April 19, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. Money is

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Jason new Land. Please only listen when you can safely

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close your eyes. And this is Q and a Friday,

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Q and a Friday, but being recorded on a Saturday.

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So should have done this yesterday, good Friday, the eighteenth

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of April twenty twenty five, but I am now doing

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it instead on Saturday. The I suppose still a good Saturday.

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Maybe nineteenth of April do I'd say eighteenth April yesterday,

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nineteenth April today, twenty twenty five at seven forty four am.

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That's more information than any of us really needed, isn't it?

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And I'm wearing my pink crocs. I mean my right

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button is itachier than my left buttock?

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I mean? What?

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What stuff do we really need to hear about? Awe? Okay,

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Vinnie wants a treat, but for some reason he's gone.

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He's on a setty, happy to clean himself if I

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crink all the thing. Oh yeah, he's noticed. Do you

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want to treat chewy chicken twists with one natural chicken

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breast meat promotes dental hygiene? Good boy, it's called and

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let meast say what is it? He's just looking at

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me like, who cares what it says on the packet?

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Just give me it a complete pet food. Okay, there

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you go, good boy. He loves them. Basically, he loves them.

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I would say it's probably his favorite treat that he's

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had ever. Sorry about all the noise, the chairs of it, clickery, clickery.

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So he's got that that will keep me occupied for

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about occupied. He can keep him occupied for about ten minutes,

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I think, unlike most other treats which keep him occupied

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for like treat treats keep occupied and maybe ten seconds.

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You know, the ones that are edible. The only things

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that keep that last any amount of time is like

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a bone thing. I'm thinking that can keep him going

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for an hour or two? What an hour? Maybe an

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egg because he likes to break up the eggshell into

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a million pieces, So you know, that can keep him

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going for putting twenty minutes. I feel like I want

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to time him now just to see how long it

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actually takes, but I won't. So I'll briefly tell you

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about what happened last night. We yesterday just because the

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reason I really gone bloody flees. So I will tell

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you what happened yesterday because I posted yesterday on my

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Facebook group, which is Jason Newland's boring group, wasn't able

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to do Q and a Friday today due to some

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neighbor drama, but will try and do it tomorrow. I'm

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going to bed or I'm now going to bed now.

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That wasn't grammatically correct. I didn't put I wasn't able,

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just wasn't able. The English language is going downhill. The

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written English language is going downhill. And I understand why

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because there's so much stuff we don't need to really

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put in, because no one's gonna put wasn't able to

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do Q and a Friday. Is there anyone in the

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world reading that thinking who wasn't able to? Who's he

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talking about? Is he talking about Vinny? Is he talking

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about the Milkman? Is he talking about I don't know.

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I'm just confused. No, it's me, obviously, I'm the first person.

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But it isn't you know, grammatically.

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Correct? Mmm.

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Mike wrote, I hope you update this of drama in

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an upcoming episode. I will update you on a drama

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in this for this one. In this episode, I will

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tell you right now, well, in a minute, what happened,

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because I've also got another message. But what is this? Oh,

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I did get all blame me, I did get a

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miss each a comment posted on my Facebook group by

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and we'll just want to welcome new a new member.

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Now I can't find it at Louisa welcome it says

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Hi Jason. Hi everyone. You've been my sandman for a

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couple of years now, and every single night I tell

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myself remember to join the Facebook group tomorrow, then forget

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the moment I wake up. But here I am. Lately,

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I've been really stressed. I have to leave London and

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move back to Paris. Thanks Brexit, and you've helped me

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unwind and let my mind wander. I haven't subscribed to

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a YouTube channel yet, but I will soon. But over

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the years I've built up this whole mental image of

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your flat, the windows, the guard and the setup, and

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I'm slightly scared would clash with my imagination. Are you

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planning to visit? Are you planning to move in? Don't

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worry it, I'm sure. I don't know if I've actually done.

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I haven't done much videos of of the flat really.

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I did a video when I first moved in, when

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I got the carpet put in, So when I late

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when I got the carpet laid. Yeah, I was quite

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pleased because everything was immaculate, really, the whole fauts only

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time ever that the flat was immaculate, and since then,

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because I moved in in April twenty fifteen, in November

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or maybe it was October, I don't know. I think

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about November time I got Andre in my little ferret,

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and from that moment on, the flat was no longer

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immaculate and hasn't been since. He destroyed the setti that

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I had, like literally ripped it to bits. He destroyed

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the carpet, He pretty much destroyed the bottoms of all

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the doors. He yeah, he made it his own and

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I still love him to bits, so, you know, even

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though he's not around anymore, but he yeah, I mean

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I made my impression as well. I mean, it's not

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like he's the only one. Can't blame him for everything.

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And then then a couple of years ago, I got Vinnie,

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and he's pretty much done the same, you know, ripped

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up the carpet and done. You know, just he's a

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little dog and he's he is. He keeps a place

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very messy, and it's good because I complain him even

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though probably most of the messes me. So I'm messy.

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I'm a bit messy. I'm better off. I mean, I

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don't have much stuff really other than the equipment to

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make the podcast, a television and some books. That's pretty

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much my belongings. I don't have lots and lots of belongings.

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I don't. So really it's I would say it's relatively

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tidy in here. Just there's stuff on the floor that

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that needs to be picked up. These toys are all

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over the floor and the bedroom it's closed on the

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bedroom floor, you know, things like that, so you can

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help tidy up when you move in, right, what's next?

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I they did it yesterday. Wow, So I'll admit that

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I was running behind. I wasn't really feeling it yesterday anyway.

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I spent a lot of the day in bed. The

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morning I was relaxing, but I wasn't really I didn't

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have much in a way of energy. Okay. I took

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a little one out for a wa l k and

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it was you know, it was fine, said loads to

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a couple of people. It was nice enough. Came back,

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watched a bit of Telly and really just sort of

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spent a bit of time in bed in the afternoon,

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realizing that I still hadn't done anything. Bearing in mind

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I've been making two to three recordings a day for

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the last week or so, so I having not made

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one recording, and I didn't think did I even make

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a recording Thursday? I don't think I did, So I've

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gotten right downhill. My work ethic is ridiculously bad. It's

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terrible if it was a job. The last recording I

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did was the seventeenth of April. So yeah, it was Thursday, Friday, Saturday.

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So I did do a recording on Thursday, but I

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did one. But on Wednesday I did one two, but

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I fit. On Tuesday I did one two two, Monday

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one two three. Yeah, wow, Sunday I did three.

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Blind me.

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Okay, well you want another one. That's the last one

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that didn't last ten minutes? Did it? He thinks it's

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his food and it's not his food. It's not it's

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a tree, but he thinks it's his food. He didn't

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even eat his bottle of food. Like yesterday afternoon. Anyway,

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I get a phone call. I'm hearing a bit of

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commotion in the garden. Not my garden, but a garden nearby,

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and I don't mean know what's going on. There's always

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a bit of drama around here, you know, people shouting

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and stuff like that. And then I get a phone

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I get a phone call from my friend, a local neighbor.

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He said, can I just pop around and see you?

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I said, yeah, come around. He didn't seem very happy,

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but he came around. But his voice didn't seem great.

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So he his voice is fine, but he didn't seem

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in a good mood. That's what I mean. So anyway,

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he came around. I'm not going to go in to specifics,

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but he came around and just told me he'd had

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a there's some problems he was having. And then.

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Later on.

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I saw a lady outside. Bearing in mind, I was

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in the middle of watching Big Brother, so I had

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two goals yesterday catch up with Big Brother, so that

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I watched the final you know, the Fiction Night Live.

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Having caught up with it, so I'd already watched one episode,

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so it was two episodes behind, and I was going

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to watch Thursday's episode and I got about ten minutes

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into it, so there was still quite a bit maybe

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fifteen minutes. There's still quite a lot to go but

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I paused it with my friend said he was going

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to come around my neighbor. So he came around, and

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then I fast forward a little bit. There was a

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lady outside the front of my building laying on the pavement,

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and it was like, okay, what's going on here? So

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I went into.

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Sort of.

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She was unconscious at this point, but she was breathing,

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like you know, she was kind of moving around a bit,

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but there was cans of drink on the floor next

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to her, like alcoholic drinks. So I'm like, oh, okay,

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now this this, this whole this kind of surprised me

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a little bit. So I called for an ambulance. I said,

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They said, is she breathing? And said, yeah, what's her name?

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I don't know what her name is, which I didn't

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I did find out later, and she was saying, do

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you know what's wrong with us? I said, no, that

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I've called for an ambulance. I don't. I really don't know.

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I just found her. She's lying on the floor on

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the pavement, and I'm just concerned that she needs medical help.

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So when I told them about the cans of alcohol,

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and I said, she does you know, I think she

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might have been drinking immediately, It's almost like they lost

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interest in the conversation. Which was weird because I was

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talking to someone who literally was telling like, usually they're

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quite attentive and like they take it seriously. This bloke

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didn't seem to really be interested as soon as alcohol's involved.

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He wasn't like, oh, oh, well. And I was kind

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of surprised at that, and I said, yeah.

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But.

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She's a vulnerable female. She's not able to protect herself.

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She's not able to really stop anyone doing anything they

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want to do right now, and no one's helping her.

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The weird things that I said this, people were starting

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to stop. It turned out she'd been out there for

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three hours, but she'd been knocking on people's doors and

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some of the neighbors were actually keep an eye out

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on her. But because she was drunk, they just didn't

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know what to do with her, you know, they didn't

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want to let her in their house, and that she

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was given the She was given her dad's phone number

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to different neighbors and stuff, so she had that down

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in her head. This is a mobile number. She had

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both her mom and her dad's phone number lodged in

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her head. So I don't know. She don't know how

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drunk she could have been, and she was able to

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recall two mobile phone numbers. But maybe that's just how

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what I show my ignorance. Maybe I don't know. I

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just don't know how much of it was like it exaggerated.

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But at the time I didn't know she was drunk.

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Yeah she had some cans, but yeah she she she

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might have had as far as I was concerned, I

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didn't know. She might have tripped over and hurt herself.

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She might have had a seizure, she might have It's

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it's all kinds of weird things.

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You know.

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Just because someone's been drinking alcohol doesn't mean that they're

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exempt from medical attention. That's my opinion. So I mean, yeah,

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if it's self inflicted, okay, But lots of things are

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self inflicted. Someone driving really rubbishly and speeding and if

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they have a brash ambulance still come. They don't say

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how you were speeding, I'm not going to help you,

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do They? In fact, literally literal self inflicted wounds get

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treed by an ambulance. So then he stopped fidgeting. Please mate,

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belind me he's not even eating all of that treat

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so I accord an ambulance. I had this weird conversation

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and they said, is she injured? So I said, are

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you injured? Because at this point she had her eyes

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open and she's not a jess. I said, she's not

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in yes. Oh, I don't know what we're going to do, bloke. Really,

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I've never had a conversation with someone from ambulance before.

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They usually like stick to the script. It just it's

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almost like you just put the script down and went

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for cigarette break, just talking to me while I was

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on a cigarette break. Yeah, well, you know, not much

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we can. What you do is ah, really, well, can

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you send the police or something? Because she's not in

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a good way and she's vulnerable, vulnerable female because I

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realized they're not that bothered about men, so maybe they'd

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be care a bit more about women in that situation.

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But no, and it's weird, and they said, well, call

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call us back. Well, we'll call the police, but you know,

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whether we don't know if they're going to come or not,

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and if anything worse happened, and just call us back. Okay.

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So then she she's laying in the road, she's like

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half laying in the road, and I'm thinking, well, this

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is getting more dangerous now, because I mean luck, yeah,

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I was. I was standing in the road with her.

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I'm not going to push on the road, No, I wasn't.

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I was standing in there with her to make sure

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no cars kind of ran her over because literally there

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was a car parked just in front so as a

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as a bend, so it would have been quite easy

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for a car to drive around the other car not

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knowing that she was behind the car. You know, it

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was kind of a bit of a blind spot I

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could imagine, especially if they were driving into park and

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they could have they could have hit her potentially. So

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I stopped. I was just stood there to make sure

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no one did that. And then two neighbors parked up

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in their cars. It's quite weird, so they were kind

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of standing around, like what were you going to do?

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A bloke stopped with his dog who was another neighbor

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was walking his dog, and which I was. I was.

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I was glad to have that support, to be honest,

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I just didn't know what to do.

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I didn't know.

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And then so I called the police and the police

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are talking to me, and ah, so she's in the road.

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Can you not get her off the road, I said, don't.

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I don't want to touch her. You know, she's, as

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I said before, she's a she's a female vulnerable. I

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don't want to be grabbing her. And I understand if

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there was it was a motorway, I'd have to have

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to think about it. But this is a very quiet

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road and there's no way anyone was going to hit

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her because I was stopping it. But she's like, oh,

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and she was telling me to get away from her,

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so that you know that that in itself wasn't particularly good.

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And he said, well, if you tried putting your trousers

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back on and then offering to help, And I said,

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I'm wearing trousers. What stupid? And he said, well, you

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know we can. That didn't That didn't happen. I don't

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know why I'm saying it. And she's it went weird

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after this that that wasn't the weird part. So I

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step away. She starts getting up, So she's getting up now,

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and she starts talking to someone else. She goes over

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to a car and starts trying to open a car door,

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pulling on it and hitting the car not hard. And

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I said to the police. I was just trying to

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get in a car. Now that piqued their interest if

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it was criminal damage did come to that, so her

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welfare wasn't particularly important to them. But and I don't

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know why, but I guess just because she was drink

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drunk or whatever. But the idea that she was maybe

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hurting a car with the old criminal damage and they

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really grabbed old of that. Also, she's trying to get

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into a car. She's doing like yeah. But I told

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her to get off and she did because it was

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a neighbor's car. So I said, can you get off?

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Actually I said it nicely, but Lee, can you leave

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that alone? And she looked at me, So that's a

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neighbor's car, move away, and she did. I said, there's

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no damage, no damage, no harm done. You know, I

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wanted to get arrested. I wanted to get some help. Well,

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in the meantime, I'm talking to the police for about

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ten minutes, well not the police, but they're nine niney nine,

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this bloke with a dog is he's actually on the

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phone because she's walked around the bushes and just she's

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falling down multiple times. And you never see a toddler

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like balancing on a toy, you know that a toddler

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in the gardens and they're balancing on a toy and

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it's like, oh, they're going to fall, They're going to fall,

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but they don't what. It was a bit like that

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with this woman, but she actually did fall. She's going

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to fall, she's yeah, she's gone, but she kept getting up.

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It's like a weeble, you know, weeble's wobble, but they

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don't fall down. I mean, she did fall down, but

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she did get up again. And I guess I'm the

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one that wobbles really. Anyway, she he got her telephone,

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her dad's telephone number. He's on the phone to her dad.

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He found a mom up. Mum, what didn't want to know?

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So this is this is someone that's in a I

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don't know, late thirties, possibly this this this lady maybe

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even early forties, middle thirties and early forties, I don't know,

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to be fair, yeah, probably thirties. So I did see

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her dad, so he was he founded. My mom didn't

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want to know. He found the dad up and her

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dad said, I'm already on my way because it's from London,

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Like he's ten minutes away. That's why he said he's

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ten minutes away. How can it be ten minutes away

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from London if you just called him? What turned out

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that she'd already the neighbor across the road had already

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phoned their dad, because you'd be knocking on everyone's doors.

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I didn't know this at this point, and it was weird.

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It was just a strange situation. Prior to that, between

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the ambulance and the police phone calls, I I was

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saying to her, so where are you? I don't know,

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trying to sort of see if try and get her

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an ambulance, you know, sort of said to her, and

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she started swearing at me and being abusive to me verbally,

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wasn't abusive to anyone else, just me for some reason,

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and telling me to go whatever to my dad and

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whatever to my mum, and okay, you're not helping yourself here,

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you know. I was trying to help and she said, oh,

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I said where are you from? And said, oh, Stratford.

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I said, well, I know it Stratford. And you wouldn't

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get away with this behavior there. You know this this

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you would not get away, You would not This is

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be a very dangerous situation. For you if you did

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this in Stratford. And she's like, and I was losing

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a bit of sympathy and understand I suppose why the

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police an ambulance. They get so much hassle when they

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go just to people that were drunk. Try and help

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someone that won't let you help them. So I do

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understand that. I just at the same time, I can't

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ignore someone that's lying on them on the floor, can't

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even hardly walk. She couldn't walk. That puts her in

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such a dangerous situation, which it would do if it

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was a man. It would make no difference to me

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man or woman. I can't really ignore it. I don't

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think or I can't. So it turned out so this

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was half four. I finally, after all the stuff, I

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finally got back up here. Just yeah, the police. I

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didn't realize i'd had it. Yeah, it was about ten

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past six, I was or twenty six. I was back upstairs,

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So I mean, the whole thing didn't start a half

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past four, but probably five five.

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I don't know.

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I lose track of the timing, so we're probably out

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there for about an hour. And I had two miscalls

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from the police. The text and the police just after

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I think it was. I can tell you, actually, what's

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this guy to do with Q and A Friday? I

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don't know this was at how weird? Doesn't give me

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a time for the Texas. I thought Texas had times

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yesterday eighteen o three. This is the Clinical Assessment Service

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of East Anglia Ambulance Service. We have attempted to contract

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with FUNE. I've been known to be made a if

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there's been any worse than the patient's condition, please ring

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nine on nine. So I didn't have my phone switched on.

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It was on, but it wasn't on. If the volume

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wasn't on, then if it was on, I didn't hear it.

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But I think I might go on an editor mute

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just to forgot, because I thought I got it on

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mute most of the time.

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Oh dear, I.

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Wouldn't normally I would. I wouldn't do that if I

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you know, I didn't purposely do that. But I got

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a couple of emails, one saying we are continue to rage. Help.

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This was probably about half an hour later. An hour later,

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actually a clinician may call you back from a withheld number.

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Please keep your phone lying clear. I only call nine

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nine nine again if the patient's condition worsens. Alternatively, should

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you no longer require help, please reply cancel. So I

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just sent a cancel. I didn't I thought they just

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that was it. They weren't bothering. But it didn't tell

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me that the ambulance was still planning to come. But

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they just it wasn't a priority, which is fair enough.

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They've got their criteria.

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And.

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When I called them, I didn't know if it's a

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priority or not. Unfortunately, I've had to call the ambulance

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and the police so many times since I've lived there,

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and I've been in this situation before with my neighbor downstairs,

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the one directly below me, and she tre no was

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I say it was because she passed away, But she

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was only young. She only in a little bit older

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than me, about a year older than me or something.

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And this was too fat. Yeah, twenty nineteen or twenty twenty,

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right at the beginning of the year. She basically her

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mom knocked on the door and she wasn't answering, and

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I heard her mum banging on the windows, like the

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bedroom windows out of the back. So I went downstairs

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because I saw this woman and I thought, what was

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going on there. I just checked that she was all

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right because it seemed like a weird thing to be doing.

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Didn't look like a thief, but I thought, I just

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go and check it out. And I said all right.

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She said, yeah, I'm trying to get hold of my daughter.

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She's in there, but she's not. She should be because

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she arranged to pick her up. I think she had

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a doctor's appointment or something. And I said, oh, okay,

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and then she she said, well, no, I can hear her.

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She's in there, but I can't see where she is.

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She's not answering the door. Well, then she goes and

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she starts talking letterbox to her and it turns out

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she owed her money and she just didn't want to

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pay it. No, that's not true. She she'd collapsed. She

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was on the floor, collapsed, and she'd been like that

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for days apparently. So she was able to talk to

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her mum, but wasn't able to move right, there's no

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way of getting into the flat. Couldn't get into the flat. Well,

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I couldn't get into the flat. Luckily, I know some

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people that do know how to do stuff like that.

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Not luckily for the neighbors to get robbed. But yeah,

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I know people that know how to get into flats

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very quickly. So I got my my local my local

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break in service. Well, it's really weird. I know, if

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I ever, if I ever locked myself out up properly

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and I can't get locksmith whatever, a ladder, that's all

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the need. A ladder. If all the windows are locked,

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I know, something can get through the windows in for

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like thirty seconds. It's just like and they won't have

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to be quiet either, so probably even quite even quicker,

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because I'll be with them if that had to do

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it quietly. They put It's like, yeah, it's strange. It's

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just a weird, weird situation. But anyway, I called it.

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I said, you need to call an ambulance, and she said, no,

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my daughter would be in a minute. She'll know what

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to do because her other daughter was coming. She'd called her,

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and I said, I got angry, but it was like,

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you need to call an ambulance. She's lying on the

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floor and she can't move. That is not a good sign.

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I mean, I'm no doctor, but I can I can conclude.

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I can conclude that's not a good sign. And I

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was correct, and I wish I hadn't been correct. So

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I called an ambulance and the ambulance said, oh, forty

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five minutes, And I said what he said, yeah, forty

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five minutes.

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That's it.

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I said, she's lying on the floor, she can't move. No,

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be forty five minutes. Now. The ambulances are brilliant. And

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I'm not saying anything about ambulances or at police or anything.

470
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They've always been, you know, pretty much been great and

471
00:35:28.599 --> 00:35:33.400
I'm grateful. You know, ambulance services saved my friend's life

472
00:35:33.480 --> 00:35:37.400
multiple times. And so yeah, it's not. But I was

473
00:35:37.519 --> 00:35:45.000
just surprised at this. So I went, this is I say,

474
00:35:45.079 --> 00:35:50.679
this is a few years back, and it's never that.

475
00:35:50.760 --> 00:35:54.039
It's not. It's not their fault anyways. They can't be

476
00:35:54.119 --> 00:35:57.599
everywhere all at once. Even Superman can't be everywhere, can

477
00:35:57.679 --> 00:36:02.320
they can he? You know, it's like remember Superman and movie,

478
00:36:02.360 --> 00:36:05.280
the first one. I don't want to spoil it. I mean,

479
00:36:07.199 --> 00:36:09.880
it's fifty years ago, and since it came out, is

480
00:36:09.960 --> 00:36:15.639
it too soon to tell you what happened? But I

481
00:36:15.679 --> 00:36:19.960
think was it Superman one? Was it? There was I

482
00:36:19.960 --> 00:36:22.719
don't know if it was a Superhero movie where there

483
00:36:22.760 --> 00:36:28.039
was two missiles being sent at the same time. Yeah,

484
00:36:28.039 --> 00:36:31.760
it was two. It was Superman. So again, if you

485
00:36:31.840 --> 00:36:35.639
haven't seen it, you don't want to spoil it. The

486
00:36:35.719 --> 00:36:40.239
movie that was released in nineteen seventy five or was

487
00:36:40.280 --> 00:36:43.159
it nineteen seventy seven, but it's you know, it's nearly

488
00:36:43.159 --> 00:36:51.400
fifty years ago, and Lex Lufa launched two nuclear missiles

489
00:36:52.000 --> 00:36:56.280
or two missiles like really badness, so Superman couldn't and

490
00:36:56.320 --> 00:36:59.000
there were different areas. Superman couldn't get to both of them,

491
00:36:59.800 --> 00:37:03.239
so he had to choose one. It got to it

492
00:37:04.000 --> 00:37:06.400
and got rid of it, and he nearly got to

493
00:37:06.440 --> 00:37:09.039
the second one, I do believe, but he didn't get

494
00:37:09.039 --> 00:37:15.519
there in time, and for some reason, I mean maybe

495
00:37:15.519 --> 00:37:17.239
it was just to fit the plot of the movie.

496
00:37:17.960 --> 00:37:23.960
But Lewis Lane or Lois Lois Lane, who was the

497
00:37:24.039 --> 00:37:29.400
love of his life? But was she? What about Lana Lange?

498
00:37:29.920 --> 00:37:35.039
The movie's never really dealt with Lana Lane. The more

499
00:37:35.079 --> 00:37:39.119
recent TV show did, But it was always like Clark

500
00:37:39.199 --> 00:37:43.400
Kent loves l L. Is it Lewis Lane or is

501
00:37:43.400 --> 00:37:47.440
it Lowis Lane? Or is it Lana Lane?

502
00:37:48.119 --> 00:37:48.440
L L?

503
00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:52.760
Who do you love Clark? I love it l L.

504
00:37:55.239 --> 00:37:58.400
So it's you know, it was always that really I

505
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:01.960
mean in the movies it was was Lewis Lane, but yeah,

506
00:38:02.000 --> 00:38:06.920
the thing for you know, Lana Lang as well, and

507
00:38:08.920 --> 00:38:13.199
for some reason Lewis Lane. I can't can't speak like that.

508
00:38:13.239 --> 00:38:22.159
Oh Lane. The the other missile pretty much landed on

509
00:38:22.199 --> 00:38:28.880
her head. So it caused this big, you know, catastrophic

510
00:38:29.000 --> 00:38:32.239
feing or whatever in the desert. She happened to be there.

511
00:38:33.679 --> 00:38:35.719
I think he chose the other one was going towards

512
00:38:35.719 --> 00:38:38.280
the city opposed to the one that was going towards

513
00:38:38.280 --> 00:38:45.079
the desert. And he finds her and he's like, oh,

514
00:38:45.199 --> 00:38:51.079
it's Lowis Lane, and she's not survived, and it's very sad,

515
00:38:51.679 --> 00:38:58.280
and he cries, and he then flies around the world

516
00:38:58.840 --> 00:39:07.280
lots of times and turns back time and it's very good.

517
00:39:07.679 --> 00:39:10.480
Why am I talking about Superman? Oh yeah, you can't.

518
00:39:10.599 --> 00:39:14.840
The ambulance they can't be everywhere. I mean, there's a

519
00:39:14.840 --> 00:39:16.960
lot more of them of them than there is a Superman.

520
00:39:17.599 --> 00:39:22.440
But at the same time, you know, I'm so grateful

521
00:39:22.440 --> 00:39:24.400
that we've got an ambulance service, that we've got in an

522
00:39:24.480 --> 00:39:28.039
NHS here, that we've got a police service, fire service,

523
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:34.880
and you know, just I am I'm grateful we've got

524
00:39:34.960 --> 00:39:38.239
people to come and collect the rubbish people that deliver

525
00:39:38.320 --> 00:39:43.320
the mail. Yeah, I am grateful for that. I don't

526
00:39:43.360 --> 00:39:46.559
always feel the gratitude, but you know, generally i'm quite

527
00:39:46.599 --> 00:39:56.079
I am grateful. So, yeah, my neighbor downstairs, I phone

528
00:39:56.119 --> 00:40:00.280
the police. Now I find I phoned the fires this

529
00:40:00.840 --> 00:40:04.159
next and I said, hello, I don't it. I don't

530
00:40:04.159 --> 00:40:09.119
know if you can help me. My neighbors on the

531
00:40:09.159 --> 00:40:14.760
floor downstairs. She's collapsed. She can't move, but she's locked out.

532
00:40:14.760 --> 00:40:18.280
I didn't know there's anyway you can get into the place,

533
00:40:19.519 --> 00:40:23.360
you know, she's the front doors locked solid and we

534
00:40:23.440 --> 00:40:25.159
can't get in. And the ambulance would be here in

535
00:40:25.159 --> 00:40:29.519
about forty five minutes, and they said, what do you

536
00:40:29.559 --> 00:40:39.039
expect us to do? I'm like, okay, And it was

537
00:40:39.079 --> 00:40:40.719
one of those like yeah, I know I need a

538
00:40:40.760 --> 00:40:44.639
locksmith obviously, but I just thought maybe in a situation

539
00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:50.239
like that, they could come and remove the door in

540
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:53.599
an emergency. It seemed like an emergency. It was an emergency.

541
00:40:54.519 --> 00:40:58.960
In fact, it was much more serious than realized. I

542
00:40:59.079 --> 00:41:02.360
just assumed it was, but no one else did for

543
00:41:02.360 --> 00:41:08.440
some reason. And then I called up the police and

544
00:41:08.519 --> 00:41:11.000
again they said, what do you want us to do

545
00:41:11.039 --> 00:41:13.360
about it? Do you what do you expect us to

546
00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:16.559
do about it? I mean literally those words, which I

547
00:41:16.599 --> 00:41:21.039
was a little bit surprised about. I said, well, she's locked.

548
00:41:21.679 --> 00:41:23.880
We can't get in there. The ambulance said they're going

549
00:41:23.880 --> 00:41:27.119
to be forty five minutes, and they said, well what

550
00:41:27.639 --> 00:41:30.639
I said? I said, yeah, but I think she had

551
00:41:30.639 --> 00:41:39.360
a heart attack, and they said, oh, okay. Five minutes

552
00:41:39.440 --> 00:41:43.760
later the ambulance was here. And in that five minutes,

553
00:41:44.280 --> 00:41:48.119
I got my friend. I asked my friend to get

554
00:41:48.119 --> 00:41:50.760
into the flat, and he did. He didn't go in,

555
00:41:50.920 --> 00:41:58.199
he took He removed the window from the bathroom or

556
00:41:58.239 --> 00:42:01.079
the kitchen, I think it was the bathroom. When he

557
00:42:01.199 --> 00:42:06.199
removed that in seconds, and just as he had removed that,

558
00:42:07.400 --> 00:42:10.199
her sister turned up, who was actually able to fit

559
00:42:10.239 --> 00:42:17.880
through the window. And just as she was pretty much

560
00:42:17.880 --> 00:42:23.159
climbing through the window, the ambulance turned up. So she

561
00:42:23.360 --> 00:42:26.840
came in. She opened the door from the inside. The

562
00:42:26.880 --> 00:42:29.079
ambulance went in there. We're in there for about half

563
00:42:29.079 --> 00:42:34.239
an hour, took her into the ambulance. The ambulance put

564
00:42:34.280 --> 00:42:36.800
you the paradix rother. Took her into the ambulance and

565
00:42:39.000 --> 00:42:41.119
they were working on her in the ambulance for about

566
00:42:41.119 --> 00:42:45.239
an hour, maybe an hour and a half, and then

567
00:42:45.280 --> 00:42:47.960
it her that took her to the hospital and she

568
00:42:48.159 --> 00:42:50.679
died two days later. Now I'm not saying this is

569
00:42:50.920 --> 00:42:54.239
a sad story, although it is a sad story. The

570
00:42:54.320 --> 00:42:57.760
fact is she had had a heart attack, and she

571
00:42:57.840 --> 00:43:02.920
had another one in the ambulance. So there was part

572
00:43:02.920 --> 00:43:06.440
of me feeling guilty, like, am I lying saying that

573
00:43:06.519 --> 00:43:09.400
she said ah attack but I didn't say she had.

574
00:43:09.400 --> 00:43:12.000
I said I think she's had when I actually did

575
00:43:12.039 --> 00:43:17.360
believe that, and I was right. I just couldn't figure

576
00:43:18.039 --> 00:43:19.800
any other reason why she would be lying on the

577
00:43:19.800 --> 00:43:24.760
floor for a couple of days unable to move unless

578
00:43:24.800 --> 00:43:30.400
there was something really seriously had happened internally outside of

579
00:43:30.519 --> 00:43:34.280
like a fall or something like that. But she apparently

580
00:43:34.320 --> 00:43:38.800
she wasn't injured, wasn't physically like whatever, She hadn't broken

581
00:43:38.840 --> 00:43:42.039
a hip or anything, according to her mum. She just

582
00:43:42.079 --> 00:43:48.760
couldn't move. So I, yeah, I don't even know why

583
00:43:48.760 --> 00:43:50.960
I'm talking about this. I've talked about it when it happened,

584
00:43:51.199 --> 00:43:53.360
but this just gives you an idea the kind of

585
00:43:53.400 --> 00:43:59.280
stuff that happens around here. And eventually, yesterday this lady

586
00:43:59.519 --> 00:44:06.239
she got to her, a dad turned up. He said, right,

587
00:44:07.679 --> 00:44:10.119
he couldn't she wouldn't get up. He couldn't pick her

588
00:44:10.199 --> 00:44:12.760
up on his own. He called his wife over or

589
00:44:12.800 --> 00:44:18.559
his girlfriend over, and he shouted Ory Doris, I don't

590
00:44:18.599 --> 00:44:21.400
know what her name was. Can you come here please?

591
00:44:21.519 --> 00:44:23.400
Can you bring the camera as well so we can

592
00:44:25.079 --> 00:44:28.239
take another picture for the photo album, for the family

593
00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:31.920
photo album. And then he was going on and it's

594
00:44:32.000 --> 00:44:34.880
like he's had years of this since she was a kid.

595
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:38.840
And he looked drained, He looked so much.

596
00:44:39.119 --> 00:44:39.719
I don't know.

597
00:44:40.480 --> 00:44:42.960
I have no idea what the background is behind the

598
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:47.280
whole thing. But there was no winners, that's for sure.

599
00:44:48.639 --> 00:44:52.239
And it's weird because I felt relief as he drove off,

600
00:44:54.440 --> 00:44:57.639
but at the same time, I knew that the journey

601
00:44:57.719 --> 00:45:02.920
was nowhere near ending for him or for her, And

602
00:45:03.800 --> 00:45:06.000
you know, it was over for me. I'd kind of

603
00:45:08.239 --> 00:45:11.800
I had a degree of relief. I still wasn't quite there,

604
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:15.320
but I was. It completely shattered me dealing with all

605
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:20.519
the different people. So I kind of felt for him,

606
00:45:20.599 --> 00:45:24.360
but I felt for her as well, because you know,

607
00:45:26.239 --> 00:45:31.280
it's it's addiction, isn't it. It's a horrible, horrible thing.

608
00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:33.360
And I've had to deal with it with lots of

609
00:45:33.360 --> 00:45:40.199
different people for for a long time actually, over the years,

610
00:45:41.039 --> 00:45:44.960
for a good old twenty years. Really, I've dealt with

611
00:45:45.360 --> 00:45:48.159
my own issues and other people's issues. I had a

612
00:45:48.159 --> 00:45:51.280
little bit of fling with alcohol when I was younger,

613
00:45:52.920 --> 00:45:59.159
but yeah, I was very strange. And then my other name,

614
00:45:59.280 --> 00:46:01.599
my other name was it freaked out about some stuff

615
00:46:01.639 --> 00:46:07.599
and I just ended up ten to nine I think

616
00:46:07.840 --> 00:46:11.760
after taking him out, or maybe five to nine. I

617
00:46:11.800 --> 00:46:18.360
got home after sort of doing some other stuff, and

618
00:46:18.360 --> 00:46:22.599
then by the time I'd cooked some teacakes because I

619
00:46:22.639 --> 00:46:29.519
was hungry, the Big Brother Live episode was seven minutes in,

620
00:46:30.639 --> 00:46:34.360
so I couldn't watch yesterday's episode to see I didn't

621
00:46:34.360 --> 00:46:40.159
even know who was evicted until, like I watched Disturb

622
00:46:40.199 --> 00:46:43.519
the live show. It just ruined it, you know, ruined

623
00:46:43.559 --> 00:46:46.840
the whole. I know, shouldn't all be about a TV show,

624
00:46:46.920 --> 00:46:58.440
but for me, this, this is what I enjoy. So

625
00:46:58.519 --> 00:47:01.719
that's why I'm late doing a Q Friday. And it

626
00:47:01.760 --> 00:47:07.000
took me what an hour to tell you that, Oh

627
00:47:07.079 --> 00:47:10.400
my goodness, it really did take me nearly fifty minutes

628
00:47:10.440 --> 00:47:13.119
to tell you that I'm sorry. I'm going to do

629
00:47:13.159 --> 00:47:20.400
a Q and a Friday. Now BlimE me. Wow, this

630
00:47:20.480 --> 00:47:23.079
is what this is what happens, this is how things

631
00:47:23.119 --> 00:47:26.880
work here. So I sometimes go on a bit. I've

632
00:47:26.880 --> 00:47:30.400
also got YouTube channel by the way at Jason Newland

633
00:47:31.320 --> 00:47:39.199
and it's it's a weird thing because it's just weird

634
00:47:39.239 --> 00:47:43.679
because I've been uploading the latest recordings all six and yeah,

635
00:47:44.400 --> 00:47:46.519
I don't think it's really working so well. But hey,

636
00:47:48.039 --> 00:47:51.639
oh well, so questions. Do I have any questions? Well,

637
00:47:51.760 --> 00:48:03.800
yes I do. I put a like a little form

638
00:48:04.079 --> 00:48:06.440
on my website that you can fill in if you've

639
00:48:06.440 --> 00:48:10.280
got questions for Q and a Friday. And I've had

640
00:48:10.280 --> 00:48:13.079
a few people fill it in this week. So I'm

641
00:48:13.159 --> 00:48:17.760
just check in, did did did LYD? Did lyd? So?

642
00:48:18.159 --> 00:48:19.440
QN A fri.

643
00:48:20.760 --> 00:48:21.000
Day?

644
00:48:21.079 --> 00:48:25.960
Where is it? I saved him in a folder one, two, three, four, five,

645
00:48:26.320 --> 00:48:31.280
six questions. This might be the longest Q and a

646
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:35.679
Friday in the history. By the way, I'm going to

647
00:48:35.760 --> 00:48:40.239
go buy order. If I miss any out, I will

648
00:48:40.280 --> 00:48:42.840
answer them next week. Okay, So I don't want this

649
00:48:42.920 --> 00:48:46.599
to be like three hours long. O things to do?

650
00:48:47.920 --> 00:48:52.440
So the first question is from Ann, if you don't

651
00:48:52.559 --> 00:48:55.239
mind me asking, I was wondering how old Andre was

652
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:05.480
when he passed. Yeah, yeah, he was about six and

653
00:49:05.519 --> 00:49:14.000
a half. The reason what happened basically had spine injury.

654
00:49:14.960 --> 00:49:19.119
A little kid trod on him a year earlier, like stamped,

655
00:49:19.239 --> 00:49:24.119
probably stomped on him. And you know, it wasn't anyone's

656
00:49:24.119 --> 00:49:25.719
fault is it was a little kid. It wasn't like

657
00:49:25.760 --> 00:49:27.280
a kid that knew what he was doing. Is like

658
00:49:27.320 --> 00:49:31.920
a little toddler really well, like three years old, four

659
00:49:32.000 --> 00:49:35.920
years old, and it just stomped on him. And at

660
00:49:35.960 --> 00:49:41.519
the time, Vinnie or Vinnie Andre seemed like he was

661
00:49:41.559 --> 00:49:44.760
just angry. I picked him up and he clung clung

662
00:49:44.800 --> 00:49:46.320
to me, but at the same time he wanted to

663
00:49:46.360 --> 00:49:50.920
have a fight with his kid. I thought nothing of it, really,

664
00:49:51.039 --> 00:49:54.199
I thought I didn't like it. But the mum was

665
00:49:54.199 --> 00:49:59.079
so but apologetic, and basically she called me over, can

666
00:49:59.119 --> 00:50:02.280
you can my little boy have a little look sort

667
00:50:02.280 --> 00:50:05.559
of say loo to your ferret? And I've spoken to

668
00:50:05.599 --> 00:50:09.639
her numerous times. She's a very friendly person. Still speak

669
00:50:09.719 --> 00:50:11.760
to her husband. Don't see her anymore, but I see

670
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:15.079
her husband regularly walking the dogs. He's also really friendly.

671
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:19.760
But the kids, we were just talking and the kid

672
00:50:20.400 --> 00:50:22.960
it happened so quick I saw it in a peripheral

673
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:29.199
and just see his leg raised and on Andre's scream. Anyway,

674
00:50:29.199 --> 00:50:32.039
I thought nothing of it. Really, she was like apologetics,

675
00:50:32.119 --> 00:50:34.400
like it's not your fault. We didn't know this was

676
00:50:34.440 --> 00:50:41.960
going to happen. And the next day Vinnie was struggling

677
00:50:42.000 --> 00:50:44.920
to walk. Vicki's so viny Andre was struggling to walk,

678
00:50:46.000 --> 00:50:50.719
and he was basically he couldn't walk. It was limping

679
00:50:50.840 --> 00:50:58.000
really badly. And I left it a day because I thought, ah,

680
00:50:59.199 --> 00:51:01.559
see how I am. I didn't even connect the two.

681
00:51:02.760 --> 00:51:05.440
That's how slow I am. Sometimes didn't even connect it.

682
00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:10.599
And until I took him to the vets, and the

683
00:51:10.679 --> 00:51:13.199
vets said they did an X ray on his back.

684
00:51:14.239 --> 00:51:20.000
They said he's got spiral injury, like he's been trod on.

685
00:51:20.159 --> 00:51:24.079
It was like, all okay, I said, yeah, a kid

686
00:51:24.079 --> 00:51:28.159
did stomp on him, trod on him on purpose. I said, okay,

687
00:51:28.199 --> 00:51:32.480
that'll do it. And I said what now. Then he said, well,

688
00:51:34.280 --> 00:51:40.800
in these cases, quite often, especially with ferrets, I mean,

689
00:51:40.800 --> 00:51:43.000
they're prone to have this kind of thing because they're

690
00:51:43.039 --> 00:51:47.079
so bendy. If you take that flexibility away from them,

691
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:54.079
it kind of ruins their life, really, because they're so

692
00:51:54.280 --> 00:51:59.920
bendy and he once you take that away, it's you know, quality,

693
00:52:00.159 --> 00:52:04.880
not great. The weird thing about it, he nearly parts

694
00:52:05.159 --> 00:52:06.800
unless it's going to say, I'm just talking about death

695
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:12.320
and this one. But he nearly died with the anesthetic.

696
00:52:12.920 --> 00:52:16.119
They yet to have to have the the X ray

697
00:52:16.360 --> 00:52:19.039
because he wou he wouldn't stand still or sit still

698
00:52:19.079 --> 00:52:22.480
for a second. And I wasn't allowed to hold him

699
00:52:22.480 --> 00:52:27.400
because this is during the old mask covering it period,

700
00:52:28.000 --> 00:52:32.159
if you remember that. So I couldn't be in the vets,

701
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:37.760
couldn't even be inside the building. I had to stand

702
00:52:37.760 --> 00:52:40.280
in the car park. I had to hand over the

703
00:52:40.320 --> 00:52:44.400
bag with him in it to the receptionist or to

704
00:52:44.480 --> 00:52:46.719
the vet who had a mask on. I had a

705
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:49.840
mask on. I would stand outside. He put his long arm.

706
00:52:50.119 --> 00:52:52.119
I couldn't believe that long exam was. It was about

707
00:52:52.159 --> 00:52:56.000
like eighteen foot long, and he picked it up and

708
00:52:56.039 --> 00:52:59.519
he took the bag in and I had to wait

709
00:52:59.559 --> 00:53:02.400
for him to I think he phoned me to let

710
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:05.800
me know how he was getting on. And I had

711
00:53:05.880 --> 00:53:10.800
to pick him up the next day because he was

712
00:53:10.840 --> 00:53:15.960
really groggy with the whole anesthetic, and they didn't know

713
00:53:16.000 --> 00:53:18.559
what to do because he wasn't. He was like, wasn't

714
00:53:18.599 --> 00:53:24.159
coming back, wasn't to be in fully aware. Well, in

715
00:53:24.199 --> 00:53:26.280
the end, I came and got him, took him home,

716
00:53:26.760 --> 00:53:30.079
and it took about a day or so, two days

717
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:32.719
I think, before he was normal again. He's just like

718
00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:34.960
just lying there, just looking at me. It was weird,

719
00:53:36.320 --> 00:53:42.639
like he was drunk or something. There wasn't really much

720
00:53:42.679 --> 00:53:46.039
they could do, but he recovered. I got videos of

721
00:53:46.079 --> 00:53:49.079
him limping around, and then a video of him. He

722
00:53:49.199 --> 00:53:50.960
still wanted to go for a walk, still wanted to

723
00:53:51.000 --> 00:53:55.119
do everything as before, And eventually he got it back.

724
00:53:55.320 --> 00:53:58.480
His leg was fine or his spine was fine, and

725
00:53:58.519 --> 00:54:03.679
his mobility was perfect, so I thought. And then a

726
00:54:03.760 --> 00:54:09.440
year later, for no reason other than just the injury,

727
00:54:10.119 --> 00:54:15.960
I guess that it got worse and he was limping again,

728
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:22.239
and there was more war going on this time, and

729
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:25.719
we were still in the masks, the mask episode, but

730
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:31.079
this time I was allowed inside the veterinary reception, but

731
00:54:31.039 --> 00:54:33.719
I wasn't allowed to be in now I was. I

732
00:54:33.800 --> 00:54:36.639
was allowed to go in there with him, but were

733
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:38.400
still you know, everyone had still had to wear a

734
00:54:38.440 --> 00:54:42.360
mask and stuff. So this was like two thousand and one,

735
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:49.039
twenty twenty one, I think, and he just said he

736
00:54:49.119 --> 00:54:53.920
had another X ray. He said that the spine's gone,

737
00:54:54.239 --> 00:54:57.039
like there was just warn it was so damaged from

738
00:54:57.079 --> 00:55:01.280
before that it didn't heal proper plea, but it healed

739
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:05.199
enough for him to because they're very determined old ferrets are.

740
00:55:06.039 --> 00:55:08.679
They don't care, they won't let anything get in their way.

741
00:55:08.719 --> 00:55:11.679
But he wasn't eating and that's a sign that he

742
00:55:11.760 --> 00:55:18.199
was in pain and there was no option. Really, Yeah,

743
00:55:23.360 --> 00:55:25.440
so that was it. That's so, yeah, six and a

744
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:27.639
half years ago where it was the end, It was

745
00:55:27.679 --> 00:55:33.679
like June twoenty twenty one, wasn't six and a half

746
00:55:33.719 --> 00:55:35.159
years ago, but I think he was about six and

747
00:55:35.159 --> 00:55:37.119
a half years when I got in went when he

748
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:43.480
passed away. Yeah, So I would try and lighten it

749
00:55:43.559 --> 00:55:49.199
up if I can. Jace, this is from Maria r

750
00:55:50.079 --> 00:55:52.159
Hi Jason. What's the longest time you ever lived in

751
00:55:52.159 --> 00:55:55.480
one place? Are there any fond childhood memories that you

752
00:55:55.559 --> 00:56:00.920
can recall? Thank you? Oh, I can't think of any

753
00:56:00.960 --> 00:56:04.320
childhood memories. So the longest time I ever lived in

754
00:56:04.320 --> 00:56:10.320
one place is here this place. Never lived anywhere for

755
00:56:10.360 --> 00:56:16.679
ten years before the second longest place was I guess

756
00:56:16.719 --> 00:56:19.559
like the family home would call it that I lived

757
00:56:20.119 --> 00:56:26.360
for between the ages of nine and fifteen, So what's

758
00:56:26.400 --> 00:56:32.199
that tenth nine and fifteen, six, it's not that long

759
00:56:32.239 --> 00:56:38.320
as it really six years? Wow, it seemed like forever,

760
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:41.920
but then I was young, so yeah. The second longest

761
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:48.679
place was there was six years, and I did live

762
00:56:48.719 --> 00:56:51.639
at a couple of places for about four years each.

763
00:56:53.960 --> 00:56:56.559
When I first moved to Stratford from ninety one to

764
00:56:56.679 --> 00:57:02.719
ninety four, well three and a half years, so I

765
00:57:02.760 --> 00:57:05.519
spent three and a half years living in that room

766
00:57:06.000 --> 00:57:09.039
and there was another room in Stratford where I moved in.

767
00:57:10.920 --> 00:57:19.199
Was it probably about June to June nineteen ninety seven.

768
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:30.639
I moved out the summer two thousand and one, so yeah,

769
00:57:30.639 --> 00:57:34.320
that's four I was there for about four years. I

770
00:57:34.440 --> 00:57:39.599
was evicted from there. And when I was at university,

771
00:57:39.639 --> 00:57:44.639
I stayed in a place, in a room from November

772
00:57:47.199 --> 00:57:58.440
nineteen ninety two thousand and seven, and I moved out.

773
00:58:00.159 --> 00:58:06.559
I spelled like March two thousand and eleven, two thousand

774
00:58:06.559 --> 00:58:11.039
and eleven. Yeah, so what's that two thousand and seven,

775
00:58:11.159 --> 00:58:18.679
November two thousand and eight, two thousand and nine, twenty ten,

776
00:58:19.519 --> 00:58:31.320
So again that three years and probably three months. Yeah,

777
00:58:32.079 --> 00:58:37.079
I mean I lived at the MSA, the YMCA from

778
00:58:37.239 --> 00:58:47.599
September two thousand and one until about March two thousand

779
00:58:47.639 --> 00:58:51.079
and four, but I lived in three different studio apartments.

780
00:58:51.119 --> 00:58:55.119
There were studio flats, so I didn't stay in the

781
00:58:55.159 --> 00:58:58.000
same place, but I moved around because I just started

782
00:58:58.000 --> 00:59:02.320
trying to find someway quiet. But you know, technically in

783
00:59:02.360 --> 00:59:05.239
the same well, not technically I was literally in the

784
00:59:05.280 --> 00:59:10.119
same building. It's a very big building. From September two

785
00:59:10.119 --> 00:59:16.960
thousand and one, two thousand and two, two thousand and three.

786
00:59:17.280 --> 00:59:21.679
That's two years, and for two and a half years

787
00:59:21.679 --> 00:59:25.480
I suppose I was living there. This seemed a lot

788
00:59:25.519 --> 00:59:40.760
longer at the time. No, yes, no BlimE, me see

789
00:59:41.000 --> 00:59:43.000
weird because if I'd have stayed there, i'd have got

790
00:59:43.320 --> 00:59:46.360
I would have been shortlisted to get a council flat.

791
00:59:50.559 --> 00:59:52.119
That's not why I moved in there. I moved in

792
00:59:52.159 --> 00:59:54.039
there because it's the only place I could find anywhere

793
00:59:54.039 --> 00:59:58.239
to live when I moved from London, because I had

794
00:59:58.280 --> 01:00:00.559
a job to start and I could not find anywhere

795
01:00:00.719 --> 01:00:08.119
get a room or anything. And they basically I phoned

796
01:00:08.159 --> 01:00:11.599
them up. I had a friend say try to YMCA,

797
01:00:11.719 --> 01:00:14.079
so I did, and they said Yeah, we've got a

798
01:00:14.119 --> 01:00:16.480
place for you if you want to come. Never look

799
01:00:16.519 --> 01:00:20.840
tomorrow or Monday or whenever. Yeah, this is on I

800
01:00:20.840 --> 01:00:23.920
think this is on a Saturday. And I said, yeah,

801
01:00:23.960 --> 01:00:25.400
if you want to come Monday and have a look.

802
01:00:26.159 --> 01:00:34.199
Really yeah, because at the time I was staying in Yeah,

803
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:37.000
I was staying in a bed and breakfast because I

804
01:00:37.079 --> 01:00:43.000
just started the job September I think it was the ninth.

805
01:00:44.840 --> 01:00:47.800
I think ninth September ninth, two thousand and one.

806
01:00:47.840 --> 01:00:48.199
It was a.

807
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:54.880
Monday, I think, and I I stayed in the bed

808
01:00:54.960 --> 01:01:01.559
and Breakfast. I moved in on a Sunday, stayed in

809
01:01:01.599 --> 01:01:05.039
the bed and breakfast. I was still I was DJing

810
01:01:05.039 --> 01:01:10.400
in London, so I still had my weekend hobby as

811
01:01:10.400 --> 01:01:13.840
a DJ. I didn't want to give that up, but

812
01:01:14.960 --> 01:01:18.440
I had to. But luckily I had three weeks where

813
01:01:18.440 --> 01:01:21.760
I could still do it, and then I had to

814
01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:24.360
give it up because I was moving away. But at

815
01:01:24.360 --> 01:01:27.239
this point what I was doing is going to London,

816
01:01:28.280 --> 01:01:32.480
staying over in London, and then coming back Sunday evening.

817
01:01:34.480 --> 01:01:37.320
So I think I did two weeks in the bed

818
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:42.480
and Breakfast. But it was expensive, you know, I was

819
01:01:42.639 --> 01:01:46.920
not I didn't have I hadn't hurt that I will

820
01:01:47.079 --> 01:01:51.400
learn to speak one day. I hadn't earned any money

821
01:01:51.920 --> 01:01:58.360
yet because I'd only done two weeks of work, so

822
01:01:58.920 --> 01:02:02.960
I I'm not quite sure how I got by, but

823
01:02:04.079 --> 01:02:12.239
I did stop moaning. Finny, you like, why can't the

824
01:02:12.400 --> 01:02:20.400
sounds you make make me feel nice? That? Like it

825
01:02:20.440 --> 01:02:25.719
winds me up because it's just like, he's never never satisfied,

826
01:02:25.800 --> 01:02:30.400
don't you You're never satisfied? Well, no treat, but he

827
01:02:30.480 --> 01:02:38.079
had that whining just grates me a little bit. Sometimes

828
01:02:37.840 --> 01:02:43.280
it's like, come on, It's just like I wish they

829
01:02:43.280 --> 01:02:45.599
could talk so I could really know what he's talking about,

830
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.159
and he's fullaby thinking. You know, I just want to

831
01:02:51.440 --> 01:02:53.320
Every time I go up to my daddy and I

832
01:02:53.360 --> 01:02:55.280
just want to talk about and ask him about his day,

833
01:02:55.320 --> 01:02:57.840
he sticks a treat in my mouth. I don't even

834
01:02:57.840 --> 01:02:59.800
want to treat. I don't even like him. I eat them,

835
01:02:59.840 --> 01:03:04.679
just please? Hi. I was just yeah, Okay, that's not likely,

836
01:03:04.800 --> 01:03:09.519
is it? So yeah, I'm trying to think, are there

837
01:03:09.559 --> 01:03:22.480
any fond childed memories that you can recall? Yeah? I'm

838
01:03:22.519 --> 01:03:35.000
sure there was loads. Recalling them is another thing. I mean,

839
01:03:35.079 --> 01:03:39.719
Christmases were always good, like during the period between the

840
01:03:39.760 --> 01:03:49.719
ages of seven and fourteen. Things when even fifteen, but

841
01:03:49.840 --> 01:03:52.360
things have got a bit stressed at home by then.

842
01:03:52.559 --> 01:04:00.119
But during that period, Christmases were brilliant. So every Christmas

843
01:04:00.360 --> 01:04:05.119
was great pretty much when I was a kid at

844
01:04:05.159 --> 01:04:09.679
you know, between the ages of seven and fourteen, every

845
01:04:10.039 --> 01:04:17.639
Christmas unless I'm forgetting stuff, but generally I don't have.

846
01:04:18.679 --> 01:04:20.760
I told you when I got a bike, that was

847
01:04:20.800 --> 01:04:25.760
cool because it was the only time I really got something.

848
01:04:26.079 --> 01:04:29.000
I was always happy what I got I got. That's

849
01:04:29.000 --> 01:04:33.840
the one thing about my parents at the time, very

850
01:04:33.880 --> 01:04:37.159
generous when it came to Christmas and birthdays and stuff

851
01:04:37.199 --> 01:04:40.599
like that. It can't be no way can they be

852
01:04:40.639 --> 01:04:47.000
faulted for that. It was so generous. I had multiple presents,

853
01:04:47.679 --> 01:04:50.960
loads and loads of loads, so it was brilliant. But

854
01:04:51.119 --> 01:04:54.800
only once did I you know that this I don't know,

855
01:04:54.880 --> 01:04:57.400
maybe it's the same four kids. There was that one

856
01:04:57.480 --> 01:05:02.679
present as a kid that you want, you want father

857
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:07.639
Christmas to bring you and mine did. I did get

858
01:05:07.679 --> 01:05:09.280
that and it was a bike. It was a racer

859
01:05:10.440 --> 01:05:18.199
and I was probably thirteen at the time. I had

860
01:05:18.199 --> 01:05:22.000
a paper around and I just wanted I needed a

861
01:05:22.079 --> 01:05:24.559
bike to get me around. Because it was taking me

862
01:05:24.719 --> 01:05:28.880
so long, and I was yeah, so yeah, I got

863
01:05:28.960 --> 01:05:33.199
my bike for Christmas. It's brilliant. It's very very pleased,

864
01:05:33.239 --> 01:05:41.519
best present I ever had. I'm trying to think. Yeah,

865
01:05:41.559 --> 01:05:48.400
so that was always good. I used to like going

866
01:05:48.440 --> 01:05:50.360
to the library on my own.

867
01:05:51.159 --> 01:05:51.880
That was nice.

868
01:05:52.960 --> 01:05:56.880
When I discovered the library, the library became kind of

869
01:05:56.880 --> 01:06:00.360
like a second home for me. I just loved it,

870
01:06:00.480 --> 01:06:04.400
loved going in there, reading the books, sitting down reading

871
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:07.400
the books, going through every single book on the shelf,

872
01:06:08.199 --> 01:06:10.960
having a little dip. You know that sounded weird, but

873
01:06:11.000 --> 01:06:12.679
you know what I mean, dipping in and have a

874
01:06:12.719 --> 01:06:20.920
little read. There was up upstairs. There was this I

875
01:06:21.000 --> 01:06:26.800
don't know, like partition thing upstairs where there was these

876
01:06:28.480 --> 01:06:32.119
kind of like encyclopedias and there was a big tables

877
01:06:32.159 --> 01:06:35.679
so I suppose the research area maybe they would call it.

878
01:06:36.880 --> 01:06:39.760
And I went through a period when I was researching

879
01:06:42.119 --> 01:06:46.760
things that's very interested in. I don't want to say

880
01:06:46.760 --> 01:06:49.320
the occult because that sounds a bit bad, but I

881
01:06:49.360 --> 01:06:57.159
was really interested in were wolves and witches and vampires

882
01:06:58.800 --> 01:07:02.800
and all that stuff fascinated me. I was interested in

883
01:07:02.920 --> 01:07:07.000
UFOs and I just I'd literally go in and I

884
01:07:07.000 --> 01:07:12.519
would do my own research on a subject. So I

885
01:07:12.599 --> 01:07:17.400
researched vampires and Dracula and I was led the Impaler,

886
01:07:17.599 --> 01:07:20.199
and I just I researched that. I went through all

887
01:07:20.239 --> 01:07:23.559
the different books and I copied out they what they

888
01:07:23.599 --> 01:07:28.599
wrote into my own pads just for me. It was

889
01:07:28.639 --> 01:07:33.480
not for I wouldn't you wouldn't find me doing homework

890
01:07:36.079 --> 01:07:41.920
at all, but this, yeah, I was. There was no

891
01:07:42.000 --> 01:07:45.960
reason for it. I just got obsessed. So that's what

892
01:07:46.079 --> 01:07:49.880
I did. That was brilliant. I spent hours doing that.

893
01:07:52.280 --> 01:07:54.840
I'd love that. And I'd had maybe three or four

894
01:07:55.599 --> 01:07:58.440
five big massive textbooks out and I'd just been looking

895
01:07:58.440 --> 01:08:03.239
at all the different pictures and yeah, loved it to Yeah,

896
01:08:03.599 --> 01:08:04.679
absolutely loved it.

897
01:08:06.559 --> 01:08:13.599
And reading.

898
01:08:17.720 --> 01:08:19.800
I think my favorite bit was when none of the

899
01:08:19.800 --> 01:08:22.520
family were around, when I could just be I didn't

900
01:08:22.520 --> 01:08:25.920
mind obviously if they were around, but not around me,

901
01:08:27.119 --> 01:08:32.279
so I could be left on my own quiet. One

902
01:08:32.279 --> 01:08:35.039
of my favorite things to do. And I'm thinking back

903
01:08:36.279 --> 01:08:42.000
when I was like maybe ten eleven, ten, yeah, probably

904
01:08:42.000 --> 01:08:53.520
about ten, I would lie down on my Yeah, I'd

905
01:08:53.560 --> 01:08:58.119
lie down on the bed and I'd listen to classical music.

906
01:08:58.720 --> 01:09:03.680
There was an album which was basically the A Lot

907
01:09:03.680 --> 01:09:15.880
of really really big movie scores. There's what was.

908
01:09:15.880 --> 01:09:19.159
That Do Do Do Do do.

909
01:09:18.520 --> 01:09:22.000
A million dollars? Fist full of million dollars or whatever,

910
01:09:24.000 --> 01:09:29.760
and there was the Pretty Star Wars and Superman. Definitely

911
01:09:29.800 --> 01:09:34.520
Superman because they had the long version where Louis Lane

912
01:09:35.159 --> 01:09:39.159
is actually talking in them in the song and it's

913
01:09:39.159 --> 01:09:41.760
the bit where they're singing no, it is a bit

914
01:09:41.800 --> 01:09:46.439
where they're yeah, there's a bit. There's some music from

915
01:09:46.520 --> 01:09:50.600
Superman where she's flying with him or he's holding her

916
01:09:50.600 --> 01:09:53.880
and flying with her, and it's like a romantic one.

917
01:09:53.920 --> 01:09:57.399
And there's a song that it's really nice song. But anyway,

918
01:09:57.399 --> 01:09:59.800
I used to do that. I just lay down on

919
01:09:59.880 --> 01:10:05.800
a back listened to the music and relax. When I

920
01:10:05.800 --> 01:10:14.119
was about ten. So that was a nice memory. Every

921
01:10:14.159 --> 01:10:21.279
time I visited my uncle, my uncle Terry, that was

922
01:10:21.319 --> 01:10:25.399
a nice memory because he was so brilliant. It was

923
01:10:25.439 --> 01:10:30.560
just lovely. It was lovely. I mean, yeah, he had money,

924
01:10:31.239 --> 01:10:33.720
but that wasn't the reason he was lovely. He was

925
01:10:33.760 --> 01:10:39.159
just lovely, best uncle you could wish for. So I

926
01:10:39.279 --> 01:10:43.399
visited him a few times, a couple of times when

927
01:10:43.439 --> 01:10:45.479
I was a bit older, when I was in my teens,

928
01:10:46.560 --> 01:10:54.039
and it always treated me with respect, always treated me

929
01:10:54.199 --> 01:10:57.600
like a human, but didn't talk down to me, didn't

930
01:10:57.840 --> 01:11:03.520
treat me like I was a kid. And he showed interest,

931
01:11:06.600 --> 01:11:09.560
and it was like almost like I was an equal

932
01:11:12.039 --> 01:11:14.319
in a way, in a weird way, and he was,

933
01:11:15.039 --> 01:11:17.039
you know, he's fairly well off. He was a wealthy

934
01:11:17.439 --> 01:11:20.479
owned his own shipping company. This is back in Dover,

935
01:11:21.520 --> 01:11:23.159
so he was, you know, as well off, lived in

936
01:11:23.159 --> 01:11:29.479
a really large house on the beach in deal or something.

937
01:11:29.600 --> 01:11:34.640
Can't deal with her so lovely though, And someone said

938
01:11:34.640 --> 01:11:36.079
to me, oh, yeah, it's easy to be nice if

939
01:11:36.079 --> 01:11:40.520
you're rich, Like I don't think it's that simple. It's

940
01:11:40.600 --> 01:11:44.319
not that it's a very simple way to look at it.

941
01:11:44.319 --> 01:11:50.640
It's there's nothing wrong with being wealthy. And I've met

942
01:11:50.680 --> 01:11:56.640
plenty of people that weren't so nice. We're now wealthy,

943
01:11:57.319 --> 01:11:59.960
and I've met lots of people that were really nice

944
01:12:00.359 --> 01:12:05.960
when they were had no money, but also met really

945
01:12:06.880 --> 01:12:12.039
unpleasant people that had no money as well. It's I

946
01:12:12.039 --> 01:12:14.800
think it's down to the personality and not what's in

947
01:12:14.840 --> 01:12:19.680
their bank account. I'm guessing that's just my personal take

948
01:12:19.720 --> 01:12:24.319
on it. But it was lovely and it can't be

949
01:12:24.439 --> 01:12:30.079
changed that those memories, and I think the fact that

950
01:12:30.119 --> 01:12:32.079
he left me left me to do what I wanted

951
01:12:32.119 --> 01:12:34.880
to do. By that, I don't mean I was left

952
01:12:34.920 --> 01:12:37.359
on my own, but he's just like, if I wanted

953
01:12:37.359 --> 01:12:39.800
to go into a different room and watch movies on

954
01:12:39.840 --> 01:12:46.600
my own, I could, and that was quite nice because

955
01:12:46.640 --> 01:12:49.079
I didn't really get to do that like at home

956
01:12:49.119 --> 01:12:53.319
because there were so many of us. So I think

957
01:12:53.840 --> 01:12:58.840
any time my family wasn't around, I was kind of happier.

958
01:13:00.239 --> 01:13:05.079
I think it was just crowd too many people constantly

959
01:13:05.199 --> 01:13:09.239
arguing between my brothers and me, they'd bring me into

960
01:13:09.319 --> 01:13:11.840
it as well. I'd probably argue more with my middle

961
01:13:11.880 --> 01:13:15.479
brother than with my oldest brother, but then he would

962
01:13:15.479 --> 01:13:20.800
probably argue with They would argue amongst themselves more as well,

963
01:13:20.840 --> 01:13:23.720
because it's like the age, because there was two years

964
01:13:23.760 --> 01:13:26.439
between me and my middle brother, those two years through

965
01:13:26.520 --> 01:13:30.560
my middle brother and my oldest brother, but that four

966
01:13:30.640 --> 01:13:35.439
year gap meant that we weren't really very different in age,

967
01:13:36.359 --> 01:13:40.439
so we didn't have so much to argue about. And

968
01:13:40.479 --> 01:13:42.479
then my little brother was eight years younger than me,

969
01:13:42.920 --> 01:13:47.319
so no one really argued with him until he got

970
01:13:47.319 --> 01:13:49.880
to about probably five or six.

971
01:13:50.720 --> 01:13:51.119
And then.

972
01:13:53.079 --> 01:13:55.439
Yeah, it was a bit of a bit of a

973
01:13:55.479 --> 01:14:06.119
little ruffian. Yeah, so I don't what do I want memories?

974
01:14:06.680 --> 01:14:09.560
See one of my fondest memories, And it's going to

975
01:14:09.560 --> 01:14:13.199
be weird for anyone that from the UK that knows

976
01:14:13.640 --> 01:14:21.600
the person I'm mentioning. But my school, and I think

977
01:14:21.640 --> 01:14:31.279
it was nineteen seventy nine, maybe nineteen eighty. My school

978
01:14:31.319 --> 01:14:37.119
was on the Rolf Harris Show and we rehearsed for

979
01:14:37.720 --> 01:14:43.119
months before that before the filming. At the time, Rolf

980
01:14:43.199 --> 01:14:50.359
Harris was super famous in his country and it travel

981
01:14:50.439 --> 01:14:54.359
around different schools and they'd be singing and dancing and

982
01:14:54.399 --> 01:14:59.039
all that stuff. The thing is it wasn't filmed in

983
01:14:59.079 --> 01:15:03.079
the schools that their own studio that they filmed it in,

984
01:15:03.439 --> 01:15:05.600
but it was it was a school. It looked like

985
01:15:05.640 --> 01:15:08.640
a school, and it probably was a school, to be fair,

986
01:15:08.720 --> 01:15:11.720
but it was maybe they used it during the summertime,

987
01:15:13.439 --> 01:15:15.640
but then make out it was the school, you know,

988
01:15:16.880 --> 01:15:19.600
the actual school that makes sense, the school that they

989
01:15:19.600 --> 01:15:26.640
were visiting. So it wasn't just the it wasn't just

990
01:15:26.720 --> 01:15:31.399
the whole day, the traveling with all the kids, because

991
01:15:31.520 --> 01:15:35.119
you know, the whole school wasn't just like one year.

992
01:15:35.199 --> 01:15:39.000
So there's probably I don't know how many coachfuls of

993
01:15:39.119 --> 01:15:46.359
kids there was. We were all The rehearsing bit was

994
01:15:46.560 --> 01:15:49.319
really fun, so there's a lot of singing, a lot

995
01:15:49.319 --> 01:15:54.399
of dancing, you know. The sixth well I say six

996
01:15:54.560 --> 01:15:56.560
maybe maybe it was three months leading up to, but

997
01:15:56.640 --> 01:16:02.840
it seemed like quite a long time. And I think

998
01:16:02.960 --> 01:16:05.880
Rolf Harris came around and saw us first at the

999
01:16:05.920 --> 01:16:09.800
school to announce that he was going to be having

1000
01:16:09.880 --> 01:16:12.960
us on his show, and it was one of the

1001
01:16:13.000 --> 01:16:18.600
biggest shows on Saturday night TV early TV, and he

1002
01:16:18.640 --> 01:16:23.279
did a different different school each week, so it was exciting.

1003
01:16:23.880 --> 01:16:27.560
The build up was exciting. The actual event was brilliant.

1004
01:16:28.880 --> 01:16:33.560
I was on Camra quite a few times and I

1005
01:16:33.600 --> 01:16:37.079
said I was like nine or ten. I'm not sure

1006
01:16:37.119 --> 01:16:40.680
exactly that the act exact year is even nineteen seventy

1007
01:16:40.840 --> 01:16:46.560
nine or ninety, nineteen eighty, and it could be eighty one,

1008
01:16:46.600 --> 01:16:51.039
because I'd have been ten in eighty one. Yes, maybe

1009
01:16:51.039 --> 01:16:52.920
it was eighty one. I think it was nineteen eighty.

1010
01:16:53.560 --> 01:17:00.560
I think it was brilliant, absolutely one of the best

1011
01:17:00.640 --> 01:17:06.439
days of my childhood. So yeah, I mean Rolf Harris

1012
01:17:06.600 --> 01:17:11.439
is no longer around and see, yeah, things didn't go

1013
01:17:11.640 --> 01:17:16.119
quite so well with him and his career, But it

1014
01:17:16.159 --> 01:17:18.279
doesn't take away the fact that that was one of

1015
01:17:18.319 --> 01:17:26.000
the highlights of my childhood. Positive highlights. What else childed

1016
01:17:26.199 --> 01:17:32.920
fond chartered memories that I can recall. There was a

1017
01:17:32.960 --> 01:17:36.239
period when my dad was in a good mood. I

1018
01:17:36.239 --> 01:17:40.680
don't don't quite know why, but I remember coming home

1019
01:17:40.760 --> 01:17:43.520
from school. So I was a teenager at this point,

1020
01:17:43.560 --> 01:17:48.239
so I would have been probably thirteen, maybe twelve thirteen,

1021
01:17:50.199 --> 01:17:57.159
and his I don't know what it is he went.

1022
01:17:57.359 --> 01:17:59.840
There was this little period when he was buying stuff.

1023
01:18:00.319 --> 01:18:05.079
So she bought a new computer. And even though I

1024
01:18:05.119 --> 01:18:08.760
don't have they had no interest in computers back then.

1025
01:18:11.680 --> 01:18:16.560
The fact that everyone was happy was nice. My dad

1026
01:18:16.680 --> 01:18:20.880
was excited, My brothers were excited. My middle brother was

1027
01:18:20.880 --> 01:18:24.359
more excited than anyone about the computer, and he was

1028
01:18:24.439 --> 01:18:29.920
learning to code and all kinds of stuff. But it

1029
01:18:30.000 --> 01:18:33.680
was just and yeah, it was nice because it was

1030
01:18:33.680 --> 01:18:37.840
a nice atmosphere. So that happened a few times. Those

1031
01:18:37.920 --> 01:18:47.960
kinds of things, Yeah, I did. I'm never really I

1032
01:18:48.000 --> 01:18:52.279
don't think I really felt like I am superstitious, But

1033
01:18:52.359 --> 01:18:56.159
I tried to do the exact same walk and tried

1034
01:18:56.199 --> 01:19:02.279
to do everything the same as I did that day

1035
01:19:02.439 --> 01:19:05.600
on the same day of the week, to see if

1036
01:19:05.600 --> 01:19:08.319
I get the same result. So I got home and

1037
01:19:08.439 --> 01:19:12.199
things were nice. It's weird. I'd be like looking at

1038
01:19:12.239 --> 01:19:15.680
the floor at which bit did I walk on? How

1039
01:19:15.680 --> 01:19:19.199
did I feel? What was I listening to? Or do

1040
01:19:19.319 --> 01:19:22.359
you know? Just really trying to focus on getting into

1041
01:19:22.399 --> 01:19:26.800
that zone of if I could get into the same zone,

1042
01:19:27.159 --> 01:19:31.039
the same mindset, feeling exactly the same way as I

1043
01:19:31.079 --> 01:19:35.600
did the day when I got home and the computer

1044
01:19:35.680 --> 01:19:38.439
was there and he was in a good mood and

1045
01:19:38.560 --> 01:19:41.720
everyone was like happy past. If I could get into that,

1046
01:19:42.479 --> 01:19:45.439
then the same would happen again, not a new computer,

1047
01:19:45.520 --> 01:19:53.439
but just it'd be the same vibe. And yeah, that's

1048
01:19:53.439 --> 01:20:00.079
that's what I used to try and do. One one

1049
01:20:00.119 --> 01:20:03.920
of my happy memories. I think when I was a kid,

1050
01:20:04.399 --> 01:20:08.319
Saturday evenings was nice. Quite often we'd all sit down

1051
01:20:08.359 --> 01:20:12.439
and watch TV. When I was really young, I would

1052
01:20:12.640 --> 01:20:17.439
sit lay on my front watching TV. I'd be on

1053
01:20:17.479 --> 01:20:20.000
the floor. They want to go a bit older. I

1054
01:20:20.159 --> 01:20:24.319
was well. I was told I couldn't because my bomb

1055
01:20:24.359 --> 01:20:27.159
was too big. No one could see the TV. That's

1056
01:20:27.199 --> 01:20:30.359
not true. I don't know why I said it. And

1057
01:20:30.479 --> 01:20:33.720
so we'd all have a dressing gowns on would have

1058
01:20:33.800 --> 01:20:38.840
eaten at dinner, which was usually like in the evening,

1059
01:20:39.319 --> 01:20:42.159
like a snack kind of like crisps, the buffet kind

1060
01:20:42.199 --> 01:20:45.840
of thing that would have So that was nice. Then

1061
01:20:47.840 --> 01:20:53.560
we'd watch TV or like TV shows early evening and

1062
01:20:55.760 --> 01:20:58.239
I'd probably be in bed at eight or whatever time

1063
01:20:58.279 --> 01:21:02.319
I don't know by them addressing gown on get a

1064
01:21:02.359 --> 01:21:11.159
bag of sweets, which is cool. So yeah, those were nice.

1065
01:21:12.359 --> 01:21:16.199
And then there was the period when because we didn't

1066
01:21:16.199 --> 01:21:21.239
always do it, but there was appeared when we had Yeah,

1067
01:21:21.319 --> 01:21:25.880
we used to get videos, not every week, but when

1068
01:21:25.920 --> 01:21:29.439
we did get videos, we'd get like four movies maybe

1069
01:21:29.479 --> 01:21:32.600
on a Friday night, maybe Saturday night, and we'd be

1070
01:21:32.600 --> 01:21:34.319
able to keep it for the weekend and take it

1071
01:21:34.359 --> 01:21:37.359
back on the Sunday or the Monday or something like that.

1072
01:21:38.079 --> 01:21:43.479
This is like early days of the video take cossette,

1073
01:21:43.800 --> 01:21:47.520
and that used to be brilliant, going down to the

1074
01:21:47.600 --> 01:21:54.079
video shop and we'd all go down together and try

1075
01:21:54.119 --> 01:22:02.520
and choose some movies together and yeah, great, yeah, I

1076
01:22:02.520 --> 01:22:04.399
think we were allowed to take it back Monday. So

1077
01:22:04.439 --> 01:22:07.640
what we did is we took it back so we'd

1078
01:22:07.680 --> 01:22:12.560
rent or was it Sunday afternoon, so my dad would

1079
01:22:12.560 --> 01:22:15.039
take us up there in the car and we'd get

1080
01:22:15.039 --> 01:22:17.039
the stuff, and then one of us or a couple

1081
01:22:17.039 --> 01:22:19.640
of us would walk back and take the tapes backs

1082
01:22:19.880 --> 01:22:26.319
down the seafront. It's probably about thirty forty minute walk.

1083
01:22:29.239 --> 01:22:31.079
Unless it was Monday, we had to take it back.

1084
01:22:31.479 --> 01:22:35.840
It's not really that relevant, but yeah, that was cool.

1085
01:22:36.119 --> 01:22:38.159
That was nice. I liked that. I used to look

1086
01:22:38.199 --> 01:22:45.720
forward to that childhood memories. Probably some of my favorite

1087
01:22:45.800 --> 01:22:50.680
childhood memories was when I got my first television and

1088
01:22:50.800 --> 01:22:56.279
I was fourteen, and it was a black and white

1089
01:22:56.319 --> 01:23:04.920
porbod TV, and it was the first time that I

1090
01:23:05.199 --> 01:23:12.600
had any kind of say of all I watched outside

1091
01:23:12.680 --> 01:23:15.800
of being in the living room on my own, you know,

1092
01:23:15.840 --> 01:23:17.520
because there's stuff I used to be able to watch

1093
01:23:17.520 --> 01:23:19.640
when I was a kid that no one else watched,

1094
01:23:19.880 --> 01:23:23.680
like Grange Hill. My little brother was too young to

1095
01:23:23.720 --> 01:23:27.479
watch it, and both my older brothers were too old

1096
01:23:27.479 --> 01:23:29.600
to watch it. So it was a time when I

1097
01:23:29.640 --> 01:23:31.840
had the TV to myself for about an hour and

1098
01:23:31.880 --> 01:23:35.079
a half two hours sometimes, you know, when I was

1099
01:23:35.119 --> 01:23:41.119
around about the maybe twelve mark, i'd watch Yeah, I'd

1100
01:23:41.119 --> 01:23:45.119
watch Grange Hill for example, my brothers were too old,

1101
01:23:45.199 --> 01:23:49.399
they like, wouldn't watch that no more. I remember watching

1102
01:23:51.079 --> 01:23:57.479
Mister Merlin. But then there was a period when when

1103
01:23:57.479 --> 01:23:59.840
my little brother was old enough, we used to watch

1104
01:24:01.039 --> 01:24:07.479
cartoons together, so things like Musket Hounds, what other ones,

1105
01:24:10.199 --> 01:24:27.439
Danger Mouse, Mighty Mouse, Scooby Doo, the Muppet Babies. So

1106
01:24:27.520 --> 01:24:29.920
this is something. I don't think my little brother even

1107
01:24:29.960 --> 01:24:33.119
remembered this, but he there was this.

1108
01:24:33.319 --> 01:24:34.119
There was a film.

1109
01:24:34.399 --> 01:24:36.359
I sent him a birthday card with it once on it,

1110
01:24:36.399 --> 01:24:39.039
and he didn't I think he remembered how to point

1111
01:24:39.079 --> 01:24:41.760
out what it was. And it was a movie called

1112
01:24:41.920 --> 01:24:50.840
Animal Olympics, Animal Impics. He watched it over and over

1113
01:24:51.800 --> 01:24:56.720
and over and over and over and over again. I

1114
01:24:56.760 --> 01:25:02.239
mean probably hundreds of times. That is his favorite movie.

1115
01:25:03.960 --> 01:25:06.920
He just loved watching it. I'm not sure how much

1116
01:25:06.960 --> 01:25:09.840
he understood what was going on because he was little,

1117
01:25:10.000 --> 01:25:13.319
really little, but he loved watching it. And I sent

1118
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:15.319
him a birthday card a couple of years back with

1119
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:20.600
like an image from that, and he didn't know what

1120
01:25:20.640 --> 01:25:25.920
it was. I don't think I should tell him one day, Well,

1121
01:25:25.920 --> 01:25:28.119
he has to live and you want another treat, Yeah,

1122
01:25:28.119 --> 01:25:31.600
that's what it is. This is what we're doing. You're

1123
01:25:31.680 --> 01:25:36.479
just feeding, feeding, feeding, feeding, food, food.

1124
01:25:38.239 --> 01:25:38.439
Weight.

1125
01:25:38.479 --> 01:25:42.720
I'll put it on there. I'll see if he takes up. Yeah,

1126
01:25:43.159 --> 01:25:45.479
when he really wants something, I could put it on

1127
01:25:45.520 --> 01:25:49.439
a chandelier, like I've got a chandelier, but I could

1128
01:25:49.479 --> 01:25:51.960
put it like high up on the ceiling and still

1129
01:25:51.960 --> 01:25:56.000
get to it. Any our childhood memories, there probably are

1130
01:25:56.000 --> 01:26:04.359
a few. Can't really think of anything right now. Yeah,

1131
01:26:04.520 --> 01:26:08.279
just a few little bits every now and having my

1132
01:26:08.319 --> 01:26:11.079
appendix out. That's one of the best memories of my life.

1133
01:26:12.359 --> 01:26:15.800
That was brilliant being in hospital again, I think partly

1134
01:26:15.800 --> 01:26:18.279
because I was away from the family. It was a

1135
01:26:18.319 --> 01:26:24.520
bit of peace and quiet really, and yeah, I loved that.

1136
01:26:24.520 --> 01:26:32.680
That was brilliant. Another time would be I had it

1137
01:26:32.720 --> 01:26:39.319
by in my mind just now and it's gone. Well,

1138
01:26:39.319 --> 01:26:41.560
that was weird my stomach. Oh yeah, chicken pox. I

1139
01:26:41.680 --> 01:26:45.159
loved having chicken pox because I didn't have to go

1140
01:26:45.199 --> 01:26:49.520
to school. Oh, it was brilliant, and it was snowing outside,

1141
01:26:50.199 --> 01:26:52.880
so I was there. Basically, I think my oldest brother

1142
01:26:52.960 --> 01:26:56.119
got it first. We all kind of took turns getting it,

1143
01:26:56.199 --> 01:26:58.199
so it was only I think it was a point

1144
01:26:58.239 --> 01:27:01.600
where I had to stay home because too many of

1145
01:27:01.640 --> 01:27:06.439
my family had it, so I got like two weeks

1146
01:27:06.479 --> 01:27:11.279
off work, off work, off school, I think because I

1147
01:27:11.319 --> 01:27:14.920
had to be contaminated or whatever they call it contained.

1148
01:27:16.600 --> 01:27:20.640
And I did get it, and it was brilliant. It

1149
01:27:20.760 --> 01:27:23.600
was so cool to not have to go to school.

1150
01:27:23.800 --> 01:27:26.319
I mean, that's one of the benefits of having the

1151
01:27:26.359 --> 01:27:28.600
appendix out. Didn't have to go to school for a

1152
01:27:28.680 --> 01:27:32.239
couple of weeks, didn't have to go to school with

1153
01:27:32.359 --> 01:27:43.079
the older chicken pox. I just remember sitting indoors, drawing

1154
01:27:43.319 --> 01:27:47.199
and things like that. It was snowing outside, maybe a

1155
01:27:47.239 --> 01:27:49.720
bit of music playing, I don't know, there was. The

1156
01:27:49.760 --> 01:27:52.119
whole family was in, but everyone was quite chilled out.

1157
01:27:53.640 --> 01:27:59.399
We were just enjoying, enjoying it. Yeah, that was nice.

1158
01:28:00.840 --> 01:28:05.520
Basically illness, anything involved illness, it might I wasn't ill

1159
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:08.680
with it. I wasn't ill with chicken pox. I mean,

1160
01:28:08.720 --> 01:28:13.000
I got it. I had the blotches, b itchy, that's it.

1161
01:28:13.000 --> 01:28:18.439
It wasn't nothing for me. That wasn't being ill and appendicitis.

1162
01:28:19.439 --> 01:28:22.760
I I didn't really have it. I don't think I

1163
01:28:22.760 --> 01:28:28.760
had appendicitis. I was trying to get off school, so

1164
01:28:28.800 --> 01:28:30.960
I kept using the thing about having a stomach ache

1165
01:28:31.000 --> 01:28:34.399
and I did have a stomach ache, but I don't

1166
01:28:34.439 --> 01:28:36.239
know if it was appendicitis. I think it might have

1167
01:28:36.239 --> 01:28:40.760
been grumbling appendix or something. But they took it out anyway,

1168
01:28:40.920 --> 01:28:44.840
which was a win win situation for me. It was

1169
01:28:44.920 --> 01:28:48.960
just great. I just yeah. I mean, I was thinking,

1170
01:28:49.199 --> 01:28:51.119
at this rate, I'm going to run out of body

1171
01:28:51.159 --> 01:28:53.520
parts because I was trying to work out what else

1172
01:28:53.560 --> 01:28:57.279
can I have removed to get another two weeks off school,

1173
01:28:58.359 --> 01:29:10.520
But it didn't come to that. Other things. There's a

1174
01:29:10.520 --> 01:29:13.439
few bits, and bobsessed a few of them anyway. So

1175
01:29:15.720 --> 01:29:20.199
Georgie asks, do you have a hidden talent? I don't have.

1176
01:29:20.319 --> 01:29:23.840
I don't. I don't even have any on show, never

1177
01:29:23.880 --> 01:29:29.840
mind any hidden ones. I ain't got no talents. No,

1178
01:29:29.960 --> 01:29:36.159
I don't. Yeah, I do think so, I don't know.

1179
01:29:38.039 --> 01:29:41.840
I used to think I could sing, and I think

1180
01:29:41.880 --> 01:29:45.680
I could when I was younger. Everything's when I was younger, really,

1181
01:29:45.760 --> 01:29:48.199
isn't it. But I used to think I could sing,

1182
01:29:48.279 --> 01:29:52.720
and I think I could now not so much. But

1183
01:29:53.199 --> 01:29:59.439
hidden talents I can be annoying. It's not so hidden,

1184
01:29:59.520 --> 01:30:06.640
is it. No, I don't think there is. I can't. No,

1185
01:30:08.520 --> 01:30:12.439
there's nothing. Really, I don't think there's anything that I

1186
01:30:12.479 --> 01:30:21.039
can do that would surprise anybody. I'm just trying to think.

1187
01:30:21.920 --> 01:30:28.640
Mm hmmm, Finny, I can seeing my peripheral begging, begging.

1188
01:30:28.760 --> 01:30:35.520
I tell you, you're begging again. Stop begging. Do you ever

1189
01:30:35.560 --> 01:30:38.920
see it on TV or movies where they're showing someone's

1190
01:30:38.960 --> 01:30:44.760
doing something and the person, like the start of show,

1191
01:30:44.840 --> 01:30:48.640
can't see them doing it, but it's literally in their peripherals.

1192
01:30:48.640 --> 01:30:50.920
In no way you would not see that person moving

1193
01:30:50.960 --> 01:30:55.680
around to the side of you, but they don't because

1194
01:30:55.720 --> 01:30:59.039
it's a movie. It's like, wait a minute, even the

1195
01:30:59.079 --> 01:31:03.720
actor can see that person. I can see Vinny. I'm

1196
01:31:03.720 --> 01:31:05.439
not looking at him, but I can see him moving

1197
01:31:05.479 --> 01:31:09.720
around and doing his little I haven't eaten him for

1198
01:31:09.760 --> 01:31:14.039
a thousand years. My daddy never gives me anything, you know,

1199
01:31:16.359 --> 01:31:24.800
not Tom Sawyer, what is it? The little kid? Tom? Please, sir?

1200
01:31:25.000 --> 01:31:31.439
Can I have some Miller? Oliver Twist? That's it? So

1201
01:31:31.520 --> 01:31:33.199
I looked at him. As soon as I saw him,

1202
01:31:33.199 --> 01:31:36.159
I thought, yeah, Oliver Twist, Oliver. I'm gonna call you

1203
01:31:36.239 --> 01:31:39.039
Oliver now. I'm gonna call you Oliver Twist. And you've

1204
01:31:39.039 --> 01:31:43.279
got some food on your on your mouth. Clean up

1205
01:31:43.319 --> 01:31:47.880
after yourself. Oh, the other day and I talked about it,

1206
01:31:48.000 --> 01:31:51.560
but I still can't believe that. I went out. I

1207
01:31:51.600 --> 01:31:55.039
had a little bit of chocolate and the toffee was

1208
01:31:55.079 --> 01:31:58.079
all over my beard from the bit of chocolate I had,

1209
01:31:58.840 --> 01:32:02.239
and I went out took him out. I was talking

1210
01:32:02.279 --> 01:32:05.239
to different people. I was talking to two people. When

1211
01:32:05.239 --> 01:32:08.239
I got back as well, not one punched person mentioned

1212
01:32:08.279 --> 01:32:10.760
the fact that I had this and it was stretched

1213
01:32:10.760 --> 01:32:13.520
out as well. It wasn't like just a little bit.

1214
01:32:14.720 --> 01:32:18.000
Why didn't anyone mention it?

1215
01:32:18.000 --> 01:32:18.600
It was just.

1216
01:32:23.880 --> 01:32:28.119
Do I don't have any hidden talents? I don't think

1217
01:32:28.800 --> 01:32:35.520
I really. I used to write poems, I used to

1218
01:32:35.520 --> 01:32:43.479
write songs, but again not something I would call talents.

1219
01:32:46.239 --> 01:32:51.359
I suppose things that I wanted to do. The poems

1220
01:32:51.439 --> 01:32:54.239
were more just as an expression, to be fair. The

1221
01:32:54.399 --> 01:32:58.039
songs that was more to do with romance. I was

1222
01:32:58.119 --> 01:33:05.760
trying to be romantick. You know, it's a long time ago. No,

1223
01:33:06.039 --> 01:33:09.600
I can't think of any. Maybe I do, but they're hidden.

1224
01:33:09.880 --> 01:33:15.640
They must be hidden, very very well hidden, because I

1225
01:33:15.680 --> 01:33:27.439
don't really No, I don't think I have any. But

1226
01:33:27.479 --> 01:33:30.039
then you know, if they're hidden, I wouldn't know in

1227
01:33:30.079 --> 01:33:31.520
a sense I know you're talking about I I've got

1228
01:33:31.520 --> 01:33:34.079
any hidden talents that I kind of don't tell anyone about,

1229
01:33:35.439 --> 01:33:38.760
But I don't think I have. But you know, I

1230
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.680
do believe that we're all we've all got hidden talents

1231
01:33:44.960 --> 01:33:48.720
that maybe we never find out about. You know, I'm

1232
01:33:48.760 --> 01:33:53.600
not just just one thing, multiple things that you know,

1233
01:33:53.720 --> 01:33:57.239
I might be or you might be really really good.

1234
01:33:58.000 --> 01:34:01.119
It's something that you've never even attempted to do, but

1235
01:34:01.159 --> 01:34:04.960
because you've got no interest in it yet, if you

1236
01:34:05.119 --> 01:34:09.520
did have a go at it and you realized that

1237
01:34:09.600 --> 01:34:13.159
you were naturally gifted, I'm guessing that would make you

1238
01:34:13.279 --> 01:34:18.560
interested in it. Oh, Okay, I do have a talent,

1239
01:34:18.640 --> 01:34:21.560
it's not hidden so much. I am very good on

1240
01:34:21.600 --> 01:34:27.359
the phone, and I was very good at sales, but

1241
01:34:27.399 --> 01:34:31.840
I didn't enjoy it. I didn't enjoy the pressure or

1242
01:34:31.880 --> 01:34:35.520
the stress. So yeah, and I was very good at listening.

1243
01:34:36.279 --> 01:34:43.239
I'm good at listening. My job, apart from being a

1244
01:34:43.279 --> 01:34:46.199
counselor and stuff, later on, I did have a job

1245
01:34:46.239 --> 01:34:50.479
where my whole job was listening to phone calls and

1246
01:34:50.520 --> 01:34:56.079
making sure that the people the staff calls that they

1247
01:34:56.079 --> 01:34:58.880
were doing their job properly and they were sticking to

1248
01:34:58.960 --> 01:35:04.439
the script. And you know, I had to Mark these

1249
01:35:04.520 --> 01:35:08.840
calls and I was I'd say it was pretty good

1250
01:35:09.039 --> 01:35:11.479
at that, But I don't know if that's much of

1251
01:35:11.520 --> 01:35:15.760
a hidden talent. Being pedantic really, isn't it. I don't

1252
01:35:15.760 --> 01:35:18.560
know if I mean literally my job was being pedantic,

1253
01:35:20.840 --> 01:35:28.399
being quite inflexible. So yeah, I've got hidden talent. I'm

1254
01:35:28.520 --> 01:35:35.439
very inflexible, but that's not so hidden, I don't think.

1255
01:35:37.640 --> 01:35:39.960
If you ask me that question again a different day,

1256
01:35:40.079 --> 01:35:43.640
I will be thinking about that. It's quite weird because Georgia.

1257
01:35:44.039 --> 01:35:51.319
I also know someone called Georgia Georgia, and I was

1258
01:35:51.399 --> 01:35:58.119
dreaming about it last night. It's really weird. It's had

1259
01:35:58.159 --> 01:36:04.199
some very very strange dreams last night. And I had

1260
01:36:04.199 --> 01:36:08.359
this conversation with this this female that I used to

1261
01:36:09.439 --> 01:36:16.079
work with, and I I had this fear I never

1262
01:36:16.119 --> 01:36:21.800
ever dated waitresses that I worked with, just basically because

1263
01:36:22.239 --> 01:36:25.960
I kind of did nearly once and it was awkward.

1264
01:36:26.000 --> 01:36:28.880
So I thought, no, I'm not doing that anymore, and

1265
01:36:31.760 --> 01:36:34.079
because you know, I got to work with them, it

1266
01:36:34.079 --> 01:36:39.800
doesn't work out as awkward. So there was this one

1267
01:36:39.840 --> 01:36:43.840
waitress who I really liked as a friend, you know,

1268
01:36:43.880 --> 01:36:47.800
I just really liked that, and she started giving me

1269
01:36:47.840 --> 01:36:50.520
some hints that maybe she liked me in a more

1270
01:36:50.640 --> 01:36:55.039
you know, my more I don't know for romance is

1271
01:36:55.039 --> 01:36:58.279
the right word, but in a more physical way and

1272
01:36:58.680 --> 01:37:04.119
sort of telling me stuff whatever. And she gave me

1273
01:37:04.319 --> 01:37:11.439
three really massive hints over time, you know, three different occasions.

1274
01:37:12.319 --> 01:37:17.039
Once she danced with me, and other times she told

1275
01:37:17.079 --> 01:37:20.560
me some things that she liked. And on the third

1276
01:37:20.600 --> 01:37:24.159
time she told me I'm not going to use the words,

1277
01:37:24.239 --> 01:37:27.399
but it was on the leaving do she said, you like,

1278
01:37:28.359 --> 01:37:34.159
I'm going to say blank, and I've got blank. I

1279
01:37:34.199 --> 01:37:42.439
still didn't take the hint, and because I was just nervous,

1280
01:37:42.720 --> 01:37:45.520
I just didn't know. I felt like I was being

1281
01:37:45.560 --> 01:37:48.520
watched by the other people in the room, and I

1282
01:37:48.880 --> 01:37:53.680
just yeah, I didn't know really what to do, so

1283
01:37:53.760 --> 01:37:57.319
I didn't pursue. I didn't, which I kind of regret.

1284
01:37:58.439 --> 01:38:04.159
And even now our dream about her really weird. I

1285
01:38:04.199 --> 01:38:07.199
mean literally last night, but over the years, and it's

1286
01:38:07.279 --> 01:38:12.680
twenty twenty four years ago, so it's way too long

1287
01:38:12.720 --> 01:38:16.439
to be and it didn't seem to bother me at

1288
01:38:16.479 --> 01:38:25.760
the time, but this literally had a I was conversing

1289
01:38:25.840 --> 01:38:29.439
with her, explaining to us so I diapologize and saying

1290
01:38:29.439 --> 01:38:32.119
I know that you I wish I'd kind of done

1291
01:38:32.119 --> 01:38:36.560
something and we didn't. Yeah, blahlah blah blah blah. It's weird,

1292
01:38:36.840 --> 01:38:42.760
very weird. And Hillary asked me, Okay, let's try again.

1293
01:38:42.880 --> 01:38:45.800
Where entireland did you go? I've been there many times,

1294
01:38:46.359 --> 01:38:49.640
too many different parts. Just interested where you went? So

1295
01:38:49.720 --> 01:38:59.000
I went near bang Kok bang Kok, and it's yeah,

1296
01:38:59.199 --> 01:39:02.840
I suppose I don't go into great detail about where

1297
01:39:02.840 --> 01:39:05.680
I've been. I don't really judge because it's where I

1298
01:39:05.720 --> 01:39:10.159
went is a little bit of a I think the

1299
01:39:10.239 --> 01:39:13.039
class is some of it like sex tourists, and I

1300
01:39:13.159 --> 01:39:16.119
wasn't that. It wasn't for that reason. I was just

1301
01:39:16.119 --> 01:39:20.920
going because it's a Buddhist country and I wanted I

1302
01:39:21.000 --> 01:39:23.960
needed to get away. I was talking to a friend

1303
01:39:23.960 --> 01:39:29.600
about this. After I lost Andrea, I started going back

1304
01:39:29.680 --> 01:39:33.720
and my panic attacks came back, not like the occasional

1305
01:39:33.720 --> 01:39:36.520
one or the like the standard kind of stuff that

1306
01:39:36.560 --> 01:39:42.079
I have, but like really became really bad again. And

1307
01:39:42.600 --> 01:39:45.279
I think part of that because I lost Andrea, I

1308
01:39:45.319 --> 01:39:50.640
no longer had the emotional what Vinnie gives me, and

1309
01:39:50.640 --> 01:39:55.520
what Andre gave me is emotional support. I suppose really

1310
01:39:55.520 --> 01:40:02.640
in reality, it's emotional support. It's an emotional or emotional whatever,

1311
01:40:04.960 --> 01:40:09.640
and so I was up here on my own, and

1312
01:40:09.680 --> 01:40:12.600
I was also dealing with all the drama of downstairs

1313
01:40:12.600 --> 01:40:16.760
and my neighbor and all that came with that, and

1314
01:40:16.800 --> 01:40:24.880
it got too much. So I managed to go away.

1315
01:40:25.880 --> 01:40:29.399
And I just basically chose the first place because I'd

1316
01:40:29.439 --> 01:40:32.479
done a big research, gone on YouTube, and every time

1317
01:40:32.479 --> 01:40:36.000
I put in Thailand there was like Pattire came up

1318
01:40:36.039 --> 01:40:43.720
and Bouquette Bangkok, those kinds of areas, so I thought, yeah,

1319
01:40:43.720 --> 01:40:48.960
I had there, That's why I did. So I just

1320
01:40:48.960 --> 01:40:55.920
went there and just found somewhere to stay. And yeah,

1321
01:40:56.840 --> 01:40:59.439
it was all right the first time I went twice.

1322
01:40:59.439 --> 01:41:02.199
The second time rainy season, so that wasn't so good

1323
01:41:03.800 --> 01:41:07.079
at the moment they got Sangrin Sangron. I think it's

1324
01:41:07.119 --> 01:41:09.600
just come to an end where there's basically two weeks

1325
01:41:09.600 --> 01:41:16.199
of covering each other with waters like a New Year.

1326
01:41:16.439 --> 01:41:20.880
I think it's like the Thailand New Year celebration Songrin,

1327
01:41:21.399 --> 01:41:25.319
song Grand or Songrin. I wouldn't want to be there

1328
01:41:25.399 --> 01:41:30.920
during that. Something I noticed about myself is weird. Even

1329
01:41:30.960 --> 01:41:36.479
though I was technically on holiday, the bipolar didn't stay

1330
01:41:36.520 --> 01:41:43.119
at home. It's weird. Honestly, I thought in my mind,

1331
01:41:43.800 --> 01:41:49.239
bearing in mind that I hadn't really been anywhere since

1332
01:41:49.560 --> 01:41:55.600
two thousand and three was the last time I'd already

1333
01:41:55.680 --> 01:42:00.760
gone anywhere, like on my own holiday, so that's yeah,

1334
01:42:00.840 --> 01:42:05.880
twenty years or whatever. Nearly I thought I'd just go

1335
01:42:06.000 --> 01:42:10.479
away and I'd be oh so happy, And no, it

1336
01:42:10.520 --> 01:42:15.680
wasn't like that. It was there was the relief of

1337
01:42:15.760 --> 01:42:18.439
not having to deal with people that were here, but

1338
01:42:18.479 --> 01:42:22.199
then I had to deal with new people, although most

1339
01:42:22.239 --> 01:42:24.000
of those people were nice, but there was a lot

1340
01:42:24.000 --> 01:42:28.560
of It was quite It wasn't busy like it normally

1341
01:42:28.640 --> 01:42:32.840
is because of the the because it was a mask

1342
01:42:33.039 --> 01:42:38.520
wearing times. It was just after that or during that period,

1343
01:42:41.079 --> 01:42:43.399
but there was still a fair bit of people around.

1344
01:42:45.840 --> 01:42:50.279
And yeah, that's where it went. So I've met a

1345
01:42:50.319 --> 01:42:52.880
couple of people actually around here that went to Thailand

1346
01:42:53.920 --> 01:42:58.640
and they went to those parts. The thing is, there's

1347
01:42:58.680 --> 01:43:00.880
lots of islands that I could have gone. I could

1348
01:43:00.920 --> 01:43:04.560
have gone on excursions. There was a big old fairy

1349
01:43:04.800 --> 01:43:08.319
full of little little boats, which I could have traveled

1350
01:43:08.359 --> 01:43:13.920
to multiple different islands, because it is pretty much paradise,

1351
01:43:14.000 --> 01:43:20.199
isn't it out there. The thing is, once I got

1352
01:43:20.239 --> 01:43:20.640
out there.

1353
01:43:20.680 --> 01:43:21.199
I just.

1354
01:43:25.079 --> 01:43:27.119
The first time, because I went out twice. The first

1355
01:43:27.159 --> 01:43:32.960
time I broke my rib because I just had like

1356
01:43:33.239 --> 01:43:38.359
a genuine message, like a proper time message. And this

1357
01:43:38.439 --> 01:43:43.600
bloke he just pressed on my back and my and

1358
01:43:43.720 --> 01:43:47.560
all I heard was click, a really loud click. He

1359
01:43:47.640 --> 01:43:51.640
found it funny. I couldn't breathe. I didn't find it

1360
01:43:51.720 --> 01:43:54.079
quite as funny. I mean maybe if I was able

1361
01:43:54.159 --> 01:43:55.720
to breathe, I might have been able to laugh. But

1362
01:43:56.279 --> 01:44:01.279
you know, and from and that was I think the

1363
01:44:01.319 --> 01:44:07.159
second day in so from then on I was I

1364
01:44:07.199 --> 01:44:11.159
just couldn't really do much. It didn't stop me getting around,

1365
01:44:11.239 --> 01:44:12.399
but I couldn't.

1366
01:44:13.479 --> 01:44:13.760
You know.

1367
01:44:14.199 --> 01:44:17.479
I wasn't sleeping really, I wasn't able to, you know.

1368
01:44:17.560 --> 01:44:21.000
It was just it was very uncomfortable, to the point

1369
01:44:21.039 --> 01:44:23.720
where I left early. I got an early flight back.

1370
01:44:25.600 --> 01:44:28.600
But I did manage to give food out, so that

1371
01:44:28.680 --> 01:44:31.039
was really good. I loved that bit. So I made

1372
01:44:31.079 --> 01:44:33.439
to give loads of food out to people who were hungry.

1373
01:44:34.359 --> 01:44:40.680
So the second time I went, I thought I deserved

1374
01:44:40.920 --> 01:44:45.000
once my Once my rob was held up, it started

1375
01:44:45.000 --> 01:44:48.920
getting bad again downstairs, and I thought more, I've got

1376
01:44:48.920 --> 01:44:54.239
to get out of here, and I had to go somewhere,

1377
01:44:54.800 --> 01:44:56.800
so I just thought, yeah, I'm to go there, just

1378
01:44:56.920 --> 01:45:00.159
got a flight, didn't book a hotel or anything. I

1379
01:45:00.239 --> 01:45:03.439
just like just went there, got to Bangkok and decided

1380
01:45:03.479 --> 01:45:09.119
where to go next. And I ended up in a

1381
01:45:09.159 --> 01:45:13.000
sports bar really nice. It was full of Australians, run

1382
01:45:13.039 --> 01:45:17.520
by Australians, full of Australian customers. I was the only

1383
01:45:18.079 --> 01:45:24.520
brick there, I think, and it was really well. It

1384
01:45:24.600 --> 01:45:26.319
was a sports bar. It was aimed at all the

1385
01:45:26.359 --> 01:45:29.640
different sports. The good thing they did have boxing on once,

1386
01:45:30.520 --> 01:45:32.640
so that was one of the highlights of the holiday,

1387
01:45:33.439 --> 01:45:38.479
sitting there having me breakfast watching heavyweight boxing fight. It

1388
01:45:38.560 --> 01:45:49.359
was and Uize and and Uieze and Otis Otis was it.

1389
01:45:49.520 --> 01:45:52.840
I forget his name, but yeah it was really it

1390
01:45:52.920 --> 01:45:55.239
was a Cuban fighter. But anyway, that was That was good.

1391
01:45:57.800 --> 01:46:02.319
So technically things are going well there. Yeah. I got

1392
01:46:02.359 --> 01:46:09.760
there just before my birthday and I had a really

1393
01:46:09.800 --> 01:46:13.960
good birthday. Went on this big pub crawl. It was

1394
01:46:14.000 --> 01:46:16.840
part of another bar and it took us all around

1395
01:46:16.960 --> 01:46:23.800
different places, different pubs and stuff. And the next day

1396
01:46:24.119 --> 01:46:26.279
I had a chest infection. I was feeling the all

1397
01:46:26.399 --> 01:46:29.319
during that day as well as it was going on

1398
01:46:29.920 --> 01:46:33.920
and I had a chest infection that lasted about ten days.

1399
01:46:34.680 --> 01:46:39.720
So I was in bed and then I tried to

1400
01:46:39.760 --> 01:46:43.000
get a ticket early to go home, couldn't, so I

1401
01:46:43.079 --> 01:46:46.359
ended up staying there for two and a half weeks,

1402
01:46:46.399 --> 01:46:53.079
three weeks, I can't remember. And then I was well

1403
01:46:53.119 --> 01:46:57.319
for about I was probably I was still coughing a bit,

1404
01:46:57.399 --> 01:47:01.039
but I was on my way to getting better. Wasn't

1405
01:47:01.079 --> 01:47:05.560
completely healed, wasn't completely back, but I probably had a

1406
01:47:05.600 --> 01:47:09.680
couple of days of feeling better, and I had probably

1407
01:47:10.399 --> 01:47:13.279
four days of been able to go out and walk around.

1408
01:47:14.800 --> 01:47:16.720
I waited until it was the evening when there wasn't

1409
01:47:16.760 --> 01:47:21.279
so many people around because unfortunately I dan't cough in

1410
01:47:21.359 --> 01:47:28.439
public because somebody would always shout out a certain word

1411
01:47:29.159 --> 01:47:36.079
beginning of sea and then ended with it's. That was weird.

1412
01:47:36.560 --> 01:47:39.439
So yeah, but I didn't realize because they were putting

1413
01:47:39.439 --> 01:47:44.439
adverts on TV in Thailand that was just scaring everyone,

1414
01:47:45.000 --> 01:47:52.319
like proper, Yeah, it's weird, weird seeing what other countries do.

1415
01:47:54.479 --> 01:47:58.640
So Michelle, how did you decide to start the boy

1416
01:47:58.680 --> 01:48:02.560
You Let Me Bore You to Sleep podcast? They Great

1417
01:48:02.600 --> 01:48:07.319
Bay Away, Think the Grips bad Away. I'm slowing today,

1418
01:48:08.359 --> 01:48:10.359
am I slurring or I am I just being lazy

1419
01:48:10.600 --> 01:48:15.159
a little bit both, a bit tired. Yesterday I was shattered,

1420
01:48:16.560 --> 01:48:17.680
like at the end of it, I had to go

1421
01:48:17.720 --> 01:48:22.000
to bed early. I just I hadn't eaten really much.

1422
01:48:22.239 --> 01:48:26.439
I just like it drained everything out of me. So

1423
01:48:26.479 --> 01:48:28.840
I woke up today. I'm still feel like I'm a

1424
01:48:28.880 --> 01:48:32.520
little bit recovering from that. It's weird. I'm not built

1425
01:48:32.520 --> 01:48:38.680
for that stuff anymore, taking on other people's stuff, like, oh,

1426
01:48:38.840 --> 01:48:43.399
I'm not so I think they let me boy to sleep.

1427
01:48:43.439 --> 01:48:49.399
It was twenty eighteen, had I did have precursors to

1428
01:48:49.600 --> 01:48:54.800
let me boy to sleep? In two thousand and ten,

1429
01:48:58.960 --> 01:49:06.720
I did a hypno chats, which is basically a mixture

1430
01:49:06.800 --> 01:49:12.359
between chatting and hypnosis. So I would just talk about

1431
01:49:12.399 --> 01:49:17.239
my day about a subject, and then I would ease

1432
01:49:17.359 --> 01:49:25.600
into a hypnosis session and I'd end up doing like

1433
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:31.119
a a relaxation session at the end of it, so

1434
01:49:31.840 --> 01:49:35.760
that that's the hypno chats, and I'd choose a subject

1435
01:49:35.800 --> 01:49:37.840
and it could be all kinds of weird different things.

1436
01:49:38.720 --> 01:49:42.239
Weird things. I mean, I do still have them, but

1437
01:49:42.279 --> 01:49:43.760
no one ever listened to them, so I just got

1438
01:49:43.880 --> 01:49:46.439
rid of them. But I've still got them on here

1439
01:49:47.760 --> 01:49:57.720
on my Really that's weird. Oh okay, hypno Chats? Is

1440
01:49:57.760 --> 01:50:07.279
it hypno hip no Chats? Yeah? I do, still got

1441
01:50:07.279 --> 01:50:10.720
it on and still got the recordings. I've got twenty

1442
01:50:11.720 --> 01:50:16.800
twenty yeah, twenty different ones. They range, They do range

1443
01:50:16.920 --> 01:50:22.119
different subjects. Number one was future. Number two is public

1444
01:50:22.159 --> 01:50:24.000
transport and sending healing energy.

1445
01:50:25.359 --> 01:50:25.920
Wow.

1446
01:50:26.960 --> 01:50:30.760
One if it tells me what year it was, no,

1447
01:50:30.800 --> 01:50:37.319
it doesn't. It says twenty fifteen, but it was long

1448
01:50:37.359 --> 01:50:43.239
before that. Yeah. And then so I did hitno Chats.

1449
01:50:43.319 --> 01:50:56.479
Then I did another version talking out talking out loudly

1450
01:50:58.239 --> 01:51:00.960
or thinking out loudly, I don't know, something like that,

1451
01:51:01.079 --> 01:51:04.000
which was like another version of this where I just

1452
01:51:04.039 --> 01:51:10.439
talked about stuff. And then I did hypnotic Buffet hip

1453
01:51:10.920 --> 01:51:14.319
not tick buffet. See if that's still around on my

1454
01:51:16.279 --> 01:51:20.399
Oh it's not hypnotic buffet. Have I lost all those

1455
01:51:20.399 --> 01:51:23.800
recordings of way? Okay, I may have lost them all,

1456
01:51:24.520 --> 01:51:30.039
never mind, Oh no, I don't. I don't really want

1457
01:51:30.079 --> 01:51:33.560
to have lost them all, to be fair. Hypnotic Buffet,

1458
01:51:34.880 --> 01:51:38.319
Oh no, they are still on it. I was looking

1459
01:51:38.359 --> 01:51:41.159
at the wrong in the wrong folder. So there are

1460
01:51:41.399 --> 01:51:47.600
thirty one hypnotic buffets and the last one I did

1461
01:51:47.880 --> 01:52:01.039
was where's that's weird? I don't want to see properties.

1462
01:52:01.079 --> 01:52:04.560
That's it? According to this the last one I did

1463
01:52:04.720 --> 01:52:08.800
was the six of all was twenty eighteen, but that

1464
01:52:09.840 --> 01:52:14.880
I don't think that would be true. It says created

1465
01:52:14.920 --> 01:52:19.199
eleventh of September twenty eighteen. Yeah, I don't think that's

1466
01:52:19.279 --> 01:52:25.279
true either. Before that, so, yeah, I did those. Did

1467
01:52:25.319 --> 01:52:34.479
I have those named? I don't know, I look or yeah.

1468
01:52:34.760 --> 01:52:41.439
The underlying thing was so hypnotic buffet thoughts and ideas

1469
01:52:41.479 --> 01:52:47.880
to transform lives every Monday. So this is what I did,

1470
01:52:48.880 --> 01:52:56.880
probably two thousand, well maybe it was twenty fifteen. Did

1471
01:52:56.920 --> 01:53:02.439
I what was it two thousand, twenty eighteen? No, it

1472
01:53:02.479 --> 01:53:06.399
wouldn't have been twenty eighteen. I don't think so anyway.

1473
01:53:08.479 --> 01:53:11.359
But I started to let me boy to sleep in.

1474
01:53:13.399 --> 01:53:23.520
That was previous versions general. Yeah, eleventh of September two

1475
01:53:23.560 --> 01:53:27.159
thousand and eight, that's just when they were transferred. So

1476
01:53:28.199 --> 01:53:35.479
after that, so I did the three different things I

1477
01:53:35.560 --> 01:53:38.399
used to do Jason Chats, which was just a blog

1478
01:53:38.560 --> 01:53:40.880
about my life, and I just talked about that and

1479
01:53:40.960 --> 01:53:44.319
someone posted, I think it was on YouTube. They said,

1480
01:53:45.039 --> 01:53:49.560
oh I was fall asleep whenever you do your blogs.

1481
01:53:51.119 --> 01:53:53.000
Part of me, it was a little bit like, oh,

1482
01:53:53.079 --> 01:53:55.800
that's a bit rude. It'll bit rude. You know, I'm

1483
01:53:55.840 --> 01:54:00.479
talking about my life and you're falling asleep. Dumber's ga

1484
01:54:00.520 --> 01:54:03.720
and it's time for food, baby food, food food. But

1485
01:54:03.800 --> 01:54:08.399
then another party fought h there's something in that. So

1486
01:54:08.960 --> 01:54:15.760
regardless what I talk about, you're bored. Guess what the

1487
01:54:15.800 --> 01:54:18.119
person said, you just bore me and I fall asleep.

1488
01:54:19.439 --> 01:54:23.119
They might have been trying to be rude, but I

1489
01:54:23.239 --> 01:54:30.319
thought about it and I thought, okay, So I started

1490
01:54:30.319 --> 01:54:32.960
a podcast, let Me Boy You to Sleep, which was

1491
01:54:38.000 --> 01:54:48.199
when was it, Let Me Boy You to Sleep? Twenty

1492
01:54:48.279 --> 01:54:53.520
seventh of March twenty eighteen. That was the very first,

1493
01:54:53.560 --> 01:54:54.960
so we have.

1494
01:54:58.520 --> 01:54:59.119
I missed that.

1495
01:54:59.279 --> 01:55:04.039
I could have put down the what was it, eighteen

1496
01:55:04.159 --> 01:55:11.520
nineteen twenty, I could have. I could have done the

1497
01:55:11.560 --> 01:55:14.319
seventh year anniversary episode, but I didn't think about it.

1498
01:55:17.439 --> 01:55:21.880
Oh well, so yeah, it's it was. So that was

1499
01:55:21.920 --> 01:55:27.079
the very very very first recording after Let Me Boy

1500
01:55:27.119 --> 01:55:32.399
to Sleep. Now, I didn't do any research. I didn't

1501
01:55:32.439 --> 01:55:35.640
look online to see if anyone else was doing boring recordings.

1502
01:55:36.359 --> 01:55:39.279
I just did it. There is another podcast something like

1503
01:55:39.880 --> 01:55:43.319
Bore Me to sleep that's been around a few more

1504
01:55:43.399 --> 01:55:46.319
years than me. And someone was saying, oh, you're just

1505
01:55:46.359 --> 01:55:49.560
copying them, Like, No, first of all, I didn't know

1506
01:55:49.600 --> 01:55:54.760
they existed. Secondly, I don't think anyone does what I do.

1507
01:55:56.800 --> 01:55:58.600
I don't mean it in a good way, because you know,

1508
01:55:58.960 --> 01:56:01.199
I'll probably be better off if I did copy other people.

1509
01:56:02.239 --> 01:56:06.279
But this is what I do is unique. Even if

1510
01:56:06.640 --> 01:56:10.199
even if it was the identical type of thing, it

1511
01:56:10.239 --> 01:56:13.920
would still be different. Yeah, if you got if you like,

1512
01:56:13.960 --> 01:56:21.279
gave a topic talk about watching tennis, and you gave

1513
01:56:21.359 --> 01:56:23.680
that topic to any other podcasts and you gave it

1514
01:56:23.720 --> 01:56:26.479
to me, mine's going to be different from theirs, and

1515
01:56:26.520 --> 01:56:28.439
there is probably going to be different from everyone else's

1516
01:56:28.439 --> 01:56:32.960
as well. It's gonna be different. So that's how I

1517
01:56:33.119 --> 01:56:38.319
ended up doing this. And I didn't expect it to

1518
01:56:38.520 --> 01:56:42.520
lead anywhere. I really didn't. I don't think it would

1519
01:56:42.520 --> 01:56:51.560
be Yeah, I didn't. I didn't really think anything of it.

1520
01:56:51.560 --> 01:56:53.600
It was just a new thing. I thought maybe i'd

1521
01:56:53.640 --> 01:56:58.520
do perhaps ten twenty, you know, like the Hypnotic Buffet

1522
01:56:58.760 --> 01:57:05.079
or the hypno Chats. I didn't think it would lead

1523
01:57:05.119 --> 01:57:09.920
to anything sort of a lot ongoing, but it did,

1524
01:57:10.960 --> 01:57:15.239
and seven years. Over seven years later, here we are.

1525
01:57:17.600 --> 01:57:20.680
I think it's because I was getting feedback. People were

1526
01:57:20.720 --> 01:57:25.520
telling me they're very relaxing regardless of what I talk about,

1527
01:57:25.600 --> 01:57:29.520
and some people like the fact that it's I'm real.

1528
01:57:30.399 --> 01:57:32.920
I do make stuff up, obviously. I think that's obvious.

1529
01:57:33.119 --> 01:57:37.279
I do that as well. I don't generally take myself

1530
01:57:37.319 --> 01:57:42.560
too seriously. I can see the funny side to a

1531
01:57:42.600 --> 01:57:47.880
lot of things. And also something that I didn't know

1532
01:57:47.920 --> 01:57:50.640
would happen is I was getting a lot of people

1533
01:57:50.720 --> 01:57:53.800
over the years telling me that I'm company that actually

1534
01:57:53.920 --> 01:57:57.039
it's a friendly voice to listen to. It's like, you

1535
01:57:57.119 --> 01:58:00.600
get to know me, and do you to listen to

1536
01:58:00.640 --> 01:58:05.760
me every day? And it's something that some people look

1537
01:58:05.800 --> 01:58:12.520
forward to. So that's in some ways that's probably more

1538
01:58:12.520 --> 01:58:20.640
of a compliment. And yeah, I mean that's partly why

1539
01:58:21.520 --> 01:58:23.960
there's a couple of if I see an elderly person,

1540
01:58:24.880 --> 01:58:28.279
not just elderly, but if I see someone in the park,

1541
01:58:28.479 --> 01:58:32.119
they're on their own because generally I only talk to

1542
01:58:32.159 --> 01:58:35.159
dog walkers because Vinnie wants to say low to them.

1543
01:58:35.479 --> 01:58:37.920
He loves people, but he loves dog walkers because they've

1544
01:58:37.920 --> 01:58:40.960
got treats. There's a few dog that says a loo

1545
01:58:41.079 --> 01:58:46.439
too as well. But Vinny wants to say low to everybody.

1546
01:58:47.600 --> 01:58:51.960
So if the person looks okay, some people don't look approachable,

1547
01:58:52.640 --> 01:58:57.840
to be fair, but if the person looks approachable, I'll

1548
01:58:57.920 --> 01:58:59.760
let Vinnie take me up to them and I'll just say,

1549
01:59:00.079 --> 01:59:04.600
can he say hello? He wants to say hello, and

1550
01:59:04.880 --> 01:59:07.159
no one's ever said go away yet. I think I

1551
01:59:07.199 --> 01:59:09.079
did have one person ignore me and just walk on,

1552
01:59:10.720 --> 01:59:16.000
and it's like, as my mom, so you sh had

1553
01:59:16.000 --> 01:59:22.439
a reason. So I and a couple of times, one

1554
01:59:22.560 --> 01:59:28.399
recently and a man said that will be my only

1555
01:59:28.439 --> 01:59:35.479
contact today, so thank you. I was like, oh, so

1556
01:59:35.520 --> 01:59:40.079
I'm avoiding from now on and joking. And then I

1557
01:59:40.159 --> 01:59:43.199
think yesterday or the day before that, it was a

1558
01:59:43.239 --> 01:59:47.479
bloke and a man he said, oh, thank you for stopping,

1559
01:59:47.560 --> 01:59:52.920
thank you for talking to me. So these are like

1560
01:59:53.000 --> 01:59:56.079
people that live on the estate. Maybe they don't see anyone.

1561
01:59:56.359 --> 02:00:02.840
I don't know, but Finny absolutely loves people and he

1562
02:00:02.920 --> 02:00:07.239
knows when a person's friendly, because that's when this bloke

1563
02:00:07.319 --> 02:00:12.560
I think yesterday, he said, oh, he just wants to

1564
02:00:12.600 --> 02:00:16.159
come if he must like everyone. I said, no, not necessarily.

1565
02:00:16.319 --> 02:00:20.039
He does love people, but he knows people. There's people

1566
02:00:20.079 --> 02:00:21.880
he doesn't want to go and say lo to. He

1567
02:00:21.920 --> 02:00:25.159
can tell who's friendly and who's not friendly. He knows.

1568
02:00:25.439 --> 02:00:31.000
I think dogs actually do know. They can tell a

1569
02:00:31.039 --> 02:00:34.359
dog lover from someone that isn't a dog lover. Maybe

1570
02:00:34.359 --> 02:00:39.760
not instantly, but you know, there's people that clearly that

1571
02:00:39.880 --> 02:00:43.039
I kind of know that don't like Vinnie, but not

1572
02:00:43.119 --> 02:00:45.159
don't like him, but kn't of keep the distance from him.

1573
02:00:45.319 --> 02:00:48.239
Not really into dogs, and he knows that. You know,

1574
02:00:48.359 --> 02:00:50.760
he gets excited to see them, but he doesn't try

1575
02:00:50.800 --> 02:00:53.920
and jump up, he doesn't doesn't really take much notice

1576
02:00:53.920 --> 02:00:57.359
of them really, so he knows. And this bloke was

1577
02:00:57.399 --> 02:01:00.960
so happy that I was telling him that, yeah, he's

1578
02:01:00.960 --> 02:01:05.239
fuzzy who he says hello to, because he doesn't he

1579
02:01:05.359 --> 02:01:08.439
knows if someone's not friendly. And he seemed to really

1580
02:01:08.479 --> 02:01:12.359
appreciate that, so that was nice. I don't know how

1581
02:01:12.439 --> 02:01:18.840
I got on to that subject. Last question Brooke brook Brook,

1582
02:01:18.880 --> 02:01:23.720
my friend Brooke. What is hypnosis and why does it work?

1583
02:01:24.039 --> 02:01:26.960
What are some myths about hypnosis there important to dispel?

1584
02:01:27.560 --> 02:01:31.960
What is your best TOFU recipe? Okay, the last one,

1585
02:01:32.039 --> 02:01:33.720
I don't have one, so I want to skip that

1586
02:01:33.760 --> 02:01:38.039
one now. If you said toffee recipe. I'd say, I

1587
02:01:38.119 --> 02:01:41.359
love anything with toffee, especially ones where that I get

1588
02:01:41.439 --> 02:01:44.439
ended up with bits of toffee and my beard scaring

1589
02:01:44.479 --> 02:01:49.880
the neighbors. Would you tell someone though, if you if

1590
02:01:49.920 --> 02:01:52.039
you were talking to someone I'm not talking about a

1591
02:01:52.039 --> 02:01:55.760
complete stranger, but someone that you see regularly, you know,

1592
02:01:55.840 --> 02:01:58.359
something you may see daily, even and you saw they

1593
02:01:58.399 --> 02:02:02.479
had toffee sticking out their beer? Would you mention it

1594
02:02:02.520 --> 02:02:06.560
to them? And there's ways of mentioning it without being rude,

1595
02:02:06.600 --> 02:02:11.439
isn't there is? You know, It's like if I'm going

1596
02:02:11.439 --> 02:02:14.760
out and I've got gravy all down my top and

1597
02:02:14.840 --> 02:02:18.159
I scream on my head, like, okay, perhaps we shouldn't

1598
02:02:18.159 --> 02:02:22.399
mention that because there's something going on there, but just

1599
02:02:22.399 --> 02:02:29.880
a little I would have preferred, mind you, something happened

1600
02:02:29.960 --> 02:02:32.960
yesterday and I wasn't particularly pleased with let's talk to

1601
02:02:33.000 --> 02:02:37.399
my neighbor. And I was saying, oh, I wear a hack,

1602
02:02:37.479 --> 02:02:40.560
so I don't like to because I'm I'm a bit

1603
02:02:40.680 --> 02:02:44.199
conscious about my my board patch on the top of

1604
02:02:44.239 --> 02:02:45.960
my head. And he said, what about the one at

1605
02:02:45.960 --> 02:02:46.760
the front of your head?

1606
02:02:47.920 --> 02:02:48.479
What do you mean?

1607
02:02:48.920 --> 02:02:50.399
He said, the one on the front where you've got

1608
02:02:50.439 --> 02:02:54.479
a comb over. I said, I do not have a

1609
02:02:54.520 --> 02:02:57.039
comb over. My hair is not long enough. I can't

1610
02:02:57.079 --> 02:02:59.880
even brush my hair. It's not long enough to brush.

1611
02:03:00.079 --> 02:03:05.319
He's said, there's none there. I said, technically, you're correct,

1612
02:03:05.319 --> 02:03:09.680
that is probably the reason. But from the distance he

1613
02:03:09.720 --> 02:03:11.800
could see that, like the front of the hair is

1614
02:03:11.800 --> 02:03:21.560
pretty much just disappearing, which means, and I really am

1615
02:03:21.680 --> 02:03:25.720
not pleased to say this, It means what I'm going

1616
02:03:25.800 --> 02:03:32.319
to have is hair around the side, and I've already

1617
02:03:32.359 --> 02:03:35.880
got the ball patch at the back. It's fitling out

1618
02:03:35.880 --> 02:03:45.319
on top. There's yeah, I don't know how long it's

1619
02:03:45.359 --> 02:03:49.359
going to take. Now my decision will have to be

1620
02:03:49.439 --> 02:03:52.359
this if it does in fact happen. So the board

1621
02:03:52.439 --> 02:03:57.600
patch grows and the one on the front kind of

1622
02:03:57.640 --> 02:04:04.840
grows to the point of eating in the middle. What

1623
02:04:04.880 --> 02:04:07.159
do I do with a straight hair the stray hairs?

1624
02:04:08.000 --> 02:04:10.840
Do I let them grow really long and pretend that

1625
02:04:10.920 --> 02:04:17.239
that's hair and hold on to that because I know

1626
02:04:17.319 --> 02:04:22.159
people that do that. They literally they cherish those hairs,

1627
02:04:22.199 --> 02:04:26.920
even though there's only like a little fuzz now, because

1628
02:04:27.079 --> 02:04:31.399
it's their hair. They cherish it. They it's important to them,

1629
02:04:32.560 --> 02:04:37.680
regardless of how ridiculous it might look, they love it,

1630
02:04:37.760 --> 02:04:40.640
they keep it, and I'm now in that position where

1631
02:04:40.640 --> 02:04:43.920
I'm thinking, yeah, I might have to keep that, have

1632
02:04:43.920 --> 02:04:49.479
a little bit of fuzz on top, like a little

1633
02:04:49.479 --> 02:04:53.479
brillo pad. I don't know, just I don't know what,

1634
02:04:54.399 --> 02:04:57.039
because I used to have an attitude when I was

1635
02:04:57.079 --> 02:04:59.960
younger just to shave my head. I still do shaw

1636
02:05:00.079 --> 02:05:03.359
my head sometimes, like it doesn't matter. If I ever

1637
02:05:03.399 --> 02:05:05.560
go bored, it will not affect me at all, because

1638
02:05:05.560 --> 02:05:11.079
I've walked around for years with a bald head. Being

1639
02:05:11.159 --> 02:05:15.920
bored would not affect me at all. Now it's easy

1640
02:05:16.000 --> 02:05:18.039
to say that when you're not bald, when you're not

1641
02:05:18.159 --> 02:05:22.680
naturally bald, So shaving my head bald is a lot

1642
02:05:22.760 --> 02:05:27.039
different from actually not need, not needing to save my

1643
02:05:27.079 --> 02:05:35.600
head bald because it's doing it naturally. Ah. Yeah, I

1644
02:05:35.640 --> 02:05:40.399
didn't realize that, you know what, It's not as non

1645
02:05:40.800 --> 02:05:49.239
affecting me as I thought. And Brooke might be listening

1646
02:05:49.279 --> 02:05:51.439
to this thinking what's that got to do with how

1647
02:05:51.520 --> 02:05:58.079
hypnosis works? Okay, I'll go back to that hypnosis. All

1648
02:05:58.119 --> 02:06:01.000
I can do is my understanding. Because I've so many books.

1649
02:06:01.119 --> 02:06:03.920
I know what the theories are, all the different theories,

1650
02:06:04.840 --> 02:06:08.840
and like the myths about hypnosis. What's important to dispel

1651
02:06:11.640 --> 02:06:15.760
even now I see on Facebook and places the idea

1652
02:06:15.920 --> 02:06:24.199
hypnosis if you like, it's somehow harmful given away control

1653
02:06:24.279 --> 02:06:26.880
to someone and they can do make you do whatever

1654
02:06:26.920 --> 02:06:30.199
they want you to do, and it's it's not true.

1655
02:06:30.439 --> 02:06:35.920
It's really not. It's it's not how it works. If

1656
02:06:37.039 --> 02:06:41.359
I mean, maybe there's a degree of I suppose if

1657
02:06:41.359 --> 02:06:45.880
you was hypnotizing someone every day and you wanted to,

1658
02:06:46.279 --> 02:06:48.119
you know, you could sort of play around of it

1659
02:06:48.159 --> 02:06:57.600
and have fun with it, but ultimately can't just control

1660
02:06:57.720 --> 02:07:01.560
someone completely. I don't think maybe some people can. I

1661
02:07:01.600 --> 02:07:09.760
don't have that. I mean, everyone's manipulatively, manipuitaable, maniputable, able

1662
02:07:09.800 --> 02:07:13.960
to be manipulated, and as people with public we are.

1663
02:07:14.039 --> 02:07:18.399
That's why as adverts on TV constantly, everyone's being at

1664
02:07:18.520 --> 02:07:21.640
least are trying to manipulate us. And that is in

1665
02:07:21.720 --> 02:07:24.720
no way a conspiracy thing. It's just a factual thing.

1666
02:07:25.760 --> 02:07:30.720
And hypnosis has been used in advertising. It's one of

1667
02:07:30.720 --> 02:07:37.800
the first things that was used for Like generally, hypnosis

1668
02:07:37.800 --> 02:07:40.760
are used for advertising because they knew that it worked,

1669
02:07:41.239 --> 02:07:45.119
they knew that they wanted to advertise in this manipulation

1670
02:07:45.479 --> 02:07:47.840
to try and get you to buy a product or

1671
02:07:47.920 --> 02:07:53.239
to think a certain way. So yeah, it works. That

1672
02:07:53.359 --> 02:08:01.920
stuff works. It's I don't know. He hypnosis some of

1673
02:08:01.960 --> 02:08:06.199
the myths with it. I would say, I think it's

1674
02:08:06.199 --> 02:08:10.640
a standard thing. Some people think that the hypnotists will

1675
02:08:10.640 --> 02:08:15.479
get them to do silly things, like like with stage hypnosis.

1676
02:08:16.079 --> 02:08:25.359
But that's not the case. The idea that maybe you'd

1677
02:08:25.359 --> 02:08:29.000
be under you being hypnosis and you're completely unconscious and

1678
02:08:29.079 --> 02:08:32.159
you don't know anything that's going on. I would say

1679
02:08:32.159 --> 02:08:38.039
that's not the case either, because the fact that the

1680
02:08:38.159 --> 02:08:43.520
unconscious you might be consciously unaware the unconsciously aware. But

1681
02:08:44.079 --> 02:08:46.199
you've got to remember, your unconscious is looking out for

1682
02:08:46.239 --> 02:08:50.560
you all the time. That's the thing that pulls your

1683
02:08:50.640 --> 02:08:53.560
hand back when it touches a hot surface. Not your

1684
02:08:53.600 --> 02:08:59.680
conscious mind. Your unconscious, your automatic reflexes is looking out

1685
02:08:59.720 --> 02:09:03.640
for you. It's not your conscious mind that sees that

1686
02:09:03.680 --> 02:09:07.720
speeding car coming as you're walking. You're about to walk

1687
02:09:07.760 --> 02:09:12.359
out on the road between two cars. You're about to

1688
02:09:12.399 --> 02:09:16.079
walk out. You don't see it, but you move back

1689
02:09:17.680 --> 02:09:22.239
like in an instant. It's not your conscious minded does that?

1690
02:09:22.840 --> 02:09:25.560
Because it was your conscious minded, does that you'd get

1691
02:09:25.640 --> 02:09:30.399
hit by the car. Our conscious minds don't move that quickly.

1692
02:09:31.439 --> 02:09:35.119
So your unconscious mind or your subconscious mind, or whatever

1693
02:09:35.119 --> 02:09:41.520
you want to call it, I call it unconscious because

1694
02:09:41.520 --> 02:09:43.880
we're not really conscious of it, that's all. It's not

1695
02:09:43.960 --> 02:09:51.199
unconscious like being asleep. I like to believe it's looking

1696
02:09:51.199 --> 02:09:58.479
out for us, has our best interest at heart. But

1697
02:09:58.560 --> 02:10:01.199
when it comes to hypnosis, I suppose, going back to

1698
02:10:01.560 --> 02:10:04.960
theory and how it works, it doesn't always know what's right.

1699
02:10:07.239 --> 02:10:09.399
It can see if a car's coming towards us, that's

1700
02:10:09.760 --> 02:10:11.039
the right thing is to get out of the way.

1701
02:10:11.479 --> 02:10:13.560
If you put your hand on hot stove, you take

1702
02:10:13.560 --> 02:10:17.640
it away, it's the right thing. Things like that. Protecting

1703
02:10:17.680 --> 02:10:25.720
our bodies is standard. But sometimes but when it comes

1704
02:10:25.760 --> 02:10:32.640
to things like phobias and being worried about things and

1705
02:10:32.680 --> 02:10:37.119
stuff like that, the unconscious mind doesn't always know. It

1706
02:10:37.199 --> 02:10:43.000
needs help, needs us to let it know what's I mean,

1707
02:10:43.039 --> 02:10:44.800
you could say in a way like a computer, but

1708
02:10:44.960 --> 02:10:51.000
programming it needs guidance, needs supervision. So the unconscious mind

1709
02:10:51.119 --> 02:10:54.520
just needs to be It needs us to let it

1710
02:10:54.600 --> 02:11:02.119
know what it needs. And I think we need to

1711
02:11:02.159 --> 02:11:06.239
be quite specific as well, And there's different ways you

1712
02:11:06.239 --> 02:11:06.760
can do that.

1713
02:11:08.159 --> 02:11:08.760
Just by.

1714
02:11:10.479 --> 02:11:14.239
You know, you can do affirmations, you can do hypnosis,

1715
02:11:14.279 --> 02:11:15.960
you can do all this stuff, but you could also

1716
02:11:16.239 --> 02:11:24.880
just just live the life. So Brooke for example, and Brook,

1717
02:11:24.920 --> 02:11:30.079
you're living the life. You're doing what you do helping

1718
02:11:30.119 --> 02:11:37.119
people have had strokes, and you know you're living. If

1719
02:11:37.159 --> 02:11:40.359
you live the life do you want to live, your

1720
02:11:40.439 --> 02:11:43.640
unconscious mind helps you to continue to live the life

1721
02:11:43.680 --> 02:11:49.800
you live. So if you're thinking positive things, your unconscious

1722
02:11:49.840 --> 02:11:55.640
mind is basically hearing that, like, oh, you want to

1723
02:11:56.760 --> 02:11:59.359
you want to be positive, you want to think more

1724
02:12:00.520 --> 02:12:04.760
more positive thoughts. If you've got kind of love in

1725
02:12:04.800 --> 02:12:07.359
your heart and you're thinking about people that you care about,

1726
02:12:08.960 --> 02:12:12.520
your unconscious mind realize that and if you need more

1727
02:12:12.560 --> 02:12:19.399
of that. So our unconscious mind's always listening to our thoughts.

1728
02:12:20.039 --> 02:12:26.279
So what we say to ourselves is hugely important. In technically,

1729
02:12:26.359 --> 02:12:29.199
you say, that's not hypnosis, it's just the brain, it's

1730
02:12:29.199 --> 02:12:32.399
the mind. So yeah, fair enough, but it's still part

1731
02:12:32.439 --> 02:12:35.560
of that whole thing. You get what you think about,

1732
02:12:36.000 --> 02:12:39.359
You get more of what you think about. We come

1733
02:12:39.439 --> 02:12:46.039
what we think about. And there's so many examples of

1734
02:12:46.079 --> 02:12:53.600
this around us. You can see it if you know

1735
02:12:53.680 --> 02:13:03.000
someone that's constantly complaining, like constantly. You can see even

1736
02:13:03.039 --> 02:13:10.640
in their face, their behavior, their interactions, you can see

1737
02:13:10.680 --> 02:13:17.199
how they even their voice, even their health is affected

1738
02:13:17.279 --> 02:13:24.159
by that negativity, by that internal looking at things in

1739
02:13:24.199 --> 02:13:34.279
a negative way. So even I guess because some people,

1740
02:13:34.319 --> 02:13:38.560
some of the funniest people can be really negative, like

1741
02:13:38.800 --> 02:13:43.439
proper funny. But then some of those people are not

1742
02:13:43.520 --> 02:13:48.920
very happy. So it's one of those things, what do

1743
02:13:48.960 --> 02:13:54.760
you focus on? We get what we focus on, and

1744
02:13:54.800 --> 02:14:00.399
it's not like an instant thing, but it's it's kind

1745
02:14:00.439 --> 02:14:02.800
of like it works in different ways. So you get

1746
02:14:02.840 --> 02:14:04.960
what we get what we focus on. So if you

1747
02:14:05.079 --> 02:14:09.159
let's say itchy bum Let's say I'm focused on having

1748
02:14:09.159 --> 02:14:15.479
an itchy bumb, it gets itcher. That's actually a good example,

1749
02:14:16.279 --> 02:14:18.319
you know, if you're kind of thinking of too, and

1750
02:14:18.359 --> 02:14:21.880
it works with the unconscious mind. It doesn't understand negative

1751
02:14:21.880 --> 02:14:25.760
and positive. Really, it's just focus on what you're thinking about.

1752
02:14:26.680 --> 02:14:30.800
So if you're thinking, oh, I don't want to have

1753
02:14:31.039 --> 02:14:35.319
that itch in the bottom of my foot, I don't

1754
02:14:35.359 --> 02:14:37.239
want to have that itch in the bottom of my foot,

1755
02:14:37.520 --> 02:14:39.560
all your unconscious mind is really going to get from

1756
02:14:39.560 --> 02:14:44.359
that is focus on the itch in your foot, just

1757
02:14:44.399 --> 02:14:48.039
going to focus on it. So if you put in

1758
02:14:48.039 --> 02:14:50.640
a different language, I like my foot, I feel relaxed

1759
02:14:50.720 --> 02:14:56.279
and calm, and you know, by imagining that that might

1760
02:14:56.399 --> 02:15:03.479
change it that way. And also our brains don't know that.

1761
02:15:03.560 --> 02:15:07.119
And this is scientists say this. Our brains don't know

1762
02:15:07.159 --> 02:15:10.800
the difference between imagined and real in a sense of

1763
02:15:11.359 --> 02:15:17.279
if we imagine feeling relaxed, lying on a beach, on

1764
02:15:17.359 --> 02:15:21.840
a hammock or whatever, and actually doing it, we have

1765
02:15:21.880 --> 02:15:27.439
the same physiological effect on our bodies and on our

1766
02:15:27.479 --> 02:15:32.000
minds as if we were actually there. I'm not saying

1767
02:15:32.000 --> 02:15:34.520
that you can get sun tanned, but I'm just you know, generally,

1768
02:15:35.760 --> 02:15:39.960
our unconscious mind or our mind, our brain doesn't know

1769
02:15:40.039 --> 02:15:48.479
the difference. And I think that's quite interesting actually. So

1770
02:15:49.279 --> 02:15:53.079
my motto is not my motto. I took it from

1771
02:15:53.319 --> 02:15:58.640
Earld Nightingale, but it has become what we think about,

1772
02:16:00.039 --> 02:16:03.199
and I try and remember that every single day. Become

1773
02:16:03.319 --> 02:16:09.680
what we think about. So if you think about what

1774
02:16:09.760 --> 02:16:15.760
do you want to become. If someone wants to stay

1775
02:16:18.000 --> 02:16:20.880
let's say someone wants to stay unhappy, then just think

1776
02:16:20.880 --> 02:16:25.520
about unhappy things. It's kind of basic, really, and I

1777
02:16:25.560 --> 02:16:29.399
don't think anyone could argue that that would probably help

1778
02:16:29.760 --> 02:16:33.319
the person to feel rubbish inside if that's all they

1779
02:16:33.360 --> 02:16:41.040
focus on. And that's why I don't watch these like

1780
02:16:41.280 --> 02:16:44.360
true crime things. I'm not knocking anyone does, but I

1781
02:16:44.479 --> 02:16:49.719
just don't find it it's useful for me my mental states.

1782
02:16:50.520 --> 02:16:55.239
It's really interesting, that's for sure. I know that I

1783
02:16:55.319 --> 02:16:58.079
understand why people get caught up in it, especially the

1784
02:16:58.120 --> 02:17:00.600
ones where you see all the film footage the police

1785
02:17:01.120 --> 02:17:04.520
arresting the people and then the interrogation makes me want

1786
02:17:04.559 --> 02:17:07.920
to watch it now. But I've spent two hours watching

1787
02:17:07.959 --> 02:17:13.040
one of them, and it's so fascinating, but at the

1788
02:17:13.079 --> 02:17:19.600
same time, I don't feel good afterwards. It's you know,

1789
02:17:19.719 --> 02:17:25.360
there's been so much horrible stuff I've just ingested. That's

1790
02:17:26.479 --> 02:17:32.040
pretty much poison. Really think about it, poison for the mind, negativity.

1791
02:17:32.760 --> 02:17:37.399
So yeah, we become what we think about. So I

1792
02:17:37.520 --> 02:17:44.680
try and remember that every day and try to focus.

1793
02:17:45.319 --> 02:17:51.120
I focus on doing these recordings helping people, and that's

1794
02:17:51.200 --> 02:17:59.159
my life. That is everything to me. So that's kind

1795
02:17:59.200 --> 02:18:02.600
of so I've can't I don't know if I have,

1796
02:18:02.760 --> 02:18:06.639
but I feel like I've become this in a way,

1797
02:18:09.040 --> 02:18:14.399
but with moods, with an unstable personality. But I've become

1798
02:18:17.319 --> 02:18:20.879
this person that I wanted to become, or I've just

1799
02:18:20.959 --> 02:18:25.520
become me. In some ways, I feel like I've found

1800
02:18:25.639 --> 02:18:30.959
my voice. It took a long time, but I seem

1801
02:18:31.040 --> 02:18:33.559
to have found my voice since I've been doing these

1802
02:18:33.680 --> 02:18:39.239
Let Me Boy the Sleeps recordings. I do feel like

1803
02:18:39.319 --> 02:18:44.280
I've found me and I can just be me. And

1804
02:18:44.360 --> 02:18:48.280
I know that I do censor myself a lot sometimes

1805
02:18:48.479 --> 02:18:50.760
when I do these, I think because they will not

1806
02:18:50.840 --> 02:18:55.959
upset anyone, and I try not to swear, and my

1807
02:18:56.079 --> 02:18:59.479
natural would probably be to swear a little bit. And

1808
02:19:00.040 --> 02:19:09.840
but it's still ultimately it's just me being me. And

1809
02:19:09.959 --> 02:19:11.959
in a way, he can't really be anything more than

1810
02:19:11.959 --> 02:19:16.280
ourselves can we. There's got to come a point, especially

1811
02:19:16.280 --> 02:19:18.760
at my age, I was like, maybe I am good enough.

1812
02:19:23.239 --> 02:19:26.760
I may be better. I may become better. I just

1813
02:19:26.799 --> 02:19:29.200
remember years ago I was in the Buddhist Center and

1814
02:19:29.959 --> 02:19:33.399
I said to someone because they pointed out one of

1815
02:19:33.399 --> 02:19:38.040
my flaws, which is sometimes Buddhists have a tendency to do,

1816
02:19:38.520 --> 02:19:44.440
especially when I'm around them, and I said, well, I'm

1817
02:19:44.479 --> 02:19:47.920
not doing this. I don't want to be perfect. And

1818
02:19:47.959 --> 02:19:49.840
he was confused by that, So what do you mean

1819
02:19:49.840 --> 02:19:52.079
he don't want to be perfect. I said, no, no,

1820
02:19:52.319 --> 02:19:56.399
I'm not trying to be perfect, and that when it

1821
02:19:56.479 --> 02:20:00.959
gainst how he was, I guess attempting his life to

1822
02:20:01.000 --> 02:20:04.799
be perfect. I don't want to be I never want

1823
02:20:04.879 --> 02:20:11.920
to be perfect. I just wanted to be better. I

1824
02:20:11.959 --> 02:20:16.799
wanted to be I want to leave something, you know,

1825
02:20:16.840 --> 02:20:25.520
I want to be useful. I didn't want to be useful,

1826
02:20:25.559 --> 02:20:28.760
not when I was in my twenties, but since the

1827
02:20:28.840 --> 02:20:32.319
age of probably much since two thousand and six, when

1828
02:20:32.319 --> 02:20:37.920
I was thirty five, although I started before then, but

1829
02:20:37.959 --> 02:20:40.639
I didn't really manage to do much until yeah, till

1830
02:20:40.799 --> 02:20:46.639
two thousand and six. I wanted to help people, but

1831
02:20:46.799 --> 02:20:52.000
knowing that I'm not, really I don't. It's a struggle

1832
02:20:52.079 --> 02:20:56.079
being around people for any length of time. Generally not

1833
02:20:56.440 --> 02:20:59.440
all people I meet. The occasional person that I can

1834
02:20:59.479 --> 02:21:06.520
spend time, but it's yeah, it I had to make

1835
02:21:06.559 --> 02:21:09.559
that decision, Like, you know what, I can help one person,

1836
02:21:11.000 --> 02:21:14.239
I could spend fifty minutes or four hours, and I

1837
02:21:14.280 --> 02:21:20.159
can help four people enough four hours. Or I can

1838
02:21:20.239 --> 02:21:29.159
make a recording online and help hundreds of people. We're

1839
02:21:29.239 --> 02:21:35.239
just one recording uploaded to YouTube or Facebook or wherever

1840
02:21:35.319 --> 02:21:39.040
I was doing it, whatever podcast host I was using

1841
02:21:39.079 --> 02:21:49.879
at that time, and MySpace to start with. And then

1842
02:21:49.920 --> 02:21:56.280
when the videos were getting thousands of yours, it made

1843
02:21:56.319 --> 02:21:59.440
sense that instead of doing a group session where I

1844
02:21:59.479 --> 02:22:06.760
was seeing maybe twelve sometime there's eighteen people, I can

1845
02:22:06.799 --> 02:22:18.040
reach a thousand people or five hundred people. And that's

1846
02:22:18.040 --> 02:22:24.639
a large audience. I mean, down between a thousand and

1847
02:22:24.680 --> 02:22:37.600
two thousand people. That's a big old theater. So that's

1848
02:22:37.600 --> 02:22:49.040
pretty much why I went in this direction. What is hypnosis?

1849
02:22:49.040 --> 02:22:50.879
How does it work? I don't know if I've really

1850
02:22:50.879 --> 02:22:55.479
answered that question, but I've kind of given a my

1851
02:22:55.719 --> 02:22:59.079
version of what I think. It's more than just having

1852
02:22:59.159 --> 02:23:02.319
someone talk to you you and get you to relax

1853
02:23:02.399 --> 02:23:10.040
and focus on this and whatever. It's It's about thoughts,

1854
02:23:10.079 --> 02:23:14.120
it's about attitude. It's about expectation. What do you believe

1855
02:23:14.159 --> 02:23:18.600
is going to happen? Belief is so strong, so powerful,

1856
02:23:20.639 --> 02:23:24.360
like the most powerful thing. What you expect to happen,

1857
02:23:25.239 --> 02:23:28.559
what you really expect to happen, has such an impact

1858
02:23:29.159 --> 02:23:35.000
on what does actually happen. So expect things to go well,

1859
02:23:37.440 --> 02:23:42.559
you know, just an idea. Right, the noisy people are

1860
02:23:42.600 --> 02:23:47.479
back in the garden, and so they clearly you don't

1861
02:23:47.520 --> 02:23:48.360
have a break at Easter.

1862
02:23:48.799 --> 02:23:49.280
Bless them.

1863
02:23:50.040 --> 02:23:52.440
So I'm going to go, so thank you for listening.

1864
02:23:53.120 --> 02:23:55.639
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

1865
02:23:55.680 --> 02:23:59.760
to be happy. Thank you to Anne, Maria, Georgie, Hillary,

1866
02:24:00.200 --> 02:24:05.479
Michelle and Brooke for your questions. I hope of answered

1867
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them and side the introduction, So long, take care, lots

1868
02:24:12.879 --> 02:24:32.760
of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1869
02:24:35.239 --> 02:24:40.319
maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1870
02:24:40.799 --> 02:24:50.840
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we've spend

1871
02:24:50.879 --> 02:24:58.840
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

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02:24:58.920 --> 02:25:04.280
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

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02:25:04.440 --> 02:25:21.000
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1874
02:25:21.079 --> 02:25:36.959
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

1875
02:25:37.120 --> 02:25:49.040
longer after the recording has ended, so that you can

1876
02:25:50.680 --> 02:26:01.319
still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1877
02:26:01.360 --> 02:26:13.840
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1878
02:26:16.920 --> 02:26:21.559
especially if you find like some people do and myself

1879
02:26:21.600 --> 02:26:26.200
as well, I sometimes I find one particular recording that

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02:26:26.399 --> 02:26:35.079
really resonates with me, and I just listen to it

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02:26:35.159 --> 02:26:48.000
over and over again every morning, every evening. There was

1882
02:26:48.040 --> 02:26:55.159
this recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine,

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02:26:55.440 --> 02:27:00.799
it was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1884
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It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1885
02:27:07.959 --> 02:27:11.479
find it again and it still has the same effect

1886
02:27:12.000 --> 02:27:23.600
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1887
02:27:24.000 --> 02:27:34.239
relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward

1888
02:27:34.680 --> 02:27:41.360
to listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

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And I knew before even pressing the play button that

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since I've done that, pressed the play but button. This

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is in the days of CD players, pressed the play button.

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In fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

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I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

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necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

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it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

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and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

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02:29:19.680 --> 02:29:33.680
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1898
02:29:33.719 --> 02:29:39.959
was listening to this recording in the early days of

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learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

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or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

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02:29:55.760 --> 02:30:09.559
till two thousand and six, but I knew, I knew

1902
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how helpful I found being able to just let go

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02:30:25.639 --> 02:30:31.040
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

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02:30:38.719 --> 02:30:45.440
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

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02:30:46.879 --> 02:30:56.239
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1906
02:30:56.319 --> 02:31:08.000
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

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02:31:08.040 --> 02:31:21.959
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1908
02:31:21.959 --> 02:31:28.280
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1909
02:31:30.120 --> 02:31:45.159
Some people maybe listen every day. And something that I

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do which you may not realize by listening is when

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I record these recordings now, for example, I also am

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02:32:17.239 --> 02:32:31.040
affected by the words that I say. So if I

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02:32:31.079 --> 02:32:38.440
set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

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I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

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noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

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and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

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02:33:20.479 --> 02:33:26.559
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

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On the backs of your hands. You may start to

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02:33:39.360 --> 02:33:47.440
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

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though there may not be any type of breeze at

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all where you are right now. And as you become

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02:34:05.399 --> 02:34:19.760
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

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my hands our feeling.

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Now.

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And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

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which may be the reason you're listening. I also feel

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drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

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mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

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without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And

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it's only where I listen back to do the editing.

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I hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring.

1932
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I remember talking. This snoring was a pig turned up.

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That's why I sound like when I snare and I

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get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

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you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

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How relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

1937
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more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

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comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

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02:37:55.319 --> 02:38:15.600
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you the

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02:38:15.719 --> 02:38:42.159
breve easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being

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able to notice the ease.

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In which.

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You breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1944
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Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my

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02:40:18.120 --> 02:40:37.879
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees,

1946
02:40:38.040 --> 02:41:11.719
and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels

1947
02:41:12.000 --> 02:41:33.760
nice to if nothing else, just taking some time away

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from everything, enjoying that feeling of h peace, serenity with

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02:42:21.680 --> 02:42:58.159
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

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varies slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

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02:43:50.079 --> 02:44:53.559
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1952
02:44:53.760 --> 02:45:40.959
mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires

1953
02:45:41.000 --> 02:46:11.360
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1954
02:46:11.639 --> 02:46:23.840
the stress to rip out of your body, to appear

1955
02:46:24.159 --> 02:46:48.120
out of every part of your body, and being released

1956
02:46:53.360 --> 02:47:33.840
from your brain your mind slowly but surely. The muscles

1957
02:47:34.360 --> 02:48:27.120
in your legs relax really, so very deeply, res so deeply,

1958
02:48:44.920 --> 02:48:55.079
and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

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02:49:13.000 --> 02:49:37.479
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper.

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Noticing the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings

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02:50:22.639 --> 02:51:12.239
in your wrists, muscles front of your body. I also

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02:51:22.120 --> 02:52:00.760
feeling peaceful, deeply. There's a sense of peace m spreads

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through your very core. Even when you focus on your mind,

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your mind becomes.

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Bee and slowerven.

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Deeper, relaxing, so very slow your stomach. He's Forllin's stomach.

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You're back.

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Notice, Notice how relaxed you'd never fear in the hole

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of your back.

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Your spy.

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From your brain all the way down the middle of

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02:56:13.959 --> 02:56:25.719
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

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deep coomfort increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, spreading those signals

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02:57:57.559 --> 02:58:20.879
down a spine or cord into airvery part of your body,

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02:58:21.600 --> 02:59:09.879
your shins and your calf muscles. We're outbowsts. Feelings of

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02:59:10.079 --> 02:59:27.280
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

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02:59:31.559 --> 02:59:43.079
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

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02:59:43.159 --> 03:00:57.840
lower back. The tinker retinker peace drifting mind just wound

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in a way happy to let go, let go completely,

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let go, so tranquil the whole body, enjoying a censor,

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lett him go, he even more.

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Peace for enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety.

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So fury.

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He relaxed, lessing God. Maybe we can just focus on

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the different parts of your body, just to notice your

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03:07:54.959 --> 03:08:57.920
forehead and your eyes. Ittu slce Notice in a sensive

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complete freedom, absolute freedom, ri rift Pea's for energy peace

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to breathe much easier lest you may have or may

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not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, moveingly, even more

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deeply in the direction of total blissful peace, blissful peace, Christ,

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total peace, Come, so calm, lett him go.

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Peace with mind.

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Rexed forty so relax, I relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

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so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful, real.

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Liquor, so peaceful, fairy.

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And you could start to notice that you are feeling

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more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

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03:19:25.399 --> 03:19:32.920
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

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03:19:33.040 --> 03:19:42.200
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

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03:19:47.120 --> 03:19:54.280
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

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03:19:54.719 --> 03:20:07.200
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

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03:20:08.920 --> 03:20:19.920
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

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03:20:20.000 --> 03:20:26.879
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

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03:20:29.040 --> 03:20:36.520
take a break from your life as it is, and

2005
03:20:36.680 --> 03:20:44.440
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

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03:20:44.520 --> 03:20:50.079
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

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03:20:51.799 --> 03:20:59.719
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

2008
03:21:02.360 --> 03:21:07.360
releases the tension and he stresses that you had in

2009
03:21:07.440 --> 03:21:17.280
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

2010
03:21:17.319 --> 03:21:29.319
body just open up allowing the negativity out and at

2011
03:21:29.360 --> 03:21:37.600
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

2012
03:21:40.719 --> 03:21:45.319
which then fills your body up and your mind to

2013
03:21:46.959 --> 03:22:05.360
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

2014
03:22:05.440 --> 03:22:22.520
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

2015
03:22:22.600 --> 03:22:33.239
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

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03:22:33.600 --> 03:22:45.639
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

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an hour, however long you want it to be, to

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03:22:49.879 --> 03:23:03.680
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

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03:23:03.840 --> 03:23:20.440
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

2020
03:23:24.719 --> 03:23:34.040
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

2021
03:23:38.120 --> 03:23:46.920
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

2022
03:23:47.719 --> 03:23:52.319
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

2023
03:23:56.600 --> 03:24:06.280
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

2024
03:24:11.360 --> 03:24:18.559
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

2025
03:24:18.760 --> 03:24:24.440
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

2026
03:24:27.920 --> 03:24:37.280
to feel more comfort and to experience.

2027
03:24:39.000 --> 03:24:40.159
More of this.

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03:24:41.920 --> 03:24:57.079
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

2029
03:24:58.639 --> 03:25:04.399
on each part of your body, you can notice that

2030
03:25:04.639 --> 03:25:19.159
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

2031
03:25:21.680 --> 03:25:31.360
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing,

2032
03:25:35.399 --> 03:25:41.159
and as I move down your body, starting at your head,

2033
03:25:43.879 --> 03:25:50.559
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

2034
03:25:50.760 --> 03:25:58.399
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

2035
03:25:58.440 --> 03:26:11.760
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

2036
03:26:12.200 --> 03:26:25.239
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

2037
03:26:25.280 --> 03:26:32.200
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

2038
03:26:32.559 --> 03:26:41.120
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

2039
03:26:42.920 --> 03:26:47.760
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

2040
03:26:47.920 --> 03:26:55.159
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

2041
03:26:58.319 --> 03:27:01.399
This isn't this isn't a their ile environments.

2042
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This is the world.

2043
03:27:07.120 --> 03:27:13.159
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

2044
03:27:13.680 --> 03:27:24.159
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

2045
03:27:24.440 --> 03:27:32.200
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

2046
03:27:34.520 --> 03:27:39.000
only on my voice and that part of your body.

2047
03:27:44.200 --> 03:27:52.479
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

2048
03:27:54.959 --> 03:28:04.639
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

2049
03:28:04.719 --> 03:28:11.159
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

2050
03:28:11.399 --> 03:28:25.840
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

2051
03:28:26.319 --> 03:28:32.920
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

2052
03:28:33.079 --> 03:28:33.879
your mouth.

2053
03:28:35.440 --> 03:28:42.479
Relaxing calm and loose.

2054
03:28:46.639 --> 03:28:54.440
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

2055
03:28:54.559 --> 03:28:59.360
part of your jaw near your mouth, your chin, but

2056
03:28:59.520 --> 03:29:04.280
all they up the sides of your face to your ears,

2057
03:29:06.559 --> 03:29:08.719
the hole of your jaw.

2058
03:29:11.159 --> 03:29:22.440
Feeding more relaxed and calm.

2059
03:29:30.600 --> 03:29:39.680
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck, and

2060
03:29:39.799 --> 03:29:52.799
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

2061
03:29:52.959 --> 03:29:58.399
your neck, the right and left side of your neck.

2062
03:30:01.159 --> 03:30:09.079
Relax and loose and calm.

2063
03:30:15.440 --> 03:30:22.159
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

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03:30:22.440 --> 03:30:32.840
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

2065
03:30:33.040 --> 03:30:41.879
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

2066
03:30:42.920 --> 03:30:53.559
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

2067
03:30:53.680 --> 03:31:05.959
back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

2068
03:31:06.200 --> 03:31:10.559
either side of your spine right from the top of

2069
03:31:10.639 --> 03:31:16.159
your back all the way down to the bottom of

2070
03:31:16.280 --> 03:31:33.239
your back down to your lower back. And as you

2071
03:31:33.479 --> 03:31:40.799
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

2072
03:31:41.000 --> 03:31:56.040
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

2073
03:31:56.200 --> 03:32:02.879
as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to

2074
03:32:03.120 --> 03:32:13.520
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

2075
03:32:17.319 --> 03:32:21.000
the top of your back, the middle and your lower back.

2076
03:32:24.559 --> 03:32:31.680
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

2077
03:32:31.879 --> 03:32:36.920
your back. There's the muscles in the top of your

2078
03:32:37.040 --> 03:32:46.959
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

2079
03:32:47.040 --> 03:32:54.319
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

2080
03:32:54.399 --> 03:33:07.399
each other, separating and it just melting. And in your

2081
03:33:07.520 --> 03:33:14.559
lower back it seems to be an extra special feeling

2082
03:33:18.559 --> 03:33:30.040
of comfort. The spreads into your hips. Sit down your

2083
03:33:30.200 --> 03:33:38.120
lower back, into your hips, into the area where your

2084
03:33:38.280 --> 03:33:47.239
cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all those muscles

2085
03:33:47.399 --> 03:33:56.360
that spread from your lower back into your hip area

2086
03:33:59.440 --> 03:34:16.120
start to melt, start to really let go. Don't even

2087
03:34:16.239 --> 03:34:23.239
nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your back and

2088
03:34:23.399 --> 03:34:35.040
your spine will continue to let go, continue to relax

2089
03:34:38.559 --> 03:34:51.120
so calmly. As you focus on your shoulders, you may

2090
03:34:51.319 --> 03:35:16.520
notice that they're already feeling really loose, already feeding, calm.

2091
03:35:22.479 --> 03:35:23.600
And fearing.

2092
03:35:27.799 --> 03:35:36.120
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

2093
03:35:42.680 --> 03:36:12.120
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

2094
03:36:12.280 --> 03:36:25.120
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

2095
03:36:25.239 --> 03:36:35.639
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

2096
03:36:36.040 --> 03:36:53.000
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

2097
03:36:53.120 --> 03:37:01.920
all away to underneath your arms. Relaxing, a whole area

2098
03:37:02.120 --> 03:37:11.879
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing.

2099
03:37:17.319 --> 03:37:30.239
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who

2100
03:37:30.559 --> 03:37:52.440
sends that deep healing message into your arms? And you

2101
03:37:52.600 --> 03:37:58.319
may feel almost as if your arms are not even there.

2102
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Just this, so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so.

2103
03:38:43.600 --> 03:38:53.639
Pose, not feeling spreading.

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03:38:55.879 --> 03:39:09.079
All the way down your arms, two elbows, including.

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Your elbows circumforts spreads.

2106
03:39:27.040 --> 03:39:38.120
Or away into wrists, your forearments and your wrists.

2107
03:39:44.319 --> 03:40:03.319
So heavy, yet at the same time, so right and

2108
03:40:04.079 --> 03:40:29.639
gentle fully.

2109
03:40:29.920 --> 03:40:33.600
See now on.

2110
03:40:36.280 --> 03:41:09.000
Your hands, I yes, so peaceful.

2111
03:41:10.079 --> 03:41:47.559
In your hands. There's a sense of real peace. It

2112
03:41:47.879 --> 03:41:53.559
just seems to I feel.

2113
03:41:55.600 --> 03:41:57.399
So familiar.

2114
03:42:00.239 --> 03:43:05.520
In your hands, relax deeply, Yes, your fingers. A thing is.

2115
03:43:08.600 --> 03:43:39.879
Sidles? You think its tips?

2116
03:44:08.479 --> 03:44:27.639
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

2117
03:44:38.639 --> 03:44:40.760
Moving your focus.

2118
03:44:42.159 --> 03:46:03.840
To your legs. Love muscles.

2119
03:46:05.360 --> 03:46:58.000
In your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, a calf muscles,

2120
03:46:59.360 --> 03:49:05.680
and just shins, how puzzy, the y and the fathing

2121
03:49:07.120 --> 03:49:34.079
and your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

2122
03:50:04.159 --> 03:50:35.159
so peaceful, so calm, so peace fa RelA sin peace fall,

2123
03:50:38.799 --> 03:50:54.239
so calm, loving that deep relaxation, the spread your chest,

2124
03:50:54.479 --> 03:51:09.479
in your stomach, so letting go.

2125
03:51:13.639 --> 03:51:14.280
Everything.

2126
03:51:25.559 --> 03:51:31.559
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

2127
03:51:31.639 --> 03:51:39.719
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

2128
03:51:40.559 --> 03:51:47.000
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

2129
03:51:47.079 --> 03:51:58.479
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step represents.

2130
03:52:00.200 --> 03:52:01.479
A deepening.

2131
03:52:02.920 --> 03:52:13.239
Of that comfort, and the fervies you walk down those

2132
03:52:13.440 --> 03:52:25.239
steps that the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So

2133
03:52:25.920 --> 03:55:02.000
starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixty h

2134
03:55:19.639 --> 03:55:29.879
h h.

2135
03:55:44.600 --> 04:03:24.840
H fifteen fourteen four see too well five eight nine eight.

2136
04:04:24.399 --> 04:07:03.440
Seven six.

2137
04:07:17.319 --> 04:08:37.159
Five four.

2138
04:09:16.239 --> 04:12:15.200
Hi one.

2139
04:13:04.760 --> 04:13:21.719
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

2140
04:13:21.799 --> 04:13:34.040
count down from ten tout one, focusing just on your eyes,

2141
04:13:37.799 --> 04:13:46.280
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

2142
04:13:47.799 --> 04:14:04.840
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

2143
04:14:04.920 --> 04:14:13.280
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

2144
04:14:13.440 --> 04:14:28.399
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

2145
04:14:28.799 --> 04:14:41.799
each number counting down that you may find the all

2146
04:14:41.959 --> 04:14:48.040
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

2147
04:14:51.040 --> 04:14:57.680
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

2148
04:14:57.760 --> 04:15:12.399
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

2149
04:15:12.520 --> 04:15:22.479
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now.

2150
04:15:31.040 --> 04:15:58.200
Ten nine.

2151
04:16:02.559 --> 04:21:55.319
H eight d seven h five four three.

2152
04:22:27.360 --> 04:24:29.079
Two one.

2153
04:24:35.399 --> 04:24:50.399
So counted down from ten to one ten nine.

2154
04:24:51.799 --> 04:25:19.520
Eight seven six life four three two one. And maybe

2155
04:25:19.680 --> 04:25:22.559
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

2156
04:25:23.799 --> 04:25:28.040
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

2157
04:25:28.319 --> 04:25:36.360
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

2158
04:25:36.440 --> 04:25:40.520
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

2159
04:25:40.639 --> 04:25:44.040
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

2160
04:25:44.079 --> 04:25:53.799
stick go floppy just because you're counting down. If you

2161
04:25:53.959 --> 04:25:57.680
try it again, but this time I go this slower

2162
04:26:00.120 --> 04:26:04.799
is time as you focus on the whole of your

2163
04:26:04.879 --> 04:26:13.239
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

2164
04:26:13.319 --> 04:26:27.399
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

2165
04:26:27.559 --> 04:27:00.639
number that I count down ten nine eight seven six

2166
04:27:09.079 --> 04:28:18.000
five four three two one, And just notice how how

2167
04:28:18.079 --> 04:28:28.159
you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

2168
04:28:28.280 --> 04:28:38.639
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

2169
04:28:38.959 --> 04:28:58.639
space that you have, that space between being active physically

2170
04:28:58.840 --> 04:29:07.639
or mentally to just sitting or lying down and just

2171
04:29:07.879 --> 04:29:13.760
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

2172
04:29:14.040 --> 04:29:19.479
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

2173
04:29:20.479 --> 04:29:29.600
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

2174
04:29:29.719 --> 04:29:34.319
the more I cam down from ten to one, the

2175
04:29:34.399 --> 04:29:42.360
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

2176
04:29:43.760 --> 04:29:59.440
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

2177
04:30:01.000 --> 04:30:09.040
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

2178
04:30:10.559 --> 04:30:18.680
Away. Allows you.

2179
04:30:21.360 --> 04:30:30.920
To just slow down, someone to count again from ten

2180
04:30:31.040 --> 04:30:39.399
down to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap.

2181
04:30:41.200 --> 04:30:45.799
And as it widens, it's almost like the thestress and

2182
04:30:45.920 --> 04:31:03.520
attention falls into the gap. It gives you that distance,

2183
04:31:05.520 --> 04:32:09.600
that space now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four

2184
04:32:27.959 --> 04:33:21.479
three one. And how does your body feel now?

2185
04:33:34.240 --> 04:33:47.319
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling.

2186
04:33:49.240 --> 04:34:16.599
More relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

2187
04:34:16.799 --> 04:34:38.159
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

2188
04:34:52.959 --> 04:34:56.959
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be

2189
04:34:57.040 --> 04:35:04.279
doing because I'm sure, like most of your body is

2190
04:35:04.400 --> 04:35:16.479
not a lot going on right now. Just focusing on

2191
04:35:16.639 --> 04:35:22.040
the whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs,

2192
04:35:22.840 --> 04:35:28.159
the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs,

2193
04:35:29.680 --> 04:35:35.119
your outer thighs and your inner thighs, basically the whole

2194
04:35:35.200 --> 04:35:42.680
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

2195
04:35:42.840 --> 04:35:53.520
goes down to your knee joints. Now, this is a

2196
04:35:53.639 --> 04:36:03.560
big area. It's a very heavy, it's very strong, probably

2197
04:36:03.639 --> 04:36:08.279
the strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs.

2198
04:36:18.479 --> 04:36:24.680
But I don't think we perhaps will give enough attention

2199
04:36:26.119 --> 04:36:39.479
to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our

2200
04:36:39.720 --> 04:36:59.840
thighs are to our lives, how much they actually do

2201
04:37:00.119 --> 04:37:13.919
for us all through our lives. And it may seem

2202
04:37:14.000 --> 04:37:19.080
to sound really weird, but I think that all of

2203
04:37:19.159 --> 04:37:30.000
our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a

2204
04:37:30.080 --> 04:37:43.119
bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

2205
04:37:46.279 --> 04:37:58.599
gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

2206
04:37:58.759 --> 04:38:04.439
know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

2207
04:38:04.880 --> 04:38:07.639
why am I surely how I should be able in

2208
04:38:07.759 --> 04:38:16.319
the garden hugging a tree or something. Wow, it's hard

2209
04:38:16.360 --> 04:38:19.520
to set a microphone up on a tree. That's why

2210
04:38:19.520 --> 04:38:22.200
I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging

2211
04:38:22.240 --> 04:38:25.720
a tree. Now I can't see the television from the tree.

2212
04:38:32.400 --> 04:38:36.680
If you move down to your knees gain such an

2213
04:38:36.759 --> 04:38:46.479
important part, and I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

2214
04:38:46.520 --> 04:38:53.880
for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

2215
04:38:54.000 --> 04:38:59.200
knees do for me until I have a problem with

2216
04:38:59.360 --> 04:39:04.439
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever, maybe i'll bash it,

2217
04:39:04.759 --> 04:39:10.599
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

2218
04:39:10.799 --> 04:39:16.240
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

2219
04:39:16.360 --> 04:39:23.799
being able to use my legs without any kind of

2220
04:39:23.959 --> 04:39:32.319
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

2221
04:39:32.439 --> 04:39:43.479
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

2222
04:39:43.520 --> 04:39:48.880
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your needs feel,

2223
04:39:52.000 --> 04:39:57.720
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

2224
04:39:57.840 --> 04:40:10.639
your needs for all that they do for you. You

2225
04:40:10.720 --> 04:40:14.599
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

2226
04:40:14.799 --> 04:40:21.040
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

2227
04:40:21.959 --> 04:40:39.759
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

2228
04:40:39.840 --> 04:40:44.240
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles

2229
04:40:44.599 --> 04:40:52.279
and the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate,

2230
04:40:52.400 --> 04:40:54.360
and of course your ankles.

2231
04:40:56.200 --> 04:41:05.520
So important. You know, anyone that's had even like the

2232
04:41:05.720 --> 04:41:07.759
slightest sprain.

2233
04:41:07.439 --> 04:41:14.400
Of an ankle knows how how much we take our

2234
04:41:14.599 --> 04:41:22.119
ankles for granted, and it's.

2235
04:41:22.080 --> 04:41:24.159
Kind of strange in a way when you think that.

2236
04:41:26.720 --> 04:41:30.680
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

2237
04:41:30.799 --> 04:41:34.919
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

2238
04:41:35.400 --> 04:41:38.479
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

2239
04:41:38.599 --> 04:41:39.479
picking stuff up.

2240
04:41:41.080 --> 04:41:42.560
But our ankles.

2241
04:41:43.840 --> 04:41:53.759
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

2242
04:41:53.880 --> 04:41:57.799
from a physics perspective or logical even.

2243
04:41:57.680 --> 04:42:01.759
It doesn't really make sense that all this weight.

2244
04:42:03.200 --> 04:42:10.159
Would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to

2245
04:42:10.240 --> 04:42:23.439
your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does

2246
04:42:23.639 --> 04:42:30.439
so much great work. Supports us, supports our body for

2247
04:42:30.520 --> 04:42:40.919
a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you to.

2248
04:42:44.919 --> 04:42:54.159
Get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

2249
04:42:54.159 --> 04:43:02.119
Of course, I was younger, I couldn't see the point

2250
04:43:02.159 --> 04:43:08.200
in calf muscles didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

2251
04:43:08.240 --> 04:43:11.799
I walked around on tiptoes, then my craft muscles get

2252
04:43:11.880 --> 04:43:15.560
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

2253
04:43:15.680 --> 04:43:25.319
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and

2254
04:43:25.479 --> 04:43:38.000
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

2255
04:43:38.080 --> 04:43:50.639
a way almost as a protector for the bone, leading

2256
04:43:52.000 --> 04:44:02.400
of course, to your ankles and your feet. But we're

2257
04:44:02.439 --> 04:44:04.319
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

2258
04:44:04.400 --> 04:44:11.080
to focus on legs. I realize, and now that I've

2259
04:44:11.200 --> 04:44:15.880
mentioned your feet, you've probably focuses on them anyway, So

2260
04:44:16.040 --> 04:44:18.400
maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

2261
04:44:22.439 --> 04:44:26.880
You can have them in your awareness the same as

2262
04:44:26.959 --> 04:44:31.319
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

2263
04:44:31.439 --> 04:44:37.360
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, we'll

2264
04:44:37.400 --> 04:44:48.319
be focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation of

2265
04:44:51.520 --> 04:45:04.279
comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy

2266
04:45:06.360 --> 04:45:13.400
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

2267
04:45:13.439 --> 04:45:18.200
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

2268
04:45:18.439 --> 04:45:31.759
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

2269
04:45:31.840 --> 04:45:37.159
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

2270
04:45:37.959 --> 04:45:49.520
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

2271
04:45:56.080 --> 04:46:03.599
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

2272
04:46:03.680 --> 04:46:08.759
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff that's

2273
04:46:09.000 --> 04:46:17.799
inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice if

2274
04:46:17.840 --> 04:46:22.680
you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs and

2275
04:46:22.799 --> 04:46:28.520
a message, so you can message on the outside, of course,

2276
04:46:29.400 --> 04:46:31.680
but to be able to get deep into the muscles,

2277
04:46:32.720 --> 04:46:37.840
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

2278
04:46:37.880 --> 04:46:45.959
in the bones of your leg, massage in all the

2279
04:46:46.119 --> 04:46:56.680
veins and just gently human your thighs and you can

2280
04:46:56.840 --> 04:47:04.599
move down mess inside your knees. Just message in those bones,

2281
04:47:05.639 --> 04:47:12.639
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

2282
04:47:12.759 --> 04:47:22.159
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

2283
04:47:22.439 --> 04:47:27.360
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

2284
04:47:27.400 --> 04:47:35.159
your knee is. It's a really sensitive area. Real that's

2285
04:47:35.279 --> 04:47:39.279
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

2286
04:47:40.159 --> 04:47:45.119
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

2287
04:47:45.279 --> 04:47:51.799
almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

2288
04:47:51.880 --> 04:47:58.919
It's almost it's like a part that has a sensitivity,

2289
04:47:59.000 --> 04:48:09.439
which is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected

2290
04:48:09.560 --> 04:48:20.759
by your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

2291
04:48:20.959 --> 04:48:30.959
into that crease in your legs, folding between your legs,

2292
04:48:31.680 --> 04:48:36.319
you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

2293
04:48:36.400 --> 04:48:46.799
going inside, message in the muscle or tissue. You can

2294
04:48:46.880 --> 04:48:53.119
of course feel the bones of your knees heading through

2295
04:48:53.159 --> 04:49:05.840
your fingertips, and then as you go down to your

2296
04:49:05.959 --> 04:49:08.599
calf muscles, and that's a part. I'd like to be

2297
04:49:08.639 --> 04:49:15.000
able to really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles,

2298
04:49:16.520 --> 04:49:26.279
massage in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

2299
04:49:32.279 --> 04:49:38.360
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

2300
04:49:39.240 --> 04:49:46.919
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing their loving way,

2301
04:49:48.240 --> 04:49:54.639
because they deserve to be treated as the precious bones

2302
04:49:54.680 --> 04:49:59.439
that they are. Our legs are so precious as in

2303
04:49:59.520 --> 04:50:04.639
all the other parts of our body, and more precious

2304
04:50:04.720 --> 04:50:18.479
of amyture on the planet. When when you start to

2305
04:50:20.040 --> 04:50:31.040
think about your legs in this way, it can change

2306
04:50:31.200 --> 04:50:40.680
your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit silly

2307
04:50:40.840 --> 04:50:46.439
to start with the idea of having love for your legs,

2308
04:50:47.880 --> 04:50:55.520
showing appreciation for your thighs, want them to be able

2309
04:50:55.560 --> 04:51:02.720
to put your hands in your thighs the message the

2310
04:51:02.919 --> 04:51:08.799
muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers deep

2311
04:51:08.880 --> 04:51:18.639
in there, releasing all tension, just to show how much

2312
04:51:18.759 --> 04:51:26.200
you care about your legs, how much you care for

2313
04:51:27.319 --> 04:51:35.279
what your legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves,

2314
04:51:36.599 --> 04:51:48.880
your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering how thin

2315
04:51:49.040 --> 04:51:52.599
they are compared to the rest of your legs, especially

2316
04:51:52.720 --> 04:52:07.360
your eyes. Yeah, this so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

2317
04:52:08.639 --> 04:52:10.159
The ankles are.

2318
04:52:13.840 --> 04:52:15.479
Truly a gift.

2319
04:52:17.479 --> 04:52:26.599
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

2320
04:52:28.599 --> 04:52:33.080
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you're

2321
04:52:33.119 --> 04:52:38.119
only eight stones, there's still a lot of weight for

2322
04:52:38.279 --> 04:52:44.959
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eat

2323
04:52:45.040 --> 04:52:55.680
stones double back, yet my ankles support my body all

2324
04:52:55.759 --> 04:53:02.200
the time. That they do keep off a sigh of

2325
04:53:02.319 --> 04:53:08.000
relief when I sit down. That's my whole legs to

2326
04:53:11.680 --> 04:53:18.520
my feet. The also go well the toast track. I'm

2327
04:53:18.560 --> 04:53:48.360
so happy. Your legs really are amazing, and talking about

2328
04:53:49.000 --> 04:53:54.400
talking about your legs is probably possibly, if one of

2329
04:53:54.479 --> 04:53:58.040
the most things, the most boring things I've ever heard

2330
04:53:58.119 --> 04:54:06.159
anyone say, pass me the boy or not. Everything I

2331
04:54:06.279 --> 04:54:22.200
said is true. The legs are amazing. Your lex deserve

2332
04:54:23.240 --> 04:54:41.240
not just respect, but they deserve to relax deeply. They

2333
04:54:41.400 --> 04:54:46.759
deserve to take some time out of the day they

2334
04:54:46.959 --> 04:55:23.560
just lecker completely. The legs really can relax. And because

2335
04:55:23.599 --> 04:55:27.560
the legs are so such a most you know, very

2336
04:55:27.599 --> 04:55:33.479
important part in your body and your relaxu eggs, the

2337
04:55:33.639 --> 04:55:44.799
rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

2338
04:55:44.959 --> 04:55:56.680
of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

2339
04:55:56.880 --> 04:56:03.159
hips feel really loose, and also my.

2340
04:56:03.240 --> 04:56:09.000
Lawyer back as well. My law back really feels.

2341
04:56:09.040 --> 04:56:12.959
It feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in a

2342
04:56:13.119 --> 04:56:19.279
chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm aware

2343
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that I'm doing. It's almost as if the muscles are

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just relaxed so much that there is a natural stretch

2345
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that the tension has reduced a lot. And now then

2346
04:56:51.639 --> 04:56:54.400
countdown from ten downs to one.

2347
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And you can continue.

2348
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To film wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight seven six, five

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four three one.

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So I'm just going to count down.

2351
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And fire down to one. And as a countdown, you

2352
04:58:07.759 --> 04:58:14.639
just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

2353
04:58:15.720 --> 04:58:24.840
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

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04:58:25.000 --> 04:58:32.520
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

2355
04:58:32.639 --> 04:58:42.759
down represents you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

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04:58:42.919 --> 04:58:46.880
but also relaxing your mind.

2357
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I just notice how you feel.

2358
04:58:52.159 --> 04:58:58.080
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

2359
04:58:58.240 --> 04:59:41.200
to think about. Starting weird number five four three two one.

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Did you notice a gradual.

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04:59:59.400 --> 04:59:59.919
Letting go.

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The tension in your body? It may also begin to

2363
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notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

2364
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to slow down.

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This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

2366
05:00:28.720 --> 05:00:33.919
really a special procedure. It's just natural because is your

2367
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body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

2368
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more the mind relaxes and more the body relaxes. It's

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just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that the

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harmless that comes from alited quietness?

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Okay, we can use if this background sounds even real

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side online.

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It's still against the my go.

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You've got the televisions music in the background and listens

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05:01:23.040 --> 05:01:24.439
to me written music.

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In a way like you don't sit in the room.

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What