May 23, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1358 | 23rd May 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1358 | 23rd May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. And this

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is Q and A Friday. Bla la la la la lulu. Yeah, Hi, Hi,

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So my name is Adjason new Land. Please only listen

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when you can safely close your eyes.

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Right.

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It's one fifty five pm in the afternoon on Friday,

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the twenty third of Moy two thousand and five, No,

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two thousand and fifth, twenty twenty five. Wow, so nineteen

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ninety five O five, fifty thirty years ago. Now I'm

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just thinking it's weird. I've got these memories of stuff

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that happened thirty years ago, and I'm just like, how

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can it really be thirty years ago? Right? So it's

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Q and A Friday. It's all right. Outside, it's a

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bit it's kind of glum and bright, a little bit

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of both today out there. It's not cold, it's yeah.

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There was a lot of activity. It disbuilded last night,

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a lot of doors slamming, like you know, till early hours.

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I'm not quite sure what that was about, but I'm

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up here, so I didn't. I wasn't getting involved. I

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think it just might have just been a lot of

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a lot of traffic, perhaps maybe maybe a little bit

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of traffic. Oh that's nice sort of plane to come

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over while I'm doing this. How pleasant. So I've got

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a message here on my Facebook group or my Facebook

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group Jason Newlands Boring Group. You can find a link

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to that group or by going to Jasonnewland dot com.

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And it's literally right at the top is a banner

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at the top of the page. Join Jason Newland's boring group.

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Click on that and it takes you straight there. I

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wonder what it is on the Facebook page, on the

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the on the phone. Yeah, they're both together as well,

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side by side, and I'll take you straight to the

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page and you can join. You can join. So I

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had a message from Claire Clara Claire. I'm not sure

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if I'm pronouncing that right, Claire Cloa, who hoped my

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name on your podcast. Thank you for the welcome. You're welcome.

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Thank you for welcoming the welcome. I did do a

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recording yesterday. It was number one thousand, three hundred and

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fifty seven. That's weird. Got a fly A fly. I

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don't know if it's the same fly. It must be

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a different fly. It's weird because I just had Vinnie

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on my not on my lap, but to the left

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of me, as I was sitting down with my feet

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up and I was watching a boxing YouTube channel, and

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then he was asleep, and suddenly he just reached up

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and snapped out a fly. It's like one of those

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movies with those plants that move really quick, except shape

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as a jack russell. He's been a bit weird today

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and no more weird than any other time.

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A bit stroge.

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So what I'm going to do? Ah, I've got six. Nope,

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I haven't got There's a bird outside that goes like that.

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That wasn't too loud, so I thought it was one

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of the neighbors. So he used to have a neighbor

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that lived over the fence that used to squawk like

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a pigeon. But early in the morning. I'm talking like

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six in the morning, five six in the morning, four

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in the morning, it'd be like doing that noise. He

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was a bit of a character, this one. He doesn't

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live around here anymore, but I remember once he was

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my neighbor who lived the other side of the built

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of the block where he lived. I knew him, and

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he was like he was a friend, and he said

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he got woken up at about five in the morning,

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someone was outside his bedroom window. Bearing in mind he

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lived upstairs, okay, these were like studio apartments. He looked

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outside and it was the neighbor from downstairs on a

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ladder painting his window frame pink. No apparent reason, just

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decided it would be a good idea that didn't end well,

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it's just that I don't think it was the choice

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of color. But you can't. First of all, these frames

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are not wooden. They're like double blazing frames, so it

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can't really be painting them, I don't think, and I'm

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not sure the counsel liked that. Another thing he did

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is he would spend like he's got tight. He had

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a tiny little bit of grass in front or out

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the back, a tiny little bit of grass that was

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kind of his little area. And I'm talking very small,

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very small little. If you think of the smallest garden,

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the half of it half that, you know, it's really

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tiny little. He would spend all day long mowing it.

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I mean you could literally probably cut it with scissors

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now scissors in about half that time he was I

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don't know, it was just on pills, and he'd be

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doing it all day. Had another one lived over there.

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These are people that live over the fence. It's a

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different world over there. This bloke, he doesn't live there

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anymore either. He used to have palettes delivered, wooden palettes,

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like from a lorry. It'd have a big pile delivered,

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and it did this in the summer. I think. Yeah,

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so basically spend so this big, massive pile of palettes,

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wooden palettes. It's spend all day breaking them up with

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an axe, which was very noisy, as I'm sure you

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can imagine, all day long, and then the evening it'd

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have a bonfire. And that was his routine for the

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whole of the summer. So's noise all day, smoke all night.

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And bonfires, however lovely they may be, you know, are

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like a nice bonfire, but it's not great. I think

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bonfires are better in the winter because in the summer,

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I don't know about you, but I kind of like

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to have my windows open. Probably need to have my

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windows open, like in the in the in the evening,

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in the evening in the summer, and that's not ideal

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to have smoke coming in. But it's a different kind

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of smoke, isn't it. Bonfire smoke. I remember I was

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at a bonfire, and it's a place that I lived.

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This is the Buddhist community, and it was this fire

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and there was a big like meeting together and giving

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one I suppose, like a party kind of thing, as

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much of a party as Buddhists can do. And I

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didn't even notice it until the next day. Every item

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of clothing that I'd worn that evening stunk like really bad.

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But I didn't notice the smaller smoke when I was

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out there because I wasn't even you know, I was

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avoiding the smoke. I was just near the fire, but

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you know, I wouldn't like stand there or sit there

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and then smoke pumping into me. Yeah, but quite smelly. Yeah.

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I had some strange had a fantasist living over there

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as well, a different bloke. Gossip. It's all gossip, isn't it. Yeah.

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He was unusual character.

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He is.

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I mean, he was in all the national papers. He

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was quite famous. I couldn't believe it, but I got

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one right of actually, but it was just one day.

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I'll do it. I could write a book. My name

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is to say that I could write a Guinness book

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of records of everything I've done, been through, and I'm

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thinking about herself that I could write a book just

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about the neighbors. I'd have to be very careful of

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see not to name any of them. But I don't

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think you'd even believe even ten percent of what I've

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seen and heard and experienced since I've lived here, and

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not just here, but all the other places I've lived,

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all the different houses I've shared. Wow, Seriously, you'd think

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I was making it up, and I probably would be.

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That's the problem. So I've got Mike. These are the

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people that have left me questions for today. So the

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very beginning, I'm going to mention everyone's name, so you

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know that I have answered your question, maybe not very well,

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but I've at least attempted. So first of all was Mike.

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Then it's Ben, Cindy Hope, but I will mention Hope

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that she didn't actually ask the question, but it's part

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of the Cindy's question, and then Alie Oh Hope. Yeah,

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Pope has got a difference. She's got a question as well,

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and Sandy, So Sandy, Hope, Ali, Cindy, Ben, and Mike. Yeah.

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So it's one, two, three, four, five, six questions, And

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I hope that those who asked the questions, those you

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have asked the questions, and when you hear the answers,

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I hope it's it's everything you hoped it would be.

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I just I don't know what I'm going to say,

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because you know I don't always tell the truth. So

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I'll try a little bit. Okay. So Sebastian has mentioned

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b in another cover which he likes to do. I

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want to meet you at the beach tonight. What, as

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Sebastian wrote Jason, maybe he even wants to go to

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a hotel room every hour. Sebastian sends me another message.

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He loves going on his AI things and if he

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sees a picture that is he just if you can

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see a way to make fun of me, he does.

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Right here we go. Mike has asked, as I was

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falling asleep last night to the Schools episode Schools, I

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was at the boring, the boring Monday's boring thing. I

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think I was wondering how much you plan out what

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you're going to say? Do you develop an outline or

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do you just jump in and wing it? Does your

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mind ever go blank and you find yourself at a

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loss for words? Right well, with the I'll talk just

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about the let Me Buoy the sleep recordings, because with

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the occasionally I will work out what I'm roughly going

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to say with the if I do a hypnosis recording,

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although nine see nine percent of all my hypnosis recordings

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that are being just me talking off the top of

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my head. And the only preparation would be maybe having

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a concept. So if it was a relaxation technique, for example,

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and let's say it involved a biscuits in, I don't

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know why it would involve a biscuit in. So I'm saying,

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I want to have a biscuit tin, and I'm gonna

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crumble up all the biscuits and just shake the biscuits

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and then make some holes in the biscuits here at

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the bottom and just shake them and watch those biscuit

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drops just filtered down, and as as they fall to

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filtered down and fall out of the bottom of the

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biscuits in, you know, you feel more relaxed and calmer

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something like that. It's just sounds rubbish and it sounds

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a bit crummy. Oh So with the let Me boy

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to sleep, the most I do regarding preparation for most

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of them would be just to think about a subject.

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A lot of the times, when it comes to let's

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say Monday's boring objects, I don't know. Usually I don't

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know what I'm going to talk about until I start.

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I wasn't going to talk about I don't think I

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was even going to talk about schools when I I

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first started that recording with the trivia Tuesday, yeah, I do.

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That's much more planned as far as you know. Look

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up the trivia bits and yes, there's a little bit

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more planning than that. And with the Q and A Fridays,

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of course, I have the questions in front of me,

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so in a sense, you plan what I'm going to

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talk about. But outside of that, no, I don't know.

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So when I didn't, I had a little skip through

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the questions before I started this. But I've got no

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idea what I'm going to say until I say it.

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With the School's episode, for example, I ended up talking

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about schools, so I just went with it. I don't

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have any kind of outline or structure for what I'm

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going to talk about pretty much ever, other than when

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it's a if it's a trivia one, the structure is

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just reading out the trivia. The trivia's were thinking about

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something to talk about, and then focused on that subject

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and finding the trivia bits of information and maybe commenting

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on it. So it's organized, but not really Q and

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a Friday. It's just I just answer, just honestly ish

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if I can. But generally no, I don't. I don't

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have any idea what I'm going to talk about. I

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mean sometimes I don't. It's not that I my mind

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never really goes blank. It did. That is actually it's

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not totally true. I mean, I know I am a

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hero to a lot of you out there. Altogether, there's

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a hero if you look inside your pants, right, And

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I like, I quite like the idea that it is.

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I thought the way that the recording has come out

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that it would seem like they were just pretty much

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ad libbed, because they are. It's just me just talking.

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I didn't I didn't think they seemed very structured. I mean,

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a Q and a Friday is kind of structured in

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a sense of I'm just answering questions. So there is

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a degree of structure, and if I focus on let's say,

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a boring object, the only structure, okay, there is a

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structure with that in the sense of I choose a subject.

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So let's say if I choose mobile phones for an example,

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as a subject, I will have that little reminder in

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my head to bring the subject back mobile phones. So

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when I'm starting to talk about dolphins and you know,

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tree houses and stuff like that, then I realized, we've

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got to bring it back to mobile phones. So I

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managed to bring it back. I don't generally have that

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little voice in my head when I do just a

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general recording. And also even when I do the let's

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say a sleep normal sleep recording, if you want to

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call it hypnosis, a body scam, whatever, even if I

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have an idea of something that I'm going to discuss.

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So maybe I decided I'm just going to focus on

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each part of the body and imagine the wind is

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just blowing through that part of the body. And then

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when I get to start the recording, I might change

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my mind and decide to say the word relax five

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times or something like that with each time, you know,

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where as you focus on each part of the body

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or you know. So it's not I kind of wish

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I was more structured, but I think if I was

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more structured, i'd be I probably I've got more chance

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of being successful possibly if I was structured, but at

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the same time, I wouldn't be able to produce as

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many recordings as I do because for me, structure reduces

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I'm not going to say reduces creativity, but quite for

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me it does a little bit. I like the idea

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of being able to not know what I'm going to

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say because it amuses me then and I'm kind of

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interested in what I'm going to say next because I

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never know what I'm going to, what subject I'm going

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to end up talking about, or what direction I'm going

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to traveling. I really don't know. Now. Occasionally it's not

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so much that I find myself a loss for words,

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but occasionally, and this is true. I'm telling you. This

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is Mike. I'm telling you this, Mike is very true.

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And I did one recently. I do. I do recording

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and I'm just in a rotten mood. But I didn't

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realize until I started the recording, and I have to

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stop occasionally. I've done the whole recording and just trushed it.

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The other day I started I think I was to

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do a trivia Tuesday, and I I like, nah. I

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tried I think four different attempts to try to do it,

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and it wasn't the right day, so yeah, I just

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I abandoned it. Which is kind of weird because sometimes

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I might not feel in the mood to do recorded,

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but once I start the recording, I cheer up, and

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when I've completed the recording, I feel good like I've

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actually accomplished something, like I've contributed something to the world

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in my little way. But sometimes it's just a no go.

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As far as a loss for words. I think, if

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if I'm in if I'm talking to human, yeah I'm

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not Mike, I'm not saying you're not human, don't ever

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go at me. And what I think if I was

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face to face with one person I had this would

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be I mean, I think the reason why it is

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easier because there's no interruption. There's nothing interrupting my stream

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of thought. If if this is a conversation, then I

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would have to stop talking and it'd just be a

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different process because in order to get to some of

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the I guess more weird things that come out of

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my mouth, it takes a bit of traveling, It takes

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a bit of I need to like just let go,

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just you know, be free. Without I was gonna say

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without censuring myself. But you know what I do, I

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don't sense to myself. But in the end, I kind

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of do a little bit, but I generally don't. Generally

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Occasionally I said something and I edit it out and

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I think, no, it's like no, And you might be thinking, yeah,

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but you said something the other day and didn't edit

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that out. What kind of stuff do you edit out?

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What it's like? What I know, I'll just you got it. Well,

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you haven't got to remember, but you could maybe you

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think that. Yeah, sometimes I leave stuff in It makes

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me laugh. I know it might sound strange, but I've

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just I just sometimes find things funny, and even when

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I listen back to it, it just makes me giggle because

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it's just so ridiculous. Love I like absurd, I do.

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I like absurd, and but I like I like everything.

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I like so well, anything that makes me laugh I like.

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And I lost for words. No, there's a freedom. This

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is freedom for me. This is the only time I

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feel free is when I can just talk and I

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can just be me. And I think I found my

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voice over the last eight years, which might sound weird

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because it's a long period of time. Is it seven?

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How many years. Is it seven years? Not eight years?

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Is seven years? Seven years? Sorry, Since I've been doing

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since twenty eighteen, since I've been doing these, let me

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boy to sleep or lumbits lumbits lumbits bites. Yeah, since

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I being doing these, I think I've discovered my voice.

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At the same time, I realized I'm not a bad

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person really, just you know, stuff I come out with.

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I'm not out to cause anyone problems. I don't really

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have any I don't really have much in a way

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of extreme views. I never really wanted to have extreme views.

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You know. I grew up in a society in the seventies.

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You know, I was born in nineteen seventies, so I

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went through the seventies where there was a lot of

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extreme views around to do with well every single aspect

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of life really, And as I got older, you know,

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once I kind of reached I mean, it still went

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on through the eighties as well, but as I started

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to get older, I realized that these views that I

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had weren't my views, and I started to do something

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about it. Started to educate myself a bit. And by

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educate myself, I mean just just read and listen read

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other people's opinions, I think that can be educating. So

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if you've got one side of the argument and that's

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the only side of the argument you ever hear, it's

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going to kind of make sense, especially if you're a

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kid and you've grown up with that. But then if

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you see the other side of the argument, it can

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be like it could be annoying, it can be difficult

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to hear. But then if you see another part of

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the argument from a different perspective, and then again from

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another perspective, And the more perspectives you get, the I

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think the more educated I became realizing that it is

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opinions and perspective and experiences. People. You know, we've all

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got different experiences, and it's yeah, I'm not not really

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into the extremest things, and it is I can't neighbor.

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It's proper, proper right wing always shouting on about it.

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And they it's like it's almost like they'd they read

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the sun and that's where they get their their opinions from.

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That's where they get their information from, and everything's kind

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of based around. It's like no new knowledge is going

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to go in because they've got that fixed, that fixed mentality,

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that that model that's there. I realized this has got

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nothing to do with the question, is it, But yeah,

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for me, yeah I do. I'm trying to explain that

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sometimes I do have a loss for words, but not

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really generally, not in this, not for this podcast. I'm

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hm hmm. I mean, there are better days. Some days.

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I guess I'm probably a bit more upbeat than others.

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I try not to be. I try not to I

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try to keep it light if I can, but it's

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not always, not always easy, you know. But at the

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same time, this isn't therapy for me. I'm not talking

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to help myself therapeutically, or though it might be helping me,

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maybe it'll be helping other people in some ways. To

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hear someone talking. And you know, if I don't really

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mention my mental health travels, journeys, whatever you want to

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call it, over the last fifty years, you know, fifty

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odd years, I don't really go into it too much detail.

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But I think maybe for some people would look at this,

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look at where I am now, and I'm doing all right,

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all things considered. You know, I'm still here. According to

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some of the messages I get, I'm helping people and

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I'm doing something positive with my time. And and then

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my psychologist said this to me, because I remember saying

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this is years ago. She said, can you put your

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trouser back on? Please? Like she said, didn't he what

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do you want? You want to a treat? I gotta go,

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and I'm not gonna go. You can hear me. I'm

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just gonna go and get my treat out of the packet.

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All right? All right, here we go. How did that

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get on the law? We stopped checking my stuff on

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the floor? Wow? I wait, So I've got this good

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boy chewy chicken twists with one hundred natural chicken breast meat,

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promotes dental hygiene and a complimentary pet food. Did you

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hear what you said? He said, I don't care what

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it says on the packet, just give me it. All right. Well,

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I'm trying to open it. He's sitting on both his

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He basically sitting on his bum with his hands in

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the air, like just there you go. I'm not sure

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if he learned to do that or if he was

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taught it, or I don't know if he just did it,

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because he's always done it since I've had him. But

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he was ten months old and I got him right,

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So that's that. Uh, yeah, I'm a psychologist. And this

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is probably eight nine years ago, she said to me

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because I said, well, I don't feel that i'm really

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helping society. I'm not help I'm not contributing. That's it.

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I'm not contributing to society being at home and not

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going to work or whatever. And she said, yeah, but

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society is not just your local area. Society is not

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just your country. Society is the world, isn't it. Society

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is everywhere? And I said, what are you talking about?

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She said, I don't know. I'm just trying to make

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you feel better. I said, it's because it's Friday afternoon.

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You're just waiting to go home. She said, yeah, I

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just wish you'd stop talking. I said, well, we can

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have a cup tea if you want. You said, no,

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I don't trust your tea. I said, I'm not going

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to put anything in it. She said that's a problem.

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An empty cup is no good. Does not question my

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first I said it was a silly conversation, but I

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just said, ah, I didn't think about it really like that.

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She said, well, you got people listening. I mean, if

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you forget the world, you've got people listening in this

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country just because no one's listening locally. I said, yeah,

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got a few. I suppose a few thousand around the

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country that listen. She said, there you go. So for so,

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I guess in a way I am. From then on,

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I kind of thought maybe I saw a little bit differently.

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I am contributing to society in my own little way,

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in my own weird way. See. Yeah, and maybe if

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someone's listening, if they're like, you're very young maybe or

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I don't have to be young, but they might be listening.

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They might have a bipile or a personality disorder, some

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kind of mental health issue, and wondering like what's going

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to become of them and how they're going to get

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how they gonna you know, what's it like to Is

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it even possible to be like that and be in

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your thirties and forties and fifties, And yeah, it is possible.

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I'm proof of that. I was going to say living proof,

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but I don't know if I have to say a

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word of living considering I'm talking. I just heard this

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weird sound outside in the garden, and I didn't know

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what it was, so I just had a little look

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and it's a man looks like he's washing the windows,

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which I'm kind of a little bit confused because but

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these are downstairs windows. Now, I know we have people

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wash the communal windows, but I've never had anyone washing

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my actual windows from outside, not in ten years i've

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lived there. So I've closed the windows just in case

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he's gonna wash them. Literally, I've got us. It's nominally

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joking it. I've got cobwebs that have been outside my window.

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I can't reach them to wash them, been out there

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for so long. If you get a magnifying glass, you

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can actually see one in a like a little rocking chair,

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smoking a pipe, another one knitting because the spiders is

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because they're so old. That would work on some level.

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I'm sure this needs a bit of rewriting. And Ben,

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when you were young and your dad collected you all again,

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did you have any pets? Right? So this is referring

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to when I left the children's home at seven, just

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before I was seven, the summer before I was seven.

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Why do I say summer so loudly? And nineteen seventy

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seven it was it was literally I think we moved

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there and Elvis passed away. That was. It was that

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kind of period. I remember that day because it rained

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so hard. And I mean this was nineteen seventy seven.

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This is when summers lasted for like it's for seemingly

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for weeks. I mean, whether they did or not, I

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don't know, but we definitely seventy five, seventy six, seventy

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seven we had some pretty long hot summers in the UK.

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And I remember walking I don't know, I think we

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were walking back from the beach and it pelted down

469
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and I've not said the word pelted for a long time,

470
00:39:19.920 --> 00:39:27.880
pelted down with rain, like really, we were all soaked through. Now,

471
00:39:28.119 --> 00:39:31.280
bearing in mind I was tiny and probably three drain

472
00:39:31.800 --> 00:39:34.840
three brain drops probably would have been enough to half

473
00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:41.960
wet me anyway. And you know a good thing about

474
00:39:41.960 --> 00:39:44.119
it is whenever it rained that hard, I just wet

475
00:39:44.199 --> 00:39:46.960
myself because I didn't it didn't matter. I could do

476
00:39:46.960 --> 00:39:53.480
a wee my pants and no one would know. Made

477
00:39:53.480 --> 00:39:56.239
a mistake one day though, because it started to rain

478
00:39:56.360 --> 00:39:59.480
really hard and the top of me started getting completely drenched,

479
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.840
I thought, okay, good, I can go to the toilet

480
00:40:02.679 --> 00:40:08.400
and it stopped raining. Not a good look, not a

481
00:40:08.440 --> 00:40:13.559
good look at all. And other than that. I mean,

482
00:40:13.599 --> 00:40:17.000
it's not the only bad thing about it. The job

483
00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:20.559
interview didn't go very well either. Do do Do Do

484
00:40:20.360 --> 00:40:23.480
Do Do do do? See, I was on the way

485
00:40:23.519 --> 00:40:27.800
to a job interview. I'm pretending I was still a kid,

486
00:40:28.960 --> 00:40:31.119
but I was on my way to job interview, and

487
00:40:31.440 --> 00:40:34.360
it rained, and I weed myself and I went into

488
00:40:34.400 --> 00:40:36.920
the job interview and he thought I would weed myself

489
00:40:36.960 --> 00:40:41.360
and they didn't give me the job. That was That's

490
00:40:41.360 --> 00:40:46.760
what that was about. And I don't know if I

491
00:40:46.800 --> 00:40:53.960
wanted the job either, but I might have done. I

492
00:40:53.960 --> 00:40:55.880
don't know how many jobs have gone forward. I didn't

493
00:40:55.920 --> 00:41:01.760
get twice right twice. I've actually been offered two jobs

494
00:41:01.840 --> 00:41:06.280
at the same time and I had to choose. Happened

495
00:41:06.280 --> 00:41:10.920
twice once. I was in two thousand and four, I

496
00:41:10.960 --> 00:41:14.559
was offered a job in a call center, like selling

497
00:41:14.639 --> 00:41:23.320
car insurance again or working as a care assistant. Now.

498
00:41:23.360 --> 00:41:26.320
At the time, I wanted to be a care assistant,

499
00:41:28.239 --> 00:41:31.639
but the money would have been absolutely rubbish compared to well,

500
00:41:31.639 --> 00:41:34.119
I just wouldn't have been a good salary. But that's

501
00:41:34.159 --> 00:41:36.360
not what I wanted. I wanted to do something where

502
00:41:36.360 --> 00:41:40.800
I was helping people. But I chose to call center

503
00:41:40.880 --> 00:41:43.280
because first of all, I knew what I was doing

504
00:41:43.440 --> 00:41:47.199
because I'd already had a job doing that, and it

505
00:41:47.280 --> 00:41:50.039
was a second call certer. I'd worked in second insurance job,

506
00:41:50.079 --> 00:41:55.360
i'd worked in third call center, and also I'd never

507
00:41:55.400 --> 00:41:57.840
done care work before, so I didn't know if or

508
00:41:57.880 --> 00:42:02.559
not i'd be right for that kind of job, didn't

509
00:42:02.559 --> 00:42:07.159
knowough i'd be able to do it, And the second

510
00:42:07.199 --> 00:42:12.079
time was back in There might have been other times,

511
00:42:12.079 --> 00:42:19.039
but this another one I remember was in two thousand

512
00:42:19.320 --> 00:42:28.679
and twelve, around December year or into November, I went

513
00:42:28.760 --> 00:42:32.280
for two jobs once. One was in a car insurance company,

514
00:42:32.679 --> 00:42:35.039
the third car insurance company that I ended up working in,

515
00:42:35.719 --> 00:42:38.440
so you won't be surprised I know that I took

516
00:42:38.440 --> 00:42:42.119
that one. But the other job I got offered was

517
00:42:42.960 --> 00:42:47.199
interviewing people on the phone, which actually was much more

518
00:42:47.440 --> 00:42:53.079
to my skill set because I wasn't selling anything. I

519
00:42:53.159 --> 00:42:56.840
got to be nice all day. I would have been

520
00:42:56.880 --> 00:43:00.079
good at it. I just would have been good. It

521
00:43:00.239 --> 00:43:07.719
would have been pretty much very easy job, but also

522
00:43:08.519 --> 00:43:12.920
rewarding because I'm giving people jobs and stuff. So it's

523
00:43:13.559 --> 00:43:18.480
like a like an OUTCOO center working on behalf of

524
00:43:19.480 --> 00:43:27.440
big companies but it wasn't. It didn't seem like a

525
00:43:27.440 --> 00:43:37.199
stable position, and so I just yeah, I just went

526
00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:45.719
with the insurance job. Sure, there's a horse joke there somewhere.

527
00:43:47.079 --> 00:43:59.519
Stable position. So yeah, how did I talking about that?

528
00:43:59.559 --> 00:44:07.599
You asked me I had any pets? Blimey. Yeah. So

529
00:44:07.800 --> 00:44:12.639
when we went there, do you want that last one?

530
00:44:12.679 --> 00:44:15.599
Do you want them?

531
00:44:15.679 --> 00:44:18.400
How about eating your dinner? This is the last one.

532
00:44:18.719 --> 00:44:24.639
You've got no more treats, and you're not having any

533
00:44:24.639 --> 00:44:27.920
more treats to next Thursday. So this is it. This

534
00:44:28.000 --> 00:44:31.840
is your this is your last treat for a whole week. Okay,

535
00:44:31.920 --> 00:44:41.760
up to you. I went we had ants in the house.

536
00:44:41.920 --> 00:44:49.960
I mean, that's not really technically a pet, is it. No? No,

537
00:44:49.960 --> 00:44:55.920
no pets. I was let another's packet is probably going

538
00:44:56.000 --> 00:45:03.079
to want to rip its bits. Let's just take out

539
00:45:03.119 --> 00:45:06.840
the thing which keeps the bag fresh, because I don't

540
00:45:06.840 --> 00:45:08.960
know if I want him eating that. It'll be all

541
00:45:09.079 --> 00:45:12.199
at the bag to bits now trying to get to

542
00:45:13.679 --> 00:45:22.639
what's not in there. Not initially, I mean, we weren't

543
00:45:22.719 --> 00:45:26.400
in that house for very long because it was a

544
00:45:26.400 --> 00:45:30.840
little bit derelict. It was I think it was condemned.

545
00:45:30.840 --> 00:45:34.159
So we had to move out. My dad joked something about,

546
00:45:34.880 --> 00:45:37.719
you know, it was fine until I moved in, which

547
00:45:37.760 --> 00:45:43.159
was a bit rude, too much farting, ha ha ha.

548
00:45:44.639 --> 00:45:49.639
And so when we moved into the next house, which

549
00:45:49.679 --> 00:45:55.800
is only probably five months maybe after moving there to

550
00:45:56.280 --> 00:46:01.159
that town maybe less, maybe six months maybe less, moved

551
00:46:01.199 --> 00:46:05.480
into this new build house and we did have a

552
00:46:05.480 --> 00:46:19.159
cat called oh what was a cat called Tiger? Yeah,

553
00:46:19.159 --> 00:46:25.079
we had a cat called Tiger, and which was the

554
00:46:25.119 --> 00:46:30.519
first time I'd ever never stroked a pussy before. I'd

555
00:46:30.519 --> 00:46:36.880
never never had a dog, never, never never really been

556
00:46:36.920 --> 00:46:44.960
around any kind of pets in my life. So I

557
00:46:45.000 --> 00:46:47.719
was a little bit I didn't wasn't quite sure how

558
00:46:47.760 --> 00:46:54.039
to how to I don't know, I didn't really know

559
00:46:54.079 --> 00:46:59.760
what to do with it. But yeah, so we had

560
00:46:59.800 --> 00:47:08.159
a cat. Unfortunately didn't The cat didn't last long. Got yeah,

561
00:47:08.599 --> 00:47:12.639
it got I got run over to be fairst That's

562
00:47:12.679 --> 00:47:18.840
what happened. Got home from school and I was upsetting.

563
00:47:20.840 --> 00:47:27.599
But other than that than nothing. And then I won

564
00:47:28.480 --> 00:47:33.559
a goldfish at the the yearly Fair, which was thinking

565
00:47:34.199 --> 00:47:39.880
August or September. That's the thing. You can make people

566
00:47:39.880 --> 00:47:47.440
more nice. Please don't start knocking stuff off. He wants

567
00:47:47.480 --> 00:47:51.079
me to give him more. I can't give him more

568
00:47:51.119 --> 00:47:56.519
because I don't have more to give him. I really don't, no,

569
00:48:00.880 --> 00:48:05.039
So yeah, I had it. I won a goldfish called Popeye.

570
00:48:05.440 --> 00:48:07.320
I called him Popeye because he had one eye that

571
00:48:07.480 --> 00:48:12.679
was much bigger than the other eye. So Popeye was

572
00:48:12.679 --> 00:48:23.400
my first ever pet, really my first mind. And then

573
00:48:25.599 --> 00:48:31.079
it turned out he had an eye disease, so I

574
00:48:31.119 --> 00:48:34.840
felt a little bit guilty called him Popeye. But I

575
00:48:35.360 --> 00:48:37.159
didn't think it was fair to change his name. I've

576
00:48:37.199 --> 00:48:40.440
always like it's all he knew. He didn't know any

577
00:48:40.480 --> 00:48:43.000
other name, and I don't think he realized the reason

578
00:48:43.079 --> 00:48:45.280
for the name, so there was no point telling him.

579
00:48:45.599 --> 00:48:48.119
There didn't see any point changing it because that just

580
00:48:49.440 --> 00:48:52.519
that would be confusing from him. So I had these

581
00:48:52.519 --> 00:48:57.719
little drops took him to the vet. I'm not sure

582
00:48:57.760 --> 00:48:59.320
if he did. I thought he might have taken him

583
00:48:59.360 --> 00:49:04.559
to the vet blind me, or maybe could he take

584
00:49:04.599 --> 00:49:07.920
a goldfish to the vet? I don't know. We've got

585
00:49:07.920 --> 00:49:12.199
these little drops which put into his water, and it

586
00:49:12.239 --> 00:49:17.519
seemed to help a bit. I used to be fascinated

587
00:49:18.079 --> 00:49:25.840
with Popeye. It's just the whole kind of the poohing

588
00:49:26.119 --> 00:49:30.639
I found weird. The laying of cable, just the whole

589
00:49:33.880 --> 00:49:44.599
haven't it attached for that long? Wonderf whales do that? Mhmm.

590
00:49:45.840 --> 00:49:49.840
You couldn't fit a whale in a little goldfish thing,

591
00:49:49.880 --> 00:49:54.599
could you. My dad had a did we have a

592
00:49:54.599 --> 00:49:58.960
goldfish pond? Or is it my granddaddy put a goldfish

593
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:05.360
pond in? Well? I think we might have got a

594
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:07.400
goldfish pond, but it might have been my granddad. I

595
00:50:07.400 --> 00:50:12.760
can't remember. Now, that's weird. I'd have to ask my dad.

596
00:50:13.920 --> 00:50:17.400
There was definitely a goldfish pond in that garden of

597
00:50:17.480 --> 00:50:20.400
that house, just a little goldfish pond, and it was

598
00:50:22.519 --> 00:50:25.960
because you used to put a tennis ball in there

599
00:50:25.960 --> 00:50:28.880
in the winter so that it always left an air

600
00:50:29.239 --> 00:50:45.480
an air hole. Mmm. I remember my brother, my little

601
00:50:45.480 --> 00:50:50.639
brother had a goldfish called ton Katoy or Tony or

602
00:50:50.679 --> 00:50:56.039
something like that. And he was showing off. This is

603
00:50:56.440 --> 00:51:01.679
about ten years ago. You know, he's a he would

604
00:51:01.679 --> 00:51:06.039
be nearly fifty soon. He was going on about how

605
00:51:06.079 --> 00:51:15.599
he is goldfish lived for like seven years or whatever.

606
00:51:16.599 --> 00:51:20.679
He had it for seven years, and my dad started laughing.

607
00:51:20.800 --> 00:51:23.679
This was at the dinner table. That's my dad. They said,

608
00:51:23.719 --> 00:51:26.239
why are you laughing? He said, oh, you just kept

609
00:51:26.280 --> 00:51:33.880
replacing it every time he died. You just didn't notice, right, really,

610
00:51:35.400 --> 00:51:36.960
I said, why can you do that with a cat?

611
00:51:40.159 --> 00:51:42.519
But I guess it's you know, he didn't didn't want to.

612
00:51:43.559 --> 00:51:48.360
So my dad don't like animals. It's really weird. Because

613
00:51:48.360 --> 00:51:52.079
one of them said to me, because they won't come here,

614
00:51:52.760 --> 00:51:56.920
they won't enter my house. My dad won't set foot

615
00:51:56.920 --> 00:52:03.280
into this place, this flat. And I was told like

616
00:52:03.440 --> 00:52:06.039
it was because I had an andre the ferret. Now

617
00:52:06.079 --> 00:52:10.199
I've got a dog. Doesn't like animals. Someone said these

618
00:52:10.239 --> 00:52:15.880
are allergic to animals. I said, well, that's obviously a lie.

619
00:52:16.039 --> 00:52:20.400
And I said, well it's not true because he spent

620
00:52:20.679 --> 00:52:25.000
thirty five years or whatever, forty years going into people's houses,

621
00:52:26.199 --> 00:52:30.119
you know, part of his job, so you know. And

622
00:52:30.159 --> 00:52:32.079
then one day he said, well, I'm not allergic to animals,

623
00:52:32.159 --> 00:52:38.280
just don't like them. Okay, good, at least you've got

624
00:52:38.280 --> 00:52:44.519
some truth. Then, But out of the four people he visits,

625
00:52:45.679 --> 00:52:52.199
they've all got animals, they've all got dogs, including me,

626
00:52:52.960 --> 00:52:56.280
but he doesn't have come here. Weird, isn't it? Meets

627
00:52:56.320 --> 00:52:59.880
me in a restaurant or a coffee place, won't set

628
00:53:00.000 --> 00:53:08.960
put into this place. I don't know, there's a lot

629
00:53:09.000 --> 00:53:14.679
to discuss. That's not really the question. If any come

630
00:53:14.719 --> 00:53:24.400
on me, I know I gave it to her. I'll

631
00:53:24.440 --> 00:53:26.519
tell you it's weird. The other day I gave him

632
00:53:26.800 --> 00:53:29.719
a packet and there's one bit left in. There's one

633
00:53:29.760 --> 00:53:33.039
of those shoes left. And he just looked at the packet.

634
00:53:33.679 --> 00:53:40.280
The packet wasn't closed, it was open. He wouldn't take

635
00:53:40.280 --> 00:53:43.480
it out. He just couldn't be bothered. But as soon

636
00:53:43.480 --> 00:53:49.840
as he'd eaten that bit, he destroyed the packet into

637
00:53:49.920 --> 00:54:06.800
many pieces. Is what he's doing right now. Other animals

638
00:54:06.840 --> 00:54:26.440
we had, Wow, this is noisy. Other animals. When I

639
00:54:26.480 --> 00:54:36.320
don't know how old I was, probably thirteen, my dad

640
00:54:36.360 --> 00:54:42.000
got a dog for my stepmom. She wanted a dog,

641
00:54:42.480 --> 00:54:48.039
but I couldn't just get a normal dog's just a

642
00:54:48.079 --> 00:54:55.639
normal standard dog, normal dog size. No came home with

643
00:54:55.719 --> 00:55:06.480
Saint Bernard, one of the world's biggest dogs, and cute

644
00:55:06.480 --> 00:55:14.920
as anything. As a puppy, I mean all puppies are cute.

645
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:18.239
There's no he can't there's no non cute puppy. So

646
00:55:18.280 --> 00:55:20.599
it's like a none cute pussy cat, you know what

647
00:55:20.599 --> 00:55:24.800
I mean. They're just always they're always cute. And they

648
00:55:24.800 --> 00:55:29.280
when they're little, and then they, oh, is that as

649
00:55:29.280 --> 00:55:32.320
noisy as for you as it is for me? That's

650
00:55:32.360 --> 00:55:38.320
really wanted me up. It's still funny, though, I don't

651
00:55:38.360 --> 00:55:47.840
know why he's so silly. So I yeah. We had

652
00:55:47.880 --> 00:55:53.079
this dog called Misty Saint Bernard, and you literally, if

653
00:55:53.079 --> 00:55:56.880
you just you could watch it grow in front of you.

654
00:55:58.719 --> 00:56:02.360
I mean, I'm not even joking. It grew and grew

655
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:07.039
and grew. I remember one day, everyone, not one day.

656
00:56:07.079 --> 00:56:10.480
I remember saying to my dad, is it finished growing yet? Said,

657
00:56:10.480 --> 00:56:14.559
you asked that yesterday and the day before that. You'll

658
00:56:14.559 --> 00:56:17.119
know when it's finished growing, So the hell, because you

659
00:56:17.159 --> 00:56:20.559
won't be able to see the sun anymore. And it

660
00:56:20.639 --> 00:56:25.239
was right huge, bigger than me. I was like thirteen

661
00:56:25.320 --> 00:56:30.960
fourteen or whatever. Thirteen bigger than me when it's trully grown,

662
00:56:31.320 --> 00:56:37.480
weighed more than me, probably weighed about twelve fourteen stone.

663
00:56:38.119 --> 00:56:44.119
I weighed about eight and a half stone. When I

664
00:56:44.159 --> 00:56:46.320
took it for a walk, it would just drag me along.

665
00:56:47.519 --> 00:56:50.599
I had no control over it, or over her. Other

666
00:56:51.039 --> 00:56:54.079
no control over her. She was a beautiful dog, but

667
00:56:56.519 --> 00:56:58.239
she got too big for the house. So she and

668
00:56:58.280 --> 00:57:00.760
we had had quite a big house but it wasn't

669
00:57:00.880 --> 00:57:05.000
big in the sense of I had a few rooms,

670
00:57:05.320 --> 00:57:09.639
but it wasn't big as finny. There's no point looking

671
00:57:09.679 --> 00:57:13.360
for stuff that isn't there. It's not there anymore. It's

672
00:57:13.360 --> 00:57:21.679
not there anymore, my dearest. The thing is, my dad

673
00:57:21.679 --> 00:57:26.320
built a kennel outside, and she lived outside because she

674
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:30.199
just literally she'd get in and she'd knock everything over.

675
00:57:31.000 --> 00:57:32.920
She struggled to get through the door. I mean, she

676
00:57:33.119 --> 00:57:41.559
was huge, really big, and she wasn't she didn't have

677
00:57:41.639 --> 00:57:48.199
what she needed. And this is her time, probably forty

678
00:57:48.280 --> 00:57:51.320
so maybe it was when I was fourteen. This was

679
00:57:51.360 --> 00:57:53.119
at a time when everything was starting to go a

680
00:57:53.159 --> 00:58:02.880
little bit wrong, and you know, both my brothers ended

681
00:58:02.960 --> 00:58:08.719
up moving out. My stepmm went to start going back

682
00:58:08.760 --> 00:58:11.760
to work, so she was hardly ever there. My dad

683
00:58:11.840 --> 00:58:14.960
was always at working. I'd be babysitting my little brother

684
00:58:15.039 --> 00:58:22.199
after school and during the summer holidays, and Misty was

685
00:58:22.360 --> 00:58:26.280
just left or on her own too much was there.

686
00:58:26.320 --> 00:58:29.840
Wasn't really anyone's fault. It's just that wasn't planned. Just

687
00:58:29.880 --> 00:58:32.440
how it ended up being. You know, it went from

688
00:58:32.480 --> 00:58:38.000
being a big, full family house to her I don't know,

689
00:58:38.440 --> 00:58:44.400
something quite strange for the last year or so. And

690
00:58:44.519 --> 00:58:49.800
Misty she just, I mean, she'd jump on me. Every

691
00:58:49.840 --> 00:58:54.000
time I was anywhere near her. She would jump on

692
00:58:54.079 --> 00:58:57.000
me and pin me down and dribble all over my

693
00:58:57.039 --> 00:59:05.639
school uniform. And you know, that was a time when

694
00:59:05.639 --> 00:59:08.159
I didn't really want to go to school with a

695
00:59:08.199 --> 00:59:12.320
stain on my trousers going home from you know, school,

696
00:59:12.719 --> 00:59:16.480
going home from lunch. What you've been doing nothing? Why

697
00:59:16.559 --> 00:59:21.280
is that big stain on your crotch? Don't worry about it?

698
00:59:21.440 --> 00:59:23.599
What about that one on your jumper? Oh that's Misty.

699
00:59:24.639 --> 00:59:27.920
Misty just that's dribbling on me. Why didn't you say

700
00:59:27.920 --> 00:59:30.440
Misty did on your crotch as well? I don't know.

701
00:59:30.480 --> 00:59:33.960
I just didn't think quick enough. But she was. She

702
00:59:34.079 --> 00:59:39.239
was just like beautiful dog, messive though massive. It probably

703
00:59:39.239 --> 00:59:42.360
costs more to feed her than it did me on

704
00:59:42.440 --> 00:59:44.800
a week because I were feeding her tripe, which was

705
00:59:44.840 --> 00:59:51.679
not cheap. But she was too big, way too big.

706
00:59:52.719 --> 00:59:56.679
And it got to the point where I sit sort

707
00:59:56.679 --> 00:59:57.719
of try and go. I used to go in the

708
00:59:57.760 --> 01:00:02.079
front door because I couldn't go around the back because

709
01:00:02.079 --> 01:00:06.119
she jump on me. I was not scared, but a

710
01:00:06.119 --> 01:00:11.719
little bit kind of Yeah, it was a shame I

711
01:00:11.760 --> 01:00:14.159
couldn't take you for walks. I couldn't handle her. She

712
01:00:14.239 --> 01:00:17.719
was too strong. So she didn't get any walks, any

713
01:00:17.719 --> 01:00:22.719
proper walks anymore. And so yeah, that was that wasn't good.

714
01:00:22.760 --> 01:00:25.280
She did found my dad found her a better home,

715
01:00:25.440 --> 01:00:31.400
a proper home. But I mean she had a big

716
01:00:31.440 --> 01:00:34.920
garden to run around in. But you know, for me,

717
01:00:35.239 --> 01:00:37.400
it was a big garden I could run, but for her,

718
01:00:37.559 --> 01:00:40.280
she could just like a couple of jumps and she'd

719
01:00:40.320 --> 01:00:43.639
be either side of the of the fence. So it

720
01:00:43.679 --> 01:00:52.239
wasn't really that big for her. It was more like, yeah,

721
01:00:52.400 --> 01:00:54.719
just a tiny little mat really the grass was for

722
01:00:54.760 --> 01:00:59.199
her if she was so, she wasn't that big. She

723
01:00:59.320 --> 01:01:03.519
was half the size in the house. She was quite big,

724
01:01:04.119 --> 01:01:16.960
and she's white and brown pretty of course huge, absolutely huge.

725
01:01:17.320 --> 01:01:20.119
Ever since then, I've not I don't know, I just

726
01:01:20.719 --> 01:01:25.039
not scared of big dogs. I just just I could

727
01:01:25.039 --> 01:01:26.880
never have a big dog. I kind of can only

728
01:01:26.920 --> 01:01:28.960
really have a little dog. If I was going to

729
01:01:29.039 --> 01:01:31.199
have a dog, I've always thought that in my mind.

730
01:01:32.199 --> 01:01:36.800
I've lived with dogs on a few occasions. Other than that,

731
01:01:36.880 --> 01:01:43.719
I lived in London with a dog one two three

732
01:01:43.760 --> 01:01:49.960
different dogs in London and they were all kind of

733
01:01:50.039 --> 01:01:52.679
medium sized dogs. They weren't big, they weren't little, they

734
01:01:52.679 --> 01:01:56.440
were just kind of medium kind of size. And I

735
01:01:56.559 --> 01:02:01.599
just thought, well, nothing bigger than that, because they're hard

736
01:02:01.599 --> 01:02:05.920
to manage if they're being naughty, because the dogs are strong.

737
01:02:06.679 --> 01:02:11.079
Vinnie's really strong, but I can. I can beat him

738
01:02:11.079 --> 01:02:16.679
in an arm whstile, you know, just about. So I

739
01:02:16.719 --> 01:02:18.679
did think if I was because I thought back getting

740
01:02:18.679 --> 01:02:23.000
a dog when I first moved in there in twoenty fifteen,

741
01:02:24.760 --> 01:02:27.320
and I did look. I got permission from the council,

742
01:02:28.159 --> 01:02:33.639
and I started to look at a shelter and there

743
01:02:33.719 --> 01:02:40.440
was this Pomeranian, little Pomeranian, and I thought, oh, he's

744
01:02:40.480 --> 01:02:44.760
so cute, but he didn't like me. And because he

745
01:02:44.800 --> 01:02:48.400
didn't like me, I thought, now, you know, I had

746
01:02:48.400 --> 01:02:51.199
this little fantasy that if I ever went to a shelter,

747
01:02:51.960 --> 01:02:53.559
it would be the dog that came up to me

748
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:58.599
that I would take home. Didn't didn't work like that.

749
01:03:00.079 --> 01:03:08.199
They all none of them liked me. So yeah, I

750
01:03:08.239 --> 01:03:09.920
don't know, I just I suppose I had a little

751
01:03:10.400 --> 01:03:12.920
fantasy of what it would really be like compared to

752
01:03:12.920 --> 01:03:16.760
what it really was like. And then when I did

753
01:03:16.840 --> 01:03:19.559
end up getting my own, so if you want to

754
01:03:19.559 --> 01:03:25.920
call a pet andre little ferret. He hated me when

755
01:03:25.960 --> 01:03:28.119
I first got him, but I fell in love with

756
01:03:28.159 --> 01:03:30.400
him as soon as I saw him. I just fell

757
01:03:30.400 --> 01:03:34.119
in love with him. It's his little, tiny little face,

758
01:03:34.280 --> 01:03:38.239
little body, but his tiny patches on his eyes, and

759
01:03:38.320 --> 01:03:40.840
just I fell in love with him. And every time

760
01:03:40.840 --> 01:03:42.920
I picked him up, he hissed and he bit me.

761
01:03:43.840 --> 01:03:48.960
He absolutely didn't like me at all too. A couple

762
01:03:49.000 --> 01:03:52.599
of weeks before he sort of accepted that I existed,

763
01:03:53.159 --> 01:03:57.519
he wasn't able to get rid of me, and then

764
01:03:57.559 --> 01:04:01.719
we were kind of inseparable. Well, he couldn't get away

765
01:04:01.719 --> 01:04:03.679
from me, really, I suppose that's the best way to

766
01:04:03.760 --> 01:04:12.000
explain it. And so yeah, we had pets, but only

767
01:04:12.079 --> 01:04:15.519
really them too. So really, when I first moved there,

768
01:04:16.119 --> 01:04:20.800
other than the ants, there was nothing. Then we had

769
01:04:20.800 --> 01:04:26.920
the cat and she wasn't there for long unfortunately. And

770
01:04:26.960 --> 01:04:30.599
then when we moved, I had my little goldfish, and

771
01:04:30.639 --> 01:04:36.719
then when we moved I didn't have a goldfish anymore.

772
01:04:37.039 --> 01:04:43.079
Then we had the Misty, the huge.

773
01:04:43.679 --> 01:04:44.320
Huge dog.

774
01:04:48.079 --> 01:04:54.199
In about about fourteen, maybe fifteen fourteen fifteen. I lose

775
01:04:54.320 --> 01:04:57.199
track of the times, really, but it was a point

776
01:04:57.280 --> 01:05:02.280
when neither of my brothers were living there, so I

777
01:05:02.320 --> 01:05:06.840
was on the top floor on my own, which was weird,

778
01:05:08.199 --> 01:05:10.280
and I didn't like living with them, but I missed

779
01:05:10.320 --> 01:05:13.880
them when they weren't there. It's weird. And it's just

780
01:05:15.079 --> 01:05:19.519
like the brother just above me, the two years older.

781
01:05:19.519 --> 01:05:21.920
He used to wind me up all the time, but

782
01:05:21.960 --> 01:05:24.440
I missed him when he left. When he moved out,

783
01:05:24.519 --> 01:05:28.000
I was like, oh, because I'd spent my whole life

784
01:05:28.000 --> 01:05:32.519
with him. Literally from the day I was born to

785
01:05:34.000 --> 01:05:40.079
fifteen or fourteen fifteen whatever. I'd been with him every

786
01:05:40.119 --> 01:05:44.400
single day of my life, moving around the country, living

787
01:05:44.400 --> 01:05:48.960
in different places. So suddenly he wasn't there. It was

788
01:05:49.199 --> 01:05:53.599
very strange, even though we didn't necessarily get on that well.

789
01:05:54.920 --> 01:05:59.639
And then my other brother, the oldest one, he moved out, and.

790
01:06:05.039 --> 01:06:05.960
That was strange.

791
01:06:06.079 --> 01:06:07.920
It's like just being at the top of that old

792
01:06:07.960 --> 01:06:12.599
house on my own, very weird. So what I did

793
01:06:12.920 --> 01:06:17.639
is I got myself a budgy to replace him. It's

794
01:06:19.360 --> 01:06:23.360
thought i'd replaced him a budgy, and I did. I

795
01:06:23.440 --> 01:06:26.400
got myself a budgy in a cage. I had it

796
01:06:26.440 --> 01:06:28.159
in my bedroom start with, but it was a little

797
01:06:28.159 --> 01:06:31.440
bit too clattery, a bit annoying. So I thought I

798
01:06:31.519 --> 01:06:35.920
put it in the other bedroom, in my brother's bedroom

799
01:06:35.960 --> 01:06:41.960
at the front of the house, and unfortunately there was

800
01:06:42.000 --> 01:06:50.000
no heat and it froze. There was there was there

801
01:06:50.079 --> 01:06:53.679
was this terrible really but it's so this must have

802
01:06:53.679 --> 01:07:00.159
been during the winter and there's no Yeah, the the

803
01:07:00.239 --> 01:07:05.559
heating would be off. I think my dad's always had

804
01:07:05.599 --> 01:07:08.880
a bit of a problem with heating. I remember when

805
01:07:08.920 --> 01:07:12.000
I was living with I moved out and lived with

806
01:07:12.079 --> 01:07:18.079
my stepmom and her mom in the flat then my

807
01:07:18.199 --> 01:07:22.000
step man's flat. So my little brother and my stepmom

808
01:07:22.079 --> 01:07:26.159
were in one bed, my step nn was in the

809
01:07:26.159 --> 01:07:29.159
other bed in the other room, and then I was

810
01:07:29.159 --> 01:07:33.559
on the living room floor on a little camper bed.

811
01:07:34.400 --> 01:07:37.760
I didn't like that, so I went and moved back.

812
01:07:38.000 --> 01:07:39.719
I asked my dad if I could move back into

813
01:07:39.719 --> 01:07:44.719
the house because it was horrible, and he said, yeah,

814
01:07:45.280 --> 01:07:46.760
it was freezing cold.

815
01:07:48.320 --> 01:07:49.119
There was no hit, so.

816
01:07:49.119 --> 01:07:53.320
You're going to put the heat and said, nope, no heat.

817
01:07:54.760 --> 01:07:58.119
I had to move out again. I was fifteen years old.

818
01:07:58.119 --> 01:08:03.159
By the way, I wasn't even leak. They should they

819
01:08:03.239 --> 01:08:06.519
had it right, they had a duty of care, but

820
01:08:06.840 --> 01:08:10.199
they in back in them days, it wasn't really enforced

821
01:08:10.519 --> 01:08:12.800
but freezing colds. I went back to the flat where

822
01:08:12.800 --> 01:08:15.800
as one, but I didn't want to be there because

823
01:08:16.520 --> 01:08:20.680
just I missed my own room, you know, my own stuff,

824
01:08:21.359 --> 01:08:25.039
my own space. And I know I'd only been there

825
01:08:25.079 --> 01:08:27.479
for a little while because the house had to get sold.

826
01:08:28.000 --> 01:08:32.800
But would the house have to get sold if I

827
01:08:32.840 --> 01:08:37.680
was living there, I don't know. It probably would have

828
01:08:37.720 --> 01:08:40.680
put it off, Probably wouldn't have had to sell it

829
01:08:40.760 --> 01:08:48.039
until I was sixteen or maybe eighteen, I don't know

830
01:08:50.000 --> 01:08:51.880
which would have been getting it would have been better

831
01:08:52.399 --> 01:08:54.359
because the house would have been worth a lot more

832
01:08:58.079 --> 01:09:00.880
because it went up from being I think sixty six

833
01:09:00.960 --> 01:09:05.840
grand when they sold it in nineteen eighty six or

834
01:09:05.920 --> 01:09:10.479
nineteen eighty seven, in nineteen eighty eight went up to

835
01:09:11.359 --> 01:09:16.680
two hundred and fifty thousand pounds. Can you believe that

836
01:09:16.680 --> 01:09:19.039
that's not even a lie? I remember I went into

837
01:09:19.039 --> 01:09:21.039
my dad's because he had a new house by then,

838
01:09:22.239 --> 01:09:24.920
like he'd got himself another house. So I guess they

839
01:09:25.000 --> 01:09:28.119
split the money. She she took her money, he took

840
01:09:28.159 --> 01:09:32.119
his and put a deposit on a new house. So

841
01:09:32.159 --> 01:09:34.399
I went in to his house just to see him,

842
01:09:34.640 --> 01:09:37.760
and there was this thing. He pointed to it. It

843
01:09:37.840 --> 01:09:42.159
was on this little chip board wooden board thing where

844
01:09:42.159 --> 01:09:46.680
he posts no pin stuff on, and there was a

845
01:09:46.680 --> 01:09:49.479
picture of our house with a two hundred and fifty

846
01:09:49.600 --> 01:09:57.119
thousand pounds price tag, and you could see a dent

847
01:09:57.199 --> 01:10:00.079
in the wall where he had been head button it.

848
01:10:00.079 --> 01:10:06.199
It was so angry because a year just over a year,

849
01:10:06.279 --> 01:10:09.840
year and a half, and it went up by that much.

850
01:10:12.159 --> 01:10:14.640
A year later it dropped down by about to about

851
01:10:14.640 --> 01:10:17.279
one hundred and twenty five or two years later, so

852
01:10:17.359 --> 01:10:21.800
it was a big drop. But you know it's now

853
01:10:21.840 --> 01:10:25.000
worth about seven hundred to eight hundred thousand when online

854
01:10:25.079 --> 01:10:30.600
just to search, maybe a little bit more. But it's

855
01:10:30.640 --> 01:10:33.560
just like wow. So if we just if I, if

856
01:10:33.560 --> 01:10:36.079
I had moved in there, I might have been doing

857
01:10:36.239 --> 01:10:42.119
everyone a favor, like everyone i'd stayed there, and the

858
01:10:42.239 --> 01:10:46.520
council so like you I have to especially if I

859
01:10:46.560 --> 01:10:49.239
was on a YTS scheme, which I was said no,

860
01:10:49.520 --> 01:10:54.560
you have to look after until he's eighteen and do

861
01:10:54.600 --> 01:10:59.520
your care whatever, which meant the house price would have

862
01:10:59.520 --> 01:11:03.520
gone up. My dad could have sold that one hundred

863
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:09.239
and twenty five grand each. She would have been better off,

864
01:11:09.319 --> 01:11:11.560
He would have been better off. He probably would be

865
01:11:11.880 --> 01:11:15.119
by his house outright the one he got. I mean,

866
01:11:15.199 --> 01:11:25.800
guess would have been amazing if if if if so yeah, so, yeah,

867
01:11:25.800 --> 01:11:31.000
we had pets. The budget was a weird one because

868
01:11:31.399 --> 01:11:35.840
I tried to give him mouth to mouth resuscitation and

869
01:11:35.960 --> 01:11:39.600
that didn't seem to work. So I thought, I'm not

870
01:11:39.640 --> 01:11:41.680
proud of this. I did do this. I didn't. I mean,

871
01:11:41.720 --> 01:11:43.880
I just thought to myself because I didn't know if

872
01:11:43.920 --> 01:11:51.239
he was still alive or not, and because he just

873
01:11:51.479 --> 01:11:53.119
I didn't know if because he was not looking at me,

874
01:11:53.119 --> 01:11:54.439
I didn't know if he was giving me the cold

875
01:11:54.439 --> 01:11:58.159
shoulder literally, but if he was just annoyed because I'd

876
01:11:58.199 --> 01:12:04.359
left him on his own, and I don't know, I

877
01:12:04.399 --> 01:12:06.159
was a kid. I just didn't really know what to do.

878
01:12:07.000 --> 01:12:14.039
So I thought, because I was up three stories high,

879
01:12:14.319 --> 01:12:16.159
and I thought, well, if I just put it out,

880
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:21.159
it's going to fly away, isn't it. And Okay, so

881
01:12:21.359 --> 01:12:27.560
I know budgies that generally don't necessarily it might not

882
01:12:27.600 --> 01:12:30.039
have a great life out in the wild, it's going

883
01:12:30.079 --> 01:12:32.560
to a better life than what it has there, you know,

884
01:12:33.960 --> 01:12:40.239
And so I kind of he didn't fly, That's what

885
01:12:40.279 --> 01:12:44.000
I'm going to say. He didn't fly. So that was

886
01:12:44.359 --> 01:12:49.920
the end of that. Never give me off to mouth

887
01:12:50.039 --> 01:12:55.680
resuscitation to a budgy. It's a hard one to judge,

888
01:12:55.960 --> 01:13:00.960
you know. But I did do That's genuinely true. I'm

889
01:13:01.000 --> 01:13:07.960
not I'm not proud of it. I just something I did.

890
01:13:05.720 --> 01:13:10.479
And the herd compressions. It's very hard to really know

891
01:13:10.520 --> 01:13:17.560
how hard to push. If they squeak, you might be

892
01:13:17.600 --> 01:13:24.199
pushing too hard. So also, have you ever had one

893
01:13:24.840 --> 01:13:29.840
driving test lesson car or motorbike? Yeah? I had more

894
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:34.720
than one. I've had nineteen ninety one, I had a

895
01:13:34.760 --> 01:13:37.359
couple of driving lessons two thousand and four. I had

896
01:13:37.399 --> 01:13:42.359
a few driving lessons ninety one. I just couldn't be bothered.

897
01:13:44.279 --> 01:13:53.640
Just didn't see the point. And my spatial awareness is

898
01:13:53.800 --> 01:14:02.760
not necessarily perfect, which showed both times I tried to

899
01:14:02.840 --> 01:14:09.600
learn to drive. I was too close or too far.

900
01:14:10.520 --> 01:14:12.720
I could never I can never really figure out where

901
01:14:13.039 --> 01:14:16.479
the car should be. That might have come with time,

902
01:14:16.600 --> 01:14:23.560
but yeah, I didn't. I didn't enjoy it the second

903
01:14:23.640 --> 01:14:27.359
time in two thousand and four, my driving instructor was

904
01:14:27.680 --> 01:14:32.760
too enthusiastic. It was only a young bloke. I mean

905
01:14:32.800 --> 01:14:34.920
I was young as well myself. I was only twenty

906
01:14:34.920 --> 01:14:41.840
three or twenty four whatever, But I just twenty three,

907
01:14:41.880 --> 01:14:46.600
probably thirty three, not twenty three. I was thirty three.

908
01:14:46.960 --> 01:14:50.319
He was in his early twenties, i'd say. But it

909
01:14:50.439 --> 01:14:56.039
was super excited, super enthusiastic, motivational, and I just wanted

910
01:14:56.079 --> 01:14:59.039
him to calm down. Oh you can do it, you

911
01:14:59.039 --> 01:15:02.239
can do it, like come on. I did want it

912
01:15:02.279 --> 01:15:03.960
to be negative. I just didn't want him to be

913
01:15:04.439 --> 01:15:10.479
like over the top, you know. It was like emotionally

914
01:15:10.520 --> 01:15:13.479
doing cartwheels all the time. It was just a little bit,

915
01:15:14.119 --> 01:15:18.560
a little bit too much. So I just whenever he

916
01:15:18.640 --> 01:15:23.399
came around, I just hid, didn't answer the door. I

917
01:15:23.439 --> 01:15:25.079
ended up paying for quite a lot of lessons I

918
01:15:25.079 --> 01:15:32.039
didn't turn up for anyway. Any end. I stopped. I

919
01:15:32.079 --> 01:15:34.439
went into the DVLA or I don't know wherever, the

920
01:15:34.520 --> 01:15:36.840
places that I always take my lessons, and I went

921
01:15:36.920 --> 01:15:39.239
to the reception. I said, I'd like to cancel my

922
01:15:39.319 --> 01:15:44.119
lessons please, and she said, well, who you driving with?

923
01:15:44.159 --> 01:15:46.960
And I said the name of the person who's your instructor.

924
01:15:47.239 --> 01:15:50.920
She said, I'll just go and get him. I said no, no, no, no, no,

925
01:15:50.920 --> 01:15:57.880
no no, and she said too enthusiastic. I said, yeah,

926
01:15:58.760 --> 01:16:04.079
too enthusias We heard that a lot. I said okay,

927
01:16:04.399 --> 01:16:08.880
and we canceled. That was it, and I moved, so

928
01:16:08.920 --> 01:16:12.840
we couldn't find out where I was. What was my

929
01:16:13.039 --> 01:16:20.800
longest relationship? This is from Ben again. So I you

930
01:16:20.840 --> 01:16:28.159
talked about romantic relationships, I guess the longest one. I

931
01:16:28.359 --> 01:16:34.199
go through them. But I had one ninety one, which

932
01:16:34.319 --> 01:16:42.000
was that finished in the summer. I had one ninety three,

933
01:16:44.960 --> 01:16:52.720
sort of December ninety three all the way to September

934
01:16:52.960 --> 01:17:00.680
ish ninety four, so it's what's that October? So what's that?

935
01:17:01.680 --> 01:17:04.640
Nine months? So nine months, that's quite a long one.

936
01:17:05.000 --> 01:17:12.680
And there was one in two thousand and nineteen ninety six.

937
01:17:15.520 --> 01:17:26.640
It started probably May, maybe June nineteen ninety six, until

938
01:17:28.239 --> 01:17:50.279
probably around April nineteen ninety seven. So what's that July, August, September, October, November, December, January, February, March, April.

939
01:17:50.479 --> 01:17:55.119
So yeah, that was about ten months. So that was

940
01:17:55.840 --> 01:17:59.960
probably the longest relationship I was ever in, like romantic relationship.

941
01:18:01.439 --> 01:18:05.199
I'm being very vague with a word romantic, very very

942
01:18:05.359 --> 01:18:36.359
generous with that word. But yeah, A look, I'm trying

943
01:18:36.399 --> 01:18:43.640
to think, No, that's it that that was the longest one.

944
01:18:43.640 --> 01:18:48.000
In ten months, but if you I was just listening

945
01:18:48.039 --> 01:18:52.520
to some of the gardeners then and sometimes there's a

946
01:18:52.560 --> 01:18:54.960
voice and I just don't recognize it, and it sounds clear.

947
01:18:55.279 --> 01:19:02.720
It's like is it outside my garden? So, yeah, that's

948
01:19:02.920 --> 01:19:07.319
my longest relationship. I'm trying to think of ever had

949
01:19:07.319 --> 01:19:12.840
any other relationships. I've had a few little ones, a

950
01:19:12.840 --> 01:19:23.920
few level short relationships kind of yeah, I mean ninety five,

951
01:19:26.840 --> 01:19:35.000
I think one two one. I had two. You had

952
01:19:35.000 --> 01:19:42.119
two relationships ninety five, one in ninety six, one in

953
01:19:42.239 --> 01:19:50.079
ninety seven. During college, I didn't really have I had

954
01:19:50.680 --> 01:19:54.720
a friendship with a female, but it wasn't a relationship,

955
01:19:54.720 --> 01:19:57.279
but it was a friendship and then it turned into

956
01:19:57.319 --> 01:20:00.720
something a bit more at the end of the course,

957
01:20:01.279 --> 01:20:04.119
at the end of the university degree. But for the

958
01:20:04.159 --> 01:20:09.880
three years we were just really good friends and then

959
01:20:10.279 --> 01:20:14.359
that kind of didn't really come to anything. We were

960
01:20:14.439 --> 01:20:26.159
just friends, very close friends. And nope, no, not really.

961
01:20:27.359 --> 01:20:36.279
The last ten years pretty much it's been a dry well.

962
01:20:38.479 --> 01:20:42.279
But yeah, as long as one about ten ten months,

963
01:20:44.119 --> 01:20:50.359
you imagine saying ten years, wow, ten months longest one? Cindy,

964
01:20:51.079 --> 01:20:54.239
would you tell us about the TV license tax? Do

965
01:20:54.279 --> 01:20:56.520
you pay it every do you pay it on every

966
01:20:56.560 --> 01:20:59.039
TV in the household or is it one feed for

967
01:20:59.399 --> 01:21:05.079
per house regardless of the number of TVs. Mike's answered this,

968
01:21:05.159 --> 01:21:06.880
so he hasn't answered. It's a good question. I've never

969
01:21:06.920 --> 01:21:11.439
understood the whole UK TV license thing. How do they

970
01:21:11.520 --> 01:21:14.159
know if you have a TV or not? Do they

971
01:21:14.239 --> 01:21:16.520
have the right to just enter your house and look

972
01:21:16.560 --> 01:21:21.640
at all your technology devices? And Hope has written I

973
01:21:21.680 --> 01:21:23.600
had a friend who had to prove she didn't have

974
01:21:23.640 --> 01:21:26.560
a TV in order to avoid the tax. She was

975
01:21:26.600 --> 01:21:29.119
so so angry she had to let the TV tax

976
01:21:29.159 --> 01:21:33.000
people in to search a flat. I'm Canadian, as she

977
01:21:33.279 --> 01:21:36.520
was when she moved to England. Okay, I feel there's

978
01:21:36.560 --> 01:21:45.520
a lot of questions there, so yeah, it's one okay,

979
01:21:45.600 --> 01:21:50.479
So in this flat that I live, it wouldn't manified

980
01:21:50.479 --> 01:21:53.800
one hundred TVs as far as I'm aware, it's this

981
01:21:53.880 --> 01:21:59.800
one TV license per household. They do do a discount

982
01:22:00.159 --> 01:22:08.199
or blind people, and so the whole was found that

983
01:22:08.439 --> 01:22:15.439
just incredibly rude. To be fair, I just I don't know.

984
01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:17.560
I don't know if there's a discount for people that

985
01:22:17.680 --> 01:22:23.720
are pensioners. But I pay what do I pay this other? Look?

986
01:22:24.439 --> 01:22:31.359
Do I pay every single month TV license pay. I

987
01:22:31.359 --> 01:22:45.239
think it's fifteen pound a month tv TV. It's at

988
01:22:45.279 --> 01:22:49.600
the beginning of the months and ASA look first of

989
01:22:50.319 --> 01:22:54.319
May fifteen pound, So I pay fifteen pound a month

990
01:22:55.159 --> 01:23:00.920
for my TV license. I only have one television. But

991
01:23:01.079 --> 01:23:04.279
the way they figured it's one of those really really,

992
01:23:05.239 --> 01:23:10.680
it's to me such a dumb thing, a dumb idea.

993
01:23:10.960 --> 01:23:14.399
It made sense originally, you know, when they first started

994
01:23:14.439 --> 01:23:21.880
doing it, I guess, but there was two channels BBC one,

995
01:23:22.119 --> 01:23:28.880
BBC two, both of them neither of them had adverts,

996
01:23:29.640 --> 01:23:33.600
although they had sponsorship and stuff like that, but they

997
01:23:33.600 --> 01:23:38.199
didn't have adverts, so it was a public service. Then

998
01:23:38.319 --> 01:23:45.680
ITV came along, which was financed by advertising. Channel four

999
01:23:45.760 --> 01:23:51.520
came along, financed by advertising. Channel five came along, financed

1000
01:23:51.560 --> 01:23:59.399
by advertising, and then over the years everything except BBC

1001
01:23:59.479 --> 01:24:07.279
channels are financed by advertising, all of them. Yet we

1002
01:24:07.359 --> 01:24:12.960
all still have to pay for BBC, even the people

1003
01:24:13.000 --> 01:24:17.960
don't use BBC. And you know, I see YouTube videos

1004
01:24:17.960 --> 01:24:20.279
where people say, oh, come on, you don't have to

1005
01:24:20.359 --> 01:24:21.960
let them in, or if you do let them in,

1006
01:24:22.239 --> 01:24:26.800
they have to prove that you watch BBC. And it's

1007
01:24:27.000 --> 01:24:30.680
not it's not quite as simple as that there. There

1008
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:34.600
can be a little bit intimidating. You know, these people

1009
01:24:34.680 --> 01:24:37.319
coming around, they do it for a living. They know

1010
01:24:38.439 --> 01:24:41.000
what buttons, the push, They know how to get people

1011
01:24:41.039 --> 01:24:44.720
to open up and how to incriminate themselves or whatever.

1012
01:24:45.560 --> 01:24:49.279
And it seems weird that some people go to prison

1013
01:24:49.359 --> 01:24:52.840
for not paying a TV license or refusing to pay

1014
01:24:52.880 --> 01:24:58.159
the TV license. They actually go to prison. How can

1015
01:24:58.199 --> 01:25:04.279
that in any world be justifiable? That doesn't me with

1016
01:25:04.439 --> 01:25:09.760
no strong views. It just seems ridiculous, just all absurd, absurd,

1017
01:25:10.079 --> 01:25:15.560
but not in a funny way. And so yeah, we

1018
01:25:15.680 --> 01:25:19.279
do have to have a TV license unless you can

1019
01:25:19.319 --> 01:25:24.560
prove that you do not have a television. And they

1020
01:25:24.720 --> 01:25:31.359
also now include streaming. So if you stream TV, even

1021
01:25:31.359 --> 01:25:35.319
if it isn't the BBC, So if you stream itv

1022
01:25:35.920 --> 01:25:39.479
app which has got adverts on, you're using the TV.

1023
01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:44.439
So you watch TV, any kind of terrestrial television, even

1024
01:25:44.439 --> 01:25:48.199
if it's streaming and you're viewing it through the internet,

1025
01:25:48.880 --> 01:25:52.119
you have to pay a TI TV license for it,

1026
01:25:52.199 --> 01:25:59.600
according to them. I'm sure there's ways around it. I

1027
01:25:59.680 --> 01:26:03.600
know people that don't pay the license and they just

1028
01:26:03.600 --> 01:26:08.640
don't answer the door. I never used to pay the

1029
01:26:08.680 --> 01:26:13.479
TV license until I moved here, but I pretty much

1030
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:18.760
always lived in a multiple occupancy house, so the landlord

1031
01:26:18.840 --> 01:26:24.520
paid the TV license for the building. So I never

1032
01:26:24.560 --> 01:26:28.600
had to pay a TV license until I moved here,

1033
01:26:28.640 --> 01:26:32.600
and I thought, I'll just pay it because I've seen

1034
01:26:32.640 --> 01:26:36.199
what happens when people don't pay it and they get hounded.

1035
01:26:38.880 --> 01:26:46.880
And how do they watch that? Look do how do

1036
01:26:46.960 --> 01:26:48.439
they know if you have a TV or not? So

1037
01:26:48.520 --> 01:26:57.640
this is Mike, Well, they have these Well they basically

1038
01:26:57.720 --> 01:27:02.039
just look at who's paid for a TV license. So

1039
01:27:02.119 --> 01:27:05.199
if they've got everyone in a road except number forty three,

1040
01:27:05.359 --> 01:27:10.159
seventy two, and sixty five haven't paid a TV license,

1041
01:27:11.359 --> 01:27:15.479
then they know where to go. And they're just going

1042
01:27:15.560 --> 01:27:20.960
to assume that everybody has a TV, because most everybody

1043
01:27:21.000 --> 01:27:25.399
does have a TV. Some people don't, but most people do,

1044
01:27:25.479 --> 01:27:29.479
and even those people who don't. Actually, I remember having

1045
01:27:29.479 --> 01:27:34.600
this conversation with a dog walker and they said, oh yeah,

1046
01:27:35.079 --> 01:27:37.800
they said something about TV, and I said, wait a minute,

1047
01:27:37.880 --> 01:27:42.439
you told me you don't watch TV, because I remembered

1048
01:27:42.439 --> 01:27:46.520
what they'd said previously. When people contradict themselves, I tend

1049
01:27:46.560 --> 01:27:51.760
to remember what they said previously. And she said, oh no,

1050
01:27:52.119 --> 01:27:57.920
I stream I said it's still watching Telly just because

1051
01:27:57.960 --> 01:28:00.640
you don't own a television. So she time she didn't

1052
01:28:00.640 --> 01:28:02.880
own a television, which I assumed she didn't watch TV

1053
01:28:04.279 --> 01:28:06.239
or there There's been times when I've not owned a

1054
01:28:06.279 --> 01:28:09.680
TV and I did still watch TV online on my

1055
01:28:09.760 --> 01:28:16.119
laptop or at least watch programs, you know, streaming. So

1056
01:28:17.840 --> 01:28:22.039
they will check, they can check, and they will not

1057
01:28:22.399 --> 01:28:26.319
and they will harass. And they also they've got these

1058
01:28:26.479 --> 01:28:30.079
vans that apparently can tell, but I don't know if

1059
01:28:30.079 --> 01:28:32.720
they can or not. I don't know if it's just

1060
01:28:36.600 --> 01:28:38.960
there might just be like a little sausage roll maker

1061
01:28:39.000 --> 01:28:41.920
inside there a little bed that they sleep in. I

1062
01:28:41.960 --> 01:28:45.600
don't know if it's actually anything's working. But yeah, they've

1063
01:28:45.600 --> 01:28:47.840
definitely got the law on their side for some reason.

1064
01:28:49.439 --> 01:28:51.520
Do they have the right to just enter a house

1065
01:28:51.720 --> 01:28:56.359
and look at your technology devices? According to them, they do,

1066
01:28:57.319 --> 01:29:01.439
but uh, I think it can get to the point

1067
01:29:01.479 --> 01:29:05.439
where they can call the police in order to gain access,

1068
01:29:07.000 --> 01:29:13.920
and which is just ridiculous. It's really can you imagine

1069
01:29:15.439 --> 01:29:18.319
wasting the police time because you want to see if

1070
01:29:18.319 --> 01:29:28.560
someone owns a television that's phenomenally bad bad, and they

1071
01:29:28.600 --> 01:29:30.439
do check if they did get into your house. They

1072
01:29:30.479 --> 01:29:34.000
do look around and try and check all the technology devices.

1073
01:29:34.560 --> 01:29:37.159
So if you've got a laptop, dellas Zoom, if you've

1074
01:29:37.159 --> 01:29:40.880
got broadband, you've got internet. If you've got a phone

1075
01:29:41.199 --> 01:29:46.279
with internet, then you can watch television. If you've got access,

1076
01:29:46.399 --> 01:29:49.319
if you're able to watch television, then they think you

1077
01:29:49.319 --> 01:29:54.159
should be paying a TV license. That's their mentality. Everybody

1078
01:29:54.479 --> 01:30:01.760
with a smartphone can gain access to streaming television in

1079
01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:03.319
the UK anywhere. I don't know what it's like in

1080
01:30:03.359 --> 01:30:07.159
America or in Australia or Canada or anywhere else, but

1081
01:30:07.279 --> 01:30:13.920
in the UK, any phone, you know, a decent phone

1082
01:30:15.479 --> 01:30:20.199
which has internet access, which would be every phone that's

1083
01:30:20.399 --> 01:30:26.760
in the world can stream TV. So it's very difficult

1084
01:30:26.760 --> 01:30:33.760
to really get out of it. Yeah, I'm not not

1085
01:30:33.760 --> 01:30:35.439
a big fan of the whole thing, but you know what,

1086
01:30:35.640 --> 01:30:40.159
sometimes what is an old old saying pick your battles,

1087
01:30:41.279 --> 01:30:44.399
and I can't be bothered with this, you know, I

1088
01:30:44.439 --> 01:30:48.960
know people that have stood up for themselves and ended

1089
01:30:49.039 --> 01:30:54.439
up with a big fine corek costs and you know,

1090
01:30:54.600 --> 01:30:56.960
just like it's not worth it for the sake of

1091
01:30:57.000 --> 01:31:01.640
fifteen pound a month. No, So yeah, they kind of

1092
01:31:01.640 --> 01:31:04.800
got us by the the curly world is as it were.

1093
01:31:08.760 --> 01:31:11.359
I mean, I just I don't know for personally. I

1094
01:31:11.399 --> 01:31:15.119
think the BBC it would make sense for the BBC

1095
01:31:15.199 --> 01:31:19.920
to either just start having adverts or have it as

1096
01:31:20.199 --> 01:31:25.720
an app, you know, where people can just subscribe, subscribe

1097
01:31:25.760 --> 01:31:28.840
to all the different channels on the BBC for a

1098
01:31:28.880 --> 01:31:32.439
monthly price, which would be the cost of a TV license.

1099
01:31:33.760 --> 01:31:38.039
The problem with that is they would probably I imagine,

1100
01:31:38.319 --> 01:31:45.840
lose ninety percent of their customers. Ninety percent of the

1101
01:31:45.880 --> 01:31:51.920
revenue would probably be gone because people wouldn't wouldn't want

1102
01:31:51.920 --> 01:31:57.600
to pay you know. If they didn't, they didn't if

1103
01:31:57.600 --> 01:31:59.840
they didn't have to pay it, they wouldn't. They probably

1104
01:31:59.840 --> 01:32:05.239
find another way to watch it. So how do you

1105
01:32:05.319 --> 01:32:09.439
feel about bugs? Says Allie? Are you a kill of spiders?

1106
01:32:09.840 --> 01:32:12.560
I know, I know technically and they record you needed,

1107
01:32:13.199 --> 01:32:17.199
I think, Or do you catch them and bring them outside? Nah?

1108
01:32:17.279 --> 01:32:20.760
I don't kill bugs. I'm not bothered about bugs. Really.

1109
01:32:21.720 --> 01:32:24.920
Fly is annoying me because I keep trying to land

1110
01:32:24.960 --> 01:32:29.359
on my food and I said to him, like, why

1111
01:32:29.479 --> 01:32:32.560
you keep landing on my breakfast? And a fly said,

1112
01:32:32.600 --> 01:32:34.399
I'm trying to get the taste of that dog poo

1113
01:32:34.399 --> 01:32:35.000
out of my mouth.

1114
01:32:35.720 --> 01:32:36.159
It's like.

1115
01:32:37.880 --> 01:32:43.319
Rude. I was like, why they annoy me? Flies annoy me,

1116
01:32:44.079 --> 01:32:46.359
not enough to sort of get too angry, just to

1117
01:32:46.520 --> 01:32:49.520
just annoy you a bit. Spiders I don't care about.

1118
01:32:50.079 --> 01:32:52.600
I wouldn't even put it outside. Just leave it, leave it,

1119
01:32:52.640 --> 01:32:56.600
let me do what it wants. I don't care. And

1120
01:33:04.439 --> 01:33:07.159
I think Horace just popped up onto the window still

1121
01:33:07.159 --> 01:33:11.880
and then he's gone talking about creepy careoris and bugs

1122
01:33:12.159 --> 01:33:21.359
horis pigeon. Yeah, I think spiders, I'm not bothered. I

1123
01:33:21.399 --> 01:33:24.279
don't care about them. I think the only the only bug,

1124
01:33:24.319 --> 01:33:26.359
if you want to call it a bug, would be

1125
01:33:26.600 --> 01:33:34.079
like a wasp or a be a hornet, that kind

1126
01:33:34.119 --> 01:33:37.720
of thing. I would definitely try to well. I would

1127
01:33:37.720 --> 01:33:43.359
always try and guide them out of the window. I

1128
01:33:43.359 --> 01:33:45.199
would put the effort in to get them out of

1129
01:33:45.199 --> 01:33:49.640
the window because this isn't the right place for those

1130
01:33:50.239 --> 01:33:56.119
animals to be. They you know, they need to be outside.

1131
01:33:56.600 --> 01:34:00.720
None of them want to be inside, really, I don't think.

1132
01:34:01.239 --> 01:34:05.159
So I try and get them out and without doing

1133
01:34:05.199 --> 01:34:11.319
any harm. You know, in the past, if it was

1134
01:34:11.359 --> 01:34:13.640
a spider, I'd probably would try and get it outside.

1135
01:34:13.640 --> 01:34:17.720
But I don't care anymore. Just doesn't bother Spiders don't

1136
01:34:17.720 --> 01:34:20.680
bother me at all. I don't bother them. They don't

1137
01:34:20.720 --> 01:34:24.239
bother me. But luckily I'm in a country where we

1138
01:34:24.279 --> 01:34:30.319
haven't got a way about stuff like that. Yes, for me,

1139
01:34:30.439 --> 01:34:40.199
I just I think flies with anyone's that annoying me.

1140
01:34:40.720 --> 01:34:44.760
And when I hear a wasp's like, because I know

1141
01:34:45.319 --> 01:34:48.640
wasps don't bother me if I don't bother them, but

1142
01:34:48.720 --> 01:34:50.279
trying to get them out of the window can be

1143
01:34:50.279 --> 01:34:53.520
a little bit bothersome to them. I don't. I don't

1144
01:34:53.520 --> 01:34:59.159
want to push them, you know, too far. Hope asks me,

1145
01:34:59.319 --> 01:35:03.640
do you like any sports other than boxing? If so, what, no,

1146
01:35:05.239 --> 01:35:14.279
Sandy asks, oh uh no, genuinely, not really. I don't

1147
01:35:14.279 --> 01:35:18.039
mind a bit of mixed martial arts in UFC and

1148
01:35:18.079 --> 01:35:23.000
stuff that can be amazing. I'm the skill. I never

1149
01:35:24.520 --> 01:35:31.119
really appreciated the skill until more recently, and it's phenomenally skillful.

1150
01:35:31.560 --> 01:35:34.199
I just don't find it when they're on the floor,

1151
01:35:34.399 --> 01:35:37.479
that's when the real skill is. But I don't find

1152
01:35:37.479 --> 01:35:44.920
it exciting to watch. It's interesting to watch, but it's

1153
01:35:44.920 --> 01:35:49.199
not exciting in the same way as punching is for me.

1154
01:35:50.560 --> 01:35:53.840
But I can see, like if someone can do something

1155
01:35:53.840 --> 01:35:56.920
that I can't do, which is most people, to be fair,

1156
01:35:57.000 --> 01:36:01.079
so I'm impressed to see the highest legs. And with

1157
01:36:01.159 --> 01:36:04.359
the USC that's what you see, just like with the

1158
01:36:04.439 --> 01:36:07.960
professional boxes. He's seeing the boxes at the highest level.

1159
01:36:08.000 --> 01:36:12.880
And I can't even talk about other other sports that

1160
01:36:12.960 --> 01:36:15.399
I might like having in boxing without talking about boxing.

1161
01:36:16.039 --> 01:36:20.279
It's terrible. And I used to I used to like

1162
01:36:20.439 --> 01:36:24.720
tennis and snooker when I was a kid, but that's

1163
01:36:24.840 --> 01:36:28.279
and darts, even because we were grew up watching that stuff.

1164
01:36:29.239 --> 01:36:34.079
You know, snooker was huge in this country in the

1165
01:36:34.079 --> 01:36:40.640
early eighties. Darts was huge, honestly, it's a big, really

1166
01:36:40.840 --> 01:36:51.319
really popular sports. Eric Bristow and Tennis, Mecenroe, Connor Beyond

1167
01:36:51.439 --> 01:36:58.640
brought Beyond Beyond Borg what his name was, and all

1168
01:36:58.680 --> 01:37:01.079
these and then Agacy and in the early nineties or

1169
01:37:01.159 --> 01:37:05.880
late eighties, early nineties, and you know, tennis was huge

1170
01:37:06.840 --> 01:37:13.600
in this country during the old McEnroe era, partly because

1171
01:37:13.640 --> 01:37:19.199
of McEnroe, to be fair, he just he really a

1172
01:37:19.239 --> 01:37:25.000
bit like Alex Higgins with snooker. He made it into

1173
01:37:28.479 --> 01:37:31.640
Hurricane Higgins they called him, but he was it was

1174
01:37:31.640 --> 01:37:36.800
a maverick. And so yeah, I don't know it, so

1175
01:37:37.000 --> 01:37:39.079
I quite I used to watch football as well because

1176
01:37:39.079 --> 01:37:42.920
my oldest brother loved football and I wanted to be

1177
01:37:43.159 --> 01:37:46.960
like him a bit, so I used to watch football.

1178
01:37:47.560 --> 01:37:51.920
And at that time we lived near a town called Ipswich,

1179
01:37:52.239 --> 01:37:55.399
which was head of the league. They won the FA

1180
01:37:55.479 --> 01:37:59.319
Cup and the Europa Cup or whatever. They were the

1181
01:37:59.359 --> 01:38:05.039
top league. They were the top team in the country,

1182
01:38:05.239 --> 01:38:10.279
and so it was hard not to kind of been

1183
01:38:10.800 --> 01:38:15.640
to get blown away with that wave of excitement when

1184
01:38:15.920 --> 01:38:19.880
our local team was the best team in the entire

1185
01:38:19.960 --> 01:38:23.239
country and one of the best teams in the world

1186
01:38:23.439 --> 01:38:29.279
like Europe, you know, like football teams. So I'll tell

1187
01:38:29.279 --> 01:38:36.359
you when that was. Nineteen seventy eight two So Ipswich

1188
01:38:37.880 --> 01:38:44.479
Town Football Club FC, Ipswich Town FC. So let's have

1189
01:38:44.520 --> 01:38:51.119
a look the nineteen seventy eight FA Cup Finals association

1190
01:38:51.279 --> 01:38:54.880
football match between Arsenal and its Switched Town six and

1191
01:38:55.000 --> 01:39:01.600
May nineteen seventy eight at old Wembley Stadium. And so

1192
01:39:01.680 --> 01:39:04.960
if I just go to study, I want to just

1193
01:39:05.960 --> 01:39:10.680
I want to back this up with actual correct information

1194
01:39:10.840 --> 01:39:17.119
rather than just me making it up, because I do

1195
01:39:17.239 --> 01:39:27.960
remember them being really really really really big and it

1196
01:39:28.079 --> 01:39:31.520
was their biggest time and it was during the Bobby

1197
01:39:31.600 --> 01:39:35.079
Robson era as well, so Bobby Robson who was a

1198
01:39:35.199 --> 01:39:46.520
legend as a manager, and so look so Bobby Rogers

1199
01:39:46.600 --> 01:39:52.600
during the Bobby Robson era. At their peak in the

1200
01:39:52.680 --> 01:40:00.960
nineteen seventeen nine nineteen eighty season, they beat Manchester United.

1201
01:40:03.039 --> 01:40:05.840
Their major success came nineteen seventy eight when Ipswich b

1202
01:40:06.119 --> 01:40:09.520
Arsenal at Wembley Stadium to win the only their only

1203
01:40:09.720 --> 01:40:15.319
FA Cup trophy. The triumph was followed or by almost

1204
01:40:15.439 --> 01:40:22.199
winning the triple in eighty eighty one, so they were

1205
01:40:22.399 --> 01:40:28.840
really big, really big back then, and it's which did

1206
01:40:28.840 --> 01:40:32.199
win the UEFA Cup in nineteen eighty one as well.

1207
01:40:37.600 --> 01:40:40.960
It's hard, I mean anyone that's been I suppose there's

1208
01:40:40.960 --> 01:40:46.560
probably thousands of people, anyone that's had their local football

1209
01:40:46.600 --> 01:40:52.359
team be like at the top, even if it is

1210
01:40:52.439 --> 01:40:54.359
just for a year, a couple of years or whatever,

1211
01:40:55.159 --> 01:40:58.640
it is something it has an effect on the local area,

1212
01:40:59.159 --> 01:41:04.600
it really does. Like really, I've only experienced it once

1213
01:41:04.680 --> 01:41:07.279
and that was, you know, when I lived near Ipswich

1214
01:41:08.680 --> 01:41:12.479
and when I was a kid. So between seventy eight

1215
01:41:12.520 --> 01:41:18.319
and eighty two, Ipswich for big players and to win

1216
01:41:18.359 --> 01:41:22.399
the FA Cup is like at the time, it was

1217
01:41:22.399 --> 01:41:27.600
like the highest prize really and there's a lot more

1218
01:41:27.640 --> 01:41:30.319
different cups now. That's for me. FA Cup was a

1219
01:41:30.399 --> 01:41:34.600
much bigger deal than it is even now. I'm saying

1220
01:41:34.640 --> 01:41:38.359
that like I know something about football. And also what

1221
01:41:38.439 --> 01:41:44.000
was really big back then was sabutio, which is I

1222
01:41:44.039 --> 01:41:46.960
don't know if you've ever heard of it. It's basically,

1223
01:41:47.319 --> 01:41:50.399
you put this green cloth onto a table. You can

1224
01:41:50.520 --> 01:41:51.640
you can play it on the floor as well, but

1225
01:41:51.680 --> 01:41:54.920
it needs to be a flat floor. I mean, I

1226
01:41:54.920 --> 01:41:58.600
don't know how many floors are bumpy and lopsided, but

1227
01:41:58.640 --> 01:42:01.680
you buy flat I mean because you're you're basically got

1228
01:42:01.720 --> 01:42:06.560
these things that they're like little weebels, you know, weebles

1229
01:42:06.640 --> 01:42:09.800
robble but they don't fall down, but you push them

1230
01:42:10.079 --> 01:42:13.800
and they then they hit the ball and the ball

1231
01:42:13.840 --> 01:42:19.840
pushes and yeah, I don't know, it made sense to

1232
01:42:19.880 --> 01:42:22.479
me when I said it, but a very popular game,

1233
01:42:28.479 --> 01:42:31.359
So no, I don't really. Boxing is the only sport

1234
01:42:31.359 --> 01:42:47.439
I follow, even things like martial arts, the taekwondo, the Olympics, judo.

1235
01:42:49.199 --> 01:42:54.359
I think some of that stuff. Judo, for example, is

1236
01:42:55.600 --> 01:43:01.520
when you realize what's being done, I think, okay, I'm

1237
01:43:01.520 --> 01:43:05.640
going to talk talk for myself with judo, because my

1238
01:43:05.720 --> 01:43:07.880
dad was a judo man. When he was a school

1239
01:43:08.960 --> 01:43:12.640
he got to got a brown belt in judo, and

1240
01:43:13.600 --> 01:43:15.640
so that was his thing and he kept it with him.

1241
01:43:15.680 --> 01:43:18.680
He's like, I always, yeah, it was good balance and

1242
01:43:18.680 --> 01:43:21.680
all that stuff, But I didn't watching it. I didn't

1243
01:43:21.720 --> 01:43:26.479
see I couldn't see any kind of excitement, any kind

1244
01:43:26.560 --> 01:43:30.239
of point to watching it. I could see the point

1245
01:43:30.279 --> 01:43:35.520
of doing it, But once you learn a little bit

1246
01:43:35.560 --> 01:43:40.720
about what they're doing, you realize that it's phenomenal what

1247
01:43:40.800 --> 01:43:46.079
they're doing actually, And when you put two really really

1248
01:43:46.159 --> 01:43:51.520
good people, it's it's like a chess game. It's almost

1249
01:43:52.239 --> 01:43:54.319
you know, if you put one one really good person

1250
01:43:54.319 --> 01:43:59.399
against someone that's average, then that really good person is

1251
01:43:59.439 --> 01:44:03.880
going to check that average person all around, and it's

1252
01:44:03.880 --> 01:44:06.720
going to look spectacular. It's going to you know, it's

1253
01:44:06.720 --> 01:44:10.319
going to look just amazing. But you put two really

1254
01:44:10.359 --> 01:44:15.239
good people together and no one's going to get chucked around. Necessarily.

1255
01:44:15.680 --> 01:44:19.560
They're going to try and chuck each other around. And

1256
01:44:19.640 --> 01:44:23.319
it's the same with the USC or with the jiu jitsu.

1257
01:44:24.760 --> 01:44:27.159
They'll try and get each other, choke each other out,

1258
01:44:27.760 --> 01:44:30.920
but it's much easier for you know, if I got

1259
01:44:30.920 --> 01:44:36.600
into a jiu jitsu, someone that's I even doing it

1260
01:44:36.600 --> 01:44:41.560
a little while would get me into a choke in seconds.

1261
01:44:43.359 --> 01:44:50.560
But two really good people they can't. It's not that easy.

1262
01:44:51.119 --> 01:44:52.800
Not that it's that it will be easy for them,

1263
01:44:53.000 --> 01:44:59.760
but I'd say it's it's which in a way, as

1264
01:44:59.800 --> 01:45:08.039
a as an observer, as an audience, it I think

1265
01:45:08.079 --> 01:45:16.319
unless really into the sport, the skill doesn't necessarily impress

1266
01:45:18.199 --> 01:45:22.079
because not based on speed. But with you know, with races,

1267
01:45:22.399 --> 01:45:25.880
the one who wins first, one that gets their first wins.

1268
01:45:26.720 --> 01:45:29.520
It's a much easier thing to watch, isn't it a

1269
01:45:29.600 --> 01:45:36.479
running race, a swimming race, waring rowing sorry, rowing race,

1270
01:45:38.159 --> 01:45:43.359
hoeing hoe in rowing, horse race or whatever. You know,

1271
01:45:43.399 --> 01:45:48.159
when people are racing and it makes sense like okay,

1272
01:45:48.159 --> 01:45:53.039
the winner wins. But when it comes to like combat

1273
01:45:53.119 --> 01:45:57.039
sports is just so much more. I mean, boxing used

1274
01:45:57.039 --> 01:46:01.159
to be I preferred the boxing in the olymps. How

1275
01:46:01.159 --> 01:46:03.279
it used to be when they used to have a

1276
01:46:03.279 --> 01:46:08.199
scoring system when a beat like would actually every time

1277
01:46:08.439 --> 01:46:12.720
a glove touched the head guard or the body, it

1278
01:46:12.760 --> 01:46:18.520
would trigger off a point. So that was good because

1279
01:46:18.560 --> 01:46:21.680
then you could see how many points each boxer needed

1280
01:46:21.720 --> 01:46:23.760
to win, and if you was on one person's side,

1281
01:46:23.800 --> 01:46:26.840
you so I've get more, get more. Now they don't

1282
01:46:26.840 --> 01:46:30.439
do that anymore. If I don't even have head gear anymore.

1283
01:46:30.439 --> 01:46:36.279
I don't think in the amateur do they have head

1284
01:46:36.319 --> 01:46:39.279
gear in the the Olympics, I don't know if they

1285
01:46:39.319 --> 01:46:47.560
do anymore. They might do, so I think with because

1286
01:46:47.560 --> 01:46:52.199
I'm a very I'm a non fan when I watch

1287
01:46:52.279 --> 01:46:56.439
any other sport. So if I do watch something, I'm

1288
01:46:56.479 --> 01:46:59.880
looking for excitement in the same way as if someone

1289
01:47:00.159 --> 01:47:04.880
not really into boxing, they might watch the same five

1290
01:47:04.920 --> 01:47:08.119
as me and think what a pile of rubbish, and

1291
01:47:08.760 --> 01:47:12.279
I might think that was an amazing fight. It might

1292
01:47:12.359 --> 01:47:15.279
not be exciting in the sense of lots of action,

1293
01:47:16.119 --> 01:47:21.800
but the skill involved, you know, it might might be phenomenal.

1294
01:47:22.960 --> 01:47:28.680
The kind of skill you'd get with Mayweather, or the

1295
01:47:28.720 --> 01:47:36.119
kind of skill you get with Tyson Fury or with Usik.

1296
01:47:37.239 --> 01:47:45.159
There's different types of skill levels, or with Lumachenko the

1297
01:47:45.279 --> 01:47:51.359
nominal skills. So it's not always exciting to watch, But

1298
01:47:53.560 --> 01:47:56.479
you know, I think there's a reason why only one

1299
01:47:56.560 --> 01:48:03.880
person ever beat Tyson Fury and there was Usik, because

1300
01:48:04.119 --> 01:48:10.239
Usik is phenomenal. He is now powerful pound the top

1301
01:48:11.520 --> 01:48:16.840
out of everyone at the moment. But is this something

1302
01:48:16.920 --> 01:48:22.399
he's like, Wow, he's got Yeah. Anyway, I won't bore

1303
01:48:22.439 --> 01:48:27.399
you about talking about boxing, but no, I'm not really

1304
01:48:27.399 --> 01:48:29.920
interested there other sports. Boxing is the only one I

1305
01:48:30.039 --> 01:48:40.960
really like, and I'm trying to think of any others. No,

1306
01:48:41.000 --> 01:48:46.239
not really. Sandy asks, I would like to know if

1307
01:48:46.279 --> 01:48:51.199
you have taught Vinny any tricks, and also thank you

1308
01:48:51.279 --> 01:48:53.439
for being with me for the last six years. I

1309
01:48:53.479 --> 01:48:56.239
love fullness leap to your stories. Well, thank you, Sandy,

1310
01:48:56.279 --> 01:48:59.039
thank you for inviting me to be with you for

1311
01:48:59.079 --> 01:49:06.119
the last six years. I'm happy to help Vinny. He's

1312
01:49:06.159 --> 01:49:10.600
taught me a few tricks. Vinnie will not do a

1313
01:49:10.960 --> 01:49:15.399
single thing I ask him to do. Do you know

1314
01:49:15.520 --> 01:49:18.000
the whole time I've had him, which is two years

1315
01:49:18.039 --> 01:49:25.439
and two years and five months six months, nearly two

1316
01:49:25.560 --> 01:49:30.359
years and six months I've had him, he won't come

1317
01:49:30.359 --> 01:49:34.920
into the kitchen unless he wants to. And if I

1318
01:49:35.079 --> 01:49:37.680
say to him something's making a weird noise over there.

1319
01:49:40.359 --> 01:49:43.319
If I say to him, do you want to come

1320
01:49:43.560 --> 01:49:46.199
come in the kitchen, he just stands at the door

1321
01:49:46.199 --> 01:49:53.680
and stares at me. Right, I've now realized and this

1322
01:49:53.720 --> 01:49:56.720
is a new thing. If I say to him, stay there,

1323
01:49:56.880 --> 01:50:03.000
he runs into the kitchen. He won't do what I

1324
01:50:03.079 --> 01:50:06.680
tell him. It does exactly the opposite. So I realized

1325
01:50:06.680 --> 01:50:08.840
he wouldn't do what I told him. I realized that.

1326
01:50:09.520 --> 01:50:11.439
But he will do the opposite. So if I don't

1327
01:50:11.479 --> 01:50:15.880
want him to do something, I just tell him to

1328
01:50:16.239 --> 01:50:18.800
do the thing I don't want him to do, and

1329
01:50:18.800 --> 01:50:24.880
he does the thing that I do want him to do. No, no,

1330
01:50:24.960 --> 01:50:27.000
I tell him to tell him to do the thing

1331
01:50:27.439 --> 01:50:29.520
that I do want him to do. But I tell

1332
01:50:29.560 --> 01:50:34.560
him not to do the thing that Oh I knew

1333
01:50:34.560 --> 01:50:37.880
what I meant. You know what I mean. So if

1334
01:50:37.920 --> 01:50:43.199
it's reverse psychology or whatever, but he will not If

1335
01:50:43.239 --> 01:50:45.800
I say sit, he stands, I say stand, he sits.

1336
01:50:47.319 --> 01:50:51.199
He You know, he won't do a single thing I

1337
01:50:51.279 --> 01:50:56.520
tell him or ask him. The only thing he's ever

1338
01:50:56.600 --> 01:51:03.600
done consistently is when I'm out, And only command he

1339
01:51:03.640 --> 01:51:07.840
ever listens to is when I shout to him, vinny

1340
01:51:08.279 --> 01:51:13.359
ignore me, and he does the only thing he actually

1341
01:51:13.359 --> 01:51:20.159
listens to. So he won't do anything, no tricks, nothing,

1342
01:51:21.720 --> 01:51:28.359
He's just completely is all about him. It does whatever

1343
01:51:28.399 --> 01:51:34.159
he wants, whenever he wants, even in bed right. If

1344
01:51:34.199 --> 01:51:39.560
I accidentally touch him, my hand moves over all, my

1345
01:51:39.680 --> 01:51:47.560
leg moves. He growls at me. It's my bed, he

1346
01:51:47.880 --> 01:52:07.520
growls at me. He's very, very, a little bit temperamental. Ah,

1347
01:52:07.960 --> 01:52:10.479
I think that's all the questions. I've got no idea

1348
01:52:10.520 --> 01:52:13.159
how long I've been doing this for, but it's now

1349
01:52:14.159 --> 01:52:19.840
tend to four, so I've been doing it over an hour.

1350
01:52:22.439 --> 01:52:25.560
There's warm in it. That's because I opened I closed

1351
01:52:25.560 --> 01:52:28.199
the window. Isn't it because of that man doing washing,

1352
01:52:28.560 --> 01:52:35.239
cleaning the windows or whatever? So thank you for listening,

1353
01:52:35.680 --> 01:52:38.279
and remember to be kind to yourself, because you do

1354
01:52:38.439 --> 01:52:52.920
deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye. Relax in

1355
01:52:53.000 --> 01:53:04.039
a more deep and meaningful maybe in a way that

1356
01:53:04.239 --> 01:53:13.760
can not just allow you to feel calmer now and

1357
01:53:14.760 --> 01:53:23.119
throughout the time we spend together here, not just relaxed

1358
01:53:25.359 --> 01:53:29.600
at the end of the recording when it's finished and

1359
01:53:29.640 --> 01:53:39.520
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but

1360
01:53:39.720 --> 01:53:53.159
also I think it would be nice to have those

1361
01:53:53.479 --> 01:54:10.399
feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

1362
01:54:15.520 --> 01:54:27.680
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

1363
01:54:28.079 --> 01:54:39.520
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

1364
01:54:39.680 --> 01:54:47.640
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1365
01:54:47.720 --> 01:54:51.279
do and myself as well. I sometimes I find one

1366
01:54:51.359 --> 01:55:01.680
particular recording that really resonates with me, and I just

1367
01:55:01.800 --> 01:55:07.479
listened to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1368
01:55:15.119 --> 01:55:19.760
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1369
01:55:19.880 --> 01:55:25.159
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

1370
01:55:25.239 --> 01:55:34.720
guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I

1371
01:55:34.800 --> 01:55:38.079
managed to find it again and it still has the

1372
01:55:38.119 --> 01:55:47.319
same effect on me. And part of it was the

1373
01:55:47.439 --> 01:56:00.680
person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and I'd

1374
01:56:00.760 --> 01:56:07.960
look forward to listening to her in the morning and

1375
01:56:08.039 --> 01:56:19.079
in the evening. And I knew before even pressing the

1376
01:56:19.159 --> 01:56:27.680
play button that since I've done that pressed the play button.

1377
01:56:28.479 --> 01:56:39.439
This was in the days of CD players, pressed the

1378
01:56:39.520 --> 01:56:44.880
play button, if that it might have even been a

1379
01:56:44.920 --> 01:56:49.479
tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1380
01:56:49.520 --> 01:57:07.960
then even without necessarily listening to her words, because I

1381
01:57:08.079 --> 01:57:15.560
had been memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1382
01:57:17.479 --> 01:57:30.920
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1383
01:57:30.960 --> 01:57:51.439
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

1384
01:57:51.439 --> 01:58:02.840
slow down. Now now I was listening to this recording

1385
01:58:06.159 --> 01:58:12.239
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

1386
01:58:13.840 --> 01:58:21.880
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

1387
01:58:21.880 --> 01:58:24.960
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six.

1388
01:58:31.720 --> 01:58:47.520
But I knew, I knew how helpful I found being

1389
01:58:47.560 --> 01:58:56.760
able to just let go, to have that trust in

1390
01:58:56.840 --> 01:59:07.239
the person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going

1391
01:59:07.319 --> 01:59:17.840
to be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each

1392
01:59:17.960 --> 01:59:24.560
time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1393
01:59:30.920 --> 01:59:45.680
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1394
01:59:46.359 --> 01:59:50.399
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1395
01:59:52.119 --> 01:59:58.640
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1396
01:59:58.760 --> 02:00:15.319
every day. That's something that I do which you may

1397
02:00:15.439 --> 02:00:36.399
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1398
02:00:36.520 --> 02:00:49.039
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1399
02:00:49.159 --> 02:01:00.720
I say. So if I said to you, focus on

1400
02:01:00.760 --> 02:01:10.600
your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing

1401
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:31.680
on my feet. I will be noticing my feet relaxing.

1402
02:01:33.119 --> 02:01:39.319
If I said, focus on your hands, and maybe notice

1403
02:01:39.439 --> 02:01:50.960
the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the the air

1404
02:01:51.359 --> 02:01:56.079
in the room, the temperature of the room. On the

1405
02:01:56.119 --> 02:02:07.920
backs of your hands, you may start to notice what

1406
02:02:08.039 --> 02:02:15.359
almost feels like a very light breeze. Even though there

1407
02:02:16.159 --> 02:02:21.279
may not be any type of breeze at all where

1408
02:02:21.319 --> 02:02:34.920
you are right now, and as you become aware of

1409
02:02:34.960 --> 02:02:48.640
your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands

1410
02:02:52.279 --> 02:03:14.560
are feeling now, and when it comes to potentially drifting

1411
02:03:14.720 --> 02:03:19.800
off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

1412
02:03:25.520 --> 02:03:40.159
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

1413
02:03:40.279 --> 02:03:58.720
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

1414
02:03:58.760 --> 02:04:12.680
actually fallen sick sleep without even noticing, and then I

1415
02:04:12.800 --> 02:04:24.159
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1416
02:04:24.359 --> 02:04:33.359
to do the editing I hear snoring and I think,

1417
02:04:33.760 --> 02:04:43.960
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1418
02:04:44.520 --> 02:04:50.840
a pig turned up. That's why I sound like when

1419
02:04:50.880 --> 02:05:01.800
I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

1420
02:05:09.720 --> 02:05:19.159
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

1421
02:05:19.199 --> 02:05:29.800
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1422
02:05:44.880 --> 02:05:57.119
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1423
02:05:58.840 --> 02:06:15.039
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1424
02:06:21.199 --> 02:06:37.880
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1425
02:06:37.920 --> 02:07:09.039
you the breath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1426
02:07:09.279 --> 02:07:38.039
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1427
02:07:38.239 --> 02:08:28.079
so naturally, You breathe so very easily and smooth. Whenever

1428
02:08:28.199 --> 02:08:45.359
I imagine m my breathing improving. When I've got my

1429
02:08:45.479 --> 02:09:04.159
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1430
02:09:04.479 --> 02:09:38.600
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It

1431
02:09:38.640 --> 02:09:54.800
feels nice two if nothing else, just taking some time

1432
02:10:00.640 --> 02:10:49.000
away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with

1433
02:10:49.039 --> 02:11:25.560
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1434
02:11:26.720 --> 02:12:16.520
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

1435
02:12:17.439 --> 02:13:20.920
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1436
02:13:21.119 --> 02:14:08.319
mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires

1437
02:14:08.359 --> 02:14:38.720
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1438
02:14:39.000 --> 02:14:51.199
the stress to drip out of your body, to appear

1439
02:14:51.520 --> 02:15:21.000
out of every part of your body, being released from

1440
02:15:21.039 --> 02:16:01.800
your brain, u your mind slowly but surely, the muscles, sing,

1441
02:16:02.239 --> 02:16:54.479
legs relax res re so very deeply, reas so deeply,

1442
02:17:12.280 --> 02:17:40.319
and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1443
02:17:40.360 --> 02:18:04.840
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper,

1444
02:18:19.399 --> 02:18:49.040
noticing the feelings in the back of your neck the

1445
02:18:49.239 --> 02:19:28.440
feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body,

1446
02:19:38.799 --> 02:20:22.280
I all say, feeling peaceful, deeply, there's a sense of

1447
02:20:22.559 --> 02:21:07.000
peace spreads through your fairy core. Even when you focus

1448
02:21:07.159 --> 02:22:06.520
on your mind, your mind becomes eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing,

1449
02:22:30.399 --> 02:23:08.319
so very slow, his stomach, peace fall in your stomach,

1450
02:23:30.440 --> 02:24:04.559
you're back. Notice. Notice how relaxed you'd never fear. In

1451
02:24:04.719 --> 02:24:37.440
the hole of your back. Your spy from your brain,

1452
02:24:37.959 --> 02:24:45.719
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

1453
02:24:46.040 --> 02:25:09.239
and receiving millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing

1454
02:25:19.760 --> 02:26:26.159
deeply relaxed uns, legs, spreading those signals down a spine

1455
02:26:26.280 --> 02:26:49.120
or cord into air, every part of your body, your

1456
02:26:49.280 --> 02:27:37.799
shins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace

1457
02:27:40.719 --> 02:27:54.680
and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1458
02:27:58.920 --> 02:28:10.360
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way till you

1459
02:28:10.520 --> 02:29:24.239
lower back. Lettinker, reatinker peace mm hmm, drifting mind, just

1460
02:29:24.719 --> 02:29:50.760
wandering away, happy to let go, let go completely, let go,

1461
02:30:16.159 --> 02:31:13.360
so tranquil, the whole body enjoying a sense of listing

1462
02:31:13.559 --> 02:33:16.280
go Heph more Pece join the space, this space of

1463
02:33:16.559 --> 02:35:42.760
peace and safety, so very relaxed, letting go, maybe we

1464
02:35:42.959 --> 02:35:53.399
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1465
02:35:54.559 --> 02:36:46.680
just to notice.

1466
02:36:22.000 --> 02:36:25.079
A forehead and your eyes.

1467
02:36:57.520 --> 02:37:43.000
U so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute

1468
02:37:43.399 --> 02:39:38.399
freedom rif prif pea's for energy, peace to breeze so

1469
02:39:38.639 --> 02:39:41.959
much easier.

1470
02:40:22.280 --> 02:40:22.600
Loose.

1471
02:40:43.879 --> 02:40:55.479
You may have or may not have noticed your mind

1472
02:40:56.200 --> 02:41:57.399
drifting peaceful, may any even more deeply in the direction

1473
02:41:57.600 --> 02:43:32.479
of total bliss for pace, bliss for pace, terrefting to

1474
02:43:32.479 --> 02:44:43.639
to pace, come so calm lett him go peace with

1475
02:44:44.079 --> 02:45:54.920
mind rexed forty so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels

1476
02:45:55.200 --> 02:46:34.479
almost invisible, so the very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace

1477
02:46:50.559 --> 02:47:37.879
relax liquas and you could start to notice that you

1478
02:47:39.399 --> 02:47:50.719
are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused

1479
02:47:51.079 --> 02:47:59.239
your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is

1480
02:47:59.440 --> 02:48:08.719
growing within you throughout your body, and your mind starts

1481
02:48:08.799 --> 02:48:18.440
to slow down. And that could be almost in recognition

1482
02:48:18.920 --> 02:48:32.799
of I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and

1483
02:48:32.959 --> 02:48:46.200
things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1484
02:48:46.920 --> 02:48:53.879
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1485
02:48:53.920 --> 02:49:00.600
the day, take a break from your life, yes it is,

1486
02:49:03.840 --> 02:49:11.479
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1487
02:49:11.600 --> 02:49:16.879
take some time off and to allow your body to

1488
02:49:16.959 --> 02:49:26.719
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

1489
02:49:26.840 --> 02:49:34.639
turn releases the tension and he stresses that you had

1490
02:49:34.680 --> 02:49:44.440
in your body. It's almost as if the parts of

1491
02:49:44.479 --> 02:49:56.479
your body just open up, allowing the negativity out and

1492
02:49:56.559 --> 02:50:05.000
at the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

1493
02:50:08.079 --> 02:50:12.719
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1494
02:50:14.319 --> 02:50:32.799
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1495
02:50:32.799 --> 02:50:49.920
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1496
02:50:49.959 --> 02:51:00.840
your body like a wave of comfort, and all this

1497
02:51:00.959 --> 02:51:13.040
comes and just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1498
02:51:13.079 --> 02:51:16.959
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1499
02:51:17.239 --> 02:51:31.079
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1500
02:51:31.200 --> 02:51:48.239
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1501
02:51:52.079 --> 02:52:01.479
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1502
02:52:05.479 --> 02:52:14.319
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1503
02:52:15.079 --> 02:52:19.719
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1504
02:52:23.959 --> 02:52:33.719
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

1505
02:52:38.719 --> 02:52:45.959
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1506
02:52:46.120 --> 02:52:51.840
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1507
02:52:55.280 --> 02:53:07.520
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1508
02:53:09.280 --> 02:53:24.760
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1509
02:53:26.000 --> 02:53:32.000
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1510
02:53:32.000 --> 02:53:49.079
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1511
02:53:49.079 --> 02:53:58.760
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1512
02:54:02.760 --> 02:54:08.879
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1513
02:54:11.239 --> 02:54:17.959
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1514
02:54:18.120 --> 02:54:25.760
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1515
02:54:25.799 --> 02:54:39.200
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1516
02:54:39.559 --> 02:54:52.600
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1517
02:54:52.639 --> 02:54:59.559
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1518
02:55:00.239 --> 02:55:10.319
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like

1519
02:55:10.520 --> 02:55:15.680
mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel

1520
02:55:15.760 --> 02:55:25.799
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1521
02:55:25.879 --> 02:55:32.760
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1522
02:55:34.479 --> 02:55:40.520
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1523
02:55:41.040 --> 02:55:51.559
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1524
02:55:51.799 --> 02:55:59.799
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1525
02:56:01.879 --> 02:56:10.639
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1526
02:56:11.559 --> 02:56:21.280
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1527
02:56:22.319 --> 02:56:32.040
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1528
02:56:32.079 --> 02:56:38.520
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1529
02:56:38.760 --> 02:56:53.239
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1530
02:56:53.639 --> 02:57:00.680
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, all of your

1531
02:57:00.680 --> 02:57:16.200
mouth relaxing, calm and lease as you focus now on

1532
02:57:16.319 --> 02:57:23.280
your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw near

1533
02:57:23.319 --> 02:57:27.799
your mouth and your chin, but all the way up

1534
02:57:28.479 --> 02:57:31.120
the size of your face to.

1535
02:57:31.120 --> 02:57:38.239
Your ears, that hole of your jaw.

1536
02:57:38.520 --> 02:58:05.719
Feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the

1537
02:58:05.760 --> 02:58:13.319
front of your neck, and your throat relaxing and loose

1538
02:58:14.000 --> 02:58:23.639
and calm. The side of your neck, the right and

1539
02:58:23.840 --> 02:58:37.559
left side of your neck relax and loose and calm.

1540
02:58:42.840 --> 02:58:49.719
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1541
02:58:49.799 --> 02:59:00.239
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1542
02:59:00.399 --> 02:59:05.879
may have been there before, and enjoying that.

1543
02:59:08.479 --> 02:59:19.639
Sense of increasing comfort and release that you can experience

1544
02:59:20.719 --> 02:59:30.360
in the back of your neck. Moving down your back

1545
02:59:32.719 --> 02:59:37.520
and moving either side of your spine right from the

1546
02:59:37.559 --> 02:59:42.959
top of your back all the way down to the

1547
02:59:43.000 --> 03:00:00.520
bottom of your back down to your lower back. As

1548
03:00:00.559 --> 03:00:08.000
you move up and down your spine, you can feel

1549
03:00:08.120 --> 03:00:15.879
the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1550
03:00:23.360 --> 03:00:30.159
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1551
03:00:30.200 --> 03:00:40.360
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1552
03:00:40.440 --> 03:00:47.440
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1553
03:00:47.559 --> 03:00:57.079
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1554
03:00:58.280 --> 03:01:03.600
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1555
03:01:03.680 --> 03:01:13.520
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1556
03:01:13.639 --> 03:01:19.319
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1557
03:01:19.719 --> 03:01:34.239
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, And

1558
03:01:34.440 --> 03:01:40.520
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1559
03:01:40.719 --> 03:01:56.840
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips. Sit

1560
03:01:57.000 --> 03:02:05.120
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1561
03:02:05.159 --> 03:02:13.719
where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all

1562
03:02:13.719 --> 03:02:23.040
those muscles that spread whom your lower back into your

1563
03:02:23.120 --> 03:02:36.479
hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1564
03:02:42.879 --> 03:02:47.920
I don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders.

1565
03:02:49.600 --> 03:02:56.799
Your back and your spine will continue to let go

1566
03:02:59.600 --> 03:03:15.159
and continue to relax so calmly. And as you focus

1567
03:03:15.239 --> 03:03:22.959
on your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling

1568
03:03:26.200 --> 03:03:58.959
really loose. They're already feeding calm and feeling. Those muscles

1569
03:03:59.000 --> 03:04:11.360
the move from your neck into your shoulders feel so

1570
03:04:11.360 --> 03:04:40.399
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeding

1571
03:04:40.520 --> 03:04:53.440
in your shoulders seems to spread deep into your shoulders,

1572
03:04:55.440 --> 03:05:04.719
that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1573
03:05:08.159 --> 03:05:21.040
but also relaxing the bones and moving all the way

1574
03:05:21.280 --> 03:05:30.040
to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area between the

1575
03:05:30.159 --> 03:05:39.879
tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms. He then

1576
03:05:44.680 --> 03:05:57.600
you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who

1577
03:05:57.920 --> 03:06:19.840
sends that deep healing message into your arms, And you

1578
03:06:19.959 --> 03:06:25.680
may feel almost as if your arms are not even there,

1579
03:06:27.200 --> 03:07:03.879
because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm,

1580
03:07:04.200 --> 03:07:26.120
so loose, not feeling spreading all the way down your arms,

1581
03:07:28.799 --> 03:07:57.920
two elbows, including your elbows circumforts, spreads all away into

1582
03:07:58.200 --> 03:08:16.840
wrists are forearments, and your wists so heavy yet at

1583
03:08:16.959 --> 03:08:19.639
the same time.

1584
03:08:26.799 --> 03:08:27.600
So light.

1585
03:08:30.639 --> 03:09:36.399
And gentle. Focusing owt on your hands, my hands, so peaceful.

1586
03:09:37.440 --> 03:09:38.600
In your hands.

1587
03:09:57.079 --> 03:10:20.719
There's a sense real peace. It just seems to feel

1588
03:10:22.959 --> 03:11:14.959
so familiar when your hands relax deeply, el is your thingers,

1589
03:11:31.799 --> 03:12:37.399
you things sad less, your finger tips, moving your attention

1590
03:12:38.760 --> 03:13:06.600
to the front of your body, so comfortable, move on

1591
03:13:06.680 --> 03:14:51.159
your focus your legs, lo muscles, in your thighs, your knees,

1592
03:14:55.200 --> 03:15:33.079
so relaxed, a carved mussels and just shins, a puzzy.

1593
03:15:32.840 --> 03:16:27.159
The.

1594
03:16:25.360 --> 03:17:52.479
Four and the fathing your feet so peaceful, so calm,

1595
03:17:52.520 --> 03:19:02.520
so peaceful, sircom so peaceful, sycom so peace fain peace fall,

1596
03:19:06.120 --> 03:19:21.600
so calm, allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest,

1597
03:19:21.879 --> 03:19:53.200
in your stomach, so letting go of everything. So I'm

1598
03:19:53.200 --> 03:20:04.479
gonna start counting down now from twenty down to one.

1599
03:20:05.319 --> 03:20:08.520
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1600
03:20:08.639 --> 03:20:14.520
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1601
03:20:14.600 --> 03:20:25.040
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1602
03:20:27.559 --> 03:20:40.040
a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you walk

1603
03:20:40.120 --> 03:20:45.920
down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1604
03:20:52.559 --> 03:23:27.440
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen

1605
03:24:42.920 --> 03:33:51.879
three four four see too well five eight nine eight seven.

1606
03:33:00.559 --> 03:35:45.319
Sai five.

1607
03:36:01.760 --> 03:41:29.920
Four four fo one.

1608
03:41:32.079 --> 03:41:49.120
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

1609
03:41:49.159 --> 03:42:00.639
count down from ten douts one. Focus in just on

1610
03:42:00.760 --> 03:42:11.760
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1611
03:42:11.799 --> 03:42:31.079
eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up your eye.

1612
03:42:31.760 --> 03:42:39.280
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1613
03:42:39.559 --> 03:42:52.559
whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll become twice is

1614
03:42:52.719 --> 03:43:07.920
relaxed with each number counting down that you may find

1615
03:43:08.719 --> 03:43:14.559
the all you want to do is just drift off

1616
03:43:14.840 --> 03:43:24.040
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1617
03:43:24.120 --> 03:43:37.239
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1618
03:43:39.319 --> 03:43:44.760
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1619
03:43:44.920 --> 03:47:57.840
one right now, ten nine eight seven s five.

1620
03:48:04.479 --> 03:53:12.680
Four three two one. So counting down from ten to

1621
03:53:12.799 --> 03:53:25.360
one ten nine eight seven six.

1622
03:53:27.239 --> 03:53:30.479
Five four.

1623
03:53:33.040 --> 03:53:38.360
Three two.

1624
03:53:39.120 --> 03:53:45.760
One.

1625
03:53:46.360 --> 03:53:49.280
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1626
03:53:49.319 --> 03:53:53.280
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1627
03:53:53.600 --> 03:54:03.319
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1628
03:54:03.319 --> 03:54:06.920
little bit of pressure there. Like you'll count it down

1629
03:54:06.959 --> 03:54:10.040
from ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man?

1630
03:54:10.840 --> 03:54:16.639
Expect me to stick gold floppy just because you're counting down.

1631
03:54:21.000 --> 03:54:24.280
We could try it again, but this time I go

1632
03:54:24.360 --> 03:54:31.520
a bit slower this time, as you focus on the

1633
03:54:31.559 --> 03:54:36.040
whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1634
03:54:38.120 --> 03:54:47.360
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1635
03:54:47.719 --> 03:55:11.360
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine

1636
03:55:12.559 --> 03:56:41.680
eight seven six five four three two one, And just

1637
03:56:41.879 --> 03:56:47.840
notice how how you feel generally, how your body feels.

1638
03:56:54.440 --> 03:57:02.239
It's not necessarily even about ye counting down from ten

1639
03:57:02.319 --> 03:57:12.719
to one. It's that space that you have, that space

1640
03:57:12.879 --> 03:57:33.520
between being active physically or mentally to just sitting or

1641
03:57:33.639 --> 03:57:39.479
lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything,

1642
03:57:39.600 --> 03:57:46.200
not needing to think about anything. So it opens up

1643
03:57:46.239 --> 03:57:50.719
a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap.

1644
03:57:56.920 --> 03:58:00.520
And the more I camped down from ten to one,

1645
03:58:01.639 --> 03:58:09.959
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1646
03:58:11.120 --> 03:58:27.280
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1647
03:58:28.360 --> 03:58:42.440
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1648
03:58:45.079 --> 03:58:57.799
Allows you to just slow down. Someone to count again

1649
03:58:57.879 --> 03:59:04.159
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

1650
03:59:06.239 --> 03:59:10.680
the gap, And as it widens, it's almost like the

1651
03:59:12.440 --> 03:59:16.000
stress and attention falls into.

1652
03:59:15.680 --> 03:59:16.440
The gap.

1653
03:59:29.520 --> 04:00:37.079
And gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1654
04:00:55.319 --> 04:02:01.920
three two one. How did your body feel? Can you

1655
04:02:02.040 --> 04:02:40.520
notice that you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As

1656
04:02:40.520 --> 04:03:00.879
we now focus on your legs, just your legs, We're

1657
04:03:00.959 --> 04:03:20.879
just going to start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1658
04:03:20.920 --> 04:03:25.840
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1659
04:03:29.280 --> 04:03:32.000
I'm sure like most of your body. Is not a

1660
04:03:32.040 --> 04:03:44.479
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

1661
04:03:44.600 --> 04:03:51.000
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1662
04:03:51.120 --> 04:03:58.200
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1663
04:03:58.239 --> 04:04:03.120
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1664
04:04:03.239 --> 04:04:12.040
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1665
04:04:12.239 --> 04:04:26.280
your knee joint. Now, this is a big area. It's

1666
04:04:26.319 --> 04:04:31.840
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1667
04:04:32.799 --> 04:04:46.040
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1668
04:04:46.040 --> 04:04:54.479
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1669
04:05:00.280 --> 04:05:11.040
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1670
04:05:11.200 --> 04:05:31.879
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1671
04:05:31.920 --> 04:05:42.399
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1672
04:05:42.479 --> 04:05:50.959
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1673
04:05:51.000 --> 04:05:58.639
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1674
04:05:59.600 --> 04:06:17.840
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our

1675
04:06:18.000 --> 04:06:27.360
thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

1676
04:06:27.399 --> 04:06:33.840
a strange. Maybe you think, why am I, Surely I

1677
04:06:33.920 --> 04:06:39.079
should be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1678
04:06:43.200 --> 04:06:45.600
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1679
04:06:46.520 --> 04:06:48.799
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1680
04:06:48.799 --> 04:06:52.559
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1681
04:06:52.600 --> 04:07:03.879
from the tree. Move down to your knees gain such

1682
04:07:03.920 --> 04:07:13.479
an important part, and I think we don't necessarily I'll

1683
04:07:13.520 --> 04:07:21.120
speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all that

1684
04:07:21.200 --> 04:07:26.440
my knees do for me until I have a problem

1685
04:07:26.520 --> 04:07:31.360
with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever, maybe i'll

1686
04:07:31.399 --> 04:07:37.280
pash it or it's aching for some reason. It's then

1687
04:07:37.760 --> 04:07:39.360
that I realize.

1688
04:07:39.879 --> 04:07:41.239
How much it does.

1689
04:07:42.680 --> 04:07:45.920
You know, the benefit of being able to use my

1690
04:07:46.159 --> 04:07:55.879
legs without any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful

1691
04:07:55.879 --> 04:08:05.159
thing that's possibly not appreciated or it's temporarily removed. You

1692
04:08:05.200 --> 04:08:12.200
know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1693
04:08:14.239 --> 04:08:19.920
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1694
04:08:20.159 --> 04:08:26.360
sense of gratitude and love to your needs for all

1695
04:08:26.440 --> 04:08:38.799
that they do for you. And you can still have

1696
04:08:38.840 --> 04:08:43.040
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1697
04:08:43.079 --> 04:08:48.479
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed.

1698
04:08:47.879 --> 04:08:55.319
That they are relaxing more.

1699
04:08:56.760 --> 04:09:08.479
Deeply. As you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1700
04:09:08.840 --> 04:09:14.719
your shins, and your calf muscles, the bones between your

1701
04:09:15.559 --> 04:09:23.399
knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles

1702
04:09:23.559 --> 04:09:33.840
so important. You know, anyone that's had even the slightest

1703
04:09:34.239 --> 04:09:40.280
sprain of an ankle knows how how much we take

1704
04:09:41.600 --> 04:09:50.440
our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in

1705
04:09:50.479 --> 04:09:55.680
a way when you think that. You know, logically, our

1706
04:09:55.719 --> 04:09:59.280
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1707
04:10:00.319 --> 04:10:03.920
which is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with

1708
04:10:03.959 --> 04:10:09.719
that because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles

1709
04:10:11.200 --> 04:10:21.200
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1710
04:10:21.239 --> 04:10:25.799
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1711
04:10:25.840 --> 04:10:33.120
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1712
04:10:34.120 --> 04:10:44.159
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1713
04:10:45.600 --> 04:10:55.280
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1714
04:10:55.319 --> 04:11:05.280
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1715
04:11:07.479 --> 04:11:20.319
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1716
04:11:20.399 --> 04:11:28.239
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1717
04:11:28.440 --> 04:11:31.799
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1718
04:11:31.799 --> 04:11:36.959
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1719
04:11:37.680 --> 04:11:41.559
then my calf muscles get some work, but of course

1720
04:11:41.600 --> 04:11:45.760
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1721
04:11:45.799 --> 04:11:57.760
we use our legs, and your shins there to protect

1722
04:12:00.280 --> 04:12:09.440
lex shaped in a way, almost as a protector for

1723
04:12:09.559 --> 04:12:24.799
the bone, leading of course to your ankles and your feet.

1724
04:12:29.479 --> 04:12:31.440
But we're not going to focus on your feet. We're

1725
04:12:31.479 --> 04:12:35.680
just going to focus on the legs. And I realize

1726
04:12:37.680 --> 04:12:41.600
that now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focuses

1727
04:12:41.879 --> 04:12:44.959
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1728
04:12:45.000 --> 04:12:50.840
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1729
04:12:50.879 --> 04:12:57.399
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1730
04:12:58.120 --> 04:13:01.959
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1731
04:13:01.959 --> 04:13:07.360
a few minutes, let me focus in on your ankles.

1732
04:13:12.760 --> 04:13:27.959
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and

1733
04:13:28.040 --> 04:13:37.520
there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots

1734
04:13:37.520 --> 04:13:43.159
of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big

1735
04:13:43.399 --> 04:13:55.559
strong muscles that we have in our thighs, but the

1736
04:13:55.719 --> 04:14:01.760
skin on the outside of the thighs, as in the

1737
04:14:01.799 --> 04:14:07.399
outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1738
04:14:11.280 --> 04:14:24.559
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1739
04:14:24.600 --> 04:14:32.079
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1740
04:14:32.200 --> 04:14:39.360
the arch trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1741
04:14:42.440 --> 04:14:45.799
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1742
04:14:45.840 --> 04:14:53.319
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1743
04:14:53.399 --> 04:14:56.959
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1744
04:14:57.000 --> 04:15:00.239
be able to get deep into the muscles, to be

1745
04:15:00.280 --> 04:15:05.440
able to just massage inside your thighs, message in the

1746
04:15:05.520 --> 04:15:14.280
bones of your leg massage in all the veins, and

1747
04:15:14.440 --> 04:15:24.920
just gently healing your thighs, and you could move down

1748
04:15:26.920 --> 04:15:32.079
message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1749
04:15:32.959 --> 04:15:40.079
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1750
04:15:40.120 --> 04:15:49.600
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1751
04:15:49.799 --> 04:15:54.920
of your your knee, or the inside crease where your

1752
04:15:55.000 --> 04:16:02.799
knee is. It's a really sensitive area. Very feels very

1753
04:16:02.879 --> 04:16:07.680
nice when you stroke it. That might be because it's

1754
04:16:07.719 --> 04:16:13.040
an area that's not really touched very often. It's almost

1755
04:16:13.079 --> 04:16:19.399
like a hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's

1756
04:16:19.440 --> 04:16:26.680
almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which is

1757
04:16:26.719 --> 04:16:37.840
a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs,

1758
04:16:45.079 --> 04:16:49.360
so you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1759
04:16:50.200 --> 04:16:59.120
in your legs that fold in between your legs. You

1760
04:16:59.159 --> 04:17:03.040
can just mess up out with your fingertips, letting your

1761
04:17:03.040 --> 04:17:14.200
fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can

1762
04:17:14.239 --> 04:17:20.520
of course feel the bones of your knees healing through

1763
04:17:20.520 --> 04:17:33.280
your fingertips. And then as you go down to your

1764
04:17:33.280 --> 04:17:35.959
calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like to be

1765
04:17:36.040 --> 04:17:42.440
able to really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles,

1766
04:17:43.879 --> 04:17:50.719
massage in every single tissue of that muscle.

1767
04:17:51.840 --> 04:18:00.399
Healing every part, and then doing.

1768
04:18:00.319 --> 04:18:08.639
The same for my shins, massage and gently stroking the bones,

1769
04:18:10.360 --> 04:18:16.120
gently stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1770
04:18:16.159 --> 04:18:22.639
deserve to be treated as the precious bones that they are,

1771
04:18:23.879 --> 04:18:27.159
because our legs are so precious as in all the

1772
04:18:27.200 --> 04:18:33.200
other parts of our body, and more precious of any jure.

1773
04:18:35.600 --> 04:18:36.319
On the planet.

1774
04:18:44.719 --> 04:18:56.600
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1775
04:18:57.440 --> 04:19:03.920
it can change your perspective. Do it might sound a

1776
04:19:03.959 --> 04:19:10.959
bit a bit silly to start with the idea of

1777
04:19:11.159 --> 04:19:19.479
having love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

1778
04:19:22.040 --> 04:19:26.000
wanting to be able to put your hands in your

1779
04:19:26.000 --> 04:19:34.559
thighs the massage the muscles and the bones, and to

1780
04:19:34.639 --> 04:19:43.040
get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just

1781
04:19:43.079 --> 04:19:52.520
to show how much you care about your legs, how

1782
04:19:52.600 --> 04:19:58.559
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1783
04:20:00.879 --> 04:20:11.120
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1784
04:20:14.000 --> 04:20:18.760
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1785
04:20:18.799 --> 04:20:28.600
your legs, especially your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible,

1786
04:20:32.360 --> 04:20:34.799
absolutely amazing things.

1787
04:20:36.000 --> 04:20:37.600
Your ankles are.

1788
04:20:41.200 --> 04:20:46.440
Truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1789
04:20:51.799 --> 04:20:58.760
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1790
04:21:00.000 --> 04:21:04.719
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1791
04:21:04.760 --> 04:21:11.440
of weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot

1792
04:21:11.639 --> 04:21:13.159
heavier than eat stone.

1793
04:21:14.360 --> 04:21:20.040
Double down, Yet my ankles.

1794
04:21:21.159 --> 04:21:28.840
Support my body all the time. Whether they do give

1795
04:21:28.879 --> 04:21:33.440
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, that's

1796
04:21:33.520 --> 04:21:39.639
a fact. My whole legs do. My feet.

1797
04:21:40.680 --> 04:21:44.520
My feet also go, my toes clap.

1798
04:21:45.680 --> 04:22:04.479
I'm so happy.

1799
04:22:06.200 --> 04:22:15.479
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1800
04:22:15.520 --> 04:22:21.920
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1801
04:22:21.959 --> 04:22:27.559
most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1802
04:22:30.600 --> 04:22:37.159
or boring or not, everything I said is true. Your

1803
04:22:37.239 --> 04:22:57.840
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1804
04:22:57.879 --> 04:23:10.520
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1805
04:23:10.559 --> 04:23:36.040
out of the day to just let go completely. The legs.

1806
04:23:40.239 --> 04:23:42.799
Really can relax.

1807
04:23:50.399 --> 04:23:54.559
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1808
04:23:54.760 --> 04:24:00.719
very important part of your body, and you relax she legs,

1809
04:24:00.799 --> 04:24:08.079
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1810
04:24:11.440 --> 04:24:22.719
a journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1811
04:24:24.000 --> 04:24:30.639
My hips feel really loose, and also.

1812
04:24:30.440 --> 04:24:31.559
My lawer back as well.

1813
04:24:33.559 --> 04:24:34.520
My lower back.

1814
04:24:34.559 --> 04:24:40.120
Really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1815
04:24:40.159 --> 04:24:46.159
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1816
04:24:46.200 --> 04:24:49.280
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1817
04:24:49.360 --> 04:24:53.360
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1818
04:24:53.479 --> 04:25:18.200
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1819
04:25:18.239 --> 04:25:25.440
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1820
04:25:25.959 --> 04:25:51.879
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1821
04:25:55.040 --> 04:26:27.920
five a three twobe w relax. So I'm just going

1822
04:26:28.000 --> 04:26:32.760
to count down from five down to one. And as

1823
04:26:32.799 --> 04:26:38.719
a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers, just

1824
04:26:38.879 --> 04:26:49.520
the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel in

1825
04:26:49.559 --> 04:26:55.280
this moment as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing

1826
04:26:55.440 --> 04:27:09.360
that those numbers counting represent you feeling calmer, not just

1827
04:27:09.520 --> 04:27:17.399
in your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just

1828
04:27:17.600 --> 04:27:23.200
notice how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing

1829
04:27:23.559 --> 04:27:32.520
to say, there's nothing to think about. Starting with number

1830
04:27:32.559 --> 04:28:24.000
five four three two one. As you notice the gradual

1831
04:28:26.719 --> 04:28:35.760
letting go the tension in your body, you may also

1832
04:28:36.280 --> 04:28:41.920
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1833
04:28:42.840 --> 04:28:50.879
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1834
04:28:51.600 --> 04:28:59.559
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1835
04:28:59.600 --> 04:29:05.000
just sure because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1836
04:29:05.719 --> 04:29:10.680
starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the

1837
04:29:10.719 --> 04:29:16.200
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1838
04:29:22.200 --> 04:29:30.760
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1839
04:29:30.879 --> 04:29:36.479
even even if there's background sounds either your side online

1840
04:29:38.280 --> 04:29:44.120
is still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1841
04:29:44.159 --> 04:29:48.879
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1842
04:29:48.879 --> 04:29:52.200
background unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1843
04:29:57.000 --> 04:29:59.159
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1844
04:29:59.280 --> 04:30:02.440
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1845
04:30:03.680 --> 04:30:07.000
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1846
04:30:07.079 --> 04:30:18.440
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1847
04:30:18.479 --> 04:30:35.639
about stuff. Relaxation automatically rises a sense of comfort, starts

1848
04:30:35.680 --> 04:30:44.520
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1849
04:30:44.559 --> 04:30:59.000
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1850
04:30:59.000 --> 04:31:09.920
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

1851
04:31:10.200 --> 04:31:16.959
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1852
04:31:17.079 --> 04:31:21.680
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1853
04:31:24.319 --> 04:31:33.680
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1854
04:31:34.079 --> 04:31:45.440
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1855
04:31:47.680 --> 04:31:58.680
to take advantage of this space this time. It's just.

1856
04:32:02.680 --> 04:32:03.200
Let go.

1857
04:32:06.120 --> 04:32:14.399
To just be here, to be in tune with how

1858
04:32:14.440 --> 04:32:27.840
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1859
04:32:27.959 --> 04:32:39.319
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1860
04:32:39.520 --> 04:32:45.680
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1861
04:32:52.600 --> 04:33:02.000
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1862
04:33:02.120 --> 04:33:07.319
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1863
04:33:07.400 --> 04:33:15.240
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1864
04:33:19.159 --> 04:33:37.159
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

1865
04:33:37.159 --> 04:33:53.319
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1866
04:33:53.959 --> 04:34:17.279
the process of gradual relaxing each muscle in your body

1867
04:34:22.319 --> 04:34:51.479
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

1868
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This time, I'm gonna count from six down to one,

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and you can notice your mind calming down more with

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each number that you hear me say naturally, feeling calm

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and slow and be peaceful sex five, four, three, two,

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what being aware? How your mind to slow right down,

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sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

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you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

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maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

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your attention. So what you can do is send love

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to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. M all

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petals from a flower. Just sprinkler over them, petals filled

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with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that.

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You're not abandoned the number. You just need them.

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You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiets down.

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And now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts,

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as we count down this time from seven down to one.

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With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flowers petals of love, kindness,

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gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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melt away and relax deeply. Of every number, those thoughts

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will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

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three one, And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling.

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In your body, we're going.

1890
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To focus.

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On your hands, just a more.

1892
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Relax extra hands are, the more relax your body and

1893
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mind are. And there's you focus on your hands and

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your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

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clenching of fists or dancing the fingers or anything like that. Yeah,

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it's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

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they feel.

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Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calm your

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mind feels, and the moral.

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Comforts you feel throughout your body.

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And gee may have already latice you mind.

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Is starting.

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To dress.

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Like you said, just on.

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Your hands and fingers, allowing them to cheat experience how

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real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers

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more and more relaxed.

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With each number from eight.

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Down to one, you can almost view that healing and

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relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming beare

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relaxing with each number.

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Coming down.

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From eight down to one, to drift in to drift

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him again, starting with.

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Number eights, as U s.

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Why four three?

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Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

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nothing to say, and everything just feels. This is your

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natural state of being. This is how you just normally

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feel when you take away all that other stuff.

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That you add. You think that stress and where we're

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at thinking anxiety. Dane's generally thinking about stuff, and you

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take that away. This is what we do.

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What we do now.

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Le a real sense of peacefulness, which comes to you

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04:55:09.560 --> 04:55:22.840
very quickly because arts lead. It's just a feeling, a

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feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside yourself

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and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

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place where you can fill relaxed and your natural sense

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of comfort. A place where you be where you can

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accept yourself, the who you are, a place where you're

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not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

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you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

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ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate.

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Who you are.

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A sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1937
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That's also a place where you can actual feel the

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healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

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your body, The healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

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04:57:43.720 --> 04:57:56.119
to each every single part of your body. When you

1941
04:57:56.240 --> 04:58:03.200
start to realize the actually the healing energy it's not

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just entered into your brain, it's become part of your

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brain and the spinal fluids. Now mixed energy just allow

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you to feel so much more relaxed.

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And healthy in this moment.

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But also we start to realize that actually, what's happening

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now without relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

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changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

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to feel, not just now but tomorrow the next day.

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Your health improves, but just your physical health, of your

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mental health. Things the East body you in the past,

1952
04:59:41.880 --> 04:59:48.119
for some reason no longer happy effect for the East.

1953
04:59:51.680 --> 05:00:05.959
Something's changed deep beginning. Maybe they still used to put

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you to feel anger.

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I do have that become.

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Control me. The wady seemed to be able to before

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and realize that we real He decides.

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What's a bet?

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He decides to do relat at all when reaches to

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enjoy what is not to the door

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Good