July 13, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land and I am sitting in my

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chair with my favorite little doggie, Finney Sidney. Oh he's

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colored up to me. I'm just stroking him. Oh yeah.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes.

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I thought i'd do a Sunday subbery as it's Sunday,

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so like a summary of last week, not a summary

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of Sunday, because I haven't done much today except sleep really,

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although I did get up very very early this morning

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to watch the boxing. So here's a summary. Let's see

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where do we start. Should we start Monday or should

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we start yesday to Yeah, let's start Monday and work

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awaited today. So I can't remember anything that happened on

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Sunday last week, so Monday. You know what? This is? Weird? Okay?

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The days seem to be mixing together, or rather the

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weeks are mixing together, and I'm not one hundred percent

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sure what happened last week and what happened this week,

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so I might get it a little bit wrong, a

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little bit wrong. So the day is Sunday, the something

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is it the twelfth of July? I think something like

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that and it's about three. It's twenty to three in

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the afternoon. I got the windows open because it's quite

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it's a stuffy day to day. It's like it's warm,

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but it's stuffy. It's overcast. The sun's not there. Obviously

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it's there, but there's no sunshine really, but it's very stuffy,

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very like there's less oxygen and the normal, which is

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probably a weird thing to say. However, based on that,

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I'm wondering whether or not we're going to have a

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big old thunderstorm tonight. I hope so. And I like

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a big thunderstorm. Even Vinnie doesn't care about them. Honestly,

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I know it's a bit selfish because I like something

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that a lot of people don't like, but I do.

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I love a thunderstorm, a really, really loud one. Yeah,

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So I think maybe it's I don't know, I don't

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know why, I just do. There's something, Ever, since I

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was a kid, I quite like the idea that nature

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is just way more powerful than anything humans can produce.

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As far as you know, just every now and then,

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it seems that nature just pops his little head up

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and says just a little reminder to the humans. You

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know I can do this in a second. Something that

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you can create, I can. You know, it's I don't know,

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just it's very powerful, isn't it? Nature? But naturally? But

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at the same time I don't as I don't like

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things that cause damage and harm. But I guess because

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we don't really get that much here, which is nice,

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but just a big thunderstorm or a particularly winded day,

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it's something to be respected, isn't it. Really? I would

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say nature. I was thinking about, you know, the old

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argument about what what instincts we're born with nature versus nurture.

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So what we talk compared to what do we learn,

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you know, compared to what natural instincts do we have?

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And dogs have been studied for this, dogs, rats, animals

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and stuff any humans, of course, but the idea that

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a dog has that it made me rethink it because

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I was thought that dogs naturally, you know, a dog

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or pockets leg. A male dog would cock its leg

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to go for weeies. It will kick behind it after

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going to a toilet to cover up because you know,

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to keep away predators and stuff and not know why

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they're doing it, and it's instinctive. But with Vinnie it's

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not instinctive because he had no brothers or sisters. When

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he was born. He was around no dogs, really, he

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had a female. He was around his mum. So when

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he went to a toilet, he crouched, which I guess

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is what his mum did. And I had him at

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ten months old, so he never cocked his leg and

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he never did the old like, you know, kicking back

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after going to a toilet, didn't do any of that stuff.

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Once he started going out for walks with Logi, my

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friend's dog downstairs, he started copying them. He started cocking

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his legs, started kicking. The weird thing about is ill.

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He'll go to toilet and then we'll turn around and

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he'll keep behind him, which is a complete different direction.

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So there's no point to always doing it, but he's just

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learned it so that that. Yeah, he had about eleven

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months with Logi, No, not eleven mode more than that,

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didn't he because my friend left in November and I

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had Logi to for another three months to the end

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of February I think, or was it March, I think February,

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So he had over I mean there three months of

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living with him solidly upstairs here, him and Logi together,

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but before that they would see each other every day,

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go for walks every day, so he copied him, but

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after living it like it didn't actually get on so

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well because Vinnie was Vinnie wanted his He wanted his

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own space, and this was his home. He didn't want

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He liked Vinni, he liked Logi visiting, but there's certain

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times when he came to bedtime, Logi took up needed

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a whole bed because of a big old dog. Vinnie

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was trying to push Logi off. He couldn't physically do it.

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Even I couldn't physically do it. It was too strong

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and heavy, and Vinnie did not like that. That's when

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he started sleeping on the pillow next to me, because

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before that he always used to sleep at the bottom

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of the bed or maybe at the side, like cuddle

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up to me when I was asleep, because he didn't

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like to cuddle up to me when I was awake.

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Doesn't like to show any kind of affection. Weird, weird

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old sausage is And so that's the pillow next to me.

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That was kind of the only space he had, or

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right behind him near the wall. Because Logi took up

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literally half the bed. Vinnie takes up half the bed,

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but he doesn't need half the bed. LOGI needed half

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the bed because he's big old thing. What's that guy

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I do with the last week? I don't know who

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expect me to keep track of what I'm saying. I'm

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sorry about the noise, but it's like a crush in

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the garden. I can't do anything about it. I'm not

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closing the windows. And at the same time, I do

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also want to make recordings, so it's one of those

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either I don't make a recording. Isn't it really weird?

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You know when you've got an adult that's really loud,

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and you've got a kid with that adult all the time,

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and then the kid starts being really loud verbally, then

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the adult gets upset with a kid for being loud. Now,

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that is funny. That's a funny old situation. Bless them.

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Loud people raise loud people. It's just because we just learned.

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It's the whole nature and nurture what everything as well,

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isn't it. It's sometimes I feel lucky that I moved

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around so much when I was very young, that I

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wasn't with the same people I wasn't with the same adults.

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And you know, it might seem weird because technically I

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probably lucky wasn't the right word. I didn't get caught

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up in that copying other people's behavior. So I didn't

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grow up like my dad, or like my mom or

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like my step mom. I didn't. I didn't grow up

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like them or like the nuns, although I do sometimes

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like to dress up and pace around with a big ruler,

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big bit of wood. But other than that, I'm not

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saying I wasn't influenced by them, because kids are influenced

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by what's around them, aren't they. And I think all

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humans are really to be honest, I know I am

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to a degree, but I didn't end up being like

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a little carbon copy or even even partially a carbon

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copy of a parent. So I didn't have the especially

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if you think back to the the era that I

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grew up, like the seventies, So I didn't grow up

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racist or homophobic, or particularly sexist or anything like that.

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I didn't have those strong views about people from other

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countries and stuff, because I've just been I traveled, not traveled,

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but I've been around. You know, I was in this

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little town at the age of seven, I was in

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this little town and I was hearing people be I

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don't know, not very friendly towards non white people, let's

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just say. And this was standard in the seventies, standard

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almost kind of just flippant in a flippant way, not

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necessarily in a bullian way, just about people that were

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non white. Now there was only I think I met

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one black person. There's one black person in my school,

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or he was a mixed race, and there was probably

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one black person in the town. The only Chinese people

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in the town were people that had a Chinese takeaway.

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The only Indian people the people that had Indian restaurants.

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It was that kind of town, you know, early eighties,

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late seventies, early eighties. It's very like ninety nine point

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nine point nine point nine point nine point nine nine

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percent Caucasian. So I go to that town and people

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are being all It wasn't just the people, but on

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television it was a very kind of prejudice. Being prejudiced

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was just okay. It was standard. It was on family entertainment.

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Was racist and homophobic. It was a standard thing. And

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I probably laughed, Yeah, I did laugh at it as well.

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I was a kid, I laughed. But the difference is

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I had been I knew I'd had black friends when

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I was in the kids home. In fact, my girlfriend

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was black. So I didn't have that attitude. I didn't

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have that kind of a lot of people in the

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town had never actually seen someone that was non white

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in the flesh, which is weird to imagine, but it's

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probably true actually, other than on television or in movies.

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So I didn't have that. I don't know, I just

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didn't have that attitude, that kind of that little brain

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defect that I think people that grew up in that

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time had a little bit if they lived in a

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completely kind of little, tiny little town in the mid

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of nowhere, where you know, obviously, if you're in London

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it's different, or if you're in a big city it's multicultural,

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and it has been for for a long long time,

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since probably the fifties. I was going to say something

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heart might mildly intelligent then, but I forgot what it was. Yeah,

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I don't know. I just I don't mean know what

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I'm trying to say here. Just I don't know why

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thinking of nature and nurture, because we're not born like that,

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are we was it the two things that babies are

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born with two fears the fear of falling and loud noises.

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That seems to be the only two. I don't think

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that's true, though. Everyone's got their own thing and it.

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Babies don't like being left on their own, do they? Sometimes?

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I was quite a good father figure. Once in nineteen

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ninety five, I was dating this lady. She was I

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think she was two years old than me. I was

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twenty five, she was twenty seven. She had two kids

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wanted to She had a daughter who was about I

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don't know, four five, and she had a son who

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was probably about a year old. It's basically a baby still.

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And that little boy bonded with me, like really bonded,

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like just automatically, I don't know why. And I used

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to be able to send him to sleep, so when

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he cried, it put his arms out for me to

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pick him up. Is like he connected with me. And

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I used to sing to him and it's I'd sing

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Michael Jackson songs and he'd fall asleep. And one time

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I went away, I was in Buttling's and I got

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a phone call from her dad, my girlfriend's dad, saying

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that the little boy, the little baby was in hospital

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because he had an asthma attack. So I come back

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to London and I get in there. So I go

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into the baby ward, which is just a weird place

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to be, and the first thing the little boy does

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is put his arms out for me to pick him up, smiling,

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so happy to see me, and it was weird, Like, wow,

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imagine if other human beings were happy to see me.

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Imagine having that kind of welcome from everyone that you

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meet in life. Life, you would just be almost blissful,

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wouldn't it. It'd be weird. Yeah, it's definitely weird, especially

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if you Yeah, that would be weird, wouldn't it. Imagine

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you were robbing someone's house and they came in and

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caught you and they were so excited to see you,

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Oh how are you? That'd be weird. Not that I

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rob people's houses, although funny enough, the lady downstairs who've

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got her flat robbed about three months ago. She found

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out who did it as a local neighbor. According to her,

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and apparently that same neighbor. Again, I don't have proof

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of this, but actually the dots fitted together because she

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knew stuff that she wouldn't know otherwise she you know

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that I've not said to her. The same neighbor was

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going around to people saying that I was a convicted

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I've been to prison for something really bad. And so

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the neighbor downstairs went online. Apparently the website can go

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on to check this stuff out. And it's weird. It's

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that really I didn't know what to do with that

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information because this is someone that I actually visited. I

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visited this person in the hospital last week, not not.

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This isn't Uncle Sausages. This is another neighbor. When if

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it was Uncle Sausages, I wouldn't be visiting them anymore

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if I thought he'd said something like that about me. Yeah,

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that was weird. I said, like, okay, well, if that

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was true, then I would not be living opposite of

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school for a fact. You know, there's a certain laws

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about stuff like that. But then it kind of like

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we had this conversation with me and the neighbor downstairs,

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and she said, yeah, but if she's going around telling people,

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you could end up really in a bad place, a

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bad spot, you know. I said yeah, And it kind

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of explains why some people are used to say to me,

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do now don't because it's the old saying, isn't it

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like the old no smoke about fire, that idiotic phrase. So, yeah,

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it's weird. I still trying to process this. It's not

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the best time to be trying to process any other

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serious stuff with what's going on with Uncle Sausages. I

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did not know what to do with that information. Also

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to find out that apparently the neighbor downstairs knows the

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person that broke into a flat. She's like a friend

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of a friend, and he didn't notice her flat. So

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he's gone and told her who organized it, which was

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the other neighbor. So I don't know she's going to

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go to the police. I've got no idea. I can't.

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It's not for me to get involved in that stuff.

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And also it's not for me to know what's what

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is it. I don't know what's true what's not true.

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But has absolutely blown my mind just thinking I'm walking

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around and people are thinking that of me. It's just absolutely, Yeah,

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it's weird. I should move on. I just it's all

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I've been thinking about since Friday. Yeah, Friday, that's when

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I Yeah, Friday, no Saturday, Saturday night, no Friday, Friday. Yeah.

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So since Friday afternoon about five point thirty, I remember roughly,

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because Uncle, well actually it was Auntie Landlord came around

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and got me to sign that form, that legal document

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that Auntie the uncle Sausages wanted me to sign. So

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I did that, and then what's her name called me

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up asked me for something. I said, a couple of

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black bags or something. As I went down, and she

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started telling me all this stuff. Why why didn't you

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you know? It's like wow, Because I said to her

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she was saying this stuff, I said, well, I don't know.

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I get on quite well with her, and she said, oh,

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you should hear what she said about you. And then

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when she was telling me, actually was things that she

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wouldn't know that makes sense, things that I've not because

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I've had already any conversations with the neighbor downstairs, hardly

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any conversations at all since she moved in. Helped her

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out a few times, actually, but I've never really had

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any sit down, proper normal conversations. And this was the

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first time that we sat and talked for like half

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an hour, hadn't hadn't done that before, And she knew

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things that she wouldn't know unless you'd actually spoken to

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the other person. There's no way she'd know that stuff.

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It's very unusual, very unusual situation. I'm thinking that with

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people like that about here. I was like, I need

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to get out of here. I said to her, why

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didn't you tell me when when she when you found out?

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When she said it, she said, I was going to,

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but you just let me know that you had bipolar,

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and I didn't want to. I was worried what your

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reaction would be. I said, I still got bipolar. You know,

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it wasn't just the weekend thing. I still here. And

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I mean generally my reactions were internal most of the time,

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not always, but most of the time. And you know,

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it's kind of limited, limited to what I can do

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in these situations. But yeah, so that that's probably one

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of the biggest things that's happened this week for me,

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is hearing that how much of it is gossip, how

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much of it is true, how much of it but

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a lot of it was based on stuff that my

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neighbor would not know. She wouldn't know. There's no way

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in the world she could know just say it one

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more time. She couldn't have known, which because I've not

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talked to anyone else. I don't talk to anyone anymore

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because my friend Luke's gone, so don't have conversations with

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people about what's going on locally. We used to chat

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about stuff. I suppose we'll have a little bit of

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a gossip, but generally, you know, since then, I don't

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have contact with pretty much anyone at all around here,

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apart from people I bump into when I'm walking over

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any Yeah, don't have had anyone knock on the door

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or ring me. But there's this one person that I

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see that I don't see it very often, but i'd

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usually see a couple of times a week actually, And

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as I said, I visited her in hospital when she

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was lying there on oxygen. I mean, you could argue

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while I was already I was at hospital anyway, so

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fair enough. But it's still, you know, it's a nice

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little bit of effort. I was going to give her

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a lift home as well, but she didn't get kicked

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out in time. She didn't get a parole. But the

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idea that someone's it's not even that they're going around

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if telling lots of people, you just say it to

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one person, that's enough to completely destroy everything. For me.

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I suppose I'm lucky that the person she told didn't

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believe her, but at the same time still checked because

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it can be checked. You could check. There's a the

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whole website devoted to this subject. I've never even had

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I know, I don't drive, but I've never been arrested,

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never had a parking fine, never even had what do

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you call it a warning? Is it a warning about anything?

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I've never put in trouble for putting a cigarette out

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on the pavement. I've you know, it's literally nothing my

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whole entire life. Saying that. When I was seven, I

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did get in trouble with the police, but that was

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because of stealing from the school. But the police didn't

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do anything to me. They just made me stand up

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and be humiliated. That was when i was Yeah, I

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was seven. But other than that, I've yeah, I've never

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had any nothing. I've got a very clean record, and

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without getting into obvious statements, I could not have been

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a counselor a therapeutic counselor counseling children adults for charities

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such as mind if I had, or, to be fair,

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possibly any criminal record. I mean, they can kind of

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override some of it. You know, if I had a

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criminal record for I'm trying to think something completely unrelated

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to human beings thirty years ago, you know, something like that,

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maybe they can kind of override it and say, well,

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fair enough, it's a long time ago. It's not I'm

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trying to think of a scenario robin a bank. Maybe now,

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it's probably not a good one. Is it. Stealing a

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tractor to carry home some pebbles from the beach for

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my petty. I'm just thinking something like that. It's like, Okay,

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I stole attract I didn't, I'm saying, But like, okay,

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stole attractor is taking pebbles from a beach, stealing. Technically

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they're not owned by anyone, I guess. But then you know,

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steal the tractor. It's not good. It's against the law.

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Get in trouble for that, get arrested, have a fine.

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The worst is going to be a suspended sentence, I imagine.

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But what I did know, I've got I got a

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friend who anyway, I won't go into that. Yeah, so

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that's very very unusual. I can't live in the mode

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of like wanting to just get out of here now,

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move away. But I can't there's no nowhere to go.

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But at the same time, I guess it. At least

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it's taken my attention off of Uncle's sausages for a

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few hours. Ah wow. He's phoning me up quite a

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lot when I'm not there, and cause I gave him

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the an iPad to watch his TV, you know, the

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sports channels, and he's struggling a little bit working the thing,

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and I said, I showed him how to do it,

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but I do understand that a new thing can take

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a while to learn, and he's getting confused with it,

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and maybe just play round of it, just practice, open

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up the different apps like that, you know, because it's

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not really any different from his TV. It's just instead

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of using a remote control, he's just touching the screen instead.

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But it's Yeah. He was saying something about the nurses.

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They're always walking off to go and pray, which has

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thrown him off a bit. And then he was talking

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about nurses on horseback and I thought an award. He

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said no. I said, well, what nurses on horses I

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don't really know what you're saying, so I'll try and

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find out what that was about. He said, they're on TV.

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I said they're on TV. Okay, really was confused with

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that today. And then he talks about something, and then

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I'm not sure what he's talking about because i can't

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hear him very well because he's like, I think almost

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he's whispering to me because he doesn't want to other

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people to hear what's saying. Maybe or he doesn't want

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to disturb other people. I don't know. And I've noticed

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that he doesn't talk loudly anymore. He used to talk quiet,

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not it wasn't loud, but he was very yeah, probably

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above normal normal volume level. When he got animated and

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he was talking, it was never quiet. Now he's really

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quiet when he talks. I have to get my face

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really close to him. I mean literally, I have to

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get my ear inside his mouth in order for me

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to hear what he's saying, which is a weird visual.

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And it didn't used to be like that, I mean

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literally two weeks ago. He wasn't like that. Two weeks ago,

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he was with his neighbor Del Boy, who is the

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bloke in the bed next to him, Uncle Sausages, was

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walking around talking about football and stuff, and he was animated,

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and he was talking loudly. And you know, enthusiastically, and

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now he's just sitting there. A del boy left, so

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he got out of the hospital, and it's just it's

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kind of it feels a little bit like he's surrendered

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Uncle Sausages. He's just surrendered to the situation, which I

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understand is possibly part of the process. And he's he's

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done problems with his tummy, not really quite bad problems

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with his tummy, which he didn't he was and experiencing

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before he went in there, although maybe it was a

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little bit, but it's you know, it's progressed. And he

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was saying, oh, I've got a tummy buget must have

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called it from from the hospital, which is possible, but

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no one else has got it. And well, it's kind

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of I think it's part of what he's going through

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and and also could be a reaction to the medication

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and stuff. I just wish I could just pick him

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up and take him out. You're not even allowed to out

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of the hospital ward anymore, and he's in the discharge ward,

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so they're waiting for him to be I might just

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call this about Uncle's Uncle's Sausages update, because that way,

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if you don't want to hear about Uncle Sausages. You

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can just ignore this because not everyone's going to want

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to listen to recordings that are like this, because you know,

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even though I'm not going to go into any kind

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of graphic detail or whatsoever it might, it's not necessarily

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something people are going to want to listen to. So

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I will just put down Uncle Sausages Update. That's fair,

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isn't it. Yeah, So if you get the Sunday Summary,

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unlet's record it Sunday Summary, Uncle Sausages Update.

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Ah.

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Maybe I don't know, doesn't really matter, does anyone? Does

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anyone even bother worried about what the titles are of

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the recordings? Wait a minute, that's supposed to be Mondays,

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but were in objects? Does anyone care? I don't know.

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I just don't know. I don't know. It's weird. He

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was moaning about the food. He's still moaning about the food,

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and he's I think there's a little bit of a

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clash of cultures there because he's a you know, he's

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nearly eighty years old. He's got his religion. He hasn't

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really spent any time around people with an outwardly different

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religion to him, and you wouldn't even know what religion

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he was because he doesn't dress up or anything. So

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I think that's some kind it's a little bit of

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a bit of a shock to his system to be

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around people that are dressed differently, and he's never been

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in hospital before, so it's kind of I think that

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it's a little bit of a culture shock being around

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people that are maybe speaking very different with a very

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different accent, and I think communication wise, he's struggling with

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that because I think they might struggle with him because

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he's got a very strong Irish accent, and some of

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his nurses and doctors have got a very strong accent

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from where they were born. So I think it's a

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little bit hard for both sides to understand what each

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other is saying. And because he can't understand, sometimes he's

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not asking for people to repeat. And I said to him,

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look if you don't, if you don't know understand what

467
00:40:00.519 --> 00:40:04.239
someone's saying, maybe because they're not speaking loud enough. He's

468
00:40:04.280 --> 00:40:09.519
also I think he's a little bit he is. Hearing

469
00:40:09.559 --> 00:40:11.920
isn't as good as it used to be. He struggles

470
00:40:11.920 --> 00:40:18.400
to hear me on the phone, and how many people's

471
00:40:18.480 --> 00:40:20.199
hearing is as good as it used to be when

472
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:24.280
they're seventy eight realistically, you know. So I'm not saying

473
00:40:24.320 --> 00:40:30.159
anything prerogative. I'm not saying anything peroxide about him. So

474
00:40:31.960 --> 00:40:36.599
I said, look, I've got sausages. Just you can't ask

475
00:40:36.639 --> 00:40:39.719
people to repeat themselves, or you can even say I

476
00:40:39.719 --> 00:40:42.639
don't understand what you're saying. As long as you don't,

477
00:40:42.760 --> 00:40:46.639
you know, don't say in a horrible way, but I

478
00:40:46.639 --> 00:40:52.280
don't understand what you're saying. And hopefully if that person

479
00:40:52.360 --> 00:40:57.559
has any communication skills, they will speak a little bit

480
00:40:57.559 --> 00:41:01.199
clearer and a little bit slower, and maybe a little

481
00:41:01.199 --> 00:41:04.679
bit louder, maybe or get closer to the person. It

482
00:41:05.119 --> 00:41:12.119
just seems like the obvious thing to do, although I've

483
00:41:12.159 --> 00:41:15.519
seen this so many times over the years, people with

484
00:41:15.639 --> 00:41:20.719
the same accent, like a really strong accent, not being

485
00:41:20.760 --> 00:41:26.840
able to understand each other. I've seen people from Glasgow, Liverpool,

486
00:41:27.119 --> 00:41:31.039
Newcastle talking to each other and they're talking so fast,

487
00:41:31.400 --> 00:41:36.559
and the other person says, huh what now. The person

488
00:41:36.599 --> 00:41:41.480
then repeats exactly the same sentence as they did before,

489
00:41:42.239 --> 00:41:45.920
in exactly the same way, at exactly the same speed,

490
00:41:46.519 --> 00:41:51.280
with the exact same amount of mumbling. And then a

491
00:41:51.320 --> 00:41:55.639
person uh, and then they can kind of put it

492
00:41:55.679 --> 00:42:02.480
together after hearing it two or three times. I've noticed

493
00:42:02.480 --> 00:42:07.400
that for thirty forty years that people have the tends

494
00:42:07.440 --> 00:42:10.400
I say people with some people have a tendency of

495
00:42:11.639 --> 00:42:15.559
they just repeat themselves exactly how they did before. But

496
00:42:15.639 --> 00:42:19.320
the fact that the person listening to them didn't understand

497
00:42:19.360 --> 00:42:27.559
what they said or didn't catch the full sentence means maybe,

498
00:42:27.679 --> 00:42:32.400
you know, as I said, like speaking a little bit clearer.

499
00:42:34.039 --> 00:42:37.199
But I noticed that when people, for example, someone says

500
00:42:37.440 --> 00:42:39.159
I had a friend who used to sort of talk,

501
00:42:39.280 --> 00:42:44.679
and then he'd almost it's like his sentence would fall

502
00:42:44.719 --> 00:42:48.239
asleep at the end. So yeah, I'm going to head

503
00:42:48.239 --> 00:42:53.599
down to the what I'm now just going to head

504
00:42:53.599 --> 00:43:00.519
down to the world and it just drop off. Is

505
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:02.599
like the last bit, the last word or the last

506
00:43:02.599 --> 00:43:12.440
two words were almost like fall asleep. Now, if someone

507
00:43:12.800 --> 00:43:15.679
asks me to repeat myself, because I'm perfect, of course

508
00:43:16.440 --> 00:43:22.360
I would think, oh, they didn't understand what I said,

509
00:43:22.679 --> 00:43:25.920
so maybe I'm mumbled, and I mumble everyone I'm imagine

510
00:43:25.960 --> 00:43:30.480
everyone mumbled. Sometimes I love mumbling. It makes me makes

511
00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:35.880
me horny. So it that was a really weird thing

512
00:43:35.880 --> 00:43:50.000
to say, and the thrown me off. I've thrown myself off. Wow,

513
00:43:53.719 --> 00:43:55.920
thrown myself off. That sounds weird as well, isn't it.

514
00:43:56.360 --> 00:44:02.199
Stop throwing yourself off. There's people, we've got company. You're

515
00:44:02.280 --> 00:44:10.199
ruining the Christmas dinner. Well yeah, anyway, I just I

516
00:44:10.199 --> 00:44:11.840
don't even know why I'm talking about that while I'm

517
00:44:11.880 --> 00:44:16.440
talking about people mumbling, oh yeah, the nurses or the doctors.

518
00:44:17.239 --> 00:44:21.679
So in his last ward, so he'd been in one.

519
00:44:21.880 --> 00:44:25.119
This is fourth ward he's been in. The first one

520
00:44:25.280 --> 00:44:29.039
was in the accident emergency department, so it was in

521
00:44:29.119 --> 00:44:33.880
the ward there while he was being scanned and blood

522
00:44:33.920 --> 00:44:37.039
tests and all that stuff. So it was an award.

523
00:44:37.199 --> 00:44:41.880
But he then got moved after two days or it was.

524
00:44:41.880 --> 00:44:44.519
He had a Friday night, got moved on a Saturday

525
00:44:45.639 --> 00:44:52.800
to a new ward, to another ward, but it was

526
00:44:52.840 --> 00:44:57.800
only in there for about two days, maybe three days,

527
00:44:57.840 --> 00:45:01.320
two or three days, and then he got moved to

528
00:45:02.000 --> 00:45:04.519
the ward he was in before he moved to this

529
00:45:04.599 --> 00:45:09.239
new one to start with. He liked it in there.

530
00:45:09.800 --> 00:45:12.320
I wouldn't say liked. I mean, he didn't didn't wake

531
00:45:12.440 --> 00:45:18.199
up every morning singing, you know, he didn't. He doesn't

532
00:45:18.400 --> 00:45:26.119
like it, but he liked the other patients Dell Boy

533
00:45:26.320 --> 00:45:29.320
lived next to him. I think some other bloke that

534
00:45:30.239 --> 00:45:34.280
Big Paul or every cardon was opposite. And then there

535
00:45:34.320 --> 00:45:36.519
was another bloke that was the other side opposite, but

536
00:45:36.639 --> 00:45:40.599
he he was asleep most of the time, but his

537
00:45:40.679 --> 00:45:43.360
wife used to come and chat to us. She was

538
00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:52.599
in there every single day and excused the noise again

539
00:45:52.719 --> 00:46:05.320
outside when the that squeaky voice just put me off.

540
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:10.760
What was I was going to say? Yeah, when del

541
00:46:10.800 --> 00:46:19.159
Boy moved out, he had a new person move in

542
00:46:21.559 --> 00:46:26.679
and he didn't like him. Uncle Sausages took a dislike

543
00:46:26.760 --> 00:46:29.199
to this person. He thought that they were talking about

544
00:46:29.280 --> 00:46:33.960
him and stuff, and he thought that he was getting

545
00:46:34.000 --> 00:46:41.119
a preferential treatment. But the ward nurse because I called

546
00:46:41.119 --> 00:46:44.639
the ward nurse when Uncle Sausages told me this, and

547
00:46:44.679 --> 00:46:49.159
we got together and had a conversation, and she explained

548
00:46:49.159 --> 00:46:52.719
that everybody had got different needs because they're all in

549
00:46:52.760 --> 00:46:57.000
the same ward for the same reason, but variations of

550
00:46:57.039 --> 00:47:05.800
that reason and at various stages of the condition as well.

551
00:47:08.039 --> 00:47:12.639
So this person had more personal needs than Uncle Sausages has.

552
00:47:15.519 --> 00:47:18.360
And Uncle Sausages was saying, Oh, I think he's private

553
00:47:18.760 --> 00:47:21.679
because he keeps clicking his fingers, which I'm sure, he didn't,

554
00:47:21.719 --> 00:47:25.519
but kept asking for help with stuff, and that was annoying.

555
00:47:25.960 --> 00:47:29.679
Uncle sausages, And I tried to explain that if he

556
00:47:29.800 --> 00:47:33.360
was private, he wouldn't be in a ward with other people.

557
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:37.119
You know that, you know, his own place is in

558
00:47:37.199 --> 00:47:40.320
his own room. He definitely wouldn't be in that ward

559
00:47:40.360 --> 00:47:48.000
with everyone. But I think I think it's kind of

560
00:47:48.039 --> 00:47:53.039
just being stuck in one place. It was really just

561
00:47:53.960 --> 00:47:56.800
winding them up. And then he started thinking that they

562
00:47:56.840 --> 00:47:59.599
were saying that he was yeah, I want to say

563
00:47:59.599 --> 00:48:02.199
the word, but that they were kind of talking about

564
00:48:02.280 --> 00:48:10.920
him as if he was a criminal, some kind of

565
00:48:11.000 --> 00:48:13.440
you know, because of his name or his accent or whatever.

566
00:48:16.519 --> 00:48:20.320
And he started saying, don't you call me paranoid, because

567
00:48:21.559 --> 00:48:23.880
because he sort of said, maybe you're just you know,

568
00:48:27.039 --> 00:48:32.000
it might just be boredom. It's almost like he was

569
00:48:32.360 --> 00:48:37.840
trying to create some drama but not meaning to. But

570
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:42.280
then there's also confusion based on the condition, the medication.

571
00:48:43.239 --> 00:48:47.960
Just being in that environment. I feel confused now just

572
00:48:48.519 --> 00:48:51.199
back and forward there when I'm in there, I just

573
00:48:52.000 --> 00:48:58.599
it is it's quite a confusing experience. So he must

574
00:48:58.639 --> 00:49:09.000
be yeah, all over the place. And then they moved

575
00:49:09.039 --> 00:49:14.800
him to this new ward and he was saying, oh,

576
00:49:15.320 --> 00:49:20.599
that bloke one he got Uncle Sausages kicked out and moved,

577
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:28.800
which isn't true at all. It's basically he was moved

578
00:49:28.840 --> 00:49:35.360
to the discharge ward. I'm sure there's a few discharge

579
00:49:35.400 --> 00:49:38.760
wards in the hospitals, but he was moved to one

580
00:49:38.800 --> 00:49:45.159
of the discharge wards because he's being discharged, although it

581
00:49:45.320 --> 00:49:52.320
might take a while because he got asked by the

582
00:49:52.360 --> 00:49:57.400
hospice or the discharged nurse. But I think she's part

583
00:49:57.440 --> 00:50:01.000
of the hospice as well. And she said, she said,

584
00:50:01.079 --> 00:50:04.440
Uncle Sausages, what have you? What have you decided? Because

585
00:50:04.480 --> 00:50:08.599
she she came a week before and she came in

586
00:50:08.599 --> 00:50:10.199
the same thing that you decided what you want to

587
00:50:10.199 --> 00:50:12.760
do yet? And he said, well, I don't want to

588
00:50:12.800 --> 00:50:15.280
go home. He didn't want to come back to the

589
00:50:15.320 --> 00:50:19.760
flat because of the the mess and stuff like that there.

590
00:50:20.239 --> 00:50:22.519
She doesn't want to come back here what she did originally,

591
00:50:24.000 --> 00:50:27.480
And she said what do you want? He said, well,

592
00:50:28.960 --> 00:50:31.119
she said, do you want to go into a care home?

593
00:50:32.320 --> 00:50:36.239
She said he said, no, hospice. That's what he told her,

594
00:50:36.719 --> 00:50:38.679
which I was a little bit surprised about because I've

595
00:50:38.719 --> 00:50:41.920
never I didn't think that was something that you could

596
00:50:42.000 --> 00:50:45.239
choose to do. I thought it was something that you

597
00:50:47.079 --> 00:50:49.760
I don't know. I just I thought it had gone

598
00:50:49.800 --> 00:50:53.000
for a care home, because I imagine that would be a

599
00:50:53.079 --> 00:50:58.480
much nicer environment and he'd make friends and stuff, and

600
00:51:00.760 --> 00:51:04.239
thinking about it as possibly where he should have been anyway,

601
00:51:05.599 --> 00:51:08.320
not not like a care home, but in a kind

602
00:51:08.360 --> 00:51:14.320
of a residential home where he was having his he

603
00:51:14.360 --> 00:51:17.639
was being looked after. He's got a few needs, just

604
00:51:18.159 --> 00:51:20.360
he'd have been looked after, and I think that's I

605
00:51:20.360 --> 00:51:22.760
think he'd have been much happier if he'd have had

606
00:51:22.760 --> 00:51:26.559
that for the last few years, just somewhere where he

607
00:51:26.599 --> 00:51:32.400
had his own room, ideally getting fed every day, he

608
00:51:32.440 --> 00:51:35.880
could watch you know, I have an own TV. He

609
00:51:35.880 --> 00:51:38.639
could watch sport all day long if he wanted. He'd

610
00:51:38.679 --> 00:51:41.559
also be able to have company, because he loves to

611
00:51:41.599 --> 00:51:47.639
talk to people. He's a people's person, and which is

612
00:51:47.679 --> 00:51:54.119
ironic because he's also solitary like me. And I think

613
00:51:54.159 --> 00:51:57.199
that's part of the reason why I've really tried to

614
00:51:57.239 --> 00:52:00.840
help him over the last year or so. I've always

615
00:52:00.880 --> 00:52:02.639
been there if he needed me since I've been there

616
00:52:02.719 --> 00:52:05.800
for ten years, but it kind of got a bit

617
00:52:05.840 --> 00:52:08.119
closer over the last year because of stuff with his

618
00:52:08.159 --> 00:52:12.119
flat and bills, and he couldn't he couldn't communicate on

619
00:52:12.159 --> 00:52:14.519
the phone anymore with people, so he helped got me

620
00:52:14.599 --> 00:52:22.239
to help him do it. And he loves chatting, loves

621
00:52:22.599 --> 00:52:27.840
people really a bit like Vinny loves humans. But he

622
00:52:27.920 --> 00:52:31.960
lives a solitary life what has done where he doesn't

623
00:52:32.000 --> 00:52:36.119
see anyone really unless he goes out to the petrol

624
00:52:36.119 --> 00:52:38.880
station or goes to the chip van. They all know

625
00:52:38.960 --> 00:52:42.320
him at the chip van because he chats to everyone.

626
00:52:42.480 --> 00:52:46.719
They feel like they know him because every you know,

627
00:52:46.800 --> 00:52:51.760
once a week he's there waiting for the chips, fish

628
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:57.719
and chips and four cans of drink and a bad sausage.

629
00:52:58.519 --> 00:53:00.199
I even know what he gets now because I got

630
00:53:00.199 --> 00:53:07.840
it fro him before, mushy peas and curry sauce. I think.

631
00:53:09.199 --> 00:53:13.320
But they they really they love him in there. They're

632
00:53:13.360 --> 00:53:16.280
just because he talks then about because the thing is

633
00:53:16.400 --> 00:53:21.000
because they're I think they're I don't know what country

634
00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:29.280
they're from. Uncle Sausages does. And that's the thing. So

635
00:53:29.440 --> 00:53:32.079
Uncle Sasages hasn't He doesn't have a problem with people

636
00:53:32.119 --> 00:53:36.400
for being from other countries. It's just because his normal

637
00:53:36.440 --> 00:53:38.480
thing is. I've seen him do it with the security

638
00:53:38.519 --> 00:53:41.679
guards when we first went to hospital. He was asking

639
00:53:41.719 --> 00:53:47.199
them where they were from specifically so he could talk

640
00:53:47.239 --> 00:53:50.639
about sport. So if he saw someone who like, they're

641
00:53:50.679 --> 00:53:54.800
from India or from Pakistan or from that kind of

642
00:53:54.840 --> 00:53:58.679
part of the world, he'd go cricket, So where are

643
00:53:58.719 --> 00:54:03.440
you from? If they said old Bangladesh and it go

644
00:54:03.519 --> 00:54:11.519
into cricket. If if he got someone that says, oh,

645
00:54:11.519 --> 00:54:16.440
they're from Cingali or they're from Jamaica or whatever, it'd

646
00:54:16.519 --> 00:54:21.239
talk about whatever kind of probably football, you know, if

647
00:54:21.239 --> 00:54:25.760
someone is from Spain or Italy football, it kind of

648
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:28.880
go with whatever is the national sport. But if someone

649
00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:35.199
was from Australia, he'd go cricket, do you know what

650
00:54:35.199 --> 00:54:38.239
I mean. So he's kind of that's he's interesting where

651
00:54:38.280 --> 00:54:41.800
people are from. But because people aren't talking to him,

652
00:54:41.840 --> 00:54:43.679
the nurses are not and the doctors are not there

653
00:54:44.159 --> 00:54:49.079
to talk about sport. They're there to yeah, save people's

654
00:54:49.079 --> 00:54:53.000
lives and to do their rounds, and they've got to

655
00:54:53.000 --> 00:54:59.000
get to the next person. So I think it's I

656
00:54:59.039 --> 00:55:01.480
guess since he feels like he's been silenced a bit,

657
00:55:02.360 --> 00:55:07.039
and I'm hoping that he gets out there as soon

658
00:55:07.079 --> 00:55:10.239
as possible. I hope it will be a care home

659
00:55:12.400 --> 00:55:18.920
because then he'll be around people and possibly he'll ever,

660
00:55:19.119 --> 00:55:20.599
you know, be able to have a nice chat with

661
00:55:20.679 --> 00:55:26.639
people and be able to just, I don't know, be

662
00:55:26.719 --> 00:55:30.320
himself again. But then I don't know how much of

663
00:55:30.400 --> 00:55:35.280
him not being himself is because of the See I'll

664
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:36.920
tell you what. It is breaking my heart. You know,

665
00:55:37.079 --> 00:55:40.199
this whole situation. I know it's supposed to perhaps I

666
00:55:40.199 --> 00:55:43.440
shouldn't call this to let me boy to sleep. It's hard.

667
00:55:43.599 --> 00:55:48.000
It's hard, but he doesn't seem to be himself anymore

668
00:55:48.320 --> 00:55:50.360
the way he used to. It goes in and out

669
00:55:50.360 --> 00:55:58.119
of it. It's not just personality wise. I mean, he

670
00:55:58.199 --> 00:56:00.119
was getting angry during the week, and I've never I've

671
00:56:00.119 --> 00:56:03.719
seen him angry before, but he's gone through little periods

672
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:08.800
of anger and telling me off, like okay. I will

673
00:56:08.920 --> 00:56:16.719
normally put up with that. Oh wow, Yeah, it's sometimes

674
00:56:16.760 --> 00:56:20.920
I would be like, you know, go go yourself, like

675
00:56:22.599 --> 00:56:27.760
that's it, but I can't because that would be the wrong,

676
00:56:27.880 --> 00:56:31.079
wrong thing to do. So I'm kind of just trying

677
00:56:31.119 --> 00:56:39.920
to stick with it and hope that he gets released

678
00:56:40.480 --> 00:56:46.280
or gets discharged. It's quite funny isn't it considering the

679
00:56:46.400 --> 00:56:48.880
nurses and the care workers. I have to deal with

680
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:53.840
discharges all day long. He's in the discharge ward, which

681
00:56:53.920 --> 00:57:01.199
there are anyway, so he is. I don't know if

682
00:57:01.199 --> 00:57:02.519
he's going to be out of there by the end

683
00:57:02.519 --> 00:57:05.440
of the week, the end of next week. Well it

684
00:57:05.559 --> 00:57:09.960
starts tomorrow, doesn't it really Monday? I don't know. But

685
00:57:10.199 --> 00:57:14.960
the nurse that he spoke to regarding getting discharged where

686
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:18.119
he'd like to go, she's on it, and they've been

687
00:57:18.159 --> 00:57:24.559
on it for They started last Thursday, not this Thursday,

688
00:57:24.920 --> 00:57:28.039
got on the one before, so they've been on it

689
00:57:28.280 --> 00:57:34.239
for over a week already, trying to find him somewhere

690
00:57:34.280 --> 00:57:44.000
to move. And if he doesn't come back here. I

691
00:57:44.039 --> 00:57:49.000
didn't realize this, they literally will stop his money and

692
00:57:49.039 --> 00:57:53.679
give him twenty pounds a week to live on. Someone

693
00:57:53.719 --> 00:57:55.440
told me that. I don't know if it's true or not,

694
00:57:58.199 --> 00:58:01.960
and I realized, he'll be getting on his meals and

695
00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:05.079
he'll be getting you know, he'll get somewhere to live

696
00:58:05.119 --> 00:58:15.039
in that, but he's twenty pounds a week. It's what

697
00:58:15.039 --> 00:58:19.480
if he wants some new clothes, what if he wants

698
00:58:19.519 --> 00:58:22.079
to buy you know what I mean? Just he wants

699
00:58:22.119 --> 00:58:25.960
to because who knows, you don't know. They're giving him

700
00:58:27.440 --> 00:58:36.440
three an amount of time three and how long a give.

701
00:58:36.559 --> 00:58:39.800
But he might, you know, he may be around for

702
00:58:39.800 --> 00:58:45.159
a lot longer. Hopefully he is. So he might because

703
00:58:45.199 --> 00:58:46.719
I said to him, when you do, if you get

704
00:58:46.719 --> 00:58:53.880
a nice room in a care home, get yourself a

705
00:58:53.920 --> 00:58:58.679
big old TV. You know, just just I didn't say.

706
00:58:58.719 --> 00:59:00.800
I didn't say you must get off or too, but

707
00:59:00.880 --> 00:59:03.440
get a nice TV. Big because he's just got a

708
00:59:03.440 --> 00:59:05.960
little one way he lives. I don't know why. It

709
00:59:06.039 --> 00:59:10.639
was not little, but it's kind of quite small, although

710
00:59:10.639 --> 00:59:13.880
he likes it. He likes to set up he's got before.

711
00:59:14.400 --> 00:59:17.159
But I said, just get a massive TV if he can.

712
00:59:18.400 --> 00:59:23.280
And what's weird is he's got a huge collection of magazines,

713
00:59:23.760 --> 00:59:33.079
sports magazines like football programs and things like that, cricket, rugby. Yeah.

714
00:59:33.280 --> 00:59:35.280
I said to him, what do you want to do

715
00:59:35.320 --> 00:59:37.039
with that stuff? And he said, just get rid of it.

716
00:59:42.679 --> 00:59:48.840
I mean, he had his whole flat cleared out just

717
00:59:48.840 --> 00:59:54.679
before Christmas because of I'd just say his collection is

718
00:59:54.719 --> 00:59:59.480
collecting got out of hand, okay, but he still managed

719
00:59:59.480 --> 01:00:05.360
to keep whold with thousands and thousands of magazines like

720
01:00:05.519 --> 01:00:13.920
every drawer, every cupboard's full, and now he's willing to

721
01:00:13.960 --> 01:00:21.599
just like just chuck it away, and that just seems

722
01:00:24.239 --> 01:00:30.480
it just seems wrong to do that. I mean, technically,

723
01:00:30.559 --> 01:00:32.519
I haven't got to do anything that counsel can come

724
01:00:32.519 --> 01:00:36.119
and do that, but i'd kind of like I'll speak

725
01:00:36.159 --> 01:00:38.000
to him and say, look, is there anything personal you

726
01:00:38.039 --> 01:00:40.559
want me to go through and get rid of or

727
01:00:41.719 --> 01:00:44.119
get for you to take into the home or put

728
01:00:44.199 --> 01:00:47.000
into storage because he might have you know, he's got

729
01:00:47.000 --> 01:00:49.559
a big bible. I'm sure he doesn't want that chucked out,

730
01:00:50.440 --> 01:00:54.199
and he probably wants that to go to someone because honestly,

731
01:00:54.400 --> 01:00:57.840
it's like the side of the table massive someone gave

732
01:00:57.880 --> 01:01:00.440
it to him. I think is uncle pay should go

733
01:01:00.559 --> 01:01:05.119
to him when he was a kid. So he's had

734
01:01:05.119 --> 01:01:10.960
that for forever, like big bound bible and it's like

735
01:01:11.000 --> 01:01:13.840
in a little booklet thing, so it's well, big booklet thing,

736
01:01:14.320 --> 01:01:20.639
so it's very kind of kept kept well. And he

737
01:01:20.760 --> 01:01:24.840
might have personal stuff. He might have photographs, you know,

738
01:01:24.960 --> 01:01:28.239
family photographs, things like that. I don't know where they are,

739
01:01:29.320 --> 01:01:31.400
So I'm going to ask him, is this stuff in

740
01:01:31.440 --> 01:01:34.840
your flat that you want me to get for you? Photographs?

741
01:01:35.800 --> 01:01:43.079
Just I don't know any sentimental things because unless they

742
01:01:43.119 --> 01:01:46.920
allow him to come back to the flat to go

743
01:01:47.039 --> 01:01:52.880
through the stuff. But I imagine that'd be really hard

744
01:01:52.880 --> 01:01:54.360
for you. He said he doesn't want to set foot

745
01:01:54.360 --> 01:01:57.719
in the place again, but I imagine that'd be hard,

746
01:01:58.480 --> 01:02:00.280
very hard for him to go back into that flat

747
01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:05.840
now after this, because he's lived there for like thirty years,

748
01:02:05.880 --> 01:02:11.480
nearly twenty six years, ninety nine. I think he moved

749
01:02:11.519 --> 01:02:18.679
in there. So I don't know it's going to be.

750
01:02:21.480 --> 01:02:24.119
It just doesn't seem right that because I saw this

751
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:29.719
with Luke. When Luke left, left me, left us, left

752
01:02:29.719 --> 01:02:39.800
the world. His flat was completely full of stuff. His family,

753
01:02:39.920 --> 01:02:43.599
immediate family came around because I had the key to

754
01:02:43.679 --> 01:02:47.480
his flat. I had a spare key up here, so

755
01:02:47.599 --> 01:02:56.400
I let them in and they just took a few bits,

756
01:02:56.480 --> 01:03:00.400
like just like personal items like a T shirt had

757
01:03:00.440 --> 01:03:02.639
his smell on and stuff like that, still like his

758
01:03:02.719 --> 01:03:05.960
sisters and his mum just keepsakes, and that was it.

759
01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:12.199
And then they tossed me at the keyback and they

760
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:14.280
didn't want to go. They didn't want to set foot

761
01:03:14.320 --> 01:03:21.440
into that place again. And then I think a couple

762
01:03:21.480 --> 01:03:27.480
of week Yeah, then what happened is no, I didn't

763
01:03:27.519 --> 01:03:29.360
take the key back. I said to a sister, keep

764
01:03:29.400 --> 01:03:32.199
the key. I don't want to I'm not going in

765
01:03:32.199 --> 01:03:35.360
there anymore either, and I want to go in I

766
01:03:35.360 --> 01:03:41.480
didn't want to go in there. And so basically then

767
01:03:41.639 --> 01:03:44.480
another friend of his got hold of the key, was

768
01:03:44.519 --> 01:03:48.320
given the key, and he went in there and started

769
01:03:48.320 --> 01:03:53.519
taking stuff out bit by bit, over like a week

770
01:03:53.599 --> 01:03:56.039
or two, got rid of as much as he could,

771
01:03:56.519 --> 01:04:00.719
anything that he could sell really to be honest or use.

772
01:04:04.000 --> 01:04:10.320
And then when the council came round to empty the place,

773
01:04:11.559 --> 01:04:15.719
this is something that I found very difficult actually, because

774
01:04:17.480 --> 01:04:25.920
they were very I only use the word unprofessional, but

775
01:04:26.239 --> 01:04:29.920
to be fair, what they're doing, they probably don't hire

776
01:04:30.199 --> 01:04:34.480
people with It's kind of perhaps they don't even think

777
01:04:34.920 --> 01:04:39.719
beyond what they're doing. They don't realize that actually, when

778
01:04:39.719 --> 01:04:45.480
they're empty in someone's flat of belongings, Okay, that person's

779
01:04:45.519 --> 01:04:48.960
not there anymore, but the other people around in the

780
01:04:49.000 --> 01:04:54.159
other flats, the neighbors may be very close to that

781
01:04:54.199 --> 01:04:59.000
person still be grieving. And the way they were treating

782
01:04:59.079 --> 01:05:04.039
his stuff, and we literally heard one and say what

783
01:05:04.159 --> 01:05:07.239
a bunch of junk as he was chucking it onto

784
01:05:07.239 --> 01:05:10.119
the back of a lorry and he was smashing this

785
01:05:10.159 --> 01:05:13.159
stuff up with a big hammer, that big mallet thing

786
01:05:14.400 --> 01:05:21.280
like outside the front, just to make more room. And

787
01:05:21.360 --> 01:05:29.760
I just found that so disrespectful. But I don't think

788
01:05:29.760 --> 01:05:33.400
they did it with disrespect. I think they I think

789
01:05:33.559 --> 01:05:37.159
maybe they just to them, it's just a job. They're

790
01:05:37.199 --> 01:05:41.480
clearing out a flat. They don't know what the situation is.

791
01:05:42.480 --> 01:05:45.639
A lot of people leave flats. They just move out,

792
01:05:46.559 --> 01:05:48.800
you know, it's and leave all their stuff in there,

793
01:05:50.360 --> 01:05:52.599
so that before they know it could be just someone

794
01:05:52.639 --> 01:05:55.400
that's just moved to a different town or just hadn't

795
01:05:55.400 --> 01:05:58.559
paid the rent for two years and skipped, you know,

796
01:05:58.800 --> 01:06:01.760
ran out, so they didn't they didn't know what the

797
01:06:01.800 --> 01:06:12.880
situation was. But still just yeah, I don't know. It's

798
01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:16.679
hard to explain it. I mean, I'm pretty sure if

799
01:06:16.719 --> 01:06:21.519
i'd have done that job, I might I might have

800
01:06:21.599 --> 01:06:23.480
said the same thing. I might have said, Oh, what

801
01:06:23.559 --> 01:06:27.239
a bunch of rubbish, what's all this stuff? I might

802
01:06:27.280 --> 01:06:30.679
have done, And maybe I might even do now, if

803
01:06:30.840 --> 01:06:33.199
you know, but maybe in the past, if I because

804
01:06:33.239 --> 01:06:36.840
I've had jobs where I've cleaned and stuff, so maybe

805
01:06:37.079 --> 01:06:44.119
i'd have had the same attitude. Perhaps I've become a

806
01:06:44.119 --> 01:06:51.800
bit more. I've always been quite sensitive, but I think

807
01:06:51.840 --> 01:06:57.480
I was more sensitive about myself towards myself when I

808
01:06:57.519 --> 01:07:02.000
was younger. I've become more sensitive towards other people as

809
01:07:02.039 --> 01:07:07.480
I got older. It's yeah, I think that's probably what

810
01:07:07.519 --> 01:07:11.920
it was. So I've always been a sensitive person, I

811
01:07:11.920 --> 01:07:16.280
would say to a degree depending on the situation, depending

812
01:07:16.280 --> 01:07:25.239
on my mood. But yeah, so I don't really want

813
01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:29.320
someone to be doing that with uncle Sausages flat, going

814
01:07:29.400 --> 01:07:36.760
in there shouting out about how whatever messy it is,

815
01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:44.599
or orso this rubbish or because that would just be disrespectful.

816
01:07:48.119 --> 01:07:53.119
So I'm kind of in my in my mind thinking, well,

817
01:07:53.159 --> 01:07:56.559
maybe I'll say to Uncle's Sausages, if you want me

818
01:07:56.719 --> 01:08:00.760
to start bagging stuff up, clearing out the place so

819
01:08:00.800 --> 01:08:03.760
that when the council come, all they've got to do

820
01:08:03.840 --> 01:08:06.639
is just get rid of the furniture. So I can't

821
01:08:06.679 --> 01:08:08.320
I got nowhere to put the furniture, but I can

822
01:08:08.320 --> 01:08:11.719
get rid of the belongings and see if he's anything

823
01:08:11.760 --> 01:08:15.079
he needs. So, you know, because he's got thousands of

824
01:08:15.400 --> 01:08:19.520
well not thousands, but probably hundreds of newspaper articles on

825
01:08:19.640 --> 01:08:24.239
various sporting events. He's got tickets from sporting events that

826
01:08:24.279 --> 01:08:32.000
he's attended. Yeah, so much, because he loves sports. That's

827
01:08:32.039 --> 01:08:39.359
his it's not just a hobby, it's his life. But

828
01:08:39.439 --> 01:08:45.439
it's weird today he said, the iPad's not working, or

829
01:08:45.479 --> 01:08:47.800
it wasn't working properly, or he couldn't get it to work.

830
01:08:48.840 --> 01:08:52.159
And I said, well, I'll try and talk it through

831
01:08:52.239 --> 01:08:57.880
with you. And I said, so you want the BBC

832
01:08:58.000 --> 01:09:00.800
app don't you actually want to watch Wimbledon? He said, oh,

833
01:09:00.840 --> 01:09:05.439
I can't involve the Wimbledon. I didn't think I'd ever

834
01:09:05.479 --> 01:09:08.840
hear that sentence come out of his mouth. Didn't care

835
01:09:08.840 --> 01:09:13.239
about Wimbledon, the wimbled men's finals, which is one of

836
01:09:13.239 --> 01:09:16.800
the biggest sporting events in this country in a year,

837
01:09:16.840 --> 01:09:20.359
it's one of the biggest events, well, the men's and

838
01:09:20.439 --> 01:09:25.479
the female finals, and maybe doubles and the wheelchair as well,

839
01:09:25.560 --> 01:09:28.079
but just the finals, you know, the final weekend. That's

840
01:09:28.079 --> 01:09:32.479
what I'm trying to say. And he just didn't have

841
01:09:32.520 --> 01:09:35.840
any interest. Yeah, he's been watching Wimbledon. He's had it

842
01:09:35.880 --> 01:09:40.760
on TV for the last two weeks in the other

843
01:09:40.800 --> 01:09:43.960
ward because he had a TV which was on the

844
01:09:44.039 --> 01:09:48.000
kind of not a ceiling but wasn't on the ceiling,

845
01:09:48.239 --> 01:09:49.960
but it was quite high up, so he had that

846
01:09:50.640 --> 01:09:52.319
and it was playing the whole time, you know, all

847
01:09:52.399 --> 01:10:07.880
day long. So yeah, it's kind of strange, very very strange.

848
01:10:08.680 --> 01:10:11.239
I do hope though, if he gets to go into

849
01:10:11.359 --> 01:10:18.239
a care home, that it's not too far away, because

850
01:10:18.920 --> 01:10:24.520
it's cost me a fortune getting to him the last

851
01:10:24.840 --> 01:10:32.159
three and a bit weeks, and the further he is away,

852
01:10:32.319 --> 01:10:34.960
the less I'm going to be able to travel to

853
01:10:34.960 --> 01:10:40.199
see him. Because it's not just about expense, which is

854
01:10:40.600 --> 01:10:47.079
quite a big thing, but it's also time and leaving

855
01:10:47.119 --> 01:10:51.239
a little Vinnie on his own for too long. I know,

856
01:10:51.399 --> 01:10:53.840
technically I should be able to leave him all day long,

857
01:10:55.880 --> 01:11:01.119
but he's never been left alone, and since I had him,

858
01:11:01.199 --> 01:11:04.399
I've been with him pretty much twenty four hours a

859
01:11:04.479 --> 01:11:09.319
day for two and a half years. However long it's been,

860
01:11:10.720 --> 01:11:17.319
so to suddenly be leaving him alone for five six

861
01:11:17.399 --> 01:11:22.159
hours is I think it's been a bit traumatic for

862
01:11:22.239 --> 01:11:32.520
him and he never gets used to it. I mean

863
01:11:32.520 --> 01:11:35.439
I have left him alone for a few hours, like

864
01:11:35.840 --> 01:11:40.960
really rarely, very rare, but generally if I go out,

865
01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:45.119
I take him with me pretty much all the time,

866
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:49.399
and I haven't been able to do that and you

867
01:11:49.439 --> 01:11:51.800
know why I didn't go. I didn't take him to

868
01:11:51.840 --> 01:11:55.000
the hospital. Organized to take him to the hospital, but

869
01:11:55.079 --> 01:11:57.199
I couldn't take him. You know why not. This was

870
01:11:57.239 --> 01:12:00.159
a couple of weeks ago because I was visit is

871
01:12:00.159 --> 01:12:05.000
it In that other neighbor who was on oxygen, and

872
01:12:05.039 --> 01:12:07.279
I thought i'd go and visit her. Can't take Vinnie

873
01:12:07.279 --> 01:12:09.840
into that ward, so I'd have to leave him here.

874
01:12:10.479 --> 01:12:13.520
Because you know, I was visiting Uncle's Sausages. I thought

875
01:12:13.520 --> 01:12:16.359
I visited her as well, So I didn't take Vinnie.

876
01:12:16.760 --> 01:12:19.600
So Uncle's Sausages didn't get to say Vinnie, who he's

877
01:12:19.720 --> 01:12:24.600
been looking forward to seeing. Then I find out what

878
01:12:24.720 --> 01:12:33.039
she's been up to. Absolutely amazing. Let it go, baby,

879
01:12:33.119 --> 01:12:37.079
let it go. I have no you haven't, I know

880
01:12:37.159 --> 01:12:48.760
I haven't. Oh, so you know this. I'm hoping that

881
01:12:49.000 --> 01:12:54.880
something happens in a positive way as far as his

882
01:12:57.479 --> 01:13:02.840
being moved out this week. It'd be great if he

883
01:13:02.880 --> 01:13:05.199
can find somewhere or if they can find somewhere for

884
01:13:05.399 --> 01:13:12.319
him that's relatively close to hear although he's not going

885
01:13:12.399 --> 01:13:15.039
to ask for that, but he you know, as long

886
01:13:15.079 --> 01:13:18.319
as it's central, even central in the town, I can

887
01:13:18.359 --> 01:13:20.640
get to. If it's Central. I can get there a

888
01:13:20.680 --> 01:13:22.720
lot quick, a lot easier than where he is at

889
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:28.800
the moment, you know, if it's just one bus rather

890
01:13:28.840 --> 01:13:36.680
than two buses, and then I can you know, just

891
01:13:38.359 --> 01:13:45.720
he'll have people around him. And all the nurses were

892
01:13:45.720 --> 01:13:47.720
saying that they liked him. He was a lovely man,

893
01:13:47.800 --> 01:14:04.800
and you know he's he's a friendly bloke. I think

894
01:14:04.800 --> 01:14:07.239
he's just, you know, kind of had enough of being there.

895
01:14:07.279 --> 01:14:14.560
Really just wants to wants to get out, wants to

896
01:14:14.600 --> 01:14:17.680
have a bit of freedom. He wants his parole. That's

897
01:14:17.680 --> 01:14:20.760
what he wants. He wants his paroles, so he does

898
01:14:24.640 --> 01:14:30.199
bless him. So it was really weird. I didn't made

899
01:14:30.199 --> 01:14:36.920
an image yesterday, used chat GPT. All I asked, is

900
01:14:37.840 --> 01:14:46.399
make a man, elderly man made of sausages. Okay, his

901
01:14:46.520 --> 01:14:52.039
uncle sausages. Isn't he have sitting on a bed, Have

902
01:14:54.600 --> 01:14:59.359
Jack Russell next to the bed licking his lips? And

903
01:14:59.399 --> 01:15:05.840
then I said, add a whiskey, wispy white hair or

904
01:15:05.880 --> 01:15:13.239
wavy white hair, and a baseball cap. And the ironic

905
01:15:13.319 --> 01:15:20.239
thing is the face actually looks like him, like he's

906
01:15:20.279 --> 01:15:23.520
got the same kind of same features. I'm talking about

907
01:15:23.520 --> 01:15:26.359
the same kind of eyes, same kind of mouth, same

908
01:15:26.439 --> 01:15:33.319
kind of jaw. He was uncanny. It's really strange, especially

909
01:15:33.359 --> 01:15:36.159
with that baseball cap and the hair because he's got

910
01:15:36.239 --> 01:15:39.279
quite long hair and it's very well, you know quite

911
01:15:39.479 --> 01:15:42.920
you know, I don't know, it looks like him not

912
01:15:43.000 --> 01:15:47.239
the Sausages park, because he's not made of sausages. We

913
01:15:47.319 --> 01:15:51.479
call him uncalled sausages or Vinnie does because that's the

914
01:15:51.560 --> 01:15:55.680
thing that he gets through him. He goes to the

915
01:15:55.920 --> 01:15:57.720
I don't know if he goes up the road to

916
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:00.680
the shops, but he gets these sausage is in a pack.

917
01:16:01.079 --> 01:16:03.680
And there was those robbery ones that I don't think

918
01:16:03.720 --> 01:16:06.199
are fit for human consumption, but I think they are

919
01:16:06.199 --> 01:16:12.600
sold for humans and their robbery and savaloi ish I think.

920
01:16:14.119 --> 01:16:19.520
Never liked sabalois. Could not, oh savalois. I couldn't believe

921
01:16:19.560 --> 01:16:21.279
when people used to come into the chip shop and

922
01:16:21.319 --> 01:16:27.159
actually ask for a savoy. They were willing to pay

923
01:16:27.600 --> 01:16:30.720
to eat a savoi. Literally, they were willing to give

924
01:16:30.720 --> 01:16:35.319
their own money. You couldn't. Honestly, I wouldn't. I wouldn't

925
01:16:35.319 --> 01:16:38.720
eat it if you gave me money. Savolois. Oh, I

926
01:16:38.800 --> 01:16:42.039
never liked them. But anyway, it's there's kind of those

927
01:16:42.119 --> 01:16:47.159
kinds of sausages robbery, not really sausages, but this one air.

928
01:16:47.279 --> 01:16:51.479
He loves them, absolutely loves them. He'd eat a whole

929
01:16:51.520 --> 01:16:56.760
pack if he could in one sitting. He doesn't get to,

930
01:16:56.880 --> 01:16:59.600
but he would if he could. So that's why he

931
01:16:59.640 --> 01:17:06.199
cause Uncle sausages, Uncle sausages. He's also got a lady

932
01:17:06.479 --> 01:17:09.239
who doesn't have a dog, but she likes. All the

933
01:17:09.279 --> 01:17:13.600
dogs love her around here because she's they all call

934
01:17:13.680 --> 01:17:18.359
her Nanny treats. So she's known as Nanny Treats by

935
01:17:18.399 --> 01:17:24.319
all the dogs. Vinny started that one as well, and

936
01:17:24.399 --> 01:17:27.119
all the dogs either. It's quite weird because some of

937
01:17:27.119 --> 01:17:29.960
the other dog owners are starting to call her nanny treats.

938
01:17:30.600 --> 01:17:36.479
That's funny. If you say something enough people to start

939
01:17:36.520 --> 01:17:38.840
to pick it up, wouldn't they. I guess, Oh, it's

940
01:17:38.920 --> 01:17:45.239
Nanny treats. But wow, it's catching on baby. But Vinny.

941
01:17:45.479 --> 01:17:49.479
If I actually say to Vinny, there's Nanny treats, and

942
01:17:49.760 --> 01:17:52.720
he looks up like where you could say, oh, well,

943
01:17:52.880 --> 01:17:56.560
I've just said the word treats, but no, he's looking

944
01:17:56.600 --> 01:17:59.960
for nanny treats. He knows the difference between just saying

945
01:18:00.079 --> 01:18:04.439
treats and nanny treats, and he can spot off from

946
01:18:04.479 --> 01:18:09.039
a mile away, which is an exaggeration, but he can

947
01:18:09.119 --> 01:18:13.279
see her, you know, you know when you can see

948
01:18:13.279 --> 01:18:15.960
the outline of someone from a distance, but maybe not

949
01:18:16.000 --> 01:18:18.760
see their face properly to not really know whether or

950
01:18:18.760 --> 01:18:23.800
not to wave to them. He knows who it is.

951
01:18:26.079 --> 01:18:31.319
Maybe he's just got much better eyesight than me, and

952
01:18:31.720 --> 01:18:34.760
I don't generally, but sometimes I let him off the lead. Well,

953
01:18:34.760 --> 01:18:39.319
I let go of the lead and he runs to her,

954
01:18:40.119 --> 01:18:43.119
because I know that once he gets to her, he's

955
01:18:43.199 --> 01:18:48.119
not leaving her side. He will not leave her because

956
01:18:49.239 --> 01:18:52.840
I literally have to drag him away because he will

957
01:18:52.880 --> 01:18:58.119
eat every single treat that she gives him. He adores her,

958
01:18:58.680 --> 01:19:01.279
absolutely adores her, and even if she didn't give him

959
01:19:01.279 --> 01:19:05.199
any treats ever again, he'd still get excited to see

960
01:19:05.199 --> 01:19:11.239
her because he loves her, because he just she adores him.

961
01:19:11.439 --> 01:19:13.159
I mean, she loves all the dogs, but I think

962
01:19:13.199 --> 01:19:17.000
he's one of her favorite ones because he's been and

963
01:19:17.039 --> 01:19:20.119
there's another one who lives next door, but this one's

964
01:19:20.159 --> 01:19:23.640
been in the house at least once. She let him

965
01:19:23.640 --> 01:19:25.960
in and she ran her around and he loved it,

966
01:19:26.159 --> 01:19:33.039
absolutely loved it. So she's so it's Nanny treats and

967
01:19:33.079 --> 01:19:38.439
you've got Uncle sausages. There's no one else at the moment. Really.

968
01:19:39.680 --> 01:19:42.319
There's a few people that I see it, you know,

969
01:19:42.439 --> 01:19:46.000
when I take him out, but there hasn't got any

970
01:19:46.079 --> 01:19:48.720
nicknames for any of them. There's Del Boy, but that's

971
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:51.439
a different person. That's not the one in the hospital.

972
01:19:51.560 --> 01:19:55.840
That's just a wheeler and dealer that me and Luke

973
01:19:55.960 --> 01:19:59.039
used to call Del Boy. He worked on the market

974
01:19:59.680 --> 01:20:01.960
for the always like selling stuff out of his garage

975
01:20:02.000 --> 01:20:04.479
and just it'd buy stuff and sell it. That's all.

976
01:20:04.560 --> 01:20:10.199
It was market trader, but we call him Del Boy.

977
01:20:11.000 --> 01:20:16.119
Other than that, there was pants, but he's don't live

978
01:20:16.159 --> 01:20:21.800
around her anymore. The lawnmower man, he doesn't live anymore

979
01:20:22.039 --> 01:20:27.479
because he'd spent about literally about eight hours mowing a

980
01:20:27.520 --> 01:20:32.640
tiny little beer grass. It taking so many pills or

981
01:20:32.640 --> 01:20:35.840
whatever he's took, and he would literally just be standing there,

982
01:20:39.079 --> 01:20:43.560
one lader grass at a time. But with a lawnmower,

983
01:20:43.680 --> 01:20:45.880
I don't know how it's even possible. And all we

984
01:20:46.039 --> 01:20:49.560
hear is that lawnmower starting and stopping, starting and stopping

985
01:20:50.079 --> 01:20:55.920
from morning till night or day on. So I called

986
01:20:55.960 --> 01:21:03.439
him lawnmower man, among other things. We have a name

987
01:21:03.560 --> 01:21:15.359
other people. No, that's it. Really, I'm now beginning to

988
01:21:15.399 --> 01:21:20.840
wonder what my nickname is. Oh please, I'm worried to

989
01:21:20.880 --> 01:21:29.000
even ask. But that's it. Really, that's really what's happened

990
01:21:29.000 --> 01:21:34.199
this week been backward and forward. Dealt with taxi drivers

991
01:21:34.239 --> 01:21:45.359
and bus drivers, passengers, the heat, all the nurses, and

992
01:21:45.680 --> 01:21:50.079
it's been a very strange week. And then Uncle's sausages

993
01:21:50.159 --> 01:21:55.439
started to get a little bit agitated thinking that people

994
01:21:55.479 --> 01:22:02.000
were doing stuff, and like ah, he got very very complicated,

995
01:22:02.359 --> 01:22:12.319
very difficult. But it seems to be hopefully heading towards

996
01:22:12.319 --> 01:22:19.920
the right direction in a sense of him being discharged.

997
01:22:19.960 --> 01:22:27.119
That's what I mean by the right direction, and fingers crossed,

998
01:22:27.159 --> 01:22:31.920
he will end up in a nice place where he's

999
01:22:34.039 --> 01:22:39.880
he feels okay. I know what I mean when I

1000
01:22:39.920 --> 01:22:42.439
say that, but I still am not sure what it

1001
01:22:42.479 --> 01:22:51.000
means whatever okay, is that he feels I want to

1002
01:22:51.079 --> 01:22:55.600
use a word happy, but that's probably the last word. Maybe,

1003
01:22:55.640 --> 01:22:59.560
But I'd like him to feel that he's been looked

1004
01:22:59.600 --> 01:23:04.039
after and that he feels safe. And yeah, I guess

1005
01:23:04.079 --> 01:23:06.760
that's it, isn't it to feel safe and to feel

1006
01:23:06.760 --> 01:23:11.279
looked after, To feel heard when he speaks, to be

1007
01:23:11.359 --> 01:23:18.039
listened to, and maybe, you know, make a couple of

1008
01:23:18.079 --> 01:23:28.319
friends along the way. And yeah, very strange times. All

1009
01:23:28.399 --> 01:23:31.079
my glasses just fell off. Well, actually I just done.

1010
01:23:33.239 --> 01:23:35.239
What did I do? I did something and I knocked

1011
01:23:35.279 --> 01:23:37.840
my glasses off with my thumb. I didn't just fall

1012
01:23:37.880 --> 01:23:39.920
off at all. But you want to know that? Why

1013
01:23:39.960 --> 01:23:41.960
did I have to tell you the truth? Damn it?

1014
01:23:44.279 --> 01:23:46.199
So I'm going to have a Chelsea bun with icy

1015
01:23:46.279 --> 01:23:51.840
and a big cherry on the top, pretend it so no,

1016
01:23:52.000 --> 01:23:55.439
And when I eat that, and then I might make

1017
01:23:55.479 --> 01:23:57.640
myself another cup of tea as well to have that with.

1018
01:24:00.880 --> 01:24:11.479
And then I will possibly edit this recording. It's now

1019
01:24:12.720 --> 01:24:17.439
what time is it? It's four o three, so I've

1020
01:24:17.439 --> 01:24:22.960
been talking for nearly an hour and a half. I'll

1021
01:24:22.960 --> 01:24:28.159
probably watched maybe I'll watch a move ov a move

1022
01:24:29.119 --> 01:24:36.680
I don't know, and then I'll have an early night tonight,

1023
01:24:36.880 --> 01:24:39.600
even though I spent half a day in bed. Oh,

1024
01:24:40.000 --> 01:24:43.520
I woke up. I just remembered. Do you know what?

1025
01:24:43.640 --> 01:24:47.680
Here's how this is changing me. I woke up this morning.

1026
01:24:48.800 --> 01:24:51.239
I went to bed at eight, which I've been doing

1027
01:24:51.239 --> 01:24:58.199
a little bit during the week. Yeah, I just I'm

1028
01:24:58.279 --> 01:25:01.000
kind of ready to go to bed at that time,

1029
01:25:01.479 --> 01:25:03.199
so we're in a bit of eight. Woke up at

1030
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:10.079
half Oh yeah, I woke up at half twelve. I

1031
01:25:10.119 --> 01:25:12.199
woke up a couple of times in that period as well,

1032
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:20.000
including getting a phone call. And I had this dream

1033
01:25:22.079 --> 01:25:26.560
where I actually said out loud and I felt it

1034
01:25:26.640 --> 01:25:32.640
that it's the first time I've ever been happy, and

1035
01:25:32.680 --> 01:25:42.279
it involved a lady involved fall in love, and it

1036
01:25:42.399 --> 01:25:44.840
was weird. I was kind of pursuing her, not in

1037
01:25:44.880 --> 01:25:48.520
a kind of weird way, but just but she was

1038
01:25:48.760 --> 01:25:52.279
allowing me in a sense like she I don't know.

1039
01:25:52.560 --> 01:25:54.680
It was a weird one because a dream, so it's

1040
01:25:54.720 --> 01:25:59.119
all completely involved elephants and swings and stuff, you know,

1041
01:25:59.119 --> 01:26:04.880
it could be ice scream, all kinds of weird things involved.

1042
01:26:06.159 --> 01:26:18.159
But basically I remember saying to her in this stream,

1043
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:20.279
telling her that I loved her or I love her

1044
01:26:20.359 --> 01:26:22.640
and I want to spend the rest of my life

1045
01:26:22.680 --> 01:26:27.760
with her or something like that. And she was concerned.

1046
01:26:27.760 --> 01:26:30.239
She said, how long was that going to be? I

1047
01:26:30.279 --> 01:26:32.159
said why? She said, well, I've got things to do,

1048
01:26:32.479 --> 01:26:36.479
I've got to make plans. So it was weird, and

1049
01:26:36.479 --> 01:26:38.840
then I woke up, but there was that whole thing

1050
01:26:38.880 --> 01:26:43.600
of like, okay, it's the first time I felt happy,

1051
01:26:44.159 --> 01:26:49.520
like that was the first time. And it was a

1052
01:26:49.600 --> 01:26:55.960
strange time to wake up, like okay, brilliant, and I'm

1053
01:26:56.000 --> 01:26:59.960
partially awake, you know, because half twelve, I'll be spending

1054
01:27:00.039 --> 01:27:04.560
a fair bit of time in bed yesterday afternoon or

1055
01:27:04.640 --> 01:27:11.239
during the day actually, and the boxing was on Live Boxing,

1056
01:27:13.000 --> 01:27:17.119
which was multiple world title fights. Well a cup of yeah.

1057
01:27:17.800 --> 01:27:20.720
So I just I thought, no, I'm not going to

1058
01:27:20.800 --> 01:27:23.399
watch it. I'm going to go back to bed because

1059
01:27:23.479 --> 01:27:25.840
you know, I don't get up in the middle of

1060
01:27:25.840 --> 01:27:31.039
the night anymore to watch boxing. And this little voice,

1061
01:27:31.399 --> 01:27:33.319
well it was not really little voice, but a thought

1062
01:27:33.359 --> 01:27:37.840
came into my head said why are you putting it off?

1063
01:27:38.760 --> 01:27:43.159
Why put off something that you enjoy? And I thought

1064
01:27:43.159 --> 01:27:51.000
of Uncle sausages. I thought, yeah, why am I putting

1065
01:27:51.039 --> 01:27:55.520
that off? Why am I not sitting up? Okay, it's

1066
01:27:55.640 --> 01:27:58.199
disruptive to the next day because I'm gonna be tired

1067
01:27:58.239 --> 01:28:05.439
all day Sunday. But at the same time, it's a lie.

1068
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:08.000
It's a live event, it's a big event in a

1069
01:28:08.039 --> 01:28:12.520
boxing calendar, and it was a really good event as well.

1070
01:28:13.359 --> 01:28:19.720
Every fight was good. Why why am I just like,

1071
01:28:19.840 --> 01:28:23.279
and I'll go to bed, and I need to make

1072
01:28:23.279 --> 01:28:26.880
sure on bed to at least four o'clock. It's twelve thirty.

1073
01:28:26.880 --> 01:28:31.880
It's too early to be getting up. So this whole

1074
01:28:31.920 --> 01:28:34.279
thing seems to be changing my attitude a little bit

1075
01:28:35.119 --> 01:28:43.399
to the whole idea of putting stuff off. Yeah, anyway,

1076
01:28:43.439 --> 01:28:45.880
it's good. It was a good night, and I've been

1077
01:28:45.880 --> 01:28:51.520
tired all day bless. But also in a few weeks time,

1078
01:28:51.600 --> 01:28:56.880
there's a there's the Canelo Crawford fight, which is is

1079
01:28:56.880 --> 01:29:00.439
it September I think, but that that that's going to

1080
01:29:00.479 --> 01:29:03.880
be on during the night, and I'm watching it hopefully.

1081
01:29:04.239 --> 01:29:10.159
I'm going to watch that because that's arguably the biggest

1082
01:29:10.159 --> 01:29:15.680
fight of the year, arguably just from the sense of

1083
01:29:16.000 --> 01:29:21.680
the two biggest names in boxing fighting each other. It's huge,

1084
01:29:22.239 --> 01:29:29.439
two unified world champions fighting each other. I mean it, Yeah,

1085
01:29:32.039 --> 01:29:36.479
it's quite rare that happens. It does happen, but this is, like,

1086
01:29:36.760 --> 01:29:40.399
you know, it's a big deal in the boxing world.

1087
01:29:40.439 --> 01:29:41.920
So I'm going to be watching that, and that's going

1088
01:29:42.000 --> 01:29:45.039
to be early hours in the morning on I think

1089
01:29:45.119 --> 01:29:55.119
September twelfth or thirteenth, something like that, or fourteenth yeah.

1090
01:29:55.239 --> 01:29:57.680
And then next week is the world heavyweight title fight,

1091
01:29:58.039 --> 01:30:01.560
but that's in England, so that's and that's du Boir

1092
01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:09.319
against Usik for all the belts, so that's something to

1093
01:30:09.359 --> 01:30:14.119
look forward to. So I hope that Uncle Sausages by

1094
01:30:14.199 --> 01:30:20.239
next weekend, Uncle Sausages is out of the hospital, living

1095
01:30:20.399 --> 01:30:25.319
in a decent place, I mean where, you know, somewhere

1096
01:30:25.319 --> 01:30:31.520
that he wants to be, that he's happy with. And

1097
01:30:31.560 --> 01:30:36.399
I'm sitting here watching the boxing with Little Vinny. That's

1098
01:30:36.520 --> 01:30:43.000
my eating some pizza. I hope. Yeah, that's my dream.

1099
01:30:43.479 --> 01:30:46.279
So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember

1100
01:30:46.840 --> 01:30:50.279
to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to

1101
01:30:50.319 --> 01:30:55.239
be happy. Be gentle of yourself. He deserves to feel safe.

1102
01:30:58.079 --> 01:31:14.720
Lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and

1103
01:31:18.000 --> 01:31:25.399
meaningful way, Maybe in a way that can not just

1104
01:31:25.640 --> 01:31:35.760
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1105
01:31:36.439 --> 01:31:44.800
we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1106
01:31:44.840 --> 01:31:49.279
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1107
01:31:49.479 --> 01:32:06.880
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1108
01:32:06.920 --> 01:32:18.119
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1109
01:32:20.439 --> 01:32:34.680
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1110
01:32:34.800 --> 01:32:47.239
you can still benefit from listening to my voice maybe

1111
01:32:47.319 --> 01:32:58.680
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

1112
01:32:58.800 --> 01:33:06.800
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1113
01:33:07.119 --> 01:33:11.600
and myself as well. Sometimes I find one particular recording

1114
01:33:12.279 --> 01:33:21.119
that really resonates with me, and I just listen to

1115
01:33:21.159 --> 01:33:34.119
it over and over again every morning, every evening. There

1116
01:33:34.159 --> 01:33:39.159
was this recording from We're going back to about nineteen

1117
01:33:39.239 --> 01:33:47.000
ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1118
01:33:47.119 --> 01:33:54.119
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1119
01:33:54.159 --> 01:33:57.640
find it again and it still has the same effect

1120
01:33:58.199 --> 01:34:09.800
on me, And part of it was the person's voice

1121
01:34:10.199 --> 01:34:20.439
relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward

1122
01:34:20.880 --> 01:34:27.560
to listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

1123
01:34:33.960 --> 01:34:42.960
And I knew before even pressing the play button that

1124
01:34:43.279 --> 01:34:47.720
since I've done that, pressed the play button. This is

1125
01:34:48.079 --> 01:34:59.039
in the days of CD players pressed the play button.

1126
01:35:02.439 --> 01:35:05.359
In fact, it might have even been a tape recorder.

1127
01:35:06.560 --> 01:35:14.960
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1128
01:35:15.479 --> 01:35:28.479
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1129
01:35:33.159 --> 01:35:39.159
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1130
01:35:43.920 --> 01:36:05.760
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation and

1131
01:36:05.880 --> 01:36:19.520
I remember, my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1132
01:36:19.920 --> 01:36:26.159
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1133
01:36:26.279 --> 01:36:36.880
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1134
01:36:37.079 --> 01:36:41.800
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1135
01:36:41.960 --> 01:36:55.720
till two thousand and six. But I knew, I knew

1136
01:36:56.079 --> 01:37:08.840
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1137
01:37:11.840 --> 01:37:17.239
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1138
01:37:24.920 --> 01:37:32.960
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1139
01:37:33.079 --> 01:37:42.479
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1140
01:37:42.520 --> 01:37:54.159
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1141
01:37:54.239 --> 01:38:08.159
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1142
01:38:08.199 --> 01:38:14.479
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1143
01:38:16.319 --> 01:38:31.399
Some people maybe listen every day. There's something that I

1144
01:38:31.439 --> 01:38:47.439
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1145
01:38:47.720 --> 01:39:03.239
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

1146
01:39:03.479 --> 01:39:17.279
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1147
01:39:17.279 --> 01:39:24.640
said to you, focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1148
01:39:28.159 --> 01:39:36.039
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1149
01:39:36.159 --> 01:39:54.239
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1150
01:39:57.039 --> 01:40:06.560
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1151
01:40:06.680 --> 01:40:12.760
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room,

1152
01:40:14.600 --> 01:40:25.000
on the backs of your hands. You may start to

1153
01:40:25.600 --> 01:40:33.640
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1154
01:40:33.720 --> 01:40:37.960
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1155
01:40:37.960 --> 01:40:50.960
all where you are right now. And as you become

1156
01:40:51.600 --> 01:41:04.199
aware of your hands, I'm all so aware of how

1157
01:41:05.359 --> 01:41:29.800
relaxed my hands are feeling now, and when it comes

1158
01:41:29.960 --> 01:41:37.079
to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the

1159
01:41:37.119 --> 01:41:52.960
reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make

1160
01:41:53.079 --> 01:42:14.239
these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting. In fact,

1161
01:42:14.520 --> 01:42:31.239
at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and

1162
01:42:31.279 --> 01:42:42.199
then I carry on talking. And it's only where I

1163
01:42:42.279 --> 01:42:51.640
listen back to do the editing I hear snoring, and

1164
01:42:51.760 --> 01:43:01.760
I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This

1165
01:43:01.960 --> 01:43:08.920
snaw amy was a pick turned up. That's why I

1166
01:43:09.000 --> 01:43:17.119
sound like when I snow. How I get really into

1167
01:43:17.199 --> 01:43:36.560
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1168
01:43:36.680 --> 01:43:46.960
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1169
01:43:47.079 --> 01:44:13.279
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1170
01:44:14.279 --> 01:44:27.000
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1171
01:44:30.600 --> 01:44:46.800
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1172
01:44:49.960 --> 01:45:10.920
muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breath easier without

1173
01:45:12.399 --> 01:45:43.279
necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice

1174
01:45:43.720 --> 01:46:13.520
the ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe

1175
01:46:14.039 --> 01:46:57.720
so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving,

1176
01:47:03.439 --> 01:47:16.800
when I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1177
01:47:18.880 --> 01:47:33.279
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

1178
01:47:35.319 --> 01:48:08.079
life giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else,

1179
01:48:11.279 --> 01:48:45.439
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1180
01:48:45.800 --> 01:49:36.319
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1181
01:49:36.600 --> 01:50:11.640
just drip by so very slowly, relax so deeply, peaceful,

1182
01:50:21.600 --> 01:51:30.159
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1183
01:51:30.880 --> 01:52:22.279
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1184
01:52:22.439 --> 01:52:51.000
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

1185
01:52:51.359 --> 01:53:03.000
sensations have allowed the stress to drip out of your body,

1186
01:53:09.520 --> 01:53:33.319
drippin out of every part of your body and being

1187
01:53:33.680 --> 01:54:12.359
released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely,

1188
01:54:19.199 --> 01:55:07.439
the muscles sing lex relax x so very deeply, relas

1189
01:55:12.239 --> 01:55:37.680
so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1190
01:55:37.960 --> 01:56:05.760
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1191
01:56:10.720 --> 01:56:44.079
and deeper and deeper, noticing the feelings in the back

1192
01:56:44.119 --> 01:57:46.479
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front

1193
01:57:46.560 --> 01:58:40.319
of your body, I all say, feeling peaceful, deeply, there's

1194
01:58:40.359 --> 01:59:21.680
a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core. Even

1195
01:59:21.920 --> 01:59:48.840
when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes bef

1196
01:59:49.000 --> 02:01:25.439
and slower, deep relaxing, so very slow, his stomach peace

1197
02:01:25.680 --> 02:02:08.159
for in your stomach. Look back. Notice notice how relaxed

1198
02:02:12.479 --> 02:02:50.680
you now feel in the hole of your back. Your

1199
02:02:50.920 --> 02:02:59.920
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

1200
02:02:59.920 --> 02:03:11.920
of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1201
02:03:22.920 --> 02:04:42.720
deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, legs, spreading those

1202
02:04:42.800 --> 02:04:51.920
signals down a spine or cord into air. Every part

1203
02:04:52.359 --> 02:05:10.520
of your body. M your shins and your calf muscles.

1204
02:05:37.600 --> 02:06:06.399
We are outbursts feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through

1205
02:06:06.520 --> 02:06:23.880
your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers,

1206
02:06:28.199 --> 02:06:42.560
all the way to your lower back. M the tinker

1207
02:06:44.680 --> 02:07:56.159
radiatinker peace, drifting mind, just wandering away, happy to let

1208
02:07:56.359 --> 02:09:00.720
go it go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole

1209
02:09:00.840 --> 02:10:46.760
body enjoying a sensor listing go hee for more. Piece

1210
02:11:21.239 --> 02:12:03.199
enjoying the space, this space of peace and safety, so

1211
02:12:03.720 --> 02:14:05.720
fury he relaxed, lessing God. Maybe we can just focus

1212
02:14:06.079 --> 02:14:40.560
on the different parts of your body, just to notice

1213
02:14:40.840 --> 02:15:43.439
your forehead and your eyes future so loose, noticing the

1214
02:15:43.600 --> 02:17:18.639
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, ris dressing, peace for energy,

1215
02:17:51.520 --> 02:19:03.920
peace to breathe so much easier. Yes, you may have

1216
02:19:07.280 --> 02:20:07.840
or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful m mooly,

1217
02:20:07.959 --> 02:20:28.200
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1218
02:20:32.399 --> 02:22:24.239
blissful pace, raft out to pace. Come on, sirk com

1219
02:22:35.559 --> 02:23:37.079
let him go peace with mind relaxed forty so relax,

1220
02:23:45.879 --> 02:24:34.280
so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed.

1221
02:24:37.719 --> 02:25:53.319
I'm peaceful, so peace h likes fair. And you could

1222
02:25:53.520 --> 02:26:00.440
start to notice that you are feeling more lass next,

1223
02:26:03.280 --> 02:26:13.159
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1224
02:26:14.399 --> 02:26:20.520
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1225
02:26:20.559 --> 02:26:33.440
your body, and your mind starts to slow down. And

1226
02:26:33.520 --> 02:26:41.040
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1227
02:26:41.239 --> 02:26:56.120
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1228
02:26:59.520 --> 02:27:07.479
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1229
02:27:07.559 --> 02:27:15.559
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1230
02:27:15.600 --> 02:27:23.280
break from your life as it is, and to give

1231
02:27:23.319 --> 02:27:31.799
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

1232
02:27:34.000 --> 02:27:39.399
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1233
02:27:39.520 --> 02:27:50.159
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

1234
02:27:51.559 --> 02:28:00.319
and he stresses that you had in your body. It's

1235
02:28:00.360 --> 02:28:05.000
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1236
02:28:06.239 --> 02:28:17.879
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1237
02:28:18.719 --> 02:28:28.280
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1238
02:28:28.319 --> 02:28:40.200
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1239
02:28:41.040 --> 02:28:59.479
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1240
02:29:02.559 --> 02:29:11.159
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1241
02:29:13.440 --> 02:29:25.639
of comfort, and all this comes, and just allowing yourself

1242
02:29:28.440 --> 02:29:33.680
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1243
02:29:33.719 --> 02:29:46.319
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

1244
02:29:46.440 --> 02:29:56.879
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

1245
02:29:57.000 --> 02:30:12.920
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1246
02:30:13.360 --> 02:30:26.440
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

1247
02:30:26.479 --> 02:30:34.959
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

1248
02:30:35.040 --> 02:30:45.719
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other

1249
02:30:46.680 --> 02:31:00.959
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1250
02:31:01.120 --> 02:31:07.159
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1251
02:31:07.200 --> 02:31:17.399
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1252
02:31:20.600 --> 02:31:34.120
and to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout

1253
02:31:34.200 --> 02:31:46.440
your body. And as I focus on each part of

1254
02:31:46.520 --> 02:31:58.719
your body, you can notice that that part becomes even

1255
02:31:59.840 --> 02:32:08.719
more more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes

1256
02:32:08.920 --> 02:32:22.040
even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing. And as

1257
02:32:22.079 --> 02:32:30.159
I move down your body, starting at your head, the

1258
02:32:30.319 --> 02:32:38.280
parts that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

1259
02:32:41.040 --> 02:32:47.079
and those parts that we've not yet focused on or

1260
02:32:47.200 --> 02:32:59.040
just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation of even

1261
02:32:59.399 --> 02:33:12.000
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

1262
02:33:12.079 --> 02:33:19.319
by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the

1263
02:33:19.360 --> 02:33:29.680
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like mister

1264
02:33:29.920 --> 02:33:34.879
Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel even

1265
02:33:35.000 --> 02:33:45.200
more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This isn't

1266
02:33:45.479 --> 02:33:53.440
this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world. I

1267
02:33:53.520 --> 02:34:01.000
live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature around.

1268
02:34:06.280 --> 02:34:11.399
So as you focus on your forehead, just notice how

1269
02:34:11.479 --> 02:34:21.479
it becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on

1270
02:34:21.680 --> 02:34:31.280
my voice and that part of your body. Moving down

1271
02:34:31.479 --> 02:34:44.040
to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your

1272
02:34:44.040 --> 02:34:51.959
eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1273
02:34:55.280 --> 02:35:05.959
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1274
02:35:06.040 --> 02:35:13.280
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1275
02:35:14.440 --> 02:35:22.399
your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1276
02:35:25.879 --> 02:35:36.159
calm and loose, as you focus now on your jaw,

1277
02:35:39.159 --> 02:35:42.760
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1278
02:35:43.559 --> 02:35:47.879
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1279
02:35:47.920 --> 02:35:54.440
of your face to your ears, that hole of your

1280
02:35:54.520 --> 02:36:21.840
jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck,

1281
02:36:24.440 --> 02:36:31.719
the front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

1282
02:36:31.760 --> 02:36:42.280
loose and calm. The sides of your neck, the right

1283
02:36:42.399 --> 02:37:00.479
and left side of your neck, relax and loose and calm.

1284
02:37:01.719 --> 02:37:08.239
And now the back of your neck. Focus in on

1285
02:37:08.319 --> 02:37:18.239
the back of your neck, letting go of any tension

1286
02:37:19.000 --> 02:37:27.879
that may have been there before, and enjoying that sense

1287
02:37:28.079 --> 02:37:39.639
of increasing comfort and release that you can experience in

1288
02:37:39.719 --> 02:37:51.680
the back of your neck. Moving down your back and

1289
02:37:51.799 --> 02:37:56.959
moving either side of your spine right from the top of.

1290
02:37:56.840 --> 02:37:57.760
Your back.

1291
02:37:59.280 --> 02:38:03.000
All the way down to the bottom of your back,

1292
02:38:09.000 --> 02:38:20.319
down to your lower back, and as you move up

1293
02:38:20.360 --> 02:38:29.200
and down your spine. You can feel the muscles either

1294
02:38:29.319 --> 02:38:42.879
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1295
02:38:43.000 --> 02:38:52.200
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1296
02:38:54.000 --> 02:39:03.680
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

1297
02:39:03.719 --> 02:39:07.280
top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1298
02:39:10.760 --> 02:39:17.920
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1299
02:39:18.079 --> 02:39:23.200
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1300
02:39:23.239 --> 02:39:33.200
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1301
02:39:33.239 --> 02:39:40.520
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1302
02:39:40.600 --> 02:39:54.079
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

1303
02:39:54.120 --> 02:40:00.840
back it seems to be an extra special or feeling

1304
02:40:04.799 --> 02:40:16.360
of comfort that spreads into your hips. Sit down your

1305
02:40:16.399 --> 02:40:24.399
lower back, into your hips, into the area where your

1306
02:40:24.479 --> 02:40:33.479
cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all these muscles

1307
02:40:33.600 --> 02:40:42.600
that spread from your lower back into your hip area

1308
02:40:45.680 --> 02:41:02.319
start to melt, start to really let go, and even

1309
02:41:02.440 --> 02:41:09.520
nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your back and

1310
02:41:09.639 --> 02:41:21.280
your spine will continue to let go, continue to relax

1311
02:41:24.760 --> 02:41:37.040
so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders, you

1312
02:41:37.159 --> 02:41:55.200
may notice that they're already feeling really loose, They're already

1313
02:41:56.120 --> 02:42:19.360
feeding calm and feeling. Those muscles then move from your

1314
02:42:19.440 --> 02:42:40.520
neck into your shoulders, feel so soft and gentle, so smooth.

1315
02:42:46.079 --> 02:42:58.520
And calm, and.

1316
02:42:58.479 --> 02:43:10.879
The feeling in your shoes as seems to spread deep

1317
02:43:11.079 --> 02:43:20.879
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1318
02:43:21.360 --> 02:43:38.639
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1319
02:43:38.879 --> 02:43:47.639
moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1320
02:43:47.799 --> 02:43:53.399
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1321
02:43:57.559 --> 02:44:12.799
He then you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders,

1322
02:44:16.280 --> 02:44:38.559
which sends that deep healing message into your arms. And

1323
02:44:38.600 --> 02:44:43.639
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1324
02:44:43.799 --> 02:45:06.719
even there because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1325
02:45:06.719 --> 02:45:43.280
so calm, so pose not feeling spreading all the way

1326
02:45:43.520 --> 02:46:08.200
down your arms to elbows, including your elbows circumforts spreads

1327
02:46:13.239 --> 02:46:30.639
or away into rests of forearments, and your wrists so

1328
02:46:31.040 --> 02:47:15.879
heavy yet at the same time slight and gentle. Fuk

1329
02:47:16.159 --> 02:47:56.520
set now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful in

1330
02:47:56.559 --> 02:48:34.159
your hands. There's a sense of real peace. It just

1331
02:48:34.360 --> 02:49:16.959
seems to I feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply.

1332
02:48:59.559 --> 02:49:18.639
Yeah, you thing is.

1333
02:49:50.680 --> 02:50:55.600
You things sold las you thing you tips. Moving your

1334
02:50:55.680 --> 02:51:25.120
attention to the front to your body, so comfortable moving

1335
02:51:25.200 --> 02:52:52.840
in your focus to your legs, love musculs in your thighs,

1336
02:53:09.360 --> 02:53:47.040
your knees, so relaxed, a calf muscles, and just shins

1337
02:53:50.479 --> 02:56:12.440
compasedly four faithing you faet sir, peaceful, so calm, say peaceful,

1338
02:56:19.520 --> 02:57:14.559
sircom su peaceful say colm so peace fall RelA same

1339
02:57:19.879 --> 02:57:39.079
peace fall so calm, loving that deep relaxation, to spread

1340
02:57:39.360 --> 02:57:56.200
your chest, in your stomach, so RelA, letting go.

1341
02:57:59.719 --> 02:58:00.520
Everything.

1342
02:58:11.799 --> 02:58:17.799
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1343
02:58:17.840 --> 02:58:26.000
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1344
02:58:26.760 --> 02:58:33.239
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1345
02:58:33.280 --> 02:58:42.680
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1346
02:58:42.959 --> 02:58:58.520
represents a deepening of that comfort. And the vervies you

1347
02:58:58.639 --> 02:59:04.760
walk down those stepsster the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1348
02:59:11.399 --> 03:01:46.319
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen

1349
03:02:18.040 --> 03:10:09.600
point fifteen fourteen four se two well five eight nine

1350
03:10:10.600 --> 03:19:56.959
eight seven five four s one No. As you focus

1351
03:19:57.079 --> 03:20:09.799
on your eyes, We're going to count down from ten

1352
03:20:10.000 --> 03:20:24.879
down to one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1353
03:20:25.319 --> 03:20:34.239
the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our

1354
03:20:34.280 --> 03:20:51.200
whole area that makes up your eye and as we

1355
03:20:51.399 --> 03:21:00.120
count down from ten down to one, whilst focus in

1356
03:21:00.159 --> 03:21:16.159
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

1357
03:21:17.120 --> 03:21:28.680
counting down, and you may find the all you want

1358
03:21:28.799 --> 03:21:37.799
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

1359
03:21:37.840 --> 03:21:51.559
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1360
03:21:54.239 --> 03:22:00.120
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin count to

1361
03:22:00.399 --> 03:23:18.120
down from ten down to one right now, ten nine

1362
03:23:18.399 --> 03:31:30.559
eight seven y five four three two one. So counted

1363
03:31:30.600 --> 03:31:43.920
down from ten to one ten nine eight seven six

1364
03:31:46.079 --> 03:31:56.159
five four three two.

1365
03:31:57.959 --> 03:32:04.079
One.

1366
03:32:05.200 --> 03:32:08.159
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1367
03:32:08.200 --> 03:32:12.159
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1368
03:32:12.440 --> 03:32:22.159
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1369
03:32:22.200 --> 03:32:26.040
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1370
03:32:26.079 --> 03:32:28.879
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1371
03:32:29.680 --> 03:32:33.440
expect me to STI go with floppy just because you're

1372
03:32:33.479 --> 03:32:42.840
counting down. We could try it again, but this time

1373
03:32:42.920 --> 03:32:49.159
I go a bit slower. This time, as you focus

1374
03:32:49.280 --> 03:32:53.959
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1375
03:32:54.000 --> 03:33:04.399
your legs. Just notice how your body does start to

1376
03:33:04.879 --> 03:33:18.600
feel more relaxed with every number that I count down

1377
03:33:19.440 --> 03:34:06.680
ten nine eight seven six five four.

1378
03:34:13.680 --> 03:35:02.360
Three two one, And just notice how.

1379
03:35:04.079 --> 03:35:13.680
How you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not

1380
03:35:13.719 --> 03:35:24.760
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1381
03:35:24.799 --> 03:35:42.040
that space that you have, that space between being active

1382
03:35:44.319 --> 03:35:53.920
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

1383
03:35:54.079 --> 03:35:59.879
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

1384
03:36:00.280 --> 03:36:05.760
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1385
03:36:06.680 --> 03:36:15.879
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1386
03:36:15.959 --> 03:36:20.559
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1387
03:36:20.600 --> 03:36:28.799
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1388
03:36:29.959 --> 03:36:46.159
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1389
03:36:47.200 --> 03:37:00.719
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1390
03:37:03.920 --> 03:37:16.680
Allows you to just slow down, someone to count again

1391
03:37:16.719 --> 03:37:22.959
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

1392
03:37:25.120 --> 03:37:29.559
the gap, And as it widens, it's almost like the

1393
03:37:31.280 --> 03:37:48.840
stress and attention falls into the gap and gives you

1394
03:37:48.920 --> 03:38:44.479
that distance, that space. Now nine eight, seven, six, five,

1395
03:38:55.559 --> 03:40:03.239
four three two.

1396
03:39:49.399 --> 03:39:49.639
One.

1397
03:40:01.200 --> 03:40:21.360
Now, how does your body feel now? Can you notice

1398
03:40:22.680 --> 03:40:59.360
do you feeling calmer? Do you feeling more relaxed? As

1399
03:40:59.399 --> 03:41:19.719
we now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're

1400
03:41:19.799 --> 03:41:39.719
just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1401
03:41:39.799 --> 03:41:44.680
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1402
03:41:48.120 --> 03:41:50.959
I'm sure like most of your body is not not

1403
03:41:51.159 --> 03:42:03.520
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

1404
03:42:03.559 --> 03:42:10.040
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

1405
03:42:10.120 --> 03:42:17.040
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1406
03:42:17.079 --> 03:42:21.959
and your inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh

1407
03:42:22.079 --> 03:42:30.879
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1408
03:42:31.079 --> 03:42:45.120
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1409
03:42:45.159 --> 03:42:50.680
a very heavy area, it's very strong. Ply the strongest

1410
03:42:51.639 --> 03:43:04.879
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1411
03:43:04.879 --> 03:43:13.280
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1412
03:43:19.159 --> 03:43:29.920
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1413
03:43:30.079 --> 03:43:50.719
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1414
03:43:50.799 --> 03:44:00.600
through our lives. And it may seem it will sound

1415
03:44:00.680 --> 03:44:06.280
really weird, but I think that all of our body parts,

1416
03:44:09.200 --> 03:44:17.479
especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1417
03:44:18.479 --> 03:44:36.520
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1418
03:44:36.559 --> 03:44:45.680
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1419
03:44:45.879 --> 03:44:52.559
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I short,

1420
03:44:52.600 --> 03:44:55.520
how should be out in the garden, hugging a tree

1421
03:44:55.639 --> 03:45:03.799
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1422
03:45:03.799 --> 03:45:07.159
on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1423
03:45:07.200 --> 03:45:10.559
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1424
03:45:10.559 --> 03:45:19.360
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1425
03:45:19.399 --> 03:45:29.200
to your knees gaining such an important part, and I

1426
03:45:29.239 --> 03:45:36.120
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1427
03:45:36.159 --> 03:45:41.360
don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for me

1428
03:45:42.559 --> 03:45:47.799
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1429
03:45:47.799 --> 03:45:52.799
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1430
03:45:52.959 --> 03:45:59.399
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1431
03:45:59.440 --> 03:46:03.920
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1432
03:46:04.040 --> 03:46:14.040
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1433
03:46:14.079 --> 03:46:22.879
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1434
03:46:23.959 --> 03:46:31.040
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1435
03:46:33.079 --> 03:46:38.760
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1436
03:46:39.000 --> 03:46:45.239
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1437
03:46:45.280 --> 03:46:57.600
that they do for you, And you can still have

1438
03:46:57.680 --> 03:47:01.920
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1439
03:47:01.920 --> 03:47:13.840
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1440
03:47:15.600 --> 03:47:27.360
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1441
03:47:27.680 --> 03:47:33.120
your shins, and your calf muscles and the bones between

1442
03:47:33.280 --> 03:47:39.479
your knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your

1443
03:47:39.520 --> 03:47:52.680
ankles so important. Anyone has had, even like the slightest

1444
03:47:53.079 --> 03:47:59.159
sprain of an ankle, knows how how much we take

1445
03:48:00.440 --> 03:48:09.280
our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in

1446
03:48:09.319 --> 03:48:14.559
a way when you think that. You know, logically, our

1447
03:48:14.600 --> 03:48:18.120
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1448
03:48:19.159 --> 03:48:22.639
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1449
03:48:22.680 --> 03:48:27.639
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1450
03:48:27.680 --> 03:48:34.000
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1451
03:48:39.920 --> 03:48:44.360
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1452
03:48:44.399 --> 03:48:50.559
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1453
03:48:51.479 --> 03:49:01.520
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1454
03:49:02.120 --> 03:49:11.120
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1455
03:49:13.239 --> 03:49:22.920
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1456
03:49:23.440 --> 03:49:32.840
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

1457
03:49:39.120 --> 03:49:47.120
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1458
03:49:47.319 --> 03:49:50.639
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1459
03:49:50.639 --> 03:49:55.799
to do anything Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1460
03:49:56.520 --> 03:50:00.639
then my calf muscles get some work. Of course, that's

1461
03:50:00.719 --> 03:50:04.840
not true. The carved muscles are being used whenever we

1462
03:50:05.159 --> 03:50:18.719
use our legs and your shins there to protect your

1463
03:50:18.760 --> 03:50:27.840
lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a protector

1464
03:50:28.239 --> 03:50:43.000
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

1465
03:50:43.120 --> 03:50:50.079
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

1466
03:50:50.120 --> 03:50:53.879
We're just going to focus on the legs. And I

1467
03:50:54.000 --> 03:50:58.879
realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably

1468
03:50:58.879 --> 03:51:03.520
because it's on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1469
03:51:03.559 --> 03:51:04.399
on your feet.

1470
03:51:04.120 --> 03:51:04.680
A little bit.

1471
03:51:08.639 --> 03:51:13.120
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1472
03:51:13.159 --> 03:51:17.559
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1473
03:51:17.639 --> 03:51:21.639
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1474
03:51:23.399 --> 03:51:34.239
have been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1475
03:51:34.479 --> 03:51:49.840
of comfort in your thighs and this that movement of

1476
03:51:50.159 --> 03:51:59.600
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1477
03:51:59.600 --> 03:52:04.479
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1478
03:52:04.639 --> 03:52:18.000
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1479
03:52:18.040 --> 03:52:23.399
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1480
03:52:24.159 --> 03:52:35.760
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1481
03:52:42.280 --> 03:52:49.840
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1482
03:52:49.879 --> 03:52:54.719
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

1483
03:52:54.799 --> 03:53:03.520
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1484
03:53:03.639 --> 03:53:07.799
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1485
03:53:07.840 --> 03:53:14.079
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1486
03:53:14.280 --> 03:53:17.239
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1487
03:53:17.280 --> 03:53:22.120
the muscles and to be able to just massage inside

1488
03:53:22.159 --> 03:53:29.200
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1489
03:53:29.200 --> 03:53:38.600
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1490
03:53:42.399 --> 03:53:47.719
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1491
03:53:49.079 --> 03:53:54.040
just a message in those bones, but with healing fingertips

1492
03:53:55.399 --> 03:54:01.840
spreading that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1493
03:54:07.200 --> 03:54:10.840
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1494
03:54:10.959 --> 03:54:16.959
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1495
03:54:17.200 --> 03:54:23.159
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1496
03:54:24.440 --> 03:54:27.879
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1497
03:54:28.000 --> 03:54:34.520
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part that

1498
03:54:34.840 --> 03:54:41.760
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1499
03:54:43.559 --> 03:54:54.799
has a sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course,

1500
03:54:54.840 --> 03:55:05.399
it's protected by your legs so you can imagine putting

1501
03:55:06.239 --> 03:55:16.120
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1502
03:55:16.200 --> 03:55:20.200
between your legs, you can just message with your fingertips.

1503
03:55:21.360 --> 03:55:28.159
Imagine your fingertips going inside message in the muscle tissue.

1504
03:55:32.719 --> 03:55:37.120
You can of course feel the bones of your knees

1505
03:55:38.479 --> 03:55:48.959
heading through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1506
03:55:51.799 --> 03:55:54.639
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1507
03:55:54.680 --> 03:55:59.399
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1508
03:56:00.159 --> 03:56:09.120
my half muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1509
03:56:10.680 --> 03:56:20.639
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1510
03:56:23.799 --> 03:56:32.079
massage in gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing

1511
03:56:32.239 --> 03:56:36.840
in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated

1512
03:56:39.360 --> 03:56:43.479
as the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1513
03:56:43.520 --> 03:56:46.920
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1514
03:56:46.959 --> 03:56:55.159
our body, the more precious of any chure on the planet.

1515
03:57:03.680 --> 03:57:12.760
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1516
03:57:16.280 --> 03:57:22.959
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1517
03:57:26.079 --> 03:57:30.360
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1518
03:57:31.200 --> 03:57:41.239
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1519
03:57:41.319 --> 03:57:45.360
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1520
03:57:47.200 --> 03:57:53.680
and massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1521
03:57:53.719 --> 03:58:02.040
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to

1522
03:58:02.159 --> 03:58:11.639
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1523
03:58:11.680 --> 03:58:17.399
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1524
03:58:19.760 --> 03:58:29.319
your knees, your cars, your ankles, the strength of your

1525
03:58:29.360 --> 03:58:37.479
ankles considering how thin they are compared to the rest

1526
03:58:37.520 --> 03:58:45.000
of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1527
03:58:46.479 --> 03:59:01.040
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1528
03:59:01.079 --> 03:59:11.959
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1529
03:59:12.120 --> 03:59:19.000
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1530
03:59:19.000 --> 03:59:23.680
if you only ate stone, there's still a lot of

1531
03:59:23.760 --> 03:59:30.840
weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier

1532
03:59:30.879 --> 03:59:40.600
than eat stone double down, Yet my ankles support my

1533
03:59:40.680 --> 03:59:48.079
body all the time, although they do give off a

1534
03:59:48.120 --> 03:59:53.479
sigh of relief when I sit down, as in fact,

1535
03:59:53.520 --> 04:00:00.559
my whole legs do. My feet fe or so go

1536
04:00:02.479 --> 04:00:03.399
my toes clap.

1537
04:00:04.559 --> 04:00:10.040
We're so happy.

1538
04:00:25.040 --> 04:00:34.319
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1539
04:00:34.319 --> 04:00:40.760
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1540
04:00:40.799 --> 04:00:46.399
most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1541
04:00:49.239 --> 04:00:56.000
they're boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your

1542
04:00:56.079 --> 04:01:16.680
legs are amazing, Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1543
04:01:16.719 --> 04:01:29.360
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1544
04:01:29.440 --> 04:01:53.159
out of the day to just let go completely. Your

1545
04:01:53.280 --> 04:02:11.120
legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1546
04:02:12.120 --> 04:02:16.959
such a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1547
04:02:18.200 --> 04:02:20.840
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1548
04:02:21.479 --> 04:02:40.239
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1549
04:02:40.319 --> 04:02:45.319
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1550
04:02:48.559 --> 04:02:53.200
and also my lower back as well. My lower back

1551
04:02:53.399 --> 04:02:58.959
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1552
04:02:59.000 --> 04:03:05.040
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1553
04:03:05.040 --> 04:03:08.120
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1554
04:03:08.239 --> 04:03:12.200
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1555
04:03:12.360 --> 04:03:37.040
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1556
04:03:37.079 --> 04:03:44.639
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1557
04:03:44.799 --> 04:04:14.239
and you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1558
04:04:18.840 --> 04:04:46.879
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1559
04:04:46.959 --> 04:04:52.399
count down from five down to one. And as a countdown,

1560
04:04:53.639 --> 04:04:58.680
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1561
04:05:00.120 --> 04:05:09.079
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1562
04:05:10.799 --> 04:05:15.239
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1563
04:05:15.360 --> 04:05:28.479
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1564
04:05:28.479 --> 04:05:36.879
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I'll just notice

1565
04:05:36.879 --> 04:05:42.959
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1566
04:05:43.639 --> 04:06:00.760
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four,

1567
04:06:10.200 --> 04:06:46.000
three two one. Now, as you notice the gradual letting

1568
04:06:46.079 --> 04:06:55.479
go the detension in your body, you may also begin

1569
04:06:55.760 --> 04:07:01.840
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1570
04:07:02.840 --> 04:07:10.680
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1571
04:07:11.159 --> 04:07:18.559
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1572
04:07:18.719 --> 04:07:24.959
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1573
04:07:25.000 --> 04:07:29.719
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1574
04:07:29.760 --> 04:07:35.040
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1575
04:07:41.040 --> 04:07:49.600
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1576
04:07:49.719 --> 04:07:55.000
even even if there's background sounds, either your side or

1577
04:07:55.040 --> 04:08:02.879
mind is still going to be quite calm. You know,

1578
04:08:02.920 --> 04:08:07.600
you haven't got the television on, there's no music in

1579
04:08:07.639 --> 04:08:10.520
the background, unless you're listening to the recorded with music.

1580
04:08:10.639 --> 04:08:17.840
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1581
04:08:17.840 --> 04:08:21.159
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

1582
04:08:21.200 --> 04:08:25.639
but generally it's more ideal if you can do this

1583
04:08:25.760 --> 04:08:36.840
on your own, so no distractions, and when you stop

1584
04:08:36.920 --> 04:08:52.360
thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort

1585
04:08:54.120 --> 04:09:03.000
starts to grow, and without trying to build it up

1586
04:09:03.040 --> 04:09:14.200
into something fantastical or something magical, this is just a

1587
04:09:14.360 --> 04:09:26.920
natural process, something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's

1588
04:09:27.000 --> 04:09:35.239
almost the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you

1589
04:09:35.360 --> 04:09:39.360
put no effort into it. It's not something that you

1590
04:09:39.440 --> 04:09:50.680
can really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part

1591
04:09:51.239 --> 04:10:01.959
of the process of this recording and others is simple two.

1592
04:10:03.559 --> 04:10:14.000
Allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1593
04:10:16.959 --> 04:10:28.079
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1594
04:10:28.479 --> 04:10:41.920
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1595
04:10:44.120 --> 04:10:55.600
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1596
04:10:56.760 --> 04:11:01.959
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1597
04:11:03.680 --> 04:11:18.760
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1598
04:11:19.959 --> 04:11:24.479
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1599
04:11:24.520 --> 04:11:31.479
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1600
04:11:32.600 --> 04:11:55.120
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1601
04:11:55.120 --> 04:12:03.280
can also if you choose stay focus on my voice

1602
04:12:03.920 --> 04:12:35.479
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1603
04:12:35.520 --> 04:13:02.879
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1604
04:13:03.040 --> 04:13:18.639
go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

1605
04:13:19.680 --> 04:13:31.719
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1606
04:13:32.000 --> 04:13:36.440
down more with each number.

1607
04:13:37.719 --> 04:13:39.159
That you hear me.

1608
04:13:39.120 --> 04:16:03.239
Say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and be peaceful. Six, five, four, three, two?

1609
04:16:26.879 --> 04:16:57.879
What being aware? How your mind to slow right down,

1610
04:17:01.120 --> 04:17:24.520
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1611
04:17:24.799 --> 04:17:37.319
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1612
04:17:37.319 --> 04:17:46.879
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1613
04:17:46.959 --> 04:18:02.200
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1614
04:18:02.399 --> 04:18:16.040
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love, like all

1615
04:18:16.159 --> 04:18:21.840
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1616
04:18:21.879 --> 04:18:29.639
filled with love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts over.

1617
04:18:31.920 --> 04:18:37.399
You're not abandoned in them. You just need them. You

1618
04:18:37.559 --> 04:18:49.399
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down

1619
04:18:52.959 --> 04:19:04.799
for now. So as you focus on those remaining thoughts,

1620
04:19:05.959 --> 04:19:09.760
as we count down this time from seven down to

1621
04:19:09.840 --> 04:19:19.520
one with each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals

1622
04:19:20.200 --> 04:19:38.319
of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow

1623
04:19:38.440 --> 04:19:48.920
them to just melt away and relax deeply of every number,

1624
04:19:54.760 --> 04:20:12.120
those thoughts will become more a more relaxed. Starting with

1625
04:20:12.360 --> 04:22:39.600
number seven, six, five, four, three, two one. As you

1626
04:22:39.799 --> 04:23:05.280
now notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body, we're

1627
04:23:05.360 --> 04:23:19.079
going to focus on your hands because the more relaxed

1628
04:23:19.159 --> 04:23:26.360
your hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1629
04:23:41.319 --> 04:23:41.920
And there's.

1630
04:23:43.440 --> 04:23:53.639
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1631
04:23:54.120 --> 04:23:58.879
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1632
04:24:00.040 --> 04:24:10.040
and it's in the fingers or anything like that. It's

1633
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just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing.

1634
04:24:23.799 --> 04:24:40.760
How they feel. Because the more.

1635
04:24:42.799 --> 04:24:53.360
Relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and

1636
04:24:53.520 --> 04:25:08.079
the more comforts you feel throughout your body. And gee

1637
04:25:10.680 --> 04:25:42.040
may have already noticed you mind is starting to dressed

1638
04:25:55.799 --> 04:26:10.600
like saim just on your hands and fingers, allowing them

1639
04:26:11.159 --> 04:26:24.600
to experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your

1640
04:26:24.719 --> 04:26:43.600
hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number.

1641
04:26:51.079 --> 04:26:52.040
From eight.

1642
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Down to one, you.

1643
04:27:00.319 --> 04:27:11.520
Can almost feel the healing and relaxing energy spreading into

1644
04:27:11.600 --> 04:27:30.879
your hands and fingers becoming year law relaxing with each

1645
04:27:31.319 --> 04:27:49.120
number you hear, going down eight down to one, drifting

1646
04:27:52.840 --> 04:30:19.959
drifting again startingly dumba eight seven six four four.

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Three.

1648
04:31:59.479 --> 04:32:08.959
Just be here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1649
04:32:10.399 --> 04:32:24.360
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1650
04:32:24.600 --> 04:32:32.360
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1651
04:32:32.479 --> 04:32:39.399
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1652
04:32:39.799 --> 04:32:46.760
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1653
04:32:46.959 --> 04:33:03.200
worrying and overthinking, anxiety and tangion, just generally thinking about stuff.

1654
04:33:05.360 --> 04:33:06.159
You take that.

1655
04:33:06.279 --> 04:33:10.240
Away, which is what we do. What we do now

1656
04:33:16.560 --> 04:33:27.840
you're left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes

1657
04:33:27.959 --> 04:33:37.319
to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1658
04:33:41.680 --> 04:33:50.080
a feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside

1659
04:33:50.080 --> 04:34:02.279
yourself and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1660
04:34:05.240 --> 04:34:10.680
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1661
04:34:12.759 --> 04:34:19.119
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1662
04:34:23.799 --> 04:34:30.840
where you can accept yourself for who you are, the

1663
04:34:30.919 --> 04:34:37.400
place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

1664
04:34:41.439 --> 04:34:50.040
the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1665
04:34:50.119 --> 04:34:55.560
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself

1666
04:34:58.040 --> 04:35:15.400
appreciate who you are. That sense of gratitude is in

1667
04:35:15.479 --> 04:35:26.000
the air all around you, and that's also a place

1668
04:35:26.159 --> 04:35:36.400
where you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into

1669
04:35:36.439 --> 04:35:53.880
your body, healing energy soaking into your body, and the

1670
04:35:54.119 --> 04:36:04.360
healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each and

1671
04:36:04.680 --> 04:36:15.599
every single part of your body. When you start to

1672
04:36:15.680 --> 04:36:23.240
realize that actually that healing energy it's not just entered

1673
04:36:23.279 --> 04:36:34.799
into your brain, it's become part of your brain, and

1674
04:36:34.959 --> 04:36:46.759
the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not

1675
04:36:47.080 --> 04:36:55.040
just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and

1676
04:36:55.319 --> 04:37:07.840
healthy in this moment, but also you start to realize

1677
04:37:08.040 --> 04:37:18.000
to actually, what's happening now without a healing, relaxing energy

1678
04:37:18.919 --> 04:37:30.919
spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life. It's

1679
04:37:30.959 --> 04:37:36.639
actually changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

1680
04:37:38.279 --> 04:37:48.680
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1681
04:37:48.680 --> 04:37:56.319
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1682
04:37:56.439 --> 04:38:01.680
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1683
04:38:02.880 --> 04:38:10.439
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1684
04:38:10.560 --> 04:38:22.240
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things they used

1685
04:38:22.279 --> 04:38:32.959
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1686
04:38:33.639 --> 04:38:41.680
power to control you the way they seem to be

1687
04:38:41.720 --> 04:38:49.919
able to before. As you realize.

1688
04:38:49.720 --> 04:38:54.599
That you are the one.

1689
04:38:52.840 --> 04:39:04.639
Who decides what affects you, You're the one who decides

1690
04:39:07.400 --> 04:39:18.479
to feel relaxed, and calm when you choose to enjoy

1691
04:39:20.000 --> 04:39:35.560
noticing these natural developments and healing, continuing to grow and

1692
04:39:35.720 --> 04:39:47.040
improve your life day by day, including of course your

1693
04:39:47.119 --> 04:40:04.560
ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's the

1694
04:40:04.599 --> 04:40:15.439
most natural thing in the world to you because falling

1695
04:40:15.520 --> 04:40:22.279
the sleep is something that you've done so many times

1696
04:40:23.959 --> 04:40:29.840
in your life, and you know that you were born,

1697
04:40:31.080 --> 04:40:37.759
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

1698
04:40:42.040 --> 04:40:53.840
You're born with that ability to just drift off into

1699
04:40:53.919 --> 04:41:06.799
a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes we'll

1700
04:41:06.880 --> 04:41:11.200
fall asleep and we don't even want to try to

1701
04:41:11.759 --> 04:41:16.080
stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or

1702
04:41:16.159 --> 04:41:20.439
it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1703
04:41:20.959 --> 04:41:22.200
We don't want to go to sleep.

1704
04:41:24.400 --> 04:41:29.400
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1705
04:41:29.639 --> 04:41:37.959
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1706
04:41:38.599 --> 04:41:39.040
the more.

1707
04:41:38.919 --> 04:41:41.119
You try to stop yourself and drift in a.

1708
04:41:41.200 --> 04:41:54.319
Safe the deeper and stronger thout drifting becomes. Because we're

1709
04:41:54.400 --> 04:42:01.319
born not just with the need to relax deeply and

1710
04:42:01.479 --> 04:42:11.439
to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part

1711
04:42:11.479 --> 04:42:23.319
of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older in life.

1712
04:42:23.639 --> 04:42:37.040
Perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It

1713
04:42:37.159 --> 04:43:00.080
is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1714
04:43:01.759 --> 04:43:09.279
It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1715
04:43:09.319 --> 04:43:09.680
it is.

1716
04:43:09.759 --> 04:43:10.400
It's just.

1717
04:43:13.759 --> 04:43:25.240
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1718
04:43:25.319 --> 04:43:35.599
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1719
04:43:35.799 --> 04:43:43.959
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1720
04:43:44.919 --> 04:43:53.360
you have given me permission for my words to effect

1721
04:43:55.880 --> 04:44:07.720
you in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up

1722
04:44:12.880 --> 04:44:25.919
the mind, too useful and healing suggestions.

1723
04:44:30.479 --> 04:44:31.599
They can have.

1724
04:44:35.680 --> 04:44:43.319
Such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1725
04:44:47.880 --> 04:44:57.720
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1726
04:44:57.799 --> 04:45:08.560
recording ends, Those changes within you to continue to flourish

1727
04:45:09.360 --> 04:45:23.959
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1728
04:45:27.000 --> 04:45:34.119
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1729
04:45:34.159 --> 04:45:52.200
correction that you choose for yourself. This feeling, this feeling

1730
04:45:52.479 --> 04:46:08.000
that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, this feels

1731
04:46:08.080 --> 04:46:20.599
so nice. It's such a healthy place.

1732
04:46:21.000 --> 04:46:32.000
To be, and that positivity.

1733
04:46:32.240 --> 04:46:51.000
Grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you

1734
04:46:51.400 --> 04:47:02.439
had to find you're more relaxed physically and in your

1735
04:47:02.520 --> 04:47:12.680
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower.

1736
04:47:14.880 --> 04:47:18.319
It's just that your mind would be less under looked

1737
04:47:18.400 --> 04:47:29.880
up if unnecessary negativity, because from now on, your mind

1738
04:47:30.119 --> 04:47:40.080
rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to start noticing

1739
04:47:43.279 --> 04:47:58.840
when negativity arises. You can just say stop, stop, and

1740
04:47:58.840 --> 04:48:13.880
then negativity will turn around and leave you alone. Stop

1741
04:48:18.080 --> 04:48:20.200
and the negativity.

1742
04:48:22.520 --> 04:48:23.439
Would disappear.

1743
04:48:31.560 --> 04:48:38.080
And that you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1744
04:48:39.479 --> 04:48:55.319
than you probably expected. Meek, Now, congratulate yourself because you're

1745
04:48:55.799 --> 04:49:02.439
the person that has done this. You another one that

1746
04:49:02.479 --> 04:49:10.520
has opened your mind up to the simple facts, and

1747
04:49:10.720 --> 04:49:14.720
you can feel more relaxed than your body.

1748
04:49:15.439 --> 04:49:23.040
And in your mind, you've.

1749
04:49:22.880 --> 04:49:28.799
Opened your mind up to the birthright of being able

1750
04:49:28.840 --> 04:49:29.360
to just.

1751
04:49:32.119 --> 04:49:34.159
Or asleep easily.

1752
04:49:34.680 --> 04:49:47.279
When you choose. That's a nice feeling.

1753
04:49:48.400 --> 04:49:49.040
Don't you think?

1754
04:49:51.759 --> 04:49:52.520
Who's nice?

1755
04:49:52.599 --> 04:49:53.240
Doesn't it.

1756
04:49:56.080 --> 04:50:02.959
To feel calm? Who My healing energy is spreading through

1757
04:50:03.000 --> 04:50:13.319
your body in your mind to spend time in a

1758
04:50:15.479 --> 04:50:31.959
special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is bad,

1759
04:50:33.000 --> 04:50:41.319
It's bad, it's not allowed. Intrigue doesn't doesn't. This doesn't

1760
04:50:41.520 --> 04:50:48.880
deserve to be here, It doesn't be long here. Negativity

1761
04:50:49.040 --> 04:51:03.159
has no place in your life, which makes room for

1762
04:51:03.560 --> 04:51:17.159
more confident more eathing, more relaxation, peace.

1763
04:51:34.240 --> 04:51:35.439
It as nice as that.

1764
04:51:37.400 --> 04:52:05.439
Just everything m count down now from twenty down to one.

1765
04:52:07.319 --> 04:52:19.599
He can continue to relax if he chooses, cared to sleep.

1766
04:52:22.880 --> 04:52:27.720
A different number. He me say.

1767
04:52:31.799 --> 04:52:35.959
You can feel twice is relaxed.

1768
04:52:38.279 --> 04:52:42.799
Or he cheeses you can feel the wise to sleep.

1769
04:52:49.360 --> 04:52:55.959
Now twenty.

1770
04:53:04.560 --> 04:54:21.479
Ninety eight seventy six Joy Day.

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No.

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Y four