April 11, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to.

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CU and Cunich Cuney Friday, Cooney Cooney, Cumbere Friday. My

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name's Jason Newland. This is Jason Newland dot com. Please

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only listen to one who can safely close your eyes.

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It is eleventh what Friday? The eleventh of April two

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thousand and twenty five. Now little problem. No, I'm not

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talking about that. I'm talking about this what I don't

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really know what to do today because because because because

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because of the wonderful things he does, I haven't really

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had any questions hardly. Now does that mean we're at

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the end of the Q and A Friday. Does that

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mean that's kind of it now we sort of stop

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doing them?

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Or I don't know.

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I don't know what the what the solution is, if

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I'm honest. So I do have a couple of questions,

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but and I realized one question can take me the

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whole session. But the idea, what's going on?

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What's that? Or right? Okay?

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So maybe my problem is I post them on all

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the different pages and stead of just on the Jason

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Newlands Boring group on Facebook, but posted like the any questions.

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I think the two things that have been problematic is

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first of all, I have produced probably too many recordings

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in a sense that the post hello, do you have

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any questions for this week's Q and A Friday, eleventh

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of April twenty twenty five, which I posted on the

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ninth Wednesday, has got kind of hidden by all the

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other posts that I posted, because you know I've done.

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I did three recordings yesterday. This will be the second

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one today. I did two the day before that, two

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the day before that. So yes, quite a few, I guess.

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So I'm thinking what can I do to cover that?

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So I got questions from Hillary where in high landage

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of visit? And I've got another question from Sebastian. Oh

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that wasn't a question. Well, podcast win, don't make me

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start on my own. So he didn't. I didn't ask

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a question. He posted a picture of do you know?

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On YouTube? But what on Facebook? At the moment there's

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all these pictures of like action figures done by AI

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and people are doing their own ones. Well, he's done

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for me, and it says Uncle Smellie hours of boredom.

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And it's basically a very very short, plump man with

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hardly any hair, wearing pink glasses and says comes with

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several cooled dysfunctionalities ages nine and up, not age is

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five and up. So it yeah, that was his thing

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for me, So it wasn't a question. So I say, hello,

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do you have any questions for this seach Q and

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a Friday Sebastian answers have aware of you of robbing

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yourself by not talking to me. Never mind, I'll keep

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on barding your dms and one day you will have

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to face it. So I say, do you have an

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actual question? And he says, do you like your action figure?

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I designed for you?

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So no, Sebastian, I don't like it. I mean, it's

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nice that you took the time to I don't even

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know what the right word is to be honest, uncle

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Smellie ours of boredom. I mean, the thing is, I

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don't want to say nice things about him. But Sebastian's

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been doing AI and images and stuff like that. Before

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AI was even about, he was doing and making weird

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making weird images and videos like ten years ago. So

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I'm a little bit scared what he could come up

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with with the new technology. In some of the things

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he's actually posted are very funny. There's one he did.

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Where there's me in a dressing gown and suddenly all

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these people just pulled my dresser gown off and it's

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like a kung fu or karate dojo. So yeah, I

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do like the some of new stuff you post, but

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it's usually it's not aimed at making me feel good

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about myself?

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Is it a? So? Where all? Guess?

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Where did Thailand? We're entirely to go? So that's that one,

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seems there's any other questions, any other questions, any other questions?

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Nothing on Jason Newland's boring group, Let Me Boy to Sleep.

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Let's see there's anything on that page?

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Oh? What come on.

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Jason Newland Hypnosis. Let's all look on that page? Is

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there anything?

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You never know?

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There might be something? No, nothing on there, Let me

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Boy to Sleep? Anything on there? I wonder why trains

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make so much noise? Sometimes might not be a train? Actually, Oh,

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I didn't seem to post it on that one? Okay,

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fair enough? So did I post it on the Jason

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Newland Hypnotist?

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All one word?

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I didn't, okay, fair enough? So the ones I posted

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on I didn't get any other responses, so only one question.

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And I don't believe if I'm correct, I've ever had

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only one question in a week, which is it. I'm

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not concerned as in like no, oh, no, what we're

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going to do, but a little bit like okay, because

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it seems a little bit of a shame to wave

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goodbye to the Q and a Friday, because I've kind

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of got a little bit used to it. It's it's

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almost the first regular thing that I've ever really done.

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Like like I'm saying like a lot Todayn't I regular

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as in, well, okay, we all know what regular means,

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don't me.

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But I don't know. I don't know what the solution is.

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So I'm thinking, if I go onto my website, is

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there a way general settings? Is there a way I

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can add something to the top of the page header

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and footer header layout? Because I'm thinking if there is,

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I don't I need to I need to go to

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the page.

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So I go to pages.

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Because maybe if I can put so if I edit

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that homepage, if I can add a question or a

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button or voice message as well? No not voice menage

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contact form review form. I wonder what the review form

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would do write a review for hypnosis and Sleeping Deeply.

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Blind?

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It no okay that it brings up. It brings up

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a different one for each podcast. So there's too many podcasts.

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It's a big, long old thing. So if I go

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to intake form, what's an intake form?

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Anyone?

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Intake form? Look what this is? Intake form? Your name? Wow? Okay,

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that's a lot of stuff.

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What if I can Nopes not allow me to change stuff?

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That's no good.

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No, that's that's probably more for me to feell in,

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isn't it. I suppose so people can know where to go.

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So let's do another one. So I'm thinking if I

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can do what would be quite nice if I could

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just have a section and you can ask. So if

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I could put a contact form at the top. And

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I don't know if I'm able to edit the contact

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form layout. I suppose, Yeah, I could put something at

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the top, so you could just put your name in

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email address and your message. I don't know if it

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allow me to edit what's in the form. Doesn't seem to,

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does it seem to. That's just added another one. That's

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no point to that.

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So maybe I'll do that.

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I'll put that at the top of the page for

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the Jasonnuland dot Com website, and then you can just

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ask your question, you know, add a question that you

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want for Q and A Friday, and I will just

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write them down, keep a track of them and answer

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them as.

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I get them.

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Well, not I ever get them, but whatever I get

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before that Friday our answer, and then whatever I get

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the following week leading up by answer that as well.

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That makes sense, I think. So I need to put

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a header head in head in head in ask question.

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For Q and A Friday.

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This is real time, baby, I'm doing this in real time.

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But how do I'm not used.

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To doing it like this? How do I get it

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to be.

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I don't want largest. I think H two is fine.

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I don't need largest, but I do need it to

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be in the middle. How do I get it into

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the center? Styles typography, font font font font font font

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font there is in many choices book antiguy, Well that

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would be it. I don't know old text A line

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that's it, got it in the middle.

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So is that useful?

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Ask question for Q and a Friday for the next

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for yeah, I'll update that. So let's have a look

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how it looks on my website on the on the phone.

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Jess and new Land dot com Yeah, BlimE me ask

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question for ask questions for Q and a Friday? Should

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it be more than that? Should ask questions? Ask question

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for ask a question for the next Q and A Friday.

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What would be the best way to word it?

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I don't know? Uh to do? Do? Do?

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I'm going to ask Q and a chat GPT what's

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the best way to word a title? To inform asking

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for questions for the next Q and A Friday? And

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I can't do it myself. I just thought i'd be interested.

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To see what it comes up with.

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Got a question for Q and a Friday?

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See this is better.

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This is Ask me anything Q and a Friday submission

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or submit your question for Q and a Friday. I

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think they ask me anything. I quite like that, so

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what okay, let's get rid of that. Ask me anything

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Q and a Friday submission. Do you think that's okay?

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I think it's what you're doing. So just on.

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New Land ask me anything Q and a Friday submission.

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So from now on we'll just see, we'll see and

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see how it goes. So every time I do recording,

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I'll just say you can go to my website ask

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a question for Q and a Friday and just go

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to in fact, what I could do? Oh I could?

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I mean it's going to come on the first page.

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I don't need to have it as a as a

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separate link door. I really a separate page. I might do, though,

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but it's on the very first page. When you go

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to my web fite Jasonnewland dot com, is there, ask

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me anything Q and a Friday submission and you just

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put in your name, put in your email address. You

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can put any email address, doesn't matter. I'm not going

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to respond unless you want me to respond. And then

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there's just a question and just under your message.

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That's it.

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I could probably change it a little bit, getting make

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it a bit more flashy, but I think that's all right.

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That does the job, doesn't It don't need flashy, just

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need functional, I would argue, So let me know what

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you think about it. So the question really is.

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Thailand?

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So what I thought i'd just maybe talk about Thailand

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as I don't really have. I mean, you know, what

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did I do, where did I go? What did I

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So yeah, I'll just talk about my time in Thailand

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as I don't It's the only question I've got. So

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thank you Hillary and Yeah, that's what I do. I

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think the first time I really heard about Thailand, I

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mean I heard about it when I was a kid,

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to see it on TV, movies and stuff like that.

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I didn't realize the connection with Vietnam and all that stuff,

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didn't know the history of that. But I think it

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was more when I got into Buddhism and learned a

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bit more about Tibet and Japan, China, India, Burma, all

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the different places where Buddhism was and Thailand being a

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Buddhist country. I mean, how many Buddhist countries are there?

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Not many? Right, I need to spell countries correctly, Oh dear,

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I still have to look at the keyboard and the type.

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So there's twelve recognized Buddhist countries in the world where

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Buddhism plays a significant role in shaping the culture.

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So the top ten, really, why is it doing? Whoops?

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The page is gone? Why is the page gone?

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Right?

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The page is gone? Buddhist by country? Okay, here we go. So, wow,

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there's some countries where there's none recognized. Oh. I was

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going to say Afghanistan is thirty one million, four hundred

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and ten Buddhists, But now that's the population of the country,

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there's about ten thousand Buddhists.

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This is estimate.

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I didn't realize there'd be Anybody's in Afghanistan, Albania, Algeria,

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American Samoa, Andra, Angola about ten thousand, Argentina about ten thousand,

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No twenty thousand, Armenia ten thousand, Alulba ten thousand, Australia

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six hundred thousand.

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Well, no, Australia.

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Australia has got quite a link to Thailand. There's a

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link there. It's like, I don't know how to express it.

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There's a lot of Australian visitors to Thailand, and I

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think there's a lot of Thailand visitors to Australia. There's

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a all I think, a good positive connection. I might

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be wrong, but it seems like it's almost like a

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a family, like they're related in some way, a bit

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like maybe England and Ireland. There's always going to be

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that connection, regardless of the blamely some of the weird

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history that went on. There's I think the average person

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in England would think of Ireland as being what I do.

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Did I tell you I'm forty eight percent Irish? I

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would I'm going to you know I'm going to be

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saying that until I'm ninety.

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It would never get boring for me.

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So yeah, I think Australia's a six hundred thousand. I

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dodn't think it would be that many, so it's quite

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a high. It's two point still, namely two point seven percent.

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Austria twenty thousand, alger Baijan ten thousand. I might mispronounce

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some of these words names. Bahamas ten thousand, and Bahrain

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thirty thousand, Bangladesh a million, a million and one thousand,

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so that doesn't surprise me. But there is one hundred

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and forty eight million, six hundred and ninety thousand people there,

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so it's still zero point six percent. So it's still

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a very very tiny percentage. But when you consider that

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India is where Buddhism came from, and the history of

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Bangladesh and all the other parts of that area sort

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of you know, with the religions and stuff. So yeah,

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the Barbados ten thousand, Blaris ten thousand, Belgium thirty thousand Buddhists,

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so it's zero it's still zero point two percent.

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That's weird.

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I just they've got ten million people in Belgium thirty

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thousand is zero point two percent, is it thirty thousand,

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three hundred thousand, three million. Yeah, I suppose blindly, so

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it's a very small amount. Just it seems like quite

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a few people. So yeah, thirty thousand, believes ten thousand,

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ben In ten thousand, Bermuda ten thousand. Used to be more,

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but they just keep disappearing.

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Do do Do Do Do do do? Don't hear about

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the Muda Triangle anymore? Do?

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We used to be such a big thing. It's like

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the Yetty and the Lockmous Monster, and you know, there's

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TV shows and movies about it, and it's almost like

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no one cares anymore.

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I still care.

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Bhutan is one of the most famous Buddhist countries. Seventy

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four point seven percent of the country is Buddhist five

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hundred and forty thousand, so seven hundred and thirty thousand

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people live in Bhutan. Seventy four point seven percent is big.

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So I'd quite like to go there.

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I'm because for me, it's it might I know something that, oh,

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you're going to Thailand.

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It's just to.

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Have a party lifestyle and stuff. It wasn't that party life.

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I've never been a party lifestyle person in my life,

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even when I was young and fruity, I didn't never

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did never, just wasn't really a crowd person. The only

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place I ever felt comfortable in my life as an adult,

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like out like socially, I mean, would be the comedy

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club that used to frequent and I loved that place.

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It was the only place I really felt at home.

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So Bolivia ten thousand, zero point one percent, Botswana ten thousand,

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So I'm surprised that there's any just because some of

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the cultures ten ten thousand, two million people in Botswana.

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Brazil two hundred and fifty thousand. Again, I'm surprised at that.

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I didn't realize there'd be that many in Brazil. Brunei

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thirty thousand, eight point six percent. So that's interesting because

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Brunei is I think it's not known for being a

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Buddhist place, is it, But it's got one of our higher percentages.

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In the world.

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You've got Bulgaria ten thousand. I didn't think there'd be

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any Buddhists in Bulgaria, Burkina Faso ten thousand, because these

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are very Catholic or Christian countries. Bulgaria is pretty sure Cambodia.

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Wa Bam Van.

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Cambodia. There's fourteen million, one hundred and forty thousand people

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living in Cambodia. How many people do you think are

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Buddhists according to these statistics, thirteen million, six hundred and

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ninety thousand, ninety six point nine percent in Cambodia. Wow,

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Cameroon ten thousand, Canada, Canada two hundred and eighty thousand.

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So that's cool a very tiny amount percentage wise, because

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it's thirty four million in Canada.

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Chad.

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I've got no idea where that is, Sir ten thousand?

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Which is Chad? Is it near Brazil? Chile?

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Ten thousand? China? See this surprises me. I know, it

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doesn't really surprise me, but it kind of surprises me

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now considering just the way that China is portrayed in

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the West media that there's no freedom. Well, according to

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this is two hundred and forty four million, one hundred

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and thirty thousand Buddhists in China out of one point

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three out of one point three billion, so as eighteen

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point two percent. Again, one of the countries that one

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of the world's highest proportions of Buddhists. So I'd like

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to go to China.

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I'd like to go and.

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Visit the Buddhist temples and maybe even stay in one

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for a while. But I don't know what the rules

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are anymore. Just I really don't know regarding going to

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China and if we're allowed to go there, And I

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know there's Chinese people will listen to this recording, So hello,

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See there's people from Russia put it from China. There's

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people from all over the world, and some countries that

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block maybe the Western Internet, they just use VPNs and

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they get through that way. So it looks like I've

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got someone from maybe I don't know, trying to feel

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the country, Holland or.

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Brussels or Scotland.

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But actually they're listening from China because they've got a

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VPN and they just put more of a Western country

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down so they can listen. So Hello, Hello my Chinese friends,

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my Russian friends, my Egyptian friends, Costa Rican friends, my

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Cuban friends, Denmark friends. Believe I can't mind Bermuda friends,

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mind you. I used to have more more listeners from Bermuda,

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but for some reason they just keep vanishing. See I'm

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going to keep doing it. I can't help it. Sorry,

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I have no control. So China is definitely a place

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I'd like to go to visit because it's a because

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of the Buddhism, really Costa Rica, Croatia, ten thousand, Cyprus, Kuba.

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I'm thinking this is just out loud, which is where

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they're put in ten thousand, is they don't know, they're

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just guessing. France there's two hundred. I imagine they're guessing anyway.

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But France, you've got two hundred and eighty thousand, which

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is zero point five percent out sixty two million, seven

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hundred and ninety. So France has got less people than

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the UK, more than the United Kingdom. Germany eighty two

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eighty two million, three hundred thousand, so they've got more people,

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but they've got two hundred and ten thousand Buddhists. Ghana

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ten thousand, Greece, Guam, Guatemala, Guinea, Guyana, Haiti, Honduras, they've

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all got.

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That ten thousand.

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Hong Kong is got thirteen point two percent, which is

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nine hundred and thirty thousand.

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But that's in China, isn't it controversial? Sorry?

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Seven million, fifty and that's a separate place. But it's

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now part of China, isn't it Hong Kong? So it's

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nine hundred and thirty thousand. That's blimey, that's good amount.

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Hungary ten thousand, Iceland ten thousand, India nine million, two

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hundred and fifty thousand, which is where Buddhism originated from.

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Some people think it originated from China, but it was

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India originated from India one point two billion, so zero

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point eight percent still a small amount in India, I

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think used to be a Buddhist country and then changed.

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I think it's gone through different phrases over the years.

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Indonese year two million and two million and sixty two thousand,

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one hundred and fifty so that's BlimE There's two hundred

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and sixty six million people and a half million people

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living there, so Iran ten thousand, Iraq ten thousand. See

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I didn't that surprisingly, just because I thought I didn't

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think they'd be allowed. But then that's just the way

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that these countries are portrayed on the news. Maybe there

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is more freedom, more religious freedom than is you know,

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presented in the media. What else we got Italy one

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hundred and ten thousand out sixty million Jamaica ten thousand,

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Japan forty five million, eight hundred and twenty thousand, so

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out of one hundred and twenty six and a half million,

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So it's thirty six point two percent. So I knew

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Japan would be large.

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I was well, I thought it might be.

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Larger, but nope, it's still thirty six point two percent.

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Still one of the largest ones in the country in

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the world. Keeps saying country South Korea eleven million, our

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forty eight millions is twenty two point nine percent. South

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Korea Kuwait is eighty thousand our two point seven million,

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So that's that's interesting. Laos four point one million million

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our six point two million, so sixty six point one percent.

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And you've got other countries leven and Latvia, lesofa Liberia

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girl who came and you changed my world, Libya, Leitchenstein, Lithuania, Luxeenbourg,

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they'd like ten thousand a part of Libya's twenty thousand

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according to this, Macau or Mecca Macau ninety thousand, seventeen

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point three percent.

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That's quite high. BPP.

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Malaysia five million out of twenty eight point four million,

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so that's nineteen point eight percent. Mexico Mauritius, Martinic Mutinik, Malta, Mali,

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Maldives ten thousand. Blimey, I didn't realize there's so many countries,

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so I just skipped to the ones where there's actually

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a lot of people, because this is getting ridiculous, This

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is not this is taking forever forever.

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I tell you.

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Laos four million point one hundred Malaysia did I do that?

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Five million?

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So that's nineteen point eight percent, Mongolia one point five million,

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fifty five point one percent, Burma or Mayan mar thirty

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eight point four million, it's eighty nine point nine percent,

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Nepal eight two point four million, eight point two percent

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New Zealand fifty two thousand.

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And then you've.

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Got Netherlands forty thousand, Norway thirty thousand, so it's still

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a small proportion. Then you've got fifty thousand in Peru,

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still a small proportion of the people, sixty thousand in Portugal,

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one hundred and seventy thousand in Russia. Wow, okay, cool

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ninety thousand. I mean it's one hundred and forty two

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point nine million people in Russia according to this, so

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it's zero point one percent, So it's very small percentage

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ninety thousand in Saudi Arabia, Singapore one point seven million,

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so thirty three point nine percent. And then you've got

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Sri Lanka fourteen point four million, sixty nine point three percent,

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Taiwan four point nine million, it's twenty one point three percent,

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Thailand sixty four point four million, ninety three point two percent,

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and then you've got Vietnam fourteen point three million, sixteen

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point four percent. So really, if I go to the

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just to the percentages, just to the percentages. So Cambodia's

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top a ninety six point nine percent, thirteen point six million,

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but Thailand ninety three point two percent second, but it's

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got a lot more Buddhists, sixty four point four million.

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So that's why I went to Thailand. That's why I

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wanted to go there for quite.

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A few years.

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And there was a few things that appeal to me.

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Just seems like, what would it be like to be

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in a Buddhist environment unlike here where the Buddhists go

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to a center and it's not this is not a

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Buddhist country, and this is where I live, and it's

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kind of all kind of behind closed doors, kind of

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for the Buddhists. I mean, it's you're free to practice

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in this country whatever you want to do. But I

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think the general public probably don't ever hear about Buddhists.

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They don't make a fuss. I don't, you know, it's

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kind of quiet, quiet, i'd say. But in Thailand the thing,

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So I'll go through the thing. There's a thing in

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Thailand they've got. I saw this myself, and I've seen

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it on videos on YouTube.

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There is a.

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The monks. Because I visited the monastery.

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It's on this.

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Massive, massive, massive hill and the steps and it was

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hard walking up there. If I was going to do

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it again and have to be early morning or in

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the evening because it's way too hot, or have someone

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carry me. When I say someone, I mean putting someone

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dragged me. It'd have to be a horse or something.

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And the.

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Wow, China has got more Buddhists than anywhere. I just

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realized that, BlimE me, China's got the most Buddhists. China,

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it's just it's not the biggest percentage. That two hundred

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and forty four million Chinese Buddhists, and then Thailand's second

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at sixty four. So I realized I couldn't just go

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to China. There's visas and well it's visas for Thailand

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as well, but it's a lot easier what it was

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just to go to Thailand. And basically what happened is

480
00:38:55.559 --> 00:38:58.079
I wanted to go. I've not really talked about this,

481
00:38:58.159 --> 00:39:08.679
but I received a back payment which was owed to

482
00:39:08.760 --> 00:39:12.960
me from money that I should have been getting and

483
00:39:13.000 --> 00:39:19.000
I didn't going back for a few years, so they

484
00:39:19.039 --> 00:39:21.719
called me up and sent that to me.

485
00:39:23.639 --> 00:39:25.320
So what I did is.

486
00:39:25.760 --> 00:39:34.719
I at the time, paid off my debts, paid off bills,

487
00:39:34.880 --> 00:39:38.760
paid off phone contracts, paid off all the different things,

488
00:39:39.079 --> 00:39:41.360
got some new equipment for this place, you know, for

489
00:39:41.639 --> 00:39:48.400
the recording, and gave some of it away to friends.

490
00:39:49.519 --> 00:39:52.599
And then that's when I went over to a fort

491
00:39:52.639 --> 00:39:54.360
you go to Thailand.

492
00:39:55.400 --> 00:39:57.800
So I did got the.

493
00:39:59.800 --> 00:40:04.440
Did during there was still needed a COVID pass at

494
00:40:04.440 --> 00:40:08.480
that time, even though we was out out of it

495
00:40:08.800 --> 00:40:13.639
in Thailand. That was still all wearing masks and also

496
00:40:13.800 --> 00:40:17.960
in the airports and all that stuff, not in England

497
00:40:18.400 --> 00:40:22.519
but in Thailand and on the plane. If you can

498
00:40:22.559 --> 00:40:28.599
believe that I had to wear a mask for twelve hours,

499
00:40:30.480 --> 00:40:32.400
you know, when it came to eating because there was

500
00:40:32.440 --> 00:40:36.039
two meals during that time. I have never spent so

501
00:40:36.280 --> 00:40:42.239
long chewing on a little bit of food as I

502
00:40:42.280 --> 00:40:46.840
did that day. I must have spent about three hours

503
00:40:46.840 --> 00:40:49.800
eating my dinner because it was such a break to

504
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:54.760
not have that mask on, because it was very, very stifling,

505
00:40:55.920 --> 00:40:57.840
you know, I had to sort of be stuck with it.

506
00:40:59.440 --> 00:41:01.880
And they kick around telling people, put your mask on,

507
00:41:01.960 --> 00:41:07.880
put your mask on. I mean, it's nice that, you know,

508
00:41:08.239 --> 00:41:11.719
the good thing about that period is I wasn't I

509
00:41:11.760 --> 00:41:13.800
was being asked to put a mask on because everyone

510
00:41:13.800 --> 00:41:16.000
else had to not just to cover up my face

511
00:41:16.719 --> 00:41:21.000
for other people because they were complaining. So it's nice,

512
00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:22.239
you know, there's a reason for it.

513
00:41:24.199 --> 00:41:34.599
And so got there. What was weird is so I

514
00:41:35.000 --> 00:41:36.000
got my friend.

515
00:41:36.400 --> 00:41:40.719
To look after my flat. I wasn't gone for long anyway,

516
00:41:42.079 --> 00:41:44.920
a couple of weeks or whatever, but it just had

517
00:41:44.960 --> 00:41:55.079
to because I'd lost Andrea a few months earlier, and

518
00:41:55.159 --> 00:41:56.880
I was very aimless at that time.

519
00:41:56.920 --> 00:41:58.079
You know, I was living on my own, a game.

520
00:41:58.119 --> 00:41:59.920
I didn't have anyone with me, but I had onto

521
00:42:00.079 --> 00:42:02.039
with me for six years, five to six and a

522
00:42:02.039 --> 00:42:05.800
half years or whatever. Five and a half years. It's

523
00:42:05.840 --> 00:42:07.960
before I got Vinnie. I got Vin at the end

524
00:42:07.960 --> 00:42:14.679
of the year. At that year two thousand and twenty three.

525
00:42:14.840 --> 00:42:15.599
I think it was.

526
00:42:19.440 --> 00:42:23.320
So I just thought, or was it twenty two? I

527
00:42:23.519 --> 00:42:28.280
really lose track. I think it probably twenty two, wasn't

528
00:42:28.280 --> 00:42:30.320
it twenty twenty one?

529
00:42:30.360 --> 00:42:30.480
Two?

530
00:42:30.519 --> 00:42:37.719
Yeah, twenty twenty two, endo, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four,

531
00:42:37.800 --> 00:42:42.519
twenty yeah, yeah, twenty two. Yeah, So it's it was

532
00:42:42.760 --> 00:42:52.440
twenty twenty two, And so I go over I didn't.

533
00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:55.320
I booked a hotel, I booked.

534
00:42:55.400 --> 00:42:59.440
It's just, you know, just everything over there is fairly cheap,

535
00:43:00.119 --> 00:43:04.639
an expensive place to go. The airfares are now like

536
00:43:05.239 --> 00:43:08.039
they went up to about double three times the amount

537
00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:13.119
because just after that whole period the fuel went up.

538
00:43:14.159 --> 00:43:14.920
So I managed to.

539
00:43:14.880 --> 00:43:17.880
Go there before the air price the air flights went up.

540
00:43:19.679 --> 00:43:24.119
And I had a couple of things in mind what

541
00:43:24.159 --> 00:43:28.400
I wanted to do. I was open to the idea

542
00:43:28.440 --> 00:43:32.760
of meeting someone because I was led to believe it's

543
00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:37.239
a very friendly place and maybe I might meet a

544
00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:41.400
female and go on dates and who knows. I didn't know,

545
00:43:41.639 --> 00:43:44.719
but I was open to it. And that is the

546
00:43:44.800 --> 00:43:47.320
kind of place. It's very friendly. People are friendly there.

547
00:43:48.039 --> 00:43:53.320
There's no what I did find out is talking to

548
00:43:53.360 --> 00:43:58.599
some of the tie girls, the Thai ladies. To them,

549
00:43:58.880 --> 00:44:04.000
they're very very up front, very straight, don't mince their words.

550
00:44:05.760 --> 00:44:07.400
And one of them said to me, you know, you

551
00:44:07.440 --> 00:44:11.639
all look the same to us, So what do you mean,

552
00:44:11.719 --> 00:44:13.039
So do you just all are the same. You've all

553
00:44:13.079 --> 00:44:16.000
got big noses, because here I've got a big nose,

554
00:44:16.039 --> 00:44:21.599
but in Thailand pretty much all Westerners have got big

555
00:44:21.639 --> 00:44:25.679
noses because they've got little noses over there. So it's

556
00:44:25.920 --> 00:44:28.000
that in their mind, like you just got big nose.

557
00:44:28.599 --> 00:44:31.960
You're English or you're American or European. They know straight away,

558
00:44:32.800 --> 00:44:39.599
and they've got names they've got like Arab, English, American.

559
00:44:43.960 --> 00:44:48.880
I think Arab kind of covers anyone from like in

560
00:44:48.920 --> 00:44:51.679
their mind that anyone from like India, from.

561
00:44:51.960 --> 00:44:53.960
The the Arabian.

562
00:44:54.000 --> 00:44:56.719
You know, it's like they kind of class as an Arab,

563
00:44:58.000 --> 00:45:00.079
which is I was always fort you don't say the

564
00:45:00.119 --> 00:45:01.679
word Arab, but.

565
00:45:03.320 --> 00:45:03.800
They just do.

566
00:45:04.000 --> 00:45:07.679
And also when it comes because I think, you know,

567
00:45:08.599 --> 00:45:10.639
I tell you that it's the best place to go

568
00:45:10.840 --> 00:45:15.760
if for a trans person, because if you want to

569
00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:18.920
walk down the street test it out, if you want

570
00:45:18.920 --> 00:45:23.000
to test out dressing the way that you want to dress.

571
00:45:23.880 --> 00:45:28.000
You can do that in Thailand and no one cares.

572
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.920
I mean technically you can probably do in London as well,

573
00:45:31.760 --> 00:45:34.559
maybe some of the other cities. And I've seen people

574
00:45:34.599 --> 00:45:37.400
in London walk around dressing gowns in the middle of

575
00:45:37.480 --> 00:45:42.199
winter in snow, eating and ice cream, So you know,

576
00:45:42.239 --> 00:45:46.239
I've seen some of the weirdest things. Probably the weirdest

577
00:45:46.239 --> 00:45:50.599
thing I saw in Thailand was someone on a bicycle

578
00:45:53.079 --> 00:45:56.159
with a ladder, but it was like it wasn't a

579
00:45:56.199 --> 00:46:03.800
foldable ladder. It's a full ladder, probably six foot but

580
00:46:03.840 --> 00:46:06.000
instead of having it on the side, he had it

581
00:46:06.920 --> 00:46:10.559
on front of him, so it was like stretching out

582
00:46:10.760 --> 00:46:13.800
both sides of the road and he's riding along like that.

583
00:46:16.519 --> 00:46:21.880
I was like, what, how I was spending the microphone

584
00:46:21.880 --> 00:46:23.840
and how how?

585
00:46:24.440 --> 00:46:28.440
Why? So that that was one of the weirdest things

586
00:46:28.480 --> 00:46:28.800
I saw.

587
00:46:31.719 --> 00:46:35.199
But when I got to I had this idea what

588
00:46:35.239 --> 00:46:42.159
I wanted to do. I needed a break from because

589
00:46:42.199 --> 00:46:45.199
I was taking care of my friend and I that

590
00:46:45.320 --> 00:46:48.159
was just getting harder and harder. I needed a break

591
00:46:48.199 --> 00:46:56.360
from that. I gave him some money and I just

592
00:46:56.559 --> 00:47:00.039
needed because it was just getting too much for me

593
00:47:00.480 --> 00:47:02.599
and having lost Andre and I don't want to go

594
00:47:02.599 --> 00:47:06.199
A was serious, but yeah, I needed I started having

595
00:47:08.159 --> 00:47:10.679
I'd started having panic attacks again for the first time,

596
00:47:11.000 --> 00:47:16.159
I mean regularly for the first time in years, you know,

597
00:47:16.360 --> 00:47:17.880
like properly, full.

598
00:47:17.639 --> 00:47:20.199
On, constantly all the time.

599
00:47:20.280 --> 00:47:24.599
Kind of that moment, that situation, and it was like

600
00:47:24.639 --> 00:47:28.599
reverting back to two thousand and six, and I didn't

601
00:47:28.599 --> 00:47:32.360
think that would happen again. And I couldn't get a

602
00:47:32.360 --> 00:47:35.280
griff of them. I couldn't seem to sort out it.

603
00:47:35.280 --> 00:47:36.159
It couldn't.

604
00:47:36.199 --> 00:47:40.920
Sort of, it's almost like I could. I was struggling,

605
00:47:41.000 --> 00:47:49.000
really struggling, and I was also getting what's that thing

606
00:47:49.039 --> 00:47:52.239
where your ears go and your kind of dizzy and stuff?

607
00:47:52.360 --> 00:47:56.039
Was getting that as well, So it was all weird.

608
00:47:56.159 --> 00:47:59.079
I was going through some weird, weird things at that time.

609
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:05.559
And then I thought, you know, I'm just going to go.

610
00:48:06.599 --> 00:48:10.679
So I went out there on the plane, my ears popped,

611
00:48:12.119 --> 00:48:16.639
and that's the last time I had any ear problems,

612
00:48:17.440 --> 00:48:20.000
balance problems, whatever you call it. I forget them, forget

613
00:48:20.000 --> 00:48:22.280
the term. I know the term, but I forget what

614
00:48:22.280 --> 00:48:24.880
it is. But it's the last time that happened. Because

615
00:48:24.880 --> 00:48:30.519
both my ears popped on the plane. An expensive cure

616
00:48:30.760 --> 00:48:35.800
to be fair, but it cleared whatever was going on

617
00:48:35.840 --> 00:48:37.480
in my ears in vertigo.

618
00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:38.840
That's it. It cleared it.

619
00:48:39.159 --> 00:48:41.920
And I haven't had it since I used to have

620
00:48:42.000 --> 00:48:45.639
it a few years ago. But that was course through

621
00:48:46.480 --> 00:48:52.039
a burst ear drum. This seemed to be caused by

622
00:48:52.320 --> 00:48:55.039
stress or something. I don't know what it was, grief,

623
00:48:55.480 --> 00:48:57.159
it could be anything, all kinds of stuff.

624
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:01.760
So I need to get away. So I got away.

625
00:49:02.599 --> 00:49:06.599
I went there, stayed in this hotel. I think one

626
00:49:06.599 --> 00:49:08.480
of my happiest memories, and it's going to be weird

627
00:49:08.519 --> 00:49:11.079
to say this, but one of my happy, happiest times

628
00:49:11.519 --> 00:49:15.320
was sitting on the verandah. And this hotel was in

629
00:49:15.320 --> 00:49:18.239
a back alley, so it wasn't even like a near

630
00:49:18.239 --> 00:49:22.119
the sea or anything. I wasn't far from the sea,

631
00:49:22.400 --> 00:49:27.960
and I was sitting on the verandah taking in the smells.

632
00:49:28.159 --> 00:49:31.119
And that's the one thing about I'm not doing about

633
00:49:31.119 --> 00:49:33.320
the whole of Thailand, but anywhere I went it smelt

634
00:49:33.400 --> 00:49:38.440
nice because of the food. It's like just there's a

635
00:49:38.480 --> 00:49:41.599
lot of street food, and it just smelt nice. There

636
00:49:41.639 --> 00:49:48.239
was no horrible smells, and the Thai people probably amongst

637
00:49:48.239 --> 00:49:51.360
the cleanest people I've ever been around. They have multiple

638
00:49:51.400 --> 00:49:54.440
showers a day because of the heats it's so hot

639
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:58.440
and stuff. And it was like, wow, I have more

640
00:49:58.480 --> 00:50:00.000
showers in a day than I do any year.

641
00:50:00.079 --> 00:50:01.039
Yeah.

642
00:50:01.239 --> 00:50:03.320
I shouldn't say that out loud, should I? But yeah,

643
00:50:03.320 --> 00:50:07.960
it was very It was very clean, very clean place.

644
00:50:08.119 --> 00:50:11.639
From that perspective. From that perspective, what I did found

645
00:50:11.679 --> 00:50:15.239
weird though I did found I found. I find itd

646
00:50:15.280 --> 00:50:22.039
weird is there was hardly any hot water. It was

647
00:50:22.079 --> 00:50:27.119
just warm like here I used to and I don't.

648
00:50:27.559 --> 00:50:30.039
I don't scold my hands when I wash my hands,

649
00:50:30.039 --> 00:50:33.280
but I wash my hands quite regularly every time I

650
00:50:33.320 --> 00:50:36.480
go out because we share the banister and stuff, you know,

651
00:50:36.599 --> 00:50:40.639
outside in the hallway, and I always wash my hands

652
00:50:41.360 --> 00:50:43.599
when I get back, just so that, you know, got

653
00:50:43.719 --> 00:50:46.920
rid of any who knows what people have been.

654
00:50:48.960 --> 00:50:50.159
Doing with their hands. I don't know.

655
00:50:51.159 --> 00:50:55.599
I know what I've been doing with mine. So when

656
00:50:55.639 --> 00:50:58.679
I was out there, it just wasn't hot. The water

657
00:50:58.760 --> 00:51:00.519
wasn't hot to a level that I was used to,

658
00:51:03.000 --> 00:51:07.800
which is very strange. Maybe that's why they have so

659
00:51:07.920 --> 00:51:12.760
many showers, because it's like keeping a constant cleansing in

660
00:51:12.840 --> 00:51:22.199
a cleanly less miss ness ness thing cleanly mess. And

661
00:51:22.360 --> 00:51:24.960
I don't know if every single person has lots and

662
00:51:24.960 --> 00:51:30.920
lots of showers, but it's you know, the whole time

663
00:51:31.519 --> 00:51:37.320
I was out there, I didn't meet one bad smelling person.

664
00:51:38.920 --> 00:51:43.480
At all, A type person that smell weird, not weird.

665
00:51:43.519 --> 00:51:48.440
But when it's hot, there's a tendency. You know, just

666
00:51:48.559 --> 00:51:54.400
naturally you're gonna come across yourd with you'red wiffy person.

667
00:51:54.440 --> 00:51:55.360
It's just natural.

668
00:51:55.440 --> 00:51:58.639
Especially BlimE me on the tube, that's the person I

669
00:51:58.679 --> 00:52:00.880
was always stuck under their eyes put armpit and I

670
00:52:00.880 --> 00:52:01.599
couldn't get out.

671
00:52:02.360 --> 00:52:03.599
That was always.

672
00:52:03.800 --> 00:52:09.519
Yeah, I love the tube and I didn't, so.

673
00:52:13.079 --> 00:52:15.639
That was strange. I just I just not have any

674
00:52:15.639 --> 00:52:17.360
hot water. That threw me off a bit.

675
00:52:18.719 --> 00:52:21.519
But one of my happiest memories of being there was

676
00:52:21.599 --> 00:52:27.000
sitting on the verandah. The first few mornings.

677
00:52:28.119 --> 00:52:28.760
I had.

678
00:52:29.800 --> 00:52:32.519
There was no food in the restaurant because I had

679
00:52:32.599 --> 00:52:36.519
like a Thai restaurant part of the hotel. But because

680
00:52:36.559 --> 00:52:43.280
of that period, you know, two thousand and two twenty one,

681
00:52:43.679 --> 00:52:47.119
pretty much most of the tourism in Thailand, and I'd

682
00:52:47.159 --> 00:52:52.760
say probably the whole of the world pretty much closed down,

683
00:52:53.480 --> 00:52:56.599
So there was there wasn't a lot open. When I

684
00:52:56.639 --> 00:52:59.559
went there, a lot of restaurants were closed. A lot

685
00:52:59.599 --> 00:53:02.360
of bars were closed, not that I'm really a bar

686
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:05.960
person anyway, but there was a lot of things weren't open.

687
00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:13.679
They either hadn't they either they hadn't reopened them, or

688
00:53:13.719 --> 00:53:17.239
they were closed completely. There was parts of the area

689
00:53:17.280 --> 00:53:21.880
that were completely derelict that two years earlier had been

690
00:53:21.920 --> 00:53:27.599
really busy. So and the only real regular people they

691
00:53:27.599 --> 00:53:32.480
were getting was people that lived a bit closer. So

692
00:53:32.519 --> 00:53:36.679
they had people from India, they ape from Emirates, they

693
00:53:36.719 --> 00:53:40.559
appealed from Australia coming over, but they didn't weren't getting

694
00:53:40.599 --> 00:53:43.960
a lot of They're still getting like Americans and English,

695
00:53:44.000 --> 00:53:48.639
but because of the the restrictions, they weren't getting as

696
00:53:48.719 --> 00:53:49.840
many as they would normally get.

697
00:53:50.920 --> 00:53:52.239
This is what I was told.

698
00:53:53.480 --> 00:53:57.760
None of the hotels were full, so it was.

699
00:53:59.480 --> 00:54:03.559
Fairly check the rooms. I mean, I think if that

700
00:54:03.679 --> 00:54:04.079
was in this.

701
00:54:04.119 --> 00:54:08.800
Country, what the people what to cut the hotels in

702
00:54:08.840 --> 00:54:11.679
this country would do is put the prices up to

703
00:54:11.719 --> 00:54:14.800
try and get their money back. But they didn't do that.

704
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:18.199
They just treated people fairly because they were happy to

705
00:54:18.239 --> 00:54:21.760
have the customers. You know, the mentality in this country

706
00:54:21.880 --> 00:54:24.400
is well, if you've If you've got one hundred rooms

707
00:54:25.679 --> 00:54:28.000
and I can only fill fifty, then we'll try and

708
00:54:28.039 --> 00:54:30.800
charge them twice a price. We can get the money

709
00:54:30.840 --> 00:54:33.039
back for the other fifty rooms that we not fill in.

710
00:54:35.360 --> 00:54:37.760
But the way they see it over there more is well,

711
00:54:37.840 --> 00:54:42.800
actually we're grateful to have fifty rooms full, so we'll

712
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:46.880
let people have a cheaper have a cheaper time, you know,

713
00:54:47.000 --> 00:54:52.079
maybe stay for ten or twenty percent off the price

714
00:54:54.000 --> 00:54:56.559
because they've got such a choice of other hotels to

715
00:54:56.559 --> 00:54:56.960
stay in.

716
00:54:58.119 --> 00:55:04.480
So that's you know, that's I quite like that. But

717
00:55:04.559 --> 00:55:08.519
that was nice sitting on that veranda or that balcony.

718
00:55:08.599 --> 00:55:15.440
Rather, I bought some paper, some paper what are they

719
00:55:15.440 --> 00:55:21.480
called paper dishes, and some paper spoons or plastic spoons

720
00:55:22.159 --> 00:55:25.079
to eat, and I got some breakfast cereal, little boxes

721
00:55:25.119 --> 00:55:28.039
of breakfast cereal, and some milk put it in the fridge,

722
00:55:28.920 --> 00:55:31.920
and a cup of coffee, so I had coffee anyway there.

723
00:55:32.360 --> 00:55:35.239
So I had a cup of coffee and my corn

724
00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:40.760
flakes on the veranda the balcony. What's the difference to

725
00:55:40.840 --> 00:55:46.280
the veranda on the balcony. And I'm listening to my

726
00:55:46.719 --> 00:55:50.039
phone and I'm listening to LBC radio and it was

727
00:55:50.599 --> 00:55:54.360
Steve Allen who does his four o'clock what he used

728
00:55:54.400 --> 00:55:57.199
to do four till seven in the morning radio show,

729
00:55:57.400 --> 00:55:59.960
just a talk show where he just talked. He didn't

730
00:56:00.039 --> 00:56:04.000
and for phones, but he would read out, you know,

731
00:56:04.079 --> 00:56:05.800
text messages and stuff like that.

732
00:56:08.360 --> 00:56:08.960
And I just.

733
00:56:08.880 --> 00:56:11.199
Remember, I don't know what time of the day it was.

734
00:56:13.079 --> 00:56:13.360
For me.

735
00:56:14.199 --> 00:56:17.760
It was BlimE me.

736
00:56:18.679 --> 00:56:23.000
It's probably mourning for me, maybe ten o'clock in the

737
00:56:23.039 --> 00:56:24.039
morning or something.

738
00:56:25.199 --> 00:56:27.920
But it was just nice.

739
00:56:30.880 --> 00:56:36.880
It's very peaceful, and it wasn't busy. Really, It wasn't

740
00:56:36.960 --> 00:56:38.119
really busy.

741
00:56:37.880 --> 00:56:38.480
Where I was.

742
00:56:38.559 --> 00:56:41.920
It was quite quite kind of a little area. It wasn't

743
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:46.280
a lot going on. The tourism was probably i'd say

744
00:56:46.280 --> 00:56:50.639
probably ten percent what it would normally be, which is

745
00:56:50.639 --> 00:56:53.239
why it was only ten percent of the place is open, probably,

746
00:56:56.639 --> 00:56:59.960
And I just thought, oh, so I had at my dinner,

747
00:57:00.119 --> 00:57:02.880
how many precaste. But the very first night I got there,

748
00:57:04.719 --> 00:57:06.840
I went and there, looked around, I went for a walk,

749
00:57:07.800 --> 00:57:11.000
didn't know where I was going. But the good thing

750
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:14.400
about you know, if you go to a seaside resort

751
00:57:14.639 --> 00:57:18.920
in Thailand. Again, I don't know if all the places

752
00:57:18.960 --> 00:57:22.599
are same, but it's well lit. There's a lot of

753
00:57:22.639 --> 00:57:27.199
people around because it's a tourist destination. It's the safest

754
00:57:27.239 --> 00:57:30.079
I've ever felt walking around at two in the morning.

755
00:57:32.960 --> 00:57:36.800
I mean ever, never ever felt safe really, because the

756
00:57:36.840 --> 00:57:38.639
only time I'd walk around at two in the morning

757
00:57:38.719 --> 00:57:42.400
was when I was in London, and me in London

758
00:57:42.880 --> 00:57:46.480
two in the morning is not. Yeah, it's never. Even

759
00:57:46.480 --> 00:57:49.039
as a young person, it wasn't. I was worried, but

760
00:57:49.079 --> 00:57:51.960
I never really felt kind of, I felt on guard.

761
00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:56.880
But here I didn't feel on guard at all. It

762
00:57:56.960 --> 00:58:01.159
seemed like the sort of place where, yeah, if you

763
00:58:01.199 --> 00:58:04.360
want trouble, you can have it. It's like, if you

764
00:58:04.400 --> 00:58:06.719
want trouble, they give it to you, but if you don't,

765
00:58:06.800 --> 00:58:11.440
they're fine. You know, it's not anywhere if you want

766
00:58:11.480 --> 00:58:13.559
to be a trouble maker. It's very easy to get

767
00:58:13.599 --> 00:58:20.000
into trouble anywhere you go, but there it's you won't.

768
00:58:21.079 --> 00:58:24.400
My experiences, I felt safe. That's pretty much what I'm saying.

769
00:58:26.280 --> 00:58:27.760
And I got to know a few of the people

770
00:58:28.440 --> 00:58:34.159
and some of the some of the Buddhist parts of

771
00:58:34.199 --> 00:58:37.079
their life, so it's basically they're indoctrinated into it. They're

772
00:58:37.079 --> 00:58:44.480
born into Buddhism. Now they have Buddhist holidays. They also

773
00:58:44.840 --> 00:58:50.679
absolutely love their royal family out there. I mean like

774
00:58:51.880 --> 00:58:55.199
in a way that maybe we used to in this country.

775
00:58:57.199 --> 00:59:03.519
They're really important to them. I mean, I know there

776
00:59:03.559 --> 00:59:05.440
are people out there in this country that love the

777
00:59:05.519 --> 00:59:07.559
royal family, but I'm talking.

778
00:59:07.280 --> 00:59:07.880
As a nation.

779
00:59:08.719 --> 00:59:11.719
There's a real loyalty to the royal family in Thailand.

780
00:59:12.880 --> 00:59:18.159
It's they're almost like say royalty, I suppose, but they're

781
00:59:18.280 --> 00:59:24.440
very Yeah, it's hard to explain what I mean, but

782
00:59:24.519 --> 00:59:29.360
it's huge. And when there's a birthday, there's no alcohol

783
00:59:29.400 --> 00:59:34.559
sold when there's a public a royal day. So if

784
00:59:34.599 --> 00:59:38.039
it's the King's birthday or whatever something like that, no

785
00:59:38.159 --> 00:59:39.199
alcohol during that day.

786
00:59:40.679 --> 00:59:41.480
They're still open.

787
00:59:42.039 --> 00:59:44.280
Bars will still open, but it will be soft drinks only,

788
00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:47.880
and they'll actually tell people because I went in on

789
00:59:47.960 --> 00:59:51.159
the day I went The day after I went there,

790
00:59:52.199 --> 00:59:57.079
it was a bank holiday due to a remember the

791
00:59:57.119 --> 01:00:01.039
royal family. I think it was a king's birthday. And

792
01:00:01.119 --> 01:00:05.920
I went in and there was this bar and I

793
01:00:06.880 --> 01:00:08.760
wasn't bold about drinking alcohol anywhere.

794
01:00:08.760 --> 01:00:11.039
I was still a bit jet lagged.

795
01:00:11.599 --> 01:00:17.519
I needed something to eat, and so I sat down

796
01:00:17.559 --> 01:00:20.719
and the first thing I was told is you can't

797
01:00:21.079 --> 01:00:26.880
serve your alcohol. I said, that's all right, and she

798
01:00:27.000 --> 01:00:31.719
said what I said, that's okay. I'm not bothered. I

799
01:00:31.760 --> 01:00:36.280
don't care if I drinking alcohol and actually couldn't speak English.

800
01:00:37.360 --> 01:00:37.880
She said, what.

801
01:00:39.760 --> 01:00:44.119
Too, surprised because I think most people that go there

802
01:00:44.880 --> 01:00:47.639
are going to drink. And I wasn't really that bothered.

803
01:00:48.679 --> 01:00:51.199
So I had something to eat. I can't remember what

804
01:00:51.239 --> 01:00:54.599
I had. I have to I found a burger and

805
01:00:54.719 --> 01:00:59.880
chips and the coke. That's back in the days when

806
01:00:59.880 --> 01:01:03.039
I drinking Coca cola. I'm like now when I just

807
01:01:03.119 --> 01:01:07.119
drink water, don't even drink alcohol anymore.

808
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:16.960
BlimE me and I think the.

809
01:01:21.199 --> 01:01:24.159
So there was a lady called Ella there. I really

810
01:01:25.360 --> 01:01:28.119
I don't know. I just like really liked her because

811
01:01:28.119 --> 01:01:29.800
we were talking and she had the same kind of

812
01:01:29.880 --> 01:01:30.519
energy as me.

813
01:01:30.880 --> 01:01:31.679
Quite low key.

814
01:01:32.960 --> 01:01:36.079
I'm quite low energy, really and in my moments, I

815
01:01:36.159 --> 01:01:39.599
do have my moments, but it doesn't everyone, but I'm.

816
01:01:39.519 --> 01:01:48.639
Quite low in she're quite quiet. I don't get I'm

817
01:01:48.679 --> 01:01:50.519
not the most excitable person.

818
01:01:50.840 --> 01:01:56.199
Really, you know, I'm not particularly loud, and we seem

819
01:01:56.239 --> 01:02:03.920
to get one quite well. Now you're gonna just probably

820
01:02:04.559 --> 01:02:07.920
I don't know I'm telling you this, but anyway, she.

821
01:02:09.679 --> 01:02:12.000
Was it Ella or is it Bella? Or was it Stella?

822
01:02:12.840 --> 01:02:15.199
Or was it Gee or is it nom? I don't know.

823
01:02:15.800 --> 01:02:19.199
I forget what her name was, but she invited me.

824
01:02:20.840 --> 01:02:23.119
I think of Ella because it's someone a big brother Cordella.

825
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:27.000
That's what I'm thinking of, that word, that name, she said.

826
01:02:27.840 --> 01:02:29.199
So I went in there a couple of days in

827
01:02:29.239 --> 01:02:38.599
a row. I think the first night she I'm always

828
01:02:38.599 --> 01:02:40.480
at the second night because I went in there because

829
01:02:40.480 --> 01:02:43.920
I quite liked the vibe in there. And she said,

830
01:02:45.760 --> 01:02:48.519
I was got talking to another bloke. It was from Ireland,

831
01:02:49.480 --> 01:02:52.239
and he just, you know, he was just chatting and stuff,

832
01:02:52.280 --> 01:02:56.639
and they were closing up and we're going out, and

833
01:02:56.800 --> 01:03:01.760
the he was going back with the other waitress or

834
01:03:01.760 --> 01:03:04.280
the other there was like two managers. He was I

835
01:03:04.320 --> 01:03:07.280
don't know if that was his girlfriend or what. And

836
01:03:07.320 --> 01:03:11.440
she said, I'll bring bring Jason back and the other

837
01:03:11.480 --> 01:03:18.079
one said, no, don't know, and I thought, I don't care,

838
01:03:18.440 --> 01:03:22.480
it's fine, I don't know. I didn't ask to go

839
01:03:22.480 --> 01:03:27.039
anywhere anyway. Well, a couple of nights later I went

840
01:03:27.119 --> 01:03:30.000
back and she's just there on her own, and at

841
01:03:30.039 --> 01:03:33.519
the end of the night she offered to take me home.

842
01:03:35.800 --> 01:03:41.440
And this is a bit where I should be saying, well,

843
01:03:41.480 --> 01:03:44.039
I'd like to be saying I went home. It was

844
01:03:44.079 --> 01:03:47.760
the best night of my life. We fell in love,

845
01:03:48.760 --> 01:03:54.000
and you know, we got married and we're going to

846
01:03:54.079 --> 01:03:57.000
spend the rest of my life with our I say,

847
01:03:57.159 --> 01:03:59.599
I bet the rest of our lives together. But she's

848
01:04:00.239 --> 01:04:05.639
but younger than me. I don't know how much I

849
01:04:05.679 --> 01:04:09.920
would say. It's hard to guess. Under thirty. I would say,

850
01:04:10.320 --> 01:04:14.559
maybe maybe older, but it's hard. You know, I met

851
01:04:14.679 --> 01:04:18.079
someone else that I got on with she was thirty

852
01:04:18.079 --> 01:04:22.559
eight and didn't look I couldn't. I would never have

853
01:04:22.599 --> 01:04:25.920
guessed her age. I'm no good at guessing ages anymore.

854
01:04:28.760 --> 01:04:31.000
Not that ever was so if I ever was that good.

855
01:04:31.039 --> 01:04:33.440
But I think there was a period when I was

856
01:04:33.480 --> 01:04:36.519
in my twenties and I could kind of gauge in age,

857
01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:41.159
gauge and age, you know, if someone was nineteen or

858
01:04:41.199 --> 01:04:47.519
someone was like late twenties, maybe early thirties. But as

859
01:04:47.519 --> 01:04:52.880
I got older, people in the early twenties look just

860
01:04:53.280 --> 01:04:58.480
some of them are really really young. And then some

861
01:04:58.519 --> 01:05:04.280
people in their sixties, yes, look really really young, Like

862
01:05:04.760 --> 01:05:06.880
how can you can't be? I know a couple of

863
01:05:06.920 --> 01:05:08.000
people and they're both.

864
01:05:09.719 --> 01:05:10.159
BlimE me.

865
01:05:10.280 --> 01:05:14.440
I think they're both like nearly eighty, and neither of

866
01:05:14.480 --> 01:05:20.719
them look it. It's like, how can you be nearly eighty?

867
01:05:20.960 --> 01:05:21.960
So it's uh.

868
01:05:26.039 --> 01:05:28.320
Someone did say to me and said, you said, well,

869
01:05:28.679 --> 01:05:30.920
you look younger than you are. But it probably wouldn't

870
01:05:30.920 --> 01:05:33.039
do if you took your glasses off and we could

871
01:05:33.079 --> 01:05:36.079
see your eyes, because I've got like shades some of

872
01:05:36.079 --> 01:05:37.440
my glasses.

873
01:05:37.320 --> 01:05:38.199
Actor like or whatever.

874
01:05:39.159 --> 01:05:42.559
I thought's a bit rude. If anything, I'll probably a

875
01:05:42.559 --> 01:05:43.880
look younger about the glasses.

876
01:05:45.079 --> 01:05:45.559
Probably not.

877
01:05:47.239 --> 01:05:53.320
So in those situations, all you can do you can argue,

878
01:05:53.440 --> 01:05:58.039
or you can just silently fart and walk away. So

879
01:05:58.159 --> 01:05:59.199
I chose to do that.

880
01:06:01.920 --> 01:06:02.639
So I.

881
01:06:05.000 --> 01:06:07.400
Yeah, So we didn't have a romance, and I didn't.

882
01:06:08.159 --> 01:06:13.239
What I did is first of all. I thought, yeah, But.

883
01:06:13.239 --> 01:06:14.920
It wasn't do you want to come back to mine?

884
01:06:15.119 --> 01:06:23.280
It was let's go then, And she called two mopeds,

885
01:06:23.760 --> 01:06:26.039
two moped taxis.

886
01:06:26.519 --> 01:06:28.000
She had her own moped.

887
01:06:27.639 --> 01:06:29.440
But she left it there because she had a couple

888
01:06:29.480 --> 01:06:33.000
of drinks. So she got a moped taxi for herself

889
01:06:33.079 --> 01:06:38.000
and one for me. And I said no, I said,

890
01:06:38.199 --> 01:06:39.840
no way in the world am I getting on the

891
01:06:39.880 --> 01:06:49.199
back of that and I'm not sure days gone past

892
01:06:49.280 --> 01:06:52.079
when I wish that I'd just got on the back

893
01:06:52.119 --> 01:07:01.519
of the moped because I put fear ahead of pleasure,

894
01:07:01.679 --> 01:07:05.440
maybe fear ahead of I wasn't scared of her. I

895
01:07:05.480 --> 01:07:08.400
was just scared of the motor journey to being on

896
01:07:09.559 --> 01:07:15.239
a moped, just just having seen the way they ride

897
01:07:15.239 --> 01:07:18.599
those mopeds in and out of traffic, like seeing that

898
01:07:18.880 --> 01:07:21.800
and then thinking this is going to happen at eleven

899
01:07:21.840 --> 01:07:24.559
o'clock at night or half eleven at night.

900
01:07:25.559 --> 01:07:30.800
And it was dark at that point, and I didn't

901
01:07:30.800 --> 01:07:31.679
know where we were going.

902
01:07:32.960 --> 01:07:34.639
You know, It's like a part of me thinking and

903
01:07:34.679 --> 01:07:37.400
that this is my friend's He put this image in

904
01:07:37.440 --> 01:07:40.159
my head. He kept saying, well, be careful. You don't

905
01:07:40.199 --> 01:07:42.000
go home with someone and wake up in a bar

906
01:07:42.079 --> 01:07:43.719
full of ice or.

907
01:07:43.719 --> 01:07:47.800
One of your organs missing. It's like brilliant, like thanks

908
01:07:47.800 --> 01:07:48.800
for that. I really wanted that.

909
01:07:48.760 --> 01:07:54.320
In my head, and I kept I was thinking this,

910
01:07:54.320 --> 01:08:00.480
this lady's seriously, we're gonna say up my street. You know,

911
01:08:00.519 --> 01:08:03.519
as far as she just really lovely, I liked her

912
01:08:03.559 --> 01:08:12.159
a lot, but I did think, well, maybe I don't know,

913
01:08:12.199 --> 01:08:15.519
I might just is she gonna sort of try and

914
01:08:15.559 --> 01:08:18.920
make some money from me by I'm going to wake

915
01:08:19.000 --> 01:08:25.159
up with only one liver, you know, So I thought maybe,

916
01:08:26.439 --> 01:08:28.359
But there was that was it was more than moped

917
01:08:28.479 --> 01:08:34.039
to be fair. And then there was also I'm thinking,

918
01:08:34.079 --> 01:08:36.600
maybe she's just being friendly, and she takes me back

919
01:08:36.640 --> 01:08:38.279
to her place and introduces.

920
01:08:37.800 --> 01:08:39.279
Me to a boyfriend.

921
01:08:40.680 --> 01:08:44.760
Or a husband, and she's just being friendly, just a

922
01:08:44.800 --> 01:08:49.800
friendly person. Because that happened in Bulgaria. I was I

923
01:08:49.840 --> 01:08:52.680
spent all day talking to a wait to she was

924
01:08:54.720 --> 01:08:56.359
work behind the bar, so I think she's like a

925
01:08:56.399 --> 01:09:01.399
bar manager all day in the hotel. This is when

926
01:09:01.399 --> 01:09:06.479
I went snowboarding, but I'd spent the day before traveling

927
01:09:06.479 --> 01:09:09.319
down a mountain on my face, so I took a

928
01:09:09.399 --> 01:09:13.800
day off. I was teaching her English, she was teaching

929
01:09:13.800 --> 01:09:16.920
me Bulgarian. It's just me and her pretty much for

930
01:09:17.079 --> 01:09:22.279
hours and hours. And then in the evening, when my

931
01:09:22.640 --> 01:09:26.479
fellow travelers that I traveled there with got back from

932
01:09:26.560 --> 01:09:33.079
the mountain slopes, you know, we were another dinner, trying

933
01:09:33.119 --> 01:09:36.720
not to laugh at the.

934
01:09:35.359 --> 01:09:36.840
The music act.

935
01:09:36.920 --> 01:09:40.920
And then it's just I don't know, I'm not used

936
01:09:40.920 --> 01:09:43.760
to having music being played on meeting. You know, when

937
01:09:43.760 --> 01:09:47.199
summer starts playing a harp to chord and it's like

938
01:09:47.479 --> 01:09:51.279
what starts dancing. It's like, I'm this is this is

939
01:09:51.319 --> 01:09:59.960
confusing my senses. And we're in this bar, which is

940
01:10:00.159 --> 01:10:02.560
part of our hotel. Where I went to was part

941
01:10:02.600 --> 01:10:05.520
of another kind of hotel part because all part of

942
01:10:05.520 --> 01:10:08.520
this big old complex and there's this like underground trapped

943
01:10:08.720 --> 01:10:11.520
tunnels and stuff. And I just followed them until I

944
01:10:11.600 --> 01:10:16.840
found new other places to go to what didn't seem

945
01:10:16.880 --> 01:10:18.680
to even be part of the hotel. It was like

946
01:10:18.800 --> 01:10:23.359
part of something else. Anyway, I'm in the in the bar,

947
01:10:24.439 --> 01:10:28.319
another bar with my my friends that have.

948
01:10:28.359 --> 01:10:30.319
Traveled to Bulgaria with.

949
01:10:31.680 --> 01:10:40.479
And this this bloke came up to me, tapped me

950
01:10:40.520 --> 01:10:45.760
on the shoulder and he looked exactly how he was.

951
01:10:46.640 --> 01:10:55.600
He was a gangster, like proper gangster. It's like it's

952
01:10:55.640 --> 01:10:59.800
it's hard to explain, but I would bet any money

953
01:10:59.840 --> 01:11:00.760
I had that he had a.

954
01:11:00.680 --> 01:11:02.000
Gun on him.

955
01:11:03.439 --> 01:11:09.119
And he said he pointed, he put pointed, and he's like,

956
01:11:09.399 --> 01:11:11.520
he's the lady that I've been talking to all day.

957
01:11:11.960 --> 01:11:13.439
He says, that's my fiance.

958
01:11:16.479 --> 01:11:17.560
M m m m mmm.

959
01:11:19.359 --> 01:11:21.319
I mean that's when I thought I'm really am gonna

960
01:11:21.399 --> 01:11:27.960
wake up in nice on a mountain, a mountain, and

961
01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:33.960
she comes over and he says, and I thought, oh god,

962
01:11:33.960 --> 01:11:36.520
I don't know what to say here, because I really

963
01:11:36.600 --> 01:11:40.880
liked her, and I didn't realize she was I didn't

964
01:11:40.880 --> 01:11:43.960
ask if she had a boyfriend or anything, because I

965
01:11:44.000 --> 01:11:44.680
was just chatting to her.

966
01:11:44.720 --> 01:11:45.279
It was nothing.

967
01:11:46.079 --> 01:11:51.000
I wasn't flirting, really, just having a nice conversation during

968
01:11:51.000 --> 01:11:56.800
that whole day. And she said, and she came over smiling,

969
01:11:57.680 --> 01:12:01.399
and I thought, I wonder if he's smiling. I didn't look,

970
01:12:03.079 --> 01:12:05.479
and I think might still have his hand on my shoulder,

971
01:12:06.720 --> 01:12:12.479
and my knees were shaking. My knees were shaken. That

972
01:12:12.560 --> 01:12:15.119
sounds like a song, isn't it. And the hips were weak.

973
01:12:17.159 --> 01:12:21.079
And he said, I understand in it an accent. You've

974
01:12:21.119 --> 01:12:24.560
been teaching. You've been teaching whatever her name was, to

975
01:12:24.880 --> 01:12:27.319
some English words, and she's been I said, she's been

976
01:12:27.359 --> 01:12:28.880
teaching you some Bulgaria and I.

977
01:12:28.800 --> 01:12:33.840
Said, yeah. He said, oh, very good, very good. I'm

978
01:12:33.840 --> 01:12:34.560
not blame me.

979
01:12:36.520 --> 01:12:43.479
He it's so cool because he I think it's probably

980
01:12:43.520 --> 01:12:46.600
the only time ever that I've been thankful that I

981
01:12:46.640 --> 01:12:52.439
wasn't good looking, because I clearly was not a threat.

982
01:12:52.239 --> 01:12:54.079
To him in any way.

983
01:12:54.760 --> 01:12:56.800
And I don't mean this physically, but I wasn't like

984
01:12:56.840 --> 01:13:01.840
a threat to his relationship. I was some handsome, strapping,

985
01:13:03.800 --> 01:13:06.720
you know, handsome guy that's gonna try and steal his

986
01:13:06.800 --> 01:13:11.399
fiance away. He didn't see any any threaten or at all,

987
01:13:12.439 --> 01:13:14.439
which was good for me.

988
01:13:14.600 --> 01:13:17.600
Really. It's the only time I've.

989
01:13:17.479 --> 01:13:19.439
Ever been grateful that I would look like I do

990
01:13:23.000 --> 01:13:26.880
and he liked me, brought me a drink and he

991
01:13:26.960 --> 01:13:31.479
was chatting to me, and they were chatting, and she

992
01:13:31.760 --> 01:13:35.560
was like, you know, talking to me, and it's like

993
01:13:36.159 --> 01:13:43.920
really nice. I didn't know what to do next. I

994
01:13:43.960 --> 01:13:48.000
still wasn't sure because I'd seen the Sopranos. I mean,

995
01:13:48.000 --> 01:13:51.600
the Sopranos hadn't finished. The Sopranos were still going strong

996
01:13:51.640 --> 01:13:55.479
in those days, because this was two thousand and two,

997
01:13:55.680 --> 01:14:01.199
probably about March time, so the Sopranos are still you know, no,

998
01:14:01.279 --> 01:14:04.079
it's infancy because it went on to about twenty ten,

999
01:14:04.079 --> 01:14:08.880
didn't it. Well I suppose infancy, yeah, I guess, but

1000
01:14:08.920 --> 01:14:10.840
I wasn't sure how this was going to play out.

1001
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:15.359
But it went Okay, I'm here, so it's fine.

1002
01:14:17.199 --> 01:14:17.760
And then.

1003
01:14:19.640 --> 01:14:28.680
I yeah, that was just strange, very strange.

1004
01:14:30.319 --> 01:14:32.680
Yeah, she was it was I didn't.

1005
01:14:32.840 --> 01:14:36.520
Yeah, I mean it's not Thailand.

1006
01:14:36.600 --> 01:14:38.520
It's a different story. It's just.

1007
01:14:41.720 --> 01:14:44.560
When I go abroad, or in the past, when I've

1008
01:14:44.560 --> 01:14:50.680
gone abroad, I seemed to be different, maybe a bit

1009
01:14:50.720 --> 01:14:57.359
more confident, maybe maybe a bit more relaxed, maybe a

1010
01:14:57.439 --> 01:15:04.039
bit freer. I don't put any effort in. Yeah, I'm

1011
01:15:04.520 --> 01:15:09.079
not kind of like trying to get.

1012
01:15:08.920 --> 01:15:09.560
To know anyone.

1013
01:15:09.760 --> 01:15:17.600
Just see what happens. Let it happen naturally. But on

1014
01:15:17.600 --> 01:15:23.520
that occasion I got to know three four women, five

1015
01:15:23.640 --> 01:15:28.079
actually five, So there was the first waitress was the

1016
01:15:28.439 --> 01:15:30.520
I say, when I get to know, I didn't do

1017
01:15:30.640 --> 01:15:33.760
anything with anyone, but we've got to know them. The

1018
01:15:33.840 --> 01:15:36.840
first one was the very first waitress that served us

1019
01:15:37.279 --> 01:15:40.319
and I had a cheese toasty sandwich, and it was

1020
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:44.439
the very first day we got there to the hotel,

1021
01:15:45.920 --> 01:15:54.000
and she smiled at me. I mean some would view

1022
01:15:54.039 --> 01:15:56.000
it and say she caught me looking down a top,

1023
01:15:56.399 --> 01:15:59.000
but I'm just going to stick to she smiled at me,

1024
01:16:00.079 --> 01:16:03.600
and she did smile at me when she caught me.

1025
01:16:03.680 --> 01:16:05.880
She smiled and we had a bit of a connection.

1026
01:16:06.039 --> 01:16:09.680
That chatted to me and the next hour was in

1027
01:16:09.720 --> 01:16:21.680
there and we we decided to go out on a date. Yeah,

1028
01:16:21.720 --> 01:16:24.680
I think like the next night, the next evening when

1029
01:16:24.680 --> 01:16:27.520
she finished work and go.

1030
01:16:27.520 --> 01:16:28.680
To a restaurant or something.

1031
01:16:29.399 --> 01:16:31.439
So I went into the bar to see her, and

1032
01:16:31.479 --> 01:16:34.000
there was this other bar the other side of the place,

1033
01:16:34.800 --> 01:16:37.680
in the middle of nowhere. Again, I kind of found

1034
01:16:37.680 --> 01:16:40.159
my way around these places because I spent a lot

1035
01:16:40.199 --> 01:16:45.640
of time on my own, just wandering around. And the

1036
01:16:46.960 --> 01:16:50.319
I got in there and she was just basically talking

1037
01:16:50.359 --> 01:16:54.880
to another bloke and she waved to me, but then

1038
01:16:54.880 --> 01:16:56.319
she carried on talking to this bloke.

1039
01:16:56.880 --> 01:17:00.439
So I left the day.

1040
01:17:02.840 --> 01:17:05.159
I went to a pizza place that was there that

1041
01:17:05.199 --> 01:17:11.159
I found, and I got really well with the lady

1042
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:16.479
in the pizza place, and we were like talking and

1043
01:17:16.520 --> 01:17:24.720
maybe talking about maybe doing something. And then I got

1044
01:17:24.800 --> 01:17:26.560
to know the other one in the other bar, the

1045
01:17:26.560 --> 01:17:30.279
one that I told you about the beginning. So what

1046
01:17:30.439 --> 01:17:35.159
happened is it's very strange. The one that I was

1047
01:17:35.159 --> 01:17:39.640
supposed to go on a date with and she was

1048
01:17:39.640 --> 01:17:45.000
talking to another bloke. I saw her two days later.

1049
01:17:45.039 --> 01:17:46.800
I think she might have had the day off. Saw

1050
01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:51.680
her two days later and the first thing she said

1051
01:17:51.720 --> 01:17:52.399
is where were you?

1052
01:17:53.079 --> 01:17:54.840
I said, I was there. I'm not you know, you

1053
01:17:54.840 --> 01:17:56.720
saw me in a wave to you? So where did

1054
01:17:56.720 --> 01:18:00.359
you go? I said, we was talking to some bloke okay,

1055
01:18:01.039 --> 01:18:03.000
and she had she had the help with me, Like,

1056
01:18:03.159 --> 01:18:03.880
I said, what's wrong?

1057
01:18:04.800 --> 01:18:08.239
She said, I got talking to a friend of mine.

1058
01:18:09.920 --> 01:18:13.680
I said, okay, she said yeah, I told her. She

1059
01:18:13.760 --> 01:18:17.359
said to me, I just met just met this this

1060
01:18:17.560 --> 01:18:19.680
english man is really lovely and I've got on really

1061
01:18:19.680 --> 01:18:23.479
well with him. And I said, yeah, same here and

1062
01:18:23.520 --> 01:18:26.720
we both said, what's his name is, Jason? It's you.

1063
01:18:26.960 --> 01:18:30.920
We both we both met you, And like I was

1064
01:18:30.960 --> 01:18:33.079
playing them against each other, which I wasn't. I just

1065
01:18:33.479 --> 01:18:36.960
only met them. I had gone out with either of

1066
01:18:37.000 --> 01:18:41.840
them really some kind of playboy. But it wasn't like

1067
01:18:41.880 --> 01:18:45.880
that at all. But she wasn't happy.

1068
01:18:47.439 --> 01:18:49.640
And she yeah.

1069
01:18:49.800 --> 01:18:52.920
Ironically, the very very first night when I got there,

1070
01:18:53.760 --> 01:18:57.399
the receptionist, I really liked the receptionist. I feel I

1071
01:18:57.479 --> 01:19:01.840
was going through little phase of liking people. I really

1072
01:19:01.880 --> 01:19:04.920
liked the receptionist who you know, we spoke to ready

1073
01:19:04.920 --> 01:19:06.760
for it first of all, and.

1074
01:19:06.720 --> 01:19:07.560
Then she disappeared.

1075
01:19:07.560 --> 01:19:14.000
Didn't see her till the very last night, and she

1076
01:19:14.119 --> 01:19:17.239
came up to me the very last night and were

1077
01:19:17.279 --> 01:19:19.600
sort of talking to me, and I was like, okay, yeah,

1078
01:19:20.119 --> 01:19:23.000
I just I don't know. I couldn't be bothered to

1079
01:19:23.000 --> 01:19:25.960
talk to anyone. I thought I'd had enough of people

1080
01:19:26.159 --> 01:19:29.680
by then, but I'd maybe had enough to drink and stuff.

1081
01:19:30.600 --> 01:19:32.039
But the next day, because I didn't know, I didn't

1082
01:19:32.079 --> 01:19:34.239
recognize her, because she hadn't been there the whole week

1083
01:19:34.680 --> 01:19:38.119
other than that one time when we first got there.

1084
01:19:39.560 --> 01:19:41.920
So we go to logout, you know, to I think

1085
01:19:41.920 --> 01:19:45.880
we had to collect that passports and whatever to leave,

1086
01:19:46.560 --> 01:19:47.640
and she's on a reception.

1087
01:19:47.760 --> 01:19:51.199
I was like, oh my god, it's you. She said, yeah.

1088
01:19:53.680 --> 01:19:54.800
I didn't realize that her.

1089
01:19:54.840 --> 01:19:56.560
She was trying to talk to me the night before,

1090
01:19:57.000 --> 01:20:00.000
and I just couldn't be bothered, not in a rude

1091
01:20:00.159 --> 01:20:03.239
I just I think I just had enough. I wanted

1092
01:20:03.239 --> 01:20:09.680
to go home, really, And she came out and followed

1093
01:20:09.720 --> 01:20:11.560
me to the coach and saw me off on the

1094
01:20:11.600 --> 01:20:14.880
coach and gave me a big hug, and I'm not

1095
01:20:14.920 --> 01:20:19.560
sure she gave me a kiss. I can't remember. We

1096
01:20:19.640 --> 01:20:23.960
made love in the snow. We didn't, well, everyone watched

1097
01:20:24.199 --> 01:20:27.399
from the bus. We were on the top of the bus. No,

1098
01:20:27.479 --> 01:20:29.800
we wouldn't know. Nothing like that happened. But she did

1099
01:20:30.119 --> 01:20:33.880
like give me a big hug and everything, like, what's

1100
01:20:33.920 --> 01:20:39.000
going on? White. It's almost like I was suddenly became

1101
01:20:39.960 --> 01:20:45.000
attractive to women out of nowhere for a week, and

1102
01:20:45.000 --> 01:20:46.800
then when I got back to the UK, I went

1103
01:20:46.880 --> 01:20:49.520
back to being invisible again.

1104
01:20:49.760 --> 01:20:54.520
It's like brilliant. Then.

1105
01:20:56.319 --> 01:20:58.520
I think three days or two days before we left,

1106
01:20:59.840 --> 01:21:06.319
I met this other lady from Germany and we would

1107
01:21:06.439 --> 01:21:08.640
just chat in and we went for a little walk

1108
01:21:08.720 --> 01:21:12.119
and she grabbed me and start kissing me and everything.

1109
01:21:13.359 --> 01:21:16.560
And she she palls me to the actually the elevator,

1110
01:21:16.680 --> 01:21:20.159
to the lift to go up to my room. Right

1111
01:21:22.800 --> 01:21:25.000
just as a lift the lift doors about to close.

1112
01:21:25.319 --> 01:21:31.319
What happens, This hand comes through and stops the doors

1113
01:21:31.319 --> 01:21:35.720
from closing. And it's her friend. Her friend doesn't want

1114
01:21:35.760 --> 01:21:40.319
it to have fun. So there's a term. There's a

1115
01:21:40.399 --> 01:21:46.840
term for that, now, isn't there. It's two words. One's blocking.

1116
01:21:47.840 --> 01:21:49.239
I was blocked.

1117
01:21:51.520 --> 01:21:55.399
By her and it was weird.

1118
01:21:55.439 --> 01:22:01.960
I was like, okay, fair enough, yeah, just google both

1119
01:22:02.319 --> 01:22:02.880
both of us.

1120
01:22:02.880 --> 01:22:07.279
Probably a little bit tipsy or whatever.

1121
01:22:08.359 --> 01:22:10.760
But she's the one that kind of made the moves.

1122
01:22:11.439 --> 01:22:13.640
But her friends blame me. She didn't want to She

1123
01:22:14.159 --> 01:22:18.600
didn't want her friend to have any fun. So that

1124
01:22:18.720 --> 01:22:22.039
was that done as well. I just had to accept, okay,

1125
01:22:22.039 --> 01:22:27.199
fair enough, see her, I need to pooh anyway, bye.

1126
01:22:28.000 --> 01:22:30.920
I was poohing a lot when I went there. I

1127
01:22:30.920 --> 01:22:35.000
couldn't believe it. It really changed my whole body being there.

1128
01:22:35.159 --> 01:22:37.439
So I don't know if it was the altitude or

1129
01:22:37.479 --> 01:22:40.319
if it was the food. Maybe a little bit too

1130
01:22:40.359 --> 01:22:48.039
much alcohol, I don't know, but yeah, nice fresh.

1131
01:22:47.840 --> 01:22:52.880
Air though, that was nice.

1132
01:22:53.560 --> 01:22:55.720
And then there was the twins. Now there wasn't I

1133
01:22:55.920 --> 01:23:06.079
just h so I I did. I did go and

1134
01:23:06.119 --> 01:23:10.560
say goodbye to all three of the women that I

1135
01:23:10.720 --> 01:23:13.359
kind of got to know a little bit. Not the

1136
01:23:13.359 --> 01:23:16.439
German one. I didn't see her again. I don't think

1137
01:23:16.800 --> 01:23:18.039
I might have done. I think she was with a

1138
01:23:18.119 --> 01:23:21.119
family though it's like family holidays, so I was like, okay,

1139
01:23:21.960 --> 01:23:26.600
got to keep away. But I went to see the

1140
01:23:26.680 --> 01:23:30.199
other three. So there's one that worked in one bar,

1141
01:23:31.000 --> 01:23:33.399
there's another one worked in the pizza place, and the

1142
01:23:33.479 --> 01:23:36.880
other worked one worked in the restaurant downstairs. Not need

1143
01:23:36.920 --> 01:23:39.439
a reception. So I went to each one and say goodbye,

1144
01:23:42.720 --> 01:23:45.239
and it was just like I thought, well, I've not

1145
01:23:45.560 --> 01:23:51.520
dated anyone. I've not actually gone out anywhere, so.

1146
01:23:51.520 --> 01:23:52.640
I'll just say goodbye, you know.

1147
01:23:52.640 --> 01:23:55.119
And they were all one of them that even took

1148
01:23:55.239 --> 01:24:01.319
me into a room I wait from the bar, and

1149
01:24:01.359 --> 01:24:03.840
it was like a storage room and there was nothing

1150
01:24:03.880 --> 01:24:07.159
in there but just empty. But it was a few

1151
01:24:07.279 --> 01:24:11.880
storage I guess, and crates of coke cans or whatever,

1152
01:24:12.039 --> 01:24:15.600
and that was it, and closed the door and just

1153
01:24:15.640 --> 01:24:20.079
looked at me as like, what I'm supposed to do now?

1154
01:24:21.279 --> 01:24:23.479
I literally had about half an hour to get on

1155
01:24:23.520 --> 01:24:26.000
the bus, and.

1156
01:24:25.880 --> 01:24:29.079
I didn't know what I didn't know.

1157
01:24:29.039 --> 01:24:35.039
What she wanted. And because I was so naive and

1158
01:24:35.399 --> 01:24:40.920
very I was quite a young person back then. I

1159
01:24:40.960 --> 01:24:43.079
was only thirty.

1160
01:24:44.319 --> 01:24:44.560
One.

1161
01:24:45.319 --> 01:24:48.359
Yeah, I was still thirty one, so I was young,

1162
01:24:48.399 --> 01:24:49.600
and then I was only a youngster.

1163
01:24:52.439 --> 01:24:53.720
I really was.

1164
01:24:54.039 --> 01:24:56.600
I didn't know, I didn't know what to do, but

1165
01:24:56.720 --> 01:24:59.239
obviously gave me a big hug, didn't see no way

1166
01:24:59.319 --> 01:25:03.279
let me go, picked me up, wrattled me around a

1167
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:16.239
little bit. I didn't mind, to be honest. I mean, yeah,

1168
01:25:16.520 --> 01:25:18.880
I feel quite happy. It would have brought a home

1169
01:25:18.920 --> 01:25:26.600
with me and possibly got married. I know that life

1170
01:25:26.600 --> 01:25:28.880
doesn't work like that I'll just bring someone home and

1171
01:25:28.880 --> 01:25:33.840
get married, But there seemed to be a connection. Maybe

1172
01:25:33.840 --> 01:25:37.039
there wasn't I feel like I'm making this up. Maybe

1173
01:25:37.079 --> 01:25:43.600
I'm not. I don't know, maybe I am the the

1174
01:25:43.720 --> 01:25:47.680
bomber boom boom, boom boom what else?

1175
01:25:49.680 --> 01:25:55.960
So yeah, that was good. And then I did give

1176
01:25:56.960 --> 01:25:57.840
I got the address.

1177
01:25:57.840 --> 01:26:00.520
Oh yeah, one of them gave me an address and

1178
01:26:00.600 --> 01:26:05.159
telephone number. But I tried to contact but didn't seem

1179
01:26:05.199 --> 01:26:09.600
to do. I gave me my tele I tried to phone.

1180
01:26:09.760 --> 01:26:12.000
That's it. I tried to phone.

1181
01:26:12.359 --> 01:26:14.720
I've got one of those you know, those cards that

1182
01:26:14.760 --> 01:26:18.119
you can phone abroad and stuff, but it didn't seem

1183
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:23.399
to work. It was Yeah, the language barrier was definitely

1184
01:26:23.439 --> 01:26:27.279
an issue. It'd be easier now with all the different apps,

1185
01:26:27.319 --> 01:26:32.760
and this is before Facebook and whatsappened, all the different

1186
01:26:32.800 --> 01:26:37.039
ways to communicate with people. There's no smartphones back then,

1187
01:26:38.359 --> 01:26:42.800
and it would have been easy, you know, much easier

1188
01:26:42.840 --> 01:26:49.479
to sort of keep in contact with someone. So what

1189
01:26:49.640 --> 01:26:53.199
happened then is in my Thailand, Sid, I did meet

1190
01:26:53.239 --> 01:27:00.399
someone else, but at this point I had a can

1191
01:27:02.039 --> 01:27:07.119
rib and I wasn't really interested in her as a

1192
01:27:07.319 --> 01:27:10.600
as a other than just as a tourist guide. Really,

1193
01:27:10.680 --> 01:27:16.520
she showed me around, but she did sort of try

1194
01:27:16.560 --> 01:27:19.199
and take advantage of me, I think financially a little bit,

1195
01:27:20.960 --> 01:27:27.199
but I wasn't that bothered. And then she in a place.

1196
01:27:27.319 --> 01:27:30.760
This is where I met her because a couple of

1197
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:33.319
this man said I can you buy me some foods?

1198
01:27:33.359 --> 01:27:33.840
I said, all right.

1199
01:27:33.920 --> 01:27:36.560
Then he actually came up to me. He said, you

1200
01:27:37.079 --> 01:27:42.000
got any money? I said, have you you asking me

1201
01:27:42.000 --> 01:27:44.119
if I've got any money for? What's in your wallet?

1202
01:27:44.159 --> 01:27:46.560
What's in your wallet? And he got his wallet out

1203
01:27:46.560 --> 01:27:49.439
and said, look nothing. And he was a taxi driver,

1204
01:27:49.640 --> 01:27:53.760
but there was no customers. I said, so what are

1205
01:27:53.760 --> 01:27:57.319
you asking? Well, you showed me your wallet for and

1206
01:27:57.359 --> 01:27:59.880
he said, I'm hungry. You can I have some food?

1207
01:28:00.680 --> 01:28:02.800
I said, I'm sure you'll find someone to give you food.

1208
01:28:03.079 --> 01:28:05.720
He said, well you getting some food? I said, you right?

1209
01:28:07.159 --> 01:28:09.199
And he said what is this way? I think he

1210
01:28:09.920 --> 01:28:11.680
led me. I didn't realize he owned the place he

1211
01:28:11.760 --> 01:28:14.680
led me to actually had his name on the front.

1212
01:28:15.039 --> 01:28:16.560
And I don't know if he owned it or rented

1213
01:28:16.560 --> 01:28:21.039
it or it was a family thing, but I mean

1214
01:28:21.079 --> 01:28:24.159
he was hungry as well. There was no customers, There

1215
01:28:24.199 --> 01:28:28.000
was no one in there. There's this little bar restaurant.

1216
01:28:28.520 --> 01:28:34.720
There wasn't really a restaurant more takeaway, so I gave

1217
01:28:34.800 --> 01:28:39.000
him the food, gave his fellow taxi driver I like,

1218
01:28:39.079 --> 01:28:44.439
because I had moped taxis, gave them food, and then

1219
01:28:44.479 --> 01:28:46.640
I just left wait for a walk.

1220
01:28:47.840 --> 01:28:50.159
Later on in the evening, I.

1221
01:28:50.119 --> 01:28:52.279
Forget all about it, and I walked past and they

1222
01:28:52.279 --> 01:28:56.159
all start shouting for me to come in. And I

1223
01:28:56.159 --> 01:28:58.119
didn't know who they were because I didn't realize where

1224
01:28:58.159 --> 01:29:01.680
I was because it was all still new, and they

1225
01:29:01.720 --> 01:29:04.760
were so, oh, come in, let me buy you, give

1226
01:29:04.800 --> 01:29:07.520
you a drink, and they were like all over me,

1227
01:29:07.800 --> 01:29:11.439
like being nice to me and stuff, very very friendly.

1228
01:29:12.399 --> 01:29:14.439
So I stayed in there for a couple of hours,

1229
01:29:14.800 --> 01:29:21.000
had some drinks, and met this person that was a

1230
01:29:21.239 --> 01:29:23.880
bit friendly as well. But you know, it sort of

1231
01:29:24.119 --> 01:29:27.199
became my tour guide for a few days, showed me

1232
01:29:27.279 --> 01:29:28.319
around and that.

1233
01:29:31.319 --> 01:29:34.199
I had this idea.

1234
01:29:34.760 --> 01:29:37.000
But maybe it was a little bit drunk, but I

1235
01:29:37.039 --> 01:29:40.800
had an idea, I thought, And this is something I'd

1236
01:29:40.800 --> 01:29:46.640
thought about before because I'd seen on YouTube during twenty

1237
01:29:46.720 --> 01:29:54.359
twenty and twenty twenty one, because the tourists pretty much

1238
01:29:54.359 --> 01:30:03.960
had disappeared, like completely for about two years. They the

1239
01:30:04.000 --> 01:30:07.479
people that would normally work, didn't have any money for food,

1240
01:30:07.600 --> 01:30:13.279
didn't have any food. So there was charities and there

1241
01:30:13.359 --> 01:30:20.560
was YouTubers and all stuff giving out food to people

1242
01:30:20.840 --> 01:30:24.319
queuing up along the beach. Some people were running along

1243
01:30:24.399 --> 01:30:26.199
to get the food, and I was giving food out

1244
01:30:26.520 --> 01:30:30.800
off the back of trucks and stuff like that. I

1245
01:30:30.840 --> 01:30:34.159
didn't see that when I got there, but I did

1246
01:30:34.199 --> 01:30:37.159
think to myself before I got there, I want to

1247
01:30:37.159 --> 01:30:40.600
give some food out. I wasn't expecting to do it

1248
01:30:40.640 --> 01:30:42.760
the way I did it, but I was thinking I

1249
01:30:42.800 --> 01:30:46.720
want to. It's been a dream, really to be able

1250
01:30:46.720 --> 01:30:50.920
to do something like that on a more a bigger

1251
01:30:50.960 --> 01:31:00.560
scale than just giving someone a burger for McDonald's. Who's

1252
01:31:00.680 --> 01:31:04.920
sitting in a a shop, a shop.

1253
01:31:07.199 --> 01:31:08.880
What do you call it? A shop entrance?

1254
01:31:09.680 --> 01:31:17.439
And I thought it'd be nice to do something that

1255
01:31:17.720 --> 01:31:21.720
was like a one off situation that I'm possibly never

1256
01:31:21.760 --> 01:31:22.760
going to be able to do again.

1257
01:31:24.439 --> 01:31:27.920
So what I decided is, I.

1258
01:31:27.960 --> 01:31:33.680
Said to the lady who was running this place which

1259
01:31:33.720 --> 01:31:36.199
sells food and it's like a little bar as well

1260
01:31:36.920 --> 01:31:38.760
where I got the food from during the day for

1261
01:31:38.840 --> 01:31:44.439
the taxi drivers or the motorbike taxi drivers. I said

1262
01:31:44.479 --> 01:31:48.399
to her, Actually, I said to the person I was

1263
01:31:48.439 --> 01:31:52.079
talking to. That became my guide. I got an idea.

1264
01:31:53.000 --> 01:32:00.640
She said, what's that? I said, what if? I because

1265
01:32:00.800 --> 01:32:03.079
she was telling me how people were hungry and how

1266
01:32:03.119 --> 01:32:05.680
there was no like there was. She was pointing out

1267
01:32:05.720 --> 01:32:08.199
the bar she used to work out, which had a

1268
01:32:08.279 --> 01:32:10.359
pool table, and it was just like a small bar,

1269
01:32:11.359 --> 01:32:14.760
but it was empty. She was living upstairs and then

1270
01:32:14.760 --> 01:32:20.000
pretty much a derelict room, didn't have anything, didn't have

1271
01:32:20.319 --> 01:32:22.359
you know, she was like living from one day to

1272
01:32:22.359 --> 01:32:28.159
the next. And I kind of became a meal ticket

1273
01:32:28.199 --> 01:32:31.640
for a little while, which, you know, it is what

1274
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:37.560
it is. It is fine. But she sort of pointed

1275
01:32:37.600 --> 01:32:40.039
me towards the lady that was in charge of that place,

1276
01:32:40.479 --> 01:32:43.479
of the place we were sitting in, and I said, well,

1277
01:32:43.520 --> 01:32:48.920
how much would it cost to give away a meal.

1278
01:32:50.920 --> 01:32:51.800
And a drink.

1279
01:32:53.199 --> 01:32:57.319
Like a meal in a bottle of water, I think

1280
01:32:57.399 --> 01:33:02.479
something like that. And she was working out. She did,

1281
01:33:02.560 --> 01:33:04.119
how many do you want to do? I said, well,

1282
01:33:04.319 --> 01:33:08.000
it depends how much they are each bear in my mind,

1283
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:11.319
I had to try and figure it out the currency change,

1284
01:33:11.359 --> 01:33:13.479
you know, from pounds to.

1285
01:33:16.760 --> 01:33:17.680
Tie bart.

1286
01:33:19.239 --> 01:33:25.000
Or tie bart to pounds, you know, conversion. And I

1287
01:33:25.079 --> 01:33:27.640
was like, okay, well, you know roughly what would it

1288
01:33:27.680 --> 01:33:31.560
be and I couldn't even tell you how much it

1289
01:33:31.640 --> 01:33:40.239
was per meal, but we decided to do a lot

1290
01:33:40.279 --> 01:33:46.680
of meals. I don't know what it was at one hundred,

1291
01:33:46.720 --> 01:33:50.680
two hundred and fifty two hundred, I can't remember. And

1292
01:33:50.720 --> 01:33:53.000
then so we did that and when they were all.

1293
01:33:52.840 --> 01:33:53.960
Like stacked up.

1294
01:33:54.119 --> 01:33:56.039
There's actually a photograph of me on one of my

1295
01:33:56.159 --> 01:33:59.560
podcasts with the staff there.

1296
01:34:01.000 --> 01:34:06.760
They're all like hugging me. And most of.

1297
01:34:06.680 --> 01:34:10.960
The people I gave the food out too, were coming

1298
01:34:11.000 --> 01:34:17.039
on mopeds because even though the job was taxi drivers,

1299
01:34:17.319 --> 01:34:26.199
they didn't really have any customers. So I gave out

1300
01:34:27.239 --> 01:34:29.640
not just me, the other staff did as well. The

1301
01:34:29.720 --> 01:34:32.039
other like everyone kind of muck did and gave out

1302
01:34:32.039 --> 01:34:32.439
the food.

1303
01:34:32.479 --> 01:34:34.880
But I was it went.

1304
01:34:34.880 --> 01:34:39.840
Really quickly, like really quickly, And then they kept cooking

1305
01:34:39.880 --> 01:34:41.720
more and said you you want me to cook more?

1306
01:34:42.119 --> 01:34:43.960
She said, I bought more. I can cook it if

1307
01:34:44.000 --> 01:34:50.840
you want. And I lost track. I lost track of

1308
01:34:50.880 --> 01:34:53.319
what I was spending, I lost track of what I

1309
01:34:53.359 --> 01:34:57.680
was given away. And I did it the next day

1310
01:34:57.680 --> 01:34:59.560
as well. I think I did twice as much the

1311
01:34:59.560 --> 01:35:08.399
next day. Yeah, I spent a lot, a lot on that.

1312
01:35:09.399 --> 01:35:13.039
It's the most Yeah, it's yeah, A lot. I feel

1313
01:35:13.039 --> 01:35:15.199
I've never never spent that much money in one day.

1314
01:35:15.239 --> 01:35:18.560
I don't think it for that kind of thing before.

1315
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:20.600
But it was.

1316
01:35:22.079 --> 01:35:26.640
One of the best experiences of my life giving away

1317
01:35:26.720 --> 01:35:29.920
food to people that were hungry. I can't think of

1318
01:35:30.000 --> 01:35:34.079
anything really better than that to be more more useful

1319
01:35:34.319 --> 01:35:42.479
in a way. I know it's short term solution.

1320
01:35:42.319 --> 01:35:43.399
But it's still.

1321
01:35:44.760 --> 01:35:47.880
I mean, it might be a short term solution, but

1322
01:35:48.079 --> 01:35:49.359
it's going to mean a hell of a lot to

1323
01:35:49.399 --> 01:35:51.920
the person that's eating. And how do I know, just

1324
01:35:51.960 --> 01:35:56.000
because I've given out a meal to someone, they might

1325
01:35:56.039 --> 01:36:00.000
be sharing that with three people, they might be taking

1326
01:36:00.199 --> 01:36:03.479
at home to their kid and not eating anything themselves,

1327
01:36:04.680 --> 01:36:05.520
you know, I don't know.

1328
01:36:08.640 --> 01:36:11.680
I find out.

1329
01:36:11.239 --> 01:36:16.600
After the third day, and this is weird. I find

1330
01:36:16.640 --> 01:36:20.760
out after the third day that I was being charged

1331
01:36:22.880 --> 01:36:30.600
Western prices for the food. So I was being charged

1332
01:36:30.640 --> 01:36:33.079
the same amount as I would have been charged if

1333
01:36:33.119 --> 01:36:35.119
I'd have gone in there as a.

1334
01:36:37.439 --> 01:36:39.279
Tourist to order a meal.

1335
01:36:39.800 --> 01:36:41.640
That's how much I would have been charged. And I

1336
01:36:41.680 --> 01:36:46.000
got charged that amount for each and every meal. But

1337
01:36:46.079 --> 01:36:48.119
if I had been a tie, I'd have gone in

1338
01:36:48.119 --> 01:36:50.319
there and ordered the same thing. It would have been

1339
01:36:50.359 --> 01:36:58.279
probably one third of the price, but they charged me

1340
01:36:58.359 --> 01:37:05.880
the full price, and the lady that was going to

1341
01:37:05.960 --> 01:37:08.479
be like, give me a bit as a tour guide.

1342
01:37:09.800 --> 01:37:13.439
She told me after about the fourth day, she said,

1343
01:37:13.439 --> 01:37:15.880
you couldn't. She fell out with them over it, but

1344
01:37:15.920 --> 01:37:19.039
she said she couldn't tell me because I seemed so

1345
01:37:19.119 --> 01:37:22.159
happy doing what I was doing, and they told her,

1346
01:37:22.159 --> 01:37:25.039
don't you dare tell them because I think she was

1347
01:37:25.039 --> 01:37:28.039
also her boss for the other bar when it reopens,

1348
01:37:28.079 --> 01:37:31.880
and just I didn't go back there after that. I

1349
01:37:31.920 --> 01:37:36.640
didn't go back, didn't. I just, you know, once I

1350
01:37:36.680 --> 01:37:40.239
found that out, I was a bit because it wasn't

1351
01:37:40.239 --> 01:37:42.920
even about the money. It was about the simple fact

1352
01:37:43.039 --> 01:37:51.399
that I could have given twice three night, I was

1353
01:37:51.399 --> 01:37:55.239
only given away one given away. I was only given

1354
01:37:55.279 --> 01:37:57.520
away one third of what I could have been given away.

1355
01:37:58.239 --> 01:37:58.720
I could have.

1356
01:37:58.640 --> 01:38:03.840
Given away two thirds more food and meals to people

1357
01:38:03.880 --> 01:38:10.680
that needed it, and I wasn't. And that's hundreds of

1358
01:38:10.800 --> 01:38:17.560
meals that I didn't get to give away. So that was, yeah,

1359
01:38:17.800 --> 01:38:19.960
I didn't like that. That kind of left a little

1360
01:38:19.960 --> 01:38:26.000
bit of her horrible. I mean, I understand they want

1361
01:38:26.000 --> 01:38:27.800
to get paid for the work because they were cooking

1362
01:38:27.840 --> 01:38:30.720
and it was hard working it. But wouldn't they get paid.

1363
01:38:30.840 --> 01:38:34.720
Don't they take that out of the that would be

1364
01:38:34.760 --> 01:38:38.319
the wages they would take anywhay, isn't it if they're

1365
01:38:38.359 --> 01:38:41.000
not going to work for nothing when they give away

1366
01:38:41.039 --> 01:38:43.399
the food to the taie people, they're still going to

1367
01:38:43.399 --> 01:38:45.800
make a profit, still going to cover their wages and

1368
01:38:45.840 --> 01:38:46.720
cover their costs.

1369
01:38:48.239 --> 01:38:48.880
And bear in.

1370
01:38:48.800 --> 01:38:53.720
Mind how many there's No. I can't imagine any day

1371
01:38:55.039 --> 01:38:57.039
in her history that she would have sold as many

1372
01:38:57.359 --> 01:39:02.600
meals as that in a day. Ever, uh, the what

1373
01:39:02.680 --> 01:39:08.359
she did that day, those two days with me, and

1374
01:39:08.439 --> 01:39:09.880
all she had to do was cook. She didn't have

1375
01:39:09.920 --> 01:39:14.680
to she didn't have to deal with anyone else. And

1376
01:39:14.800 --> 01:39:17.319
at the end, I think you said, oh, can you pay?

1377
01:39:17.600 --> 01:39:21.960
Can you pay my system? Give her a bit more money?

1378
01:39:22.680 --> 01:39:25.199
Like I just said yes, But I thought, BlimE me,

1379
01:39:26.079 --> 01:39:28.159
that's this is before I realized I've been ripped off.

1380
01:39:29.680 --> 01:39:34.159
So yeah, I said, it wasn't about the money rather

1381
01:39:34.159 --> 01:39:37.560
than about I could have given more free stuff out.

1382
01:39:39.640 --> 01:39:40.840
So that was that was weird.

1383
01:39:42.399 --> 01:39:44.520
Some of the I quite liked some of the Buddhists

1384
01:39:48.199 --> 01:39:51.600
rituals that they do. I like the bowing, that's nice,

1385
01:39:52.000 --> 01:40:02.520
it's very respectful. The what I'm going to say, oh yeah,

1386
01:40:02.640 --> 01:40:04.520
even when they're drinking, they'll chuck a bit of the

1387
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:10.520
drink into the street. It's like an offering to the Buddha.

1388
01:40:10.920 --> 01:40:15.359
So it's kind of even though they're doing technically is

1389
01:40:15.399 --> 01:40:18.520
a Buddhist really it is like a.

1390
01:40:18.520 --> 01:40:21.640
Non toxicant religion. You don't take toxicants.

1391
01:40:21.720 --> 01:40:24.840
It's one of the one of the I don't say

1392
01:40:24.920 --> 01:40:26.800
rules are one of the things.

1393
01:40:27.600 --> 01:40:27.760
But.

1394
01:40:30.680 --> 01:40:35.359
It's less that their Buddhists, as in not meditating and

1395
01:40:35.520 --> 01:40:41.239
not practicing, but they have a monk practice for them.

1396
01:40:42.199 --> 01:40:44.800
So the monk will come down from the mountain or

1397
01:40:44.800 --> 01:40:50.359
from the monastery and they will give offerings to the

1398
01:40:50.399 --> 01:40:58.840
monk in the form of usually food, and then the

1399
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:04.359
monk will say some prayers for them, and they'll sit

1400
01:41:04.439 --> 01:41:07.600
there and just have the monk offer prayers to them.

1401
01:41:08.079 --> 01:41:11.520
So it's a give and take situation. So the monk

1402
01:41:11.800 --> 01:41:16.800
sits in the monastery all day meditating and practicing for

1403
01:41:18.479 --> 01:41:21.399
the rest of the people in Thailand, and they can

1404
01:41:21.479 --> 01:41:25.439
just get on with their lives and not have to

1405
01:41:25.479 --> 01:41:29.239
do that. So it's a very different way to how

1406
01:41:29.279 --> 01:41:35.600
the Western meditators work. Really, I mean, it isn't it

1407
01:41:35.640 --> 01:41:40.319
isn't we don't I say, we are not that involved.

1408
01:41:40.920 --> 01:41:44.159
I haven't been involved for years. Really, in my mind

1409
01:41:44.199 --> 01:41:56.399
I am, but in practice i'm not. Yeah, I'm trying

1410
01:41:56.439 --> 01:42:03.439
to think other things. What this is the irony? When

1411
01:42:03.439 --> 01:42:11.600
I got back this, my tour guide started contacting me,

1412
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.840
asking me for stuff. So I ended up buying a television,

1413
01:42:16.840 --> 01:42:21.119
ended up sending them money, all these kinds of things

1414
01:42:21.520 --> 01:42:25.279
by I forget what was called some app And in

1415
01:42:25.319 --> 01:42:26.960
the end I just had to cut her off because

1416
01:42:27.000 --> 01:42:30.600
she was just kept asking for more, more, more, more,

1417
01:42:30.760 --> 01:42:35.159
more and more. But she was a good tour guide.

1418
01:42:35.800 --> 01:42:39.840
So I paid her to do to take me around,

1419
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.439
paid her for everything that she needed. Food, We went

1420
01:42:43.800 --> 01:42:46.840
and fed the dogs. We got food off her.

1421
01:42:48.000 --> 01:42:48.399
What's it.

1422
01:42:49.760 --> 01:42:55.640
There's this uh street food vendor and he was making

1423
01:42:55.680 --> 01:42:59.319
these like meat stick things on sticks, almost like kebabs,

1424
01:42:59.359 --> 01:43:03.800
I suppose, and there'd be three in a pack, and

1425
01:43:03.880 --> 01:43:07.880
maybe they'd had vegetables on them as well. And I

1426
01:43:07.920 --> 01:43:12.159
bought the entire store. And we walked through the beach.

1427
01:43:12.680 --> 01:43:15.239
And it's good to have her with me because she

1428
01:43:15.319 --> 01:43:21.079
knew who not to approach. She said, don't go near them.

1429
01:43:21.359 --> 01:43:24.960
They don't like foreigners because some people didn't like the

1430
01:43:25.039 --> 01:43:30.159
you know people. She just knew who was who. So

1431
01:43:31.439 --> 01:43:37.000
we would give out the food along the beach and

1432
01:43:37.039 --> 01:43:40.079
I thought, and then we walked back after doing that.

1433
01:43:41.960 --> 01:43:45.199
I couldn't believe that stall was full again, full of food.

1434
01:43:46.640 --> 01:43:50.039
I thought I'd done him a favor. You go home now. Nope,

1435
01:43:50.840 --> 01:43:53.760
it just appeared out of nowhere. It's almost like he

1436
01:43:53.840 --> 01:43:55.520
just shook it like a magic trick and all the

1437
01:43:55.520 --> 01:43:56.359
food is there again.

1438
01:43:57.439 --> 01:43:57.840
Wow.

1439
01:43:58.880 --> 01:44:01.560
So we've got a load of more food and fed

1440
01:44:01.600 --> 01:44:05.880
the dogs. So there's a lot of stray dogs around,

1441
01:44:06.279 --> 01:44:09.239
so we start feeding dogs. Some of them just have

1442
01:44:09.319 --> 01:44:12.279
to kind of chuck the meat and let them eat it.

1443
01:44:12.880 --> 01:44:19.000
And there was this big pound of massive gate and

1444
01:44:19.039 --> 01:44:22.960
there's that waste ground or whatever, and there was huge

1445
01:44:22.960 --> 01:44:27.479
amounts of dogs behind there. So I'd be chucking food

1446
01:44:27.760 --> 01:44:28.920
over there for them.

1447
01:44:29.920 --> 01:44:31.760
And it was cool.

1448
01:44:34.279 --> 01:44:36.680
I got to do things that I probably never would

1449
01:44:37.680 --> 01:44:40.920
get to do here. I mean, I can't go around

1450
01:44:40.960 --> 01:44:44.359
feeding stray dogs in the UK because there ain't none. Really,

1451
01:44:48.479 --> 01:44:52.720
there's not going to walk on a beach and give

1452
01:44:52.720 --> 01:44:56.399
out food to people some bathing on a beach because

1453
01:44:56.399 --> 01:45:01.239
they probably don't want that. It's a different scenario. Plus,

1454
01:45:01.239 --> 01:45:04.119
people aren't sleeping on the beach at night in this

1455
01:45:04.279 --> 01:45:05.520
kind well maybe they are.

1456
01:45:05.560 --> 01:45:05.960
I don't know.

1457
01:45:06.000 --> 01:45:08.159
I've not been everywhere, but there was a lot of

1458
01:45:08.159 --> 01:45:12.640
people were on the beach late at night just sleeping.

1459
01:45:14.640 --> 01:45:17.880
So there was that, I know, I thing I quite liked.

1460
01:45:18.600 --> 01:45:21.600
There was this This sounds like I'm just bragging about

1461
01:45:21.600 --> 01:45:23.119
what I did, but this is just what I did.

1462
01:45:23.199 --> 01:45:28.600
It's not really bragging and just it was something I'm

1463
01:45:29.079 --> 01:45:33.439
I'm glad I got to do. And yeah, so I

1464
01:45:33.439 --> 01:45:35.079
did a few other things like that as well, but

1465
01:45:38.520 --> 01:45:39.520
I'm glad I've got.

1466
01:45:39.359 --> 01:45:39.760
To do that.

1467
01:45:45.279 --> 01:45:46.000
Yeah, I am.

1468
01:45:46.560 --> 01:45:47.399
It's a shame too.

1469
01:45:48.800 --> 01:45:51.000
I don't think it kind of worked out so well

1470
01:45:52.000 --> 01:45:55.479
that's what I would have wanted it to, but it's

1471
01:45:55.520 --> 01:45:57.439
it was a great experience to be able to do that.

1472
01:46:00.720 --> 01:46:04.760
So yeah, that was my Thailand, one of my one

1473
01:46:04.760 --> 01:46:09.439
of my Thailand journeys. I think I've talked forever about

1474
01:46:09.439 --> 01:46:17.600
this now, so I didn't have any other questions. So yeah,

1475
01:46:17.600 --> 01:46:21.479
thank you, thank you. What I'm going to do, Wait

1476
01:46:21.520 --> 01:46:23.960
a minute, I'm going to go into my website. Okay,

1477
01:46:25.119 --> 01:46:30.119
go into my website and let me see if it works.

1478
01:46:30.159 --> 01:46:35.239
If I go to Jasonnewland dot com ask me anything

1479
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:37.880
Q and a Friday submission right at the top of

1480
01:46:37.920 --> 01:46:38.520
the page.

1481
01:46:39.079 --> 01:46:40.039
So I'm going to put in.

1482
01:46:42.159 --> 01:47:02.399
Right Willie Warmer email Willi Warmer at booby So my question.

1483
01:47:05.920 --> 01:47:06.439
Have you.

1484
01:47:07.920 --> 01:47:09.800
I'd like to give different weird, funny names?

1485
01:47:09.840 --> 01:47:10.239
Have you.

1486
01:47:11.800 --> 01:47:19.520
Always been so handsome?

1487
01:47:21.479 --> 01:47:21.720
Right?

1488
01:47:21.760 --> 01:47:25.399
So that's the question. So I'll see what comes through.

1489
01:47:25.560 --> 01:47:28.479
I said, Look, so I'm let's submit that all it's

1490
01:47:28.520 --> 01:47:28.960
asking me.

1491
01:47:29.039 --> 01:47:29.760
Am I a robot?

1492
01:47:29.880 --> 01:47:34.039
No, I'm not a robot sending the message was sent successfully,

1493
01:47:34.640 --> 01:47:37.520
so let me see if the message came up.

1494
01:47:38.880 --> 01:47:40.920
In the junk mail it has.

1495
01:47:43.199 --> 01:47:51.079
Let me click. So the message from Williwarmer. Ah, this

1496
01:47:51.159 --> 01:47:55.880
message sent from Jason dot com Williwarmer email Williwarmer at

1497
01:47:55.880 --> 01:48:00.479
boobies dot com form type contact Have you always been

1498
01:48:00.520 --> 01:48:03.720
so handsome? There's no d in that, so I should

1499
01:48:03.760 --> 01:48:07.199
have done it wrong. So it works, So if you

1500
01:48:07.439 --> 01:48:15.159
have questions for next Friday. For next Friday, you can

1501
01:48:15.199 --> 01:48:19.479
start adding now so that next Friday I can actually

1502
01:48:19.520 --> 01:48:25.520
answer some questions rather than this has been like a

1503
01:48:25.600 --> 01:48:28.960
more like an ordinary let me boy to sleep, really,

1504
01:48:29.000 --> 01:48:29.439
isn't it?

1505
01:48:32.800 --> 01:48:34.920
Which is fine? But it's just weird.

1506
01:48:37.439 --> 01:48:40.119
I didn't think I have a ever have a week

1507
01:48:40.159 --> 01:48:44.159
where it was just one question, because I haven't the

1508
01:48:44.199 --> 01:48:48.239
whole time i've been doing this, and the Q and

1509
01:48:48.279 --> 01:48:51.720
a Friday is wonderful. Which the first one, I don't

1510
01:48:51.720 --> 01:48:53.960
know if I've got it, I've got a there's something

1511
01:48:54.039 --> 01:48:58.359
like Q and a Friday one hundred and seventy two episodes.

1512
01:48:58.399 --> 01:48:59.399
Okay, that's with all.

1513
01:48:59.279 --> 01:49:03.279
The different ones. So let's see when was the first one?

1514
01:49:03.359 --> 01:49:10.359
And the first one was, Oh my goodness, you won't

1515
01:49:10.359 --> 01:49:15.399
even believe this. That you might be asleep now, but

1516
01:49:15.479 --> 01:49:21.119
if you are awake, you won't believe it. The very

1517
01:49:21.239 --> 01:49:27.000
first Q and a Friday was a tenth of April

1518
01:49:27.199 --> 01:49:31.600
twenty twenty four, and it's now the eleventh of April

1519
01:49:32.199 --> 01:49:42.159
twenty twenty five. So I have literally done every single

1520
01:49:42.199 --> 01:49:49.680
week since then. I don't know if I've missed any out.

1521
01:49:50.560 --> 01:49:57.279
I'm pretty sure i've done every week. In fact, i'm

1522
01:49:57.279 --> 01:49:58.079
pretty sure I have.

1523
01:50:01.000 --> 01:50:10.359
Blimey wow wow a year.

1524
01:50:12.439 --> 01:50:14.920
So this is a year of letting boy to sleep,

1525
01:50:14.960 --> 01:50:15.680
and it's probably the.

1526
01:50:15.600 --> 01:50:18.039
Worst one yet. One question.

1527
01:50:22.199 --> 01:50:23.760
I should have put that if I have known now,

1528
01:50:23.800 --> 01:50:27.760
I could have put the first year anniversary Q and

1529
01:50:27.800 --> 01:50:31.359
a Friday I think he's moaning now I don't know

1530
01:50:31.359 --> 01:50:36.960
what he wants. Wow, blimey. Okay, anyway, I'm going to go.

1531
01:50:37.119 --> 01:50:41.640
Thank you for listening. Remember Q and it. Oh, tonight

1532
01:50:42.399 --> 01:50:46.720
is the fction night for celebrity Big Brother. I think

1533
01:50:46.720 --> 01:50:50.000
that's on at nine o'clock. So I've been watching that

1534
01:50:50.119 --> 01:50:54.960
at nine. It's now caught past seven, which means probably

1535
01:50:55.560 --> 01:51:04.399
get myself some food, and then I will watch the

1536
01:51:04.520 --> 01:51:08.560
end of a movie that I started to watch. Well,

1537
01:51:08.600 --> 01:51:11.199
actually know what I'll do play watch, I watch something

1538
01:51:11.279 --> 01:51:13.560
while I do that. Well, maybe i'll try and edit

1539
01:51:13.600 --> 01:51:17.720
this now. I want to get this edited before People

1540
01:51:17.720 --> 01:51:22.239
Brother starts. It's even out. I'll do it first thing

1541
01:51:22.239 --> 01:51:29.239
in the morning. I'd kind of like to do it tonight. Yeah,

1542
01:51:29.520 --> 01:51:32.800
we'll see. So thank you for listening, Thank you Hillary

1543
01:51:32.800 --> 01:51:37.199
for your question. And sorry, there's only one one answer

1544
01:51:37.279 --> 01:51:42.079
to give. Please, thank you for listening. Remember to be

1545
01:51:42.159 --> 01:51:47.199
kind to yourself and also be gentle with yourself. Could

1546
01:51:47.199 --> 01:51:50.000
you deserve to be happy and you do deserve to

1547
01:51:50.000 --> 01:51:50.640
feel safe?

1548
01:51:52.359 --> 01:52:00.840
Lots of love. Bye.

1549
01:52:01.399 --> 01:52:16.000
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1550
01:52:16.039 --> 01:52:21.600
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1551
01:52:22.920 --> 01:52:32.159
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1552
01:52:34.199 --> 01:52:39.880
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1553
01:52:39.920 --> 01:52:46.600
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1554
01:52:46.760 --> 01:53:01.680
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1555
01:53:01.800 --> 01:53:21.600
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1556
01:53:21.640 --> 01:53:32.239
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1557
01:53:35.119 --> 01:53:42.399
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1558
01:53:44.319 --> 01:53:57.760
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1559
01:53:57.960 --> 01:54:03.199
find like some people do and myself as well. Sometimes

1560
01:54:03.239 --> 01:54:09.520
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1561
01:54:13.840 --> 01:54:16.359
and I just listen to it over and over again

1562
01:54:18.479 --> 01:54:31.520
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1563
01:54:31.560 --> 01:54:37.319
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1564
01:54:37.359 --> 01:54:42.680
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1565
01:54:45.159 --> 01:54:50.359
and I managed to find it again and it still

1566
01:54:50.439 --> 01:54:56.000
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1567
01:54:56.159 --> 01:55:13.119
was person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and

1568
01:55:13.159 --> 01:55:20.039
I'd look forward to listening to her in the morning

1569
01:55:20.479 --> 01:55:31.560
and in the evening. And I knew before even pressing

1570
01:55:31.680 --> 01:55:39.600
the play button that since I've done that, pressed the

1571
01:55:39.640 --> 01:55:48.760
play button. This is in the days of CD players

1572
01:55:51.720 --> 01:55:57.239
pressed the play button I fact, it might have even

1573
01:55:57.279 --> 01:56:01.479
been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the

1574
01:56:01.520 --> 01:56:14.960
bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words

1575
01:56:18.279 --> 01:56:27.600
because I had them memorized. Really, it was as if

1576
01:56:27.640 --> 01:56:38.880
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1577
01:56:39.119 --> 01:57:00.319
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember, remember,

1578
01:57:00.439 --> 01:57:04.720
my mind would slow down.

1579
01:57:10.359 --> 01:57:10.800
Now.

1580
01:57:12.720 --> 01:57:19.439
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

1581
01:57:19.520 --> 01:57:27.359
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1582
01:57:27.920 --> 01:57:35.239
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1583
01:57:35.279 --> 01:57:37.960
doing that till two thousand and six.

1584
01:57:44.520 --> 01:57:50.600
I knew, I knew how.

1585
01:57:51.960 --> 01:58:05.760
Helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1586
01:58:05.880 --> 01:58:11.079
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1587
01:58:18.720 --> 01:58:25.479
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1588
01:58:26.880 --> 01:58:36.279
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1589
01:58:36.359 --> 01:58:37.239
may feel the same.

1590
01:58:43.600 --> 01:58:44.960
Some people.

1591
01:58:47.000 --> 01:58:58.319
Have been listening to me for over a decade.

1592
01:58:59.039 --> 01:58:59.800
Maybe not so.

1593
01:59:01.439 --> 01:59:07.680
Obviously, not twenty four hours a day, but maybe people

1594
01:59:07.760 --> 01:59:23.680
come back. Some people maybe listen every day. That's something

1595
01:59:23.720 --> 01:59:34.000
that I do which you may not realize by listening,

1596
01:59:36.800 --> 01:59:54.680
is when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I

1597
01:59:54.920 --> 02:00:06.760
also am affected by the words yes that I say.

1598
02:00:07.640 --> 02:00:14.000
So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

1599
02:00:16.520 --> 02:00:24.279
notice your feet relaxing. I will be focusing on my feet.

1600
02:00:29.159 --> 02:00:46.560
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1601
02:00:46.720 --> 02:00:54.399
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1602
02:00:54.439 --> 02:00:56.199
each hand.

1603
02:00:59.199 --> 02:01:00.359
Perhaps no is.

1604
02:01:00.479 --> 02:01:07.920
The the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1605
02:01:08.439 --> 02:01:18.840
On the backs of your hands, you may start to

1606
02:01:19.399 --> 02:01:27.479
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1607
02:01:27.520 --> 02:01:31.760
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1608
02:01:31.800 --> 02:01:44.800
all where you are right now. And as you become

1609
02:01:45.439 --> 02:01:59.760
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1610
02:02:00.159 --> 02:02:06.119
my hands are feeling.

1611
02:02:07.520 --> 02:02:07.840
Now.

1612
02:02:22.479 --> 02:02:28.319
And when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

1613
02:02:29.399 --> 02:02:42.000
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

1614
02:02:42.159 --> 02:02:56.399
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

1615
02:02:56.680 --> 02:03:12.920
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

1616
02:03:18.600 --> 02:03:32.840
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And

1617
02:03:32.840 --> 02:03:38.319
it's only when I listen back to do the editing

1618
02:03:42.039 --> 02:03:48.199
I hear snoring and I think, I don't remember snoring.

1619
02:03:51.479 --> 02:03:58.279
I remember talking. Was snoring was a pig turned up?

1620
02:04:02.279 --> 02:04:09.720
That's why I sound like when I snore. How I

1621
02:04:09.760 --> 02:04:23.239
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

1622
02:04:23.359 --> 02:04:32.600
you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet?

1623
02:04:35.720 --> 02:04:58.600
How relaxed you feel in your hands? I have noticed

1624
02:05:01.199 --> 02:05:17.479
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1625
02:05:17.680 --> 02:05:35.000
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

1626
02:05:35.319 --> 02:05:55.600
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

1627
02:05:55.800 --> 02:06:22.199
breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being

1628
02:06:22.239 --> 02:06:51.880
able to notice the ease in which you breathe so naturally.

1629
02:07:06.520 --> 02:07:45.960
You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine

1630
02:07:49.199 --> 02:08:00.079
my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed m

1631
02:08:05.239 --> 02:08:18.119
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1632
02:08:18.359 --> 02:08:58.640
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1633
02:09:00.359 --> 02:09:19.359
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1634
02:09:30.640 --> 02:10:03.479
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1635
02:10:28.520 --> 02:10:54.039
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1636
02:11:00.159 --> 02:11:39.199
very deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1637
02:11:39.239 --> 02:12:49.840
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1638
02:12:51.920 --> 02:13:38.600
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention, you can

1639
02:13:38.880 --> 02:13:55.000
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

1640
02:13:55.720 --> 02:14:09.680
out of your body to appear out of every part

1641
02:14:15.520 --> 02:14:39.720
of your body and being released from your brain, n

1642
02:14:40.079 --> 02:15:31.560
your mind slowly but surely, the muscles, thing, legs relax

1643
02:15:36.560 --> 02:16:26.760
rs R so very deeply, rights so deeply, and the feelings,

1644
02:16:29.359 --> 02:16:54.280
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1645
02:16:54.639 --> 02:16:57.879
part of your body.

1646
02:16:59.120 --> 02:17:17.559
Further and deeper and deeper.

1647
02:17:32.040 --> 02:18:02.479
Noticin the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings

1648
02:18:02.680 --> 02:18:51.520
in your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I

1649
02:18:51.719 --> 02:19:40.799
also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a sense of peace spreads

1650
02:19:41.200 --> 02:20:20.799
through your fairy core. Even when you focus on your mind.

1651
02:20:32.680 --> 02:21:43.159
Your mind becomes bef and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so

1652
02:21:43.799 --> 02:22:20.959
very slow, your stomach. Peace fall in your stomach.

1653
02:22:43.120 --> 02:22:43.799
You're back.

1654
02:22:49.200 --> 02:23:17.639
Notice it is how relaxed you now feel in the

1655
02:23:17.760 --> 02:23:19.159
hole of your back.

1656
02:23:44.319 --> 02:23:45.479
Your spy.

1657
02:23:49.239 --> 02:23:53.959
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1658
02:23:54.000 --> 02:24:18.239
your back, sending and receiving and millions of messages every day, deepcomfort,

1659
02:24:21.200 --> 02:25:39.399
increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, spreading these signals down a spine.

1660
02:25:38.959 --> 02:25:44.719
Or cord into air.

1661
02:25:44.840 --> 02:26:03.520
Every part of your body, your shins and your calf

1662
02:26:03.719 --> 02:27:00.000
muscles were outbows feelings of peace and tranquility, spreading through

1663
02:27:00.040 --> 02:27:12.399
through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1664
02:27:16.799 --> 02:27:22.840
your fingers, all the way.

1665
02:27:22.799 --> 02:27:23.840
Till your lower back.

1666
02:27:25.799 --> 02:27:26.239
Mhm.

1667
02:27:35.639 --> 02:27:36.639
The tinker.

1668
02:27:38.440 --> 02:28:49.520
Redia tinker peace, drifting mind just wandering away, happy to

1669
02:28:49.799 --> 02:29:30.559
let go, Let go, leally, let go, so tranquil.

1670
02:29:54.079 --> 02:29:56.959
Your whole body.

1671
02:29:59.319 --> 02:31:40.559
Enjoy mass sense, lett him go, he eph more pece,

1672
02:32:15.079 --> 02:32:26.399
enjoying the space, this space.

1673
02:32:28.879 --> 02:32:56.120
Of peace and safety.

1674
02:32:56.959 --> 02:34:36.719
So fary, hey, y, letting go.

1675
02:34:54.760 --> 02:35:03.120
Maybe we can just focus the different parts of your body,

1676
02:35:07.239 --> 02:36:16.719
just to notice your forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose,

1677
02:36:36.399 --> 02:38:09.639
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, ye, peace

1678
02:38:09.959 --> 02:39:56.639
for energy, peace to breathe so much easier. Yes, you

1679
02:39:56.840 --> 02:41:01.639
may have. I may not have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful, moveingly,

1680
02:41:01.799 --> 02:41:22.040
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1681
02:41:26.200 --> 02:43:29.520
blissful pace, terrefting out to pace. Come so calm, let

1682
02:43:29.719 --> 02:44:32.000
him go peace with mind rexed fourty c relax.

1683
02:44:39.719 --> 02:44:41.440
Cy rexed.

1684
02:45:05.680 --> 02:45:39.079
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so.

1685
02:45:46.719 --> 02:46:35.760
Peace m hm. Uh like's fair.

1686
02:46:46.600 --> 02:46:52.879
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1687
02:46:53.239 --> 02:47:04.479
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1688
02:47:05.399 --> 02:47:13.000
upon that sense of physical comfort. That is growing within

1689
02:47:13.079 --> 02:47:22.280
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1690
02:47:27.159 --> 02:47:34.479
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1691
02:47:34.760 --> 02:47:47.319
my speech not being particularly fast and things just generally

1692
02:47:48.959 --> 02:47:59.920
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1693
02:48:00.079 --> 02:48:06.959
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1694
02:48:09.079 --> 02:48:16.639
take a break from your life as it is, and

1695
02:48:16.719 --> 02:48:24.479
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1696
02:48:24.559 --> 02:48:30.159
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

1697
02:48:31.840 --> 02:48:40.000
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1698
02:48:42.360 --> 02:48:47.440
releases the tension and it stresses that you had in

1699
02:48:47.479 --> 02:48:57.319
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1700
02:48:57.360 --> 02:49:09.399
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1701
02:49:09.399 --> 02:49:17.680
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy

1702
02:49:20.760 --> 02:49:25.399
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1703
02:49:27.000 --> 02:49:45.479
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1704
02:49:45.479 --> 02:50:02.000
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that HM spreads

1705
02:50:02.360 --> 02:50:13.200
through your body like a wave of comfort, and all

1706
02:50:13.239 --> 02:50:25.319
this comes and just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe

1707
02:50:25.440 --> 02:50:28.200
half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1708
02:50:29.520 --> 02:50:41.479
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1709
02:50:43.680 --> 02:50:56.200
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and

1710
02:50:56.319 --> 02:51:10.680
relaxation can't, which allows more room for feelings of pleasure

1711
02:51:13.319 --> 02:51:25.000
and happiness to move around your body and into your mind,

1712
02:51:26.520 --> 02:51:32.399
almost as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1713
02:51:36.639 --> 02:51:47.799
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

1714
02:51:51.360 --> 02:51:58.639
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1715
02:51:58.799 --> 02:52:04.559
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1716
02:52:07.959 --> 02:52:17.479
to feel more comfort and to experience.

1717
02:52:19.040 --> 02:52:20.319
More of this.

1718
02:52:21.959 --> 02:52:37.479
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1719
02:52:38.680 --> 02:52:44.680
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1720
02:52:44.680 --> 02:53:01.719
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1721
02:53:01.719 --> 02:53:11.440
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1722
02:53:15.440 --> 02:53:21.559
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1723
02:53:23.920 --> 02:53:30.639
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1724
02:53:30.760 --> 02:53:38.440
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1725
02:53:38.479 --> 02:53:51.879
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1726
02:53:52.239 --> 02:54:05.440
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm gonna

1727
02:54:05.479 --> 02:54:12.600
start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of

1728
02:54:12.879 --> 02:54:22.959
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like

1729
02:54:23.200 --> 02:54:28.360
mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to feel

1730
02:54:28.399 --> 02:54:38.479
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1731
02:54:38.559 --> 02:54:45.440
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1732
02:54:47.159 --> 02:54:53.200
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1733
02:54:53.719 --> 02:55:04.280
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1734
02:55:04.479 --> 02:55:12.840
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1735
02:55:14.559 --> 02:55:23.280
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1736
02:55:24.239 --> 02:55:32.559
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1737
02:55:35.000 --> 02:55:44.719
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1738
02:55:44.719 --> 02:55:51.200
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1739
02:55:51.440 --> 02:56:05.920
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1740
02:56:06.319 --> 02:56:13.000
your tongue, your teeth, and your comes, the whole of

1741
02:56:13.120 --> 02:56:28.159
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now

1742
02:56:28.719 --> 02:56:35.600
on your jaw, not just the part of your jaw

1743
02:56:35.760 --> 02:56:40.159
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1744
02:56:40.239 --> 02:56:46.600
up the size of your face to your ears, that

1745
02:56:46.879 --> 02:56:48.399
hole of your.

1746
02:56:48.319 --> 02:56:58.319
Jaw feeding more relaxed.

1747
02:57:01.719 --> 02:57:19.159
And calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of your

1748
02:57:19.239 --> 02:57:31.760
neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The

1749
02:57:32.079 --> 02:57:37.760
side of your neck, the right and left side of

1750
02:57:37.799 --> 02:57:56.520
your neck relax and loose and calm. And now the

1751
02:57:56.559 --> 02:58:03.120
back of your neck. Focus in on the back of

1752
02:58:03.159 --> 02:58:13.360
your neck, letting go of any tension that may have

1753
02:58:13.479 --> 02:58:26.079
been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort

1754
02:58:26.840 --> 02:58:34.120
and release that you can experience in the back of

1755
02:58:34.159 --> 02:58:47.040
your neck, moving down your back and moving either side

1756
02:58:47.120 --> 02:58:50.719
of your spine right from the top of.

1757
02:58:50.680 --> 02:58:51.639
Your back.

1758
02:58:53.159 --> 02:58:56.840
All the way down to the bottom of your back

1759
02:59:02.799 --> 02:59:14.159
down to your lower back, and as you move up

1760
02:59:14.200 --> 02:59:23.040
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1761
02:59:23.120 --> 02:59:36.719
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1762
02:59:36.840 --> 02:59:46.319
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1763
02:59:47.840 --> 02:59:57.520
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

1764
02:59:57.559 --> 03:00:01.120
top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1765
03:00:04.559 --> 03:00:11.760
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1766
03:00:11.920 --> 03:00:17.000
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1767
03:00:17.079 --> 03:00:27.040
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1768
03:00:27.040 --> 03:00:34.399
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1769
03:00:34.440 --> 03:00:47.920
each other, separating and almost melting, and in your lower

1770
03:00:47.959 --> 03:00:59.520
back it seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1771
03:01:04.760 --> 03:01:10.920
The spreads into your hips sit down your lower back,

1772
03:01:11.200 --> 03:01:19.200
into your hips, into the area where your cosicks are,

1773
03:01:22.760 --> 03:01:32.079
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread from.

1774
03:01:31.959 --> 03:01:33.040
Your lower back.

1775
03:01:35.200 --> 03:01:47.479
Into your hip area start to melt, start to really

1776
03:01:48.639 --> 03:01:59.360
let go. I don't even know where about. To focus

1777
03:01:59.440 --> 03:02:05.639
on your shape, shoulders, your back, and your spine will

1778
03:02:05.680 --> 03:02:26.920
continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly. And

1779
03:02:27.000 --> 03:02:32.200
as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that

1780
03:02:32.200 --> 03:03:07.360
they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding calm and fear.

1781
03:03:07.840 --> 03:03:16.200
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1782
03:03:22.719 --> 03:03:52.120
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1783
03:03:52.319 --> 03:04:05.200
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1784
03:04:05.239 --> 03:04:15.680
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1785
03:04:16.079 --> 03:04:33.040
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1786
03:04:33.159 --> 03:04:41.479
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1787
03:04:41.600 --> 03:04:47.239
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1788
03:04:51.399 --> 03:04:58.079
He then you feel so.

1789
03:05:00.120 --> 03:05:14.040
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep

1790
03:05:14.840 --> 03:05:35.719
healing message into your arms and you may feel almost

1791
03:05:35.799 --> 03:05:40.639
as if your arms are not even there because they're

1792
03:05:41.120 --> 03:06:32.040
so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1793
03:06:16.879 --> 03:06:17.040
So.

1794
03:06:23.639 --> 03:06:38.799
Pose not feeling spreading all the way down your arms

1795
03:06:41.479 --> 03:06:51.239
to your elbows, including your elbows.

1796
03:06:59.440 --> 03:06:59.920
Mm hmm.

1797
03:07:00.200 --> 03:07:03.520
Circumforts spreads.

1798
03:07:07.079 --> 03:07:07.840
Or away.

1799
03:07:10.200 --> 03:07:29.079
Into rests of forearments and your rests so heavy, yet

1800
03:07:29.319 --> 03:07:32.239
at the same time.

1801
03:07:39.479 --> 03:07:40.360
So light.

1802
03:07:43.319 --> 03:08:10.239
And gentle. Frek sick.

1803
03:08:12.600 --> 03:08:13.959
Now on.

1804
03:08:16.319 --> 03:09:10.000
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful, in your hands, there's

1805
03:09:10.000 --> 03:09:33.399
a sense of real peace. It just seems to feel

1806
03:09:35.639 --> 03:10:12.079
so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Else, the thing

1807
03:10:12.319 --> 03:11:49.479
is you things sadly you think you tips moving your

1808
03:11:49.520 --> 03:12:18.879
attention to the front, to your body, so comfortable, move

1809
03:12:19.040 --> 03:13:46.639
in your focus, your legs, why muscles in your thighs,

1810
03:14:03.200 --> 03:14:40.639
your knees so relaxed, a carved mussels and just chance

1811
03:14:44.319 --> 03:15:38.520
compasily four.

1812
03:16:44.719 --> 03:16:46.120
And the feathing.

1813
03:16:47.280 --> 03:17:50.399
Your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, say peaceful, sircom so peaceful, Sycolm,

1814
03:17:54.719 --> 03:18:08.639
so peace for RelA, sin.

1815
03:18:13.680 --> 03:18:14.959
Peace for.

1816
03:18:18.840 --> 03:18:34.280
So calm, loving that deep relaxation, to spread your chest,

1817
03:18:34.520 --> 03:18:53.799
in your stomach, so RelA.

1818
03:18:48.559 --> 03:18:54.360
Letting go of everything.

1819
03:19:05.600 --> 03:19:11.639
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1820
03:19:11.680 --> 03:19:19.840
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1821
03:19:20.600 --> 03:19:21.799
just walking down.

1822
03:19:21.719 --> 03:19:23.879
Some steps.

1823
03:19:24.520 --> 03:19:28.879
And each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1824
03:19:30.120 --> 03:19:43.200
a level of comfort, each step represents a deepening of

1825
03:19:43.239 --> 03:19:54.479
that comfort, and the fervies you walk down those steps

1826
03:19:54.120 --> 03:20:06.399
that are deeper and more relaxed, you feel so starting

1827
03:20:06.520 --> 03:24:39.000
with number twenty, twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen secsting eight fourt

1828
03:25:38.760 --> 03:27:46.159
four see.

1829
03:26:45.840 --> 03:28:56.719
Too well five five.

1830
03:29:44.600 --> 03:40:45.399
Four nine eight seven six five four four one. No,

1831
03:40:49.840 --> 03:41:02.200
As you focus on your eyes, we're going to count

1832
03:41:02.280 --> 03:41:14.120
down from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1833
03:41:17.799 --> 03:41:26.360
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1834
03:41:27.840 --> 03:41:44.920
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1835
03:41:44.959 --> 03:41:53.399
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1836
03:41:53.440 --> 03:42:08.479
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1837
03:42:08.840 --> 03:42:21.920
each number counting down, and you may find the all

1838
03:42:21.959 --> 03:42:28.120
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1839
03:42:31.079 --> 03:42:37.719
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1840
03:42:37.799 --> 03:42:52.479
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1841
03:42:52.559 --> 03:43:02.559
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now.

1842
03:43:10.959 --> 03:45:23.120
Two nine eight h seven s.

1843
03:47:10.000 --> 03:52:09.079
Five four three two one.

1844
03:52:15.440 --> 03:52:32.159
So counted down from ten to one ten nine eight

1845
03:52:34.920 --> 03:52:59.760
seven six five four three two one. And maybe that

1846
03:52:59.879 --> 03:53:04.079
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

1847
03:53:04.079 --> 03:53:09.639
it's a bit too fast for you to notice the

1848
03:53:09.680 --> 03:53:16.559
calming of your body, maybe even a little bit of

1849
03:53:16.639 --> 03:53:20.600
pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1850
03:53:20.680 --> 03:53:22.120
Would you expect me to do?

1851
03:53:22.399 --> 03:53:22.719
Man?

1852
03:53:23.520 --> 03:53:28.239
Expect me to stick gold floppy just because you're counting down.

1853
03:53:33.680 --> 03:53:36.959
We could try it again, but this time I go

1854
03:53:37.120 --> 03:53:44.520
this lower. This time, as you focus on the whole

1855
03:53:44.600 --> 03:53:50.879
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1856
03:53:51.079 --> 03:54:01.120
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1857
03:54:05.840 --> 03:55:20.959
with every number that I count down ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, four, three,

1858
03:55:21.280 --> 03:55:59.000
two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1859
03:55:59.399 --> 03:56:13.760
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1860
03:56:13.840 --> 03:56:21.079
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1861
03:56:22.319 --> 03:56:40.799
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1862
03:56:45.479 --> 03:56:50.719
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1863
03:56:50.879 --> 03:56:57.520
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1864
03:56:58.200 --> 03:57:01.239
that opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1865
03:57:01.239 --> 03:57:12.280
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1866
03:57:12.280 --> 03:57:19.680
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1867
03:57:19.799 --> 03:57:32.239
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1868
03:57:32.360 --> 03:57:46.440
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1869
03:57:46.559 --> 03:57:49.040
or emotionally, moves them.

1870
03:57:50.559 --> 03:57:53.959
Away.

1871
03:57:57.719 --> 03:58:10.479
Allows you to just slow down, someone to count again

1872
03:58:10.559 --> 03:58:16.840
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

1873
03:58:18.920 --> 03:58:23.360
the gap, And as it widens, it's almost like the

1874
03:58:25.079 --> 03:58:28.680
stress and attention falls into.

1875
03:58:28.360 --> 03:58:29.040
The gap.

1876
03:58:42.200 --> 03:59:38.639
And gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1877
03:59:49.399 --> 03:59:50.120
Four.

1878
04:00:07.959 --> 04:00:57.799
Three two.

1879
04:00:43.239 --> 04:00:59.399
One. And how did your body feel.

1880
04:01:01.360 --> 04:01:13.040
Now?

1881
04:01:14.239 --> 04:01:29.559
Can you notice that you're feeling calmer, the feeling more

1882
04:01:29.959 --> 04:01:57.440
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1883
04:02:13.360 --> 04:02:33.559
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1884
04:02:33.600 --> 04:02:38.479
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1885
04:02:41.959 --> 04:02:44.600
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1886
04:02:44.719 --> 04:02:57.159
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1887
04:02:57.239 --> 04:03:03.680
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1888
04:03:03.799 --> 04:03:10.879
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1889
04:03:10.879 --> 04:03:15.799
and your inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh

1890
04:03:15.920 --> 04:03:24.719
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1891
04:03:24.920 --> 04:03:38.959
your knee joint. Now, this is a big area. It's

1892
04:03:38.959 --> 04:03:44.520
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1893
04:03:45.440 --> 04:03:58.719
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1894
04:03:58.719 --> 04:04:07.079
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1895
04:04:12.959 --> 04:04:23.760
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1896
04:04:23.879 --> 04:04:44.559
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1897
04:04:44.600 --> 04:04:55.040
through our lives. And it may seem sound really.

1898
04:04:54.799 --> 04:05:00.000
Weird, but I think that all of our body.

1899
04:04:59.719 --> 04:05:10.399
Parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of

1900
04:05:10.479 --> 04:05:30.079
love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for

1901
04:05:30.200 --> 04:05:39.200
what our thighs do for us. And I know this

1902
04:05:39.319 --> 04:05:45.239
may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am

1903
04:05:45.319 --> 04:05:48.319
I surely how I should be out in the garden

1904
04:05:48.479 --> 04:05:56.719
hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set

1905
04:05:56.719 --> 04:05:59.879
a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing

1906
04:05:59.879 --> 04:06:02.719
it indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1907
04:06:03.799 --> 04:06:05.760
Now I can't see the television.

1908
04:06:05.280 --> 04:06:07.399
From the tree.

1909
04:06:12.479 --> 04:06:16.760
If you move down to your knees getting such an

1910
04:06:16.799 --> 04:06:26.520
important part, and I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1911
04:06:26.559 --> 04:06:33.920
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1912
04:06:34.040 --> 04:06:39.280
knees do for me until I have a problem with

1913
04:06:39.360 --> 04:06:44.319
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash

1914
04:06:44.440 --> 04:06:50.520
it or it's aching for some reason. It's then that

1915
04:06:50.600 --> 04:06:56.200
I realize how much it does. You know, the benefit

1916
04:06:56.239 --> 04:07:03.799
of being able to use my legs without any kind

1917
04:07:03.799 --> 04:07:11.479
of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not

1918
04:07:11.600 --> 04:07:23.319
appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But

1919
04:07:23.399 --> 04:07:28.079
as you focus on your knees, regardless of how your

1920
04:07:28.120 --> 04:07:37.079
knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude and

1921
04:07:37.280 --> 04:07:40.000
love to your needs for all that they do for you.

1922
04:07:50.479 --> 04:07:53.719
When you can still have that attention on your thighs

1923
04:07:54.200 --> 04:08:00.799
and maybe notice how your thighs feel, maybe is that

1924
04:08:00.920 --> 04:08:19.680
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1925
04:08:19.760 --> 04:08:24.280
the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1926
04:08:24.760 --> 04:08:32.680
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of

1927
04:08:32.719 --> 04:08:45.360
course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like

1928
04:08:45.520 --> 04:08:52.399
the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how much

1929
04:08:52.559 --> 04:09:02.440
we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind of

1930
04:09:02.479 --> 04:09:07.920
strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1931
04:09:08.200 --> 04:09:11.280
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1932
04:09:11.319 --> 04:09:16.200
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't can't see any

1933
04:09:16.200 --> 04:09:19.559
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up.

1934
04:09:21.120 --> 04:09:22.680
But our ankles.

1935
04:09:23.840 --> 04:09:33.840
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1936
04:09:33.920 --> 04:09:38.479
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1937
04:09:38.520 --> 04:09:45.799
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1938
04:09:46.799 --> 04:09:56.159
on your ankles then leading to your feet. That thin

1939
04:09:56.440 --> 04:10:04.959
area thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1940
04:10:07.040 --> 04:10:16.799
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1941
04:10:17.239 --> 04:10:26.639
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1942
04:10:32.959 --> 04:10:40.920
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1943
04:10:41.120 --> 04:10:44.440
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't seem

1944
04:10:44.479 --> 04:10:49.639
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1945
04:10:50.360 --> 04:10:52.360
then my calf muscles get some work.

1946
04:10:53.719 --> 04:10:55.040
But of course that's not true.

1947
04:10:55.159 --> 04:10:59.319
The calf muscles are being used whenever we use our

1948
04:10:59.399 --> 04:11:06.680
legs and your shins.

1949
04:11:09.479 --> 04:11:10.920
There to protect.

1950
04:11:12.360 --> 04:11:21.079
Your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1951
04:11:21.079 --> 04:11:33.399
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1952
04:11:36.760 --> 04:11:43.399
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1953
04:11:43.440 --> 04:11:45.639
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1954
04:11:47.600 --> 04:11:48.920
I realize.

1955
04:11:50.360 --> 04:11:54.200
That now that I've mentioned your feet, you probably focus

1956
04:11:54.520 --> 04:11:58.200
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your feet.

1957
04:11:57.959 --> 04:11:58.479
A little bit.

1958
04:12:02.479 --> 04:12:06.959
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1959
04:12:07.000 --> 04:12:09.719
you have your thighs.

1960
04:12:09.079 --> 04:12:11.440
In your awareness. Even though we.

1961
04:12:11.479 --> 04:12:15.479
Haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1962
04:12:17.200 --> 04:12:28.079
have been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1963
04:12:28.319 --> 04:12:43.680
of comfort in your thighs, and this that movement of

1964
04:12:44.000 --> 04:12:53.440
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1965
04:12:53.479 --> 04:12:58.280
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1966
04:12:58.440 --> 04:13:11.840
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1967
04:13:11.879 --> 04:13:17.239
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1968
04:13:17.959 --> 04:13:29.600
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1969
04:13:36.120 --> 04:13:43.639
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1970
04:13:43.680 --> 04:13:48.559
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

1971
04:13:48.600 --> 04:13:57.360
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1972
04:13:57.440 --> 04:14:01.639
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1973
04:14:01.639 --> 04:14:07.879
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1974
04:14:08.120 --> 04:14:11.040
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1975
04:14:11.079 --> 04:14:15.920
the muscles and to be able to just massage inside

1976
04:14:15.959 --> 04:14:23.000
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1977
04:14:23.040 --> 04:14:32.440
in or the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1978
04:14:36.200 --> 04:14:41.559
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1979
04:14:42.920 --> 04:14:49.760
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1980
04:14:49.799 --> 04:14:55.680
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1981
04:15:01.000 --> 04:15:04.680
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1982
04:15:04.799 --> 04:15:10.799
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1983
04:15:11.000 --> 04:15:17.000
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1984
04:15:18.280 --> 04:15:21.680
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1985
04:15:21.840 --> 04:15:29.360
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease.

1986
04:15:31.079 --> 04:15:35.680
In your legs. It's almost like a part that.

1987
04:15:37.360 --> 04:15:48.639
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1988
04:15:48.680 --> 04:15:59.120
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1989
04:16:00.079 --> 04:16:09.920
your fingers into that crease in your legs. Fold in

1990
04:16:10.000 --> 04:16:13.959
between your legs, you can just message with your fingertips.

1991
04:16:15.280 --> 04:16:21.959
Let your fingertips going inside, message in the muscle tissue.

1992
04:16:26.559 --> 04:16:30.959
You can of course field the bones of your knees

1993
04:16:32.319 --> 04:16:42.479
heading through your fingertips, and then as you go.

1994
04:16:42.479 --> 04:16:48.319
Down to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd

1995
04:16:48.360 --> 04:16:49.120
like to be able to.

1996
04:16:49.799 --> 04:16:57.200
Really put my fingertips deep inside my half muscles, message

1997
04:16:57.239 --> 04:16:58.600
in every.

1998
04:16:59.719 --> 04:17:03.319
Sea tissue of that muscle.

1999
04:17:04.520 --> 04:17:14.440
Healing every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

2000
04:17:17.600 --> 04:17:24.959
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

2001
04:17:25.399 --> 04:17:29.600
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

2002
04:17:29.719 --> 04:17:36.959
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

2003
04:17:37.040 --> 04:17:40.639
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

2004
04:17:40.680 --> 04:17:46.239
of our body, the more precious of anytual.

2005
04:17:48.239 --> 04:17:49.000
On the planet.

2006
04:17:57.520 --> 04:18:10.000
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

2007
04:18:10.120 --> 04:18:16.799
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

2008
04:18:19.879 --> 04:18:24.159
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

2009
04:18:25.040 --> 04:18:35.040
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

2010
04:18:35.159 --> 04:18:39.200
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

2011
04:18:41.280 --> 04:18:47.719
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

2012
04:18:47.760 --> 04:18:56.879
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show.

2013
04:18:58.159 --> 04:18:59.520
How much you care.

2014
04:19:02.559 --> 04:19:07.719
About your legs, how much you care for what your

2015
04:19:07.799 --> 04:19:17.520
legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

2016
04:19:21.760 --> 04:19:29.600
the strength of your ankles, considering how thin they are

2017
04:19:29.639 --> 04:19:33.559
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs,

2018
04:19:37.159 --> 04:19:48.920
yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your

2019
04:19:48.959 --> 04:19:58.719
ankles are truly a gift because of what they do

2020
04:19:58.760 --> 04:20:10.000
for you, supporting all that weight, regardless.

2021
04:20:09.360 --> 04:20:13.079
Of how what weight you are, Even if.

2022
04:20:13.000 --> 04:20:17.879
You only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

2023
04:20:18.120 --> 04:20:24.840
for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than

2024
04:20:24.840 --> 04:20:34.840
eat stone double down, Yet my ankles support my body

2025
04:20:35.559 --> 04:20:42.159
all the time. Whether they do give off a sigh

2026
04:20:42.200 --> 04:20:47.399
of relief when I sit down, as you've got my

2027
04:20:47.399 --> 04:20:57.159
whole legs, do my feet, feet, also go my toes clap.

2028
04:20:58.360 --> 04:21:27.079
I'm so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I know,

2029
04:21:27.479 --> 04:21:33.920
but talking about talking about your legs is probably possibly

2030
04:21:34.159 --> 04:21:38.840
among the most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say.

2031
04:21:39.760 --> 04:21:47.239
Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said is true.

2032
04:21:49.639 --> 04:22:04.559
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

2033
04:22:10.360 --> 04:22:12.200
they deserve to relax.

2034
04:22:13.479 --> 04:22:13.879
Deeply.

2035
04:22:21.159 --> 04:22:24.559
They deserve to take some time out of the day

2036
04:22:26.719 --> 04:22:28.920
to just let go completely.

2037
04:22:46.840 --> 04:22:47.799
The legs.

2038
04:22:52.920 --> 04:22:55.479
Really can relax.

2039
04:23:03.079 --> 04:23:07.239
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

2040
04:23:07.440 --> 04:23:13.440
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

2041
04:23:13.479 --> 04:23:20.719
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

2042
04:23:24.440 --> 04:23:25.680
journey of comfort.

2043
04:23:33.799 --> 04:23:37.680
I can feel it in my hips. My hips feel

2044
04:23:38.319 --> 04:23:44.239
really loose, and also my lwer back as well.

2045
04:23:46.239 --> 04:23:47.239
My lower back.

2046
04:23:47.239 --> 04:23:52.760
Really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

2047
04:23:52.799 --> 04:23:56.319
in a chair and there's no stretching.

2048
04:23:58.360 --> 04:23:59.920
As far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

2049
04:23:59.920 --> 04:24:03.680
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

2050
04:24:03.879 --> 04:24:09.840
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

2051
04:24:10.680 --> 04:24:31.959
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

2052
04:24:32.000 --> 04:24:41.360
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

2053
04:24:41.719 --> 04:24:42.760
to feel.

2054
04:24:44.040 --> 04:24:45.280
Wonderfully relaxed.

2055
04:24:49.040 --> 04:25:08.360
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

2056
04:25:12.639 --> 04:25:32.200
Four three two what relax?

2057
04:25:40.040 --> 04:25:43.879
So I'm just going to count down from five down

2058
04:25:43.920 --> 04:25:48.360
to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

2059
04:25:48.479 --> 04:25:56.440
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

2060
04:25:57.319 --> 04:26:05.360
how you feel in this moment as you hear the

2061
04:26:05.440 --> 04:26:10.600
numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers.

2062
04:26:12.159 --> 04:26:14.680
Counting down represent you.

2063
04:26:16.399 --> 04:26:26.399
Feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also relaxing

2064
04:26:26.479 --> 04:26:33.000
your mind. I'll just notice how you feel. There's nothing

2065
04:26:33.719 --> 04:26:39.000
to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to think about,

2066
04:26:42.079 --> 04:26:45.559
starting with number.

2067
04:26:45.239 --> 04:27:29.879
Five, four three two one.

2068
04:27:30.719 --> 04:27:42.600
Now, as you notice the gradual letting go that the

2069
04:27:42.760 --> 04:27:50.399
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

2070
04:27:50.479 --> 04:27:59.000
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

2071
04:27:59.040 --> 04:28:06.760
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

2072
04:28:08.239 --> 04:28:13.440
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

2073
04:28:13.520 --> 04:28:19.479
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

2074
04:28:21.040 --> 04:28:24.680
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

2075
04:28:24.799 --> 04:28:35.200
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there is

2076
04:28:35.280 --> 04:28:43.959
that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even

2077
04:28:44.239 --> 04:28:51.040
even if there's background sounds either your side online it's

2078
04:28:51.159 --> 04:28:57.079
still going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't

2079
04:28:57.079 --> 04:29:02.040
got the television on, there's no music in the background

2080
04:29:02.159 --> 04:29:04.840
unless you're listening to the recording. With music, of course,

2081
04:29:09.680 --> 04:29:11.840
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

2082
04:29:11.959 --> 04:29:15.120
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

2083
04:29:16.360 --> 04:29:19.680
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

2084
04:29:19.760 --> 04:29:31.079
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

2085
04:29:31.120 --> 04:29:48.319
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

2086
04:29:48.360 --> 04:29:57.159
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

2087
04:29:57.200 --> 04:30:11.680
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

2088
04:30:11.680 --> 04:30:22.840
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

2089
04:30:22.879 --> 04:30:29.639
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

2090
04:30:29.760 --> 04:30:34.360
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

2091
04:30:36.959 --> 04:30:46.360
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

2092
04:30:46.760 --> 04:30:58.079
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

2093
04:31:00.319 --> 04:31:11.239
to take advantage of this space, this time, to just

2094
04:31:15.360 --> 04:31:26.200
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

2095
04:31:26.639 --> 04:31:38.760
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

2096
04:31:39.000 --> 04:31:51.120
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

2097
04:31:51.360 --> 04:31:57.600
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

2098
04:31:57.680 --> 04:32:13.879
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

2099
04:32:13.959 --> 04:32:18.719
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

2100
04:32:18.799 --> 04:32:27.000
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

2101
04:32:27.360 --> 04:32:33.600
you become, the easier.

2102
04:32:35.799 --> 04:32:36.760
You find.

2103
04:32:37.959 --> 04:32:54.079
Yourself drifting. You can also, if you choose, stay focused

2104
04:32:55.120 --> 04:33:19.119
on my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing

2105
04:33:23.400 --> 04:33:51.479
each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation.

2106
04:33:56.000 --> 04:33:57.000
Of letting go.

2107
04:34:03.360 --> 04:34:13.759
Completely. This time, I'm going to count from six down

2108
04:34:13.799 --> 04:34:26.200
to one, and you can notice your mind calming down

2109
04:34:26.599 --> 04:34:38.400
more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

2110
04:34:39.439 --> 04:34:42.919
feeling calm.

2111
04:34:42.799 --> 04:34:49.159
And slow and be peaceful.

2112
04:34:54.479 --> 04:35:21.639
Sex five.

2113
04:35:41.360 --> 04:37:38.560
Four three two.

2114
04:37:20.720 --> 04:37:51.720
What being aware? How your mind to slow right down,

2115
04:37:54.919 --> 04:38:19.159
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2116
04:38:18.639 --> 04:38:31.159
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2117
04:38:31.159 --> 04:38:40.720
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2118
04:38:40.799 --> 04:38:41.439
your attention.

2119
04:38:48.400 --> 04:38:49.720
So what you can do.

2120
04:38:49.639 --> 04:39:03.200
Is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

2121
04:39:07.159 --> 04:39:07.759
With love.

2122
04:39:09.439 --> 04:39:14.080
I do petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them,

2123
04:39:15.119 --> 04:39:22.360
petals filled with love towards those thoughts. To let those

2124
04:39:22.520 --> 04:39:27.599
thoughts know that it's a lot of abandon in them.

2125
04:39:28.599 --> 04:39:36.400
You just need them to require them to just calm down,

2126
04:39:38.680 --> 04:39:56.119
slow down, quiets down, and now, so as you focus

2127
04:39:56.200 --> 04:40:02.360
on those remaining thoughts, count down this time from seven

2128
04:40:03.240 --> 04:40:11.919
down to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those

2129
04:40:12.159 --> 04:40:31.599
flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which

2130
04:40:31.639 --> 04:40:37.599
will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

2131
04:40:41.759 --> 04:40:56.240
Of every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

2132
04:41:01.799 --> 04:43:16.119
starting with number seven, six, five, four, Hey, what.

2133
04:43:33.119 --> 04:43:33.439
Met you?

2134
04:43:33.639 --> 04:43:35.000
Now?

2135
04:43:38.119 --> 04:43:46.520
Notice how relaxed you're feeling.

2136
04:43:49.759 --> 04:44:01.599
In your body? I can't ser focus.

2137
04:44:04.319 --> 04:44:14.000
On your hands. Use The more relaxed your hands are,

2138
04:44:16.319 --> 04:44:20.240
the more relaxed your body and mind are.

2139
04:44:35.159 --> 04:44:35.759
And there's.

2140
04:44:37.279 --> 04:44:47.439
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

2141
04:44:47.959 --> 04:44:52.720
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

2142
04:44:53.759 --> 04:45:03.759
dance in the fingers or anything like that. Yah, it's

2143
04:45:04.000 --> 04:45:18.639
just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

2144
04:45:33.200 --> 04:45:34.720
Because the more.

2145
04:45:36.599 --> 04:45:47.000
Relax your hands feel, the calmly your mind feels, and

2146
04:45:47.319 --> 04:45:59.360
the more comforts you feel throughout your body.

2147
04:46:01.000 --> 04:46:04.919
And gee may.

2148
04:46:07.119 --> 04:46:49.639
Have already noticed you mind is starting to dress. Like

2149
04:46:49.799 --> 04:47:04.560
you said, just on your hands and fingers, allowing them

2150
04:47:04.959 --> 04:47:18.439
to experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your

2151
04:47:18.560 --> 04:47:26.959
hands and fingers, more.

2152
04:47:29.400 --> 04:47:53.240
And more relaxed with each number from eight down to one.

2153
04:47:53.919 --> 04:47:55.279
You can almost.

2154
04:47:56.560 --> 04:48:06.159
Feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands

2155
04:48:07.240 --> 04:48:25.520
and fingers becoming year and more relaxing with each number.

2156
04:48:27.919 --> 04:48:28.720
Ye hear.

2157
04:48:32.479 --> 04:48:47.720
Coming down from eight down to one, drifting drifting again

2158
04:48:52.680 --> 04:48:53.720
starting with.

2159
04:48:58.240 --> 04:49:06.279
Number fe.

2160
04:50:17.880 --> 04:52:55.479
Why just be here now?

2161
04:52:59.040 --> 04:53:06.919
Nothing to think out, nothing to do, nothing to say,

2162
04:53:09.240 --> 04:53:20.880
and everything just feels calm. This is your natural state

2163
04:53:20.959 --> 04:53:26.479
of being. This is how you.

2164
04:53:26.319 --> 04:53:34.319
Just normally feel when you take away or other stuff.

2165
04:53:36.400 --> 04:53:45.560
That you adding that stress and where we are thinkin

2166
04:53:48.439 --> 04:53:59.560
anxiety and Dange's genuinely thinking about stuff, and you take

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that our way, which is what we do. What we

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do now we're left with a real sense of peacefulness

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which comes to you very quickly because absobly it's just

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a feeling, a feeling of comfort. Almost is if you've

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got inside yourself and you've found a special place where

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everything is peaceful, place where you can feel relaxed and

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your natural sense of comfort, a place where you can

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be you, where you can accept yourself who you are,

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the place where you're not trying to please anybody. Else Ever,

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the place where you can.

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Actually not just.

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Give up yourself, but in some ways more importantly, you

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can like yourself, appreciate who you are, a sense of gratitude.

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See the air realm. That's also a place where you

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actually field.

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The healing energy soaking.

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Into your body.

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Healing energy soaking into your body, the healing energy spreads

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through your veins, travel into each every single art.

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Of your body.

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When you start to realize to actually a.

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Healing energy, it's not just pointed into your brain.

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It's become part of your brain, and the spinal fluid.

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Now mixed healing energy just allow you to feel so

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much more.

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Relaxed and healthy.

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In this moment.

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But also you start to realize that actually what's happening

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now is that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body.

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Is actually changing your life.

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It's actually changing the way you're going to feel, not

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just now.

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But tomorrow the next day. Your health improves.

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Not just your physical health and your mental health.

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Things the east body you in the past, for some

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reason no longer happy.

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Effect that they used to because something's changed. Deep beginner,

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maybe things mus stay used to force you to feel anger,

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nothing long to have that hell to control you may

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the seem to be able to before.

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M realize.

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The Q.

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Decides what to makes you. He decides to feel the

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last and when you choose to enjoy matsy, it is natural.

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Developments e g. Include the wine day.

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Go day.

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Include a sup th so much that's sweeping, the nectural

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thing