Aug. 11, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) SHOES | Mondays Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1410 | Jason Newland | 11th August 2025

(no music) (5 hours) SHOES | Mondays Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1410 | Jason Newland | 11th August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasondewland dot com. My name is

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Jason new Land. This is let me Buoy to sleep.

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Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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And this is ma Day's boy in Objects. Yeah, so

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all I try and think of a subject or an

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object to be boring about. What's the latest in my life?

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Oh itchy.

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M had a really weird dream last night, and I

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woke up extra early. What I did go to bed

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extra early as well, but I woke up and I

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thought I'm just going to stay up, so I did.

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And then this morning because I think last night I

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was working out what was I yeah, I think it

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might have been. Last night I was working out what

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hypnosis recording to do next, and I decided on doing

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a recording for bruxism, which is grinding teeth usually when

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people were asleep. And this morning I start doing a recording.

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I'm sitting here doing it. Twenty minutes in. It's going

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pretty well, I feel and I realize I've not pressed

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the record button and I go back to bed. I'm furious.

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So what I did this afternoon I gave it another attempt.

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At this time I completed it and I couldn't believe

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it was not nearly two hours long. I think it's

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an hour and fifty five minutes. So it took it's

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a very thorough recording, and it took quite a long

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time to edit and to process and all that. So

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I feel like it's sort of taken up most of

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the day. Really, that's okay. I'm quite pleased with it

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kind of. It's just I mean, I'll ask for a

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favor here from anyone that's listening if I do a

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recording that, let's say hypnosis recording that fits in with

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something that you would use. For example, I did a

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loop as one the other day. I've done I've done

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a few different ones recently, and if you remember what

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would maybe share it on your Facebook page. And also

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if you're a member of a group on Facebook or

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some other social network site, perhaps you could share that

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recording because it's quite hard for me to share it

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myself because a lot of groups class that has spam

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if I start sharing my own stuff, no matter how

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good intention or maybe useful it might be. So you know,

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that's something to think about. Maybe if it's possible, it

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would definitely help. Other than that, I've been out a

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couple of times. Today had a showered as morning. Exciting stuff.

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It's been quite a warm day and I got my

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window open and the soundproof and curtains not completely covering

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the window, so you might hear some background sounds a

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little bit, although even with the soundproofing there was still

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background sounds as well earlier. But for some reason, it

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was a relatively quiet day in the garden today, which

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was nice. Normally I have to wait for the winter

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for that to happen. I feeling quite tired. Actually, I'm

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nearly ready for bed. I mean it's only half past seven.

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Oh the sound has started. I'm not going to block

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it out. I'm just going to leave it as it

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is because it's too warm to have the window closed.

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So yeah, that's it. Really, there's not not much left.

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Not really else happened to Oh. I got a letter

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from the the doctor's surgery a few days ago telling

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me I needed to make an appointment to get a

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mental health review, my anal mental health review, and if

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I didn't contact them, as basically, if I didn't attend

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the appointment, my medication would be reduced to once a week,

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so I'd have to collect it once a week instead

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of once a month, which seems a little bit heavy handed.

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I can't look quite sure why they were threatening that.

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I've never had a problem with them before. And they

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had a telephone number to call, so I called the number.

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I think it maybe it's like a specialized number, but

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it wasn't. It was just a doctor's surgery. And I

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got through and it said click here for appointments. So

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I'll click the number for appointments, and it said you

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have to go online. You can't do appointments on the

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phone anymore. We don't take appointments. No. I'm like, okay,

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that's that's just I mean, I suppose I am fairly

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internet savvy to a degree, but I do think about

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people that aren't and how this whole digital only, internet

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only kind of service does not It doesn't serve a

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large well not a maybe you're not not a big percentage,

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but it's still a hard population of people in this country,

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millions that it can struggle with that all they want

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to do is make an appointment. Phone a number and

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make an appointment. But no, you've got to go online.

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You've got to do this, and you've got to do that.

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I don't know, I just don't think it's going in

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the right direction. To be fair, I'm just moaning for

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the sake of moaning. Yeah, I don't really like it either.

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I want to be able to just phone up speak

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to a human. I'm the same when it comes to

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shops as well. I won't use the self service unless

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I really have to, although I don't you know, I

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don't go out that often, but the previous couple of

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months I have been going to the whole hospital and

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using the shops in the hospital, wh Smith's, Marks and

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Spencers and Cost to Coffee, those sort of three places

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that I went into. Costa Coffee, it's fine, you deal

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with human, don you and just pay card or cash.

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Wh Smith's have a self service, but they also have

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a till with a human as well in that place,

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So I do get the impression that the staff it's

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a bit of an inconvenience for the staff member. When

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you go and stand waiting to pay at the till,

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it's like, who are you doing that for? You can

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go and pay over there on the robot machine thing.

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I don't want to. So yeah, that's and also Marks

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and Spencer's in there. I think there's like four machines,

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maybe more. Actually, yeah, they did have a little till,

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tiny little till area with a human and I queued

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up for that. I just yeah, I just it's always

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been a little just a slight annoyance to me right

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from the start, right from you. However, many years, twenty

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years maybe longer, since self service machines started out, and

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there was you know, even though it's a naughty and

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I did try them out, but I just found them

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to be not very good either. What did they used

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to say, lot, oh, can you move your stuff out

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of the the carrier bag section or I don't know. So, yeah,

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it's never really not a big fan of the old

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self service. McDonald's have self service now, but you can

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also order it the till as well. I suppose the

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only self service that I've ever really kind of embraced

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was cashpoint machines, because that's a self service, isn't it

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self service? Banking till It's almost like a banking window,

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self service, isn't it. I mean, there was a time.

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I don't think they do it now, but they might

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still do it. I don't know. I've not tried. Thirty

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dd years ago. Used to be able to put money

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into the machine. It's true. It wasn't just taking money out.

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You could put money in, money in. It's true. Yeah,

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it's been a while since that happened for me anyway,

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I've not attempted to do it, but maybe it's still available.

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I don't think it is, but it could be. I

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don't know. I'm not sure. I've been thinking about Uncle's

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Sausages and whether or not to try and get up

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to Northern Ireland to because basically he's having his cremation

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here near the end of the month and then it's

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probably about a week and a half actually no, yeah,

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like about about two weeks and his actually has been

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sent to Northern Ireland and there's going to be a

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ceremony there for him. With the Boy's Brigade, which is

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uncle Sausages used to be in a Boy's Brigade. I

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think he might have been in it as well when

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he's a kid, but he also is in it as

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an adult running it. Helped to run it. He's one

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of the I don't know, soldiers or officers or whatever,

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so he's very passionate about that, and I did think

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about maybe trying to get up there for that and

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then maybe moving from Northern Ireland into Ireland and visiting

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a couple of friends that live in Ireland, and also

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making a bit of a is it a homage, I

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don't know, a visit to Andre, my original friend Andre,

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to his grave, who was my friend in the nineties.

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He's who are named Andre, Andre after you know, little

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Andrea the ferret because they used to call him no legs.

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That used to be his nickname at work, Andre, which

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is weird because I mean, he was trying to make

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out that he was sure, but he was probably taller

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than me. He probably five eight five nine. He wasn't tall,

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but he was still you know what I mean. It's

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like they called him. Everyone had nicknames except me, which

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makes me wonder what my nickname was because no one

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told me. Although in the canteen at one of my jobs,

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I used to get called professor because I was wearing glasses.

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It shows the level of the level of where I

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was working. Although saying that they were really nice, both

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the ladies that worked there did. I really liked them

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a lot. They were good. They knew my name as well.

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They just decided professor was a better name. Plus I

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worked there for years and years, on and off. I

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dreamt about being there the other day, being back there.

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I don't know if it was last night or if

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it was the night before, but it was another weird dream.

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And went back to Yeah, trying to figure out where

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I lived where, you know, maybe living in three different places.

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And I remember asking someone to knock on someone's door

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a previous place I lived, and asked him if I

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still lived there or not. I couldn't remember if I

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still had some of my belongings there, which makes me think,

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what should I talk about today? Have I talked about

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all the different places I've lived? I think I have.

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I've talked about the jobs I've had. I've talked about

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girlfriends I've had. I've talked about talked about my nan

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talked about step mummies, talked about karate, talked about boxing,

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talked about Taekwondu martial arts, bodybuilding. Last week, Yeah, and

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that was the subject. I think it was last week.

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It was last week or the week before. I talked

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about my book collection, although my book collection is now

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much sparser than it was. The main pretty much the

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only books, but not the only books, but most of

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the books I've got now are just the hypnosis books,

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because that's now what I'm focusing on, as well as

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doing this to let me boys asleep. I'm going to

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continue doing this because this is the most fun. But

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I'm going to continue and really, I think put more

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effort into making hypnosis recordings for issues, problems, medical conditions,

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things like that that perhaps I haven't done before. So

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instead of just focusing on pay relief, relaxation or sleep,

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I'm going to I'm starting to broaden out, which I

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have done before. I mean, it's not the first time

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I've done lots of different recordings over the years, lots lots,

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but this is the first time I've really kind of

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started to expand on expand something other than my waistline, really,

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because I've done quite a few different recordings, very different

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types of recordings the last week or so. I intend

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to continue with that because it takes a lot of work,

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a lot of energy, a lot of concentration, but I

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think at the end of it, it's worth it. Yeah,

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that's what I'm thinking. At least I hope so at

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least I hope so at least the hopes of what's

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that three three times? Okay, one more time at least,

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I hope. So what other things? What haven't I talked about? Toenails?

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Can I do a whole hour about toe nails? I

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mean if I could, I probably could, but just wrong,

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it seems immoral. Underpants, Yeah, perhaps I won't do that. Shoes, shoes, Okay,

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I'm going to talk about shoes. That's boring. That's boring.

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I've never talked about shoes before. The different shoes that

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I've had over the years. Wow, it's quite hard to

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remember too far back, because shoes is not something. I've

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never really been a fan of shoes. I mean, they're handy,

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but I don't think I've ever generally bought a pair

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of shoes and been super excited about it generally. I

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mean maybe there has been a couple of times, but

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not really. I can't really remember shoes I had as

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a kid, like a little kid, but I'm pretty sure

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I had sandals, and it probably wasn't the right thing

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to do, but they used to be called Jesus sandals

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in the UK back in the seventies, like late stop,

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middle to late seventies, and they were just sandals with

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the toes. You could see the toes and whatever. And

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so I had them, not something I would have now.

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I mean, I think my toes do not. My toes

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are not for public viewing, Yeah, I think not for

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public scrutiny. And then flip flop. That's something I used

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to wear when I was a kid, and I'd always

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disliked them so impractical, and flip flop is probably the best,

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the best name for anything ever because they literally did

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go flip flop, flip flop. They sound silly, they felt silly,

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they looked silly. I just didn't like them. Never liked

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flip flops, and although I do, I'm quite enjoying saying

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the word flip flop though for some reason. It's just

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as a little kid, I used to like running around

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and you can't run around on those things because they

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keep falling off. Sandals. I found much more to my

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like him because they did stay on because I had

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straps and stuff. Although I found them a little bit cumbersome,

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which is a word I use a lot when I

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was seven years old. Cumbersome, cumbersome? What it was a dinner? Okay, Jason,

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Yeah it was cumbersome. Thanks, And what was your Christmas? Like?

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Very cumbersome? So yeah, I was flip flops. Wellies Wellington boots.

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Used to have a pair of them, which is kind

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of needed in this country because of the rain and

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the weather and stuff. So I had wellies, which was

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a very popular thing for pretty much everyone to wear

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in the late seventies and in the eighties. Don't see

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young people walking around in wellies anymore, but used to

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see it a lot when I was a kid. When

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I say young people, I mean like teenagers and stuff.

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I used to wear wellies when I was a teenager.

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To be fair, I probably was the only one. I

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was never up to date with fashion. I really wasn't.

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I was always so slow. I mean I remember when

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I got my first BMX. I bought a BMX bike

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from the catalog, and I paid for it myself from

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my pocket money. And I might know my pocket money

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from my news paper round money. And I went next

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door to ask them to help me learn some tricks

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because they had BMX bikes. But they were in they

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were in line with fashion, so I was about two

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years too late. And they said, well, moved on from that.

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We don't ride BMX bikes anymore. We don't do tricks anymore.

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Did you not notice. I said here, and I said,

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can you teach me some breakdancing moves on the liner?

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And they said no, we haven't done that for probably

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five years, four years because there was little There were

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certain things that were really popular in the eighties when

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I was at school. Breakdancing was one. BMX bikes was another.

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Possibly skate skate skateboarding possibly, but I think I know

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definitely BMX bikes and breakdancing the two things. I didn't

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even attempt breakdancing, which is kind of weird because I

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possibly may have been quite good at that because I

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was quite nimble as a kid, but I didn't like

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the idea of people watching me. And it was always

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the kids that did the breakdancing were always like a

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group of kids, the popular kids and the ones that

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were kind of in a gang, kind of like not

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a gangang but a gang bangang, but you know, kind

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of the popular kids or getting together and stuff. And

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I was never part of any kind of popular group,

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popular gang. I just had individual friends who almost liked

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school colleagues. Really, so I knew different kids at school

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that I talked to, but it was only really like

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have close friendship with a couple, so and my next

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door neighbors. A couple of kids there. One was a

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year younger than me, when was two years younger than me,

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and I were both cool. But they like literally they

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were cool. They was the cool kids. Always had the

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latest clothing, the latest. They were just on the ball

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with that stuff. And they were really popular as well.

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And there wasn't I wasn't in their friendship group, even

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though they went to school with me, and I used

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to say low to them. But they were my next

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door neighbors, so I'd known them for well from seventy

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nine to eighty six, so I've known them for a

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long time, you know. So it's just almost like they

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were just there and we were there, but never really.

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I mean, I think I sometimes went around their house,

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but generally not much, I don't think so. I think

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they probably did because I know that their dad and

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my dad were friends here, because you know what I say,

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good neighbors become good friends. M hmm, what am I

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talking about? Shoes? Yeah, so Wellington boots. I had those.

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I remember when I was about the seven or eight. Yeah.

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We moved into this council house, which then became my

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non and granddad's house. After when we moved out when

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I was about nine, just before I was nine, we

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moved into a different house, but we lived there for

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a year or so, a year and a half maybe.

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I liked that house. That was my favorite family time

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in that council house. And I was seven, so it

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was the first time I'd ever had my own bedroom

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on my own and it's the first time that we

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kind of had the first time I had a family

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really since the age of six months or whatever. So

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the first time like all the family were together, like

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my three brother me and my two brothers and my

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dad and you know, his new wife. But it was

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the first time I kind of been in a family unit.

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So and I was the little baby of the family.

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And I used to ride on my dad's shoulders when

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he was walking. I'd be go giardy up, gidy up,

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stuff like that, slapping him on the head, brilliant. We

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was in the car, I'd be on my step moms,

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so I used to call a mum on her lap,

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cuddling up to her. It was absolutely brilliant. Honestly, it

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was great times for me, and there was there was

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a lot of nice memories from that time. I can

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remember some of them. But because it was a new

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build there was still there's still houses being built when

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we moved in, and the ground hadn't settled properly, so

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the garden outside it wasn't a garden, it was just mud.

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And we all went into the mud with our Wellington

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boots on and I got stuck. My dad had to

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pick me up out of the mud, out of the

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Wellington boots. My Wellington boots were still in there, They're

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probably still there now because I just literally could not move.

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I didn't have the strength, the physical strength because the

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mud was so deep. It was kind of like quicksand

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it wasn't, but it was like my version of Quicksand

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in my mind after having seen I mean, there was

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a lot of Quicksand on movies and TV back then,

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all the Tarsan movies. Quicksand was in quite a lot

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of those, some of the seventies eighties, seventies TV shows

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Quicksand I'm trying to say Quicksand without whistling Quicksand. So

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that was fun. And I remember we got there was

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a blizzard in the winter, and I'm guessing that was

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probably nineteen seventy eight, and we got blocked in. We

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woke cup couldn't get out the back, and it was

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literally just solid snow, you know. I was like six

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foot high solid just out the back, and then at

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the front it was all solid. It was like really

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up against it. But I think my dad, I think

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the door opened from the inside. I think the front door.

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I loved that house because my nan and grand had

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stayed there. My nan stayed there, you know, on her own,

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from ninety one all the way to about two thousand

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and hmm, I don't know, eleven, maybe twenty ten, eleven,

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twenty twelve, twos one of them. So she stayed there

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for a long time on her own. And it's weird

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because it had the same feeling. There was a feeling

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that that was for me, that was the family home.

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That was a place where I had my happiest memories

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as a kid, even though I wasn't there for long.

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But also, you know, throughout my life visiting my nand

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you know, as an adult, as a kid and as

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a teenager and as an adult all the way up

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till you know, ten years ago. And yes, it's quite

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a nice fuzzy little feeling around my left knee. I'm

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hoping it will spread. But that's where it is at

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the moment. It's not I don't know why I said.

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That's weird, wasn't it. The good thing about this is

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we've got the day off though, because that's no no school,

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no school. Yes, result, And my dad cleared the front out,

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you know, he got rid of He cleared the pathway out,

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the front left, he left the back because it just

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had to wait for it to kind of dissolve a

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little bit because it was so full on. So we

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just left that. He waited a while, and then then

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I think we all kind of got involved and kind

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of moved it off. Because I built an igloo. I

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did generally, I bought. I built an iglu, and do

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I say bought. I built an iglu, and I used

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a mixture of mud and ice as cement. It's still

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there today. It was that good. Actually, I think I

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might've just been mud. No, it was. There was definitely

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some ic in pold because I actually because I was

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quite specific and I I cut the ice into bits

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and made proper bricks and did it that way. So yeah,

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I didn't mess around. I did it properly, I thought,

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and I made really and hours and hours and hours

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doing this thing. It's very very pleased with it. But

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I remember the snow is so deep. It was it

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was up to my waist I think in parts. But

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at the same time, I was or eight years old

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and I was probably about three foot tall, so it

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probably wasn't that deep apart from the bits that got

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blown into a heap, but it was deep enough for

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everything to be closed. Brilliant day. That was a really

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good day. I'm not sure if it's the only day.

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It might have been more than one, but I remember

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my dad taking me and my two brothers behind the

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house and there was this slope which was just directly

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behind the house, and there was a motorway running across,

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so this slope, him and my two brothers were kind

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of sliding on a sled. I just watched because I

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didn't want anything to do with it. I wasn't really

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much of a risk taker. And I like my oldest brother.

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He was four years older than me, so he was

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like eleven twelve or whatever, I don't know, eight nine, ten,

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eleven twelve, so he was just having fun. He wasn't

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really scared of stuff like that. My other brother, the

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younger than him, So he was two years older than me.

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He wasn't scared of nothing. Ever, you know, he'd jumped

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out of a plane with a parachute at that age.

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It wouldn't have scared him. He just fearless. I was

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a little bit different. I just for me. I couldn't

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see the point sliding down on a sled made a

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plastic heading towards a fence, Like, how's it going to stop?

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How am I going to stop this thing? And then

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my two brothers at the bottom saying will stop you? Like, yeah, okay, yeah,

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you know I'd spent eight years in my life with

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these two blokes, these two older lads, I knew not

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to trust them. By them say that they'd stopped me

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from going headfirst into the fence meant that I was

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probably going to end up going headfirst into the fence,

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and if I didn't reach the fence, they'd probably put

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push me into the FEDS. So yeah, because I was

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the youngest, I got a bit of the brunt of

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that at that time. But you know what, here's something

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that is an acknowledgment that, well, they won't get to

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the ears that it's needed. I'll say it out loud anyway,

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my oldest brother four years older than me. For a

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period of my life, he was like a father figure,

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however ridiculous that might sound. So when I was really little,

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he used to be put in charge of looking after

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me and my other brother. So let's say I was four,

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my other brother was sick, and my oldest brother was eight.

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We'd be left for days and my brother would be

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looking after us, make sure it'd be eight, make sure

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we were safe. And he was eight years old. I

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saw him as an adult. And also the fact that

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he was always much much taller than me, Like, I know,

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he's four years older, but he's like six' four or

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something And i'm five. Eight wasn't Then i'd have loved

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to be in five eight WHEN i was four years. Old,

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Wow i'd be an absolute giant by now. Anyway, Yeah

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SO i didn't appreciate him at that, time AND i

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don't think it's ever been appreciated what he. Did how

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much was put on his little, Shoulders this eight year

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old looking after two younger brothers for long periods of

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time on his. Own it's, yeah it's. Weird so he

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was even when he was in the children's home he

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was the father. Figure even, THEN i listened to him

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what he said when you, KNOW i did what he told.

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Me and then when we all moved to live with my,

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Dad so he was eleven at this, point WHEN i was,

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Seven my other brother was, Nine my oldest brother was.

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Eleven he went from being in charge to being a little.

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Kid AND i don't think he knew how to handle

469
00:42:54.199 --> 00:42:56.440
being a little kid because he'd never been a little

470
00:42:56.519 --> 00:43:03.159
kid before for a long long, time not since he

471
00:43:03.360 --> 00:43:13.960
was four or, five, yeah, four four and a, half, five,

472
00:43:14.400 --> 00:43:18.280
SIX i don't, know, six it was, Six so we'd

473
00:43:18.280 --> 00:43:21.320
had six years or five years of being like an,

474
00:43:21.360 --> 00:43:26.039
adult and then suddenly he was a. Kid SO i

475
00:43:26.079 --> 00:43:29.599
think that was a bit of a, yeah a bit

476
00:43:29.599 --> 00:43:39.159
of a shock to his. System. Yeah, anyway it's not

477
00:43:39.199 --> 00:43:41.159
really got anything to do with, shoes is it just

478
00:43:41.199 --> 00:43:52.400
a bit of personal. REFLECTION i GUESS i used to. Have,

479
00:43:52.440 --> 00:43:55.400
SEE i didn't Really, OKAY i. DID i did get

480
00:43:55.400 --> 00:43:57.119
a choice of what SHOES i had WHEN i was at,

481
00:43:57.119 --> 00:44:00.920
school but it really was a case of these or,

482
00:44:00.960 --> 00:44:05.320
these you, KNOW i had to every year BEFORE i

483
00:44:05.360 --> 00:44:07.559
started the new, Year i'd go and get some new,

484
00:44:07.599 --> 00:44:12.519
shoes new school, uniform and BECAUSE i normally would have

485
00:44:12.559 --> 00:44:22.079
grown a little. Bit sometimes if i'd grown a, bit you,

486
00:44:22.079 --> 00:44:23.960
know if my feet had grown a bit too, much

487
00:44:24.079 --> 00:44:28.840
or my fit shoes had falling apart, HERE i might

488
00:44:28.880 --> 00:44:33.840
get some new shoes halfway through the. Year SO i,

489
00:44:33.880 --> 00:44:38.639
WENT i, REMEMBER i think it was in the fourth

490
00:44:38.760 --> 00:44:43.480
yearth high, school maybe the third, year AND i bought these,

491
00:44:43.519 --> 00:44:46.159
shoes AND i thought it would be a good idea

492
00:44:47.159 --> 00:44:51.840
to buy ones With, okay not a high. Heel there

493
00:44:51.840 --> 00:44:56.159
weren't high heel, shoes but they had a heel on,

494
00:44:56.239 --> 00:45:02.360
them or they had a fair bit of sponge at

495
00:45:02.400 --> 00:45:05.760
the bottom of, them which added a good inch to,

496
00:45:05.840 --> 00:45:07.760
me and as we all, know in inches a hell

497
00:45:07.800 --> 00:45:13.320
of a. Lot, NOW i was pleased with these. Shoes

498
00:45:15.400 --> 00:45:19.599
but they were quite, big they were quite. Bulky they're

499
00:45:19.639 --> 00:45:28.079
a little Bit herman. Monstery AND i, THOUGHT i just

500
00:45:28.159 --> 00:45:30.840
walk into. SCHOOL i, mean it's, LIKE i don't know

501
00:45:30.840 --> 00:45:35.119
how many hundreds of kids were in that, school maybe

502
00:45:36.400 --> 00:45:38.719
maybe even a. THOUSAND i don't know however many kids

503
00:45:38.719 --> 00:45:43.840
were in that, school at least five, hundred possibly maybe,

504
00:45:43.920 --> 00:45:49.119
more maybe a. THOUSAND i don't. Know why would anyone

505
00:45:49.159 --> 00:45:52.480
take any notice of my? Shoes was my kind of.

506
00:45:52.599 --> 00:46:03.599
THEORY i, mean in my, EXPERIENCE i found that people

507
00:46:03.679 --> 00:46:08.119
have a tendency of focus on the wrong, thing you,

508
00:46:08.159 --> 00:46:15.719
know on the wrong. Thing so going to school thinking

509
00:46:17.679 --> 00:46:22.119
not really thinking anything of. It maybe people might notice

510
00:46:22.199 --> 00:46:29.559
That i've grown an extra inch. Overnight it's, possible but,

511
00:46:29.760 --> 00:46:38.320
no it is like within minutes of me walking into the,

512
00:46:38.400 --> 00:46:48.960
classroom my new nickname was Beatle crushes because of my,

513
00:46:49.599 --> 00:46:53.039
shoes because they were so. BIG i was wearing beetle.

514
00:46:53.079 --> 00:46:56.440
Crushes that's what they were. Saying that's my new, name Beatle.

515
00:46:56.519 --> 00:47:07.119
Crushes you nicknames at School New Zealand, lamb beetle, Crushes

516
00:47:07.679 --> 00:47:13.320
specky WHEN i got my. Glasses it's very. Original the

517
00:47:13.360 --> 00:47:15.920
other Thing i've talked about this, before but this was

518
00:47:16.039 --> 00:47:23.280
During Grange. Chill there was an event where this, lady

519
00:47:23.360 --> 00:47:28.920
this girl kept Saying, Roland, ROLAND i care about You,

520
00:47:29.039 --> 00:47:33.440
rowland Because roland was one of the characters and this

521
00:47:33.519 --> 00:47:36.280
girl was something in love with him or, SOMETHING i

522
00:47:36.360 --> 00:47:42.519
care about You. Rowland and there was this particular episode

523
00:47:42.559 --> 00:47:46.199
that she kept saying, it and the next DAY i

524
00:47:46.360 --> 00:47:50.039
coming to school and ALL i got all day was New,

525
00:47:50.159 --> 00:47:57.000
land New, LAND i care about you New. Land i'm

526
00:47:57.000 --> 00:47:59.920
not even joking and went on and on and. On

527
00:48:03.280 --> 00:48:09.599
it's sometimes you've got so. BAD i just had to urilate,

528
00:48:09.639 --> 00:48:13.440
myself just sort of start giving me a different, name you. Know,

529
00:48:14.400 --> 00:48:22.639
Anyway SO i had various pairs of. Trainers if you

530
00:48:23.000 --> 00:48:26.119
might live in a country where they're wrongly called, sneakers

531
00:48:26.679 --> 00:48:30.920
but trainers is the correct. WORD i never understood why

532
00:48:30.920 --> 00:48:34.480
are they called sneakers because you can sneak around in

533
00:48:34.519 --> 00:48:38.519
them without anyone hearing. You that's a bit, dodgy isn't.

534
00:48:38.559 --> 00:48:43.239
It that's a bit that's a bit. Wrong it's a bit. Criminal.

535
00:48:44.639 --> 00:48:52.320
Criminal so SO i used to wear trainers or football

536
00:48:52.360 --> 00:48:57.840
boots at, school you, know for football HAD i had,

537
00:48:57.880 --> 00:49:04.199
those had trainers for the other STUFF i. DID i

538
00:49:04.320 --> 00:49:10.239
used to oh wow talking about boots or talking about food,

539
00:49:10.840 --> 00:49:18.719
boobs not, boobs boots or well. Footwear really WHEN i

540
00:49:18.760 --> 00:49:23.239
was in THE Ci, CADETS i had these. Boots and

541
00:49:23.840 --> 00:49:26.400
part of the if you don't if you know anything

542
00:49:26.440 --> 00:49:31.760
about THE Ci cadets or The Army cadets or probably

543
00:49:31.800 --> 00:49:37.280
The Rawal Air Force cadets there or, there used to

544
00:49:37.280 --> 00:49:42.599
be a big thing about making the fronts of the

545
00:49:42.639 --> 00:49:51.440
boots really, shiny like almost like. Mirrors AND i used

546
00:49:51.440 --> 00:49:53.440
to do this with my brother because he was in

547
00:49:53.480 --> 00:50:02.079
The what was he? In he was in THE. Raf

548
00:50:02.320 --> 00:50:04.440
he was in The Air, cadets not The aria, caadet

549
00:50:04.639 --> 00:50:07.760
The air. Cadets so my older brother was in The air.

550
00:50:07.800 --> 00:50:11.079
CADETS i was in The. ARMY i was in The

551
00:50:14.719 --> 00:50:21.360
Navy sea. Cadets BlimE, me SO i. Was he was

552
00:50:21.400 --> 00:50:24.079
in The air. CADETS i was in the sea. Cadets

553
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:29.480
what do they just call? Them THE raf cadets and

554
00:50:29.599 --> 00:50:34.400
The navy. CADETS i don't. Know so, anyway we used

555
00:50:34.400 --> 00:50:37.679
to do our boots, together and part of the thing

556
00:50:37.960 --> 00:50:43.920
was to put polish, on melt the polish with a,

557
00:50:44.039 --> 00:50:48.360
lighter and then have a little bowls of water in

558
00:50:48.519 --> 00:50:54.760
and a cloth and then just basically do circles in.

559
00:50:54.800 --> 00:50:59.199
It we'd spend hours doing. That what a waste of

560
00:50:59.280 --> 00:51:03.599
time it really. Was and THEN i get to The

561
00:51:03.639 --> 00:51:07.119
Sea cadets on A tuesday Or thursday night And i'd do,

562
00:51:07.199 --> 00:51:13.400
it and sometimes the one of the officers would, say,

563
00:51:13.400 --> 00:51:16.039
oh that's not done good, enough and it'd literally stand

564
00:51:17.679 --> 00:51:22.679
on my shoe And i'd spent maybe four hours shining.

565
00:51:22.719 --> 00:51:27.400
Them other, times sometimes other cadets would do it just

566
00:51:27.400 --> 00:51:33.800
as a. Joke, YEAH i didn't go down well with,

567
00:51:33.880 --> 00:51:40.360
me BUT i managed to do. IT i managed to sort.

568
00:51:40.360 --> 00:51:43.159
OF i even got the. Smell it's kind of stuck

569
00:51:43.199 --> 00:51:49.840
in my, head that smell of polish and like burning

570
00:51:49.880 --> 00:51:57.119
polish and damp. Cloth and, yeah it was there's a

571
00:51:57.199 --> 00:52:02.360
degree of satisfaction doing, it but it was also a

572
00:52:02.440 --> 00:52:10.000
percentage of absolute pointlessness doing it as. Well so IT'S

573
00:52:11.119 --> 00:52:16.599
i guess back THEN i didn't realize how valuable time,

574
00:52:16.840 --> 00:52:23.159
was but it. IS i, MEAN i don't think it

575
00:52:23.239 --> 00:52:25.960
taught me, anything you. KNOW i think it's supposed to

576
00:52:26.000 --> 00:52:34.119
teach don't discipline and self, respect stuff like, that AND

577
00:52:35.320 --> 00:52:37.519
i don't have any of, that any of that. Stuff

578
00:52:39.480 --> 00:52:45.239
i've never had any self respect or. Pride, nah hasn't

579
00:52:45.239 --> 00:52:50.440
really hasn't really raised its head my voice About. Kroky

580
00:52:51.599 --> 00:52:54.239
it's probably BECAUSE i spent two hours making a recording,

581
00:52:54.280 --> 00:52:59.440
earlier and also Because i'm sitting. Here we've got deck

582
00:52:59.519 --> 00:53:07.960
crutched OVER I, vinie sorry you're DID i wake you?

583
00:53:08.079 --> 00:53:13.800
Up and so that's another bit of footwear THAT i

584
00:53:13.840 --> 00:53:16.719
probably spent the most of the amount of time. Doing

585
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:19.519
then he's looking at me, like, oh what are you, Doing,

586
00:53:19.599 --> 00:53:27.039
daddy what are you? Doing and then WHEN i left,

587
00:53:27.079 --> 00:53:29.519
school he keeps looking back at. Me what is It

588
00:53:29.679 --> 00:53:32.599
you want me to just tickle your? Nose do me

589
00:53:32.639 --> 00:53:35.559
to tickle your? Nose do you like? That do you like? That,

590
00:53:37.079 --> 00:53:46.679
okay just stroking his. Nose he's liking. That so WHEN

591
00:53:46.679 --> 00:53:52.320
i left, SCHOOL i suddenly had a bit more options

592
00:53:53.639 --> 00:53:56.159
in a sense OF i was getting, PAID i had

593
00:53:56.199 --> 00:54:05.559
money coming. In, HOWEVER i went between wearing absolute grotty

594
00:54:05.679 --> 00:54:13.159
clothes WHERE i was, working including horrible and trainers that

595
00:54:13.199 --> 00:54:15.880
were wearing away and they were getting wet every TIME

596
00:54:15.920 --> 00:54:19.440
i was working in, them and he just did a

597
00:54:19.480 --> 00:54:25.559
little growl at. Me but during that period WHEN i

598
00:54:25.599 --> 00:54:28.960
first started working, THERE i was buying myself some nice

599
00:54:28.960 --> 00:54:34.000
clothes to wear WHEN i wasn't at. Work and because

600
00:54:34.000 --> 00:54:36.920
one of the just in his name was he was

601
00:54:37.039 --> 00:54:39.480
still at, school so he was like a year younger than.

602
00:54:39.559 --> 00:54:44.039
Me so, yeah he was still at school and he

603
00:54:44.119 --> 00:54:49.119
was part time working in the chip, shop and he

604
00:54:49.199 --> 00:54:54.960
took me shopping because he was super, fashionable a bit

605
00:54:55.079 --> 00:54:57.639
like my next door neighbors were as. Well he was

606
00:54:57.719 --> 00:55:00.280
like he had the thing at the time was baggy

607
00:55:00.400 --> 00:55:06.239
trousers and everything about him was a, maculate his, haircut

608
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:11.039
all his, clothing he was so like that was his.

609
00:55:11.199 --> 00:55:15.239
Thing so he kind of tried to tidy me up

610
00:55:15.239 --> 00:55:18.400
a little, bit and it took To he took me

611
00:55:18.480 --> 00:55:20.960
to a couple of his secret shops that he went.

612
00:55:21.000 --> 00:55:24.360
TO i mean there weren't, secret but they were places

613
00:55:24.400 --> 00:55:27.360
that were a little bit of the off the beaten,

614
00:55:27.400 --> 00:55:32.280
track as it were in a different. Town and so

615
00:55:32.360 --> 00:55:35.880
instead of going to next or to some of the more,

616
00:55:37.639 --> 00:55:41.880
frank you, know the the shops in the TOWN i was,

617
00:55:41.960 --> 00:55:44.599
living he took me to a different place where you'd

618
00:55:44.639 --> 00:55:55.039
get something. Different SO i got these boots from this,

619
00:55:55.159 --> 00:56:02.599
shop and they were like cowboy cowboy, Boots it's. True

620
00:56:02.800 --> 00:56:06.639
and they clicked WHEN i. Walked they clicked WHEN i,

621
00:56:06.719 --> 00:56:12.639
walked AND i loved. THEM i loved my. Boots at this, Time,

622
00:56:12.760 --> 00:56:15.039
YEAH i was still fifteen at this, POINT i, think,

623
00:56:15.159 --> 00:56:20.679
YEAH i would have been still, fifteen AND i loved my.

624
00:56:20.760 --> 00:56:27.360
Boots this is probably the, summertime AND i was just

625
00:56:27.440 --> 00:56:34.440
clicking along AND i was wearing nice. Clothes but then

626
00:56:34.480 --> 00:56:37.280
WHEN i went to, WORK i put on these horrible

627
00:56:37.559 --> 00:56:43.199
jeans that were just caked in. Better and WHEN i say,

628
00:56:43.239 --> 00:56:49.320
BETTER i mean like fish and chip better AND i

629
00:56:49.480 --> 00:56:54.559
just stunk stunk of fish and all kinds of stuff

630
00:56:54.559 --> 00:56:57.199
BECAUSE i. WAS i, mean IF i, was IF i,

631
00:56:57.280 --> 00:56:59.519
was IF i you, know IF i didn't do it,

632
00:56:59.559 --> 00:57:05.360
AGAIN i do, OVER i do things. Differently but WOULD

633
00:57:05.400 --> 00:57:08.880
i Because i'd be that person, again WOULDN'T. I it

634
00:57:08.920 --> 00:57:14.320
wouldn't be. ME i definitely wouldn't do that again BECAUSE

635
00:57:14.760 --> 00:57:17.559
i didn't do my feet any favors wearing those old

636
00:57:18.639 --> 00:57:21.559
smelly trainers that were falling, apart and they were wet

637
00:57:22.079 --> 00:57:30.840
all day. Long and THEN i THINK i might have

638
00:57:30.880 --> 00:57:34.039
walred well in some boots part of it as, well

639
00:57:34.039 --> 00:57:36.360
but my feet was still getting wet WHILE i was

640
00:57:37.000 --> 00:57:41.079
going in and out of the kitchen and. Stuff be

641
00:57:41.239 --> 00:57:49.159
he's a bit, restless SO i liked them boots though

642
00:57:49.199 --> 00:57:59.800
they were. Nice and then NINETEEN i had a funeral

643
00:57:59.840 --> 00:58:04.960
to go to in nineteen eighty, SEVEN i think it,

644
00:58:05.119 --> 00:58:09.320
was AND i bought some, clothes AND i bought some

645
00:58:09.519 --> 00:58:17.199
like a, suit AND i bought some new. Shoes and

646
00:58:17.239 --> 00:58:23.159
then during the late EIGHTIES i used to BUY i

647
00:58:23.159 --> 00:58:25.880
think most of my clothes THAT i got was From

648
00:58:28.000 --> 00:58:33.639
next Or marks And, spencers you, know places like, that

649
00:58:34.280 --> 00:58:39.320
just being h Or. Debenhams SO i didn't spend much

650
00:58:40.239 --> 00:58:43.679
money on, clothes because WHEN i did buy, something it

651
00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:49.679
lasted a long. Time so let's SAY i spent ten

652
00:58:49.760 --> 00:58:54.800
pounds on a pair of five oh one, Jeans did

653
00:58:54.920 --> 00:58:58.320
you know that would be the only Pair i'd buy

654
00:58:58.360 --> 00:59:04.039
for a? Year MAYBE i didn't HAVE i never had

655
00:59:04.039 --> 00:59:10.239
a small amount of. CLOTHES i still. Do, really it's

656
00:59:10.360 --> 00:59:14.199
just the way that Because i've been almost like a

657
00:59:14.239 --> 00:59:17.000
bit of a, traveler you, know moving from place to.

658
00:59:17.119 --> 00:59:20.199
Place we know what traveling. IS i know WHAT i

659
00:59:20.280 --> 00:59:25.039
mean is not really. TRAVELING i, mean As i've traveled

660
00:59:25.559 --> 00:59:30.840
a few, distances but it's just apart from the last ten,

661
00:59:30.920 --> 00:59:33.000
Years i've kind of been on the move a. Lot

662
00:59:34.719 --> 00:59:38.840
AND i Think i've moved about fifty times SINCE i left,

663
00:59:38.880 --> 00:59:44.920
school something silly like. That SO i realized that the

664
00:59:44.920 --> 00:59:48.079
more STUFF i, had the harder it was to. Move

665
00:59:49.320 --> 00:59:51.360
the MORE i had to, carry the MORE i had

666
00:59:51.400 --> 00:59:55.760
to you. Know it just that's why for a lot

667
00:59:55.800 --> 01:00:00.440
of the TIME i just kept things to a. Minimum

668
01:00:01.639 --> 01:00:07.519
and THEN i don't remember what kind of SHOES i

669
01:00:07.679 --> 01:00:18.199
had in the late, eighties really don't, remember or early.

670
01:00:18.320 --> 01:00:26.719
NINETIES i kind of can't. Remember this is. TERRIBLE i

671
01:00:26.760 --> 01:00:30.400
can't remember any SHOES i had throughout a whole. Decade

672
01:00:31.400 --> 01:00:35.320
it was that unimportant to. Me but in the late

673
01:00:35.400 --> 01:00:39.360
NINETIES i probably had some nice, shoes not like super,

674
01:00:39.440 --> 01:00:49.639
nice but you, know, pleasant, okay okay. SHOES i mean two,

675
01:00:49.760 --> 01:00:59.119
THOUSANDS i started wearing proper shoes for working in, offices

676
01:01:00.119 --> 01:01:05.480
So i'd had black, shoes just standard boring office, shoes

677
01:01:08.960 --> 01:01:14.440
So i'd have that throughout the two. Thousands in two

678
01:01:14.440 --> 01:01:18.000
thousand and, FOUR i went through a period WHEN i

679
01:01:18.079 --> 01:01:24.119
was wearing quite nice. Clothes, no not two thousand and four,

680
01:01:24.159 --> 01:01:27.199
too maybe two thousand and, four bit two thousand and,

681
01:01:27.199 --> 01:01:30.480
five two thousand and. Six, DEFINITELY i was wearing a

682
01:01:30.519 --> 01:01:34.679
lot of white. Stuff don't ask me, why BUT i

683
01:01:34.719 --> 01:01:39.159
was wearing white, trousers white, TOPS i was wearing white,

684
01:01:39.199 --> 01:01:46.440
shoes AND i was shaving my, head SO i don't

685
01:01:46.440 --> 01:01:50.119
know WHAT i look. Like but, yeah it was just

686
01:01:51.000 --> 01:01:55.760
a little THINK i went, through AND i had generally

687
01:01:56.519 --> 01:02:03.119
during that, period probably throughout the whole of the two,

688
01:02:03.199 --> 01:02:09.199
thousands my shoes were quite. NICE i generally had the decent,

689
01:02:09.280 --> 01:02:11.960
shoes and IF i needed new, ONES i just bought.

690
01:02:11.960 --> 01:02:15.519
Them so it's just not really a big, issue AND

691
01:02:15.559 --> 01:02:18.800
i always had at least one like two sets of,

692
01:02:18.840 --> 01:02:22.719
shoes one for work and one for at, home maybe

693
01:02:22.760 --> 01:02:26.840
two for at, home depending on what you know it's or.

694
01:02:26.960 --> 01:02:40.599
Casuals then in two thousand and, SEVEN i was wearing Hush.

695
01:02:40.639 --> 01:02:44.960
Puppies and the REASON i liked Hush puppies BECAUSE i

696
01:02:44.960 --> 01:02:48.880
could just put them on and they didn't, slip they

697
01:02:48.880 --> 01:02:52.599
didn't cause. Blisters, No they're just the ones THAT i got.

698
01:02:53.199 --> 01:02:59.159
Perfect absolutely loved, them AND i THINK i might have

699
01:02:59.239 --> 01:03:02.039
got THEM i think about two thousand and, seven AND

700
01:03:02.079 --> 01:03:05.079
i got a new pair nearly every, year exactly the

701
01:03:05.119 --> 01:03:11.239
same pair for about four years in a row in

702
01:03:11.360 --> 01:03:15.480
the SHOP i was getting them from stop doing, them

703
01:03:15.880 --> 01:03:20.559
SO i had to change over to something. Else by this,

704
01:03:20.719 --> 01:03:29.360
TIME i wasn't NEEDING i didn't need to wear anything

705
01:03:29.400 --> 01:03:33.119
in an office BECAUSE i was like self employed, counseling

706
01:03:33.639 --> 01:03:37.559
havn't been to, university SO i didn't need to wear

707
01:03:37.800 --> 01:03:41.920
black shoes and stuff like that or you know office.

708
01:03:41.960 --> 01:03:46.280
ATTIRE i STILL i was, smart BUT i didn't necessarily

709
01:03:46.360 --> 01:03:55.400
need to wear. WELL i possibly did wear, shoes AND

710
01:03:55.440 --> 01:04:01.880
i remember bought some shoes for My name's a goodbye,

711
01:04:01.920 --> 01:04:07.480
event AND i got. Blistered i've still got the shoes,

712
01:04:07.519 --> 01:04:10.679
now ten years, later AND i got such bad blisters that.

713
01:04:10.840 --> 01:04:19.360
Day it was. Ridiculous they were just too. TIGHT i

714
01:04:19.360 --> 01:04:21.679
mean they weren't too tight in the, feet they were

715
01:04:21.719 --> 01:04:27.480
just too tight in the. Heel But i've still got,

716
01:04:27.480 --> 01:04:35.199
THEM i, think AND i sub chucked them. Away and

717
01:04:35.239 --> 01:04:39.800
then the last few, years or the last ten, YEARS

718
01:04:39.840 --> 01:04:47.239
i SUPPOSE i JUST i was GETTING i like to get.

719
01:04:48.960 --> 01:04:54.159
Stretched what they're called, stretchers. Stretches that's not the right,

720
01:04:54.199 --> 01:04:59.480
word is, it. SKETCHES i was buying sketches for the

721
01:04:59.519 --> 01:05:05.199
last few. Years and also a few years, AGO i

722
01:05:05.239 --> 01:05:09.760
bought these boots that were kind of really, big really

723
01:05:09.880 --> 01:05:16.119
nice boots that are perfect forul and it's raining or

724
01:05:16.119 --> 01:05:19.800
anything like, THAT i mean. Mountaineering REALLY i could wear

725
01:05:19.800 --> 01:05:24.559
them for probably or, hillwalking BUT i don't wear them very.

726
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:31.840
OFTEN i mean NOWADAYS i pretty WELL i wear. These

727
01:05:31.960 --> 01:05:35.920
i've got some new shoes, recently well a few months,

728
01:05:35.960 --> 01:05:40.159
ago probably because my other ones had holes in, them

729
01:05:40.760 --> 01:05:48.239
and they just slip ons. Casual they seem to do the,

730
01:05:48.360 --> 01:05:50.760
job but there are. Bits they're a bit big for.

731
01:05:50.880 --> 01:05:55.480
Me ALTHOUGH i don't wear any, socks so IF i

732
01:05:55.519 --> 01:06:00.280
wore socks had probably fit a bit. Better SO i

733
01:06:00.320 --> 01:06:03.039
couldn't really go. Running not THAT i would go, running

734
01:06:03.039 --> 01:06:05.039
BUT i. COULDN'T i couldn't run in them because it

735
01:06:05.079 --> 01:06:10.920
would Be, yeah they'd fall, off they'd. Slip, Yeah i'd

736
01:06:11.000 --> 01:06:21.960
lose them in the hedge or. SOMETHING i did have some,

737
01:06:25.119 --> 01:06:27.559
trainers BUT i don't know IF i still got, THEM

738
01:06:27.599 --> 01:06:35.440
i might chuck them. AWAY i can't remember all. Footwear

739
01:06:35.559 --> 01:06:39.760
i'll tell You i've got her WHEN i Had. Andre

740
01:06:42.679 --> 01:06:45.000
i've not talked about all the Slippers i've. Had that'd

741
01:06:45.039 --> 01:06:48.400
be a different. Story but WHEN i moved in, HERE

742
01:06:48.440 --> 01:06:54.800
i had. Slippers And andre destroyed two pairs of my,

743
01:06:54.920 --> 01:07:01.000
slippers one one after a. Number kept buying them and

744
01:07:01.039 --> 01:07:03.880
pulling them WHEN i was wearing, them and you, know

745
01:07:03.960 --> 01:07:06.519
WHEN i wasn't, around it'd do all kinds of things to.

746
01:07:06.559 --> 01:07:14.800
Them SO i bought, crocs some blue, crocs And andre

747
01:07:15.800 --> 01:07:17.920
he loved them as, well because he could pull on

748
01:07:18.000 --> 01:07:23.760
them and bite, them but he. Couldn't you, know in some,

749
01:07:23.800 --> 01:07:27.679
ways he probably liked them just as. MUCH i, mean

750
01:07:27.719 --> 01:07:29.519
he still had my old slippers to do what he

751
01:07:29.599 --> 01:07:31.840
wanted to do with. Them and let's just let's not

752
01:07:31.920 --> 01:07:35.400
go into. That but he did exactly what he, wanted

753
01:07:37.800 --> 01:07:42.440
but the crocs kind of you, know they were quite.

754
01:07:42.559 --> 01:07:47.599
Useful and THEN i think the they, broke they started falling,

755
01:07:47.639 --> 01:07:52.639
apart AND i ordered some more. Crocs but this TIME

756
01:07:52.719 --> 01:07:54.840
i thought it'd be. Funny i'd get some pink, ones

757
01:07:56.239 --> 01:08:01.519
just make my friend. Laugh so, Yeah i've got some

758
01:08:01.639 --> 01:08:06.039
pink crocks and that's WHAT i. Wear. Now you might, think,

759
01:08:06.079 --> 01:08:08.280
well why wouldn't make any difference what color they? Are

760
01:08:08.320 --> 01:08:15.880
but people notice and people do. COMMENT i think it's

761
01:08:17.680 --> 01:08:23.600
because that make me look so so super. SEXY i

762
01:08:23.640 --> 01:08:24.760
think it must be what it.

763
01:08:24.840 --> 01:08:35.960
Is, YEAH i think what up to?

764
01:08:36.039 --> 01:08:43.119
DATE i think that's all my bearing in. Mind i've

765
01:08:43.159 --> 01:08:46.640
been around for so. Long there's going to be so

766
01:08:46.720 --> 01:08:52.600
many pairs of shoes That i've forgotten all. About but

767
01:08:52.680 --> 01:08:58.079
because of MY i want to say lack of, fashion

768
01:08:58.199 --> 01:09:03.119
but that's the correct. TERM i. Don't i've never really

769
01:09:03.159 --> 01:09:12.199
put a lot of energy in two, shoes although PERHAPS

770
01:09:12.239 --> 01:09:15.319
i would have been better off IF i. Had it

771
01:09:15.520 --> 01:09:19.680
just never really interested. Me AND i didn't, know, like

772
01:09:19.800 --> 01:09:23.760
why would anyone look at my? Shoes BUT i know

773
01:09:23.920 --> 01:09:27.880
sometimes people do look at people's. Shoes i've just never

774
01:09:27.920 --> 01:09:31.760
looked at anyone's. SHOES i don't see it of any. Relevance,

775
01:09:38.880 --> 01:09:52.760
yeah so that's. Me that's, me so. Shoes this is

776
01:09:52.840 --> 01:09:57.680
my that's my boring subject of the. Day AND i

777
01:09:57.720 --> 01:10:04.880
hope it was smily mildly. Boring so thank you for.

778
01:10:04.960 --> 01:10:09.560
Listening remember to be kind to, yourself because you do

779
01:10:09.800 --> 01:10:18.680
deserve to be. Happy be gentle with. Yourself you deserve

780
01:10:18.800 --> 01:10:23.800
to feel. Safe lots of.

781
01:10:23.840 --> 01:10:24.039
Love.

782
01:10:27.079 --> 01:10:47.760
Bye relax in a more deep and meaningful, way maybe

783
01:10:48.000 --> 01:10:53.079
in a way that can not just allow you to

784
01:10:53.319 --> 01:11:03.479
feel calmer now and through out the time we spend together,

785
01:11:04.000 --> 01:11:11.720
here not just relaxed at the end of the recording

786
01:11:11.840 --> 01:11:16.680
when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of

787
01:11:18.159 --> 01:11:33.319
comfort and, peace but ALSO i think it would be

788
01:11:33.479 --> 01:11:49.720
nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer

789
01:11:53.359 --> 01:12:03.199
after the recording has, ended so that you can still

790
01:12:03.840 --> 01:12:14.159
benefit from listening to my, voice maybe in a few hours,

791
01:12:14.239 --> 01:12:29.920
time perhaps, tomorrow and then by listening, regularly especially if you,

792
01:12:30.079 --> 01:12:34.760
find like some people do and myself as, WELL i

793
01:12:34.880 --> 01:12:41.479
SOMETIMES i find one particular recording that really resonates with,

794
01:12:41.560 --> 01:12:47.920
me AND i just listen to it over and over

795
01:12:48.039 --> 01:13:02.680
again every, morning every. Evening it was this recording From

796
01:13:03.479 --> 01:13:07.960
we're going back to about nineteen ninety. Nine it was

797
01:13:08.239 --> 01:13:13.159
it wasn't, hypnosis but it was a guided. Visualizations it

798
01:13:13.239 --> 01:13:20.439
kind of was, hypnosis, really AND i managed to find

799
01:13:20.479 --> 01:13:24.239
it again and it still has the same effect on.

800
01:13:24.439 --> 01:13:36.760
Me and part of it was the person's voice relaxed,

801
01:13:36.800 --> 01:13:46.920
me just felt so, peaceful And i'd look forward to

802
01:13:47.079 --> 01:13:53.520
listening to her in the morning and in the. Evening

803
01:13:59.800 --> 01:14:08.920
AND i knew before even pressing the play button that

804
01:14:09.279 --> 01:14:13.640
Since i've done, that pressed the play. Button this is

805
01:14:14.039 --> 01:14:28.479
in the days OF cd players press the play. Button in,

806
01:14:28.520 --> 01:14:31.319
fact it might have even been a tape tape. Recorder

807
01:14:32.560 --> 01:14:40.920
i'd lie down on the bed and then even without

808
01:14:41.479 --> 01:14:54.039
necessarily listening to her words BECAUSE i had them. Memorized,

809
01:14:54.119 --> 01:15:04.800
really it was as if my body knew exactly what to,

810
01:15:04.880 --> 01:15:20.680
do and the muscles just almost went into automatic, relaxation

811
01:15:31.520 --> 01:15:45.239
AND i remember my mind would slow. Down. Now, NOW

812
01:15:45.720 --> 01:15:52.000
i was listening to this recording in the early days

813
01:15:52.039 --> 01:16:00.319
of learning, hypnosis and long BEFORE i ever made any

814
01:16:02.199 --> 01:16:07.640
videos or audio recordings, myself BECAUSE i didn't start doing

815
01:16:07.680 --> 01:16:21.199
that till two thousand and, six BUT i, KNEW i

816
01:16:21.279 --> 01:16:34.600
knew how HELPFUL i found being able to just let,

817
01:16:34.680 --> 01:16:43.079
go to have that trust in the person That i'm listening,

818
01:16:43.119 --> 01:16:57.359
to knowing that it's going to be just as, relaxing

819
01:16:57.479 --> 01:17:03.800
if not more. So, yeah each time you hear my,

820
01:17:03.960 --> 01:17:19.520
voice you may feel the. Same some people have been

821
01:17:19.560 --> 01:17:32.439
listening to me for over a, decade maybe not, solidly

822
01:17:33.560 --> 01:17:40.119
obviously not twenty four hours a, day but maybe people come.

823
01:17:40.199 --> 01:17:55.960
Back some people maybe listen every. Day that's something THAT

824
01:17:56.079 --> 01:18:09.039
i do which you may not realize by, listening is

825
01:18:13.159 --> 01:18:27.479
WHEN i record these. Recordings, now for, EXAMPLE i also

826
01:18:28.960 --> 01:18:32.760
am affected by the words.

827
01:18:33.800 --> 01:18:34.039
THAT i.

828
01:18:34.239 --> 01:18:45.760
Say so IF i said to, you focus on your,

829
01:18:45.840 --> 01:18:55.880
feet notice your feet, RELAXING i will be focusing on my.

830
01:18:56.079 --> 01:19:18.199
FEET i will be noticing my feet. Relaxing IF i,

831
01:19:18.439 --> 01:19:25.039
said focus on your, hands and maybe notice the difference

832
01:19:26.079 --> 01:19:36.840
between each, hand perhaps notice the air in the, room

833
01:19:37.359 --> 01:19:41.640
the temperature of the. Room on the backs of your.

834
01:19:41.760 --> 01:19:53.720
Hands you may start to notice what almost feels like

835
01:19:53.760 --> 01:20:01.479
a very light, breeze even though the may not be

836
01:20:01.640 --> 01:20:07.000
any type of breeze at all where you are right.

837
01:20:07.039 --> 01:20:25.600
Now and as you become aware of your, Hands i'm

838
01:20:25.760 --> 01:20:47.760
also aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling. Now

839
01:20:54.640 --> 01:21:00.439
and when it comes to potentially drifting off to, sleep

840
01:21:01.560 --> 01:21:14.119
which may be the reason you're. LISTENING i also feel

841
01:21:14.319 --> 01:21:29.399
drowsy WHEN i make these. RECORDINGS i also notice my mind.

842
01:21:31.199 --> 01:21:51.560
Drifting in, fact at Times i've actually fallen asleep without even,

843
01:21:51.680 --> 01:22:06.239
noticing and THEN i carry on. Talking it's only WHEN

844
01:22:06.520 --> 01:22:15.640
i listen back to do the EDITING i hear snoring

845
01:22:17.520 --> 01:22:24.840
AND i, THINK i don't remember. SNORING i remember. Talking

846
01:22:27.720 --> 01:22:34.880
this snoring was a pick turned. Up that's WHY i

847
01:22:34.960 --> 01:22:43.079
sound like WHEN i snare AND i get really into

848
01:22:43.159 --> 01:23:02.560
the whole. EXPERIENCE i don't know how you, feel how

849
01:23:02.640 --> 01:23:13.479
relaxed you feel in your, feet how relaxed you feel

850
01:23:13.640 --> 01:23:40.279
in your. HANDS i have noticed more and more that

851
01:23:40.479 --> 01:23:56.680
the more, relaxed deeper level of comfort you, feel the

852
01:23:56.840 --> 01:24:16.279
easier your breathing. Becomes it's almost like that additional muscle.

853
01:24:16.520 --> 01:24:39.279
Relaxation so this allows you the breath easier without necessarily

854
01:24:42.119 --> 01:25:10.119
focusing on your. Breath, however being able to notice the

855
01:25:10.159 --> 01:25:40.079
ease in which you breathe so, naturally you breathe so

856
01:25:40.399 --> 01:25:42.039
very easily.

857
01:25:43.039 --> 01:25:43.119
And.

858
01:25:43.640 --> 01:26:30.680
Smoothly WHENEVER i imagine my breathing, improving When i've got my eyes,

859
01:26:30.840 --> 01:26:50.039
CLOSED i tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees

860
01:26:50.199 --> 01:27:30.439
and flowers producing all that life giving. Oxygen it feels nice,

861
01:27:30.760 --> 01:27:50.880
to if nothing, else just taking some time away from,

862
01:27:50.960 --> 01:28:34.840
everything enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful.

863
01:28:35.000 --> 01:29:12.760
Heart time seems to just drip, by so very, slowly,

864
01:29:25.279 --> 01:30:06.800
relaxed so, deeply, peaceful completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever

865
01:30:11.159 --> 01:31:15.319
in this, moment completely. Free notice that your mind has slowed.

866
01:31:15.439 --> 01:32:10.479
Down slowed down because nothing really requires your. Attention you

867
01:32:10.600 --> 01:32:27.039
can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress rip

868
01:32:27.880 --> 01:32:41.800
out of your, body to appear out of every part

869
01:32:47.680 --> 01:33:06.399
of your body and being relieved beast from your brain

870
01:33:11.640 --> 01:33:46.920
in your mind slowly but, surely the muscles in your

871
01:33:47.039 --> 01:34:57.439
legs relax so very, deeply relas so, deeply and the,

872
01:34:57.760 --> 01:35:25.760
feeings the pleasant feelings in your arms and, shoulders deepening

873
01:35:26.119 --> 01:35:49.720
each part of your body further and deeper and. Deeper,

874
01:36:04.199 --> 01:36:34.640
noticine the feelings in the back of your, neck feelings

875
01:36:34.800 --> 01:37:24.079
in your, wrists muscles in front of your. BODY i all,

876
01:37:24.239 --> 01:38:12.840
say feeling peaceful, deeply there's a sense of peace spreads

877
01:38:13.319 --> 01:38:15.760
through your very.

878
01:38:16.000 --> 01:38:48.399
Core even when you.

879
01:38:51.279 --> 01:39:35.479
Focus on your, mind her mind becomes be and, slower even, deeper,

880
01:39:50.640 --> 01:40:20.239
relaxing so ferries slow.

881
01:40:36.000 --> 01:40:36.119
Your.

882
01:40:36.399 --> 01:40:53.640
Stomach It's forllin's, stomach.

883
01:41:15.239 --> 01:41:15.439
Your.

884
01:41:15.640 --> 01:41:49.600
Back, Notice notice how relaxed you'd never. Fear in the

885
01:41:49.880 --> 01:42:23.239
hole of your. Back you spy from your brain all

886
01:42:23.279 --> 01:42:30.920
the way down the middle of your, back sending and

887
01:42:31.399 --> 01:43:04.880
receiving millions of messages every, day deep coomfort increasing deep

888
01:43:05.000 --> 01:44:10.960
playing rid you, melegs spreading those signals down a spine

889
01:44:11.079 --> 01:44:33.960
or cord into, air every part of your, body your

890
01:44:34.119 --> 01:45:22.600
chins and your calf, muscles your. Elbows feelings of peace

891
01:45:25.520 --> 01:45:39.479
and tranquility spreading through your, body tips of your, toes

892
01:45:43.720 --> 01:45:55.640
to your, eyes your, fingers all the way till you lower.

893
01:45:55.720 --> 01:47:10.359
BACK i thinker re the thinker, pace drifting, mind just wandering,

894
01:47:10.520 --> 01:47:35.560
away happy to let, go let go, completely let, go

895
01:48:00.960 --> 01:48:58.319
so tranquil the whole, body enjoying a sensor lett him,

896
01:48:58.359 --> 01:51:01.079
go no peace fur enjoy the, space this space of

897
01:51:01.359 --> 01:51:05.399
peace and.

898
01:51:05.720 --> 01:51:39.439
Safety so firy fy, relaxed.

899
01:52:34.760 --> 01:53:32.359
M letting. Go maybe we can just focus on the

900
01:53:32.520 --> 01:54:07.800
different parts of your, body just to notice a forehead

901
01:54:08.119 --> 01:55:13.760
and your. Eyes youore so, loose noticing the sense of complete,

902
01:55:14.279 --> 01:57:18.800
freedom absolute. Freedom drif Draf hee's for energy peace to

903
01:57:18.840 --> 01:58:33.840
breeze such easier. Loose you may have or may not

904
01:58:33.960 --> 01:59:35.680
have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful, movely even more deeply

905
01:59:41.119 --> 02:01:17.439
in the direction of total blissful, pace blissful, Peace, christ total,

906
02:01:17.680 --> 02:02:36.600
Peace come so, calm let him, go peace with Mind

907
02:02:38.840 --> 02:03:11.960
rex Forty so, relax so.

908
02:03:12.479 --> 02:03:40.600
Relaxed your body feels almost.

909
02:03:42.199 --> 02:04:35.640
Invisible so very, FIRST i think, peaceful so, peaceful really.

910
02:04:42.760 --> 02:05:24.359
Likeaunds and you could start to notice that you are

911
02:05:24.560 --> 02:05:36.119
feeling more, relaxed even Though i've not purposely focused your

912
02:05:36.279 --> 02:05:44.680
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

913
02:05:44.800 --> 02:05:54.079
within you throughout your, body and your mind starts to slow,

914
02:05:54.119 --> 02:06:06.199
Down and that could be almost in recognition OF i

915
02:06:06.199 --> 02:06:18.680
guess my speech not being particularly, fast and things just

916
02:06:18.960 --> 02:06:31.880
generally feel. Calmer just by listening to my, voice you

917
02:06:31.920 --> 02:06:38.760
give yourself an opportunity to take a break from the,

918
02:06:38.880 --> 02:06:45.359
day take a break from your life as it, is

919
02:06:48.680 --> 02:06:56.279
and to give yourself a, rest giving yourself permission to

920
02:06:56.399 --> 02:07:01.680
take some time, off and to allow your body to

921
02:07:01.800 --> 02:07:11.520
relax and allow your mind to slow, down which in

922
02:07:11.640 --> 02:07:19.439
turn releases the tension and he stresses that you had

923
02:07:19.479 --> 02:07:29.279
in your. Body it's almost as if the parts of

924
02:07:29.319 --> 02:07:41.279
your body just open up allowing the negativity out and

925
02:07:41.359 --> 02:07:49.000
at the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing

926
02:07:49.479 --> 02:07:57.239
energy which then fills your body up and your mind

927
02:07:57.439 --> 02:08:13.600
to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing, confidence

928
02:08:17.479 --> 02:08:34.159
an almost uplifting, feeling positive, healing an energy that spreads

929
02:08:34.479 --> 02:08:45.319
through your body like a wave of, comfort and all

930
02:08:45.399 --> 02:08:57.479
this comes and just allowing yourself a few, minutes maybe

931
02:08:57.560 --> 02:09:00.239
half an, hour however long you want it to, be

932
02:09:01.680 --> 02:09:13.600
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

933
02:09:15.840 --> 02:09:29.359
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and, relaxation,

934
02:09:31.880 --> 02:09:45.640
calmness which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and

935
02:09:45.720 --> 02:09:57.039
happiness to move around your body and into your. Mind

936
02:09:58.680 --> 02:10:04.520
almost if your mind and your body are sinking, together

937
02:10:08.760 --> 02:10:18.479
almost mirroring each, other with that growing positivity and, calmness

938
02:10:23.520 --> 02:10:30.760
and it feels. Nice it really does feel nice to

939
02:10:30.920 --> 02:10:36.680
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

940
02:10:40.079 --> 02:10:52.359
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

941
02:10:54.079 --> 02:11:09.560
deep relaxation spreading throughout your. Body and AS i focus

942
02:11:10.840 --> 02:11:16.800
on each part of your, body you can notice that

943
02:11:16.800 --> 02:11:31.199
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on.

944
02:11:31.279 --> 02:11:42.720
It it becomes even more calm and comfortable just by,

945
02:11:42.920 --> 02:11:52.960
focusing and AS i move down your, body starting at your,

946
02:11:53.079 --> 02:12:00.279
head the parts that you've already focused on or can

947
02:12:00.680 --> 02:12:09.319
tenue to relax, deeply and those parts that we've not

948
02:12:09.560 --> 02:12:21.600
yet focused on or just automatically release any remain intension

949
02:12:22.800 --> 02:12:34.920
in anticipation of even more comfort about to. Come, Now

950
02:12:37.119 --> 02:12:43.319
i'm going to start by focusing on your, forehead just

951
02:12:43.479 --> 02:12:51.960
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

952
02:12:52.039 --> 02:12:59.560
background sounds like Mister herbert the, pigeon and just allow

953
02:12:59.640 --> 02:13:06.920
you to feel even more. Relaxed just means you're in the.

954
02:13:07.039 --> 02:13:15.359
Moment this isn't this isn't a sterile. Environment this is the.

955
02:13:15.520 --> 02:13:23.439
WORLD i live in the, countryside so there's lots of

956
02:13:24.960 --> 02:13:34.800
nature sounds. Around so as you focus on your, forehead

957
02:13:36.279 --> 02:13:41.760
just notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you

958
02:13:43.880 --> 02:13:50.840
focus only on my voice and that part of your.

959
02:13:50.880 --> 02:14:01.960
Body moving down to your, eyes focusing on your, eyes

960
02:14:04.119 --> 02:14:15.680
noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light

961
02:14:16.680 --> 02:14:22.920
at the same, time and all the muscles around your

962
02:14:22.960 --> 02:14:37.520
eyes relaxing. Completely moving your focus down to your, mouth your,

963
02:14:37.560 --> 02:14:44.880
lips your, tongue your, teeth and your, gums the whole

964
02:14:45.079 --> 02:14:59.640
of your mouth relaxing calm and loose as you focus

965
02:14:59.760 --> 02:15:07.439
now on your, jaw not just the parts of your

966
02:15:07.520 --> 02:15:12.039
jaw near your mouth and your, chin but all the

967
02:15:12.079 --> 02:15:16.560
way up the size of your face to your, ears

968
02:15:18.720 --> 02:15:46.439
the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and. Calm focusing.

969
02:15:47.000 --> 02:15:48.000
On your, neck.

970
02:15:50.399 --> 02:15:57.640
The front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

971
02:15:57.720 --> 02:16:08.239
loose and. Calm the sides of your, neck the right

972
02:16:08.359 --> 02:16:20.760
and left side of your neck relax and loose and.

973
02:16:20.880 --> 02:16:34.200
Calm and now the back of your, neck focusing on

974
02:16:34.280 --> 02:16:36.120
the back of your, neck.

975
02:16:41.760 --> 02:16:46.239
Letting go of any tension that may have been there,

976
02:16:46.440 --> 02:16:59.920
before and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and, relief,

977
02:17:00.079 --> 02:17:06.479
yes that you can experience in the back of your.

978
02:17:06.559 --> 02:17:19.319
Neck moving down your back and moving either side of

979
02:17:19.399 --> 02:17:25.879
your spine right from the top of your back all

980
02:17:25.920 --> 02:17:35.319
the way down to the bottom of your back down

981
02:17:38.959 --> 02:17:46.399
to your lower. Back and as you move up and

982
02:17:46.559 --> 02:17:55.600
down your, spine you can feel the muscles either side

983
02:17:55.639 --> 02:18:09.719
of your spine relaxing even. More and as those muscles,

984
02:18:09.760 --> 02:18:20.200
relax that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from

985
02:18:20.239 --> 02:18:29.920
your spine into both sides of your, back the top

986
02:18:29.959 --> 02:18:36.799
of your, back the middle and your lower. Back and

987
02:18:36.879 --> 02:18:44.239
as you scan gently and slowly up and down your.

988
02:18:44.319 --> 02:18:49.479
Back there's the muscles in the top of your back

989
02:18:50.639 --> 02:18:59.280
relax and become. Looser the muscles in the middle of

990
02:18:59.319 --> 02:19:06.760
your back also seem to just almost divide from each,

991
02:19:06.799 --> 02:19:20.360
other separating and almost. Melting and in your lower back

992
02:19:24.079 --> 02:19:27.200
it seems to be an extra special feeling.

993
02:19:30.760 --> 02:19:30.920
Of.

994
02:19:31.000 --> 02:19:42.719
Comfort the spreads into your, hips so down your lower,

995
02:19:42.799 --> 02:19:51.120
back into your, hips into the area where your cosix,

996
02:19:51.159 --> 02:19:59.719
are and into your, buttocks and all those muscles that

997
02:20:00.559 --> 02:20:12.879
spread from your lower back into your hip area start to,

998
02:20:13.239 --> 02:20:28.879
melt start to really let. GO i don't even nowhere

999
02:20:29.959 --> 02:20:35.920
about to focus on your. Shoulders your back and your

1000
02:20:35.959 --> 02:20:47.879
spine will continue to let, go continue to relax.

1001
02:20:50.719 --> 02:20:50.799
So.

1002
02:20:53.719 --> 02:21:03.319
Calmly and as you focus on your, shoulders you may

1003
02:21:03.479 --> 02:21:23.479
notice that they're already feeling really. Loose they're already, feeding.

1004
02:21:27.879 --> 02:21:34.920
Calm and.

1005
02:21:35.360 --> 02:21:47.680
Fearing those muscles then move from your neck into your.

1006
02:21:47.719 --> 02:22:15.639
Shoulders feel so soft and, gentle so smooth and, calm

1007
02:22:24.239 --> 02:22:36.840
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1008
02:22:37.040 --> 02:22:46.840
into your, shoulders that sense of relaxation not just traveling

1009
02:22:47.319 --> 02:23:04.600
deeply into your, muscles but also relaxing the bones and

1010
02:23:04.840 --> 02:23:13.600
moving all away to underneath your, arms relaxing a whole

1011
02:23:13.760 --> 02:23:19.360
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1012
02:23:23.559 --> 02:23:38.760
Healing you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your. Shoulders

1013
02:23:42.239 --> 02:24:04.479
who sends that deep healing message into your, arms and

1014
02:24:04.559 --> 02:24:09.680
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1015
02:24:09.760 --> 02:24:32.799
even there because they're so, relaxed so deeply, relaxed so so,

1016
02:24:33.559 --> 02:25:10.360
calm so pose not feeling spreading all the way down your,

1017
02:25:10.559 --> 02:25:35.680
arms two, elbows including your elbows circumforts spreads.

1018
02:25:39.040 --> 02:25:39.920
Your away.

1019
02:25:42.319 --> 02:25:59.440
Into, wrists your forearments and your wrists feeling so. Heavy

1020
02:26:00.959 --> 02:26:42.319
yet at the same, time sunlight and gentle feric Seve

1021
02:26:44.760 --> 02:26:50.079
now on your, hands.

1022
02:27:11.200 --> 02:27:12.639
My, hands.

1023
02:27:18.360 --> 02:27:43.040
So peaceful in your. Hands there's a sense of.

1024
02:27:46.520 --> 02:27:46.840
Real.

1025
02:27:47.559 --> 02:28:14.479
Peace it seems to feel so familiar when your hands relax.

1026
02:28:15.680 --> 02:29:21.120
Deeply mhm Eyes your thing is a, thing is sold

1027
02:29:21.520 --> 02:30:24.319
us nothing its. Tips moving your attention to the front

1028
02:30:24.479 --> 02:30:54.680
of your, body so, Comfortable moving your focus to your,

1029
02:30:54.840 --> 02:32:41.440
legs lo muscles in your, thighs your, knees so, relaxed

1030
02:33:08.680 --> 02:35:16.879
a calf muscles and just shains a puzzy four and

1031
02:35:17.079 --> 02:35:45.600
the faathing your. Feet so, peaceful so, calm so, peaceful so,

1032
02:35:45.920 --> 02:36:47.079
calm so, PEACEFUL, ccm so peace f RelA, sin peace for.

1033
02:36:50.959 --> 02:36:52.319
S come.

1034
02:37:00.079 --> 02:37:07.040
Out of that deep, relaxation just spread your chest in your,

1035
02:37:07.159 --> 02:37:39.520
stomach letting go. Everything So i'm gonna start counting down

1036
02:37:39.600 --> 02:37:51.079
now from twenty down to. One you can imagine in

1037
02:37:51.120 --> 02:37:56.680
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1038
02:37:56.840 --> 02:38:02.360
each step or twenty, steps and each step represents a

1039
02:38:02.559 --> 02:38:15.440
level of. Comfort each step represents a deepening of that,

1040
02:38:15.680 --> 02:38:26.280
comfort and the furvies you walk down those steps that

1041
02:38:27.799 --> 02:38:38.760
the deeper and more relaxed you. Feel so starting with

1042
02:38:38.920 --> 02:44:11.239
number twenty, twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteen three four four

1043
02:44:11.559 --> 02:49:36.840
se too well fa y nine y.

1044
02:50:11.440 --> 02:51:37.879
Seven H.

1045
02:52:42.760 --> 02:59:22.920
H five four two. One and now as you focus

1046
02:59:23.000 --> 02:59:36.200
on your, eyes we're gonna count down from ten tout,

1047
02:59:36.479 --> 02:59:52.120
one focusing just on your, eyes your, eyelids the muscles

1048
02:59:52.280 --> 03:00:01.239
around your, eyes your eye walls, themselves the whole area

1049
03:00:04.159 --> 03:00:18.159
that makes up your. Eye and as we count down

1050
03:00:18.319 --> 03:00:26.719
from ten down to, one whilst focusing on your, eyes

1051
03:00:33.000 --> 03:00:43.959
you'll become twice is relaxed with each number counting, down

1052
03:00:48.040 --> 03:00:55.120
and you may find the all you want to do

1053
03:00:55.479 --> 03:01:04.920
is just drift off. Top and if that's what you,

1054
03:01:05.040 --> 03:01:20.760
want then just allow yourself to do. That, now focus

1055
03:01:20.840 --> 03:01:26.639
in on your. Eyes i'm going to begin counting down

1056
03:01:28.120 --> 03:02:45.120
from ten down to one right. Now ten nine eight.

1057
03:03:04.239 --> 03:03:17.920
H h.

1058
03:03:38.120 --> 03:06:54.079
Seven h five four.

1059
03:07:48.000 --> 03:10:41.000
E three two.

1060
03:10:41.040 --> 03:11:06.040
One so counted down from ten to one nine eight

1061
03:11:07.079 --> 03:11:21.559
seven six five four three two.

1062
03:11:23.920 --> 03:11:33.760
One and maybe that was a bit too quick in

1063
03:11:33.879 --> 03:11:34.280
order to.

1064
03:11:34.319 --> 03:11:38.520
Relax maybe it's a bit too fast for you to

1065
03:11:39.760 --> 03:11:48.399
notice the calming of your, body maybe even a little

1066
03:11:48.440 --> 03:11:52.440
bit of pressure, there like you're counting down from ten to.

1067
03:11:52.520 --> 03:11:56.120
One would you expect me to? Do, man expect me

1068
03:11:56.159 --> 03:12:05.959
to stick go with floppy just because you're. Counting if

1069
03:12:05.959 --> 03:12:09.360
you try, again but this, TIME i go a bit

1070
03:12:09.520 --> 03:12:16.799
slower this, time as you focus on the whole of

1071
03:12:16.840 --> 03:12:25.000
your body before we focus on your. Legs just notice

1072
03:12:25.239 --> 03:12:38.040
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1073
03:12:39.280 --> 03:13:03.360
every number THAT i count down ten nine eight seven

1074
03:13:12.479 --> 03:14:27.879
six five four three two. One and just notice how

1075
03:14:30.040 --> 03:14:39.639
how you feel, generally how your body. Feels it's not

1076
03:14:39.680 --> 03:14:50.719
necessarily even about counting down from ten to. One it's

1077
03:14:50.760 --> 03:15:08.000
that space that you, have that space between being active

1078
03:15:10.280 --> 03:15:20.319
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying, down just being,

1079
03:15:20.440 --> 03:15:26.520
there not doing, anything not saying, anything or needing to

1080
03:15:26.559 --> 03:15:32.719
think about. Anything so it opens up a, space you,

1081
03:15:32.760 --> 03:15:42.000
know a bit of a, space a. Gap and the

1082
03:15:42.079 --> 03:15:46.879
MORE i came down from ten to, one the bigger

1083
03:15:46.920 --> 03:15:56.719
that gap. Becomes so there's that gap of, calmness of, comfort.

1084
03:15:57.399 --> 03:16:15.959
Relaxation it's a nice, feeling and it moves those stresses

1085
03:16:16.399 --> 03:16:31.040
or discomforts physically or, emotionally moves them. Away allows you

1086
03:16:33.520 --> 03:16:43.120
to just slow, down someone to count again from ten

1087
03:16:43.200 --> 03:16:49.680
down to, one and notice that gap, widening.

1088
03:16:51.079 --> 03:16:51.159
The.

1089
03:16:51.280 --> 03:16:57.879
Gap and as it, widens it's almost like the stress

1090
03:16:57.920 --> 03:17:15.040
and attention falls into the. Gap it gives you that,

1091
03:17:15.159 --> 03:18:10.399
distance that space now ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1092
03:18:21.520 --> 03:19:09.639
four three two.

1093
03:19:15.360 --> 03:19:28.280
One and how does your.

1094
03:19:30.319 --> 03:19:49.360
Body feel? Now can you notice? That do you feeling,

1095
03:19:49.639 --> 03:20:26.639
calmer the feeling more relaxed as we now focus on your,

1096
03:20:26.719 --> 03:20:48.319
legs just your. Legs we're just gonna start with focusing

1097
03:20:49.120 --> 03:21:08.520
on your. Thighs of, course it's not the most exciting

1098
03:21:08.600 --> 03:21:15.319
thing to be doing Because i'm, sure like most of

1099
03:21:15.360 --> 03:21:18.879
your body is not a lot going on right. Now

1100
03:21:27.159 --> 03:21:33.479
just focusing on the whole of your, thighs the tops

1101
03:21:33.479 --> 03:21:39.600
of your, thighs the sides of your, thighs the bottoms

1102
03:21:39.639 --> 03:21:44.200
of your, thighs your outer thighs and your inner, thighs

1103
03:21:46.319 --> 03:21:50.280
basically the whole of your thigh that leads into your

1104
03:21:50.360 --> 03:22:05.319
hip and it goes down to your knee. Joint now

1105
03:22:05.360 --> 03:22:12.399
this is a big, area it's a very heavy. Area

1106
03:22:12.879 --> 03:22:18.879
it's very, strong probably the strongest muscles in your body

1107
03:22:19.559 --> 03:22:33.879
or in your. Thighs BUT i don't think we perhaps

1108
03:22:35.600 --> 03:22:46.280
will give enough attention to our. Thighs perhaps we don't

1109
03:22:47.840 --> 03:23:08.319
acknowledge how important our thighs are to our, lives how

1110
03:23:08.440 --> 03:23:17.600
much they actually do for, us all for our. Lives

1111
03:23:24.719 --> 03:23:30.360
and it may seem to sound really, weird BUT i

1112
03:23:30.399 --> 03:23:36.559
think that all of our body, parts especially our, thighs

1113
03:23:37.360 --> 03:23:44.840
need SOME, tlc a bit of love, shown a bit of,

1114
03:23:51.440 --> 03:24:03.760
acknowledgement thank, you gratitude for what our thighs do for.

1115
03:24:03.879 --> 03:24:15.479
Us AND i know this may sound a bit. Strange

1116
03:24:15.959 --> 03:24:19.000
maybe you, think why AM? I surely HOW i should

1117
03:24:19.000 --> 03:24:23.879
be in the garden hugging a tree or. Something, well

1118
03:24:28.000 --> 03:24:30.120
it's hard to set a microphone.

1119
03:24:29.639 --> 03:24:29.959
Up on a.

1120
03:24:30.040 --> 03:24:33.520
Tree that's Why i'm doing this. Indoors OTHERWISE i would

1121
03:24:33.520 --> 03:24:36.840
be outside hugging a. Tree NOW i can't see the

1122
03:24:36.879 --> 03:24:45.559
television from the. Tree if you move down to your,

1123
03:24:45.639 --> 03:24:55.520
knees gaining such an important, part AND i think we

1124
03:24:55.600 --> 03:25:03.079
don't Necessarily i'll speak for myself, HERE i don't necessarily

1125
03:25:03.120 --> 03:25:10.520
appreciate all that my needs do for me UNTIL i

1126
03:25:10.600 --> 03:25:14.000
have a problem with my. Knee it's, occasionally IF i,

1127
03:25:14.040 --> 03:25:19.159
ever maybe i'll bash, it or it's aching for some.

1128
03:25:19.360 --> 03:25:27.559
Reason it's then THAT i realize how much it. Does you,

1129
03:25:27.559 --> 03:25:31.760
know the benefit of being able to use my legs

1130
03:25:33.200 --> 03:25:40.920
without any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing

1131
03:25:42.440 --> 03:25:50.520
that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily. Removed you know that's.

1132
03:25:50.799 --> 03:25:59.799
Comfort but as you focus on your, knees regardless of

1133
03:25:59.840 --> 03:26:05.440
how your knees, feel you can have that sense of

1134
03:26:06.799 --> 03:26:11.559
gratitude and love to your knees for all that they

1135
03:26:11.680 --> 03:26:24.239
do for. You and you can still have that attention

1136
03:26:24.879 --> 03:26:28.799
on your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs. Feel

1137
03:26:30.920 --> 03:26:48.879
maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as

1138
03:26:48.920 --> 03:26:53.799
you focus now on the bottoms of your, legs your

1139
03:26:53.840 --> 03:27:00.879
shins and your calf, muscles the bones between your knees

1140
03:27:01.639 --> 03:27:08.639
and your feet, incorporate and of course your ankles so.

1141
03:27:08.719 --> 03:27:18.639
Important you, know anyone that's had even like the slightest

1142
03:27:19.040 --> 03:27:25.120
sprain of an ankle knows how how much we take

1143
03:27:26.399 --> 03:27:35.239
our ankles for, granted and it's kind of strange in

1144
03:27:35.280 --> 03:27:40.520
a way when you think. That you, know, logically our

1145
03:27:40.559 --> 03:27:43.600
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our,

1146
03:27:43.760 --> 03:27:48.319
arms which is, okay it DOESN'T i can't see any

1147
03:27:48.360 --> 03:27:53.280
problem with that because we're just picking stuff. Up but

1148
03:27:53.399 --> 03:27:59.040
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our,

1149
03:27:59.120 --> 03:28:09.959
legs and from a physics perspective or logical even it

1150
03:28:10.000 --> 03:28:16.200
doesn't really make sense that all this weight would ultimately

1151
03:28:16.319 --> 03:28:22.879
be resting on your ankles then leading to your feet

1152
03:28:27.440 --> 03:28:36.680
that thin, area thin. Bone, yeah it does so much great.

1153
03:28:36.760 --> 03:28:48.520
Work supports, us supports our body for a, lifetime helps

1154
03:28:48.600 --> 03:28:58.120
us to, balance helps you to get around and be.

1155
03:28:58.280 --> 03:29:12.440
Mobile and there's the calf. Muscles of, course WHEN i was,

1156
03:29:12.520 --> 03:29:16.360
YOUNGER i couldn't see the point in calf. Muscles didn't

1157
03:29:16.360 --> 03:29:21.079
seem to do. Anything, okay IF i walked around on,

1158
03:29:21.159 --> 03:29:26.079
tiptoes then my calf muscles get some. Work but of

1159
03:29:26.079 --> 03:29:29.040
course that's not. True the calf muscles are being used

1160
03:29:30.200 --> 03:29:42.000
whenever we use our, legs and your shins there to

1161
03:29:42.079 --> 03:29:53.079
protect your lower, legs shaped in a way almost as

1162
03:29:53.120 --> 03:30:04.959
a protector for the, bone leading of course to your

1163
03:30:04.959 --> 03:30:15.360
ankles and your. Feet but we're not going to focus

1164
03:30:15.440 --> 03:30:17.280
on your. Feet we're just going to focus on the.

1165
03:30:17.360 --> 03:30:23.920
Legs AND i realize that now That i've mentioned your,

1166
03:30:23.959 --> 03:30:28.600
feet it probably focusing on them, Anyway so MAYBE i

1167
03:30:28.680 --> 03:30:34.879
should focus on your feet a little. Bit you can

1168
03:30:35.000 --> 03:30:40.079
have them in your awareness the same as you have

1169
03:30:40.239 --> 03:30:44.159
your thighs in your. Awareness even though we haven't been

1170
03:30:44.200 --> 03:30:50.280
focusing on your thighs a few, minutes we've been focusing

1171
03:30:50.360 --> 03:31:07.040
on your, ankles there's still that sense of comfort in

1172
03:31:07.079 --> 03:31:18.959
your thighs in this that movement of energy because the

1173
03:31:19.040 --> 03:31:25.959
thighs hold lots of different. Sensations of, course there's the,

1174
03:31:26.120 --> 03:31:30.879
muscles the big straw muscles that we have in our,

1175
03:31:30.920 --> 03:31:44.719
thighs but the skin on the outside of the, thighs

1176
03:31:45.559 --> 03:31:50.280
as in the outside of all of our, body can

1177
03:31:50.319 --> 03:32:01.719
be very, sensitive sensitive to the, touch sensitive to, temperature

1178
03:32:08.239 --> 03:32:16.280
and inside your thighs the, bones there's the, muscle there's the, blood,

1179
03:32:16.360 --> 03:32:22.399
vessels the, archrees it's all this stuff that's inside your.

1180
03:32:22.440 --> 03:32:30.319
THIGHS i guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1181
03:32:30.319 --> 03:32:35.920
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a, message

1182
03:32:38.040 --> 03:32:41.600
so you can message on the outside of, course but

1183
03:32:41.680 --> 03:32:44.840
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1184
03:32:44.879 --> 03:32:50.040
to be able to just message inside your, thighs message

1185
03:32:50.079 --> 03:32:58.159
in the bones of your leg message in all the,

1186
03:32:58.280 --> 03:33:08.920
veins and just gently heathing your thighs and you could

1187
03:33:09.000 --> 03:33:15.840
move down message and inside your. Knees it's a message

1188
03:33:15.879 --> 03:33:22.879
in those, bones but with healing fingertips spreading that healing

1189
03:33:23.040 --> 03:33:33.600
energy deep into the joints of your. Knees of, course

1190
03:33:33.680 --> 03:33:37.000
there's the back of your your, knee you, know the

1191
03:33:37.159 --> 03:33:43.760
inside crease where your knee. Is it's a really sensitive.

1192
03:33:43.840 --> 03:33:49.159
Area very it feels very nice when you stroke. It

1193
03:33:50.440 --> 03:33:53.840
that might be because it's an area that's not really

1194
03:33:53.959 --> 03:34:01.479
touched very. Often it's almost like a hidden, part that crease.

1195
03:34:03.239 --> 03:34:03.559
In your.

1196
03:34:03.600 --> 03:34:11.120
Legs it's almost like a part that has a, sensitivity

1197
03:34:11.200 --> 03:34:21.680
which is a little bit. Different of, course it's protected

1198
03:34:21.719 --> 03:34:33.079
by your. Legs so you can imagine putting your fingers

1199
03:34:33.120 --> 03:34:43.200
into that crease in your, legs folding between your, legs

1200
03:34:43.879 --> 03:34:48.520
you can just massage with your. Fingertips imagine your fingertips

1201
03:34:48.559 --> 03:34:59.159
going inside massage in the muscle. Tissue you can of

1202
03:34:59.200 --> 03:35:05.520
course feel the bones of your knees healing through your,

1203
03:35:05.559 --> 03:35:18.440
fingertips and then as you go down to your calf.

1204
03:35:18.520 --> 03:35:21.000
Muscles now that's the Part i'd like to be able

1205
03:35:21.079 --> 03:35:27.239
to really put my fingertips deep inside my calf, muscles

1206
03:35:28.680 --> 03:35:38.000
massage in every single tissue of that, muscle healing every.

1207
03:35:38.200 --> 03:35:50.360
Part and then doing the same for my, shins massage

1208
03:35:50.479 --> 03:35:58.280
in gently stroking the, bones gently stroking, them healing in

1209
03:35:58.319 --> 03:36:05.520
a loving, way because they deserve to be treated as

1210
03:36:05.600 --> 03:36:09.639
the precious bones that they. Are because our legs are

1211
03:36:09.639 --> 03:36:13.079
so precious as in all the other parts of our,

1212
03:36:13.120 --> 03:36:18.360
body the more precious of amyture.

1213
03:36:20.399 --> 03:36:20.639
On the.

1214
03:36:20.719 --> 03:36:37.239
Planet when you start to think about your legs in this,

1215
03:36:37.440 --> 03:36:48.760
way it can change your. Perspective it might sound a

1216
03:36:48.760 --> 03:36:55.760
bit a bit silly to start with the idea of

1217
03:36:56.000 --> 03:37:03.600
having love for your, legs show an appreciation for your,

1218
03:37:03.639 --> 03:37:10.799
thighs wanting to be able to put your hands in your,

1219
03:37:10.799 --> 03:37:19.399
thighs the message the muscles and the, bones and to

1220
03:37:19.479 --> 03:37:27.840
get your fingers deep in, there releasing all, tension just

1221
03:37:27.879 --> 03:37:37.360
to show how much you care about your, legs how

1222
03:37:37.399 --> 03:37:42.719
much you care for what your legs do for you,

1223
03:37:42.799 --> 03:37:55.280
regularly your, knees your, calves your, ankles the strength of your,

1224
03:37:55.319 --> 03:38:03.440
ankles considering hell thin they are compared to the rest

1225
03:38:03.479 --> 03:38:12.520
of your, legs especially your. Thighs, yeah they're so, strong so,

1226
03:38:12.760 --> 03:38:27.360
flexible absolutely amazing. Things your ankles are truly a gift

1227
03:38:29.639 --> 03:38:38.239
because of what they do for you supporting all that,

1228
03:38:38.479 --> 03:38:45.120
weight regardless of how what weight you, are even if

1229
03:38:45.120 --> 03:38:50.040
you're only eight, stone there's still a lot of weight

1230
03:38:50.239 --> 03:38:56.959
for these little. Ankles Now i'm a lot heavier than

1231
03:38:57.000 --> 03:38:59.479
eight stone double.

1232
03:38:59.559 --> 03:39:00.440
Down, yeah.

1233
03:39:03.280 --> 03:39:12.200
Yet my ankles support my body all the. Time or

1234
03:39:12.239 --> 03:39:15.159
they do give off a sigh of relief WHEN i

1235
03:39:15.239 --> 03:39:23.959
sit down AS i have my whole legs do my

1236
03:39:24.120 --> 03:39:31.440
feet feet also go my toes, Clap we're so. Happy

1237
03:39:51.040 --> 03:40:00.639
your legs really are. Amazing AND i know that about

1238
03:40:01.159 --> 03:40:07.000
talking about your legs is probably possibly among the most

1239
03:40:07.920 --> 03:40:15.479
most boring things you've ever heard anyone. Say possibly they're

1240
03:40:15.559 --> 03:40:23.239
boring or. Not EVERYTHING i said is. True your legs are.

1241
03:40:23.600 --> 03:40:43.799
Amazing your legs deserve not just, respect they deserve to relax.

1242
03:40:45.639 --> 03:40:56.360
Deeply they deserve to take some time out of the

1243
03:40:56.440 --> 03:41:27.600
day to just leck. Completely the legs really can, Relax

1244
03:41:35.200 --> 03:41:39.239
and because the legs are so such a most you,

1245
03:41:39.280 --> 03:41:44.920
know very important part of your. Body when you, relax

1246
03:41:45.000 --> 03:41:50.959
your legs the rest of your body also naturally follows

1247
03:41:52.280 --> 03:42:06.920
in that journey of. COMFORT i can feel it in my.

1248
03:42:07.040 --> 03:42:15.639
Hips my hips feel really, loose and also my lawyer

1249
03:42:15.719 --> 03:42:21.719
back as. Well my lower back really feels it feels,

1250
03:42:21.920 --> 03:42:26.479
stretched even Though i'm just sitting in a chair and

1251
03:42:26.520 --> 03:42:31.840
there's no stretching as far As i'm aware That i'm.

1252
03:42:31.840 --> 03:42:35.680
Doing it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1253
03:42:35.719 --> 03:42:41.319
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1254
03:42:41.479 --> 03:42:46.200
tension has reduced a.

1255
03:42:46.319 --> 03:43:03.399
Lot And i'm.

1256
03:43:03.280 --> 03:43:10.280
Now going to camp down from ten down to, one

1257
03:43:10.760 --> 03:43:28.079
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine

1258
03:43:28.360 --> 03:44:12.280
eight seven six five four three two one. Relax So

1259
03:44:12.280 --> 03:44:16.159
i'm just going to count down from fire down to.

1260
03:44:16.239 --> 03:44:21.239
One and as a, countdown if you just focus on the,

1261
03:44:21.360 --> 03:44:31.120
numbers just the numbers counting, down and notice how you

1262
03:44:31.239 --> 03:44:38.440
feel in this moment as you hear the numbers counting,

1263
03:44:38.520 --> 03:44:51.239
down knowing that those numbers counting down represent you feeling,

1264
03:44:51.879 --> 03:44:58.760
calmer not just in your, body but also relaxing your.

1265
03:44:58.799 --> 03:45:05.959
MIND i just notice how you. Feel there's nothing to,

1266
03:45:06.040 --> 03:45:11.200
do there's nothing to, say there's nothing to think. About

1267
03:45:14.239 --> 03:46:03.200
starting with number five four three two, one and as

1268
03:46:03.239 --> 03:46:15.840
you notice the gradual letting go that the tension in your.

1269
03:46:15.879 --> 03:46:23.479
Body you may also begin to notice and be aware

1270
03:46:25.440 --> 03:46:34.399
of how your mind is starting to slow. Down this

1271
03:46:34.559 --> 03:46:41.239
is just a natural thing that. Happens it's not really

1272
03:46:41.280 --> 03:46:47.760
a special. Procedure it's just natural because as your body,

1273
03:46:47.840 --> 03:46:53.760
relaxes your mind also starts to, relax and the more

1274
03:46:54.079 --> 03:46:57.399
your mind, relaxes the more your body. Relaxes it's just

1275
03:46:57.440 --> 03:47:09.639
a continuous circle of. Relaxation and there's that calmness that

1276
03:47:09.840 --> 03:47:16.959
comes from relative. Quietness you, know even even if there's

1277
03:47:17.040 --> 03:47:24.520
background sounds either your side online is still going to

1278
03:47:24.639 --> 03:47:30.239
be quite. Calm you, know you haven't got the television,

1279
03:47:30.319 --> 03:47:35.120
on there's no music in the, background unless you're listening

1280
03:47:35.120 --> 03:47:42.799
to the recorded with. Music of, course you're very likely

1281
03:47:42.920 --> 03:47:44.719
not going to be sitting in a room with other.

1282
03:47:44.799 --> 03:47:50.200
People of course you might, be but generally it's more

1283
03:47:50.280 --> 03:47:54.840
ideal if you can do this on your, own so no,

1284
03:47:55.000 --> 03:48:14.319
distractions and when you stop thinking about, stuff relaxation automatically.

1285
03:48:14.479 --> 03:48:27.639
Rises a sense of comfort starts to, grow and without

1286
03:48:27.719 --> 03:48:36.239
trying to build it up into something fantastical or something,

1287
03:48:36.399 --> 03:48:48.639
magical this is just a natural, process something that's easy to.

1288
03:48:48.680 --> 03:48:57.920
Accomplish in, fact it's almost the sense of relaxing completely

1289
03:48:59.000 --> 03:49:04.239
happens really when you're put no effort into. It it's

1290
03:49:04.280 --> 03:49:11.799
not something that you can really. Force it's something that happens.

1291
03:49:12.520 --> 03:49:22.840
Naturally and part of the process of this recording and

1292
03:49:22.959 --> 03:49:34.879
others is simply two allow you to take advantage of this.

1293
03:49:36.000 --> 03:49:51.600
Space this, time it's just let, go to just be,

1294
03:49:51.879 --> 03:50:06.079
here to be in tune with how you, feel yet

1295
03:50:06.399 --> 03:50:18.559
with the intention of wanting to relax deeply and maybe

1296
03:50:18.760 --> 03:50:24.959
even to fall, asleep depending on what it is that

1297
03:50:25.040 --> 03:50:38.000
you wish for yourself in this. Moment as we, know

1298
03:50:38.559 --> 03:50:47.920
relaxing is the majority of the process of falling. Asleep

1299
03:50:49.079 --> 03:50:53.040
the actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at the.

1300
03:50:53.200 --> 03:51:00.200
End the deeper relaxed you, become.

1301
03:51:03.959 --> 03:51:05.479
The easier.

1302
03:51:07.920 --> 03:51:22.600
You find yourself. Drifting you can, also if you choose

1303
03:51:23.559 --> 03:51:39.760
stay focused on my voice and really enjoy the process

1304
03:51:44.159 --> 03:52:16.079
gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just

1305
03:52:16.639 --> 03:52:43.159
observing the sensation of letting go. Completely this, Time i'm

1306
03:52:43.200 --> 03:52:51.840
gonna count from six down to, one and you can

1307
03:52:51.959 --> 03:53:02.440
notice your mind calming down more with each number.

1308
03:53:03.680 --> 03:53:04.959
That you hear me.

1309
03:53:05.079 --> 03:53:27.479
Say, naturally fin, calm, slow beeaceful six.

1310
03:53:53.159 --> 03:54:14.200
Five four.

1311
03:54:45.799 --> 03:55:53.280
Three two, one.

1312
03:56:14.239 --> 03:56:27.559
Being aware how your mind to slowed right, down sinking

1313
03:56:30.159 --> 03:56:50.520
deeply into. Relaxation and as you focus on your, mind

1314
03:56:50.760 --> 03:56:55.879
you may notice that.

1315
03:56:57.479 --> 03:57:06.079
There's some thoughts still, there.

1316
03:57:03.280 --> 03:57:13.079
Maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your.

1317
03:57:13.120 --> 03:57:28.799
Attention so what you can do is send love to those.

1318
03:57:28.920 --> 03:57:42.920
Thoughts sprinkle those thoughts with love like all petals from a.

1319
03:57:43.040 --> 03:57:48.600
Flower just sprinkle it over, them petals filled with love

1320
03:57:51.000 --> 03:57:58.079
towards those, thoughts to let those thoughts know that you're

1321
03:57:58.079 --> 03:58:04.120
not abandoned in. Them you just need. Them you require

1322
03:58:04.200 --> 03:58:18.959
them to just calm, down slow, down quiet down for.

1323
03:58:19.120 --> 03:58:32.120
Now so as you focus on those remaining, thoughts as

1324
03:58:32.159 --> 03:58:37.360
we count down this time from seven down to, one

1325
03:58:37.559 --> 03:58:46.719
with each, number just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of, love,

1326
03:58:51.040 --> 03:59:04.840
kindness gratitude over those, thoughts which will allow them to

1327
03:59:05.040 --> 03:59:20.959
just melt away and relax. Deeply with every, number those

1328
03:59:21.159 --> 03:59:23.159
thoughts will become more.

1329
03:59:26.879 --> 03:59:27.559
And more.

1330
03:59:27.680 --> 04:02:04.399
Relaxed starting with number seven six five four three. One

1331
04:02:05.040 --> 04:02:22.319
and as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in your,

1332
04:02:22.360 --> 04:02:43.879
body we're going to focus on your, hands because the

1333
04:02:44.079 --> 04:02:50.479
more relaxed your hands, are the more relaxed your body

1334
04:02:51.399 --> 04:02:52.520
and mind, are.

1335
04:03:07.280 --> 04:03:07.879
And there's.

1336
04:03:09.399 --> 04:03:19.600
You focus on your hands and your. Fingers there's nothing

1337
04:03:20.079 --> 04:03:24.879
needed to be. Done there's no clenching of fists or

1338
04:03:25.879 --> 04:03:37.319
dancing the fingers or anything like. That it's just noticing

1339
04:03:38.120 --> 04:04:05.760
and focusing on your, hands noticing how they. Feel because

1340
04:04:05.879 --> 04:04:16.440
the more relaxed your hands, feel the calmer your mind,

1341
04:04:16.719 --> 04:04:27.959
feels and the more comfort you feel throughout your. Body

1342
04:04:33.200 --> 04:05:03.600
and you may have already noticed your mind is starting

1343
04:05:07.159 --> 04:05:29.840
to dress like sense just on your hands and, fingers

1344
04:05:34.639 --> 04:05:48.440
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

1345
04:05:50.159 --> 04:06:08.079
in your hands and, fingers more and more. Relaxed with

1346
04:06:08.239 --> 04:06:26.920
each number from eight down to, one you can almost

1347
04:06:28.680 --> 04:06:39.479
feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and,

1348
04:06:39.680 --> 04:07:05.079
fingers becoming year more relaxing with each, number year coming

1349
04:07:05.159 --> 04:07:19.840
down from eight down to, one to, drifting drifting again

1350
04:07:24.799 --> 04:11:25.520
starting with number, eight, seven, six, five, four, three just

1351
04:11:25.719 --> 04:11:34.920
being here, now nothing to think, about nothing to, do

1352
04:11:36.360 --> 04:11:50.680
nothing to, say and everything just feels. Calmer this is

1353
04:11:51.719 --> 04:11:58.520
your natural state of. Being this is how you just

1354
04:11:59.600 --> 04:12:04.719
normally you feel when you take away all of that

1355
04:12:05.120 --> 04:12:12.559
other stuff that we, add you, know things like stress

1356
04:12:12.639 --> 04:12:28.600
and worrying and, overthinking, anxiety, tension just generally thinking about.

1357
04:12:28.760 --> 04:12:34.639
Stuff you take that, away which is what we. Do

1358
04:12:35.200 --> 04:12:47.079
what we do, now you're left with a real sense

1359
04:12:47.680 --> 04:13:00.319
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because. Ulsa

1360
04:13:00.879 --> 04:13:14.719
it's just a, feeling a feeling of, comfort almost as

1361
04:13:14.799 --> 04:13:18.879
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1362
04:13:19.000 --> 04:13:32.680
place where everything is, peaceful a place where you can

1363
04:13:32.840 --> 04:13:43.440
feel relaxed and your natural sense of, comfort a place

1364
04:13:43.520 --> 04:13:52.840
where you can be, you where you can accept yourself.

1365
04:13:53.319 --> 04:13:54.239
For who you, are.

1366
04:13:56.719 --> 04:14:02.680
A place where you're not trying to please anybody else,

1367
04:14:03.159 --> 04:14:15.319
ever a place where you can actually not just love,

1368
04:14:15.440 --> 04:14:20.680
yourself but in some ways more, importantly you can like

1369
04:14:21.000 --> 04:14:41.200
yourself appreciate who you. Are that sense of gratitude is

1370
04:14:41.280 --> 04:14:51.920
in the air all around. You that's also a place

1371
04:14:52.120 --> 04:15:02.520
where you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your.

1372
04:15:02.600 --> 04:15:20.440
Body healing energy soaking into your, body and that healing

1373
04:15:20.680 --> 04:15:30.959
energy spreads through your, veins traveling to each and every

1374
04:15:31.280 --> 04:15:42.239
single part of your, body and you start to realize

1375
04:15:42.440 --> 04:15:49.719
that actually that healing energy it's not just entered into your,

1376
04:15:49.799 --> 04:16:01.799
brain it's become part of your, brain and the spinal

1377
04:16:02.040 --> 04:16:15.680
fluid is now mixed with healing, energy not just allowing

1378
04:16:15.799 --> 04:16:23.520
you to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this,

1379
04:16:23.799 --> 04:16:37.399
moment but also you start to realize that, actually what's

1380
04:16:37.600 --> 04:16:48.920
happening now without, healing relaxing energy spreading through your body's

1381
04:16:49.120 --> 04:16:59.799
actually changing your. Life it's actually changing the way you're

1382
04:16:59.799 --> 04:17:06.760
going to, feel not just, now but tomorrow and the next.

1383
04:17:06.879 --> 04:17:16.280
Day there's your health, improves not just your physical, health

1384
04:17:16.399 --> 04:17:23.799
but your mental. Health things that used to bother you

1385
04:17:24.000 --> 04:17:31.120
in the, past for some, reason no longer have the

1386
04:17:31.239 --> 04:17:40.959
effect that they used to because something has changed deep within.

1387
04:17:41.079 --> 04:17:51.760
You maybe things that used to cause you to feel

1388
04:17:52.239 --> 04:18:06.280
anger no longer have that power to control you the

1389
04:18:06.399 --> 04:18:12.719
way they seem to be able to. Before as you

1390
04:18:14.040 --> 04:18:24.200
realize that you're the one who decides what affects, you

1391
04:18:27.879 --> 04:18:36.680
you're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

1392
04:18:38.280 --> 04:18:53.600
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of

1393
04:18:53.920 --> 04:19:05.159
healing continuing to grow and improve your life day by,

1394
04:19:05.280 --> 04:19:17.639
day including of, course your ability to relax so much

1395
04:19:19.040 --> 04:19:32.959
easier and sleep. In it's the most natural thing in

1396
04:19:33.639 --> 04:19:43.120
the world to, you because falling asleep is something that

1397
04:19:43.280 --> 04:19:48.600
you've done so many times.

1398
04:19:49.920 --> 04:19:50.879
In your, life.

1399
04:19:53.840 --> 04:19:57.600
And you know that you were, born as we all,

1400
04:19:57.719 --> 04:20:08.200
were with the ability see to fall asleep. Naturally you're

1401
04:20:08.319 --> 04:20:19.920
born with that ability to just drift off into a,

1402
04:20:20.159 --> 04:20:33.040
deep healing. Sleep even when we're, kids sometimes we'll fall

1403
04:20:33.120 --> 04:20:38.000
asleep when we don't even want to try to us stay.

1404
04:20:38.079 --> 04:20:42.280
Awake maybe it's a birthday in the, morning or It's

1405
04:20:42.719 --> 04:20:46.239
christmas or holiday or something we look forward.

1406
04:20:46.280 --> 04:20:47.760
To we don't want to go to.

1407
04:20:47.840 --> 04:20:52.959
Sleep but the more you want to stay, awake.

1408
04:20:54.840 --> 04:20:56.559
The more we just start to.

1409
04:20:56.760 --> 04:21:04.920
Drift and the more you fight, drifting the more you

1410
04:21:05.040 --> 04:21:09.600
try to stop yourself and drift in a safe the

1411
04:21:09.799 --> 04:21:21.639
deeper is stronger that drifting. Becomes because we're born not

1412
04:21:21.959 --> 04:21:28.440
just with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall,

1413
04:21:28.479 --> 04:21:38.360
asleep but it's our, birthright it's part of OUR, dna

1414
04:21:45.399 --> 04:21:50.479
and sometimes as we get older in, life perhaps at

1415
04:21:50.680 --> 04:22:03.799
times we have forgotten that relaxing. Completely it's not only

1416
04:22:05.000 --> 04:22:28.479
a wonderfully pleasant, experience it's also really. Easy it's very

1417
04:22:29.360 --> 04:22:30.879
very easy.

1418
04:22:31.840 --> 04:22:32.399
To let, go.

1419
04:22:34.440 --> 04:22:43.959
Because that's all it. Is it is just deciding to let.

1420
04:22:44.000 --> 04:22:54.239
Go and when you press the play button on my,

1421
04:22:54.479 --> 04:23:02.479
recordings you have given permission from my voice.

1422
04:23:03.719 --> 04:23:03.760
To.

1423
04:23:03.920 --> 04:23:11.079
Relax you let me press that play. Button you have

1424
04:23:11.239 --> 04:23:22.719
given me permission for my words to effect you in a,

1425
04:23:22.959 --> 04:23:41.479
positive only a positive, way opening up your mind too

1426
04:23:45.239 --> 04:24:02.879
useful and healing suggestions that can have such an amazing

1427
04:24:03.239 --> 04:24:17.360
effect on how you feel right, now as well as

1428
04:24:17.680 --> 04:24:27.000
those changes that continue long after the recording, ends those

1429
04:24:27.280 --> 04:24:41.440
changes within you that continue to flourish and, grow transforming

1430
04:24:42.280 --> 04:24:54.799
your life in a, positive beautiful, way allowing you to

1431
04:24:55.159 --> 04:25:02.360
move forward in your life in direction that you choose.

1432
04:25:03.559 --> 04:25:03.600
For.

1433
04:25:03.760 --> 04:25:23.959
Yourself and this, feeling this feeling that you can experience of, safety, comfort,

1434
04:25:24.879 --> 04:25:47.000
Calmness this feels so. Nice it's such a healthy place to,

1435
04:25:47.159 --> 04:25:58.760
be and that positivity pros.

1436
04:26:00.120 --> 04:26:00.479
Thing you.

1437
04:26:06.239 --> 04:26:18.239
Each and every. Day moving, forward you're going to find

1438
04:26:18.479 --> 04:26:30.840
that you're more relaxed physically and in your mind is more.

1439
04:26:31.600 --> 04:26:41.159
Relaxed and it's not that you're thinking, slower it's just

1440
04:26:41.280 --> 04:26:47.440
that your mind would be less clogged up with unnecessary

1441
04:26:48.600 --> 04:27:03.319
negativity because from now, on your mind rejects. Negativity from now,

1442
04:27:03.479 --> 04:27:14.760
on you're going to start noticing when negativity arises and

1443
04:27:14.959 --> 04:27:28.520
you can just say, stop, stop and that negativity will

1444
04:27:28.639 --> 04:27:46.159
turn around and leave you. Alone, stop and that negativity.

1445
04:27:48.479 --> 04:27:49.920
Would, disappear.

1446
04:27:57.520 --> 04:28:04.000
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1447
04:28:05.440 --> 04:28:20.799
than you probably. Expected you can now congratulate yourself because

1448
04:28:21.000 --> 04:28:27.360
you're the person that has done. This you are the

1449
04:28:27.520 --> 04:28:32.600
one that has opened your mind up to the simple.

1450
04:28:32.799 --> 04:28:40.639
Facts if you can feel more relaxed in your body

1451
04:28:41.399 --> 04:28:42.079
and in your.

1452
04:28:42.040 --> 04:28:42.600
Mind.

1453
04:28:48.520 --> 04:28:50.399
You've opened your mind.

1454
04:28:50.280 --> 04:28:50.680
Up to.

1455
04:28:53.000 --> 04:28:59.600
The birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1456
04:29:00.639 --> 04:29:14.680
when you. Choose and that's a nice. Feeling don't you

1457
04:29:14.760 --> 04:29:26.159
think it feels? Nice doesn't it to feel? Calm for

1458
04:29:26.399 --> 04:29:30.959
that healing energy is spreading through your body in your

1459
04:29:31.079 --> 04:29:46.840
mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

1460
04:29:48.360 --> 04:29:57.319
can no longer. Enter negativity is.

1461
04:29:57.559 --> 04:30:00.120
Banned it's, bad k.

1462
04:30:00.239 --> 04:30:07.280
H it's not a loud, intrigue doesn't doesn't this doesn't

1463
04:30:07.479 --> 04:30:15.479
deserve to be, here doesn't belong. Here negativity has no

1464
04:30:15.799 --> 04:30:33.200
place in your, life which makes room for more, comfort more,

1465
04:30:33.559 --> 04:30:38.280
heathing more, relaxation.

1466
04:30:42.319 --> 04:30:42.559
More.

1467
04:30:42.799 --> 04:31:01.399
Peace feels, nice doesn't?

1468
04:31:01.440 --> 04:31:07.479
It just let go.

1469
04:31:11.200 --> 04:31:29.479
Everything i'm gonna count down now from twenty down to.

1470
04:31:29.639 --> 04:31:33.840
One he can.

1471
04:31:34.000 --> 04:31:44.639
Continue to relax if you, Choose you can career to

1472
04:31:44.840 --> 04:31:50.280
sleep with every number.

1473
04:31:52.440 --> 04:31:53.680
You hear me, say.

1474
04:31:57.760 --> 04:32:05.120
You can Feel rice is, relaxed or if you, choose

1475
04:32:05.280 --> 04:33:05.240
you can fill twice a Sleeping now twenty ninety, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen,

1476
04:33:11.880 --> 04:34:11.680
fourteen thirteen to well eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven.

1477
04:34:20.279 --> 04:34:29.400
Six five.

1478
04:34:36.439 --> 04:35:11.360
War this is your time.

1479
04:35:13.880 --> 04:35:15.279
To just take a, break.

1480
04:35:19.639 --> 04:35:30.319
Your time to, relax to allow your mind to slow,

1481
04:35:30.439 --> 04:35:47.759
down to give yourself a permission to take a break.

1482
04:35:52.439 --> 04:35:52.639
From.

1483
04:35:52.919 --> 04:36:00.279
Everything and you're the only person.

1484
04:36:00.799 --> 04:36:06.159
They can make that. Decision you're the only.

1485
04:36:06.119 --> 04:36:14.680
Person that can actually tell your mind to just, relax.

1486
04:36:22.400 --> 04:36:27.759
To just take some time.

1487
04:36:29.479 --> 04:36:41.159
Off so that you can focus on your, body get

1488
04:36:41.279 --> 04:36:56.080
in touch with how you feel, physically and in the

1489
04:36:56.240 --> 04:37:04.319
process of this buddy scan where you focus on different

1490
04:37:04.400 --> 04:37:15.040
parts of your, body those parts that you focus on and,

1491
04:37:15.200 --> 04:37:27.000
observe even though you're not purposely requesting those parts of

1492
04:37:27.080 --> 04:37:28.959
your body to, relax.

1493
04:37:30.759 --> 04:37:31.360
It's kind of.

1494
04:37:31.479 --> 04:37:38.759
Expected you expect when you listen to my voice to

1495
04:37:39.000 --> 04:37:50.759
feel more relaxed, naturally because when you're listening to, me

1496
04:37:53.919 --> 04:37:58.080
your attention is focused.

1497
04:37:59.319 --> 04:38:00.159
On my, word.

1498
04:38:05.159 --> 04:38:16.080
And does my words i you to focus on those

1499
04:38:16.279 --> 04:38:34.720
parts of your. Body your focus, increases which actually calms your.

1500
04:38:34.799 --> 04:38:51.919
Mind and when you wind charms, down your body.

1501
04:38:54.040 --> 04:39:03.560
Relaxes, now when your body.

1502
04:39:06.880 --> 04:39:26.560
Calms, down your mind, relaxes and he and those have

1503
04:39:26.840 --> 04:39:35.639
not really started to focus on your. Body you can

1504
04:39:36.319 --> 04:39:51.680
already feel that healing energy spreading through your, body pushing

1505
04:39:51.919 --> 04:39:58.400
out stress and, tension.

1506
04:40:02.159 --> 04:40:09.000
Heathing all the parts of your, body, bleeding your.

1507
04:40:09.119 --> 04:40:13.880
Skin the, buttons your, blood.

1508
04:40:15.200 --> 04:40:19.240
All of your organs inside your, body all of.

1509
04:40:19.279 --> 04:40:20.560
The muscles.

1510
04:40:21.560 --> 04:40:28.880
Or the fact or. Everything every hair on your.

1511
04:40:28.880 --> 04:40:33.040
Body is filled with bad health.

1512
04:40:33.439 --> 04:40:42.439
Energy and when your.

1513
04:40:42.400 --> 04:40:58.479
Brain fills with bout healing, energy the feeding and the

1514
04:40:58.599 --> 04:41:07.119
comforts relaxation, increases.

1515
04:41:13.720 --> 04:41:16.319
Deeply increases.

1516
04:41:21.840 --> 04:41:22.840
In a way that.

1517
04:41:26.319 --> 04:41:27.200
Your mind.

1518
04:41:30.439 --> 04:41:37.680
Starts to. Fuel perhaps speak to rousing.

1519
04:41:42.400 --> 04:41:52.799
Because it's not, needed and it may start to drill

1520
04:42:01.759 --> 04:42:08.400
if that's what's. Needed so if you're listening to this

1521
04:42:10.479 --> 04:42:14.360
and what you need is deeply, relaxation that's what you.

1522
04:42:14.520 --> 04:42:18.400
Get if what you need is.

1523
04:42:20.080 --> 04:42:30.400
To fall asleep naturally easily your mind, dreams that's also

1524
04:42:31.919 --> 04:42:32.439
for whatever.

1525
04:42:38.279 --> 04:42:46.400
Accuse by listen that play button on the podcast.

1526
04:42:45.959 --> 04:42:50.360
And listening to me the dear permission.

1527
04:42:51.799 --> 04:42:53.639
Your body and your mind.

1528
04:42:56.400 --> 04:43:05.680
In fact give the command to your body in your

1529
04:43:05.840 --> 04:43:17.279
mind to drive deeply and to drift off to sleep

1530
04:43:18.599 --> 04:43:33.400
if that's what you want one. Need and AS i

1531
04:43:33.720 --> 04:43:43.919
focus on the different parts of your. Body you may

1532
04:43:45.439 --> 04:43:47.680
start to just, drive.

1533
04:43:51.639 --> 04:43:52.840
And then you come back.

1534
04:43:52.680 --> 04:43:59.680
Again talking and focusing on a different parts of your.

1535
04:43:59.720 --> 04:44:09.240
Body May i'm just so.

1536
04:44:09.919 --> 04:44:14.759
Drifting do you don't realize you're?

1537
04:44:14.840 --> 04:44:23.240
Drifting until you stop? Drifting you're a laugh again to my,

1538
04:44:23.520 --> 04:44:29.159
Voice fergus, said what a different part of your body

1539
04:44:30.479 --> 04:44:40.919
starts to? Relax you in defcas that. Drifting it's basically

1540
04:44:41.159 --> 04:44:53.840
you already in the sleep. Side and the more you, drift.

1541
04:44:54.319 --> 04:44:56.040
The longer you, drest.

1542
04:44:57.439 --> 04:45:07.880
The longer you. Dread eventually that drift continues into, sleep

1543
04:45:12.880 --> 04:45:17.720
and that's the last you remember till you wake up

1544
04:45:22.200 --> 04:45:27.479
in your time when you experience the my amount of,

1545
04:45:27.639 --> 04:45:41.720
sleep dear give me and if you all asleeps extremely,

1546
04:45:42.560 --> 04:46:07.119
pleasant so, relaxing so deep. Sleep it feels so nice

1547
04:46:09.319 --> 04:46:10.840
to laxine to.

1548
04:46:12.360 --> 04:46:14.439
The body in, mind.

1549
04:46:19.479 --> 04:46:27.479
Feel that he is spreading through. It relaxin is so,

1550
04:46:27.880 --> 04:46:35.799
deeply relaxin so.

1551
04:46:37.919 --> 04:46:37.959
So.

1552
04:46:38.599 --> 04:46:50.400
Deeply you start to focus.

1553
04:46:51.799 --> 04:46:52.159
On your.

1554
04:46:52.319 --> 04:47:01.720
Eyes you make down.

1555
04:47:04.439 --> 04:47:04.680
To You.

1556
04:47:13.080 --> 04:47:14.880
Now do you make.

1557
04:47:22.279 --> 04:47:23.200
Assure this?

1558
04:47:47.240 --> 04:47:47.360
Us?

1559
04:47:55.240 --> 04:48:35.599
Yes why you you think.

1560
04:48:43.479 --> 04:48:44.159
You th.

1561
04:48:53.200 --> 04:49:23.000
You being spreading inside your body.

1562
04:49:24.639 --> 04:49:25.319
In a new.

1563
04:49:25.400 --> 04:49:28.880
World now.

1564
04:49:32.080 --> 04:49:33.599
Let's focus again.

1565
04:49:35.520 --> 04:49:42.680
The parts of your. Body but you spend this time

1566
04:49:42.759 --> 04:49:53.560
on your forehead, now mouth lips.

1567
04:49:55.159 --> 04:49:55.840
Good, time.

1568
04:49:59.159 --> 04:49:59.599
Hold you?

1569
04:49:59.680 --> 04:50:00.599
Now mhm.

1570
04:50:12.240 --> 04:50:23.520
What you said on your fingers maybe, Kid maybe you

1571
04:50:23.680 --> 04:50:27.520
think it's a little bids you can focus on each

1572
04:50:27.840 --> 04:50:42.119
one in the future by hands even though you focus

1573
04:50:42.200 --> 04:50:48.560
on both of your hands now almost seems just melt into.

1574
04:50:48.720 --> 04:51:02.279
One maybe your right hand starting up left handed as

1575
04:51:02.479 --> 04:51:02.720
is it.

1576
04:51:05.520 --> 04:51:06.119
Just mix?

1577
04:51:06.400 --> 04:51:22.279
Together now focusing on the means a smart sin have

1578
04:51:22.560 --> 04:51:47.119
your means fill now focus altos good to say under

1579
04:51:47.240 --> 04:51:55.680
the elbows just absurd.

1580
04:51:57.639 --> 04:52:32.240
F king no. Words, no it's so what do you?

1581
04:52:32.439 --> 04:52:44.240
Mack do you? THINK i N g.

1582
04:52:47.080 --> 04:52:48.319
Back he met.

1583
04:53:19.400 --> 04:53:19.599
It's.

1584
04:53:19.720 --> 04:53:40.759
So its school of sensationals.

1585
04:55:03.439 --> 04:55:46.240
Now right, NOW i just say.

1586
04:55:57.479 --> 04:57:27.080
Zorn, body let's, go let's let's. See, yeah let's, go let's.

1587
04:57:27.799 --> 04:58:04.200
Go let's. Yeah i'm going to start. NOW i think

1588
04:58:04.200 --> 04:58:06.080
it is the first of, all just to see some.

1589
04:58:07.799 --> 04:58:08.560
Line down.

1590
04:58:10.000 --> 04:58:11.560
On that message table.

1591
04:58:13.119 --> 04:58:13.560
Line on the.

1592
04:58:13.680 --> 04:58:23.080
Front your head is, supported their arms are, supported and

1593
04:58:23.200 --> 04:58:29.319
you feel comfortable and you're breathing this really. Easy can

1594
04:58:29.479 --> 04:58:36.000
you feel you're confident in how you look as?

1595
04:58:36.040 --> 04:58:37.360
Well so there's none of.

1596
04:58:37.400 --> 04:58:43.639
That issue of body problems or. Shyness Because i'm a

1597
04:58:43.759 --> 04:58:49.599
professional and this is a therapy.

1598
04:58:49.720 --> 04:58:54.040
Session so none of that stuff matters on what side

1599
04:58:54.080 --> 04:59:03.200
of this is about. You this is about how you,

1600
04:59:04.200 --> 04:59:11.919
feel how you can enjoy that sense of comfort and

1601
04:59:12.080 --> 04:59:19.279
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands

1602
04:59:20.119 --> 04:59:33.080
and my thing is to. Reaction that's. NOBODY i one

1603
04:59:33.240 --> 04:59:38.400
starts off just by placing my hands on the back

1604
04:59:38.439 --> 04:59:43.119
of your. Head just give me just you can feel

1605
04:59:43.200 --> 04:59:47.040
with my. Hands DO i really want you.

1606
04:59:51.439 --> 04:59:53.119
So you can maybe feel the wood with.

1607
04:59:53.200 --> 04:59:59.200
My hands on the back of your head with my hands,

1608
04:59:59.360 --> 05:00:07.639
decided then not, repressing just olden the very. Gently maybe

1609
05:00:07.639 --> 05:00:10.040
you open your ears and a little bit on your

1610
05:00:10.080 --> 05:00:16.880
face so you can fill my hands so you can

1611
05:00:17.000 --> 05:00:17.959
the cold custard.

1612
05:00:19.599 --> 05:00:30.680
Too and Now i'll put my hands and back to

1613
05:00:30.759 --> 05:00:31.680
my head again.

1614
05:00:31.840 --> 05:00:35.520
And gently they will slide down.

1615
05:00:38.159 --> 05:00:38.799
To the back of my.

1616
05:00:38.880 --> 05:00:47.520
Head feel my.

1617
05:00:47.680 --> 05:00:57.040
Hands you you straight in the back of the d

1618
05:00:57.520 --> 05:01:06.279
stone to see if you get used to them feeling

1619
05:01:06.639 --> 05:01:14.279
my hands and the set passing to it in, minderstand

1620
05:01:14.639 --> 05:01:17.560
you'll say that's all good and.

1621
05:01:17.959 --> 05:01:37.680
Fine when you start checking my, siding the muscles and my.

1622
05:01:37.959 --> 05:01:50.959
Hands you're very trusting six grade because the need.

1623
05:01:50.959 --> 05:01:56.319
To say that as someone that my hands and then

1624
05:01:57.639 --> 05:02:10.000
in that way and sometimes what makes, sense it's m