May 18, 2025

(no music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025

(no music) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is you all need rub hands together, that's my nickname.

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My name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when

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you can safely close short eyes. And this is let

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me boy to sleep. And today it is Q and

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A Friday. Yes it's a little bit late, a little

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bit late, but I'll be busyday busy. So before I

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go on, I'll just give you a little update on

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what's been going on this week. Wow, I think the

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Actually I did go to do a recording on Wednesday,

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but I just gave up because I didn't I wasn't

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in the mood. So I kind of did about twenty

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minutes and I just turned it off. I did one

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on Tuesday, didn't do one Thursday. So yeah, done a

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little bit less than normal this week. But I have

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been very busy with my website. I've been working on

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my website, not just the website as far as what

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it looks like on a laptop or a tablet, but

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also adapting it for mobile phones to make sure it

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works correctly. So I've changed a few things. If you've

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been on there recently, you know, if you say a

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couple of weeks ago. I think you'll if you go back,

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you'll see it's very different. It's just nicer. It looks nicer.

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So I've got the podcasts which is in the index,

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and they're all listed, but there's images of the podcast

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and you just click on the podcast and that takes

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you to the all the latest recordings. Or if you

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want to find out where my podcasts are on the

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various different apps, just click on podcast apps. I've got

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Audible boring myself already, that's quick. There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Apple,

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Amazon Music podcast App, cast Box, Deser, Luminary Podcast, Republic Player,

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FM Podcast, Addict, podcast Index, pod Chaser, pod Friend, pod Verse, Podbean, Spreaker, Spotify,

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and SoundCloud. Basically alphabetical order really from top top to bottom.

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Apart from it's not all actually it's just the a's

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at the top and the s's are at the bottom.

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But other than that, it's yeah, it's kind of alphabetical.

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And again they're all got images. So before it was

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just text, did you clicked on? This is images now?

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So if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example, and

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then it gives you a list of all the different

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podcasts and then you can click on, let's say, for example,

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let me boil your pain away, and that takes you

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to let me boy Pain Away on Apple podcasts. It's

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just a different way of doing it. It might be

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a useful thing. So if you if you're on cast

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Box and you don't know where my let Me Boy

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to Sleep podcast is, you just click on podcast apps,

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go down, click on cast Box, click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep, and it brings you to the let

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Me Boy to Sleep podcast on cast Box. So it's yeah,

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it's kind of I think it's easy to use other

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than net. I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists.

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So at the moment, I've got four, four different podcasts

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that I've been working on. Said let me Boy to Sleep. Okay,

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there's a few changes. Okay, so let me Boy to Sleep.

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The infrastrate is built for these, but they're not all

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updated yet. Let Me Boy to Sleep, Deep Sleep, whisper hypnosis,

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relaxing sleep hypnosis daily and relaxation for stress and panic attacks.

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So with these, so let's say, for example, you click

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on playlists and then you can click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep. It gives you six different options without music,

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with music five hours without music, five hours with music,

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ten hours without music, ten hours with music. At the moment,

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I'm working on the ones without music, because I think

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the first thousand of the let Me Boy You to

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Sleep ones are without music, although I might remedy that.

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So if you click on let me board a sleep,

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you click on without music, and then you've got all

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the way up from one to fifty. Again is it images,

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So it's not just text anymore. Just makes it a

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little bit easier visually to you know, manipulate and to maneuver,

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to man I don't know what's another word for that, navigate,

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And it goes down to the last one is thirteen

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hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred. Only one the

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one to fifty is on there at the moment, and

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you click on that and I'll take you to the podcast,

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and it's exactly the same as when you go onto

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the homepage. You can download, you can stream, you can

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save it for yourself. It tells you how big the

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file is, tells you how long the recording is. So yeah,

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and there's all fifty on there. That's it. So I'm

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quite pleased with that. It's taken a lot of hours

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to put this together. It may not seem like much,

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but it's taken a long time because I've been to

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get it so it works fine on the phone for

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the images and everything to be together and to be

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the same size, and it's taken a bit of code

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code work, as it were. So I'm going to have

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a break from the website today and do this recording now,

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and I'm probably not gonna bother with the website. I

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probably will, actually, but I'm probably, yeah, I'm gonna not

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get The problem is if I could finish a sentence.

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That's one of the things I've got problems with the

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problem is I struggled to stop doing something once I start,

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especially move that metal thing, keep banging it on my desk.

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Once I start doing these things, for example, working on

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the podcast apps, there's so much to do. There's a

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lot of it's quite intricate in a sense of you know,

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I don't matter. Some of it is just copy paste,

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but it's remembering where to paste and what to change,

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and changing sizes of images and pasting in the link

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to the podcast, you know, and making it all kind

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of a line with each other. So it's quite a

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lot involved in it. I'm pretty please for how it's

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working out so far. I've got a few other ideas

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what i want to do as well, to make it

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a little bit easier to a gate around the website.

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In some ways, you could say I've turned my website

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into an app kind of in a way now kind

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of because you know, you've got the homepage. It's just

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the website basically the podcast. But if you click on podcasts,

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then it gives you all the different podcasts. Then you

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can choose one you want to say, for example, relax,

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let's say stop smoking. Click on that. Okay, that's not

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a good example because that link's not done yet. That's

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not a good example either, So I'll ask podcasts. Yeah, okay,

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so you can go directly to the podcast blame me,

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or if you want to go to the playlists, you know,

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the all the different types. Again you click on there,

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let me boydy sleep with music about music whatever. So yeah,

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it seems happy if that's such a word. So I'll

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get on the recording. Not a lot going on. I've

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just been working on this. I got a letter. I

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got a letter. Let me. I like to read you

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ab out my letters to sever.

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Look, oh read you my latest letters.

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What's this way? Your Income Related Employment and Support Allowance

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ESA payments will end, So it ends on the first

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five will end. They sent

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me this on the second of May. I didn't get

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it till about three days ago. How it takes so

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long to get here, I'll never know. I mean, it's

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coming all the way from Wolverhampton. So unless they sent

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it on the back of a donkey.

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And.

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We've received your Universal Credit you see claim and we

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sent a plane to drop off monny planes. Your final

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payment of the essay covers the period first of the

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fifth to the fourteenth of the fifth. So m I

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I honestly I think I've had my last payment, which

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means I've got wow, two weeks, two weeks. But then

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I've got another letter. This is from the Council, the council,

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City Council. This letter, it doesn't have a die. Sixth

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of May. This letter is important, Dearness the New Land.

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This letter is important. You must read all of it carefully,

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and you must inform this office immediately. If your circumstances change.

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Go to blah blah blah blah blah dot blah blah blah.

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The Department for Work and Pensions had advis us here's

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something all right, Okay, this is the first year I

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noticed because always looked for month, just like if there's

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any kind of financial thing on there, as in with

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pound signs, because it's just gives just it's the first

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thing I notice really of the additional award mentioned above.

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So the department Oh okay, the Department for Work and

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Pensions has advised us that you have started claiming Universal

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Credit and that you qualify for an additional two weeks

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extension of your housing benefit known as Transition to Uce

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Housing payment of the additional award mentioned above, one hundred

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and sixty eight pound ninety has been recovered against previously

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notified overpayment over payment. How how is it own over payment?

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Then it says if you are worried about paying your

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rent bills or living expenses, where you can help if

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you are struggling to find your to pay your bills

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for any reason, speak to the Financial Equality and Well

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Being Teams today. Okay, So you know, suddenly you owe

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this money and then it's been recovered. So I was

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like confused about that, like what's going on? So then

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it says another one another letter. Dear mister Newland, this

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letter is also important. You must also read all of

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this carefully and you must inform blah blah blah blah

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so you claim. For you to claim for benefit has

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been looked at because managing managed migration to Universal credits

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successfully and your benefit has been stopped from the first

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of May twenty twenty five. So pretty much I think.

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Oh no, I think it's the eighth of June before

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I get paid. Oh, I'm confused. The housing costs will

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now be paid within your Universal Credit award. Please contact

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your work coach if you have any changes or the

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costs of incorrect. If you are ad vont lah blah

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blah blah blah blah, as your intitement has ended, any

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overpayments which were previously overpaid or recovered or blah blah

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blah via deductions from the housing benefit payment will now

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end as such. If you have any outstanding over it's

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like too much information, and then it says here you

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have been overpaid one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety housand.

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Benefit of this overpayment one hundred and sixty eight pound

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ninety is non recoverable and therefore only the balance of

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zero will be recovered. Does anyone understand what that means?

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Any ideas anyone? I really don't. You have been overpaid

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one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. Housing benefit of

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this overpayment on hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is

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non recoverable, and therefore only the balance of zero will

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be recovered. I get from that that there's nothing to pay.

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They've written it off. But have they written it off?

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Because worded very strangely, the reason for the overpayment is

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managed migration, which has been calculated as follows, from the

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first of the fifth, twenty twenty five to the twelve

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five, one week and four

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days old award one hundred and seven pound forty eight

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new awards zero weekly amount overpaid one hundred and seven

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pound forty eight. Total amount overpaid one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety. It doesn't make sense. I don't understand it.

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I know one hundred and seven pounds that's the rent

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for a week. Your repayment will be accepted without prejudice

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to any further action if you are. It doesn't make

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the way they've worded it is. So I'm gonna say

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of twos because I don't know what that means. But

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I heard someone say it once on a video in

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about nineteen eighty two. I think it was a Steve

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Martin movie. Oh, so, I don't know. Confusing, very confusing, right,

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t WDDD. They've also they have agreed to pay my

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rent directly to the housing benefit. And they've also agreed

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to pay me every two weeks from the eighth of

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I think it's the eighth of June, and they'll let

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me know on the fourth of June what I'm getting.

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So is going to be an interesting period the next

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couple of weeks. So I'll find out Wednesday, on the

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twenty first, whether or not. Wow, that's fine. I'm just

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going to go around. I'm going to have to start collecting

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the money people lone me and I go around. Oh

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you know all that money that I'll be lending you

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over the last ten years, and you thought that you

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didn't have to pay it back. When you see this

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baseball back in my hand, you do have to pay

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it back. Okay, right back to seriousness. Any questions for

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this Friday? So let's have a look. Oh, today, Viny

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started barking like proper man, and it sounds like someone

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was at my door, and I went nothing, there he's

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barking again. It really sounds like someone was pushing on

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the door, the front door. So I just went out

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as I do, just just like I wonder what's going on.

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There's a pigeon. Someone's left the back door open downstairs.

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It's come up, flying basically bashing into each window trying

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to get out, poor little thing. So I got a hammer,

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I got my boast. For all that, I just I thought,

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what am I going to do? So this has happened before,

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it's not the first time, so I didn't have a towel,

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but I did have like a T shirt. So I've

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got a T shirt, not the one I was wearing.

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It's a different T shirt. And I was trying to

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check it over the pigeon. It wasn't like a big pigeon,

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more like a dove sized pigeon. In fact, there might

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be a dove and I was trying to check it

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over it but it wasn't going over. The pigeon was

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just moving its head and just knocking it off and

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just looking at me. And then when I went down,

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it flew off again. And smashed against the window. In

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the end, it just it let it, let me pick

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it up, and actually wrapped his or her I don't

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I think it's a girl, actually wrapped her hands, rap

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fingers round my fingers, and I was stroking her and

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just carrying it, carried it downstairs, and for a little

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while she was just standing on my hand, just looking around,

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and I was just talking to her, and then I

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started telling her a story. I thought i'd tell her

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about the chip shop that used to work in. Then

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she was off, But yeah, just went into a tree.

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I think it's probably a relative of Horace, maybe his girlfriend.

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I'm going to say probably his daughter to be fair,

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because she's quite young. He's been around for ten years

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since I moved in, right, So other than that, anything

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else that's happened, I can't think of anything even mildly interesting. Well,

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it's never going to be anything interested, but it's not

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a lot gone on. Uh ah. A neighbor just phoned

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me up while I was doing this recording, asking me

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if I had any antidepressants family. He's like cell Solita

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prim or whatever they are, and I said, no, don't

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have those that medication. I said, I've got a few

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spare on my own, but you won't want to take

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my medication. It's a different medication and it's you know,

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shouldn't mix that stuff. Plus it takes it takes quite

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a few weeks to kick in the older floors a team.

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So Maria, first question, Hi Jason, how long ago did

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you last visit Thailand? How long did you stay and

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did you enjoy the food there. I don't think I

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ate any of the food there, to be honest. I

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just ate normal food, human food. I didn't. I mean,

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for one, I was not going to eat the street food.

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And it's smelled amazing, but I was not going to

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eat the street food. Just food is. I wouldn't eat

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street food in this country, so I'm definitely not going

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to eat street food abroad. Yeah, when I went, it

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was kind of during the COVID between the COVID O god,

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I just said the words sorry. That period like twenty

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twenty one, I think it was so they even though

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we were pretty much we were in lockdown here, they

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were in lockdown there, not not to the point of

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banning anyone visiting, but you had to wear masks in

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every shop, had to. I mean, people were wearing masks

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in the street. It was you know, it was pretty

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full on. Had to had to have your blood, your

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temperature done before entering any any places, any establishments, had

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to do that, and a hand wash everywhere. So it

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was it was a very step it was. Yeah, it

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was a bit of a weird time and a lot

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of the restaurants were closed. A lot of everything was

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closed when I went there, actually, so I stayed in

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a like a hotel place. Luckily when I stayed, I

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stayed in this place, which was a sports bar. Loads

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of TVs all around the place, including two outside. Remember

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I watched the boxing. That was cool. And they had

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food there, so I ate every day there and it

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was really burgers and stuff like that. To be honest

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with you, you know, I wasn't very I wasn't very

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creative with my food choices. But they were catering for Westerners,

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well Westerners and Australians, mainly Australians. It was an Australian

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bar run by Australian people and other than me, I

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think everyone in all the customers were Australian that were

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like staying living there and would visit as well. So

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it's a very I mean, there was a few people

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that weren't Australian. All the staff other than the owners.

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The staff weren't Australian. But there's you. They wouldn't be

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allowed to work there. In Thailand, you have to be

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tied to work in most jobs, actually most. I've done

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a little bit of research into that, and you can

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if you've got a share in a place, you can work,

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but you can't take a tied job. So technically, if

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you've got forty you know, forty nine percent share in

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a restaurant, you're working that restaurant. You're not You're not

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taking someone else's job because it's your business, isn't it,

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or its fifty business. So that's when I visited. It's

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quite a long time ago. It wasn't long i'd I

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had I had a chest infection, so it's just I

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can't remember. It was over two weeks, two and a

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bit weeks, and I came back. I was there for

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two days. I think it's getting vague, to be honest,

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it was a bit of a non event. Really, it wasn't.

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It wasn't. Really. What I didn't realize is that's it.

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You made it more nice. Please brilliant, thanks.

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Too.

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That's a weird one. He has absolutely destroyed this bag

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which had his treating chewy chicken twists. Right, he's destroyed it.

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It's empty and he's destroyed it. I gave him that

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bag when it had one left in it and he

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just looked at it for about an hour and a half.

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So you destroy it and rip it open when there's

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nothing in it, but when it's something in it, you

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won't even attempt to open it. What's weird and that's

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strange behavior. Yeah, it wasn't wasn't the right time. It

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wasn't really the right time for me to go. Really.

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I just I just got like a rebate, a benefit

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rebate actually from from a previous year. Is something that

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I should have got paid and I wasn't, and I

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decided just to I had to get away from it.

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Things are just difficult living here for you know, And

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I basically turned into a care in some ways. I Mean,

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my friend always said to me I'm his care and

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I said, no, I'm not your care. But did I

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think emotionally I was? You know, I just constantly worried

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about him just for years, for years and years. So

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I needed to get away, and you know, I gave

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him a little bit of money as well. When I

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got that money, paid off my debts and went away,

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I did the older gave a load of food out

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to people that were home well, that were hungry. So

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that was that was the highlight for me.

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That was.

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You could say, almost the highlight of my life. He

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is handing out hundreds of black meals and whatever it was.

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I can't remember how many it was, but I did

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it two days in a row, and it was kind

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of the best thing I've ever done or feeling why,

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It's just felt amazing. So it's worth it for that,

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And I know I could have I could have done

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the same thing here. It's you know, I don't know.

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Just for some reason, I wanted to go to a

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Buddhist country. Wanted to see how what Buddhist people like

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are people that were born into Buddhism, not just like

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in this country. You know, it's something that there are

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people born into it in this country, but there if

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they're Westerners, then the people their parents probably weren't born

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into it and they they've just raised their kids in

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that kind of way. But to be bit to live

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in a country where everybody going back many many, many

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many years, you know, all born as Buddhists, all raised

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as Buddhists. I just found that an interesting thing to

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be around. And I could see the difference, consider difference

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in the mentality. There might not have been anything to

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do with the religion, but and most of them didn't

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practice the religion anyway, but you know, they it was

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the foundation of their belief system, was the foundation of

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their culture, which I just found it interesting. So enjoy

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the food. Probably the best food I had when I

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was there was apple pie and ice cream. Yeah, that

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was nice. So the cook in the that bar, it

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was a bar, but it was also like hotel as well,

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the sports bar. The cook in now, I got ridly

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well with her, and she would she made sure she

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got lots of pies in for me so I could

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have an apple pie and ice cream after my meals.

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And I had a cook breakfast every morning and also

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so I basically ate. I'd eat twice a day there,

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so i'd eat breakfast, cook breakfast, then i'd have when

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I was out, i'd probably see if I could get

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something maybe in McDonald's or I'm trying to think, just

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to have would look around see if there's places. Some

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places I went. I went in one place which was

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it was terrible. It was really bad. It was I

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think it's called the Nag's Head, and apparently it used

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to be owned by Kevin Keegan. That's what they said

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because pictures of him on the wall. That was Kevin

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Keegan was like a superstar footballer in the early eighties

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in the UK, well worldwide as well, I think, and

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he had curly hair. I'd say it's not relevant, but

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it was because it was the fashion back then. The

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amount of people, the amount of boys that were getting

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their hair curled permed to look like Kevin Keegan because

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he was a superstar footballer. So I went in there

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and I think that it was a it was a

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cooked breakfast, and I think it was some beans, an

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egg which I'm not sure what kind of egg. It was,

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some bacon that did not look like bacon, and some

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sausages the type that I give Vinny like, they're not sausages,

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they're those bendy rubbery ones. I just, I mean, I'm

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pretty sure they just didn't have any food in possibly

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was the only customer they'd had for a while, so

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I just I said thanks, and I yeah left. Well,

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I ate it first, but I ate some of it

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wasn't wasn't great. I did go to a Thai restaurant,

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a pizza yeah, So yeah, I don't think I had

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even one bit of typhood the whole time I was there.

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Yeah.

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I have had typhood. I've had it in this country,

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but I didn't have anyone kind of because you know,

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back when I was in London, i'd go on dates

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and the some of the people that I'd go on

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dates with, they'd be much more open culturally to new things.

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And because you can pretty much eat any food from

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anywhere in the world in London, like any type of food.

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So you know, I've been in Vietnam, are Vietnamese, I've

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been Entai, I've been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever, lots

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of different places, and there's always I always felt that

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pressure to kind of be involved. You know, two show

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that I'm open minded, and I ordered something without knowing

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what it is. Sometimes I deeply regret it, and as

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I got older, I just thought, you know what, no,

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if I go into a Chinese restaurant, I probably am

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going to order an omelet and chips, or an omelet

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and fried rice, egg fried rice. You know, I know

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what I like, and that's what I like. I like omelets,

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and yeah, I'm sure that Sure, the typhood's amazing. I

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mean people, I mean, some people go to Thailand for

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the tayphood. It's the thing they look forward to most

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because I guess it's the most authentic typhood you're going

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to get. It's like the most authentic any food you're

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going to get is in the country of origin, I imagine.

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I'm sure if you want to the best burger, then

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you have to go to where the first I don't

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even know, America, is that where the burgers come from.

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Or if you want the first mushy pea, you want

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the best mushy peas, you've got to go up north.

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Or if you want the best fried mars bar, you've

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got to go up north. Or if you want the

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best fish and chips, probably gotta go up north, or

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maybe Scotland or or I don't know, but you Uk.

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I imagine for fish and chips, probably the best fish

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and chips you'll get in the world will probably be

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in this country. It might I might be wrong. It's

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just because it's our heritage. It's our you know, goes

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back centuries. I don't know if that's true or not, right,

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Kathleen asks me, I've got a lot of questions to

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get through, just letting you know that it's loads. I'm

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kind of surprised at how is it?

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One?

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Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine. There's nine,

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but there's thirteen comments, so I'm not quite sure. Okay,

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one's got one with one's got three replies, so there's

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nine questions. The next one is charm m Kathleen a

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couple of questions, JJ or love in his flop it? Here?

470
00:38:14.920 --> 00:38:19.480
Is he able to straighten it? Always floppy? He can?

471
00:38:19.760 --> 00:38:27.559
He can straighten it sometimes if he's I'm trying to think, oh,

472
00:38:27.639 --> 00:38:30.880
I'm just doing the straightening my hands to show you

473
00:38:31.400 --> 00:38:34.000
the ears not being floppy. But you can't see that,

474
00:38:34.079 --> 00:38:39.800
can you? When there's a sound got his attention. His

475
00:38:39.960 --> 00:38:43.400
ears do stick up, both of them. But I saw

476
00:38:43.440 --> 00:38:48.039
a picture of his mummy, and his mummy also had

477
00:38:48.039 --> 00:38:51.719
a floppy ear. I said, look, I've got it on here.

478
00:38:52.000 --> 00:38:58.719
I think I've got it on here unless I haven't. Sometimes,

479
00:39:00.239 --> 00:39:09.760
h if I've got any pictures of Vinnie, right, Okay,

480
00:39:09.840 --> 00:39:13.320
that's I've got a picture of Vinnie when he was

481
00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:17.079
a baby on here. I'm pretty sure it's a picture

482
00:39:17.079 --> 00:39:33.480
of him with his mummy, like his you know, birth mummy. Uh.

483
00:39:33.679 --> 00:39:44.960
He's so cute when he was a baby. I do.

484
00:39:45.119 --> 00:39:49.559
That's something that I kind of wish that i'd, Oh,

485
00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840
there's a little cute. He's in a cage. I never

486
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.400
liked the idea of put them dogs in cages. Never

487
00:39:55.519 --> 00:40:00.519
been something i've I don't know this. It's something about

488
00:40:00.559 --> 00:40:05.840
being in a cage, I guess, but he's I mean,

489
00:40:05.840 --> 00:40:07.800
it can be for their own safety anyway. I can't out.

490
00:40:07.880 --> 00:40:11.880
But he's in this cage, which is probably I guess,

491
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:17.119
was there prepared for multiple puppies, and he was the

492
00:40:17.159 --> 00:40:22.000
only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got

493
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:26.400
his little hands in the air, and he's tiny, you know,

494
00:40:26.599 --> 00:40:32.519
absolutely tiny, and doesn't I don't have a date on this.

495
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:37.519
I got a date when it was sent fortieth of

496
00:40:37.639 --> 00:41:00.039
January twenty twenty three. January twenty twenty three, really, no,

497
00:41:00.159 --> 00:41:03.360
two thousand January too fair. No, I wouldn't have sent

498
00:41:03.400 --> 00:41:09.239
it to me in twenty twenty three. That's her date,

499
00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:18.159
isn't it? What's my date? Wasn't January twenty twenty three?

500
00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:22.159
I didn't even know jury January twenty twenty three. I

501
00:41:22.199 --> 00:41:37.679
didn't get him till I'm losing track of time twoenty

502
00:41:37.800 --> 00:41:43.039
twenty three. But I thought I got him in November

503
00:41:43.039 --> 00:41:53.679
twenty twenty three, but I didn't do that. I got him.

504
00:41:54.320 --> 00:42:03.960
I got him in twenty twenty two, November twenty twenty two,

505
00:42:09.000 --> 00:42:14.639
twenty twenty two, Stop it, mate, don't be bucking twenty

506
00:42:14.719 --> 00:42:21.760
twenty two, twenty twenty two. So November twenty twenty two,

507
00:42:22.280 --> 00:42:28.119
November twenty twenty three, November twenty twenty four, it was December,

508
00:42:28.159 --> 00:42:36.360
wasn't it? Twoenty twenty three, twenty four? Two years and

509
00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:42.039
like five months? Four months, five months? So yeah, so

510
00:42:42.159 --> 00:42:47.480
I got him in December twenty twenty three and twenty

511
00:42:47.519 --> 00:42:50.079
twenty two, so she must have sent me those pictures

512
00:42:50.320 --> 00:42:55.239
yet in the January Okay, yeah, Oh that just threw

513
00:42:55.320 --> 00:42:58.360
me off for a second. Then there's a picture of

514
00:42:58.440 --> 00:43:05.159
him with his mummy somewhere. Yeah, I just can't find

515
00:43:05.239 --> 00:43:09.880
it unless it's on my laptop, which it could be.

516
00:43:10.760 --> 00:43:14.159
Let's have a look to look, So look at my

517
00:43:14.280 --> 00:43:23.199
lap torp lap trp. Oh, Vinnie's found another fly Vinnie, Vinnie,

518
00:43:23.239 --> 00:43:29.320
Vinny Vinny vin vin vin vin Binnie. Oh, I don't

519
00:43:29.400 --> 00:43:33.679
know where Vinnie Vinni Venni Veni Annie Vinnie ven I

520
00:43:33.760 --> 00:43:40.440
an even ee Vinny somebab in Vinnie my new set

521
00:43:40.559 --> 00:43:48.360
up with Vinnie Vinnie at mummy's note that that is

522
00:43:52.039 --> 00:43:58.719
baby Vinnie. No, I can't fight it. It's here somewhere,

523
00:44:00.159 --> 00:44:04.159
it's here somewhere. I've got a picture of Logi, Logi

524
00:44:04.199 --> 00:44:08.880
and Vinnie last stayed together. Oh, I've got the limage.

525
00:44:12.719 --> 00:44:16.599
LOGI don't care. He's just there, Just chill down. Then

526
00:44:16.639 --> 00:44:22.679
he's looking at me, He's looking at his watch. How

527
00:44:22.760 --> 00:44:25.199
much longer we got before we get rid of him?

528
00:44:27.280 --> 00:44:29.880
I said, you're missing when he's when he's moved out,

529
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:32.400
you're missing. I won't. I want my house back. I

530
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:36.079
want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinnie.

531
00:44:36.119 --> 00:44:40.039
It's not your bed, it's my bed. Okay, I want

532
00:44:40.119 --> 00:44:50.760
our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, yes,

533
00:44:50.920 --> 00:44:55.800
he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy is biological.

534
00:44:55.920 --> 00:45:00.679
Mum had to floppy here as well. Don't about his dad?

535
00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:11.800
Oh ITCHI bum the both his parents had were red,

536
00:45:14.000 --> 00:45:16.239
but he was the only one that was red all over.

537
00:45:16.320 --> 00:45:17.599
I mean, he's got a little bit of white on

538
00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:20.599
his belly and a little bit on his neck, but

539
00:45:20.719 --> 00:45:22.679
he's pretty much and he's on his He's got a

540
00:45:22.719 --> 00:45:28.159
little couple of little little socks, little white socks on

541
00:45:28.920 --> 00:45:31.519
other than that, and gloves, but he's pretty much red

542
00:45:31.559 --> 00:45:42.199
all over. He knows I'm talking about him, probably because

543
00:45:42.199 --> 00:45:48.559
I just keep saying his name, Vinnie, Vinnie, Minnie. Will

544
00:45:48.639 --> 00:45:55.079
you be getting a new bathroom like your neighbors? Cheers Kathleen,

545
00:45:57.280 --> 00:46:05.440
m it looks like no, so my neighbor's downstairs. To

546
00:46:05.559 --> 00:46:13.480
be fair, there was a a There was a reason

547
00:46:13.719 --> 00:46:16.840
why she got a new bathroom because she needed it.

548
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.920
Wasn't because she needed a new bathroom as in the

549
00:46:21.000 --> 00:46:27.119
old one was too old. It was it was I

550
00:46:27.159 --> 00:46:29.480
don't know how to word it, but it was something

551
00:46:29.559 --> 00:46:32.840
that was required, if you know what I mean. So

552
00:46:32.920 --> 00:46:35.840
it wasn't something that they just got round to doing,

553
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:38.800
because it was time. It was needed to be done.

554
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.280
She and my neighbor down says to get a kitchen,

555
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:46.280
and that was basically due to time. It was time

556
00:46:46.360 --> 00:46:51.599
to redo them. My neighbor opposite has had his kitchen done,

557
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:55.239
he's having his bathroom done, and he's having his windows done.

558
00:46:56.360 --> 00:46:59.480
And when they came round to he knew. He's known

559
00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:02.719
about the wind for a few months. He's just waiting

560
00:47:02.760 --> 00:47:04.199
to sort of find out when they're going to come

561
00:47:04.239 --> 00:47:06.400
and do them. But he didn't know about the bathroom

562
00:47:06.440 --> 00:47:08.119
until the other day when they came to measure up.

563
00:47:10.119 --> 00:47:14.719
So but he's he's lived there for thirty odd years

564
00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:18.119
and he's never had anything new at all the whole

565
00:47:18.119 --> 00:47:23.599
time he's been there. So you know it is, I

566
00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:28.840
really don't know, don't doesn't I asked the council. I

567
00:47:28.960 --> 00:47:31.920
saw the counsel lady, the late a lady from the

568
00:47:32.000 --> 00:47:36.639
council on Wednesday. They came around to check the bathroom

569
00:47:37.800 --> 00:47:40.719
downstairs to make sure it was all all okay and

570
00:47:40.920 --> 00:47:46.559
sign it off, and a little word with the lady

571
00:47:46.559 --> 00:47:51.159
and said, when am I going to have one? I

572
00:47:51.280 --> 00:47:53.159
cut a few onions first where I went down there

573
00:47:54.119 --> 00:47:58.880
and just to so I can cry and see him upset.

574
00:48:00.199 --> 00:48:02.800
H here's a little clue though, if you're going to

575
00:48:02.880 --> 00:48:09.079
do that before going up to someone, and you know,

576
00:48:09.400 --> 00:48:13.159
cut up onions in order to cry to in order

577
00:48:13.199 --> 00:48:16.760
to get the older emotions going with the other person.

578
00:48:20.039 --> 00:48:22.039
If you're going to shake their hand, put the onions

579
00:48:22.039 --> 00:48:32.159
down first. That's all I'm want to say. And Tammy asks,

580
00:48:32.320 --> 00:48:35.119
can hypnosis be in affected to all in reshaping our

581
00:48:35.159 --> 00:48:40.280
subconscious patterns? Don't know next, I don't know. That's that's

582
00:48:40.360 --> 00:48:49.199
a that's a hard question. And I'll tell you what

583
00:48:51.320 --> 00:48:57.360
I tell you. The biggest thing, just based on my studies,

584
00:48:58.760 --> 00:49:03.199
the biggest thing that affect excess, let's say unconscious, I

585
00:49:03.320 --> 00:49:11.199
call it unconscious with subconscious unconscious patterning is our conscious mind.

586
00:49:11.480 --> 00:49:15.519
What we do, what we listen to, what we think,

587
00:49:17.679 --> 00:49:24.480
our experiences, stuff like that is what shapes us reshaping

588
00:49:25.159 --> 00:49:33.519
doing something different, thinking differently, on purpose, purposefully. So for example,

589
00:49:34.079 --> 00:49:40.199
if someone was constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking

590
00:49:40.239 --> 00:49:45.079
about something different, because we get what we think about,

591
00:49:47.199 --> 00:49:51.920
you know, we become what we think about because we're

592
00:49:51.960 --> 00:49:58.400
basically it's kind of weird. I've seen all these different angles,

593
00:49:58.440 --> 00:50:01.280
all these different things, and it all kind of points

594
00:50:01.360 --> 00:50:06.519
to the same thing, to the same conclusion, and that

595
00:50:06.760 --> 00:50:15.840
is that our thoughts are so powerful on ourselves. It's

596
00:50:15.920 --> 00:50:23.840
almost like what we consciously think, what you purposefully think,

597
00:50:24.320 --> 00:50:28.360
not what you think automatically. What you purposely think affects

598
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:36.599
your brain, affects your body, affects your let's say, unconscious

599
00:50:36.679 --> 00:50:46.679
mind affects those automatic thinking processes. Now none of that

600
00:50:46.800 --> 00:50:51.039
might have made any sense, not even to me, but

601
00:50:54.519 --> 00:50:58.760
I kind of I'm starting to look at hypnosis in

602
00:50:58.840 --> 00:51:00.800
a different way to help. I used to look at it,

603
00:51:02.039 --> 00:51:19.880
and belief expectations is almost is so important. Just generally,

604
00:51:20.639 --> 00:51:25.800
what we expect to happen has a huge effect on

605
00:51:25.920 --> 00:51:33.119
what does happen, how we expect to feel. You know,

606
00:51:33.440 --> 00:51:40.400
someone that it's just proven so many times and experiments.

607
00:51:41.679 --> 00:51:46.039
It's just like when I was seventeen mentioned this a

608
00:51:46.119 --> 00:51:49.039
few a couple of weeks ago, went to a party.

609
00:51:49.119 --> 00:51:51.599
It was held it's at the chip shop, but we

610
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:57.719
went to my boss's house and we were drinking. They

611
00:51:57.840 --> 00:52:00.559
gave me. They all were in on it. They gave

612
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:04.840
me non alcoholic lager. So every time I went to

613
00:52:04.880 --> 00:52:06.599
get a can that no, no, I'll get it for you.

614
00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:10.920
I thought they would just be nice, but they were

615
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.440
all in on it, and they were laughing when I

616
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.280
was talking, so I thought I was also being funny.

617
00:52:17.320 --> 00:52:27.360
So you know, I got drunk and there was no difference,

618
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:32.599
but not being drunk before there was no difference. There

619
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:38.079
really wasn't any difference between drinking alcohol and not drinking

620
00:52:38.159 --> 00:52:42.840
alcohol because I thought I was drinking alcohol and all

621
00:52:42.920 --> 00:52:46.960
those chemicals in my brain kicked off. They just did

622
00:52:47.039 --> 00:52:51.519
their thing, and I was expecting to feel a certain way,

623
00:52:51.639 --> 00:52:56.800
and I felt that way. Now, good chance is if

624
00:52:56.840 --> 00:53:00.599
they hadn't told me, I me, I may well gone home.

625
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.440
I may well have been ill. I may well have

626
00:53:03.480 --> 00:53:08.280
woken up with her with her hangover. That's how powerful

627
00:53:09.239 --> 00:53:13.280
belief is. When you believe that something's you know, you

628
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:19.679
believe that non alcoholic lager is alcoholic lager. You know,

629
00:53:20.159 --> 00:53:24.280
it's just I mean, that was quite a good thing

630
00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:28.320
to happen. In one way, it was horrible, horribly embarrassing

631
00:53:28.559 --> 00:53:34.280
and quite I think it's a very cruel thing to

632
00:53:34.360 --> 00:53:41.159
do actually, to be honest. But hey, but it was

633
00:53:41.599 --> 00:53:49.000
a learning experience. And when you think that was forty

634
00:53:49.119 --> 00:53:56.760
years ago, thirty eight years ago, I mean, it's kind

635
00:53:56.800 --> 00:53:58.760
of crazy, is it? Thirty eight years.

636
00:54:00.159 --> 00:54:00.199
On?

637
00:54:00.320 --> 00:54:03.559
All different things I've learned since then comes back to

638
00:54:03.679 --> 00:54:09.599
that is belief. And with all the religious stuff that

639
00:54:09.679 --> 00:54:12.760
I kind of studied and I've been interested in religion,

640
00:54:13.719 --> 00:54:17.239
different religions since I was a kid. I don't know why,

641
00:54:17.559 --> 00:54:25.880
just it wasn't so much interested in the specifics of

642
00:54:25.960 --> 00:54:34.519
the religion or the rules. I was fascinated by why

643
00:54:34.639 --> 00:54:39.119
people did it. I was fascinated and I still am't

644
00:54:39.159 --> 00:54:42.559
really I understand it a little bit more now than

645
00:54:42.599 --> 00:54:49.039
I used to, I think, but just fascinated how why.

646
00:54:50.159 --> 00:54:58.079
Well I kind of understand why people need religion, but

647
00:54:58.199 --> 00:55:01.840
I can there's like two sides to it because I've

648
00:55:01.960 --> 00:55:05.639
seen the damage like from a I don't want to

649
00:55:05.639 --> 00:55:08.199
say damage, but how someone can turn it to be

650
00:55:08.280 --> 00:55:14.440
in a negative. So I knew someone that was they

651
00:55:14.599 --> 00:55:20.079
lost someone close to them. That person's gone to heaven.

652
00:55:21.760 --> 00:55:24.239
Good good thing, you know. That's a kind of a

653
00:55:25.320 --> 00:55:28.039
positive way to deal with it. They're gone to heaven.

654
00:55:28.119 --> 00:55:33.280
They're happy now, they're now, they're not suffering anymore. That

655
00:55:33.599 --> 00:55:36.519
kind of I know it's cliche stuff, but it was.

656
00:55:37.719 --> 00:55:41.559
It's got to be helpful. It can't not be really

657
00:55:41.639 --> 00:55:46.639
can It's like, so, Okay, I'm going to see them

658
00:55:46.679 --> 00:55:51.079
again soon. That's nice. So it's not the last time

659
00:55:51.119 --> 00:55:53.760
you ever see them. So there's that belief it can

660
00:55:53.840 --> 00:55:59.079
be comforting, But then that belief turned for this one

661
00:55:59.159 --> 00:56:03.639
person I'm thinking about turned into I want to be

662
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:14.400
with them now, and it's like no, and they tried

663
00:56:14.480 --> 00:56:17.360
to be with them now as it were, this is

664
00:56:17.440 --> 00:56:23.760
a few years ago, and I well, it's really hard.

665
00:56:23.960 --> 00:56:25.599
What do you do with that? It's like, okay, well,

666
00:56:26.679 --> 00:56:30.320
if you didn't believe in that belief system, that religious

667
00:56:30.360 --> 00:56:33.920
belief system, then you wouldn't be doing that because you

668
00:56:33.960 --> 00:56:35.519
wouldn't be trying to be with them. If you didn't

669
00:56:35.519 --> 00:56:39.559
believe you could be with them, you'd perhaps just have

670
00:56:39.760 --> 00:56:42.199
to find a way to move on with your life.

671
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:49.960
So yeah, it's a complicated thing. But I've just seen

672
00:56:50.039 --> 00:56:52.440
some of the things that people do. A lot of

673
00:56:52.440 --> 00:56:56.760
it's been on the news, to be fair, but based

674
00:56:56.840 --> 00:57:03.639
on belief, based on their expectations of what's going to

675
00:57:03.719 --> 00:57:08.599
happen to them or if they're going to be rewarded,

676
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:14.559
even if it's doing a non good thing. I'm keeping

677
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:28.000
this very vague. So it's really powerful if you take

678
00:57:28.239 --> 00:57:32.320
anyone you just having the chance to raise a child

679
00:57:33.639 --> 00:57:36.400
is a chance to raise your own little angel, or

680
00:57:36.440 --> 00:57:40.320
your own little monster, or your own little confused creature

681
00:57:40.800 --> 00:57:46.559
that doesn't know what I mean. I just don't think

682
00:57:46.800 --> 00:57:52.519
individual's human beings necessarily always. I know I wouldn't. I

683
00:57:52.559 --> 00:57:56.239
wouldn't have the capacity to raise a child in a

684
00:57:56.320 --> 00:58:00.320
way that they needed to be raised. I don't think.

685
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:03.239
I mean, some people do have that, some people like

686
00:58:03.400 --> 00:58:11.280
me probably don't. I don't think I'm patient enough. But

687
00:58:11.360 --> 00:58:18.079
it's really weird to just think how much you can

688
00:58:19.239 --> 00:58:25.239
forge a child's brain and their mind by the stuff

689
00:58:25.360 --> 00:58:27.320
you say, by what they see you do, what they

690
00:58:27.400 --> 00:58:32.599
hear you say, the behavior, your belief structure, what you

691
00:58:32.800 --> 00:58:36.880
tell them things like as fact when it's just an opinion,

692
00:58:37.519 --> 00:58:40.400
and they believe it, and they will literally do anything

693
00:58:40.599 --> 00:58:44.639
to back up because you've said it, so therefore it's true.

694
00:58:46.119 --> 00:58:49.880
And I've seen that in action. And I had a

695
00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:55.519
friend that and I told his mum this, I said,

696
00:58:55.639 --> 00:59:00.480
you know what, I'm my friend who passed away funeral.

697
00:59:00.559 --> 00:59:04.199
I told his mum, do you realize that he believed

698
00:59:04.360 --> 00:59:07.920
every single thing you said to him? And she laughed,

699
00:59:08.119 --> 00:59:11.480
and I said, serious, if you came in here now

700
00:59:11.840 --> 00:59:15.000
and told everyone okay, if you okay, not now, but

701
00:59:15.519 --> 00:59:21.039
if you told him on a Tuesday, that was a Thursday,

702
00:59:25.239 --> 00:59:27.239
he would stick to that. He says, its a Thursday.

703
00:59:28.519 --> 00:59:30.440
My mom said it's a Thursday, So it's a Thursday.

704
00:59:31.360 --> 00:59:35.559
Even if everyone's walking around with T shirts on saying

705
00:59:35.679 --> 00:59:40.400
it's Tuesday and the TV comes on saying we're celebrating

706
00:59:40.440 --> 00:59:47.000
Tuesday Day today, he would just completely ignore that factual

707
00:59:47.039 --> 00:59:51.360
information because his mom said it was Thursday, and he

708
00:59:51.400 --> 00:59:59.400
wouldn't back down, not for anything. I've never had that

709
00:59:59.559 --> 01:00:06.800
connection with anyone to believe what they say. So I've

710
01:00:06.840 --> 01:00:10.880
heard so much bs ever since I was born, so

711
01:00:11.079 --> 01:00:19.000
much just silly stuff, that I realized that nobody is

712
01:00:19.320 --> 01:00:23.239
going to be telling the truth the whole time because

713
01:00:23.239 --> 01:00:24.800
a lot of it is just made up. A lot

714
01:00:24.840 --> 01:00:28.079
of it is It might be truthful to them, but

715
01:00:28.199 --> 01:00:33.239
it might be someone else's lie and opinions and all

716
01:00:33.280 --> 01:00:37.719
that stuff. So I think I've benefited in a way

717
01:00:37.800 --> 01:00:41.239
from not being in that sort of stuck structure of

718
01:00:41.880 --> 01:00:45.920
I believe this, and I'm never going to change how

719
01:00:45.960 --> 01:00:50.679
I think I believe this, or I kind of don't

720
01:00:50.760 --> 01:00:53.960
have that. I think life would be a lot easier

721
01:00:53.960 --> 01:00:56.679
if I did to be fair. I've said to be

722
01:00:56.760 --> 01:01:01.079
fair three times now, to be honest. I don't like

723
01:01:01.159 --> 01:01:05.280
to be honest, and I've kind of moved away, probably

724
01:01:05.360 --> 01:01:09.760
from what you were asking. So what's my favorite ice cream? Okay?

725
01:01:10.599 --> 01:01:11.000
It is?

726
01:01:11.719 --> 01:01:19.480
I like no, everything we do, this is my little

727
01:01:19.519 --> 01:01:31.320
belief Everything we do affects us, whether it's our belief system,

728
01:01:31.960 --> 01:01:37.960
whether it's and our beliefs. I mean, some people's it's

729
01:01:38.360 --> 01:01:42.440
hard for their belief system to change, but I've seen

730
01:01:42.519 --> 01:01:50.559
my belief systems changeing like an instant. One example is, ok,

731
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:57.039
I have a real issue with motorbikes. Just this is

732
01:01:57.119 --> 01:01:59.679
the sound of them. That's all it is. I don't

733
01:01:59.800 --> 01:02:04.519
like loud sounds, never have done, probably never will do.

734
01:02:05.400 --> 01:02:09.280
Maybe I've got a theory what that is, but it's

735
01:02:09.599 --> 01:02:13.039
it's it's just part of my brain. I can't. I

736
01:02:13.159 --> 01:02:16.559
can't deal with loud, really loud sounds. I don't even

737
01:02:16.599 --> 01:02:20.440
have loud music on, you know. I have it on

738
01:02:20.559 --> 01:02:23.519
loud enough so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't.

739
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:25.559
I don't even like to put it on louder If

740
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:28.320
I have to cover up noise in the garden because

741
01:02:28.320 --> 01:02:34.519
it's too loud for me, then so, because I got

742
01:02:34.559 --> 01:02:38.119
an issue, if I see a motorbike revin I go

743
01:02:38.239 --> 01:02:45.760
into that little angry mode, my little angry smurf pops up.

744
01:02:48.199 --> 01:02:50.840
It's like, how could you be so inconsiderate to me?

745
01:02:52.079 --> 01:02:53.960
Even when they don't even know I exist? You know,

746
01:02:54.199 --> 01:02:56.000
not the smurf. I'm talking about the person on the bike.

747
01:02:57.599 --> 01:03:03.159
So I'm thinking, and I'm walking past, I'm just like,

748
01:03:04.840 --> 01:03:09.079
and then I hear we coming from that direction. I

749
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:12.119
look over, puts his visor up, and it's someone that

750
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:19.559
I see regularly who walks his dog. Instantly, that belief, okay,

751
01:03:19.679 --> 01:03:22.079
not the whole belief about bikes and noise hasn't changed,

752
01:03:22.119 --> 01:03:24.159
because I still have an issue with noise, but the

753
01:03:24.239 --> 01:03:31.320
emotions connected to motorbikes seem to have eased, definitely eased

754
01:03:31.360 --> 01:03:37.639
in that moment anyway, which showed that the if it

755
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:45.400
can bend, if a belief system can bend quite easily

756
01:03:45.559 --> 01:03:50.960
and be molded and sort of curved around quite easily,

757
01:03:52.360 --> 01:03:57.800
be manipulated and maneuvered, I'm trying to think of clever words,

758
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:06.039
then it's not really it's yeah, if it can be.

759
01:04:07.719 --> 01:04:12.519
If it's not that tightly structured so that it can

760
01:04:12.599 --> 01:04:19.920
be moved and changed so easily, says Vinnie's Flappy years,

761
01:04:22.360 --> 01:04:24.719
then it's not very strong, is it? That belief? That

762
01:04:25.000 --> 01:04:30.480
belief is not a very strong belief if it can

763
01:04:34.519 --> 01:04:41.800
almost transform instantly. It was never a strong belief, There

764
01:04:41.920 --> 01:04:46.760
was never a really however strong the emotions were at times,

765
01:04:48.639 --> 01:04:57.360
wasn't connected to a particularly strong foundation. M M, yes,

766
01:05:00.880 --> 01:05:04.239
so yeah, I probably can't. I can't answer your question

767
01:05:04.480 --> 01:05:07.480
in a way that I may Maybe you'd like to

768
01:05:07.599 --> 01:05:10.719
hear me answer it again. I can only assume on

769
01:05:10.800 --> 01:05:13.199
that one. I don't know, but I can't answer it

770
01:05:13.280 --> 01:05:16.599
in a way that you would get in a textbook

771
01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:22.000
or in a way that makes any cognitive sense. Probably,

772
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:29.800
I'm just trying to explain from my perspective kind of

773
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:34.320
how I map it out in front of me, going

774
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:39.519
to like rituals. You got rituals, so you've got things

775
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:45.159
like I know, you go go far back. Okay, take

776
01:05:45.199 --> 01:05:49.400
a breath, now go from a religious point of view

777
01:05:49.960 --> 01:05:56.320
this country. Things like Christianity aren't from this country, you know.

778
01:05:57.199 --> 01:06:04.440
They're not from Africa, They're not from America. Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism,

779
01:06:05.559 --> 01:06:10.239
none of these religions are from the countries you know

780
01:06:13.440 --> 01:06:19.199
are probably most of the people listening. So if you

781
01:06:19.280 --> 01:06:24.760
go back to your original country belief systems, if you're

782
01:06:24.760 --> 01:06:29.039
in Australia, or if you're in Canada, if you're in America,

783
01:06:29.880 --> 01:06:37.599
if you're in England, in Scotland, in Wales, it's different.

784
01:06:37.800 --> 01:06:43.920
It's a completely different belief structure that we came from originally.

785
01:06:44.559 --> 01:06:46.960
Although I'm forty eight percent Irish, I don't know if

786
01:06:46.960 --> 01:06:51.679
I've mentioned that. So my ancestors, my ancestors were like

787
01:06:51.760 --> 01:06:57.800
pretty much Irish, so that would be Celtic. And there

788
01:06:57.920 --> 01:07:00.360
was a lot of ritual and it goes back to

789
01:07:00.480 --> 01:07:06.360
almost worshiping the sun and the wind and the trees.

790
01:07:06.599 --> 01:07:09.639
And I don't know, I'll make part of that up,

791
01:07:13.920 --> 01:07:20.280
but there's that belief system. You know, people I guess

792
01:07:20.400 --> 01:07:25.280
like carrying a rabbit's foot or believe in something's good

793
01:07:25.400 --> 01:07:33.800
luck because it is for them, no matter how ridiculous

794
01:07:33.840 --> 01:07:40.320
it seems to everyone else. I've seen people that are superstitious,

795
01:07:41.239 --> 01:07:45.159
and I think nearly everyone i've seen it's superstitious in

796
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:51.400
a working environment as successful. I've seen that a few times,

797
01:07:52.119 --> 01:07:55.800
and they've been successful. They're actually good. And you mess

798
01:07:55.880 --> 01:08:00.840
with their superstitious thing, whether it's they might have a

799
01:08:00.920 --> 01:08:07.239
picture of their daughter on the thing, so if you

800
01:08:07.679 --> 01:08:11.800
draw a mustache on their daughter photograph messes their day up.

801
01:08:15.719 --> 01:08:21.079
Whether they're superstitious or not, I suppose, but if they

802
01:08:21.239 --> 01:08:26.880
lose the the the thing that they have as a

803
01:08:27.560 --> 01:08:37.239
I guess kind of like a talisman or whatever. So

804
01:08:37.479 --> 01:08:43.079
you know, it's it's belief, and I think next to

805
01:08:43.159 --> 01:08:49.239
that belief expectations. When you believe something, then you expect something.

806
01:08:50.399 --> 01:08:53.520
I think you kind of need both. When you got

807
01:08:53.600 --> 01:08:58.119
both together, it makes a very strong super strong. So,

808
01:08:59.560 --> 01:09:03.840
for example, Paul, there was a time when I was

809
01:09:03.960 --> 01:09:09.000
confident going out, confident that I would be able to

810
01:09:09.119 --> 01:09:17.039
talk confidently to ladies. Yes, it's twenty twenty five years ago,

811
01:09:17.119 --> 01:09:22.000
so it's a while back. But I felt confident and

812
01:09:22.119 --> 01:09:26.159
I had that belief, but it wasn't just it was belief.

813
01:09:26.560 --> 01:09:29.640
So the expectations were based on my belief. But also

814
01:09:29.840 --> 01:09:34.600
that belief was based on previous experience. So all the

815
01:09:34.720 --> 01:09:41.560
previous experience and all the new experience was kind of

816
01:09:41.640 --> 01:09:49.479
backing up that belief, confirming it. New evidence, more evidence

817
01:09:49.600 --> 01:09:54.119
to confirm it. But I was ignoring the evidence that

818
01:09:54.319 --> 01:10:03.079
was confirming otherwise because that's what I focused on. So

819
01:10:03.239 --> 01:10:05.600
I was you know, that wasn't all I was doing.

820
01:10:05.640 --> 01:10:07.520
I'm just saying, I've just had a period when I

821
01:10:07.680 --> 01:10:19.000
was fairly confident. Didn't last long. Three hours. Yeah, so

822
01:10:19.239 --> 01:10:26.199
I don't know. I probably haven't answered your question our

823
01:10:26.359 --> 01:10:40.640
subconscious patterns. We can change what we think about by

824
01:10:40.920 --> 01:10:48.520
just thinking on purpose. Sometimes it is that instead of

825
01:10:48.720 --> 01:10:51.079
just allowing I mean, it's something to be said for

826
01:10:51.199 --> 01:10:53.800
allowing thoughts to come and go, and that's a kind

827
01:10:53.800 --> 01:10:58.159
of meditation in itself. But when you're doing that, you're

828
01:10:58.199 --> 01:11:05.520
not holding onto them, following the thoughts. So in a meditation, if,

829
01:11:05.720 --> 01:11:12.920
for example, you just sit and just breathe always made

830
01:11:12.960 --> 01:11:17.399
me laugh every time the meditation leader would say, don't

831
01:11:17.399 --> 01:11:25.640
forget to breathe. I've never once forgotten to breathe. It's like,

832
01:11:25.760 --> 01:11:32.199
you know, swimming. People you're going swimming, don't forget to swim. Really,

833
01:11:33.479 --> 01:11:42.239
don't forget to keep above the water. Okay, Oh, don't

834
01:11:42.239 --> 01:11:47.640
forget to eat. I've never forgotten to eat anyway, so

835
01:11:50.000 --> 01:11:53.279
on a recent show. So there's I could go on

836
01:11:53.359 --> 01:11:55.159
and on about that all day long, and it probably

837
01:11:55.199 --> 01:12:08.720
wouldn't make any more sense. Possibly, but there's something to

838
01:12:08.800 --> 01:12:14.000
be said for just sitting down allowing your thoughts to

839
01:12:14.159 --> 01:12:17.439
just come, but don't follow the thoughts. You will follow them.

840
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:20.439
But once you once you notice you're kind of focusing

841
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:30.560
on something, let it go and then just just allow

842
01:12:30.640 --> 01:12:33.640
the thoughts to come and go. And then when you

843
01:12:33.760 --> 01:12:41.479
notice yourself focusing on something, let it go again. And

844
01:12:41.600 --> 01:12:45.119
it's kind of a good way to me. It's it's

845
01:12:45.119 --> 01:12:47.720
a similar thing if you want to find out if

846
01:12:47.760 --> 01:12:51.720
you're going to buy take over a restaurant or let's

847
01:12:51.720 --> 01:12:57.479
say it's a fast food place or a chip shop.

848
01:12:58.119 --> 01:13:01.000
Yeah it's a chip shop, and you want to find

849
01:13:01.039 --> 01:13:04.199
out the kind of customers you're going to get. You

850
01:13:04.319 --> 01:13:05.960
want to find out what it's going to be like,

851
01:13:06.079 --> 01:13:10.960
what kind of foot traffic you're going to get. Then

852
01:13:12.600 --> 01:13:14.520
you sit in the window and look out. You're sitting

853
01:13:14.560 --> 01:13:22.640
there and watch, and the longer you sit, the more

854
01:13:22.680 --> 01:13:24.600
of an idea you're going to get of what's going on.

855
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.800
And you start seeing patterns. Oh, that blokes comeing, he

856
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:38.600
comes in every Tuesday and every Thursday. Oh he's always

857
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:41.560
got yogurt on his head. You know, just things like that,

858
01:13:42.279 --> 01:13:47.479
and it can be it could be quite interesting to

859
01:13:47.600 --> 01:13:55.359
see the to see to notice what you're thinking without

860
01:13:55.439 --> 01:14:02.199
adding anything, without getting into an internal dialogue or being imaginative,

861
01:14:03.640 --> 01:14:09.000
which can also be fun. I suppose. I don't know

862
01:14:09.039 --> 01:14:13.039
if I've answered that. Jonathan. On a recent show, you

863
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:15.920
mentioned a disability of yours but didn't refer to what

864
01:14:16.039 --> 01:14:19.720
it was and also implied that you maybe don't drive.

865
01:14:20.000 --> 01:14:27.439
But curious about both of these. Well, that's the thing

866
01:14:27.520 --> 01:14:30.960
with these recordings. I've mentioned it a few times, but

867
01:14:31.079 --> 01:14:34.600
I know that sometimes if people fall asleep or whatever,

868
01:14:34.680 --> 01:14:37.039
they just you're not going to hear what I've talked about.

869
01:14:37.479 --> 01:14:40.359
But I don't know if I'll mentioned it too much.

870
01:14:40.399 --> 01:14:46.880
But yeah, I have a I've got bipolar effective disorder

871
01:14:47.039 --> 01:14:54.600
and which is classed as a disability with me and

872
01:14:59.520 --> 01:15:05.439
EU emotionally unstable personality disorder. So they are the two things.

873
01:15:05.560 --> 01:15:11.680
It's like mental mental stuff. That's my disability. I haven't

874
01:15:11.680 --> 01:15:19.159
got any physical disabilities, but I do have a disability

875
01:15:19.239 --> 01:15:23.000
bus pass. I do come like an old pension and

876
01:15:23.079 --> 01:15:30.439
now I do not allowed to drive because of the

877
01:15:30.520 --> 01:15:40.039
medication I'm on because it causes drowsiness and the d

878
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:43.359
d w what is it called, the d LP PL

879
01:15:43.640 --> 01:15:51.600
DAL whatever d w L the driving people driving, I

880
01:15:51.680 --> 01:15:55.800
forget the name of the company, the driving place. Yeah,

881
01:15:55.840 --> 01:16:00.399
they didn't ban me like in a way of like

882
01:16:00.560 --> 01:16:04.119
banning me for drink driving or whatever, or speeding. They

883
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:06.079
just banned me from driving. They said, you're not allowed

884
01:16:06.079 --> 01:16:10.840
to drive. This was quite a few years ago. However,

885
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:18.800
I don't drive. I can't drive, so it's one of

886
01:16:18.800 --> 01:16:25.399
those weird things. When I first got my bus pass,

887
01:16:25.520 --> 01:16:31.159
I had to go to the driving place and get

888
01:16:31.279 --> 01:16:34.840
proof about me not being able to drive. That's the

889
01:16:34.960 --> 01:16:38.159
only reason they would give me a bus pass. So

890
01:16:38.279 --> 01:16:40.760
I just went scott let from the doctor just to

891
01:16:40.800 --> 01:16:44.199
tell them what I was, my situation, and they banned me.

892
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:50.079
It's like wow, but yeah, I don't know quite it

893
01:16:50.239 --> 01:16:53.079
causes drowsiness and medications. I think it's probably more to

894
01:16:53.159 --> 01:16:59.239
do with that than my my road rage potential. I

895
01:16:59.319 --> 01:17:02.079
don't know. Yeah, I don't know what kind of driver

896
01:17:02.239 --> 01:17:05.640
would be, but yeah, I don't drive. Never driven. I've

897
01:17:05.720 --> 01:17:09.920
had two sets of driving lessons, one in London and

898
01:17:10.119 --> 01:17:17.520
one in Ipswich. Period in London nineteen ninety one, what's

899
01:17:17.600 --> 01:17:21.439
the point. I was walking faster than the traffic was driving.

900
01:17:22.439 --> 01:17:27.279
I don't really see the bigger picture really like driving

901
01:17:27.359 --> 01:17:30.279
outside of London, but inside of London it didn't seem

902
01:17:30.319 --> 01:17:35.960
any point. It's everything was moving so slowly. And you've

903
01:17:35.960 --> 01:17:38.399
got cars you have, you can't even drive. You can't.

904
01:17:38.439 --> 01:17:41.560
You've got stopped like every two seconds to let cars

905
01:17:41.600 --> 01:17:44.800
through because people are parked both sides of the road

906
01:17:46.279 --> 01:17:48.199
because you're not allowed to park on the pavement in London,

907
01:17:49.359 --> 01:17:53.199
which is I'm glad. That's one of my big pet peeves.

908
01:17:53.600 --> 01:17:57.000
People parking on the pavement. I don't know what it is.

909
01:17:57.640 --> 01:18:02.399
We've got Star locally it's an ambulance. They park on

910
01:18:02.439 --> 01:18:06.199
the pavement. Anyway, Yeah, I just got my little pet

911
01:18:06.239 --> 01:18:10.000
peeve people parking on the pavement. They don't you're not

912
01:18:10.000 --> 01:18:12.439
allowed to do that in London. You're not allowed to

913
01:18:12.479 --> 01:18:15.319
do it anywhere in this country, but it's not enforced,

914
01:18:15.720 --> 01:18:20.439
but in London it's enforced. So you literally got to

915
01:18:20.479 --> 01:18:23.239
stop and if there's another car coming, you've got to

916
01:18:23.319 --> 01:18:28.119
let them through or they'll let you through. And yeah,

917
01:18:28.760 --> 01:18:34.520
so I just didn't see the point in driving. Plus

918
01:18:34.640 --> 01:18:36.760
I was working whenever I had the money to pay

919
01:18:36.840 --> 01:18:41.000
for driving lessons. I was working too many hours to

920
01:18:41.560 --> 01:18:50.720
have any time to take driving lessons. So that's that,

921
01:18:53.800 --> 01:18:58.000
Joe Anne, not a question. But if you are thinking

922
01:18:58.000 --> 01:19:01.640
about selling merch, I would definitely wear a T shirt

923
01:19:01.760 --> 01:19:08.760
that said, I sleep with Jason every night. By Temmy says,

924
01:19:09.119 --> 01:19:12.560
that's shirt I definitely could not wear to work, And

925
01:19:12.680 --> 01:19:18.199
I'm thinking why and then tell me put someone by

926
01:19:18.319 --> 01:19:21.680
the same name in my office so I don't want

927
01:19:21.680 --> 01:19:28.279
to give them ideas. Yeah, that could get awkward. By

928
01:19:28.319 --> 01:19:29.840
the way, I shouldn't be reading you about what other

929
01:19:29.880 --> 01:19:33.279
people have written, because you need to join the boarding

930
01:19:33.359 --> 01:19:36.239
group Jason Newland's bording group. If you want to see

931
01:19:36.279 --> 01:19:40.439
what people have written, you need to join. Men. So

932
01:19:40.920 --> 01:19:43.159
the next one, Oh, yeah, I've got to answer that question.

933
01:19:43.199 --> 01:19:48.239
I'm I'm sorry. I was thinking about that. I mean,

934
01:19:48.479 --> 01:19:53.439
you know, merch merchandise isn't going to happen anywhere anytime soon,

935
01:19:53.600 --> 01:19:57.000
maybe in the future, unless you want to just make

936
01:19:57.039 --> 01:20:03.079
some yourself. That would be cool. Maybe put my website

937
01:20:03.119 --> 01:20:08.039
at the bottom, my website address, just otherwise they won't

938
01:20:08.079 --> 01:20:13.000
know who you're talking about. Man. But yeah, I used

939
01:20:13.000 --> 01:20:15.640
to have a T shirt with let me Boy to

940
01:20:15.680 --> 01:20:22.439
Sleep on it and my website address. People did actually

941
01:20:22.479 --> 01:20:24.880
look they used to look at it. It was quite

942
01:20:24.880 --> 01:20:30.760
a bright picture an image, and I'm not sure if

943
01:20:30.760 --> 01:20:32.600
I had Andrea on there. I might've had a picture

944
01:20:32.640 --> 01:20:36.520
of Andrea on there. As well. See that's the weird thing.

945
01:20:36.600 --> 01:20:41.000
I don't think about the future like, that's the kind

946
01:20:41.000 --> 01:20:43.720
of thing that I should have gotten and just kept one,

947
01:20:43.800 --> 01:20:47.319
isn't it? Because I got it printed for me, I

948
01:20:47.359 --> 01:20:49.920
should have kept and won and just kept it somewhere

949
01:20:50.000 --> 01:20:56.920
safe as a kind of keepsake. I had a T

950
01:20:57.119 --> 01:21:00.680
shirt with chronic pain relief on it of a website.

951
01:21:00.680 --> 01:21:02.800
I had another one with free pain relief back in

952
01:21:02.840 --> 01:21:06.680
two thousand and six T shirt. I remember collecting that

953
01:21:08.159 --> 01:21:11.840
and again I just wore it until it wore out.

954
01:21:15.279 --> 01:21:17.319
See what I had? I had a T shirt in

955
01:21:17.439 --> 01:21:20.640
nineteen ninety one and it was a picture of me.

956
01:21:23.560 --> 01:21:25.520
It was in the West End, and there was this

957
01:21:25.640 --> 01:21:30.800
bloke taking photographs. And I mentioned a lot of people

958
01:21:30.880 --> 01:21:33.760
would take a photograph of their loved one, maybe of

959
01:21:33.880 --> 01:21:36.600
their kids, and then having it printed on a T

960
01:21:36.760 --> 01:21:41.239
shirt for them to wear. But I had a picture

961
01:21:41.279 --> 01:21:44.560
of me and I had put it onto a T

962
01:21:44.680 --> 01:21:48.880
shirt and I wore that T shirt of myself. No

963
01:21:48.960 --> 01:21:56.039
one ever mentioned it, no one ever said anything. Maybe

964
01:21:56.039 --> 01:22:01.399
it was a baseball bat Sean. This is a question,

965
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:06.880
Sean asks me, how are you able to recall dates

966
01:22:07.039 --> 01:22:12.359
so accurately? I have often been drifted off and you'll

967
01:22:12.439 --> 01:22:17.239
be talking about something you've seen or that happened to

968
01:22:17.359 --> 01:22:20.479
you in the past, and you seem to be very

969
01:22:20.640 --> 01:22:26.039
accurately recall the specific year it happened. It's quite impressive.

970
01:22:26.520 --> 01:22:31.479
Thank you very much. This question finally being asked after

971
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:36.000
you list the Lion documentary release years in the Disney

972
01:22:36.119 --> 01:22:40.520
Triviury episode. You're able to do it with your stories.

973
01:22:42.720 --> 01:22:45.359
So I start this question again because I've just been

974
01:22:45.720 --> 01:23:11.199
rudely interrupted by three different dogs as someone downstairs shouting

975
01:23:11.239 --> 01:23:17.199
as well. Now brilliant, right here we go, Sean says,

976
01:23:17.239 --> 01:23:19.840
how are you able to record dates so accurately? I've

977
01:23:19.880 --> 01:23:22.319
often been drifted off and you'll be talking about something

978
01:23:22.399 --> 01:23:25.600
you've seen or that happened to you in the past,

979
01:23:26.239 --> 01:23:30.079
and you seem to be very accurately recalling the specific

980
01:23:30.199 --> 01:23:34.319
year it happened. It's quite impressive. I agree, Thank you

981
01:23:34.479 --> 01:23:34.800
very much.

982
01:23:35.800 --> 01:23:36.119
And this.

983
01:23:37.960 --> 01:23:42.439
Question finally being asked after you list the Lion documentary

984
01:23:42.960 --> 01:23:49.239
release years in the Disney Trivia episode. You're also able

985
01:23:49.319 --> 01:23:52.239
to do it with your stories too, in X year

986
01:23:52.359 --> 01:23:56.279
this happened, etc. I'm always amazed by your memory. Well,

987
01:23:56.359 --> 01:23:59.680
thank you, well, I mean to be fair. Sometimes I

988
01:23:59.800 --> 01:24:01.319
do it the laptop in front of me, so if

989
01:24:01.359 --> 01:24:07.520
I'm looking up stuff. So I don't always remember every

990
01:24:07.600 --> 01:24:13.199
single year, but when it's when it's to do with

991
01:24:13.319 --> 01:24:18.000
my life, not to do my life. I mean, technically

992
01:24:19.960 --> 01:24:27.319
Madonna releasing The Like a Prayer album in nineteen eighty

993
01:24:27.399 --> 01:24:31.199
nine wasn't to do with my life, but it was.

994
01:24:31.560 --> 01:24:37.079
It signified a particular time. Remember listening to it in

995
01:24:37.399 --> 01:24:43.920
France in the France very poor. It might have been Dover,

996
01:24:44.399 --> 01:24:46.520
even Dover or France, but I think it was France

997
01:24:47.359 --> 01:24:51.680
and it was Cala I suppose, isn't it. And the

998
01:24:51.800 --> 01:24:57.199
video The Like a Prayer video was on. But there's

999
01:24:57.199 --> 01:24:58.920
a few ways I do it. I don't do it

1000
01:24:59.000 --> 01:25:01.880
on purpose. And I had a friend that used to

1001
01:25:01.960 --> 01:25:04.760
keep that used to mock me for it when i'd

1002
01:25:04.840 --> 01:25:07.520
sort of say the year or sometimes the month as well,

1003
01:25:08.960 --> 01:25:10.600
and they'd picked me up on it to the point

1004
01:25:10.600 --> 01:25:14.239
where I felt a little bit self conscious. And I

1005
01:25:14.279 --> 01:25:16.319
don't like feeling it. I don't think anyone likes feeling

1006
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:21.279
self conscious today. So I kind of felt, oh, and

1007
01:25:23.000 --> 01:25:27.079
like I had to stop doing it. This is with

1008
01:25:27.239 --> 01:25:29.840
someone like in person, you know, and they'd like start

1009
01:25:29.920 --> 01:25:34.199
laughing every time I've mentioned a year. I don't know

1010
01:25:34.239 --> 01:25:38.279
why I do it. I think it's just I don't

1011
01:25:38.279 --> 01:25:42.560
know how I do it. Rather, I think the reason

1012
01:25:42.600 --> 01:25:45.199
I do it is to I'd like to treat it,

1013
01:25:45.279 --> 01:25:52.199
try and be a little bit factual. But also it's

1014
01:25:52.319 --> 01:25:55.920
just me kind of talking out loud the process, the

1015
01:25:56.039 --> 01:26:02.079
brain process that's going on. I've got my life broken

1016
01:26:02.119 --> 01:26:06.800
into different parts in my memory. Then there's a lot

1017
01:26:06.800 --> 01:26:09.399
of things I don't remember. I mean, I generally don't

1018
01:26:09.399 --> 01:26:14.079
remember much about Thailand. I don't remember much about the

1019
01:26:14.199 --> 01:26:22.039
last few years, last couple of years, or the last

1020
01:26:22.079 --> 01:26:29.800
week or so. There's and that's partly because nothing's going on.

1021
01:26:31.479 --> 01:26:35.239
Because even though I've generally had quite a boring life,

1022
01:26:37.720 --> 01:26:40.199
but at the same time, it wasn't boring, if you

1023
01:26:40.279 --> 01:26:47.560
know what I mean. It was it was constantly on

1024
01:26:47.640 --> 01:26:50.960
the move, constantly moving from place to place, even if

1025
01:26:50.960 --> 01:26:53.039
it was in the same part of town or the

1026
01:26:53.119 --> 01:26:56.880
same part of the country. I'd you know, I'd be

1027
01:26:57.000 --> 01:27:01.279
moving every couple of years, every year, sometimes twice three

1028
01:27:01.359 --> 01:27:06.720
times a year, and I'd be having different jobs, and

1029
01:27:06.800 --> 01:27:10.199
I'd be having different girlfriends, and I'd be different lots

1030
01:27:10.239 --> 01:27:15.600
of different things. Happening, and I've got those things kind

1031
01:27:15.640 --> 01:27:22.840
of broken up. So I could list, Yeah, I could

1032
01:27:22.920 --> 01:27:28.760
go by jobs, or I could go by where I've lived.

1033
01:27:29.680 --> 01:27:35.399
I can pretty much. I can't remember the addresses, but

1034
01:27:35.520 --> 01:27:39.800
I can pretty much remember all the moves, and a

1035
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.880
lot of them by date, not day date, but by year,

1036
01:27:43.479 --> 01:27:45.960
and sometimes even by roughly what part of the year

1037
01:27:46.039 --> 01:27:55.079
it was. And then there's jobs. So you know, I

1038
01:27:55.199 --> 01:27:59.880
started working in nineteen eighty six in a chip shop,

1039
01:28:00.720 --> 01:28:02.880
so that's kind of the start. But if we go

1040
01:28:03.039 --> 01:28:05.640
all the way back to the very start of working,

1041
01:28:07.199 --> 01:28:14.119
and I had a paper round and I worked in

1042
01:28:14.199 --> 01:28:17.560
the bakehouse, which was a restaurant. I worked in a

1043
01:28:17.680 --> 01:28:22.920
bakery of the restaurant at the weekend, Saturday and Sunday,

1044
01:28:22.960 --> 01:28:29.079
I think it was it was either five o'clock on

1045
01:28:29.119 --> 01:28:32.239
a Saturday or five o'clock on a Sunday and six

1046
01:28:32.279 --> 01:28:37.319
o'clock the other day. I forget which was which, And

1047
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:40.479
I think it might have been six o'clock fried at

1048
01:28:40.479 --> 01:28:45.119
six o'clock Saturday five o'clock Sunday, because maybe Sunday was

1049
01:28:45.239 --> 01:28:47.720
busier day because then they've got a little coaches and

1050
01:28:47.800 --> 01:28:51.800
stuff come to you know, they would come to visit.

1051
01:28:54.399 --> 01:28:56.800
They wouldn't drive into the outual restaurant. They dead park

1052
01:28:56.920 --> 01:29:03.159
and let all the people. You know how coaches work,

1053
01:29:04.000 --> 01:29:12.520
So I I remember that. But then when I've got

1054
01:29:12.560 --> 01:29:17.560
like memories connected to each job, so I remember some

1055
01:29:17.720 --> 01:29:21.720
of the things I did, so if I if I

1056
01:29:22.000 --> 01:29:27.359
zoom in on a job, and maybe it's because I've

1057
01:29:27.520 --> 01:29:31.960
been I focused on myself pretty much the whole time.

1058
01:29:32.800 --> 01:29:38.159
It means some would say it's some would argue it's

1059
01:29:38.239 --> 01:29:45.359
just me being selfish, or me put myself first or whatever.

1060
01:29:46.359 --> 01:29:51.560
But in some ways I kind of had to. There

1061
01:29:51.640 --> 01:29:57.800
hasn't been a safety net really, so I've kind of

1062
01:29:58.079 --> 01:30:00.720
not that. Probably many people have safety in it, but

1063
01:30:01.560 --> 01:30:05.439
I didn't have. I kind of I never really knew

1064
01:30:07.119 --> 01:30:09.600
what was going to happen next, or where I was

1065
01:30:09.640 --> 01:30:11.319
going to end up next, where I was going to

1066
01:30:11.399 --> 01:30:14.600
work next, where I was going to live next, you

1067
01:30:14.720 --> 01:30:18.319
know it. There's always that kind of quite uncertainty in

1068
01:30:18.479 --> 01:30:27.039
my life. Instability. Definitely, I was unstable in lots of

1069
01:30:27.039 --> 01:30:29.680
different ways. I'm not I'm not being a victim. I'm

1070
01:30:29.720 --> 01:30:33.000
just saying that's just how it was, and I didn't

1071
01:30:33.119 --> 01:30:35.960
seem to know how to get out of that. It's almost.

1072
01:30:37.479 --> 01:30:38.079
That that was.

1073
01:30:39.960 --> 01:30:45.000
In built. And I guess a lot of that would

1074
01:30:45.000 --> 01:30:47.600
have been because of when I was a little, very little,

1075
01:30:48.039 --> 01:30:52.000
we moved around a lot. I had stability. At the

1076
01:30:52.039 --> 01:30:57.640
age of seven to the age of fifteen, I mean

1077
01:30:58.279 --> 01:31:03.239
we still moved. So the ASA one, two, three, three

1078
01:31:03.319 --> 01:31:07.800
times four times, so I still moved four times in

1079
01:31:07.880 --> 01:31:10.720
those years. But there was a period between nine and

1080
01:31:12.319 --> 01:31:17.079
fifteen for six years where I stayed in the same place,

1081
01:31:18.520 --> 01:31:22.880
and until I moved here, that was the longest time

1082
01:31:22.960 --> 01:31:28.720
I ever lived anywhere six years. I've lived in places

1083
01:31:28.760 --> 01:31:32.760
for four years, three years, two years, a year, a

1084
01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:38.199
few months, and so yeah, I've got Sometimes when I

1085
01:31:38.319 --> 01:31:41.960
was younger, and maybe I was my brain was a

1086
01:31:42.000 --> 01:31:49.479
little bit too active to fall asleep, I would recall

1087
01:31:51.319 --> 01:31:56.560
all the different places I lived by year, So I

1088
01:31:56.640 --> 01:31:59.640
mean that's possibly why I remember. I'd recall all the

1089
01:31:59.640 --> 01:32:10.680
different places in order that I worked, and that used

1090
01:32:10.680 --> 01:32:13.439
to send me to sleep sometimes. So and I do

1091
01:32:13.560 --> 01:32:18.800
this in my twenties and my thirties. I don't know

1092
01:32:18.880 --> 01:32:21.039
how many times I moved around when I was very young.

1093
01:32:23.359 --> 01:32:25.079
A lot is going to be the answer to that,

1094
01:32:25.319 --> 01:32:28.399
but I don't know how many. So there's no stability

1095
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:35.279
really like proper stability until I was seven, and then

1096
01:32:35.800 --> 01:32:38.199
the stability was there because even though we moved a

1097
01:32:38.239 --> 01:32:40.920
couple of times, it was all of us together, so

1098
01:32:41.039 --> 01:32:49.359
it was it wasn't unstable from that perspective. Yeah, I

1099
01:32:49.439 --> 01:32:53.399
think the only stable thing I had up to the

1100
01:32:53.479 --> 01:33:01.199
age of fourteen whatever was my older brother, the one

1101
01:33:01.359 --> 01:33:03.239
just a bit older than me, because I was with

1102
01:33:03.439 --> 01:33:08.319
him the whole time. We were in foster care together

1103
01:33:08.680 --> 01:33:11.239
for a year and a half or whatever when I

1104
01:33:11.359 --> 01:33:15.319
was six months old till about two, so we lived

1105
01:33:15.359 --> 01:33:20.239
together before that. Then we lived together just you know,

1106
01:33:20.399 --> 01:33:23.199
my older brother always stayed with my Nano granddad, and

1107
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:27.600
then we moved away. We got took away to Newcastle,

1108
01:33:28.159 --> 01:33:30.119
then we lived in the colored children's homes, and then

1109
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.319
we came back and ended up living with my dad.

1110
01:33:32.439 --> 01:33:37.399
And so he was the only real consistent other than

1111
01:33:37.479 --> 01:33:41.119
my older brother, who became consistent in my life from

1112
01:33:41.199 --> 01:33:45.079
the age of and he was there for the first

1113
01:33:45.119 --> 01:33:46.920
six months, but I didn't know anyone did, like at

1114
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:51.479
that point from their I'm sure there was a bond

1115
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:54.680
six months. I probably would have bonded with him as

1116
01:33:54.760 --> 01:33:58.359
in emotionally known who he was because I see him

1117
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:02.760
every day, I suppose, but from the age of two onwards,

1118
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:11.199
so for five years from age two to fifteen, so

1119
01:34:11.359 --> 01:34:20.119
it's that thirteen years, so thirteen years and fifteen years,

1120
01:34:20.159 --> 01:34:22.439
so thirteen years of my oldest brother, fifteen years my

1121
01:34:22.560 --> 01:34:25.439
younger brother got my other older brother, but not the oldest.

1122
01:34:29.239 --> 01:34:33.319
Other than my dad and my nan, they were the

1123
01:34:33.399 --> 01:34:36.000
only two people. But this is differently because I lived

1124
01:34:36.000 --> 01:34:41.840
with them. I lived with my dad for seven to fifteen,

1125
01:34:43.359 --> 01:34:45.760
and I did live with him a few times after

1126
01:34:45.880 --> 01:34:52.279
that for a short period. I never lived with my nan.

1127
01:34:53.319 --> 01:34:55.640
I just stay over sometimes, but I never lived with her,

1128
01:34:56.640 --> 01:35:04.520
but i'd see her regularly, so I just I remember, Yeah,

1129
01:35:04.560 --> 01:35:06.880
I just got these little memories. Sometimes I do get

1130
01:35:06.960 --> 01:35:12.159
modeled up. I do think like, oh wait a minute,

1131
01:35:12.199 --> 01:35:18.199
that that was a different year, and like thinking about

1132
01:35:18.319 --> 01:35:22.640
something that happened over Christmas, and I'm thinking that wasn't me,

1133
01:35:24.119 --> 01:35:29.239
that's someone else's memory. I don't remember doing it. I've

1134
01:35:29.319 --> 01:35:36.279
never flown the plane weird, so I have there's also

1135
01:35:36.479 --> 01:35:40.319
jobs looking at that, looking at the music, so there's

1136
01:35:40.359 --> 01:35:43.159
connection with the music and the years. I don't have

1137
01:35:43.279 --> 01:35:47.920
that anymore because I have lost track of the music.

1138
01:35:48.039 --> 01:35:53.720
Today I have. I feel a little bit sad about.

1139
01:35:53.479 --> 01:35:53.840
That, but.

1140
01:35:56.239 --> 01:35:59.399
You know, I just there's so many albums that I

1141
01:35:59.479 --> 01:36:05.319
do listen to, so many songs from the past, you know,

1142
01:36:05.560 --> 01:36:09.159
my favorite song collection. There's so many that it would

1143
01:36:09.159 --> 01:36:13.479
take I reckon. If I added continuously added songs that

1144
01:36:13.479 --> 01:36:19.319
I really like, I could sit for possibly twenty four hours,

1145
01:36:19.520 --> 01:36:23.319
if not more, listening to different songs, all of them

1146
01:36:23.359 --> 01:36:30.239
that I love. Possibly, I don't know, I'm kind of

1147
01:36:30.279 --> 01:36:34.119
making it up, but during that period there was a

1148
01:36:34.199 --> 01:36:38.680
lot of music connected so to the times that I

1149
01:36:38.800 --> 01:36:41.840
remember when I was in a chip shop, I used

1150
01:36:41.840 --> 01:36:46.920
to go in in the afternoon, going a bit early

1151
01:36:49.359 --> 01:36:53.319
because I used to enjoy being in there on my own,

1152
01:36:54.560 --> 01:36:59.760
and I'll be preparing the kitchen. Maybe doing this is

1153
01:36:59.800 --> 01:37:02.800
an early afternoon, So I go in a little bit

1154
01:37:02.840 --> 01:37:07.560
early in the afternoon and just take my time. And

1155
01:37:07.960 --> 01:37:09.520
I don't know what it was I was doing, but

1156
01:37:09.560 --> 01:37:14.119
I was probably just getting getting the fryers on, you know,

1157
01:37:14.439 --> 01:37:19.039
setting up for the evening, the evening shift. And I'd

1158
01:37:19.119 --> 01:37:21.920
listened to I had There was a tape recorder downstairs,

1159
01:37:22.359 --> 01:37:25.279
and I had two tapes, and they were both the

1160
01:37:25.479 --> 01:37:33.479
first two albums from Madonna. I loved Papa Don't Preach

1161
01:37:34.800 --> 01:37:38.960
True Blue. Sorry, the album True Blue and my two

1162
01:37:39.039 --> 01:37:44.560
favorite albums, Versus True Blue and Like a Prayer. They

1163
01:37:44.600 --> 01:37:48.640
are my two favorite Madonna albums. But during that period

1164
01:37:48.680 --> 01:37:50.800
I quite liked the first two albums that she did

1165
01:37:50.840 --> 01:37:56.079
as well. Halday you Can do so that one side

1166
01:37:56.359 --> 01:37:58.920
like dancing a little bit on my own, and so

1167
01:37:58.960 --> 01:38:01.079
I remember that. And there's things like when I first

1168
01:38:01.399 --> 01:38:06.840
moved above the chip shop, I was playing George Michael's

1169
01:38:06.960 --> 01:38:10.479
first album Faith was his album Faith? I think it

1170
01:38:10.600 --> 01:38:13.800
wasn't it? So I was playing that album over and

1171
01:38:13.920 --> 01:38:23.800
over again in my kitchen, just little bits, little bits

1172
01:38:23.840 --> 01:38:34.840
and bobs connected to music. The Yeah, I'm trying to

1173
01:38:34.880 --> 01:38:41.680
give an example. Now, I can't think of any examples. Yeah,

1174
01:38:41.840 --> 01:38:46.399
but there's there are examples. It is. It's not necessarily

1175
01:38:46.479 --> 01:38:49.880
going to pop up when I wanted to. But if

1176
01:38:49.920 --> 01:38:56.319
I was, for example, I don't know if he was, Like,

1177
01:38:56.439 --> 01:39:00.239
let's focus on the year two thousand and five, straight way,

1178
01:39:01.600 --> 01:39:07.840
Michael Jackson's album History came out, so I would talk

1179
01:39:07.880 --> 01:39:11.239
about that. Was it two thousand and five or two

1180
01:39:11.279 --> 01:39:13.119
thousand and four? I think it was two thousand and five.

1181
01:39:14.640 --> 01:39:16.479
I was definitely listening to it in two thousand and

1182
01:39:16.520 --> 01:39:19.560
five anyway, and then we could say, well that was

1183
01:39:19.640 --> 01:39:23.760
the year. Yeah, it was two thousand and five, and

1184
01:39:23.880 --> 01:39:28.479
then I could say, okay, well I had I had

1185
01:39:28.560 --> 01:39:34.359
two girlfriends that year. I also went and worked at Butlin's.

1186
01:39:36.399 --> 01:39:40.399
And just going back through that year, I can remember

1187
01:39:40.479 --> 01:39:43.720
certain things that happened. I know, remember where I was

1188
01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:48.000
living because I was living in one place. Then I

1189
01:39:48.039 --> 01:39:51.239
went to Butlan's. Then I come back and I was homeless,

1190
01:39:51.279 --> 01:39:55.239
didn't have anywhere to stay. But that was pretty much

1191
01:39:55.479 --> 01:40:01.479
the beginning of two thousand and six. So and the

1192
01:40:01.600 --> 01:40:03.800
only reason I went to Buttling's is because we were

1193
01:40:03.840 --> 01:40:07.199
being evicted. So I was evicted from the house. It

1194
01:40:07.319 --> 01:40:09.880
was a council house that my friend was living in

1195
01:40:10.079 --> 01:40:12.680
or council flat wherever it was, and he was being evicted.

1196
01:40:13.560 --> 01:40:18.239
Was it a council I can't remember. He had a

1197
01:40:18.319 --> 01:40:22.399
flat and a house. Anyway, I I had to get

1198
01:40:22.399 --> 01:40:25.680
out of there, so I went and moved. But I

1199
01:40:25.800 --> 01:40:28.800
just went in to the job center, like what am

1200
01:40:28.840 --> 01:40:32.640
I going to do? Because I had no job? What

1201
01:40:32.720 --> 01:40:35.079
am I going to do? It was like literally he

1202
01:40:35.199 --> 01:40:36.840
told me. I think he gave me about a week's

1203
01:40:36.920 --> 01:40:41.399
notice or five days, so we moved. Yeah, we have

1204
01:40:41.520 --> 01:40:46.039
to be out in five days. He knew about it.

1205
01:40:46.359 --> 01:40:51.199
He'd had the viction notice for about a month. So

1206
01:40:51.680 --> 01:40:54.920
I saw, So I went and I managed to. I

1207
01:40:54.960 --> 01:40:58.359
went into a job center and that is big signs.

1208
01:40:58.520 --> 01:41:03.239
Do you want to work at Buttling's? I laughed, but yeah, sure,

1209
01:41:06.600 --> 01:41:09.199
And then I thought. I looked around as another jobs,

1210
01:41:09.840 --> 01:41:13.600
so I just well, there's other jobs, but nothing that

1211
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:18.039
offered accommodation, because that was the problem. It's like, I

1212
01:41:18.239 --> 01:41:26.359
need somewhere to live. And I said to I said, well,

1213
01:41:26.399 --> 01:41:30.680
what's going on with this Buttling's thing? They said, well,

1214
01:41:30.880 --> 01:41:32.520
it's a holiday camp. I said, no, I know what

1215
01:41:32.600 --> 01:41:36.000
it is. They said that, you know, there's music, they

1216
01:41:36.039 --> 01:41:39.399
have families go and have a holiday there. I said,

1217
01:41:39.720 --> 01:41:45.159
I already I'm not asking about the actual camp. So

1218
01:41:45.359 --> 01:41:48.880
what is it your What is it you're offering? I said,

1219
01:41:48.920 --> 01:41:53.560
we offer entertainment variety. There's pubs, there's restaurants, there's a

1220
01:41:53.720 --> 01:41:57.359
swim pool. Was like, no, it's like it was trying

1221
01:41:57.399 --> 01:42:00.279
to sell me a tickets to go going is it?

1222
01:42:00.760 --> 01:42:00.800
Like?

1223
01:42:00.960 --> 01:42:04.039
No, No, wait a minute, what what are you here for?

1224
01:42:04.760 --> 01:42:09.800
He said, I'm getting paid I work for Buttling's. I said, okay,

1225
01:42:11.319 --> 01:42:13.680
how can I structure this question in a way that

1226
01:42:13.720 --> 01:42:18.079
you're going to understand it? I said, what what's the

1227
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.399
big signs for? He said, that's so that people know

1228
01:42:21.560 --> 01:42:26.720
that we're here, that a bit further away. He didn't

1229
01:42:26.760 --> 01:42:29.760
say that, that's just funny. Why the big signs? Asked

1230
01:42:29.760 --> 01:42:32.279
for people that are further away can see it? And

1231
01:42:32.960 --> 01:42:36.640
he said there's jobs. Do you want a job? Do

1232
01:42:36.720 --> 01:42:39.359
you want a job? And I said, I don't know.

1233
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.000
I mean the problem I've got is got nowhere to

1234
01:42:43.079 --> 01:42:46.279
live in five days, and if I do get a job,

1235
01:42:46.560 --> 01:42:48.079
I have to work for a month before I get

1236
01:42:48.079 --> 01:42:51.560
any money. And he said, oh, but this is this

1237
01:42:51.680 --> 01:42:54.479
is a good situation. I said why. He said, you

1238
01:42:54.520 --> 01:42:58.039
don't have to sign off because I was temporarily unemployed.

1239
01:42:58.079 --> 01:42:59.960
Then he said you don't have to sign off to

1240
01:43:00.119 --> 01:43:04.159
do this. This is part of the unemployment program. I

1241
01:43:04.239 --> 01:43:08.119
said really. He said yeah. So you go to Butlins

1242
01:43:08.800 --> 01:43:14.000
in Bogna, Regis. You can work, you still get your unemployment,

1243
01:43:14.279 --> 01:43:18.920
you get extra twenty quid on top, you get fed.

1244
01:43:19.600 --> 01:43:22.479
A's a restaurant which you get fed or canteen, get

1245
01:43:22.560 --> 01:43:26.560
fed three times a day. You get a big discount

1246
01:43:26.640 --> 01:43:33.000
on drinks, and you don't have to pay for any accommodation.

1247
01:43:33.560 --> 01:43:36.520
You get accommodation have to share a bed or bedroom

1248
01:43:36.600 --> 01:43:40.720
rather sorry with someone else. So there's two people in

1249
01:43:41.119 --> 01:43:45.600
a not a very particularly big room, in fact, probably

1250
01:43:45.600 --> 01:43:49.279
about the size of this room, maybe a little bit

1251
01:43:49.319 --> 01:43:53.680
smaller than this room actually, And I said, I didn't

1252
01:43:53.720 --> 01:43:59.720
have a lot of options at that point. So yeah,

1253
01:44:00.199 --> 01:44:02.000
So I had to fill a form in. I had

1254
01:44:02.039 --> 01:44:04.760
to do a questionnaire and like to test my intelligence.

1255
01:44:06.439 --> 01:44:09.359
And I remember when I handed it in and fireworks

1256
01:44:09.439 --> 01:44:12.800
went off. I said, Wow, you're the most intelligent person

1257
01:44:12.880 --> 01:44:16.439
we've ever seen it. Ever, how come you're not teaching

1258
01:44:16.520 --> 01:44:26.439
in a university? And that didn't happen. So I just thought,

1259
01:44:27.279 --> 01:44:28.720
he said, well, what kind of work can you do?

1260
01:44:29.800 --> 01:44:34.039
I said, what's available? And it kind of broke down

1261
01:44:34.800 --> 01:44:37.479
what I should what I would have done. If I

1262
01:44:37.560 --> 01:44:41.600
had looked at longer, further picture, the bigger picture, the

1263
01:44:41.720 --> 01:44:47.079
more advanced picture, the future, I would have chosen something

1264
01:44:47.159 --> 01:44:51.760
that I wouldn't have disliked doing. But I had experience

1265
01:44:51.840 --> 01:44:55.600
working in the bar, and they saw it as soon

1266
01:44:55.640 --> 01:44:57.159
as they saw that acts I had to film a

1267
01:44:57.239 --> 01:45:00.079
CV and they said, okay, well you can work in

1268
01:45:00.119 --> 01:45:03.159
a bar. Then I didn't realize it was going to

1269
01:45:03.199 --> 01:45:09.159
be the world's busiest bar. And I've never I don't

1270
01:45:09.199 --> 01:45:11.680
think I could ever work anywhere with a bar that busy.

1271
01:45:13.039 --> 01:45:18.520
And I've been in bars. These these were like thousands

1272
01:45:18.600 --> 01:45:24.720
of people, you know, in this massive, massive hall venue.

1273
01:45:25.239 --> 01:45:31.640
There was like three bars and the show it was

1274
01:45:31.640 --> 01:45:35.840
a show on and there was hundreds of tables, and

1275
01:45:35.920 --> 01:45:39.520
there's people, families, and there was literally it was non

1276
01:45:39.640 --> 01:45:43.479
stop from the beginning of the evening to the end.

1277
01:45:44.319 --> 01:45:46.439
There was never The only breaks we got is when

1278
01:45:46.479 --> 01:45:48.239
we were allowed to have a break. There was no

1279
01:45:48.399 --> 01:45:52.640
standing around, no waiting. It was constant. I mean, the

1280
01:45:52.640 --> 01:45:55.279
amount of money that would have taken would have been huge.

1281
01:45:57.319 --> 01:46:05.279
So I I said, okay, I really I probably should

1282
01:46:05.319 --> 01:46:09.319
have been better off going and doing the cleaning becoming

1283
01:46:09.560 --> 01:46:14.479
like cleaning the chalets. But had a little no I

1284
01:46:14.960 --> 01:46:18.760
had I wait a minute, this is two thousand and five, Yes,

1285
01:46:18.840 --> 01:46:22.279
I had. I'd had a little test of doing that.

1286
01:46:22.560 --> 01:46:29.119
In nineteen eighty nine, I cleaned caravans for a little

1287
01:46:29.119 --> 01:46:32.199
while and it was kind of the same process. You know,

1288
01:46:32.279 --> 01:46:34.279
you've got a limit the time to do it, and

1289
01:46:35.000 --> 01:46:38.039
you've got to it's got to be kind of perfect

1290
01:46:38.239 --> 01:46:42.960
and it's very hard work. You know, if you ever

1291
01:46:43.000 --> 01:46:49.840
go anywhere that has a chalet or a caravan. I

1292
01:46:49.880 --> 01:46:51.560
don't know what I was I was going to sort

1293
01:46:51.600 --> 01:46:53.319
of say, just think about the people that have to

1294
01:46:53.359 --> 01:46:56.159
clean it. I'm not sure where I'm going with that,

1295
01:46:56.319 --> 01:46:59.760
but it's hard. It's really hard. It's not an easy

1296
01:46:59.800 --> 01:47:05.880
to very difficult job. It kind of put me off. Ah,

1297
01:47:08.239 --> 01:47:11.079
I just had an interruption there. There's bark dogs barking,

1298
01:47:11.279 --> 01:47:13.439
so it sounded like someone was knocking on the door,

1299
01:47:13.800 --> 01:47:18.159
but they wasn't. And I can't remember what I was

1300
01:47:18.199 --> 01:47:21.880
talking about, but yeah, that's kind of how I was

1301
01:47:21.880 --> 01:47:31.920
saying about buttlings and caravans or something. I It's almost

1302
01:47:31.960 --> 01:47:46.560
like I've got things mapped in my brain. And yeah,

1303
01:47:47.439 --> 01:47:51.399
because things would changing so often back then, I've kind

1304
01:47:51.439 --> 01:47:57.279
of compartmentalized them into like little little flags or little

1305
01:47:57.399 --> 01:47:58.560
arrows to different bits.

1306
01:47:58.640 --> 01:47:58.800
You know.

1307
01:48:00.399 --> 01:48:04.279
Since I've been living here, this is probably the most

1308
01:48:05.600 --> 01:48:10.479
the most stable. Maybe not emotionally, but it's the most

1309
01:48:11.560 --> 01:48:14.439
It's the first place I've ever lived for ten years,

1310
01:48:15.079 --> 01:48:20.000
never lived in the same building or the same premises

1311
01:48:20.039 --> 01:48:23.439
for ten years ever in my life, so this is

1312
01:48:24.560 --> 01:48:28.880
the first, which means some of the stuff the last

1313
01:48:28.960 --> 01:48:32.960
ten years has become very muddled, a little bit, a

1314
01:48:33.000 --> 01:48:39.039
bit mixed together. So I haven't had that separation that,

1315
01:48:39.840 --> 01:48:46.319
you know, because I remember, like two thousand and fifteen

1316
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:52.199
when I moved in it. I remember that period, and

1317
01:48:52.399 --> 01:48:54.079
I remember I broke my wrists falling out of the

1318
01:48:54.159 --> 01:48:56.800
bath and there was a few you know. I remember

1319
01:48:56.840 --> 01:49:00.199
the first night I slept in the bedroom. All I

1320
01:49:00.279 --> 01:49:05.119
had was the bed. I had no All I had

1321
01:49:06.000 --> 01:49:11.880
when I moved here was a bed and a bag

1322
01:49:12.039 --> 01:49:16.439
of clothes and a chair. That was it. That was

1323
01:49:16.520 --> 01:49:25.439
pretty much my entire belongings really, which was a bit

1324
01:49:25.479 --> 01:49:29.520
weird at age forty five. Well I was forty four

1325
01:49:29.560 --> 01:49:33.359
at the time, forty four, so like it's not a

1326
01:49:33.439 --> 01:49:38.520
lot of belonging, did it. But I had to check

1327
01:49:38.560 --> 01:49:42.640
a lot of stuff out from the place, including clothes

1328
01:49:42.640 --> 01:49:46.000
because it was moldy, so I had it was just

1329
01:49:46.279 --> 01:49:49.159
horrible when the place I lived before this, A lot

1330
01:49:49.159 --> 01:49:52.159
of stuff I'd had to check out and other stuff

1331
01:49:52.199 --> 01:49:53.720
I just didn't want to bring with me. I wanted

1332
01:49:53.760 --> 01:50:00.560
to like a fresh start. I brought a goldfish, definitely

1333
01:50:00.600 --> 01:50:07.119
put the goldfish. Unfortunately they yeah, they didn't, so they

1334
01:50:07.159 --> 01:50:09.560
didn't survive the journey. They did survive the journey, but

1335
01:50:09.640 --> 01:50:15.439
they yeah, that's just sad. I promised them to get

1336
01:50:15.479 --> 01:50:19.319
them a big, big bowl, like a proper big tank.

1337
01:50:19.960 --> 01:50:27.640
I didn't stick to that promise. And they needed they

1338
01:50:27.880 --> 01:50:33.640
needed a tank because those gold those goldfish bowls, you know,

1339
01:50:33.680 --> 01:50:38.279
the plastic ones. They're okay, but not enough room for

1340
01:50:38.359 --> 01:50:44.399
fifty goldfish. I didn't really have fifty gold fish.

1341
01:50:44.479 --> 01:50:44.680
Come on.

1342
01:50:46.079 --> 01:50:48.840
So, yeah, I just remember certain things. I remember certain

1343
01:50:48.960 --> 01:50:52.640
years when I fractured my back. I remember when that happened.

1344
01:50:53.520 --> 01:51:00.039
That was the literally a week after got Vinnie. I

1345
01:51:00.159 --> 01:51:04.640
remember the month that, you know. I remember certain things,

1346
01:51:04.760 --> 01:51:08.920
certain times where big things happen, which I'm sure most

1347
01:51:08.960 --> 01:51:18.279
people do also, I suppose because I've got dates on

1348
01:51:18.399 --> 01:51:23.439
my podcasts, I can sometimes go back and some of

1349
01:51:23.479 --> 01:51:27.159
the images and some are like just to remind myself. Oh,

1350
01:51:30.199 --> 01:51:32.359
you know, if I what's the first date I did,

1351
01:51:32.720 --> 01:51:34.520
the first time I did and let me boy to sleep.

1352
01:51:34.560 --> 01:51:36.439
What was the very first date? And I can go

1353
01:51:36.560 --> 01:51:38.880
back and find that date. It was I think March

1354
01:51:39.039 --> 01:51:45.520
twenty eighteen, so it was like okay, which it is crazy. Really,

1355
01:51:48.000 --> 01:51:50.319
three years, I'll be ten years doing to let Me

1356
01:51:50.399 --> 01:51:54.359
Boy to Sleep. Next year it'll be twenty years of

1357
01:51:54.479 --> 01:52:02.079
making podcasts and videos online. Twenty years. You think i'd

1358
01:52:02.119 --> 01:52:05.640
have an audience by now, wudn't you by keep going

1359
01:52:06.439 --> 01:52:10.560
or keep at it? So anyway, thanks Sean. I hope

1360
01:52:10.600 --> 01:52:13.920
I've answered these questions. It's been two hours so far,

1361
01:52:14.800 --> 01:52:20.960
so Jackie says, Tammy, I agree. I love that Jason

1362
01:52:21.079 --> 01:52:23.680
is so candid with his thoughts, and I love his awareness,

1363
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:29.119
his inherent kindness. Oh, thank you. Let's not got too crazy.

1364
01:52:29.239 --> 01:52:32.000
This is not a cult. Oh carry on. You can

1365
01:52:32.079 --> 01:52:34.920
say nice things. There's never a trust me. I never

1366
01:52:34.960 --> 01:52:37.760
get bored of hearing nice things said about me. That's

1367
01:52:37.800 --> 01:52:39.760
the one thing I will never get bored of. That

1368
01:52:41.159 --> 01:52:43.800
if you send me nice words saying how I'm helping

1369
01:52:43.840 --> 01:52:47.359
you and not once have I ever seen a message

1370
01:52:47.359 --> 01:52:52.279
and thought I'll shut up, I'll not you against being nice? No,

1371
01:52:53.640 --> 01:52:57.880
I can't get enough of that. Honestly. It probably says

1372
01:52:57.920 --> 01:53:03.920
something about my need for acceptance, possibly, but yeah, it's not.

1373
01:53:04.319 --> 01:53:10.760
It's nice to feel appreciated. I think I don't feel

1374
01:53:10.760 --> 01:53:16.720
appreciated in real life, so it's nice that. I mean,

1375
01:53:16.760 --> 01:53:19.960
I know this is real life, but technically it's kind

1376
01:53:20.000 --> 01:53:28.560
of I suppose it'd be a little bit like beyond

1377
01:53:28.560 --> 01:53:33.560
a radio, wouldn't it like being a radio presenter, which

1378
01:53:33.640 --> 01:53:36.680
is possibly what I should have done. Maybe that was

1379
01:53:36.760 --> 01:53:42.680
my calling to be a radio presenter, just chatting over

1380
01:53:42.880 --> 01:53:47.000
these years. I could have done that, and maybe maybe

1381
01:53:47.399 --> 01:53:51.239
I still could. I don't know. I don't know. It

1382
01:53:51.399 --> 01:53:54.000
might not be, it might be too late. Maybe this

1383
01:53:54.159 --> 01:53:57.119
is kind of my version. This is the this today's

1384
01:53:57.199 --> 01:54:02.399
version of a radio show. Maybe don't know about you,

1385
01:54:02.520 --> 01:54:04.439
but if he's not discussing himself or his day to

1386
01:54:04.520 --> 01:54:09.840
day impressions, I get bored. Oh so bored, and being

1387
01:54:09.960 --> 01:54:13.239
that bored is not conducive to sleeping. What do you

1388
01:54:13.319 --> 01:54:17.159
think about that? What do you throw about that? Then?

1389
01:54:17.439 --> 01:54:21.600
What do you think about that? Hey? Hey, JJ, if

1390
01:54:21.680 --> 01:54:23.760
you see this, why do you think this is?

1391
01:54:24.600 --> 01:54:24.800
Yep?

1392
01:54:24.880 --> 01:54:26.720
I'm going to have to post this in your next

1393
01:54:26.880 --> 01:54:31.359
Q and A. I hope I can keep up. Actually

1394
01:54:32.520 --> 01:54:37.000
I posted it. I posted that. I realized I posted

1395
01:54:37.039 --> 01:54:42.359
that into the Q and A. Any questions for this Friday?

1396
01:54:43.079 --> 01:54:43.239
I do.

1397
01:54:43.399 --> 01:54:45.199
I will do that if I see a thing that's

1398
01:54:45.279 --> 01:54:48.119
kind of asking a question somewhere else, I'll post it

1399
01:54:48.199 --> 01:54:54.479
otherwise I forget if it's sort of somewhere else, Well,

1400
01:54:57.800 --> 01:55:00.880
I don't know. It's we're all different, we're all like

1401
01:55:00.960 --> 01:55:06.279
different things. I mean, some people would find it really

1402
01:55:06.319 --> 01:55:09.239
good just to hear me counting down. So it's like

1403
01:55:09.319 --> 01:55:18.319
countdown from one thousand, like thousand, nine hundred and ninety nine,

1404
01:55:22.119 --> 01:55:27.880
nine hundred and ninety eight. I think there's a few

1405
01:55:27.920 --> 01:55:32.279
of you thinking, well, not now, but like, is he

1406
01:55:32.600 --> 01:55:35.920
going to continue? How long is he going to continue for?

1407
01:55:37.119 --> 01:55:40.039
Is he just going to go down to maybe nine

1408
01:55:40.159 --> 01:55:45.960
hundred and ninety or to keep going, keep pushing it

1409
01:55:47.479 --> 01:55:49.439
and go all the way down, all the way down

1410
01:55:49.479 --> 01:55:54.600
to one, which will take probably two hours. But no,

1411
01:55:54.800 --> 01:55:56.600
I'm not going to do that. But some people would

1412
01:55:56.720 --> 01:56:01.960
like that. Some people would find that useful, and different

1413
01:56:02.000 --> 01:56:09.720
people like different things. I do realize that the problem

1414
01:56:09.760 --> 01:56:13.279
we've talked about myself is well, I have no problem

1415
01:56:13.359 --> 01:56:17.600
talk about myself. I love it. But when it's about

1416
01:56:17.640 --> 01:56:22.039
my day to day life, it's not always easy to

1417
01:56:22.199 --> 01:56:25.720
do because there's nothing going on a lot of time.

1418
01:56:29.319 --> 01:56:31.680
So like with the Q and a Friday, it makes

1419
01:56:31.680 --> 01:56:33.560
it a little bit easier because I've got something to

1420
01:56:33.600 --> 01:56:39.479
talk about, and I'll still manage to talk about my

1421
01:56:39.600 --> 01:56:44.199
day to day life as well during this, but there's

1422
01:56:44.319 --> 01:56:48.920
not a huge amount going on at the moment, and

1423
01:56:50.640 --> 01:56:53.600
I do try and keep things positive. So if this

1424
01:56:55.239 --> 01:56:58.600
things something, there's things that aren't so great going on,

1425
01:56:59.039 --> 01:57:02.079
I don't like to really talk about that stuff because

1426
01:57:03.000 --> 01:57:09.039
I like to think that this is a fairly I

1427
01:57:09.119 --> 01:57:13.760
don't know, just a nice a nice space. I mean,

1428
01:57:13.840 --> 01:57:16.680
not everything I say is going to be like super positive,

1429
01:57:16.720 --> 01:57:27.439
but I try to keep it light. Being bored, yeah,

1430
01:57:27.840 --> 01:57:32.119
I think I don't know why that is, Why being

1431
01:57:32.199 --> 01:57:38.000
bored doesn't send you to sleep. I'm not sure well

1432
01:57:38.039 --> 01:57:43.960
that that type of boring. We're all different. I think

1433
01:57:44.000 --> 01:57:47.159
that's just what it is. There's going to be some

1434
01:57:47.319 --> 01:57:54.640
people who've listened to my recordings and think like we're

1435
01:57:54.760 --> 01:58:00.319
just just talking. What's the point in this? Yet they

1436
01:58:00.399 --> 01:58:06.640
may like the sleep hypnosis recordings I do, and some

1437
01:58:06.800 --> 01:58:12.520
people absolutely can't stand the whisper stuff, and other people

1438
01:58:12.640 --> 01:58:18.159
prefer the whisper stuff. Some people really there's a few

1439
01:58:18.159 --> 01:58:24.159
people that really like the the boring, the was it bedtime,

1440
01:58:24.239 --> 01:58:32.640
storytime things that I've done. It's just everyone's different than

1441
01:58:32.680 --> 01:58:36.199
they Some people like the I've had quite a bit

1442
01:58:36.239 --> 01:58:41.039
of positive a lot, and I a fair amount of

1443
01:58:41.239 --> 01:58:44.159
positive feedback for the let Me Boil Your Pain Away.

1444
01:58:47.840 --> 01:58:49.880
That was kind of a bit of a passion project.

1445
01:58:50.000 --> 01:58:53.359
To be fair, I haven't done any this week. I

1446
01:58:53.479 --> 01:58:59.880
haven't felt it. I just haven't, haven't it. I mean,

1447
01:59:00.039 --> 01:59:02.119
when to do a recording? I said on Wednesday and

1448
01:59:02.199 --> 01:59:07.960
I'm just looking just there's no words. There was words,

1449
01:59:08.000 --> 01:59:09.479
but they weren't words I wanted to say.

1450
01:59:10.560 --> 01:59:10.880
I just.

1451
01:59:12.359 --> 01:59:16.960
Wasn't in the mood. So when I'm like that, there's

1452
01:59:17.039 --> 01:59:20.279
no point me making a recording because I'm never going

1453
01:59:20.359 --> 01:59:22.800
to force myself to do it because otherwise, if I'm

1454
01:59:22.840 --> 01:59:27.039
not enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I think

1455
01:59:27.079 --> 01:59:32.600
that's going to come across. I think. I don't know,

1456
01:59:32.800 --> 01:59:41.279
maybe not, so you won't have to post this to

1457
01:59:41.319 --> 01:59:45.399
the next Q and A because you we've done it today.

1458
01:59:46.520 --> 01:59:49.000
So I don't really know what the answer is. We're

1459
01:59:49.000 --> 01:59:53.000
all different, we all just like different things. I did

1460
01:59:53.119 --> 01:59:57.119
do a survey ages ago, like a little questionnaire what

1461
01:59:57.279 --> 02:00:01.560
do you prefer? And it was different but different people,

1462
02:00:02.680 --> 02:00:07.760
no one, there was no real I suppose to let

1463
02:00:07.800 --> 02:00:12.000
me boy to sleep was the unanimous one because I

1464
02:00:12.399 --> 02:00:16.760
think that I think that the majority of people that

1465
02:00:16.960 --> 02:00:20.359
come to this group like have come through the let

1466
02:00:20.439 --> 02:00:24.119
me boy to sleep, not necessarily through the chronic pain

1467
02:00:24.319 --> 02:00:27.880
or this, or through the stress and pain relief, or

1468
02:00:28.039 --> 02:00:31.680
through the stop smoking or whatever other ones I've done.

1469
02:00:31.680 --> 02:00:37.119
Because I've done lots of different podcasts, thousands of recordings.

1470
02:00:37.159 --> 02:00:47.760
I've done thousands. It's ridiculous really, So you yeah, I'd

1471
02:00:47.960 --> 02:00:52.600
like to get that feedback. I'd like to just it'd

1472
02:00:52.640 --> 02:00:56.199
be nice if if there was a way of just

1473
02:00:58.199 --> 02:01:03.640
finding out what everyone likes. But then the problem with

1474
02:01:03.720 --> 02:01:10.600
that is if I start to try and change what

1475
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:15.880
I'm doing to suit every individual request or need, I

1476
02:01:15.960 --> 02:01:21.399
will be then micromanaging myself, and then I wouldn't want

1477
02:01:21.399 --> 02:01:25.840
to do it anymore. I've been micromanaged before, and it's horrible.

1478
02:01:26.479 --> 02:01:31.439
It's like just constantly like no, do like that? Do

1479
02:01:33.520 --> 02:01:37.000
you're doing this? You're doing that? It's like no, there

1480
02:01:37.039 --> 02:01:44.199
needs to be freedom there, and I don't want to

1481
02:01:44.239 --> 02:01:51.239
do something that I don't like doing. So you know,

1482
02:01:51.359 --> 02:01:56.399
there was a podcast that I did in I think

1483
02:01:56.439 --> 02:02:03.239
it was during kind of lockdown period, okay, and it

1484
02:02:03.560 --> 02:02:09.760
was what was it called relaxation for stress and panic attacks.

1485
02:02:11.359 --> 02:02:14.239
I did a lot of recordings. I lived every day

1486
02:02:14.319 --> 02:02:18.760
I was doing them, and I ended up doing I've

1487
02:02:18.800 --> 02:02:23.079
now got two hundred and thirty nine, and there's a

1488
02:02:23.119 --> 02:02:26.840
few recent years that most of them, like two hundred

1489
02:02:26.880 --> 02:02:31.079
and twenty three, two hundred and twenty nine, two hundred

1490
02:02:31.119 --> 02:02:34.840
and thirty, two hundred. Okay, so two hundred and thirty

1491
02:02:35.000 --> 02:02:40.760
was seventh of May twenty twenty one. Okay, let's have

1492
02:02:40.800 --> 02:02:44.439
a look at where number one was. So May twenty

1493
02:02:44.600 --> 02:02:52.920
twenty one, so I started, okay, right, I started it

1494
02:02:52.960 --> 02:02:58.840
a long time before that, so yeah, probably about two

1495
02:03:00.119 --> 02:03:07.119
two thousand and fifteen, but but I didn't really start

1496
02:03:07.159 --> 02:03:10.920
getting into it until about twenty nineteen. So I did

1497
02:03:11.039 --> 02:03:15.880
number fifty six, fifty four, fifty three in twenty nineteen,

1498
02:03:16.840 --> 02:03:19.359
all the way up to I'm reading this off the scream,

1499
02:03:19.479 --> 02:03:21.359
just in case you think that I'm remembering it all.

1500
02:03:22.960 --> 02:03:28.159
And but that was October September, October December. But then

1501
02:03:28.399 --> 02:03:37.399
number seventy in twenty twenty, so seventy and we know,

1502
02:03:37.520 --> 02:03:41.319
you know what happened in twenty twenty, So number seventy

1503
02:03:42.079 --> 02:03:48.399
all the way up to I mean, honestly BlimE me

1504
02:03:54.439 --> 02:04:02.039
a lot. I did a lot so twoenty twenty two thousand,

1505
02:04:05.000 --> 02:04:08.840
right twenty ninth of December twenty twenty from number seventy

1506
02:04:08.920 --> 02:04:12.640
to two hundred and eighteen seventy to two hundred and eighteen.

1507
02:04:13.840 --> 02:04:18.680
And it was so regular as well. It was quite regular,

1508
02:04:21.560 --> 02:04:24.680
and I was doing just I had this little microphone,

1509
02:04:24.760 --> 02:04:28.560
lapel microphone, and I was making recordings while I was pacing,

1510
02:04:29.159 --> 02:04:31.479
not pacing in it like a weird way, but just

1511
02:04:32.079 --> 02:04:35.479
walking around. And I was I was quite energetic. I

1512
02:04:35.600 --> 02:04:37.840
was getting quite passionate about what I was talking about.

1513
02:04:38.920 --> 02:04:45.960
So there's a ninth of January, twelfth of January, thirteenth, fourteenth, fifteenth, seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth,

1514
02:04:46.520 --> 02:04:50.640
twenty fourth, twenty fifth, twenty sixth twenty seven, twenty eight,

1515
02:04:50.800 --> 02:04:57.039
twenty nine, thirty thirty, first of January, like nearly, it's

1516
02:04:57.159 --> 02:05:10.640
like wow. And in February the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen,

1517
02:05:10.800 --> 02:05:16.319
twenty one, twenty four, twenty six, twenty seventh of February.

1518
02:05:17.520 --> 02:05:23.800
So you know, I'm quite regularly doing his recordings. And

1519
02:05:25.159 --> 02:05:29.399
after a certain time I started giving them names instead

1520
02:05:29.399 --> 02:05:35.720
of just a number I started giving them. Yeah, the

1521
02:05:35.840 --> 02:05:39.039
first one number eighty. I gave it a name to

1522
02:05:39.279 --> 02:05:45.000
Smiley Mirror twenty sixth of January twenty twenty, and then

1523
02:05:47.119 --> 02:05:55.319
meaning purpose was the next one. Web page ball or

1524
02:05:55.479 --> 02:06:00.560
sock Silly song that was a good one, actually silly

1525
02:06:00.680 --> 02:06:06.199
song thirty for January twenty twenty. I don't know. I

1526
02:06:06.279 --> 02:06:09.920
thought it was funny self worth and not me saying it,

1527
02:06:09.960 --> 02:06:12.079
but I think the actual podcast, do you the recording

1528
02:06:12.159 --> 02:06:17.960
is quite a good recording if I remember rightly, it

1529
02:06:18.159 --> 02:06:22.960
is over five years ago. Then you got self worth, gratitude,

1530
02:06:23.119 --> 02:06:30.720
drip focusing, bath floater. Oh. I like some of his titles.

1531
02:06:31.880 --> 02:06:37.199
I'm not sure if I yeah, it's anyone's guess what

1532
02:06:37.319 --> 02:06:42.680
I was talking about, Magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness, Is it

1533
02:06:42.840 --> 02:06:56.600
true You're not broken? Relaxation sessions, reassuring, letter, self sabotage, relapse, noise, sensitivity, question,

1534
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:05.279
automatic thinking, evict self, prejude, just blimey, hash, be kind free, anxiety,

1535
02:07:06.479 --> 02:07:13.039
brain plasticity. That was January February twenty twenty, Send healing,

1536
02:07:13.520 --> 02:07:16.760
don't feel guilty for be and ill give attention to

1537
02:07:16.840 --> 02:07:22.760
mini me. Stress and anxiety are natural germs that's one

1538
02:07:22.800 --> 02:07:26.359
about germs. That was twenty twenty March. I wonder what

1539
02:07:26.479 --> 02:07:35.000
made me think about that? M I wonder so this.

1540
02:07:35.239 --> 02:07:37.279
I was doing this at the beginning of the year.

1541
02:07:41.840 --> 02:07:44.000
Just something kicked in and I was like nearly every

1542
02:07:44.079 --> 02:07:46.520
day making a new one. And they would lasted for

1543
02:07:46.600 --> 02:07:49.039
like forty fifty minutes, some of them, some of them

1544
02:07:49.199 --> 02:07:59.439
like twenty minutes. But yeah, never give up. Remember this

1545
02:07:59.600 --> 02:08:03.760
is ten Prairie. It's been emotional. That's an hour and

1546
02:08:03.840 --> 02:08:10.319
six minutes. A safe, positive, healing, relaxation. How are you today?

1547
02:08:10.960 --> 02:08:17.079
Relaxed hands equals relaxed brain, feel safe, feel comfort, feel relaxed,

1548
02:08:19.359 --> 02:08:28.800
and reduce anxiety level. Compassion reduces stress. Funny memory, intrusive

1549
02:08:28.880 --> 02:08:35.359
thoughts such as thoughts we are born positive blind me

1550
02:08:35.920 --> 02:08:42.439
taping fingertips no mass. I like that one, but I'm

1551
02:08:42.520 --> 02:08:45.640
kind of talking about boxing, but it's still relevant. See

1552
02:08:45.720 --> 02:08:53.319
these are amongst my favorite recordings I've ever made. Chained Elephant, vice,

1553
02:08:53.479 --> 02:08:59.479
gript positive, Butterflies. You can choose what you think about

1554
02:09:01.039 --> 02:09:11.920
bubble fark confidence. I can't no idea ringo tension release, Okay,

1555
02:09:11.920 --> 02:09:15.079
I got no of that groovy relax or sleep session

1556
02:09:16.119 --> 02:09:24.319
TV remote amazing, loved and deeply relaxed. Stress licking ferret.

1557
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:33.640
That's about Andre so stress versus love. Focus on feeling relaxed,

1558
02:09:35.319 --> 02:09:42.720
relax sleep neurons, lighting up okay, buckets of healing relaxing

1559
02:09:43.720 --> 02:09:51.520
No bucket of relaxing healing you in the mirror, stress

1560
02:09:51.880 --> 02:09:55.560
sucking helmet. Some of these names are a bit weird.

1561
02:09:58.359 --> 02:10:05.880
Letting stress know it's not a prisoner, dissolving the rust

1562
02:10:05.960 --> 02:10:11.840
of anxiety. I don't know what was going on in

1563
02:10:11.920 --> 02:10:13.520
my brain at the time, but it seems to be

1564
02:10:14.119 --> 02:10:24.560
quite active. Removing stress batteries, hand squeeze, stress relief technique,

1565
02:10:27.880 --> 02:10:33.159
blind sports, recording yourself. I've got no idea what that was.

1566
02:10:43.560 --> 02:10:48.920
You are going to be okay, Reduce stress when thinking

1567
02:10:48.960 --> 02:10:54.159
of someone you dislike. You've got a balloon anxiety reduction technique,

1568
02:10:55.720 --> 02:11:02.880
Overcoming hurdle too big to swallow. Choose relaxation bubble or

1569
02:11:03.000 --> 02:11:13.079
sleep bubble. Say nice things to yourself whilst walking ah

1570
02:11:15.520 --> 02:11:21.880
negativity fumigation, questioning your worries. There's some I quite like

1571
02:11:22.079 --> 02:11:27.760
these these titles from five years ago. What this is

1572
02:11:27.880 --> 02:11:30.239
now like four and a half years ago. It's near

1573
02:11:30.319 --> 02:11:38.359
the end of twenty twenty. Natural born positivity, burping your

1574
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:45.399
anxiety war not taking yourself too seriously when you're feeling agitated,

1575
02:11:47.960 --> 02:11:53.359
positivity trigger You were born able to relax and sup naturally,

1576
02:11:53.760 --> 02:12:01.000
which is true. Put trust in your brain to relax

1577
02:12:02.920 --> 02:12:08.439
or sleep during noise, support networks and asking for help,

1578
02:12:14.920 --> 02:12:24.600
making friends with yourself, victim mentality, emotional abuse, never again,

1579
02:12:26.640 --> 02:12:32.560
caring for carers. Okay, that was a really long one.

1580
02:12:32.640 --> 02:12:36.239
So I've got no idea. What kind of that sounds

1581
02:12:36.279 --> 02:12:45.199
like quite a heavy one. The power of breathing. Okay,

1582
02:12:45.399 --> 02:12:49.359
so I'm talking about bereave. I don't know why. Make

1583
02:12:49.439 --> 02:12:53.399
friends with your stress, hot water bottles, stress relief technique,

1584
02:12:55.880 --> 02:13:02.119
pouring healing, relaxation and safety into your brain, taping scalp

1585
02:13:02.239 --> 02:13:18.479
to relax, brain rehearsing feeling okay, ah, listen to my

1586
02:13:18.640 --> 02:13:30.840
boring voice Superman re energizing. Right. There's quite a few,

1587
02:13:30.880 --> 02:13:38.439
isn't it. Kettle anger release. I quite like that one,

1588
02:13:38.520 --> 02:13:40.199
and so it's only a short one, but it's quite

1589
02:13:40.239 --> 02:13:46.159
good holding safe hands and there's a quantum memory shift.

1590
02:13:47.039 --> 02:13:50.439
There's another one that's a bit more. That's me trying

1591
02:13:50.479 --> 02:13:54.960
to be advanced. It didn't work, Maybe it did. I

1592
02:13:55.039 --> 02:13:59.520
don't know, Hi Jason from Cindy. You recently shared a

1593
02:13:59.520 --> 02:14:02.479
story about your grandfather has told you by your Nan.

1594
02:14:03.039 --> 02:14:18.520
Are there any other NaN's stories you can share. I'm

1595
02:14:18.600 --> 02:14:26.720
trying to think. I mean, we used to talk about

1596
02:14:27.000 --> 02:14:31.239
I mean, this story is about her. She was really

1597
02:14:31.319 --> 02:14:36.319
good swimmer. But I feel like NaN's stories that she

1598
02:14:36.560 --> 02:14:40.760
told me, she told me about in our family. She

1599
02:14:40.920 --> 02:14:47.640
told me about her parents. She told me I got

1600
02:14:47.680 --> 02:14:51.199
a lot of information about my very very young childhood

1601
02:14:51.239 --> 02:14:54.560
from her because no one else would talk about it,

1602
02:14:54.720 --> 02:14:58.119
but she would. So she told me she had pictures

1603
02:14:58.159 --> 02:15:01.680
of me when I was a baby, and.

1604
02:15:04.920 --> 02:15:05.319
There was.

1605
02:15:09.079 --> 02:15:19.760
I think I had blonde hair back then. Yeah, I'm

1606
02:15:19.800 --> 02:15:20.720
just trying to think.

1607
02:15:23.199 --> 02:15:23.520
It was.

1608
02:15:27.680 --> 02:15:29.399
I'll get back to you on that one. I might.

1609
02:15:29.680 --> 02:15:31.800
I'm just trying to think. I can't, off the top

1610
02:15:31.800 --> 02:15:36.680
of my head any particular stories that she told me.

1611
02:15:41.960 --> 02:15:44.640
I can't believe it's been over ten years since I

1612
02:15:44.720 --> 02:15:54.239
last spoke to her. She used to Yeah, she'd talk

1613
02:15:54.319 --> 02:15:58.920
about stuff, but a lot of things that would talk

1614
02:15:58.920 --> 02:16:02.399
about would be about what going on now. We didn't

1615
02:16:02.640 --> 02:16:07.199
really focus too much on the past. But when she did,

1616
02:16:07.279 --> 02:16:11.199
she talk about like how she she remembers some of

1617
02:16:11.239 --> 02:16:14.079
the stuff that happened. I mean, there was one she

1618
02:16:14.199 --> 02:16:21.880
said that my dad, my biological mother, had moved out

1619
02:16:21.920 --> 02:16:24.920
of her house and bettered in mind. Both my dad

1620
02:16:24.960 --> 02:16:29.560
and her were very young, and this before they got married.

1621
02:16:29.640 --> 02:16:32.719
And they got married in what's sixty five I think,

1622
02:16:34.239 --> 02:16:36.680
which was five years before I got where I was born,

1623
02:16:37.399 --> 02:16:39.559
and my dad was twenty six when I was born,

1624
02:16:41.079 --> 02:16:45.559
so he would have got married at twenty one. They

1625
02:16:45.600 --> 02:16:48.319
were dating before that, and he was living at home

1626
02:16:51.879 --> 02:16:56.680
and my dad was at work. I think he was

1627
02:16:56.680 --> 02:16:59.879
an apprentice at the time. See less school than when

1628
02:17:00.000 --> 02:17:09.479
an apprenticeship. And it's not funny really, but my other

1629
02:17:09.559 --> 02:17:12.360
biological grandfather, the one that I never met because he

1630
02:17:12.479 --> 02:17:18.520
passed away quite early before I was born, I think

1631
02:17:20.520 --> 02:17:25.159
so basically, and apparently he was just a huge man.

1632
02:17:25.680 --> 02:17:26.000
Huge.

1633
02:17:26.760 --> 02:17:30.520
My granddad wasn't huge, but it was it wasn't just

1634
02:17:30.639 --> 02:17:33.200
what he was very slim, and but this bloke was just,

1635
02:17:33.840 --> 02:17:36.319
you know, apparently according to my name, he was massive

1636
02:17:37.600 --> 02:17:42.079
and he just shadowed my grand he'd like, really just

1637
02:17:42.680 --> 02:17:45.760
my name was worried for my granddad, my other granddad

1638
02:17:45.959 --> 02:17:51.280
that her husband or other. Well, what happened next is

1639
02:17:51.680 --> 02:17:56.639
so he knocks on the door. Where's my door? So

1640
02:17:58.399 --> 02:18:00.959
I don't know. So they didn't know she was in

1641
02:18:01.040 --> 02:18:06.440
the house. So she was in the bedroom upstairs. What

1642
02:18:06.639 --> 02:18:10.479
they didn't know, both my nan and my granddad because

1643
02:18:10.760 --> 02:18:14.840
my granddad was retired at this point. Was he retired,

1644
02:18:15.000 --> 02:18:18.399
I don't know. Yeah, he was retired. He was retired

1645
02:18:18.440 --> 02:18:27.920
at this point. He didn't know that she was upstairs.

1646
02:18:28.000 --> 02:18:32.159
Not only was she upstairs, she'd moved out of her

1647
02:18:32.239 --> 02:18:36.319
family home. She took us stuff and moved out into

1648
02:18:36.399 --> 02:18:40.559
my nan and granddad's. They didn't even know. So he's

1649
02:18:40.639 --> 02:18:42.319
knock on the doorstair walk my door. I want to

1650
02:18:42.479 --> 02:18:46.440
bring her back, so they my name because she was

1651
02:18:46.440 --> 02:18:48.680
always around the house because she was my dad's girlfriend

1652
02:18:49.959 --> 02:18:54.879
or fiance however, so I don't know. But so my

1653
02:18:55.040 --> 02:18:57.159
nan did say that she was worried for my granddad,

1654
02:18:58.479 --> 02:19:01.360
like her I keep saying, because they were both my granddads.

1655
02:19:01.520 --> 02:19:05.520
But she was worried for her husband and my granddad Newland.

1656
02:19:06.520 --> 02:19:09.479
She was worried for him because he was tiny compared

1657
02:19:09.479 --> 02:19:16.200
to this bloke, the other granddad. So but I think,

1658
02:19:16.280 --> 02:19:19.600
well I came. My grandad would have been sixty then,

1659
02:19:21.239 --> 02:19:27.280
so this this would have been no he'd have been fifty.

1660
02:19:27.319 --> 02:19:28.760
He would have still been at work, so it'd have

1661
02:19:28.760 --> 02:19:33.159
been about fifty five. I think he retired in nineteen

1662
02:19:33.280 --> 02:19:36.799
seventy when he was sixty, so I think you could

1663
02:19:36.840 --> 02:19:46.440
retire at sixty back then and then he I think so,

1664
02:19:46.639 --> 02:19:52.040
I'm not one hundred percent sure, but anyway, and I

1665
02:19:52.079 --> 02:19:54.200
don't know what I'm thinking. My granddad was a boxer

1666
02:19:55.040 --> 02:19:57.639
in the army. But he was a boxer, he was,

1667
02:19:58.479 --> 02:20:00.920
and at fifty five, which she is nearly as old

1668
02:20:00.920 --> 02:20:03.719
as I am, he would have been a lot, probably more,

1669
02:20:03.879 --> 02:20:06.840
much more fitter than I am, and he would have

1670
02:20:06.879 --> 02:20:11.920
been well able to take care of himself because not

1671
02:20:12.040 --> 02:20:13.920
only was he a boxer, but he's also had been

1672
02:20:13.959 --> 02:20:16.879
in the army. You know, he'd served time in the

1673
02:20:17.000 --> 02:20:22.360
army for I think twelve years as a career, and

1674
02:20:22.559 --> 02:20:24.520
then he was in the army game during the war

1675
02:20:24.600 --> 02:20:28.799
for for six years. So it's you know, done over

1676
02:20:28.879 --> 02:20:36.159
twenty years in the army pretty much nearly so I

1677
02:20:36.239 --> 02:20:39.879
don't know, but apparently, but they didn't come to blows,

1678
02:20:39.959 --> 02:20:41.879
but my name said that she was really worried that

1679
02:20:41.920 --> 02:20:48.559
he was gonna he was just like beat up my

1680
02:20:48.639 --> 02:20:52.200
other granddad. But they didn't. Now. I don't know how

1681
02:20:52.280 --> 02:20:54.840
well they got on. I think she was. I think

1682
02:20:54.920 --> 02:20:56.920
he was gone before they even got married, before my

1683
02:20:57.000 --> 02:21:01.760
dad got married to her. But she did tell me

1684
02:21:01.840 --> 02:21:06.159
stuff about my mom, about my biological mum, and what

1685
02:21:06.319 --> 02:21:11.280
she did say though, she said she was even though

1686
02:21:11.360 --> 02:21:18.479
she was a problem and just always causing, just causing problems, causing.

1687
02:21:19.159 --> 02:21:21.840
She had a chaotic life back then. She might I

1688
02:21:21.840 --> 02:21:24.239
don't know which she might have a really good life now.

1689
02:21:26.040 --> 02:21:28.760
But she said for all her faults, the one thing

1690
02:21:28.959 --> 02:21:33.239
she had to say is she was funny. She made

1691
02:21:33.280 --> 02:21:40.159
a laugh. She made my men laugh. And that's the

1692
02:21:40.239 --> 02:21:44.120
one thing that I kind of think, Okay, cool, that

1693
02:21:44.319 --> 02:21:50.479
means something to me, like that's good because she, yeah,

1694
02:21:50.639 --> 02:21:54.120
she'd lived a chaotic life, but that's probably because of

1695
02:21:54.200 --> 02:21:58.879
where her background came from. She'd, you know, she'd sort

1696
02:21:58.920 --> 02:22:02.840
of learned that, and she was whatever, you know, wasn't

1697
02:22:02.959 --> 02:22:06.920
just her own decision to be like that. And she

1698
02:22:07.079 --> 02:22:13.319
also had a called to my nan. She was like

1699
02:22:13.600 --> 02:22:19.760
bipolar or what. She had mental health stuff. But she

1700
02:22:20.000 --> 02:22:24.799
was best friends with my auntie. I think my auntie

1701
02:22:24.799 --> 02:22:28.680
and her went to school together. My auntie was probably

1702
02:22:28.719 --> 02:22:32.319
a couple of years younger than my dad, and it's

1703
02:22:32.360 --> 02:22:36.200
probably how they met, probably how him and my mum met,

1704
02:22:37.120 --> 02:22:41.799
because she'd be around, probably with her sister, and I

1705
02:22:41.840 --> 02:22:48.319
don't know, they just got together, so, you know, even

1706
02:22:48.440 --> 02:22:56.200
though she left when I was six months old, so

1707
02:22:56.280 --> 02:23:03.079
it was like nineteen seventy one, the fact is they've

1708
02:23:03.120 --> 02:23:06.440
been together quite a while. If they got married sixty five,

1709
02:23:06.639 --> 02:23:09.200
so six years, and they were probably together a year

1710
02:23:09.280 --> 02:23:12.280
or two before that, so you know, it was it

1711
02:23:12.399 --> 02:23:15.879
wasn't like a short term and they had three kids,

1712
02:23:17.520 --> 02:23:20.239
so it must have been. It must have had a

1713
02:23:20.319 --> 02:23:26.520
good time at some point. I don't know she's told

1714
02:23:26.559 --> 02:23:33.440
Why did she tell me? She that's just one of

1715
02:23:33.520 --> 02:23:40.040
the things she's basically, she said that when my mom

1716
02:23:40.200 --> 02:23:42.040
took off, yeah, she used to. She used to go

1717
02:23:42.120 --> 02:23:45.840
into the butchers and the bakers, and they'd all be

1718
02:23:45.959 --> 02:23:50.079
asking her about the money that my mum owed them.

1719
02:23:51.319 --> 02:23:55.040
So apparently she just owed money to everyone. That's what

1720
02:23:55.159 --> 02:23:58.319
my name said. Again, It's like, you know, I'm not

1721
02:23:58.399 --> 02:24:01.559
here to say horrible things about anyone, but that's what

1722
02:24:01.719 --> 02:24:05.840
my name she's. She said like this, she'd just be

1723
02:24:06.159 --> 02:24:09.440
borrowing money off everyone, but she'd make people laugh that

1724
02:24:09.680 --> 02:24:17.879
she was like just funny, funny person. So yeah, I

1725
02:24:18.000 --> 02:24:30.639
think maybe it's the maybe that's why I've got bipolar maybe,

1726
02:24:30.639 --> 02:24:42.399
and that's where my my brain comes from. I mean, yeah, inherited, well,

1727
02:24:42.399 --> 02:24:46.399
he inherited this brain. But that's it. It's probably have

1728
02:24:46.559 --> 02:24:48.600
this loadure of stuff. But that's one off the top

1729
02:24:48.639 --> 02:24:52.799
of my head. I realized the time's going, it's now

1730
02:24:53.120 --> 02:24:58.920
Lime is six o'clock. Dev asks hello Jason, Hello all.

1731
02:24:59.000 --> 02:25:01.639
I'm a nubie at this, a chronic pain sufferer, but

1732
02:25:01.760 --> 02:25:05.120
also interested in learning about hypnosis in general, as well

1733
02:25:05.159 --> 02:25:09.120
as applying it to creative writing. I find Jason's podcast

1734
02:25:09.319 --> 02:25:13.000
very effective, actually, but both for pain relief and sleep.

1735
02:25:13.680 --> 02:25:16.639
I'd also like to learn how a writer can place

1736
02:25:16.719 --> 02:25:22.559
itself into a sort of fictional environment and develop a story. Equally,

1737
02:25:22.799 --> 02:25:25.639
I would like to learn about immersing a reader into

1738
02:25:25.719 --> 02:25:29.239
the story. I'm currently struggling with writing a sort of

1739
02:25:29.399 --> 02:25:36.680
ghost story. Thanks and advance. I don't know, so I'm

1740
02:25:36.719 --> 02:25:46.399
not a writer. I suppose to immerse someone into a

1741
02:25:46.600 --> 02:25:59.399
story would be keeping it flowing. Well, then let's be

1742
02:25:59.520 --> 02:26:01.639
teaching how to write. I don't. I don't know how

1743
02:26:01.719 --> 02:26:06.000
to write, but it's my understanding of like writing with

1744
02:26:06.479 --> 02:26:09.920
creative writing is one of the things I've done a

1745
02:26:10.000 --> 02:26:13.959
little bit of books on it and played around of it.

1746
02:26:16.719 --> 02:26:18.840
What I liked about it is there's no right or wrong,

1747
02:26:19.079 --> 02:26:24.159
you know, it's it's art creativity. There's no there is

1748
02:26:24.280 --> 02:26:27.799
no right or wrong. You just see what comes up

1749
02:26:28.479 --> 02:26:35.120
and maybe something really cool or come up a fictional

1750
02:26:35.280 --> 02:26:40.600
environment developer story. I tell you what you could do.

1751
02:26:43.879 --> 02:26:46.200
You could tell the story. You could verbally tell the

1752
02:26:46.280 --> 02:26:52.319
story and see what comes up. Transcribe it. There's loads

1753
02:26:52.360 --> 02:26:58.360
of transcribing places you can get stuff transcribed. Just record

1754
02:26:58.399 --> 02:27:01.559
it on your on your phone m and then just

1755
02:27:02.399 --> 02:27:07.159
look back at it and maybe start to you could

1756
02:27:07.280 --> 02:27:09.959
like map it out. It's okay. Well, as that's that,

1757
02:27:10.200 --> 02:27:13.399
there's that character. Where would they go? What would they do?

1758
02:27:13.600 --> 02:27:15.040
And you know, I don't know. I mean, it's not

1759
02:27:15.159 --> 02:27:20.639
something that I'm ever going to be doing. Well, if

1760
02:27:20.680 --> 02:27:22.520
I ever wrote a book, it would be kind of

1761
02:27:22.959 --> 02:27:27.399
it'd have to be factual pretty much it made up

1762
02:27:27.559 --> 02:27:38.360
but about me maybe or I'm trying to think there's

1763
02:27:38.399 --> 02:27:46.280
something else I was thought about doing. Yeah, just it'd

1764
02:27:46.360 --> 02:27:49.920
have to be that. That's the way you could do it. Maybe.

1765
02:27:51.000 --> 02:27:58.760
But as far as hypnosis, I'm not really sure. It's

1766
02:27:58.840 --> 02:28:02.159
something I don't really know about when it comes to writing.

1767
02:28:02.479 --> 02:28:06.280
I used to write diaries and journals, but it was

1768
02:28:06.440 --> 02:28:10.200
more for me. It's like shouting, isn't he hear that

1769
02:28:11.200 --> 02:28:15.680
in the background. It's not a very good answer. Let

1770
02:28:15.719 --> 02:28:17.120
me think about it a bit more. If I come

1771
02:28:17.239 --> 02:28:19.319
up before I think of anything else, I'll mention it

1772
02:28:19.399 --> 02:28:23.000
in the next recording. I might do a little bit

1773
02:28:23.000 --> 02:28:40.280
of research. So thanks everybody, Thank you. Going down the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean, Jackie,

1774
02:28:40.840 --> 02:28:46.239
Cindy and Dev. It's a marathon, wasn't it. There's a

1775
02:28:46.280 --> 02:28:50.120
lot of I don't know how long I've been talking for.

1776
02:28:50.200 --> 02:28:51.840
It's got to be nearly two and a half hours,

1777
02:28:53.680 --> 02:28:56.280
which means I'm not sure when this is going to

1778
02:28:56.360 --> 02:29:02.239
get edited. I'm literally this on a Saturday afternoon. I

1779
02:29:02.360 --> 02:29:06.079
know it's Friday Q and a Friday, but I was

1780
02:29:06.159 --> 02:29:11.319
got so caught up in building a website. But I

1781
02:29:11.440 --> 02:29:17.280
did start this. I thought I started it at three.

1782
02:29:19.799 --> 02:29:24.159
I definitely started it before four o'clock because I was

1783
02:29:24.159 --> 02:29:26.360
already at two hours. Last time, I went too a toilet,

1784
02:29:26.479 --> 02:29:33.559
so I had a break. Blimey's now seven minutes past six,

1785
02:29:34.239 --> 02:29:38.120
and there's boxing on at seven, so this might be

1786
02:29:38.200 --> 02:29:40.120
one of those Q and A Fridays that come out

1787
02:29:40.159 --> 02:29:46.079
on Sunday morning. I apologize kind of. I'll do a

1788
02:29:46.159 --> 02:29:50.760
little bit, just a little bit, so thank you. I

1789
02:29:50.920 --> 02:29:54.159
just didn't expect to get this many questions. I'm not pleased. Thanks,

1790
02:29:54.239 --> 02:29:57.360
but there's been times when I get like two questions

1791
02:29:57.440 --> 02:30:00.680
and I still managed to last that an hour or so.

1792
02:30:04.639 --> 02:30:08.079
So that's it. That is the end of this recording,

1793
02:30:09.920 --> 02:30:12.200
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to

1794
02:30:12.239 --> 02:30:16.079
yourself because you do deserve to be happy and be

1795
02:30:16.239 --> 02:30:26.799
gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,