June 28, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1383 | Jason Newland | 27th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewan dot com. My name is.

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It's got a smell of perfume for some reason. That's weird.

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It's got this picture. Wow, it's almost like Vinnie's just farted.

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But it's a nice smell, so it couldn't have been

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one of his farts. It couldn't have been. How strange.

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So yeah, welcome to me me. I'm Jason new Land.

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This is Q and A Friday. Please only listen when

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you can safely close your eyes. And it is the

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twenty seventh of June twenty twenty five.

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Ooh ooh that's nice.

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Oh dear, So I've got many questions. I'll be honest

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with you. I'm recording this on Saturday morning. I am,

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I really am. Yes, it was dum dum dumn. So yeah,

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I'm doing this Saturday morning. It's nine forty seven am.

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I couldn't do it yesterday. I was so tired, so tired.

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I got home. What time did I get home? About

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two o'clock ish in the afternoon, And oh, I just yeah,

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I sat for a little while and then I went

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to bed when they had to lie down. Wow, I'm

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just on Facebook now and there's the politicians in America

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and not particularly loved. It seems not all of them

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are particularly cherished. H wow. Oh so anyway, let me

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have a look. Not particularly it makes me I'll tell

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you what makes me laugh, okay, is people.

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You know, when people say, oh, we want our free speech,

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or they say something like in this country, the prime

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minister is taking away our free speech and he's a

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nobed or something like that, and it just makes me

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laugh because or they say, always this person is a dictator.

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He's a dictator. If the person in charge of your

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country was a dictator, you would not be standing there

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with a big placard calling that person names.

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You would be in a prison. You would not be

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allowed to do that. It makes this like, go do

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that in Russia or China. Go on, give it a

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go baby, go on. Ah, we don't have any free speech. No,

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I think I think you do. I think you do.

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It's a dictatorship. Okay.

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Well, the fact that you can say that online and

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you can walk around just freely saying that stuff means

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you're not living under the dictatorship means you don't understand

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what dictatorship means.

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I stopped now, I'm moving back to Q and A Friday.

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I just find it funny you don't understand so Q

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and A Frido. I have.

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Six comments, but they're not all questions. I got one, two,

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three questions, a fourth one but wasn't really a question.

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But I have sorted out the issue, so I addressed

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that one first.

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Michelle asks me.

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Not really a question, but when I listen to the

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playlists on your website, I'll get ads during the podcast.

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Anyway to avoid this? Thanks? And Jonathan writes in reply,

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no ads on Apple podcasts, and Michelle writes, I'm trying

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to listen to old podcasts from twenty twenty, not current ones,

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current ones, current ones, current ones. And basically, for anyone

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who doesn't know on my website, let's have a look

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my beautiful website, which is now back. There is the

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first but basically on the very first page you've got

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all the latest recordings, and then at the top of

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the page you've got four boxes that you can click

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on podcasts, playlists, podcast apps, and contact and then below

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that you've got the PayPal link and boring join the

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Facebook group link. If you click on playlists at the moment,

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there's only four playlists four different podcasts that I've got

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playlists for, so clicking on let Me Boy to Sleep,

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for example. And I'm still in the process of building this,

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okayse It's gonna take a while, but I'm still in

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the process. So the only one that works at the

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moment is without music. There currently isn't any playlists old

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playlists with music at all, but there will be with

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music or without music, with music five hours without music,

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five hours with music, ten hours without music, ten hours

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or with music. But at the moment, just the without

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music ones. And I've got them in groups of fifty,

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so one to fifty, fifty one to one hundred. The

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last one I've got is one thousand, three hundred and

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fifty one to one thousand, four hundred, so I have Yeah,

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So I've updated all of that, so they were all

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now on there.

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So that's which wasn't before I did that yesterday, so

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I managed to make sure it's all updated.

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Now. What I didn't know is that the.

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All right, I don't know what I'm hearing. Someone's playing

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some a movie or something very loud in the garden.

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So I there was adverts in the middle of the podcast,

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which I would never have.

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Never. I would never do that. But the podcasts, because

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all of the new podcasts I've done, the ones like

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one hundred and one to one fifty and all those,

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I'd set those up separate, and I didn't click the

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right box. I didn't cancel the adverts, so adverts were playing.

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I've now gone through every single podcast from the playlist.

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That is because it wasn't happening on the other podcast

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the normal podcasts, because as I said, I would never

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allow that to happen if I knew about it. I

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just didn't know about it, and I didn't even realize

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that the podcasts did that though automatically had it that

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it's kind of a setting that you have to undo manually,

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and I didn't realize it did it. It's been quite

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a while. I don't know why it did it.

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Anyway, that has been reversed, so none of the playlists

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will have that anymore. So just apologies to anyone that

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was affected by that. I've let Michelle know, but just

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letting everyone know as well. Now so I've now got

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it changed anything else about my.

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Website, and so look, I will look at I think

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what I'm going to do is I'm going to have

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to do probably a little bit of reverse engineering with

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this one, because I can't go too far back with

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the podcasts because I'm only allowed to have the ones

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with music that have got the Spreaker music on them,

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the ones that because that's the only one that the

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podcast allows I put any other different music on there,

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they will just they might end up closing the podcast again,

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which I don't want to go through that game. So,

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you know, it might just be for the Let Me

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Boy to Sleep. It might only be the last one hundred,

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one hundred and fifty recordings maybe that has the music,

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and so I'm I can't do that right now because

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I'm doing this, but I will look into that so

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that you can click on the you know, have the

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versions that are five hours without music five hours with music.

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Technically I should be able to do five and ten

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hours without music for every single one. But when I

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first started doing they Let Me Boy to Sleep, I

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didn't do more than just the initial recording. I didn't

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do different versions, didn't do longer versions, didn't do versions

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with music at all.

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So what I might do instead of going back and

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re making new, more and more recordings, I'm just going

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to leave the ones from the past as they were,

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but make sure that all future recordings are added and

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all more recent ones are as well. That made sense

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to me when I said it, but I'm not sure

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if it made sense.

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After I said it. I'm not even sure if that

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sentence made sense. Did it make sense? I don't know.

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I'm not sure. I'm going to be sleeping a lot today.

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I am. I can feel it.

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I can feel when I've done this, I'm going to

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go and lie down very warm.

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Last night, very warm. Indeed, I got no chocolate.

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I got some groceries yesterday, and all that money I

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spent on groceries and it's like, I don't know, there's

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like there's nothing to show for it.

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It's like what what what? What?

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What?

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Where? Where's all the stuff? Well? Here is everything. It's

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like this. There's hardly any fanais of breakfast, cereal.

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And some milk, some bread rolls. Yeah, there's not a

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lot of stuff there. I'm not quite sure how it

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came to be one hundred and twenty two pounds. I

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don't know, one hundred and twenty two pounds.

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I'd spend less than that in a month. Back in

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nineteen ninety that was quite a long time ago, to

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be fair. But yeah, I remember when thirty pound was

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quite a big shop. It was a good like two

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three bagfuls of food for thirty pound, and you know

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one hundred pound that would be an overloaded trolley full

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of stuff. Yeah, I need to look into that. I

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need to I need to mix some changes. I think

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because I ordered my food on uber Eats, I get

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it delivered the groceries, I'm beginning to think that they

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just add on a lot more to the price because

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the delivery is two pound, and maybe they I can't

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remember if they charge any four the there's another charge,

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isn't there. I'm not sure. No, not a delivery. I

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think the delivery was No. Yeah, maybe the delivery was

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four pound. I always leave a tip of two pound,

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which is not a lot, but it does add up

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over the weeks. But then I also carried all the

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stuff up.

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Oh yeah, because I got quite a few bottles of water,

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so that's like four cud of packs. I got four

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packs of water. But I ended up helping because when

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I first got stuff for muber eats, the whole one

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of the main points of getting deliveries is so that

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I don't have to carry the stuff. It kind of

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seems to defeat the object of getting a delivery if

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I'm carrying it.

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I don't know. It just seems a bit of a

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weird concept really, And I the more time's gone by,

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the more often I end up helping them with the

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with the delivery. And part of the reason I don't

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want to sort of carry it is because of my back.

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So I was trying to avoid, you know, doing all

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the bending over.

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And stuff, if all possible. I don't know, Yeah, I

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seem to have I mean I did delivery. This is

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a few weeks ago. It was a takeaway delivery. I

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think it was pizza.

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Rub me up to come down and collect it. It's like, no,

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do you come in and you knock on my door.

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That's that's how it works.

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Since the winter delivery driver is not even knock on

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your door anymore? Did you this is I'm just moaning today.

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Did you know in England, well, where I used to live,

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and probably the same in other places, maybe not London,

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but the same you know in like towns and stuff.

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In the eighties, the early eighties, maybe the middle eighties,

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even in the nineties. I think but definitely in the eighties,

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you'd order a taxi, they would knock on your door.

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They'd actually knock on your door to come and collect you,

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let you know the taxi is there. And then someone

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discovered the horn, and I think one of them must

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have seen the other one do it. I guess it's

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a bit like in an animal kingdom, isn't it. You

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see a monkey breaks a nut with a rock, like oh,

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and they all start doing it. It's a little bit

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like that, I think. And one taxi driver saw another

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taxi driver not getting out of the cab, not getting

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out of the car, and just bibbing his horn relentlessly

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until the person came out. Bearing in mind this is

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before mobile phone, and so the taxi couldn't phone, couldn't phone,

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you know.

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The person in the house. And then it just became that.

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That's how it became, like everyone just bibbed their horn.

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And now they don't bid their horn.

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It's just they just sit there and maybe the phone

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you or there's you know, got apps now and they said,

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you're a text you're cars here, this is the registration

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of your car. The driver's name is unpronounceable. Potentially yeah,

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I try and pronounce the delivery driver's names. I do,

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and they seem to like it. I think they appreciate

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the fact I've given it a go. But I get

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it wrong so often so hi abdul bum bum dumb.

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And they they laugh.

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I remember one says that he said, no, it's my

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name is Jamie. Okay, sorry, I get it wrong, but

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I give it a go.

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I give it, God do I do, because I don't

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know why. I just get bored. I guess baba ba

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boom b.

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B b b.

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I don't know about oper I'd kind of like to

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stop using them, really because it's expensive. But it's getting

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to the point. You know, McDonald's won't even deliver here now.

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They delivered here before, they delivered either if you went

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on their website or downloaded their app, or if I

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was to go through Uber Eats or one of the

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other ones delivery or whatever, and they would deliver. McDonald's

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not anymore. They've decided it's too far away, which is

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kind of ironic because it's one of the closest places

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there is. I get deliveries from places way further away

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than that. The McDonald's here, well, the closest McDonald's probably about.

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Five minutes in the car from my way. I live

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just one straight road. It's really it's not far at all.

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I wonder why that is. Maybe I don't know. I

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don't know, mind you. The McDonald's always seemed to be

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cold when it got to me.

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No, I've not I've not ordered it many times, but

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I've done a bit of market research, and other neighbors

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that have got McDonald's they say the same thing, and

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the chips are cold, or the fryers are cold, and

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the burgers are kind of lukewarm. I've not used that

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term for years. Lukewarm where it came from. Lukewarm For

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those who don't know what it means, it just means

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slightly warm. It's a bit like when you fill your

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bath up and it's really way too hot, so you

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put some warm you put some cold water in, but

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then you put in too much cold water in and

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it goes from being too hot to too cold, too

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cool for a bath.

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It's not cold, but it's just lukewarm. And it's amazing

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how it's almost like three seconds too much to three

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seconds too much of cold water can turn it from

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being a nice bath to a cold bath and then

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you need to put some.

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More hot water in, but you have to unplug, you

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have to let some water out because it takes ages

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to get it hot again or warm. Strange, isn't that?

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It's one of those. It's an anomaly that needs to

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be sorted out. Forget space travel. We need to sort

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that one out. We need to figure out what going

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on there anyway, Tammy is the first question. Oh, by

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the way, my neighbor is he's.

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Doing all right? He's for those that want to know,

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still in the hospital.

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He's had a scan, like a full proper body scan,

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not like the ones I do with the recordings, but

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inside this big tube. And apparently the moment because he

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kept moving around, I said, there wasn't the right time

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to start dancing, was it?

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Really? We laughed. I mean, I think it's because he

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can't stop talking. He literally cannot stop talking. Is I

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was trying to figure what is it? What is it that.

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Creates someone that cannot stop talking? I can be a

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little bit like that myself.

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Is it disliking silences or pauses? But it's kind of

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talking without listening as well? So I do have a

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tendency of talking, but I can also listen.

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And it's it's not a monologue, not not like here

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when I do this. This is a monologue, isn't it.

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I guess, isn't it. It's a monologue monologo.

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But in person it's a two way street. But it

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depends on what the conversational topic is. So if you

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start talking about boxing, providing your boxing fan and you

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know something about boxing, it's going to be a two

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way conversation equally. But I'm going to be excited about

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what I'm going to say next, So I will be

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just waiting for you to stop talking so I can talk,

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but I will also be listening to what you're saying,

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and i'll readjust what I'm going to say depending on

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what you just said. It's almost like as a big

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cure things that I want to say, and they're just

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waiting impatiently to get on the ride the next roller coaster,

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which is my verbal diarrhea that's about to pop out

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my mouth when I talk next. It's a little bit

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like that. But I noticed that.

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I can't listen to someone that's talking about something I'm

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not interested in, unless it's kind of in a scenario

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like this, you know, it's you never got my eyes closed,

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and it's just relaxing.

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It's a kind of different thing.

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But in a real life situation, when there's a person

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just talking at me constantly for hours and hours.

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It's I find it hard. I just I don't. I

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don't not very good with that stuff. I've known a

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couple of people like that in my past, both really

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lovely people, genuinely really nice people, but they once they

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start talking, I'd struggle to follow where they were going. One.

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Yeah, it's I think it's a there's a common thread,

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and I think I've kind of in some ways absorbed

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part of that kind of personality in order to produce

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these recordings in a way, because that's kind of how

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I started off. When with the Let Me Boy to Sleep,

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it was I mean, it was just another version of

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something I'm previously done before anyway, which was speaking out quietly,

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I think, or thinking out quietly, something like that. And

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there was another one, I forget the name of it,

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but it was where I was just I guess, stream

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of consciousness, just talking NonStop, and I realized.

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I could do it. I could do it really easily.

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It was there was no no effort, nothing it took yeah,

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no energy. It was just the easiest thing in the

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world to just talk. I'm sure it could be with

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anyone else as well. I'm not I'm not saying I'm special,

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although all my teachers told me I was special. And

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but in a real life situation, you know, because if

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it's so, if you met me in real life, and

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of course as soon as you saw me, you'd want

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to rip my clothes off, not because I'm sexiest, because

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I'm wearing really horrible clothes.

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It's unless you was.

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I mean to be fair, if you've if you're used

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to hearing me, listening to me just waffling on like

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I do, and you're used to just feeling relaxed, just

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maybe just the idea of listening to me when you

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think of me, maybe you feel I relaxed inside, and.

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Perhaps my voice does send you to sleep.

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So if you saw me in person, met me in

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real life, it might be weird. I mean, it'd be

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weird obviously, you know. I think if you've got together

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with all the people who have met me, they'll always

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say the same thing.

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Weird.

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Weird, not in a bad way necessarily, but weird. But

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I can't quite put my finger on it. It's something

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not the same as.

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Other people, but not in a good way.

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You know, there's it's one good you know, you could

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feel sort of so proud of yourself. Well, I'm not

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like other people, but with me, it's always been like

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I wish I was. And then you say other people,

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what's other people?

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What?

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Everyone is the same except you are? They obviously not.

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But I do have an abnormal brain, so I don't.

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I'm on the spectrum of something, but I just don't think.

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I don't think it's I don't think it's been discovered yet.

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Whatever spectrum I'm on.

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It's an unknown quantity. Wow, I would like my friend

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has just had this. I've ever started the podcast ever yet. Sorry,

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Sorry Tammy and Jonathan and Tina, who've got questions. I

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am going to answer the questions, I promise, but at

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the same time, I can't stop talking.

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It's I forgot what I was going to say.

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Now now that I've just I've interrupted, did myself rudely

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and completely forgot what I was going to say, something

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about being on a spectrum and notes gone. It's gone

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out me ed. What was I going to say something

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about it? Should I get tested.

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Oh, so my neighbor he had a full scan, so

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I basically he had a scan to first of all,

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which was a cat scan, which scans the bones and

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the skeletal system. I do believe it scans other things

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as well, but this, this full body scan was it

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goes in depth, so scans your brain. You just you

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know it basically your entire body. And i'd like to

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I don't know if I particularly want to have a

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body scan, because who knows what's going on in there,

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and I think I perhaps would rather not know in

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some ways, but I would like to have a brain

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scan because there's something not right with my brain. Then yeah,

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it's just and it's not it's just it's a fact

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there's something that never has my brain's never been correct,

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and so I've always been something off, a bit weird.

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So I'd love to get a brain scan and just

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for them to say, ah, because I might have only

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half a brain or something. You know, it might be

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one of those that that it's like, which would make

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makes sense, but it might be just like just have a.

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What's that thing the brain, the brain stem. There might

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be a brain stem and just a little bit of

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jelly on the side, that might all it might be

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maybe some peanut butter. On the other side, a little

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bit of bread at the bottom.

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I don't know.

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That, you know, there might not be anything in there,

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and it'd be nice to just find out because that

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sort of bugs me. Doesn't bug me, but I just

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don't really understand it. Things like mental illness issues, mental

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health issues, conditions, you know, it's like bipolar schizophrenia. There's

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so many, isn't it so? And they're classed as brain conditions.

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So things like anxiety could be a brain condition, but

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quite often maybe is due to something that's happened in

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the past, due to a phobia, due to you know,

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social stuff, not necessarily also got autism as well. It's

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a brain thing, isn't it. So these are brain things.

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Then there's environmentally things that have changed someone environmentally behaviorally,

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which can technically be fixed with time, with therapy, with understanding.

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I guess that that, you know, can hopefully be changed

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at least. So I wonder why, bearing in mind that

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there's millions of people with these brain conditions, let's just

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stay those three bipolar, schizophrenia and autism. I mean, they're

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different things. I'm not saying autism is saying as bipolar schizophrenia.

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I'm just saying it's a it's a brain condition, isn't it.

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It's a brain thing, let's.

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Say call it. So why why are they're not just

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scan in every single person with.

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Everyone was bipolar. Just scan their brain. Maybe every adult,

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not the kids. Maybe it's every adult with bipolar. Scan

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their brain once and then look and compare, do comparisons

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and do the same with people with schizophrenia or there's

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lots of different conditions in between that, and you know,

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but then do the same with people with autism. Just

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scan the brains and look at it, look at the

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because at the moment, all they do the experts in

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this country anyway, I don't know. Maybe other countries they

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do more. But unless it's a brain injury, they don't

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tend to scan the brain all. So it's just guesswork

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based on how you feel and how you behave and

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previous history, previous medical history, you know, stuff like that.

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So just scan it.

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You know, if you get a broken bone, they scan

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the bone so they can see if it's broken or not.

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They can't tell if it's broken unless they scan it.

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I mean, they probably can, but it probably it hurt

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a hell of a lot becauld they have to really manipulate,

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you wouldn't they to sort of to feel where it's broken.

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But generally they do a scan so they can see

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if it's broken in one place, it's broken in two places,

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if everything's okay. You know, it's just as a clean break.

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And it's simple, simple process which is done probably millions

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of times a day around the world. So why can't

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they just do that with brains. And it's not about

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having lots of different scans, just one scan per person

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just to start with, because I know it's it's not

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safe to keep having keep having lots and lots and

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lots and lots of X ray scans and stuff. But

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just one per person and then they can get an

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idea what's really happening, because they do they do do

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brain scans on people, you know, when they do studies,

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but just do it on everyone. That's why, that's what

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I think, But only adults to start with, leave the

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kids alone, you know, just to work on the adults

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first and then then perhaps move to the kids and

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work with that as well, because it's like it's a

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very different situation for kids to and for adults.

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So I don't know.

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Any ideas, I suppose any questions, but it could be, well, yeah,

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are you going to answer the questions that are for

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Q and A Friday, because that's why we're here. Weren't

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here to just be lectured about two about.

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Having brain scans. I don't know.

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00:38:27.639 --> 00:38:30.559
I'm kind of quite passionate about that. I didn't realize

478
00:38:30.599 --> 00:38:36.320
I was until just now quite passionate about possibly.

479
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:44.679
It just makes sense to me. You know, I understand

480
00:38:44.679 --> 00:38:49.079
why they don't do full body scans for everyone. You know.

481
00:38:49.840 --> 00:38:58.199
It is simply because it's too expensive, apparently, and also

482
00:39:00.039 --> 00:39:06.920
they'd have to start treating people, you know, because you know,

483
00:39:07.880 --> 00:39:09.440
you know, you know, you know I'm saying, you know

484
00:39:09.480 --> 00:39:09.719
a lot.

485
00:39:09.760 --> 00:39:10.599
I know you know.

486
00:39:14.840 --> 00:39:17.039
It would Yeah, it would open up a big old

487
00:39:18.480 --> 00:39:22.519
box of frogs. I don't think that's the correct terminology,

488
00:39:23.119 --> 00:39:27.360
because generally people only get a body scan when they're

489
00:39:28.000 --> 00:39:28.280
no one.

490
00:39:28.280 --> 00:39:31.079
It's too late, but you know, when there's an issue.

491
00:39:32.400 --> 00:39:35.840
And if my friend hadn't turned yellow, he'd still be

492
00:39:35.880 --> 00:39:43.079
in this for that, unaware that he was unwell, because

493
00:39:43.079 --> 00:39:52.719
he feels fine, and he'd be enjoying the football or

494
00:39:52.760 --> 00:39:58.960
the rugby or the cricket or the tennis. I don't

495
00:39:59.000 --> 00:40:02.119
know what other sports you likes, but you know that's

496
00:40:02.320 --> 00:40:03.639
what he lives for.

497
00:40:03.760 --> 00:40:06.880
That's his passion in life. So he'd be having the

498
00:40:06.920 --> 00:40:10.000
time of He just enjoys his life, so he'd be

499
00:40:10.039 --> 00:40:17.079
doing that, or we can and be happy. Instead, he's stuck.

500
00:40:16.800 --> 00:40:22.400
In a hospital ward and he feels fine, physically, feels

501
00:40:22.559 --> 00:40:29.760
absolutely fine. It's strange. I've never known anything like this before.

502
00:40:30.239 --> 00:40:34.760
It just kind of doesn't make sense to me because

503
00:40:34.760 --> 00:40:39.280
he's not around. Everyone's around does not feel fine. He's

504
00:40:39.320 --> 00:40:43.000
the only one. I'm not saying, he's the only one

505
00:40:43.039 --> 00:40:46.519
in the hospital that's sitting in the hospital bed feeling

506
00:40:46.559 --> 00:40:51.079
absolutely fine and kind of wondering why they're there. You know,

507
00:40:51.440 --> 00:40:53.239
there's no way I can say that, because it's no

508
00:40:53.320 --> 00:40:57.239
way I've known. But I'm pretty sure there's not many

509
00:40:59.199 --> 00:41:04.480
that are just he feels perfect, or he feels exactly

510
00:41:04.480 --> 00:41:09.159
how he always has. You know, he's slowed down. He's

511
00:41:09.159 --> 00:41:14.679
nearly eighty's. He walks a lot slower than he would

512
00:41:14.760 --> 00:41:17.320
do that he did, you know, a year ago even,

513
00:41:17.880 --> 00:41:21.599
but he just he's aging a bit and he's careful

514
00:41:21.639 --> 00:41:23.480
when he walks. Up and down the stairs. But so

515
00:41:23.559 --> 00:41:26.920
am I ever since I fell down them stairs a

516
00:41:26.960 --> 00:41:33.039
couple of years ago. I'm full on both handles, I'm

517
00:41:33.039 --> 00:41:38.360
holding onto both banisters. I've got like five coats in

518
00:41:38.440 --> 00:41:41.199
case I fall. You know, there's a trampoline at the

519
00:41:41.199 --> 00:41:46.639
bottom of the stairs. That would be the worst thing

520
00:41:46.639 --> 00:41:48.199
to fall on, wouldn't it, because you just end up

521
00:41:48.199 --> 00:41:49.320
banging into the ceiling.

522
00:41:50.039 --> 00:41:55.119
That would be such a really yeah, you know, someone

523
00:41:55.239 --> 00:41:55.639
fell off.

524
00:41:56.079 --> 00:41:57.840
You know, if you're going to catch someone that has

525
00:41:57.920 --> 00:42:00.599
falling off a building or something, you know, and you're

526
00:42:00.599 --> 00:42:03.519
trying to save them, a trampoline wouldn't be the right

527
00:42:03.559 --> 00:42:07.719
thing to use. It end up back on the building

528
00:42:08.400 --> 00:42:16.000
or maybe onto another building. I wonder how much it

529
00:42:16.000 --> 00:42:18.639
would cost to have a brain scan. I'm going to

530
00:42:18.679 --> 00:42:27.000
look that up now, how much is it to have

531
00:42:28.119 --> 00:42:35.119
a brain scan? How much the brain scan cost? So

532
00:42:35.199 --> 00:42:37.239
I'm going to put in the UK because it's coming

533
00:42:37.360 --> 00:42:40.960
up the US. It's a little bit different, I think

534
00:42:41.679 --> 00:42:53.719
in the UK because after your brain scan, three hundred

535
00:42:53.719 --> 00:43:05.360
and thirty five pound Oh oh, okay, so that's the

536
00:43:05.360 --> 00:43:10.880
brain scan. So if you have this is private MRI scans,

537
00:43:11.760 --> 00:43:15.519
let's have a look. I'm braining headscans. Oh m r

538
00:43:15.960 --> 00:43:20.280
r MRI plus brain head scans from one ninety nine.

539
00:43:21.199 --> 00:43:28.320
Huhm. No Field Health. I think I'd probably want to

540
00:43:28.400 --> 00:43:33.199
use if I put in my town to see if

541
00:43:33.199 --> 00:43:35.559
anything comes up, because I want to I'd want to

542
00:43:35.599 --> 00:43:40.679
go somewhere that I knew, you know, not some I

543
00:43:40.679 --> 00:43:44.000
mean there's one here called scan dot com. I mean,

544
00:43:44.000 --> 00:43:46.159
I might as well just call themselves scam. I'm just

545
00:43:46.320 --> 00:43:53.360
I don't know. I'd be scared top MRI dot com.

546
00:43:53.400 --> 00:43:56.960
So no, Field Health. That's a hospital. I do believe

547
00:43:58.280 --> 00:44:05.239
I'd want to go somewhere that was like well known

548
00:44:05.559 --> 00:44:07.639
or well regarded.

549
00:44:07.880 --> 00:44:08.119
You know.

550
00:44:08.239 --> 00:44:13.400
I wouldn't want to just go to random places. You

551
00:44:13.480 --> 00:44:19.920
have to save up for that. That's for pets. HCA,

552
00:44:20.800 --> 00:44:24.440
all right, so HCA, that's an actual healthcare. So that's

553
00:44:24.760 --> 00:44:29.559
a place private. CT scan that's a cat scan, though,

554
00:44:29.559 --> 00:44:36.280
isn't it. I don't want a cat scan. I'm talking about.

555
00:44:36.760 --> 00:44:46.360
Brains, brains departments, tests and scans, all tests and scanst's.

556
00:44:46.360 --> 00:45:00.760
Have a look coloscopopy HPV screaming. There's loads, there's loads, it's.

557
00:45:02.440 --> 00:45:09.719
Bone density all BlimE me.

558
00:45:10.280 --> 00:45:18.840
Okay, yeah, see this is all I wonder if you

559
00:45:18.880 --> 00:45:23.239
can just I don't know how much it costs. It's

560
00:45:23.280 --> 00:45:30.840
not saying oh, well come out that. I think that's

561
00:45:30.880 --> 00:45:33.079
like an insurance thing that you need to be part

562
00:45:33.079 --> 00:45:43.639
of a house.

563
00:45:44.559 --> 00:45:52.760
This is weird, alliance medical. I just if I was, oh,

564
00:45:52.920 --> 00:45:57.280
this is this soul look.

565
00:45:59.000 --> 00:46:00.440
Self pay? Am all right?

566
00:46:03.159 --> 00:46:09.559
Have a referral? Do not have a referral? Okay? Our locations?

567
00:46:12.519 --> 00:46:15.119
Why is it put Oh there is this one. It's

568
00:46:15.159 --> 00:46:19.880
actually in the hospital. It's actually in the hospital area.

569
00:46:20.800 --> 00:46:21.880
How weird? I didn't.

570
00:46:22.199 --> 00:46:27.800
Wow, it's next to the hospital. Does it say how

571
00:46:27.880 --> 00:46:31.440
much four hundred and forty pound?

572
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:37.760
I might do that? Actually? Is that the whole body? Scin?

573
00:46:37.920 --> 00:46:41.119
Does that whole everything? Or no?

574
00:46:41.280 --> 00:46:45.599
It's four pound. It's four hundred and forty pound for

575
00:46:45.719 --> 00:46:53.079
one body part. Blimey. So let's see what body parts

576
00:46:53.320 --> 00:47:02.119
are they offering. They're not even offer the brain unless

577
00:47:02.159 --> 00:47:06.920
it's head brain head, Yeah, brain head, four hundred and

578
00:47:07.000 --> 00:47:18.400
forty check prices, four hundred and forty pound. So they're

579
00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:24.679
not offering it for the whole body. Wow, left thumb

580
00:47:27.119 --> 00:47:32.719
check prices. You're joking, they're left thumb. They're going to

581
00:47:32.880 --> 00:47:38.800
charge four hundred and forty pounds for a thumb, a

582
00:47:39.000 --> 00:47:45.920
thumb altogether. Now a thumb, I mean, not even both funds.

583
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:53.000
Four hundred and forty pounds for one thumb. That's I

584
00:47:53.000 --> 00:48:01.559
don't know. I can't. That's but if you have your

585
00:48:01.559 --> 00:48:07.159
spine done four hundred and forty how can a spine

586
00:48:07.760 --> 00:48:10.239
be the same price or a brain the brain in

587
00:48:10.280 --> 00:48:12.599
the head be the same price as a thumb.

588
00:48:14.800 --> 00:48:32.000
It's just all about little finger. I don't know. I

589
00:48:32.079 --> 00:48:34.679
was going to say, I could it says groin right

590
00:48:34.719 --> 00:48:37.239
and left? They can't it not even going to offer

591
00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:38.199
the whole of the groin.

592
00:48:39.679 --> 00:48:42.000
I would like to get scanned to see if there's

593
00:48:42.039 --> 00:48:43.159
still anything down there.

594
00:48:43.599 --> 00:48:46.039
I'm not sure. I haven't seen anything for you years.

595
00:48:46.719 --> 00:48:55.639
Right and left thumb, Oh toenails.

596
00:48:57.239 --> 00:49:01.400
I'll come back to that another time. That's quite interesting.

597
00:49:01.440 --> 00:49:06.960
I might do that. So Tammy asks, how are you

598
00:49:07.000 --> 00:49:10.360
doing with the week of chaos around the house? Is

599
00:49:10.400 --> 00:49:11.880
your friend up and about now?

600
00:49:13.760 --> 00:49:17.960
It's been a very very weird week. I'll be it up,

601
00:49:18.679 --> 00:49:20.480
up and back for the hospital.

602
00:49:22.199 --> 00:49:26.599
They're and back every day since Friday last week. So

603
00:49:26.639 --> 00:49:34.440
it's Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. So

604
00:49:34.480 --> 00:49:38.119
that's eight days in a row. I'm not going up today.

605
00:49:40.320 --> 00:49:44.320
He's got another visitor come in later afternoon, and I

606
00:49:44.360 --> 00:49:47.760
can't go up Sunday because there's no buses. Or there is,

607
00:49:47.800 --> 00:49:52.119
but the buses are just really random every two hours,

608
00:49:52.159 --> 00:49:53.079
and I'm not going to do that.

609
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:55.719
As it is, it takes.

610
00:49:55.440 --> 00:49:57.320
Two hours if I get a bus, it takes two

611
00:49:57.360 --> 00:50:01.400
hours there, two hours back because of the waiting around,

612
00:50:01.519 --> 00:50:05.159
and there's two buses to catch and a bit of walking.

613
00:50:06.440 --> 00:50:11.639
So yeah, I'm not I'm having two days off. And Vinnie, little.

614
00:50:11.480 --> 00:50:12.400
Vinceta here.

615
00:50:14.119 --> 00:50:16.679
Seems to be quite happy that I'm here with him,

616
00:50:17.000 --> 00:50:22.239
because yesterday he didn't even bark when I left. He

617
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:24.039
just sat on the sofa and just looked at me,

618
00:50:24.199 --> 00:50:32.360
and I left and nothing. That's never happened before. You know,

619
00:50:32.440 --> 00:50:37.880
even if I just go out and pop around a corner,

620
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:46.880
he would bark, but this time nothing. What's been weird

621
00:50:47.559 --> 00:50:51.880
is Vinnie's behavior the last week now. It's been off

622
00:50:51.880 --> 00:50:55.519
his food. I think that's partly because of the heat,

623
00:50:57.239 --> 00:50:59.400
but I know it's not just because of that, because

624
00:51:00.159 --> 00:51:02.960
I left some food out and I gave him a

625
00:51:03.000 --> 00:51:05.840
treat which you'd normally just gobble down and he'd be.

626
00:51:05.840 --> 00:51:06.760
Like chewing on it.

627
00:51:08.519 --> 00:51:12.159
The treat was still on the settee when I got

628
00:51:12.199 --> 00:51:20.119
back six hours later, and then he ate it. So

629
00:51:21.679 --> 00:51:26.159
he's sulking, basically. I think it's been sulking.

630
00:51:29.199 --> 00:51:33.800
The last few days. He refused to get on my bed.

631
00:51:36.519 --> 00:51:39.280
I didn't want to sleep with me, which is a

632
00:51:39.320 --> 00:51:45.199
little bit upset and actually because for however long I've

633
00:51:45.239 --> 00:51:47.960
had him two and a half years, he slept in

634
00:51:47.960 --> 00:51:48.320
my bed.

635
00:51:49.800 --> 00:51:51.880
We sleep together, you know, that's that's our thing.

636
00:51:52.639 --> 00:51:55.559
And that sounds weird, doesn't It's our thing.

637
00:51:55.599 --> 00:52:01.199
That is. Oh, I don't care who knows it.

638
00:52:03.000 --> 00:52:06.920
Yeah, so he's but it's not just that he's been

639
00:52:06.960 --> 00:52:09.480
sort of sitting there just staring at me from the floor,

640
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:14.000
making the odd door.

641
00:52:18.199 --> 00:52:22.440
So I don't know. But last night he got in

642
00:52:22.440 --> 00:52:26.360
the bed with me, which is nice. So that was

643
00:52:26.480 --> 00:52:29.480
that was quite a pleasant experience again, But then I

644
00:52:29.519 --> 00:52:30.199
woke up.

645
00:52:32.079 --> 00:52:35.360
And he wasn't in the bed. He wasn't in the bedroom,

646
00:52:35.760 --> 00:52:39.760
he wasn't in the living room. I thought, where's Vinnegon?

647
00:52:41.440 --> 00:52:43.840
He was lying down in front of the front door,

648
00:52:46.280 --> 00:52:49.159
leaning against the front door. Now there's a chance that

649
00:52:49.239 --> 00:52:51.760
was just the coolest place for him to be. I

650
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:59.239
hope that's the reason. But I think he is pining

651
00:52:59.599 --> 00:53:04.679
for his uncle who's in hospital, because he's used to

652
00:53:04.719 --> 00:53:09.679
hearing him coming and going. He knows everyone in this building.

653
00:53:11.079 --> 00:53:14.000
He knows where everyone is and who they are, and

654
00:53:14.239 --> 00:53:16.679
because he can smell and hear them, can't I guess,

655
00:53:16.719 --> 00:53:22.039
And I suppose to him this building is his his home.

656
00:53:22.519 --> 00:53:25.920
Even though we live in one of the flats. He

657
00:53:26.360 --> 00:53:28.960
gets excited to say to all of them, he knows

658
00:53:28.960 --> 00:53:35.119
everyone here, and his uncle opposite me is one of

659
00:53:35.159 --> 00:53:43.599
his favorite people. So I think he's getting a little

660
00:53:43.599 --> 00:53:49.679
bit sad missing him, just missing because sometimes you know,

661
00:53:49.920 --> 00:53:52.079
I'll be in here and Vin he will be out

662
00:53:52.079 --> 00:53:56.239
of the front door, and my neighbor be talking to

663
00:53:56.320 --> 00:53:59.159
Vinnie through the door, just saying he lo to. They'll

664
00:53:59.159 --> 00:54:07.280
be having this big, full on conversations leaving to it.

665
00:54:07.320 --> 00:54:09.199
So it's been a bit strange. I managed to do

666
00:54:09.239 --> 00:54:10.039
a few little bits.

667
00:54:10.079 --> 00:54:15.239
I did some washing, some laundry, and kind of ran

668
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:17.199
out of food. But I managed to get some food

669
00:54:17.360 --> 00:54:27.920
yesterday afternoon or like early evening, got a delivery and

670
00:54:28.000 --> 00:54:34.960
what else. Oh, the other day, Vinnie stayed with a friend.

671
00:54:36.199 --> 00:54:44.440
This was Thursday morning. He stayed with Archie, so that

672
00:54:44.639 --> 00:54:49.119
was a neighbor around the corner. And he's never he's

673
00:54:49.119 --> 00:54:53.480
never had a playdate before with another dog. Ever, it's

674
00:54:53.480 --> 00:54:54.480
the first time.

675
00:54:55.960 --> 00:54:58.920
Where he's been, you know, like a dog he knows

676
00:54:59.000 --> 00:55:02.280
really well and gone around because it's not an Archie

677
00:55:02.360 --> 00:55:04.039
for years.

678
00:55:05.719 --> 00:55:08.960
They're best friends. But they see each other not all

679
00:55:08.960 --> 00:55:12.480
the time, but usually a few times a week, depending

680
00:55:12.519 --> 00:55:17.719
on you know, if we managed to bump into them.

681
00:55:18.519 --> 00:55:21.119
But they just get on so well. And they had

682
00:55:21.119 --> 00:55:24.400
a really good time together playing in the garden. The

683
00:55:24.400 --> 00:55:27.239
apparently they were jumping all over her, the mother to

684
00:55:27.400 --> 00:55:30.000
give the dogs jumping all over her like while she

685
00:55:30.159 --> 00:55:34.159
was trying to use her phone or whatever, and probably

686
00:55:34.199 --> 00:55:38.199
fighting over attention, to be honest. So they had a

687
00:55:38.360 --> 00:55:45.599
really good time. And I think Vinnie is trying to

688
00:55:45.639 --> 00:55:47.599
go back there now because he wants to go back

689
00:55:47.599 --> 00:55:51.000
and play because he had a good time. But I

690
00:55:51.039 --> 00:55:54.360
can't really invite myself, can I can't knock on the door?

691
00:55:54.960 --> 00:55:58.559
Can Vinnie come to play? Please? Can Actie come out

692
00:55:58.599 --> 00:56:07.079
to play? Please? Can't really do that kill me?

693
00:56:07.159 --> 00:56:07.400
Really?

694
00:56:08.400 --> 00:56:17.039
Not really not really. So he's a bit grumpy, but

695
00:56:17.079 --> 00:56:20.320
I think he's enjoying me being here. So he's lying

696
00:56:20.400 --> 00:56:25.159
down next to me, he's on his side, his feet

697
00:56:25.239 --> 00:56:30.400
and his hands both all touching me. So he's I

698
00:56:30.440 --> 00:56:35.400
think he's a little bit more. He looks relaxed. He

699
00:56:35.480 --> 00:56:44.880
looks very relaxed. As far as my neighbor goes, he's

700
00:56:48.239 --> 00:56:48.960
it's the same.

701
00:56:49.039 --> 00:56:55.400
He's still in the hospital. He's chatting.

702
00:56:56.079 --> 00:57:01.079
He's bored, like everyone in there, he's bored being there.

703
00:57:01.079 --> 00:57:03.519
He doesn't want to be there. No one does that.

704
00:57:03.639 --> 00:57:05.639
They really, let's face it, who wants to be in

705
00:57:05.639 --> 00:57:06.239
a hospital.

706
00:57:10.119 --> 00:57:10.320
See.

707
00:57:10.400 --> 00:57:14.199
Yeah, but it's physically fine. It physically feels fine. I mean,

708
00:57:14.360 --> 00:57:18.480
he's not physically fine, but he's he feels okay.

709
00:57:18.679 --> 00:57:19.920
He's actually very unwell.

710
00:57:21.800 --> 00:57:25.519
So it's just he hasn't got any symptoms other than

711
00:57:26.239 --> 00:57:28.679
the jaundice.

712
00:57:31.079 --> 00:57:33.480
Yeah, so it's kind of I don't know.

713
00:57:33.559 --> 00:57:38.039
I think this is a very confusing for him, understandably so,

714
00:57:40.880 --> 00:57:44.559
and he's just waiting to go home. But there are

715
00:57:44.599 --> 00:57:47.920
some benefits I don't mean. Yeah, there's there's the things

716
00:57:47.960 --> 00:57:48.960
he's getting there that.

717
00:57:48.960 --> 00:57:54.119
He doesn't get at home. One's being fed three times

718
00:57:54.119 --> 00:57:57.559
a day. He doesn't eat three times a day at home.

719
00:58:00.880 --> 00:58:05.239
So I think he's quite enjoying getting food, like I

720
00:58:05.239 --> 00:58:08.800
havn't cooked food. I think he has a breakfast cereal

721
00:58:08.840 --> 00:58:17.000
in the morning, but he's having two cooked meals a day.

722
00:58:17.239 --> 00:58:22.480
He's he's made friends with the person sitting opposite next

723
00:58:22.480 --> 00:58:26.599
to him, so he's he's got a captive audience to

724
00:58:26.639 --> 00:58:31.599
talk to, and he doesn't have that normally because he

725
00:58:32.079 --> 00:58:34.760
lives on his own. I mean, you know, I speak

726
00:58:34.800 --> 00:58:37.519
to him and I see him and stuff, but like me,

727
00:58:37.719 --> 00:58:41.199
I live on my own, so I used to being

728
00:58:41.239 --> 00:58:45.039
on my own. I think the difference between this is

729
00:58:45.079 --> 00:58:52.000
I enjoy I enjoy the silence, the quiet, but if

730
00:58:52.000 --> 00:58:56.239
you brought someone in here, the chances are I wouldn't

731
00:58:56.280 --> 00:59:04.920
stop talking, you know. So there's some similarities between us

732
00:59:04.960 --> 00:59:11.400
in a sense. Because that's why I tried to explain

733
00:59:11.480 --> 00:59:14.880
this to a few people over the years, why I

734
00:59:14.880 --> 00:59:18.559
don't want anyone in here when I'm watching boxing. You know,

735
00:59:18.559 --> 00:59:20.119
I had a couple of friends and say I'll come

736
00:59:20.159 --> 00:59:23.119
around to watch the AJ fight, or we watched the

737
00:59:23.280 --> 00:59:27.440
Tyson Fury fight, and I said, no, I don't want you. Okay,

738
00:59:27.440 --> 00:59:29.599
I don't don't say I don't want you here, but no,

739
00:59:29.719 --> 00:59:32.239
I don't don't like people being here when I'm watching.

740
00:59:32.000 --> 00:59:39.599
The boxing for two reasons, three reasons, actually four reasons.

741
00:59:40.639 --> 00:59:47.880
There's a few reasons there's I'll go through them. The

742
00:59:47.960 --> 00:59:51.440
first one is I can't relax if someone else is here.

743
00:59:51.480 --> 00:59:52.199
I don't relax.

744
00:59:53.320 --> 00:59:56.400
There's there's not Yeah, it's not relaxing for me to have.

745
00:59:57.239 --> 01:00:01.920
I'm relaxed when I've got Vinny here and that's it.

746
01:00:03.639 --> 01:00:06.119
No one else I don't have. I don't feel relaxed

747
01:00:06.119 --> 01:00:08.960
with anyone else. I'm not saying I won't ever feel,

748
01:00:09.000 --> 01:00:13.400
but at the moment and there's no one I feel

749
01:00:13.400 --> 01:00:17.000
relaxed around. But it doesn't mean that I don't you know,

750
01:00:17.719 --> 01:00:19.559
I don't mean I dislike the person if I don't

751
01:00:19.559 --> 01:00:25.239
feel relaxed around them, I just feel if there's someone

752
01:00:25.239 --> 01:00:27.880
else in my home it puts me on edge a.

753
01:00:27.840 --> 01:00:28.400
Little bit.

754
01:00:30.039 --> 01:00:35.159
A lot sometimes. The other thing is they might want

755
01:00:35.199 --> 01:00:36.599
to sit next to me on the sofa.

756
01:00:36.840 --> 01:00:40.440
I don't like that. The only one that sits next

757
01:00:40.480 --> 01:00:41.159
to me is Vinnie.

758
01:00:42.719 --> 01:00:45.719
I don't That other side of the sofa is for rubbish,

759
01:00:45.960 --> 01:00:52.880
well not rubbish, but just stuff, just bits and bobs.

760
01:00:53.119 --> 01:00:54.280
Is just messy.

761
01:00:55.079 --> 01:00:57.320
But that's what that's that's what that chair is for

762
01:00:58.280 --> 01:01:02.639
this side is for me and Vinnie if I'm not

763
01:01:02.679 --> 01:01:06.559
sitting in it, and then he can sit to the side,

764
01:01:07.079 --> 01:01:08.639
so he takes up a little bit of the other

765
01:01:08.719 --> 01:01:12.639
seat and a little bit of this seat, and that's

766
01:01:12.679 --> 01:01:23.760
his area. So that's two reasons. The third reason would be.

767
01:01:25.440 --> 01:01:27.199
It'd be distracting.

768
01:01:29.000 --> 01:01:33.599
Having someone here is a distraction, which I don't want

769
01:01:33.639 --> 01:01:39.480
when I'm watching boxing, or which is what I don't

770
01:01:39.480 --> 01:01:46.480
want ever, maybe not when I'm my home. Don't need

771
01:01:46.480 --> 01:01:52.000
that distraction. Generally, It's probably not.

772
01:01:51.960 --> 01:01:56.000
True all the times, but generally, you know, if it's

773
01:01:56.320 --> 01:02:00.280
if I'm going to watch the boxing, I want to

774
01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:03.039
be able to concentrate on that. Even if I don't

775
01:02:03.039 --> 01:02:05.119
want to concentrate on it, I don't want to have

776
01:02:05.159 --> 01:02:13.760
to concentrate on what someone else is saying. Another reason is.

777
01:02:15.400 --> 01:02:22.559
There's a chance they're going to talk constantly, which will

778
01:02:22.559 --> 01:02:25.679
annoy me, it distract me. It will be I lose,

779
01:02:26.519 --> 01:02:29.840
I lose my for me to focus, I can do

780
01:02:29.920 --> 01:02:31.199
one thing at the time.

781
01:02:31.440 --> 01:02:31.920
That's it.

782
01:02:34.440 --> 01:02:36.920
And the other reason is because I will talk. I

783
01:02:36.920 --> 01:02:50.199
will definitely talk constantly, and that will distract me because

784
01:02:50.199 --> 01:02:56.079
I might end up talking about something completely irrelevant and

785
01:02:56.119 --> 01:03:00.440
I'll miss an important thing in what I'm watching, whether

786
01:03:00.440 --> 01:03:04.119
it's a movie, whether it's a TV series, or whether

787
01:03:04.159 --> 01:03:09.480
it's the boxing. If I miss something when I'm on

788
01:03:09.519 --> 01:03:15.480
my own, I can rewind, but you know, ultimately it's

789
01:03:15.519 --> 01:03:22.400
because I haven't focused. But if I miss something, an

790
01:03:22.440 --> 01:03:25.760
important bit of information, because someone else is talking to

791
01:03:25.800 --> 01:03:29.719
me or I'm talking to them, that's just yeah, I

792
01:03:29.719 --> 01:03:40.119
can't really do that. I'm trying to think of any

793
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:45.920
other reasons, but I think that's enough reasons. It's I

794
01:03:45.960 --> 01:03:47.400
hope that I could.

795
01:03:47.159 --> 01:03:50.280
Meet someone one day that I don't feel that way with,

796
01:03:53.159 --> 01:03:56.079
you know, without getting all romantic. I think it'd be

797
01:03:56.119 --> 01:03:58.559
quite nice one day I had someone I could just,

798
01:04:00.559 --> 01:04:07.880
I don't know, maybe hold hands with or cuddle, you know,

799
01:04:08.000 --> 01:04:12.440
maybe and watch boxing and maybe they'd be into boxing

800
01:04:12.559 --> 01:04:17.599
or they're just I don't, I don't know. The thing is.

801
01:04:19.280 --> 01:04:21.039
They'd have to sit on top of Vinny, wouldn't they,

802
01:04:21.079 --> 01:04:23.280
because he's that's where he sits.

803
01:04:24.360 --> 01:04:28.159
So be quite hard. But knowing him because he's got

804
01:04:28.159 --> 01:04:29.159
a real thing for women.

805
01:04:30.840 --> 01:04:33.840
He's really got a I mean, he gets so much

806
01:04:33.880 --> 01:04:37.920
attention from women. He knows it. He's a little bit

807
01:04:37.920 --> 01:04:41.000
of a little stud nothing thin ears.

808
01:04:41.920 --> 01:04:43.360
So he'd be all over.

809
01:04:44.360 --> 01:04:52.000
Equally, if I had a female friend romantically, he would

810
01:04:52.159 --> 01:04:59.519
probably not want me going anywhere near. It'd be should

811
01:04:59.519 --> 01:05:04.679
be his friend basically in his mind, so he'd be

812
01:05:04.679 --> 01:05:07.039
hogging her. He'd be all over sitting on a lap

813
01:05:08.000 --> 01:05:12.840
and probably wouldn't He probably wouldn't even want me and

814
01:05:12.880 --> 01:05:19.039
her even sitting next to each other. The other thing

815
01:05:19.239 --> 01:05:22.159
is when you got visitors here, there always breathing, and

816
01:05:22.199 --> 01:05:24.840
they always breathing. Make a wait, noise breathing.

817
01:05:30.199 --> 01:05:37.760
I don't know. I just i'd love to wish. I'd

818
01:05:37.800 --> 01:05:40.599
love to be the kind of person who just enjoyed

819
01:05:40.599 --> 01:05:44.920
being around lots of people. I can be around one person.

820
01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:47.599
I can have a conversation that was loud, wasn't it.

821
01:05:47.800 --> 01:05:51.880
I can have a conversation one on one. I cannot

822
01:05:52.000 --> 01:05:54.360
have a conversation with more than one person at a

823
01:05:54.400 --> 01:06:05.239
time without feeling I feel unwell when it happens. I'll

824
01:06:05.239 --> 01:06:09.519
be honest, I do. And there's certain situations I can't

825
01:06:11.639 --> 01:06:15.079
I cannot avoid. So if I see my dad.

826
01:06:17.039 --> 01:06:18.960
Is if he speaks to me on the phone, there's

827
01:06:18.960 --> 01:06:21.880
always both of them, him and his wife. Now I

828
01:06:21.920 --> 01:06:24.920
can talk to either of them on their own. Talking

829
01:06:24.920 --> 01:06:28.960
to both of them is hard because I can't, especially

830
01:06:29.000 --> 01:06:32.679
on the phone, I cannot gauge what their emotions are,

831
01:06:36.119 --> 01:06:38.119
or even in person, I can't really gauge what their

832
01:06:38.119 --> 01:06:41.840
emotions are. But because there's two I can can't. I

833
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:46.199
can like probe one that's that's wrong, isn't it, but

834
01:06:46.639 --> 01:06:50.559
kind of ask questions of one person to find out

835
01:06:50.559 --> 01:06:51.199
what they mean.

836
01:06:51.639 --> 01:06:57.000
When you've got two people talking, and then they're talking,

837
01:06:57.679 --> 01:07:03.119
they're kind of maybe I don't want to say, contradicting

838
01:07:03.159 --> 01:07:07.159
each other, maybe saying different things, but maybe talking about

839
01:07:07.159 --> 01:07:15.559
different things as well. I find it confusing. And you

840
01:07:15.599 --> 01:07:17.039
know when a.

841
01:07:17.119 --> 01:07:21.880
Few years ago I used to say to my if

842
01:07:21.920 --> 01:07:25.039
my dad phoned a say, could take my speaker phone

843
01:07:25.079 --> 01:07:28.639
please so I could just have one on one conversation.

844
01:07:29.280 --> 01:07:37.159
Be refused. And it's just because I really really struggle

845
01:07:37.239 --> 01:07:42.840
to communicate with more than one person.

846
01:07:43.239 --> 01:07:46.400
And this is nothing bad about my dad's wife, because

847
01:07:46.440 --> 01:07:51.400
she's brilliant. You know, I love talking to her one

848
01:07:51.440 --> 01:07:53.800
on one. The two of them together, I just struggle

849
01:07:54.760 --> 01:07:58.599
with anyone two people, and when they're together, even in

850
01:07:58.599 --> 01:08:03.840
front of me, it's like, is those silences that do me?

851
01:08:05.360 --> 01:08:09.400
Where I say something and there's just nothing.

852
01:08:11.440 --> 01:08:11.599
Now.

853
01:08:11.679 --> 01:08:15.320
In person, you can see a facial expression. It doesn't

854
01:08:15.320 --> 01:08:21.239
mean I understand what it means, but it's something there's

855
01:08:21.520 --> 01:08:24.399
and I can question it. But on the phone it's

856
01:08:24.439 --> 01:08:25.039
just silent.

857
01:08:25.159 --> 01:08:25.800
I can't I.

858
01:08:25.720 --> 01:08:31.960
Say, hello, well, I do are you still there? What

859
01:08:32.039 --> 01:08:37.119
you're feeling? What's your internal response to what I just said?

860
01:08:37.840 --> 01:08:42.319
It's I can't really do that. I mean, I suppose

861
01:08:42.359 --> 01:08:48.079
I could, but it would be weird. You know, how

862
01:08:48.119 --> 01:08:53.479
are you both feeling specifically about the last paragraph? Is

863
01:08:53.520 --> 01:08:57.079
there an emotional response from what I just said? Please

864
01:08:57.159 --> 01:08:59.479
explain it to me in a way that I'll be

865
01:08:59.560 --> 01:09:05.600
able to wander stand. I don't know, so.

866
01:09:05.800 --> 01:09:12.359
I I've really it's weird. To tell you, what's weird.

867
01:09:12.479 --> 01:09:19.239
My neighbor on the phone, he can have a conversation

868
01:09:20.560 --> 01:09:28.159
backward and forward. In person, not so much. He can,

869
01:09:28.319 --> 01:09:29.720
but it doesn't happen so much.

870
01:09:31.439 --> 01:09:32.159
It's really weird.

871
01:09:32.479 --> 01:09:35.520
He was talking about some stuff, talking about cricket or

872
01:09:35.840 --> 01:09:40.520
some spot. I've told him before when you talk about sports,

873
01:09:40.680 --> 01:09:44.760
I switch off. I stopped listening. I've told him many

874
01:09:44.760 --> 01:09:48.720
times about that. But I can't say that to him

875
01:09:48.720 --> 01:09:53.319
at the moment because it's rude. I mean, you could

876
01:09:53.439 --> 01:09:57.840
argue it's rude before, but it was truthful. And in

877
01:09:57.880 --> 01:10:00.359
the past we've been talking and he will remind me

878
01:10:00.399 --> 01:10:01.920
of something he said to me, and I said, oh,

879
01:10:01.920 --> 01:10:08.680
I'll probably just stopped listening, which is true. Again, may

880
01:10:08.720 --> 01:10:12.119
be rude, but he laughed because I've told him if

881
01:10:12.159 --> 01:10:15.439
you if you talk too much at me, I'm not

882
01:10:15.479 --> 01:10:17.399
going to hear it. I'm going to switch off. And

883
01:10:17.439 --> 01:10:20.960
it's not because I'm not purposely switching off. It's just

884
01:10:22.439 --> 01:10:27.560
I'm so bored with what you're saying. Again, that sounds rude,

885
01:10:27.560 --> 01:10:32.479
doesn't it. It's not in a not in a rude way.

886
01:10:32.680 --> 01:10:33.960
It's just a factual thing.

887
01:10:35.680 --> 01:10:39.960
If you if it's interesting, you've got my attention, or

888
01:10:40.000 --> 01:10:43.479
if it's interesting to me, I mean, if I'm enthralled.

889
01:10:44.039 --> 01:10:49.000
So sometimes that's a weird thing. The amount of people

890
01:10:49.039 --> 01:10:51.960
I said this to and I don't mean to so

891
01:10:52.079 --> 01:10:57.600
someone maybe I see regularly, a dog walker, maybe even

892
01:10:57.600 --> 01:10:59.600
a friend, someone that I speak to, you know, say

893
01:10:59.640 --> 01:11:02.720
a lood maybe someone I've known for years, and I

894
01:11:02.840 --> 01:11:08.079
say something I was like, Zing's like, wow, okay, this

895
01:11:08.199 --> 01:11:11.840
is the first time you've got my interest since I've

896
01:11:11.880 --> 01:11:17.399
known you, And I shouldn't say stuff like that, but

897
01:11:17.479 --> 01:11:21.720
it's kind of true because I'm all in. I'm completely

898
01:11:21.760 --> 01:11:25.319
focused on what they're saying, and there's nothing more important

899
01:11:25.359 --> 01:11:28.359
to me in that moment than what they're going to

900
01:11:28.399 --> 01:11:39.000
say next. It's like super charged, super excited, majorly interested

901
01:11:39.279 --> 01:11:45.840
because I can't pretend. I can't fake interest. I can't.

902
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:47.439
I can't do it.

903
01:11:47.800 --> 01:11:50.119
I tried to do it when I was a counselor,

904
01:11:50.279 --> 01:11:54.000
and I realized I can't. But then I also realized

905
01:11:54.000 --> 01:11:55.960
I didn't need to, because when I was a counselor,

906
01:11:56.319 --> 01:12:01.439
I was interested in nearly every such there was there

907
01:12:01.520 --> 01:12:08.279
was there was one person that just would not talk

908
01:12:08.359 --> 01:12:13.479
about anything while they were there, and I managed to

909
01:12:13.520 --> 01:12:16.439
get them to open up in the end, but that

910
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:21.000
was difficult. But this, you know, I wasn't going to

911
01:12:21.000 --> 01:12:24.000
be rude, because that's I don't want to be rude.

912
01:12:24.039 --> 01:12:26.600
I don't mean to be rude anyway. Ever, it's not

913
01:12:26.680 --> 01:12:27.039
my thing.

914
01:12:29.159 --> 01:12:32.079
But almost telling someone that's the most that's the first

915
01:12:32.079 --> 01:12:36.000
time you've piqued my interest. Well, it's the most interesting

916
01:12:36.039 --> 01:12:39.520
thing you've ever said to me. That's almost like an insult,

917
01:12:39.520 --> 01:12:43.359
And it wasn't meant to be an insult. It's I

918
01:12:43.399 --> 01:12:45.279
guess it wasn't even supposed to be a compliment. It

919
01:12:45.319 --> 01:12:46.479
was just me being honest.

920
01:12:48.640 --> 01:12:51.840
Yet I have to stop myself saying stuff like that

921
01:12:52.560 --> 01:12:53.520
because I don't want to.

922
01:12:54.680 --> 01:12:55.880
I don't want to annoy people.

923
01:12:56.560 --> 01:12:58.119
I just want to let them to know that, let

924
01:12:58.199 --> 01:13:01.640
them know that I actually am in rested and I'm

925
01:13:02.479 --> 01:13:06.439
seriously focused on what they're saying. And it could be

926
01:13:06.520 --> 01:13:11.760
over the most pointless thing as well. You know, it

927
01:13:11.760 --> 01:13:16.680
could be talking about the zebra crossing, and for some reason,

928
01:13:17.520 --> 01:13:21.560
I'm interested in what they're saying. For some reason, in

929
01:13:21.600 --> 01:13:26.439
that moment, I'm suddenly really excited about talking about zebra crossings.

930
01:13:26.760 --> 01:13:33.319
And I don't know why. It's I don't know. It's

931
01:13:33.319 --> 01:13:34.439
a way. It's a weird one.

932
01:13:35.840 --> 01:13:38.800
Okay, I've never been excited about talking about zebra crossings,

933
01:13:38.840 --> 01:13:41.439
but it's.

934
01:13:43.920 --> 01:13:49.840
Yeah, mind you the other way. It goes the other way.

935
01:13:49.840 --> 01:13:53.920
Because I used to have a friend who would ask

936
01:13:54.079 --> 01:13:58.119
me to explain stuff to him. Okay, explain hypnosis to me.

937
01:13:58.560 --> 01:14:01.359
They just sit there and stare at me. No, who

938
01:14:01.359 --> 01:14:05.239
want to know about hypnosis? Read a book? That was

939
01:14:05.279 --> 01:14:08.560
my attitude, and it was just because I'm not going

940
01:14:08.600 --> 01:14:14.159
to I don't know. I think if someone wants me

941
01:14:14.239 --> 01:14:16.079
to sit there and talk at them, I don't want

942
01:14:16.079 --> 01:14:20.840
to do it. I kind of clamber up. It's when

943
01:14:20.880 --> 01:14:22.239
they don't want me to do it, I just want

944
01:14:22.279 --> 01:14:23.399
to enjoy it more.

945
01:14:24.000 --> 01:14:27.600
No, that's not that's not true. It's just that whole

946
01:14:27.640 --> 01:14:30.319
because I feel I think in that situation like that

947
01:14:33.640 --> 01:14:35.159
almost it was.

948
01:14:37.880 --> 01:14:39.520
I feel like I'm put on the spot a bit,

949
01:14:42.800 --> 01:14:45.760
and it's like, yeah, I think it's a bit like

950
01:14:45.800 --> 01:14:50.680
when someone says, oh, so you've so you know about

951
01:14:50.920 --> 01:14:53.880
if you ever ever heard about this thing, and say, yeah,

952
01:14:54.199 --> 01:14:58.880
would explain it to me? Then no, you said you

953
01:14:58.920 --> 01:15:03.720
heard about it? Yeah, explain it? No that that that's

954
01:15:03.800 --> 01:15:06.399
not what I do. I don't explain anything to anyone.

955
01:15:07.159 --> 01:15:09.279
I do, you know, do the Q and A Fridays.

956
01:15:09.279 --> 01:15:12.960
But that's I invite these questions.

957
01:15:14.119 --> 01:15:14.199
But.

958
01:15:17.560 --> 01:15:21.439
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to explain. You

959
01:15:21.520 --> 01:15:24.159
imagine being with someone in a room with someone and

960
01:15:24.199 --> 01:15:28.439
them just saying it's just something you're interested in, But

961
01:15:28.479 --> 01:15:33.159
then it's deciding that they want you to explain that

962
01:15:33.720 --> 01:15:36.800
to them in a way that they're going to understand it,

963
01:15:37.840 --> 01:15:43.079
and there's going to be follow up questions. It almost

964
01:15:44.199 --> 01:15:47.720
it sort of turns into some kind of oral exam.

965
01:15:49.560 --> 01:15:52.560
Again that sounds wrong, but you know what I mean.

966
01:15:52.600 --> 01:15:56.920
It's like, just no, I'm not I don't want to

967
01:15:56.960 --> 01:16:06.000
be tested. No, but I do like talking to people.

968
01:16:09.159 --> 01:16:11.520
This is not answering your questions, Tammy, is it?

969
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:13.079
Sorry?

970
01:16:13.239 --> 01:16:15.159
How are you doing with the week of chaos around

971
01:16:15.199 --> 01:16:16.760
the house? Is your friend?

972
01:16:16.760 --> 01:16:19.119
And up? Okay? So I have answered the questions. I'm just.

973
01:16:21.039 --> 01:16:25.920
I felt like my brain was fried yesterday, the last

974
01:16:26.359 --> 01:16:32.199
three days really, but I got home yesterday and I

975
01:16:32.359 --> 01:16:37.319
just I was struggling to even put a sentence together,

976
01:16:39.199 --> 01:16:46.199
so tired and just it was overloaded.

977
01:16:46.399 --> 01:16:49.199
I was is that the right word?

978
01:16:49.319 --> 01:16:49.520
You know?

979
01:16:50.079 --> 01:16:56.479
It was too much, way, too much of everything, seeing

980
01:16:56.560 --> 01:17:00.680
too many people, spoken to too many people, and.

981
01:17:04.760 --> 01:17:09.840
Overload. Did I say it's overload? Probably for my senses

982
01:17:09.880 --> 01:17:15.560
were overloaded, my ears, my hears my hearing, my ears,

983
01:17:15.680 --> 01:17:23.239
my eyes, physically, emotionally, probably smells, tastes. Maybe I don't know.

984
01:17:23.279 --> 01:17:31.439
Everything was just too much for me. And yeah, I

985
01:17:31.479 --> 01:17:33.319
don't ever want to go back there, but you know,

986
01:17:33.319 --> 01:17:35.119
I kind of got to go back on Monday because

987
01:17:35.119 --> 01:17:44.159
I promised, plus he asked me to. But yes, it's

988
01:17:44.199 --> 01:17:46.560
too much for me. Really, I don't not.

989
01:17:52.159 --> 01:17:52.199
Me.

990
01:17:52.319 --> 01:17:55.319
Also, I was thinking, how often have I actually left

991
01:17:55.359 --> 01:17:59.800
my flat and left this area, you know.

992
01:17:59.800 --> 01:18:02.079
This this little area that I live. How often have

993
01:18:02.159 --> 01:18:07.399
I left there to wander as far as town where

994
01:18:07.399 --> 01:18:18.920
we're on a bus a taxi. And really, in the

995
01:18:19.000 --> 01:18:24.960
last two years, I can only think of three occasions,

996
01:18:25.960 --> 01:18:34.079
maybe four occasions, actually maybe five are come just find five,

997
01:18:35.479 --> 01:18:38.319
four or five. So yeah, in the.

998
01:18:38.319 --> 01:18:42.159
Last couple of years, I've left this little area maybe

999
01:18:42.199 --> 01:18:47.920
five times. Once it was to a funeral, another one

1000
01:18:47.960 --> 01:18:53.119
was to the supermarket twice I think, another one is

1001
01:18:53.199 --> 01:18:57.359
to the doctors. Another one was to the dentist. So

1002
01:18:57.680 --> 01:19:03.600
that's five times in probably two that I've left my

1003
01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:10.520
little village. And this week I've done eight different days

1004
01:19:10.520 --> 01:19:11.039
in a row.

1005
01:19:13.159 --> 01:19:20.079
So yeah, it was a bit. There's a lot. It's

1006
01:19:20.119 --> 01:19:20.520
a lot.

1007
01:19:20.720 --> 01:19:20.960
Man.

1008
01:19:22.359 --> 01:19:26.640
Jonathan asks what your normal dinner consists of? Ever go

1009
01:19:26.720 --> 01:19:29.479
out to eat? And if so, what variety of cuisine?

1010
01:19:30.359 --> 01:19:32.840
The answer to the next one, the last question is no,

1011
01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:34.560
I don't go.

1012
01:19:34.560 --> 01:19:35.119
Out to eat.

1013
01:19:35.920 --> 01:19:40.119
If I did go out to eat, I'm quite open minded.

1014
01:19:40.239 --> 01:19:47.840
But the last time I went out to eat, oh know,

1015
01:19:47.960 --> 01:19:50.479
I did go out. No, I did. I went out

1016
01:19:50.640 --> 01:19:53.800
just before Christmas. I forgot about that, so it's just

1017
01:19:53.880 --> 01:19:54.479
up the road for me.

1018
01:19:54.640 --> 01:19:58.640
It's not far. And it was a pub I went

1019
01:19:58.680 --> 01:20:01.439
to just before Christmas. Went there with.

1020
01:20:03.479 --> 01:20:11.319
Some family members to celebrate Christmas before Christmas, and so

1021
01:20:11.439 --> 01:20:16.079
that was a roast dinner or Christmas dinner. It was

1022
01:20:16.159 --> 01:20:18.159
weird because I thought the whole place was going to

1023
01:20:18.199 --> 01:20:21.960
be busy and it wasn't. We were the only Christmas

1024
01:20:22.000 --> 01:20:24.439
dinner there and everyone else is just in a pub

1025
01:20:25.199 --> 01:20:30.680
like normal. I felt very a bit silly. I just

1026
01:20:30.720 --> 01:20:32.920
figured the whole I really did. I thought the whole

1027
01:20:32.920 --> 01:20:43.319
place would be busy, so it'd be kind of quite anonymous.

1028
01:20:44.239 --> 01:20:49.119
Sitting there with Christmas hats on is not something I

1029
01:20:49.159 --> 01:20:52.680
would normally do in a pub. I just know if

1030
01:20:52.680 --> 01:20:56.720
everyone else is doing it, maybe, but not. No, not

1031
01:20:56.800 --> 01:21:01.760
the only table and were just sitting there. It's almost

1032
01:21:01.760 --> 01:21:04.000
like we were celebrating Christmas in the summer. That's what

1033
01:21:04.079 --> 01:21:09.760
it felt like a bit. So that was a Christmas dinner.

1034
01:21:11.680 --> 01:21:12.279
Other than that.

1035
01:21:12.479 --> 01:21:21.319
The last time I went out, Oh, the last time

1036
01:21:21.439 --> 01:21:25.279
I went out, I did go to the Chip, not

1037
01:21:25.399 --> 01:21:28.880
to the Indian restaurant locally.

1038
01:21:31.319 --> 01:21:34.079
I think that was ten years ago, ten years something

1039
01:21:34.119 --> 01:21:37.319
like that. I did go to a pizza place, the

1040
01:21:37.399 --> 01:21:44.119
Pizza Hut in Town. I think that was also probably

1041
01:21:44.359 --> 01:21:51.520
nine years ago, ten nine, nine, ten years ago. I

1042
01:21:51.600 --> 01:21:55.039
used to go to the Wimpy in town because there

1043
01:21:55.079 --> 01:21:56.000
was a time when i'd go.

1044
01:21:56.199 --> 01:22:00.359
I'd go out quite regularly, and that kind of used

1045
01:22:00.359 --> 01:22:05.039
over the years, and I do I did go to

1046
01:22:05.119 --> 01:22:11.279
McDonald's yesterday. No, I didn't eat in but I think

1047
01:22:11.319 --> 01:22:14.640
it was even Monday or Tuesday. I went into McDonald's

1048
01:22:15.159 --> 01:22:18.239
and had a meal in there, which is the first

1049
01:22:18.239 --> 01:22:19.640
time I've done that in.

1050
01:22:23.199 --> 01:22:28.560
Quite some time. Yeah, I think the last time I

1051
01:22:28.560 --> 01:22:31.560
went there was when I went to have my I

1052
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:33.960
went to the doctors, and the doctors is like a

1053
01:22:34.000 --> 01:22:36.560
little bit out the road, so I think I went

1054
01:22:36.600 --> 01:22:39.520
to McDonald's after going to the doctors to have a

1055
01:22:39.600 --> 01:22:39.960
check up.

1056
01:22:45.640 --> 01:22:50.079
Yeah. So other than that, No, I don't. I don't

1057
01:22:50.119 --> 01:22:51.119
go out.

1058
01:22:51.600 --> 01:22:56.000
I don't really have any kind of fancy cuisine like

1059
01:22:56.199 --> 01:23:02.880
French or Spanish, or Italian or Jamaica or Somalian.

1060
01:23:02.399 --> 01:23:09.359
Or Thaie or German or I don't know what kind

1061
01:23:09.399 --> 01:23:12.319
of Greek, you know. I don't.

1062
01:23:12.439 --> 01:23:15.680
I've not really gone to many places when I have

1063
01:23:15.840 --> 01:23:19.479
been to places when I was living in London. I've

1064
01:23:19.520 --> 01:23:26.199
been to There was a Teke Spar which wasn't act Spanish.

1065
01:23:26.880 --> 01:23:30.960
I loved it, just so many different things to choose from.

1066
01:23:31.000 --> 01:23:34.560
It's that perfect for me. I used to go there

1067
01:23:34.560 --> 01:23:36.520
with my cousin. It's just up the road from where

1068
01:23:36.520 --> 01:23:45.239
I lived. Outside of that, I'm trying to think I

1069
01:23:45.279 --> 01:23:47.640
went to a pizza place, but that was that's a

1070
01:23:47.680 --> 01:23:52.960
long time ago. I think I went to the me

1071
01:23:54.199 --> 01:23:56.279
what was it not the pizza the pizza Hut.

1072
01:23:56.880 --> 01:24:01.279
It might have been the Pizza Hut, and it was.

1073
01:24:01.880 --> 01:24:10.279
Back in two thousand and twelve December, not twenty twelve.

1074
01:24:10.319 --> 01:24:10.600
Wow.

1075
01:24:10.800 --> 01:24:25.399
Yeah, No, twenty thirteen December, I think I don't even know.

1076
01:24:26.600 --> 01:24:32.319
No, twenty twelve December. I think it was really wow.

1077
01:24:32.560 --> 01:24:35.960
What wah wah whah. It's just a little while ago.

1078
01:24:37.000 --> 01:24:38.920
That's the last time I had a pizza, I think

1079
01:24:39.039 --> 01:24:42.039
in a restaurant. No, it's not.

1080
01:24:42.239 --> 01:24:48.399
I had one with my ex girlfriend in I think

1081
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:52.159
i'd moved here and I've been in maybe a year,

1082
01:24:52.560 --> 01:24:57.239
so thatut what he would have been around two thousand

1083
01:24:57.279 --> 01:25:03.560
and sixteen, I guess because I moved here twenty fifteen.

1084
01:25:08.880 --> 01:25:11.479
My normal dinner. At the moment, I ate a fair

1085
01:25:11.479 --> 01:25:18.319
amount of breakfast cereal and then sandwiches or something I

1086
01:25:18.359 --> 01:25:20.000
can just stick in the air fryer.

1087
01:25:21.000 --> 01:25:23.880
It's just for me.

1088
01:25:24.119 --> 01:25:26.920
Preparing food is a bit of a chore. I don't

1089
01:25:26.960 --> 01:25:29.920
really want to be bothered with it, but I do it.

1090
01:25:30.560 --> 01:25:32.119
But it's just bits and bobs.

1091
01:25:32.159 --> 01:25:37.840
Really. I don't really cook myself much as in like

1092
01:25:37.920 --> 01:25:40.239
a full meal and stuff like I used to when

1093
01:25:40.279 --> 01:25:44.000
I was younger. All I'm going to try and get

1094
01:25:44.039 --> 01:25:48.920
back to that. It's just just don't feel like it

1095
01:25:48.960 --> 01:25:57.920
a lot of the time. Tina asks if there was

1096
01:25:58.000 --> 01:26:02.520
a movey about you and Vinnie, what song would be?

1097
01:26:02.800 --> 01:26:08.119
What songs would be on your soundtrack? I'd like dire straits.

1098
01:26:08.159 --> 01:26:09.720
Why I worry to be one on mine?

1099
01:26:10.439 --> 01:26:23.640
Okay, Tina, I don't know. Wow, that's one of the

1100
01:26:23.680 --> 01:26:25.640
hardest questions I think I've ever been asked.

1101
01:26:26.960 --> 01:26:30.199
What songs.

1102
01:26:30.479 --> 01:26:39.640
There's There are some songs that I would have in

1103
01:26:39.800 --> 01:26:45.560
my if it was a movie about me. I can't

1104
01:26:45.600 --> 01:26:48.119
think about him. I'm not sure what he would like.

1105
01:26:49.640 --> 01:26:52.039
But if i'd, you know, for going back in the

1106
01:26:52.119 --> 01:27:00.800
past about me, I would mix together a no ario

1107
01:27:01.640 --> 01:27:06.640
that happened on an occurrence with a song of that

1108
01:27:06.720 --> 01:27:11.640
particular period. So, for example, when I was in the

1109
01:27:11.680 --> 01:27:15.680
hospital having my appendix out, there was two songs that

1110
01:27:15.800 --> 01:27:19.039
were in the charts or that I were two songs

1111
01:27:19.039 --> 01:27:22.199
that I really liked because I asked for them to

1112
01:27:22.239 --> 01:27:24.640
be played on the hospital radio.

1113
01:27:26.039 --> 01:27:27.119
So one was.

1114
01:27:28.560 --> 01:27:33.800
Totally Clips of the Heart by Bonnoy Toiler and everyone

1115
01:27:34.079 --> 01:27:36.960
was down under by men at work?

1116
01:27:38.960 --> 01:27:42.000
Do you come from a downut? Do you come from?

1117
01:27:42.079 --> 01:27:45.359
Do you come from a do you what? Do you

1118
01:27:45.399 --> 01:27:48.840
come from? A man down under? Well? We mingle and

1119
01:27:48.880 --> 01:27:51.640
then thunder can you hear? Can you hear this? And

1120
01:27:53.159 --> 01:27:58.399
toole clips of the Hard turned around ear and now

1121
01:27:58.439 --> 01:28:03.479
and then I get a little bit they turn around?

1122
01:28:05.800 --> 01:28:07.199
What other songs?

1123
01:28:07.560 --> 01:28:17.640
And then when I was about sixteen fifteen, sixteen fifteen, yeah, fifteen,

1124
01:28:18.880 --> 01:28:27.399
living in my step mother's my step grandmother's flat, Papa

1125
01:28:27.399 --> 01:28:32.399
Don't Preach from Madonna that was on. I watched that

1126
01:28:32.520 --> 01:28:37.960
video a few thousand times. I had actually had it

1127
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:42.520
on video, and I was just I used to freeze

1128
01:28:42.600 --> 01:28:46.880
and stop it at certain points. I just used to

1129
01:28:46.920 --> 01:28:49.079
enjoy watching the dance Madonna.

1130
01:28:49.239 --> 01:28:51.520
I was. I was kind of really in love with

1131
01:28:51.520 --> 01:28:59.159
Madonna at that time, I think, And then there was

1132
01:28:59.199 --> 01:28:59.920
another period.

1133
01:29:00.439 --> 01:29:02.199
I know I'm not including Vinie and they said, I

1134
01:29:02.239 --> 01:29:04.479
am sorry, it's kind of it seems to be like

1135
01:29:04.479 --> 01:29:09.039
a question i'd need to ask him. However strange that

1136
01:29:09.119 --> 01:29:15.880
might sound, I'm not really sure what it'd say. There

1137
01:29:15.920 --> 01:29:19.119
was a period that I got really stuck into this

1138
01:29:19.159 --> 01:29:23.199
particular song which was blamed on the Boogie by the

1139
01:29:23.239 --> 01:29:29.520
Old Jackson's. And I don't know why I kept thinking

1140
01:29:29.520 --> 01:29:35.880
about this song, but it was nineteen eighty nine and

1141
01:29:36.199 --> 01:29:40.039
I'd lost my previous job working in a pub. I'd

1142
01:29:40.079 --> 01:29:48.039
walked out of that, and then I needed a new job,

1143
01:29:49.800 --> 01:29:52.399
and then I had some problems with the person I

1144
01:29:52.439 --> 01:29:54.399
was living with that was living in the house that

1145
01:29:54.439 --> 01:29:56.079
I was in, so I needed to.

1146
01:29:56.000 --> 01:30:01.520
Get out of there. Was kind of went a bit weird,

1147
01:30:02.199 --> 01:30:06.359
and I remember walking on to the pier just to

1148
01:30:06.399 --> 01:30:08.680
get away from everything, and it's a windy it's just

1149
01:30:08.960 --> 01:30:12.279
like the beginning of the year, very windy and cold,

1150
01:30:12.479 --> 01:30:15.680
and I just just kept singing babies.

1151
01:30:15.720 --> 01:30:19.760
I was dancing when you see a don't get no loving.

1152
01:30:20.199 --> 01:30:23.920
That's no way. Believing on a certain shine, believing in

1153
01:30:23.920 --> 01:30:27.279
the moonlight, believing on a good time, believing on a boo.

1154
01:30:28.159 --> 01:30:29.960
I don't know why, but I just kept singing it

1155
01:30:31.199 --> 01:30:37.199
and it's weird just at that moment. And then when

1156
01:30:37.199 --> 01:30:44.479
I went to France, picked up a hitchhiker on the

1157
01:30:44.560 --> 01:30:53.359
way to Kent. I was gonna stay in a tent

1158
01:30:53.720 --> 01:30:59.840
for a couple of weeks or a week, and because

1159
01:31:00.079 --> 01:31:03.239
a land lady and landlord were going away for some reason,

1160
01:31:03.279 --> 01:31:04.720
they didn't want to leave me in the flat on

1161
01:31:04.760 --> 01:31:07.560
my own, which.

1162
01:31:08.880 --> 01:31:11.479
I don't really understand what that was about, but they

1163
01:31:11.520 --> 01:31:16.359
didn't so they because I was looking after their kid.

1164
01:31:20.479 --> 01:31:22.760
But it was now summer holidays and the kid had

1165
01:31:22.760 --> 01:31:26.840
gone to be with the dad for I think the

1166
01:31:27.000 --> 01:31:32.399
holiday season, summer season, and they wanted to go and

1167
01:31:32.479 --> 01:31:35.000
they didn't want to they'd want me there, so they

1168
01:31:35.039 --> 01:31:38.239
kicked me out for a week. So I went to Dover.

1169
01:31:38.359 --> 01:31:40.520
They gave me a left because I were going that

1170
01:31:40.560 --> 01:31:44.680
way anyway, and picked up They picked up a hitchhiker

1171
01:31:44.680 --> 01:31:47.159
and away, which was annoying. She kept talking to me,

1172
01:31:49.359 --> 01:31:56.119
trying to make friends and stuff, and so we both

1173
01:31:56.159 --> 01:31:59.960
got got off at Dover. That's it. Got off at Dover.

1174
01:32:00.680 --> 01:32:04.920
He was going over to France to see a friend.

1175
01:32:06.159 --> 01:32:09.760
I ended up going to France with him. So he

1176
01:32:09.840 --> 01:32:13.159
went to France spent I don't know how many days.

1177
01:32:13.159 --> 01:32:17.199
It was a week or so, just traveling around France,

1178
01:32:18.119 --> 01:32:26.279
going through the Alps, hitchhiking, walking trains. It is a

1179
01:32:26.279 --> 01:32:30.000
bit of everything, you know. So we traveled across France.

1180
01:32:32.000 --> 01:32:40.840
I think, BlimE me, Oh yeah, his friend was teaching

1181
01:32:40.880 --> 01:32:41.720
a rock climbing.

1182
01:32:42.560 --> 01:32:43.079
That's it.

1183
01:32:45.039 --> 01:32:52.119
And then we came back, went to Paris and went

1184
01:32:52.199 --> 01:32:52.920
back that way.

1185
01:32:53.239 --> 01:32:59.119
But I just that period. I remember being in the.

1186
01:33:03.960 --> 01:33:05.920
I don't know if it was in Dover or if

1187
01:33:05.920 --> 01:33:08.359
it was in Calais, but I was in one place

1188
01:33:08.439 --> 01:33:13.119
where on the monitor, the TV screen, they were playing

1189
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:22.680
like a Prayer, Madonna's main song from the album, after

1190
01:33:22.760 --> 01:33:26.600
the one that she was singing Papa Don't Preach, which

1191
01:33:26.640 --> 01:33:28.840
was True Blue.

1192
01:33:29.640 --> 01:33:32.479
So yeah, that would be a song for that period.

1193
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:47.520
I don't know.

1194
01:33:47.880 --> 01:33:52.119
I guess it's just different songs at different times of

1195
01:33:52.159 --> 01:33:53.920
my life with Vinnie.

1196
01:33:53.960 --> 01:34:06.239
I don't know what song knew. I mean, there was

1197
01:34:06.239 --> 01:34:07.960
one song I remember the Smiths.

1198
01:34:08.520 --> 01:34:11.560
There's a song called last Night I Dreamt Somebody Loved

1199
01:34:11.600 --> 01:34:15.000
Me and such a good song. I really like it,

1200
01:34:16.840 --> 01:34:22.159
and that would be quite representative of certain parts of

1201
01:34:22.199 --> 01:34:34.640
my life in the past. There was another song. When

1202
01:34:34.680 --> 01:34:39.479
I was trying to do my dissertation for my degree,

1203
01:34:40.399 --> 01:34:42.479
there was I was really.

1204
01:34:42.279 --> 01:34:43.319
Struggling to do it.

1205
01:34:44.359 --> 01:34:46.960
I mean, in reality it was loud, wasn't it. Again,

1206
01:34:47.239 --> 01:34:52.640
in reality, it wasn't difficult. I just wasn't interested in

1207
01:34:52.640 --> 01:34:57.640
what I was doing. I wasn't interested in the subject.

1208
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.880
I was interested in counseling. But the specific dissertation I

1209
01:35:04.880 --> 01:35:05.600
had to do, which is.

1210
01:35:05.600 --> 01:35:08.680
I think it was? Was it fifty thousand words? I

1211
01:35:08.720 --> 01:35:14.239
can't remember. I just could. I did it, but I

1212
01:35:14.359 --> 01:35:19.359
just it took everything. But what I did. I started

1213
01:35:19.359 --> 01:35:23.279
listening to this song that really perked me up, and

1214
01:35:23.359 --> 01:35:29.800
it was I think it was not R Kelly what's

1215
01:35:29.840 --> 01:35:39.760
his name? I forget his name, big Star, but I

1216
01:35:39.800 --> 01:35:42.079
forget his name. I think it was Will I Am

1217
01:35:42.239 --> 01:35:46.880
was on the thing boom boom, Let me hear you

1218
01:35:46.960 --> 01:35:53.800
go ooh, ooh, let me hear you go oh, let

1219
01:35:53.800 --> 01:36:00.560
me hear go ooh. That wasn't a good impression of

1220
01:36:00.600 --> 01:36:05.760
the song. Yeah, it wasn't.

1221
01:36:05.800 --> 01:36:16.319
Actually whoops limerhugel bang bang no. I think I think

1222
01:36:16.319 --> 01:36:33.720
in the two different songs. Yeah, I don't really know

1223
01:36:33.840 --> 01:36:42.239
what song would represent Vinnie other than he's just a

1224
01:36:42.319 --> 01:36:48.079
naughty boy sometimes sleeping beauty. If there's a song there,

1225
01:36:53.119 --> 01:36:58.680
mm hmm, I mean if I was too, Yeah, if

1226
01:36:59.239 --> 01:37:03.640
if it was a sound track to my life, there

1227
01:37:03.640 --> 01:37:10.399
would be see even I think it's not even so

1228
01:37:10.479 --> 01:37:13.520
much a soundtrack about what's going on for me, more

1229
01:37:13.720 --> 01:37:16.560
just what I was listening to at that time.

1230
01:37:18.199 --> 01:37:19.359
So when I was.

1231
01:37:21.079 --> 01:37:24.880
Very very young, I remember sitting laying down in a

1232
01:37:24.920 --> 01:37:29.319
bed or something, and I could see the radio, and

1233
01:37:29.359 --> 01:37:32.680
the radio was playing Gary Glitter I Love You Love

1234
01:37:33.840 --> 01:37:37.239
like I Love you, Love you love me to love,

1235
01:37:37.560 --> 01:37:42.399
I love you love me love Ooh, I love you

1236
01:37:42.439 --> 01:37:45.279
love it, And it was such a good song.

1237
01:37:45.399 --> 01:37:46.359
I really liked it.

1238
01:37:48.319 --> 01:37:50.039
But I'm not even sure if I could talk at

1239
01:37:50.079 --> 01:37:52.359
that point, but I liked listening to that song.

1240
01:37:53.239 --> 01:37:56.600
That's totally what year was that I Love You Love

1241
01:37:58.079 --> 01:38:08.920
It was in the seventies. I Love You Isn't it weird?

1242
01:38:09.479 --> 01:38:18.600
It's not coming up? Okay, got it now? Nineteen seventy three,

1243
01:38:19.439 --> 01:38:26.760
so yeah, I was. It was another number one in

1244
01:38:26.880 --> 01:38:34.359
nineteen seventy three, so yeah, i'd have been two two

1245
01:38:34.439 --> 01:38:37.439
and a half. I don't know exactly when it came

1246
01:38:37.439 --> 01:38:42.159
out let's have a look. What what month did it

1247
01:38:42.199 --> 01:38:45.119
come out in the UK, because they were playing it

1248
01:38:45.239 --> 01:38:48.279
all November nineteen seventy three, so I would have been three.

1249
01:38:50.239 --> 01:38:58.399
It spent four weeks at the top of the charts. Okay, yeah,

1250
01:38:58.439 --> 01:39:01.439
so it was. It was a really good, good song.

1251
01:39:01.960 --> 01:39:04.199
So I remember hearing that and lying down in my

1252
01:39:05.000 --> 01:39:07.439
maybe it was my cot It's weird I've got that

1253
01:39:07.560 --> 01:39:09.760
memory though I've been so young.

1254
01:39:10.439 --> 01:39:15.520
I just remember the song because it was like like the.

1255
01:39:15.520 --> 01:39:17.840
Radio used to be, they'd be playing the same songs

1256
01:39:18.560 --> 01:39:25.359
very irregularly. I've got another memory of in the children's

1257
01:39:25.359 --> 01:39:28.760
home in South End on the radio then playing Rock

1258
01:39:28.800 --> 01:39:33.199
around the Clock like but quite often one to three o'clock,

1259
01:39:33.199 --> 01:39:36.319
four o'clock Rock, four o'clock, five o'clock, nine o'clock, Rock,

1260
01:39:36.600 --> 01:39:39.159
seven o'clock, two o'clock, five o'clock. I've gone a Rock

1261
01:39:40.199 --> 01:39:45.399
six around the clock and and I thought, I remember

1262
01:39:45.439 --> 01:39:54.000
looking that up Rock around the Clock, Rock around the Clock.

1263
01:39:54.119 --> 01:39:56.840
So of course it was a huge hit in the fifties,

1264
01:39:59.239 --> 01:40:02.560
but also charted in the sixties and the seventies in

1265
01:40:02.600 --> 01:40:16.279
the UK. So let's seve, look suver, look, let's sever look,

1266
01:40:16.359 --> 01:40:23.439
let's sever look so charts nineteen fifty six. Oh, okay,

1267
01:40:24.399 --> 01:40:26.960
so it charted in nineteen fifty five fifty six.

1268
01:40:28.880 --> 01:40:40.479
It was, yeah, a huge hit in in OH. I

1269
01:40:40.560 --> 01:40:44.520
don't know, we're definitely in America. I don't know, doesn't

1270
01:40:44.920 --> 01:40:47.560
oh UK singles. Yeah, it was number one here as well.

1271
01:40:48.960 --> 01:40:52.479
And then it was also number forty one in nineteen

1272
01:40:52.520 --> 01:40:57.399
sixty six and then nineteen sixty eight. It was released

1273
01:40:57.399 --> 01:41:05.760
again in nineteen seventy four. See that doesn't make sense

1274
01:41:05.840 --> 01:41:13.520
to me. Nineteen seventy four, which makes you wonder how

1275
01:41:13.560 --> 01:41:15.760
long was I that in that children's home.

1276
01:41:16.640 --> 01:41:18.239
But then just the fact that they were playing it

1277
01:41:18.239 --> 01:41:20.880
on the radio doesn't mean they'd just been released. But

1278
01:41:20.920 --> 01:41:27.000
it was number twelve in the UK singles, So I

1279
01:41:27.039 --> 01:41:30.159
just remember them playing it. One, two, three o'clock, four

1280
01:41:30.159 --> 01:41:33.479
o'clock Rock, five, six, seven o'clock, eared o'clock rock.

1281
01:41:35.439 --> 01:41:38.359
I'll tell you something strange about that song. For me,

1282
01:41:39.159 --> 01:41:44.039
it's got an atmosphere there's Maybe it's because I used

1283
01:41:44.039 --> 01:41:47.960
to hear it in weird periods of my life, maybe,

1284
01:41:49.279 --> 01:41:51.359
but there's a feeling connected to that song.

1285
01:41:51.439 --> 01:41:51.720
For me.

1286
01:41:53.199 --> 01:41:56.760
It's a strange feeling. It's not a horrible feeling. It's

1287
01:41:56.760 --> 01:42:01.359
just a certain emotion and connected.

1288
01:42:00.920 --> 01:42:06.800
To it and the sound of it. It's unlike any

1289
01:42:06.800 --> 01:42:10.279
other song to me.

1290
01:42:10.800 --> 01:42:14.279
It's just that one, two, three o'clock, four o'clock. But

1291
01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:16.960
verse six, I don't know, something.

1292
01:42:18.720 --> 01:42:19.199
Unique.

1293
01:42:19.479 --> 01:42:22.359
I mean all I know all songs are probably uniquey

1294
01:42:23.159 --> 01:42:24.600
in some way, but this was just.

1295
01:42:27.079 --> 01:42:28.880
And then he had it. I want to shake rail

1296
01:42:29.000 --> 01:42:31.880
and roll. I want to shake roll and roll.

1297
01:42:32.359 --> 01:42:35.520
So that one as well, And I imagine that's probably

1298
01:42:35.560 --> 01:42:39.640
got re released at this quite often as well, quite often.

1299
01:42:44.439 --> 01:42:53.199
Ah is interesting. Bill Haley and the comets, Is that right?

1300
01:42:53.199 --> 01:43:08.439
Bill Haley and the comics.

1301
01:43:09.359 --> 01:43:16.079
Let's have a look. I want to check. The thing

1302
01:43:16.159 --> 01:43:18.399
is they all looked really old.

1303
01:43:20.279 --> 01:43:28.840
For some reason. They looked quite old in the like

1304
01:43:28.920 --> 01:43:31.279
in the videos. I mean, you know, from the fifties

1305
01:43:31.279 --> 01:43:36.439
and stuff. They looked quite old there, or Bill Hayley did,

1306
01:43:37.680 --> 01:43:43.199
But in reality he probably wasn't he just because it

1307
01:43:43.239 --> 01:43:45.479
was all in black and white. It was born nineteen

1308
01:43:45.479 --> 01:43:50.760
twenty five, thirty five, forty five, fifty five, so yeah,

1309
01:43:50.800 --> 01:43:56.840
it was like twenty eight probably at the time, twenty two,

1310
01:43:57.279 --> 01:43:59.600
twenty twenty eight, twenty twenty six.

1311
01:44:00.439 --> 01:44:05.399
They're not exactly old as it. He just had his face.

1312
01:44:06.119 --> 01:44:07.760
It's weird though, because if you look at him, he's

1313
01:44:07.800 --> 01:44:10.119
got that that what that that crooked smile, A bit

1314
01:44:10.199 --> 01:44:15.079
like Elvis, and he had his and he was around

1315
01:44:15.079 --> 01:44:23.239
before Elvis, wasn't he. I think nineteen fifty two? When

1316
01:44:23.279 --> 01:44:28.079
did Elvis decide to pop up? Was it nineteen fifty

1317
01:44:28.119 --> 01:44:35.079
four or was it nineteen fifty six? I'm not sure.

1318
01:44:39.159 --> 01:44:43.039
I got Chic Around and roll. I want chic round

1319
01:44:43.039 --> 01:44:43.520
and roll?

1320
01:44:44.439 --> 01:45:11.560
Do do do Do Do Do do do do? H? Okay,

1321
01:45:11.800 --> 01:45:18.800
all right, yeah, I'm just wondering how many hits he had.

1322
01:45:19.279 --> 01:45:24.199
How many hits did Shake Rout and roll Man have?

1323
01:45:24.600 --> 01:45:37.079
Billy Billy Bill Haley.

1324
01:45:32.359 --> 01:45:40.800
Nineteen fifty six studio albums, Okay, no singles. I want

1325
01:45:40.840 --> 01:45:44.880
to know about the singles. Fifty two nineteen fifty two.

1326
01:45:45.560 --> 01:45:49.279
Stop beating around the mulberry bush?

1327
01:45:50.039 --> 01:45:58.840
Okay, I will stop. Crazy Man Crazy, Patty Cake? Why

1328
01:45:58.880 --> 01:45:59.920
does that sound for me?

1329
01:46:00.159 --> 01:46:05.840
You are fifty three? Live it up, Live it up,

1330
01:46:07.159 --> 01:46:07.800
Leave it up?

1331
01:46:11.399 --> 01:46:14.920
So the US in America number twelve on the these

1332
01:46:14.960 --> 01:46:18.039
were all in the top thirty. So that's a hit,

1333
01:46:18.159 --> 01:46:22.279
isn't that really? Crazy Man Crazy was number twelve?

1334
01:46:23.960 --> 01:46:28.199
And then Live it Up? Why does that sound familiar

1335
01:46:30.840 --> 01:46:38.239
Chattanooga Chew, Chew. I wonder why that didn't hit. Yes, Indeed,

1336
01:46:38.680 --> 01:46:44.119
the nineteen fifty four Rock around the Clock and then

1337
01:46:44.319 --> 01:46:48.840
Shake rout and Roll that wasn't as successful, but it's

1338
01:46:48.840 --> 01:46:49.439
still a hit.

1339
01:46:52.520 --> 01:47:01.279
Birth of the Boogie wasn't so much razzle dazzle burn

1340
01:47:01.359 --> 01:47:02.439
that candle.

1341
01:47:02.479 --> 01:47:07.800
Rock a beat boogie, See you Later, Alligator, see you later, Alligator,

1342
01:47:08.359 --> 01:47:14.039
in a While, Crocodile, see you later, Age in a While, Crocodile, and.

1343
01:47:14.680 --> 01:47:21.119
In the minute and B to b a rock the

1344
01:47:21.239 --> 01:47:25.079
Saints see you later.

1345
01:47:25.199 --> 01:47:28.039
Ready, I think that would be the same kind of

1346
01:47:29.399 --> 01:47:31.720
sounders Rock around the Clock as well.

1347
01:47:36.640 --> 01:47:41.960
Lean Jean Rock around o' clock.

1348
01:47:41.720 --> 01:47:47.439
Re release ah nineteen seventy four, Shake Rattling rolls on

1349
01:47:47.479 --> 01:47:51.600
the back, and then again later on they released see

1350
01:47:51.640 --> 01:47:55.760
You Later Ralligator. Now I'm looking at this, I'm thinking, yeah,

1351
01:47:55.800 --> 01:48:00.000
that's why they didn't re release see You Later Radigator

1352
01:48:00.079 --> 01:48:04.920
out in any other country according to this except England

1353
01:48:05.439 --> 01:48:08.920
or the UK. So Rock around o'clock went to number

1354
01:48:09.000 --> 01:48:12.800
twelve in the UK, and See You Late Radygaya went

1355
01:48:12.840 --> 01:48:26.319
to number fifty two nineteen seventy four. I'm sure that's

1356
01:48:26.439 --> 01:48:32.000
that said nineteen seventy three, though earlier see it's this

1357
01:48:32.119 --> 01:48:38.199
is Wikipedia, not always correct, not always correct.

1358
01:48:40.520 --> 01:48:47.279
Me me, me, me, me, Oh what have I got

1359
01:48:47.319 --> 01:48:52.399
any emails? No?

1360
01:48:52.399 --> 01:48:59.720
No, no, no, no junk mail, just yeah, nothing.

1361
01:49:04.039 --> 01:49:06.520
I think I might have answered all the questions. I'm sorry,

1362
01:49:06.560 --> 01:49:08.600
they're not very good. I'm not done a very good

1363
01:49:08.720 --> 01:49:16.239
job today. I think Tina with the if I was

1364
01:49:16.279 --> 01:49:19.720
going to do a new movie in my life, there's

1365
01:49:19.840 --> 01:49:22.359
I think I just want all the best, all the

1366
01:49:22.439 --> 01:49:24.760
songs that I like the best or that I really

1367
01:49:24.800 --> 01:49:37.319
love to be played throughout. But it's quite a few.

1368
01:49:39.239 --> 01:49:54.920
There's quite a few songs. Yeah, that's a lot of songs.

1369
01:49:56.760 --> 01:49:58.640
So I'm finding myself falling asleep.

1370
01:49:58.760 --> 01:49:59.479
So I'm going to go.

1371
01:50:00.520 --> 01:50:00.840
Thank you.

1372
01:50:02.079 --> 01:50:04.800
If you hear any pauses, it's just me to drift enough,

1373
01:50:05.720 --> 01:50:08.159
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to

1374
01:50:08.159 --> 01:50:11.680
yourself because you do deserve to be happy, and be

1375
01:50:11.800 --> 01:50:14.279
gentle of yourself because you deserve to feel safe.

1376
01:50:15.720 --> 01:50:33.840
Lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and

1377
01:50:35.520 --> 01:50:42.920
meaningful way, Maybe in a way that can not just

1378
01:50:43.199 --> 01:50:53.319
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1379
01:50:53.960 --> 01:51:02.359
we've spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1380
01:51:02.399 --> 01:51:06.840
of the recording, when it's finished, and you can enjoy

1381
01:51:07.000 --> 01:51:24.399
that sense of comfort and peace. But also I think

1382
01:51:24.439 --> 01:51:35.640
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1383
01:51:38.000 --> 01:51:52.199
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1384
01:51:52.359 --> 01:52:04.760
you can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe

1385
01:52:04.840 --> 01:52:16.239
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

1386
01:52:16.359 --> 01:52:24.319
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1387
01:52:24.680 --> 01:52:28.359
and myself as well. I sometimes I find one particular

1388
01:52:28.439 --> 01:52:38.479
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

1389
01:52:38.560 --> 01:52:43.840
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1390
01:52:51.479 --> 01:52:56.119
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1391
01:52:56.279 --> 01:53:01.279
nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it

1392
01:53:01.359 --> 01:53:06.399
was a guided visualization, so it kind of was hypnosis really,

1393
01:53:08.880 --> 01:53:14.079
And I managed to find it again and it still

1394
01:53:14.159 --> 01:53:19.760
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1395
01:53:19.880 --> 01:53:34.640
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1396
01:53:36.760 --> 01:53:43.279
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1397
01:53:43.319 --> 01:53:54.000
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1398
01:53:54.760 --> 01:54:03.239
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

1399
01:54:03.239 --> 01:54:11.800
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1400
01:54:12.000 --> 01:54:20.680
players pressed the play button. If that it might have

1401
01:54:20.760 --> 01:54:25.079
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1402
01:54:25.119 --> 01:54:39.039
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words,

1403
01:54:41.960 --> 01:54:51.319
because I had been memorized. Really, it was as if

1404
01:54:51.359 --> 01:55:02.600
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1405
01:55:02.840 --> 01:55:24.239
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my

1406
01:55:24.399 --> 01:55:38.319
mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to

1407
01:55:38.399 --> 01:55:47.640
this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and

1408
01:55:47.880 --> 01:55:56.800
long before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1409
01:55:58.000 --> 01:56:01.359
because I didn't start doing that to one thousand and six,

1410
01:56:08.239 --> 01:56:24.199
I knew. I knew how helpful I found being able

1411
01:56:24.239 --> 01:56:33.319
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1412
01:56:33.399 --> 01:56:43.800
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1413
01:56:43.840 --> 01:56:54.640
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1414
01:56:54.880 --> 01:57:08.199
you hear my voice may feel the same. Some people

1415
01:57:10.720 --> 01:57:23.079
have been listening to me for over a decade. Maybe

1416
01:57:23.159 --> 01:57:28.600
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

1417
01:57:30.720 --> 01:57:35.600
maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1418
01:57:46.800 --> 01:57:54.800
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1419
01:57:55.159 --> 01:58:13.760
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1420
01:58:18.279 --> 01:58:30.439
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1421
01:58:31.359 --> 01:58:40.680
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

1422
01:58:40.800 --> 01:58:48.119
your feet relaxing. I will be focusing on my feet.

1423
01:58:52.880 --> 01:59:10.279
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1424
01:59:10.399 --> 01:59:18.079
focus on your hands and maybe notice the difference between

1425
01:59:18.159 --> 01:59:28.399
each hand. Perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1426
01:59:28.920 --> 01:59:34.399
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1427
01:59:41.560 --> 01:59:45.439
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1428
01:59:45.600 --> 01:59:53.520
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1429
01:59:54.039 --> 02:00:02.399
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1430
02:00:07.119 --> 02:00:17.760
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1431
02:00:18.079 --> 02:00:46.279
aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling now and

1432
02:00:46.439 --> 02:00:53.399
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1433
02:00:53.439 --> 02:01:06.640
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1434
02:01:09.840 --> 02:01:23.279
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1435
02:01:31.199 --> 02:01:43.800
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1436
02:01:48.680 --> 02:01:57.800
and then I carry on talking. And it's only where

1437
02:01:58.119 --> 02:02:07.199
I listen them back to do the editing. I hear snoring,

1438
02:02:09.119 --> 02:02:16.399
and I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1439
02:02:19.279 --> 02:02:26.479
This snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I

1440
02:02:26.560 --> 02:02:34.680
sound like when I snare, how I get really into

1441
02:02:34.720 --> 02:02:54.079
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1442
02:02:54.199 --> 02:03:00.520
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how really axed

1443
02:03:04.319 --> 02:03:25.439
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

1444
02:03:25.640 --> 02:03:44.560
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1445
02:03:48.159 --> 02:04:01.960
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like hm that

1446
02:04:03.520 --> 02:04:20.800
additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breath easier

1447
02:04:28.000 --> 02:04:46.399
without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to

1448
02:04:50.079 --> 02:05:30.319
notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally. You

1449
02:05:30.520 --> 02:06:13.000
breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my

1450
02:06:13.199 --> 02:06:29.600
breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I tend

1451
02:06:29.680 --> 02:06:50.199
to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing

1452
02:06:50.319 --> 02:07:24.319
all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to, if

1453
02:07:24.439 --> 02:07:56.880
nothing else, just taking some time away from everything, enjoying

1454
02:08:01.399 --> 02:08:52.640
that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time

1455
02:08:53.039 --> 02:09:23.720
seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so

1456
02:09:24.319 --> 02:10:03.760
deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment,

1457
02:10:20.399 --> 02:11:16.520
completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed

1458
02:11:16.640 --> 02:12:06.800
down because nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy

1459
02:12:07.640 --> 02:12:19.720
the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip out

1460
02:12:19.800 --> 02:12:39.319
of your body, to appear out of every part of

1461
02:12:39.439 --> 02:13:04.039
your body and being released from your brain. Hung your

1462
02:13:04.119 --> 02:13:40.960
mind slowly but surely, the muscleslax.

1463
02:13:54.600 --> 02:14:25.399
Relax rs really so very deeply, res.

1464
02:14:29.800 --> 02:14:55.199
So deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1465
02:14:55.479 --> 02:15:23.319
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1466
02:15:28.279 --> 02:16:01.760
and deeper and deeper. Noticing eatings in the back of

1467
02:16:01.800 --> 02:17:04.000
your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles in the front

1468
02:17:04.120 --> 02:17:57.959
of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a

1469
02:17:58.120 --> 02:18:05.399
sense of peace spreads through.

1470
02:18:06.719 --> 02:18:07.920
Your very core.

1471
02:18:38.399 --> 02:18:58.319
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

1472
02:19:05.680 --> 02:20:28.559
bee and slowern deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach

1473
02:20:42.639 --> 02:21:25.680
pas forllin you's stomach, your back. Notice Notice how relaxed

1474
02:21:30.040 --> 02:22:08.079
you'd now fear in the hole of your back. You

1475
02:22:08.479 --> 02:22:17.520
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

1476
02:22:17.600 --> 02:22:37.440
of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1477
02:22:40.479 --> 02:22:58.040
deep coomfort increasing deeply relaxed.

1478
02:23:28.120 --> 02:23:28.440
You know.

1479
02:23:59.159 --> 02:24:05.000
For it in your signals down your spine or cord

1480
02:24:07.559 --> 02:24:26.479
into air, every part of your body, your shins and

1481
02:24:26.600 --> 02:25:18.200
your calf muscles. We're elbows. Feelings of peace and tranquility

1482
02:25:22.120 --> 02:25:36.120
spreading through your body, tips of your toes to your eyes,

1483
02:25:40.520 --> 02:25:47.559
your fingers all the way to your lower back.

1484
02:25:49.520 --> 02:25:59.879
M letting go.

1485
02:26:02.159 --> 02:27:13.239
Reit tinker peace, drifting mind, this wandering away, happy to

1486
02:27:13.520 --> 02:28:17.840
let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil the

1487
02:28:17.959 --> 02:28:55.520
whole body enjoying a sensor letting go, he even more

1488
02:30:03.920 --> 02:30:53.760
peace for enjoy the space, this space of peace.

1489
02:30:56.879 --> 02:33:19.239
And safety, so fury relaxed us USA single. Maybe we

1490
02:33:19.319 --> 02:33:29.840
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1491
02:33:30.959 --> 02:34:24.079
just to notice.

1492
02:33:58.360 --> 02:35:00.920
Your forehead and yy etual, say lis, notice in the

1493
02:35:01.159 --> 02:36:33.680
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom rif trif pea's for

1494
02:36:35.760 --> 02:38:21.440
energy peace to breathe such easier least you may have

1495
02:38:25.000 --> 02:39:26.000
may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful move even

1496
02:39:26.120 --> 02:40:20.440
more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, arrest,

1497
02:41:08.399 --> 02:42:20.040
total peace. Come so calm, lett him go peace with

1498
02:42:20.440 --> 02:43:31.479
mind rexed forty so relx so relaxed. Your body feels

1499
02:43:31.600 --> 02:44:27.159
almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful, rel

1500
02:44:34.360 --> 02:45:12.000
liquor sweet, peaceful, so fair. And you could start to

1501
02:45:12.239 --> 02:45:21.799
notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've

1502
02:45:22.079 --> 02:45:33.840
not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical

1503
02:45:34.079 --> 02:45:41.959
comfort that is growing within you throughout your body and

1504
02:45:42.000 --> 02:45:51.799
your mind starts to slow down, and that could be

1505
02:45:52.360 --> 02:46:00.319
almost in recognition of I guess my speech not being

1506
02:46:00.520 --> 02:46:13.639
particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1507
02:46:17.079 --> 02:46:25.079
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1508
02:46:25.120 --> 02:46:33.120
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1509
02:46:33.159 --> 02:46:40.799
break from your life as it is, and to give

1510
02:46:40.840 --> 02:46:49.000
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1511
02:46:49.079 --> 02:46:56.680
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1512
02:46:56.719 --> 02:47:07.079
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1513
02:47:07.239 --> 02:47:17.840
tension any stresses that you had in your body. It's

1514
02:47:17.879 --> 02:47:22.559
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1515
02:47:23.799 --> 02:47:35.440
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1516
02:47:36.280 --> 02:47:45.799
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1517
02:47:45.840 --> 02:47:48.360
body up and your.

1518
02:47:48.280 --> 02:48:02.159
Mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing

1519
02:48:04.440 --> 02:48:25.639
confidence and almost uplifting feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads

1520
02:48:26.040 --> 02:48:36.879
through your body like a wave of comfort. And all

1521
02:48:36.959 --> 02:48:49.040
this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe

1522
02:48:49.159 --> 02:48:51.799
half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1523
02:48:53.639 --> 02:49:07.479
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1524
02:49:07.559 --> 02:49:24.639
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1525
02:49:28.479 --> 02:49:37.879
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1526
02:49:41.840 --> 02:49:50.840
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1527
02:49:51.479 --> 02:49:56.079
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1528
02:50:00.319 --> 02:50:10.440
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

1529
02:50:15.120 --> 02:50:22.319
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1530
02:50:22.520 --> 02:50:28.319
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1531
02:50:31.680 --> 02:50:43.920
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1532
02:50:45.680 --> 02:51:01.200
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1533
02:51:02.399 --> 02:51:08.399
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1534
02:51:08.399 --> 02:51:25.479
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1535
02:51:25.479 --> 02:51:35.159
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1536
02:51:39.159 --> 02:51:45.280
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1537
02:51:47.639 --> 02:51:54.360
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1538
02:51:54.520 --> 02:52:02.159
relax deeply and those parts to of not yet focused

1539
02:52:02.200 --> 02:52:15.600
on or just automatically release any remain intension in anticipation

1540
02:52:15.959 --> 02:52:29.000
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1541
02:52:29.040 --> 02:52:36.000
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1542
02:52:36.280 --> 02:52:44.920
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1543
02:52:46.639 --> 02:52:51.559
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

1544
02:52:51.680 --> 02:52:58.959
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1545
02:53:02.079 --> 02:53:07.440
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1546
02:53:10.879 --> 02:53:16.920
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1547
02:53:17.440 --> 02:53:27.959
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1548
02:53:28.200 --> 02:53:36.559
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1549
02:53:38.280 --> 02:53:47.920
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1550
02:53:47.959 --> 02:53:57.680
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1551
02:53:58.719 --> 02:54:07.280
how the your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light

1552
02:54:08.280 --> 02:54:14.479
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

1553
02:54:14.520 --> 02:54:27.000
eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

1554
02:54:28.879 --> 02:54:35.920
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the

1555
02:54:36.120 --> 02:54:50.680
whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and loose, as you

1556
02:54:50.799 --> 02:54:58.799
focus now on your jaw, not just a part of

1557
02:54:58.840 --> 02:55:03.600
your journey or mouth and your chin, but all the

1558
02:55:03.680 --> 02:55:08.120
way up the size of your face to your ears,

1559
02:55:10.280 --> 02:55:22.040
the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1560
02:55:25.479 --> 02:55:34.000
And calm.

1561
02:55:34.360 --> 02:55:43.520
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1562
02:55:43.559 --> 02:55:56.600
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1563
02:55:56.680 --> 02:56:05.639
your neck right the left side of your neck, relax

1564
02:56:06.120 --> 02:56:21.399
and loose and calm, And now the back of your neck.

1565
02:56:24.639 --> 02:56:34.719
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1566
02:56:34.879 --> 02:56:41.799
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1567
02:56:42.120 --> 02:56:55.079
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

1568
02:56:55.159 --> 02:57:06.319
experience in the back of your neck, moving down your

1569
02:57:06.399 --> 02:57:13.760
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1570
02:57:13.799 --> 02:57:14.440
the top.

1571
02:57:14.280 --> 02:57:15.200
Of your back.

1572
02:57:16.840 --> 02:57:20.559
All the way down to the bottom of your back

1573
02:57:26.520 --> 02:57:37.799
down to your lower back. And as you move up

1574
02:57:37.920 --> 02:57:46.760
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1575
02:57:46.840 --> 02:58:01.959
side of your spine relaxing even more. And those muscles relax,

1576
02:58:04.040 --> 02:58:12.000
that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your

1577
02:58:12.079 --> 02:58:21.639
spine into both sides of your back, the top of

1578
02:58:21.680 --> 02:58:28.639
your back, the middle and your lower back. And as

1579
02:58:28.680 --> 02:58:36.280
you scan gently and slowly up and down your back,

1580
02:58:38.520 --> 02:58:42.959
there's the muscles in the top of your back relax

1581
02:58:43.440 --> 02:58:51.079
and become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1582
02:58:51.120 --> 02:58:58.600
back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1583
02:58:59.479 --> 02:59:15.719
separate and almost melting. And in your lower back it

1584
02:59:15.840 --> 02:59:28.520
seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The

1585
02:59:28.879 --> 02:59:35.200
spreads into your hips, so down your lower back, into

1586
02:59:35.239 --> 02:59:46.559
your hips, into the area where your cosis are, and

1587
02:59:46.680 --> 02:59:55.600
into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread from

1588
02:59:55.680 --> 03:00:05.159
your lower back into your hip air. Yeah, start to melt,

1589
03:00:09.639 --> 03:00:22.520
start to really let go. Don't even nowhere about to

1590
03:00:22.600 --> 03:00:29.360
focus on your shoulders, your back, and your spine will

1591
03:00:29.399 --> 03:00:50.680
continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly, and

1592
03:00:50.719 --> 03:00:55.920
as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that

1593
03:00:55.920 --> 03:01:27.399
they're already feeling really loose, already feeding calm and feeling

1594
03:01:31.559 --> 03:01:39.920
those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders

1595
03:01:46.440 --> 03:02:15.840
feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1596
03:02:16.040 --> 03:02:28.920
the feeling in your shoulders seens to spread deep into

1597
03:02:28.959 --> 03:02:39.399
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1598
03:02:39.799 --> 03:02:56.760
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1599
03:02:56.840 --> 03:03:05.719
all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area

1600
03:03:05.879 --> 03:03:15.680
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing.

1601
03:03:21.079 --> 03:03:34.000
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who

1602
03:03:34.319 --> 03:03:56.559
sends that deep healing message into your arms? You may

1603
03:03:56.799 --> 03:04:02.079
feel almost as if you your arms are not even there,

1604
03:04:03.559 --> 03:04:40.319
because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm,

1605
03:04:40.600 --> 03:05:01.360
so loose, not feeling spreading oh all the way down

1606
03:05:01.559 --> 03:05:30.840
your arms, two elbows, including your elbows circumforts spreads or

1607
03:05:30.840 --> 03:05:47.319
away into your wrists, your forearments and your wrists being

1608
03:05:48.079 --> 03:06:08.399
so heavy. Yet at the same time sunlight and gentle

1609
03:06:33.079 --> 03:06:37.840
fuku see now on.

1610
03:06:40.040 --> 03:07:12.280
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful.

1611
03:07:13.840 --> 03:07:51.520
In your hands, there's a sense of real peace. It

1612
03:07:51.639 --> 03:08:00.920
just seems to I feel safe for me million.

1613
03:08:03.959 --> 03:09:13.200
When your hands relax deeply, eyes, your things, you things, sids,

1614
03:09:42.399 --> 03:09:43.639
you think it's tips.

1615
03:10:12.239 --> 03:10:31.440
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1616
03:10:42.399 --> 03:12:07.959
moving your focus to your legs, a lot muscles.

1617
03:12:09.120 --> 03:12:27.959
In your thighs, your knees.

1618
03:12:31.600 --> 03:13:09.000
So relaxed, a calf, mussels and just shins. How puzy,

1619
03:13:09.239 --> 03:15:28.840
the four and the fathing your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm,

1620
03:15:28.920 --> 03:16:21.120
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peace

1621
03:16:21.600 --> 03:16:32.120
fall RelA in.

1622
03:16:37.440 --> 03:16:59.840
Peace, fall so calm.

1623
03:16:51.600 --> 03:16:58.600
Loving that deep relaxation, to spread your chest in your

1624
03:16:58.719 --> 03:17:30.719
stumm letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting

1625
03:17:30.799 --> 03:17:42.559
down now, from twenty down to one. You can imagine

1626
03:17:42.600 --> 03:17:46.319
in a way it's like just walking down some steps

1627
03:17:48.239 --> 03:17:52.600
and each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1628
03:17:53.840 --> 03:18:06.920
a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of

1629
03:18:06.959 --> 03:18:17.719
that comfort, and the fervies you walk down those steps

1630
03:18:17.840 --> 03:18:30.120
that the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1631
03:18:30.239 --> 03:23:02.600
with number twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen, sicksting three four

1632
03:24:02.479 --> 03:31:15.239
four teen too well five eight nine y seven us

1633
03:31:57.120 --> 03:39:14.719
six five four one. And now as you focus on

1634
03:39:14.760 --> 03:39:34.280
your eyes, we're gonna count down from ten dout to one,

1635
03:39:34.639 --> 03:39:44.280
focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around

1636
03:39:44.360 --> 03:39:55.799
your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a whole area that

1637
03:39:56.000 --> 03:40:10.120
makes up your eye. And as we count down from

1638
03:40:10.280 --> 03:40:24.959
ten down to one, whilst focusing on your eyes, you'll

1639
03:40:25.360 --> 03:40:39.840
become twice is relaxed with each number counting down that

1640
03:40:39.920 --> 03:40:47.200
you may find the all you want to do is

1641
03:40:47.639 --> 03:40:56.920
just drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want,

1642
03:41:00.319 --> 03:41:13.639
just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1643
03:41:15.719 --> 03:41:21.159
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1644
03:41:21.319 --> 03:46:45.600
one right now, ten nine eight seven y five four.

1645
03:47:58.440 --> 03:50:38.799
Three two one.

1646
03:50:39.159 --> 03:50:54.520
So count and down from ten to one ten nine

1647
03:50:55.559 --> 03:51:23.360
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1648
03:51:23.399 --> 03:51:26.360
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1649
03:51:27.559 --> 03:51:31.959
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1650
03:51:32.079 --> 03:51:40.159
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1651
03:51:40.200 --> 03:51:44.319
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1652
03:51:44.399 --> 03:51:47.799
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1653
03:51:47.840 --> 03:51:57.520
STI go with floppy just because you're counting down. If

1654
03:51:57.520 --> 03:52:01.600
you try it again, this time, I go this lower

1655
03:52:03.680 --> 03:52:08.600
this time, as you focus on the whole of your

1656
03:52:08.600 --> 03:52:17.040
body before we focus on your legs, just notice how

1657
03:52:17.079 --> 03:52:31.200
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1658
03:52:31.319 --> 03:53:44.680
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

1659
03:53:44.959 --> 03:54:22.719
two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1660
03:54:23.120 --> 03:54:37.479
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1661
03:54:37.559 --> 03:54:44.840
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1662
03:54:46.000 --> 03:55:04.520
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1663
03:55:09.200 --> 03:55:14.440
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1664
03:55:14.600 --> 03:55:21.280
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1665
03:55:21.879 --> 03:55:24.959
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1666
03:55:24.959 --> 03:55:36.000
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1667
03:55:36.000 --> 03:55:43.440
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1668
03:55:43.520 --> 03:55:55.959
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1669
03:55:56.079 --> 03:56:05.479
nice feeling, and it moves those.

1670
03:56:06.840 --> 03:56:20.559
Stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1671
03:56:21.479 --> 03:56:22.840
Allows you.

1672
03:56:25.120 --> 03:56:25.719
To just.

1673
03:56:28.639 --> 03:56:35.399
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1674
03:56:35.799 --> 03:56:37.000
and notice.

1675
03:56:37.280 --> 03:56:46.239
That gap widening, the gap, And as it widens, it's

1676
03:56:46.239 --> 03:56:52.479
almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap

1677
03:57:05.920 --> 03:58:13.799
and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

1678
03:58:31.680 --> 03:59:14.239
Three two.

1679
03:59:06.959 --> 03:59:18.000
One.

1680
03:59:19.079 --> 03:59:23.200
How does your body feel.

1681
03:59:25.079 --> 03:59:36.879
Now?

1682
03:59:37.959 --> 03:59:53.280
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1683
03:59:53.680 --> 04:00:21.120
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1684
04:00:37.079 --> 04:00:57.280
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1685
04:00:57.319 --> 04:01:02.200
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1686
04:01:05.680 --> 04:01:08.399
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1687
04:01:08.440 --> 04:01:20.879
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1688
04:01:20.959 --> 04:01:27.399
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1689
04:01:27.520 --> 04:01:34.600
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1690
04:01:34.600 --> 04:01:39.520
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1691
04:01:39.639 --> 04:01:48.440
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1692
04:01:48.600 --> 04:02:02.639
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1693
04:02:02.680 --> 04:02:08.239
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1694
04:02:09.159 --> 04:02:22.440
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1695
04:02:22.440 --> 04:02:30.840
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1696
04:02:36.680 --> 04:02:47.440
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1697
04:02:47.600 --> 04:03:08.280
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1698
04:03:08.319 --> 04:03:18.799
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1699
04:03:18.879 --> 04:03:27.319
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1700
04:03:27.360 --> 04:03:35.000
our thighs need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1701
04:03:36.000 --> 04:03:54.799
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you gratitude for our thighs

1702
04:03:54.959 --> 04:04:03.879
do for us. And I know this may sound a

1703
04:04:03.920 --> 04:04:10.120
bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I sure that

1704
04:04:10.200 --> 04:04:13.040
I should be out in the garden hugging a tree

1705
04:04:13.200 --> 04:04:21.319
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1706
04:04:21.360 --> 04:04:24.719
on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1707
04:04:24.719 --> 04:04:28.120
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1708
04:04:28.120 --> 04:04:36.920
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1709
04:04:36.920 --> 04:04:46.760
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1710
04:04:46.799 --> 04:04:53.680
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1711
04:04:53.719 --> 04:04:58.879
don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for me

1712
04:05:00.159 --> 04:05:05.319
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1713
04:05:05.360 --> 04:05:10.319
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1714
04:05:10.479 --> 04:05:16.959
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1715
04:05:17.000 --> 04:05:21.440
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1716
04:05:21.559 --> 04:05:31.559
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1717
04:05:31.600 --> 04:05:40.399
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1718
04:05:41.479 --> 04:05:48.600
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1719
04:05:50.639 --> 04:05:56.319
regardless of how your knees feel. You can have that

1720
04:05:56.559 --> 04:06:02.760
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1721
04:06:02.840 --> 04:06:15.159
that they do for you, and you can still have

1722
04:06:15.200 --> 04:06:19.440
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1723
04:06:19.479 --> 04:06:31.399
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1724
04:06:33.120 --> 04:06:44.879
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1725
04:06:45.239 --> 04:06:50.639
your shins and your calf muscles and the bones between

1726
04:06:50.799 --> 04:06:57.040
your knees and your feet incorporate. And of course your

1727
04:06:57.079 --> 04:07:08.639
ankles are how important, you know, anyone that's had even

1728
04:07:09.000 --> 04:07:15.799
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1729
04:07:15.879 --> 04:07:26.040
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1730
04:07:26.040 --> 04:07:31.600
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1731
04:07:31.879 --> 04:07:35.000
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1732
04:07:35.040 --> 04:07:39.719
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't I can't see

1733
04:07:39.760 --> 04:07:43.280
any problem with that because we're just picking stuff up.

1734
04:07:44.840 --> 04:07:50.479
But our ankles so much thinner than the rest of

1735
04:07:50.479 --> 04:08:01.360
our legs, and from a physics perspective or logical even

1736
04:08:01.440 --> 04:08:07.200
it doesn't really make sense that all this weight would

1737
04:08:07.239 --> 04:08:14.479
ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to your feet,

1738
04:08:19.000 --> 04:08:27.879
that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1739
04:08:27.959 --> 04:08:35.040
great work, supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1740
04:08:39.760 --> 04:08:49.559
helps us to balance, helps you to get around and

1741
04:08:49.639 --> 04:09:03.680
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when

1742
04:09:03.719 --> 04:09:06.879
I was younger, I couldn't see the point in calf muscles.

1743
04:09:07.680 --> 04:09:12.559
Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around

1744
04:09:12.600 --> 04:09:17.520
on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work. But

1745
04:09:17.559 --> 04:09:20.239
of course that's not true. The calf muscles are being

1746
04:09:20.319 --> 04:09:33.440
used whenever we use our legs, and your shins there

1747
04:09:33.520 --> 04:09:44.479
to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way almost

1748
04:09:44.520 --> 04:09:56.319
as a protector for the bone, leading of course to

1749
04:09:56.399 --> 04:10:06.520
your ankles and your feet. But we're not going to

1750
04:10:06.559 --> 04:10:08.760
focus on your feet. We're just going to focus on

1751
04:10:08.799 --> 04:10:15.840
the legs. I realize, but now that I've mentioned your feet,

1752
04:10:15.920 --> 04:10:20.600
you probably focuses on them anyway. So maybe I should

1753
04:10:20.639 --> 04:10:26.639
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1754
04:10:26.760 --> 04:10:32.040
them in your awareness, the same as you have your

1755
04:10:32.079 --> 04:10:36.360
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1756
04:10:37.040 --> 04:10:42.000
on your thighs a few minutes, let me focusing on

1757
04:10:42.120 --> 04:10:59.399
your ankles. There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs,

1758
04:11:04.319 --> 04:11:12.319
and this that movement of energy because the thighs hold

1759
04:11:13.639 --> 04:11:19.159
lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the

1760
04:11:19.200 --> 04:11:31.680
big strang muscles that we have in our thighs. But

1761
04:11:31.840 --> 04:11:37.959
the skin on the outside of the thighs, as in

1762
04:11:38.000 --> 04:11:43.799
the outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1763
04:11:47.680 --> 04:12:01.680
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature. Inside your thighs,

1764
04:12:03.879 --> 04:12:08.719
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1765
04:12:08.879 --> 04:12:18.920
arch trees, all this stuff that's inside your thighs. I

1766
04:12:18.959 --> 04:12:22.440
guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put

1767
04:12:22.479 --> 04:12:29.840
your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so you

1768
04:12:29.879 --> 04:12:33.440
can message on the outside, of course, but to be

1769
04:12:33.479 --> 04:12:36.680
able to get deep into the muscles and to be

1770
04:12:36.680 --> 04:12:41.840
able to just message inside your thighs, message in the

1771
04:12:41.920 --> 04:12:50.639
bones of your leg, message in all the veins, and

1772
04:12:50.840 --> 04:13:01.319
just gently healing your thighs, and you could move down

1773
04:13:03.319 --> 04:13:08.440
message and inside your knees, just a message in those bones,

1774
04:13:09.360 --> 04:13:16.440
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

1775
04:13:16.520 --> 04:13:26.000
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1776
04:13:26.200 --> 04:13:31.120
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1777
04:13:31.159 --> 04:13:38.639
your knee is. It's a really sensitive area, very it

1778
04:13:38.639 --> 04:13:42.680
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1779
04:13:42.680 --> 04:13:46.680
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1780
04:13:48.680 --> 04:13:55.559
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1781
04:13:55.639 --> 04:14:02.719
It's almost like a part that it has a sensitivity,

1782
04:14:02.760 --> 04:14:13.280
which is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected

1783
04:14:13.319 --> 04:14:24.680
by your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

1784
04:14:24.719 --> 04:14:34.799
into that crease in your legs, folding between your legs,

1785
04:14:35.440 --> 04:14:40.079
you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1786
04:14:40.159 --> 04:14:50.760
going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

1787
04:14:50.799 --> 04:14:57.920
course feel the bones of your knees heading through your fingertips,

1788
04:15:05.280 --> 04:15:10.600
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1789
04:15:10.959 --> 04:15:12.799
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1790
04:15:13.520 --> 04:15:20.920
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1791
04:15:20.959 --> 04:15:30.079
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1792
04:15:36.000 --> 04:15:42.120
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1793
04:15:42.959 --> 04:15:49.959
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

1794
04:15:50.040 --> 04:15:57.319
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1795
04:15:57.360 --> 04:16:01.319
precious bones that they are. Because our legs are so

1796
04:16:01.479 --> 04:16:05.079
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1797
04:16:07.559 --> 04:16:21.399
and more precious of any juel on the planet. When

1798
04:16:21.479 --> 04:16:32.520
you start to think about your legs in this way

1799
04:16:33.840 --> 04:16:40.520
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1800
04:16:43.600 --> 04:16:47.879
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1801
04:16:48.760 --> 04:16:58.760
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1802
04:16:58.879 --> 04:17:02.879
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1803
04:17:04.760 --> 04:17:11.200
the massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1804
04:17:11.239 --> 04:17:19.600
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

1805
04:17:19.680 --> 04:17:29.159
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1806
04:17:29.200 --> 04:17:32.600
you care for what your legs do.

1807
04:17:32.520 --> 04:17:45.600
For you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the

1808
04:17:45.760 --> 04:17:51.680
strength of your ankles, considering.

1809
04:17:51.239 --> 04:17:55.760
How thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1810
04:17:55.879 --> 04:18:09.639
especially your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1811
04:18:09.840 --> 04:18:21.680
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1812
04:18:21.719 --> 04:18:33.040
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1813
04:18:33.079 --> 04:18:37.079
of how what weight you are, even if you're only

1814
04:18:37.120 --> 04:18:42.319
eight stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

1815
04:18:42.680 --> 04:18:50.399
little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight stone,

1816
04:18:50.760 --> 04:18:59.959
double do yet my ankles support my body all the time,

1817
04:19:03.760 --> 04:19:06.680
or they do give off a sigh of relief when

1818
04:19:06.680 --> 04:19:15.520
I sit down. That's got my whole legs do. My

1819
04:19:15.680 --> 04:19:23.000
feet feet also go, my toes clap We're so happy.

1820
04:19:42.600 --> 04:19:51.840
Your legs really are amazing. And I don't know, but talking

1821
04:19:51.879 --> 04:19:58.319
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1822
04:19:58.360 --> 04:20:07.040
most most things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly or

1823
04:20:07.120 --> 04:20:14.600
gory or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs

1824
04:20:14.639 --> 04:20:34.639
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve

1825
04:20:34.760 --> 04:20:47.200
to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time out

1826
04:20:47.719 --> 04:21:12.479
of the day to just let go completely. The legs.

1827
04:21:16.639 --> 04:21:19.200
Really can relax.

1828
04:21:26.799 --> 04:21:30.959
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1829
04:21:31.159 --> 04:21:37.120
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1830
04:21:37.200 --> 04:21:44.440
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1831
04:21:48.159 --> 04:21:59.040
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1832
04:22:00.360 --> 04:22:07.520
My hips feel really loose, and also my ler back

1833
04:22:07.559 --> 04:22:14.200
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1834
04:22:15.280 --> 04:22:18.360
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1835
04:22:18.440 --> 04:22:23.719
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1836
04:22:24.680 --> 04:22:27.280
But it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1837
04:22:27.319 --> 04:22:32.920
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1838
04:22:33.040 --> 04:22:55.319
tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

1839
04:22:55.399 --> 04:23:02.959
count down from ten down to one, and you can

1840
04:23:02.959 --> 04:23:31.760
continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight seven six, five,

1841
04:23:36.360 --> 04:23:47.399
four three two.

1842
04:23:48.959 --> 04:23:54.760
One.

1843
04:23:55.280 --> 04:23:55.959
Relax.

1844
04:24:03.760 --> 04:24:07.600
So I'm just going to count down and fire down

1845
04:24:07.639 --> 04:24:12.079
to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

1846
04:24:12.200 --> 04:24:20.159
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1847
04:24:21.040 --> 04:24:29.079
how you feel in this moment as you hear the

1848
04:24:29.159 --> 04:24:37.280
numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting down represent

1849
04:24:38.239 --> 04:24:47.280
you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also

1850
04:24:49.520 --> 04:24:56.200
relaxing your mind. I'll just notice how you feel. There's

1851
04:24:56.280 --> 04:25:02.760
nothing to do, there's nothing say, there's nothing to think about,

1852
04:25:05.799 --> 04:25:54.799
starting with number five, four, three two one. Now, as

1853
04:25:54.840 --> 04:26:10.239
you notice at your letting go the tension in your body,

1854
04:26:11.360 --> 04:26:17.159
you may also begin to notice and be aware of

1855
04:26:17.200 --> 04:26:26.239
how your mind is starting to slow down. This is

1856
04:26:26.360 --> 04:26:33.000
just a natural thing that happens. It's not really a

1857
04:26:33.079 --> 04:26:40.159
special procedure. It's just natural because as your body relaxes,

1858
04:26:40.360 --> 04:26:45.840
your mind also starts to relax. And the more your

1859
04:26:45.879 --> 04:26:49.120
mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's just a

1860
04:26:49.280 --> 04:27:01.840
continuous circle of relaxation. And is that calmness that comes

1861
04:27:01.959 --> 04:27:09.959
from relative quietness. You know, even even if there's background sounds,

1862
04:27:11.360 --> 04:27:20.079
even your side online, it's still going to be quite calm.

1863
04:27:20.239 --> 04:27:22.879
You know, you haven't got the television on. There's no

1864
04:27:23.200 --> 04:27:27.399
music in the background unless you're listening to the recording.

1865
04:27:27.440 --> 04:27:34.920
With music, of course, you're very likely not going to

1866
04:27:34.920 --> 04:27:38.040
be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

1867
04:27:38.079 --> 04:27:42.600
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

1868
04:27:42.639 --> 04:27:53.600
can do this on your own, so no distractions, and

1869
04:27:53.680 --> 04:28:08.879
when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a

1870
04:28:09.000 --> 04:28:19.719
sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying to

1871
04:28:19.799 --> 04:28:30.719
build it up into something fantastical or something magical, this

1872
04:28:30.879 --> 04:28:43.200
is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

1873
04:28:43.639 --> 04:28:51.040
In fact, it's almost the sense of relaxing completely happens

1874
04:28:51.159 --> 04:28:56.040
really when you put no effort into it. It's not

1875
04:28:56.120 --> 04:29:04.680
something that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

1876
04:29:07.600 --> 04:29:14.920
And part of the process of this recording and others

1877
04:29:16.479 --> 04:29:28.079
is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space,

1878
04:29:30.680 --> 04:29:44.719
this time, to just let go, to just be here,

1879
04:29:45.120 --> 04:29:58.040
to be in tune with how you feel, yet with

1880
04:29:58.760 --> 04:30:10.719
the intention of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even

1881
04:30:12.239 --> 04:30:16.719
to fall asleep, depending on what it is that you

1882
04:30:17.760 --> 04:30:30.879
wish for yourself in this moment. As we know, relaxing

1883
04:30:32.559 --> 04:30:40.719
is the majority of the process of falling asleep. The

1884
04:30:40.799 --> 04:30:44.920
actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at the end.

1885
04:30:48.280 --> 04:31:00.120
The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find and

1886
04:31:01.680 --> 04:31:15.520
yourself drifting. But you can also if you choose, stay

1887
04:31:17.120 --> 04:31:36.520
focused on my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually

1888
04:31:42.040 --> 04:32:09.079
relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing

1889
04:32:13.559 --> 04:32:35.000
the sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm gonna

1890
04:32:35.120 --> 04:32:44.879
count from six down to one, and you can notice

1891
04:32:45.319 --> 04:32:55.559
your mind calming down more with each number that you

1892
04:32:55.840 --> 04:34:05.759
hear me say, naturally, Finn, calm, slow, peaceful, six, five, four.

1893
04:34:37.400 --> 04:36:07.439
Three, two four, being aware.

1894
04:36:10.279 --> 04:36:26.360
How your mind to slowed, write down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1895
04:36:40.040 --> 04:36:47.319
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice that.

1896
04:36:49.080 --> 04:36:57.680
There's some thoughts still there.

1897
04:36:54.880 --> 04:37:04.439
Maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1898
04:37:04.520 --> 04:37:19.720
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

1899
04:37:19.919 --> 04:37:33.439
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. I do

1900
04:37:33.720 --> 04:37:39.400
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1901
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filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1902
04:37:46.840 --> 04:37:53.360
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need

1903
04:37:53.479 --> 04:38:06.040
them to require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet,

1904
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down and now, so as you focus on those remaining

1905
04:38:21.880 --> 04:38:27.200
thoughts as we count down this time from seven down

1906
04:38:27.240 --> 04:38:36.319
to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower

1907
04:38:36.439 --> 04:38:55.520
petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which will

1908
04:38:55.560 --> 04:39:01.319
allow them to just melt away and relaxed deeply.

1909
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With every number, the thoughts would become more and more relaxed.

1910
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Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

1911
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What.

1912
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Misen now, notice how relaxed your feeling in your body?

1913
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Were going to focus on your hands.

1914
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Is the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed.

1915
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Your body and mind love this.

1916
04:43:01.000 --> 04:43:11.159
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1917
04:43:11.680 --> 04:43:16.520
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists, long

1918
04:43:17.479 --> 04:43:19.119
dancing the fingers or.

1919
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Anything like that.

1920
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It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

1921
04:43:41.599 --> 04:43:42.319
they feel.

1922
04:43:56.919 --> 04:43:58.360
Because the more.

1923
04:44:00.279 --> 04:44:10.720
Relas your hands feel, the calm your mind feels, and

1924
04:44:11.040 --> 04:44:12.119
the more.

1925
04:44:14.599 --> 04:44:25.520
Comforts you feel throughout your body, and she.

1926
04:44:28.240 --> 04:44:31.040
May have.

1927
04:44:34.959 --> 04:44:39.479
Already nice.

1928
04:44:43.200 --> 04:44:55.880
You mind is starting.

1929
04:44:58.759 --> 04:44:59.919
To dread.

1930
04:45:13.279 --> 04:45:26.759
Like you sin, just on your hands and fingers, allowing

1931
04:45:27.400 --> 04:45:42.159
them cheat experience real deepening of that relaxation in your

1932
04:45:42.279 --> 04:45:54.520
hands and fingers, war and more relaxed.

1933
04:45:59.520 --> 04:46:01.080
The just number.

1934
04:46:08.599 --> 04:46:21.119
From eight down to one, you can almost view the

1935
04:46:21.959 --> 04:46:32.680
healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers.

1936
04:46:35.119 --> 04:46:41.799
Becoming be law.

1937
04:46:43.759 --> 04:46:49.680
Relaxing with each number.

1938
04:46:51.639 --> 04:46:52.439
You hear.

1939
04:46:56.200 --> 04:46:57.400
Coming down.

1940
04:46:58.639 --> 04:47:01.680
From eight. Now do what.

1941
04:47:06.040 --> 04:47:27.080
Toist in, toist in a king, start to leave, No.

1942
04:47:29.439 --> 04:50:00.119
THO s.

1943
04:50:27.680 --> 04:50:27.720
S.

1944
04:51:17.040 --> 04:51:26.520
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1945
04:51:27.919 --> 04:51:44.080
nothing to say. Everything just feels. This is your netural

1946
04:51:44.240 --> 04:51:52.479
state of being. This is how you just normally feel.

1947
04:51:52.880 --> 04:51:58.479
When you take away.

1948
04:52:00.119 --> 04:52:01.080
Didn't add.

1949
04:52:02.639 --> 04:52:12.880
Looking about stress and worrying. I thinking ancience?

1950
04:52:13.599 --> 04:52:20.639
Tell him thinking about stuff?

1951
04:52:22.880 --> 04:52:24.200
You take that away.

1952
04:52:25.200 --> 04:52:34.159
That is what we do, what we're doing now. M.

1953
04:52:34.319 --> 04:52:47.080
Yeah, a new sense of costs which comes to very quickly.

1954
04:52:51.159 --> 04:53:08.680
As to believe it's yeah, nice specie in sight something.

1955
04:53:10.000 --> 04:53:35.240
Speaking speech paspeak place.

1956
04:53:41.360 --> 04:53:43.279
M six

1957
04:53:45.159 --> 04:54:12.080
Mm hmmm, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not su