> 01:34:55.439
it pretty much was just the code for the link.

1164
01:34:55.760 --> 01:34:58.840
There was a little bit I suppose body whatever, just

1165
01:34:59.319 --> 01:35:02.800
so it had so it worked. But I broke it

1166
01:35:02.840 --> 01:35:07.760
down to its bare, bare minimum. And it took me

1167
01:35:07.960 --> 01:35:11.880
probably three three days, maybe four days even doing that,

1168
01:35:14.039 --> 01:35:20.479
eighteen hours a day, solidly focused on that one page,

1169
01:35:20.600 --> 01:35:24.199
and I loved every second of it. It was probably

1170
01:35:24.199 --> 01:35:27.600
a bit of frustration as well, because it didn't work

1171
01:35:27.640 --> 01:35:34.720
most of the time until it did, But it was

1172
01:35:35.039 --> 01:35:41.680
so satisfying when I figured out how to do it. Yeah,

1173
01:35:41.720 --> 01:35:43.560
I could have just looked in a book. I mean

1174
01:35:43.600 --> 01:35:47.640
I had probably five six books. Any of those books

1175
01:35:47.640 --> 01:35:55.600
would have told me how to build it. And it

1176
01:35:55.680 --> 01:36:01.800
was just I was determined to figure it out myself

1177
01:36:01.880 --> 01:36:06.000
by I guess reverse engineering it would be called now,

1178
01:36:10.039 --> 01:36:19.359
by unbuilding the page, starting from yeah, starting working my

1179
01:36:19.439 --> 01:36:22.880
way back to the beginning of the page being built.

1180
01:36:22.960 --> 01:36:28.119
You know. I did a similar thing for how to

1181
01:36:28.199 --> 01:36:32.840
make something, how to make text a different color, how

1182
01:36:32.880 --> 01:36:35.640
to make it a different size, how to make it bold,

1183
01:36:36.319 --> 01:36:42.920
how to yeah, all different things. It took. Yeah, So

1184
01:36:43.000 --> 01:36:47.039
I devoted a whole year to that. I loved it,

1185
01:36:47.159 --> 01:36:52.279
I really did. I remember I've told this story before,

1186
01:36:52.359 --> 01:36:59.199
but not for ages. When I started at Churchill Insurance,

1187
01:37:01.039 --> 01:37:07.920
we had information on a They called it the intranet,

1188
01:37:08.199 --> 01:37:12.000
so basically you could put stuff, you could read stuff

1189
01:37:12.000 --> 01:37:15.520
off the server. So it wasn't the Internet. You couldn't

1190
01:37:15.560 --> 01:37:22.039
access the Internet, but you could access bits of information. Now,

1191
01:37:22.079 --> 01:37:25.880
I decided that it's okay to have all that information,

1192
01:37:26.000 --> 01:37:32.760
but it's very much scattered and it would be easy

1193
01:37:32.800 --> 01:37:35.840
if it was all in one place. So I built

1194
01:37:35.840 --> 01:37:44.680
a website in between calls, and I linked all the

1195
01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:47.279
stuff that was on the computer system on the Internet,

1196
01:37:47.760 --> 01:37:53.439
so script to read out information about no claims, bonus,

1197
01:37:53.960 --> 01:38:01.119
information about each company, answers to common questions. A converter

1198
01:38:02.640 --> 01:38:09.239
a converter like a calculator, but it was specifically for

1199
01:38:09.359 --> 01:38:14.199
converting sales, to see what conversion you are and stuff.

1200
01:38:15.720 --> 01:38:18.119
But someone else built that, but I added that to

1201
01:38:18.199 --> 01:38:26.560
it and I started using it myself. I didn't and

1202
01:38:26.600 --> 01:38:29.640
then someone on my team said, oh, can you can

1203
01:38:29.680 --> 01:38:33.119
you email that to me? So I did, and eventually

1204
01:38:33.840 --> 01:38:36.279
quite a few people around the sales law was using

1205
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:39.520
it because it's useful because everything's in one place. You's

1206
01:38:39.560 --> 01:38:42.760
clicked on it and it just gave your list of

1207
01:38:42.800 --> 01:38:45.560
things you can click on, and it's it's very simple,

1208
01:38:45.600 --> 01:38:50.359
but it was useful. It was weird because on one day,

1209
01:38:52.000 --> 01:38:58.399
I'm on a phone call and my manager or myself

1210
01:38:58.439 --> 01:39:01.319
my team leader, said, when you finish that call, can

1211
01:39:01.359 --> 01:39:04.920
you come off? Can you can you log out? Said okay?

1212
01:39:04.960 --> 01:39:06.239
And I was coming to the end of the car

1213
01:39:07.079 --> 01:39:11.359
and I locked out and there was two blokes standing

1214
01:39:11.439 --> 01:39:14.800
there with him, and he said, can you come with us?

1215
01:39:17.000 --> 01:39:21.680
I thought, oh, this is not looking good. Really did

1216
01:39:21.720 --> 01:39:24.039
not know what's going on. I thought I'd messed up

1217
01:39:24.119 --> 01:39:29.560
big time, you know, sold sold lor insurance or haulage

1218
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:32.720
insurance to someone with a mini, you know, I just

1219
01:39:32.800 --> 01:39:38.720
made a mistake like that that has happened. But yeah,

1220
01:39:39.760 --> 01:39:42.319
but it wasn't. It wasn't anything like that. So they

1221
01:39:42.680 --> 01:39:46.319
took me up into the IT department and there was

1222
01:39:46.359 --> 01:39:48.600
another person in there and they all sat me down

1223
01:39:48.640 --> 01:39:51.640
and they said, did you is it is it true

1224
01:39:51.640 --> 01:39:55.960
that you built that website on the intranet? I said, yeah,

1225
01:39:57.279 --> 01:40:04.039
how did you do it? See? They thought I'd somehow

1226
01:40:04.720 --> 01:40:11.640
infiltrated the intranet and brought in software and maybe put

1227
01:40:12.000 --> 01:40:16.479
some kind of virus onto the system by using discs

1228
01:40:16.560 --> 01:40:18.880
and stuff like that, which I hadn't There was no

1229
01:40:19.000 --> 01:40:23.000
access to do that. And I said, have you done it? Then?

1230
01:40:23.560 --> 01:40:27.079
I said? I said, well, if you brought a disk in,

1231
01:40:27.159 --> 01:40:30.359
if you've managed to, how have you got it onto

1232
01:40:30.439 --> 01:40:34.920
the internet? I said, I built it? So what do

1233
01:40:35.000 --> 01:40:36.960
you mean you built it? You built the website how?

1234
01:40:37.800 --> 01:40:40.279
I said, what do you mean how? I just built it?

1235
01:40:40.520 --> 01:40:46.640
Just I know how to build websites. It's very basic,

1236
01:40:46.920 --> 01:40:50.720
you know, it's nothing special here. Probably couldn't do it now,

1237
01:40:50.800 --> 01:40:54.279
but I could then because I'd spent a year and

1238
01:40:54.319 --> 01:40:57.039
a half doing it, because I spent you know, half

1239
01:40:57.079 --> 01:41:00.760
of two thousand and one also doing it. And he said,

1240
01:41:00.960 --> 01:41:04.479
And they said they couldn't understand. How did I build

1241
01:41:04.479 --> 01:41:10.119
a website in between phone calls without bringing in discs

1242
01:41:10.199 --> 01:41:16.479
and code and without infiltrating the their servers. I said, no,

1243
01:41:16.600 --> 01:41:19.359
I just built a website on the server from my computer,

1244
01:41:19.880 --> 01:41:23.880
and then people wanted it, so I shared it. It

1245
01:41:23.920 --> 01:41:29.119
was just on It wasn't on the Internet, but it

1246
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:32.279
had a link to the Internet. So the website was

1247
01:41:32.359 --> 01:41:40.760
just a website page. It was on my desktop. I

1248
01:41:40.880 --> 01:41:44.800
shared it out all the hyperlinks to the pages on

1249
01:41:44.880 --> 01:41:47.720
the Internet. That's all it was. So it's just one

1250
01:41:47.760 --> 01:41:51.039
page opened up and it was a website with the

1251
01:41:51.079 --> 01:41:53.239
links to all the other stuff. So all the other

1252
01:41:53.279 --> 01:41:57.039
stuff was already on there. And they're like, how did

1253
01:41:57.039 --> 01:42:00.079
you do that? I said, I just did it, know

1254
01:42:00.199 --> 01:42:02.560
how to do it. And they couldn't believe. They didn't

1255
01:42:02.560 --> 01:42:05.000
believe me that I'd died off of my own head.

1256
01:42:07.319 --> 01:42:11.960
I said yeah, And they were annoyed because they said

1257
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.439
that they'd spent the last year trying to put together

1258
01:42:15.720 --> 01:42:20.359
some kind of website service which would do exactly what

1259
01:42:20.479 --> 01:42:24.520
I'd done. This would have been more complicated and more

1260
01:42:25.119 --> 01:42:30.359
precise and a much better version. But they were peeved

1261
01:42:30.520 --> 01:42:33.680
because this bloke said that he was taken on. He'd

1262
01:42:33.720 --> 01:42:36.159
been there for nearly a year and they had been

1263
01:42:36.199 --> 01:42:41.880
planning to do this. He was the IT boss or

1264
01:42:41.960 --> 01:42:44.279
part of the IT team, and now it's one of

1265
01:42:44.319 --> 01:42:47.640
his jobs is to put together at the website on

1266
01:42:47.680 --> 01:42:54.039
the intranet for all of the workers in this because

1267
01:42:54.039 --> 01:42:58.439
there was like hundreds of people working there, and then

1268
01:42:58.479 --> 01:43:01.920
they could update a new script to read out, or

1269
01:43:01.960 --> 01:43:04.840
there was a new raw there's new you know, always

1270
01:43:04.920 --> 01:43:08.680
changing stuff. So it'd be quite handy to have that information,

1271
01:43:10.960 --> 01:43:18.880
just stuff like the for new people, the the phonetic alphabet.

1272
01:43:20.720 --> 01:43:23.079
It's handy to have that because I was learning that.

1273
01:43:23.680 --> 01:43:27.560
I didn't know the phonetic phonetic alphabet properly until I

1274
01:43:27.640 --> 01:43:33.359
moved into until I started working in that job. So

1275
01:43:33.520 --> 01:43:35.199
someone new they could just have it on the screen,

1276
01:43:35.439 --> 01:43:38.000
just click a quick click and it's there and they

1277
01:43:38.000 --> 01:43:40.000
can just read it, read it out, just get to

1278
01:43:40.039 --> 01:43:43.680
know it, and have it on a little have it

1279
01:43:43.720 --> 01:43:47.079
on a little page below what they're doing. So it's

1280
01:43:47.119 --> 01:43:50.159
just always there. So it's just simple things like that.

1281
01:43:50.960 --> 01:43:52.399
And he said, well, we're going to have to take

1282
01:43:52.439 --> 01:43:57.439
it off because it's I can't have it on the internet.

1283
01:43:57.479 --> 01:44:00.880
I said, it's not on the internet. It said, what

1284
01:44:00.960 --> 01:44:05.760
you mean. I said, it's just on people's desktops, individual desktops.

1285
01:44:06.800 --> 01:44:09.600
You can just ask people to take it off their desktops.

1286
01:44:11.039 --> 01:44:15.039
It links to the internet, but it's not on the internet.

1287
01:44:15.840 --> 01:44:18.880
So they basically they had no control over it. And

1288
01:44:18.920 --> 01:44:21.960
I think that's what annoyed them because this thing was

1289
01:44:22.000 --> 01:44:25.039
not on their own Internet, which is what an internet is.

1290
01:44:25.079 --> 01:44:29.199
It's basically it's a it's the company Internet, which they

1291
01:44:29.239 --> 01:44:33.000
have complete control over. But if you have a link

1292
01:44:34.000 --> 01:44:38.000
to that Internet and your part that you're in that system,

1293
01:44:38.680 --> 01:44:42.279
then it just logs into it. I don't think they

1294
01:44:42.359 --> 01:44:44.880
knew that was possible. Maybe they didn't realize you could

1295
01:44:44.880 --> 01:44:49.479
do that, so I didn't know. It wasn't supposed to

1296
01:44:49.479 --> 01:44:51.840
be done. I didn't know that it shouldn't be able

1297
01:44:51.880 --> 01:44:54.640
to be done because it's the Internet's supposed to be

1298
01:44:54.760 --> 01:44:58.920
very private and secure, which makes you wonder maybe that

1299
01:44:59.079 --> 01:45:01.520
link on the normal into the Internet might have taken

1300
01:45:01.640 --> 01:45:04.039
there as well. I don't know. I doubt it, though.

1301
01:45:06.319 --> 01:45:09.239
So they told me you can't use it, can't use

1302
01:45:09.279 --> 01:45:11.079
it anymore because we're going to They were going to

1303
01:45:11.079 --> 01:45:13.720
build their own and they're in the middle of doing it.

1304
01:45:14.119 --> 01:45:17.560
And I had a little hope then a little hope

1305
01:45:17.560 --> 01:45:22.039
in my chest at a little bit of a little

1306
01:45:22.039 --> 01:45:25.199
bit of who maybe they're going to ask me to

1307
01:45:25.239 --> 01:45:30.000
help build it. But they didn't. They didn't at all,

1308
01:45:32.119 --> 01:45:35.279
And I was like, oh, okay, because I could have

1309
01:45:35.279 --> 01:45:39.359
built it so easily what I already had but I

1310
01:45:39.359 --> 01:45:42.199
could have made it much better and maybe looked into

1311
01:45:42.359 --> 01:45:44.319
you know, with the right software and stuff, I could

1312
01:45:44.319 --> 01:45:47.119
have made it quite nice. It's not that I was

1313
01:45:47.359 --> 01:45:52.199
I didn't have any qualifications or experience. I just had

1314
01:45:52.319 --> 01:45:58.000
a year and a half of phaneticism for building websites.

1315
01:45:58.119 --> 01:46:04.800
That was my obsession. I was obsessed with it. That's

1316
01:46:04.840 --> 01:46:09.039
all I did with my time. Loved it, loved every

1317
01:46:09.079 --> 01:46:12.720
second of it. It's weird. I just absolutely loved it.

1318
01:46:13.760 --> 01:46:23.039
And they never built the Internet the Internet website while

1319
01:46:23.039 --> 01:46:25.840
I was there anyway, but they did tell people to

1320
01:46:25.880 --> 01:46:29.600
take it off. I didn't take it off mine, and

1321
01:46:29.680 --> 01:46:32.239
other people didn't take it off theirs either, so people

1322
01:46:32.239 --> 01:46:37.319
were still using it. So they just, you know, they

1323
01:46:37.319 --> 01:46:39.720
were still putting stuff on the Internet like individual where

1324
01:46:39.720 --> 01:46:41.680
they didn't put it in a way that you could

1325
01:46:41.760 --> 01:46:46.560
just find it easily and quickly. So I just continued

1326
01:46:46.640 --> 01:46:51.199
using mine and updating it as I needed it. And

1327
01:46:51.600 --> 01:46:54.680
a year later they still hadn't I think the bloke left,

1328
01:46:55.720 --> 01:46:58.840
they still hadn't put it together. I'm sure they have

1329
01:46:58.960 --> 01:47:04.199
now twenty odd years later, but it was it was

1330
01:47:04.239 --> 01:47:09.399
like a little quite a nice little moment for me, really,

1331
01:47:10.399 --> 01:47:12.479
Although to start with, I was a little bit concerned.

1332
01:47:12.680 --> 01:47:18.800
I've been taken in the room with four men, thinking

1333
01:47:18.880 --> 01:47:22.239
all what I've had done. But yeah, it was it

1334
01:47:22.279 --> 01:47:25.920
was quite cool. They just couldn't believe it, like how

1335
01:47:25.960 --> 01:47:28.880
could you do that on your own? The thing is

1336
01:47:29.079 --> 01:47:35.800
it was quite basic code HTML. It's once. You see

1337
01:47:35.840 --> 01:47:41.039
that even now, actually even now I can because I

1338
01:47:41.159 --> 01:47:43.920
use code for my website. It's code is already there,

1339
01:47:43.920 --> 01:47:47.560
but I add my own code and I can get

1340
01:47:47.840 --> 01:47:50.239
chet GPT to make the code. But I can change

1341
01:47:50.239 --> 01:47:55.199
the code. I still know now it's very basic. Just

1342
01:47:55.239 --> 01:47:58.640
by changing the size of things, the color of things.

1343
01:47:59.399 --> 01:48:03.720
I can change the links, so I can play around

1344
01:48:03.720 --> 01:48:08.520
with the code. Even now, even after all those years,

1345
01:48:08.119 --> 01:48:11.479
it is quite it's quite handy. I can read through

1346
01:48:11.520 --> 01:48:17.119
the code and kind of find some stuff, you know,

1347
01:48:18.560 --> 01:48:22.159
even after all those years. So a year and a

1348
01:48:22.199 --> 01:48:29.079
half of obsession, some of it did stick. But then

1349
01:48:29.119 --> 01:48:33.479
again in two thousand and four, I was building my

1350
01:48:33.479 --> 01:48:36.880
own websites as well, so I took a break from

1351
01:48:36.880 --> 01:48:46.800
building websites for two years, so two thousand and two,

1352
01:48:47.079 --> 01:48:50.119
two thousand, no about a year and a half, two years,

1353
01:48:50.479 --> 01:48:55.199
and then I started again. So in September two thousand

1354
01:48:55.199 --> 01:48:57.640
and one or no, it was a summer two thousand

1355
01:48:57.640 --> 01:49:00.479
and one. I was no longer building website. It's because

1356
01:49:00.520 --> 01:49:05.399
I was evicted. And then I moved to a new

1357
01:49:05.439 --> 01:49:10.159
place and I lived there two thousand and one, two

1358
01:49:10.199 --> 01:49:19.920
thousand and two, and probably yeah, two thousand and three

1359
01:49:20.199 --> 01:49:22.920
I got a computer and I started building websites again.

1360
01:49:23.640 --> 01:49:27.279
And then two thousand and four I built a website

1361
01:49:27.960 --> 01:49:32.079
which was helped with pain. And then two thousand and

1362
01:49:32.119 --> 01:49:37.520
six I built my website free Pain Relief dot co

1363
01:49:37.520 --> 01:49:45.239
dot uk. So I built that with code, and then

1364
01:49:45.560 --> 01:49:52.520
eventually I started using website builders because it was just easier.

1365
01:49:52.920 --> 01:49:56.680
It was a lot quicker, so I stopped using code.

1366
01:49:56.680 --> 01:50:00.600
I stopped building them from code, which was probably in

1367
01:50:00.640 --> 01:50:04.560
some ways a mistake, because that was a skill that

1368
01:50:04.600 --> 01:50:11.560
I could have built upon. And I'm not saying that

1369
01:50:11.640 --> 01:50:14.760
I was skillful, but it was definitely some knowledge I

1370
01:50:14.840 --> 01:50:20.800
had which everyone was doing something that I really enjoyed

1371
01:50:20.800 --> 01:50:23.800
doing as well. So there's a lot of shouting in

1372
01:50:23.800 --> 01:50:27.079
the garden, so I'm going to go, so thank you

1373
01:50:27.119 --> 01:50:29.640
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1374
01:50:29.720 --> 01:50:33.880
do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You

1375
01:50:33.960 --> 01:50:39.479
do deserve to feel safe, lots of love, Bye,