May 30, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025
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Hello, Welcome to Finny making noise in the background. Welcome

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to Jason new Land dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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This is let me boy to sleep Q and a

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Friday EF and I've got a little bit of a

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different setup. Well to start with, I'm filming it for

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some reason. Don't ask me why. I don't know why.

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I never know why. I never know why. I do

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a lot of things. Really, there's some background stuff and

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I was hoping to have the cause I've basically got

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the camera. I've got the window in front of me,

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so I've got natural light. Now. It just means the

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backgrounds a little bit mm hmm, messy a bit, and

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I'm warm. I ain't got any any lights on nothing.

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Having a sunshine on my face probably does it, doesn't it.

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So what I'm going to do is did I say

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only listen and you can safely close or eyes? Hopefully

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I did. I'm looking down here because that's where my

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laptop is, and this is where all the Christians are

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in case you wondered, So I hope you will, just

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to let you know. I mean you probably already may

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be a member, but I've got a Jason Newland's boring

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group on Facebook, and also got a YouTube channel at

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Jason new Land. That's it, really, I'm sure that takes

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longer normally, I do. I mean I do. Also also

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also also have the website, so I had a few

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stuff going on with the website, changed things around, and

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what I've done is it's all been up, it's all back.

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I did the recording yesterday, but I decided not to

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upload it because it, you know, wasn't wasn't quite what

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I wanted it to be. And you may query that thinking, well,

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you mean the ones that you actually upload are to

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your satisfaction. Oh, took Finnie out for a walk for

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an hour, out for an hour, nice lovely. Went out

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early about about half seven, got back about half eight.

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It's now eighteen minutes past ten. Oh gas lovely. So

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all the changes I did has all gone back to

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how it was. So the podcasts are back how they were,

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the website's back how it was, Everything's back to exactly

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how it was at the beginning of the week. Yeah,

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So that's it really. So if you haven't watched or

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listened or had any you know, had any contact since

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the beginning of the week, then there'd be no change,

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no change. So what I'm going to do, I'm going

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to go through the recordings of the questions in my

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vidual air. So today is Friday, the thirtieth, thirtieth of May.

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How many days is there in this month? Thirty one? Right,

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So next week Tuesday? Okay, all right, so thirty one.

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So it's it's the first on Sunday, twenty twenty five.

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So the first question I got is from Hope and

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it is what got you interested in? No, wait a minute,

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I'm doing it from the wrong. I want to do

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the first ones first. So I want to go to

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Hillary first, because Hillary asked the first question. I'd just

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like to do things in a certain order. Hillary. Also,

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I want to say thank you for the PayPal gift

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that I received, but I didn't. I don't know who

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sent it. I do, but I don't if that makes sense.

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There is no email address to reply. And also I

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was looking through my emails to see because I would

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have responded, and I think I'm perasly going to have

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to go through Facebook. It just gets like confusing. So

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if you can contact me, please so I can say

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thank you. And I think it's just get I get confused. Sometimes,

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especially when I look in the mirror. Hillary asks, really

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sad that you're not using a word BlimE me anymore. Also,

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what would you do if you won the lottery?

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Oh?

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Wow, I've had fantasies about this, and I'm sure I'm

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not the only one, so blimey. I. I mean it

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depends on how much a one, so I guess it's

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a fantasy or win like huge amounts. I mean, you know,

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one hundred grand would be a huge amount to me.

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A million would be a huge amount. But you know,

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I'm thinking, like in order to do what I want

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to do in order to share it. So the very

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first thing I would do is I'd probably just maybe

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give my dad a few quid maybe like get together. No,

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I thought, and this is something that I should have. Yeah,

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it's kind of two beginnings to this. The first one

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is where I say, right, the money never had money before,

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So that money's going to see I read my faces,

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it's going outside. It's just to catch the sun I

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burn in the winter. Seriously, that's kind of skin I got.

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So I like the idea. Wow, see how dusty this is?

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BlimE me. I didn't realize is it dusty? Is it

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just the light shining on it. I think it might

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just be the light shining on it. Yes, I think

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there's a bit of both. I think it's the light.

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Actually it probably is dusty as well. So I'm talking

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about the microphone grip thing at the top. For those

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listening on the podcast. My fantasy is first of all,

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to get either get everyone together in one place, invite

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everyone to a party, get them picked up wherever they

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are in the country, picked up by chauffeur and brought

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to this place, and then hand out money to everyone.

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That's like a little fantasy. But there's the I suppose

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there's another part of me he thinks, well, my best

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my best move would be too. I think if if

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I was to win a lot of money, you need

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to splash out a little bit. You need to have

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a good time initially to celebrate even you know, I

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don't mean spend lots of money, but just need to

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do something, go on holiday, or you know, buy myself

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a really good camera or you know for video in

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I don't know, something like that. Maybe by this place

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here's something that would be like an initial thing. So

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that would mean that because that would give me security

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in the future. So if I do was to blow

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through it, or at least i'd have a home. But

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I quite like the idea of just stepping back, going away,

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and I don't necessarily mean a holiday. I always used

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to think, maybe some kind of health club for six

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months or three months, go away from everything. It probably

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wouldn't be able to do that with Vinnie, so i'd

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have to get rid of him. Yeah, this is what

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I thought about before I had Vinnie and Andre. So

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this is something I thought about a lot over the years.

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It's a little fantasy. I like to just go to

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sleep too sometimes just thinking about all the good things

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I could do, you know. But I thought maybe have

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a step back instead of because you know, a million

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pounds is a phenomenal amount of money, but at the

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same time, if you break it down, it's three thousand

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pounds a day for a year, or three thousand, three

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hundred whatever, it's not that much. Just it's be easy

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to spend three thousand pounds a day just going to

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really expensive restaurants and stuff like. You know. I mean,

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if you were buying a really expensive coat an item

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of clothing, go and buy a watch that would cost

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like one hundred grand or fifty grand you So, I mean,

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so you could get through it in a year if

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I wasn't careful. So I'd have to be careful. And

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I think people are used to having money are better

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with money. There's an old saying, an old saying that

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if you took because you know, there's this whole thing,

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why why is I need two percent of the world

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got two percent of the world have got something like

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ninety five percent of the of the of the wealth

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or ninety percent of the wealth. But some economic experts

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have kind of got their heads together and said, well,

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if you spread all that money out between everybody in

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the world, that money would still end up back into

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that percentage. And I can kind of understand that because

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to never have had money it would be I mean

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even to have so if I like a five thousand

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pound would be like winning the lottery in a way,

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you know, So to step back, and I think this

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would be a time when I would actually go and

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listen to my dad. I go to my dad and

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I get his advice because he's always been really good

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with money. So I think I would I would sweat

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like I am today. I think the heating is on.

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Why is the heating on. It's it's gone off, but

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it's not. It's it's been on. That's why it's hot.

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BlimE me. See, I'm going to try and say it

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throughout this recording. BlimE me, BlimE me, BlimE me. I

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think I quite like the idea of going away. So

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maybe I couldn't go and leave Vinnie on his own

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for any length of time because it's not fair on him.

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But I definitely do a couple of weeks away and

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I'd need a holiday, So I go away for a

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couple of weeks, pay someone to look after him here,

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stay in my flat for that period of time. I

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don't know who, but someone that I trusted again, that's

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going to I don't know who I could trust to

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do that, but I'd find someone and then go away

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for a couple of weeks just to think things over,

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just to figure out what I'm going to do next,

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to plan it, you know. Then I would go. I

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suppose the first people would go and see would be

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my dad. I would try and get my dad to

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get everyone together like immediate family, and then I would

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I'd speak to my dad first about the money, and

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I would give him so if I if I won

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lots and lots, then I would give him a big amount,

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and I would the people I would give money to

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at the very beginning would be my brother. In fact,

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I would track down the other two brothers and give

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money to them as well, and so i'd give I'll

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give money to all three brothers, and then my step

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brother and stepsister give them money, So that would be

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six people to give money to my dad. I mean

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that would be shared with his wife anyway, with my

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step mom, so that's for the two of them, so

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that six loads of money would be gone. I'd probably

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then also give money to my first step mom via

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my little brother, so give him the money to give

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to her. And I would also give money to my

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step uncle or I haven't seen since I was a teenager,

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but he was so lovely, so I would give him

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money because I think he's according to my brother, he's

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not doing so great, so I would help him out.

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And then I would go and give money to both

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my aunties and my uncle. So I kind of work

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my way down, not down, but like go for the

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obvious people, even though I don't really have much contact

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with any of them, but still my relatives. So I

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give them money. Then, well, I thinking it'd be cool

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if I had like millions and millions and millions, So

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give them like fifty grand each, because that's a substantial

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amount to actually potentially make a difference to their life.

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It might not, but I'm thinking it might in the

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sense of they can at least go on holiday, going

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toward the world, travel the world, go on a few

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holidays with that, I imagine. I don't know how much

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holiday would be for a couple to go on holiday.

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I don't know. I've never gone on holiday as a couple.

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I've never done a cruise, like my dad likes cruises.

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My dad likes to cruise, so I don't know. There

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can be quite expensive. I know, I doll So I mean,

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I would like to travel the world on a cruise,

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but there's no way in the world I'm leaving Vinnie

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Vinnie's That won't happen while I've got Vinnie, because that

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would be like a six month, six month thing, you know.

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I mean, I could go off for the odd week

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and stuff, which I probably would do, but I'm not

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gonna leave the little penguin. I'm just trying to think

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what's in the background there's a lot of rubbish in

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the background here, I might try and edit it so

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that the background is blank or blue or green or something.

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I might try and do that on a video. I

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don't know how easy it is to do that. So

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then what I'd do is I would then move to

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probably aim at cousins, send money to the cousins that

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I've had contact with, maybe even give money to to

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cousins that I haven't seen since I was a kid,

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just because they're family, you know, just like just give

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them some money. So I've got probably one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

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eight nine, put about ten cousins I have contact with one.

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But yeah, there's a couple that I haven't seen for years,

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but I was very very close to them, so I'd

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give them money. I'd also give their mum money as well.

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So I lived with her for four years and she

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did help me out. Annoyed the hell out of me,

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and I annoyed her, but she did help me out,

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So I do you know, now I appreciate it. Maybe

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at the time I did as well, but we just

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used to annoy each other. So I'd give I give

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her money, give her kids money, I give the dad

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money as well, because I've gotten very well with him

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as well. So I give all of them money to

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do what they want with it. So i'd like to,

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you know, if it was ten grand even, you know,

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I give something so that could I'm literally dripping. The

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radio is aren't on. They're warm, but they're not on,

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if you know what I mean. I can't if I

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got got up and turned it off, it wouldn't click

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because it is turned off. But why did it come on? Yes,

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So I that's one way of doing it. And then

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I would give money to friends. So I'd start with

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family first. Technically friends, I would say possibly is the beginning,

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because that anyone that I see on a regular basis

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is in some ways closer than family in a way.

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I mean, I have more conversation with dog walkers and

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i'd do with my own family, but more meaningful conversations

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as well sometimes, but that's just because they don't. No

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one lives near me, and you know, I don't go out,

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I don't go very don't travel very far. I'll get

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myself a chauffeur and I'll buy myself a very expensive car.

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I don't know I would need. I think I quite

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like the idea of having a taxi driver. So if

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there was someone that I knew that I liked to

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be my taxi driver and just drive me around if

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I needed to drive around, and hm, I would This

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is going to take the whole record and just talking

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about my fantasies, isn't it. I yeah, I think taking

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a step back would be very very useful, taking a

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step back and like, okay, go away for a couple

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of weeks. I'd have to tell someone. Who would I

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tell if I won the lottery? Who would I tell?

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Probably everybody. To be fair, I'll tell you first. I would.

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You're the first person i'd tell, and obviously have to

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let the certain people know. The thing is, I think

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I'd keep a little bit quiet because as soon as

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not not publicly, but family wise or friends. I think

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if I told anyone that I'd won the lottery and

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it was a big amount of money, wouldn't they expect

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something from me? I mean they would be getting something

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from him because I could not. You know, it's how

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good you're not, It's not I had a friend won

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five grand five grand on a lottery ticket once and

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it didn't even buy a meal or nothing, just like,

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I couldn't have done that. I'd have just at least

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got a Chinese takeaway for everyone or took everyone out

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for a meal. This is where I lived. There was

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only like four of us living there, so I can't

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take us all out. That's going to cost what one

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hundred quid back then? This was in nineteen sixty three.

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I'm trying to think, Yeah, so that I would. I

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don't have any big purchases that I would want. I

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wouldn't want a boat, not really into this two I like,

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I like ferries or to be on a cruise ship,

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love all that stuff. I wouldn't want to be on

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a boat, So that's a purchase I wouldn't make. I

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wouldn't buy a plane. And if I had a substantial

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amount of money, then I would start flying first class.

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I've never I've never flown comfortably before, so that would

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be definitely something that I would do. What else I

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probably i'd want to move away from here. I think

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I would buy this place and then I just have

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it as my It might seem sound bad, have it

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like as a storage or have it as a I

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don't know. Maybe I wouldn't. Maybe i'd just move on

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get myself a place, or maybe buy this and just

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let someone live here for free. I don't know, because

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that kind of goes against my ethos. Try not to

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bang the the microphone. Thanks Finn, he's on the ground.

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I would. With a counsel property. It seems kind of

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wrong for the government or for the councils to sell

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them because it doesn't take into consideration future people that

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are going to need council properties. And you know, in

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my mind, they shouldn't have ever really been sold off

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because council properties were for everyone. They weren't. Now they

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seemed to be aimed at people like me, but they

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used to be aimed at people that worked. It was

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for people like my granddad, and my dad had families

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and they had a council house and social housing, and

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it was just that's how it was. And in the

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eighties or whatever, and they kind of started selling them

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properties off, but they didn't build new places to replace

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the council houses and the council flats that we're gone.

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I'm not getting into politics, it's just I don't It

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just seems seems kind of wrong to buy it because

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that's one person less that won't be able to live here,

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but then it'd be seen it seemed kind of wrong

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to stay here, which I would be allowed. I don't

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have to. There's no law to say that someone with

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money isn't allowed to have a council flat as long

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as you pay the rent, you know so, but that

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seems kind of wrong as well. If I had, you know,

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a substantial amount of money to still be living in

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a council property social housing, I don't know. I definitely

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wouldn't move out straight away. I left to see how

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long the money lasted, you know. So I think from

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a strategic so I've got to be strategic, but at

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the same time realistic because I'm not in the thirties,

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am I. You know, it's okay. I could put my money,

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put half of it or three caupters of it into

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some kind of bank account that's going to give me

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high interest, but it might have to stay in there

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for ten years or something silly like that. I'll be

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sixty five when I can get that money out. You know.

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There's no guarantees, is there. So I don't know if

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I would want to necessarily do that. I think Hillary

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you was more interested in what silly things I would do,

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aren't you? I think possibly what silly things would I do?

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I would definitely not have the heating on in the summer.

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It's nearly June. Why is the heating come on? Mind you?

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It has been cold, it's been cold at night, and

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then it's just the temperatures changes. If anyone that's never

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been to this country, we have seasons, but we have

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multiple seasons in one day sometimes and it might sound silly,

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but asking anyone that lives here and they will tell

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you the same thing. You know, it can feel like winter, summer,

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autumn all in one days like changes. The day can

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start off frosty and ice on the cars, and then

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by one o'clock in the afternoon it could be steaming

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sun and people are walking around and there's shorts and

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little nipple tassels and stuff. And then in the evening

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it can be kind of like really windy and blowing

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winds off Autumn not fall autumn. I don't know where

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it comes from, which came first autumn or fall. I

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wonder whether four is just invented in order to make

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that rhyme rhyme, you know, for people to remember what's

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what for when the clocks go forward. Do you know

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that what I'm talking about? No spring back, no fall back,

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fall back, spring forward. So you put the clocks forward

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in spring and the clock's going out back in fall.

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But it makes no sense in this country because we

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don't use the term fall. We use autumn. My friend

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used to love and when I say how many days

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in this year? How many days in this month? Bearing

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in mind it's the thirtieth today, So is all I'm

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asking is this the last day of the month or

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is it one more day? You know what? He wouldn't

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just say, oh there's one more day. No, No April,

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May and June, November forty days, thirty days in September,

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whatever that that stupid rhyme is? I said, so how

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many days in this month? I just told you again

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you're fit to be moved year in November. I'm not

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listening to you. Could you tell me what the how

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many days are? And in the end, I just have

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to go on my phone and look, it's like I

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wasn't at school on that day. It's not in my head.

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I'm sorry. It's like when do you get someone that

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you're talking to like? And he said, oh, what's what's

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the name. I forget the name, and they said it's Ian.

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The person's name is Ian. I don't want you telling

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me that. You're telling me like I'm supposed to remember.

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If I didn't know by now, why am I going

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to remember? Because you said it like, I don't care

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what the name is. I don't know what the name is.

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When I say I don't know, I'm not asking what

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it is. I don't know, and I still don't know.

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But I've told you it's Ian. I still don't know.

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I mean, I know now, but I won't know after

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this conversation's gone. Actually, after that conversation, I probably did

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remember it because I just said Ian because it was

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annoying conversation. M. Yeah, there's some method in that one,

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isn't there. I supposed this that makes sense. So if

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I won the lottery plastic surgery, probably I don't know.

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I definitely I wouldn't. Ah. I think I try and

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get myself a bit fitter and maybe get some professional

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help with that. I get some professional therapy as well,

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because you know, I'm not sure. I'm not sure how

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how I would deal with being wealthy, but ultimately I

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want to continue doing this. So this is the only

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thing that has any meaning to me, which is weird

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because some would argue this is a completely meaningless thing

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that I do. But for me, it's the only thing

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that gets me out of bed and gives me any

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kind of enthusiasm or interest, you know, like continuously. You

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know this, when boxing's on is a big fight, I'm

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interested in that. And when there's a chocolate bar in

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front of me about to go in my mouth, I'm

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interested in that, you know. But I mean, like continuous

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since two thousand and six, making videos, making recordings, and

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going all the way back to nineteen ninety seven or

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ninety eight when I first got involved in this whole thing.

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So I don't know, it's there's so many different things.

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I'd like to help as many people as I can ultimately,

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and that might involve getting some professionals involved with this

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thing that I do, getting a proper quality set up,

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you know, recording studio, TV studio, whatever to make the videos,

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make the audio, have professionals doing the editing and all

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that stuff, and maybe reach a larger audience and perhaps

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help more people be bored. Maybe. Yeah, I mean, I

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quite like the idea of when I right at the

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beginning when I said get a party, have a party,

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get everyone together, get everyone that I've known, and this

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includes people that I'm not even friends with anymore. So

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I've got a friend in Nottingham who doesn't like me anymore,

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but I do appreciate the friendship we had, you know,

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twenty thirty years ago, so and he did help me

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out back then, so I would give him money. I

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would probably even try and contact a couple of ex

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girlfriends and give them money. I think anyone that's anyone

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that's been a girlfriend with one of my girlfriends deserves

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deserves a bit of my lottery. Wind to be fair,

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have putting up with me for that time. My two

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goddaughters who I don't really see anymore, not official god daughters,

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but because I'm a Buddhist, so the mother wouldn't do it,

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she wouldn't go, she wouldn't allow me to officially be

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a godfather. But I was kind of in that same

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way I was for a while, So I would give

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them some money, help them out, and try and find

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people from the past and also help them out. So

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even like my best friend from school that I haven't

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seen since I was eighteen nineteen, give him money. In fact,

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there's a few that I would give money to even

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if it was I don't have to see them. I

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just send them money. I get some kind of an

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accountancy to go and give them the cash and get

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them to sign for it and stuff and film it.

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I don't necessarily want to be there when it's done.

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And I would also get a private investigator, pay a

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private investigator, like a top top top one to just

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do some research and look into my family history on

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my mother's side and start to see I've got any

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we've ever got any brothers or sisters or anything like that,

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any family that's surround you know, because that's half of

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my gene pool, isn't it? So be Yeah, that'd be interesting.

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I'd like to also get that person to find any

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social social services information about me when I was in care.

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I'd like to see those notes. I'd like to see

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their records if they kept them. These are the seventies,

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so I don't know if they'd still have them now.

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But I did get an freedom of information thing with

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my because i'd seen a psychiatrist back in two thousand

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00:38:19.440 --> 00:38:33.400
and thirteen, twenty thirteen, and twenty fourteen, stuff like that,

471
00:38:36.159 --> 00:38:39.199
and the I'd had a lot of problems with the colors.

472
00:38:39.320 --> 00:38:44.679
So psychiatrists are very rude to me, very dismissive, and

473
00:38:45.159 --> 00:38:49.480
almost one even like was looked in disgust that something

474
00:38:49.519 --> 00:38:54.760
I'd said was like, yeah, so I thought I would

475
00:38:55.360 --> 00:39:00.800
ask for all the notes that are being written about me,

476
00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:08.360
and it was quite an eye opening stuff as also

477
00:39:09.159 --> 00:39:13.519
it was rude some of the stuff that they wrote down.

478
00:39:16.079 --> 00:39:18.119
So I'm wondering if I could quite try and do

479
00:39:18.239 --> 00:39:23.440
that with notes from a long time ago. So I'd

480
00:39:23.440 --> 00:39:27.000
need professional help with that. A lot of people say

481
00:39:27.039 --> 00:39:32.400
that I need professional help. So that's that I could

482
00:39:32.400 --> 00:39:34.159
go on and no, no, on, no, because there's lots

483
00:39:34.199 --> 00:39:37.719
of different things that I would like to do, but

484
00:39:38.320 --> 00:39:43.079
I still like to continue what I'm doing, really, but

485
00:39:43.320 --> 00:39:48.519
just have a nice life, do some nice things, you know,

486
00:39:49.159 --> 00:40:02.000
have some nice clothes and I don't know, hair transplant

487
00:40:02.000 --> 00:40:08.960
maybe I don't know, something like that. Michelle asks when

488
00:40:09.000 --> 00:40:13.440
you aren't recording, do you have conversations with Vinnie or

489
00:40:13.599 --> 00:40:16.440
just quiet? Yeah. I talked to him all the time,

490
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:24.519
and it's quieter than when I am doing a recording.

491
00:40:25.719 --> 00:40:28.800
I mean, that's true, it's there's not a lot of

492
00:40:32.199 --> 00:40:34.880
he does sleep quite a lot, but we do chat.

493
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:37.760
I do talk to him as if he can understand.

494
00:40:38.719 --> 00:40:41.360
I don't know. I mean, he's asleep now right to

495
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:44.039
the left of me. It's fast asleep on the floor,

496
00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:46.880
which is weird that he chooses to sleep right next

497
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:49.920
to me because there's this comfy sofa over there, and

498
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:52.519
if you see on the just down there, there's a

499
00:40:52.639 --> 00:40:57.639
yellow it was originally the throw for the settee so

500
00:40:57.719 --> 00:40:59.760
that he could sit on that while I did a video.

501
00:41:00.639 --> 00:41:04.400
But it's really comfortable. It's on the floor. I can't

502
00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:09.400
believe how red I look. I can't even see my face.

503
00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:14.320
The light is no I can see my face, but

504
00:41:14.360 --> 00:41:21.480
it just looks one big like a tomato. Yeah, I

505
00:41:21.519 --> 00:41:25.239
do you talk to him? I quite like it. When

506
00:41:25.239 --> 00:41:30.000
he turns his head like that, you know, That's that's

507
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:33.000
when I know I've got his full attention. And another

508
00:41:33.000 --> 00:41:36.320
thing he does do is when I'm watching TV, he

509
00:41:36.400 --> 00:41:38.559
will sit up on his barm and look at me

510
00:41:38.639 --> 00:41:42.400
because he wants something, whether he wants a t R

511
00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:46.199
E E E E T or a W A n

512
00:41:46.880 --> 00:41:52.960
W A l K. But what he does is he

513
00:41:53.039 --> 00:41:56.519
stands that he sits there stares at me, and I

514
00:41:56.599 --> 00:41:59.559
kind of try and move my feet or my my

515
00:41:59.559 --> 00:42:04.039
male my leg, elbow, my knee up to it blocks

516
00:42:04.119 --> 00:42:06.039
him and he walked around the other way to stare

517
00:42:06.079 --> 00:42:11.079
at me. Doesn't make a sound, He just stares at me.

518
00:42:11.400 --> 00:42:14.400
And he can do it for hours. Seriously, he doesn't

519
00:42:14.440 --> 00:42:24.880
give up, just dares. It's very weird. That's when I

520
00:42:24.920 --> 00:42:26.920
sort of say, what was it you want? What is

521
00:42:26.920 --> 00:42:30.199
it you want, darling? What is it you want? And

522
00:42:30.239 --> 00:42:35.360
I go through different things and he's like noding his

523
00:42:35.440 --> 00:42:40.800
head from his side to side, like one ear flapping.

524
00:42:43.199 --> 00:42:47.239
So yeah, I do talk to him. I don't know

525
00:42:47.280 --> 00:42:49.519
if he I don't know if he likes me talking

526
00:42:49.559 --> 00:42:54.840
to him, I don't know. But he doesn't like me

527
00:42:54.920 --> 00:42:57.639
leaving him. Doesn't like me leaving him on his own,

528
00:42:58.320 --> 00:43:03.039
that's for sure. The other day, I think it was yesterday,

529
00:43:03.079 --> 00:43:06.280
I had an Amazon package and all I did was

530
00:43:06.440 --> 00:43:08.880
go to the front door. So I closed the living

531
00:43:08.960 --> 00:43:13.639
room door, went to the front door, opened the front door,

532
00:43:14.559 --> 00:43:19.000
got the package, brought it in. It was just some toothpaste,

533
00:43:19.119 --> 00:43:25.320
some some deodorant, I can't remember what I He had

534
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:28.079
some dog food as well, so I put that just

535
00:43:28.159 --> 00:43:31.280
two boxes. I put them on the floor, closed the

536
00:43:31.280 --> 00:43:36.039
front door, locked it, and went into the bathroom. He's

537
00:43:36.079 --> 00:43:37.719
and I need to go to a toilet and he

538
00:43:37.800 --> 00:43:47.559
starts like that, Vinny, I'm here, Vinny, I'm actually here.

539
00:43:47.599 --> 00:43:53.960
I'm in the bathroom. It's like it's like almost like

540
00:43:54.039 --> 00:43:57.480
his ears had switched off and he just decided that

541
00:43:57.519 --> 00:44:03.679
i'd left him, which I hadn't. Sometimes right, and this

542
00:44:03.800 --> 00:44:08.320
is really it's a bit silly. Really, Well, I've got

543
00:44:08.320 --> 00:44:17.320
to take the rubbish downstairs, He'll start. And what I

544
00:44:17.400 --> 00:44:20.679
do is I talk to him all the way while

545
00:44:20.679 --> 00:44:25.920
I'm going downstairs. Vinie, I'm still here, and he's quiet listening. Vinnie,

546
00:44:25.920 --> 00:44:29.039
I'm still here. It's like I shouldn't have to do that.

547
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:31.719
He is he's a baby. I guess he's still a

548
00:44:31.760 --> 00:44:34.599
little baby, still a little he's all he'll always be

549
00:44:34.639 --> 00:44:39.760
a baby when he always be my baby? Uh, Carina,

550
00:44:41.239 --> 00:44:44.719
have you ever been to Ireland? And if so, did

551
00:44:44.760 --> 00:44:47.599
you like it? Yes? And no?

552
00:44:48.039 --> 00:44:48.119
No?

553
00:44:48.320 --> 00:44:54.320
Yeah? I have been to Ireland twice and I am

554
00:44:54.360 --> 00:44:57.079
forty eight percent Irish. You know, I am forty percent

555
00:44:57.119 --> 00:45:04.320
Irish officially, and I had my DNA test done. We

556
00:45:04.440 --> 00:45:13.800
may be related. I went to Ireland basically I went

557
00:45:13.840 --> 00:45:15.719
to live but it didn't really work out, so I

558
00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:19.360
came back after about five weeks. But I moved to

559
00:45:19.400 --> 00:45:26.400
Ireland in probably September nineteen eighty no nineteen ninety four,

560
00:45:27.239 --> 00:45:34.440
a long time ago. And what happened is my best

561
00:45:34.440 --> 00:45:38.920
friend Andrea, who Andrea was named after. My little ferry

562
00:45:39.039 --> 00:45:44.360
was named after him. He was Irish, lived in Carlo,

563
00:45:44.639 --> 00:45:52.440
County Carlo, that's where his family came from. Now. His

564
00:45:52.960 --> 00:45:59.360
sister was living with another friend of mine, and Andrea

565
00:45:59.440 --> 00:46:05.599
was living with to Then this someone came onto the

566
00:46:05.639 --> 00:46:11.679
scene and really kind of shook things up and Andre

567
00:46:11.840 --> 00:46:15.920
ended up getting sacked for something that he was kind

568
00:46:15.920 --> 00:46:17.519
of egged on to do. It was like a bit

569
00:46:17.599 --> 00:46:21.519
it's a silly situation. It was a health and safety issue,

570
00:46:21.559 --> 00:46:24.639
so they kind of probably had no choice. But he

571
00:46:24.719 --> 00:46:29.280
went downhill from there and he moved in with this

572
00:46:29.400 --> 00:46:33.320
bloke that we lived, that we worked with, and he

573
00:46:33.360 --> 00:46:35.280
was just drinking all time and it was just he

574
00:46:35.400 --> 00:46:39.400
kind of went off the rails. His mum came to visit,

575
00:46:40.199 --> 00:46:44.599
stayed with his sister and when she saw him, her

576
00:46:44.599 --> 00:46:47.079
little boy, I mean he was twenty four at the time,

577
00:46:47.400 --> 00:46:50.880
but when she saw what a messy was she said,

578
00:46:50.920 --> 00:46:56.440
you're coming home with me, like no choice. She said,

579
00:46:56.840 --> 00:46:59.159
that's it, You're coming home. You're not living like this,

580
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:03.119
because he was. He was sleeping in a set, yeah,

581
00:47:03.239 --> 00:47:10.199
in this was it? So for bed downstairs? And yeah,

582
00:47:10.480 --> 00:47:12.239
she said, you're not living like this or you're doing

583
00:47:12.280 --> 00:47:18.559
is drinking And so they were here for about two weeks.

584
00:47:19.840 --> 00:47:22.039
I mean, she didn't she wasn't holding his ear or anything,

585
00:47:22.119 --> 00:47:25.760
but came on you. But he just did what she said,

586
00:47:27.880 --> 00:47:34.239
and he didn't want to leave me really, however sad

587
00:47:34.320 --> 00:47:38.360
or weird that might sound, but she his mum invited

588
00:47:38.400 --> 00:47:45.239
me to go and stay there in Ireland. I didn't

589
00:47:45.280 --> 00:47:54.440
go at the same time as them because I don't

590
00:47:54.480 --> 00:47:58.800
know why. I can't remember exactly why, but I think

591
00:47:58.840 --> 00:48:03.239
I needed to sort a few things out first. I

592
00:48:03.320 --> 00:48:10.400
was in a relationship as well. Yeah, I think I

593
00:48:10.440 --> 00:48:12.840
went to tell her. Yeah, I think I had to

594
00:48:12.840 --> 00:48:14.760
go and tell her that I was moving to Ireland.

595
00:48:16.320 --> 00:48:17.800
I was going to keep the relation. I did keep

596
00:48:17.840 --> 00:48:22.760
the relationship going, but there was absolutely no contact between us,

597
00:48:23.320 --> 00:48:31.280
so it wasn't really a relationship, I suppose, and it

598
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:33.960
kind of sizzled out to nothing anyway, because we weren't

599
00:48:33.960 --> 00:48:37.039
anywhere near each other, so that but that she did

600
00:48:37.079 --> 00:48:38.559
call me while I was in Ireland to tell me

601
00:48:38.599 --> 00:48:42.840
she'd met someone else, and you know, I was kind

602
00:48:42.840 --> 00:48:46.480
of like, who is this? Who is this? She said,

603
00:48:46.599 --> 00:48:49.760
I mean your girlfriend? Like, oh, yeah, I forgot we

604
00:48:49.760 --> 00:48:53.280
were dating, So it wasn't really a big deal. When

605
00:48:53.320 --> 00:48:55.719
I did move back, I visited and met him and

606
00:48:55.800 --> 00:48:58.480
he was cool. Got on really well with him.

607
00:48:59.440 --> 00:48:59.880
I just did.

608
00:49:00.119 --> 00:49:02.079
It was it was one of those things that it

609
00:49:02.199 --> 00:49:08.320
had run its course, I guess, but I went. So

610
00:49:08.360 --> 00:49:12.239
I went to Ireland. I got the ferry there, got

611
00:49:12.239 --> 00:49:14.320
a lift back in a van, in the back of

612
00:49:14.360 --> 00:49:18.760
a van, but it was it was one of those

613
00:49:18.840 --> 00:49:21.880
vans with no windows in the back, so I didn't

614
00:49:21.920 --> 00:49:25.280
see anything. I didn't know where I was going. I

615
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:33.400
don't know why they blindfolded me. And to start with,

616
00:49:33.519 --> 00:49:36.360
we was in Carlo, but we weren't at his parents.

617
00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:42.280
We was his other sisters and her husband. So we

618
00:49:42.360 --> 00:49:49.079
both stayed there for that night. Then we went and

619
00:49:49.960 --> 00:49:54.079
I went to his mum's house or she might come

620
00:49:54.119 --> 00:49:57.079
and picked us up. So I met his dad and

621
00:49:57.119 --> 00:50:00.760
his mum for the first time, though his mum might

622
00:50:00.760 --> 00:50:04.840
have been there. No I don't can't remember. I can't remember,

623
00:50:05.480 --> 00:50:07.519
but I think I met his dad for the first time.

624
00:50:07.920 --> 00:50:12.280
His dad. It was weird because his dad was very,

625
00:50:14.000 --> 00:50:17.800
very tough man. That they were kind of the tough

626
00:50:17.960 --> 00:50:22.880
family of the town, the Doolies at the time. And

627
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:29.559
the weird thing about it is his dad's I think

628
00:50:29.599 --> 00:50:33.360
his dad found out I thought I was quite funny,

629
00:50:33.440 --> 00:50:36.920
and also because I wasn't intimidated by him. I'm just

630
00:50:36.920 --> 00:50:41.960
a huge strong man and I probably weighed about what

631
00:50:42.719 --> 00:50:45.119
nine and a half stone probably at the time, maybe

632
00:50:45.159 --> 00:50:50.880
ten stone if that. It was a huge, honestly big

633
00:50:51.079 --> 00:50:56.400
strong man and tough guy in that and he used

634
00:50:56.440 --> 00:51:00.239
to say things to me, probably expected me to, I

635
00:51:00.280 --> 00:51:03.679
don't know, maybe be intimidated or whatever, and I just

636
00:51:03.800 --> 00:51:06.920
laughed at him. And because he I think he just

637
00:51:07.039 --> 00:51:10.440
found that funny that I didn't care. I wasn't bothered,

638
00:51:10.480 --> 00:51:15.800
you know, and which I wasn't. Just I don't really

639
00:51:15.800 --> 00:51:21.960
get intimidated generally. Perhaps I should, but I got on

640
00:51:22.159 --> 00:51:27.840
quite well with him. We even went to the dogs

641
00:51:27.880 --> 00:51:31.280
because he was he used to train greyhounds and we

642
00:51:31.320 --> 00:51:33.679
went to the dogs together. It took me. It was

643
00:51:33.719 --> 00:51:36.079
a nice I've never been to anything like that before,

644
00:51:36.119 --> 00:51:39.960
and bearing in mind, I couldn't understand like only every

645
00:51:40.440 --> 00:51:45.119
fourth word he said because he was speaking so fast.

646
00:51:45.159 --> 00:51:47.159
But I still managed to do it. I still managed

647
00:51:47.239 --> 00:51:55.239
to I don't know adapt my ears. I guess so

648
00:51:55.440 --> 00:51:58.280
we Yeah, we got on all right. I mean he

649
00:51:58.360 --> 00:52:02.199
might have just been verbally abused me the whole time.

650
00:52:02.239 --> 00:52:06.079
I just didn't realize it because I couldn't understand what

651
00:52:06.119 --> 00:52:08.800
he was saying. So is me just laughing and he's

652
00:52:08.840 --> 00:52:15.400
thinking here crazy? What? Hell? Yeah, he's not scared of me. Why.

653
00:52:15.679 --> 00:52:20.800
I don't know. But his mom was nice. He's dead.

654
00:52:20.920 --> 00:52:23.760
I've got on all his he was dead, He's dire,

655
00:52:24.760 --> 00:52:31.400
and it's weird. I remember that house because it was

656
00:52:33.159 --> 00:52:37.199
Was it a bungalow? I think it was a bungalow.

657
00:52:37.320 --> 00:52:44.000
Either it was a bungalow or it wasn't. I only

658
00:52:44.039 --> 00:52:49.639
remember three rooms in the house. I don't remember the bathroom.

659
00:52:52.719 --> 00:52:54.559
I was there for five weeks. I must have gone

660
00:52:54.559 --> 00:52:58.880
to the toilet at some point. But I remember my

661
00:52:59.079 --> 00:53:04.920
room and it was you know by I just picked

662
00:53:04.920 --> 00:53:07.440
my ear at the end of night in camera. I

663
00:53:07.440 --> 00:53:09.360
wonder what else I've done of I've picked my nose

664
00:53:09.400 --> 00:53:21.880
probably as well. Sorry, how well. And I I remember

665
00:53:21.920 --> 00:53:27.480
it was cold. I mean it was September, but September

666
00:53:27.519 --> 00:53:33.000
is not normally cold really, but over there it was

667
00:53:33.079 --> 00:53:41.639
cold and lots of blankets, but very quiet. Where they

668
00:53:41.679 --> 00:53:45.760
lived is literally in the countryside. I mean I live

669
00:53:45.800 --> 00:53:50.519
in the countryside now, but they lived in the countryside.

670
00:53:50.559 --> 00:53:53.599
I mean it's like as countryside as you can get

671
00:53:54.599 --> 00:54:05.119
across the road country just trees, trees everywhere, so you

672
00:54:05.159 --> 00:54:08.280
could hear frogs farting, you know. It was that kind

673
00:54:08.360 --> 00:54:13.599
of thing and so quiet, and having lived in London

674
00:54:15.039 --> 00:54:18.760
for quite a long time at that point, it was

675
00:54:18.800 --> 00:54:22.800
the first time really that I'd ever been that I'd

676
00:54:22.880 --> 00:54:29.599
ever had a quiet night, a bit like now. It's

677
00:54:29.639 --> 00:54:33.840
not normally this quiet, but it's quiet today for some reason,

678
00:54:35.119 --> 00:54:39.960
and I'm making the best off that opportunity to do

679
00:54:40.039 --> 00:54:47.320
a recording. I remember the kitchen because quite a big kitchen,

680
00:54:47.360 --> 00:54:51.519
and there was a table, and they would eat the

681
00:54:51.800 --> 00:54:57.159
breakfast I think it was a cook breakfast. Then they'd

682
00:54:57.199 --> 00:55:00.320
have lunch, then they'd have dinner by evening meal, then

683
00:55:00.320 --> 00:55:04.119
they'd have supper. I think the lunchtime I'd get my

684
00:55:04.119 --> 00:55:05.679
own stuff because I'd be gone, i'd be out of

685
00:55:05.679 --> 00:55:08.920
the house, but there'd be supper before going to bed,

686
00:55:09.119 --> 00:55:12.119
like an hour or so before going to bed. I

687
00:55:12.280 --> 00:55:15.039
never done that before. I might have a packet of

688
00:55:15.039 --> 00:55:19.599
crisps or some biscuits, but I'd never have food and

689
00:55:20.079 --> 00:55:21.760
I'd probably put on a little bit of weight when

690
00:55:21.760 --> 00:55:27.400
I was out there. And then I remember the living

691
00:55:27.480 --> 00:55:34.639
room because they had a nice, nice living room. They

692
00:55:34.679 --> 00:55:37.719
had a TV, they had sky a sky you know,

693
00:55:38.320 --> 00:55:46.159
satellite stuff, and me and Andre would sit and watch Simpsons,

694
00:55:46.280 --> 00:55:51.920
would also watch Star Trek the Next Generation, and at

695
00:55:51.920 --> 00:55:58.840
some points would also watch Wonder Woman with the volume down,

696
00:55:58.960 --> 00:56:05.760
but you know, we would watch it. And I remember

697
00:56:05.800 --> 00:56:10.800
when I when I first got there, and I think Andre,

698
00:56:11.360 --> 00:56:14.480
I think she his mum, said something like, what do

699
00:56:14.559 --> 00:56:18.159
you what do you like to do? And Andre said

700
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:20.679
he likes to read. And she said, you're one of

701
00:56:20.760 --> 00:56:26.639
them readers? Are you the one of them readers? And

702
00:56:26.719 --> 00:56:29.519
I said, yeah, yeah, I do. I do you know,

703
00:56:29.719 --> 00:56:33.440
I mean at that point I had no books anymore,

704
00:56:33.679 --> 00:56:37.679
but previously that I'd had a large book collection. I've

705
00:56:37.679 --> 00:56:41.440
had lots of large book collections over the years. If

706
00:56:41.480 --> 00:56:44.440
I had all my books now right from a kid

707
00:56:44.599 --> 00:56:47.840
right till now, that I've ever bought. I probably have

708
00:56:51.599 --> 00:56:57.559
about five thousand books. I'd say probably maybe not that many,

709
00:56:57.639 --> 00:57:03.960
but a good few thousands. It would fill this room

710
00:57:04.239 --> 00:57:06.519
and the room next to me, and the hallway, but

711
00:57:06.920 --> 00:57:10.360
fill the entire flat with books. There's a lot of books.

712
00:57:12.519 --> 00:57:17.960
He's moved then he's moved over in front of me,

713
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:24.199
to the left, so I can see him. Seems to

714
00:57:24.199 --> 00:57:26.400
be hid me before, but now I can see him,

715
00:57:27.039 --> 00:57:31.599
and he's listening. He's got his eyes open and he's

716
00:57:31.639 --> 00:57:36.480
listening to me. Aren't you you're listening to me? I

717
00:57:36.480 --> 00:57:43.840
know you're listening. He's even moving his head like pretending

718
00:57:43.920 --> 00:57:47.039
not to listen, pretending to be asleep. But I can

719
00:57:47.079 --> 00:57:53.039
see he's got his eyes open. I know what he wants.

720
00:57:54.039 --> 00:57:59.079
But I'll get something through him when I finish this. Yes,

721
00:57:59.360 --> 00:58:03.079
I lived there for Oh yeah. His mum said, oh

722
00:58:03.159 --> 00:58:06.239
you like you like books? And do yea? I said,

723
00:58:06.719 --> 00:58:10.400
you're one of them there, book readers. I said, okay, yeah,

724
00:58:10.599 --> 00:58:12.960
said well I've got I've got books if you want

725
00:58:12.960 --> 00:58:16.119
to read anything, and they had a bookcase full of books.

726
00:58:16.119 --> 00:58:19.599
I said, it's not really how it works. She said,

727
00:58:19.599 --> 00:58:21.760
what do you mean? I said, well, I don't just

728
00:58:21.800 --> 00:58:24.760
read anything. And I read books I'm interested in. I

729
00:58:24.880 --> 00:58:29.800
just read anything for the sake of it. The thing is,

730
00:58:30.880 --> 00:58:33.039
they had a really good book collection, and it's full

731
00:58:33.039 --> 00:58:39.360
of stories and really good stories like shirwlock Homes and

732
00:58:39.400 --> 00:58:44.519
stuff like and just like really good. It's like these

733
00:58:44.559 --> 00:58:47.400
were good books. So I felt a bit of a

734
00:58:47.440 --> 00:58:53.960
bit of a nob Having said that, but we started

735
00:58:54.000 --> 00:58:57.159
looking for me and Andre started looking somewhere to live,

736
00:58:59.760 --> 00:59:07.960
and a couple of things happened. I a couple of

737
00:59:07.960 --> 00:59:09.920
things that kind of put me off being there, to

738
00:59:09.960 --> 00:59:17.119
be honest. One thing was whenever I went out, I

739
00:59:17.159 --> 00:59:21.800
seemed to get blokes try and kind of start trouble

740
00:59:21.840 --> 00:59:23.280
with me because I was from England.

741
00:59:24.719 --> 00:59:24.920
You know.

742
00:59:25.000 --> 00:59:26.920
I remember I was at the cubicle and there's two

743
00:59:27.000 --> 00:59:29.920
lads either side of me saying, oh, here are You're

744
00:59:29.920 --> 00:59:32.559
from England? But first of all, how do you know?

745
00:59:34.000 --> 00:59:37.960
And I said, yeah, oh, England's crap. I said, yeah,

746
00:59:37.960 --> 00:59:39.320
I know. That's why I moved out of there. That's

747
00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:41.679
what I moved away. They didn't know what to say

748
00:59:41.719 --> 00:59:45.800
because I agreed with them, but I just, I don't know,

749
00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:50.800
didn't really sit very well with me. And there was

750
00:59:50.840 --> 00:59:57.199
one time when there was there was literally a street

751
00:59:57.280 --> 01:00:04.639
fight with everybody fighting over nothing, and I'm just standing

752
01:00:04.679 --> 01:00:07.079
there looking and no one's touching me, no one's coming

753
01:00:07.119 --> 01:00:12.159
near me. They're just it's so weird. Everyone's so nice

754
01:00:12.360 --> 01:00:17.239
during the day in that town, Soul, Soul, like so

755
01:00:17.360 --> 01:00:21.440
what so like that's just our way saying hello, okay, okay,

756
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:27.519
so so everyone nice and then they go this this

757
01:00:27.599 --> 01:00:29.559
is what it was. It seemed like at the time.

758
01:00:29.599 --> 01:00:32.199
I'm not it's not everywhere it's the same, and it's

759
01:00:32.199 --> 01:00:35.280
maybe not the same now. But then they go out

760
01:00:35.320 --> 01:00:39.559
on a Saturday night and kind of air their grievances,

761
01:00:39.760 --> 01:00:43.079
kind of you know, sought it out. It seemed to

762
01:00:43.119 --> 01:00:45.519
be that's what happened, and it's seemed to be quite

763
01:00:45.559 --> 01:00:51.519
a regular thing in that place at that time. And

764
01:00:51.559 --> 01:00:56.360
then the next day everyone was fine again, Soul, but

765
01:00:56.480 --> 01:00:58.639
few of them we have black eyes and stuff, saying

766
01:00:58.679 --> 01:01:02.079
so to each other. So I don't know, it was.

767
01:01:02.159 --> 01:01:06.320
I found that a bit strange. It's not what I

768
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:08.159
was used to, not what i'd sort of really I

769
01:01:09.280 --> 01:01:15.400
I'd not experienced that before. And another thing is I

770
01:01:15.519 --> 01:01:23.039
kind of fell for Andre's cousin, not Jason, but Michelle.

771
01:01:23.119 --> 01:01:30.119
Was it Michelle Oh my goodness, blimey. I don't know.

772
01:01:30.639 --> 01:01:33.159
I know he had a cousin called Jason, because he

773
01:01:33.320 --> 01:01:36.760
was the size of a house. He was only young.

774
01:01:36.800 --> 01:01:39.840
I think he was like nineteen, and well I was

775
01:01:39.880 --> 01:01:44.679
young as well when I and he maybe was seventeen eighteen.

776
01:01:45.719 --> 01:01:49.159
So I'm in his coffee shop in town, and I

777
01:01:49.159 --> 01:01:54.079
mean literally the sun went out. The sun wasn't because

778
01:01:54.079 --> 01:01:56.760
the sun was shining in through the doorway, and I

779
01:01:56.800 --> 01:01:58.760
looked back and he was there, and he took up

780
01:01:58.800 --> 01:02:03.119
the entire doorway. He was that big, and he was tall,

781
01:02:03.280 --> 01:02:08.440
and I mean he was just huge man. Slim as well,

782
01:02:08.480 --> 01:02:15.960
but just big, you know. And his sister kind of

783
01:02:15.960 --> 01:02:17.559
got to know because we hung around with him a

784
01:02:17.559 --> 01:02:20.039
little bit, and he had a couple of other cousins

785
01:02:20.039 --> 01:02:26.079
as well that we would hang around with, and because

786
01:02:26.079 --> 01:02:28.119
he grew up with them all and then he went

787
01:02:28.159 --> 01:02:33.400
to England and didn't see them for a while. I

788
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:38.039
liked his sister, his cousin, my friend's cousin. I liked

789
01:02:38.039 --> 01:02:41.679
his cousin, and we kind of used to spend some

790
01:02:41.719 --> 01:02:44.800
time together when we were out drinking it. She'd be

791
01:02:44.880 --> 01:02:47.639
talking to me, sitting next to me and stuff. But

792
01:02:47.679 --> 01:02:49.880
I never had the courage to kind of ask her out.

793
01:02:51.199 --> 01:02:53.400
I didn't know she would or not, and I don't

794
01:02:53.400 --> 01:02:59.639
know anyway, I that I think that same night as

795
01:02:59.679 --> 01:03:02.440
the big thing that happened, the big punch up whatever,

796
01:03:03.280 --> 01:03:06.760
I saw her in the street kissing some bloke and

797
01:03:08.280 --> 01:03:11.159
that was kind of my That was it, I thought,

798
01:03:11.159 --> 01:03:15.559
Now I'm getting out of here, just just yeah. I

799
01:03:15.559 --> 01:03:17.800
don't know, it was my. It was my tipping point

800
01:03:17.880 --> 01:03:20.840
for leaving. A couple of things happened previous to that.

801
01:03:21.599 --> 01:03:24.079
I was looking for a job. First of all, I

802
01:03:24.159 --> 01:03:28.440
heard I overheard his mum talking on the phone to

803
01:03:28.559 --> 01:03:32.800
his sister, the one in England. This is this is

804
01:03:32.800 --> 01:03:35.679
pretty much what I heard her say. He seems to

805
01:03:35.719 --> 01:03:39.519
think he can live here forever. In a different accent.

806
01:03:40.960 --> 01:03:43.760
He seems to think he can live here forever. Now

807
01:03:43.800 --> 01:03:45.400
I know he wasn't talking about it. She wasn't talking

808
01:03:45.400 --> 01:03:48.280
about Andre, because she'd have had Andre living there forever.

809
01:03:49.199 --> 01:03:53.719
She definitely would learn a little boy. So she wasn't

810
01:03:53.719 --> 01:03:56.679
talking about her husband either, And it wasn't about any

811
01:03:56.679 --> 01:03:58.559
of the Greyhounds. So I'm pretty sure it was me.

812
01:03:59.199 --> 01:04:01.840
Could have been about the g the chance, but probably

813
01:04:01.880 --> 01:04:08.440
about me and there's an old sayings and don't don't

814
01:04:08.440 --> 01:04:11.440
ever eavesdrop because you never hear anything nice about yourself.

815
01:04:12.280 --> 01:04:14.960
So yeah, maybe that was there some truth in that

816
01:04:15.039 --> 01:04:20.840
one on that occasion. So that happened as well, just

817
01:04:21.000 --> 01:04:25.320
prior to me, you know, seeing my friend's cousin kissing,

818
01:04:25.800 --> 01:04:28.639
and I think a couple of days before that, i'd

819
01:04:28.639 --> 01:04:31.360
gone to look to get a job, and because I'd

820
01:04:31.400 --> 01:04:37.079
worked in a meat storage place, his mum said, oh,

821
01:04:37.199 --> 01:04:39.480
try this place, so I went along, got an interview.

822
01:04:40.400 --> 01:04:48.920
It was an abatoir. I'm that that's not a suitable

823
01:04:49.000 --> 01:04:57.599
job for me. Just no, And you know, it took

824
01:04:57.639 --> 01:05:00.320
me around and what I need to do and I

825
01:05:00.320 --> 01:05:04.119
don't know, I said, I was putting labels on boxes.

826
01:05:05.199 --> 01:05:08.239
That's what I did, boxes of frozen meat. I wasn't

827
01:05:08.559 --> 01:05:17.960
just I couldn't. That wasn't you know. I know people

828
01:05:18.000 --> 01:05:22.519
do it, and it just I just wasn't. No, was't

829
01:05:22.559 --> 01:05:29.639
not my thing. So it's getting a little bit harder,

830
01:05:29.719 --> 01:05:32.440
Like what, it's not a lot of opportunities. The other

831
01:05:32.519 --> 01:05:38.719
place was dry cleaners, big dry cleaners, and that didn't

832
01:05:38.760 --> 01:05:43.679
seem I just saw this bird. It's like it looks

833
01:05:43.719 --> 01:05:47.840
like a Peregrine, Falcon or something, and to this dry

834
01:05:47.880 --> 01:05:50.800
Cleaners was not ideal either. It didn't seem to be

835
01:05:50.840 --> 01:05:56.320
anything that was really suitable for me at the time.

836
01:05:58.719 --> 01:06:05.159
And then I went and had a look at a

837
01:06:05.199 --> 01:06:08.119
place that I was going to move into with Andre,

838
01:06:08.880 --> 01:06:14.559
because you were looking actively looking around, but that was

839
01:06:14.599 --> 01:06:18.400
before I heard. I didn't realize his mum wanted me

840
01:06:18.440 --> 01:06:22.639
out of there. And that's when I thought, Okay, you

841
01:06:22.679 --> 01:06:26.000
want me out, I'll get out. And I left that day.

842
01:06:28.199 --> 01:06:34.519
I phoned up, got a ferry booked, and I said, right,

843
01:06:34.519 --> 01:06:37.039
I'll go in and see your Andre was very upset.

844
01:06:37.599 --> 01:06:40.119
Everyone else was cheering. I think the whole town was

845
01:06:40.159 --> 01:06:44.760
like celebrating, but Andre was upset and he didn't really

846
01:06:44.800 --> 01:06:49.480
forgive me for leaving, to be honest. So I came back.

847
01:06:50.119 --> 01:06:53.079
I also got food poisoning. I got I had a

848
01:06:53.119 --> 01:06:58.440
bad beer, and I was ill, and yeah, whatever it was,

849
01:06:58.599 --> 01:07:02.559
or was ill for quite a while and the I

850
01:07:02.679 --> 01:07:09.000
came back, I regretted. I regretted it, regretted sort of

851
01:07:09.079 --> 01:07:15.079
leaving not giving it a more of a go. And

852
01:07:15.119 --> 01:07:18.800
then I went and visited again, probably about March time,

853
01:07:19.639 --> 01:07:24.960
maybe April the next year, maybe May April. It was

854
01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:29.840
just before the Eurovision Song contest and that was recently

855
01:07:30.079 --> 01:07:32.840
so it's now the end of May, so maybe it

856
01:07:32.880 --> 01:07:37.760
was in May when when and visited that stayed with

857
01:07:39.519 --> 01:07:46.119
At this point, my other friend was living there, so

858
01:07:46.199 --> 01:07:51.320
I stayed with him and Andre. They were all living together,

859
01:07:52.039 --> 01:07:54.960
so I stayed with him. So Andrea's sister and is

860
01:07:55.360 --> 01:08:01.480
my other friend. At this point, Andre.

861
01:08:01.400 --> 01:08:01.920
Was just.

862
01:08:05.960 --> 01:08:07.880
If he was off the rolls when he was in London.

863
01:08:07.920 --> 01:08:10.800
This is nothing compared to by the time I'd left.

864
01:08:11.519 --> 01:08:17.399
He he he was just drinking a lot. But at

865
01:08:17.399 --> 01:08:20.319
one point it's quite weird because we were all out,

866
01:08:21.600 --> 01:08:24.720
he got a little bit handsy with me and he

867
01:08:24.800 --> 01:08:27.840
pushed me against the wall. It's sort of sad. You

868
01:08:27.880 --> 01:08:32.680
were my best friend, all right, and a people were

869
01:08:32.680 --> 01:08:35.399
trying to get intervene and I said, no, no, leave it.

870
01:08:35.439 --> 01:08:39.880
Then that's fine, and we just had a little chat.

871
01:08:42.479 --> 01:08:45.119
So he hadn't really forgiven me for leaving him. But

872
01:08:47.399 --> 01:08:51.119
it wasn't you know, it didn't didn't turn nasty or anything,

873
01:08:51.159 --> 01:08:53.640
and he still said goodbye to me when I left

874
01:08:53.720 --> 01:09:00.680
and hugged me in that But yeah, it was Yeah,

875
01:09:00.920 --> 01:09:04.960
I don't know, so I don't know would it have

876
01:09:05.039 --> 01:09:12.279
been right to stay there? Hard to tell. I mean,

877
01:09:12.279 --> 01:09:17.760
it's a beautiful country. It's just I don't know just

878
01:09:17.880 --> 01:09:21.920
at the time I would have been. If I'd had

879
01:09:21.920 --> 01:09:24.880
a bit of money, had my own place, had a

880
01:09:24.880 --> 01:09:29.680
bit of space, bit of time to figure out what

881
01:09:29.800 --> 01:09:34.079
I was going to be able to do, it might

882
01:09:34.079 --> 01:09:36.319
have been you know, I mean, I possibly would have

883
01:09:36.399 --> 01:09:40.720
ended up getting married, having kids, have like a normal life,

884
01:09:41.520 --> 01:09:45.479
much more normal than I've had. Maybe, or I might

885
01:09:45.479 --> 01:09:52.439
have gone down a different route, so you know, down

886
01:09:52.479 --> 01:09:55.760
the drinking route. And you know, I kind of did

887
01:09:55.800 --> 01:10:00.039
a bit anyway in my thirties, but that was that

888
01:10:00.199 --> 01:10:08.560
wasn't socially. I was in private private. So yeah, I

889
01:10:08.600 --> 01:10:14.279
think Ireland is a beautiful country and I'd like to

890
01:10:14.319 --> 01:10:17.039
go back back. I do have two friends that live

891
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:27.680
in Ireland. I would like to visit. Yeah, I would,

892
01:10:28.279 --> 01:10:36.800
but we'll see one day, Kate asks me. So that

893
01:10:36.880 --> 01:10:42.760
was Karna. Kate's you do you anythingny ever visit Logi? No,

894
01:10:43.720 --> 01:10:49.279
I haven't seen Logi since he left. There's like a

895
01:10:49.319 --> 01:10:54.520
buzzard or something right above the tree keeps coming into

896
01:10:54.600 --> 01:10:58.840
the little area of sky that I could see. But

897
01:10:58.880 --> 01:11:01.279
I think it's I think it's a buzzard, or it's

898
01:11:01.319 --> 01:11:08.279
a pedigree falcon, or it's not a golden eagle, but

899
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.079
it's something right up there, and it's kind of this hovering,

900
01:11:12.720 --> 01:11:18.079
very beautiful. No, I don't see Logi. Then he hasn't.

901
01:11:18.399 --> 01:11:24.640
Neither of us have seen Logi since he left. But

902
01:11:24.720 --> 01:11:28.239
he's doing well. I've heard heard things and it seems

903
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:30.960
to be fine. He's living in a family. He escaped

904
01:11:30.960 --> 01:11:34.119
from where I was living. He was an escape artist

905
01:11:34.960 --> 01:11:38.000
and he ended up back in the hostel. But he's

906
01:11:38.119 --> 01:11:45.880
managed to got some new a new family, and they, Yeah,

907
01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:49.199
he's I'm sure he's very happy. He loves being around

908
01:11:49.239 --> 01:11:54.880
people and yeah, so it's all kind of ended up.

909
01:11:57.600 --> 01:11:59.960
He just wanted to I think he wanted a peaceful life.

910
01:12:00.439 --> 01:12:04.359
He loves a cuddle, loves being around people. He just

911
01:12:04.399 --> 01:12:07.800
wants peaceful life. That's you know, go for a walk,

912
01:12:08.079 --> 01:12:12.359
one walk a day, just to get out, you know,

913
01:12:12.600 --> 01:12:17.720
have have food, have water, just chill out. That that

914
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:26.279
was LOGI. Jonathan asks how tall are you? Six foot four?

915
01:12:28.039 --> 01:12:31.600
I know might not look like that, but what that

916
01:12:31.680 --> 01:12:34.199
means is that everyone else around me is much taller

917
01:12:34.199 --> 01:12:38.560
than they realize. They're taller than they think. In fact,

918
01:12:38.600 --> 01:12:43.600
some of them are like seven foot three. I don't know.

919
01:12:43.720 --> 01:12:50.439
I'm kind of my whole life well, since the age

920
01:12:50.479 --> 01:12:56.439
of sixteen, I suppose I've been five for eight. And

921
01:12:56.520 --> 01:13:01.640
then I got measure a year or so ago and

922
01:13:01.680 --> 01:13:04.439
they said five to nine. You got you. They said,

923
01:13:04.560 --> 01:13:07.880
you've got five nine on your thing. I said, but

924
01:13:08.000 --> 01:13:10.920
for what it was five eight, and she said we

925
01:13:10.960 --> 01:13:13.680
can missure again. I said, no, that's fine, I'll take

926
01:13:13.720 --> 01:13:21.680
five nine. So according to my official documents, my medical record,

927
01:13:22.479 --> 01:13:25.640
I'm five nine. But if they went back, they'd see

928
01:13:25.680 --> 01:13:28.560
that I was five eight every other time. So I

929
01:13:28.600 --> 01:13:37.960
don't know. It's a bit weird. I thought it's supposed

930
01:13:37.960 --> 01:13:47.119
to shrink with age, not get taller. And what else?

931
01:13:47.399 --> 01:13:54.600
Ali asks me, do you have any recommendations or advice

932
01:13:54.640 --> 01:13:58.800
as someone who's wanting to start their own podcast? Don't

933
01:13:58.840 --> 01:14:05.439
do it? No? Oh, Also, I see you have a

934
01:14:05.479 --> 01:14:09.079
lot of questions already, totally don't mind you skipping this one.

935
01:14:09.960 --> 01:14:13.800
Oh no, it's fine, I'll answer this one, Elie. I've

936
01:14:13.800 --> 01:14:22.840
got practical, practical recommendations or whatever I mean you have,

937
01:14:23.159 --> 01:14:33.960
I guess you. I would say, sign up with a

938
01:14:34.039 --> 01:14:43.760
podcast host and you can use free stuff, but it's

939
01:14:43.800 --> 01:14:47.000
worth paying even like a like a ten pound a

940
01:14:47.000 --> 01:14:52.000
month podcast fee to have one, and there's a few

941
01:14:52.039 --> 01:14:56.159
that you can use. It depends how many podcasts you're

942
01:14:56.199 --> 01:14:59.640
going to be doing a week or a month, or

943
01:14:59.680 --> 01:15:01.960
you know, if you're could have been doing a lot

944
01:15:01.960 --> 01:15:08.239
of podcasts, then there's some podcast posts that aren't going

945
01:15:08.319 --> 01:15:11.600
to be suitable because they're limited. They might be limited

946
01:15:11.640 --> 01:15:14.960
to how many podcasts you can upload, they might be

947
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:19.439
limited to how many people can listen. You know, Spreaker's

948
01:15:19.520 --> 01:15:23.359
got no limitations, although they do increase. The prices depend

949
01:15:23.439 --> 01:15:29.680
on how many podcasts you've got. And SoundCloud is I

950
01:15:29.680 --> 01:15:32.000
mean they've got a free account on SoundCloud. I think

951
01:15:32.039 --> 01:15:36.239
they've got free one on spreaker, but you'll get a

952
01:15:36.359 --> 01:15:44.359
very minimum amount of space. Spreaker is quite good to share,

953
01:15:45.520 --> 01:15:57.000
especially with Spotify and stuff like that. Have a subject,

954
01:15:58.000 --> 01:16:01.439
have something you're interested in. Do in something that you're

955
01:16:01.439 --> 01:16:04.079
not going to get bored of, which is weird considering

956
01:16:04.119 --> 01:16:10.079
I'm my podcasts are boring, but I don't get bored

957
01:16:10.119 --> 01:16:14.600
of being boring because to me, I'm not boring. There's

958
01:16:14.600 --> 01:16:24.279
a poem there somewhere, isn't there? Do Do something that

959
01:16:24.319 --> 01:16:26.640
you want to that you're going to be doing for fun,

960
01:16:28.920 --> 01:16:33.159
in the sense of so you'll enjoy it, you know.

961
01:16:33.680 --> 01:16:36.399
I mean I do. I like doing the let me

962
01:16:36.439 --> 01:16:40.199
Bow your Pain away now. Chronic pain some would say

963
01:16:40.319 --> 01:16:44.640
is not a fun topic. But it's something that I'm

964
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:48.399
interested in and so I have fun making them. So

965
01:16:48.439 --> 01:16:50.279
I haven't made one for a couple of weeks. I

966
01:16:50.279 --> 01:16:53.399
don't think I have to be in a proper mood,

967
01:16:53.479 --> 01:16:58.600
you know, So do something that you're going to enjoy.

968
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:01.720
That would be my my advice. I don't know. If

969
01:17:01.720 --> 01:17:09.239
you're looking for practical suggestions, find a decent podcast host.

970
01:17:13.159 --> 01:17:16.720
You can. There's lots of ways of making images as well.

971
01:17:23.560 --> 01:17:25.920
Just do it. I mean, if you want for equipment,

972
01:17:27.600 --> 01:17:29.720
there's a lot of equipment out there now which you

973
01:17:29.760 --> 01:17:35.039
can use, which is quite easy. You can have stuff

974
01:17:35.079 --> 01:17:40.039
connected to your phone, you can have or you can

975
01:17:40.079 --> 01:17:42.439
get like it's lots of different ways to you know,

976
01:17:45.000 --> 01:17:46.960
to do the audio and to make If you want

977
01:17:46.960 --> 01:17:50.960
to make a video as well, I'd say just go

978
01:17:51.039 --> 01:17:57.239
for it and see see if you like it. It

979
01:17:57.359 --> 01:18:01.880
might it might change your life, you know, it might

980
01:18:02.000 --> 01:18:08.520
be something that you really loved doing. It might help

981
01:18:08.600 --> 01:18:12.680
you in some ways, you know, emotionally, it depends what

982
01:18:12.720 --> 01:18:24.760
you're doing. Yeah, I don't know, just thinking advice. If

983
01:18:24.800 --> 01:18:28.960
someone wanted to start their own podcast, it's weird. I

984
01:18:29.000 --> 01:18:33.000
can't remember what it was like because for me, I

985
01:18:33.039 --> 01:18:37.760
didn't start a podcast because podcasting wasn't really a thing

986
01:18:37.800 --> 01:18:43.119
when I started. It was for me because I was

987
01:18:43.239 --> 01:18:52.159
uploading audio recordings and videos onto MySpace, so I wasn't

988
01:18:52.239 --> 01:19:00.000
doing podcasting. YouTube wasn't a thing at that time. Facebook

989
01:19:00.039 --> 01:19:04.319
book wasn't a thing, well at least it wasn't popular

990
01:19:04.920 --> 01:19:08.880
at that time because Facebook basically closed my Space down really,

991
01:19:09.600 --> 01:19:12.600
but I was with my Space, so I was uploading audios,

992
01:19:12.680 --> 01:19:19.920
hypnosis audios and hypnosis videos. And then YouTube came along

993
01:19:20.359 --> 01:19:23.079
and I started putting my videos on YouTube as well

994
01:19:23.159 --> 01:19:27.399
as my Space because with my Space, with you know,

995
01:19:27.439 --> 01:19:33.479
you could upload the stuff, so they stored it. And

996
01:19:33.520 --> 01:19:40.439
then I started using a free podcast host or whatever.

997
01:19:40.439 --> 01:19:48.000
I think it was called free podcast host in probably

998
01:19:48.079 --> 01:19:54.760
two thousand and seven, maybe maybe two thousand and six,

999
01:19:55.880 --> 01:19:59.319
maybe it was. But so I started using a podcasts.

1000
01:19:59.359 --> 01:20:01.640
I started using lots of different podcasts, but that was

1001
01:20:01.680 --> 01:20:08.079
the main one I used, and so I guess I

1002
01:20:08.119 --> 01:20:10.760
didn't start out as a podcast. All I did is

1003
01:20:10.880 --> 01:20:16.119
just podcasts were just another way for me to present

1004
01:20:16.159 --> 01:20:22.319
the audio, If that makes sense. It's kind of I wasn't.

1005
01:20:23.000 --> 01:20:25.640
I used it as a like. I was already making

1006
01:20:25.720 --> 01:20:29.640
videos before YouTube came out, before YouTube was a thing.

1007
01:20:29.680 --> 01:20:33.479
I was making videos already, so I was already making

1008
01:20:34.359 --> 01:20:37.720
It's weird because when I uploaded my videos to YouTube,

1009
01:20:38.199 --> 01:20:40.640
I didn't know that anybody else made videos on YouTube.

1010
01:20:41.319 --> 01:20:43.399
But there were other people. I wasn't the only one.

1011
01:20:44.119 --> 01:20:48.479
So I started YouTube two thousand and seven, and there

1012
01:20:48.560 --> 01:20:51.039
was some other people doing it. So it's weird that

1013
01:20:51.199 --> 01:20:53.199
like people had the same kind of idea at the

1014
01:20:53.239 --> 01:20:57.520
same time. But it's only a handful of us. Really,

1015
01:20:57.600 --> 01:21:01.479
it was only a real, real small amount. And anyone

1016
01:21:01.760 --> 01:21:06.640
listening or watching this from that time who used to

1017
01:21:06.680 --> 01:21:10.520
follow my videos, you'll know what I'm saying is true.

1018
01:21:11.880 --> 01:21:16.880
You'll know. You will know. I don't know why I'm

1019
01:21:16.920 --> 01:21:23.039
doing that for, so just go through it and have fun,

1020
01:21:23.199 --> 01:21:28.600
That's what I would say. Hope asks what got you

1021
01:21:28.840 --> 01:21:38.800
interested in hypnosis? It was there was a couple of

1022
01:21:38.840 --> 01:21:47.119
things to start with. I don't know why, but I

1023
01:21:47.159 --> 01:21:49.439
was going through this little period at the end of

1024
01:21:49.479 --> 01:21:55.840
two thousand and at the end of nineteen ninety seven,

1025
01:21:56.000 --> 01:22:03.680
and I just had a bit of a very very

1026
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:09.520
problematic period in my life. You know, lost my job,

1027
01:22:09.600 --> 01:22:14.680
lost my girlfriend, pretty much had to move, had no

1028
01:22:15.520 --> 01:22:17.439
you know, everything kind of went. And then there was

1029
01:22:17.439 --> 01:22:25.720
a family thing, really big family thing happened, and I

1030
01:22:25.720 --> 01:22:33.880
I was lost, so lost at that time, and the

1031
01:22:33.920 --> 01:22:36.960
only thing I had I was writing. So I was

1032
01:22:37.439 --> 01:22:41.079
writing down how I felt and stuff, so that kind

1033
01:22:41.119 --> 01:22:46.439
of helped. And then I started listening to audio books,

1034
01:22:46.520 --> 01:22:51.960
self help audio books, reading reading self help books to

1035
01:22:51.960 --> 01:22:56.319
try and help me get through that period. So when

1036
01:22:56.319 --> 01:22:59.600
I was going and buying these audio books and looking

1037
01:22:59.600 --> 01:23:04.359
at these off help books, I started noticing hypnosis books.

1038
01:23:05.279 --> 01:23:10.560
And for me, it was kind of like very spelly,

1039
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:15.319
very kind of magic y, you know, like a script

1040
01:23:15.479 --> 01:23:18.920
almost seemed a little bit like a magic spell. And

1041
01:23:19.520 --> 01:23:22.680
so I was looking at these books thinking, Hmm, I

1042
01:23:22.680 --> 01:23:25.640
didn't know you could learn this. I don't know how

1043
01:23:25.680 --> 01:23:32.720
I thought hypnotists became hypnotists if they didn't learn. But

1044
01:23:32.800 --> 01:23:38.159
I just just fought. Oh, I just grabbed my slight interest.

1045
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:42.079
And I'd never ever had an interest before outside of

1046
01:23:42.159 --> 01:23:49.079
just watching on TV. In the early nineties, I thought,

1047
01:23:51.159 --> 01:23:53.840
but I don't know why. And there was these two

1048
01:23:53.960 --> 01:23:57.359
particular books, and I used to look at them. One

1049
01:23:57.439 --> 01:24:03.319
was an Introduction to hypnosis. Another one was Hypnosis for

1050
01:24:03.439 --> 01:24:06.439
Beginnings or something, so it's too one was green, one

1051
01:24:06.600 --> 01:24:10.720
was I think it was orange. I kept putting them

1052
01:24:10.720 --> 01:24:13.479
back in the same bookshop, and I'd go to it

1053
01:24:13.560 --> 01:24:17.159
every week, and I kept putting them back. I'd read

1054
01:24:17.159 --> 01:24:18.840
a little bit more, and I kept putting them back.

1055
01:24:20.319 --> 01:24:23.079
And this went on for months, and I'd go and

1056
01:24:23.119 --> 01:24:25.600
buy other stuff. And you know, as I was really

1057
01:24:25.600 --> 01:24:28.159
into the audio books because I could, I could listen

1058
01:24:28.199 --> 01:24:30.079
to her while I walked around and stuff, so that

1059
01:24:30.159 --> 01:24:33.479
kind of suited me. And you know, Field the Fear

1060
01:24:33.520 --> 01:24:38.800
and Do It Anyway and Anthony Robbins and all that stuff.

1061
01:24:40.600 --> 01:24:49.399
Zig Ziggler and then then he just barked. Then and

1062
01:24:49.439 --> 01:24:58.920
then after months of just thinking about these books, calm down, Vin,

1063
01:25:00.479 --> 01:25:09.600
I just thought, so, it's January nineteen ninety eight. I

1064
01:25:09.680 --> 01:25:14.960
bought them. I'm now worn out by the time I

1065
01:25:15.039 --> 01:25:17.800
must have read them, probably by the time I bought them.

1066
01:25:17.960 --> 01:25:22.560
But I thought, okay, because I had these like fantasies

1067
01:25:22.560 --> 01:25:24.279
of buying them, and I was like why do I

1068
01:25:24.279 --> 01:25:28.439
want to buy these two books. I'm not interested in hypnosis.

1069
01:25:28.479 --> 01:25:33.199
I don't know anything about hypnosis. Vinnie, don't bark, please please,

1070
01:25:33.600 --> 01:25:36.640
he's like that on his back. I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

1071
01:25:36.800 --> 01:25:41.560
Like anyone think that. It's like, do you want to

1072
01:25:41.600 --> 01:25:43.840
do anything? Am I? I'm just asking you to be quiet?

1073
01:25:43.920 --> 01:25:52.079
BlimE me said it. Blame me and I I don't

1074
01:25:52.079 --> 01:25:54.840
know why. I just felt I needed to buy these books,

1075
01:25:55.600 --> 01:26:00.840
bought them, read them, didn't read them straight away. I

1076
01:26:00.880 --> 01:26:04.199
can't really express how much I love books. I still

1077
01:26:04.239 --> 01:26:08.159
love books. I mean, similar I got I've only got

1078
01:26:08.199 --> 01:26:11.039
a small book collection now, but most of those books

1079
01:26:11.039 --> 01:26:15.000
are hypnosis books. I love books. I don't know what

1080
01:26:15.079 --> 01:26:21.399
it is. I don't know why I love them. I

1081
01:26:22.079 --> 01:26:27.920
think my favorite, my probably ideal job would have been

1082
01:26:27.960 --> 01:26:31.000
working in a bookshop. That's probably what I should have

1083
01:26:31.039 --> 01:26:36.880
done as a younger man. That that probably I should

1084
01:26:37.199 --> 01:26:41.800
you know, I should have would have ideally, And I

1085
01:26:41.800 --> 01:26:44.439
don't know why I didn't even think about it. Bearing

1086
01:26:44.399 --> 01:26:47.199
in mind how much I've always loved books since being

1087
01:26:47.239 --> 01:26:54.039
a small child, since I kind of taught myself to read, well,

1088
01:26:54.359 --> 01:26:58.000
I mean I taught myself, I kind of I did

1089
01:26:58.039 --> 01:27:02.000
also go to school by I had this one book.

1090
01:27:02.199 --> 01:27:04.720
I still can't find it. It's on there somewhere. It's

1091
01:27:04.760 --> 01:27:09.119
a Jack and Nory book. And I read it over

1092
01:27:09.119 --> 01:27:11.479
and over and over and over and over again. And

1093
01:27:11.760 --> 01:27:15.399
it's the only thing that was ever. I'm not saying

1094
01:27:15.439 --> 01:27:20.239
any good but competent act that I could do, that

1095
01:27:20.239 --> 01:27:24.199
I could actually say, Yeah, I can read. I don't

1096
01:27:24.279 --> 01:27:26.720
understand all the words I read. I still don't understand

1097
01:27:26.720 --> 01:27:29.680
all the words I read, but I do check what

1098
01:27:29.720 --> 01:27:32.560
they are. And you can tell from the meaning, from

1099
01:27:32.600 --> 01:27:36.560
the structure of the sentence or the paragraph, what the

1100
01:27:36.600 --> 01:27:41.439
word means. Providing the person that's writing that paragraph knows

1101
01:27:41.439 --> 01:27:44.359
what the word means, you know, they might put a

1102
01:27:44.399 --> 01:27:50.800
wrong word in. But yeah, so I've got these books home.

1103
01:27:56.279 --> 01:27:58.359
I didn't touch them to start with. I just like

1104
01:27:58.439 --> 01:28:01.560
looked at them again, don't know why I had them

1105
01:28:03.159 --> 01:28:11.039
and then started reading them, and something something happened to me.

1106
01:28:16.560 --> 01:28:22.960
So I don't know what it was, just maybe it's

1107
01:28:23.119 --> 01:28:28.359
I kind of felt, well, the way I talk kind

1108
01:28:28.359 --> 01:28:40.680
of matches what I would. I don't know. I noticed

1109
01:28:40.720 --> 01:28:43.319
sometimes people would kind of glaze over when I talk

1110
01:28:43.399 --> 01:28:53.039
to them, and I noticed this, and I didn't realize

1111
01:28:53.279 --> 01:28:55.960
that I was sort of putting him into a trance.

1112
01:28:56.199 --> 01:28:58.800
This is before I even read a hypnosis book. Happened

1113
01:28:58.800 --> 01:29:01.439
to a counselor. Counselor fell asleep when I was talking.

1114
01:29:02.600 --> 01:29:06.079
It's true. I'm not even like it's a Saturday morning.

1115
01:29:06.720 --> 01:29:10.439
I was having counseling, trauma, counseling, can you believe? And

1116
01:29:11.119 --> 01:29:14.279
she was a student and she fell asleep, her eyes

1117
01:29:14.479 --> 01:29:21.039
like started glazing, and her eyes, I live closed. And

1118
01:29:21.079 --> 01:29:23.560
this was before I even knew what hypnosis was. I

1119
01:29:23.640 --> 01:29:25.640
had not even read a book, didn't know the first

1120
01:29:25.680 --> 01:29:30.239
thing about it. This was like the summer ninety seven,

1121
01:29:30.960 --> 01:29:39.640
I think, or like late summer. So yeah, that was weird,

1122
01:29:40.640 --> 01:29:46.079
very strange. And I noticed that other people were having that,

1123
01:29:46.199 --> 01:29:49.920
And also noticed that sometimes if I talked to someone

1124
01:29:50.359 --> 01:29:56.359
and I just keep talking and just keep talking, not fast,

1125
01:29:56.399 --> 01:30:00.680
but just keep talking and make the sentence keep lasting

1126
01:30:02.000 --> 01:30:06.119
in a way that it kind of never ends. The

1127
01:30:06.159 --> 01:30:13.760
sentence never ends, and which means the person can't sort

1128
01:30:13.800 --> 01:30:18.760
of talk say something themselves. And it's I don't know,

1129
01:30:18.800 --> 01:30:20.800
it's a bit weird the reaction I was getting. And

1130
01:30:20.840 --> 01:30:26.880
I started playing with it, started to testing it out

1131
01:30:27.279 --> 01:30:31.319
with people, then he please, why are you banging? You see?

1132
01:30:31.359 --> 01:30:36.039
The camera's banging the cameras to the stand. He knows

1133
01:30:36.079 --> 01:30:38.560
he's doing it. I'm pretty sure he's doing it on purpose.

1134
01:30:39.479 --> 01:30:42.600
He's purposely moved himself over there to bang the camera

1135
01:30:43.640 --> 01:30:50.960
so it wobbles. I'm pretty sure he is. He's a

1136
01:30:51.079 --> 01:31:02.199
very naughty boy. It's very cheeky he is. But yeah,

1137
01:31:02.199 --> 01:31:04.479
that's kind of how I got into it. Just I

1138
01:31:04.560 --> 01:31:07.600
found it interesting and the most thing that I found

1139
01:31:07.680 --> 01:31:12.840
most interesting of all was the pain relief out of anything,

1140
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:17.640
that was the thing. Nothing else really grabbed me the

1141
01:31:17.640 --> 01:31:20.960
way that that did. The idea to be able to

1142
01:31:21.000 --> 01:31:29.920
take away someone's pain, I mean, wow, what could be

1143
01:31:29.920 --> 01:31:32.920
better than that? And finish just done the biggest part?

1144
01:31:39.279 --> 01:31:41.399
I think it's him, did you do finish? Did you

1145
01:31:41.479 --> 01:31:45.279
just do the biggest fart? It always aims his bum

1146
01:31:45.479 --> 01:31:48.640
at me whenever he lays down, if it's in the bed,

1147
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:51.119
never had his face in him. It's always his bum

1148
01:31:51.279 --> 01:31:54.279
faced at me. Ready for so when he lets it off,

1149
01:31:54.560 --> 01:31:58.920
I get to smell it, and he doesn't. It's got

1150
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:08.800
his eyes. Why don't haven't you? Hey? So yeah, that's

1151
01:32:08.840 --> 01:32:14.560
how I kind of got into hypnosis. And then I

1152
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:25.359
started buying books. Then I started Yeah, then I got

1153
01:32:25.399 --> 01:32:28.079
some and I kind of moved and started finding out

1154
01:32:28.119 --> 01:32:32.800
about NLP, got books on NLP. Then I did training

1155
01:32:32.840 --> 01:32:38.680
in NLP. Then I did training in the hypnosis and

1156
01:32:40.640 --> 01:32:49.399
continued the purchasing and getting hypnosis books right the way

1157
01:32:49.479 --> 01:32:55.920
up to about two thousand and thirteen. So from nineteen

1158
01:32:56.039 --> 01:33:04.960
ninety eight to two thy thirty, I was purchasing hypnosis books,

1159
01:33:05.439 --> 01:33:09.079
had a very very good collection. I lost all of

1160
01:33:09.119 --> 01:33:12.760
those books, but I did have a really good collection.

1161
01:33:13.279 --> 01:33:20.039
I also had training videos, training DVDs, training audios, really

1162
01:33:20.279 --> 01:33:23.359
out of print books as well. Some of the ones

1163
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:28.560
that I bought in ninety nine two thousand that weren't

1164
01:33:28.560 --> 01:33:32.359
in print anymore, you couldn't get them. In fact, you

1165
01:33:32.399 --> 01:33:41.399
could get them, but they're expensive on Amazon or eBay.

1166
01:33:41.439 --> 01:33:44.039
But I think for me, I liked just studying it.

1167
01:33:45.159 --> 01:33:48.119
I liked the idea of being good at it but

1168
01:33:48.239 --> 01:33:56.720
without testing. So during ninety nine, two thousand, two thousand

1169
01:33:56.720 --> 01:33:59.920
and one, two thousand and two, two thousand and three,

1170
01:34:00.239 --> 01:34:07.039
two thousand and four, two thousand and five, training doing trainings,

1171
01:34:07.079 --> 01:34:13.239
I was buying and reading lots of books, even making

1172
01:34:13.279 --> 01:34:20.359
recordings for myself. I did a little bit of relaxation

1173
01:34:20.520 --> 01:34:23.640
stuff for some friends, some pain relief for my nan,

1174
01:34:24.720 --> 01:34:27.319
but outside of that, I didn't ever test it with

1175
01:34:28.760 --> 01:34:34.199
the public. And it's only two thousand and six. When

1176
01:34:34.199 --> 01:34:36.960
I started doing that, I was kind of pushed into

1177
01:34:37.039 --> 01:34:41.600
it by a friend who called my bluff. I've talked

1178
01:34:41.600 --> 01:34:45.159
about that in the past, and it was just I

1179
01:34:45.159 --> 01:34:47.920
didn't want to do it. I was quite happy just

1180
01:34:47.960 --> 01:34:53.640
to read the books and kind of fantasize that maybe

1181
01:34:53.640 --> 01:34:59.640
I could be good at it rather than actually do anything.

1182
01:35:06.000 --> 01:35:08.560
And then you know, in two thousand and six, I

1183
01:35:08.600 --> 01:35:12.600
also started making audios and videos. The reason I started

1184
01:35:12.640 --> 01:35:16.039
making audios is because I was doing I was volunteering

1185
01:35:16.199 --> 01:35:25.079
at a alcohol charity and I was doing these group

1186
01:35:25.119 --> 01:35:27.279
sessions two a week or one on a Friday, I

1187
01:35:27.279 --> 01:35:29.520
think one a week at the time on a Friday,

1188
01:35:30.079 --> 01:35:36.000
and someone said, can you not You know, it's not

1189
01:35:36.159 --> 01:35:38.279
enough once a week isn't enough. Isn't there any way

1190
01:35:38.319 --> 01:35:42.880
of getting a recording of this? So the charity and

1191
01:35:43.000 --> 01:35:47.399
me got together and made some CDs. They went so quickly,

1192
01:35:47.960 --> 01:35:51.319
and the charity couldn't really afford to keep making new CDs.

1193
01:35:52.560 --> 01:35:55.520
What I did is I taped a recording me and

1194
01:35:55.560 --> 01:35:59.600
we printed it onto a CD. So I thought, Okay,

1195
01:35:59.680 --> 01:36:06.520
what's solution for this. I had my website and I

1196
01:36:06.600 --> 01:36:10.279
put the recording. I started putting my recordings on my

1197
01:36:10.319 --> 01:36:14.000
website where you could download them or stream. I can't

1198
01:36:14.039 --> 01:36:17.840
remember you could stream at the time or download them.

1199
01:36:17.920 --> 01:36:27.920
And then I discovered MySpace, so I started uploading the

1200
01:36:27.960 --> 01:36:31.319
audios to MySpace from the live sessions. I started recording

1201
01:36:31.319 --> 01:36:35.359
the live sessions every time I did one these live

1202
01:36:35.399 --> 01:36:37.880
group sessions, and I was doing it also at drug

1203
01:36:38.000 --> 01:36:44.359
rehab center as well. A few months later, until the

1204
01:36:44.479 --> 01:36:47.960
end of two thousand. Until the end of two thousand

1205
01:36:48.000 --> 01:36:57.640
and seven, yest and I started making videos. So thought,

1206
01:36:57.640 --> 01:37:01.640
while I'm doing the audios to MySpace, I can do videos,

1207
01:37:01.680 --> 01:37:04.399
So let me try to try that. Use the webcam

1208
01:37:04.439 --> 01:37:09.560
from the laptop. Terrible picture and not that this one's

1209
01:37:09.640 --> 01:37:12.239
much better blind. Look at my eyes, I look so

1210
01:37:12.359 --> 01:37:23.119
blue next to the red of my face. The yeah,

1211
01:37:23.439 --> 01:37:28.319
the I think the videos. I had one video that

1212
01:37:28.399 --> 01:37:31.439
reached about ten thousand views. I think that was the

1213
01:37:31.520 --> 01:37:37.000
Chronic Pain one. It's like wow. And the thing about

1214
01:37:37.079 --> 01:37:40.239
MySpace is I never I think I'm not sure if

1215
01:37:40.239 --> 01:37:46.800
I ever had one negative review. People so supportive on MySpace.

1216
01:37:48.079 --> 01:37:51.920
It's a shame that place just didn't continue because it

1217
01:37:51.960 --> 01:37:58.880
was a really nice space, really was well it's kind

1218
01:37:58.880 --> 01:38:02.760
of like MySpace really that it was a nice place.

1219
01:38:03.079 --> 01:38:10.119
And then Facebook came along. YouTube came along, so YouTube

1220
01:38:10.279 --> 01:38:14.039
YouTube took all the videos. YouTube YouTube was a place

1221
01:38:14.079 --> 01:38:17.479
for the videos to be. My Space started to just

1222
01:38:17.560 --> 01:38:23.479
dwindle down when Facebook came along again. So you had

1223
01:38:23.479 --> 01:38:26.319
somewhere to post to YouTube videos, or you had someone

1224
01:38:26.319 --> 01:38:30.680
to post videos and in somewhere that you could have

1225
01:38:30.880 --> 01:38:36.079
social interactions with people, and Facebook was the new place

1226
01:38:36.119 --> 01:38:38.319
for that, and everyone kind of just went over there.

1227
01:38:40.399 --> 01:38:42.079
And then, as I said earlier, I started using a

1228
01:38:42.079 --> 01:38:49.239
podcast for the audio, so I really didn't use my

1229
01:38:49.399 --> 01:38:53.079
Space at all after a little while, which is the shame,

1230
01:38:54.640 --> 01:38:59.760
but that's kind of how disprogressed. I focused mainly on

1231
01:38:59.760 --> 01:39:04.680
the YouTube videos for up to about twenty thirteen, two

1232
01:39:04.800 --> 01:39:10.159
thousand and seven, but I did also have podcasts, but

1233
01:39:10.199 --> 01:39:14.439
they were kind of not secondary, but it was I'd

1234
01:39:14.439 --> 01:39:18.359
make the video and then I'd extract the audio and

1235
01:39:18.520 --> 01:39:21.399
put that on the podcast. Sometimes i'd do a video

1236
01:39:21.800 --> 01:39:24.319
audio just on its own, but quite often it would

1237
01:39:24.359 --> 01:39:27.159
just be the video and then then i'd extract that,

1238
01:39:27.279 --> 01:39:31.680
so I'd be focusing more on the video aspect, you know,

1239
01:39:31.800 --> 01:39:41.680
things on YouTube. And then probably I moved here twenty fifteen,

1240
01:39:41.800 --> 01:39:45.960
started doing more recordings, audios, did some videos and stuff.

1241
01:39:46.520 --> 01:39:48.760
Hadn't done many videos for a while for a couple

1242
01:39:48.800 --> 01:39:54.520
of years, and I haven't been steady with videos really.

1243
01:39:54.560 --> 01:39:59.319
I've got through little periods. The audios. I think two

1244
01:39:59.399 --> 01:40:03.479
thousand and eight really kicked in. I started putting more

1245
01:40:03.520 --> 01:40:09.359
effort and doing them a lot more regular in twenty eighteen,

1246
01:40:09.520 --> 01:40:11.439
once I started doing the let Me Boy to Sleep,

1247
01:40:13.399 --> 01:40:21.199
And since then I've done thousands of recordings and it is, Yeah,

1248
01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:25.399
it's sort of grown, I guess from there. But I

1249
01:40:25.560 --> 01:40:28.479
like to think in a way, even though I'm not

1250
01:40:30.439 --> 01:40:34.680
really don't really do hypnosis anymore, not really, I kind

1251
01:40:34.680 --> 01:40:36.720
of do and I don't. I like to think that

1252
01:40:39.840 --> 01:40:44.399
I incorporate what I learn. So when I when I

1253
01:40:44.479 --> 01:40:48.439
do the let Me Boil Your Pain Away, I'm still

1254
01:40:48.760 --> 01:40:55.720
using techniques and I don't know how to explain it.

1255
01:40:56.680 --> 01:41:00.199
But I think it's about trying to instead of of

1256
01:41:01.720 --> 01:41:05.800
adapting myself, because what I was trying to do before

1257
01:41:06.319 --> 01:41:15.960
is adapting myself to the hypnosis. Now I just adapt

1258
01:41:15.960 --> 01:41:23.039
the hypnosis to myself. So I try and use whatever

1259
01:41:23.159 --> 01:41:29.560
has been absorbed into my brain and hope for the best.

1260
01:41:29.880 --> 01:41:38.680
I suppose I don't know, but yeah, I hope that

1261
01:41:38.760 --> 01:41:44.239
answered your question. So I have answered every question. There

1262
01:41:44.279 --> 01:41:48.199
was nine nine questions, So thank you very much everyone.

1263
01:41:49.159 --> 01:41:51.840
So I was going to say thank you to everyone

1264
01:41:52.439 --> 01:42:00.520
all that's answered to ask. So Hillary, Sandy, Michelle, Karna

1265
01:42:01.399 --> 01:42:08.520
or coroner. Sure it's Karna, Kate, Jonathan, Ali, and Hope.

1266
01:42:10.000 --> 01:42:12.720
Thank you very much, and I'm going to go now.

1267
01:42:12.800 --> 01:42:15.680
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself,

1268
01:42:16.439 --> 01:42:23.560
because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.

1269
01:42:31.720 --> 01:42:46.279
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, Maybe in

1270
01:42:46.319 --> 01:42:51.880
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1271
01:42:53.239 --> 01:43:02.479
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1272
01:43:04.520 --> 01:43:10.199
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1273
01:43:10.239 --> 01:43:16.920
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1274
01:43:17.079 --> 01:43:32.000
and peace, But also I think it would be nice

1275
01:43:32.079 --> 01:43:51.920
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1276
01:43:51.960 --> 01:44:02.560
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1277
01:44:05.439 --> 01:44:12.319
from listening to my voice. Maybe in a few hours

1278
01:44:12.439 --> 01:44:27.960
time perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if

1279
01:44:28.000 --> 01:44:32.279
you find like some people do and myself as well,

1280
01:44:32.439 --> 01:44:39.439
I sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates

1281
01:44:39.479 --> 01:44:45.880
with me, and I just listen to it over and

1282
01:44:45.920 --> 01:44:59.279
over again every morning, every evening. There was this recording

1283
01:44:59.560 --> 01:45:05.960
from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It

1284
01:45:06.000 --> 01:45:10.920
was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualization,

1285
01:45:11.119 --> 01:45:18.119
so it kind of was hypnosis really, and I managed

1286
01:45:18.159 --> 01:45:21.359
to find it again and it still has the same

1287
01:45:21.399 --> 01:45:31.039
effect on me. And part of it was the person's

1288
01:45:31.159 --> 01:45:43.920
voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

1289
01:45:44.119 --> 01:45:51.119
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

1290
01:45:51.159 --> 01:46:02.079
the evening. And I knew before or even pressing the

1291
01:46:02.159 --> 01:46:10.680
play button that since I've done that pressed the play button.

1292
01:46:11.439 --> 01:46:22.439
This was in the days of CD players press the

1293
01:46:22.479 --> 01:46:27.840
play button. In fact, it might have even been a

1294
01:46:27.920 --> 01:46:32.439
tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1295
01:46:32.479 --> 01:46:50.960
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

1296
01:46:51.039 --> 01:46:58.560
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1297
01:47:00.439 --> 01:47:13.880
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1298
01:47:13.960 --> 01:47:34.359
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

1299
01:47:34.439 --> 01:47:45.800
slow down now. Now. I was listening to this recording

1300
01:47:49.159 --> 01:47:55.199
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

1301
01:47:56.800 --> 01:48:04.880
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

1302
01:48:04.880 --> 01:48:07.960
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1303
01:48:14.840 --> 01:48:30.800
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

1304
01:48:30.840 --> 01:48:39.920
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1305
01:48:40.000 --> 01:48:50.359
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1306
01:48:50.439 --> 01:49:01.279
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1307
01:49:01.479 --> 01:49:14.079
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

1308
01:49:14.319 --> 01:49:28.600
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1309
01:49:29.359 --> 01:49:33.399
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1310
01:49:35.119 --> 01:49:49.199
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1311
01:49:53.399 --> 01:50:01.359
And something that I do which you may not realize

1312
01:50:01.760 --> 01:50:20.359
by listening is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1313
01:50:24.880 --> 01:50:37.039
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1314
01:50:37.960 --> 01:50:47.239
So if I set you focus on your feet, notice

1315
01:50:47.359 --> 01:50:54.720
your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1316
01:50:59.479 --> 01:51:16.880
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1317
01:51:17.000 --> 01:51:24.680
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1318
01:51:24.760 --> 01:51:35.000
each hand, Perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1319
01:51:35.520 --> 01:51:46.960
the temperature of the room, on the backs of your hands.

1320
01:51:48.159 --> 01:51:52.039
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1321
01:51:52.159 --> 01:52:00.560
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1322
01:52:00.640 --> 01:52:08.960
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1323
01:52:13.720 --> 01:52:24.359
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1324
01:52:24.680 --> 01:52:52.880
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now and

1325
01:52:53.039 --> 01:52:59.880
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1326
01:53:00.119 --> 01:53:16.640
maybe the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when

1327
01:53:16.680 --> 01:53:29.920
I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1328
01:53:37.800 --> 01:53:50.399
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1329
01:53:55.279 --> 01:54:06.359
and then I carry on talking. It's only when I

1330
01:54:06.399 --> 01:54:15.800
listen back to do the editing I hear snoring, and

1331
01:54:15.880 --> 01:54:25.720
I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. It

1332
01:54:25.880 --> 01:54:33.039
is snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I

1333
01:54:33.119 --> 01:54:41.279
sound like when I snare and I get really into

1334
01:54:41.319 --> 01:55:00.720
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel, how

1335
01:55:00.800 --> 01:55:11.680
relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

1336
01:55:11.840 --> 01:55:38.439
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1337
01:55:38.640 --> 01:55:54.840
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1338
01:55:55.000 --> 01:56:15.640
easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1339
01:56:19.960 --> 01:56:43.359
So this allows you debree easier without necessarily focusing on

1340
01:56:43.399 --> 01:57:12.239
your breath however, being able to notice the ease in

1341
01:57:12.439 --> 01:57:39.640
which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily

1342
01:57:41.199 --> 01:58:27.960
and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've

1343
01:58:27.960 --> 01:58:43.800
got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful

1344
01:58:43.960 --> 01:59:01.039
field with trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen.

1345
01:59:21.279 --> 01:59:36.960
It feels nice two, if nothing else, just taking some

1346
01:59:37.359 --> 02:00:20.119
time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity

1347
02:00:31.680 --> 02:01:03.920
with a joyful heart. Time scene insta just drip by,

1348
02:01:08.439 --> 02:01:58.239
so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to

1349
02:01:59.119 --> 02:02:56.119
emmy thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1350
02:03:03.640 --> 02:03:50.239
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1351
02:03:50.439 --> 02:04:21.000
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1352
02:04:21.199 --> 02:04:33.640
allowing the stress to rip out of your body, to

1353
02:04:33.760 --> 02:04:57.399
appear out of every part of your body, and being

1354
02:04:57.800 --> 02:05:36.479
released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely,

1355
02:05:43.319 --> 02:06:20.680
the muscle sing lex h relax rs so very deeply,

1356
02:06:30.479 --> 02:07:01.560
relas so deeply, and the feeings, the pleasant feelings in

1357
02:07:01.640 --> 02:07:26.159
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

1358
02:07:29.439 --> 02:08:07.880
further and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the feelings in the

1359
02:08:07.920 --> 02:09:10.000
back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

1360
02:09:10.279 --> 02:09:58.720
front of your body. I all say, feeling peaceful, deeply,

1361
02:10:04.199 --> 02:10:14.520
there's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

1362
02:10:45.000 --> 02:11:04.920
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes

1363
02:11:12.279 --> 02:12:35.119
be and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so very slow. Your stomach,

1364
02:12:49.239 --> 02:13:36.880
he's fin's stomach, your back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

1365
02:13:37.119 --> 02:14:15.439
now feel in the hole of your back. You spy

1366
02:14:19.520 --> 02:14:24.279
from your brain all the way down the middle of

1367
02:14:24.319 --> 02:14:48.560
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day. Deepcomfort,

1368
02:14:51.520 --> 02:16:08.359
increasing deep clean x ns, spreading these signals down a

1369
02:16:08.600 --> 02:16:31.319
spine or cord into air every part of your body,

1370
02:16:31.960 --> 02:17:20.200
your chins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of

1371
02:17:20.399 --> 02:17:37.639
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1372
02:17:41.920 --> 02:17:53.440
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1373
02:17:53.479 --> 02:19:03.479
lower back. On the thinker re thinker, peace, drifting mind,

1374
02:19:07.159 --> 02:19:30.760
just wandering away, happy to let go, let go completely,

1375
02:19:33.159 --> 02:20:31.200
let go, so trunk, the whole body, enjoying a sensor,

1376
02:20:55.920 --> 02:22:52.520
lett him go, he no peace, fur en joy the space,

1377
02:22:54.840 --> 02:23:00.360
this space of peace.

1378
02:23:03.479 --> 02:25:07.120
And safety, so firy, fury, relaxed, letting go.

1379
02:25:25.040 --> 02:25:32.680
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1380
02:25:32.799 --> 02:26:07.479
your body, just to notice a forehead and your eyes.

1381
02:26:40.079 --> 02:27:13.079
It two, so this noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1382
02:27:25.079 --> 02:29:17.520
absolute freedom. Drif rifa Hee's for energy peace to breeze

1383
02:29:21.360 --> 02:30:32.200
such easier loose. You may have or may not have

1384
02:30:32.479 --> 02:31:39.360
noticed your mind drifting peaceful, move even more deeply in

1385
02:31:39.479 --> 02:33:16.200
the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, arrest, total peace.

1386
02:33:40.959 --> 02:34:37.840
Come so calm, Let's think God peace with mind rexed

1387
02:34:42.079 --> 02:35:41.280
for day relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

1388
02:35:56.479 --> 02:36:58.760
so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful, real liquor, so peaceful.

1389
02:37:16.920 --> 02:37:23.120
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1390
02:37:23.559 --> 02:37:34.760
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1391
02:37:35.719 --> 02:37:43.280
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1392
02:37:43.399 --> 02:37:52.520
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down.

1393
02:37:57.479 --> 02:38:04.639
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1394
02:38:05.079 --> 02:38:17.559
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1395
02:38:19.239 --> 02:38:30.280
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1396
02:38:30.319 --> 02:38:37.239
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1397
02:38:39.399 --> 02:38:46.879
take a break from your life as it is, and

1398
02:38:47.040 --> 02:38:54.760
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1399
02:38:54.879 --> 02:39:00.440
some time off and to allow your body to lacks

1400
02:39:02.159 --> 02:39:10.040
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1401
02:39:12.680 --> 02:39:17.680
releases the tension and it stresses that you had in

1402
02:39:17.799 --> 02:39:27.600
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1403
02:39:27.639 --> 02:39:39.680
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1404
02:39:39.719 --> 02:39:47.959
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

1405
02:39:51.079 --> 02:39:55.639
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1406
02:39:57.319 --> 02:40:15.719
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1407
02:40:15.760 --> 02:40:32.879
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1408
02:40:32.959 --> 02:40:43.600
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1409
02:40:43.959 --> 02:40:56.000
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1410
02:40:56.040 --> 02:41:00.280
an hour, however long you want it to be, just

1411
02:41:01.360 --> 02:41:14.639
rest and allow your mind and your body to almost

1412
02:41:15.200 --> 02:41:30.760
reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1413
02:41:35.040 --> 02:41:44.399
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1414
02:41:48.440 --> 02:41:57.239
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1415
02:41:58.079 --> 02:42:02.639
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1416
02:42:06.920 --> 02:42:16.600
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

1417
02:42:21.680 --> 02:42:28.879
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1418
02:42:29.120 --> 02:42:34.799
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1419
02:42:38.239 --> 02:42:50.440
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1420
02:42:52.280 --> 02:43:07.440
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1421
02:43:09.000 --> 02:43:14.760
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1422
02:43:14.959 --> 02:43:29.479
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1423
02:43:32.040 --> 02:43:41.680
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1424
02:43:45.760 --> 02:43:51.479
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1425
02:43:54.200 --> 02:44:00.920
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1426
02:44:01.079 --> 02:44:08.719
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1427
02:44:08.799 --> 02:44:22.120
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1428
02:44:22.559 --> 02:44:35.559
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1429
02:44:35.639 --> 02:44:42.559
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1430
02:44:42.879 --> 02:44:51.479
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1431
02:44:53.239 --> 02:44:58.120
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1432
02:44:58.280 --> 02:45:05.520
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1433
02:45:08.639 --> 02:45:14.000
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1434
02:45:17.479 --> 02:45:23.520
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1435
02:45:24.040 --> 02:45:34.520
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1436
02:45:34.760 --> 02:45:42.559
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1437
02:45:44.879 --> 02:45:49.360
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1438
02:45:54.520 --> 02:46:02.840
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eye, noticing

1439
02:46:05.280 --> 02:46:15.000
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1440
02:46:15.040 --> 02:46:21.520
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1441
02:46:21.760 --> 02:46:36.159
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1442
02:46:36.639 --> 02:46:43.280
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

1443
02:46:43.440 --> 02:46:58.200
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose, as you focus now

1444
02:46:59.040 --> 02:47:06.120
on your jaw, not just the parts of your journey

1445
02:47:06.280 --> 02:47:10.680
your mouth and your chin, but all the way up

1446
02:47:11.440 --> 02:47:14.040
the size of your face to.

1447
02:47:14.120 --> 02:47:28.600
Your ears, that hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

1448
02:47:32.040 --> 02:47:49.799
And calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck,

1449
02:47:50.000 --> 02:48:02.799
and your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The side

1450
02:48:03.120 --> 02:48:07.959
of your neck, the right and the left side of

1451
02:48:08.079 --> 02:48:26.600
your neck relax and loose and calm. And now the

1452
02:48:26.879 --> 02:48:33.959
back of your neck, focusing on the back of your neck,

1453
02:48:39.920 --> 02:48:45.120
letting go of any tension that may have been there before,

1454
02:48:46.920 --> 02:49:01.000
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1455
02:49:01.200 --> 02:49:11.639
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1456
02:49:11.920 --> 02:49:18.479
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1457
02:49:19.760 --> 02:49:24.479
right from the top of your back all the way

1458
02:49:24.719 --> 02:49:37.360
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1459
02:49:37.479 --> 02:49:48.040
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1460
02:49:50.159 --> 02:49:54.600
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1461
02:49:56.799 --> 02:50:11.360
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1462
02:50:11.479 --> 02:50:21.959
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1463
02:50:22.159 --> 02:50:28.760
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1464
02:50:29.639 --> 02:50:35.879
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1465
02:50:37.600 --> 02:50:45.399
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1466
02:50:45.559 --> 02:50:51.399
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1467
02:50:55.760 --> 02:51:01.760
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1468
02:51:01.879 --> 02:51:11.360
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1469
02:51:17.159 --> 02:51:23.120
And in your lower back it seems to be an

1470
02:51:23.200 --> 02:51:37.360
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1471
02:51:39.680 --> 02:51:47.520
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1472
02:51:47.719 --> 02:51:56.479
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1473
02:51:56.559 --> 02:52:05.760
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1474
02:52:05.840 --> 02:52:19.280
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1475
02:52:26.000 --> 02:52:32.760
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1476
02:52:32.959 --> 02:52:43.600
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1477
02:52:44.440 --> 02:52:59.319
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1478
02:53:01.120 --> 02:53:16.360
you may notice that they're already feeding really loose, they're

1479
02:53:16.479 --> 02:53:42.559
already feeding calm, and they're feeding those muscles then move

1480
02:53:43.000 --> 02:53:58.799
from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1481
02:54:02.879 --> 02:54:24.479
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1482
02:54:31.840 --> 02:54:40.319
seens to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1483
02:54:41.559 --> 02:54:53.040
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1484
02:54:55.920 --> 02:55:05.760
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1485
02:55:08.600 --> 02:55:14.559
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1486
02:55:15.879 --> 02:55:33.680
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1487
02:55:33.920 --> 02:55:49.479
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1488
02:55:54.840 --> 02:56:06.479
into your arms? And you may feel almost as if

1489
02:56:06.559 --> 02:56:13.079
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1490
02:56:16.280 --> 02:57:02.440
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1491
02:57:02.799 --> 02:57:18.040
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1492
02:57:19.760 --> 02:57:46.280
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your forearments,

1493
02:57:46.760 --> 02:58:02.200
and your wrists feeing so heavy. Yet the same time,

1494
02:58:09.799 --> 02:59:10.239
sunlight and gentle Frey, see now on your hands, my hands,

1495
02:59:16.520 --> 02:59:46.120
so peaceful in your hands. There's a sense of real peace.

1496
02:59:57.879 --> 03:00:10.920
It just seems to I feel so familiar when your

1497
03:00:11.159 --> 03:01:19.799
hands relax deeply. Is your thing is a things? Sidles

1498
03:01:49.000 --> 03:02:22.440
you thing it tips Moving your attention to the front

1499
03:02:22.639 --> 03:02:53.440
of your body, so comfortable, moving your focus to your legs,

1500
03:04:12.239 --> 03:04:34.600
a muscles in your thighs, your knees.

1501
03:04:38.200 --> 03:05:16.159
So relaxed, a calf muscles and just shains, how pusy they.

1502
03:06:08.399 --> 03:07:15.360
Four and the.

1503
03:07:15.559 --> 03:07:36.520
Feathing in your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1504
03:07:43.680 --> 03:08:21.079
so calm, so peaceful, so calm.

1505
03:08:25.079 --> 03:08:58.520
So peace fall re sin peace fall so com loving

1506
03:08:58.639 --> 03:09:05.799
that deep vacation. Just spread your chest and your stomach,

1507
03:09:18.879 --> 03:09:37.639
letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1508
03:09:37.760 --> 03:09:49.200
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1509
03:09:49.280 --> 03:09:54.879
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1510
03:09:55.000 --> 03:10:00.479
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1511
03:10:00.719 --> 03:10:14.319
level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1512
03:10:20.959 --> 03:10:26.000
and the fervies you walk down those steps that a

1513
03:10:26.239 --> 03:10:37.360
deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1514
03:10:37.479 --> 03:16:09.959
twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixsting eight fourty four teen

1515
03:17:16.120 --> 03:23:34.799
too well five eight nine eight seven.

1516
03:23:00.799 --> 03:29:07.200
Six five four two.

1517
03:30:25.280 --> 03:31:15.799
One, And now.

1518
03:31:20.159 --> 03:31:32.840
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

1519
03:31:33.239 --> 03:31:44.399
from ten to tout one, focusing just on your eyes,

1520
03:31:48.120 --> 03:31:55.360
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye.

1521
03:31:55.399 --> 03:32:03.799
Walls themselves, our whole area that makes up your eye.

1522
03:32:14.719 --> 03:32:19.959
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1523
03:32:22.559 --> 03:32:35.479
whilst focusing on your eyes. You will become twice is

1524
03:32:35.680 --> 03:32:47.559
relaxed with each number counting down that you may find

1525
03:32:51.719 --> 03:32:57.440
the all you want to do is just drift off

1526
03:32:57.840 --> 03:33:06.959
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1527
03:33:07.120 --> 03:33:20.200
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1528
03:33:22.280 --> 03:33:27.719
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1529
03:33:27.920 --> 03:38:51.639
one right now, ten nine eight seven ye five four

1530
03:39:46.159 --> 03:42:55.959
e three two one two. Count down ten to one

1531
03:42:58.040 --> 03:43:22.319
ten nine eight seven six five four three two one.

1532
03:43:29.360 --> 03:43:32.239
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1533
03:43:32.319 --> 03:43:36.200
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1534
03:43:36.559 --> 03:43:46.239
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1535
03:43:46.319 --> 03:43:50.120
little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down from

1536
03:43:50.200 --> 03:43:52.879
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1537
03:43:53.840 --> 03:43:57.520
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1538
03:43:57.600 --> 03:44:07.120
counting down. I can try again, but this time I

1539
03:44:07.200 --> 03:44:14.360
go this lower. This time, as you focus on the

1540
03:44:14.520 --> 03:44:18.639
whole of your body before we focus on your legs,

1541
03:44:21.079 --> 03:44:30.280
just notice how your body does start to feel more

1542
03:44:30.719 --> 03:44:49.719
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine

1543
03:44:55.559 --> 03:46:24.639
eight seven six five four three two one, And just

1544
03:46:24.840 --> 03:46:30.760
notice how how you feel generally, how your body feels.

1545
03:46:37.440 --> 03:46:45.719
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1546
03:46:48.680 --> 03:47:02.120
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1547
03:47:05.680 --> 03:47:17.239
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1548
03:47:17.920 --> 03:47:22.639
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not

1549
03:47:23.520 --> 03:47:29.840
needing to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1550
03:47:30.840 --> 03:47:39.959
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1551
03:47:40.079 --> 03:47:44.639
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1552
03:47:44.719 --> 03:47:52.719
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1553
03:47:54.120 --> 03:48:09.799
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1554
03:48:11.360 --> 03:48:21.280
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1555
03:48:28.040 --> 03:48:40.760
Allows you to just slow down, someone to count again

1556
03:48:40.879 --> 03:48:47.040
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

1557
03:48:49.239 --> 03:48:53.680
the gap, And as it widens, it's almost like the

1558
03:48:55.399 --> 03:49:12.959
stress and attention falls into the gap and gives you

1559
03:49:13.040 --> 03:49:16.639
that distance, that space.

1560
03:49:19.040 --> 03:49:24.479
Now ten.

1561
03:49:28.840 --> 03:51:25.440
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now,

1562
03:51:25.680 --> 03:51:45.799
how does your body feel now? Can you notice that

1563
03:51:46.840 --> 03:52:23.879
the feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As we now

1564
03:52:24.040 --> 03:52:44.399
focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just gonna

1565
03:52:44.799 --> 03:53:04.200
start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not

1566
03:53:04.360 --> 03:53:12.799
the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure

1567
03:53:12.959 --> 03:53:15.559
like most of your body is not a lot going

1568
03:53:15.639 --> 03:53:28.280
on right now, just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1569
03:53:31.120 --> 03:53:34.799
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1570
03:53:37.040 --> 03:53:41.520
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1571
03:53:41.600 --> 03:53:46.840
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1572
03:53:47.920 --> 03:54:03.440
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joints. Now,

1573
03:54:03.520 --> 03:54:10.520
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1574
03:54:11.040 --> 03:54:17.000
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1575
03:54:17.719 --> 03:54:32.000
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1576
03:54:34.040 --> 03:54:46.719
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1577
03:54:47.399 --> 03:55:06.799
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1578
03:55:09.440 --> 03:55:22.920
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1579
03:55:23.040 --> 03:55:28.760
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

1580
03:55:28.840 --> 03:55:35.719
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1581
03:55:35.920 --> 03:55:50.399
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

1582
03:55:52.879 --> 03:56:02.159
I thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1583
03:56:08.760 --> 03:56:14.360
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1584
03:56:14.399 --> 03:56:17.200
you think, why am I sure that I should be

1585
03:56:17.280 --> 03:56:22.040
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1586
03:56:26.200 --> 03:56:28.479
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1587
03:56:29.520 --> 03:56:31.719
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1588
03:56:31.799 --> 03:56:35.520
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1589
03:56:35.559 --> 03:56:44.159
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1590
03:56:46.079 --> 03:56:54.000
gaining such an important part, and I think we don't

1591
03:56:54.120 --> 03:57:01.959
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1592
03:57:03.719 --> 03:57:08.799
all that my knees do for me until I have

1593
03:57:08.920 --> 03:57:12.239
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if.

1594
03:57:12.120 --> 03:57:12.479
I ever.

1595
03:57:13.920 --> 03:57:17.879
Maybe i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

1596
03:57:19.600 --> 03:57:25.799
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1597
03:57:25.879 --> 03:57:31.840
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1598
03:57:33.600 --> 03:57:40.840
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1599
03:57:41.079 --> 03:57:49.479
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1600
03:57:53.559 --> 03:57:58.200
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1601
03:57:58.280 --> 03:58:05.760
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1602
03:58:07.280 --> 03:58:09.879
and love to your knees for all that they do

1603
03:58:10.079 --> 03:58:23.079
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1604
03:58:23.200 --> 03:58:29.399
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1605
03:58:29.719 --> 03:58:47.120
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply. As you

1606
03:58:47.280 --> 03:58:52.479
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1607
03:58:53.360 --> 03:58:58.920
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1608
03:58:59.760 --> 03:59:13.159
and feet, incorporating the course. Your ankles so important. You know,

1609
03:59:13.239 --> 03:59:18.000
anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1610
03:59:18.040 --> 03:59:26.159
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1611
03:59:32.079 --> 03:59:34.040
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1612
03:59:34.159 --> 03:59:39.760
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1613
03:59:39.920 --> 03:59:44.719
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1614
03:59:44.840 --> 03:59:48.559
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1615
03:59:48.559 --> 03:59:54.600
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

1616
03:59:54.879 --> 04:00:04.520
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1617
04:00:04.600 --> 04:00:09.440
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

1618
04:00:10.799 --> 04:00:18.159
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1619
04:00:18.239 --> 04:00:33.280
ankles then leading to your feet that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1620
04:00:33.319 --> 04:00:39.040
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1621
04:00:39.159 --> 04:00:50.920
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps

1622
04:00:50.959 --> 04:01:03.639
you to get around and be mobile. And there's the

1623
04:01:03.719 --> 04:01:11.879
calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't

1624
04:01:11.879 --> 04:01:17.280
see the point in calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1625
04:01:18.399 --> 04:01:21.959
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1626
04:01:22.000 --> 04:01:25.520
get some work, but of course that's not true. The

1627
04:01:25.639 --> 04:01:30.000
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs

1628
04:01:35.639 --> 04:01:48.239
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1629
04:01:48.280 --> 04:01:53.000
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1630
04:02:00.600 --> 04:02:12.479
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1631
04:02:12.559 --> 04:02:14.479
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1632
04:02:14.559 --> 04:02:21.000
going to focus on the legs. I realize, but now

1633
04:02:21.079 --> 04:02:25.639
that I've mentioned your feet, you probably focuses on them anyway.

1634
04:02:26.200 --> 04:02:28.520
For maybe I should focus on your feet.

1635
04:02:28.239 --> 04:02:28.760
A little bit.

1636
04:02:32.799 --> 04:02:37.200
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1637
04:02:37.280 --> 04:02:41.639
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1638
04:02:41.760 --> 04:02:45.760
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1639
04:02:47.520 --> 04:02:58.319
I've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1640
04:02:58.600 --> 04:03:14.639
of comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy,

1641
04:03:16.719 --> 04:03:23.719
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1642
04:03:23.799 --> 04:03:28.559
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1643
04:03:28.760 --> 04:03:42.079
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1644
04:03:42.159 --> 04:03:47.479
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1645
04:03:48.280 --> 04:03:59.840
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1646
04:04:06.440 --> 04:04:13.959
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle there's

1647
04:04:14.000 --> 04:04:18.760
the blood vessels, the ar trees, it's all this stuff

1648
04:04:18.920 --> 04:04:27.600
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1649
04:04:27.760 --> 04:04:31.879
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1650
04:04:31.959 --> 04:04:38.159
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1651
04:04:38.399 --> 04:04:41.319
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1652
04:04:41.399 --> 04:04:46.200
the muscles, and to be able to just message inside

1653
04:04:46.280 --> 04:04:53.280
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1654
04:04:53.360 --> 04:05:02.600
in all the veins and just gently healing your thighs,

1655
04:05:06.520 --> 04:05:11.719
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1656
04:05:13.239 --> 04:05:18.120
just a message in those bones, but with healing fingertips

1657
04:05:19.520 --> 04:05:25.879
spreading that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1658
04:05:31.280 --> 04:05:35.000
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1659
04:05:35.079 --> 04:05:41.079
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a really

1660
04:05:41.319 --> 04:05:47.200
sensitive area vere it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1661
04:05:48.600 --> 04:05:51.959
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1662
04:05:52.159 --> 04:05:58.639
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1663
04:05:58.959 --> 04:06:05.680
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

1664
04:06:05.840 --> 04:06:10.680
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1665
04:06:18.520 --> 04:06:28.440
Of course, it's protected by your legs, so you can

1666
04:06:28.479 --> 04:06:33.840
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs.

1667
04:06:39.639 --> 04:06:43.280
Fold in between your legs, you can just massage with

1668
04:06:43.360 --> 04:06:50.479
your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the

1669
04:06:51.159 --> 04:07:00.399
muscle tissue. You can of course field the bone of

1670
04:07:00.559 --> 04:07:12.440
your knees, healing through your fingertips. And then as you

1671
04:07:12.559 --> 04:07:18.319
go down to your calf muscles, and that's the part

1672
04:07:18.360 --> 04:07:22.440
I'd like to be able to really put my fingertips

1673
04:07:22.600 --> 04:07:32.040
deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue

1674
04:07:32.159 --> 04:07:43.319
of that muscle, healing every part. And then doing the

1675
04:07:43.440 --> 04:07:51.559
same for my shins, massage in and gently stroking the bones,

1676
04:07:53.360 --> 04:07:59.040
gently stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1677
04:07:59.159 --> 04:08:05.520
deserve to be treated as the precious bones that they are,

1678
04:08:06.879 --> 04:08:10.120
because our legs are so precious as in all the

1679
04:08:10.200 --> 04:08:15.559
other parts of our body, the more precious of any

1680
04:08:15.680 --> 04:08:31.000
juel on the planet. When you start to think about

1681
04:08:34.399 --> 04:08:43.239
your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1682
04:08:45.959 --> 04:08:51.719
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1683
04:08:51.799 --> 04:08:58.559
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1684
04:08:58.639 --> 04:09:06.840
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1685
04:09:06.879 --> 04:09:14.719
your hands in your thighs the massage the muscles and

1686
04:09:14.840 --> 04:09:19.600
the bones, and to get your fingers deep in there,

1687
04:09:20.879 --> 04:09:29.600
releasing all tension, just to show how much you care

1688
04:09:32.879 --> 04:09:38.040
about your legs, how much you care for what your

1689
04:09:38.120 --> 04:09:47.760
legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

1690
04:09:52.079 --> 04:09:59.680
the strength of your ankles considering how thin they are

1691
04:10:00.040 --> 04:10:07.680
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah,

1692
04:10:07.760 --> 04:10:19.840
they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles

1693
04:10:20.200 --> 04:10:29.280
are truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1694
04:10:34.760 --> 04:10:41.719
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1695
04:10:42.920 --> 04:10:47.399
even if you're only eat eight stone, there's still a

1696
04:10:47.520 --> 04:10:54.079
lot of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a

1697
04:10:54.200 --> 04:11:02.399
lot heavier than eight stone doubled out, yet my ankles

1698
04:11:04.159 --> 04:11:11.799
support my body all the time, or they do give

1699
04:11:11.879 --> 04:11:16.440
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, as

1700
04:11:17.280 --> 04:11:24.440
you've got my whole legs do my feet feet also

1701
04:11:24.639 --> 04:11:52.040
go my toast clap. We're so happy. Your legs really

1702
04:11:53.520 --> 04:11:59.879
are amazing. And I know that talking about talking about

1703
04:12:00.079 --> 04:12:06.799
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1704
04:12:06.879 --> 04:12:14.399
things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not.

1705
04:12:16.000 --> 04:12:31.479
Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1706
04:12:31.600 --> 04:12:44.159
legs deserve not just respect. They deserve to relax deeply.

1707
04:12:51.479 --> 04:12:54.799
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1708
04:12:57.040 --> 04:13:25.760
to just let go completely. The legs really can relax.

1709
04:13:33.399 --> 04:13:37.479
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1710
04:13:37.760 --> 04:13:43.680
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1711
04:13:43.760 --> 04:13:51.000
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1712
04:13:54.760 --> 04:14:05.559
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1713
04:14:06.959 --> 04:14:14.079
My hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back

1714
04:14:14.159 --> 04:14:20.760
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1715
04:14:21.879 --> 04:14:24.920
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1716
04:14:25.040 --> 04:14:30.239
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing,

1717
04:14:31.239 --> 04:14:33.840
but it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1718
04:14:33.920 --> 04:14:39.479
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1719
04:14:39.639 --> 04:15:01.920
tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

1720
04:15:02.000 --> 04:15:09.440
count down from ten downs to one, and you can

1721
04:15:09.559 --> 04:15:38.319
continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1722
04:15:42.959 --> 04:16:11.000
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1723
04:16:11.120 --> 04:16:16.479
count down from five down to one. And as a countdown,

1724
04:16:17.760 --> 04:16:22.520
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1725
04:16:24.200 --> 04:16:33.159
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1726
04:16:34.920 --> 04:16:39.319
as you hear the numbers counting down. Knowing that those

1727
04:16:39.479 --> 04:16:52.520
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1728
04:16:52.639 --> 04:17:01.000
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1729
04:17:01.040 --> 04:17:07.079
how you feel there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1730
04:17:07.760 --> 04:17:45.559
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four, three, two.

1731
04:17:51.360 --> 04:17:51.600
One.

1732
04:18:01.040 --> 04:18:12.879
And as you notice the gradual letting go that the

1733
04:18:13.040 --> 04:18:20.680
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1734
04:18:20.799 --> 04:18:28.000
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1735
04:18:29.360 --> 04:18:35.959
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1736
04:18:38.559 --> 04:18:43.760
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1737
04:18:43.840 --> 04:18:49.719
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

1738
04:18:51.319 --> 04:18:54.959
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1739
04:18:55.120 --> 04:19:05.600
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1740
04:19:06.879 --> 04:19:14.760
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1741
04:19:14.799 --> 04:19:21.760
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1742
04:19:22.280 --> 04:19:27.520
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1743
04:19:27.600 --> 04:19:32.760
the television on, there's no music in the background, unless

1744
04:19:32.760 --> 04:19:40.200
you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're

1745
04:19:40.360 --> 04:19:42.479
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1746
04:19:42.559 --> 04:19:47.120
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1747
04:19:47.319 --> 04:19:50.399
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1748
04:19:52.120 --> 04:20:02.159
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1749
04:20:08.760 --> 04:20:19.040
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1750
04:20:23.559 --> 04:20:30.200
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1751
04:20:30.600 --> 04:20:42.360
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1752
04:20:42.520 --> 04:20:52.680
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1753
04:20:52.799 --> 04:20:59.639
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1754
04:20:59.799 --> 04:21:03.719
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1755
04:21:03.840 --> 04:21:15.440
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1756
04:21:15.879 --> 04:21:26.079
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1757
04:21:27.680 --> 04:21:38.040
allow you to take advantage of this space this time.

1758
04:21:40.959 --> 04:21:41.520
It's just.

1759
04:21:45.680 --> 04:21:46.000
Let go.

1760
04:21:49.120 --> 04:21:57.319
To just be here, to be in tune with how

1761
04:21:57.440 --> 04:22:10.799
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1762
04:22:10.959 --> 04:22:22.280
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1763
04:22:22.479 --> 04:22:28.600
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1764
04:22:35.600 --> 04:22:44.959
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1765
04:22:45.079 --> 04:22:50.239
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1766
04:22:50.399 --> 04:22:58.159
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed do you become,

1767
04:23:02.120 --> 04:23:20.120
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

1768
04:23:20.159 --> 04:23:31.000
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1769
04:23:36.920 --> 04:24:06.040
the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly

1770
04:24:13.159 --> 04:24:41.040
and just observing the sensation of letting go completely. This time,

1771
04:24:41.200 --> 04:24:49.360
I'm going to count from six down to one, and

1772
04:24:49.639 --> 04:24:59.959
you can notice your mind calming down more with each number.

1773
04:25:00.000 --> 04:25:13.120
About did you hear me say, naturally feeling calm and

1774
04:25:13.399 --> 04:26:44.559
slow and be peaceful, six, five, four, three.

1775
04:27:15.520 --> 04:28:14.040
Two four, being aware.

1776
04:28:16.840 --> 04:28:32.879
How your mind to slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1777
04:28:46.600 --> 04:28:53.399
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1778
04:28:53.639 --> 04:29:03.399
that there's some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

1779
04:29:03.600 --> 04:29:11.719
that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1780
04:29:18.719 --> 04:29:20.000
So what you can do is.

1781
04:29:25.520 --> 04:29:38.040
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love.

1782
04:29:39.760 --> 04:29:44.000
Might all petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them,

1783
04:29:45.440 --> 04:29:52.600
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1784
04:29:52.799 --> 04:29:59.239
thoughts know that you're not abandon in them. You just

1785
04:29:59.680 --> 04:30:09.760
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1786
04:30:12.120 --> 04:30:26.959
quiet down. And now, so as you focus on those

1787
04:30:27.719 --> 04:30:32.639
remaining thoughts, as we count down this time from seven

1788
04:30:33.520 --> 04:30:42.200
down to one, with each number, just imagine sprinkling those

1789
04:30:42.440 --> 04:30:52.879
flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude.

1790
04:30:55.399 --> 04:31:04.760
Over those thoughts, which will allow them to just not

1791
04:31:05.000 --> 04:31:08.239
away and relax deeply.

1792
04:31:12.079 --> 04:31:26.479
Of every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed.

1793
04:31:32.120 --> 04:34:03.200
Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one. And

1794
04:34:03.479 --> 04:34:20.880
as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in your body,

1795
04:34:29.240 --> 04:34:42.479
we're going to focus on your hands, because the more

1796
04:34:42.599 --> 04:34:49.639
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1797
04:34:49.919 --> 04:34:50.520
mind are.

1798
04:35:05.439 --> 04:35:06.080
And there's.

1799
04:35:07.599 --> 04:35:17.720
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1800
04:35:18.240 --> 04:35:23.000
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1801
04:35:24.080 --> 04:35:34.360
dancing the fingers or anything like that. Yeah, it's just

1802
04:35:34.880 --> 04:35:48.880
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1803
04:36:03.520 --> 04:36:14.000
Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1804
04:36:14.240 --> 04:36:15.799
mind feels.

1805
04:36:17.240 --> 04:36:18.680
And the more.

1806
04:36:21.200 --> 04:36:26.119
Comfort you feel throughout your body.

1807
04:36:31.319 --> 04:36:32.159
And you.

1808
04:36:34.840 --> 04:37:06.119
May have already noticed your mind is starting to dress

1809
04:37:19.919 --> 04:37:34.200
like sense just on your hands and fingers, allowing them

1810
04:37:35.279 --> 04:37:48.680
to experience how real deepening of that relaxation in your

1811
04:37:48.880 --> 04:38:15.439
hands and fingers war or relaxed. With each number from

1812
04:38:15.599 --> 04:38:28.959
eight down to one, you can almost view that healing

1813
04:38:30.439 --> 04:38:42.319
and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming

1814
04:38:46.799 --> 04:38:56.200
year law relaxing. With each number.

1815
04:38:58.240 --> 04:38:58.959
You hear.

1816
04:39:02.759 --> 04:39:17.520
Coming down eight down to one to drifting to drifting

1817
04:39:17.639 --> 04:39:36.639
again starting with number eight.

1818
04:40:00.279 --> 04:40:14.919
At seven.

1819
04:40:31.759 --> 04:41:44.119
Day four.

1820
04:42:03.599 --> 04:43:32.560
Three. Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

1821
04:43:32.639 --> 04:43:43.479
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calm.

1822
04:43:48.400 --> 04:43:56.159
This is your natural state of being. This is how

1823
04:43:56.319 --> 04:44:02.880
you just normally feel when you take away all that

1824
04:44:03.279 --> 04:44:10.680
other stuff that we add, you know, things like stress

1825
04:44:10.840 --> 04:44:26.439
and worrying and overthinking, the anxiety, tension, just generally thinking

1826
04:44:26.520 --> 04:44:27.240
about stuff.

1827
04:44:29.479 --> 04:44:33.400
You take that away, which is what we do. What

1828
04:44:33.560 --> 04:44:34.439
we do now.

1829
04:44:40.680 --> 04:44:51.919
You're left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes

1830
04:44:52.080 --> 04:45:01.400
to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1831
04:45:05.799 --> 04:45:14.159
a feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside

1832
04:45:14.240 --> 04:45:26.400
yourself and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1833
04:45:29.360 --> 04:45:34.680
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1834
04:45:36.880 --> 04:45:43.200
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1835
04:45:47.919 --> 04:45:54.919
where you can accept yourself for who you are, the

1836
04:45:55.040 --> 04:46:01.759
place where you're not trying to please anybody else everyone,

1837
04:46:05.560 --> 04:46:14.119
the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1838
04:46:14.240 --> 04:46:23.799
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate.

1839
04:46:24.560 --> 04:46:25.639
Who you are.

1840
04:46:34.479 --> 04:46:41.040
That sense of gratitude, he's in the air all around you.

1841
04:46:48.720 --> 04:46:50.880
That's also a place where you.

1842
04:46:53.200 --> 04:46:55.200
Can actually feel.

1843
04:46:56.520 --> 04:47:10.599
The healing energy soaking into your body, healing energy soaking

1844
04:47:11.840 --> 04:47:22.240
into your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1845
04:47:26.040 --> 04:47:30.799
travel into each and every single part.

1846
04:47:32.240 --> 04:47:32.919
Of your body.

1847
04:47:38.840 --> 04:47:43.439
When you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

1848
04:47:45.919 --> 04:47:52.319
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1849
04:47:52.840 --> 04:48:01.000
of your brain, and the spine fluid.

1850
04:48:03.279 --> 04:48:11.279
Is now mixed with healing energy, not just.

1851
04:48:13.400 --> 04:48:19.880
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and healthy

1852
04:48:21.400 --> 04:48:32.840
in this moment, but also you start to realize to actually,

1853
04:48:35.360 --> 04:48:44.279
what's happening now is that healing, relaxing energy spreading through

1854
04:48:44.479 --> 04:48:57.279
your body. It's actually changing your life. It's actually changing

1855
04:48:57.400 --> 04:49:03.240
the way you're going to feel just now, but tomorrow

1856
04:49:04.400 --> 04:49:13.200
and the next day. There's your health improves, not just

1857
04:49:13.360 --> 04:49:21.240
your physical health, but your mental health. Things that used

1858
04:49:21.319 --> 04:49:27.040
to bother you in the past, for some reason, no

1859
04:49:27.240 --> 04:49:35.159
longer have the effect that they used to because something

1860
04:49:35.360 --> 04:49:37.000
has changed.

1861
04:49:38.080 --> 04:49:39.319
Deep within you.

1862
04:49:44.400 --> 04:49:50.799
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1863
04:49:54.599 --> 04:50:01.959
no longer have that power to control you.

1864
04:50:04.439 --> 04:50:06.840
The way they seem to be able to before.

1865
04:50:10.520 --> 04:50:21.319
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1866
04:50:21.680 --> 04:50:33.360
affects you, You're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1867
04:50:34.240 --> 04:50:47.000
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

1868
04:50:48.040 --> 04:51:00.279
developments and the healing continue to grow and then through

1869
04:51:00.799 --> 04:51:11.799
your life day by day, including of course your ability

1870
04:51:13.880 --> 04:51:29.000
to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's the most

1871
04:51:29.279 --> 04:51:39.520
natural thing in the world to you because for in

1872
04:51:39.680 --> 04:51:41.520
the sleep is something.

1873
04:51:41.240 --> 04:51:52.080
That you've done so many times in your life, and

1874
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you know that you were born, as we all.

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Were, with the ability fall asleep naturally. The poor, with

1876
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that ability.

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To just drift are into a deep, healing sleep.

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Even when we're kids, sometimes we will fall asleep and

1879
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we don't even want to try to stay awake. Maybe

1880
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it's a birthday in the morning, night, it's Christmas or holiday.

1881
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Or something we look forward to. We don't want to

1882
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go to sleep. But the more we want to stay awake,

1883
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the more we just start to drift.

1884
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And the more or you fight it's drifting or we

1885
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try to stop beside from drifting a safe the deeper

1886
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is stronger thout drifting becomes because we're born not just

1887
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with the need to relax.

1888
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Deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our.

1889
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Birthright, it's part of our DNA. And sometimes as we

1890
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get older in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten

1891
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that relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

1892
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it's also really easy.

1893
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It's very very easy to let go, because.

1894
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That's all it is.

1895
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It is just.

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Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1897
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button on my recordings, you have given permission.

1898
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For Michael.

1899
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To election.

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When you press that play button, you've given.

1901
04:55:09.799 --> 04:55:22.279
Me permission from my words to effect you in a positive.

1902
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Find me a positive way.

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Opening up.

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The mind to useful and healing.

1905
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Suggestions that you can have so amazing effects.

1906
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Allow you feel right now, as well.

1907
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As those changes that continue long after the recording ends.

1908
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Those changes within the continue to flourish and grow, transforming

1909
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your life in positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

1910
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forward in your life in the direction that you need.

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For yourself. And this feeling, this feeling.

1912
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And experience of safety, comfort, halmness.

1913
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This feels so nice.

1914
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That's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1915
04:57:56.400 --> 04:57:58.799
grows within.

1916
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An every day living Do you had to find? You

1917
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asked physically, and do you mind?

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It's a word that.

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Is that you're thinking one?

1920
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It's just didn't mind would be.

1921
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Less du.

1922
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Ummssary negativity? Now do you mind to be Jakes negativity.

1923
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Now you can start to see.

1924
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Made it to the two Wises.

1925
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Do you say, stoop

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Stop, make it to the tea