July 2, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1387 | Jason Newland | 2nd July 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1387 | Jason Newland | 2nd July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land. This is Whisper Wednesday. Let me

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boy to sleep, and Vinnie has just awoken at seven

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in the morning on I think Wednesday, the second of

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July two thousand and twenty five. I've just heard him.

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I've heard his ears flap. However, he's not coming here yet.

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I don't know. I just flushed the toilets. Maybe that

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disrupted his sleep. Anyway, only listen when you can safety

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close your eyes. It's quite warm already. It's supposed to

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be well according to people that told me, there should

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be some rain today, but it looks like it's going

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to be. If it does rain, it's going to be

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a warm, rainy day. So I'm off to see Uncle

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Sausages again, a neighbor. Uncle Sausages, that's what Vin he

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calls him. I saw him Monday, Tuesday, because I'm seeing

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him today and I'll probably see him tomorrow and Friday

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as well. I was hoping to try and just see

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him on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, but kind of needs me

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to visit a bit more often, so I'll continue to

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do that with the hope, but that maybe he'll be

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able to go home or come home, so he lives

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opposite me. But I really don't know. I genuinely have

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a zero idea if he'll be allowed to come home.

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When I say aloud, of course he can do what

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he wants. He's mobile, so he can physically leave if

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he wanted to. But that possibly wouldn't be a good idea.

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I don't know if you can hear that. Vinnie's just

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climbed onto the sofa with me after after chasing a

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fly for a little bit. Now Vinnie is going to

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stay with a neighbor. So quarter to nine I'm going

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to take him to a neighbor for him to stay

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there for the day, well for a few hours, and

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then I've got a taxi book to four between nine

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and nine point fifteen to go to the hospital. And

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Uncle's Sausages has got making weird noises. Uncle Sausages is

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having scared. He's having a doctor come around to tell him,

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hopefully some kind of treatment plan, because he's he's in

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limbo at the moment. He's not really sure what's going on.

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He's been in there since Friday last week or the

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week before last, so Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Chuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday,

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and Wednesday. So this is the thirteenth day he's been there.

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And other than giving him medication to reduce the ammonia

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in his blood to stop him from being so yellow

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or cerebral cerebellum or where they call it, it's I

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don't think he's on any other medication. And he said

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he stopped having that drink as well, so he's not

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stopped having that medication constantly getting monitored, constant blood tests.

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He's not He's not wired up to any kind of

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machine or anything to check his vitals. So you know,

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they do come around and do his blood pressure and

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stuff like that. He was on a drip for a

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short while before his full body scan because he was

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kneel by mouth so and it's so hot. They had

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to get liquid into his body. Hey, don't be parking, many,

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don't be barking. It's too early. There's someone in the garden.

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I hope that's not the builders. That's way too early

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for them to be coming here and climbing on the roof.

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Seven in the morning. Oh, yesterday I heard one of

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the builders that basically the scaffolding outside by well outside

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my windows, which leads to the roof. I didn't realize

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until I got home yesterday afternoon. I can't open my windows.

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The scaffoldings so close to my windows, I can't actually

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open them. I can put them on a latch, you know,

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so they're open kind of a crack. I can't open

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them up to let any air in wrong time of

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the year for that. Wow, So it's a bit of

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a sweat box in there. In the bedroom, I can

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open the top window, so I don't know how they

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managed to do it, but the living room can't open

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any of the windows. So I'm hoping that they'll be

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finished fairly greatly because I don't know. Just I don't

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want to be sitting in here not being able to

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open the windows. I open the windows in the winter

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all year round. My windows are open, and now I

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can't open them. I think I might have talked enough

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about not being able to open my windows. I'm not

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really sure what else do I add? And bad bad?

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So yeah, I think he's gonna stay with a neighbor

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and then I'm I'll head up to the hospital. It

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and taxis I got that booked. I couldn't get an

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earlier taxi because this is the school run is, so

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there's no no taxis between pretty much seven and nine.

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And there was no reason I couldn't go there too

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early because I'd been waiting around for hours and hours

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and getting there at seven. It's a little bit too

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early because they were all getting ready and the nurses

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are going around and I'm kind of in the way

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a little bit and having their breakfast, and yeah, I

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think the I have got there around eight, just after

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eight before that was a one off time, and that

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was a bit too early, but that was just because

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one of my neighbors gave me a left and he

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left half seven, dropped off his daughter at school and

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his wife at work, and then dropped me off at

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the hospital. So by the time I got to the

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ward it was about quarter past eight, maybe a little

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bit later, but it was still a bit too early.

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I think anything before nine is a little bit, you know,

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plus plus plus plus plus plus.

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There is.

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The visiting hours of eleven o'clock onwards in that ward,

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so I shouldn't really even be in there before eleven o'clock.

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But no one says anything to me. I think.

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That was weird.

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I think I just spoke through my nose then I

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could hear my knees or cavity. That's weird. I think

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in a ward like that, visiting ours don't really seem

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to apply so much. You know, if it was award

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for people with broken bones or people adapt their appendix

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out things like that basic quite simple. I don't know,

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you know, normal operations where the person is going to

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be fine and recover normally, like you know, then I

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suppose the visiting hours a bit more strict. But here

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in the Carn ward the Uncle Sausages is in it's

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they're more flexible. I feel like I've got to know

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some of the staff now because I've been in there

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nearly every day since he got in Friday, Saturday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.

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So there's will be the eleventh day that I've gone

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in there. I did have the weekend off last weekend. Fridayday,

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Saturday and Sunday Sunday is pretty much a no go

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unless I can taxi, I can't get in there, and

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I have tried to get the buses when I can,

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and might attempt to get the bus back. You know,

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two Texas a day is way too expensive, although I

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have asked. I called up Universal Credit yesterday to see

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about getting an advanced payment, and.

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They said, what's it for? I said, taxis, Baby, it's

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for taxis and she said what do you mean? I said, okay,

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it's they kind of like they take you to places,

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phone them up and they come and click picked you up.

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I know what taxis means, but what would you why

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why you can? Why are you get so many taxes?

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And I said it's because of Uncle Sausages. She said,

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oh okay, and then the phone cut off, and I thought, oh,

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you've got me back. She didn't didn't call me back.

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And the reason I didn't phone back is because firstly,

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I'd already been on a phone for way too long waiting.

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You know.

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Secondly, the chance to me getting the same person is

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prepectively non existent, so I'd have to go for the

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whole thing again. So what I did is I went

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online and I left her They call it like a

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journal entry who I just typed in that I spoke

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to someone. They hadn't left a note or anything on

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the system, which is I don't know if that's just

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the way are but I was always taught when I

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worked in a call center, I should pay sixty was

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what were they doing in it? When you when you

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work in a call center and a customer phones up,

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But now why are they called? When they called? Why

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they called, and what the outcome of the call was,

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you know, even if it's a case of our customer

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card wanted to speak to renewals, transferred them to renewals. Yeah,

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just something like that, just to keep a track. It's

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just good, good customer service. I would argue. I wouldn't argue,

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but I would say, but I don't know if they're

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going to respond. It seemed really weird because it says

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if you want an advanced payment, click unaclicked, and it's big,

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a big writing came on a screen saying no way,

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go away, you're not having nothing. They center. There was

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like a drop down list of things, and not one

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of them was advance to payments. I think the way

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they work it out if you do get one is

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you pay ten percent back over the year, so for

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ten months. So if you borrow I guess three hundred pounds,

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you pay thirty pounds a month back for ten months.

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So just see, I don't know if they're going to

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get back to me, but I kind of need to

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plan ahead a bit now because I don't know how

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long Uncle Sausages is going to be in there, and

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of what he gone through my life's savings getting backward

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and forward over the last ten days, so now kind

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of have to be a bit strategic. So yeah, that's

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my planned day to day I get there, hopefully I

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can sit with him while the doctor talks to him

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and tells him how they're hoping to proceed medically, and

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that way I can have more of an understanding and

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perhaps I can explain it better to Uncle's Sausages because

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he doesn't always and this is not criticism, I don't

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think he understands always what they're selling and saying to him.

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And I think part of that is overwhelmed, A huge

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part of it. He's overwhelmed. And you can't blame him.

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You know, he's never been in hospital before, never been

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unwell before in his life. Doesn't even have a doctor,

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he's not registered with a doctor's surgery. He's seventy eight

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years nearly, and he's been tip top health. So this

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is I don't think he is. I don't think anyone

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in that situation could really fully grasp what's going on.

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It's a confused, very confusing time. I find it confusing. Yeah,

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one d I find a lot of things confusing. I

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can't think of anything offhand, but they're surely are some stuff.

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So that's my plan. Yesterday I went. I wasn't gonna go.

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Actually I went Monday. I told him that I was

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gonna visit Wednesday, but i'd give him a call Tuesday.

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He called him and he said he'd seen a doctor

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and he wasn't very happy. And I said, you want

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me to come, but you want me to come in

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and he said that's something only you can decide. So

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I thought that was a yes, wasn't it. Also he

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was a bit he felt a bit low because his

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his neighbor, the man in the bed next to him,

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had left. So it's spent spent a week with this man.

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They got to know each other quite well, and suddenly

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he had no one to talk to, so it's kind

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of a little bit. I think he felt a little

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bit lonely, although he does have Dennis on the TV now,

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so that's that's Bribb has perked him up a little bit.

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For the first week, he didn't watch any television, and

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I kept saying, why don't you stick the TV on,

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just have it in the background, don't even have to

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have the sound up, so there's plenty of sports on

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normal TV, especially in the weekend, but he said no, no, no,

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no no. And when I did eventually just turn it

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on a couple of days ago, I think Monday, he

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was really surprised how good the picture was. And Wimbledon

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had just started the way that's tennis just started on Monday,

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and I think it's I think it's a pleasant distraction.

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So when I visited him yesterday he was half asleep.

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He was listening to because I think I got to

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him probably about I left to hear at midday, so

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I got there probably twenty to one. After twenty to one,

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he was half asleep, but he was listening to the

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to the tennis. So I think for him listening to

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sport or some kind of sporting activity, whether it's football, rugby, cricket, Dennis,

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it relaxes in and it feels nice. And I just

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I just stood there and stared at him. For a while,

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made him jump when he looked up. It was worth it.

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I think he was surprised to see me, even though

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I did salimos on my way. He seems to be

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talking a lot quieter as well, and slower. I don't

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know quite why that is. He didn't want to go

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out yesterday, so that's the first time that he didn't

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want to go out for a walk, you know, come

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out into the sunshine. Thought. I did manage to get

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him what he's been craving for a few days. That's ice.

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When I say ice, i'm talking about ice. Ice, not

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not ice as in removing people that have lived here

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in their whole lives. I'm talking about ice as in

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frozen water. So he was on about what cock get

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some some water? Cocka some water, frozen frozen water. I said,

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you mean ice. He said, yeah, frozen water. And I said, well,

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I can get you some of that. He said, we

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need to get a flask of flowers. I said why.

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He said that keep the ice frozen for longer. Then

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I thought to myself, well, I don't have a flask.

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I can't be trusted with flasks. That sounds strange, doesn't it.

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But I don't think I've ever had a flask where

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I didn't break it. I don't know why. I just

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have a habit of clopping flasks and breaking the inside

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bit which did you know, the glass bit inside. Although

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it's been a little while. I think the last time

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I had a flask was two thousand and five, probably

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two thousand and four, two thousand and five, Yeah, maybe later.

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Maybe it's been a while. So what I did is

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I said to you know, you can just get a

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cold drink from Costa. I'll get you a bottle of

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coke and it'll be colder being a fridge. So I

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did that eat the day before, and then he said

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if I want some ice. I was just pleased and

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stop saying frozen water. So you want some ice? He said, yeah,

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I want some ice. So what I did is I

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went downstairs got him another bottle of coke from Costa.

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Him from the big because there's a big cost well,

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a larger Costa with seeds, and there's a smaller cost

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which is closer to his ward. We have no seats.

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It's just a takeaway. So I go into the larger Costa.

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I get myself a bottle of vander him a bottle

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of coke, and I get myself a chocolate brownie because

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I'm worth it. And I then walk up to the

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other costa and there's a customer there at the till,

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and the man serving answer back to me, and he

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was doing, I don't make in a coffee, I suppose,

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so I'm kind of offering behind the lady who's being served.

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And then another lady comes in and he says, there

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is like a place where you queue, and she said,

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are you being served or you queueing? I said, I

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am not being served, but I'm not really cueing. But

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I am queuing, but I'm not really culling. And she

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said to me, what you mean? I said, well, if

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I get the queue there, the man who's got his

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back face to us might think that I'm that I've

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just got the items out of the fridge and try

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and charge me for this stuff, but I've already bought

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it at the other costa. And she said, it's okay,

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Why are you waiting in And I said, I'm going

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to see if I can get some ice. She said,

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I see, I said, yeah, ice. I thought she might

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correct me by saying frozen water, because she didn't, so

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that was good frozen broken water. So I personally don't

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drink ice. I never have ice ever because ice it's

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tap water and I don't drink tapwater. So I don't

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never have ice in anything apart from when I do.

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But generally, no, I'm not saying I've never had eyes,

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because I have, and if I reckon in this weather,

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I probably would have ice if I was if I

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was sitting outside a pub, for example, I might have

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ice in the glass because of the heat. But generally

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I don't have eyes. But the ice wasn't for me anyway.

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And the man turns around. He finishes serving the lady

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that was already there, so it's just me and the

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other lady who's waiting in a queue. So I'm standing

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in the queue now. And he said anything else And

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I said no, no, wait, wait, wait wait. He said,

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what do you mean wait? I said, wait a second,

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I need to just explain. He said, no you wait.

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I said wow. He said, I don't know. I'm not

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really sure what's going on. Said's fine. These two bowles,

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the factor and the coke. I already purchased them from

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the other Costa up there. He said, okay. He looked

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very confused. He said, what about the chocolate brownie? I said,

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that's in my pocket. You can't even see it. He said, oh,

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fair enough. And he said, well, how can I help?

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I said, I was wondering, just wondering. Say no if

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you like. He said, I will say no if I like.

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I've got complete control of what I say. I said, okay, okay, shirty.

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He just you know, I'm just asking, is there any

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chance I can get some ice in a cup? And

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he looked at me and I said that's the end

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of the sentence. There was nothing else that was it.

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Can I get some ice in a cup? Please? I

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don't know what else he expected me to say. Did

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he expect a song, I don't know, pull out a

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piece of paper and start reciting poetry. I don't know

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what he expected. And he said sure, So he went

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and got some ice, and I said, it's it's far.

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It's for a patient. I think. I said, it's for

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a customer. Then I realized that hospitals don't they call

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them patients, not customers, don't they I suppose customers would

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be a private hospital, wouldn't it they call them customers?

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And he said fine, And do you think it's weird, right.

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Do you know when you see someone every day but

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you don't know them, you don't know anything about them.

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And that's what is going on with this bloke in

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the coster. I've seen him nearly every day for the

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last two weeks, nearly, well yeah, it's nearly. He get

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onto two weeks, and I feel like I know him

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a little bit. I don't. I don't know anything about him,

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but just it's weird, and it's a little bit like

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people in the street I've seen for years and years

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heading towards work, walking through the park, getting ready in

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their bathroom. I mean, okay, that involves climbing a tree,

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but I can't. I just see people doing things that are normal,

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and I kind of feel like I know them a bit,

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but I don't. I don't know who they are. I

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don't know anything about them. I noticed that one there,

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I was going to work on a bus and I

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started to nod to people because it was the same

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people the same time every day. Almost felt like I

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knew them. And I remember saying to someone once, like

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after about six months of doing this, I said to her,

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you know, I feel like I know you now seeing

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you every day on the bus. She said, yeah, you

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should do. I work at your place, literally sit opposite

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you on the desk. I said, oh, for you look familiar.

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She just looked different. You look different when you're at

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the desk and what you do when you're outside. She said,

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I know because I'm wearing a coat now. And she

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is kind of strange without being rude. She used to

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wear a kin costume of work. No one knew why,

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but it didn't seem it didn't seem to affect her

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work because she was on the phones. So now I

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could see her when the management came around, you know,

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from the head office. She was just like all the

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weird people that dressed a bit strange, we like, or

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acted a bit weird, or put into it like a room,

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just hiding away. I looked forward to those days because

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it was a nice break from working. Me and those

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other people would just sit around chating and never got

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around to ask her about the Kim costume. But the

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blood dressed as a pirate. He was interested, and he

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was he was just a big fan of pirate movies.

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He said, he's always wanted to be Kirk Douglas, and

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I said, okay, It's hard to follow that up, really,

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isn't it if someone just comes out without all In

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case anyone's wondering the reason why I wear a pirate

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costume to work, Actually he's a pirate uniform. The reason

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I wearing this pirate uniform is because I'm a big

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fan of Kirk Douglas when he was in pirate movies

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in the nineteen fifties. It's hard to have a follow

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up question, what's your favorite dessert? It just doesn't fit,

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does it?

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Oh?

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Dessert?

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Oh?

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Was that dessert that doesn't People don't eat anymore? Angel delight?

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There was this dessert. I don't know if it's it

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might still get sold, but it was one of my

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favorite desserts. So it's kind of like they see it

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looked like.

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It.

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It looked like custard. It wasn't custard, because I cannot

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stand custard. It wasn't custard, but it was cold strawberry, chocolate,

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banana flavored. There might have been different flavors, but they're

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the ones that I remember. It was this powder which

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you put in and I don't know if you mix

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it with milk and just user like a what do

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they call it a mixing thing which makes it all fluffy,

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not drill a whisk a whisk, so yeah, and it

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makes it all fluffy and bubbly and all yum yum

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yum yum. And my stepmom used to make nicker Bocker glories.

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Be careful how quickly you say that word Nika Boka glory,

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which is if you don't know what it is, it's

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in a big lung, quite a high glass dish. I

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think it's basically did they use the same the same

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thing for Sundays as well, not on Sundays, but like

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a long dish. I don't know anyway. So what she

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used to do is she'd put in different levels of stuff,

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so there'd be some ice cream, there'd be some fruit,

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there'd be some angel delight, maybe some whipped cream. At

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the top, there'd be some what those those fingers they're

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not bread, but oh wow, I can't even remember what

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they recalled. I still love them because they would melt

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in your mouth. Wow. What what was it called? I'm

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sure there's something fingers And they were kind of pastry

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ish and they had a bit of sugar on top.

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And I think what she used to do is if

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just stick them in so they melted or crumbled them

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up and made little toppings kind of bread crumbs as well.

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And yeah, it was sugar and it was lovely, amazing,

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possibly a flake at the top. Oh, it was glorious.

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And then his big long spoons of a tiny little

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a tiny little kind of spoon thing at the end.

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So big long handle probably quite could for help him

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with constipation, I imagine, but there's not a focus on that.

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So with very long handle, which you can really get

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into the hard to reach places, which is like I

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was found right at the bottom of the dish. There

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was one bit that seemed to just be very hard

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to get to and then maybe be a bit of

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ice cream or a bit of chocolate or something just

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right in there. And I dig in, really dig from

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different angles until I got to it. I never quit

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when it comes to chocolate, I never quit. Oh yeah,

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yum yum, yum, yum yum. And also trifles. We didn't

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have custard and our trifles we had angel did I

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The reason for that is because custard is horrible. I

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didn't like custard. I would not eat I would never

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ever eat custard ever, not gonna happen, and that's just

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not gonna happen. Ever, So this is one of those

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things I don't like. So we used to have I

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think because I was so anti custard. Maybe my brother's

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also didn't mind custard, so my stepmom would just figure

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a way around it. So we used angel Delight instead

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on top and some cream lovely. It was oh yum yum, yum, yum, yum,

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yum yum. So I'm thinking, why am I talking about

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angeed Delight. I don't know why, but I'm not sure

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if they sell it any mine in the shops. I

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think it's one of those things that possibly wasn't nutritionally

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the most beneficial edible product in the world. But it

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was yummy, so yummy, yummy, yummy, yummy yummy. Another thing

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I used to like to eat is Vanetta ice cream. Again,

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I don't know if it's still around. And another I

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didn't understand why it's not the most popular ice cream

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in the world because it's layered again, kind of like

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a lasagna or a trifle. Because I said trifle. It's

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just that tis a version of a lasagna, isn't it.

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And I learned to make lasagnas I did. I learned

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when I was at school, but I learned on a

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more industrial level when I worked the canteen in a bakery.

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So there's hundreds of people being served, and I made

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this massive lasagnas and my boss, who is the chef,

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he was doing all that stuff, and I said, why

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don't you teach me how you do it? You know,

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because it's very different making a little lasagna to making

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a massive lasagna. It's just a little bit, I don't know,

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it's a different kind of process. So in the end

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he taught me to do it so he didn't have

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to do it. I just thought that made sense. It

469
00:42:39.440 --> 00:42:43.559
gave me something to do a bit more interesting, and

470
00:42:44.599 --> 00:42:47.199
so he got me. When it was a lazagna day,

471
00:42:47.880 --> 00:42:50.519
I would always do the lasagna. I do the whole thing,

472
00:42:51.440 --> 00:42:56.519
maybe two or three of them, and he could just

473
00:42:56.599 --> 00:43:01.800
stand jill out. I think I felt quite proud because

474
00:43:01.840 --> 00:43:04.800
they did come out nice, and he went because he

475
00:43:04.960 --> 00:43:07.800
was a trained chef, he went through the whole thing

476
00:43:07.920 --> 00:43:13.079
with me and stepped by step. I felt quite accomplished. Actually,

477
00:43:14.079 --> 00:43:21.079
because people liked the lasagnas. They were popular, and I

478
00:43:21.199 --> 00:43:29.760
think we did a vegetarian version as well as Yeah,

479
00:43:29.800 --> 00:43:33.840
because there was I think the problem. There was a

480
00:43:33.920 --> 00:43:37.880
lot of people there. It wasn't so much that they

481
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:46.800
were vegetarian, but they could only eat me like hellal

482
00:43:46.920 --> 00:43:51.400
me and stuff like that, which the kitchen didn't provide,

483
00:43:52.280 --> 00:43:56.519
the canteen didn't provide. So what they would do instead

484
00:43:56.679 --> 00:44:02.119
is maybe have vegetarian version. So they were quite popular

485
00:44:02.199 --> 00:44:08.199
as well. What I did, though, is to make the

486
00:44:08.280 --> 00:44:15.480
lisagnis taste a bit nicer I with the vegetarian ones.

487
00:44:16.199 --> 00:44:18.039
I just bring a little bit of meat in there

488
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:20.639
as well, just to add a little bit of taste,

489
00:44:21.480 --> 00:44:24.440
a little bit of pork. So I think that was

490
00:44:26.159 --> 00:44:34.360
they were popular. I didn't, I really didn't. Wow. Even now,

491
00:44:35.559 --> 00:44:41.760
thirty four years later, I still wouldn't. I was still

492
00:44:41.880 --> 00:44:46.639
gonna say I was joking. I would not ever do that. Wow. No, no, No,

493
00:44:50.880 --> 00:44:54.599
you fed them park and they didn't think they were

494
00:44:54.719 --> 00:44:56.119
eating any meat or.

495
00:45:00.039 --> 00:45:00.280
Don't.

496
00:45:01.400 --> 00:45:04.840
I'm not sure there is even one vegetarian lair at all,

497
00:45:06.960 --> 00:45:11.719
like vegetarian vegetarian, but the vegetarian or meat or the

498
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:20.039
vegetarian meals were a substitute for because of religious issues

499
00:45:20.480 --> 00:45:29.000
or religious beliefs or whatever, those of Bork Grindings really

500
00:45:29.039 --> 00:45:32.000
went down the tree. It just shows you if you

501
00:45:32.079 --> 00:45:39.079
don't know. I still find in fact I didn't do that,

502
00:45:39.159 --> 00:45:41.639
by the way, I'm just joking. I still find it

503
00:45:41.719 --> 00:45:48.199
funny though, the amount of people, not even necessary religious

504
00:45:49.800 --> 00:45:53.239
of any persuasion, we say, don't eat walk it's a

505
00:45:53.360 --> 00:45:54.119
dirty animal.

506
00:45:55.400 --> 00:45:56.880
Name a clean one.

507
00:45:59.039 --> 00:46:03.440
Where is there a clean animal? Just name one. I mean,

508
00:46:04.280 --> 00:46:07.119
my little the love of my life right now. If

509
00:46:07.159 --> 00:46:13.400
Anny he's a dirty little back up? You know humans

510
00:46:13.440 --> 00:46:17.280
are dirty. He was just there's no clean animal. I'm

511
00:46:17.800 --> 00:46:22.159
technically clean for maybe five minutes after I've had a shower,

512
00:46:22.719 --> 00:46:32.320
and then I fought. You know, it's oh dear, oh,

513
00:46:33.320 --> 00:46:37.400
that's a bit of activity downstairs. So I'm just waiting

514
00:46:37.440 --> 00:46:42.960
to see if Ni's gonna start barking or not. It's

515
00:46:43.559 --> 00:46:51.239
called eight in the morning. I've got one hour until

516
00:46:52.320 --> 00:46:56.239
I need to take Finnie over to see the neighbors.

517
00:46:57.559 --> 00:46:59.760
And they've got a little dog there till about me,

518
00:47:01.400 --> 00:47:03.400
so he's going to be happy running around with the

519
00:47:03.440 --> 00:47:12.000
other dog who he likes. And then I'm hoping I

520
00:47:12.079 --> 00:47:22.679
can get back by two o'clock at the latest. Yeah. Yeah,

521
00:47:23.039 --> 00:47:27.840
Ideally there's a lot of shouting outside that's weird. It's

522
00:47:28.119 --> 00:47:36.400
early for that. I just heard someone go, right, what's

523
00:47:36.559 --> 00:47:51.800
that about? I don't know, Oh yeah, the I just

524
00:47:51.920 --> 00:48:01.719
love Angel Delight. I used to tut the what was

525
00:48:01.880 --> 00:48:03.079
that ice cream?

526
00:48:03.119 --> 00:48:04.039
I was talking about?

527
00:48:06.000 --> 00:48:09.840
It was basically, well, they did a mint version and

528
00:48:10.119 --> 00:48:13.880
possibly yeah, different versions, but the one I liked was

529
00:48:14.000 --> 00:48:22.079
just vanilla ice cream with it was bits of chocolate,

530
00:48:22.639 --> 00:48:27.639
like I don't know how to explain it, vonetta or

531
00:48:27.639 --> 00:48:30.559
ice cream. And for those who don't know, it's like

532
00:48:30.679 --> 00:48:36.840
a a a big, long, oblong kind of block that

533
00:48:37.039 --> 00:48:42.199
came on a tray, a brown tray, I think, wrapped

534
00:48:42.239 --> 00:48:46.800
in plastic but white, you know, just like ice cream,

535
00:48:47.280 --> 00:48:52.199
you know, frozen goun of plastic and then inside a

536
00:48:52.360 --> 00:48:58.400
box with Vanetta on the side and a picture of it.

537
00:49:01.280 --> 00:49:04.239
And I really liked it as a kid and I

538
00:49:04.360 --> 00:49:07.440
used to eat it. I've had it as an adult.

539
00:49:08.000 --> 00:49:10.960
I don't know if it's still produced because I've not

540
00:49:11.079 --> 00:49:17.320
had any for a while. I just liked the layer

541
00:49:17.840 --> 00:49:22.119
chocolate ice cream, then chocolate and it's like these little

542
00:49:23.480 --> 00:49:32.039
not flakes. Know how to explain it, but it's nice anyway.

543
00:49:34.039 --> 00:49:37.199
There was a time when I was about sixteen living

544
00:49:37.239 --> 00:49:40.519
in the flat of the chip shop, and I had

545
00:49:40.679 --> 00:49:46.159
such little money. I would sometimes spend all my money,

546
00:49:46.840 --> 00:49:52.760
which would be maybe a pound, on some ice cream,

547
00:49:53.079 --> 00:49:54.480
vienneta or ice cream.

548
00:49:55.320 --> 00:49:55.400
And.

549
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:08.079
Possibly thinking about it, possibly a what would I have

550
00:50:08.239 --> 00:50:14.400
with it? What is that what they called blood? The

551
00:50:16.079 --> 00:50:25.679
non syrup maybe syrup, not sponges, but like pine oh

552
00:50:26.079 --> 00:50:29.800
carving what they call it. It's like pastry. And then

553
00:50:29.880 --> 00:50:33.360
there's sort of syrupy stuff at the top which is

554
00:50:33.519 --> 00:50:39.440
very sticky and thick. Oh, the name of it is

555
00:50:39.519 --> 00:50:42.239
gone out of my head. I used to heat that

556
00:50:42.480 --> 00:50:45.840
up and then have that with the ice cream, and

557
00:50:45.960 --> 00:50:50.920
that was my dinner. That was my lunch, and I

558
00:50:51.079 --> 00:50:57.719
feel so full, but not in a good way because

559
00:50:57.719 --> 00:51:08.519
I needed food, proper food, not just sugar. Probably wasn't

560
00:51:08.559 --> 00:51:17.000
my best decision ever. And there was a time when

561
00:51:17.000 --> 00:51:19.880
I used to have. Yeah, when I was in the

562
00:51:19.960 --> 00:51:23.480
chip shop, I got a part time job cleaning before work.

563
00:51:25.119 --> 00:51:30.119
I needed to try and get some money, and I

564
00:51:30.280 --> 00:51:33.159
used to get home. I used to work from six

565
00:51:33.199 --> 00:51:38.039
point thirty to eight thirty, and then i'd start work

566
00:51:38.119 --> 00:51:42.159
at nine, so i'd go home. It's anny a five

567
00:51:42.199 --> 00:51:47.679
minute walk, get home, have some corn flakes, have a

568
00:51:47.760 --> 00:51:51.159
can of coke. Would you believe at this? I mean,

569
00:51:52.039 --> 00:51:55.199
I've not done that since that time. I cann and

570
00:51:55.320 --> 00:52:00.360
coke with my conflicts. It's a weird mix. And I'd

571
00:52:00.440 --> 00:52:05.000
watch breakfast TV for like fifteen minutes, then I'd go

572
00:52:05.119 --> 00:52:17.199
downstairs and start working. And I think my boss told

573
00:52:17.280 --> 00:52:21.199
me I had to quit my morning job because I

574
00:52:21.280 --> 00:52:26.159
was working too many hours. It made me too tired.

575
00:52:26.719 --> 00:52:30.599
It was like, yeah, but I need the money. Maybe,

576
00:52:32.559 --> 00:52:39.280
I mean, it wasn't much. It's probably fifteen pounds a week. Maybe,

577
00:52:41.000 --> 00:52:50.679
I mean probably what two four, six, eight, ten, twelve

578
00:52:52.760 --> 00:53:07.079
twelve hours from Monday to Saturday. Twelve hours a week. Yeah,

579
00:53:07.239 --> 00:53:18.119
maybe fifteen two one pound fifteen hour probably, so twenty

580
00:53:18.239 --> 00:53:24.320
pounds a week, maybe eighteen pound a week, which would

581
00:53:24.400 --> 00:53:31.559
really make a difference to my lifestyle. But it was

582
00:53:31.719 --> 00:53:36.800
quite diring, you know, waking up at six in the morning.

583
00:53:41.000 --> 00:53:41.239
Yeah.

584
00:53:42.800 --> 00:53:47.079
Back then, I wasn't a big fan of early starts.

585
00:53:48.360 --> 00:53:53.920
I really, really, really really wasn't. I mean really, I

586
00:53:54.159 --> 00:53:57.679
was not a big fan of starting at getting up early.

587
00:53:59.400 --> 00:54:06.960
It was there's a constant struggle for me. And now

588
00:54:07.239 --> 00:54:10.280
I wake up at four or five every day in

589
00:54:10.400 --> 00:54:19.440
the morning. I don't know why that noise is someone

590
00:54:21.320 --> 00:54:24.119
make a noise in the garden. So I'm going to

591
00:54:24.199 --> 00:54:28.480
go thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself,

592
00:54:28.599 --> 00:54:32.320
because you do deserve to be happy, and be gentle

593
00:54:32.400 --> 00:54:37.280
with his arm. He deserved to feel safe. Lots of love.

594
00:54:39.880 --> 00:55:00.320
Bye. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, being

595
00:55:00.440 --> 00:55:05.440
in a way that can not just allow you to

596
00:55:05.760 --> 00:55:16.599
feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

597
00:55:18.760 --> 00:55:24.440
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

598
00:55:24.480 --> 00:55:31.119
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

599
00:55:31.320 --> 00:55:46.199
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

600
00:55:46.360 --> 00:56:06.079
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

601
00:56:06.239 --> 00:56:16.760
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

602
00:56:19.679 --> 00:56:26.920
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

603
00:56:28.840 --> 00:56:42.280
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

604
00:56:42.519 --> 00:56:46.719
find like some people do and myself as well. I

605
00:56:47.320 --> 00:56:54.039
sometimes I'll find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

606
00:56:58.400 --> 00:57:00.800
and I just listened to it over and over again

607
00:57:03.079 --> 00:57:16.079
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

608
00:57:16.119 --> 00:57:21.840
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

609
00:57:21.920 --> 00:57:25.920
but it was a guided visualization, so it kind of

610
00:57:26.079 --> 00:57:33.400
was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find it again

611
00:57:34.199 --> 00:57:39.599
and it still has the same effect on me. And

612
00:57:39.920 --> 00:57:53.360
part of it was the person's voice relaxed me, just

613
00:57:53.519 --> 00:58:00.559
felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening to

614
00:58:00.760 --> 00:58:13.000
her in the morning and in the evening. And I

615
00:58:13.199 --> 00:58:22.320
knew before even pressing the play button that since I've

616
00:58:22.360 --> 00:58:26.639
done that, pressed the play button, this is in the

617
00:58:26.800 --> 00:58:41.079
days of CD players, pressed the play button, if that

618
00:58:41.199 --> 00:58:45.199
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

619
00:58:45.280 --> 00:58:54.960
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

620
00:58:56.159 --> 00:59:06.840
listening to her words because I had to memorized. Really,

621
00:59:11.519 --> 00:59:17.360
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

622
00:59:22.320 --> 00:59:43.960
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

623
00:59:44.280 --> 00:59:57.920
I remember my mind would slow down. Now Now, I

624
00:59:58.320 --> 01:00:04.519
was listening to this recording in the early days of

625
01:00:04.679 --> 01:00:15.239
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

626
01:00:15.480 --> 01:00:20.119
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

627
01:00:20.320 --> 01:00:34.000
till two thousand and six, but I knew, I knew

628
01:00:34.480 --> 01:00:47.159
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

629
01:00:50.239 --> 01:00:55.599
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

630
01:01:03.320 --> 01:01:10.039
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

631
01:01:11.480 --> 01:01:20.800
not more so each time you hear my voice, you

632
01:01:20.920 --> 01:01:32.480
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

633
01:01:32.639 --> 01:01:46.480
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

634
01:01:46.559 --> 01:01:52.840
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

635
01:01:54.719 --> 01:02:08.320
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

636
01:02:08.480 --> 01:02:21.440
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

637
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:39.840
when I record these recordings now, for example, I also

638
01:02:41.400 --> 01:02:46.880
am affected by the words that I say.

639
01:02:52.199 --> 01:02:52.760
So if I.

640
01:02:55.679 --> 01:03:03.039
Set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

641
01:03:06.519 --> 01:03:14.239
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

642
01:03:14.559 --> 01:03:32.599
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said focus on your hands,

643
01:03:35.440 --> 01:03:44.960
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

644
01:03:45.039 --> 01:03:51.000
the air in the room, the temperature.

645
01:03:50.599 --> 01:03:51.119
Of the room.

646
01:03:53.000 --> 01:04:03.360
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

647
01:04:03.960 --> 01:04:12.000
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

648
01:04:12.079 --> 01:04:16.280
though there may not be any type of breeze at

649
01:04:16.360 --> 01:04:29.280
all where you are right now. And as you become

650
01:04:29.960 --> 01:04:44.360
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

651
01:04:44.679 --> 01:05:08.400
my hands are feeling now and when it comes to

652
01:05:09.960 --> 01:05:16.000
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

653
01:05:16.320 --> 01:05:32.519
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

654
01:05:37.280 --> 01:05:53.679
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

655
01:05:55.760 --> 01:06:09.880
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

656
01:06:10.039 --> 01:06:21.360
carry on talking, and it's suddenly when I listen back

657
01:06:21.599 --> 01:06:30.519
to do the editing, I hear snoring, and I think,

658
01:06:31.000 --> 01:06:40.800
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Was this snoring

659
01:06:41.119 --> 01:06:47.800
was a pig turned up? That's why I sound like

660
01:06:47.920 --> 01:06:59.000
when I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

661
01:07:06.960 --> 01:07:16.400
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

662
01:07:16.440 --> 01:07:27.000
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

663
01:07:42.119 --> 01:07:54.320
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

664
01:07:56.079 --> 01:08:11.840
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

665
01:08:18.439 --> 01:08:35.079
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

666
01:08:35.159 --> 01:09:06.239
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

667
01:09:06.520 --> 01:09:35.239
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

668
01:09:35.479 --> 01:10:25.279
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

669
01:10:25.439 --> 01:10:43.760
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

670
01:10:49.800 --> 01:11:02.680
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

671
01:11:02.920 --> 01:11:43.199
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

672
01:11:44.960 --> 01:12:03.880
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

673
01:12:15.199 --> 01:12:47.720
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

674
01:13:13.119 --> 01:13:38.560
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

675
01:13:44.520 --> 01:14:23.640
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

676
01:14:23.800 --> 01:15:28.159
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

677
01:15:36.479 --> 01:16:23.159
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

678
01:16:23.439 --> 01:16:39.560
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

679
01:16:40.319 --> 01:16:53.760
out of your body, to appear out of every part

680
01:17:00.079 --> 01:17:24.800
of your body being released from your brain in your

681
01:17:24.960 --> 01:18:16.119
mind slowly but surely, the muscles singing like yeah, relas

682
01:18:21.159 --> 01:19:11.239
rs really so very deeply, ris so deeply, and the feelings,

683
01:19:13.920 --> 01:19:38.760
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

684
01:19:39.199 --> 01:20:17.239
part of your body further and deeper and deep noticine,

685
01:20:20.520 --> 01:20:47.279
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

686
01:20:47.439 --> 01:21:36.920
your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I all say,

687
01:21:46.760 --> 01:22:26.000
feeling peaceful deeply. There's a sense of peace spreads through

688
01:22:27.560 --> 01:22:28.760
your fairy core.

689
01:23:00.079 --> 01:23:00.760
And when you.

690
01:23:03.720 --> 01:23:28.479
Focus on your mind, your mind becomes eve and slower,

691
01:23:44.359 --> 01:25:04.079
even deeper, relax so very slow his stomach peace for

692
01:25:04.439 --> 01:25:51.119
in your stomach you're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

693
01:25:51.359 --> 01:26:29.640
never feel in the hole of your bag. You spy

694
01:26:33.800 --> 01:26:38.479
from your brain all the way down the middle of

695
01:26:38.560 --> 01:26:50.239
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day.

696
01:27:01.319 --> 01:27:18.840
Decomfort increasing deeply relaxed.

697
01:27:48.960 --> 01:27:49.640
You means.

698
01:28:15.479 --> 01:28:29.119
Legs, spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air,

699
01:28:29.359 --> 01:28:48.800
every part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles,

700
01:29:16.039 --> 01:29:45.520
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

701
01:29:50.560 --> 01:30:06.800
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers. All

702
01:30:06.960 --> 01:30:52.600
wait till you know it. Back I thinker, read the thinker. Please,

703
01:31:08.439 --> 01:31:38.439
drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go, let

704
01:31:39.119 --> 01:32:44.439
go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body enjoying

705
01:32:44.600 --> 01:33:11.199
a sense listening guy.

706
01:33:14.520 --> 01:33:16.640
Hep more.

707
01:34:24.720 --> 01:35:10.800
Pece flying the space, this space.

708
01:35:13.439 --> 01:35:14.439
Of peace.

709
01:35:17.720 --> 01:37:39.960
And safety, so fairy, very relaxed, letting go. Maybe we

710
01:37:40.159 --> 01:37:47.640
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

711
01:37:51.800 --> 01:38:54.840
just to notice you, foolhead, and your eyes. You too,

712
01:39:00.520 --> 01:40:40.159
so Louise, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom. Driri,

713
01:40:53.720 --> 01:42:19.840
He's for energy, Pase to breeze much easy, loose.

714
01:42:41.119 --> 01:42:42.119
You may have.

715
01:42:45.640 --> 01:43:45.520
Or may not have noticed your mind drifted, peaceful more,

716
01:43:46.359 --> 01:44:06.560
even more deeply in the direction Hotel Bliss for pace,

717
01:44:10.760 --> 01:44:12.479
blisph pace.

718
01:44:40.760 --> 01:46:14.560
Toreft to to to peace, so calm, let him go

719
01:46:39.479 --> 01:46:41.960
peace with mind.

720
01:46:56.359 --> 01:48:10.760
Forty relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so

721
01:48:11.479 --> 01:48:48.439
very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful, RelA.

722
01:48:55.239 --> 01:49:11.720
Like hers.

723
01:49:31.199 --> 01:49:37.399
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

724
01:49:37.800 --> 01:49:49.000
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

725
01:49:50.000 --> 01:49:57.520
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

726
01:49:57.640 --> 01:50:06.800
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

727
01:50:11.720 --> 01:50:18.920
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

728
01:50:19.319 --> 01:50:31.800
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

729
01:50:33.520 --> 01:50:44.520
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

730
01:50:44.600 --> 01:50:51.479
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

731
01:50:53.640 --> 01:51:01.119
take a break from your life as it is, and

732
01:51:01.279 --> 01:51:09.039
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

733
01:51:09.159 --> 01:51:14.680
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

734
01:51:16.399 --> 01:51:24.319
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

735
01:51:26.920 --> 01:51:31.960
releases the tension and he stresses that you had in

736
01:51:32.039 --> 01:51:41.880
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

737
01:51:41.920 --> 01:51:53.920
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

738
01:51:53.960 --> 01:52:02.199
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

739
01:52:05.319 --> 01:52:09.920
which then fills your body up and your mind to

740
01:52:11.560 --> 01:52:29.960
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

741
01:52:30.039 --> 01:52:47.119
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

742
01:52:47.199 --> 01:52:57.880
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

743
01:52:58.199 --> 01:53:10.239
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

744
01:53:10.319 --> 01:53:14.159
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

745
01:53:14.479 --> 01:53:28.319
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

746
01:53:28.439 --> 01:53:45.039
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

747
01:53:49.319 --> 01:53:58.640
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

748
01:54:02.720 --> 01:54:11.520
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

749
01:54:12.319 --> 01:54:16.920
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

750
01:54:21.199 --> 01:54:30.880
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

751
01:54:35.960 --> 01:54:43.159
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

752
01:54:43.359 --> 01:54:49.039
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

753
01:54:52.520 --> 01:55:01.560
to feel more comfort and to expe experience.

754
01:55:03.600 --> 01:55:04.760
More of this.

755
01:55:06.520 --> 01:55:21.680
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

756
01:55:23.239 --> 01:55:29.000
on each part of your body, you can notice that

757
01:55:29.239 --> 01:55:43.760
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

758
01:55:46.319 --> 01:55:55.960
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

759
01:56:00.079 --> 01:56:05.760
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

760
01:56:08.479 --> 01:56:15.159
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

761
01:56:15.359 --> 01:56:23.079
relax deeply and those parts that we've not yet focused on,

762
01:56:25.399 --> 01:56:36.840
or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation of

763
01:56:37.079 --> 01:56:49.920
even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to

764
01:56:50.039 --> 01:56:57.479
start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware the

765
01:56:57.760 --> 01:57:08.039
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like mister

766
01:57:08.319 --> 01:57:13.199
Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel even

767
01:57:13.399 --> 01:57:23.399
more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This isn't

768
01:57:23.880 --> 01:57:31.760
this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world. I

769
01:57:31.920 --> 01:57:39.319
live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around.

770
01:57:44.680 --> 01:57:49.760
So as you focus on your forehead, just notice how

771
01:57:49.840 --> 01:58:00.159
it becomes even more relaxed as you focus only my

772
01:58:00.399 --> 01:58:09.920
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

773
01:58:10.079 --> 01:58:23.000
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

774
01:58:23.239 --> 01:58:30.239
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

775
01:58:33.640 --> 01:58:44.319
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

776
01:58:44.439 --> 01:58:51.600
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

777
01:58:52.840 --> 01:59:05.079
your teeth, and your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm.

778
01:59:06.199 --> 01:59:06.760
And loose.

779
01:59:11.239 --> 01:59:19.039
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

780
01:59:19.159 --> 01:59:23.960
parts of your jaw near your mouth, your chin, but

781
01:59:24.159 --> 01:59:28.239
all the way up the size of your face to

782
01:59:28.359 --> 01:59:42.119
your ears, a hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed

783
01:59:46.319 --> 01:59:56.640
and calm, focusing.

784
01:59:59.399 --> 01:59:59.880
On your no.

785
02:00:02.840 --> 02:00:08.640
The front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

786
02:00:10.159 --> 02:00:20.600
loose and calm. The side of your neck, the right

787
02:00:20.800 --> 02:00:22.279
and left side of.

788
02:00:22.359 --> 02:00:23.000
Your neck.

789
02:00:25.800 --> 02:00:41.560
Relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

790
02:00:41.680 --> 02:00:54.520
your neck, focusing on the back of your neck, letting

791
02:00:54.720 --> 02:00:59.359
go of any tension that may have been there before,

792
02:01:01.159 --> 02:01:15.279
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

793
02:01:15.520 --> 02:01:25.920
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

794
02:01:26.159 --> 02:01:32.720
down your back and moving either side of your spine

795
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:38.720
right from the top of your back all the way

796
02:01:38.960 --> 02:01:51.640
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

797
02:01:51.720 --> 02:02:02.279
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

798
02:02:04.439 --> 02:02:08.840
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

799
02:02:11.079 --> 02:02:25.640
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

800
02:02:25.720 --> 02:02:36.199
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

801
02:02:36.399 --> 02:02:43.039
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

802
02:02:43.920 --> 02:02:50.159
the middle and your lower back. And as you scan

803
02:02:51.840 --> 02:02:59.600
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

804
02:02:59.680 --> 02:03:05.680
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

805
02:03:10.000 --> 02:03:16.000
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

806
02:03:16.119 --> 02:03:25.640
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

807
02:03:31.399 --> 02:03:37.399
And in your lower back there seems to be an

808
02:03:37.439 --> 02:03:51.640
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

809
02:03:53.960 --> 02:04:01.640
so down your lower back, get into your hips, into

810
02:04:01.720 --> 02:04:08.479
the area where your cosis are, and into your buttocks

811
02:04:10.680 --> 02:04:17.279
and all those muscles that spread when your lower back

812
02:04:19.760 --> 02:04:32.000
into your hip area start to melt, start to really

813
02:04:33.199 --> 02:04:44.079
let go, and don't even nowhere about to focus on

814
02:04:44.199 --> 02:04:53.239
your shoulders. Your back and your spine will continue to

815
02:04:53.520 --> 02:05:03.239
let go, continue to relax, yes, so.

816
02:05:06.159 --> 02:05:06.720
Calmly.

817
02:05:11.439 --> 02:05:16.359
And as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

818
02:05:16.600 --> 02:05:40.720
that they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding, calm

819
02:05:47.079 --> 02:05:59.760
and fearing. Those muscles then move from your neck into

820
02:05:59.840 --> 02:06:25.279
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

821
02:06:36.640 --> 02:06:49.199
and the feeding in your shoulders seems to spread deep

822
02:06:49.479 --> 02:06:59.199
into your shoulders. That sense of relaxation not just traveling

823
02:06:59.680 --> 02:07:10.920
deep bleed into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones

824
02:07:16.960 --> 02:07:20.039
and move it all the way to underneath your arms,

825
02:07:22.880 --> 02:07:28.800
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

826
02:07:30.159 --> 02:07:36.479
and underneath your arms, healing.

827
02:07:41.920 --> 02:07:42.560
You feel so.

828
02:07:44.520 --> 02:07:58.520
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep

829
02:07:59.399 --> 02:08:17.960
healing mhm message into your arms, and you may feel

830
02:08:19.800 --> 02:08:24.840
almost as if your arms are not even there, because

831
02:08:24.920 --> 02:08:40.880
they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

832
02:08:45.119 --> 02:09:01.520
So calm, so.

833
02:09:08.239 --> 02:09:23.319
Loose, not feeling spreading all the way down your arms,

834
02:09:26.039 --> 02:09:56.079
two elbows, including your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists,

835
02:09:58.920 --> 02:10:14.039
your foura commons, and your wrists so heavy, yet at

836
02:10:14.199 --> 02:10:58.159
the same time so light and gentle. Focusing now on

837
02:11:00.880 --> 02:11:54.520
your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, there's

838
02:11:54.560 --> 02:12:17.920
a sense of real peace. It just seems to feel

839
02:12:20.199 --> 02:12:29.000
so familiar when your hands relax deeply.

840
02:12:36.560 --> 02:12:36.880
Mhm.

841
02:12:38.039 --> 02:13:30.039
Ees your fingers, you think this.

842
02:13:33.199 --> 02:13:33.960
Sad, this.

843
02:14:03.239 --> 02:14:36.920
Your finger tips meving your attention to the front, to

844
02:14:37.119 --> 02:15:07.680
your body, so comfortable, move man, your fortress, to legs,

845
02:16:26.600 --> 02:17:21.120
love muscles in your thighs, your knees so relaxed, the

846
02:17:21.399 --> 02:19:30.280
calf muscles and just shames Compasia four and the faathing

847
02:19:31.719 --> 02:19:58.680
and your feet so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

848
02:20:28.760 --> 02:20:58.680
so peaceful, so calm, so peace f re sin peace

849
02:20:59.440 --> 02:21:18.799
fur so calm, allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest,

850
02:21:19.120 --> 02:21:50.440
in your stomach, so letting go of everything. So I'm

851
02:21:50.440 --> 02:21:56.600
gonna start counting down now from twenty down to one.

852
02:22:02.559 --> 02:22:05.760
You can imagine in a way, it's like just walking

853
02:22:05.879 --> 02:22:11.719
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

854
02:22:11.840 --> 02:22:22.200
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

855
02:22:24.799 --> 02:22:37.239
a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you walk

856
02:22:37.360 --> 02:22:43.040
down those steps a deeper and more relaxed you feel.

857
02:22:49.799 --> 02:25:24.680
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen

858
02:26:40.200 --> 02:29:31.079
three four four see too well.

859
02:30:30.000 --> 02:31:40.879
Faa F.

860
02:32:46.440 --> 02:37:42.479
Nine eight seven h six five.

861
02:38:00.719 --> 02:42:39.799
Four one.

862
02:43:29.360 --> 02:43:30.079
And now.

863
02:43:34.440 --> 02:43:47.120
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

864
02:43:47.520 --> 02:44:03.239
from ten douts one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

865
02:44:03.680 --> 02:44:12.520
the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our

866
02:44:12.680 --> 02:44:29.559
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

867
02:44:29.799 --> 02:44:38.360
count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing on

868
02:44:38.520 --> 02:44:54.479
your eyes, you become twice is relaxed with each number

869
02:44:55.520 --> 02:45:07.079
counting down, and you may find the all you want

870
02:45:07.200 --> 02:45:16.000
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

871
02:45:16.239 --> 02:45:29.680
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

872
02:45:32.639 --> 02:45:38.600
focus in on your eyes. I'm going to begin counting

873
02:45:38.760 --> 02:45:42.559
down from ten down to one.

874
02:45:46.600 --> 02:45:56.159
Right now, ten.

875
02:46:22.159 --> 02:46:57.360
Nine eight.

876
02:47:03.000 --> 02:47:14.840
H h.

877
02:47:25.600 --> 02:52:19.920
Seven five four three.

878
02:53:25.239 --> 02:55:12.520
Two one. So counting down from ten to one ten

879
02:55:14.440 --> 02:55:43.639
nine eight seven six five four three two one. And

880
02:55:43.799 --> 02:55:47.200
maybe that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

881
02:55:48.399 --> 02:55:52.639
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

882
02:55:52.920 --> 02:56:00.959
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

883
02:56:01.040 --> 02:56:02.000
of pressure.

884
02:56:01.639 --> 02:56:05.120
There, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

885
02:56:05.239 --> 02:56:08.520
What do you expect me to do? Man, expect me

886
02:56:08.600 --> 02:56:18.280
to stick gold floppy just because you're counting down. We

887
02:56:18.360 --> 02:56:22.319
could try it again, but this time I go this lower.

888
02:56:24.559 --> 02:56:29.399
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

889
02:56:29.479 --> 02:56:37.840
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

890
02:56:37.920 --> 02:56:52.040
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

891
02:56:52.159 --> 02:57:25.239
number that I count down ten nine eight seven six

892
02:57:33.680 --> 02:58:42.600
five four three two one. And just notice how how

893
02:58:42.680 --> 02:58:52.760
you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

894
02:58:52.879 --> 02:59:03.120
even about ye counting down from ten to one. It's

895
02:59:03.200 --> 02:59:20.360
that space that you have, that space between being active

896
02:59:22.719 --> 02:59:32.239
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

897
02:59:32.479 --> 02:59:38.360
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

898
02:59:38.639 --> 02:59:44.079
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

899
02:59:45.079 --> 02:59:54.200
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

900
02:59:54.319 --> 02:59:58.920
the more I came down from ten to one, the

901
02:59:59.000 --> 03:00:06.959
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

902
03:00:08.360 --> 03:00:24.040
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling and it moves

903
03:00:25.600 --> 03:00:35.520
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

904
03:00:42.319 --> 03:00:43.280
Allows you.

905
03:00:45.959 --> 03:00:46.479
To just.

906
03:00:49.479 --> 03:00:56.200
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

907
03:00:56.639 --> 03:01:06.840
and notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

908
03:01:06.920 --> 03:01:13.280
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap.

909
03:01:26.760 --> 03:01:30.920
It gives you that distance, that space.

910
03:01:33.280 --> 03:01:38.760
Now ten.

911
03:01:43.079 --> 03:02:53.040
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three.

912
03:03:09.159 --> 03:03:40.719
Two one. How does your.

913
03:03:42.760 --> 03:04:01.639
Body feel now? Can you notice there? Do you feel

914
03:04:01.719 --> 03:04:38.120
in calmer? Do you feeling more relaxed? As we now

915
03:04:38.319 --> 03:04:58.639
focus on your legs, just your legs, We're just gonna

916
03:04:59.079 --> 03:05:18.479
start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not

917
03:05:18.600 --> 03:05:27.079
the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure

918
03:05:27.200 --> 03:05:29.799
like most of your body is not a lot going

919
03:05:29.879 --> 03:05:42.520
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

920
03:05:45.360 --> 03:05:49.079
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

921
03:05:51.280 --> 03:05:55.760
the bottoms of your thighs. You're outer thighs and you're

922
03:05:55.879 --> 03:06:01.120
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

923
03:06:02.159 --> 03:06:17.680
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joints. Now,

924
03:06:17.760 --> 03:06:24.799
this is a big area, it's a very heavy area.

925
03:06:25.280 --> 03:06:31.280
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

926
03:06:32.000 --> 03:06:46.280
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

927
03:06:48.280 --> 03:07:01.000
give enough attention to ad thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

928
03:07:01.680 --> 03:07:21.040
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

929
03:07:23.680 --> 03:07:37.200
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

930
03:07:37.319 --> 03:07:43.000
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

931
03:07:43.079 --> 03:07:50.000
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

932
03:07:50.200 --> 03:08:04.639
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

933
03:08:07.159 --> 03:08:07.799
I thank you.

934
03:08:10.879 --> 03:08:23.200
Gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

935
03:08:23.360 --> 03:08:29.040
know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

936
03:08:29.440 --> 03:08:32.239
why am I sure? How I should be out in

937
03:08:32.360 --> 03:08:40.920
the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard

938
03:08:40.959 --> 03:08:44.079
to set a microphone up on a tree. That's why

939
03:08:44.120 --> 03:08:46.799
I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging

940
03:08:46.840 --> 03:08:50.040
a tree. Now I can't see the television from the

941
03:08:50.079 --> 03:09:01.120
tree if you move down to your knees, gaining such

942
03:09:01.159 --> 03:09:10.719
an important part, and I think we don't necessarily I'll

943
03:09:10.799 --> 03:09:18.280
speak for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that

944
03:09:18.440 --> 03:09:23.680
my needs do for me until I have a problem

945
03:09:23.799 --> 03:09:28.600
with my knee. It's occasionally if I ever maybe i'll

946
03:09:28.639 --> 03:09:34.520
pash it, or it's aching for some reason. It's then

947
03:09:35.000 --> 03:09:40.200
that I realize how much it does. You know, the

948
03:09:40.319 --> 03:09:48.079
benefit of being able to use my legs without any

949
03:09:48.159 --> 03:09:55.799
kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly

950
03:09:56.000 --> 03:10:03.719
not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

951
03:10:07.840 --> 03:10:12.440
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

952
03:10:12.520 --> 03:10:20.000
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

953
03:10:21.559 --> 03:10:24.159
and love to your knees for all that they do

954
03:10:24.360 --> 03:10:37.319
for you. And you can still have that attention on

955
03:10:37.479 --> 03:10:43.639
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

956
03:10:43.959 --> 03:11:01.399
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

957
03:11:01.520 --> 03:11:06.719
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

958
03:11:07.639 --> 03:11:14.120
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

959
03:11:14.239 --> 03:11:21.799
your feet incorporate, and of course, your ankles so important.

960
03:11:27.319 --> 03:11:31.920
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

961
03:11:32.040 --> 03:11:39.000
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

962
03:11:39.200 --> 03:11:47.760
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

963
03:11:47.799 --> 03:11:53.399
way when you think that, you know, logically, our wrists

964
03:11:53.559 --> 03:11:56.399
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

965
03:11:57.559 --> 03:12:01.120
which is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with

966
03:12:01.200 --> 03:12:06.600
that because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles

967
03:12:08.399 --> 03:12:18.360
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

968
03:12:18.479 --> 03:12:23.000
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

969
03:12:23.079 --> 03:12:30.319
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

970
03:12:31.360 --> 03:12:41.360
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

971
03:12:42.840 --> 03:12:52.440
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

972
03:12:52.520 --> 03:13:02.479
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

973
03:13:04.719 --> 03:13:17.559
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

974
03:13:17.639 --> 03:13:25.319
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

975
03:13:25.680 --> 03:13:29.000
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't seem

976
03:13:29.040 --> 03:13:34.120
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

977
03:13:34.920 --> 03:13:38.760
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

978
03:13:38.840 --> 03:13:42.959
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

979
03:13:43.040 --> 03:13:54.959
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

980
03:13:56.959 --> 03:14:05.600
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

981
03:14:05.680 --> 03:14:17.959
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

982
03:14:21.319 --> 03:14:27.879
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

983
03:14:28.000 --> 03:14:30.079
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

984
03:14:32.159 --> 03:14:36.799
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it

985
03:14:36.959 --> 03:14:41.840
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

986
03:14:41.920 --> 03:14:47.760
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

987
03:14:47.799 --> 03:14:53.360
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

988
03:14:53.639 --> 03:14:57.920
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

989
03:14:58.120 --> 03:15:02.840
your thighs for a few minutes, let me focusing on

990
03:15:02.959 --> 03:15:20.159
your ankles. There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs,

991
03:15:25.159 --> 03:15:32.520
and there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold

992
03:15:34.479 --> 03:15:39.719
lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the

993
03:15:40.040 --> 03:15:52.520
big straw muscles that we have in our thighs. But

994
03:15:52.680 --> 03:15:58.319
the skin on the outside of the thighs, as in

995
03:15:58.840 --> 03:16:04.600
the outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

996
03:16:08.520 --> 03:16:21.719
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

997
03:16:21.840 --> 03:16:29.280
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

998
03:16:29.440 --> 03:16:35.239
the arch trees, all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

999
03:16:39.559 --> 03:16:42.719
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1000
03:16:42.760 --> 03:16:50.520
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and message. So

1001
03:16:50.639 --> 03:16:54.159
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1002
03:16:54.239 --> 03:16:57.360
be able to get deep into the muscles and to

1003
03:16:57.440 --> 03:17:02.520
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

1004
03:17:02.600 --> 03:17:11.239
the bones of your leg message in or the veins,

1005
03:17:11.440 --> 03:17:21.639
and just gently healing your thighs, and you could move

1006
03:17:21.840 --> 03:17:29.200
down message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1007
03:17:30.239 --> 03:17:37.239
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1008
03:17:37.360 --> 03:17:46.760
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1009
03:17:47.040 --> 03:17:51.959
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1010
03:17:52.000 --> 03:17:59.719
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area, very feels

1011
03:17:59.799 --> 03:18:03.879
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

1012
03:18:04.760 --> 03:18:09.719
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

1013
03:18:09.879 --> 03:18:16.399
almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1014
03:18:16.479 --> 03:18:23.520
It's almost it's like a part that has a sensitivity

1015
03:18:23.600 --> 03:18:34.040
which is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected

1016
03:18:34.159 --> 03:18:45.399
by your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

1017
03:18:45.559 --> 03:18:55.559
into that crease in your legs, fold in between your legs.

1018
03:18:56.319 --> 03:19:02.159
You can just message with your fingertips, your fingertips going inside,

1019
03:19:03.840 --> 03:19:12.440
massage in the muscle tissue. You can of course field

1020
03:19:12.479 --> 03:19:18.719
the the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

1021
03:19:26.120 --> 03:19:31.440
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1022
03:19:31.840 --> 03:19:33.520
And that's a part i'd like to be able to

1023
03:19:34.360 --> 03:19:41.719
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1024
03:19:41.840 --> 03:19:50.920
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1025
03:19:56.879 --> 03:20:02.959
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1026
03:20:03.799 --> 03:20:10.760
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

1027
03:20:10.920 --> 03:20:18.079
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1028
03:20:18.200 --> 03:20:22.120
precious bones that they are. Because our legs are so

1029
03:20:22.360 --> 03:20:25.879
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1030
03:20:28.360 --> 03:20:42.239
and more precious of any jure on the planet. When

1031
03:20:42.280 --> 03:20:50.079
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1032
03:20:54.680 --> 03:21:01.319
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1033
03:21:04.440 --> 03:21:08.680
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1034
03:21:09.600 --> 03:21:19.600
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1035
03:21:19.719 --> 03:21:23.639
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1036
03:21:25.879 --> 03:21:32.200
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1037
03:21:32.319 --> 03:21:40.840
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1038
03:21:42.760 --> 03:21:50.079
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1039
03:21:50.239 --> 03:21:53.040
care for what your legs do.

1040
03:21:53.360 --> 03:21:53.639
For you.

1041
03:21:55.239 --> 03:22:07.360
Regularly, your knees, your car your ankles, the strength of

1042
03:22:07.479 --> 03:22:15.520
your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to the

1043
03:22:15.639 --> 03:22:23.319
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1044
03:22:24.879 --> 03:22:39.319
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1045
03:22:39.479 --> 03:22:50.280
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1046
03:22:50.520 --> 03:22:57.360
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1047
03:22:57.399 --> 03:23:02.399
if you only ate stone, still a lot of weight

1048
03:23:02.680 --> 03:23:09.360
for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than

1049
03:23:09.440 --> 03:23:19.360
eight snow double down, Yet my ankles support my body

1050
03:23:20.120 --> 03:23:26.719
all the time. Orthough they do give off a sigh

1051
03:23:26.760 --> 03:23:31.920
of relief when I sit down, as I've got my

1052
03:23:32.000 --> 03:23:41.760
whole legs do my feet feet also go, my toes clap.

1053
03:23:42.920 --> 03:24:11.399
I'm so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1054
03:24:11.559 --> 03:24:18.440
know that about talking about your legs is probably possibly

1055
03:24:18.680 --> 03:24:23.399
among the most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say.

1056
03:24:24.319 --> 03:24:31.760
Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said is true.

1057
03:24:34.239 --> 03:24:49.079
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1058
03:24:54.920 --> 03:24:56.639
They deserve to relax.

1059
03:24:58.040 --> 03:24:58.440
Deeply.

1060
03:25:05.719 --> 03:25:09.079
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1061
03:25:11.280 --> 03:25:40.000
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1062
03:25:47.639 --> 03:25:51.760
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1063
03:25:52.000 --> 03:25:57.959
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1064
03:25:58.040 --> 03:26:04.760
the rest of your body or so naturally follows in

1065
03:26:05.239 --> 03:26:19.840
that journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1066
03:26:21.239 --> 03:26:27.760
My hips feel really loose, and also my.

1067
03:26:27.840 --> 03:26:32.360
Light back as well. My lower back really.

1068
03:26:32.799 --> 03:26:37.399
Feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in

1069
03:26:37.520 --> 03:26:43.559
a chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm

1070
03:26:43.600 --> 03:26:47.079
aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the muscles

1071
03:26:47.120 --> 03:26:51.120
are just relaxed so much that there is a natural

1072
03:26:51.440 --> 03:27:15.639
stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And I'm

1073
03:27:15.719 --> 03:27:18.879
now going to count down from ten down to one,

1074
03:27:23.200 --> 03:27:37.639
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine

1075
03:27:40.799 --> 03:27:52.920
eight seven six five.

1076
03:27:57.239 --> 03:28:05.440
Four three two.

1077
03:28:09.760 --> 03:28:16.799
Why relaxed?

1078
03:28:24.600 --> 03:28:26.200
So I'm just going to count down.

1079
03:28:27.479 --> 03:28:32.159
From five down to one, And as a countdown, if

1080
03:28:32.200 --> 03:28:39.280
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1081
03:28:40.319 --> 03:28:49.440
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1082
03:28:49.600 --> 03:28:57.120
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1083
03:28:57.239 --> 03:29:07.360
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1084
03:29:07.520 --> 03:29:15.879
but also relaxing your mind. I just notice how you feel.

1085
03:29:16.760 --> 03:29:22.680
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1086
03:29:22.840 --> 03:29:30.360
to think about, starting with number five.

1087
03:29:38.840 --> 03:29:39.319
Four.

1088
03:29:48.600 --> 03:30:24.319
Three two one. And as you notice the gradual letting

1089
03:30:24.479 --> 03:30:33.840
go the tension in your body, you may also begin

1090
03:30:34.159 --> 03:30:40.120
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1091
03:30:41.239 --> 03:30:49.040
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1092
03:30:49.559 --> 03:30:56.920
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1093
03:30:57.120 --> 03:31:03.360
natural because as you're by relaxes, your mind also starts

1094
03:31:03.399 --> 03:31:08.120
to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the more

1095
03:31:08.159 --> 03:31:13.399
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1096
03:31:19.440 --> 03:31:27.959
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1097
03:31:28.120 --> 03:31:33.479
even even if there's background sounds, either your side.

1098
03:31:33.280 --> 03:31:34.000
Or mine.

1099
03:31:35.559 --> 03:31:41.319
Is still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1100
03:31:41.399 --> 03:31:46.079
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1101
03:31:46.120 --> 03:31:49.360
background unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1102
03:31:54.239 --> 03:31:56.399
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1103
03:31:56.520 --> 03:31:59.639
room with other people. Of course it might be, but

1104
03:32:00.920 --> 03:32:04.200
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1105
03:32:04.319 --> 03:32:15.639
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1106
03:32:15.680 --> 03:32:32.879
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1107
03:32:32.920 --> 03:32:41.680
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1108
03:32:41.799 --> 03:32:53.920
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1109
03:32:56.239 --> 03:33:06.959
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1110
03:33:07.079 --> 03:33:13.920
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1111
03:33:14.120 --> 03:33:17.959
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1112
03:33:18.079 --> 03:33:29.680
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1113
03:33:30.120 --> 03:33:40.360
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1114
03:33:41.920 --> 03:33:52.280
allow you to take advantage of this space. This time,

1115
03:33:55.200 --> 03:33:55.760
it's just.

1116
03:34:00.079 --> 03:34:00.280
It go.

1117
03:34:03.360 --> 03:34:11.600
To just be here, to be in tune with how

1118
03:34:11.680 --> 03:34:25.079
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1119
03:34:25.200 --> 03:34:36.559
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1120
03:34:36.760 --> 03:34:42.879
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1121
03:34:49.840 --> 03:34:59.200
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1122
03:34:59.360 --> 03:35:03.399
of falling as sleep. The actual falling asleep part is

1123
03:35:04.479 --> 03:35:12.440
a tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1124
03:35:16.399 --> 03:35:34.040
the easier you find yourself drifting. But you can also

1125
03:35:34.200 --> 03:35:44.280
if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

1126
03:35:44.799 --> 03:36:14.079
enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle in your

1127
03:36:14.159 --> 03:36:48.680
body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1128
03:36:54.719 --> 03:36:58.760
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1129
03:37:03.600 --> 03:37:12.760
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1130
03:37:13.200 --> 03:37:14.799
each number.

1131
03:37:16.120 --> 03:37:17.319
That you hear me.

1132
03:37:17.520 --> 03:40:05.520
Say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and be peaceful sex five, four, three, one,

1133
03:40:26.680 --> 03:40:33.760
being aware of how your mind to slowed.

1134
03:40:35.520 --> 03:40:36.479
Right down.

1135
03:40:39.520 --> 03:41:02.879
Sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1136
03:41:03.200 --> 03:41:13.120
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1137
03:41:15.719 --> 03:41:25.280
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1138
03:41:25.360 --> 03:41:25.959
your attention.

1139
03:41:32.879 --> 03:41:34.280
That's what you can do is.

1140
03:41:39.799 --> 03:41:52.280
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love.

1141
03:41:54.040 --> 03:41:58.239
M all petals from a flower, just sprinkle it over them.

1142
03:41:59.680 --> 03:42:05.760
Pet was filled with love towards those thoughts, to let

1143
03:42:06.600 --> 03:42:11.719
those thoughts know that you're not abandon in them.

1144
03:42:13.159 --> 03:42:14.479
You just need them.

1145
03:42:15.719 --> 03:42:27.680
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1146
03:42:31.360 --> 03:42:31.719
For now.

1147
03:42:39.639 --> 03:42:44.639
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

1148
03:42:44.799 --> 03:42:50.040
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1149
03:42:50.200 --> 03:43:04.079
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1150
03:43:05.680 --> 03:43:17.520
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1151
03:43:19.000 --> 03:43:34.000
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1152
03:43:34.120 --> 03:44:42.760
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1153
03:45:08.760 --> 03:46:00.760
three one.

1154
03:46:10.280 --> 03:46:10.479
Yeah.

1155
03:46:17.440 --> 03:46:34.360
And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in

1156
03:46:34.559 --> 03:46:56.120
your body, we're going to focus on your hands, because

1157
03:46:56.239 --> 03:47:02.440
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

1158
03:47:02.559 --> 03:47:04.719
body and mind are.

1159
03:47:19.680 --> 03:47:20.319
And there's.

1160
03:47:21.840 --> 03:47:32.000
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1161
03:47:32.520 --> 03:47:37.239
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1162
03:47:38.319 --> 03:47:49.719
dancing the fingers or anything like that. It's just noticing

1163
03:47:50.600 --> 03:48:03.159
and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1164
03:48:17.799 --> 03:48:19.200
Because the more.

1165
03:48:21.159 --> 03:48:31.559
Relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and

1166
03:48:31.920 --> 03:48:40.360
the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1167
03:48:45.600 --> 03:48:46.399
And you.

1168
03:48:49.079 --> 03:49:20.399
May have already noticed you mind is starting to dress

1169
03:49:34.200 --> 03:49:48.440
like sense just on your hands and fingers, allowing them

1170
03:49:49.520 --> 03:50:02.639
to experience a real deepening of that real vexation in

1171
03:50:02.799 --> 03:50:20.879
your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each

1172
03:50:21.200 --> 03:50:30.360
number from eight.

1173
03:50:32.600 --> 03:50:38.920
Down to one, you can.

1174
03:50:38.879 --> 03:50:50.120
Almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

1175
03:50:50.319 --> 03:50:57.159
hands and fingers, becoming.

1176
03:51:00.959 --> 03:51:02.719
E more.

1177
03:51:04.559 --> 03:51:21.360
Relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight down

1178
03:51:22.120 --> 03:52:29.280
to one, drifting, drifting again starting with number eight, seven.

1179
03:52:57.879 --> 03:53:33.159
Six, f.

1180
03:53:57.879 --> 03:55:44.719
Four three, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1181
03:55:46.479 --> 03:55:57.760
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

1182
03:56:02.520 --> 03:56:09.959
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1183
03:56:10.239 --> 03:56:16.879
how you just normally feel when you take away all

1184
03:56:17.120 --> 03:56:24.040
that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

1185
03:56:24.440 --> 03:56:40.719
stress and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking

1186
03:56:40.799 --> 03:56:46.440
about stuff, and you take that away, which is what

1187
03:56:46.600 --> 03:56:58.479
we do. What we do now, you're left with a

1188
03:56:58.600 --> 03:57:07.479
real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly,

1189
03:57:11.680 --> 03:57:22.520
because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort.

1190
03:57:26.120 --> 03:57:29.399
It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've

1191
03:57:29.559 --> 03:57:44.159
found a special place where everything is peaceful, a place

1192
03:57:44.360 --> 03:57:52.239
where you can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort,

1193
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a place where you can be you, where you can

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03:58:03.559 --> 03:58:10.200
accept yourself for who you are, the place where you're

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03:58:10.280 --> 03:58:20.719
not trying to please anybody else ever, the place where

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03:58:20.840 --> 03:58:30.239
you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

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03:58:30.399 --> 03:58:39.879
ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1198
03:58:48.719 --> 03:58:55.319
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

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That's also a place where you can actually feel the

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03:59:11.159 --> 03:59:26.440
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1201
03:59:26.559 --> 03:59:36.520
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1202
03:59:40.280 --> 03:59:47.159
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1203
03:59:53.079 --> 03:59:57.680
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

1204
04:00:00.159 --> 04:00:06.559
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1205
04:00:07.120 --> 04:00:18.360
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1206
04:00:18.479 --> 04:00:29.600
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1207
04:00:29.879 --> 04:00:41.719
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment. But also

1208
04:00:44.680 --> 04:00:52.200
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

1209
04:00:52.360 --> 04:01:02.000
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

1210
04:01:02.440 --> 04:01:12.639
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1211
04:01:12.719 --> 04:01:19.520
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1212
04:01:21.440 --> 04:01:28.879
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

1213
04:01:29.040 --> 04:01:36.440
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

1214
04:01:36.559 --> 04:01:44.159
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

1215
04:01:44.639 --> 04:01:53.559
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

1216
04:01:58.639 --> 04:02:05.040
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1217
04:02:08.879 --> 04:02:19.000
no longer have that power to control you the way

1218
04:02:19.079 --> 04:02:27.079
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1219
04:02:28.120 --> 04:02:40.520
that you're the one who decides what affects you, you're

1220
04:02:41.040 --> 04:02:50.920
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

1221
04:02:51.840 --> 04:03:06.760
you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing

1222
04:03:09.360 --> 04:03:17.920
continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1223
04:03:23.840 --> 04:03:32.040
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1224
04:03:37.000 --> 04:03:46.600
and sleeping. It's the most natural thing in the world

1225
04:03:48.040 --> 04:03:56.360
to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

1226
04:03:59.399 --> 04:04:01.000
so many times.

1227
04:04:02.360 --> 04:04:07.959
In your life, and you know that you were born

1228
04:04:09.479 --> 04:04:11.239
as we all were, with.

1229
04:04:11.840 --> 04:04:22.479
The ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born with

1230
04:04:23.000 --> 04:04:35.440
that ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1231
04:04:41.399 --> 04:04:46.200
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep and we

1232
04:04:46.280 --> 04:04:50.840
don't even want to try and tell you stay awake.

1233
04:04:52.239 --> 04:04:55.680
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

1234
04:04:55.879 --> 04:04:59.639
or holiday or something we look forward to. We don't

1235
04:04:59.639 --> 04:05:04.319
want to go to sleep. But the more you want

1236
04:05:04.360 --> 04:05:09.520
to stay awake, the more we just start to drift.

1237
04:05:13.680 --> 04:05:17.680
And the more you fight drifting, the more you try

1238
04:05:17.799 --> 04:05:22.680
to stop yourself and drift in a safe the deeper

1239
04:05:22.840 --> 04:05:34.440
and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just

1240
04:05:34.639 --> 04:05:41.360
with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

1241
04:05:44.559 --> 04:05:57.879
but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

1242
04:05:58.159 --> 04:06:03.600
sometimes as we get old during life, perhaps at times

1243
04:06:04.520 --> 04:06:17.479
we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a

1244
04:06:17.760 --> 04:06:42.000
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

1245
04:06:42.520 --> 04:06:44.840
easy to let go.

1246
04:06:46.879 --> 04:06:47.959
Because that's all it is.

1247
04:06:48.159 --> 04:07:02.959
It's just deciding to let go. And when you press

1248
04:07:03.159 --> 04:07:11.879
the play button on my recordings, you have given permission.

1249
04:07:13.680 --> 04:07:14.840
For my voice.

1250
04:07:16.159 --> 04:07:23.360
To relax you. When you press that play button, you

1251
04:07:23.479 --> 04:07:34.280
have given me permission for my words to effect you

1252
04:07:34.920 --> 04:07:51.440
in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

1253
04:07:51.559 --> 04:08:14.319
mind two useful and healing suggestions that can have such

1254
04:08:14.319 --> 04:08:26.440
an amazing effect on how you feel right now, as

1255
04:08:26.559 --> 04:08:37.440
well as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1256
04:08:39.200 --> 04:08:48.319
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1257
04:08:52.840 --> 04:09:07.200
transforming your life in positive, beautiful way, allowing you to

1258
04:09:07.600 --> 04:09:13.799
move forward in your life in the direction that you

1259
04:09:14.159 --> 04:09:31.159
choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you

1260
04:09:32.000 --> 04:09:47.239
can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This feels so nice.

1261
04:09:56.520 --> 04:10:09.280
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1262
04:10:10.639 --> 04:10:29.559
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1263
04:10:29.760 --> 04:10:40.559
how to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1264
04:10:40.680 --> 04:10:49.479
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

1265
04:10:49.680 --> 04:10:55.239
thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

1266
04:10:56.200 --> 04:11:07.719
clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your

1267
04:11:07.920 --> 04:11:17.680
mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to start

1268
04:11:17.920 --> 04:11:34.239
noticing when negativity arises and you can just say stop, stop,

1269
04:11:37.120 --> 04:11:43.879
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1270
04:11:51.840 --> 04:11:58.520
Stop and that negativity.

1271
04:12:00.879 --> 04:12:01.799
Would disappear.

1272
04:12:09.959 --> 04:12:16.440
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1273
04:12:17.840 --> 04:12:33.200
than you probably expected. You can now congratulate yourself because

1274
04:12:33.440 --> 04:12:39.799
you're the person that has done this. You are the

1275
04:12:39.959 --> 04:12:45.000
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1276
04:12:45.239 --> 04:12:53.079
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

1277
04:12:53.840 --> 04:13:03.079
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1278
04:13:05.440 --> 04:13:12.000
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1279
04:13:13.079 --> 04:13:25.159
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

1280
04:13:26.799 --> 04:13:27.600
Don't you think.

1281
04:13:30.040 --> 04:13:38.879
It feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm full, that

1282
04:13:39.239 --> 04:13:50.360
healing energy spreading through your body in your mind, to

1283
04:13:50.479 --> 04:14:02.360
spend time a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1284
04:14:08.799 --> 04:14:18.000
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed. Entrigue doesn't

1285
04:14:18.280 --> 04:14:21.760
it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't

1286
04:14:21.920 --> 04:14:40.600
belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1287
04:14:40.760 --> 04:14:55.520
makes room for more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace.

1288
04:15:12.479 --> 04:15:13.920
It feels nice, doesn't it?

1289
04:15:15.760 --> 04:15:39.200
Just to let go with everything. I'm gonna count down

1290
04:15:39.399 --> 04:15:48.079
now from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

1291
04:15:50.280 --> 04:16:01.799
If you choose, you can drift to sleep with every

1292
04:16:02.000 --> 04:16:13.639
number he may say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

1293
04:16:16.680 --> 04:16:20.879
or if you choose, you can fill twice as sleeping.

1294
04:16:27.760 --> 04:17:35.879
Now twenty nineteen eighteen seven, eighteen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen thirteen

1295
04:17:42.399 --> 04:18:42.200
to weelve eleven, ten, nine, eight seven, six, five.

1296
04:18:48.840 --> 04:18:49.120
Four.

1297
04:19:22.440 --> 04:19:32.239
This is your time to just take a break, your

1298
04:19:32.399 --> 04:19:43.120
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1299
04:19:51.799 --> 04:19:54.280
to give yourself a permission.

1300
04:19:58.479 --> 04:20:00.120
To take a break.

1301
04:20:04.879 --> 04:20:13.920
From everything. And you're the only person that can make

1302
04:20:14.079 --> 04:20:15.079
that decision.

1303
04:20:17.920 --> 04:20:18.600
You're the only.

1304
04:20:18.559 --> 04:20:20.879
Person that can actually tell your mind.

1305
04:20:25.479 --> 04:20:35.239
To just relax, to just.

1306
04:20:38.920 --> 04:20:40.200
Take some time.

1307
04:20:41.920 --> 04:20:53.760
Off so that you can focus on your body, getting

1308
04:20:54.159 --> 04:21:08.520
in touch with how you feel physically. And in the

1309
04:21:08.639 --> 04:21:16.760
process of this body scan, where you focus on different

1310
04:21:16.840 --> 04:21:26.680
parts of your body, those parts that you focus on

1311
04:21:27.399 --> 04:21:38.799
and observe, even though you're not purposely requesting for those

1312
04:21:39.000 --> 04:21:44.600
parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

1313
04:21:46.200 --> 04:21:51.760
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

1314
04:21:52.760 --> 04:22:06.479
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

1315
04:22:06.520 --> 04:22:18.799
attention is focused on my words, and as my words

1316
04:22:19.760 --> 04:22:29.920
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

1317
04:22:33.719 --> 04:22:55.879
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

1318
04:22:55.920 --> 04:23:16.000
your mind calms down, your body relaxes. And when your body.

1319
04:23:19.319 --> 04:23:26.680
Calms down, your mind.

1320
04:23:28.360 --> 04:23:42.920
Relaxes. And even though you have not really started to

1321
04:23:43.040 --> 04:23:55.719
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

1322
04:23:56.000 --> 04:24:10.440
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

1323
04:24:14.600 --> 04:24:21.879
heathing all the parts of your body, bleeding, your skin,

1324
04:24:23.040 --> 04:24:29.959
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1325
04:24:31.360 --> 04:24:38.120
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all everything,

1326
04:24:40.000 --> 04:24:46.159
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

1327
04:24:54.200 --> 04:25:09.920
And when your brain rules with that healing energy, the

1328
04:25:10.159 --> 04:25:14.879
feeling of comfort and relaxation.

1329
04:25:17.959 --> 04:25:28.680
Increases deeply, increases.

1330
04:25:34.360 --> 04:25:35.239
In a way to.

1331
04:25:38.719 --> 04:25:39.639
Your mind.

1332
04:25:42.879 --> 04:25:56.440
Starts to feel perhaps bit drowsing because it's not needed,

1333
04:25:59.719 --> 04:26:19.280
and may start to drift if that's what's needed. So

1334
04:26:19.399 --> 04:26:24.159
if you're listening to this and what you need is

1335
04:26:24.360 --> 04:26:26.319
deep relaxation.

1336
04:26:26.360 --> 04:26:30.799
That's what you get. If what you need is.

1337
04:26:32.520 --> 04:26:39.440
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

1338
04:26:42.040 --> 04:26:55.799
that's also for what happened, because by listen that play

1339
04:26:55.920 --> 04:27:01.280
button on the podcast and listening to me to give

1340
04:27:01.600 --> 04:27:14.319
permission for your body in your mind, in fact, you

1341
04:27:14.440 --> 04:27:18.920
give the command to your body in your mind to

1342
04:27:19.079 --> 04:27:31.799
relax deeply and to drift off to sleep if that's

1343
04:27:32.120 --> 04:27:37.600
what you want need.

1344
04:27:45.319 --> 04:27:47.040
And as I focus.

1345
04:27:48.239 --> 04:27:58.280
On the different parts of your body, you may start

1346
04:27:58.639 --> 04:28:06.559
to just driven, and then you come back again and

1347
04:28:06.760 --> 04:28:10.520
do you hear me talking and I'm focusing on a

1348
04:28:10.879 --> 04:28:22.840
different parts of your body, and you may find yourself drifting.

1349
04:28:25.760 --> 04:28:33.200
You don't realize you're drifting until you stop drifting. If

1350
04:28:33.239 --> 04:28:40.360
you're alert again to my voice focusing what a different

1351
04:28:40.479 --> 04:28:50.079
parts of your body starts to relax in deeper because

1352
04:28:50.200 --> 04:28:58.159
that drifting, it's basically you already in the sleep side.

1353
04:29:04.680 --> 04:29:09.879
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, the

1354
04:29:10.040 --> 04:29:25.360
longer you dreat. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep, and

1355
04:29:25.520 --> 04:29:30.280
that's the last you remember until you wake up.

1356
04:29:34.639 --> 04:29:37.440
In your own time when.

1357
04:29:37.319 --> 04:29:40.120
You experience the r amount.

1358
04:29:39.879 --> 04:29:49.879
Of sleep, because when you do, and if you do all.

1359
04:29:49.760 --> 04:30:18.680
Asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep sleep feels

1360
04:30:18.879 --> 04:30:26.600
so nice to relax into the one body in mind

1361
04:30:31.280 --> 04:30:36.360
as you feel that heating energy is spreading through it.

1362
04:30:38.559 --> 04:30:51.440
Relaxing is so deep and relaxing is so so deeply.

1363
04:31:00.600 --> 04:31:13.959
We start to focus on your eyes, leave it down

1364
04:31:16.879 --> 04:31:36.399
to your jewel, down to make the shoulders.

1365
04:31:43.120 --> 04:31:51.000
Ah hand.

1366
04:31:59.159 --> 04:32:30.719
Pheus, yes, yes, by.

1367
04:32:38.000 --> 04:32:48.040
You you make.

1368
04:32:55.920 --> 04:33:25.880
You fat and the being.

1369
04:33:27.360 --> 04:33:30.000
Being breathing.

1370
04:33:31.240 --> 04:33:35.439
Growing inside your body.

1371
04:33:37.040 --> 04:33:38.040
Than you are.

1372
04:33:40.919 --> 04:33:54.439
Now, let's focus again, are parts of your body focusing

1373
04:33:54.599 --> 04:34:05.560
this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, lips,

1374
04:34:07.639 --> 04:34:27.520
the tongue, all of your mouth. Focus then on your fingers.

1375
04:34:32.880 --> 04:34:37.240
Maybe you need it then you think it's a little goods.

1376
04:34:37.400 --> 04:34:48.959
You can focus on each one individually, both hands.

1377
04:34:52.880 --> 04:34:55.360
And even though should focus on both.

1378
04:34:55.200 --> 04:34:57.159
Of your hands now.

1379
04:34:58.720 --> 04:35:01.319
It almost seems to melt into one.

1380
04:35:06.680 --> 04:35:10.560
Maybe your right hand start to you know, lived hand and.

1381
04:35:14.200 --> 04:35:15.119
Who mast is it.

1382
04:35:18.000 --> 04:35:34.000
Just mixed together? Now, focusing on your knees, just magicing.

1383
04:35:34.680 --> 04:35:36.319
How your knees fill.

1384
04:35:52.720 --> 04:36:10.479
Now, focusing helpers, focusing on birdays, will words, just absurving, feasing,

1385
04:36:13.159 --> 04:36:43.159
holling about almers, nosen, observing.

1386
04:36:44.159 --> 04:36:45.240
What do you think.

1387
04:36:55.080 --> 04:37:00.639
Feeling that energy? The fact you think.

1388
04:37:32.200 --> 04:37:32.240
So?

1389
04:37:35.040 --> 04:39:01.439
You think course these cool sensations, don't think ye the tide?

1390
04:39:04.880 --> 04:39:06.000
What do you think?

1391
04:39:13.080 --> 04:39:14.040
Being aware?

1392
04:39:15.799 --> 04:39:16.000
Now?

1393
04:39:18.400 --> 04:39:19.000
You too.

1394
04:39:21.919 --> 04:39:58.520
Feel right now what you say?

1395
04:40:08.919 --> 04:40:31.159
Hi, you sire, body feels nicin you.

1396
04:40:31.560 --> 04:40:36.279
Mind feels.

1397
04:40:39.599 --> 04:40:39.799
Now.

1398
04:40:57.880 --> 04:41:23.400
Let him go, Let's hi go, let'sh go like everything,

1399
04:41:31.680 --> 04:42:13.360
let's h go, lets go, let'sh go theverything I'm going

1400
04:42:13.439 --> 04:42:14.119
to start now.

1401
04:42:15.720 --> 04:42:19.040
And i'd likely just first of all, just to see yourself.

1402
04:42:20.240 --> 04:42:21.080
Lying down.

1403
04:42:22.520 --> 04:42:28.040
On that message table, lying on the front. Your head

1404
04:42:28.159 --> 04:42:36.560
is supported, your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable.

1405
04:42:37.040 --> 04:42:39.720
And breathing. It's really easy.

1406
04:42:41.599 --> 04:42:42.720
And you feel.

1407
04:42:45.919 --> 04:42:48.680
You feel confident in how you look as well.

1408
04:42:48.840 --> 04:42:49.919
So there's none of that.

1409
04:42:50.080 --> 04:42:56.799
Issue of body problems or shyness because I'm a professional

1410
04:42:58.000 --> 04:43:04.840
and is a therapy session, so none of that stuff

1411
04:43:05.040 --> 04:43:15.319
matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about how

1412
04:43:15.599 --> 04:43:16.919
you feel.

1413
04:43:17.880 --> 04:43:20.000
How you can.

1414
04:43:21.360 --> 04:43:26.959
Enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

1415
04:43:28.360 --> 04:43:34.000
letting go and allow him my hands, my fingers to

1416
04:43:34.159 --> 04:43:45.639
relax you by a massagy your body. I want to

1417
04:43:45.680 --> 04:43:50.799
starts off just by placing my hands on the back

1418
04:43:50.880 --> 04:43:55.720
of your head, just generally, just you can feel what

1419
04:43:55.880 --> 04:44:04.319
my hands feel like really on you, so you can

1420
04:44:04.400 --> 04:44:06.680
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

1421
04:44:06.759 --> 04:44:12.240
of your head. And with my hands to the side

1422
04:44:12.279 --> 04:44:16.880
of your hand, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

1423
04:44:19.840 --> 04:44:22.840
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

1424
04:44:24.080 --> 04:44:27.119
just so you can feel my hands.

1425
04:44:28.880 --> 04:44:31.080
So you can become accustomed.

1426
04:44:32.040 --> 04:44:32.479
To them.

1427
04:44:41.080 --> 04:44:43.279
And now put my hands in the back of your

1428
04:44:43.360 --> 04:44:50.759
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

1429
04:44:50.799 --> 04:45:07.840
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

1430
04:45:08.080 --> 04:45:10.360
stroke in the back of your neck. And to start with,

1431
04:45:14.959 --> 04:45:18.919
just so you can get used to the feeling with

1432
04:45:19.080 --> 04:45:26.599
my hands. On your skin, get accustomed to realize that

1433
04:45:27.119 --> 04:45:37.599
you're safe, it's all good, it's all fine. You really

1434
04:45:37.680 --> 04:45:41.520
start gently messaging the muscles.

1435
04:45:41.200 --> 04:45:42.400
In the back of your neck.

1436
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With both hands.

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And this is a very trusting.

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Situation really, because our necks is so fragile and to

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04:46:06.200 --> 04:46:10.279
have someone have their hands around your neck in that

1440
04:46:10.439 --> 04:46:15.720
way can sometimes be problematic for people, which is why

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massages are quite good, because it allows you to relax

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04:46:21.919 --> 04:46:36.279
and to in touch with trust, to feel peaceful and calm.

1443
04:46:44.560 --> 04:46:46.919
There's a massage the sides.

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04:46:46.639 --> 04:46:54.880
Of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

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04:46:56.560 --> 04:46:57.959
To be sort of near where.

1446
04:46:57.799 --> 04:47:01.000
Your shoulders start against all the way up.

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To your jaw.

1448
04:47:05.479 --> 04:47:06.720
It is kind of.

1449
04:47:06.680 --> 04:47:09.000
Area that side of your neck.

1450
04:47:11.799 --> 04:47:14.319
Of course, there's a lot longer than the front of

1451
04:47:14.400 --> 04:47:28.040
your neck, and the.

1452
04:47:28.080 --> 04:47:35.439
Message in the back of your neck, especially that area

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04:47:35.680 --> 04:47:44.520
where perhaps we hold tension, and there's that area's message.

1454
04:47:44.919 --> 04:47:48.959
You can actually feel a sense of release in the

1455
04:47:49.040 --> 04:47:56.919
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

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04:47:57.040 --> 04:48:02.279
out as well. Notice how it feels. They're just how

1457
04:48:02.479 --> 04:48:16.119
you feel. Then moving down to that area between your

1458
04:48:16.200 --> 04:48:24.040
neck and your shoulders, that musty area, starting to message

1459
04:48:26.200 --> 04:48:30.680
that area on both sides, and this would be the

1460
04:48:30.799 --> 04:48:33.599
area that a lot of people would message if they

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04:48:33.680 --> 04:48:36.720
were going to give you, like a shoulder message.

1462
04:48:38.240 --> 04:48:39.240
Even that's not.

1463
04:48:39.439 --> 04:48:42.959
Technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that lead

1464
04:48:43.040 --> 04:48:44.319
to the shoulders.

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04:48:45.639 --> 04:48:46.479
From the neck.

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04:48:48.400 --> 04:48:54.639
And again make a whole attention and stress. And when messaged,

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04:48:55.560 --> 04:49:02.799
sometimes a nice deep message is useful. And you decide

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how deep that message is.

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And just allow.

1470
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My knuckles just to dig.

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04:49:21.959 --> 04:49:30.279
In to get to those muscles, and too, really relaxed

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04:49:33.000 --> 04:49:50.360
all the time, being firm yet gentle, did you and

1473
04:49:50.639 --> 04:50:00.040
just stretching down the area two actual shoulders, moving the

1474
04:50:00.200 --> 04:50:11.040
muscles of your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up

1475
04:50:11.319 --> 04:50:14.959
the shoulders a little bit off the table just to

1476
04:50:15.040 --> 04:50:16.680
give you a little bit of a stretch.

1477
04:50:18.479 --> 04:50:19.319
The reaching me.

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04:50:26.080 --> 04:50:29.880
At the muscles at the front of your shoulders besides

1479
04:50:30.240 --> 04:50:30.639
the back.

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04:50:38.799 --> 04:50:41.360
Again, this is the part that you can really.

1481
04:50:42.680 --> 04:50:43.599
Take quite a bit of.

1482
04:50:43.680 --> 04:50:46.159
Pressure, quite a bit of.

1483
04:50:49.919 --> 04:50:58.880
Needing if if you wish to release the tension. And

1484
04:50:59.040 --> 04:51:00.119
when you get into.

1485
04:51:00.080 --> 04:51:01.159
Those muscles and.

1486
04:51:04.959 --> 04:51:11.479
Your fingers in there, you feel really, really nice. Sometimes

1487
04:51:11.520 --> 04:51:18.560
it's just been stroked gently, I've been massaged quite strongly.

1488
04:51:22.240 --> 04:51:31.639
It can all be beneficial to the realization put the

1489
04:51:31.799 --> 04:51:45.240
muscles in your shoulders. Now you've moved down your arms.

1490
04:51:51.880 --> 04:51:55.360
You give one arm at a time, starting with your

1491
04:51:55.520 --> 04:51:56.040
right arm.

1492
04:52:02.639 --> 04:52:06.360
What I'll do is I just lift your arm up.

1493
04:52:07.200 --> 04:52:09.279
Just hold it to society.

1494
04:52:11.880 --> 04:52:13.560
And when I took you attack.

1495
04:52:15.319 --> 04:52:30.040
And I just message the tops of your arms all

1496
04:52:30.040 --> 04:52:35.880
the way down to your forearms. It's your wrists.

1497
04:52:47.279 --> 04:52:49.479
Can't be messaging.

1498
04:52:54.639 --> 04:52:55.400
The parts.

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04:52:57.880 --> 04:52:59.680
The softer part, which is deep.

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04:53:00.279 --> 04:53:01.919
I'm the part of the army.

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04:53:05.040 --> 04:53:08.959
Leads to the crease in your ruby inside.

1502
04:53:10.159 --> 04:53:27.840
Much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that straight you're

1503
04:53:27.959 --> 04:53:33.080
really nice, playing a bullet and relaxing.

1504
04:53:41.880 --> 04:53:44.400
Now leaving down to.

1505
04:53:44.479 --> 04:53:56.840
Your right hand, just holding my hand, the birth of

1506
04:53:56.919 --> 04:54:07.000
my hand, just pressing gently on the back of your hand,

1507
04:54:09.319 --> 04:54:11.560
stretcher of bingess.

1508
04:54:12.959 --> 04:54:14.520
Very slightly.

1509
04:54:17.200 --> 04:54:18.240
At the same tile.

1510
04:54:20.439 --> 04:54:32.479
Bress him down and messaging each thing down and then

1511
04:54:32.680 --> 04:54:43.799
starting into message the car your hand. Just turning that

1512
04:54:44.040 --> 04:54:48.560
hand gently, stretching gently.

1513
04:54:53.560 --> 04:54:55.400
That you have in your hand to God.

1514
04:54:57.080 --> 04:54:59.439
Be a motion.

1515
04:55:00.119 --> 04:55:07.240
It's sometimes it is a stranger, so you don't know

1516
04:55:07.639 --> 04:55:12.959
very well. I can less much person the focus maybe

1517
04:55:15.040 --> 04:55:16.200
because it's intimate.

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04:55:24.319 --> 04:55:28.680
The advice if you say.

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That's at the.

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Right or back down where it was.

1521
04:55:45.639 --> 04:55:47.520
I did the same as the left.

1522
04:55:51.119 --> 04:55:58.919
That we sid to your muscles.

1523
04:56:00.200 --> 04:56:04.279
You gets.

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04:56:08.000 --> 04:56:09.639
Steeping inside of the.

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04:56:16.240 --> 04:56:18.360
Us pos and.

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04:56:18.639 --> 04:56:31.680
Most the right side left.

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Step Two things

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Fact, that's not you