June 20, 2025

(no music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1380 | Jason Newland | 20th June 2025

(no music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1380 | Jason Newland | 20th June 2025
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Hello and welcome to Q and A Friday on this lovely, sunny,

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warm Friday, the twentieth of Dewane, two thousand and twenty five. Hello,

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or please only listen when you can safely close your

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eyes and this is let me bore you to sleep

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or lmb y. Yes. Oh so I just want to

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say a big welcome to the Jason Newlands Borying Group

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two two Kerry and Julie. Ironically there's two Julie's exactly

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the same name, different joined at different times. But just yeah,

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what I got. So Mike posted a comment. He asked me,

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you mentioned recently that the heat was getting to you.

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How hot has it been there recently? It was a

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pretty pretty hot It's I really felt it just now

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because I've just been out with Vinnie and what is it.

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It's three thirty five. So I got home about a

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half hour ago, maybe a little bit longer. It didn't

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feel particularly hot out warm, but I didn't, you know.

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But then I sat down, I was like, but I

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think that's because I have more clothes on now than

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I had when I went out. Let me explain. I

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actually wore shorts. I know, I know, I did wash shorts,

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not something that I normally do pretty much ever, but

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I did a war shorts and it's so much nicer

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than these blue tracksuit bottoms that've got holes in them.

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It's yeah, I have to have to make a change

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to the older tracksuit bottoms, but that will come entire

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my mama, Mama. Next week I'm going to buy some

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new ones, a new pair. And yeah, so what's happened

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near I had a shower. I didn't have a shave

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because I am charging my razor up, so I didn't

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have a shave or trim. I've been trying to keep

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everything and when I say everything, I'm talking about my

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face and trying to keep my beard the same length

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as my hair on my head kind of all kind

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of the same, very short but the same length. But

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I've let it go probably over a week now. So

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I was trimming it every at least twice a week,

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but I've let it grow a little bit. So I'm

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gonna when my rais is charged, I'm gonna have a

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little go, have a little play with it and see

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if I can get it sorted out. So, yeah, it's

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been hot all over the place. Apparently the heat does

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bring out the yawns in me. It really does. Apparently

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yawning is very therapeutic from a psychological perspective. It does.

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It produces certain I'm gonna say hemorrhoids, then not hemorrhoids.

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I don't know, hormones or whatever that make you feel relaxed. Hemorrhoids.

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I gote hemorrhoids on the brain. I haven't blame me,

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just let you understand where my brain's kept. So no, no, no, deter.

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Just been watching the the Parliament channel, well, actually have

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been watching the main news. Are big things just happened?

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A big new laws has come through in the UK,

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which some people will be happy about. Some people, I

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guess it won't be. There's always you know, there's going

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to be different people be leaving different things. But I'm

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not going to go into it. But I wish I

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had been around for my friend back in the late nineties.

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But they there is a bit of background sound, but

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background music down stairs, so I don't know if you

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can hear it a lot. Nothing I can do about it.

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And I can sit here and not make a recording,

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or I can sit here and make a recording. I'd

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rather sit here and make a recording because otherwise I'm

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sitting here just listening to that music and it's loud.

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To me. It's not that loud, really, but it's if

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I had a TV and I could probably cover it up.

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But I'm not really not really in a mood to

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watch TV really, oh kind of. I'm dedicated to see

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I'm dedicated to making the Q and A Fridays every Friday,

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which I've been doing for over a year now, BlimE me,

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over a year, you believe it, over a year. I'm

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just gonna have a look. How many let Me Boy

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the sleeps have I done? Last one I did was

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last let Me Boy I did. It was yesterday, number

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one thousand, three hundred and seventy nine. That's quite a

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lot in it, quite a lot. I actually have all

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already done. Two recordings today. One was a sleep Deep

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Sleep Whisper one and another one with a relaxation hypnosis

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for stress number two hundred and forty three, The Deep

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Sleep Whisper Hypnosis five hundred and thirty eight. There's a

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lot of recordings. I'm not sure if my mouth is

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too far away from the microphone, but I hope it's

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all right. I kind of think it gets it's a

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little bit a little bit more of an echo, not

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an echo, but a bit more. My voice is a

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bit more high pitched when it's the microphone's and I'm

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not the other side of the room from the microphone.

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Should I just show you what it sounds like if

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I move it a bit closer. That was too close.

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I think that's about that's right. I kin moved it

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a bit. Could you understand what I said? I said,

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I want some pizza. Right, I'm trying to think. I

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can't think of any other things to really update you on, really,

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so I just suppose I just get on all the questions. Oh,

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oh my goodness. So I've got four questions. So it's

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not many, but it's more than last week. Oops, just

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banged the microphone. Sorry. So I've got questions from Hope,

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Tammy Ing and Allie. So what's the first question? What

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did I do yesterday? I'm sure did something that I've

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or did something today. I don't know if you can

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hear all the scream in the garden. It's summer, the

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windows are open, people are out enjoying the summer. I can't.

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I'm not going to complain about it. I'm not really.

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I mean, I can't really can I insist like people

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can have fun and stuff just because I'm a.

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I'm a miserable old man, miserable old get sitting in

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my flat making podcasts instead of running around on the

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grass screaming.

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You know, it's each to their own, isn't it. So

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Hope says, what is your favorite animal? What asks? What

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is your favorite animal? And why? I would probably so

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I'd break that up into three categories, because there's my

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favorite animals. See, I know birds are animals, but I

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kind of I like birds. I just really like birds,

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even small birds all the way up to golden eagles

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and falcons and a specially birds of prey. I love

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watching them flying around. We have falcons, and we have

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buzzards and stuff we don't have. As far as I know,

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there's no golden eagles in this country. But there's no

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there are no barriers to stop birds from all over

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the world coming here. You know, there's no there's no borders,

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there's you know, they can just fly where they want,

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can't they. So if if a golden eager wanted to,

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for whatever reason, come and fly and spend time in

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my town, then it could if it wanted to, But

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we don't get flamingos. I think some birds is a

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limit to how far they're willing to fly or can fly.

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But at the same time, I don't know if that's true.

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I made it up, because flamingos might actually fly for

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thousands and thousands of miles, maybe twenty thousand miles. And

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and there's flamingos in America and America, what is it

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eight thousand miles away from here? It's not that far away.

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Maybe it's is it eight thousand maybe less four thousand

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and five thousand miles away? So maybe flamingos can come

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here choose not to because it's not really their scene.

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They get seagulls everywhere all over the world, don't you,

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So they clearly they don't need that. They've clearly traveled around,

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but they don't need to. I sometimes think maybe they

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just travel they just like all it's because they can

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hitch lifts, can't They on boats and stuff. So a

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seagull doesn't even have to fly across the ocean. It

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can just sit on one of the sails. Because we

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all still use sales on ships, don't we Like the

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eighteen hundreds. I don't know what I'm talking about. Like

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the pirate days. Why is it that pirates pirates they're

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just not as not as cuddly as they used to be,

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are they remember the pirates of the old days have

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been like Kirk Douglas and maybe have a patch and

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her eye, but they'd be they might have a hook

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on their hand, but they'd be kind of they'd be gritty,

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they'd be tough, but they'd still be quite gentle at times.

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You could, I don't know. I just i'd look at

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Captain Hooks sometimes, you know in peter Pan or never

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Land or whatever you want to call it, and I

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just look and I thought, yeah, he's a tough man.

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He's clearly he's had a difficult life and scavenging, and

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you know he's had to keep all of his people

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in his crew in touch and make sure that everyone

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does what they're supposed to do, and running the ship's

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not easy. So he comes across as a very tough man.

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But underneath that big beard and the hat and the

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eye patch and the old parrot on his shoulder and

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the hook for a hand, I could kind of get

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a sense that it is a considerate lover. You know,

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I just kind of got that it was a gentle

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gentle It's like you'd think, well, what could he do

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if he wasn't a pirate? And I would say, possibly

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be a care But someone laughs, say no, Captain Cook,

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that can be a care. But I just I got

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that sense when I looked at him. I thought this

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and compassion there because people who have been through a

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lot know what it's like, so they kind of they

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they know that. I think it's that part that wants

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to help others. That's what I got from Captain Captain Cook. Now,

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the modern day pirates don't don't seem to be his

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cud leaps, not as not as lovable as the old ones.

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I don't know why. What's your favorite animal? And why

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talking about pirates? I don't get it. You're vinced, my

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vincedimmy cuddles, that's it, That's all right. I guess good boy,

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good boy. He just just lay there and good boy.

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I think he's a little bit flustered with his heat.

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He's got water. It's not like he knows I'm talking

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about him. Don't you know that, don't you? Mhmm. The

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things I bought these t R e e e e

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e t s earlier, Yes, the day. Yeah, and he's

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eating the lord of them already, and they're like nearly

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four pound. I mean, he could get through a pack

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of Day. It's ridiculous he can't because I'm not I'm

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not buying a pack of Day. But it just seems

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a shame that is because they're like these chicken stick things.

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He loves them, really loves them, but he gets ridden

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so quickly, so so so quickly. And I want to

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say a big high to Ben as well again and

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I always mentioned this, but I just want to say

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thank you to Ben for the other day, for your

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kind words. And there was another post here where is it?

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There was another post that I've not read down. I

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don't know where it is. Let me have a look,

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let me have a look, and maybe it's oh, maybe

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it's there, Zorry. I'm not sorry. Uh nope, do you ever?

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Oh what I'm I'm pretty sure that was weird. I

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just I got feedback in my own ear. Then I

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kind of got like fuzzy feed back in my left ear.

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How weird? Uh? Where is it? I had a lovely comment,

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Hope says lol, loved the pick. Thank you. That was

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for Yesterday's a busy day. That was a good pick.

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There's a picture of me and Vinnie. Vinnie's got a

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hat on the sunglasses. I've got sunglasses and for some

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reason I've got less hair than I actually have at

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the front. I don't know what's going on there. And

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Oh can't find it. There was a comment and it

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was a lovely comment, and I can't find it. This

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is one of the problems that I have. Oh Hope

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wrote I love it when you yawn. I get sympathetic

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yawns and it helps me feel sleepy. Thank you. There

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was a particular maybe it was a message. I'm sure

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it was a comment though, and it wouldn't been probably

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on any other of the I think, Ah, that's gonna

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that's gonna wind me up now, not being able to

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find that. If he posted a comment on my Facebook

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page and I haven't responded, I apologize because I think

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because basically, I've been posting so much stuff lately. I've

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been making a lot of recordings the last hm hmmm,

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a few days. But I yeah, I basically I can't

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find it. It was about Spotify. I can't It was

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about Spotify. I can't find it anyway. I do apologize

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because there were Natasha. Oh, Natasha, it was Natasha's message.

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Hi Natasha, so sorry, I've only just seen this. I'll

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be listening on Spotify and Jason. You have been a godsend.

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You've helped me massively with my sleep. Thank you, Natasha.

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It's very kind of you. Oh that was welcoming Natasha

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to the group. That was like from the fifteenth of June.

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So that's all right, Natasha. Is The thing is, because

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I got tendency of keep post stuff, I lose track

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of my own recordings. I generally do do do do

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do do do ooh ooh ooh ooh, whoops, right, let

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me go back, Let me go back, let me go back.

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So I just just lost my place right coming back,

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I am. I'm going to do the Do you have

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any questions? Here we go questions? What is your favorite

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animal and why? If you'd have asked me that three

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years ago, I would have said, my instant answer would

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have been a ferret. It's very hard for me, having

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this little doggie next to me, to be giving favor over,

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you know, to something, to a different animal over him.

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So I feel I need to say for me, it's

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not if I was kind of like a particular animal,

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then it's Vinnie and Andre, although Andre's not with me anymore,

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but you know VINNI he's the the one that, you know,

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my favorite animal. But actually I think what you're asking,

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hope is what is my favorite not who is my

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favorite animal? What is my favorite animal? What type of animal?

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I wonder if I can send this to the television?

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This is exciting? Can I can? I can? I? Can?

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I can? I? Can I send this to the television?

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How do I display settings? No, doesn't seem to do it.

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I can do it on my iPad and my phone,

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but I don't know if I can do it on

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the laptop. Right. It's a favorite animal I've always had, well,

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not always, but I really like penguins because I did

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a spiritual not spiritual what is it called a dream thing?

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A dream to find my dream or my spiritual animal?

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And a penguin was it. And it was something to

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do with the tenacity, the never giving up. Some would

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argue that I'm always giving up, but actually I never

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give up. I just drop certain things, but I never

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give up. You know. It's a weird one, hard to

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explain really, Yeah, but I don't. Yeah, I don't. I mean,

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I've given up a lot of things, but I never

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give up the most important things, which is this to me.

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I mean, to me, this is the most important thing.

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And I would never give up on this little boy here,

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so and I hope I'd never give up on myself either,

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But other things along the road. You know, I used

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to be quite attached to my hair. I've given up

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on that now. It's kind of okay, fair enough. I'm

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pollically challenged now, and the fact I keep mentioning it

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means that I'm not okay with it. But there's certain

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things you can do. I could have a My hair

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is not that bad that i'd need a hair transplant necessarily,

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but I could go down that road. I'm not going to.

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I would never do that. It's not really, it's not me.

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I understand why some people do, especially maybe some really

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young people. You know, someone's in their twenties. They might

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want to go down that road. I'm in my mid fifties.

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There's I don't. I don't think anyone even looks at

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me anyway, so no one's going to notice if I'm

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bored or not. Bored. I could walk around with I

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just covered my head with peanut butter and walk around

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and no one will probably notice, maybe because that's how

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a normally walk around did did did? No, people don't

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look at me anymore so, but I'm not sure if

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they ever did. But fifty five pretty much invisible. But

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I learned being invisible. Being invisible does not mean that

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you can walk through walls. Yeah, I don't know why

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why I thought that. I hurt myself. H not a

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big fan of seagulls. I do like birds, but seagulls

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are the ones that I just I just find them

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a little bit, a little bit too much, a little

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bit just a little bit like I don't know what

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it is. I think they're nice on the beach, you know,

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the sound of seagulls and the waves and the sea

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and that's a nice sound. But you know, I do

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like the sounds of the birds in the trees, the

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tree outside here, and that's one of the best things

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about living here really for me, auditarily. I like the

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you know, I like the sounds of the birds. I

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don't ever really get bored with birds, you know, they

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don't It don't keep me awake it don't it don't

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disturb me. I find it very relaxing. Even if it's

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pigeons not so much, you know, but one of my

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best friends as a pigeon, Horace, so I can't. I'm

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not gonna be prejudiced against pigeons. But they can be

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a little bit, I mean, a little bit demanding. Sometimes

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they're a little bit like you have a friend that

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will phone you and then just keep phoning you until

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you answer. They won't take the hint. You know, You

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change your number and they still find out your number

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and phone you. You move to a different country and

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they still find out where you're live in, you know.

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Just that's what pigeons are like. I mean, Horace has

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been following me around for about thirty five years, so

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I used to he used to be in uh Stratford

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with me. Serious. It did look a lot different back

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then though half the size. So favorite animal probably ferret,

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you know, if we're going to move Vinnie out of

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this Dogs are okay, I'm not really a dog person,

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as good as maybe as it sounds weird because sider

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I've got a dog, but not really. I love dog

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loved dogs are nice, but I'm not like. I like

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little dogs and I've got a little dog, but I

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would never want a big dog. It's just not I

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had a big dog when I was a kid. I

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have one of the biggest dogs you could have, Saint

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Bernard when for the last year and a half or

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whatever of being at home, that's when I was at school,

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so that was yeah, I just I don't know. I

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just everyone's got their preference. And I like little dogs,

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even like two hours or poodles stuff like that. They're

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the ones. And I know some people wouldn't want to

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walk around the street with a pink poodle, like some

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men wouldn't want to do that. But I don't care.

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It's like it, it's there's nothing. I don't I don't

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find masculinities got anything to do with whether or not

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i'd die my poodle pink and put bows in their

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ears and we're matching outfits with her, and I also

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wear a collar and walk on l fours. I don't

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think that determines what kind of a person I am,

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or maybe it does. Oh dear, what am I talking about?

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What's my favorite animal? M always like monkeys when I

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was little, loved monkeys see. I grew up in an

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age in an age. Back in the day, in an

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it used to be a lot of monkeys about on television,

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so we had things like PG tips. There was monkeys

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on there. There was Clyde the Orangutang that was on.

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It's on a few movies actually every which way but

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loose every which way you can, which was Clint Eastwood

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loved them movies and also he was in i think

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one of the cannon Ball Run movies, maybe both of them,

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and very likely at other things as well. I think

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he was always called I think he was always called Clyde.

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See what those cannon Ball Run films did. If anyone

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who doesn't know what a cannon Ball Run movie is,

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I think there was two. Both had I do believe

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both had Burt Reynolds in them, and he got paid

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huge amounts of money to make them. I was a

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big fan of Burt Reynolds. I just think he had

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the charisma he had on screen was just I don't

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know something about him. It wasn't that he was kind

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of oscary kind of material. I'm sure he could have

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I don't know, he might want an oscar, but he

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just had a really really nice personality on screen. And

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my favorites were the Cannonball Run movies that he did.

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But he also did Oh Smoking the Bandit as well,

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didn't he so, And that was basically Smoking the Band

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It was almost the same as the Cannonball Run movies.

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But what the Cannonball Run movies did is they got

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all the stars of the day all together, or some

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of the stars of yesterday, you know, all these Really

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everyone in it was famous pretty much. There was a

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couple of newer people. For example, Jackie Chan was in it,

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and I don't think anyone really outside of the martial

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arts world knew who Jackie Chan was at that time,

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because this was the early eighties. He was a big

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star in the Oriental world, but in you know, in

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America and in the English speaking world, it was only

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really people that watched Kung Kung fu movies that really

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wouldn't know who he was. And then you had you

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had Jaws, Richard Kill he was in it. He had

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Clyde Dean Martin I think was in it. It's like

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so many famous people in those movies. I'm surprised if

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they made any money at all. Actually, the budget must

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have been huge and they were funny as well. It

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was just slapstick comedy. And it was just a big race,

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all lots of different people in cars, just racing. And

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there was was it Charlie's Angels. A couple of Charlie's

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Angels was in it as well, I think, and I'm

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trying to think who else? Yeah, there was loads. I

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can't think. I don't. I was gonna say, I don't

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have the I do have the information in front of me.

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What am I doing? I can look it up? Can I?

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What did I call it? Cannon Ball run canon boor

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run cast? So cannonball run cast, Burt Reynolds, Roger bare Far,

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aforce it, dom de Lu's Okay, So I'm just gonna

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read out the ones that I've heard of. I probably

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do know him, but I just don't re recognize the name.

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Dean Martin, Sammy Davis Jr. Jackie Chan, Peter Fonder, Bianca Jagger. Okay,

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I'm just skipping through. There quite a few that I

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recognize the faces, but I don't recognize the names. Robert Tesla,

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he was the do you remember Charles Bronson? The street fighter?

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He was the bloke that fought Charles Bronson. Okay, right,

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so I'm going to go back if I go to

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Cannibal Run two. Okay, let me go Cannonball Run two. Cast.

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Let's have a look. See who's in this one? But

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Reynolds again, Dom deLuce, Dean Martines. I'm just why is

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that this is the Kennon bore N two? Mm? All

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about Kennon Boorn, Sid Caesar. It's very famous comedian Sid Caesar,

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Tony Danzer, Richard Keel, Jaws, Wow, Frank Sinatra, Henry Silver,

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Doug McClure. I'm saying out like I know who he is.

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I'm not sure. I think I do. H And you've

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got the rest of the cast. Okay, what about Cannon

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Cannon borr on one? Then Kennon bor run So but

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maybe at the same people. I said, this is Burt

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Reynolds again, Roger Moore, thorough Force it, Dean Might. I

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was a lot of the same people then according to

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this hmm okay, Jackie Chan, I don't know if they're

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just repeating it. I'm not sure if it is the

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same people. I'm sure it's different people in different ones.

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Hmm me me, me, me me. But anyway, there was

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a lot of famous names, a lot of famous faces

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from that period. I'm surprised that night Rider wasn't in it,

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and the Incredible Hulk and Wonder Woman like Lindsay Carter

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and members of the A Team. Yeah, I'm surprised about

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that because they would have all been unless the eighteen

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was a little bit later on. That might have been

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a little bit later. But they're a great movie. It's

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just the funny, a lot of fun. And Clyde was

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in there, and he was in Oranger Tang, So yeah.

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I like monkeys. I used to. I quite liked dolphins.

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I think is remember Flipper the TV show was Australian

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or American. I think it might have been Australian. It's

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like they call him flipper Flipper do nothing see me?

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They called him flipper Flipper. No no, the do do

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do do do do do do do do do do

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do must go hands I've always do do do do

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do do must get hands, always ready ready for somebody.

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Musco House on more for one. I don't hear the

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story it did it? Yeah, I think I got them

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tunes muddled up. I think after living with a ferret

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for six and a half years, I just love ferrets,

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I do. I can't help it just and yeah I do.

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I've never I've never met a puppy or kitten. I

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didn't want to just hug. They're always cute and they

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imagine even like a baby lion, it's probably cute. And

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some would probably say, yeah, they're cute when they're big. Okay,

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go and give it hugged in if you think it's

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it's very cute and cudly. God give me give a

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big no, and yeah, I like I like animals generally. Yeah,

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I think penguins. I like penguins. Favorite animals probably going

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to go with a ferret overall. But my favorite animal

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is of course it's Vinny. But I don't really classroom

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as an animal. He's my son, and Andrea was my son.

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I did in classicism as a ferret. Favorite animal, Yeah,

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I've never had a horse. I think elephants are cool,

463
00:41:01.519 --> 00:41:10.519
but I don't know a bit demanding hard work. You're

464
00:41:10.559 --> 00:41:15.760
limited to what you can do with an elephant. You're

465
00:41:15.800 --> 00:41:26.559
limited to where you can go. Yeah, I like dinosaurs.

466
00:41:31.880 --> 00:41:38.480
Before anyone says they don't exist anymore, THATNI thought don't exist. Okay, Well,

467
00:41:38.519 --> 00:41:44.639
what's the crocodile what's the rhinosisaurus is? What's an elephant?

468
00:41:44.760 --> 00:41:51.119
They are dinosaurs. They are the dinosaurs. If a crocodile

469
00:41:51.199 --> 00:41:55.159
isn't a dinosaur, what is it? Those things have been

470
00:41:55.199 --> 00:41:59.760
around for millions of years. They are dinosaurs, so they're

471
00:42:01.239 --> 00:42:04.039
how I don't argue on that one is to me,

472
00:42:04.360 --> 00:42:10.719
it's factual, but it might be wrong. I don't know.

473
00:42:10.760 --> 00:42:16.800
I just I feel all animals have kind of got something. Nice.

474
00:42:17.320 --> 00:42:24.519
Deers are nice little bambies raindeers, I mean, because obviously

475
00:42:24.519 --> 00:42:29.360
they help get presents to everyone around the world in

476
00:42:29.360 --> 00:42:36.000
one night. M But the thing is, yeah, that one

477
00:42:36.559 --> 00:42:39.000
hard night's work, but they get to sleep the rest

478
00:42:39.039 --> 00:42:47.840
of the year, don't they. Tammy asks what is a

479
00:42:48.039 --> 00:42:55.239
good way to destress in conjunction with your beautiful with

480
00:42:55.360 --> 00:43:02.280
your beautifuls as an addition and at night? Mm hmm.

481
00:43:05.079 --> 00:43:10.599
I'm not sure what where to go with that one.

482
00:43:13.360 --> 00:43:26.880
I suppose I think, man if I think it's important

483
00:43:26.920 --> 00:43:31.239
to there's a few things you could do to improve

484
00:43:31.800 --> 00:43:37.039
the potentially the experience of comfort. Make sure you've got

485
00:43:37.079 --> 00:43:44.079
a comfortable bed, make sure that you're wearing something comfortable,

486
00:43:44.519 --> 00:43:46.559
and I know some people don't wear clothes in bed,

487
00:43:46.800 --> 00:43:50.400
don't wear anything in bed, but what just make sure

488
00:43:50.400 --> 00:43:55.800
that you haven't got anything constricting on. It's make sure

489
00:43:55.840 --> 00:44:01.480
you're you're nice and you know, basically you need to

490
00:44:01.599 --> 00:44:08.280
feel comfortable anyway, like physically, so you can so when

491
00:44:08.280 --> 00:44:14.320
you lay down in bed, the very least I expect

492
00:44:14.840 --> 00:44:24.159
is to just lie down and be supported. But I don't.

493
00:44:24.320 --> 00:44:26.519
I don't mean like a crowd of people clapping. I

494
00:44:26.559 --> 00:44:31.480
mean just you feel physically supported by the bed. But

495
00:44:31.800 --> 00:44:42.039
enjoy that moment where I lay down and feel that

496
00:44:42.159 --> 00:44:44.239
I can move. So if I want to move to

497
00:44:44.360 --> 00:44:48.519
one side or move over the other side, you know,

498
00:44:48.800 --> 00:44:52.239
I don't wear a tight top because sometimes I don't

499
00:44:52.280 --> 00:44:55.760
want that constriction. I like to be able to just

500
00:44:55.960 --> 00:45:05.440
move freely. So wearing something baggy in bed I think

501
00:45:05.480 --> 00:45:14.079
can help. Having a decent temperature in the room as well,

502
00:45:15.000 --> 00:45:19.719
because depends where you live in the world. At the moment,

503
00:45:19.840 --> 00:45:23.320
here it's quite warm at night, a little bit warmer

504
00:45:23.360 --> 00:45:29.440
than normal anyway. But I don't think there's anything to

505
00:45:29.559 --> 00:45:34.199
be gained from sleeping in a really cold room in

506
00:45:34.239 --> 00:45:39.800
the winter and be under your covers shivering. That's just

507
00:45:39.840 --> 00:45:45.719
not very relaxing. I don't think personally. Another thing is

508
00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:50.159
not to go to bed when you're hungry. I've noticed

509
00:45:50.159 --> 00:45:53.119
that myself. I did that the other day, and I

510
00:45:53.159 --> 00:45:56.320
went to bed and I was hungry. This is going

511
00:45:56.360 --> 00:45:58.599
to be really boring story because I've literally already told

512
00:45:58.599 --> 00:46:02.000
you what I'm going to tell you. I went to

513
00:46:02.039 --> 00:46:07.519
bed hungry, but I noticed, and I thought, well, no,

514
00:46:07.679 --> 00:46:09.880
I had something to eat a few hours ago. I

515
00:46:09.920 --> 00:46:13.199
don't need to eat anything now, I'll be fine. And

516
00:46:13.239 --> 00:46:18.800
I'm laying there and my stomach gurgled, and I'm thinking,

517
00:46:19.800 --> 00:46:24.480
I'm hungry. I didn't want like a meal, I really didn't.

518
00:46:25.159 --> 00:46:27.480
All I needed was just a couple of milethfuls of

519
00:46:27.519 --> 00:46:30.840
breakfast cereal, just to put some food in me. I

520
00:46:30.920 --> 00:46:35.320
just needed to a little bit of food, not much,

521
00:46:36.800 --> 00:46:38.719
you know, a slice of toast would have done it.

522
00:46:44.079 --> 00:46:50.239
But to going to bed, anything that causes discomfort physically,

523
00:46:50.840 --> 00:46:52.840
I find. I know I'm kind of going any other

524
00:46:52.920 --> 00:46:55.440
way because you're asking me what is a good way,

525
00:46:56.599 --> 00:47:01.639
But I'm kind of saying to avoid those things, to

526
00:47:01.679 --> 00:47:11.119
prepare so you don't have physical discomfort, and maybe another

527
00:47:11.159 --> 00:47:15.400
way to help yourself relax before going to bed, before

528
00:47:15.480 --> 00:47:21.719
going to sleep, maybe a bar or a shower, but slow,

529
00:47:23.679 --> 00:47:31.119
no Russian about and there's you know, if you look online,

530
00:47:31.280 --> 00:47:35.599
there's a lot of articles saying that maybe keep away

531
00:47:35.719 --> 00:47:38.480
from blue screens, which would be like a laptop or

532
00:47:39.239 --> 00:47:45.320
a mobile phone or iPad for maybe an hour before

533
00:47:45.320 --> 00:47:48.599
you go to sleep because it stimulates part of your

534
00:47:48.599 --> 00:47:53.039
brain that maybe you don't want to be stimulated. But

535
00:47:53.119 --> 00:47:57.480
I don't think that would. I mean it's going to

536
00:47:57.480 --> 00:48:01.960
affect different people different ways. I've looked at computer screen

537
00:48:02.039 --> 00:48:05.679
gone to sleep straight away, so it doesn't really necessarily

538
00:48:05.719 --> 00:48:08.559
affect me in that way. I do get eyes strained,

539
00:48:08.559 --> 00:48:20.719
but that's just a separate thing. Sometimes if other things

540
00:48:20.719 --> 00:48:23.440
you could do. So if this something on your mind,

541
00:48:25.360 --> 00:48:28.400
maybe it's something you need to do tomorrow, and you

542
00:48:28.519 --> 00:48:32.960
lie down in bed and you're thinking, oh, I've got

543
00:48:33.000 --> 00:48:37.440
to do that thing, and you start thinking, oh, am

544
00:48:37.440 --> 00:48:41.599
I going to remember it? Then it's worth just getting

545
00:48:41.679 --> 00:48:47.000
up and writing it down. Maybe have a little ped

546
00:48:47.039 --> 00:48:53.079
and pen, pen and pad or pencil and pad or

547
00:48:53.079 --> 00:48:58.239
something you can just write it down. Just remember to

548
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:01.079
have a sex to me or whatever it was that

549
00:49:01.119 --> 00:49:04.280
you were trying to remember, and just stick that on

550
00:49:04.320 --> 00:49:06.719
a piece of paper so that when you wake up

551
00:49:06.760 --> 00:49:08.280
in the morning, you can look at it and think,

552
00:49:08.360 --> 00:49:12.920
oh great, and then you haven't got to think about

553
00:49:12.920 --> 00:49:27.079
it other things. I suppose if there's something really really

554
00:49:27.159 --> 00:49:31.320
really really really important that you need to do, and

555
00:49:32.239 --> 00:49:36.320
you kind of know or you feel that if you

556
00:49:36.360 --> 00:49:42.760
don't get that accomplished, you're going to struggle. You might

557
00:49:43.039 --> 00:49:47.360
struggle to just fall asleep easily because you'll be concerned

558
00:49:47.360 --> 00:49:49.559
because you don't have to do it tomorrow and stuff.

559
00:49:50.440 --> 00:49:53.559
So maybe think ahead of time and get that done.

560
00:49:54.400 --> 00:49:57.480
Perhaps it's a phone call that you need to make

561
00:49:57.519 --> 00:50:00.800
before six pm, and you can't do it after six

562
00:50:01.480 --> 00:50:03.760
you know, maybe it's a bill or something. You know,

563
00:50:04.119 --> 00:50:10.440
maybe sort of prioritize that thing, so that's one less

564
00:50:11.199 --> 00:50:19.800
item to be concerned about. Ultimately, I would say that

565
00:50:22.719 --> 00:50:24.679
I was talking to someone. I was talking to dog

566
00:50:24.719 --> 00:50:32.760
Walker the other day about what I try and try

567
00:50:32.800 --> 00:50:36.039
and get across in these podcasts. I don't know if

568
00:50:36.079 --> 00:50:41.360
I'm successful at all in doing it. And I try

569
00:50:41.400 --> 00:50:47.159
and get across the idea of getting yourself in that

570
00:50:47.320 --> 00:50:52.519
state of mind where you don't care about anything, and

571
00:50:52.559 --> 00:50:56.159
I understand, I really do understand that that's a state

572
00:50:56.239 --> 00:51:00.199
that some people, just some people will refuse to get into.

573
00:51:00.679 --> 00:51:03.800
Some people just because it is like nope, because but

574
00:51:03.840 --> 00:51:10.000
I do care. Like it's not about not caring. It's

575
00:51:10.039 --> 00:51:17.159
about not caring for the period of time that you're relaxing.

576
00:51:21.159 --> 00:51:23.840
And you know, there's arguments. I can kind of see

577
00:51:23.880 --> 00:51:27.000
different sides of it, like are easier said than done,

578
00:51:27.119 --> 00:51:32.559
and but that's kind of the goal. The goal, if

579
00:51:32.599 --> 00:51:41.960
you can, is to lie down. When your head touches

580
00:51:42.000 --> 00:51:49.599
the pillow, your body starts to relax. You notice how

581
00:51:49.639 --> 00:51:54.239
comfortable it feels to just I mean you might have

582
00:51:54.920 --> 00:51:58.119
literally just taken your clothes off. You might take your

583
00:51:58.159 --> 00:52:00.119
socks off, and you've had your socks on all day,

584
00:52:00.559 --> 00:52:03.519
and it's it's nice to let the When the air

585
00:52:03.599 --> 00:52:06.960
touches the skin of your feet, it can feel quite nice,

586
00:52:07.119 --> 00:52:14.440
quite pleasant actually, and my socks love Usually it's a

587
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.400
socks that are happy when they get off my feet.

588
00:52:17.119 --> 00:52:20.800
They're like relieved to be away from my smelly feet.

589
00:52:20.840 --> 00:52:30.599
But when you lie down, for me, also, the idea

590
00:52:30.840 --> 00:52:36.079
is when you lie down at nighttime or whenever you

591
00:52:36.159 --> 00:52:40.559
go to sleep, whatever time is, to not think about sleeping,

592
00:52:43.760 --> 00:52:45.840
to not be concerned about whether or not you go

593
00:52:45.920 --> 00:52:49.280
to sleep, or how quickly you go to sleep, or

594
00:52:49.320 --> 00:52:52.480
anything like that, when how long how much sleep did

595
00:52:52.480 --> 00:52:55.360
you get yesterday, and how much sleep did you do

596
00:52:55.400 --> 00:53:03.239
you need tomorrow? And it's about noticing how relaxed you are.

597
00:53:05.440 --> 00:53:10.079
It's almost like a separate thing. Like you can enjoy

598
00:53:10.159 --> 00:53:13.679
watching television, you can enjoy eating your breakfast, you can

599
00:53:13.840 --> 00:53:17.679
enjoy different parts of the day when you can enjoy

600
00:53:18.320 --> 00:53:22.559
maybe even look forward to doing so. I look forward

601
00:53:22.599 --> 00:53:28.840
to having my breakfast, Like even now it's only half

602
00:53:28.880 --> 00:53:33.880
past four, and I think about tomorrow morning at four

603
00:53:33.880 --> 00:53:37.840
o'clock or five o'clock, whatever time I wake up, sitting

604
00:53:37.880 --> 00:53:41.960
here having my ready break cup of tea, watching the

605
00:53:42.000 --> 00:53:46.000
TV or whatever's on, you know, maybe watching YouTube or

606
00:53:46.639 --> 00:53:52.519
watching a TV show, And I like that. I look

607
00:53:52.559 --> 00:53:55.679
forward to it. It's a nice moment. Yeah, it last about

608
00:53:55.719 --> 00:53:59.159
an hour, hour and a half. Maybe it's my little

609
00:53:59.199 --> 00:54:02.280
time finished me still in bed. It's my little time

610
00:54:02.320 --> 00:54:05.280
on my own where I can just I got the

611
00:54:05.320 --> 00:54:08.599
TV down really low so no one else hopefully Vinnie

612
00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:16.800
can't hear it. He probably can, but and that period

613
00:54:16.840 --> 00:54:20.079
of time, it's nice. It's something I look forward to.

614
00:54:20.119 --> 00:54:31.480
It's very relaxing, and I don't feel pressured to do anything. No,

615
00:54:31.639 --> 00:54:33.440
I don't have to talk to anyone, and I don't

616
00:54:33.480 --> 00:54:36.320
have to do anything. I don't have to watch television,

617
00:54:37.440 --> 00:54:40.000
you know, I don't have to eat the breakfast. I

618
00:54:40.119 --> 00:54:45.159
choose to eat the breakfast. So everything's just a choice.

619
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:48.679
But it's very relaxing and I quite look forward to it.

620
00:54:48.920 --> 00:54:50.559
I mean, I'm not like thinking, I'm not on the

621
00:54:50.639 --> 00:54:53.280
edge of my seat thinking, oh, I wish I could

622
00:54:53.320 --> 00:54:55.199
get this recording done and go to bed early so

623
00:54:55.239 --> 00:54:57.960
I can wake up. It's not like it's Christmas morning

624
00:54:58.280 --> 00:55:02.800
every morning, not quite that ridiculous. But you know, I'm

625
00:55:02.800 --> 00:55:11.159
not jumping out jumping out of bed like American guy.

626
00:55:11.559 --> 00:55:17.880
American American guy is an American dad, and he jumps

627
00:55:17.920 --> 00:55:24.039
out a low good morning. You know, no cartwheels, no sparkles.

628
00:55:25.280 --> 00:55:31.119
I just get out of bed. So that's like a

629
00:55:31.280 --> 00:55:34.679
separate thing. And to me, going to bed is almost

630
00:55:35.440 --> 00:55:41.159
and also a separate thing. I lie down on the bed, put,

631
00:55:41.360 --> 00:55:46.559
you know, let my head rest on a pillow. Initially

632
00:55:46.639 --> 00:55:48.960
I lie on my back. I don't go to sleep

633
00:55:48.960 --> 00:55:51.760
on my back because I have to sleep on my side,

634
00:55:52.320 --> 00:55:55.320
but I lie on my back to start with. And

635
00:55:55.440 --> 00:55:59.960
just notice how relaxed my body feels. Especially in my back,

636
00:56:00.119 --> 00:56:06.360
my lower back. I just notice how my legs relax,

637
00:56:06.840 --> 00:56:12.840
my buttocks, my shoulders, my neck as my head's resting

638
00:56:12.920 --> 00:56:23.280
on a pillow. And I'm not concerned about falling asleep.

639
00:56:25.800 --> 00:56:33.920
I couldn't care at all about falling asleep, because even

640
00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:37.880
though technically that's why I've gone to bed, for me,

641
00:56:38.239 --> 00:56:43.480
I've gone to bed to relax. I guess it's a

642
00:56:43.519 --> 00:56:50.519
different mindset. I've not gone to bed expecting anything other

643
00:56:50.599 --> 00:56:56.960
than to relax. I'm not I expect to fall asleep

644
00:56:56.960 --> 00:57:00.880
because I do every single every much every night of

645
00:57:00.920 --> 00:57:03.199
my life, I guess, apart from when I slept during

646
00:57:03.280 --> 00:57:11.000
the day. But it's not something I am concerned with.

647
00:57:13.119 --> 00:57:17.480
It's not something I care about. And that brings you

648
00:57:17.559 --> 00:57:22.039
back to the whole idea of not caring. Is this

649
00:57:22.159 --> 00:57:24.440
is way too more city, this is weird, this is

650
00:57:24.480 --> 00:57:27.239
too serious for my Q and a Friday and I

651
00:57:27.280 --> 00:57:33.159
start talking about penguins again in a minute. But to

652
00:57:33.199 --> 00:57:36.079
get to that mindset of not caring about anything, not

653
00:57:36.199 --> 00:57:40.639
in a selfish way, you know, is it completely different

654
00:57:40.679 --> 00:57:44.320
from being selfish because you don't even care about yourself.

655
00:57:45.079 --> 00:57:48.119
You literally don't care about anything. You let it all

656
00:57:48.199 --> 00:57:52.159
fall on the floor. It's almost like you just step

657
00:57:52.199 --> 00:57:55.159
out of your own skin. Leave it on the floor,

658
00:57:55.239 --> 00:57:58.599
leave it in the other room, you go to bed.

659
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:05.159
It's your little place, your little pod, your little safe space,

660
00:58:05.719 --> 00:58:11.440
is safe bubble, whatever you want to call it, where

661
00:58:11.480 --> 00:58:20.920
you can just relax, enjoy feeling relaxed. And if you've

662
00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:23.960
got your eyes closed, which unless you enjoy looking at

663
00:58:23.960 --> 00:58:29.559
the ceiling, which I mean sometimes I do. Got quite

664
00:58:29.599 --> 00:58:33.440
a thing about ceilings, but generally I don't look at

665
00:58:33.440 --> 00:58:35.920
the ceiling, especially it's dark. I can't see the ceiling.

666
00:58:38.280 --> 00:58:47.159
I've got itchy bomp. Okay, butter grubther. You can just

667
00:58:49.920 --> 00:58:58.679
enjoy feeling relaxed, and that's it. There's nothing that you

668
00:58:58.760 --> 00:59:06.039
need to do. And when you don't care about anything

669
00:59:07.239 --> 00:59:10.000
for that period of time, you just let it go.

670
00:59:11.079 --> 00:59:14.280
And I do. I can see different perspectives, and I

671
00:59:14.320 --> 00:59:19.079
can almost hear in my brain someone saying, yeah, but

672
00:59:19.239 --> 00:59:22.679
this person's unwell, of course I care. I'm thinking about them.

673
00:59:22.719 --> 00:59:27.639
And that's the thing. You have to stop caring about

674
00:59:27.679 --> 00:59:33.800
everything doesn't mean you don't care. Okay. I don't know

675
00:59:33.840 --> 00:59:38.840
if this concept is even comprehensible to me. I don't know,

676
00:59:38.960 --> 00:59:45.280
But you take a break from caring doesn't mean you

677
00:59:45.320 --> 00:59:48.559
don't care, of course, you don't stop loving the people

678
00:59:48.639 --> 00:59:55.360
you love, but you take a break from thinking about them.

679
00:59:55.920 --> 01:00:01.480
You take a break from even almost like they don't exist.

680
01:00:02.039 --> 01:00:08.199
Nothing exists. Everything stops for a while, just for that

681
01:00:08.400 --> 01:00:21.360
short period that you're relaxing, and then you fall asleep,

682
01:00:25.239 --> 01:00:28.159
and you don't have control over what you think about

683
01:00:28.199 --> 01:00:32.119
when you're asleep. I'm not saying that you're controlling what

684
01:00:32.159 --> 01:00:35.480
you think about when you're lying in bed, but you're

685
01:00:35.599 --> 01:00:38.519
kind of taking a bit of control in the sense

686
01:00:38.559 --> 01:00:43.000
of letting go. And that is what I mean when

687
01:00:43.000 --> 01:00:52.079
I say let go, like literally drop everything. And I

688
01:00:52.199 --> 01:00:54.599
have literally done that in the past myself in the

689
01:00:54.920 --> 01:00:58.719
you know, where I've walked away from every single thing,

690
01:00:59.280 --> 01:01:04.599
every aspect of my life, where I lived, where I worked, friends, everything.

691
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:09.119
I'm not recommending it, but you know, there's been times

692
01:01:09.119 --> 01:01:13.320
when I've had to do that and there is a relief.

693
01:01:15.840 --> 01:01:18.679
The problem with doing that is it's hard to come

694
01:01:18.719 --> 01:01:20.960
back to, you know, from that. If you do that

695
01:01:21.039 --> 01:01:26.519
in life, you drop every single thing in life. But

696
01:01:26.599 --> 01:01:30.880
when you're in bed, you can do it for a

697
01:01:30.920 --> 01:01:35.280
period of time. Now I understand some people might have

698
01:01:35.320 --> 01:01:39.519
to have the phone on because I loved one might

699
01:01:40.960 --> 01:01:48.159
need their help or whatever, but that's dealt with when

700
01:01:48.159 --> 01:01:55.920
it happens. You're not planning a head, not even one minute,

701
01:01:56.719 --> 01:02:04.599
not even five seconds ahead. There's no planning. There's no yesterday,

702
01:02:04.719 --> 01:02:07.239
no tomorrow, not even any it's not even a now.

703
01:02:07.840 --> 01:02:25.239
It's just almost nothing. The peace, calmness and when you

704
01:02:25.360 --> 01:02:38.280
feel it, that that slowness in your mind where there's

705
01:02:38.320 --> 01:02:47.880
just nothing going on, there's nothing happening, there's there's no

706
01:02:48.039 --> 01:02:53.159
need for any kind of stimulation or any type of

707
01:02:53.280 --> 01:03:05.400
dialogue to be occurring. Mm hmm, because you've given yourself

708
01:03:05.440 --> 01:03:12.360
permission to just let go and not care for a while.

709
01:03:23.000 --> 01:03:25.760
I guess some would say it's kind of like a

710
01:03:25.960 --> 01:03:36.639
like an emptiness, a peacefulness, calmness, potentially healing. Your body

711
01:03:36.679 --> 01:03:43.840
relaxes even more, your mind not only slows down, but

712
01:03:44.039 --> 01:03:56.480
maybe also maybe it comes to a practical standstill. I

713
01:03:56.559 --> 01:03:59.079
kind of think I should have done this question at

714
01:03:59.119 --> 01:04:01.440
the end because I'm going to go back to being

715
01:04:01.480 --> 01:04:08.719
silly again. Sorry, but yeah, that's what I'm thinking. Thank

716
01:04:08.760 --> 01:04:10.920
you for saying I've got a beautiful voice. It's quite

717
01:04:10.960 --> 01:04:13.840
weird because when I was reading it out, I was

718
01:04:13.920 --> 01:04:23.159
noticing my voice particularly croaky today, particularly croaky, and what

719
01:04:23.280 --> 01:04:26.360
is a good way to do stress in conjunction? And

720
01:04:31.119 --> 01:04:33.440
I could have gone silly with the answer for that question,

721
01:04:33.599 --> 01:04:38.920
but I thought i'd be give a serious answer because ultimately,

722
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:43.599
that is what I'm trying to do. I am trying

723
01:04:43.679 --> 01:04:49.199
to I know, I'm mess about and hopefully it's entertaining

724
01:04:49.320 --> 01:04:56.440
and it's I can be company maybe to you, like

725
01:04:56.559 --> 01:05:08.159
a a familiar voice, perhaps even you know, but I

726
01:05:08.159 --> 01:05:13.480
am also aiming to help. I mean that that in

727
01:05:13.480 --> 01:05:22.440
itself can be helpful, but I am aiming to that

728
01:05:22.480 --> 01:05:27.599
the recordings are useful, you know. So yeah, so thanks,

729
01:05:28.039 --> 01:05:33.960
so thanks Hope and Temmy for those two questions, and

730
01:05:34.039 --> 01:05:40.639
thanks for saying it. I've got a beautiful voice. Ing

731
01:05:41.400 --> 01:05:44.960
asks me, how do you met? Oh yeah, By the way,

732
01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:47.639
the dog walker I was talking to just looked at

733
01:05:47.679 --> 01:05:51.760
me blankly. What Because I was talking about how I'm

734
01:05:51.760 --> 01:05:55.239
just trying to help people, to try to explain to

735
01:05:55.400 --> 01:06:01.000
just let go and to not care about anything, and

736
01:06:01.079 --> 01:06:03.000
she said, oh, I only ask you if you think

737
01:06:03.000 --> 01:06:06.679
it's going to rain. So I think it flumes her

738
01:06:06.760 --> 01:06:11.199
a little bit every time I see it now, she

739
01:06:11.320 --> 01:06:19.119
runs the opposite direction, but that's nothing new. Ing asks me,

740
01:06:20.360 --> 01:06:24.239
how do you manage to put a podcast episode online

741
01:06:24.440 --> 01:06:32.519
every day? Does this sometimes stress you out? Do you ever? Wow,

742
01:06:32.840 --> 01:06:35.679
very croaky? I think it's the heat. It's croaking me.

743
01:06:35.800 --> 01:06:49.679
It's have a little bit of water, hm, nice and nice,

744
01:06:49.679 --> 01:06:58.559
little sip of warm water from my plastic bottle. Does

745
01:06:58.639 --> 01:07:01.760
this sometimes stress you out? Do you ever find it

746
01:07:01.800 --> 01:07:12.159
difficult to motivate yourself? Yeah? If I'm not motivated, I

747
01:07:12.199 --> 01:07:20.480
just don't do one. Generally, I've realized over the years

748
01:07:20.679 --> 01:07:25.800
that there's no point trying to force it, because if

749
01:07:25.800 --> 01:07:30.280
I'm in the wrong mood, then there's I might as

750
01:07:30.280 --> 01:07:33.760
well just not make a recording, because I've on a few,

751
01:07:33.920 --> 01:07:37.039
not many times, but a few occasions, I've made recordings

752
01:07:37.079 --> 01:07:41.880
and I've had to abandon them halfway through or just

753
01:07:42.000 --> 01:07:48.840
delete them because I've not been in the correct space,

754
01:07:48.960 --> 01:07:58.840
you know, mindset, I don't I mean really, as far

755
01:07:58.960 --> 01:08:06.400
as it doesn't stress me out making recordings because I

756
01:08:06.440 --> 01:08:10.559
know I don't have to. You know, I don't have

757
01:08:10.639 --> 01:08:13.639
to do this that no one's I'm not being forced

758
01:08:13.679 --> 01:08:15.800
and not being paid to do it. I don't have to.

759
01:08:16.800 --> 01:08:24.640
There's no I don't feel really under pressure, not really.

760
01:08:25.479 --> 01:08:27.920
I mean, the only pressure I'm ever under is the

761
01:08:27.960 --> 01:08:36.279
pressure I put myself. And I probably made more recordings

762
01:08:36.319 --> 01:08:40.720
this year than I have in any other year. I

763
01:08:40.760 --> 01:08:44.119
mean at this point in the year. I mean, so

764
01:08:44.319 --> 01:08:47.760
what we six months in, nearly seven months in this

765
01:08:47.960 --> 01:08:53.159
what was it a twentieth of June? No, six months in? Sorry,

766
01:08:53.239 --> 01:08:59.119
six months into the year, nearly another ten days, And

767
01:09:03.279 --> 01:09:05.600
I don't think I've ever done as many recordings as

768
01:09:05.640 --> 01:09:11.319
this in six months before. What you want me to count?

769
01:09:11.359 --> 01:09:16.800
How many have done? Really? I could just hear. I

770
01:09:16.840 --> 01:09:18.880
could hear the people screaming.

771
01:09:18.520 --> 01:09:22.520
No, no, we don't need you to count them.

772
01:09:22.600 --> 01:09:30.159
No, I mean, my look, I've done quite I'm sure

773
01:09:30.159 --> 01:09:33.800
I didn't I count them the other day? Didn't I

774
01:09:33.880 --> 01:09:35.920
count how many I done? It? It won't take long, don't we,

775
01:09:37.239 --> 01:09:40.520
Because although it's a fair amount, it's still not going

776
01:09:40.600 --> 01:09:44.039
to be a huge amount. Probably twenty or thirty, I

777
01:09:44.039 --> 01:09:52.920
don't know, maybe more. There must be an easier way

778
01:09:52.960 --> 01:09:57.479
of doing it than this. I'm just scrolling down, still

779
01:09:57.520 --> 01:10:06.039
in April, in March, now, still in March. So I

780
01:10:06.079 --> 01:10:14.239
don't really feel stressed to make new recordings. I think

781
01:10:14.279 --> 01:10:18.680
if anything, it's beneficial for me to do it because,

782
01:10:21.840 --> 01:10:25.920
without being dramatic, I don't have anything else. This is

783
01:10:25.960 --> 01:10:30.760
all I have. This is other than taking Vinny for

784
01:10:31.520 --> 01:10:33.439
I want to say the word, but taking him out

785
01:10:35.399 --> 01:10:39.520
because I have to. There is nothing else that I

786
01:10:39.640 --> 01:10:47.479
really am kind of having to do. Part of the

787
01:10:47.520 --> 01:10:51.039
basic stuff like you know, buying food and paying bills,

788
01:10:52.920 --> 01:10:57.239
all right, since the first of January one two three,

789
01:10:58.520 --> 01:11:03.359
I mean, actually we'll start the first of January. So

790
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:10.199
this is to let me boil you to sleep one thousand,

791
01:11:10.239 --> 01:11:14.640
two hundred and sixty one, so one thousand, two hundred

792
01:11:14.680 --> 01:11:26.279
and sixty one, and this one is one thousand, three

793
01:11:26.359 --> 01:11:34.760
hundred and eighty, so one hundred, one thousand. What one thousand,

794
01:11:34.960 --> 01:11:41.079
two hundred and sixty one, one thousand, three hundred and

795
01:11:41.119 --> 01:11:51.319
sixty one, so it's one hundred and nineteen including this one,

796
01:11:51.600 --> 01:11:53.760
so down one hundred and nineteen. Let me boil you

797
01:11:53.800 --> 01:12:01.000
to sleep in well nearly six months, so three six,

798
01:12:01.199 --> 01:12:05.239
nine twenty, so it's pretty much every day for four

799
01:12:05.279 --> 01:12:09.279
months and then two months or none kind of it's

800
01:12:09.439 --> 01:12:20.359
I suppose it's two two, four, six, eight, ten twelve. Yes,

801
01:12:20.439 --> 01:12:27.520
I suppose it's it's five ten fifteen, So twenty a week,

802
01:12:27.680 --> 01:12:31.399
twenty a month roughly for the let me boy to sleep,

803
01:12:32.720 --> 01:12:35.560
which is I've got a Monday to Friday every week

804
01:12:35.600 --> 01:12:40.640
of the year so far, kind of. So let's have

805
01:12:40.680 --> 01:12:43.279
a look at all the others. So it was one,

806
01:12:44.079 --> 01:12:45.840
but this is all this other stuff that let me

807
01:12:45.880 --> 01:13:07.640
boy are paying away and blah blah one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty,

808
01:13:08.079 --> 01:13:12.199
twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four, twenty five,

809
01:13:12.720 --> 01:13:17.920
twenty fifth, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty, thirty one,

810
01:13:18.039 --> 01:13:22.000
thirty two, thirty three, thirty four, thirty five, thirty six,

811
01:13:22.439 --> 01:13:27.760
thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine, forty forty one, forty two,

812
01:13:28.000 --> 01:13:32.800
forty three, forty four, forty five, forty six, forty seven,

813
01:13:33.159 --> 01:13:39.520
forty eight, forty nine, fifty fifty one, fifty two, fifty three.

814
01:13:39.760 --> 01:13:41.399
This is roughly, by the way I think I might

815
01:13:41.439 --> 01:13:47.279
skim the couple fifty four, fifty five, fifty six, fifty seven,

816
01:13:47.399 --> 01:13:53.039
fifty eight, fifty nine, sixty sixty one, sixty two, sixty three,

817
01:13:53.319 --> 01:13:58.079
sixty four, sixty five, sixty six, sixty seven, sixty eight,

818
01:13:59.000 --> 01:14:03.159
sixty nine seven, twenty, seventy one, seventy two up to

819
01:14:03.199 --> 01:14:08.039
March now, seventy three, seventy four, seventy five, seventy six,

820
01:14:08.159 --> 01:14:13.680
seventy seven, seventy eight, seventy nine, eighty, eighty one, eighty two,

821
01:14:13.880 --> 01:14:20.079
eighty three, eighty four, eighty five, eighty six, eighty seven,

822
01:14:20.119 --> 01:14:45.520
eighty eight, eighty nine, one hundred, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, fifteen, sorry, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty,

823
01:14:46.159 --> 01:14:50.319
twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four, twenty five,

824
01:14:50.520 --> 01:14:56.000
twenty six, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty, thirty one,

825
01:14:56.760 --> 01:15:04.359
thirty two, thirty three, thirty four, thirty five, thirty six,

826
01:15:04.680 --> 01:15:09.920
thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine, forty, forty one, forty two,

827
01:15:10.720 --> 01:15:14.399
forty three, forty four, forty five, forty six, forty seven,

828
01:15:14.520 --> 01:15:20.159
forty eight, forty nine, fifty fifty one, fifty two, fifty three,

829
01:15:20.439 --> 01:15:29.319
fifty four, fifty five, fifty six, fifty seven, fifty eight,

830
01:15:30.920 --> 01:15:36.640
fifty nine, sixty, sixty one, sixty two, sixty three, sixty four,

831
01:15:36.800 --> 01:15:42.600
sixty five, sixty six, sixty seven, sixty eight, sixty nine, seventy,

832
01:15:43.600 --> 01:15:48.479
seventy one, seventy two, seventy three, seventy four, seventy five,

833
01:15:48.640 --> 01:15:55.039
seventy six, seventy seven, seventy eight, seventy nine, eighty, eighty one,

834
01:15:55.279 --> 01:16:00.279
eighty two, eighty three, eighty four, eighty five, eighty six,

835
01:16:00.439 --> 01:16:06.680
eighty seven, eighty eight, eighty nine, ninety, ninety one, ninety two,

836
01:16:06.920 --> 01:16:12.920
ninety three, ninety four, ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven,

837
01:16:13.039 --> 01:16:19.079
ninety eight, ninety nine, two hundred, two hundred and one,

838
01:16:19.479 --> 01:16:23.159
two hundred and two, two hundred three, two hundred four,

839
01:16:23.399 --> 01:16:26.520
two hundred and five, two hundred and six, two hundred seven,

840
01:16:26.520 --> 01:16:30.960
two hundred and eight, two hundred and nine, two hundred

841
01:16:30.960 --> 01:16:36.159
and ten. So this is roughly. I might have got

842
01:16:36.199 --> 01:16:39.039
it wrong, I might have missed a couple and might

843
01:16:39.079 --> 01:16:41.760
have led a couple by accident, because the lot so

844
01:16:41.880 --> 01:16:46.960
roughly about two hundred and ten recordings so far this year,

845
01:16:48.680 --> 01:16:55.079
which is yeah, I mean, if I do the same,

846
01:16:56.960 --> 01:16:59.920
four hundred and fifty I've never done. I've never made

847
01:17:00.039 --> 01:17:02.279
to four hundred and fifty recordings in a year before,

848
01:17:03.159 --> 01:17:04.840
and I don't know if I've ever made two hundred

849
01:17:04.840 --> 01:17:11.079
and ten in less than six months. What's my point.

850
01:17:11.239 --> 01:17:16.439
I don't know. I really don't know. I'm not sure.

851
01:17:17.920 --> 01:17:20.520
I thought I knew what it was, but I don't

852
01:17:20.560 --> 01:17:26.560
know now. Oh BlimE me. I've had so many messages.

853
01:17:31.119 --> 01:17:36.239
What's going on here? Junk mail? I get so much

854
01:17:36.359 --> 01:17:45.039
junk Mail's ridiculous. Oh well, so yeah, how do I

855
01:17:45.079 --> 01:17:54.319
manage to put a podcast episode online every day? I

856
01:17:54.359 --> 01:17:57.000
don't know, really, I just because I don't That's the

857
01:17:57.039 --> 01:18:04.840
thing I have been lately. However, I do have periods

858
01:18:06.119 --> 01:18:11.680
when I don't make any recordings. There have been times

859
01:18:11.680 --> 01:18:15.079
when I've not made recordings for weeks in the past,

860
01:18:15.119 --> 01:18:20.680
even months. I've not gone months for a long time.

861
01:18:23.920 --> 01:18:26.680
In fact, I would say I probably haven't gone months,

862
01:18:28.039 --> 01:18:34.840
probably in the last eight years. I can't remember the

863
01:18:34.920 --> 01:18:38.520
last time I went a few weeks without making a recording.

864
01:18:39.680 --> 01:18:43.399
It's got to be a long time ago. I can't

865
01:18:43.399 --> 01:18:46.119
even remember the last time when a whole week I

866
01:18:46.239 --> 01:18:51.399
might have done. I think I did when I lost Andre,

867
01:18:52.399 --> 01:18:55.279
I had a week or two where I didn't make

868
01:18:55.319 --> 01:19:00.920
any recordings, but also when I lost Luke as well,

869
01:19:01.079 --> 01:19:05.439
my friend Luke, so I probably had I had a

870
01:19:05.479 --> 01:19:14.479
time when I couldn't make recordings then as well. Yeah,

871
01:19:16.880 --> 01:19:21.039
so the thing is in the past. If we go back,

872
01:19:21.199 --> 01:19:25.439
like before I moved here ten years ago, even though

873
01:19:25.439 --> 01:19:32.399
I'd been doing it for nine years, I wasn't doing

874
01:19:32.479 --> 01:19:35.439
recordings every day. I mean, it was times when it was,

875
01:19:38.279 --> 01:19:41.279
but it was more kind of whenever I felt like

876
01:19:41.399 --> 01:19:44.359
it and I was working, so I didn't have always

877
01:19:44.399 --> 01:19:47.199
have the energy to do it all the time, or

878
01:19:47.239 --> 01:19:49.720
where I was living was too noisy, you know, So

879
01:19:50.479 --> 01:19:55.399
I wasn't as regular as I have been in the

880
01:19:55.479 --> 01:20:11.920
last ice Cream Van. I don't know if you can

881
01:20:11.960 --> 01:20:14.680
hear the background sound, I'm sure the music's getting allouder

882
01:20:16.640 --> 01:20:22.439
ice Cream Van, and how do I'm yeah, I've been.

883
01:20:22.680 --> 01:20:26.159
I'm quite pleased with how I've been able to post

884
01:20:26.199 --> 01:20:30.000
a recording every day, nearly every day, and well more

885
01:20:30.039 --> 01:20:33.199
than more than one a day recently. But this is

886
01:20:36.600 --> 01:20:44.680
I've never sustained making multiple recordings per day for any

887
01:20:44.720 --> 01:20:48.840
amount you length of time. I mean, this is okay,

888
01:20:48.880 --> 01:20:52.159
this is the third recording today. I did four yesterday.

889
01:20:55.960 --> 01:20:58.680
There's a chance I might make another one later on

890
01:20:59.560 --> 01:21:02.319
before I go to bed, but probably not, I don't know,

891
01:21:02.560 --> 01:21:09.159
depends I might do sometimes it's a case of I

892
01:21:09.239 --> 01:21:16.359
get a little bit of inspiration for with the podcast

893
01:21:16.840 --> 01:21:20.359
this of look what I caught it called I should

894
01:21:20.520 --> 01:21:27.600
know the name of my podcast, shouldn't I? Really? Relaxation

895
01:21:27.760 --> 01:21:33.119
for Stress and Panic Attacks that podcast, and I've got

896
01:21:33.920 --> 01:21:39.520
how many different episodes, two hundred and forty three different

897
01:21:39.600 --> 01:21:45.560
episodes that one is some of the recordings are short.

898
01:21:46.600 --> 01:21:48.680
But it's just an idea I've had, Like I had

899
01:21:48.680 --> 01:21:54.039
an idea of using a flamethrower on a an ice

900
01:21:54.439 --> 01:21:59.560
sculpture of the words stress and melting it and then

901
01:21:59.600 --> 01:22:06.279
that turns into a biscuit shaped stress and a dog

902
01:22:06.359 --> 01:22:12.640
eating it and then the stress being pooed out. I

903
01:22:12.640 --> 01:22:14.399
don't know why I always seem to go that direction.

904
01:22:14.960 --> 01:22:17.920
But I had another one called today called blowing bubbles,

905
01:22:18.479 --> 01:22:24.399
and that's based upon the whole idea of especially for

906
01:22:24.479 --> 01:22:30.359
kids really to be honest, but by blowing out, you know,

907
01:22:30.359 --> 01:22:34.000
if you blow through a tube, blowing the bubble, that

908
01:22:34.560 --> 01:22:39.039
is a way to calm the breathing without focusing on

909
01:22:39.079 --> 01:22:43.600
the breathing. And it's fun, especially for a kid. It's

910
01:22:43.600 --> 01:22:46.520
fun for I think I would argue that blowing bubbles

911
01:22:46.720 --> 01:22:54.640
can potentially be fun for anyone, and I talked about

912
01:22:54.640 --> 01:23:04.920
my own experiences and how even though controling, breathing is

913
01:23:05.159 --> 01:23:11.239
almost if you look at any any book, whether it's

914
01:23:11.319 --> 01:23:18.600
stress relief or anxiety, any all recordings, most of them

915
01:23:18.640 --> 01:23:23.720
seem to focus on breathing techniques. Even hypnosis recordings focusing

916
01:23:23.720 --> 01:23:30.079
on breathing techniques to start with. I don't do that

917
01:23:31.840 --> 01:23:46.319
generally because for me, it's about relaxing but kind of

918
01:23:46.359 --> 01:23:51.119
going slow with it. And what I noticed is when

919
01:23:51.359 --> 01:23:56.439
the more you relax, the slower you're breathing becomes naturally

920
01:23:57.359 --> 01:24:05.039
and becomes deeper as well. But it's just a natural process.

921
01:24:06.079 --> 01:24:10.199
And I also realized in my own experience with anxiety

922
01:24:10.319 --> 01:24:13.800
and panic attacks and stuff like that, the last thing

923
01:24:13.840 --> 01:24:15.800
in the world I wanted to do was focus on

924
01:24:15.840 --> 01:24:20.439
my breathing. I was too self conscious of it at

925
01:24:20.479 --> 01:24:27.479
that time. Anyway, I needed a distraction from that. So,

926
01:24:27.800 --> 01:24:32.680
you know, breathing out maybe due to hyperventilation, breathing out

927
01:24:32.800 --> 01:24:35.039
is obviously it's a good thing, isn't it, Because you're

928
01:24:35.039 --> 01:24:39.680
breathing in too much. If you start blowing bubbles breathing,

929
01:24:40.399 --> 01:24:43.279
or you could technically blow up some balloons, that's another

930
01:24:43.319 --> 01:24:47.439
thing you could do I guess, but I probably choose

931
01:24:47.479 --> 01:24:50.920
to blow bubbles and blow out balloons. It's more fun.

932
01:24:51.920 --> 01:24:53.720
I mean, technically you've got the balloons at the end

933
01:24:53.720 --> 01:24:56.079
of it, so you've got somebody to show for it,

934
01:24:56.239 --> 01:25:00.920
because we're the bubbles. They do pop, don't they. But

935
01:25:02.840 --> 01:25:07.039
it's just some more natural especially probably for children. It's

936
01:25:07.039 --> 01:25:10.039
a more natural way of getting them to breathe out

937
01:25:10.119 --> 01:25:15.479
more than they're breathing in. That then evens out the breathing.

938
01:25:15.840 --> 01:25:18.039
And this is based in science as well, because I

939
01:25:18.079 --> 01:25:20.560
did a little bit of research for this, So this

940
01:25:20.640 --> 01:25:23.560
isn't just like something that I just thought up and

941
01:25:23.600 --> 01:25:28.000
thought to myself. But it gave me an idea to

942
01:25:28.000 --> 01:25:32.560
do a recording on it. And it's those kind of

943
01:25:32.600 --> 01:25:41.359
moments that I really enjoy when I I just have

944
01:25:41.439 --> 01:25:46.680
an idea and I think, oh, either ice kettle, anger

945
01:25:46.720 --> 01:25:55.800
release or ways to disrupt worrying. And I mean I

946
01:25:55.840 --> 01:26:04.159
started doing these years ago. I'm just looking through it,

947
01:26:05.000 --> 01:26:07.800
and I was doing it for a while. I was

948
01:26:07.880 --> 01:26:11.880
doing them every day, So I don't even have the

949
01:26:11.960 --> 01:26:15.840
date when I first started, but it was I didn't

950
01:26:15.880 --> 01:26:19.399
give the names for the first thirty five I think

951
01:26:19.600 --> 01:26:31.239
thirty six, forty Okay, No fifty nine seventy. I didn't it.

952
01:26:31.479 --> 01:26:33.439
I didn't have I didn't have any kind of tie

953
01:26:33.439 --> 01:26:40.279
to all. Yeah, I did. Started, I started doing it, okay,

954
01:26:40.439 --> 01:26:51.560
number seventy safe space model plane sounds, so it's different ones.

955
01:26:51.600 --> 01:26:58.039
I had smiley mirror meaning and purpose, web page ball

956
01:26:58.119 --> 01:27:03.199
or sock silly song that was a good one. To

957
01:27:03.359 --> 01:27:08.359
check that one out, it's very silly. And bath Floater

958
01:27:08.640 --> 01:27:10.359
that's another good one. I think. I think it was

959
01:27:10.439 --> 01:27:14.600
quite funny. So it's just and these are short. They're

960
01:27:14.680 --> 01:27:16.840
like fifteen minutes long some of them. Some of them

961
01:27:16.840 --> 01:27:24.159
are like an hour. But usually, well, i'll tell you

962
01:27:24.199 --> 01:27:30.479
a secret. Sometimes I have a tendency to talk a lot,

963
01:27:31.319 --> 01:27:35.439
but sudden these titles are pretty good. Question automatic thinking,

964
01:27:36.479 --> 01:27:44.920
evict self prejudice, and brain plasticity. So that was twenty

965
01:27:44.960 --> 01:27:49.079
first of February twenty twenty. That's when I started putting

966
01:27:49.159 --> 01:27:54.159
dates on them. So in twenty twenty February or January

967
01:27:54.159 --> 01:28:02.600
actually January, okay, right, so number fifty three eight for

968
01:28:02.720 --> 01:28:09.600
September twenty nineteen. So I started doing these relaxation hypnosis

969
01:28:09.600 --> 01:28:16.279
for stress, anxiety and panic attacks in probably two thousand

970
01:28:16.319 --> 01:28:23.520
and fifteen, probably It was one of the first, probably

971
01:28:23.560 --> 01:28:27.680
maybe two thousand and sixteen. It's one of the first

972
01:28:27.800 --> 01:28:30.600
ones I did when I moved in here, because I

973
01:28:30.640 --> 01:28:33.119
remember I did it. I actually made some videos. I

974
01:28:33.159 --> 01:28:38.880
think I did thirty two videos, and I had them

975
01:28:38.880 --> 01:28:42.199
on YouTube, and I made podcasts and I had proper

976
01:28:42.239 --> 01:28:44.680
microphones and stuff. It was the first time i'd really

977
01:28:44.800 --> 01:28:50.319
tried that out. Vicecript No mass that's another one. I

978
01:28:50.359 --> 01:28:55.199
was good. It's nearly an hour long. See some of these.

979
01:28:55.239 --> 01:28:59.079
These are the so many recordings that I felt were

980
01:28:59.079 --> 01:29:06.880
really good, not like good, like ooh but oh whatever

981
01:29:06.920 --> 01:29:15.159
that means, but just like, yeah, quite creative. And because

982
01:29:15.159 --> 01:29:17.800
I used to I used to do it with this

983
01:29:17.880 --> 01:29:22.119
little microphone that was attached like a lapel microphone. The

984
01:29:22.239 --> 01:29:25.439
quality of the sound isn't perfect, to be honest. I mean,

985
01:29:25.479 --> 01:29:27.520
it's probably never going to be perfect, but it was

986
01:29:29.359 --> 01:29:31.800
it was okay for what I was doing because I

987
01:29:31.840 --> 01:29:36.119
was standing up talking, and if you remember, this was

988
01:29:36.199 --> 01:29:41.640
during two thousand and twenty, you know, and I was

989
01:29:41.640 --> 01:29:45.359
doing a lot in January, February, March April twenty twenty,

990
01:29:45.880 --> 01:29:48.479
so there was a lot going on in that time

991
01:29:48.880 --> 01:29:53.439
of you know, in the world back then, So I

992
01:29:53.439 --> 01:29:57.479
guess I was just trying to put out a little

993
01:29:57.520 --> 01:30:02.119
bit of maybe a little bit of relaxation, a bit

994
01:30:02.119 --> 01:30:09.199
of healing, and yeah, So I did these very very regularly.

995
01:30:10.359 --> 01:30:16.800
Nineteenth for June seventeenth, for June twenty first, twenty second

996
01:30:16.880 --> 01:30:20.800
of June, twenty third of June, twenty fourth, twenty fifth,

997
01:30:21.000 --> 01:30:25.560
twenty ninth, second of July, two on the second of July,

998
01:30:25.840 --> 01:30:29.560
third of July, fifth, seventh of July, thirteenth of July

999
01:30:29.800 --> 01:30:35.000
five years ago, sixteenth two on the same date. See

1000
01:30:35.000 --> 01:30:37.359
what I mean, It's like there was dates. It wasn't

1001
01:30:37.479 --> 01:30:40.680
every day, but sometimes it was a few days in

1002
01:30:40.720 --> 01:30:50.600
a row, and I ended up doing so far got

1003
01:30:50.680 --> 01:30:54.800
up to what's going on there? That's weird, go away,

1004
01:30:55.079 --> 01:31:02.640
stop it. Two hundred and forty three, nine years I suppose.

1005
01:31:02.720 --> 01:31:06.720
Really there's quite a different. There was a bit of

1006
01:31:06.760 --> 01:31:09.520
a gap between when I started doing them and I

1007
01:31:09.560 --> 01:31:16.000
finished doing them. Did that answer the question? I don't

1008
01:31:16.000 --> 01:31:20.600
know what was the question? Now? Was what was the question? Oh? Okay,

1009
01:31:20.600 --> 01:31:26.199
I think I have so. Yeah. Thanks ing Ali asks

1010
01:31:26.720 --> 01:31:32.279
do you ever mis washing your hair? How rude? Also

1011
01:31:32.399 --> 01:31:36.920
curious about your take on poetry, both reading and writing. Well,

1012
01:31:37.199 --> 01:31:41.159
I do I do still wash my hair even though

1013
01:31:42.159 --> 01:31:47.520
it's receding, and I do shave it, but I don't

1014
01:31:47.520 --> 01:31:51.079
shave it to the bone. I kind of trim it,

1015
01:31:51.119 --> 01:31:53.840
if you know what I mean. So I do still

1016
01:31:53.960 --> 01:31:55.680
wash because I've still got hair, follow cause, and I

1017
01:31:55.680 --> 01:31:57.479
still wash. I do still wash my hair when I'm

1018
01:31:57.479 --> 01:32:02.199
in a shower. And even it's going to sound weird,

1019
01:32:02.880 --> 01:32:04.920
even when I used to shave my head all the

1020
01:32:04.960 --> 01:32:08.039
way to the bone, like completely, you know, to the scalp,

1021
01:32:08.439 --> 01:32:12.800
I still used to wash my scalp. It just I

1022
01:32:12.800 --> 01:32:16.159
don't know. It just felt like I should. There's something

1023
01:32:16.199 --> 01:32:19.880
I should do, and so yeah, I do still wash.

1024
01:32:20.039 --> 01:32:21.920
So even if I was bored, I'd still wash my hair,

1025
01:32:22.000 --> 01:32:26.000
even if I was completely bald. However weird that might sound,

1026
01:32:26.039 --> 01:32:35.439
I probably would still wash my head. Yeah it might.

1027
01:32:35.520 --> 01:32:37.760
Maybe it's a weird thing to do. I'm not sure.

1028
01:32:40.960 --> 01:32:44.279
Curious about your take on poetry, both reading and writing.

1029
01:32:47.479 --> 01:32:51.800
I used to write poetry when I was a kid.

1030
01:32:53.039 --> 01:32:55.800
I suppose I was more into songs, but I wrote

1031
01:32:55.880 --> 01:33:00.680
poetry at various times all the way through my twenties

1032
01:33:03.359 --> 01:33:11.640
and then I kind of stopped. Yeah, I used to

1033
01:33:11.640 --> 01:33:18.239
be quite into poetry, but not probably not traditional poetry

1034
01:33:19.000 --> 01:33:23.600
I quite liked. I was very into beat poetry, which

1035
01:33:23.800 --> 01:33:29.359
was also I was quite into Buddhist poetry as well.

1036
01:33:30.359 --> 01:33:34.000
But this was like the early nineties. I became very

1037
01:33:34.039 --> 01:33:38.319
interested in the Beat generation. Anna in Ginsburg. He did

1038
01:33:38.359 --> 01:33:42.880
a book. It was basically a poem called how and

1039
01:33:43.399 --> 01:33:46.199
in it. I can't say I enjoyed the book, to

1040
01:33:46.239 --> 01:33:50.439
be honest, but he was a big name in the

1041
01:33:50.439 --> 01:33:54.479
They were all on drugs, basically write in and doing

1042
01:33:54.479 --> 01:33:58.600
all kinds of stuff, but some of it really I liked.

1043
01:34:00.119 --> 01:34:04.680
My favorite poets and also he was a writer was

1044
01:34:04.800 --> 01:34:09.800
Charles Berkowski, and there's something about the realism. I liked,

1045
01:34:10.000 --> 01:34:18.359
the the non floweriness of him. He yeah, I'm not

1046
01:34:18.399 --> 01:34:21.960
quite sure how to explain it. And he didn't care

1047
01:34:22.000 --> 01:34:26.520
about rhyming. And that was the first time really that

1048
01:34:28.119 --> 01:34:32.960
I think that was the first time that when I

1049
01:34:33.039 --> 01:34:39.159
discovered the Beat generation, that I realized that not all

1050
01:34:39.800 --> 01:34:46.079
poems rhyme. All rhymes rhyme, but not all poems rhyme,

1051
01:34:47.760 --> 01:34:53.720
not all ryme's poem. And it threw me off a

1052
01:34:53.720 --> 01:34:59.359
little bit because I was always I was always a rhymer,

1053
01:35:00.439 --> 01:35:05.520
generally always rhymed, and realizing and I think that was

1054
01:35:05.600 --> 01:35:11.640
more to do with I guess I was, you know,

1055
01:35:11.680 --> 01:35:14.119
when I was probably from the age of eight, I

1056
01:35:14.199 --> 01:35:20.560
used to write lyrics songs and song lyrics, so they

1057
01:35:20.640 --> 01:35:27.600
kind of had to rhyme really, But in the early

1058
01:35:27.720 --> 01:35:30.960
nineties I thought, like ninety two, ninety three, ninety four,

1059
01:35:33.720 --> 01:35:37.880
I yeah, I got really into the Beat generation poets,

1060
01:35:38.239 --> 01:35:47.399
not just them. I did read other poetry as well. No,

1061
01:35:47.920 --> 01:35:54.800
I wouldn't sound particularly a fan of poetry. It's I

1062
01:35:54.800 --> 01:36:03.920
think because I'm able to express myself, I don't really

1063
01:36:03.920 --> 01:36:07.479
feel I need someone else to express how I feel,

1064
01:36:09.520 --> 01:36:14.520
if that makes any kind of weird sense. And I

1065
01:36:14.520 --> 01:36:18.239
think with poetry just as in books, and you see

1066
01:36:18.239 --> 01:36:21.520
it on Facebook posts, people posting something that someone else

1067
01:36:21.560 --> 01:36:24.800
has written, like this is how I feel, Like, well,

1068
01:36:24.920 --> 01:36:27.520
just tell me how you feel, write down how you

1069
01:36:27.560 --> 01:36:31.800
feel instead of just posting what someone else has written.

1070
01:36:33.319 --> 01:36:36.600
And I'm kind of that way, I kind of if

1071
01:36:36.600 --> 01:36:40.680
I'm gonna maybe I haven't always been able to do

1072
01:36:40.920 --> 01:36:42.279
to do that, and maybe I don't do it very

1073
01:36:42.319 --> 01:36:47.079
well as also, but I value the idea of being

1074
01:36:47.079 --> 01:36:58.560
able to just express myself with yeah done. I'm not

1075
01:36:58.560 --> 01:37:01.520
sure if this is making any sense I'm not putting

1076
01:37:01.560 --> 01:37:04.479
down poetry at all, because it's something that I was

1077
01:37:04.560 --> 01:37:09.720
never particularly any good at. But I think that's a

1078
01:37:09.720 --> 01:37:12.079
good thing about poetry is once I discovered that it

1079
01:37:12.119 --> 01:37:16.640
doesn't have to rhyme, I also discovered that it doesn't

1080
01:37:16.680 --> 01:37:21.800
have to be good. And then I discovered that actually,

1081
01:37:22.479 --> 01:37:25.000
what's good for one person, it is not necessarily good

1082
01:37:25.000 --> 01:37:27.960
for another person. Because I was growing up, I was

1083
01:37:28.000 --> 01:37:31.399
still early twenties, it took a lot of learning to

1084
01:37:31.479 --> 01:37:40.039
realize that different people felt differently about different things. And

1085
01:37:40.359 --> 01:37:43.600
I kind of knew, but you know, it's still an education.

1086
01:37:47.880 --> 01:37:54.000
I'm still amazed, really how how polarized people's opinions can

1087
01:37:54.039 --> 01:38:01.399
be sometimes like so different about the same subject. It's

1088
01:38:01.439 --> 01:38:07.439
almost like I just I see it on boxing forums

1089
01:38:07.439 --> 01:38:13.920
on Facebook and someone to post something nice and then

1090
01:38:13.920 --> 01:38:18.199
someone to post something that really just goes completely the

1091
01:38:18.239 --> 01:38:23.439
other way, and I'm like, what why what what? What? What?

1092
01:38:25.119 --> 01:38:28.760
Whoa that way? I'm not going to talk about boxing.

1093
01:38:32.039 --> 01:38:40.199
So I would have been I would have liked to

1094
01:38:40.239 --> 01:38:44.239
have been good with I think I think with writing,

1095
01:38:44.600 --> 01:38:53.000
I'm a reader rather than a writer. With poetry, and

1096
01:38:53.840 --> 01:39:00.680
possibly a bit of both. I don't do either at

1097
01:39:00.720 --> 01:39:04.319
the moment. I used to write, but I used to

1098
01:39:04.399 --> 01:39:17.159
like write journals. I've discovered in more recent years that

1099
01:39:17.479 --> 01:39:25.000
my writing is verbal. My creativity is verbal. It's not

1100
01:39:25.199 --> 01:39:29.880
writing down on a piece of paper or typing on

1101
01:39:29.960 --> 01:39:33.119
a screen, you know, typing on a laptop or whatever.

1102
01:39:33.880 --> 01:39:42.399
It's just me talking. Whether it's whether it's a good

1103
01:39:42.479 --> 01:39:46.199
thing or not. This is my This is my way

1104
01:39:46.239 --> 01:39:56.840
of expressing myself. And I think something that happened oh

1105
01:39:57.000 --> 01:40:01.000
years ago is it Probably is firs I started happening.

1106
01:40:01.119 --> 01:40:06.039
Probably it happened when I was a kid, but it

1107
01:40:06.119 --> 01:40:09.960
was harder back then. But then, when I was probably

1108
01:40:10.159 --> 01:40:21.359
late teens, I started to realize that gradually, how I

1109
01:40:21.399 --> 01:40:28.439
felt my thoughts were just as valid as other people's thoughts.

1110
01:40:28.960 --> 01:40:31.239
What I had to say was just as valid as theirs.

1111
01:40:32.319 --> 01:40:36.880
It didn't mean that I was right or that they

1112
01:40:36.920 --> 01:40:38.720
were right, or that they were wrong, or that I

1113
01:40:38.760 --> 01:40:44.800
was wrong, but it's equal. However, it was difficult back

1114
01:40:44.840 --> 01:40:47.119
then because I was around a lot of older people,

1115
01:40:47.720 --> 01:40:51.399
and I found that a lot of them were true

1116
01:40:51.439 --> 01:40:55.319
to me, like a young person talking down to me,

1117
01:40:55.960 --> 01:41:05.680
almost telling me how things should be. But over time,

1118
01:41:05.760 --> 01:41:10.079
I guess once I got to my twenties, I was

1119
01:41:11.239 --> 01:41:15.119
reading a lot more and I was kind of educating myself,

1120
01:41:17.079 --> 01:41:21.920
and I was starting to realize getting to getting to

1121
01:41:21.960 --> 01:41:26.560
know myself. I suppose it's taken decades to even get

1122
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:28.159
to where I am now, and I'm not sure where

1123
01:41:28.199 --> 01:41:31.000
I am. I know where I am, but you know,

1124
01:41:31.039 --> 01:41:36.039
I'm not sure what kind of progression I've made. And

1125
01:41:36.560 --> 01:41:39.359
it's just the most serious Q and a Friday. Ever,

1126
01:41:39.600 --> 01:41:51.640
I do apologize, yeah, that point, and this is something

1127
01:41:51.680 --> 01:41:57.640
that I've thought about back then, is like without getting

1128
01:41:57.680 --> 01:42:03.600
into an argument with someone, you know, and I know

1129
01:42:03.800 --> 01:42:07.159
sometimes it is just opinions, but my opinions is my

1130
01:42:07.199 --> 01:42:11.439
opinion is as valid as anyone else's, okay, regardless of

1131
01:42:11.520 --> 01:42:17.479
how ridiculous it might be at times. But I also

1132
01:42:17.640 --> 01:42:21.760
realized as I got older that I would never I

1133
01:42:21.800 --> 01:42:28.920
don't hold opinions that highly. And I realized that over

1134
01:42:29.039 --> 01:42:41.720
time that having restrictive, unmovable beliefs in some ways can

1135
01:42:41.760 --> 01:42:49.680
be really helpful, but in other ways maybe not so much. So.

1136
01:42:49.800 --> 01:42:57.920
I think I spent the last probably twenty years slowly,

1137
01:42:58.079 --> 01:43:09.000
and you know, trying to reduce my beliefs, reduce my

1138
01:43:09.479 --> 01:43:13.039
limited thinking. And there is a lot of limited I

1139
01:43:13.039 --> 01:43:22.560
do have a lot of limited thinking my brain, for

1140
01:43:22.760 --> 01:43:26.600
you know, my brain is definitely not not wired correctly,

1141
01:43:27.640 --> 01:43:43.000
which is fine, but it's made life difficult. Wow, my

1142
01:43:43.079 --> 01:43:46.960
stomach's been gurgling for two days now when I'm hungry.

1143
01:43:47.680 --> 01:43:50.039
Maybe used to go, Well, maybe it's always gurgled. I've

1144
01:43:50.079 --> 01:43:58.600
just not noticed it before, but I've tried to. So

1145
01:43:58.720 --> 01:44:02.399
I think what's helped is a being around people that

1146
01:44:02.600 --> 01:44:09.319
have different belief systems to me, like completely different. And

1147
01:44:09.439 --> 01:44:13.720
I know some people I've seen on Facebook if you

1148
01:44:13.840 --> 01:44:18.319
support that politician, then we're not friends. That kind of stuff, Like, Okay,

1149
01:44:19.079 --> 01:44:23.079
I don't get that. I really don't, because I just don't.

1150
01:44:26.359 --> 01:44:28.359
And if I wasn't friends with people that had different

1151
01:44:28.399 --> 01:44:35.239
opinions to me, I literally would not have any friends

1152
01:44:36.000 --> 01:44:41.560
because I don't know anyone that has the same viewpoints

1153
01:44:41.880 --> 01:44:52.319
as myself generally, maybe some, but not, like you know,

1154
01:44:52.760 --> 01:44:55.399
there's always I mean, I was speaking to someone the

1155
01:44:55.479 --> 01:44:57.840
other day and it's amazing they came out with something

1156
01:44:57.880 --> 01:45:08.119
that was outrageous, like outrageous that they weren't joking, that's

1157
01:45:08.159 --> 01:45:12.680
the thing. And I was like, wow, okay, but I

1158
01:45:12.680 --> 01:45:18.239
didn't care. Thirty years ago, I might have had something

1159
01:45:18.279 --> 01:45:22.760
to say, but like that, it doesn't matter. I just laughed,

1160
01:45:23.840 --> 01:45:27.880
because everyone can believe what they want to believe. I

1161
01:45:27.920 --> 01:45:34.239
can't control what other people think. And there's a kind

1162
01:45:34.279 --> 01:45:39.000
of peacefulness in that, I think, kind of a sense

1163
01:45:39.039 --> 01:45:48.319
of relaxation and again letting go, realizing that I'm only

1164
01:45:48.399 --> 01:45:57.199
really responsible for what I think. Yeah, man, wow, this

1165
01:45:57.239 --> 01:46:02.520
has got deep. I'll give you that. For those that

1166
01:46:02.640 --> 01:46:06.039
don't know, I used to write songs, okay, when I

1167
01:46:06.079 --> 01:46:09.199
was eight, nine, ten, eleven, all the way up to fifteen.

1168
01:46:09.840 --> 01:46:15.079
All in fact, all the way up to the last

1169
01:46:15.119 --> 01:46:18.319
one I did. I was think I was thirty. So

1170
01:46:18.319 --> 01:46:21.520
I've writ written a few songs, even recorded a few songs,

1171
01:46:22.279 --> 01:46:26.920
not professionally, but with a professional musician, you know, but

1172
01:46:27.000 --> 01:46:31.680
not in an actual studio studio, you know. But the

1173
01:46:31.800 --> 01:46:35.479
lyrics of my first song was called Mandy, and I

1174
01:46:35.560 --> 01:46:40.600
recorded that when I was eight or nine. Mandy Baby

1175
01:46:41.600 --> 01:46:44.840
is basically as a girl I met at caravan Park

1176
01:46:46.039 --> 01:46:49.680
and I fell in love with her. We spent one

1177
01:46:49.760 --> 01:46:53.960
day together for each run around pulling each other's hair

1178
01:46:54.039 --> 01:46:58.319
and running off again and checking sand at each other,

1179
01:46:58.359 --> 01:47:00.760
you know, things like that. And then she left, and

1180
01:47:00.840 --> 01:47:04.479
so I realized I was. I loved her forever. So

1181
01:47:04.520 --> 01:47:09.239
I wrote a song Mandy. It's called Mandy Baby. Listen

1182
01:47:09.319 --> 01:47:13.199
to me, Mandy Baby, I want you to see Mandy Deer.

1183
01:47:13.319 --> 01:47:16.399
I want you to hear. I don't want a single tear.

1184
01:47:17.119 --> 01:47:19.800
I love you, baby, Mandy I do. I just want

1185
01:47:19.840 --> 01:47:22.560
to know if you love me too. Just say something

1186
01:47:23.119 --> 01:47:26.920
I want to know, Just say something like hello, Oh Mandy,

1187
01:47:27.760 --> 01:47:32.319
I love you. That's a lot more enthusiastic when I

1188
01:47:32.359 --> 01:47:34.880
sing it, or when I used to sing it like

1189
01:47:35.199 --> 01:47:38.760
man beebit, listen to me. Okay, I'm not going to

1190
01:47:38.800 --> 01:47:43.560
sing it now. I did another one. It was like,

1191
01:47:43.680 --> 01:47:45.720
do you really have to go and leave me in

1192
01:47:45.800 --> 01:47:48.760
great sorrow? Do you really have to leave and say

1193
01:47:48.800 --> 01:47:53.600
goodbye to me without affection? I will definitely miss your tender,

1194
01:47:53.600 --> 01:47:57.720
loving kiss me. I don't think they've even kissed the

1195
01:47:57.760 --> 01:48:00.119
girl at that point. So that was another song. I

1196
01:48:00.119 --> 01:48:03.720
can't remember that. There was another one called called Sarah.

1197
01:48:03.920 --> 01:48:06.279
This is about a girl I was in love with

1198
01:48:06.359 --> 01:48:10.800
when I was about fourteen. Sarah Baby, Listen to me,

1199
01:48:11.079 --> 01:48:13.760
Sarah Baby, I want you to see. No. It was

1200
01:48:13.800 --> 01:48:17.560
a different song. So, Dear Sarah, how do you do

1201
01:48:18.399 --> 01:48:21.800
hope you're missing me the way I'm missing you. She

1202
01:48:21.960 --> 01:48:24.720
didn't even like me. I don't know what like. She

1203
01:48:24.840 --> 01:48:27.680
didn't miss me, she wasn't interested in me. She told

1204
01:48:27.680 --> 01:48:32.039
me to go away. But hey, anyway, dear Sarah, how

1205
01:48:32.079 --> 01:48:35.199
do you do hope you're missing me the way I'm

1206
01:48:35.239 --> 01:48:38.720
missing you? Do you think about me in your dreams?

1207
01:48:39.159 --> 01:48:44.920
If you do, think about out out what it seems. Okay,

1208
01:48:45.640 --> 01:48:50.119
just it's bad, so think about what it's, what it means.

1209
01:48:51.159 --> 01:48:54.359
Feelings are not always shown during the day, but when

1210
01:48:54.359 --> 01:48:58.840
you go to sleep, or you're worries or your problems

1211
01:48:58.920 --> 01:49:04.119
drift away, or or your worries drift away, then your

1212
01:49:04.159 --> 01:49:08.800
feelings start to arise. Your feelings start to rise, showing

1213
01:49:08.880 --> 01:49:14.119
something that you didn't realize. It's quite deep actually for

1214
01:49:14.239 --> 01:49:18.279
my age. Really, feelings are not always shown during the day,

1215
01:49:18.600 --> 01:49:22.199
but when you go to sleep or your worries drift away,

1216
01:49:22.399 --> 01:49:27.159
then your feelings start to arise, showing something that you

1217
01:49:27.239 --> 01:49:36.680
didn't realize. I love you, Sarah, I love you. I

1218
01:49:36.760 --> 01:49:44.560
really do. There's nothing I can do something else like, oh, Sarah,

1219
01:49:44.600 --> 01:49:47.159
I love you. So that was what I did when

1220
01:49:47.159 --> 01:49:48.760
I was a kid, and then when I was about

1221
01:49:48.800 --> 01:49:53.640
twenty six, I did a song called I miss You.

1222
01:49:55.840 --> 01:49:58.199
I can remember the words of this one. I missed

1223
01:49:58.199 --> 01:50:05.439
the way that The chorus was, I wish you'd come

1224
01:50:05.479 --> 01:50:09.560
back to me. I wish you'd come back to me.

1225
01:50:10.439 --> 01:50:13.960
I wish you'd be part of my world. I miss

1226
01:50:14.000 --> 01:50:19.640
you endlessly. When you please be my girl, I'll be

1227
01:50:19.680 --> 01:50:23.479
the best that I can be. I'll be the best

1228
01:50:24.000 --> 01:50:28.039
it could be letting you know just how I feel,

1229
01:50:31.600 --> 01:50:34.000
and letting you know that my love is real, something

1230
01:50:34.039 --> 01:50:36.239
like that. But it was like I miss you, I

1231
01:50:36.319 --> 01:50:41.199
missed the miss the way I touch your fingertips with

1232
01:50:41.359 --> 01:50:44.600
my lips or something like that. So there was that one,

1233
01:50:45.239 --> 01:50:50.600
and I did the Tuesday song, which was I I wonder,

1234
01:50:50.960 --> 01:50:58.319
I wonder, I wonder why do you? That was it.

1235
01:51:02.239 --> 01:51:05.800
I wish you'd come back to me. I wish you'd

1236
01:51:05.880 --> 01:51:11.640
be part of my world. I'll kiss you endlessly and

1237
01:51:11.800 --> 01:51:15.960
show you they'll let me be your girl. I do

1238
01:51:15.960 --> 01:51:19.399
do do do, do, do do, show you just how

1239
01:51:19.479 --> 01:51:25.079
much for you? Whatever? That was that one? What was it?

1240
01:51:26.720 --> 01:51:32.520
I I I wonder, I wonder wonder why why you

1241
01:51:32.680 --> 01:51:37.279
had to leave and take my heart away from me?

1242
01:51:41.439 --> 01:51:48.000
I wonder wonder you had to leave and take my

1243
01:51:48.319 --> 01:51:53.800
heart away from me? Why did you lie to me?

1244
01:51:56.439 --> 01:52:02.319
And then there's of course, don't you worthy you never

1245
01:52:02.520 --> 01:52:09.159
do because someday I'll get all you or something like that,

1246
01:52:10.159 --> 01:52:12.199
and then there's another bit that's like the bridge. Then

1247
01:52:12.199 --> 01:52:18.760
there's a chorus do do Do Do Do Do Do

1248
01:52:18.760 --> 01:52:26.439
Do Do Do Do Do do do do well. Yeah.

1249
01:52:26.920 --> 01:52:29.840
I can't remember what the Tuesday song was. It was

1250
01:52:29.840 --> 01:52:33.520
a twenty it was a I think it was the

1251
01:52:33.760 --> 01:52:38.760
eight hour Tuesday Song or eight hour Epic song, because

1252
01:52:38.800 --> 01:52:42.439
I spent eight hours recording it. Because what I used

1253
01:52:42.439 --> 01:52:46.319
to do is go around my cousins. And my cousin's

1254
01:52:46.439 --> 01:52:49.479
dad is kind of my uncle. He was a professional

1255
01:52:49.560 --> 01:52:53.079
musician in a band and he played the guitar and

1256
01:52:53.079 --> 01:52:56.800
he'd been doing it for decades. He had recording equipment

1257
01:52:57.199 --> 01:53:04.399
and everything use musical inst when it's keyboards, computers, eight

1258
01:53:04.520 --> 01:53:08.640
track or whatever you know, to record stuff. So we

1259
01:53:08.800 --> 01:53:13.479
recorded did ticket to write That was one of the

1260
01:53:13.479 --> 01:53:16.399
first things we ever did, which was a Beatles song,

1261
01:53:17.319 --> 01:53:21.479
and did the UB forty if you don't know me

1262
01:53:21.560 --> 01:53:27.119
by now, if you don't know me by now, and

1263
01:53:27.359 --> 01:53:32.359
that came out quite nice. And then I did the

1264
01:53:32.560 --> 01:53:36.199
I Miss you went around there because I split up

1265
01:53:36.239 --> 01:53:38.279
with my girlfriend and I wanted to get back together

1266
01:53:38.319 --> 01:53:42.720
with for some reason. So I wrote that song. Oh.

1267
01:53:43.039 --> 01:53:47.079
The next one was called I wrote you the song. Okay,

1268
01:53:47.159 --> 01:53:49.520
so I wrote the song I Miss You, and then

1269
01:53:49.520 --> 01:53:54.319
I wrote a song about having written the song, which

1270
01:53:54.359 --> 01:53:56.960
is called I wrote your song. And it was like

1271
01:53:57.399 --> 01:54:02.359
I wrote you a song. It took quite a long time.

1272
01:54:03.239 --> 01:54:07.720
I pleaded to you, this is not it was some

1273
01:54:07.960 --> 01:54:10.640
better than this way, and all you did was look

1274
01:54:10.680 --> 01:54:14.720
out of the window and side. It took a long

1275
01:54:14.880 --> 01:54:20.159
time to write the e f in thing, but you didn't.

1276
01:54:20.560 --> 01:54:24.479
You just didn't care it all. And then this is

1277
01:54:24.479 --> 01:54:28.800
the chorus. Why did I bother? Why did I try?

1278
01:54:29.840 --> 01:54:35.680
Why did I even take the ta ha hahim? Why

1279
01:54:35.720 --> 01:54:41.560
did I bother? Why did I try to write this

1280
01:54:41.720 --> 01:54:47.199
song for you? Because it didn't even play on your mind?

1281
01:54:47.520 --> 01:54:55.119
Or something like that. And and then I didn't have one.

1282
01:54:56.039 --> 01:55:03.159
I wonder, I wonder, wonder why you had to leave

1283
01:55:04.159 --> 01:55:07.680
and take my heart away from me. But don't you

1284
01:55:07.880 --> 01:55:12.119
worry you never did, because somewhere out you never do

1285
01:55:12.439 --> 01:55:18.960
somewhere in a review, yeah mind me. And there was

1286
01:55:19.000 --> 01:55:22.439
another one as well, I can't remember, so I think

1287
01:55:22.439 --> 01:55:30.640
I did four songs with music and you know, proper

1288
01:55:30.680 --> 01:55:36.279
microphones and stuff. And my cousin was embarrassed by them.

1289
01:55:36.439 --> 01:55:39.520
So I actually posted them on Facebook, probably about ten

1290
01:55:39.600 --> 01:55:44.079
years ago, and he said please take them off because

1291
01:55:44.119 --> 01:55:46.680
he helped also produce them, because he was on the

1292
01:55:46.760 --> 01:55:51.039
keyboard and stuff. And I thought they were good. I

1293
01:55:51.079 --> 01:55:54.000
know that the quality was terrible because they were old,

1294
01:55:55.159 --> 01:56:02.439
ninety six ninety seven, some long time ago, fuzzy. They

1295
01:56:02.520 --> 01:56:08.119
were saved on a tape, you know, like a normal tape,

1296
01:56:08.159 --> 01:56:15.000
not digital or anything. I just I guess I just

1297
01:56:15.479 --> 01:56:22.479
meant a lot to me, but that I guess that

1298
01:56:22.560 --> 01:56:26.079
was my poetry. That was me trying to do poetry.

1299
01:56:26.720 --> 01:56:29.640
And I loved singing. I loved I wanted to be

1300
01:56:29.680 --> 01:56:32.039
a singer. It's probably the thing I wanted most of

1301
01:56:32.079 --> 01:56:36.800
all of anything I've ever wanted to do, probably was

1302
01:56:39.359 --> 01:56:42.800
to be a singer. It's not going to happen because

1303
01:56:43.000 --> 01:56:46.600
I can't really sing anymore, but I used to be

1304
01:56:46.600 --> 01:56:52.359
able to sing quite well, and I kind of wish

1305
01:56:52.399 --> 01:56:58.119
I pursued it a little bit. I mean, you know,

1306
01:56:58.720 --> 01:57:03.279
I entered talent content. I never wanted talent contest singing contest,

1307
01:57:04.439 --> 01:57:06.479
but at the same time, I never got kicked off,

1308
01:57:07.119 --> 01:57:10.119
I never got booed. I guess I was. Maybe I

1309
01:57:10.159 --> 01:57:13.199
was mediocre. I was I could hold a note and

1310
01:57:13.239 --> 01:57:22.439
I was okay. You know, I think I was better

1311
01:57:22.680 --> 01:57:29.439
with songs that I wrote, because technically they can't be

1312
01:57:29.520 --> 01:57:33.640
out of key, really, if it's your own song. If

1313
01:57:33.680 --> 01:57:36.319
you listen to some Beatles songs, there's a few that

1314
01:57:36.359 --> 01:57:39.119
are a little bit off key, like a bit of

1315
01:57:39.199 --> 01:57:42.319
John Lennon singing, and it's kind of off a little bit,

1316
01:57:43.439 --> 01:57:47.119
but it doesn't matter because that's what makes them so good.

1317
01:57:50.000 --> 01:57:51.680
I'm not saying he was singing out a key, but

1318
01:57:51.720 --> 01:57:56.199
it was kind of I just didn't. I your dodge

1319
01:57:56.239 --> 01:57:59.920
will mess with a John Nennon. No, it's something you know.

1320
01:58:00.079 --> 01:58:06.039
It was recorded, and some of the earlier stuff was

1321
01:58:06.079 --> 01:58:10.920
recorded quickly. You can hear, it's almost live. It's recorded,

1322
01:58:11.000 --> 01:58:13.840
and then they rushed it out and sold it and

1323
01:58:13.920 --> 01:58:17.199
you can hear. And that's why it's so good, because

1324
01:58:17.199 --> 01:58:19.880
it was not polished. The early stuff wasn't polished like

1325
01:58:19.920 --> 01:58:23.239
the later stuff. You know, if you go to the

1326
01:58:23.359 --> 01:58:29.880
later stuff, it was other than Probably at the time,

1327
01:58:32.880 --> 01:58:36.760
there wasn't many albums, many groups putting that much effort

1328
01:58:36.960 --> 01:58:42.640
into production quality as they did with Sergeant Pepper or

1329
01:58:43.119 --> 01:58:48.000
the last album they did. How do they get talking

1330
01:58:48.039 --> 01:58:58.600
about a Beatles, I don't know. So yeah, I did

1331
01:58:58.720 --> 01:59:01.359
quite like the idea of Ryan poems. I did write

1332
01:59:01.479 --> 01:59:04.039
really well. I thought it was a really good poem

1333
01:59:04.039 --> 01:59:19.399
once about my childhood, and I wrote it probably early nineties.

1334
01:59:19.840 --> 01:59:23.800
I got back into writing poetry in ninety five. That

1335
01:59:24.039 --> 01:59:31.199
kind of helped me get through some stuff. M But

1336
01:59:31.279 --> 01:59:34.279
what I used to find is I'd always end up

1337
01:59:34.600 --> 01:59:39.279
going a little bit silly with it and almost finding

1338
01:59:39.359 --> 01:59:43.880
like a funny line here and there. So I guess

1339
01:59:43.920 --> 01:59:46.800
that's just part of me. And I wasn't setting out

1340
01:59:46.840 --> 01:59:50.680
to say a funny do a funny poem, so it'd

1341
01:59:50.720 --> 01:59:54.600
be kind of serious and then it'd be silly, a

1342
01:59:54.600 --> 01:59:57.119
little silly bit at the end or maybe in the middle.

1343
01:59:58.720 --> 02:00:02.159
And yeah, yeah, I quite like them. I wish i'd

1344
02:00:02.239 --> 02:00:06.079
kept them. If I'd have kept all my poems I'd

1345
02:00:06.079 --> 02:00:10.840
ever written, they might not be a lot. It's probably

1346
02:00:10.880 --> 02:00:15.279
about fifty, maybe one hundred, maybe more, maybe much more

1347
02:00:15.319 --> 02:00:22.960
than that, but you know, over the years, oh well,

1348
02:00:23.119 --> 02:00:32.039
oh well, never mind. They Yeah, I think that's the

1349
02:00:32.119 --> 02:00:34.239
end of the recording. I don't know how long I've

1350
02:00:34.239 --> 02:00:40.880
been talking for still light outside, not that that really

1351
02:00:40.920 --> 02:00:43.119
means too much, because it's light till about ten o'clock.

1352
02:00:43.159 --> 02:00:51.279
I think it's half part. It's five point thirty five pm,

1353
02:00:53.600 --> 02:01:02.439
So this does bring me to the end of this recording.

1354
02:01:04.840 --> 02:01:10.439
So thank you for listening. Thank you, Hope, Temmy Ing

1355
02:01:10.760 --> 02:01:18.399
and Ali for your questions. I hope I've answered them.

1356
02:01:18.520 --> 02:01:22.039
I'm not sure if I have. I might have slightly

1357
02:01:22.279 --> 02:01:26.720
gone off track. It's possible it may have happened once

1358
02:01:26.840 --> 02:01:31.520
or twice before. So thank you for listening. Remember to

1359
02:01:31.560 --> 02:01:33.880
be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be

1360
02:01:33.920 --> 02:01:41.159
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

1361
02:01:41.560 --> 02:01:45.800
Lots of love, Bye,