June 12, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1371 | 11th June 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Whisper Wednesday | LMBYTS #1371 | 11th June 2025
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Hello, Welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland.

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This is this let me boy to sleep, Whisper Wednesday

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and Finny.

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As soon as I start doing his recording, he's up

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and awake. He was fast to sleep about thirty seconds ago.

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I think he just wants a bit of a cuddle.

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So to say hello to everyone, A big special hello

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to Ben, who is the only person I know that

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likes the Whisper Wednesdays Wednesday Whisper whatever this is, I say,

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the only person I know that likes They do get

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listened to by lots of people, but just you know,

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I mean I know that. Hi, Ben, That's what I'm saying.

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Is high Vinnie slo to Ben. He said hi as well,

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actually said no, I don't have to do what you

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tell me. He's very rude. So today's Wednesday. I've got

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no one do they were? The date is? I think

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it's the eleventh of June twenty twenty five. I was

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thinking about doing this recording, but I was watching something

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on TV and then there was this massive sound outside

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because I had the window open, and I thought it's

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the lawn mower men just cutting the lawn, which means

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it's loud, but it doesn't last long. But it seemed

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to be lasting a little bit longer than normal because

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the communal garden air is very small. It doesn't take

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more than probably five minutes for them to come. And

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then they started to start to hear a Revin like

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where has my impression of a raven? And I realized

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there was a motorbike over the fence, so I had

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to close the window because it was way too loud.

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But when as the window, the motorbike stopped, and now

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I can just hear loads of voices. So I'm going

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to continue making this recording, even though literally as we speak,

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I heard the person's trying to start the motorbike again.

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It's just yeah, it's not it's very loud. It's very

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very loud. I might just continue talking anyway, because you

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may not help. It might not be very loud on

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the microphone because he's literally outside over the fence and

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you might not hear it, or it might be very faint.

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I can hear it, well, I can't hear it now

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because it's not it's not going. But anyway, oh yeah,

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please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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It's times like this that I that I feel glad

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that yesterday I actually made use of the day and

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made some recordings. Because a day when there's a motorbike

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being reved all day long, which has happened while for

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a few hours anyway, it's I just find it distracted

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to make a recording. I mean, I can't make any

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kind of hypnosis and stuff like that. But yesterday added

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to a couple of new recordings as well as the

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Drivia Tuesday. This is Whisper Wednesday, Wednesday whispers Whisper Wednesday,

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isn't it. I'm trying to trying to stick to the

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routine of Monday's boring objects, Trivia Tuesday, Whisper Wednesday, and

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Q and A Friday. So that's four four days when

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it's like a regular type of recording. So I do try.

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I am trying, not very hard, but very minimally giving

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it a go. Oh yeah, oh yeah. I found a

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new way and some exercise. I came using the word

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exercise very flimsily, but took my little one out three

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for a W A L K and I and he

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started pulling me towards the bridge. So I got this

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railway bridge and it's not even really used. I think

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it was originally built because they were going to be

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building a railway station there, and they never built the

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railway station, but they put a brand new bridge in.

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It's one of those really nice bridges. I'd say, really

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nice bridges. I mean, you might not be into bridges,

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but it's like metal and there's steps coming up. Also

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i'd be cramp as well. So you foot on a

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bike or in a wheelchair you can get access. And

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it's a big, old, big old bridge. And for some reason,

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Venue was just trying to take me. I just wanted

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to take me away from I think what it is

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he gets bored being in the same little park every day.

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He wants to go for a walk and explore other places.

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So I just let him lead me the way. I

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just sometimes I will do that. I'll just follow him

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or as my own friend, and I used to say folly.

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I used to follow him, follow folly. And he led

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me to the the bridge and he started trying to

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walk up the the ramp bit and I pulled him

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away and said no, And then he walked and he

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tried to cut the steps. So I thought, well, he

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clearly wants to go up here, so I just followed

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him up the steps. He walked across the bridge, and

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then I think we went down the ramp. No, we

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went down the steps, and then he wanted to walk

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further away, which would be leading us pretty much to nowhere, really,

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and I thought, no, but he clearly wants to have

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a good walk, and I need a walk. I need

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to I get out walking, but I don't. I don't

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walk any kind of real distance, not really. I don't

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think I get my ten thousand steps a day. I

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get a few thousand, but I don't think ten thousand.

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Maybe I do, but I doubt it. I've never counted them.

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It's quite hard, though, isn't if you count your steps

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and then another dog walker says, hello, what am I

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supposed to do? Is a wait a second? Let me

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just write down the steps that I've done so far.

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It's I think there's a catchy. You can get a

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step counter. There used to be this thing that you

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could use, which it basically it was like a wheel

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and you put it on the ground and you walked

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with it, pushing it, and it measured the distance that

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you went. And I used to use I used to

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I used to have one of them, and I'd use

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it sometimes in London because I wanted to see how

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far it walked. It was very weird looks, but you can't. Yeah,

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apparently there's I think the step o meter things is

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just because you shake so literally. You could just, I

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don't know, stand on one of those shaky machines and

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it looks like you've walked for miles when in fact

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you haven't done anything. Or you could bounce on a

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bouncy castle. That would be exercise as well, wouldn't it. Yeah,

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I wonder if it registers steps on the Moon. I

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don't mean we're not walking, I mean somebody that was

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on the moon. But then I suppose because it's so advanced,

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isn't it or the technology that they probably are registering

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the distance did the astronauts are traveling anyway, and how

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many steps they take. Plus they don't have to make

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as many steps today because they're almost being bulled into space,

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but the heavy boots keep them down, which I never understood.

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How heavy are those shoes? Wouldn't it make more sense

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right because if the shoes are really really heavy, because

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you imagine if we didn't have any gravity on this planet,

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we would just end up in the sky. How heavy

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would we have to have How heavy would our shoes

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have to be to keep us stuck to the ground.

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Because I've seen movies where no gravity and things cars

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are just being pulled up into the air because there's

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no gravity. Okay, it's a movie. But if that's the case,

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does that mean that the astronauts shoes, slippers or boots whatever, boots.

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I guess the astronauts boots, well into boots are heavier

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than a car. So if that's the case, then that's

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gotta be part of reason why it's so hard to

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get into space, because it's not so much getting through

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the atmosphere. The rocket is the weight of those shoes,

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the astronauts' shoes. So when it makes sense if they

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just add a little I don't know, on the Moon

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or on the space station, a shoe couped or something

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where they can just leave the shoes there so they

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could wear slippers or crocs going up and then when

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they get there they can put on and slip into

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their astronaut wellies. They were really heavy, they might end

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up using a lot less fuel. They might get that quicker.

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I might have just solved a big issue. See, it's

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amazing what you can do and you're not even trying.

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That's the problem. But I bet you're not one astronaut

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or not one astro physicist or the scientist is listening

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to this, because if they were, this could change the

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whole the whole landscape of space travel. In fact, it

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could be the break needed that could bridge. Got back

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to the talking about bridges, could bridge towards further exploration

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because it'd be able to get in and out of

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space a lot quicker. And they could just start to

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store stuff in space, on the space station or on

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the Moon and have that as a like a fuck

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a lock up, you know, like an old lockup just

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keeps their spare stuff in there. Well, they could even

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open shops up, really, but I guess that's more for

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the future, like a shoe shop. And helmets. Do they

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need their helmet on when they're traveling up again, I'm

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not sure. I thought the container though in was pressurized,

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which meant they'll be able to breathe. I might be wrong.

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What they could do is fill you know, the airbags

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that they have on their back, which gives them oxygen.

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Why not fill them with oxygen, like thousands of them,

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and just keep taking them into space so that eventually

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we have unlimited supply of oxygen up there. But I

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don't know would that run out the oxygen in this

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world we kept filling. If you kept filling an oxygen

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tank up from oxygen the air, and you did that,

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you got millions and billions and millions of them with

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the oxygen right now. And another thing is that was

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the life or you know, the life span of oxygen.

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Does he go off after a few years? Does he

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go malty? Because I used to think that soup tense

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soup lasts forever. I remember seeing these again. I'm not

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sure if there were documentaries or if there are movies

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or TV shows where people would be climbing up and

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mountain and they get to a shack or some kind

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of wooden the house and it'd be a cellar, or

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it'd be like like we have lots of food and stuff,

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but all tinned food, because bananas don't last long on

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a mountain. It's but they go there and the last

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time anyone was there was like one hundred years ago,

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because someone wrote in the book, I was here one

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hundred years ago. Or I don't know, whatever, and they'd

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open up the food in the tin and they'd eat

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it and it'd be all y y yum, yum yum.

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Mind you, cat food would taste amazing if you hadn't

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eaten for five days, wouldn't it. It would be the

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most delicious thing you'd ever eat it. And it tastes

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even better if you didn't know his cat food. So

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don't present it in a cat food bowl. Probably not

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that you're can present it. I mean, if someone's hungry

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and you give us some food and they haven't eaten

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for days, you're not gonna be worried about present day.

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I suppose you just they'd probably be happy just to

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eat it out of the tin. What I used to

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think the all tins lasted like forever, I say forever,

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maybe not thousands of years, but just a long long

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time because they were air tight and they were built

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to last. Well, let me tell you the tins are

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today are not built to last. I had some tins

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of soup and they were good ones like Hines. They weren't,

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you know, they weren't like Little Iron Brand. Not did

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it's anything wrong with a Little Iron Brand. I'm just

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saying it was heines the most I would say, probably

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the most faith miss soup maker in this country anyway,

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heinz tomato soup and most people, even if they don't,

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I have soup. I nearly said, eat soup. But soup

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is eating. It's drunk, isn't it. Even if it's got

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vegetables in and stuff. It's just lumpy water, lumpy flavored water.

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That's what it is. It's not a meal at best,

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It's a starter's Did I ever tell you about the

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day I went on and she said, would you like

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some lunch before we go out? And I thought, oh yeah.

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She gave me soup and one piece of bread. I

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was like, what am I? Is this a day or

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is this my first stay in prison? I mean, what,

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what the heck? I'm literally I get a better fed

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in prison. That was what was going on. Those are

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the days where my belly didn't enjoy soup. I needed food.

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The same thing happened when I visited my dad my

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step mom, and this was I think it was December

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two thousand and eleven, December two thousand and eleven, and

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I just wanted to tell them because I'd just been

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diagnosed with bipolar, and I wanted to tell them because

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it was I don't know, it just seemed like the

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right thing to let them know. I think when my dad,

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well maybe both of them looked at each other like

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that explains it. But what I remember about that meeting

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is with me in this restaurant cafe. Place had soup, soup.

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I had no money, so I can they paid for

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the meal and they had soup. In fact, I'm pretty

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sort of conversations, should we just all had some soup.

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I'm like, I thought they were joking soup. We could

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have done that at home. I don't know why I'm

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focused on soup today. I just I like soup. I'm

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not prejudiced against soup. I'm not, you know. I do

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like chicken soup, like cream cream of chicken or I

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don't know, creamy, that's nice. I'm not so beef broth,

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non not so much vegetable soup. Okay, tomato soup and

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ticks the boxes for me. But it's not a meal.

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It's not a meal. Or they're thinking about it. Maybe

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I'm going to start it's weird. It's now start off

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moaning about soup. Now starting to think I'd quite like

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a nice bowl of soup. What a strange brain.

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I have.

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A nice bowl of soup and a few, maybe two

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or three slices of toast. It seemed like a real

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yummy thing. But I don't. I don't have any soup

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I did. That's what I'm telling the story. I had

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some soup. O can't. That's the pointers. They're supposed to

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last a long time. I went into the cupboard and

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next to.

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The cooker on the left hand side, underneath. I don't

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go in thatck cupboard really ever, and I went in there.

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Just to look what's in there. The colden tins of

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soup bour in there, so I went to pick one

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up and it was empty, while it also leaked, so

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basically all the soup cans had disintegrated to the point

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where the lids came off, the contents leaked out and

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also disintegrated. There was no smell or anything. It's just

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it'd been there for maybe six years, seven year years,

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completely destroyed. And the ironic thing is, on that particular day,

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really fenceed a bowl of soup. I remember thinking, why

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don't I drink more soup? I really used to like soup,

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which I did, but I was a kid back then,

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and I used to get soup whenever I was a

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little bit bally. Maybe i'd coloring from school or maybe

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half the day off, and I remember sitting at the table.

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My stepmom would be looking after me, and she'd make

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me some soup and I'd watch Sesame Street on television,

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because I think Sesame Street used to be on about

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midday and it was great color. Bits of toast. A

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cup of tea as well. Though that was a bit

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weird because it feels like you have a liquid drink

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with solid food. It almost felt like I should be

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hearing some kind of solid drink, maybe an icicle or something.

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I don't know. You can only get solid drinks ken you,

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other than a slushy. Maybe that's quite solid. I'm not

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sure that would fit together with soup, though what soup.

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I suppose. I feel a little bit nostalgic towards some

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of those times because I got to spend time with

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my stepmom.

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With me and.

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No one else. There was just nice, quite a piece

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for no arguments, you know, And I'm just like, I

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didn't be soup. It's weird how quickly soup cools down

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and you think like it can be like super boiling

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hot and you put the spoon in because the spoon

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is metal, it conducts the heat. I think that might be,

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you know, but the spoon's very hot and you're not

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blowing on the spooner and then the soups squirting off

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the spoon. It depends how hard you blow it. Guess

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could just like spray over everyone else at the table.

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But or you make a little dent in it, don't

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you almost like if you mind? Are you used to

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do these? I used to try because I have a

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spoon and look at it, I'd fill it with soup

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and I'll try and blow it. So they had parted

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in the middle a bit like Moses, did you know

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with the ritzy and I just pretend, you know, to

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hear music, pretend to hear music. Sometimes I would hear

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music if music was being played. So yeah, tomato soup

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or any kind of soup would be an opportunity to

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reenact the Moses scene from the Bible. I'm sure I'm

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not the only one that did that. So that was

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pretty good special effects considering the movie was like the sixties,

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the Moses pion this I think I don't know if

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it was just the Bible was the movie there was

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another one, the greatest story ever told. Maybe it was

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actually called Moses. But yeah, that scene where they're walking

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across the sea and all the se the sea wall

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is kind of just splashing, But it's not. That's the

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weird thing about it. That's the It didn't seem realistic

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in one sense, because if you had the sea parted

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and you're walking down and there's a bigger wall and both,

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you know there'd be some splash back. When not one splash,

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they just water along knowing, you know, you'd think they'd

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be a I mean, you wouldn't moan about a little

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a few splashes. You know, you can't get to the

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other side. And Moses would be fitting pretty proud of them,

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so probably, and everyone's saying, oh, well done, Moses. And

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one person says, oh, actually, my shoes are ruined. That's

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another thing, isn't it. I have I have to clean

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my glasses because I'm all the splash back from the water.

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When they walked across, the ground was dry. Now the

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ground would be wet, wouldn't it be muddy? I know

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it's just details, but you know, maybe that's not the

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most unrealistic part of the whole story.

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Maybe hmm.

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So we're walking over this bridge, and I thought to myself,

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this is quite a distance, really walking over, going down

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the steps, walking all the way back the long ramp,

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back to the bridge again, crossing over, walking down the steps,

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then walking up then the other ramp on the other side,

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which is like up one end and then back again.

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Says I thought, you know, if I started doing that,

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maybe did that ten times a day. I don't mean

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going up there ten times and walking over it once.

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More.

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Maybe mhm, go in there once and doing it ten times,

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maybe twice and doing it five times. Oh, I could

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carry it five times and do it twice. I could

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go there three times and do it three three times

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three six Oh no, I could do it three in

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a bit. Or I could do it three times and

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on every third day do an extra time, maybe do

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a fourth that makes sense. Three six nine, No, wait

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in it three six nine, three six nine No, every

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other day to no three six nine, So nine nine

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nine nine nine nine nine nine nine. So that'll be

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ten days. It'd be ninety instead of one hundred. So

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on the tenth day I could do twenty or on

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the fifth day, do fifteen and not twentieth day to fifteen.

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Would you mean it would be the quiner doing ten

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a day. I think I'm not sure if it's really

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necessary to get too bogged down in specifics regarding how

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many times I is to walk over it. But I

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thought maybe that would be useful to get a little

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bit more exercise and you know, get out. Plus, it's

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not really anyone around. There are people around, but not much.

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And the whole the whole way up and down, it's

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up the ramp and across the bridge is all it's

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got sight starhle way, Sovin he can't wonder off. He

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kind of can only go one way or go backwards

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or stop, which he likes to stop. He just likes

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to do the opposite to what I want him to do.

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Earlier today we went into the park and a the

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thing he did was he stole another dog's ball, Amber's

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ball that sent the name of the dog. He would

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not let it go and the ball was too big

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for his mouth. It was huge, but he loved it.

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He fell in love with his ball. It's almost like

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he was the most precious item in the whole world.

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I literally had to pick him up and price it

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out of his mouth so I could give it back

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to the dog. He didn't want to give it back.

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There was one point, right, I kind of picked him

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up a little bit to get it out of his mouth,

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and he wouldn't let it go, so I started message

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in his hands. Now he does not let me do

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that ever, without growling and snapping. Doesn't like me doing that.

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By this occasion, he couldn't do anything because this ball

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was in his mouth. So I'm thinking next hour, the

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next time I want to cut his toenails. I'm just

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going to stick a ball, get him to hold the ball,

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and then he won't be right I want to do maybe.

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I think it's good though, because he needs to spend

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more time walking on the pavement, because his toenails do

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need to get trimmed a little bit. They're not long,

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but they're not sure either. That's weird. The feet, his

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feet toenails are always sure, but his finger donails or

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his toetoel, his toe toenails, his finger toenails, his fingernails

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are longer than his toenails. And it's not like he's

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walking sideways to his feet or on the pavement and

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his hands are on the grass. You know, that would

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make sense, and you know if that's why there are

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different lengths, but no, normally he does running forward and

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he's see if on the path where he's on the

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grass or in the mud or wherever. Although he does

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love running into the long grass. It's this thing. I

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don't know if other parts of the country to it,

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or other parts of the world to do this. The

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council a ordered the lord mower, people who cut the

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grass in the park, to leave certain areas wild. When

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I say wild, I don't mean angry, you know, just

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walking up to that bit of grass and teasing it

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just is dead. Leaving it and not cutting it. So

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it's something about well, you encouraging wildlife and then after

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about a year they cut it. Another dog walker pointed out, well,

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first of all, I don't think it's a huge amount

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of wildlife. Maybe there is insects and stuff. That's definitely true,

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because those grass flea things they can go on to

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him if I let him in the long grass. So

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I don't And before I used to have him off

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the lead in the park and he used to love

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the long grass bed come home with all his ticks

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and stuff like that. Now I don't let him going

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along grass and he's got nothing. Hasn't it any for

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over a year? Hasn't it anything on him? And someone

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I think a couple of days ago another dog walker

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was pointing out, it's all fair and well, you know,

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them encouraging wildlife, but what happens to that wildlife when

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they cut the grass. That's a fair point in it.

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The thing is when it comes to wildlife. I literally

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lived in the countryside. There's a farm at the end

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of each road. At the end of every road there

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is a farm. If I turn left, there's farms. Ever

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turn right, there's farms. If I go through the park

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and keep going through there there's farms. It's just farms everywhere.

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By farms, I mean growing farms, not animal farms. I

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tell you what animal farm the move. It was very

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different from the book. But yeah, as though there's not

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really So don't don't get to hear cocks every morning

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like cockadoo to do or whatever they do. That wouldn't

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bother me really because I'm up quite early anyway. I'm

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sure there are some farms like that around here, but

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it's really just like growing crops but they're everywhere all

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around here. This whole area is farms. But there again,

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the whole country is pretty much farmland, with some towns

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and some cities and some beaches, but it's just a

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huge amount of farmland here. Apparently the bloke who owns

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the dice and vacuum cleaner thing, he's the biggest farm

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owner in the country, or one of them. And in America,

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the biggest farm owner I think is Bill Gates. That's

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not just farms, that's land. Isn't it to be a landowner?

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If you own the farms, you almost kind of own

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the food. Wow. Or there's a plane going past? Maybe

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not I taste strange? Oh yeah, I can you hear

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that nicer train? Is there a train? I just realized,

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I don't think it's very windy today, because normally only

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on days when it's very mild, very calm, that I

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can hear the trains. When it's windy, I generally can't

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hear the trains. Wow, it's lovely out there, blue sky, sunny.

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It's going to be difficult because I caught my jumper.

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Ah, oh will.

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That's kind of strange because I have the window open

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most of the time. But when that window closed, it's

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so much quieter because that literally just wow over, you know,

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in the garden, I can hear I can't hear what

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they're saying. Quite often I can't hear what they're saying anyway,

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not that I want to, but it's weirdly enough, unless

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my hearing has changed, I can't really hear them very well.

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I'm not complaining. It's lovely. Oh yes, So yesterday I

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walked twice over this bridge. I walked, I went up

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the steps, went over, went down the steps, walked back up,

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00:44:01.440 --> 00:44:06.239
and then back up again. Because the or is it

472
00:44:06.360 --> 00:44:11.360
the the ramp is in two parts. It's quite long.

473
00:44:11.440 --> 00:44:14.960
It's in two parts, so you've got one in. You

474
00:44:15.079 --> 00:44:17.119
got one bit, then you turn around and you come

475
00:44:17.159 --> 00:44:20.559
back the other bit, and it gradually goes up preach

476
00:44:20.679 --> 00:44:24.679
one and then you end up at the top of

477
00:44:25.039 --> 00:44:28.599
the Basically you end up exactly where you were befo

478
00:44:28.599 --> 00:44:31.719
where I was before before I went down the snaps.

479
00:44:35.119 --> 00:44:41.480
It's built for large traffic. Really, it is a kind

480
00:44:41.519 --> 00:44:43.880
of it's the same kind of bridge that you would

481
00:44:43.880 --> 00:44:49.760
see at a busy train station, but there's no train

482
00:44:49.800 --> 00:44:54.920
station there. There is a train track. I think part

483
00:44:54.960 --> 00:44:58.159
of the reason they did it was for safety, which

484
00:44:58.199 --> 00:45:02.559
is fair enough, because people used to just across the track.

485
00:45:02.639 --> 00:45:08.039
There was no way of monitoring it. So it's a

486
00:45:08.079 --> 00:45:13.239
good thing that it's got something over there. But one

487
00:45:13.280 --> 00:45:15.719
of her neighbors when I moved in ten years ago,

488
00:45:15.840 --> 00:45:20.000
said that they spent like half a million pound putting

489
00:45:20.000 --> 00:45:25.440
that bridge up. It still looks in good condition. It's

490
00:45:25.480 --> 00:45:32.760
hardly been used something. Seriously, I reckon the amount of

491
00:45:32.760 --> 00:45:36.880
people that cross that bridge in a year would be

492
00:45:36.880 --> 00:45:40.679
the same amount of people that would cross a busy

493
00:45:40.760 --> 00:45:54.000
train station in a day, probably less. In fact, yeah,

494
00:45:54.119 --> 00:45:58.760
probably if you get fifty people a day crossing that bridge,

495
00:45:58.760 --> 00:46:03.000
I'd be surprised. Mm hmm, maybe one hundred. I'd be

496
00:46:03.039 --> 00:46:06.440
surprised if it was that high. Seriously, as nor lies,

497
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:13.000
it would I classes two people because I went over twice?

498
00:46:15.599 --> 00:46:22.760
Or did I go over three times? No, I went

499
00:46:22.880 --> 00:46:28.440
over twice, but I went over back twice, and that's

500
00:46:28.559 --> 00:46:32.360
four times actually yesterday. So I went down the down

501
00:46:32.400 --> 00:46:37.440
the So I went up the steps, across the bridge,

502
00:46:39.119 --> 00:46:46.159
down the steps, back up the ramp, across the bridge,

503
00:46:47.280 --> 00:46:54.880
down the steps, back up the ramp, across the bridge,

504
00:46:56.800 --> 00:47:03.000
down the steps and it back up the ramp, across

505
00:47:03.119 --> 00:47:08.440
the bridge, and down the steps, and then we went home.

506
00:47:10.360 --> 00:47:19.559
So what is that? One two three four? So we

507
00:47:20.320 --> 00:47:27.079
crossed the bridge four times? So four times we went

508
00:47:27.199 --> 00:47:32.800
up and down the ramp one two. I don't know

509
00:47:32.800 --> 00:47:36.199
if he said four times we passed over the bridge.

510
00:47:38.559 --> 00:47:40.320
So how many times do we go up the ramp?

511
00:47:41.639 --> 00:47:44.480
So we go up the steps, across the bridge, go

512
00:47:44.760 --> 00:47:49.519
down the steps on the other side, So up the ramp.

513
00:47:49.880 --> 00:47:58.239
So one up the ramp, crossover, down the steps, then

514
00:47:58.480 --> 00:48:04.400
up that ramp again, then crossover down the steps, up

515
00:48:04.480 --> 00:48:14.639
that ramp, crossover and down the steps. It's just three. Okay,

516
00:48:15.000 --> 00:48:20.920
let me do this again. Up the steps, cross the bridge,

517
00:48:21.360 --> 00:48:29.119
down the steps, then up the ramp, crossing over the bridge,

518
00:48:30.440 --> 00:48:35.280
down the steps, then up the ramp, cross over the bridge,

519
00:48:35.559 --> 00:48:40.440
down the steps, up the ramp, cross over the bridge,

520
00:48:40.599 --> 00:48:45.679
and down the steps. So how many times is that

521
00:48:45.760 --> 00:48:54.800
across the bridge? One two, three, four, So it's only

522
00:48:54.920 --> 00:49:01.440
three ramps. I walked up the ramp three times, one

523
00:49:02.960 --> 00:49:13.239
two three. It's that classed as far, you know, because

524
00:49:13.280 --> 00:49:18.519
I've crossed four times. I don't know. Maybe if I

525
00:49:18.679 --> 00:49:23.639
walked up the ramp the first time, crossed over, went

526
00:49:23.719 --> 00:49:28.360
down the steps, then went up the ramp the other

527
00:49:28.480 --> 00:49:32.960
side walked down the steps, went up the ramp, or

528
00:49:33.440 --> 00:49:37.880
what I could do? No, Yeah, I mean I could

529
00:49:37.960 --> 00:49:43.440
just walk up the ramp, cross over the bridge, go

530
00:49:43.679 --> 00:49:48.119
down the ramp, and then just turn back and walk

531
00:49:48.199 --> 00:50:00.880
up the ramp again. But just I don't know. Yeah,

532
00:50:01.000 --> 00:50:05.480
it's a weird one. I'm already sure it's same, but

533
00:50:05.760 --> 00:50:10.119
more maybe walk up the ramp, crossover the bridge, go

534
00:50:10.320 --> 00:50:14.199
down the steps that walk up that ramp, crossover down

535
00:50:14.199 --> 00:50:17.679
the steps, walk up with that, so I don't walk

536
00:50:17.760 --> 00:50:28.599
up any steps. But technically the things I was thinking,

537
00:50:29.159 --> 00:50:31.199
is it better for me to walk up the steps

538
00:50:31.199 --> 00:50:37.519
because that's more exercise. But at the same time, if

539
00:50:37.559 --> 00:50:41.280
I'm walking down a ramp that's not really putting a

540
00:50:41.280 --> 00:50:49.559
lot of energy, is it's because I mean it's not

541
00:50:49.800 --> 00:50:54.000
like steep steep, but it's steep still, you know it's

542
00:50:54.039 --> 00:51:04.199
guy is walking upwards. Yeah, I don't think i'd want

543
00:51:04.239 --> 00:51:09.239
to roll a heavy ball up there. Definitely didn't want

544
00:51:09.239 --> 00:51:10.920
to one of the road trying to roll his skate

545
00:51:11.039 --> 00:51:19.000
up there. Just gravity it, yeah, because if it I

546
00:51:19.159 --> 00:51:28.239
might fall back. I don't know, I have to think

547
00:51:28.280 --> 00:51:31.239
about it. I just thought it'd be quite nice if

548
00:51:31.239 --> 00:51:36.039
I had this, like nice space to take him over

549
00:51:36.159 --> 00:51:43.199
a few times. And another thing I was thinking I

550
00:51:43.239 --> 00:51:45.880
could do is walk up and down my steps where

551
00:51:45.880 --> 00:51:50.840
I live across stairs. I maybe try and walk up

552
00:51:50.880 --> 00:51:55.880
and down start off, maybe doing it twice, and then

553
00:51:56.039 --> 00:51:59.320
work it up. So I'm doing walking up and down

554
00:51:59.320 --> 00:52:01.960
maybe one hundred times a day, like in one go,

555
00:52:03.199 --> 00:52:07.320
just as an exercise thing. But I don't know. I'm

556
00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:17.800
not sure. I've started doing press ups again and doing

557
00:52:17.880 --> 00:52:25.239
some exercise with my weights and doing leg raises in

558
00:52:25.320 --> 00:52:29.880
bed for the stomach. So I'm kind of because I

559
00:52:29.960 --> 00:52:33.000
took a little bit of a break for probably two weeks. Well,

560
00:52:33.000 --> 00:52:39.239
I wasn't really doing much exercise at all, not even

561
00:52:38.480 --> 00:52:48.519
the weights, not crouching what do they call it crouching,

562
00:52:49.719 --> 00:52:51.199
I don't know. Whatever it is that I do for

563
00:52:51.280 --> 00:52:56.559
my lower back while I hold weights, I've not done

564
00:52:56.599 --> 00:53:00.880
that for a while. I did it the other day,

565
00:53:00.960 --> 00:53:04.960
but I've not done it regularly every day like like

566
00:53:05.119 --> 00:53:09.800
I used to. And part of the reason for that

567
00:53:09.960 --> 00:53:17.239
is because at the weekend I readjusted my bedroom, not

568
00:53:17.559 --> 00:53:22.119
purposefully thinking, oh, I'm going to readjust my bedroom. I

569
00:53:22.119 --> 00:53:26.840
didn't wake up that morning on Saturday, thinking, oh, you

570
00:53:27.079 --> 00:53:30.000
jumped out of bed with full excitement. I'm going to

571
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:32.199
move my chair to a different part of the room.

572
00:53:32.559 --> 00:53:37.320
I don't mean that. It's just I was getting the

573
00:53:37.440 --> 00:53:42.800
microphones out of the storage room, setting them up. So

574
00:53:42.800 --> 00:53:45.480
I got one here on my chair, near my chair,

575
00:53:46.360 --> 00:53:50.000
attached to a table. I got one next to my bed.

576
00:53:50.559 --> 00:53:54.320
I had one attached so I can make videos. But

577
00:53:55.159 --> 00:53:58.719
I don't think I can do videos anymore. I just

578
00:53:59.440 --> 00:54:04.880
I prefer audio. It's an old saying. You know, some

579
00:54:04.920 --> 00:54:07.880
people have got they've got a face for radio, and

580
00:54:07.920 --> 00:54:16.400
I'm one of them. I think it's possibly a disappointment

581
00:54:17.280 --> 00:54:20.960
if someone sees me like they might be listening to

582
00:54:21.000 --> 00:54:23.880
me for a long time. Some people will be listening

583
00:54:23.920 --> 00:54:28.519
to me for years and then they they get curious

584
00:54:28.559 --> 00:54:30.719
and they go on to the YouTube channel. They see

585
00:54:30.760 --> 00:54:40.119
me and think, well, now that's ruined. That's ruined everything.

586
00:54:41.360 --> 00:54:46.599
So you know, it's not like I'm not hiding myself.

587
00:54:48.119 --> 00:54:57.079
But plus, I think with video, I've never liked pictures.

588
00:54:57.599 --> 00:55:00.440
I'm not. I don't mean I've never liked the picture

589
00:55:00.480 --> 00:55:03.679
I've ever seen ever. I mean I've never really enjoyed

590
00:55:03.679 --> 00:55:13.760
a picture of me because I don't think photographs necessarily

591
00:55:15.079 --> 00:55:20.480
show the person, but a video. Can you know, your

592
00:55:20.480 --> 00:55:27.079
personality can show in a video. You don't smile and frowning,

593
00:55:28.159 --> 00:55:34.320
facial expressions, the voice, all that stuff movement, which I

594
00:55:34.320 --> 00:55:37.880
guess is part of the whole video process, isn't it movement?

595
00:55:40.239 --> 00:55:45.920
But I didn't. I feel I've done that now I've

596
00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:52.079
been there. Did I spent years doing videos and there's

597
00:55:52.119 --> 00:55:54.719
a little part of me thinking I just wish that.

598
00:55:59.719 --> 00:56:06.719
I just don't really want to make videos. I prefer audio.

599
00:56:07.639 --> 00:56:11.360
This is more relaxing for me. This is where I

600
00:56:11.360 --> 00:56:14.760
can really just be myself because if I've got a

601
00:56:14.840 --> 00:56:19.599
video camera there, I've got a tendency of I don't

602
00:56:19.639 --> 00:56:25.920
know if it's so much showing off, but I definitely

603
00:56:26.039 --> 00:56:31.960
feel very self conscious, feel very self conscious. At no

604
00:56:32.119 --> 00:56:34.840
point do I forget that the camera's pointing at me

605
00:56:36.639 --> 00:56:41.039
with the microphone. This is almost the most natural thing

606
00:56:41.079 --> 00:56:45.760
in the world for me to just talking too microphone.

607
00:56:46.039 --> 00:56:52.440
It's there's no effort. I think that comes across that

608
00:56:52.639 --> 00:56:55.800
clearly is no effort. That's why it's though it's so awful,

609
00:56:56.199 --> 00:57:06.239
because no energy, no effort planning. It's real. This is

610
00:57:06.360 --> 00:57:15.159
just me, and I don't necessarily think that that happens

611
00:57:15.280 --> 00:57:20.360
as much on a video because I just I feel

612
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:26.880
self conscious. I mean, I didn't enjoy it when I

613
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:34.599
had hair, but now now that my hair's kind of

614
00:57:35.599 --> 00:57:40.400
it's really weird. Like I got a bald patch of

615
00:57:40.440 --> 00:57:47.079
the back and my hairs. I trimmed my hair so

616
00:57:47.159 --> 00:57:55.119
it was stuck a a crooker. I guess I can

617
00:57:55.280 --> 00:57:59.199
see in the mirror that the gap between the hairs

618
00:57:59.320 --> 00:58:03.079
is growing, and some of those hairs that are growing

619
00:58:03.159 --> 00:58:07.440
back are not the same strength for thickness that they

620
00:58:07.559 --> 00:58:19.760
used to be. And I'm thinking that possibly the next

621
00:58:19.760 --> 00:58:27.840
ten years I might Okay, well I'll be bored. And

622
00:58:27.960 --> 00:58:31.400
that's it really. I showed a picture to Jack Tpt

623
00:58:33.400 --> 00:58:36.360
to create an image for me, and I said, oh,

624
00:58:36.639 --> 00:58:43.199
make an image of Venny and me Venix on the

625
00:58:43.280 --> 00:58:49.480
bed making a podcast or something and I'm sleeping on

626
00:58:49.519 --> 00:58:53.519
a dog bed on the floor. So I did that

627
00:58:54.920 --> 00:59:03.079
and they said, oh, I said what Jack Russell read

628
00:59:03.159 --> 00:59:06.199
Jack Russell when they did that, and I posted a

629
00:59:06.239 --> 00:59:09.440
picture of him, so they changed it to like a

630
00:59:09.559 --> 00:59:14.719
lifelike picture of Vinnie. I think he was holding a board.

631
00:59:14.840 --> 00:59:17.800
We said I had a Q and a Friday or

632
00:59:17.840 --> 00:59:25.800
whatever it was. And then I said, can you make

633
00:59:26.000 --> 00:59:31.599
my image as well? So they said, upload the picture

634
00:59:31.639 --> 00:59:34.800
of you, So I did. It just showed someone with

635
00:59:34.880 --> 00:59:40.840
a massive ballpatch and just her hair growing on the side,

636
00:59:41.599 --> 00:59:47.000
like that's not why. I looked like, not yet. It

637
00:59:47.679 --> 00:59:51.960
possibly will be, but it won't because I will shape

638
00:59:51.960 --> 00:59:57.559
my hair. I will. That's that's so annoying though, because

639
00:59:57.679 --> 01:00:01.239
I'm pretty sure that the side my hair and the

640
01:00:01.280 --> 01:00:06.599
back of my hair is so thick and curly, but

641
01:00:06.840 --> 01:00:10.440
so thick that it would never board. I don't think

642
01:00:10.440 --> 01:00:12.800
I'm ever going to be that. That will always be

643
01:00:12.920 --> 01:00:20.360
thick hair and on the side as well, but not

644
01:00:20.440 --> 01:00:25.199
so much in the middle. It is going back to Moses.

645
01:00:25.239 --> 01:00:28.039
It's a little bit like the parting of the Red Sea.

646
01:00:28.599 --> 01:00:31.800
It started at the back and it's just slowly move

647
01:00:31.880 --> 01:00:38.519
in to the front. It's weird Moses and bridges. That

648
01:00:38.639 --> 01:00:44.320
seems to be the topic of the day. I did

649
01:00:44.320 --> 01:00:53.320
another video. I never a podcast image and they said,

650
01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:55.280
I said, do you want to I want to put

651
01:00:55.360 --> 01:01:00.559
in an image of me. They said, describe yourself. I said, old,

652
01:01:00.639 --> 01:01:05.519
a fifty four year old man. I looked about ninety

653
01:01:06.119 --> 01:01:08.880
when they put this picture of me like it's old,

654
01:01:09.840 --> 01:01:14.079
old looking person. I do not look like that, or

655
01:01:14.119 --> 01:01:17.719
maybe I do. I don't to me, but I do

656
01:01:17.880 --> 01:01:20.679
need to have my eyes checked to be fair. I'm

657
01:01:20.719 --> 01:01:23.719
saving up for an eye test and to get what

658
01:01:23.840 --> 01:01:29.000
the eye test is free, but the glasses on. So

659
01:01:29.280 --> 01:01:36.239
I think I get the lenses for free, but I

660
01:01:36.400 --> 01:01:40.519
have to pay for to have the gloss, you know,

661
01:01:40.599 --> 01:01:44.559
the protection on them, and also the act light so

662
01:01:44.679 --> 01:01:47.039
they go dark in the sun. So I have to

663
01:01:47.039 --> 01:01:49.280
pay for that, and I have to I think I

664
01:01:49.320 --> 01:01:53.440
get a discount on the frames, or I think I

665
01:01:53.440 --> 01:01:58.679
can get a free frame, but they're like NHS. There's

666
01:01:58.719 --> 01:02:02.400
nothing wrong with NHS, but I kind of think I

667
01:02:02.440 --> 01:02:06.119
don't care what the frame looks like if they're ever reading,

668
01:02:07.559 --> 01:02:13.280
because I'm not going to be reading outside pretty much.

669
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:15.760
I'm going to read here and I'm looking forward to

670
01:02:15.760 --> 01:02:18.159
getting my classes so i can get back to reading again.

671
01:02:19.199 --> 01:02:21.119
I just can't do it at the moment, not with these.

672
01:02:25.639 --> 01:02:28.159
So it's going to cost me a few hundred pounds

673
01:02:29.480 --> 01:02:33.559
two because I'm gonna have to get two different probably

674
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:40.159
three different frames, one for distance you know, normal day

675
01:02:40.199 --> 01:02:45.119
to day, one for reading, and one for using I'm

676
01:02:45.280 --> 01:02:49.559
on a computer. I need to start like protecting my

677
01:02:49.599 --> 01:02:56.679
eyes a bit more, and I've noticed that I can't.

678
01:03:00.960 --> 01:03:03.760
I can't spend as much time looking at the computer

679
01:03:03.880 --> 01:03:09.239
screen as I used to do, which is I mean,

680
01:03:09.760 --> 01:03:14.960
it's not a terrible thing, really, because I don't really

681
01:03:14.960 --> 01:03:17.400
want to be spending all day looking at a computer screen.

682
01:03:17.960 --> 01:03:26.320
But at the same time, it is limiting and i'd

683
01:03:26.400 --> 01:03:30.639
at least like to have the option, but at the

684
01:03:30.679 --> 01:03:38.840
same time by looking after my eyes. So as soon

685
01:03:38.880 --> 01:03:44.960
as I've saved up enough, I'm gonna get an appointment

686
01:03:45.360 --> 01:03:52.840
go to the opticians. I'm thinking about asking for because

687
01:03:54.320 --> 01:03:59.119
I saw somewhere that there's certain lenses that I quite

688
01:03:59.199 --> 01:04:04.000
good for people bipolar. Now, I might have dreamt it,

689
01:04:08.760 --> 01:04:13.119
but it's not something I would normally dream about. But

690
01:04:13.159 --> 01:04:17.760
then I don't remember everything I dream about. In fact,

691
01:04:17.800 --> 01:04:21.679
I can't remember the last time I had a dream.

692
01:04:22.079 --> 01:04:26.079
I ever dream I don't have dreamt. I just don't

693
01:04:26.119 --> 01:04:30.119
remember exactly what I dreamt about.

694
01:04:32.960 --> 01:04:43.000
And yeah, wow, I think I had a dream the

695
01:04:43.039 --> 01:04:44.159
other day, and I just.

696
01:04:48.199 --> 01:04:49.880
I can't remember what it was.

697
01:04:53.519 --> 01:04:54.119
I don't know.

698
01:04:58.920 --> 01:05:04.119
I was I talking about dreaming while I was I

699
01:05:04.159 --> 01:05:12.320
talking about dreaming oh, bipolar lenses. I know that there's

700
01:05:12.440 --> 01:05:20.159
some lenses to people with some conditions, not just visual conditions,

701
01:05:20.920 --> 01:05:27.440
where like different colored tinted glasses that color all the time,

702
01:05:27.519 --> 01:05:31.679
not just in the sun, but mind tint dark in

703
01:05:31.760 --> 01:05:35.559
the sun. Apparently people can see where I'm looking though,

704
01:05:35.599 --> 01:05:38.800
which came as a bit of a surprise after ten

705
01:05:38.880 --> 01:05:40.000
years of thinking.

706
01:05:39.719 --> 01:05:40.039
I was.

707
01:05:43.000 --> 01:05:50.119
My eyeballs at freedom. So now before I go to

708
01:05:50.199 --> 01:05:52.119
the opticians, I'm going to do a bit of research.

709
01:05:53.360 --> 01:06:00.440
If there's something that can help me in some way,

710
01:06:00.119 --> 01:06:05.679
If looking through a different colored lens could be useful,

711
01:06:05.800 --> 01:06:16.679
then it's worth exploring. There's someone to do list, Yeah,

712
01:06:16.960 --> 01:06:20.000
because I remember one of the beg's I think it

713
01:06:20.159 --> 01:06:26.400
was the maybe two of them, but one of them matter.

714
01:06:27.360 --> 01:06:32.519
I think like a yellow tilted or tinted glasses. And

715
01:06:32.599 --> 01:06:35.280
I used to know someone. I think she was a customer,

716
01:06:36.480 --> 01:06:42.039
or i'd said when I worked in the Evolution shop

717
01:06:42.400 --> 01:06:48.280
in Ipswich. She I think she worked next door in

718
01:06:48.480 --> 01:06:55.760
Snappy Snaps, which was this camera processing place or picture

719
01:06:55.840 --> 01:07:02.840
processing and she had I think yellow lenses or blue lenses,

720
01:07:04.079 --> 01:07:10.639
and said I asked her about it, and she said

721
01:07:10.639 --> 01:07:16.360
it was something to do with I'm pretty sure she

722
01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:25.440
said autism. Or I'm also I have a memory of

723
01:07:25.559 --> 01:07:32.760
hearing that lenses can help with ADHD, But again I'm

724
01:07:32.760 --> 01:07:36.920
not sure right just these are like faint memories that

725
01:07:37.079 --> 01:07:48.880
maybe complete fabrications. But I think anything really is worth

726
01:07:48.920 --> 01:07:56.360
for try, isn't it. It's now to lose. I might

727
01:07:56.400 --> 01:08:04.239
get some funny looks, what I think is maybe going forward.

728
01:08:05.079 --> 01:08:08.840
I'll ask them if I can get lenses that are

729
01:08:08.960 --> 01:08:19.159
always dark all the time, like Royal Obison. Did you

730
01:08:19.239 --> 01:08:22.840
know Roy Robison didn't wear those classes because he had

731
01:08:22.840 --> 01:08:28.760
anything wrong with his eyes. It's true he had an

732
01:08:28.800 --> 01:08:32.399
eye injury, or he had a style or something like that.

733
01:08:33.000 --> 01:08:35.680
So he wore those classes when he was on stage

734
01:08:36.279 --> 01:08:40.800
because his eye was all gammy. And this might be

735
01:08:40.840 --> 01:08:43.720
a lie, but this is my memory of it. And

736
01:08:43.760 --> 01:08:48.840
he wore his classes on stage to perform Miss Roy Robison,

737
01:08:48.960 --> 01:08:53.680
the singer, and he liked them so much he decided

738
01:08:53.720 --> 01:08:56.199
to spend the rest of his career wearing those classes,

739
01:08:57.159 --> 01:09:04.840
those big, thick classes dark, which looked like he had

740
01:09:06.119 --> 01:09:16.399
serious sight issues, but apparently he didn't. I have seen

741
01:09:16.439 --> 01:09:23.439
people wear those type of classes that were very had

742
01:09:24.479 --> 01:09:33.199
impaired sight, But I was thinking maybe I could get

743
01:09:33.279 --> 01:09:37.479
some not I don't want them like that. But just

744
01:09:38.399 --> 01:09:45.840
the thing is, I think some people look they think

745
01:09:45.880 --> 01:09:48.880
it's weird if you walk around in the winter wearing sunglasses.

746
01:09:50.600 --> 01:09:55.159
And I've had a couple of people say why you

747
01:09:55.199 --> 01:09:56.119
were in sunshines.

748
01:09:56.159 --> 01:09:56.880
It's like, I'm not.

749
01:09:57.079 --> 01:10:07.359
These are my normal classes. But these don't look like

750
01:10:07.479 --> 01:10:11.399
sunshades because there's a different frame. These look like glasses,

751
01:10:12.800 --> 01:10:17.760
because sunshades are normally a bit more, are more stylish

752
01:10:17.840 --> 01:10:20.560
and more. There's a different kind of a frame I

753
01:10:20.600 --> 01:10:30.199
think with sunshades. Although I I kind of do like

754
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:43.279
you remember the like the Blues Brothers, that kind of sunshades. Yeah,

755
01:10:43.319 --> 01:10:46.319
maybe I look, I'll look into that. Maybe that's what

756
01:10:46.359 --> 01:10:50.319
I'll do, just something to kind of protect my eyes

757
01:10:50.359 --> 01:10:57.560
from the sun, from the light. I'll see what the

758
01:10:57.560 --> 01:11:01.920
optician says. But before that, do a little bit of

759
01:11:02.000 --> 01:11:06.279
research on mine, maybe watch a few YouTube videos and

760
01:11:06.680 --> 01:11:11.720
foind out what's about, and perhaps to a bit of

761
01:11:11.800 --> 01:11:18.520
research into the science behind it and see what studies

762
01:11:18.560 --> 01:11:25.439
are showing, because I'll figure it if anything that can

763
01:11:25.479 --> 01:11:37.199
help is brilliant. Although in the future, the smart classes

764
01:11:37.239 --> 01:11:45.159
will be the norm, and I'm interested in that I

765
01:11:45.199 --> 01:11:49.520
do like the idea of wearing smart glasses and being

766
01:11:49.560 --> 01:11:52.720
able to talk to them. I like the idea of

767
01:11:52.800 --> 01:11:57.479
being able to make a podcast while I'm just walking around.

768
01:12:00.039 --> 01:12:04.239
Probably I probably have. I don't know how could microphone

769
01:12:04.279 --> 01:12:11.479
would be on the glasses. But audio is improving all

770
01:12:11.520 --> 01:12:15.560
the time, and the ability to improve audio as well

771
01:12:16.520 --> 01:12:22.279
after recording is technologies is improving all the time. So

772
01:12:22.359 --> 01:12:28.079
it's there's so much more that can be done. So

773
01:12:28.960 --> 01:12:31.279
I'm just I'll see what happens, but I'm going to

774
01:12:31.359 --> 01:12:38.880
look into it. My question is what was I talking

775
01:12:38.880 --> 01:12:43.359
about when I very first started this recording, Because it

776
01:12:43.479 --> 01:12:48.680
wasn't bridges, it wasn't glasses. What was it. I don't know.

777
01:12:48.880 --> 01:12:55.880
I can't remember. I cannot remember old motor bikes in

778
01:12:55.920 --> 01:13:02.119
the garden. That's it. So I got no idea how

779
01:13:02.119 --> 01:13:05.359
long I've been talking. It might be twenty minutes, it

780
01:13:05.479 --> 01:13:08.800
might be an hour. I don't know, but I'm going

781
01:13:08.880 --> 01:13:13.600
to go, So thank you for listening. Remember to be

782
01:13:13.800 --> 01:13:18.319
kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy

783
01:13:18.720 --> 01:13:23.399
and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

784
01:13:25.760 --> 01:13:29.039
lots of love. Bye.

785
01:13:35.600 --> 01:13:50.199
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

786
01:13:50.239 --> 01:13:55.800
a way that can not just allow you to feel

787
01:13:57.119 --> 01:14:07.720
calm now and throughout the time we spend together here,

788
01:14:08.399 --> 01:14:14.119
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

789
01:14:14.119 --> 01:14:20.800
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

790
01:14:20.960 --> 01:14:35.880
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

791
01:14:36.000 --> 01:14:55.800
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

792
01:14:55.880 --> 01:15:06.439
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

793
01:15:09.319 --> 01:15:16.600
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

794
01:15:18.520 --> 01:15:32.000
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

795
01:15:32.159 --> 01:15:36.840
find like some people do and myself as well. I

796
01:15:36.960 --> 01:15:43.720
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

797
01:15:48.079 --> 01:15:50.439
and I just listen to it over and over again

798
01:15:52.720 --> 01:16:05.760
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

799
01:16:05.760 --> 01:16:11.520
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

800
01:16:11.560 --> 01:16:16.880
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

801
01:16:19.359 --> 01:16:24.560
and I managed to find it again and it still

802
01:16:24.640 --> 01:16:30.239
has the same effect on me. And part of it

803
01:16:30.399 --> 01:16:45.119
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

804
01:16:47.239 --> 01:16:53.720
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

805
01:16:53.800 --> 01:17:04.520
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

806
01:17:05.239 --> 01:17:12.560
pressing the play button that as soon as I've done that,

807
01:17:13.399 --> 01:17:16.840
pressed the play button. This is in the days of

808
01:17:21.960 --> 01:17:31.119
CD players, press the play button. If that it might

809
01:17:31.119 --> 01:17:35.439
have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down

810
01:17:35.479 --> 01:17:48.079
on the bed and then even without necessarily listening to

811
01:17:48.279 --> 01:18:01.439
her words because I had to memorized. Really, it was

812
01:18:01.439 --> 01:18:12.119
as if my body knew exactly what to do, and

813
01:18:12.239 --> 01:18:34.039
the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I

814
01:18:34.079 --> 01:18:48.039
remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was

815
01:18:48.239 --> 01:18:55.399
listening to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

816
01:18:58.039 --> 01:19:05.880
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

817
01:19:05.920 --> 01:19:10.720
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

818
01:19:10.720 --> 01:19:26.760
thousand and six. But I knew, I knew how helpful

819
01:19:28.640 --> 01:19:40.199
I found being able to just let go, to have

820
01:19:40.359 --> 01:19:53.239
that trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing

821
01:19:53.319 --> 01:20:01.079
that it's going to be just as relaxing, if if

822
01:20:01.119 --> 01:20:10.479
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

823
01:20:10.560 --> 01:20:22.199
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

824
01:20:22.279 --> 01:20:36.199
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

825
01:20:36.199 --> 01:20:42.520
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

826
01:20:44.359 --> 01:20:59.399
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

827
01:20:59.479 --> 01:21:15.479
do which you may not realize By listening is when

828
01:21:15.760 --> 01:21:20.600
I record these recordings.

829
01:21:22.880 --> 01:21:23.279
Now.

830
01:21:23.399 --> 01:21:35.960
For example, I also am affected by the words that

831
01:21:36.039 --> 01:21:48.239
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

832
01:21:50.760 --> 01:21:58.600
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

833
01:22:03.359 --> 01:22:20.760
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

834
01:22:20.920 --> 01:22:28.600
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

835
01:22:28.640 --> 01:22:39.479
each hand, Perhaps notice the air in the room, the

836
01:22:39.600 --> 01:22:44.239
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

837
01:22:52.039 --> 01:22:55.960
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

838
01:22:56.079 --> 01:23:04.119
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

839
01:23:04.520 --> 01:23:09.439
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

840
01:23:17.640 --> 01:23:28.239
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

841
01:23:28.560 --> 01:23:40.279
aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling.

842
01:23:41.720 --> 01:23:57.279
Now, and when.

843
01:23:57.159 --> 01:24:02.520
It comes to partend to be drifting off to sleep,

844
01:24:03.640 --> 01:24:16.199
which may be the reason you're listening. I also feel

845
01:24:16.359 --> 01:24:30.600
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

846
01:24:30.880 --> 01:24:47.199
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

847
01:24:52.800 --> 01:25:07.279
without even noticing, and then I carry I'm talking. It's

848
01:25:07.359 --> 01:25:16.359
only when I listen back to do the editing I

849
01:25:16.479 --> 01:25:25.760
hear snoring and I think I don't remember snoring. I

850
01:25:25.800 --> 01:25:32.520
remember talking. I was snoring. Was a pick turned up,

851
01:25:36.520 --> 01:25:43.920
that's why I sound like when I snare and I

852
01:25:43.960 --> 01:25:57.439
get really into the whole experience, I don't know how

853
01:25:57.560 --> 01:26:10.159
you feel, how relaxed you feel in your feet, how

854
01:26:10.279 --> 01:26:35.720
relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed more

855
01:26:35.840 --> 01:26:52.479
and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort

856
01:26:54.439 --> 01:27:09.600
you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like

857
01:27:12.399 --> 01:27:30.439
that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe

858
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:56.680
easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able

859
01:27:56.800 --> 01:28:26.119
to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

860
01:28:40.760 --> 01:29:23.479
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my

861
01:29:23.720 --> 01:29:40.079
breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I tend

862
01:29:40.159 --> 01:30:00.680
to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing

863
01:30:00.800 --> 01:30:34.840
all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if

864
01:30:34.960 --> 01:31:05.640
nothing else, just taking some time away from everything, enjoying

865
01:31:11.920 --> 01:32:03.119
that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time

866
01:32:03.560 --> 01:32:34.239
seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so

867
01:32:34.800 --> 01:33:14.239
deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment,

868
01:33:30.920 --> 01:34:27.039
completely free, noticin that your mind has slowed down, slowed

869
01:34:27.159 --> 01:35:13.479
down because nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy

870
01:35:18.159 --> 01:35:30.239
the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip out

871
01:35:30.279 --> 01:35:49.840
of your body, to appear out of every part of

872
01:35:49.920 --> 01:36:15.640
your body, being released from your brain in your mind,

873
01:36:33.600 --> 01:37:17.880
slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs remass really,

874
01:37:22.920 --> 01:38:05.319
so very deeply, so deeply, and feelings, the pleasant feelings

875
01:38:05.359 --> 01:38:29.640
in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your

876
01:38:29.680 --> 01:39:11.600
body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the feelings in

877
01:39:11.640 --> 01:39:38.039
the back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists,

878
01:40:11.079 --> 01:40:36.840
muscles in front of your body. I all say, feeling

879
01:40:41.600 --> 01:41:17.359
peaceful deeply, there's a sense of peace spreads through your

880
01:41:17.640 --> 01:41:18.399
very core.

881
01:41:48.920 --> 01:41:50.439
Even when you.

882
01:41:53.359 --> 01:42:53.520
Focus on your mind, her mind becomes be and slowerven deeper, relaxing,

883
01:43:17.359 --> 01:44:23.920
a very slow Your stomach PA's fin's stomach, your back. Notice,

884
01:44:34.199 --> 01:44:52.760
Notice how relaxed you'd never feel in the hole of

885
01:44:52.800 --> 01:45:25.760
your back. In spy from your brain all the way

886
01:45:25.840 --> 01:45:37.239
down the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions

887
01:45:37.319 --> 01:46:08.279
of messages every day, decomfort increasing deeply ries.

888
01:46:38.600 --> 01:46:38.960
You me.

889
01:47:05.119 --> 01:47:18.439
Legs, spreading those signals down a spine or cord into

890
01:47:18.479 --> 01:47:40.520
air every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

891
01:48:05.680 --> 01:48:39.399
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

892
01:48:40.199 --> 01:48:56.439
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

893
01:48:56.479 --> 01:48:58.039
the way to your lower back.

894
01:49:09.880 --> 01:50:09.000
I think, I re, I think I.

895
01:49:41.760 --> 01:50:24.640
Pace drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go,

896
01:50:27.880 --> 01:51:29.239
let go completely, let go, so tranquil the whole body,

897
01:51:33.520 --> 01:53:50.119
enjoying a sense of sin guy hep more peace, enjoy

898
01:53:55.600 --> 01:55:09.680
the space, this space of peace and safety, so fairy, firy, relaxed,

899
01:55:03.000 --> 01:56:34.439
m letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the

900
01:56:34.600 --> 01:57:09.880
different parts of your body, just to notice you forelhead

901
01:57:10.199 --> 01:58:12.000
and your eyes, you too, said lose, noticing a sense

902
01:58:12.079 --> 02:00:19.880
of complete freedom, absolute freedom drifri pea's for energy, pase

903
02:00:20.600 --> 02:01:35.680
to breeze much easy loose. You may have or may

904
02:01:35.760 --> 02:02:37.000
not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful moly, even more

905
02:02:37.239 --> 02:03:01.039
deeply in the direction of total blissful peace, bliss for

906
02:03:01.439 --> 02:05:04.359
peace raft total peace. Come so calm, let him go,

907
02:05:29.119 --> 02:06:06.079
peace with mind re forty so relax.

908
02:06:14.600 --> 02:06:16.760
Relaxed.

909
02:06:39.920 --> 02:06:43.159
Your body feels almost.

910
02:06:44.279 --> 02:07:13.279
Invisible, so very relaxed, I think, peaceful, so.

911
02:07:20.920 --> 02:07:38.399
Peace relax.

912
02:07:44.840 --> 02:07:45.359
Like a.

913
02:08:01.000 --> 02:08:08.279
Russ.

914
02:08:20.800 --> 02:08:27.079
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

915
02:08:27.439 --> 02:08:38.680
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

916
02:08:39.640 --> 02:08:47.199
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

917
02:08:47.319 --> 02:08:56.479
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

918
02:09:01.399 --> 02:09:08.600
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

919
02:09:09.000 --> 02:09:21.520
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

920
02:09:23.159 --> 02:09:34.199
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

921
02:09:34.239 --> 02:09:41.159
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

922
02:09:43.279 --> 02:09:50.800
take a break from your life as it is, and

923
02:09:50.960 --> 02:09:58.720
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

924
02:09:58.800 --> 02:10:04.359
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

925
02:10:06.039 --> 02:10:14.000
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

926
02:10:16.600 --> 02:10:21.640
releases the tension and he stresses that you had in

927
02:10:21.680 --> 02:10:31.520
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

928
02:10:31.560 --> 02:10:43.600
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

929
02:10:43.600 --> 02:10:52.560
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

930
02:10:54.960 --> 02:10:59.600
which then fills your body up and your mind to

931
02:11:01.199 --> 02:11:19.640
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

932
02:11:19.720 --> 02:11:36.800
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

933
02:11:36.840 --> 02:11:47.560
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

934
02:11:47.840 --> 02:11:59.840
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

935
02:12:00.000 --> 02:12:03.840
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

936
02:12:04.119 --> 02:12:18.000
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

937
02:12:18.079 --> 02:12:34.920
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

938
02:12:38.960 --> 02:12:48.359
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

939
02:12:52.359 --> 02:13:01.439
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

940
02:13:01.960 --> 02:13:06.600
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

941
02:13:10.840 --> 02:13:20.880
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

942
02:13:25.600 --> 02:13:32.840
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

943
02:13:33.000 --> 02:13:38.760
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

944
02:13:42.159 --> 02:13:51.640
to feel more comfort and to experience.

945
02:13:53.239 --> 02:13:54.479
More of this.

946
02:13:56.159 --> 02:14:11.720
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

947
02:14:12.880 --> 02:14:18.880
on each part of your body, you can notice that

948
02:14:18.880 --> 02:14:36.079
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it,

949
02:14:36.159 --> 02:14:49.800
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

950
02:14:49.880 --> 02:14:55.800
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

951
02:14:58.119 --> 02:15:04.840
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

952
02:15:05.000 --> 02:15:12.640
relax deeply, and those parts that we not yet focused

953
02:15:12.680 --> 02:15:26.079
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

954
02:15:26.439 --> 02:15:39.479
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

955
02:15:39.520 --> 02:15:46.479
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

956
02:15:46.760 --> 02:15:55.399
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

957
02:15:57.159 --> 02:16:02.039
like mister Herbert the Pigeon, can just allow you to

958
02:16:02.199 --> 02:16:09.439
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

959
02:16:12.560 --> 02:16:19.600
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

960
02:16:21.359 --> 02:16:27.439
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

961
02:16:27.920 --> 02:16:38.440
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

962
02:16:38.639 --> 02:16:47.040
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

963
02:16:48.760 --> 02:16:56.840
only on my voice and that part of your body.

964
02:16:58.440 --> 02:17:08.159
Moving down to your eyes, Focusing on your eyes, noticing

965
02:17:09.200 --> 02:17:18.920
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

966
02:17:18.959 --> 02:17:25.399
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

967
02:17:25.639 --> 02:17:40.120
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

968
02:17:40.559 --> 02:17:47.200
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

969
02:17:47.319 --> 02:18:02.319
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now

970
02:18:02.920 --> 02:18:09.799
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

971
02:18:09.959 --> 02:18:14.680
near your mouth, your chin, but all the way up

972
02:18:15.360 --> 02:18:21.360
the size of your face to your ears, a hole

973
02:18:22.079 --> 02:18:49.239
of your jaw, feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on

974
02:18:49.280 --> 02:18:54.719
your neck, the front of your neck and your throat,

975
02:18:56.920 --> 02:19:07.680
relaxing and use and calm. The sides of your neck,

976
02:19:09.719 --> 02:19:18.799
the right and left side of your neck relax and lease.

977
02:19:22.600 --> 02:19:29.440
And calm.

978
02:19:29.760 --> 02:19:36.639
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

979
02:19:36.680 --> 02:19:47.200
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that.

980
02:19:47.280 --> 02:19:56.200
May have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

981
02:19:57.159 --> 02:20:07.680
increasing come foot and release that you can experience in

982
02:20:07.760 --> 02:20:19.719
the back of your neck, moving down your back and

983
02:20:19.840 --> 02:20:24.920
moving either side of your spine right from the top.

984
02:20:24.760 --> 02:20:25.799
Of your back.

985
02:20:27.360 --> 02:20:31.040
All the way down to the bottom of your back

986
02:20:37.040 --> 02:20:48.360
down to your lower back. And as you move up

987
02:20:48.399 --> 02:20:57.239
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

988
02:20:57.360 --> 02:21:10.920
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

989
02:21:11.040 --> 02:21:20.520
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

990
02:21:22.040 --> 02:21:31.680
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

991
02:21:31.760 --> 02:21:35.280
top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

992
02:21:38.799 --> 02:21:45.959
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

993
02:21:46.120 --> 02:21:51.239
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

994
02:21:51.280 --> 02:22:01.239
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

995
02:22:01.280 --> 02:22:08.600
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

996
02:22:08.639 --> 02:22:22.120
each other, separating and almost melting, and in your lower

997
02:22:22.159 --> 02:22:33.719
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

998
02:22:38.959 --> 02:22:45.120
The spreads into your hips, so down your lower back,

999
02:22:45.440 --> 02:22:53.440
into your hips, into the area where your cosis are,

1000
02:22:56.959 --> 02:23:03.719
and into your buttocks, and all these muscles that spread

1001
02:23:05.920 --> 02:23:15.680
from your lower back into your hip area, start to melt,

1002
02:23:20.120 --> 02:23:33.000
start to ready, let go, don't even nowhere about to

1003
02:23:33.079 --> 02:23:39.799
focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine will

1004
02:23:39.920 --> 02:24:01.159
continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly. And

1005
02:24:01.200 --> 02:24:06.280
if you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that

1006
02:24:06.399 --> 02:24:37.879
they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding, calm and fearing.

1007
02:24:42.040 --> 02:24:50.399
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1008
02:24:56.920 --> 02:25:08.600
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth.

1009
02:25:14.120 --> 02:25:26.559
And calm, and.

1010
02:25:26.520 --> 02:25:39.440
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1011
02:25:39.479 --> 02:25:49.920
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1012
02:25:50.280 --> 02:25:57.760
into your muscles, but also relaxing.

1013
02:25:59.760 --> 02:26:01.440
The bones.

1014
02:26:06.600 --> 02:26:13.239
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1015
02:26:15.120 --> 02:26:19.879
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1016
02:26:20.079 --> 02:26:38.559
underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable

1017
02:26:39.760 --> 02:26:59.079
in your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message into

1018
02:26:59.120 --> 02:27:10.440
your arms. Yes, and you may feel almost as if

1019
02:27:10.479 --> 02:27:17.000
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1020
02:27:20.200 --> 02:28:06.079
so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1021
02:27:51.079 --> 02:27:51.239
So.

1022
02:27:57.879 --> 02:28:10.360
Pose not feeling spreading.

1023
02:28:10.120 --> 02:28:11.559
All the way.

1024
02:28:11.559 --> 02:28:36.639
Down your arms two elbows, including your elbows circumforts spreads

1025
02:28:41.280 --> 02:28:51.959
or away into wrists, your forearments.

1026
02:28:50.680 --> 02:29:06.440
And your wrists so heavy, yet at the same time.

1027
02:29:13.719 --> 02:29:44.600
Sunlight and gentle Fred see.

1028
02:29:46.840 --> 02:29:48.399
Now on.

1029
02:29:50.520 --> 02:30:44.040
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, the

1030
02:30:44.479 --> 02:31:07.600
sense of real peace. It just seems to I feel

1031
02:31:09.840 --> 02:31:46.159
so familiar when your hands relax deeply el your thing

1032
02:31:46.479 --> 02:33:23.200
is a thing is sold less nothing, its tips, moving

1033
02:33:23.479 --> 02:33:53.319
your attention to refront to your body so comfortable, Moving

1034
02:33:53.559 --> 02:35:21.239
your focus to your legs. Let my souls in your thighs,

1035
02:35:37.399 --> 02:36:14.840
your knees so relaxed, a calf, muscles and just shames

1036
02:36:18.520 --> 02:38:40.440
copuzily four feathing your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1037
02:38:47.559 --> 02:39:25.440
so calm, so peaceful, cyclm.

1038
02:39:28.959 --> 02:39:49.200
So peace for re sin, peace for.

1039
02:39:53.040 --> 02:40:08.799
Scm. Allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest and

1040
02:40:08.959 --> 02:40:40.680
your stomach, letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start

1041
02:40:40.760 --> 02:40:52.440
counting down now, from twenty down to one. You can

1042
02:40:52.520 --> 02:40:55.959
imagine in a way it's like just walking down some

1043
02:40:56.280 --> 02:41:03.079
steps and each step twenty steps, and each step represents

1044
02:41:04.360 --> 02:41:17.399
a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of

1045
02:41:17.440 --> 02:41:28.200
that comfort, and the fervies you walk down those steps

1046
02:41:28.319 --> 02:41:40.639
to a deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1047
02:41:40.760 --> 02:46:13.159
with number twenty twenty, nineteen eighteen, seventeen sixteen three four

1048
02:47:13.000 --> 02:48:20.799
four see too well.

1049
02:49:19.639 --> 02:50:00.760
F h.

1050
02:50:30.440 --> 02:52:39.120
F nine eight.

1051
02:53:38.680 --> 02:54:43.840
Seven us.

1052
02:55:01.159 --> 02:55:31.159
A six.

1053
02:56:31.559 --> 03:01:29.440
Five four one.

1054
03:02:19.040 --> 03:02:20.600
And now.

1055
03:02:24.040 --> 03:02:36.799
And as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

1056
03:02:37.120 --> 03:02:52.920
from ten douts one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1057
03:02:53.360 --> 03:03:00.559
the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls and cells,

1058
03:03:02.040 --> 03:03:19.120
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1059
03:03:19.159 --> 03:03:27.719
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1060
03:03:27.959 --> 03:03:43.399
on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each

1061
03:03:43.760 --> 03:03:56.440
number counting down that you may find the all you

1062
03:03:56.520 --> 03:04:05.360
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1063
03:04:05.479 --> 03:04:12.159
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1064
03:04:12.200 --> 03:04:26.719
do that. Now, focus in on your eyes. I'm going

1065
03:04:26.760 --> 03:04:36.920
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now.

1066
03:04:45.319 --> 03:06:15.719
Ten nine.

1067
03:05:46.440 --> 03:07:21.120
Eight seven.

1068
03:08:44.200 --> 03:09:56.120
Five four.

1069
03:10:50.079 --> 03:14:01.680
E three two one two. Count down ten to one

1070
03:14:01.920 --> 03:14:12.239
ten nine eight seven six.

1071
03:14:14.120 --> 03:14:24.120
Five four three two.

1072
03:14:26.000 --> 03:14:32.559
One.

1073
03:14:33.239 --> 03:14:36.159
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1074
03:14:36.200 --> 03:14:40.200
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1075
03:14:40.440 --> 03:14:50.200
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1076
03:14:50.239 --> 03:14:54.079
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1077
03:14:54.120 --> 03:14:56.920
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man?

1078
03:14:57.719 --> 03:15:02.319
Expect me to stick gold floppy just because you're counting down,

1079
03:15:07.879 --> 03:15:12.120
I can try again, but this time I go this lower.

1080
03:15:14.200 --> 03:15:19.079
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1081
03:15:19.120 --> 03:15:27.520
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1082
03:15:27.559 --> 03:15:41.680
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1083
03:15:41.799 --> 03:16:23.639
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1084
03:16:34.000 --> 03:17:21.399
four three two one.

1085
03:17:22.399 --> 03:17:22.639
Wow.

1086
03:17:28.200 --> 03:17:33.920
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1087
03:17:33.959 --> 03:17:48.840
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1088
03:17:48.879 --> 03:17:56.600
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1089
03:17:59.159 --> 03:18:20.079
space green being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1090
03:18:20.319 --> 03:18:25.159
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1091
03:18:25.440 --> 03:18:32.479
saying anything, nor deeding to think about anything. So it

1092
03:18:32.559 --> 03:18:36.159
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1093
03:18:37.079 --> 03:18:46.959
a gap. And the more I camped down from ten

1094
03:18:47.000 --> 03:18:54.479
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1095
03:18:54.600 --> 03:19:07.239
gap of calmness, of comfort, relax It's a nice feeling,

1096
03:19:12.760 --> 03:19:21.520
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1097
03:19:22.159 --> 03:19:33.399
moves them away. Allows you.

1098
03:19:35.600 --> 03:19:36.200
To just.

1099
03:19:39.120 --> 03:19:45.879
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1100
03:19:46.280 --> 03:19:56.520
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1101
03:19:56.559 --> 03:20:02.639
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1102
03:20:02.680 --> 03:20:59.440
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1103
03:21:12.159 --> 03:22:24.719
five four three two.

1104
03:22:17.440 --> 03:22:24.840
One.

1105
03:22:29.600 --> 03:22:33.639
How does your body feel.

1106
03:22:35.559 --> 03:22:47.360
Now?

1107
03:22:48.479 --> 03:23:01.159
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calma, the feeling

1108
03:23:03.479 --> 03:23:30.920
more relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1109
03:23:31.040 --> 03:23:59.360
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1110
03:24:07.239 --> 03:24:11.760
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1111
03:24:12.319 --> 03:24:18.719
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1112
03:24:18.760 --> 03:24:31.040
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1113
03:24:31.079 --> 03:24:37.159
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1114
03:24:37.440 --> 03:24:44.120
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1115
03:24:44.200 --> 03:24:49.520
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1116
03:24:49.559 --> 03:24:57.399
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1117
03:24:58.399 --> 03:25:11.920
down to your knee joints. Now, this is a big area.

1118
03:25:13.000 --> 03:25:17.959
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1119
03:25:18.079 --> 03:25:32.760
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1120
03:25:32.799 --> 03:25:41.319
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1121
03:25:47.159 --> 03:25:57.959
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1122
03:25:58.079 --> 03:26:18.799
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1123
03:26:18.840 --> 03:26:19.680
for our lives.

1124
03:26:26.799 --> 03:26:28.399
And it may seem to.

1125
03:26:28.360 --> 03:26:29.280
Sound really weird.

1126
03:26:29.360 --> 03:26:33.520
But I think that all of.

1127
03:26:33.399 --> 03:26:44.280
Our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a

1128
03:26:44.319 --> 03:26:57.440
bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

1129
03:27:00.520 --> 03:27:12.920
gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

1130
03:27:13.000 --> 03:27:18.840
know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1131
03:27:19.120 --> 03:27:21.440
why am I sure? How I should be out in

1132
03:27:22.000 --> 03:27:30.600
the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard

1133
03:27:30.600 --> 03:27:32.200
to set a microphone.

1134
03:27:31.719 --> 03:27:32.520
Up on a tree.

1135
03:27:33.399 --> 03:27:35.680
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1136
03:27:35.680 --> 03:27:39.479
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1137
03:27:39.479 --> 03:27:48.200
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1138
03:27:49.959 --> 03:27:57.959
gain such an important part. And I think we don't

1139
03:27:58.000 --> 03:28:05.920
necessarily I'll speak for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate

1140
03:28:07.639 --> 03:28:12.760
all that my knees do for me until I have

1141
03:28:12.840 --> 03:28:16.200
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever,

1142
03:28:17.799 --> 03:28:21.799
maybe i'll pash it or it's aching for some reason.

1143
03:28:23.479 --> 03:28:29.760
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1144
03:28:29.799 --> 03:28:35.799
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1145
03:28:37.520 --> 03:28:44.799
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1146
03:28:44.959 --> 03:28:53.399
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know, that's comfort.

1147
03:28:57.479 --> 03:29:02.120
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1148
03:29:02.159 --> 03:29:09.680
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1149
03:29:11.200 --> 03:29:13.879
and love to your knees for all that they do

1150
03:29:14.000 --> 03:29:27.000
for you, and you can still have that attention on

1151
03:29:27.120 --> 03:29:33.360
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1152
03:29:33.600 --> 03:29:51.040
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1153
03:29:51.159 --> 03:29:56.520
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1154
03:29:57.280 --> 03:30:02.959
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1155
03:30:03.719 --> 03:30:11.479
and your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles so important.

1156
03:30:16.959 --> 03:30:21.559
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1157
03:30:21.680 --> 03:30:28.760
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1158
03:30:28.840 --> 03:30:37.440
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1159
03:30:37.479 --> 03:30:43.079
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1160
03:30:43.239 --> 03:30:46.159
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1161
03:30:47.200 --> 03:30:50.680
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1162
03:30:50.719 --> 03:30:55.639
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1163
03:30:55.719 --> 03:31:01.559
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1164
03:31:07.959 --> 03:31:12.399
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1165
03:31:12.440 --> 03:31:18.600
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1166
03:31:19.520 --> 03:31:29.600
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1167
03:31:30.120 --> 03:31:39.200
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1168
03:31:41.280 --> 03:31:50.959
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1169
03:31:51.479 --> 03:32:07.200
to balance, helps you to get around, be mobile. And

1170
03:32:07.280 --> 03:32:15.200
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1171
03:32:15.319 --> 03:32:18.680
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't seem

1172
03:32:18.680 --> 03:32:23.840
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1173
03:32:24.559 --> 03:32:28.440
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1174
03:32:28.479 --> 03:32:32.639
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1175
03:32:32.680 --> 03:32:44.680
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1176
03:32:46.600 --> 03:32:55.280
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1177
03:32:55.319 --> 03:33:07.719
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1178
03:33:10.959 --> 03:33:17.600
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1179
03:33:17.639 --> 03:33:19.840
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1180
03:33:21.840 --> 03:33:26.440
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it

1181
03:33:26.600 --> 03:33:31.520
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1182
03:33:31.559 --> 03:33:37.440
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1183
03:33:37.479 --> 03:33:43.239
in your awareness, the same as you have your thighs

1184
03:33:43.280 --> 03:33:47.680
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1185
03:33:47.760 --> 03:33:59.840
your thighs a few minutes, we've been focusing on your ankles.

1186
03:34:00.239 --> 03:34:10.799
That sensation of comfort in your thighs.

1187
03:34:14.799 --> 03:34:16.600
In this that movement.

1188
03:34:17.799 --> 03:34:25.840
Of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1189
03:34:27.239 --> 03:34:32.120
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1190
03:34:32.200 --> 03:34:45.159
we have in our thighs. But the skin on the

1191
03:34:45.200 --> 03:34:50.680
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

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03:34:50.760 --> 03:34:59.639
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1193
03:35:02.360 --> 03:35:16.319
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's

1194
03:35:16.719 --> 03:35:21.920
the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all

1195
03:35:22.040 --> 03:35:30.559
this stuff that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes

1196
03:35:31.239 --> 03:35:34.000
it'd be nice if you could actually put your fingers

1197
03:35:34.959 --> 03:35:41.000
inside your thighs and a message, so you can message

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03:35:41.040 --> 03:35:44.239
on the outside, of course, but to be able to

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03:35:44.239 --> 03:35:47.520
get deep into the muscles and to be able to

1200
03:35:47.559 --> 03:35:53.879
just message inside your thighs, message in the bones of

1201
03:35:53.959 --> 03:36:05.239
your leg, message in the veins, and just gently heathing

1202
03:36:05.879 --> 03:36:15.040
your thighs and you could move down message and inside

1203
03:36:15.040 --> 03:36:23.360
your knees, just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips,

1204
03:36:23.440 --> 03:36:29.879
spreading that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1205
03:36:35.239 --> 03:36:38.879
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1206
03:36:39.000 --> 03:36:45.040
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1207
03:36:45.200 --> 03:36:51.239
sensitive area, very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1208
03:36:52.479 --> 03:36:55.920
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1209
03:36:56.040 --> 03:37:02.559
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1210
03:37:02.840 --> 03:37:09.600
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

1211
03:37:09.719 --> 03:37:14.600
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1212
03:37:22.440 --> 03:37:32.360
Of course, it's protected by your legs, so you can

1213
03:37:32.399 --> 03:37:37.840
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

1214
03:37:43.559 --> 03:37:48.239
folding between your legs, you can just message with your fingertips.

1215
03:37:49.399 --> 03:37:59.760
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1216
03:38:00.760 --> 03:38:05.200
You can of course field the bones of your knees,

1217
03:38:06.520 --> 03:38:17.000
healing through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1218
03:38:19.840 --> 03:38:22.680
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1219
03:38:22.719 --> 03:38:27.440
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1220
03:38:28.159 --> 03:38:37.159
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1221
03:38:38.719 --> 03:38:48.680
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1222
03:38:51.840 --> 03:38:58.760
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1223
03:38:59.559 --> 03:39:03.840
hear in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1224
03:39:03.920 --> 03:39:11.159
treated as the precious bones that they are, Because our

1225
03:39:11.239 --> 03:39:14.840
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1226
03:39:14.879 --> 03:39:20.079
of our body, and more precious of any chore.

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03:39:22.479 --> 03:39:23.200
On the planet.

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03:39:31.719 --> 03:39:43.520
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1229
03:39:44.319 --> 03:39:51.000
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1230
03:39:54.079 --> 03:39:58.399
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1231
03:39:59.239 --> 03:40:06.200
love for your legs, show an appreciation for your thighs,

1232
03:40:08.920 --> 03:40:13.360
wanting to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1233
03:40:15.520 --> 03:40:21.959
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1234
03:40:21.959 --> 03:40:30.680
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to show

1235
03:40:32.399 --> 03:40:39.760
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1236
03:40:39.879 --> 03:40:48.479
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1237
03:40:48.719 --> 03:41:01.520
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

1238
03:41:01.719 --> 03:41:06.280
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1239
03:41:06.399 --> 03:41:20.120
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1240
03:41:20.319 --> 03:41:32.159
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1241
03:41:32.200 --> 03:41:43.479
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1242
03:41:43.600 --> 03:41:47.600
of how what weight you are, even if you're only

1243
03:41:47.600 --> 03:41:52.799
eight stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

1244
03:41:53.159 --> 03:41:54.000
little ankles.

1245
03:41:57.600 --> 03:42:00.040
Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight stone.

1246
03:42:01.239 --> 03:42:10.479
Double down, yet my ankles support my body all the time,

1247
03:42:14.239 --> 03:42:16.959
or though they do give off a sigh of relief

1248
03:42:17.000 --> 03:42:22.200
when I sit down, as you have, my whole legs

1249
03:42:22.200 --> 03:42:52.000
do my feet feet also goes my toes Clap're so happy.

1250
03:42:53.079 --> 03:42:58.280
Your legs really are amazing.

1251
03:43:00.879 --> 03:43:05.559
And I know that about talking about your legs is probably.

1252
03:43:07.639 --> 03:43:12.319
Possibly among the most most boring things I've ever heard

1253
03:43:12.360 --> 03:43:20.760
anyone say. Possibly or boring or not, everything I said

1254
03:43:20.879 --> 03:43:37.559
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1255
03:43:37.920 --> 03:43:56.440
just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1256
03:43:56.520 --> 03:44:01.840
take some time out of the day to just let

1257
03:44:01.959 --> 03:44:37.920
go completely. Your legs really can relax. And because the

1258
03:44:38.040 --> 03:44:42.600
legs are so such a most you know, very important

1259
03:44:43.200 --> 03:44:47.840
part of your body. When you relax your legs, the

1260
03:44:47.879 --> 03:44:59.079
rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

1261
03:44:59.200 --> 03:45:10.959
of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

1262
03:45:11.120 --> 03:45:18.440
hips feel really loose, and also my lighter back as well.

1263
03:45:20.479 --> 03:45:26.200
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1264
03:45:26.239 --> 03:45:29.879
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1265
03:45:32.559 --> 03:45:35.760
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1266
03:45:35.760 --> 03:45:39.600
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1267
03:45:39.680 --> 03:45:47.399
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1268
03:45:48.200 --> 03:46:06.840
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

1269
03:46:07.399 --> 03:46:16.479
ten down to one, and you can continue to fill

1270
03:46:18.280 --> 03:46:39.120
wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six.

1271
03:46:41.920 --> 03:46:42.639
Five.

1272
03:46:46.879 --> 03:47:15.319
Four three two relax. So I'm just going to count

1273
03:47:15.360 --> 03:47:20.600
down from fire down to one. And as a countdown,

1274
03:47:21.680 --> 03:47:26.719
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1275
03:47:28.079 --> 03:47:37.120
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1276
03:47:38.840 --> 03:47:43.239
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1277
03:47:43.399 --> 03:47:56.479
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1278
03:47:56.520 --> 03:48:04.879
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1279
03:48:04.920 --> 03:48:11.000
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1280
03:48:11.639 --> 03:48:28.799
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five four

1281
03:48:38.239 --> 03:49:14.000
three two one. And as you notice the gradual letting

1282
03:49:14.120 --> 03:49:22.639
go that the tension in your body, you may also

1283
03:49:23.159 --> 03:49:28.680
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1284
03:49:29.760 --> 03:49:37.760
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1285
03:49:38.479 --> 03:49:46.479
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1286
03:49:46.520 --> 03:49:52.239
just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1287
03:49:52.600 --> 03:49:57.600
starts to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the

1288
03:49:57.600 --> 03:50:02.040
more your body relaxes. It's just a cont hinuous circle

1289
03:50:02.120 --> 03:50:16.040
of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

1290
03:50:17.440 --> 03:50:22.360
You know, even even if there's background sounds either your

1291
03:50:22.479 --> 03:50:30.879
side online is still going to be quite calm. You know,

1292
03:50:30.920 --> 03:50:35.639
you haven't got the television on, there's no music in

1293
03:50:35.680 --> 03:50:38.559
the background unless you're listening to the recording. With music,

1294
03:50:38.639 --> 03:50:45.879
of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1295
03:50:45.879 --> 03:50:49.200
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

1296
03:50:49.239 --> 03:50:53.639
but generally it's more ideal if you can do this

1297
03:50:53.799 --> 03:51:04.879
on your own, so no distractions, and when you stop

1298
03:51:04.959 --> 03:51:20.399
thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort

1299
03:51:22.159 --> 03:51:31.040
starts to grow, and without trying to build it up

1300
03:51:31.079 --> 03:51:42.200
into something fantastical or something magical, this is just a

1301
03:51:42.399 --> 03:51:54.920
natural process, something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's

1302
03:51:55.040 --> 03:52:02.000
almost you know, the sense of relaxing completely happens really

1303
03:52:02.040 --> 03:52:07.040
when you put no effort into it. It's not something

1304
03:52:07.120 --> 03:52:15.159
that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

1305
03:52:18.079 --> 03:52:25.399
And part of the process of this recording and others

1306
03:52:26.959 --> 03:52:38.559
is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space,

1307
03:52:41.200 --> 03:52:54.200
this time, to just let go, to just be here,

1308
03:52:55.600 --> 03:53:08.559
to be in tune with how you feel, yet with

1309
03:53:09.239 --> 03:53:21.120
the intention of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even

1310
03:53:22.760 --> 03:53:27.200
to fall asleep, depending on what it is that you

1311
03:53:28.280 --> 03:53:41.399
wish for yourself in this moment. As we know, relaxing

1312
03:53:43.079 --> 03:53:51.200
is the majority of the process of falling asleep. The

1313
03:53:51.280 --> 03:53:55.840
actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at the end.

1314
03:53:58.760 --> 03:54:13.440
The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1315
03:54:22.879 --> 03:54:29.479
But you can also if you choose, stay focused on

1316
03:54:29.600 --> 03:54:53.319
my voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing

1317
03:54:57.600 --> 03:55:24.120
each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the

1318
03:55:24.280 --> 03:55:45.479
sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to

1319
03:55:45.600 --> 03:55:55.399
count from six down to one, and you can notice

1320
03:55:55.840 --> 03:56:06.040
your mind calming down more with each number that you

1321
03:56:06.319 --> 03:59:20.920
hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful. Six, five, four, three, two.

1322
03:58:54.879 --> 03:59:23.520
One, being aware of.

1323
03:59:20.760 --> 03:59:36.879
How your mind has slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1324
03:59:50.520 --> 03:59:57.319
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1325
03:59:57.559 --> 04:00:07.360
that there's some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

1326
04:00:07.520 --> 04:00:22.799
that for some reason perhaps need your attention. So what

1327
04:00:23.000 --> 04:00:35.360
you can do is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle

1328
04:00:35.959 --> 04:00:37.360
those thoughts.

1329
04:00:41.399 --> 04:00:42.239
With love.

1330
04:00:43.680 --> 04:00:49.079
Like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1331
04:00:49.360 --> 04:00:56.600
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1332
04:00:56.719 --> 04:01:03.280
thoughts know that you're not abandon in them. You just

1333
04:01:03.600 --> 04:01:13.719
need them, You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1334
04:01:16.000 --> 04:01:17.879
quiet down.

1335
04:01:21.000 --> 04:01:21.559
For now.

1336
04:01:29.280 --> 04:01:34.280
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1337
04:01:34.440 --> 04:01:39.719
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1338
04:01:39.840 --> 04:01:53.959
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1339
04:01:55.319 --> 04:02:07.239
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1340
04:02:08.600 --> 04:02:23.680
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1341
04:02:23.760 --> 04:03:32.479
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1342
04:03:58.319 --> 04:05:20.799
three one. And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling.

1343
04:05:23.959 --> 04:05:33.799
In your body, we're going.

1344
04:05:33.639 --> 04:05:47.399
To focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1345
04:05:47.559 --> 04:05:54.440
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1346
04:06:09.360 --> 04:06:15.520
And there you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1347
04:06:20.920 --> 04:06:25.680
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

1348
04:06:26.000 --> 04:06:30.520
fists or dents in the fingers or anything like that.

1349
04:06:37.760 --> 04:06:52.040
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

1350
04:06:52.079 --> 04:07:16.840
they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

1351
04:07:17.079 --> 04:07:26.520
calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

1352
04:07:28.559 --> 04:07:30.040
throughout your body.

1353
04:07:35.200 --> 04:07:46.639
And you may have already.

1354
04:07:48.799 --> 04:07:59.159
Noticed you mind.

1355
04:08:01.680 --> 04:08:02.079
He is.

1356
04:08:04.959 --> 04:08:31.799
Starting to drest like since just on your hands and fingers,

1357
04:08:36.680 --> 04:08:50.520
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

1358
04:08:52.239 --> 04:09:10.159
in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With

1359
04:09:10.319 --> 04:09:11.639
each number.

1360
04:09:19.120 --> 04:09:27.319
From eight down to one.

1361
04:09:28.200 --> 04:09:38.040
You can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

1362
04:09:39.200 --> 04:09:46.840
into your hands and fingers, becoming.

1363
04:09:50.719 --> 04:09:52.840
Year more.

1364
04:09:54.239 --> 04:10:17.159
Relaxing with each number ye going down eight down to one, drifting,

1365
04:10:20.879 --> 04:14:26.000
drifting again starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

1366
04:14:27.520 --> 04:14:37.000
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1367
04:14:38.440 --> 04:14:52.399
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1368
04:14:52.639 --> 04:15:00.200
is your natural state of being. This is how are

1369
04:15:00.280 --> 04:15:06.799
you just normally feel when you take away all that

1370
04:15:07.239 --> 04:15:14.639
other stuff that we add, you know, things like stress

1371
04:15:14.719 --> 04:15:30.399
and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking

1372
04:15:30.440 --> 04:15:36.719
about stuff. You take that away, which is what we do.

1373
04:15:37.280 --> 04:15:49.159
What we do now you're left with a real sense

1374
04:15:49.760 --> 04:16:02.360
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately

1375
04:16:02.920 --> 04:16:16.840
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort, almost as

1376
04:16:16.879 --> 04:16:21.000
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1377
04:16:21.079 --> 04:16:34.840
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1378
04:16:34.920 --> 04:16:45.559
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1379
04:16:45.600 --> 04:16:54.440
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1380
04:16:55.399 --> 04:17:00.520
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

1381
04:17:00.559 --> 04:17:11.280
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

1382
04:17:12.639 --> 04:17:21.399
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1383
04:17:22.000 --> 04:17:39.120
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1384
04:17:39.159 --> 04:17:43.360
of gratitude is.

1385
04:17:43.319 --> 04:17:45.000
In the air all around you.

1386
04:17:52.639 --> 04:18:00.479
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1387
04:18:00.799 --> 04:18:16.120
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1388
04:18:16.200 --> 04:18:26.239
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1389
04:18:29.959 --> 04:18:41.040
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1390
04:18:42.760 --> 04:18:47.360
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

1391
04:18:49.799 --> 04:18:56.239
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1392
04:18:56.760 --> 04:19:08.040
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1393
04:19:08.120 --> 04:19:19.319
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1394
04:19:19.520 --> 04:19:31.440
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1395
04:19:34.319 --> 04:19:41.840
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

1396
04:19:42.000 --> 04:19:51.680
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

1397
04:19:52.079 --> 04:20:02.319
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1398
04:20:02.360 --> 04:20:09.200
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1399
04:20:11.079 --> 04:20:18.600
As your health improves, not just your physical health but

1400
04:20:18.680 --> 04:20:26.120
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

1401
04:20:26.200 --> 04:20:33.840
the past for some reason, no longer have the effect

1402
04:20:34.280 --> 04:20:43.239
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

1403
04:20:48.280 --> 04:20:54.719
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1404
04:20:58.559 --> 04:21:08.680
no longer have that power to control you the way

1405
04:21:08.719 --> 04:21:16.879
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1406
04:21:17.760 --> 04:21:30.639
that you're the one who decides what affects you, you're

1407
04:21:30.680 --> 04:21:40.600
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

1408
04:21:41.479 --> 04:21:56.440
you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing,

1409
04:21:59.000 --> 04:22:07.600
continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1410
04:22:13.479 --> 04:22:21.719
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1411
04:22:26.680 --> 04:22:35.879
and sleep in. It's the most natural thing in the

1412
04:22:35.920 --> 04:22:45.680
world to you, because falling asleep is something that you've

1413
04:22:45.760 --> 04:22:56.520
done so many times in your life, and you know

1414
04:22:56.680 --> 04:23:01.559
that you were born, as we all were, with the

1415
04:23:01.639 --> 04:23:12.760
ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that

1416
04:23:13.559 --> 04:23:25.120
ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1417
04:23:31.040 --> 04:23:35.879
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep and we

1418
04:23:35.920 --> 04:23:40.559
don't even want to try to take us stay awake.

1419
04:23:41.879 --> 04:23:45.399
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

1420
04:23:45.559 --> 04:23:48.520
or holiday or something we look forward to.

1421
04:23:49.000 --> 04:23:50.280
We don't want to go to sleep.

1422
04:23:52.440 --> 04:23:57.479
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

1423
04:23:57.639 --> 04:24:06.000
we just start to drift, and the more you fight drifting.

1424
04:24:06.639 --> 04:24:09.079
The more you try to stop yourself and drift in

1425
04:24:09.079 --> 04:24:22.120
a safe the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

1426
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we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

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and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

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part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

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in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely.

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It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

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It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

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it is. It's just deciding to let go. And when

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you press the play button on my recordings, you have

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given permission for my voice to relax you. When you

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press that play button, you have given me permission for

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my words to affect you in a positive, only a

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positive way, opening up your mind. Two useful and healing

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suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on how

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you feel right now, as well as those changes that

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continue long after the recording ends. Those changes within you

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to continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in

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a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in

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your life in the direction that you choose for yourself.

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And this feeling, this feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort,

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calmness just feels so nice. It's such a healthy place

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to be, and that positivity grows within you each and

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every day. Moving forward, you're going to find that you're

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more relaxed physically and in your mind is more relaxed.

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And it's not that you're thinking slower. It's just that

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your mind will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity

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because from now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on,

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you're going to start noticing when negativity arises and you

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can just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn

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around and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

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And that you notice that you feel way more relaxed

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than you probably expected.

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You can now.

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Congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

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You are the one that has opened your mind up

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to the simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

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in your body and in your mind. You've opened your

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mind up to the birthright of being able to just

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fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

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Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it to feel calm?

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All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

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your mind to spend time a special place where negativity

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can no longer enter. Negativity is bad, and it's bad.

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It's not allowed Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve

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to be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no

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place in your life, which makes room for more comfort,

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more heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it?

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Just the let go with everything.

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I'm going to count down now from twenty down to one.

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You can continue to relax, if you choose, you can

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drift to sleep with every number you hear me say,

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can fill twice is relaxed, or if you choose, you

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can fill twice sleepy now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

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Four on.

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This is your time to just take a break, your

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time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

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to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

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End.

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You're the only person that can make that decision. You're

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the only person that can actually tell your mind to

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just relax, to just take some time off so that

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you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

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how you feel physically, and in the process of this

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body scan, where you focus on different parts of your body,

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those parts that you focus on and observe, even though

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you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

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to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

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listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

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when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

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my words. And as my words guide you to focus

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on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

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actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

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your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

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mind relaxes. And even though I've not really started the

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focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

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energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension

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and healing All the parts of your body, including your skin,

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your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

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all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

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every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

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And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

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eating of comfort and relaxation increases deeply increases in a

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way to your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

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because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

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if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

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and what you need is deep relaxation.

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That's what you get. If what you need is.

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To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

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that's also.

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What will happen.

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Because by pressing that play button on the podcast and

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listening to me, you give permission for your body and

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your mind. In fact, you give the command to your

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body and your mind to relax deeply and to drift

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off to sleep if that's what you want.

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Or need.

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And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

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you may start to just drift.

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And then you come back again and you hear me

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talk again, and I'm focusing on a different parts of

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your body, and you may.

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Find yourself drifting. You don't realize you're drifting until you

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stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice. Focusing

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on a different part of your body starts to relax

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even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already.

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In the sleep zone.

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And the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

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the longer you dreat Eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

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and that's the last you remember until you wake up

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in your own time, when you experience the right amount

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of sleep for you, because when you do and if

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you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep, healing, sleepy.

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It feels so nice to relax into your own body

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and mind as you feel that heathing energy is spreading

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through it, relaxing news so deeply, relaxing, so so deeply.

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We start to focus on your eyes, moving down to

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your chow, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hand, fingers,

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your chest, stoma, you back, your spine, you's, you, legs,

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your feet, you chose and feeding, heeting, spreading and growing

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inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again

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on parts of your body, focusing this time on your forehead.

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Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

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of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

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could move your fingers a little bit. You can focus

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on each one individually, both hands, and even though if

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you focus on both of your hands now they almost

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seem to just melt into one. Where there is your

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right hand. Start in your left hand end, almost as

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if just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just

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noticing how your knees fell. Now focusing on your elbows,

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focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feet

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thing elmos. Now focusing absurding the back of your neck,

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feeding that energy the back of your neck, absurd your ankles,

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being aware of physical sensations in your ankles,