May 19, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) SKOOLS | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1356 | 19th May 2025

(no music) (5 hours) SKOOLS | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1356 | 19th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. Please only listen where you can safety close

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your eyes. I said that as I yawned and scratched

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my beard at the same time. So yes, I can multitask.

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Thank you very much. This is let me buoy to

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sleep number.

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What number is it?

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I don't know. One thousand, three hundred and one, one thousand,

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three hundrud. I have to check this. Let me go

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to one of my podcasts, one thousand, three hundred and

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fifty six. BlimE me, that's a lot in it. That's

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a lot. So yep. This is Monday's Borrowing Objects without

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an object to talk about. Now, what I thought I

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might do is if I look back on my Jason

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Newland's Boring group on Facebook, there was a question that

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at the time of answererring, I thought to myself, hmmm,

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maybe that would be a good subject to converse about

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on my Monday's Boring Objects. But I'm going to have

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to find the question. I'll have a look. Okay, okay,

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give me two seconds. I do also have a YouTube

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channel which is at Chason Newland that's also my podcast.

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So every single recording I do goes on there. The

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website has all of my well it will do if

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I'm just in the middle of doing some playlists, but

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I've been I've been changing things, trying to make it

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a bit better. But I decided to be to There

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was a certain thing I was doing and it would

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take me forever, so I decided not to do that.

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It seemed a bit pointless. I may go back and

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do it in the future, but right now, I'm just

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going to stick to what I've got planned. So I

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do have all of the recordings uploaded to the podcast,

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each individual podcast on the website, which will be on

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the website when they are published. It's just going to

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take a little while to do that. I'm having a

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quick look. Oh yeah, I also started a cult, if

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anyone wants to join, can we see?

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Right?

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It might have been about the hypnosis and creative writing, right,

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I was fall about talking about how I started in hypnosis,

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but I've probably done that so many times. I talked

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that one too to sleep. But I think there's a

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few little things I probably haven't talked about. Let me

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just think thinking the different jobs I've had, different places,

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have lived, h relationships, mm hmm, people, mm hmm. I

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wanted to talk about something that I haven't really mentioned before,

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something that's all kind of not surprised you, but maybe

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a little bit like, oh, you know, I mean that

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is kind of a sader surprise potentially, but just something

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where you're thinking, hmm, didn't know that about the juicy

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JJ man bloke person. I didn't know how old I

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was until I was seven. How about that? I didn't

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know my day at birth till I was seven. That's

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a bit of a That's more trivia, isn't it. It's

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more trivia Tuesday. It is Monday today, isn't it? Is

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it Monday? I think it is Monday, the nineteenth of

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May twenty twenty five, one two, all weeks to the

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end of the month. It's the year man, and it's

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like we're nearly halfway through the year. Jingle bells, jingle bells,

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jingle all the way. How much fun it is to

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ride in? No, No, it's oh. One of my favorite

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hymns was should I talked about my I talked about

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my high school. So there's only two schools I really remember,

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I really remember I've been in. I could just talk

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about schools in general. Let's talk about my schools in general. Okay.

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I have this memory of walking to school on the

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first day on my own, and this is when I

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was I don't know, five four or five or something.

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That's when I lived in Newcastle. But I have another

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memory of another school. It might be the same school,

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and it's really it was freaky. It was one of

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those freaky moments. And so I was in this school

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behind the school gates that the right side of the school,

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inside the school, not inside the school, but inside the

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playground part of the front of the school. Although that

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might have been the back of the school, I don't

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think it's really relevant. I think it was the front

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of the school or the side. It was eble to side,

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the back or the front. And it definitely wasn't underground.

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It was definitely on top of the ground. And I

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was standing there on my own looking through the fence,

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and my memory is it was it wasn't barbed wire

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or anything like that, but it was these metal fence. Now,

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because I was so little, probably looked really tall. It

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might have only been like five foot, but in my

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memory it was like twenty foot high. And so I'm

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looking through the fence at this lady and she falls over.

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I lot dies with her, but I'm locked eyes. I mean,

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there was no locks involved. But I looked at her

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and she fell over, and I thought that I had

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caused her to fall over, which is kind of a

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weird thing. I believed that I had somehow made her

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fall over with my mind, which was a weird thing

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to think. I think at that age, at any age, really,

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and I don't remember too much about it. I think

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I might have gone back in school and told a

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teacher maybe, or just gone in a hidden because I

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didn't want to get in trouble. That was a very

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strange memory. Now I don't know where that was. That

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might have been in Newcastle, might be in South End,

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it might I don't know where it was. And then

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I remember there was another school which was almost overlooking

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sure there was like a motorway. This was in South End,

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I think, or Newcastle again. I think that was a

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different school, and I got the very vague memories of

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standing looking. I used to do a lot of looking

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back then and just could see it was very inner

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city school, I would say, or around places it wasn't

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kind of I'm sure there was like a motorway that

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you could see. That's my memory of it. Anyway, I

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don't I remember walking to school through down a bypass

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kind of this. I don't know.

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It was a.

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Some kind of bridge that would walk down. There was

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other kids as well. It wasn't just me, but walking

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to school. This would be in Newcastle. But again I

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don't remember much of the actual school itself. Have you

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hear Vinnie's been really fidgety. We've just been out, just

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got back. I took his food out of the fridge

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because he wasn't eating it. I'm getting a little bit

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fed up with chucking it away because at the moment

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he's just eating dry food and he doesn't seem to

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want wet food at all. So I put it in

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the fridge, just brought it out and he's ignoring it.

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And he's not ignoring it like he's not calling to him,

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but he's just I've got an actually beard. I don't

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know why. I think it might be a heat rash

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or flease. So I remember this vaguely remember that. But

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the first school that I really kind of have any

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any set of memories for was when I was seven,

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and I've moved in with papa and papa's new wife.

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It sounds like a song title, don't it. And there

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was this school just up the well, not just up

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the road, but it was yeah, it wasn't wasn't far

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away from where the house was that we were living

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because we were living with my dad's new wife's mother

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that it was her house. So we were living there

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for I don't know how long because we went to school,

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I guess in the September. We moved there about in

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the summer during the summer holidays from South End Nazareth

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House in South End and went to school. I was seven,

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so I don't know what. We didn't have years back

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then the way they do now we do. But it

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wasn't it's like first, second, four fifth, It wasn't like

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year twelve, year fifteen or whatever. Didn't have that back then.

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And I was only there probably four maybe one term,

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perhaps two terms, and then we moved because the house

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we was in was I think it was derelict. It

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was basically falling apart. So they moved my step mom's

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mum into a flat and we got a council house

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because we were overcrowded anyway, not that I cared. I didn't.

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I was fine. I like living there, so we I mean,

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it's like, okay, living in a room with one other kid,

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or even two other kids, it's better than living in

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a room with twelve other kids in my see, you know,

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That's how I kind of saw it. And then we

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moved to the house that my nan and grand had

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ended up living in for a long time, especially my

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na lived in there for a long, long long time.

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So we moved into this new build on this new

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sort of state, and it was technically a three bedroom house.

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The third bedroom was some would argue wasn't big enough

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to be like a It was a very small bedroom.

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Some people might say it's just like a box room.

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Some people might just say, you know, there's lots of

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different things people can say. I was happy there because

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that was my room. For the first time in my life,

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I had my own bedroom. It was glorious. So I've

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talked about this before. My bruce Leaf poster on the wall,

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and even though I didn't know who Brucely was at

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that time, but I learned someone just sneezed the loudest

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sneeze I've ever heard in my life, So so we

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went about school, so we went to a different school,

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which was kind of about fifteen minute walk from there,

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so that was like, okay. So that was the second

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junior school I went to in that town. And it's

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kind of weird. I mean, we moved from one house

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that I really liked to another house that I really liked,

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and you know, it wasn't big enough for all of

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us really, plus another kid came along, so in reality,

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we couldn't have stayed there, but I would have happily

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stayed there because well I had my own room. That

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wasn't just the only reason, because I ended up having

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my own room when we moved again. But it was

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just I liked that house. It was a lovely house.

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And I liked the school as well. I like the

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other school. My memories of the first school in that

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town that I went to a seven was and I

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just turned seven, literally probably a week or two before

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the before going to school, And yeah, it was just nice.

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I liked it. I got into a little bit of

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trouble for stealing one of some one of a girl

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who I liked found the keys or managed I don't

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know where she got the keys from to the tuck

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shop and told me about it and invited me in

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to have a feast, and we got caught by the

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janitor after a few days of do it that, and

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the police came into the school and got me to

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stand up and her to stand up and told us

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all off. Now I assumed they hadn't told my parents

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because I didn't get told office at home, But in

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reality they probably did. All the teachers did. But because

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I only just moved there, they probably didn't feel they

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could really tell me off. Yeah, I had only been

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there for like a couple of months living with them.

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Unless I did tell me off, and I just laughed,

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it's possible I just didn't hear them, didn't listen. Yeah,

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I don't know. And then there was another time when

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there was this cupboard that had all like the toys

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in so we were playing toys Lego, these big lego

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don't know Lego, but these big bricks sticker bricks or

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whatever they were called, and had all his toys on

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the floor. The teacher came out of this room where

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all the toys were stored and said, somebody has made

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a dent in the wall. Now I remember even now,

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it was like a brick wall, big old bricks with

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paint covered in paint, but there was a like a dent.

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And their teacher said, no one's going to lunch until

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we find out who did it. No one was owning

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up to it, so I just said, I did it, okay,

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and there's the teacher, so send everyone to lunch. Kept

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me behind and the teacher said that. He said to me, okay,

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then new boy, show me how you did it. And

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I went in there and I thought, oh, now I'm

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on the spot. It's really hard, is you know, something

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you're not prepared for to if you if you lie

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to get out of doing something you've done, you can

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kind of be prepared in a way, but to lie

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about doing something you haven't done is difficult. Found it

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very difficult, very difficult. So I pretty much said, well,

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I did it with this and it was like a

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lego brick, plastic plastic lego brick. Oh yeah, that's how

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I did it. And the teacher just laughed at me,

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said show me how you did it. Then, So I

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did this with this, like, yeah, that's how I did that,

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and I was robbing this thing against the wall. It's

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like the worst lie, not the worst lie. But it

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was It's like trying to escape from a prison cell

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with a toothbrush or some candy floss, not candy floss,

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you know, tooth loss, whatever, it just you could do it, probably,

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but it would take forever, you know, to break for

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a wall, to even scratch the wall would take more

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than I pressure than I had available, you know, with

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my little seven year old body. I mean I was

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a size for a five year old. And they said,

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did you really do it? I said yeah. They said,

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you do realize after the stealing this might mean you'll

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go to prison. I said really. She said no, not really.

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I said, okay, but I'm not sure if I admitted

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that it wasn't me or not.

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But the weird thing about it is I felt like

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it was me. That's a strange thing. I felt like

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I'd done it.

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Weird.

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So I got moved, So I got expelled from that school. No,

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I didn't get expelled. I don't think I did. I

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left that school and we went to this other school,

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which is around the corner from the new housing the

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state we moved to. So I was moving towards I

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was probably yeah, seven and a half at this point,

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So I'm unless unless that might be an eighty, so

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maybe I'd had the whole year there, but I think

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it was I might have had the whole year there.

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So I went to this other school between eight and nine,

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and I liked that school. I liked that school even

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more than the first school, because yeah, I wasn't at

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the other school long enough to make friends, so I

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might have only been there for one term, because I

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did make friends at the next school, like good friends,

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like my best friend who was called Andrew. I had

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two I had Ian and Andrew. Ian lived up the road.

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He was on the same mistake as well. I was

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just living and went to school the same school, all

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the same age. Ian's birthday was the same date as mine,

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exactly the same date. And we were good friends who

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were best friends in and out of each other's houses.

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Used to just spend all the times together, really, and

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I was probably that period between living in that house,

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whatever period that was. But I mean, you know, really,

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from a school I was very whispery, whistley loud, wasn't

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it from a school perspective. From a school perspective, possibly

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that was my favorite time, you know, where both school

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and house, school and home synchronization was really good. Every

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aspect was good. And that was the only period really

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between the ages of eight and nine. So I went

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to the school I liked. I had friends for the

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first time, not for the first time, but for the

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first time where it was a degree of stability because

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we'd stayed. I've never been at a school for a

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whole year before, so I'd been there for over a year.

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And I guess because I do one term said a

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year and new two years. I suppose if you think

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about it, because when I moved into the other house

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when I was seven, seven, maybe the beginning of the

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year nineteen seventy eight, so I was yeah, and then

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started at the other school and I was there until

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I was nine, and then then we moved again and

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I went to a different school again, another junior school,

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and I liked that school as well, to be fair,

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but yeah, I wasn't enjoying the home life at that

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point then. But as far as schools go with I'd

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say I probably liked that school better. The third junior

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school I went to during that period, I liked the

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school better and I did make lots of friends because

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I was there for two years, so I kind of had,

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you know, I kind of got to make more deeper friendships,

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I don't know, like closer friendships, maybe a bit more

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stability in that sense. But the previous school it was

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just really nice because living on a council of state,

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it was a new build. Pretty much all the kids

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of my age group that moved onto that council estate

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were going to the same school as me, so we

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could hang out with each other. And then we moved

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and I lost all those friends, even though I was

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living in a little town. There was I think three

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or there was at least three junior school. It was

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probably a junior infant that's kind of the same thing.

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I think. You know, they went up to the age

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of eleven and in high school from eleven onwards. Is Yeah,

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that was a shame because it was the first time

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that I'd had any kind of stable schooling. And I've

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been through quite a bit while I was there as well,

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because I had problems with my ears partially deaf, had

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an operation, and I liked the school and I like

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my friends, and I had a girlfriend as well. My

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first ever girlfriend was there, and so that was cool,

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I say, my first ever I kind of had her

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girlfriend at the other school, but she kept getting me

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into trouble, so yeah, I think he got moved away.

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That was the one with the keys to the tuck shop. Yeah,

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I had a girlfriend and we used to just chase

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each other and push each other over and stuff, pull

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each other's hair, you know, that's that kind of It

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was a very deep and loving friendship, a very very

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a lot of romance. I was eight, but I did

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have my first ever date with her. I went to

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the cinema. I don't really remember what movies we went

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to see because it was Saturday matinee, so there was

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two movies, one old older one and one more newer one.

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I think I might have seen Spider Man the new spots,

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not the New Spider Man now, but back then it

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was the new movie New Spider Man movie, which was

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about nineteen seventy eight. I feel I need to check

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this up. Nineteen seventy eight Spied a Man movie. It

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was nineteen seventy eight. I'll wait a minute. The film

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was that's weird Spider Man. Let's have a look. I'm

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going to get this back. Nineteen seventy seven movie Spider Man.

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For the first time, I loved it, and I remember

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going to watch it and on the what was it

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The undercard were not the Undercan but the movie before

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was Sinbad in the Eye of the Tiger, I think,

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or it might have been, No, I think it was that.

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I think it was I Love Spider Man. I'm not

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sure which came first, Spider Man or Superman. As far

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as like the new movies that came out in the

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late seventies, it was so good, loved loved it. I mean,

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back then, superheroes were a big thing on TV. I

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mean there'd been a big thing forever really, but there

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was a real popular, popular thing. Oh we had, you

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know that was on TV at the time. So we

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had we have the Incredible Hulk, Wonder Woman, the Bionic Man,

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kung Fu. I mean, kung Fu was kind of like

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a superhero, but it wasn't really but kind of was

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more like real life superhero, you know, because he did

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kung fu. That's why he was called kung Fu. What

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other ones was there, well, a Bionic Woman. I don't

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know when they started calling it. It was a six million

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dollar man then I'm sure they just started calling it

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the Bionic Man eventually, and then spider Man, because Spider

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Man was also a TV show as well, and I'm

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trying to think of other and we used to have

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some of the older shows on as well, like some

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of the Superman shows, of the Lone Ranger, High Whole, Silvar, Rocketman.

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I'm trying to think of some of the others, like

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but these we were in black and white. Dick Tracy and

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the Dick Tracy technically wasn't a superhero, but he kind

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of was. Yeah, there was a lot a lot on

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back then. I probably missed out some really obvious ones.

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Shall I check, because I'm sure, I'm sure there's some

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that I've missed out. So super hero TV shows, I'm

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going to go online nineteen seventies. I don't want images

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list of superhero television and she was just okay, it's

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going right away back from nineteen forty nine. So the

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Lone Ranger is that how old The Lone Ranger was?

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Flash Gordon. Flash Gordon still one of the greatest movies

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ever in my opinion, one of the greatest, greatest soundtrack.

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But they I used to watch the Flash Gordon TV

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show and this was from like nineteen fifty four to

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fifty five, but they used to show it on TV,

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like in the late seventies early eighties.

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Zoro.

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They used to show that on The Invisible Man. They

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used to show that. Again they were black and white.

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I think the Mighty Atom I don't remember seeing that.

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Sounds good though, I mean superheroes. I'm just looking. It's

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got stuff here that I can't I mean, mister Terrific,

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Captain Nice. I don't remember ever seeing those left in

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the sixties Kung Fu, Yeah, to see. I thought that

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was I did think that was kind of like a

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superhero Mirror Man. Nope, the Six Million Dollar Man nineteen

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seventy three to seventy eight. The Tomorrow People, of course,

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seventy three to seventy nine. And they were superheroes, weren't they.

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That was an English thing and they could do I

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think telepathy between each other and stuff. The Invisible Man

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again started.

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Here they.

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I thought the Invisible Man was in the eighties. Maybe

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they just started another one. Because this is saying the

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Invisible Man was nineteen seventy Invisible Man nineteen seventy five

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to ninety seventy six. Surely it's not the one with

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McCullum producers. Why are they're saying who's in it? They're not.

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It starred David McCullum nineteen seventy five to nineteen Wow,

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I didn't realize that. I used to love that. So

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that was seventy five to seventy six. They were still

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showing it. They were showing repeats and stuff. So I

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used to watch that The Bionic Woman. Of course, I've

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already mentioned Man from Atlantis, yep, superhero that was Bobby Ewing.

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So Men from Atlantis another huge show. Anyone it's old

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enough to remember that huge. He was a pin up.

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He was a pin up for everyone, not just for adults,

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but for kids as well. I used to have him

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on my wall because he was a superstar. He could

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breathe underwater. Come on. I kind of felt I was

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similar to him because I swam the way he did.

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Because I was not I had no way of keeping

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above the water. So I just thought, you know what,

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I'll swim the way the Man from Atlantis does, which

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has gone very wiggly, and I could go from one

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link to the other without without going above the water.

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So I thought I was quite good, but I couldn't swim.

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I used to bang into people as well, I remember

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once I did it and I banged into the side

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and banging my face because I couldn't see where I

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was going. Monkey Monkey, So I remember Monkey nineteen seventy

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eight to nineteen eighty. Used to watch it on BBC two,

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and I remember watching that in the house we moved

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into when I was nine, watching it on TV while

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I was stripping the wallpaper in the living room. So

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we just moved in buck Roger's in the twenty fifth century.

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It's a superhero may it didn't have any powers though,

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so I just lets you see all the different superheroes

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we had during that period. I'm going to miss seventies out.

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Minimal nineteen eighty three. Now, I loved Minimal and then

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I didn't, so basically it was my favorite show. It

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was basically was a man that turned into an animal,

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hence Minimal. That's a dog barking now. And it didn't

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go down very well with the audience apparent. It wasn't

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only got one series and that was it. But I

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liked it a lot. But unfortunately, on the night that

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I was going to watch it, because I think I've

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seen a few episodes, the I got into trouble for

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something over nothing really but to do with my schoolwork.

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And I ended up getting big lecture and my dad

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just had a tantrum on me over a broken ruler,

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like a ruler my ruler had a chip in it.

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He wouldn't know why there was a chip in my ruler.

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I don't mean a chip as in, you know, potato,

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And I said, I don't know, and he just went

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on and on and on so and then I went

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and sat in and I couldn't watch Manimal just looked

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at it like, nah, it's bought.

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It.

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Never been able to watch it since it's weird, isn't it?

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The A team those superheroes were? They really but not

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didn't have powers, But then quite a few superheroes don't

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have powers. Batman doesn't have powers. Highway to Heaven it's

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not a super I mean, it's a brilliant show. I

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loved it. I watched that from all the way from

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the beginning to the end that one. I don't mean

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from the beginning of the episode to the end of

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the episode, but from eighty four to eighty nine. Loved

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Highway to Heaven. Why has the Incredible Hulk not been

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mentioned anyone? I've not mentioned a Whulk have I But

474
00:38:43.360 --> 00:38:50.480
it's not mentioned No Hulk, which was possibly one of

475
00:38:50.480 --> 00:38:59.920
the biggest biggest shows on TV at the time, late seventies,

476
00:39:01.400 --> 00:39:07.440
the Hulk. No no Hulk on this list, so it's

477
00:39:07.559 --> 00:39:14.079
not a complete list. How can they not mention the Hulk? Anyway?

478
00:39:14.119 --> 00:39:21.599
I mentioned the Hulk Super Grand that was like eighty

479
00:39:21.639 --> 00:39:24.440
five to eighty seven, So that was funny, but it

480
00:39:24.519 --> 00:39:26.519
was a little bit. I watched it, but it was

481
00:39:26.840 --> 00:39:28.960
you know, I was kind of coming to leave school

482
00:39:29.440 --> 00:39:30.599
and left school at that point.

483
00:39:35.679 --> 00:39:35.719
Er.

484
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:42.840
Yeah, why if they put bay Watch down? This is

485
00:39:42.840 --> 00:39:45.719
supposed to be superheroes. They might have got this right.

486
00:39:46.519 --> 00:39:51.199
Independence DC and Novel List is television series based on

487
00:39:51.280 --> 00:39:56.159
DC comics. Okay, let's look at that one adventure as

488
00:39:56.199 --> 00:40:00.039
a Superman Batman Shasa. So all these these are the

489
00:40:00.079 --> 00:40:02.079
ones I was looking for, But these are in the

490
00:40:02.159 --> 00:40:05.519
six fifties and sixties. Wonder Woman seventy five to seventy nine,

491
00:40:07.719 --> 00:40:16.559
Superboy eighty eight to ninety two. Really, I don't remember

492
00:40:16.559 --> 00:40:22.960
ever seeing. Superboy was a cartoon for the Chinese reality

493
00:40:23.039 --> 00:40:31.199
singing contest see Superboy TV series. Okay, it's an American

494
00:40:31.239 --> 00:40:35.079
television series based on a fictional DC comic character Superman's

495
00:40:35.159 --> 00:40:38.519
early years a Superboy. The show ran from eighty eight

496
00:40:38.559 --> 00:40:42.159
to ninety two. In syndication. It was renamed The Adventures

497
00:40:42.159 --> 00:40:51.960
as Superboy at the start of the third season, although

498
00:40:51.960 --> 00:40:58.119
they sold arises the first being focused on Clark Kent. Really,

499
00:40:58.800 --> 00:41:01.360
I'd love to see that. I didn't know there was

500
00:41:01.400 --> 00:41:06.199
a Superboy. Why did they never showed that on TV

501
00:41:06.480 --> 00:41:11.559
in this country? I'm pretty sure i'd remember that. Shazam again,

502
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.840
that was seventy four to seventy six. Never saw that.

503
00:41:16.400 --> 00:41:23.360
The Batman series, I mean, who hasn't I mean, maybe

504
00:41:23.360 --> 00:41:25.880
there are people that hasn't seen it, but the Batman

505
00:41:26.280 --> 00:41:29.760
shows sixty six sixty eight with some of the best

506
00:41:29.800 --> 00:41:36.880
television ever in my opinion. I loved it. The Flash

507
00:41:37.280 --> 00:41:44.719
nineteen ninety to ninety one, so that was funny. Lewis

508
00:41:44.800 --> 00:41:47.920
and Clark, The New Adventures of Superman, now that was

509
00:41:48.079 --> 00:41:51.920
huge in this country ninety three to ninety seven. Who

510
00:41:51.960 --> 00:41:54.199
used to be on a Saturday evening and it was

511
00:41:54.239 --> 00:41:58.760
one of the top rated shows like in this country

512
00:41:58.840 --> 00:42:05.639
at that time, huge viewership. And the Lewis Lane whatever

513
00:42:05.679 --> 00:42:11.280
her name was, she was absolutely like you couldn't It's

514
00:42:11.320 --> 00:42:14.679
almost like you couldn't look at a newspaper about seeing

515
00:42:14.679 --> 00:42:20.159
her face on there. Small Ville, now, you know what

516
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:25.800
is a weird thing. I didn't even know what small

517
00:42:25.880 --> 00:42:31.800
Ville was about, so started in two thousand and one.

518
00:42:32.199 --> 00:42:35.760
I came over it by accident in two thousand and two.

519
00:42:36.679 --> 00:42:38.480
But it used to be on in a weird time,

520
00:42:38.559 --> 00:42:42.960
like on a Sunday afternoon, which is a strange time

521
00:42:43.039 --> 00:42:50.320
for something like a Superman show to be on. And

522
00:42:51.400 --> 00:42:54.280
I did not know, I said, I'm probably two thousand

523
00:42:54.280 --> 00:42:56.719
and three, sorry, not two thousand and two. Two thousand

524
00:42:56.760 --> 00:43:01.519
and three. I didn't know it was about Superman, and

525
00:43:01.679 --> 00:43:04.480
I saw a small villain. I thought that sounds familiar,

526
00:43:08.199 --> 00:43:11.679
and then I started watching it. I loved it, and

527
00:43:11.760 --> 00:43:15.239
I watched it every Sunday. I didn't see it from

528
00:43:15.719 --> 00:43:18.639
the beginning all the way to the end, because it

529
00:43:18.679 --> 00:43:21.400
went on to twenty eleven. I stopped watching it probably

530
00:43:21.480 --> 00:43:29.199
after a couple of years. And what I mean two

531
00:43:29.239 --> 00:43:31.480
things that amazed me about that, I mean, I were

532
00:43:31.519 --> 00:43:39.800
not amazed me is he I was watching what's that

533
00:43:39.960 --> 00:43:46.039
name for the Devil? The TV show on Netflix? All

534
00:43:51.079 --> 00:44:10.599
Not Be Easy bub Netflick, a Devil TV show Lucifer, Lucifer. Okay,

535
00:44:10.639 --> 00:44:15.159
so Lucifer. There was this character in Lucifer, and I

536
00:44:15.199 --> 00:44:20.960
thought he looks familiar. Where have I seen him before?

537
00:44:21.119 --> 00:44:23.559
And it was really good in the show, Like I

538
00:44:23.599 --> 00:44:29.440
don't know who he is. He was Superman. It was

539
00:44:29.519 --> 00:44:32.920
smallvill Superman because he was I think he literally was

540
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:35.599
a kid. He was like a teenager when he started

541
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:41.480
doing that show. And it was so weird to see

542
00:44:41.519 --> 00:44:44.760
him all grown up because I I suppose he's in

543
00:44:44.840 --> 00:44:48.159
his forties now, maybe even older. I don't know. Shall

544
00:44:48.199 --> 00:44:52.119
we find out Let's find out camera, Let's find out

545
00:44:52.519 --> 00:44:58.760
Tom Willing forty eight. The weird thing about it, it

546
00:44:58.800 --> 00:45:01.840
looks better now than he did then, not as anything

547
00:45:01.840 --> 00:45:05.719
wrong with how he looked then, but he's just maybe

548
00:45:05.719 --> 00:45:08.159
he's just grown into his face. I don't know, he's

549
00:45:12.079 --> 00:45:16.440
it just looks so it just looks. It's weird. I

550
00:45:16.480 --> 00:45:22.599
don't want to see what other things he done. I

551
00:45:22.599 --> 00:45:24.239
don't know why they can't have a little bit of

552
00:45:24.719 --> 00:45:27.639
continuity and just let him be Superman as an adult.

553
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:34.639
But I didn't seem to want to. It's being in

554
00:45:34.679 --> 00:45:40.920
a few movies, being a few TV shows. He was

555
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:53.000
a batwoman. He played Clark Kent. Really wow, but that

556
00:45:53.199 --> 00:46:01.760
was like eight years after Smallville finished. Hmmm, well, wait

557
00:46:01.840 --> 00:46:12.679
a minute, was this one professionals? Professionals? Okay, No, it's

558
00:46:12.760 --> 00:46:20.199
not the TV show that I used to love, but

559
00:46:20.320 --> 00:46:21.960
the point I was trying to make, if there was

560
00:46:21.960 --> 00:46:24.639
a point, I don't know. I used to shave my

561
00:46:24.760 --> 00:46:29.000
head while I watched small Ville. So I had these

562
00:46:29.039 --> 00:46:32.400
clippers and I just used to do that, and I

563
00:46:32.440 --> 00:46:34.960
had when I shaved my head, I didn't like rinse

564
00:46:35.000 --> 00:46:38.599
my hair off and everything, or rinse rinse my scalp

565
00:46:39.679 --> 00:46:45.440
in the bath, and then I would rub in this

566
00:46:45.840 --> 00:46:51.360
moisturizer into my scalp and just message my scalp while

567
00:46:51.400 --> 00:46:57.599
I watched small Ville on TV. And not only did it,

568
00:46:57.599 --> 00:47:01.679
it just it felt nice, but how lovely. It's a

569
00:47:01.840 --> 00:47:09.159
really nice now. Yeah, I just remember doing that. I

570
00:47:09.199 --> 00:47:11.360
don't know why I remember that. That was two thousand

571
00:47:11.360 --> 00:47:14.960
and three Sundays. This is when I was working in

572
00:47:15.000 --> 00:47:26.239
the call center selling car insurance. So maybe it was

573
00:47:26.280 --> 00:47:28.679
Spider Man I went to on that date with. I

574
00:47:28.760 --> 00:47:30.440
didn't go on a date with Spider Man, but I

575
00:47:30.480 --> 00:47:33.639
went on a date with the girl at school to

576
00:47:33.840 --> 00:47:37.519
see Spider Man. I think because I think I went

577
00:47:37.559 --> 00:47:41.760
to see Superman with my brother. I definitely went to

578
00:47:41.760 --> 00:47:46.880
see Superman two with my brother because I was dreaming

579
00:47:46.920 --> 00:47:50.920
about it the day before or the night before. I

580
00:47:51.000 --> 00:47:55.320
dreamt because we kept seeing I dreamt, we kept seeing

581
00:47:55.360 --> 00:47:58.880
the adverts, you know, with all the super villains that

582
00:47:58.960 --> 00:48:04.960
were in Superman three, at Superman two, and yeah, I

583
00:48:05.079 --> 00:48:08.320
just I wanted to see that more than I wanted

584
00:48:08.320 --> 00:48:14.000
to see the first one. It excited me. But then

585
00:48:14.039 --> 00:48:16.599
I also got excited about seeing the third one because

586
00:48:16.719 --> 00:48:19.519
Richard Pryor was in it. And at the time Richard

587
00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:24.519
Pryor was he was the biggest Hollywood actor at the

588
00:48:24.559 --> 00:48:28.599
time because he'd done Stir Crazy and he was doing

589
00:48:28.639 --> 00:48:31.760
his due, you know, films with Gene Wilder, and he

590
00:48:31.960 --> 00:48:37.639
was a huge star. And this is before I even

591
00:48:37.719 --> 00:48:43.199
discovered his stand up. Generally didn't know he did stand up.

592
00:48:43.440 --> 00:48:45.840
It's weird, isn't it. But then I was I was

593
00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:48.519
a little kid, so I didn't really I knew what

594
00:48:48.559 --> 00:48:50.840
stand up comedy was because we had stand up comedy

595
00:48:50.880 --> 00:48:55.840
on television, but it was a different It definitely wasn't.

596
00:48:55.960 --> 00:48:59.840
Richard Pryor didn't have that kind of adult comedy on

597
00:49:00.159 --> 00:49:06.679
that I got to see anyway. I remember I used

598
00:49:06.679 --> 00:49:11.719
to share give this girl my chocolate. So if i'd

599
00:49:11.719 --> 00:49:16.719
have i'd ever, I'd ever packed lunch with sandwiches, packet

600
00:49:16.760 --> 00:49:22.440
of crisps, and maybe a chocolate bar, like a little

601
00:49:22.480 --> 00:49:32.000
chocolate bar, such as a penguin. Now I didn't like penguins.

602
00:49:33.239 --> 00:49:36.719
I don't know why. I just didn't like them. So

603
00:49:36.800 --> 00:49:39.280
i'd give them away or try and swap with someone

604
00:49:39.639 --> 00:49:42.239
if someone had a kit cat or you know, different

605
00:49:42.320 --> 00:49:45.840
kind of thing. And what i'd sometimes do is give

606
00:49:45.880 --> 00:49:50.599
away the penguin to someone, to this girl to show

607
00:49:50.639 --> 00:49:54.679
how much I loved her. Sometimes i'd pick flowers. I

608
00:49:54.800 --> 00:49:59.159
go up to her and say there go and she

609
00:49:59.280 --> 00:50:03.840
said this nets and I'm like, check them on the floor.

610
00:50:03.880 --> 00:50:05.400
Said why do you check them on the floor? Because

611
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:09.880
I was stinging me. Oh, so you knew there was

612
00:50:09.920 --> 00:50:12.800
stinging net lers in nettles? Ended you because she used

613
00:50:12.840 --> 00:50:16.480
to slur sometimes when she spoke, And I said, what,

614
00:50:18.000 --> 00:50:21.239
I can't understand you because you're slurred. She said, so

615
00:50:21.360 --> 00:50:24.480
you knew that there was stinging nettles. I said, no,

616
00:50:25.119 --> 00:50:27.880
there were flowers, I thought, But you said there was

617
00:50:27.920 --> 00:50:31.880
stinging your fingers. I said, yeah, I didn't know why,

618
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:35.599
but it makes sense now, that's if they sting, they're

619
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:38.760
called stinging nettles. That makes sense. The name very much

620
00:50:38.960 --> 00:50:42.400
applies to the topic that we're conversing about.

621
00:50:43.559 --> 00:50:47.599
She said, what I'm wondering if fin's eating his dinner now,

622
00:50:48.760 --> 00:50:51.039
he's eating his eating his wet food.

623
00:50:52.599 --> 00:50:55.760
He started looking on the floor for dry bits of

624
00:50:55.840 --> 00:50:58.400
dry food because I told dropped things on the floor

625
00:50:58.440 --> 00:51:02.320
when I'm putting them in the pocket, and he's been

626
00:51:02.400 --> 00:51:05.280
hunting around for them, and because he had no more,

627
00:51:06.440 --> 00:51:11.199
he's had to settle with a wet food. I don't

628
00:51:11.199 --> 00:51:14.239
know if you can hear that slurping away. I'm not

629
00:51:14.280 --> 00:51:16.079
going to give him any attention. I'm not going to

630
00:51:16.119 --> 00:51:22.239
look at him or anything. Well, I think that he's stopped.

631
00:51:22.320 --> 00:51:26.199
He might be looking at me. I think he did

632
00:51:26.199 --> 00:51:30.800
look up, and then he's continued. So I was at

633
00:51:30.840 --> 00:51:36.400
that school. Nothing particularly interesting occurred at that school that

634
00:51:36.480 --> 00:51:43.239
I can really remember, other than there was one incident.

635
00:51:43.840 --> 00:51:46.559
And this is really weird, but it's true. I had

636
00:51:46.599 --> 00:51:50.880
by two incidents. There was this bully there. Still remember

637
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:53.360
his name. I won't say his name because I'm sure

638
00:51:53.400 --> 00:51:58.320
he's you know, it's sure he's a good bloke, just

639
00:51:58.480 --> 00:51:59.800
you know, at that time, he was a bit of

640
00:51:59.840 --> 00:52:02.960
a bit of a ruffian and used to try and

641
00:52:03.760 --> 00:52:11.880
cause trouble. And he picked on my friend who was

642
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:17.159
who had a I think he had like one one

643
00:52:17.280 --> 00:52:21.199
kidney or something, my friend who lived three doors up

644
00:52:21.280 --> 00:52:24.000
from where I lived, and it was making fun of

645
00:52:24.079 --> 00:52:26.559
him because he because he had a bag and I

646
00:52:26.639 --> 00:52:30.639
had a bag thing. I didn't really understand it, but

647
00:52:30.679 --> 00:52:37.519
I knew that he was unwell and stuff. So this

648
00:52:37.639 --> 00:52:43.800
kid was making fun of him. So I intervened and

649
00:52:43.840 --> 00:52:49.079
it didn't end well for him, to be fair, but

650
00:52:49.159 --> 00:52:51.519
it didn't seem to stop him from keep coming back.

651
00:52:53.639 --> 00:52:58.639
And then another time was outside in the in the field.

652
00:53:00.079 --> 00:53:03.360
So at this point my other brother, my one who

653
00:53:03.440 --> 00:53:06.000
was two years older, was there as well, because I

654
00:53:06.039 --> 00:53:14.920
was eight and he was ten. Yeah, so he was

655
00:53:15.000 --> 00:53:17.960
like in his probably in the last year of that school.

656
00:53:18.239 --> 00:53:20.920
I still had a couple more left if I was

657
00:53:20.960 --> 00:53:26.559
going to stay there. And this kid, I think his

658
00:53:26.679 --> 00:53:29.320
name is Mark. I think I know what his name was,

659
00:53:29.360 --> 00:53:33.719
but it stayed with me for some reason. And I

660
00:53:33.760 --> 00:53:37.280
don't know if he I think he grabbed my bag

661
00:53:37.920 --> 00:53:41.639
or something, or he might have walked up and just

662
00:53:41.679 --> 00:53:47.199
pushed me over something like that. I don't know and

663
00:53:47.320 --> 00:53:50.440
my brother, and this is totally true. It's not even

664
00:53:50.480 --> 00:53:53.719
made up, because well I could make it up. I

665
00:53:53.719 --> 00:53:57.039
could say anything good night, but it really happened, which

666
00:53:57.079 --> 00:54:03.280
was quite impressive. He showered oie. He might not said oh,

667
00:54:03.320 --> 00:54:07.239
but he showered something out leave him alone, leave my

668
00:54:07.280 --> 00:54:12.480
brother alone, or whatever something like that, and I think

669
00:54:13.000 --> 00:54:15.920
this kid shouted something back at him because there was

670
00:54:15.960 --> 00:54:20.800
quite a distance between them, and my brother chucked this

671
00:54:20.960 --> 00:54:24.840
tennis ball which he was playing with with his friends or whatever.

672
00:54:25.079 --> 00:54:28.719
Chucked it and it landed right in his eye, not

673
00:54:28.800 --> 00:54:30.920
my brother's eye, and then he just chuck it in the

674
00:54:30.920 --> 00:54:33.760
air and look up, he chucked it at this kid.

675
00:54:34.760 --> 00:54:40.840
It landed in his eye, Like how can you? I mean,

676
00:54:40.880 --> 00:54:44.360
he had to have his surgically removed. He didn't it landed.

677
00:54:44.440 --> 00:54:47.320
How could you even you could even plan something like that.

678
00:54:51.559 --> 00:54:56.320
I was like, honestly, I was probably the time that

679
00:54:56.400 --> 00:55:02.679
I had the most. I pleased they pleased with my

680
00:55:02.760 --> 00:55:05.639
brother and I didn't need him to look after me

681
00:55:05.679 --> 00:55:07.400
for that because I'd already dealt with him before and

682
00:55:07.440 --> 00:55:10.960
I could the game. But it was just nice. It's

683
00:55:11.000 --> 00:55:12.800
quite nice. You know when a brother does something like

684
00:55:12.840 --> 00:55:22.000
that and it's like such a good shot. Anyway, there

685
00:55:22.039 --> 00:55:27.360
was another time with my brother. Anyway, it's he's yeah,

686
00:55:27.360 --> 00:55:29.360
he did, he did. He did stand up for me

687
00:55:29.800 --> 00:55:34.400
a couple of times, so I'll give him that. So

688
00:55:34.559 --> 00:55:40.519
that school kind of left the ironic thing about it, right,

689
00:55:41.199 --> 00:55:43.840
here's a weird thing about it. We moved to different school,

690
00:55:43.960 --> 00:55:51.199
to a different house away from that school, but because

691
00:55:51.280 --> 00:55:57.719
he was in the final year, so I started a

692
00:55:57.840 --> 00:56:03.159
new junior school at age none. But my brother was eleven,

693
00:56:03.280 --> 00:56:05.960
so he went to the high school. But he went

694
00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:09.079
to a different high school. So both my brothers. My

695
00:56:09.159 --> 00:56:11.639
other brother was four years older than me, so he

696
00:56:11.639 --> 00:56:13.719
would have been in the second year of high school

697
00:56:14.079 --> 00:56:18.920
or third year of high school at this point. No

698
00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:29.119
second year. No, this sounds weird. I can't remember nine

699
00:56:29.800 --> 00:56:35.280
ten eleven, so no, maybe my other brother still had

700
00:56:35.320 --> 00:56:40.519
one year left at that junior school. Yeah, eight, nine ten,

701
00:56:41.719 --> 00:56:43.920
I don't know anyway, I think he still had one

702
00:56:44.000 --> 00:56:50.400
year left there. And then my other brother went to

703
00:56:50.880 --> 00:56:54.280
the high school. But anyhow, it ended up I went

704
00:56:54.320 --> 00:56:57.320
to a different junior school, another junior school that was

705
00:56:57.480 --> 00:57:03.079
miles away, so didn't have my friends anymore, made some

706
00:57:03.119 --> 00:57:09.679
new friends. Both my brothers went to a different high

707
00:57:09.719 --> 00:57:16.119
school to me. I mean there was no reason for it.

708
00:57:16.800 --> 00:57:19.360
I mean literally, there's like they went. They just went

709
00:57:19.400 --> 00:57:21.199
to a different So I ended up going to a

710
00:57:21.199 --> 00:57:23.880
completely different high school because I was at this different

711
00:57:23.960 --> 00:57:29.559
junior school for two years and instead of just continuing

712
00:57:29.599 --> 00:57:31.800
to go to the school I was already at, which

713
00:57:31.840 --> 00:57:34.119
wouldn't have been hard to get to from where I

714
00:57:34.159 --> 00:57:40.920
was living. I mean, ironically, I think that sort of

715
00:57:41.360 --> 00:57:46.039
doing the correct word. This junior school that I was

716
00:57:46.079 --> 00:57:51.679
going to before was literally, I don't know, five minute

717
00:57:51.679 --> 00:57:54.320
walk from the high school that both my brothers ended

718
00:57:54.400 --> 00:57:57.360
up going to. So they were allowed it's why for

719
00:57:57.440 --> 00:58:00.159
them to walk there. But I could have just as

720
00:58:00.159 --> 00:58:04.679
easily continued going to the junior school. In fact, I

721
00:58:04.719 --> 00:58:06.840
could have gone with them, couldn't I could have walked

722
00:58:06.880 --> 00:58:11.360
with them, and walking there wasn't an issue because I

723
00:58:11.400 --> 00:58:13.880
was walking to school on my own anyway at that age.

724
00:58:15.400 --> 00:58:18.920
Long before that, yeah, I was walking to school at

725
00:58:19.000 --> 00:58:22.000
seven eight Yeah, eight years old, I was walking to

726
00:58:22.039 --> 00:58:24.960
school on my own, so it wasn't an issue. And

727
00:58:25.199 --> 00:58:27.360
even when I went to the other junior school, I

728
00:58:27.400 --> 00:58:30.840
was walking to about fifty minutes forty minutes to get

729
00:58:30.880 --> 00:58:34.559
there and about two hours to get home because I

730
00:58:34.800 --> 00:58:42.480
was very slow. And that's something I noticed. When I

731
00:58:42.519 --> 00:58:44.960
was at that school. I used to walk around and

732
00:58:45.159 --> 00:58:53.039
just sing songs, and I went through a period when

733
00:58:53.119 --> 00:58:57.199
I thought I was a superhero and I thought that

734
00:58:57.280 --> 00:59:06.480
I could become invisible. I didn't always tell people that

735
00:59:06.599 --> 00:59:13.119
I thought I was invisible. I remember I decided to

736
00:59:13.159 --> 00:59:16.920
do it once during the court the register call at school,

737
00:59:17.440 --> 00:59:19.800
so we'd always go in the first first part of

738
00:59:19.800 --> 00:59:22.440
the day and then call out a name. Maybe they

739
00:59:22.480 --> 00:59:26.320
did it in assembly, I can't remember. He who has

740
00:59:26.360 --> 00:59:30.840
to shout out, yes, sir, here's sir whatever. And I decided,

741
00:59:30.880 --> 00:59:33.400
I'm going to make myself invisible. So I made myself

742
00:59:33.440 --> 00:59:37.639
invisible and no one was looking at me, so I

743
00:59:37.679 --> 00:59:44.800
thought this is working. And then they called my name out.

744
00:59:44.840 --> 00:59:49.079
The teacher or the headmaster called my name out, and

745
00:59:49.119 --> 00:59:51.519
I thought, I just keep quiet because there's no point

746
00:59:51.599 --> 00:59:53.360
me talking because people aren't going to see me. They'll

747
00:59:53.400 --> 01:00:01.159
freak everyone out. It's really weird because they everyone was

748
01:00:01.239 --> 01:00:03.920
looking at my seat or where I would have been sitting,

749
01:00:05.159 --> 01:00:07.199
because no one sat on the seat. I suppose they

750
01:00:07.639 --> 01:00:10.679
must have just I don't know why they didn't sit

751
01:00:10.719 --> 01:00:12.119
on it because there was no one there because I

752
01:00:12.159 --> 01:00:18.280
was invisible. I was technically I was there, and the

753
01:00:18.320 --> 01:00:26.840
teacher kept saying Jason new Land, Jashon and people like,

754
01:00:29.440 --> 01:00:32.000
we're looking over in my direction, and I know they

755
01:00:32.039 --> 01:00:38.239
couldn't see me because I was invisible. Horace. Can you

756
01:00:38.280 --> 01:00:38.480
hear that?

757
01:00:42.760 --> 01:00:42.920
Hi?

758
01:00:43.079 --> 01:00:43.480
Horace?

759
01:00:43.880 --> 01:00:44.320
Right mate?

760
01:00:44.639 --> 01:00:57.639
You're okay? Yeah, how you been? How's the kids? Well?

761
01:00:57.639 --> 01:01:07.480
I didn't want to talk. I board him, he's gone.

762
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:10.480
I think it was one of his kids that got

763
01:01:10.519 --> 01:01:13.239
stuck inside here to the other day, came in the

764
01:01:13.280 --> 01:01:15.960
back door. Back door was lodged open for some reason,

765
01:01:17.280 --> 01:01:19.480
and it comes up trying to get in and out

766
01:01:19.480 --> 01:01:22.639
of the top part where all the windows can't get

767
01:01:22.639 --> 01:01:25.719
through the windows. I used to think I could walk

768
01:01:25.760 --> 01:01:32.400
through walls. The best thing to in those situations is

769
01:01:33.199 --> 01:01:35.159
as long as you never test it, you can still

770
01:01:35.199 --> 01:01:40.360
believe it. Because there used to be this big wall

771
01:01:40.599 --> 01:01:47.360
just right. It had a gold painted on it, and

772
01:01:47.400 --> 01:01:52.559
it was just a random wall, very strange, and I

773
01:01:52.679 --> 01:02:00.320
used to believe I could walk through the wall, but

774
01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:06.760
I never tested it. I wonder one never tested it,

775
01:02:09.679 --> 01:02:12.679
but I did. I used to just remember once I actually,

776
01:02:15.320 --> 01:02:19.400
I think we're playing hide and seek or we're playing soldiers,

777
01:02:20.760 --> 01:02:24.239
and I was in the grass and I made myself invisible.

778
01:02:24.639 --> 01:02:33.119
I thought I'd made myself invisible, and no one found me.

779
01:02:36.800 --> 01:02:41.920
Was there the whole weekend? No one found me. It's like, Wow,

780
01:02:42.800 --> 01:02:48.079
I didn't realize that people were just ignoring me. Did

781
01:02:48.159 --> 01:02:49.679
you ever when you was a kid, did you ever

782
01:02:49.719 --> 01:02:53.119
turn up at school on a Saturday by accident and

783
01:02:53.239 --> 01:02:57.039
wonder why you couldn't get in? That happened to me.

784
01:02:58.679 --> 01:03:03.199
I mean, I woke up like, oh, I'm late, and

785
01:03:03.239 --> 01:03:08.360
I'm like running to school to get there, and I'm wondering, oh,

786
01:03:08.440 --> 01:03:11.000
everyone's gone, because I didn't realize they were all still

787
01:03:11.039 --> 01:03:15.599
in bed. There's no one here. Everyone's had their lunch,

788
01:03:15.639 --> 01:03:19.280
they're gone their breakfast. Rather, they're gone. So I'm rushing

789
01:03:20.559 --> 01:03:26.199
and get there, and then I realized it's Saturday. I laughed,

790
01:03:26.400 --> 01:03:29.760
I've just well. I waited till I caught my breath

791
01:03:29.760 --> 01:03:32.800
and then I laughed. And I get home and at

792
01:03:32.800 --> 01:03:36.159
this point people the family, people the family are having

793
01:03:36.159 --> 01:03:40.079
their breakfast, and I told them and some of them laughed,

794
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:46.320
some of them just looked at me. Bewildered. I say

795
01:03:46.360 --> 01:03:48.119
bewildered because that was a new word that I was

796
01:03:48.239 --> 01:03:51.960
trust trying out back then. I like to try a

797
01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:56.800
new word that I hadn't really used regularly, and I thought,

798
01:03:56.840 --> 01:04:05.119
you know what, because this was probably about nineteen eighty

799
01:04:06.119 --> 01:04:09.079
for I've not used the word bewildered. I don't think

800
01:04:09.079 --> 01:04:13.320
I've ever used it every I know what it means,

801
01:04:13.440 --> 01:04:17.519
but in the context of a sentance. But I don't

802
01:04:17.519 --> 01:04:20.119
know I've ever used it in a sentence or in

803
01:04:20.159 --> 01:04:29.559
some kind of grammatical conversational format. But then I forgot

804
01:04:29.599 --> 01:04:34.559
to use it until now I was remembered. So yeah,

805
01:04:34.960 --> 01:04:37.559
thinking about it's kind of feeling is a bit bewildered. Really,

806
01:04:40.440 --> 01:04:48.679
So I did like that school. There's a few things

807
01:04:48.719 --> 01:04:50.960
that I perhaps didn't like so much that One of

808
01:04:50.960 --> 01:04:53.280
those things was they kept trying to teach me French,

809
01:04:54.679 --> 01:04:57.599
like come on, are you kidding? What are you doing?

810
01:04:58.800 --> 01:05:03.800
I've never been mean, I've just for some reason, speaking

811
01:05:03.840 --> 01:05:07.199
different languages never really been something that.

812
01:05:07.119 --> 01:05:12.920
I was particularly I wasn't interested in, but I also

813
01:05:13.159 --> 01:05:18.719
didn't really understand. Now I think part of the reason

814
01:05:18.840 --> 01:05:21.960
for that, other than lack of intelligence on my part,

815
01:05:22.000 --> 01:05:29.000
probably is unlike the my dad's generation and my NaN's generation,

816
01:05:29.559 --> 01:05:33.960
we didn't learn Latin, and Latin is almost the root

817
01:05:34.880 --> 01:05:41.800
of so many of the European languages, so you can

818
01:05:41.880 --> 01:05:49.159
almost it's I think, I'm just this is just my interpretation.

819
01:05:49.719 --> 01:05:53.199
It is easier to learn another language when you know Latin.

820
01:05:53.760 --> 01:05:56.480
I mean, Latin is I guess another language, I suppose,

821
01:05:56.519 --> 01:05:59.960
but you can, you know, when it comes to French

822
01:06:00.199 --> 01:06:04.000
or German, you've got the Latin roots, so you can

823
01:06:04.159 --> 01:06:06.079
kind of get to know what things are and it

824
01:06:06.079 --> 01:06:12.639
makes a bit easier to connect together. At ten years old,

825
01:06:12.679 --> 01:06:16.239
I was still learning English and I still am so

826
01:06:16.280 --> 01:06:21.840
I didn't really understand, and I didn't learn to read

827
01:06:21.880 --> 01:06:26.280
really till I taught myself pretty much. I did go

828
01:06:26.360 --> 01:06:32.320
to school, but I was what five, six six probably

829
01:06:32.320 --> 01:06:34.719
when I first got my first book, first got my

830
01:06:34.760 --> 01:06:39.679
first book. That's pretty much my only position, actually, that book,

831
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:41.920
and I used to read it over and over and

832
01:06:41.920 --> 01:06:43.719
over and over and over and over and over again.

833
01:06:45.760 --> 01:06:48.159
And then when I went to junior school, this particular

834
01:06:48.280 --> 01:06:52.840
junior school, the one I'm talking about, I'd read and

835
01:06:52.880 --> 01:06:55.920
read and read and read, take the books home, bring

836
01:06:55.960 --> 01:06:59.719
them back, read, you know, I read everything every single

837
01:06:59.760 --> 01:07:04.079
book I had pretty much in their little library. I read,

838
01:07:04.880 --> 01:07:10.239
and yeah, I loved it. Loved reading. That's the only

839
01:07:10.760 --> 01:07:18.400
kind of mildly intelligent thing. Flappy us there. I'm not

840
01:07:18.519 --> 01:07:22.199
saying intelligently, but yeah, the only thing that I really

841
01:07:22.239 --> 01:07:27.599
had is the love of reading. So I'm guessing there

842
01:07:27.639 --> 01:07:30.519
must have been some kind of brain activity going on

843
01:07:31.280 --> 01:07:36.000
inside my head. I don't know what or how much,

844
01:07:36.119 --> 01:07:41.320
but there was something going on. I loved to read.

845
01:07:42.559 --> 01:07:44.800
I'd like to get that passion back because I've kind

846
01:07:44.840 --> 01:07:46.679
of lost it a little bit. I mean, I do

847
01:07:46.800 --> 01:07:52.239
listen to audio books, but it's not the same. I mean,

848
01:07:52.239 --> 01:07:54.480
it can be that. I mean, I wouldn't be saying

849
01:07:54.480 --> 01:07:59.760
that if I was seriously visually impaired. I am visually impaired,

850
01:07:59.760 --> 01:08:05.039
but not seriously, so I think i'd take offense if

851
01:08:05.039 --> 01:08:08.199
people said, oh, you're not reading because you've not actually

852
01:08:08.199 --> 01:08:14.679
seen it with your eyes. But the problem is when

853
01:08:14.679 --> 01:08:16.800
I listen to an audiobook, I do have a tendency

854
01:08:16.840 --> 01:08:24.479
of falling asleep, and I wouldn't class that is reading

855
01:08:24.479 --> 01:08:26.640
the book if I was reading the book, and every time.

856
01:08:28.359 --> 01:08:30.680
The thing is when you read a book, if you

857
01:08:30.720 --> 01:08:33.920
fall asleep reading the book, don't. You're not on like

858
01:08:34.000 --> 01:08:36.319
page forty two, and then when you wake up, you're

859
01:08:36.359 --> 01:08:40.239
on page ninety three. You know, you don't read why

860
01:08:40.239 --> 01:08:42.760
you're asleep, do you? But you can listen while you're asleep,

861
01:08:43.960 --> 01:08:46.640
or the thing can still play. You're not still turning

862
01:08:46.680 --> 01:08:50.079
the pages when you're asleep, and then like, oh, what's happened?

863
01:08:50.119 --> 01:08:52.720
I don't know. It's like I've just gone through thirty

864
01:08:52.760 --> 01:08:56.159
seven pages and I don't know what's happened. Never mind,

865
01:08:56.359 --> 01:09:01.680
that's still classes reading the book. It wouldn't be good.

866
01:09:03.439 --> 01:09:06.119
So I don't know when it comes to listening to

867
01:09:06.199 --> 01:09:10.319
audio books whether that's class the same as reading a book.

868
01:09:11.159 --> 01:09:16.920
I like to think it is, but I don't know.

869
01:09:18.000 --> 01:09:26.359
I don't know. I'm not sure I have read. From

870
01:09:26.479 --> 01:09:32.000
an audiobook perspective, how many audiobooks i've got.

871
01:09:35.439 --> 01:09:35.720
Were's.

872
01:09:37.359 --> 01:09:40.960
I've got three hundred and eighty nine titles in my

873
01:09:41.840 --> 01:09:46.279
in my catalog, I've read more than that because you

874
01:09:46.319 --> 01:09:48.960
get some free. So I've read quite a few that

875
01:09:49.000 --> 01:09:54.239
were free, but recently I've had to go and go

876
01:09:54.279 --> 01:09:57.399
in to read them and they're taking them off. But they

877
01:09:57.439 --> 01:10:01.000
got three hundred and eighty nine, three hundred and eighty

878
01:10:01.039 --> 01:10:07.399
three in my library, all all three hundred and eighty nine,

879
01:10:07.560 --> 01:10:13.760
all but three hundred and eighty three titles. I couldn't

880
01:10:13.800 --> 01:10:17.920
even tell you blind me the thing is a lot

881
01:10:17.920 --> 01:10:24.199
of it is not not story books. Most of it

882
01:10:24.279 --> 01:10:29.359
is kind of self help. I think like the art

883
01:10:29.439 --> 01:10:37.079
of war and philosophy, psychology. Well, I do have the

884
01:10:37.119 --> 01:10:43.319
Beatrix Potter collection as a man thinking of the men,

885
01:10:43.560 --> 01:10:49.840
historic goats, Essentials of social psychology, the power of habit breaking,

886
01:10:49.840 --> 01:10:55.159
the habit of being just self breaking, the habit of

887
01:10:57.000 --> 01:11:02.000
breaking the habit, the habit of being yourself influenced, Knew

888
01:11:02.000 --> 01:11:08.359
and Expanded Art Finish and Artificial Intelligence for Dummies, Borderline

889
01:11:08.359 --> 01:11:14.680
Personality Disorder Never Finished, The eighty twenty Principal chat Chat

890
01:11:14.760 --> 01:11:20.640
GPT Mastery twelve books in one Understanding Disorders of the Brain.

891
01:11:21.199 --> 01:11:24.239
Then You've Got Gold by Zig Ziggler, The Jimp Paradox,

892
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:32.920
Chimp Paradox, Stephen Peters, The Crowd, a Study of Psychology

893
01:11:33.399 --> 01:11:37.600
Under You Got Success, Habits The Law of Success Napoleon Hill,

894
01:11:38.920 --> 01:11:44.720
nineteen gal The Stranger's Secret for Success. And then You've

895
01:11:44.720 --> 01:11:47.720
Got My Voice Will Go with You by Sidney Rosen

896
01:11:48.000 --> 01:11:50.800
As a hypnosis one The Therapist Guide to E D

897
01:11:51.000 --> 01:11:54.279
m R E M d r R, The Coach to

898
01:11:54.319 --> 01:12:01.840
be Disliked, The Complex Borderline Personality Disorder co Cybernetics by

899
01:12:02.960 --> 01:12:09.479
Maxwell Maltz. And then you've got realer imagined Outspark your

900
01:12:09.600 --> 01:12:14.880
outsmite your pain, The TENX mentor that grant cardone, the

901
01:12:14.880 --> 01:12:21.239
ten X Rule, Seven Power Principles for Success, Hypnosis about

902
01:12:21.279 --> 01:12:26.000
Trance by James Tripp, The Essence of Success by L. Nightingale,

903
01:12:26.399 --> 01:12:32.079
The Direct Line by L. Nightingale, Great Ideas by el Nightingale,

904
01:12:32.720 --> 01:12:35.319
The Magic of Thinking Big. So quite a few of

905
01:12:35.319 --> 01:12:38.039
these I've read in the past, but these are audio versions.

906
01:12:38.560 --> 01:12:43.199
Napoleon Hill's Golden Rules by Napoleon Hill, NLP, The ES

907
01:12:43.199 --> 01:12:47.159
Central Guide. I'm pretty sure I listened to that audio

908
01:12:47.159 --> 01:12:51.000
book or that it was an audio recording back in

909
01:12:51.159 --> 01:12:56.239
ninety eight. BlimE me. Hypnosis There's no one understanding, or

910
01:12:56.239 --> 01:13:00.800
as I start here, Advanced Hipnotherapy, Reason to Stay Alive

911
01:13:00.880 --> 01:13:04.800
but by Matt Haig. The Joy of Meditation by Sally

912
01:13:05.079 --> 01:13:09.119
Meryl Bedfield I think her name is. That's the recording

913
01:13:09.680 --> 01:13:16.279
that I listened to back in nineteen no. Two thousand.

914
01:13:16.760 --> 01:13:20.159
In two thousand, I listened to that recording I found it,

915
01:13:21.520 --> 01:13:24.720
and I've got it saved on here. I think I

916
01:13:24.840 --> 01:13:27.359
purchased it as like two could or something. I think,

917
01:13:27.399 --> 01:13:33.600
but love that recording. And you've got the Quantum Revelation,

918
01:13:34.000 --> 01:13:38.119
the Quantum Rules. I forgot about that. I was really

919
01:13:38.159 --> 01:13:42.119
into quantum, wasn't I quantum stuff for a couple of weeks,

920
01:13:42.119 --> 01:13:46.560
and I seem to have, I don't know, seemed to

921
01:13:46.600 --> 01:13:50.039
have moved away from it. I'm really interested in all

922
01:13:50.079 --> 01:13:55.920
that stuff. So you got de pack Chopra Chopra, The

923
01:13:56.039 --> 01:14:01.800
Quantum Doctor, The Power of your subconscious Quantum Entanglement. Quantum Physics.

924
01:14:01.840 --> 01:14:08.479
Simplified Reality is Plastic. That's a hypnosis book. Quantum Physics.

925
01:14:09.199 --> 01:14:11.960
The Mountain is You. Think and Grow Rich. The Pain

926
01:14:12.039 --> 01:14:15.640
Habit Story of Earl Nightingale. That's quite a recent one.

927
01:14:16.239 --> 01:14:20.319
Think and Grow Rich. The Secret Million Dollar Weekend Money,

928
01:14:20.640 --> 01:14:24.520
The Ultimate Bob Propter Library. I'm Worth I've had that

929
01:14:24.560 --> 01:14:28.199
for years that month I'm Worth More by Bob Moore,

930
01:14:29.000 --> 01:14:33.880
Before and Laughter as Jimmy Carr. Napoleon Hill, The Road

931
01:14:33.920 --> 01:14:38.640
to Riches, Napoleon Hill's master Course, The Way Out to

932
01:14:38.680 --> 01:14:44.920
Anyone's Success. Secrets of Success by Brian Brian Brian Brian Tracy,

933
01:14:46.039 --> 01:14:50.880
you are a bad ass at making money, clearly, not

934
01:14:51.319 --> 01:14:55.359
the odds, but Napoleon Hill, Napoleon Hill's Keys to Positivity,

935
01:14:56.159 --> 01:14:58.640
The Power of Ambition, which is what I was listening

936
01:14:58.640 --> 01:15:02.159
to earlier today, it's only three minutes left for that one.

937
01:15:02.880 --> 01:15:07.399
And Beatrix Potter Collection, which I just accidentally clicked on earlier.

938
01:15:08.279 --> 01:15:12.000
That's just some of the ones that I've listened to. Wow,

939
01:15:12.600 --> 01:15:18.359
quite a few. So then that was the junior school.

940
01:15:19.560 --> 01:15:24.359
Then what happened is I moved. I played the violin

941
01:15:24.439 --> 01:15:26.840
in junior school, so that was pretty good. I also

942
01:15:26.960 --> 01:15:34.840
learned to swim, like technically still, I had swimming lessons.

943
01:15:35.199 --> 01:15:37.199
Put it this way, I'm better at swimming than I

944
01:15:37.399 --> 01:15:41.399
was before because when I was I had a bit

945
01:15:41.399 --> 01:15:44.319
of an accident in the swimming pool, not not that

946
01:15:44.399 --> 01:15:50.880
kind of accident, just yeah, I was saved by the lifeguard.

947
01:15:51.640 --> 01:15:53.720
So after that, and that was when I was very little,

948
01:15:53.760 --> 01:15:59.319
probably about four so or maybe five, So I didn't

949
01:15:59.479 --> 01:16:04.520
like I didn't like swimming pools or anything. And the

950
01:16:04.560 --> 01:16:07.640
swimming instructor we actually had a swimming pool in this school,

951
01:16:08.279 --> 01:16:13.840
which is pretty amazing, and the the sw I had

952
01:16:13.840 --> 01:16:18.319
swimming lessons for quite a while, and he was so

953
01:16:18.520 --> 01:16:22.840
patient with me, absolutely lovely. And the good thing about

954
01:16:22.880 --> 01:16:28.800
it is I got to swim, but without having anyone around.

955
01:16:28.800 --> 01:16:30.600
I mean, there was a couple other people having lessons,

956
01:16:31.640 --> 01:16:33.600
but what I found is when everyone got into this

957
01:16:34.159 --> 01:16:36.760
to the swimming pool together, they'll all be jumping on

958
01:16:36.800 --> 01:16:40.520
top of each other. And that was not good for

959
01:16:40.640 --> 01:16:44.000
me because I just didn't feel safe and I didn't

960
01:16:44.000 --> 01:16:48.720
feel comfortable with that. And I also had I had

961
01:16:48.880 --> 01:16:53.720
violin lessons, so I went learned the violin for probably

962
01:16:53.720 --> 01:16:56.199
about a year, maybe a look, maybe longer than a year.

963
01:16:57.119 --> 01:16:59.920
I was at that school for two years, so playing

964
01:17:00.119 --> 01:17:04.920
violin for maybe a year and a half, maybe two years,

965
01:17:04.920 --> 01:17:06.359
I don't know. I think it was at least over

966
01:17:06.399 --> 01:17:10.319
a year anyway. And then I went to high school

967
01:17:10.399 --> 01:17:18.399
when I was eleven, just turned eleven in nineteen eighty one. Yeah,

968
01:17:18.520 --> 01:17:21.479
nineteen eighty one, in September, that's when I went to

969
01:17:21.520 --> 01:17:28.680
high school. And yeah, that was a whole news story.

970
01:17:28.720 --> 01:17:31.600
That was that was weird. I remember we went there

971
01:17:31.600 --> 01:17:35.159
for the afternoon, probably a few months before going there

972
01:17:35.199 --> 01:17:38.279
for properly, just to kind of have a tour of

973
01:17:38.319 --> 01:17:41.279
the place, and that was huge, and I was tiny.

974
01:17:42.399 --> 01:17:44.680
I mean, it just take off two years and that's

975
01:17:44.720 --> 01:17:48.000
the kind of size I was. So I was eleven,

976
01:17:48.039 --> 01:17:49.880
so I looked about the size of a nine year old,

977
01:17:51.079 --> 01:17:55.560
absolutely tiny, and apart from the fact, I was also

978
01:17:55.880 --> 01:17:59.000
one of the youngest there as well, because it had

979
01:17:59.039 --> 01:18:00.880
to be eleven to be an the first year of

980
01:18:00.960 --> 01:18:05.159
high school. But some of the kids, after being there

981
01:18:05.199 --> 01:18:07.960
for a few weeks, a couple of weeks, two three weeks,

982
01:18:08.119 --> 01:18:11.479
would turning twelve, So a lot of the kids were

983
01:18:11.479 --> 01:18:15.359
nearly a year older than me, and that really showed

984
01:18:15.600 --> 01:18:19.479
later on in school. So when like at thirteen, when

985
01:18:19.520 --> 01:18:22.840
I was twelve and they were thirteen, there was there

986
01:18:22.880 --> 01:18:26.000
was a lot of size difference there some kids that

987
01:18:26.079 --> 01:18:29.680
had beards and you know, they were grown like almost

988
01:18:29.720 --> 01:18:33.399
like adults, and I was still a kid. So that

989
01:18:33.479 --> 01:18:40.840
was weird. And yeah, I mean that's a difference as

990
01:18:40.880 --> 01:18:44.239
a whole new conversation that high school. But I just

991
01:18:44.359 --> 01:18:48.760
remember just looking around thinking, Wow, I got lost. I

992
01:18:48.800 --> 01:18:51.680
got lost all the way. For five years, I would

993
01:18:51.680 --> 01:18:56.680
get lost in that place. Honestly, I had to. I

994
01:18:56.720 --> 01:19:00.840
needed help to navigate to know where because we have

995
01:19:00.880 --> 01:19:04.159
a roster, you know what classes we had to go

996
01:19:04.279 --> 01:19:07.600
to and where we needed to be next, and I

997
01:19:07.680 --> 01:19:12.800
needed help. I could find my way around the whole

998
01:19:12.840 --> 01:19:17.039
time I was there. It's just I didn't know what classes,

999
01:19:17.079 --> 01:19:22.920
what number classes they were, and oh, I mean there's

1000
01:19:22.920 --> 01:19:25.479
one I had a different form room, which was like

1001
01:19:25.520 --> 01:19:27.560
where we'd go in the morning and we'd then go

1002
01:19:27.640 --> 01:19:30.000
back at the end of the day to sign and

1003
01:19:30.079 --> 01:19:34.119
kind of sign out kind of, and we could go

1004
01:19:34.159 --> 01:19:36.880
there during breaks, so that I used to just stay

1005
01:19:36.920 --> 01:19:41.520
there during the breaks sometimes because I was worried I

1006
01:19:41.560 --> 01:19:45.880
wouldn't get back in time for lunch, or after lunch,

1007
01:19:45.880 --> 01:19:55.680
we had to go back there as well. I think, yeah,

1008
01:19:55.720 --> 01:19:59.960
anyway that I think that school deserves a boring record

1009
01:20:00.199 --> 01:20:04.600
on its own. But there was good thing. I liked

1010
01:20:04.840 --> 01:20:07.239
all of the junior schools. The three junior schools that

1011
01:20:07.279 --> 01:20:13.439
I remember, I liked all of them. I liked the

1012
01:20:13.479 --> 01:20:19.560
second one more than the first one because I made

1013
01:20:19.640 --> 01:20:28.279
some new friends and at that time, the home, the

1014
01:20:28.359 --> 01:20:31.079
home situation was as good as a school situation. It

1015
01:20:31.199 --> 01:20:34.800
was just really nice. Everything was nice. So that was

1016
01:20:34.840 --> 01:20:38.800
my favorite. That's my favorite time during childhood really roundup

1017
01:20:38.920 --> 01:20:44.199
age of eight, between eight and nine, well between seven

1018
01:20:44.239 --> 01:20:50.560
and nine really, because we was also evenized in the

1019
01:20:50.560 --> 01:20:53.960
other school and everything. So that period of time, those

1020
01:20:54.000 --> 01:21:01.720
two years, but between eight and nine. Like I'm not

1021
01:21:01.720 --> 01:21:06.600
saying it's like a Disney movie, but it was also

1022
01:21:06.680 --> 01:21:08.720
like a Disney movie. But it was not. I liked it.

1023
01:21:08.600 --> 01:21:08.920
It was.

1024
01:21:08.960 --> 01:21:15.479
Everything was very simple, you know. We lived in a

1025
01:21:15.560 --> 01:21:19.119
new house. Nothing needed to be done. Everything was good.

1026
01:21:19.199 --> 01:21:23.239
We had snow. I built an iceberg, not not an iceberg,

1027
01:21:23.279 --> 01:21:28.039
an igloo. You know. It was good. We used to

1028
01:21:28.199 --> 01:21:30.239
used to hang around all the others, the kids that

1029
01:21:30.319 --> 01:21:33.199
were local. We used to go into the fields and

1030
01:21:33.399 --> 01:21:36.479
jump out of trees, climb trees, things like that. I

1031
01:21:36.520 --> 01:21:38.359
used to get pushed out of trees. It was. It

1032
01:21:38.840 --> 01:21:42.319
was fun. We used to climb into trees to get

1033
01:21:42.319 --> 01:21:43.239
away from the other kids.

1034
01:21:43.239 --> 01:21:43.479
It was.

1035
01:21:43.720 --> 01:21:48.039
It was good fun. So then then we moved. It

1036
01:21:48.119 --> 01:21:50.800
was weird because my name and grand they'd moved in

1037
01:21:50.960 --> 01:21:54.560
straight away to that house from London, and we moved

1038
01:21:54.600 --> 01:21:58.399
into a bigger house because of the family growing. So

1039
01:21:58.439 --> 01:22:02.600
I'd be backing forward to that house constantly. So for

1040
01:22:02.640 --> 01:22:05.920
a short while, I would keep contact with my friends

1041
01:22:06.800 --> 01:22:10.840
Ian and Andrew. Ian was my bestest friend. Andrew was

1042
01:22:11.359 --> 01:22:15.920
another good friend that lived few doors up. Andrew lived

1043
01:22:16.960 --> 01:22:19.880
just around the corner. Literally it was like a minute's walk.

1044
01:22:21.319 --> 01:22:24.920
But as time went by, I wasn't at school with

1045
01:22:24.960 --> 01:22:32.000
him anymore, and I kind of lost contact with him.

1046
01:22:32.199 --> 01:22:35.199
But for some reason I kept contact with Andrew because

1047
01:22:35.920 --> 01:22:38.760
because he lived literally two three doors up, I used

1048
01:22:38.760 --> 01:22:41.520
to see him or see his mum and dad and

1049
01:22:41.560 --> 01:22:44.640
they were friends with my nan and granddad. They so

1050
01:22:44.800 --> 01:22:47.560
it's kind of kind of kept in contact with him

1051
01:22:48.359 --> 01:22:51.039
into my early twenties. Still used to visit him in

1052
01:22:51.039 --> 01:22:54.960
my early twenties, which bearing in mind, I moved out

1053
01:22:54.960 --> 01:22:58.520
of that place when I was nine, so was that

1054
01:22:58.840 --> 01:23:02.880
nineteen to so yeah, over probably fift thirteen fourteen years.

1055
01:23:03.920 --> 01:23:05.880
But I lost contact of Ian. And he was my

1056
01:23:05.960 --> 01:23:11.279
bestest friend's and he was on the same date of

1057
01:23:11.359 --> 01:23:14.920
birth as me, but my name. You should tell me

1058
01:23:14.960 --> 01:23:17.640
stuff because she kind of knew what's going on around

1059
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:20.399
and she'd sort of update me on how he was doing.

1060
01:23:20.800 --> 01:23:25.840
Even in my thirties. She'd tell, oh, yeah, he's he's

1061
01:23:25.840 --> 01:23:28.239
got married or whatever, and she just keep up to

1062
01:23:28.319 --> 01:23:31.439
date with some of the kids that are now like

1063
01:23:31.960 --> 01:23:37.239
fully grown adults what they're up to. But it's weird

1064
01:23:37.319 --> 01:23:44.520
because that it's just I don't know why we kind

1065
01:23:44.560 --> 01:23:47.840
of didn't keep in touch. Maybe it's just a bit harder,

1066
01:23:47.880 --> 01:23:50.680
you know, but it was so close to me and

1067
01:23:51.239 --> 01:23:54.359
really close. And then I got my new best friend,

1068
01:23:54.399 --> 01:23:57.359
Dean in high school now in junior school. That the

1069
01:23:57.439 --> 01:24:01.359
last two years of junior school and most of the

1070
01:24:01.399 --> 01:24:05.439
way through high school. In the last year of high school,

1071
01:24:05.640 --> 01:24:10.399
we became a little bit estranged, you know. I think

1072
01:24:10.479 --> 01:24:15.000
there was yeah, we didn't get on so well, but

1073
01:24:15.600 --> 01:24:21.960
all the years previous to that we were inseparable. It's yeah,

1074
01:24:22.840 --> 01:24:26.800
so that was what's that. Another friend called Ian no

1075
01:24:27.319 --> 01:24:29.880
Ivan who lived around the corner used to come to

1076
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:34.680
my house, and another friend Neil. So it's really I

1077
01:24:34.720 --> 01:24:39.680
had three friends that were known by my family that

1078
01:24:39.760 --> 01:24:43.000
were welcome in the house to come visit, and you know,

1079
01:24:43.119 --> 01:24:45.279
they'd just like, go upstairs is upstairs, so they just

1080
01:24:45.319 --> 01:24:50.319
come up. So I had three three friends and that's

1081
01:24:50.359 --> 01:24:54.640
the only friends I had that I'm pretty sure they

1082
01:24:54.640 --> 01:24:56.239
would just walk in the back. To be fair, I

1083
01:24:56.239 --> 01:24:58.159
don't think they'd even knock on the front door. Walk

1084
01:24:58.159 --> 01:25:03.039
in the back and knock on the back door, or

1085
01:25:03.119 --> 01:25:07.640
shout up at my bedroom standing in the little alleyway.

1086
01:25:07.800 --> 01:25:12.479
Oy juicy, are you there? One of them did sound

1087
01:25:12.560 --> 01:25:18.399
like a like a pirate, and that was Ian, not

1088
01:25:18.439 --> 01:25:23.640
like Ian Ivan, So they were cool. I had other friends,

1089
01:25:23.640 --> 01:25:25.720
but I didn't. I used to go around Pill's houses

1090
01:25:25.760 --> 01:25:30.199
and get banned from the wasn't allowed to go around anymore,

1091
01:25:31.439 --> 01:25:34.520
never allowed to go into well, I'm not allowed to

1092
01:25:34.600 --> 01:25:40.399
go into. But Dean's dad didn't like me, so it

1093
01:25:40.479 --> 01:25:42.760
was always like, way on the doorstep, I'll go and

1094
01:25:42.760 --> 01:25:46.239
get him, and he let I went in once. But

1095
01:25:46.319 --> 01:25:49.199
he did live in an old people's home like he was.

1096
01:25:49.279 --> 01:25:54.039
That was the family business, so I didn't care about that.

1097
01:25:54.119 --> 01:25:57.680
But I don't think that just didn't. He didn't didn't

1098
01:25:57.680 --> 01:26:05.000
take to me, but my parents let it. Literally, Dean

1099
01:26:05.039 --> 01:26:09.319
would just come in to go upstairs. He was, in

1100
01:26:09.359 --> 01:26:13.319
some ways I think, part of the family really. Yeah,

1101
01:26:13.359 --> 01:26:16.800
we were always together, and then Neil was a bit

1102
01:26:16.880 --> 01:26:18.640
like that as well. Niel just used to come around

1103
01:26:19.119 --> 01:26:21.920
and he'd come up, and the same with Ivan. But

1104
01:26:21.960 --> 01:26:23.840
they were the only three really that I used to

1105
01:26:23.920 --> 01:26:30.800
have come around regularly to my house and I'd go

1106
01:26:30.840 --> 01:26:34.000
around Ivans, but I didn't used to hang around in

1107
01:26:34.039 --> 01:26:36.880
his house, but I used to wait for him and

1108
01:26:36.920 --> 01:26:38.319
his mom was lovely. He used to talk to his

1109
01:26:38.439 --> 01:26:41.680
mum and it is yeah, Ivan's mom was lovely. He

1110
01:26:41.720 --> 01:26:44.199
had two older brothers I think that were into motorbikes.

1111
01:26:44.239 --> 01:26:46.359
But he was a good bloke. He was a good

1112
01:26:46.439 --> 01:26:48.880
lad and that his brothers were nice. And his mom

1113
01:26:48.960 --> 01:26:54.479
was absolutely lovely, so friendly, and so he was well

1114
01:26:54.479 --> 01:26:57.479
promeed my house as well, but I didn't used to

1115
01:26:57.520 --> 01:27:01.000
spend too much time in his house. Used to be

1116
01:27:01.079 --> 01:27:04.079
just like waiting for him and would go out and

1117
01:27:04.119 --> 01:27:09.439
then Ian. So I wasn't allowed really into Dean's house.

1118
01:27:10.920 --> 01:27:15.399
But Neil and I don't know why, but his parents

1119
01:27:15.560 --> 01:27:17.920
liked me. They just welcomed me. I don't think they

1120
01:27:18.039 --> 01:27:19.920
liked They just put up with me. They tolerated me,

1121
01:27:21.720 --> 01:27:24.520
and they'd let me in, always always let me in.

1122
01:27:25.039 --> 01:27:28.840
I'd stay over, we'd go in the garden, we'd cause

1123
01:27:28.960 --> 01:27:35.039
trouble and they just kept letting me. They just let

1124
01:27:35.079 --> 01:27:38.399
me in. And they were lovely, both of them, both

1125
01:27:38.399 --> 01:27:41.840
the father and the mother both lovely. And when I

1126
01:27:41.880 --> 01:27:46.319
got when I moved into the chip shop flat above

1127
01:27:46.319 --> 01:27:49.439
the flat when I was sixteen, they gave me stuff

1128
01:27:49.439 --> 01:27:53.039
for the flat. I could, you know, toaster, cutlery, stuff

1129
01:27:53.079 --> 01:27:57.920
like that. It's lovely. And this is after some of

1130
01:27:57.960 --> 01:27:59.720
the weird stuff I got up to in their house.

1131
01:28:00.920 --> 01:28:03.680
I mean, once I got drunk, or we all got drunk,

1132
01:28:03.720 --> 01:28:06.960
but I got particularly drunk, and for some reason we

1133
01:28:07.359 --> 01:28:09.960
thought it would be a funny thing to I think

1134
01:28:10.000 --> 01:28:14.880
it was about fifteen fourteen maybe, and we thought it'd

1135
01:28:14.920 --> 01:28:17.239
be funny too, because we had like a half day

1136
01:28:17.960 --> 01:28:20.760
I think it was a school teacher strike or something

1137
01:28:20.800 --> 01:28:26.800
like that, and we went around to me. Dean and

1138
01:28:26.960 --> 01:28:31.199
Neil were there in Neil's house. We thought, let's raid

1139
01:28:31.399 --> 01:28:37.079
the alcohol cupboard. So we were drinking out of pint

1140
01:28:37.159 --> 01:28:41.479
glasses and just mixing everything. Really silly idea to do,

1141
01:28:41.680 --> 01:28:44.199
very very dangerous as well, so I would never do

1142
01:28:44.279 --> 01:28:50.720
that now, but I did on that occasion, and I

1143
01:28:50.760 --> 01:28:53.399
don't The other two got drunk, but not like I got.

1144
01:28:56.399 --> 01:28:59.319
They thought it'd be a funny idea to take me

1145
01:28:59.439 --> 01:29:03.600
up to their mom and dad's his mom and dad's

1146
01:29:03.600 --> 01:29:08.520
bed and wrapped me in the douvet like a sausage roll. Okay,

1147
01:29:08.920 --> 01:29:12.720
wrapped me in the douvet. And that was not a

1148
01:29:12.720 --> 01:29:16.239
good idea because, as I kept saying to them, I

1149
01:29:16.359 --> 01:29:21.399
need to get to the bathroom. So I won't really

1150
01:29:21.439 --> 01:29:23.439
go into what happens next, but I made a real

1151
01:29:23.560 --> 01:29:29.800
mess of the bed, the bed in the the house. Really,

1152
01:29:30.319 --> 01:29:33.760
I mean I was because I was very drunk. I

1153
01:29:33.840 --> 01:29:43.520
completely destroyed the house and then I left. They thought

1154
01:29:43.520 --> 01:29:47.119
it was hilarious, not the parents. I never saw the

1155
01:29:47.159 --> 01:29:52.239
parents result reaction because they weren't there. They were at work.

1156
01:29:53.039 --> 01:29:55.920
I left and did my paper round and then I

1157
01:29:55.960 --> 01:30:01.560
went home, went to bed, and then I got up

1158
01:30:01.720 --> 01:30:10.159
about half six and it was dinner time, and I

1159
01:30:10.199 --> 01:30:13.199
had boiled X that was my dinner. I did not

1160
01:30:13.279 --> 01:30:15.760
want eggs. Eggs was the one thing I'm probably out

1161
01:30:15.760 --> 01:30:17.680
of the whole world of food. I did not want

1162
01:30:17.720 --> 01:30:21.640
to eat. And I had a headache. And Tucker's Luck

1163
01:30:21.720 --> 01:30:25.319
was on TV, so I can guess get the actual

1164
01:30:25.439 --> 01:30:29.600
year from Tucker's Luck. Tucker's Luck used to be on

1165
01:30:29.800 --> 01:30:35.640
BBC two. Tucker's Luck BBC two. I'm sure it was

1166
01:30:35.720 --> 01:30:42.119
used to be on a Tuesday BBC two. Tucker's Luck

1167
01:30:44.520 --> 01:30:46.880
is eighty three to eighty five. Tucker's Luck was on,

1168
01:30:48.479 --> 01:30:56.000
so I wonder if it tells me okay. Series three

1169
01:30:56.159 --> 01:30:59.159
went on to twenty second of October nineteen eighty five,

1170
01:31:00.199 --> 01:31:06.520
so I would have been just turned fifteen at that point,

1171
01:31:07.920 --> 01:31:09.720
so I reckon it was probably a little bit before that,

1172
01:31:09.880 --> 01:31:13.079
when I was about fourteen, and he used to be

1173
01:31:13.479 --> 01:31:21.000
On thirteenth of March. I wonder if it's a it's

1174
01:31:21.000 --> 01:31:22.760
going to bug me down. I'm sure it's a Tuesday

1175
01:31:22.840 --> 01:31:26.800
or Wednesday. I don't know why, but I just had

1176
01:31:26.840 --> 01:31:38.800
this feeling, Oh my goodness, wow, thirteenth of March. Okay,

1177
01:31:39.239 --> 01:31:43.319
and this was this is the second series of Tucker's Luck.

1178
01:31:44.479 --> 01:31:49.039
Tucker's Luck, second series, episode one, so it might have

1179
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:51.079
been anyway. It was the same day of the week,

1180
01:31:51.119 --> 01:31:54.199
so it might have been a different episode, but it

1181
01:31:54.279 --> 01:31:58.920
was a Tuesday. In fact, let's have a look at

1182
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:03.960
the tenth of tenth of March Cebra or not. Now

1183
01:32:03.960 --> 01:32:08.760
it's nineteen eighty three, so let's just look at this one.

1184
01:32:11.720 --> 01:32:16.960
That was a Thursday. So that was the very first

1185
01:32:17.039 --> 01:32:28.800
series and the third series. For some reason, the date's

1186
01:32:28.840 --> 01:32:31.840
not coming up, Oh yeah it is. That was a Tuesday.

1187
01:32:32.520 --> 01:32:37.199
So the first and the second and third series was

1188
01:32:37.239 --> 01:32:42.920
on a Tuesday. First series was on a Wednesday Thursday rather,

1189
01:32:43.760 --> 01:32:50.279
so I'm pretty certain it would have been eighty four. Wow,

1190
01:32:50.399 --> 01:32:57.720
So I was fourteen, probably four thirteen, fourteen fourteen, probably,

1191
01:33:00.079 --> 01:33:08.159
and they was still lovely to me, like just fat.

1192
01:33:07.880 --> 01:33:09.960
I'm sure they didn't find it funny, but it was

1193
01:33:09.960 --> 01:33:12.359
one of those things that just for some reason they

1194
01:33:12.399 --> 01:33:15.960
were just nice. And I did get banned from some

1195
01:33:16.079 --> 01:33:18.720
of the people, like friends from school. I'd go around

1196
01:33:18.720 --> 01:33:22.680
their houses and get told I wasn't allowed to go

1197
01:33:22.760 --> 01:33:26.720
back because I don't know, say the wrong thing, do

1198
01:33:26.800 --> 01:33:32.880
the wrong thing, whatever, And I'm going. There was this

1199
01:33:32.920 --> 01:33:37.000
one kid and he had this big pile of mud

1200
01:33:38.399 --> 01:33:42.399
and decided he wanted to wrestle, so I kept climbing

1201
01:33:42.399 --> 01:33:49.000
onto the parlor, jumping onto him, and his mum didn't

1202
01:33:49.159 --> 01:33:53.800
like it. Apparently I was getting too excited, Like kay,

1203
01:33:53.800 --> 01:34:00.239
I should rephrase out, but I was getting excited. Yeah,

1204
01:34:00.239 --> 01:34:01.920
I was just like getting pumped up, and I was

1205
01:34:02.279 --> 01:34:05.880
perhaps being a bit too over the top, maybe too

1206
01:34:06.199 --> 01:34:08.199
Maybe it seemed like I was being aggressive or whatever,

1207
01:34:08.239 --> 01:34:10.600
but I was just like running up and.

1208
01:34:10.560 --> 01:34:14.239
Jump in and you know, I didn't have a sword

1209
01:34:14.359 --> 01:34:16.920
or anything, but I was I definitely thought I was

1210
01:34:16.960 --> 01:34:19.399
a Viking. I think at the time I was going

1211
01:34:19.439 --> 01:34:24.680
through a little Viking phrase phrase phase phrase.

1212
01:34:29.600 --> 01:34:31.479
There was another two. Yeah, I remember I went around

1213
01:34:31.479 --> 01:34:35.039
another kid's house, and I wasn't annowed to go back

1214
01:34:35.079 --> 01:34:40.279
there again. My favorite place, the favorite place I ever

1215
01:34:40.319 --> 01:34:45.000
went to was this girl's I really liked that and

1216
01:34:45.039 --> 01:34:47.079
I was hoping that she was going to be my girlfriend.

1217
01:34:47.119 --> 01:34:50.199
And she invited me to a birthday party. And it

1218
01:34:50.279 --> 01:34:55.840
was the first birthday party, probably the only birthday party

1219
01:34:55.880 --> 01:34:59.000
I was ever invited to as a kid, Not that

1220
01:34:59.039 --> 01:35:02.039
I've really been invited to many as an adult, eva really,

1221
01:35:02.399 --> 01:35:05.159
but that was the first one, first and only one.

1222
01:35:06.439 --> 01:35:09.399
And I was in this Her dad was like a vicar,

1223
01:35:09.880 --> 01:35:12.640
so it was in this not monastery, but vicary. Just

1224
01:35:12.680 --> 01:35:17.119
said huge house, huge house. And I went to a

1225
01:35:17.119 --> 01:35:22.399
birthday party and I was probably in the first year

1226
01:35:22.880 --> 01:35:24.840
put it the first year of high school. I'd say,

1227
01:35:25.800 --> 01:35:31.359
I think. And I loved her, okay, And she took

1228
01:35:31.439 --> 01:35:35.720
me aside and said just two things. I said, yeah,

1229
01:35:36.159 --> 01:35:39.439
what can you stop looking through my under my underwear

1230
01:35:39.479 --> 01:35:42.560
draw please? And I said, okay, what's the second thing?

1231
01:35:43.479 --> 01:35:47.159
She said, I'm moving. I said, just because at the

1232
01:35:47.239 --> 01:35:48.880
end of it, I was just I was looking for

1233
01:35:48.920 --> 01:35:59.800
some binoculars. She said, why, why this is a weird

1234
01:36:00.079 --> 01:36:06.079
can't you bother? Why would my binoculars be in your underwear, dwells,

1235
01:36:06.199 --> 01:36:14.720
that's what I keep mine. Okay, So I didn't, I

1236
01:36:14.800 --> 01:36:16.880
wasn't looking through, but I did do that as an

1237
01:36:16.880 --> 01:36:19.359
older age. Yeah, I got kicked out of a few

1238
01:36:19.359 --> 01:36:23.039
people's houses for that as well. But that's enough of

1239
01:36:23.079 --> 01:36:26.800
my date in history in my twenties. So I yeah,

1240
01:36:26.840 --> 01:36:31.399
so I'm just basically, she takes me aside and said

1241
01:36:31.800 --> 01:36:37.600
I've got some news. I said, okay, I thought weird.

1242
01:36:38.399 --> 01:36:42.840
She said, I'm moving away. I said, what do you mean, well,

1243
01:36:43.079 --> 01:36:45.920
because this is just at the end of school, the

1244
01:36:46.359 --> 01:36:48.439
school break, and said, oh, I'm not coming back to

1245
01:36:48.439 --> 01:36:52.960
school again. I'm moving. My parents are moving to a

1246
01:36:53.000 --> 01:36:56.880
different district. He's going to be a vicar of a

1247
01:36:56.920 --> 01:37:01.880
different place the other side of the country. And she

1248
01:37:02.000 --> 01:37:11.319
seemed generally genuinely concerned for my welfare, for my well being.

1249
01:37:12.880 --> 01:37:15.960
So I think she might have liked me a bit.

1250
01:37:16.119 --> 01:37:18.279
I know it's very both very young. We were like

1251
01:37:18.279 --> 01:37:22.560
eleven twelve or whatever, but just like, it was so

1252
01:37:22.760 --> 01:37:25.239
nice the fact that she invited me to a birthday party,

1253
01:37:26.000 --> 01:37:28.800
and also that she told me that she was moving away,

1254
01:37:28.840 --> 01:37:32.199
and she seemed to care that she was moving away.

1255
01:37:34.399 --> 01:37:36.119
And I said, well, we can still keep in touch.

1256
01:37:36.239 --> 01:37:39.800
She said, Nah, I don't really want to. I said, okay,

1257
01:37:40.039 --> 01:37:42.119
that's to be fair. I think that's sport the moment,

1258
01:37:42.760 --> 01:37:47.079
it did, and I think her trying to push me

1259
01:37:47.159 --> 01:37:51.239
out of a window didn't help either. But I just yeah,

1260
01:37:51.279 --> 01:37:53.600
but before that, it was romantic, not romantic, but it

1261
01:37:53.640 --> 01:38:00.720
was kind of nice. Yeah, there was a bit of

1262
01:38:00.720 --> 01:38:05.439
a problem with the toilet lid. And when I got

1263
01:38:05.479 --> 01:38:10.560
back to school after the holiday, the school holidays, there

1264
01:38:10.600 --> 01:38:13.159
was a few other kids that were at that party.

1265
01:38:13.520 --> 01:38:15.479
I want to keep going on about as about the

1266
01:38:15.520 --> 01:38:21.239
blocked toilet, and whenever they mentioned block toilets for the

1267
01:38:21.279 --> 01:38:23.479
next four years of school, everyone would look at me,

1268
01:38:24.760 --> 01:38:28.479
even if the toilet. You know. So I mentioned block

1269
01:38:28.560 --> 01:38:32.199
toilets in a different classroom where I wasn't even there.

1270
01:38:33.319 --> 01:38:36.279
Everyone would walk from that classroom to the other side

1271
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:38.960
of the school and look in the door and look

1272
01:38:39.000 --> 01:38:40.960
at me. Some people would go out out the front

1273
01:38:41.079 --> 01:38:43.520
or at the side, look through the window and look

1274
01:38:43.560 --> 01:38:47.800
at me and then walk off. It was a very strange,

1275
01:38:48.600 --> 01:38:54.119
strange environment. I had nothing to do with the block toilet. Okay,

1276
01:38:54.960 --> 01:38:59.640
maybe I did. I think sometimes block toilets just it's

1277
01:38:59.640 --> 01:39:04.039
just not sometimes. I mean, I don't think toilets are

1278
01:39:04.319 --> 01:39:07.880
or they're not suited for all sizes, are they? You know,

1279
01:39:09.159 --> 01:39:14.680
there's sometimes just needed a wider I was going to

1280
01:39:14.720 --> 01:39:16.680
say a bigger mouth, but that's probably not the right

1281
01:39:16.760 --> 01:39:21.079
term for a toilet. Is it a bigger it's you know, yeah,

1282
01:39:21.600 --> 01:39:23.399
it's like when you're hungry. It'd be nicer if we

1283
01:39:23.439 --> 01:39:26.600
had a bigger hole to put the food in when

1284
01:39:26.600 --> 01:39:32.119
we were really really hungry. Mind, I suppose we are

1285
01:39:32.159 --> 01:39:35.560
supposed to chew on we technically.

1286
01:39:39.279 --> 01:39:39.479
Right.

1287
01:39:39.880 --> 01:39:42.920
I've talked for much longer than I expected because this

1288
01:39:43.079 --> 01:39:45.239
was supposed to be not supposed to be, but I

1289
01:39:45.279 --> 01:39:53.199
was hoping to eat, to get some food, and a

1290
01:39:53.239 --> 01:39:57.640
little bit earlier than this. Because it's now nearly half

1291
01:39:57.680 --> 01:40:02.279
past eight, I've been talking for well over an hour,

1292
01:40:02.359 --> 01:40:07.279
probably over an hour and a half, I think, maybe

1293
01:40:07.319 --> 01:40:12.399
even longer than that. And I still didn't manage to

1294
01:40:12.399 --> 01:40:18.279
cover all the schools. So this is Monday's boring objects schools,

1295
01:40:19.600 --> 01:40:25.680
junior schools. So that's it. That's the end of this recording.

1296
01:40:26.600 --> 01:40:29.199
It's I hope it's been as exciting for you as

1297
01:40:29.239 --> 01:40:38.000
it as it was for me. So please remember to

1298
01:40:38.000 --> 01:40:41.199
be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be

1299
01:40:41.279 --> 01:40:47.079
happy and remember to be gentle with yourself. You deserve

1300
01:40:47.199 --> 01:40:51.600
to feel safe, lots of love.

1301
01:40:54.479 --> 01:40:54.840
Bye.

1302
01:41:00.399 --> 01:41:14.960
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1303
01:41:15.000 --> 01:41:20.560
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1304
01:41:21.920 --> 01:41:31.159
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1305
01:41:33.199 --> 01:41:38.880
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1306
01:41:38.880 --> 01:41:45.560
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1307
01:41:45.760 --> 01:42:00.640
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1308
01:42:00.760 --> 01:42:20.560
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1309
01:42:20.640 --> 01:42:31.199
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1310
01:42:34.079 --> 01:42:41.359
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1311
01:42:43.279 --> 01:42:56.760
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1312
01:42:56.920 --> 01:43:02.159
find like some people do, and myself as well. Sometimes

1313
01:43:02.199 --> 01:43:08.479
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1314
01:43:12.840 --> 01:43:15.319
and I just listen to it over and over again

1315
01:43:17.479 --> 01:43:30.520
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1316
01:43:30.520 --> 01:43:35.239
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it

1317
01:43:35.279 --> 01:43:40.279
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It kind

1318
01:43:40.279 --> 01:43:47.399
of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find it

1319
01:43:47.479 --> 01:43:51.359
again and it still has the same effect on me.

1320
01:43:54.000 --> 01:44:03.600
And part of it was the persons for this relaxed

1321
01:44:03.640 --> 01:44:13.760
me just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to

1322
01:44:13.920 --> 01:44:20.359
listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

1323
01:44:26.760 --> 01:44:35.760
And I knew before even pressing the play button that

1324
01:44:36.119 --> 01:44:40.479
since I've done that, pressed the play button. This was

1325
01:44:40.880 --> 01:44:51.880
in the days of CD players pressed the play button.

1326
01:44:55.279 --> 01:44:58.119
In fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

1327
01:44:59.359 --> 01:45:07.199
I'd lie to out on the bed and then even

1328
01:45:07.319 --> 01:45:21.279
without necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1329
01:45:25.960 --> 01:45:31.960
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1330
01:45:36.720 --> 01:45:58.520
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1331
01:45:58.680 --> 01:46:12.039
I remember my mind and would slow down. Now. Now,

1332
01:46:12.279 --> 01:46:18.840
I was listening to this recording in the early days

1333
01:46:18.880 --> 01:46:27.159
of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any

1334
01:46:29.039 --> 01:46:34.479
videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing

1335
01:46:34.520 --> 01:46:48.560
that till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew

1336
01:46:48.880 --> 01:47:01.680
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1337
01:47:04.640 --> 01:47:10.079
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1338
01:47:17.720 --> 01:47:24.479
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1339
01:47:25.880 --> 01:47:35.279
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1340
01:47:35.359 --> 01:47:46.960
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1341
01:47:47.039 --> 01:48:00.960
me for over a decade. Maybe not solidly, obviously not

1342
01:48:01.000 --> 01:48:07.319
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1343
01:48:09.119 --> 01:48:24.199
Some people maybe listen every day. There's something that I

1344
01:48:24.239 --> 01:48:35.319
do which you may not realize by listening.

1345
01:48:35.800 --> 01:48:36.039
Is.

1346
01:48:40.000 --> 01:48:55.000
When I record these recordings now, for example, I also

1347
01:48:55.800 --> 01:49:07.039
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1348
01:49:07.079 --> 01:49:16.239
I set to you focus on your feet, notice your

1349
01:49:16.279 --> 01:49:28.239
feet relaxing. I will be focusing on my feet. I

1350
01:49:28.319 --> 01:49:46.119
will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus

1351
01:49:46.159 --> 01:49:57.199
on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between each hand.

1352
01:49:58.199 --> 01:50:04.920
Perhaps notice the the air in the room, the temperature

1353
01:50:05.000 --> 01:50:16.880
of the room. On the backs of your hands. You

1354
01:50:17.000 --> 01:50:21.039
may start to notice what almost feels like a very

1355
01:50:21.239 --> 01:50:29.600
light breeze, even though there may not be any type

1356
01:50:29.600 --> 01:50:42.520
of breeze at all where you are right now. And

1357
01:50:42.600 --> 01:50:53.840
as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware

1358
01:50:56.479 --> 01:51:05.119
of how relaxed my hands are feeling.

1359
01:51:06.479 --> 01:51:06.800
Now.

1360
01:51:21.479 --> 01:51:27.319
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

1361
01:51:28.399 --> 01:51:41.000
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

1362
01:51:41.159 --> 01:51:55.359
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

1363
01:51:55.680 --> 01:52:11.960
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

1364
01:52:17.560 --> 01:52:31.760
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking and

1365
01:52:31.840 --> 01:52:37.279
it's only when I listen back to do the editing

1366
01:52:41.039 --> 01:52:47.159
I hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring.

1367
01:52:50.439 --> 01:52:57.279
I remember talking. This snoring was a pig turned up.

1368
01:53:01.279 --> 01:53:08.760
That's why I sound like when I snore. How I

1369
01:53:08.760 --> 01:53:22.239
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

1370
01:53:22.359 --> 01:53:31.600
you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

1371
01:53:34.720 --> 01:53:57.600
how relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

1372
01:54:00.199 --> 01:54:16.439
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1373
01:54:16.680 --> 01:54:34.000
comfort you feel, the easier you're breathing becomes. It's almost

1374
01:54:34.279 --> 01:54:54.600
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

1375
01:54:54.800 --> 01:55:21.199
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being

1376
01:55:21.239 --> 01:55:37.880
able to notice the ease.

1377
01:55:40.840 --> 01:55:41.680
In which.

1378
01:55:48.960 --> 01:56:11.640
You breathe so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1379
01:56:39.319 --> 01:56:58.199
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1380
01:57:04.239 --> 01:57:17.119
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1381
01:57:17.359 --> 01:57:56.880
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice

1382
01:57:57.600 --> 01:58:12.760
two if nothing thing else, just taking some time away

1383
01:58:17.479 --> 01:59:00.760
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a

1384
01:59:01.119 --> 01:59:53.039
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by so very slowly, relaxed,

1385
01:59:58.920 --> 02:00:33.640
so deep, play peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever

1386
02:00:38.000 --> 02:01:40.960
in this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has

1387
02:01:41.239 --> 02:02:20.800
slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention.

1388
02:02:37.239 --> 02:02:51.560
You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress

1389
02:02:51.880 --> 02:03:03.520
to rip out of your body, to appear out of

1390
02:03:04.039 --> 02:03:33.279
every part of your body, and being released from your brain.

1391
02:03:38.680 --> 02:04:13.720
N your mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your

1392
02:04:13.880 --> 02:05:00.159
legs relax rs R so very deep thing ruh, yes,

1393
02:05:05.039 --> 02:05:30.479
so deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1394
02:05:30.760 --> 02:05:58.560
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1395
02:06:03.520 --> 02:06:36.880
and deeper and deeper. Noticin the feelings in the back

1396
02:06:36.920 --> 02:07:39.279
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles in front

1397
02:07:39.359 --> 02:08:33.239
of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a

1398
02:08:33.399 --> 02:08:43.159
sense of peace spreads through your fairy core.

1399
02:09:13.720 --> 02:09:15.239
Even when you.

1400
02:09:18.119 --> 02:09:42.880
Focus on your mind, your mind becomes beve and slower,

1401
02:09:58.800 --> 02:11:18.479
even deep, relaxing, so very slow, your stomach peace for

1402
02:11:18.880 --> 02:11:20.560
in your stomach.

1403
02:11:42.079 --> 02:11:42.760
You're back.

1404
02:11:48.159 --> 02:12:07.319
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel.

1405
02:12:16.119 --> 02:12:18.159
In the hole of your back.

1406
02:12:43.319 --> 02:12:52.439
Your spy from your brain all the way down the

1407
02:12:52.479 --> 02:13:03.199
middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages

1408
02:13:03.880 --> 02:14:30.359
every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, legs,

1409
02:14:34.279 --> 02:14:43.520
spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air,

1410
02:14:43.800 --> 02:15:03.319
every part of your body, your shins, and your half muscles.

1411
02:15:30.439 --> 02:15:59.199
We are outbows, feelings of peace and tranquility, spreading through

1412
02:15:59.319 --> 02:16:16.680
your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers,

1413
02:16:21.000 --> 02:17:07.079
all the way till you'll lower back. M lettiner retinker peace,

1414
02:17:22.840 --> 02:17:53.520
drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go, let

1415
02:17:53.559 --> 02:18:59.000
go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body enjoying

1416
02:18:59.040 --> 02:21:21.159
a sense of listening God, heph more he enjoying the space,

1417
02:21:23.520 --> 02:21:25.319
this space.

1418
02:21:27.840 --> 02:21:29.000
Of peace.

1419
02:21:32.159 --> 02:21:48.639
And safety.

1420
02:21:55.959 --> 02:23:35.799
So fary, hey y, letting go.

1421
02:23:53.719 --> 02:24:01.399
Maybe we can just focus on the different ah, save

1422
02:24:01.479 --> 02:25:09.319
your body, Just to notice your forehead and your eyes mutual,

1423
02:25:14.920 --> 02:26:42.000
so loose, noticing in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, es.

1424
02:26:54.520 --> 02:27:45.520
Y, peace, for energy, peace to.

1425
02:27:45.719 --> 02:27:52.479
Breathe, so much easier.

1426
02:28:33.959 --> 02:29:00.959
Lease. You may have I may not have.

1427
02:29:01.120 --> 02:30:02.559
Noticed your mind drifting peaceful me really even more deeply

1428
02:30:07.959 --> 02:31:05.000
in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, terrefting

1429
02:31:43.680 --> 02:32:54.440
out to pace, come so calm, let him go, peace

1430
02:32:55.239 --> 02:33:39.879
with mind relaxed foty.

1431
02:33:28.440 --> 02:33:40.200
C relax c relaxed.

1432
02:34:04.680 --> 02:34:38.040
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so.

1433
02:34:45.719 --> 02:35:35.920
Pa so yeah, uh like fair.

1434
02:35:45.600 --> 02:35:51.840
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1435
02:35:52.239 --> 02:36:02.959
more relaxed, even though I've not purpose le focused your

1436
02:36:03.120 --> 02:36:11.520
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

1437
02:36:11.639 --> 02:36:20.520
within you throughout your body, and your mind starts to

1438
02:36:20.600 --> 02:36:30.840
slow down, and that could be almost in recognition of

1439
02:36:32.959 --> 02:36:45.040
I guess my speech not being particularly fast and things

1440
02:36:45.399 --> 02:36:58.120
just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1441
02:36:58.559 --> 02:37:02.280
you give yourself a an opportunity.

1442
02:37:03.040 --> 02:37:04.520
To take a break.

1443
02:37:05.319 --> 02:37:11.799
From the day, take a break from your life as

1444
02:37:11.840 --> 02:37:20.520
it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself

1445
02:37:20.639 --> 02:37:27.920
permission to take some time off and to allow your

1446
02:37:27.920 --> 02:37:33.920
body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1447
02:37:37.959 --> 02:37:45.799
which in turn releases the tension and he stresses that

1448
02:37:45.840 --> 02:37:55.520
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

1449
02:37:55.639 --> 02:37:59.920
parts of your body just open up, allowing the next

1450
02:38:00.000 --> 02:38:12.559
activity out and at the same time replacing that negativity

1451
02:38:12.760 --> 02:38:21.719
with positive heathing energy which then fills your body up

1452
02:38:23.040 --> 02:38:35.280
and your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings

1453
02:38:35.319 --> 02:38:55.639
of increasing confidence an almost uplifting, feeling positive, healing, an

1454
02:38:55.760 --> 02:39:07.079
energy that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort.

1455
02:39:11.879 --> 02:39:22.159
And all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1456
02:39:24.000 --> 02:39:27.159
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1457
02:39:28.520 --> 02:39:30.760
to just rest.

1458
02:39:35.760 --> 02:39:36.799
And allow.

1459
02:39:38.959 --> 02:39:48.920
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1460
02:39:49.600 --> 02:40:05.280
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1461
02:40:05.440 --> 02:40:18.879
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1462
02:40:19.079 --> 02:40:27.319
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1463
02:40:27.440 --> 02:40:38.520
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1464
02:40:39.479 --> 02:40:53.799
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1465
02:40:53.920 --> 02:40:59.920
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1466
02:41:00.200 --> 02:41:13.479
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1467
02:41:13.680 --> 02:41:16.399
to experience.

1468
02:41:18.000 --> 02:41:19.319
More of this.

1469
02:41:20.920 --> 02:41:36.399
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1470
02:41:37.680 --> 02:41:43.639
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1471
02:41:43.639 --> 02:42:00.719
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1472
02:42:00.719 --> 02:42:10.399
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1473
02:42:14.399 --> 02:42:21.319
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1474
02:42:22.879 --> 02:42:29.639
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1475
02:42:29.760 --> 02:42:37.440
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1476
02:42:37.479 --> 02:42:50.879
on were just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1477
02:42:51.239 --> 02:42:54.200
of even more comfort.

1478
02:42:55.000 --> 02:42:55.879
About to come.

1479
02:43:01.360 --> 02:43:10.200
Now, I'm gonna start by focusing on your forehead. Just

1480
02:43:10.319 --> 02:43:18.799
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

1481
02:43:18.879 --> 02:43:26.399
background sounds like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow

1482
02:43:26.479 --> 02:43:33.639
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in

1483
02:43:33.719 --> 02:43:41.799
the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This

1484
02:43:41.959 --> 02:43:49.840
is the world. I live in the countryside, so there's

1485
02:43:49.879 --> 02:44:00.280
lots of nature sounds around. So as your focus on

1486
02:44:00.319 --> 02:44:08.000
your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more relaxed

1487
02:44:08.280 --> 02:44:17.239
as you focus only on my voice and that part

1488
02:44:17.360 --> 02:44:28.200
of your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing on

1489
02:44:28.239 --> 02:44:41.600
your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet

1490
02:44:41.799 --> 02:44:49.079
so light at the same time, and all the muscles

1491
02:44:49.120 --> 02:44:51.879
around your eyes relaxing.

1492
02:44:53.000 --> 02:44:53.680
Completely.

1493
02:44:58.360 --> 02:45:06.079
Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1494
02:45:07.239 --> 02:45:09.120
your teeth, and your gums.

1495
02:45:11.079 --> 02:45:13.000
The whole of your mouth.

1496
02:45:14.440 --> 02:45:28.879
Relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1497
02:45:32.000 --> 02:45:35.559
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1498
02:45:36.360 --> 02:45:40.680
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1499
02:45:40.719 --> 02:45:48.600
of your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw,

1500
02:45:50.200 --> 02:46:17.399
feeding more relaxed and calm, focusing on your neck, the

1501
02:46:17.440 --> 02:46:24.959
front of your neck and your throat relaxing and loose

1502
02:46:25.680 --> 02:46:35.280
and calm. The side of your neck, the right and

1503
02:46:35.520 --> 02:46:50.760
left side of your neck relax and loose and calm,

1504
02:46:54.520 --> 02:47:01.040
and now the back of your neck. Focus in on

1505
02:47:01.120 --> 02:47:11.040
the back of your neck, letting go of any tension

1506
02:47:11.799 --> 02:47:20.639
that may have been there before, and enjoying that sense

1507
02:47:20.879 --> 02:47:27.479
of increasing comfort and release.

1508
02:47:29.639 --> 02:47:33.680
That you can experience in the back of your neck.

1509
02:47:39.959 --> 02:47:46.399
Moving down your back and moving either side of your

1510
02:47:46.600 --> 02:47:49.760
spine right from the top of.

1511
02:47:49.680 --> 02:47:50.559
Your back.

1512
02:47:52.120 --> 02:47:55.799
All the way down to the bottom of your back

1513
02:48:01.799 --> 02:48:13.120
down to your lower back. And as you move up

1514
02:48:13.159 --> 02:48:22.000
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1515
02:48:22.120 --> 02:48:35.719
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1516
02:48:35.799 --> 02:48:43.120
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread.

1517
02:48:44.200 --> 02:48:47.479
Outwards from your.

1518
02:48:47.319 --> 02:48:56.879
Spine into both sides of your back, the top of

1519
02:48:56.959 --> 02:49:03.920
your back, the middle and your lower back. And as

1520
02:49:03.920 --> 02:49:09.360
you scan gently and slowly.

1521
02:49:09.959 --> 02:49:15.239
Up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1522
02:49:15.319 --> 02:49:20.120
top of your back relax and become looser.

1523
02:49:24.440 --> 02:49:30.440
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1524
02:49:30.559 --> 02:49:40.959
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1525
02:49:45.840 --> 02:49:51.840
and in your lower back there seems to be an

1526
02:49:51.879 --> 02:50:06.120
extra special feeling of comfort. This spreads into your hips.

1527
02:50:08.360 --> 02:50:16.120
Sit down your lower back, get into your hips, into

1528
02:50:16.120 --> 02:50:23.280
the area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks,

1529
02:50:25.079 --> 02:50:31.239
and all these muscles that spread from your.

1530
02:50:31.120 --> 02:50:32.040
Lower back.

1531
02:50:34.200 --> 02:50:46.479
Into your hip area start to melt, start to really

1532
02:50:47.639 --> 02:50:58.360
let go. I don't even know where about. To focus

1533
02:50:58.440 --> 02:50:59.520
on your shoulders.

1534
02:51:01.280 --> 02:51:14.840
Your back and your spine will continue to let go, continue.

1535
02:51:13.120 --> 02:51:21.159
To relax so calmly.

1536
02:51:25.840 --> 02:51:30.799
And as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1537
02:51:31.040 --> 02:52:00.440
that they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding calm

1538
02:52:01.520 --> 02:52:14.239
and fear. Those muscles then move from your neck into

1539
02:52:14.280 --> 02:52:49.120
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1540
02:52:51.079 --> 02:53:03.680
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1541
02:53:03.879 --> 02:53:13.680
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation not just traveling

1542
02:53:14.159 --> 02:53:31.440
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1543
02:53:31.680 --> 02:53:40.440
moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1544
02:53:40.600 --> 02:53:46.639
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1545
02:53:50.360 --> 02:54:05.600
Healing. You feel so relax and comfortable in your shoulders.

1546
02:54:09.079 --> 02:54:31.239
Who sends that deep healing message into your arms and

1547
02:54:31.440 --> 02:54:36.440
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1548
02:54:36.600 --> 02:54:59.479
even there, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1549
02:54:59.479 --> 02:55:30.920
so calm.

1550
02:55:15.840 --> 02:55:16.000
So.

1551
02:55:22.639 --> 02:55:35.079
Pose, not feeling, spreading.

1552
02:55:34.920 --> 02:55:46.719
All the way down your arms to your elbows, including

1553
02:55:48.440 --> 02:56:15.239
your elbows circumfort spreads or away into rests a forearments,

1554
02:56:15.440 --> 02:56:31.280
and your wrists so heavy, yet at the same time.

1555
02:56:38.479 --> 02:57:08.639
So light and gentle. Fred.

1556
02:57:08.719 --> 02:57:47.360
You see now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful

1557
02:57:49.079 --> 02:58:10.000
in your hands, there's the sense of.

1558
02:58:13.360 --> 02:58:35.760
Real peace. It just seems to I feel so familiar

1559
02:58:39.239 --> 02:58:43.440
when your hands relax deeply.

1560
02:58:52.360 --> 02:58:52.760
Els.

1561
02:59:10.440 --> 02:59:11.440
The thing is.

1562
02:59:43.479 --> 03:00:50.440
You things, sidles, your finger tips, moving your attention to

1563
03:00:50.600 --> 03:01:18.600
the front of your body, so comfortable. Move then your

1564
03:01:18.719 --> 03:03:02.840
focus your legs, why muscus in your thighs, in knees

1565
03:03:06.879 --> 03:04:37.280
so relaxed, a calf mussels and just shins compresedly four

1566
03:05:43.719 --> 03:06:00.000
and the fathing and your feet so peaceful, so calm,

1567
03:06:04.159 --> 03:07:07.559
say peaceful, sircom so peaceful, syclm, so peace for RelA, sin.

1568
03:07:12.680 --> 03:07:27.520
Peace for so calm, loving.

1569
03:07:27.319 --> 03:07:34.399
That deep relaxation, to spread your chest in your storm,

1570
03:07:38.239 --> 03:07:52.799
so RelA.

1571
03:07:47.559 --> 03:07:53.360
Letting go of everything.

1572
03:08:04.600 --> 03:08:10.600
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1573
03:08:10.639 --> 03:08:18.840
to one. You can imagine in a way, it's like

1574
03:08:19.559 --> 03:08:26.040
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1575
03:08:26.079 --> 03:08:35.479
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1576
03:08:35.760 --> 03:08:51.319
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you

1577
03:08:51.440 --> 03:08:57.559
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1578
03:09:04.200 --> 03:11:39.000
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sisting

1579
03:12:54.600 --> 03:15:45.520
three four four two too well.

1580
03:16:44.399 --> 03:17:55.719
Five eight.

1581
03:19:00.840 --> 03:22:03.399
Nine eight seven.

1582
03:22:01.239 --> 03:23:56.959
Six five.

1583
03:24:13.399 --> 03:30:20.840
Four four s one.

1584
03:29:44.040 --> 03:30:00.719
No, as you focus on your eyes, We're going to

1585
03:30:00.840 --> 03:30:11.959
count down from ten down to one. Focus in just

1586
03:30:12.200 --> 03:30:20.159
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

1587
03:30:23.200 --> 03:30:33.360
your eye waves themselves, our whole area.

1588
03:30:31.000 --> 03:30:45.000
That makes up your eye. And as we count down

1589
03:30:45.159 --> 03:30:53.559
from ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1590
03:31:00.120 --> 03:31:11.879
will become twice is relaxed with each number counting down,

1591
03:31:14.879 --> 03:31:22.000
and you may find the all you want to do

1592
03:31:22.360 --> 03:31:31.440
is just drift off to sleep. And if that's what

1593
03:31:31.600 --> 03:31:44.360
you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1594
03:31:47.079 --> 03:31:51.719
focusing on your eyes, I'm going.

1595
03:31:51.559 --> 03:32:01.280
To begin counting down from ten down to one right

1596
03:32:01.319 --> 03:41:14.120
now two nine eight seven five four three two us one.

1597
03:41:14.440 --> 03:41:31.120
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

1598
03:41:33.920 --> 03:41:58.760
seven six five four three two one and maybe that

1599
03:41:58.920 --> 03:42:03.040
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

1600
03:42:03.079 --> 03:42:08.639
it's a bit too fast for you to notice the

1601
03:42:08.680 --> 03:42:15.520
calming of your body, maybe even a little bit of

1602
03:42:15.600 --> 03:42:16.280
pressure there.

1603
03:42:16.399 --> 03:42:19.559
Like you're count it down from ten to one.

1604
03:42:19.680 --> 03:42:22.959
What do you expect me to do? Man, expect me

1605
03:42:23.000 --> 03:42:32.719
to stick gold floppy just because you're counting down. We

1606
03:42:32.760 --> 03:42:36.879
could try it again, but this time I go this lower.

1607
03:42:38.959 --> 03:42:43.879
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1608
03:42:43.879 --> 03:42:52.319
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1609
03:42:52.360 --> 03:43:06.479
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1610
03:43:06.559 --> 03:43:59.120
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1611
03:44:06.479 --> 03:44:52.920
three two.

1612
03:44:41.399 --> 03:44:52.600
One.

1613
03:44:53.000 --> 03:44:58.719
I just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1614
03:44:58.719 --> 03:45:13.639
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1615
03:45:13.680 --> 03:45:21.360
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1616
03:45:23.920 --> 03:45:44.840
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1617
03:45:45.120 --> 03:45:49.920
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1618
03:45:50.200 --> 03:45:54.600
saying anything, nor deeding to think about anything.

1619
03:45:56.440 --> 03:46:00.959
So it opens up a space, you know, of a space,

1620
03:46:01.879 --> 03:46:02.440
a gap.

1621
03:46:08.600 --> 03:46:12.159
And the more I camped down from ten to one,

1622
03:46:13.280 --> 03:46:21.600
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1623
03:46:22.799 --> 03:46:38.959
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling and it moves

1624
03:46:40.040 --> 03:46:52.920
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1625
03:46:56.719 --> 03:47:01.000
Allows you to just.

1626
03:47:03.879 --> 03:47:10.639
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1627
03:47:11.040 --> 03:47:21.319
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1628
03:47:21.319 --> 03:47:27.399
it's almost like the thestress and attention falls into the

1629
03:47:27.479 --> 03:47:45.360
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1630
03:47:47.719 --> 03:48:49.159
Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

1631
03:49:06.959 --> 03:49:42.520
Three two one.

1632
03:49:54.360 --> 03:49:59.440
How is your body fel.

1633
03:50:00.360 --> 03:50:25.200
Now? Can you notice that you feeling calmer? Do you

1634
03:50:25.479 --> 03:50:55.440
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1635
03:50:55.600 --> 03:51:16.239
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1636
03:51:16.520 --> 03:51:35.879
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing.

1637
03:51:35.799 --> 03:51:37.879
To be doing, because.

1638
03:51:40.600 --> 03:51:43.559
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1639
03:51:43.719 --> 03:51:56.159
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1640
03:51:56.239 --> 03:52:02.680
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1641
03:52:02.799 --> 03:52:09.840
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1642
03:52:09.879 --> 03:52:14.840
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1643
03:52:14.920 --> 03:52:23.719
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1644
03:52:23.879 --> 03:52:37.920
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1645
03:52:37.959 --> 03:52:43.520
a very heavy area, it's very strong. Probably the strongest

1646
03:52:44.440 --> 03:52:57.680
muscles in your body, or in your thighs. But I

1647
03:52:57.680 --> 03:53:06.079
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1648
03:53:11.959 --> 03:53:22.719
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1649
03:53:22.879 --> 03:53:43.520
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1650
03:53:43.600 --> 03:53:44.440
for our lives.

1651
03:53:51.559 --> 03:53:57.200
And it may seem to sound really weird, but I

1652
03:53:57.239 --> 03:53:58.440
think that all of our.

1653
03:53:58.360 --> 03:54:09.239
Body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1654
03:54:09.280 --> 03:54:10.639
of love shown.

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03:54:11.280 --> 03:54:11.760
A bit of.

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03:54:18.280 --> 03:54:30.399
Acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what our thighs do

1657
03:54:30.520 --> 03:54:42.360
for us. And I know this may sound a bit strange.

1658
03:54:42.799 --> 03:54:45.840
Maybe you think, why am I surely how I should

1659
03:54:45.840 --> 03:54:50.719
be able in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1660
03:54:54.879 --> 03:54:56.959
it's hard to set a microphone.

1661
03:54:56.479 --> 03:54:57.280
Up on a tree.

1662
03:54:58.200 --> 03:55:00.879
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise would be outside

1663
03:55:00.920 --> 03:55:04.399
hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television from

1664
03:55:04.399 --> 03:55:15.000
the tree. If you move down to your knees gain

1665
03:55:15.319 --> 03:55:23.479
such an important part. And I think we don't necessarily

1666
03:55:24.959 --> 03:55:32.639
I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all

1667
03:55:32.680 --> 03:55:37.680
that my knees do for me until I have a

1668
03:55:37.760 --> 03:55:42.840
problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I ever maybe

1669
03:55:42.879 --> 03:55:48.479
I'll patch it, or it's aching for some reason. It's

1670
03:55:48.719 --> 03:55:54.520
then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1671
03:55:54.559 --> 03:56:00.559
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1672
03:56:02.280 --> 03:56:09.719
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1673
03:56:09.760 --> 03:56:18.159
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1674
03:56:22.239 --> 03:56:26.920
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1675
03:56:26.920 --> 03:56:34.479
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1676
03:56:35.959 --> 03:56:37.159
and love to your.

1677
03:56:37.040 --> 03:56:49.719
Knees for all that they do for you. And you

1678
03:56:49.719 --> 03:56:53.639
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1679
03:56:53.799 --> 03:57:01.159
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that are

1680
03:57:03.000 --> 03:57:06.920
relaxing more.

1681
03:57:08.399 --> 03:57:20.120
Deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1682
03:57:20.479 --> 03:57:25.920
your shins and your calf muscles and the bones between

1683
03:57:26.079 --> 03:57:32.280
your knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your

1684
03:57:32.360 --> 03:57:45.479
ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like the slightest

1685
03:57:45.879 --> 03:57:51.920
sprain of an ankle knows how how much we take

1686
03:57:53.239 --> 03:58:02.120
our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in

1687
03:58:02.120 --> 03:58:07.360
a way when you think that. You know, logically, our

1688
03:58:07.399 --> 03:58:10.920
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1689
03:58:11.959 --> 03:58:15.559
which is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with

1690
03:58:15.600 --> 03:58:18.520
that because we're just picking stuff up.

1691
03:58:20.079 --> 03:58:21.600
But our ankles.

1692
03:58:22.840 --> 03:58:32.840
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1693
03:58:32.879 --> 03:58:37.479
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1694
03:58:37.520 --> 03:58:44.760
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1695
03:58:45.760 --> 03:58:56.600
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1696
03:58:57.239 --> 03:59:06.920
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1697
03:59:06.959 --> 03:59:16.959
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1698
03:59:19.159 --> 03:59:31.959
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1699
03:59:32.079 --> 03:59:39.920
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1700
03:59:40.120 --> 03:59:43.399
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't seem

1701
03:59:43.440 --> 03:59:48.600
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1702
03:59:49.319 --> 03:59:53.200
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1703
03:59:53.239 --> 03:59:57.440
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1704
03:59:57.479 --> 03:59:59.600
we use our legs.

1705
04:00:04.319 --> 04:00:09.920
And your shins there to protect.

1706
04:00:11.360 --> 04:00:20.040
Your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1707
04:00:20.079 --> 04:00:33.000
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles.

1708
04:00:35.760 --> 04:00:42.399
And your feet. But we're not going to focus on

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04:00:42.440 --> 04:00:44.639
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

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04:00:46.600 --> 04:00:51.319
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll

1711
04:00:51.360 --> 04:00:56.319
probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1712
04:00:56.360 --> 04:00:57.200
on your feet.

1713
04:00:56.920 --> 04:00:57.479
A little bit.

1714
04:01:01.479 --> 04:01:04.200
You can have them in your awareness.

1715
04:01:05.239 --> 04:01:09.000
The same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1716
04:01:09.760 --> 04:01:13.639
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1717
04:01:13.639 --> 04:01:24.639
a few minutes that we focusing on your ankles, there's

1718
04:01:24.639 --> 04:01:39.879
still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's

1719
04:01:40.000 --> 04:01:41.479
that movement.

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04:01:42.559 --> 04:01:43.760
Of energy.

1721
04:01:45.360 --> 04:01:52.440
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1722
04:01:52.479 --> 04:01:57.280
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1723
04:01:57.440 --> 04:02:10.799
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1724
04:02:10.840 --> 04:02:16.200
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1725
04:02:16.959 --> 04:02:28.520
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1726
04:02:35.079 --> 04:02:42.639
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1727
04:02:42.680 --> 04:02:48.000
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, all this stuff that's

1728
04:02:48.040 --> 04:02:56.680
inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1729
04:02:56.719 --> 04:03:00.600
if you could actually put your fingers in side your

1730
04:03:00.639 --> 04:03:06.879
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1731
04:03:07.120 --> 04:03:10.040
of course, but to be able to get deep into

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04:03:10.079 --> 04:03:14.920
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1733
04:03:14.959 --> 04:03:21.959
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1734
04:03:22.000 --> 04:03:31.399
in or the veins, and just gently healing your thighs

1735
04:03:35.200 --> 04:03:40.520
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1736
04:03:41.879 --> 04:03:46.840
just a message in those bones, but with healing fingertips,

1737
04:03:48.200 --> 04:03:54.639
spreading that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1738
04:04:00.040 --> 04:04:03.680
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1739
04:04:03.760 --> 04:04:09.799
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a really

1740
04:04:10.000 --> 04:04:16.000
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1741
04:04:17.280 --> 04:04:20.680
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1742
04:04:20.799 --> 04:04:21.920
touched very often.

1743
04:04:23.920 --> 04:04:30.840
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1744
04:04:30.879 --> 04:04:38.840
It's almost it's like a part that has a sensitivity.

1745
04:04:38.040 --> 04:04:48.559
Which is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected

1746
04:04:48.600 --> 04:04:59.799
by your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

1747
04:05:00.079 --> 04:05:09.399
into that crease in your legs, that fold in between

1748
04:05:09.440 --> 04:05:14.520
your legs. You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1749
04:05:14.520 --> 04:05:25.600
your fingertips going inside massage in the muscle tissue. You

1750
04:05:25.680 --> 04:05:31.719
can of course feel the bones of your knees heading

1751
04:05:31.959 --> 04:05:44.680
through your fingertips. And then as you go down to

1752
04:05:44.760 --> 04:05:47.520
your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like to

1753
04:05:47.600 --> 04:05:53.040
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

1754
04:05:53.200 --> 04:06:01.920
calf muscles massage in every single tissue of that muscle.

1755
04:06:03.479 --> 04:06:05.600
Healing every part.

1756
04:06:11.280 --> 04:06:17.399
And then doing the same for my shins. Massage in

1757
04:06:18.239 --> 04:06:25.239
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

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04:06:25.319 --> 04:06:32.559
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

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04:06:32.600 --> 04:06:34.280
precious bones that they are.

1760
04:06:35.520 --> 04:06:38.840
Because our legs are so precious as in all the

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04:06:38.879 --> 04:06:44.920
other parts of our body, the more precious of any jure.

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04:06:47.239 --> 04:07:00.079
On the planet. When you start to think about.

1763
04:07:03.079 --> 04:07:11.920
Your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1764
04:07:14.639 --> 04:07:15.920
It might sound a bit.

1765
04:07:18.879 --> 04:07:23.159
A bit silly to start with the idea of having

1766
04:07:24.000 --> 04:07:30.879
love for your legs, show an appreciation for your thighs,

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04:07:33.680 --> 04:07:37.639
wanting to be able to put your hands in your

1768
04:07:37.680 --> 04:07:46.280
thighs a massage the muscles and the bones, and to

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04:07:46.319 --> 04:07:54.680
get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just

1770
04:07:54.719 --> 04:07:55.920
to show.

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04:07:57.159 --> 04:07:58.479
How much you care.

1772
04:08:01.559 --> 04:08:06.719
About your legs, how m you care for what your

1773
04:08:06.799 --> 04:08:08.120
legs do for.

1774
04:08:08.000 --> 04:08:21.639
You regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1775
04:08:21.719 --> 04:08:29.840
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1776
04:08:29.920 --> 04:08:36.680
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs, yet they're

1777
04:08:36.760 --> 04:08:49.079
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1778
04:08:52.879 --> 04:08:58.000
truly a gift because of what they do for you.

1779
04:09:03.440 --> 04:09:10.440
Supporting all that weight. Regardless of how what weight you are,

1780
04:09:11.559 --> 04:09:16.360
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1781
04:09:16.399 --> 04:09:18.760
of weight for these little ankles.

1782
04:09:22.319 --> 04:09:23.920
Now, I'm a lot heavier than.

1783
04:09:23.840 --> 04:09:33.840
Eat stone double down, Yet my ankles support my body

1784
04:09:34.559 --> 04:09:41.159
all the time. Whether they do give off a sigh

1785
04:09:41.159 --> 04:09:46.600
of relief when I sit down, you have my whole

1786
04:09:46.639 --> 04:09:51.319
legs do my feet?

1787
04:09:52.479 --> 04:09:56.200
Feet also go? My toes clap.

1788
04:09:57.360 --> 04:10:11.879
I'm so happy.

1789
04:10:17.879 --> 04:10:27.079
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1790
04:10:27.159 --> 04:10:33.559
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1791
04:10:33.600 --> 04:10:39.200
most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1792
04:10:42.079 --> 04:10:48.799
you're boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your

1793
04:10:48.879 --> 04:11:09.479
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1794
04:11:09.520 --> 04:11:12.879
deserve to relax deeply.

1795
04:11:20.159 --> 04:11:23.520
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1796
04:11:25.680 --> 04:11:47.200
to just let go completely. Your legs.

1797
04:11:51.879 --> 04:11:54.479
Really can relax.

1798
04:12:02.079 --> 04:12:06.200
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1799
04:12:06.440 --> 04:12:12.399
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1800
04:12:12.479 --> 04:12:19.719
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1801
04:12:23.399 --> 04:12:34.319
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1802
04:12:35.639 --> 04:12:42.799
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1803
04:12:42.840 --> 04:12:49.479
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1804
04:12:50.559 --> 04:12:53.639
even though I'm just sitting in a chair, and there's

1805
04:12:53.680 --> 04:12:58.959
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1806
04:13:00.040 --> 04:13:02.680
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1807
04:13:02.840 --> 04:13:08.799
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1808
04:13:09.680 --> 04:13:30.920
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1809
04:13:31.000 --> 04:13:40.399
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1810
04:13:40.719 --> 04:13:44.840
to feel wonderfully relaxed.

1811
04:13:48.040 --> 04:14:20.280
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two.

1812
04:14:24.200 --> 04:14:24.440
One.

1813
04:14:30.520 --> 04:14:31.200
Relax.

1814
04:14:39.040 --> 04:14:42.879
So I'm just going to count down from five down

1815
04:14:42.920 --> 04:14:47.399
to one, and as a countdown, if you just focus

1816
04:14:47.479 --> 04:14:55.399
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1817
04:14:56.280 --> 04:14:58.799
how you feel.

1818
04:15:01.000 --> 04:15:02.239
In this moment.

1819
04:15:03.600 --> 04:15:08.040
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1820
04:15:08.159 --> 04:15:21.280
numbers counting down represents you feeling calmer, not just in

1821
04:15:21.319 --> 04:15:29.680
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1822
04:15:29.719 --> 04:15:35.760
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1823
04:15:36.440 --> 04:15:53.600
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1824
04:16:03.000 --> 04:16:22.799
three two.

1825
04:16:20.040 --> 04:16:28.920
One.

1826
04:16:29.719 --> 04:16:41.600
Now, as you notice the gradual letting go with the

1827
04:16:41.719 --> 04:16:49.399
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1828
04:16:49.479 --> 04:16:58.000
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1829
04:16:58.000 --> 04:16:58.719
slow down.

1830
04:17:01.159 --> 04:17:07.559
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1831
04:17:07.760 --> 04:17:12.959
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1832
04:17:14.239 --> 04:17:18.200
body relaxes, your mind also starts.

1833
04:17:17.799 --> 04:17:22.520
To relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the more

1834
04:17:22.559 --> 04:17:27.840
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1835
04:17:33.840 --> 04:17:40.799
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

1836
04:17:42.200 --> 04:17:47.120
You know, even even if there's background sounds, either your

1837
04:17:47.280 --> 04:17:54.760
side or mine, it's still going to be quite calm.

1838
04:17:55.479 --> 04:17:58.159
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1839
04:17:58.440 --> 04:18:02.680
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

1840
04:18:02.719 --> 04:18:10.159
with music. Of course, you're very likely not going to

1841
04:18:10.200 --> 04:18:13.280
be sitting in the room with other people. Of course

1842
04:18:13.319 --> 04:18:17.920
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if.

1843
04:18:17.799 --> 04:18:22.639
You can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1844
04:18:28.799 --> 04:18:39.120
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation.

1845
04:18:40.239 --> 04:18:52.280
Automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow, and

1846
04:18:54.079 --> 04:18:59.840
without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1847
04:19:02.719 --> 04:19:11.639
something magical, this is just a natural process, something that's

1848
04:19:12.600 --> 04:19:21.559
easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know, the

1849
04:19:21.840 --> 04:19:28.600
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1850
04:19:28.760 --> 04:19:33.360
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1851
04:19:35.959 --> 04:19:45.559
It's something that happens naturally and part of the process

1852
04:19:45.719 --> 04:19:53.360
of this recording and others is simply.

1853
04:19:54.600 --> 04:19:57.280
Two. Allow you.

1854
04:19:59.319 --> 04:20:06.840
To take it off, advantage of this space this time,

1855
04:20:09.760 --> 04:20:10.280
to just.

1856
04:20:14.360 --> 04:20:25.159
Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1857
04:20:25.600 --> 04:20:37.719
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1858
04:20:38.000 --> 04:20:50.120
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1859
04:20:50.319 --> 04:20:56.639
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1860
04:20:56.680 --> 04:21:12.840
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1861
04:21:12.959 --> 04:21:17.719
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1862
04:21:17.799 --> 04:21:26.079
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1863
04:21:26.360 --> 04:21:38.239
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1864
04:21:47.600 --> 04:21:51.079
But you can also if you choose stay.

1865
04:21:52.360 --> 04:22:10.600
Focused on my voice and really enjoy the process of

1866
04:22:11.040 --> 04:22:42.920
gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just

1867
04:22:43.479 --> 04:23:03.120
observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1868
04:23:09.120 --> 04:23:17.159
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1869
04:23:18.040 --> 04:23:21.680
and you can notice your mind.

1870
04:23:23.920 --> 04:23:26.120
Calming down more.

1871
04:23:27.120 --> 04:23:29.239
With each number.

1872
04:23:30.520 --> 04:23:41.920
That you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm.

1873
04:23:41.760 --> 04:24:20.680
And slow and be peaceful sex five.

1874
04:24:40.319 --> 04:26:36.239
Four, three, two.

1875
04:26:19.680 --> 04:26:48.079
What being aware how your mind to slow.

1876
04:26:49.959 --> 04:26:54.879
Right down, sinking.

1877
04:26:57.000 --> 04:27:17.319
Deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1878
04:27:17.600 --> 04:27:21.559
you may.

1879
04:27:21.559 --> 04:27:22.719
Notice that.

1880
04:27:24.319 --> 04:27:32.120
There are some thoughts still there maybe some stubborn thoughts

1881
04:27:32.280 --> 04:27:40.360
that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1882
04:27:47.280 --> 04:27:48.680
That's what you can do.

1883
04:27:48.600 --> 04:28:02.120
Is send love to those thoughts, spring or those thoughts.

1884
04:28:06.159 --> 04:28:12.079
With love, like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle

1885
04:28:12.079 --> 04:28:19.280
it over them, petals filled with love towards those thoughts,

1886
04:28:19.799 --> 04:28:22.520
to let those thoughts know that.

1887
04:28:24.719 --> 04:28:30.200
You're not abandoned in them. You just need them. You

1888
04:28:30.360 --> 04:28:41.879
require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1889
04:28:45.760 --> 04:28:46.760
And now.

1890
04:28:54.040 --> 04:28:59.040
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1891
04:28:59.239 --> 04:29:05.479
countdown time from seven down to one. With each number,

1892
04:29:08.319 --> 04:29:23.319
just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude

1893
04:29:24.079 --> 04:29:33.639
over those thoughts, which will allow them to just melt

1894
04:29:33.680 --> 04:29:48.719
away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts will

1895
04:29:48.799 --> 04:30:57.360
become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1896
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three one. Letting now, notice how relaxed you're feeling.

1897
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In your body. We got to focus.

1898
04:33:03.319 --> 04:33:12.959
On your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are,

1899
04:33:15.319 --> 04:33:19.200
the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1900
04:33:34.119 --> 04:33:34.720
And there's.

1901
04:33:36.279 --> 04:33:46.439
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1902
04:33:46.919 --> 04:33:51.720
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1903
04:33:52.759 --> 04:34:03.080
dance in the fingers or anything like that it's just

1904
04:34:03.560 --> 04:34:16.840
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing.

1905
04:34:16.599 --> 04:34:38.040
How they feel, because the more relax your hands feel,

1906
04:34:41.520 --> 04:34:43.119
the calmer your.

1907
04:34:42.919 --> 04:34:47.360
Mind feels, and the more.

1908
04:34:49.880 --> 04:34:54.840
Comforts you feel throughout your body.

1909
04:35:00.200 --> 04:35:03.959
Oh gee, may.

1910
04:35:06.119 --> 04:35:11.400
Have already.

1911
04:35:13.560 --> 04:35:35.159
Noticed you mind is starting to dress.

1912
04:35:48.599 --> 04:35:49.520
Like sense.

1913
04:35:53.279 --> 04:36:08.040
Just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience

1914
04:36:10.639 --> 04:36:16.319
a real deepening of that relaxation.

1915
04:36:17.000 --> 04:36:25.959
In your hands and fingers, more.

1916
04:36:28.400 --> 04:36:44.840
And more relaxed. With each number from eight.

1917
04:36:47.000 --> 04:36:59.200
Down to one, you can almost feel that healing and

1918
04:36:59.400 --> 04:37:13.919
relax and energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming

1919
04:37:15.439 --> 04:37:24.959
ye ar relaxing with each number.

1920
04:37:26.919 --> 04:37:27.680
You hear.

1921
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Going down eight down to one, drifting, drifting again. Starting

1922
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with number fis.

1923
04:38:42.799 --> 04:39:41.919
Seven s.

1924
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Four four.

1925
04:40:32.240 --> 04:42:01.279
Three, just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

1926
04:42:01.319 --> 04:42:16.840
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

1927
04:42:17.080 --> 04:42:24.880
This is your natural state of being. This is how

1928
04:42:24.959 --> 04:42:31.919
you just normally feel when you take away all that

1929
04:42:31.959 --> 04:42:40.119
other stuff that you add, nothing like stress and worry

1930
04:42:40.200 --> 04:42:56.279
in over thinking, anxiety, change just genuinely thinking about stuff.

1931
04:42:58.000 --> 04:43:01.479
And you take that away, which is what we do.

1932
04:43:02.040 --> 04:43:10.200
What we do now you're left with.

1933
04:43:12.840 --> 04:43:21.400
A real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very

1934
04:43:21.479 --> 04:43:36.959
quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort,

1935
04:43:40.880 --> 04:43:44.360
almost as if you've got inside yourself and you've found

1936
04:43:45.040 --> 04:43:58.959
a special place where everything is peaceful, a place where

1937
04:43:58.959 --> 04:44:06.720
we can film relax and your natural sense of comfort,

1938
04:44:09.840 --> 04:44:10.639
a place.

1939
04:44:10.360 --> 04:44:18.279
Where you can be you, where you can.

1940
04:44:18.000 --> 04:44:24.680
Accept yourself for who you are, the place where you're

1941
04:44:24.680 --> 04:44:35.159
not trying to please anybody else ever, the place where

1942
04:44:35.279 --> 04:44:38.439
you can actually.

1943
04:44:41.200 --> 04:44:44.759
Not just love yourself, but in.

1944
04:44:44.599 --> 04:44:53.479
Some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate who

1945
04:44:53.880 --> 04:45:05.000
you are, a sense of gratitude.

1946
04:45:08.000 --> 04:45:17.880
See the air all around you, and that's.

1947
04:45:17.720 --> 04:45:19.840
Also a place where.

1948
04:45:19.439 --> 04:45:23.799
You can actually feel.

1949
04:45:25.159 --> 04:45:39.319
The healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking

1950
04:45:40.479 --> 04:45:50.959
into your body, and the healing energy spreads through your veins,

1951
04:45:54.720 --> 04:45:59.000
traveling to each and every single.

1952
04:45:58.880 --> 04:46:01.599
Part of your body.

1953
04:46:07.520 --> 04:46:12.080
When you start to realize that actually that healing.

1954
04:46:11.799 --> 04:46:17.279
Energy it's not just entered into your brain.

1955
04:46:19.759 --> 04:46:29.680
It's become part of your brain, and the spinal fluid.

1956
04:46:31.959 --> 04:46:40.040
Is now mixed with healing energy, just.

1957
04:46:42.080 --> 04:46:45.240
Allowing you to feel so much more.

1958
04:46:45.119 --> 04:46:49.000
Relaxed and healthy.

1959
04:46:50.080 --> 04:47:00.919
In this moment. But also you start to realize to

1960
04:47:01.119 --> 04:47:13.040
actually what's happening now without healing relaxing energy spreading through

1961
04:47:13.119 --> 04:47:26.000
your body. It's actually changing your life. It's actually changing

1962
04:47:26.080 --> 04:47:31.159
the way you're going to feel, not just now, but

1963
04:47:31.360 --> 04:47:41.959
tomorrow and the next days. Your health improves, not just

1964
04:47:42.000 --> 04:47:49.959
your physical health, but your mental health. Things that used

1965
04:47:50.000 --> 04:47:55.880
to bother you in the past, for some reason, no

1966
04:47:55.919 --> 04:48:03.880
longer have the effect that they used to because something

1967
04:48:04.040 --> 04:48:05.759
has changed.

1968
04:48:06.759 --> 04:48:08.000
Deep within you.

1969
04:48:13.080 --> 04:48:19.000
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel.

1970
04:48:19.080 --> 04:48:30.720
Anger no longer have that power to control you.

1971
04:48:33.119 --> 04:48:35.560
The way they seem to be able to before.

1972
04:48:39.200 --> 04:48:50.040
And you realize that you're the one who decides what

1973
04:48:50.360 --> 04:49:02.080
affects you. You're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1974
04:49:02.880 --> 04:49:06.680
and calm when you.

1975
04:49:06.599 --> 04:49:11.680
Choose to enjoy.

1976
04:49:12.799 --> 04:49:25.479
Noticing these natural developments and the healing continuing to grow

1977
04:49:28.279 --> 04:49:39.639
and improve your life day by day, including of course

1978
04:49:39.720 --> 04:49:57.200
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's

1979
04:49:57.279 --> 04:50:07.639
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

1980
04:50:07.840 --> 04:50:15.759
fall in the sleep is something that you've done.

1981
04:50:13.840 --> 04:50:21.560
So many times in your life. And you know that

1982
04:50:21.720 --> 04:50:24.319
you were born because we.

1983
04:50:24.319 --> 04:50:27.479
All were with the ability.

1984
04:50:28.560 --> 04:50:30.560
To fall asleep naturally.

1985
04:50:34.840 --> 04:50:47.119
You're born with that ability to just drift are into.

1986
04:50:46.720 --> 04:50:49.919
A deep, healing sleep.

1987
04:50:55.840 --> 04:51:00.919
Even when we're kids sometimes will fall sleep or dn't

1988
04:51:00.919 --> 04:51:08.080
even want to shot stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday

1989
04:51:08.119 --> 04:51:12.439
in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something we.

1990
04:51:12.520 --> 04:51:15.000
Look forward to. I don't want to go to sleep.

1991
04:51:17.240 --> 04:51:22.200
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1992
04:51:22.400 --> 04:51:23.959
we just start to drift.

1993
04:51:28.119 --> 04:51:31.479
And the more I fight it's drifting, the.

1994
04:51:31.520 --> 04:51:34.560
More you try to stop beside from drift in a safe.

1995
04:51:36.400 --> 04:51:47.520
The depot and stronger thout, drifting becomes because we're borne,

1996
04:51:48.479 --> 04:51:52.279
not just with the need to relax.

1997
04:51:51.959 --> 04:52:00.360
Deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our ba right,

1998
04:52:03.720 --> 04:52:04.520
It's part.

1999
04:52:04.319 --> 04:52:16.080
Of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older in life,

2000
04:52:16.439 --> 04:52:18.560
perhaps at times.

2001
04:52:19.000 --> 04:52:20.639
We have a daughter.

2002
04:52:25.200 --> 04:52:34.279
Relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant.

2003
04:52:34.599 --> 04:52:58.759
Experience, it's also really easy. It's very very easy to

2004
04:52:58.959 --> 04:53:02.599
let go, because that's all it is.

2005
04:53:02.680 --> 04:53:03.080
Is just.

2006
04:53:06.560 --> 04:53:10.919
Deciding to let go.

2007
04:53:16.319 --> 04:53:24.319
When you press the play button on my recordings, you

2008
04:53:24.400 --> 04:53:35.200
have given permission from my voice to elect you. When

2009
04:53:35.200 --> 04:53:39.279
you press that play button, you have given me permission

2010
04:53:40.520 --> 04:53:46.759
for my words to effect.

2011
04:53:48.680 --> 04:53:56.680
You. Are positive only a positive way.

2012
04:53:59.599 --> 04:54:00.520
I him up.

2013
04:54:05.919 --> 04:54:16.720
Mind to you, useful and healing.

2014
04:54:17.840 --> 04:54:31.200
Suggestions such a raising effect.

2015
04:54:33.560 --> 04:54:45.840
How you feel right now, As well as those changes,

2016
04:54:46.080 --> 04:54:56.639
they continue long after the recording as those changes within.

2017
04:54:59.720 --> 04:55:02.799
Se hmm, what a word.

2018
04:55:07.240 --> 04:55:17.000
That's spoil your life licitude beautiful way.

2019
04:55:19.759 --> 04:55:24.599
And now need to ooh you.

2020
04:55:26.599 --> 04:55:47.560
In the direct us for yourself. The speeding its pexperience

2021
04:55:48.599 --> 04:56:01.680
of safety comments it's absolute.

2022
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Nice, such a awful place. H