April 11, 2025

(no music) Let me bore your pain away #19 | Jason Newland | 11th March 2025

(no music) Let me bore your pain away #19 | Jason Newland | 11th March 2025
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Hello, and welcome to a very sunny day outside. The

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window's open because it kind of needs to be, really,

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but there's a lot of lawn mow inaction going on

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and people in the gardens coffee and stuff, so just

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let you know. There's a bit of background sound. But

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this is not a sleep recording. This is let Me

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Boil your Chronic Pain Away number nineteen.

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I do believe.

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So. My name is Jason new Land. I'm sure it

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sounds like do Land new Land. My website is Jasonnewland

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dot com. Please only listen when you can safety closer eye.

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Only listen to this or so when you know the

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cause of the chronic pain, and only with the permission

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from your doctor. Okay, So let me boil your pain away.

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It's very similar to the let Me Buoy You to

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sleep recordings I do, except it's a little bit more focused,

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slightly more focused, And all.

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I ask is really one question, is it useful? That's all.

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Only listen to these recordings if they're useful. So really,

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what I would say is, first of all, I'm going

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to ask you to focus on one part of your

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body that has been causing you physical discomfort and gauge

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where it is on a scale of zero to ten,

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from being zero to being ten, which would be a

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big ouch, big yelly ouch. And then you can notice

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how it feels at the very end of the recording,

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which may be twenty minutes, maybe half an hour, maybe

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an hour. I really don't know at this point. And

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I'm just going to talk to you about some ideas

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that you could use two change how you feel. And

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I've become very interested in quantum theory lately, and just

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the idea that you know, when you really go down,

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when you with a microscope and you really go further

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and further and further and further, and magnification to the

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point of atoms and all that stuff. It's it's all

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invisible to us. But that's what makes our existence. That's

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what makes us. Then he stop whining. Please mate, you've got.

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Your food, Then you've got your water.

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Well, he's just jumped on the SETTI he's going to

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go to sleep.

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I think.

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He's been to sleep all morning in the bedroom. I

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think he.

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Probably wants to go through it. W A L K

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L l K. So's we will.

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We'll do that in a minute venue when we finished this,

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we'll do that.

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Thing you like. So when you think that actually this

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because you know, if you.

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Look at your hand, for example, like you can look

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at it as always a hand.

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I mean, what else are you going to say? It's

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going to be a hand, isn't it?

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But when you break it down into particles, it's not

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solid at all in reality from a minute perspective, and

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it's just a bunch of particles.

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And that.

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Gap between you know, where you are and the wall

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or the tree or wherever you're looking, where it's empty,

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it's not empty. It's just as full of particles as

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we are. It's a strange concept. Really, I've tried to

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get my head around it. I mean, this isn't new stuff,

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but I've not really given it a lot of thought

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in the past. But I'm interested in some of the

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things that may be useful in a sense of helping

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to change your physical sensations and mine as well, to

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be fair, And that seems like a good use of

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this information. So when you consider each body part it's

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just a bunch of particles, then that physical sensation that

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you're not particularly wanting to experience anymore is also just

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a bunch of particles spinning chaotically. Now you can just

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imagine as you zero in on that physical cool sensation

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and something weird happens. I noticed this about twenty five, no,

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twenty two years ago. I think it was twenty one

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years ago. It's not really that important how long.

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Ago it was.

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But there was two thousand and four, I was meditating

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and my knee was really hurting, really hurting, and it

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was basically just due to the meditation. I was still

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trying to meditate on a cushion and didn't really have

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the knees or the flexibility to do that. But I

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kept at it for about two years, three years in fact,

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until I just decided I was going.

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To sit on a chair. But what I did is.

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I think I was on my lunch break because I

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was working in a shop downstairs. The Buddhist Center was upstairs.

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It was a Buddhist run shop. It to charity. It's

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a gift shop called Evolution. So I go upstairs for

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my lunch break. I've already had my sandwiches during the

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day anyway, so I didn't need to take that time

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to eat, and I'm in the shrine room meditating.

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At the time.

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I was going for a lot of anxiety and panic

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attacks and stuff, which is why I got involved in

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the meditation to start with back in November two thousand

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and two. So I was really there for that reason.

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But what I noticed is I had this.

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Pain in.

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I'm not going to say my left knee. It could

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have been my right knee, but one of my knees.

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It was just you know, it wasn't like at the

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top of the scale. It wasn't like a souper ouch,

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but it was definitely ah, yeah, it was like maybe

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four or five like this is yeah, this is very uncomfortable.

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So what I did is I thought, I'm going to

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focus on it.

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As I'm there with my eyes closed, I might as well.

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It's a good kind of environment to be focusing on things.

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And I was probably doing the mindfulness of breathing meditation,

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where you just count the breaths. So what I did

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is I just you know, I mean, you've got their

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mindfulness of breathing and you've got the body scan, and

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I decided to go back to the body scan and

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just focus on the knee. What I noticed, and this

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is a bit weird, is while I was focusing on

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the knee, my anxiety just wasn't there. Now, if I

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didn't know, if I didn't know what was causing the

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knee to be giving me discomfort, I imagine just knowing

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how I was, my anxiety would have really gone up.

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But I knew simply just because I was crossing my

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legs and that's why I was hurting. So I felt

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quite relaxed. But at the same time I had two options,

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you know, really sit through it. Well three options, sit

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through it, go and sit on a chair, or just

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get up and do something else. Well, actually there's loads

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of options. I could have laid down, or I could

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have just started got up and started juggling. But you know,

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there's lots of different things I could have done, gone

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for a run. But I decided just to sit there

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and focus on that part of your body that's causing

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the problem.

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So focused on that.

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And I've never done this before because it seemed the

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opposite to what is normal to do.

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You know, I was very much.

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Of the mind of distraction that I think that was

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my my more. Yeah, that's the way my mind went

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back then, very much do something else to distract from

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that discomfort. I'm usually at the time, I was really

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more dealing with emotional discomfort than physical discomfort. So I'd

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be distracted myself with things and doing stuff in order

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to distract myself from my thoughts and my emotions. Now

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I'm not saying I don't do that anymore, but i'd

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do it less than I used to, So distraction was

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my I guess relaxation and distraction were the two things

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that I would use in order to try and calm down.

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But on this occasion, I thought, I'm just gonna prad

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prod it with my mind in a way. I'm just

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going to explore it because I knew it wasn't anything serious.

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I knew it's just for me.

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I've had issues with my knees ever since I was

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a kid because I should do karate, and I think

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I kind of damaged my knees and my toes a

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little bit during that period. And I also stood it's ridiculous.

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I can't believe I'm telling you this. When I was eight,

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I was really into Shaken Stevens.

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He was a singer.

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Now you might not know who he is, but he

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was the most successful recording artist in the eighties in

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the UK. Like above everyone, he was the number one

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record It's like single recording artist, not the biggest band,

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but the recording artist and Shaken Stephens throughout the whole

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of the eighties, and I loved him. He was around

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in the late, you know, in the seventies as well.

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I fell in love with him probably in the seventies,

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and so when I was eight or nine or whatever,

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I used to have posters of him, and he was

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already famous for that point, but he became even more

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famous in the early eighties. So I used to do

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his dance and he was kind of like a our

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version of Elvis in a way. Just it was where,

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what's nice? Nice of the helicopter to go pass just

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as we're.

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Doing this. Thanks. He used to wear.

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Denim a bit like I suppose Elvis in Jowhouse Rock,

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that kind of get up. I'd have a denim jacket,

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tight Jenny Dennim jeans.

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I'm not sure if he had.

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Blue suede shoes, but he had those kinds of you know,

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that that kind of stuff, and probably a white T shirt.

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And he had his hair and a quiff like Elvis

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did in his early days, and he was brilliant.

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Loved him. I wasn't the only one.

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Millions of people loved him and still do that love

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does not end just because he's now ninety or whatever.

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And I'm eighty and I still still love him. Lord,

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And there's only one. There's only one sacand Stevens.

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And even though I'm.

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Slightly older than I was back then, you know, I

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still got a place in my heart just like all

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the other bands and musicians and TV shows from when

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I was a kid. So he did this thing where

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he would This is the boring part, by the way,

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you know, in case you're wondering what you were mildly

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interested them in it ago and now you're talking about

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shaking Stephens dancing. Oh yes, there's more to come. So

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this this is part of the boring. Your look, the

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bottom line is how do you feel? How do you

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feel different? And how do you feel at the end.

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That's what this is about. I'm going to talk about techniques,

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but I'm not expecting anyone to do anything, but something changes,

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and that's what this is about.

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And that's why.

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People listen to them, I guess, because people do listen

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to these recordings who go figure out.

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I don't know why, but they do.

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So I what was I said? Oh yeah, I was

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at this I couldn't even tell you what kind of

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party it was. I think it was a wedding disco.

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So we didn't go to the wedding, I don't think,

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but me and my family. So I had my two brothers,

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maybe my little brother, but it was tiny who went

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to this wedding and I was dancing. I don't think

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they played any shaking Stephens, but that didn't matter because

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I danced like shaking Stephens regardless of who was playing.

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I even I'm pretty sure the bride and groom when

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they got home and maybe went on their honeymoon, it

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was like, sounds so romantic, Yes, so romantic, And I'm

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so glad I married you the most beautiful man, and

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you're the most beautiful woman, You're the most beautiful whatever.

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So so glad we got married. And what's the most

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romantic part for you? I think just seeing you walk

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down the aisle. That was just nice. It's just yeah,

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just I just knew. I realized that I fall in

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love with you every time.

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I see you. Soppy, soppy, soppy.

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And what's your most enjoyable part, what's the most romantic part? Well,

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I think it's when we had the first dance, and

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I had you in my arms, and I looked into

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your eyes and I looked down and I saw this

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kid doing a Shaken Steven's dance, and yeah, so I'm

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probably in there in a few photographs on some's wedding album.

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I wasn't wearing Ordnum, but I see I like to

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go a little bit further. I was in content with

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Shaking Stephens dance. I needed to push it. So he

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used to go down, but he'd go quite low down

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with his knees and then he'd like spring back up

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and he'd be thrusting his hips and moving his knees around.

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You know, it's very like you know, jadaus Rock kind

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of thing, but a bit more possibly a bit more movement.

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I went further and I dropped to the floor on

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my knees, like smashed my knees on the floor, and

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then jumped up and spun around and then looked around.

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Two fan woman was watching. There's always occasional person a

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bit concerned about whether I know I needed an ambulance,

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but generally it hurt. But I was a little kid

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and I didn't care. I thought, well, I'm going to

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suffer from my art I might not have actually thought

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those exact words when I was nine, but did I

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say nine or nineteen? Anyway, it went off for a while,

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not the wedding. The wedding party didn't go on for

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ten years. That would be weird. So I I think

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I kind of ruined my knees. And I did that

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for a few years, constantly dancing and dropping to my

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knees and smashing them on the floor, and then yeah, yeah,

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it's not good. Another time I went I had an axe.

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This is true as well. I don't might sound like

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I'm making it up. There a tree at the bottom

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of the garden. This is probably when I was about

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eleven twelve, and my dad had us in the garden

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cutting down trees and stuff and doing whatever, and so

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he gave me an axe to cut down that tree.

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So the thing is, it wasn't like a sharp axe.

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It wasn't sharp enough, and it slid off the tree

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and landed on my knee. That wasn't sharp enough to

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cut my knee, but it smashed into my knee and

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it was a heavy, heavy thing. So I mean, it's

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good that it wasn't super sharp. Although I did have

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trousers on or I had jeans on. No, I didn't

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deny I had shorts on. So it went right in

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my knee, but.

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It didn't.

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Didn't cut it, but it really bruised it, so that

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might not have helped. And then there was a time

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when I fell out of a helicopter. I'm just just joking,

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making it up. So, but all the other stuff's true,

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not relevant, but true. So I kind of knew that

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it's like just it's anything, it's not ah.

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So I'm sitting there.

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In my attempted cross legged position and I've got one, two, three, four,

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five different cushions trying to just get comfortable. I had

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another friend who was about six foot six, and he

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would do the same thing, but he needed the cushions

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because he was so big, his legs were so long.

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And we was in a I remember we was in

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a meditation group and they're probably about thirty people. He

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fell asleep and he fell off his cushions. It called

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a domino effect, and half the people fell over. They

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knocked each other down. It was very funny.

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And so.

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Knowing what it is, like, it's just just my knee,

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there's there's nothing to be concerned about, which.

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In a way.

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You know, if you know what it is, you know

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what the cause is, and you know that it's you

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don't need that danger signal from your brain, then it

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almost you could say, half the physical discomfort straight away,

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half's the energy that it's not needed.

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So that that was quite nice.

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So my knee just it did reduce to the point where,

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like I still would probably want it to go away,

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but I was more intrigued, not the knee, but the physical.

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Feeling.

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I was intrigued, and I thought, Okay, I can enjoy

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the pigeons. It's all part of the new therapeutic technique

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I'm using. Some people use really beautiful you know background music,

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and I use pigeons. How well, No, I do have

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music as well in some of the recordings. So I've

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got I'm focusing on my knee, and I'm thinking, okay,

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where is it?

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Where is that? I search for it? That fee then

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and there's.

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The you know, there's the obvious, the voice in my

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head saying, was a knee in it? Like sarcastically, okay, yeah,

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but where is it? It's an old saying. I don't

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know where it came from, but it's a feeling. But

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can you hold in your hands. Can you hold a

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feeling in your hands? You may argue or left. If

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it's in my hands, I can. But I couldn't hold

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the feeling that was in my knees in my hands.

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It wasn't like a physical thing that I could actually hold,

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like water or dust or a pizza. It could be

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an action man figure, there's lots of different a bit

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of coal, headphones in whatever, could be any object. But

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it was just a feeling. So I thought, hmm hmm,

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I'm just gonna observe it and just see if I

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can find it. Because then again the brain, my brain

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winning of course you can find it.

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You know where it is. It's there. I said, okay,

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let's go look for it.

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Then this is where it went weird because the more

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I looked for it, I noticed it. It's almost like

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it started to hide from me, like it was a

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game of hide and seek or hide and go seek,

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whatever you call it.

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I never realized. It took years before I realized that.

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My brother's never looked for me when we did played

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hide and seek. Whenever I hid, I thought I was

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doing really well because I never got found. They weren't

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looking honestly, they just leave me for ages. Once I

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missed the whole Christmas. So I'm looking for this feeling,

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realizing it's not an actual thing. It's not a physical thing.

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I don't mean the knee, but the feeling isn't an

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actual physical thing. It's just a feeling, just a sensation.

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And I'm thinking, well, why can't I find it? Because

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every time I sort of looked, it seemed to move

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or it transformed a bit. So I decided to go inside.

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The knee with my mind.

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Obviously I don't know, I wasn't doing surgery on myself,

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so I just just looking inside with my mind, going

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inside the feeling, and the feeling kept moving. So I'd

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chase the feeling and I'd follow it, and every time

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I followed it, that feeling reduced. Eventually I was able

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to actually go inside the feeling, right inside it, and

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you know what, I found.

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Nothing.

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There was nothing there, no physical sensations whatsoever. It was

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just absent of anything. And the more I looked, the

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less I found, maybe that that physical sensation is a

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bit like me as a kid. The longer I stayed,

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longer I stayed hid, the longer I stayed hid the

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less chance of me getting found. I mean, maybe maybe

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my brothers did look for me for a minute and

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then got bored. So either that feeling is so well

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hid that we just can't find it anymore, or when

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you go inside it you realize that there's nothing there.

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And it was a really weird situation to realize that

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actually buy I guess in my mind going into the molecules,

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going into that actual physical feeling. I'm not sure if

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there was a pigion in the background singing to me

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at the time, but it changed, genuinely changed, transformed into

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something else. But what it transformed into was almost like

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nothing like. It was just.

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Very weird.

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It struck me as being a bit strange. So for

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the next couple of years, probably a few years, I

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used to play around with this idea, with this technique,

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and whenever I got a bit of an ache or

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pain caused by maybe working out or caused by something

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just I mean, especially because I've got an injury in

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my right shoulder, used to use it in there and

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it would disappear because you get to a point where

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it's not there anymore, because what you're looking for when

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you go inside, it's not inside looking for something you

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can't actually hold in your hands, like varuka powder. I'm

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just trying to think of an object you can hold.

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In your hands.

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A bottle of aruka powder is probably a bit weird. Yeah,

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gurbal feed, pack of six cello tapes. I don't know,

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but you know, I'm just saying something you can hold

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in your hand. And then you got it just went.

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It's like there wasn't there. It's not like it just

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like some dramatic mute.

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There was no music. Did di di di, and it

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vanished like a magic trick.

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It just just wasn't there.

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It's a bit like.

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The other day I was searching all around the flat

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for my dignity, could not find it. It's long gone

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any kind of dignity I used to have. So but seriously,

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this this is kind of I found it interesting.

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So I used to play around with it and whether

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it's the focus.

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Because it's the opposite to what's expected. Because sometimes you

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can say, well, yeah, the reason it's causing so much

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discomfort be you keep thinking about it. Yeah, But it's

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a different type of thinking, isn't it. It's thinking about

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it but not wanting it. Once you welcome it once

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you actually focus on it in a sense of Okay,

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I'm coming in to visit.

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It changes.

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I found that kind of fascinating, and I suppose that

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sort of fits in with the whole quantum energy sort

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of thing, because you know, there's the idea of physical

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sensations as quantum particles spinning chaotically, and then maybe by

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focusing on it, they start to just spin harmoniously, a

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lining into a soothing and balanced the rhythm that radiates

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comfort and relaxation. So it can change how you feel,

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just with not just a focus, but a certain type

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of focus, maybe a focus of intrigue interest. Just I mean,

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sometimes that can be the difference that makes a difference

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when you go into a situation you're about to observe something,

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instead of already having an agenda and already having an opinion,

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to go on with an open mind and to be

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interested in how that part of your body is going

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to feel different, and to do something maybe you've never

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done before is to almost welcome it. And it's something

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to be said for thanking that part of your body

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when maybe up till now you may have been cursing it.

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Maybe thanking it for looking after you, the caring for you,

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thanking it for all it's done, your whole life for you.

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These are just little ideas that may be useful or

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may just be boring, maybe a little bit of both,

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a little bit of each. But when we look at

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something almost like a microscope, the most powerful microscope on

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the planet, inside your mind, realizing that the fact is

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we're just molecules particles, and there's a gap between all

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of us, all the different molecules and particles. There's a

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gap between them, and you go into that and there's

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a gap between them, and it just goes on and

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on and on. Something's moving quickly, something's moving slowly. So

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I'm going to test this on myself now on my

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lower back. Although to be honest, my lower back is feeling,

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you know, relatively okay. It's sitting down seems to not

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always do it the best for me when I'm sitting

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at a desk. It might be my posture, I don't know.

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But so I focus on my lower back and it

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seems to be a bit of like an attitude thing,

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But I actually focusing on my lower back with an

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open mind, with a degree of friendliness towards that part

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of my body.

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There seems to be.

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A warmth, a warm feeling arises, like a warm greeting maybe.

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And what I'm going to do is focus on my

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lower back and start straight away with the part that

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has the most physical sensation. You know, maybe it's a pulse,

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maybe it's a throb maybe it's just like a sharp

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feeling for yourself that is.

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But with me, it's.

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It's kind of I can I almost feel that it

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goes inward.

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The feeling I'm going to go in myself. I'm just

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going to focus on that one spot in my mind.

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And also physically, so physically focusing on that spot in

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my lower back. I was going to call this fine

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focused therapy back in two thousand and four.

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Straight Away, it's.

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It's reduced, it's I don't know if it's moving. What

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I do notice this is a weird thing that I've

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noticed happens. I mean, normally I would do this without talking,

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so be a bit quicker for me. But I notice

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sometimes when I focus on it and it's really really relaxed,

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sometimes feels a bit itchy, like inside the skin, like

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the feeling has been replaced with a non itch that

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necessarily needs to be scratched, just a feeling, like a

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slight itch, but not irritating, just a comfortable.

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I suppose.

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And after scratchy itch, like once she scratched it, it's like, okay,

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once it's been rewarded. So I'm trying to get the

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feeling back, but it's not coming back. I'm searching for it.

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It's almost like it's become like me as a kid hiding.

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It's a very good hider. I found a lesser feeling.

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So I'm going to go inside of that lesser feeling

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and follow see where that leads me. I'm just going

485
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inside that feeling. That's just relaxed my back even more.

486
00:41:20.480 --> 00:41:23.880
I'm so relaxed. I feel like I can just hear

487
00:41:24.079 --> 00:41:32.119
like a plane going past. Oh this is Oh, it

488
00:41:32.199 --> 00:41:38.480
is a plane. And I don't always hear a plane

489
00:41:38.480 --> 00:41:45.920
every time I feel relaxed. I mean, that would be weird, unless,

490
00:41:45.960 --> 00:42:00.199
of course, a lift like never a plane station. Oh

491
00:42:00.280 --> 00:42:07.400
that that's quite so. Now what I've noticed is the

492
00:42:07.400 --> 00:42:13.280
physical thing that I had. It's now some of it

493
00:42:13.360 --> 00:42:18.360
is tense, not the bits of relaxed, the bits of

494
00:42:18.480 --> 00:42:21.519
relaxes to relax, but some of the other stuff is

495
00:42:21.679 --> 00:42:27.599
just it's transformed from being discomfort to just being a

496
00:42:27.599 --> 00:42:32.840
little bit, a little bit tense. So I'm going to

497
00:42:32.920 --> 00:42:42.480
focus on that tenseness, on the muscles, the fibers, and

498
00:42:42.639 --> 00:42:52.920
just focus on that for a few seconds. I mean,

499
00:42:52.960 --> 00:43:01.039
you can ask just like, please relax. As you focus

500
00:43:01.119 --> 00:43:05.480
on that part of you, please relax. Well, you can

501
00:43:05.559 --> 00:43:09.840
just focus on it because it will just automatically relax,

502
00:43:10.960 --> 00:43:24.679
become loose. I suppose I could thank my lower back,

503
00:43:25.960 --> 00:43:30.920
thank you for all you do, thank you for all

504
00:43:30.960 --> 00:43:37.039
that you've done over my life. Always been there for me,

505
00:43:40.119 --> 00:43:51.960
and I appreciate you. Inside of the pigeons, that's weird,

506
00:43:52.039 --> 00:43:56.559
my lower backs that are really relaxed now. I don't

507
00:43:56.599 --> 00:44:02.000
know if it was the pigeons that did it. Maybe

508
00:44:02.000 --> 00:44:08.719
the pigeons need to have their own podcast Relaxed with Herbert.

509
00:44:09.840 --> 00:44:14.639
He's the main pigeon. He's got his family. There's Gertrude,

510
00:44:15.599 --> 00:44:21.199
his wife, and he's got three kids, Paul, Stephen, and Arnold.

511
00:44:24.079 --> 00:44:28.880
But I only really know the father, really, I don't

512
00:44:29.079 --> 00:44:34.800
know the others. Gertrude won't talk to me anymore because

513
00:44:36.519 --> 00:44:37.400
it's ridiculous.

514
00:44:41.320 --> 00:44:42.960
I borrow a frying pan.

515
00:44:42.880 --> 00:44:45.519
And I didn't I didn't really I didn't return it

516
00:44:45.800 --> 00:44:48.400
in the exact same condition as she linted to me.

517
00:44:50.800 --> 00:44:56.880
Pigeons and their frying pans. I said to her, Look,

518
00:44:58.239 --> 00:45:00.719
you're not supposed to wash up frying pans all the time,

519
00:45:01.360 --> 00:45:04.599
put salt in them. If go into any professional kitchen

520
00:45:06.880 --> 00:45:10.880
and they put salt in the frying pan, and you know,

521
00:45:10.960 --> 00:45:14.559
don't keep washing up or walking water and washing up liquid.

522
00:45:20.960 --> 00:45:22.639
Say she knows I'm talking about.

523
00:45:24.559 --> 00:45:25.079
All right.

524
00:45:28.440 --> 00:45:32.039
She was saying, Yeah, it's my washing pan, my frying pan.

525
00:45:32.679 --> 00:45:34.960
If I want to wash it up with washing up liquid,

526
00:45:35.000 --> 00:45:38.440
I can. It's up to me if I want to

527
00:45:38.559 --> 00:45:40.679
wash if I want to use stinging that as I will,

528
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:44.280
it's up to me. It's my frying pan, not yours.

529
00:45:44.840 --> 00:45:48.440
I lend it to you with good intention. She's still

530
00:45:48.480 --> 00:45:59.920
going on, all right, okay, however, she's willing to forgive

531
00:46:00.119 --> 00:46:06.840
me if if what I didn't get that last part.

532
00:46:09.480 --> 00:46:13.960
Oh well, the one time I actually want the pigeons

533
00:46:14.920 --> 00:46:16.000
to start talking to me.

534
00:46:16.960 --> 00:46:17.320
Nothing.

535
00:46:20.559 --> 00:46:25.480
I guess you'll get back to me later. I hope

536
00:46:25.519 --> 00:46:32.239
she doesn't write me another letter. You ever try to

537
00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:45.480
read pigeon, it's really hard. So I think there's something

538
00:46:45.519 --> 00:46:49.400
to be said for distraction is a good thing, can

539
00:46:49.440 --> 00:46:52.880
be a really good thing, a distraction technique. Sometimes I

540
00:46:52.880 --> 00:46:56.320
think people listen to me because I'm distracting. You listen

541
00:46:56.360 --> 00:47:00.639
to me talking about whatever nonsense and it comes out

542
00:47:00.639 --> 00:47:06.000
of my mouth, and it can be a distraction, a

543
00:47:06.039 --> 00:47:09.000
little bit of a rest, a little bit of a break,

544
00:47:10.840 --> 00:47:15.679
a slight holiday. I've run out of a vacation from

545
00:47:15.719 --> 00:47:18.639
trying to think of other words that mean the same thing.

546
00:47:20.840 --> 00:47:27.199
So that was a big old bang outside in the garden.

547
00:47:28.119 --> 00:47:29.000
I wonder what that was.

548
00:47:31.199 --> 00:47:36.079
So just notice how you feel now, zero to ten

549
00:47:36.199 --> 00:47:41.760
on the old scale. Where do you feel with that

550
00:47:41.880 --> 00:47:47.840
part of your body now? And I'm going to leave

551
00:47:47.840 --> 00:47:51.440
this recording, so thank you for listening. Remember to be

552
00:47:51.519 --> 00:47:54.559
kind to yourself. And if it was useful, please let

553
00:47:54.599 --> 00:48:00.199
me know. Lots of love by