Sept. 4, 2025

(no music) I’m Retired | LMBYTS #1428 | Jason Newland | 4th September 2025

(no music) I’m Retired | LMBYTS #1428 | Jason Newland | 4th September 2025
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Hello, and welcome to let me buoy to sleep. My

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name is my name, and name and nime and him

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is Jason Newland. Yeah, I hope you will. Just thought

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I would do it. It's time for bed. I mean,

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it's like eight minutes past ten pm in the evening,

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so please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Vinny, Viny,

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what are you staring at? I know what it is

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because I'm now at the desk rather than sitting down.

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It's easier to talk when I'm in a chair than

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when I'm kind of laying back. We're not laying back,

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but reclining. It's a little bit more easier on my

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throat or on my neck because I'm not kind of

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leaning forward. If that makes any kind of sense. It

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did to me when I said it, and then after

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I said it, I wasn't so sure. Oh so, I'm

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still working on getting stuff organized in my flat. The

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progression I've made today is it's Thursday, the fourth of

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September two thy twenty five. So what did I do right?

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I've moved the bookcases into the storage room and I've

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filled them with my supplies for the future. So I've

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got washing up liquid, soap, deodorant, and washing clo you know,

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laundry tablets, Pooh bags for Vinny face wipes, bum wipes. Well,

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I'm trying to think what else mm hmm, toothpaste, mouth wash.

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I think that's most of the stuff. So I've been

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kind of trying to stock up for or at least

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the winter, because it's that's what I used to do

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years ago. I'm talking you know, six seven years ago.

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Maybe six years ago, maybe seven years I don't know,

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but i was proper organized for a little while, and

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I'm trying to get back to that a little bit

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because I don't know. I just I just want to

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know that whatever happens, I've got enough toll it role

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enough you know, basic stuff. I mean, i can't eat

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any of this stuff. But I've also got enough tea

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bags hopefully to last me till Christmas as well. But

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then I only have like four, one, two, three, four

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cups of tea a day. So each box has got

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at t bags and so that's what's that twenty days.

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I've got five boxes in a pack, so twenty times

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by five that's one hundred days. And I've got three

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packs or four three packs, so I got three hundred days. Wow,

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that's nearly a year, isn't it. BlimE me. I just

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have to drink more tea. I guess Finny's over there

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doing his thing. I well, thanks, Vinn. He's looking, he's searching.

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I don't know what he's searching for. He's searching for something. So, yeah,

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what I've done is now moved the two desks or

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the tables to the left side of the room because

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I've now got my TV on the wall and my

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sofa is the other side of the wall or the

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other side of the room. Rather or done possibly looking

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to get rid of that, replace it just with a

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chair and then but that's a future thing. So I've

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now got one table against the wall the opposite wall,

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and one table so it's facing the wall, the other

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one's facing the TV. There's like a gap where the

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chair is so I can just kind of move around

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between each table. I had a similar design a few

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years back, which was the other side of the room.

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See me saying that side of the room and to

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the left of the room and the other side of

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the room doesn't really mean much, does it if you

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don't know what the room looks like. But personally, I

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would say it's definitely opened up the room. How many

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more times I can say the word room, room, womb.

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But I'm not finished yet, so i still got a

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lot more to do, and as far as the tidying

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up goes. So I've got still got some stuff in

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here which I can move, I'll be able to move out.

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And then yeah, there's a few little bits. Got a

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lot of wires, a lot of wires. I would like

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to get that sorted. Not big fan of wires like

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straggling around, very messy, So I might look at try

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and get that little bit to get it taped up

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or something I don't know. And then yeah, what I've

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also done is I've got with it my website. I

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just don't need a website, however we're that might sound,

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I just don't need a website just if no. I mean,

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it's handy in some ways something that I prefer to

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use it than the podcasts, but most people use the

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podcast to listen rather than on the website, so it's

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helped me to keep my expenses down. So I've got

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rid of that. Looking at other things changes, I'm going

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to pretty much come to the decision that I'm going

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to retire from making all podcasts except this one. Then

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let Me Boy to Sleep. And I've had a good

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little run nineteen years, but I think I'd like to

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focus on this, you know, try and do a regular

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daily let Me boy to Sleep. Perhaps, if I'm lucky,

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you know, in the coming future, perhaps I'll be able

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to actually do some things which would be worth talking about.

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Have something mildly interesting. I mean, I understand it's a

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boring podcast, but or it's interesting to me might not

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be interesting to you. So I might be talking about

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what great time I had searching, you know, going through

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the field searching for worms, and you might find it

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completely tedious to listen to it and fall asleep. Now,

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I don't know, It's all it depends, doesn't it. And

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then I saw this Facebook page for It's a chronic

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pain condition, and there was someone was talking about why

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does he have to find the noisiest thing to crunch

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on when I'm doing a recording. It literally is the

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noisiest possible thing. It's like, God, dear idea ubah hm.

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I forget what I was saying now. Yeah, but it

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nice to be able to go and do things. Oh yeah,

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I was. I was on Facebook and I saw this

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chronic pain Facebook group. Just me. It makes me feel

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a bit nostalgic because, by the way, if you think

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I'm mumbling just what, I've got my fingers in my mouth.

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I should stop that, really shouldn't. I don't know? You

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tell me you can hear me? Now? Can you understand

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me when I'm like this awful? Or is this better?

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Oh?

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All this? So what I do? I say? I do

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the same sentence. I say, it's Thursday, the fourth of September.

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So first of all, see it is any difference of

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four for for foo. Now I do it without my

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things in my mouth. Booooo. I was about clearer about,

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isn't it? So what was the meaning? Why did I

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do that? I don't know. I really don't know. But

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I felt nostalgic because the only thing I was interested

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in twenty years ago was helping people with chronic pain.

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The only thing I mean, not literally, okay, not the

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only thing, but I mean one of the only things,

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the only thing as far as wanting to do it. No, okay,

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maybe not the only thing for that either, yeah, Like

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as far as not career wise, because never going to

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be a career was it. This is just a it's

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a lifestyle, I suppose, rather than a career. But that's

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the thing that I was most interested in. So basically

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what I wanted to do is help people to relieve

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their suffering. That was it. But then as I kind

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of went along, I got to realize, well, I was told,

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it was explained to me in quite a few different versions,

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that there's lots of types of that. You know, it's

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all physical, and there's lots of things that actually finny,

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Oh it's so noisy. This another reason, like, if I

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ever tried to do like a really quiet hypnosis session,

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guaranteed he pulls out the big guns, it'd be sitting

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there like chipping away at some marble or something. It's

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like the one time he decides to make himself a

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sta at You why now? Why so? Yeah, hmm. The

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things that I realized quite early on in my journey

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of attempting to help people that were struggling with chronic

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pain issues. The first thing I realized noticed experienced and

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with feedback as well, was that one of the biggest

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reducers of chronic pain is relaxing. But I also know

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I realized quite early on that. You can't force yourself

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to relax. You can do relaxation techniques and exercises, of course,

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but as far as like forcing yourself, like you can't

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force yourself to fall in love or to be hungry,

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or to like a food you don't like. You can't

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force it has to kind of happen naturally. You can.

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You can lubricate the wheels, though, can't you when it

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comes to relaxation. So if you find something maybe like

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this that's relaxing, then that in itself helps to reduce

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or can help to reduce chronic pain. The thing is

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I called this let me boy you to sleep, and

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I can't. I wish I'd included chronic pain in a

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title because the whole process, because that's another thing. As

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soon as I started doing live sessions with people and

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group sessions and pain relief hypnosis sessions one on one,

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that's the two things I noticed. Is one is sometimes

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it was just relaxing. By allowing themselves to relax, it

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would reduce the physical discomfort by quite a bit. And

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if you want to increase it, tighten up, tense up,

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you know, it's kind of that's the opposite way to

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do it. And it's natural for someone that's going through

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that to tense up because it's getting to them, isn't it.

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So by doing the complete opposite, or allowing the opposite

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to occur, which is relaxation, it then allows the opposite

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physical sensations to arise. As Vinnie continues to chip away

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and that massive piece of marble, and I'm wondering, what's

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it going to be this week. Last week it was

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just a big bit of marbled. It'd be chipped into

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proper miss But the week before that it was it

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was like a little boat made of wood. Funny enough.

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I don't know how you managed that. The alchemist, the

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Jack Russell alchemist, I can tell marble, tell turn marble

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into balsa wood. Yeah, I don't know. And then another

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thing that people were telling me is oh, but they

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might not have said ooh, but it's like one thing

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we noticed is we're sleeping better, easier. And when I

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was doing the I'm this, I saw man used to

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visit him in his house in two thousand and six

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in the summer, and he had arthritis, like really bad

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arthritis in his legs and stuff. And the one thing

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he said is other than the fact that he felt

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so much better gradually over the weeks, but he also

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is sleeping more. He was sleeping more comfortable, so instead

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of his legs jittering and jumping about, which they did,

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they just calmed down, relaxed, and he could have some

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good sleep. So it got me thinking like, Okay, what

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benefits can be got from helping people to relax deeply

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and to fall asleep. And as I moved forward with

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the relaxation sessions online again, I started off doing chronic

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pain relief, relaxation, and sleep sessions. That's the three things

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I focused on, even though I'd started off I only

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wanted to do chronic pain relief. And then as that progressed,

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the most popular recordings, or the least popular recordings, were

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the chronic pain reliefs, not that they were unpopular, they

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just weren't as well received as the relaxation and the

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sleep And then it turned out that the sleep recordings

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were the most popular of anything I did, And for

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a while that was a little bit frustrating for me

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because that wasn't what I wanted to focus on. I

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wanted to be mister pain relief. That's what I wanted

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to do. I wanted to change the world. Maybe I

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was very young, naive. Back then I was only forty six,

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and now I was thirty five, thirty five, still not

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that young, aver a thirty five years old. I was

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so full of ambition. Oh, just got to get out there,

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got to get just got to be heard, gotta be

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just need people to know that I exist. And then

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everyone's going to want to listen. Who maybe maybe a

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tiny few people would. And every now and then I'd

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try and go back to the pain relief and people

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still wanted to listen to the sleep stuff. So it's

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kind of like, Okay, well, perhaps I should just do

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what what first, I'll do what people like. That kind

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of makes sense really, And then I started doing the

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these to let Me Boy to Sleep twenty eighteen, seven

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years ago, nearly eight years ago. Well, how was it

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February or March two thousand and eighteen? And I'm constantly

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doing this. I can't remember two thousand by the way,

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all my podcast is still on my spreaker whisper one

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one one one one one one one one one one

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one one, Okay, so I'm just trying to find the

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right I can't find it. One one to fifty. Where's

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Wonder fifty fifty? One to one hundred? One to fifty? Wow,

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one I won to one fifty. That's not what I want.

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I want one to fifty. Where's wonder fifty? I'm looking

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at the screeners in case you're wondering what I'm talking about.

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One to fifty doesn't seem to be on here. Oh

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there is one to fifty total statistics for this one right.

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Five downloads in the last year from that podcast is

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because it's just specifically just for those those fifty recordings.

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That's another reason that kind of I'm not going to

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bother the website because I did all these podcasts and

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into like playlists and stuff, but not really getting a

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listen at all. Twenty seventh of March twoenty eighteen was

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the very first Let Me Boy to sleep. And I

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did one, two, three, four in a row. Then I

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did one, two, three, four, another four in a row.

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Then I did one, two, three, four, five, six, seven

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in a row. Then I did one two in a row,

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then I did one, then I did okay, that got boring.

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Six Wow. I did a six of me and then

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nothing to the twenty six of me. I wonder what

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happened on that year, no idea. So I did the

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Let Me Boy to Sleep started that twenty seventh March

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two thousand and eighteen. And yeah, it's become the most

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popular thing that I've ever done as far as like

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individual recordings, and and I'm now at number I couldn't

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even tell you one thousand, four hundred and yesterday's recording

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was one thousand, four hundred and twenty seven. So yeah,

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I've got a few done, quite a few in it. Wow. Yeah.

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So I'm going to just continue with this that let

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Me Buoy to Sleep, and that's really the only podcast

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I'm going to be focusing on from now on. But

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at the same time, I don't quite know how I

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can get it across that. Maybe people can find this useful.

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People that have got chronic pain, people that have got

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anxiety and stuff like that could find these podcasts useful

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because it's relaxing and it's peaceful. And you know what

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I've noticed, do you never ever get you know, certain

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phrases are starting to be used more and more, like

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in interviews on TV and on the internet and whatnot.

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It is the new one. It's not a new one.

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It's not a new thing. But for some reason, I'm

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hearing people say it more often now whatnot. It's kind

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of this similar to saying so on and so forth,

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blah blah blah blah, make us make a long story

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short whatnot. So it's kind of just it shortens the

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conversation or shortens the story. So, yeah, I was going

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to got some shopping. I've got some toilet paper and

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some tempons and some you know, and whatnot. So you're

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not going through the whole list of things that you've got.

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You've just gone through the things that maybe you shouldn't

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have gone through. I don't know. It depends who you're

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talking to, depends upon who you're tour walking to. I

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don't know what Vinnie is expecting to happen. He just

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sits there staring at his bumb generally, honestly, he's just

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staring at his bumb like it's I don't know, it's

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like some kind of secret doorway to Narnia or something,

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a little cupboard full of tiny coats, of smelly coats,

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so god, they'd all be looked like they just people

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have been walking for a really muddy forest. Yeah, it

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wouldn't be like Nannia with all the snow, you just

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get through. It's been muddy everywhere. It just be like

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a big swamp. Okay, let's move on. Whore you staring at?

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Who are you staring at? Hey? I think he's a

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bit thrown off because I'm not sure if he's ever

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seen me sit here before. He probably has, because I've

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had him for quite a while now. But to sit

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over here and do this recording and to be talking,

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but not to be talking to him, but I am

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talking to you, and I yeah, I am. He's kind

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of got me used to me sitting on the chair

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doing it on the sofa because then he can sort

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of cut up to me a bit. You'd be thrown off,

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aren't you. I think this is more comfortable doing it here.

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You you know, you think that sofa would be more comfortable.

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But it's not. Not not doing this stuff because first

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of all, I can't use the laptop. I can't use

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you know, stuff like that when i'm well, I can't

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because it's on my lap. The wellhap's nice, what a

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lovely sneeze. I thought it might be exciting and it was.

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It's strange, like what's Lloyd's banking? Up to Lloyd's Bank. Okay,

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I don't think there'd be any banks at all in

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the future. That was a nice bright thing to say,

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wasn't it. You know, in my town where I live,

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the bank that i'm with is this big, old listed building.

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It's huge. Honestly, it's just massive, and they don't get

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many customers because how many people go into a bank anymore?

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You know, most things just done online, isn't it, And

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don't really well, I'm just talking generally. I haven't needed

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to go into a bank to put a check in

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or to draw money out for a long time, or

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to pay bills. It's something I used to do in

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the past, go in there to pay my bills, electric bill,

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gas bill, war to bill, I'd go into the I'd

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go in there to pay that. I don't need to

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do that anymore. It's just automatic direct debit now, TV license,

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that's all done automatically. I don't even know if the

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bank's still there. I suppose it is. Yeah, I'm pretty

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sure it still is. I know it's got some hard

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steps because I fell over them once I felt up them.

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I was running to get my check from when I

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was a counselor and I think it was like a

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thousand pounds and it was my month's check and I

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needed it cashed before Christmas, so I think Christmas was

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on the Wednesday or Thursday the next week, and I

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was This was the Friday afternoon, ten minutes before the

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bank closed. So I'm running and I'm only ran the corner,

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but I'm waiting for ages. I'm in the office at MIND,

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and I get on really well with a man that

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was that did the checks, so I'm just chatting to him,

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and there's quite a lot to do. So mine took

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a while, and I was getting more and more closer

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to the time than the end. He printed it off

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and I ran. I ran, and I ran and I ran,

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and literally it was a ten minute walk, possibly less

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than a ten minute walk, possibly maybe a six minute walk,

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seven minute walk. But there's no guaranteed that the door

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will stay open right to the end, because they might

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just start not lett anyone in after a certain point.

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That's why I ran. So I'm going down the alleyway

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towards the town, a turn left. I'm not sure if

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I'm able to cross. Well. I did cross the road obviously,

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because I was I wouldn't i've got there, I'd still

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be standing there with And this is a long time ago.

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This is two thousand and eleven, Yeah, two thousand or

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was it twenty twelve? No, it's two thy and eleven,

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because by twenty and twelve, yeah, December twenty twelve, I

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think I started doing the working in the insurance company

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and having a Monday off every week to be to

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continue counseling. So yeah, and I did that till the

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following year, I think April two thirt Oh, I can't

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remember both dates, but so anyway, I ran. I think

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it was two thousand and eleven, and I suppose no,

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twenty twelve, No, twoy eleven. Does it really matter? Not really?

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So twoy eleven and I'll get the check. And I'm

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running and it's cold, a little bit slippery. It's December,

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and my body's not really been it wasn't really built

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for running, especially not the last twenty or thirty years.

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I think, you know, in a sense of if I

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have a running accident, I've only got myself to blame.

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I seems to be the attitude of the medical experts.

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So why are you trying to run? Have you not

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seen yourself. Do you not own a mirror or some scales.

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It's like a bit rude, a little bit rude. And anyway,

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so I'm running and there's two crossings, one crossing well

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then then the next one. But the next one is

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crossing the main high road. And as a crossover there,

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I think there's traffic lights, I think on both sides

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and both roads. And then I crossover there's a new

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news agent's nude newd agents news agents on the left,

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and then there was a subway SAMD witch place on

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the left, and then I think there's some chicken shop

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on the left, and then the next thing on the

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left is the bank or was the bank. I mean

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those shops not be there either. Some I'm running. I'm

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not running hard. I've never run hard. Maybe maybe when

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I was a kid, but not for a long time.

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And I want to get in there before they stand

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inside the door stopping anyone else from coming in and

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just letting people out, because I know they start doing it,

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you know, closer to closing time, because I suppose they've

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got places to be, haven't they. Yeah, I guess people

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that work in a bank, they've got home lives and stuff.

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They don't just go to sleep beyond the counter today,

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I guess, or you keep together bunk bed in the

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back room. I don't know. Playing Conquers, you know, in

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Concuer season, which would be soon actually usually about October time,

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I think September October when the congers fall off the tree.

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And I never liked concers though. I think it's banned

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in schools now because it's dangerous. They think it's dangerous. Well,

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it is dangerous. That's why I didn't like it, because

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they stand up with sore fingers and I did not

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appreciate that. Yeah, I'm glad they're banned, but unfortunately the

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news of them Conquers being banned does not reach the

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trees themselves because they're still producing them. Oh yes, I

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get to the bank, turn left, about to run up

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the stairs, and I slip my trip really on the

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stairs on the concrete steps, and it's like one, two, three, four,

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five six. There's three steps, then you know, like a

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one big step that's flat, and then there's another three.

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I think, so I trip over on the first three

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steps and I smash my foot. I think it was

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my right foot became it's quite a while ago, so

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I break something in my right foot. I don't quite know.

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It's just it's a basic it's broken foot, and oh man,

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I was just like, I didn't know what to do

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because it hurts so much, but I needed to get

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into that bank, so I just sort of made my

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way in thankfully. I mean, I don't know. They might

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I might have been able to soothe them or something.

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I've been out. I don't know. I mean it was

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my fault on one running when they put the steps there,

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but I knew there were steps there. Running around in

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treezing cold temperatures, probably not a good idea. But anyway,

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they let me in or someone opened the door. I

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don't know if the door was locked, but she opened

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the door for me. I think she might have even

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asked her you're okay once she stopped laughing, and I

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managed to put my check in. It's like one thousand

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and four pounds or something, which was so needed because

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otherwise I was going to have Christmas with no money.

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I needed to buy Christmas presents and stuff like that. Ah,

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so it was lovely. I managed to do that, and

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it all kind of worked out okay, except I had

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a broken foot, and I remember going to the I

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got to the walk ironic name the Walking Center, which

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is probably about a mile. I don't know. It's on

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the same ground as hospital, but it's a long walk

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to the hospital. So I get bus there. Do I

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get bus or did I walk? I might have walked,

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but I might got a bus. I don't remember. My

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memory is not great, is it for this story? I

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either got a bus or I walked. One of them

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and I go into the walking center and they said,

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what what do you want? What do you want? I said,

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I've hurt my foot. Okay. Really didn't seem that interested.

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Maybe it's because it was because this is on a Monday.

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I waited the weekend, thinking oh, we would wear it off,

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but it didn't. So I went in on the Monday

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to the hospital. Well that might be in a sad day.

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I might have did it the next day because it

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was very painful. And they said, what is it. I said, well,

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I just hurt my foot. They said they said yeah.

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So I said, okay, well you know that's what I've

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come here. They said, what do you want us to

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do about it? I'm not sure if I was i'd walked.

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I thought I might have walked into the the canteen

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by accident, and it was just the canteen stuff. Wondering

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why I was talking about my foot, you know, why?

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Why is it just not ordering food? So I don't know.

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And then they said, well, let's have a look at

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your foot. So he said, take your sock off. I said,

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I can't take my sock off. He said, well, you

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need to say your sock off otherwise I can't see

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your foot. I said, I haven't got a sock on.

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He said what he said, I can't get a song.

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I can't get a sock over my foot because it's

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too painful. Plus it's swollen up. So I slipped my

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shoe off because I've had slip ons for years because

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I'm very old, and my foot was pretty much a

468
00:47:21.599 --> 00:47:26.039
lot of it was black, like it was just really

469
00:47:27.960 --> 00:47:31.440
red and purple and all kinds of different weird colors.

470
00:47:32.440 --> 00:47:41.280
It's very it's injured. And he said, oh that's okay.

471
00:47:45.199 --> 00:47:49.559
Does that mean is that kind of a medical response

472
00:47:49.679 --> 00:47:53.239
or you just didn't impression of a ghost. We both

473
00:47:53.360 --> 00:47:58.360
rolled around tickling each other. No, that didn't happen. So

474
00:47:59.760 --> 00:48:02.400
it's said, well, look I haven't got an X ray machine.

475
00:48:04.480 --> 00:48:07.760
But he said, it looks like you've damaged your foot.

476
00:48:08.599 --> 00:48:10.559
I said, I know that one. I know, and I

477
00:48:10.599 --> 00:48:16.880
know I've damaged my foot. And he said, well, there's

478
00:48:16.880 --> 00:48:20.639
nothing he can do for you. It's you know, you

479
00:48:20.639 --> 00:48:23.360
can go to the walk up to the hospital, but

480
00:48:23.480 --> 00:48:25.920
it's going to be you'll be waiting there for hours

481
00:48:26.000 --> 00:48:29.119
and hours and hours and they'll X ray it probably

482
00:48:29.199 --> 00:48:32.800
and then tell you that you've got some broken bones

483
00:48:32.840 --> 00:48:38.920
and that's it. Just try and keep off it. You know,

484
00:48:38.960 --> 00:48:40.599
if it was if it was your ankle, then they

485
00:48:40.960 --> 00:48:43.559
put you in plaster. If it was your heel, they'd

486
00:48:43.559 --> 00:48:46.440
probably possibly put you in plaster. But it's not. It's

487
00:48:46.480 --> 00:48:48.880
just the top of your foot. Don't put you in

488
00:48:48.920 --> 00:48:56.960
plaster for that. That's what they said to me. And

489
00:48:57.000 --> 00:48:59.239
I said, all right then. So they said we'd just

490
00:48:59.440 --> 00:49:02.480
walk up there, you know where the hospital is. I said, yeah,

491
00:49:02.679 --> 00:49:06.960
so long walk. He said yeah, probably longer for you,

492
00:49:09.039 --> 00:49:14.519
more painful. It's like wow, And he said, before you go,

493
00:49:14.639 --> 00:49:17.079
kind of just can just give me a foot for

494
00:49:17.119 --> 00:49:19.480
a second. I said, did this? He pressed on it?

495
00:49:19.519 --> 00:49:21.480
He said, does it hurt when I do this? I

496
00:49:21.519 --> 00:49:26.000
said yeah. He said I thought it would, and then

497
00:49:26.000 --> 00:49:36.159
he walked away weird. So I'm walking, trying to walk

498
00:49:36.239 --> 00:49:39.119
up to the hospital, but I can't. I can't make it.

499
00:49:42.840 --> 00:49:46.400
I literally can't make the journey, so I have to

500
00:49:46.719 --> 00:49:50.320
I think I have to kind of head back and

501
00:49:50.679 --> 00:49:59.719
get a bus back, and I don't think. Yeah, I

502
00:49:59.719 --> 00:50:02.760
didn't see any clients that week because the next week

503
00:50:02.760 --> 00:50:05.920
because it was Christmas week. Although I might have done,

504
00:50:06.000 --> 00:50:15.000
I can't remember. And when I visited my dad because

505
00:50:15.000 --> 00:50:20.960
I was still hobbling about, I had to ask for

506
00:50:21.039 --> 00:50:27.559
a lift because I got a train station and from

507
00:50:27.559 --> 00:50:37.480
where I lived at the time, so from where I lived.

508
00:50:41.400 --> 00:50:43.880
This is really strange. I've got this memory. Yeah, it

509
00:50:43.960 --> 00:50:50.440
must have been there, So I don't know if I

510
00:50:50.440 --> 00:50:57.159
I might got taxi to the train station or maybe

511
00:50:57.559 --> 00:51:00.360
actually it was only a short walk to get to

512
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:02.400
get a bus, so I probably got a bus to

513
00:51:02.480 --> 00:51:07.159
the to the train station. And then once I got

514
00:51:07.199 --> 00:51:10.440
to the train station where my dad lives, I had

515
00:51:10.440 --> 00:51:13.760
to ask him to give me a lift because I

516
00:51:13.800 --> 00:51:17.119
just couldn't couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't do the walking,

517
00:51:17.320 --> 00:51:21.599
just couldn't. I was walking on my heel because that

518
00:51:21.719 --> 00:51:26.280
was the only part that didn't hurt until after walking

519
00:51:26.320 --> 00:51:28.000
on my hill for a few weeks and that hurt

520
00:51:28.039 --> 00:51:34.800
as well. The rest was fine, though very strange though,

521
00:51:35.039 --> 00:51:39.840
like I think I might hurt my arm on the stairs.

522
00:51:39.840 --> 00:51:47.480
But wow, that was that was proper ouch. That was

523
00:51:47.519 --> 00:51:49.199
thatch ouch moment.

524
00:51:49.280 --> 00:51:49.760
That was.

525
00:51:57.239 --> 00:52:00.840
Why am I telling you that story? I've got no idea.

526
00:52:00.960 --> 00:52:05.960
It's weird though, because I start remembering the subway. There

527
00:52:06.000 --> 00:52:13.679
was a period of time, probably two thousand and eight,

528
00:52:13.840 --> 00:52:26.960
two thousand and nine, maybe two thousand and ten where

529
00:52:27.000 --> 00:52:29.559
I used to come into town to go to the

530
00:52:29.559 --> 00:52:36.320
Buddhist center. And what I would do is I would

531
00:52:36.400 --> 00:52:40.199
go to subway. Not every time, but I might go

532
00:52:40.239 --> 00:52:44.599
to subway to get something to eat, so nice cheese, salad,

533
00:52:47.800 --> 00:52:52.719
half of is it half a foot roll or whatever?

534
00:52:52.760 --> 00:53:05.199
It is? Half a foot? I don't know, yeah, one, two, yeah,

535
00:53:05.199 --> 00:53:09.320
because they're quite like, yeah, half a foot. And the

536
00:53:09.440 --> 00:53:13.440
lady in there, we used to really chat to each other.

537
00:53:13.639 --> 00:53:20.119
We've got on really well. I haven't seen her for years,

538
00:53:20.519 --> 00:53:26.360
I mean literally what fifteen years. We've got really well.

539
00:53:26.400 --> 00:53:28.920
I think she's married, she might have had kids, but

540
00:53:29.079 --> 00:53:31.840
she was the manager of the subway and we just

541
00:53:31.880 --> 00:53:38.239
got really just naturally got on really well. And I

542
00:53:38.280 --> 00:53:43.039
think she was like from Mauritius or somewhere like that.

543
00:53:43.119 --> 00:53:51.639
I don't know. Oh was she And I think she'd

544
00:53:51.679 --> 00:53:57.880
been a student. Maybe she was a student and the

545
00:53:57.920 --> 00:54:01.679
manager of that place at the same time. I'm not

546
00:54:01.679 --> 00:54:08.159
one hundred percent sure, but I'm pretty sure unless she

547
00:54:08.360 --> 00:54:19.079
was like no, because I don't know, the Subway do

548
00:54:19.159 --> 00:54:23.800
the same thing as McDonald's, like franchises and stuff. Maybe

549
00:54:23.800 --> 00:54:30.519
she was a franchise holder. The thing is, even though

550
00:54:30.559 --> 00:54:37.880
it's in town, it wasn't particularly well placed. I suppose

551
00:54:37.880 --> 00:54:40.280
it is at night, you know, when the pubs and

552
00:54:40.320 --> 00:54:44.960
stuff and Friday night and Saturday night and stuff like that.

553
00:54:47.039 --> 00:54:51.000
It just seemed even because the town's not busy the

554
00:54:51.039 --> 00:54:56.920
way it used to be, even back then it wasn't

555
00:54:56.920 --> 00:55:01.800
apart from Christmas time, it's not busy the way it

556
00:55:01.920 --> 00:55:08.880
used to be. Like it was quite noticeable. Plus the

557
00:55:08.920 --> 00:55:11.559
town isn't I mean here, it's not very good town.

558
00:55:12.000 --> 00:55:13.559
I don't mean that in a horrible way. It's just

559
00:55:13.599 --> 00:55:23.519
a bit rubbish. It's just it's very it's very samy

560
00:55:24.159 --> 00:55:30.159
to anywhere else. Same kind of shops, you know, W H.

561
00:55:30.280 --> 00:55:37.199
Smiths and Subway and McDonald's and Burger King and the

562
00:55:37.280 --> 00:55:45.360
co op, and there's a Wimpy and just is kind

563
00:55:45.400 --> 00:55:51.159
of the same. A lot of charity shops as well,

564
00:55:51.679 --> 00:56:03.239
Heart Foundation, Bernardo's Scope, it's kind of there's two bookshops

565
00:56:04.280 --> 00:56:08.960
Waterstone of course, that's the probably the most popular one

566
00:56:09.000 --> 00:56:18.360
around the country. Yeah, Weatherspoons. It's very samey to where

567
00:56:18.400 --> 00:56:29.079
you get anywhere else. It's all right. I don't mind.

568
00:56:29.119 --> 00:56:32.079
I don't go out. I haven't been out for years.

569
00:56:32.960 --> 00:56:36.920
I have left my home and I've never ever left

570
00:56:36.920 --> 00:56:47.800
the flat I have. But in a social context, like

571
00:56:47.960 --> 00:56:53.960
actually going out and having a drink or going into

572
00:56:54.000 --> 00:57:02.519
a pub or a bar, or out for a meal socially,

573
00:57:03.760 --> 00:57:05.400
I mean you could say, yeah, well I went and

574
00:57:05.440 --> 00:57:18.079
had breakfast last Thursday for Uncle after uncle sausages farewell ceremony.

575
00:57:18.159 --> 00:57:22.800
But I didn't really feel that that was particularly a

576
00:57:23.119 --> 00:57:27.719
social moment, you know. It wasn't didn't feel like a

577
00:57:28.280 --> 00:57:37.639
wasn't a happy event. And the time before that was

578
00:57:37.840 --> 00:57:42.239
Christmas when I saw my dad, little brother and my

579
00:57:42.360 --> 00:57:48.199
dad's wife and we met in a pub for Christmas dinner,

580
00:57:48.280 --> 00:57:53.000
so that that was social, but as family it's not.

581
00:57:54.119 --> 00:58:00.920
It wasn't social as in I don't know, it's it's

582
00:58:00.960 --> 00:58:08.320
different It wasn't like friends meeting up with friends or

583
00:58:09.159 --> 00:58:13.199
seeing new people or anything like that. It was very well.

584
00:58:13.239 --> 00:58:19.400
I did see new people. Everyone's new. Now wherever I go,

585
00:58:19.480 --> 00:58:28.320
people are nucas. When's the last time I went into

586
00:58:28.360 --> 00:58:40.519
a pub? The last time, like, okay, not not ever,

587
00:58:40.719 --> 00:58:43.679
but the last time really that I regularly went anywhere

588
00:58:45.719 --> 00:58:59.920
was twenty ten, fifteen years. Used to go into pubs

589
00:59:00.960 --> 00:59:04.280
with people from college, go out at meals and stuff

590
00:59:04.320 --> 00:59:12.480
like that during that three years of being university. I

591
00:59:12.519 --> 00:59:17.000
did date someone in two thousand and eleven, near the

592
00:59:17.079 --> 00:59:23.159
end of twenty eleven and begin two thousand and twelve,

593
00:59:24.679 --> 00:59:28.159
so I did go out and have meals and stuff

594
00:59:28.199 --> 00:59:45.039
with her. I did go to the Indian restaurant. I'm

595
00:59:45.079 --> 00:59:47.920
sure I've been there more than once. There's a local

596
00:59:47.960 --> 00:59:52.400
Indian restaurant that I went to in two thousand and fifteen,

597
00:59:53.199 --> 01:00:03.519
that end of the year two thy fifteen, But don't

598
01:00:03.719 --> 01:00:09.440
remember sure. I'm ah I got a memory of going

599
01:00:09.480 --> 01:00:12.679
there more than once. But maybe I didn't. Maybe it

600
01:00:12.800 --> 01:00:18.840
was just a one off, but I got this kind

601
01:00:18.880 --> 01:00:24.199
of memory of doing something more than once. I'm not

602
01:00:24.280 --> 01:00:30.880
saying anything, just this particular place, mind you in the

603
01:00:30.920 --> 01:00:33.440
past I have actually sat down at a table just

604
01:00:33.559 --> 01:00:37.719
waiting for the food to be ready because it's cold outside.

605
01:00:38.519 --> 01:00:41.920
So maybe that's what I'm getting muddled up with. In fact,

606
01:00:41.920 --> 01:00:43.559
I think I once I even had a drink in

607
01:00:43.639 --> 01:00:47.639
there because there was a big, long queue, you know,

608
01:00:47.800 --> 01:00:57.719
big Today's. Gave me a drink while I waited, pilot

609
01:00:57.760 --> 01:01:15.639
curry sauce, I know, No, I haven't. Wow, I can't

610
01:01:15.679 --> 01:01:18.480
remember other than that little one, you know, sort of

611
01:01:18.559 --> 01:01:23.239
Christmas with my dad and my brother. I do not remember.

612
01:01:25.599 --> 01:01:28.440
Oh no, I went to the pub with Luke. But

613
01:01:28.519 --> 01:01:32.000
we had a pub opposite, well, across the road. It

614
01:01:32.079 --> 01:01:34.480
was there for a while. It was there for years

615
01:01:34.480 --> 01:01:37.639
and years, but it closed, then opened again, and then

616
01:01:37.639 --> 01:01:41.360
it closed again. So we went there and sat outside

617
01:01:41.400 --> 01:01:45.400
with a meal and stuff. So that was okay. But

618
01:01:45.480 --> 01:01:47.920
that was a long time ago, you know, we're talking

619
01:01:49.800 --> 01:02:02.400
probably two thy sixteen time. Probably. No, I can't remember

620
01:02:02.480 --> 01:02:14.639
any any other time. Wow, Where does all the time go?

621
01:02:21.039 --> 01:02:22.760
I'm trying to remember the last time I went to

622
01:02:22.800 --> 01:02:28.000
the cinema, because I have been to the cinema since

623
01:02:28.000 --> 01:02:34.880
I moved here. I'm pretty sure, and i'd love well,

624
01:02:35.039 --> 01:02:38.000
I my love, But if I could find a way

625
01:02:38.039 --> 01:02:46.559
to get back to doing stuff, some stuff. I think

626
01:02:46.599 --> 01:03:07.360
that would be good for me. Just mm hm hm. Yeah,

627
01:03:07.960 --> 01:03:11.559
it's been a nice day today. It was raining, so

628
01:03:11.599 --> 01:03:13.960
it wasn't so nice, but when it wasn't raining, it

629
01:03:14.000 --> 01:03:23.280
was lovely, very bright. Started off really windy like yesterday,

630
01:03:23.320 --> 01:03:26.360
it is very windy, and then kind of calmed down.

631
01:03:27.039 --> 01:03:30.800
The wind seemed to just blow itself out, and now

632
01:03:30.840 --> 01:03:35.920
it's pretty chilled. It's dark outside now, but it's eleven

633
01:03:36.000 --> 01:03:46.760
minutes past eleven eleven eleven or twenty three eleven, So

634
01:03:46.800 --> 01:03:47.840
that's pretty much me.

635
01:03:49.719 --> 01:04:00.840
Done for the day, So.

636
01:04:01.000 --> 01:04:03.360
Thank you for listening. I will be doing a Q

637
01:04:03.480 --> 01:04:06.599
and A Friday tomorrow. I've only got a couple of

638
01:04:06.639 --> 01:04:10.960
questions to answer, so if you do any questions, bear

639
01:04:11.079 --> 01:04:13.639
in mind this won't be released till the morning because

640
01:04:15.639 --> 01:04:26.920
I'm going to be going to bed quite soon. Yeah,

641
01:04:26.960 --> 01:04:34.960
what's this right? The website as soon as I make

642
01:04:35.039 --> 01:04:44.559
a change. So, oh, the website's gone, I'm afraid, but

643
01:04:45.840 --> 01:04:56.519
I'm looking at other alternatives. Any questions. Four? Oh, I've

644
01:04:56.519 --> 01:05:04.039
got I've got four questions. Look what are they with? One?

645
01:05:04.199 --> 01:05:04.440
Old?

646
01:05:04.480 --> 01:05:13.000
BlimE me? Right? So yeah, that's the questions for tomorrow.

647
01:05:13.320 --> 01:05:18.039
If you've got any questions. Normally do the Q and

648
01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:22.320
A Friday kind of afternoon time, but it might be

649
01:05:22.360 --> 01:05:29.760
in the evening. Not this late, but I like to

650
01:05:29.800 --> 01:05:33.960
be in bed by ten o'clock in the evening. Now

651
01:05:36.400 --> 01:05:42.960
now I'm an old fuddy duddy, so yeah, thank you

652
01:05:43.000 --> 01:05:46.039
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you do,

653
01:05:47.000 --> 01:05:51.800
you do, you do. You do deserve to be happy,

654
01:05:53.159 --> 01:05:58.639
you do. Remember to be gentle with yourself because you

655
01:05:58.719 --> 01:06:06.159
deserve to feel safe. Lots of of Bye,