Sept. 3, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Tidying Up | LMBYTS #1427 | Jason Newland | 3rd September 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Tidying Up | LMBYTS #1427 | Jason Newland | 3rd September 2025
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Hello and welcome to Jasondewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland. This.

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What's he doing? This is let me boy you to sleep.

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Before I started this recording, then he was cuddled up

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to me on the sofa, just chilling out. As soon

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as I start talking, literally I'm getting a thing set up,

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getting a microphone put there in front of me and

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all that stuff. The second I start talking. As soon

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as I say hello and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com,

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he jumps off and goes and finds something to chew on.

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It is the same as when he's like down, because

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you'll probably end up at the end of this recording

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back here lying down next to me. And as soon

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as I say, well, thank you for listening, Remember to

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be kind to yourself, blah blah blah, lots of love, bye,

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it jumps up. So I don't know why. I think

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it might be because you're a dog. I don't know.

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I don't know. So it's Wednesday. I don't know what

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day of the month. What month is September? Yes, definitely September, Thursday,

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the third of September two thy and twenty five. It's

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currently eleven minutes to nine PM, m hm, I haven't.

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I haven't made a recording since Saturday. Not really felt

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particularly well, not not really yeah, not not yeah, just

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not not felt great. So I'm still not feeling particularly great.

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But I thought, because the statistics are so ridiculously bad

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on my podcast statistics, I thought I'd better make a

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recording because literally, honest, today, according to the stats right

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now so far today, bearing in mind, is only three

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hours or four hours left, because I think it starts

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at one in the morning, but let's say it's just

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over three hours left of the day. One hundred and

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seventy four downloads, So my podcasts have been listened by

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maximum one hundred and seventy four people in a whole day. Now,

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I'm not bragging, obviously that's really low. That's like, now,

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I'd be pleased with that. Probably the first few months,

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maybe even the first year or two of making recordings,

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I wouldn't. But you know, I'm just saying it's like,

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potentially it's one hundred and seventy four people. That's quite

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a lot of people. But I always thought that maybe

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some of my older stuff might be listened to if

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I don't make a new recording every day. But doesn't

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seem to be the case, which you know, it's fair

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enough whatever, because you know, we want what we want,

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don't we or we like what we like. And I

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suppose it would be kind of weird in some ways

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listening to a recording from two thoy and nineteen, for example,

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because I'm talking about things, very different things to what

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I would talk about now, and there'd be a different

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animal running around making noise. I remember this one time,

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I was sitting over there. I'm pointing. It's not useful, really,

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is it? When you can't see what I'm doing, but

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see the other side of the room. And I'm at

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my table and Andre, my little ferret, has got strategically placed.

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I think about five different carrier bags dotted around the room,

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and he's literally running from one to the other, rolling

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around in it, making as much noise as possible, and

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then running over to the next one and making as

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much noise. Like the really crinkly carrier bags, ones that

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perhaps you get from a petrol station, you know, the white,

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white white. They might not be white, but they're particularly crinkly,

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or maybe you get your takeaway in them, if you

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get a takeaway meal or something just you know, like

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the really cheap, flimsy ones that basically you can't hold

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much in them. You wouldn't use it to go on

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holiday with, you know, to packing all your gear and

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all your stuff in. I mean generally you shouldn't be

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taking gear on holiday. Depends depends how you use that word.

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I suppose you could get arrested. Rah. So yeah, I

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that might be weird to listen back to those recordings.

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It might even be weird for me because I have

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started when I've started as and I've never done it.

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But over the last few months, I've been listening to

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my recordings a bit more often, just to get a

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sense of what it's like to listen to me me me,

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and I do send myself to sleep, and I've noticed that,

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even if it's just for a nap, I kind of

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feel better afterwards. So it's kind of yeah, I mean

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it's not the best. Is it a litmus test what

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I call it? But you know, doing it on myself.

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But there's someone of the garden showing that drummy. I

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don't know who that is. I don't know what drummy

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is with h weird drummy? What's drummy? Maybe it's a cat.

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Oh when I was in London. Well, here she goes again.

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Really weird because the window is open. Vinnie's just noticed it.

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He didn't even notice it, but normally that gets embarking.

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Hears sold in the garden shouting. We're not shouting but

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calling rather. Maybe Vinnie was just like slightly looking around, thinking,

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who's making more noise than me? How dare they? Ah,

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he's loving that. Wow. It was ever a nap a

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little while ago, about an hour ago, half seven, and

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he woke me up and he just stared at me,

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started licking my face and basically pushing me because he

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wanted me to get up. So in the end I

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said okay, and I go to take the covers off

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and he's pushing the covers on me, so I can't

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get the covers off. But make your mind up. You

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want me to get up or you don't want me

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to get up. But I think what he wanted was

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like a little fight, you know, a little playtime. So

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we had a little play He does this thing where

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he just stares. It's really weird waking up to that stare,

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just like just you know, and then he turns his

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head from side to side. Sometimes it goes all the

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way around and it's just like.

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Just stairs.

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And I'm like, what do you want? And then other

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times he completely ignores me.

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You know.

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I try and give him something, a little bit of

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food or something which I know he normally likes, it'll

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turn his head away. I don't think I'm never going

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to figure it out. What was I going to say?

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What else? I don't know. Oh, yeah, I've been tidying

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up the last few days. Well I've been tidying up

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for about a month okay, three years, but being focused

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on it for about a month, and they're not they're

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not focusing on it. It kind of all started when

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I decided to ask my neighbors downstairs if they'd helped

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me to put my TV onto the wall. I already

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had a bracket, bought a bracket like two three years

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ago whatever when I got the TV four years ago,

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I think, so they came up the bracket was too small,

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so and I'm thinking, oh, because I had this it

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was originally well, I had the TV on top of

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a wardrobe, but it was like I had the wardrobe

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on inside and it was just the right size to

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hold this TV. Because it's quite a big TV but

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also down. But I took the door off the wardrobe

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and it left me with that big bit in you know,

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the space. And Andre used to use that space for

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his play area, so all his toys was in there,

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his water and his food. I also used it for

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Vinnie for his water and food as well, and it

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was just a good place to have stuff that could

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be his stuff. And I kind of kept it. So

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I had it like that for years, even though I

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had the bracket. I kind of liked it as it

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was because it suited the situation, you know. And then

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more recently I decided I didn't want that thing here anymore.

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I wanted it gone, and I wanted to it just

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seemed a little bit cluttered in here in this room,

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in the living room, a little bit a little bit

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too too much stuff. It's not really but two what

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I mean is I don't like stuff. I don't like

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obstacles in a room. If possible for me, this is

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my personal preference. I like things to be on the

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near the wall, so the area between the walls is

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kind of clear clear I'm not talking about empty, but clearish,

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so I can get out from here and walk over

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to the door and not have any obstacles and not

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have to walk around anything. In the same way, I

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wouldn't have a table in front of my chair. And

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I've got reclined chair. And before you're thinking, wow, he's

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doing well for himself, he's got a big reclining sofa.

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This is probably about nine hundred years old. It's not

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even it's like probably fifth hand, not secondhand. It's been

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through I don't even want to know where it's been

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in the past, and its falling apart. It's broken in fact,

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but it's relatively comfortable, so I'm going to keep a

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bit for a while longer. I've only had it, probably

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only had it only for a few years. Well, I

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probably have had it for about five years. It's ridiculous

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and it only seems like a couple of years, but

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maybe five or six years. I've had this because I

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used to have a reclining chair, which was I can

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tell exactly. It's about one hundred and forty nine pounds.

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It was. I liked that chair, but I broke it

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on the very first day. Before you shout out, what

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what did you do? Sit in it? Your big fat

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bum like OI would be rude to me pretty much.

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It really yeah, And there was one time where I

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sat I was sitting in it and I leant back

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and the thing did break and I got trapped whilst

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I was doing a recording. It wasn't on camera, but

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I literally got trapped backwards against the wall. In fact,

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I'm still there now help. A similar thing happened in

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a shop. Where was that shop? Wow?

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Where was it?

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Because I went into this shop and they had these

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chairs way out of my price range, but they were

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really really nice chairs and also kind of mechanical. I

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think some of them had like message and things like that,

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you know, and electrical reclining. I think they were basically

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for very elderly people. I think that's maybe people with

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physical I don't want the right word, is the correct word,

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that need a bit of help physically to kind of

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to recline and stuff like that. Because my Nan had

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a chair because she was disabled. I don't want to

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use the word disabled. But it's not it's not a

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swear word, is it. I'm disabled just mentally, I'm not

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not physically. My Nan was disabled because she broke a

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hip and she had this chair which used to not

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only did it recline, it unclined. I'm not sure if

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that's the right word. She could, she could sit down.

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Sitting down wasn't really difficult for her. Getting up was

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so he used to help her get up, used to

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push her out culor hands cutlor hands would just like

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appear from behind and push her out of the chair. No,

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it would kind of mechanically straighten up, which would help

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her to get out of the chair, which is amazing.

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I'm not sure what they're called. It's a very expensive chair,

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but it was really good and she didn't like it.

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She didn't I think when she first got it, because

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she had two chairs and a little table in between,

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and there was a sofa the other side of the room.

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This is when she had the sheltered accommodation. So I

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should explain what sheltered accommodation is for people that don't

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live in the UK. It might be the same term

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wherever you are, but it was basically what happened is

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she broke a hip in two thousand and two thousand, No,

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in yeah, two thousand and one summer, and she was

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still she was living in the house where she lived

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with my granddad for many years, but there were stairs,

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and she went back to the house continued to live

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her life. Finny, can you make a bit more noise please? Thanks?

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He always does as well, whenever say that, it always

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makes bore noise. Very clever. She Yeah, she went back

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to living there because she she loved that house. That

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was her at my granddad's house. It was a family

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house because we lived there before they did, so it's

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always had always been in the family, and that was

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her home and she would have had it to be

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her home forever, you know, for the rest of her life.

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But then she was struggling with the stairs, and then

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she unfortunately broke a hip again and the other I

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think it was the other hip, and then I might

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not have the timeline correct, but I think then she

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kind of had to move somewhere where there was no

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stairs and where there was at least someone that could

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look out for her, somewhere where there was someone on call,

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you know, someone was there most of the time. But

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she still had her own independence. So this flat she had,

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well I'm sure there was some upstairs flats as well,

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so it wasn't just for people that were needed ground floor,

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but she had it's mainly ground floor she had. I

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think they even had couples living there. But she had

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his flat one bedroom flat, and there was a bedroom

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which is quite small, like it was big enough for

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the bed, a wardrobe, built in wardrobe, and that's about it.

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So there wasn't, you know, not ideal if for someone

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that was stuck in bed, or someone that was in

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bed a lot of the time, that would not be

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an ideal flat. But I suppose technically you could just

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put the bed into the living room so there would

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be a lot more room. So you know, it depends.

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You've just got to kind of figure a way around it,

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I suppose. So she just did what I did in

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my bedroom. Okay, that sounded weird, but I mean as

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far as she just slept in there and then wasn't

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in there the rest of the day. She was out

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in the living room. And I'm the same. I don't

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spend any time in my bedroom other than when I'm

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in bed. Now, some people listen to this might think yeah,

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and everyone else as well, everyone does that. Well, not necessarily,

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because in the past I lived in many, many, many

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many rooms where all it was was just a bed,

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sometimes a table and a chair. So I would watch TV.

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I would live in a room. You know, I'd be

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going out to work, then i'd get home and I'd

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be in that room. Another weekend, I'd be in that

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room the whole time unless I went out. And yeah,

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I'm just just I guess trying to explain it. It's

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like I got used to living like that. I lived

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like that for a long long time, pretty much most

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of my adult life until I was forty five, so

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you know, for nearly thirty years I lived like that.

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There's been times when I didn't, but most of the time,

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you know, I've had a couple of studio apartments, never

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had a flat before like this, not like this, like

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a council flat. I've lived in. I've lived in flats,

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I've lived in different places, but most of where I've

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lived has been in one room in a house like shared.

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What do they call it multiple occupancy MBOBOM multiple occupancy

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property MOP MOP. I don't know there's a certain term

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for it. It didn't used to be. It just used

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to be somewhere to live. How they've got terms multiple

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occupancy property MOP. It's a MOP A game, multiple occupancy

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of mom, occupancy of multiple om M. I don't know.

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So that's kind of how I lived my life for

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nearly thirty years old and off, so I was used

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to it and when I moved in here, because that's

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how I was. I mean, yes's how I was living before.

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Before I moved in here, I was just in one room,

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and and before that, I was in one room. And

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before that, I was in one room. And before that,

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I was in one room. Although I did that, I

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did have access to a living room downstairs. And before that,

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I was in one room, and before that, I was

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in a studio apartment, so it's still one room. Before that,

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I was in one room. Before that, I was in

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one room. Before that, I was in one room. Before that,

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I was in one room.

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BlimE me.

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Before that, I was in one room. No, I was

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sharing a flat, so it was a living room and

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I had a bedroom, so I was sharing a flat

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of a friend. Before that, I was in one room.

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Before that, I was in a blame me, I was

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sharing a room with someone. Before that I was, I

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was in one room. There was a living room, but

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I didn't use it. I basically just used to sort

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of spend all my time on my own in the room.

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So yeah, I lived in one room. Before that, I

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lived like shared a house. I was just renting a

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room in the house. But I was friends with a person,

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so you know, it wasn't so much just living in

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one room. Before that, I was living in one room

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for four years. And then before that, I was living

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in one room. There's quite a few rooms. Yeah, I

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before I was living in one room. Before that, I

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had a studio, a little studio thing, so it was

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one room. So yeah, and before that, I was in

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a room, but I could use living room because I

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was staying at my dad's and before that it was

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his previous house as well. So again I had a

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bedroom and it was only for a few couple of months,

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about three months, and I stayed there, but I could

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use the living room. So I kind of wasn't really

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stuck to one room. But I did used to do

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that because I've watched TV and stuff so when I

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was working. So yeah, before that, I'm doing quite wellly

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I'm going back to all different rooms. So before that

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I was living oh oh yeah, I was in London,

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so again, so I was in one room. Before that,

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I was just staying with someone temporarily on the couch.

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Before that I was living. It was a weird setup

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because me and a friend rented two rooms. I had

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one room, he had the other room. And this was

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in a house and I had the bedroom and he

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had the living room or we used his bedroom as

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a living room. I don't know. It's kind of a

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strange setup. But previously that I was living, I was

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living in a room with him. There was two beds,

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so I was sharing a room, sharing a room. I'll

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be honest with you, I don't know how many should

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do it, but yeah I did. I shared a room

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for it wasn't long, it was I don't think it

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was more much more than a month or so. Before that,

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I had a room, one room, but that room that

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we shared of just one room. So yeah, before that,

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I was in just one room. And before that, I

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was justing, well, I'm just going to figure this one out.

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To move from there? Where did they moved to there from?

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Oh?

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Do do do? I can't remember?

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Oh?

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Okay, Yeah, I was sharing. I was living in someone's flat.

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I was sleeping on the floor while a little basically

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cushions made from the sofa from the sofa cushions, so

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it wasn't really a home as such. And before that

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I was living in a room. And before that, this

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is very repetitive, isn't it. Before that, now this isn't

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This isn't the same, This isn't organized correctly. Wait a minute,

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before that, before that?

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Before?

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Where was I? Before that? I'm losing track of where

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I am now, okay on Yeah, yeah, that's weird, not

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fair enough. So before that I was in a room.

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And then because yeah, I went to Spain for the

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day and then got kicked out there. So before yeah,

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so before that place, I was living at my dad's

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for a little while for a couple of months. And

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before that I was living in a room. Before that,

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I was living in a room. And before that I

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was living in a flat above the co op supermarket.

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That was what nineteen eighty eight, and I had a room.

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I mean, there was I s I've I always I

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spent most of my time in my room, but there

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was a l there was a living room there as well,

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sort of a TV and stuff. But I've always kind

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of preferred to just be on me own anyway, So

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that would be I thought I quite liked living there. Well,

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it was handy cause it was downstairs the walk. In fact,

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I think I was later. I was getting getting to

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it later than I was before. Yeah, And then going back.

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I was Yeah.

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Then before that I was living at my dad's again

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for a little while. Then f I'm going backwardsn't I Wow?

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Then before that I was living at the chip shop,

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so I had my own flat. I'm going to have missed.

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I've missed some of the things out, but it's fine.

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And then before that, I can't remember every single place

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I've moved around so many. Oh, I've missed the whole

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I've missed a chunk out. There was another place I

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lived in a council flat. This was a few years back,

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and I had a room. It was a weird. It's

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quite a sad story, but I want to tell you

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the whole story. But it was Jim, my friend Jim

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who I worked with, and he just said, you want

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to move in. Lovely man, really lovely and really got

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on well with him, and I worked with him for

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a little while and then I didn't see him for Yeah,

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I didn't see him, probably just a couple of weeks.

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I didn't see him because it's something that happened at work.

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And then I see him outside of work, and he's

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like saying, well, things aren't going so well, and he's

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wants to try and rent his room out. So I thought, well,

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I'll help him out. He's helping me out as well.

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And yes, I moved into his council flat. Spent most

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of my time in the room when I wasn't working.

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But I didn't have to. You know, I could have gone,

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well I did. I always went and said low to him.

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I didn't. The thing is he was he liked to drink,

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but he was he was. He was a nice person,

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whether sober or drunk. He was just just a really

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nice person. And but I didn't back then, I never

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drunk alcohol. Yeah, because I was what was I um

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bum ba bum bum bum.

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I was.

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Nineteen. Yeah, I was nineteen at the time. I didn't

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didn't never was still a teenager. I didn't just drink.

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Just didn't drink. Wasn't wasn't something I did. And then yeah,

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So going back in further to the chip shop, I

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lived above the chip shop, so I did have my

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own living room. So the bedroom, living room, kitchen, and

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bathroom had to share the bathroom with the public, the

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customers from downstairs, which wasn't ideal, and eventually I moved

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pretty much everything into the living room and I just

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it's weird. So I ended up just sleeping on the floor.

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I sold everything, I dozed. It's one of those things.

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I ended up with nothing but a few tapes to

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listen to, Michael Jackson tapes and a few little bit

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of clothing and that was it. And then before that,

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I was sleeping on the floor. Well it was a

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little camper bed in another council flat where I yeah,

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that was when I was fifteen, and then I turned sixteen,

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so I was there from what kind of I don't know,

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early summertime and till March the next year, so nineteen

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eighty seven, and I just basically slept in the living room.

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So I mean, technically, you know, I did have a

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TV in my room, but unfortunately, when I turned it on,

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my step mother's or my step grandmother, my step mother's

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mother would come in and turn it off, which wasn't

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ideal because you know, I'd bear in my mind, I

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was what fifteen years old, sixteen years old, and I

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just got back from work, didn't finish work till nine

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I'll get back from work and then We're going to

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bed and I want to watch some TV. So I mean,

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maybe I had the TV on too loud. Well I'll

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keep getting told I did. But she would just walking

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and just turn it off. It was like, really, wow,

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it was Yeah, it's not easy, but then it wouldn't

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have been easy for her. She was used to living

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on her own, so well, yeah, she was used to

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living on her own, so it must have been weird

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having me there. And then before that, I was living

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in a room. I was living in a room at

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the top of this right at the top of the house.

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This is the family house, the new Land family House,

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and we were there from nineteen seventy nine till nineteen

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eighty six, so they're seven years and so I was

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in the room at the top of the bit of

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the top of the building. I had a TV for

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the last year I lived there, probably about a year.

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Oh man.

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I fell in love with that TV. It was so

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obviously it changed my change my life, just being able

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to watch for the first time, not the first time,

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because I could watch what I wanted on TV provide

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there was no one else in the house, you know,

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and that was rare. The only programs I got to

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watch that I wanted to watch on the main television

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in the living room was generally the kids programs because

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both my brothers were older than me and they didn't

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watch that stuff anymore. So I was able to watch that.

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And then my little brother was old enough and he

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wanted to watch the same stuff, and I'd end up

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watching it with him, things like Musket Hounds and.

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I don't know, I.

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Can't remember different Muppet babies, things like that, and then yeah,

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what was it? Terror Hawks? Wasn't that one as well?

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Terror Hawks?

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He Man?

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Danger Mouse? Mini Mouse? Was that Mini Mouse? Danger Mouse? Anyway?

474
00:42:45.639 --> 00:42:56.039
Remember that Danger Mouse? Great show? Mister what's the one?

475
00:42:56.960 --> 00:42:59.599
And he had lots of different gadget Gadget Man, wasn't

476
00:42:59.599 --> 00:43:04.199
it Gadget It Man? That used to be good Pink Panther.

477
00:43:05.400 --> 00:43:07.079
So there used to be lots of things, and I'd

478
00:43:07.119 --> 00:43:10.400
watch them with my little brother, a couple of my

479
00:43:10.440 --> 00:43:14.159
favorite things on a Saturday morning. We'd watch these and

480
00:43:14.199 --> 00:43:17.119
then continue to watch these when we moved again out

481
00:43:17.159 --> 00:43:22.320
of that house for you know, a few months. Saturday

482
00:43:22.320 --> 00:43:25.960
Morning Muppet Babies. But there was the Wide Awake Club

483
00:43:26.039 --> 00:43:31.199
that would be on during the holidays and on weekends.

484
00:43:31.719 --> 00:43:34.239
I'm not sure about Sundays, but definitely on a Saturday morning,

485
00:43:39.039 --> 00:43:41.360
and I would get my brother to wake me up.

486
00:43:43.800 --> 00:43:46.280
I just say to look, wake me up. Wait, wait,

487
00:43:46.480 --> 00:43:53.199
because you know, I didn't necessarily want to be woken

488
00:43:53.320 --> 00:43:58.320
up on a day, you know, like normal weekday, but

489
00:43:58.400 --> 00:44:00.719
on a Saturday morning. It was a good started a

490
00:44:00.760 --> 00:44:05.800
day because I always worked on a Saturday. But I

491
00:44:05.960 --> 00:44:10.239
liked I liked being woken up at seven o'clock or

492
00:44:10.440 --> 00:44:12.800
six thirty or something like that because I could just

493
00:44:13.880 --> 00:44:21.599
watch the cartoons with my little brother. And I kind

494
00:44:21.639 --> 00:44:24.400
of knew that that time was coming near to an

495
00:44:24.519 --> 00:44:32.480
end because he was, you know, he was heading off

496
00:44:32.679 --> 00:44:37.000
to a different part of the country with and I

497
00:44:37.119 --> 00:44:39.760
kind of that little period of time of us sort

498
00:44:39.800 --> 00:44:45.440
of sitting there watching cartoons was a valuable time for me,

499
00:44:45.920 --> 00:44:51.960
I guess. And yeah, it was like what was it

500
00:44:52.039 --> 00:44:59.599
the Fragle Rock, Fragle Rock, Muppet Babies. And then of

501
00:44:59.599 --> 00:45:03.000
course you at the Wide Away Club, we're wired a week.

502
00:45:03.599 --> 00:45:06.480
It's good to know you're already and we're wired a week.

503
00:45:07.360 --> 00:45:13.119
Do do do, Let's get see go. That's fairly by

504
00:45:13.159 --> 00:45:27.000
the way. That noise in the back ground, ohtho before that,

505
00:45:27.079 --> 00:45:30.880
I was downstairs in a different room, which was a

506
00:45:30.960 --> 00:45:35.079
much bigger room, which ended up being my little brother's room.

507
00:45:35.199 --> 00:45:41.840
So we kind of moved around around him really as

508
00:45:41.840 --> 00:45:45.760
he got older, because to start with, when he moved

509
00:45:45.800 --> 00:45:48.840
when we moved there, he had which you would probably

510
00:45:48.840 --> 00:45:52.280
classes like the box room if it had big enough

511
00:45:52.320 --> 00:45:53.840
for a bed. It was a small room, but it

512
00:45:53.880 --> 00:45:56.480
was big enough for a bed and toys and stuff.

513
00:45:57.239 --> 00:45:59.360
But he was tiny, you know, It's just it was

514
00:45:59.400 --> 00:46:03.119
like a year old. So he had that area. And

515
00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:07.599
then when he got to about, oh, I don't know

516
00:46:07.639 --> 00:46:12.960
what year it was, I would argue and I wouldn't argue,

517
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:24.519
but I would say probably probably the last two years

518
00:46:24.559 --> 00:46:29.920
of my schooling I was upstairs. Bearing in mind that

519
00:46:30.000 --> 00:46:37.280
a year last. Heck of a long time, you know,

520
00:46:37.519 --> 00:46:41.840
at the age of fourteen, a year is It's not

521
00:46:41.880 --> 00:46:46.239
a quick period, is it. Unfortunately or fortunately, depending on

522
00:46:46.320 --> 00:46:51.320
which way you look at it. So it might have

523
00:46:51.400 --> 00:46:56.280
been two years, but it might have been less because

524
00:46:56.280 --> 00:47:03.880
I'm thinking seventy nine, eighty eight, eighty three. Yeah, I'm

525
00:47:03.880 --> 00:47:08.559
thinking probably about in nineteen eighty three, maybe nineteen eighty two,

526
00:47:09.519 --> 00:47:14.119
but I'm thinking nineteen eighty three was when I went

527
00:47:14.199 --> 00:47:19.239
upstairs to the other room, which means I was only

528
00:47:19.280 --> 00:47:22.880
there for two years. I got more memories of being

529
00:47:22.960 --> 00:47:25.000
up there than I ever being down in the other room,

530
00:47:26.039 --> 00:47:34.519
which I was probably there for longer, BlimE me. So yeah,

531
00:47:34.679 --> 00:47:38.199
I think the only reason he really moved into the

532
00:47:38.199 --> 00:47:41.239
bigger room probably because he had his toys were getting

533
00:47:41.840 --> 00:47:44.639
He was getting more and more toys, so we needed

534
00:47:44.679 --> 00:47:51.119
more space, and also because I think my stepmum wanted

535
00:47:51.159 --> 00:48:01.280
a solarium or sunbed in that room, and so yeah,

536
00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:04.000
I think that's that's what everything kind of changed around

537
00:48:04.000 --> 00:48:08.639
a bit. So what happened is our games room upstairs,

538
00:48:09.159 --> 00:48:13.519
where we had a snooker table or Paul table was

539
00:48:13.559 --> 00:48:16.639
it Paul, I don't know, but also a tennis table

540
00:48:16.760 --> 00:48:22.079
went over it, and I think my granddad made that,

541
00:48:23.639 --> 00:48:29.440
and then we had music player and sort of sofa,

542
00:48:29.719 --> 00:48:32.360
so we'd kind of hang out up there, take friends

543
00:48:32.400 --> 00:48:37.960
a dance board as well, have friends up there. That

544
00:48:39.000 --> 00:48:42.880
got taken away, well got taken away, but that that

545
00:48:43.000 --> 00:48:46.440
kind of got emptied. So my oldest brother, who was

546
00:48:46.480 --> 00:48:50.679
living in the room I ended up in, moved and

547
00:48:50.719 --> 00:48:56.639
I moved into his room, and then my little brother

548
00:48:56.679 --> 00:48:59.880
moved into my room that I was in before, which

549
00:49:00.199 --> 00:49:05.400
was arguably the best room in the house, the best

550
00:49:05.719 --> 00:49:08.920
bedroom out of all of ours. And the reason I

551
00:49:08.960 --> 00:49:11.440
say that just because of the light and a lot

552
00:49:11.440 --> 00:49:16.800
of light coming in, and it was bigger than the

553
00:49:16.880 --> 00:49:21.639
other my other two brothers rooms, because the one I

554
00:49:21.719 --> 00:49:26.880
ended up in was a lot smaller, although I actually

555
00:49:27.039 --> 00:49:29.920
liked it. I liked that room. And then my other

556
00:49:29.960 --> 00:49:34.800
brother's room was kind of probably I'm not sure, maybe

557
00:49:34.800 --> 00:49:37.719
even smaller than mine, maybe the same size, I can't remember.

558
00:49:41.039 --> 00:49:44.400
I liked the room upstairs. I think I liked because

559
00:49:44.440 --> 00:49:46.360
it was upstairs. It was a bit out of the way,

560
00:49:47.480 --> 00:49:54.119
no longer, I don't know. It was nice to it's

561
00:49:54.119 --> 00:50:01.440
sort of like a little bit of privacy kind of. Yes,

562
00:50:01.519 --> 00:50:05.400
I'd probably in that room for about two years. So anyway,

563
00:50:05.480 --> 00:50:14.800
So before that, I was in the little room in

564
00:50:15.199 --> 00:50:21.599
my NaN's house where my we moved to as a

565
00:50:21.639 --> 00:50:26.280
family first time as a family in nineteen seventy eight,

566
00:50:26.360 --> 00:50:31.840
I think it was or nineteen No, it's about nineteen

567
00:50:31.920 --> 00:50:37.119
seventy eight, so you moved there. I had my own

568
00:50:37.159 --> 00:50:41.559
bedroom for the very first time in my life. It

569
00:50:41.639 --> 00:50:47.440
was amazing, and my other two brothers had bunk beds

570
00:50:47.719 --> 00:50:50.480
because I had a much bigger room. My room was

571
00:50:50.840 --> 00:50:53.840
again kind of like a box room, and that's where

572
00:50:53.840 --> 00:50:59.360
my little brother would have ended up if we had

573
00:50:59.360 --> 00:51:01.400
more rooms, but we didn't, so we had to kind

574
00:51:01.400 --> 00:51:03.599
of move out because my little brother was living in

575
00:51:03.679 --> 00:51:07.679
me or when he was born in the August of

576
00:51:08.039 --> 00:51:11.719
seventy eight, he's he was in the bedroom with my

577
00:51:12.679 --> 00:51:19.639
with the parents. And it's weird because we're nice to

578
00:51:19.719 --> 00:51:22.280
visit my name and sometimes I'd stay over and sleep

579
00:51:22.360 --> 00:51:31.480
in her house and I'd sleep in that that bedroom

580
00:51:31.519 --> 00:51:38.440
and to this day, it's still the best bedroom I

581
00:51:38.440 --> 00:51:47.760
think I ever slept in. And being in there next

582
00:51:47.800 --> 00:51:54.719
to my nan is and when I was in there before,

583
00:51:54.760 --> 00:51:57.480
I was next to my dad. You know, my parents

584
00:51:57.519 --> 00:51:59.920
were next to it when I was. They were they

585
00:52:00.440 --> 00:52:03.480
kind of my new parents really, But there was that

586
00:52:03.559 --> 00:52:08.599
safety safety not issue, but safety factor. There was that

587
00:52:08.719 --> 00:52:13.280
kind of feeling more safe, and I always had that

588
00:52:13.320 --> 00:52:15.239
as well with my nan. I felt safe when I

589
00:52:15.280 --> 00:52:21.280
was in her company and sleeping in that bed in

590
00:52:21.639 --> 00:52:26.440
that little room, my original first bedroom, even at the

591
00:52:26.440 --> 00:52:32.400
age of thirty nine or whatever I was, I can't

592
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:39.920
remember how when my nan moved into the place, but

593
00:52:40.000 --> 00:52:41.480
I was in my late thirties.

594
00:52:43.440 --> 00:52:44.239
No, I.

595
00:52:45.760 --> 00:52:48.559
Think the last time I remember sleeping in that place,

596
00:52:48.599 --> 00:52:50.480
and it might not be the last time, but the

597
00:52:50.559 --> 00:52:53.719
last time I remember, which was at Christmas, which was

598
00:52:53.760 --> 00:53:00.039
two thousand and four, when I was thirty four years old,

599
00:53:00.239 --> 00:53:13.079
So that's twenty six years. The twenty six year kind

600
00:53:13.079 --> 00:53:18.599
of period of sleeping in that room kind of. But

601
00:53:18.920 --> 00:53:22.159
you know, it wasn't that often. I mean sometimes I

602
00:53:22.199 --> 00:53:27.519
would sleep in the big bed. I once spent a

603
00:53:27.559 --> 00:53:31.480
whole week with them when my non and grandad were

604
00:53:31.480 --> 00:53:34.880
both my granddad were still around, and I slept in

605
00:53:34.880 --> 00:53:38.239
a big bed, and I think they at that time

606
00:53:38.280 --> 00:53:41.079
they were using the small room. I'm not quite sure

607
00:53:41.119 --> 00:53:44.800
what for I think, and this is a weird memory.

608
00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:48.039
I think my men had like a sewing machine in there.

609
00:53:50.679 --> 00:53:58.239
What weird memory. And then before that, so before that,

610
00:54:01.079 --> 00:54:06.599
living in that house when I was like so, I

611
00:54:06.639 --> 00:54:10.159
had actually I didn't have my own TV. And I

612
00:54:10.199 --> 00:54:12.360
didn't spend time in that room other than when I

613
00:54:12.440 --> 00:54:14.159
was playing or when I was in bed, you know,

614
00:54:14.920 --> 00:54:20.639
so I'd be downstairs watching TV. I still have the

615
00:54:20.800 --> 00:54:26.360
memory of when we were packing up and getting ready

616
00:54:26.400 --> 00:54:32.639
to move to the new house and everything was moved

617
00:54:32.760 --> 00:54:38.159
pretty much apart from the beds. In fact, I think

618
00:54:38.199 --> 00:54:42.360
we might have even been sleeping bags. Literally everything was

619
00:54:42.400 --> 00:54:47.760
packed away to be moved. There was in all the

620
00:54:47.880 --> 00:54:54.800
rooms were pretty much empty and just sitting on or

621
00:54:54.960 --> 00:55:00.480
standing at the window sill in my brother's bed room.

622
00:55:01.159 --> 00:55:04.000
My two brothers had bunk bits in there and just

623
00:55:04.079 --> 00:55:08.000
looking out at the motorway because we had a motorway

624
00:55:08.360 --> 00:55:12.320
in the back, and she's looking at the guard and

625
00:55:12.400 --> 00:55:17.960
then kind of it felt weird, and I was eight

626
00:55:18.079 --> 00:55:20.559
years old, but I kind of I feel it was

627
00:55:20.639 --> 00:55:28.400
quite I don't want to I was a thinker. A thinker,

628
00:55:28.760 --> 00:55:32.039
I don't know. I think I used to think about things.

629
00:55:32.159 --> 00:55:33.960
I mean, I'm sure everyone thinks about things, but I

630
00:55:34.039 --> 00:55:39.239
used to just really contemplate, like what does this mean?

631
00:55:43.840 --> 00:55:47.039
I used to do that sometimes when you know, when

632
00:55:47.079 --> 00:55:49.079
I was around my family, like what does this mean?

633
00:55:50.280 --> 00:55:52.000
What we're doing now? What does this mean?

634
00:55:52.360 --> 00:55:52.519
Was?

635
00:55:53.320 --> 00:55:56.679
What's the meaning of this? And sometimes I just hear

636
00:55:56.719 --> 00:55:59.960
it always saying, like, especially if I verbalized it, said,

637
00:56:01.320 --> 00:56:04.800
it's just a piece of lettuce, Jason. It's just it's

638
00:56:04.840 --> 00:56:07.440
on your plate. It's part of the sealad you can

639
00:56:07.480 --> 00:56:09.280
eat it or not, it's up to you. You don't have

640
00:56:09.320 --> 00:56:11.559
to eat it. There's plenty of other bits, you know.

641
00:56:11.559 --> 00:56:17.079
There's tomatoes, there's cucumber, there's other things on there. There's

642
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:21.599
some cheese. You don't have to eat the lettuce. I

643
00:56:21.719 --> 00:56:25.760
was like, okay, wow, you know I have to go

644
00:56:25.840 --> 00:56:30.599
to put a spotlight on media and she'd say, sorry

645
00:56:30.639 --> 00:56:32.239
about that, and she turned the light off.

646
00:56:33.519 --> 00:56:45.480
But that was weird. So I'm trying to think what

647
00:56:45.960 --> 00:56:46.760
did I do?

648
00:56:48.119 --> 00:56:52.440
Did did do? What? What? What? What? What?

649
00:56:56.559 --> 00:56:56.679
Oh?

650
00:56:56.719 --> 00:57:02.639
Yeah, So before that, I can't even remember. I know

651
00:57:02.679 --> 00:57:11.079
where he was. Were in a house with the new parents.

652
00:57:14.559 --> 00:57:19.119
The two kids were two brothers, rather older brothers, and

653
00:57:19.159 --> 00:57:24.159
the step mom the step grandparent rather sorry. So there

654
00:57:24.239 --> 00:57:28.639
was one, two, three, four, five, six of us in

655
00:57:28.679 --> 00:57:33.639
this house. I don't remember anywhere that I slept. I

656
00:57:33.719 --> 00:57:38.599
can't remember exactly where it was, but we weren't there

657
00:57:38.639 --> 00:57:45.119
for long. And then before that, so I probably shared

658
00:57:45.119 --> 00:57:50.000
a room with my brothers possibly, So before that, I

659
00:57:50.159 --> 00:57:57.719
lived in a dormitory with quite a few other kids.

660
00:57:59.800 --> 00:58:07.000
And before that I lived in the dormitory with other kids.

661
00:58:08.679 --> 00:58:14.440
Before that, I lived in My memory is I lived

662
00:58:14.480 --> 00:58:22.280
in a flat, council flat in Newcastle now I don't remember,

663
00:58:25.960 --> 00:58:29.920
and the sleeping arrangements, although I've got kind of a

664
00:58:29.920 --> 00:58:34.920
little outline on outlay of the flat in my head,

665
00:58:36.039 --> 00:58:38.920
which is kind of weird. But then I might have

666
00:58:38.920 --> 00:58:40.679
lived in more than one flats. It might be a

667
00:58:40.719 --> 00:58:47.719
mixture different flats. But I definitely didn't have me on TV.

668
00:58:48.039 --> 00:58:55.199
I know that for a fact. And in the children's

669
00:58:55.199 --> 00:59:01.440
homes we had a room for TV, so there would be,

670
00:59:01.880 --> 00:59:08.079
you know, a TV room or a lounge or something,

671
00:59:09.519 --> 00:59:15.639
so that would be there. I'm just trying to think

672
00:59:15.800 --> 00:59:21.880
maybe the girl that made me the or the lady

673
00:59:21.920 --> 00:59:27.840
that tickled me during the Planet of the Apes movie,

674
00:59:28.480 --> 00:59:34.559
that might have been a Newcastle, because for some reason,

675
00:59:34.639 --> 00:59:39.880
I've got more of a kind of there's more color

676
00:59:39.920 --> 00:59:44.760
in that memory than there is in the South End one.

677
00:59:45.440 --> 00:59:49.199
For me, that's just very kind of very gray ish.

678
00:59:50.480 --> 00:59:56.960
And my memory of watching TV there was it'd really

679
00:59:57.000 --> 01:00:00.559
be whatever the nuns wanted to watch, and they would

680
01:00:00.599 --> 01:00:09.039
sit around watching Crossroads or Emmerdale, I think, and it'd

681
01:00:09.039 --> 01:00:11.559
be on and then it'd be time for bed, not

682
01:00:11.559 --> 01:00:15.000
not for them but for us, and that would be

683
01:00:15.239 --> 01:00:22.920
like six o'clock, six point thirty something like that. Maybe seven.

684
01:00:23.000 --> 01:00:24.760
I don't. I don't know, but it was very early,

685
01:00:25.719 --> 01:00:29.920
bearing in mind I was twenty five, Yes, it's very early.

686
01:00:30.679 --> 01:00:37.280
And then before that anyway, so before that, going backwards

687
01:00:37.360 --> 01:00:45.960
from new Castle, yeah, so in the council flat, and

688
01:00:46.000 --> 01:00:53.239
then before that I remember, yes, I didn't would have

689
01:00:53.239 --> 01:00:58.559
had a TV then so well, just shared rooms with

690
01:00:58.639 --> 01:01:03.679
my brothers. Before that, I can't remember. There was a house.

691
01:01:03.719 --> 01:01:07.159
I remember this house. It was a terrace house. Is

692
01:01:07.199 --> 01:01:09.920
it a terrorists house for or just one one connected

693
01:01:09.960 --> 01:01:15.599
to another for as long as the eyes can see.

694
01:01:16.039 --> 01:01:17.920
And I was in a place like that. I don't

695
01:01:17.960 --> 01:01:21.599
know where it was, whether it was in London, whether

696
01:01:21.639 --> 01:01:26.639
it was in Newcastle. Apparently my oldest brother he was

697
01:01:26.679 --> 01:01:29.159
not apparently, but he told me that we were in

698
01:01:29.159 --> 01:01:33.159
Scotland for a while, so he remembers a lot more

699
01:01:33.159 --> 01:01:34.880
than I do, because he's four years older than me.

700
01:01:37.800 --> 01:01:41.079
Not that I've conversed with him about it, not for

701
01:01:41.119 --> 01:01:46.559
a long time. He kind of filled me in twenty

702
01:01:46.599 --> 01:01:49.079
odd years ago, kind of got together and he told

703
01:01:49.119 --> 01:01:57.480
me some stuff. And before that, I don't know, moved

704
01:01:57.519 --> 01:02:03.119
around a bit, so I didn't have I lived in

705
01:02:03.159 --> 01:02:10.400
one room most of the time as an adult, as

706
01:02:10.400 --> 01:02:13.000
a kid, I suppose, you know, it's just standard living

707
01:02:13.039 --> 01:02:15.840
in a room, either with my brothers or sharing a

708
01:02:15.920 --> 01:02:19.639
room with other kids. But I didn't have my own

709
01:02:19.679 --> 01:02:30.760
room until I was seven eight Sorry, no seven, Yeah

710
01:02:30.880 --> 01:02:32.679
it was I was four. I was just four. I

711
01:02:32.719 --> 01:02:38.000
was eight, So yeah, that's when I got my first room. Yeah,

712
01:02:38.119 --> 01:02:43.199
my first room. I loved it. I love, love, love

713
01:02:43.239 --> 01:02:48.800
loved it. I so loved it. I loved that house.

714
01:02:50.800 --> 01:02:53.559
I did just everything about it. It was just great.

715
01:02:54.639 --> 01:02:59.280
It was it's brand new. There was nothing to do,

716
01:03:00.519 --> 01:03:04.079
you know. I mean when we moved to the next house,

717
01:03:04.159 --> 01:03:08.880
which was this big, old, derelict part of the pass,

718
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:15.800
and it was a dure upper as it were, and

719
01:03:15.800 --> 01:03:18.079
that was horrible. Like I didn't It's like it was

720
01:03:18.280 --> 01:03:25.039
permanently in a in a like being rebuilt. Like there

721
01:03:25.079 --> 01:03:30.079
was always at least one room that was being redecorated,

722
01:03:30.079 --> 01:03:37.639
it seemed, and yeah, all the garden. And it's okay

723
01:03:37.719 --> 01:03:41.159
because that's something my dad used to enjoy doing, but

724
01:03:41.199 --> 01:03:46.880
none of us did. It's you know, it's just everyone's

725
01:03:46.880 --> 01:03:50.639
got their own hobbies and their own likes, and I

726
01:03:50.639 --> 01:03:55.519
guess it was frustrating for him being in this new build,

727
01:03:55.599 --> 01:03:59.199
this little place of a little garden, which for me

728
01:03:59.400 --> 01:04:02.920
was nice size garden. But he he wanted to be

729
01:04:03.000 --> 01:04:05.360
doing things, and he wanted to probably want to be

730
01:04:05.440 --> 01:04:09.199
knocking through doors, and he wanted to be redoing stuff.

731
01:04:09.239 --> 01:04:15.159
And that's not something that I really was interested in doing.

732
01:04:17.119 --> 01:04:19.119
I was still han't painted this place. And I've been

733
01:04:19.119 --> 01:04:24.840
here for ten years. Huh about the time I put

734
01:04:24.840 --> 01:04:28.559
a carpet down. Now I've got a carpets worn out

735
01:04:28.559 --> 01:04:35.639
now between Andre and Little Vinnie. This carpet is well

736
01:04:35.719 --> 01:04:36.599
and truly.

737
01:04:37.760 --> 01:04:38.159
Worn.

738
01:04:39.679 --> 01:04:45.400
Need a new one. I don't know how I got

739
01:04:45.440 --> 01:04:47.159
talking about rooms.

740
01:04:48.159 --> 01:04:48.320
But.

741
01:04:52.599 --> 01:04:54.239
I don't know how I got talk about rooms. I

742
01:04:54.280 --> 01:04:57.039
really don't, But yeah, when I moved in here, I

743
01:04:57.119 --> 01:04:59.960
decided that's what I was talking about. When I moved

744
01:05:00.039 --> 01:05:02.760
in here, I decided I'm no longer going to just

745
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:06.920
be in one room because I don't need to. So

746
01:05:07.000 --> 01:05:11.320
I purposefully didn't have a TV in my bedroom and

747
01:05:11.440 --> 01:05:15.639
never have the whole time I've lived there. Sometimes I

748
01:05:15.639 --> 01:05:22.800
wish I did have one, because it'd be nice, but

749
01:05:22.840 --> 01:05:28.199
it also make me really lazy, I think at times.

750
01:05:29.800 --> 01:05:31.960
But it's not like a long distance It's not like

751
01:05:32.000 --> 01:05:34.280
I have to book a train to get to the

752
01:05:34.280 --> 01:05:41.119
living room, is it. It's not far so yeah, I've

753
01:05:41.199 --> 01:05:45.000
kind of stuck to that one TV in one room.

754
01:05:45.559 --> 01:05:50.519
The bedroom's for sleeping. Unfortunately, that's all it's for.

755
01:05:51.000 --> 01:06:02.639
But yeah, that's okay, that's okay.

756
01:06:03.400 --> 01:06:08.559
Sorry, Vinnie. I know it's our bedroom, it's his bedroom,

757
01:06:08.639 --> 01:06:10.880
and he allows me to sleep in the bed with

758
01:06:10.960 --> 01:06:16.719
him if I'm a good boy. Basically, he this is

759
01:06:16.760 --> 01:06:25.880
his flat. Now I just I'm his lodger. So yeah,

760
01:06:26.239 --> 01:06:40.280
I do believe that is that. I don't know how

761
01:06:40.320 --> 01:06:44.159
I'm going to edit this because everything's all messy everywhere.

762
01:06:45.320 --> 01:06:48.199
You know, my little set up I had before, because

763
01:06:48.199 --> 01:06:50.360
the TV was on the table, it was two tables

764
01:06:50.360 --> 01:06:53.719
to two desks together, the computer was up. Everything was

765
01:06:53.760 --> 01:06:57.320
set up. And now I think that's what I can say.

766
01:06:58.000 --> 01:07:00.280
I got my neighbor downstairs to help me to put

767
01:07:00.320 --> 01:07:04.199
the TV on a rack on the wall. So I

768
01:07:04.280 --> 01:07:07.199
got a new rack was big enough, put it on

769
01:07:07.199 --> 01:07:16.639
the wall. And this was Sunday, Friday, Monday, I don't know,

770
01:07:17.000 --> 01:07:25.400
it was a few days ago. And it's yeah, it's

771
01:07:25.440 --> 01:07:29.840
freed all that space in front of it. So I

772
01:07:29.960 --> 01:07:35.199
moved the tables away or the desks and in the

773
01:07:35.239 --> 01:07:37.760
process started to get rid of some stuff and move

774
01:07:37.800 --> 01:07:45.360
things around. And yeah, it seems to have called more

775
01:07:46.639 --> 01:07:53.920
mess than before. Well though technically I probably could. Tomorrow. Yeah,

776
01:07:54.000 --> 01:08:04.039
tomorrow I'm going to start organizing the desks. Got two tables,

777
01:08:04.159 --> 01:08:12.320
two desks, and one chair, so I'm thinking it's going

778
01:08:12.400 --> 01:08:15.239
to be the other side of the room. Figure out

779
01:08:15.280 --> 01:08:24.680
how I wanting to be. Yeah, that'd be fine. I

780
01:08:24.760 --> 01:08:26.479
kind of know what I wanted, how I want it

781
01:08:26.520 --> 01:08:29.439
to be, so it'll be okay. Just gotta figure it

782
01:08:29.479 --> 01:08:34.159
out tomorrow, the logistics of it, and then I'll be

783
01:08:34.199 --> 01:08:36.279
able to edit this because I won't be able to

784
01:08:36.399 --> 01:08:42.960
edit this until unless my iPad is charged, because it

785
01:08:42.960 --> 01:08:46.920
hasn't been plugged in for quite a few days, so

786
01:08:46.960 --> 01:08:51.760
it might have uncharged itself. If it's still charged, you know,

787
01:08:51.760 --> 01:08:56.000
if it hasn't worn down, then I can upload this

788
01:08:57.960 --> 01:09:04.720
and do some editing and release it like the precious

789
01:09:04.840 --> 01:09:10.800
gem that it is. Ooh, or a little dove. Release

790
01:09:10.880 --> 01:09:18.880
the dove. So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening.

791
01:09:19.119 --> 01:09:22.800
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

792
01:09:22.880 --> 01:09:26.319
to be happy and be gentle of yourself. You deserve

793
01:09:26.479 --> 01:09:32.039
to feel safe. Don't forget Q and a Friday. If

794
01:09:32.039 --> 01:09:34.760
you've got any questions, please go to my Facebook group

795
01:09:37.399 --> 01:09:38.239
Lots of Love.

796
01:09:40.479 --> 01:09:46.439
Bye.

797
01:09:47.039 --> 01:10:01.640
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

798
01:10:01.680 --> 01:10:07.239
a way that can not just allow you to feel

799
01:10:08.560 --> 01:10:17.840
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

800
01:10:19.840 --> 01:10:25.560
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

801
01:10:25.560 --> 01:10:32.239
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

802
01:10:32.399 --> 01:10:47.319
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

803
01:10:47.399 --> 01:11:07.239
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

804
01:11:07.279 --> 01:11:17.880
the recording is ended, so that you can still benefit

805
01:11:20.760 --> 01:11:28.039
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

806
01:11:29.920 --> 01:11:43.439
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

807
01:11:43.600 --> 01:11:48.279
find like some people do and myself as well. I

808
01:11:48.399 --> 01:11:55.159
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

809
01:11:59.479 --> 01:12:02.000
and I'll just listen to it over and over again

810
01:12:04.119 --> 01:12:17.199
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

811
01:12:17.199 --> 01:12:22.960
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

812
01:12:23.000 --> 01:12:28.319
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

813
01:12:30.800 --> 01:12:36.000
and I managed to find it again and it still

814
01:12:36.079 --> 01:12:41.680
has the same effect on me, And part of it

815
01:12:41.800 --> 01:12:56.560
was the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful,

816
01:12:58.680 --> 01:13:05.159
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

817
01:13:05.239 --> 01:13:15.960
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

818
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:25.159
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

819
01:13:25.199 --> 01:13:35.439
the play button. This is in the days of CD players,

820
01:13:37.359 --> 01:13:43.079
press the play button, ifact it might have even been

821
01:13:43.119 --> 01:13:47.439
a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed

822
01:13:47.680 --> 01:14:04.279
and then even without necessarily listening to her words because

823
01:14:06.199 --> 01:14:13.359
I had to memorized. Really, it was as if my

824
01:14:13.479 --> 01:14:24.840
body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just

825
01:14:28.840 --> 01:14:46.840
almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind

826
01:14:49.479 --> 01:15:00.479
would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening into this

827
01:15:00.560 --> 01:15:10.039
recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long

828
01:15:10.159 --> 01:15:18.720
before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

829
01:15:19.920 --> 01:15:23.279
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six.

830
01:15:30.039 --> 01:15:45.840
But I knew, I knew how helpful I found being

831
01:15:45.880 --> 01:15:55.079
able to just let go, to have that trust in

832
01:15:55.159 --> 01:16:05.560
the person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going

833
01:16:05.640 --> 01:16:16.159
to be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each

834
01:16:16.279 --> 01:16:22.880
time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

835
01:16:29.239 --> 01:16:43.960
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

836
01:16:44.680 --> 01:16:48.720
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

837
01:16:50.439 --> 01:16:56.960
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

838
01:16:57.039 --> 01:17:13.640
every day. That's something that I do which you may

839
01:17:13.760 --> 01:17:34.720
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

840
01:17:34.840 --> 01:17:47.359
for example, I also am affected by the words that

841
01:17:47.479 --> 01:17:59.600
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

842
01:18:02.199 --> 01:18:09.920
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

843
01:18:14.800 --> 01:18:32.199
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

844
01:18:32.359 --> 01:18:40.039
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

845
01:18:40.079 --> 01:18:50.319
each hand, Perhaps notice the the air in the room,

846
01:18:50.840 --> 01:18:55.680
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

847
01:19:03.479 --> 01:19:07.359
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

848
01:19:07.520 --> 01:19:15.439
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

849
01:19:15.960 --> 01:19:20.880
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

850
01:19:29.039 --> 01:19:39.680
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

851
01:19:40.000 --> 01:19:51.760
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling.

852
01:19:53.159 --> 01:20:02.960
Now.

853
01:20:08.119 --> 01:20:13.960
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

854
01:20:15.039 --> 01:20:27.640
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

855
01:20:27.800 --> 01:20:42.039
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

856
01:20:42.319 --> 01:20:58.640
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

857
01:21:04.239 --> 01:21:18.399
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking and

858
01:21:18.479 --> 01:21:23.960
it's only when I listen back to do the editing

859
01:21:27.720 --> 01:21:33.840
I hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring.

860
01:21:37.119 --> 01:21:43.960
I remember talking. Was this snoring was a pig turned up?

861
01:21:47.920 --> 01:21:55.359
That's why I sound like when I snare and I

862
01:21:55.399 --> 01:22:08.640
get really into the whole experience. Yes, I don't know

863
01:22:08.640 --> 01:22:18.239
how you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet?

864
01:22:21.359 --> 01:22:44.279
How relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

865
01:22:46.840 --> 01:23:03.119
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

866
01:23:03.319 --> 01:23:20.560
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

867
01:23:20.960 --> 01:23:41.319
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

868
01:23:41.439 --> 01:24:07.800
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being

869
01:24:07.880 --> 01:24:37.560
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

870
01:24:52.199 --> 01:25:34.560
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine

871
01:25:34.840 --> 01:25:50.960
my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I

872
01:25:51.159 --> 01:26:03.760
tend to visualize a beautiful field m with trees and

873
01:26:04.000 --> 01:26:44.439
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too,

874
01:26:46.039 --> 01:27:07.199
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

875
01:27:16.279 --> 01:27:48.840
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

876
01:28:14.159 --> 01:28:39.680
Time seems to just drip by so very slowly, relaxed,

877
01:28:45.560 --> 01:29:24.720
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

878
01:29:24.880 --> 01:30:35.199
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

879
01:30:37.560 --> 01:31:24.279
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

880
01:31:24.520 --> 01:31:40.640
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

881
01:31:41.399 --> 01:31:55.319
out of your body, to appear out of every part

882
01:32:01.119 --> 01:32:25.920
have your body, and being released from your brain, your

883
01:32:26.039 --> 01:33:29.199
mind slowly but surely. Muscles in your legs relax res really,

884
01:33:34.359 --> 01:34:15.079
so very deeply, relax so deeply. And the feelings, the

885
01:34:15.279 --> 01:34:40.560
pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part

886
01:34:40.720 --> 01:35:21.680
of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the

887
01:35:21.840 --> 01:36:21.159
feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists,

888
01:36:22.520 --> 01:36:48.279
muscles in front of your body. I all say, feeling

889
01:36:53.039 --> 01:37:28.800
peaceful deeply, There's a sense of peace spreads through your

890
01:37:28.880 --> 01:38:18.600
fairy core. Even when you focus on your mind. Your

891
01:38:18.720 --> 01:39:32.119
mind becomes eve and slower, even deeper, relax so very slow,

892
01:39:49.520 --> 01:40:39.000
his stomach, peace fall in your stomach. You're back. Notice

893
01:40:45.600 --> 01:41:04.159
Notice how relaxed you'd never feel in the hole of

894
01:41:04.199 --> 01:41:04.760
your back.

895
01:41:29.960 --> 01:41:31.119
You spy.

896
01:41:34.880 --> 01:41:39.600
From your brain all the way down the middle of

897
01:41:39.640 --> 01:41:59.399
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day

898
01:42:02.359 --> 01:42:20.079
deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed.

899
01:42:50.039 --> 01:42:50.840
You needs.

900
01:43:16.560 --> 01:43:30.199
Legs, spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air,

901
01:43:30.439 --> 01:43:49.920
every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

902
01:44:17.079 --> 01:44:46.640
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

903
01:44:51.640 --> 01:45:07.880
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

904
01:45:07.880 --> 01:45:53.680
the way till you lower back. Lettinker read there the thinker, peace,

905
01:46:09.520 --> 01:46:40.159
drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go, let

906
01:46:40.199 --> 01:47:45.640
go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body, enjoying

907
01:47:45.680 --> 01:50:07.840
a sensor listening God he for more pece, enjoying the space,

908
01:50:10.159 --> 01:51:40.319
this space of peace and safety, so very relaxed, Ye, ye,

909
01:52:21.800 --> 01:52:46.560
letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

910
01:52:46.880 --> 01:53:21.680
parts of your body, just to notice a foolhead in

911
01:53:21.920 --> 01:54:26.479
your eyes. You two so loose, noticing the sense of

912
01:54:26.520 --> 01:56:31.319
complete freedom, absolute freedom bref Priday Pea's for energy, peace

913
01:56:32.039 --> 01:57:47.119
to breeze. Such easier loose you may have you may

914
01:57:47.199 --> 01:58:48.319
not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, many even more

915
01:58:48.680 --> 01:59:12.319
deeply in the direction of total bliss for pace, bliss,

916
01:59:12.399 --> 02:01:15.680
for pace, terrest, total peace. Come so calm, letting go,

917
02:01:40.560 --> 02:02:51.560
peace with mind rexed forty so relaxed, so relaxed. Your

918
02:02:51.680 --> 02:03:24.640
body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so

919
02:03:32.359 --> 02:04:34.680
pay so relax Liqa, and you could start to notice

920
02:04:35.039 --> 02:04:44.119
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

921
02:04:45.800 --> 02:04:56.520
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

922
02:04:57.239 --> 02:05:04.119
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

923
02:05:04.159 --> 02:05:14.880
mind starts to slow down, and that could be almost

924
02:05:14.920 --> 02:05:24.520
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

925
02:05:31.039 --> 02:05:41.479
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

926
02:05:41.560 --> 02:05:50.239
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

927
02:05:50.279 --> 02:05:57.119
break from the day, take a break from your life

928
02:05:58.239 --> 02:06:06.720
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

929
02:06:06.760 --> 02:06:14.359
yourself permission to take some time off, and to allow

930
02:06:14.399 --> 02:06:20.600
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

931
02:06:24.640 --> 02:06:32.439
which in turn releases the tension and he stresses that

932
02:06:32.479 --> 02:06:42.199
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

933
02:06:42.279 --> 02:06:47.319
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

934
02:06:47.600 --> 02:06:59.520
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

935
02:07:00.159 --> 02:07:09.840
positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up and

936
02:07:09.920 --> 02:07:22.039
your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of

937
02:07:23.279 --> 02:07:42.800
increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy

938
02:07:43.159 --> 02:07:53.760
that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort.

939
02:07:58.560 --> 02:08:08.840
And all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

940
02:08:10.640 --> 02:08:13.840
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

941
02:08:15.199 --> 02:08:27.119
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

942
02:08:29.319 --> 02:08:46.319
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

943
02:08:50.399 --> 02:08:59.760
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

944
02:09:03.800 --> 02:09:12.800
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

945
02:09:13.399 --> 02:09:18.039
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

946
02:09:22.279 --> 02:09:33.439
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

947
02:09:37.039 --> 02:09:44.279
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

948
02:09:44.439 --> 02:09:50.239
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

949
02:09:53.600 --> 02:10:05.880
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

950
02:10:07.600 --> 02:10:23.279
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

951
02:10:24.319 --> 02:10:30.319
on each part of your body, you can notice that

952
02:10:30.319 --> 02:10:47.399
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

953
02:10:47.399 --> 02:10:57.079
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

954
02:11:01.079 --> 02:11:07.199
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

955
02:11:09.560 --> 02:11:16.279
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

956
02:11:16.439 --> 02:11:24.079
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

957
02:11:24.119 --> 02:11:37.520
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

958
02:11:37.880 --> 02:11:50.920
of even more comfort about to come now. I'm going

959
02:11:50.960 --> 02:11:57.880
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

960
02:11:58.520 --> 02:12:08.600
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like

961
02:12:08.840 --> 02:12:14.000
mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to feel

962
02:12:14.039 --> 02:12:24.119
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

963
02:12:24.199 --> 02:12:30.000
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

964
02:12:32.800 --> 02:12:38.840
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

965
02:12:39.359 --> 02:12:49.880
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

966
02:12:50.119 --> 02:12:58.479
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

967
02:13:00.199 --> 02:13:08.920
only on my voice and that part of your body.

968
02:13:09.880 --> 02:13:19.560
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

969
02:13:20.640 --> 02:13:30.359
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

970
02:13:30.359 --> 02:13:36.840
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

971
02:13:37.079 --> 02:13:51.560
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

972
02:13:51.960 --> 02:13:58.640
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

973
02:13:58.760 --> 02:14:13.760
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now

974
02:14:14.359 --> 02:14:21.239
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

975
02:14:21.399 --> 02:14:25.800
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

976
02:14:25.920 --> 02:14:32.279
up the size of your face to your ears, the

977
02:14:32.520 --> 02:14:44.039
hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

978
02:14:47.399 --> 02:14:56.199
And calm.

979
02:14:56.279 --> 02:15:05.439
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

980
02:15:05.479 --> 02:15:18.520
your throat relaxing and loose and calm, the side of

981
02:15:18.600 --> 02:15:23.920
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

982
02:15:26.840 --> 02:15:42.680
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

983
02:15:42.760 --> 02:15:55.640
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

984
02:15:55.800 --> 02:16:00.319
go of any tension that may have been there for

985
02:16:02.279 --> 02:16:16.399
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

986
02:16:16.600 --> 02:16:27.000
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

987
02:16:27.239 --> 02:16:34.079
down your back and moving either side of your spine

988
02:16:35.120 --> 02:16:39.879
right from the top of your back all the way

989
02:16:40.040 --> 02:16:52.760
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

990
02:16:52.799 --> 02:17:05.280
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

991
02:17:05.479 --> 02:17:11.719
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

992
02:17:12.120 --> 02:17:26.760
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

993
02:17:26.799 --> 02:17:37.319
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

994
02:17:37.479 --> 02:17:44.159
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

995
02:17:44.959 --> 02:17:51.239
the middle and your lower back. And as you scan

996
02:17:52.920 --> 02:18:00.760
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

997
02:18:00.879 --> 02:18:06.920
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

998
02:18:11.079 --> 02:18:17.079
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

999
02:18:17.200 --> 02:18:26.719
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1000
02:18:32.479 --> 02:18:38.479
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1001
02:18:38.520 --> 02:18:52.760
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1002
02:18:55.000 --> 02:19:03.000
sit down, your lower back, into your hips, into the

1003
02:19:03.040 --> 02:19:11.840
area where your coxis are, and into your buttocks, and

1004
02:19:11.920 --> 02:19:21.079
all those muscles that spread whom your lower back into

1005
02:19:21.159 --> 02:19:34.799
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1006
02:19:41.360 --> 02:19:48.120
Don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1007
02:19:48.319 --> 02:19:59.280
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1008
02:19:59.719 --> 02:20:14.719
to relax so calmly, And as you focus on your shoulders,

1009
02:20:16.440 --> 02:20:31.799
you may notice that they're already feeding, really loose, they're

1010
02:20:31.840 --> 02:20:58.559
already feeding, calm and feeding those muscles. Then move from

1011
02:20:58.600 --> 02:21:14.159
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1012
02:21:18.239 --> 02:21:20.040
so smooth.

1013
02:21:25.559 --> 02:21:37.920
And calm.

1014
02:21:37.959 --> 02:21:50.879
The feeding in your shoulders seens to spread deep into

1015
02:21:50.920 --> 02:22:00.600
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just tr ling

1016
02:22:00.799 --> 02:22:18.120
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1017
02:22:18.360 --> 02:22:27.120
moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1018
02:22:27.280 --> 02:22:32.840
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1019
02:22:37.040 --> 02:22:52.239
He Then you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders,

1020
02:22:55.760 --> 02:23:17.879
which sends that deep healing message into your arms, and

1021
02:23:18.079 --> 02:23:23.200
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1022
02:23:23.280 --> 02:23:46.200
even there because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1023
02:23:46.200 --> 02:24:22.879
so calm, so loose, not feeling, spreading all the way

1024
02:24:22.959 --> 02:24:46.680
down your arms to your elbows, including your elbows circumforts,

1025
02:24:46.920 --> 02:25:02.559
spreads all away into your wrists of forearments and your

1026
02:25:02.559 --> 02:25:17.879
wrists so heavy, yet at the same time.

1027
02:25:25.159 --> 02:25:25.920
So light.

1028
02:25:28.959 --> 02:26:31.959
And gentle. Focusing now on your hands, my hands, so

1029
02:26:33.360 --> 02:27:01.479
peaceful in your hands. It's a sense of real peace.

1030
02:27:13.200 --> 02:27:27.000
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1031
02:27:27.319 --> 02:29:04.360
relax deeply mhmm ees your things, you things, sadly you

1032
02:29:04.520 --> 02:29:51.040
thinker tips, moving your attention to the front, to your body,

1033
02:29:51.879 --> 02:31:29.079
so comfortable, moving in your focus your legs, what muscles

1034
02:31:31.040 --> 02:32:23.719
in your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, the carved mussels

1035
02:32:25.040 --> 02:34:33.639
and just shamece cowpuzily four, and the feathing in your feet.

1036
02:34:40.639 --> 02:34:44.520
So peaceful, so.

1037
02:34:44.719 --> 02:35:40.559
Calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so.

1038
02:35:42.440 --> 02:35:54.239
Peace fa rea sin.

1039
02:35:59.280 --> 02:36:13.440
Peace fall, so calm.

1040
02:36:13.200 --> 02:36:20.239
I'm loving that deep relaxation to spread your chest and

1041
02:36:20.360 --> 02:36:51.760
your stomach, so letting go of everything. So I'm gonna

1042
02:36:51.799 --> 02:37:03.719
start counting down now, from twenty down to one. You

1043
02:37:03.719 --> 02:37:07.239
can imagine in a way it's like just walking down

1044
02:37:07.360 --> 02:37:13.120
some steps and each step or twenty steps, and each

1045
02:37:13.239 --> 02:37:25.920
step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a

1046
02:37:26.120 --> 02:37:38.639
deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you walk down

1047
02:37:38.719 --> 02:37:50.959
those steps a deeper and more relaxed you feel. So

1048
02:37:51.559 --> 02:41:41.479
starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen eight

1049
02:42:24.239 --> 02:43:25.479
four four see.

1050
02:44:31.479 --> 02:44:32.159
Too well.

1051
02:45:31.079 --> 02:46:42.239
Five two.

1052
02:47:47.520 --> 02:52:34.079
Nine eight seven said.

1053
02:52:43.000 --> 02:58:35.799
Five five four two four one. And now as you

1054
02:58:35.959 --> 02:58:49.280
focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down from ten

1055
02:58:49.479 --> 02:59:04.879
douts one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the

1056
02:59:05.000 --> 02:59:14.120
muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our whole

1057
02:59:14.360 --> 02:59:31.239
area that makes up your eye. And as we count

1058
02:59:31.360 --> 02:59:39.520
down from ten down to one, whilst focus in on

1059
02:59:39.600 --> 02:59:55.600
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

1060
02:59:56.559 --> 03:00:08.159
counting down that you may find the all you want

1061
03:00:08.280 --> 03:00:16.920
to do is just to drift off to sleep. And

1062
03:00:16.959 --> 03:00:23.600
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1063
03:00:23.639 --> 03:00:38.280
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1064
03:00:38.399 --> 03:00:48.360
begin counting down from ten down to one right now

1065
03:00:56.760 --> 03:03:53.719
ten nine eight seven y.

1066
03:04:55.639 --> 03:06:52.360
Five four.

1067
03:07:20.360 --> 03:10:00.159
Three two one.

1068
03:10:01.079 --> 03:10:17.760
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

1069
03:10:20.559 --> 03:10:28.799
seven six five four.

1070
03:10:31.360 --> 03:10:36.680
Three two.

1071
03:10:37.440 --> 03:10:44.040
One.

1072
03:10:44.680 --> 03:10:47.600
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1073
03:10:47.639 --> 03:10:51.600
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1074
03:10:51.879 --> 03:11:01.639
to notice the calming of your body be even a

1075
03:11:01.639 --> 03:11:05.200
little bit of pressure there, Like you're count it down

1076
03:11:05.280 --> 03:11:08.360
from ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1077
03:11:09.159 --> 03:11:12.920
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1078
03:11:12.920 --> 03:11:22.319
counting down. We could try it again, but this time

1079
03:11:22.399 --> 03:11:29.120
I go. It's slower this time, as you focus on

1080
03:11:29.680 --> 03:11:34.639
the whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1081
03:11:36.440 --> 03:11:45.680
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1082
03:11:46.040 --> 03:12:35.079
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1083
03:12:45.440 --> 03:13:21.159
four three two.

1084
03:13:28.040 --> 03:13:28.319
One.

1085
03:13:33.840 --> 03:13:45.200
Wow, And just notice how how you feel generally, how

1086
03:13:45.239 --> 03:13:59.799
your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down

1087
03:14:00.079 --> 03:14:06.719
from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1088
03:14:07.959 --> 03:14:26.440
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1089
03:14:31.120 --> 03:14:36.360
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1090
03:14:36.520 --> 03:14:43.159
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1091
03:14:43.840 --> 03:14:46.879
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1092
03:14:46.879 --> 03:14:57.920
a space, a gap. And the more I comed down

1093
03:14:57.920 --> 03:15:05.719
from ten to one, bigger that gap becomes. So there's

1094
03:15:05.760 --> 03:15:18.239
that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice

1095
03:15:18.280 --> 03:15:32.959
feeling and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1096
03:15:33.600 --> 03:15:47.639
moves them away, allows you to just.

1097
03:15:50.559 --> 03:15:51.280
Slow down.

1098
03:15:54.840 --> 03:15:57.799
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1099
03:15:57.959 --> 03:16:07.959
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1100
03:16:08.000 --> 03:16:14.079
it's almost like the thestress and attention falls into the

1101
03:16:14.120 --> 03:17:35.760
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

1102
03:17:53.639 --> 03:18:38.520
Three two.

1103
03:18:28.879 --> 03:19:02.120
One, how did your body feel? No, and you notice that,

1104
03:19:02.159 --> 03:19:38.840
do you feeling calmer? Do you feeling more relaxed? As

1105
03:19:38.840 --> 03:19:59.200
we now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're

1106
03:19:59.280 --> 03:20:19.200
just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1107
03:20:19.239 --> 03:20:24.159
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1108
03:20:27.600 --> 03:20:30.360
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1109
03:20:30.360 --> 03:20:42.799
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1110
03:20:42.879 --> 03:20:49.280
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1111
03:20:49.440 --> 03:20:56.520
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1112
03:20:56.520 --> 03:21:01.159
and you're inner thighs to lead the whole of your

1113
03:21:01.200 --> 03:21:10.159
thigh that leads into your hip and it goes down

1114
03:21:10.280 --> 03:21:23.360
to your knee joints. Now, this is a big area.

1115
03:21:24.440 --> 03:21:29.399
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1116
03:21:29.479 --> 03:21:44.200
strongest muscles in your body. Or in your thighs. But

1117
03:21:44.239 --> 03:21:52.799
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1118
03:21:58.600 --> 03:22:06.239
Perhaps we don't I acknowledge how important our thighs are

1119
03:22:09.319 --> 03:22:26.120
to our lives, how much they actually do for us

1120
03:22:30.000 --> 03:22:31.120
all through our lives.

1121
03:22:38.200 --> 03:22:39.399
And it may.

1122
03:22:39.319 --> 03:22:44.639
Seem to sound really weird, but I think that all

1123
03:22:44.719 --> 03:22:52.440
of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

1124
03:22:55.639 --> 03:22:58.479
a bit of love shown, a bit of.

1125
03:23:04.920 --> 03:23:09.120
Acknowledgement. I thank you.

1126
03:23:11.959 --> 03:23:24.360
Gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

1127
03:23:24.440 --> 03:23:30.760
know this may sound is strange. Maybe you think, why

1128
03:23:30.760 --> 03:23:33.520
am I sure that how I should be in the

1129
03:23:33.559 --> 03:23:42.120
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1130
03:23:42.159 --> 03:23:45.360
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1131
03:23:45.399 --> 03:23:48.399
doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1132
03:23:49.440 --> 03:23:58.239
Now I can't see the television from the tree. If

1133
03:23:58.280 --> 03:24:03.639
you move down to your knees gain such an important part.

1134
03:24:07.920 --> 03:24:13.120
And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1135
03:24:15.520 --> 03:24:20.680
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

1136
03:24:20.719 --> 03:24:22.840
me until.

1137
03:24:23.959 --> 03:24:27.399
I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if

1138
03:24:27.440 --> 03:24:27.799
I ever.

1139
03:24:29.239 --> 03:24:33.239
Maybe I'll bash it or it's aching for some reason,

1140
03:24:34.920 --> 03:24:41.200
it's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1141
03:24:41.239 --> 03:24:47.200
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1142
03:24:48.920 --> 03:24:56.239
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1143
03:24:56.399 --> 03:25:04.840
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1144
03:25:08.920 --> 03:25:13.559
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1145
03:25:13.600 --> 03:25:21.120
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1146
03:25:22.639 --> 03:25:25.280
and love to your knees for all that they do

1147
03:25:25.440 --> 03:25:38.479
for you. When you can still have that attention on

1148
03:25:38.559 --> 03:25:44.719
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel, maybe

1149
03:25:45.040 --> 03:26:02.479
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1150
03:26:02.600 --> 03:26:07.840
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1151
03:26:08.719 --> 03:26:15.280
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1152
03:26:15.319 --> 03:26:22.920
your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1153
03:26:28.360 --> 03:26:33.000
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1154
03:26:33.120 --> 03:26:40.200
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1155
03:26:40.280 --> 03:26:48.840
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1156
03:26:48.879 --> 03:26:54.520
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1157
03:26:54.639 --> 03:26:57.600
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1158
03:26:58.639 --> 03:27:03.879
which is doesn't can't see any problem with that because

1159
03:27:03.879 --> 03:27:10.000
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

1160
03:27:10.200 --> 03:27:19.879
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1161
03:27:19.920 --> 03:27:24.799
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

1162
03:27:26.120 --> 03:27:33.559
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1163
03:27:33.559 --> 03:27:48.639
ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1164
03:27:48.680 --> 03:27:54.399
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1165
03:27:54.479 --> 03:28:06.440
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1166
03:28:06.520 --> 03:28:19.840
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1167
03:28:19.879 --> 03:28:27.520
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1168
03:28:27.559 --> 03:28:32.799
point in calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1169
03:28:33.760 --> 03:28:37.319
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1170
03:28:37.319 --> 03:28:40.879
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

1171
03:28:40.959 --> 03:28:45.479
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs

1172
03:28:50.959 --> 03:29:03.600
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1173
03:29:03.639 --> 03:29:09.840
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1174
03:29:15.920 --> 03:29:27.879
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1175
03:29:27.920 --> 03:29:29.879
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1176
03:29:29.920 --> 03:29:36.399
going to focus on the legs. I realize, but now

1177
03:29:36.399 --> 03:29:41.040
that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focusing on them anyway,

1178
03:29:41.520 --> 03:29:44.120
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1179
03:29:48.120 --> 03:29:52.600
You can have them in your awareness, the same as

1180
03:29:52.639 --> 03:29:57.000
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1181
03:29:57.120 --> 03:30:01.120
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1182
03:30:02.920 --> 03:30:11.840
let me focus in on your ankles. There's still that

1183
03:30:13.079 --> 03:30:27.639
sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement

1184
03:30:29.239 --> 03:30:37.280
of energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1185
03:30:38.680 --> 03:30:43.559
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1186
03:30:43.639 --> 03:30:56.600
we have in our thighs. But the skin on the

1187
03:30:56.639 --> 03:31:02.120
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1188
03:31:02.200 --> 03:31:11.040
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1189
03:31:13.799 --> 03:31:27.760
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's

1190
03:31:28.159 --> 03:31:33.319
the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the ar trees, all

1191
03:31:33.479 --> 03:31:42.040
this stuff that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes

1192
03:31:42.680 --> 03:31:45.440
it'd be nice if you could actually put your fingers

1193
03:31:46.399 --> 03:31:52.440
inside your thighs and a message, so you can message

1194
03:31:52.479 --> 03:31:55.680
on the outside, of course, but to be able to

1195
03:31:55.680 --> 03:31:58.959
get deep into the muscles and to be able to

1196
03:31:59.000 --> 03:32:05.319
just message inside your thighs, message in the bones of

1197
03:32:05.399 --> 03:32:13.520
your leg, massage in or the veins and just gently

1198
03:32:16.239 --> 03:32:25.840
healing your thighs, and you could move down message and

1199
03:32:25.959 --> 03:32:31.559
inside your knees just message in those bones, but with

1200
03:32:31.879 --> 03:32:39.079
healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into the joints

1201
03:32:40.479 --> 03:32:48.520
of your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1202
03:32:49.639 --> 03:32:54.399
your knee, you know, the inside crease where your knee is.

1203
03:32:55.959 --> 03:33:01.719
It's a very sensitive area, very sounds very nice when

1204
03:33:01.760 --> 03:33:06.479
you stroke it. That might be because it's an area

1205
03:33:06.520 --> 03:33:11.639
that's not really touched very often. It's almost like a

1206
03:33:11.760 --> 03:33:20.559
hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's almost like

1207
03:33:20.639 --> 03:33:25.360
a part that has a sensitivity which is a little

1208
03:33:25.399 --> 03:33:43.479
bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs, so

1209
03:33:43.559 --> 03:33:48.600
you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease in

1210
03:33:48.639 --> 03:33:57.639
your legs, that fold in between your legs. You can

1211
03:33:57.719 --> 03:34:03.280
just message with your fingertips, letting your fingertips going inside,

1212
03:34:04.920 --> 03:34:13.479
massage in the muscle tissue. You can of course field

1213
03:34:13.559 --> 03:34:27.280
the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips, and

1214
03:34:27.319 --> 03:34:28.760
then as you go down.

1215
03:34:31.280 --> 03:34:33.079
To your calf muscles.

1216
03:34:32.920 --> 03:34:34.680
And that's the part I'd like to be able to

1217
03:34:35.440 --> 03:34:42.840
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1218
03:34:42.879 --> 03:34:52.000
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1219
03:34:57.959 --> 03:35:04.079
and then doing the same for my shin massage in

1220
03:35:04.200 --> 03:35:11.799
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1221
03:35:11.840 --> 03:35:19.000
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

1222
03:35:19.079 --> 03:35:23.120
the precious bones that they are. Because our legs are

1223
03:35:23.159 --> 03:35:28.719
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1224
03:35:29.479 --> 03:35:43.360
and more precious of any juel on the planet. When

1225
03:35:43.399 --> 03:35:54.920
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1226
03:35:55.760 --> 03:36:02.440
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1227
03:36:05.559 --> 03:36:09.799
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1228
03:36:10.680 --> 03:36:20.680
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1229
03:36:20.799 --> 03:36:24.840
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1230
03:36:26.680 --> 03:36:33.159
the massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1231
03:36:33.159 --> 03:36:41.520
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

1232
03:36:41.639 --> 03:36:51.079
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1233
03:36:51.120 --> 03:36:56.879
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1234
03:36:59.200 --> 03:37:09.440
your knee, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1235
03:37:12.319 --> 03:37:17.079
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1236
03:37:17.120 --> 03:37:26.920
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible,

1237
03:37:30.680 --> 03:37:43.479
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

1238
03:37:43.520 --> 03:37:52.319
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1239
03:37:54.280 --> 03:37:58.680
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1240
03:37:58.799 --> 03:38:03.520
only eat ate stones there's still a lot of weight

1241
03:38:03.760 --> 03:38:10.479
for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than

1242
03:38:10.479 --> 03:38:18.360
eight stone double down, Yet my ankles.

1243
03:38:19.479 --> 03:38:21.879
Support my body all the time.

1244
03:38:25.559 --> 03:38:28.600
Whether they do give off a sigh of relief when

1245
03:38:28.600 --> 03:38:37.440
I sit down, that's got my whole legs do. My

1246
03:38:37.600 --> 03:38:42.840
feet feet also go, my toes clap.

1247
03:38:44.000 --> 03:39:03.520
I'm so happy.

1248
03:39:04.520 --> 03:39:14.120
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that about

1249
03:39:14.680 --> 03:39:20.520
talking about your legs is probably possibly among the most

1250
03:39:21.399 --> 03:39:28.959
most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly they're

1251
03:39:29.079 --> 03:39:36.159
boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs

1252
03:39:36.559 --> 03:39:56.559
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve

1253
03:39:56.680 --> 03:40:09.120
to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time out

1254
03:40:09.639 --> 03:40:33.559
of the day to just let go completely. The legs

1255
03:40:38.559 --> 03:40:51.840
really can relax. And because the legs are so such

1256
03:40:51.879 --> 03:40:56.440
a most, you know, very important part of your body,

1257
03:40:57.680 --> 03:41:00.319
and you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1258
03:41:00.920 --> 03:41:19.680
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1259
03:41:19.799 --> 03:41:24.799
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1260
03:41:28.040 --> 03:41:32.639
and also my ler back as well. My lower back

1261
03:41:32.879 --> 03:41:38.399
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1262
03:41:38.479 --> 03:41:44.440
in a chair and there's no stretching. As far as

1263
03:41:44.520 --> 03:41:47.600
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1264
03:41:47.680 --> 03:41:51.680
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1265
03:41:51.799 --> 03:42:16.520
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1266
03:42:16.559 --> 03:42:23.760
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1267
03:42:24.280 --> 03:42:54.000
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1268
03:42:58.280 --> 03:43:07.000
Four three two.

1269
03:43:10.840 --> 03:43:28.600
What relax? So I'm just going to count down and

1270
03:43:28.799 --> 03:43:33.360
fire down to one. And as a countdown, if you

1271
03:43:33.479 --> 03:43:40.399
just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1272
03:43:41.399 --> 03:43:50.600
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1273
03:43:50.680 --> 03:43:56.239
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers.

1274
03:43:57.799 --> 03:44:00.239
Counting down represents you.

1275
03:44:02.040 --> 03:44:12.040
Feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also relaxing

1276
03:44:12.120 --> 03:44:18.639
your mind. I just notice how you feel. There's nothing

1277
03:44:19.360 --> 03:44:24.719
to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to think about,

1278
03:44:27.719 --> 03:45:08.040
starting with number five, four three two.

1279
03:45:06.719 --> 03:45:15.600
One.

1280
03:45:16.399 --> 03:45:28.879
And as you notice the gradual letting go the tension

1281
03:45:29.040 --> 03:45:36.280
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1282
03:45:36.319 --> 03:45:45.399
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1283
03:45:47.840 --> 03:45:54.239
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1284
03:45:54.399 --> 03:45:59.600
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1285
03:46:00.879 --> 03:46:06.959
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

1286
03:46:07.000 --> 03:46:10.719
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1287
03:46:10.760 --> 03:46:23.000
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

1288
03:46:23.040 --> 03:46:30.239
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1289
03:46:30.280 --> 03:46:37.159
there's background sounds, either your side or mine is still

1290
03:46:37.600 --> 03:46:42.920
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1291
03:46:42.920 --> 03:46:48.079
the television on, there's no music in the background, unless

1292
03:46:48.079 --> 03:46:55.559
you're listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're

1293
03:46:55.680 --> 03:46:57.840
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1294
03:46:57.879 --> 03:47:02.520
with other people. Of course it might be, but generally

1295
03:47:02.639 --> 03:47:05.760
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1296
03:47:07.440 --> 03:47:17.600
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1297
03:47:24.079 --> 03:47:34.399
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1298
03:47:38.879 --> 03:47:45.639
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1299
03:47:45.959 --> 03:47:57.760
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1300
03:47:57.840 --> 03:48:08.239
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost know. The

1301
03:48:08.520 --> 03:48:15.280
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1302
03:48:15.399 --> 03:48:20.000
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1303
03:48:22.639 --> 03:48:32.000
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1304
03:48:32.399 --> 03:48:37.239
of this recording and others.

1305
03:48:38.399 --> 03:48:40.040
Is simply.

1306
03:48:41.239 --> 03:48:53.559
Two allow you to take advantage of this space. This time,

1307
03:48:56.280 --> 03:49:07.559
it's just let go, to just be here, to be

1308
03:49:07.959 --> 03:49:21.399
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1309
03:49:23.600 --> 03:49:35.079
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1310
03:49:36.200 --> 03:49:41.440
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1311
03:49:43.159 --> 03:49:58.239
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1312
03:49:59.399 --> 03:50:03.440
of the pro sess of falling asleep. The actual falling

1313
03:50:03.479 --> 03:50:10.280
asleep part is the tiny bit at the end. The

1314
03:50:10.399 --> 03:50:24.879
deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1315
03:50:34.280 --> 03:50:40.959
But you can also if you choose stay focused on

1316
03:50:41.040 --> 03:51:09.360
my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each

1317
03:51:09.799 --> 03:51:36.399
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

1318
03:51:41.639 --> 03:51:57.360
of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count

1319
03:51:57.360 --> 03:52:07.479
from six down to one, and you can notice your

1320
03:52:07.639 --> 03:52:17.959
mind calming down more with each number that you hear

1321
03:52:18.280 --> 03:52:28.559
me say, naturally, feeling calm.

1322
03:52:28.440 --> 03:52:29.360
And slow.

1323
03:52:33.159 --> 03:52:34.879
And be peaceful.

1324
03:52:40.120 --> 03:53:07.319
Sex five.

1325
03:53:27.000 --> 03:55:29.440
Four, three, one, being aware.

1326
03:55:32.200 --> 03:55:48.280
How your mind to slow right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1327
03:56:01.959 --> 03:56:08.760
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1328
03:56:09.000 --> 03:56:18.159
that there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn

1329
03:56:18.319 --> 03:56:34.120
thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention. That's

1330
03:56:34.159 --> 03:56:42.879
what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1331
03:56:46.120 --> 03:56:57.000
Sprinkle those thoughts with love. Might all petals from a flower.

1332
03:56:58.040 --> 03:57:04.959
Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled with love towards

1333
03:57:05.040 --> 03:57:11.639
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

1334
03:57:11.719 --> 03:57:20.600
abandon a number. You just need them. You require them

1335
03:57:20.639 --> 03:57:33.000
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down for now.

1336
03:57:40.719 --> 03:57:45.719
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1337
03:57:45.879 --> 03:57:51.159
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1338
03:57:51.280 --> 03:58:00.319
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of of

1339
03:58:04.559 --> 03:58:18.319
kindness gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to

1340
03:58:18.559 --> 03:58:34.600
just melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those

1341
03:58:34.680 --> 03:59:43.920
thoughts will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1342
04:00:09.760 --> 04:01:24.719
three two one. Yeah, And as you now notice how

1343
04:01:26.399 --> 04:01:46.280
relaxed you're feeling in your body, we're going to focus

1344
04:01:49.959 --> 04:01:59.680
on your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are,

1345
04:02:01.959 --> 04:02:05.879
the more relax your body and mind are.

1346
04:02:20.760 --> 04:02:21.399
And there's.

1347
04:02:22.920 --> 04:02:33.079
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1348
04:02:33.600 --> 04:02:38.360
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1349
04:02:39.399 --> 04:02:49.760
dents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

1350
04:02:50.200 --> 04:03:04.280
noticing and focusing on your hands. Noticing how they feel.

1351
04:03:18.879 --> 04:03:29.520
Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1352
04:03:29.559 --> 04:03:41.479
mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1353
04:03:46.680 --> 04:04:17.079
And you may have already noticed you mind is starting

1354
04:04:20.680 --> 04:04:43.239
to dress like sense just on your hands and fingers,

1355
04:04:48.120 --> 04:05:01.959
allowing them to experience how real deepening of that relaxation

1356
04:05:03.680 --> 04:05:21.559
in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed with

1357
04:05:21.760 --> 04:05:40.440
each number from eight down to one. You can almost

1358
04:05:42.200 --> 04:05:51.959
feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands

1359
04:05:52.879 --> 04:06:18.559
and fingers, becoming more relaxing with each number year going

1360
04:06:18.680 --> 04:06:39.280
down eight down to one, drifting drifting again starting with

1361
04:06:43.879 --> 04:08:34.520
number eight seven six, hy.

1362
04:08:58.959 --> 04:10:38.399
Woh three.

1363
04:10:38.920 --> 04:10:48.440
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1364
04:10:49.879 --> 04:11:04.200
nothing to say, and everything just feels calm. This is

1365
04:11:05.239 --> 04:11:12.040
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1366
04:11:13.120 --> 04:11:19.719
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

1367
04:11:22.079 --> 04:11:26.920
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

1368
04:11:27.120 --> 04:11:42.639
and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1369
04:11:44.799 --> 04:11:48.120
You take that away, which is what we do.

1370
04:11:48.719 --> 04:12:00.559
What we do now you're left with a real sense

1371
04:12:01.200 --> 04:12:13.799
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately

1372
04:12:14.360 --> 04:12:28.280
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort, almost as

1373
04:12:28.319 --> 04:12:32.440
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1374
04:12:32.520 --> 04:12:46.280
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1375
04:12:46.360 --> 04:12:57.000
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1376
04:12:57.040 --> 04:13:05.840
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1377
04:13:06.840 --> 04:13:11.920
for who you are, the place where you're not trying

1378
04:13:12.000 --> 04:13:22.799
to please anybody else ever, the place where you can

1379
04:13:24.079 --> 04:13:32.840
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1380
04:13:33.440 --> 04:13:50.559
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1381
04:13:50.600 --> 04:14:04.319
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1382
04:14:04.399 --> 04:14:12.879
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1383
04:14:13.280 --> 04:14:28.239
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

1384
04:14:33.159 --> 04:14:42.079
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1385
04:14:42.399 --> 04:14:54.479
each and every single part of your body, and you

1386
04:14:54.559 --> 04:15:01.639
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

1387
04:15:01.840 --> 04:15:09.319
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

1388
04:15:14.239 --> 04:15:24.159
and that spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

1389
04:15:26.159 --> 04:15:32.440
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

1390
04:15:34.479 --> 04:15:46.479
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1391
04:15:46.639 --> 04:15:56.040
realize that actually what's happening now with that healing, relaxing

1392
04:15:57.120 --> 04:16:08.200
energy spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life.

1393
04:16:10.159 --> 04:16:15.280
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel, not

1394
04:16:15.520 --> 04:16:22.920
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. There's your

1395
04:16:23.040 --> 04:16:31.200
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

1396
04:16:35.040 --> 04:16:40.399
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

1397
04:16:40.399 --> 04:16:46.479
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

1398
04:16:46.479 --> 04:17:00.799
to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

1399
04:17:01.079 --> 04:17:10.719
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

1400
04:17:11.079 --> 04:17:20.799
have that power to control you the way they seem

1401
04:17:20.920 --> 04:17:29.760
to be able to before. As you realize that you're

1402
04:17:29.879 --> 04:17:42.719
the one who decides what affects you, You're the one

1403
04:17:43.200 --> 04:17:53.680
who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

1404
04:17:57.200 --> 04:18:11.719
to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to

1405
04:18:11.879 --> 04:18:26.280
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

1406
04:18:26.360 --> 04:18:43.840
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's

1407
04:18:43.920 --> 04:18:54.280
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

1408
04:18:54.520 --> 04:19:01.719
falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

1409
04:19:03.440 --> 04:19:09.079
in your life, and you know that you were born,

1410
04:19:10.559 --> 04:19:17.239
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

1411
04:19:21.360 --> 04:19:32.159
We were born with that ability to just drift off

1412
04:19:32.840 --> 04:19:46.040
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids sometimes

1413
04:19:46.079 --> 04:19:50.520
will fall asleep and we don't even want to try

1414
04:19:50.639 --> 04:19:55.399
to stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1415
04:19:55.559 --> 04:19:59.879
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1416
04:20:00.440 --> 04:20:01.719
We don't want to go to sleep.

1417
04:20:03.879 --> 04:20:08.920
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1418
04:20:09.079 --> 04:20:17.440
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1419
04:20:18.120 --> 04:20:20.479
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

1420
04:20:20.520 --> 04:20:33.559
a safe the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

1421
04:20:33.600 --> 04:20:39.040
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1422
04:20:40.719 --> 04:20:50.559
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1423
04:20:50.680 --> 04:21:01.239
part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

1424
04:21:01.280 --> 04:21:14.760
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely.

1425
04:21:16.479 --> 04:21:34.280
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1426
04:21:41.239 --> 04:21:48.760
It's very, very easy to let go, because that's all

1427
04:21:48.799 --> 04:21:49.200
it is.

1428
04:21:49.239 --> 04:21:49.799
It is just.

1429
04:21:53.239 --> 04:22:04.760
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1430
04:22:04.760 --> 04:22:15.079
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1431
04:22:15.280 --> 04:22:23.360
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1432
04:22:24.399 --> 04:22:28.760
you have given me permission for my words.

1433
04:22:32.079 --> 04:22:33.360
To effect.

1434
04:22:35.319 --> 04:22:47.200
You in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up

1435
04:22:52.360 --> 04:23:10.799
your mind too useful and healing suggestions that can have

1436
04:23:15.159 --> 04:23:22.760
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1437
04:23:27.319 --> 04:23:37.200
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1438
04:23:37.280 --> 04:23:48.120
recording ends those changes within you that continue to flourish

1439
04:23:48.799 --> 04:24:07.239
and grow, transforming your life in pity beautiful way, allowing

1440
04:24:07.600 --> 04:24:14.159
you to move forward in your life in the direction

1441
04:24:14.440 --> 04:24:31.680
that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling

1442
04:24:31.920 --> 04:24:47.520
that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This feels

1443
04:24:47.559 --> 04:25:08.760
so nice. It's such a healthy place to be, and

1444
04:25:08.840 --> 04:25:28.159
that positivity grows within you each and every day. Moving forward,

1445
04:25:30.399 --> 04:25:41.440
you're going to find that you're more relaxed physically and

1446
04:25:41.600 --> 04:25:50.360
in your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that

1447
04:25:50.399 --> 04:25:56.040
you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind will be

1448
04:25:56.159 --> 04:26:08.000
less clogged up with un necessary negativity because from now on,

1449
04:26:08.639 --> 04:26:18.319
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1450
04:26:18.440 --> 04:26:35.360
start noticing when negativity arises and you can just say stop, stop,

1451
04:26:38.200 --> 04:26:49.680
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1452
04:26:52.920 --> 04:27:12.280
Stop and that negativity would disappear. And as you notice

1453
04:27:12.559 --> 04:27:20.879
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected,

1454
04:27:27.040 --> 04:27:36.639
you can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1455
04:27:36.719 --> 04:27:42.920
has done this. You are the one that has opened

1456
04:27:43.079 --> 04:27:50.799
your mind up to the simple facts that you can

1457
04:27:51.239 --> 04:27:57.840
feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1458
04:28:02.040 --> 04:28:07.959
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

1459
04:28:08.000 --> 04:28:24.879
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose, And

1460
04:28:25.000 --> 04:28:32.000
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

1461
04:28:32.079 --> 04:28:41.399
Doesn't it? To feel calm full, that healing energy is

1462
04:28:41.520 --> 04:28:52.440
spreading through your body in your mind to spend time

1463
04:28:54.719 --> 04:28:56.959
a special place where.

1464
04:28:59.360 --> 04:29:00.040
You need to.

1465
04:29:01.879 --> 04:29:14.799
Can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

1466
04:29:14.879 --> 04:29:21.559
not allowed entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

1467
04:29:21.600 --> 04:29:30.879
be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in

1468
04:29:30.920 --> 04:29:47.520
your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

1469
04:29:49.639 --> 04:30:15.200
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't.

1470
04:30:14.959 --> 04:30:17.000
It, Just.

1471
04:30:20.360 --> 04:30:41.200
To let go everything. I'm gonna count down now from

1472
04:30:41.959 --> 04:30:51.520
twenty down to one. You can continue to relax. If

1473
04:30:51.559 --> 04:31:03.440
you choose, you can dread to sleep. With every number

1474
04:31:06.159 --> 04:31:17.840
he may say, you can fill twice as relaxed, or

1475
04:31:17.879 --> 04:31:29.760
if you choose, you can fill twice as sleeping now

1476
04:31:34.440 --> 04:33:34.560
twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, towelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

1477
04:33:42.639 --> 04:34:00.240
Five war h.

1478
04:34:03.720 --> 04:34:28.479
Yeah, this is your time to just take a break,

1479
04:34:33.159 --> 04:34:43.840
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow

1480
04:34:43.959 --> 04:34:55.360
down to give yourself permission.

1481
04:34:59.520 --> 04:35:01.279
To take a break.

1482
04:35:05.959 --> 04:35:13.919
From everything. And you're the only person.

1483
04:35:14.279 --> 04:35:19.720
That can make that decision. You're the only.

1484
04:35:19.639 --> 04:35:27.759
Person that can actually tell your mind to just relax,

1485
04:35:35.919 --> 04:35:36.319
to just.

1486
04:35:40.000 --> 04:35:41.279
Take some time.

1487
04:35:43.000 --> 04:35:54.840
Off so that you can focus on your body, getting

1488
04:35:55.240 --> 04:36:09.599
in touch with how you feel. Agree And in the

1489
04:36:09.720 --> 04:36:17.840
process of this body scan where you focus on different

1490
04:36:17.919 --> 04:36:27.759
parts of your body, those parts that you focus on

1491
04:36:28.479 --> 04:36:39.880
and observe, even though you're not purposely requesting for those

1492
04:36:40.080 --> 04:36:45.680
parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

1493
04:36:47.279 --> 04:36:52.840
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

1494
04:36:53.840 --> 04:37:07.560
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

1495
04:37:07.599 --> 04:37:19.840
attention is focused on my words. And as my words

1496
04:37:20.840 --> 04:37:31.000
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

1497
04:37:34.799 --> 04:37:56.919
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

1498
04:37:57.000 --> 04:38:08.200
your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

1499
04:38:15.639 --> 04:38:17.040
And when your body.

1500
04:38:20.400 --> 04:38:30.080
Calms down, your mind relaxes.

1501
04:38:37.599 --> 04:38:44.560
And and though we have not really started to focus

1502
04:38:45.040 --> 04:38:51.200
on your body, it can already.

1503
04:38:52.200 --> 04:39:11.479
Feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress, attentionion,

1504
04:39:15.680 --> 04:39:22.959
heathing all the parts of your body, bleeding, the skin,

1505
04:39:24.119 --> 04:39:31.000
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1506
04:39:32.439 --> 04:39:39.200
all of the muscles, all of the fat, on everything,

1507
04:39:41.040 --> 04:39:47.240
every hair on your body is filled with bathing energy,

1508
04:39:55.240 --> 04:40:11.000
and on your brain fills with bad healing energy. The

1509
04:40:11.279 --> 04:40:15.959
feeding of comforts of relaxation.

1510
04:40:19.000 --> 04:40:29.799
Increases deeply increases.

1511
04:40:35.439 --> 04:40:36.159
In a way.

1512
04:40:39.799 --> 04:40:51.200
Your mind starts to feel perhaps speak to rousing.

1513
04:40:55.919 --> 04:40:57.520
Because it's not needed.

1514
04:41:01.080 --> 04:41:02.919
Never may start.

1515
04:41:05.799 --> 04:41:06.759
To drift.

1516
04:41:15.240 --> 04:41:21.000
If that's what's needed. So if you're.

1517
04:41:20.919 --> 04:41:21.959
Listening to this.

1518
04:41:24.000 --> 04:41:28.240
And what you need is deeply relaxation, that's what you get.

1519
04:41:30.439 --> 04:41:38.000
If what you need is to fall asleep naturally and easily,

1520
04:41:38.959 --> 04:41:43.560
that your mind drifts, that's.

1521
04:41:43.560 --> 04:41:46.319
Also Or whatever.

1522
04:41:51.799 --> 04:41:59.919
Accuse by listen that play button on the podcast.

1523
04:41:59.439 --> 04:42:03.799
And listen mean to me to give permission.

1524
04:42:05.319 --> 04:42:06.840
Your body and your mind.

1525
04:42:09.919 --> 04:42:18.919
In fact, you give the command to your body and

1526
04:42:19.040 --> 04:42:21.200
your mind to relax.

1527
04:42:24.520 --> 04:42:33.240
Deeply and to drift off to sleep, if that's what

1528
04:42:33.680 --> 04:42:38.639
you wanted.

1529
04:42:46.400 --> 04:42:48.080
And as I focus.

1530
04:42:49.319 --> 04:43:00.279
On the twfferent parts of your body, you may starts

1531
04:43:00.560 --> 04:43:07.959
to drift. And when you come back again, do you

1532
04:43:08.119 --> 04:43:12.720
hear me talking and I'm focusing on a different part

1533
04:43:12.919 --> 04:43:23.919
of your body, you may find yourself drifting.

1534
04:43:26.680 --> 04:43:29.119
Do you don't realize you're drifting.

1535
04:43:30.479 --> 04:43:34.720
Until you stop drifting, you're.

1536
04:43:34.520 --> 04:43:41.759
Alert again to my voice focusing what a different.

1537
04:43:41.560 --> 04:43:46.680
Part of your body starts to relax even deeper.

1538
04:43:50.799 --> 04:43:56.240
Because that drifting, it's basically you already.

1539
04:43:58.040 --> 04:44:07.840
In the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the

1540
04:44:08.080 --> 04:44:18.439
longer you drift, the longer you dread. Eventually that drifting

1541
04:44:18.680 --> 04:44:30.560
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

1542
04:44:30.599 --> 04:44:38.520
you wake up in your own time, when.

1543
04:44:38.400 --> 04:44:41.520
You experience the high amount of sleep.

1544
04:44:42.360 --> 04:44:51.400
Then when you do, and if you do, all asleep

1545
04:44:54.439 --> 04:45:20.959
extremely pleasant, so so deep sleep. It was so nice.

1546
04:45:22.840 --> 04:45:24.799
To relax into.

1547
04:45:25.880 --> 04:45:35.119
The one body in mind and you feel that feing

1548
04:45:35.240 --> 04:45:41.759
and it is spreading through it. Relaxing is so deeply

1549
04:45:47.439 --> 04:46:03.479
relax and so so deeply you start to wake us

1550
04:46:05.279 --> 04:46:18.720
on your eyes, you down to your jewel.

1551
04:46:26.599 --> 04:46:28.439
Now do you make.

1552
04:46:35.680 --> 04:46:36.720
Assure this?

1553
04:46:44.159 --> 04:48:35.200
Oh ths, yes, yes, by you you as you inside

1554
04:48:35.520 --> 04:48:39.040
your body is a new.

1555
04:48:42.000 --> 04:48:47.119
Now let's focus again.

1556
04:48:49.319 --> 04:48:56.319
Parts of your buddy. But you spend this time on

1557
04:48:56.439 --> 04:49:12.919
your forehead, down on your mouth, lips, the tongue wold

1558
04:49:12.959 --> 04:49:34.240
of your mouth, like you say, on your fingers. Maybe

1559
04:49:36.599 --> 04:49:42.759
then you think it's kids, focus on each one individually,

1560
04:49:49.000 --> 04:49:56.959
both hands. Even though you focus on both of your hands,

1561
04:50:00.159 --> 04:50:09.319
let's see, it's just melt into one. Maybe you're right, hands.

1562
04:50:09.159 --> 04:50:12.040
Start together, lived.

1563
04:50:15.319 --> 04:50:16.200
The less is it?

1564
04:50:18.759 --> 04:50:34.040
It just mix together? Now focus needs I'll just make

1565
04:50:34.159 --> 04:50:56.360
the scene how your knees fell? Now focus see what opens?

1566
04:50:59.119 --> 04:51:08.560
Fot you see what you do? Knows just to save

1567
04:51:14.200 --> 04:51:15.279
nothing knows?

1568
04:51:39.400 --> 04:51:46.240
Now what do you think.

1569
04:51:56.159 --> 04:51:56.599
Anything?

1570
04:52:32.919 --> 04:54:23.279
It's acords disco sections, Le tre do, no sweet yea

1571
04:54:26.439 --> 04:56:19.520
by laties. Why no, let's let's go, let's go.

1572
04:56:23.439 --> 04:56:49.520
Yeah, lets you do, let's go, Let.

1573
04:56:57.759 --> 04:57:06.799
H o.

1574
04:57:14.159 --> 04:57:20.159
And don start Now what would just first just the season.

1575
04:57:21.400 --> 04:57:22.080
N them.

1576
04:57:23.560 --> 04:57:29.159
And then message table whine on the front. The head

1577
04:57:29.200 --> 04:57:40.080
is supportive, arms and supporting the comfort and breathings reading.

1578
04:57:42.720 --> 04:57:47.919
Do you feel you confident?

1579
04:57:48.560 --> 04:57:49.720
And can you look as well?

1580
04:57:49.880 --> 04:57:51.759
So as then that I can see.

1581
04:57:51.639 --> 04:58:01.840
The body problems or shiness because unprofessional and this is

1582
04:58:02.439 --> 04:58:06.520
a verpi sential, so never that's stuff matters.

1583
04:58:11.479 --> 04:58:12.360
This is about you.

1584
04:58:15.159 --> 04:58:16.720
This is about you.

1585
04:58:19.240 --> 04:58:20.360
H m hm.

1586
04:58:23.959 --> 04:58:32.639
Said I, God would like to take my head.

1587
04:58:35.360 --> 04:58:35.400
H