June 25, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Thank You | LMBYTS #1382 | Jason Newland | 25th June 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Thank You | LMBYTS #1382 | Jason Newland | 25th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland and hello, Hello, how are you good? It's

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hot so hot in here. Today is the twenty fifth

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of June two thousand and twenty five, and it is

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six thirty four pum. So please only listen when you

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can safely closerize.

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Oh tired, very tired.

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Oh so something on there? Why is that not giving

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me analytics? That's strange. It's very strange. It's going on podcasts,

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so I've got multiple podcasts. Why is it not give

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me analytics? So I'm just looking at the analytics, get

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insights about your website, visiting our stats. Okay, it's not

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given me any of the moment. It doesn't matter. It

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doesn't don't matter. When I got my website back. The

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person who runs the podcast or I don't know, telling

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me off. You can't keep stopping, you can't keep you

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deleting it because otherwise, you know, I can't keep There's

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a lot of work to get it back. It's okay,

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you need to joining annual. So I can't afford anal.

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I said, well you need to. You have to pay

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for anal because it it's basically we need to know

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that you can stay for the full year, and I said, well,

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I can't afford. I can't do that. I can do monthly.

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And in the end he said, okay, then monthly is

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So that was all right. I'm going to go on

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to Facebook because I had a few comments. I'm going

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to read out some of the messages that I've had

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on Facebook. My back is hurting. I think with all

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the car journeys and the bus journeys, there's a lot

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of jolting around on the roads. They're not very smooth,

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a lot of them. I've noticed that's kind of jolted

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my back quite a lot, and I'm not used to it.

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So I'm not sure what else whatever reasons reasons, I

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don't know what they are from my back is so.

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So look, I did do a recording. Actually I did

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a recording. According to this, I did a recording on

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Saturday as well, which I don't remember doing. And it

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was a deep sleep whisper hypnosis recording which I did

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on the twenty second of June, which was indeed Sunday.

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Twenty second of June was Sunday, all right, so I

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did it. I don't remember doing recording on Sunday. How

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did I manage to do that? Weird? Strange? So technically,

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so this is the third one of the week because

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I did do one Sunday, did one Monday. No, I

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didn't do one Monday. I did one yesterday, which was Tuesday.

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And it's kind of strange. It's all being a bit weird.

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It's just been weird. It's been a weird week. Weird, weird, weird, weird.

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If you want to know more about that, then I

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suggest you listened to yesterday's recording to save me go

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through it again and boring those that already have ingested

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the boringness of yesterday's a recording just to say that

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I've been visiting a neighbor in hospital and that would

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be yeah, that's kind of been the whole week so far.

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So Friday night and then Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,

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so six days in a row. I've been going up

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and back and forward to the hospital. Six So it's

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what twelve journeys or thirteen fourteen fifteen maybe if you

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include the buses, sixteen seventeen eighteen journeys, because the buses,

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it's two journeys to get here. But I genuinely cannot

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remember which days I got a taxi, which days I

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have got bus, Which days I got a lift from

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a neighbor, paid them ten pounds to take me. It's

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it's a bit of a blur, a bit a blur.

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Today I got a taxi there and back because it

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took me two hours to get home last night or

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yesterday afternoon on the bus or two different buses with

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the walk in the waiting and the journeys, it's the

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two hour journey. And I just I just think of

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a little Vinnie waiting here for me because it doesn't

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eat his dinner, doesn't It's like lazier pining for me.

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I imagine he doesn't doesn't like it when to go out,

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really doesn't like it when I go out, really really

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doesn't like it. And I found there that's weird breakfast

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cereal in the middle of the settee buttocks, you know,

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been between the two buttocks of the city increase. Yeah,

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I'm just going to try to remember what happened today.

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What happened today. Last night was weird. Okay, this is

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very strange, Vinnie. So I had a sleep in the afternoon,

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like I just did, just now as well. So I

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had probably about an hour an hour and a half

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sleep and then he started barking summon in the garden.

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So what I did is I went to bed. It

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wasn't an early night last night, funny enough, probably about eleven,

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maybe half eleven, even because I did the recording, which

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was nearly towards an hour and forty minutes before going

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to bed. And yeah, it's just just the way it went,

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I guess because my sleeping is a little bit out

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because really ever since Friday, because normally I'm up on

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I go to bed about ten o'clock, sometimes eleven, sometimes nine,

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you know, on a weekend, if it's boxing on, i'd

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go to bed after the box and finishes, and sometimes

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that can be about half eleven twelve. But generally, and

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it's not because I have to, I don't go to

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bed at ten because that's my bedtime and I get

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in trouble if I don't. I don't have anyone coming

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in checking that my eyes are closed. It's nothing that

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would be really weird, wouldn't it, especially as I live alone.

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So I choose to do that, and that's kind of

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been my routine for the last couple of years. Really. Friday,

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I was up till I was at the hospital to

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about half three in the morning. I'd already gone to

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bed at ten and kind of, yeah, that didn't work out.

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So I ended up in the hospital with my neighbor,

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and then I got home probably just after four. It

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was quite a quick journey because there was no traffic

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on the roads, really, but I was too or I

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was tired. I was too awake to go to sleep,

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and I was also really hungry because I hadn't eaten

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since probably six o'clock in the evening, so I needed

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I had some breakfast seal, which is all I needed really,

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just something, just a little bit of food. So I

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didn't go to bed hungry, and I eventually went to sleep.

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I fell asleep in the chair here, woke up about

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eight nine, about eight o'clock year and then I went Saturday,

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I just started again. I think I left at eleven

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or midday Saturday to go to the hospital, and I've

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been back and forward every day. But I don't seem

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to have caught up my sleep, which is probably a

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bit weird. But I kind of don't, yeah, kind of

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a bit. And there isn't it that whole theory that

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you can never catch up on your sleep. I don't know.

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Last night I went to bed a bit later than

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I normally do, which is fine because I'd had a

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sleep in the afternoon. It's usually this is going to

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sound weird. I quite often have an afternoon nap in

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my normal day to day, but I haven't had that,

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you know, for the last week. I'm not sure if

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it's a good thing or about or a neutral thing.

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I don't know, just it just hasn't happened. So I'd

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like a late or early evening nap instead. Last night,

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Vinnie wouldn't we would not get on the bed with me.

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He refused to get on the bed, and I didn't

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really understand why. It just wouldn't like he refused to

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point blank to get on the bed with me. So

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I took him, I think, and then he did get

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on eventually eventually did but he was being really weird

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about it. And then at two o'clock this morning, he

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was on the floor looking up at me from the floor,

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you know. And I don't know. I guess he must

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have been making some noise or scratching at the bed

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or something to wake me up, and I said, what

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is it Lassie? And nothing? So, I mean, Lassie is

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such a ridiculous TV show. If anyone ever watched it,

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dogs communicating and letting you know. If Lassie was a

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Jack Russell like Minnie, that show would last for five

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minutes and the end, in the end, that just that'd

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be it. It'd be like, what is it? What is it? Oh?

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You want to you want to treat Okay, that's it.

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And he just jumped up when I said that. So

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about two o'clock, I don't know what's going on, so

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I give him some food. I thought maybe it's hungry.

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He eats the food and I go and lay down again,

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and he's still standing there or sitting down staring at me. Now,

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I don't have any treats. Run out of treats for him.

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I still got these little bony things that he can

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have chew on, but I've got no treats. He's got

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through them. I haven't been able to do any shopping

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this week yet. Got some milk from the hospitals. That's

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kind of all I've got. I've got been trying to

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eat when I've been out, and I have crumpets for

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my dinner. Tonight, so that's good. I got them from

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the hospital as well. And I can't believe the restaurant's closed.

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I was going to have a meal because when my

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neighbor's having his meal, I go and go and get

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something to eat. And so far as just being costers

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like a toasted sandwich thing, a toasty or whatever they

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call them. But I thought, oh, I'll try out the restaurants.

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It was closed at the weekend, I'll try that out.

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And I went along and turns out it's being refurbished,

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so it's just not open for anyone, including the stuff.

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I think the stuff for taking sandwiches in. Well. Actually,

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I did see a lot of the nurses and doctors

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in costers, so I imagine they're getting quite a good

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amount of money coming in. I hope that they get

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a discount. I really do. And in fact, without getting

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political political nurses, doctors, they shouldn't pay a damn thing.

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Anyone who works in the hospital should get free food,

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or school kids or school kids and teachers should get

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free food. I'm going further, everyone should get free food. Okay,

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I'm now back, so i I've got some messages to

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read out. Okay, So I'm going to do that in

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a minute. The I just didn't know what to do.

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I didn't what what what is it? What is it? Vinnie?

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What is it? I didn't you can really figure it out.

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It was bugging me. But he wasn't being obvious of

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what he wanted. He wasn't running towards the front door.

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He wasn't looking at the kitchen door. He wasn't, you know,

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he wasn't doing anything particular. So in the end, I thought,

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maybe he needs a wee wi or something else, you know,

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so I'll take him outside into the garden. For some reason,

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it wasn't really that dark out there. It means normally

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dark at two clock in the morning, but it was

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relatively light, so I went out there. He does go

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for a weed, but that's not what he wanted. And

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he kept looking at the doorway of the other building.

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And I don't even know why. I'm not, just like

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why two o'clock in the morning. And then he I

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dropped the hand you know, the handle for the lead,

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because I have to have my lead on his inner

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garden otherwise he will just run off. I dropped the

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lead on the floor and it made a big old bang.

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Like bang actually was less of a bang, more of

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a splat or clap, you know, plastic concrete and a

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bit like I imagine Pamela Anderson doing some break dancing anyway.

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So that's quite a really old reference, isn't it. Really,

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that's like a nineties reference. I mean both of them

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are kind of nineteen I mean breakdancing more nineteen eighties,

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isn't it. I love breakdancing the movie Breakdancing or is

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it Breakdancing A Breakdancer? It was one of the best

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movies ever at the time. And when do you see

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it ever played? Not in this country. I've don't think

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I've ever seen it on TV. It's like a forgotten movie.

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And it was absolutely brilliant. It was uplifting, it was

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and the dance techniques were phenomenal. It was new, you know,

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and that wasn't new new. I suppose anything that goes

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into a cinema would have probably been around for years.

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I've seen footage of Michael Jackson doing the robot walk

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in the seventies, like in seventy five, seventy six, So

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it wasn't a new a new new thing, but it

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was amazing, and there's a couple of those movies that

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are really good. Now, I've realized a few things over

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the years. Over the years, I've learned a few things.

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First of all, I can't listen to someone like me.

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But my neighbor is kind of a little bit like me.

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But when it comes to sport, he will talk about sport,

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sport or politics. That's his thing, and he can talk

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about it. I think he could do twelve hours straight

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and you just keep talking. And he's very passionate. It's

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very Yeah, he's excited, he gets excited, and he's just

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loves loves talking about stuff. And I struggle, struggled because

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I'm not interested. If it's a subject i'm not interested in,

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my eyes do glaze over and I can't. I can't listen. Now,

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it took me many years to realize that people's eyes

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were glazing over when I was talking because I so

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much Now, you know, I suppose ever since I learned

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to be a counselor, I kind of learned a bit

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more communication skills, human communication skills. And also when I

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was a excuse me, when I was a salesperson on

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the phones, working in a call center. So it's a

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you know, it's a conversation. So I had twenty years

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of learning to do that stuff. Twenty five years of

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learning to do that stuff, I guess now twenty years,

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ten years, I don't know however many years. But my

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favorite is probably just the monologu where I just talk

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at people, but I know I can't do that apart

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from what I do, these wecord things and I learned

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years ago. Like I remember seeing people's eyes glaze over.

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I didn't ask doing it, and I didn't notice the glaze,

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the glazing of their eyes until I started learning about hypnosis,

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and I started at that time, I started playing around

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with it because I'd move from what I was talking

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about out to something completely different and they didn't even notice.

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That's when I realized that I was naturally a hypnotist,

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like my natural Like I was hypnotizing people without even

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realizing O came not maybe not hypnotizing, putting them into

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a trance, about realizing I was doing it and making

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a focus and then almost drift, you know, not really

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be there, be there, but not be there. It's kind

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of a weird, weird one. And so what I started

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doing is playing with it. Sometimes I have to have

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a drink sometimes and this is in the late nineties. Okay,

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when I was in full hypnotic mode, I would start

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talking to someone and then I would just lead and

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I just keep talking, and they just look at me

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and I just keep talking and they just keep talking

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and see how long I could talk a complete nonsense

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before they realized I was just talking complete nonsense. And

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sometimes I could go on for like ten minutes and

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I'd ask them a question and be like, huh, and

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they had gone, They'd been somewhere else. They like, really well,

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they weren't there. And I used to play with that

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just because for fun. I wasn't doing it in a

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harmful way. I wasn't giving them suggestions or anything. I

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was just distracting them and then started talking about lawn

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mowers and gremlins and pizza and I just think things

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that had nothing to do with why we were actually

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having a conversation. I was like, wow, I mean, technically,

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I could have started these podcasts in the late nineties.

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I could have started Let Me Bore You to Sleep

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in nineteen ninety nine, ninety eight, ninety nine, which would

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make me one of the longest podcasts of all time.

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But I didn't. I mean podcasts, I don't think we're

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even really around them. But you know, I could have

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made audios. There were ways of listening to audio online

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back then. So yeah, it's too late now. But it's

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too late now. I can't go back and start it earlier.

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I mean, it's the old saying, isn't it. When's the

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best time to start something? Now? There's never a good time,

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and the best time is now. I thought, don't ever wait.

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You can wait and wait and wait. I used to

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know something like that. It was always, oh, I'm going

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to do this when this happens, and then you end

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up like, still haven't done it thirty years later. And

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I've been like that many times over the years, and

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I probably still will be. I'm a bit like that

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with vacuuming the carpet. I'll do it. I was gonna say,

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I'm going to do it next week. I'm going to

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do it in the next two weeks. I started off

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I'm going to do it this afternoon. Then no, I'm

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going to do it tomorrow. I'll do it before Saturday.

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I'll do it next week. I'll do it over the weekend.

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I'll do it next week and now I'm kind of

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like I'm gonna I'm going to vacuum before I'm sixty,

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you know, kind of the the deadlines kind of extended somewhat.

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Now I'm going to read these messages out because there

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was a point to what I was saying, and I've

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forgotten what it is. Here's one message from yesterday. Sebastian,

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believe it or not, left another weird message. So let's

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have a look. What did Sebastian right? Stop producing when

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you're feeling unwell. You own me sex, but not daily recordings.

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No need to risk a blip. You did well with

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helping your neighbor. I'll just put question marks to answer

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that one. The thing is, it's I'd rather make a recording.

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I still talk boringly. Think about it. How often do

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I actually I think you can hear that dog in

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the background. How often do I actually do anything? I

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rarely leave the flat. I don't really go out and

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do much. So this has given me stuff to talk about.

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So it's kind of, you know, from that sense, I

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know it's kind of a weird subject, hospitals and stuff,

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and he wants to hear about hospitals. But I'm not

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going to go into detail about anything about hospital. It's

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just somewhere that I'm actually visiting at the moment. So

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you know, I understand kind of where seb asked Sebastian

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is coming from. But yeah, so part of that was nice.

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But yeah, like I owe him what? So he writes

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what to Sebastian and to me, are these additional services

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now being offered to you? They are? But not to

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him says oh yes, but Sebastian, no, definitely not. And

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then Sebastia decided that the picture looked like Harvey Kai

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tell on my image, and Christine says, it was really

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interesting and could understand your situation and now I know

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what to do if I was in your position. You

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are an amazing neighbor and friend, a good person. We

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could do with more kind, caring people like you. You'll

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be exhausted after all that. Thank you for sharing his

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story and I wish you your friend well. Thank you, Christine. Yeah,

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it has been exhausting. I think weird today. He was

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being awkward today. He was being a little bit aggressive

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verbally not I don't know, it's hard to explain, but

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he was getting a little bit antsy. Is that a

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word antsy, a little bit argumentative. So I don't really

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know what was going on with him. Well, I can guess,

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you know what's going on. I know what's going on

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with him, but I can guess that he just may

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I don't know. It was a weird one because he's

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he seems to be a little bit different each day.

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He's very calm, very softly spoken, but then when he

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gets going, he's he kind of started getting a bit

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angry like that, like expressive expressive. Yeah, maybe not towards me,

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a little bit towards me, but towards what he was

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talking about and like complaining about something. It was like, okay,

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it's like a maybe a different side to him that

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I've not really seen much of. Perhaps, So yeah, it

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was a bit weird. I mean, I kind of at

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one point he was saying, well, you go and get

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back to Vinnie. I think he was almost trying to

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kick me out. I think I'd annoyed him at some

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point I said something that must have annoyed him, So

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I think he might be thinking that I'm the one

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that was being annoying, and I'm thinking that he was

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the one being not annoying. I don't know, there was

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one point where we walked through the hospital because I

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take him out every day, and I don't think he

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I'm not sure if he really appreciates going out, but

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all the other people in his ward are not allowed out.

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He's allowed out because he's got he's got his mobility

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and he's got me and I kind of take him

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and he's not walk. It's weird, but he's not walking away.

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He used to walk. He's very he's getting on a bit,

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but he's he's been walking to the petro station every

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day since I've known him, and now said he's walking

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like one foot in front of the other, very slowly

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and almost holding on to me at times. But he's

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physically fine, he says. So I'm kind of a little

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bit confused. But so we're walking really slowly through the hospital.

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Reminded me a little bit about when my nan had

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doesn't say when she had her hip, but she always

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she always had two hips, but when she'd like her

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that damaged her hip. And he tripped up on some

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lino that was sticking up, which was in the middle

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of a doorway it which is quite close to the

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exit and the entrance, and some people on the left

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hand side. I don't know what they were doing, but

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they laughed. He didn't fall over, so I grabbed him,

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but he didn't fall over anyway because he you know,

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he kind of got his foot in and I the

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thing is, the people that laughed might have just been

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laughing anyway. They might have just been in the middle

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of a conversation. So I just I had to blank

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that out. My natural reaction is to possibly say something,

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so I no, no, no, no. So I turned to the

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reception because there's literally a help desk right next to

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where he tripped, and I said to him that he's

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literally a bit of lino sticking up off the floor

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and he tripped, luckily didn't fall over, But that's an

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accident waiting to happen, and a lady beyond account. I said, okay,

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I'll get the whatever to fix it. Still wasn't fixed

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when I left. I mean it was only like an

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hour or two hours later, or an hour and a

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half that I left later. But it's like, that's a

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health and safety issue. It needs to be done quickly

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because thousands of people are walking through there every day,

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thousands and thousands. But it was weird because even though

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he's only I mean, he's very light. I imagine compared to me,

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he can't wait very much. Even then it's someone falls,

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it's hard to stop them from falling, isn't it. I'll

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stop him, you know, even if it means he lands

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on me. I will stop him from falling. But at

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the same time, I don't want him to get hurt.

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And it was weird because putting his arm out to

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just generally always were walking sort of almost like to

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keep his balance. I'm kind of I'm just a little

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bit confused with the whole thing because I've never seen

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him do that before. So we're outside, and he's we've

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been out every day. I took him outside, and a

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lot of people don't get to go out in the sun,

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you know, they're kind of stuck inside the ward. And

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all the people in his ward are just they haven't

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been able to leave for days, some of them. One's

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waiting to go home, I think soon. And he spent

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six days without going outside until his daughter came and

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took him out. So I think it's good to take

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him out. But then he he kind of doesn't want

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to go out. It's almost like, let's go, let's go

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for a little walk, go into the because there's see

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it's lots of seating outside, and there's lovely days. Been

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nice every day this week, even when it was windy

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and cloudy, it was still nice. You know, it's still

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a nice temperature. But he's got like, okay, just just wait,

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it's fine. So I don't know. I don't know if

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he's struggling with the with the walk and he's just

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not mentioning. I don't know, really, I don't know. I

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am turning into a fuss pot. Now. I was a

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fuss pot with Luke and he got annoyed with me.

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But I haven't needed to be a fusspot since that time.

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And over the last six months I've turned into a

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bit of a fuss spot with my neighbor that's in hospital,

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just with helping him with his bills, helping him with

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his just finding out stuff that he's ignored, trying to

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help him to get it sorted. But over the last

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month I haven't needed to really do anything, or maybe

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the last two months even because he's just been happily

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doing his thing. I see him when I see him,

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usually see him a couple of times a week, maybe

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three times a week. He asked me, if he needs

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me to do something, I'll do it. And really the

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only reason he contacted me not contacting I see him

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fairly regularly, but he contacted me to because he phones

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me like once twice a week even though I'm just opposite.

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But he like if he wants to just talk about

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sport or something, and that's when I don't answer the phone.

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That's terrible. But he needed my help with some stuff

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regarding the bathroom being done, so I said I was

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going to help him, just that he wanted to get

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the flat prepared before they builders came in and stuff

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like that, and we were going to try and talk

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to electrician to try and disconnect his cooker and maybe

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also see if we can get someone the plumber to

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connect his washing machine. Neither of those things have happened

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to be fair because it's other things have come up.

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But now the last week I seemed to be I'm

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not I'm not, I'm okay, I'm not seeming to be

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a fussy a fuss pot. I have been a fusspot

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and I know it, and I know it's annoying because

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I wouldn't like someone doing it to me. I don't

467
00:35:57.679 --> 00:36:03.960
know why why I am like that. It's almost like

468
00:36:04.039 --> 00:36:09.280
I'm concerned, and I can't hide being concerned, and I

469
00:36:09.320 --> 00:36:13.440
can't hide caring and wanting him to be okay and

470
00:36:13.480 --> 00:36:17.079
making sure that he's okay, knowing that he wouldn't tell

471
00:36:17.119 --> 00:36:25.280
me if he wasn't. That's the thing. And I think

472
00:36:25.320 --> 00:36:32.199
in the process of annoying, annoying, annoying him, I did

473
00:36:32.199 --> 00:36:34.320
the same with my friend Luke downstairs. I used to

474
00:36:34.360 --> 00:36:41.679
annoy the hell out of him sometimes. Is so yeah,

475
00:36:40.719 --> 00:36:44.079
it's one of those things. I mean when I left today,

476
00:36:44.159 --> 00:36:48.119
I left it too, and I didn't want to go back,

477
00:36:49.239 --> 00:36:51.239
like ever again. I was going to go back, but

478
00:36:51.559 --> 00:36:53.440
I was. I told Hi, I'm not coming back tomorrow.

479
00:36:55.079 --> 00:36:56.800
So I haven't been able to do my shopping. I

480
00:36:56.880 --> 00:36:59.599
haven't really been able to do much here. I need

481
00:36:59.639 --> 00:37:01.519
to get bit of I made you to do some

482
00:37:01.679 --> 00:37:09.360
washing the other day and some laundry. But yeah, I thought,

483
00:37:09.920 --> 00:37:16.000
tomorrow's Thursday, and I can get some get a few

484
00:37:16.000 --> 00:37:20.679
bits done here and get my just have a day

485
00:37:20.719 --> 00:37:24.159
off to be fair, just have a lie in, not

486
00:37:24.280 --> 00:37:29.960
have to do anything. And then my neighbor called A

487
00:37:29.960 --> 00:37:33.079
different neighbor called up about an hour ago, saying, do

488
00:37:33.119 --> 00:37:36.519
I want to lift tomorrow? So I asked her, I

489
00:37:36.639 --> 00:37:39.679
give her ten pounds to take me when she can

490
00:37:39.800 --> 00:37:45.400
shed take me once. And it's really she she'll offer

491
00:37:45.480 --> 00:37:49.039
when she's going out herself, so she's not going there

492
00:37:49.079 --> 00:37:52.119
specifically for me, but she's going anywhere near there to

493
00:37:52.199 --> 00:37:57.079
the hospital. She'll give me a lift. And she called

494
00:37:57.119 --> 00:37:58.880
me up and said, I can take you tomorrow morning.

495
00:37:59.000 --> 00:38:03.119
So I thought, well, okay, I'll do that. And I

496
00:38:03.199 --> 00:38:07.039
called up my neighbor the I'm trying not to say

497
00:38:07.039 --> 00:38:10.320
his name, my neighbor opposite me who's in hospital. I

498
00:38:10.360 --> 00:38:13.440
called him up just to see have you had any

499
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:18.119
other you know, just like I'll buy the one coming tomorrow,

500
00:38:18.519 --> 00:38:21.840
he said, really, So he seemed like he was quite

501
00:38:21.840 --> 00:38:25.239
pleased that I was coming, which is weird because he

502
00:38:25.280 --> 00:38:31.400
seemed really pleased that I was leaving today earlier. It's

503
00:38:31.440 --> 00:38:34.039
just weird. I think I just annoying him, I think.

504
00:38:35.039 --> 00:38:39.639
And so he's still got a bit of resentment, I

505
00:38:39.639 --> 00:38:41.719
think towards me, because he wouldn't be in there if

506
00:38:41.719 --> 00:38:48.239
it wasn't for me, and even though he needs to

507
00:38:48.280 --> 00:38:52.960
be in there, and some people would argue the other way,

508
00:38:53.000 --> 00:38:57.199
but you know, generally if he hadn't he had joined this.

509
00:38:57.760 --> 00:39:00.360
You know, he needed to be in hospital. He needed

510
00:39:00.400 --> 00:39:03.119
treatment for jaundice. He wouldn't have got any if he hadn't,

511
00:39:03.239 --> 00:39:07.599
if I hadn't called the paramedics, even if he could

512
00:39:07.599 --> 00:39:13.199
get treated at home, you know, he I'm not sure

513
00:39:13.199 --> 00:39:15.360
if Jordice goes away on his own. To be fair,

514
00:39:15.400 --> 00:39:18.000
I don't know enough about it, but I do know

515
00:39:18.119 --> 00:39:29.000
that it's basically it's serious. So I think he holds

516
00:39:29.000 --> 00:39:32.559
that resentment because I've this whole thing is to turn

517
00:39:32.639 --> 00:39:39.719
his life upside down, not just temporarily, so he's got that. Yeah,

518
00:39:39.800 --> 00:39:41.679
I think I think he'd quite like to punch me.

519
00:39:43.800 --> 00:39:46.719
I think I think is that I think he's kind

520
00:39:46.719 --> 00:39:53.159
of he's he's probably happy that I'm there and that

521
00:39:53.239 --> 00:39:55.880
he's got a neighbor that cares and whatever. I guess.

522
00:39:56.039 --> 00:39:58.480
Partly I'm sure that I'm guessing that might be in

523
00:39:58.519 --> 00:40:01.719
his mind, but there also that like part of him thinking,

524
00:40:04.639 --> 00:40:07.760
you know, I'm not sure if he makes that sound

525
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:10.400
in his brain, but that as part of him. I

526
00:40:10.400 --> 00:40:14.320
think that just I actually actually I've asked him it.

527
00:40:14.360 --> 00:40:18.199
I'm quite blatant. I do ask people stuff I said,

528
00:40:19.199 --> 00:40:21.320
like today, I said, you're angry today. You're angry with me,

529
00:40:21.360 --> 00:40:26.159
aren't you? And he was just because he started talking

530
00:40:26.159 --> 00:40:33.760
about politics, and I said, and he was really stuck

531
00:40:33.800 --> 00:40:36.920
on this particular story. And he carried it on all

532
00:40:36.920 --> 00:40:39.760
the way from when we was outside to when we

533
00:40:39.840 --> 00:40:44.159
got back inside and he was eating his dinner, and

534
00:40:44.199 --> 00:40:46.400
then after he's eating his dinner, he's still talking about

535
00:40:46.400 --> 00:40:51.199
it to the neighbor, his neighbor and the bed next

536
00:40:51.199 --> 00:40:55.000
to him. And I'm not sure if the neighbor next

537
00:40:55.079 --> 00:40:57.719
to him even knew what he was talking about, because

538
00:40:58.679 --> 00:41:02.920
he doesn't produce a subject again like me. This is

539
00:41:03.000 --> 00:41:09.440
kind of if I started talking about and working in

540
00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:13.840
the meter factory where we used to make meters. It's

541
00:41:13.880 --> 00:41:16.400
a bit like that. It's like I'm talking about a

542
00:41:16.440 --> 00:41:21.360
hospital and now I'm talking about making the boxes, and

543
00:41:21.360 --> 00:41:23.760
you're going to think, well, am I still talking about

544
00:41:23.760 --> 00:41:27.519
a hospital? Because what boxes would you make in the hospital?

545
00:41:31.480 --> 00:41:35.400
And it's hard to follow sometimes, But I don't just

546
00:41:35.480 --> 00:41:38.880
sit there passively and listen because it is a conversation

547
00:41:38.920 --> 00:41:42.159
because as a person's there with me, and I question,

548
00:41:42.320 --> 00:41:45.320
like what you Perhaps I shouldn't be, Perhaps I should

549
00:41:45.320 --> 00:41:49.199
be I don't know. I just say what you're talking about, like,

550
00:41:49.559 --> 00:41:53.199
not in a horrible way, but like what. I don't say,

551
00:41:53.480 --> 00:41:56.840
what are you talking about? Now? What on earth are

552
00:41:56.840 --> 00:41:57.800
you going on about?

553
00:41:58.360 --> 00:41:58.920
Now?

554
00:41:59.440 --> 00:42:05.119
I don't do that, but I do say, uh, wha,

555
00:42:05.639 --> 00:42:09.119
where you want? What?

556
00:42:09.119 --> 00:42:09.519
What?

557
00:42:09.559 --> 00:42:17.599
Where you want? And at one point he said, because

558
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.159
I asked him something, I don't know if I was

559
00:42:21.159 --> 00:42:23.800
talking about the lunch that he just had, and he said,

560
00:42:24.000 --> 00:42:27.599
he or some question or whatever, and he said, you're

561
00:42:27.599 --> 00:42:31.159
trying to distract me from what I'm talking about. Because

562
00:42:31.159 --> 00:42:36.119
I've been doing that lately. I'm quite good at distracting

563
00:42:36.159 --> 00:42:40.360
people to bring them back to a different subject. Not

564
00:42:41.119 --> 00:42:43.239
I suppose it is. Maybe it's a little bit controlling.

565
00:42:43.320 --> 00:42:47.760
I don't mean it in a controlling way, but it's

566
00:42:47.760 --> 00:42:50.599
a way. There's a certain skill that I learned as

567
00:42:50.599 --> 00:42:56.239
a counselor and in hypnosis sort of therapeutic manner is

568
00:42:56.679 --> 00:43:01.960
when someone goes off track, and sometimes that can be

569
00:43:02.000 --> 00:43:06.119
really useful, other times not so much so bringing it

570
00:43:06.159 --> 00:43:12.199
back to the reason they're there. So if someone's coming

571
00:43:12.320 --> 00:43:23.239
because let's say someone's coming because of uh yeah, maybe exam,

572
00:43:23.639 --> 00:43:26.920
you know, when I was exam anxiety or something like that,

573
00:43:27.840 --> 00:43:29.880
and they'll be coming for counseling because they were just

574
00:43:29.920 --> 00:43:35.599
struggling with that stuff or something similar, I don't know,

575
00:43:35.639 --> 00:43:43.440
And then they'd start be talking. They'd be talking about spaceships,

576
00:43:43.519 --> 00:43:48.239
and you know, these were like, I'm talking about adult people,

577
00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:51.519
not like little kids, although I did used to see

578
00:43:51.800 --> 00:43:55.239
I used to counsel kids as well. But sometimes you

579
00:43:55.280 --> 00:43:57.840
have to kind of bring it back to what the

580
00:43:57.880 --> 00:44:03.239
focus is because in Connsolin there is I don't know

581
00:44:03.280 --> 00:44:08.840
what the correct term is, where people maybe not purposely,

582
00:44:09.519 --> 00:44:17.920
maybe not like consciously move to a different subject to

583
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:20.880
avoid I guess it's avoidance, isn't I suppose that's probably

584
00:44:20.920 --> 00:44:23.039
the word, isn't it. What do they what's it called

585
00:44:23.039 --> 00:44:30.760
when they avoid things? Oh? Avoidance? So it is something.

586
00:44:30.800 --> 00:44:33.119
It's kind of something. As a therapist, I think it

587
00:44:33.280 --> 00:44:35.400
might can be useful to kind of bring them back

588
00:44:35.760 --> 00:44:40.000
to notice that, maybe to even mention it as well.

589
00:44:41.079 --> 00:44:44.800
I noticed you've come here because you had an issue

590
00:44:44.840 --> 00:44:50.079
with you know, when you had that holiday and things

591
00:44:50.119 --> 00:44:55.079
didn't go quite well. But I'm wondering what that's got

592
00:44:55.079 --> 00:44:57.480
to do with that lego set that you had when

593
00:44:57.519 --> 00:45:03.360
you were nine. It might have something to do with it.

594
00:45:03.360 --> 00:45:07.239
It may well do it might be an analogy for

595
00:45:09.400 --> 00:45:14.360
their experience, so you know, it's it's I used to really,

596
00:45:15.039 --> 00:45:17.559
I used to Here's what I used to do when

597
00:45:17.599 --> 00:45:24.239
I was a counselor. I used to be real. I

598
00:45:24.280 --> 00:45:29.480
don't understand people. I don't pretend that I understand people,

599
00:45:30.679 --> 00:45:34.199
so I ask. So the only way I can understand

600
00:45:34.199 --> 00:45:37.880
someone is by asking them questions, spending time with them,

601
00:45:38.440 --> 00:45:44.079
and genuinely asking them what's going on in your mind.

602
00:45:44.719 --> 00:45:47.400
I can't mind read. I don't pretend to be able

603
00:45:47.440 --> 00:45:52.599
to mind read. I don't know what someone's thinking by

604
00:45:52.599 --> 00:45:56.199
their facial expressions. I can kind of guess, but I

605
00:45:56.199 --> 00:46:02.360
will ask, but even then I still don't know if

606
00:46:02.360 --> 00:46:05.719
it's true, because people sometimes people don't even seem to

607
00:46:05.719 --> 00:46:08.679
know themselves what they're thinking or what they're feeling. So

608
00:46:09.480 --> 00:46:12.599
that that was the way I kind of approached counseling.

609
00:46:13.559 --> 00:46:17.239
I didn't go I had the knowledge. You know, I studied,

610
00:46:17.280 --> 00:46:19.480
I had a degree, and you know, I had a

611
00:46:19.519 --> 00:46:24.079
lot of background in studying for for fun, psychology and

612
00:46:24.119 --> 00:46:28.360
stuff like that, and also the hypnosis background, and a

613
00:46:28.360 --> 00:46:34.480
lot of that is based in psychology and therapy. But

614
00:46:37.199 --> 00:46:42.960
I didn't go into the session thinking I was an

615
00:46:43.000 --> 00:46:49.000
expert on the human condition. I never had that. I

616
00:46:49.039 --> 00:46:53.880
didn't even for me. It wasn't about other people. It

617
00:46:53.960 --> 00:47:00.840
was just about that one person. It wasn't about were

618
00:47:01.440 --> 00:47:03.840
would the way that they were acting was it fitting

619
00:47:03.960 --> 00:47:09.760
in with a specific behavioral criteria you know? That fits

620
00:47:09.800 --> 00:47:14.199
in that that's kind of explains the actions, like, Okay,

621
00:47:14.239 --> 00:47:16.400
they're doing this, doing that, doing that. Therefore they are

622
00:47:16.440 --> 00:47:19.559
this because other people that do that, that that that

623
00:47:19.599 --> 00:47:23.880
are this. I just take them as they were. I

624
00:47:23.960 --> 00:47:28.599
wasn't there to diagnose. I'm not a doctor, not yet anyway.

625
00:47:29.119 --> 00:47:35.400
Oh anyway, but my how was a distraction itself was

626
00:47:35.480 --> 00:47:41.719
that I'm talking about distractions and then I avoidance. I

627
00:47:44.679 --> 00:47:47.440
so my neighbor in the hospital, he said, are you

628
00:47:47.559 --> 00:47:51.960
trying to distract me from talking about that thing? But

629
00:47:52.000 --> 00:47:54.320
it already he told a story three times so at

630
00:47:54.320 --> 00:48:00.800
this point kind of to three different people, and I'll say, no,

631
00:48:02.039 --> 00:48:04.400
I'm just trying to get you to focus on now

632
00:48:09.320 --> 00:48:14.239
and how you are, which is the reason I'm visiting you.

633
00:48:16.599 --> 00:48:18.960
And that didn't go down very well. I mean, perhaps

634
00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:23.119
that wasn't I didn't mean it harshly. I just it's

635
00:48:23.119 --> 00:48:25.920
the truth. I'm visited him. I'm visiting him because of

636
00:48:27.599 --> 00:48:29.239
I want to know how he is. I want to

637
00:48:29.280 --> 00:48:34.039
know what he's feeling. And technically it's none of my

638
00:48:34.079 --> 00:48:36.400
business how he is or how he's feeling, so I

639
00:48:36.400 --> 00:48:39.960
can see that side as well. But earlier in the

640
00:48:39.960 --> 00:48:43.920
week he was opening up and he's sort of closed

641
00:48:43.920 --> 00:48:48.719
down again. This is weird. I don't know. I just

642
00:48:51.519 --> 00:48:57.960
I mean, my counseling skills are probably pretty much disappeared

643
00:48:57.960 --> 00:48:59.920
because I haven't been a counselor for a long time.

644
00:49:03.880 --> 00:49:09.920
But I can listen if someone's talking about something real.

645
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:15.719
I really I find it. See I don't get bored

646
00:49:15.760 --> 00:49:24.519
with real stuff, like a real conversation about real things,

647
00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:26.519
you know, feelings and how do I feel about this?

648
00:49:26.679 --> 00:49:34.280
And opinions? Less interested in that because he did say

649
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:37.679
something about, oh do you do you feel educated now?

650
00:49:37.679 --> 00:49:39.360
Because he was talking about politics, I said, what do

651
00:49:39.400 --> 00:49:41.840
you mean? So you look you learned something new, haven't you.

652
00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:45.840
I said, well, I've learned what your opinion is on

653
00:49:45.880 --> 00:49:51.400
that subject. That's probably nothing that annoyed him. Actually, I said,

654
00:49:51.400 --> 00:49:55.559
it's just opinions. It's not a fact. These aren't facts,

655
00:49:55.599 --> 00:49:59.119
it's just what you believe. You you're on one side

656
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:02.840
of the fence. You believe this about your political party,

657
00:50:02.920 --> 00:50:13.800
and and it's really just that's an opinion. And because

658
00:50:13.800 --> 00:50:15.760
he's got a degree in politics, he's like, no, it's

659
00:50:15.800 --> 00:50:17.840
not an agreement. It's not just an opinion. It's true.

660
00:50:19.679 --> 00:50:21.599
And he's saying, I can teach you, I can teach

661
00:50:21.639 --> 00:50:26.920
you about politics. I said, well, I've got my own interests. Besides,

662
00:50:26.920 --> 00:50:29.679
I do know a little bit about politics. I do

663
00:50:29.880 --> 00:50:34.000
you know, I've not been I'm not completely oblivious to

664
00:50:34.519 --> 00:50:38.400
what's going on in politics. I go through peers when

665
00:50:38.440 --> 00:50:42.719
I'm really interested in it, and then i'm not. But

666
00:50:45.920 --> 00:50:52.639
he we were talking about how one one political party

667
00:50:52.760 --> 00:50:57.079
always goes on about the other political party and what

668
00:50:57.119 --> 00:50:59.840
they did last time there was in power, and however

669
00:51:00.039 --> 00:51:02.639
it's their their fault that the place is like it

670
00:51:02.679 --> 00:51:06.760
is now. And I just said to him, that's human.

671
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:12.280
That the tapping into the human nature. It's human nature

672
00:51:12.400 --> 00:51:17.480
to blame others, to want to blame other people. It's

673
00:51:17.559 --> 00:51:21.280
just a natural human instinct. So the politicians are just

674
00:51:21.440 --> 00:51:27.199
tapping into that. It's I mean, I don't know if

675
00:51:27.239 --> 00:51:32.079
it's a natural human instinct all around the world, but

676
00:51:32.159 --> 00:51:34.400
I'm pretty safe to say, I feel safe to say

677
00:51:34.440 --> 00:51:39.559
it's a national and it's a national pastimes. It seems

678
00:51:39.559 --> 00:51:43.360
to be a natural instinct in this country too. I'm

679
00:51:43.360 --> 00:51:45.119
not saying everyone does it and everyone does it all

680
00:51:45.159 --> 00:51:50.079
the time, but in a kind of majority way, it

681
00:51:50.199 --> 00:51:53.079
seems to be. I love blaming other people. I try

682
00:51:53.159 --> 00:51:57.360
not to, but it's just or blaming the weather, or

683
00:51:57.400 --> 00:52:03.119
blaming the blaming as she seems to be almost like

684
00:52:05.960 --> 00:52:10.880
inherited when you're born in this country. I mean, it

685
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:13.639
might be. I'm guessing it's not an English thing. I'm

686
00:52:13.679 --> 00:52:20.079
pretty sure it's a worldwide thing. Anyway. I annoyed him,

687
00:52:20.119 --> 00:52:22.800
That's what I was just trying to say, and Zoe

688
00:52:23.159 --> 00:52:32.679
called me, so I got no idea what I was

689
00:52:32.719 --> 00:52:34.599
really saying there, to be honest.

690
00:52:43.239 --> 00:52:45.960
Oh yeah, oh yeah.

691
00:52:46.519 --> 00:52:49.639
So I saw just now before I started doing this,

692
00:52:49.800 --> 00:52:52.599
I had to go around. I saw my neighbor to

693
00:52:52.719 --> 00:52:56.159
discuss her give me a lift, and then I saw

694
00:52:56.320 --> 00:53:04.559
Archie's mum and I haven't seen her all week. I

695
00:53:04.599 --> 00:53:07.920
told her about the situation and she offered four Vinnie

696
00:53:07.960 --> 00:53:11.360
to stay there tomorrow because she's got a day off.

697
00:53:11.960 --> 00:53:15.880
So she said they could. Archie could be where because

698
00:53:15.920 --> 00:53:19.360
there's two dogs. There's Archie and another dog that's there,

699
00:53:21.320 --> 00:53:24.559
and Vinnie like he likes both of them. He loves Archie.

700
00:53:24.880 --> 00:53:27.360
But they've got a garden, or she's got a garden.

701
00:53:27.679 --> 00:53:29.920
So she said that you can figu him around and

702
00:53:29.960 --> 00:53:33.159
he can stay here. So what I did is, I said, well,

703
00:53:33.239 --> 00:53:37.599
I'll like brilliant so instead of him being on his own,

704
00:53:38.679 --> 00:53:40.840
so I'm going to take him around at ten o'clock

705
00:53:40.920 --> 00:53:45.639
tomorrow and she lives up the opposite the person that's

706
00:53:45.639 --> 00:53:49.599
going to give me a lift, and then I'll try

707
00:53:49.639 --> 00:53:51.880
and get back, I think, and get back by two,

708
00:53:52.880 --> 00:53:54.519
so I won't be able to spend a huge amount

709
00:53:54.519 --> 00:53:59.000
of time at the hospital because hopefully i'll get there

710
00:53:59.039 --> 00:54:01.800
by eleven and I might have to leave at one.

711
00:54:02.320 --> 00:54:04.679
But it's still two hours better than no hours, isn't it.

712
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:13.159
But it's still has like four hours of the neighbor

713
00:54:13.239 --> 00:54:17.079
looking after him after looking after Vinnie, and he's never

714
00:54:17.119 --> 00:54:19.880
been to her house. So what I'm going to do,

715
00:54:19.960 --> 00:54:22.360
I'm going to give her my key to my flat

716
00:54:23.800 --> 00:54:26.159
and she knows where I live, so I'll just say

717
00:54:26.199 --> 00:54:31.920
that if he's being an absolute I don't know, if

718
00:54:31.960 --> 00:54:36.039
he's been really really naughty, then You're welcome just to

719
00:54:36.079 --> 00:54:39.559
bring him back and just stick him in the flat.

720
00:54:40.199 --> 00:54:46.800
You know, that's fine, because who knows. He's never ever, never, ever,

721
00:54:46.880 --> 00:54:52.159
ever ever ever since I've had him, since i've had him,

722
00:54:52.679 --> 00:54:58.079
he's never stayed around a stranger's house before. I mean,

723
00:54:58.119 --> 00:55:01.800
this person's not a stranger and his so I've seen

724
00:55:01.840 --> 00:55:04.679
her for the last two two and a half years

725
00:55:05.199 --> 00:55:11.480
walking Vinnie so, but he's never he's never been. There's

726
00:55:11.480 --> 00:55:15.159
a video of him and Archie on YouTube, but they've

727
00:55:15.199 --> 00:55:21.760
never Actually, he's never stayed over and he's never really

728
00:55:21.800 --> 00:55:26.559
he's not stayed with anyone other than his former mum

729
00:55:26.760 --> 00:55:28.719
like that he used to live with. He stayed with

730
00:55:28.760 --> 00:55:33.599
her a few times. So this is different. So I

731
00:55:33.639 --> 00:55:35.400
don't know how. I don't know if he's going to

732
00:55:35.440 --> 00:55:38.079
behave I don't if he's going to be a good boy.

733
00:55:38.159 --> 00:55:42.320
I hope he will be. I think he'll love it personally.

734
00:55:42.880 --> 00:55:47.239
I think he'll absolutely love it. Because but then there's

735
00:55:47.280 --> 00:55:51.440
one thing walking and playing around and stuff with Archie.

736
00:55:51.599 --> 00:55:56.000
But there's another thing. Will he try and take control

737
00:55:56.079 --> 00:55:58.039
of being in the garden? Will he be naughty? Will

738
00:55:58.039 --> 00:56:01.079
he try and escape from the garden. That's the thing.

739
00:56:01.119 --> 00:56:03.119
And if he does, I'm not going to be around

740
00:56:03.360 --> 00:56:08.199
to look for him. I just I hope, I hope, hope,

741
00:56:08.239 --> 00:56:14.360
hope that he behaves. But you know what this is more,

742
00:56:15.000 --> 00:56:18.320
this is going to be good for him because he

743
00:56:18.400 --> 00:56:22.280
hasn't had a chance to run around with any dogs

744
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:30.199
off the lead for or since September really and now June.

745
00:56:30.719 --> 00:56:35.119
So and they've got a big garden so for him

746
00:56:35.119 --> 00:56:37.920
to run around. Actually that's not true. He did run

747
00:56:37.920 --> 00:56:41.440
around another neighbor's house who's got a dog, but that

748
00:56:41.559 --> 00:56:44.760
was a few Sundays ago. That was very brief though,

749
00:56:45.719 --> 00:56:48.639
and he did run out of the front door, so

750
00:56:48.760 --> 00:56:51.960
that wasn't so good. So I'll make sure. I'll just

751
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:53.800
let her know don't open the front door because he

752
00:56:53.840 --> 00:57:00.760
will try and escape. He's so naughty, and because he

753
00:57:00.880 --> 00:57:02.840
knows where we are, he might try and run home

754
00:57:03.559 --> 00:57:07.400
thinking I'm there, although I don't think he really, I

755
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:12.400
don't think he would, but I kind of think of

756
00:57:12.440 --> 00:57:16.800
it the if you toss it up in a sense

757
00:57:16.880 --> 00:57:22.159
of if I take him to the guard, I'll take

758
00:57:22.199 --> 00:57:27.639
him thet neighbors to play in the garden. It's like

759
00:57:27.679 --> 00:57:32.440
a ninety nine percent positive thing, possibly one hundred percent

760
00:57:32.519 --> 00:57:35.519
positive thing because he's getting to do what he wants

761
00:57:35.519 --> 00:57:38.119
to do, which is running around with his friend, his

762
00:57:38.280 --> 00:57:43.039
best friend, Archie and Noodles. They're his two best friends,

763
00:57:44.079 --> 00:57:46.119
and he can't run around with either of them anymore

764
00:57:47.599 --> 00:57:50.960
off the lead. Noodles is the dog that he got

765
00:57:50.960 --> 00:57:54.639
into trouble with at the same time, and they're very

766
00:57:54.719 --> 00:57:57.039
naughty when they get together. They kind of lead each

767
00:57:57.079 --> 00:58:05.320
other astray a little bit, Archie less so, but still

768
00:58:05.679 --> 00:58:09.360
I've seen there's been a few dogs that if they

769
00:58:09.480 --> 00:58:12.000
run out of the out of the park venue, will

770
00:58:12.079 --> 00:58:17.440
just follow. So there's that thing, you know, It's happened

771
00:58:17.480 --> 00:58:19.920
a few times over the years. I should have learned

772
00:58:19.920 --> 00:58:25.039
from it, really, but I just I so wanted him

773
00:58:25.079 --> 00:58:30.119
to be able to have that freedom, and he's so happy.

774
00:58:30.360 --> 00:58:33.960
I can see how happy he is when he's running

775
00:58:34.000 --> 00:58:37.800
around with his doggie friends. And he's got a few

776
00:58:37.800 --> 00:58:41.480
dog friends that he really likes. But I think Archie

777
00:58:41.800 --> 00:58:43.880
and Noodles there like at the top of the pack

778
00:58:44.639 --> 00:58:50.079
of because they're both little and they're both kind of

779
00:58:50.159 --> 00:58:54.039
all both got the same kind of energy as him,

780
00:58:54.079 --> 00:58:57.639
and about the same same age really as well, so yeah,

781
00:58:57.679 --> 00:59:01.239
they kind of, yeah, they've got a definite body like

782
00:59:01.440 --> 00:59:05.199
instant bond they had. And they've known each other for

783
00:59:05.400 --> 00:59:09.880
what a couple of years. I don't know how Yeah,

784
00:59:09.920 --> 00:59:12.920
probably a couple of years. Both of them actually noodles

785
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:16.480
an Archie. I think Archie was first. I tell you

786
00:59:16.599 --> 00:59:20.920
something about Archie. This is weird. Archie's a proper fascist. No,

787
00:59:20.960 --> 00:59:26.239
he's not Archie. He's got questionable political No, I do

788
00:59:26.400 --> 00:59:35.719
what I'm saying. It doesn't click stamps either. Archie I

789
00:59:35.840 --> 00:59:38.400
used to see so I'd see Archie in the evening,

790
00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:42.360
like six I don't wait a time that his mom

791
00:59:42.360 --> 00:59:46.360
would be walking in with the two dogs. And once

792
00:59:47.559 --> 00:59:49.679
I said to this lady, the one the neighbor, I said,

793
00:59:49.719 --> 00:59:53.360
you know what, he's got another friend who looks just

794
00:59:53.440 --> 01:00:00.239
like Archie. And they they don't run around, but because

795
01:00:00.239 --> 01:00:02.599
he was always on the lead, but we see him

796
01:00:02.639 --> 01:00:06.639
during the day. This is this, This is form about

797
01:00:06.639 --> 01:00:08.599
a year and I was saying to her, I know,

798
01:00:08.679 --> 01:00:14.400
he's got another friend. And after I don't know if

799
01:00:14.400 --> 01:00:17.239
it's a year, maybe nearly a year, it turned out

800
01:00:17.239 --> 01:00:25.400
as the same dog. And it was different because it

801
01:00:25.480 --> 01:00:28.719
was her mum was taking the dog out or taking

802
01:00:28.840 --> 01:00:31.679
Archie out during the day and I said to her,

803
01:00:31.880 --> 01:00:34.360
and we were talking, I said, you know what, he's

804
01:00:34.400 --> 01:00:37.760
got a friend just like that one. Because I didn't

805
01:00:37.760 --> 01:00:39.639
see her that often. I saw the other one in

806
01:00:39.679 --> 01:00:42.280
the evenings fairly regular the one during the day I

807
01:00:42.280 --> 01:00:48.639
didn't see very often. And she said, this is Archie.

808
01:00:49.199 --> 01:00:52.360
I said, I can't believe you've got two dogs with

809
01:00:52.480 --> 01:01:02.599
the same name, the same kind of dogs. And she said, oh, okay,

810
01:01:03.559 --> 01:01:05.880
and then I said goodbye to her. Then I said

811
01:01:05.880 --> 01:01:08.760
the same thing to the lady in the evening. I said,

812
01:01:09.239 --> 01:01:10.760
there's another woman. You know. I told you that the

813
01:01:11.039 --> 01:01:14.719
woman has got a dog that's just like Archie. His

814
01:01:14.800 --> 01:01:20.239
name's also Archie. And she looked at me. I think

815
01:01:20.280 --> 01:01:25.559
she must have thought I was a bit dim or

816
01:01:25.599 --> 01:01:31.639
I was like joking around or something. She said, really,

817
01:01:31.760 --> 01:01:35.719
I said, yeah, it's the same. She still mentions it now, like,

818
01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:37.559
how can you not know that there was the same

819
01:01:37.639 --> 01:01:40.480
dog for a year. Vinnie was playing the same dog,

820
01:01:41.840 --> 01:01:44.800
the same name for a year. Two different dogs, but

821
01:01:44.840 --> 01:01:49.519
it's one dog. I don't know. There's so many names,

822
01:01:49.679 --> 01:01:54.320
I don't keep track, but it's only Archie in the

823
01:01:54.440 --> 01:01:57.320
arch the evening Archie. I know both of them were Archie,

824
01:01:57.320 --> 01:02:00.159
but the afternoon. Archie never used to run around with

825
01:02:00.280 --> 01:02:03.480
any it's always on the lead. But even in Archie

826
01:02:03.840 --> 01:02:08.079
used to run around, so I kind of learned his

827
01:02:08.199 --> 01:02:24.360
name a bit. It's weird, right, Yeah. I am going

828
01:02:24.440 --> 01:02:28.199
to do a Q and A Friday this week. Now,

829
01:02:28.239 --> 01:02:33.079
whether I do it Friday or I do it Saturday, oh,

830
01:02:33.639 --> 01:02:38.440
I know, I'm definitely not going to. I'm not going to.

831
01:02:38.719 --> 01:02:42.079
I'm not going to the hospital on Sunday because the

832
01:02:42.119 --> 01:02:46.360
buses are just ridiculous. They're like every two hours if

833
01:02:46.400 --> 01:02:49.960
at all. So I'm not I'm not traveling on Sunday,

834
01:02:50.639 --> 01:02:54.519
so I won't be going there on a Sunday. I'm

835
01:02:54.559 --> 01:02:59.840
there tomorrow. What I might do is maybe take Friday

836
01:02:59.920 --> 01:03:02.920
or off, or go Friday and have the weekend off.

837
01:03:04.480 --> 01:03:07.639
And if his other friend, because he's got someone else

838
01:03:07.760 --> 01:03:11.199
visiting him now, is going to go and see him

839
01:03:11.199 --> 01:03:13.079
at the weekend, and that can kind of do that.

840
01:03:13.639 --> 01:03:17.840
I do really don't know. I'll play it by I'll

841
01:03:17.840 --> 01:03:19.920
play it by ear or by eye or buy foot

842
01:03:19.960 --> 01:03:24.679
or whatever. I'll just see what happens, you know. But

843
01:03:24.760 --> 01:03:26.760
I'm going to do a Q and A Friday this week.

844
01:03:32.199 --> 01:03:39.119
Oh wow, So I did post a recording two days ago. Hi,

845
01:03:39.400 --> 01:03:40.840
or I might not be able to make a recording

846
01:03:40.840 --> 01:03:43.119
this week because I'm back and forward to a hospital.

847
01:03:43.559 --> 01:03:46.719
So I posted that I have had some comments, but

848
01:03:46.760 --> 01:03:49.679
I didn't have time to really reply to them. So

849
01:03:49.719 --> 01:03:51.599
I'm going to reply to them now. I'm going to

850
01:03:51.639 --> 01:03:56.039
read them out, and I'm going to reply to them now. Unfortunately,

851
01:03:56.079 --> 01:03:57.960
some people listen to this and might have just fallen

852
01:03:58.000 --> 01:04:00.239
asleep through boredom, which is a bit of a food

853
01:04:01.280 --> 01:04:05.519
But hey, Christine writes, I hope you and your neighbor

854
01:04:05.599 --> 01:04:08.440
feel a bit better soon. We'll all be here when

855
01:04:08.519 --> 01:04:11.480
you feel well enough. Take care and thank you for

856
01:04:11.519 --> 01:04:16.599
taking the time to let us know. So thank you, Christine.

857
01:04:15.280 --> 01:04:25.199
And I didn't after the Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. By

858
01:04:25.199 --> 01:04:28.679
the end of Monday, I really just I didn't think

859
01:04:28.719 --> 01:04:33.119
I could be making any recordings. But then yesterday, for

860
01:04:33.199 --> 01:04:38.880
some reason, I just felt okay to do one. So

861
01:04:38.920 --> 01:04:44.960
I'm just gonna Oh, it really is time to go

862
01:04:45.000 --> 01:04:48.599
to sleep soon. I don't know what time it is.

863
01:04:49.000 --> 01:04:54.360
It's probably about seven o'clock, Okay, it's twenty to eight.

864
01:04:56.360 --> 01:04:59.800
Hope wrote take care of you. I hope your neahbor

865
01:04:59.840 --> 01:05:02.800
get better. Soon. Thank you, Thank you, Hope. So I

866
01:05:03.119 --> 01:05:07.079
put a love heart there as well. Just so, why

867
01:05:07.159 --> 01:05:10.400
does it not allow me to look up the that's weird?

868
01:05:10.920 --> 01:05:17.400
There it's go. Maria writes, take care of yourself, Jason.

869
01:05:18.480 --> 01:05:21.400
I hope your neighbor makes a full recovery soon. Thanks

870
01:05:21.440 --> 01:05:28.920
for letting us know. Thank you, Maria. Why is this

871
01:05:29.039 --> 01:05:33.760
not working? Okay? There we go? I just wanted to

872
01:05:33.760 --> 01:05:36.039
know that I haven't read your messages. I just haven't.

873
01:05:39.280 --> 01:05:44.480
I was reading them in the hospital actually, and Tammy writes,

874
01:05:45.880 --> 01:05:54.320
we so well for me? What does that say? We

875
01:05:54.519 --> 01:06:06.960
so well for me? Email? Going out for health and safety? Okay,

876
01:06:08.639 --> 01:06:10.840
I'm not sure what that means. I'm I'm I think

877
01:06:10.880 --> 01:06:14.199
my brain's going a little bit slow today. Sorry, but

878
01:06:14.360 --> 01:06:21.000
thanks your message. I'm not n knee mail going out

879
01:06:21.039 --> 01:06:26.360
for health and safety. That probably makes sense, but it's

880
01:06:26.400 --> 01:06:30.679
not my brain. Honestly. I'm just I'm not on full

881
01:06:31.000 --> 01:06:39.480
full capacity at the moment. Ah. But saying that, I'm

882
01:06:39.480 --> 01:06:45.000
not sure if I've ever been on full capacity. Jackie writes, yeah,

883
01:06:45.119 --> 01:06:48.280
I can imagine neckering indeed, But you know something you

884
01:06:48.360 --> 01:06:52.719
have to do. Good on your mate, don't stress in

885
01:06:52.760 --> 01:07:03.400
your own time. Best wishes to your neighbor. Thank you, Jackie. Yeah, yeah,

886
01:07:03.480 --> 01:07:07.719
it's been an accurate it. I think part of it

887
01:07:07.760 --> 01:07:09.880
is because I'm just not used to being around people,

888
01:07:10.639 --> 01:07:16.079
and I'm seeing more people in a day now than

889
01:07:16.119 --> 01:07:25.119
I would do for a whole year, way more. Yeah, yeah,

890
01:07:25.159 --> 01:07:27.840
more than I would do in a whole year, because

891
01:07:27.840 --> 01:07:31.920
there's literally thousands upon thousands upon thousands upon thousands of

892
01:07:31.960 --> 01:07:37.039
people that I'm seeing outside the hospital, inside the hospital,

893
01:07:37.159 --> 01:07:41.519
walking through the wards. It's just thousands of people. So

894
01:07:41.639 --> 01:07:45.760
it's a little bit overload, I think, which is okay,

895
01:07:47.039 --> 01:07:50.000
I know what it is. Yeah, it's all right, It's

896
01:07:50.079 --> 01:07:54.920
just it is what it is. Ing says specialis switches

897
01:07:54.960 --> 01:07:56.920
to your neighbor, take care of yourself and take a

898
01:07:56.960 --> 01:08:00.000
break for as long as you need to. Thank you.

899
01:08:03.199 --> 01:08:06.559
It's one of those situations. I'm going to while he's

900
01:08:06.599 --> 01:08:09.199
in there. I can't. I'm going to make recordings when

901
01:08:09.239 --> 01:08:12.719
I can, and I'm not going to push myself to

902
01:08:12.719 --> 01:08:15.360
do anything really, but it's just going to I do

903
01:08:15.400 --> 01:08:18.880
them when I feel up to it. And it's just tiredness,

904
01:08:18.880 --> 01:08:23.680
that's all it is. Really. It's not anything else. Maybe

905
01:08:23.680 --> 01:08:27.199
a little bit more, but you know, it's just mainly tiredness.

906
01:08:27.239 --> 01:08:38.760
So I it's just it's disrupted my routine, but you

907
01:08:38.800 --> 01:08:47.920
know what, it's disrupted his routine as well, and so

908
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:51.079
my routine is not really that important right now. So

909
01:08:51.159 --> 01:08:55.279
it's okay, as long as I don't want to go

910
01:08:55.399 --> 01:08:58.359
like long periods of time without making a recording, because

911
01:09:00.600 --> 01:09:03.680
as it is, if I go, well, i'll tell you actually,

912
01:09:04.159 --> 01:09:08.680
I'll come back to this in a minute. Here's here's

913
01:09:08.680 --> 01:09:11.880
how the stats go. Okay, so what is it now?

914
01:09:11.920 --> 01:09:22.399
It's Wednesday, Tuesday, Monday, Sunday, Saturday, Friday. Okay, So Thursday

915
01:09:23.319 --> 01:09:28.439
two one hundred and thirty six two, one hundred and

916
01:09:28.479 --> 01:09:36.640
fifty three downloads, Saturday Friday one thousand, seven hundred and

917
01:09:36.680 --> 01:09:47.560
ninety five downloads, Friday seven hundred and four downloads, Saturday

918
01:09:47.800 --> 01:09:51.239
five hundred and forty, five hundred and forty one downloads,

919
01:09:52.199 --> 01:09:58.840
Sunday three hundred and fifty downloads. That's not right, Wednesday.

920
01:09:59.479 --> 01:10:02.079
So I've got five hundred and fifty today so far,

921
01:10:03.199 --> 01:10:06.920
but two hundred and twenty seven yesterday. Two hundred and

922
01:10:06.960 --> 01:10:13.000
twenty seven is the amount I'd be getting. I mean,

923
01:10:13.199 --> 01:10:17.159
that would be bad ten years ago. In a day,

924
01:10:17.239 --> 01:10:18.880
two hundred and two as like one of the worst

925
01:10:18.960 --> 01:10:22.279
days I could ever have because I've not been making

926
01:10:22.359 --> 01:10:31.199
new recordings. So Tuesday Monday three hundred and fifty listens.

927
01:10:31.279 --> 01:10:35.560
These downloads are listens, so three hundred is ridiculously low,

928
01:10:36.000 --> 01:10:43.119
really low. So Wednesday, Tuesday, Monday, Sunday five hundred and

929
01:10:43.119 --> 01:10:51.720
forty one, Saturday seven hundred and four. It's just gone down.

930
01:10:52.319 --> 01:10:54.680
I mean today, I did do a recording this morning

931
01:10:54.880 --> 01:11:00.000
or last night. I uploaded it this morning, so it's

932
01:11:00.079 --> 01:11:06.159
a rise, but it's still a small amount, which is

933
01:11:06.279 --> 01:11:10.439
kind of weird, how I mean, yeah, I was making

934
01:11:10.800 --> 01:11:15.720
like two plus recordings a day last week or the

935
01:11:15.720 --> 01:11:21.039
week before, I can't remember. But the weird thing about

936
01:11:21.039 --> 01:11:28.560
it is, I it's a little bit like sales you

937
01:11:28.640 --> 01:11:32.960
run as good as your last sale, or in sports,

938
01:11:33.000 --> 01:11:35.239
you run as good as your last football game, or

939
01:11:35.239 --> 01:11:37.680
you are you know, it's only only as good as

940
01:11:37.680 --> 01:11:42.640
your last performance, which is come on, which is seems

941
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:52.119
a bit harsh. But it seems that we're podcasting. As

942
01:11:52.159 --> 01:11:56.439
soon as I stopped making recordings, people stopped listening, not

943
01:11:56.439 --> 01:12:02.760
not completely, but I I don't like seeing, you know,

944
01:12:02.840 --> 01:12:09.600
like yesterday two hundred and twenty seven downloads so that's

945
01:12:09.600 --> 01:12:14.359
two hundred and twenty seven plays. Admittedly a lot of

946
01:12:14.399 --> 01:12:17.680
those would be ten hour recordings, so that's just one person.

947
01:12:18.159 --> 01:12:23.800
They're not like listening to multiple recordings, and hopefully a

948
01:12:23.840 --> 01:12:28.479
couple of people have found it useful. But to go

949
01:12:28.560 --> 01:12:33.399
from two thousand plus down to two hundred and twenty seven,

950
01:12:33.439 --> 01:12:37.800
it's a bit of a I mean, if the weird

951
01:12:37.800 --> 01:12:40.039
thing is I've only just looked at the stats. Now,

952
01:12:40.439 --> 01:12:42.000
I didn't look at this. I've not looked at the

953
01:12:42.039 --> 01:12:49.479
stats for probably a few days. I've not really taken

954
01:12:49.520 --> 01:12:51.279
much notice of the stats because I knew it was

955
01:12:51.279 --> 01:12:55.039
going to go down, because it always does. It's weird though,

956
01:12:55.039 --> 01:12:58.720
because sometimes then it just shoots up and I get

957
01:12:58.800 --> 01:13:04.239
like three four thousand in a day. Is strange the

958
01:13:04.239 --> 01:13:09.000
way it goes. But I know this. That's part of

959
01:13:09.039 --> 01:13:11.680
the reason why I don't go too many days without

960
01:13:11.720 --> 01:13:16.680
making a recording, because it's almost like people just forget

961
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:27.439
about me or forget about the podcast rather start crying.

962
01:13:28.680 --> 01:13:34.199
Don't make me cry. You wouldn't like me want to cry. Yeah, So,

963
01:13:37.640 --> 01:13:39.439
I mean it's still well, it's near the end of

964
01:13:39.479 --> 01:13:42.399
the day, really, isn't It's ten to eight, nine, ten

965
01:13:42.439 --> 01:13:45.880
eleven twelve. Well, it's it's five hours left of the

966
01:13:45.920 --> 01:13:48.079
stats because it goes to one o'clock in the morning

967
01:13:48.880 --> 01:13:52.800
for some reason. So you know, I'll probably end up

968
01:13:52.840 --> 01:13:58.840
with maybe seven hundred eight hundred. It's still just such

969
01:13:58.840 --> 01:14:02.439
a small amount when you think about it, when you

970
01:14:02.479 --> 01:14:08.479
think compared comparisons aren't always use so are they in

971
01:14:08.920 --> 01:14:18.279
two thousand and twenty one, twenty twenty one, twenty twenty two,

972
01:14:19.319 --> 01:14:28.239
twenty twenty one. Yeah, it was twenty twenty one. I

973
01:14:28.279 --> 01:14:30.680
think I had one month, Well, it might have been

974
01:14:30.680 --> 01:14:36.239
twenty twenty. Maybe it was December. I had over nine

975
01:14:36.399 --> 01:14:45.279
hundred thousand views in one month, just under Yeah, it's

976
01:14:45.319 --> 01:14:47.840
just under a million. Let me see if I can

977
01:14:47.880 --> 01:14:51.640
find it. Seriously, you think I'm lying. I'm not lying.

978
01:14:52.000 --> 01:14:54.359
I'm not. I'm not. I can find it for you.

979
01:14:55.279 --> 01:14:57.479
Let me have a look. So let's go for the

980
01:14:57.560 --> 01:15:01.640
dates I was five year years ago. Isn't it? Oh no,

981
01:15:02.239 --> 01:15:07.600
it won't allow it. It will not allow it. It

982
01:15:07.680 --> 01:15:09.479
won't allow it. Why won't allow it?

983
01:15:10.960 --> 01:15:11.279
Damn?

984
01:15:12.880 --> 01:15:17.319
Okay, let me see if I can find it a

985
01:15:17.359 --> 01:15:24.720
different way. There's always different ways of finding stuff. No,

986
01:15:29.199 --> 01:15:39.039
how annoying, you're annoying I wonder if there's stat's for that.

987
01:15:40.760 --> 01:15:46.000
If I go back, Okay, there's another way of doing it.

988
01:15:46.119 --> 01:15:57.840
Let me look December twenty twenty, DoD DoD do December

989
01:15:57.840 --> 01:16:05.000
two than oh no, wait a minute, December twenty twenty

990
01:16:05.600 --> 01:16:13.039
to December twenty twenty. Right, this doesn't seem to be

991
01:16:13.079 --> 01:16:17.079
working very well. December sort of go that there.

992
01:16:18.520 --> 01:16:28.039
December twoy twenty Okay, December twenty twenty.

993
01:16:28.359 --> 01:16:39.720
So no, that was not the month. But it was

994
01:16:39.760 --> 01:16:43.439
a very very busy month, it really was. But it

995
01:16:43.520 --> 01:16:47.800
was not the month at all that I'm thinking about.

996
01:16:48.880 --> 01:16:52.720
So maybe it's January twenty twenty one. Might have been

997
01:16:54.520 --> 01:17:00.880
January twenty twenty one. No, maybe it's two twenty two.

998
01:17:03.359 --> 01:17:07.520
Maybe it's December twenty twenty two. Maybe I'm just completely

999
01:17:09.159 --> 01:17:11.840
getting it all wrong. Maybe it's two did I say

1000
01:17:11.880 --> 01:17:17.560
to Maybe it's two thousand and twenty one December? Yeah,

1001
01:17:18.640 --> 01:17:21.880
that must be the one that makes more sense. Actually,

1002
01:17:22.920 --> 01:17:28.079
for some reason, that's the one. Wow, that was the

1003
01:17:28.119 --> 01:17:34.600
biggest month I ever had, and I had just under

1004
01:17:37.079 --> 01:17:39.760
I've not got the exact number because it won't give

1005
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:49.079
it to me. Twelfth of December was the biggest day

1006
01:17:51.840 --> 01:17:56.039
I had. I had something like seventy over seventy thousand

1007
01:17:57.439 --> 01:18:02.119
listens or downloads on that day, and overall I had

1008
01:18:02.199 --> 01:18:08.359
nearly a million downloads for the whole month of December

1009
01:18:08.439 --> 01:18:20.680
twoenty twenty one, and then it changed. It went a

1010
01:18:20.680 --> 01:18:24.119
little bit. Yeah, it kind of it's not that the bubble,

1011
01:18:24.479 --> 01:18:33.560
the bubble didn't burst, but the downloads pretty much half.

1012
01:18:34.279 --> 01:18:37.439
I think the most I got was about thirty maybe

1013
01:18:37.479 --> 01:18:41.640
thirty five thousand in one day, and again that was

1014
01:18:41.640 --> 01:18:45.399
was that on the twelfth, that was the tenth, don't

1015
01:18:45.399 --> 01:18:48.039
know what it is about the tenth and the twelfth,

1016
01:18:49.159 --> 01:18:55.079
so that went down to like half, and then the

1017
01:18:55.159 --> 01:19:03.560
February twenty twenty two, again it's starting to go down.

1018
01:19:05.279 --> 01:19:07.600
I had a couple of days that were above about

1019
01:19:07.640 --> 01:19:12.960
forty thousand, but it's a lot less. It was looking

1020
01:19:13.039 --> 01:19:21.560
roughly about six hundred thousand on that month, and then

1021
01:19:21.680 --> 01:19:30.359
March it's going down, so looking at like twenty seven

1022
01:19:30.439 --> 01:19:40.039
thousand a day, twenty thousand, seventeen thousand, things like that.

1023
01:19:40.600 --> 01:19:47.039
So I ended up probably getting probably about it's hard

1024
01:19:47.079 --> 01:19:50.359
to work out, maybe four hundred thousand for the month.

1025
01:19:52.239 --> 01:20:03.079
And then April twenty twenty two, it was, yeah, went

1026
01:20:03.159 --> 01:20:06.880
down even further then, so I was roughly probably getting

1027
01:20:06.920 --> 01:20:12.399
about fifteen thousand a month a day rather fourteen thousand,

1028
01:20:12.920 --> 01:20:18.720
eleven twelve, you know, varying, so looking probably about three hundred,

1029
01:20:19.199 --> 01:20:22.279
between two hundred and fifty and three hundred thousand for

1030
01:20:22.359 --> 01:20:27.880
the month. Then May twenty twenty two, it just shows

1031
01:20:27.920 --> 01:20:32.119
you how different it is now, you know, it's and

1032
01:20:32.159 --> 01:20:37.439
it goes down again. I'm getting Yeah, it's not too bad,

1033
01:20:37.520 --> 01:20:43.439
So roughly eleven twelve A few days which were so

1034
01:20:43.479 --> 01:20:48.239
probably about twelve thousand, ten to twelve thousand a month

1035
01:20:48.720 --> 01:20:52.680
a day rather, so for a while, ten thousand was

1036
01:20:52.760 --> 01:20:55.840
kind of the optimum amount that I would get in

1037
01:20:55.880 --> 01:20:59.520
a day. I kind of got used to it. This

1038
01:20:59.600 --> 01:21:02.159
is before I lost my podcast, by the way, because

1039
01:21:02.520 --> 01:21:06.920
they had music and they took them off. I actually

1040
01:21:07.000 --> 01:21:13.399
lost the podcast. I had to start again. And then

1041
01:21:13.439 --> 01:21:19.600
we've got June twenty twenty two. It's a lot less,

1042
01:21:19.680 --> 01:21:23.079
about about two hundred thousand, maybe a lot less than that.

1043
01:21:23.680 --> 01:21:27.720
So I'm getting probably roughly about seven seven thousand a day,

1044
01:21:28.119 --> 01:21:33.680
sometimes a little bit more, but it's still, you know,

1045
01:21:33.840 --> 01:21:40.399
still a nice amount. And then July twenty twenty four,

1046
01:21:42.760 --> 01:21:45.680
for some reason, the summer is quieter than the winter

1047
01:21:46.920 --> 01:21:51.359
with podcasting for me anyway, and probably because there's more

1048
01:21:51.399 --> 01:21:55.319
to do. You know, it's lighter, it's more more daylight,

1049
01:21:55.479 --> 01:22:00.760
more things to do than when it's this rain. And

1050
01:22:01.000 --> 01:22:05.319
you know, maybe maybe I don't know, I had some

1051
01:22:06.119 --> 01:22:08.000
this was an okay mark. So I probably had about

1052
01:22:08.000 --> 01:22:15.359
two hundred thousand possibly and a few really good days

1053
01:22:15.399 --> 01:22:20.560
where I had like maybe thirteen to fifteen thousand a day,

1054
01:22:21.399 --> 01:22:23.680
but a few other days where I was getting maybe

1055
01:22:23.760 --> 01:22:27.880
four thousand. So back then four thousands and four thousand

1056
01:22:28.000 --> 01:22:30.960
was a really bad day. It was a really low day.

1057
01:22:32.760 --> 01:22:37.960
Anything pretty much below three thousand was really I suppose

1058
01:22:38.000 --> 01:22:41.159
really anything below five thousand was class is quite a

1059
01:22:41.239 --> 01:22:48.680
bad day. Really back then. Then you got August twenty

1060
01:22:48.760 --> 01:22:53.760
twenty two that was starting to get busier again, which

1061
01:22:53.800 --> 01:22:58.399
is weird. So we're looking probably about three hundred thousand

1062
01:23:00.319 --> 01:23:03.279
a few days when it was less than four thousand.

1063
01:23:04.319 --> 01:23:09.199
But yeah, it's hard to it might it might be

1064
01:23:09.279 --> 01:23:13.479
less than three hundred thousand. Again, I'm just guessing. I'm

1065
01:23:13.520 --> 01:23:16.640
looking at the stats, but it's it's quite difficult from

1066
01:23:16.680 --> 01:23:20.279
what I'm looking at. But it's it's like a guess. Really,

1067
01:23:22.079 --> 01:23:26.279
an educated guess. Then the next month I can just

1068
01:23:26.319 --> 01:23:28.359
see like from a pie chart, if that makes sense.

1069
01:23:28.800 --> 01:23:34.760
So it's a lot less again in September twenty twenty two,

1070
01:23:36.880 --> 01:23:40.359
and yeah, so it builds up near the end of

1071
01:23:40.359 --> 01:23:44.479
the month, and then at some point, I don't know

1072
01:23:44.479 --> 01:23:53.920
if it's October, things go poopool oh not yet, so

1073
01:23:54.079 --> 01:23:59.960
October it's still okay, but all no, So October that's

1074
01:24:00.079 --> 01:24:02.199
when it went. Yeah, when it went kind of wrong

1075
01:24:02.680 --> 01:24:07.760
and I had to start, I think over again. And

1076
01:24:07.800 --> 01:24:10.399
because I was uploading so much stuff, I was getting

1077
01:24:10.439 --> 01:24:14.119
a lot of downloads, because I was uploading the whole

1078
01:24:14.159 --> 01:24:22.079
lot again. But yeah, it wasn't I was probat of

1079
01:24:22.079 --> 01:24:27.800
getting one hundred thousand probably in that month. And then

1080
01:24:27.920 --> 01:24:34.880
November twoy twenty two sort of grew a little bit more. So.

1081
01:24:35.039 --> 01:24:38.199
The winter is always a bit busier. I mean, even

1082
01:24:39.159 --> 01:24:46.680
if I look at this stats from last year, the

1083
01:24:47.840 --> 01:24:53.399
I'm pretty sure like December November, December kind of time

1084
01:24:53.560 --> 01:24:57.840
is generally a lot busier. So if I go November

1085
01:24:57.960 --> 01:25:08.199
last year, no, November last year, no, not particularly. But

1086
01:25:08.600 --> 01:25:10.720
actually the reason for that is because I was using

1087
01:25:10.800 --> 01:25:15.119
SoundCloud for half the month, but the days when I

1088
01:25:15.279 --> 01:25:20.279
was on using Speaker. I was getting pretty good days

1089
01:25:20.800 --> 01:25:36.000
December December, right, only one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve.

1090
01:25:36.640 --> 01:25:39.920
Only twelve days of December did I have my podcast

1091
01:25:40.039 --> 01:25:42.960
on here. But at the same time, the rest of

1092
01:25:43.000 --> 01:25:46.159
the month I had on SoundCloud. So that's not a

1093
01:25:46.159 --> 01:25:49.000
good example of a day. I wonder why that was.

1094
01:25:50.199 --> 01:25:52.039
Is that when they said we could have music again.

1095
01:25:52.199 --> 01:25:58.319
Was that another one of those situations, because yeah, I've

1096
01:25:58.319 --> 01:26:06.399
had a few problems with that jarnyery this year. Yeah,

1097
01:26:06.399 --> 01:26:09.720
that was a bit better. It's weird. It's up and down.

1098
01:26:09.760 --> 01:26:12.640
To be fair, it's up and down. I think the

1099
01:26:13.640 --> 01:26:19.279
inconsistency when it came to losing the podcasts and maybe

1100
01:26:19.319 --> 01:26:21.000
some of the things that I do, you know, putting

1101
01:26:21.000 --> 01:26:25.199
it onto SoundCloud. Then it's back on to Speaker. Although

1102
01:26:25.239 --> 01:26:28.960
it doesn't really make a huge difference to the podcast

1103
01:26:29.520 --> 01:26:34.479
because it's still available on the same places. It's probably

1104
01:26:34.800 --> 01:26:39.800
a little bit yeah, you know, maybe it doesn't. It's

1105
01:26:39.880 --> 01:26:45.680
not good. Hope, right, I hope your neighbors. How is

1106
01:26:45.720 --> 01:26:48.439
your neighbor doing? So I'm just going to put Love

1107
01:26:48.680 --> 01:26:52.720
because I've talked about it in this podcast. So Rick

1108
01:26:53.399 --> 01:26:55.319
says said in Love and good vibes to your neighbor.

1109
01:26:55.720 --> 01:27:00.159
How nice of you to support her. Just let it

1110
01:27:00.159 --> 01:27:03.079
it's a man. I've not mentioned who it is. It's

1111
01:27:03.119 --> 01:27:07.000
a man. It doesn't make any difference, a man or woman.

1112
01:27:07.119 --> 01:27:10.359
I call him her he It makes no difference to me.

1113
01:27:11.399 --> 01:27:16.279
And just let you know. So it's he's a seventy

1114
01:27:16.359 --> 01:27:31.119
eight in about what's it now? He's seventy eight years old. Wednesday?

1115
01:27:32.279 --> 01:27:35.760
So not next Wednesday, next Friday, he will be seventy

1116
01:27:35.800 --> 01:27:43.880
eight years old, not this Friday. Coming. Wow, can you

1117
01:27:43.960 --> 01:27:48.399
believe right? It's near the end of June. It's near

1118
01:27:48.439 --> 01:27:51.479
the end of June. It's nearly the end of June.

1119
01:27:52.159 --> 01:28:00.079
It's weird. I mean, the first of July is on Tuesday.

1120
01:28:02.039 --> 01:28:05.359
I just I don't know. I don't know why. Why

1121
01:28:05.439 --> 01:28:10.560
am I surprised? This is just normal, isn't it. So?

1122
01:28:11.840 --> 01:28:19.960
I think I've answered. I've read out these questions, these things,

1123
01:28:22.319 --> 01:28:25.319
so thank you very much. If I haven't read them

1124
01:28:25.319 --> 01:28:32.159
all out, I'm sorry, I'm just scrolling through. So my

1125
01:28:32.239 --> 01:28:38.439
website is back. However, however, there's a bit of an

1126
01:28:38.479 --> 01:28:42.039
issue because they've because I did delete it, they're allowed

1127
01:28:42.039 --> 01:28:47.079
for it to come back. But some of it is

1128
01:28:47.119 --> 01:28:50.680
not how it should be. I haven't got time to

1129
01:28:50.920 --> 01:28:53.399
work on it at the moment, but I will get

1130
01:28:53.399 --> 01:28:59.359
it sorted. I promise I will. It's just going to

1131
01:28:59.359 --> 01:29:02.800
take a little while. Well, I don't have the time

1132
01:29:02.840 --> 01:29:07.079
at the moment to work on the website, but as

1133
01:29:07.079 --> 01:29:10.039
soon as I've got the time, I will make those fixes.

1134
01:29:10.439 --> 01:29:13.760
I mean, at the moment, at the moment, it's working fine. Generally.

1135
01:29:14.479 --> 01:29:18.960
It's all the only playlists I've got without music. I

1136
01:29:19.079 --> 01:29:23.960
sorted that out so that it was obvious to see,

1137
01:29:24.720 --> 01:29:27.880
but it's put it back to how it was before.

1138
01:29:28.560 --> 01:29:30.880
So I'm not sure. I've not even had time to

1139
01:29:31.000 --> 01:29:35.760
really properly examine the website to make sure that everything works,

1140
01:29:36.960 --> 01:29:39.000
all the pages work, or the links work. I've not

1141
01:29:39.039 --> 01:29:44.479
done any of that, and I hope it does. However,

1142
01:29:44.640 --> 01:29:49.479
if you do go to the website, there are let

1143
01:29:49.520 --> 01:30:01.880
me have a look right on my website, from all

1144
01:30:01.880 --> 01:30:05.439
the different podcasts that are on there, there's six thousand,

1145
01:30:05.800 --> 01:30:16.680
six hundred episodes. Okay, so there's twenty. There's sixty four podcasts,

1146
01:30:19.399 --> 01:30:23.760
one video channel, three blog posts. I don't know what

1147
01:30:23.840 --> 01:30:26.039
that is. I know what blog post is, but I

1148
01:30:26.079 --> 01:30:29.439
don't know what I've done. It's a six thousand, six

1149
01:30:29.560 --> 01:30:33.239
hundred and four always let me look click on that.

1150
01:30:33.319 --> 01:30:36.079
I wonder what's going to show me? Right, that's a

1151
01:30:36.119 --> 01:30:51.319
different podcasts on the summer. I don't know how many

1152
01:30:52.960 --> 01:31:05.319
there are. Well, okay, so there's one hundred, one hundred

1153
01:31:05.399 --> 01:31:11.079
times by thirteen, so one thousand and three hundred episodes.

1154
01:31:11.600 --> 01:31:14.960
This does include the different you know, the ones with music,

1155
01:31:15.039 --> 01:31:19.319
ones without music, ten hours, five hours. But there's one

1156
01:31:19.439 --> 01:31:25.079
three hundred recordings that you can actually scroll through on

1157
01:31:25.119 --> 01:31:32.760
the very first page of the website if you're willing

1158
01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:35.840
to kind of go through all that is because it's

1159
01:31:36.000 --> 01:31:38.960
it takes a while, but you can also search for stuff.

1160
01:31:43.800 --> 01:31:49.199
So basically, if you go into the website, you've got one, two, three,

1161
01:31:49.399 --> 01:31:53.920
four different boxes at the top podcasts, playlists, podcast apps,

1162
01:31:53.960 --> 01:31:59.640
and contact. Then you've got two boxes below that, ones

1163
01:31:59.720 --> 01:32:04.279
for PayPal, the other ones join the Boring Jason Newland's

1164
01:32:04.279 --> 01:32:08.560
Boring group on Facebook. And then below that is the

1165
01:32:08.640 --> 01:32:17.439
latest recordings. So there's six versions of most recordings. If

1166
01:32:18.680 --> 01:32:23.319
for some reason, yes, sometimes I'll only do two recordings.

1167
01:32:23.439 --> 01:32:26.319
So I did a deep sleep whisper, and maybe it's

1168
01:32:26.319 --> 01:32:28.439
because it was a Sunday, and I was busy, but

1169
01:32:28.479 --> 01:32:31.600
I just did two versions, one with music, one without.

1170
01:32:32.520 --> 01:32:35.039
I think partly is because it was so such a

1171
01:32:35.079 --> 01:32:42.000
low volume that I just it was just easier just

1172
01:32:42.039 --> 01:32:45.239
to do one with music, one without, rather than editing

1173
01:32:45.279 --> 01:32:47.880
it five and ten hours, because I think it would

1174
01:32:47.920 --> 01:32:49.520
have taken a while and I didn't really have the

1175
01:32:49.520 --> 01:32:54.720
time to do it. But most of the recordings I

1176
01:32:54.840 --> 01:33:01.279
do there'll still be six versions, So there's quite a

1177
01:33:01.319 --> 01:33:05.279
few recordings I don't know. In fact, I don't know now,

1178
01:33:05.319 --> 01:33:07.279
but I can tell you how far it goes back

1179
01:33:08.000 --> 01:33:11.960
because it's the pot the recorded. All the podcasts on

1180
01:33:12.039 --> 01:33:22.159
the first page are basically yeah, wow, according to this,

1181
01:33:22.199 --> 01:33:25.000
I've got one five hundred and ninety two episodes on

1182
01:33:25.039 --> 01:33:30.279
this podcast, which means I see if I can skip

1183
01:33:30.319 --> 01:33:31.920
down to the end and tell you when the first

1184
01:33:31.960 --> 01:33:37.640
one was, because it's not that far ago. It's not

1185
01:33:37.680 --> 01:33:43.640
it's not a long long time ago, long long time ago.

1186
01:33:44.640 --> 01:33:48.319
I can still remember when the music used to make

1187
01:33:48.479 --> 01:33:59.279
me smile bitter beer right or April. I do appreciate

1188
01:33:59.399 --> 01:34:06.199
the night comments that you've left. It's very very extremely

1189
01:34:06.279 --> 01:34:22.640
pleasant of you. And what other things, I'm not sure

1190
01:34:22.680 --> 01:34:26.479
if I'm up to date with SoundCloud. I might be

1191
01:34:26.600 --> 01:34:36.199
a little bit behind on that one. So now in February,

1192
01:34:36.479 --> 01:34:42.920
I wonder how far back it goes. It's going to

1193
01:34:42.960 --> 01:34:45.920
be last year. And when did I get this for

1194
01:34:46.119 --> 01:34:50.319
this website? When did I start building this version? Was

1195
01:34:50.359 --> 01:34:55.039
it last year? Oh? Yeah, I'm in December now, last

1196
01:34:55.119 --> 01:35:04.279
year December? Oh man, it might be two years worth. Maybe,

1197
01:35:04.600 --> 01:35:14.720
I don't know. I'm not sure, probably not, because this

1198
01:35:14.760 --> 01:35:16.479
is when I yeah, because I had to start the

1199
01:35:16.520 --> 01:35:18.840
podcast again. I think they got taken off because of

1200
01:35:18.920 --> 01:35:22.159
the music, and then they got brought back on again.

1201
01:35:24.560 --> 01:35:27.159
More I deleted the podcast and I had to restart

1202
01:35:27.199 --> 01:35:33.680
it something like that. I can't really remember exactly at

1203
01:35:33.720 --> 01:35:38.079
the moment. So the very first recording that I did

1204
01:35:38.079 --> 01:35:42.119
on this podcast, which is my main podcast now other

1205
01:35:42.159 --> 01:35:50.439
than They Let Me Boy to Sleep, was ah this

1206
01:35:50.439 --> 01:35:55.039
it's October eighth, twenty twenty four. That's when this podcast

1207
01:35:55.239 --> 01:36:00.560
was created. But I've got recordings going back to twenty

1208
01:36:00.640 --> 01:36:06.600
ninth of July twenty twenty four. I can't even remember

1209
01:36:08.079 --> 01:36:13.520
October last year, So I don't know how I ended

1210
01:36:13.600 --> 01:36:17.000
up starting this new podcast or what happened to the

1211
01:36:17.000 --> 01:36:25.239
old one. I really don't know. Oh, well, so there's

1212
01:36:25.239 --> 01:36:34.600
a few recordings there. I got another message. Okay, there's

1213
01:36:34.600 --> 01:36:37.319
a few messages coming for the Q and a Friday.

1214
01:36:37.880 --> 01:36:47.880
There's two do do Do Do Do Do Do Do

1215
01:36:47.880 --> 01:36:49.960
Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do

1216
01:36:49.960 --> 01:36:59.520
do do do? Uh? All right, I need to look

1217
01:36:59.600 --> 01:37:12.680
up at something here. Hmm. That's weird. That shouldn't happen now,

1218
01:37:12.720 --> 01:37:36.039
I'm just looking at something. I've just been optimized, right.

1219
01:37:36.960 --> 01:37:40.600
I think I've just saw it in an issue that

1220
01:37:41.319 --> 01:37:45.680
I didn't know there was there. So there's been a message.

1221
01:37:46.239 --> 01:37:49.680
It's basically i'll read the message out again at the time,

1222
01:37:50.359 --> 01:37:55.239
but there was a message about the podcast and adverts

1223
01:37:55.479 --> 01:37:57.960
being played in the middle. And there shouldn't be any

1224
01:37:58.199 --> 01:38:00.520
adverts being played in the middle of any pot casts

1225
01:38:00.560 --> 01:38:07.760
ever in my opinion, but especially not mine, but apparently

1226
01:38:07.800 --> 01:38:10.000
there were, and I've just sort of I've just seen

1227
01:38:10.039 --> 01:38:12.840
the problem and I'm going to sort out that problem.

1228
01:38:14.239 --> 01:38:17.960
I can see what it is. So I don't know why.

1229
01:38:18.039 --> 01:38:22.760
I think it just because I've started these new podcasts

1230
01:38:22.800 --> 01:38:28.319
for like playlists like one to fifty and one hundred

1231
01:38:28.319 --> 01:38:32.600
and one to one hundred and fifty for four different podcasts.

1232
01:38:34.479 --> 01:38:43.119
The there's a standard it automatically sets it to play

1233
01:38:43.159 --> 01:38:45.960
adverts in the middle, and I did not set it

1234
01:38:46.000 --> 01:38:49.640
for that. It's basically auto optimized ads on this podcast,

1235
01:38:50.359 --> 01:38:59.039
so get rid of it. That's weird sores. There shouldn't

1236
01:38:59.199 --> 01:39:02.880
ever be adverts. If there's everyone ad a lot on YouTube?

1237
01:39:03.000 --> 01:39:05.159
Is there any I don't even have adverts on YouTube,

1238
01:39:05.439 --> 01:39:12.399
But if there is, it's YouTube. It's not me. It's YouTube.

1239
01:39:14.960 --> 01:39:20.199
Because they banned me and banned me from playing adverts

1240
01:39:21.760 --> 01:39:26.119
because I think I annoyed them. I don't know who

1241
01:39:26.520 --> 01:39:32.600
I'm guessing. I'm not quite sure what it was, but

1242
01:39:32.640 --> 01:39:36.920
they said no, you can't have adverts, so well, oh

1243
01:39:37.000 --> 01:39:46.479
well never mind. So I will sort that out gradually

1244
01:39:46.560 --> 01:39:50.600
over the next few days. But my plan, here's my plan,

1245
01:39:51.840 --> 01:40:01.119
is to if I go to back to my website,

1246
01:40:01.760 --> 01:40:09.920
I will with the playlists. Currently there's let Me Boys Sleep, ASMR,

1247
01:40:09.960 --> 01:40:15.279
Deep Sleep, Whisper Hypnosis, relaxing and sleep hypnosis daily and

1248
01:40:15.399 --> 01:40:20.680
relaxation for stress and panic attacks. So the let Me

1249
01:40:20.720 --> 01:40:27.119
Boy to Sleep is broken into without music, without music,

1250
01:40:27.199 --> 01:40:31.760
with music, five hours without music, five hours with music,

1251
01:40:31.840 --> 01:40:35.199
ten hours without music, ten hours with music. The only

1252
01:40:35.319 --> 01:40:38.000
link that works the image that works is the one

1253
01:40:38.079 --> 01:40:41.840
without music, and then I've got broken up into fifty

1254
01:40:42.520 --> 01:40:46.640
categories of fifty one to fifty, fifty, one undred, one hundred,

1255
01:40:46.680 --> 01:40:48.880
one hundred and one hundred and fifty, et cetera, all

1256
01:40:48.920 --> 01:40:53.520
the way down two one thousand, three hundred and fifty

1257
01:40:53.600 --> 01:40:59.720
one to fourteen hundred. But it goes down they're all

1258
01:40:59.760 --> 01:41:05.039
with music. It goes the one that works. Yeah, the

1259
01:41:05.119 --> 01:41:08.199
latest one that actually clicks on is to two hundred

1260
01:41:08.199 --> 01:41:12.039
and fifty one to oney three hundred. Still working on

1261
01:41:12.079 --> 01:41:20.159
that one. So my plan over time is to have

1262
01:41:21.640 --> 01:41:24.279
with music five hours ten hours and have all of

1263
01:41:24.359 --> 01:41:27.920
those available, but only the ones that I've already done,

1264
01:41:28.439 --> 01:41:31.119
not going back and adding music to ones that I've

1265
01:41:31.159 --> 01:41:35.239
done in the past that didn't have music on. So

1266
01:41:35.319 --> 01:41:46.479
this will be pretty much for the last Yeah, it

1267
01:41:46.520 --> 01:41:49.760
can only be ones where Spreaker as a loud music,

1268
01:41:50.680 --> 01:41:52.640
but it's their music, so it won't be any of

1269
01:41:52.680 --> 01:41:55.079
the old ones that had ad music that I used

1270
01:41:55.079 --> 01:42:00.279
to use. The Kevin McLeod music can't use them, so

1271
01:42:01.039 --> 01:42:05.439
Speaker wond allow it. So I I will try and

1272
01:42:05.640 --> 01:42:12.039
update all the ones with music that I have, and

1273
01:42:12.079 --> 01:42:15.960
then going forward all the recordings apart from the one,

1274
01:42:16.000 --> 01:42:20.039
so I just do one without music, one with music.

1275
01:42:21.159 --> 01:42:23.600
They'll all have the five one, the five different, six

1276
01:42:23.640 --> 01:42:29.680
different versions. Rather, I was sending myself to sleep. It's incredible.

1277
01:42:31.760 --> 01:42:38.000
Let's see if I've had any Oh, my sister's birthday

1278
01:42:38.079 --> 01:42:39.079
is coming up in July.

1279
01:42:39.239 --> 01:42:52.159
Okay, oh, I want to get rid of some of this.

1280
01:42:55.119 --> 01:43:07.319
Junk now, bah ooh ooh, right, that's done, b.

1281
01:43:10.159 --> 01:43:13.920
B big oh yes, Sphinnia's waking me up. Two thirty

1282
01:43:13.960 --> 01:43:18.399
this morning, we go outside. I dropped down the lead

1283
01:43:18.600 --> 01:43:22.439
on the floor. Pick it up. It's like Pamela Anderson breakdancing.

1284
01:43:22.920 --> 01:43:29.760
I got distracted after that point, and out of the

1285
01:43:29.760 --> 01:43:33.199
doorway comes this big figure, which was a little bit

1286
01:43:33.199 --> 01:43:35.000
of a shock because I didn't expect anyone to come

1287
01:43:35.039 --> 01:43:37.479
through the doorway. And it was the lad who lives

1288
01:43:37.520 --> 01:43:41.560
over there over the over the road. So I've lived

1289
01:43:41.600 --> 01:43:45.199
here ten years, is now twenty one or whatever. So

1290
01:43:45.239 --> 01:43:46.920
he was a kid, a little kid when I first

1291
01:43:47.000 --> 01:43:50.479
moved in, and he's he's a man. He's a grown

1292
01:43:50.560 --> 01:43:53.800
grown man now. But he was he locked and he

1293
01:43:53.800 --> 01:43:55.760
didn't lock himself out. I think he lost the key

1294
01:43:57.039 --> 01:44:01.800
and his mum was away, so I tried to help him.

1295
01:44:01.800 --> 01:44:05.760
I said, well, what can you what's your options? Because

1296
01:44:05.760 --> 01:44:08.640
he was literally just waiting around. He didn't know what

1297
01:44:08.720 --> 01:44:12.279
to do, and I said, what are your options? I said, well,

1298
01:44:12.319 --> 01:44:16.800
he said, I can knock on the neighbor opposite. He's

1299
01:44:16.800 --> 01:44:21.039
got a key, but he's he'll be asleep. I said,

1300
01:44:21.039 --> 01:44:24.000
well to wake him up. Then he didn't want to

1301
01:44:24.000 --> 01:44:25.479
wake him up, and I said, look, that's the whole

1302
01:44:25.520 --> 01:44:30.479
point of having a key. It's for emergencies. It's if

1303
01:44:30.520 --> 01:44:34.840
you locked yourself out at two in the morning, that's

1304
01:44:34.880 --> 01:44:39.640
an emergency. And that's the whole point. Really, that's you know,

1305
01:44:39.680 --> 01:44:43.920
that's that's my it's an opinion, but you know, that's

1306
01:44:43.960 --> 01:44:49.279
how I kind of see it. And so he knocked

1307
01:44:49.359 --> 01:44:52.720
on the door. I knocked on the door. There's no answer,

1308
01:44:53.640 --> 01:44:57.119
and we weren't going to not make a huge amount

1309
01:44:57.119 --> 01:44:59.560
of noise because he don't want to startle the person,

1310
01:44:59.600 --> 01:45:02.079
you know, So it's kind of okay, let's leave it.

1311
01:45:02.640 --> 01:45:06.439
I took him upstairs, brought him upstairs here, and I said, well,

1312
01:45:06.640 --> 01:45:13.520
I'll call a council to get the key, get the

1313
01:45:13.560 --> 01:45:17.239
locksmith in. And then it turned out that it's not

1314
01:45:17.279 --> 01:45:21.880
with the council, so they couldn't do that. And I said, well,

1315
01:45:21.920 --> 01:45:23.840
you can stay here if you want, You can sit

1316
01:45:23.920 --> 01:45:28.079
down and wait until a good time to knock on

1317
01:45:28.119 --> 01:45:30.880
your neighbor's door when he's awake. So I think he's

1318
01:45:30.960 --> 01:45:34.399
quite early. He gets up fairly early, and he didn't

1319
01:45:34.399 --> 01:45:37.439
want to do that, I understand, to be fair, because

1320
01:45:37.520 --> 01:45:40.640
he doesn't really know me very well. But I just

1321
01:45:41.319 --> 01:45:47.680
the idea of leaving someone outside in the garden. And

1322
01:45:47.720 --> 01:45:52.800
it's admittedly it wasn't cold out there, you know, even

1323
01:45:52.840 --> 01:45:55.000
at two point thirty or whatever time it was, it

1324
01:45:55.039 --> 01:45:59.960
wasn't cold, but there's going to come a time when

1325
01:46:00.039 --> 01:46:02.800
it isn't warm that when it gets you know, by

1326
01:46:02.960 --> 01:46:06.720
like maybe four three four, there's a there's a certain

1327
01:46:06.760 --> 01:46:12.840
time at night that he really can get chilli, especially

1328
01:46:12.960 --> 01:46:20.119
July August, but June, you know, anytime really. But it

1329
01:46:20.279 --> 01:46:23.560
just happened to be really really light evening that evening

1330
01:46:23.680 --> 01:46:28.159
last night, so he just went back downstairs and went

1331
01:46:28.199 --> 01:46:32.279
and sat in the garden waited so and his mum

1332
01:46:32.359 --> 01:46:35.319
was away or whatever, so he couldn't couldn't get hold

1333
01:46:35.319 --> 01:46:38.680
of her. So I've not seen him to ask him

1334
01:46:38.680 --> 01:46:42.279
if he's okay, But I think that's why Vinnie was

1335
01:46:43.159 --> 01:46:46.119
basically trying to get me, get my attention, because he could.

1336
01:46:46.279 --> 01:46:51.399
He could probably hear hear him down there, but he

1337
01:46:51.439 --> 01:46:58.039
didn't bark or anything. I'm not talking about the neighbor.

1338
01:46:58.039 --> 01:47:00.880
I'm talking about him. He didn't vinne, he didn't bark.

1339
01:47:00.960 --> 01:47:06.800
He just like wanted my attention. But then I'm thinking

1340
01:47:07.239 --> 01:47:09.039
the fact that he's been left on his own for

1341
01:47:09.119 --> 01:47:15.159
most of the day, and then when I'm here, he's

1342
01:47:15.199 --> 01:47:18.039
going out. He's still getting out. I'm still taking him

1343
01:47:18.079 --> 01:47:23.159
out three times a day for his w alk. So

1344
01:47:23.199 --> 01:47:25.119
he goes for one in the morning, then he goes

1345
01:47:25.159 --> 01:47:27.000
for one to get back, then he goes for another

1346
01:47:27.039 --> 01:47:31.359
one later on, so he's had three today already. It

1347
01:47:31.479 --> 01:47:37.920
probably I might just just take him in the garden

1348
01:47:38.039 --> 01:47:40.319
for five minutes before I go to bed tonight, because

1349
01:47:40.359 --> 01:47:44.479
it's half past eight now I do need to eat something.

1350
01:47:44.760 --> 01:47:51.000
And then yeah, I'll be in bed by ten hopefully,

1351
01:47:51.840 --> 01:47:55.520
So I'll take him out for go for doo weewiez

1352
01:47:55.800 --> 01:48:00.880
in the garden. Yeah, I'll do, and then I'll get up.

1353
01:48:01.399 --> 01:48:06.479
I'll wake up whatever time I'll wake up in the morning.

1354
01:48:07.239 --> 01:48:11.159
I've got I've got enough milk for my ready break

1355
01:48:11.199 --> 01:48:17.600
in the morning and then that's it. So what I

1356
01:48:17.720 --> 01:48:21.479
need to do when I get home is order some food,

1357
01:48:22.239 --> 01:48:29.479
get a delivery that tomorrow and then just basics milk, breakfast, cereal,

1358
01:48:29.560 --> 01:48:34.560
a few bits and bobs. Yeah, that would be I

1359
01:48:34.600 --> 01:48:42.039
need to do that. Yeah, So tomorrow's kind of booked,

1360
01:48:42.199 --> 01:48:50.840
Tomorrow's planned, and Friday, I just don't know, to be honest,

1361
01:48:52.800 --> 01:48:55.800
I just don't know. I don't know. I really don't know.

1362
01:48:56.039 --> 01:48:58.399
I'm going to do a Q and a Friday, but

1363
01:48:58.439 --> 01:49:03.000
other than that, I'm just gonna see how things are

1364
01:49:03.039 --> 01:49:06.199
tomorrow because there has been a little bit of a

1365
01:49:06.239 --> 01:49:11.800
progression today since I left. He's been visited and he's

1366
01:49:11.840 --> 01:49:17.520
had some conversations with people about his situation. So I'll

1367
01:49:17.560 --> 01:49:23.560
catch up with him tomorrow and then just see see

1368
01:49:23.600 --> 01:49:28.279
what what what I was gonna say, what what perspires?

1369
01:49:28.880 --> 01:49:32.079
I don't know, whatever the word is. So right now

1370
01:49:32.880 --> 01:49:38.439
I'm gonna go. I'm gonna have myself some crumpets, some

1371
01:49:38.479 --> 01:49:44.399
toasted crumpets with a margarine and a cup of tea

1372
01:49:45.399 --> 01:49:51.560
or a nass cup of tea, and that's it.

1373
01:49:51.640 --> 01:49:51.920
Really.

1374
01:49:52.800 --> 01:50:00.279
I might treat myself to a cornetto oh, yeah, ice cream,

1375
01:50:00.880 --> 01:50:08.199
ice cream, So thank you for listening. Remember to be

1376
01:50:08.279 --> 01:50:10.800
kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy

1377
01:50:11.560 --> 01:50:14.880
and be gentle with yourself, be deserved to feel safe.

1378
01:50:16.279 --> 01:50:29.600
Lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more.

1379
01:50:30.359 --> 01:50:35.560
Deep and.

1380
01:50:35.079 --> 01:50:42.479
Meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

1381
01:50:42.760 --> 01:50:52.840
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1382
01:50:53.520 --> 01:51:01.920
we've spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1383
01:51:01.960 --> 01:51:06.359
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1384
01:51:06.560 --> 01:51:23.960
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1385
01:51:24.000 --> 01:51:35.199
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1386
01:51:37.520 --> 01:51:51.760
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1387
01:51:51.880 --> 01:52:04.359
you can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe

1388
01:52:04.399 --> 01:52:15.800
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

1389
01:52:15.920 --> 01:52:23.880
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1390
01:52:24.239 --> 01:52:27.880
and myself as well. I sometimes I find one particular

1391
01:52:28.000 --> 01:52:38.000
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

1392
01:52:38.119 --> 01:52:43.399
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1393
01:52:51.039 --> 01:52:55.680
There was this recording from We're going back to about

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nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hit, but it was a

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guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis really, and I

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managed to find it again and it still has the

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same effect on me, and part of it was the

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person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and I'd

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look forward to listening to her in the morning and

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in the evening. And I knew before even pressing the

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play button that since I've done that, pressed the play button.

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This was in the days of CD players pressed the

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play button. In fact, it might have even been a

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tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

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then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

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had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

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knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

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went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

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slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this recording

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in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

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I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

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I didn't start doing that till too fat thousand and six,

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I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

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to just let go, to have that trust in the

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person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

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be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

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you hear my voice, you may feel the same some

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people have been listening to me for over a decade.

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Maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

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but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

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There's something that I do which you may not realize

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by listening, is when I record these recordings now. For example,

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I also am affected by the words that I say.

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So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

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notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

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I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I have

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said focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference

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between each hand, perhaps notice the the air in the room,

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the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

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You may start to notice what almost feels like a

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very light breeze, even though there may not be any

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type of breeze at all where you are right now.

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And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

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aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling.

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Now.

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And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

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which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

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drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

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mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

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without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And

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it's only where I listen back to do the editing.

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I hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring.

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I remember talking. This snoring was a pig turned up.

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That's why I sound like when I snare and I

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get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

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you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

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How relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

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more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

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comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

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like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you the

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breath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being

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able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

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You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my

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breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I tend

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to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing

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all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to, if

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nothing else, just taking some time away from everything, enjoying

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that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time

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seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful,

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completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

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noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

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nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

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sensations of allowing the stress to rip out of your body,

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to appear out of every part of your body, and

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being released from your brain. Long your mind slowly but surely,

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the muscles semlax.

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Relax acts really, so very deeply, res.

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So deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

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arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

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and deeper and deeper. Noticing the feedings in the back

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of your neck, my feelings in your wrists, muscles in

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the front of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply.

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There's a sense of peace spreads through.

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Your very core.

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Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

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be and slowerven, deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

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he's Forellin's stomach, your back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

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now feel in the hole of your back. Your spy

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from your brain all the way down the middle of

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your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

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deep comfort, increasing, deeply relaxed, You me spreading those you

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can almost down your spine or cord into air, every

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part of your body, your shins, and your calf muscles.

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We are elbows, feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through

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your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers,

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all the way to your lower back. M letting go,

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reit thinker peace drifting mind is wandering away, happy to.

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Let go, let go.

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Completely, let go, so tranquil the whole body, enjoying a

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censor letting go, he even more peace for enjoy the space,

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this space.

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Of peace.

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And safety, so fiery relaxed. Yes, yuh. Maybe we can

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just focus on the different parts of your body, just

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to notice your forehead and your ris mutual so lous

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nts say, in a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, drift,

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dan drif ding, peace, f energy, peace to breeze such

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easier lest you may have. You may not have noticed

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your mind drifting peaceful move even more deeply in the

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direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, rist total peace,

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come so calm, let him go peace with mind.

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Relaxed forty so relax, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

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so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful, RelA liquor, So peaceful,

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so fair. And you could start to notice that you

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are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused

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your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is

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growing within you throughout your body, and your mind starts

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to slow down, and that could be almost in recognition

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of I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and

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things just generally feel calmer.

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Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

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opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

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break from your life as it is, and to give

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yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

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off and to allow your body to relax and allow

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your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

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tension and he stresses that you had in your body.

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It's almost as if the parts of your body just

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open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

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time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

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fills your body up and your mind to also starts

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to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting,

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feeling positive, healing, an energy that spreads through your body

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like a wave of comfort. And all this comes from

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just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

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however long you want it to be, to just rest

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and allow your mind and your body to almost reset

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itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which

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allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to

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move around your body and into your mind, almost as

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if your mind and your body are sinking together, most

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mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness, and

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it feels nice. It really does feel nice to know

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that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

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feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

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relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on

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each part of your body, you can notice that that

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part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

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It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

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And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

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the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

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relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

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on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

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of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

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to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

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of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

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like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

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feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

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This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

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I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

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sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

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notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

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only on my voice and that part of your body.

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Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

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how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

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the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

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relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

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your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

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your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

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on your jaw, not just the part of your jaw

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near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

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up the size of your face to your ears, the

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hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm, focusing

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on your neck, the front of your neck and your

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throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

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the right and left side of your neck relax and

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loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

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focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

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any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

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that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

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experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

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back and moving either side of your spine right from

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the top of your back all the way down to

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the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

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And as you move up and down your spine, you

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can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

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even more. And there's those muscles relax That sense of

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comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

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sides of your back, the top of your back, the

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middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

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and slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles

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in the top of your back relax and become looser.

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The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

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to just almost divide from each other, separated and almost melting,

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and in your lower back it seems to be an

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extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

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sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

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area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

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all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

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your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

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and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

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back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

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to relax so calmly, and if you focus on your shoulders,

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you may notice that they're already feeling really loose, already

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feeding calm and feeling. Those muscles then move from your

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neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so

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smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders seens

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to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

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not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

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the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing.

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A whole area.

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Between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms, healing.

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You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who

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sends that deep healing message into your arms, and you

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may feel almost as if you are arms are not

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even there, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

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so calm, so loose, not feeling spreading all way down

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your arms, two elbows, including your elbows, circumforts spreads or

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away into your wrists, your forearments and your wrists being

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so heavy. Yet at the same time, sunlight and gentle fercusy.

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Now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful.

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In your hands.

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There's a sense of.

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Real peace.

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It just seems to I feel so familiar. Yeah, when

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your hands relax deeply. Hm.

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Yes, your thing is.

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A fingers, sidles, a finger tips. Moving your attention to

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the front of your body, so comfortable, moving your focus

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to your legs. We muscles in your thighs, your knees

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so relaxed, half musculs and just sens how persy they

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four hmm. And the fathing and your feet so peaceful,

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so calm, so peaceful, so calm mm hm hmm, so peaceful,

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so calm, so.

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Peace fall.

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RelA sin.

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Peace fall, so calm, loving.

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That deep relaxation, the spread your chest in your stuff,

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letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1630
03:17:30.719 --> 03:17:42.159
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1631
03:17:42.239 --> 03:17:47.840
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1632
03:17:47.959 --> 03:17:53.440
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1633
03:17:53.680 --> 03:18:07.280
level of comfort, each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1634
03:18:13.920 --> 03:18:18.959
and the fervies you walk down those steps that a

1635
03:18:19.200 --> 03:18:30.319
deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1636
03:18:30.440 --> 03:24:02.920
twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen eight four four teen

1637
03:25:09.079 --> 03:32:05.200
too well five eight nine eight seven us U S

1638
03:33:20.600 --> 03:39:14.959
five four one. And now as you focus on your eyes,

1639
03:39:24.520 --> 03:39:36.200
we're gonna count down from ten dout one, focusing just

1640
03:39:36.520 --> 03:39:44.399
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

1641
03:39:47.479 --> 03:39:56.159
your eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up

1642
03:39:56.239 --> 03:40:12.280
your eye. And as we count down from ten down

1643
03:40:12.399 --> 03:40:27.879
to one, whilst focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice

1644
03:40:28.399 --> 03:40:39.840
is relaxed with each number counting down that you may

1645
03:40:40.159 --> 03:40:49.639
find the all you want to do is just drift

1646
03:40:50.200 --> 03:40:59.600
off to sleep. And if that's what you want, then

1647
03:40:59.799 --> 03:41:13.159
just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1648
03:41:15.239 --> 03:41:20.680
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1649
03:41:20.879 --> 03:46:44.600
one right now ten nine eight seven y five four

1650
03:47:57.959 --> 03:50:48.920
three two one. So counted down from ten to one,

1651
03:50:51.000 --> 03:51:15.280
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one.

1652
03:51:22.319 --> 03:51:25.200
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1653
03:51:25.280 --> 03:51:29.159
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1654
03:51:29.520 --> 03:51:39.200
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1655
03:51:39.280 --> 03:51:43.079
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1656
03:51:43.159 --> 03:51:45.840
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1657
03:51:46.799 --> 03:51:50.479
expect me to STI go with floppy just because you're

1658
03:51:50.559 --> 03:51:59.879
counting down. We could try it again, but this time

1659
03:52:00.000 --> 03:52:06.000
I'll go with this lower this time, as you focus

1660
03:52:06.399 --> 03:52:10.959
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1661
03:52:11.079 --> 03:52:21.440
your legs. Just notice how your body does start to

1662
03:52:21.959 --> 03:52:33.079
feel more relaxed with every number that I count down

1663
03:52:36.520 --> 03:54:05.920
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one,

1664
03:54:17.280 --> 03:54:22.959
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1665
03:54:23.000 --> 03:54:37.840
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1666
03:54:37.959 --> 03:54:45.600
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1667
03:54:48.239 --> 03:55:09.120
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1668
03:55:09.399 --> 03:55:13.959
or lying down and just being there, not doing anything,

1669
03:55:14.120 --> 03:55:20.760
not saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So

1670
03:55:21.440 --> 03:55:24.479
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1671
03:55:24.520 --> 03:55:35.520
a space, a gap. And the more I camped down

1672
03:55:35.559 --> 03:55:42.920
from ten to one, the bigger that gap. Becomes so

1673
03:55:43.079 --> 03:55:55.479
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1674
03:55:55.600 --> 03:56:09.639
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1675
03:56:09.840 --> 03:56:28.840
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just slow down,

1676
03:56:32.479 --> 03:56:35.360
someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1677
03:56:35.600 --> 03:56:45.559
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1678
03:56:45.600 --> 03:56:51.639
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1679
03:56:51.760 --> 03:58:01.479
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1680
03:58:12.639 --> 03:58:48.239
four three two.

1681
03:59:06.520 --> 03:59:06.719
One.

1682
03:59:18.280 --> 03:59:38.440
Now, how does your body feel now? Can you notice?

1683
03:59:39.760 --> 04:00:16.520
Do you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed as we

1684
04:00:16.680 --> 04:00:36.920
now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just

1685
04:00:37.040 --> 04:00:57.040
gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's

1686
04:00:57.120 --> 04:01:05.760
not the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure,

1687
04:01:05.920 --> 04:01:08.479
like most of your body is not a lot going

1688
04:01:08.559 --> 04:01:21.239
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1689
04:01:24.079 --> 04:01:27.760
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1690
04:01:30.000 --> 04:01:34.479
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1691
04:01:34.559 --> 04:01:39.799
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1692
04:01:40.840 --> 04:01:48.479
into your hip and it goes down to your.

1693
04:01:50.399 --> 04:01:50.719
Knee.

1694
04:01:50.799 --> 04:02:02.600
Joints. Now, this is a big area, it's a very

1695
04:02:02.760 --> 04:02:09.319
heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in

1696
04:02:09.440 --> 04:02:22.440
your body or in your thighs. But I don't think

1697
04:02:22.559 --> 04:02:36.959
we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we

1698
04:02:37.120 --> 04:02:47.719
don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives,

1699
04:02:59.280 --> 04:03:08.680
how much they actually do for us, all for our lives.

1700
04:03:15.840 --> 04:03:21.399
And it may seem to sound really weird, but I

1701
04:03:21.520 --> 04:03:27.479
think that all of our body parts, especially our thighs,

1702
04:03:28.520 --> 04:03:35.840
need some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit

1703
04:03:35.879 --> 04:03:54.559
of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our thighs do

1704
04:03:54.799 --> 04:04:04.520
for us. And I know this may sound a bit strange.

1705
04:04:07.079 --> 04:04:10.159
Maybe you think, why am I? Surely I should be

1706
04:04:10.239 --> 04:04:15.000
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1707
04:04:19.159 --> 04:04:21.399
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1708
04:04:22.479 --> 04:04:24.680
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1709
04:04:24.760 --> 04:04:28.479
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1710
04:04:28.520 --> 04:04:37.120
from the tree. If you move down to your knees,

1711
04:04:39.040 --> 04:04:46.959
gain such an important part. And I think we don't

1712
04:04:47.040 --> 04:04:54.879
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1713
04:04:56.680 --> 04:05:01.600
all that my knees do for me until or I

1714
04:05:01.719 --> 04:05:05.120
have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I

1715
04:05:05.120 --> 04:05:10.840
ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1716
04:05:12.559 --> 04:05:18.760
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1717
04:05:18.840 --> 04:05:24.799
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1718
04:05:26.559 --> 04:05:33.799
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1719
04:05:34.040 --> 04:05:42.440
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1720
04:05:46.520 --> 04:05:51.159
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1721
04:05:51.239 --> 04:05:58.719
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1722
04:06:00.239 --> 04:06:02.840
and love to your knees for all that they do

1723
04:06:03.040 --> 04:06:16.040
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1724
04:06:16.159 --> 04:06:22.360
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1725
04:06:22.680 --> 04:06:40.079
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1726
04:06:40.239 --> 04:06:45.440
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1727
04:06:46.319 --> 04:06:51.879
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1728
04:06:52.760 --> 04:07:06.120
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so hortant. Know,

1729
04:07:06.200 --> 04:07:10.959
anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1730
04:07:11.000 --> 04:07:19.120
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1731
04:07:25.000 --> 04:07:27.000
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1732
04:07:27.120 --> 04:07:32.680
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1733
04:07:32.879 --> 04:07:37.680
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1734
04:07:37.799 --> 04:07:41.520
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1735
04:07:41.520 --> 04:07:47.559
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

1736
04:07:47.840 --> 04:07:57.479
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1737
04:07:57.559 --> 04:08:03.799
physics perspective, logical even it doesn't really make sense that

1738
04:08:03.959 --> 04:08:11.719
all this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles

1739
04:08:12.840 --> 04:08:26.239
then leading to your feet. That thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1740
04:08:26.319 --> 04:08:32.000
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1741
04:08:32.120 --> 04:08:43.959
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1742
04:08:44.159 --> 04:08:57.440
to get around and be mobile. And there's the carved muscles.

1743
04:08:57.479 --> 04:09:05.079
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1744
04:09:05.159 --> 04:09:10.239
point in calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1745
04:09:11.360 --> 04:09:14.879
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1746
04:09:14.959 --> 04:09:18.479
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

1747
04:09:18.600 --> 04:09:22.959
calf muscles are being used whenever we use her legs

1748
04:09:28.600 --> 04:09:41.200
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1749
04:09:41.239 --> 04:09:45.959
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1750
04:09:53.520 --> 04:10:05.440
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1751
04:10:05.520 --> 04:10:07.440
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1752
04:10:07.520 --> 04:10:13.959
going to focus on the legs. I realize that now

1753
04:10:14.040 --> 04:10:18.600
that I've mentioned your feet, you've probably focusing on them anyway,

1754
04:10:19.159 --> 04:10:21.719
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1755
04:10:25.760 --> 04:10:30.159
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1756
04:10:30.239 --> 04:10:34.600
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1757
04:10:34.719 --> 04:10:38.719
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1758
04:10:40.479 --> 04:10:51.280
we've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1759
04:10:51.559 --> 04:11:07.600
of comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy,

1760
04:11:09.639 --> 04:11:16.680
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1761
04:11:16.760 --> 04:11:21.520
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1762
04:11:21.719 --> 04:11:35.040
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1763
04:11:35.120 --> 04:11:40.440
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1764
04:11:41.239 --> 04:11:52.840
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1765
04:11:59.399 --> 04:12:06.440
and inside hired your thighs, the bones, there's the muscle,

1766
04:12:06.680 --> 04:12:11.719
there's the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff

1767
04:12:11.879 --> 04:12:20.959
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1768
04:12:20.959 --> 04:12:25.280
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1769
04:12:25.959 --> 04:12:31.120
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1770
04:12:31.360 --> 04:12:34.280
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1771
04:12:34.360 --> 04:12:39.159
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1772
04:12:39.239 --> 04:12:46.239
your thighs. Message in the bones of your leg message

1773
04:12:46.280 --> 04:12:55.559
in all the veins, and just gently heaving your thighs

1774
04:12:59.440 --> 04:13:04.680
and you could move down message and inside your knees.

1775
04:13:06.079 --> 04:13:11.079
It's a message in those bones, but with healing fingertips

1776
04:13:12.479 --> 04:13:18.840
spreading that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1777
04:13:24.239 --> 04:13:27.959
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1778
04:13:28.040 --> 04:13:34.040
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1779
04:13:34.280 --> 04:13:40.159
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1780
04:13:41.559 --> 04:13:44.920
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1781
04:13:45.079 --> 04:13:51.600
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1782
04:13:51.920 --> 04:13:58.639
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

1783
04:13:58.760 --> 04:14:02.719
that has a sensitivity which.

1784
04:14:02.559 --> 04:14:13.319
Is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected.

1785
04:14:12.879 --> 04:14:24.079
By your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

1786
04:14:24.280 --> 04:14:34.280
into that crease in your legs, folding between your legs,

1787
04:14:35.000 --> 04:14:39.639
you can just massage with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1788
04:14:39.719 --> 04:14:50.200
going inside massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

1789
04:14:50.319 --> 04:14:56.600
course feel the bones of your knees heading through your

1790
04:14:56.680 --> 04:15:10.120
fingertips and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1791
04:15:10.520 --> 04:15:12.239
And that's the part i'd like to be able to

1792
04:15:13.079 --> 04:15:20.399
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1793
04:15:20.520 --> 04:15:29.600
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1794
04:15:35.559 --> 04:15:41.639
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1795
04:15:42.520 --> 04:15:49.479
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

1796
04:15:49.600 --> 04:15:56.760
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1797
04:15:56.879 --> 04:16:01.520
precious bones that they are. Our legs are so precious

1798
04:16:02.479 --> 04:16:07.079
as in all the other parts of our body, and

1799
04:16:07.280 --> 04:16:21.600
more precious of anyture on the planet. When you start

1800
04:16:21.760 --> 04:16:33.639
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1801
04:16:33.920 --> 04:16:43.399
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1802
04:16:43.680 --> 04:16:49.120
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1803
04:16:49.239 --> 04:16:58.559
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1804
04:16:58.639 --> 04:17:05.159
able to put your hands in your thighs the massage

1805
04:17:06.000 --> 04:17:11.520
the muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers

1806
04:17:11.840 --> 04:17:21.600
deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show how

1807
04:17:21.719 --> 04:17:29.120
much you care about your legs, how much you care

1808
04:17:29.479 --> 04:17:37.479
for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1809
04:17:37.760 --> 04:17:50.559
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

1810
04:17:50.799 --> 04:17:55.280
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1811
04:17:55.440 --> 04:18:09.120
especially your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1812
04:18:09.399 --> 04:18:21.200
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1813
04:18:21.280 --> 04:18:32.559
what they do for you, supporting all that weight. Regardless

1814
04:18:32.600 --> 04:18:36.600
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1815
04:18:37.000 --> 04:18:41.760
ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

1816
04:18:42.200 --> 04:18:43.000
little ankles.

1817
04:18:46.600 --> 04:18:48.440
Now I'm a lot heavier than eight.

1818
04:18:48.360 --> 04:18:59.000
Stone double down, yet my ankles support my body all

1819
04:18:59.040 --> 04:19:05.479
the time. Or they do give off a sigh of

1820
04:19:05.600 --> 04:19:10.879
relief when I sit down as I have my whole

1821
04:19:10.920 --> 04:19:20.440
legs do my feet feet also go, my toes clap.

1822
04:19:21.639 --> 04:19:50.079
I'm so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1823
04:19:50.280 --> 04:19:54.479
know that talking about talking about your legs is probably.

1824
04:19:56.680 --> 04:20:00.520
Possibly among the most most boring things as you ever

1825
04:20:01.159 --> 04:20:03.879
heard anyone say, possibly.

1826
04:20:06.559 --> 04:20:13.079
Or bory or not. Everything I said is true. Your

1827
04:20:13.200 --> 04:20:33.719
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1828
04:20:33.840 --> 04:20:35.319
deserve to relax.

1829
04:20:36.760 --> 04:20:37.120
Deeply.

1830
04:20:44.440 --> 04:20:47.760
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1831
04:20:49.959 --> 04:21:18.719
to just let go completely. The legs really can relax.

1832
04:21:26.360 --> 04:21:30.440
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1833
04:21:30.719 --> 04:21:36.639
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1834
04:21:36.719 --> 04:21:43.959
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1835
04:21:47.680 --> 04:21:58.520
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips,

1836
04:22:00.200 --> 04:22:07.479
hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back as well.

1837
04:22:09.520 --> 04:22:15.239
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1838
04:22:15.280 --> 04:22:18.920
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1839
04:22:21.639 --> 04:22:24.440
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing, but it's

1840
04:22:24.440 --> 04:22:27.360
almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so much

1841
04:22:28.600 --> 04:22:34.159
that there is a natural stretch as the tension has

1842
04:22:35.079 --> 04:22:55.520
reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count down

1843
04:22:55.639 --> 04:23:05.040
from ten down to one, and you can continue to

1844
04:23:05.239 --> 04:23:36.200
fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight seven, six, five four

1845
04:23:39.520 --> 04:24:04.319
three two one. Relax. So I'm just going to count

1846
04:24:04.399 --> 04:24:09.440
down and five down to one, And as a countdown,

1847
04:24:10.719 --> 04:24:15.479
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1848
04:24:17.120 --> 04:24:26.120
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1849
04:24:27.879 --> 04:24:32.280
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1850
04:24:32.440 --> 04:24:45.479
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1851
04:24:45.600 --> 04:24:53.920
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I'll just notice

1852
04:24:54.000 --> 04:24:59.920
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1853
04:25:00.680 --> 04:25:17.760
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1854
04:25:27.280 --> 04:26:03.040
three two one. Now, as you notice the gradual letting

1855
04:26:03.159 --> 04:26:11.639
go that the tension in your body, you may also

1856
04:26:12.239 --> 04:26:17.680
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1857
04:26:18.799 --> 04:26:26.680
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1858
04:26:27.559 --> 04:26:35.479
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1859
04:26:35.600 --> 04:26:40.920
just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1860
04:26:41.639 --> 04:26:46.520
starts to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the

1861
04:26:46.639 --> 04:26:52.079
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1862
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And is that halmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

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even even if there's background sounds either your side, online,

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it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

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haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

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background unless you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course,

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you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

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room with other people. Of course you might be, but

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generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

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your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

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04:27:54.399 --> 04:28:11.559
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

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to grow, and without trying to build it up into

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something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

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something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

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sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

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effort into it. It's not something that you can really force,

1877
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is something that happens naturally, And part of the process

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of this recording and others is simply two allow you

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to take advantage of this space this time, to just

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let go, to just be here, to be in tune

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with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

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to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

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on what it is that you wish for yourself in

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this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1885
04:30:37.239 --> 04:30:41.799
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

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is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

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you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also,

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if you choose stay focused on my voice and really

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enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

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effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

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This time, I'm gonna count from six down to one,

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and you can notice your mind calming down more with

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each number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm, slow, beeaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one,

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being aware how your mind to slowed right down, sinking

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deeply into relaxation, and as you focus on your mind,

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you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

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maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some means and perhaps

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need your attention. So what you can do is send

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love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. I

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04:37:32.919 --> 04:37:36.919
doll petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

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04:37:38.400 --> 04:37:45.560
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

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04:37:45.759 --> 04:37:52.200
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them. You just

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04:37:52.680 --> 04:38:02.720
need them to require them to just calm down, slow down,

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04:38:05.080 --> 04:38:19.919
quiet down for now. So as you focus on those

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remaining thoughts as a countdown, this time from seven down

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04:38:26.759 --> 04:38:35.840
to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower

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04:38:36.000 --> 04:38:55.040
petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which will

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04:38:55.080 --> 04:39:05.959
allow them to just melt away, relax deeply. With every number,

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04:39:11.840 --> 04:39:29.200
those thoughts will become more and more relaxed, starting with

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number seven, six, five, four, three, two one it Now,

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notice how relaxed your feeling in your body. We're going

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04:42:22.720 --> 04:42:36.400
to focus on your hands is the more relaxed your

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hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

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04:42:58.400 --> 04:43:04.439
And this you focus on your hands and your fingers,

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04:43:09.959 --> 04:43:14.720
there's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

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fists or dancing the fingers.

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Or anything like that.

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Mhm, mhm. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

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noticing how they feel, because the mow maks your hands feel,

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04:44:05.799 --> 04:44:15.000
the calm your mind feels, and the more comforts you

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04:44:15.240 --> 04:44:38.439
feel throughout your body. And you may have already noticed

1922
04:44:42.759 --> 04:45:17.599
you mind is starting to dress, like you said, just

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04:45:17.840 --> 04:45:26.880
on your hands and fingers, allowing.

1924
04:45:26.959 --> 04:45:28.639
Them to cheat.

1925
04:45:30.680 --> 04:45:42.200
Experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1926
04:45:42.319 --> 04:45:53.959
and fingers, more and more relaxed.

1927
04:45:59.119 --> 04:46:00.720
With each ton bomb.

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Who eates down to one, you can almost view that healing,

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04:46:23.680 --> 04:46:40.000
relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming year

1930
04:46:40.840 --> 04:46:56.880
law relaxing. With each number you hear, going down.

1931
04:46:58.680 --> 04:47:10.479
Eight, down to one, to rift in to rift in.

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04:47:10.599 --> 04:47:16.880
Again, starting with.

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No, no.

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Thanks, s.

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Three say.

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Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

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04:51:27.479 --> 04:51:41.759
nothing to say, and everything just feels calm. This is

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04:51:42.880 --> 04:51:51.560
your natural state of being. This is how you just normally.

1939
04:51:51.360 --> 04:52:02.119
Feel when you take away all other stuff. And you

1940
04:52:02.200 --> 04:52:18.080
know thinks like stress and worrying, over thinking, the anxiety, tension, just.

1941
04:52:18.400 --> 04:52:25.040
Generally thinking about stuff. You take that away, which is

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04:52:25.119 --> 04:52:27.200
what we do what we do now.

1943
04:52:33.639 --> 04:52:34.360
Were left with.

1944
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A real sense of peacefulness.

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Which comes to you very quickly because also believe it's just.

1946
04:52:52.639 --> 04:53:06.240
A feeling, a feeling, the comfort, almost as if you've

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04:53:06.319 --> 04:53:12.119
got inside yourself where you've found a special place where

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04:53:14.520 --> 04:53:26.720
everything is peaceful, place where you can fill relax and

1949
04:53:26.919 --> 04:53:35.840
your netural sense of comfort, A place where you be

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04:53:40.880 --> 04:53:48.880
where you can accept yourself who you are, the place where.

1951
04:53:48.720 --> 04:53:59.000
You're applying to you please anybody else ever, a place

1952
04:53:59.159 --> 04:54:08.759
where you can actually not just love yourself, but in

1953
04:54:08.919 --> 04:54:17.680
some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate who

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04:54:18.200 --> 04:54:30.000
you are, a sense of gratitude.

1955
04:54:32.400 --> 04:54:34.000
In the air all around you.

1956
04:54:41.680 --> 04:54:48.080
That's also a place where you will actually feel.

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04:54:49.479 --> 04:54:53.279
The healing energy soaking.

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04:54:53.159 --> 04:54:54.080
Into your body.

1959
04:55:00.759 --> 04:55:04.080
Healing energy soaking.

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04:55:04.759 --> 04:55:11.799
Into your body, and the healing.

1961
04:55:11.799 --> 04:55:22.119
Energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each with every

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04:55:22.400 --> 04:55:23.799
single part.

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04:55:25.200 --> 04:55:25.840
Of your body.

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04:55:31.799 --> 04:55:33.680
When you start to realize that.

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04:55:33.919 --> 04:55:41.240
Actually the healing energy it's not just entered into your brain,

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04:55:44.040 --> 04:55:47.159
it's become part of your brain.

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And the spinal fluids.

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04:55:56.360 --> 04:56:08.759
Now mixing energy just allow you to feel so much

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04:56:09.040 --> 04:56:15.279
more relaxed than healthy in this moment.

1970
04:56:19.759 --> 04:56:20.840
But also.

1971
04:56:23.400 --> 04:56:30.880
You start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

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04:56:31.040 --> 04:56:40.680
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

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04:56:41.159 --> 04:56:51.240
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

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04:56:51.400 --> 04:56:58.200
to feel, not just now, but tomorrow, my next day.

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04:57:00.360 --> 04:57:08.319
Your health improves, not just your physical health and mental

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04:57:12.680 --> 04:57:18.080
things the East body you in the past, for some

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04:57:18.360 --> 04:57:23.560
reason not longer have defect.

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04:57:23.319 --> 04:57:24.080
To the East.

1979
04:57:27.599 --> 04:57:42.080
Some things change deep within. Maybe things the easts you

1980
04:57:42.360 --> 04:57:44.080
to feel anger.

1981
04:57:47.919 --> 04:57:48.439
Longer that.

1982
04:57:57.840 --> 04:57:59.159
It seems to be able to

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Yes, it's sm