July 8, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025

(no music) (5 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name's

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close

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shop eyes. I'm here with little Vinnie. It's laying by

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my side, and I'm sitting in my well on the sofa.

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But it's basically it's it's a reclining sofa, but there's

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two parts that recline. I'm in one part that reclines,

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and he's next to me. So I'll give you I mean,

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this is going to be my days boring objects, but

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I'll give you.

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An ud.

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Give you a little bit of an update on Uncle Sausages,

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my neighbor. Just let you know, I won't you know,

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I'm not going to talk about it for any length

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of time, but I'll just give you a basic update.

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So I'm still visiting him in hospital. He is now

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awaiting to find out if he's able to come home

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with some kind of care plan or whether he needs

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to go into a nursing home. So it's going to

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just you know, we're going to see I'm going to

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start clearing up his flat, not tidying up and cleaning it,

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making it a bit more ready if he does get

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the opportunity to return, and yeah, that's it. Really. I

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went there today, spoke to the pallative palliative nurse or

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palliative care nurse, spoke to the Oh do they call

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them therapist? Not universal, not unisex, you not ambilical. I'm

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trying to think what the name is. But basically, what

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they do is they check him, see what he's capable

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of physically, and to get a layer of the land. Really,

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I suppose. So hopefully he's been had those meetings today

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and I spoke to them this morning, but they're going

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to come back and see him later on in the

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day and I left just before one o'clock. So I'll

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give him a call tomorrow find out how he's getting on.

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It's not always easy to actually hear what he's saying

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because he wants to be private. So when he's talking

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to me about I guess serious things, he whispers and

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I can't hear him even in the hospital. I have

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to get really close to him because he talks so

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so quietly. So yeah, just just see, just wait and

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see tomorrow. Oh God, I will stop the ordering in

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a minute, don't I. Tomorrow I'll do a little bit

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on his flat. Just I want to organize some of

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his stuff. He's got lots of diaries from years ago.

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Some can put them into one drawer important stuff. Put

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all his letters into another place, you know, because there's

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things like darted all around the place. And might have

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to get rid of his chair in the setti. He

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needs a new chair. He needs a new bed. He

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hasn't slept in his bed for years, I don't think

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because it's I think it's broken, but he's been sleeping

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in his chair, which is also really really just it

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needs to be removed. He also needs a fridge because

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he hasn't got fridge. So there's a few little bits

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I need to try and organize for him. But I'll

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do it with him. I'm not just going to do it,

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you know myself. I'm gonna just confirm that that's what

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he wants as I go along. So I need to

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try and find him a fridge, freezer, a cheap one

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to put in his kitchen, and then once I've kind

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of tied it up, I'll then look at maybe trying

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to find him a chair, some kind of yeah, just

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some kind of chair that will be comfortable for him.

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Hmmm.

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It's going to be a bit weird though, because I

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don't know what he's gonna find comfortable, because it's not

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all not all chairs. It's nice to sit in the chair,

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isn't it first before buying it or you know, And

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it won't be a new chair, well it it live.

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It be a new chair which is cheap, like from

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Amazon or something. But then the problem with that is

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getting it into the flat though. The one he's got now,

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I'm not sure how he got it in cause it's

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quite a big thing. So I'm probably what I'll do

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is perhaps measure that chair and try and get one

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the same kind of size, perhaps from the second hand

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shop or something. And it's it's not gonna it's it's

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weird to say this, but it's not gonna be needed

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for long's it's weird to say that out loud. But

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and I'll ask him what he wants to do. He

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might want to buy a brand new chair, and I would,

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you know. Just one thinking of doing is if he

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does come out moving my TV into his flat so

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he has a big TV to watch because he loves

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watching sport, and I'll get all the sports packages that

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he wants that he needs so that he can pretty

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much watch whatever he wants, and he can still have

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his other TV there as well, which is very quite small,

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so he can watch I'd be like Granddad from Only

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Fools and Horses, I have more than one TV at

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the same time, so that might be something that he'd like.

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But I am thinking of doing that to moving my

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TV temporarily into his flat so he can watch the

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big TV. Get him a new chair or a second

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end chair, get him a new bed. Outside of that,

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it it's you know, it also depends what kind of

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bed he's gonna need, because at some point they're gonna

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need to have equipment in their hoists and he might

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have to have a special bed, you know. So it

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really I don't know at this point it's gonna it's

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it's just it's it's a guessing game at this point, really.

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But if he does come home rather than into a

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care home, then I'm gonna do everything I can to

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make it as comfortable and enjoyable, I suppose as possible

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so that you can have the best time. If that

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makes any sense, I don't know. It kind of makes

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sense when I say it out loud, but at the

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same time, it also seems like a ridiculous thing to say,

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just bearing considering the circumstances. I mean, but anyway, I'll

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do whatever I can to help. He did buy me.

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He bought me a sausage roll and a drink. Today

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we went into Costers and he brought his card down

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with him and he bought He sort of treated me,

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and he really felt good about it. He seemed to

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really be happy about that. And he brought me some chocolates,

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a couple of crunchy bars in wh Smith and he

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got himself a couple of chocolate bars. And he seemed

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in really good spirits today, really quite more energetic.

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Hmm.

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And another thing is we I said to him, well,

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you're gonna want to if you want to come home,

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then we've got to stop taking the lift and I

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have to start using the stairs now, because you need

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to prove to yourself as well as the people here, really,

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but you definitely need to prove to yourself that you

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can do the stairs. So we did walk up and

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down the stairs. It's only two little sets of stairs.

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I mean, there's probably there's more stairs here than it

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is in each little set, so there's probably one and

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a half the amount of stairs steps. So yeah, i'd

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say maybe fifty percent more steps than here. It's just

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not a lot. There's not a lot of steps here either.

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And he was cool and he did it fine. He's

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a little bit I think he's a bit unsteady on

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his feet anyway, just generally with age. It's a little bit.

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He's a little bit more careful than he used to be.

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But at the same time, I think because he's been

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off his feet pretty much, nearly solidly for over two weeks,

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he's you know, he hasn't had that circulation, that blood

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circulation and his legs that we all kind of get

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used to us, suppose when we're walking around a bit,

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and he's and plus he's on medication now, so yeah,

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it's just okay. I don't know how that's going to

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affect him, but it was. It was weird, weird figure

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we figured about it. It was pulling me out the

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way of people that were walking through. So he was.

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He was in a bit of a bossy mood today.

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It was funny. So yeah, that was quite good. I

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just figured, though, if you want to come home, you're

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gonna have to deal with the stairs, so we might

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as well do the stairs now. So when I see

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him next time I see him, we'll do the stairs again.

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If he's able to. I mean, I'm not I'm not

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forcing him. He can't force him to do anything. He

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only does what he wants to do. It just made sense,

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really to test it out for him. And I was

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there with him anyways, who wasn't going to fall? And

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there's there's a banister all the way around. See. Yeah,

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he had something for dinner today that was awful. It

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was really bad. It was just mush with It was

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supposed to be chicken and potatoes with gravy, and all

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you could see this is white stuff with gravy. And

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he'd had a hot sausage roll about an hour earlier,

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and he fowed me up later on, said, I'm so

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thankful we had that sausage roll, because at dinner was awful.

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And even the lady that delivered the sausage roll up

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the nights that delivered the meal, she bought the tray in,

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put it on to take the bedside table thing you

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know that they have, and and she she said to

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uncle sausages, She said, right, I don't know what you're

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going to think about this, really and she pulled the

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lid off because of a lot of metal lid thing

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pulled that off, the kind of things you see in

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like expensive restaurants that you pull it off. And she

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was on my laughing at the plate of the contents

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because she knew it was just wrong. She said, well,

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I'm allowed to be honest, like, wow, it was Yeah,

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it really wasn't good. I mean, I don't know what

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it tastes likes. I didn't eat it. It might have

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been fine, but if you yeah, it didn't look great.

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But then really, he's eating better than I am. He's

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getting he's eating four times a day, and they do

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have the calorie intake in the vitamins. They have it

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all very very well balanced meals as I don't know

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what they taste like. It's been a long time since

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I had a hospital food. I was twelve the last time.

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But yeah, I'll probably end up putting weight on. If

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I was eating four times a day cooked food. Well,

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I suppose breakfast is like cereal, but other than that

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it's cooked, and I was just sitting around or in bed,

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I'd probably put weight on. Yeah, probably, which in some

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situations is possibly needed with some people, perhaps putting a

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bit of weight on is a good thing, but it

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wouldn't be a good thing for me. I don't need

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extra weight. Of all the things I need, that's not

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at the top of the list right now. What else? Yeah,

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So that I sit. Really, I'm just waiting to see

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what happens, to find out what's happening with him. So

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at the moment, Uncle's Sausages is still in hospital, he's

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I realize this is going to sound weird, Like in

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most things I say, probably sound weird, but I kind

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of realized what it is about him that kind of

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grabs me a little bit emotionally. And I noticed this.

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I noticed this before, long before he was unwell, but

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I kind of ignored it. But what it is, he's

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got the same smile as my name. His eyes have

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the same smiley eyes as my name had. It's a weird,

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weird thing. I know they say smiling Irish eyes, smiling

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and that, but technically he's Scottish, but he's got the

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same kind of eyes as my name. It's it's weird,

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just as my name had. So maybe that's what it is.

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I kind of just west it looks at me the

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way my name used to look at me. You know

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that look was all of like, please leave me alone?

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Who are you? How did you get into my house?

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You know that that look? Stop eating all my biscuits? Right,

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So that's an update on there. I did a Q

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and A Friday, and I don't know if you realize,

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if you've listened to it or not, it was four

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four and a half hours long. The longest, Yeah, the

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longest recording I've ever done, I think, as in it

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was the whole episode was I think four nineteen minutes,

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nothing else added, just me doing the Q and A Friday.

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It's a long recording very much, so this will not

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be that. This will be a standard standard length recording. Oh,

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I think my I just did some laundry, did some

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laundry yesterday. I did some laundry, all my T shirts

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and my shirts and because I just kind of ran

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out because I didn't go in on Sunday, so I

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did them on Sunday. So I did my laundry. I've

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done my tracksuit bottoms because I've got seven pairs and underwear.

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I've done that now. So it's from the sounds of it,

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it's done. But it's weird because I'm sure, I only

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only put it on about an hour ago. It normally

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tastes longer than an hour to finish, but maybe not,

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maybe it was longer. Maybe Yeah, ah, because I think

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it's eight o'clock now and I put it on about

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quarter past six, so that I guess that would make sense.

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It's finished now, so I hang them up when I've

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done this, and that would pretty much be all the

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laundry've done now. And I told Uncle's Sausages that I

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was gonna to get some like start washing some of

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his stuff because he's got some clothes that have been

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in the closet for I don't know how long. So

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what I do is I sought through it and maybe

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wash it and just so it's there so when he

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comes back he can just choose to, you know, wear

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what he wants and it will be clean. So that's

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that's another thing I'll do. If we do that last, though,

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I'll leave that to the last last thing to do.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, he's got a brand new kitchen and they've got

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a brand new bathroom that he hasn't even seen yet,

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and he saw part of it because they were in

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the middle of doing it. I think they just finished

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the the first week he had the first week of

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doing the bathroom because they started on Tuesday and the

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Fridays when he went into hospital, and then he came

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back the next week doing stuff and they might have yeah,

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so they finished it last week. He didn't get to

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see the finished result. And he had a brand new

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kitchen done about two months ago, three months ago, and

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he's got new windows coming as well in the next

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few months. So it's hmmm, you need to get rid

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of that wallpaper. I'm not going to, but it's the

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war papers. I think the war paper was there before

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he moved in, because I think back in them days

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they didn't because when I moved in there everything was bare.

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You know, there's nothing in the walls. It was just

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white waves, no carpet, no furniture, which I think is

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standard anyway. But I think when he moved in, there

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was war paper already there and they just left the

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wallpaper as it was. And he's lived here for thirty years.

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I'm just thinking, imagine if that's me in twenty five

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years and I've got a neighbor coming into my flat

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looking for my stuff. I mean, I'm not looking for

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his stuff, but I had to look for something because

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he asked me to look for something. But I'm only

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in there because he asked me. I don't go into

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people's homes without them actually wanted me to do it,

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and I told him anytime I go in, I goes

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in there. Anytime I go in now and tell him

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and why. And he wanted me to look for some

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money because he had forty pound in cash he wanted

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me to get for him. It was in a I

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don't know where it was I found. I did find

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it in the end. But oh, I can hear a

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washing machine. It's doing the old tumble bit, you know,

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the like that is that the draining, draining the water out,

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something like that. I don't know, summit simula. Raining today

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was raining, proper raining. So I got a taxi there

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because it was raining. I just didn't want to get wet.

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But I got two buses back. So I got the

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busses back because I fortnight. This is just getting this

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is weird, Okay, this is this is just in trodding myself.

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Then the cost of a taxi to the hospital from

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where I live and back again, you know, so each

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journey either there or the journey back is around seventeen pound.

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At the weekend, it was more it's a Saturday, seventeen

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sixty and the other person wanted eighteen pound forty or something,

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so it varies on a Saturday. But I've just been

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given them twenty pound, you know, with a tip, twenty pound.

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And I've done that with every single taxi driver up

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till today. But today's taxi driver didn't want it. He

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wouldn't take it. So I was paying on a card

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and he said, no, it's seventeen pound and he wouldn't

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take a tip. He wasn't. He was like really friendly

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taxi driver, but he said he didn't want a tip.

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He didn't didn't. It's like, wow, okay, that was surprising

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because I've just automatically just said just take twenty pounds

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because just I don't know, it just seems the right

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thing to do. I'm not even going to work out

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how much. Oh Christine, just a big thank you to

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Christine for your PayPal gift. Thank you, thank you very much.

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I did send a message to you. Thank you.

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Well.

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Oh you know, as we again, a taxi towards the

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hospital went round a corner from where I lived, and

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the taxi slowed down, and this pigeon was in the

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middle of the road, just standing there looking at us.

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Had a right attitude, honestly, just like walked very slowly

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to the curb. Nothing wrong with it. It was just

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really like driver around me, Who do you think you are?

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I always here first. This is my manner, real, real

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attitude on it. This pigeon, It's like King of the

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Pigeons or something. Yeah, all right, I should do Monday's

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boring objects. I've only been talking for half an hour.

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I should get on of it, really shouldn't.

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I you.

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What have I not talked about though, because I've done

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so many of these, is there was so object that

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I've not talked about that maybe I could talk about.

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I'm going to talk about karate. I know I've talked

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about martial arts and different things I've done, but I

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want to talk about you. I wan to talk about karate,

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specifically the karate I did when I was at school

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and how I ended up doing it, and so I

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didn't do it for long, only a few years or

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cup two and a half years or something. But yeah,

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I'll go through that. Let's do that. Because I've never

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really I don't think I ever well, I probably have,

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but I don't recall going in depth into the karate situation,

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but saying that I probably have. But I'll do it

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again anyway. It'll be different this time. I'll be better.

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It'll be different.

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This time.

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It will work out. Okay, I've looked for my mistakes,

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so I don't actually remember which particularly year it was,

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but I'm guessing I was probably thirty. Yeah, thirty would

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be probably the age where I because I was in

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the Secredets from eleven to for about twelve and a

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half in fact, before I was eleven, and then I

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left there because I didn't like it, I started doing karate.

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So basically what happened is I was at school with

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my friend Stephan, and he was just saying, Oh, I'm

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going to go in tonight. I'm going to go and

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see the karate because his brother had started doing karate

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and loved it so and because his brother was so

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excited I think as Paul his name was. Because his

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brother was so excited enthusiastic in that, Stephan became a

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little bit interested because it was his younger brother that

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was doing it, like a year younger pretty much. So

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he said, I'm going to go because it was in

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a different high school to the one that we were

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going to. There was two high schools in that town.

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There was nothing at our high school those kind of

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sports or anything. I don't think, unless, of course there was.

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I don't think there was. There might have been. No.

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I think that I might have had judo there. I

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kind of wish i'd done judo as well. But hey,

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so it was on different nights of the week because

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karate was a Tuesday Thursday, and I think they had

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judo on Monday and Wednesday. So I said to Stephane Oi, Stephan,

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can I come along. All he was going to do

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is go there and just watch the evening. So his

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brother was already there. We rolled up. Unless we went

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I might have got a lift. I don't even know.

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I might have got a lift with him with his

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family and got dropped off there. Or I might have

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walked up there with him and his brother. I really

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am not sure. Or I might just rolled up on

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my own and him and his brother was already there.

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It's a little bit, but he did say it's okay

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for me to come along. I know, technically I could

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do what I wanted, but you know, it just seems

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a nice thing to do, just to say, you don't

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mind if I hang along, because I didn't. The thing

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is right, I wanted to do karate when I was

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a young kid, when I was younger, when I was like,

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I asked my dad and he said no, basically, and

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this is when I was twelve eleven. He said no.

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There was no ifs or buts, like nope. I don't

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know why, because he did judo when he was at school,

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so I don't know why he didn't want me to

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do martial arts. Anyway, at thirteen, I just did it.

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I didn't ask him. I just went along and he so.

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My friend Stephen was there. I still kind of remember it.

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We sat on these long do you know those long

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benches they're having gym gymnasiums. There are long seats like wooden,

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and maybe people sit on them when they're watching other

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people performing or whatever, doing football or whatever. I don't know,

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and sometimes you use them to jump over and stuff.

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I kind of can I know what I'm imagining in

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my head. I just don't know what the correct term

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is for them. Just benches probably probably they call them benches.

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And they were all stacked up on the well as

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you go into the door of the of the gym,

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because it was the big gym in the school. As

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you go into the doorway, on the left hand side

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was all the benches and the rest of the room,

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big old room was used for the karate. So me

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and Stephane were sitting on this on the benches, watching

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But I didn't even know whose brother was. I don't

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think I've ever met him before, even though I'd been

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to school with Stefann right from junior school, so I'd

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spent two years at junior school and then well was

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it what year would it be? Two thousand and No,

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not two thousand, well nineteen eighty No, nineteen seventy nine.

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So from nineteen seventy nine to nineteen eighty six I

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was at school with Stephan so I knew him that

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whole time, and I would say I was pretty good friends.

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We never hung out outside of school, but we always

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got on really well in school. It's just one of

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those things. So anyway, I went along with him. He

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was one of the toughest kids in the school in

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the year well, in fact, he probably I was best friends.

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I was good friends with two of the toughest kids,

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Carl and Stephan. They just happened to be I wasn't

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friends with them for that reason. They just one. I

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was one I was friends with because he was also

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in the I guess they used to call it the

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dances class, which was wrong. They shouldn't have done that.

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But we were taken out of Anyone that was disruptive

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or didn't do what they were supposed to do, or

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showed no sign of intelligence. In my case, was taken

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out of the normal classes and put into this special

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room with toys and stuff and we could just do

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whatever we wanted for a few hours, and we did

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do whatever we wanted. I mean, it's probably fair to

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say that we were going to do whatever we wanted anyway,

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but we got free reign to do that. And there

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was a probably about out of the whole year, Yeah,

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because I did it by year. I didn't have anyone

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in other years in now I don't think so. There's

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probably there might have been other people from other years,

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but this is in the first year. I think it

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only happened in the first year, so we had probably

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about I'm trying to remember the people. Mer her eight

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at least eight people that I could remember. There may

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have been sore. There's me. There was a pretty about

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eight maybe more of us, three girls and five boys,

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one two I don't know, maybe four boys. So there

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was about eight, maybe a little bit more. And so

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I got to know these people separately from the rest

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of the year. And because they were the well I

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say they, but they kind of were the most the

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biggest trouble makers. Technically they're all okay actually, but they

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because they didn't go along with what they were supposed

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to go along with. They were classes the rough kids,

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and but they weren't really they were tough, but they

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were just just kids just like me. And so I

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was in that group. So I got to know that

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I kind of became part of that group. It's the

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only group I really became part of. But that was

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just for the first year, and after that we all

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kind of separated, but still, you know, knew each other

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and I knew them, and some of them had known

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from junior school. Anyway, anyway, what was my point mentioning that?

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Oh yeah, just there was a point too, I can't remember.

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So I went to anyway, Stephan, I went to this

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to the Crier Club. It was either Tuesday or or

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a Thursday evening, and I think it was seven till nine.

472
00:38:08.159 --> 00:38:11.320
I think, or it might have been seven point thirty

473
00:38:11.440 --> 00:38:18.320
till nine. I don't recall if it was summer or winter,

474
00:38:20.719 --> 00:38:26.039
or spring or autumn. I don't know. It wouldn't have

475
00:38:26.079 --> 00:38:28.880
been summer because they closed during the summer. When the

476
00:38:28.920 --> 00:38:34.280
school was closed, no karate, which meant we would train

477
00:38:34.800 --> 00:38:37.639
in a park. We'd all meet up and train in

478
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:46.079
the park and stuff. And also half term it was

479
00:38:46.079 --> 00:38:49.400
always nice to have a break, you know, have a

480
00:38:49.400 --> 00:38:58.920
bit of a break from it all. Yeah, so I

481
00:38:59.039 --> 00:39:04.320
was there. What was weird is, first of all, I

482
00:39:04.360 --> 00:39:07.760
was impressed. I mean, I supoke. It's obvious cause I

483
00:39:08.639 --> 00:39:12.559
went back, but I was really impressed at what I saw.

484
00:39:13.519 --> 00:39:17.639
But I also found it funny because there was a

485
00:39:17.719 --> 00:39:23.280
really tough kid there who was the toughest kid in

486
00:39:23.320 --> 00:39:27.239
the year below us. But he was known for every

487
00:39:27.400 --> 00:39:33.760
everyone was kind of he was. It was like a

488
00:39:33.800 --> 00:39:37.639
little Mike Tyson. That's before Mike Tyson was even famous,

489
00:39:38.559 --> 00:39:42.400
you know, so he was he was doing that. It

490
00:39:42.480 --> 00:39:50.360
was basically a little bit of a terror. And so

491
00:39:50.559 --> 00:39:53.000
this would be in probably the third year school, so

492
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:57.360
I'd known him for a couple of years or whatever,

493
00:40:02.440 --> 00:40:06.480
and he was there and he looked silly because he

494
00:40:06.599 --> 00:40:08.400
was just starting out, so we didn't know what he

495
00:40:08.440 --> 00:40:11.440
was doing. So I so used to him walking around

496
00:40:11.599 --> 00:40:17.519
flexing his muscles and trying to be a bully boy.

497
00:40:18.719 --> 00:40:24.280
And I saw him and he couldn't even punch properly

498
00:40:25.360 --> 00:40:27.960
in karate. I knew he could punch properly because I'd

499
00:40:27.960 --> 00:40:30.239
seen him, but he was more of a boxer. But

500
00:40:30.440 --> 00:40:33.480
the fact he was doing that, and I just it

501
00:40:33.480 --> 00:40:37.199
was quite amusing. And there's no reason why he would

502
00:40:37.239 --> 00:40:40.159
be any good because he was just starting, and no

503
00:40:40.199 --> 00:40:42.519
one's any good when they just start unless they've done

504
00:40:42.519 --> 00:40:46.679
it before. But it was quite I don't know, just

505
00:40:47.039 --> 00:40:50.000
I found it. It tickled me a little bit. I

506
00:40:50.039 --> 00:40:59.480
didn't tell him because because I'm not silly anyway, he

507
00:40:59.519 --> 00:41:04.039
didn't say it, but he went along. He was best

508
00:41:04.039 --> 00:41:08.920
friends with Stephan's brother, who was also one of the

509
00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:14.239
tough kids. The thing is with Stephan and his brother,

510
00:41:15.159 --> 00:41:20.920
they were tough, but they didn't act tough. They were

511
00:41:20.960 --> 00:41:25.280
almost like adults around kids, you know. They just didn't

512
00:41:25.320 --> 00:41:31.159
take any rubbish, and they they were very physically mature.

513
00:41:32.880 --> 00:41:37.360
They were literally like physically adults before most of the

514
00:41:37.400 --> 00:41:44.760
other kids were, and they were both be glad and

515
00:41:45.320 --> 00:41:49.320
they had their mentality was also quite adult as well,

516
00:41:50.280 --> 00:41:54.199
so they weren't really like kids. He was never Stephan

517
00:41:54.400 --> 00:41:57.360
was never like a kid really. He was also really

518
00:41:57.519 --> 00:42:01.039
always had his head on his shoulders, was very mature.

519
00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:04.440
We used to have a good old laugh. But at

520
00:42:04.440 --> 00:42:09.239
the same time he was very intelligent, as his brother

521
00:42:09.400 --> 00:42:12.800
was as well. They sort of they knew what they

522
00:42:12.840 --> 00:42:18.000
wanted to do. And yeah, I remember one once. I

523
00:42:18.119 --> 00:42:25.840
was in the school yard and the year below, so

524
00:42:26.000 --> 00:42:29.719
not the year below me, but the year below him.

525
00:42:29.840 --> 00:42:33.079
So two years below this kid who was the toughest

526
00:42:33.119 --> 00:42:35.599
kid in that year and also one of the toughest

527
00:42:35.679 --> 00:42:38.480
kids in the school, they gained another big one and

528
00:42:38.480 --> 00:42:41.679
grew bigger than everyone else in that he jumped on

529
00:42:41.800 --> 00:42:48.159
me and pinned me to the ground. To the ground. Now,

530
00:42:48.199 --> 00:42:51.760
this is where me and Stephan's brother and Stephan we

531
00:42:51.760 --> 00:42:55.960
were doing karate. At this point Stephane had left, so

532
00:42:56.119 --> 00:42:59.280
I got to know his brother really well from the karate.

533
00:43:01.159 --> 00:43:04.760
So this lad jumped on me and pinned my arms

534
00:43:04.800 --> 00:43:11.719
down and like I probably didn't weigh more than eight

535
00:43:11.840 --> 00:43:15.800
stone at the time. If that, he probably weighed about

536
00:43:18.920 --> 00:43:26.599
twelve thirteen stone. Probably he was a big, big, strong lad. Yeah,

537
00:43:26.760 --> 00:43:30.079
at least twelve stone, at least four stone heavyer than me.

538
00:43:33.360 --> 00:43:35.239
And I didn't know what to do. I mean, I

539
00:43:35.239 --> 00:43:37.920
could like because I was in shock, because I didn't

540
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:40.159
know who was going to do it. No one had

541
00:43:40.199 --> 00:43:43.480
ever done that to me before, I don't think, not

542
00:43:43.639 --> 00:43:51.559
recently anyway, And I'm like, oh, and then out of

543
00:43:51.559 --> 00:43:53.960
the corner of my eye, well, actually I was gonna say,

544
00:43:53.960 --> 00:43:55.480
I heard out the corner of my eye. You can't

545
00:43:55.559 --> 00:43:57.920
hear out of your eye, can you? Not? Even the

546
00:43:57.960 --> 00:44:03.960
corner his voice, And it was Stephan's brother that I

547
00:44:04.000 --> 00:44:06.800
was at Krete with. He just shouted out, get off

548
00:44:06.840 --> 00:44:10.639
him now, and he did. He just stood up, sorry

549
00:44:11.760 --> 00:44:14.840
and ran off. And that was the toughest kid in

550
00:44:14.880 --> 00:44:20.159
the whole of his year. But as soon as Paul

551
00:44:20.320 --> 00:44:25.760
said get off him, he did. It was weird, It's like,

552
00:44:27.000 --> 00:44:30.440
and both of them were younger than me, but I

553
00:44:30.679 --> 00:44:38.800
was like a little kid. I was so underdeveloped in

554
00:44:38.840 --> 00:44:43.239
a sense. When I left school at fifteen, I was

555
00:44:44.039 --> 00:44:46.920
eight and a half stone. I don't know what that

556
00:44:47.039 --> 00:44:51.960
is in pounds or kilos, but I do know what

557
00:44:51.960 --> 00:44:57.880
it is, Roughly in kilos, it's about fifty kilos ish.

558
00:44:58.400 --> 00:45:03.760
Sixteen stone is around one hundred kilos ish. So I

559
00:45:03.840 --> 00:45:06.800
was around like, I don't know, forty eight kilos, maybe

560
00:45:07.800 --> 00:45:14.320
fifty kilos, which burned in mind. Technically I was an adult,

561
00:45:14.920 --> 00:45:17.119
and I was probably the same weight when I was

562
00:45:19.920 --> 00:45:24.119
sixteen seventeen. I might got I think I went up

563
00:45:24.159 --> 00:45:28.519
to about nine stone when I was about eighteen, like

564
00:45:28.599 --> 00:45:36.239
you know, so I was very light, really reached super slim,

565
00:45:36.519 --> 00:45:40.880
but naturally didn't matter. Whatever I ate didn't make a difference.

566
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:45.039
I just was slim, you know, just the way it was.

567
00:45:46.480 --> 00:45:51.280
And I looked nothing like my dad physically, because my

568
00:45:51.400 --> 00:45:59.639
dad's strong, broad, big bloke always was. But then in

569
00:45:59.679 --> 00:46:06.920
older age, once I hit thirty, I kind of almost

570
00:46:06.960 --> 00:46:11.400
grew into my father, and now I got the same

571
00:46:11.480 --> 00:46:14.960
and shape body as him. It's weird, isn't it. I

572
00:46:15.000 --> 00:46:17.400
don't quite show how. It's like it was always there.

573
00:46:17.400 --> 00:46:21.360
I just didn't like the bones were there, but there

574
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:24.519
was no There was no fat. I didn't have any

575
00:46:24.519 --> 00:46:27.280
fat on me at all when I was in my twenties,

576
00:46:28.519 --> 00:46:29.679
which is probably a good thing.

577
00:46:29.880 --> 00:46:30.079
You know.

578
00:46:30.320 --> 00:46:43.480
My BMI was probably like minus zero fat and then thirty. Yeah,

579
00:46:43.559 --> 00:46:46.519
well that's that's a whole new ball game.

580
00:46:50.000 --> 00:46:50.480
Yeah.

581
00:46:51.880 --> 00:46:54.719
Anyway, so that was weird. So so I went to it.

582
00:46:54.800 --> 00:46:57.280
So I went there the very first night of karate.

583
00:46:58.760 --> 00:47:00.440
I fell in love with the place. I fell in

584
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:06.519
love with everything about it. Bearing in mind, I've loved

585
00:47:06.559 --> 00:47:12.320
martial arts since I was a little kid, from age

586
00:47:12.360 --> 00:47:18.400
of seven, having that picture of Bruce Lee on my

587
00:47:18.559 --> 00:47:21.519
wall in my little room, my very first room I

588
00:47:21.559 --> 00:47:24.559
ever had of my own, and a picture of Bruce

589
00:47:24.639 --> 00:47:30.920
Lee from Met a Dragon. From that, you know, from

590
00:47:30.920 --> 00:47:34.000
that moment on, I had to discover who he was.

591
00:47:34.079 --> 00:47:41.079
And I loved martial arts and kung fu the TV

592
00:47:41.199 --> 00:47:45.400
show was on. I mean, that was probably the closest

593
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:47.800
thing I really got to see martial arts at that time,

594
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.840
and there was very little kung fu in it, but

595
00:47:52.199 --> 00:47:54.840
when it was in it, it was the most exciting

596
00:47:54.840 --> 00:48:01.800
thing in the world. I loved it, absolutely loved it.

597
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:07.679
So I kind of just you know this, this was

598
00:48:07.719 --> 00:48:13.920
like I'm home, I'm home, baby. But at the same time,

599
00:48:14.079 --> 00:48:20.079
I was nervous because it's new, But I was less

600
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:25.519
nervous because I was with Stephan and he was joining

601
00:48:25.559 --> 00:48:28.920
with me, so I was kind of okay with that

602
00:48:28.920 --> 00:48:31.920
because I wasn't on my own. So we both went

603
00:48:32.000 --> 00:48:34.960
back the next even if it was if it was

604
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:37.599
a Tuesday that we went, then we both went back

605
00:48:37.639 --> 00:48:41.719
on a Thursday night. If it was a Thursday night

606
00:48:41.760 --> 00:48:44.159
that we went to watch that, we both went back

607
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:49.800
on the following Tuesday night. And we just had some

608
00:48:49.880 --> 00:48:53.840
tracksuit bottoms and a T shirt. Because I don't give you.

609
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:57.079
You don't get a gee straight away. You kind of

610
00:48:57.639 --> 00:48:59.480
see how you get on and if you do like it,

611
00:48:59.519 --> 00:49:05.000
then you pay. We paid Paul was his name, the

612
00:49:05.039 --> 00:49:13.039
sense at the teacher. He got the geys then across

613
00:49:13.199 --> 00:49:16.039
like twenty quid or fifteen cred or twelve quid, I

614
00:49:16.039 --> 00:49:19.440
don't know how much it was back then. And there'd

615
00:49:19.440 --> 00:49:23.000
be a white belt and a gee which was a

616
00:49:23.119 --> 00:49:27.440
white like white trousers and a white top made of

617
00:49:28.320 --> 00:49:33.280
flannel kind of material. I think it might not be flannel,

618
00:49:33.280 --> 00:49:39.079
but it was white. And I do actually, I do

619
00:49:39.920 --> 00:49:43.239
have a picture of myself in my g my karate

620
00:49:43.320 --> 00:49:54.119
costume from when I was fourteen. It's in a photograph

621
00:49:54.239 --> 00:50:00.719
album that my dad and stepmom put together few years

622
00:50:00.719 --> 00:50:04.880
back just before just yeah, about two thousand and twenty

623
00:50:04.920 --> 00:50:10.800
two and there's a picture of me. I might have

624
00:50:10.840 --> 00:50:22.559
even had my nunchucks on me possibly, Wow, So it's strange.

625
00:50:22.679 --> 00:50:24.519
There's also a picture of me in my CI Caredet

626
00:50:24.559 --> 00:50:30.360
costume as well. So that's the kind of I think

627
00:50:30.440 --> 00:50:33.880
my dad was. He liked me being in the cic Cadets.

628
00:50:37.239 --> 00:50:40.000
I don't think he was interested in me being in karate.

629
00:50:40.880 --> 00:50:43.960
It didn't really suit what he wanted for me. I don't.

630
00:50:44.239 --> 00:50:47.599
I don't quite know why. Actually, even as an adult,

631
00:50:47.880 --> 00:50:51.320
when I told him I've started doing kung fu or

632
00:50:52.000 --> 00:50:59.559
boxing or what did I do? Kind of remember what

633
00:50:59.559 --> 00:51:09.239
I've done? What did I do? Another thing I did?

634
00:51:09.239 --> 00:51:11.119
Like it's got out of my head now, but I've

635
00:51:11.119 --> 00:51:14.079
done a few different martial arts and stuff, and every

636
00:51:14.119 --> 00:51:15.480
time I told him, he's like, oh, what are you

637
00:51:15.480 --> 00:51:18.360
doing that for? Can you find something else a bit

638
00:51:18.440 --> 00:51:24.840
less violent? Like it's not violent, it's it's just fun

639
00:51:25.880 --> 00:51:30.400
kicking and punching is it's a sport. It's just controlled.

640
00:51:31.480 --> 00:51:34.880
And although I can't do it anymore, I can't do

641
00:51:34.960 --> 00:51:38.159
the kicking taekwon do. That's what I was trying to

642
00:51:38.199 --> 00:51:41.440
think of. That's the last thing I did, or I

643
00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:44.880
did try and give jiu jitsu a go. I just

644
00:51:44.920 --> 00:51:52.199
don't have the bending capacity to do that anymore. It's yeah,

645
00:51:52.239 --> 00:52:00.400
it's just not physically up my road anymore, unfortunately. But

646
00:52:00.440 --> 00:52:02.320
there still know a few little moves that I can

647
00:52:02.360 --> 00:52:06.840
do if needed. So I think, if anything, i'd like

648
00:52:06.960 --> 00:52:11.519
to if I was going to go back to something boxing.

649
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:16.159
The problem is because of my age. It's not a

650
00:52:16.199 --> 00:52:19.760
problem for me because I know I can. I can't

651
00:52:19.800 --> 00:52:29.039
do all like the super exercisey bit cardiovascular. I could

652
00:52:29.079 --> 00:52:31.719
do some of it, but you know, that's something I

653
00:52:31.800 --> 00:52:34.639
kind of have to be careful with. Just take it easy,

654
00:52:34.880 --> 00:52:40.880
take it slowly. But punching a bag or punching someone

655
00:52:40.920 --> 00:52:43.960
with their holding the midst up and punching the pads

656
00:52:44.000 --> 00:52:50.440
and stuff is something that would be fun. But unfortunately,

657
00:52:51.159 --> 00:52:54.719
when I went to the the amateur boxing club in

658
00:52:54.760 --> 00:52:57.840
about two thousand and nine, when I was at university,

659
00:52:58.639 --> 00:53:01.119
I went along to the local AID, which is the

660
00:53:01.159 --> 00:53:08.039
Amateur Boxing Association. They let me go. I was pretty

661
00:53:08.119 --> 00:53:12.360
much the oldest person there. I was pretty much one

662
00:53:12.400 --> 00:53:15.519
of the only adults there, so that wasn't I didn't

663
00:53:15.599 --> 00:53:20.440
like that. Actually, I wanted to be around, not bothered

664
00:53:20.440 --> 00:53:23.639
that there was kids there, But I'd rather have adults

665
00:53:23.639 --> 00:53:29.239
around me, just because I just don't look so silly,

666
00:53:30.119 --> 00:53:34.719
you know, because if you've got adults doing martial arts,

667
00:53:34.800 --> 00:53:38.440
you don't have people watching, you don't have families watching.

668
00:53:40.480 --> 00:53:43.320
But because there's so many kids there, a lot of

669
00:53:43.320 --> 00:53:46.440
their parents were sitting in the sidelines watching, and I'm

670
00:53:46.480 --> 00:53:49.599
sure they were laughing at me. If they weren't, they

671
00:53:49.599 --> 00:53:53.159
should have been, because I'd have a T shirt on

672
00:53:53.360 --> 00:53:58.840
and within about five minutes it would be soaked through.

673
00:54:00.599 --> 00:54:02.840
I lost a bit away of doing it. I did

674
00:54:02.840 --> 00:54:09.480
put on some muscle in that, but I just absolutely soaked.

675
00:54:08.639 --> 00:54:14.239
And but I enjoyed it. But I kept injuring myself

676
00:54:16.199 --> 00:54:19.559
they wouldn't let me spa That's the thing that kind

677
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:22.079
of annoyed me a little bit. And I understand, of

678
00:54:22.079 --> 00:54:24.559
course I'm not going to spire a little kid, but

679
00:54:25.679 --> 00:54:28.639
a lot of those kids, especially something were as big

680
00:54:28.679 --> 00:54:32.119
as I was or tall wise, anyway, they would have

681
00:54:32.119 --> 00:54:33.960
just boxed my head off. I wouldn't have stood a

682
00:54:34.039 --> 00:54:38.000
chance because they were just out boxed me. I wouldn't

683
00:54:38.000 --> 00:54:43.519
be able to catch them, even though because I was

684
00:54:43.599 --> 00:54:49.519
too old, I wasn't allowed legally for them to be sparring,

685
00:54:50.840 --> 00:54:55.239
and I'd been okay just to stand there and not

686
00:54:55.360 --> 00:54:58.119
do anything, just move around the ring and block the

687
00:54:58.159 --> 00:55:01.320
punches if I could, and not throw many punches, just

688
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:04.440
to be a target almost that would have been fun

689
00:55:04.480 --> 00:55:08.920
for me. But they didn't even do that. And that's

690
00:55:09.000 --> 00:55:11.920
quite a good opportunity, isn't it to have have someone

691
00:55:12.079 --> 00:55:14.880
running jumping around. Because there was some lads there that

692
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:18.119
were much bigger than me, like six six two six

693
00:55:18.280 --> 00:55:26.079
three on five eight, so you know, technically, and they

694
00:55:26.079 --> 00:55:29.679
add something with young sort of late teens that were,

695
00:55:31.119 --> 00:55:35.239
you know, really cool adults really, so I could have

696
00:55:36.239 --> 00:55:38.960
happily just got in the ring with them and danced

697
00:55:38.960 --> 00:55:41.760
around a little bit and tried to avoid them punching me.

698
00:55:42.920 --> 00:55:44.400
I don't I'm not saying I wanted to be a

699
00:55:44.400 --> 00:55:48.199
punch bag, but it would have been a bit of fun,

700
00:55:53.440 --> 00:55:56.320
I don't know, just stuff. But they wouldn't wouldn't let me,

701
00:55:59.320 --> 00:56:04.440
And that's really I mean. I think if anyone goes

702
00:56:04.480 --> 00:56:09.480
to boxing, anyone starts boxing, I think they're probably telling

703
00:56:09.519 --> 00:56:11.800
FIBs if they say that they don't care whether or

704
00:56:11.840 --> 00:56:17.000
not they get to spa. I think most people that

705
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:19.800
go to boxing want to spa. It's kind of the

706
00:56:19.840 --> 00:56:25.960
point of the whole thing is being able to put

707
00:56:26.000 --> 00:56:34.119
it into action in a safe environment. And I didn't

708
00:56:34.119 --> 00:56:38.239
get a chance, mind you. I did do boxing when

709
00:56:38.239 --> 00:56:40.440
I was at school for the thing. I went once

710
00:56:40.559 --> 00:56:45.719
or twice, and they didn't have any rules. There was

711
00:56:45.800 --> 00:56:49.320
like a few sit ups, few press ups, go on

712
00:56:49.360 --> 00:56:51.840
the punch bag, and then start sparring with each other.

713
00:56:52.840 --> 00:56:55.079
And I ended up with this. Bearing in mind, I

714
00:56:55.119 --> 00:56:58.480
was like quite little. I ended up with someone that

715
00:56:58.679 --> 00:57:05.039
was probably a good six six for six two and

716
00:57:05.519 --> 00:57:10.239
twice twice my height and twice my weight rather and

717
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:12.920
it just kept punching me in the head like I

718
00:57:12.960 --> 00:57:17.960
couldn't like, can you just stop punching me please, which,

719
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:20.199
of course you can't really say when it comes down

720
00:57:20.239 --> 00:57:23.760
to boxing, please stop that. Could you just stop, give

721
00:57:23.800 --> 00:57:26.400
me a chance let me punch you, because it wouldn't

722
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:32.639
so it can't put me off a little bit. Why

723
00:57:32.679 --> 00:57:37.239
did you stop doing boxing? Kept punching me? Yeah, pretty much.

724
00:57:41.480 --> 00:57:41.559
So.

725
00:57:41.679 --> 00:57:44.880
I can't remember the first time I went to karate

726
00:57:45.360 --> 00:57:50.679
as in the first lesson, but I know that I

727
00:57:50.719 --> 00:57:56.039
went every single Tuesday and Thursday. I had a pay

728
00:57:56.159 --> 00:58:00.960
per round. I think I had an early morning paper

729
00:58:01.039 --> 00:58:05.400
round at this point, so that's what paid for the

730
00:58:05.480 --> 00:58:15.760
karate and a few things, a few standout moments of

731
00:58:15.920 --> 00:58:20.880
going to that create club during those years. The first

732
00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:26.280
thing is every single grading I attended, I got a

733
00:58:26.360 --> 00:58:31.679
first class pass and that isn't the highest you can

734
00:58:31.840 --> 00:58:36.559
skip a grade. That's what Stephan's brother because we both

735
00:58:36.599 --> 00:58:42.360
had our first Yeah, we both had our first grade

736
00:58:42.400 --> 00:58:45.239
in at the same time because he had literally just started,

737
00:58:45.679 --> 00:58:50.639
I think the week before I did, and he skipped

738
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:52.960
right away through to the next belt because he was

739
00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:56.400
so good straight away. But I did get a first

740
00:58:56.400 --> 00:59:01.880
class passed, so that was okay. The weird thing about

741
00:59:01.920 --> 00:59:04.440
it though, because we did I did I think two

742
00:59:04.679 --> 00:59:11.480
possibly three contests competitions, and I didn't win. I I

743
00:59:11.519 --> 00:59:15.760
didn't win any awards or any prizes, but I did

744
00:59:15.760 --> 00:59:24.079
win a couple of fights. The like Stephan's brother, he

745
00:59:24.280 --> 00:59:29.440
was bearing in mind he was yeah, he was fourteen,

746
00:59:29.679 --> 00:59:33.079
so it was younger than me, so thirteen, let's say

747
00:59:33.800 --> 00:59:37.800
it's thirteen years old. They put him in with another

748
00:59:37.840 --> 00:59:48.239
thirteen year old. The size difference was ridiculous, and the

749
00:59:49.079 --> 00:59:53.639
other kid just started crying and there was a lot

750
00:59:53.639 --> 00:59:58.599
of cafore before kafore whatever about it? Parents saying, what

751
00:59:58.679 --> 01:00:00.599
have you put my kid in with a adult for

752
01:00:01.559 --> 01:00:03.599
and all this stuff, and they said, he's not an adult.

753
01:00:03.599 --> 01:00:08.519
It's thirteen. He can't be thirteen. He's bigger than me,

754
01:00:09.800 --> 01:00:14.880
and there was all that, but he was thirteen. I

755
01:00:14.920 --> 01:00:18.599
think it's a little They should have weight categories. They

756
01:00:18.599 --> 01:00:22.039
were just doing it by age. But with adults they

757
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:24.280
do it by weight. With the kids, they were just

758
01:00:24.280 --> 01:00:27.440
doing it by age. That was a little bit didn't

759
01:00:27.440 --> 01:00:32.679
really seem very fair to put someone who probably weighed well,

760
01:00:34.719 --> 01:00:38.000
this thirteen year old he probably it was about my

761
01:00:38.119 --> 01:00:41.280
size because I was about the size of a thirteen

762
01:00:41.320 --> 01:00:45.280
year old, so it's about my size. So it's a

763
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:49.119
lot littler than this other kid who was probably at

764
01:00:49.199 --> 01:00:57.559
that time twelve stone if not more. So. Yeah, he won,

765
01:00:57.800 --> 01:01:00.119
he won his category, but there was a lot of

766
01:01:02.599 --> 01:01:11.719
a lot of neshing of teeth. He won a trophy.

767
01:01:12.559 --> 01:01:15.000
He was just naturally good. He just he took to

768
01:01:15.079 --> 01:01:23.960
it so quickly. It was, yeah, it's very very good. Stephan.

769
01:01:25.599 --> 01:01:27.639
He stayed for a while and then he stopped going.

770
01:01:28.800 --> 01:01:31.079
I never really he just I don't think he didn't

771
01:01:31.079 --> 01:01:34.559
want to do it anymore. He'd lost interest, which is,

772
01:01:34.639 --> 01:01:36.360
you know, I was still friends with him. I just

773
01:01:37.119 --> 01:01:40.320
but I liked it when he was coming because during

774
01:01:40.360 --> 01:01:43.079
break times we were practiced doing karate with each other,

775
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:46.679
going down the hallway. And a good thing about it

776
01:01:46.719 --> 01:01:49.320
is if I'd have done it, if anyone else, I

777
01:01:49.320 --> 01:01:51.519
could have had other lads coming up to me and

778
01:01:51.519 --> 01:01:53.800
give me a hard time. Because I was doing it

779
01:01:53.920 --> 01:01:56.119
the toughest kid in one of the toughest kids in

780
01:01:56.159 --> 01:01:59.000
the school, and the toughest kid in the year. No

781
01:01:59.039 --> 01:02:02.039
one gave us a hard time, so it was quite cool.

782
01:02:02.159 --> 01:02:05.920
So we were like kicking each other and blocking and running

783
01:02:05.960 --> 01:02:09.760
around and it was brilliant. And then he stopped. He

784
01:02:09.840 --> 01:02:14.320
stopped going. It's not about being me embarrassing him or something.

785
01:02:14.400 --> 01:02:19.960
I don't know, so, but you know, we're still still friends.

786
01:02:19.960 --> 01:02:22.480
It just he didn't want to go anymore. So I

787
01:02:22.599 --> 01:02:29.000
continued because I loved karate. It was my life. Within

788
01:02:29.039 --> 01:02:35.199
a week, it was my entire life. There was nothing

789
01:02:36.440 --> 01:02:40.760
more important than karate to me in the entire world.

790
01:02:41.880 --> 01:02:46.039
Everything else was just in the background, a bit of

791
01:02:46.039 --> 01:02:55.239
a blur. And it was my new special interest above

792
01:02:55.280 --> 01:03:05.559
everything else. My previous special interest was I was very,

793
01:03:05.679 --> 01:03:08.280
very into this is going to sound a bit weird,

794
01:03:08.480 --> 01:03:12.920
bearing in mind I was like eleven. I didn't I

795
01:03:12.960 --> 01:03:17.719
never liked the Seecredts. I just went there when I

796
01:03:17.760 --> 01:03:20.920
was ten because I was there before. I wasn't even

797
01:03:20.960 --> 01:03:22.760
old enough to be there, but they let me go

798
01:03:22.840 --> 01:03:25.280
along because there was only a couple of months before

799
01:03:25.360 --> 01:03:31.280
my eleventh birthday, and I just didn't want to go home.

800
01:03:31.599 --> 01:03:35.480
I just wanted to go somewhere else. So me and

801
01:03:35.519 --> 01:03:38.239
my friend went there and we joined up, and it

802
01:03:38.360 --> 01:03:42.480
was just nice to I was never really particularly good

803
01:03:42.480 --> 01:03:48.239
at fitting in, and I think when you join a group,

804
01:03:50.920 --> 01:03:53.400
even if you don't fit in, you are still part

805
01:03:53.400 --> 01:03:56.639
of the group. So you might be like an odd

806
01:03:56.679 --> 01:03:58.639
ball in the group. Or made the same me I

807
01:03:58.639 --> 01:04:02.119
taught about myself. I was an odd ball in the Cycadets,

808
01:04:04.119 --> 01:04:07.679
but I was still one of them. I still wore

809
01:04:07.719 --> 01:04:13.239
to CEC that uniform. Yeah, that motorbike is in the

810
01:04:13.280 --> 01:04:18.599
garden just behind us. Way too late. Was it nearly

811
01:04:18.679 --> 01:04:25.599
nine o'clock? It's quarter past nine? A motorbike. I never

812
01:04:25.679 --> 01:04:30.159
used to be this mooning, you know, I didn't, So

813
01:04:32.400 --> 01:04:34.760
I think that's part of the reason. Another reason I

814
01:04:34.880 --> 01:04:38.480
kind of I didn't like it, but I felt a

815
01:04:38.519 --> 01:04:41.800
part of something when I was in the Cycadets, as

816
01:04:41.800 --> 01:04:46.239
I did want to join the karate club. I preferred

817
01:04:46.280 --> 01:04:52.800
the karate club membership side of it because I was

818
01:04:52.880 --> 01:04:57.599
around adults as well as kids, and I respected all

819
01:04:57.599 --> 01:05:01.519
of the adults well, apart from one who he wasn't

820
01:05:01.800 --> 01:05:04.880
he was an adult. He was probably eighteen, but he was.

821
01:05:06.880 --> 01:05:11.360
It was a bit of a div really, that's a

822
01:05:11.519 --> 01:05:13.960
nice word for him. He used to try and bully

823
01:05:14.000 --> 01:05:16.960
me when we were sparring. He'd kicked me and he

824
01:05:17.440 --> 01:05:21.800
was like good six foot five, like really tall, and

825
01:05:21.840 --> 01:05:24.840
he was a brown belt, so he got his black

826
01:05:24.840 --> 01:05:28.559
belt as well, so he was very really good at

827
01:05:28.559 --> 01:05:31.000
what he did. He was one of the top karate

828
01:05:31.079 --> 01:05:35.480
people in there. But for some reason he enjoyed kicking

829
01:05:35.519 --> 01:05:39.239
me over on the floor and I got a bit

830
01:05:39.280 --> 01:05:44.159
fed up with it, so I just I started hurting him.

831
01:05:46.079 --> 01:05:48.039
What do you mean you hurt him? I mean he

832
01:05:48.119 --> 01:05:51.519
was so big. So the good thing about it is

833
01:05:52.360 --> 01:05:55.880
I could punch him in the stomach and accidentally miss

834
01:05:55.880 --> 01:06:00.400
his stomach and he'd be on the floor. So I

835
01:06:00.440 --> 01:06:03.199
did that a few times, or i'd hurt his leg

836
01:06:04.280 --> 01:06:07.000
and he started to kind of back down a little

837
01:06:07.000 --> 01:06:11.239
bit with me. He didn't sort of take so many liberties,

838
01:06:11.280 --> 01:06:14.199
as it were, but he seemed to really enjoy just

839
01:06:14.280 --> 01:06:17.400
tripping me up and kicking me over, and no one

840
01:06:17.400 --> 01:06:19.360
else did that. It was the only person who did it.

841
01:06:19.880 --> 01:06:24.159
Everyone else treated me with respect, including the adults. They

842
01:06:24.239 --> 01:06:31.239
always like the the instructor. He seemed to really like me,

843
01:06:32.000 --> 01:06:35.800
and it pushed me, but it would never ever hurt me.

844
01:06:36.719 --> 01:06:39.440
Let's face it, he could in a second have hurt me,

845
01:06:39.880 --> 01:06:45.480
but he didn't. And that's I respected that because that's

846
01:06:45.599 --> 01:06:47.400
kind of what I think the other lad should have

847
01:06:47.400 --> 01:06:51.920
done because he was an adult compared to me. It

848
01:06:52.039 --> 01:06:54.639
was eighteen, so technic key, I suppose he was an adult.

849
01:06:55.480 --> 01:06:58.639
He was in sixth form college, I think, or maybe

850
01:06:58.760 --> 01:07:01.400
left left his left sixth form college. I don't know,

851
01:07:04.480 --> 01:07:07.199
but he was just yeah, but I don't think he

852
01:07:07.280 --> 01:07:10.679
did it with anyone else. I don't know. Maybe he

853
01:07:10.760 --> 01:07:15.440
fancied me, I don't know, who knows. Maybe he's a

854
01:07:15.440 --> 01:07:20.559
way of flirting. But yeah, that's a few low punches

855
01:07:20.599 --> 01:07:23.960
and that kind of sort of down. I'd say a few,

856
01:07:24.199 --> 01:07:31.599
quite a few. Oh I did it again? Sorry, hmmm.

857
01:07:34.599 --> 01:07:44.960
I a few standout moments. Nice memories would be when

858
01:07:45.679 --> 01:07:50.320
one of the older men, I say older, it was

859
01:07:50.360 --> 01:07:52.679
old to me, probably in his twenties, to be fair,

860
01:07:53.760 --> 01:07:59.199
it's probably yeah, twenties. Yeah, in his twenties. I thought

861
01:07:59.199 --> 01:08:05.719
he was like old. Maybe he was late twenties. He

862
01:08:05.800 --> 01:08:11.480
was getting married, and he asked me and another of

863
01:08:11.559 --> 01:08:14.719
the young ones like me to go to his wedding

864
01:08:17.039 --> 01:08:22.880
in our Geese course, you know, karate uniforms, and stand

865
01:08:23.279 --> 01:08:26.560
as they walked out of the church after getting married.

866
01:08:26.760 --> 01:08:33.800
So we were standing outside. They had a cameraman filming

867
01:08:35.760 --> 01:08:40.199
or yeah, or taking pictures or whatever. As the newly

868
01:08:40.279 --> 01:08:44.439
married couple came out, and me and another lad were

869
01:08:44.439 --> 01:08:49.840
holding the swords above basically at the entrance or the

870
01:08:49.880 --> 01:08:53.680
exit of the church, just high enough so they could

871
01:08:53.720 --> 01:08:58.920
just walk through, of course, And I found it funny.

872
01:08:59.239 --> 01:09:01.800
For all, if I slip cut his head off, that

873
01:09:01.800 --> 01:09:05.960
would be funny. It won't go down very well. But

874
01:09:06.000 --> 01:09:10.239
it didn't happen, clearly, Otherwise I probably wouldn't. My whole

875
01:09:10.239 --> 01:09:16.039
life would have been different, wouldn't it. But how amazing.

876
01:09:16.319 --> 01:09:18.680
I'd love to see that picture. I never got to

877
01:09:18.720 --> 01:09:21.119
see the picture unless I did, and I forgot, and

878
01:09:21.199 --> 01:09:28.199
I got to see it. How cool is that? Got

879
01:09:28.239 --> 01:09:32.159
to just be a how many people get married and

880
01:09:32.239 --> 01:09:36.159
walk out to two people holding swords? I mean, I

881
01:09:36.199 --> 01:09:39.840
suppose the royal family do. But yeah, it was really

882
01:09:39.920 --> 01:09:46.000
cool and it was just really It was also cool

883
01:09:46.000 --> 01:09:51.279
that he asked me and the other lad I forget

884
01:09:51.279 --> 01:09:56.000
who it was, but just like out of all of us,

885
01:09:56.560 --> 01:10:00.640
I got to do it. So cool. Honestly, it was brilliant.

886
01:10:01.680 --> 01:10:05.960
And I think I used to go up to the

887
01:10:06.039 --> 01:10:08.840
cry contests with him, so I suppose you got to

888
01:10:08.880 --> 01:10:16.439
know me a little bit. What else? I used to

889
01:10:16.479 --> 01:10:19.600
love the sparring Apart from with that, you know, the

890
01:10:20.079 --> 01:10:26.279
big lanky, six foot nine bully boy, I didn't enjoy that,

891
01:10:26.520 --> 01:10:31.920
but everyone else I enjoyed sparring with. It was fun.

892
01:10:32.000 --> 01:10:34.279
I loved the sparring. That was kind of the whole

893
01:10:34.279 --> 01:10:38.840
point really is to practice what you're learning, is practice

894
01:10:38.880 --> 01:10:41.800
the blocking and the kicking and a punch in the

895
01:10:41.880 --> 01:10:51.680
sweeping and all that stuff. And we sparred every single time.

896
01:10:52.760 --> 01:10:55.680
So half the night or half the evening was based

897
01:10:55.720 --> 01:11:01.319
on practicing drills, practicing not drills as in not that

898
01:11:01.479 --> 01:11:06.640
kind of drill, and practicing the form, practicing kicks, punches,

899
01:11:06.680 --> 01:11:10.479
stuff like that. And then the next part of the

900
01:11:10.520 --> 01:11:13.720
evening was spiring, so it would all stand up in

901
01:11:13.760 --> 01:11:16.760
a line facing each other, so that if there was

902
01:11:16.840 --> 01:11:20.840
like there's twenty of us, there'd be one line of

903
01:11:21.600 --> 01:11:26.199
ten people all facing each other, and then they would

904
01:11:26.199 --> 01:11:29.359
spile with that person. We'd have pads on her hands,

905
01:11:29.479 --> 01:11:33.680
pads on her feet. I didn't have any pads on

906
01:11:33.720 --> 01:11:37.319
the head, didn't have a gum shield or anything like that.

907
01:11:37.439 --> 01:11:40.199
Oh yeah, pads on the groin. I probably didn't really

908
01:11:40.239 --> 01:11:43.880
need it, but you know I had it anyway. And

909
01:11:44.880 --> 01:11:48.319
if you get a good old punch, it doesn't stop it,

910
01:11:48.439 --> 01:11:54.239
as I found out when I did the Punch Days,

911
01:11:54.319 --> 01:12:02.119
and it was so much fun, just punching and kicking

912
01:12:02.159 --> 01:12:04.479
each other. It was great. And the thing is I

913
01:12:04.479 --> 01:12:07.760
could hardly reach anyone's head anyway, because everyone everyone was

914
01:12:07.800 --> 01:12:13.039
taller than me, apart from those that weren't, and and

915
01:12:13.079 --> 01:12:18.880
they generally were a fair bit younger. Because I started, Yeah,

916
01:12:18.880 --> 01:12:23.880
I think you could start twelve in the Create club.

917
01:12:23.920 --> 01:12:27.880
That was their limit, that was their oldest was twelve.

918
01:12:31.119 --> 01:12:34.399
So I remember the spar and that was great, which

919
01:12:34.399 --> 01:12:37.359
brings me on to my next thing. Of the most

920
01:12:38.039 --> 01:12:44.760
I actually changed the Create Club, and I'm never going

921
01:12:44.840 --> 01:12:47.640
to be remembered for it, that's the funny thing about it.

922
01:12:47.680 --> 01:12:53.159
But I changed the direction of that club because my

923
01:12:53.239 --> 01:13:04.960
little brother was Burr would be eighty five, so he

924
01:13:05.000 --> 01:13:11.960
would have been seven. My little brother was interested in

925
01:13:12.000 --> 01:13:16.119
doing karate and I kept asking if he could come along,

926
01:13:16.560 --> 01:13:21.720
and Paul, the instructor, said no, not till he's twelve.

927
01:13:22.720 --> 01:13:25.800
Can't do it. Won't do it, can't do it, won't

928
01:13:25.840 --> 01:13:30.359
do it. And I said to him one night and said, well,

929
01:13:30.359 --> 01:13:36.600
why don't we do a separate one, like on a Saturday,

930
01:13:37.760 --> 01:13:41.720
like a completely separate thing. You can have, you know,

931
01:13:41.800 --> 01:13:44.079
coming on a Saturday and have like an extra spiring

932
01:13:44.159 --> 01:13:50.279
session for the adults. But I have allowed some kids

933
01:13:50.319 --> 01:13:53.960
to come along under the age of twelve. Yeah, you

934
01:13:53.960 --> 01:13:58.720
can have a limit, maybe no one under five or something.

935
01:13:58.920 --> 01:14:05.920
And eventually I was I'm not saying I was hasslimit

936
01:14:06.279 --> 01:14:08.199
every day. I wasn't phoning them up in the middle

937
01:14:08.239 --> 01:14:14.159
of the night. It's me again. Please come my little brother,

938
01:14:14.439 --> 01:14:20.000
come on, please, just the kids. Please. So eventually he

939
01:14:20.039 --> 01:14:25.560
gave up and he said, okay, we'll try it. So

940
01:14:27.479 --> 01:14:29.479
I mean he gave up his own time to come

941
01:14:29.479 --> 01:14:33.159
in and I don't know if they even charge the kids.

942
01:14:34.239 --> 01:14:42.760
So they we came in on a Saturday, and he

943
01:14:42.880 --> 01:14:47.920
got me to teach the kids because it was just

944
01:14:47.960 --> 01:14:51.880
basically teaching them a little bit disciplined to line up,

945
01:14:52.840 --> 01:14:56.520
how to kick, how to punch, how none of it

946
01:14:56.560 --> 01:15:00.680
was like hard stuff. It's very basic stuff. So he

947
01:15:00.800 --> 01:15:08.079
got me to teach them and it went from there.

948
01:15:08.800 --> 01:15:12.199
So that's where it started, and then they progressed to

949
01:15:12.279 --> 01:15:16.199
doing it on having like a separate group on a

950
01:15:16.239 --> 01:15:19.880
Tuesday and Thursday night at the back of the of

951
01:15:19.960 --> 01:15:23.439
the gym, so they wouldn't be part of the main thing,

952
01:15:23.840 --> 01:15:27.000
but they'd be doing they'd be taught by like me,

953
01:15:27.439 --> 01:15:34.720
and then when I left, someone else taught And so

954
01:15:34.760 --> 01:15:38.960
it went from that doing it every Saturday morning, to

955
01:15:39.079 --> 01:15:41.279
then do it then including it on a Tuesday and

956
01:15:41.319 --> 01:15:50.479
a Thursday evening, and that was blood how many block

957
01:15:50.600 --> 01:15:58.000
how many years ago? Is that forty years ago? And

958
01:15:59.279 --> 01:16:03.720
the amount of blot belts that have come out of

959
01:16:03.720 --> 01:16:05.640
those kids. They still do it now. I still got

960
01:16:05.720 --> 01:16:10.600
little kids training, not to say not the same little kids,

961
01:16:11.560 --> 01:16:14.840
but they've still got little kids training. So that was

962
01:16:15.239 --> 01:16:20.119
my idea, and it might be the greatest thing I've

963
01:16:20.159 --> 01:16:24.119
ever done in my life, which is kind of sad maybe,

964
01:16:25.239 --> 01:16:27.439
but it was my idea because I wanted my little

965
01:16:27.439 --> 01:16:31.760
brother to come along and do cry and because I've

966
01:16:31.760 --> 01:16:35.399
already taught him some karate, which came in handy because

967
01:16:35.399 --> 01:16:39.239
it's a little local. Bully started on him, and he

968
01:16:39.399 --> 01:16:44.279
sorted the bully out and it set him up for

969
01:16:44.319 --> 01:16:47.439
the rest of his school because he had confidence that

970
01:16:47.479 --> 01:16:50.800
he knew that he could deal with, you know, situations

971
01:16:50.880 --> 01:16:57.880
like that. And it was my little brother lost interest.

972
01:16:59.439 --> 01:17:03.399
He went for probably two months, three months. I don't

973
01:17:03.399 --> 01:17:06.239
know how long. He got his first grade in I

974
01:17:06.279 --> 01:17:08.119
know that, so he must have been there for at

975
01:17:08.199 --> 01:17:13.560
least three months because the gradings every three months, so

976
01:17:13.600 --> 01:17:17.760
he got his yellow belt. It might it might have

977
01:17:17.840 --> 01:17:20.680
been there six months, but then he left. He lost interest,

978
01:17:23.159 --> 01:17:26.239
but they kept the thing going because by then they

979
01:17:26.279 --> 01:17:31.840
had more kids joining it started off. I think I

980
01:17:31.920 --> 01:17:34.239
kind of got some of the neighbors' kids to come along,

981
01:17:35.079 --> 01:17:39.359
and it started off with maybe three kids, and then

982
01:17:39.399 --> 01:17:41.920
it grew to five, and then there was seven, and

983
01:17:41.920 --> 01:17:47.000
then there was ten, and ten's all you need, really,

984
01:17:48.159 --> 01:17:51.600
it's a good number. And then it grew and it

985
01:17:51.720 --> 01:17:59.600
just continued from nineteen eighty five to today. So tomorrow,

986
01:18:00.000 --> 01:18:06.880
tomorrow evening, Tuesday evening pretty much guaranteed that someone will

987
01:18:06.920 --> 01:18:13.760
walk into that gym, a kid, maybe ten years old,

988
01:18:14.439 --> 01:18:18.880
for example, nine years old. We'll walk in there for

989
01:18:18.920 --> 01:18:22.119
the first time with their parents or older brother or

990
01:18:22.399 --> 01:18:29.880
sister or whatever, and we'll, you know, learn to start

991
01:18:30.640 --> 01:18:34.560
kicking and punching for the first time, and by the

992
01:18:34.600 --> 01:18:36.479
time they leave school, there will be a black belt.

993
01:18:40.880 --> 01:18:44.760
And that's all thanks to me. I'm responsible for the

994
01:18:44.800 --> 01:18:48.399
success of every single black belt ever. No, that's not

995
01:18:48.439 --> 01:18:52.319
what I'm saying. But it was quite a nice a

996
01:18:52.399 --> 01:18:57.199
nice memory, quite a nice thing, that a positive thing

997
01:18:57.279 --> 01:19:04.319
that I probably created because it was it wasn't allowed,

998
01:19:05.239 --> 01:19:09.680
not allowed, not allowed. But in the end he gave

999
01:19:09.760 --> 01:19:11.600
up and he said okay, because I kept going on

1000
01:19:11.640 --> 01:19:16.399
about it, and he clearly must the instructor must have

1001
01:19:16.560 --> 01:19:21.239
liked me, because he didn't tell me to stop hassling him,

1002
01:19:21.359 --> 01:19:23.119
or he might have done, actually, but I just didn't

1003
01:19:23.159 --> 01:19:28.640
give up. I was quite insistent because I wanted my

1004
01:19:28.640 --> 01:19:32.439
little brother to go to I think, if I'm honest,

1005
01:19:32.439 --> 01:19:34.279
I probably didn't care about the other kids. I was

1006
01:19:34.319 --> 01:19:40.079
just focusing on my little brother. But because there had

1007
01:19:40.079 --> 01:19:42.119
to be other kids as well, I kind of got

1008
01:19:42.119 --> 01:19:44.640
a few other kids from the neighborhood to go along

1009
01:19:44.680 --> 01:19:47.520
with some of his friends. Probably it's thinking about it, yeah,

1010
01:19:47.560 --> 01:19:50.039
I think it was. And maybe some of the kids

1011
01:19:50.079 --> 01:19:54.319
of the adults that were going there, they brought them

1012
01:19:54.359 --> 01:20:01.640
along just to kind of support that new venture. Yeah, yeah, groovy.

1013
01:20:04.520 --> 01:20:08.800
So I'm not going to remember. I won't be remembered

1014
01:20:08.800 --> 01:20:12.520
for it. I bet you. Not one person remembers me ever,

1015
01:20:13.239 --> 01:20:17.039
not even Paul, who was my hero, he was the instructor,

1016
01:20:17.079 --> 01:20:20.079
he won't remember me. I mean, last time I saw

1017
01:20:20.119 --> 01:20:23.680
him was probably about nineteen eighty seven, and he said,

1018
01:20:23.720 --> 01:20:27.279
when you're coming back? I said soon. I never did,

1019
01:20:27.680 --> 01:20:35.359
never went back. Yeah, that's weird. It's at one of

1020
01:20:35.399 --> 01:20:41.000
less school. I was working in the evenings and I'd

1021
01:20:41.039 --> 01:20:45.760
lost interest anyway. At that point in everything, I had

1022
01:20:45.760 --> 01:20:51.000
no interest in anything. So karate was gone everything. I

1023
01:20:51.039 --> 01:20:54.840
was just working in a chip shop and that's it.

1024
01:20:54.920 --> 01:20:57.319
That's what I did for two years. There was nothing

1025
01:20:57.319 --> 01:21:03.159
really else going on in my life and what else.

1026
01:21:03.239 --> 01:21:09.319
So with the karate, I have nice memories of getting

1027
01:21:09.359 --> 01:21:19.720
together equipment, so I had the So yeah, I got

1028
01:21:19.760 --> 01:21:23.119
some gym stuff like you know, weights. And my dad

1029
01:21:23.199 --> 01:21:28.479
had this big studio thing at the botto of the garden,

1030
01:21:29.199 --> 01:21:32.199
which was his office because he was self employed, so

1031
01:21:32.319 --> 01:21:36.560
his office but also kept his equipment in part of

1032
01:21:36.600 --> 01:21:39.239
it as well. And there was a toilet down there,

1033
01:21:39.279 --> 01:21:42.840
and I think it was this his safe space, probably

1034
01:21:43.479 --> 01:21:45.279
to be on his own, have a bit of quiet

1035
01:21:45.319 --> 01:21:49.239
piece and quiet from all of us. But what he did,

1036
01:21:49.319 --> 01:21:50.960
he did he took a bit of interest in what

1037
01:21:51.000 --> 01:21:54.880
I was doing because he he let me put my

1038
01:21:54.920 --> 01:21:58.159
weights down there. So I was buying I was buying

1039
01:21:58.199 --> 01:22:01.239
weights bit by bits, up buying a bar bell one week.

1040
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:04.279
Then I was buying the you know, the weights to

1041
01:22:04.319 --> 01:22:06.800
put on the bar bell. Then I got a curl bar,

1042
01:22:07.279 --> 01:22:10.680
put some weights for the curl bar, got some dumb bells,

1043
01:22:11.039 --> 01:22:13.039
a little dumb bell set, and then I got another

1044
01:22:13.399 --> 01:22:18.760
dumb bell set, you know, to sort of match it.

1045
01:22:16.479 --> 01:22:23.880
And I can't think of any other things weights wise

1046
01:22:24.000 --> 01:22:28.079
I had. But I had like a you know, a

1047
01:22:28.199 --> 01:22:33.520
varied weight collection. And then I told my dad that

1048
01:22:33.560 --> 01:22:35.960
I wanted to get a punch bag. So what he

1049
01:22:36.039 --> 01:22:42.239
did is he found me a kit bag and he

1050
01:22:42.319 --> 01:22:50.680
filled it with sawdust. It's really heavy. Really heavy, and

1051
01:22:50.840 --> 01:22:54.640
he attached it to the ceiling. And then I got

1052
01:22:54.640 --> 01:22:58.079
another punch bag, which was already I think it was

1053
01:22:58.119 --> 01:23:00.760
full of We put just cloth in it. So I

1054
01:23:00.760 --> 01:23:05.680
had a light bag and a really heavy bag. I

1055
01:23:05.520 --> 01:23:10.399
imagine the one full of swordust was probably as heavy

1056
01:23:10.439 --> 01:23:15.880
as me nearly. Anyway, it was pretty sturdy stuff and

1057
01:23:16.000 --> 01:23:18.319
a kit bag. If you don't know what that is,

1058
01:23:17.720 --> 01:23:21.920
it's the kind of thing that people in the forces

1059
01:23:22.000 --> 01:23:27.920
used to use, and it's a big, long thing and

1060
01:23:27.960 --> 01:23:30.600
they would just basically have all their belongings in it.

1061
01:23:32.479 --> 01:23:38.520
But it didn't have handles for some reason, or maybe

1062
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:41.039
the handles had fallen off, but it was just like

1063
01:23:41.079 --> 01:23:45.680
a big punch bag. I'm thinking it might have belonged

1064
01:23:45.680 --> 01:23:47.920
to my granddad because he used to be a boxer,

1065
01:23:48.800 --> 01:23:54.239
and I think I might have had my granddad's boxing gloves,

1066
01:23:55.079 --> 01:23:57.760
but I did buy some boxing gloves as well, and

1067
01:23:57.960 --> 01:24:04.199
some bag gloves. But I also like to punch without

1068
01:24:04.239 --> 01:24:09.479
any gloves on as well, so yeah, so so my

1069
01:24:09.600 --> 01:24:12.239
dad helped me put all that stuff up, so that

1070
01:24:12.359 --> 01:24:19.159
was nice. I got all happy memories of practicing karate

1071
01:24:19.279 --> 01:24:23.439
in the garden, say happy memories, but they're very vague. Memories.

1072
01:24:23.479 --> 01:24:25.920
But I do remember I used to practice my kicks

1073
01:24:25.960 --> 01:24:29.640
and my punches and my forms. That's when it's as

1074
01:24:29.640 --> 01:24:33.399
a sequence of different moves. Some people call it the carter,

1075
01:24:33.680 --> 01:24:37.880
some people call it form. But it's just like practicing

1076
01:24:38.359 --> 01:24:46.600
kicks and punches and blocks and stuff. And in the evenings,

1077
01:24:48.159 --> 01:24:52.359
I used to go and really really go on that

1078
01:24:52.479 --> 01:24:59.279
punch bag proper, the heavy one. More than anything, I

1079
01:24:59.319 --> 01:25:03.920
loved it. I just really loved it. Especially if one

1080
01:25:03.960 --> 01:25:06.000
of my brothers was annoying me, I'd go down the

1081
01:25:06.039 --> 01:25:12.439
garden and just punch the punch, punch the bag as

1082
01:25:12.439 --> 01:25:24.399
it were. And yeah, it was useful, really useful. Yeah.

1083
01:25:24.520 --> 01:25:27.960
I like that punch bag, the one that was heavy

1084
01:25:28.279 --> 01:25:33.760
like that. The heavier the better, Like a big, big,

1085
01:25:33.960 --> 01:25:38.560
heavy punch bag. That's kind of the perfect thing. You know,

1086
01:25:38.840 --> 01:25:41.359
something that doesn't even move when you punch it. That's

1087
01:25:41.439 --> 01:25:45.800
like perfect. I don't want something to start moving and

1088
01:25:46.399 --> 01:25:52.640
swaying around. It's something really heavy, like twenty stone or

1089
01:25:52.640 --> 01:25:57.600
something that that'd be nice, although my ceiling wouldn't take that.

1090
01:25:59.520 --> 01:26:02.239
I do have a punch bag in my bedroom, but

1091
01:26:02.279 --> 01:26:04.720
it's one that's on a it's got like got a

1092
01:26:04.800 --> 01:26:08.319
water base with water. You can put concrete or sand

1093
01:26:08.359 --> 01:26:11.520
in there, but I just put water in so I

1094
01:26:11.560 --> 01:26:15.000
can punch you. It does move around, and I just

1095
01:26:15.039 --> 01:26:20.199
feel a little bit self conscious that I'm gonna disrupt

1096
01:26:20.279 --> 01:26:24.279
my neighbor downstairs because they're going to hear it. How

1097
01:26:24.279 --> 01:26:28.920
could they not hear it? It's quite loud, you know

1098
01:26:28.960 --> 01:26:42.960
what I mean. So ooh ooh, ooh ooh. Trying to

1099
01:26:43.000 --> 01:26:45.319
think of some other Yeah, in the summers we used

1100
01:26:45.319 --> 01:26:47.920
to well in wasn't that many summers, was there, But

1101
01:26:49.000 --> 01:26:52.199
I remember one summer we met up in this park

1102
01:26:52.279 --> 01:26:55.000
around the corner from where I lived and would run

1103
01:26:55.079 --> 01:27:00.319
around and then we'd spar and stuff. It's brilliant because

1104
01:27:00.520 --> 01:27:03.920
it wouldn't be something I would do myself. I wouldn't

1105
01:27:03.920 --> 01:27:08.039
go to a park and start practicing karate. But when

1106
01:27:08.079 --> 01:27:12.079
you've got a bunch of black belts with you adults,

1107
01:27:12.239 --> 01:27:14.800
it's kind of you do what you want really, so

1108
01:27:14.880 --> 01:27:22.039
it was nice. I'm trying to think other moments of

1109
01:27:22.119 --> 01:27:25.840
the karate. Getting my Yeah, getting my gradings was nice,

1110
01:27:26.000 --> 01:27:30.680
getting my first class gradings and getting the new belt.

1111
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:39.079
That was always good, feeling part of something that for

1112
01:27:39.159 --> 01:27:42.359
the first time I was quite good at I'm not

1113
01:27:42.479 --> 01:27:46.479
saying I was, but for the okay, for the first time,

1114
01:27:46.640 --> 01:27:53.720
I felt I wasn't really bad at something because previously

1115
01:27:53.800 --> 01:27:59.479
that I'd been in the cecredets. And it took me

1116
01:28:00.520 --> 01:28:07.600
over two years to get my first badge, and most

1117
01:28:07.640 --> 01:28:13.600
people get it within two or three months. And every Friday,

1118
01:28:13.880 --> 01:28:17.279
where every other Friday, they would read out who's got

1119
01:28:17.359 --> 01:28:20.399
the next badge? Sometimes people would get it in a

1120
01:28:20.479 --> 01:28:25.880
month or six weeks, and I got passed over every

1121
01:28:26.119 --> 01:28:30.840
single time. It got to the point where I was

1122
01:28:30.880 --> 01:28:36.399
a laughing stock they'd actually read out and not Newlan,

1123
01:28:38.279 --> 01:28:40.199
and it became a joke, like a running joke that

1124
01:28:40.279 --> 01:28:44.920
I didn't get promoted. I was like at the lowest

1125
01:28:45.000 --> 01:28:49.680
level for the whole time, pretty much, and then one

1126
01:28:49.840 --> 01:28:56.119
night they read my name out and the whole place

1127
01:28:56.399 --> 01:29:02.119
erupted because it was such a build up over a

1128
01:29:02.239 --> 01:29:05.840
long period of time. The fact that I finally got

1129
01:29:06.000 --> 01:29:10.159
my first was a junior seamen or something. I forget

1130
01:29:10.560 --> 01:29:15.239
the first badge, and I think I got demoted the

1131
01:29:15.319 --> 01:29:17.359
next week, but it still had it for a little while.

1132
01:29:18.880 --> 01:29:23.920
I was always getting in trouble, always in trouble at school,

1133
01:29:24.000 --> 01:29:27.079
in trouble at the Ciccredets because I just didn't. I

1134
01:29:27.159 --> 01:29:31.079
wasn't good with wasn't a big fan of people telling

1135
01:29:31.159 --> 01:29:40.239
me what to do really, and it was weird. It's

1136
01:29:40.319 --> 01:29:43.199
kind of such a weird thing because my dad wouldn't

1137
01:29:43.239 --> 01:29:48.279
let me leave the Ciccredets because there was a point

1138
01:29:48.319 --> 01:29:51.239
where I'm like, when I first got there, I found

1139
01:29:51.279 --> 01:29:54.119
it funny because they'd be shouting at me. And I

1140
01:29:54.239 --> 01:29:56.119
find it funny because I knew that I could just

1141
01:29:56.239 --> 01:30:01.760
walk out and I didn't have to do it, you know,

1142
01:30:01.880 --> 01:30:06.000
it is a choice. And then when I said I

1143
01:30:06.039 --> 01:30:12.239
wanted to leave, I was told no, and I got

1144
01:30:12.319 --> 01:30:18.359
this some weird man adult shouting in my face. I

1145
01:30:18.439 --> 01:30:25.920
was like, okay, I can't. This is not funny anymore. So, yeah,

1146
01:30:26.039 --> 01:30:28.720
I left my first opportunity, I got out of there,

1147
01:30:29.840 --> 01:30:35.119
and there was a family, a family thing, a little

1148
01:30:35.199 --> 01:30:39.880
family adventure between the parents, and that gave me the

1149
01:30:40.319 --> 01:30:43.800
opportunity to get out of the Cecretets. And then I

1150
01:30:43.880 --> 01:30:51.319
started doing karate, so yeah, well loved karates so much.

1151
01:30:53.159 --> 01:30:56.720
And I remember I had oh yeah, I'd also had

1152
01:30:56.760 --> 01:30:59.279
to really, I used to buy stuff and I had

1153
01:30:59.359 --> 01:31:03.079
the like the gym stuff, the bags, punch bags, the weights,

1154
01:31:04.399 --> 01:31:09.600
but I also had martial arts weapons as well, because

1155
01:31:09.720 --> 01:31:12.760
next to the way to do my grade, which was

1156
01:31:12.840 --> 01:31:16.000
in the next town, they had a martial arts shop

1157
01:31:16.560 --> 01:31:22.520
next to the karate center the club. Because our club

1158
01:31:22.680 --> 01:31:25.439
was just in a gym, they actually had a purpose

1159
01:31:25.520 --> 01:31:30.680
built club, so I went into the I used to

1160
01:31:30.800 --> 01:31:35.319
go into the martial arts shop and I'd buy Bruce

1161
01:31:35.399 --> 01:31:43.319
Lee magazines, nunchucks, throwing stars, stuff like that, or i'd

1162
01:31:43.359 --> 01:31:45.199
buy them. I was going to say buy them online,

1163
01:31:45.279 --> 01:31:48.159
but obviously you can't do that, but I would there.

1164
01:31:48.239 --> 01:31:52.640
Used to be like with the martial arts magazines. I

1165
01:31:52.680 --> 01:31:56.279
don't even remember what it's called, probably Martial Arts Monthly

1166
01:31:56.439 --> 01:32:01.000
or something, and you could order stuff through the post.

1167
01:32:02.239 --> 01:32:05.520
So that's what I would do from these martial arts

1168
01:32:05.560 --> 01:32:10.960
shops in London. So I had so I've got some nunchucks.

1169
01:32:13.319 --> 01:32:15.560
I might have had two pairs of nunchucks. I also

1170
01:32:15.640 --> 01:32:18.399
had a plastic pair of nunchucks, which is good for

1171
01:32:18.520 --> 01:32:23.840
practicing multiple throwing stars, which I used to play with

1172
01:32:23.960 --> 01:32:27.359
in the garden, which is weird because probably not a

1173
01:32:27.399 --> 01:32:29.720
good idea to let a kid play with throwing stars.

1174
01:32:31.960 --> 01:32:40.760
And what else did I have? I think it was

1175
01:32:40.920 --> 01:32:45.119
mainly books, so I had books on different kung fu styles,

1176
01:32:45.800 --> 01:32:48.680
teaching different kung fu moves, and I used to practice

1177
01:32:48.680 --> 01:32:55.760
all that stuff and exercise books martial art exercises to

1178
01:32:55.880 --> 01:32:58.920
help strengthen the body, and yeah, I had lots of

1179
01:32:58.960 --> 01:33:04.920
stuff like that to buy, and the regular monthly weekly

1180
01:33:05.600 --> 01:33:11.479
kung fu martial arts magazines Karate Monthly. I was also

1181
01:33:11.560 --> 01:33:15.319
got into boxing as well. Kind of a little bit

1182
01:33:15.439 --> 01:33:19.399
later than that, but I started buying ko which is

1183
01:33:19.520 --> 01:33:24.119
a knockout monthly, I think, and it kind of led

1184
01:33:24.199 --> 01:33:28.199
me towards the fitness side of things. I got into bodybuilding.

1185
01:33:30.079 --> 01:33:32.880
Never worked with me because my body would not build,

1186
01:33:35.159 --> 01:33:37.399
but I got interested in it and started to learn

1187
01:33:37.439 --> 01:33:41.199
all that bodybuilding dieet because I was into going to

1188
01:33:41.319 --> 01:33:43.880
the gym because the gym around the corners used to

1189
01:33:43.920 --> 01:33:50.039
go there as well. And the thing is, when I

1190
01:33:50.199 --> 01:33:54.359
was fifteen, I had a really good body, but no

1191
01:33:54.399 --> 01:33:56.000
one knew I had a good body because I was

1192
01:33:56.039 --> 01:34:01.800
so little. That might sound like a weird stay. I

1193
01:34:01.960 --> 01:34:09.199
kind of looked it was very muscular, but I was little.

1194
01:34:09.800 --> 01:34:13.760
It's hard to explain so because I'm obviously not explaining

1195
01:34:13.800 --> 01:34:17.199
it very well. When I started working at a chip shop,

1196
01:34:17.359 --> 01:34:22.479
I remember my my boss laughing at me. I was fifteen,

1197
01:34:23.079 --> 01:34:25.039
and I said I got muscles, and he said he

1198
01:34:25.079 --> 01:34:31.359
started laughing. So I pulled my top off, my sleeve

1199
01:34:31.439 --> 01:34:34.239
up and showed them like, oh wow, because I did.

1200
01:34:34.359 --> 01:34:37.960
I had muscles. I had biceps because I've been working

1201
01:34:38.039 --> 01:34:40.680
out for a couple of years. I'm not saying that

1202
01:34:40.760 --> 01:34:45.479
they were big, but they were fern you know, ferm muscles.

1203
01:34:46.319 --> 01:34:50.199
Chest I had six pack and all that stuff. I

1204
01:34:50.319 --> 01:34:56.039
was just one big, very sinewy muscle though, because I

1205
01:34:56.159 --> 01:35:02.880
was so little, so so light, and not particularly strong either,

1206
01:35:03.760 --> 01:35:08.319
but no faut on me at all. But I never

1207
01:35:08.439 --> 01:35:10.720
used to walk around the top off or anything because

1208
01:35:11.000 --> 01:35:13.640
if I had it done, people might have thought that

1209
01:35:13.720 --> 01:35:18.239
I looked okay. But I was embarrassed with how slim

1210
01:35:18.319 --> 01:35:30.520
I was, so I never did that. A strange one, really, Huh,

1211
01:35:30.600 --> 01:35:32.439
what say? I used to love doing I used to

1212
01:35:32.520 --> 01:35:37.119
love sort of having the magazines and the books. That's

1213
01:35:37.159 --> 01:35:39.600
always seems to be how I do things, or I

1214
01:35:39.680 --> 01:35:42.560
have done things over the years. When I get a

1215
01:35:42.600 --> 01:35:47.279
special interest, so before it used to be before karate,

1216
01:35:47.600 --> 01:35:59.119
it was it's really interested in like weales and vampires

1217
01:35:59.199 --> 01:36:02.359
and that kind of stuff. I just got really interested

1218
01:36:02.399 --> 01:36:07.600
in It just became something that I was passionate about,

1219
01:36:08.239 --> 01:36:11.199
and I'd go to the library on my day on

1220
01:36:11.600 --> 01:36:14.560
my days off at the weekend, on a Saturday, and

1221
01:36:14.640 --> 01:36:20.800
I'd study look through these big textbooks and encyclopedias and

1222
01:36:21.039 --> 01:36:24.079
copy stuff down, and I learned so much about it.

1223
01:36:26.760 --> 01:36:28.720
There was no reason for it other than I just

1224
01:36:28.800 --> 01:36:32.880
became interested and I learned more than I needed to

1225
01:36:33.000 --> 01:36:38.479
about the subject, and I started buying books about it,

1226
01:36:38.760 --> 01:36:41.520
and I learned quite a little bit, quite a lot

1227
01:36:41.560 --> 01:36:46.399
about all that whole thing. And then then I got

1228
01:36:46.399 --> 01:36:52.520
obsessed with karate. Yeah, so that was when I was

1229
01:36:52.520 --> 01:36:58.520
about eleven twelve, sort of same time possibly as the Secredets,

1230
01:36:59.479 --> 01:37:04.279
But I had no interest in the see Cadets. Didn't

1231
01:37:04.279 --> 01:37:07.680
even like it. I had to laugh while I was there,

1232
01:37:11.279 --> 01:37:15.880
but didn't enjoy being there. Really had to start with

1233
01:37:16.000 --> 01:37:19.399
it was a nice relief and being at home, and

1234
01:37:19.479 --> 01:37:25.439
then it became a chore. And then once I did karate,

1235
01:37:25.640 --> 01:37:27.319
that was nice because I was out of the house.

1236
01:37:27.880 --> 01:37:31.439
I was also doing something I enjoyed, and for the

1237
01:37:31.560 --> 01:37:35.640
first time my childhood, I had something to look forward to,

1238
01:37:36.680 --> 01:37:40.640
which was going to karate, and it's all I talked

1239
01:37:40.640 --> 01:37:47.560
about to anyone. I didn't talk about anything else, just karate. Seriously,

1240
01:37:47.640 --> 01:37:51.760
it must have been really boring for people. I mean,

1241
01:37:51.800 --> 01:37:53.640
you're probably going to get an idea of how boring

1242
01:37:53.680 --> 01:37:57.279
it is because you just listened to me talking about

1243
01:37:57.520 --> 01:38:06.520
it for the last and a half. Also, I love

1244
01:38:07.159 --> 01:38:11.039
the karate. I'm just trying to think, is there any

1245
01:38:11.279 --> 01:38:19.880
other aspects of karate that I remember that stand out? Hmmm?

1246
01:38:24.479 --> 01:38:39.239
So my little brother going no, oh, I'll tell you

1247
01:38:39.319 --> 01:38:43.479
what I did do. There's another one of the black

1248
01:38:43.560 --> 01:38:47.319
belts that, like the young Black belts in the Create club.

1249
01:38:48.119 --> 01:38:50.239
He left to start his own club on a Friday

1250
01:38:50.359 --> 01:38:51.439
night somewhere else.

1251
01:38:52.359 --> 01:38:52.439
And.

1252
01:38:56.039 --> 01:39:00.279
I basically talked him into having kids go straight way

1253
01:39:01.159 --> 01:39:04.840
as well as adults. So I got my little brother

1254
01:39:04.960 --> 01:39:09.399
to go and he was seven, so that whole his

1255
01:39:09.640 --> 01:39:13.880
club started off with little kids straight away and adults.

1256
01:39:15.920 --> 01:39:20.399
I don't know if he I don't think he continued

1257
01:39:21.359 --> 01:39:23.800
in that town, but he might have moved somewhere else

1258
01:39:23.920 --> 01:39:26.880
and did it. But he was It was a really cool.

1259
01:39:27.760 --> 01:39:32.720
He was a cool dude. Dude, cool dude. He was

1260
01:39:32.760 --> 01:39:40.439
about eighteen nineteen, and he was just the kind of

1261
01:39:40.520 --> 01:39:42.560
person that I'd want to be the kind of person

1262
01:39:42.600 --> 01:39:45.680
I'd still want to be now and never was, never

1263
01:39:45.800 --> 01:39:51.560
could be, never will be. He just almost like the

1264
01:39:51.680 --> 01:39:56.479
perfect person. He had everything, but I say, obviously didn't

1265
01:39:56.520 --> 01:39:59.720
have everything, but from the outside it looked like he

1266
01:39:59.760 --> 01:40:04.920
had everything. You know, he was or clearly very tough.

1267
01:40:05.439 --> 01:40:12.399
He was brilliant at karate. It was a good looking bloke.

1268
01:40:13.439 --> 01:40:21.520
He was person great personality, extremely confident. But it's hard

1269
01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:24.000
not to be confident. I think if you're a black

1270
01:40:24.039 --> 01:40:27.119
belt when you're a teenager, you're going to have confidence

1271
01:40:27.199 --> 01:40:33.520
there and you So that's the one thing I would

1272
01:40:33.640 --> 01:40:37.920
say to any any parent that's got a kid, get

1273
01:40:38.000 --> 01:40:44.680
him down to some kind of martial arts because the

1274
01:40:44.800 --> 01:40:50.239
confidence that comes from it is pretty cool. And whether

1275
01:40:50.239 --> 01:40:56.960
it's karate, judo, jiu jitsu, whatever, it's just something so

1276
01:40:57.279 --> 01:40:59.039
you know that they can take care of themselves. But

1277
01:40:59.159 --> 01:41:03.039
more than that, it's people are confident quite often never

1278
01:41:03.119 --> 01:41:09.239
ever need to use it. The higher they get in

1279
01:41:09.319 --> 01:41:11.960
the training, the less chance they're ever going to need

1280
01:41:12.000 --> 01:41:15.520
to use it, because it's almost like an aura comes

1281
01:41:15.600 --> 01:41:22.960
often the confidence. Maybe now I know people have done

1282
01:41:23.039 --> 01:41:31.000
martial arts for decades and never ever had to use it. Yeah, man,

1283
01:41:34.039 --> 01:41:34.479
what else?

1284
01:41:34.840 --> 01:41:35.279
What else?

1285
01:41:35.399 --> 01:41:44.199
What else? What else? Because I'm only talking about karates.

1286
01:41:44.239 --> 01:41:46.000
I'm not talking about any of the other martial arts

1287
01:41:46.039 --> 01:41:48.560
I've done, so just about the karate. When I was

1288
01:41:48.600 --> 01:41:53.640
at school, trying to think of anything else that happened,

1289
01:41:55.039 --> 01:42:09.960
they are in that environment. M No, I can't think

1290
01:42:10.000 --> 01:42:18.640
of anything. Now. It's pretty much it. Yeah, I mean,

1291
01:42:18.680 --> 01:42:21.560
I've got to I quite like getting to know a

1292
01:42:21.600 --> 01:42:27.800
few adults, because I'll tell you, Okay, one of the

1293
01:42:27.880 --> 01:42:30.760
things I liked about the Charate Club I got to

1294
01:42:30.880 --> 01:42:34.000
know some adults that I would generally didn't know any

1295
01:42:34.000 --> 01:42:38.279
adults other than I suppose friends of the family and teachers,

1296
01:42:38.720 --> 01:42:43.319
and I didn't want to know them. So I got

1297
01:42:43.359 --> 01:42:45.039
to know a few adults that I could say he

1298
01:42:45.079 --> 01:42:47.640
loo too. And I was getting to the point of

1299
01:42:47.840 --> 01:42:50.800
leaving school anyway, you know, I was fourteen less school

1300
01:42:50.840 --> 01:43:01.520
at fifteen, and yeah, that was quite cool. Kind of

1301
01:43:01.760 --> 01:43:05.640
go around and had a neighbor and I'd go around

1302
01:43:05.720 --> 01:43:08.920
his and would train together sometimes because he was also

1303
01:43:09.039 --> 01:43:18.680
doing judo. And another good thing is I made some

1304
01:43:18.880 --> 01:43:25.000
new friends. And there was this rivalry between the two

1305
01:43:25.279 --> 01:43:32.199
high schools, and there was less rivalry for me because

1306
01:43:35.079 --> 01:43:41.960
everything I did from the age of eleven to leaving school,

1307
01:43:43.079 --> 01:43:45.119
I did with people from the other school as well,

1308
01:43:45.720 --> 01:43:49.319
So in the Cycadets, probably half of the kids in

1309
01:43:49.359 --> 01:43:52.119
the Ciccadettes were from the other school as well as

1310
01:43:52.159 --> 01:43:55.720
my school, so I knew them. And then when I

1311
01:43:55.800 --> 01:43:59.479
did karate, the karate club was actually at the other school,

1312
01:44:00.479 --> 01:44:02.720
and so there was more kids from that school than

1313
01:44:02.760 --> 01:44:05.560
there was from my own school, so I got to

1314
01:44:05.680 --> 01:44:09.159
know them. So it was kind of quite good because

1315
01:44:09.199 --> 01:44:12.520
then that rivalry wasn't there for me. I got to

1316
01:44:12.680 --> 01:44:17.039
meet different people from different both the schools, and there

1317
01:44:17.119 --> 01:44:20.960
wasn't so much of that like them and us when

1318
01:44:21.000 --> 01:44:29.880
it came to me. Yeah, I liked that. It was nice. Yeah,

1319
01:44:29.880 --> 01:44:31.479
I made a few friends that I used to hang

1320
01:44:31.520 --> 01:44:34.760
out with. It was one friend I thought he was

1321
01:44:34.800 --> 01:44:41.359
a girl when he first started, and there was a

1322
01:44:41.399 --> 01:44:45.600
boy and his mum was also there, and yeah, I

1323
01:44:45.840 --> 01:44:48.279
just ended up hanging around with room for a little bit.

1324
01:44:49.319 --> 01:44:53.560
He was probably about a year younger than me, I think,

1325
01:44:54.560 --> 01:44:56.560
but his mum was really cool and I'd go around

1326
01:44:56.680 --> 01:45:04.680
and she'd give me dinner and stuff. Trying to think

1327
01:45:04.760 --> 01:45:10.279
what else. Yeah, I didn't have any friends at my school.

1328
01:45:10.359 --> 01:45:16.640
They did karate. Other than Stephen's brother, I think nearly

1329
01:45:16.760 --> 01:45:19.399
everyone else that went to karate with me was from

1330
01:45:19.439 --> 01:45:22.239
the other school, which for some reason, I don't know

1331
01:45:22.279 --> 01:45:26.600
why that was. I suppose it's I guess if you've

1332
01:45:26.640 --> 01:45:29.119
got karate in your school, you'd more like to go there.

1333
01:45:30.520 --> 01:45:36.800
But yeah, so, I mean there was a couple, there

1334
01:45:36.960 --> 01:45:46.159
was two, three, three, three and me, so it was

1335
01:45:46.159 --> 01:45:50.159
about four of us were actually from my school, and

1336
01:45:50.279 --> 01:45:54.720
everyone else was from the school. It was in other

1337
01:45:54.840 --> 01:45:57.560
than you know, the kids up there and rather than adults,

1338
01:45:58.760 --> 01:46:08.039
So there was probably i'd say ten percent adults, like

1339
01:46:08.159 --> 01:46:19.920
adult adults. Mmm, maybe twenty percent adults, so people in

1340
01:46:20.000 --> 01:46:26.199
their twenties plus, and then maybe twenty percent of older

1341
01:46:26.319 --> 01:46:35.079
teens you're like, maybe seventeen to twenty kind of, and

1342
01:46:35.199 --> 01:46:36.000
then maybe.

1343
01:46:38.520 --> 01:46:40.960
I don't know, I.

1344
01:46:40.960 --> 01:46:52.520
Would say the majority was hmm, yeah, I'd say probably

1345
01:46:53.880 --> 01:46:59.760
thirteen or twelve. Thirteen to sixteen there seemed to be

1346
01:46:59.840 --> 01:47:02.800
the main age group, but there was a few older

1347
01:47:02.960 --> 01:47:09.039
and a few even older than that. When I started,

1348
01:47:09.640 --> 01:47:13.000
and then when I left, there was probably another ten

1349
01:47:13.079 --> 01:47:20.159
percent of under under eleven or on the other twelve

1350
01:47:20.239 --> 01:47:25.479
whatever the rest of you know. The former age limit

1351
01:47:25.800 --> 01:47:33.520
was until my pestern allowed open the gates for kids

1352
01:47:33.560 --> 01:47:40.319
to go along, like really young kids like my little brother. Yeah,

1353
01:47:41.560 --> 01:47:43.880
I never realized that that was the proudest moment in

1354
01:47:43.920 --> 01:47:48.840
my life until this moment. It's the only thing I've

1355
01:47:48.880 --> 01:47:59.119
done my whole life. I'll tell you. What's weird is

1356
01:47:59.479 --> 01:48:05.119
it's now starting to get dark. It's nearly ten o'clock,

1357
01:48:07.079 --> 01:48:15.159
it's nine fifty six. It's dark inside, not like dark

1358
01:48:15.359 --> 01:48:22.039
dark as in like I can't see anything dark, but

1359
01:48:22.119 --> 01:48:26.399
it's still light outside. It's not light light so you

1360
01:48:26.479 --> 01:48:30.319
can see everything, but it's light enough to go out

1361
01:48:30.560 --> 01:48:36.920
and not need a torch, if that makes sense. And

1362
01:48:37.079 --> 01:48:40.760
what's weird is this is now the time, even though

1363
01:48:40.920 --> 01:48:46.800
this is technically probably the peak of the summer, like

1364
01:48:47.000 --> 01:48:53.600
beginning of July. Well maybe June is, but you know, roughly,

1365
01:48:54.079 --> 01:48:57.760
this is kind of a peak time. Last week is

1366
01:48:57.880 --> 01:49:03.159
very hot, this coming week'sposed to be very hot. But

1367
01:49:03.359 --> 01:49:06.720
now we've already had the longest stay, so it's starting

1368
01:49:06.760 --> 01:49:14.840
to get darker earlier and get lighter later. That might

1369
01:49:14.920 --> 01:49:21.079
it's only maybe, I don't know, a few minutes a week,

1370
01:49:24.520 --> 01:49:29.439
but it's really weird how quickly it starts to get darker,

1371
01:49:29.760 --> 01:49:35.199
because in a month's time it'll be completely pitch black

1372
01:49:35.399 --> 01:49:45.800
by now at ten o'clock, and then in September it'll

1373
01:49:45.840 --> 01:49:53.800
be dark probably by eight o'clock, if not earlier, possibly

1374
01:49:53.880 --> 01:50:05.680
seven o'clock, and then by November December is just dark

1375
01:50:05.760 --> 01:50:11.560
all the time. It feels like it sometimes like it never.

1376
01:50:12.159 --> 01:50:14.000
There are days when it just doesn't seem to get

1377
01:50:14.079 --> 01:50:18.640
much brighter than this how it is now. I mean,

1378
01:50:18.800 --> 01:50:22.479
it's this kind of light at three in the afternoon

1379
01:50:22.560 --> 01:50:31.560
sometimes in December, especially on like a cloudy day. You know,

1380
01:50:31.600 --> 01:50:33.920
I have to have the light on and look outside.

1381
01:50:34.239 --> 01:50:39.439
It's just, yeah, weird dark at four in the afternoon

1382
01:50:42.319 --> 01:50:46.960
in January. So we're not there yet, but it's kind

1383
01:50:47.000 --> 01:50:51.720
of weird that this is the kind of the peak,

1384
01:50:52.359 --> 01:50:56.920
the peak of the summer. It's a bit windy today.

1385
01:50:57.279 --> 01:51:01.359
Someone's put a brick in front of the the gate

1386
01:51:01.560 --> 01:51:06.159
that keeps slamming shut, so I'm guessing someone's been a

1387
01:51:06.199 --> 01:51:09.560
little bit mildly annoyed by it. So that was a

1388
01:51:09.640 --> 01:51:18.079
good idea. I'm surprised someone hasn't moved it. There's always

1389
01:51:18.520 --> 01:51:20.920
there's always like one person wants one thing and then

1390
01:51:20.960 --> 01:51:24.960
another person wants another thing. So someone wants it left open,

1391
01:51:25.039 --> 01:51:30.159
another postus wants it left closed. It's like, just leave

1392
01:51:30.279 --> 01:51:35.199
it be, man, Just chill out, chill out, and just

1393
01:51:35.439 --> 01:51:38.640
enjoy all the chocolate. That's what my NN used to say.

1394
01:51:41.239 --> 01:51:46.479
That's before the diabetes. But I can't think of any

1395
01:51:46.600 --> 01:51:54.000
other things connected to karate that I can talk about.

1396
01:51:54.199 --> 01:52:01.079
I can't. Hmm. You'd think that's something else, wouldn't you.

1397
01:52:04.560 --> 01:52:10.439
What else? What else? What else? What else? Kaaday kada?

1398
01:52:11.560 --> 01:52:15.479
I was the Karate Kid. I remember watching that and

1399
01:52:15.600 --> 01:52:20.039
it was I think it's the first time I was

1400
01:52:20.199 --> 01:52:28.479
in tune with what was going on. Like the Karate

1401
01:52:28.720 --> 01:52:34.520
Kid was so popular in the Western world, and loads

1402
01:52:34.560 --> 01:52:36.800
of people wanted to do karate because they wanted to

1403
01:52:36.840 --> 01:52:45.479
be a karate man. And I think at that time

1404
01:52:45.760 --> 01:52:48.399
I was already doing it. So I think the karate

1405
01:52:48.520 --> 01:52:51.399
called was eighty five, so I was already a karate

1406
01:52:51.520 --> 01:52:54.760
kid before the Karate Kid came out. It's like, yeah,

1407
01:52:55.600 --> 01:52:58.840
I was ahead of the curve, head of the curve,

1408
01:53:00.560 --> 01:53:05.560
which is cool. But there was a dream I'd had

1409
01:53:05.640 --> 01:53:08.239
for years, you know, ever since I was a little kid.

1410
01:53:08.600 --> 01:53:11.520
Wanted to do martial arts. I wanted to be kung

1411
01:53:11.680 --> 01:53:16.079
fu from a TV show Kung Fu. Technically his name

1412
01:53:16.159 --> 01:53:19.239
was Kane. But you know, that's why I wanted to be.

1413
01:53:19.399 --> 01:53:22.079
I wanted to be not just to be able to

1414
01:53:22.159 --> 01:53:26.079
do the moves, but also to be calm and peaceful

1415
01:53:26.720 --> 01:53:37.039
and not not react because he was so calmly just

1416
01:53:37.960 --> 01:53:40.960
he did what he needed to do, but he didn't

1417
01:53:41.920 --> 01:53:46.439
overreact to people trying to, you know, get him agitated.

1418
01:53:47.840 --> 01:53:50.319
I never learned that bit. That's a bit I never learned.

1419
01:53:50.800 --> 01:53:54.319
I kind of learned it now. It's taken me a

1420
01:53:54.439 --> 01:54:01.000
little while. I'm better than I used to be. Yeah,

1421
01:54:01.880 --> 01:54:05.279
but I did. I like the spiritual side of it

1422
01:54:06.760 --> 01:54:10.079
as well, and I guess I found that with maybe

1423
01:54:10.119 --> 01:54:13.760
Buddhism when I was older, reading Buddhism when I was

1424
01:54:13.800 --> 01:54:18.520
in my twenties and studying it, and Taoism as well,

1425
01:54:18.680 --> 01:54:23.159
and as well as that's the other thing I forget,

1426
01:54:27.720 --> 01:54:31.760
and that's it. Really. That was my little karate career

1427
01:54:34.880 --> 01:54:40.239
when I was at school. As I got older, like

1428
01:54:42.560 --> 01:54:54.640
moving towards leaving school, I started if you can hear

1429
01:54:54.720 --> 01:54:58.920
that someone is doing it in a garden, I started

1430
01:54:59.000 --> 01:55:02.239
kind of going out and doing stuff and kind of

1431
01:55:02.319 --> 01:55:06.680
moved away from it a bit. But that's kind of standard.

1432
01:55:06.720 --> 01:55:21.079
I think sounds like the motorbike's gone. Now what a

1433
01:55:21.199 --> 01:55:23.720
silly time to be riding a motorbike in a garden

1434
01:55:25.680 --> 01:55:29.479
three minutes past ten in the evening, My goodness.

1435
01:55:31.560 --> 01:55:32.199
So I.

1436
01:55:33.840 --> 01:55:37.680
Started to move away from it, started to do things

1437
01:55:37.800 --> 01:55:44.239
with my friends, go to the cinema, hang out, do

1438
01:55:44.479 --> 01:55:50.720
things instead of going to karate. You know, this was

1439
01:55:50.880 --> 01:55:55.359
just pretty much just before I left school, and then

1440
01:55:55.399 --> 01:55:58.840
after I left school. That was kind of it because

1441
01:56:01.560 --> 01:56:04.840
I was working in a chip shop. For some reason.

1442
01:56:04.880 --> 01:56:08.680
I chose the job which didn't allow me to continue

1443
01:56:08.720 --> 01:56:16.119
doing karate. Possibly wasn't the best career move I ever made,

1444
01:56:16.199 --> 01:56:20.199
but it is what I did and I can't change that.

1445
01:56:20.439 --> 01:56:27.359
So there you go. But I'm glad I did the karate.

1446
01:56:27.600 --> 01:56:31.439
I'm glad I did that at school. I wish i'd

1447
01:56:31.439 --> 01:56:36.720
started earlier, but I wasn't allowed to say. Hey. I

1448
01:56:36.760 --> 01:56:40.680
also I wish i'd done boxing. The thing is, boxing

1449
01:56:40.800 --> 01:56:43.199
was in a different town, so I did go. So

1450
01:56:43.199 --> 01:56:47.680
I had a friend that went, but it was a

1451
01:56:47.760 --> 01:56:50.479
lot of I mean, it was expensive, the bus, I

1452
01:56:50.600 --> 01:56:53.880
was getting home late, and it just wasn't really practical,

1453
01:56:55.840 --> 01:56:58.199
so I didn't go. I did sort of stopped going.

1454
01:56:59.119 --> 01:57:01.319
I did a bit of kick boxing before I did

1455
01:57:01.359 --> 01:57:04.399
the karate as well. That was with a neighbor opposite

1456
01:57:05.039 --> 01:57:11.600
who was in the American Forces, and the kid next

1457
01:57:11.680 --> 01:57:16.520
door to me wanted he wanted to teach him kickboxing,

1458
01:57:16.840 --> 01:57:21.159
but needed someone else to teach him with. He needed

1459
01:57:21.199 --> 01:57:26.079
an opponent and someone to spar with. So the kid

1460
01:57:26.159 --> 01:57:28.159
asked me if I had come along, So I did.

1461
01:57:29.039 --> 01:57:31.119
There'd been my next door neighbor for a few years.

1462
01:57:33.279 --> 01:57:34.880
The thing I didn't like about that is a couple

1463
01:57:34.920 --> 01:57:37.920
of things. First, I didn't like the stretching. I never

1464
01:57:38.000 --> 01:57:43.039
stretched before. It was not fun and I felt it

1465
01:57:43.239 --> 01:57:47.880
for days afterwards. I know he still did stretching in karate,

1466
01:57:48.079 --> 01:57:52.039
but it was stretching in a kickboxing It was really

1467
01:57:52.159 --> 01:57:55.760
full on. And the other thing I didn't like is

1468
01:57:57.079 --> 01:58:00.960
but I didn't really appreciate it was the man teaching

1469
01:58:01.039 --> 01:58:06.560
us was so he had. It was only two of

1470
01:58:06.640 --> 01:58:10.119
us training, and so he talked to us heat. He

1471
01:58:10.159 --> 01:58:13.479
had taughts the basic punches, kicks and stuff, and then

1472
01:58:13.520 --> 01:58:17.920
he got a spa in but he was shouting in

1473
01:58:19.119 --> 01:58:23.680
like support of the other kid, not me. I didn't

1474
01:58:23.760 --> 01:58:28.199
like that. It bugged me. Still still bucks with me today.

1475
01:58:28.640 --> 01:58:33.920
It's just like what you're doing is he can't invite

1476
01:58:34.039 --> 01:58:37.800
two kids to come along and train them and then

1477
01:58:38.600 --> 01:58:42.640
side with one over the other, especially as neither of

1478
01:58:42.760 --> 01:58:47.560
us were really we were just neighbors. He hadn't known

1479
01:58:47.760 --> 01:58:51.800
he'd known us all the same length for time. He

1480
01:58:51.960 --> 01:58:56.319
knew my parents, the bloke he knew the parents next door,

1481
01:58:58.880 --> 01:59:03.880
so very strange. I knew his. I knew his his

1482
01:59:04.079 --> 01:59:08.520
son because his son was Yeah, I used to go

1483
01:59:08.680 --> 01:59:11.039
up in there and I used to hang around with

1484
01:59:11.119 --> 01:59:14.600
his son sometimes, so I'd been in his house a

1485
01:59:14.680 --> 01:59:19.319
few times, so he knew me. So I don't know

1486
01:59:20.279 --> 01:59:23.960
but decide maybe that's why, because he kind of got

1487
01:59:24.000 --> 01:59:28.560
to know me a bit and he thought, you know,

1488
01:59:28.880 --> 01:59:33.680
try and teach the other kid to win. But neither

1489
01:59:33.720 --> 01:59:38.439
of us won because we were both both the same size,

1490
01:59:38.439 --> 01:59:41.319
because he was younger than me, both pretty much the

1491
01:59:41.359 --> 01:59:43.760
same size. That's why I was picked to do it,

1492
01:59:44.039 --> 01:59:49.279
you know, probably the same kind of strength level, and

1493
01:59:51.000 --> 01:59:55.119
we couldn't hurt each other if we tried. We couldn't.

1494
01:59:55.359 --> 01:59:58.720
It was just we were padded up, really properly padded

1495
01:59:58.880 --> 02:00:07.159
up body, legs, feet, hands, maybe even elbows and head.

1496
02:00:07.720 --> 02:00:19.439
So there is. It's almost like it's, yeah, it be

1497
02:00:19.520 --> 02:00:24.760
a little bit like getting a little glass thimble, wrapping

1498
02:00:24.800 --> 02:00:31.439
it up in bubble rap, like a whole two hundred

1499
02:00:31.520 --> 02:00:35.279
foot bit of bubble rap, and tying it all together

1500
02:00:35.640 --> 02:00:41.159
all around, and then covering it in foam. So the

1501
02:00:41.239 --> 02:00:43.960
ball is probably about, you know, the size of a house,

1502
02:00:44.680 --> 02:00:50.800
and then just dropping it two inches. You're not You're

1503
02:00:50.840 --> 02:00:53.560
not going to make any difference to the little the

1504
02:00:53.640 --> 02:00:59.560
little glass thimble, the little glass the little tiny little

1505
02:00:59.600 --> 02:01:02.439
glass thing. It's not going to break because it's you know,

1506
02:01:02.640 --> 02:01:05.439
it's so protected. That's a little bit like what we were, like,

1507
02:01:05.920 --> 02:01:12.840
we've all a padding on. That seemed like a good

1508
02:01:12.880 --> 02:01:16.439
analogy until I started and I realized it was going

1509
02:01:16.520 --> 02:01:20.199
on a bit too far. And I also thought, I'm

1510
02:01:20.279 --> 02:01:23.399
saying glass thimble. Does anyone know what I mean when

1511
02:01:23.439 --> 02:01:27.520
I say glass thimble? And I'll explain what I meant

1512
02:01:27.720 --> 02:01:31.000
is because you can get metal thimbles. It's basically what

1513
02:01:31.119 --> 02:01:33.920
people use when they do sewing, because they use it

1514
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:39.399
to push the needle through through the cotton or whatever.

1515
02:01:40.039 --> 02:01:44.399
So it's kind of it just protects the thumb. But

1516
02:01:44.479 --> 02:01:46.479
you can also get glass ones, or at least you

1517
02:01:46.600 --> 02:01:48.680
used to be able to and have little dents in

1518
02:01:48.760 --> 02:01:54.079
them so that it would it would catch the needle

1519
02:01:54.199 --> 02:01:55.520
the end of the needle as you pushed it in.

1520
02:01:56.199 --> 02:02:06.319
So yeah, anyway, that's what i'd explain that. So this

1521
02:02:06.640 --> 02:02:12.760
brings me to the end of the recording again, La

1522
02:02:12.920 --> 02:02:17.760
la la la la. So thank you for listening. Remember

1523
02:02:18.119 --> 02:02:22.000
to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to

1524
02:02:22.199 --> 02:02:27.640
feel happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to

1525
02:02:27.720 --> 02:02:44.880
feel safe, lots of love, Bye bye bye. Relax in

1526
02:02:45.000 --> 02:02:55.720
a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

1527
02:02:55.880 --> 02:03:04.399
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

1528
02:03:05.600 --> 02:03:14.159
and throughout the time we spend together here, not just

1529
02:03:14.439 --> 02:03:20.039
relaxed at the end of the recording when it's finished

1530
02:03:20.119 --> 02:03:26.640
and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1531
02:03:31.439 --> 02:03:44.039
but also I think it would be nice to have

1532
02:03:44.760 --> 02:04:01.720
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1533
02:04:01.800 --> 02:04:15.239
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1534
02:04:16.159 --> 02:04:25.039
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1535
02:04:31.119 --> 02:04:38.960
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1536
02:04:39.119 --> 02:04:42.560
some people do and myself as well, I sometimes I

1537
02:04:42.720 --> 02:04:53.199
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1538
02:04:53.319 --> 02:04:58.520
I just listen to it over and over again, every morning,

1539
02:04:58.720 --> 02:05:11.279
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1540
02:05:11.319 --> 02:05:16.560
to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

1541
02:05:16.680 --> 02:05:21.920
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1542
02:05:24.439 --> 02:05:29.600
and I managed to find it again and it still

1543
02:05:29.720 --> 02:05:35.119
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1544
02:05:35.479 --> 02:05:50.159
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1545
02:05:52.319 --> 02:05:55.119
and I'd look forward to listening.

1546
02:05:55.239 --> 02:05:55.800
To her.

1547
02:05:58.560 --> 02:06:08.199
In the morning and in the evening. And I knew

1548
02:06:08.600 --> 02:06:17.439
before even pressing the play button that since I've done that,

1549
02:06:18.520 --> 02:06:21.920
pressed the play button. This is in the days of

1550
02:06:27.039 --> 02:06:36.199
CD players press the play button. In fact, it might

1551
02:06:36.199 --> 02:06:40.479
have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down

1552
02:06:40.560 --> 02:06:53.159
on the bed and then even without necessarily listening to

1553
02:06:53.359 --> 02:07:06.479
her words, because I had been memorized. Really, it was

1554
02:07:06.520 --> 02:07:17.079
as if my body knew exactly what to do, and

1555
02:07:17.359 --> 02:07:39.039
the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I

1556
02:07:39.199 --> 02:07:53.079
remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was

1557
02:07:53.319 --> 02:07:59.640
listening to this recording in the early days of learning

1558
02:07:59.720 --> 02:08:09.960
hidden basis and long before I ever made any videos

1559
02:08:10.239 --> 02:08:14.880
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1560
02:08:15.079 --> 02:08:29.399
till two thousand and six. I knew. I knew how

1561
02:08:31.279 --> 02:08:45.039
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1562
02:08:45.159 --> 02:08:50.319
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1563
02:08:58.039 --> 02:09:04.800
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1564
02:09:06.199 --> 02:09:15.560
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1565
02:09:15.680 --> 02:09:16.520
may feel the same.

1566
02:09:22.920 --> 02:09:24.039
Some people.

1567
02:09:26.319 --> 02:09:38.600
Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1568
02:09:38.760 --> 02:09:44.159
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

1569
02:09:46.319 --> 02:09:51.159
maybe people come back. Some people may be listen every day.

1570
02:10:02.359 --> 02:10:08.319
And something that I do which you may not realize

1571
02:10:10.760 --> 02:10:29.279
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1572
02:10:33.880 --> 02:10:41.600
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1573
02:10:46.920 --> 02:10:53.279
So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

1574
02:10:55.840 --> 02:11:03.520
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1575
02:11:08.439 --> 02:11:25.840
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1576
02:11:26.000 --> 02:11:33.640
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1577
02:11:33.720 --> 02:11:43.960
each hand, perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1578
02:11:44.520 --> 02:11:49.319
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1579
02:11:57.119 --> 02:12:00.960
You may start to notice it almost feels like a

1580
02:12:01.159 --> 02:12:09.079
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1581
02:12:09.640 --> 02:12:14.359
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1582
02:12:22.720 --> 02:12:33.279
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1583
02:12:33.640 --> 02:13:01.840
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now, and

1584
02:13:02.039 --> 02:13:08.920
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1585
02:13:09.039 --> 02:13:22.159
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1586
02:13:25.399 --> 02:13:38.880
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1587
02:13:46.800 --> 02:13:59.359
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1588
02:14:04.239 --> 02:14:13.720
and then I carry on talking. It's only when I

1589
02:14:15.399 --> 02:14:24.720
listen back to do the editing I hear snoring and

1590
02:14:24.880 --> 02:14:34.720
I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. It

1591
02:14:34.880 --> 02:14:42.039
is snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I

1592
02:14:42.119 --> 02:14:50.199
sound like when I snore, and I get really into

1593
02:14:50.319 --> 02:15:09.680
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel, how

1594
02:15:09.800 --> 02:15:20.560
relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

1595
02:15:20.800 --> 02:15:47.439
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1596
02:15:47.640 --> 02:16:00.199
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, well,

1597
02:16:03.760 --> 02:16:19.880
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1598
02:16:23.079 --> 02:16:44.000
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier without

1599
02:16:45.520 --> 02:17:06.159
necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able to notice

1600
02:17:16.840 --> 02:17:18.120
the ease.

1601
02:17:21.200 --> 02:17:21.920
In which.

1602
02:17:29.280 --> 02:17:51.879
You breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1603
02:18:19.639 --> 02:18:37.319
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my

1604
02:18:37.479 --> 02:18:56.079
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1605
02:18:56.440 --> 02:19:30.319
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It

1606
02:19:30.600 --> 02:19:46.680
feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking some time

1607
02:19:52.639 --> 02:20:40.719
away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with

1608
02:20:41.000 --> 02:21:17.479
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1609
02:21:18.719 --> 02:22:08.440
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

1610
02:22:09.440 --> 02:23:12.840
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1611
02:23:13.079 --> 02:24:00.000
mind has slowed down, slowed down because nothing really required

1612
02:24:00.079 --> 02:24:30.040
as your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1613
02:24:30.200 --> 02:24:42.639
allowing the stress to drip out of your body, to

1614
02:24:42.760 --> 02:25:07.399
appear out of every part of your body being released

1615
02:25:12.719 --> 02:25:52.360
from your brain in your mind, slowly but surely. The

1616
02:25:52.639 --> 02:26:40.159
muscles in your legs relax re so very deeply, relax

1617
02:26:45.399 --> 02:27:10.760
so deeply in the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1618
02:27:11.079 --> 02:27:38.840
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1619
02:27:43.840 --> 02:27:45.479
and deeper.

1620
02:27:55.920 --> 02:27:56.680
And deeper.

1621
02:28:11.360 --> 02:28:41.000
Noticine, the feelings in the back of your neck, the

1622
02:28:41.200 --> 02:29:20.360
feelings in your wrists, muscles in front of your body.

1623
02:29:30.760 --> 02:30:14.239
I all say, feeling peaceful, deeply, there's a sense of

1624
02:30:14.520 --> 02:30:20.920
peace spreads through.

1625
02:30:22.280 --> 02:30:55.479
Your very core, even when you.

1626
02:30:58.440 --> 02:31:23.239
Focus on your mind, and her mind becomes ee and slower,

1627
02:31:39.079 --> 02:32:59.959
even deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach, he's fallin's stuff.

1628
02:33:22.440 --> 02:33:23.079
You're back.

1629
02:33:28.520 --> 02:33:57.360
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in the hole

1630
02:33:57.680 --> 02:33:58.440
of your back.

1631
02:34:23.639 --> 02:34:24.760
You spy.

1632
02:34:28.520 --> 02:34:33.200
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1633
02:34:33.319 --> 02:34:45.000
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day,

1634
02:34:56.040 --> 02:35:01.920
deep comfort, increasing.

1635
02:35:11.760 --> 02:35:44.520
Deeply rix you means.

1636
02:36:10.239 --> 02:36:23.879
Legs, spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air.

1637
02:36:24.120 --> 02:36:43.520
Every part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles,

1638
02:37:10.760 --> 02:37:40.239
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1639
02:37:45.280 --> 02:38:01.559
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1640
02:38:01.680 --> 02:38:19.120
wait till you lower back. Letting go, Rea the thinker,

1641
02:38:46.920 --> 02:39:29.520
peace drifting mind, just wandering away, happy to let go,

1642
02:39:33.000 --> 02:40:34.280
Let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body

1643
02:40:38.639 --> 02:41:11.319
enjoying a sense of listing. Go He for more.

1644
02:42:19.520 --> 02:42:20.440
Peace, for.

1645
02:42:54.600 --> 02:43:05.559
Joy, the space, this space.

1646
02:43:08.159 --> 02:43:09.200
Of peace.

1647
02:43:12.479 --> 02:45:35.079
And safety, so fary, relaxed, letting go. Maybe we can

1648
02:45:35.360 --> 02:45:46.559
just focus on the different parts of your body, just

1649
02:45:47.079 --> 02:46:56.000
to notice a forehead and your eyes, you too, so loose,

1650
02:47:15.680 --> 02:48:37.200
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom drif rifa.

1651
02:48:48.440 --> 02:48:49.319
Pea's for.

1652
02:48:51.360 --> 02:50:40.319
Energy peace, to breeze EASi loose. You may have you

1653
02:50:40.559 --> 02:51:41.360
may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, mooing even

1654
02:51:41.680 --> 02:52:05.879
more deeply in the direction of total this for pace bliss,

1655
02:52:06.079 --> 02:54:09.280
for pace terreft, total peace. Come so calm, letting go

1656
02:54:34.200 --> 02:55:45.120
peace with mind rex forty. So relaxed, so relaxed. Your

1657
02:55:45.319 --> 02:56:11.840
body feels almost invisible. So the very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1658
02:56:18.200 --> 02:57:28.319
so peaceful, relax liquors and you could start to notice

1659
02:57:28.719 --> 02:57:37.719
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1660
02:57:39.479 --> 02:57:50.159
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

1661
02:57:50.920 --> 02:57:57.719
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1662
02:57:57.840 --> 02:58:08.399
mind starts to slow down, And that could be almost

1663
02:58:08.600 --> 02:58:18.120
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1664
02:58:24.680 --> 02:58:35.079
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1665
02:58:35.239 --> 02:58:43.799
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1666
02:58:43.959 --> 02:58:50.719
break from the day, take a break from your life

1667
02:58:51.879 --> 02:59:00.360
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1668
02:59:00.399 --> 02:59:07.879
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

1669
02:59:08.040 --> 02:59:14.200
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1670
02:59:18.280 --> 02:59:25.959
which in turn releases the tension and he stresses that

1671
02:59:26.159 --> 02:59:35.840
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

1672
02:59:35.959 --> 02:59:40.920
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

1673
02:59:41.280 --> 02:59:53.120
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

1674
02:59:53.799 --> 03:00:03.399
positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up and

1675
03:00:03.559 --> 03:00:15.680
your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of

1676
03:00:16.959 --> 03:00:36.440
increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy

1677
03:00:36.799 --> 03:00:47.360
that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort.

1678
03:00:52.200 --> 03:01:02.479
And all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1679
03:01:04.319 --> 03:01:07.319
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1680
03:01:08.840 --> 03:01:20.760
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1681
03:01:23.000 --> 03:01:39.760
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1682
03:01:44.040 --> 03:01:53.399
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1683
03:01:57.440 --> 03:02:06.239
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1684
03:02:07.079 --> 03:02:11.639
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1685
03:02:15.920 --> 03:02:25.600
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness.

1686
03:02:30.680 --> 03:02:37.879
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1687
03:02:38.079 --> 03:02:43.760
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1688
03:02:47.239 --> 03:02:56.639
to feel more comfort and to experience.

1689
03:02:58.319 --> 03:02:59.479
More of this.

1690
03:03:01.280 --> 03:03:16.440
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1691
03:03:18.000 --> 03:03:23.760
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1692
03:03:23.959 --> 03:03:38.479
that part becomes even more relaxed. Just by focusing on it.

1693
03:03:41.040 --> 03:03:50.680
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1694
03:03:54.760 --> 03:04:00.520
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1695
03:04:03.200 --> 03:04:09.879
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1696
03:04:10.079 --> 03:04:17.719
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1697
03:04:17.799 --> 03:04:31.120
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1698
03:04:31.559 --> 03:04:44.559
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1699
03:04:44.639 --> 03:04:51.520
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1700
03:04:51.879 --> 03:05:00.479
of the feelings of your forehead and any backgrounds sounds

1701
03:05:02.239 --> 03:05:07.079
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1702
03:05:07.280 --> 03:05:14.520
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1703
03:05:17.639 --> 03:05:23.000
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1704
03:05:26.440 --> 03:05:32.520
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1705
03:05:33.040 --> 03:05:43.520
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1706
03:05:43.799 --> 03:05:51.559
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1707
03:05:53.879 --> 03:05:58.360
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1708
03:06:03.520 --> 03:06:11.840
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1709
03:06:14.280 --> 03:06:24.000
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1710
03:06:24.040 --> 03:06:30.479
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1711
03:06:30.760 --> 03:06:45.159
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1712
03:06:45.639 --> 03:06:52.280
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1713
03:06:52.440 --> 03:07:07.200
your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1714
03:07:08.040 --> 03:07:14.879
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1715
03:07:15.040 --> 03:07:19.440
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1716
03:07:19.559 --> 03:07:25.920
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1717
03:07:26.200 --> 03:07:50.639
hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing

1718
03:07:54.159 --> 03:07:59.280
on your neck, the front of your neck and your

1719
03:07:59.440 --> 03:08:12.760
throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

1720
03:08:14.799 --> 03:08:21.760
the right and left side of your neck relax and

1721
03:08:23.319 --> 03:08:36.920
loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1722
03:08:40.239 --> 03:08:50.239
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1723
03:08:50.440 --> 03:08:57.319
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1724
03:08:57.680 --> 03:09:10.600
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

1725
03:09:10.760 --> 03:09:21.840
experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

1726
03:09:22.000 --> 03:09:29.319
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1727
03:09:29.360 --> 03:09:34.719
the top of your back all the way down to

1728
03:09:34.840 --> 03:09:47.079
the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

1729
03:09:52.159 --> 03:09:59.200
And as you move up and down your spine, you

1730
03:09:59.280 --> 03:10:06.440
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

1731
03:10:07.120 --> 03:10:20.520
even more, and as those muscles relax that sense of

1732
03:10:20.760 --> 03:10:31.440
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

1733
03:10:31.639 --> 03:10:38.680
sides of your back, the top of your back, the

1734
03:10:38.879 --> 03:10:47.239
middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

1735
03:10:47.760 --> 03:10:55.120
and slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles

1736
03:10:55.319 --> 03:11:04.799
in the top of your back relax and become The

1737
03:11:04.920 --> 03:11:10.920
muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

1738
03:11:11.200 --> 03:11:20.360
just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1739
03:11:26.159 --> 03:11:32.120
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1740
03:11:32.200 --> 03:11:46.360
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1741
03:11:48.680 --> 03:11:56.479
so down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1742
03:11:56.680 --> 03:12:05.440
area where your cosis are, and into your buttocks, and

1743
03:12:05.559 --> 03:12:14.760
all these muscles that spread whom your lower back into

1744
03:12:14.840 --> 03:12:28.280
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1745
03:12:35.000 --> 03:12:41.760
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1746
03:12:41.959 --> 03:12:52.600
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1747
03:12:53.440 --> 03:13:08.319
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1748
03:13:10.079 --> 03:13:25.360
you may notice that they're already feeding really loose, They're

1749
03:13:25.479 --> 03:13:52.159
already feeding calm and feeding. Those muscles then move from

1750
03:13:52.280 --> 03:14:07.799
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1751
03:14:11.879 --> 03:14:33.440
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1752
03:14:40.840 --> 03:14:48.239
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of

1753
03:14:48.440 --> 03:15:00.879
relaxation not just traveling deeply into your muscles but also

1754
03:15:01.280 --> 03:15:14.760
relaxing the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1755
03:15:17.600 --> 03:15:23.559
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1756
03:15:24.879 --> 03:15:42.639
and underneath your arms, healing. You feel so relaxed and

1757
03:15:42.920 --> 03:15:58.479
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1758
03:16:03.840 --> 03:16:15.479
into your arms? And you may feel almost as if

1759
03:16:15.559 --> 03:16:22.079
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1760
03:16:25.280 --> 03:17:11.440
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1761
03:17:11.799 --> 03:17:27.040
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1762
03:17:28.760 --> 03:17:55.280
your elbows circumforts, spreads or away into wrists, your forearments

1763
03:17:55.760 --> 03:18:11.200
and your wists so heavy, yet at the same time

1764
03:18:18.799 --> 03:18:56.639
so light and gentle. Fred s now on your hands,

1765
03:19:18.360 --> 03:19:50.159
my hands, so peaceful in your hands, the sense of

1766
03:19:53.680 --> 03:20:19.680
real peace. It just seems to feel so familiar when

1767
03:20:19.799 --> 03:21:24.479
your hands relax deeply. E is your thing? Is a thing?

1768
03:21:24.799 --> 03:21:29.479
Is silas.

1769
03:21:57.959 --> 03:22:31.479
You think it's hips. Moving your attention to the front

1770
03:22:31.639 --> 03:24:21.319
of your body, so comfortable, moving your focus tuns a

1771
03:24:21.879 --> 03:25:17.399
muscles in your thighs, your knees so relaxed, a carved mussels,

1772
03:25:18.719 --> 03:25:24.559
and just shins. How perzy.

1773
03:25:24.840 --> 03:27:27.600
The four mm and the fathing and your feet.

1774
03:27:34.319 --> 03:28:30.600
So peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, sycm.

1775
03:28:34.079 --> 03:28:37.520
So peace fa.

1776
03:28:46.079 --> 03:28:47.959
Re sin.

1777
03:28:53.040 --> 03:28:54.280
Peace f.

1778
03:28:58.120 --> 03:29:13.520
S come, allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest,

1779
03:29:13.840 --> 03:29:28.840
in your stomach, letting go.

1780
03:29:33.000 --> 03:29:33.639
Everything.

1781
03:29:44.879 --> 03:29:50.879
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1782
03:29:50.959 --> 03:29:59.079
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1783
03:30:00.159 --> 03:30:06.319
walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1784
03:30:06.399 --> 03:30:15.520
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step

1785
03:30:16.040 --> 03:30:31.600
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the furvies you

1786
03:30:31.760 --> 03:30:37.040
walk down those steps that a deeper and more relaxed

1787
03:30:37.360 --> 03:32:32.280
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen,

1788
03:33:18.559 --> 03:40:41.399
sicksting three fourty four see too well five eight nine

1789
03:41:43.719 --> 03:43:43.799
eight seven.

1790
03:43:27.520 --> 03:44:49.559
Us si.

1791
03:45:36.639 --> 03:51:30.959
Five four one. And now as you focus on your eyes,

1792
03:51:40.559 --> 03:51:50.879
we're going to count down from ten douts one, focusing

1793
03:51:52.200 --> 03:52:00.440
just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around you rise,

1794
03:52:03.520 --> 03:52:12.200
your eye walls themselves, a whole area that makes up

1795
03:52:12.280 --> 03:52:28.319
your eye. And as we count down from ten down

1796
03:52:28.440 --> 03:52:41.399
to one, whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll become

1797
03:52:43.479 --> 03:52:55.559
twice is relaxed with each number counting down, and you

1798
03:52:55.719 --> 03:53:03.280
may find the all you want to do is just

1799
03:53:05.159 --> 03:53:12.479
to drift off to sleep and If that's what you want,

1800
03:53:15.479 --> 03:53:28.479
then just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on

1801
03:53:28.639 --> 03:53:35.959
your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down from ten

1802
03:53:36.319 --> 03:54:52.120
down to one right now, ten nine eight.

1803
03:55:02.239 --> 03:57:49.879
Seven, five.

1804
03:59:00.399 --> 04:03:04.639
Four three two one two. Counting down from ten to

1805
04:03:04.760 --> 04:03:31.319
one ten nine eight seven six five four three two one.

1806
04:03:38.360 --> 04:03:41.239
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1807
04:03:41.319 --> 04:03:45.200
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1808
04:03:45.559 --> 04:03:55.239
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1809
04:03:55.319 --> 04:03:59.120
little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down from

1810
04:03:59.200 --> 04:04:01.879
ten to one. What do you expect me to do? Man,

1811
04:04:02.840 --> 04:04:06.479
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1812
04:04:06.600 --> 04:04:16.079
counting down. If you try again, but this time, I

1813
04:04:16.200 --> 04:04:23.360
go this lower. This time, as you focus on the

1814
04:04:23.520 --> 04:04:27.639
whole of your body before we focus on your legs,

1815
04:04:30.079 --> 04:04:39.280
just notice how your body does start to feel more

1816
04:04:39.719 --> 04:04:58.680
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine

1817
04:05:04.520 --> 04:06:33.600
eight seven six five four three two one. And just

1818
04:06:33.840 --> 04:06:39.760
notice how how you feel generally, how your body feels.

1819
04:06:46.440 --> 04:06:54.159
It's not necessarily even about yeah, counting down from ten

1820
04:06:54.280 --> 04:07:04.639
to one, it's that space. Do you have that space

1821
04:07:04.879 --> 04:07:25.479
between being active physically or mentally to just sitting or

1822
04:07:25.600 --> 04:07:30.840
lying down, just being there, not doing anything not saying

1823
04:07:30.959 --> 04:07:38.000
anything or needing to think about anything. So it opens

1824
04:07:38.079 --> 04:07:41.200
up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1825
04:07:42.200 --> 04:07:52.040
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1826
04:07:52.120 --> 04:07:59.440
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1827
04:07:59.639 --> 04:08:12.319
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1828
04:08:17.879 --> 04:08:26.559
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1829
04:08:27.280 --> 04:08:48.799
moves them away. Allows you to just slow down, someone

1830
04:08:48.879 --> 04:08:52.040
to count again from ten down to one, and notice

1831
04:08:52.879 --> 04:09:01.799
that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens, it's

1832
04:09:01.840 --> 04:09:08.040
almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap

1833
04:09:21.520 --> 04:10:28.959
and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1834
04:10:47.280 --> 04:11:38.719
three two one. How does your body feel.

1835
04:11:40.680 --> 04:11:40.840
Now?

1836
04:11:53.559 --> 04:12:08.840
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1837
04:12:09.280 --> 04:12:36.680
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1838
04:12:52.680 --> 04:13:12.799
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1839
04:13:12.920 --> 04:13:17.799
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1840
04:13:21.239 --> 04:13:23.879
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1841
04:13:24.040 --> 04:13:36.440
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1842
04:13:36.559 --> 04:13:42.959
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1843
04:13:43.120 --> 04:13:50.079
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1844
04:13:50.200 --> 04:13:55.120
and you're inner thighs basically the whole of your thigh

1845
04:13:55.239 --> 04:14:04.000
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1846
04:14:04.200 --> 04:14:18.239
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1847
04:14:18.280 --> 04:14:23.760
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

1848
04:14:24.760 --> 04:14:37.920
muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

1849
04:14:38.000 --> 04:14:46.319
don't think we perhaps will give enough attention to our thighs.

1850
04:14:52.239 --> 04:15:03.000
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1851
04:15:03.200 --> 04:15:23.799
our lives, how much they actually do for us, all

1852
04:15:23.920 --> 04:15:34.360
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1853
04:15:34.440 --> 04:15:42.840
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1854
04:15:42.959 --> 04:15:50.600
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1855
04:15:51.600 --> 04:16:09.799
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for what our

1856
04:16:09.959 --> 04:16:19.280
thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

1857
04:16:19.360 --> 04:16:25.639
a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I sure

1858
04:16:25.680 --> 04:16:28.600
that I should be in the garden hugging a tree

1859
04:16:28.760 --> 04:16:36.920
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1860
04:16:36.959 --> 04:16:40.280
on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1861
04:16:40.319 --> 04:16:43.680
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1862
04:16:43.680 --> 04:16:52.479
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1863
04:16:52.520 --> 04:17:02.239
to your knees gaining such an important part, and I

1864
04:17:02.360 --> 04:17:09.200
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1865
04:17:09.280 --> 04:17:14.440
don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for me

1866
04:17:15.680 --> 04:17:20.879
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1867
04:17:20.920 --> 04:17:25.879
if I ever, maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching

1868
04:17:26.079 --> 04:17:32.440
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1869
04:17:32.600 --> 04:17:36.239
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1870
04:17:37.159 --> 04:17:46.360
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1871
04:17:47.200 --> 04:17:55.920
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1872
04:17:57.079 --> 04:18:04.040
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1873
04:18:06.200 --> 04:18:11.879
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1874
04:18:12.120 --> 04:18:18.280
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1875
04:18:18.440 --> 04:18:30.639
that they do for you. And you can still have

1876
04:18:30.799 --> 04:18:34.959
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1877
04:18:35.040 --> 04:18:46.920
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1878
04:18:48.719 --> 04:19:00.360
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your eggs,

1879
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your shins, and your calf muscles, the bones between your

1880
04:19:07.559 --> 04:19:13.200
knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles

1881
04:19:15.520 --> 04:19:26.639
so important. Anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1882
04:19:26.760 --> 04:19:33.719
of an ankle, knows how how much we take our

1883
04:19:33.959 --> 04:19:42.479
ankles for granted, And it's kind of strange in a

1884
04:19:42.559 --> 04:19:48.120
way when you think that. You know, logically our wrists

1885
04:19:48.280 --> 04:19:51.159
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1886
04:19:52.280 --> 04:19:55.760
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1887
04:19:55.799 --> 04:20:00.680
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But her

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04:20:00.799 --> 04:20:06.600
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1889
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and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1890
04:20:17.520 --> 04:20:23.520
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1891
04:20:24.600 --> 04:20:34.639
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1892
04:20:35.239 --> 04:20:44.200
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1893
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Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

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to balance, helps you to get her around and be mobile.

1895
04:21:12.239 --> 04:21:20.040
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1896
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I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

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to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1898
04:21:29.639 --> 04:21:33.479
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1899
04:21:33.559 --> 04:21:37.680
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

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04:21:37.799 --> 04:21:49.680
we use our legs, and your shins there to protect

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04:21:51.680 --> 04:22:00.319
your lower legs shaped in a way, almost as a

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04:22:00.399 --> 04:22:12.680
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1903
04:22:16.079 --> 04:22:22.639
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1904
04:22:22.760 --> 04:22:24.840
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

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04:22:26.799 --> 04:22:31.399
And I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet,

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04:22:31.479 --> 04:22:36.120
you'll probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should

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04:22:36.239 --> 04:22:42.200
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

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04:22:42.360 --> 04:22:47.559
them in your awareness the same as you have your

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04:22:47.680 --> 04:22:51.920
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

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04:22:52.639 --> 04:22:57.399
on your thighs for a few minutes, we've been focusing

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04:22:57.520 --> 04:23:14.079
on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in

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your thighs and this that movement of energy because the

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04:23:26.200 --> 04:23:33.799
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

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the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs.

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Put the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

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04:23:53.040 --> 04:23:57.520
in the outside of all of our body, can be

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very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

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inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

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the arch trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1920
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I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

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04:24:37.840 --> 04:24:45.280
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message. So

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04:24:45.360 --> 04:24:48.879
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

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04:24:48.920 --> 04:24:52.120
be able to get deep into the muscles and to

1924
04:24:52.159 --> 04:24:57.280
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

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04:24:57.360 --> 04:25:05.959
the bones of your leg massage in or the veins

1926
04:25:06.159 --> 04:25:16.360
and just gently healing your thighs, and you could move

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04:25:16.600 --> 04:25:23.079
down message and inside your knees. It's a message in

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04:25:23.159 --> 04:25:30.520
those bones, but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy

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04:25:31.319 --> 04:25:41.040
deep into the choints of your knees. Of course, there's

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04:25:41.079 --> 04:25:45.479
the back of your your knee or the inside crease

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04:25:46.479 --> 04:25:53.440
where your knee is. It's a really sensitive area. Very

1932
04:25:54.159 --> 04:25:57.959
it feels very nice when you stroke it. That might

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04:25:58.079 --> 04:26:02.200
be because it's an air that's not really touched very often.

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It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

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It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

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is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

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04:26:29.120 --> 04:26:40.520
your legs, so you can imagine putting your fingers into

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04:26:40.639 --> 04:26:50.319
that crease in your legs. Fold in between your legs.

1939
04:26:51.040 --> 04:26:55.639
You can just massage with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

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going inside massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

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04:27:06.360 --> 04:27:13.440
course feel the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

1942
04:27:20.840 --> 04:27:26.159
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1943
04:27:26.559 --> 04:27:28.280
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1944
04:27:29.120 --> 04:27:36.440
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1945
04:27:36.559 --> 04:27:45.639
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part.

1946
04:27:51.600 --> 04:27:57.680
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

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04:27:58.559 --> 04:28:05.520
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

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04:28:05.639 --> 04:28:12.799
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

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precious bones that they are. Because our legs are so

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04:28:17.079 --> 04:28:20.600
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1951
04:28:23.079 --> 04:28:36.840
the more precious of any juere on the planet. When

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04:28:36.840 --> 04:28:44.799
when you start to think about your legs in this way,

1953
04:28:49.440 --> 04:28:56.079
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

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a bit silly to start with the idea of having

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04:29:04.319 --> 04:29:14.319
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1956
04:29:14.440 --> 04:29:18.360
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1957
04:29:20.319 --> 04:29:26.799
the message the muscles and the bones, and to get

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04:29:26.840 --> 04:29:35.079
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

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04:29:35.280 --> 04:29:44.719
show how much you care about your legs, how much

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04:29:44.799 --> 04:29:50.479
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

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04:29:52.879 --> 04:30:03.079
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

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04:30:06.000 --> 04:30:10.680
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

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04:30:10.760 --> 04:30:20.520
your legs, especially your thighs. Yet they're so strong, so flexible,

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absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

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of what they do for you, supporting all that weight.

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Regardless of how what weight you are, even if you're

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04:30:52.440 --> 04:30:57.479
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

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these little ankles.

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Yeah.

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Now I'm a lot heavier than each ston double down.

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Yet my ankles support my body all the time. Whether

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04:31:19.479 --> 04:31:22.319
they do give off a sigh of relief when I

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04:31:22.440 --> 04:31:31.600
sit down, I've got my whole legs. Do my feet

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04:31:32.840 --> 04:31:58.319
feel also? Go my toes clap? You're so happy. Your

1975
04:31:58.479 --> 04:32:08.600
legs really are amazing. And I know talking about talking

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about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1977
04:32:15.399 --> 04:32:23.079
boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly or boring

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04:32:23.239 --> 04:32:31.399
or not, Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing.

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Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1980
04:33:00.479 --> 04:33:03.799
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1981
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to just let go completely. Your legs.

1982
04:33:32.240 --> 04:33:34.759
Really can relax.

1983
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And because the legs are so such a most you

1984
04:33:46.439 --> 04:33:52.040
know very important part of your body and your relax

1985
04:33:52.159 --> 04:33:58.080
your legs, the rest of your body also naturally follows

1986
04:33:59.439 --> 04:34:13.720
in the act a journey of comfort. I can feel

1987
04:34:13.759 --> 04:34:21.720
it in my hips. My hips feel really loose, and

1988
04:34:21.919 --> 04:34:26.799
also my lower back as well. My lower back really

1989
04:34:27.560 --> 04:34:32.159
feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in

1990
04:34:32.240 --> 04:34:38.319
a chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm

1991
04:34:38.319 --> 04:34:41.799
aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the muscles

1992
04:34:41.840 --> 04:34:45.840
are just relaxed so much that there is a natural

1993
04:34:46.159 --> 04:35:10.400
stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And I'm

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04:35:10.439 --> 04:35:13.599
now going to camp down from ten down to one,

1995
04:35:17.919 --> 04:35:43.799
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight, seven, six,

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04:35:47.000 --> 04:36:19.880
five four three true. Why relaxed? So I'm just going

1997
04:36:19.959 --> 04:36:24.720
to count down and fire down to one. And as

1998
04:36:24.759 --> 04:36:30.680
a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers, just

1999
04:36:30.880 --> 04:36:41.360
the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel in

2000
04:36:41.520 --> 04:36:47.240
this moment as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing

2001
04:36:47.400 --> 04:37:00.880
that those numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not

2002
04:37:01.279 --> 04:37:09.080
just in your body, but also relaxing your mind. I

2003
04:37:09.319 --> 04:37:14.599
just notice how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's

2004
04:37:14.759 --> 04:37:22.639
nothing to say, there's nothing to think about starting with

2005
04:37:24.159 --> 04:38:11.080
number five four three two one. And as you notice

2006
04:38:15.200 --> 04:38:27.000
the gradual letting go the tension in your body, you

2007
04:38:27.119 --> 04:38:32.959
may also begin to notice and be aware of how

2008
04:38:33.080 --> 04:38:41.959
your mind is starting to slow down. This is just

2009
04:38:42.080 --> 04:38:50.040
a natural thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure.

2010
04:38:51.360 --> 04:38:56.479
It's just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind

2011
04:38:56.599 --> 04:39:02.360
also starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes,

2012
04:39:02.520 --> 04:39:07.119
the more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle

2013
04:39:07.200 --> 04:39:20.919
of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

2014
04:39:22.520 --> 04:39:27.400
You know, even even if there's background sounds either your

2015
04:39:27.599 --> 04:39:34.119
side online, it's still going to be quite calm.

2016
04:39:35.799 --> 04:39:38.439
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

2017
04:39:38.759 --> 04:39:43.000
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recorded

2018
04:39:43.040 --> 04:39:50.439
with music. Of course, you're very likely not going to

2019
04:39:50.520 --> 04:39:53.560
be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

2020
04:39:53.639 --> 04:39:58.159
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

2021
04:39:58.240 --> 04:40:09.119
can do this on your own, so no distractions. And

2022
04:40:09.240 --> 04:40:24.439
when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A

2023
04:40:24.599 --> 04:40:35.240
sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying to

2024
04:40:35.360 --> 04:40:46.279
build it up into something fantastical or something magical. This

2025
04:40:46.479 --> 04:40:56.439
is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

2026
04:40:59.240 --> 04:41:03.599
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

2027
04:41:04.439 --> 04:41:10.200
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

2028
04:41:11.200 --> 04:41:16.880
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

2029
04:41:17.040 --> 04:41:27.799
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

2030
04:41:28.080 --> 04:41:40.040
recording and others is simply two allow you to take

2031
04:41:40.080 --> 04:41:54.959
advantage of this space. This time, it's just let go,

2032
04:41:58.119 --> 04:42:06.319
to just be here, to be in tune with how

2033
04:42:06.439 --> 04:42:19.799
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

2034
04:42:19.959 --> 04:42:31.279
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

2035
04:42:31.479 --> 04:42:37.599
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

2036
04:42:44.599 --> 04:42:53.959
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

2037
04:42:54.080 --> 04:42:59.240
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

2038
04:42:59.400 --> 04:43:07.159
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

2039
04:43:11.119 --> 04:43:29.080
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

2040
04:43:29.119 --> 04:43:40.000
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

2041
04:43:45.919 --> 04:44:15.040
the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly

2042
04:44:22.119 --> 04:44:43.400
and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

2043
04:44:49.479 --> 04:44:53.479
This time, I'm gonna count from six down to one,

2044
04:44:58.279 --> 04:45:01.240
and you can notice your.

2045
04:45:01.279 --> 04:45:12.520
Mind calming down more. With each number, you hear me say,

2046
04:45:17.200 --> 04:46:21.200
naturally feeling calm and slow to beeaceful, six five four.

2047
04:46:52.959 --> 04:47:42.080
Three hush.

2048
04:47:46.319 --> 04:48:00.599
Us want.

2049
04:48:21.400 --> 04:48:34.720
Being aware, help your mind to slow right down, sinking

2050
04:48:37.319 --> 04:48:57.639
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2051
04:48:57.919 --> 04:49:07.880
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2052
04:49:10.479 --> 04:49:20.000
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2053
04:49:20.080 --> 04:49:20.680
your attention.

2054
04:49:27.599 --> 04:49:29.000
That's what you can do is.

2055
04:49:34.520 --> 04:49:47.000
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

2056
04:49:49.000 --> 04:49:54.919
all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle over them, petals

2057
04:49:55.000 --> 04:50:02.200
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

2058
04:50:02.400 --> 04:50:02.840
know that.

2059
04:50:04.959 --> 04:50:08.959
It's a lot of abandon the number. You just need

2060
04:50:09.080 --> 04:50:18.759
them to require them to just calm down, slow down,

2061
04:50:21.159 --> 04:50:22.159
quiet down.

2062
04:50:26.080 --> 04:50:37.840
And now so as you focus on those remaining.

2063
04:50:37.439 --> 04:50:41.639
For us, as we count down this time from seven

2064
04:50:42.520 --> 04:50:43.200
down to one.

2065
04:50:44.759 --> 04:51:04.400
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude, I.

2066
04:51:04.560 --> 04:51:13.759
Let these thoughts which will allow them to just not

2067
04:51:14.000 --> 04:51:29.479
away relaxed deeply the very number, the thoughts will become

2068
04:51:29.680 --> 04:51:46.599
more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven.

2069
04:52:05.520 --> 04:52:24.240
Six five.

2070
04:52:37.200 --> 04:53:55.759
Four one.

2071
04:54:12.439 --> 04:54:13.319
Met You now.

2072
04:54:17.400 --> 04:54:38.599
Notice how relaxed your feeling in your buddy you can

2073
04:54:38.759 --> 04:54:44.599
to focus on your hands.

2074
04:54:50.799 --> 04:54:56.759
Is the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

2075
04:54:57.000 --> 04:54:59.799
your body, and my love.

2076
04:55:14.680 --> 04:55:19.599
This do you trin like this on your hands and

2077
04:55:19.759 --> 04:55:20.319
you think this?

2078
04:55:26.040 --> 04:55:28.439
There's nothing needed to be done.

2079
04:55:29.400 --> 04:55:34.479
There's no preaching of hist or don't sing the fingers

2080
04:55:34.639 --> 04:55:45.319
or anything like that. Mm hmm, it's just notice, I

2081
04:55:45.880 --> 04:55:56.840
like to say, on your hands, not to see the

2082
04:55:56.959 --> 04:55:57.880
heavy feel.

2083
04:56:12.520 --> 04:56:14.000
It gives them more.

2084
04:56:15.880 --> 04:56:26.279
Relights. Your hands fill the harm your mind feels, and

2085
04:56:27.080 --> 04:56:44.000
more out that you feel about the body. Gee, may

2086
04:56:46.439 --> 04:56:58.880
have whody nice you.

2087
04:57:03.360 --> 04:57:07.240
W is.

2088
04:57:09.880 --> 04:57:37.360
Sporting to? I said, just on my hands my things.

2089
04:57:41.720 --> 04:57:44.560
A man and chi.

2090
04:57:47.360 --> 04:57:48.159
Spears.

2091
04:57:52.119 --> 04:57:56.279
Think to me of that laxation.

2092
04:57:57.599 --> 04:58:24.840
My hands eight