June 25, 2025

(no music) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025

(no music) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasondewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. I hope you are well. Hi, so oh god,

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no idea? What today's how? It's Tuesday? I don't know

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what the day is. Is it a twenty second or

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something like that of June twenty twenty five, I'm not

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really sure. Please only listen when you can safely close

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your eyes. This is let me bore you to sleep.

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My name is Jason Newland. Oh got itchy leg? I

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think I might have been bitten by a gnat. Okay,

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it's flease, Okay, who I've been? It's probably been the

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busiest five days I've had for a very very very

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long time, as far as I suppose you could call

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it outside activities. You know, I'm busy sometimes making recordings,

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but not this week. I haven't been, so I'm gonna

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I'm gonna tell you about it. First of all, my

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website is back, so apologies to anyone that were annoyed

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for the website going, but it's now back as it was.

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I'm just going to have to do a little feud,

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little checks to make sure it's as exactly how it was,

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but it is back online. Jason nuland dot com and

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the yeah, that's done. I haven't made a recording, according

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to my web I don't know. I'm losing track. To

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be fair, I did let me boy a Q and

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A Friday on Friday, and I think I did a

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deep sleep whisper recording afterwards later on in the day,

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I think, and then no, I don't think i'd have

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done this Saturday. So basically, here's what's happened. I'm going

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to talk about a medical situation, but I'm not going

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to go into information about the medical condition. Okay, so

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this is going to involve hospitals and stuff, so if

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that's might not be the most relaxing, most relaxing thing

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to tell you to talk about, but you know, I

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like to tell you what's going on in my life

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as well. But at the same time, I'm not going

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to I'm not going to go all deep and serious

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with this, although it has been a very very serious situation.

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So you know, it involves medical and I'm going to

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talk about a little bit about medical stuff, but not

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really if you know what I mean. But I will

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be talking about hospitals because that's where I've been every

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day for the last five days, not for me, but

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for someone else. So it all started in nineteen seventy

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when I was born. Now it's so my neighbor. He's

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having his new bathroom done. And I didn't see him

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last week pretty much all week because he's having his

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bathroom done and he's used to having his own space.

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So really the fact that he had people coming and

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going all week, didn't really see him, and I didn't

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bother him, you know, I didn't really knock on his

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door because I could see on the camera that he

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was in and out and he was fine, and they

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were all in and out on the I got a

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door camera in and out doing the building work. So

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on Friday evening, when all the builders had finished, I

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knocked on his door to see how he's getting on.

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I mean, I say evening. It's still light outside, so

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probably pretty about o'clock seven, eight seven ish, you know,

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six seven, and this is Friday. It's now Tuesday evening,

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and he opened the door. I just got in from

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the sun. I mean, I've just been outside and it

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was still sunny or bright anyway, maybe not Sunday, it

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was still still very bright outside. So everything looks a

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bit weird when when I get inside after being outside,

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especially with these glasses because they're tinted glasses, so it

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makes everything a little bit of a weird kind of

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visual for a short while. Plus my eyesight's it's not

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as good as it used to be. Well, my friend,

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my neighbor. He's my friend as well, but just use

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the word neighbor. I guess it's probably classes with me

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more as a friend now. But he opened the door,

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so I just explained my relationship with him. It's friends

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with benefits. No, No, it's neighbors with benefits. No, it's

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a he's quite elderly, he's nearly seventy eight. I help

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him out with some stuff, so paying bills, when he

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gets letters, making phone calls, I help him with that stuff,

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just stuff because he's hearing it's not great. So I

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help him out with stuff where he you know, just general.

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I'm not his career, but I just try and help

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him when he needs help. And he hard never asks

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for help all for the first nine years, but over

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the last year he's been a bit more. I mean

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he's asked. He asked me for help in the past,

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but only for little bits and bobs and normally locks

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himself out, or he's lost his debit card things like that,

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or if he looked, yeah I have, he's had my

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telephone number for a long time. So he locked himself

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in a couple of times where he couldn't open the lock.

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So you know, I was talking to him through the

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letterbox even though he both were on the phone as well,

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which is weird. And that was I've actually did a

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podcast about that episode. And that was strange because the

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council who I phoned would not talk to me because

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I'm not him, Okay, So I found up saying, my

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elderly neighbor is a locked inside his flat. He needs

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to leave his home, but you can't open the door

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because the door is jammed. The lock was jammed, so

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it needed locksmith. And they said, well, who is he?

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I said who he was? And he said who are

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you to him? I said, I'm his neighbor. And then

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they said, well, we can't talk to you. I said,

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you are talking to me. Nope, we can't talk to you.

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We have to talk to him. So I literally had

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I said, well, she said we'll phone him up. I said,

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but you can phone him up. So they did phone

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him up. He couldn't hear him. So they phoned me

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up and they said, can you please put me can

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you put the phone through the letterbox so he can

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talk to us? So it was weird anyway. That so

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a few little things like that. I ended up putting

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his fish and chips through the letterbox because he couldn't

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get out to get any food. That's a weird one.

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It's a shared memory though, So Friday evening he opens

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a door. Now he's got very fro lately, but he's again,

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he's seventy eight. He's not a big eater. He doesn't drink,

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doesn't smoke, doesn't He's probably one of the most enthusiastic

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people I've ever met regarding sport, regarding anything, and I've

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ever met anyone possibly of any age, that was so

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enthusiastic about what they love. And he loves sport, I

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mean all sport. Boxing's not too bothered about. That's the

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one I love. But he knows about boxing, but not

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a huge amount. But when it comes to football, rugby, cricket,

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absolutely knows. There don't seem to be anything he don't know,

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and he follows all of it. He'll actually he'll listen

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to one spot on the radio. He'll watch one sport

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on the TV and he'll have another one playing on

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his tablet, like three different sports at the same time.

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It's just like, I don't know how he does it.

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It's not something I could do. But he loves it.

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And that's what's so sad about the situation, because he

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loves being alive. Right, Okay again, I'm not going to

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go any I want to go into deep stuff. But

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he loves he's got energy, he's got he's enthusiastic about life,

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constantly looking forward to the next day because the rugby's on,

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or the crickets on, or the football match. He's looking

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forward to that. He's looking forward to the weekend every

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week because that's when a lot of sport is on television.

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So you know, I just I'm trying to get across that.

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He's really nice, very chatty, very chatty, but he's a

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really nice person. It's a kind and gentle person. But

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as probably I am me sitting his ways like a

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lot of people are. I guess I am as well

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in a lot of ways, probably in maybe more ways

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than he is. To be fair, and he's independent, and

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he does not like being does not like people interfering

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with his business, and who does. To be honest, I

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think anyone does, really do they. However, I'm laughing just

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because it put me in a very difficult situation. There's

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nothing funny at all about this situation. There's zero humor.

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But I'll probably get some out of it. But just

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remember I'm not mocking him or his situation at all.

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That's not what I'm doing. But I will perhaps laugh

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at some of the things that happened. So open a door,

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and literally I couldn't keep my eyes open because it

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was so bright. I thought he had some kind of

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light shining out of his flat, and I thought my

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glasses were turning brown again, like the lenses, and I

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know what's going on. So I took my glasses off.

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And it wasn't coming from there, it was coming from him.

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He was yellow. And I've seen that once before, many

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many years ago, like two fowls and two thousand and

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two thousand and four, that's when I last saw that,

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the only time I've ever seen it, and that person

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was a severe alcohol drinker, alcohol drinker, and he survived,

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but he was in hospital, but it gained another really

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nice person. So I lived in that house. That's when

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I lived in Ipswich. I lived in the house that

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was Every single person in there, apart from the person

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at the bottom, was an alcoholic except me, and I

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didn't drink that whole year. It was just, really I

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think that's pretty irony. I stopped drinking because I a

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little bit of a drink issue previous. I was just

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drinking excessively for three years, like every night for three years,

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pretty much. So I stopped drinking for a whole year.

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Two thousand and four, I moved into this place. The

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bloat next to me was a full on alcoholic. I'm

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talking like proper not didn't go to work. He's just

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drunk all the time. The man downstairs, and I got

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him really well with him. I helped him get a

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council flat when he got evicted, so I kind of

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helped him during that period. I wasn't living there anymore,

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but I just couldn't leave him. I wanted to help

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him to Well, if you're friends of sudden, you've got

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to help him in it. The bloat downstairs was a

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full on, like really almost like a functioning alcoholic. The

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one next to me wasn't functioning. The one downstairs was functioning,

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and I got him really well with him, so again

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really quite good friends with him. The man next to

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him was also an alcoholic, but I didn't He wouldn't

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talk to me. He just didn't like me. So he

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lived directly below me, and he moaned that my I

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was making too much noise because when I moved in,

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I had this bed what they called the beds that

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are on the floor footons. I had a foot on

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the most uncomfortable bed in my life. That was so

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every time I moved he oh, I guess I was

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moving the floorboards or whatever, and he could hear me.

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I think I'd be listening to the radio or something,

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and he just moaned. So he didn't like me, which

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is fine. Then down stairs at the bottom, so that's

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one two three people, two at the top with me

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and someone two at the bottom, two below me, and

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then two right at the bottom. The one right at

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the bottom, that's the one that ended up possible. He

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was again another functioning alcoholic, and I think he was retired,

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like the two functioning ones were retired. Next to him,

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there was a crackhouse. Well I'm not joking. They got

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closed down by the police. So he didn't drink, but

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he did other stuff. But he also was really nice.

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It's just a weird situation. He was lovely. Yeah, everyone

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in the house was nice. I didn't get on with

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one and he might be nice as well, but everyone

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else was really nice. And it's really strange because that

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was my year of abstinence, almost like I'm not doing

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anything this year, and I'm surrounded by all this alcohol.

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It was ridiculous. It was yeah, I don't know, almost

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like it was a test anyway. So I've seen that before.

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So my friend neighbor opposite yellow, yellow skinned skin, and

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I thought, I'm seeing things here. I had Vinny with

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me on his lead, so I said, look, do you

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want to show me a bathroom? She said, yeah, come in.

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He's exactly the same. It's the same as what he

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ever is. He's like, you know, he was quite bubbly

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as he normally is. He's genuinely quite pleased to see me.

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He doesn't let anyone else in his flat other than

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the builders. He's got no choice about that. But he

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doesn't invite anyone into his home. But he does me now.

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He didn't for the first nine years or eight years.

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So I went in there, went to the bathroom. It's

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a really good job they've done. So he's had his

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kitchen done and now he's got his bathroom. It's nearly finished.

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I've been letting them in this week because he's in hospital.

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Such a really nice bathroom. But it's very bright as well,

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because it's a new light in there. It's really because

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it's really bright at the moment. And I look at him,

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I'm thinking, at this point, my glasses have gone back

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to normal. And I said to him, you are you okay?

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He said? He said, what are you talking about? What

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are you? Are you okay? Said yeah, you feel okay?

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Said yeah? He said why, I said, oh, you're yellow?

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And he said what Now he doesn't have a mirror

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in his home, and I don't know how he shaves.

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He does shave, so he must just do it by

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He must just guess. He's done it for years. But

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mind you, I've shaved at the sink without looking in

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the mirror. It's possible to do it like I've done

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it with a wet shave, a wet razor. We have

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had a sink that was nowhere near mirror because I

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couldn't be bothered to like walk two steps to the

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mirror to do it. But hey, it's this laziness. It's

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a challenge as well, isn't it to do it by touch?

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And it is possible. I mean, millions of people around

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the world, I have no choice but to do it

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by touch, do they? I guess if they're unable to see.

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So yeah, it is, of course it's possible. He he

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didn't know that he was yellow, but it wasn't just

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his skin, it was his eyes as well, you know,

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the whites of his eyes. And I said, are you sure?

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He said, yeah, I'm fine, And then we just have

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a normal conversation and I said, well, I'm just going

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to head off, and he was joking saying, I said,

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if you've got the builders coming at the weekend, he said, nope,

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they're not coming in if they are, even if they're not,

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they're not coming in because it's rugby tomorrow. And I laughed,

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I know he would not answer the door at the weekend.

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That's his time. I said, okay, cool, I'll see it

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like I see it, so I see it on Monday,

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because you know, I leave him alone at the weekend.

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In then then I get in here because I live

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opposite and get in here and I'm thinking that ain't right.

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It's just not right. It's like, I can't how can

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I ignore that? Is I understand? I mean, there's been

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people coming and going not said a thing to him

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about it all week. They must have seen him. They

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have to se him because he's letting him in and

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he's he's a right chatter box. He's probably been talking

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to them the whole week, so they've seen him and

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no one's mentioned it. But then maybe the fact that

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they haven't seen him before they might think that's just

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how he looks all the time. It's a weird one,

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isn't it. It's difficult. It's see if I see if

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you see someone you know really well and they're limping,

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you're going to mention it and say you're okay, you're limping.

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But if you see someone for the first time you know,

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you're a builder, you're knock on the door and they're limping,

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you're not going to question it. Yeah, it's I guess

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it's the same kind of thing. I suppose, I don't know.

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I imagine if you're going into people's houses, you see so

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many different things that you maybe they don't even notice it,

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you know, I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm sitting in here

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and I'm starting to get upset because I don't know

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what to do, like really starting to get Oh, this

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is very awkward situation because I know what he's like

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and I know that he he wouldn't want me interfering.

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I was correct as well. So what I did is

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which is something I don't normally do. I left Finny

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here and I went out around the corner to a

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neighbor that I know, and she's she's a bit older

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than me. She's someone that I can like. I felt

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I needed to talk to someone a bit older than me.

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I don't know why there's not many people older than

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me these days, but I thought, I just get her perspective.

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And I said, I don't know what to do, And

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I said, what I need is really a second opinion,

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because I might be I might not be seeing things correctly.

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I'm seeing yellow, but maybe he's not. He's not tan

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because he doesn't go out in the daytime. Really, he

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goes out at night. And you know, there was always

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that maybe that's why. Maybe there's some kind of vitamin deficiency.

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I don't know. I'm not a doctor. I didn't finish

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the entire course. I didn't start. I didn't start the

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course either. But you know, by saying I didn't finish

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my doctorate, it's correct, isn't it. I didn't. I didn't complete,

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I didn't get my doctorate. I didn't start a doctorate.

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But I didn't get the doctorate. I never became a doctor.

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It's true. Doesn't mean I don't you know, I also

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don't have any medical training either, So that's irrelevant, isn't it. Really.

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I'm almost in disbelief about what's happened over the last

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five days. Just so I'm used to not going out

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other than three times a day with this little one here,

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this little fur ball in the park. I don't even

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I don't even cross the road, like to go to

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the petro station or the pet shop anymore. Everything I

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buy is online. I don't. It's almost that there's an

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invisible barrier that I've struggled to cross. I don't get

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my my prescriptions get delivered or I try and get

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someone to pick them up for me. I don't even

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travel there anymore. And it's been like that for probably

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since my friend downstairs passed away. Pretty much, I haven't

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really got out. I haven't been out much at all.

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In fact, the last time I went out, last time

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I left this area, like literally kind of left this

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area I think was probably my friend's funeral, which was

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a year and a half ago something like that. Yeah,

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over a even and a half ago. So yeah, it

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was kind of strange. So anyway, I'm saying that because

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I've ended up having to go out so Friday, so

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around my friend and the neighbor's house, and they said, oh,

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you know, I'm not being rude to them, because natural

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human thing, isn't it. We start, we start diagnosing as

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soon as you say someone's turned yellow, Well it's this,

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it's that. It's that, you know, And my personal the

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way I kind of look at it is, I don't

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know what it is, but I know he's not supposed

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to be yellow. That's all I can say. And I

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know that that can be a sign of something very serious.

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And I went online. I did research it as well

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before as soon as I came back just online to

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sort of all, okay, no description of turning yellow came

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up as being a positive. That's all I'm saying, so

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I thought, oh, what do I do next? So I

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went around my neighbors. They basically diagnosed him, and we're

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about to write him a prescription. I said, no, no,

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wait a minute. First of all, you're not a doctor. Secondly,

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can one of you come around with me? And he

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knows the daughter because he's met a loads of times.

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She's a little bit younger than me, and so I said,

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if you come round, and I knock on his door

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because they asked me. Actually, the neighbor they'll visited asked

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me if I had a toilet roll they could borrow.

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So I thought, okay, I'll use that as an excuse.

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I knock on my neighbor's door the opposite me, asking

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me if he's got a spare toilet role because I've

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only got one left. So it gave me an opportunity

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to get him to open the door, because he does

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as he did answer the door to me and the

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other neighbor around the corner. She was with me, and

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as soon as the door opened she just went wow

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like she I mean, she was even shocked, even considered

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I'd already told her what was happening. I don't know,

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actually didn't believe me or whatever, or didn't think it

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was quite as you know, significant, And he kind of

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says he got rid of us quite quickly, and so

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I gave him a toilet role because I didn't need

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a toilet roll, but I just gave him my one.

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Came back in there. I've I didn't know what to

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do next. I really I struggled. Really, it's weird, I did.

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I think with my friend downstairs it was just me

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the whole time, well not just me, but generally it

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was very often only me that was dealing with him

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with his issues. So I kind of got used to

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it over years. In years of it, it was just progressive,

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you know, in a sense of more of the same.

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This was completely new. This is something I'd never dealt

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with with him before, or with anyone, not really in

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this sense, like being the person he needed to do something.

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So I called one one one, which is in the UK.

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That is, it's like a medical helpline. It's not nine

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to nine nine like in some countries it's a nine

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to one one, isn't it or whatever, different different numbers

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that would be emergency. One one one is a place

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where you can phone up. They ask you some questions.

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You can ask questions on behalf of someone else, technically,

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I mean you can't. Personally. You can if you've got

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a loved one that's got conditions or got some kind

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of symptoms, you can ask for advice. Well, I did this,

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and the person on the one one one they were

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very limited because I wasn't with him, and they kept

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asking me questions that I couldn't answer. Well, they asked,

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how does he feeling? I said, he's feeling fine. Is

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he there with you now? I said no, he's not

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with me. Now, well, can you go and get him?

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I said not really, because he told me to leave

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him alone, basically in so many words, stop fussing. I

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think might have been one of his sentences. And they said, okay,

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what's his day of birth? So I don't know his

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day at birth, but I know he's nearly seventy eight. Okay,

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but I do know his name. I've got his address

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and all that stuff. I've got his telephone number. I

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said to him and said, okay, all right. So I said, well,

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based on what you said, he needs to call. We

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need to speak to him. I said, okay, So he said,

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They said, we can't deal with you. We're going to

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need to deal with him because he's the one that

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is got the condition. And I thought, Okay, this is

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going to be awkward, but they said it's important because

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not really because of his age or anything, just basically

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because of the from what you said, it's an important thing.

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It's a condition that will need medical attention. And we

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want to get some information from him regarding medical background,

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which I don't have. I don't know anything. It turns

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out he's never ever been, never had anything wrong with

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him every in his life. Never. I'm not going to

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give his information away or say who it is. He

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could be anyone, so you're not going to know that.

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But he's he's completely never been ill other than just

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the general things that all people have every now and then.

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Doesn't even have a doctor. It's not even registered with

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a doctor. And that's how healthy he's been his whole life.

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And I did tell them that I knew. I didn't

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know about the doctor, but I knew that he told

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me for he's all told me never been on medication,

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because when he heard that I was medication, he was

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kind of surprised that I was on because he's on

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nothing and I'm on what four different medications and he

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was like, really, you're on all them? I said, yeah,

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shut up, and he and he was interested in the bipolar.

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He was interested in me telling him about that stuff.

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So every now and then he asks me a question

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about it, but it's like gradual, you know. Anyway, So

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I'm here, I don't know what to do. I've phoned

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downstairs to my other neighbors and I said, I don't

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know what to do. I really don't know what to do.

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And this is there's a lady that lives downstairs that

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I'm going really well with. She's just directly blow me

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me and she's twenty years old, but she's probably way

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more mature than I am. It's weird. It's not really weird,

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but I'm just not I didn't know what to do.

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I really didn't know what to do, and I needed

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some support. And maybe the fact that I asked for

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support is because I've never had any support with my

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other friend and I realized that I needed it back then,

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but I didn't have any I had no one to

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ask for help this situation. I just decided I'm going

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to ask, which is why I did ask the neighbor

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around the corner, the neighbor downstairs. And she said, well,

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i'll tell you what I'll do. I'll come up and

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we'll tell him together, because I didn't know if he

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was going to get angry with me, because he already

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told me pretty much know twice. The second time it

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was a little bit like go away. He cut close

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the door a little bit, you know, quite quickly. So

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I knock on his door for a third time. This time.

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Is someone else standing there? So that's this is really

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annoying him, which is understandable. He would annoy me as well,

465
00:34:22.119 --> 00:34:25.159
especially as he doesn't he knows them, but he doesn't

466
00:34:25.159 --> 00:34:27.559
know them the way he knows me. So these are

467
00:34:27.599 --> 00:34:31.400
people who've seen but he hasn't doesn't really have like

468
00:34:31.519 --> 00:34:35.079
regular contact with them. And I said, I'm the only

469
00:34:35.119 --> 00:34:37.360
one he lets in his house. No one else, no

470
00:34:37.360 --> 00:34:44.760
one else is allowed in there. So I've got her.

471
00:34:44.880 --> 00:34:48.119
Her boyfriend's there as well. He's standing on the stairs,

472
00:34:48.119 --> 00:34:52.559
but he's tall enough to see over the banister and

473
00:34:53.320 --> 00:34:56.039
he opens the door and I say to him, oh,

474
00:34:56.079 --> 00:35:01.719
you know, you know her downstairs. I don't know what

475
00:35:01.760 --> 00:35:06.280
excuse I made for her being there, but I said,

476
00:35:07.119 --> 00:35:11.760
I've called one one one about your about your situation,

477
00:35:12.400 --> 00:35:14.440
and he said, what did you do that for? I said, well,

478
00:35:17.400 --> 00:35:22.039
I said it just he seemed like you were looking

479
00:35:22.079 --> 00:35:23.880
forward to the weekend. I just wanted to ruin all

480
00:35:23.880 --> 00:35:27.440
the rugby for you. So I didn't say that that's like,

481
00:35:28.599 --> 00:35:33.199
what other option did I have? He said why? I said,

482
00:35:33.199 --> 00:35:38.159
because I care. That's why that's why I called. Because

483
00:35:38.199 --> 00:35:40.719
I care. I said, if that's I was getting a

484
00:35:40.760 --> 00:35:42.880
little bit defensive to be honest, that that's a problem

485
00:35:42.960 --> 00:35:46.480
for you. That's your that's your problem. But I'm sorry.

486
00:35:47.039 --> 00:35:48.760
You know, I've gone through life with a lot of

487
00:35:48.800 --> 00:35:52.199
people not caring and no one's like and he's used

488
00:35:52.239 --> 00:35:54.960
to not being on his own. And I see him

489
00:35:55.199 --> 00:35:58.559
as a future version of me in some ways, because

490
00:35:58.559 --> 00:36:02.320
we're both very on her own, doing her own thing,

491
00:36:02.559 --> 00:36:12.239
very independent, don't really like being bothered, and don't generally

492
00:36:12.320 --> 00:36:18.480
ask anyone for anything for all possible. And I was

493
00:36:18.639 --> 00:36:21.320
really I was really getting in a way of that.

494
00:36:22.440 --> 00:36:26.760
I was, I mean, knocking on his door three one,

495
00:36:26.920 --> 00:36:35.079
two three, three times. The first time was fine anyway,

496
00:36:35.159 --> 00:36:37.599
because that was just a standard let's say, a look

497
00:36:37.599 --> 00:36:41.599
at your bathroom, but the other two times and having

498
00:36:41.960 --> 00:36:46.360
different people standing there with me. He was very anyway,

499
00:36:46.400 --> 00:36:48.920
the third time he got anger with me, and I

500
00:36:48.960 --> 00:36:52.480
understand it, I do, But at the same time, I

501
00:36:52.519 --> 00:36:56.559
also needed a third opinion. I just I needed to

502
00:36:56.559 --> 00:36:58.960
be one hundred percent sure because I knew I was

503
00:36:59.000 --> 00:37:01.960
about to ruin his week end at the very least,

504
00:37:02.840 --> 00:37:06.440
because he's looking forward to watching the rugby. And I

505
00:37:06.480 --> 00:37:09.559
also thought there's a chance he won't talk to me again.

506
00:37:11.679 --> 00:37:14.679
But then I've got this. There's this. I told my

507
00:37:14.719 --> 00:37:20.079
friend downstairs, the one Luke. I said to him at

508
00:37:20.159 --> 00:37:23.599
least once when because I'd call an ambulance for him

509
00:37:23.960 --> 00:37:27.480
multiple times and he hated it. It would never go

510
00:37:27.519 --> 00:37:32.000
to hospital. Never under any circumstances would he be taken

511
00:37:32.039 --> 00:37:35.400
Tosspital in an ambulance. And they always wanted to take him,

512
00:37:35.400 --> 00:37:38.760
but he never went. And I said to him once,

513
00:37:39.079 --> 00:37:42.159
I might have said it more than once. I said, listen, mate,

514
00:37:42.400 --> 00:37:45.840
I'd rather you hate me and be alive that love

515
00:37:45.920 --> 00:37:48.159
me and be dead. You know, I noticed, this is

516
00:37:48.159 --> 00:37:52.880
pretty a silly sentence to say. But and when I

517
00:37:52.920 --> 00:37:56.280
said it, I was quite not aggressive, but like I

518
00:37:56.320 --> 00:38:00.280
wasn't being all gentle with it. It was like that's

519
00:38:00.320 --> 00:38:02.880
how it is. You got a problem with it, You're

520
00:38:02.880 --> 00:38:06.199
gonna have to deal with it, because I'm not going

521
00:38:06.280 --> 00:38:08.800
to stand and watch. I'm not just going to ignore

522
00:38:09.960 --> 00:38:14.199
someone who's in trouble. I can't. I can't do that.

523
00:38:14.280 --> 00:38:15.800
I just don't have it in me to do that.

524
00:38:16.920 --> 00:38:23.000
So I said the same thing to Alex. It's like,

525
00:38:23.039 --> 00:38:26.519
I got that little line rehearsed. I feel. Do you

526
00:38:26.519 --> 00:38:30.559
ever get a feeling, you know when you see Clint

527
00:38:30.599 --> 00:38:33.480
Eastwood or those movies and they say that things like

528
00:38:33.960 --> 00:38:37.719
go on make my day, Like he's got it rehearsed.

529
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:42.320
I know he got rehearsed, as in it was in

530
00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:45.800
the movie. It was a script. But it's like, it's

531
00:38:45.840 --> 00:38:50.679
a really good line, but I'll just keep it there

532
00:38:50.880 --> 00:38:53.800
for the good the right moment. So I said that

533
00:38:53.920 --> 00:38:58.199
to him on the third time we were together. No

534
00:38:58.239 --> 00:39:00.960
not no. One wasn't the third time together. It was okay.

535
00:39:01.000 --> 00:39:05.440
The third time I was knock on his door. I

536
00:39:05.519 --> 00:39:14.159
told him that I'd called one one one, and he

537
00:39:14.159 --> 00:39:17.519
said he shouldn't have done that. I said, well I did,

538
00:39:19.119 --> 00:39:23.239
so he shouldn't have done but I did, and he

539
00:39:23.360 --> 00:39:25.159
was very angry. He shut the door in my face.

540
00:39:25.239 --> 00:39:28.280
Slammed the door in my face. Apparently he says something

541
00:39:28.360 --> 00:39:30.719
rude to me as well, but I didn't realize that.

542
00:39:30.840 --> 00:39:34.320
My neighborhood, well both of them heard him for some reason,

543
00:39:34.360 --> 00:39:41.239
I didn't hear it, so that was awkward. Now at

544
00:39:41.239 --> 00:39:45.559
this point, my other neighbors from downstairs, they come into

545
00:39:45.559 --> 00:39:51.960
my flat and they're like, wow, probably surprised at how

546
00:39:52.000 --> 00:39:54.039
he was acting to me, because I know that me

547
00:39:54.079 --> 00:39:57.599
and him are being quite close for the last year

548
00:39:57.719 --> 00:40:04.280
or so, so it's kind of she was surprised at

549
00:40:04.280 --> 00:40:07.480
that because she's the whole time she's lived there, me

550
00:40:07.519 --> 00:40:10.239
and him have been We get on really, you know,

551
00:40:10.639 --> 00:40:17.559
she sees us. I don't know, it just be just yeah.

552
00:40:17.880 --> 00:40:21.199
She was just surprised at how he was acting. So

553
00:40:21.239 --> 00:40:28.400
she came in there and she said, well, I don't

554
00:40:28.400 --> 00:40:33.480
know what to do. So what she did is she

555
00:40:33.679 --> 00:40:38.360
called one one one and reported it and said, look,

556
00:40:38.519 --> 00:40:43.199
the neighbor he won't he won't listen to us, he

557
00:40:43.239 --> 00:40:46.400
won't allow anyone to come in and you know, medical

558
00:40:46.920 --> 00:40:54.559
anything like that, blah blah. So one more one they'd

559
00:40:54.559 --> 00:40:57.000
already told me because I called them back again as well,

560
00:40:58.400 --> 00:41:00.840
and they kept asking the same question, is he with you.

561
00:41:01.880 --> 00:41:06.039
Can you check what's his condition now? I said, I mean,

562
00:41:06.119 --> 00:41:09.559
I'd literally to the same person. I said, probably six

563
00:41:09.639 --> 00:41:12.400
seven times, I'm not with him because he won't let

564
00:41:12.440 --> 00:41:14.000
me in the flat, shut the door in my face.

565
00:41:14.079 --> 00:41:16.280
We slammed the door in my face. He won't let

566
00:41:16.320 --> 00:41:20.039
me in. I can't talk to him, and every other

567
00:41:20.480 --> 00:41:25.159
probably three minutes later. So can I talk to him?

568
00:41:25.280 --> 00:41:28.960
Like he's not with me? So is he still yellow? Like?

569
00:41:29.239 --> 00:41:31.719
It was weird? It was kind of I realized they've

570
00:41:31.719 --> 00:41:34.519
got their script and they're trying to get to the

571
00:41:34.559 --> 00:41:37.960
bottom of it. So I'm not in no way being horrible.

572
00:41:38.039 --> 00:41:47.679
I'm just it was it was difficult, and she said, well,

573
00:41:47.760 --> 00:41:50.920
we'll get back to you. I'll get her. They were

574
00:41:50.960 --> 00:41:53.320
all nice everyone. I spoke to his nice. We'll get

575
00:41:53.440 --> 00:41:58.199
someone back to you. She already spoke to a manager.

576
00:41:58.280 --> 00:42:00.599
And then they said we'll get back to you, and

577
00:42:00.599 --> 00:42:02.480
and then they said that also to my other neighbor.

578
00:42:02.639 --> 00:42:05.840
They didn't get back to my other neighbor, and I

579
00:42:05.880 --> 00:42:11.599
thought that was it, but I gave them his number

580
00:42:13.639 --> 00:42:16.320
and I said, unlikely he's going to answer the phone

581
00:42:16.639 --> 00:42:19.119
if he hasn't even turned it off. He's locked the

582
00:42:19.159 --> 00:42:22.159
door so you can't get in, and unlikely he's going

583
00:42:22.239 --> 00:42:24.719
to answer the door. I was wrong on all that.

584
00:42:24.760 --> 00:42:28.079
Actually I was wrong. He had locked it, but he

585
00:42:28.159 --> 00:42:34.639
actually was very compliant with them, not with me. So

586
00:42:34.679 --> 00:42:38.800
I got I can't, haven't got access to my phone,

587
00:42:38.840 --> 00:42:43.920
so probably a bad half an hour later, maybe the

588
00:42:43.960 --> 00:42:47.199
phone went. Maybe an hour later the phone went and

589
00:42:47.239 --> 00:42:51.239
it was one more one again. I think this time

590
00:42:51.239 --> 00:42:58.119
it was a nurse and she said, are you with him?

591
00:42:58.159 --> 00:43:01.400
I said, no, I'm not with him. He's in a

592
00:43:01.440 --> 00:43:04.440
different flat. The door was locked. He hates me now.

593
00:43:05.400 --> 00:43:11.559
She said, like I understand. Well, we've got his telephone

594
00:43:11.639 --> 00:43:23.599
number and he's yeah, I will try and call him,

595
00:43:23.679 --> 00:43:29.559
and we're gonna basically send a paramedic around. She said,

596
00:43:29.559 --> 00:43:30.920
can you knock on his door let him know? I

597
00:43:30.920 --> 00:43:35.239
said no, I really can't. I said, well I can,

598
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:37.360
but you won't answer the door. That's a guarantee for

599
00:43:37.519 --> 00:43:41.159
not to me anyway, and that's just going to upset

600
00:43:41.199 --> 00:43:44.840
him even more. I really didn't expect him to answer

601
00:43:44.880 --> 00:43:49.000
the phone to them, But she phoned back about fifteen

602
00:43:49.000 --> 00:43:52.360
minutes later and said they've spoken to him. He was

603
00:43:52.440 --> 00:43:55.480
nicest pie on the phone. He agreed to have the

604
00:43:55.519 --> 00:43:58.440
paramedics come around. He was going to let them in,

605
00:43:59.440 --> 00:44:06.559
and it was absolutely lovely, and I thought, really, so,

606
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:14.440
I think it's at this point I went to bed.

607
00:44:16.199 --> 00:44:17.599
I didn't really go to bed, but I went for

608
00:44:17.719 --> 00:44:22.039
a lie down because I didn't feel any longer that

609
00:44:22.119 --> 00:44:25.719
I could be involved, because the way he'd treated me

610
00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:29.880
and the way that he'd spoken to me, and I

611
00:44:29.880 --> 00:44:32.920
didn't think that he'd want me involved. But at the

612
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:37.840
same time, he was getting medical assistance and that was

613
00:44:37.880 --> 00:44:43.199
the most important thing. Having me around wasn't important, That's

614
00:44:43.239 --> 00:44:49.239
what I thought anyway, but him getting help was important.

615
00:44:50.599 --> 00:44:53.280
So they went in there. I was just laying down,

616
00:44:53.599 --> 00:44:57.159
like quarter past ten or something. They weren't in there long.

617
00:44:58.239 --> 00:45:01.239
There was no big long thing. It was like, right, yep,

618
00:45:02.159 --> 00:45:05.039
we're taking the hospital. They were in there for fifteen

619
00:45:05.079 --> 00:45:10.360
minutes and half past ten. In his barking so you

620
00:45:10.400 --> 00:45:12.880
can hear the door go. I left my door open,

621
00:45:12.920 --> 00:45:14.880
which is not what I normally do when I'm in

622
00:45:14.920 --> 00:45:19.239
bed at that time, but I looked at the camera.

623
00:45:19.280 --> 00:45:21.480
I saw that they were coming out and he was

624
00:45:21.519 --> 00:45:28.719
locking the door. So I came out and I said,

625
00:45:30.119 --> 00:45:36.320
you're right, it's very awkward, and the paramedics. They knew

626
00:45:36.360 --> 00:45:37.920
who I was. I guess they knew because I didn't

627
00:45:37.920 --> 00:45:42.840
want to called. Not knew me personally, but I think

628
00:45:42.840 --> 00:45:44.480
I probably told him I'm the one at card you.

629
00:45:46.400 --> 00:46:01.320
In fact, wait a minute, wait a minute, I'm no,

630
00:46:01.480 --> 00:46:06.280
I've got this wrong. I'm doing this in the wrong order. Right.

631
00:46:06.360 --> 00:46:11.320
Here's what happened. I took Vinnie out for his last

632
00:46:11.320 --> 00:46:17.599
little wi that's it, and I'm coming back, and the

633
00:46:17.639 --> 00:46:24.480
ambulance is there or yeah, we're coming back, and the

634
00:46:24.519 --> 00:46:28.480
ambulance was there. So I go up to them and

635
00:46:28.519 --> 00:46:32.679
say hi. They said hi. I said, I'm the one

636
00:46:32.679 --> 00:46:37.199
that called you. They said, oh, okay, hi, and I

637
00:46:37.239 --> 00:46:41.079
said and I had just explained the situation, and they

638
00:46:41.119 --> 00:46:47.719
went upstairs, and I just waited, oh yeah, oh that's what.

639
00:46:47.880 --> 00:46:53.320
That's it. I saw the ambulance outside. I came down

640
00:46:53.440 --> 00:46:55.480
to take him into the garden, but for I go

641
00:46:55.519 --> 00:46:59.679
out of the front and I turned right for some

642
00:46:59.719 --> 00:47:03.440
of me, and then I turned left again. It's weird anyway,

643
00:47:03.480 --> 00:47:05.239
And I went out and told him who I was

644
00:47:05.320 --> 00:47:09.360
and that I want I'm the one that called originally,

645
00:47:09.480 --> 00:47:15.840
and explained my perspective of what's kind of going on

646
00:47:15.880 --> 00:47:19.800
with him. Just because he's coloring really, but he physically

647
00:47:19.840 --> 00:47:22.639
feels fine and everything. And they said okay, so they

648
00:47:22.679 --> 00:47:30.639
went upstairs. I took Vinnie in the garden, so they

649
00:47:30.679 --> 00:47:32.559
were knock him for a little while before her answered

650
00:47:32.639 --> 00:47:35.599
to be fair and then but they didn't give up,

651
00:47:37.199 --> 00:47:40.760
and I just waited. I waited and listened until he'd

652
00:47:40.840 --> 00:47:43.800
let them in and they closed the door, and then

653
00:47:43.840 --> 00:47:47.280
I went upstairs and I went and lied down. But

654
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:49.400
they weren't there for long, and then they brought him out.

655
00:47:49.440 --> 00:47:53.280
So I go outside, say you're right, and she said

656
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:58.760
there was two paramedics, so we'd take him to the hospital.

657
00:47:59.800 --> 00:48:02.519
I said, as I speak to Alex, I said, how

658
00:48:02.559 --> 00:48:05.440
you doing? He said, I think he apologized to me.

659
00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:11.880
And I said to him, brought me to come with you?

660
00:48:13.800 --> 00:48:19.000
He said yes, So I went with him. This was

661
00:48:19.079 --> 00:48:22.639
like half ten, got an ambulance with him. He's lying

662
00:48:22.639 --> 00:48:26.239
down on a bed thing, and I'm sitting in a chair.

663
00:48:26.280 --> 00:48:29.880
I didn't even know they had chairs and ambulances. Never

664
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:35.280
been for an ambulance ride as in my memory, maybe

665
00:48:35.320 --> 00:48:37.840
when I was a kid, but not in my adult memory.

666
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:42.159
I don't remember ever ever being traveling in an ambulance

667
00:48:44.440 --> 00:48:48.400
and It was a very strange, very strange experience because

668
00:48:48.400 --> 00:48:51.119
there was no windows. Well there's windows, but all black

669
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:56.880
blackened out. So it's almost like traveling on the tube,

670
00:48:57.000 --> 00:49:03.239
like underground, the underground railway, but no stops. You got

671
00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:08.760
not no railway stations or anything going through. And I

672
00:49:08.800 --> 00:49:10.800
had no idea where I was. I knew I was

673
00:49:10.800 --> 00:49:14.679
in an ambulance, but I had no idea where I was,

674
00:49:16.159 --> 00:49:20.719
like within the distance of traveling to the hospital. He

675
00:49:20.920 --> 00:49:25.280
was fine, he was joking, and they've got a cup

676
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:30.679
of coffee from Costas on the way. It was yeah.

677
00:49:30.800 --> 00:49:37.239
And then so I was with him till three o'clock

678
00:49:37.320 --> 00:49:41.239
or three thirty in the morning. That's when I took

679
00:49:41.280 --> 00:49:44.920
that photo. I took that video of that fox outside

680
00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:48.119
the hospital because I was waiting for a taxi. It

681
00:49:48.199 --> 00:49:50.559
was bright outside, but there's got a lot of lights

682
00:49:50.559 --> 00:49:53.519
at day in the hospital. But it was just like wow,

683
00:49:53.639 --> 00:50:00.159
almost like daytime, but very quiet. See, Friday night was

684
00:50:00.199 --> 00:50:04.599
going to be really busy, but it wasn't. And the

685
00:50:04.639 --> 00:50:08.920
busiest days, which I found very interested, just kind of

686
00:50:10.159 --> 00:50:12.360
threw me off a bit. But apparently the busiest times

687
00:50:12.400 --> 00:50:16.400
of the hospital are Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday at that

688
00:50:16.480 --> 00:50:19.840
hospital anyway, I mean A and E. Of course it

689
00:50:19.920 --> 00:50:25.199
gets I suppose it's busy pretty much the whole time,

690
00:50:25.239 --> 00:50:28.159
but it's you know, it seems to be that the

691
00:50:28.159 --> 00:50:31.039
hospital as a whole, because they've got less staff on

692
00:50:31.039 --> 00:50:37.480
onto the weekend. So I've been here every day since Friday,

693
00:50:38.639 --> 00:50:41.000
and I've seen it get busier and busier and busier,

694
00:50:42.119 --> 00:50:45.800
like every day. It's almost like a twenty five percent

695
00:50:46.239 --> 00:50:51.199
of the people added on. It's weird, including staff as well.

696
00:50:51.679 --> 00:50:53.760
So where there was like maybe two or three staff,

697
00:50:53.880 --> 00:51:01.800
now there's ten. It's yeah, it really busy anyway. So

698
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:10.920
they didn't put him into A and E. They didn't

699
00:51:10.960 --> 00:51:14.239
have him sitting down waiting to be seen for hours

700
00:51:14.280 --> 00:51:21.239
and hours. They took him straight into an emergency observation place,

701
00:51:21.599 --> 00:51:23.440
so he was still he was in A and E,

702
00:51:23.920 --> 00:51:25.760
but he was on a bed in A and E.

703
00:51:26.679 --> 00:51:29.920
And they took his bloods and they did all that

704
00:51:30.039 --> 00:51:36.440
really quickly, and he had a cat scan within an

705
00:51:36.480 --> 00:51:44.880
hour of being there, I'd say maybe two hours, So

706
00:51:45.079 --> 00:51:46.519
I was kind of with him. I didn't go into

707
00:51:46.519 --> 00:51:53.400
the X ray place, but I was outside and everyone

708
00:51:53.480 --> 00:51:59.760
was so nice. Bearing in mind they're just super busy.

709
00:52:00.239 --> 00:52:04.920
You know, it's really weird. I think that some people they, oh,

710
00:52:05.119 --> 00:52:09.639
they're just sitting around doing nothing, but they're not. You know,

711
00:52:09.840 --> 00:52:13.440
it's like, okay, maybe they're chatting. They need to have

712
00:52:13.639 --> 00:52:18.159
that moments, a couple of moments of just having a chat,

713
00:52:18.280 --> 00:52:21.199
you know, with their friends, talking about and as part

714
00:52:21.239 --> 00:52:23.159
of the learning process is what, isn't it? Because you've

715
00:52:23.159 --> 00:52:27.840
got a lot of young student students working there, student nurses,

716
00:52:28.320 --> 00:52:32.239
student doctors, and they learn from each other's experiences as well,

717
00:52:32.320 --> 00:52:36.079
don't they. So if someone's just had a situation as

718
00:52:36.119 --> 00:52:41.039
a nurse with a patient, they tell their colleague or

719
00:52:41.039 --> 00:52:44.239
their friend who's also a student nurse, and they can

720
00:52:44.320 --> 00:52:46.639
kind of learn from that experience. I just thought that

721
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:50.960
out loud, and I really pleased myself. Yeah, so chatting

722
00:52:51.280 --> 00:52:55.760
may be useful sometimes, could be helpful for future patients.

723
00:52:57.880 --> 00:53:00.880
And are always doing paperwork. I noticed that as well.

724
00:53:00.920 --> 00:53:09.880
It's constant because I kept interrupting people. But it was

725
00:53:10.119 --> 00:53:13.280
it got to three o'clock or just after maybe half

726
00:53:13.559 --> 00:53:17.320
three to half three, I can't remember exactly, and the

727
00:53:17.440 --> 00:53:19.800
nurse said to me because I said, is a doctor

728
00:53:19.840 --> 00:53:22.960
coming around? Because I told her hours earlier that the

729
00:53:23.039 --> 00:53:25.440
doctor was going to come around because he had his

730
00:53:25.440 --> 00:53:30.760
blood test. Is that is cat scan done? So I

731
00:53:30.760 --> 00:53:32.800
guess we were waiting for the doctor to tell him

732
00:53:32.800 --> 00:53:36.639
the results of the cat scan. Maybe not the blood tests,

733
00:53:36.679 --> 00:53:41.920
but the cat scan. And she said, no, he won't

734
00:53:41.920 --> 00:53:46.920
be seeing a doctor tomorrow, probably because I thought I

735
00:53:46.960 --> 00:53:48.559
was going to wait for him to see a doctor,

736
00:53:50.639 --> 00:53:54.360
either privately or with me there, whatever he wanted, and

737
00:53:54.400 --> 00:53:57.960
then be with him until he got into the ward,

738
00:53:58.159 --> 00:54:00.920
whatever ward he was going to be in, because it

739
00:54:01.039 --> 00:54:03.519
looked like they already said that he's going into a ward.

740
00:54:03.599 --> 00:54:12.599
He was not being sent home, and I that's what

741
00:54:12.639 --> 00:54:15.280
I was going to do. I was so tired. I

742
00:54:15.360 --> 00:54:19.440
wasn't delusional, delusional, whatever you want to call it. I

743
00:54:19.480 --> 00:54:24.920
wasn't like tripping or anything, but that particular I know

744
00:54:24.960 --> 00:54:27.800
it's weird, but that particular morning, I woke up at

745
00:54:27.800 --> 00:54:31.360
three thirty in the morning. It's a really early morning.

746
00:54:31.400 --> 00:54:35.000
I don't normally wake up that early, but I got

747
00:54:35.039 --> 00:54:37.599
out of bed. I had had a nap during the day,

748
00:54:41.199 --> 00:54:43.960
but I'm normally in bed by ten, so to be

749
00:54:44.079 --> 00:54:49.039
awake at three point thirty I was. I felt like

750
00:54:49.079 --> 00:54:53.239
I was almost on another planet, you know. It was

751
00:54:53.880 --> 00:55:00.000
really strange. I felt very weird, and he wasn't tired,

752
00:55:00.840 --> 00:55:03.159
But then I wouldn't have been tired if I was

753
00:55:03.159 --> 00:55:10.320
in this situation either, So I was, but I was

754
00:55:10.360 --> 00:55:14.079
stimulated as well because I'm not used to being around people,

755
00:55:14.719 --> 00:55:18.599
not that many people whatever. Really, you know, just in

756
00:55:18.639 --> 00:55:22.519
my life, I saw more people on Friday night than

757
00:55:22.599 --> 00:55:30.039
I've probably seen the last two years, as like amount

758
00:55:30.079 --> 00:55:33.960
of people. And that was just Inday evening. It's just

759
00:55:34.000 --> 00:55:37.480
a huge amounts of the people in the hospital, even

760
00:55:37.519 --> 00:55:43.320
when it's quiet. So the nurse said to me, you

761
00:55:43.360 --> 00:55:45.960
might as well go home. He's not going to be

762
00:55:46.039 --> 00:55:50.400
seen by a doctor tonight, very unlikely. It's free in

763
00:55:50.400 --> 00:55:52.480
the morning, but he probably won't be seen until Saturday

764
00:55:52.719 --> 00:55:59.679
during the day, and he very unlikely he's going to

765
00:55:59.679 --> 00:56:02.920
be put to a ward until tomorrow. That she was

766
00:56:02.960 --> 00:56:05.480
saying tomorrow, but you know Saturday, it was already Saturday,

767
00:56:05.519 --> 00:56:09.800
I guess early hours. So I told my friend. I

768
00:56:09.800 --> 00:56:14.000
said I'm going to go, and he said, okay. It

769
00:56:14.119 --> 00:56:15.840
said to me a few times ago, if you want,

770
00:56:16.800 --> 00:56:19.920
because I was yawning and like I was struggling to

771
00:56:20.000 --> 00:56:27.440
keep my eyes open, like physically struggling a bit like now.

772
00:56:30.400 --> 00:56:41.960
So I left, got a taxi home, and I called

773
00:56:42.039 --> 00:56:47.159
him in the morning about ten o'clock Saturday, so I

774
00:56:47.199 --> 00:56:53.719
went to sleep. Was it ten o'clock? It probably was,

775
00:56:53.760 --> 00:56:56.519
because I went to sleep and I awoke. I couldn't

776
00:56:56.519 --> 00:56:59.599
go straight to sleep either, which is weird. Even though

777
00:56:59.599 --> 00:57:05.800
I was tired, I hadn't eaten anything for eight hours,

778
00:57:05.880 --> 00:57:09.480
nine hours, so I just needed to get some food

779
00:57:09.519 --> 00:57:13.000
in me. So I had some breakfast cereal, waited for

780
00:57:13.880 --> 00:57:16.440
half hour, forty minutes or whatever. Then I went to sleep.

781
00:57:16.760 --> 00:57:18.639
In fact, I didn't go to bed. I fell asleep

782
00:57:18.639 --> 00:57:21.280
on this chair here. I don't know if I was

783
00:57:21.320 --> 00:57:24.480
watching Telly, but I fell asleep and I woke up

784
00:57:24.840 --> 00:57:28.400
probably about eight or nine in the morning, so I

785
00:57:28.440 --> 00:57:32.519
probably maybe three hours four hours sleep. I called him

786
00:57:32.599 --> 00:57:35.719
up about ten and he told me he'd been moved

787
00:57:36.000 --> 00:57:41.599
and had been seen by a doctor already. I said, wow, okay,

788
00:57:41.639 --> 00:57:45.199
so he's moved into a different ward and I said

789
00:57:45.199 --> 00:57:47.079
what did the doctor say. He said, it's not good.

790
00:57:47.679 --> 00:57:49.079
I said, okay, do you want to tell me now?

791
00:57:49.320 --> 00:57:51.760
Trought me to come and visit you and tell me.

792
00:57:51.800 --> 00:57:54.960
Then he said, well, i'll tell you in person. So

793
00:57:57.400 --> 00:58:03.159
I said, give me. I don't know when I went

794
00:58:03.320 --> 00:58:06.000
what time. I think, yeah, I left it at midday,

795
00:58:06.039 --> 00:58:08.880
so I said, give me, give me a couple of

796
00:58:08.880 --> 00:58:12.719
hours because I need to get ready, but I'll head off.

797
00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:17.679
So I got a taxi there at midday and got

798
00:58:17.719 --> 00:58:21.440
there just before one o'clock I don't know, twenty to

799
00:58:21.519 --> 00:58:28.840
one or something. And so it was a new ward.

800
00:58:31.400 --> 00:58:35.679
He's on the left hand side, yeah, and he had

801
00:58:35.760 --> 00:58:39.280
someone opposite. Oh. Yeah, there was a bloke. I got

802
00:58:39.360 --> 00:58:42.360
chatting to one of the blokes that was the other side.

803
00:58:42.519 --> 00:58:47.880
There was two people waiting to go home basically, and

804
00:58:47.960 --> 00:58:53.119
he was in. He was just sitting there again, felt

805
00:58:53.119 --> 00:58:59.000
fine physically, and so told me what a doctor said.

806
00:58:59.000 --> 00:59:02.000
So I'm like, okay. So we started having some quite

807
00:59:02.239 --> 00:59:09.039
serious conversations and that, and so I'm there. I got home.

808
00:59:13.360 --> 00:59:15.199
I couldn't even tell you what time. I got home

809
00:59:15.519 --> 00:59:21.199
about seven o'clock in the evening. And there was there

810
00:59:21.239 --> 00:59:31.840
again Sunday. So I was leaving here probably I think

811
00:59:31.880 --> 00:59:36.239
probably midday again on Sunday, get home about six or

812
00:59:36.280 --> 00:59:46.280
seven Monday. I left at about twenty to ten a

813
00:59:46.400 --> 00:59:50.159
quarter ten in the morning, got home about half six

814
00:59:51.679 --> 00:59:58.000
in the evening. That was Monday. Today, I tried to

815
00:59:58.039 --> 01:00:00.800
get a little bit earlier, so I left hear about

816
01:00:00.800 --> 01:00:05.039
ten past nine. But I missed the bus. This because

817
01:00:05.440 --> 01:00:07.400
all the rest of the time I've been paying taxis

818
01:00:08.119 --> 01:00:11.159
and it's twenty pound per visit, twenty pounds per trip,

819
01:00:11.199 --> 01:00:14.119
and I've been doing two trips a day, so one

820
01:00:14.159 --> 01:00:18.280
trip on Friday, two on Sunday. No one on Friday,

821
01:00:18.599 --> 01:00:21.239
two on Saturday, two on Sunday, and two on Monday.

822
01:00:22.320 --> 01:00:26.880
So today I had to get the bus. I really

823
01:00:26.920 --> 01:00:31.800
don't have any choice. And it's a journey. It's a

824
01:00:31.840 --> 01:00:42.199
real journey because two buses and I missed the bus. No.

825
01:00:42.440 --> 01:00:45.239
Yesterday I got the bus back. No, I didn't get

826
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:47.519
I didn't use a taxi. I got a bus back

827
01:00:48.360 --> 01:00:52.800
and it took me two hours from the hospital to

828
01:00:52.840 --> 01:00:56.639
my home. It takes two hours with two buses waiting

829
01:00:56.719 --> 01:01:01.800
and walking. It's two hours, which is kind of strange really,

830
01:01:02.920 --> 01:01:05.360
And so I got the bus again today, missed the

831
01:01:05.400 --> 01:01:09.280
first bus, and then I missed the connection coming back.

832
01:01:10.039 --> 01:01:12.599
In fact, I didn't miss the connection. What happened is

833
01:01:12.760 --> 01:01:15.079
I got the bus back from the hospital to the

834
01:01:15.159 --> 01:01:19.480
track to the bus station. That bus station road was

835
01:01:19.559 --> 01:01:22.199
closed off, so the bus has had to do a detour.

836
01:01:23.400 --> 01:01:29.360
I was waiting for a specific bus there was. It

837
01:01:29.400 --> 01:01:33.159
didn't stop at the correct bus stop because there was

838
01:01:34.360 --> 01:01:36.880
I don't know why it didn't stop there. It went

839
01:01:37.079 --> 01:01:39.360
over and there's all these other buses in a way,

840
01:01:39.400 --> 01:01:41.199
so I'm following it to see where it's going to park.

841
01:01:41.920 --> 01:01:45.519
It parked further down the road, so I'm walking towards it,

842
01:01:45.599 --> 01:01:47.599
thinking it's going to open the doors and let people out,

843
01:01:47.840 --> 01:01:50.559
so people are going to wait to get in. No,

844
01:01:51.199 --> 01:01:54.440
it just drives off again. So I missed that bus.

845
01:01:56.400 --> 01:02:01.519
Then there's another bus which is going to the airport,

846
01:02:01.920 --> 01:02:04.760
but it does go past where I live, go past

847
01:02:04.800 --> 01:02:12.000
the estate chop a chopper chopper full proper full of

848
01:02:12.000 --> 01:02:16.559
people all on their way to holiday. I guess, so

849
01:02:16.760 --> 01:02:20.480
suitcases and everything everywhere. And I managed to get on

850
01:02:20.840 --> 01:02:25.519
and did get seat, which is okay, but it's very noisy.

851
01:02:25.880 --> 01:02:29.760
And now I guess people would excited they're on holiday.

852
01:02:29.800 --> 01:02:38.239
They just enjoy themselves. But is yeah, it was anyway,

853
01:02:38.320 --> 01:02:41.639
I got home. That's the bottom line. I got home.

854
01:02:43.360 --> 01:02:46.840
I didn't. I didn't do a late one though, because

855
01:02:47.239 --> 01:02:52.159
I left to get there for ten and I told

856
01:02:52.199 --> 01:02:57.000
him that I can't leave Ville on his own for

857
01:02:57.079 --> 01:02:59.519
you know, seven eight hours a day. I can't. I

858
01:02:59.559 --> 01:03:02.400
can't keep doing that. It's just not fair on him

859
01:03:02.400 --> 01:03:06.360
because he's been unhappy. He's he's stopped eating his food.

860
01:03:07.960 --> 01:03:09.840
I literally I give him his food and his water,

861
01:03:10.679 --> 01:03:13.800
and he's got everything in these but he's in one

862
01:03:13.880 --> 01:03:16.320
room like the living room. It's not it's not a

863
01:03:16.360 --> 01:03:19.239
tiny room or anything, but the windows are open, so

864
01:03:19.239 --> 01:03:21.760
he's got air ventilation. You can't get you can't get

865
01:03:21.800 --> 01:03:29.480
to the windows, TVs on or something. But it's too

866
01:03:29.519 --> 01:03:34.039
long for him, and he's now like rested. He's cuddled

867
01:03:34.119 --> 01:03:38.480
up to me and chilled out now because I got

868
01:03:38.480 --> 01:03:40.639
home a bit earlier, and I think it makes a difference.

869
01:03:41.199 --> 01:03:42.559
So I took him for a walk before I took

870
01:03:42.599 --> 01:03:47.679
him out. Today he's had three w a l k's.

871
01:03:47.719 --> 01:03:50.360
I just realized said the word. He said three today

872
01:03:51.639 --> 01:03:54.400
he said A one normal one and one really short one.

873
01:03:54.760 --> 01:04:00.559
He said three normal length ones. So one before I

874
01:04:00.639 --> 01:04:11.440
went out. I was back by carter past two, maybe

875
01:04:11.719 --> 01:04:16.679
half past two. So it worked. Even though I missed

876
01:04:16.679 --> 01:04:18.480
the bus and everything, I still managed to get back

877
01:04:18.519 --> 01:04:24.719
by half past two, and he didn't seem quite as

878
01:04:24.800 --> 01:04:28.639
stressed out as he was the last few days. So

879
01:04:28.719 --> 01:04:33.480
that taken off that four four odd hours more really

880
01:04:33.519 --> 01:04:37.000
seems to have many difference. And I gave him some

881
01:04:37.039 --> 01:04:41.280
food and he's eating it. I gave him food yesterday,

882
01:04:41.280 --> 01:04:43.360
he wouldn't eat it. He didn't eat the food all

883
01:04:43.440 --> 01:04:45.239
day long. And the food I gave me, it wouldn't

884
01:04:45.280 --> 01:04:51.440
eat either. I mean on on Saturday or Sunday, Sunday

885
01:04:51.480 --> 01:04:54.039
I think it was, or maybe Monday. I gave him

886
01:04:54.079 --> 01:04:57.039
his food and its water, and I gave him a

887
01:04:57.079 --> 01:05:00.480
t R E E E E T one of his

888
01:05:00.519 --> 01:05:03.519
favorite ones, and I put it down. He grabbed it

889
01:05:03.519 --> 01:05:07.000
and brought it in the hat into the room, and

890
01:05:07.039 --> 01:05:10.360
then I close the door and he's just going bananas

891
01:05:10.760 --> 01:05:12.840
because he doesn't want me to leave. I come home,

892
01:05:13.920 --> 01:05:18.519
you know, eight nine hours late or whatever. The food's untouched.

893
01:05:18.880 --> 01:05:20.639
The tree's still on the floor. It's not even touched

894
01:05:20.639 --> 01:05:25.599
the tree. So yeah, he's been a little bit affected.

895
01:05:26.079 --> 01:05:29.559
I Mean, the problem is I've never left him on

896
01:05:29.599 --> 01:05:32.280
his own, hardly at all. The whole time had him.

897
01:05:32.639 --> 01:05:35.679
It's been twenty four hours a day pretty much together.

898
01:05:36.880 --> 01:05:40.760
And there's been a couple of occasions where I've had

899
01:05:40.800 --> 01:05:43.719
to leave him for a few hours, but never more

900
01:05:43.760 --> 01:05:48.679
than a few hours. I think maybe four four hours,

901
01:05:48.760 --> 01:05:51.760
five hours at the most. It's you know, it's a

902
01:05:51.920 --> 01:05:54.639
very it's rare, and this has been every day for

903
01:05:54.679 --> 01:06:00.079
four days, five days. But he seems to be a

904
01:06:00.119 --> 01:06:02.880
bit more chilled out today because I took him out.

905
01:06:03.679 --> 01:06:05.960
I had to sit down first because I was naked,

906
01:06:06.480 --> 01:06:10.000
and I took him out about quarter to three, and

907
01:06:10.000 --> 01:06:14.559
then I took him out again about seven. So he's

908
01:06:14.599 --> 01:06:17.960
had he's been out, and he's he's done all he

909
01:06:18.039 --> 01:06:20.280
needs to do out there. It's now dark, so it's

910
01:06:20.280 --> 01:06:23.440
probably about ten o'clock at night, and I don't feel

911
01:06:23.480 --> 01:06:26.239
so tired as well, because I had a nap when

912
01:06:26.239 --> 01:06:28.000
I got back here. I took him out. Then I

913
01:06:28.039 --> 01:06:30.039
had a nap for about an hour hour and a

914
01:06:30.119 --> 01:06:35.079
half and I found I work up with I think

915
01:06:35.119 --> 01:06:38.199
maybe I went to bed about four, broke up about six.

916
01:06:39.599 --> 01:06:42.480
I needed I needed to sleep because it was I

917
01:06:42.519 --> 01:06:47.519
was so tired, and I'm still tired enough to go

918
01:06:47.559 --> 01:06:51.599
to bed now, you know, because it's what it might

919
01:06:51.599 --> 01:06:53.039
be gone ten. I don't know how long I've been

920
01:06:53.079 --> 01:07:00.719
talking for. I started this about nine o'clock, very dark,

921
01:07:00.960 --> 01:07:09.840
so knackering. And what's really strange is my neighbor has

922
01:07:09.920 --> 01:07:14.559
started to talk about his life, which he never used

923
01:07:14.599 --> 01:07:19.840
to do. It's alway about sport generally, and now he's

924
01:07:19.920 --> 01:07:22.599
we've been going out because he doesn't have to stay

925
01:07:22.639 --> 01:07:27.719
in the ward all the time. I mean, I mean

926
01:07:28.039 --> 01:07:30.400
legally he can do whatever he wants. He doesn't have

927
01:07:30.440 --> 01:07:33.000
to stay in the ward ever. You know, he can

928
01:07:33.039 --> 01:07:35.239
come and go and do what he wants. But you know,

929
01:07:35.280 --> 01:07:38.239
as far as from a medical perspective, as long as

930
01:07:38.280 --> 01:07:41.719
he lets them know, and if he's got a doctor

931
01:07:41.760 --> 01:07:43.840
on the way, then he stays. You know, they say,

932
01:07:43.840 --> 01:07:47.480
well can you wait until the doctor seen you? And

933
01:07:47.519 --> 01:07:49.199
he needs to be there when they're doing the meals

934
01:07:49.239 --> 01:07:51.880
as well, because otherwise it messes it up for other people.

935
01:07:52.559 --> 01:07:57.840
So outside of that, for the last three days or

936
01:07:57.880 --> 01:08:00.679
I think Sunday Monday two yet to last three days,

937
01:08:01.000 --> 01:08:03.760
maybe Saturday as well, we've been going out for a walk.

938
01:08:04.159 --> 01:08:08.480
We've been gone outside and sat down and yes, Saturday, Sunday,

939
01:08:08.480 --> 01:08:15.760
Money and Tew all four days. Which is weird because

940
01:08:15.880 --> 01:08:20.279
yesterday we were sitting at this bench and a duck

941
01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:24.920
started pecking at my grain and for a second I

942
01:08:24.920 --> 01:08:28.279
thought it was Vinny. It's because I'm so used to

943
01:08:28.319 --> 01:08:30.600
having him with me. I'm not saying that Vinnie pecks

944
01:08:30.600 --> 01:08:34.640
at my grain, but just if there's movement in my pants,

945
01:08:35.079 --> 01:08:42.680
this sounds wrong. Oh, this movement in my pants, I

946
01:08:42.720 --> 01:08:46.760
assume it's Vinnie. No, if you know I'm used to

947
01:08:46.840 --> 01:08:52.800
him like rubbing up against me again, that sounds wrong.

948
01:08:53.000 --> 01:08:55.039
You know, just things like lick it. No, that sounds

949
01:08:55.039 --> 01:08:58.560
wrong as well, just you know, him doing his thing

950
01:08:59.119 --> 01:09:03.920
like jumping on me, or laying down and cuddling up

951
01:09:03.960 --> 01:09:07.479
to my feet or this thing, or walking on my feet,

952
01:09:07.520 --> 01:09:12.600
stuff like that, or you know. So it was weird

953
01:09:12.640 --> 01:09:14.600
because I nearly said, with Annie, what are you doing?

954
01:09:15.239 --> 01:09:17.119
I looked down. It was this duck looking up at

955
01:09:17.119 --> 01:09:25.560
me and he's pecking at me bits gently, very gentle lover.

956
01:09:25.680 --> 01:09:28.319
I to be honest, very I'm glad because they've got

957
01:09:28.359 --> 01:09:31.800
those big old beaks. They could imagine they could cause problems,

958
01:09:32.319 --> 01:09:37.640
but he didn't. It was very lovely. His name is Cyril.

959
01:09:38.840 --> 01:09:41.880
We got on quite well. We swapped numbers. You know,

960
01:09:43.239 --> 01:09:49.119
we're going to see how it goes. So I he's

961
01:09:49.159 --> 01:09:53.640
been talking, he's been opening up, and he's been asking

962
01:09:53.680 --> 01:09:57.000
me about me, which he never normally does, asking me

963
01:09:57.000 --> 01:10:05.079
about my childhood, talking about his own childhood. And I'm

964
01:10:05.119 --> 01:10:07.159
not sure if he ever saw me as a human before.

965
01:10:08.479 --> 01:10:10.199
I don't know if he ever saw me as a

966
01:10:10.239 --> 01:10:14.279
person just a neighbor, I don't think. I'm not sure

967
01:10:14.279 --> 01:10:18.279
if he saw me as a I don't know, as

968
01:10:18.279 --> 01:10:23.079
a person with feelings and or had any interest. But

969
01:10:23.159 --> 01:10:25.319
I understand that because I'm a bit like that myself.

970
01:10:28.239 --> 01:10:30.720
But then, you know, he's never really talks about his

971
01:10:30.800 --> 01:10:33.960
life normally. It's just all about sport, and I get bored.

972
01:10:34.359 --> 01:10:36.640
I tell him, I don't pretend. I tell him I'm

973
01:10:36.680 --> 01:10:41.680
not interested in hearing about football. I says, boring to me.

974
01:10:41.840 --> 01:10:44.079
It's not boring to you. It's not boring to most people,

975
01:10:44.079 --> 01:10:48.680
but to me, I switch off if you. I like

976
01:10:48.760 --> 01:10:52.840
talking about boxing, but generally I only like talking about

977
01:10:52.840 --> 01:10:58.920
boxing to people that know about boxing, because I would

978
01:10:58.960 --> 01:11:01.159
probably say that I'm more more than a casual fan

979
01:11:01.239 --> 01:11:06.600
of boxing, you know, it's something that I really have

980
01:11:06.840 --> 01:11:12.680
loved for decades. I sound probably more than just a

981
01:11:12.800 --> 01:11:18.119
I don't just watch the big fights, although they are

982
01:11:18.119 --> 01:11:25.319
the best fights quite often, but not always actually anyway,

983
01:11:25.439 --> 01:11:30.479
so that's not really about boxing. Is that this recorded

984
01:11:30.199 --> 01:11:35.600
and I've done I made a few faux pas along

985
01:11:35.600 --> 01:11:40.720
the way. So I was taken my going to take

986
01:11:40.720 --> 01:11:44.520
my friend outside, and I said to his neighbor, oh, yeah,

987
01:11:44.760 --> 01:11:50.840
he got moved to another award on Monday morning, I

988
01:11:50.880 --> 01:11:55.800
think or Sunday morning Monday. I lose in track of

989
01:11:55.840 --> 01:11:58.279
the days, to be honest, I think it might have

990
01:11:58.279 --> 01:12:01.199
been Sunday morning and he got moved because there was

991
01:12:01.199 --> 01:12:08.159
someone was starting and being problematic with him. I don't

992
01:12:08.199 --> 01:12:20.119
know really what that was about. And so we it's

993
01:12:20.199 --> 01:12:21.520
quite funny. I said, he you want me to go

994
01:12:21.560 --> 01:12:23.880
and visit him and go? And then the word because

995
01:12:23.920 --> 01:12:26.680
it because they basically moved my neighbor, not the bloke,

996
01:12:27.680 --> 01:12:30.199
and he said, no, you laughed. But then we were

997
01:12:30.199 --> 01:12:31.880
out for a walk he said, are we going to

998
01:12:31.920 --> 01:12:36.439
go and see that bloke? Like, no, I didn't mean it.

999
01:12:37.159 --> 01:12:42.319
I said, look, I think it's really worth remembering that

1000
01:12:43.600 --> 01:12:50.399
not people react differently to being unwell, you know, and

1001
01:12:51.079 --> 01:12:55.880
some people are very patient, some people are not, some

1002
01:12:55.920 --> 01:12:59.359
people have you know, It's it's just it's no way

1003
01:12:59.399 --> 01:13:03.159
of different. We all react different. And I try just

1004
01:13:03.239 --> 01:13:09.159
like say to everyone in the beds every bed. Apart

1005
01:13:09.199 --> 01:13:15.840
from Mabe, we most beds, I mean, I'm sure places

1006
01:13:15.960 --> 01:13:21.359
like the baby maternal maternity ward there's a lot of

1007
01:13:22.319 --> 01:13:25.840
pretty a lot of very happy people in those beds.

1008
01:13:26.319 --> 01:13:29.399
I'm guessing after giving birth. I don't know, I've never

1009
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:39.199
I've never had a baby. But outside of that, saying

1010
01:13:39.239 --> 01:13:43.079
to him like, no one's here because I want to

1011
01:13:43.119 --> 01:13:48.880
be here, and everyone is in those beds are unwell.

1012
01:13:49.760 --> 01:13:52.520
So it's got to just need to just try and

1013
01:13:53.800 --> 01:13:56.600
give everyone a break if you can. Don't take it

1014
01:13:56.640 --> 01:14:01.039
too personally. I think I've been quite lucky in life

1015
01:14:01.479 --> 01:14:05.079
in a sense of I've done some jobs which have

1016
01:14:05.319 --> 01:14:10.279
involved a lot of rejection. That's sales. Sales is one

1017
01:14:10.359 --> 01:14:14.039
job where it doesn't matter how good you are, rejections

1018
01:14:14.920 --> 01:14:19.560
the majority. You know, it's people saying no most of

1019
01:14:19.600 --> 01:14:24.640
the time, and I kind of got used to that.

1020
01:14:25.000 --> 01:14:28.239
And also being in a working a call center, I

1021
01:14:28.279 --> 01:14:31.239
got used to a lot of very rude people as well,

1022
01:14:33.119 --> 01:14:36.760
and I kind of become accustomed to it. And then

1023
01:14:36.760 --> 01:14:39.640
when I became a counselor, I've got to find out

1024
01:14:39.880 --> 01:14:43.000
a lot of what people are going through behind the

1025
01:14:43.039 --> 01:14:49.039
scenes as humans that is not you know, because I've

1026
01:14:49.079 --> 01:14:50.960
kind of got my own experiences and I've got that

1027
01:14:51.159 --> 01:14:57.279
to work with. But then hearing in depth hundreds of

1028
01:14:57.319 --> 01:15:01.520
other people's experiences over i know, five years or whatever

1029
01:15:01.560 --> 01:15:05.920
I was a counselor that was like, wow, it was

1030
01:15:06.520 --> 01:15:12.880
very educational, I guess. So I think with those experiences

1031
01:15:13.319 --> 01:15:20.039
mixed together, I'm kind of able to look at situations

1032
01:15:20.439 --> 01:15:23.760
from different angles. I'm not saying I do it well

1033
01:15:23.800 --> 01:15:32.399
because sometimes I really don't. Yeah, I'm not always perfect.

1034
01:15:33.600 --> 01:15:36.960
I'm never perfect. I don't even I don't even want

1035
01:15:37.000 --> 01:15:42.319
to be perfect, never really. I think just being decent.

1036
01:15:43.479 --> 01:15:49.520
I like to be known as kind, and that's but

1037
01:15:49.720 --> 01:15:53.600
naturally kind, not doing it for any other reason, not

1038
01:15:54.039 --> 01:15:56.720
doing it because I want attention or because I want

1039
01:15:57.000 --> 01:16:03.439
people to think, ooh he's so kind, not that, not

1040
01:16:03.600 --> 01:16:08.800
not like that, but just genuine like a decent person.

1041
01:16:11.760 --> 01:16:18.960
But not perfect because it's easy. It's only one way

1042
01:16:19.000 --> 01:16:21.079
to go. Once you're perfect, you can't go any higher

1043
01:16:21.159 --> 01:16:28.600
up ken you. So I'd rather just I'd rather kind

1044
01:16:28.600 --> 01:16:42.319
of surf surf in the middle somewhere possibly. And yeah, anyway,

1045
01:16:42.319 --> 01:16:46.359
I said to this, his his neighbor who's in the ward.

1046
01:16:46.920 --> 01:16:51.039
So I've got talking to two of the people because

1047
01:16:51.079 --> 01:16:54.079
he's now an award with four people. One of the

1048
01:16:54.079 --> 01:16:58.319
people doesn't talk to me, but admit that he can't anyway,

1049
01:16:58.399 --> 01:17:07.920
so he's he's very not very unwell, so but he

1050
01:17:07.960 --> 01:17:09.760
does talk to the other day. They've all got to

1051
01:17:09.800 --> 01:17:11.079
know him a little bit because they're in the same

1052
01:17:11.119 --> 01:17:13.840
room with him twenty four hours a day. But he's

1053
01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:17.119
his why she usually there when I go there, so

1054
01:17:17.239 --> 01:17:20.800
I say lo to her, But the two other blokes

1055
01:17:20.840 --> 01:17:23.800
in there got chatting to him. They know my name

1056
01:17:23.840 --> 01:17:30.000
and everything, and so I've been starting to go and

1057
01:17:30.039 --> 01:17:31.840
get coffees for them and sort of saying do you

1058
01:17:31.880 --> 01:17:37.119
need anything. And it turns out neither of them are

1059
01:17:37.119 --> 01:17:45.359
allowed to leave the ward, but my neighbor can. So

1060
01:17:45.960 --> 01:17:53.159
it's like for medical reasons. And I really put my

1061
01:17:53.199 --> 01:17:57.319
foot in it. So I said to the blokes in

1062
01:17:57.359 --> 01:18:00.159
the bed next to my neighbor, I said, well, if

1063
01:18:00.199 --> 01:18:05.119
you fancy it, you come in comfortab walk with us

1064
01:18:05.119 --> 01:18:07.319
if you want if you want to get out, because

1065
01:18:07.359 --> 01:18:11.399
he hadn't editing visitors for a day or so, and

1066
01:18:11.439 --> 01:18:14.199
he said no, I can't. I said, what's up to you.

1067
01:18:14.520 --> 01:18:16.319
If it's up to you, if you don't want to,

1068
01:18:16.479 --> 01:18:21.640
he said no, I can't walk. Ah, I'm so sorry,

1069
01:18:21.840 --> 01:18:25.319
he laughed. He said, no, you didn't know digit because

1070
01:18:25.319 --> 01:18:27.159
I've only seen him in the bed. I had no

1071
01:18:27.239 --> 01:18:32.399
idea that he wasn't able to walk. And I said,

1072
01:18:32.399 --> 01:18:34.760
well if you if you want to get a chair,

1073
01:18:35.119 --> 01:18:38.600
I'm happy to push you down, you know. And he said,

1074
01:18:38.680 --> 01:18:42.680
I'm not allowed out. Okay. I think there's a bit

1075
01:18:42.680 --> 01:18:45.760
of rejection. I think he just I'm not saying he's pretending,

1076
01:18:45.840 --> 01:18:49.159
but he might be pretending he's not allowed to leave.

1077
01:18:49.199 --> 01:18:56.359
I mean, that's what I mean. He's perhaps I'm boring him,

1078
01:18:56.520 --> 01:19:00.000
but he's a nice bloke and you are. One position

1079
01:19:00.159 --> 01:19:03.760
asked me can you take me out? And I said, well,

1080
01:19:05.439 --> 01:19:08.119
when you release from hospital, we can perhaps go for

1081
01:19:08.159 --> 01:19:10.680
a drink. He said no, no, I want Can you

1082
01:19:10.760 --> 01:19:13.039
just help me go outside? I said, oh, okay, sorry,

1083
01:19:13.560 --> 01:19:19.079
I was embarrassing. And he said to me, why do

1084
01:19:19.119 --> 01:19:21.479
you do that? I said, what do you mean? He said, well,

1085
01:19:21.520 --> 01:19:24.800
why do you like going about, like all, having dates

1086
01:19:24.800 --> 01:19:29.520
with men when you you like women? I said so,

1087
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:33.520
He said, this just seems a weird thing to do.

1088
01:19:35.479 --> 01:19:39.319
I said why, He said, just I don't know. Just

1089
01:19:40.079 --> 01:19:42.720
a lot of straight people don't say things like that,

1090
01:19:43.600 --> 01:19:45.319
you know. I said, well, I'm not a lot of

1091
01:19:45.359 --> 01:19:49.399
straight people. But he said that doesn't make sense. I said,

1092
01:19:49.399 --> 01:19:54.840
I know, nothing does. And then we all just like

1093
01:19:54.960 --> 01:19:59.640
looked at each other and like that moment, you know

1094
01:19:59.720 --> 01:20:04.119
that my where you all realize that's true. Nothing really

1095
01:20:04.119 --> 01:20:07.279
does make sense, does it. If you really like delve

1096
01:20:07.319 --> 01:20:13.359
into it, it's like okay, wow. So anyway, and then

1097
01:20:13.399 --> 01:20:19.279
I just I did a little dance. Again. I thought

1098
01:20:19.359 --> 01:20:22.600
that shouldn't have done that the last If someone tells

1099
01:20:22.600 --> 01:20:24.560
you they can't walk, you don't start dancing in front

1100
01:20:24.600 --> 01:20:28.319
of them. That's kind of just I wasn't doing it

1101
01:20:28.319 --> 01:20:31.079
for that reason. It was just I just had a

1102
01:20:31.079 --> 01:20:35.279
bit of nervous energy. You know, it's strange. But he

1103
01:20:35.399 --> 01:20:38.119
forgave me anyway. So I was kind of like, I

1104
01:20:38.119 --> 01:20:40.239
can't believe. I just said, do you want to go

1105
01:20:40.319 --> 01:20:42.920
for a walk? And he said, yeah, I'm not a

1106
01:20:42.920 --> 01:20:45.279
dog as well. Just don't don't don't put it in

1107
01:20:45.279 --> 01:20:46.600
that word. Do you want to go for a walk?

1108
01:20:46.640 --> 01:20:49.359
Can I take you for a walk? I said, I

1109
01:20:49.359 --> 01:20:52.039
didn't say that today. He said, yeah, you did. He

1110
01:20:52.039 --> 01:20:54.159
said another thing. I said, what was that? He said,

1111
01:20:54.159 --> 01:20:56.279
when you do that don't hold a dog lead in

1112
01:20:56.319 --> 01:20:59.680
your hand, and don't say good boy, good but you

1113
01:20:59.680 --> 01:21:03.520
want to go good boy, and don't call me Vinnie.

1114
01:21:04.039 --> 01:21:09.279
I was like, okay, sorry, I miss him. The other bloke,

1115
01:21:10.159 --> 01:21:15.399
he said, they're not taking me outside. I said, okay.

1116
01:21:15.439 --> 01:21:19.600
And he's been here since I don't know, he's been

1117
01:21:19.640 --> 01:21:24.520
there for five days, six days, five days and he's

1118
01:21:24.560 --> 01:21:27.800
not been outside since he's been there. And I went

1119
01:21:27.840 --> 01:21:30.840
to the reception. I said, can I take what's his

1120
01:21:30.960 --> 01:21:34.920
name out? He's asked me? And she said no. I said,

1121
01:21:34.960 --> 01:21:38.760
I'll go on. She said no. I said please. She

1122
01:21:38.800 --> 01:21:40.920
said no. I said, is that all you can say?

1123
01:21:41.119 --> 01:21:44.640
Just no? She said no. That's when I realized that

1124
01:21:45.159 --> 01:21:47.640
she could say other things, and I thought maybe she might.

1125
01:21:47.720 --> 01:21:51.600
I just figured she'd won the argument, really, And she said,

1126
01:21:51.600 --> 01:21:54.279
the reason that he can't go out is because he

1127
01:21:54.359 --> 01:21:57.880
needs a medically trained person with him. Are you medically trained?

1128
01:21:57.960 --> 01:22:01.039
And I said yes. If she said are you really,

1129
01:22:01.119 --> 01:22:03.720
I said no, I'm not. She said why did you

1130
01:22:03.760 --> 01:22:08.279
say yes? Because I thought maybe you believe me? I said,

1131
01:22:08.279 --> 01:22:10.800
why don't you just stick to your stick to your guns?

1132
01:22:10.800 --> 01:22:13.800
And if you say yes, why did you say yes? Twice?

1133
01:22:13.920 --> 01:22:20.680
I said, because I didn't think you believed me. Ah,

1134
01:22:20.800 --> 01:22:25.520
it was weird. So she said no. But I did

1135
01:22:25.600 --> 01:22:27.920
say to her, if you need someone to take him out,

1136
01:22:27.920 --> 01:22:30.239
I'm happy to take him out or any of the

1137
01:22:30.279 --> 01:22:35.199
other people, either with my neighbor or separately. I don't care,

1138
01:22:36.279 --> 01:22:38.399
you know, while I'm here, I'm happy to be useful,

1139
01:22:40.279 --> 01:22:44.359
which is a weird, weird thing. I'd rather do something

1140
01:22:44.399 --> 01:22:48.479
than just not do anything, not in life, but just

1141
01:22:48.720 --> 01:22:51.600
in a hospital setting, because I see this so much,

1142
01:22:53.199 --> 01:22:58.399
so many people working so hard, and I kind of like,

1143
01:22:58.439 --> 01:23:03.439
for example, the man next to my neighbor, he asked

1144
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:06.840
one of the nurses or I don't have it the

1145
01:23:06.960 --> 01:23:11.960
nurse or care I don't know the different workers. Isn't

1146
01:23:11.960 --> 01:23:15.000
there in hospital if you could get a bag, because

1147
01:23:15.039 --> 01:23:16.560
I had a lot of rubbish on his bin on

1148
01:23:16.680 --> 01:23:19.399
his table, and I said, I can get rid of

1149
01:23:19.399 --> 01:23:22.960
that for you. Just suddenly binzos over there. I'll just

1150
01:23:23.000 --> 01:23:25.760
take it bit by bit. So I emptied his table,

1151
01:23:27.000 --> 01:23:32.199
and he seemed surprised I did that. That's no difference

1152
01:23:32.279 --> 01:23:40.479
to me, And yeah, I just she was like, there's

1153
01:23:40.600 --> 01:23:47.159
a hero. If you look inside your pants, it's I

1154
01:23:47.159 --> 01:23:49.760
don't know why I say that. I'm not saying this,

1155
01:23:49.840 --> 01:23:52.880
so like cool, how good I am? I emptied someone's table.

1156
01:23:53.239 --> 01:23:55.680
It's not I don't think that's going to be my epitaph,

1157
01:23:55.800 --> 01:23:59.279
is it. It was a bit annoying, but he did

1158
01:23:59.319 --> 01:24:03.760
empty people's tables. They didn't want him to. This is

1159
01:24:03.760 --> 01:24:07.640
to walk randomly around hospitals and put people's stuff in

1160
01:24:07.680 --> 01:24:16.520
the bin. It was very annoying. Yeah, so I'm trying

1161
01:24:16.560 --> 01:24:18.520
to think of any other weird things that have happened

1162
01:24:20.079 --> 01:24:26.279
since I was one. Weird occasion is older to taxi? No,

1163
01:24:26.520 --> 01:24:31.000
this is this is weird. Yeah, order a taxi and

1164
01:24:31.800 --> 01:24:36.000
I did it. It's got like this automatic auto system.

1165
01:24:36.680 --> 01:24:39.600
And at the end of it, they couldn't even understand

1166
01:24:39.600 --> 01:24:41.239
what I was saying. But at the end of it,

1167
01:24:41.319 --> 01:24:46.039
they said, so picking you up from your address and

1168
01:24:46.119 --> 01:24:50.279
delivering you back to your address, my home address, and

1169
01:24:50.560 --> 01:24:53.439
I wanted to pick me up at the hospital and

1170
01:24:53.520 --> 01:24:56.000
take me to my address. So they were going to

1171
01:24:56.079 --> 01:24:58.039
pick me up and drop me off at the same place.

1172
01:25:00.159 --> 01:25:03.680
Think that like caused some kind of an error in

1173
01:25:03.720 --> 01:25:09.520
the system, wouldn't you. But n So I phoned them

1174
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:12.800
up again, and as I phoned them up, they phoned

1175
01:25:12.840 --> 01:25:15.399
me up. So I hung up, answered the phone that

1176
01:25:15.399 --> 01:25:19.199
they were calling me, and I said, she said, oh,

1177
01:25:19.479 --> 01:25:21.640
is that whatever? I said, yeah, you made a book

1178
01:25:21.640 --> 01:25:24.119
and I said yeah, and I was about to explain,

1179
01:25:25.560 --> 01:25:29.039
and she said, oh, wait it was. She didn't say

1180
01:25:29.319 --> 01:25:32.199
I'm talking, but it was kind of that attitude like,

1181
01:25:32.560 --> 01:25:36.880
wait a minute, let me finish. So she went on

1182
01:25:36.920 --> 01:25:39.560
and on and said. She said, see, you don't want

1183
01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:41.479
to be picked up from that address, and I said no.

1184
01:25:41.960 --> 01:25:46.720
She said, okay, I'll cancel it then. And I don't

1185
01:25:46.880 --> 01:25:48.319
explained to her. I was at the hospital and I

1186
01:25:48.359 --> 01:25:52.640
wanted to go there from the hospital. I assumed that

1187
01:25:52.760 --> 01:25:56.479
by telling her that that she would send me a taxi. No,

1188
01:25:57.239 --> 01:26:05.600
she canceled the taxi all together. So I'm waiting for

1189
01:26:05.640 --> 01:26:08.319
half an hour. Nothing comes. I phone up the taxi

1190
01:26:08.399 --> 01:26:12.279
office again. This time I speak to someone different and

1191
01:26:12.319 --> 01:26:18.479
they say, oh, you know, it's canceled. I said okay,

1192
01:26:19.640 --> 01:26:22.840
And he was surprised that it was canceled and they

1193
01:26:22.880 --> 01:26:26.479
didn't send me a taxi, and so he said, I'll

1194
01:26:26.479 --> 01:26:30.119
get someone with you now. So probably about another fifteen

1195
01:26:30.119 --> 01:26:32.119
to twenty minutes and I've got a taxi turn up.

1196
01:26:32.880 --> 01:26:37.560
And I might be exaggerating the timescale here for effect.

1197
01:26:38.359 --> 01:26:40.720
I don't know what type of effect, to be honest,

1198
01:26:41.159 --> 01:26:49.720
a boring effect. So he pulls up and I don't know,

1199
01:26:49.920 --> 01:26:53.319
he doesn't like look way. He didn't know me anyway,

1200
01:26:53.359 --> 01:26:56.520
but he parked up, and he didn't seem to be

1201
01:26:56.560 --> 01:27:01.439
indicating who's for because there was always people waiting for taxis.

1202
01:27:04.079 --> 01:27:07.239
So I went to where his stories, you know, where

1203
01:27:07.319 --> 01:27:11.800
he was sitting in the car. It was definitely from

1204
01:27:11.800 --> 01:27:14.720
the company i'd ordered, but it could have been for anyone.

1205
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:20.239
And I said, are you here for Jason? He said yeah,

1206
01:27:22.279 --> 01:27:24.279
but he had a weird look on his face. I said,

1207
01:27:24.720 --> 01:27:27.800
you are right. He said no, I can't go anywhere

1208
01:27:27.840 --> 01:27:31.119
at the moment, I said why not? And he pointed

1209
01:27:31.159 --> 01:27:37.399
to the screen which was the payment thing, and they said,

1210
01:27:37.520 --> 01:27:39.640
they're telling me the journey is going to be seven pound.

1211
01:27:41.359 --> 01:27:44.640
I'm not taking you all away there for seven pound,

1212
01:27:46.199 --> 01:27:49.199
and there's actually seventeen pound. I'll give a three pound tip.

1213
01:27:49.960 --> 01:27:53.279
But so they'd missed out the ten pound. So what

1214
01:27:53.319 --> 01:27:57.319
they've done is they'd put on the same thing where

1215
01:27:58.039 --> 01:28:00.760
it was the same price as the original journey. So

1216
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:04.239
what they had charged me to pick me up and

1217
01:28:04.319 --> 01:28:07.720
drop me off at the same address was seven pounds.

1218
01:28:09.800 --> 01:28:11.560
Why would you want to be picked up and dropped?

1219
01:28:11.600 --> 01:28:15.399
I mean literally picked up? So you get in a car,

1220
01:28:16.159 --> 01:28:18.199
give them seven pounds and then you get out in

1221
01:28:18.199 --> 01:28:21.319
the car again out of the taxi. I mean why

1222
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:25.960
unless you're the only time I've seen anyone get into

1223
01:28:25.960 --> 01:28:28.199
a car and then get straight out again. And I

1224
01:28:28.239 --> 01:28:32.800
think this was a taxi. It was Superman movie like

1225
01:28:33.439 --> 01:28:37.039
in the late seventies. He gets in the taxi and

1226
01:28:37.079 --> 01:28:39.279
gets out the other side and he's Superman goes in

1227
01:28:39.319 --> 01:28:42.720
Clark Kent, and I think there's a taxi or was

1228
01:28:42.760 --> 01:28:46.760
at police in That might mean a police car. That

1229
01:28:46.840 --> 01:28:49.079
was a bit a bit rude though if it was

1230
01:28:49.079 --> 01:28:54.039
a police car, a bit rude any car really, isn't it.

1231
01:28:57.319 --> 01:29:01.000
And he said we're not going anywhere. I'm not taking

1232
01:29:01.039 --> 01:29:04.239
anyone anywhere until I get the proper price. And I

1233
01:29:04.279 --> 01:29:07.760
said to him, look, it's seventeen pound. I'm paying you

1234
01:29:07.800 --> 01:29:10.600
twenty pound anyway, and he said, I I'll get in there.

1235
01:29:11.720 --> 01:29:14.039
I said, you know, there's no argument on my side.

1236
01:29:14.039 --> 01:29:17.159
I'm too tired to argue, and I know that it's

1237
01:29:17.199 --> 01:29:20.600
not seven pound. I've done the journey since well, I've

1238
01:29:20.640 --> 01:29:24.920
done it. I think I've done it four times at

1239
01:29:24.920 --> 01:29:34.600
that point, and he just halfway through the journey. The

1240
01:29:35.119 --> 01:29:40.000
office called him up and he explained the situation and

1241
01:29:40.039 --> 01:29:42.319
they said, oh, they didn't know what was going on,

1242
01:29:42.359 --> 01:29:51.279
and eventually they they changed it, changed it to it

1243
01:29:51.319 --> 01:29:57.720
came up properly at seventeen. But it's like I couldn't

1244
01:29:57.720 --> 01:30:00.800
wait around. It was like, I want to really because

1245
01:30:00.800 --> 01:30:04.880
when he charge me waiting time, that's what I was thinking.

1246
01:30:04.960 --> 01:30:07.720
Is he going to charge me waiting time because he's

1247
01:30:07.760 --> 01:30:14.479
waiting on the proper price. I don't know, but it

1248
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:16.439
was a it was a cool bloke, so it was

1249
01:30:16.720 --> 01:30:21.640
that was an easy situation too to change or to

1250
01:30:21.760 --> 01:30:30.279
a remedy. And so basically, you know, my friend's under observation.

1251
01:30:30.920 --> 01:30:37.600
It's got things you know, going to be observed, et cetera.

1252
01:30:40.920 --> 01:30:46.760
That's going back and forward. Is really really connected me

1253
01:30:47.920 --> 01:30:54.720
really in a way that I'm surprised at. I kind

1254
01:30:54.720 --> 01:31:01.439
of just didn't expect it, to be honest. I managed

1255
01:31:01.479 --> 01:31:06.039
to get my prescription, which is good on the way,

1256
01:31:06.960 --> 01:31:15.479
and had a weird experience today. I went into because

1257
01:31:15.520 --> 01:31:18.960
they've got a W. H. Smith, They've got a Costa

1258
01:31:19.000 --> 01:31:27.079
Coffee in the hospital. There's a a supermarket in Marks

1259
01:31:27.159 --> 01:31:33.000
and Spencer's. I think, yeah, there's two Costa coffees, actually

1260
01:31:34.520 --> 01:31:36.680
one small one and one larger one where you can

1261
01:31:36.760 --> 01:31:40.920
eat like you can sit down. So I go into

1262
01:31:41.680 --> 01:31:44.479
w A Smith as well. So I go into Marks

1263
01:31:44.479 --> 01:31:47.560
and Spencer's. I get some milk because I've got no

1264
01:31:47.680 --> 01:31:54.000
milk at home for my breakfast in the morning, and

1265
01:31:54.039 --> 01:32:00.359
I realized I've got very little breakfast cereal. Ever, I'm

1266
01:32:00.359 --> 01:32:03.000
looking for the breakfast cereal and what I've noticed in

1267
01:32:03.319 --> 01:32:08.119
this Marks the Spencer's. It's just maybe it's the same,

1268
01:32:09.720 --> 01:32:11.720
maybe it's always the same. I haven't been in Marx

1269
01:32:11.720 --> 01:32:16.600
Suspenser's for years, but everything is home brand. There's no

1270
01:32:16.880 --> 01:32:19.920
like norm branded stuff. It's just Marks and Spencer stuff.

1271
01:32:20.840 --> 01:32:26.920
Perhaps that's the norm because you know things like Sainsbury's

1272
01:32:28.000 --> 01:32:31.640
they have their own brand, but they also sell popular

1273
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:35.720
brands as well. Maybe mark sus Spencer's don't do that,

1274
01:32:36.640 --> 01:32:40.880
but I thought they did. I thought they sold both. Hmm.

1275
01:32:41.479 --> 01:32:46.000
I'm not sure anyway, this one doesn't seem to. So

1276
01:32:46.039 --> 01:32:49.800
I'm looking for maybe just some some corn flakes or

1277
01:32:49.840 --> 01:32:54.520
something like that, and I end up in this corner

1278
01:32:54.560 --> 01:33:00.439
where they've got Marks and Spencer's home brand. This gets

1279
01:33:00.520 --> 01:33:04.279
like weir Bis and I think good. Another one is

1280
01:33:04.319 --> 01:33:10.520
like Mooseley something like that. But there's this smell. It's

1281
01:33:10.560 --> 01:33:13.880
not on, it's not on. It's not a horrible smell

1282
01:33:13.960 --> 01:33:17.319
or anything, but it's like a foody kind of smell.

1283
01:33:21.720 --> 01:33:29.039
It felt very familiar, but from the past. It's very strange.

1284
01:33:30.079 --> 01:33:34.640
I had a very unusual feeling like I smelled that before,

1285
01:33:36.800 --> 01:33:42.000
but it's a long, long, long time ago. And I

1286
01:33:42.119 --> 01:33:46.439
just stood there for a second just thinking, hm hmm,

1287
01:33:47.680 --> 01:33:55.439
how strange. In fact, when I visit next time, I

1288
01:33:55.520 --> 01:33:57.199
might go in there and just have a little sniff

1289
01:33:58.000 --> 01:34:03.680
a game. It's a little like hmm, because it's going

1290
01:34:03.720 --> 01:34:06.439
to bug me. I kind of want to know what

1291
01:34:06.479 --> 01:34:12.159
that reminds me of, because it there was emotions connect

1292
01:34:12.159 --> 01:34:18.600
to it, emotions connect to it, emotions connected to it.

1293
01:34:18.800 --> 01:34:23.239
I'm not sure if I've been talking correctly anymore. Oh

1294
01:34:23.479 --> 01:34:35.840
so tired. So that's it. Really, that's the updated version

1295
01:34:35.880 --> 01:34:38.520
of where I've been and why I have not made

1296
01:34:38.560 --> 01:34:44.560
any recordings this week since Friday. I think, so I

1297
01:34:44.560 --> 01:34:53.119
didn't do anything Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Today's Tuesday. Yeah, I

1298
01:34:53.159 --> 01:34:58.319
don't know. I can't even really predict if I'm going

1299
01:34:58.359 --> 01:35:03.119
to make any more recordings this week. It's just hard

1300
01:35:03.199 --> 01:35:08.520
to know. So probably no Q and a Friday, and

1301
01:35:08.800 --> 01:35:14.079
hopefully fingers crossed and get back to be doing a

1302
01:35:14.119 --> 01:35:20.640
normal week next week. But I don't know. It's I'm

1303
01:35:20.720 --> 01:35:22.560
kind of surprised that I was able to do a

1304
01:35:22.640 --> 01:35:29.560
recording today, but up till now, I just haven't been

1305
01:35:29.600 --> 01:35:32.319
able to. I just it's just been around so many people.

1306
01:35:32.520 --> 01:35:38.000
It's I just find it very draining. I just do

1307
01:35:39.359 --> 01:35:44.560
I always have done, and it's I can thrive off

1308
01:35:44.600 --> 01:35:51.920
it for a while, but then after, you know, after

1309
01:35:51.920 --> 01:35:53.960
a couple of hours or an hour or two, I

1310
01:35:54.000 --> 01:35:58.199
was like, oh, and then after four or five hours

1311
01:35:58.199 --> 01:36:02.079
of being out, you know, I'm nearly fallen asleep on

1312
01:36:02.119 --> 01:36:09.880
the bus back today or in a taxi back. And technically,

1313
01:36:09.920 --> 01:36:12.720
you know, I've not really I've not done anything physical.

1314
01:36:14.199 --> 01:36:16.279
I've not technic, I mean literally, I've not done anything

1315
01:36:16.279 --> 01:36:21.399
physical other than just a little, pretty a bit more

1316
01:36:21.439 --> 01:36:24.920
walking than normal, because just walking around as hospitals is

1317
01:36:24.920 --> 01:36:27.159
probably more than I do when I take in for

1318
01:36:27.239 --> 01:36:36.359
a walk. Big old places, an't they And that's it. Really,

1319
01:36:36.640 --> 01:36:41.159
That's pretty much the update. There's there's I'm sure there's

1320
01:36:41.239 --> 01:36:45.039
other stuff that's happened that I've not thought about or

1321
01:36:45.079 --> 01:36:50.399
that I was thinking about, and I haven't remembered I

1322
01:36:50.479 --> 01:36:52.760
as one as one thing. Where As these two nurses

1323
01:36:52.800 --> 01:36:55.520
came in and asked one of the other patients if

1324
01:36:55.520 --> 01:36:59.880
they could borrow her this his skin cream because she

1325
01:37:00.079 --> 01:37:03.640
had sunburn. And I said, you're a sunburn She said, oheah,

1326
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:09.000
look at this because she had a costume, a uniform one.

1327
01:37:09.159 --> 01:37:11.960
And she showed me a picture and it was like

1328
01:37:13.199 --> 01:37:16.000
her back and showed her where it was like sunburn

1329
01:37:16.039 --> 01:37:23.680
on her back and I said, oh, okay, and she's

1330
01:37:23.680 --> 01:37:26.960
holding it. She looked at me. I said next picture, please,

1331
01:37:27.960 --> 01:37:31.960
and they laughed. Thankfully, they didn't show me another picture.

1332
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.560
But it was just I thought, at least I can

1333
01:37:36.640 --> 01:37:38.920
get away with it still, because that's this kind of

1334
01:37:38.920 --> 01:37:41.039
stuff I used to say when I was younger. Maybe

1335
01:37:41.039 --> 01:37:43.159
I get away with it now because I'm so old

1336
01:37:43.199 --> 01:37:45.520
and they're just looking at me like a grand like

1337
01:37:45.600 --> 01:37:51.840
a grandfather or something. But it was nice. It was

1338
01:37:51.880 --> 01:37:55.680
just it was I'm not saying looking at the picture

1339
01:37:55.800 --> 01:38:01.680
was nice. It's just nice to have that friendliness. And

1340
01:38:02.039 --> 01:38:05.800
they've all been friendly. Everyone I've met at the hospital

1341
01:38:05.840 --> 01:38:15.600
has been very friendly and it says cool. And that

1342
01:38:15.840 --> 01:38:20.560
is the end of this or recording. So as a summary,

1343
01:38:20.800 --> 01:38:25.800
the website is back up and running. I will edit

1344
01:38:25.840 --> 01:38:31.239
this tomorrow. I'll try and do it when I wake up.

1345
01:38:31.760 --> 01:38:37.960
I don't know when I'm going to wake up. It

1346
01:38:38.000 --> 01:38:41.079
won't be early early because it may be getting on

1347
01:38:41.119 --> 01:38:43.960
to eleven o'clock now, I don't know how long i've

1348
01:38:44.000 --> 01:38:46.680
been talking for. If that'll let me have a look,

1349
01:38:46.760 --> 01:38:52.039
if I can do it about it's twenty past eleven

1350
01:38:53.640 --> 01:38:57.680
and I've been talking for ninety nine. I've been talking

1351
01:38:57.720 --> 01:39:04.760
for one hundred minutes. What's that? An hour and forty minutes,

1352
01:39:06.319 --> 01:39:09.880
So yeah, I've thought started at ten. I've thought I

1353
01:39:09.880 --> 01:39:14.159
started at nine. Couldn't have done one hundred minutes, so

1354
01:39:14.319 --> 01:39:19.880
sixty seventy eighty nineteen hundred an hour and forty Okay,

1355
01:39:20.800 --> 01:39:27.239
So that's it. Thank you for listening, and remember to

1356
01:39:27.279 --> 01:39:29.600
be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be

1357
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:34.640
happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

1358
01:39:36.680 --> 01:39:40.319
Lots of love. Bye,