June 28, 2025

(no music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025

(no music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewan dot com. My name is

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It's goin a smell of perfume for some reason. That's weird.

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It's got this picture. Wow, it's almost like Vinnie's just farted.

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But it's a nice smell, so it couldn't have been

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one of his farts. It couldn't have been. How strange.

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So yeah, welcome to me me. I'm Jason new Land.

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This is Q and A Friday. Please only listen when

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you can safely close your eyes. And it is the

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twenty seventh of June twenty twenty five.

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Ooh ooh, that's nice.

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Oh dear, so, I've got many questions. I'll be honest

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with you. I'm recording this on Saturday morning. I am,

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I really am. Yes, it was dom dum dum. So yeah,

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I'm doing this Saturday morning. It's nine forty seven am.

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I couldn't do it yesterday. I was so tired, so tired.

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I got home. What time did I get home? About

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two o'clock ish in the afternoon, And oh, I just yeah,

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I sat for a little while and then I went

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to bed when they had to lie down. Wow, I'm

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just on Facebook now and there's the politicians in America

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and not particularly loved. It seems not all of them

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are particularly cherished. Hm. Wow, oh so anyway, let me

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have a look. Not particularly it makes me I'll tell

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you what makes me laugh, okay, is people. You know,

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when people say, oh, we want our free speech, or

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they say something like in this country, the prime minister

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is taking away our free speech and he's a nobed

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or something like that, and it just makes me laugh

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because or they say, always this person is a dictator.

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He's a dictator. If the person in charge of your

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country was a dictator, you would not be standing there

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with a big placard calling that person names. You would

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be in a prison. You would not be allowed to

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do that. It makes us like, go do that in

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Russia or China. Go on, give it a go baby,

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go on. Ah, we don't have any free speech. No,

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I think I think you do. I think you do.

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It's a dictatorship. Okay. Well, the fact that you can

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say that online and you can walk around just freely

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saying that stuff means you're not living under the dictatorship

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means you don't understand what dictatorship means. I stopped now,

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I'm moving back to Q and A Friday. I just

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find it funny you don't understand so Q and A Frida.

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I have six comments, but they're not all questions. I

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got one, two, three questions, a fourth one but wasn't

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really a question. But I have sorted out the issue,

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so I addressed that one first. Michelle asks me, not

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really a question, but when I listen to the playlists

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on your website, I'll get ads during the podcast anyway

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to avoid this? Thanks? And Jonathan writes in reply, no

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ads on Apple podcasts, and Michelle writes, I'm trying to

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listen old podcasts from twenty twenty, not current ones, current ones,

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current ones, current ones. And basically, for anyone who doesn't

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know on my website, let's have a look my beautiful website,

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which is now back. There is the first but basically

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on the very first page you've got all the latest recordings,

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and then at the top of the page you've got

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four boxes that you can click on podcasts, playlists, podcast apps,

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and contact and then below that you've got the PayPal

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link and boring join the Facebook group link. If you

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click on playlists, at the moment, there's only four playlists,

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four different podcasts that I've got playlists for, so clicking

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on let Me Boy to Sleep, for example. And I'm

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still in the process of building this, okayse It's gonna

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take a while, but I'm still in the process. So

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the only one that works at the moment is without music.

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There currently isn't any playlists old playlists with music at all,

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but there will be with music or without music, with music,

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five hours without music, five hours with music, ten hours

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without music, ten hours or with music. But at the moment,

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just the without music ones. And I've got them in

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groups of fifty, so one to fifty, fifty one to

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one hundred. The last one I've got is one thousand,

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three hundred and fifty one to one thousand, four hundred,

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so I have Yeah, So I've updated all of that,

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so they were all now on there, So that's which

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wasn't them before I did that yesterday, so I managed

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to make sure it's all updated. Now. What I didn't

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know is that the all right, I don't know what

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I'm hearing. Someone's playing some a movie or something very

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loud in the garden. So I there was adverts in

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the middle of the podcast, which I would never have

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never I would never do that. But the podcasts, because

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all of the new podcasts I've done, the ones like

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one hundred and one to one fifty and all those,

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I'd set those up separate, and I didn't click the

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right box. I didn't cancel the adverts, so adverts were playing.

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I've now gone through every single podcast from the playlist.

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That is because it wasn't happening on the other podcast

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the normal podcasts, because as I said, I would never

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allow that to happen if I knew about it. I

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just didn't know about it, and I didn't even realize

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that the podcasts did that though automatically had it that

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it's kind of a setting that you have to undo manually,

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and I didn't realize it did it. It's been quite

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a while. I don't know why it did it. Anyway,

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that has been reversed, so none of the playlists will

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have that anymore. So, just apologies to anyone that was

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affected by that. I've let Michelle know, but just letting

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everyone know as well now so I've now got it

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changed anything else about my website, and so look, I

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will look at I think what I'm going to do

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is I'm going to have to do probably a little

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bit of reverse engineering with this one, because I can't

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go too far back with the podcasts because I'm only

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allowed to have the ones with music that have got

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the Spreaker music on them. The ones that because that's

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the only one that the podcast allows I put any

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other different music on there, they will just they might

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end up closing the podcast again, which I don't want

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to go through that game. So, you know, it might

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just be for the Let Me Boy to Sleep. It

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might only be the last one hundred, one hundred and

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fifty recordings maybe that has the music, and so I

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can't do that right now because I'm doing this, but

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I will look into that so that you can click

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on the you know, have the versions that are five

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hours without music five hours with music. Technically I should

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be able to do five and ten hours without music

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for every single one. But when I first started doing

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they Let Me Boy to Sleep, I didn't do more

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than just the initial recording. I didn't do different versions,

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didn't do longer versions, didn't do versions with music at all.

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So what I might do instead of going back and

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re making new, more and more recordings, I'm just going

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to leave the ones from the past as they were,

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but make sure that all future recordings are added and

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all more recent ones are as well. That made sense

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to me when I said it, but I'm not sure

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if it made sense after I said it. I'm not

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even sure if that sentence made sense. Did it make sense?

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I don't know. I'm not sure. I'm going to be

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sleeping a lot today. I am. I can feel it.

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I can feel when I've done this, I'm going to

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go and lie down very warm last night, very warm. Indeed,

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I got no chocolate. I got some groceries yesterday, and

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all that money I spent on groceries, and it's like,

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I don't know, there's like there's nothing to show for it.

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It's like what what what? What?

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What?

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Where? Where's all the stuff? Well? Here is everything. It's

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like this, there's hardly any fanais of breakfast, cereal and

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some milk, some bread rolls. Yeah, there's not a lot

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of stuff there. I'm not quite sure how it came

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to be one hundred and twenty two pounds. I don't know.

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One hundred and twenty two pounds. I'd spend less than

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that in a month back in nineteen ninety. That was

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quite a long time ago, to be fair. But yeah,

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I remember when thirty pound was quite a big shop.

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It was a good like two three bagfuls of food

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for thirty pound, and you know one hundred pound that

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would be an overloaded trolley full of stuff. Yeah, I

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need to look into that. I need to I need

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to mix some changes. I think because I ordered my

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food on uber Eats, I get it delivered the groceries,

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I'm beginning to think that they just add on a

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lot more to the price because the delivery is two pound,

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and maybe they I can't remember if they charge any

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four the there's another charge, isn't there. I'm not sure. No,

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not a delivery. I think the delivery was No. Yeah,

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maybe the delivery was four pound. I always leave a

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tip of two pound, which is not a lot, but

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it does add up over the weeks. But then I

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also carried all the stuff up. Oh yeah, because I

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got quite a few bottles of water, so that's like

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four kud of packs. I got four packs of water.

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But I ended up helping because when I first got

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stuff for muber eats, the whole one of the main

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points of getting deliveries is so that I don't have

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to carry the stuff. It kind of seems to defeat

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the object of getting a delivery if I'm carrying it.

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I don't know. It just seems a bit of a

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weird concept really, And I the more time's gone by,

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the more often I end up helping them with the

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with the delivery. And part of the reason I don't

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want to sort of carry it is because of my back.

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So I was trying to avoid, you know, doing all

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the bending over and stuff if all possible. I don't know, Yeah,

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I seem to have I mean I did delivery. This

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is a few weeks ago. It was a takeaway delivery.

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I think it was pizza. Rub me up to come

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down and collect it. It's like, no, do you come

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in and you knock on my door. That's that's how

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it works. It's like, since the winter delivery driver is

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not even knock on your door anymore? Did you This

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is I'm just moaning today. Did you know in England, well,

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where I used to live, and probably the same in

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other places, maybe not London, but the same you know

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in like towns and stuff. In the eighties, the early eighties,

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maybe the middle eighties, even in the nineties. I think

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but definitely in the eighties, you'd order a taxi, they

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would knock on your door. They'd actually knock on your

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door to come and collect you, let you know the

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tax is there. And then someone discovered the horn, and

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I think one of them must have seen the other

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one do it. I guess it's a bit like in

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an animal kingdom, isn't it. You see a monkey breaks

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a nut with a rock, like oh, and they all

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start doing it. It's a little bit like that, I think.

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And one taxi driver saw another taxi driver not getting

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out of the cab, not getting out of the car,

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and just bibbing his horn relentlessly until the person came out.

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Bearing in mind this is before mobile phone, and so

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the taxi couldn't phone, couldn't phone, you know, the person

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in the house. And then it just became that. That's

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how it became like everyone just bibbed their horn. And

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now they don't bid their horn. It's just they just

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sit there and maybe the phone you or there's you

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got apps now? And they said, you're a text you're

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cars here, this is the registration of your car. The

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driver's name is unpronounceable. Potentially I try and pronounce the

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delivery driver's names. I do, and they seem to like it.

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I think they appreciate the fact they've given it a go.

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But I get it wrong so often so hi abdul

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bum bum dumb, and they they laugh. I remember one

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says that he said, no, it's my name is Jamie. Okay, sorry,

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I get it wrong, but I give it a go.

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I give it go. Do I do? Because I don't

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know why. I just get bored. I guess baba ba boom.

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B b b b.

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I don't know about oper I'd kind of like to

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stop using them, really because it's expensive. But it's getting

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to the point. You know, McDonald's won't even deliver here now.

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They delivered here before, they delivered either if you went

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on their website or downloaded their app, or if I

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was to go through Uber Eats or one of the

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other ones delivery or whatever, and they would deliver. McDonald's

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not anymore. They've decided it's too far away, which is

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kind of ironic because it's one of the closest places

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there is. I get deliveries from places way further away

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than that. The McDonald's here, well, the closest McDonald's probably

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about five minutes in the car from my way. I

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live just one straight road. It's really it's not far

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at all. I wonder why that is. Maybe I don't know.

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I don't know, mind you. The McDonald's always seemed to

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be cold when it got to me. No, I'm not.

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I've not ordered it many times, but I've done a

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bit of market research, and other neighbors that have got

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McDonald's they say the same thing, and the chips are cold,

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or the fryers are cold, and the burgers are kind

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of lukewarm. I've not used that term for years. Lukewarm

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where it came from. Lukewarm For those who don't know

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what it means, it just means slightly warm. It's a

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bit like when you fill your bath up and it's

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really way too hot, so you put some warm you

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put some cold water in, but then you put in

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too much cold water in and it goes from being

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too hot to too cold, too cool for a bath.

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It's not cold, but it's just lukewarm. And it's amazing

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how it's almost like three seconds too much to three

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seconds too much of cold water can turn it from

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being a nice bath to a cold bath. And then

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you need to put some more hot water in, but

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you have to unplug, you have to let some water

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out because it takes ages to get it hot again

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or warm. Strange and that it's one of those. It's

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an anomaly that needs to be sorted out. Forget space travel.

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We need to sort that one out. We need to

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figure out what going on there anyway, Tammy is the

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first question. Oh, by the way, my neighbor is he's

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doing all right. He's for those that want to know,

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still in the hospital. He's had a scan, like a

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full proper body scan, not like the ones I do

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with the recordings, but inside this big tube and apparently

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the moandit because he kept moving around. I said, there

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wasn't the right time to start dancing, was it? Really?

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We laughed. I mean, I think it's because he can't

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stop talking. He literally cannot stop talking. Is I was

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trying to figure what is it? What is it that

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creates someone that cannot stop talking. I can be a

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little bit like that myself. Is it disliking silences or pauses?

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But it's kind of talking without listening as well? So

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I do have a tendency of talking. But I can

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also listen and it's it's not a monologue, not not

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like here when I do this. This is a monologue,

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isn't it. I guess, isn't it. It's a monologue monologo.

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But in person it's a two way street. But it

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depends on what the conversational topic is. So if you

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start talking about boxing, providing your boxing fan, and you

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know something about boxing, it's going to be a two

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way conversation equally. But I'm going to be excited about

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what I'm going to say next, So I will be

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just waiting for you to stop talking so I can talk,

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but I will also be listening to what you're saying,

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and i'll readjust what I'm going to say depending on

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what you just said. It's almost like as a big

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cure things that I want to say, and they're just

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waiting impatiently to get on the ride the next roller coaster,

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which is my verbal diarrhea that's about to pop out

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my mouth when I talk next. It's a little bit

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like that. But I noticed that I can't listen to

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someone that's talking about something I'm not interested in, unless

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it's kind of in a scenario like this. You know,

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it's you never got my eyes closed, and it's just relaxing.

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It's a kind of different thing. But in a real

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life situation, when there's a person just talking at me

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constantly for hours and hours, it's I find it hard.

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I just I don't. I don't not very good with

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that stuff. I've known a couple of people like that

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in my past, both really lovely people, genuinely really nice people,

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but they once they start talking, I'd struggle to follow

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where they were going. One. Yeah, it's I think it's

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a there's a common thread, and I think I've kind

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of in some ways absorbed part of that kind of

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personality in order to produce these recordings in a way,

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because that's kind of how I started off. When with

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the let Me Boy to Sleep, it was I mean,

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it was just another version of something I'm previously done

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before anyway, which was speaking out quietly I think, or

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thinking out quietly, something like that. And there was another one,

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I forget the name of it, but it was where

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I was just I guess, stream of consciousness, just talking NonStop,

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and I realized I could do it. I could do

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it really easily. It was there was no no effort, nothing,

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it took yeah, no energy. It was just the easiest

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thing in the world to just talk. I'm sure it

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could be with anyone else as well. I'm not I'm

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not saying I'm special, although all my teachers told me

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I was special. And but in a real life situation,

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you know, because if it's so, if you met me

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in real life, and of course as soon as you

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saw me, you'd want to rip my clothes off. Not

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because I'm sexiest, because I'm wearing really horrible clothes. It's

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unless you was I mean to be fair, if you've

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if you're used to hearing me, listening to me just

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waffling on like I do, and you're used to just

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feeling relaxed, just maybe just the idea of listening to me.

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When you think of me, maybe you feel I relaxed inside,

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and perhaps my voice does send you to sleep. So

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if you saw me in person, met me in real life,

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it might be weird. I mean, it'd be weird, obviously,

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you know. I think if you've got together with all

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the people who have met me, they'll always say the

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same thing. Weird. Not in a bad way necessarily, but weird.

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But I can't quite put my finger on it. Is

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something not the same as other people, but not in

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a good way. You know, there's it's one good you know,

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you could feel sort of so proud of yourself. Well,

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I'm not like other people, but with me, it's always

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been like I wish I was. And then you say

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other people, what's other people?

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What?

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Everyone is the same except you are? They obviously not.

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But I do have an abnormal brain, so I don't

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I'm on the spectrum of something, but I just don't think.

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I don't think it's I don't think it's been discovered yet.

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Whatever spectrum I'm on, it's an unknown quantity. Wow, I

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would like my friend has just had this. I've only

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started the podcast ever yet. Sorry, Sorry Tammy and Jonathan

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and Tina, who've got questions. I am going to answer

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the questions, I promise, but at the same time, I

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can't stop talking. It's I forgot what I was going

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to say. Now now that I've just I've interrupted, did

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myself rudely completely forgot what I was going to say,

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something about being on a spectrum and notes gone. It's

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gone out me ed. What was I going to say

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something about it? Should I get tested? Oh? So my neighbor.

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He had a full scan, so I basically he had

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a scan to first of all, which was a cat scan,

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which scans the bones and the skeletal system. I do

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believe it scans other things as well, but this, this

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full body scan was it goes in depth, so scans

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your brain just you know it basically your entire body.

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And i'd like to I don't know if I particularly

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want to have a body scan, because who knows what's

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going on in there, and I think I perhaps would

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rather not know in some ways, but I would like

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to have a brain scan because there's something not right

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with my brain. Then yeah, it's just and it's not,

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it's just it's a fact. There's something that never has

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my brain's never been correct, and I've always been something off,

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a bit weird. So I'd love to get a brain

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scan and just for them to say, ah, because I

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might have only half a brain or something. You know,

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it might be one of those that that it's like,

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which would make makes sense, but it might be just

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like just have a what's that thing the brain, the

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brain stem. There might be a brain stem and just

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a little bit of jelly on the side. That might

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all it might be maybe some peanut butter on the

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other side, a little bit of bread at the bottom.

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I don't know that, you know, there might not be

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anything in there, and it'd be nice to just find out,

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because that sort of bugs me. Doesn't bug me, but

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I just don't really understand it. Things like mental illness issues,

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mental health issues, conditions, you know, it's like bipolar schizophrenia.

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There's so many, isn't it so? And they're classed as

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brain conditions. So things like anxiety could be a brain condition,

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but quite often maybe is due to something that's happened

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in the past, due to a phobia, due to you know,

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social stuff, not necessarily also got autism as well. It's

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a brain thing, isn't it. So these are brain things.

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Then there's environmentally things that have changed someone environmentally behaviorally,

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which can technically be fixed with time, with therapy, with understanding.

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I guess that, you know, can hopefully be changed at least.

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So I wonder why, bearing in mind that there's millions

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of people with these brain conditions, let's just stay those

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three bipolar, schizophrenia and autism. I mean, they're different things.

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I'm not saying autism is saying as bipolar schizophrenia. I'm

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just saying, it's a it's a brain condition, isn't it.

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It's a brain thing, I say, call it. So why

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why are they're not just scan in every single person

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with everyone was bipolar. Just scan their brain, maybe every adult,

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not the kids. Maybe it's every adult with bipolar. Scan

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their brain once and then look and compare, do comparisons,

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and do the same with people with schizophrenia or there's

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lots of different conditions in between that, and you know,

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but then do the same with people with autism. Just

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scan the brains and look at it, look at them

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because at the moment, all they do the experts in

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this country anyway, I don't know. Maybe other countries they

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do more. But unless it's a brain injury, they don't

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tend to scan the brain all. So it's just guesswork

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based on how you feel and how you behave and

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previous history, previous medical history, you know, stuff like that.

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So just scan it. You know, if you get a

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broken bone, they scan the bone so they can see

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if it's broken or not. They can't tell if it's

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broken unless they scan it. I mean they probably can,

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but it probably it hurt a hell of a lot.

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Could they have to really manipulate you wouldn't they to

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sort of to feel where it's broken. But generally they

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do a scan so they can see if it's broken

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in one place, it's broken in two places, if everything's okay.

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You know, it's just as a clean break. And it's simple,

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a simple process which is done probably millions of times

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a day around the world. So why can't they just

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do that with brains? And it's not about having lots

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of different scans, just one scan per person just to

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start with, because I know it's it's not safe to

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keep having keep having lots and lots and lots and

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lots of X ray scans and stuff. But just one

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per person and then they can get an idea what's

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really happening, because they do they do do brain scans

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on people, you know, when they do studies, but just

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do it on everyone. That's why, that's what I think,

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But only adults to start with, leave the kids alone,

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you know, just to work on the adults first and

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then then perhaps move to the kids and work with

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that as well, because it's like it's a very different

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situation for kids to and for adults. So I don't

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know any ideas, I suppose any questions, but it could be, well, yeah,

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are you going to answer the questions that are for

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Q and A Friday, because that's why we're here. Weren't

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here to just be lectured about two about having brain scans.

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I don't know. I'm kind of quite passionate about that.

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I didn't realize I was until just now quite passionate

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about possibly. It just makes sense to me, you know,

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I understand why they don't do full body scans for everyone.

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You know. It's simply because it's too expensive, apparently, and

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also they'd have to start treating people, you know, because

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you know, you know, you know, you know, I'm saying,

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you know a lot. I know you know it would Yeah,

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it would open up a big old box of frogs.

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I don't think that's the correct terminology, because generally people

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only get a body scan when they're not when it's

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too late, but you know, when there's an issue. And

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if my friend hadn't turned yellow, he'd still be in

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his flat, unaware that he was unwell because he feels fine,

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and he'd be enjoying the football or the rugby, or

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the cricket or the tennis. I don't know what other

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sports likes, but you know, that's what he lives for.

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That's his passion in life, so he'd be having the

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time of He just enjoys his life, so he'd be

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doing that or we can and be happy. Instead, he's

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stuck in a hospital ward and he feels fine, physically,

467
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feels absolutely fine. It's strange. I've never known anything like

468
00:40:29.159 --> 00:40:32.199
this before. It just kind of doesn't make sense to

469
00:40:32.280 --> 00:40:37.599
me because he's not around. Everyone's around does not feel fine.

470
00:40:39.039 --> 00:40:42.840
He's the only one. I'm not saying, he's the only

471
00:40:42.840 --> 00:40:45.519
one in the hospital that's sitting in the hospital bed

472
00:40:46.159 --> 00:40:49.440
feeling absolutely fine and kind of wondering why they're there.

473
00:40:50.840 --> 00:40:52.880
You know, there's no way I can say that, because

474
00:40:52.880 --> 00:40:56.880
there's no way of known. But I'm pretty sure there's

475
00:40:56.880 --> 00:41:03.639
not many that are just he feels perfect, or he

476
00:41:03.679 --> 00:41:08.920
feels exactly how he always has. You know, he's slowed down.

477
00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:14.400
He's nearly eighty's. He walks a lot slower than he

478
00:41:14.440 --> 00:41:17.000
would do that he did, you know a year ago

479
00:41:17.079 --> 00:41:21.119
even but he just he's aging a bit and he's

480
00:41:21.199 --> 00:41:23.280
careful when he walks up and down the stairs. But

481
00:41:23.400 --> 00:41:26.199
so am I. Ever since I fell down them stairs

482
00:41:26.840 --> 00:41:32.639
a couple of years ago. I'm full on both handles,

483
00:41:32.840 --> 00:41:38.239
I'm holding onto both banisters. I've got like five coats

484
00:41:38.280 --> 00:41:41.159
in case I fall. You know, there's a trampoline at

485
00:41:41.159 --> 00:41:46.400
the bottom of the stairs. That would be the worst

486
00:41:46.480 --> 00:41:48.199
thing to fall on, wouldn't it because you just end up

487
00:41:48.199 --> 00:41:54.000
banging into the ceiling. That would be such a really yeah,

488
00:41:54.480 --> 00:41:56.599
you know, someone fell off of you know, if you're

489
00:41:56.599 --> 00:41:58.960
going to catch someone that has falling off a building

490
00:41:59.039 --> 00:42:01.519
or something, you know, and you're trying to save them,

491
00:42:02.159 --> 00:42:04.920
a trampoline wouldn't be the right thing to use. It

492
00:42:06.440 --> 00:42:11.440
end up back on the building or maybe onto another building.

493
00:42:15.039 --> 00:42:17.559
I wonder how much it would cost to have a

494
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.840
brain scan. I'm going to look that up now. How

495
00:42:21.960 --> 00:42:32.519
much is it to have a brain scan? How much

496
00:42:32.639 --> 00:42:35.840
the brain scan cost? So I'm going to put in

497
00:42:35.840 --> 00:42:39.679
the UK because it's coming up the US. It's a

498
00:42:39.719 --> 00:42:49.039
little bit different, I think in the UK because after

499
00:42:49.079 --> 00:43:00.239
your brain scan, three hundred and thirty five pound Oh

500
00:43:04.239 --> 00:43:07.280
oh okay, so that's the brain scan. So if you

501
00:43:07.400 --> 00:43:12.480
have this is private MRI scans. Let's have a look.

502
00:43:12.639 --> 00:43:17.239
I'm just braining headscans. Oh m r R MRI plus

503
00:43:17.679 --> 00:43:25.760
braining head scans from one ninety nine. Humm, No Field Health.

504
00:43:26.639 --> 00:43:30.760
I think I'd probably want to use if I put

505
00:43:30.800 --> 00:43:34.079
in my town one to see if anything comes up,

506
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:36.239
because I want to I'd want to go somewhere that

507
00:43:36.280 --> 00:43:41.159
I knew, you know, not some I mean, there's one

508
00:43:41.199 --> 00:43:44.360
here called scan dot com. I mean, I might as

509
00:43:44.360 --> 00:43:46.800
well just call themselves scam. I'm just I don't know.

510
00:43:46.840 --> 00:43:54.599
I'd be scared top MRI dot com. So no Field Health.

511
00:43:54.920 --> 00:43:58.920
That's a hospital. I do believe I'd want to go

512
00:43:59.039 --> 00:44:08.119
somewhere that was like well known or well regarded, you know.

513
00:44:08.239 --> 00:44:13.400
I wouldn't want to just go to random places. You

514
00:44:13.480 --> 00:44:19.920
have to save up for that. That's for pets. HCA,

515
00:44:20.800 --> 00:44:24.440
all right, So HCA, that's an actual healthcare. So that's

516
00:44:24.760 --> 00:44:29.559
a place private. CT scan that's a cat scan, though,

517
00:44:29.559 --> 00:44:35.599
isn't it. I don't want a cat scan. I'm talking

518
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:46.360
about brains, brains departments, tests and scans, all tests and scanst's.

519
00:44:46.360 --> 00:45:00.000
Have a look coloscopopy HPV screaming. There's loads, there's loads,

520
00:45:00.039 --> 00:45:17.559
it's bone density all BlimE me. Okay, yeah, see this

521
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:22.159
is all I wonder if you can just I don't know,

522
00:45:22.199 --> 00:45:29.000
how much it costs. It's not saying oh, well, come

523
00:45:29.039 --> 00:45:32.199
out that. I think that's like an insurance thing that

524
00:45:32.239 --> 00:45:45.360
you need to be part of a house. This is weird,

525
00:45:45.960 --> 00:45:53.320
alliance medical. I just if I was, Oh, this is

526
00:45:54.800 --> 00:46:04.159
this soul look self pay? Am all right? Have a referral?

527
00:46:04.480 --> 00:46:12.840
Do not have a referral? Okay? Our locations? Why is

528
00:46:12.880 --> 00:46:15.679
it put Oh there is this one. It's actually in

529
00:46:15.760 --> 00:46:21.440
the hospital. It's actually in the hospital area. How weird?

530
00:46:21.519 --> 00:46:27.320
I didn't. Wow, it's next to the hospital. Does it

531
00:46:27.440 --> 00:46:34.679
say how much four hundred and forty pound I might

532
00:46:34.760 --> 00:46:38.039
do that? Actually? Is that the whole body? Scin? Does

533
00:46:38.119 --> 00:46:44.119
that whole everything? Or no? It's four pound. It's four

534
00:46:44.159 --> 00:46:51.079
hundred and forty pound for one body part. Blimey. So

535
00:46:51.519 --> 00:47:00.360
let's see what body parts are they offering. They're not

536
00:47:00.400 --> 00:47:03.639
even offer the brain unless it's head. Brain head, Yeah,

537
00:47:04.320 --> 00:47:10.440
brain head, four hundred and forty check prices four hundred

538
00:47:10.440 --> 00:47:19.199
and forty pound, So they're not offering it for the

539
00:47:19.239 --> 00:47:31.400
whole body. Wow. Left thumb check prices, you're joking. They're

540
00:47:31.480 --> 00:47:34.519
left thumb. They're going to charge four hundred and forty

541
00:47:34.599 --> 00:47:41.719
pounds for a thumb. A thumb altogether, now a thumb,

542
00:47:44.480 --> 00:47:48.239
I mean, not even both funds. Four hundred and forty

543
00:47:48.239 --> 00:47:54.280
pounds for one thumb. That's I don't know. I can't.

544
00:47:54.320 --> 00:48:04.519
That's but if you have your spine done four hundred

545
00:48:04.559 --> 00:48:08.679
and forty how can a spine be the same price

546
00:48:08.840 --> 00:48:11.199
or a brain the brain in the head be the

547
00:48:11.239 --> 00:48:18.480
same price as a thumb. It's just all about little finger.

548
00:48:29.079 --> 00:48:32.800
I don't know. I was going to say I could

549
00:48:33.239 --> 00:48:36.559
it says groin right and left? They can't it not

550
00:48:36.559 --> 00:48:39.719
even going to offer the whole of the groin. I

551
00:48:39.719 --> 00:48:42.280
would like to get scanned to see if there's still

552
00:48:42.280 --> 00:48:45.400
anything down there. I'm not sure. I haven't seen anything

553
00:48:45.400 --> 00:48:57.440
for years. Right and left thumb? Oh toenails. No, I'll

554
00:48:57.440 --> 00:49:01.960
come back to that another time. That's quite interesting. I

555
00:49:02.039 --> 00:49:07.280
might do that. So Tammy asks, how are you doing

556
00:49:07.320 --> 00:49:10.559
with the week of chaos around the house? Is your

557
00:49:10.599 --> 00:49:15.840
friend up and about now? It's been a very very

558
00:49:15.960 --> 00:49:19.480
weird week. I'll be it up, up and back for

559
00:49:19.679 --> 00:49:26.360
the hospital. They're and back every day since Friday last week.

560
00:49:26.440 --> 00:49:33.440
So it's Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

561
00:49:34.360 --> 00:49:37.559
so that's eight days in a row. I'm not going

562
00:49:37.639 --> 00:49:43.280
up today. He's got another visitor come in later afternoon,

563
00:49:43.960 --> 00:49:46.440
and I can't go up Sunday because there's no buses,

564
00:49:47.239 --> 00:49:51.159
or there is, but the buses are just really random

565
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:53.079
every two hours, and I'm not going to do that.

566
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:56.400
As it is, it takes two hours if I get

567
00:49:56.400 --> 00:49:59.519
a bus, it takes two hours there, two hours back

568
00:50:00.039 --> 00:50:02.760
because of the waiting around, and there's two buses to

569
00:50:02.880 --> 00:50:07.199
catch and a bit of walking. So yeah, I'm not

570
00:50:08.159 --> 00:50:12.199
I'm having two days off and Vinnie, little Vinceta here

571
00:50:14.119 --> 00:50:16.599
seems to be quite happy that I'm here with him,

572
00:50:17.000 --> 00:50:22.239
because yesterday he didn't even bark when I left. He

573
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:24.039
just sat on the sofa and just looked at me,

574
00:50:24.199 --> 00:50:32.360
and I left and nothing. That's never happened before. You know,

575
00:50:32.440 --> 00:50:37.880
even if I just go out and pop around a corner,

576
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:46.880
he would bark, but this time nothing. What's been weird

577
00:50:47.559 --> 00:50:51.880
is Vinnie's behavior the last week now. It's been off

578
00:50:51.880 --> 00:50:55.519
his food. I think that's partly because of the heat,

579
00:50:57.239 --> 00:50:59.400
but I know it's not just because of that, because

580
00:51:00.159 --> 00:51:03.000
I left some food out and I gave him a

581
00:51:03.000 --> 00:51:05.760
treat which you'd normally just gobble down, and he'd be

582
00:51:05.840 --> 00:51:10.639
like chewing on it. The treat was still on the

583
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:17.079
settee when I got back six hours later, and then

584
00:51:17.119 --> 00:51:25.039
he ate it. So he's sulking, basically. I think it's

585
00:51:25.079 --> 00:51:33.239
been sulking the last few days. He refused to get

586
00:51:33.239 --> 00:51:37.599
on my bed. I didn't want to sleep with me,

587
00:51:38.960 --> 00:51:42.119
which is a little bit upset and actually because for

588
00:51:44.360 --> 00:51:47.239
however long I've had him two and a half years,

589
00:51:47.320 --> 00:51:50.880
he slept in my bed. We sleep together, you know,

590
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:55.079
that's that's our thing. And that sounds weird, doesn't it's

591
00:51:55.159 --> 00:52:03.280
our thing. That is. Oh, I don't care who knows it. Yeah,

592
00:52:03.360 --> 00:52:07.159
so he's but it's not just that he's been sort

593
00:52:07.159 --> 00:52:09.480
of sitting there just staring at me from the floor

594
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:20.079
making the odd doll. So I don't know. But last

595
00:52:20.199 --> 00:52:24.320
night he got in the bed with me, which is nice.

596
00:52:25.800 --> 00:52:28.440
So that was that was quite a pleasant experience again,

597
00:52:29.079 --> 00:52:33.239
But then I woke up and he wasn't in the bed.

598
00:52:33.599 --> 00:52:37.000
He wasn't in the bedroom, he wasn't in the living room.

599
00:52:37.119 --> 00:52:43.039
I thought, where's Vinnegone. He was lying down in front

600
00:52:43.079 --> 00:52:48.159
of the front door, leaning against the front door. Now

601
00:52:48.239 --> 00:52:50.639
there's a chance that was just the coolest place for

602
00:52:50.719 --> 00:52:55.199
him to be. I hope that's the reason. But I

603
00:52:55.239 --> 00:53:02.360
think he is pining for his uncle who's in hospital,

604
00:53:03.880 --> 00:53:07.400
because he's used to hearing him coming and going. He

605
00:53:08.239 --> 00:53:12.760
knows everyone in this building. He knows where everyone is

606
00:53:12.840 --> 00:53:15.280
and who they are, and because he can smell and

607
00:53:15.400 --> 00:53:19.400
hear them, can't I guess, And I suppose to him

608
00:53:19.519 --> 00:53:23.440
this building is his his home, even though we live

609
00:53:23.440 --> 00:53:27.519
in one of the flats. He gets excited to say

610
00:53:27.800 --> 00:53:33.280
to all of them, he knows everyone here, and his

611
00:53:33.440 --> 00:53:38.679
uncle opposite me is one of his favorite people. So

612
00:53:41.280 --> 00:53:47.920
I think he's getting a little bit sad missing him,

613
00:53:47.960 --> 00:53:50.599
just missing because sometimes you know, I'll be in here

614
00:53:51.239 --> 00:53:52.840
and Vin he will be out of the front door,

615
00:53:55.000 --> 00:53:57.159
and my neighbor be talking to Vinnie through the door,

616
00:53:58.199 --> 00:53:59.679
just saying he lo to. They'll be having this big,

617
00:53:59.679 --> 00:54:07.920
full on conversations leading to it. So it's been a

618
00:54:07.920 --> 00:54:10.039
bit strange. I managed to do a few little bits.

619
00:54:10.079 --> 00:54:15.239
I did some washing, some laundry, and kind of ran

620
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:17.199
out of food. But I managed to get some food

621
00:54:17.360 --> 00:54:27.920
yesterday afternoon or like early evening, got a delivery and

622
00:54:28.000 --> 00:54:34.960
what else. Oh, the other day, Vinnie stayed with a friend.

623
00:54:36.199 --> 00:54:44.440
This was Thursday morning. He stayed with Archie, So that

624
00:54:44.639 --> 00:54:49.119
was a neighbor around the corner, and he's never he's

625
00:54:49.159 --> 00:54:53.480
never had a playdate before with another dog. Ever, it's

626
00:54:53.480 --> 00:54:58.159
the first time where he's been, you know, like a

627
00:54:58.199 --> 00:55:01.679
dog he knows really well and gone around because it's

628
00:55:01.679 --> 00:55:07.199
no a n Archie for years. They're best friends. But

629
00:55:07.239 --> 00:55:10.239
they see each other not all the time, but usually

630
00:55:10.239 --> 00:55:15.199
a few times a week, depending on, you know, if

631
00:55:15.239 --> 00:55:19.320
we managed to bump into them. But they just get

632
00:55:19.320 --> 00:55:21.880
on so well. And they had a really good time

633
00:55:21.920 --> 00:55:25.559
together playing in the garden. Apparently they were jumping all

634
00:55:25.599 --> 00:55:29.039
over her, the mother to give the dogs jumping all

635
00:55:29.079 --> 00:55:30.920
over her like while she was trying to use her

636
00:55:30.960 --> 00:55:36.320
phone or whatever, and probably fighting over attention, to be honest.

637
00:55:37.559 --> 00:55:43.599
So they had a really good time. And I think

638
00:55:43.719 --> 00:55:46.760
Vinnie is trying to go back there now because he

639
00:55:46.800 --> 00:55:49.119
wants to go back and play because he had a

640
00:55:49.119 --> 00:55:52.880
good time. But I can't really invite myself. Can I

641
00:55:52.920 --> 00:55:56.840
can't knock on the door? Can Vinnie come to play? Please?

642
00:55:57.559 --> 00:56:01.679
Can Archie come out to play? Please? Can't really do that?

643
00:56:06.679 --> 00:56:16.320
Call me really? Not really not really. So he's a

644
00:56:16.360 --> 00:56:18.960
bit grumpy, but I think he's enjoying me being here.

645
00:56:19.719 --> 00:56:22.199
So he's lying down next to me. He's on his side,

646
00:56:23.320 --> 00:56:28.719
his feet and his hands both all touching me. So

647
00:56:28.800 --> 00:56:34.440
he's I think he's a little bit more. He looks relaxed.

648
00:56:35.320 --> 00:56:43.480
He looks very relaxed. As far as my neighbor goes,

649
00:56:44.119 --> 00:56:55.400
he's it's the same. He's still in the hospital. He's chatting.

650
00:56:56.079 --> 00:57:01.079
He's bored, like everyone in there, he's bored being there.

651
00:57:01.079 --> 00:57:03.559
He doesn't want to be there. No one does, do

652
00:57:03.639 --> 00:57:05.639
they really, Let's face it, who wants to be in

653
00:57:05.639 --> 00:57:13.159
a hospital. So, yeah, but it's physically fine. It physically

654
00:57:13.199 --> 00:57:16.239
feels fine. I mean, he's not physically fine, but he's

655
00:57:16.599 --> 00:57:23.280
he feels okay. He's actually very unwell. So it's just

656
00:57:23.400 --> 00:57:31.280
he hasn't got any symptoms other than the jaundice. Yeah,

657
00:57:31.400 --> 00:57:33.920
so it's kind of I don't know. I think this

658
00:57:34.000 --> 00:57:41.239
is a very confusing for him, understandably so, and he's

659
00:57:41.239 --> 00:57:45.559
just waiting to go home. But there are some benefits,

660
00:57:45.679 --> 00:57:48.440
I don't mean, Yeah, there's there's the things he's getting

661
00:57:48.519 --> 00:57:52.920
there that he doesn't get at home. One is being

662
00:57:52.960 --> 00:57:56.880
fed three times a day. He doesn't eat three times

663
00:57:56.880 --> 00:58:02.679
a day at home. So I think he's quite enjoying

664
00:58:04.320 --> 00:58:07.400
getting food, like I havn't cooked food. I think he

665
00:58:07.440 --> 00:58:11.559
has a breakfast cereal in the morning, but he's having

666
00:58:11.599 --> 00:58:20.360
two cooked meals a day. He's he's made friends with

667
00:58:20.519 --> 00:58:25.320
the person sitting opposite next to him, so he's he's

668
00:58:25.320 --> 00:58:30.440
got a captive audience to talk to, and he doesn't

669
00:58:30.440 --> 00:58:33.599
have that normally because he lives on his own. I mean,

670
00:58:34.079 --> 00:58:35.880
you know, I speak to him and I see him

671
00:58:35.880 --> 00:58:39.320
and stuff. But like me, I live on my own,

672
00:58:39.440 --> 00:58:43.840
so I used to being on my own. I think

673
00:58:43.880 --> 00:58:47.239
the difference between this is I enjoy I enjoy the silence,

674
00:58:47.679 --> 00:58:55.159
the quiet, but if you brought someone in here, the

675
00:58:55.280 --> 00:59:02.039
chances are I wouldn't stop talking, you know. So there's

676
00:59:02.159 --> 00:59:08.360
some similarities between us in a sense. Because that's why

677
00:59:10.360 --> 00:59:13.079
I tried to explain this to a few people over

678
00:59:13.119 --> 00:59:16.079
the years, why I don't want anyone in here when

679
00:59:16.119 --> 00:59:19.199
I'm watching boxing. You know, I had a couple of

680
00:59:19.239 --> 00:59:20.960
friends and say I'll come around and watched the A

681
00:59:21.119 --> 00:59:25.719
j fight, or we watched the Tyson Fury fight. I said, no,

682
00:59:25.920 --> 00:59:28.119
I don't want you. Okay, I don't don't say I

683
00:59:28.159 --> 00:59:30.760
don't want you here, but no, I don't don't like

684
00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:35.440
people being here when I'm watching the boxing. For two reasons.

685
00:59:35.840 --> 00:59:42.840
Three reasons, actually four reasons. There's a few reasons there's

686
00:59:43.199 --> 00:59:49.199
I'll go through them. The first one is I can't

687
00:59:49.239 --> 00:59:53.559
relax if someone else is here. I don't relax. There's

688
00:59:53.639 --> 00:59:56.400
there's not Yeah, it's not relaxing for me to have.

689
00:59:57.239 --> 01:00:01.920
I'm relaxed when I've got Vinny here and that's it.

690
01:00:03.639 --> 01:00:06.119
No one else I don't have. I don't feel relaxed

691
01:00:06.119 --> 01:00:08.960
with anyone else. I'm not saying I won't ever feel,

692
01:00:09.000 --> 01:00:13.400
but at the moment and there's no one, I feel

693
01:00:13.400 --> 01:00:17.000
relaxed around. But it doesn't mean that I don't you know,

694
01:00:17.719 --> 01:00:19.559
I don't mean I dislike the person if I don't

695
01:00:19.559 --> 01:00:25.239
feel relaxed around them. I just feel if there's someone

696
01:00:25.239 --> 01:00:27.840
else in my home, it puts me on edge a

697
01:00:27.840 --> 01:00:34.760
little bit a lot. Sometimes. The other thing is they

698
01:00:34.840 --> 01:00:36.599
might want to sit next to me on the sofa.

699
01:00:36.840 --> 01:00:40.440
I don't like that. The only one that sits next

700
01:00:40.480 --> 01:00:44.119
to me is Vinnie. I don't That other side of

701
01:00:44.159 --> 01:00:49.440
the sofa is for rubbish, well not rubbish, but just stuff,

702
01:00:51.559 --> 01:00:55.599
just bits and bobs. Is just messy, but that's what

703
01:00:55.639 --> 01:00:58.920
that's that's what that chair is for. This side is

704
01:00:58.960 --> 01:01:03.320
for me and Vinnie. If I'm not sitting in it,

705
01:01:04.840 --> 01:01:07.599
and Vinnie can sit to the side, so he takes

706
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:09.360
up a little bit at the other seat and a

707
01:01:09.360 --> 01:01:19.079
little bit of this seat, and that's his area. So

708
01:01:19.119 --> 01:01:25.719
that's two reasons. The third reason would be it'd be

709
01:01:25.760 --> 01:01:33.400
distracting having someone here is a distraction, which I don't

710
01:01:33.400 --> 01:01:39.199
want when I'm watching boxing, or which is what I

711
01:01:39.239 --> 01:01:46.280
don't want ever, maybe not when I'm my home. Don't

712
01:01:46.280 --> 01:01:52.760
need that distraction. Generally, It's probably not true all the times,

713
01:01:52.800 --> 01:01:56.840
but generally, you know, if it's if I'm going to

714
01:01:56.920 --> 01:02:01.360
watch the boxing, I want to be able to concentrate

715
01:02:01.440 --> 01:02:04.159
on that. Even if I don't want to concentrate on it,

716
01:02:04.440 --> 01:02:06.679
I don't want to have to concentrate on what someone

717
01:02:06.679 --> 01:02:16.199
else is saying. Another reason is there's a chance they're

718
01:02:16.199 --> 01:02:24.239
going to talk constantly, which will annoy me, it distract me.

719
01:02:24.559 --> 01:02:28.519
It will be I lose, I lose my for me

720
01:02:28.639 --> 01:02:31.199
to focus, I can do one thing at the time.

721
01:02:31.440 --> 01:02:36.440
That's it. And the other reason is because I will talk.

722
01:02:36.840 --> 01:02:47.719
I will definitely talk constantly, and that will distract me

723
01:02:49.840 --> 01:02:54.599
because I might end up talking about something completely irrelevant

724
01:02:55.960 --> 01:03:00.000
and I'll miss an important thing in what I'm watching,

725
01:03:00.239 --> 01:03:03.840
whether it's a movie, whether it's a TV series, or

726
01:03:03.840 --> 01:03:09.400
whether it's the boxing. If I miss something when I'm

727
01:03:09.400 --> 01:03:14.559
on my own, I can rewind, but you know, ultimately

728
01:03:15.280 --> 01:03:21.320
it's because I haven't focused. But if I miss something,

729
01:03:22.280 --> 01:03:25.639
an important bit of information, because someone else is talking

730
01:03:25.639 --> 01:03:29.559
to me or I'm talking to them, that's just yeah,

731
01:03:29.599 --> 01:03:39.960
I can't really do that. I'm trying to think of

732
01:03:39.960 --> 01:03:44.320
any other reasons, but I think that's enough reasons. It's

733
01:03:45.800 --> 01:03:48.400
I hope that I could meet someone one day that

734
01:03:48.920 --> 01:03:54.679
I don't feel that way with, you know, without getting

735
01:03:54.679 --> 01:03:57.360
all romantic. I think it'd be quite nice one day,

736
01:03:57.400 --> 01:04:01.199
I add someone I could just I don't know, maybe

737
01:04:01.239 --> 01:04:08.639
hold hands with or cuddle, you know, maybe and watch

738
01:04:08.679 --> 01:04:13.000
boxing and maybe they'd be into boxing or they're just

739
01:04:13.639 --> 01:04:19.599
I don't, I don't know. The thing is they'd have

740
01:04:19.639 --> 01:04:21.840
to sit on top of Vinny, wouldn't they, because he's

741
01:04:22.000 --> 01:04:26.920
that's where he sits, so be quite hard. But knowing

742
01:04:27.079 --> 01:04:31.159
him because he's got a real thing for women. He's

743
01:04:31.400 --> 01:04:34.280
really got a I mean, he gets so much attention

744
01:04:34.400 --> 01:04:37.960
from women. He knows it. He's a little bit of

745
01:04:38.000 --> 01:04:43.119
a little stud, nothing thin ears, so he'd be all

746
01:04:43.159 --> 01:04:51.599
over equally, if I had a female friend romantically, he

747
01:04:51.679 --> 01:04:57.719
would probably not want me going anywhere near. It'd be

748
01:04:59.199 --> 01:05:04.599
should be his friend basically in his mind, so he'd

749
01:05:04.599 --> 01:05:06.639
be hogging her. He'd be all over sitting on a

750
01:05:06.760 --> 01:05:12.000
lap and probably wouldn't He probably wouldn't even want me

751
01:05:12.639 --> 01:05:18.800
and her even sitting next to each other. The other

752
01:05:18.840 --> 01:05:22.000
thing is when you got visitors here, they're always breathing,

753
01:05:22.039 --> 01:05:30.280
and they always breathing, make a white noise breathing. I

754
01:05:30.320 --> 01:05:37.960
don't know. I just i'd love to wish. I'd love

755
01:05:38.000 --> 01:05:40.760
to be the kind of person that just enjoyed being

756
01:05:40.760 --> 01:05:44.920
around lots of people. I can be around one person.

757
01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:47.599
I can have a conversation that was loud, wasn't it.

758
01:05:47.800 --> 01:05:51.880
I can have a conversation one on one. I cannot

759
01:05:52.000 --> 01:05:54.360
have a conversation with more than one person at a

760
01:05:54.400 --> 01:06:05.239
time without feeling I feel unwell when it happens, I'll

761
01:06:05.239 --> 01:06:10.599
be honest, I do. And there's certain situations I can't

762
01:06:11.639 --> 01:06:17.079
I cannot avoid. So if I see my dad is

763
01:06:17.679 --> 01:06:19.280
if he speaks to me on the phone, there's always

764
01:06:19.320 --> 01:06:22.079
both of them, him and his wife. Now I can

765
01:06:22.119 --> 01:06:25.000
talk to either of them on their own, talking to

766
01:06:25.039 --> 01:06:29.079
both of them is hard because I can't, especially on

767
01:06:29.119 --> 01:06:36.159
the phone, I cannot gauge what their emotions are, or

768
01:06:36.239 --> 01:06:38.960
even in person, I can't really gauge what their emotions are.

769
01:06:39.079 --> 01:06:42.280
But because there's two I can can't. I can like

770
01:06:42.519 --> 01:06:47.000
probe one that's that's wrong, isn't it, but kind of

771
01:06:47.440 --> 01:06:51.199
ask questions of one person to find out what they mean.

772
01:06:51.639 --> 01:06:57.000
When you've got two people talking, and then they're talking,

773
01:06:57.679 --> 01:07:03.119
they're kind of maybe I don't want to say, contradicting

774
01:07:03.159 --> 01:07:06.880
each other and maybe saying different things, but maybe talking

775
01:07:06.920 --> 01:07:13.719
about different things as well. I find it confusing. And

776
01:07:15.480 --> 01:07:18.440
you know when a few years ago, I used to

777
01:07:18.519 --> 01:07:23.280
say to my if my dad phoned a say, could

778
01:07:23.280 --> 01:07:27.199
take my speaker phone please, so I could just have

779
01:07:27.519 --> 01:07:33.880
one on one conversation. Be refused. And it's just because

780
01:07:35.760 --> 01:07:42.840
I really really struggle to communicate with more than one person.

781
01:07:43.239 --> 01:07:46.400
And this is nothing bad about my dad's wife, because

782
01:07:46.440 --> 01:07:51.400
she's brilliant. You know, I love talking to her one

783
01:07:51.440 --> 01:07:53.800
on one, the two of them together, I just struggle

784
01:07:54.760 --> 01:07:58.599
with anyone two people, and when they're together, even in

785
01:07:58.599 --> 01:08:03.840
front of me, it's like, is those silences that do me?

786
01:08:05.360 --> 01:08:12.239
Where I say something and there's just nothing now In person,

787
01:08:12.320 --> 01:08:15.599
you can see a facial expression. It doesn't mean I

788
01:08:15.639 --> 01:08:21.800
understand what it means, but it's something there's and I

789
01:08:21.800 --> 01:08:25.039
can question it. But on the phone it's just silent.

790
01:08:25.159 --> 01:08:28.479
I can't I say hello, I do are you still there?

791
01:08:31.840 --> 01:08:36.640
What you're feeling? What's your internal response to what I

792
01:08:36.760 --> 01:08:41.880
just said? It's I can't really do that. I mean,

793
01:08:41.880 --> 01:08:45.840
I suppose I could, but it would be weird. You know,

794
01:08:47.880 --> 01:08:53.159
how are you both feeling specifically about the last paragraph?

795
01:08:53.399 --> 01:08:55.880
Is there an emotional response from what I just said.

796
01:08:56.760 --> 01:08:59.399
Please explain it to me in a way that I'll

797
01:08:59.399 --> 01:09:09.720
be able to wander stand. I don't know, so I

798
01:09:09.720 --> 01:09:12.560
I've really it's weird. To tell you, what's weird. My

799
01:09:12.680 --> 01:09:20.960
neighbor on the phone, he can have a conversation backward

800
01:09:20.960 --> 01:09:28.399
and forward. In person, not so much. He can, but

801
01:09:28.640 --> 01:09:32.560
it doesn't happen so much. It's really weird. Like he

802
01:09:32.640 --> 01:09:36.359
was talking about some stuff, talking about cricket or some spot.

803
01:09:36.760 --> 01:09:40.760
I've told him before when you talk about sports, I

804
01:09:40.840 --> 01:09:45.079
switch off. I stopped listening. I've told him many times

805
01:09:45.079 --> 01:09:48.840
about that. But I can't say that to him at

806
01:09:48.840 --> 01:09:53.680
the moment because it's rude. I mean, you could argue

807
01:09:53.640 --> 01:09:57.960
it's rude before, but it was truthful and in the

808
01:09:58.000 --> 01:10:00.479
past we've been talking and he will remind me of

809
01:10:00.560 --> 01:10:02.359
something he said to me. I said, oh, I'll probably

810
01:10:02.399 --> 01:10:09.319
just stopped listening, which is true. Again, may be rude,

811
01:10:09.319 --> 01:10:13.119
but he laughed because I've told him if you if

812
01:10:13.159 --> 01:10:15.680
you talk too much at me, I'm not going to

813
01:10:15.760 --> 01:10:17.720
hear it. I'm going to switch off. And it's not

814
01:10:17.760 --> 01:10:22.840
because I'm not purposely switching off. It's just I'm so

815
01:10:23.079 --> 01:10:30.560
bored with what you're saying. Again, that sounds rude, doesn't it.

816
01:10:30.560 --> 01:10:32.880
It's not in a not in a rude way. It's

817
01:10:32.960 --> 01:10:38.319
just a factual thing. If you if it's interesting, you've

818
01:10:38.319 --> 01:10:41.479
got my attention, or if it's interesting to me, I mean,

819
01:10:41.960 --> 01:10:48.399
if I'm enthralled. So sometimes that's a weird thing. The

820
01:10:48.439 --> 01:10:50.479
amount of people I said this to and I don't

821
01:10:50.520 --> 01:10:54.520
mean to so someone and maybe I see regularly, a

822
01:10:54.520 --> 01:10:59.119
dog walker, maybe even a friend, someone that I speak to,

823
01:10:59.199 --> 01:11:01.079
you know, say a load to maybe someone I've known

824
01:11:01.119 --> 01:11:04.920
for years, and I say something I was like, zing,

825
01:11:05.439 --> 01:11:09.079
it's like, wow, okay, this is the first time you've

826
01:11:09.119 --> 01:11:14.439
got my interest since I've known you. And I shouldn't

827
01:11:14.479 --> 01:11:18.760
say stuff like that, but it's kind of true because

828
01:11:19.199 --> 01:11:23.119
I'm all in. I'm completely focused on what they're saying,

829
01:11:23.800 --> 01:11:26.840
and there's nothing more important to me in that moment

830
01:11:27.560 --> 01:11:33.840
than what they're going to say next. It's like super charged,

831
01:11:34.079 --> 01:11:41.560
super excited, majorly interested because I can't pretend. I can't

832
01:11:41.600 --> 01:11:48.239
fake interest. I can't. I can't do it. I tried

833
01:11:48.239 --> 01:11:50.520
to do it when I was a counselor, and I

834
01:11:50.560 --> 01:11:54.319
realized I can't. But then I also realized I didn't

835
01:11:54.399 --> 01:11:56.640
need to, because when I was a counselor, I was

836
01:11:56.720 --> 01:12:05.800
interested in nearly every situation there was there was there

837
01:12:05.920 --> 01:12:09.199
was one person that just would not talk about anything

838
01:12:09.279 --> 01:12:13.920
while they were there, and I managed to get them

839
01:12:13.960 --> 01:12:18.439
to open up in the end. But that was difficult.

840
01:12:18.479 --> 01:12:21.479
But this, you know, I wasn't going to be rude,

841
01:12:21.520 --> 01:12:24.319
because that's I don't want to be rude. I don't

842
01:12:24.319 --> 01:12:27.039
mean to be rude anyway. Ever, it's not my thing.

843
01:12:29.159 --> 01:12:32.079
But almost telling someone that's the most that's the first

844
01:12:32.079 --> 01:12:36.000
time you've piqued my interest. Well, it's the most interesting

845
01:12:36.039 --> 01:12:39.520
thing you've ever said to me. That's almost like an insult,

846
01:12:39.520 --> 01:12:43.640
and it wasn't meant to be an insult. It's I guess.

847
01:12:43.640 --> 01:12:45.399
It wasn't even supposed to be a compliment. It was

848
01:12:45.479 --> 01:12:50.800
just me being honest. Yet I have to stop myself

849
01:12:50.840 --> 01:12:54.720
saying stuff like that because I don't want to. I

850
01:12:54.760 --> 01:12:57.319
don't want to annoy people. I just want to let

851
01:12:57.359 --> 01:12:59.119
them to know that, let them know that I actually

852
01:12:59.279 --> 01:13:05.279
am rested and I'm seriously focused on what they're saying.

853
01:13:06.000 --> 01:13:08.680
And it could be the most pointless thing as well.

854
01:13:11.399 --> 01:13:15.239
You know, it could be talking about the zebra crossing,

855
01:13:15.680 --> 01:13:18.960
and for some reason, I'm interested in what they're saying.

856
01:13:20.760 --> 01:13:24.760
For some reason, in that moment, I'm suddenly really excited

857
01:13:24.800 --> 01:13:28.520
about talking about zebra crossings. And I don't know why.

858
01:13:29.399 --> 01:13:36.159
It's I don't know. It's a way. It's a weird one. Okay,

859
01:13:36.239 --> 01:13:38.920
I've never been excited about talking about zebra crossings, but

860
01:13:40.159 --> 01:13:49.520
it's yeah, mind you the other way. It goes the

861
01:13:49.560 --> 01:13:53.079
other way. Because I used to have a friend who

862
01:13:53.079 --> 01:13:57.199
would ask me to explain stuff to him. Okay, explain

863
01:13:57.319 --> 01:14:00.479
hypnosis to me. They just sit there and stare at me. No,

864
01:14:01.199 --> 01:14:05.239
who wantn't know about hypnosis? Read a book? That was

865
01:14:05.279 --> 01:14:08.560
my attitude, and it was just because I'm not going

866
01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:14.159
to I don't know. I think if someone wants me

867
01:14:14.239 --> 01:14:16.039
to sit there and talk at them, I don't want

868
01:14:16.079 --> 01:14:20.840
to do it. I kind of clamber up. It's when

869
01:14:20.880 --> 01:14:22.239
they don't want me to do it. I just want

870
01:14:22.279 --> 01:14:25.199
to enjoy it more. No, that's not that's not true.

871
01:14:25.279 --> 01:14:29.079
It's just that whole because I feel I think in

872
01:14:29.119 --> 01:14:38.319
that situation like that almost it was. I feel like

873
01:14:38.359 --> 01:14:45.079
I'm put on the spot a bit, and it's like, yeah,

874
01:14:45.079 --> 01:14:47.520
I think it's a bit like when someone says, oh,

875
01:14:47.720 --> 01:14:52.359
so you've so you know about if you ever ever

876
01:14:52.399 --> 01:14:54.920
heard about this thing, and say, yeah, would explain it

877
01:14:54.960 --> 01:15:00.239
to me? Then no, you said you heard about it? Yeah,

878
01:15:01.199 --> 01:15:04.359
explain it? No that that that's not what I do.

879
01:15:04.399 --> 01:15:07.800
I don't explain anything to anyone. I do, you know,

880
01:15:08.039 --> 01:15:11.439
do the Q and A Fridays. But that's I invite

881
01:15:11.479 --> 01:15:12.960
these questions.

882
01:15:14.119 --> 01:15:14.199
But.

883
01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:21.439
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to explain. You

884
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:24.159
imagine being with someone in a room with someone and

885
01:15:24.199 --> 01:15:28.439
them just saying it's just something you're interested in, But

886
01:15:28.479 --> 01:15:33.159
then it's deciding that they want you to explain that

887
01:15:33.720 --> 01:15:36.800
to them in a way that they're going to understand it,

888
01:15:37.840 --> 01:15:43.079
and there's going to be follow up questions. It almost

889
01:15:44.199 --> 01:15:47.720
it sort of turns into some kind of oral exam.

890
01:15:49.560 --> 01:15:52.560
Again that sounds wrong, but you know what I mean.

891
01:15:52.600 --> 01:15:56.920
It's like, just no, I'm not I don't want to

892
01:15:56.960 --> 01:16:06.000
be tested. No, but I do like talking to people.

893
01:16:09.159 --> 01:16:13.079
This is not answering your questions, Tammy, is it sorry?

894
01:16:13.239 --> 01:16:15.159
How are you doing with the week of chaos around

895
01:16:15.199 --> 01:16:17.640
the house? Is your friend? And up? Okay? So I

896
01:16:17.680 --> 01:16:21.800
have answered the questions. I'm just I felt like my

897
01:16:21.880 --> 01:16:27.399
brain was fried yesterday the last three days really, but

898
01:16:29.520 --> 01:16:35.399
I got home yesterday and I just I was struggling

899
01:16:35.439 --> 01:16:42.479
to even put a sentence together, was so tired, and

900
01:16:44.239 --> 01:16:49.199
just it was overloaded. I was is that the right word?

901
01:16:49.319 --> 01:16:55.119
You know? It was too much, way, too much of everything,

902
01:16:56.199 --> 01:17:05.319
seeing too many people, spoken to too many people, and overload.

903
01:17:05.840 --> 01:17:10.760
Did I say it's overload? Probably for my senses were overloaded,

904
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:19.159
my ears, my hears my hearing, my ears, my eyes, physically, emotionally,

905
01:17:19.479 --> 01:17:24.119
probably smells, tastes, Maybe I don't know. Everything was just

906
01:17:24.399 --> 01:17:32.039
too much for me. And yeah, I don't ever want

907
01:17:32.039 --> 01:17:33.680
to go back there, but you know, I kind of

908
01:17:33.680 --> 01:17:36.439
got to go back on Monday because I promised, plus

909
01:17:36.479 --> 01:17:45.600
he asked me to. But yes, it's too much for me. Really,

910
01:17:45.720 --> 01:17:54.439
I don't not. When also, I was thinking, how often

911
01:17:54.479 --> 01:17:58.319
have I actually left my flat and left this area,

912
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:01.760
you know, this this little area that I live. How

913
01:18:01.760 --> 01:18:06.159
often have I left there to wander as far as

914
01:18:06.199 --> 01:18:18.479
town where we're on a bus, a taxi. And really

915
01:18:18.680 --> 01:18:22.760
in the last two years, I can only think of

916
01:18:23.560 --> 01:18:33.000
three occasions, maybe four occasions, actually maybe five are come

917
01:18:33.159 --> 01:18:38.239
just find five, four or five. So yeah, in the

918
01:18:38.319 --> 01:18:42.159
last couple of years, I've left this little area maybe

919
01:18:42.199 --> 01:18:47.920
five times. Once it was to a funeral, another one

920
01:18:47.960 --> 01:18:53.159
was to the supermarket twice I think, another one was

921
01:18:53.239 --> 01:18:57.359
to the doctors, another one was to the dentist. So

922
01:18:57.680 --> 01:19:03.600
that's five times in probably two that I've left my

923
01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:10.479
little village. And this week I've done eight different days

924
01:19:10.520 --> 01:19:18.800
in a row. So yeah, it was a bit. There's

925
01:19:18.840 --> 01:19:20.520
a lot. It's a lot.

926
01:19:20.720 --> 01:19:20.960
Man.

927
01:19:22.359 --> 01:19:26.640
Jonathan asks what your normal dinner consists of? Ever go

928
01:19:26.720 --> 01:19:29.479
out to eat? And if so, what variety of cuisine?

929
01:19:30.359 --> 01:19:32.840
The answer to the next one, the last question is no,

930
01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:36.479
I don't go out to eat. If I did go

931
01:19:36.560 --> 01:19:41.039
out to eat, I'm quite open minded. But the last

932
01:19:41.039 --> 01:19:48.279
time I went out to eat, oh know, I did

933
01:19:48.319 --> 01:19:51.560
go out. No, I did. I went out just before Christmas.

934
01:19:51.600 --> 01:19:54.239
I forgot about that. So it's just up the road

935
01:19:54.279 --> 01:19:57.640
from me. It's not far. And it was a pub

936
01:19:58.319 --> 01:20:03.560
I went to just before Christmas. Went there with some

937
01:20:03.680 --> 01:20:11.600
family members to celebrate Christmas before Christmas, and so that

938
01:20:11.840 --> 01:20:16.439
was a roast dinner or Christmas dinner. It was weird

939
01:20:16.479 --> 01:20:18.319
because I thought the whole place was going to be

940
01:20:18.359 --> 01:20:22.279
busy and it wasn't. We were the only Christmas dinner

941
01:20:22.279 --> 01:20:25.800
there and everyone else is just in a pub like normal.

942
01:20:26.960 --> 01:20:31.119
I felt very a bit silly. I just figured the

943
01:20:31.159 --> 01:20:33.399
whole I really did. I thought the whole place would

944
01:20:33.439 --> 01:20:44.560
be busy, so it'd be kind of quite anonymous. Sitting

945
01:20:44.600 --> 01:20:49.359
there with Christmas hats on is not something I would

946
01:20:49.399 --> 01:20:53.000
normally do in a pub. I just know if everyone

947
01:20:53.000 --> 01:20:56.920
else is doing it, maybe, but not. No, not the

948
01:20:56.960 --> 01:21:01.880
only table and were just sitting there. It's almost like

949
01:21:01.880 --> 01:21:04.159
we were celebrating Christmas in the summer. That's what it

950
01:21:04.199 --> 01:21:09.760
felt like a bit. So that was a Christmas dinner.

951
01:21:11.680 --> 01:21:19.920
Other than that, the last time I went out, Oh,

952
01:21:20.359 --> 01:21:24.560
the last time I went out, I did go to

953
01:21:24.600 --> 01:21:31.600
the Chip, not to the Indian restaurant locally. I think

954
01:21:31.640 --> 01:21:34.479
that was ten years ago, ten years something like that

955
01:21:34.840 --> 01:21:38.159
I did go to a pizza place, the Pizza Hut

956
01:21:38.199 --> 01:21:45.319
in Town. I think that was also probably nine years ago,

957
01:21:47.560 --> 01:21:52.159
ten nine nine, ten years ago. I used to go

958
01:21:52.319 --> 01:21:55.439
to the Wimpy in Town because there was a time

959
01:21:55.479 --> 01:21:57.920
when i'd go. I'd go out quite regularly, and that

960
01:21:58.119 --> 01:22:04.560
kind of used over the years. And I do I

961
01:22:04.600 --> 01:22:09.960
did go to McDonald's yesterday. No, I didn't eat in

962
01:22:10.319 --> 01:22:13.520
but I think it was even Monday or Tuesday. I

963
01:22:13.560 --> 01:22:17.640
went into McDonald's and had a meal in there, which

964
01:22:17.720 --> 01:22:26.560
is the first time I've done that in quite some time. Yeah,

965
01:22:27.640 --> 01:22:29.359
I think the last time I went there was when

966
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:32.640
I went to have my I went to the doctors,

967
01:22:32.800 --> 01:22:34.880
and the doctors is like a little bit out the road,

968
01:22:35.800 --> 01:22:37.880
so I think I went to McDonald's after going to

969
01:22:37.920 --> 01:22:46.520
the doctors to have a check up. Yeah. So other

970
01:22:46.600 --> 01:22:51.640
than that, No, I don't. I don't go out. I

971
01:22:51.680 --> 01:22:56.640
don't really have any kind of fancy cuisine like French

972
01:22:56.800 --> 01:23:03.079
or Spanish, or Italian or Jamaica or Somalian or Thaie

973
01:23:04.520 --> 01:23:11.159
or German or I don't know what kind of Greek,

974
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:13.720
you know. I don't. I've not really gone to many

975
01:23:13.720 --> 01:23:17.399
places when I have been to places when I was

976
01:23:17.439 --> 01:23:21.640
living in London. I've been to There was a Teke

977
01:23:21.880 --> 01:23:29.239
spar which was at Spanish. I loved it, just so

978
01:23:29.319 --> 01:23:32.319
many different things to choose from. It's that perfect for me.

979
01:23:33.840 --> 01:23:35.600
I used to go there with my cousin. It's just

980
01:23:35.760 --> 01:23:40.479
up the road from where I lived. Outside of that,

981
01:23:44.279 --> 01:23:46.439
I'm trying to think I went to a pizza place,

982
01:23:46.439 --> 01:23:49.239
but that was that's a long time ago. I think

983
01:23:49.279 --> 01:23:54.960
I went to the me what was it, not the

984
01:23:54.960 --> 01:23:58.199
pizza the Pizza Hut. It might have been the Pizza Hut,

985
01:23:59.600 --> 01:24:07.720
and it was back in two thousand and twelve December,

986
01:24:09.079 --> 01:24:18.760
not twenty twelve. Wow. Yeah, No, twenty thirteen December, I

987
01:24:18.800 --> 01:24:28.680
think I don't even know. No, twenty twelve December. I

988
01:24:28.680 --> 01:24:34.720
think it was really wow. W wah, wah, whah. It's

989
01:24:34.760 --> 01:24:37.760
just a little while ago. That's the last time I

990
01:24:37.800 --> 01:24:42.039
had a pizza, I think in a restaurant. No, it's not.

991
01:24:42.239 --> 01:24:48.399
I had one with my ex girlfriend in I think

992
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:52.159
i'd moved here and I've been in maybe a year,

993
01:24:52.560 --> 01:24:57.239
so thatut what he would have been around two thousand

994
01:24:57.279 --> 01:25:03.560
and sixteen, I guess because I moved here twenty fifteen.

995
01:25:08.880 --> 01:25:11.479
My normal dinner at the moment, I ate a fair

996
01:25:11.479 --> 01:25:18.319
amount of breakfast cereal, and then sandwiches or something I

997
01:25:18.359 --> 01:25:23.880
can just stick in the air fryer. It's just for me.

998
01:25:24.119 --> 01:25:26.920
Preparing food is a bit of a chore. I don't

999
01:25:26.960 --> 01:25:29.920
really want to be bothered with it, but I do it.

1000
01:25:30.560 --> 01:25:35.800
But it's just bits and bobs. Really don't really cook

1001
01:25:35.880 --> 01:25:39.399
myself much as in like a full meal and stuff

1002
01:25:39.439 --> 01:25:43.079
like I used to when I was younger. All I'm

1003
01:25:43.199 --> 01:25:47.680
going to try and get back to that. It's just

1004
01:25:47.680 --> 01:25:49.600
just don't feel like it a lot of the time.

1005
01:25:55.680 --> 01:26:00.479
Tina asks if there was a movey about you and Vinnie,

1006
01:26:01.319 --> 01:26:05.319
what song would be? What songs would be on your soundtrack?

1007
01:26:06.840 --> 01:26:09.199
I'd like dire straits. Why I worry to be one

1008
01:26:09.239 --> 01:26:23.439
on mine? Okay, Tina, I don't know. Wow, that's one

1009
01:26:23.439 --> 01:26:25.640
of the hardest questions I think I've ever been asked.

1010
01:26:26.960 --> 01:26:38.239
What songs there is? There are some songs that I

1011
01:26:38.279 --> 01:26:44.159
would have in my if it was a movie about me.

1012
01:26:45.199 --> 01:26:47.520
I can't think about him really, I'm not sure what

1013
01:26:47.560 --> 01:26:51.760
he would like. But if I you for going back

1014
01:26:51.800 --> 01:26:59.800
in the past about me, I would mix together an

1015
01:27:00.119 --> 01:27:06.479
ario that happened on an occurrence with a song of

1016
01:27:06.520 --> 01:27:11.560
that particular period. So for example, when I was in

1017
01:27:11.560 --> 01:27:15.199
the hospital having my appendix out, there was two songs

1018
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:18.760
that were in the charts or that I were two

1019
01:27:18.760 --> 01:27:22.039
songs that I really liked because I asked for them

1020
01:27:22.079 --> 01:27:27.000
to be played on the hospital radio. So one was

1021
01:27:28.560 --> 01:27:33.399
totally Clips of the Heart by Bonnoy Tyler and the

1022
01:27:33.439 --> 01:27:39.239
everyone was down Under by men at work? Do you

1023
01:27:39.319 --> 01:27:42.359
come from a downut? Do you come from? Do you

1024
01:27:42.439 --> 01:27:45.800
come from a do you what? Do you come from?

1025
01:27:45.840 --> 01:27:49.600
A man down under? Well? We mingle and then thunder

1026
01:27:50.239 --> 01:27:51.399
can you hear? Can you hear this?

1027
01:27:51.600 --> 01:27:58.079
And too the clips of the hard turn around even

1028
01:27:58.199 --> 01:28:01.119
now and then I get a little bit, I mean

1029
01:28:01.760 --> 01:28:03.479
they turn around.

1030
01:28:05.800 --> 01:28:12.319
What other songs? And then when I was about sixteen fifteen,

1031
01:28:12.720 --> 01:28:21.760
sixteen fifteen, yeah, fifteen, living in my step mother's my

1032
01:28:21.880 --> 01:28:30.920
step grandmother's flat, Papa Don't Preach from Madonna that was on.

1033
01:28:31.720 --> 01:28:37.319
I watched that video a few thousand times. I had

1034
01:28:37.399 --> 01:28:40.079
actually had it on video, and I was just I

1035
01:28:40.159 --> 01:28:45.239
used to freeze and stop it at certain points. I

1036
01:28:45.399 --> 01:28:49.600
just used to enjoy watching the dance Madonna I was.

1037
01:28:49.920 --> 01:28:52.039
I was kind of really in love with Madonna at

1038
01:28:52.079 --> 01:28:59.920
that time, I think. And then there was another period.

1039
01:29:00.439 --> 01:29:02.199
I know I'm not including Vinie, and they said, I

1040
01:29:02.239 --> 01:29:04.479
am sorry. It's kind of it seems to be like

1041
01:29:04.479 --> 01:29:09.039
a question i'd need to ask him. However strange that

1042
01:29:09.119 --> 01:29:15.840
might sound, I'm not really sure what it'd say. There

1043
01:29:15.920 --> 01:29:19.119
was a period that I got really stuck into this

1044
01:29:19.159 --> 01:29:23.199
particular song which was blamed on the Boogie by the

1045
01:29:23.239 --> 01:29:29.520
Old Jackson's, And I don't know why I kept thinking

1046
01:29:29.520 --> 01:29:35.880
about this song, but it was nineteen eighty nine and

1047
01:29:36.199 --> 01:29:40.039
I'd lost my previous job working in a pub. I'd

1048
01:29:40.079 --> 01:29:48.039
walked out of that, and then I needed a new job,

1049
01:29:49.800 --> 01:29:52.399
and then I had some problems with the person I

1050
01:29:52.439 --> 01:29:54.399
was living with that was living in the house that

1051
01:29:54.439 --> 01:29:56.720
I was in, so I needed to get out of there.

1052
01:29:59.600 --> 01:30:02.399
Everything was kind of went a bit weird, and I

1053
01:30:02.439 --> 01:30:06.840
remember walking on to the pier just to get away

1054
01:30:06.840 --> 01:30:09.199
from everything, and it's a windy It's just like the

1055
01:30:09.199 --> 01:30:12.680
beginning of the year, very windy and cold, and I

1056
01:30:12.880 --> 01:30:15.680
just just kept singing the babies.

1057
01:30:15.680 --> 01:30:19.760
There was dancing. When you see a don't get no loving.

1058
01:30:20.199 --> 01:30:23.840
That's no way believing on a certain shine, believing in

1059
01:30:23.920 --> 01:30:27.359
the moonlight, believing on a good time, believing on a boy.

1060
01:30:28.159 --> 01:30:29.960
I don't know why, but I just kept singing it

1061
01:30:31.199 --> 01:30:37.199
and it's weird, just that that moment. And then when

1062
01:30:37.199 --> 01:30:44.479
I went to France, picked up a hitchhiker on the

1063
01:30:44.560 --> 01:30:53.359
way to Kent. I was gonna stay in a tent

1064
01:30:53.720 --> 01:30:59.840
for a couple of weeks or a week, and because

1065
01:31:00.079 --> 01:31:03.239
a land lady and landlord were going away for some reason,

1066
01:31:03.279 --> 01:31:04.720
they didn't want to leave me in the flat on

1067
01:31:04.760 --> 01:31:05.359
my own.

1068
01:31:07.000 --> 01:31:11.079
Which I don't really understand what that was about, but

1069
01:31:11.319 --> 01:31:16.840
they didn't so they because I was looking after their kid.

1070
01:31:20.479 --> 01:31:22.760
But it was now summer holidays and the kid had

1071
01:31:22.760 --> 01:31:26.840
gone to be with the dad for I think the

1072
01:31:27.000 --> 01:31:32.399
holiday season, summer season, and they wanted to go and

1073
01:31:32.479 --> 01:31:35.000
they didn't want to they'd want me there, so they

1074
01:31:35.039 --> 01:31:38.239
kicked me out for a week. So I went to Dover.

1075
01:31:38.359 --> 01:31:40.520
They gave me a left because I were going that

1076
01:31:40.560 --> 01:31:44.680
way anyway, and picked up They picked up a hitchhiker

1077
01:31:44.680 --> 01:31:47.159
and away, which was annoying because she kept talking to me,

1078
01:31:49.359 --> 01:31:56.119
trying to make friends and stuff, and so we both

1079
01:31:56.159 --> 01:31:59.960
got got off at Dover. That's it. Got off at Dover.

1080
01:32:00.680 --> 01:32:04.880
He was going over to France to see a friend.

1081
01:32:06.159 --> 01:32:09.760
I ended up going to France with him, so he

1082
01:32:09.840 --> 01:32:13.159
went to France spent I don't know how many days.

1083
01:32:13.159 --> 01:32:17.199
It was a week or so, just traveling around France,

1084
01:32:18.119 --> 01:32:26.279
going through the Alps, hitchhiking, walking trains. It is a

1085
01:32:26.279 --> 01:32:30.000
bit of everything, you know. So we traveled across France.

1086
01:32:32.000 --> 01:32:40.840
I think, BlimE me, Oh yeah, his friend was teaching

1087
01:32:40.880 --> 01:32:48.000
a rock climbing. That's it. And then we came back,

1088
01:32:50.399 --> 01:32:53.520
went to Paris and went back that way. But I

1089
01:32:53.640 --> 01:33:04.319
just that period. I remember being in the I don't

1090
01:33:04.319 --> 01:33:06.159
know if it was in Dover or if it was

1091
01:33:06.199 --> 01:33:09.119
in Calais, but I was in one place where on

1092
01:33:09.279 --> 01:33:15.479
the monitor, the TV screen, they were playing like a prayer,

1093
01:33:16.439 --> 01:33:23.279
Madonna's main song from the album, after the one that

1094
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:29.000
she was singing Papa Don't Preach, which was True Blue.

1095
01:33:29.640 --> 01:33:47.039
So yeah, that'd be a song for that period. I

1096
01:33:47.079 --> 01:33:49.920
don't know. I guess it's just different songs at different

1097
01:33:49.960 --> 01:33:54.840
times of my life with Vinnie. I don't know what

1098
01:33:55.119 --> 01:34:07.199
song knew. I mean, there was one song I remember

1099
01:34:07.319 --> 01:34:10.600
the Smiths. There's a song called last Night I Dreamt

1100
01:34:10.840 --> 01:34:14.600
Somebody Loved Me and such a good song. I really

1101
01:34:14.680 --> 01:34:21.760
like it, and that would be quite representative of certain

1102
01:34:21.760 --> 01:34:33.359
parts of my life in the past. There was another

1103
01:34:33.479 --> 01:34:38.439
song when I was trying to do my dissertation for

1104
01:34:38.680 --> 01:34:43.319
my degree. There was I was really struggling to do it.

1105
01:34:44.359 --> 01:34:46.960
I mean, in reality it was loud, wasn't it. Again,

1106
01:34:47.239 --> 01:34:52.640
in reality, it wasn't difficult. I just wasn't interested in

1107
01:34:52.640 --> 01:34:57.640
what I was doing. I wasn't interested in the subject.

1108
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.880
I was interested in counseling. But the specific dissertation I

1109
01:35:04.880 --> 01:35:07.079
had to do, which is I think it was. Was

1110
01:35:07.119 --> 01:35:13.359
it fifty thousand words? I can't remember. I just could.

1111
01:35:13.479 --> 01:35:18.319
I did it, but I just it took everything. But

1112
01:35:18.399 --> 01:35:20.640
what I did, I started listening to this song that

1113
01:35:20.800 --> 01:35:26.560
really perked me up, and it was I think it

1114
01:35:26.600 --> 01:35:33.840
was not R Kelly. What's his name? I forget his name,

1115
01:35:38.479 --> 01:35:41.319
big star, but I forget his name. I think it

1116
01:35:41.399 --> 01:35:45.039
was Will I Am was on the thing boom boom,

1117
01:35:46.359 --> 01:35:51.319
Let me hear you go ooh, ooh, let me hear

1118
01:35:51.279 --> 01:35:59.399
you go oh, let me hear go ooh. That wasn't

1119
01:35:59.439 --> 01:36:06.159
a good impression of the song. Yeah, I wasn't. Actually

1120
01:36:06.680 --> 01:36:16.359
whoops lemerhugel bang bang No. I think I think in

1121
01:36:16.439 --> 01:36:33.920
the two different songs, Yeah, I don't really know what

1122
01:36:34.199 --> 01:36:42.239
song I would represent Vinnie other than he's just a

1123
01:36:42.319 --> 01:36:48.079
naughty boy sometimes sleeping beauty. If there's a song there,

1124
01:36:53.119 --> 01:36:58.680
mm hmm, I mean if I was too, Yeah, if

1125
01:36:58.920 --> 01:37:03.640
if it was a sound track to my life, there

1126
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:10.399
would be see even I think it's not even so

1127
01:37:10.479 --> 01:37:13.520
much a soundtrack about what's going on for me, more

1128
01:37:13.680 --> 01:37:18.319
just what I was listening to at that time. So,

1129
01:37:18.720 --> 01:37:24.359
when I was very very young, I remember sitting laying

1130
01:37:24.439 --> 01:37:27.760
down in a bed or something, and I could see

1131
01:37:27.760 --> 01:37:31.960
the radio, and the radio was playing Gary Glitter I

1132
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.399
Love you Love like I Love you, Love you Love

1133
01:37:36.479 --> 01:37:40.920
me to love, I love you love me Love Ooh,

1134
01:37:41.560 --> 01:37:44.720
I love you love it, And it was such a

1135
01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:49.000
good song. I really liked it. But I'm not even

1136
01:37:49.039 --> 01:37:51.079
sure if I could talk at that point, but I

1137
01:37:51.199 --> 01:37:54.279
liked listening to that song. That's totally what year was

1138
01:37:54.319 --> 01:38:00.239
that I Love You Love? It was in the seventies.

1139
01:38:05.520 --> 01:38:13.199
I Love you isn't it weird? It's not coming up? Okay,

1140
01:38:13.439 --> 01:38:20.199
got it now? Nineteen seventy three, so yeah, I was.

1141
01:38:24.520 --> 01:38:31.479
It was another number one in nineteen seventy three, so yeah,

1142
01:38:31.520 --> 01:38:36.319
i'd have been two two and a half. I don't

1143
01:38:36.359 --> 01:38:38.359
know exactly when it came out. Let's have a look

1144
01:38:39.119 --> 01:38:43.199
what what month did it come out in the UK,

1145
01:38:44.079 --> 01:38:47.239
because they were playing it all November nineteen seventy three,

1146
01:38:47.279 --> 01:38:51.319
so I would have been three. It spent four weeks

1147
01:38:51.319 --> 01:39:00.119
at the top of the charts. Okay, yeah, so it was.

1148
01:39:00.000 --> 01:39:02.520
It was a really good, good song. So I remember

1149
01:39:02.600 --> 01:39:05.319
hearing that and lying down in my maybe it was

1150
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:08.840
my cop It's weird. I've got that memory though, I

1151
01:39:08.960 --> 01:39:13.600
being so young, I just remember the song because it

1152
01:39:13.640 --> 01:39:16.520
was like like the radio used to be, they'd be

1153
01:39:16.600 --> 01:39:23.119
playing the same songs very irregularly. I've got another memory

1154
01:39:23.239 --> 01:39:27.039
of in the children's home in South End on the

1155
01:39:27.119 --> 01:39:31.119
radio then playing Rock around the Clock like but quite

1156
01:39:31.199 --> 01:39:34.880
often one to three o'clock, four o'clock Rock, four o'clock,

1157
01:39:34.920 --> 01:39:37.920
five o'clock, nine o'clock, Rock, seven o'clock, two o'clock, five

1158
01:39:37.920 --> 01:39:44.079
o'clock had gone a Rock six around the clock, and

1159
01:39:44.079 --> 01:39:47.359
and I thought, I remember looking that up Rock around

1160
01:39:48.880 --> 01:39:55.279
the Clock, Rock around the Clock. So of course it

1161
01:39:55.319 --> 01:40:00.479
was a huge hit in the fifties, but also charted

1162
01:40:00.600 --> 01:40:04.560
in the sixties and the seventies in the UK. So

1163
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:16.600
let's seve it, look seven, look, let's sever look, let's

1164
01:40:16.640 --> 01:40:24.479
sever look so Charts nineteen fifty six oh, okay, So

1165
01:40:24.520 --> 01:40:30.479
it charted in nineteen fifty five, fifty six. It was, yeah,

1166
01:40:30.479 --> 01:40:41.439
a huge hit in in OH. I don't know, we're

1167
01:40:41.479 --> 01:40:46.039
definitely in America. I don't know, doesn't oh UK singles. Yeah,

1168
01:40:46.079 --> 01:40:49.800
it was number one here as well, and then it

1169
01:40:49.920 --> 01:40:55.000
was also number forty one in nineteen sixty six and

1170
01:40:55.039 --> 01:41:00.560
then nineteen sixty eight. It was released again in nineteen

1171
01:41:00.560 --> 01:41:07.600
seventy four. See, that doesn't make sense to me. Nineteen

1172
01:41:07.600 --> 01:41:14.159
seventy four, which makes you wonder how long was I

1173
01:41:14.359 --> 01:41:17.520
that in that children's home. But then just the fact

1174
01:41:17.560 --> 01:41:19.199
that they were playing it on the radio doesn't mean

1175
01:41:19.199 --> 01:41:22.279
they'd just been released. But it was number twelve in

1176
01:41:22.319 --> 01:41:29.199
the UK singles, so I just remember them playing it. One, two,

1177
01:41:29.279 --> 01:41:32.760
three o'clock, four o'clock Rock, five, six, seven o'clock, eared

1178
01:41:32.760 --> 01:41:37.840
o'clock rock. I'll tell you something strange about that song.

1179
01:41:38.079 --> 01:41:43.680
For me, it's got an atmosphere there's Maybe it's because

1180
01:41:43.680 --> 01:41:47.920
I used to hear it in weird periods of my life, maybe,

1181
01:41:49.279 --> 01:41:51.720
but there's a feeling connected to that song. For me.

1182
01:41:53.199 --> 01:41:56.760
It's a strange feeling. It's not a horrible feeling. It's

1183
01:41:56.760 --> 01:42:03.520
just a certain emotion and connected to it and the

1184
01:42:03.600 --> 01:42:10.279
sound of it, it's unlike any other song to me.

1185
01:42:10.800 --> 01:42:14.279
It's just that one, two, three o'clock, four o'clock. But

1186
01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:19.840
verse six, I don't know, something unique. I mean all

1187
01:42:19.880 --> 01:42:23.760
I know all songs are probably uniquey in some way,

1188
01:42:23.800 --> 01:42:27.840
but this was just and then he had it. I

1189
01:42:27.880 --> 01:42:30.640
want to shake rail and roll. I want to shake

1190
01:42:30.840 --> 01:42:34.680
roll and roll, So that one as well. And I

1191
01:42:34.680 --> 01:42:37.439
imagine that's probably got re released at this quite often

1192
01:42:37.479 --> 01:42:51.359
as well, quite often. Ah is interesting Bill Haley and

1193
01:42:51.399 --> 01:43:08.479
the comics, Is that right? Bill Haley and the comics.

1194
01:43:09.359 --> 01:43:16.079
Let's have a look. I want to check. The thing

1195
01:43:16.159 --> 01:43:21.119
is they all looked really old. For some reason. They

1196
01:43:21.119 --> 01:43:30.000
looked quite old in the like in the videos. I mean,

1197
01:43:30.079 --> 01:43:33.760
you know, from the fifties and stuff. It looked quite

1198
01:43:33.760 --> 01:43:40.760
old there, or Bill Hayley did, But in reality he

1199
01:43:40.880 --> 01:43:43.920
probably wasn't he just because it was all in black

1200
01:43:43.960 --> 01:43:47.960
and white. It was born nineteen twenty five, thirty five,

1201
01:43:48.119 --> 01:43:52.359
forty five, fifty five, so yeah, it was like twenty

1202
01:43:52.359 --> 01:43:58.159
eight probably at the time, twenty two, twenty twenty eight,

1203
01:43:58.239 --> 01:44:02.279
twenty twenty six. They're not exactly old as it. He

1204
01:44:02.479 --> 01:44:07.039
just had his face. It's weird though, because if you

1205
01:44:07.079 --> 01:44:09.079
look at him. He's got that that what that that

1206
01:44:09.119 --> 01:44:12.039
crooked smile? A bit like Elvis, and he had his

1207
01:44:14.319 --> 01:44:20.399
and he was around before Elvis, wasn't he. I think

1208
01:44:21.479 --> 01:44:25.600
nineteen fifty two? When did Elvis decide to pop up?

1209
01:44:27.000 --> 01:44:31.760
Was it nineteen fifty four or was it nineteen fifty six?

1210
01:44:34.359 --> 01:44:41.760
I'm not sure. I'm going chic around and roll. I

1211
01:44:41.880 --> 01:44:45.560
want chic round and roll. Do do Do Do Do

1212
01:44:45.560 --> 01:44:46.399
Do Do do do?

1213
01:44:50.600 --> 01:45:17.960
H Okay, all right, yeah, I'm just wondering how many

1214
01:45:18.039 --> 01:45:18.800
hits he had.

1215
01:45:19.279 --> 01:45:24.199
How many hits did Shake Rout and roll Man have?

1216
01:45:24.600 --> 01:45:39.479
Billy Bill Hayley nineteen fifty six studio albums, Okay, no singles.

1217
01:45:40.520 --> 01:45:44.359
I want to know about the singles. Fifty two nineteen

1218
01:45:44.399 --> 01:45:51.920
fifty two. Stop beating around the mulberry bush? Okay, I

1219
01:45:51.960 --> 01:45:59.199
will stop. Crazy Man Crazy, Patty Cake? Why does that

1220
01:45:59.319 --> 01:46:04.119
sound for me? You are fifty three? Live it up,

1221
01:46:05.159 --> 01:46:12.439
Live it up, Leave it up. So the US in

1222
01:46:12.520 --> 01:46:16.239
America number twelve, and these were all in the top thirty.

1223
01:46:17.279 --> 01:46:21.319
So that's a hit, isn't that really? Crazy Man Crazy

1224
01:46:21.439 --> 01:46:27.319
was number twelve? And then Live it Up? Why does

1225
01:46:27.319 --> 01:46:34.840
that sound familiar? Chattanooga chew cheo I wonder why that

1226
01:46:34.840 --> 01:46:40.520
didn't hit. Yes, Indeed, the nineteen fifty four Rock around

1227
01:46:40.560 --> 01:46:47.720
the Clock and then Shake Raut and Roll that wasn't

1228
01:46:47.720 --> 01:46:53.000
as successful, but it's still a hit. Birth of the

1229
01:46:53.039 --> 01:47:02.640
Boogie wasn't so much razzle dazzle burn that candle rock

1230
01:47:02.680 --> 01:47:07.640
a beat boogie, See you Later, Alligator, see you later, Radiga,

1231
01:47:08.359 --> 01:47:13.279
in a While, Crocodile, see you later, Age in a While, Crocodile,

1232
01:47:13.880 --> 01:47:21.119
and in the minute and to b A Rock the

1233
01:47:21.239 --> 01:47:27.239
Saints see you later ready. I think that would be

1234
01:47:27.279 --> 01:47:31.720
the same kind of sounders Rock around the Clock as well.

1235
01:47:36.640 --> 01:47:44.880
Lean Jean Rock around o' clock re release ah nineteen

1236
01:47:44.960 --> 01:47:48.880
seventy four, Shake Rattle and rolls on the back, and

1237
01:47:48.920 --> 01:47:52.520
then again later on they released see you Later Alligator.

1238
01:47:53.399 --> 01:47:56.399
Now I'm looking at this, I'm thinking, yeah, that's why

1239
01:47:57.600 --> 01:48:00.960
they didn't re release see you Later, Aradigator in any

1240
01:48:00.960 --> 01:48:05.960
other country according to this, except England or the UK.

1241
01:48:06.880 --> 01:48:09.960
So Rock around o'clock went to number twelve in the UK,

1242
01:48:11.199 --> 01:48:15.479
and see You Late Radygaya went to number fifty two

1243
01:48:17.760 --> 01:48:27.920
nineteen seventy four. I'm sure that's that said nineteen seventy three,

1244
01:48:27.960 --> 01:48:35.199
though earlier, see it's this is Wikipedia not always correct?

1245
01:48:36.319 --> 01:48:40.920
Not always correct? Me?

1246
01:48:40.920 --> 01:48:42.399
Me, me, me, me?

1247
01:48:44.439 --> 01:48:49.159
Oh what have I got any emails?

1248
01:48:51.760 --> 01:48:52.399
No?

1249
01:48:52.399 --> 01:49:04.119
No, no, no, no junk mail, just yeah, nothing. I

1250
01:49:04.159 --> 01:49:06.520
think I might have answered all the questions. I'm sorry.

1251
01:49:06.560 --> 01:49:08.600
They're not very good. I'm not done a very good

1252
01:49:08.720 --> 01:49:16.199
job today. I think Tina with the if I was

1253
01:49:16.279 --> 01:49:19.720
going to do a new movie in my life, there's

1254
01:49:19.840 --> 01:49:22.359
I think I just want all the best, all the

1255
01:49:22.439 --> 01:49:24.760
songs that I like the best or that I really

1256
01:49:24.800 --> 01:49:37.319
love to be played throughout. But it's quite a few.

1257
01:49:39.199 --> 01:49:54.920
There's quite a few songs. Yeah, that's a lot of songs.

1258
01:49:56.760 --> 01:49:59.239
So I'm finding myself falling asleep. So I'm going to

1259
01:49:59.319 --> 01:50:03.560
go thank you. If you hear any pauses, it's just

1260
01:50:03.680 --> 01:50:07.439
me the drift enough, So thank you for listening. Remember

1261
01:50:07.479 --> 01:50:10.399
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

1262
01:50:10.399 --> 01:50:13.479
be happy, and be gentle of yourself because you deserve

1263
01:50:13.560 --> 01:50:19.079
to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,