June 9, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Picked Last | LMBYTS #1368 | 8th June 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Picked Last | LMBYTS #1368 | 8th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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This is let Me Buoy You to Sleep Sunday Edition.

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It's the Sunday Is it Sunday? Vinny some I'm sitting

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down on my chair crowded up to my little boy. Here,

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my little Vinnie, Vinnie Minilli. Hey, he hasn't had his

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dinner yet. We was having a proper punch up earlier.

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He was buying my feet while the straps on my

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on my pink crocs, bless him, and he was growling

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and everything. He was loving it. It's very aggressive, very aggressive.

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So I've just had a little bit to eat and

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we're gonna make this recording. Then I'm gonna go to bed. Yeah,

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I'm just gonna chill out. I made a recording earlier.

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It was.

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Yeah, I did it in bed. I was in bed

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in bed. That was weird. I havn't done one of

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them for a long time. I'm quite enjoying not sitting

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at the desk though, because I have to do that

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for the editing, and I'm not loving looking at a

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computer screen anymore, not for long periods of time. I

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think it's nice to just take a break from that.

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So when I do a recording, because you know, I

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never used to well, no, when I first started doing

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this let me boy to sleep recordings, I used to

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be in my black chair in the corner over there.

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I never had any equipment wide equipment. I mean, you know,

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as far as I was recording it, but I never

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had a laptop on my I was never looking at

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a laptop or looking at a phone or anything like that,

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as far as I remember, I'd just be reclined and

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trying not to move too much because that chair really

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squeaked a heck of a lot. So did I say,

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only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Also,

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my website's Jasonnewland dot com. All my recordings are on there.

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All the latest recordings are on the first page. When

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you go there, you can download them, you can stream them.

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You can even change the speed that you listen to them.

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So if I'm if I'm talking too fast, you can

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slow it down. I wonder how many people actually do that.

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You can also fast forward and stuff. What else? My

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Facebook group is Jason Newland's Boring group. Well that I've lost

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two members, I mean lost two people have either left

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the group or come off of Facebook. I'm not sure.

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So if you are listening and you've left Facebook because

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I don't know, maybe I farted too much of something,

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I do apologize. But if you'd like to join, you're welcome.

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There's a link on my website directly to the Facebook group.

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He is a private group, but you're welcome to join,

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and you will be accepted as long as I don't

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know you in real life. Because I don't have real people,

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real people. I don't have family or friends on my

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Facebook group. That has annoyed a few people over the years,

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but it's fine. I'll try and explain it. I don't

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they have family and friends on Facebook full stop. You

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know if someone yeah, I just I did in the past.

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You know, in the early days, it's like because it

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was exciting, Facebook, Facebook me on Facebook. You like email?

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Remember when emails I'll email you or texting or texture, Wow,

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someone's going to text me. Do you remember you get

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your first mobile phone and that very first text of

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the old d d D D D d d D

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whatever it used to be. It's like, wow, I'm popular.

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People really like me. They're sending me text is can't remember?

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Pretty like the nineties, late nineties, early two thousands, probably

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more than the nineties, the amount you'd hear in public

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did do do did? Did? Did? Or whatever, the like

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texts coming through constantly, and that ping noise did did did?

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Did?

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Did? Or sometimes there'll be different sounds. It's like, come on,

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stop it stop. It don't seem to hear it so much.

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But then I'm not around humans, so I guess it

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might still be going on. But yeah, never really enjoyed it.

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I didn't even like hearing it myself on my own phone.

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As soon as the vibration option was available, I remember

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what was in a shop, in the mobile shop, and

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I got a new phone and they said I also

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has this new version has the option to vibrate, and

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I was very excited. Got a bit of a funny

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look from some of the staff, Well, why are you

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so excited about this really small phone that could fit

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in type places and it vibrates? Said no, I don't.

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It's not that. I just I don't want it going

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b b bepp. I'd rather just vibrate wherever I put

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it and let me know in my pocket, I mean,

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and let me know just that way. That's a much

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nicer way, even though I got my eyes closed and

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I can visualize that silver phone I used to have.

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Oh I like that little phone a bit. But two

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thousand and four, I think maybe two thousand and three,

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two thousand and four, Yeah, those was the days. My

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very first Bobi phone was I think I got it

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in nineteen ninety either right near the end of ninety

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seven or early early nineteen ninety eight. It had an

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aerial on it, that's how old it was, and it

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was now then, but I had an aeriel. There was

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no I mean, this screen was kind of basic. I

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don't think. I'm not even sure if texts existed back then.

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It was.

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Phone calls. There was no vibrations on the phone, that is. Yeah,

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I don't think there was text then, and they're definitely

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not email. I mean email existed, but that was you know,

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Vira computer, and I remember when text came in or

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you can send messages SMS. SMS what's that stand for?

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Small Message in service? Wow, because it's on the phone,

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so there's more messages. I'm pretty sure, I am I

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might be making this up. Pretty sure. There was a

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limit to the characters you could send a bit like Twitter.

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Remember when Twitter came out and you could only you

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could write like three words or something like that. But

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let's not talk about Twitter. Ah, I used to be

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on Twitter. I used to have a I used to

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post all my stuff on there, just the same as

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I did on Facebook and anywhere else that was available.

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But I just I don't know. I lost my account

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on Twitter. I've got locked out. I don't know. I

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just forgot what my password was, forgot what my email

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address was. Then I opened another one, and then I

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just I'm still on there, but it's just that hasn't

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been a post done in about five years, six years,

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because I can't get into the account. Do you know

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what my Space? I used to have about fifty thousand,

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over fifty thousand friends on there. I just wanted to

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tell someone I just remembered, because I mean, every now

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and I want to talk about I took out my Space,

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and maybe I'm just trying to keep the memory alive

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of my Space because I think there's maybe a lot

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of people, firstly, don't know what my Space is, don't

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realize that they were there. You know, if it wasn't

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for my Space, Facebook wouldn't exist. My Space was the

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first popular social networking site so popular, and then my

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Space that was very straw Star Trek. He wasn't it

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dead Dead? I turned into a Western soundtrack. Eha. I

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remember when I was a kid, I used to we

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used to dress up as cowboys and Indians. I liked

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being a cowboy because it had the guns, but I

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liked being in because of the head the head gear

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and stuff like that. Now I realized the term Indian

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isn't used anymore, but it was then so that that

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was the term of the game. Cowboys and Indians, just

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those cops and robbers, you know. Or if there was

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if there was an enemy, like if you were playing

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a football match and you were England, the other team

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would be Germany because there'd be the you know, they'd

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be the enemy because Germany. We had like an ongoing

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thing with Germany in football. For I say we I'm

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not into football, but Germany had just been. They're just

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really good footballers. They're just every country is good at football,

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especially compared to me. What I did once score a

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hat trick, and I remember those. I think I broke

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all the records at school for the most home for

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the most home goals in one match. In my case,

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it was three. So if someone had told me that

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you change sides halfway through, then I would have knew.

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You know, I didn't know. I was too busy spinning

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around until I got dizzy, pretending I was wonder woman,

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and then I'd just fall over and then wanted my stop.

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You know, it was no longer like dizzy. I'd get

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up and I'd spin around again, sometimes the opposite direction.

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So I wasn't always not always aware of the changes

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on the football pitch, because it's not like we were

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all we weren't wearing different costumes. Everyone was wearing the

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same stuff, you know, the same colored shirts, the same

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colored shorts. So it can be a bit confusing. You know,

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in like professional or proper football match, you know there's

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blue shirts and yellow shirts. That like makes it a

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little bit easier, and it's the same team. You know,

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you've got your same your team players. But at school,

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it's it's like everyone stressed the same. How am I

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supposed to remember who's on one side? Especially as that

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side changed every time we played, so every every week

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or every twice a week, it would change, So it's

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like I don't know who who's on my side. I

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was always chosen last. And that's the thing I didn't

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really enjoy. Well it's not it's not the top thing,

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but it's one of the things I didn't really enjoy about,

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you know, going to school is that whole. The pe

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teacher or gym teacher, whatever you want to call him,

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he always like chose two of the like the top boys,

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his favorite look, his favorites. Yeah, and then he'd say

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to them, you're the team leader. Now you choose who

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you want in your football team, or in your hockey team,

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or in your basketball team. There's an other sports was

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I don't mean in the world, but that we played.

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That's how I ever played rugby, cricket, played cricket, but

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I think I only played cricket junior school. But that

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didn't work out well because they learn quite early on

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that if you chuck a ball at me, well basically,

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don't chuck a ball at me if I've got a

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piece of wood in my hand, because if that ball

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hits me, I'm coming for you. And that is what

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I was like. Unfortunately, so I got a banned from

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cricket in junior school because someone chucked a ball hit

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me in the knee. I was all padded up and

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everything with the with the bat hit me in the knee,

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but hit me in the wrong knee, so I think

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you only have only had one pad on her, and

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they were laughing and four that almost hurt more. And

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I looked down at my knee, and then I looked

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down at the big, large cricket bat, which is probably

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as big as I was. And yeah, so I was

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not allowed to play cricket again. And then in high

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school we had hockey, and in hockey, as in football,

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a lot of fowling. And by that I don't mean

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like poohing on the pitch. What I mean is there's

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a lot of in football kicking and pushing stuff. But

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in hockey, even though again we've all padded up for

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some reason, hitting each other in his shins seemed to

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be acceptable but not to me, And it didn't make

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sense or to hit the ball at my face or

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why would they do that? So I'm thinking it's got

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to be a bit silly to do that when I

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have this big bit of wood in my hand. So yeah,

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I was chasing people. So I got banned band from

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playing hockey. I remember saying, like why why pe teacher.

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Mister Jim teacher, Why why are you banning me? He said,

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because of what you did. I said, I didn't do anything.

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He said, you literally chased someone around the field for

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half an hour waving the hockey stick. I said, yeah,

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that's what you're supposed to do, isn't it. I said, yeah,

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when you're on the field, you're not supposed to chase

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them out of the school. It's like, well, just sportsmanship.

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He said, you followed him home. You're banging on the

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window of his home. That's not on. It's not that

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I didn't like cheetahs, It's just I just didn't like people. Yeah, fowls,

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I didn't. Again, I'm not talking about poo on the pitch,

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I said. When I said, I'm not talking about it,

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I just talked about it twice, but I'm not literally

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talking about it, as in, let's have a big conversation. No, no,

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but fowling. Can you know a dog foul dog fouling

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on the grass? So well, that's a that's like an

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English word for poop, poop, poop. But yeah, I'm not

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talking about that. I think the most annoying thing though,

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with football, because I never got banned from football because

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that was the last sport. There was nothing else. They

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tried me with everything else, basketball that was pointless. I mean,

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I was just so sure. It was everybody was. I

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was pretty much. They got a point in high school

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where I came up to pretty much the chef of

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most of the other lads, the other boys in my ear,

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I came up to their chest. I was so sure.

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So I was. There's a lot of like adults really,

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so you know, they'd gone through the change, gone through

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the initial many pause the boys go through when they're

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twelve thirteen and turned and turned into little were wolves.

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And I was still a little boy.

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Really.

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I was still just talking with my high pitched voice,

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like now really and yeah, I do. Yeah. I didn't

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care when everyone else was a kid. But then when

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they started like getting well turned into men. Really, that's

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when I didn't really like it, didn't didn't, you know,

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because I was still a kid, so I couldn't physically

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match them, not that I could match them before because

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I was tiny. But it's a little bit. It is

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a different energy, you know, it's a different a different

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kind of strength. You know, when someone's now, when someone's

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a man, compared to a child. There is a different

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strength and they could run faster and I couldn't catch

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them with my hockey stick. No, I didn't tennis. I

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was only good at tennis against one person. And it

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was weird because no one else would play me at

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tennis because I wasn't very good. By a friend who

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would play me, but he was awful, And it was

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frustrating because now I know what it feels like to

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play myself. I now I know what it feels like

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for other people because I'm not very good. I wasn't

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very good at tennis. He was worse than me. I

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don't know if he was just doing it as a joke.

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It could be just as a little giggle, but it's frustrating.

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So I just hit the ball onto the roof and

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walked off. I mean, our relationship was starting to crumble

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a little bit at that point. Yeah, it's weird, but yeah,

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cops and robbers used to play that. You know, would

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wear a mask, so basically cops and robbers, one would

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be causing trouble bullying people, and the other person would

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be a robber. So yeah, it was we didn't have

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to wear a big striped onesie with a mask and

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for some reason some French hat didn't have to do that.

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You know there's French hats. Actually that's not now, Maybe

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I was getting muddled up between my artists. Do you

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know that my artists in France with the white makeup

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and the French hat. I can't remember what it's called

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off the Oh what was it called beret?

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No?

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But I don't think it was a beret. Maybe it

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was a beret and the big boots or white, but

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stripes down the top, maybe down the whole thing, and

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then a mask a little bit like sorrow sorrow. See,

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that's really skillful to be able to do that. Yeah,

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whenever he fought anyone Zorrow, he always left a Z

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on their chest but never come, never injured their chest,

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but managed to do it so it ripped open their

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their top just in the shape of a Z. That's phenomenal,

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that is, though, isn't it. I mean, it's like, that's

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skillful to be able to do that and not cause

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any injury. Is that's a skill that I'll what's not

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skill I ever wanted, but it's just skillful. I always

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kind of thought that I'd be quite cool to be

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a fencer. Remember saying to my dad, would like to

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be a fencer. But you know, I don't think he

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really understood what I meant. I was thinking, he's going

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to go out and buy me a sword and maybe

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a nice mask. They brought me some varnish for offense.

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Uh what's that stuff he used to Is it varnish?

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There's another thing, isn't there? Stick like really stinks? Got

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a varnished defense? You don't have to Yeah, needs doing? Yeah,

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we don't have to do it, though, do it? We

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needs doing. My windows need cleaning, but they're not being cleaned.

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My carpet needs vacuuming, it's not getting very vacuumed. My

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underpants need changing. That's when my dad just walks out

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of the room. It's like one day we'll finish, finish

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a conversation the amount of Christmases that he's walked out. So, yeah,

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I suppose using the term cowboys and Indians, that's what

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it was called back then. But back then we didn't

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we didn't have education about the indigenous people of different entries.

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That history wasn't really taught at the time. The thing is,

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it's going to be hard for a lot of people.

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Anyone I reckon under the age of fifty or forty

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five won't realize how much Western stuff there was on television,

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you know. And this is stuff from the fifties and

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the sixties and the seventies. It was still being shown

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constantly in the early eighties Western movies, TV shows based

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on the West. Even Kung Fu was based on the

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Western Eraklin Eastwood movies and all those old movies from

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the sixties like Paint My Wagon. I was bored and

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and stole you know Lee Marvin and Doc Dallis. Clinton's

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for as well, wasn't it. I think I've got a

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flies attacking me. Stop it. It's got a little hockey stick,

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and what should I said? Where's my hockey stick? Hockey

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sticks are quite good because it got a nice grip.

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So I remember, this is how bad it was. I

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was always picked last. So when we were queuing up,

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I didn't like I didn't like that system. I really

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didn't like the system. It's it seemed to me almost

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like a former bullion like to just or humiliation. You know,

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it's definitely humiliation because the teacher just seemed to be

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it just sit back, sit in a chair, starts smoking

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a cigar, you know, eating truffles, giggling. He just found

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it hilarious just watching us all squirm. And then it

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got down to like the last maybe three or four people,

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and neither of the leaders or the boys that were

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in charge of the teens, neither of them wanted to

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pick any of the ones that were left. We were like,

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I don't like a roast dinner. And always left was

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some cabbage. We were the cabbage, and maybe some of

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the fat off the beef, you know, the stuff that

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no one wants to actually eat. That's what was left.

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And perhaps a dead fly in the gravy. That's that's

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what I was. I was the I was the fly

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in the gravy. I was like, oh, it didn't really

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do myself esteem much good if I'm honest. I remember

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I was the amount of times I was chosen last.

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It was this is just standish for football, and I

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was chosen last. I wasn't was it football? Was it basketball? No,

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it's football, and I was chosen last. I was like,

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I went to the teacher, I said, look, this is

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just ridiculous. Is what were you talking about?

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Joos?

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And I said, because everyone did an impression of different strokes.

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Back then, we talked about Thomas, were talking about Bob

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like everyone did it, you know, different strikes with such

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a huge show. Even though I don't think it was

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even on. I think I don't know if it was

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on in the early eighties. I know it was on

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in the late seventies. Different Strong to bru the world.

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More Commindy, Doo dooo do do do Do Do Do

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Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do do do

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do do That's the wrong tune. I loved more Commindy.

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The thing about it with more Commindy is I think

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with a lot of firm sitcoms TV shows, rarely, in

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my humble opinion, do replacement characters or new characters improved

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the show. So there was a TV show called Bread

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and they replaced two of the main characters. Aveline was

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one of the main people, and she left and they

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got another person in and it wasn't the same because

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the first one was just so good. She know, she

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was one of the more memorable characters in the show.

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They were all memorable, but she was. I say that.

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I can't remember them. I remember one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, Yeah, nine, Yes,

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I remember quite a few of them, but when they

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changed their characters, it didn't improve it. Or with Minder,

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when Terry left, they got in Arthur Day's nephew. I

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still watched it because I'm I'm loyal to a TV show,

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you know, especially when I was younger, I was very loyal.

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If I watch a TV show, I watched it every

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single week, every episode, regardless of what they did, I'd

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keep watching it. Not so loyal these days, perhaps, but

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back then I was. And I can't really remember too

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many times when the new characters have improved the show.

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With Minder, it it really didn't. It was fresh, you know,

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it's different, but it wasn't the same because Terry and

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Arthur Daily were a double act. You know that that

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this is mind of It's a It's a really famous

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TV show for the eighties, really, I suppose, and maybe

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nineties as well. But yeah, it lost it lost something.

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We lost Terry. So yeah, but then a couple of

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American shows managed to do it, and one of those

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was Cheers because when Diane, Diane left the show and

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I was a huge years fan, like really massive, I'd

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watch it every Friday, and I didn't really know what

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they're going to do, How are they gonna how can

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they replace her? They didn't replace her, but they did

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kind of got a new female lead character or co

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co lead, and Kirse the Alli was brilliant, but just

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in a different way. Just so yeah, just literally I've

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never seen anyone that can cry. Well, I haven't met

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people who can cry easily, but like just it was

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so funny just to start crying just out of nowhere.

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And Kirsty Allie was great, and I think it was

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quite good because her and Sam with some Rebecca, wasn't

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it so Rebecca and Sam? It wasn't really about them.

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I know, there was a little bit of a thing,

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wasn't there. But it wasn't really about them. It was

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more about her and wanting to be with whoever whatever

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high flyer boss there was that had taken over the

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bar or that was. She wanted to be a billionaire.

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So that was. Yeah, that was that. I like that.

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I can't think of the other one now because it's

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gone out of my head because I was talking so

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much about other stuff. Whatever. Replacement, oh more commindy now

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more comminded. There wasn't a replacement, but there was an addition,

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which I think actually improved the show. I love the

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show anyway, But when Mork and Mindy had a baby,

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Mirth and he was grown a fully grown adult, like

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a man in his sixties or whatever, fifties or sixties, fifties,

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I don't know how old he was when he did

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that show, probably fifties, forties, fifties. So funny like he

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was to me, even though I was a massive Robin

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Williams fan, massive Mark and Mindy Mark Nan Nan who

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loved that, but Mirth was just hilarious. I didn't realize

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at the time because a kid didn't know he was

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a very famous comedian. Mirth and these name's gone out

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of my head. It was never in my head. But

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he's for those that no years. I don't know what

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I mean. He was known for telling stories and he

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yah was very, very famous in America, and that it

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was just perfect. At that part. I was going to

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say that probably no one else could have really done it,

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but that's one of those things. It's like it's easy

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to say that, isn't it, But in reality, loads of

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people probably could have done it. They just would have

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been different. I mean, it's like saying, oh, no one

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else could have really pulled off the I'm trying to think,

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let's say the Rocky movies. Oh, no one could have

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done that. It's Lester Stallone. He made those his own

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and yeah he did. I mean, yeah, there's no doubt

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in that one. But the idea that no one else

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could have played the character because initially the production company

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didn't want him to play the character, did they. They

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wanted another actor to do it. It would have been different,

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but it still might have been hugely successful because the

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story was great. So imagine, I don't know someone like

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pee Herman or you know, some Steve Martin or someone

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that was famous around that in the eighties, seventies or whatever.

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I don't know.

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I'm trying to think of mentioned pee Wee Herman. I'm

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just thinking of him shouting at Adrian with his squeaky

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voice made me laugh. I don't I tried to watch

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his TV show and it was a little bit. I

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don't know. I liked the pee Wee Herman. Is it

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the p we Herman loses his bicycle or something, and

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just the way he talks and then shouts and the

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talks and very funny, very funny character. He wasn't really

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a huge star in the UK. I don't. I don't

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recall ever seeing pee Wee Herman, the p we Herman

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Show on television in this country, and I was a

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definite like TV adding really when I was a kid,

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I mean I didn't. Yeah, I didn't stay up till

468
00:43:05.960 --> 00:43:12.400
late in the early eighties. I didn't start staying up

469
00:43:12.440 --> 00:43:17.239
till late on our weeknight or school night until I

470
00:43:17.320 --> 00:43:20.239
got my own TV. So I had a black and

471
00:43:20.280 --> 00:43:25.239
white TV when I was about fourteen, and that's when

472
00:43:25.239 --> 00:43:35.679
I started watching late night teley all. It was. It

473
00:43:35.760 --> 00:43:41.920
was among the most exciting time of my life because

474
00:43:41.960 --> 00:43:53.159
for the first time in privacy, I had complete control

475
00:43:55.119 --> 00:44:00.400
of a television. You know. I used to go into

476
00:44:00.440 --> 00:44:07.840
the living room after school. I'd watch Grange Hill and

477
00:44:07.920 --> 00:44:11.000
often I wouldn't be bothered because both my brothers were

478
00:44:11.000 --> 00:44:13.599
older they didn't watch it. They didn't watch that show.

479
00:44:14.280 --> 00:44:17.360
My little brother was too young, so he didn't watch it. So,

480
00:44:17.639 --> 00:44:21.159
you know, sometimes I'd have a nice hour where I

481
00:44:21.159 --> 00:44:28.599
could just watch TV on my own, but if one

482
00:44:28.639 --> 00:44:30.840
of my older brothers came in they decided they wanted

483
00:44:30.840 --> 00:44:33.440
to watch something else, they just turned the TV over

484
00:44:39.320 --> 00:44:41.840
or any minute, I could be called in to do something,

485
00:44:42.280 --> 00:44:45.960
you know, maybe it's dinner time or you know, something

486
00:44:46.000 --> 00:44:49.199
like that, so that I could be disturbed. But when

487
00:44:49.239 --> 00:44:52.000
I was in my bedroom upstairs, right at the top

488
00:44:52.039 --> 00:44:57.119
of the house, oh it's lovely. I have all the

489
00:44:57.199 --> 00:44:59.719
lights off. While I had had one night i'd had

490
00:44:59.719 --> 00:45:07.320
that off, had the TV flickering away, And I started

491
00:45:07.320 --> 00:45:15.280
discovering what happened after bedtime because I didn't know during

492
00:45:15.280 --> 00:45:17.679
the week I was in bed at I don't know,

493
00:45:17.840 --> 00:45:23.719
eight thirty nine at that time. I'm not sure what

494
00:45:23.840 --> 00:45:27.199
the time, probably nine maybe, but you know, it was

495
00:45:27.280 --> 00:45:32.480
earlier when I was younger, apart from the weekends, so Saturday,

496
00:45:33.079 --> 00:45:38.599
I think maybe Friday night, Saturday we could But even then,

497
00:45:38.679 --> 00:45:45.119
because I had early morning paper rounds working in the yeah,

498
00:45:45.199 --> 00:45:49.039
in the bakery, I'd have to get up at like

499
00:45:49.159 --> 00:45:52.639
five in the morning, so I wasn't I wasn't staying

500
00:45:52.719 --> 00:46:03.039
up late at the weekends. But on a school night,

501
00:46:03.920 --> 00:46:05.960
regardless of what time I had to get up in

502
00:46:05.960 --> 00:46:11.800
the morning, because I wasn't gonna watch it. I thought, well,

503
00:46:12.000 --> 00:46:12.679
I got TV.

504
00:46:12.760 --> 00:46:13.199
Brilliant.

505
00:46:13.800 --> 00:46:17.599
I never have to leave my room again. Then I thought,

506
00:46:17.719 --> 00:46:21.079
I'm going to have to eat. Why can't we have

507
00:46:21.159 --> 00:46:25.559
one of those lazy waiters is what they call them,

508
00:46:25.840 --> 00:46:31.039
where the food can be sent up. I did mention

509
00:46:31.159 --> 00:46:34.840
to my step mom, said, if I just if you

510
00:46:35.079 --> 00:46:39.039
keep twenty percent of my pocket money, can you just

511
00:46:39.079 --> 00:46:43.559
deliver my food to my door, to my bedroom room service?

512
00:46:44.480 --> 00:46:50.239
And she laughed. The amount of times that she laughed

513
00:46:50.239 --> 00:46:52.360
at stuff I said when I was actually being serious,

514
00:46:53.039 --> 00:46:56.599
it's amazing. She probably thought I was quite a funny kid.

515
00:46:56.639 --> 00:46:59.760
But I was actually being like, no, really, will you

516
00:46:59.840 --> 00:47:06.400
just deliver my food to my door? Because I didn't

517
00:47:06.400 --> 00:47:09.719
want to leave because I had my television. That's all

518
00:47:09.760 --> 00:47:18.840
I needed. Television, my books, a little tape recorder to

519
00:47:18.920 --> 00:47:30.239
listen to music, my radio for that little period, I mean,

520
00:47:30.280 --> 00:47:33.159
I must have been doing karate as well, so there

521
00:47:33.199 --> 00:47:40.320
was more going on. But something magical happened, because I

522
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:46.400
remember thinking for years, what happens when I go to

523
00:47:46.480 --> 00:47:54.320
sleep a half eight in the evening? What happens because

524
00:47:54.760 --> 00:48:01.880
I hear things? There's people downstairs love laughing my fato

525
00:48:02.079 --> 00:48:04.360
because as I said, my brothers were a lot older,

526
00:48:05.559 --> 00:48:07.480
the parents were a lot older, and they'd be up

527
00:48:07.480 --> 00:48:12.440
to ten eleven or whatever, and I think, what are

528
00:48:12.480 --> 00:48:16.519
they watching sounds like they're watching television, but what is it?

529
00:48:19.239 --> 00:48:23.559
Sometimes they go downstairs and pretend to need a drink

530
00:48:25.599 --> 00:48:31.960
and I'd pop in and I'd see like maybe thirty

531
00:48:32.039 --> 00:48:39.079
seconds of an episode of Kojak, and I'd be thinking, Wow,

532
00:48:41.400 --> 00:48:44.840
spend the next week walking around saying who loves your baby?

533
00:48:46.639 --> 00:48:50.159
That's going to be lost on most people. What is

534
00:48:50.199 --> 00:48:57.719
he talking about? He loved sucking lollipops. That's what he

535
00:48:57.800 --> 00:49:01.159
was famous for, being bored and sucking lollipops and saying,

536
00:49:01.559 --> 00:49:08.480
who loves your baby? Great screen presence, Oh Kojak.

537
00:49:12.920 --> 00:49:22.840
Very memorable, memorable, memorable voice.

538
00:49:23.119 --> 00:49:28.760
What of the things did I see on the Telly? Sure?

539
00:49:28.800 --> 00:49:32.960
There was another show that I wasn't allowed to watch? Well,

540
00:49:33.119 --> 00:49:39.199
shows that were on that I didn't get to see,

541
00:49:40.000 --> 00:49:43.920
maybe shows that I've never seen because they were on

542
00:49:44.239 --> 00:49:51.400
too late. The ten o'clock news. I sometimes thought to myself,

543
00:49:52.679 --> 00:49:57.639
what happens on that news? Is it different from the

544
00:49:57.960 --> 00:50:05.440
six o'clock news. What if something's happened I don't know

545
00:50:05.559 --> 00:50:12.119
about it, space invasion or something like that, not the game.

546
00:50:12.360 --> 00:50:23.320
But so I remember the the first night of having

547
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:27.840
my own television, and I sat down on my bed

548
00:50:27.880 --> 00:50:30.039
and I looked at it. Didn't turn it on, you,

549
00:50:31.039 --> 00:50:35.599
I just looked at it. I just let it all

550
00:50:35.679 --> 00:50:49.000
just soak in my own television, my own television, and

551
00:50:49.119 --> 00:50:57.360
I can choose to watch any channel I want, as

552
00:50:57.360 --> 00:51:03.559
long as it's BBC one, BBC two, ITV and channel

553
00:51:03.559 --> 00:51:08.239
four because that's what we had, four channels. It doesn't

554
00:51:08.280 --> 00:51:10.800
seem particularly exciting if you break it down like that,

555
00:51:10.920 --> 00:51:15.679
but I can watch all four. I can watch all

556
00:51:15.719 --> 00:51:17.119
four channels.

557
00:51:17.960 --> 00:51:18.599
Wow.

558
00:51:21.960 --> 00:51:25.199
There was no remote control. It was an old black

559
00:51:25.239 --> 00:51:27.719
and white one with a knob that you had to

560
00:51:27.760 --> 00:51:31.280
turn in order to turn it on, and then another one,

561
00:51:31.639 --> 00:51:34.159
so I think it was I think, I think about it.

562
00:51:34.159 --> 00:51:36.719
If you turn it, No, you had to put it

563
00:51:36.760 --> 00:51:40.159
out to turn it on, turn it for the volume.

564
00:51:40.559 --> 00:51:43.719
And then there was another dial around it which would

565
00:51:44.360 --> 00:51:50.280
tune the television into the different channels, which is kind

566
00:51:50.280 --> 00:51:55.719
of weird, that whole thing. So it was it was

567
00:51:55.760 --> 00:51:59.719
an aerial and you kind of it was a lucky

568
00:51:59.800 --> 00:52:05.960
dip really to see everyone like work, which is, you know,

569
00:52:06.000 --> 00:52:12.320
it's only four channels. But it was so exciting the

570
00:52:12.360 --> 00:52:15.440
first time I sat down and I was about to

571
00:52:15.440 --> 00:52:20.199
watch the news at ten, What is this secret thing.

572
00:52:21.360 --> 00:52:25.480
What are they going to be talking about exactly the

573
00:52:25.519 --> 00:52:28.760
same as the news at six, six o'clock news, ten

574
00:52:28.840 --> 00:52:33.239
o'clock news. It's the same, like what I mean, not

575
00:52:33.320 --> 00:52:35.239
every day, I mean, but like you know, it's just

576
00:52:35.360 --> 00:52:44.280
repeated pretty much the same stuff. Very disappointed, and I

577
00:52:44.320 --> 00:52:55.239
started delving. I started some research. The thing is I

578
00:52:55.280 --> 00:53:02.079
didn't have a TV guide. There was a TV guide downstairs,

579
00:53:04.519 --> 00:53:09.599
but it was surrounded by humans watching television, and I

580
00:53:09.760 --> 00:53:11.719
was in bed and I was supposed to be asleep,

581
00:53:13.039 --> 00:53:16.440
so I couldn't go down there because they might notice me,

582
00:53:21.679 --> 00:53:25.840
so I thought, so I had to pretty much. I

583
00:53:25.960 --> 00:53:35.480
guess it's the equivalent of surfing the internet. I don't

584
00:53:35.480 --> 00:53:39.039
know if anyone uses that term surfing the internet anymore,

585
00:53:41.239 --> 00:53:44.079
like Cowboys and Indians is not used anymore. That's why

586
00:53:44.079 --> 00:53:49.239
I would never use it. I think. The thing that

587
00:53:49.280 --> 00:53:56.679
annoyed me most about getting picked last is there was

588
00:53:56.719 --> 00:54:00.360
this one time. It's not even a joke. It's time

589
00:54:01.280 --> 00:54:07.880
the kid in a wheelchair was picked before me. It's

590
00:54:07.960 --> 00:54:13.639
not as serious as seriously happened, as like, it's just

591
00:54:16.800 --> 00:54:21.119
no respect. I've got no respect. He was in a

592
00:54:21.119 --> 00:54:25.920
wheelchair because of his weight, basically had a glandular thing,

593
00:54:26.480 --> 00:54:32.239
really nice bloke. Not really talked to him. I used

594
00:54:32.239 --> 00:54:36.039
to say loo to him because I thought, you know,

595
00:54:37.039 --> 00:54:44.280
no one's talking to him, and just because, like, because

596
00:54:44.320 --> 00:54:46.880
he looks a bit different. I know what it's like.

597
00:54:46.960 --> 00:54:52.599
I've always looked a little bit different. Really, I've just

598
00:54:52.639 --> 00:54:54.960
been too good looking. That's one of the problems I've

599
00:54:54.960 --> 00:55:02.440
had over the years. Too attractive. And I remember us

600
00:55:02.559 --> 00:55:05.199
talking to him and said, all right, and he said

601
00:55:05.199 --> 00:55:08.719
to me, why are you Why are you talking to me?

602
00:55:09.960 --> 00:55:11.679
I said, what do you mean? He said, why are

603
00:55:11.679 --> 00:55:14.880
you talking? Do you keep saying helone and asking me

604
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:19.519
how I am? I said, well, I don't know, just

605
00:55:21.760 --> 00:55:24.559
I don't really know what to say to him. And

606
00:55:24.719 --> 00:55:30.679
he said, it's just really weird. I said why. He said, well,

607
00:55:30.679 --> 00:55:33.039
there's I don't know how many people in this year,

608
00:55:33.719 --> 00:55:36.440
how many people in this school, hundreds of people in

609
00:55:36.480 --> 00:55:46.119
this school. Right, Nobody talks to me, but you do.

610
00:55:49.360 --> 00:55:53.920
And I said, okay, I said, well, why whait Why

611
00:55:53.960 --> 00:55:56.760
do you look so sad? He said, because you're You're

612
00:55:56.800 --> 00:55:59.000
the last person I want to talk to. Why do

613
00:55:59.000 --> 00:56:02.119
Why do I get stuck you all those other people

614
00:56:02.400 --> 00:56:06.000
and they get stuck with you? I mean, if you

615
00:56:06.079 --> 00:56:08.960
not noticed or even more unpopular than me, you get

616
00:56:09.000 --> 00:56:15.000
picked last. And I thought it's a bit ungrateful. I

617
00:56:15.119 --> 00:56:18.480
just offered to eat half of his sandwich. But no,

618
00:56:20.119 --> 00:56:26.320
some people just don't appreciate anything. There was this one

619
00:56:26.360 --> 00:56:34.719
girl and just shows you how wrong, how wrong to

620
00:56:35.320 --> 00:56:38.360
judge someone from the thing is I was judging her

621
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:40.440
from years and years and years of being in a

622
00:56:40.480 --> 00:56:43.559
classroom with her. So it wasn't like judging her from

623
00:56:43.800 --> 00:56:47.960
appearance or judging her from meeting her once or twice.

624
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:53.480
I literally was in a classroom with her multiple times

625
00:56:53.519 --> 00:57:00.119
a week for four years, and I was all so

626
00:57:00.199 --> 00:57:03.880
in the dancers class with her for about six months

627
00:57:03.960 --> 00:57:07.920
or a year. So yeah, I knew her, but I

628
00:57:08.000 --> 00:57:15.079
knew her as that observed her. She would not talk

629
00:57:15.199 --> 00:57:18.679
to anybody, she would not talk to a teacher, she

630
00:57:18.719 --> 00:57:24.239
would not do any work. She refused. Sometimes she'd have

631
00:57:24.320 --> 00:57:28.199
her tantrum and leave, but generally she would not do anything.

632
00:57:31.800 --> 00:57:35.280
And in the last year of school, we were all

633
00:57:35.320 --> 00:57:41.199
given wasn't work experience, because I had work experience in

634
00:57:41.239 --> 00:57:44.320
a building firm, but this was a separate thing. It

635
00:57:44.400 --> 00:57:48.880
is part of some lesson and schools full of those

636
00:57:48.920 --> 00:57:53.480
things and it lessens. So I was sent to this

637
00:57:54.039 --> 00:57:58.360
nursery like a children's not not with plants, but a

638
00:57:58.519 --> 00:58:04.000
children's place where the kids go at nursery school. So

639
00:58:04.079 --> 00:58:12.320
I was sent there on a Friday afternoon I think

640
00:58:12.360 --> 00:58:22.280
it was, or maybe yeah, Friday afternoon, and I got

641
00:58:22.320 --> 00:58:25.840
picked to go with her or she got picked to

642
00:58:25.880 --> 00:58:31.960
go with me, one of them. And I was like, ah,

643
00:58:32.360 --> 00:58:34.360
I don't know who was more disappointed me or her

644
00:58:35.719 --> 00:58:38.559
it was, you know, I think we both. I just

645
00:58:38.599 --> 00:58:40.599
thought she was a weirdo and she probably thought I

646
00:58:40.719 --> 00:58:47.719
was a weirdo. And it's really strange because we had

647
00:58:47.760 --> 00:58:51.639
to walk why. I think they were just making fun

648
00:58:51.679 --> 00:58:55.480
of us, because I only did they send us together

649
00:58:55.800 --> 00:58:59.920
knowing that we never ever talked, never had a conversation

650
00:59:00.239 --> 00:59:06.000
in four years, knowing that she was probably the most

651
00:59:06.000 --> 00:59:11.039
difficult person in the classroom in the whole year. Maybe

652
00:59:11.039 --> 00:59:13.719
I was the most annoying. So that's why they did it.

653
00:59:16.719 --> 00:59:19.599
And we had to walk to the other side of town.

654
00:59:20.039 --> 00:59:23.960
I'm not even exaggerating. It was a good hour walk

655
00:59:24.519 --> 00:59:31.599
to get to this place. Okay, from school. Our walk

656
00:59:31.679 --> 00:59:38.280
there and by the same back I suppose, and we

657
00:59:38.360 --> 00:59:42.800
started walking than the first time, and we were just

658
00:59:42.840 --> 00:59:46.639
walking separate. I was trying to get ahead of her,

659
00:59:46.679 --> 00:59:53.360
but she was taller than me. It turned out we

660
00:59:53.440 --> 01:00:05.119
became best friends, but only during that Listen how weird.

661
01:00:05.679 --> 01:00:10.719
We would chat and laugh, mess about you know, I

662
01:00:10.920 --> 01:00:14.320
just really have a good time. As we walked there

663
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:19.039
and on our way back where we were there, it

664
01:00:19.079 --> 01:00:24.760
was like fun. But as soon as we got close

665
01:00:24.840 --> 01:00:27.679
to the school, that was it. She stopped talking to

666
01:00:27.719 --> 01:00:39.320
me and ignored me until the next Friday. It was like,

667
01:00:39.639 --> 01:00:49.280
this is strange, because it's almost she had this. I

668
01:00:49.280 --> 01:00:52.639
think she was just pretending to be awkward because she

669
01:00:52.760 --> 01:01:07.519
was really nice, actually very funny and good company. It was, yeah,

670
01:01:07.719 --> 01:01:16.039
very very strange. And I don't know. I don't know

671
01:01:16.079 --> 01:01:18.920
what she thought of me. She probably I don't know

672
01:01:18.920 --> 01:01:21.280
what anyone. I really don't know what anyone's ever thought

673
01:01:21.320 --> 01:01:28.679
about me. Really, I can't read minds. That's what a

674
01:01:28.679 --> 01:01:31.360
lot of people say that this. You can't. You can't

675
01:01:31.400 --> 01:01:35.159
read minds. He thinks he can, but you can't. The

676
01:01:35.199 --> 01:01:38.039
amount of people I've met that seem to know that

677
01:01:38.119 --> 01:01:40.239
if they think they know what other people are thinking,

678
01:01:41.599 --> 01:01:52.159
and they don't, they really don't, Okay, And I think

679
01:01:52.159 --> 01:01:53.800
it's a good thing that we don't know what each

680
01:01:53.840 --> 01:02:01.559
other are thinking. BlimE me. I can't think of any

681
01:02:01.559 --> 01:02:09.199
other TV shows that where there's been a change in characters.

682
01:02:11.199 --> 01:02:16.239
Probably The Cosby Show when they brought in because remember,

683
01:02:17.119 --> 01:02:22.760
is it Haley? Who was Claire Haley, the little girl

684
01:02:24.599 --> 01:02:28.639
who was hilarious when The Cosby Show first came out,

685
01:02:30.280 --> 01:02:33.840
and then she got old and they brought in another

686
01:02:33.880 --> 01:02:39.079
little girl. I don't know if it was someone they adopted,

687
01:02:39.280 --> 01:02:41.760
or maybe it's one of their kids' daughters or something,

688
01:02:42.920 --> 01:02:48.639
and then she was really funny, So that was not Claire,

689
01:02:48.840 --> 01:03:04.639
because Claire is his wife. Claire. I can't remember Hayley. Oh,

690
01:03:04.719 --> 01:03:10.519
it's Huxtable. I know that's a surname. I don't even

691
01:03:10.559 --> 01:03:25.400
remember what his name was in it, Doctor Huxtable. There

692
01:03:25.519 --> 01:03:30.000
was a weird TV show right, and this was in

693
01:03:30.360 --> 01:03:34.559
in the early eighties called Blake seven. Blake was only

694
01:03:34.639 --> 01:03:37.679
in the very first series and then he wasn't in

695
01:03:37.719 --> 01:03:43.119
it anymore. I think they messed up a little bit

696
01:03:43.159 --> 01:03:46.159
with the title of that, didn't they He wasn't in

697
01:03:46.199 --> 01:03:50.159
it now. I don't think he knew he wasn't going

698
01:03:50.199 --> 01:03:52.280
to be in it because it was clearly the start

699
01:03:52.320 --> 01:03:56.119
of the show because they called it Blake seven because

700
01:03:56.159 --> 01:03:59.800
there was seven people with Blake, or there might have

701
01:03:59.800 --> 01:04:06.679
been six people with Blake, and Blake made the seventh. Well,

702
01:04:06.719 --> 01:04:08.559
I guess you would have made the first because he

703
01:04:08.639 --> 01:04:21.440
was the leader. Hm hmm. Goodies and Baddies used to

704
01:04:21.480 --> 01:04:27.000
be kind of another kind of game, you know, because

705
01:04:27.000 --> 01:04:28.360
there was a lot of that. There's a lot of

706
01:04:30.039 --> 01:04:35.519
cop shows on TV, like CHIPS. I remember riding about

707
01:04:35.559 --> 01:04:41.159
on my on my bike and thinking I was in Chips.

708
01:04:42.119 --> 01:04:48.199
I was a police motorbike person and what he used

709
01:04:48.239 --> 01:04:50.440
to do. I wasn't the only one who did this.

710
01:04:52.360 --> 01:04:58.519
We used to cut up a plastic what's it called

711
01:04:58.880 --> 01:05:03.519
that fairy liquid battle and then attach it with pegs

712
01:05:04.119 --> 01:05:08.280
to the spokes so it clicked when the wheel went round.

713
01:05:09.400 --> 01:05:17.079
That was us turning our little bikes into powerful motorbikes.

714
01:05:20.079 --> 01:05:22.960
Apparently I didn't look so good, said, I'd look better

715
01:05:22.960 --> 01:05:28.480
if I hadn't got stabilizers, which is a bit rude.

716
01:05:28.840 --> 01:05:33.039
I think all bikes should have stabilizers so that when

717
01:05:33.079 --> 01:05:35.840
you just get off it, it stays standing up. That

718
01:05:35.920 --> 01:05:40.280
makes sense, it does, don't it. And all these bikes

719
01:05:40.320 --> 01:05:47.800
that have the crossbar, or not the crossbar as the crowbar.

720
01:05:48.519 --> 01:05:50.480
You know that bit where you have to put your

721
01:05:50.559 --> 01:05:54.840
leg over on a man's bike because the female bikes

722
01:05:56.639 --> 01:05:59.360
they're still officially called men's and females bikes. If you're

723
01:05:59.360 --> 01:06:02.960
looking look in the shops there, they're there. I checked

724
01:06:02.960 --> 01:06:04.880
this out the other day, so I'm not going to

725
01:06:04.880 --> 01:06:09.320
get in trouble. Yeah, but you said the cowboys and Indians.

726
01:06:09.880 --> 01:06:12.159
I said, no, I'm not saying that's the correct term.

727
01:06:12.480 --> 01:06:14.559
It's just what that's what it was called back then,

728
01:06:15.920 --> 01:06:18.760
So you know, I'm not trying to cause offense or anything.

729
01:06:19.480 --> 01:06:22.039
When that case, why do you keep mentioning it? I

730
01:06:22.079 --> 01:06:31.280
don't know. I realized I said it, and I thought, ah,

731
01:06:31.440 --> 01:06:34.559
or I can't really backtrack. You could have just edited

732
01:06:34.559 --> 01:06:37.360
it out and just carried on. I said, I know,

733
01:06:38.000 --> 01:06:41.039
that's the thing. You're right. I could just edit it out,

734
01:06:41.599 --> 01:06:43.559
but it's going to be impossible now because I've mentioned

735
01:06:43.599 --> 01:06:47.000
it too many times and it won't make sense unless

736
01:06:47.000 --> 01:06:53.920
I leave it in the original time. Ah. I think

737
01:06:53.920 --> 01:06:57.920
this is what they called first world problems. I don't know.

738
01:06:57.960 --> 01:07:01.920
I'm not into that whole first, second, fifth, fourth world

739
01:07:02.000 --> 01:07:09.280
or whatever. Come on, some a bit of Equality TV.

740
01:07:11.320 --> 01:07:18.840
Two TV shows that I remember, like for that period

741
01:07:19.400 --> 01:07:24.679
that i'd firstly never see before and also became my

742
01:07:24.800 --> 01:07:29.719
two favoritist programs in the whole world. But it was

743
01:07:29.719 --> 01:07:35.320
a secret, It's my little secret, because I wasn't supposed

744
01:07:35.320 --> 01:07:38.880
to be watching it. I was supposed to be asleep.

745
01:07:40.920 --> 01:07:45.039
They must have known. You don't give a fourteen year

746
01:07:45.039 --> 01:07:50.320
old a television in his bedroom and expect him to

747
01:07:50.360 --> 01:07:54.760
go to sleep. I don't mean not ever, but you know,

748
01:07:54.960 --> 01:08:00.400
generally i'd leave it on all night. Oh and but

749
01:08:00.480 --> 01:08:03.559
the two TV shows that I really remember from those

750
01:08:04.039 --> 01:08:06.719
or three now I've got another one I remember, but

751
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:10.920
the ones at night, late at night or at a

752
01:08:10.960 --> 01:08:18.600
time when I should have been in bed, Cheers, which

753
01:08:18.640 --> 01:08:25.840
I suppose maybe that was on a Friday night at nine,

754
01:08:26.279 --> 01:08:38.319
and Mesh, not Mesh, Mesh Mesh, the medical drama that

755
01:08:38.439 --> 01:08:39.119
was Mesh.

756
01:08:38.920 --> 01:08:51.039
Wasn't it, or Mesh make Smash Mesh. Yeah it's Mesh,

757
01:08:51.399 --> 01:08:52.479
yeah Mesh.

758
01:08:52.720 --> 01:08:56.359
So yeah, medical Army something. Yes, So I used to

759
01:08:56.399 --> 01:09:01.840
watch that. I loved them, Hawkeye and Clinger and all

760
01:09:01.920 --> 01:09:10.600
those people loved it. And watching Cheers that was when

761
01:09:11.239 --> 01:09:17.960
Dan was in Cheers, because you know, I watched Cheers

762
01:09:18.000 --> 01:09:24.359
all the way through until the last episode, which was

763
01:09:24.399 --> 01:09:27.399
in the early nineties, so went on for quite a while,

764
01:09:27.399 --> 01:09:30.359
didn't it. Was it the early nineties or like eighties.

765
01:09:32.159 --> 01:09:37.079
I can't completely remember, but I think I started watching

766
01:09:37.199 --> 01:09:41.960
Cheers quite early on because I think it started about

767
01:09:42.000 --> 01:09:47.159
eighty four roughly, so I must have watched it, although

768
01:09:48.560 --> 01:09:52.600
at that time might still be the case. But at

769
01:09:52.680 --> 01:10:03.880
that time England or the UK were always about quite

770
01:10:03.920 --> 01:10:08.800
a few months behind America with the TV shows. It's

771
01:10:08.840 --> 01:10:12.840
a weird one because what we would get, let's say,

772
01:10:12.880 --> 01:10:17.880
there'd be sitcoms or like a really famous show that

773
01:10:17.920 --> 01:10:20.880
we watched here that was American that was big in

774
01:10:20.920 --> 01:10:24.520
America as well, we would get the Christmas episodes during

775
01:10:24.560 --> 01:10:32.119
the summer. Is this ridiculous? It was? I mean it

776
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:35.319
might It might have been the same for America getting

777
01:10:35.520 --> 01:10:41.800
the Christmas British shows in the summer, you know, because

778
01:10:41.960 --> 01:10:45.560
there was there was a lag, a time lag of

779
01:10:47.039 --> 01:10:52.960
quite a few months. That might have changed. Now, I

780
01:10:53.039 --> 01:10:58.399
know with this stream in services, there's there's not a

781
01:10:58.399 --> 01:11:04.520
lot of difference in time. Now usually the release date

782
01:11:04.560 --> 01:11:08.000
would be the same date in England as well as

783
01:11:08.000 --> 01:11:12.439
being in America or Canada or Australia, they've kind of

784
01:11:12.439 --> 01:11:20.520
had the same release date quite often. Yeah, but Cheers

785
01:11:20.600 --> 01:11:26.199
and Mash those was the two shows that I really

786
01:11:27.520 --> 01:11:34.760
remember watching and just being like wow. So Mash was

787
01:11:34.800 --> 01:11:38.479
on BBC two. Still sounds like it's the wrong name

788
01:11:38.560 --> 01:11:41.760
for the TV show, but it is the right name.

789
01:11:41.800 --> 01:11:48.880
It just sounds weird. And Cheers was on Channel four.

790
01:11:51.399 --> 01:11:53.359
There was another show I used to like to watch

791
01:11:54.439 --> 01:11:57.520
when it's boxing. There's a boxing show on as well,

792
01:11:57.960 --> 01:12:01.079
but I'm pretty sure that used to be in the evening,

793
01:12:01.199 --> 01:12:09.319
but I might be wrong. Yeah, once I had that television,

794
01:12:09.399 --> 01:12:13.680
I didn't need to go downstairs to watch TV. It

795
01:12:13.760 --> 01:12:16.800
just didn't seem any point. Even though it was a

796
01:12:16.840 --> 01:12:22.359
big colored TV and all that stuff. I kind of

797
01:12:22.720 --> 01:12:29.039
rather just watch my black and white TV on my own.

798
01:12:29.319 --> 01:12:33.680
I've always preferred. I've just preferred watching TV on my

799
01:12:33.760 --> 01:12:39.520
own generally. I mean, I like doing it with Vinnie,

800
01:12:39.760 --> 01:12:47.039
providing he doesn't bark. But you know, I think it'd

801
01:12:47.079 --> 01:12:52.119
be different if I was if I was in a

802
01:12:52.199 --> 01:12:56.520
room with someone that was enjoying what I was enjoying.

803
01:12:57.199 --> 01:13:03.319
So someone that loved boxing or someone that loves I

804
01:13:03.359 --> 01:13:05.479
don't know, kind of movies or the kind of box

805
01:13:05.520 --> 01:13:19.039
sets that I like. Yeah, I think i'd be quite comfortable. Yeah,

806
01:13:19.520 --> 01:13:26.760
I don't know, really, I wonder how long I've been

807
01:13:26.800 --> 01:13:34.199
talking for. I really don't know. It's dark out there now,

808
01:13:37.039 --> 01:13:50.159
not that long, seventy four minutes. I just want to

809
01:13:50.239 --> 01:13:53.039
check because I'm going to be going to bed soon.

810
01:13:53.680 --> 01:13:57.760
I don't know what time it is. It's half ten,

811
01:13:59.039 --> 01:14:02.720
so it's time him to go to bed, pretty much.

812
01:14:05.000 --> 01:14:09.760
And what I would do, hopefully this has been bored

813
01:14:09.880 --> 01:14:17.039
enough to send you off to sleepy land. I will

814
01:14:17.239 --> 01:14:20.439
edit this first thing in the morning and upload it.

815
01:14:22.279 --> 01:14:29.880
Hopefully there won't be too much editing necessary, hopefully. And

816
01:14:30.000 --> 01:14:33.399
then he's been very quiet. I think he's proper deep

817
01:14:33.439 --> 01:14:38.119
into a sleep. I know that if I go to

818
01:14:38.159 --> 01:14:41.159
get up, he'll growl at me. If he's asleep. I'm

819
01:14:41.199 --> 01:14:48.199
not being disturbed when he's when he's bye byes. This

820
01:14:48.239 --> 01:14:59.199
would be quite nice because I'm not any not had

821
01:14:59.199 --> 01:15:06.079
any distractions, no one at the door, know nothing out

822
01:15:06.119 --> 01:15:11.279
in the guard and not been looking at a computer screen,

823
01:15:12.760 --> 01:15:17.760
not been looking at my phone, having had the light on,

824
01:15:19.520 --> 01:15:29.720
just relaxing and chatting about who knows what. My black

825
01:15:29.760 --> 01:15:32.560
and white TV maybe.

826
01:15:33.479 --> 01:15:33.960
I don't know.

827
01:15:34.680 --> 01:15:39.560
I'm not sure how I got to this subject. But

828
01:15:42.439 --> 01:15:49.680
I love that TV. I really did. I'm not really

829
01:15:49.720 --> 01:16:10.720
sure what happened to it. Hm hmm. I spent most

830
01:16:10.760 --> 01:16:18.479
of my most of the nineties watching black and white TVs,

831
01:16:21.640 --> 01:16:25.039
or at least the first half of the nineties and

832
01:16:25.079 --> 01:16:29.600
then the first part of the two thousands as well,

833
01:16:30.039 --> 01:16:36.600
watching black and white TVs, which is there was no

834
01:16:36.720 --> 01:16:44.319
reason for it. Not really. I think I had a

835
01:16:44.880 --> 01:16:47.560
or did I I might have had a colored TV. Surely,

836
01:16:48.359 --> 01:16:52.640
why i'd I have a black and white TV? Maybe

837
01:16:52.680 --> 01:16:56.119
I did. No, I must have had a colored TV

838
01:16:57.119 --> 01:17:05.520
in the nineties. Now, that would have been impossible to

839
01:17:05.840 --> 01:17:09.079
I wouldn't have wanted to watch stuff on there on

840
01:17:09.159 --> 01:17:10.720
a black and white tea. It must have fair. It

841
01:17:10.720 --> 01:17:15.560
was a portable TV. It must have been color. I

842
01:17:15.760 --> 01:17:22.560
like to think it was. But in two thousand and one,

843
01:17:22.640 --> 01:17:28.119
I had a black and white portable TV for a

844
01:17:28.239 --> 01:17:34.520
year or two. I could have got I had enough

845
01:17:34.560 --> 01:17:38.159
money coming in, I could have bought the biggest TV.

846
01:17:40.800 --> 01:17:45.319
I just didn't. Just didn't. I don't know why. I

847
01:17:45.479 --> 01:17:52.760
just watched this black and white TV. I don't know why.

848
01:17:53.159 --> 01:17:58.640
I really don't it's very strange. I was working full time,

849
01:17:58.760 --> 01:18:12.840
I was doing fairly well. Yeah, yeah, I don't know why.

850
01:18:13.039 --> 01:18:20.720
This is one of those weird, weird things, really weird questions.

851
01:18:26.000 --> 01:18:30.279
I remember, I've got a portable TV with a built

852
01:18:30.359 --> 01:18:36.000
in video or no DVD player in two thousand and four.

853
01:18:39.119 --> 01:18:51.960
DVD player or video player? Oh, that is the question

854
01:18:52.079 --> 01:18:57.279
in that What is it DVD, DVD player or video player.

855
01:19:00.319 --> 01:19:10.840
I'm pretty sure I was still getting videos. I think

856
01:19:10.840 --> 01:19:13.920
it might have been a video player because I used

857
01:19:13.920 --> 01:19:16.039
to go to Blockbusters and I was pretty much the

858
01:19:16.039 --> 01:19:21.840
only person left that was renting videos most of the

859
01:19:21.880 --> 01:19:26.960
places in every it's mainly DVDs, and I was. I

860
01:19:27.039 --> 01:19:31.520
just would not. I wouldn't. I just wouldn't. I didn't

861
01:19:31.520 --> 01:19:36.039
want to. I wanted videos. That's what I was used to,

862
01:19:38.760 --> 01:19:41.840
even though hardly anyone in the world used them anymore,

863
01:19:42.079 --> 01:19:45.479
not in this country anyway, not in the two thousands,

864
01:19:47.279 --> 01:19:59.640
not for years, but I was, and now DVDs aren't

865
01:19:59.680 --> 01:20:06.439
even used anymore already. It seems to be streaming streaming.

866
01:20:14.560 --> 01:20:18.000
I used to have loads of DVDs. I had loads

867
01:20:18.039 --> 01:20:21.279
of videos when I was when I was living at

868
01:20:21.279 --> 01:20:26.279
the YMCA. Yeah, I did have a colored TV because

869
01:20:26.279 --> 01:20:34.319
I had a video player, and I had loads of videos. Loads.

870
01:20:34.439 --> 01:20:38.479
I'd buy them. Though I didn't go to Blockbusters. I

871
01:20:38.600 --> 01:20:45.479
bought the videos and I'd buy loads, and one day

872
01:20:45.520 --> 01:20:49.039
I thought, I'm going to get rid of these. So

873
01:20:49.079 --> 01:20:52.439
what I did is I donated them to the YMCA

874
01:20:55.079 --> 01:20:58.760
homeless place, so they had like videos to watch and stuff.

875
01:20:59.119 --> 01:21:04.600
There's loads of today videos. I had a pretty pretty

876
01:21:04.640 --> 01:21:11.279
good collection. Actually, I don't know why Why didn't I

877
01:21:11.359 --> 01:21:15.880
just yeah, why didn't I to go to Blockbusters? It

878
01:21:15.920 --> 01:21:23.239
was literally at the end of the road. Maybe I couldn't.

879
01:21:24.319 --> 01:21:28.039
Maybe I didn't know. Maybe I didn't Yeah, I don't know.

880
01:21:30.039 --> 01:21:31.600
I can't really say I didn't know where it was

881
01:21:31.640 --> 01:21:33.319
because I had to walk past it every day to

882
01:21:33.359 --> 01:21:37.359
go to work. I knew where it was, but it

883
01:21:37.439 --> 01:21:39.319
was across the road. So maybe I just couldn't be

884
01:21:39.319 --> 01:21:48.880
bothered across. Oh. The thing is, back then, I remember

885
01:21:49.039 --> 01:21:57.520
standing in Virgin as even Virgin or HMV, and I'd

886
01:21:57.600 --> 01:22:05.359
be upstairs in the video department looking for something to

887
01:22:05.479 --> 01:22:11.880
spend my money on, and be there till close in time.

888
01:22:12.319 --> 01:22:18.399
I just couldn't decide what to buy. And part of

889
01:22:18.439 --> 01:22:21.479
the reason I when in late is because there's less

890
01:22:21.479 --> 01:22:24.680
people around at that time. It just meant I could

891
01:22:24.760 --> 01:22:28.239
have more of a fiddle, you know, like have a

892
01:22:28.239 --> 01:22:31.239
little go through the stuff and look at all the

893
01:22:31.319 --> 01:22:35.319
covers and the backs of the covers, and without having

894
01:22:35.359 --> 01:22:39.439
to move away whenever someone's because as there's that kind

895
01:22:39.479 --> 01:22:45.439
of protocol, isn't there. If you're standing somewhere looking at

896
01:22:45.479 --> 01:22:50.159
something and someone sort of moved towards you, it's almost

897
01:22:50.600 --> 01:22:57.600
it's time to move away to let them go there. Well,

898
01:22:57.600 --> 01:23:01.960
you don't have to do that there's no one around.

899
01:23:02.520 --> 01:23:06.159
It's yeah, I've done that myself. It's like someone's standing

900
01:23:06.199 --> 01:23:07.920
there and I've kind of moved towards them and they've

901
01:23:07.960 --> 01:23:13.800
moved away. I remember saying to the a friend who

902
01:23:13.840 --> 01:23:18.439
worked beyond the counter at HMV and said, I mentioned

903
01:23:18.439 --> 01:23:22.520
it to him. I said, it's amazing that technique. It's

904
01:23:22.560 --> 01:23:28.720
like human nature. You you walk up towards someone and

905
01:23:28.760 --> 01:23:31.760
they just move away, so and they're so polite and

906
01:23:31.760 --> 01:23:34.760
they let you look at the stuff. And he said,

907
01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:37.560
that's not the reason, it's because you stink that what

908
01:23:39.239 --> 01:23:52.479
he laughed, have abof I did? At some point I

909
01:23:52.520 --> 01:23:59.960
think Finny just did a burp. So I'm going to go,

910
01:24:01.439 --> 01:24:06.119
going to go, So thank you for listening. Remember to

911
01:24:06.159 --> 01:24:11.119
be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy,

912
01:24:12.439 --> 01:24:17.840
and also be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

913
01:24:21.000 --> 01:24:41.640
lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and

914
01:24:44.880 --> 01:24:52.279
meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

915
01:24:52.560 --> 01:25:02.680
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

916
01:25:03.319 --> 01:25:11.720
we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

917
01:25:11.760 --> 01:25:16.199
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

918
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:33.760
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

919
01:25:33.800 --> 01:25:45.000
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

920
01:25:47.359 --> 01:26:01.560
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

921
01:26:01.720 --> 01:26:14.119
you can still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe

922
01:26:14.199 --> 01:26:25.600
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

923
01:26:25.720 --> 01:26:33.680
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

924
01:26:34.039 --> 01:26:37.720
and myself as well. I sometimes I find one particular

925
01:26:37.800 --> 01:26:47.840
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

926
01:26:47.920 --> 01:26:53.199
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

927
01:27:00.880 --> 01:27:05.479
There was this recording from We're going back to about

928
01:27:05.640 --> 01:27:10.880
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

929
01:27:11.000 --> 01:27:18.439
guided visualization, so it kind of was hypnosis really, And

930
01:27:20.359 --> 01:27:23.720
I managed to find it again and it still has

931
01:27:23.760 --> 01:27:29.359
the same effect on me, and part of it was

932
01:27:33.000 --> 01:27:46.199
the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and

933
01:27:46.239 --> 01:27:53.119
I'd look forward to listening to her in the morning

934
01:27:53.560 --> 01:28:04.640
and in the evening. And I knew before even pressing

935
01:28:04.760 --> 01:28:12.680
the play button that since I've done that, pressed the

936
01:28:12.720 --> 01:28:21.840
play button. This is in the days of CD players,

937
01:28:24.800 --> 01:28:30.319
press the play button, if that it might have even

938
01:28:30.359 --> 01:28:34.560
been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the

939
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bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words

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because I had them memorized. Really, it was as if

941
01:29:00.720 --> 01:29:11.960
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

942
01:29:12.199 --> 01:29:33.600
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my

943
01:29:33.760 --> 01:29:43.880
mind would slow down. Now.

944
01:29:45.800 --> 01:29:47.000
Now, I was.

945
01:29:47.079 --> 01:29:54.399
Listening to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

946
01:29:56.920 --> 01:30:04.760
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

947
01:30:04.800 --> 01:30:09.600
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

948
01:30:09.600 --> 01:30:28.920
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

949
01:30:29.000 --> 01:30:39.439
found being able to just let go, to have that

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01:30:39.640 --> 01:30:52.279
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

951
01:30:52.359 --> 01:31:00.680
it's going to be just as relaxing, if more so.

952
01:31:03.319 --> 01:31:10.000
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the

953
01:31:10.039 --> 01:31:22.960
same some people have been listening to me for over

954
01:31:23.039 --> 01:31:35.840
a decade. Maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours

955
01:31:35.840 --> 01:31:43.920
a day, but maybe people come back. Some people may

956
01:31:43.960 --> 01:32:00.520
be listen every day. It's something that I do which

957
01:32:00.600 --> 01:32:09.479
you may not realize by listening.

958
01:32:09.920 --> 01:32:10.079
Is.

959
01:32:14.079 --> 01:32:28.439
When I record these recordings now. For example, I also

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01:32:29.920 --> 01:32:41.159
am affected by the words that I say. So if

961
01:32:41.199 --> 01:32:50.319
I said to you, focus on your feet, notice your

962
01:32:50.399 --> 01:33:02.359
feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet. I

963
01:33:02.439 --> 01:33:20.239
will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus

964
01:33:20.279 --> 01:33:31.319
on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between each hand,

965
01:33:32.279 --> 01:33:39.039
perhaps notice the the air in the room, the temperature

966
01:33:39.119 --> 01:33:51.000
of the room. On the backs of your hands. You

967
01:33:51.079 --> 01:33:55.159
may start to notice what almost feels like a very

968
01:33:55.319 --> 01:34:03.680
light breeze, even though there may not be any type

969
01:34:03.720 --> 01:34:16.640
of breeze at all where you are right now. And

970
01:34:16.720 --> 01:34:28.760
as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware

971
01:34:30.600 --> 01:34:39.199
of how relaxed my hands are feeling.

972
01:34:40.600 --> 01:34:56.119
Now and when.

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01:34:56.039 --> 01:35:01.399
It comes to potentially to reve rifting enough to sleep,

974
01:35:02.479 --> 01:35:15.079
which may be the reason you're listening, I also feel

975
01:35:15.239 --> 01:35:29.479
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

976
01:35:29.760 --> 01:35:46.079
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

977
01:35:51.680 --> 01:36:05.840
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And

978
01:36:05.920 --> 01:36:11.399
it's only when I listen back to do the editing

979
01:36:15.159 --> 01:36:21.279
I hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring.

980
01:36:24.560 --> 01:36:30.680
I remember talking. It was this snoring was a pig

981
01:36:30.840 --> 01:36:37.199
turned up. That's why I sound like when I snare

982
01:36:42.520 --> 01:36:55.800
and I get really into the whole experience. I don't

983
01:36:55.840 --> 01:37:05.680
know how you feel, how relaxed you feel in your feet,

984
01:37:08.800 --> 01:37:31.720
how relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

985
01:37:34.279 --> 01:37:50.560
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

986
01:37:50.760 --> 01:38:07.239
comfort you feel, the easier you're breathing becau comes. It's

987
01:38:07.319 --> 01:38:23.760
almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you

988
01:38:28.640 --> 01:38:54.800
the breath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

989
01:38:55.039 --> 01:39:23.800
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

990
01:39:24.000 --> 01:40:13.880
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

991
01:40:13.960 --> 01:40:32.319
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

992
01:40:38.319 --> 01:40:51.199
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

993
01:40:51.439 --> 01:41:31.840
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too,

994
01:41:33.479 --> 01:42:02.640
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

995
01:42:03.720 --> 01:42:36.279
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

996
01:43:01.600 --> 01:43:27.119
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

997
01:43:33.000 --> 01:44:12.159
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

998
01:44:12.319 --> 01:45:24.000
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

999
01:45:25.000 --> 01:46:11.720
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1000
01:46:11.960 --> 01:46:28.079
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

1001
01:46:28.800 --> 01:46:42.760
out of your body, to appear out of every part

1002
01:46:48.600 --> 01:47:12.920
of your body and in released from your brain. D

1003
01:47:13.159 --> 01:47:48.640
your mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs

1004
01:47:59.840 --> 01:48:40.239
h relax res re so very deeply, relas, so deeply

1005
01:48:58.000 --> 01:49:26.079
in the feeding, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1006
01:49:26.119 --> 01:50:05.880
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine,

1007
01:50:09.039 --> 01:50:35.920
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

1008
01:50:35.960 --> 01:51:25.319
your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I also

1009
01:51:35.279 --> 01:52:14.560
feeling peaceful deeply. There's a sense of peace spreads through

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01:52:16.039 --> 01:53:01.640
your very core. Even when you focus on your mind,

1011
01:53:05.760 --> 01:54:16.239
her mind becomes be and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so

1012
01:54:16.880 --> 01:55:16.880
very slow. Your stomach, it's forin you's stomach, your back.

1013
01:55:22.279 --> 01:55:51.119
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd never feel in the hole

1014
01:55:51.479 --> 01:56:24.319
of your back you spy from your brain all the

1015
01:56:24.399 --> 01:56:33.119
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

1016
01:56:35.479 --> 01:57:07.760
millions of messages every day, deecomfort increasing deep clean ries.

1017
01:57:37.439 --> 01:57:38.199
You mes.

1018
01:58:03.800 --> 01:58:17.279
Relegs, spreading those signals down a spine or cord into

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01:58:17.399 --> 01:58:36.119
air every part of your body, your shins and your

1020
01:58:36.239 --> 01:59:32.239
calf muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading

1021
01:59:33.000 --> 01:59:45.640
through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1022
01:59:49.880 --> 01:59:56.880
your fingers, all the way to your lower back.

1023
02:00:08.720 --> 02:00:09.399
I think.

1024
02:00:11.479 --> 02:01:21.720
Re the thinker, peace drifting mind, just wandering away, happy

1025
02:01:22.520 --> 02:02:02.960
to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil

1026
02:02:27.159 --> 02:03:03.079
the whole body, enjoying a sensor lett him go, he

1027
02:03:04.479 --> 02:05:02.720
no peace for enjoy the space, this space of peace

1028
02:05:06.239 --> 02:05:29.239
and safety.

1029
02:05:30.039 --> 02:05:31.520
So firy.

1030
02:05:34.159 --> 02:07:33.159
Fy, relaxed, letting go. Maybe we can just focus on

1031
02:07:33.199 --> 02:08:07.800
the different parts of your body, just to notice a

1032
02:08:08.079 --> 02:09:10.880
forehead in your eyes Uo, so this noticing the sense

1033
02:09:10.960 --> 02:10:45.520
of complete freedom, absolute freedom, prif prift hee's for energy,

1034
02:11:18.399 --> 02:12:34.199
peace to breathe such easier loose. You may have or

1035
02:12:34.359 --> 02:13:34.760
may not have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful move ay

1036
02:13:34.880 --> 02:13:55.119
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful peace,

1037
02:13:59.279 --> 02:16:02.920
blissful pace, arrest, total peace, come soup, calm, let him

1038
02:16:03.039 --> 02:17:14.479
go peace with mind rexed forty so relaxed, so relaxed.

1039
02:17:38.799 --> 02:18:20.440
Your body feels almost invisible, very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so paceful,

1040
02:18:36.280 --> 02:19:22.760
relax liquor so and you could start to notice that

1041
02:19:23.559 --> 02:19:34.360
you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely

1042
02:19:35.760 --> 02:19:44.760
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

1043
02:19:44.920 --> 02:19:51.959
is growing within you throughout your body, and your mind

1044
02:19:54.040 --> 02:20:02.479
starts to slow down, and that could be almost in

1045
02:20:03.319 --> 02:20:11.959
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1046
02:20:18.479 --> 02:20:28.879
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1047
02:20:29.000 --> 02:20:37.680
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1048
02:20:37.719 --> 02:20:44.559
break from the day, take a break from your life

1049
02:20:45.680 --> 02:20:54.159
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1050
02:20:54.200 --> 02:21:01.799
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

1051
02:21:01.840 --> 02:21:08.040
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1052
02:21:12.079 --> 02:21:19.879
which in turn releases the tension and he stresses that

1053
02:21:19.920 --> 02:21:29.639
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

1054
02:21:29.719 --> 02:21:34.760
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

1055
02:21:35.040 --> 02:21:46.959
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

1056
02:21:47.559 --> 02:21:57.280
positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up and

1057
02:21:57.319 --> 02:22:09.479
your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of

1058
02:22:10.719 --> 02:22:30.239
increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy

1059
02:22:30.600 --> 02:22:41.200
that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort.

1060
02:22:46.000 --> 02:22:56.280
And all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1061
02:22:58.079 --> 02:23:00.920
maybe half an hour, hour the longer you want it

1062
02:23:00.959 --> 02:23:13.959
to be, to just rest and allow your mind and

1063
02:23:14.000 --> 02:23:24.840
your body to almost reset itself to the settings of

1064
02:23:25.879 --> 02:23:42.399
comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room for feelings

1065
02:23:42.479 --> 02:23:55.639
of pleasure and happiness to move around your body and

1066
02:23:55.760 --> 02:24:02.280
into your mind, almost as if your mind and your

1067
02:24:02.319 --> 02:24:14.200
body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other with that

1068
02:24:15.000 --> 02:24:28.559
growing positivity and calmness, And it feels nice. It really

1069
02:24:28.600 --> 02:24:34.520
does feel nice to know that you are the one

1070
02:24:34.639 --> 02:24:47.840
that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and to

1071
02:24:48.159 --> 02:25:06.159
experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body.

1072
02:25:08.680 --> 02:25:14.040
And as I focus on each part of your body,

1073
02:25:16.360 --> 02:25:28.479
you can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed

1074
02:25:30.440 --> 02:25:39.360
just by focusing on it. It becomes even more calm

1075
02:25:39.559 --> 02:25:50.319
and comfortable, just by focusing. And as I move down

1076
02:25:50.479 --> 02:25:58.159
your body, starting at your head, the parts that you've

1077
02:25:58.399 --> 02:26:08.360
already focused on or continue to relax deeply, and those

1078
02:26:08.520 --> 02:26:15.239
parts that we've not yet focused on or just automatically

1079
02:26:19.000 --> 02:26:27.840
release any remain intension in anticipation of even more comfort

1080
02:26:29.120 --> 02:26:39.840
about to come. Now, I'm going to start by focusing

1081
02:26:40.479 --> 02:26:47.239
on your forehead. Just being aware the feelings of your

1082
02:26:47.319 --> 02:26:57.840
forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon

1083
02:26:59.680 --> 02:27:07.360
can allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just means

1084
02:27:07.440 --> 02:27:14.479
you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1085
02:27:15.799 --> 02:27:23.639
This is the world. I live in the countryside, so

1086
02:27:23.680 --> 02:27:34.120
there's lots of nature sounds around. So as you focus

1087
02:27:34.239 --> 02:27:41.239
on your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more

1088
02:27:41.280 --> 02:27:50.840
relaxed as you focus only on my voice and that

1089
02:27:51.079 --> 02:28:01.920
part of your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing

1090
02:28:02.159 --> 02:28:13.079
on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy

1091
02:28:15.479 --> 02:28:22.559
yet so light at the same time, and all the

1092
02:28:22.639 --> 02:28:35.559
muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down

1093
02:28:35.639 --> 02:28:42.079
to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and

1094
02:28:42.159 --> 02:28:55.280
your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and loose.

1095
02:28:59.680 --> 02:29:07.559
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1096
02:29:07.680 --> 02:29:11.200
parts of your jaw near your mouth and your chin,

1097
02:29:12.440 --> 02:29:15.559
but all the way up the size of your face

1098
02:29:16.719 --> 02:29:29.159
to your ears a hole of your jaw feeding more

1099
02:29:29.959 --> 02:29:52.000
relaxed and calm, focusing on your neck, the front of

1100
02:29:52.079 --> 02:30:02.239
your neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm.

1101
02:30:04.760 --> 02:30:10.559
The sides of your neck, the right and left side

1102
02:30:10.719 --> 02:30:29.079
of your neck relax and loose and calm. And now

1103
02:30:29.360 --> 02:30:36.200
the back of your neck, focusing on the back of

1104
02:30:36.239 --> 02:30:46.440
your neck, letting go of any tension that may have

1105
02:30:46.559 --> 02:30:59.159
been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort

1106
02:30:59.840 --> 02:31:07.200
and release that you can experience in the back of

1107
02:31:07.239 --> 02:31:20.159
your neck. Moving down your back and moving either side

1108
02:31:20.200 --> 02:31:23.799
of your spine right from the top.

1109
02:31:23.639 --> 02:31:24.639
Of your back.

1110
02:31:26.239 --> 02:31:29.920
All the way down to the bottom of your back,

1111
02:31:35.879 --> 02:31:47.239
down to your lower back. And as you move up

1112
02:31:47.280 --> 02:31:56.120
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1113
02:31:56.239 --> 02:32:09.479
side of your spine relax in even more. And as

1114
02:32:09.559 --> 02:32:16.719
those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread

1115
02:32:18.319 --> 02:32:26.680
outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

1116
02:32:30.440 --> 02:32:34.159
the top of your back, the middle and your lower back.

1117
02:32:37.680 --> 02:32:44.840
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1118
02:32:45.000 --> 02:32:50.079
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1119
02:32:50.159 --> 02:33:00.000
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1120
02:33:00.079 --> 02:33:07.479
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1121
02:33:07.520 --> 02:33:21.000
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

1122
02:33:21.040 --> 02:33:32.600
back it seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1123
02:33:37.840 --> 02:33:44.000
The spreads into your hips, so down your lower back,

1124
02:33:44.319 --> 02:33:52.280
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1125
02:33:55.840 --> 02:34:03.520
and into your buttocks, and almost must sources that spread

1126
02:34:04.760 --> 02:34:14.520
bring your lower back into your hip area, start to melt,

1127
02:34:18.959 --> 02:34:31.399
start to really let go. I don't even know where about.

1128
02:34:31.440 --> 02:34:37.799
To focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1129
02:34:38.479 --> 02:34:55.280
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly.

1130
02:35:00.079 --> 02:35:05.280
As you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that

1131
02:35:05.280 --> 02:35:35.799
they're already feeding, really loose, they're already feeding calm, and

1132
02:35:35.879 --> 02:35:48.360
they're feeding those muscles. Then move from your neck into

1133
02:35:48.399 --> 02:36:17.920
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1134
02:36:25.200 --> 02:36:37.799
and the feeling in your shoulders seens to spread deep

1135
02:36:38.000 --> 02:36:47.760
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1136
02:36:48.239 --> 02:37:05.520
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1137
02:37:05.760 --> 02:37:14.000
moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing that

1138
02:37:14.200 --> 02:37:19.520
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

1139
02:37:19.559 --> 02:37:38.719
your arms, healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in

1140
02:37:38.799 --> 02:37:58.879
your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message into your arms,

1141
02:38:05.319 --> 02:38:10.399
and you may feel almost as if your arms are

1142
02:38:10.479 --> 02:38:22.159
not even there, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed,

1143
02:38:29.319 --> 02:39:04.879
so so calm.

1144
02:38:49.959 --> 02:38:50.120
So.

1145
02:38:56.799 --> 02:39:11.840
Loose, not feeling spreading all the way down your arms,

1146
02:39:14.559 --> 02:39:44.840
two elbows, including your elbows circumforts, spreads or away into wrists,

1147
02:39:47.440 --> 02:40:02.520
your forearments and your wrists feeling so heavy. Yet at

1148
02:40:02.719 --> 02:40:46.920
the same time, sunlight and gentle fet see now on

1149
02:40:49.399 --> 02:41:42.920
your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, the

1150
02:41:43.319 --> 02:42:08.799
sense of real peace. It just seems to feel so

1151
02:42:09.159 --> 02:43:17.600
familiar when your hands relax deeply ees your things, A

1152
02:43:18.040 --> 02:44:23.159
thing is sadly you thing it tips, moving your attention

1153
02:44:24.520 --> 02:44:52.719
to the front of your body, so comfortable, Moving your

1154
02:44:52.840 --> 02:46:36.920
focus to your legs, A muscles in your thighs, your knees,

1155
02:46:40.959 --> 02:48:11.399
so relaxed, a calf muscles, and just chans co pusyly four,

1156
02:49:18.040 --> 02:49:39.319
the feathing your feet, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1157
02:49:46.440 --> 02:50:41.440
so calm, so peaceful, syclm so peace for re sin,

1158
02:50:46.799 --> 02:51:06.879
peace for scme. Allowing that deep relaxation to spread your

1159
02:51:06.959 --> 02:51:23.159
chest and your stomach, letting go.

1160
02:51:24.760 --> 02:51:27.479
Of everything.

1161
02:51:38.680 --> 02:51:44.719
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1162
02:51:44.760 --> 02:51:52.920
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1163
02:51:53.639 --> 02:51:59.959
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1164
02:52:00.200 --> 02:52:09.399
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step

1165
02:52:09.840 --> 02:52:25.399
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

1166
02:52:25.520 --> 02:52:30.920
walk down those steps that the deeper and more relaxed

1167
02:52:31.120 --> 02:54:26.079
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

1168
02:55:12.360 --> 03:03:36.440
sixteen eight four four see too well five eight nine

1169
03:03:37.479 --> 03:13:23.239
eight seven six five four one. And now as you

1170
03:13:23.399 --> 03:13:36.280
focus on your eyes, we're going to count down from

1171
03:13:36.479 --> 03:13:51.799
ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1172
03:13:52.239 --> 03:14:00.959
the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a

1173
03:14:01.200 --> 03:14:18.120
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

1174
03:14:18.319 --> 03:14:26.959
count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing on

1175
03:14:27.040 --> 03:14:43.040
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

1176
03:14:44.000 --> 03:14:55.600
counting down, and you may find the all you want

1177
03:14:55.719 --> 03:15:04.719
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

1178
03:15:04.760 --> 03:15:18.440
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1179
03:15:21.159 --> 03:15:27.120
focus in on your eyes. I'm going to begin counting

1180
03:15:27.280 --> 03:16:42.680
down from ten down to one right now, ten nine

1181
03:16:45.319 --> 03:20:55.040
eight seven s five four.

1182
03:21:41.959 --> 03:24:42.600
Free two one.

1183
03:24:48.520 --> 03:25:13.319
Two. Count down ten to one ten nine eight seven, six, five,

1184
03:25:15.600 --> 03:25:23.000
four three two.

1185
03:25:24.879 --> 03:25:31.479
One.

1186
03:25:32.120 --> 03:25:35.040
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1187
03:25:35.079 --> 03:25:39.040
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1188
03:25:39.319 --> 03:25:49.079
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1189
03:25:49.079 --> 03:25:52.959
little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down from

1190
03:25:53.000 --> 03:25:55.760
ten to one. Would you expect me to do man,

1191
03:25:56.600 --> 03:26:01.200
expect me to stick gold floppy? Just you're counting down.

1192
03:26:06.760 --> 03:26:11.000
We could try again, but this time I go this lower.

1193
03:26:13.079 --> 03:26:17.959
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1194
03:26:18.000 --> 03:26:26.399
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1195
03:26:26.440 --> 03:26:40.559
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1196
03:26:40.680 --> 03:27:22.520
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1197
03:27:32.879 --> 03:28:32.120
four three two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1198
03:28:32.479 --> 03:28:46.840
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1199
03:28:46.920 --> 03:28:54.239
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1200
03:28:55.399 --> 03:29:13.879
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1201
03:29:18.559 --> 03:29:23.799
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1202
03:29:23.959 --> 03:29:30.600
not saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So

1203
03:29:31.280 --> 03:29:34.319
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1204
03:29:34.319 --> 03:29:45.360
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1205
03:29:45.360 --> 03:29:52.799
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1206
03:29:52.920 --> 03:30:05.319
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation, it's a

1207
03:30:05.440 --> 03:30:19.520
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1208
03:30:19.639 --> 03:30:32.280
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

1209
03:30:34.479 --> 03:30:35.079
To just.

1210
03:30:38.000 --> 03:30:44.760
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1211
03:30:45.159 --> 03:30:55.399
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1212
03:30:55.440 --> 03:31:01.520
it's almost like the thestress and attention falls into the

1213
03:31:01.559 --> 03:32:11.360
gap and gives you that distance that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1214
03:32:22.440 --> 03:33:23.520
four three two.

1215
03:33:16.319 --> 03:33:16.559
One.

1216
03:33:28.120 --> 03:33:32.559
Now, how does your body feel.

1217
03:33:34.440 --> 03:33:46.120
Now?

1218
03:33:47.319 --> 03:33:59.360
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Do you

1219
03:33:59.520 --> 03:34:29.559
feel more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1220
03:34:29.680 --> 03:34:50.360
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1221
03:34:50.600 --> 03:35:09.760
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1222
03:35:09.879 --> 03:35:16.440
to be doing, because I'm sure like most of your

1223
03:35:16.479 --> 03:35:28.239
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1224
03:35:28.360 --> 03:35:34.520
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1225
03:35:34.559 --> 03:35:40.639
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

1226
03:35:40.719 --> 03:35:47.760
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically

1227
03:35:47.879 --> 03:35:51.559
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

1228
03:35:55.559 --> 03:36:06.360
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

1229
03:36:06.520 --> 03:36:14.000
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1230
03:36:14.159 --> 03:36:20.600
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

1231
03:36:20.639 --> 03:36:37.000
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1232
03:36:37.120 --> 03:36:50.399
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

1233
03:36:50.440 --> 03:37:12.399
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

1234
03:37:12.440 --> 03:37:26.479
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

1235
03:37:26.120 --> 03:37:31.680
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

1236
03:37:31.840 --> 03:37:39.840
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

1237
03:37:43.040 --> 03:37:55.719
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I

1238
03:37:55.879 --> 03:38:05.319
thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1239
03:38:11.520 --> 03:38:17.120
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1240
03:38:17.159 --> 03:38:19.920
you think, why am I sure that how I should

1241
03:38:19.959 --> 03:38:24.799
be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1242
03:38:28.959 --> 03:38:31.399
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1243
03:38:32.280 --> 03:38:34.520
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1244
03:38:34.559 --> 03:38:38.319
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1245
03:38:38.360 --> 03:38:47.079
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1246
03:38:48.840 --> 03:38:56.799
getting such an important part, and I think we don't

1247
03:38:56.879 --> 03:39:04.000
necessarily I'll speak for myself. I fear I don't necessarily

1248
03:39:04.040 --> 03:39:11.399
appreciate all that my knees do for me. Until I

1249
03:39:11.559 --> 03:39:14.920
have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I

1250
03:39:15.000 --> 03:39:20.680
ever maybe i'll pash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1251
03:39:22.360 --> 03:39:28.600
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1252
03:39:28.639 --> 03:39:34.639
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1253
03:39:36.360 --> 03:39:43.639
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1254
03:39:43.840 --> 03:39:52.280
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1255
03:39:56.360 --> 03:40:01.000
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1256
03:40:01.040 --> 03:40:08.559
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1257
03:40:10.079 --> 03:40:12.760
and love to your knees for all that they do

1258
03:40:12.840 --> 03:40:25.920
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1259
03:40:26.000 --> 03:40:32.200
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1260
03:40:32.479 --> 03:40:49.920
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1261
03:40:50.040 --> 03:40:55.399
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1262
03:40:56.159 --> 03:41:01.840
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1263
03:41:02.600 --> 03:41:10.360
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1264
03:41:16.000 --> 03:41:20.799
Anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1265
03:41:20.799 --> 03:41:28.959
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1266
03:41:34.840 --> 03:41:36.879
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1267
03:41:36.920 --> 03:41:42.559
think that, you know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1268
03:41:42.680 --> 03:41:47.559
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1269
03:41:47.600 --> 03:41:51.319
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1270
03:41:51.319 --> 03:41:57.440
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

1271
03:41:57.639 --> 03:42:07.319
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1272
03:42:07.360 --> 03:42:12.239
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

1273
03:42:13.559 --> 03:42:20.959
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1274
03:42:21.000 --> 03:42:36.079
ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1275
03:42:36.120 --> 03:42:41.840
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1276
03:42:41.920 --> 03:42:53.840
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1277
03:42:53.959 --> 03:43:07.280
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1278
03:43:07.319 --> 03:43:14.959
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1279
03:43:15.000 --> 03:43:20.200
point in calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1280
03:43:21.200 --> 03:43:24.719
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1281
03:43:24.760 --> 03:43:28.319
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

1282
03:43:28.399 --> 03:43:32.879
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs,

1283
03:43:38.399 --> 03:43:51.040
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1284
03:43:51.079 --> 03:44:00.760
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1285
03:44:03.360 --> 03:44:15.319
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1286
03:44:15.360 --> 03:44:17.319
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1287
03:44:17.319 --> 03:44:23.840
going to focus on the legs. I realize that now

1288
03:44:23.840 --> 03:44:28.479
that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focuses on them anyway,

1289
03:44:28.959 --> 03:44:31.559
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1290
03:44:35.559 --> 03:44:40.040
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1291
03:44:40.079 --> 03:44:44.440
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1292
03:44:44.559 --> 03:44:50.520
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, we've

1293
03:44:50.520 --> 03:45:01.479
been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

1294
03:45:04.639 --> 03:45:17.440
comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy,

1295
03:45:19.479 --> 03:45:26.520
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1296
03:45:26.559 --> 03:45:31.360
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1297
03:45:31.520 --> 03:45:44.920
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1298
03:45:44.959 --> 03:45:50.319
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1299
03:45:51.040 --> 03:46:02.680
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1300
03:46:09.200 --> 03:46:16.719
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1301
03:46:16.760 --> 03:46:22.079
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff that's

1302
03:46:22.159 --> 03:46:30.760
inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1303
03:46:30.799 --> 03:46:35.360
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1304
03:46:35.760 --> 03:46:40.959
and a message. So you can message on the outside,

1305
03:46:41.200 --> 03:46:44.120
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1306
03:46:44.159 --> 03:46:49.000
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1307
03:46:49.040 --> 03:46:56.079
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, message

1308
03:46:56.120 --> 03:47:09.360
in all the veins, just gently healing your thighs, and

1309
03:47:09.479 --> 03:47:16.799
you could move down messaging inside your knees. Just message

1310
03:47:16.799 --> 03:47:23.840
in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing

1311
03:47:24.000 --> 03:47:34.559
energy deep into the joints of your knees. Of course,

1312
03:47:34.600 --> 03:47:37.959
there's the back of your your knee, you know, the

1313
03:47:38.079 --> 03:47:46.159
inside crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1314
03:47:47.079 --> 03:47:51.479
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1315
03:47:51.600 --> 03:47:55.319
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1316
03:47:55.479 --> 03:48:02.079
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1317
03:48:04.200 --> 03:48:08.680
in your legs. It's almost it's like a part that

1318
03:48:10.440 --> 03:48:21.719
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1319
03:48:21.760 --> 03:48:32.280
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1320
03:48:33.120 --> 03:48:43.520
your fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between

1321
03:48:43.559 --> 03:48:48.639
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1322
03:48:48.639 --> 03:48:59.680
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You

1323
03:48:59.719 --> 03:49:06.280
can course field the bones of your knees, healing through

1324
03:49:06.280 --> 03:49:19.040
your fingertips, and then as you go down to your

1325
03:49:19.040 --> 03:49:21.760
calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like to be

1326
03:49:21.760 --> 03:49:27.600
able to really put my fingertips deep inside my calf

1327
03:49:27.680 --> 03:49:38.239
muscles massage in every single tissue of that muscle, healing

1328
03:49:38.520 --> 03:49:47.559
every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1329
03:49:50.680 --> 03:49:57.639
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1330
03:49:58.479 --> 03:50:02.680
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1331
03:50:02.799 --> 03:50:10.040
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1332
03:50:10.120 --> 03:50:13.719
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1333
03:50:13.760 --> 03:50:22.079
of our body, and more precious of anyture on the planet.

1334
03:50:30.600 --> 03:50:42.360
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1335
03:50:43.200 --> 03:50:49.879
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1336
03:50:52.959 --> 03:50:57.239
a bit silly to start with, the idea of having

1337
03:50:58.120 --> 03:51:05.040
love for your legs, show an appreciation for your thighs,

1338
03:51:07.799 --> 03:51:11.760
wanting to be able to put your hands in your

1339
03:51:11.760 --> 03:51:20.360
thighs the message the muscles and the bones, and to

1340
03:51:20.399 --> 03:51:28.799
get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just

1341
03:51:28.840 --> 03:51:38.280
to show how much you care about your legs, how

1342
03:51:38.360 --> 03:51:44.319
much you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1343
03:51:46.639 --> 03:51:56.239
your knees, your cars, your ankles, the strength of your

1344
03:51:56.280 --> 03:52:04.479
anklesidering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1345
03:52:04.520 --> 03:52:14.360
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible,

1346
03:52:18.120 --> 03:52:30.920
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

1347
03:52:30.959 --> 03:52:39.760
of what they do for you supporting all that weight.

1348
03:52:41.719 --> 03:52:46.120
Regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1349
03:52:46.239 --> 03:52:51.000
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

1350
03:52:51.200 --> 03:52:57.920
for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than

1351
03:52:57.920 --> 03:53:07.920
eight stone double down, yet my ankles support my body

1352
03:53:08.639 --> 03:53:15.239
all the time, or they do give off a sigh

1353
03:53:15.280 --> 03:53:20.479
of relief when I sit down, as you've got my

1354
03:53:20.479 --> 03:53:30.280
whole legs dough my feet feet also go, my toes clap.

1355
03:53:31.440 --> 03:53:59.920
We're so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1356
03:54:00.120 --> 03:54:04.040
know that talk about talking about your legs is probably

1357
03:54:06.479 --> 03:54:11.200
possibly among the most most boring things you've ever heard

1358
03:54:11.239 --> 03:54:19.639
anyone say. Possibly, but boring or not, everything I said

1359
03:54:19.760 --> 03:54:36.440
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1360
03:54:36.799 --> 03:54:55.280
just respect, They deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1361
03:54:55.399 --> 03:55:00.719
take some time out of the day. Did you let

1362
03:55:00.840 --> 03:55:36.799
go completely? The legs really can relax. And because the

1363
03:55:36.920 --> 03:55:41.479
legs are so such a most, you know, very important

1364
03:55:42.079 --> 03:55:46.639
part of your body. When you relax your legs, the

1365
03:55:46.719 --> 03:55:57.959
rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

1366
03:55:58.079 --> 03:56:09.840
of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

1367
03:56:09.959 --> 03:56:17.319
hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back as well.

1368
03:56:19.319 --> 03:56:25.079
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1369
03:56:25.079 --> 03:56:28.760
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1370
03:56:31.440 --> 03:56:34.600
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1371
03:56:34.639 --> 03:56:38.479
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1372
03:56:38.559 --> 03:56:46.239
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1373
03:56:47.079 --> 03:57:05.680
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

1374
03:57:06.280 --> 03:57:15.360
ten down to one, and you can continue to fill

1375
03:57:17.120 --> 03:57:53.319
wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three

1376
03:57:53.719 --> 03:58:14.520
two one. Relax. So I'm just going to count down

1377
03:58:16.000 --> 03:58:20.680
and fire down to one. And as a countdown, if

1378
03:58:20.719 --> 03:58:27.959
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1379
03:58:28.840 --> 03:58:38.040
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1380
03:58:38.120 --> 03:58:45.680
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1381
03:58:45.719 --> 03:58:55.920
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1382
03:58:56.040 --> 03:59:04.399
but also relaxing your mind. I just notice how you feel.

1383
03:59:05.319 --> 03:59:11.239
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1384
03:59:11.319 --> 04:00:03.000
to think about, starting with number five, four three two one.

1385
04:00:03.799 --> 04:00:15.680
And as you notice the gradual letting go that the

1386
04:00:15.840 --> 04:00:23.479
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1387
04:00:23.559 --> 04:00:32.079
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1388
04:00:32.120 --> 04:00:38.799
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens

1389
04:00:41.319 --> 04:00:46.559
it's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1390
04:00:46.600 --> 04:00:52.559
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

1391
04:00:54.120 --> 04:00:57.760
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1392
04:00:57.879 --> 04:01:08.520
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1393
04:01:09.680 --> 04:01:17.520
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1394
04:01:17.559 --> 04:01:24.600
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1395
04:01:25.040 --> 04:01:30.360
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1396
04:01:30.360 --> 04:01:35.520
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1397
04:01:35.520 --> 04:01:42.959
you're listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're

1398
04:01:43.120 --> 04:01:45.280
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1399
04:01:45.319 --> 04:01:49.959
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1400
04:01:50.079 --> 04:01:53.200
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1401
04:01:54.879 --> 04:02:05.040
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1402
04:02:11.520 --> 04:02:21.840
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1403
04:02:26.319 --> 04:02:33.079
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1404
04:02:33.360 --> 04:02:45.200
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1405
04:02:45.280 --> 04:02:55.680
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost know. The

1406
04:02:55.959 --> 04:03:02.719
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1407
04:03:02.840 --> 04:03:07.440
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1408
04:03:10.040 --> 04:03:19.440
It's something that happens naturally, and part of the process

1409
04:03:19.799 --> 04:03:31.200
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1410
04:03:33.399 --> 04:03:44.280
to take advantage of this space. This time, it's just

1411
04:03:48.440 --> 04:03:59.280
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1412
04:03:59.639 --> 04:04:11.840
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1413
04:04:12.079 --> 04:04:24.200
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1414
04:04:24.440 --> 04:04:30.680
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1415
04:04:30.760 --> 04:04:46.959
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1416
04:04:47.040 --> 04:04:51.840
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1417
04:04:51.879 --> 04:04:59.920
is a tiny bit at the end. The deeper relax

1418
04:05:00.360 --> 04:05:21.959
do you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1419
04:05:22.040 --> 04:05:30.440
can also, if you choose stay focused on my voice

1420
04:05:30.840 --> 04:06:02.399
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1421
04:06:02.440 --> 04:06:29.799
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1422
04:06:29.920 --> 04:06:45.559
go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

1423
04:06:46.559 --> 04:06:58.639
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1424
04:06:58.920 --> 04:07:11.479
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1425
04:07:12.520 --> 04:07:15.879
feeling calm.

1426
04:07:15.879 --> 04:07:16.879
And slow.

1427
04:07:20.600 --> 04:07:22.319
And be peaceful.

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04:07:27.559 --> 04:10:18.840
Six, five, four, three, two.

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One, being aware of how your mind to slowed right down,

1430
04:10:28.000 --> 04:10:52.520
sinking deeply into relaxation, and as you focus on your mind,

1431
04:10:51.680 --> 04:11:04.200
you may notice that there's some thought that's still there,

1432
04:11:04.239 --> 04:11:13.799
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1433
04:11:13.879 --> 04:11:29.079
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1434
04:11:29.280 --> 04:11:42.799
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. I do

1435
04:11:43.079 --> 04:11:48.760
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1436
04:11:48.760 --> 04:11:56.040
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1437
04:11:56.200 --> 04:12:03.079
know that you're not abandon them them. You just need them.

1438
04:12:04.239 --> 04:12:15.399
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1439
04:12:15.680 --> 04:12:31.680
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining thoughts.

1440
04:12:32.879 --> 04:12:38.280
As a countdown, this time from seven down to one.

1441
04:12:38.520 --> 04:12:52.840
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1442
04:12:54.200 --> 04:13:06.079
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1443
04:13:07.479 --> 04:13:22.559
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1444
04:13:22.639 --> 04:14:00.280
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six.

1445
04:14:17.520 --> 04:16:05.319
Five, four, three one.

1446
04:16:05.959 --> 04:16:19.680
And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling.

1447
04:16:22.840 --> 04:16:32.639
In your body, we're going.

1448
04:16:32.520 --> 04:16:46.239
To focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1449
04:16:46.399 --> 04:16:53.319
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1450
04:17:08.200 --> 04:17:08.600
And there.

1451
04:17:10.360 --> 04:17:20.520
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1452
04:17:21.040 --> 04:17:25.799
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1453
04:17:26.840 --> 04:17:37.200
dancing the fingers or anything like that. Yeah, it's just

1454
04:17:37.639 --> 04:17:51.680
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1455
04:18:06.319 --> 04:18:16.920
Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1456
04:18:17.000 --> 04:18:28.920
mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1457
04:18:34.120 --> 04:18:38.000
And you may.

1458
04:18:40.239 --> 04:19:22.760
Have already noticed your mind is starting to drest like

1459
04:19:23.079 --> 04:19:38.079
sense just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

1460
04:19:38.200 --> 04:19:51.479
cheat experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your

1461
04:19:51.639 --> 04:20:10.120
hands and fingers, more and more relaxed with each number

1462
04:20:17.959 --> 04:20:30.520
from eight down to one. You can almost feel that

1463
04:20:31.280 --> 04:20:41.280
healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers

1464
04:20:44.479 --> 04:21:07.559
becoming year and more relaxing with each number ye coming down,

1465
04:21:08.479 --> 04:21:39.479
eight down to one, drifting, drifting again starting with number eight.

1466
04:22:07.840 --> 04:22:21.760
Seven s.

1467
04:23:21.559 --> 04:25:33.280
Fy four three, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1468
04:25:35.000 --> 04:25:46.600
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1469
04:25:51.000 --> 04:25:58.559
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1470
04:25:58.760 --> 04:26:05.440
how you just normally phil. When you take away all

1471
04:26:05.479 --> 04:26:12.440
of that other stuff that we add, you know, things

1472
04:26:12.520 --> 04:26:28.680
like stress and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally

1473
04:26:28.879 --> 04:26:35.079
thinking about stuff. You take that away, which is what

1474
04:26:35.120 --> 04:26:35.559
we do.

1475
04:26:36.159 --> 04:26:36.600
What we do.

1476
04:26:36.840 --> 04:26:54.159
Now you're left with a real sense of peacefulness, which

1477
04:26:54.319 --> 04:27:04.200
comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1478
04:27:08.600 --> 04:27:16.959
a feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside

1479
04:27:17.000 --> 04:27:29.200
yourself and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1480
04:27:32.120 --> 04:27:37.559
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1481
04:27:39.680 --> 04:27:46.000
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1482
04:27:50.719 --> 04:27:57.680
where you can accept yourself for who you are, the

1483
04:27:57.799 --> 04:28:04.360
place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

1484
04:28:08.319 --> 04:28:16.920
a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1485
04:28:17.000 --> 04:28:22.479
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself

1486
04:28:24.959 --> 04:28:42.319
appreciate who you are. That sense of gratitude is in

1487
04:28:42.399 --> 04:28:52.920
the air all around you, and that's also a place

1488
04:28:53.079 --> 04:29:09.600
where you can actually feel that energy soaking into your body,

1489
04:29:10.559 --> 04:29:21.959
healing energy soaking into your body, and that healing energy

1490
04:29:22.319 --> 04:29:32.639
spreads through your veins, traveling to each and every single

1491
04:29:33.000 --> 04:29:43.479
part of your body, and you start to realize that

1492
04:29:43.719 --> 04:29:51.079
actually that healing energy, it's not just entered into your brain,

1493
04:29:53.879 --> 04:30:03.399
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

1494
04:30:06.040 --> 04:30:17.000
is now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you

1495
04:30:17.079 --> 04:30:25.120
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

1496
04:30:29.600 --> 04:30:39.040
but also you start to realize to actually, what's happening

1497
04:30:39.239 --> 04:30:47.840
now with that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body,

1498
04:30:49.719 --> 04:31:00.280
it's actually changing your life. It's actually changing in the

1499
04:31:00.319 --> 04:31:06.079
way you're going to feel, not just now, but tomorrow

1500
04:31:07.159 --> 04:31:16.040
and the next day. There's your health improves, not just

1501
04:31:16.120 --> 04:31:24.079
your physical health, but your mental health. Things that used

1502
04:31:24.079 --> 04:31:29.959
to bother you in the past, for some reason, no

1503
04:31:30.040 --> 04:31:38.000
longer have the effect that they used to because something

1504
04:31:38.159 --> 04:31:49.280
has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to

1505
04:31:51.479 --> 04:32:00.920
cause you to feel anger no longer have that power

1506
04:32:03.799 --> 04:32:08.920
to control you the way they seem to be able

1507
04:32:08.959 --> 04:32:19.959
to before. As you realize that you're the one who

1508
04:32:20.040 --> 04:32:34.399
decides what affects you, you're the one who decides to

1509
04:32:34.559 --> 04:32:47.479
feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing

1510
04:32:48.559 --> 04:33:03.200
these natural developments of healing continuing to grow and improve

1511
04:33:03.559 --> 04:33:14.599
your life day by day, including of course, your ability

1512
04:33:16.639 --> 04:33:31.479
to relax so much easier and sleep in it's the

1513
04:33:31.520 --> 04:33:42.319
most natural thing in the world to you because for in,

1514
04:33:42.439 --> 04:33:49.639
the sleep is something that you've done so many times.

1515
04:33:50.840 --> 04:33:56.080
In your life, and you know that you.

1516
04:33:56.000 --> 04:34:02.880
Were born, as we all were, with the ability to

1517
04:34:02.959 --> 04:34:16.479
fall asleep naturally. We're born with that ability to just

1518
04:34:17.000 --> 04:34:31.159
drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids,

1519
04:34:32.759 --> 04:34:35.680
sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't even want to

1520
04:34:37.680 --> 04:34:42.840
try to stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1521
04:34:42.959 --> 04:34:47.360
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1522
04:34:47.880 --> 04:34:51.959
We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

1523
04:34:52.520 --> 04:34:57.400
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

1524
04:34:57.479 --> 04:35:05.799
to drift. And the more you fight drifting, the more

1525
04:35:05.840 --> 04:35:08.400
you try to stop yourself and drift in a safe

1526
04:35:10.520 --> 04:35:21.599
the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

1527
04:35:22.560 --> 04:35:28.439
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

1528
04:35:28.599 --> 04:35:35.119
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright.

1529
04:35:37.840 --> 04:35:46.520
As part of our DNA, and.

1530
04:35:46.639 --> 04:35:52.319
Sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1531
04:35:53.040 --> 04:36:06.040
we have forgotten that relax completely. It's not only a

1532
04:36:06.279 --> 04:36:30.560
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

1533
04:36:31.040 --> 04:36:36.840
easy to let go, because that's all it is. It's

1534
04:36:37.080 --> 04:36:51.759
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

1535
04:36:51.840 --> 04:37:02.240
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

1536
04:37:02.439 --> 04:37:10.840
my voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1537
04:37:11.840 --> 04:37:22.840
you've given me permission for my words to affect you

1538
04:37:23.439 --> 04:37:39.959
in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up your

1539
04:37:40.040 --> 04:37:52.840
mind too useful and healing suggestions.

1540
04:37:57.360 --> 04:37:58.439
They can have.

1541
04:38:02.560 --> 04:38:10.240
Such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1542
04:38:14.759 --> 04:38:24.639
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1543
04:38:24.720 --> 04:38:36.040
recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

1544
04:38:36.240 --> 04:38:50.840
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1545
04:38:53.919 --> 04:39:01.040
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1546
04:39:01.080 --> 04:39:18.360
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

1547
04:39:18.639 --> 04:39:34.319
feeling that you in experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This

1548
04:39:34.479 --> 04:39:48.040
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to.

1549
04:39:48.080 --> 04:39:58.919
Be, and that positivity.

1550
04:39:59.119 --> 04:40:17.919
Grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you

1551
04:40:18.279 --> 04:40:29.360
had to find you're more relaxed physically and in your

1552
04:40:29.439 --> 04:40:39.560
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

1553
04:40:41.799 --> 04:40:45.439
it's just that your mind would be less unlocked up

1554
04:40:46.520 --> 04:40:59.840
with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1555
04:41:03.840 --> 04:41:12.080
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises.

1556
04:41:15.880 --> 04:41:29.520
You can just say stop, stop, and that negativity will

1557
04:41:29.599 --> 04:41:46.319
turn around and leave your alone. Stop and that negativity

1558
04:41:49.439 --> 04:42:03.680
will disappear. And that you notice that you feel way

1559
04:42:03.919 --> 04:42:08.319
more relaxed than you've probably expected.

1560
04:42:14.479 --> 04:42:15.959
You can now.

1561
04:42:18.959 --> 04:42:24.919
Congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this

1562
04:42:26.599 --> 04:42:32.279
You are the one that has opened your mind up

1563
04:42:32.720 --> 04:42:40.799
to the simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

1564
04:42:40.880 --> 04:42:50.560
in your body and in your mind. You've opened your

1565
04:42:50.680 --> 04:42:56.200
mind up to the birthright of being able to just

1566
04:42:58.880 --> 04:43:13.720
fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

1567
04:43:15.319 --> 04:43:16.119
Don't you think.

1568
04:43:18.680 --> 04:43:19.400
Feels nice?

1569
04:43:19.520 --> 04:43:22.919
Doesn't it?

1570
04:43:22.959 --> 04:43:29.520
Do you feel calm full? That healing energy is spreading

1571
04:43:29.639 --> 04:43:42.880
through your body in your mind? Spend time a special

1572
04:43:43.000 --> 04:43:58.840
place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned.

1573
04:44:00.000 --> 04:44:07.360
It's good, it's not allowed. Entrigue doesn't it doesn't. This

1574
04:44:07.919 --> 04:44:15.759
doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't be long here. Negativity

1575
04:44:15.959 --> 04:44:30.119
has no place in your life, which makes room.

1576
04:44:30.080 --> 04:44:37.959
For more comfort, more heathing, more.

1577
04:44:37.560 --> 04:45:03.840
Relaxation, more peace. Who's nice? Doesn't it?

1578
04:45:04.279 --> 04:45:08.479
Just to let go.

1579
04:45:12.119 --> 04:45:12.759
Everything.

1580
04:45:26.279 --> 04:45:33.479
I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1581
04:45:34.200 --> 04:45:40.759
He can continue to relax if he choose, you can

1582
04:45:43.840 --> 04:45:59.560
create to sleep renumber. He may say, you can feel

1583
04:46:00.720 --> 04:46:09.799
twice is relaxed. Will you cheat in the fowise sleeping.

1584
04:46:16.240 --> 04:46:22.919
Now twenty.

1585
04:46:31.520 --> 04:46:59.080
Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen.

1586
04:47:05.240 --> 04:47:06.360
Fifty thing.

1587
04:47:12.840 --> 04:47:14.279
War see.

1588
04:47:23.080 --> 04:48:04.759
Too well eleven ten nine eight.

1589
04:48:11.959 --> 04:48:30.560
Six five.

1590
04:48:37.400 --> 04:49:12.080
War It is your time.

1591
04:49:14.840 --> 04:49:20.959
Let just take a break, your.

1592
04:49:20.919 --> 04:49:21.599
Time to.

1593
04:49:24.439 --> 04:49:40.959
Relax, todaile your mind, to slow down, to give.

1594
04:49:40.880 --> 04:49:42.759
Yourself permission.

1595
04:49:47.000 --> 04:49:48.720
To take a break.

1596
04:49:53.400 --> 04:50:00.959
From everything, and to the a new person.

1597
04:50:01.759 --> 04:50:02.680
They can make that.

1598
04:50:06.479 --> 04:50:09.360
You're the only person you can actually tell your mind.

1599
04:50:14.360 --> 04:50:15.159
Just relax.

1600
04:50:23.680 --> 04:50:28.720
Just take some time.

1601
04:50:38.200 --> 04:50:40.959
So that you can focus on your body.

1602
04:50:41.880 --> 04:50:45.880
I think and doubt how you feel.

1603
04:50:47.240 --> 04:50:56.919
Physically and in.

1604
04:50:56.959 --> 04:50:58.159
The process on.

1605
04:51:01.000 --> 04:51:05.680
This boot is scared with you focus on different parts

1606
04:51:05.720 --> 04:51:16.639
of the body. Those parts you focus on and observe,

1607
04:51:19.639 --> 04:51:20.720
even though there.

1608
04:51:20.639 --> 04:51:25.360
Not purposely requesting.

1609
04:51:26.880 --> 04:51:32.279
For those parts are putting to relax. It's kind of

1610
04:51:32.439 --> 04:51:44.560
expected with expect when you listen to THEE to fear naturally,

1611
04:51:50.080 --> 04:51:59.080
because when you're listening to me and attention, it's focused.

1612
04:52:00.240 --> 04:52:01.119
On my words.

1613
04:52:06.200 --> 04:52:07.279
It is my words.

1614
04:52:08.279 --> 04:52:08.959
I you.

1615
04:52:11.599 --> 04:52:31.959
Focus on those parts of body, focus and pass thantually.

1616
04:52:34.680 --> 04:52:55.799
You can't you mind at.

1617
04:53:14.319 --> 04:53:33.240
Ms spooky.

1618
04:53:39.720 --> 04:53:46.119
You don't be like anything spooking.