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(no music) (5 hours) Mental Health Review | LMBYTS #1414 | Jason Newland | 19th August 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Mental Health Review | LMBYTS #1414 | Jason Newland | 19th August 2025
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Oh, hello, and welcome to Jason Newland dot com com

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com Ado.

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How are you?

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Are you well?

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Oh?

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So this is let me buoy you to sleep. Please

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only listen when you can safely close your eyes. My

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name's Jason Newland. Yes, and today is Tuesday, the nineteenth

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of August. Wow. And then he said April April. But

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to be fair, I've just woken up. I want to say,

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just woken up, I would say, within the last six minutes. Yeah,

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I don't know. How long does it take to a

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we wi even take a tablet and walk back in,

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walk into the living room and then yeah, then then

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get back out and to a different light on, turn

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the main light off and turn a smaller light on

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in the living room. So I walk up there thinking, oh,

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I haven't got any shoes on, my slippers or my crocs.

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I hope there's nothing on the floor that hurts my foot.

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And then on the way back to my chair, I'm

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thinking and remembering my dad once kneeled on a knelt

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on a nail in a loft because he was then electrician,

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and thinking, oh, I must have been painful. And I

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sat down on a chair and thinking, yeah, that's really

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a nice, painful thing he ever went through. Then I thought, yeah,

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but he's he was in the other things once. But

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then maybe you know, the adrenaline and stuff that would

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have kicked in. And then I thought, why I think

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about this? It's a weird thing to think about. And uh,

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and then is this even registering? And then I I thought,

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I'm just gonna got this thing set up, and here

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we are. And then then he walked in just as

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I was getting the recording ready, and yeah, he came in,

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plodded in. I don't think he was even awake, to

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be fair half awake maybe, And he jumped onto the

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chair to go to sleep next to me, covered up

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next to me. And here he is. He's asleep. It's

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fast asleep, not even a little bit of sleep, but

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a lot of sleep. But in reality, I can't really know,

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can I. I can't know that he might be sitting there,

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wide awake, thinking of all the naughty things he's going

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to do in the coming day. I don't know. I'm thinking, Oh,

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how how can I wind up Daddy today?

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Oh? I know what?

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I glue his ears together? I don't know, you no

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idea what's going on in his little mind. This is

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the sausage. That's what he used to be called. That's

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what Uncle Sausages called him. He called he called Vinnie.

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He started calling Vinnie's sausages sausages, sausages. He started saying

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how sausages today? Is he good?

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How?

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He didn't say is he good? That's something that's a

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term he never really used. Is he good?

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No?

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But I mean you didn't know that. I didn't he

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to tell you that. It's not relevant, really, is it?

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What kind of phrases he used in his day to

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day bit better language? All I know is he used

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a lot more words than I do. Yeah, he's definitely too,

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is weird?

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Right?

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Uncle Sausages said to me, right, and he was in.

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Wow.

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Yeah.

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This was.

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One of the last times I actually had a conversation

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with him, possibly the last time. Oh, that's my stomach.

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You're going to get that a lot. I think that's

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going to be the background sounds for this recording.

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Good, my dummy. I want some food. Oh is it

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just attention? No, it's food. I want food. I don't

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want attention. I want food.

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Okay, give me some food. What would you like? I'd

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like you to give me some ready, break, Is there

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anything else?

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Yes, stop asking questions, just get me the ready break.

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So yeah, yeah, uncle sausages or shuttages. He said, right,

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why don't we make a podcast? And then he said,

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why don't you make a podcast and make it funny?

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I said, okay, he said. I didn't really know what

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he wanted. He said, yeah, we should do a podcast.

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And he wanted me to write it. Wanted me to

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think up a funny script for me and him to say.

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And as you will well be aware if you regular

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listened to this webinar, you know that I don't write

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no script for this or don't or don't write no

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script ever if ever, and I ain't never gonna no,

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I ain't never gonna do it. BlimE me. If this,

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if there was a script, then I need to get

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I need to sack the script writer and get me

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in some proper professional writers. And I didn't really know

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what you wanted. I said, Oh, can't let me write scripts?

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He said, go on, you can use your brain like

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it's not but don't. Why do you assume I can

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use my brain?

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Don't.

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Don't overestimate my powers to use my brain? Come on, ah, Anyway,

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the irony of that was I said to Uncle's Sausages

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years ago, and I'm talking when I've probably first met him,

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that he should do a podcast because he was so

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into sport. He could have done a podcast on sport.

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There's a little bit of a gap. There wasn't there

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a little bit of a pause? Even I noticed it.

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There's another one. I said to him, should do a podcast.

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What's that? Well, it's like a radio show, really, except

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it's not a live audience. It's just you posted it afterwards.

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It can be like a radio show. And he said, okay.

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It wasn't interested. And I told said I must have

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mentioned it to him loads of times over the years.

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I even said to him, look, I've got equipment you

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can use if you do it with me. I said, no,

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do it with no. I don't think even asked that.

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But I didn't really want to do it with him

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because I don't know the very first thing about sport

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apart from boxing. And I make that. I make that

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up as well.

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Boxing.

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I can't even spell it bo x I n g oh,

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yes I can. Wow, I'm clevera and I thought it

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I was, I is so Yesterday yesterday I had to

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go to the darktors. So I after nearly fifty five

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five years, I'm starting to get used to myself. I'm

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starting to be able to kind of predict how I'm

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going to be. And for that reason, I ordered a taxi.

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I called up a taxi service Sunday, but late afternoon

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and ordered a taxi for one. Might have been in

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the evening, maybe at six o'clock something, at six point thirty.

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It's not that relevant, is it. Do you need the

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precise time? Do you need to know what I was

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wearing when I made the phone call? Yeah, I was

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wearing a basque. Do you need to know what I

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was eating? I can tell you what I was eating.

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I wasn't. I was just sucking on a lollipop. It

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was banana flavor, which is weird. You might think this

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is the whole You might think this is weird. The

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weirdest thing about it is it was a red lollipop,

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but it tasted banana. You might think being dressed as

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in a basque and with like a fish tail, like

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a mermaid in a bask basically that's what I was

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dressed like. You know, I think that's the weirdest thing.

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But I personally think the weirdest thing is a red

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lollipop the tastes of banana. That that's mind bobblinging.

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Is just.

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It can't get me hit around it. A red lollipop

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that tastes of banana. Now, when't I say it tastes

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of banana. It tastes of banana flavor. It's like strawberry

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tastes of strawberry flavor. They don't taste nothing like strawberries today,

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and banana flavors stuff don't taste nothing like banana. It

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tastes like banana flavor. And I'm just used to what

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banana flavor is, like the banana flavor milkshakes or the

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banana flavor you know, sweets doesn't taste anything like banana.

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H nothing like it. It's a pack of lies. I'll

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never be so angry. So I ordered a taxi for

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one o'clock on Monday, which was yesterday, so Sunday evening

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about half six. I thought the appointment was eleven o'clock,

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but it was two. So I ordered a taxi for one,

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knowing this is if I've ordered a taxi, as I

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get closer to the time, I can't cancel it. Well,

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I can't cancel it. I suppose technically could his phone

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up say yeah, I'd like to cancel the taxi Okay,

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By then I know I could do that, But then

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that's two phone calls, because I'd also have to phone

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up with doctors and cancel that. And they said in

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the letter, if you don't turn up for this mental

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health review, we're gonna we might cut down your medication

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so that you can only collect it once a week

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instead of once a month, which means going to the

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pharmacy every single week. And I thought, no, no, no, no,

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I don't want that for myself, you know, so it

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was relatively important to go along to this review. Well

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I'm glad I did know later that lady was very

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nice and I kind of understand why I have them now.

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So I I get up, I go to bed Sunday,

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get up in the morning Monday, I think, I think,

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I don't know, did I did I wake Oh, I

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don't know. I'm not sure what time I woke up,

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but I did wake up at some point. In fact,

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I think I woke up quite.

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Early in the morning.

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And then because I went to bed early, and then

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I went back to bed for another nap and I

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made a recording. Yeah, I did yesterday's recording. Now I

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was going to do two recordings yesterday. This technically is

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the second part of that recording. But I was so

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tired in the evening I just couldn't do it. That

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the day necked me out of it. I think it's

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just a deal that the people dealing with people being

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around and you know. So I went to a few

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different places and by the time I got home, so

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I left here at one. It's actually got it at one.

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I got home. Well, I got the pretty about quarter

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past for bus back, which probably took about which took

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me about another half hour, including a bus ride half

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hour roughly to get home maybe. So I was back

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home by about ten to five, maybe five to five,

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ten to five, bearing in mind number quite a slow walker.

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So the bus took me part of the way, you know,

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and then I walked the rest of the way. So yeah,

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I was home before five, which meant i'd been out

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for four hours. I had something to eat, and then

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it was like six o'clock and I'd lie down for

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about an hour just over now. I got up, I

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took took Smelly Belly out for a wonder.

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And then.

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You know, the evening was kind of done really and

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I was tired, and I ended up going to bed

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about half at twenty twenty three minutes past ten. I

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think it was. It's very precise, isn't it very precise?

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And yeah, so I leave here at one o'clock. Vinny

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was that he did not want me to leave, really

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did not want me to leave. But you know, I

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couldn't take him with me. So I got up yesterday

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morning I did I took I took him out in

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the morning, and then I came home. I did the recording,

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I said, I did the recording. I didn't upload it

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until I got home, or edit and upload it till

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I got home. So did the recording, and then I

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had a shower, got dressed. I think I jumped in

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his shower about twelve thirty eight pm. So I didn't

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leave myself a lot of time to prepare myself, to

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prepare myself.

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What for.

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To you know, get myself ready. And when I got

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out of shower, the taxi was downstairs already, but it

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was early, so I you know, I ordered it for

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one o'clock. I forgets ten to one. That's not my issue.

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Although I think I might have paid for him to wait,

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I don't know. So it was weird, right, I get

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into a taxi and I say it though, all right, okay.

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I think my attitude didn't help because just as I

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was I was getting ready, getting my water bottle, getting

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my gott my bottle. Me but but my water bottle

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and make me back, I was looking for my wallet

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because you know, the plan was to get a bus back.

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My bus passes in my wallet and also money, so

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to do what I needed to do, I needed to

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have the money in the wallet. Look, can I find

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my wallet? No, I can't. And I had minutes to

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find my wallet and I couldn't find it, and I was,

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I'll be honest with you, I didn't feel at all christmasy.

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It really didn't feel good about it. It's like, this

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is annoying me. Where's my wallet? There must be some

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kind of gadget to put in the wallet, you know,

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like when if you lose your phone, you know, he

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so use if you lose your phone somewhere in the house,

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and so why don't you just call it? I can't

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call it because I haven't got the phone, have I

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Why don't just phone it. I need my phone to

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phone it, don't I if I knew where my phone was,

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then I could phone myself. Yeah, but maybe something like

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that where you can press a button and you're like, peep, peep, peep.

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I'm over here, daddy, I'm over here. Say me if

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you can.

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Wooh.

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That could be what the wallet does. I don't know

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why you'd have it say stuff like that. HEDI you're

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you're warmer, you're warmer, wal cold is getting cold? Oh, warmer, warmer,

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warmer hot. I'm joking nowhere near me, which would be

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probably even more annoying. Actually, so I couldn't from wallet.

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And I'm thinking to myself through the couple of weeks

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ago or last week, whenever it was, when I was

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started tidying this place up and checking stuff out, did

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I check my wallet out now or did someone steal it?

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I knew no one had stolen it, and I also

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knew that even if I'd left it on the bus,

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I said, when did I last use my wallet? Or

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when did I last Huesday? Because I haven't. I have

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not even you know, used my wallet for ages. I

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haven't needed to because I get everything online. So i

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just used my phone and all this stuff, and I thought,

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when's the last time I used my bus pass? And

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it was the first of August, So the first of

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August is the last time I left this area, And

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yesterday was the eighteenth, So seventeen days. It just goes

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to show how really I go anywhere. And it just

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seemed weird because seventeen days it's been since what's his

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name kind of left and it's like, wow, I had

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a dream last night, just remembered it. It was really weird.

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It was. It was a bit of a dodgy dream

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actually involving some dodgy people from the past, but they

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were using my property, bearing in mind it wasn't here.

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It was in a house or something to have a

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rave party. Yeah, but there was a lady that came

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in and.

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She liked me.

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And you'd think that in my dreams, if I met

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a woman, she'd like me because a dream. Yeah, even

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in my dreams, I get rejected, that's ridiculous. But on

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this occasion I didn't. She was nice, So there was

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an element of romanticness. Very weird dream, very strange. I

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can't remember what else happened, so I give up on

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the whole finding the wallet scenario. I go downstairs again.

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A taxi. Oh, as I am. So I'm opening my door,

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my front door, closing it, and the phone rings. It's

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a taxi driver. So I look outside to wave to him,

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but no, he is parked right in a situation where

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the front of the car is obscured by the bushes,

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so he couldn't see me. And I'm thinking, do I

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really need to answer the phone. I'm literally going to

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be down there in less than a minute. Then I'm

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trying to lock the door, and then I'm thinking, ah,

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but he might drive off. What if he drives off

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or you know it? Then I think it might be

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just rude if I don't answer the phone. So I

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answered the phone. He said, yes taxi. I said, yeah,

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I know. He said, how do you know? I said,

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I can see you outside. He said, oh, why didn't

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you come down? I said, because I'm literally closing my door.

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I'm looking at He said, okay, but how did you

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know it's a taxi? I said, he says taxi on

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the side. He said, ah, I said, I'm coming down anyway, bye,

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And I just put the phone down. You can't say

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put the phone down anymore, can we because mobile phones

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you don't. I mean, technically we might put them down,

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but the action of put them and putting a phone

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down doesn't disconnect the mobile phone from the phone call.

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I feel we needed to do that. I need to

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get some kind of putting the phone down because it

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needs to be a Okay, I know it's a little

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bit drama ish, a little bit of drama.

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But.

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Hanging up the phone in a little argument on the phone,

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in a conversation, hanging a phone up could have a

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degree of satisfaction.

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At least.

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That's what my girlfriends used to tell me whenever I

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annoyed them. So what's what's the best part of our relationship?

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You know, I'd ask ex girlfriends, Oh, me, putting a

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phone down on you was the best part of our relationship.

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So the ending, Oh thanks and so yeah. So I

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answered the phone and say yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm upstairs.

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He said, well, don't you come down please? I said,

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I'm coming, wow, just locking my door up. So I

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go downstairs. I waved not any response there, Okay, I

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get in. He's it's from another country, which I ain't

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on an issue with. Why did you mention it? Then

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JJ I kind of fits in with the story, I think,

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so he seems to have a bit of an attitude.

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I'm annoyed because I think I've lost my wallet, but

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I do not have the time right now to deal

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with it. But at the same time, I don't want

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to cancel my debit card in case. Well, basically, you know,

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it's a hassle. I'd have to get a new I

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think it costs. I don't know how much it costs,

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but there's money to get a bus pass replacement. So

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I think it's thirty twenty quid. Thirty quid. It wouldn't

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be one hundred quid because no one would ever do it,

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so it must be like relatively small amount. As I

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get into the car, as I back in, ill financi

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this way to get in. I can't really going forward,

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can you unless you're little as a kid are going

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to jump in? Imagine imagine back in them days when

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being able to move fast, to just jump into a

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car and not be concerned about hips or knees or yeah,

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it's got weird. It must be so strange, you know.

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I remember when I was like nine ten and we'd

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be going to Wales and i'd like or maybe going

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out for the day. I jump in the car, usually

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in the back, and I had no concern when I

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jumped in the car, thinking I'll ver be careful, like

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getting in a car. I don't want to hurt my

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knees on all my back, you know, because I would

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just mess up the rest of the day. And no,

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I was like jumping the car. I used to get Oh,

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I used to have to sit in the middle. There

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were two horrible melly brothers. I didn't like being in

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the middle. There was no choice. I mean they were

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both like even my two year old My two year

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older brother was twice my size, and the other one

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was he was bigger than my dad, taller anyway, So

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I think, yeah, I think my brother was pretty much

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as tall as my dad when he was twelve. Anyway,

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So I get in the car. As I back in,

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I mean, that might have been not a good It

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might not be a good introduction because basically I was

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saying load to him and all he could see was

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me bum, So that might not be a sticking my

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bum in his face probably wasn't the best introduction, possibly

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especially if if I was the first call that he

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had for the day. He might have just come on

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starts in the afternoon, working to the evening, and he's

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sitting there thinking, Okay, well, this is the first one

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of the day. At least I've got a job. It's

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you know, it's a little bit of money, and you know,

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could be worse. At least no one's sticking and bumming

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my face. And then suddenly I walk up to him

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and he's like, I'm waving to him, and he's thinking, oh,

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are you waving to me? This is weird. I don't

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even know you. And I turn around and you know,

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like and he just sees my big massive bum blocking

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the sun, just edging towards him. I mean, all I'm

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trying to do is just sit down, you know, I'm

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not actually, I'm not trying to ruin his day. And

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it is the gadget thing where it pulls the seat back,

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so he clearly thought that I needed, you know, half

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the car just reach buttock, which was rude. It's weird, though,

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it's not really rude, is it, because this is just

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me thinking about what you might be thinking. You're rude.

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You are why because of what you were thinking? How

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do you know what I was thinking, no one knows

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what other people are thinking. It's just all guesswork, isn't

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it anyway. I so I'm getting in. I said hello,

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he said, so we go. He said, you're going to

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the hospital and this is the journey, this is the

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very first part of the journey. And I said, yeah,

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I need you to if we can stop off at

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the pharmacy not the hospital blind me. So I used

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to say in hospital to the doctor surgery. I said,

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if we can stop off at the pharmacy first, please,

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And he said to me, so you're going to the

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doctor surgery. I said, yeah, it's like we've already had

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this conversation, so if you can please stop off at

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the pharmacy on the way, and he said nothing. I said,

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is that okay? Is that yeah? He said yeah, yeah,

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yeah yeah. So he just it's like he was agnormrying me.

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But he was listening, but he just wasn't responding to

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what I was saying. And you know, I thought, well,

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this is going to be an awkward journey because I

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had a whole conversation planned. I thought I'd talk about

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the space, the moon landing. I thought this would be

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an opportunity to to have a conversation about that, but

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that didn't didn't happen, So it doesn't stop outside the pharmacy.

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He stops near the pharmacy, which meant I had to walk,

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which put my waiting distance up because he was getting

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paid to wait. I thought, why didn't you past a

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little bit closer at this At this point, I'm thinking

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to myself, we're not going to be lifelong for pals.

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This relationship doesn't seem to be going very well, and

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possibly won't be seeing him again. I mean, I realized

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it wasn't a date, but still I generally get on

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quite well the taxi drivers. So he's still there when

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I get out. Of course he's still there because he's

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waiting for me to pay him. I go and get

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my prescription, just to order it. The lady in a prescription,

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I mean, she's in a pharmacy. It's a nice lady.

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It's almost I felt a little bit like i'd do.

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You know, when you're friends with someone and you know,

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you go around their house for the first time, and

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then you see them again and they're still, you know, friendly,

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but it's kind of changed. There seemed to be some

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unsaid stuff there, like they don't like there's something changed

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about the dynamics. Almost I felt, here's okay, here's how

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I felt the way that she was talking to me,

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because she's been friendly to me before, but that's when

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I've got Vinnie with me, So maybe she didn't recognize me,

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and she kind of looked at me in a way

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that as if i'd visited her house for the first time.

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I asked her use a toilet, thinking I was going

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to do a wee wee, but then I walked out,

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sort of you know, going, oh, that was a lovely poo,

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and maybe that didn't she wasn't happy with that. She

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was okay for liquid but not solids in a toilet

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from visitors, and or it could have been just the

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blocked toilet I left. I don't know, okay, but yeah,

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that's kind of how what the kind of vibe I got.

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But anyway, I got my stuff, walked back to the

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taxi and got inside again, and well, you know, back

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into the taxi this time. I tried to get in

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sideways because I thought it's been through enough today already,

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you know, so I tried to get in sideways and

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I did kind of, Yeah, I managed to do it. Yeah,

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I did. Yeah, it's fine, all worked out, okay, and

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we're coming back again. I mean, so far silence on

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the journey, you know. Once we yeah, it's like there

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was not a lot going on. And then right as

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we pulled up to Yeah, we're getting closer to the

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doctor's surgery. I said to the tax driver, I'll do

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as a favor, just uh, not really a favor is

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that I'm paying them? Not really a favor, is it

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if you're paying someone? No, a favor is not really

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not the right word. But I said, can you yeah,

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I mean if you're having your house built and this,

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and he said, I'll do this a favor, please, miss

474
00:42:27.159 --> 00:42:37.800
the builder, missus builder, can you put the bathroom at

475
00:42:37.840 --> 00:42:41.320
the front of the house instead of the back of

476
00:42:41.320 --> 00:42:45.159
the house so more people could look through the window,

477
00:42:46.639 --> 00:42:51.920
get more traffic. It's not really a favor, is it,

478
00:42:51.920 --> 00:42:55.880
because you're paying the builders to do it? Like, well,

479
00:42:57.760 --> 00:42:59.840
I don't know. I think it's just a terminology. Is

480
00:43:00.079 --> 00:43:03.920
it's just a do us a favor, but not really

481
00:43:04.000 --> 00:43:09.239
a favor. It's anyway, So I said to a taxi driver,

482
00:43:10.440 --> 00:43:14.000
do us a favor? Power me ol mate, mel Mucker,

483
00:43:16.119 --> 00:43:22.320
can you drop me off at the shopping center. There's

484
00:43:22.360 --> 00:43:25.440
this like shopping center thing place I don't know in

485
00:43:25.440 --> 00:43:31.840
the state, shopping retail outlet whatever. He said for you're

486
00:43:31.840 --> 00:43:34.239
going to the doctors, I said, I am going to

487
00:43:34.280 --> 00:43:39.000
a doctors, but it's early. I got like forty five

488
00:43:39.079 --> 00:43:44.280
minutes to to mess around with. And he said, oh,

489
00:43:44.800 --> 00:43:49.679
and I said, he said, okay. He didn't seem too

490
00:43:49.679 --> 00:43:51.760
bothered about doing this, but it's like, I think it

491
00:43:51.800 --> 00:43:55.639
threw him off a little bit. I got the impression

492
00:43:55.679 --> 00:43:57.880
that he was determined to go to the doctors, and

493
00:43:57.920 --> 00:44:01.480
he was almost not looking forward to it. But he

494
00:44:01.639 --> 00:44:05.159
decided in his mind he was going to end up

495
00:44:05.880 --> 00:44:08.840
dropping him off of the doctors. And now I changed

496
00:44:08.880 --> 00:44:19.719
my plans. I don't know. It seemed mildly annoyed, but

497
00:44:19.840 --> 00:44:24.320
this is where it changed. I said to him, Yeah,

498
00:44:24.639 --> 00:44:27.440
the reason I ordered, I said, I got my appointments

499
00:44:27.440 --> 00:44:30.760
not till two o'clock, you see, and I ordered to

500
00:44:30.800 --> 00:44:34.159
tax it one because of traffic. No way, I've known

501
00:44:34.159 --> 00:44:39.400
what the traffic's going to be like straight away. He

502
00:44:39.599 --> 00:44:44.760
was like, yeah, the traffic's terrible, just like never known.

503
00:44:45.760 --> 00:44:50.960
We bonded just in that last minute of the journey.

504
00:44:51.480 --> 00:44:54.960
We bonded. Now, we didn't make a date. We didn't

505
00:44:55.159 --> 00:45:01.079
kiss and cuddle, we didn't swap photographs, you know, nothing

506
00:45:01.159 --> 00:45:03.480
like that. We didn't get out of the car and

507
00:45:03.559 --> 00:45:09.760
have a little dance. Nothing. It's there was no poetry exchange.

508
00:45:10.400 --> 00:45:22.960
It was it was, you know, it was a normal conversation,

509
00:45:24.199 --> 00:45:29.360
moaning about the traffic. He was moaning about traffic. And

510
00:45:29.440 --> 00:45:33.199
I know what the traffics like around there. You know,

511
00:45:33.599 --> 00:45:40.639
it's like one one thing and then everything's blocked. And

512
00:45:40.639 --> 00:45:54.920
and we bonded and a little bit like you know,

513
00:45:54.960 --> 00:45:59.320
if you if you remember, I met someone who worked

514
00:45:59.360 --> 00:46:05.960
in the jam jar factory, like a jam factory, no jar,

515
00:46:06.159 --> 00:46:09.679
jam jar factory, and we just couldn't get on with

516
00:46:09.760 --> 00:46:13.880
each other. He was I think it was my girlfriend's boyfriend.

517
00:46:13.960 --> 00:46:16.760
My girlfriend's boyfriend, blown out in me, wouln't it he

518
00:46:16.920 --> 00:46:20.400
was my sister's boyfriend. And we didn't get on, just

519
00:46:20.480 --> 00:46:23.679
didn't click. Didn't like, not get on in a bad way,

520
00:46:23.840 --> 00:46:29.480
just didn't click. And I knew he worked in a

521
00:46:31.280 --> 00:46:38.480
jam jar factory, making jam jars. I think maybe even

522
00:46:38.519 --> 00:46:41.199
putting the jam in it's all. I can't remember. It's

523
00:46:41.239 --> 00:46:49.360
a long time ago, and I was a security card

524
00:46:49.360 --> 00:46:51.880
at the time. I think, so we didn't have a

525
00:46:51.920 --> 00:46:59.119
lot in common, very different jobs, and I was thinking,

526
00:47:00.920 --> 00:47:04.639
you know, it'd be nice for me to get on

527
00:47:04.760 --> 00:47:09.800
with this bloke just for the sake of my sister.

528
00:47:13.840 --> 00:47:16.760
But I couldn't find a way in. I was like saying,

529
00:47:18.199 --> 00:47:20.480
I'm saying I thought. I just asked him some question

530
00:47:20.599 --> 00:47:26.000
and see what he likes to talk about. I said,

531
00:47:26.800 --> 00:47:29.920
what do you think about the moon landing? Would you

532
00:47:30.079 --> 00:47:32.039
like Actually I didn't say it like that. I just said,

533
00:47:32.320 --> 00:47:35.599
would you like to talk about the moon landing? For

534
00:47:35.679 --> 00:47:40.320
about twelve minutes? And he looked at me, like, what

535
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:42.920
what do you mean? I said, I was wondering if

536
00:47:42.960 --> 00:47:45.639
you'd like to talk about the moon landing for twelve minutes.

537
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:51.480
He said why twelve minutes? I said, well, we can

538
00:47:51.559 --> 00:47:54.039
do it for more if you like, But that's the

539
00:47:54.039 --> 00:47:58.599
most amount of time anyone's been able to really put

540
00:47:58.679 --> 00:48:02.920
up with me talking about the moon landing. And he said,

541
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:06.159
so people don't generally like talking about the moon land

542
00:48:06.239 --> 00:48:10.519
with you, and I said, that's correct, not for more

543
00:48:10.559 --> 00:48:14.920
than twelve minutes, anyway. Some people are okay for the

544
00:48:14.960 --> 00:48:19.719
first three and a half minutes. And he said why

545
00:48:19.719 --> 00:48:23.199
do you talk about the moon landing? Then why don't

546
00:48:23.199 --> 00:48:30.480
you talk about something different? And that really made me think.

547
00:48:33.239 --> 00:48:40.760
It got my mind whirling around. It's like, you know what, maybe,

548
00:48:41.239 --> 00:48:48.719
just maybe there's more than one conversation available, more than

549
00:48:48.760 --> 00:48:55.239
one topic that I can choose from. And this blew

550
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:02.159
my mind. Maybe, just maybe I don't always have to

551
00:49:02.199 --> 00:49:08.079
be the one that picks the topic. It's a two

552
00:49:08.119 --> 00:49:12.320
way interaction. No, that's too far from me. Sorry, it's

553
00:49:13.159 --> 00:49:18.760
me talking at them. That's all I can offer. Anyway,

554
00:49:19.559 --> 00:49:25.800
I didn't know how to sort of really connect with him,

555
00:49:26.079 --> 00:49:29.360
and it wasn't that interested in connecting with him. It's

556
00:49:29.360 --> 00:49:34.519
not like, you know, I'd see him a couple of times,

557
00:49:34.599 --> 00:49:37.159
three or four times a year maybe at that time.

558
00:49:38.599 --> 00:49:40.960
And it's not like I was spending the rest of

559
00:49:40.960 --> 00:49:45.880
the time between visits seeing him, you know, trying to

560
00:49:45.880 --> 00:49:51.360
put together some kind of big mastermind plan on how

561
00:49:51.400 --> 00:49:57.079
to connect with him in some type of, I don't know,

562
00:49:58.280 --> 00:50:05.800
friendly manner. I yes, it wasn't that important, but it

563
00:50:05.840 --> 00:50:12.280
was it seemed useful to just you know, maybe make

564
00:50:12.320 --> 00:50:18.480
the effort. Anyway I ended up it was in the

565
00:50:18.599 --> 00:50:28.719
kitchen and I'm there with my step On and we're

566
00:50:28.800 --> 00:50:34.599
just talking, and she says, I do as a favor, Juicy,

567
00:50:35.880 --> 00:50:42.239
can you open this this jar? Because we've got this

568
00:50:42.280 --> 00:50:48.599
figure in this country where the jars was limp, whether

569
00:50:48.639 --> 00:50:57.039
it's honey, whatever, the lids are so tight it gives obviously.

570
00:50:58.679 --> 00:51:02.760
Sometimes they're just too tight. That's another thing. Uncle sausages.

571
00:51:02.800 --> 00:51:05.199
He used to get me to open his tins. Not

572
00:51:05.320 --> 00:51:15.239
his tins, is jars of stuff and his drinks. So

573
00:51:15.320 --> 00:51:19.920
I think it's it kind of lost his strength. He

574
00:51:20.000 --> 00:51:22.639
couldn't do it, so he said, knock on my door,

575
00:51:22.679 --> 00:51:27.239
and I do it as I quite liked it, and

576
00:51:27.320 --> 00:51:30.239
it didn't like the fact that he couldn't do it himself,

577
00:51:30.239 --> 00:51:33.800
but I quite like being useful, you know. It was

578
00:51:33.880 --> 00:51:40.440
quite nice. So whenever he got new stuff, I'd loosen

579
00:51:40.519 --> 00:51:42.360
it for him and just put it back a little

580
00:51:42.400 --> 00:51:43.960
bit so he could get in and out of it.

581
00:51:45.559 --> 00:51:46.880
Not in and out of it. I mean he didn't

582
00:51:46.880 --> 00:51:53.760
get in and out of the the jar of marmalade

583
00:51:53.960 --> 00:52:00.880
because he wouldn't fit. That'd be strange. So anyway, my

584
00:52:01.039 --> 00:52:03.280
step mummy, I just said to you, what is it,

585
00:52:03.320 --> 00:52:07.480
step mummy, and she said, can you open this jar? Please? Jeecie?

586
00:52:08.800 --> 00:52:10.599
How many more times? Am I going to ask you?

587
00:52:12.039 --> 00:52:18.320
It's like, wow, a bit rude, said you're rude. And

588
00:52:18.320 --> 00:52:26.840
I said I can do that, but I couldn't. I said,

589
00:52:26.840 --> 00:52:30.320
so I can't do it. She said, okay, I'm sorry.

590
00:52:30.920 --> 00:52:32.840
I didn't mean to have a go at you.

591
00:52:32.840 --> 00:52:33.079
Can you?

592
00:52:33.480 --> 00:52:36.280
He said, no, I can't do it. He said, I

593
00:52:36.320 --> 00:52:39.760
don't be like that. I mean, I've known you since

594
00:52:39.760 --> 00:52:43.320
she was seventeen, can't you You're twenty six now, can't

595
00:52:43.320 --> 00:52:46.639
you just open that for me? I said no, No,

596
00:52:46.760 --> 00:52:49.920
What I mean is I can't physically do it. I'm

597
00:52:49.920 --> 00:52:51.840
not being awkward. I would do it for you. I

598
00:52:51.920 --> 00:52:56.440
just can't physically do it. She said, you can't even

599
00:52:56.599 --> 00:53:05.880
open the lid of a jar of marmalade. And then

600
00:53:05.960 --> 00:53:11.760
suddenly my sister's boyfriend pops up. His head pops up

601
00:53:11.760 --> 00:53:14.840
out of there. That's just weird enough. He was hiding

602
00:53:14.920 --> 00:53:18.199
in the bin. I don't know why. And he said,

603
00:53:20.039 --> 00:53:24.840
I can help with that. I'm good with jars. I

604
00:53:24.960 --> 00:53:31.719
work in a jar factory, so okay, And honestly, he

605
00:53:31.840 --> 00:53:39.639
got that lid off so quickly it was like he

606
00:53:39.800 --> 00:53:44.360
just uses his thumb. Now I'm exact ad Okay, that

607
00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:48.679
bit I'm made up the rest. It's completely true. But

608
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:52.599
he did get into it quite quickly. It was like

609
00:53:52.639 --> 00:54:03.559
a safe cracker for jars, a jar cracker. Yeah. But anyway,

610
00:54:03.639 --> 00:54:05.719
on the way to the taxi, well, on the way

611
00:54:05.800 --> 00:54:08.599
to this is the very last bit of the journey,

612
00:54:09.000 --> 00:54:11.119
we had to go around and round about and around

613
00:54:11.159 --> 00:54:18.280
a little lane. We had this big conversation about you know, well,

614
00:54:18.320 --> 00:54:21.440
it was a very short conversation, but it was very animated,

615
00:54:23.039 --> 00:54:26.480
and I just thought it was so nice. It just

616
00:54:26.519 --> 00:54:28.559
took a little bit of time to kind of find

617
00:54:28.559 --> 00:54:33.280
a way in, you know. So I get out of

618
00:54:33.280 --> 00:54:38.599
the taxi. It's too early to go to the doctors.

619
00:54:39.280 --> 00:54:46.440
So what I do is I go into a close place.

620
00:54:46.519 --> 00:54:50.239
It's like a sports is it sports Direct something like that.

621
00:54:52.320 --> 00:55:01.360
Hannah's looking around. I need clothes. I need some pence.

622
00:55:01.639 --> 00:55:08.679
I've got seven pairs of jogging tracksuit bottoms that are

623
00:55:08.760 --> 00:55:13.440
falling apast. I need some new ones. The problem is,

624
00:55:13.800 --> 00:55:17.840
it's been such a long time since I've bought anything

625
00:55:17.960 --> 00:55:24.199
in a shop like clothes, apart from a jacket. I

626
00:55:24.239 --> 00:55:26.800
bought a couple of a couple of years ago. I

627
00:55:26.840 --> 00:55:34.039
bought some yeah, or three years ago. I bought some

628
00:55:34.119 --> 00:55:40.079
winter coats which was called northern was it northern face

629
00:55:40.280 --> 00:55:46.119
or northern whatever. So I did that. But that's easy

630
00:55:46.199 --> 00:55:51.159
because I can try them on, but the tracksuit bottombs,

631
00:55:51.320 --> 00:55:54.159
I can't really try them on. And I said Oi,

632
00:55:54.880 --> 00:55:59.000
He said, who you are? I didn't, I said, excuse me, sir.

633
00:55:59.440 --> 00:56:02.320
I was wanted if you could be of assistance to

634
00:56:03.159 --> 00:56:07.159
MOI see I know some French. I just hold on

635
00:56:07.239 --> 00:56:13.199
to it for the important moments. Did I ever tell

636
00:56:13.199 --> 00:56:17.760
you that I had a friend and we went to

637
00:56:17.960 --> 00:56:22.599
a Spanish restaurant. This is at college. We all went

638
00:56:22.639 --> 00:56:25.760
to a Spanish restaurant and it had been planned for

639
00:56:25.760 --> 00:56:30.519
a week and she was looking forward to going because

640
00:56:30.559 --> 00:56:35.760
she was going to speak Spanish. She's been practicing a

641
00:56:35.840 --> 00:56:39.800
Spanish all week long. And we get there and the

642
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:45.880
blankshrom Bosnia. There was no one Spanish in the Spanish restaurant.

643
00:56:46.639 --> 00:56:50.960
She was so disappointed. Didn't stop her from speaking Spanish

644
00:56:51.000 --> 00:56:53.320
to him, though we still didn't know what she was

645
00:56:53.360 --> 00:57:01.119
talking about. And so I go. I asked the person

646
00:57:01.239 --> 00:57:06.280
in the shop, just help me out, please. I don't

647
00:57:06.320 --> 00:57:08.800
know what to do. I don't know what ones to buy.

648
00:57:09.639 --> 00:57:14.119
He said, yeah, but you're because we're, you know, both

649
00:57:14.119 --> 00:57:16.519
about the same kind of height. He said, well, because

650
00:57:16.559 --> 00:57:20.119
you're not very tall, and I said, no, it's basically

651
00:57:20.159 --> 00:57:26.679
my upper body, some extra large upper body. But he said,

652
00:57:26.679 --> 00:57:30.719
you're probably medium.

653
00:57:30.719 --> 00:57:31.000
You know.

654
00:57:31.119 --> 00:57:39.840
For your bottoms, you know, the trasive bottoms, the problem

655
00:57:39.920 --> 00:57:44.360
is it's the length. They have elastics on the waist,

656
00:57:44.519 --> 00:57:53.079
so that's not really an issue. The length is, you know,

657
00:57:53.639 --> 00:57:57.559
but we if they're loose at the bottom, they can

658
00:57:57.639 --> 00:58:00.559
drag on the floor, but these ones aren't. They've got

659
00:58:00.599 --> 00:58:05.239
elass stick at the bottom, so it wouldn't make any difference.

660
00:58:06.199 --> 00:58:09.639
So I got two pairs, both in a special offer.

661
00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:16.639
One was black, one was gray or whitey gray. And

662
00:58:16.639 --> 00:58:24.920
then I go up pay for it and I get

663
00:58:26.039 --> 00:58:30.280
do you know when someone looks at you and you think, oh,

664
00:58:30.880 --> 00:58:33.360
I'm not sure why they're looking at me like that.

665
00:58:34.559 --> 00:58:36.880
It was a nice way, not horrible way, and I'm

666
00:58:36.880 --> 00:58:40.639
not used to that. And I was like, she was

667
00:58:40.679 --> 00:58:49.280
looking at me, and even at the end of it,

668
00:58:49.360 --> 00:58:52.679
when we finished, she was still looking at me like,

669
00:58:53.679 --> 00:58:55.800
I don't know, I just I can't explain it. It's

670
00:58:55.920 --> 00:59:06.559
very very uh, I don't know, I don't know. And

671
00:59:06.639 --> 00:59:09.760
I was thinking, did she think I was being grumpy

672
00:59:10.480 --> 00:59:16.719
because you know, I'm quite softly spoken and I don't

673
00:59:16.960 --> 00:59:25.159
always have a huge amount of inflection in my voice

674
00:59:25.679 --> 00:59:32.519
sometimes when I talk, and I don't know, maybe that's

675
00:59:32.519 --> 00:59:37.199
what was going on that I'm really not sure. So

676
00:59:37.239 --> 00:59:40.480
I made my way to doctors. At this point, I'm hungry.

677
00:59:42.800 --> 00:59:44.760
You might think, oh, why are you telling me that.

678
00:59:46.079 --> 00:59:50.719
I'm telling you that because I was hungry. Yeah, it's

679
00:59:50.760 --> 00:59:55.199
just this is part of the story and as part

680
00:59:55.199 --> 00:59:58.639
of the story afterwards as well as part of now

681
00:59:58.679 --> 01:00:07.800
because I'm hungry now, yes, yes, yes, So I went

682
01:00:08.119 --> 01:00:14.599
to the doctors, get there me eight minutes to the

683
01:00:14.719 --> 01:00:20.760
machine that logs you in wasn't working, so I went

684
01:00:20.800 --> 01:00:24.840
to the counter. They locked me in, you know, for

685
01:00:25.039 --> 01:00:32.239
my nurse appointment. It's twenty past two before I get

686
01:00:32.320 --> 01:00:40.840
called by the nurse, and I'm thinking, I don't know

687
01:00:40.840 --> 01:00:41.920
why it took so long.

688
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:43.039
Why is you know?

689
01:00:44.480 --> 01:00:47.920
But the lady was lovely. She was lovely, and she

690
01:00:48.039 --> 01:00:53.840
didn't rush me, which is pretty much why my appointment

691
01:00:53.920 --> 01:00:57.760
was late. My appointment was late because she gave time

692
01:00:58.639 --> 01:01:02.599
to the previous person and a person after me, their

693
01:01:02.639 --> 01:01:07.800
appointment was late because the nurse gave time to me

694
01:01:08.400 --> 01:01:17.440
to talk, so it was hard to really be too

695
01:01:17.519 --> 01:01:22.639
grumpy about being and waiting around for twenty five minutes.

696
01:01:28.480 --> 01:01:33.440
But that seemed to go quite well. I had a

697
01:01:33.480 --> 01:01:41.760
blood test, had well weight done, pulse read blood pressure,

698
01:01:42.519 --> 01:01:47.639
so my blood pressure and my pulse were good. My

699
01:01:47.800 --> 01:01:54.280
weight was less than last time, marginally, but I'm about

700
01:01:54.440 --> 01:02:00.760
eighteen nine kilos now roughly about eighty nine kilos or

701
01:02:00.840 --> 01:02:08.199
eighty eight and a half kilos instead of being one

702
01:02:08.280 --> 01:02:11.519
hundred kilos, which I was just a year and a

703
01:02:11.559 --> 01:02:16.360
half ago. But last time i'd lost I think I

704
01:02:16.440 --> 01:02:29.320
lost about one maybe two kilos since last year. So

705
01:02:29.400 --> 01:02:33.599
I left and that was all done. I left. I

706
01:02:33.719 --> 01:02:44.199
went into Sainsbury's. I walked around Sainsbury's because I was hungry.

707
01:02:44.960 --> 01:02:47.639
I first started walking around to the other estate, the

708
01:02:47.679 --> 01:02:53.559
other you know, groceries section, but the road was so

709
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:55.960
busier for and I'm not going to get across here,

710
01:02:56.400 --> 01:02:59.639
So I walked back to Sainsbury's, went up the escalator

711
01:02:59.639 --> 01:03:07.119
to the restaurant. The restaurant's now closed, no restaurant anymore gone.

712
01:03:09.079 --> 01:03:17.960
So I'm thinking I'm hungry. I need to eat some food,

713
01:03:19.039 --> 01:03:25.559
so I go searching in Sainsbury's for something to eat,

714
01:03:26.559 --> 01:03:29.639
something I can just stuff in my mouth. So I

715
01:03:29.719 --> 01:03:38.360
ended up getting like a sausage roll, pasty thing and

716
01:03:38.440 --> 01:03:42.320
a few cakes, so also I pay for them. I'm

717
01:03:42.320 --> 01:03:46.239
in a queue behind people with trolleys because I don't

718
01:03:46.280 --> 01:03:54.880
want to use a self service, and I do get

719
01:03:55.360 --> 01:04:00.400
a funny few looks. Funny few looks, a few funny looks. Mhm,

720
01:04:01.159 --> 01:04:03.320
WHI is he? Why is he waiting here? He's got

721
01:04:03.320 --> 01:04:09.119
his like five five objects and he's in between two

722
01:04:09.199 --> 01:04:16.280
people with trolley's full of stuff. I don't care. I

723
01:04:16.400 --> 01:04:20.719
just I don't like the self service, simple as that.

724
01:04:22.920 --> 01:04:37.320
Never have done. Really, yeah, what else happened? So I

725
01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:42.719
come out? Oh yeah, When I was insane price this,

726
01:04:43.960 --> 01:04:51.280
a female walked up to me. My funds are moving

727
01:04:51.280 --> 01:05:02.159
on its own. How weird. So when I was in

728
01:05:02.280 --> 01:05:06.199
Sainsburys and I'm just wandering around looking for the something

729
01:05:06.239 --> 01:05:08.760
to eat because I didn't really know what I always

730
01:05:08.800 --> 01:05:13.039
wear or what, so I haven't been in there for

731
01:05:13.079 --> 01:05:19.480
a long time, this female walks up to me. She

732
01:05:19.480 --> 01:05:20.119
says hello.

733
01:05:20.239 --> 01:05:20.920
I said hello.

734
01:05:21.800 --> 01:05:27.079
I thought she was going to try and sell me something,

735
01:05:27.920 --> 01:05:33.519
you know, kind of I don't know, or get me

736
01:05:33.599 --> 01:05:38.880
to sample a bit of cheese something like that, and

737
01:05:38.920 --> 01:05:46.119
she said oh. I said, oh, okay, hello, she said hi.

738
01:05:46.360 --> 01:05:51.159
I said hi. She said, hold, I'm stopping you and

739
01:05:51.199 --> 01:05:53.199
I'm thinking, ever, go is what we're going to do.

740
01:05:53.679 --> 01:05:55.119
She said, I just want to let you know I

741
01:05:55.280 --> 01:06:00.960
like your shirt. I said, well, what she said, I

742
01:06:01.079 --> 01:06:05.119
like your shirt? I said, thank you, I said. She

743
01:06:05.159 --> 01:06:11.960
said it's very colorful. I said thanks. I said I

744
01:06:12.119 --> 01:06:15.239
like your shirt as well, shared a sort of not

745
01:06:15.280 --> 01:06:21.320
the same shirt as me, but just for yeah, and

746
01:06:21.280 --> 01:06:24.760
then she walked away and I was just like, I

747
01:06:24.800 --> 01:06:27.079
don't know what. I really don't know what that conversation

748
01:06:27.239 --> 01:06:30.119
was about, but it was nice. I don't know if

749
01:06:30.119 --> 01:06:33.880
I've ever in my entire life had someone walk up

750
01:06:33.920 --> 01:06:36.239
to me in public and tell me that they liked

751
01:06:36.400 --> 01:06:41.199
an item of my clothing. Honestly, it never happened ever,

752
01:06:42.159 --> 01:06:44.639
So that was a very that was a first for me.

753
01:06:48.880 --> 01:06:49.480
And then.

754
01:06:54.760 --> 01:06:57.440
Yeah, I saw a few things as I was walking

755
01:06:57.480 --> 01:07:07.079
through the supermarket, and I'm waiting when I get out

756
01:07:07.079 --> 01:07:10.039
of there, so I have to eat, have something to eat.

757
01:07:10.119 --> 01:07:13.119
So I'm really getting hungry at this point, so I

758
01:07:13.159 --> 01:07:20.320
sit down outside the supermarket as something to eat, and

759
01:07:20.320 --> 01:07:26.360
then I go and wait for the bus. Yeah, I

760
01:07:26.400 --> 01:07:30.679
mean it was. They said it was core pasted put

761
01:07:30.760 --> 01:07:36.119
the call past four before the bus got there. When

762
01:07:36.159 --> 01:07:43.440
I get home, yeah, and I've already I kind of

763
01:07:43.480 --> 01:07:46.159
already told you about last night. I just got was

764
01:07:46.159 --> 01:07:51.800
a bit tired. I went to bed and when I

765
01:07:51.800 --> 01:07:55.159
do get up again and sad, some breakfast cereal, watched

766
01:07:55.199 --> 01:07:57.679
a bit of TV, and just went back to by.

767
01:08:04.760 --> 01:08:08.639
So you know, I got a fair bit done technically,

768
01:08:08.719 --> 01:08:11.760
you know. I made a recording, went to the doctor's,

769
01:08:12.840 --> 01:08:27.119
got myself a couple of pairs of Trackies tracksuit bonds. Yeah,

770
01:08:27.119 --> 01:08:30.840
I can't think of anything else that I did. It's

771
01:08:30.880 --> 01:08:32.680
not a huge amount, really, is there when you think

772
01:08:32.720 --> 01:08:43.800
about it. But yeah, okay, there's still a lot more

773
01:08:43.840 --> 01:08:50.319
than my normal money do. But right now I'm going

774
01:08:50.399 --> 01:08:54.239
to have my breakfast because my tummy tells me it's

775
01:08:54.399 --> 01:09:05.000
time to have my ready break really. Oh yeah, I

776
01:09:05.079 --> 01:09:13.359
wish i'd made this rhyme partly rhymed. So I'm going

777
01:09:13.439 --> 01:09:13.720
to go.

778
01:09:14.319 --> 01:09:14.720
I do.

779
01:09:14.960 --> 01:09:21.359
I haven't done Monday's bording objects I completely forgot whoops.

780
01:09:22.640 --> 01:09:23.039
But I do.

781
01:09:23.079 --> 01:09:29.640
Intend to do Tuesday's trivia Trivia Tuesday today, and I've

782
01:09:29.640 --> 01:09:34.199
already got a subject because someone posted me a subject

783
01:09:34.279 --> 01:09:37.840
I think, or sent me a form on my website,

784
01:09:39.199 --> 01:09:43.439
so I'll do that later today. I might also do

785
01:09:43.479 --> 01:09:46.680
it Monday's bording objects as well, for yesterday, just a

786
01:09:46.760 --> 01:09:51.319
belated one. I genuinely forgot to do it. I forgot

787
01:09:51.399 --> 01:09:56.600
it was Monday. I was focused this focusing in focusing

788
01:09:56.680 --> 01:10:00.159
so much on going to the doctor's surgery that i'd

789
01:10:00.159 --> 01:10:07.600
gone what day it was. So that's me for now anyway,

790
01:10:08.000 --> 01:10:15.960
today to day. So thank you for listening. Remember to

791
01:10:16.000 --> 01:10:18.880
be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be

792
01:10:18.920 --> 01:10:29.560
happy and be gentle of yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

793
01:10:34.720 --> 01:10:35.520
lots of love.

794
01:10:42.279 --> 01:10:42.640
Bye.

795
01:10:49.039 --> 01:11:03.640
Relax in a more deep and meaning away, maybe in

796
01:11:03.680 --> 01:11:09.239
a way that can not just allow you to feel

797
01:11:10.600 --> 01:11:19.840
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

798
01:11:21.880 --> 01:11:27.560
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

799
01:11:27.560 --> 01:11:34.239
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

800
01:11:34.439 --> 01:11:49.319
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

801
01:11:49.439 --> 01:12:09.239
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

802
01:12:09.319 --> 01:12:19.880
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

803
01:12:22.760 --> 01:12:30.039
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

804
01:12:31.960 --> 01:12:45.439
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

805
01:12:45.600 --> 01:12:50.279
find like some people do and myself as well, I

806
01:12:50.399 --> 01:12:57.159
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

807
01:13:01.520 --> 01:13:04.000
and I just listened to it over and over again

808
01:13:06.159 --> 01:13:19.199
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

809
01:13:19.199 --> 01:13:23.920
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it

810
01:13:23.960 --> 01:13:28.960
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It kind

811
01:13:28.960 --> 01:13:36.079
of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find it

812
01:13:36.159 --> 01:13:40.039
again and it still has the same effect on me.

813
01:13:42.680 --> 01:13:52.399
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me,

814
01:13:56.399 --> 01:14:03.079
just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening

815
01:14:03.600 --> 01:14:15.760
to her in the morning and in the evening. And

816
01:14:16.039 --> 01:14:25.159
I knew before even pressing the play button that since

817
01:14:25.239 --> 01:14:29.680
I've done that, pressed the play button. This is in

818
01:14:29.720 --> 01:14:44.079
the days of CD players, press the play button, if

819
01:14:44.119 --> 01:14:46.840
that it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

820
01:14:48.079 --> 01:14:56.439
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

821
01:14:57.000 --> 01:15:09.960
necessarily listening to her words because I had to memorized. Really,

822
01:15:14.640 --> 01:15:20.600
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

823
01:15:25.399 --> 01:15:47.239
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

824
01:15:47.359 --> 01:16:01.399
I remember my mind would slow down. Now now I

825
01:16:01.439 --> 01:16:07.640
was listening to this recording, in the early days of

826
01:16:07.760 --> 01:16:18.439
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

827
01:16:18.560 --> 01:16:23.279
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

828
01:16:23.439 --> 01:16:37.920
till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew how

829
01:16:39.640 --> 01:16:53.439
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

830
01:16:53.520 --> 01:16:58.720
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

831
01:17:06.399 --> 01:17:13.159
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

832
01:17:14.560 --> 01:17:23.960
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

833
01:17:24.039 --> 01:17:35.640
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

834
01:17:35.720 --> 01:17:49.640
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

835
01:17:49.680 --> 01:17:55.960
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

836
01:17:57.800 --> 01:18:11.479
Some people may be listen every day. And something that

837
01:18:11.600 --> 01:18:24.600
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

838
01:18:28.680 --> 01:18:43.720
when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

839
01:18:44.479 --> 01:18:55.760
am affected by the words that I say. So if

840
01:18:55.760 --> 01:19:04.920
I said to you, focus on your feet, notice your

841
01:19:04.960 --> 01:19:16.920
feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet. I

842
01:19:17.000 --> 01:19:34.800
will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus

843
01:19:34.840 --> 01:19:45.439
on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between each hand,

844
01:19:46.880 --> 01:19:53.600
perhaps notice the the air in the room, the temperature

845
01:19:53.680 --> 01:20:05.560
of the room. On the backs of your hands, you

846
01:20:05.680 --> 01:20:09.720
may start to notice what almost feels like a very

847
01:20:09.920 --> 01:20:18.279
light breeze even though there may not be any type

848
01:20:18.279 --> 01:20:31.199
of breeze at all where you are right now, and

849
01:20:31.279 --> 01:20:42.520
as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware

850
01:20:45.159 --> 01:21:10.600
of how relaxed my hands are feeling now, and when

851
01:21:10.600 --> 01:21:17.600
it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may

852
01:21:17.640 --> 01:21:34.000
be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when

853
01:21:34.039 --> 01:21:47.239
I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

854
01:21:55.159 --> 01:22:06.680
In fact, at times I've actually fallen on sleep without

855
01:22:06.720 --> 01:22:20.720
even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And it's

856
01:22:20.760 --> 01:22:29.880
only when I listen back to do the editing I

857
01:22:29.960 --> 01:22:39.199
hear snoring, and I think, I don't remember snoring. I

858
01:22:39.279 --> 01:22:45.960
remember talking. Was this snoring was a pig turned up?

859
01:22:49.960 --> 01:22:57.359
That's why I sound like when I snore, and I

860
01:22:57.439 --> 01:23:10.920
get really into the whole experience. I don't know how

861
01:23:11.039 --> 01:23:23.600
you feel, how relaxed you feel in your feet, how

862
01:23:23.760 --> 01:23:49.199
relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed more

863
01:23:49.279 --> 01:24:05.920
and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort

864
01:24:07.880 --> 01:24:23.079
you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like

865
01:24:25.840 --> 01:24:43.840
that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breath

866
01:24:44.279 --> 01:25:10.199
easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able

867
01:25:10.239 --> 01:25:26.560
to notice the ease.

868
01:25:29.520 --> 01:25:30.439
In which.

869
01:25:37.640 --> 01:26:00.359
You breathe so naturally, You breathe so very easily and smoothly.

870
01:26:28.000 --> 01:26:45.720
Whenever I imagine m my breathing improving. When I've got my

871
01:26:45.800 --> 01:27:04.479
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

872
01:27:04.800 --> 01:27:38.920
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It

873
01:27:38.960 --> 01:27:55.159
feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time

874
01:28:01.000 --> 01:28:49.319
away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with

875
01:28:49.359 --> 01:29:25.880
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

876
01:29:27.079 --> 01:30:16.840
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

877
01:30:17.760 --> 01:31:21.239
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

878
01:31:21.439 --> 01:32:08.640
mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires

879
01:32:08.680 --> 01:32:39.079
your attention, You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

880
01:32:39.319 --> 01:32:51.520
the stress to rip out of your body, to appear

881
01:32:51.840 --> 01:33:21.319
out of every part of your body, being released from

882
01:33:21.359 --> 01:34:01.520
your brain in your mind, slowly but surely, the muscles

883
01:34:01.960 --> 01:34:54.840
sell lex relax rex so very deeply, rex so deeply,

884
01:35:12.600 --> 01:35:40.640
and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

885
01:35:40.680 --> 01:36:05.199
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper,

886
01:36:19.720 --> 01:36:50.159
noticing the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings

887
01:36:50.359 --> 01:37:39.199
in your wrists, muscles in front of your body, I

888
01:37:39.399 --> 01:38:23.239
all say, feeling peaceful, deeply, there's a sense of peace

889
01:38:27.720 --> 01:38:31.840
spreads through your fairy core.

890
01:39:02.399 --> 01:39:03.920
Even when you.

891
01:39:06.800 --> 01:39:23.000
Focus on your mind, your mind becomes.

892
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:48.359
Eve and slower, even.

893
01:39:50.319 --> 01:41:08.640
Deeper, relaxing, so very slow, his stomach peaceful in your stomach,

894
01:41:30.760 --> 01:42:04.880
you're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now fear in

895
01:42:05.039 --> 01:42:37.760
the hole of your back. In spy from your brain

896
01:42:38.199 --> 01:42:46.039
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

897
01:42:46.359 --> 01:43:09.600
and receiving millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing

898
01:43:20.119 --> 01:44:26.479
deeply relaxed uns legs, spreading those signals down a spine

899
01:44:26.600 --> 01:44:49.479
or cord into air every part of your body, your

900
01:44:49.600 --> 01:45:38.119
shins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace

901
01:45:41.039 --> 01:45:55.000
and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

902
01:45:59.239 --> 01:46:10.760
to your eye, your fingers, all the way till you'll

903
01:46:10.840 --> 01:46:11.479
lower back.

904
01:46:13.479 --> 01:46:13.880
Mhm.

905
01:46:23.279 --> 01:46:23.880
Letting go.

906
01:46:26.079 --> 01:47:26.439
Read there lettinker peace mm hmm, drifting mind just wandering away,

907
01:47:35.880 --> 01:48:16.800
happy to let go, Let go completely, let go, so

908
01:48:16.920 --> 01:48:48.920
tranquil the whole body, enjoy a sense.

909
01:49:13.239 --> 01:49:13.680
Listening.

910
01:49:13.880 --> 01:49:19.760
Go heph more.

911
01:50:27.840 --> 01:51:43.800
Pece, join the space, this space of peace and safety.

912
01:51:44.640 --> 01:51:46.079
So firy.

913
01:51:48.720 --> 01:53:47.159
Fy relaxed, m letting go. Maybe we can just focus

914
01:53:47.560 --> 01:54:45.079
on the different parts of your body, just to notice.

915
01:54:22.319 --> 01:54:25.479
A foolhead and your eyes.

916
01:54:57.399 --> 01:55:30.399
It too, so loose, noticing in the sense of complete freedom,

917
01:55:42.439 --> 01:57:33.359
absolute freedom, PRIs day pre day peace, and it's peace

918
01:57:34.039 --> 01:58:49.159
to breathe such easy loose you may have I may

919
01:58:49.239 --> 01:59:50.520
not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful mony, even more

920
01:59:50.680 --> 02:00:14.319
deeply in the direction of total bliss for pace, bliss

921
02:00:14.399 --> 02:02:17.680
for pace, terrefting, total peace. Come so calm, letting go,

922
02:02:42.560 --> 02:03:53.560
peace with mind rexed forty so relaxed, so relaxed. Your

923
02:03:53.680 --> 02:04:26.640
body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so

924
02:04:34.359 --> 02:05:37.319
peace relax Licka, and you could start to notice that

925
02:05:38.119 --> 02:05:48.920
you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely

926
02:05:50.359 --> 02:05:59.319
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

927
02:05:59.479 --> 02:06:06.119
is grown in within you throughout your body, and your

928
02:06:06.199 --> 02:06:16.920
mind starts to slow down. And that could be almost

929
02:06:16.960 --> 02:06:26.520
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

930
02:06:33.039 --> 02:06:43.479
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

931
02:06:43.600 --> 02:06:52.239
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

932
02:06:52.319 --> 02:06:59.159
break from the day, take a break from your life

933
02:07:00.279 --> 02:07:08.760
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

934
02:07:08.760 --> 02:07:16.359
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

935
02:07:16.439 --> 02:07:22.600
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

936
02:07:26.640 --> 02:07:34.479
which in turn releases the tension and he stresses that

937
02:07:34.520 --> 02:07:44.199
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

938
02:07:44.319 --> 02:07:49.319
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

939
02:07:49.600 --> 02:08:01.520
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

940
02:08:02.159 --> 02:08:11.880
positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up and

941
02:08:11.920 --> 02:08:24.079
your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of

942
02:08:25.319 --> 02:08:44.840
increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy

943
02:08:45.159 --> 02:08:55.760
that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort,

944
02:09:00.560 --> 02:09:10.840
and all this comes and just allowing yourself a few minutes,

945
02:09:12.680 --> 02:09:15.840
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

946
02:09:17.199 --> 02:09:19.439
to just rest.

947
02:09:24.439 --> 02:09:25.479
And allow.

948
02:09:27.600 --> 02:09:37.600
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

949
02:09:38.279 --> 02:09:53.960
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

950
02:09:54.119 --> 02:09:58.760
room for feelings of pleasure.

951
02:10:01.000 --> 02:10:02.359
And happiness.

952
02:10:05.800 --> 02:10:14.800
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

953
02:10:15.439 --> 02:10:20.039
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

954
02:10:24.279 --> 02:10:34.039
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

955
02:10:39.039 --> 02:10:46.279
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

956
02:10:46.439 --> 02:10:52.239
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

957
02:10:55.600 --> 02:11:05.079
to feel more comfort and to experience.

958
02:11:06.680 --> 02:11:08.000
More of this.

959
02:11:09.600 --> 02:11:25.079
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

960
02:11:26.359 --> 02:11:32.319
on each part of your body, you can notice that

961
02:11:32.319 --> 02:11:49.399
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

962
02:11:49.399 --> 02:11:59.079
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

963
02:12:03.079 --> 02:12:09.239
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

964
02:12:11.560 --> 02:12:18.279
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

965
02:12:18.439 --> 02:12:26.119
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

966
02:12:26.159 --> 02:12:39.560
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

967
02:12:39.920 --> 02:12:52.920
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

968
02:12:52.960 --> 02:12:59.840
to start by focusing on your forehead, just being aware

969
02:13:00.560 --> 02:13:10.640
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds. But

970
02:13:10.840 --> 02:13:16.000
mister Herbert, the pigeon can just allow you to feel

971
02:13:16.079 --> 02:13:26.119
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

972
02:13:26.239 --> 02:13:33.399
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

973
02:13:34.800 --> 02:13:40.880
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

974
02:13:41.359 --> 02:13:51.920
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

975
02:13:52.119 --> 02:14:00.119
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus, yes,

976
02:14:02.239 --> 02:14:10.960
only on my voice and that part of your body.

977
02:14:11.880 --> 02:14:21.600
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

978
02:14:22.640 --> 02:14:32.359
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

979
02:14:32.399 --> 02:14:38.880
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

980
02:14:39.079 --> 02:14:53.560
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

981
02:14:54.000 --> 02:15:00.960
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, whole of your

982
02:15:01.039 --> 02:15:16.560
mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now on

983
02:15:16.640 --> 02:15:23.600
your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw near

984
02:15:23.640 --> 02:15:28.159
your mouth and your chin, but all the way up

985
02:15:28.800 --> 02:15:34.880
the size of your face to your ears, that hole

986
02:15:35.560 --> 02:16:02.720
of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on

987
02:16:02.760 --> 02:16:08.159
your neck, the front of your neck, and your throat

988
02:16:10.359 --> 02:16:21.159
relaxing and loose and calm. The side of your neck,

989
02:16:23.199 --> 02:16:32.440
the right and left side of your neck relax and loose.

990
02:16:36.040 --> 02:16:37.879
And calm.

991
02:16:43.200 --> 02:16:50.079
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

992
02:16:50.120 --> 02:17:00.559
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

993
02:17:00.719 --> 02:17:09.639
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

994
02:17:10.639 --> 02:17:21.360
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

995
02:17:21.399 --> 02:17:33.680
back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

996
02:17:33.920 --> 02:17:38.319
either side of your spine right from the top of

997
02:17:38.360 --> 02:17:43.920
your back all the way down to the bottom of

998
02:17:43.959 --> 02:18:00.959
your back down to your lower back. And as you

999
02:18:01.159 --> 02:18:08.520
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

1000
02:18:08.719 --> 02:18:23.840
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

1001
02:18:23.879 --> 02:18:30.799
as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to

1002
02:18:30.840 --> 02:18:41.239
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

1003
02:18:45.000 --> 02:18:48.760
the top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1004
02:18:52.239 --> 02:18:59.399
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1005
02:18:59.559 --> 02:19:04.639
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1006
02:19:04.760 --> 02:19:14.680
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1007
02:19:14.719 --> 02:19:22.040
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1008
02:19:22.079 --> 02:19:29.280
each other, separating and almost melting.

1009
02:19:34.520 --> 02:19:36.159
And in your lower back.

1010
02:19:39.600 --> 02:19:47.159
There seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1011
02:19:52.399 --> 02:19:58.600
The spreads into your hips, so down your lower back,

1012
02:19:58.879 --> 02:20:06.879
into your hips, into the area where your cosicks are,

1013
02:20:10.440 --> 02:20:18.079
and into your buttocks, and a wise, muscles that spread

1014
02:20:19.360 --> 02:20:29.120
from your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1015
02:20:33.559 --> 02:20:45.879
start to really let go. I don't even nowhere about

1016
02:20:46.000 --> 02:20:52.040
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1017
02:20:53.040 --> 02:21:09.840
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly,

1018
02:21:14.520 --> 02:21:19.479
and as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1019
02:21:19.719 --> 02:21:50.440
that they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding calm

1020
02:21:50.159 --> 02:22:02.920
and feeling. Those muscles the move from your neck into

1021
02:22:02.959 --> 02:22:36.079
your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1022
02:22:39.760 --> 02:22:52.360
and the feeling in your shoulders seens to spread deep

1023
02:22:52.559 --> 02:23:02.360
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1024
02:23:02.840 --> 02:23:11.239
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing.

1025
02:23:13.280 --> 02:23:21.559
The bones and moving all the way.

1026
02:23:21.639 --> 02:23:30.399
To underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area between the

1027
02:23:30.479 --> 02:23:34.879
tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1028
02:23:39.040 --> 02:23:45.760
He Then you feel so.

1029
02:23:47.600 --> 02:24:01.719
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep

1030
02:24:02.520 --> 02:24:23.319
healing message into your arms. And you may feel almost

1031
02:24:23.479 --> 02:24:28.239
as if your arms are not even there, because they're

1032
02:24:28.760 --> 02:25:11.760
so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose,

1033
02:25:19.079 --> 02:25:30.799
not feeling spreading all the way down your arms to elbows,

1034
02:25:34.079 --> 02:25:51.280
including your elbows, their comforts spreads.

1035
02:25:54.719 --> 02:25:55.479
Or away.

1036
02:25:57.840 --> 02:26:17.319
Into wrists a forearments aderists so heavy yet at the

1037
02:26:17.680 --> 02:26:19.959
same time.

1038
02:26:27.159 --> 02:26:27.920
So light.

1039
02:26:31.000 --> 02:27:33.959
And gentle. Focusing now on your hands, my hands, so

1040
02:27:35.360 --> 02:27:58.520
peaceful in your hands, there's a sense of.

1041
02:28:02.040 --> 02:28:03.520
Real peace.

1042
02:28:15.239 --> 02:28:29.040
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1043
02:28:29.360 --> 02:30:07.639
relax deeply else your fingers, you things sadly your finger tips.

1044
02:30:36.200 --> 02:30:56.280
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable.

1045
02:31:06.319 --> 02:31:06.520
Man.

1046
02:31:06.680 --> 02:32:32.000
Then your focus to your legs. Are muscles.

1047
02:32:33.040 --> 02:32:51.959
In your thighs, your knees.

1048
02:32:55.520 --> 02:33:29.200
So relaxed, a carved muscles and just shins.

1049
02:33:31.959 --> 02:35:35.959
Co pusy four feathing your feet.

1050
02:35:42.680 --> 02:35:46.920
So peaceful, so.

1051
02:35:46.719 --> 02:36:39.680
Calm, so peaceful, sircom so peaceful, sycom.

1052
02:36:42.399 --> 02:37:06.719
So peace for re peace fall, so.

1053
02:37:07.200 --> 02:37:22.239
Calm, allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest, in

1054
02:37:22.399 --> 02:37:53.799
your stomach, so letting go of everything. So I'm gonna

1055
02:37:53.799 --> 02:38:05.719
start counting down now from twenty down to one. You

1056
02:38:05.760 --> 02:38:09.520
can imagine in a way it's like just walking down.

1057
02:38:09.360 --> 02:38:11.479
Some steps.

1058
02:38:12.159 --> 02:38:16.559
And each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1059
02:38:17.799 --> 02:38:30.879
a level of comfort, each step represents a deepening of

1060
02:38:30.920 --> 02:38:41.680
that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those steps

1061
02:38:41.799 --> 02:38:54.079
that are deeper and more relaxed you feel so starting

1062
02:38:54.200 --> 02:43:26.600
with number twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen sickst eight four

1063
02:44:26.399 --> 02:44:27.159
four t.

1064
02:45:33.479 --> 02:47:44.399
Too well five eight.

1065
02:48:49.520 --> 02:53:40.239
Nine hey seven four.

1066
02:53:45.000 --> 02:59:30.280
Five four four two one.

1067
02:59:32.440 --> 02:59:49.440
And now as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna

1068
02:59:49.520 --> 03:00:00.959
count down from ten touts one. Focus in just on

1069
03:00:01.120 --> 03:00:12.120
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1070
03:00:12.159 --> 03:00:31.399
eye waves themselves, our whole area that makes up your eye.

1071
03:00:32.079 --> 03:00:39.639
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1072
03:00:39.879 --> 03:00:52.920
whilst focus in on your eyes. You'll become twice is

1073
03:00:53.040 --> 03:01:05.559
relaxed with each number counting down that you may find

1074
03:01:09.079 --> 03:01:14.920
the all you want to do is just drift off

1075
03:01:15.159 --> 03:01:24.360
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1076
03:01:24.479 --> 03:01:37.600
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1077
03:01:39.680 --> 03:01:45.120
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1078
03:01:45.280 --> 03:04:53.319
one right now, ten nine eight seven y.

1079
03:05:57.680 --> 03:07:09.639
Five four.

1080
03:08:22.319 --> 03:11:15.879
Three two one. So counting down from ten to one ten.

1081
03:11:17.559 --> 03:11:46.120
Nine eight seven six five four three two one.

1082
03:11:46.680 --> 03:11:49.639
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1083
03:11:49.680 --> 03:11:53.639
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1084
03:11:53.920 --> 03:12:03.639
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1085
03:12:03.680 --> 03:12:07.239
little bit of pressure there, Like you're count it down

1086
03:12:07.319 --> 03:12:08.239
from ten to one.

1087
03:12:08.360 --> 03:12:09.760
Would you expect me to do?

1088
03:12:10.040 --> 03:12:14.920
Man, expect me to stick gold floppy just because you're

1089
03:12:14.959 --> 03:12:24.360
counting down. We could try it again, but this time

1090
03:12:24.399 --> 03:12:31.159
I go this slower. This time, as you focus on

1091
03:12:31.680 --> 03:12:36.639
the whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1092
03:12:38.440 --> 03:12:47.680
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1093
03:12:48.040 --> 03:13:13.520
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine eight.

1094
03:13:18.479 --> 03:13:48.200
Seven six five four.

1095
03:13:55.159 --> 03:14:41.079
Three two one.

1096
03:14:41.639 --> 03:14:47.399
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1097
03:14:47.399 --> 03:14:48.159
body feels.

1098
03:14:54.760 --> 03:15:05.319
It's not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1099
03:15:06.040 --> 03:15:19.479
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1100
03:15:23.040 --> 03:15:34.639
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1101
03:15:35.280 --> 03:15:40.120
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not

1102
03:15:40.920 --> 03:15:47.239
needing to think about anything. So that opens up a space,

1103
03:15:48.200 --> 03:15:50.040
you know, a bit of a space.

1104
03:15:50.559 --> 03:15:51.040
A gap.

1105
03:15:57.280 --> 03:16:00.840
And the more I cant down and ten to one,

1106
03:16:01.959 --> 03:16:10.280
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1107
03:16:11.479 --> 03:16:27.639
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1108
03:16:28.719 --> 03:16:41.600
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1109
03:16:45.399 --> 03:16:53.280
Allows you to just slow down.

1110
03:16:56.879 --> 03:16:59.719
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1111
03:17:00.079 --> 03:17:10.000
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1112
03:17:10.000 --> 03:17:16.079
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1113
03:17:16.159 --> 03:18:26.000
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1114
03:18:37.040 --> 03:19:31.200
four three two one.

1115
03:19:43.040 --> 03:19:43.879
How did your.

1116
03:19:45.840 --> 03:20:05.600
Body feel? No, can you notice that the feeling calmer,

1117
03:20:13.680 --> 03:20:44.120
the feeling more relaxed. As we now focus on your legs,

1118
03:20:44.239 --> 03:21:04.920
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1119
03:21:05.200 --> 03:21:24.680
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting.

1120
03:21:24.159 --> 03:21:26.559
Thing to be doing because.

1121
03:21:29.600 --> 03:21:32.360
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1122
03:21:32.399 --> 03:21:44.840
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

1123
03:21:44.920 --> 03:21:51.360
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1124
03:21:51.479 --> 03:21:58.520
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1125
03:21:58.559 --> 03:22:03.520
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1126
03:22:03.600 --> 03:22:12.399
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1127
03:22:12.559 --> 03:22:26.600
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1128
03:22:26.639 --> 03:22:32.159
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1129
03:22:33.120 --> 03:22:46.360
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1130
03:22:46.360 --> 03:22:54.799
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1131
03:23:00.639 --> 03:23:11.360
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1132
03:23:11.559 --> 03:23:32.239
our lives, how much they actually do for us, all

1133
03:23:32.280 --> 03:23:42.760
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1134
03:23:42.799 --> 03:23:51.280
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1135
03:23:51.319 --> 03:23:58.639
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love.

1136
03:23:58.600 --> 03:24:11.200
Shown, bit of acknowledgement. I thank you.

1137
03:24:13.959 --> 03:24:19.920
Gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1138
03:24:26.120 --> 03:24:27.319
And I know this may.

1139
03:24:27.360 --> 03:24:33.639
Sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I,

1140
03:24:33.760 --> 03:24:36.600
Surely I should be out in the garden hugging a

1141
03:24:36.680 --> 03:24:45.079
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1142
03:24:45.159 --> 03:24:48.159
up on a tree, That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1143
03:24:48.239 --> 03:24:50.280
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1144
03:24:51.479 --> 03:24:59.799
Now I can't see the television from the tree.

1145
03:25:00.120 --> 03:25:02.120
If you move down to your knees.

1146
03:25:03.399 --> 03:25:11.399
Getting such an important part, and I think we don't

1147
03:25:11.440 --> 03:25:19.360
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1148
03:25:21.079 --> 03:25:26.200
all that my knees do for me until I have

1149
03:25:26.280 --> 03:25:29.680
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1150
03:25:31.280 --> 03:25:35.280
maybe i'll pash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1151
03:25:36.959 --> 03:25:43.200
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1152
03:25:43.239 --> 03:25:49.239
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1153
03:25:50.959 --> 03:25:58.239
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1154
03:25:58.440 --> 03:26:06.840
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1155
03:26:10.920 --> 03:26:15.600
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1156
03:26:15.600 --> 03:26:23.159
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1157
03:26:24.639 --> 03:26:27.239
and love to your knees for all that they.

1158
03:26:27.200 --> 03:26:27.680
Do for you.

1159
03:26:38.120 --> 03:26:41.360
And you can still have that attention on your thighs

1160
03:26:41.879 --> 03:26:48.159
and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed

1161
03:26:48.200 --> 03:27:06.079
that they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now

1162
03:27:07.239 --> 03:27:11.040
on the bottoms of your legs, your shins and your

1163
03:27:11.040 --> 03:27:17.920
calf muscles, the bones between your knees and your feet,

1164
03:27:19.399 --> 03:27:31.479
incorporating of course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had

1165
03:27:32.280 --> 03:27:39.719
even the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1166
03:27:39.840 --> 03:27:50.000
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1167
03:27:50.000 --> 03:27:55.559
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1168
03:27:55.840 --> 03:27:58.959
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1169
03:27:59.000 --> 03:28:03.879
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't can't see any

1170
03:28:03.879 --> 03:28:08.799
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up. But

1171
03:28:08.920 --> 03:28:19.200
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1172
03:28:21.399 --> 03:28:25.840
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1173
03:28:25.879 --> 03:28:32.040
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1174
03:28:32.959 --> 03:28:43.040
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1175
03:28:43.600 --> 03:28:52.639
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1176
03:28:54.719 --> 03:29:04.440
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1177
03:29:04.920 --> 03:29:14.319
to balance, It helps you to get around and be mobile.

1178
03:29:20.600 --> 03:29:28.600
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1179
03:29:28.799 --> 03:29:31.879
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. It didn't

1180
03:29:31.879 --> 03:29:37.280
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1181
03:29:38.000 --> 03:29:41.879
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1182
03:29:41.920 --> 03:29:46.120
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1183
03:29:46.159 --> 03:29:58.120
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1184
03:30:00.079 --> 03:30:08.719
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

1185
03:30:08.760 --> 03:30:21.680
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles.

1186
03:30:24.440 --> 03:30:25.159
And your feet.

1187
03:30:29.799 --> 03:30:31.799
But we're not going to focus on your feet. We're

1188
03:30:31.799 --> 03:30:38.079
just going to focus on the legs. I realize that

1189
03:30:38.200 --> 03:30:42.280
now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focusing on

1190
03:30:42.399 --> 03:30:45.879
them anyway. For maybe I should focus on your feet.

1191
03:30:45.639 --> 03:30:46.159
A little bit.

1192
03:30:50.120 --> 03:30:54.600
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1193
03:30:54.639 --> 03:30:59.040
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1194
03:30:59.120 --> 03:31:03.159
haven't been focus on your thighs for a few minutes,

1195
03:31:04.920 --> 03:31:13.840
let me focus in on your ankles. There's still that

1196
03:31:15.120 --> 03:31:30.200
sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement.

1197
03:31:31.239 --> 03:31:32.440
Of energy.

1198
03:31:34.040 --> 03:31:41.120
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1199
03:31:41.159 --> 03:31:45.959
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1200
03:31:46.120 --> 03:31:59.479
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1201
03:31:59.520 --> 03:32:04.879
the thigh, as in the outside of all of our body,

1202
03:32:05.639 --> 03:32:17.239
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1203
03:32:23.760 --> 03:32:31.319
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1204
03:32:31.360 --> 03:32:36.680
the blood vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff that's

1205
03:32:36.719 --> 03:32:45.360
inside your thighs, and I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1206
03:32:45.399 --> 03:32:50.000
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1207
03:32:50.319 --> 03:32:55.559
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1208
03:32:55.799 --> 03:32:58.719
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1209
03:32:58.760 --> 03:33:03.600
the muscles and to be able to just massage inside

1210
03:33:03.639 --> 03:33:10.680
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1211
03:33:10.680 --> 03:33:20.280
in or the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1212
03:33:23.879 --> 03:33:29.200
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1213
03:33:30.559 --> 03:33:37.399
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1214
03:33:37.479 --> 03:33:43.319
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1215
03:33:48.680 --> 03:33:52.399
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, or

1216
03:33:52.440 --> 03:33:58.440
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a really

1217
03:33:58.680 --> 03:34:04.680
sensitive area. It feels very nice when you stroke it.

1218
03:34:05.959 --> 03:34:09.360
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1219
03:34:09.479 --> 03:34:17.040
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease.

1220
03:34:18.760 --> 03:34:23.319
In your legs. It's almost it's like a part that.

1221
03:34:25.040 --> 03:34:27.520
Has a sensitivity.

1222
03:34:26.719 --> 03:34:28.079
Which is a little bit different.

1223
03:34:35.879 --> 03:34:45.799
Of course, it's protected by your legs, so you can

1224
03:34:45.840 --> 03:34:51.719
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

1225
03:34:56.600 --> 03:35:00.520
that fold in between your legs. You can just massage

1226
03:35:00.600 --> 03:35:07.680
with your fingertips, letting your fingertips going inside, massage in

1227
03:35:07.760 --> 03:35:09.639
the muscle tissue.

1228
03:35:14.200 --> 03:35:15.879
You can of course field.

1229
03:35:15.559 --> 03:35:29.319
The bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips, and

1230
03:35:29.360 --> 03:35:35.079
then as you go down to your calf muscles. Now

1231
03:35:35.079 --> 03:35:37.879
that's the part I'd like to be able to really

1232
03:35:38.639 --> 03:35:45.000
put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in

1233
03:35:45.399 --> 03:35:51.040
every single tissue of that muscle.

1234
03:35:52.159 --> 03:35:54.040
Healing every part.

1235
03:36:00.040 --> 03:36:06.079
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1236
03:36:06.200 --> 03:36:13.799
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1237
03:36:13.840 --> 03:36:18.319
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated.

1238
03:36:20.840 --> 03:36:25.000
As the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1239
03:36:25.000 --> 03:36:26.399
are so precious.

1240
03:36:26.879 --> 03:36:31.520
As in all the other parts of our body, and

1241
03:36:31.680 --> 03:36:33.520
more precious of any jure.

1242
03:36:35.920 --> 03:36:36.639
On the planet.

1243
03:36:45.200 --> 03:36:48.760
When you start to think about.

1244
03:36:51.760 --> 03:36:52.879
Your legs in this.

1245
03:36:52.959 --> 03:37:04.280
Way, it can change your perspective. It might sound a

1246
03:37:04.280 --> 03:37:11.280
bit a bit silly to start with the idea of

1247
03:37:11.520 --> 03:37:19.559
having love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

1248
03:37:22.360 --> 03:37:26.959
wanting to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1249
03:37:28.959 --> 03:37:35.399
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1250
03:37:35.440 --> 03:37:44.600
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show.

1251
03:37:45.840 --> 03:37:47.159
How much you care.

1252
03:37:50.239 --> 03:37:55.399
About your legs, how much you care for what your

1253
03:37:55.440 --> 03:38:07.559
legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

1254
03:38:09.399 --> 03:38:17.239
the strength of your ankles, considering how thin they are

1255
03:38:17.280 --> 03:38:21.159
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs.

1256
03:38:24.840 --> 03:38:36.559
Yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your

1257
03:38:36.600 --> 03:38:46.360
ankles are truly a gift because of what they do

1258
03:38:46.440 --> 03:38:57.639
for you, supporting all that weight, regardless.

1259
03:38:57.040 --> 03:38:59.319
Of how what weight you are.

1260
03:39:00.239 --> 03:39:05.040
Even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1261
03:39:05.079 --> 03:39:11.799
of weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot

1262
03:39:11.959 --> 03:39:21.959
heavier than eight stone double down, yet my ankles support

1263
03:39:22.000 --> 03:39:29.399
my body all the time, although they do give off

1264
03:39:29.399 --> 03:39:34.959
a sigh of relief when I sit down. That's in fact,

1265
03:39:35.000 --> 03:39:44.040
my whole legs do. My feet feet also go, my

1266
03:39:44.159 --> 03:39:44.879
toes clap.

1267
03:39:46.040 --> 03:40:04.600
I'm so happy.

1268
03:40:06.559 --> 03:40:16.959
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1269
03:40:17.000 --> 03:40:23.680
about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1270
03:40:23.760 --> 03:40:31.479
boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly or boring

1271
03:40:31.600 --> 03:40:39.760
or not, everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing.

1272
03:40:48.680 --> 03:40:59.319
Your legs deserve not just respect, They deserve to relax

1273
03:41:00.200 --> 03:41:11.719
h deeply. They deserve to take some time out of

1274
03:41:11.840 --> 03:41:36.360
the day to just let go completely. Your legs.

1275
03:41:40.559 --> 03:41:43.120
Really can relax.

1276
03:41:50.719 --> 03:41:54.879
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1277
03:41:55.120 --> 03:42:01.040
very important part of your body when you relax les,

1278
03:42:01.120 --> 03:42:08.399
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1279
03:42:12.079 --> 03:42:23.040
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1280
03:42:24.319 --> 03:42:31.479
My hips feel really loose, and also my lawyer back

1281
03:42:31.520 --> 03:42:38.159
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1282
03:42:39.239 --> 03:42:42.319
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1283
03:42:42.360 --> 03:42:47.639
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1284
03:42:48.639 --> 03:42:51.319
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1285
03:42:51.520 --> 03:42:57.479
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1286
03:42:58.360 --> 03:43:19.639
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1287
03:43:19.680 --> 03:43:28.559
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1288
03:43:29.399 --> 03:43:55.719
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1289
03:44:00.319 --> 03:44:28.360
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1290
03:44:28.479 --> 03:44:33.879
count down from five down to one. And as a countdown,

1291
03:44:35.120 --> 03:44:40.159
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1292
03:44:41.520 --> 03:44:50.559
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1293
03:44:52.280 --> 03:44:56.719
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1294
03:44:56.840 --> 03:45:09.959
numbers and down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1295
03:45:10.000 --> 03:45:18.360
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1296
03:45:18.399 --> 03:45:24.440
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1297
03:45:25.120 --> 03:45:42.280
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five four

1298
03:45:51.680 --> 03:46:11.399
three two.

1299
03:46:08.719 --> 03:46:08.959
One.

1300
03:46:18.399 --> 03:46:30.879
Now, as you notice the gradual letting go the tension

1301
03:46:31.079 --> 03:46:38.280
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1302
03:46:38.360 --> 03:46:47.399
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1303
03:46:49.840 --> 03:46:56.239
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1304
03:46:56.440 --> 03:47:01.319
really a special procedure. It's just it's natural because as

1305
03:47:01.440 --> 03:47:08.760
your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And

1306
03:47:08.840 --> 03:47:12.360
the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1307
03:47:12.479 --> 03:47:22.879
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there is

1308
03:47:22.920 --> 03:47:30.040
that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

1309
03:47:30.879 --> 03:47:32.760
You know, even even if there's.

1310
03:47:32.559 --> 03:47:39.879
Background sounds, either your side or mine, it's still going

1311
03:47:39.959 --> 03:47:45.040
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1312
03:47:45.120 --> 03:47:50.280
television on, there's no music in the background unless you're

1313
03:47:50.280 --> 03:47:57.920
listening to the recording with music. Of course, you're very

1314
03:47:58.040 --> 03:47:59.920
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1315
03:48:00.079 --> 03:48:04.879
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1316
03:48:05.520 --> 03:48:09.239
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1317
03:48:09.479 --> 03:48:19.639
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1318
03:48:26.120 --> 03:48:36.440
relaxation automatically rises a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1319
03:48:40.879 --> 03:48:48.200
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical or.

1320
03:48:51.399 --> 03:48:56.879
Something magical. This is just a natural.

1321
03:48:56.479 --> 03:49:02.159
Process, something that it's easy.

1322
03:49:04.079 --> 03:49:05.159
To accomplish.

1323
03:49:07.600 --> 03:49:11.959
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

1324
03:49:12.799 --> 03:49:19.559
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1325
03:49:19.559 --> 03:49:25.280
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1326
03:49:25.399 --> 03:49:36.200
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1327
03:49:36.440 --> 03:49:48.440
recording and others is simply two allow you to take

1328
03:49:48.479 --> 03:49:55.559
advantage of this space this time.

1329
03:49:58.319 --> 03:50:03.600
It's just let go.

1330
03:50:06.479 --> 03:50:14.719
To just be here, to be in tune with how

1331
03:50:14.799 --> 03:50:28.159
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1332
03:50:28.280 --> 03:50:39.680
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1333
03:50:39.840 --> 03:50:46.000
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1334
03:50:52.959 --> 03:51:02.360
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1335
03:51:02.440 --> 03:51:07.639
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1336
03:51:07.760 --> 03:51:15.559
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1337
03:51:19.479 --> 03:51:20.959
the easier.

1338
03:51:23.440 --> 03:51:24.399
You find.

1339
03:51:25.600 --> 03:51:41.760
Yourself drifting. You can also if you choose stay focused

1340
03:51:42.799 --> 03:52:00.479
on my voice and really enjoy the process of actually

1341
03:52:06.000 --> 03:52:33.040
relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing

1342
03:52:37.479 --> 03:52:58.799
the sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm going

1343
03:52:58.920 --> 03:53:07.319
to count from sins down to one, and you can

1344
03:53:07.479 --> 03:53:19.280
notice your mind calming down more with each number that

1345
03:53:19.440 --> 03:53:21.120
you hear me say.

1346
03:53:25.559 --> 03:53:30.680
Naturally, feeling calm and.

1347
03:53:30.760 --> 03:56:08.600
Slow and be peaceful sex five, four, three, two, one,

1348
03:56:29.760 --> 03:56:31.479
being aware.

1349
03:56:34.200 --> 03:56:35.680
Hell your mind to.

1350
03:56:35.959 --> 03:57:04.440
Slow right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you

1351
03:57:04.600 --> 03:57:13.319
focus on your mind, you may notice that there are

1352
03:57:13.440 --> 03:57:23.680
some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for

1353
03:57:23.719 --> 03:57:29.120
some reason perhaps need your attention.

1354
03:57:35.959 --> 03:57:37.680
That's what you can do is.

1355
03:57:42.879 --> 03:57:55.360
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love,

1356
03:57:57.120 --> 03:58:03.319
like all petals from a flower, sprinkler over them, petals

1357
03:58:03.360 --> 03:58:10.600
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1358
03:58:10.799 --> 03:58:17.639
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1359
03:58:18.840 --> 03:58:31.399
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1360
03:58:34.440 --> 03:58:35.000
For now.

1361
03:58:42.719 --> 03:58:47.719
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

1362
03:58:47.920 --> 03:58:53.159
count down this time from seven down to one, with

1363
03:58:53.280 --> 03:59:07.239
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flags, our pedals of love, kindness,

1364
03:59:08.760 --> 03:59:20.680
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1365
03:59:22.040 --> 03:59:37.120
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1366
03:59:37.200 --> 04:00:14.840
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six.

1367
04:00:32.120 --> 04:00:46.319
Five four.

1368
04:01:11.799 --> 04:02:34.200
Three one. And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling.

1369
04:02:37.440 --> 04:02:48.920
In your body, we're going to focus.

1370
04:02:52.000 --> 04:03:01.639
On your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are,

1371
04:03:04.000 --> 04:03:07.879
the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1372
04:03:22.799 --> 04:03:23.399
And there's.

1373
04:03:24.920 --> 04:03:35.120
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1374
04:03:35.600 --> 04:03:40.399
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1375
04:03:41.399 --> 04:03:51.760
dents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

1376
04:03:52.200 --> 04:04:06.319
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1377
04:04:20.879 --> 04:04:22.360
Because the more.

1378
04:04:24.280 --> 04:04:34.959
Relax your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and

1379
04:04:35.000 --> 04:04:36.040
the more.

1380
04:04:38.559 --> 04:04:47.600
Comfort you feel throughout your body.

1381
04:04:48.680 --> 04:05:19.120
And you may have already noticed you mind is starting

1382
04:05:22.680 --> 04:05:51.280
to dress fain just on your hands and fingers, allowing.

1383
04:05:51.319 --> 04:05:52.719
Them to.

1384
04:05:55.120 --> 04:06:06.719
Experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1385
04:06:06.719 --> 04:06:25.079
and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number.

1386
04:06:32.559 --> 04:06:42.040
From eight down to one, you can.

1387
04:06:42.000 --> 04:06:53.280
Almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

1388
04:06:53.399 --> 04:07:13.239
hands and fingers becoming ye rore relaxing with each number

1389
04:07:15.559 --> 04:07:35.399
you hear, going down eight down to one, drifting, drifting again,

1390
04:07:40.360 --> 04:11:41.040
starting with number eighth seven, six, four, four three, just

1391
04:11:41.239 --> 04:11:50.479
being here now nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1392
04:11:51.879 --> 04:12:05.959
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1393
04:12:06.079 --> 04:12:13.840
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1394
04:12:14.000 --> 04:12:20.920
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1395
04:12:21.280 --> 04:12:28.360
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1396
04:12:28.440 --> 04:12:44.600
worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1397
04:12:46.840 --> 04:12:50.840
You take that away, which is what we do. What

1398
04:12:50.879 --> 04:13:03.440
we do now you're left with a real sense of

1399
04:13:04.200 --> 04:13:16.600
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's

1400
04:13:16.799 --> 04:13:30.319
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

1401
04:13:30.319 --> 04:13:34.479
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1402
04:13:34.559 --> 04:13:48.319
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1403
04:13:48.360 --> 04:13:59.000
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1404
04:13:59.040 --> 04:14:08.879
where you be you, where you can accept yourself for

1405
04:14:09.040 --> 04:14:16.200
who you are, the place where you're not trying to

1406
04:14:16.360 --> 04:14:26.600
please anybody else ever, a place where you can actually

1407
04:14:29.920 --> 04:14:34.879
not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1408
04:14:35.440 --> 04:14:52.559
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1409
04:14:52.639 --> 04:15:06.319
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1410
04:15:06.399 --> 04:15:14.920
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1411
04:15:15.319 --> 04:15:30.239
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

1412
04:15:35.159 --> 04:15:44.120
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1413
04:15:44.440 --> 04:15:56.479
each and every single part of your body, and you

1414
04:15:56.600 --> 04:16:03.600
start to realize that actually, that healing energy, it's.

1415
04:16:03.479 --> 04:16:08.840
Not just entered into your brain, it's.

1416
04:16:08.719 --> 04:16:20.680
Become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid is

1417
04:16:20.799 --> 04:16:31.760
now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you to

1418
04:16:32.040 --> 04:16:39.719
feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

1419
04:16:44.159 --> 04:16:53.639
but also you start to realize to actually, what's happening

1420
04:16:53.799 --> 04:17:02.399
now with that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body

1421
04:17:04.399 --> 04:17:15.159
is actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

1422
04:17:15.200 --> 04:17:21.799
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1423
04:17:21.920 --> 04:17:30.879
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

1424
04:17:30.920 --> 04:17:38.799
physical health, but your mental health. Things that used to

1425
04:17:38.879 --> 04:17:45.000
bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

1426
04:17:46.319 --> 04:17:53.200
have the effect that they used to because something has

1427
04:17:53.319 --> 04:18:03.239
changed deep within you. Maybe things that.

1428
04:18:03.520 --> 04:18:03.840
Used to.

1429
04:18:06.040 --> 04:18:15.520
Cause you to feel anger no longer have that power

1430
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to control you the way they seem to be able

1431
04:18:23.520 --> 04:18:31.159
to before. As you realize.

1432
04:18:31.200 --> 04:18:34.719
That you're the one who.

1433
04:18:34.600 --> 04:18:47.120
Decides what affects you.

1434
04:18:43.399 --> 04:18:46.760
You're the one who decides.

1435
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To feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

1436
04:19:01.479 --> 04:19:17.079
noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to grow and

1437
04:19:17.200 --> 04:19:28.600
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

1438
04:19:28.600 --> 04:19:46.079
ability to relax so much easier. And sleeping is the

1439
04:19:46.079 --> 04:19:56.920
most natural thing in the world to you, because falling

1440
04:19:57.040 --> 04:20:05.559
asleep is something that you've done so many times in

1441
04:20:05.600 --> 04:20:12.799
your life, and you know that you were born, as

1442
04:20:12.799 --> 04:20:19.239
we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

1443
04:20:23.360 --> 04:20:34.159
We were born with that ability to just drift off

1444
04:20:34.879 --> 04:20:48.040
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

1445
04:20:48.079 --> 04:20:52.520
will fall asleep and we don't even want to try

1446
04:20:52.559 --> 04:20:56.879
to tell you stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

1447
04:20:56.920 --> 04:21:01.079
the morning, or it's Christmas or day or something we

1448
04:21:01.239 --> 04:21:01.920
look forward to.

1449
04:21:02.440 --> 04:21:03.719
We don't want to go to sleep.

1450
04:21:05.879 --> 04:21:10.920
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

1451
04:21:11.120 --> 04:21:12.680
we just start to drift.

1452
04:21:16.799 --> 04:21:20.799
And the more you fight drifting, the more you try

1453
04:21:20.879 --> 04:21:22.680
to stop yourself and drift.

1454
04:21:22.399 --> 04:21:23.239
In a safe.

1455
04:21:25.079 --> 04:21:36.159
The deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

1456
04:21:37.159 --> 04:21:43.000
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

1457
04:21:43.159 --> 04:21:53.040
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of

1458
04:21:53.120 --> 04:22:04.799
our DNA. And sometimes as we get older in life,

1459
04:22:05.120 --> 04:22:18.680
perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely is

1460
04:22:18.760 --> 04:22:42.120
not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1461
04:22:43.239 --> 04:22:50.760
It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1462
04:22:50.799 --> 04:22:51.200
it is.

1463
04:22:51.239 --> 04:22:51.879
It is just.

1464
04:22:55.239 --> 04:23:06.719
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1465
04:23:06.799 --> 04:23:17.079
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1466
04:23:17.280 --> 04:23:25.399
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1467
04:23:26.399 --> 04:23:30.840
you have given me permission for my words.

1468
04:23:34.120 --> 04:23:35.440
To effect.

1469
04:23:37.360 --> 04:23:49.239
You in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up

1470
04:23:54.360 --> 04:24:12.840
your mind too useful and healing suggestions that can have

1471
04:24:17.159 --> 04:24:30.319
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now.

1472
04:24:29.360 --> 04:24:30.440
As well.

1473
04:24:32.680 --> 04:24:40.639
As those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1474
04:24:42.280 --> 04:24:51.440
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1475
04:24:55.959 --> 04:25:09.879
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1476
04:25:10.280 --> 04:25:16.600
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1477
04:25:16.879 --> 04:25:34.040
you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

1478
04:25:34.200 --> 04:25:58.360
you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This feels so nice,

1479
04:26:00.120 --> 04:26:14.479
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

1480
04:26:15.440 --> 04:26:33.079
within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're going

1481
04:26:33.159 --> 04:26:43.959
to find that you're more relaxed physically and in your

1482
04:26:44.000 --> 04:26:54.200
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

1483
04:26:56.360 --> 04:26:59.920
it's just that your mind will be less clogged up

1484
04:27:01.079 --> 04:27:14.440
with unnecessary negativity. Because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1485
04:27:18.399 --> 04:27:26.680
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises,

1486
04:27:30.280 --> 04:27:42.239
and you can just say stop, stop, and then negativity.

1487
04:27:43.879 --> 04:27:59.920
Will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and then

1488
04:28:00.120 --> 04:28:04.920
negativity would disappear.

1489
04:28:13.040 --> 04:28:19.559
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1490
04:28:20.959 --> 04:28:36.360
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1491
04:28:36.520 --> 04:28:42.920
you're the person that has done this. You are the

1492
04:28:43.040 --> 04:28:48.159
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1493
04:28:48.319 --> 04:28:56.280
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

1494
04:28:56.920 --> 04:29:06.239
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1495
04:29:08.520 --> 04:29:15.159
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1496
04:29:16.159 --> 04:29:30.239
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

1497
04:29:30.280 --> 04:29:34.000
think it feels nice?

1498
04:29:34.079 --> 04:29:37.479
Doesn't it?

1499
04:29:37.559 --> 04:29:44.639
To feel calm full, that healing energy spreading through your

1500
04:29:44.680 --> 04:29:58.000
body in your mind, to spend time a special place

1501
04:29:58.360 --> 04:30:15.200
where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad,

1502
04:30:16.600 --> 04:30:23.399
it's not allowed Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve

1503
04:30:23.479 --> 04:30:31.719
to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

1504
04:30:32.719 --> 04:30:49.559
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

1505
04:30:51.680 --> 04:31:18.440
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it?

1506
04:31:18.840 --> 04:31:28.000
Just to let go with everything.

1507
04:31:41.000 --> 04:31:48.079
I'm gonna count down now from twenty down to one.

1508
04:31:48.799 --> 04:31:55.799
You can continue to relax. If you choose, you can

1509
04:31:58.479 --> 04:32:09.000
drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

1510
04:32:13.319 --> 04:32:20.719
you can fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

1511
04:32:20.799 --> 04:33:21.759
you can fill twice as sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen.

1512
04:33:27.360 --> 04:33:29.919
Fourteen.

1513
04:33:37.720 --> 04:34:36.680
Thirteen, toeve leven ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

1514
04:34:44.639 --> 04:34:45.360
Five.

1515
04:34:51.919 --> 04:34:52.200
Four.

1516
04:35:25.520 --> 04:35:36.200
This is your time to just take a break, your time.

1517
04:35:36.119 --> 04:35:54.959
To relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to

1518
04:35:55.159 --> 04:36:13.720
give yourself permission to take a break from everything. And

1519
04:36:13.919 --> 04:36:16.000
you're the only person.

1520
04:36:16.319 --> 04:36:21.680
That can make that decision. You're the only.

1521
04:36:21.680 --> 04:36:29.799
Person that can actually tell your mind to just relax,

1522
04:36:37.919 --> 04:36:43.439
to just take some time.

1523
04:36:45.000 --> 04:36:53.200
Off so that.

1524
04:36:53.200 --> 04:36:58.200
You can focus on your body, getting in touch with

1525
04:36:59.319 --> 04:37:16.799
how you physically and in the process of this buddy scan,

1526
04:37:17.200 --> 04:37:27.759
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1527
04:37:27.959 --> 04:37:35.159
parts that you focus on and observe. Even though you're

1528
04:37:35.200 --> 04:37:43.520
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body.

1529
04:37:43.319 --> 04:37:47.720
To relax, it's kind of expected.

1530
04:37:49.279 --> 04:37:54.759
You expect when you listen to my voice.

1531
04:37:54.240 --> 04:37:57.720
To feel more relaxed.

1532
04:37:58.720 --> 04:38:12.479
Naturally, because when you're listening to me, your attention is

1533
04:38:12.560 --> 04:38:23.560
focused on my words and as my words guide you

1534
04:38:26.000 --> 04:38:38.599
to focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

1535
04:38:45.680 --> 04:39:02.080
which actually calms your mind. And when you why calms down,

1536
04:39:06.919 --> 04:39:29.040
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

1537
04:39:29.119 --> 04:39:44.560
mind relaxes. And and though who have not really started

1538
04:39:45.959 --> 04:39:51.400
to focus on your body, you can.

1539
04:39:51.880 --> 04:39:54.880
Already feel.

1540
04:39:57.959 --> 04:40:11.959
That healing energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress

1541
04:40:12.840 --> 04:40:24.200
and tension, heathing all the parts of your body, bleeding,

1542
04:40:24.279 --> 04:40:31.919
your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your organs

1543
04:40:32.040 --> 04:40:37.759
inside your body, all of the muscles, all of the fat,

1544
04:40:39.639 --> 04:40:45.119
all everything, every hair on your body.

1545
04:40:46.919 --> 04:40:49.119
Is filled with that healing.

1546
04:40:48.959 --> 04:41:09.200
Energy, and on your brain fills with that healing energy.

1547
04:41:13.000 --> 04:41:18.080
The feeling of comforts of relaxation.

1548
04:41:21.040 --> 04:41:31.919
Increases, deeply increases.

1549
04:41:37.479 --> 04:41:38.319
In a way that.

1550
04:41:41.799 --> 04:41:58.520
Your mind starts to feel perhaps it rousing because it's

1551
04:41:58.639 --> 04:42:17.880
not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

1552
04:42:18.080 --> 04:42:19.200
what's needed.

1553
04:42:22.360 --> 04:42:27.319
So you're listening to this, and what you need is

1554
04:42:27.479 --> 04:42:34.000
deep relaxation, that's what you get. If what you need is.

1555
04:42:35.599 --> 04:42:37.319
To fall asleep.

1556
04:42:38.520 --> 04:42:47.479
Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also for

1557
04:42:47.639 --> 04:43:00.560
what happened, because by pressing that play button on the

1558
04:43:00.639 --> 04:43:07.959
podcast and listening to me a pure permission your body

1559
04:43:08.119 --> 04:43:20.119
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

1560
04:43:20.159 --> 04:43:31.720
your body and your mind dericts deeply and to drift

1561
04:43:31.840 --> 04:43:40.840
off to sleep if that's what you want, w need.

1562
04:43:48.439 --> 04:43:53.840
And as I focus on the different parts of your.

1563
04:43:53.720 --> 04:44:03.080
Body, you may start to just drift.

1564
04:44:07.159 --> 04:44:10.479
And when you come back again, do you hear me

1565
04:44:10.720 --> 04:44:12.799
talking and I'm.

1566
04:44:12.599 --> 04:44:15.360
Focusing on a different parts.

1567
04:44:14.919 --> 04:44:25.919
Of your body, you may find yourself drifting.

1568
04:44:28.720 --> 04:44:30.759
Do you don't realize you're drifting?

1569
04:44:32.520 --> 04:44:40.200
Until you stop drifting, you're a laugh again to my voice.

1570
04:44:40.840 --> 04:44:44.000
Focusing what a different.

1571
04:44:43.599 --> 04:44:49.000
Parts of your body starts to relax in default.

1572
04:44:52.840 --> 04:44:58.279
Because that drifting is basically you already.

1573
04:45:00.080 --> 04:45:10.040
In the sleep side. And the more you drift, the

1574
04:45:10.080 --> 04:45:20.360
longer you drift, the longer you dread. Eventually that drift

1575
04:45:20.680 --> 04:45:32.560
continues into sleep and that's the last you remember until

1576
04:45:32.599 --> 04:45:33.479
you wake up.

1577
04:45:37.720 --> 04:45:38.599
In your own.

1578
04:45:38.479 --> 04:45:49.159
Time when you experience my amount of sleep, because when

1579
04:45:49.200 --> 04:45:53.919
you do, and if you do, you for a sleeps

1580
04:45:56.520 --> 04:46:22.119
extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep. Sleep feels so.

1581
04:46:22.319 --> 04:46:26.439
Nice to relaxin to.

1582
04:46:28.040 --> 04:46:39.599
One putty in mind, feel that healing is spreading through it.

1583
04:46:41.720 --> 04:46:55.040
Relaxing is so deep, relaxin is so so deeply.

1584
04:47:03.680 --> 04:47:05.959
You start righteous.

1585
04:47:07.520 --> 04:47:29.560
New eyes lea it down to your joel. Now do

1586
04:47:29.680 --> 04:47:30.400
you make.

1587
04:47:37.799 --> 04:47:38.680
Assure this?

1588
04:47:46.200 --> 04:48:33.799
Ohy p, yes, yes, why.

1589
04:48:41.080 --> 04:49:38.159
You think inside your body?

1590
04:49:40.680 --> 04:49:41.200
You are.

1591
04:49:44.000 --> 04:49:49.080
Now let's focus again.

1592
04:49:51.319 --> 04:49:58.680
Parts of your body. But you said this timely a

1593
04:49:58.680 --> 04:50:15.000
forehead now on your mouth, lips, the tongue, hold of

1594
04:50:15.080 --> 04:50:38.799
your mouth, don't you send on your fingers and then

1595
04:50:38.959 --> 04:50:43.080
you think it's a little good. See focus on each

1596
04:50:43.360 --> 04:50:57.000
one in the future by your hands and even those

1597
04:50:57.080 --> 04:51:02.400
to focus on both of your hands out the oless

1598
04:51:02.479 --> 04:51:11.040
sins just not in world? W is your right hands

1599
04:51:11.240 --> 04:51:17.919
starting live? Hand? Master?

1600
04:51:18.040 --> 04:51:18.240
Is it.

1601
04:51:21.159 --> 04:51:37.880
Sneaks still? Now focusing what means? Just make sin how

1602
04:51:38.080 --> 04:53:02.840
your means go? Now that s what whats stop? Stop bok.

1603
04:53:03.159 --> 04:53:03.799
You think.

1604
04:53:34.840 --> 04:53:55.080
What's in course schools conversations?

1605
04:55:00.400 --> 04:56:01.680
M P who will m Yeah that one