May 18, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is you all need rub hands together, that's my nickname.

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My name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when

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you can safely close short eyes. And this is let

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me boy to sleep. And today it is Q and

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A Friday. Yes it's a little bit late, a little

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bit late, but I'll be busy day busy. So before

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I go on, I'll just give you a little update

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on what's been going on this week. Wow, I think

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the Actually I did go to do a recording on Wednesday,

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but I just gave up because I didn't I wasn't

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in the mood. So I kind of did about twenty

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minutes and I just turned it off. I did want

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on Tuesday, didn't do one Thursday. So yeah, done a

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little bit less than normal this week. But I have

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been very busy with my website. I've been working on

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my website, not just the website as far as what

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it looks like on a laptop or a tablet, but

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also adapting it for mobile phones to make sure it

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works correctly. So I've changed a few things. If you've

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been on there recently or you know, if you say

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a couple of weeks ago. I think you'll if you

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go back, you'll see it's very different. It's just nicer.

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It looks nicer. So I've got the podcasts which is

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in the index, and they're all listed, but there's images

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of the podcast and you just click on the podcast

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and that takes you to the all the latest recordings.

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Or if you want to find out where my podcasts

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are on the various different apps, just click on podcast apps.

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I've got Audible boring myself already, that's quick. There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Apple,

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Amazon Music podcast App, cast Box, Deser, Luminary Podcast, Republic Player,

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FM Podcast, Addict, podcast Index, pod Chaser, pod Friend, pod Verse, Podbean, Spreaker, Spotify,

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and SoundCloud. Basically alphabetical order really from top top to bottom.

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Apart from it's not all actually it's just the a's

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at the top and the s's are at the bottom.

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But other than that, it's yeah, it's kind of alphabetical.

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And again they're all got images. So before it was

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just text, did you clicked on? This is images now,

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So if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example, and

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then it gives you a list of all the different

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podcasts and then you can click on, let's say, for example,

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let me Boil your Pain Away, and that takes you

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to let Me Boy Pain Away on Apple podcasts. It's

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just a different way of doing it. It might be

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a useful thing. So if you if you're on cast

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Box and you don't know where my let Me Boy

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to Sleep podcast is, you just click on podcast apps,

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go down, click on cast Box, click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep, and it brings you to the let

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Me Boy to Sleep podcast on cast Box. So it's yeah,

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it's kind of I think it's easy to use other

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than net. I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists.

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So at the moment, I've got four four different podcasts

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that I've been working on. So let Me Boy to Sleep. Okay,

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there's a few changes on it. Oh okay, so let

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Me Boy to Sleep. The infrastrate is built for these,

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but they're not all updated yet. Let Me Boy Sleep,

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Deep Sleep, whisper Hypnosis, relaxing Sleep hypnosis Daily and Relaxation

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of stress and panic attacks. So with these, so let's say,

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for example, you click on playlists and then you can

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click on let Me Boy to Sleep. It gives you

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six different options without music, with music, five hours without music,

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five hours with music, ten hours without music, ten hours

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with music. At the moment, I'm working on the ones

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without music, because I think the first thousand of the

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let Me Boy You to Sleep ones are without music,

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although I might remedy that. So if you click on

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let me boardy Sleep, you click on without music, and

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then you've got all the way up from one to

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fifty again is it images? So it's not just text anymore.

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Just makes it a little bit easier visually to you know,

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manipulate and to maneuver to I don't know what's another

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word for that, navigate, And it goes down to the

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last one is thirteen hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred.

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Only one the one to fifty is on there at

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the moment, and you click on that and that will

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take you to the podcast, and it's exactly the same

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as when you go onto the homepage. You can download,

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you can stream, you can save it for yourself. It

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tells you how big the file is, tells you how

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long the recording is. So yeah, and there's all fifty

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on there. That's it. So I'm quite pleased with that.

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It's taken a lot of hours to put this together.

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It may not seem like much, but it's taken a

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long time because I've been to get it so it

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works fine on the phone for the images and everything

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to be together and to be the same size, and

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it's taken a bit of code code work, as it were.

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So I'm going to have a break from the website

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today and do this recording now, and I'm probably not

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gonna bother with the website. I probably will, actually, but

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I'm probably, yeah, I'm gonna not get The problem is

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if I could finish a sentence. That's one of the

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things I've got problems with the problem is I struggled

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to stop doing something once I start, especially move that

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metal thing, keep banging it on my desk. Once I

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start doing these things, for example, working on the podcast apps,

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there's so much to do. There's a lot of it's

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quite intricate in a sense of you know, I don't matter.

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Some of it is just copy paste, but it's remembering

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where to paste and what to change, and changing sizes

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of images and pasting in the link to the podcast,

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you know, and making it all kind of a line

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with each other. So it's quite a lot involved in it.

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I'm pretty please for how it's working out so far.

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I've got a few other ideas what i want to

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do as well, to make it a little bit easier

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to a gate around the website. In some ways, you

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could say I've turned my website into an app kind

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of in a way now kind of because you know

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you've got the homepage. It's just the website basically the podcast.

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But if you click on podcasts, then it gives you

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all the different podcasts. Then you can choose one you

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want to say, for example, relax, let's say stop smoking.

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Click on that. Okay, that's not a good example because

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that link's not done yet. That's not a good example either,

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So I'll ask podcasts. Yeah, okay, so you can go

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directly to the podcast blame me, or if you want

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to go to the playlists, you know, the all the

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different types. Again you click on there, let me boydy

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sleep with music about music whatever. So yeah, it seems

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happy if that's such a word. So I'll get on

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the recording. And not a lot going on. I've just

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been working on this. Got a letter, I got a letter,

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let me I like to read you ab out my

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letters to sever Look, oh, read you my latest letters.

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What's this way?

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Your Income Related Employment and Support Allowance ESA payments will end,

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So it ends on the first of the fifth, twenty

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twenty five will end. They sent me this on the

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second of May. I didn't get it till about three

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days ago. How it takes so long to get here,

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I'll never know. I mean, it's coming all the way

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from Wolverhampton. So unless they sent it on the back

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of a donkey, and we've received your Universal credit you

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see claim, and we sent a plane to drop off

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any planes. Your final payment of the essay covers the

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period first of the fifth to the fourteenth of the fifth.

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So m I I honestly I think I've had my

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last payment, which means I've got wow, two weeks, two weeks.

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But then I've got another letter. This is from the Council,

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the council, City Council. This letter, it doesn't have a

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die sixth of May. This letter is important, Dearness the

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New Land. This letter is important. You must read all

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of it carefully, and you must inform this office immediately

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if your circumstances change. Go to blah blah blah blah

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blah dot blah blah blah. The Department for Work and

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Pensions had advis us here's something all right, Okay, this

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is the first year I noticed because always looked for month,

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just like if there's any kind of financial thing on there,

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as in with pound signs, because it's just gives just

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it's the first thing I notice really of the additional

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award mentioned above. So the department Oh okay, the Department

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for Work and Pensions has advised us that you have

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started claiming Universal Credit and that you qualify for an

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additional two weeks extension of your housing benefit known as

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Transition to Uce Housing payment of the additional award mentioned above,

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one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety has been recovered

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against previously notified overpayment over payment. How how is it

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own over payment? Then it says if you are worried

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about paying your rent bills or living expenses, here you

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can help. If you are struggling to find your to

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pay your bills for any reason, speak to the Financial

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Equality and Well Being Teams today. Okay, so you know this.

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Suddenly you owe this money and then it's been recovered.

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So I was like confused about that, like what's going on?

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So then it says another one another letter. Dear mister Newland,

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this letter is also important. You must also read all

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of this carefully and you must inform blah blah blah

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blah so you claim. For you to claim for benefit

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has been looked at because managing managed migration to Universal

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credits successfully and your benefit has been stopped from the

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first of May twenty twenty five. So pretty much I think.

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Oh no, I think it's the eighth of June before

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I get paid. Oh, I'm confused. The housing costs will

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now be paid within your Universal Credit award. Please contact

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your work coach if you have any changes or the

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costs are incorrect. If you are ad vont lah blah

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blah blah blah blah, as your intitement has ended, any

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overpayments which were previously overpaid or recovered or blah blah

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blah via deductions from the housing benefit payment will now

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end as such, if you have any outstanding over there's

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like too much information, and then it says here you

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have been overpaid one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety housand.

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Benefit of this overpayment one hundred and sixty eight pound

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ninety is non recoverable and therefore only the balance of

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zero will be recovered. Does anyone understand what that means?

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Any ideas anyone? I really don't. You have been overpaid

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one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. Housing benefit of

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this overpayment on hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is

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non recoverable, and therefore only the balance of zero will

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be recovered. I get from that that there's nothing to pay.

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They've written it off. But have they written it off?

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Because worded very strangely, the reason for the overpayment is

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managed migration, which has been calculated as follows, from the

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first of the fifth, twenty twenty five to the twelve

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five one week and four

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days old award one hundred and seven pounds forty eight

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new awards zero weekly amount overpaid one hundred and seven

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pound forty eight. Total amount overpaid one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety. It doesn't make sense. I don't understand it.

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I know one hundred and seven pounds that's the rent

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for a week. Your repayment will be accepted without prejudice

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to any further action if you are It doesn't make

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the way they've worded it is so I'm gonna say

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of two because I don't know what that means. But

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I heard someone say it once on a video in

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about nineteen eighty two. I think it was a Steve

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Martin movie. Oh so, I don't know. Confusing, very confusing, right,

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t WDDD. They've also they have agreed to pay my

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rent directly to the housing benefit and they've also agreed

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to pay me every two weeks from the eighth of

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I think it's the eighth of June, and they'll let

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me know on the fourth of June what I'm getting.

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So is going to be an interesting period and next

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a couple of weeks. So I'll find out Wednesday, on

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the twenty first, whether or not. Wow, that's fine. I'm

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just going to go around. I'm going to have to start

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collecting the money people lone me and I go around.

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Oh you know all that money that I'll be lending

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you over the last ten years, and you thought that

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you didn't have to pay it back. When you see

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this baseball back in my hand, you do have to

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pay it back. Okay, right back to seriousness. Any questions

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for this Friday? So let's have a look. Oh toda

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Vin he started barking like prop up and it sounds

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like someone was at my door, and I went nothing,

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there he's barking again. It really sounds like someone was

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pushing on the door, the front door. So I just

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went out as I do, just just like I wonder

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what's going on. There's a pigeon. Someone's left the back

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door open downstairs. It's come up, flying basically bashing into

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each window trying to get out, poor little thing. So

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I got a hammer, I got my boast. For all that,

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I just I thought, what am I going to do?

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So this has happened before, it's not the first time,

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so I didn't have a towel, but I did have

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like a T shirt. So I've got a T shirt,

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not the one I was wearing, it's a different T shirt.

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And I was trying to check it over the pigeon.

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It wasn't like a big pigeon, more like a dove

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sized pigeon. In fact, there might be a dove and

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I was trying to check it over it but it

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wasn't going over. The pigeon was just moving its head

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and just knocking it off and just looking at me.

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And then when I went down it flew off again

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and smashed against the window. In the end, it just

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it let it, let me pick it up, and actually

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wrapped his or her I think it's a girl, actually

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wrapped her hands or her fingers around my fingers, and

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I was stroking her and just carrying it, carried it downstairs,

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and for a little while she was just standing on

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my hand, just looking around, and I was just talking

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to her, and then I started telling her a story.

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I thought i'd tell her about the chip shop that

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used to work in. Then she was off, but yeah,

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just went into the tree. I think it's probably a

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relative of Horrace, maybe his girlfriend. I'm going to say

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probably his daughter to be fair, because she's quite young.

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He's been around for ten years since I moved in, right.

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So other than that, anything else that's happened, I can't

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think of anything even mildly interesting. Well, it's never going

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to be anything interested, but it's not a lot gone on.

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Uh ah. A neighbor just phoned me up while I

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was doing this recording, asking me if I had any antidepressants.

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He's like Solita prim or whatever they are, and I said, no,

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don't have those that medication. I said, I've got a

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few spare on my own, but you won't want to

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take my medication. It's a different medication and it's you know,

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shouldn't mix that stuff. Plus it takes it takes quite

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a few weeks to kick in the older floors a team.

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So Maria, first question, Hi Jason, how long ago did

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you last visit Thailand? How long did you stay and

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did you enjoy the food there. I don't think I

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ate any of the food there, to be honest. I

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just ate normal food, human food. I didn't. I mean,

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for one, I was not going to eat the street food.

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And it's smelled amazing, but I was not going to

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eat the street food. Just food is. I wouldn't eat

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street food in this country, so I'm definitely not going

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to eat street food abroad. Yeah, when I went, it

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was kind of during the COVID Between the COVID God

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just said the words sorry. That period like twenty twenty one,

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I think it was. So they even though we were

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pretty much we were in lockdown here, they were in

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lockdown there, not not to the point of banning anyone visiting,

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but you had to wear masks in every shop, had to.

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I mean people were wearing masks in the street. It

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was you know, it was pretty full on. Had to

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had to have your blood, your temperature done before entering

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any any places, any establishments, had to do that and

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hand wash everywhere. So it was it was a very

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step it was. It was. Yeah, it was a bit

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of a weird time and a lot of the restaurants

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were closed. A lot of everything was closed when I

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went there, actually, so I stayed in a like a

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hotel place. Luckily when I stayed, I stayed in this place,

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which was a sports bar. Loads of TVs all around

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the place, including two outside. Remember I watched the boxing.

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That was cool. And they had food there, so I

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ate every day there and it was really burgers and

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stuff like that. To be honest with you, you know,

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I wasn't very I wasn't very creative with my food choices.

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But they were catering for Westerners, well Westerners and Australians,

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mainly Australians. It was an Australian bar run by Australian

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people and other than me, I think everyone in all

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the customers were Australian that were like staying living there

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and would visit as well. So it's a very I mean,

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there was a few people that weren't Australian. All the

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staff other than the owners, the staff weren't Australian. But

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there's the they wouldn't be allowed to work there. In Thailand,

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you have to be tied to work in most jobs,

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actually most. I've done a little bit of research into that,

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and you can if you've got a share in a place,

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you can work, but you can't take a tied job.

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So technically, if you've got forty you know, forty nine

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percent share in a restaurant, you're working a restaurant. You're

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not You're not taking someone else's job because it's your business,

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isn't it, or its fifty business. So that's when I visited.

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It's quite a long time ago. It wasn't long. I'd

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I had.

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I had a chest infection, so it's just I can't remember.

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It was over two weeks, two and a bit weeks,

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and I came back. I was there for two days.

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I think it's getting vague, to be honest. It was

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a bit of a non event. Really, it wasn't. It wasn't. Really.

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What I didn't realize is that's it. You made it

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one nice, please, brilliant thanks too. That's a weird one.

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He has absolutely destroyed this bag which had his treating

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chewy chicken twists. Right, he's destroyed it. It's empty and

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he's destroyed it. I gave him that bag when it

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had one left in it, and he just looked at

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it for a boat an hour and a half. So

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you destroy it and rip it open when there's nothing

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in it, but when it's something in it, you won't

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even attempt to open it. What's weird and that's strange behavior. Yeah,

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it wasn't wasn't the right time. It wasn't really the

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right time for me to go. Really. I just I

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just got like a rebate, a benefit rebate actually from

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from a previous year is something that I should have

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got paid and I wasn't, and I decided just to

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I had to get away from it. Things are just

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difficult living here for you know, and I basically turned

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into a care in some ways. I My friend always

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said to me, I'm care and I said, no, I'm

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not your care. But it did I think emotionally I was,

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you know, I just constantly worried about him, just for years,

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for years and years. So I needed to get away

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and you know, I gave him a little bit of

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money as well. When I got that money, paid off

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my debts and went away, I did the older gave

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a load of food out to people that were home well,

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that were hungry. So that was that was the highlight

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for me. That was, you could say, almost the highlight

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of my life. He is handing out hundreds of black

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meals and whatever it was. I can't remember how many

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it was, but I did it two days in a row,

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and it was kind of the best thing I've ever

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done or feeling why. It's just felt amazing. So it's

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worth it for that, And I know I could have

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I could have done the same thing here. It's you know,

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I don't know. Just for some reason, I wanted to

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go to a Buddhist country. Wanted to see how what

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Buddhist people like are people that were born into Buddhism,

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not just but in this country. You know, it's something

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that there are people born into it in this country,

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but there if they're Westerners, then the people their parents

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probably weren't born into it and they they've just raised

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their kids in that kind of way. But to be

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to live in a country where everybody going back many many,

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many many years. You know, all born as Buddhists, all

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raised as Buddhists. I just found that an interesting thing

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to be around. And I could see the difference, could

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see the difference in the mentality. There might not have

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been anything to do with the religion, but and most

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of them didn't practice the religion anyway, but you know,

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they it was the foundation of their belief system, was

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the foundation of their culture, which I just found it interesting.

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So enjoy the food. Probably the best food I had

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when I was there was apple pie and ice cream. Yeah,

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that was nice. So the cook in the that bar,

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it was a bar, but it was also like hotel

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as well, the sports bar. The cook in now, I

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got ridly well with her, and she would she made

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sure she got lots of pies in for me so

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I could have an apple pie and ice cream after

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my meals. And I had a cook breakfast every morning

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and also so I basically ate. I'd eat twice a

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day there, so i'd eat breakfast, cook breakfast, then i'd

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have when I was out, i'd probably see if I

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could get something maybe in McDonald's or I'm trying to think,

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just to have a look around see if there's other places.

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Some places I went. I went in one place which

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was it was terrible. It was really bad. It was

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I think it's called the Nag's Head, and apparently it

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used to be owned by Kevin Keegan. That's what they

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said because pictures of him on the on the wall

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that was Kevin Keegan was like a superstar footballer in

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the early eighties in the UK, well worldwide as well,

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I think, and he had curly hair stopped. I'd say

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it's not relevant, but it was because it was the

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fashion back then. The amount of people, the amount of

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boys that were getting their hair curled permed to look

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like Kevin Keegan because he was a superstar footballer. So

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I went in there and I think that it was

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a it was a cooked breakfast, and I think it

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was some beans, an egg which I'm not sure what

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kind of egg. It was, some bacon that did not

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look like bacon, and some sausages the type that I

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give Anny like, they're not sausages, they're those bendy rubbery ones.

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I just I mean, I'm pretty sure they just didn't

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have any food in possibly was the only customer they'd

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had for a while, so I just I said thanks

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and I yeah left. Well I ate it first, but

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I ate some of it. It wasn't wasn't great. I

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did go to a Thai restaurant, a pizza yeah, So yeah,

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I don't think I had even one bit of typhood

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the whole time I was there. Yeah. I have had typhood.

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I've had it in this country, but I didn't have

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anyone kind of because you know, back when I was

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in London, i'd go on dates and the some of

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the people that I'd go on dates with, they'd be

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much more open culturally to new things. And because you

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can pretty much eat any food from anywhere in the

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world in London, like any type of food. So you know,

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I've been in Vietnam, are Vietnamese, I've been Entai, I've

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been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever, lots of different places,

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and there's always I always felt that pressure to kind

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of be involved. You know, two show that I'm open

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minded and I ordered something without knowing what it is.

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Sometimes I deeply regret it, and as I got older,

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I just thought, you know what, no, if I go

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into a Chinese restaurant, I probably am going to order

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an omelet and chips, or an omelet and fried rice,

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egg fried rice. You know, I know what I like,

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and that's what I like. I like omelets, and yeah,

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I'm sure that Sure, the typhoond's amazing. I mean people,

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I mean, some people go to Thailand for the tayphood.

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It's the thing they look forward to most because I

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guess it's the most authentic typhood you're going to get.

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It's like the most authentic any food you're going to

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get is in the country of origin. I imagine. I'm

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sure if you want to the best burger, then you

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have to go to where the first I don't even know, America.

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Is that where the burgers come from. Or if you

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want the first mushy pea, you want the best mushy peas,

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you've got to go up north. Or if you want

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the best fried mars bar, you've got to go up north.

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Or if you want the best fish and chips, probably

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gotta go up north, or maybe Scotland or or I

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don't know, but you Uk. I imagine for fish and chips,

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probably the best fish and chips you'll get in the

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world will probably be in this country. It might I

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might be wrong. It's just because it's our heritage. It's

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our you know, goes back centuries. I don't know if

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that's true or not right. Kathleen asks me, I've got

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a lot of questions to get through, just letting you

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know that it's loads. I'm kind of surprised at how

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is that.

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One?

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Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight nine. There's nine,

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but there's thirteen comments, so I'm not quite sure. Okay,

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one's got one with one's got three replies, so there's

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nine questions. The next one is from Kathleen, A couple

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of questions, JJ or love in his flop it? Here?

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Is he able to straighten it? Always floppy? He can?

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He can straighten it sometimes if he's I'm trying to think, oh,

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I'm just doing them straightening my hands to show you

469
00:38:31.400 --> 00:38:34.000
the ears not being floppy. But you can't see that,

470
00:38:34.079 --> 00:38:39.800
can you? When there's a sound got his attention. His

471
00:38:39.960 --> 00:38:43.400
ears do stick up, both of them. But I saw

472
00:38:43.440 --> 00:38:48.039
a picture of his mummy and his mummy also had

473
00:38:48.039 --> 00:38:51.760
a floppy ear. I said, look, I've got it on here.

474
00:38:52.000 --> 00:38:58.719
I think I've got it on here unless I haven't. Sometimes,

475
00:39:00.239 --> 00:39:09.760
h if I've got any pictures of Vinnie, right, Okay,

476
00:39:09.840 --> 00:39:13.320
that's I've got a picture of Vinnie when he was

477
00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:17.079
a baby on here. I'm pretty sure there's a picture

478
00:39:17.079 --> 00:39:33.480
of him with his mummy, like his you know, birth mummy. Uh.

479
00:39:33.679 --> 00:39:44.960
He's so cute when he was a baby, I do.

480
00:39:45.119 --> 00:39:49.559
That's something that I kind of wish that I had. Oh,

481
00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840
there's a little cute. He's in a cage. I never

482
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.400
liked the idea of put them dogs in cages. Never

483
00:39:55.519 --> 00:40:00.719
been something i've I don't know. It's something about being

484
00:40:00.760 --> 00:40:05.920
in a cage, I guess, but he's I mean, it

485
00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:07.800
can be for their own safety anyway. I can't out.

486
00:40:07.880 --> 00:40:11.880
But he's in this cage, which is probably I guess,

487
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:17.119
was there prepared for multiple puppies, and he was the

488
00:40:17.159 --> 00:40:22.000
only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got

489
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:26.400
his little hands in the air, and he's tiny, you know,

490
00:40:26.599 --> 00:40:32.519
absolutely tiny, and doesn't I don't have a date on this.

491
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:37.519
I got a date when it was sent fortieth of

492
00:40:37.639 --> 00:41:00.079
January twenty twenty three. January twenty twenty three, really, no,

493
00:41:00.159 --> 00:41:03.519
two thousand January too fair, No, wouldn't have sent it

494
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:09.679
to me in twenty twenty three. That's her date. Isn't it?

495
00:41:10.039 --> 00:41:18.880
What's my date? Wasn't January twenty twenty three? I didn't

496
00:41:18.880 --> 00:41:22.639
even know jury January twenty twenty three. I didn't get

497
00:41:22.719 --> 00:41:41.400
him till I'm losing track of time twoenty twenty three.

498
00:41:41.679 --> 00:41:46.519
But I thought I got him in November twenty twenty three,

499
00:41:46.760 --> 00:41:54.639
but I didn't do that. I got him. I got

500
00:41:54.719 --> 00:42:09.559
him in twenty twenty two, November twenty twenty two, twenty

501
00:42:09.639 --> 00:42:18.000
twenty two, Stop it, mate, don't be bucking twenty twenty two,

502
00:42:18.039 --> 00:42:23.239
twenty twenty two. So November twenty twenty two, November twenty

503
00:42:23.320 --> 00:42:28.440
twenty three, November twoenty twenty four, it was December, wasn't it?

504
00:42:29.679 --> 00:42:38.199
Twoenty twenty three, twenty four? Two years and like five months?

505
00:42:38.199 --> 00:42:42.679
Four months, five months. So yeah, so I got him

506
00:42:42.719 --> 00:42:48.480
in December twenty twenty three and twenty twenty two, so

507
00:42:48.519 --> 00:42:50.719
she must have sent me those pictures yet in the

508
00:42:50.840 --> 00:42:55.639
January Okay, yeah, Oh that just threw me off for

509
00:42:55.639 --> 00:42:58.840
a second. Then there's a picture of him with his

510
00:42:59.039 --> 00:43:07.760
mummy somewhere. Yeah, I just can't find it unless it's

511
00:43:07.880 --> 00:43:11.280
on the laptop, which it could be. Let's have a

512
00:43:11.320 --> 00:43:19.199
look to look, So look at my lap, torp lap trp. Oh,

513
00:43:19.280 --> 00:43:28.599
Vinnie's found another fly Vinnie, Vinnie, Vinny vin vin Nnnnnie. Oh,

514
00:43:28.639 --> 00:43:33.440
I don't know where Vinie Vinni Venni Veni Annie Vinnie

515
00:43:33.480 --> 00:43:40.079
venn I any any Vinny somebab in Vinnie my new

516
00:43:40.199 --> 00:43:48.119
set up with Vinnie. Vinnie at mummy's note, knows that

517
00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:58.760
his baby Vinnie. No, I can't fight it. It's here, somewhere,

518
00:44:00.159 --> 00:44:04.199
It's here somewhere. I've got a picture of Logi Logi

519
00:44:04.320 --> 00:44:13.039
Vinnie last stayed together. Oh, I've got the limage. LOGI

520
00:44:13.119 --> 00:44:16.840
don't care. He's just there, Just chill down. Then he's

521
00:44:16.840 --> 00:44:22.960
looking at me, he's looking at his watch. How much

522
00:44:23.000 --> 00:44:26.239
longer we got before? If we get rid of him,

523
00:44:27.280 --> 00:44:29.880
I said, you're missing. When he's when he's moved out,

524
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:32.440
you're missing. I won't. I want my house back. I

525
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:36.079
want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinnie.

526
00:44:36.159 --> 00:44:40.079
It's not your bed, it's my bed. Okay, I want

527
00:44:40.119 --> 00:44:50.800
our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, yes,

528
00:44:50.920 --> 00:44:55.840
he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy is biological.

529
00:44:55.920 --> 00:45:00.320
Mum had to flopy here as well. Don't I about

530
00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:11.199
his dad? Oh ITCHI bum the both his parents had

531
00:45:11.320 --> 00:45:15.519
were red, but he was the only one that was

532
00:45:15.559 --> 00:45:17.199
red all over. I mean, he's got a little bit

533
00:45:17.199 --> 00:45:19.440
of white on his belly and a little bit on

534
00:45:19.480 --> 00:45:22.199
his neck, but he's pretty much and he's on his

535
00:45:22.360 --> 00:45:27.480
He's got a little couple of little little socks, little

536
00:45:27.519 --> 00:45:30.760
white socks on other than that, and gloves, but he's

537
00:45:30.800 --> 00:45:41.559
pretty much red all over. He knows I'm talking about him,

538
00:45:41.719 --> 00:45:46.159
probably because I just keep saying his name, Vinnie, Vinnie, Minnie.

539
00:45:48.320 --> 00:45:51.480
Will you be getting a new bathroom like your neighbors,

540
00:45:52.960 --> 00:46:05.159
cheers Kathleen. M it looks like no, so my neighbor's downstairs.

541
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:13.079
To be fair, there was a a There was a

542
00:46:13.159 --> 00:46:16.960
reason why she got a new bathroom because she needed it.

543
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.960
Wasn't because she needed a new bathroom as in the

544
00:46:21.000 --> 00:46:27.159
old one was too old. It was it was I

545
00:46:27.159 --> 00:46:29.519
don't know how to word it, but it was something

546
00:46:29.559 --> 00:46:32.880
that was required, if you know what I mean. So

547
00:46:32.920 --> 00:46:35.840
it wasn't something that they just got round to doing,

548
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:38.800
because it was time. It was needed to be done.

549
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.320
She and my neighbor down stays to get a kitchen,

550
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:46.320
and that was basically due to time. It was time

551
00:46:46.360 --> 00:46:51.760
to redo them. My neighbor opposite has had his kitchen done,

552
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:56.159
he's having his bathroom done, and he's having his windows done.

553
00:46:56.400 --> 00:46:59.480
And when they came round to he knew. He's known

554
00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:02.760
about the wind for a few months. He's just waiting

555
00:47:02.760 --> 00:47:04.239
to sort of find out when they're going to come

556
00:47:04.239 --> 00:47:06.400
and do them. But he didn't know about the bathroom

557
00:47:06.440 --> 00:47:08.199
until the other day when they came to measure up.

558
00:47:10.119 --> 00:47:14.840
So but he's he's lived there for thirty odd years

559
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:18.119
and he's never had anything new at all the whole

560
00:47:18.119 --> 00:47:23.679
time he's been there. So you know it is, I

561
00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:28.920
really don't know, don't doesn't I asked the council. I

562
00:47:28.960 --> 00:47:31.960
saw the counsel lady, the late a lady from the

563
00:47:32.000 --> 00:47:37.440
council on Wednesday. They came round to check the bathroom

564
00:47:37.800 --> 00:47:40.760
downstairs to make sure it was all all okay and

565
00:47:40.920 --> 00:47:46.559
sign it off, and a little word with the lady

566
00:47:46.599 --> 00:47:51.199
and said, when am I going to have one? I

567
00:47:51.280 --> 00:47:54.280
cut a few onions firstfere I went down there and

568
00:47:56.119 --> 00:48:00.320
just to so I can cry and see him upset. Mhm.

569
00:48:01.159 --> 00:48:02.960
Here's a little clue though, if you're going to do

570
00:48:03.079 --> 00:48:09.599
that before going up to someone, and you know, cut

571
00:48:09.679 --> 00:48:13.320
up onions in order to cry to in order to

572
00:48:13.599 --> 00:48:20.159
get the older emotions going with the other person. If

573
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:22.639
you're going to shake their hand, put the onions down first.

574
00:48:24.440 --> 00:48:32.480
That's all I'm want to say. And Tammy asks, can

575
00:48:32.599 --> 00:48:36.400
hypnosis be in effected to all in reshaping our subconscious patterns?

576
00:48:36.760 --> 00:48:41.079
Don't know next, I don't know. That's that's a that's

577
00:48:41.159 --> 00:48:51.719
a hard question. And I'll tell you what I tell you.

578
00:48:51.800 --> 00:48:59.320
The biggest thing, just based on my studies, the biggest

579
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:03.599
thing that affect excess, let's say unconscious, I call it

580
00:49:03.639 --> 00:49:11.639
unconscious with subconscious unconscious patterning is our conscious mind. What

581
00:49:11.679 --> 00:49:20.519
we do, what we listen to, what we think, our experiences,

582
00:49:20.599 --> 00:49:26.239
stuff like that is what shapes us. Reshaping doing something different,

583
00:49:26.320 --> 00:49:34.960
thinking differently on purpose purposefully. So, for example, if someone

584
00:49:35.119 --> 00:49:41.320
was constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking about something different,

585
00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:47.679
because we get what we think about, you know, we

586
00:49:48.239 --> 00:49:55.360
become what we think about because we're basically it's kind

587
00:49:55.360 --> 00:49:58.760
of weird. I've seen all these different angles, all these

588
00:49:58.800 --> 00:50:01.639
different things, and it all kind of points to the

589
00:50:01.679 --> 00:50:07.719
same thing, to the same conclusion, and that is that

590
00:50:07.840 --> 00:50:16.519
our thoughts are so powerful on ourselves. It's almost like

591
00:50:19.719 --> 00:50:24.559
what we consciously think, what you purposefully think, not what

592
00:50:24.679 --> 00:50:31.519
you think automatically. What you purposely think affects your brain,

593
00:50:32.199 --> 00:50:38.280
affects your body, affects your let's say, unconscious mind affects

594
00:50:38.360 --> 00:50:47.039
those automatic thinking processes. Now none of that might have

595
00:50:47.079 --> 00:50:55.000
made any sense, not even to me, but I kind

596
00:50:55.000 --> 00:50:59.320
of I'm starting to look at hypnosis in a different

597
00:50:59.320 --> 00:51:02.280
way to help. I used to look at it, and

598
00:51:07.360 --> 00:51:20.840
belief expectations is almost is so important. Just generally, what

599
00:51:20.880 --> 00:51:26.079
we expect to happen has a huge effect on what

600
00:51:26.159 --> 00:51:33.760
does happen, how we expect to feel. You know, someone

601
00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:42.000
that it's just proven so many times and experiments. It's

602
00:51:42.039 --> 00:51:46.039
just like when I was seventeen, I mentioned this a

603
00:51:46.119 --> 00:51:49.079
few a couple of weeks ago, went to a party.

604
00:51:49.119 --> 00:51:51.679
It was held it's at the chip shop, but we

605
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:57.800
went to my boss's house and we were drinking. They

606
00:51:57.840 --> 00:52:00.599
gave me They all were in on it. They gave

607
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:04.880
me non alcoholic lager. So every time I went to

608
00:52:04.880 --> 00:52:06.639
get a can that no, no, I'll get it for you.

609
00:52:07.400 --> 00:52:10.920
I thought they would just be nice. But they were

610
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.480
all in on it, and they were laughing when I

611
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.320
was talking, so I thought I was also being funny.

612
00:52:17.320 --> 00:52:27.400
So you know, I got drunk and there was no difference,

613
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:32.639
but not being drunk before there was no difference. There

614
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:38.119
really wasn't any difference between drinking alcohol and not drinking

615
00:52:38.159 --> 00:52:42.880
alcohol because I thought I was drinking alcohol and all

616
00:52:42.920 --> 00:52:47.000
those chemicals in my brain kicked off. They just did

617
00:52:47.039 --> 00:52:51.559
their thing, and I was expecting to feel a certain way,

618
00:52:51.639 --> 00:52:56.840
and I felt that way. Now, good chance is if

619
00:52:56.840 --> 00:53:00.679
they hadn't told me, I, I may well gone home.

620
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.480
I may well have been ill. I may well have

621
00:53:03.519 --> 00:53:08.440
woken up with her with her hangover. That's how powerful

622
00:53:09.239 --> 00:53:13.320
belief is when you believe that something's you know, you

623
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:19.719
believe that non alcoholic lager was alcoholic lager. You know,

624
00:53:20.159 --> 00:53:24.320
it's just I mean, that was quite a good thing

625
00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:28.360
to happen. In one way, it was horrible, horribly embarrassing

626
00:53:28.559 --> 00:53:34.960
and quite I think it's a great cruel thing to do, actually,

627
00:53:35.119 --> 00:53:42.960
to be honest, But hey, but it was a learning experience.

628
00:53:43.800 --> 00:53:50.079
And when you think that was forty years ago, thirty

629
00:53:50.119 --> 00:53:57.519
eight years ago, I mean, it's kind of crazy, is it?

630
00:53:57.760 --> 00:54:01.880
Thirty eight years on? All different things I've learned since

631
00:54:01.920 --> 00:54:08.519
then comes back to that is belief. And with all

632
00:54:08.559 --> 00:54:11.400
the religious stuff that I've kind of studied and I've

633
00:54:11.440 --> 00:54:16.519
been interested in religion, different religions since I was a kid.

634
00:54:16.639 --> 00:54:21.639
I don't know why, just it wasn't so much interested

635
00:54:21.719 --> 00:54:33.159
in the specifics of the religion or the rules. I

636
00:54:33.239 --> 00:54:37.719
was fascinated by why people did it. I was fascinated

637
00:54:37.960 --> 00:54:41.159
and had I still an't really I understand it a

638
00:54:41.159 --> 00:54:43.760
little bit more now than I used to, I think,

639
00:54:44.679 --> 00:54:51.480
but just fascinated how why. Well I kind of understand

640
00:54:51.599 --> 00:54:59.519
why people need religion, but I can there's like two

641
00:54:59.679 --> 00:55:04.559
sides to it because I've seen the damage like from

642
00:55:04.559 --> 00:55:06.920
a I don't want to say damage, but how someone

643
00:55:06.920 --> 00:55:10.760
can turn it to be in a negative. So I

644
00:55:10.840 --> 00:55:18.719
knew someone that was they lost someone close to them.

645
00:55:18.840 --> 00:55:23.199
That person's gone to heaven. Good good thing, you know.

646
00:55:23.239 --> 00:55:26.880
That's a kind of a positive way to deal with it.

647
00:55:27.239 --> 00:55:32.159
They're gone to heaven. They're happy now, they're now, they're

648
00:55:32.199 --> 00:55:35.760
not suffering anymore. That kind of I know it's cliche stuff,

649
00:55:35.800 --> 00:55:41.000
but it was. It's got to be helpful. It can't

650
00:55:41.039 --> 00:55:46.199
not be really can It's like, so, Okay, I'm going

651
00:55:46.280 --> 00:55:50.519
to see them again soon. That's nice. So it's not

652
00:55:50.559 --> 00:55:52.800
the last time you ever see them. So there's that belief.

653
00:55:53.519 --> 00:55:58.679
It can be comforting, but then that belief turned for

654
00:55:58.719 --> 00:56:03.519
this one person I'm thinking about, turned into I want

655
00:56:03.519 --> 00:56:13.440
to be with them now, and it's like no, and

656
00:56:13.920 --> 00:56:16.400
they tried to be with them now as it were,

657
00:56:17.079 --> 00:56:23.800
this is a few years ago, and well it's really hard.

658
00:56:23.840 --> 00:56:25.719
So what do you do with that? It's like, okay, well,

659
00:56:26.719 --> 00:56:30.360
if you didn't believe in that belief system, that religious

660
00:56:30.360 --> 00:56:33.920
belief system, then you wouldn't be doing that because you

661
00:56:33.960 --> 00:56:35.519
wouldn't be trying to be with them. If you didn't

662
00:56:35.519 --> 00:56:39.599
believe you could be with them, you'd perhaps just have

663
00:56:39.760 --> 00:56:44.960
to find a way to move on with your life.

664
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:49.639
So yeah, it's it's a complicated thing. But I've just

665
00:56:49.719 --> 00:56:52.400
seen some of the things that people do. A lot

666
00:56:52.400 --> 00:56:54.079
of it's been on the news, to be fair, but

667
00:56:56.440 --> 00:57:03.559
based on belief, based on their expectations of what's going

668
00:57:03.599 --> 00:57:08.679
to happen to them or if they're going to be rewarded,

669
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:14.559
even if it's doing a non good thing. I'm keeping

670
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:28.039
this very vague. So it's really powerful if you take

671
00:57:28.239 --> 00:57:33.760
anyone you having the chance to raise a child is

672
00:57:33.800 --> 00:57:36.559
a chance to raise your own little angel, or your

673
00:57:36.559 --> 00:57:40.880
own little monster, or your own little confused creature that

674
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:47.320
doesn't know what I mean. I just don't think individual

675
00:57:47.440 --> 00:57:53.119
human beings necessarily always. I know I wouldn't. I wouldn't

676
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:56.559
have the capacity to raise a child in a way

677
00:57:56.639 --> 00:58:00.719
that they needed to be raised. I don't think. I mean,

678
00:58:00.760 --> 00:58:04.360
some people do have that, some people like me probably don't.

679
00:58:04.960 --> 00:58:12.199
I don't think I'm patient enough. But it's really weird

680
00:58:12.280 --> 00:58:21.800
to just think how much you can forge a child's

681
00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:26.079
brain and their mind by the stuff you say, by

682
00:58:26.079 --> 00:58:28.159
what they see you do, what they hear you say,

683
00:58:28.639 --> 00:58:34.159
the behavior, your belief structure, what you tell them things

684
00:58:34.280 --> 00:58:37.800
like as fact when it's just an opinion, and they

685
00:58:37.840 --> 00:58:40.960
believe it, and they will literally do anything to back

686
00:58:41.079 --> 00:58:46.239
up because you've said it, so therefore it's true. And

687
00:58:46.320 --> 00:58:50.320
I've seen that in action. And I had a friend

688
00:58:50.360 --> 00:58:55.719
that and I told his mum this, I said, you

689
00:58:55.760 --> 00:59:00.679
know what, I'm my friend who passed away funder. I

690
00:59:00.719 --> 00:59:04.719
told his mum, do you realize that he believed every

691
00:59:04.760 --> 00:59:08.199
single thing you said to him? And she laughed, and

692
00:59:08.239 --> 00:59:11.920
I said, serious, if you came in here now and

693
00:59:12.000 --> 00:59:15.679
told everyone okay, if you okay, not now, but if

694
00:59:15.719 --> 00:59:25.079
you told him on a Tuesday, that was a Thursday,

695
00:59:25.239 --> 00:59:28.599
he would stick to that. He says a Thursday. My

696
00:59:28.679 --> 00:59:31.559
mom said it's a Thursday, So it's a Thursday. Even

697
00:59:31.599 --> 00:59:35.920
if everyone's walking around with T shirts on saying it's

698
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:40.840
Tuesday and the TV comes on saying we're celebrating Tuesday

699
00:59:40.920 --> 00:59:47.519
Day today, he would just completely ignore that factual information

700
00:59:48.199 --> 00:59:51.800
because his mom said it was Thursday, and he wouldn't

701
00:59:51.800 --> 01:00:00.000
back down, not for anything. I've never had that connection

702
01:00:00.199 --> 01:00:07.079
with anyone to believe what they say. So I've heard

703
01:00:07.199 --> 01:00:11.320
so much bs ever since I was born, so much

704
01:00:11.480 --> 01:00:19.440
just silly stuff, that I realized that nobody is going

705
01:00:19.519 --> 01:00:23.320
to be telling the truth the whole time because a

706
01:00:23.320 --> 01:00:24.920
lot of it is just made up. A lot of

707
01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:28.280
it is It might be truthful to them, but it

708
01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:33.760
might be someone else's lie and opinions and all that stuff.

709
01:00:33.800 --> 01:00:38.119
So I think I've benefited in a way from not

710
01:00:38.199 --> 01:00:42.559
being in that sort of stuck structure of I believe this,

711
01:00:44.480 --> 01:00:47.119
and I'm never going to change how I think I

712
01:00:47.199 --> 01:00:52.800
believe this, or I kind of don't have that. I

713
01:00:52.800 --> 01:00:54.480
think life would be a lot easier if I did

714
01:00:54.800 --> 01:00:57.840
to be fair. I've said to be fair three times now,

715
01:00:58.519 --> 01:01:03.920
to be honest. I don't like to be honest, and

716
01:01:04.039 --> 01:01:07.320
I've kind of moved away, probably from what you were asking.

717
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:13.800
So what's my favorite ice cream? Okay? It is? I like, no,

718
01:01:16.440 --> 01:01:20.840
everything we do, this is my little belief Everything we

719
01:01:21.079 --> 01:01:33.079
do affects us, whether it's our belief system, whether it's

720
01:01:34.280 --> 01:01:39.559
and our beliefs. I mean, some people's it's hard for

721
01:01:39.639 --> 01:01:42.960
their belief system to change, but I've seen my belief

722
01:01:43.000 --> 01:01:50.679
systems change in like an instant. One example is, Okay,

723
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:57.119
I have a real issue with motorbikes. Just this, just

724
01:01:57.119 --> 01:01:59.719
the sound of them, that's all it is. I don't

725
01:01:59.800 --> 01:02:04.519
like loud sounds, never have done, probably never will do.

726
01:02:05.400 --> 01:02:09.079
Maybe I've got a theory of what that is, but

727
01:02:09.159 --> 01:02:13.000
it's it's it's just part of my brain. I can't.

728
01:02:13.039 --> 01:02:16.360
I can't deal with loud, really loud sounds. I don't

729
01:02:16.360 --> 01:02:20.360
even have loud music on, you know. I have it

730
01:02:20.400 --> 01:02:23.519
on loud enough so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't.

731
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:25.599
I don't even like to put it on louder. If

732
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:28.320
I have to cover up noise in the garden because

733
01:02:28.360 --> 01:02:34.559
it's too loud for me, then so, because I got

734
01:02:34.599 --> 01:02:38.159
an issue, if I see a motorbike revin I go

735
01:02:38.239 --> 01:02:45.800
into that little angry mode, my little angry smurf pops up.

736
01:02:48.239 --> 01:02:50.840
It's like, how could you be so inconsiderate to me?

737
01:02:52.079 --> 01:02:54.039
Even when they don't even know I exist? You know,

738
01:02:54.199 --> 01:02:56.000
not the smurf. I'm talking about the person on the bike.

739
01:02:57.599 --> 01:03:03.199
So I'm thinking, and I'm walking past, I'm just like,

740
01:03:04.840 --> 01:03:09.119
and then I hear we coming from that direction. I

741
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:12.159
look over, puts his visor up, and it's someone that

742
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:19.639
I see regularly who walks his dog. Instantly, that belief, Okay,

743
01:03:19.679 --> 01:03:22.079
not the whole belief about bikes and noise hasn't changed,

744
01:03:22.119 --> 01:03:24.199
because I still have an issue with noise, but the

745
01:03:24.239 --> 01:03:31.320
emotions connected to motorbikes seem to have eased, definitely eased

746
01:03:31.360 --> 01:03:37.719
in that moment anyway, which showed that the if it

747
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:45.480
can bend, If a belief system can bend quite easily

748
01:03:45.559 --> 01:03:51.000
and be molded and sort of curved around quite easily,

749
01:03:52.360 --> 01:03:57.880
be manipulated and maneuvered, I'm trying to think of clever words,

750
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:06.119
then it's not really it's yeah, if it can be.

751
01:04:07.719 --> 01:04:12.719
If it's not that tightly structured so it can be

752
01:04:12.840 --> 01:04:22.559
moved and changed so easily, says Vinnie's Flappy years, then

753
01:04:22.599 --> 01:04:25.320
it's not very strong, is it? That belief? That belief

754
01:04:25.360 --> 01:04:34.920
is not a very strong belief if it can almost

755
01:04:35.000 --> 01:04:42.000
transform instantly. It was never a strong belief. There was

756
01:04:42.039 --> 01:04:46.840
never a really however strong the emotions were at times,

757
01:04:48.679 --> 01:04:57.400
wasn't connected to a particularly strong foundation. M M, yes,

758
01:05:00.880 --> 01:05:04.320
so yeah, I probably can't. I can't answer your question

759
01:05:04.480 --> 01:05:07.559
in a way that I may Maybe you'd like to

760
01:05:07.599 --> 01:05:10.760
hear me answer it again. I can only assume on

761
01:05:10.800 --> 01:05:13.280
that one. I don't know, but I can't answer it

762
01:05:13.280 --> 01:05:16.639
in a way that you would get in a textbook

763
01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:22.039
or in a way that makes any cognitive sense. Probably,

764
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:29.880
I'm just trying to explain from my perspective kind of

765
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:34.320
how I map it out in front of me, going

766
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:39.559
to like rituals. You got rituals, so you've got things

767
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:45.199
like I know you go go far back. Okay, take

768
01:05:45.199 --> 01:05:49.480
a breath, now go from a religious point of view

769
01:05:49.960 --> 01:05:56.360
this country. Things like Christianity aren't from this country. You know,

770
01:05:57.199 --> 01:06:05.159
They're not from Africa, They're not from America. Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism,

771
01:06:05.559 --> 01:06:10.239
none of these religions are from the countries you know

772
01:06:13.440 --> 01:06:19.239
are probably most of the people listening. So if you

773
01:06:19.280 --> 01:06:24.760
go back to your original country belief systems, if you're

774
01:06:24.760 --> 01:06:29.079
in Australia, or if you're in Canada, if you're in America,

775
01:06:29.920 --> 01:06:37.639
if you're in England, in Scotland, in Wales, it's different.

776
01:06:37.800 --> 01:06:44.000
It's a completely different belief structure that we came from originally.

777
01:06:44.559 --> 01:06:46.960
Although I'm forty eight percent Irish, I don't know if

778
01:06:46.960 --> 01:06:51.760
I've mentioned that. So my ancestors, my ancestors were like

779
01:06:51.760 --> 01:06:57.840
pretty much Irish, so that would be Celtic. And there

780
01:06:57.920 --> 01:07:00.400
was a lot of ritual and it goes back to

781
01:07:00.480 --> 01:07:06.400
almost worshiping the sun and the wind and the trees.

782
01:07:06.599 --> 01:07:09.760
And I don't know, I'll make part of that up,

783
01:07:13.920 --> 01:07:20.280
but there's that belief system. You know, people I guess

784
01:07:20.400 --> 01:07:25.280
like carrying a rabbit's foot or believe in something's good

785
01:07:25.400 --> 01:07:33.840
luck because it is for them, no matter how ridiculous

786
01:07:33.840 --> 01:07:40.440
it seems to everyone else. I've seen people that are superstitious,

787
01:07:41.280 --> 01:07:45.239
and I think nearly everyone i've seen it's superstitious in

788
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:51.559
a working environment as successful. I've seen that a few times,

789
01:07:52.119 --> 01:07:55.800
and they've been successful. They're actually good. And you mess

790
01:07:55.880 --> 01:08:00.920
with their superstitious thing, whether it's they might have a

791
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:07.199
picture of their their daughter on the thing, so if

792
01:08:07.199 --> 01:08:11.039
you draw a mustache on their daughter, photograph. This is

793
01:08:11.119 --> 01:08:17.680
their day up. Whether they're superstitious or not, I suppose,

794
01:08:19.039 --> 01:08:25.800
but if they lose the the the thing that they

795
01:08:26.000 --> 01:08:29.119
have as a I guess kind of like a talisman

796
01:08:29.239 --> 01:08:42.479
or whatever. So you know, it's it's belief, and I

797
01:08:42.520 --> 01:08:48.159
think next to that belief expectations. When you believe something,

798
01:08:48.239 --> 01:08:51.600
then you expect something. I think you kind of need both.

799
01:08:53.119 --> 01:08:55.760
When you got both together, it makes a very strong

800
01:08:56.680 --> 01:09:03.520
super strong. So for example, there was a time when

801
01:09:03.560 --> 01:09:08.800
I was confident going out, confident that I would be

802
01:09:08.800 --> 01:09:16.279
able to talk confidently to ladies. Yes, it's twenty twenty

803
01:09:16.319 --> 01:09:20.960
five years ago, so it's a while back. But I

804
01:09:21.000 --> 01:09:24.439
felt confident and I had that belief, but it wasn't

805
01:09:24.600 --> 01:09:28.119
just it was belief. So the expectations were based on

806
01:09:28.199 --> 01:09:32.640
my belief. But also that belief was based on previous experience.

807
01:09:34.039 --> 01:09:36.960
So all the previous experience and all the new experience

808
01:09:37.119 --> 01:09:47.439
was kind of backing up that belief, confirming it. New evidence,

809
01:09:48.800 --> 01:09:53.279
more evidence to confirm it. But I was ignoring the

810
01:09:53.520 --> 01:10:01.439
evidence that was confirming otherwise because that's what I focused on.

811
01:10:03.039 --> 01:10:05.640
So I was you know, that wasn't all I was doing.

812
01:10:05.680 --> 01:10:07.560
I'm just saying, I've just had a period when I

813
01:10:07.680 --> 01:10:19.079
was fairly confident. Didn't last long. Three hours. Yeah, so

814
01:10:19.239 --> 01:10:26.239
I don't know. I probably haven't answered your question our

815
01:10:26.359 --> 01:10:40.640
subconscious patterns. We can change what we think about by

816
01:10:40.920 --> 01:10:48.600
just thinking on purpose. Sometimes it is that instead of

817
01:10:48.720 --> 01:10:51.119
just allowing I mean, it's something to be said for

818
01:10:51.199 --> 01:10:53.800
allowing thoughts to come and go, and that's a kind

819
01:10:53.840 --> 01:10:58.199
of meditation in itself. But when you're doing that, you're

820
01:10:58.199 --> 01:11:05.560
not holding onto them, following the thoughts. So in a meditation, if,

821
01:11:05.720 --> 01:11:12.920
for example, you just sit and just breathe always made

822
01:11:12.960 --> 01:11:17.399
me laugh every time the meditation leader would say, don't

823
01:11:17.399 --> 01:11:25.680
forget to breathe. I've never once forgotten to breathe. It's like,

824
01:11:25.760 --> 01:11:32.239
you know, swimming. People you're going swimming, don't forget to swim. Really,

825
01:11:33.479 --> 01:11:42.239
don't forget to keep above the water. Okay, Oh, don't

826
01:11:42.279 --> 01:11:47.720
forget to eat. I've never forgotten to eat anyway, so

827
01:11:50.000 --> 01:11:53.319
on a recent show. So there's I could go on

828
01:11:53.359 --> 01:11:55.199
and on about that all day long, and it probably

829
01:11:55.199 --> 01:12:08.800
wouldn't make any more sense. Possibly, but there's something to

830
01:12:08.840 --> 01:12:14.039
be said for just sitting down allowing your thoughts to

831
01:12:14.159 --> 01:12:17.479
just come, but don't follow the thoughts. You will follow them.

832
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:20.479
But once you once you notice you're kind of focusing

833
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:30.560
on something, let it go and then just just allow

834
01:12:30.640 --> 01:12:33.680
the thoughts to come and go. And then when you

835
01:12:33.760 --> 01:12:41.560
notice yourself focusing on something, let it go again. And

836
01:12:41.600 --> 01:12:44.680
it's kind of a good way to I mean, it's

837
01:12:44.960 --> 01:12:47.239
it's a similar thing if you want to find out

838
01:12:47.600 --> 01:12:51.399
if you're going to buy take over a restaurant or

839
01:12:51.520 --> 01:12:57.520
let's say it's a fast food place or a chip shop.

840
01:12:58.119 --> 01:13:01.039
Yeah it's a chip shop, and you want to find

841
01:13:01.039 --> 01:13:04.279
out the kind of customers you're going to get. You

842
01:13:04.319 --> 01:13:06.000
want to find out what it's going to be, like,

843
01:13:06.079 --> 01:13:11.119
what kind of foot traffic you're going to get. Then

844
01:13:12.600 --> 01:13:14.520
you sit in the window and look out. You're sitting

845
01:13:14.560 --> 01:13:22.680
there and watch, and the longer you sit, the more

846
01:13:22.680 --> 01:13:24.680
of an idea you're going to get of what's going on.

847
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.800
And you start seeing patterns. Oh, that bloke's coming, he

848
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:38.640
comes in every Tuesday and every Thursday. Oh he's always

849
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:41.760
got yogurt on his head. You know, just things like that,

850
01:13:42.279 --> 01:13:47.520
and it can be it could be quite interesting to

851
01:13:47.600 --> 01:13:55.399
see the to see to notice what you're thinking without

852
01:13:55.439 --> 01:14:02.239
adding anything, without getting into an internal dialogue or being imaginative,

853
01:14:03.640 --> 01:14:09.000
which can also be fun. I suppose. I don't know

854
01:14:09.039 --> 01:14:13.079
if I've answered that. Jonathan, on a recent show, you

855
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:15.960
mentioned a disability of yours but didn't refer to what

856
01:14:16.039 --> 01:14:19.760
it was, and also implied that you maybe don't drive.

857
01:14:20.000 --> 01:14:27.479
But curious about both of these. Well, that's the thing

858
01:14:27.520 --> 01:14:31.000
with these recordings. I've mentioned it a few times, but

859
01:14:31.079 --> 01:14:34.640
I know that sometimes if people fall asleep or whatever,

860
01:14:34.680 --> 01:14:37.079
they just you're not going to hear what I've talked about.

861
01:14:37.479 --> 01:14:40.359
But I don't know if I'll mentioned it too much.

862
01:14:40.399 --> 01:14:46.920
But yeah, I have a I've got bipolar effective disorder

863
01:14:47.039 --> 01:14:54.600
and which is classed as a disability with me and

864
01:14:59.520 --> 01:15:04.840
eu PDS an emotionally unstable personality disorder. So they are

865
01:15:04.880 --> 01:15:10.439
the two things. It's like mental mental stuff. That's my disability.

866
01:15:11.399 --> 01:15:17.680
I haven't got any physical disabilities, but I do have

867
01:15:17.720 --> 01:15:23.039
a disability bus pass. I do come like an old pensioner.

868
01:15:23.079 --> 01:15:30.479
Now I do not allowed to drive because of the

869
01:15:30.560 --> 01:15:40.079
medication I'm on because it causes drowsiness and the d

870
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:43.399
d W what is it called, the d LP PL

871
01:15:43.600 --> 01:15:51.680
DAL whatever d w L the driving people driving, I

872
01:15:51.680 --> 01:15:55.840
forget the name of the company, the driving place. Yeah,

873
01:15:55.840 --> 01:16:00.479
they didn't ban me like in a way of like

874
01:16:00.560 --> 01:16:04.159
banning me for drink driving or whatever or speeding. They

875
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:06.079
just banned me from driving. They said, you're not allowed

876
01:16:06.079 --> 01:16:10.880
to drive. This was quite a few years ago. However,

877
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:18.800
I don't drive. I can't drive, so it's one of

878
01:16:18.840 --> 01:16:25.399
those weird things. When I first got my bus pass,

879
01:16:25.560 --> 01:16:31.199
I had to go to the driving place and get

880
01:16:31.279 --> 01:16:34.920
proof about me not being able to drive. That's the

881
01:16:34.960 --> 01:16:38.239
only reason they would give me a bus pass. So

882
01:16:38.279 --> 01:16:40.800
I just went scott let from the doctor just to

883
01:16:40.800 --> 01:16:44.239
tell them what I was, my situation, and they banned me.

884
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:50.119
It's like wow, but yeah, I don't know quite it

885
01:16:50.239 --> 01:16:53.119
causes drowsiness to medications. I think it's probably more to

886
01:16:53.159 --> 01:16:59.319
do with that than my my road rage potential. I

887
01:16:59.319 --> 01:17:02.119
don't know. Yeah, I don't know what kind of driver

888
01:17:02.159 --> 01:17:04.760
I would be, but yeah, I don't drive. Never driven.

889
01:17:05.479 --> 01:17:09.720
I've had two sets of driving lessons, one in London

890
01:17:09.880 --> 01:17:16.800
and one in Ipswich. Period in London nineteen ninety one,

891
01:17:17.359 --> 01:17:20.840
what's the point. I was walking faster than the traffic

892
01:17:20.960 --> 01:17:25.439
was driving. I didn't really see the bigger picture really,

893
01:17:25.600 --> 01:17:29.720
like of driving outside of London. But inside of London

894
01:17:29.760 --> 01:17:33.680
it didn't seem any point. It's why everything was moving

895
01:17:33.720 --> 01:17:37.600
so slowly and you've got cars you have, you can't

896
01:17:37.640 --> 01:17:39.760
even drive, you can't You've got stopped like every two

897
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:43.960
seconds to let cars through because people are parked both

898
01:17:44.000 --> 01:17:47.239
sides of the road, because you're not allowed to park

899
01:17:47.279 --> 01:17:51.920
on the pavement in London, which is I'm glad. That's

900
01:17:51.960 --> 01:17:55.600
one of my big pet peeves, people parking on the pavement.

901
01:17:56.239 --> 01:17:58.680
I don't know what it is. We've got start locally.

902
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:05.159
It's an ambulance they park on the pavement. Anyway, Yeah,

903
01:18:05.199 --> 01:18:07.680
I just got my little pet peeve, people parking on

904
01:18:07.720 --> 01:18:11.000
the pavement. Then you're not allowed to do that in London.

905
01:18:11.840 --> 01:18:14.159
You're not allowed to do it anywhere in this country,

906
01:18:14.279 --> 01:18:19.359
but it's not enforced, but in London it's enforced. So

907
01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:22.880
you literally got to stop and if there's another car coming,

908
01:18:22.920 --> 01:18:24.800
you've got to let them through or they'll let you through.

909
01:18:27.479 --> 01:18:32.479
And yeah, so I just didn't see the point in driving.

910
01:18:34.239 --> 01:18:36.520
Plus I was working whenever I had the money to

911
01:18:36.600 --> 01:18:39.960
pay for driving lessons. I was working too many hours

912
01:18:40.960 --> 01:18:50.760
to have any time to take driving lessons. So that's that,

913
01:18:53.800 --> 01:18:58.000
Joe Anne, not a question. But if you are thinking

914
01:18:58.039 --> 01:19:01.680
about selling merch, I would definitely wear a T shirt

915
01:19:01.760 --> 01:19:08.239
that said I sleep with Jason every night. Boy. Tell

916
01:19:08.359 --> 01:19:11.279
me says that's shirt I definitely could not wear to work,

917
01:19:12.520 --> 01:19:18.000
and I'm thinking why and then tell me put someone

918
01:19:18.079 --> 01:19:21.520
by the same name in my office so I don't

919
01:19:21.560 --> 01:19:27.039
want to give them ideas. Yeah, that could get awkward.

920
01:19:28.159 --> 01:19:29.680
By the way, I shouldn't be reading you about what

921
01:19:29.720 --> 01:19:32.920
other people have written, because you need to join the

922
01:19:32.960 --> 01:19:36.000
boarding group Jason Newland's boring group. If you want to

923
01:19:36.039 --> 01:19:38.439
see what people have written, you need to join men.

924
01:19:40.399 --> 01:19:42.800
So the next one, Oh, yeah, I've got to answer

925
01:19:42.840 --> 01:19:47.880
that question. Am I sorry? I was thinking about that.

926
01:19:47.960 --> 01:19:52.039
I mean, you know, merch merchandise isn't going to happen

927
01:19:52.039 --> 01:19:56.600
anywhere anytime soon, maybe in the future, unless you want

928
01:19:56.640 --> 01:20:02.359
to just make some yourself. That would be cool. Maybe

929
01:20:02.399 --> 01:20:05.920
put my website at the bottom, my website address, just

930
01:20:06.000 --> 01:20:12.520
otherwise they won't know who you're talking about. Man. But yeah,

931
01:20:12.640 --> 01:20:15.239
I used to have a T shirt with let me

932
01:20:15.279 --> 01:20:21.399
boy to Sleep on it and my website address. People

933
01:20:21.479 --> 01:20:24.439
did actually look they used to look at it. It

934
01:20:24.560 --> 01:20:30.439
was quite a bright picture an image, and I'm not

935
01:20:30.479 --> 01:20:32.039
sure if I had Andrea on there, I might've had

936
01:20:32.279 --> 01:20:36.039
a picture of Andrea on there as well. See that's

937
01:20:36.039 --> 01:20:38.800
the weird thing. I don't think about the future, like,

938
01:20:40.520 --> 01:20:41.960
that's the kind of thing that I should have gotten

939
01:20:42.640 --> 01:20:45.319
and just kept one, isn't it? Because I got it

940
01:20:45.319 --> 01:20:48.960
printed for me, I should have kept one and just

941
01:20:49.039 --> 01:20:54.680
kept it somewhere safe as a kind of keepsake. I

942
01:20:54.760 --> 01:20:59.880
had a T shirt with chronic pain relief on it

943
01:21:00.039 --> 01:21:01.960
of a website. I had another one with free pain

944
01:21:02.079 --> 01:21:05.800
relief back in two thousand and six T shirt. I

945
01:21:05.800 --> 01:21:11.319
remember collecting that and again I just wore it until

946
01:21:11.319 --> 01:21:16.720
it wore out. See what I had? I had a

947
01:21:16.760 --> 01:21:20.119
T shirt in nineteen ninety one and it was a

948
01:21:20.119 --> 01:21:24.920
picture of me. It was in the West End, and

949
01:21:25.199 --> 01:21:30.479
there's this bloke taking photographs. And I mentioned a lot

950
01:21:30.520 --> 01:21:32.880
of people would take a photograph of their loved one,

951
01:21:33.439 --> 01:21:36.399
maybe of their kids, and then having it printed on

952
01:21:36.439 --> 01:21:40.800
a T shirt for them to wear. But I had

953
01:21:40.840 --> 01:21:44.399
a picture of me and I had put it onto

954
01:21:44.439 --> 01:21:46.800
a T shirt and I wore that T shirt of myself.

955
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:51.159
No one ever mentioned it, no one ever said anything.

956
01:21:55.840 --> 01:22:01.479
Maybe it was a baseball bat. Sean. This is a question,

957
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:06.920
Sean asks me, how are you able to recall dates?

958
01:22:07.039 --> 01:22:11.800
So accurately. I have often been drifted in off and

959
01:22:12.119 --> 01:22:17.199
you'll be talking about something you've seen or that happened

960
01:22:17.199 --> 01:22:19.600
to you in the past, and you seem to be

961
01:22:20.319 --> 01:22:26.079
very accurately recall the specific year it happened. It's quite impressive.

962
01:22:26.520 --> 01:22:31.560
Thank you very much. This question finally being asked after

963
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:36.079
you list the Lion documentary release years in the Disney

964
01:22:36.119 --> 01:22:40.640
Triviury episode. You're able to do it with your stories.

965
01:22:42.720 --> 01:22:45.399
So I start this question again because I've just been

966
01:22:45.720 --> 01:23:11.199
rudely interrupted by three different dogs as someone downstairs shouting

967
01:23:11.279 --> 01:23:17.239
as well. Now brilliant, right here we go, Sean says,

968
01:23:17.239 --> 01:23:19.880
how are you able to record dates so accurately? I've

969
01:23:19.920 --> 01:23:22.359
often been drifted off and you'll be talking about something

970
01:23:22.399 --> 01:23:25.640
you've seen or that happened to you in the past,

971
01:23:26.239 --> 01:23:30.119
and you seem to be very accurately recalling the specific

972
01:23:30.199 --> 01:23:34.399
year it happened. It's quite impressive. I agree, Thank you

973
01:23:34.479 --> 01:23:40.880
very much. And this question finally being asked after you

974
01:23:41.000 --> 01:23:45.840
list the Lion documentary release years in the tr Disney

975
01:23:45.960 --> 01:23:50.079
Trivia episode. You're also able to do it with your

976
01:23:50.199 --> 01:23:54.319
stories too, in X year this happened, etc. I'm always

977
01:23:54.319 --> 01:23:58.199
amazed by your memory well thank you well. I mean

978
01:23:58.359 --> 01:24:00.600
to be fair. Sometimes I do it the laptop in

979
01:24:00.640 --> 01:24:05.600
front of me, so if I'm looking up stuff. So

980
01:24:05.680 --> 01:24:12.000
I don't always remember every single year, but when it's

981
01:24:12.479 --> 01:24:15.840
when it's to do with my life, not to do

982
01:24:16.000 --> 01:24:24.039
my life. I mean, technically Madonna releasing The Like a

983
01:24:24.079 --> 01:24:30.119
Prayer album in nineteen eighty nine wasn't to do with

984
01:24:30.159 --> 01:24:34.520
my life, but it was. It signified a particular time.

985
01:24:35.800 --> 01:24:42.119
Remember listening to it in France in the France very poor.

986
01:24:43.119 --> 01:24:45.640
It might have been Dover, even Dover or France, but

987
01:24:45.720 --> 01:24:49.399
I think it was France and it was Cala I suppose,

988
01:24:49.399 --> 01:24:53.159
isn't it. And the video The Like a Prayer video

989
01:24:53.319 --> 01:24:58.239
was on. But there's a few ways I do it.

990
01:24:58.279 --> 01:25:01.159
I don't do it on purpose. And I had a

991
01:25:01.199 --> 01:25:03.000
friend that used to keep that used to mock me

992
01:25:03.039 --> 01:25:06.039
for it when I'd sort of say the year or

993
01:25:06.199 --> 01:25:09.840
sometimes the month as well, and they'd picked me up

994
01:25:09.880 --> 01:25:11.359
on it to the point where I felt a little

995
01:25:11.359 --> 01:25:15.159
bit self conscious. And I don't like feeling it. I

996
01:25:15.159 --> 01:25:18.680
don't think anyone likes feeling self conscious today. So I

997
01:25:18.800 --> 01:25:23.720
kind of felt, oh, and like I had to stop

998
01:25:23.800 --> 01:25:28.720
doing it. This is with someone like in person, you know,

999
01:25:29.039 --> 01:25:31.560
and they'd like start laughing every time I've mentioned a year.

1000
01:25:33.840 --> 01:25:35.319
I don't know why I do it. I think it's

1001
01:25:35.479 --> 01:25:41.560
just I don't know how I do it. Rather, I

1002
01:25:41.600 --> 01:25:44.760
think the reason I do it is to I'd like

1003
01:25:44.800 --> 01:25:48.079
to treat it, try and be a little bit factual.

1004
01:25:49.199 --> 01:25:54.439
But also it's just me kind of talking out loud.

1005
01:25:55.039 --> 01:26:00.840
The process, the brain process that's going on. I've got

1006
01:26:00.840 --> 01:26:06.359
my life broken into different parts in my memory. Then

1007
01:26:06.399 --> 01:26:08.760
there's a lot of things I don't remember. I mean,

1008
01:26:08.800 --> 01:26:13.439
I generally don't remember much about Thailand. I don't remember

1009
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:20.520
much about the last few years, last couple of years,

1010
01:26:21.560 --> 01:26:28.680
or the last week or so. There's and that's partly

1011
01:26:28.720 --> 01:26:34.239
because nothing's going on. Because even though I've generally had

1012
01:26:34.319 --> 01:26:38.960
quite a boring life, but at the same time, it

1013
01:26:39.159 --> 01:26:41.520
wasn't boring, if you know what I mean. It was

1014
01:26:46.520 --> 01:26:49.399
I was constantly on the move, constantly moving from place

1015
01:26:49.439 --> 01:26:52.239
to place, even if it was in the same part

1016
01:26:52.279 --> 01:26:55.399
of town or the same part of the country. I'd

1017
01:26:55.560 --> 01:26:59.520
you know, i'd be moving every couple of years, every year,

1018
01:26:59.560 --> 01:27:04.279
sometimes twice three times a year, and I'd be having

1019
01:27:04.319 --> 01:27:09.600
different jobs, and I'd be having different girlfriends, and I'd

1020
01:27:09.600 --> 01:27:14.159
be different, lots of different things happening, and I've got

1021
01:27:14.319 --> 01:27:22.520
those things kind of broken up. So I could list, Yeah,

1022
01:27:22.560 --> 01:27:28.000
I could go by jobs, or i could go by

1023
01:27:28.119 --> 01:27:32.239
where I've lived. I can pretty much. I can't remember

1024
01:27:32.279 --> 01:27:38.319
the addresses, but I can pretty much remember all the moves,

1025
01:27:39.319 --> 01:27:42.159
and a lot of them by date, not day date,

1026
01:27:42.239 --> 01:27:45.640
but by year, and sometimes even by roughly what part

1027
01:27:45.640 --> 01:27:53.399
of the year it was. And then there's jobs. So

1028
01:27:54.800 --> 01:27:59.359
you know, I started working nineteen eighty six in a

1029
01:27:59.439 --> 01:28:02.680
chip shop, so that's kind of the start. But if

1030
01:28:02.680 --> 01:28:05.000
we go all the way back to the very start

1031
01:28:05.039 --> 01:28:12.600
of working, and I had a paper round and I

1032
01:28:13.760 --> 01:28:17.359
worked in the bakehouse, which was a restaurant. I worked

1033
01:28:17.399 --> 01:28:22.439
in a bakery of the restaurant at the weekend Saturday

1034
01:28:22.479 --> 01:28:28.680
and Sunday, I think it was it was either five

1035
01:28:28.680 --> 01:28:31.279
o'clock on a Saturday or five o'clock on a Sunday

1036
01:28:31.840 --> 01:28:34.439
and six o'clock the other day. I forget which was which,

1037
01:28:37.279 --> 01:28:40.199
And I think it might have been six o'clock fried

1038
01:28:40.359 --> 01:28:45.000
at six o'clock Saturday five o'clock Sunday, because maybe Sunday

1039
01:28:45.079 --> 01:28:47.640
was busier day because then they've got a little coaches

1040
01:28:47.680 --> 01:28:51.840
and stuff come to, you know, they would come to visit.

1041
01:28:54.399 --> 01:28:56.840
They wouldn't drive into the outual restaurant. They did park

1042
01:28:56.920 --> 01:29:03.199
and let all the people off. You know how coaches work.

1043
01:29:04.000 --> 01:29:12.560
So I I remember that. But then when I've got

1044
01:29:12.560 --> 01:29:17.600
like memories connected to each job, so I remember some

1045
01:29:17.720 --> 01:29:21.760
of the things I did, so if I if I

1046
01:29:22.000 --> 01:29:27.479
zoom in on a job, and maybe it's because I've

1047
01:29:27.520 --> 01:29:32.039
been I focused on myself pretty much the whole time.

1048
01:29:32.800 --> 01:29:38.239
It means some would say it's some would argue it's

1049
01:29:38.279 --> 01:29:45.439
just me being selfish, or me put myself first or whatever.

1050
01:29:46.359 --> 01:29:51.600
But in some ways I kind of had to. There

1051
01:29:51.640 --> 01:29:57.920
hasn't been a safety net really, so I've kind of

1052
01:29:58.079 --> 01:30:00.760
not that. Probably many people have safety in it, but

1053
01:30:01.560 --> 01:30:05.560
I didn't have. I kind of I never really knew

1054
01:30:07.119 --> 01:30:09.600
what was going to happen next, or where I was

1055
01:30:09.640 --> 01:30:11.359
going to end up next, where I was going to

1056
01:30:11.399 --> 01:30:14.680
work next, where I was going to live next. You

1057
01:30:14.720 --> 01:30:18.439
know it. There's always that kind of quite uncertainty in

1058
01:30:18.479 --> 01:30:27.039
my life. Instability. Definitely, I was unstable in lots of

1059
01:30:27.079 --> 01:30:29.720
different ways. I'm not I'm not being a victim. I'm

1060
01:30:29.720 --> 01:30:33.039
just saying that's just how it was. And I didn't

1061
01:30:33.119 --> 01:30:35.119
seem to know how to get out of that. It's

1062
01:30:35.159 --> 01:30:44.439
almost that that was in built. And I guess a

1063
01:30:44.439 --> 01:30:46.199
lot of that would have been because of when I

1064
01:30:46.239 --> 01:30:49.000
was a little, very little, we moved around a lot.

1065
01:30:50.760 --> 01:30:54.159
I had stability at the age of seven to the

1066
01:30:54.199 --> 01:31:01.159
age of fifteen, I mean we still moved. So the

1067
01:31:01.159 --> 01:31:06.680
AGA one, two, three, three times four times, so I

1068
01:31:06.680 --> 01:31:09.119
still moved four times in those years. But there was

1069
01:31:09.119 --> 01:31:15.880
a period between nine and fifteen for six years where

1070
01:31:15.920 --> 01:31:19.640
I stayed in the same place, and until I moved here,

1071
01:31:21.239 --> 01:31:26.520
that was the longest time I ever lived anywhere six years.

1072
01:31:27.800 --> 01:31:31.800
I've lived in places for four years, three years, two years,

1073
01:31:31.920 --> 01:31:36.159
a year, a few months, and so yeah, I've got

1074
01:31:37.399 --> 01:31:41.399
Sometimes when I was younger, and maybe I was my

1075
01:31:41.520 --> 01:31:45.479
brain was a little bit too active to fall asleep.

1076
01:31:47.840 --> 01:31:56.039
I would recall all the different places I lived by year,

1077
01:31:56.319 --> 01:31:59.359
So I mean that's possibly why I remember. I'd recall

1078
01:31:59.439 --> 01:32:10.199
all the different places in order that I worked, and

1079
01:32:10.279 --> 01:32:13.079
that used to send me to sleep sometimes. So and

1080
01:32:13.239 --> 01:32:18.479
I do this in my twenties and my thirties. I

1081
01:32:18.520 --> 01:32:20.399
don't know how many times I moved around when I

1082
01:32:20.439 --> 01:32:24.520
was very young. A lot is going to be the

1083
01:32:24.560 --> 01:32:27.319
answer to that. But I don't know how many. So

1084
01:32:27.359 --> 01:32:33.680
there's no stability, really like proper stability until I was seven.

1085
01:32:35.000 --> 01:32:37.840
And then the stability was there because even though we

1086
01:32:37.920 --> 01:32:40.640
moved a couple of times, it was all of us together,

1087
01:32:40.880 --> 01:32:49.239
so it was it wasn't unstable from that perspective. Yeah,

1088
01:32:49.359 --> 01:32:53.319
I think the only stable thing I had up to

1089
01:32:53.359 --> 01:33:01.039
the age of fourteen whatever was my older brother, the

1090
01:33:01.039 --> 01:33:03.159
one just a bit older than me, because I was

1091
01:33:03.199 --> 01:33:07.720
with him the whole time. We we was in foster

1092
01:33:07.800 --> 01:33:10.560
care together for a year and a half or whatever

1093
01:33:11.039 --> 01:33:14.760
when I was six months old till about two, so

1094
01:33:14.880 --> 01:33:20.000
we lived together before that. Then we lived together just

1095
01:33:20.119 --> 01:33:22.479
you know, my older brother always stayed with my nano granddad,

1096
01:33:23.159 --> 01:33:27.640
and then we moved away. We got took away to Newcastle,

1097
01:33:28.159 --> 01:33:30.159
then we lived in the colored children's homes, and then

1098
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.359
we came back and ended up living with my dad.

1099
01:33:32.439 --> 01:33:37.439
And so he was the only real consistent other than

1100
01:33:37.479 --> 01:33:41.159
my older brother, who became consistent in my life from

1101
01:33:41.199 --> 01:33:45.079
the age of and he was there for the first

1102
01:33:45.119 --> 01:33:46.920
six months, but I didn't know anyone did, like at

1103
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:51.520
that point from their I'm sure there was a bond

1104
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:54.720
six months. I probably would have bonded with him as

1105
01:33:54.760 --> 01:33:58.359
in emotionally known who he was because I see him

1106
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:03.079
every day, I suppose, but from the age of two onwards,

1107
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:11.239
so for five years from age two to fifteen, so

1108
01:34:11.359 --> 01:34:20.159
it's that thirteen years, so thirteen years and fifteen years,

1109
01:34:20.159 --> 01:34:22.520
so thirteen years of my oldest brother, fifteen years my

1110
01:34:22.560 --> 01:34:25.039
younger brother got my other older brother, but not the

1111
01:34:25.079 --> 01:34:33.279
oldest Other than my dad and my nan, they were

1112
01:34:33.319 --> 01:34:35.760
the only two people. But this is differently because I

1113
01:34:35.800 --> 01:34:41.159
lived with them. I lived with my dad for seven

1114
01:34:41.239 --> 01:34:45.079
to fifteen, and I did live with him a few

1115
01:34:45.119 --> 01:34:51.800
times after that for a short period. I never lived

1116
01:34:51.800 --> 01:34:54.760
with my nan. I just stay over sometimes, but I'd

1117
01:34:54.760 --> 01:35:02.880
never lived with her, but i'd see her regularly, so

1118
01:35:03.000 --> 01:35:05.880
I just I remember, Yeah, I just got these little memories.

1119
01:35:06.039 --> 01:35:11.359
Sometimes I do get modeled up. I do think like,

1120
01:35:11.439 --> 01:35:15.560
oh wait a minute, that's that that was a different year,

1121
01:35:17.359 --> 01:35:20.000
and thinking about something that happened over Christmas, and I'm

1122
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:26.279
thinking that wasn't me, that's someone else's memory. I don't

1123
01:35:26.279 --> 01:35:33.880
remember doing it. I've never flown a plane, weird, so

1124
01:35:35.039 --> 01:35:38.880
I have there's also jobs looking at that, looking at

1125
01:35:39.279 --> 01:35:42.439
the music, so there's connection with the music and the years.

1126
01:35:42.680 --> 01:35:47.319
I don't have that anymore, because I have lost track

1127
01:35:47.359 --> 01:35:51.640
of the music today I have. I feel a little

1128
01:35:51.640 --> 01:35:58.399
bit sad about that, but you know, I just there's

1129
01:35:58.439 --> 01:36:00.600
so many albums that I do listen to, so many

1130
01:36:00.640 --> 01:36:07.319
songs from the past, you know, my favorite song collection.

1131
01:36:07.840 --> 01:36:11.439
There's so many that it would take I reckon. If

1132
01:36:11.439 --> 01:36:14.880
I added continuously added songs that I really like, I

1133
01:36:14.880 --> 01:36:20.720
could sit for possibly twenty four hours, if not more,

1134
01:36:21.319 --> 01:36:27.880
listening to different songs, all of them that I love. Possibly,

1135
01:36:28.920 --> 01:36:32.920
I don't know, I'm kind of making it up. But

1136
01:36:33.039 --> 01:36:36.000
during that period there was a lot of music connected

1137
01:36:36.159 --> 01:36:39.640
so to the times that I remember when I was

1138
01:36:39.640 --> 01:36:42.439
in the chip shop, I used to go in in

1139
01:36:42.439 --> 01:36:51.720
the afternoon, going a bit early because I used to

1140
01:36:51.880 --> 01:36:55.039
enjoy being in there on my own, and I'll be

1141
01:36:55.119 --> 01:37:01.000
preparing the kitchen. Maybe doing this is an early afternoon,

1142
01:37:01.880 --> 01:37:03.239
So I go in a little bit early in the

1143
01:37:03.239 --> 01:37:08.399
afternoon and just take my time. And I don't know

1144
01:37:08.439 --> 01:37:10.199
what it was I was doing, but I was probably

1145
01:37:10.199 --> 01:37:15.039
just getting getting the fryers on, you know, setting up

1146
01:37:15.079 --> 01:37:19.640
for the evening, the evening shift. And I'd listened to

1147
01:37:19.840 --> 01:37:22.640
I had there was a tape recorder downstairs, and I

1148
01:37:22.680 --> 01:37:27.279
had two tapes and they were both the first two

1149
01:37:27.399 --> 01:37:35.560
albums from Madonna. I loved Papa Don't Preach True Blue, Sorry,

1150
01:37:35.560 --> 01:37:40.039
the album True Blue and my two favorite albums Versus

1151
01:37:40.079 --> 01:37:45.039
True Blue and Like a Prayer. They are my two

1152
01:37:45.119 --> 01:37:49.239
favorite Madonna albums. But during that period I quite liked

1153
01:37:49.239 --> 01:37:52.680
the first two albums that she did as well. Holiday

1154
01:37:53.840 --> 01:37:56.960
You can so raged that one subjectly like dancing a

1155
01:37:56.960 --> 01:37:59.560
little bit on my own, and so I remember that.

1156
01:37:59.600 --> 01:38:02.000
And there's other things like when I first moved above

1157
01:38:02.039 --> 01:38:08.279
the chip Shop, I was playing George Michael's first album Faith.

1158
01:38:09.279 --> 01:38:11.560
Was this album Faith? I think it wasn't it? So

1159
01:38:11.600 --> 01:38:15.239
I was playing that album over and over again in

1160
01:38:15.359 --> 01:38:25.399
my kitchen, just little bits, little bits and bobs connected

1161
01:38:25.439 --> 01:38:35.560
to music. The Yeah, I'm trying to give an example.

1162
01:38:35.600 --> 01:38:42.399
Now I can't think of any examples. Yeah, but there's

1163
01:38:42.600 --> 01:38:46.680
there are examples. It is. It's not necessarily going to

1164
01:38:46.720 --> 01:38:50.239
pop up when I wanted to. But if I was,

1165
01:38:51.199 --> 01:38:56.640
for example, I don't know if he was, Like, let's

1166
01:38:56.680 --> 01:39:00.279
focus on the year two thousand and five, straight way,

1167
01:39:01.640 --> 01:39:07.880
Michael Jackson's album History came out, so I would talk

1168
01:39:07.920 --> 01:39:11.279
about that. Was it two thousand and five or two

1169
01:39:11.319 --> 01:39:13.159
thousand and four? I think it was two thousand and five.

1170
01:39:14.680 --> 01:39:16.479
I was definitely listening to it in two thousand and

1171
01:39:16.560 --> 01:39:19.600
five anyway, and then we could say, well that was

1172
01:39:19.640 --> 01:39:24.000
the year. Yeah, it's two thousand and five, and then

1173
01:39:24.039 --> 01:39:28.680
I could say, okay, well I had I had two

1174
01:39:28.760 --> 01:39:34.359
girlfriends that year. I also went and worked at Butlin's.

1175
01:39:36.359 --> 01:39:40.439
And just going back through that year, I can remember

1176
01:39:40.479 --> 01:39:43.760
certain things that happened. I know remember where I was

1177
01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:48.000
living because I was living in one place. Then I

1178
01:39:48.039 --> 01:39:51.239
went to Butlan's. Then I come back and I was homeless,

1179
01:39:51.279 --> 01:39:55.279
didn't have anywhere to stay. But that was pretty much

1180
01:39:55.479 --> 01:40:01.560
the beginning of two thousand and six. So and the

1181
01:40:01.600 --> 01:40:03.840
only reason I went to Buttling's is because we were

1182
01:40:03.840 --> 01:40:07.199
being evicted. So I was evicted from the house. It

1183
01:40:07.319 --> 01:40:09.960
was a council house that my friend was living in

1184
01:40:10.119 --> 01:40:12.720
or council flat wherever it was, and he was being evicted.

1185
01:40:13.560 --> 01:40:18.279
Was it a council I can't remember. He had a

1186
01:40:18.279 --> 01:40:22.399
flat and a house. Anyway, I I had to get

1187
01:40:22.439 --> 01:40:25.720
out of there, so I went and moved. But I

1188
01:40:25.800 --> 01:40:28.800
just went in to the job center, like what am

1189
01:40:28.840 --> 01:40:32.680
I going to do? Because I had no job? What

1190
01:40:32.720 --> 01:40:35.119
am I going to do? It was like literally he

1191
01:40:35.199 --> 01:40:36.880
told me. I think he gave me about a week's

1192
01:40:36.920 --> 01:40:41.439
notice or five days, so we moved. Yeah, we have

1193
01:40:41.520 --> 01:40:46.159
to be out in five days. He knew about it.

1194
01:40:46.359 --> 01:40:51.359
He'd had the viction notice for about a month. So

1195
01:40:51.680 --> 01:40:54.960
I aw, so I went and I managed to. I

1196
01:40:54.960 --> 01:40:58.359
went into a job center and that is big signs.

1197
01:40:58.520 --> 01:41:03.279
Do you want to work at Buttling's? I laughed, but yeah, sure,

1198
01:41:06.600 --> 01:41:09.279
And then I thought I looked around as another jobs,

1199
01:41:09.840 --> 01:41:13.640
so I just well, there's other jobs, but nothing that

1200
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:18.039
offered accommodation. Because that was the problem. It's like, I

1201
01:41:18.239 --> 01:41:26.399
need somewhere to live. And I said to I said, well,

1202
01:41:26.399 --> 01:41:30.800
what's going on with this Buttling's thing? They said, well,

1203
01:41:30.880 --> 01:41:32.560
it's a holiday camp. I said, no, I know what

1204
01:41:32.600 --> 01:41:36.000
it is. They said that, you know, there's music, they

1205
01:41:36.039 --> 01:41:41.319
have families going and have a holiday there. Said I already,

1206
01:41:41.520 --> 01:41:45.800
I'm not asking about the actual camp. So what is

1207
01:41:45.840 --> 01:41:49.000
it your What is it you're offering? I said, we

1208
01:41:49.079 --> 01:41:54.880
offer entertainment variety. There's pubs, there's restaurants, there's a swim pool.

1209
01:41:55.079 --> 01:41:57.840
Was like, no, it's like it was trying to sell

1210
01:41:57.880 --> 01:42:01.239
me a tickets to go going is it? Like? No? No,

1211
01:42:01.319 --> 01:42:05.079
wait a minute, what what are you here for? He said,

1212
01:42:05.079 --> 01:42:09.880
I'm getting paid. I work for Buttling's. I said, okay,

1213
01:42:11.319 --> 01:42:13.680
how can I structure this question in a way that

1214
01:42:13.720 --> 01:42:18.119
you're going to understand it? I said, what what's the

1215
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.439
big signs for? He said, that's so that people know

1216
01:42:21.560 --> 01:42:26.720
that we're here, that a bit further away. He didn't

1217
01:42:26.760 --> 01:42:29.479
say that that is just funny. Why the big signs?

1218
01:42:29.479 --> 01:42:31.399
Asked for people who are further away can see it?

1219
01:42:32.239 --> 01:42:36.399
And he said there's jobs. Do you want a job?

1220
01:42:36.640 --> 01:42:39.479
Do you want a job? And I said, I don't know.

1221
01:42:40.239 --> 01:42:43.039
I mean the problem I've got is got nowhere to

1222
01:42:43.079 --> 01:42:46.319
live in five days, and if I do get a job,

1223
01:42:46.600 --> 01:42:48.079
I have to work for a month before I get

1224
01:42:48.079 --> 01:42:51.720
any money. He said, oh, but this is this is

1225
01:42:51.720 --> 01:42:54.720
a good situation. I said why. He said, you don't

1226
01:42:54.760 --> 01:42:58.239
have to sign off because I was temporarily unemployed. Then

1227
01:42:58.760 --> 01:43:00.479
he said you don't have to sign off to do this.

1228
01:43:00.479 --> 01:43:04.880
This is part of the unemployment program. I said really.

1229
01:43:04.960 --> 01:43:10.039
He said yeah. So you go to Buttlings in Bogna Regis,

1230
01:43:10.920 --> 01:43:14.600
you can work, you still get your unemployment, you get

1231
01:43:14.640 --> 01:43:19.880
extra twenty quid on top, you get fed. A's a

1232
01:43:19.920 --> 01:43:23.039
restaurant which you get fed or canteen, get fed three

1233
01:43:23.079 --> 01:43:28.119
times a day, you get a big discount on drinks,

1234
01:43:30.640 --> 01:43:33.640
and you don't have to pay for any accommodation. You

1235
01:43:33.640 --> 01:43:37.239
get accommodation, have to share a bed or bedroom rather sorry,

1236
01:43:37.680 --> 01:43:41.640
with someone else. So there's two people in a not

1237
01:43:41.680 --> 01:43:45.920
a very particularly big room, in fact, probably about the

1238
01:43:45.920 --> 01:43:49.720
size of this room, maybe a little bit smaller than

1239
01:43:49.760 --> 01:43:53.920
this room actually, And I said, I didn't have a

1240
01:43:53.920 --> 01:44:00.359
lot of options at that point. So yeah, so I

1241
01:44:00.359 --> 01:44:02.199
had to fill a form in. I had to do

1242
01:44:02.239 --> 01:44:06.960
a questionnaire and like to test my intelligence. And I

1243
01:44:07.000 --> 01:44:09.760
remember when I handed it in and fireworks went off.

1244
01:44:09.800 --> 01:44:13.239
I said, Wow, you're the most intelligent person we've ever

1245
01:44:13.319 --> 01:44:20.079
seen it. Ever, how come you're not teaching in a university?

1246
01:44:20.159 --> 01:44:27.760
And that didn't happen. So I just thought, he said, well,

1247
01:44:27.760 --> 01:44:30.920
what kind of work can you do? I said, what's available?

1248
01:44:32.960 --> 01:44:35.640
And it kind of broke down what I should what

1249
01:44:35.720 --> 01:44:38.520
I would have done. If I had looked at longer,

1250
01:44:38.840 --> 01:44:44.600
further picture, the bigger picture, the more advanced picture, the future,

1251
01:44:46.000 --> 01:44:48.800
I would have chosen something that I wouldn't have disliked doing.

1252
01:44:50.720 --> 01:44:54.760
But I had experience working in the bar, and they

1253
01:44:54.960 --> 01:44:56.560
saw it as soon as they saw that acts I

1254
01:44:56.560 --> 01:44:59.600
had to film a CV and they said, okay, well

1255
01:44:59.640 --> 01:45:02.640
you can work in a bar. Then I didn't realize

1256
01:45:02.720 --> 01:45:05.840
it was going to be the world's busiest bar. And

1257
01:45:08.079 --> 01:45:10.760
I've never I don't think I could ever work anywhere

1258
01:45:10.800 --> 01:45:14.039
with a bar that busy. And I've been in bars.

1259
01:45:14.600 --> 01:45:20.880
These these were like thousands of people, you know, in

1260
01:45:20.920 --> 01:45:26.880
this massive, massive hall venue. There was like three bars

1261
01:45:27.880 --> 01:45:33.800
and the show it was a show on and there

1262
01:45:33.880 --> 01:45:38.000
was hundreds of tables, and there's people, families, and there

1263
01:45:38.039 --> 01:45:42.039
was literally it was non stop from the beginning of

1264
01:45:42.079 --> 01:45:45.600
the evening to the end. There was never The only

1265
01:45:45.640 --> 01:45:47.000
breaks we got is when we were allowed to have

1266
01:45:47.079 --> 01:45:50.279
a break. There was no standing around, no waiting. It

1267
01:45:50.399 --> 01:45:53.680
was constant. I mean, the amount of money that would

1268
01:45:53.680 --> 01:46:01.880
have taken would have been huge. So I I said, okay,

1269
01:46:02.520 --> 01:46:06.439
I really I probably should have been better off going

1270
01:46:06.520 --> 01:46:11.640
and doing the cleaning becoming like cleaning the chalets. But

1271
01:46:11.880 --> 01:46:16.319
had a little no I had I wait a minute,

1272
01:46:17.239 --> 01:46:19.960
this is two thousand and five, Yes, I had. I'd

1273
01:46:19.960 --> 01:46:25.199
had a little test of doing that. In nineteen eighty

1274
01:46:25.359 --> 01:46:30.520
nine I cleaned caravans for a little while and it

1275
01:46:30.600 --> 01:46:32.640
was kind of the same process you know, you've got

1276
01:46:32.640 --> 01:46:35.359
a limited to time to do it, and you've got

1277
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:40.159
to it's got to be kind of perfect, and it's

1278
01:46:40.319 --> 01:46:43.479
very hard work. You know, if you ever go anywhere

1279
01:46:43.520 --> 01:46:50.199
that has a chalet or a caravan. I don't know

1280
01:46:50.199 --> 01:46:51.880
what I was I was going to sort of say,

1281
01:46:51.960 --> 01:46:53.840
just think about the people that have to clean it.

1282
01:46:55.000 --> 01:46:58.159
I'm not sure where I'm going with that, but it's hard.

1283
01:46:58.239 --> 01:47:01.920
It's really hard. It's not easy to very difficult job.

1284
01:47:02.880 --> 01:47:08.800
It kind of put me off. Ah, I just had

1285
01:47:08.800 --> 01:47:12.079
an interruption there. There's bark dogs barking, so it sounded

1286
01:47:12.119 --> 01:47:14.520
like someone was knocking on the door, but they wasn't.

1287
01:47:16.079 --> 01:47:19.960
And I can't remember what I was talking about, but yeah,

1288
01:47:20.720 --> 01:47:24.279
that's kind of how I was saying about buttlings and

1289
01:47:24.439 --> 01:47:32.720
caravans or something. I It's almost like I've got things

1290
01:47:32.800 --> 01:47:48.720
mapped in my brain. And yeah, because things would changing

1291
01:47:48.840 --> 01:47:54.279
so often back then, I've kind of compartmentalized them into

1292
01:47:54.439 --> 01:47:58.600
like little little flags or little arrows to different bits.

1293
01:47:58.640 --> 01:48:03.920
You know. Since I've been living here, this is probably

1294
01:48:03.920 --> 01:48:10.199
the most the most stable. Maybe not emotionally, but it's

1295
01:48:10.159 --> 01:48:13.960
the most It's the first place I've ever lived for

1296
01:48:14.000 --> 01:48:18.880
ten years, never lived in the same building or the

1297
01:48:18.960 --> 01:48:22.960
same premises for ten years ever in my life. So

1298
01:48:23.079 --> 01:48:28.479
this is the first, which means some of the stuff

1299
01:48:28.520 --> 01:48:32.880
the last ten years has become very muddled, a little bit,

1300
01:48:32.920 --> 01:48:39.239
a bit mixed together. So I haven't had that separation that,

1301
01:48:39.840 --> 01:48:46.319
you know, because I remember, like two thousand and fifteen

1302
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:52.319
when I moved in it. I remember that period, and

1303
01:48:52.399 --> 01:48:54.479
I remember I broke my wrists falling out of the bath,

1304
01:48:54.560 --> 01:48:56.920
and there was a few you know. I remember the

1305
01:48:56.920 --> 01:49:00.479
first night I slept in the bedroom, all I had

1306
01:49:00.520 --> 01:49:06.199
was a bed. I had no All I had when

1307
01:49:06.199 --> 01:49:12.119
I moved here was a bed and a bag of

1308
01:49:12.199 --> 01:49:16.880
clothes and a chair. That was it. That was pretty

1309
01:49:16.920 --> 01:49:25.760
much my entire belongings really, which was a bit weird

1310
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:29.680
at age forty five. Well I was forty four at

1311
01:49:29.680 --> 01:49:33.560
the time, forty four, so like, it's not a lot

1312
01:49:33.600 --> 01:49:38.640
of belonging, did it. But I had to check a

1313
01:49:38.640 --> 01:49:42.920
lot of stuff out from the place, including clothes because

1314
01:49:43.119 --> 01:49:46.720
it was moldy, so I had it was just horrible

1315
01:49:46.720 --> 01:49:49.239
when the place I lived before this, A lot of

1316
01:49:49.239 --> 01:49:52.319
stuff I'd had to check out and other stuff I

1317
01:49:52.359 --> 01:49:53.840
just didn't want to bring with me. I wanted to

1318
01:49:54.000 --> 01:50:00.800
like a fresh start I brought a goldfish. Definitely put

1319
01:50:00.840 --> 01:50:07.399
the goldfish. Unfortunately, they yeah, they didn't, so they didn't

1320
01:50:07.439 --> 01:50:11.560
survive the journey. They did survive the journey, but they yeah,

1321
01:50:11.800 --> 01:50:16.039
that's just sad. I promised them to get them a big,

1322
01:50:16.960 --> 01:50:20.600
big bowl, like a proper big tank. I didn't stick

1323
01:50:20.600 --> 01:50:29.600
to that promise. And they needed they needed a tank

1324
01:50:31.159 --> 01:50:34.760
because those gold those goldfish bowls, you know, the plastic ones.

1325
01:50:35.039 --> 01:50:42.680
They're okay, but not enough room for fifty goldfish. I

1326
01:50:42.720 --> 01:50:46.680
didn't really have fifty goldfish, come on. So, yeah, I

1327
01:50:46.760 --> 01:50:50.359
just remember certain things. I remember certain years when I

1328
01:50:50.359 --> 01:50:53.960
fractured my back. I remember when that happened. That was

1329
01:50:54.079 --> 01:51:00.640
the literally a week after got Vinnie. I remember the

1330
01:51:00.640 --> 01:51:06.479
month that, you know. I remember certain things, certain times

1331
01:51:06.560 --> 01:51:16.800
where big things happen, which I'm sure most people do also,

1332
01:51:16.840 --> 01:51:20.279
I suppose because I've got dates on my podcasts, I

1333
01:51:20.319 --> 01:51:24.319
can sometimes go back and some of the images and

1334
01:51:24.359 --> 01:51:30.399
some are like just to remind myself, Oh, you know,

1335
01:51:30.439 --> 01:51:33.079
if I what's the first date I did the first

1336
01:51:33.119 --> 01:51:34.640
time I did and let me boy to sleep, what

1337
01:51:34.680 --> 01:51:36.760
was the very first date? And I can go back

1338
01:51:36.800 --> 01:51:40.000
and find that date. It was I think March twenty eighteen,

1339
01:51:40.760 --> 01:51:45.560
so it was like, okay, which it is crazy. Really,

1340
01:51:48.000 --> 01:51:50.359
three years, I'll be ten years doing to let Me

1341
01:51:50.399 --> 01:51:54.439
Boy to Sleep. Next year it'll be twenty years of

1342
01:51:54.479 --> 01:52:02.119
making podcasts and videos online. Twenty years. You think i'd

1343
01:52:02.119 --> 01:52:05.680
have an audience by now, wudn't you by keep going

1344
01:52:06.439 --> 01:52:10.600
or keep at it? So anyway, thanks Sean. I hope

1345
01:52:10.600 --> 01:52:13.960
I've answered these questions. It's been two hours so far,

1346
01:52:14.800 --> 01:52:21.000
so Jackie says, Tammy. I agree. I love that Jason

1347
01:52:21.079 --> 01:52:23.920
is so candid with his thoughts, and I love his awareness,

1348
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:29.199
his inherent kindness. Oh, thank you. Let's not got too crazy.

1349
01:52:29.239 --> 01:52:32.039
This is not a cult. Oh carry on. You can

1350
01:52:32.079 --> 01:52:34.920
say nice things. There's never a trust me. I never

1351
01:52:34.960 --> 01:52:37.800
get bored of hearing nice things said about me. That's

1352
01:52:37.800 --> 01:52:39.800
the one thing I will never get bored of. That

1353
01:52:41.159 --> 01:52:44.000
if you send me nice words saying how I'm helping you,

1354
01:52:44.319 --> 01:52:47.479
and not once have I ever seen a message and

1355
01:52:47.560 --> 01:52:52.319
thought I'll shut up. I'll not you against being nice. No,

1356
01:52:53.640 --> 01:52:57.920
I can't get enough of that. Honestly, it probably says

1357
01:52:57.920 --> 01:53:03.840
something about my need for acceptance, possibly, but yeah, it's

1358
01:53:03.880 --> 01:53:10.520
not it's nice to feel appreciated. I think I don't

1359
01:53:10.520 --> 01:53:16.760
feel appreciated in real life. So it's nice that. I mean,

1360
01:53:16.760 --> 01:53:20.000
I know this is real life, but technically it's kind

1361
01:53:20.000 --> 01:53:28.560
of I suppose it'd be a little bit like beyond

1362
01:53:28.600 --> 01:53:33.560
a radio, wouldn't it like being a radio presenter, which

1363
01:53:33.640 --> 01:53:36.640
is possibly what I should have done. Maybe that was

1364
01:53:36.760 --> 01:53:42.720
my calling to be a radio presenter, just chatting over

1365
01:53:42.880 --> 01:53:47.039
these years. I could have done that, and maybe maybe

1366
01:53:47.399 --> 01:53:51.239
I still could. I don't know. I don't know. It

1367
01:53:51.399 --> 01:53:54.039
might not be, it might be too late. Maybe this

1368
01:53:54.159 --> 01:53:57.159
is kind of my version. This is the this today's

1369
01:53:57.199 --> 01:54:02.439
version of a radio show. Maybe don't know about you,

1370
01:54:02.520 --> 01:54:04.439
but if he's not discussing himself or his day to

1371
01:54:04.520 --> 01:54:09.880
day impressions, I get bored, Oh so bored, and being

1372
01:54:09.960 --> 01:54:13.239
that bored is not conducive to sleeping. What do you

1373
01:54:13.319 --> 01:54:17.319
think about that? What do you think about that? Then?

1374
01:54:17.439 --> 01:54:18.359
What do you think about that?

1375
01:54:18.560 --> 01:54:19.279
Hey?

1376
01:54:20.640 --> 01:54:23.399
Hey, JJ, if you see this, why do you think

1377
01:54:23.439 --> 01:54:26.119
this is? Yep? I'm going to have to post this

1378
01:54:26.199 --> 01:54:29.079
in your next Q and A. I hope I can

1379
01:54:29.199 --> 01:54:35.520
keep up. Actually I posted it. I posted that. I

1380
01:54:35.920 --> 01:54:41.239
realized I posted that into the Q and A. Any

1381
01:54:41.319 --> 01:54:43.960
questions for this Friday? I do I will do that

1382
01:54:44.000 --> 01:54:45.960
if I see a thing that's kind of asking a

1383
01:54:46.039 --> 01:54:50.520
question somewhere else, I'll post it. Otherwise I forget if

1384
01:54:50.520 --> 01:54:59.199
it's sort of somewhere else. Well, I don't know. It's

1385
01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:02.399
we're all different, we're all like different things. I mean,

1386
01:55:02.600 --> 01:55:07.079
some people would find it really good just to hear

1387
01:55:07.119 --> 01:55:10.439
me counting down. So it's like countdown from one thousand,

1388
01:55:11.920 --> 01:55:22.840
like thousand, nine hundred and ninety nine, nine hundred and

1389
01:55:22.960 --> 01:55:30.600
ninety eight. I think there's a few of you thinking, well,

1390
01:55:30.720 --> 01:55:34.560
not now, but like, is he going to continue? How

1391
01:55:34.600 --> 01:55:37.479
long is he going to continue for? Is he just

1392
01:55:37.600 --> 01:55:42.680
going to go down to maybe nine hundred and ninety

1393
01:55:44.159 --> 01:55:48.079
or to keep going, keep pushing it and go all

1394
01:55:48.159 --> 01:55:51.119
the way down, all the way down to one, which

1395
01:55:51.159 --> 01:55:55.159
will take probably two hours. But no, I'm not going

1396
01:55:55.239 --> 01:55:57.159
to do that. But some people would like that. Some

1397
01:55:57.319 --> 01:56:03.039
people would find that useful, and different people like different things.

1398
01:56:04.720 --> 01:56:10.880
I do realize that the problem we've talked about myself

1399
01:56:11.119 --> 01:56:14.600
is well, I have no problem talk about myself. I

1400
01:56:14.720 --> 01:56:18.680
love it. But when it's about my day to day life,

1401
01:56:20.920 --> 01:56:24.159
it's not always easier to do because there's nothing going

1402
01:56:24.239 --> 01:56:30.680
on a lot of time. So like with the Q

1403
01:56:30.760 --> 01:56:32.439
and a Friday, it makes it a little bit easier

1404
01:56:32.479 --> 01:56:38.359
because I've got something to talk about, and I'll still

1405
01:56:38.439 --> 01:56:40.439
manage to talk about my day to day life as

1406
01:56:40.479 --> 01:56:45.479
well during this, but there's not a huge amount going

1407
01:56:45.600 --> 01:56:51.720
on at the moment, and I do try and keep

1408
01:56:51.880 --> 01:56:57.439
things positive. So if this things something's there's things that

1409
01:56:57.520 --> 01:57:00.680
aren't so great going on, I don't like to really

1410
01:57:00.760 --> 01:57:03.840
talk about that stuff because I like to think that

1411
01:57:03.920 --> 01:57:10.800
this is a fairly I don't know, just a nice

1412
01:57:11.840 --> 01:57:14.960
a nice space. I mean, not everything I say is

1413
01:57:15.039 --> 01:57:17.399
going to be like super positive, but I try to

1414
01:57:18.039 --> 01:57:30.319
keep it light. Being bored, yeah, I think I don't

1415
01:57:30.359 --> 01:57:33.960
know why that is, why being bored doesn't send you

1416
01:57:34.039 --> 01:57:39.079
to sleep. I'm not sure well that that type of boring.

1417
01:57:42.520 --> 01:57:44.680
We're all different. I think that's just what it is.

1418
01:57:46.479 --> 01:57:51.000
There's going to be some people who've listened to my

1419
01:57:51.119 --> 01:57:58.439
recordings and think, like we're just just talking. What's the

1420
01:57:58.560 --> 01:58:03.840
point in this? Yet they may like the sleep hypnosis

1421
01:58:03.920 --> 01:58:10.680
recordings I do. And some people absolutely can't stand the

1422
01:58:10.760 --> 01:58:16.479
whisper stuff, and other people prefer the whisper stuff. Some

1423
01:58:16.600 --> 01:58:19.199
people really there's a few people that really like the

1424
01:58:20.079 --> 01:58:25.960
the boring, the was it bedtime, storytime, things that I've done.

1425
01:58:30.960 --> 01:58:34.119
It's just everyone's different than they. Some people like the

1426
01:58:35.279 --> 01:58:39.039
I've had quite a bit of positive a lot, and

1427
01:58:39.119 --> 01:58:43.039
I a fair amount of positive feedback for the let

1428
01:58:43.159 --> 01:58:48.560
Me Bore Your Pain Away. That was kind of a

1429
01:58:48.640 --> 01:58:51.359
bit of a passion project. To be fair, I haven't

1430
01:58:51.399 --> 01:58:56.399
done any this week. I haven't felt it. I just haven't,

1431
01:58:57.039 --> 01:59:01.000
haven't it. I mean, when to do a recording? I

1432
01:59:01.079 --> 01:59:06.359
said on Wednesday and I'm just looking just there's no words.

1433
01:59:07.239 --> 01:59:09.520
There was words, but they weren't words I wanted to say.

1434
01:59:10.560 --> 01:59:16.439
I just wasn't in the mood. So when I'm like that,

1435
01:59:16.720 --> 01:59:20.119
there's no point me making a recording because I'm never

1436
01:59:20.199 --> 01:59:22.600
going to force myself to do it because otherwise, if

1437
01:59:22.640 --> 01:59:26.800
I'm not enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I

1438
01:59:26.880 --> 01:59:32.600
think that's going to come across. I think. I don't know,

1439
01:59:32.800 --> 01:59:41.279
maybe not. So you won't have to post this to

1440
01:59:41.319 --> 01:59:45.399
the next Q and A because you we've done it today.

1441
01:59:46.520 --> 01:59:49.000
So I don't really know what the answer is. We're

1442
01:59:49.000 --> 01:59:53.000
all different. We all just like different things. I did

1443
01:59:53.119 --> 01:59:57.119
do a survey ages ago, like a little questionnaire what

1444
01:59:57.279 --> 02:00:01.560
do you prefer? And it was different but different people.

1445
02:00:02.680 --> 02:00:07.760
No one there was no real I suppose to let

1446
02:00:07.800 --> 02:00:12.000
Me Boy to Sleep was the unanimous one, because I

1447
02:00:12.399 --> 02:00:16.760
think that I think that the majority of people that

1448
02:00:16.960 --> 02:00:20.359
come to this group like have come through the let

1449
02:00:20.439 --> 02:00:24.119
Me Boy to Sleep, not necessarily through the chronic pain

1450
02:00:24.319 --> 02:00:27.920
or this, or through the stress and pain relief, or

1451
02:00:28.039 --> 02:00:31.680
through the stop smoking or whatever other ones I've done.

1452
02:00:31.680 --> 02:00:37.119
Because I've done lots of different podcasts, thousands of recordings.

1453
02:00:37.159 --> 02:00:47.760
I've done thousands. It's ridiculous, really, So you yeah, I'd

1454
02:00:47.960 --> 02:00:52.600
like to get that feedback. I'd like to just it'd

1455
02:00:52.640 --> 02:00:56.199
be nice if if there was a way of just

1456
02:00:58.199 --> 02:01:03.640
finding out what everyone likes. But then the problem with

1457
02:01:03.720 --> 02:01:10.600
that is if I start to try and change what

1458
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:15.880
I'm doing to suit every individual request or need, I

1459
02:01:15.960 --> 02:01:21.399
will be then micromanaging myself, and then I wouldn't want

1460
02:01:21.399 --> 02:01:25.840
to do it anymore. I've been micromanaged before, and it's horrible.

1461
02:01:26.479 --> 02:01:31.560
It's like just constantly like, no, do like that, do it?

1462
02:01:33.520 --> 02:01:37.239
You're doing this, You're doing that. It's no. There needs

1463
02:01:37.279 --> 02:01:44.279
to be freedom there, and I don't want to do

1464
02:01:44.439 --> 02:01:51.479
something that I don't like doing. So you know, there

1465
02:01:51.600 --> 02:01:56.479
was a podcast that I did in I think it

1466
02:01:56.600 --> 02:02:03.600
was during kind of lockdown period, okay, and it was

1467
02:02:06.560 --> 02:02:09.760
what was it called relaxation for stress and panic attacks.

1468
02:02:11.359 --> 02:02:14.239
I did a lot of recordings. I lived every day

1469
02:02:14.319 --> 02:02:18.760
I was doing them, and I ended up doing I've

1470
02:02:18.800 --> 02:02:23.079
now got two hundred and thirty nine, and there's a

1471
02:02:23.119 --> 02:02:26.840
few recent years that most of them, like two hundred

1472
02:02:26.880 --> 02:02:31.079
and twenty three, two hundred and twenty nine, two hundred

1473
02:02:31.119 --> 02:02:34.840
and thirty, two hundred. Okay, So two hundred and thirty

1474
02:02:35.000 --> 02:02:40.760
was seventh of May twenty twenty one. Okay, let's have

1475
02:02:40.800 --> 02:02:44.399
a look at where number one was. So May twenty

1476
02:02:44.560 --> 02:02:52.920
twenty one, so I started, okay, right, I started it

1477
02:02:52.960 --> 02:02:58.840
a long time before that, so yeah, probably about too

1478
02:03:00.119 --> 02:03:07.119
two thousand and fifteen. But but I didn't really start

1479
02:03:07.199 --> 02:03:10.920
getting into it UNTI about twenty nineteen. So I did

1480
02:03:11.039 --> 02:03:15.880
number fifty six, fifty four, fifty three in twenty nineteen,

1481
02:03:16.840 --> 02:03:19.359
all the way up to I'm reading this off the scream,

1482
02:03:19.479 --> 02:03:21.359
just in case you think that I'm remembering it all.

1483
02:03:22.960 --> 02:03:28.159
And but that was October September, October December. But then

1484
02:03:28.399 --> 02:03:37.399
number seventy in twenty twenty, so seventy and we know,

1485
02:03:37.520 --> 02:03:41.319
you know what happened in twenty twenty, So number seventy

1486
02:03:42.039 --> 02:03:48.399
all the way up to I mean, honestly, BlimE me

1487
02:03:54.439 --> 02:04:02.039
a lot. I did a lot so twoenty twenty two thousand,

1488
02:04:05.000 --> 02:04:08.840
right twenty ninth of December twenty twenty, from number seventy

1489
02:04:08.920 --> 02:04:12.640
to two hundred and eighteen seventy to two hundred and eighteen.

1490
02:04:13.840 --> 02:04:18.680
And it was so regular as well. It was quite regular,

1491
02:04:21.560 --> 02:04:24.680
and I was doing just I had this little microphone,

1492
02:04:24.760 --> 02:04:28.560
lapel microphone, and I was making recordings while I was pacing,

1493
02:04:29.159 --> 02:04:31.479
not pacing in it like a weird way, but just

1494
02:04:32.079 --> 02:04:35.479
walking around. And I was I was quite energetic. I

1495
02:04:35.600 --> 02:04:37.840
was getting quite passionate about what I was talking about.

1496
02:04:38.920 --> 02:04:45.960
So there's a ninth of January, twelfth of January, thirteenth, fourteenth, fifteenth, seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth,

1497
02:04:46.520 --> 02:04:50.640
twenty fourth, twenty fifth, twenty sixth, twenty seven, twenty eight,

1498
02:04:50.800 --> 02:04:57.039
twenty nine, thirty thirty, first of January, like nearly, it's

1499
02:04:57.159 --> 02:05:10.640
like wow. And in February the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen,

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02:05:10.800 --> 02:05:17.560
twenty one, twenty four, twenty six, twenty seventh February. So

1501
02:05:18.159 --> 02:05:25.439
you know, I'm quite regularly doing his recordings and after

1502
02:05:25.479 --> 02:05:29.439
a certain time, I started giving them names. Instead of

1503
02:05:29.600 --> 02:05:36.399
just a number, I started giving them. Yeah, the first one,

1504
02:05:37.319 --> 02:05:40.239
number eighty, I gave it a name to Smiley Mirror

1505
02:05:41.720 --> 02:05:48.079
twenty sixth of January twenty twenty, and then meaning purpose

1506
02:05:51.880 --> 02:05:56.960
was the next one, web page ball or sock Silly

1507
02:05:57.079 --> 02:06:01.520
song that was a good one, actually silly song thirty

1508
02:06:01.560 --> 02:06:06.520
for January twenty twenty. I don't know. I thought it

1509
02:06:06.560 --> 02:06:10.000
was funny self worth and not me saying it, but

1510
02:06:10.119 --> 02:06:12.199
I think the actual podcast, do you The recording is

1511
02:06:12.279 --> 02:06:18.199
quite a good recording if I remember rightly, it is

1512
02:06:18.279 --> 02:06:22.960
over five years ago. Then you got self worth, gratitude,

1513
02:06:23.119 --> 02:06:30.720
drip focusing, bath floater. Oh I like some of these titles.

1514
02:06:31.880 --> 02:06:37.199
I'm not sure if I yeah, it's anyone's guess what

1515
02:06:37.319 --> 02:06:42.680
I was talking about. Magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness, Is it

1516
02:06:42.840 --> 02:06:56.600
true You're not broken? Relaxation sessions, reassuring letter, self sabotage, relapse, noise, sensitivity, question,

1517
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:05.279
automatic thinking, evict self, prejude, just blimey, hash be kind free, anxiety,

1518
02:07:06.479 --> 02:07:13.039
brain plasticity. That was January February twenty twenty. Send healing,

1519
02:07:13.520 --> 02:07:17.239
don't feel guilty for being ill, Give attention, to mini me.

1520
02:07:18.279 --> 02:07:23.479
Stress and anxiety are natural germs. That's one about germs.

1521
02:07:23.520 --> 02:07:26.720
That was twenty twenty March. I wonder what made me

1522
02:07:26.800 --> 02:07:35.520
think about that? M I wonder so this. I was

1523
02:07:35.600 --> 02:07:42.479
doing this at the beginning of the year. Just something

1524
02:07:42.560 --> 02:07:45.079
kicked in and I was like nearly every day making

1525
02:07:45.159 --> 02:07:47.119
a new one. And they would lasted for like forty

1526
02:07:47.159 --> 02:07:50.000
fifty minutes, some of them, some of them like twenty minutes.

1527
02:07:50.079 --> 02:08:00.399
But yeah, never give up. Remember this is ten Prairie.

1528
02:08:01.399 --> 02:08:08.359
It's been emotional. That's an hour and six minutes. A safe, positive, healing, relaxation.

1529
02:08:09.479 --> 02:08:15.159
How are you today? Relaxed hands equals relaxed brain, feel safe,

1530
02:08:15.199 --> 02:08:24.399
feel comfort, feel relaxed, and reduce anxiety level. Compassion reduces stress.

1531
02:08:26.039 --> 02:08:32.000
Funny memory, intrusive thoughts such as thoughts we are born

1532
02:08:32.159 --> 02:08:41.479
positive blind me taping fingertips no mass. I like that one,

1533
02:08:42.119 --> 02:08:44.880
but I'm kind of talking about boxing, but it's still relevant.

1534
02:08:45.439 --> 02:08:49.199
See these are amongst my favorite recordings I've ever made.

1535
02:08:50.960 --> 02:08:58.720
Chained Elephant, vice, gript positive Butterflies. You can choose what

1536
02:08:58.840 --> 02:09:04.840
you think about, bubble fark confidence. I can't know my

1537
02:09:05.000 --> 02:09:12.560
dear ringo tension release. Okay, I got no of that

1538
02:09:13.279 --> 02:09:20.479
groovy relax or sleep session TV remote, amazing loved and

1539
02:09:20.680 --> 02:09:27.640
deeply relaxed. Stress licking ferret. That's about andre so stress

1540
02:09:27.760 --> 02:09:38.520
versus love. Focus on feeling relaxed, relax sleep neurons lighting

1541
02:09:38.640 --> 02:09:45.199
up okay. Buckets of healing relaxing, No bucket of relaxing

1542
02:09:45.279 --> 02:09:54.039
healing you in the mirror, stress sucking helmet. Some of

1543
02:09:54.119 --> 02:09:59.920
these names are a bit weird. Letting stress know it's

1544
02:10:00.119 --> 02:10:11.079
not a prisoner. Dissolving the rust of anxiety. I don't

1545
02:10:11.079 --> 02:10:12.680
know what was going on in my brain at the time,

1546
02:10:12.760 --> 02:10:16.920
but it seems to be quite active. Removing stress batteries,

1547
02:10:21.560 --> 02:10:31.640
hand squeeze, stress relief technique, blind sports, recording yourself. I've

1548
02:10:31.680 --> 02:10:44.279
got no idea what that was. You are going to

1549
02:10:44.359 --> 02:10:49.960
be okay. Reduce stress when thinking of someone you dislike

1550
02:10:51.800 --> 02:10:57.880
You've got a balloon. Anxiety reduction technique. Overcome hurdle too

1551
02:10:57.960 --> 02:11:06.720
big to swallow. Choose relaxation bubble or sleep bubble. Say

1552
02:11:06.840 --> 02:11:19.279
nice things to yourself whilst walking ah negativity fumigation, questioning

1553
02:11:19.399 --> 02:11:25.279
your worries. There's some I quite like these these titles

1554
02:11:25.359 --> 02:11:29.119
from five years ago. What this is now like four

1555
02:11:29.159 --> 02:11:30.600
and a half years ago, it's near the end of

1556
02:11:30.680 --> 02:11:41.960
twenty twenty. Natural born positivity, burping your anxiety war not

1557
02:11:42.079 --> 02:11:49.119
taking yourself too seriously when you're feeling agitated, positivity trigger

1558
02:11:51.159 --> 02:11:54.000
you were born able to relax and sleep naturally, which

1559
02:11:54.039 --> 02:12:02.960
is true. Put trust in your brain to relax or

1560
02:12:03.119 --> 02:12:15.199
sleep during noise, support networks and asking for help, making

1561
02:12:15.319 --> 02:12:26.359
friends with yourself, victim mentality, emotional abuse, never again, and

1562
02:12:26.640 --> 02:12:32.560
caring for carers. Okay, that was a really long one.

1563
02:12:32.640 --> 02:12:36.319
So I've got no idea. What kind of sounds like?

1564
02:12:36.439 --> 02:12:45.439
Quite a heavy one. The power of breathing. Okay, so

1565
02:12:45.520 --> 02:12:49.760
I'm talking about bereaveing. I don't know why, make friends

1566
02:12:49.800 --> 02:12:56.640
with your stress, hot water bottles, stress relief technique, pouring healing,

1567
02:12:56.720 --> 02:13:02.880
relaxation and safety into your brain, taping scalp to relax,

1568
02:13:03.199 --> 02:13:19.479
brain rehearsing feeling Okay, ah, listen to my boring voice

1569
02:13:21.119 --> 02:13:31.159
Superman re energizing. Right. There's quite a few, isn't it

1570
02:13:36.319 --> 02:13:38.680
Kettle anger release. I quite like that one, and so

1571
02:13:38.800 --> 02:13:42.159
it's only a short one, but it's quite good holding

1572
02:13:42.359 --> 02:13:47.479
safe hands and there's a quantum memory shift. There's another

1573
02:13:47.520 --> 02:13:51.680
one that's a bit more that's me trying to be advanced.

1574
02:13:52.760 --> 02:13:53.560
It didn't work.

1575
02:13:54.399 --> 02:13:54.880
Maybe it did.

1576
02:13:54.920 --> 02:13:55.319
I don't know.

1577
02:13:57.039 --> 02:14:00.000
Hi, Jason from Cindy. You recently shared a story about

1578
02:14:00.119 --> 02:14:03.319
your grandfather has told you by your Nan. Are there

1579
02:14:03.319 --> 02:14:19.239
any other NaN's stories you can share. I'm trying to think.

1580
02:14:24.600 --> 02:14:27.680
I mean we used to talk about I mean, this

1581
02:14:28.119 --> 02:14:34.680
story is about her. She was really good swimmer. But

1582
02:14:34.760 --> 02:14:37.800
I feel like NaN's stories that she told me she

1583
02:14:37.960 --> 02:14:41.720
told me about in our family. She told me about

1584
02:14:41.800 --> 02:14:47.960
her parents. She told me. I got a lot of

1585
02:14:48.039 --> 02:14:53.239
information about my very very young childhood from her because

1586
02:14:53.319 --> 02:14:55.319
no one else would talk about it, but she would.

1587
02:14:56.119 --> 02:14:58.520
So she told me she had pictures of me when

1588
02:14:58.600 --> 02:15:09.439
I was a baby, and there was I think I

1589
02:15:09.520 --> 02:15:20.720
had blonde hair back then. Yeah, I'm just trying to think.

1590
02:15:23.199 --> 02:15:23.520
It was.

1591
02:15:27.680 --> 02:15:29.399
I'll get back to you on that one. I might.

1592
02:15:29.680 --> 02:15:31.840
I'm just trying to think. Can't, off the top of

1593
02:15:31.920 --> 02:15:42.000
my head any particular stories that she told me. I

1594
02:15:42.079 --> 02:15:44.920
can't believe it's been over ten years since I last

1595
02:15:44.920 --> 02:15:55.000
spoke to her. She used to Yeah, she'd talk about stuff,

1596
02:15:55.079 --> 02:15:59.439
but a lot of things that would talk about would

1597
02:15:59.439 --> 02:16:03.520
be about what going on now. We didn't really focus

1598
02:16:04.079 --> 02:16:07.319
too much on the past. But when she did, she

1599
02:16:07.479 --> 02:16:11.640
talk about like how she remembers some of the stuff

1600
02:16:11.720 --> 02:16:14.520
that happened. I mean, there was one she said that

1601
02:16:14.800 --> 02:16:22.199
my dad, my biological mother, had moved out of her

1602
02:16:22.319 --> 02:16:25.199
house and bettered in mind. Both my dad and her

1603
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:29.560
were very young, and it was before they got married.

1604
02:16:29.640 --> 02:16:32.719
And they got married in what's sixty five I think,

1605
02:16:34.239 --> 02:16:36.680
which was five years before I got where I was born,

1606
02:16:37.399 --> 02:16:39.559
and my dad was twenty six when I was born,

1607
02:16:41.079 --> 02:16:45.559
so he would have got married at twenty one. They

1608
02:16:45.600 --> 02:16:48.319
were dating before that, and he was living at home

1609
02:16:51.879 --> 02:16:56.680
and my dad was at work. I think he was

1610
02:16:56.680 --> 02:16:59.879
an apprentice at the time, see less school than when

1611
02:17:00.000 --> 02:17:09.479
an apprenticeship. And it's not funny really, but my other

1612
02:17:09.559 --> 02:17:12.360
biological grandfather, the one that I never met because he

1613
02:17:12.479 --> 02:17:18.520
passed away quite early before I was born, I think,

1614
02:17:20.520 --> 02:17:26.000
so basically, and apparently he was just a huge man. Huge.

1615
02:17:26.719 --> 02:17:30.360
My granddad wasn't huge, but it was. It wasn't he

1616
02:17:30.479 --> 02:17:32.840
is what. He was very slim, and but this bloke

1617
02:17:33.040 --> 02:17:35.799
was just, you know, apparently according to my name, he

1618
02:17:35.879 --> 02:17:41.479
was massive and he just shadowed my grand he'd like,

1619
02:17:41.639 --> 02:17:45.040
really just my name was worried for my granddad, my

1620
02:17:45.159 --> 02:17:50.799
other granddad that her husband or other well, what happened

1621
02:17:50.840 --> 02:17:54.200
next is so he knocks on the door, where's my door?

1622
02:17:56.600 --> 02:18:00.840
So I don't know. So they didn't know she was

1623
02:18:00.920 --> 02:18:05.079
in the house. So she was in the bedroom upstairs.

1624
02:18:06.399 --> 02:18:09.719
What they didn't know, both my nan and my granddad

1625
02:18:10.200 --> 02:18:14.840
because my granddad was retired at this point. Was he retired,

1626
02:18:15.000 --> 02:18:18.399
I don't know, Yeah, he was retired. He was retired

1627
02:18:18.440 --> 02:18:27.920
at this point. He didn't know that she was upstairs.

1628
02:18:28.000 --> 02:18:32.159
Not only was she upstairs, she'd moved out of her

1629
02:18:32.239 --> 02:18:36.319
family home. She took us stuff and moved out into

1630
02:18:36.399 --> 02:18:40.559
my nan and granddad's. They didn't even know. So he's

1631
02:18:40.639 --> 02:18:42.319
knock on the doorstair walk my daughter, I want to

1632
02:18:42.479 --> 02:18:46.440
bring her back, so they my name because she was

1633
02:18:46.440 --> 02:18:48.680
always around the house because she was my dad's girlfriend

1634
02:18:49.959 --> 02:18:52.200
or fiance or whatever. So I don't know. But so

1635
02:18:54.840 --> 02:18:57.159
my nan did say that she was worried for my granddad,

1636
02:18:58.440 --> 02:19:01.360
like her I keep saying, because they were both my granddads.

1637
02:19:01.520 --> 02:19:05.520
But she was worried for her husband and my granddad Newland.

1638
02:19:06.520 --> 02:19:09.479
She was worried for him because he was tiny compared

1639
02:19:09.479 --> 02:19:16.479
to this bloke, the other granddad. So but I think, well,

1640
02:19:17.440 --> 02:19:21.280
I came my grandad would have been sixty then, so

1641
02:19:21.440 --> 02:19:27.280
this this would have been no, he'd have been fifty.

1642
02:19:27.319 --> 02:19:28.760
He would have still been at work, so it'd have

1643
02:19:28.760 --> 02:19:33.159
been about fifty five. Even think he retired in nineteen

1644
02:19:33.280 --> 02:19:37.120
seventy when he was sixty. I think you could retire

1645
02:19:37.159 --> 02:19:46.440
at sixty back then, and then he I think, so,

1646
02:19:46.639 --> 02:19:52.040
I'm not one hundred percent sure, but anyway, and I

1647
02:19:52.079 --> 02:19:54.200
don't know what I'm thinking. My granddad was a boxer

1648
02:19:55.040 --> 02:19:57.639
in the army. But he was a boxer, he was,

1649
02:19:58.479 --> 02:20:00.920
and at fifty five, which she is nearly as old

1650
02:20:00.920 --> 02:20:03.719
as I am, he would have been a lot, probably more,

1651
02:20:03.879 --> 02:20:06.840
much more fitter than I am, and he would have

1652
02:20:06.879 --> 02:20:11.920
been well able to take care of himself because not

1653
02:20:12.040 --> 02:20:13.879
only was he a boxer, but he's also had been

1654
02:20:13.959 --> 02:20:16.879
in the army. You know, he'd served time in the

1655
02:20:17.000 --> 02:20:22.360
army for I think twelve years as a career, and

1656
02:20:22.559 --> 02:20:24.520
then he was in the army game during the war

1657
02:20:24.600 --> 02:20:28.799
for for six years. So it's you know, done over

1658
02:20:28.879 --> 02:20:36.159
twenty years in the army pretty much nearly so I

1659
02:20:36.239 --> 02:20:39.920
don't know, but apparently, but they didn't come to blows.

1660
02:20:39.959 --> 02:20:41.840
But my name said that she was really worried that

1661
02:20:41.920 --> 02:20:48.479
he was going to he was just like beat up

1662
02:20:48.520 --> 02:20:51.959
my other granddad. But they didn't. Now, I don't know

1663
02:20:52.079 --> 02:20:54.600
how well they got on. I think she was. I

1664
02:20:54.680 --> 02:20:56.840
think he was gone before they even got married, before

1665
02:20:56.879 --> 02:21:01.680
my dad got married to her. But she did tell

1666
02:21:01.719 --> 02:21:05.920
me stuff about my mom, about my biological mum and

1667
02:21:06.120 --> 02:21:11.120
what she did say though, she said she was even

1668
02:21:11.159 --> 02:21:17.000
though she was a problem and just always causing, just

1669
02:21:17.120 --> 02:21:20.840
causing problems, causing. She had a chaotic life back then.

1670
02:21:21.319 --> 02:21:23.360
She might I don't know which she might have a

1671
02:21:23.399 --> 02:21:27.520
really good life now. But she said for all her faults,

1672
02:21:28.159 --> 02:21:31.360
the one thing she had to say is she was funny.

1673
02:21:32.840 --> 02:21:37.959
She made a laugh, She made my nn laugh. And

1674
02:21:39.799 --> 02:21:42.719
that's the one thing that I kind of think, Okay, cool,

1675
02:21:44.040 --> 02:21:50.479
that means something to me, like us good because she, yeah,

1676
02:21:50.639 --> 02:21:54.120
she'd lived a chaotic life, but that's probably because of

1677
02:21:54.200 --> 02:21:59.280
where her background came from. She'd you know, she'd learned

1678
02:21:59.319 --> 02:22:03.239
that and she was whatever you know, wasn't just her

1679
02:22:03.280 --> 02:22:07.799
own decision to be like that. And she also had

1680
02:22:09.319 --> 02:22:14.879
a called to my nan. She was like bipolar or what,

1681
02:22:15.200 --> 02:22:20.840
she had mental health stuff. But she was best friends

1682
02:22:20.879 --> 02:22:25.280
with my auntie. I think my auntie and her went

1683
02:22:25.360 --> 02:22:29.120
to school together. My auntie was probably a couple of

1684
02:22:29.200 --> 02:22:33.200
years younger than my dad, and it's probably how they met,

1685
02:22:33.440 --> 02:22:38.239
Probably how him and my mum met, because she'd be around,

1686
02:22:38.360 --> 02:22:42.479
probably with her sister, and I don't know, they just

1687
02:22:42.719 --> 02:22:53.280
got together, so, you know, even though she left when

1688
02:22:53.360 --> 02:23:00.280
I was six months old, so it's like nineteen seventy one,

1689
02:23:01.879 --> 02:23:05.079
the fact is they've been together quite a while. They

1690
02:23:05.159 --> 02:23:08.319
got married sixty five, so six years, and they were

1691
02:23:08.319 --> 02:23:11.600
probably together a year or two before that, so you know,

1692
02:23:11.680 --> 02:23:14.959
it was it wasn't like a short term and they

1693
02:23:15.040 --> 02:23:18.760
had three kids, so it must have been. It must

1694
02:23:18.799 --> 02:23:23.920
have had a good time at some point. I don't know.

1695
02:23:26.040 --> 02:23:33.159
She's told Why did she tell me? She that's just

1696
02:23:33.239 --> 02:23:39.600
one of the things she's basically, she said that when

1697
02:23:39.680 --> 02:23:41.879
my mom took off, yeah, she used to. She used

1698
02:23:41.879 --> 02:23:45.639
to go into the butchers and the bakers, and they'd

1699
02:23:45.639 --> 02:23:49.639
all be asking her about the money that my mum

1700
02:23:49.719 --> 02:23:53.280
owed them. So apparently she just owed money to everyone.

1701
02:23:54.760 --> 02:23:57.079
That's what my name said. Again, It's like, you know,

1702
02:23:58.040 --> 02:24:00.120
I'm not here to say horrible things about anyone, but

1703
02:24:01.319 --> 02:24:05.479
that's on my name. She's she said like this, she'd

1704
02:24:05.559 --> 02:24:09.120
just be borrowing money off everyone, but she'd make people laugh.

1705
02:24:09.399 --> 02:24:17.799
That she was like just funny, funny person. So yeah,

1706
02:24:17.840 --> 02:24:30.639
I think maybe it's the Maybe that's why I've got bipolar. Maybe,

1707
02:24:30.639 --> 02:24:42.399
and that's where my my brain comes from. I mean, yeah, inherited, well,

1708
02:24:42.399 --> 02:24:46.399
he inherited this brain. But that's it. It's probably have

1709
02:24:46.559 --> 02:24:48.600
this loasure of stuff. But that's one off the top

1710
02:24:48.639 --> 02:24:52.799
of my head. I realized the time's going, it's now

1711
02:24:53.120 --> 02:24:58.920
Lime is six o'clock. Dev asks Hello Jason, Hello all,

1712
02:24:59.000 --> 02:25:01.639
I'm a nubie at this, a chronic pain sufferer, but

1713
02:25:01.760 --> 02:25:05.120
also interested in learning about hypnosis in general, as well

1714
02:25:05.159 --> 02:25:09.120
as applying it to creative writing. I find Jason's podcast

1715
02:25:09.319 --> 02:25:13.000
very effective, actually, but both for pain relief and sleep.

1716
02:25:13.680 --> 02:25:16.639
I'd also like to learn how a writer can place

1717
02:25:16.680 --> 02:25:22.559
itself into a sort of fictional environment and develop a story. Equally,

1718
02:25:22.799 --> 02:25:25.639
I would like to learn about immersing a reader into

1719
02:25:25.719 --> 02:25:29.239
the story. I'm currently struggling with writing a sort of

1720
02:25:29.360 --> 02:25:36.680
ghost story. Thanks and advance. I don't know, so I'm

1721
02:25:36.719 --> 02:25:46.399
not a writer. I suppose to immerse someone into a

1722
02:25:46.600 --> 02:25:59.399
story would be keeping it flowing. Well, then let's be

1723
02:25:59.520 --> 02:26:01.639
teaching how to write. I don't. I don't know how

1724
02:26:01.719 --> 02:26:06.000
to write, but it's my understanding of like writing with

1725
02:26:06.479 --> 02:26:09.920
creative writing is one of the things I've done a

1726
02:26:10.000 --> 02:26:13.959
little bit of books on it and played around of it.

1727
02:26:16.719 --> 02:26:18.840
What I liked about it is there's no right or wrong,

1728
02:26:19.120 --> 02:26:24.159
you know, it's it's art creativity. There's no there is

1729
02:26:24.280 --> 02:26:27.799
no right or wrong. You just see what comes up

1730
02:26:28.479 --> 02:26:35.120
and maybe something really cool or come up a fictional

1731
02:26:35.280 --> 02:26:40.600
environment developer story. I tell you what you could do.

1732
02:26:43.879 --> 02:26:46.200
You could tell the story. You could verbally tell the

1733
02:26:46.280 --> 02:26:52.319
story and see what comes up. Transcribe it. There's loads

1734
02:26:52.360 --> 02:26:58.360
of transcribing places you can get stuff transcribed. Just record

1735
02:26:58.399 --> 02:27:01.559
it on your on your phone hm and then just

1736
02:27:02.399 --> 02:27:07.159
look back at it and maybe start to you could

1737
02:27:07.280 --> 02:27:09.959
like map it out. It's like okay, well, as that's that,

1738
02:27:10.200 --> 02:27:13.399
there's that character. Where would they go? What would they do?

1739
02:27:13.600 --> 02:27:15.040
And you know, I don't know. I mean, it's not

1740
02:27:15.159 --> 02:27:20.639
something that I'm ever going to be doing. Well, if

1741
02:27:20.680 --> 02:27:22.520
I ever wrote a book, it would be kind of

1742
02:27:22.959 --> 02:27:27.399
it'd have to be factual pretty much it made up

1743
02:27:27.559 --> 02:27:38.360
but about me maybe or I'm trying to think there's

1744
02:27:38.399 --> 02:27:46.280
something else I was thought about doing. Yeah, just it'd

1745
02:27:46.360 --> 02:27:49.360
have to be that. That's the way you could do

1746
02:27:49.479 --> 02:27:55.920
it maybe, but as far as hypnosis, I'm not really sure.

1747
02:27:58.600 --> 02:28:01.559
It's something I don't really know about. When it comes

1748
02:28:01.600 --> 02:28:04.479
to writing, I used to write diaries and journals, but

1749
02:28:06.000 --> 02:28:09.920
it was more for me. It's like shouting. Doesn't he

1750
02:28:09.959 --> 02:28:14.159
hear that in the background. It's not a very good answer.

1751
02:28:15.559 --> 02:28:16.920
Let me think about it a bit more. If I

1752
02:28:17.000 --> 02:28:19.239
come up with I think of anything else, I'll mention

1753
02:28:19.280 --> 02:28:22.879
it in the next recording. I might do a little

1754
02:28:22.879 --> 02:28:28.799
bit of research. So thanks everybody, Thank you. Going down

1755
02:28:28.840 --> 02:28:41.239
the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean, Jackie, Cindy

1756
02:28:41.559 --> 02:28:46.920
and Dev It's a marathon, wasn't it. There's a lot

1757
02:28:47.000 --> 02:28:50.120
of I don't know how long I've been talking for.

1758
02:28:50.200 --> 02:28:51.840
It's got to be nearly two and a half hours,

1759
02:28:53.680 --> 02:28:56.280
which means I'm not sure when this is going to

1760
02:28:56.319 --> 02:29:02.239
get edited. I'm literally this on a Saturday afternoon. I

1761
02:29:02.360 --> 02:29:06.079
know it's Friday Q and a Friday, but I was

1762
02:29:06.159 --> 02:29:11.319
got so caught up in building a website. But I

1763
02:29:11.440 --> 02:29:17.280
did start this. I thought I started it at three.

1764
02:29:19.799 --> 02:29:24.159
I definitely started it before four o'clock because I was

1765
02:29:24.159 --> 02:29:26.360
already at two hours last time. I went into a toilet,

1766
02:29:26.440 --> 02:29:32.799
so I had a break. Blimey's now seven minutes past

1767
02:29:33.280 --> 02:29:38.000
six and there's boxing on at seven, so this might

1768
02:29:38.079 --> 02:29:39.959
be one of those Q and A Fridays that come

1769
02:29:40.000 --> 02:29:46.000
out on Sunday morning. I apologize kind of. I'll do

1770
02:29:46.040 --> 02:29:49.879
a little bit, just a little bit, so thank you.

1771
02:29:50.719 --> 02:29:54.159
I just didn't expect to get this many questions. I'm pleased. Thanks,

1772
02:29:54.239 --> 02:29:57.360
But there's been times when I get like two questions

1773
02:29:57.440 --> 02:30:00.680
and I still managed to last that an hour or so.

1774
02:30:04.639 --> 02:30:08.079
So that's it. That is the end of this recording,

1775
02:30:09.920 --> 02:30:12.639
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself,

1776
02:30:12.719 --> 02:30:16.559
because you do deserve to be happy and be gentle

1777
02:30:16.600 --> 02:30:26.799
with yourself. You deserve to feel safe, lots of love. Bye.

1778
02:30:32.920 --> 02:30:47.399
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1779
02:30:47.520 --> 02:30:53.000
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1780
02:30:54.440 --> 02:31:03.520
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1781
02:31:05.719 --> 02:31:11.399
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1782
02:31:11.440 --> 02:31:18.079
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1783
02:31:18.280 --> 02:31:33.159
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1784
02:31:33.280 --> 02:31:53.040
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1785
02:31:53.159 --> 02:32:07.440
the recording is ended. You can still benefit from listening

1786
02:32:08.399 --> 02:32:17.200
to my voice. Maybe in a few hours time perhaps tomorrow,

1787
02:32:23.319 --> 02:32:31.159
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1788
02:32:31.319 --> 02:32:34.760
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

1789
02:32:34.920 --> 02:32:45.399
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1790
02:32:45.520 --> 02:32:50.719
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1791
02:32:50.920 --> 02:33:03.239
every evening. There was this record boarding from We're going

1792
02:33:03.319 --> 02:33:08.760
back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

1793
02:33:08.879 --> 02:33:14.159
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1794
02:33:16.680 --> 02:33:21.799
and I managed to find it again and it still

1795
02:33:21.920 --> 02:33:27.319
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1796
02:33:27.680 --> 02:33:42.399
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1797
02:33:44.520 --> 02:33:50.959
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1798
02:33:51.120 --> 02:34:01.760
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1799
02:34:02.559 --> 02:34:11.000
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1800
02:34:11.040 --> 02:34:19.559
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1801
02:34:19.799 --> 02:34:28.440
players pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1802
02:34:28.520 --> 02:34:32.840
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1803
02:34:32.920 --> 02:34:45.719
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1804
02:34:45.959 --> 02:34:58.879
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1805
02:34:58.920 --> 02:35:09.600
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1806
02:35:09.799 --> 02:35:31.799
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1807
02:35:31.920 --> 02:35:45.959
my mind would slow down now now. I was listening

1808
02:35:46.040 --> 02:35:52.639
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1809
02:35:55.360 --> 02:36:03.040
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1810
02:36:03.239 --> 02:36:07.799
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1811
02:36:08.040 --> 02:36:25.959
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1812
02:36:27.440 --> 02:36:37.680
found being able to just let go, to have that

1813
02:36:38.079 --> 02:36:50.680
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1814
02:36:50.799 --> 02:36:59.079
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1815
02:37:01.760 --> 02:37:08.719
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1816
02:37:15.120 --> 02:37:22.120
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1817
02:37:30.559 --> 02:37:34.559
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1818
02:37:36.319 --> 02:37:42.840
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1819
02:37:42.920 --> 02:37:59.440
every day. That's something that I do which you may

1820
02:37:59.600 --> 02:38:20.360
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1821
02:38:20.719 --> 02:38:33.200
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1822
02:38:33.360 --> 02:38:45.479
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1823
02:38:48.040 --> 02:38:55.760
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1824
02:39:00.639 --> 02:39:18.040
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1825
02:39:18.200 --> 02:39:25.840
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1826
02:39:25.920 --> 02:39:36.159
each hand, Perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1827
02:39:36.719 --> 02:39:41.520
the temperature of the room, on the backs of your hands.

1828
02:39:49.319 --> 02:39:53.159
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1829
02:39:53.360 --> 02:40:01.280
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1830
02:40:01.840 --> 02:40:06.559
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1831
02:40:14.920 --> 02:40:25.479
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1832
02:40:25.879 --> 02:40:54.040
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now, and

1833
02:40:54.239 --> 02:41:01.120
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1834
02:41:01.239 --> 02:41:14.399
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1835
02:41:17.600 --> 02:41:31.079
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1836
02:41:39.000 --> 02:41:51.559
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1837
02:41:56.479 --> 02:42:05.559
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1838
02:42:05.879 --> 02:42:14.959
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1839
02:42:16.879 --> 02:42:24.159
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1840
02:42:26.879 --> 02:42:29.760
It was this snoring. It was a pig turned up.

1841
02:42:33.799 --> 02:42:41.159
That's why I sound like when I snare and I

1842
02:42:41.280 --> 02:42:54.719
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

1843
02:42:54.879 --> 02:43:07.399
you feel, how relaxed you feel in your feet, how

1844
02:43:07.600 --> 02:43:33.000
relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed more

1845
02:43:33.159 --> 02:43:49.719
and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort

1846
02:43:51.719 --> 02:44:06.879
you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like

1847
02:44:09.680 --> 02:44:27.680
that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breve

1848
02:44:28.079 --> 02:44:54.000
easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able

1849
02:44:54.079 --> 02:45:23.360
to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally,

1850
02:45:38.079 --> 02:46:13.319
you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine

1851
02:46:20.719 --> 02:46:36.760
my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I

1852
02:46:37.040 --> 02:46:50.440
tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers

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02:46:57.319 --> 02:47:30.159
producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1854
02:47:31.879 --> 02:47:50.840
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

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02:48:02.120 --> 02:48:34.639
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1856
02:49:00.120 --> 02:49:25.520
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

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02:49:31.440 --> 02:50:10.559
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1858
02:50:10.760 --> 02:51:15.120
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1859
02:51:23.440 --> 02:52:10.120
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1860
02:52:10.399 --> 02:52:27.479
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress drip out

1861
02:52:27.559 --> 02:52:47.079
of your body, to appear out of every part of

1862
02:52:47.239 --> 02:53:11.079
your body and being released yeah from your brain in

1863
02:53:11.600 --> 02:53:46.840
your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs

1864
02:54:02.399 --> 02:54:58.200
relax so very deeply, res so deeply, and the feelings,

1865
02:55:00.879 --> 02:55:25.719
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders deepening each

1866
02:55:26.159 --> 02:56:04.239
part of your body further and deeper and deeper noticine,

1867
02:56:07.479 --> 02:56:34.239
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

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02:56:34.360 --> 02:57:23.840
your wrists, muscles, in front of your body, I all say,

1869
02:57:33.680 --> 02:58:12.920
feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense of peace spreads through

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02:58:14.479 --> 02:58:15.959
your very core.

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E.

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Even when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes

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eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

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03:00:50.399 --> 03:01:38.079
it's fallin's stomach, your back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

1875
03:01:38.319 --> 03:02:16.600
now feel in the hole of your back. In spy

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03:02:20.719 --> 03:02:25.399
from your brain, all the way down the middle of

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03:02:25.520 --> 03:02:37.200
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

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03:02:48.239 --> 03:04:08.760
deecomfort increasing deep playing ri you melegs, spreading these signals

1879
03:04:09.079 --> 03:04:17.760
down your spine or cord into air, every part of

1880
03:04:17.920 --> 03:05:03.959
your body, your chins and your calf, muscles, your elbows,

1881
03:05:20.440 --> 03:05:37.840
Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

1882
03:05:37.879 --> 03:05:53.799
of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the

1883
03:05:53.879 --> 03:07:03.840
way to your lower back. Letting retinker, peace, drifting mind

1884
03:07:08.360 --> 03:07:31.879
just wandering away, happy to let go, let go completely,

1885
03:07:34.360 --> 03:08:32.399
let go, so tranquil the whole body, enjoying a sensor

1886
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lett him go, hm he no peace for enjoy the space,

1887
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this space of peace and safety. So firy, fury, relaxed,

1888
03:13:07.639 --> 03:13:32.319
letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1889
03:13:32.760 --> 03:14:07.520
parts of your body, just to notice a forehead and

1890
03:14:07.799 --> 03:15:14.239
your eyes utual so los noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1891
03:15:26.280 --> 03:17:23.000
absolute freedom, drift, drift, Pea's energy, peace to breeze, such

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03:17:24.000 --> 03:18:34.159
easy loose you may have you may not have noticed

1893
03:18:38.920 --> 03:19:40.719
your mind drifted peaceful, move even more deeply in the

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03:19:40.920 --> 03:21:17.399
direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, arrest, total peace.

1895
03:21:42.159 --> 03:22:28.959
Come, so calm, let him go, peace with mind.

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Rexed forty So relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

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03:23:57.680 --> 03:24:59.879
so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful, real liquor, so peaceful.

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03:25:18.120 --> 03:25:24.319
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

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03:25:24.760 --> 03:25:35.959
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

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03:25:36.920 --> 03:25:44.479
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

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03:25:44.600 --> 03:25:53.719
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down.

1902
03:25:58.680 --> 03:26:05.840
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

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03:26:06.280 --> 03:26:19.200
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally.

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03:26:20.440 --> 03:26:31.479
Feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

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03:26:31.520 --> 03:26:38.440
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

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03:26:40.600 --> 03:26:48.079
take a break from your life as it is, and

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03:26:48.239 --> 03:26:55.959
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

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03:26:56.079 --> 03:27:01.000
some time off and to allow allow your body to

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03:27:01.159 --> 03:27:10.840
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

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03:27:11.000 --> 03:27:18.760
turn releases the tension and it stresses that you had

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03:27:18.840 --> 03:27:28.600
in your body. It's almost as if the parts of

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03:27:28.680 --> 03:27:40.600
your body just open up, allowing the negativity out and

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03:27:40.760 --> 03:27:48.239
at the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing

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03:27:48.840 --> 03:27:56.399
energy which then fills your body up and your mind

1915
03:27:56.799 --> 03:28:12.879
to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence,

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03:28:16.840 --> 03:28:33.399
an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads

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03:28:33.840 --> 03:28:44.680
through your body like a wave of comfort, and all

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03:28:44.760 --> 03:28:56.799
this comes, and just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe

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03:28:56.920 --> 03:28:59.520
half an hour, however long you want it to be,

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to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1921
03:29:15.200 --> 03:29:31.959
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1922
03:29:36.239 --> 03:29:45.600
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

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03:29:49.639 --> 03:29:58.440
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1924
03:29:59.280 --> 03:30:03.840
as if your mind, mind, and your body are sinking together,

1925
03:30:08.120 --> 03:30:17.799
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

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03:30:22.879 --> 03:30:30.079
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

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03:30:30.319 --> 03:30:35.959
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

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to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

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03:30:53.479 --> 03:31:08.639
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

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on each part of your body, you can notice that

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03:31:16.159 --> 03:31:30.680
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

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03:31:33.239 --> 03:31:42.879
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

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And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1934
03:31:55.399 --> 03:32:00.719
the parts that you've already focused on or can continue

1935
03:32:02.079 --> 03:32:09.159
to relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet

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03:32:09.360 --> 03:32:22.239
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1937
03:32:22.399 --> 03:32:36.639
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

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03:32:36.680 --> 03:32:43.120
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1939
03:32:43.280 --> 03:32:51.920
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1940
03:32:52.200 --> 03:32:59.040
sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you

1941
03:32:59.239 --> 03:33:06.719
to feel fel more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

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This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1943
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I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

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03:33:25.239 --> 03:33:35.719
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1945
03:33:35.959 --> 03:33:43.760
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1946
03:33:46.079 --> 03:33:50.559
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1947
03:33:55.760 --> 03:34:04.000
Moving down to your eyes, see on your eyes, noticing

1948
03:34:06.479 --> 03:34:16.200
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1949
03:34:16.239 --> 03:34:22.680
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1950
03:34:22.959 --> 03:34:37.360
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1951
03:34:37.840 --> 03:34:44.479
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1952
03:34:44.639 --> 03:34:59.399
your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1953
03:35:00.239 --> 03:35:07.120
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1954
03:35:07.200 --> 03:35:11.639
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1955
03:35:11.760 --> 03:35:18.120
up the size of your face to your ears, that

1956
03:35:18.399 --> 03:35:42.840
hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing

1957
03:35:46.360 --> 03:35:51.479
on your neck, the front of your neck and your

1958
03:35:51.639 --> 03:36:04.959
throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1959
03:36:07.040 --> 03:36:13.959
the right and left side of your neck, relax and

1960
03:36:15.520 --> 03:36:29.120
loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1961
03:36:32.440 --> 03:36:42.440
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1962
03:36:42.639 --> 03:36:49.520
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1963
03:36:49.879 --> 03:37:02.799
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

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03:37:02.959 --> 03:37:14.079
experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

1965
03:37:14.200 --> 03:37:21.520
back and moving either side of your spine right from

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03:37:21.559 --> 03:37:26.920
the top of your back all the way down to

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03:37:27.040 --> 03:37:39.280
the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

1968
03:37:44.360 --> 03:37:51.399
And as you move up and down your spine, you

1969
03:37:51.520 --> 03:37:58.639
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

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03:37:59.319 --> 03:38:12.719
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

1971
03:38:13.000 --> 03:38:23.639
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

1972
03:38:23.840 --> 03:38:31.440
sides of your back, the top of your back, the middle,

1973
03:38:31.559 --> 03:38:40.040
and your lower back. And as you scan gently and

1974
03:38:40.600 --> 03:38:47.559
slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles in

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03:38:47.680 --> 03:38:57.000
the top of your back relax and become looser. The

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03:38:57.120 --> 03:39:03.120
muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

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03:39:03.399 --> 03:39:12.559
just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1978
03:39:18.319 --> 03:39:24.639
and in your lower back seems to be an extra

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03:39:24.879 --> 03:39:41.040
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips. Sit

1980
03:39:41.159 --> 03:39:49.239
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1981
03:39:49.319 --> 03:39:57.879
where your cosis are, and into your buttocks, and all

1982
03:39:57.920 --> 03:40:07.159
those muscles that bread from your lower back into your

1983
03:40:07.280 --> 03:40:20.479
hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1984
03:40:27.200 --> 03:40:33.959
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1985
03:40:34.159 --> 03:40:44.840
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1986
03:40:45.639 --> 03:41:00.559
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1987
03:41:02.319 --> 03:41:17.559
you may notice that they're already feeding really loose. They're

1988
03:41:17.680 --> 03:41:44.399
already feeding calm and feeding. Those muscles then move from

1989
03:41:44.479 --> 03:41:59.840
your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

1990
03:42:04.120 --> 03:42:25.680
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1991
03:42:33.040 --> 03:42:41.520
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1992
03:42:42.760 --> 03:42:54.239
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1993
03:42:57.120 --> 03:43:06.959
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1994
03:43:09.799 --> 03:43:15.760
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1995
03:43:17.079 --> 03:43:34.840
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1996
03:43:35.120 --> 03:43:50.680
comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message

1997
03:43:56.040 --> 03:44:07.680
into your arms. And you may feel almost as if

1998
03:44:07.760 --> 03:44:14.280
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1999
03:44:17.479 --> 03:45:03.639
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so pose not feeling

2000
03:45:04.000 --> 03:45:19.239
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

2001
03:45:20.959 --> 03:45:47.479
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your forearments

2002
03:45:47.959 --> 03:46:03.399
and your wrists feeling so heavy. Yet at the same time,

2003
03:46:11.000 --> 03:47:11.440
sunlight and gentle frey. See now on your hands, my hands,

2004
03:47:17.719 --> 03:47:47.319
so peaceful in your hands. There's a sense of real peace.

2005
03:47:59.399 --> 03:48:15.479
Just seems to feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply.

2006
03:48:23.479 --> 03:49:50.200
Mhm ees your things a thing is sold less a

2007
03:49:50.399 --> 03:50:23.879
thing its tips. Moving your attention to the front of

2008
03:50:24.040 --> 03:50:54.639
your body, so comfortable, moving your focus to your legs,

2009
03:52:13.520 --> 03:53:08.079
what muscles in your thighs, your knees so relaxed, a

2010
03:53:08.319 --> 03:55:16.280
calf muscles and just shins cow persy they four and

2011
03:55:16.479 --> 03:55:37.719
the feathing and your feet, Sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

2012
03:55:44.879 --> 03:56:39.879
so calm, so peaceful, sclm so peace fa RelA sin

2013
03:56:45.200 --> 03:57:05.719
peace f s come eleven deep relaxation, Just spread your chest,

2014
03:57:06.040 --> 03:57:37.639
in your stomach, letting go of everything. So I'm gonna

2015
03:57:37.639 --> 03:57:49.520
start counting down now from twenty down to one. You

2016
03:57:49.600 --> 03:57:53.040
can imagine in a way it's like just walking down

2017
03:57:53.200 --> 03:57:58.959
some steps and each step or twenty steps, and each

2018
03:57:59.120 --> 03:58:09.120
step rep sense a level of comfort, each step represents

2019
03:58:11.719 --> 03:58:24.200
a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you walk

2020
03:58:24.280 --> 03:58:30.000
down those steps that a deeper and more relaxed you feel.

2021
03:58:36.719 --> 04:01:11.520
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixsting

2022
04:02:27.120 --> 04:05:18.000
eight four four teen too well.

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Firea F.

2024
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Nine y.

2025
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Seven us.

2026
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A six five four.

2027
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One.

2028
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And now.

2029
04:19:21.360 --> 04:19:34.040
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

2030
04:19:34.440 --> 04:19:45.600
from ten to tout one, focusing just on your eyes,

2031
04:19:49.319 --> 04:19:57.799
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

2032
04:19:59.319 --> 04:20:00.879
a whole area.

2033
04:20:03.520 --> 04:20:17.479
That makes up your eye. And as we count down

2034
04:20:17.719 --> 04:20:21.159
from ten down to one.

2035
04:20:23.760 --> 04:20:37.680
Whilst focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed

2036
04:20:39.920 --> 04:20:52.959
with each number counting down, and you may find the

2037
04:20:53.120 --> 04:20:59.600
all you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

2038
04:21:02.600 --> 04:21:09.200
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

2039
04:21:09.319 --> 04:21:23.959
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

2040
04:21:24.079 --> 04:21:34.040
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now.

2041
04:21:42.600 --> 04:22:09.680
Ten nine.

2042
04:22:43.760 --> 04:25:13.200
Eight seven, hus.

2043
04:25:41.520 --> 04:26:53.120
Five four.

2044
04:27:47.360 --> 04:29:24.799
Sixty three two U.

2045
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One two. Cut down ten to one ten nine eight

2046
04:31:06.440 --> 04:31:31.239
seven six five four three two one. And maybe that

2047
04:31:31.440 --> 04:31:35.559
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

2048
04:31:35.600 --> 04:31:39.879
it's a bit too fast for you to notice the

2049
04:31:41.200 --> 04:31:48.040
calming of your body, maybe even a little bit of

2050
04:31:48.120 --> 04:31:52.079
pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

2051
04:31:52.200 --> 04:31:55.559
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

2052
04:31:55.639 --> 04:32:05.280
stick go with floppy just because you're counting down. If

2053
04:32:05.280 --> 04:32:09.239
you try again, but this time, I go this lower.

2054
04:32:11.479 --> 04:32:16.360
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

2055
04:32:16.399 --> 04:32:24.760
body before we focus on your legs, just notice how

2056
04:32:24.879 --> 04:32:38.959
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

2057
04:32:39.120 --> 04:33:12.159
number that I count down ten nine eight seven six

2058
04:33:20.599 --> 04:33:39.560
five four three.

2059
04:33:52.759 --> 04:34:30.479
Two one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

2060
04:34:30.919 --> 04:34:31.959
how your body feels.

2061
04:34:38.639 --> 04:34:46.919
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

2062
04:34:49.880 --> 04:35:03.319
It's that space that you have, that space between being

2063
04:35:06.880 --> 04:35:18.439
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down

2064
04:35:18.639 --> 04:35:23.599
and just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything,

2065
04:35:23.799 --> 04:35:30.360
not needing to think about anything. So it opens up

2066
04:35:30.400 --> 04:35:34.840
a space, you know, a bit of a space, a gap.

2067
04:35:41.119 --> 04:35:44.639
And the more I camped down from ten to one,

2068
04:35:45.799 --> 04:35:53.919
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

2069
04:35:55.319 --> 04:36:11.000
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

2070
04:36:12.560 --> 04:36:22.479
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

2071
04:36:29.240 --> 04:36:30.200
Allows you.

2072
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To just.

2073
04:36:36.439 --> 04:36:43.159
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

2074
04:36:43.560 --> 04:36:53.799
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

2075
04:36:53.840 --> 04:36:59.840
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

2076
04:37:00.040 --> 04:38:39.759
app It gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

2077
04:38:56.119 --> 04:39:45.919
two one. And how does your body feel now? Can

2078
04:39:46.000 --> 04:40:02.040
you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

2079
04:40:24.520 --> 04:40:28.840
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

2080
04:40:44.880 --> 04:41:05.000
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2081
04:41:05.119 --> 04:41:10.000
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

2082
04:41:13.479 --> 04:41:16.080
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

2083
04:41:16.240 --> 04:41:28.639
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

2084
04:41:28.759 --> 04:41:35.159
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

2085
04:41:35.319 --> 04:41:42.279
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

2086
04:41:42.400 --> 04:41:47.319
and your inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh

2087
04:41:47.439 --> 04:41:56.200
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

2088
04:41:56.400 --> 04:42:10.439
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

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a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

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muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

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don't think we perhaps will give enough attention to our thighs.

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Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

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our lives, how much they actually do for us all

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through our lives. And it may seem sound really weird,

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but I think that all of our body parts, especially

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our adviyes, needs some TLC, a bit of love shown,

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a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our

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thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

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a bit strange, and maybe you think, why am I

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sure how I should be able in the garden hugging

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a tree or something. Wow, it's hard to set a

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microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

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Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

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can't see the television from the tree. If you move

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down to your knees gain such an important part. And

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I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

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I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

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me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

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if I ever maybe i'll pash it, or it's aching

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for some reason. It's then that I realize.

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How much it does.

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You know, the benefit of being able to use my

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legs without any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful

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thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You

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know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

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regardless of how your needs feel, you can have that

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sense of gratitude and love to your needs for all

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that they do for you. You can still have that

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attention on your thighs. Maybe notice how your thighs feel,

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Maybe notice that they are relaxing more deeply. As you

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focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

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and your calf muscles, with the bones between your knees

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and your feet incorporate, and course your ankles so important.

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Can anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of

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an ankle knows how how much we take Our ankles

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were granted, And it's kind of strange in a way

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when you think that. You know, logically our wrists are

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a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

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is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem with

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that if we're just picking stuff up. Our ankles so

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much thinner than the rest of our legs, and from

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a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make

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sense that all this weight will ultimately be resting on

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your ankles then leading to your feet, a thin area,

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thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

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supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

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helps you to get around and be mobile. And there's

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the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I

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couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem to

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do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

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my craft muscles get some work. But of course that's

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not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

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use our legs, and your shins there to protect your

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lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a protector,

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with the bone leading of course to your ankles in

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your feet. I'm not going to focus on your feet.

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We're just going to focus on the legs. And I

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realize and now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably

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focuses on them anyway, so maybe I should focus on

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your feet a little bit. You can have them in

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your awareness the same as you have your thighs in

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your awareness.

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Even though we haven't been.

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Focusing on your thighs for a few minutes, we be

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focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort

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04:51:06.240 --> 04:51:18.200
in your thighs, and there's that movement of energy because

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the fis hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's

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the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have in

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our thighs, but the skin on the outside of the thighs,

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as in the outside of all of that body, can

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be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensive to temperature,

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and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle there's

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the blood vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff that's

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inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice if

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you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs and

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a message. So if you can message on the outside,

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because to be able to get deep into the muscles,

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to be able to just message inside your fies, message

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in the bones of.

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Your leg.

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Massage in all the veins and just gently healing revives.

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And you can move it down.

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Message and inside your knees. It's a message in those bones,

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but with healing fingertips spreading the healing.

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Energy deep into the choice of your knees.

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Of course, there's the back of your your need and

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the inside crease where your need is. It's a really

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sensitive area. Really, that's very nice when you stroke it.

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That might be because it's an area that's not really

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touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part a

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crease your legs. It's almost like a partner has a

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sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course, it's

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protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting the

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fingers into that crease on your legs, folding between your legs.

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You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

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going inside message in a muscle tissue. You can of

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course feel the the bones of your.

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04:55:01.919 --> 04:55:13.799
Knees hidden through your fingertips, and then you go.

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Down to your calf muscles.

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And that's the part.

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I'd like to be able to really put my fingertips

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deep inside my card muscles.

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And massology in every single tissue of that muscle, clothing.

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Every part, and then doing the same for my shins.

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Massology and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, seeming

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their loving way. It deserves to be treated as the

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precious bones.

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That they are.

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Our legs are so precious as in all the other

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parts of our body.

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The more precious of mutual.

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On the planet.

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When you start to.

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Think about relegs in this way, can you change your perspective?

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It might sound be.

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It's silly to start with the idea of how love

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and legs. Sure initiation.

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You ad eyes.

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Wants you to be able to put your hands in your.

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Eyes, the message the muscles.

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In the piels. You get your fingers deep in there,

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listen attention, just.

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To show.

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How much you care.

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About your legs.

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What do you care for?

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What your legs deep.

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Mab, you need your ces, your ankles, the strength of

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your ankles, seeing how in their company supposed the Wakes.

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Specially pies such strong, such a flexible abstely amazing because

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wa

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Mm hm