April 25, 2025

(no music) Plaster of Calm | Let me bore your pain away #28 | Jason Newland | 25th April 2025

(no music) Plaster of Calm | Let me bore your pain away #28 | Jason Newland | 25th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. That's my website.

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My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you

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can safely close your eyes and welcome to Let Me

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Bore Your Pain Away. Now. This is specifically to help

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people with chronic pain, so you need to know the

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cause of the chronic pain and also have permission from

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your doctor before listening to this. This is not a

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replacement for any kind of medical attention, medical advice, or

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any kind of therapy therapy. Right that being said, It's

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just me, It's what I do. I just talk. These

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let Me Boil Your Pain Away recordings very similar to

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the let Me Boil You to Sleep. I just chat.

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Sometimes I go off the subject, sometimes I come back

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to the subject. Sometimes I focus occasionally. But the main

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objectiontive and instead of objection, the main objective is that

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how you feel now changes and you feel better at

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the end of it. You feel more relaxed, and you

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know if youse to gauge the level of discomfort physical

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discomfort from zero to ten, it may be higher than ten,

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maybe load and zero. If it's loading zero, you don't

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really need to be listening to this unless you just

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want to listen to relax more, but just gauge where

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it is now, that physical feeling, and then at the

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end of it we can do it again. You can

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just like see how you feel. And really the bottom

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line is is it useful. If it's useful, good And

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just let you know. I've got a little Jack Russell

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in the background chasing a fly. So you're gonna hear

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a little bit of scuffling about because it's amazing. If

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only I knew all the toys he's got, all the

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different things he's had. Nearly said that said the word

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t r e e e E t S. Luckily I

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didn't because he'd have been staring at me right now.

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All I need to do is just get him a fly.

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He'd have been happy. So yeah, he's just chasedn't it.

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So this isn't sleep. It's not a sleep recording. You

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may just find yourself getting bored and go to sleep

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just out of complete boredom, but it's possible. But it's not.

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It's not a sleep recording. It's just it's relaxing. Hopefully

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gentle calm in and you can listen to my squeaky

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voice and let your it's not even about letting your

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mind slow down or letting your body relax. It's kind

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of your body just does that anyway, and your mind

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generally just slows down when listening to me, because even

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though I personally think I've got a super exciting voice,

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not everyone agrees. I think i'd be quite good at

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commentating on a racing, you know, like a horse racing

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and stuff. You know, I feel me quite good. Yeah,

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Chepstow's running, and Horsey de Parke's next to it running,

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and Tony is a little bit ahead, and one of

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them is going to win. Probably, Yeah, one of them's won.

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How is that not exciting? So I try and have

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a particular idea to wrap your mind around in these recordings.

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Sometimes it's just vague and I just rab it on

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about my toenails or I don't know, something exciting like that,

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something relevant. But today I'm going to talk about pain

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being a protector, not a damage meter. Okay, so that's

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what I'm going to talk about. I had the inspiration.

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I was listening to a book earlier, and it reminded

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me of something that I've talked about before in probably

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one of my older recordings, maybe one of my most

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recent recordings because I don't know. I don't really listen

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back to most of them, but I may have the

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tender see to repeat myself. I don't listen to, you know,

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all my recordings by I think sometimes I do have

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the tendency to, so I won't. I'm just being silly.

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So the core message of this recording is chronic pain

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is a protector. It's not a damaged meter. So pain

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itself is there to protect you. It's there to let

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you know that you need to do something. Basically, and

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I'm talking from a lay person's perspective. I'm not an

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expert on anything. I think picking my nose is probably

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the only thing that I'm actually an expert out. But

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apparently you can't get a degree in that. It's not fair.

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I used to be quite good at cutting my toe. Now,

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don't get me started in tone now this is my

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favorite subject, but I just can't reach anymore. I just

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have to drop some dog food on my feet and

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home with Vinnie. Vinnie choosing naws off. That's weird. What

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a weird visual. Okay, let's move on from that. That

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didn't happen. And so also, lett you know, I do

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have a Facebook group called Jason Newlands Boring Group. It

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was two hundred and seventeen members. Now it's two hundred

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and sixteen. Someone's left, We're gone and we I've got

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a YouTube channel which is at Jason Newland, which is

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also my podcast, so I upload all my latest recordings

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on there. Now since I've been uploading all the podcast episodes,

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I'm getting less less views because I guess there's just

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so many. So I do six versions of each recording,

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and sometimes I do two recordings, sometimes even three a day,

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you know, at least one a day normally, although there

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are times when I don't do anything for a while.

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It depends on how I'm feeling. So I do six

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different versions, one without music, one with music, five and

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ten hours, both with and without music. Just gives you

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a choice, a choice. I try to stop doing so

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many a while back, but every time I cut back,

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someone said, oh, I prefer the ones. Prefer the one

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to five hour ones with music, or I prefer the

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ten hour ones without music or the ones without music.

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That you know, just like, different people like different things.

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So hopefully I've tried to cover as many bases as possible. Also,

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I do have a Q and a Friday that I

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do every Friday, which is basically I answer any questions

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that you have. You can go to my website Jason

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Newland dot com and there's actually a form you can

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fill in them there. It's just a question anything you

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want me to talk about, anything at all. If it's Southern,

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I can't answer, then I just won't answer it. But

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you know, I do try and cater to questions. Now,

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I'm wondering who's left the group. It might be someone

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who's just come off of Facebook. That happens sometimes, but yeah,

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I don't know. Honest, there's people. There's someone that joined

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invited seventeen hours ago. I've not invited anybody, but they're

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not in the They can view the group, but they're

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not actually a member of the group. So oh well, right,

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here's my premise for this recording. When the brain believes

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the threat is gone or at least safely controlled or contained,

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it just turns the alarm down. That alarm that that

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like meb beep, beep, beep. I don't know why I

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did a sound of an alarm because you probably know

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what the sound of an alarm is. I mean, they

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can have lots of different sounds, can't they rare rare boo.

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I suppose if I was to have an alarm after me,

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it would be, I don't know, a bit, a not

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very enthusiastic alarm. Oh someone's broken into the car. Oh,

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so Vinny's flapping his ears. He likes to be known.

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He likes to be everyone who's listening to a recording.

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I think he likes to be part of the recording.

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Sometimes he whinds, sometimes he hassles me. Sometimes he jumps

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around trying to get to a fly, which is what

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he's doing now, whether it looks like he's trying to

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get out of the front door or out of the

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living room door for some reason, but he's very focused

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on the fly still, so you'll hear that anyway. I

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we need to get on done it. Really, it's nearly

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the end of the recording already, and I haven't actually

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spoken about anything. So it's basically a very basic, single

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idea about when the threat isn't there, When you know

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that there's no threat, which is something you have with

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chronic pain, you know there's no threat. Acute pain is

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a different thing. You know, it's letting you know there's

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something and it's happening now, and it's something you need

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to do with Chronic pain is something that's it's a

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part of your body that's healed or as far as damage,

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you know, if you add an injury and something like arthritis,

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it's chronic pain. But it is kind of somewhere in

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the middle really in the sense of maybe you need

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to be careful that part of body. But at the

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same time, what use is that physical distress? What use

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is it to you if you're careful, you know.

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Like.

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It kind of comes to a point, so someone if

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you've got I've got arthrightis on my lower back. And

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I think the whole world's going to know about this

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at the end of these recordings because I keep talking

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about it. But that's it, Finny. Make a little bit

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more noise, thanks mate. When you know the cause and

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when you know you're actually okay and that it's just

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one of those things can't necessarily be changed. You can

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do exercise. I do exercise for my lower back. You

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may be able to make changes with diet. For example,

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I lost some weight because the weight was putting pressure

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on my back. That helped. So there's some practical things

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that your doctor or your therapist can tell you about

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that I can't tell you about. I can't give a

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device on anything like that. I don't give advice on anything.

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Isn't it weird? I just had the urge. I heard

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this screech outside, and I just had the urge for

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ice cream. Stranger the brain works, isn't it. So I'm

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going to start off focus in on a broken bone,

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for example, Finny, calm down, mate, catch it. If only

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he could fly. I think he's the only dog in

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the world that wishes he could fly. The fly literally

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has I think you might wish he was a fly.

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He's got such advantage over him. But I don't want

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it in the living room, though I don't mind if

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it's in the kitchen. I don't leave food out or anything.

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I'd rather not be in the flat at all. I

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don't want it in the bedroom. But I don't think

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it likes to go into the bedroom because it smells

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too bad. That's wrong. I shouldn't say stuff like that.

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It's very lovely in the bedroom, but you know you've

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got me and a that anyway, it doesn't seem to

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want to go in the bedroom for some reason. Sometimes

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it follows me into the bathroom and depends on what

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I'm doing. Sometimes it just leaves really quickly. I mean,

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I remember I was I closed the tour at the door.

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I was on the toilet and I could literally see

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the fly smashing against the window trying to get out,

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and I thought, why is it making so much noise?

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And I realized had this little hammer and he was

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trying to smash you the window. Help help It sticks

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like rude. So in the in the living room, I

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don't like him being in there because this is you know,

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if I've got a cup of tea, they've got a

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habit like just walking along the rim like I don't.

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I don't want to fly on my rim. Nah, I

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don't want that. So basically I like to keep the

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rim clean because my mouth's going on, isn't it. So

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I don't want a fly going where my mouth goes.

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And I'm pretty sure the flight doesn't want to go

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where my mouth's being either, which is rude. Again. So

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the idea of a broken arm, you break a bone.

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So I broke my wrist a few years back, fell

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out the bath. Not supposed to be funny, but I

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suppose it is by a funny scenario and wow, it hurts.

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So I go to the doctors. I go to the hospital, sorry,

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and have to have an X ray. I'm in there

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to be fair. Back then, because it was a few

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years back, about nine nine years ago, I didn't have

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to wait as long as the queues now. I mean

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when I fractured my back a couple of years ago,

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I was probably twelve thirteen hours in the A and E.

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But this time I was there for about six six

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seven hours, so I got seen fairly quickly, and it

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was it was broken. It's just simple as that. Yeah,

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it's broken. It's okay. So I went up to see

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the nurse or specialist or whatever in the bone category,

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the bone department, the broken wrist department, I don't know

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wherever it was, and they said you had two choices.

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I thought, brilliant. I actually thought he was going to

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offer me some biscuits. But nothing like that. It's I

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thought it was going to be a buffet. Will you

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stop jumping around Finney And I said to he said,

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well you can have it's broken. I said, yeah, I know,

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any biscuits and he said no, I said a bit,

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you have got some biscuits though, haven't you. He said,

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what do you mean? I said, well, you're sitting there

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beyond a desk, and you've got I know you've got

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a cupboard, at least one cupboard behind there, and I

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know that you've got a couple of drawers. There's a

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big desk, a couple of big drawers. You're telling me

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there's no biscuits, no kit kats, no chocolate, nothing. He said,

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why are you asking that? I said, I don't know.

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I just for some reason, I haven't eaten for ages

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because i've been you know, I've been waiting to have

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me on looked at. He said, well, you do have

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vending machines, you know. I said, I know. But if

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I go to the vending machine, I lose my seat.

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He said, why don't you get the person it's with

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you to save the seat. I said, I don't have

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anyone with me. He said, oh, haven't you got any friends?

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I said this, you can't say that to me. Have

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I got any friends? Unless, of course, you're offering to

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be my friend. He said, no, I'm not. I said,

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well it's rude. Then you shouldn't say have you got

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any I've got any friends? He said, I'm just just asking.

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I said why He said, because just now you know

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what it feels like. I said, Doc, what do you

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mean now? I know what what if? What feels like?

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Now you know what it feels like to be asked

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personal questions? What are you talking about? Would you ask

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me about my biscuit collection? You asked me about my chocolate?

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How many kit kats? How many packets of Jaffa cakes?

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And how many I mean even the Easter egg from

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three months ago there's not been opened yet that I've

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been saving for that, you know, Friday afternoon when everything's

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a bit when I've had just the most annoying customer coming.

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I think they're called peace, not customers. Customers, patience clients.

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Annoying people is that's all they are. You can't talk.

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You're a doctor. You're not supposed to talk like that

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to customer patients. You nearly said customers. I know it's

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because you said it. Ha ha ha. That wasn't even a

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real laugh, was it. Yeah, it was a real laugh. Listen, Doc.

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By the way, why do you keep saying, Doc? Oh,

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I know what you keep saying, Doc. Why go and

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enlighten me? If you think you know why. Yeah, the

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reason you keep saying, Doc, is so that people listening

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to this podcast know which persons speaking. Mm yeah exactly,

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because you instead of putting on different voices for each person.

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How it's hard to follow what it's the same voice.

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It's like just one voice talking to the same that

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voice right now, some people might be wondering who's talking now?

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Is it a doctor or is it you? I said,

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we were talking about podcasts. Said you're doing let me

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Boil your Pain Away. I said, no, I've not even

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started doing it. Let me boil your pain Away. I

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don't even know what let me Bore your Pain Away is.

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There's a branch off of Letting Boy to Sleep. I said,

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what's what do you mean let me boy to sleep?

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What's that? Is this your past? Your podcast? You've got

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like fourteen hundred episodes. We've been doing it for eight

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years or seven eight years? I haven't Oh, I know

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what you've done, Doc, what you've forgotten? What you are in?

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Huh?

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Well, this is twoenty fifteen, isn't it? Or so or

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two thousand and six. Thing. I didn't start doing the

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Let Me Boy to Sleep until twenty eighteen. In probably

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February or March, so it hasn't happened yet. And I

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didn't start doing that, letting me bore your pain away

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till probably good five years after that. And this recording

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I'm doing now where you're talking about your hidden stash

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of biscuits, even though we're supposed to really be talking

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about plaster. And you know how the body protects itself

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and you don't need to you can feel relaxed and

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calm and everything like that. You don't realize that the

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day that I'm doing this is in April, near the

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end of April twenty twenty five. It's nine years away,

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maybe even but not ten, maybe nine and a half

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years away. Are you sure it's nine and a half years. Yeah,

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I think I am, said Jason said me. I think

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I am, because when I fell out the bath, I

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I hadn't had the carpet hadn't been put down yet,

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and that happened within a month of me moving in,

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and I moved in April, so May. So yeah, it's

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probably around May time that I fell out the bath,

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nearly ten years ago. Wow, So it wouldn't really make

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sense with it. What do you mean, well, mister Newland,

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It wouldn't make sense that we would be talking about

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your podcast when you weren't making recordings back then. We weren't,

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you know, No, no, no, no, no, I was. Will

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you make your mind up? You just said twenty fourteen,

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twenty fifteen, whatever, you weren't making Let Me Boy to

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Sleep podcasts? Well, no, I wasn't, but I was doing recordings.

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I just was doing different things like what I don't know,

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what do you mean? You don't know? What were you?

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What were they called? What were the podcasts called? Well,

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they were just hypnosis stuff, you know, pay relief, relaxation recordings,

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sleep recordings, things like that. Oh, so, how long are

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you doing that for nine years earlier? Well, you've been

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doing this from two thousand and six, yeah, two thousand

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and six. And you don't remember what you were doing

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for the for that nine years before you started doing No,

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nine years two thousand and six, two thousand and seven,

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eight nine, ten, eleven, twil thirty four, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen,

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So sixteen years, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen twenty, that doesn't make sense.

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Next year will be twenty years. When did I start

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doing to Let Me Boy? You deceas the two thousand

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and six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, Twilve thirteen forty fifteen,

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sixteen seventeen, so eleven years. So I was doing eleven

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doing recordings for eleven years before I started doing to

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let Me Boy You to sleep? Well, that was a

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long sentence, missed new Land. Perhaps we should focus on

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your wrist or is it healed up now? Because it's

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been so long this conversation. Oh doctor, over there, that's

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beyond a desk with the white coat on. I don't

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I can't remember what we were talking about. You're talking

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about my biscuits supply. Oh no, I can't believe I

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mentioned it. Yeah, you're going to share them? Nope, why not?

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Because they're mine? But why can't you share them? Don't

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want to? Can't make me no, But it seems like

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it could be a nice thing to do. Isn't it enough?

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Isn't it enough that I'm talking to you, that I'm

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giving you the time of day? Rude? That? Yeah, even

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I knew that was rude and I said it, But

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it's you know, I'm not here to give biscuits out.

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You can get that in the shop downstairs. Fair enough, Okay,

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fair enough, By the way, why this is a little

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bit of a gap sometimes between when you talk and I talk. Yeah. Yeah,

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but if I've noticed it, maybe some of the other

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people notice it, which means it's not flowing quite so

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well as it could do it, You know what I mean. Yeah,

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but I don't know what I'm going to say next door.

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I don't know what I'm going to say when it's

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just me talking, But when it's two people talking, I

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haven't got a clue. M fair enough, all right, you're

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happy now? Yeah? Not really? Why? Well, the washing machine

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broke this morning. You have to get a new washing machine.

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I don't want to buy a new washing machine. I

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really did believe that washing machine was going to ask

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me a long time, but it just didn't. And that's

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all I've been thinking about lately. I said, you want

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to talk about it? He said, yeah, that would be nice.

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I said, well, find someone else. It's not what I'm

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here for. You want to share all your stories about

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your washing machine, but you won't give me any biscuits.

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I't give me a kit kat kit cat anyway. He

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offered me a brace. He said, you got two choices.

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You can have plaster of Paris, which I kind of

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wish I had now wish i'd gone for that, but

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oh well, or you can have it's the same thing,

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but you can take it off. So it's got metal,

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got like metal rodd in it, and you can put

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it on your wrist. It goes over your hand and

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your arm. Wear it during the day. You can take

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it off when you're resting. You know, you don't have

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to have it on all the time, but it protects

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your hand, protects your wrist rather and your arm. I

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thought cool, and that's why I had. I realized I

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went for that because it was kind of quite nice

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weather at this point. You know, it's May. It wasn't,

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I guess, so it's quite nice weather. Oops, there's a

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metal thing here and I don't know it's four, but

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I mean meaning to remove it for ages. I don't

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know why I don't, but every now and then I'll

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bang on it. I'll bang it and it's just like, oh,

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it doesn't hurt. It's not like I'm like, but it's

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this annoying a little bit annoying. So I chose that

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because the doctor said other than that he wouldn't give

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me any biscuits. He said that it's easier that I'd

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appreciate it more if I had the one that I

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could take off, because then I wouldn't have to worry

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about having an itchy arm, because after like a few

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weeks or I don't know however long, the arm starts

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to get a little bit itchy. If you've got plaster

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of Paris, is it plaster Paris? Was a plaster of Amsterdam.

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I don't know. It's plaster, isn't it. Anyway? It's not

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the same stuff you have on the wall, though, is it.

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I don't know what it is. Is it like bandages

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with glue? Isn't it kind of like that? Just bandages,

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but with glue stuck on, sticking them all together kind

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of and pain white. I mean, I didn't always want

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to have a plaster on my arm. It's not like

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a dream. But I thought, if I ever was in

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that position, it'd be quite cool to have one. But

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then I realized I'm not a school anymore, because at

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school people would want to write on it. I wouldn't

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necessarily see what they were writing until it was too late.

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But I realized that actually, at the age I was

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when I broke my wrist, there was no one that

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would want to write on it, and I didn't really

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know anybody. When I first moved around here, I was

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still going into town and meeting up with a couple

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of friends, but eventually that kind of fizzled out a bit,

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and if I want to see people, I closed my

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eyes and imagine them now I don't turn the TV on.

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But I didn't realize bad things I thought the cast was.

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It was almost like I needed the cast to set

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the wrist. And I'm sure there are you know, seriously,

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there are serious injuries which do need a cast. Literally,

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you know, it wasn't a serious break. If it was

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a serious break, that I might have needed a cast,

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but in this situation, it wasn't. Okay, it was just

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a broken wrist, so you know, I know that maybe

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some casts are required so that the arm doesn't move,

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and it was just like, you know, it's just the wrist,

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but being a habdle to take it off. I realized

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that the main thing it was doing it was supporting

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my wrist. It was supporting me and didn't really hurt

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much when I had it on, and it could get

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bashed and it didn't hurt because it was metal, and

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even the side that wasn't metal, was hard like padded,

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and I'd be going to town getting some sharp and

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I'd be bashing my wrist. It's amazing. I didn't realize

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I used to bash my wrist so often, but I

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was constantly bashing it on like the the chairs of

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the bus and stuff like that. And when I say that,

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I mean I wasn't walking up and down the aisle

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of the bus just banging my wrist on the chares,

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because that would be weird. But I didn't realize how

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quite how clumsy I was. And I remember saying that

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to a neighbor and said, you found out the bath.

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That should be a clue that you're a bit clumsy.

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It's kind of true. I mean in the past, since

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I think in the last few years, I have so

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broke my wrist. I broke my toes twice on once

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on my weights, another one on my weight bench. And

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I broke my foot and my toes and my foot

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another time when I kicked the wall in my sleep.

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That's not really that's not carelessness, is it. And then

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I broke my rib and twice I broke my rib,

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but not only once recently, and broke my hand, and

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I also fractured my back twice in two different places

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when I fell down the stairs. This is about just

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over two years ago, so it is. Yeah, I suppose

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I've had a few little accidents along the way, and

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that's about all the other things, the slips and the Yeah,

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it's kind of weird. I don't know what it is.

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So with the wrist, With my wrist, the one thing

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I noticed with broken bones is the difference between a

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broken bone. And this is just in my experience. The

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initial pain subsides when it's not broken. It kind of

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you know, that initial ah, kind of subsides when it's broken,

465
00:36:52.800 --> 00:36:56.960
that initial pain. It might go down a little bit,

466
00:36:57.000 --> 00:37:00.320
but it kind of stays at a high level. I

467
00:37:00.440 --> 00:37:04.599
was like, oh okay, And I realized that when I

468
00:37:04.599 --> 00:37:07.440
first broke my hand when I was a kid, well

469
00:37:07.719 --> 00:37:12.719
my kid, when I was at twenty four, and subsequent breaks,

470
00:37:12.719 --> 00:37:15.519
that's always the same kind of things, like it stays

471
00:37:17.400 --> 00:37:21.760
until it's looked at, until it's sorted. And so having

472
00:37:21.760 --> 00:37:25.519
that brace on my wrist really gave me a sense

473
00:37:25.599 --> 00:37:31.159
of safety. I'm going to say brace. I don't know

474
00:37:31.199 --> 00:37:33.079
what the right world would be, but like a brace

475
00:37:33.159 --> 00:37:35.400
thing with a metal bar in the middle of it.

476
00:37:38.880 --> 00:37:46.559
A sense of safety, which is quite nice. If anything,

477
00:37:47.519 --> 00:37:50.000
I was more protected than I was with my right wrist,

478
00:37:50.800 --> 00:37:54.400
because if I banged my right wrist on the metal

479
00:37:54.480 --> 00:38:00.159
railings above the seats on the bus, it'd hurt it.

480
00:38:00.159 --> 00:38:04.360
At my left wrist, it wasn't hurting because I had protection.

481
00:38:07.159 --> 00:38:11.480
I thought about going back to the the biscuit doctor

482
00:38:11.519 --> 00:38:13.239
and seeing if I get one for me right wrist,

483
00:38:14.960 --> 00:38:18.719
but he said no. He didn't say no, but I'm

484
00:38:18.760 --> 00:38:22.679
sure he would have said no, probably would have thought

485
00:38:22.719 --> 00:38:25.400
I was just after some biscuits and would have hid.

486
00:38:27.679 --> 00:38:37.639
So this sense of safety, this sense of comfort, this

487
00:38:38.719 --> 00:38:46.320
it took away the feeling, the concerned feeling that I had.

488
00:38:46.679 --> 00:38:51.800
The worry went like I wasn't worried anymore, kind of

489
00:38:51.840 --> 00:38:55.440
didn't even care. I find it. I found it mildly

490
00:38:55.480 --> 00:39:00.119
amusing that I had fallen out of the bath, and

491
00:39:00.480 --> 00:39:02.920
not at the time I didn't, but like afterwards, like

492
00:39:03.119 --> 00:39:10.719
telling people, and yeah, not one person seemed concerned. Everyone

493
00:39:10.960 --> 00:39:15.920
seem to find it funny. You fell out of the bath. Oh,

494
00:39:15.960 --> 00:39:18.840
well done, Vinny. That's a little bit loud, though perhaps

495
00:39:18.880 --> 00:39:24.920
you could do it without making so much noise and

496
00:39:24.960 --> 00:39:28.400
he's waiting for his he's got a delivery coming. I

497
00:39:28.400 --> 00:39:34.239
won't say the word out loud, but it rise with drones.

498
00:39:37.000 --> 00:39:39.320
B O w.

499
00:39:40.960 --> 00:39:56.360
N yes, oh, okay, okay, Vinnie were done.

500
00:39:58.320 --> 00:40:14.119
So I I kind of got that realizing, realizing that

501
00:40:14.559 --> 00:40:23.039
I could once having that sense of comfort, having that

502
00:40:23.159 --> 00:40:27.880
sense of it was almost like I didn't care, which

503
00:40:27.920 --> 00:40:31.840
is a weird feeling. But I didn't care because I

504
00:40:31.920 --> 00:40:38.400
wasn't worried. It was just a thing. I mean, it

505
00:40:38.400 --> 00:40:39.960
would have bugged me more of it with my right

506
00:40:39.960 --> 00:40:43.039
hand or my right wrist, because I'd have been more

507
00:40:43.159 --> 00:40:46.920
limited to things I could do. And that's not going

508
00:40:46.960 --> 00:40:49.239
in a weird direction. I'm just generally I'm right handed,

509
00:40:49.320 --> 00:40:55.519
so you know, it's although I do use my left hand. Again,

510
00:40:55.559 --> 00:40:57.880
it's not going in a weird direction. I mean I

511
00:40:57.960 --> 00:41:01.039
used my left hand for carrying things. I use my

512
00:41:01.159 --> 00:41:05.079
left hand for using a remote control. I don't know why.

513
00:41:07.159 --> 00:41:08.760
It's just the way it works out. It's just the

514
00:41:08.760 --> 00:41:11.559
way it is. Maybe I always have done. I use

515
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.639
my right my left hand when I'm on the phone,

516
00:41:14.039 --> 00:41:17.000
if I'm typing something into the phone, I use my

517
00:41:17.079 --> 00:41:21.000
left hand, or if I'm on the phone use my

518
00:41:21.039 --> 00:41:25.800
left ear, but I'm right handed, so I'm not ambidi

519
00:41:26.480 --> 00:41:32.559
indidixtrous ambidixtrousus in a sense of I can't write with

520
00:41:32.599 --> 00:41:37.119
my left hand. I can, but it's awful writing. Mind

521
00:41:37.119 --> 00:41:40.079
doing my right hand's not very good writing either. But

522
00:41:40.239 --> 00:41:42.159
some of the things that I do predominantly with my

523
00:41:42.239 --> 00:41:47.199
right hand I don't do with my left hand. Yeah,

524
00:41:47.239 --> 00:41:50.000
I don't know. It's weird. It might not be weird.

525
00:41:50.039 --> 00:41:56.639
It might just be absolutely normal. So there's something quite

526
00:41:56.719 --> 00:41:59.559
nice about having that protection. I suppose it's a little

527
00:41:59.559 --> 00:42:04.199
bit like having a scab. Weird word that it's scab.

528
00:42:05.119 --> 00:42:08.880
It's not a pleasant word, is its scab? But having

529
00:42:08.920 --> 00:42:15.199
that protection over a an injury, and it's weird that

530
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:21.960
like you know, you can back. Let's say you fall over,

531
00:42:22.840 --> 00:42:25.960
have a like a dent in your hand, and it's

532
00:42:26.039 --> 00:42:33.000
so all stingy. But at the same time, yeah, it's

533
00:42:33.039 --> 00:42:35.840
not really. It's like it initially like it hurts, and

534
00:42:35.840 --> 00:42:41.519
then like it's not something you're going to worry about,

535
00:42:41.599 --> 00:42:44.800
is it? Maybe clean it off, make sure the gravel's

536
00:42:44.840 --> 00:42:48.920
out if there's gravel, I mean not everywhere has gravel,

537
00:42:48.960 --> 00:42:55.280
but you know, clean it and then it just stings

538
00:42:55.280 --> 00:42:59.320
a little bit, but if you leave it alone, you know,

539
00:42:59.480 --> 00:43:04.079
it doesn't nothing really happening, But then it goes from

540
00:43:04.079 --> 00:43:06.679
being But if you do poke, it's sensitive. Why would

541
00:43:06.719 --> 00:43:11.480
you poke it? But you know if you did, and

542
00:43:11.519 --> 00:43:14.440
then a day or two days later, it's got a

543
00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:20.599
scab on it, a crust and you can literally just

544
00:43:20.679 --> 00:43:25.159
poke it nothing. You can flick it and nothing. You

545
00:43:25.199 --> 00:43:28.840
could get a pen and dig it in gently. I

546
00:43:28.840 --> 00:43:31.239
don't obviously don't want to put the pen you for

547
00:43:31.320 --> 00:43:34.400
your hand, but you can like and nothing, no feeling

548
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:38.000
at all other than just a little bit like when

549
00:43:38.039 --> 00:43:43.079
you've had anesthetic local anesthetic and you can feel the pressure,

550
00:43:43.159 --> 00:43:45.880
but that's all the pressure is just that's it, and

551
00:43:46.000 --> 00:43:48.440
pressure ang going to above you. It's just a sensation

552
00:43:48.599 --> 00:43:52.400
of being touched, that's it. But there's no feeling, there's

553
00:43:52.440 --> 00:43:58.679
no there's nothing but comfort there. Scabs are weird, I

554
00:43:58.840 --> 00:44:03.119
like your words, but you know it's just a strange sound.

555
00:44:03.719 --> 00:44:12.000
Scab but usefululdn't it? You imagine having that on your nerves,

556
00:44:12.079 --> 00:44:15.880
just the nerve endings for where the physical discomfort was

557
00:44:16.360 --> 00:44:20.039
and kind of just having like a scab just growing

558
00:44:20.079 --> 00:44:23.480
over those nerves or over that part of your body,

559
00:44:23.760 --> 00:44:27.320
like an invisible scab, really like a bit of skin

560
00:44:27.400 --> 00:44:30.559
that just grows over the top layer of the skin.

561
00:44:31.679 --> 00:44:35.320
You can't see it, but it just makes that part

562
00:44:35.360 --> 00:44:42.519
of your body. So it just feels fine. You can

563
00:44:42.960 --> 00:44:48.320
feel pressure if you poke it, but there's nothing else happening.

564
00:44:49.159 --> 00:44:54.239
And unless you do poke it, there's not really any

565
00:44:54.280 --> 00:44:57.119
feeling at all. It's just just there, like the rest

566
00:44:57.159 --> 00:45:03.880
of your body. Because how much of our body are

567
00:45:03.880 --> 00:45:08.599
we actually focused on from day to day? You know,

568
00:45:08.639 --> 00:45:14.800
it's like it's just there, isn't it, unless you do

569
00:45:14.960 --> 00:45:20.519
like mindfulness or it's a weird thing about it. Sometimes

570
00:45:20.760 --> 00:45:25.159
it does seem strange that in the past, there's been

571
00:45:25.199 --> 00:45:28.000
times when the only time I've really focused on a

572
00:45:28.000 --> 00:45:32.599
part of my body is when I'm using it, or

573
00:45:32.639 --> 00:45:36.320
maybe when it's injured. See, I don't really notice my

574
00:45:36.400 --> 00:45:41.280
feet or my ankles, but you know, the tops of

575
00:45:41.320 --> 00:45:43.920
my feet, I don't take any notice of them. But

576
00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:50.440
I broke my foot. This is wow, fifteen years ago whatever,

577
00:45:51.239 --> 00:45:54.239
And so I broke the top of my foot really

578
00:45:54.440 --> 00:46:00.119
quite Oh God, that was hard work, that was. But

579
00:46:00.159 --> 00:46:03.239
it's like I didn't even notice that it was there.

580
00:46:03.519 --> 00:46:06.159
I knew I knew I had a foot, not like

581
00:46:06.199 --> 00:46:07.840
I didn't know that foot was there, but I just

582
00:46:07.880 --> 00:46:11.599
didn't pay any attention to it. And a bit like

583
00:46:11.639 --> 00:46:15.159
a hang now, you know, something so little like ow,

584
00:46:15.760 --> 00:46:19.239
there's a hang now, but then it's gone and it's done,

585
00:46:19.280 --> 00:46:22.840
and it's like a day later. It's kind of just

586
00:46:22.880 --> 00:46:30.440
how it was before. It's kind of strange. The body

587
00:46:31.159 --> 00:46:36.119
is sometimes when we over focus on one part, we

588
00:46:38.320 --> 00:46:40.400
potentially you can ignore the rest of the fit as

589
00:46:40.440 --> 00:46:42.639
the body, but the other the rest of the body

590
00:46:42.639 --> 00:46:46.000
has also got feelings. It might be nice feelings, it

591
00:46:46.079 --> 00:46:51.440
might be just neutral feelings, might be really pleasant feelings,

592
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:57.840
might be a sense of comfort, relaxation, tiredness maybe and

593
00:47:01.199 --> 00:47:06.599
m hmm, if we it's making me jump with all

594
00:47:06.639 --> 00:47:09.599
he's jumping around, I don't want to put him in

595
00:47:09.639 --> 00:47:11.760
the bedroom on his own because by first of all,

596
00:47:11.760 --> 00:47:16.559
he he'll probably bark and he doesn't he doesn't like

597
00:47:16.559 --> 00:47:18.199
to be away from me. I mean, can you imagine that,

598
00:47:18.239 --> 00:47:24.760
can't you? Because I'm I'm super exciting to be around.

599
00:47:25.440 --> 00:47:29.119
But sometimes it feels like there's there's a there's a

600
00:47:29.159 --> 00:47:34.840
certain amount of feeling for the body, and when that

601
00:47:35.079 --> 00:47:38.199
energy is taken, I'm not not understand. It's like I said,

602
00:47:38.280 --> 00:47:40.639
there's a probably infinite amount. But you know, in a

603
00:47:40.719 --> 00:47:43.800
day to day setting, in a day to day moment,

604
00:47:44.800 --> 00:47:47.039
you've got a feeling that you can have in your

605
00:47:47.079 --> 00:47:52.960
feet and your legs, your shoulders, your arms, your fingers,

606
00:47:53.159 --> 00:47:58.440
your hands, your your bum, your back, your stomach, chest,

607
00:47:59.480 --> 00:48:04.440
your face, your eyes, your jaw, all those different places

608
00:48:04.559 --> 00:48:07.960
on your body. There different places that you may have.

609
00:48:10.119 --> 00:48:14.480
It seems a little bit of a shame to give

610
00:48:14.519 --> 00:48:20.039
all the energy to just one part, you know what

611
00:48:20.079 --> 00:48:23.800
I mean. I mean there are times when given all

612
00:48:23.800 --> 00:48:27.239
that energy and focus to one part is very pleasant.

613
00:48:28.199 --> 00:48:33.159
And I'm talking about eating really, but there are other things.

614
00:48:33.199 --> 00:48:35.360
I suppose it's been such a long time. I can't

615
00:48:35.400 --> 00:48:41.159
remember any other pleasures, but you know, having a nice meal,

616
00:48:41.360 --> 00:48:44.679
or for me, it would be something sweet like a dessert,

617
00:48:45.559 --> 00:48:54.679
chocolate clare, something like that. There's just the pleasure, absolute pleasure.

618
00:48:55.079 --> 00:48:56.719
But the rest of my body is not doing anything.

619
00:48:56.760 --> 00:49:01.400
I'm just sitting there with my eyes closed, rubling. Okay,

620
00:49:01.400 --> 00:49:05.760
don't I do spill it all over myself, though not

621
00:49:05.840 --> 00:49:12.880
completely accidentally. I find really, if you get neighbors knock

622
00:49:12.920 --> 00:49:16.280
on your door, they stop knocking Eventually, if you keep

623
00:49:16.320 --> 00:49:20.239
answering a door covered in food, eventually they just don't knock.

624
00:49:21.159 --> 00:49:23.280
So that's what I do. I like to I've got

625
00:49:23.280 --> 00:49:25.320
a certain t shirt that I put on when I eat,

626
00:49:25.840 --> 00:49:30.599
and I just have it hanging up on a Basically,

627
00:49:30.599 --> 00:49:34.920
it's on a it's in the window in my kitchen window,

628
00:49:35.000 --> 00:49:37.960
and it's just hanging up above the window. It's like

629
00:49:38.000 --> 00:49:41.519
a scarecrow, really, And whenever I get a visit her,

630
00:49:41.559 --> 00:49:43.440
I put it on and I answer the door like that.

631
00:49:43.519 --> 00:49:47.400
And no one ever wants to stay. Most people don't

632
00:49:47.400 --> 00:49:51.639
want to winter. So that's good. None of that's true,

633
00:49:51.679 --> 00:49:58.719
but it sounds like it could work. Wow, is the

634
00:49:58.760 --> 00:50:04.599
man with a smelly, dirty food covered shirt, like, Yeah,

635
00:50:04.840 --> 00:50:07.519
all my other clothes are clean, tidy, but I just,

636
00:50:07.679 --> 00:50:16.599
you know, maybe so yeah, do we need? Do we

637
00:50:16.679 --> 00:50:23.880
need anything but comfort? If you know something's protected, you

638
00:50:23.960 --> 00:50:26.000
know that part of that part of your body is safe.

639
00:50:28.960 --> 00:50:35.239
Emphasizing you know, the fact is that part of your

640
00:50:35.239 --> 00:50:44.280
bodies now has its own cocoon. Any dangers soothed, all

641
00:50:44.480 --> 00:50:52.760
signals dimmed. And although you know, in the case of

642
00:50:52.760 --> 00:50:57.199
a broken bone, it may not have healed yet, but

643
00:50:57.280 --> 00:51:06.480
the hurt that's already eased because you're protected. You know

644
00:51:06.559 --> 00:51:13.840
you're protected, and that outranks that raw sensory data that

645
00:51:13.880 --> 00:51:16.440
you had before when you were looking at something and

646
00:51:16.440 --> 00:51:21.960
you're sending that signal of oh, and that that was

647
00:51:22.360 --> 00:51:24.360
a signal of danger. That was my sound for it.

648
00:51:25.400 --> 00:51:29.480
But it's not danger, is it? Danger is not necessary.

649
00:51:30.440 --> 00:51:33.000
You know, if you saw someone, if you saw a

650
00:51:33.039 --> 00:51:37.480
small child running up to you with a sword, Okay,

651
00:51:38.119 --> 00:51:40.519
there's a big difference between the way that you would

652
00:51:40.519 --> 00:51:44.400
react if it was an actual metal sharp sword or

653
00:51:44.440 --> 00:51:47.599
a plastic sword that little kids should be you know,

654
00:51:47.599 --> 00:51:49.920
if they were going to be having a sword, you're

655
00:51:49.920 --> 00:51:55.159
going to react differently to the two different scenarios. If

656
00:51:55.199 --> 00:51:58.119
it's a plastic sword, you're just going to giggle and

657
00:51:58.199 --> 00:52:00.920
laugh and like run around, Oh, get me, don't get me.

658
00:52:02.119 --> 00:52:03.599
If it's a real sort do you have to get

659
00:52:03.599 --> 00:52:07.639
your gun out, don't you? So, no, you don't. Don't.

660
00:52:07.679 --> 00:52:15.000
Don't shoot kids, please. So that did go in a

661
00:52:15.000 --> 00:52:22.519
different direction. So this is just I'm just shooting the breeze,

662
00:52:24.559 --> 00:52:34.719
just shooting the breeze. So with things like with chronic pain,

663
00:52:35.239 --> 00:52:39.000
the tissue may be fine, but the alarm system over

664
00:52:39.119 --> 00:52:45.920
sensitive doesn't need to be reduce that sensitivity because you

665
00:52:46.000 --> 00:52:49.360
know it's fine because you've done what you need to

666
00:52:49.360 --> 00:52:56.519
to keep it safe. You know, if you've got let's say,

667
00:52:56.519 --> 00:53:02.480
if I had arth rice in my foot and I

668
00:53:02.639 --> 00:53:08.679
decided to go and kick a ball around, I'm probably

669
00:53:08.719 --> 00:53:11.599
not going to enjoy it. My foot's not going to

670
00:53:11.679 --> 00:53:15.519
enjoy it because that's not what my foot is for anymore.

671
00:53:16.480 --> 00:53:20.599
You know. It's like those days sometimes about just accepting

672
00:53:20.639 --> 00:53:24.400
I think person for my own self. Personally, I've had

673
00:53:24.400 --> 00:53:26.440
to give up some stuff because of my lower back.

674
00:53:27.760 --> 00:53:31.199
I used to do martial arts in the past. It's

675
00:53:31.239 --> 00:53:32.679
never any good at it, but I used to like

676
00:53:32.760 --> 00:53:36.960
doing it. But I can't do that stuff anymore because

677
00:53:37.000 --> 00:53:43.519
of my limited there's a limit to my flexibility and

678
00:53:43.559 --> 00:53:46.159
when it comes to bending over and stuff like that,

679
00:53:47.000 --> 00:53:54.920
and it's really difficult and if I ignore it, and

680
00:53:54.960 --> 00:53:58.719
if I go ahead and do it anyway, I yeah,

681
00:53:58.960 --> 00:54:03.079
it's not good. Although I can lift weights in order

682
00:54:03.159 --> 00:54:07.119
to certain weight training can help strengthen it, and I

683
00:54:07.239 --> 00:54:11.519
do some stretches, do squats which the physiotherapist told me

684
00:54:11.559 --> 00:54:14.679
to do, but there's certain things I can't do. I

685
00:54:14.679 --> 00:54:20.519
can't run because it jolts my back. So there's certain

686
00:54:20.519 --> 00:54:24.079
things I can't do anymore like that I can walk,

687
00:54:25.320 --> 00:54:28.119
but you know, there's just certain things I can't do,

688
00:54:28.360 --> 00:54:33.679
and I can accept it or not accept it for me.

689
00:54:35.320 --> 00:54:40.360
And I can't remember any time in the last thirty

690
00:54:40.440 --> 00:54:45.760
years when I thought I've woken up in bed and

691
00:54:45.800 --> 00:54:47.440
I've jumped out of bed and thought, you know what,

692
00:54:48.440 --> 00:54:52.039
I go for a run. That hasn't happened for a

693
00:54:52.119 --> 00:54:54.280
long time, so I'm not really missing out on anything.

694
00:54:54.920 --> 00:54:56.480
And when I could do with probably a bit more

695
00:54:56.519 --> 00:55:00.320
blood circulation, but I get a little bit that when

696
00:55:00.320 --> 00:55:06.400
I walk up the stairs. But these are quite like

697
00:55:06.480 --> 00:55:08.679
these A couple of phrases are quite like when the

698
00:55:08.760 --> 00:55:13.679
danger feels distant, the sirens powers down. The siren powers

699
00:55:13.719 --> 00:55:19.000
down when the danger feels distant. It's a little bit

700
00:55:19.119 --> 00:55:21.000
like because there's a lot of weird things happen around

701
00:55:21.079 --> 00:55:24.800
here where I live, and if I hear an ambulance coming,

702
00:55:24.960 --> 00:55:28.960
I think, oh no. And I used to, especially with

703
00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:31.360
my friend downstairs, I was like, oh no, because we'd

704
00:55:31.400 --> 00:55:34.599
have the ambulance come quite regularly and I'd get worried.

705
00:55:35.079 --> 00:55:39.599
Oh no. So I'd hear it in the distance, getting louder.

706
00:55:40.159 --> 00:55:43.159
But because it go there's a main road that goes

707
00:55:43.280 --> 00:55:46.480
past where I live, the estate where I live, So

708
00:55:46.559 --> 00:55:50.000
it got louder and louder. And then I knew if

709
00:55:50.039 --> 00:55:53.079
it's come onto this state, because it would get louder.

710
00:55:53.119 --> 00:55:55.119
But then they would kind of shut it down a bit.

711
00:55:55.800 --> 00:56:01.000
But you could hear it getting closer. But when it

712
00:56:01.079 --> 00:56:04.239
goes past the estate gets loud, and this starts to

713
00:56:04.320 --> 00:56:09.880
go down again and go lower as it gets further away,

714
00:56:09.920 --> 00:56:13.840
and the danger signals gone, that danger in my brain like, oh,

715
00:56:13.920 --> 00:56:17.400
hope my friend's okay. Or maybe it's another friend, you

716
00:56:17.440 --> 00:56:20.000
know that lives a lot close by. Hope they're okay.

717
00:56:20.400 --> 00:56:25.559
Another neighbor, Maybe it's someone that I see when I'm

718
00:56:25.559 --> 00:56:28.400
walking Vinnie, you know, because quite a few elderly people

719
00:56:28.440 --> 00:56:31.440
around here as well. It's like and it kind of

720
00:56:31.920 --> 00:56:38.079
oh that's nice. It's good. And if I hear a

721
00:56:38.119 --> 00:56:41.440
police siren or like it gets loud off it, I'm no,

722
00:56:42.760 --> 00:56:45.360
I know, Oh, where I need to hide all the money.

723
00:56:45.360 --> 00:56:46.719
Where's it going to go? I need to hide the

724
00:56:46.760 --> 00:56:49.159
money from the bank job. But then I hear it

725
00:56:49.199 --> 00:56:53.760
go down, like, oh, that's good because I like to

726
00:56:53.880 --> 00:56:56.719
use the big stack of two or three million, just

727
00:56:56.760 --> 00:57:00.000
as a table. It's quite nice, nice little take you.

728
00:57:04.880 --> 00:57:07.079
And you know, I think like when it comes to

729
00:57:07.199 --> 00:57:11.119
knowledge is kind of neural first daid. I quite I

730
00:57:11.199 --> 00:57:17.239
like that that idea, because there's no way am I

731
00:57:17.280 --> 00:57:19.719
saying oh sor just in your red or just yourd No,

732
00:57:21.159 --> 00:57:22.639
I don't know all that stuff, or it's just in

733
00:57:22.679 --> 00:57:24.800
your brains or its just in your red. You know.

734
00:57:25.400 --> 00:57:29.440
We feel what we feel, that's the bottom line. But

735
00:57:29.519 --> 00:57:32.320
maybe we can change how we feel, and then you

736
00:57:32.360 --> 00:57:34.599
still feel what you feel, but you feel different to

737
00:57:34.639 --> 00:57:38.320
the way you felt before. So I don't think it's

738
00:57:38.360 --> 00:57:45.239
ever helpful to dismiss anybody's personal experience, whether it's physical,

739
00:57:45.320 --> 00:57:50.920
whether it's emotional, therapeutic, you know, just like no, we

740
00:57:50.960 --> 00:57:53.400
feel what we feel, but what we feel what we

741
00:57:53.480 --> 00:57:59.599
feel can change, and sometimes new knowledge can be a

742
00:57:59.719 --> 00:58:05.000
new first aid or a physical first aid. An emotional

743
00:58:05.039 --> 00:58:08.719
first aid could change the way you feel about something

744
00:58:09.880 --> 00:58:14.519
when you change the way you think about that thing.

745
00:58:19.159 --> 00:58:24.360
Another thing is I don't know if you can remember

746
00:58:24.360 --> 00:58:25.800
when you was a kid. I remember when I was

747
00:58:25.800 --> 00:58:29.400
a kid, and it's a long time ago. I've got

748
00:58:29.800 --> 00:58:33.239
a few memories. It's about one hundred years ago. Now,

749
00:58:36.320 --> 00:58:47.840
there was a safety safety in just getting some attention.

750
00:58:48.760 --> 00:58:52.559
You know, I'd fall over. My mum or my stepmum

751
00:58:52.599 --> 00:58:57.039
would like come over and maybe just rub it or

752
00:58:57.760 --> 00:59:01.840
kiss it, kiss my knee or whatever. I'd feel. I

753
00:59:02.360 --> 00:59:08.320
feel brilliant. I mean, you know, once it was a

754
00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:11.719
bit weird. I did need medical attention when it's blood squirting.

755
00:59:11.760 --> 00:59:13.719
It went all over her face. It was wasn't good.

756
00:59:14.199 --> 00:59:21.519
But you know, I can't say that, oh I good.

757
00:59:22.119 --> 00:59:29.280
I can't say that, oh so, yeah, it was.

758
00:59:31.480 --> 00:59:38.239
Sometimes feeling safe is enough. Feeling safe is enough, knowing

759
00:59:38.320 --> 00:59:43.480
you're safe. I mean I talked about in the past

760
00:59:43.480 --> 00:59:47.559
about car alarms. A leaf hits a bonnet and the

761
00:59:47.599 --> 00:59:54.159
car alarm goes off because it's too sensitive. So you know,

762
00:59:54.679 --> 00:59:59.199
lower the car alarms sensitivity tonight, you still want it

763
00:59:59.239 --> 01:00:01.760
to be there. It still has to be there. In fact,

764
01:00:02.000 --> 01:00:05.880
you can't get rid of the car alarms, you know,

765
01:00:06.239 --> 01:00:10.599
in the analogy we have we have those feelings for

766
01:00:10.639 --> 01:00:16.559
a reason, but it can be lowered. The sensitivity can

767
01:00:16.599 --> 01:00:21.440
be lowered. Or you've got like the smoke alarm overreacting

768
01:00:21.440 --> 01:00:25.480
to burnt toast. You know, the house is on fire.

769
01:00:25.519 --> 01:00:28.280
It's just burnt toast. If that is not even, it's

770
01:00:28.320 --> 01:00:34.960
not a lie, it's just burnt. The alarm goes off,

771
01:00:36.079 --> 01:00:40.280
I would run into the kitchen, or would walk. I

772
01:00:40.280 --> 01:00:43.320
don't really run anymore, but I don't live. It's not

773
01:00:43.360 --> 01:00:45.679
a big place that I live, so I can. I

774
01:00:45.719 --> 01:00:47.440
can run into the kitchen, but I'm not going to

775
01:00:47.519 --> 01:00:52.519
get there much quicker than if I just walk, so mountsteps.

776
01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:57.920
So I'm not against running. I'm just you know, there's

777
01:00:57.920 --> 01:01:00.320
no point running. And also I've got a little dog.

778
01:01:00.400 --> 01:01:03.599
You know, he's always looking for a way to trip

779
01:01:03.599 --> 01:01:07.639
me up. I know he is. He puts booby traps

780
01:01:07.719 --> 01:01:11.599
all over the place, like bits of string between doors,

781
01:01:13.480 --> 01:01:18.199
bear trap, just all kinds of stuff. But you get in,

782
01:01:18.320 --> 01:01:20.559
you look, it's like it's just smoke, just smoke from

783
01:01:20.599 --> 01:01:27.800
the toaster. Turn the smoke alarm off. Done, there's no

784
01:01:28.280 --> 01:01:33.679
the alarm's gone off. It's being dealt with and that's it.

785
01:01:34.880 --> 01:01:38.920
Smell the toast, thank the alarm, then quiet, turn it off.

786
01:01:41.920 --> 01:01:48.960
Even think of like a security guard with binoculars or

787
01:01:50.000 --> 01:01:54.760
I think sometimes I see this with people that do.

788
01:01:55.280 --> 01:01:59.719
If you live in a certain way, you start to

789
01:01:59.760 --> 01:02:06.239
see things in a certain way. And you know, like

790
01:02:06.239 --> 01:02:10.199
a security guard of binoculars, he once saw danger now

791
01:02:10.239 --> 01:02:13.280
as he sees it everywhere, you know, but then as

792
01:02:13.440 --> 01:02:20.000
to train himself to tell a difference between shadows and intruders.

793
01:02:20.280 --> 01:02:23.119
So maybe you know, someone did try and break into

794
01:02:23.159 --> 01:02:27.679
the building he was protecting he was securing, which is

795
01:02:27.719 --> 01:02:31.559
something that might never happen in someone's thirty year career

796
01:02:31.559 --> 01:02:35.800
as a security guard. Might never happen, might happen once,

797
01:02:36.400 --> 01:02:40.039
unlikely to happen anytime, but if it did happen, it's

798
01:02:40.119 --> 01:02:43.159
very unlikely to happen again. So it's again kind of

799
01:02:43.159 --> 01:02:47.000
trying to get himself to realize that that's one of

800
01:02:47.039 --> 01:02:51.920
those just anomalies and it's probably not going to happen again.

801
01:02:52.880 --> 01:02:56.039
So you can tell a difference as a shadow, you

802
01:02:56.079 --> 01:03:00.519
can just like calm down. I talked yesterday about balloon,

803
01:03:03.800 --> 01:03:06.199
like a blow up thing that was like moving around

804
01:03:07.280 --> 01:03:14.159
being blown around by the air thing what they call it,

805
01:03:14.639 --> 01:03:18.400
not air conditioning, air conditioning, and it set the alarm

806
01:03:18.440 --> 01:03:24.559
off and his finger was dressed up as a person,

807
01:03:24.639 --> 01:03:28.559
and that it freaked me out. But in the end

808
01:03:28.599 --> 01:03:34.519
to realize it was just a blown up human. It

809
01:03:34.559 --> 01:03:38.559
was like a doll and it didn't bother me anymore.

810
01:03:42.760 --> 01:03:46.000
Still got in a cupboard, so you've got other things.

811
01:03:46.079 --> 01:03:50.360
Thermostat stuck too high. This happened with my with my

812
01:03:51.000 --> 01:03:56.679
neighbor opposite me. The thermostat broke, so is heating all

813
01:03:56.719 --> 01:04:00.559
through the winter, he had no heating. He didn't tell anyone.

814
01:04:02.159 --> 01:04:05.559
He told me in I say, all through winter. But

815
01:04:06.320 --> 01:04:13.079
I found out probably January and I got onto the council,

816
01:04:13.199 --> 01:04:17.000
got someone out and they fixed it. It might have

817
01:04:17.000 --> 01:04:19.400
been February, but they fixed it. But it'd gone all

818
01:04:19.400 --> 01:04:25.440
the way through. And it'd been like that for I

819
01:04:25.440 --> 01:04:28.840
don't know, maybe a year six months. It would come on,

820
01:04:30.000 --> 01:04:32.000
but it'd come on for like an hour in the

821
01:04:32.000 --> 01:04:35.440
evening and then it go off and maybe an hour

822
01:04:35.440 --> 01:04:38.440
in the morning. So it wasn't like an eyebot when

823
01:04:38.480 --> 01:04:40.719
it was an ice box. To be fair, it's really

824
01:04:40.760 --> 01:04:42.880
cold in there. So he did have some hot water.

825
01:04:43.880 --> 01:04:46.639
Actually no, he's had hot water. Didn't affect the hot water,

826
01:04:47.039 --> 01:04:49.719
but it did affect the heating. So the heating at

827
01:04:49.719 --> 01:04:52.000
this point it was coming on just once in the

828
01:04:52.039 --> 01:04:56.000
evening for about an hour between like seven and eight

829
01:04:56.119 --> 01:04:59.239
or six and seven, and the place he had a

830
01:04:59.280 --> 01:05:07.360
hat on loves pair of skis no parachute, but you know,

831
01:05:07.480 --> 01:05:10.119
generally he seemed like he was ready for the outdoors.

832
01:05:11.239 --> 01:05:13.360
And I went in there like, this is too cold.

833
01:05:13.559 --> 01:05:18.960
Turn the heating on. I can't. It's broken, Finny. If

834
01:05:18.960 --> 01:05:20.519
you keep doing this, I'm going to get your toe

835
01:05:20.559 --> 01:05:26.320
nails cut because it keeps scratching on the carpet. So

836
01:05:27.760 --> 01:05:32.079
we've got the firm stat fixed. Now that's fine. It's

837
01:05:32.159 --> 01:05:36.159
not stuck anymore. And sometimes that's something needs to be

838
01:05:36.199 --> 01:05:42.079
done like that. And the last one is an annoying dog,

839
01:05:43.400 --> 01:05:49.199
loyal but loud, and you know, a barking dog. What

840
01:05:49.280 --> 01:05:52.719
I do with him is try and calm him down

841
01:05:52.760 --> 01:05:59.239
by just stroking him and just being calm looking at him.

842
01:05:59.360 --> 01:06:01.880
If he looks at me, I say no, I point

843
01:06:01.920 --> 01:06:08.199
my finger like not at him, but like s and

844
01:06:08.239 --> 01:06:10.239
I stroke him and comfort him, and he kind of

845
01:06:10.280 --> 01:06:18.239
calms down, or sometimes just ignores me. He just I said,

846
01:06:18.480 --> 01:06:21.719
calm down, and he says, no, you're not my real dad,

847
01:06:21.760 --> 01:06:24.639
and he runs off. But you know, quite often it well,

848
01:06:24.760 --> 01:06:35.239
sometimes it works. I've got some metaphors and metaphors, so

849
01:06:35.360 --> 01:06:40.639
things like is one plaster of calm each breath adds

850
01:06:40.679 --> 01:06:44.159
another smooth layer. So you imagine every day that goes

851
01:06:44.280 --> 01:06:51.559
past another layer of kind of plaster, invisible plaster, or

852
01:06:51.599 --> 01:06:53.920
you could say a scab, even although it's just a

853
01:06:53.920 --> 01:07:02.440
weird word, covers that area, allowing you to breathe, allowing

854
01:07:02.480 --> 01:07:07.480
you to feel calm, and allowing you to feel more comfort.

855
01:07:12.039 --> 01:07:14.320
I don't think I quite like the idea of is

856
01:07:14.360 --> 01:07:17.960
it really comes from watching the Wizard of Oz. Do

857
01:07:18.000 --> 01:07:22.480
you know the the iron is it the iron Man,

858
01:07:25.039 --> 01:07:30.719
the iron Man, the wood chopper is the iron Man,

859
01:07:30.840 --> 01:07:35.079
mittleman whatever he you know, when he's stuck and they

860
01:07:35.119 --> 01:07:39.199
put the oil into his joints and he can move again.

861
01:07:39.760 --> 01:07:41.639
I quite like the idea. I do that with my

862
01:07:41.679 --> 01:07:44.920
lower back. I just imagine that it's got some oil,

863
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:48.679
some lubricant put in there, and it's just made it

864
01:07:48.920 --> 01:07:53.039
move a little bit more smoothly. And I do it

865
01:07:53.079 --> 01:07:56.920
on my right shoulder because I've got ah, I've got

866
01:07:57.000 --> 01:08:00.440
you know, had an injury like chronic shoe with my

867
01:08:01.000 --> 01:08:06.519
right shoulder for about BlimE me fifteen years, no, but

868
01:08:06.840 --> 01:08:11.519
nearly twenty years actually, And just imagine, you know, when

869
01:08:11.559 --> 01:08:16.199
it gets a little bit stiff, just imagine it being

870
01:08:16.319 --> 01:08:23.000
oiled like melting butter just like rubbed over the bones

871
01:08:23.000 --> 01:08:26.560
and in between the joints, and it feels nice, nice

872
01:08:26.600 --> 01:08:37.199
and warm and lubricated like a liquid cushion. There's lots

873
01:08:37.199 --> 01:08:42.319
of different things that you can remember. You can remember

874
01:08:42.359 --> 01:08:48.079
the physical feelings lives. All physical feelings live in a

875
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:54.960
nervous system, not in muscles or bones. So when your

876
01:08:55.359 --> 01:08:59.560
nervous system and when your body moves towards safety, the

877
01:08:59.640 --> 01:09:06.760
muscle follow, the bones follow. Wherever your mind goes, your

878
01:09:06.800 --> 01:09:11.920
body also follows. So when you focus on feeling relaxed,

879
01:09:13.279 --> 01:09:25.800
your body also becomes more relaxed. I mean, it's just

880
01:09:25.840 --> 01:09:31.079
a standard remembering. This is something I like to do.

881
01:09:31.520 --> 01:09:35.760
It's more for I guess relaxation. But I like to

882
01:09:35.920 --> 01:09:39.199
just sit there and when there's nothing else going on,

883
01:09:39.359 --> 01:09:41.760
I can just focus on my breath. I don't try

884
01:09:41.800 --> 01:09:45.760
and control it. I just notice it. And when I

885
01:09:45.800 --> 01:09:51.039
breathe in, I breathe in comfort. I whant I breathe out.

886
01:09:51.680 --> 01:09:56.199
I exhale any tension or stress from my body or

887
01:09:56.239 --> 01:10:03.880
any other physical discomforts, and I breathing comfort, maybe healing

888
01:10:04.520 --> 01:10:06.840
whatever I want it. It could be a color sometimes,

889
01:10:06.880 --> 01:10:12.880
like healing energy entering into my body there's things like

890
01:10:13.479 --> 01:10:20.199
going to the toilet. Imagine tension discomfort leaving my body

891
01:10:21.319 --> 01:10:27.680
when I go to the toilet. Sometimes when I'm in bed,

892
01:10:28.039 --> 01:10:31.159
I imagine the bed sending healing energy into my body,

893
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:34.800
into my back, my lower back, into my whole body.

894
01:10:37.000 --> 01:10:39.720
Just have this image in my head that it's a

895
01:10:39.760 --> 01:10:43.000
healing bed. So when I lay down in it, my

896
01:10:43.079 --> 01:10:49.760
body all almost automatically relaxes, and that healing energy just

897
01:10:49.960 --> 01:10:57.960
moves through my body. Sometimes if it needs next to me,

898
01:10:58.279 --> 01:11:00.800
when I'm on the settee, put my hand on his

899
01:11:00.880 --> 01:11:06.039
back and I imagine that he's healing me, that he's

900
01:11:06.039 --> 01:11:11.800
sending relaxation to me, And sometimes I do it the

901
01:11:11.840 --> 01:11:15.439
other way, so we're sending relaxation and healing to each

902
01:11:15.439 --> 01:11:31.520
other and connecting in that way. So it's about safety,

903
01:11:31.560 --> 01:11:42.520
I guess, feeling safe and realizing that you are safe.

904
01:11:42.680 --> 01:11:47.199
And that is the end of this recording. So thank

905
01:11:47.239 --> 01:11:51.000
you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because

906
01:11:51.039 --> 01:11:55.760
you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

907
01:11:57.319 --> 01:12:06.920
You deserves to feel safe. Lots of of Bye