May 1, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Universal Credit | LMBYTS #1343 | 1st May 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Universal Credit | LMBYTS #1343 | 1st May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land. Welcome to Let me boy to sleep.

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Please only listen when you're you can safely close your eyes.

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Thank you for waiting. Your call is important to us.

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We love you very very much. Um yeah, let me

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boy to sleep. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi. I can't believe

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it's been fairly quiet and suddenly there's drilling going on again.

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Damn it, damn, damn, damn, it's eighteen past free. I'm

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just going to do the recording anyway. I've been waiting

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for some quiet moments, but it's a little It's not

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like it's not full on, but it's so random. And oh,

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this funny thing that happened yesterday. My neighbor called me.

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She said, if you've got some building work going on upstairs?

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And I thought, cheeky mare complaining about the noise I'm

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making after all the drilling. She's been drilling, not drilling,

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but you know, in the bathroom being done this week,

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all the drilling they do downstairs. And I said no.

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She said, what, there is some weird sound coming from upstairs.

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I said, well, I might have farted. She said, no, no,

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it wasn't that sound? I know that sound okay, not

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fair enough. It makes me a little bit self conscious,

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and uh, I don't know. I started to think I

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should like to stick me by that out of the window or something. Anyway,

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I went downstairs. I thought I'll come down listen because

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I can't hear anything up here. So I went down

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and I was listening, and it was this really weird,

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weird sound, very poltergeisty. Why don't you just called poltageist

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polter ghost? It seems weird that they would use the

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word geist, what not ghost? It makes sense because it's

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kind of a ghost, isn't it? Anyway? Polter it was

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or it wasn't a poltergeist? Sorry if I suppoil. The

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story jumped ahead a little bit there, and I well,

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she couldn't figure out where it was coming from. It

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sounded like it was coming from the bathroom, but it

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also sounded like it was in the wall. It sounds

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like it might be coming from upstairs. It sounds like

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it might be coming from the storage room, which is

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next to the bathroom. So we're kind of searching. It

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was like a Scooby Do search, you know, but without well,

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there's no animated characters. There's no dog talking dog, and

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there's no well, we didn't have anyone at the end

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to like pull off their face and say, ah, it

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was him all along, none of that stuff. That's my impression.

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Vinny does look Vinnie does look like a kangaroo when

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he's on all fours. So I mentioned he looked like

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a kangaroo because I did a picture and I said, oh,

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we do got kangaroo. Therefore, it's like it's not a kangaroo.

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It's just it was out of proportion size wise the image.

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But it was supposed to be Vinny based upon his

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PI picture anyway. So downstairs we're look at it and

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we figure out it's definitely covered from the bathroom, which

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is in the process of being rebuilt. The only thing

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in the bathroom at the moment is just the toilet.

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There's nothing else in there, and they put a new

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toilet in yesterday. Now apparently my neighbor didn't think they

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were going to be putting a new toilet in, like

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a whole new bathroom and no new toilet. I genuinely

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thought that, and I thought I kind of that seemed

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like a weird thing to do, because if I had

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a new bathroom and they were just going to leave

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the old toilet. I'll tell them not to bother. You

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imagine everything nice and now, and then this is staying

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thing in the middle. It's like, no, I mean that

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toilet seemed better days. Well I say better days. I

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mean it might argue this might be a good day

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because I haven't used it much. But what a job.

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I mean, it's literally the kind of what the worst

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worstest job outside of I don't know. I'll move on

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from that. I think we all know where I'm going

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with that one. So possibly okay. So so it's like

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it felt to me and I said to you, you sure

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it's not my toilet, because when I flushed my toilet,

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I had some problems and it wasn't flushing and it

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was weird. But the plumber came fixed by say plumber,

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someone from the council that probably does everything came along

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and fixed it, and then someone else came back the

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next day and fixed it again. And the water fills

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up really quick and then it goes and it's kind

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of like once it finished flushing, it's almost like it's burping,

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like really like, oh that was lovely. It was that

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kind of sound like I don't hear the words that's lovely,

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but it is. That's the kind of sound. Weird, weird sound.

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I figured out a way to stop it from doing

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that is by turning the the And then he said,

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the wet tap the cold tap on just a little

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bit so that it doesn't fill up quite so quickly.

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And and it's loud. And I don't because in the

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middle of the night, if I do we we I

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don't flush a toilet. But anything else I say, anything

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else is not that many options. Is a if I

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decide to mix some pancakes, but if anything else I

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do flush, it's not I'm not big fan of. Yeah,

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I'd like to try and keep everything. I think. It's

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kind of like at the end of relationship, isn't it

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you just want to move on. It's, you know, just

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like just let's just separate nicely and you know, you

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get on your life. I'll get on my life. And

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that's that's to me. It's very much like flushing a toilet.

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It's it's a nice clean break. See you, thanks everything

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you did for me. And you know, if we meet again,

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then we'll try and be on good terms. But hopefully

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we won't meet again, which is generally what I normally

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used to think if I ended a relationship, or a

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relationship came to an actual end when they become bored

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with me, or they realized I really was like this.

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I actually had that once. Remember a girlfriend saying to me, said,

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what's happened to you? That's what? What do you mean? She said,

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when we met, you were so full of energy and funny,

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and now you're just you know, like that, I said,

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because not one dimensional. I didn't know about the bipolar

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back then. I knew I had moods. I mean, but hey,

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this is when I was about twenty six, and she said,

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you're not You're not like that anymore, and I'm thinking, yeah,

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that is a bit much to kind of keep. Can

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you hear that? It sounds that someone's like knocking on

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the ceiling downstairs, almost like can you speak up? I

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can't hear. Can you talk a bit louder please? I? Yeah.

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I don't know why I remembered that I had one girl.

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One girlfriend. She left me telling me that my eyebrows

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were too low, but eyebrows were too close to my eyes,

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and I thought, okay. So ultimately she wanted someone that

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was permanently startled someone walking around it was had a

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permanent look of expression of surprise.

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Oh.

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I tried that, but it was ached a little bit.

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I thought about shaving my eyebrows off and then just

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painting someone or getting well, not not caterpillars, but you

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know what I mean, like and put them a halfway

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out my forehead. But then she didn't like that either,

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so it couldn't have been the eyebrows. I remember once,

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I didn't ask him to talk about relationship break ups.

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I'm not gonna I'm not going to talk about that,

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but I just remember what this is. I had a

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little bit of I don't know, my brain worked, my

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brain kicked into action, and I got in touch with

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reality in that moment. So there was this I don't

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know when. It was a long time ago. Any female

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relationship was a long time ago for me. So I'm

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sitting there and my girlfriend is dumping me. She's already

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told me she's dumping me, and she set us down

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for the evening to tell me all the things wrong

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I did and all the reasons why she's dumping me,

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and all the things I need to change, And at

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one point she was crying and then I woke up.

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I wasn't asleep, but it was boring, but I didn't

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fall asleep, and I just like it just kicked in

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my wait a minute, as my friend, like you used

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to about to say, what's wrong with this picture? He

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used to do that when I used to work for him.

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I used to clean clean the toilets, and he would

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like it, walked me into the into the tours, what's

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wrong with this picture? To start? If I if I

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said I don't know, he'd go like he'd get angry

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and stuff. So I had to kind of like have

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something up my sleeve to say he said, so he

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walked me in there. So one day like what's wrong

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with this picture? And I was really I said, is

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it a pool? And the ceiling is at the tambourne

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hanging hanging from the air conditioning. It's like, you know,

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I didn't notice that, but okay, yeah that as well.

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I don't know why I didn't sack me, so I yeah,

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So I'm sitting there getting lectured about everything that's wrong

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with me, and trust me, it takes a long time

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to get through those. And that was back then. Imagine

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now that's got a good month. I reckon, if you like,

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talked consumed continuously about all my faults. Oh bless, and

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I kind of wait, wait a second. So I was

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probably an hour into this, Okay, there was a lot

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more to go, you know, I kind of thinking I

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wish i'd brought a packed lunch. I knew it was

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going to go. You know, look little Flaska coffee so

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I could have a break. And I said, just just

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can I just confirmed something, said what are we going

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to get back together again? Or is this the end?

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She's it's the end of the relationship. So I said, okay, right,

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I just stood up. So I went to you know,

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put my coat on, putting trousers back on, and she said,

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where are you going? I said, I'm going home. She said,

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but I haven't finished talking. I said, I know, and

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you probably never will.

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I was.

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It was just it just like almost like my brain

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grew up temporarily. I went back down to being immature again.

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But for that as you can tell, but for that instant,

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the mature part of my brain was activated and I

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was an adult and I could see things so clearly,

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like okay, yeah, I granted loads of faults I'll bean

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untold faults never, you know, I'll hold my hands up

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to that. But I don't have to sit and listen

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to it. You know. It's like I don't have to

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sit listen to this character assassination. Send me a letter.

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This is for this is afore the internet. Send me

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a letter, and we might know. I didn't even have

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a mobile phone back then, I don't think.

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So.

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Yeah, it was like, really, I think it's the first.

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It might be the only time that my the mature

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part of my brain was ignited. Thinking about it, I

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might have used up all those brain cells. Perhaps that's

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why I've never gone back to that. That's why I've

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stayed like immature. That's the problem that as I've got

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getting older and I start acting weird, I don't think

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in order to actually notice, Oh, it's just Jason, it's

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just JB and j you know, and yeah, m hm,

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what's that got to do with the toilet downstairs? So

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I so I'm downstairs looking for this noise, which is

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weird to look for a noise. It's like listening for

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I'm listening for a color. You know. It's very kind

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of strange. But that's see in my ears are pretty good.

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I mean they should be the size of them, and

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I say pretty good. They're not. It's not that I

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can hear well, but I've got a good sense of

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focus in my hearing. Give you an example, because you're

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turning them into a job interview, isn't it really big?

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Giving myself up here? This is kind of what I'm

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going to be talking about in this recording. This is

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one of those real recordings, those real life Oh, this

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is one of those what's actually happening right now in

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my life. It's not not bad, it's but it's not

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I won't be writing any romantic poetry about it. Put

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it this way. So anyway, I I remember when I

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was in a job doing in a call center. I

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wonder if I could get another call center job. I

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go back to being the grumpy care center call center work.

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Maybe I could people, you'd employ yourself, reliable call answer

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in twenty four to seven moneypenny wow. So if I

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put call center work in my local town, call center jobs, okay,

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new candidates urgently needed. There's a reason why I'm going, Yeah,

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there's a reason for me talking about this. Just let

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you know. Seventeen call centered jobs Wow, that was loud.

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I've actually got two neighbors, well not to one neighbor

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and another lady who both worked from home, and they

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both work in call centers from home. The problem is

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with that for me is in some ways, I mean,

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maybe I could do it. I don't know what do

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I do on a day when I can't get out

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of bed? You know, it's one of those weird things

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I can't. I don't know, but probably the only benefit

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the best for me the best and I would actually

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probably say this the best and worst part of life

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in a way is the people you know or but

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in a workplace, the people are both the worst and

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the best part of the job. I generally get on

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with most people, but sometimes sometimes, you know, it's weird.

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If you can have ninety you can have a team

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of like twenty people, but if you got one person,

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one difficult person, it can really dampen the atmosphere, and

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especially if that person's the team leader. H I mean,

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when I was training my last job, there was we

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were in this little training area for sales. I don't

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know if they used it for other departments as well,

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but right behind us, I think was the finance department

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and this I guess he was the team leader, he

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was a supervisor, was talking to this bloke behind me

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like he was he was very being very disrespectful to him,

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talking down to him. And it's weird because I'd only

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just started working there, and I was really on the

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edge of my seat about to turn around and just

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punched that bloke. Really, it was winding me up so

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much because he just wouldn't do what he was told.

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But why couldn't you listen to his manager? No, I

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really was on the edge, just on the verge of

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turning around telling them stop talking to him like that.

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Yeah he's your you might be you might be his boss,

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but he's still a human being. You know, you're not

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his dad. Oh you are his dad? Okay, but yeah,

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you're in work. It's not like you don't own the company.

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Oh okay, hr No, I don't know where that is.

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You want me to go there? Now, you'll escort me there? Okay?

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By everyone?

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Love you.

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Urology nurse. I wonder what those jobs are like. Do

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you know jobs like medical jobs where you're dealing with

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a part of the body that you just did it

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with one part of the body. I can understand the

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brain would be amiss. I just personally, I find the

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brain super fascinating, and the whole body is phenomenal really,

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I mean all not just humans, but all bodies. Just

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the way the system works is bearing in mind it's

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just over millions of years or whatever, it's grown and

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progressed and you know whatever. I find the word whatever

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really helps with moving on from stuff I don't know about.

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So yeah, I some downstairs looking at this looking listening

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for this sound, and it's vibrating the wall. And I

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realized because I thought maybe it was a bird in

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the extractor fan. The extract fan has been taken off,

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but there was like a hole in the wall, surprisingly quiet,

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thick wall. I was a bit surprised about that thick

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old wall, and I didn't because I've had that in

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mind where the the the bird got into the extractor fan,

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and so I thought, maybe that's that's what it was,

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but looked through there, couldn't see anything. And then it

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happened again. It was like it's real buzzing, buzzing sound,

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and I said, maybe it's my electric toothbrush. She said,

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do you have an electric toothbrush? She said no, but

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I I'd like you to think that if you ever

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hear anything vibrating upstairs, it's my electric toothbrush. But do

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you have electric toothbrush? I said no. I just just

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want to let you know if you ever hear anything vibrating,

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please just, you know, just assume it's my electric toothbrush.

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She said, I wouldn't have assumed anything. Why are you

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even bringing that up? Why are you mentioning an electric toothbrush?

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I said, I don't know. I just hearing that vibration

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just reminded me because when I hear things vibrating down here,

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I have to pretend that it's not an electric toothbrush.

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Why would you pretend it's not an electric toothbrush? Because

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it makes me giggle and I know you do have

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an electrics to crush it. And I'm just like a

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very very immature She said, I know that. Can we

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just try and focus on finding out where this vibration

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is coming from. Here's a weird thing. My friend he

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was a security guard, right, and he got told off

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of being naughty, and I mean it was a middle

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aged man, but he got I don't know what he did,

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but he's he did something wrong and he got told off,

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and he said when the man showered at him, his

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bomb vibrated. He said, he's a bomb vibrated and he

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said it was lovely. It was probably the weirdest conversation

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I'd ever had, and I never thought I'd actually share

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that conversation. And I don't know why today is the

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right day to do that. Yeah, I don't know. Just

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reminded me. I think you talking about vibrations. I'm just

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I think about that. I remember, you know, sitting on

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the washing machine with my nan talking to her while

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the washing machine was on its cycle. Shed get falling off. Yeah,

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the good old days. Because the thing is that we

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used to do this little thing. So we'd sit on

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there and the tumble dryer. I mean, you had that

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vibration the whole time. So sometimes we do with the

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tumble dryer. So we'd wait until the washing machiners recycling.

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The tumble drive would also be going, because she had

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quite a few washing things to do. I'd sit on one,

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she's sit on the other. And what we'd do we'd

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put our tea, put the milk in the tea, and

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we'd fit it right to the top and we'd hold

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it to see who could hold it the longest before

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it's spilt all everywhere. And I remember it went all

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down the brow, all down the blouse, and down the dress.

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So she won. I had two get changed. So yeah,

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this is I missed those times. M So in the end,

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what happened is I realized the last time I vibrated,

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or not the last time vibrated, but it's come definitely

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coming down from down there. It's coming from down there.

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I'm pointing down but you that doesn't really make much

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difference to you and you're listening, does it? But it

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was kind of like a kind of skirting board. Wow,

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can you hear that? It's a skirting board and kind

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of thing in the bathroom? But would I said, I

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can definitely tell you it's coming from down that area.

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So I put my finger on it, waiting for a vibration.

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I said, do you want to stick your finger on it?

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She said no, you're right, I said, okay. So I

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thought I was so hoping that that that would start

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to vibrate. I mean, there wasn't enough for room to

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sit on it, but I just put my finger on

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it because I was thinking this, this will be it

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and I'll be a hero. But it wasn't what it was.

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Is we both because we were focusing on the area,

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we both heard it at the same time. It's a radio,

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like there was a Builders. I didn't even know Builders

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radios still existed, one of these big Builders radios that

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especially I suppose you could drop out a window and

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not hurt and it was still turned on. But it

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was like like that. So it was, you know, just

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every now and then coming and then, you know, randomly.

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But it was right where I said, but it was

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it was in front of us. I didn't even notice

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a radio. I haven't seen one of them things. And

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I know what Builders radio looks like. My dad had one,

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he was electrician, but I haven't seen one of them

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for probably thirty years, forty years, thirty years. Anyway, picked

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it up and looked at it. I mean, it's a

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modern version of the one that my dad had. But

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just turned it off and that was it. And that's

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the end of that story. That's a problem. You know.

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Sometimes the stories are so exciting, the build ups exciting,

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and it's like a I don't know, some kind of

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suspenseful crime thriller, and then the middle part is action packed,

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maybe a little bit of romance, maybe an opportunity for

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the characters to really take time to ponder upon life choices,

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and ideally some kind of climatic exit to the movie.

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But this didn't have that. It just had or found

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the radio and I came upstairs, turned it off, came upstairs.

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A shame. It could have been a really good story.

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H So Vinnie's just guffed. Oh I'm talking un seriously.

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Either that or the spray in the fields. If that

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not only there's spray in the field. Either that or

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they've sprayed the entire garden outside because it's really bad smelling.

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I hope it's him. Oh I got the window open,

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so it could be coming from outside. But no, he's

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aimed is he always lays so his bums aimed at me.

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He's been acting a bit strange lately. I don't quite

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understand why he's well. I had a friend come around

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yesterday that I haven't seen him for a while, and

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Vinnie loves him, like really really loves him. You know,

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he's one of the few people that he could be

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the other side of the field, or the other side

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of the park rather or even the field if he

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could see him the other side of the park. I

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can't see all the way to the other side of

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the field. Yeah, And I could let him off the

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lead and guarantee it wouldn't matter what else was around,

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he would run. He would keep running till he got

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to him. He's one of them people. There's a few

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like that that he's got that he just loves, and

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he all that's what he focuses on, is that person.

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He doesn't like it when they leave. So he was

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stuck around for only an hour hour and half. We

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were just talking and Vinnie was sulking. We went out

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for a walk so he could because he was going.

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So I took Vinnie out with us. Vinnie was like

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pulling me to because he wanted to go with him.

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And then when I got in here, I'm just in

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the living room, I don't know, watching some TV, scratching

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my knees. I can't remember, I'm sure for shaving me

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toes something like that, And I really I thought, where's Vinnie.

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I'm looking for him. He's not in the bedroom. Is

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that I locked him in the kit not locked him

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in the kitchen? Have I closed the kitchen door? So

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it happens occasionally he's sniffing around the kitchen. I close

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the door and I don't realize he's in there a lot.

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I haven't got any locks on any of my doors,

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apart from the bathroom, of course, and the front door.

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BlimE me, of course, well I would. I'd come home

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every day to nothing there'd be There wouldn't even be

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any carpet if the doors were open. There's this this

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kind of area I live in. And I found him.

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He wasn't anywhere. I thought, is he hiding? I thought

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maybe he'd done it, like had an accident, and he

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was hiding because he was scared. Even though I wouldn't

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care anyway, it's not when I really make too much

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difference to the carpet, probably brighten it up, if anything.

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But he was in the hallway in the dark because

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there's no lights. There's no light coming into the hallway,

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so I couldn't see him at first glance, and he

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was just laying or sitting. I think he might have

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been sitting in the dark near the front door. They

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didn't want to go out. He'd already been out and

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gone to a toilet all that stuff. Okay, maybe he

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wanted to go he didn't need to go out. He

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was pining for his friend Uncle Eric. Hey pining for

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Uncle Eric, and I was like, come on, what are

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you doing? So yeah, he was. And he's been weird today.

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He's wed and reared the lot weird reared. He's been rerored,

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he's been strange the last few days. When it comes

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to food, he's been really off his wet food. But

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he's not off food because I just came to sausages

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earlier and he enjoyed them. So I don't really know

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what's going on. It might just be that time year

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it seems to be. I think he might be getting

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a little bit overheated. I don't know. I can't figure

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it out. I hope he's okay, I do. I'm yeah,

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I probably. I am a little bit of a worrier.

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Sometimes a squeaky chair, isn't it. So So that was yesterday.

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It was weird because Monday, I think it was Monday

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or it's Saturday. I did a recording Saturday. Then I

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was pretty busy. I didn't really get a lot done

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in the boxing was on, so I watched that Sunday

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I was in bed most of the day. To be fair,

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I didn't have Yeah, let's call it my mojo. I've

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got different versions of my mojo. This is just I

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guess the energy one. So Sunday was like that. Monday.

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I really was in that mode of no, no, not

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not happening, and I couldn't really figure it out. And

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I suppose, I mean, you know, building work going on

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that probably wasn't ideal. Was it Monday or Tuesday the

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00:37:53.239 --> 00:38:01.679
building work started? I can't remember. I think it was Monday.

468
00:38:01.880 --> 00:38:09.360
So what day was Monday, the twenty April? Monday the

469
00:38:09.440 --> 00:38:20.400
twenty eighth, So the twenty eighth I did do I

470
00:38:20.519 --> 00:38:24.880
kind of So I did something on Saturday that let

471
00:38:24.920 --> 00:38:27.360
me boil your pain away. Twenty nine. I did a

472
00:38:27.440 --> 00:38:34.960
Q and A Friday the day before, and Monday I

473
00:38:34.960 --> 00:38:41.559
couldn't do anything. And then I had a bit of energy.

474
00:38:41.599 --> 00:38:43.599
I think I think it was Monday or Tuesday, and

475
00:38:43.679 --> 00:38:45.400
suddenly I had a bit of energy. So I ended

476
00:38:45.440 --> 00:38:51.719
up doing two recordings Monday's bording objects and then let

477
00:38:51.719 --> 00:38:55.760
me boil your pain away. Maybe it's Tuesday when I

478
00:38:55.840 --> 00:38:59.679
just didn't I couldn't focus. But I ended up doing

479
00:39:07.880 --> 00:39:16.079
what I did two on Tuesday as well. Did I

480
00:39:17.440 --> 00:39:29.480
that's weird to be fair, Well, whatever happened it, you know,

481
00:39:29.760 --> 00:39:35.800
I went to bed during the day, I woke up

482
00:39:35.840 --> 00:39:38.679
and I kind of felt better, so I got up

483
00:39:38.719 --> 00:39:43.480
and did something. But it's been a hit and miss

484
00:39:43.519 --> 00:39:47.039
this week, although I me blind. I've done two on Monday,

485
00:39:47.079 --> 00:39:51.920
two on Tuesday, one Wednesday and day which is Thursday.

486
00:39:53.519 --> 00:39:57.159
Though I haven't done a okay, I did let Me

487
00:39:57.239 --> 00:40:02.000
Boy Pain Away Tuesday, and I also did let Me

488
00:40:02.119 --> 00:40:08.199
Bore Your Pain Away Monday as well and also Saturday,

489
00:40:08.280 --> 00:40:10.960
so I've not really I've done a few of them,

490
00:40:11.000 --> 00:40:13.519
so I can't. Yeah, I forget how many I do

491
00:40:13.639 --> 00:40:19.599
sometimes because once they've done, I forget about them, and

492
00:40:19.639 --> 00:40:26.480
as I think most people do. But yeah, okay, so

493
00:40:26.519 --> 00:40:30.960
that wasn't too bad. But I just I kind of

494
00:40:31.079 --> 00:40:36.039
lost lost it a little bit and managed to get

495
00:40:36.079 --> 00:40:40.760
it back. So that's good. But then something happened today

496
00:40:41.760 --> 00:40:48.960
which is thrown me a little bit. Yesterday it was weird.

497
00:40:49.039 --> 00:40:52.280
I had someone ask me for money. I had two

498
00:40:52.320 --> 00:40:58.599
people asked to borrow money yesterday. So that was that

499
00:40:58.840 --> 00:41:03.719
sets me back emotionally. It does because that just takes

500
00:41:03.760 --> 00:41:07.159
me back to reminds me of the last ten years

501
00:41:07.159 --> 00:41:13.519
of being completely tame advantage of by so many different

502
00:41:13.519 --> 00:41:17.159
people people borrow money not paying it back, and how

503
00:41:17.239 --> 00:41:20.079
upsetting that is, and it reminds me of then it

504
00:41:20.119 --> 00:41:24.320
reminds me of my friend and yeah, so I'm gett

505
00:41:24.320 --> 00:41:27.719
all heavy. But yeah, so that was quite upsetting. Not

506
00:41:27.800 --> 00:41:33.760
at the time, but afterwards there's like a okay. And

507
00:41:34.159 --> 00:41:39.679
also I was looking through some of the messages I've

508
00:41:39.719 --> 00:41:43.760
got from a particular person that's been asking for money

509
00:41:43.800 --> 00:41:47.079
since the summer, and some of this, some of the

510
00:41:49.400 --> 00:41:51.480
I can't read it. One day I will read them out.

511
00:41:51.840 --> 00:41:57.119
I can't now, but there's I might read them out

512
00:41:57.159 --> 00:42:05.559
one day. But it's really strange how people can sometimes

513
00:42:05.679 --> 00:42:11.840
use manipulative tactics, you know, it's like really knowing how

514
00:42:15.440 --> 00:42:22.239
I don't know. I don't I think it's weak or susceptible, gullible,

515
00:42:25.960 --> 00:42:28.119
I don't know. I'm kind of one of these people.

516
00:42:28.480 --> 00:42:31.400
Will explain how I am now and one of these people.

517
00:42:31.960 --> 00:42:37.760
This is what I'm like. I like to think that

518
00:42:37.840 --> 00:42:42.679
people are just telling me the truth. And I don't

519
00:42:42.719 --> 00:42:45.320
want to live a life where I'm just assuming that

520
00:42:45.360 --> 00:42:48.519
everyone's lying to me, because I don't think that's a

521
00:42:48.639 --> 00:42:51.840
nice just a nice it's not a nice way to

522
00:42:51.920 --> 00:42:58.760
be experiencing the day. I don't think, you know, no,

523
00:42:59.000 --> 00:43:02.360
in reality, not everyone's telling the truth. And I mean

524
00:43:02.360 --> 00:43:06.880
in these recordings, I tell a lot of porky's, but

525
00:43:07.920 --> 00:43:12.320
I would assume most of it's obvious that I'm not

526
00:43:12.360 --> 00:43:15.880
telling the truth and I'm just making stuff up. But

527
00:43:15.920 --> 00:43:19.480
that's the more kind of weird stuff I've just come

528
00:43:19.519 --> 00:43:23.760
out of. I had that job on there, or just

529
00:43:23.840 --> 00:43:28.440
come out of the Oh the internet annoys me sometimes.

530
00:43:29.840 --> 00:43:33.920
I nearly booked an appointment with Specsavers yesterday, but luckily

531
00:43:33.920 --> 00:43:37.880
I didn't because okay, here's what happened. I've got a letter,

532
00:43:38.440 --> 00:43:40.639
got a letter and straight away it was in a

533
00:43:40.760 --> 00:43:46.039
brown envelope and I thought, oh no, no, no, no, no, no,

534
00:43:46.079 --> 00:43:50.480
never a good sign, never a good sign. And it

535
00:43:50.599 --> 00:44:02.840
was from the DWP, which the Department of Something Welfare

536
00:44:02.880 --> 00:44:09.920
Pensions DW Working Pensions, Department of Working Pensions DWP, and

537
00:44:10.159 --> 00:44:16.480
that's the department that you get way benefits from. So

538
00:44:16.559 --> 00:44:20.440
they are from the I think July. I think it's

539
00:44:20.440 --> 00:44:23.719
something like the twenty first or the eleventh or something

540
00:44:23.760 --> 00:44:28.920
of July. My benefits stop and I have to apply

541
00:44:29.440 --> 00:44:33.480
for a different type of benefit. Which is called universal credit,

542
00:44:34.440 --> 00:44:42.920
because I'm still on the old benefits and technically I

543
00:44:42.960 --> 00:44:45.480
was told that I would have been changed over in

544
00:44:45.480 --> 00:44:48.960
twenty twenty, so it's a little bit late. So I've

545
00:44:49.000 --> 00:44:54.480
probably done all right, I guess, But I knew. I

546
00:44:54.480 --> 00:44:59.239
have got a local neighbor who's also about three or

547
00:44:59.239 --> 00:45:02.000
four weeks maybe a couple of months ago, she had

548
00:45:02.039 --> 00:45:07.320
hers come through, so I kind of was expecting it,

549
00:45:07.360 --> 00:45:11.159
but I thought maybe because I knew, I knew it

550
00:45:11.199 --> 00:45:14.840
was getting closer to the the deadline of when they

551
00:45:14.840 --> 00:45:20.280
were going to make everyone swap over. So the difference,

552
00:45:20.440 --> 00:45:22.639
I'll tell you the difference just in case you're interested.

553
00:45:23.280 --> 00:45:42.960
WD difference between you see and yes, okay, so difference

554
00:45:43.440 --> 00:45:48.800
new style Employment Support Allowance twenty sixteen. That's the one

555
00:45:48.840 --> 00:45:52.760
I'm on now. It was a new back then. What

556
00:45:52.880 --> 00:45:56.760
universal credit is? This is from the Sisters Citizens Advice

557
00:45:58.920 --> 00:46:05.119
dot org dot UK so to see cure. It's called

558
00:46:05.199 --> 00:46:10.880
CSA Citizens' Advice Bureau c A B used to be

559
00:46:10.920 --> 00:46:16.119
called now according to c A, Okay, unless this isn't

560
00:46:16.159 --> 00:46:20.199
the Citizens Advice Bureau, that might be a separate website.

561
00:46:21.480 --> 00:46:27.880
What is universal credit? This advice applies to England so

562
00:46:28.400 --> 00:46:32.920
Universal Credit has replaced these benefits for most people. Housing benefit,

563
00:46:34.199 --> 00:46:35.960
so this is what it said in my letter as well.

564
00:46:36.400 --> 00:46:39.199
So my benefits that are going to get are going

565
00:46:39.239 --> 00:46:46.719
to cancel in July, Housing Benefit, income Related Employment Support

566
00:46:46.800 --> 00:46:54.039
Allowance e SA, income Based job Seekers Allowance JSA, Child

567
00:46:54.199 --> 00:46:59.039
Text Credit, Working Text Credit, and income Support. So I'm

568
00:46:59.079 --> 00:47:05.480
on e SA and Housing Benefit. You might be able

569
00:47:05.480 --> 00:47:08.760
to get Universal Credit if you're not working or you're

570
00:47:08.760 --> 00:47:14.119
on a low in come. Universal Credit works differently from

571
00:47:14.159 --> 00:47:16.440
the old benefits, so important. It's important to know the

572
00:47:16.440 --> 00:47:20.719
differences to be fair. I don't know much about the differences,

573
00:47:20.800 --> 00:47:25.920
so let's have a look. The biggest differences are you

574
00:47:25.960 --> 00:47:29.719
can get Universal Credit if you're unemployed, but also if

575
00:47:29.760 --> 00:47:35.440
you're working. Okay, I'm guessing that's based on how much

576
00:47:35.480 --> 00:47:38.280
you work you're earning, So if you're on a low wage,

577
00:47:38.679 --> 00:47:41.119
would that mean if you're unemployed you can still get it.

578
00:47:42.800 --> 00:47:47.440
You'll usually get a single payment each month rather than

579
00:47:47.559 --> 00:47:52.679
weekly or fortnightly, So mine's fortnightly at the moment, so

580
00:47:52.760 --> 00:47:56.079
it's going to end up being once a month instead

581
00:47:56.079 --> 00:48:00.000
of getting a separate housing benefit. Your rent will usually

582
00:48:00.119 --> 00:48:03.239
be paid directly to you as part of your monthly

583
00:48:03.639 --> 00:48:11.039
Universal Credit repayment or payment that I don't like. I'll

584
00:48:11.039 --> 00:48:15.039
be honest with you. I've got a few friends that

585
00:48:15.119 --> 00:48:17.960
have got all well behind on their on their rent

586
00:48:19.480 --> 00:48:25.519
because when you get that in your money and the

587
00:48:25.519 --> 00:48:28.280
bank just takes stuff out because you've got debts or whatever.

588
00:48:29.119 --> 00:48:35.000
And the housing benefit are pretty good. The council are

589
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:37.239
pretty good. They'll do they really go out their way

590
00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:40.000
to help. They're not They're not in the habit of

591
00:48:40.000 --> 00:48:43.079
just kicking people out as soon as they can at

592
00:48:43.079 --> 00:48:45.719
the moment. Anyway that might change in the future. I

593
00:48:45.719 --> 00:48:50.800
don't know. I mean, I can'd half expect to like

594
00:48:50.840 --> 00:48:52.599
walk out one day and I be a que people

595
00:48:52.679 --> 00:48:56.719
just waiting to move in seeing if I'm break any

596
00:48:56.800 --> 00:49:09.599
rules rules. So I'm going to request because I think

597
00:49:09.639 --> 00:49:12.760
you can if you're no good with money, and I've

598
00:49:13.159 --> 00:49:17.480
proved that I'm really not very good. I'm not great

599
00:49:17.480 --> 00:49:22.840
with money. To be honest, I prefer the rent to

600
00:49:22.920 --> 00:49:27.800
go directly to the landlord rather than give me because

601
00:49:27.840 --> 00:49:30.199
my rent's one hundred and four pounds a week, which

602
00:49:30.239 --> 00:49:38.000
is very low for a flat, but that's four hundred

603
00:49:38.719 --> 00:49:41.679
I don't know how much that is a month five hundred,

604
00:49:42.079 --> 00:49:44.480
four hundred and whatever a month four hundred and twenty

605
00:49:46.000 --> 00:49:52.000
is it, I don't know. So you usually get one

606
00:49:52.360 --> 00:49:57.480
one monthly payment to cover your living costs. If you

607
00:49:57.599 --> 00:50:01.920
claim Universal Credit as a couple, you and your partner

608
00:50:02.000 --> 00:50:06.440
will get one payment between the two of you. That

609
00:50:06.519 --> 00:50:16.400
doesn't seem fair, I can understand in a way. I

610
00:50:16.400 --> 00:50:21.239
mean the rents. The rent's going to be the same,

611
00:50:21.639 --> 00:50:23.280
like if you live in a one bedch and flat.

612
00:50:23.519 --> 00:50:27.840
If I had a girlfriend here living with me, the

613
00:50:27.920 --> 00:50:32.159
rent is going to be the same. The council tax

614
00:50:32.159 --> 00:50:36.400
will be higher because I get a twenty five percent

615
00:50:36.559 --> 00:50:43.159
discount or whatever because of being on being single person.

616
00:50:46.280 --> 00:50:49.239
I would then, but the bills are going to be higher,

617
00:50:49.280 --> 00:50:52.360
but probably not a huge amount to be fair. But

618
00:50:52.719 --> 00:50:56.440
because the heating won't be any higher, the water will

619
00:50:56.480 --> 00:50:58.440
be a little bit higher, but there won't be a

620
00:50:58.480 --> 00:51:03.039
lot in it. I don't think food's going to be higher,

621
00:51:03.079 --> 00:51:07.000
I imagine, But maybe you can get get away with

622
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:09.559
the same amount of money for two as for one.

623
00:51:09.719 --> 00:51:19.800
That doesn't really make sense to me. But yeah, but

624
00:51:19.800 --> 00:51:22.000
it doesn't, Yeah, it doesn't. That just kind of doesn't

625
00:51:22.039 --> 00:51:24.880
seem fair that someone should get less just because of

626
00:51:25.000 --> 00:51:31.639
living with someone and anyway, it doesn't apply to me

627
00:51:31.719 --> 00:51:44.800
because I've you'ven't got a girlfriend. You'll usually get one payment, okay.

628
00:51:45.960 --> 00:51:50.000
The payment is made up of a basic standard allowance

629
00:51:50.679 --> 00:51:56.400
and extra payments that might apply to you depending on

630
00:51:56.480 --> 00:52:03.480
the circumstances. You might be able to get extra payments

631
00:52:04.119 --> 00:52:08.239
if you look after one or more children, which I

632
00:52:08.280 --> 00:52:13.880
do not. I got Vinny work and pay for childcare.

633
00:52:14.920 --> 00:52:21.960
No need help with housing costs? No, not other than

634
00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:27.639
the rent. Are disabled or have a health condition. I

635
00:52:27.639 --> 00:52:34.480
am class of disabled due to my mental disability. Are

636
00:52:34.519 --> 00:52:39.880
a care for a disabled person, or have a disabled child? No,

637
00:52:43.119 --> 00:52:49.400
if you get help with rent, if your Universal Credit

638
00:52:49.440 --> 00:52:54.480
payment includes help with rent, I suppose that depends if

639
00:52:54.480 --> 00:52:56.639
you're working or not. I guess if you're working, it wouldn't,

640
00:52:56.639 --> 00:53:00.800
would I suppose. I don't know. You'll usually need to

641
00:53:00.800 --> 00:53:04.599
pay your landlord each month from your Universal Credit payment,

642
00:53:05.559 --> 00:53:10.519
even if you live in social housing. See that. I

643
00:53:10.599 --> 00:53:15.400
don't know. It doesn't There might be a way around that.

644
00:53:15.480 --> 00:53:22.320
I don't know. I'm not sure you can ask a

645
00:53:22.440 --> 00:53:25.559
DWP to pay your rent directly to your landlord if

646
00:53:25.559 --> 00:53:28.920
you're in debt, have rentrees, or are struggling with money,

647
00:53:29.119 --> 00:53:34.119
so I will do that. I'll just say, look, nah,

648
00:53:34.480 --> 00:53:38.360
pay it to them. Don't be giving me one hundred

649
00:53:38.400 --> 00:53:41.199
and four pounds a week. I'll only go and spend

650
00:53:41.199 --> 00:53:45.639
it on chocolate. If you're working, you can work, so

651
00:53:45.920 --> 00:53:49.199
you can work and still get Universal credit. Your Universe

652
00:53:49.280 --> 00:53:53.920
credit will reduce gradually as you earn more. Your Universal

653
00:53:54.000 --> 00:53:56.960
Credit will go up if your job ends or you

654
00:53:57.159 --> 00:54:04.320
earn less. If your self employed, your payment might also

655
00:54:04.519 --> 00:54:11.719
be affected by how much the DWP expects you to

656
00:54:11.800 --> 00:54:22.199
earn each month. This expected's got it? H my, oh,

657
00:54:22.679 --> 00:54:25.159
unfortunately I can't see the screen. Now I can see

658
00:54:25.199 --> 00:54:29.760
the screen, just not the writing this expects. This expected

659
00:54:29.920 --> 00:54:35.960
amount is called your minimum income floor. Find out how

660
00:54:36.039 --> 00:54:40.840
the minimum income floor works and if it applies to you.

661
00:54:43.199 --> 00:54:49.679
Next claiming other benefits. If you get Universal coreddits, you

662
00:54:49.760 --> 00:54:55.599
should apply for council tax reduction. If you get it,

663
00:54:55.599 --> 00:54:58.559
it won't reduce your amount of Universal Credit you get.

664
00:54:59.400 --> 00:55:02.199
So I'm on account of tax reduction? So will that

665
00:55:02.280 --> 00:55:07.360
not just continue? They have to make things so communicated.

666
00:55:09.519 --> 00:55:12.639
If you're disabled, you should check if you're eligible for

667
00:55:12.679 --> 00:55:18.840
a Personal Independence Payments PIP. If you're responsible for a

668
00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:22.880
disabled child, you should check if you can claim Disability

669
00:55:23.039 --> 00:55:28.000
Living Allowance DLA for your child. Get in PIP or

670
00:55:28.079 --> 00:55:32.119
DLA won't reduce the amount of Universal Credits you get,

671
00:55:33.840 --> 00:55:38.280
and they're trying to by the government are really trying

672
00:55:38.320 --> 00:55:44.280
to crack down on personal independence personal independent payments to

673
00:55:44.400 --> 00:55:48.320
reduce it, like really to get as many people off

674
00:55:48.320 --> 00:55:52.079
that as possible. As well, you can also claim other

675
00:55:52.119 --> 00:55:57.199
benefits if you have enough National Insurance contributions. For example,

676
00:55:58.199 --> 00:56:02.000
if you're unemployed, check it if you can claim contribution

677
00:56:02.199 --> 00:56:12.880
based based job Seekers Allowance JSA also called New style JSA. No,

678
00:56:14.760 --> 00:56:18.119
if you can't work because of illness of disability, check

679
00:56:18.280 --> 00:56:23.920
if you can claim contribution based Employment and Support allowance.

680
00:56:29.320 --> 00:56:35.039
But that's what I'm on, so that makes no sense

681
00:56:35.079 --> 00:56:41.199
to get moving me away from that. This is claiming

682
00:56:41.199 --> 00:56:44.159
other benefits. If you get Universal Credit, check if you

683
00:56:44.199 --> 00:56:50.639
can claim contribution based Employment and Support Allowance ESA also

684
00:56:50.800 --> 00:56:54.960
called New style essay. If you get either of these benefits,

685
00:56:55.000 --> 00:56:59.119
your Universal Credit will be reduced. But there are reasons

686
00:56:59.320 --> 00:57:04.719
it's still claiming him. For example, Universal Credit is paid

687
00:57:04.760 --> 00:57:08.920
once a month, but JSA and ESA are paid every

688
00:57:08.960 --> 00:57:12.679
two weeks. This might make it easier to manage your money,

689
00:57:13.239 --> 00:57:17.440
right there. See they know it's easy to manage money

690
00:57:17.480 --> 00:57:21.199
if you get paid every two weeks. Yeah, they're paying

691
00:57:21.239 --> 00:57:27.239
every month. Horace has just come back. Horace is gone.

692
00:57:28.760 --> 00:57:30.320
He hears his name as soon as he hears his

693
00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:41.679
name's gone, I said, Horace turned around, flapdoy. Applying for

694
00:57:42.079 --> 00:57:46.519
new style ESSA check if you can claim contributing based

695
00:57:48.119 --> 00:57:52.920
so changes from SA rules from twoenty twenty eight. On

696
00:57:52.960 --> 00:57:57.760
the eighteenth of March two thousand and twenty five, the

697
00:57:57.880 --> 00:58:04.320
government announced changes to how some types of ESA are paid.

698
00:58:05.320 --> 00:58:09.679
These changes would not happen until two thousand and twenty eight.

699
00:58:11.119 --> 00:58:15.199
If you're thinking of applying for new style ESSAY, you should.

700
00:58:16.159 --> 00:58:19.679
You're more likely to get ESA if you apply before

701
00:58:19.719 --> 00:58:28.760
the rules change. Okay, you can get essay at the

702
00:58:28.760 --> 00:58:32.719
same time as other benefits like PIP, but you can't

703
00:58:33.000 --> 00:58:35.480
usually get essay at the same time as job seekers

704
00:58:35.519 --> 00:58:42.079
Allowance or income support. If you're employed but you can't work,

705
00:58:42.199 --> 00:58:46.840
you usually get statutory set SSP. Statutory. Can't say that

706
00:58:46.880 --> 00:58:54.199
word statutor statuttery. I just started coughing in I realized

707
00:58:54.239 --> 00:58:55.960
I think one of the reason I'm coughing is because

708
00:58:56.039 --> 00:59:01.920
Vinnie is he's peeling or whatever you want to call it.

709
00:59:01.960 --> 00:59:05.159
Is hairs just coming off there everywhere, and I've got

710
00:59:05.199 --> 00:59:07.760
them all over my desk. It's little hairs. I think

711
00:59:07.800 --> 00:59:12.199
they might be getting Hello, darling. And I'm not saying

712
00:59:12.199 --> 00:59:19.960
all lo to the hairs. I'm talking to Vinnie Ivan. Okay. Anyway,

713
00:59:20.079 --> 00:59:26.400
So if you're employed but you can't work, you usually

714
00:59:26.400 --> 00:59:36.920
get statuteter ary statute statutory statutory sick pay from your

715
00:59:36.920 --> 00:59:39.679
employer for twenty eight weeks. You can't get SSP in

716
00:59:39.760 --> 00:59:43.119
the essay at the same time that you can start

717
00:59:43.159 --> 00:59:46.199
your essay claim fuck up to three months before you're SSP.

718
00:59:46.360 --> 00:59:52.440
Are bored with that. If you've been told to claim

719
00:59:52.519 --> 00:59:55.360
Universe of credit by a certain date, yes I have.

720
00:59:56.239 --> 00:59:59.920
The Department for Working Pensions are stopping some people's benefits

721
01:00:00.159 --> 01:00:06.039
telling them to claim Universe or credit instead. Guilty, guilty me,

722
01:00:06.559 --> 01:00:09.559
have done it to me. If you get a letter

723
01:00:09.719 --> 01:00:12.679
telling you to claim Universe credit by a certain deadline,

724
01:00:12.800 --> 01:00:16.920
this is a migration notice. It's weird that I would

725
01:00:17.000 --> 01:00:23.079
use a word like that. You should claim universal credit

726
01:00:23.159 --> 01:00:26.760
by the deadline in the migration notice. Your old benefits

727
01:00:26.800 --> 01:00:31.239
will stop after the deadline. You might miss out on

728
01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:36.239
some money if you apply it after the deadline. See,

729
01:00:36.280 --> 01:00:41.000
this is weird. So they're saying, oh, the new essay

730
01:00:43.719 --> 01:00:46.719
now and the changes one hand to twenty twenty eight.

731
01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:50.679
But it's only twenty twenty five now, I think they're

732
01:00:50.679 --> 01:00:55.519
making apps they go along. Check what you should do

733
01:00:55.559 --> 01:00:58.000
if you get a migration notice. So this is what

734
01:00:58.079 --> 01:01:03.440
I got today, an immigration notice. They are called legacy benefits,

735
01:01:04.639 --> 01:01:07.960
and so university credit to replace an older benefits. I've

736
01:01:07.960 --> 01:01:13.039
already this is what I started on, isn't it If

737
01:01:13.079 --> 01:01:15.920
your letter doesn't have a deadline, it's not on migration notice.

738
01:01:16.119 --> 01:01:19.280
You don't have to claim universal credit unless you want to,

739
01:01:20.199 --> 01:01:22.679
even if the letter says you'll have to claim universal

740
01:01:22.719 --> 01:01:26.719
credit in the future. Why are you begging forth? Then

741
01:01:27.920 --> 01:01:29.679
you got your dinner down there? Why don't you read that?

742
01:01:31.480 --> 01:01:35.800
So they're basically, yeah, I've got a deadline of mine.

743
01:01:37.400 --> 01:01:41.159
So they've given me. What was it now, May June,

744
01:01:41.280 --> 01:01:46.119
so yeah, beginning of May, beginning Dune, beginning of July.

745
01:01:47.679 --> 01:01:53.719
Two months, two and a little bit months. So I

746
01:01:53.800 --> 01:02:04.679
filled it in today. Ah, it's weird, So I got

747
01:02:04.719 --> 01:02:09.280
I don't know how long it takes for the money

748
01:02:09.320 --> 01:02:12.800
to come through. That's what That's what I'm thinking. How

749
01:02:12.800 --> 01:02:16.400
long have I got got got go? Because when I

750
01:02:16.440 --> 01:02:21.519
signed on before it took or it took it for

751
01:02:21.679 --> 01:02:29.000
about four or five weeks maybe before I got anything,

752
01:02:31.320 --> 01:02:36.800
and then I only got very very basic minimum and

753
01:02:36.840 --> 01:02:52.440
it wasn't until oh yeah, it was quite a long time,

754
01:02:52.679 --> 01:02:56.760
quite a good few good quite a few months that

755
01:02:56.840 --> 01:03:00.599
I got paid. The back payment because of back payment

756
01:03:00.639 --> 01:03:02.960
was something like two and a half grand, maybe three

757
01:03:03.079 --> 01:03:06.119
thousand pounds. So it just shows you how long I

758
01:03:06.159 --> 01:03:08.760
was weighing. I think it was like maybe nine months,

759
01:03:08.760 --> 01:03:12.519
ten months, nine months, I don't know. So I got

760
01:03:12.519 --> 01:03:16.880
that and then I went on to its normal amount.

761
01:03:19.639 --> 01:03:22.280
So I don't know what quite, I don't know how

762
01:03:22.280 --> 01:03:26.679
it works from that perspective, So I filled the forward

763
01:03:26.800 --> 01:03:35.519
or lied at the very end. This was very strange.

764
01:03:36.559 --> 01:03:43.280
I just it threw me off a bit. Let me say,

765
01:03:43.280 --> 01:03:45.400
if I log into this and I actually i'll show

766
01:03:45.599 --> 01:03:47.760
when I show it to you, but I'll read it

767
01:03:47.800 --> 01:03:55.800
out here because I was surprised at this. Create an account,

768
01:03:55.840 --> 01:03:57.960
I want to create an account. I want to log

769
01:03:58.039 --> 01:04:04.920
into my account, kah create oh sign into you? Why

770
01:04:04.960 --> 01:04:20.199
have they got to make things difficult, that's weird. Mhm. Okay,

771
01:04:20.320 --> 01:04:24.920
so use a name. What's my user name? I know

772
01:04:25.039 --> 01:04:45.159
what it is, and please give me more money. Okay,

773
01:04:46.519 --> 01:05:03.599
now my that that was my noon. Oh unless it's

774
01:04:59.679 --> 01:05:10.880
m oh good, save confirm itshied blindly and I've got

775
01:05:10.880 --> 01:05:12.519
to go. I mean, it's good that they've got all

776
01:05:12.519 --> 01:05:21.159
this security stuff, but well, okay, what's the code? Nine

777
01:05:21.400 --> 01:05:32.079
two three seven three five four seven nine six one?

778
01:05:32.800 --> 01:05:38.079
Here we go, right, we will call you next steps.

779
01:05:40.719 --> 01:05:43.360
So basically I've got they're not calling me now to

780
01:05:43.440 --> 01:05:55.079
do lists right journal confirm your identity. So this is

781
01:05:55.119 --> 01:06:01.239
the problem. Confirm your identity. And it's like, okay, how

782
01:06:04.280 --> 01:06:07.159
there was no way I could confirm my identity simply

783
01:06:07.239 --> 01:06:10.280
because what they were asking for I do not have

784
01:06:11.800 --> 01:06:14.760
do not have a driving license. I do not have

785
01:06:15.559 --> 01:06:21.559
a up to date passport. Last time he was passort

786
01:06:21.760 --> 01:06:24.480
passport was over three years ago. Now I think I

787
01:06:24.559 --> 01:06:30.599
don't have any credit cards stuff. I haven't got no

788
01:06:30.639 --> 01:06:37.440
credit cards. I don't get any bills anymore. Everything's kind

789
01:06:37.480 --> 01:06:43.159
of on just online now. But didn't ask for any bills.

790
01:06:43.159 --> 01:06:45.960
It's like there's nothing, there's nothing for me to prove

791
01:06:46.239 --> 01:06:51.800
my ID. Yeah, I've got a council flat that I've

792
01:06:51.840 --> 01:06:54.599
had for ten years, and they know who I am

793
01:06:54.800 --> 01:06:57.360
and they're paying me. They've got our bank details. If

794
01:06:57.400 --> 01:06:59.920
that's not proof of ID giving you a bank deal

795
01:07:00.119 --> 01:07:06.920
tells and I don't know what is. Ironically, not one

796
01:07:06.960 --> 01:07:09.360
point during this whole thing have they asked my national

797
01:07:09.360 --> 01:07:19.880
insurance number. That I found interesting because that's a very

798
01:07:19.960 --> 01:07:25.199
personal thing. It's a little bit like it's not a

799
01:07:25.239 --> 01:07:27.000
prison number. You know, if you go in the prison

800
01:07:27.599 --> 01:07:30.559
now you pretty much just keep the same number. Well,

801
01:07:30.599 --> 01:07:33.079
if you however many times you go back in, it's

802
01:07:33.079 --> 01:07:37.559
the same number. So this is the national insurance number.

803
01:07:37.800 --> 01:07:43.920
Is the same number always stays the same. Mine is

804
01:07:45.159 --> 01:07:53.239
sc x y jy jy hash hash hash groovy fella.

805
01:07:54.239 --> 01:07:59.639
So that's my national insurance number and sixty nine at

806
01:07:59.639 --> 01:08:03.480
the end. And I like, they didn't ask for that,

807
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:09.199
So I've got them down. They're going to call me, right,

808
01:08:09.320 --> 01:08:13.119
They're gonna call me. We will call you. Calls from

809
01:08:13.199 --> 01:08:17.520
US may show on your phone as eight hundred number

810
01:08:18.319 --> 01:08:23.760
uncannone number are withheld number. If you're expecting a call

811
01:08:23.760 --> 01:08:26.279
from US, you should answer calls from these numbers. We

812
01:08:26.319 --> 01:08:29.000
will make sure that you know the call is genuine

813
01:08:29.680 --> 01:08:34.039
or genuine, we cannot proceed with your claim until we

814
01:08:34.079 --> 01:08:38.199
have confirmed your identity. We will call you in the

815
01:08:38.239 --> 01:08:43.119
next two to three days to arrange an interview to

816
01:08:43.319 --> 01:08:47.199
verify your identity. Don't be asking me to go anywhere.

817
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:51.159
I didn't go anywhere. You talked to him on the phone.

818
01:08:52.119 --> 01:08:55.039
Check information you gave us. If you do not want

819
01:08:55.079 --> 01:08:57.720
to wait for a call, you can confirm your identity online.

820
01:08:57.880 --> 01:09:00.279
So let's click that. What does it say? Come on,

821
01:09:00.000 --> 01:09:03.640
came on, came on, come on. Confirming your identity checks

822
01:09:03.680 --> 01:09:06.560
that it's really you making a claim. We will help

823
01:09:06.600 --> 01:09:09.319
you choose the best ways to do this. You must

824
01:09:09.359 --> 01:09:13.840
confirm your If it's not me, right, they're going to

825
01:09:13.880 --> 01:09:16.600
put the money into my bank account, What use is

826
01:09:16.640 --> 01:09:20.600
it for someone else if it's going into my bank account,

827
01:09:20.600 --> 01:09:25.479
the same bank account. So here's here's what we've got

828
01:09:25.640 --> 01:09:35.159
here here right, here's the options pay slips. You will

829
01:09:35.159 --> 01:09:37.359
need at least two items from the list and this

830
01:09:37.560 --> 01:09:43.560
list to verify your identity online pay slips. I don't

831
01:09:43.600 --> 01:09:49.000
have a payslip P sixty. I don't even not sure

832
01:09:49.039 --> 01:09:51.760
what a P sixty is. It's something to do with

833
01:09:51.800 --> 01:09:59.279
work related UK passport A valid UK passport, Nope, a

834
01:09:59.399 --> 01:10:06.399
UK drive ncence, never driven. Self assessment. You need your

835
01:10:06.520 --> 01:10:10.079
recent self assessment returns. I don't know what that is.

836
01:10:10.800 --> 01:10:14.840
Credit reference, I guess that's what's that's self employed or something.

837
01:10:15.439 --> 01:10:20.680
Credit references or records, for example, information about credit cards

838
01:10:20.760 --> 01:10:32.439
or phone contracts. I don't I've just I don't have

839
01:10:32.520 --> 01:10:39.479
these things. I don't know what to say. I'm very flummoxed.

840
01:10:41.720 --> 01:10:43.760
So yeah, that's just how it is now. So I'm

841
01:10:43.800 --> 01:10:47.520
gonna have to wait for them. How ironic would it be?

842
01:10:48.000 --> 01:10:48.159
Not?

843
01:10:48.399 --> 01:10:53.600
Probably? Irony is possibly not the correct word. Before I

844
01:10:53.640 --> 01:10:56.960
wasn't allowed I wasn't allowed to have any any help

845
01:10:58.000 --> 01:11:04.760
because they couldn't prove who I was. How ridiculous is that?

846
01:11:08.079 --> 01:11:10.800
And I could just say, well, how about I take

847
01:11:10.800 --> 01:11:13.000
a photocopy of every letter that you sent me in

848
01:11:13.000 --> 01:11:16.640
the last ten years. I've got them all, I send

849
01:11:16.640 --> 01:11:18.680
them to you. That kind of proves that I am

850
01:11:18.720 --> 01:11:25.600
who I am? Does it not? Anyway? Other than that,

851
01:11:25.800 --> 01:11:33.479
everything's groovy. See if I've got any emails, any emails,

852
01:11:33.720 --> 01:11:49.000
and I'm gonna have myself a toilet and then a

853
01:11:49.039 --> 01:11:56.640
bowl of breakfast a cereal, I think, and then yeah,

854
01:11:56.800 --> 01:12:01.479
blinds half past four. I've only eaten twice today. Just good,

855
01:12:01.479 --> 01:12:06.880
isn't it. So I had work, I had six point

856
01:12:06.840 --> 01:12:17.640
thirty probably something about twelve or eleven eleven ish, and

857
01:12:17.720 --> 01:12:24.000
now now, well probably it's four point thirty now, so

858
01:12:24.000 --> 01:12:26.680
it's probably going to be more core to fine if

859
01:12:26.720 --> 01:12:37.359
i'd say before I'm actually munching away, Oh, I need

860
01:12:37.399 --> 01:12:45.079
to exercise my hips. I feel like I could, so

861
01:12:45.279 --> 01:12:50.359
I could be really good. I'd like someone to do

862
01:12:50.479 --> 01:12:54.680
something thrusting with well, maybe not thrusting, but do you know,

863
01:12:54.840 --> 01:12:59.359
you us see these videos on YouTube where someone's kind

864
01:12:59.399 --> 01:13:04.119
of pushing the person, like stretching them, but helping them stretch.

865
01:13:04.520 --> 01:13:07.560
That's what I kind of think. I need someone to

866
01:13:07.800 --> 01:13:11.199
hold my legs and just push back gently and maybe

867
01:13:12.319 --> 01:13:15.760
push back on my hips, help me to open up

868
01:13:15.800 --> 01:13:20.279
a bit. So maybe not thrusting, but maybe pushing forward

869
01:13:20.279 --> 01:13:21.960
and they can just push me a little bit more,

870
01:13:22.920 --> 01:13:26.760
just to open up the joints and stuff. I think

871
01:13:26.800 --> 01:13:40.560
that'd be quite cool, but everyone says no, let's getting

872
01:13:40.560 --> 01:13:43.279
to the point where it's becoming embarrassing being on a bus.

873
01:13:43.800 --> 01:13:47.039
I'm just like asking people you'd think a bus journey

874
01:13:47.039 --> 01:13:49.000
would be a good place to try and to meet

875
01:13:49.000 --> 01:13:55.760
someone that could help you with some stretching. No, maybe

876
01:13:55.800 --> 01:14:00.079
a gym. I just need to find a gym that

877
01:14:00.159 --> 01:14:09.600
I'll allow me in. Here's a weird thing I nearly did, well,

878
01:14:09.640 --> 01:14:12.319
I did, actually I did do. Vinnie was on a

879
01:14:12.439 --> 01:14:19.199
chair near the bedroom window, and normally I've got the

880
01:14:19.239 --> 01:14:21.279
curtains drawn a little bit so we can get into

881
01:14:21.279 --> 01:14:29.359
the window sill I cooked some sausages. He wouldn't come

882
01:14:29.399 --> 01:14:31.399
in here. He was like in the other room. I

883
01:14:31.399 --> 01:14:33.239
don't know. He had a bit of a weird had

884
01:14:33.319 --> 01:14:36.319
been a bit of weird mood today. So I thought

885
01:14:36.359 --> 01:14:38.840
it'd be funny, is if I held the sausage like

886
01:14:38.880 --> 01:14:43.760
it was a part of my anatomy. So I jumped

887
01:14:43.880 --> 01:14:47.960
in the doorway and just wiggled out about. And I

888
01:14:48.039 --> 01:14:50.880
forgot that the curtains were drawn, and there's no neck curtains,

889
01:14:51.119 --> 01:14:56.880
and the lady opposite was in a kitchen. It's like, oh, oh, dear,

890
01:14:58.880 --> 01:15:04.560
and I just jumped back and hid. Now, perhaps I

891
01:15:04.560 --> 01:15:08.039
shouldn't have done and put it made it worse, but

892
01:15:08.119 --> 01:15:10.840
it was. It literally was just a sausage, and I

893
01:15:10.960 --> 01:15:13.399
gave it to Vinnie. He wouldn't I had did like

894
01:15:15.199 --> 01:15:17.520
put it, break it into little bits for him, Beau,

895
01:15:17.479 --> 01:15:22.039
he's been very lazy. But yeah, I was that was

896
01:15:22.079 --> 01:15:27.439
a bit of a weird a weird one. Not the

897
01:15:27.479 --> 01:15:38.600
weirdest thing that's ever happened, but yeah, I think probably

898
01:15:38.600 --> 01:15:41.479
the weirdest thing is when I was I had Andre

899
01:15:41.520 --> 01:15:45.640
in town and people coming up to me, Oh, he's

900
01:15:45.720 --> 01:15:49.279
so cute, and he was just you know, wheeling about

901
01:15:49.319 --> 01:15:52.880
and all that stuff, and I was holding him into

902
01:15:52.960 --> 01:15:56.319
I was kind of, this is a long time ago,

903
01:15:56.359 --> 01:15:59.640
it's like nine years ago where and I was talking

904
01:15:59.640 --> 01:16:02.039
to this female and she seemed to be interested. And

905
01:16:02.079 --> 01:16:04.520
she's talking to me and getting on really well, and

906
01:16:05.399 --> 01:16:09.079
I'm kind of, i don't know, not shoving off, but

907
01:16:09.800 --> 01:16:15.039
trying to be trying to be interested maybe I don't

908
01:16:15.079 --> 01:16:18.239
know if it's possible, and thinking this is going quite well.

909
01:16:18.960 --> 01:16:21.239
And she starts laughing. She's laughing at my jokes, and

910
01:16:21.279 --> 01:16:25.399
she's laughing, really laughing at this point, and I'm thinking, Wow,

911
01:16:25.479 --> 01:16:28.600
this is going really well. And then other people start laughing,

912
01:16:28.640 --> 01:16:32.399
and I'm thinking, blind me, this is going really well.

913
01:16:33.359 --> 01:16:36.119
And then I notice people behind me were laughing. Another

914
01:16:36.199 --> 01:16:38.479
people at the side of me, like and I looked

915
01:16:38.560 --> 01:16:43.039
down because they were pointing Vinnie had pooed all down

916
01:16:43.119 --> 01:16:46.760
my top and onto my trousers. Not Vinnie Andre, sorry,

917
01:16:46.840 --> 01:16:50.880
not Vinny Andre, pretty much and weed and everything like

918
01:16:51.439 --> 01:16:53.159
he wanted to go to a toilet, but I was

919
01:16:53.199 --> 01:16:57.680
holding onto him, didn't realize he needed a toilet, and

920
01:16:57.800 --> 01:17:04.960
he just let go all over me. And I was

921
01:17:04.960 --> 01:17:07.079
actually with someone, so I was with a woman as well.

922
01:17:07.199 --> 01:17:12.640
She thought it was hilarious also, but apparently she didn't

923
01:17:12.640 --> 01:17:23.439
want a second date. It was weird. I still can't

924
01:17:23.479 --> 01:17:26.720
find it funny even now. It was horror. It was really.

925
01:17:26.760 --> 01:17:29.359
It was in the middle of town. I had no

926
01:17:29.600 --> 01:17:34.239
change of clothes, and I did go into a public

927
01:17:34.279 --> 01:17:39.319
toilet to try and like wash myself off, but then

928
01:17:39.359 --> 01:17:41.520
it just went from It just looked like I met

929
01:17:41.560 --> 01:17:46.800
myself after that because everything was wet, so it looked

930
01:17:46.840 --> 01:17:54.680
like I just Yeah, it was a weird one, but

931
01:17:54.720 --> 01:17:59.439
it wasn't. It wasn't Andre's fault. It was me. I

932
01:17:59.479 --> 01:18:03.279
wasn't really didn't wasn't reading what he needed. But then

933
01:18:03.279 --> 01:18:05.920
he was wiggling about anyway, but he kept trying to

934
01:18:05.920 --> 01:18:09.880
get down and in the end, because with the finger

935
01:18:09.880 --> 01:18:11.520
of ferrets is when they need to go. They need

936
01:18:11.560 --> 01:18:16.000
to go. They don't like VINNI will spend ten, fifteen,

937
01:18:16.079 --> 01:18:19.600
twenty minutes looking for somewhere to go to a toilet. Andre.

938
01:18:21.199 --> 01:18:29.079
They get like a five second notice, maybe ten seconds

939
01:18:29.119 --> 01:18:32.840
sometimes sometimes even two seconds, to a really short notice

940
01:18:32.920 --> 01:18:41.119
like need to go, go now, Andre. Vinni is kind

941
01:18:41.119 --> 01:18:44.680
of like, yeah, he'll spend a good twenty minutes walking

942
01:18:44.760 --> 01:18:50.079
up and down the grass finding the correct place. Andre.

943
01:18:52.079 --> 01:18:53.960
He'd go in the right place if he could. But

944
01:18:54.159 --> 01:18:58.920
you know, if he couldn't always get to the where

945
01:18:58.920 --> 01:19:01.920
the paper was, especially if he was on the roofs

946
01:19:01.960 --> 01:19:07.880
on the roof sunbathing, they just do it down the chimney.

947
01:19:07.880 --> 01:19:14.439
So it's all right. I was thinking about that, you know,

948
01:19:14.600 --> 01:19:18.079
like sending kids up chimneys. I was just thinking about

949
01:19:18.119 --> 01:19:21.720
that the other day because a lot of kids want

950
01:19:21.800 --> 01:19:25.640
to do what their parents do, don't They Oh, can

951
01:19:25.720 --> 01:19:28.000
I do it? Like, no, you can't, you're too young.

952
01:19:29.079 --> 01:19:36.800
So I'm guessing when parents were cleaning out the chimneys,

953
01:19:37.880 --> 01:19:39.880
the little kids are saying, how can I help? Can

954
01:19:39.920 --> 01:19:43.479
I help? Not realizing it was going to lead to

955
01:19:43.520 --> 01:19:48.239
a career, but like, can I help? Also probably not

956
01:19:48.319 --> 01:19:51.399
realizing that they were going to be sent up the chimney,

957
01:19:52.279 --> 01:19:54.840
because you know, when they say can I help, they

958
01:19:54.840 --> 01:19:57.920
probably thought can I just hold the big stick and

959
01:19:58.439 --> 01:20:01.840
get dirty? They don't think that they were going to

960
01:20:01.880 --> 01:20:04.279
be put on the end of a stick and shoved

961
01:20:04.359 --> 01:20:08.520
up the chimney. So yeah, I suppose it was wearing

962
01:20:08.560 --> 01:20:10.920
a little brush on a hat with a brush on.

963
01:20:14.359 --> 01:20:14.479
Uh.

964
01:20:18.960 --> 01:20:21.920
They are kind of like really really tall toilet brush,

965
01:20:22.039 --> 01:20:29.560
isn't they. We've still got chimneys here. It's weird. There's

966
01:20:29.560 --> 01:20:34.079
a chimney over the road. Literally, on that block over there,

967
01:20:34.439 --> 01:20:41.119
there's a chimney. Now, there's one hundred percent no fire

968
01:20:41.359 --> 01:20:46.640
place in there at all, So why is there a chimney.

969
01:20:46.640 --> 01:20:54.239
I've got no idea unless I'm gonna look. This is

970
01:20:54.279 --> 01:21:06.640
going to bug me now if I don't look. H Yeah,

971
01:21:06.640 --> 01:21:13.279
there's definitely a chimney. There's a chimney on a building.

972
01:21:13.399 --> 01:21:19.079
It's just studio flats. The I an't know. There's no

973
01:21:19.359 --> 01:21:24.439
open fires. Maybe I guess there used to be, But

974
01:21:24.479 --> 01:21:27.199
would there have been in nineteen seventy eight when these

975
01:21:27.199 --> 01:21:33.039
buildings were built. I don't imagine there had been open

976
01:21:33.119 --> 01:21:38.000
fires back then. It would have been more just central heating.

977
01:21:41.920 --> 01:21:49.239
I didn't he know. There's definitely a fire, like a

978
01:21:49.439 --> 01:21:53.520
chimney on top. I guess it's just blocked. I mean

979
01:21:53.600 --> 01:21:55.720
when I moved into the when we moved into the

980
01:21:55.760 --> 01:22:05.760
family house in about nineteen seventy nine, was it there

981
01:22:05.880 --> 01:22:17.960
was a chimney in the living room and the bedroom upstairs,

982
01:22:18.000 --> 01:22:21.239
which was their parents' bedroom, so there was a chimney.

983
01:22:21.359 --> 01:22:24.359
I think they blocked the one in the bedroom. There

984
01:22:24.439 --> 01:22:25.920
might have even been one in the other one, which

985
01:22:25.920 --> 01:22:28.319
would also be the room next to it as well,

986
01:22:30.800 --> 01:22:33.199
but we had the one. We had the chimney in

987
01:22:33.640 --> 01:22:38.640
the living room, the chimney, we had the fireplace, the

988
01:22:38.720 --> 01:22:47.720
open fireplace actually active in the winter and stuff. I

989
01:22:47.720 --> 01:22:58.359
still love it, love the open fire. That was lovely, Yeah,

990
01:22:58.960 --> 01:23:01.399
I did. If we had one in the other room.

991
01:23:01.640 --> 01:23:05.279
I think it was just one room that was really nice.

992
01:23:05.479 --> 01:23:18.039
It was just really comfy, cozy, smoky, stuffy, but it

993
01:23:18.119 --> 01:23:23.279
was nice. I don't know if they got outlawed. I

994
01:23:23.279 --> 01:23:27.079
don't know if it was if we had to stop

995
01:23:27.359 --> 01:23:30.880
using them. Because when I used to go to Nottingham,

996
01:23:31.319 --> 01:23:33.479
I had this friend who lived there and he had

997
01:23:33.960 --> 01:23:39.840
everywhere because the colon are like a mining village and

998
01:23:39.920 --> 01:23:46.359
everyone had these wood burners in these places and well

999
01:23:46.439 --> 01:23:49.479
cold as well, but they'd have these things that would

1000
01:23:49.479 --> 01:23:56.119
be on all day long and like a, yeah, I

1001
01:23:56.119 --> 01:24:08.159
think it was quite nice. Like yeah, such a lovely house, Finny,

1002
01:24:08.279 --> 01:24:12.600
I don't know what you want, right, I'll better go. So, yeah,

1003
01:24:12.640 --> 01:24:20.800
that's just basically what's happening. That's the update I had

1004
01:24:20.800 --> 01:24:23.560
this little thing. I played with her thought, Okay, I

1005
01:24:23.560 --> 01:24:28.119
should reword that I had this idea. Maybe just come

1006
01:24:28.119 --> 01:24:38.399
off the benefits and just say I need to I

1007
01:24:38.439 --> 01:24:41.079
need to have enough money coming in to pay everything,

1008
01:24:44.560 --> 01:24:48.039
and just put it to the universe, just like put

1009
01:24:48.079 --> 01:24:50.199
it out there and say I need this is what

1010
01:24:50.239 --> 01:24:52.399
I need. Need to pay my rent, need to eat,

1011
01:24:52.920 --> 01:24:57.560
need to pay the bills, and in return I will

1012
01:24:58.640 --> 01:25:04.239
make regular recordings. But I don't know, I'm all sure

1013
01:25:04.279 --> 01:25:09.079
if the universe is listening all the time. I like

1014
01:25:09.159 --> 01:25:16.199
to think it is. That is one of the one

1015
01:25:16.239 --> 01:25:19.039
of the rules of the secret one of the rules

1016
01:25:19.039 --> 01:25:29.239
of the manifestation thing is or the think and grow rich,

1017
01:25:29.960 --> 01:25:32.079
which is where all that stuff kind of comes from.

1018
01:25:32.239 --> 01:25:42.640
Stop squeaking. The idea is you do something, you cut

1019
01:25:43.079 --> 01:25:46.840
all that You basically cut the ties, not ties from people,

1020
01:25:46.840 --> 01:25:54.159
but you stop being able to go back, So it'd

1021
01:25:54.199 --> 01:26:00.880
be the same as you know, you go somewhere and

1022
01:26:01.479 --> 01:26:06.840
you can't return, you have to keep going regardless, and

1023
01:26:07.279 --> 01:26:09.840
stopping my benefits or not really knowing them, would be

1024
01:26:09.920 --> 01:26:18.239
like that. So sink or swim sort of situation. I

1025
01:26:18.279 --> 01:26:24.640
don't know, I had a thought about it. I definitely

1026
01:26:24.640 --> 01:26:27.760
feel a lot better about myself if I was if

1027
01:26:27.800 --> 01:26:31.439
this was, if I was able to pay my own

1028
01:26:31.479 --> 01:26:36.039
way and you know, do it, you know, by doing this.

1029
01:26:36.239 --> 01:26:41.479
But I don't know, I don't know. He's hassling me.

1030
01:26:42.720 --> 01:26:45.079
I'm pretty sure he didn't used to be like this.

1031
01:26:47.560 --> 01:26:50.760
He's now bigg and are you hungry? Stick your tongue

1032
01:26:50.840 --> 01:26:56.039
if you're hungry? Jordgean food. He's turning his head side

1033
01:26:56.079 --> 01:27:00.840
his socide. He is so cute Jordan food. Any you're hungry?

1034
01:27:01.439 --> 01:27:02.199
Are you hungry?

1035
01:27:05.439 --> 01:27:05.920
Noodles?

1036
01:27:07.039 --> 01:27:11.039
Archie? See the other two were If I say archie,

1037
01:27:11.680 --> 01:27:24.760
what about uncleric and cleric uncle? Who else? Who pigmy? No,

1038
01:27:24.880 --> 01:27:34.800
it wasn't interesting that one Uncle Alex uncle Eric Archie noodles.

1039
01:27:35.199 --> 01:27:36.960
Yeah he does. He turns his head a bit more

1040
01:27:37.039 --> 01:27:47.039
for those Hey, go away, go away, you are so cute.

1041
01:27:47.079 --> 01:27:54.399
Anny all those he's a properly snorer than he is

1042
01:27:54.760 --> 01:28:00.840
snores a lot. Don't you do you want to go

1043
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:04.520
in the garden? Do weies? We haven't been there, have

1044
01:28:04.600 --> 01:28:07.560
we since? Okay, let's do that. I well, thank you

1045
01:28:07.600 --> 01:28:10.600
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you

1046
01:28:10.720 --> 01:28:15.840
do deserve to be happy, and be gentle with yourself

1047
01:28:15.880 --> 01:28:22.119
because you deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye,

1048
01:28:23.920 --> 01:28:27.600
should go in the garden? Do we weies? Do you

1049
01:28:27.600 --> 01:28:29.640
want to do a wee as well? Come on, let's

1050
01:28:29.640 --> 01:28:35.199
go and do with me. Came on, let's do and

1051
01:28:35.239 --> 01:28:38.199
then cut the outre which means we'll be able to

1052
01:28:38.199 --> 01:28:41.159
see what we ever does do there as well? Brilliant

1053
01:28:46.319 --> 01:29:00.880
relax in a more deep and meaningful way, Maybe in

1054
01:29:00.920 --> 01:29:06.479
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1055
01:29:07.840 --> 01:29:17.079
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1056
01:29:19.119 --> 01:29:24.800
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1057
01:29:24.840 --> 01:29:31.479
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1058
01:29:31.680 --> 01:29:46.600
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1059
01:29:46.680 --> 01:30:06.520
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1060
01:30:06.560 --> 01:30:17.159
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1061
01:30:20.000 --> 01:30:27.279
from listening to my voice. Maybe in a few hours time,

1062
01:30:29.199 --> 01:30:42.680
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1063
01:30:42.840 --> 01:30:47.520
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1064
01:30:47.640 --> 01:30:54.399
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1065
01:30:58.760 --> 01:31:01.239
and I'll just listen to it over and over again

1066
01:31:03.399 --> 01:31:16.399
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1067
01:31:16.439 --> 01:31:22.239
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1068
01:31:22.279 --> 01:31:27.600
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1069
01:31:30.079 --> 01:31:35.279
and I managed to find it again and it still

1070
01:31:35.359 --> 01:31:40.920
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1071
01:31:41.079 --> 01:31:55.840
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1072
01:31:57.960 --> 01:32:04.279
and I'd look forward to listen listening to her in

1073
01:32:04.319 --> 01:32:14.680
the morning and in the evening. And I knew before

1074
01:32:14.880 --> 01:32:23.239
even pressing the play button that since I've done that

1075
01:32:24.119 --> 01:32:27.560
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

1076
01:32:32.640 --> 01:32:41.800
CD players pressed the play button. In fact, it might

1077
01:32:41.840 --> 01:32:46.119
have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down

1078
01:32:46.199 --> 01:32:58.800
on the bed and then even without necessarily listening to

1079
01:32:58.960 --> 01:33:11.960
her words, yes, because I had to memorized. Really, it

1080
01:33:12.079 --> 01:33:17.880
was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1081
01:33:22.640 --> 01:33:44.479
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1082
01:33:44.600 --> 01:33:58.239
I remember my mind would slow down now. Now. I

1083
01:33:58.680 --> 01:34:04.800
was listening to this week rearding in the early days

1084
01:34:04.800 --> 01:34:14.880
of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any

1085
01:34:14.960 --> 01:34:20.399
videos or audio recordings myself. Because I didn't start doing

1086
01:34:20.439 --> 01:34:34.479
that till two thousand and six, I knew. I knew

1087
01:34:34.800 --> 01:34:47.560
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1088
01:34:50.600 --> 01:34:56.000
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1089
01:35:03.640 --> 01:35:10.399
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1090
01:35:11.800 --> 01:35:21.199
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1091
01:35:21.279 --> 01:35:32.880
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1092
01:35:32.960 --> 01:35:46.880
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1093
01:35:46.920 --> 01:35:53.239
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1094
01:35:55.039 --> 01:36:08.800
Some people may be listen every day. And something that

1095
01:36:08.840 --> 01:36:21.840
I do which you may not realize by listening is

1096
01:36:25.920 --> 01:36:40.960
when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1097
01:36:41.720 --> 01:36:53.000
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1098
01:36:53.000 --> 01:37:03.399
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1099
01:37:06.880 --> 01:37:14.800
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1100
01:37:14.880 --> 01:37:33.000
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said focus on your hands,

1101
01:37:35.760 --> 01:37:45.279
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1102
01:37:45.399 --> 01:37:51.479
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room,

1103
01:37:53.319 --> 01:38:03.760
on the backs of your hands. You may start to

1104
01:38:04.319 --> 01:38:12.399
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1105
01:38:12.439 --> 01:38:16.680
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1106
01:38:16.720 --> 01:38:29.720
all where you are right now. And as you become

1107
01:38:30.359 --> 01:38:44.720
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1108
01:38:45.000 --> 01:39:08.800
my hands are feeling now, and when it comes to

1109
01:39:10.319 --> 01:39:16.359
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1110
01:39:16.680 --> 01:39:32.960
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1111
01:39:37.640 --> 01:39:54.039
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1112
01:39:56.079 --> 01:40:10.279
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1113
01:40:10.399 --> 01:40:21.720
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1114
01:40:21.960 --> 01:40:30.920
to do the editing I hear snoring and I think,

1115
01:40:31.359 --> 01:40:40.520
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. It was this

1116
01:40:40.680 --> 01:40:48.000
snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I sound

1117
01:40:48.119 --> 01:40:57.840
like when I snare and I get really into the

1118
01:40:57.840 --> 01:41:16.079
whole experience. I don't know how you feel, how relaxed

1119
01:41:16.199 --> 01:41:26.600
you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in

1120
01:41:26.640 --> 01:41:53.319
your hands. I have noticed more and more that the

1121
01:41:53.560 --> 01:42:10.359
more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier

1122
01:42:10.880 --> 01:42:30.239
your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1123
01:42:34.560 --> 01:42:55.560
So this allows you the breath easier without necessarily focusing

1124
01:42:57.760 --> 01:43:23.399
on your breath, however, being able to notice the ease

1125
01:43:26.800 --> 01:43:53.399
in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so very

1126
01:43:53.640 --> 01:44:42.359
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when

1127
01:44:42.399 --> 01:44:57.680
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a

1128
01:44:57.800 --> 01:45:14.399
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1129
01:45:14.479 --> 01:45:50.119
giving oxygen. It feels nice to, if nothing else, just

1130
01:45:50.560 --> 01:46:29.000
taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace,

1131
01:46:34.000 --> 01:47:15.479
serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just.

1132
01:47:17.239 --> 01:47:18.720
Drip by.

1133
01:47:23.039 --> 01:48:12.840
So very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1134
01:48:13.720 --> 01:49:10.720
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1135
01:49:18.239 --> 01:50:04.840
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1136
01:50:05.039 --> 01:50:35.600
requires your attention, You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1137
01:50:35.800 --> 01:50:48.279
allowing the stress to drip out of your body, to

1138
01:50:48.359 --> 01:51:12.039
appear out of every part of your body, and being

1139
01:51:12.399 --> 01:51:51.079
released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely,

1140
01:51:57.920 --> 01:52:35.319
the muscles sing let x relax rux really so very deeply,

1141
01:52:45.079 --> 01:53:16.119
rex so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1142
01:53:16.199 --> 01:53:40.760
your arms and shoulders deepening each part of your body

1143
01:53:44.039 --> 01:54:22.479
further and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the feelings in the

1144
01:54:22.520 --> 01:55:24.600
back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

1145
01:55:24.880 --> 01:56:01.800
front of your body, I all say, feeling peaceful, deeply,

1146
01:56:18.800 --> 01:56:29.079
there's a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core.

1147
01:56:59.560 --> 01:57:19.520
Even when you focus on your mind. Your mind becomes

1148
01:57:26.880 --> 01:58:31.279
eve and slower, even deeper. Hm relaxing, so very slow,

1149
01:58:48.760 --> 01:59:05.920
his stomach. Peas fall in your stomach.

1150
01:59:28.039 --> 01:59:28.720
You're back.

1151
01:59:34.119 --> 02:00:02.920
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in the hole

1152
02:00:03.319 --> 02:00:36.159
of your back. You spy from your brain all the

1153
02:00:36.239 --> 02:00:44.920
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

1154
02:00:47.319 --> 02:01:19.319
millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing, deeply relaxed,

1155
02:01:49.359 --> 02:02:24.399
une legs spreading those signals down a spine or cord

1156
02:02:28.760 --> 02:02:47.640
into air. Every part of your body, your shins and

1157
02:02:47.800 --> 02:03:39.399
your calf muscles were elbows. Feelings of peace and tranquility

1158
02:03:43.279 --> 02:03:57.399
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1159
02:04:01.680 --> 02:04:21.079
your fingers all wait till you lower back, letting he

1160
02:04:23.359 --> 02:05:33.560
read the thinker, peace, drifting mind just wandering away, happy

1161
02:05:34.359 --> 02:06:14.840
to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1162
02:06:38.960 --> 02:07:16.159
the whole body, enjoying a sense of listening. Go Heph

1163
02:07:16.439 --> 02:09:14.880
more peece joining the space, this space of peace.

1164
02:09:18.079 --> 02:11:40.359
And safety, so very very relaxed, letting go. Maybe we

1165
02:11:40.520 --> 02:11:51.000
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1166
02:11:52.159 --> 02:12:43.439
just to notice.

1167
02:12:19.560 --> 02:12:22.800
You foolhead in your eyes.

1168
02:12:54.920 --> 02:13:41.520
Du so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

1169
02:14:27.600 --> 02:16:20.159
drisdrif pea's for energy peace to breeze such easier loose

1170
02:16:41.479 --> 02:16:54.319
you may have I may not have noticed your mind drifted,

1171
02:17:30.840 --> 02:18:00.879
peaceful man, even more deeply in the direction of total

1172
02:18:05.479 --> 02:20:03.079
blissful pace, bliss for pace terrefting, total peace, co so calm,

1173
02:20:14.280 --> 02:21:26.280
letting go peace with mind rexed forty so relaxed, so relaxed.

1174
02:21:50.600 --> 02:21:53.920
Your body feels almost.

1175
02:21:54.959 --> 02:22:23.959
Invisible, So the very relaxed, I'm peaceful, so.

1176
02:22:31.639 --> 02:23:34.600
Peaceful, relax liquor, and you could start to notice that

1177
02:23:35.399 --> 02:23:46.200
you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely

1178
02:23:47.600 --> 02:23:56.600
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

1179
02:23:56.760 --> 02:24:04.399
is growing within you throughout your body, and your mind

1180
02:24:05.879 --> 02:24:14.280
starts to slow down. And that could be almost in

1181
02:24:15.159 --> 02:24:23.799
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1182
02:24:30.280 --> 02:24:40.719
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1183
02:24:40.840 --> 02:24:49.520
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1184
02:24:49.559 --> 02:24:56.399
break from the day, take a break from your life

1185
02:24:57.520 --> 02:25:06.000
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1186
02:25:06.000 --> 02:25:13.639
yourself permission to take some time off, and to allow

1187
02:25:13.680 --> 02:25:19.840
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1188
02:25:23.879 --> 02:25:31.719
which in turn releases the tension and it stresses that

1189
02:25:31.760 --> 02:25:41.479
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

1190
02:25:41.559 --> 02:25:46.600
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

1191
02:25:46.879 --> 02:25:58.799
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

1192
02:25:59.399 --> 02:26:07.680
positive of heathing energy which then fills your body up

1193
02:26:08.959 --> 02:26:21.200
and your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings

1194
02:26:21.239 --> 02:26:41.559
of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an

1195
02:26:41.680 --> 02:26:52.959
energy that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort,

1196
02:26:57.840 --> 02:27:08.120
and all this comes, and just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1197
02:27:09.920 --> 02:27:13.159
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1198
02:27:14.440 --> 02:27:26.399
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1199
02:27:28.600 --> 02:27:45.840
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1200
02:27:49.639 --> 02:27:59.040
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1201
02:28:03.040 --> 02:28:12.159
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1202
02:28:12.680 --> 02:28:17.280
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1203
02:28:21.520 --> 02:28:31.280
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1204
02:28:36.280 --> 02:28:43.520
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1205
02:28:43.719 --> 02:28:49.520
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1206
02:28:52.840 --> 02:29:02.159
to feel more comfort and to experience.

1207
02:29:03.920 --> 02:29:05.239
More of this.

1208
02:29:06.879 --> 02:29:22.319
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1209
02:29:23.600 --> 02:29:29.559
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1210
02:29:29.559 --> 02:29:46.639
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1211
02:29:46.639 --> 02:29:56.319
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1212
02:30:00.360 --> 02:30:06.159
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1213
02:30:08.799 --> 02:30:15.559
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1214
02:30:15.680 --> 02:30:23.360
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1215
02:30:23.399 --> 02:30:36.799
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1216
02:30:37.159 --> 02:30:50.159
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1217
02:30:50.239 --> 02:30:57.159
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1218
02:30:57.799 --> 02:31:07.879
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like

1219
02:31:08.120 --> 02:31:13.280
mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel

1220
02:31:13.319 --> 02:31:23.399
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1221
02:31:23.479 --> 02:31:30.360
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1222
02:31:32.040 --> 02:31:38.120
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1223
02:31:38.639 --> 02:31:49.159
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1224
02:31:49.360 --> 02:31:57.799
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1225
02:31:59.440 --> 02:32:08.200
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1226
02:32:09.120 --> 02:32:18.840
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1227
02:32:19.879 --> 02:32:29.600
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1228
02:32:29.639 --> 02:32:36.120
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1229
02:32:36.360 --> 02:32:50.840
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1230
02:32:51.239 --> 02:32:57.920
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

1231
02:32:58.040 --> 02:33:13.000
your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1232
02:33:13.639 --> 02:33:20.520
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1233
02:33:20.639 --> 02:33:25.079
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1234
02:33:25.159 --> 02:33:28.719
up the size of your face to.

1235
02:33:28.680 --> 02:33:33.719
Your ears, the hole of your jaw.

1236
02:33:36.120 --> 02:33:43.280
Feeding more relaxed.

1237
02:33:46.680 --> 02:33:55.280
And calm.

1238
02:33:55.559 --> 02:34:04.719
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1239
02:34:04.760 --> 02:34:17.799
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The side of

1240
02:34:17.879 --> 02:34:23.200
your neck, the right and the left side of your neck,

1241
02:34:26.120 --> 02:34:29.639
relax and loose.

1242
02:34:33.280 --> 02:34:40.040
And calm.

1243
02:34:40.440 --> 02:34:47.319
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1244
02:34:47.360 --> 02:34:57.840
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1245
02:34:58.000 --> 02:35:07.680
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1246
02:35:07.879 --> 02:35:18.600
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

1247
02:35:18.639 --> 02:35:30.920
back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

1248
02:35:31.159 --> 02:35:35.680
either side of your spine right from the top of.

1249
02:35:35.600 --> 02:35:36.479
Your back.

1250
02:35:38.040 --> 02:35:41.760
All the way down to the bottom of your back,

1251
02:35:47.719 --> 02:35:59.040
down to your lower back, and as you move up

1252
02:35:59.079 --> 02:36:07.920
and down your spine. You can feel the muscles either

1253
02:36:08.040 --> 02:36:21.639
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1254
02:36:21.760 --> 02:36:31.200
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1255
02:36:32.760 --> 02:36:42.360
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

1256
02:36:42.440 --> 02:36:46.000
top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1257
02:36:49.479 --> 02:36:56.680
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1258
02:36:56.840 --> 02:37:02.280
your back, the muscles in the top of your back

1259
02:37:03.399 --> 02:37:12.040
relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle of

1260
02:37:12.079 --> 02:37:19.760
your back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1261
02:37:20.719 --> 02:37:36.920
separating and almost melting, And in your lower back there

1262
02:37:37.040 --> 02:37:49.719
seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The

1263
02:37:50.079 --> 02:37:56.399
spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back, into

1264
02:37:56.440 --> 02:38:07.760
your hips, into the area where your cocksis are, and

1265
02:38:07.840 --> 02:38:16.840
into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread from

1266
02:38:16.840 --> 02:38:26.360
your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1267
02:38:30.799 --> 02:38:43.159
start to really let go, and even know nowhere about

1268
02:38:43.239 --> 02:38:49.600
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1269
02:38:50.319 --> 02:39:07.120
will continue to let go, continue to relax ks so calmly,

1270
02:39:11.799 --> 02:39:16.760
and as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1271
02:39:16.959 --> 02:39:47.239
that they're already feeding really loose. They're already feeding calm

1272
02:39:47.479 --> 02:39:58.440
and then feeding those muscles the move from your neck

1273
02:39:59.760 --> 02:40:17.799
in to your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so

1274
02:40:18.040 --> 02:40:46.959
smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seems

1275
02:40:47.239 --> 02:40:54.959
to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1276
02:40:56.159 --> 02:41:07.680
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1277
02:41:10.520 --> 02:41:20.520
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1278
02:41:23.239 --> 02:41:29.200
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1279
02:41:30.520 --> 02:41:45.719
and underneath your arms. He Then you feel so relaxed

1280
02:41:48.239 --> 02:41:59.799
and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep he

1281
02:42:00.120 --> 02:42:20.639
thing message into your arms. And you may feel almost

1282
02:42:20.719 --> 02:42:25.520
as if your arms are not even there, because they're

1283
02:42:26.000 --> 02:43:09.000
so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose,

1284
02:43:16.360 --> 02:43:27.840
not feeling spreading all the way down your arms two elbows,

1285
02:43:31.319 --> 02:43:56.959
including your elbows circumforts spreads or away into your wrists,

1286
02:43:59.280 --> 02:44:15.319
your four ramens anderists so heavy, yet at the same

1287
02:44:16.520 --> 02:45:24.920
time sunlight and gentle. Focus Now on your hands, my hands,

1288
02:45:31.120 --> 02:46:00.760
so peaceful in your hands. It's a sense of real peace.

1289
02:46:12.479 --> 02:46:26.280
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1290
02:46:26.600 --> 02:48:03.600
relax deeply ees your things. You think it's sadly, you

1291
02:48:03.799 --> 02:48:37.280
think your tips moving your attention to the front of

1292
02:48:37.440 --> 02:49:08.360
your body so comfortable, move on your focus, your legs,

1293
02:50:26.920 --> 02:51:21.479
what muscles in your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, a

1294
02:51:21.719 --> 02:53:29.680
carved mussels and just chance I puzy the four and

1295
02:53:29.879 --> 02:53:51.159
the feathing and your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1296
02:53:58.280 --> 02:54:53.559
so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peace for re sin.

1297
02:54:58.600 --> 02:55:04.399
Peace for oh.

1298
02:55:03.680 --> 02:55:19.159
So calm, allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest,

1299
02:55:19.440 --> 02:55:50.760
in your stomach, so letting go of everything. So I'm

1300
02:55:50.799 --> 02:56:02.159
gonna start counting down now from twenty down to one.

1301
02:56:02.879 --> 02:56:06.120
You can imagine in a way, it's like just walking

1302
02:56:06.200 --> 02:56:12.079
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1303
02:56:12.159 --> 02:56:22.600
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1304
02:56:25.120 --> 02:56:37.600
a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you walk

1305
02:56:37.680 --> 02:56:43.040
down those steps that are deeper and more relaxed you

1306
02:56:43.120 --> 02:58:37.920
feel so starting with number twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen

1307
02:59:24.159 --> 03:07:48.319
sicksting eight fourty four see too well five eight nine

1308
03:07:49.319 --> 03:12:58.239
eight seven five.

1309
03:12:06.040 --> 03:13:02.079
Us four.

1310
03:14:19.399 --> 03:17:36.600
Cho one And now as you focus on your eyes,

1311
03:17:46.159 --> 03:17:57.840
We're gonna count down from ten douts one, focusing just

1312
03:17:58.159 --> 03:18:06.079
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

1313
03:18:09.120 --> 03:18:17.799
your eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up

1314
03:18:17.879 --> 03:18:33.920
your eye. And as we count down from ten down

1315
03:18:34.040 --> 03:18:49.520
to one, whilst focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice

1316
03:18:50.040 --> 03:19:01.479
is relaxed with each number counting down, and you may

1317
03:19:01.799 --> 03:19:11.280
find the all you want to do is just drift

1318
03:19:11.840 --> 03:19:21.280
off to sleep. And if that's what you want, then

1319
03:19:21.520 --> 03:19:34.079
just allow yourself to do that. Now, focus in on

1320
03:19:34.239 --> 03:19:41.559
your eyes. I'm going to begin counting down from ten

1321
03:19:41.920 --> 03:22:50.479
down to one right now. Ten nine eight seven s

1322
03:23:54.920 --> 03:29:10.079
five four three two one. So counting down from ten

1323
03:29:10.200 --> 03:29:30.879
to one ten nine eight seven six five four three

1324
03:29:33.799 --> 03:29:45.799
two one. And maybe that was a bit too quick

1325
03:29:46.440 --> 03:29:50.319
in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast

1326
03:29:50.639 --> 03:29:59.440
for you to notice the calming of your body, maybe

1327
03:30:00.280 --> 03:30:04.079
even a little bit of pressure there, like you're counting

1328
03:30:04.200 --> 03:30:07.479
down from ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1329
03:30:08.440 --> 03:30:12.079
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1330
03:30:12.200 --> 03:30:21.559
counting down. We could try it again, but this time

1331
03:30:21.680 --> 03:30:28.079
I go this slower. This time, as you focus on

1332
03:30:28.920 --> 03:30:33.280
the whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1333
03:30:35.680 --> 03:30:44.879
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1334
03:30:45.319 --> 03:31:04.319
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine

1335
03:31:10.120 --> 03:32:39.200
eight seven six five four three two one, and just

1336
03:32:39.440 --> 03:32:45.360
notice how how you feel, generally, how your body feels.

1337
03:32:52.040 --> 03:32:59.760
It's not necessarily even about ye counting down from ten

1338
03:32:59.760 --> 03:33:10.239
to one. It's that space that you have, that space

1339
03:33:10.479 --> 03:33:31.079
between being active physically or mentally to just sitting or

1340
03:33:31.200 --> 03:33:37.000
lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything,

1341
03:33:37.280 --> 03:33:43.760
or needing to think about anything. So it opens up

1342
03:33:43.799 --> 03:33:48.239
a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap.

1343
03:33:54.520 --> 03:33:58.040
And the more I came down from ten to one,

1344
03:33:59.200 --> 03:34:07.319
the bigger that becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1345
03:34:08.719 --> 03:34:24.399
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1346
03:34:25.959 --> 03:34:35.879
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1347
03:34:42.639 --> 03:34:43.639
Allows you.

1348
03:34:46.319 --> 03:34:46.840
To just.

1349
03:34:49.799 --> 03:34:56.559
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1350
03:34:56.959 --> 03:35:07.200
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1351
03:35:07.280 --> 03:35:13.280
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1352
03:35:13.399 --> 03:35:31.239
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1353
03:35:33.639 --> 03:35:39.079
Now ten.

1354
03:35:43.440 --> 03:37:40.440
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. How

1355
03:37:40.520 --> 03:37:44.319
does your body feel.

1356
03:37:46.280 --> 03:37:46.440
Now?

1357
03:37:59.159 --> 03:38:11.040
Can you notice st Do you feel in calmer? Are

1358
03:38:11.120 --> 03:38:39.799
you feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1359
03:38:41.520 --> 03:39:03.079
just your legs, We're just gonna start focusing on your thighs.

1360
03:39:17.920 --> 03:39:22.200
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1361
03:39:23.000 --> 03:39:29.399
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1362
03:39:29.479 --> 03:39:41.639
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1363
03:39:41.760 --> 03:39:47.799
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1364
03:39:48.120 --> 03:39:54.760
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1365
03:39:54.879 --> 03:40:00.159
outer thighs, and you're inner thighs. Basically the whole all

1366
03:40:00.200 --> 03:40:07.639
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

1367
03:40:07.799 --> 03:40:18.479
goes down to your knee joints. Now, this is a

1368
03:40:18.559 --> 03:40:26.959
big area. It's a very heavy area. It's very strong,

1369
03:40:28.200 --> 03:40:33.200
probably the strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs.

1370
03:40:43.399 --> 03:40:51.120
But I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to

1371
03:40:51.319 --> 03:41:05.079
our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs

1372
03:41:05.319 --> 03:41:25.079
are to our lives, how much they actually do for

1373
03:41:25.239 --> 03:41:38.959
us all through our lives. And it may seem to

1374
03:41:39.079 --> 03:41:44.239
sound really weird, but I think that all of our

1375
03:41:44.280 --> 03:41:55.159
body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1376
03:41:55.200 --> 03:42:11.959
of love shown, a bit of acknowledgment, thank you, gratitude

1377
03:42:14.920 --> 03:42:23.719
for what our thighs do for us. And I know

1378
03:42:23.920 --> 03:42:29.959
this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why

1379
03:42:30.040 --> 03:42:32.719
am I sure that I should be out in the

1380
03:42:32.840 --> 03:42:41.360
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1381
03:42:41.399 --> 03:42:44.600
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1382
03:42:44.639 --> 03:42:47.520
doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1383
03:42:48.680 --> 03:42:57.479
Now I can't see the television from the tree. If

1384
03:42:57.520 --> 03:43:02.879
you move down to your knees gain such an important part.

1385
03:43:07.200 --> 03:43:12.280
And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1386
03:43:14.760 --> 03:43:19.840
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

1387
03:43:20.000 --> 03:43:26.479
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1388
03:43:26.520 --> 03:43:31.520
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1389
03:43:31.680 --> 03:43:38.040
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1390
03:43:38.200 --> 03:43:41.840
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1391
03:43:42.760 --> 03:43:51.959
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1392
03:43:52.799 --> 03:44:00.000
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporary,

1393
03:44:00.000 --> 03:44:09.000
already removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1394
03:44:09.079 --> 03:44:16.959
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1395
03:44:17.040 --> 03:44:22.879
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1396
03:44:22.959 --> 03:44:35.600
knees for all that they do for you, And you

1397
03:44:35.639 --> 03:44:39.520
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1398
03:44:39.719 --> 03:44:46.000
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1399
03:44:46.920 --> 03:45:04.680
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1400
03:45:04.760 --> 03:45:09.159
bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1401
03:45:09.680 --> 03:45:17.360
the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and

1402
03:45:17.440 --> 03:45:29.760
of course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even

1403
03:45:30.200 --> 03:45:36.840
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1404
03:45:37.079 --> 03:45:47.200
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1405
03:45:47.239 --> 03:45:52.760
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1406
03:45:53.079 --> 03:45:56.159
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1407
03:45:56.239 --> 03:46:01.079
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't can't see any

1408
03:46:01.120 --> 03:46:06.040
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up. But

1409
03:46:06.200 --> 03:46:12.200
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1410
03:46:18.639 --> 03:46:23.079
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1411
03:46:23.120 --> 03:46:29.120
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1412
03:46:30.239 --> 03:46:40.239
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1413
03:46:40.840 --> 03:46:49.799
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1414
03:46:51.959 --> 03:47:01.479
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1415
03:47:02.159 --> 03:47:11.520
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1416
03:47:17.840 --> 03:47:25.639
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1417
03:47:26.040 --> 03:47:29.360
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1418
03:47:29.360 --> 03:47:34.440
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1419
03:47:35.239 --> 03:47:39.079
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1420
03:47:39.159 --> 03:47:43.280
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1421
03:47:43.399 --> 03:47:55.319
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1422
03:47:57.280 --> 03:48:05.920
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

1423
03:48:06.000 --> 03:48:18.280
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1424
03:48:21.680 --> 03:48:28.239
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1425
03:48:28.360 --> 03:48:30.440
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1426
03:48:32.520 --> 03:48:37.280
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll

1427
03:48:37.280 --> 03:48:42.200
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1428
03:48:42.280 --> 03:48:43.120
on your feet.

1429
03:48:42.840 --> 03:48:43.360
A little bit.

1430
03:48:47.399 --> 03:48:51.799
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1431
03:48:51.879 --> 03:48:56.239
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1432
03:48:56.360 --> 03:49:00.360
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few and it's

1433
03:49:02.120 --> 03:49:10.920
that be focus in on your ankles, there's still that

1434
03:49:12.360 --> 03:49:26.879
sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement

1435
03:49:28.479 --> 03:49:36.440
of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1436
03:49:37.920 --> 03:49:42.760
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1437
03:49:42.920 --> 03:49:55.760
we have in our thighs, but the skin on the

1438
03:49:55.879 --> 03:50:01.360
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1439
03:50:01.440 --> 03:50:09.840
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the

1440
03:50:10.000 --> 03:50:25.760
touch sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones,

1441
03:50:26.120 --> 03:50:30.559
there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the arch trees,

1442
03:50:32.399 --> 03:50:40.360
all this stuff that's inside your thighs. And I guess

1443
03:50:40.479 --> 03:50:43.799
sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put your

1444
03:50:43.920 --> 03:50:51.200
fingers inside your thighs and a message, so you can

1445
03:50:51.280 --> 03:50:54.799
message on the outside, of course, but to be able

1446
03:50:54.840 --> 03:50:58.040
to get deep into the muscles and to be able

1447
03:50:58.040 --> 03:51:03.559
to just message inside your thighs, message in the bones

1448
03:51:04.520 --> 03:51:12.079
of your leg massage in all the veins and just

1449
03:51:12.319 --> 03:51:25.040
gently heathing your thighs, and you could move down message

1450
03:51:25.079 --> 03:51:30.600
and inside your knees, just message in those bones, but

1451
03:51:30.760 --> 03:51:37.760
with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into the

1452
03:51:37.959 --> 03:51:47.399
joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back of

1453
03:51:47.559 --> 03:51:52.479
your your knee, you know, the inside crease where your

1454
03:51:52.559 --> 03:52:00.360
knee is. It's a very sensitive area, very it's very

1455
03:52:00.479 --> 03:52:05.239
nice when you stroke it. That might be because it's

1456
03:52:05.280 --> 03:52:10.559
an area that's not really touched very often. It's almost

1457
03:52:10.680 --> 03:52:16.959
like a hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's

1458
03:52:17.000 --> 03:52:24.239
almost like a part that has a sensitivity which is

1459
03:52:24.319 --> 03:52:35.280
a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs,

1460
03:52:42.639 --> 03:52:46.879
so you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1461
03:52:47.760 --> 03:52:56.680
in your legs, that fold in between your legs. You

1462
03:52:56.760 --> 03:53:01.239
can just mess out with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1463
03:53:01.360 --> 03:53:11.840
going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

1464
03:53:11.959 --> 03:53:19.040
course field the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

1465
03:53:26.440 --> 03:53:31.760
and then as you go down to your calf muscles,

1466
03:53:32.159 --> 03:53:33.879
and that's the part I'd like to be able to

1467
03:53:34.719 --> 03:53:42.040
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1468
03:53:42.159 --> 03:53:48.239
in every single tissue of that muscle.

1469
03:53:49.399 --> 03:53:51.239
Healing every part.

1470
03:53:57.200 --> 03:54:03.280
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1471
03:54:04.159 --> 03:54:11.120
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

1472
03:54:11.239 --> 03:54:18.399
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1473
03:54:18.520 --> 03:54:22.479
precious bones that they are, because our legs are so

1474
03:54:22.680 --> 03:54:26.200
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1475
03:54:28.680 --> 03:54:42.680
and more precious of anyture on the planet. When you

1476
03:54:42.879 --> 03:54:55.079
start to think about your legs in this way, it

1477
03:54:55.159 --> 03:55:04.840
can change your perspective. It might sound a bit a

1478
03:55:04.920 --> 03:55:10.159
bit silly to start with the idea of having love

1479
03:55:10.719 --> 03:55:20.079
for your legs, shown appreciation for your thighs, wanting to

1480
03:55:20.159 --> 03:55:25.959
be able to put your hands in your thighs, the

1481
03:55:26.200 --> 03:55:32.559
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1482
03:55:32.680 --> 03:55:41.159
fingers deep in there releasing all tension. Just to show

1483
03:55:43.079 --> 03:55:50.440
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1484
03:55:50.559 --> 03:55:59.120
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1485
03:55:59.399 --> 03:56:08.639
your can't ask your ankles. The strength of your ankles,

1486
03:56:11.600 --> 03:56:16.280
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1487
03:56:16.360 --> 03:56:26.120
your legs, especially your thighs. Yet they're so strong, so flexible,

1488
03:56:29.920 --> 03:56:42.760
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

1489
03:56:42.799 --> 03:56:51.520
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1490
03:56:53.520 --> 03:56:57.920
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1491
03:56:58.040 --> 03:57:03.079
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1492
03:57:03.200 --> 03:57:09.920
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than each

1493
03:57:10.000 --> 03:57:20.639
stone double down, yet my ankles support my body all

1494
03:57:20.719 --> 03:57:27.120
the time. Orthough they do give off a sigh of

1495
03:57:27.239 --> 03:57:32.520
relief when I sit down, as you've got my whole

1496
03:57:32.559 --> 03:57:42.079
legs do my feet feet also go, my toes clap.

1497
03:57:43.280 --> 03:58:11.760
I'm so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1498
03:58:11.920 --> 03:58:18.799
know that about talking about your legs is probably possibly

1499
03:58:19.000 --> 03:58:23.719
among the most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say.

1500
03:58:24.639 --> 03:58:32.120
Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said is true.

1501
03:58:34.559 --> 03:58:49.399
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1502
03:58:55.239 --> 03:58:56.959
they deserve to relax.

1503
03:58:58.399 --> 03:58:58.760
Deeply.

1504
03:59:06.079 --> 03:59:09.399
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1505
03:59:11.639 --> 03:59:13.799
to just let go completely.

1506
03:59:31.760 --> 03:59:32.719
The legs.

1507
03:59:37.840 --> 03:59:40.360
Really can relax.

1508
03:59:48.000 --> 03:59:52.120
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1509
03:59:52.360 --> 03:59:58.280
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1510
03:59:58.360 --> 04:00:05.600
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1511
04:00:09.360 --> 04:00:20.159
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1512
04:00:21.559 --> 04:00:28.680
My hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back

1513
04:00:28.760 --> 04:00:35.360
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1514
04:00:36.479 --> 04:00:39.520
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1515
04:00:39.639 --> 04:00:44.840
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing,

1516
04:00:45.840 --> 04:00:48.440
but it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1517
04:00:48.520 --> 04:00:54.079
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1518
04:00:54.239 --> 04:00:59.280
tension has reduced a lot.

1519
04:01:15.680 --> 04:01:18.760
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

1520
04:01:18.840 --> 04:01:25.440
to one, and you can continue.

1521
04:01:26.639 --> 04:01:52.920
To fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1522
04:01:57.559 --> 04:02:25.600
four three two on relax. So I'm just going to

1523
04:02:25.719 --> 04:02:31.079
count down from five down to one, and as a countdown,

1524
04:02:32.360 --> 04:02:37.120
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1525
04:02:38.760 --> 04:02:47.760
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment.

1526
04:02:49.520 --> 04:02:53.920
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1527
04:02:54.079 --> 04:03:07.120
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1528
04:03:07.239 --> 04:03:15.559
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1529
04:03:15.639 --> 04:03:21.680
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1530
04:03:22.360 --> 04:03:39.399
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1531
04:03:48.920 --> 04:04:24.840
three one. And as you notice the gradual letting go

1532
04:04:27.239 --> 04:04:34.559
the tension in your body, you may also begin to

1533
04:04:34.840 --> 04:04:42.120
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

1534
04:04:42.559 --> 04:04:50.559
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1535
04:04:53.159 --> 04:04:58.360
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1536
04:04:58.399 --> 04:05:04.319
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1537
04:05:05.920 --> 04:05:09.559
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1538
04:05:09.719 --> 04:05:20.200
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1539
04:05:21.479 --> 04:05:29.360
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1540
04:05:29.399 --> 04:05:36.360
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1541
04:05:36.840 --> 04:05:42.120
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1542
04:05:42.159 --> 04:05:47.360
the television on, there's no music in the background, unless

1543
04:05:47.360 --> 04:05:54.799
you're listening to the recording with music. Of course, you're

1544
04:05:54.959 --> 04:05:57.079
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1545
04:05:57.159 --> 04:06:01.680
with other people. Of course, you might be. It generally

1546
04:06:01.879 --> 04:06:05.000
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1547
04:06:06.719 --> 04:06:16.760
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1548
04:06:23.360 --> 04:06:33.639
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1549
04:06:38.159 --> 04:06:44.840
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1550
04:06:45.200 --> 04:06:56.959
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1551
04:06:57.120 --> 04:07:07.440
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost know. The

1552
04:07:07.799 --> 04:07:14.479
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1553
04:07:14.680 --> 04:07:19.239
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1554
04:07:21.879 --> 04:07:31.239
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1555
04:07:31.639 --> 04:07:42.840
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1556
04:07:45.239 --> 04:07:56.079
to take advantage of this space this time. It's just

1557
04:08:00.280 --> 04:08:07.840
let go to just be here, to be in tune

1558
04:08:11.520 --> 04:08:23.600
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1559
04:08:23.920 --> 04:08:36.000
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1560
04:08:36.239 --> 04:08:42.440
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1561
04:08:42.600 --> 04:08:58.760
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1562
04:08:58.879 --> 04:09:03.159
the process of full and asleep. The actual falling asleep

1563
04:09:03.239 --> 04:09:10.040
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1564
04:09:11.360 --> 04:09:33.760
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1565
04:09:33.879 --> 04:09:40.879
can also if you choose stay focused on my voice

1566
04:09:42.680 --> 04:10:14.120
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1567
04:10:14.280 --> 04:10:41.559
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1568
04:10:41.760 --> 04:10:58.600
go completely. This time on an account, from six down

1569
04:10:58.719 --> 04:11:11.040
to one, and you can notice your mind calming down

1570
04:11:11.479 --> 04:11:23.239
more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1571
04:11:24.360 --> 04:11:34.040
feeling calm and slow and be peaceful.

1572
04:11:39.399 --> 04:13:03.040
Sex five, four, THREEA.

1573
04:14:05.600 --> 04:14:36.559
What being aware? How your mind to slow right down,

1574
04:14:39.840 --> 04:15:03.239
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1575
04:15:03.520 --> 04:15:13.479
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1576
04:15:16.079 --> 04:15:25.600
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1577
04:15:25.680 --> 04:15:40.879
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1578
04:15:41.120 --> 04:15:47.959
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

1579
04:15:52.079 --> 04:15:52.600
With love.

1580
04:15:54.360 --> 04:15:58.600
Might all petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them,

1581
04:16:00.079 --> 04:16:08.200
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts.

1582
04:16:08.040 --> 04:16:08.440
Know that.

1583
04:16:10.680 --> 04:16:14.840
You're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1584
04:16:16.079 --> 04:16:28.000
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1585
04:16:31.680 --> 04:16:43.479
For now. So as you focus on those remaining thoughts,

1586
04:16:44.719 --> 04:16:48.799
as we count down this time from seven down to one,

1587
04:16:50.360 --> 04:17:04.440
with each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1588
04:17:06.040 --> 04:17:17.879
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1589
04:17:19.319 --> 04:17:34.319
melt away and relax deeply. Of every number, those thoughts

1590
04:17:34.440 --> 04:20:10.840
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one. Yeah,

1591
04:20:17.760 --> 04:20:34.719
And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in

1592
04:20:34.920 --> 04:20:56.440
your body, we're going to focus on your hands, because

1593
04:20:56.559 --> 04:21:02.799
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relax your

1594
04:21:02.879 --> 04:21:23.639
body and mind are. And there's you focus on your

1595
04:21:23.840 --> 04:21:34.040
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1596
04:21:35.000 --> 04:21:40.280
There's no clenching of fists or dancing the fingers or

1597
04:21:40.280 --> 04:21:54.680
anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1598
04:22:01.719 --> 04:22:19.559
noticing how they feel. Because the more.

1599
04:22:21.520 --> 04:22:31.879
Relax your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and

1600
04:22:32.239 --> 04:22:33.280
the more.

1601
04:22:35.799 --> 04:22:46.760
Comforts you feel throughout your body, and you.

1602
04:22:49.440 --> 04:22:52.120
May have.

1603
04:22:56.159 --> 04:23:17.000
Already till you mind is starting.

1604
04:23:19.959 --> 04:23:21.079
To dress.

1605
04:23:34.520 --> 04:23:48.799
Like sense just on your hands and fingers, allowing them

1606
04:23:49.840 --> 04:24:03.280
to experience how real deepening of that relaxation in your

1607
04:24:03.479 --> 04:24:15.639
hands and fingers more and more relaxed.

1608
04:24:20.799 --> 04:24:22.239
With each number.

1609
04:24:29.799 --> 04:24:40.040
From eight down to one, you can almost.

1610
04:24:41.479 --> 04:24:51.079
Feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands

1611
04:24:52.159 --> 04:25:13.360
and fingers becoming ye more relaxing with each number you hear,

1612
04:25:17.399 --> 04:25:38.200
going down eight down to one, drifting, drifting again, starting

1613
04:25:38.479 --> 04:25:51.239
with number eight.

1614
04:26:28.719 --> 04:27:58.760
Seven six f four.

1615
04:28:18.200 --> 04:29:47.159
Three. Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

1616
04:29:47.239 --> 04:29:58.079
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

1617
04:30:02.840 --> 04:30:10.319
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1618
04:30:10.559 --> 04:30:17.239
how you just normally feel when you take away all

1619
04:30:17.440 --> 04:30:24.399
that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

1620
04:30:24.799 --> 04:30:40.440
stress and worrying and overthinking, the anxiety, tension, just generally

1621
04:30:40.680 --> 04:30:46.680
thinking about stuff. And you take that away, which is

1622
04:30:46.760 --> 04:30:47.200
what we do.

1623
04:30:47.959 --> 04:30:49.040
What we do now.

1624
04:30:55.280 --> 04:31:06.520
You're left with a real sense of peacefulness, which comes

1625
04:31:06.680 --> 04:31:16.000
to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1626
04:31:20.399 --> 04:31:28.760
a feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside

1627
04:31:28.840 --> 04:31:41.000
yourself and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1628
04:31:43.959 --> 04:31:49.319
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1629
04:31:51.479 --> 04:31:57.799
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1630
04:32:02.520 --> 04:32:09.520
where you can accept yourself for who you are, the

1631
04:32:09.639 --> 04:32:16.120
place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

1632
04:32:20.159 --> 04:32:28.719
the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1633
04:32:28.840 --> 04:32:38.399
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate.

1634
04:32:39.159 --> 04:32:40.200
Who you are.

1635
04:32:49.079 --> 04:32:51.600
That sense of gratitude.

1636
04:32:53.920 --> 04:32:55.680
Is in the air all around you.

1637
04:33:03.319 --> 04:33:11.159
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1638
04:33:11.520 --> 04:33:26.799
healing energy soaking into your body, healing energy soaking into

1639
04:33:26.919 --> 04:33:36.880
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1640
04:33:40.639 --> 04:33:47.520
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1641
04:33:53.439 --> 04:33:58.040
and you start to realize that actually, that healing energy,

1642
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it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1643
04:34:07.439 --> 04:34:18.720
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1644
04:34:18.840 --> 04:34:29.959
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1645
04:34:30.200 --> 04:34:42.080
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1646
04:34:45.000 --> 04:34:52.520
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

1647
04:34:52.680 --> 04:35:02.319
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

1648
04:35:02.759 --> 04:35:12.959
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1649
04:35:13.080 --> 04:35:19.840
to feel, not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1650
04:35:21.759 --> 04:35:29.240
There's your health improves, not just your physical health, but

1651
04:35:29.360 --> 04:35:36.799
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

1652
04:35:36.919 --> 04:35:44.479
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

1653
04:35:45.000 --> 04:35:53.919
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

1654
04:35:59.000 --> 04:36:05.400
Maybe things mister used to cause you to feel anger

1655
04:36:09.240 --> 04:36:19.319
no longer have that power to control you the way

1656
04:36:19.400 --> 04:36:27.439
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1657
04:36:28.479 --> 04:36:40.880
that you're the one who decides what affects you, You're

1658
04:36:41.400 --> 04:36:51.279
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

1659
04:36:52.200 --> 04:37:07.080
you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments and healing,

1660
04:37:09.680 --> 04:37:18.240
continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1661
04:37:24.159 --> 04:37:32.400
including of course your ability to relax so much easier

1662
04:37:37.400 --> 04:37:46.479
and sleep in. It's the most natural thing in the

1663
04:37:46.639 --> 04:37:56.119
world to you, because falling asleep is something.

1664
04:37:55.840 --> 04:37:56.959
That you've done.

1665
04:38:00.159 --> 04:38:01.319
Many times.

1666
04:38:02.680 --> 04:38:08.319
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1667
04:38:09.840 --> 04:38:11.560
as we all were, with.

1668
04:38:12.159 --> 04:38:23.360
The ability to fall asleep naturally. We're born with that

1669
04:38:24.240 --> 04:38:35.799
ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1670
04:38:41.759 --> 04:38:46.560
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep and we

1671
04:38:46.639 --> 04:38:51.200
don't even want to try to take us stay awake.

1672
04:38:52.560 --> 04:38:56.000
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

1673
04:38:56.240 --> 04:39:00.279
or holiday or something we look forward to want to

1674
04:39:00.319 --> 04:39:05.400
go to sleep. But the more you want to stay awake,

1675
04:39:07.639 --> 04:39:14.680
the more we just start to drift. And the more

1676
04:39:15.360 --> 04:39:18.560
you fight it drifting, the more you try to stop

1677
04:39:18.599 --> 04:39:24.000
yourself and drift in a safe the deeper and stronger

1678
04:39:24.080 --> 04:39:35.279
that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

1679
04:39:35.560 --> 04:39:44.959
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but

1680
04:39:45.080 --> 04:39:59.360
it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes

1681
04:39:59.479 --> 04:40:04.880
as we get older in life. Perhaps at times we

1682
04:40:05.240 --> 04:40:18.799
have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully

1683
04:40:19.240 --> 04:40:29.119
pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1684
04:40:40.479 --> 04:40:48.000
It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1685
04:40:48.040 --> 04:40:48.319
it is.

1686
04:40:48.520 --> 04:40:49.000
It is just.

1687
04:40:52.520 --> 04:41:03.919
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1688
04:41:04.040 --> 04:41:14.279
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1689
04:41:14.560 --> 04:41:22.639
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1690
04:41:23.639 --> 04:41:32.080
you have given me permission for my words to effect

1691
04:41:34.560 --> 04:41:46.520
you in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up.

1692
04:41:51.639 --> 04:41:52.200
Your mind.

1693
04:41:54.040 --> 04:42:14.799
Two useful and healing suggestions that can have such an

1694
04:42:14.880 --> 04:42:27.159
amazing effect on how you feel right now, as well

1695
04:42:29.919 --> 04:42:37.759
as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1696
04:42:39.560 --> 04:42:48.639
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1697
04:42:53.200 --> 04:43:06.919
transforming your life in the positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1698
04:43:07.520 --> 04:43:13.720
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1699
04:43:14.080 --> 04:43:31.240
you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

1700
04:43:31.479 --> 04:43:47.599
you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, this feels so nice.

1701
04:43:56.880 --> 04:44:09.599
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1702
04:44:10.959 --> 04:44:29.919
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1703
04:44:30.080 --> 04:44:41.159
had to find you're more relaxed physically and in your

1704
04:44:41.240 --> 04:44:51.319
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower.

1705
04:44:53.599 --> 04:44:57.240
It's just that your mind would be less flocked up

1706
04:44:58.319 --> 04:45:08.080
with unnecessary there a negativity, because from now on, your

1707
04:45:08.279 --> 04:45:11.639
mind rejects negativity.

1708
04:45:15.680 --> 04:45:19.319
From now on, you're going to start noticing.

1709
04:45:22.040 --> 04:45:37.479
When negativity arises. You can just say stop, stop, and

1710
04:45:37.599 --> 04:45:52.560
then negativity will turn around and leave your alone. Stop

1711
04:45:56.799 --> 04:46:11.840
and then negativity would disappear. And as you notice that

1712
04:46:12.119 --> 04:46:20.119
you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1713
04:46:26.279 --> 04:46:27.439
You can now.

1714
04:46:30.799 --> 04:46:36.639
Congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

1715
04:46:38.400 --> 04:46:43.840
You are the one that has opened your mind up

1716
04:46:44.560 --> 04:46:52.599
to the simple facts, and you can feel more relaxed

1717
04:46:52.720 --> 04:46:54.240
in your body and.

1718
04:46:54.439 --> 04:46:55.080
In your mind.

1719
04:47:01.319 --> 04:47:03.479
You've opened your mind up to.

1720
04:47:05.799 --> 04:47:12.360
The birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1721
04:47:13.400 --> 04:47:27.919
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling, don't you think.

1722
04:47:30.520 --> 04:47:31.200
Feels nice?

1723
04:47:31.319 --> 04:47:40.639
Doesn't it? To feel calm full, that healing energy is

1724
04:47:40.799 --> 04:47:51.639
spreading through your body in your mind to spend time

1725
04:47:51.880 --> 04:48:02.680
in a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1726
04:48:09.159 --> 04:48:19.040
Negativity is bad, It's bad, it's not allowed. Entrigue doesn't doesn't,

1727
04:48:19.119 --> 04:48:27.560
this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity

1728
04:48:27.799 --> 04:48:41.959
has no place in your life, which makes room for

1729
04:48:42.279 --> 04:49:13.799
more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace. Who's nice,

1730
04:49:13.880 --> 04:49:14.240
doesn't it?

1731
04:49:16.119 --> 04:49:20.319
Just let go.

1732
04:49:23.959 --> 04:49:24.560
Everything?

1733
04:49:38.319 --> 04:49:42.599
Rum the count down now from twenty down to one.

1734
04:49:46.040 --> 04:49:48.840
He can continue to relax.

1735
04:49:50.599 --> 04:49:52.759
If you choose, you can.

1736
04:49:55.639 --> 04:49:58.279
Career to sleep.

1737
04:50:01.799 --> 04:50:12.959
That renumber he heard me say, you can fill twice

1738
04:50:13.159 --> 04:50:20.159
is relaxed. Or if you cheeses you can feel twice

1739
04:50:20.479 --> 04:51:01.080
a sleeping now twenty nineteen eighteen said team.

1740
04:51:08.400 --> 04:51:26.240
Sick thing six thing w tam.

1741
04:51:35.919 --> 04:51:45.000
Team told.

1742
04:51:51.759 --> 04:51:52.200
What's that?

1743
04:52:00.080 --> 04:52:42.000
And nine eighty six, I.

1744
04:52:49.200 --> 04:53:23.880
Wheah, it's your time.

1745
04:53:27.000 --> 04:53:33.439
Just take a break, your time to.

1746
04:53:36.279 --> 04:53:41.799
Relax, to allow.

1747
04:53:41.639 --> 04:53:54.599
Your mind to slow down, to give yourself a permission.

1748
04:53:58.840 --> 04:53:59.520
To take.

1749
04:54:05.200 --> 04:54:14.000
From everything. And you're the only person they can.

1750
04:54:14.080 --> 04:54:20.119
Make that decision. You're the only person who can actually

1751
04:54:20.279 --> 04:54:21.200
tell your mind.

1752
04:54:26.200 --> 04:54:27.080
Just reacts.

1753
04:54:35.159 --> 04:54:50.520
To just take some time off so that you.

1754
04:54:50.639 --> 04:54:52.759
Can focus on your body.

1755
04:54:53.720 --> 04:55:08.720
I think, and don't you how you feel physically and in.

1756
04:55:08.799 --> 04:55:17.400
The process of this body scared where you focus on different.

1757
04:55:17.200 --> 04:55:18.400
Parts of your body.

1758
04:55:24.560 --> 04:55:32.040
Those parts and you focus on and observe even though

1759
04:55:32.200 --> 04:55:37.200
you're not purposely requesting.

1760
04:55:38.720 --> 04:55:43.680
For the loose parts of your body to relax, it's

1761
04:55:43.840 --> 04:55:50.159
kind of expected. You expect when you listen to your

1762
04:55:50.279 --> 04:56:03.119
voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening

1763
04:56:03.279 --> 04:56:12.959
to me, your attention it's focused on my words.

1764
04:56:18.080 --> 04:56:19.119
It's my words.

1765
04:56:20.080 --> 04:56:20.759
I you.

1766
04:56:23.240 --> 04:56:24.319
To focus.

1767
04:56:28.240 --> 04:56:30.599
On those parts of your body.

1768
04:56:34.119 --> 04:56:44.360
The focus increases, it's actually.

1769
04:56:46.840 --> 04:57:20.119
Arms your mind, my charms. Now, buddy, relaxes and calms

1770
04:57:20.279 --> 04:57:44.360
down my mind. Relaxes. Started the pots.

1771
04:57:44.279 --> 04:57:45.400
One the body.

1772
04:57:51.520 --> 04:58:14.959
Fear, no storming through the body, push, downt gresstention. He

1773
04:58:17.319 --> 04:59:35.200
who thought the schemed inside a woman station way