June 12, 2025

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Hello, and welcome to just Sniland. Did coum. I'm practicing

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me German. I'm not sure how that's going. That's for Sebastian. Sebastian.

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Sebastian did a lovely thing earlier today. He actually posted

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a picture of my name, But what she possibly would

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look like when she was younger? Did he like on

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chat EPT? I didn't know you could do it on

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chat GPT. I know there are ai things you can do.

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I think ancestry dot com does it as well. But

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that was nice. I have seen some pictures of my

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nan when she was younger, but only from my Nan.

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I mean, you might say, well, hardly likely to see

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it when you go shopping. No, I don't mean that

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random strangers. I'm walking up to me, Hey, you want

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to see a picture of your name when she was twenty? No,

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that's not happening. I'm not saying that would happen. But

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every now and then I'd visit me Nan. Every now

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I'd visit me now. But every now and then she'd

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get the the boxes of photographs and the photograph albums.

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Dan would have a little good look and yeah, she

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had very curly hair. Always was that curly hair. She

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had a picture of her and all her brothers and sisters.

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It took up half the wall. There were like twelve

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of them, honestly, and I remember saying one of the

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one of my well, one of her sisters, was like,

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and I'm just saying I felt, it's just like phenomenally phenomenal,

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as in, if you do this, this sounds weird. But

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if you this, this is going to sound weird.

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Really if you.

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Two heard about it, if you if you was to

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if someone said, oh, this person here was a supermodel

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in the nineteen thirties or the nineteen fifties or forties,

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you wouldn't you wouldn't question it. You might say, who,

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I've not heard of her? What was her name? Did

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she do any bikini shoots? That's not why I would say,

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because she's my great aunt. Great Okay, let's move on.

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But she was wow. I remember saying that to my

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nanna and she said, well, bikini shoots has been appropriate.

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I said sorry, and she said, besides, what are my

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corn beef? I said, what do you mean? She said,

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what my corn beef? You? My sister's so so attractive,

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but what am I? I said, Well, you're not corn beef.

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Why did you think? Why did you come up with

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corn beef? She said, I'm hungry, and I thought, yeah,

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I am as well. About time went and got some sandwiches,

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and wasn't it? So she would she go and get

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the sandwiches and I'd wait. Sometimes I'd have to sort

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of say to a shower, hurry up with her? Can

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you hurry up? Hurry up, woman, get the food ready.

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But she's a lot quicker before she broke her hip.

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And none of that's true. She did break it. Hup,

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None of that I would like if I said that

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to mine and hurry up, Well, she'd probably laugh, to

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be honest, but I would never be rude. This just started,

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weird should start again. Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My

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name's Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safety

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close your eyes. This is let me bore you to sleep.

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It is a very therapeutic recording for you to fall

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asleep too. And I would be as boring as I can. Yes,

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the secret is I've never once been boring, not to me,

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not to me, just to everyone else. Vinnie's got a bone,

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one of his little bones, got some got a new

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pack cave through you. Yes, today, I'll tell you what.

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There's been some troubles h that's some troubles No, nothing serious,

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but very disheartening. Oh man, right, it's Thursday, the twelfth

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of June two thousand and I nearly said twenty twelve. Wow,

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it's weird. I was a counselor. I was a full

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time counselor. I was helping people full time in twenty twelve.

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That was an interesting period.

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You know.

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I'd like to talk more about what happened during that time.

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It's just I don't want to to, you know, talk

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about other people. You know, obviously people have come as

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as clients, so that's that's not really on. But I

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learned a lot and there's some very interesting, interesting experiences.

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And I think the one thing becomes very evident if

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you ever, you know, as a counselor, as training to

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become a counselor and starting to see humans, is there's

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a lot of stuff going on out there, and people

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are People can be quite complicated. Maybe always, I don't know,

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but just there's it's just that next time you have

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someone who's grumpy or doesn't open the door for you,

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or doesn't say thank you when you open the door

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for them, or perhaps doesn't even acknowledge you, or perhaps

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is a little bit rude. You're not horrible, but it's

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a little bit like short or a little bit I've

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always been a little bit short. Maybe there's a reason

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for that. I kind of I started to learn that

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a little bit. I learned it earlier in life, but

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I kind of learned it a bit more realizing people.

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It's got heavy quick, isn't it. People are walking around

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with stuff, and that's why I mean, even though it's

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quite heavy, I found it's useful, useful in a sense

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of I'm not always able to get myself in that zone.

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Sometimes I don't, but if I can, I try and

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put myself into the zone. If someone's been rude to

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me that at the very least they're just having a

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bad day. We're all allowed to have bad days. It's fine.

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Or if what they've done is really upset me or

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I've reacted, then I try and look at it the

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most extreme situation in order to sort of negate that feeling.

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So for example, I had someone in the petrol station

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during lockdown. Actually it was he he was pretty much

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semi shouting. I love that word. Semi. Maybe it's because

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I'm five years old. I don't know, but it was

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sort of. It was I think two or three, no,

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two people behind me, so because we don't wanted to

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stay in six foot away. How am I supposed to

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know what six foot is five foot eight? I don't

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know what six foot is. I can't gauge that. I

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can gauge it if you're standing up or lying down,

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but I can't not. Yeah, it just it's hard anyway.

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I this spoke started like moaning, and I was at

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the counter give him my money. The cashier was new,

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so I don't know if he was. It was going

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a little bit slow, but then she was new, so

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she was just learning the job. And every job can

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be hard when you first start. And I didn't react

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great if I'm honest verbally, I mean, but internally didn't

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didn't respond. And when I got back, I started thinking, well,

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I don't know anything about this person. Maybe, I mean,

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bearing in mind the situation at the time, maybe they

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just lost someone. Maybe they've just been to hospital and

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seeing someone they care about, you know, just and yeah,

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that seemed to semi neutralize it, not completely. I just

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lost andres. So I was not in a great space either,

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but you know it was. There's a lot of people

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not going to get great space during that period, you know,

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but I found it was something that helped, you know.

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I know some people just do it in a more smaller,

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less dramatic way, kind of just having a bad day,

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and that's fine, which it's cool. I see, if you

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can do that, that's really good. I'm not always able

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to do that. What am I talking about, though, I

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know what I'm talking about. Why what's this got to

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do with goldfish? I don't know. So I got no

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idea anyway. I got annoyed, but it wasn't about it

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wasn't about a person. Here's what happened. I made yesterday morning,

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right probably ten eleven. I made a whisper Wednesday recording.

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There was a little bit of chitter chatter outside, but

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not much. It's fairly quiet, and yeah, I was I

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did it. Did the recording. It's about an hour and

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fifteen minutes. And I never generally when I make a recording,

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I don't upload it straight away. Sometimes I do, but

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you know, generally, after I've made a recording, that's when

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I go and do something different. I mean technically uploading

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and editing and all that stuff that is different from

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making a recording. But I kind of like to do

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something that's got nothing to do with this whole thing.

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So maybe take the little rabbit out for a run.

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You know, it's not euphemism. I'm talking about, Vinnie. What

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would what would that be? What would that be a

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euphemism for I'm just taking a rabbit out for a run.

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I'll be back in five minutes. What you've been doing

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in the bedroom all that time? What was all that noise?

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What's happened to that sock? I was just taking a

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rabbit out for a run. I don't know. So that's

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the answer. You know, how come how come the washing

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machine keeps eating all the socks? If you noticed, it's

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often male socks that go missing. Yep, there's a reason,

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because the washing machine does not like one of them socks.

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I don't know where I'm going with this. This has

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gone weird right so onto the subject. So I was feeling, Okay,

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I've done the you know, I've done the recording. I

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might have gone back to bed for a little nap.

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Then I came back out and started you know, I

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sent the record into the iPad and then I opened

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up to start editing, and the iPod the iPad was

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not working. The iPod the iPad was not working. First

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of all, the file the file app was missing. I

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don't know what the heck happened there, so I had

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no way to access the files. I found a way

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in the end, but it was like a real weird place.

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And secondly, the touch screen was not working properly, so

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I touched on one part and a different part would highlight.

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And I used a touch screen when I edit my recordings.

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Now I realized that, you know, in the past, I

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used to edit without touching the screen. But I've been

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doing this this way for years. I'd find it very

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difficult to go back to not touching the screen, and

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also to not using the software that I use. I

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just I'm used to using it and it works because

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there's nothing fancy. I don't need to do anything fancy.

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There's no you know, I'm not adding sound effects or

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anything like that. It's just editing it. Maybe increasing the

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volume a bit to make it sound more louder, I guess,

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and then adding background music or adding the stock, you know.

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Five hour ten hour things to the recording, recording, recording,

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and there used to be his comedian on the circuit

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and every time he did a gig, he's like, good

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evend good eved. Seriously, I don't it's not. It's just

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he was a brilliant compare. But it was just it's weird.

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This is one of those things, right seeing someone for

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the first time can be amazing, but if you because

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I used to see the same person week in, well,

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week in, I saw them for like over ten years,

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but for a four year period it was intense. I

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see them nearly every week, and you know, you get

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to know every single joke in their act. And it's

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weird how someone that's so good it just gets boring.

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It's like, oh, I'm not them again. Yeah, some of

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them were kind of on TV and you know, but

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it's just be the same, the same stuff. They're doing

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the same act and that's why they were so good,

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because they were doing all the time, and they were

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practicing and you know, they were you know, they had

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an act. That's what it is. It's weird though, because

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sometimes the comedians that look like the ad libbin some

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of them are, but a lot of them aren't. They're

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just pre programmed ad libs almost, And that's weird as

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well because I saw someone it's one of the comedians

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from The Mighty Boosh, Nil Noel Fielding, and I saw

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his stand up act. I've never watched The Mighty Boosh

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and I've never you know, I never really knew what

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Nil Noel Fielding was like. And I saw some of

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his early standouts from the nineties so funny, absolutely funny.

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I was like, he's just basically it is very surreal

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and he's just making It's like he's making up. He

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is going along. Then I see him do another gig

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on a different show, same material. It wasn't made up,

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so these ad lips weren't made up. It's like, oh,

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then I see him again. He's doing this. It's like

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maybe new material, but he's adding other stuff, but it's

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still kind of certain things that I thought was almost

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like he was just I don't know, just talking and

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coming up with stuff. It I'm sure he did. Like

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I guess, you can't rely on it if you're doing

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a TV show, can you. You can't. If it's a

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live gig, you can play around more. But I guess

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if you've only got five minutes or a comedy show,

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you got to give it your best stuff and there's

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no room for error. I suppose I wouldn't know personally,

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although I did do once. I did do once. I

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did once do a TV talent show, but it was

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for live TV in nineteen ninety five, near the end

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of the year, and the only audience was the other

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acts and the production crew, which was a few camera

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people and you know, people in the in that little

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space that there was there. I really enjoyed it. I

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did get some laughs. I didn't win anything. I didn't win.

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I literally didn't win anything. I never won anything. I

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got through. I got through to the Hackney Empire shows.

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So I don't know if they still do it, but

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it used to be a Hackney New Act of the

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Year which was held at the Hackney Empire, and they

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did the first of all we had to go to

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the which was next door and they did gigs there

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and it was like a contest, italic contest and those

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who got through that part were then allowed that that

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went on to the Hackney Empire show. And I don't

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know if it was I think what was banged the microphone,

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I think there was that was kind of that semi finals.

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I think I don't think it was just no, yeah,

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it wasn't just one show. I think there might be

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in four shows. I got through to the to the semifinals,

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which was pretty cool, I think. Funny enough, I didn't

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win it. And the reason, you know I didn't win

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it or I can is because I didn't. People that

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win that show often go on to be well known,

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go on to be writers, have their own radio show,

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TV show, you know. So yeah, so many people I

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could name off the top of my head, people that

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may you might not know if you're not from this country.

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But are celebrities being in TV shows, sitcoms, uh, you know,

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panel shows and stuff like that. So many. I'm just

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thinking of Ardolouhanlon. He won that and he become He

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was in Father Ted probably the next year. He was

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a weird one, not weird as weird. He was great.

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He was great, It was great, great. But he came

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over from Ireland and he literally he went from he

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was successful instantly, instantly. I don't I'm not even sure

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if he ever had a bad gig. He came here

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and he won on every single talent contest on the

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circuit because there's a few around at the BBC Newcomer

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Best whatever different things like that. He won everything and

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he became a headliner almost instantly, probably within a year

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of being maybe less time of being on maybe a year,

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but it's very very very quick. Never met him, never

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on the same show as him, because he actually went

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from he joined, he got into the circuit and he

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was on television really quickly, and after that he was famous.

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So he wasn't doing the small gigs. Wow, I think

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he was just barking. Then someone slammed the door downstairs.

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I got my neighbor a mug, a coffee mug with

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his football team on it. I don't know why. I

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just don't know why. I just I was thinking. I

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thought about getting it a few months ago. And I

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went to Amazon two days ago. So I needed awer

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some food for him and or oh he had the bones,

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and that mug came up. Are you sure you don't

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want to buy this mug? Do you see you mug?

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And I thought, oh yeah, I forgot about that. So

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I's got it for him, so I give it to

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him later. Oh yeah, the iPad. So the iPad was

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not working properly, and I did not know what to do.

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I spent all afternoon, all evening with breaks trying to

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figure out how to fix it, and then starting to

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focus on what can I do instead? What alternatives can

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I use to edit my audios that does not involve

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my iPad. Now there's loads to choose from. That's not

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really the issue. The issue for me is what one

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is going to be compatible for me? What's what's going

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to suit my way of doing it? And I started

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trying out a few different apps and not really loving them.

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And then some of the stuff was expensive as well,

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so I didn't really fancy doing that one. And there's

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one I think it's is it Hindenburg? And they no,

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it's Hinduburg. There was one I was sort of yeah, No,

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I did Hindenburg and I signed up for the free

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trial and the download didn't work. The thing just wouldn't work.

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It's like, what's the point in this? And I got

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another one and it was like two hundred pounds one

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off payment. No, it's free once you pay the two

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hundred pounds. It's like everything's freedom, isn't it. You know?

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The Mercedes is free once you paid the ninety grand

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it's free. Now there you go. Your mortgage. Your house

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is free once you paid the mortgage off. So I

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didn't know what to do, and I was getting I

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was going on chat GPT asking for help. Now probably

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the problem I had, I thought. I didn't realize it

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was the screen. I thought it was the app. So

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I was asking for help to fix the app. And

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I was doing that. I was uploading that, I was

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deleting it, I was re uploading it. I was trying

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to change the settings of the iPad, and I just

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thought the app had just for some reason it had broken,

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and maybe the iPad just didn't want to work of

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it anymore, or I'm not sure. It just got confusing.

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And then I went to bed. So I would have

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made another recording yesterday. In fact, I wanted to make

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another recording, but there was no point if I if

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I couldn't upload or can edit that one, there once

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a point in getting another, you know, making another one.

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And I wanted to upload it on Wednesday. And now

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I sometimes I do upload the day after, you know,

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I maybe make a recording in the evening and then

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I uploaded the next morning. I'll do that sometimes but yeah,

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beary in mind that I recorded it in the morning,

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then I would normally have it uploaded by the early afternoon,

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were edited and uploaded. So what ended up doing is

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I did edit? I'm not sure. I don't think I did.

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I think I might have uploaded it yesterday, just one recording,

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the first one without music, and I edited that in

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cap cut, which is a video editing software. But it

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was harder to do because the screen I was doing

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on a laptop, and it wasn't just I couldn't see.

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It's weird, but I can see the screen. I can

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see the screen on the laptop, but with the iPad,

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the whole screen is just the audio, you know, spiky stuff,

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So I can see where all the spikes are, and

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I can see where to edit and where to listen.

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And because I know it's so well having looked at

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it and used it for years, I've used it, I

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don't know, hundreds and hundreds of times, hundreds and hundreds

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and hundreds and hundreds of times, so I kind of

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know my way around it quite easily. So it took

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a while to get it done. Using cap cut got

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it done, and then this now, if it was last

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didn't know. I'm losing track about whether it's last night

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or this morning. But yesterday i'd had enough. I saw it. Ah,

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so I went to bed about nine o'clock. I just yeah,

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I was annoyed of it, so I thought, no. Plus,

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I've been watching mob Land, the TV show on Paramount Plus.

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I just finished watching it today. It was ten episodes.

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It's not so much a bing binge watched it, but

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I did watch it in three days. I guess is

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that binging it's only three episodes a day, but yeah,

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it's Yeah, it was interesting. I think Pierce Brosnan got

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a lot of hassle for having an Irish accent in

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that show. And I saw something someone saying he was

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being disrespectful by putting on that accent. Pierce Brosnan is Irish.

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Do people not know that Pierce brosn is not American.

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I know he was famous for being an American TV

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show and then being in James Bond, but he wasn't.

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He was never English. He was Irish, unless yeah he was,

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he was Irish, or unless you know he had an

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Irish accent. He was born with an Irish accent. He

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wasn't born with an Irish accent, but he he definitely

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was born in Ireland. What is it? Who is it Scotland? Nah?

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Oh no, I want to talk about. We all know

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who the Scottish James Bond is, don't we? Roger Moorea,

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some people I should know my Bond, shouldn't I. Let's

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face it. I mean I grew up watching every single

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James Bond movie all day and night, breakfast, dinner, tea. Honestly,

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just James Bond, this James Bond. That none of this

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is true, it is I did watch a lot of it.

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I think the James Bond movies are the last I

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don't know, probably twenty thirty years. I don't think they've

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really had the societal impact that the original ones did,

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or the ones in even the eighties. It's almost like

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no one. I can't think of anyone other than James

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Bond himself that really became a huge star from being

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in those movies, in any of the James Bond movies

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of recent years. And if I were to tell you,

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for those that are not old enough to remember, and

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those are old I have to remember, will actually agree

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with me. Jaws, not the shark Jaws. Richard Keel for

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some reason, I'm remembering names to Richard Kill was an

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absolute superstar, so famous. There was action figures made of

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him and James bonding him and his gold teeth, and

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he was like an anti hero. And it'd be fighting

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Roger Moore. Roger Moore was about ninety five then, and

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they'd be fighting on a ski lift. And although we

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didn't want to see Jans, you know, the pensioner James

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Bond get hurt, at the same time we kind of

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we loved Jawels as well because he had a lovely smile,

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a big smile, very big smile, very gold and shiny. Yeah,

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there was one scene where he I think he ends

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up in the ocean. I think it might be the

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second movie, because he's in two movies. At least two movies.

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Has drawn was I think other than Blowfelt? Is it Blowfelt?

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The one with the with the one eye and the cat?

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What was it? I think that you know, there was

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a couple of a couple of baddies that were in

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more than one movie, the James Bond French Eyes. But

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there was a scene where Jaws was in the ocean

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and he gets attacked by a shark, and everyone felt

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sorry for the shark, like you're doing it to the

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wrong person. Shark was like with his mouth open and

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jaws turned around, you know, the Richard Kill the Baddy

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James Bond Beddy turned around and smiled, and the shark.

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You could see the shark's face like, oh, only god,

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I'm messed up now. I don't know what that accent was.

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He got messed up? Yeah, I think, yeah, that's good.

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Just ignore me. Then, my little Fox, if you saw

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him at night in a field running around, you'd think

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he was a fox. Seriously, I mean, you think he's

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probably a baby fox because Fox has got quite long legs.

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At me, you'd think he was a baby, a really

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a well fed baby fox. But he's got this. I'm

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not saying he's got exactly the same coloring because Fox

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is probably quite a bit redder, but he's definitely got

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that kind of foxy foxy look in the years. One

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of his ears is his ears are pick pricked up,

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so he's listening for something, aren't you, finny, Yeah, you're

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going to behave Yeah you are, your little towels the

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tails awakely. Oh you're so cute. You're such a cute tie. Yes,

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you are yes, you are bless him. Okay, So I

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didn't know what to do, so I ended up doing

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I made an image for the well did I I

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don't know if I did. I don't know if I

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did it last night or not. But I ended up

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doing the one without music and uploading that. I think

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I did that last night. I'm not one hundred percent

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sure it might be this morning. And then I got

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up this morning and I looked, because I've been resetting

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this and stuff on the iPad, I realized I'd lost

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all the background music stuff that I had saved that

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I used to edit recorders to put them all together,

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and I thought, no, what have I done? So I

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managed to find them. They just weren't in the same

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place that they had been before. I managed to find them,

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uploaded them to speaker or edited them to be smaller,

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uploaded them to spreaker, and they went onto my laptop.

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Downloaded them from a spreaker, all the different kind of

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about six different background things, and then put them onto

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the Yeah, put them onto the laptop, onto the what's

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it the screen background, what do they call it, whatever

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it's called, into a file desktop, that's it. And I

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started Oh, I also cleaned the screen thoroughly because I've

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got these spectacled and lens wipes, so they're specifically for

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that that thing for cleaning glass, and I use them

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for my phone. I use it for my glasses and

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mainly my glasses. Although my glasses are scratched now, they're

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just so old they kind of they got to the

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point where that they're running out. They're running out. The

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prescription is nearly run out for these glasses, I think,

467
00:38:46.800 --> 00:38:52.360
and I test bad. My neighbor this morning, I was

468
00:38:52.400 --> 00:38:55.599
just bringing Vinnie back home from our w A l

469
00:38:55.679 --> 00:38:59.800
K and we were talking about whether or not is

470
00:39:00.440 --> 00:39:03.280
so he wanted if he could park his car there

471
00:39:03.639 --> 00:39:05.199
or when he had to wait to park the car

472
00:39:05.320 --> 00:39:11.840
there because there's a parking there's a zone, you know,

473
00:39:11.880 --> 00:39:14.639
where you can't park a car between a certain time.

474
00:39:15.239 --> 00:39:18.239
What are you doing for me? Oh, he's found a

475
00:39:18.280 --> 00:39:25.039
fly to try and catch. It's even moving very very fast,

476
00:39:25.480 --> 00:39:33.639
or it's invisible because I can't see it. You know,

477
00:39:33.800 --> 00:39:37.559
dogs can hear things that we can't hear. Can they

478
00:39:37.599 --> 00:39:43.239
see things that we can't see? Ah, that seemed because

479
00:39:43.280 --> 00:39:46.880
they can smell things we can't smell. Hear things we

480
00:39:46.920 --> 00:39:51.239
can't hear. Can they see things we can't see? That's

481
00:39:51.280 --> 00:39:56.719
an interesting question, isn't it. Ah, I wonder what the

482
00:39:56.800 --> 00:40:04.960
answer is. Oh, and my neighbor said, oh, I don't

483
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:07.639
know if it's safe to park here when it's okay

484
00:40:07.679 --> 00:40:11.360
to park because it's like a school zone kind of block.

485
00:40:12.039 --> 00:40:15.480
And I said it was a sign over there, and

486
00:40:15.519 --> 00:40:18.719
you could you're not allow to part between eight thirty

487
00:40:18.840 --> 00:40:21.960
and I think nine. And he said no, he says

488
00:40:22.039 --> 00:40:26.360
nine thirty. I said no, I says nine. He says

489
00:40:26.400 --> 00:40:31.320
nine thirty, So he's like seventy. No, he's about eighty one.

490
00:40:34.559 --> 00:40:37.360
And his eyesight he doesn't wear he wears glasses, didn't

491
00:40:37.360 --> 00:40:41.480
have wear his glasses on, so without his glasses he

492
00:40:41.519 --> 00:40:43.840
can see that it was a three, not a zero.

493
00:40:48.639 --> 00:40:52.679
I couldn't. I could. I suppose if I kind of

494
00:40:52.679 --> 00:40:57.239
moved my head, I could see how it could be

495
00:40:57.280 --> 00:41:02.920
a three. She once he told me it was, you know,

496
00:41:03.280 --> 00:41:05.920
and once someone tells you what it is, it's hard

497
00:41:05.960 --> 00:41:08.960
to not you almost see a three, whether it is

498
00:41:09.119 --> 00:41:16.480
not or not. Really, And I just thought, that's not fair.

499
00:41:18.360 --> 00:41:20.320
Why is he Why is he got a better eyes

500
00:41:20.400 --> 00:41:26.960
than me? And I had a tantrum I did. I

501
00:41:27.079 --> 00:41:34.199
stormed up the steps, came in, slammed the door, and

502
00:41:34.239 --> 00:41:39.239
I just, yeah, I didn't do any of that stuff.

503
00:41:39.320 --> 00:41:43.599
I don't know why I'm saying that I didn't. So oh,

504
00:41:44.760 --> 00:41:49.199
so I'm looking at the iPad and I'm starting to think, hmm,

505
00:41:53.440 --> 00:41:57.480
what I'll do. So I I transferred, I said all

506
00:41:57.480 --> 00:42:00.599
this stuff over, So I had that on the desktop

507
00:42:00.840 --> 00:42:05.639
on my computer, and I was going to start putting

508
00:42:05.639 --> 00:42:08.440
stuff together on there, using cap cut as the editor,

509
00:42:09.920 --> 00:42:18.159
because you can edit video and audio on there. And

510
00:42:19.079 --> 00:42:26.039
I thought I went on to chat ept to ask

511
00:42:26.480 --> 00:42:30.639
a question and I can't remember what the question was,

512
00:42:32.119 --> 00:42:34.639
but I'd asked him you No, I went back onto

513
00:42:34.719 --> 00:42:38.159
last night's questions to try and help me to fix

514
00:42:38.239 --> 00:42:44.840
the editing software that I had problems with, because that's

515
00:42:44.880 --> 00:42:47.360
what I thought it was. Because when I wasn't in

516
00:42:47.519 --> 00:42:54.920
that editing software, the screen seemed to be working okay,

517
00:42:56.920 --> 00:43:12.159
And dawned on me maybe just maybe it's not the screen. No,

518
00:43:12.599 --> 00:43:16.880
maybe maybe it's not the the It might not be

519
00:43:17.000 --> 00:43:21.360
the app. Maybe it's the screen not the app. And

520
00:43:21.400 --> 00:43:24.039
if it's a screen, that means it's something going on

521
00:43:24.199 --> 00:43:33.480
with the iPad. So it took me a whole day

522
00:43:33.559 --> 00:43:38.519
to come up with this, so I think, oh, you know,

523
00:43:38.639 --> 00:43:41.199
I do come up with solutions eventually, but it's not

524
00:43:41.199 --> 00:43:50.320
always quick. So I asked chet GPT instead of saying, oh,

525
00:43:50.440 --> 00:43:53.760
the editing software is not working. Have you got a

526
00:43:53.800 --> 00:44:00.559
fix for that, which I've done yesterday this morning, I said, well,

527
00:44:00.599 --> 00:44:04.960
I wrote down, the iPad's not working, the screen's not

528
00:44:05.079 --> 00:44:07.599
working on the touch screen is not working on the iPad,

529
00:44:09.159 --> 00:44:14.599
please help me. Went through a few different things that

530
00:44:14.639 --> 00:44:18.559
I'd already done previously. So I'd already cleaned the screen,

531
00:44:20.400 --> 00:44:30.320
I'd already oh yeah, I'd already turned it on and

532
00:44:30.360 --> 00:44:33.480
off or off and on. So I've done that. I've

533
00:44:33.480 --> 00:44:37.679
done that stuff, you know, the basic stuff. And then

534
00:44:37.719 --> 00:44:42.760
it said, well, reset all settings. Reset put it back

535
00:44:42.800 --> 00:44:46.159
to factory settings almost or maybe not factory settings, but

536
00:44:46.320 --> 00:44:51.440
reset the whole thing. So it's basically the knob that

537
00:44:51.480 --> 00:44:55.159
you press or the button that you press when you

538
00:44:55.239 --> 00:44:59.519
want to transfer all your stuff onto your new iPad.

539
00:45:01.239 --> 00:45:05.840
But it gives you two options. You can transfer or reset.

540
00:45:07.519 --> 00:45:12.199
So I resetted it, so the whole thing turned off.

541
00:45:12.599 --> 00:45:14.800
I had to press yes, yes, yes, yes a few times,

542
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:21.119
not quite sure what I was agreeing. To and it

543
00:45:21.199 --> 00:45:25.440
took a while for it to power down and do

544
00:45:25.519 --> 00:45:28.519
what it needs to do. Then it I didn't realize

545
00:45:28.559 --> 00:45:33.320
it was actually come back on again because because it

546
00:45:33.360 --> 00:45:38.480
had come back on to its factory settings almost the

547
00:45:38.599 --> 00:45:45.000
screen was going off. After two minutes. I had to

548
00:45:45.039 --> 00:45:47.440
go that put that back to being on all the time.

549
00:45:47.800 --> 00:45:56.360
I don't want to keep going off. And it worked fine.

550
00:45:58.199 --> 00:46:06.360
The screen, everything worked fine. So then I go to

551
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:12.400
use the editor the editor again to open it up,

552
00:46:13.960 --> 00:46:24.199
and the yeah, I had to open the file because

553
00:46:24.239 --> 00:46:27.440
the file the file app's still not there. I'm thinking,

554
00:46:27.960 --> 00:46:30.920
what's gone on air? I'll have to go and chat

555
00:46:31.000 --> 00:46:33.840
Ebt and ask how to get the file back the

556
00:46:34.039 --> 00:46:37.079
file app. So I just went into the editor app

557
00:46:37.719 --> 00:46:43.239
import file and I was able to find the file

558
00:46:43.760 --> 00:46:48.159
from now I had to download it first from a

559
00:46:48.199 --> 00:46:54.000
spreaker and then get it opened that up and then

560
00:46:54.000 --> 00:47:05.840
I saved it. But then the problem is I had

561
00:47:05.920 --> 00:47:10.079
none of the background music or sounds on my iPad anymore,

562
00:47:13.719 --> 00:47:17.400
which was well, they weren't there. They were there, but

563
00:47:17.400 --> 00:47:20.440
they just weren't like there, if you know what I mean,

564
00:47:20.440 --> 00:47:24.280
on the actual app. Because it app stores recordings unless

565
00:47:24.280 --> 00:47:27.440
you delete them. Its stores are on there. So what

566
00:47:27.440 --> 00:47:29.440
I had to do is go and start looking in

567
00:47:29.679 --> 00:47:35.679
for files on the iPad ones about music, background music,

568
00:47:36.000 --> 00:47:42.119
no music, ten hours, ten hours well or whatever, background music, whisper.

569
00:47:43.079 --> 00:47:48.360
And that took a while to get all that stuff up.

570
00:47:49.320 --> 00:47:53.320
Then what I was having problems with was because of

571
00:47:53.440 --> 00:47:59.000
last night. I ended up uploading two versions, two different

572
00:47:59.719 --> 00:48:03.559
editor the same editor, but two twice. So they kept

573
00:48:03.639 --> 00:48:06.920
swapping over to each other and canceling each other out.

574
00:48:11.880 --> 00:48:16.519
So I had to figure a way to get rid

575
00:48:16.519 --> 00:48:21.920
of one of them, which I did, and eventually I

576
00:48:22.000 --> 00:48:27.599
was able to through a lot of hassle, keep like

577
00:48:27.719 --> 00:48:30.599
important and stuff. It was. It was not easy, but

578
00:48:30.719 --> 00:48:35.920
many should do all all five six versions, including the

579
00:48:35.960 --> 00:48:38.800
one that had already done. So to get all versions done,

580
00:48:38.920 --> 00:48:45.320
it took quite a while to get them done, and

581
00:48:45.360 --> 00:48:50.480
I got them uploaded. It took till this afternoon to

582
00:48:50.480 --> 00:48:56.920
do it. It was gone. Yeah, I think it's gone

583
00:48:57.119 --> 00:49:03.159
gone midday, one o'clock, something like that, two o'clock. And

584
00:49:03.239 --> 00:49:20.920
then and I took him out to the park. Oh yeah,

585
00:49:20.920 --> 00:49:23.800
And then I thought, oh, I've done this, good, brilliant.

586
00:49:24.320 --> 00:49:28.239
They'll stay on there now. So tomorrow the next recording

587
00:49:28.280 --> 00:49:30.159
I do to be back to how I was doing

588
00:49:30.159 --> 00:49:33.960
it before. Everything's kind of stored and it's easy to use.

589
00:49:35.159 --> 00:49:37.480
The good thing, I've now got back up on my laptop,

590
00:49:37.599 --> 00:49:44.800
so that's cool. So you know, the background stuff, the

591
00:49:44.960 --> 00:49:49.320
ten hour versions, whatever, that's all stored. So that's good.

592
00:49:52.239 --> 00:49:58.480
But now I'm thinking, but I can't find the files

593
00:49:58.760 --> 00:50:08.960
on my iPad. Just generally, it's just this silly, because

594
00:50:09.239 --> 00:50:10.960
you know, I should be able to just have because

595
00:50:10.960 --> 00:50:12.360
it always used to be at the bottom of the

596
00:50:12.400 --> 00:50:16.000
screen files. Click on it and it shows me. You know,

597
00:50:16.039 --> 00:50:20.519
I've got a choice of iPad iCloud or if I've

598
00:50:20.559 --> 00:50:25.920
got a backup drive or a SD card attached, you know,

599
00:50:26.039 --> 00:50:29.760
so I can choose which one I want. Didn't have

600
00:50:29.920 --> 00:50:37.039
that facility facility, not just facility, but facility. When I

601
00:50:37.079 --> 00:50:39.719
said that, it reminded me of nineteen ninety four for

602
00:50:39.760 --> 00:50:43.719
some reason, just run a corner from the swimming pool

603
00:50:45.199 --> 00:50:52.320
and that weird connections. Maybe I said that word facility

604
00:50:53.519 --> 00:50:56.000
and it meant something at the time. I don't know.

605
00:50:58.000 --> 00:51:02.159
So it was a Stratford well Forest Skate actually that's

606
00:51:02.159 --> 00:51:07.119
where the swimming pool was forest Gate. It was more

607
00:51:07.320 --> 00:51:13.679
east Ham College area was it was it I think

608
00:51:13.760 --> 00:51:23.440
so east Ham College. So forest Gate up to the end,

609
00:51:25.960 --> 00:51:33.559
turn left joins on to the Romford Road, which also

610
00:51:33.639 --> 00:51:35.760
leads if you turn and right, goes all the way

611
00:51:35.800 --> 00:51:42.440
up to Stratford. Also, if you get towards Stratford, turn

612
00:51:42.519 --> 00:51:45.159
left leads you to my Land, or if you turn

613
00:51:45.320 --> 00:51:48.360
right rather than Stratford leads you up to Leighton and

614
00:51:48.440 --> 00:51:51.840
Leighton Stone and then you can turn left again which

615
00:51:51.960 --> 00:52:04.800
leads you to East seventeen. Trying to think left fresco

616
00:52:04.960 --> 00:52:08.400
that leads to Yeah, that's I think that's where that

617
00:52:08.440 --> 00:52:10.920
sum and Paul is. Unless it was right, I think

618
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.480
it's left, and then on that side of left down side,

619
00:52:14.480 --> 00:52:18.760
but on the right hand side there's It was east

620
00:52:18.760 --> 00:52:25.239
Ham College. So I went there a couple of times. Yes,

621
00:52:26.119 --> 00:52:32.960
Also I had my counseling there as well. I did

622
00:52:32.960 --> 00:52:36.920
a course. I kind of missed those days. It's a

623
00:52:36.960 --> 00:52:44.719
little bit weird. And in ninety ninety eight, I think

624
00:52:44.840 --> 00:52:51.760
it was ninety eight, I went to the job center

625
00:52:52.840 --> 00:52:56.400
and they had courses that I could go to, you know,

626
00:52:56.559 --> 00:53:00.159
to learn new skills, and I decided to go on

627
00:53:00.199 --> 00:53:06.039
a computer course and it was really it was very basic,

628
00:53:06.199 --> 00:53:08.960
it was, but it's very thorough at the same time,

629
00:53:10.920 --> 00:53:21.639
and it was learning word what do you call it? Typing?

630
00:53:23.159 --> 00:53:25.960
It was kind of a typing course, really, but on

631
00:53:26.000 --> 00:53:29.880
a computer. So I suppose learning to use word like

632
00:53:30.000 --> 00:53:32.760
word world would be kind of the word processing app,

633
00:53:32.760 --> 00:53:37.840
wouldn't it whatever on laptop one computers rather PCs back

634
00:53:37.840 --> 00:53:43.079
in the nineties. So I went along to this thing

635
00:53:43.320 --> 00:53:48.639
for I don't know. I didn't stick at it, but

636
00:53:48.719 --> 00:53:56.079
I did go along. I did another one actually, when

637
00:53:56.119 --> 00:53:58.760
I first moved in there, went to a computer course.

638
00:54:04.400 --> 00:54:06.280
I wonder if there's anything like that. I could do

639
00:54:08.519 --> 00:54:14.719
something a little bit different. I don't know. It's just

640
00:54:14.760 --> 00:54:21.920
the going out, isn't it. I was fine back then, though,

641
00:54:22.159 --> 00:54:25.840
Like I wasn't fine what I mean? I could go

642
00:54:25.880 --> 00:54:30.360
out and do stuff. Oh well, so things. When I

643
00:54:30.400 --> 00:54:36.199
moved here, I was literally living in town before I

644
00:54:36.239 --> 00:54:41.239
moved here the previous two addresses. I was a very

645
00:54:41.360 --> 00:54:45.719
short walk from the town center, so I was used

646
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:50.800
to going to the supermarket every day pretty much to

647
00:54:50.880 --> 00:54:58.400
buy my daily food, and meeting up with friends at

648
00:54:58.400 --> 00:55:03.320
coffee places or going for a walk in the park

649
00:55:04.159 --> 00:55:09.280
to feed the squirrels. So I had a degree of

650
00:55:09.480 --> 00:55:16.159
activity which I don't have anymore, which I think was

651
00:55:16.760 --> 00:55:22.639
useful because I know i'd go out. I don't know

652
00:55:22.639 --> 00:55:24.840
what time i'd go out, but maybe i'd go out,

653
00:55:24.960 --> 00:55:32.119
you know, ten, eleven, twelve or whatever, and i'd come

654
00:55:32.199 --> 00:55:36.360
back home about three. So go and feed the squirrels.

655
00:55:36.360 --> 00:55:42.760
Maybe I'll get something to eat. Go feed the squirrels,

656
00:55:44.000 --> 00:55:46.639
Go and maybe go and chat to some friends in

657
00:55:46.679 --> 00:55:55.320
the Evolution Shop, which was the Buddhist shop, and potter around.

658
00:55:56.760 --> 00:56:02.519
Go home, make myself some tea cakes. I think in

659
00:56:02.559 --> 00:56:06.360
them days, I was having a teacake and a toasted

660
00:56:06.400 --> 00:56:11.039
tea cake, maybe a cup of tea, but I think

661
00:56:11.039 --> 00:56:15.400
it was possibly a can of coke. And I'd watch

662
00:56:17.920 --> 00:56:20.800
something on TV that like would be an old seventies

663
00:56:20.800 --> 00:56:26.280
sitcom would be on at that time, like Terry in

664
00:56:26.440 --> 00:56:35.559
June or George and Mildred. You know, so it's and

665
00:56:35.639 --> 00:56:38.280
I just love it. It's just like a little bit of

666
00:56:39.440 --> 00:56:43.440
a little bit of pleasure time, you know. It would

667
00:56:43.480 --> 00:56:45.480
only be like for half an hour, maybe an hour,

668
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:51.960
and that would kind of be the day done, kind

669
00:56:52.000 --> 00:56:55.519
of especially in the winter because it'd be dark by then.

670
00:57:01.760 --> 00:57:05.800
I do sort of sometimes wish that I'd held out

671
00:57:05.880 --> 00:57:09.719
and found somewhere a bit closer to town, just so

672
00:57:09.760 --> 00:57:16.800
I could. But I don't know, I don't know. It

673
00:57:16.800 --> 00:57:19.880
doesn't matter, is it? What if ifs and bits and

674
00:57:19.920 --> 00:57:23.039
bots and whatever. You know, this is where I moved

675
00:57:23.039 --> 00:57:28.199
and this is where I that's where I am. And

676
00:57:28.320 --> 00:57:34.480
if I hadn't moved here, two of the really, you know,

677
00:57:34.519 --> 00:57:38.360
I wouldn't have had Andre and I wouldn't have had

678
00:57:38.400 --> 00:57:42.280
this little one here, Vinny. So those are two things

679
00:57:42.320 --> 00:57:52.440
that wouldn't have happened in my life. And yeah, I'm

680
00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:56.480
not Yeah, it is what it is, isn't it?

681
00:57:56.760 --> 00:57:56.840
So?

682
00:58:01.280 --> 00:58:04.960
But then, yeah, I remember when I first moved in there.

683
00:58:05.880 --> 00:58:09.960
I think i'd been there for about four weeks, and

684
00:58:10.000 --> 00:58:11.880
I remember I was sitting over there at the table,

685
00:58:11.960 --> 00:58:14.880
which was in the corner at the time, near the window.

686
00:58:16.159 --> 00:58:19.559
The phone rang. The other end of the voice at

687
00:58:19.599 --> 00:58:20.960
the other end of the voice, the other end of

688
00:58:20.960 --> 00:58:25.719
the phone said hello, mister Newland. I said hello. I said,

689
00:58:26.599 --> 00:58:30.639
just check that you if you're available to come and

690
00:58:31.159 --> 00:58:35.679
come and have a viewing of the flat, I said.

691
00:58:37.039 --> 00:58:40.159
I said, I'm already here. I live here. I'll be

692
00:58:40.239 --> 00:58:44.079
there for about three weeks, four weeks. And she said, no,

693
00:58:44.400 --> 00:58:48.320
the the one and it was a flat that was

694
00:58:48.320 --> 00:58:55.119
in the same town where my name lived, no where

695
00:58:55.159 --> 00:58:57.000
my dad lived. My name was gone by that point,

696
00:58:57.079 --> 00:59:00.679
Sorry it was, but that's where my name used to live,

697
00:59:01.039 --> 00:59:03.519
but as it was a town where my dad lives,

698
00:59:05.199 --> 00:59:08.840
and I kind of put that down as one of

699
00:59:08.880 --> 00:59:13.079
my areas on the housing list because I thought maybe

700
00:59:13.199 --> 00:59:17.800
it would be good to be closer to the family,

701
00:59:17.880 --> 00:59:26.960
you know. And I'd had a phone call from them,

702
00:59:27.000 --> 00:59:34.039
probably eight weeks earlier, seven weeks earlier, telling me that

703
00:59:34.079 --> 00:59:35.519
I was at the top of the list for a

704
00:59:35.559 --> 00:59:39.039
flat in that town. But then I didn't hear anything

705
00:59:39.039 --> 00:59:44.480
from them at all. And then I've got another phone

706
00:59:44.480 --> 00:59:47.920
call saying we've got you, We've got you a view

707
00:59:47.960 --> 00:59:50.480
in at this place. So I just figured that the

708
00:59:50.519 --> 00:59:54.159
other one had gone, you know, I didn't realize. I've

709
00:59:54.440 --> 00:59:57.559
figured I was dealing with the same department, same people,

710
00:59:58.320 --> 01:00:00.639
even the same person, I don't know, and the other

711
01:00:00.679 --> 01:00:03.079
place was gone. So I just thought, okay, fair enough,

712
01:00:05.000 --> 01:00:08.280
and I knew that I couldn't. I wasn't in a

713
01:00:08.320 --> 01:00:15.159
position to turn down a property. Really, I was very

714
01:00:15.239 --> 01:00:19.599
lucky to be at the top of the list and

715
01:00:20.119 --> 01:00:21.800
they had a I don't know if they had a

716
01:00:21.880 --> 01:00:24.639
rule at the time. I think it was you were

717
01:00:24.639 --> 01:00:32.360
allowed to turn down two properties but not the third one.

718
01:00:32.519 --> 01:00:35.679
I think that was a rule back then. I might

719
01:00:35.719 --> 01:00:39.239
be wrong. I have no idea what the rule is now,

720
01:00:42.360 --> 01:00:48.000
and so I jumped. I mean, I just couldn't believe

721
01:00:48.039 --> 01:00:51.159
that I was. I was literally being off of a flat.

722
01:00:51.280 --> 01:00:55.679
You know, it's yours. They said to me, you just

723
01:00:55.679 --> 01:00:57.159
got to come and look at it. If you want it,

724
01:00:57.159 --> 01:01:04.320
it's yours. You got first refusal. Now there were other people,

725
01:01:05.159 --> 01:01:08.360
and there was like two other people that were waiting

726
01:01:08.400 --> 01:01:12.440
to see this flat that had appointments after me. Now,

727
01:01:12.440 --> 01:01:15.320
I was never in that position. I never went to

728
01:01:15.360 --> 01:01:18.559
look at a property that I wasn't first in line for.

729
01:01:20.000 --> 01:01:21.920
And this is the only property I ever looked at.

730
01:01:23.960 --> 01:01:29.800
And I'm kind of It's not that I'm glad I

731
01:01:29.840 --> 01:01:34.079
only got to look at one property, but how it

732
01:01:34.239 --> 01:01:36.760
all have been. I wouldn't have enjoyed that process of

733
01:01:38.239 --> 01:01:42.239
It's almost like going for a job interview, isn't It's like, well,

734
01:01:42.280 --> 01:01:44.400
I'm looking at this property, but I might not have it,

735
01:01:44.440 --> 01:01:47.039
and there's two more people ahead of me. Like, no,

736
01:01:48.000 --> 01:01:53.280
I just didn't fancy that. Orthough I did say other

737
01:01:53.320 --> 01:01:56.719
people had turned it down. That's why it was still available.

738
01:01:58.159 --> 01:02:01.000
And I kind of find out found out why when

739
01:02:01.039 --> 01:02:04.880
I when I moved in, why it was I think

740
01:02:04.920 --> 01:02:08.400
people do. They did a little bit of research, maybe

741
01:02:08.559 --> 01:02:10.519
more than I did. I've never even heard of the

742
01:02:10.559 --> 01:02:23.280
place before, so I was just super excited that so

743
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:26.400
last time I was excited. I think I was excited

744
01:02:26.480 --> 01:02:36.760
at just the whole life transforming possibilities of for the

745
01:02:36.800 --> 01:02:43.360
first time, having my own home. And I know I

746
01:02:43.400 --> 01:02:46.760
don't own it, obviously, I don't own a place, but

747
01:02:46.840 --> 01:02:52.039
it is my home. And the only way I can

748
01:02:52.119 --> 01:02:58.519
lose this home is by doing something ridiculously looked really ridiculous. Yeah,

749
01:02:58.760 --> 01:03:01.639
not pay the rent for a long period of time,

750
01:03:02.840 --> 01:03:06.800
or not paid a council tax or you know, I

751
01:03:06.840 --> 01:03:14.760
don't know, I don't know what, but it's pretty much

752
01:03:14.880 --> 01:03:17.000
the lady said to me, it's a home for life

753
01:03:17.159 --> 01:03:24.559
if you want it to be. And I've actually been

754
01:03:24.639 --> 01:03:28.440
here longer than any other property ever in my life,

755
01:03:29.119 --> 01:03:38.079
never lived anywhere for ten years before ever, which you know,

756
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:41.400
if an eight year old said that to you, you

757
01:03:41.559 --> 01:03:49.440
wouldn't be surprised, which I but fifty four first place

758
01:03:49.480 --> 01:03:55.639
I've lived ten years at, so Yeah, it's it's weird,

759
01:03:55.719 --> 01:03:57.599
and I think if you need I don't know if

760
01:03:57.599 --> 01:04:00.559
he likes living here now, I don't know. I've had

761
01:04:00.599 --> 01:04:03.159
him for two years and two and a half years

762
01:04:03.159 --> 01:04:11.800
now does he like it? How would I know? I mean,

763
01:04:11.800 --> 01:04:14.800
he's culded up to my legs. I'm basically on the

764
01:04:14.840 --> 01:04:22.000
recliner and so I've got my legs up and he's

765
01:04:22.199 --> 01:04:28.639
lying to the left of me, and I'm just stroking him,

766
01:04:28.920 --> 01:04:41.360
and he seems very relaxed. I think he's relatively happy.

767
01:04:42.039 --> 01:04:45.320
It's just I think it's just a bit boring for him,

768
01:04:46.519 --> 01:04:51.920
this very little stimulation. Yeah, there's no other dogs for

769
01:04:52.000 --> 01:04:54.280
him to play with. There's no kids for him to

770
01:04:54.280 --> 01:04:56.840
play with. That he would have if he was in

771
01:04:56.880 --> 01:05:00.440
a family, he'd love that. If he was in a

772
01:05:00.440 --> 01:05:05.400
a big family with adults and kids and maybe another dog,

773
01:05:06.440 --> 01:05:10.960
a big guard and I love all that stuff. It's

774
01:05:11.760 --> 01:05:14.760
it just be I think you'd just be happy all

775
01:05:14.760 --> 01:05:22.840
the time. I just don't know. I don't know. I

776
01:05:22.880 --> 01:05:29.440
can't figure him out because there's not one There's not

777
01:05:29.599 --> 01:05:32.480
one ounce of him, not one part of his brain

778
01:05:35.239 --> 01:05:38.599
wants to please me. He does, He's not he doesn't

779
01:05:38.639 --> 01:05:49.519
want to He's not interested at all in doing what

780
01:05:49.599 --> 01:05:56.920
I wanted to do, not one particle. It's all about

781
01:05:57.239 --> 01:05:59.599
he wants to do what he wants to do, and

782
01:05:59.599 --> 01:06:02.480
that's it. And I kind of quite like that in

783
01:06:02.519 --> 01:06:06.079
a way. He just reminds me of Andre, because Andrea

784
01:06:06.239 --> 01:06:09.599
was the same. I was going to say, Andrea was

785
01:06:09.679 --> 01:06:15.159
more affectionate. Not the beginning, he wasn't blind me, but

786
01:06:15.159 --> 01:06:19.599
but then, I mean, in his line here right next

787
01:06:19.639 --> 01:06:21.960
to me, cudt it up to me. So that's kind

788
01:06:21.960 --> 01:06:26.880
of affection, isn't it. Possibly. I mean if he didn't,

789
01:06:26.920 --> 01:06:28.599
if he didn't like me, he wouldn't be doing that.

790
01:06:29.639 --> 01:06:32.079
I just don't know if he likes me. I don't know.

791
01:06:33.559 --> 01:06:37.480
It's a weird thing. It's just strange to think that

792
01:06:37.519 --> 01:06:44.280
he's lived here for two and a half years. It

793
01:06:44.440 --> 01:06:48.280
just seems strange. In two and a half years, I

794
01:06:48.320 --> 01:06:51.519
fell down the stairs and fractured my spine, my spine,

795
01:06:51.639 --> 01:06:55.320
my back. Rather two and a half years ago, that's

796
01:06:55.400 --> 01:07:02.039
ages ago. I remember the opened the door, the front door.

797
01:07:03.239 --> 01:07:05.679
He might think, well, you're open the door every day,

798
01:07:05.679 --> 01:07:08.239
don't you. I said, yeah, But let me finish the story.

799
01:07:09.079 --> 01:07:12.000
I remember the first the day that opened the front door.

800
01:07:12.480 --> 01:07:15.960
My friend from downstairs was standing there his LOGI was

801
01:07:16.000 --> 01:07:19.880
standing there as well, and this tiny little red thing

802
01:07:20.000 --> 01:07:23.559
just ran through my legs and my friend was laughing,

803
01:07:24.039 --> 01:07:30.519
really laughing loudly. What the hell was that? I actually,

804
01:07:30.559 --> 01:07:33.880
for a second I thought he'd got another ferret because

805
01:07:34.159 --> 01:07:38.199
it moved so quick, and it was really little. I mean,

806
01:07:40.559 --> 01:07:42.960
it wasn't much smaller than he is now. At the time,

807
01:07:43.719 --> 01:07:46.599
he was ten months old, so I guess it was

808
01:07:46.639 --> 01:07:48.800
still kind of a puppy, but it was still He's

809
01:07:48.920 --> 01:07:53.320
filled out a bit since then. To give you an example,

810
01:07:53.840 --> 01:07:57.280
the railings in the school. There's a school nearby. He

811
01:07:57.360 --> 01:08:00.239
used to be able to get through those railings run

812
01:08:00.280 --> 01:08:08.079
around the football pitch or well, I didn't actually he

813
01:08:08.079 --> 01:08:10.039
he did that in the past with the neighbor that

814
01:08:10.119 --> 01:08:13.639
had him before. He actually went into the school and

815
01:08:13.760 --> 01:08:16.119
ran around inside the school. The kids loved it, the

816
01:08:16.159 --> 01:08:22.119
teachers weren't so happy. And when I first got him,

817
01:08:23.720 --> 01:08:26.119
I I think I had him after lead because I

818
01:08:26.119 --> 01:08:30.520
thought I could trust him. I was wrong, and I

819
01:08:30.560 --> 01:08:35.079
was checking the ball and the ball went over the

820
01:08:35.079 --> 01:08:40.119
fence of the school, and I'm thinking, oh, that's it.

821
01:08:40.960 --> 01:08:45.760
I mean, technically, I think I'm not sure if this

822
01:08:45.920 --> 01:08:47.880
was it might have been a satur Day, they might

823
01:08:47.880 --> 01:08:49.479
have be an open I don't know, but either way,

824
01:08:50.439 --> 01:08:52.560
I can't climb over that fence. It's just that i'm

825
01:08:52.600 --> 01:08:58.199
not It's not that I'm not from an illegal perspective,

826
01:08:58.680 --> 01:09:00.239
because if it was a set, I wouldn't it. If

827
01:09:00.239 --> 01:09:02.000
the school was open, if it was a satur Day,

828
01:09:03.039 --> 01:09:05.159
I could just zip over and get back and zip

829
01:09:05.199 --> 01:09:09.479
over back again. But my body is not. My body

830
01:09:09.479 --> 01:09:13.279
doesn't go along with that stuff like that. My body's

831
01:09:13.319 --> 01:09:19.119
banned me from jumping over fences ever since. I think

832
01:09:19.159 --> 01:09:21.680
it was about two thousand and nine. The last time

833
01:09:21.720 --> 01:09:27.199
I tried that, I got stuck. I did actually get

834
01:09:27.239 --> 01:09:33.960
stuck on a fence a couple of times in the past,

835
01:09:35.199 --> 01:09:44.560
and there was one time it was weird. Nineteen ninety

836
01:09:44.640 --> 01:09:52.640
four was with Andre. We went for a walk and

837
01:09:53.479 --> 01:09:55.680
I wasn't living out the time, but it's before I

838
01:09:55.720 --> 01:09:58.640
moved into that house where my other friend and his

839
01:09:58.640 --> 01:10:03.439
girlfriend was there and we were all watching Meet the

840
01:10:03.479 --> 01:10:09.720
Feebles and just having a really good time. It was

841
01:10:10.560 --> 01:10:16.720
really nice, probably one of my probably one of my

842
01:10:16.800 --> 01:10:25.840
most enjoyable evenings of the nineties with friends, because I

843
01:10:25.960 --> 01:10:28.399
liked both of those people, both of the blokes, that is,

844
01:10:29.119 --> 01:10:34.600
so Andre his girlfriend and his girlfriend's boyfriend who was

845
01:10:34.640 --> 01:10:38.000
also best friends with Andre, and I ended up being

846
01:10:38.359 --> 01:10:42.359
really really close friends to him as well. So I

847
01:10:42.439 --> 01:10:47.800
ended up living with him twice twice, once twice, no, twice.

848
01:10:49.399 --> 01:10:51.880
So it was such a good environment and it was

849
01:10:52.560 --> 01:10:57.479
really funny. The neighbors kept complaining, now there's someone else

850
01:10:57.560 --> 01:11:01.359
there as well, Yeah, there's someone else there who we

851
01:11:01.680 --> 01:11:06.600
worked with, and we were watching Meet the Feebles, and

852
01:11:06.680 --> 01:11:13.720
it was just I've never seen it before, and in

853
01:11:13.760 --> 01:11:16.680
that circumstances it was even funnier than perhaps it would

854
01:11:16.720 --> 01:11:21.479
have been. The neighbors kept click, kept like knocking on

855
01:11:21.479 --> 01:11:26.399
the door, complaining, and I'm not I'm not a big

856
01:11:26.479 --> 01:11:34.000
fan of being noisy, really, and I really I'll pretty

857
01:11:34.079 --> 01:11:40.760
much do anything to avoid disturbing the neighbors. Unless I'm

858
01:11:40.800 --> 01:11:44.039
on the toilet, then nothing I can do about it.

859
01:11:45.439 --> 01:11:49.960
And the echo, it's hard to hide the echo, isn't it.

860
01:11:51.079 --> 01:11:52.960
I had a girlfriend once we went we was in

861
01:11:53.000 --> 01:11:56.960
a hotel room and she went in and she put

862
01:11:56.960 --> 01:12:02.600
the she put the tap on because she didn't want

863
01:12:02.640 --> 01:12:07.880
me to hear what she was doing, and she left it,

864
01:12:07.920 --> 01:12:09.800
and I went in there. I said, you know, you

865
01:12:09.840 --> 01:12:14.560
turn that tap on to come up, you know. She said, yeah, yes,

866
01:12:14.600 --> 01:12:17.079
it covers up the sound. Said yeah, didn't come up

867
01:12:17.079 --> 01:12:22.880
with the smell though. That sind of ruined the romance

868
01:12:22.920 --> 01:12:26.000
though for that night. Yeah, I should have kept her

869
01:12:26.000 --> 01:12:34.039
mouth shut. So what was I saying? Oh? Yeah, they

870
01:12:34.119 --> 01:12:38.279
kept complaining, But the more they complained, the funnier it got. Honestly,

871
01:12:38.479 --> 01:12:40.439
I'm not like that now, and I wasn't like that

872
01:12:40.479 --> 01:12:43.680
then either. It just I suppose I got caught up

873
01:12:43.720 --> 01:12:47.720
in the moment because I wasn't used to being around

874
01:12:49.439 --> 01:12:55.399
other young people of my own age doing what perhaps

875
01:12:55.439 --> 01:13:00.520
I should have been doing, which was enjoying myself, not

876
01:13:00.600 --> 01:13:05.720
disturbing anyone. But just I don't know how to explain it.

877
01:13:05.760 --> 01:13:09.880
But I'd never done that before. I'd never done it before, Yeah,

878
01:13:09.920 --> 01:13:12.920
before nineteen ninety four. So I let's score ninety six

879
01:13:13.399 --> 01:13:18.640
eighty six. So nineteen ninety four was the first time

880
01:13:18.800 --> 01:13:25.760
I actually sat in a house with friends laughing. I've

881
01:13:25.800 --> 01:13:32.880
never done that up to that point, and just having fun,

882
01:13:33.239 --> 01:13:39.680
just being a young person. Yeah, so it was just

883
01:13:39.760 --> 01:13:43.159
quite a special occasion. I didn't tell them that what

884
01:13:43.319 --> 01:13:49.520
was weird is Andre and another friend, different person. Because

885
01:13:49.600 --> 01:13:51.680
I never had anything to do with anyone I worked

886
01:13:51.720 --> 01:13:55.560
with outside of work. That's my rule. Got want nothing

887
01:13:55.600 --> 01:13:59.880
to do with you. It's just it's like or sometimes

888
01:13:59.880 --> 01:14:03.279
I go to the pub, I would or you know,

889
01:14:03.399 --> 01:14:05.640
something like that, but it wouldn't. I wouldn't. Well, I'd

890
01:14:05.680 --> 01:14:07.479
maybe meet them in the pub, but I would never

891
01:14:08.520 --> 01:14:15.439
generally get involved in their life. And then one day

892
01:14:15.439 --> 01:14:17.880
I'm walking home from work. This is probably ninety four

893
01:14:20.359 --> 01:14:27.880
and eighty four, ninety four, ninety four, and I'm only

894
01:14:28.079 --> 01:14:31.319
in for probably about a minute talking to my landlady

895
01:14:32.119 --> 01:14:37.479
I did there since ninety one. And the doorbell went

896
01:14:38.319 --> 01:14:40.199
and I said, oh, I'll get that. Because she was

897
01:14:41.399 --> 01:14:43.520
she she had she was disabled, so I'd always get

898
01:14:43.520 --> 01:14:50.800
the door for her, if if if she could see me, yeah,

899
01:14:50.800 --> 01:14:54.159
if she couldn't see me, and I'd hide. But you know,

900
01:14:54.199 --> 01:14:56.720
because I don't like to help people, No I did,

901
01:14:56.880 --> 01:14:59.760
I let her answered. I walked towards the door, and

902
01:15:00.119 --> 01:15:06.760
here was giggling. I look for the people. There's Andre,

903
01:15:07.880 --> 01:15:11.319
not my Ferreite, the other the original Andre and the

904
01:15:11.399 --> 01:15:16.439
other fella. They'd followed me from home from from home,

905
01:15:17.039 --> 01:15:20.119
I really said, from school. They've followed me from work,

906
01:15:20.600 --> 01:15:27.119
followed me all the way. I'm not sure it's ninety four,

907
01:15:27.159 --> 01:15:33.800
it's one one year anyway, And they'd followed me because

908
01:15:33.800 --> 01:15:38.920
I wanted to find out where I lived, and I

909
01:15:39.039 --> 01:15:48.880
just felt infringe upon. I felt almost not soiled, but

910
01:15:49.159 --> 01:15:51.600
just it just felt I just didn't like it. The

911
01:15:51.680 --> 01:15:54.640
idea of someone known where I live. I wasn't wasn't

912
01:15:54.680 --> 01:15:59.960
best pleased with that. But yeah, so, but I guess

913
01:16:00.199 --> 01:16:05.039
that was good because it ended up would be ended

914
01:16:05.119 --> 01:16:09.159
up with me being a little bit more open and

915
01:16:09.399 --> 01:16:13.680
spending a bit more, having more of a little bit

916
01:16:13.720 --> 01:16:18.640
more of a social life, because up to that point

917
01:16:18.840 --> 01:16:25.159
my social life involved going to comedy clubs or wanderinger. Well, actually,

918
01:16:25.199 --> 01:16:27.720
isn't a social life if you're on your own, is it? So?

919
01:16:28.479 --> 01:16:30.319
I used to like to go up to the West

920
01:16:30.439 --> 01:16:35.479
End on my own, one of my favorite things, and

921
01:16:35.720 --> 01:16:37.800
often it would be after going to a comedy club,

922
01:16:38.680 --> 01:16:46.039
I go to Leicester Square. Is it Leic'ster Square? Yeah?

923
01:16:46.159 --> 01:16:52.640
Leicester Square, notre File Square. Leicester Square, And well you've

924
01:16:52.640 --> 01:16:55.479
got Covent Garden and Leicester Square. It's all seems to

925
01:16:55.479 --> 01:16:59.680
be within touch and distance. I think I might have

926
01:16:59.680 --> 01:17:02.079
that wrong. But I used to go to Leicester Square

927
01:17:02.239 --> 01:17:06.800
and it was amazing. I loved it. Now everything was open.

928
01:17:07.079 --> 01:17:09.720
You'd be there two in the morning and it looked

929
01:17:09.760 --> 01:17:15.479
like it could be two in the afternoon, you know,

930
01:17:15.760 --> 01:17:22.000
so light, all the lights on, everyone around talking, eating,

931
01:17:23.159 --> 01:17:30.119
you know, chatted. There'd be people taught, like having discussions

932
01:17:30.199 --> 01:17:35.399
about stuff, kind of like Speaker's Corner, but Intravigal Square

933
01:17:35.800 --> 01:17:39.640
in Leicester Square, so I think Speakers Corners in Hyde Park,

934
01:17:41.560 --> 01:17:46.039
but there'd be people discussing religion and discussing philosophy. And

935
01:17:47.520 --> 01:17:54.319
I just found it interested. And for whatever reason it

936
01:17:54.399 --> 01:18:00.279
felt like the safest place ever. Maybe it's it was

937
01:18:00.319 --> 01:18:03.199
so well lit. Maybe because there were so many people there.

938
01:18:04.119 --> 01:18:05.920
I think it gets a point when there's so many

939
01:18:05.960 --> 01:18:11.439
people it almost just feels safe. So it's a weird.

940
01:18:11.760 --> 01:18:13.640
Maybe it's just the way I was at the time.

941
01:18:13.680 --> 01:18:19.560
But it's when it's so many it's a little bit

942
01:18:19.680 --> 01:18:23.439
like I used to live in Upton Park, which is

943
01:18:24.079 --> 01:18:28.159
there used to be west Down Football Ground in that

944
01:18:28.279 --> 01:18:31.840
same road that I lived in. So i'd walk up

945
01:18:31.920 --> 01:18:33.920
one part of the hill towards up the Park train

946
01:18:34.000 --> 01:18:38.560
station and if I caught it wrong, if I caught

947
01:18:38.600 --> 01:18:43.399
the wrong time. I would see thousands and thousands, maybe

948
01:18:43.479 --> 01:18:50.279
ten thousand or more people walking towards me, going to

949
01:18:50.319 --> 01:18:53.319
get onto the trains to go back to where they

950
01:18:53.359 --> 01:18:58.319
came from, you know, wherever, whatever part of London, wherever

951
01:18:58.359 --> 01:19:04.079
they travel from. And it was weird. If they'd been

952
01:19:04.119 --> 01:19:07.319
a couple one hundred people, it probably would have been more,

953
01:19:08.840 --> 01:19:11.880
almost more threatening, if there'd be like forty or fifty

954
01:19:11.880 --> 01:19:17.239
people all standing together walking Because there was thousands and thousands.

955
01:19:19.239 --> 01:19:21.640
The only thing I was concerned about was getting squashed,

956
01:19:23.079 --> 01:19:25.119
like on the train. I mean to try and get

957
01:19:25.159 --> 01:19:27.159
on the train before they got to the train station

958
01:19:27.319 --> 01:19:31.199
so I could just I'd go anywhere just to get

959
01:19:31.239 --> 01:19:36.600
away because it was never good. It was just I

960
01:19:36.640 --> 01:19:42.680
mean generally it was just people singing, but there was

961
01:19:42.800 --> 01:19:45.319
so many of them, so there was no way of

962
01:19:45.359 --> 01:19:48.600
really getting It's quite hard to get a seat and

963
01:19:48.640 --> 01:19:57.960
not be squashed, you know. Ah, those are the days. Irony.

964
01:19:58.279 --> 01:20:00.159
The irony of it is they didn't seem good good

965
01:20:00.159 --> 01:20:05.399
at the time. I look back now and I think, oh,

966
01:20:05.439 --> 01:20:12.399
maybe they weren't too bad. The one good thing about

967
01:20:12.439 --> 01:20:20.319
living in Upton Park was everything was there, supermarkets, there

968
01:20:20.359 --> 01:20:22.920
was a pub opposite the road, opposite where we lived,

969
01:20:23.520 --> 01:20:33.479
there was takeaway's galore, anything you wanted, Chinese takeaway, Indian takeaway, pizzas, kebabs,

970
01:20:33.800 --> 01:20:40.000
chip shops, and literally turned right up the road there

971
01:20:40.079 --> 01:20:46.119
was a Sainsbury's, There was an Iceland everything. There was

972
01:20:47.199 --> 01:20:50.479
a chemist, great little road, and there was a market

973
01:20:50.680 --> 01:20:54.520
just up the road where the like a big old

974
01:20:54.760 --> 01:21:00.359
market area which sold all this stuff that I didn't buy.

975
01:21:01.119 --> 01:21:03.920
It was just, yeah, it's a very interesting place to live.

976
01:21:06.319 --> 01:21:12.279
I didn't live there for a long time, but yeah,

977
01:21:12.319 --> 01:21:20.800
I did live there for a little while. You know what,

978
01:21:20.840 --> 01:21:24.560
it might have been nearly a year, actually, no, would

979
01:21:24.640 --> 01:21:30.880
it be maybe nearly a year? Yeah, wow, because I

980
01:21:30.880 --> 01:21:41.039
think I moved out maybe yeah, maybe a year. That's wow.

981
01:21:41.119 --> 01:21:47.479
I didn't realize that. I'm pretty sure I moved in

982
01:21:47.520 --> 01:21:51.880
about the summer or the end of the summer or

983
01:21:51.920 --> 01:21:56.319
the summer maybe two nineteen ninety six, and I moved

984
01:21:56.359 --> 01:22:12.600
out again in the summer nineteen ninety seven. I don't

985
01:22:12.600 --> 01:22:16.000
know how I got onto that after talking about the iPad,

986
01:22:16.239 --> 01:22:25.079
but the iPad sorted, oh yeah, the flat there isn't

987
01:22:25.119 --> 01:22:27.159
really a subject for this record, And I've got no

988
01:22:27.279 --> 01:22:33.880
idea I'll probably say something about the iPad if my

989
01:22:33.960 --> 01:22:37.000
toes need cut in why is it My toenails don't

990
01:22:37.079 --> 01:22:40.560
grow as quickly as my fingernails. So I had to

991
01:22:40.560 --> 01:22:44.239
cut my fingernails today. And honestly, I think I cut

992
01:22:44.800 --> 01:22:46.840
a week ago or a couple of few days ago.

993
01:22:48.079 --> 01:22:50.800
I might be wrong, and I think that my toe

994
01:22:50.880 --> 01:22:58.000
nails I think that was about January. But that doesn't

995
01:22:58.000 --> 01:23:00.720
sound right because they're not long at all. Just they're not.

996
01:23:00.760 --> 01:23:04.760
They're still short. So maybe I cut them. Oh, don't

997
01:23:04.800 --> 01:23:11.119
tell me. I I sleep tone noll cut. That'd be weird,

998
01:23:11.159 --> 01:23:20.079
wouldn't it cut my toeails in my sleep? No, maybe

999
01:23:20.119 --> 01:23:24.239
I have cut them. They're too short, Like, they're not

1000
01:23:24.319 --> 01:23:29.760
long at all. They're literally some would argue, well maybe

1001
01:23:29.840 --> 01:23:35.159
not many people, but perfect length. They're not talents, They're

1002
01:23:35.199 --> 01:23:40.760
not like massive, they're literally, very very very tidy toenails.

1003
01:23:42.640 --> 01:23:44.520
I must have cut them much, don't remember doing it,

1004
01:23:45.600 --> 01:23:47.680
But to be fair, why I don't want to remember that.

1005
01:23:50.359 --> 01:23:55.520
It's not the most useful memory to keep, is it, really?

1006
01:23:58.239 --> 01:24:02.600
But on that note, I'm not going to go. I am

1007
01:24:02.560 --> 01:24:09.199
I going to go, So thank you for listening. Remember

1008
01:24:10.479 --> 01:24:13.800
to be kind to yourself. Because you do deserve to

1009
01:24:13.840 --> 01:24:18.560
be happy and be gentle with yourself, because you do

1010
01:24:18.720 --> 01:24:37.920
deserve to feel safe, lots of love. Bye, relax in

1011
01:24:37.960 --> 01:24:48.720
a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

1012
01:24:48.880 --> 01:24:57.600
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

1013
01:24:58.560 --> 01:25:06.560
and through out the time we spend together here, not

1014
01:25:07.119 --> 01:25:12.439
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

1015
01:25:12.520 --> 01:25:19.680
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1016
01:25:24.399 --> 01:25:37.239
but also I think it would be nice to have

1017
01:25:37.720 --> 01:25:54.760
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1018
01:25:54.800 --> 01:26:08.279
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1019
01:26:09.159 --> 01:26:18.119
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1020
01:26:24.119 --> 01:26:31.960
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1021
01:26:32.079 --> 01:26:35.560
some people do, and myself as well. I sometimes I

1022
01:26:35.680 --> 01:26:46.239
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1023
01:26:46.319 --> 01:26:51.520
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1024
01:26:51.720 --> 01:27:04.279
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1025
01:27:04.319 --> 01:27:09.840
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1026
01:27:09.920 --> 01:27:14.960
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1027
01:27:17.439 --> 01:27:22.640
and I managed to find it again and it still

1028
01:27:22.720 --> 01:27:28.319
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1029
01:27:28.479 --> 01:27:43.199
was the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful,

1030
01:27:45.319 --> 01:27:51.800
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1031
01:27:51.880 --> 01:28:02.600
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1032
01:28:03.319 --> 01:28:11.800
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1033
01:28:11.840 --> 01:28:20.399
the play button. This is in the days of CD

1034
01:28:20.560 --> 01:28:29.279
players press the play button. I fact, it might have

1035
01:28:29.319 --> 01:28:33.680
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1036
01:28:33.680 --> 01:28:46.560
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1037
01:28:46.720 --> 01:28:59.640
words because I had to memorized. Really, it was as

1038
01:28:59.680 --> 01:29:10.399
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1039
01:29:10.560 --> 01:29:32.600
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1040
01:29:32.720 --> 01:29:46.760
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1041
01:29:46.800 --> 01:29:55.199
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1042
01:29:56.119 --> 01:30:03.960
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1043
01:30:04.000 --> 01:30:08.800
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1044
01:30:08.800 --> 01:30:28.119
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1045
01:30:28.199 --> 01:30:38.520
found being able to just let go, to have that

1046
01:30:38.880 --> 01:30:51.479
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1047
01:30:51.560 --> 01:30:59.840
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1048
01:31:02.560 --> 01:31:09.520
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1049
01:31:15.880 --> 01:31:30.560
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1050
01:31:31.319 --> 01:31:35.359
maybe not solidly. Obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1051
01:31:37.079 --> 01:31:43.600
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1052
01:31:43.720 --> 01:32:00.319
every day. That's something that I do would shum may

1053
01:32:00.399 --> 01:32:21.359
not realize by listening. Is when I record these recordings now,

1054
01:32:21.479 --> 01:32:34.000
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1055
01:32:34.119 --> 01:32:45.680
I say. So if I said to you, focus on

1056
01:32:45.720 --> 01:32:55.560
your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing

1057
01:32:55.640 --> 01:33:10.840
on my feet. I will be noticing my feet relaxing.

1058
01:33:18.079 --> 01:33:24.279
If I said, focus on your hands, and maybe notice

1059
01:33:24.399 --> 01:33:35.920
the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the the air

1060
01:33:36.319 --> 01:33:41.039
in the room, the temperature of the room. On the

1061
01:33:41.079 --> 01:33:52.880
backs of your hands. You may start to notice what

1062
01:33:53.000 --> 01:34:00.439
almost feels like a very light breeze, even though there

1063
01:34:01.119 --> 01:34:06.239
may not be any type of breeze at all where

1064
01:34:06.279 --> 01:34:19.880
you are right now. And as you become aware of

1065
01:34:19.920 --> 01:34:33.239
your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands

1066
01:34:37.239 --> 01:34:59.560
our feeling now. And when it comes to potentially drifting

1067
01:34:59.640 --> 01:35:04.760
off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

1068
01:35:10.479 --> 01:35:25.119
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

1069
01:35:25.239 --> 01:35:43.680
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

1070
01:35:43.720 --> 01:35:58.159
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

1071
01:35:58.199 --> 01:36:09.479
on talking and it's only When I listen back to

1072
01:36:09.760 --> 01:36:18.800
do the editing, I hear snoring, and I think, I

1073
01:36:18.840 --> 01:36:29.520
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was a

1074
01:36:29.680 --> 01:36:35.920
pick turned up. That's why I sound like when I

1075
01:36:36.039 --> 01:36:54.760
snare and I get really into the whole experience. I

1076
01:36:54.800 --> 01:37:04.279
don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel in

1077
01:37:04.319 --> 01:37:29.960
your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands. I

1078
01:37:30.000 --> 01:37:44.239
have noticed more and more that the more relaxed, deeper

1079
01:37:49.279 --> 01:37:59.600
level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1080
01:38:06.199 --> 01:38:22.840
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1081
01:38:22.880 --> 01:38:54.000
you the bree easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1082
01:38:54.239 --> 01:39:23.039
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1083
01:39:23.199 --> 01:40:13.039
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1084
01:40:13.159 --> 01:40:31.520
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1085
01:40:37.520 --> 01:40:50.399
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1086
01:40:50.640 --> 01:41:30.920
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1087
01:41:32.680 --> 01:41:51.640
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1088
01:42:02.920 --> 01:42:35.479
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1089
01:43:00.800 --> 01:43:26.359
Time seems to just drip by so very slowly. Relaxed,

1090
01:43:32.199 --> 01:44:11.359
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1091
01:44:11.520 --> 01:45:20.760
this moment, completely free. Notice that your mind has slowed down.

1092
01:45:24.199 --> 01:46:10.920
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1093
01:46:11.159 --> 01:46:27.279
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

1094
01:46:28.039 --> 01:46:41.960
out of your body, to appear out of every part

1095
01:46:47.840 --> 01:47:06.560
of your body, and being really least from your brain

1096
01:47:11.800 --> 01:47:47.039
in your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your

1097
01:47:47.199 --> 01:48:39.439
legs relax res re so very deeply, relas so deeply,

1098
01:48:57.239 --> 01:49:25.279
And the feedings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1099
01:49:25.319 --> 01:50:07.880
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine,

1100
01:50:08.239 --> 01:50:35.119
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

1101
01:50:35.159 --> 01:51:24.640
your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I all say,

1102
01:51:34.479 --> 01:52:13.760
feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense of peace spreads through

1103
01:52:15.279 --> 01:53:02.159
your very core. Even when you focus on your mind.

1104
01:53:04.960 --> 01:54:15.479
Her mind becomes eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so

1105
01:54:16.079 --> 01:55:29.079
very slow. His stomach, he's fallin's stomach, your back. Notice

1106
01:55:32.279 --> 01:55:50.840
Notice how relaxed you'd never fear in the hole of

1107
01:55:50.840 --> 01:56:23.840
your back. Your spy from your brain all the way

1108
01:56:23.920 --> 01:56:35.319
down the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions

1109
01:56:35.359 --> 01:58:03.680
of messages every day, deecomfort increasing deep playing rit you melegs,

1110
01:58:07.600 --> 01:58:16.880
spreading these signals down a spine or cord into air,

1111
01:58:17.119 --> 01:58:36.560
every part of your body, your chins and your calf, muscles,

1112
01:59:03.760 --> 01:59:33.279
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1113
01:59:38.279 --> 01:59:54.520
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1114
01:59:54.560 --> 02:00:40.319
the way to your lower back. I thinker, re thinker, Please,

1115
02:00:56.119 --> 02:01:11.359
drifting mind just wandering.

1116
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:27.479
Away, happy to let go, let go.

1117
02:01:31.760 --> 02:02:33.199
Completely, let go, so tranquil the whole body, enjoying a sensor,

1118
02:02:57.920 --> 02:04:54.479
lett him go, he no peace fur en joy the space,

1119
02:04:56.840 --> 02:05:02.319
this space of peace.

1120
02:05:05.439 --> 02:05:28.439
And safety.

1121
02:05:29.239 --> 02:07:28.439
So firy fy relaxed, letting go. Maybe we can just

1122
02:07:31.319 --> 02:07:40.159
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1123
02:07:40.439 --> 02:09:09.239
notice a forehead in your eyes uore so loose, noticing

1124
02:09:09.479 --> 02:10:41.800
the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, PRIs pri peace

1125
02:10:42.199 --> 02:12:29.399
for energy, peace to breeze such easier loose. You may

1126
02:12:29.760 --> 02:13:19.119
have or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful

1127
02:13:33.039 --> 02:13:48.279
move ay even more deeply in the direction of total

1128
02:13:52.880 --> 02:15:50.319
blissful peace, blissful peace, arrest, total peace. Come so calm,

1129
02:16:01.680 --> 02:17:03.440
let him go, peace with mind rexed forty so relaxed,

1130
02:17:12.040 --> 02:18:00.399
so relaxed, your body feels almost invisible, so very next,

1131
02:18:03.840 --> 02:19:19.159
I'm peaceful, so peaceful, real, Lika unds base and you

1132
02:19:19.239 --> 02:19:26.440
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1133
02:19:29.399 --> 02:19:39.280
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1134
02:19:40.479 --> 02:19:46.639
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1135
02:19:46.680 --> 02:19:59.520
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1136
02:19:59.600 --> 02:20:07.159
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1137
02:20:07.360 --> 02:20:22.200
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1138
02:20:25.639 --> 02:20:33.600
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1139
02:20:33.680 --> 02:20:41.680
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1140
02:20:41.719 --> 02:20:49.399
break from your life as it is, and to give

1141
02:20:49.440 --> 02:20:57.559
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1142
02:20:57.639 --> 02:21:05.120
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1143
02:21:05.319 --> 02:21:15.799
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1144
02:21:15.840 --> 02:21:25.159
tension and it stresses that you had in your body.

1145
02:21:26.239 --> 02:21:30.159
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1146
02:21:30.440 --> 02:21:42.159
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1147
02:21:42.239 --> 02:21:53.559
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1148
02:21:53.719 --> 02:22:02.959
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1149
02:22:03.040 --> 02:22:20.479
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1150
02:22:22.559 --> 02:22:36.600
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1151
02:22:36.680 --> 02:22:47.000
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1152
02:22:50.559 --> 02:22:59.319
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1153
02:22:59.399 --> 02:23:09.719
long you want to to be just rest and allow

1154
02:23:12.239 --> 02:23:22.239
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1155
02:23:22.920 --> 02:23:38.600
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1156
02:23:38.719 --> 02:23:52.159
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1157
02:23:52.360 --> 02:24:00.639
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1158
02:24:00.719 --> 02:24:11.319
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1159
02:24:11.520 --> 02:24:27.079
other with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1160
02:24:27.239 --> 02:24:33.280
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1161
02:24:33.319 --> 02:24:43.520
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1162
02:24:46.719 --> 02:24:59.879
and to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading through

1163
02:25:00.120 --> 02:25:12.319
out your body. And as I focus on each part

1164
02:25:12.440 --> 02:25:22.159
of your body, you can notice that that part becomes

1165
02:25:24.360 --> 02:25:34.840
even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes

1166
02:25:35.000 --> 02:25:48.159
even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as

1167
02:25:48.200 --> 02:25:56.280
I move down your body, starting at your head, the

1168
02:25:56.399 --> 02:26:02.920
parts that you've already focused on will can continue to

1169
02:26:03.079 --> 02:26:10.719
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1170
02:26:10.760 --> 02:26:24.159
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1171
02:26:24.520 --> 02:26:37.559
of even more comfort. About to come. Now. I'm going

1172
02:26:37.600 --> 02:26:44.559
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1173
02:26:44.840 --> 02:26:53.479
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1174
02:26:55.239 --> 02:27:00.200
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

1175
02:27:00.280 --> 02:27:07.520
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1176
02:27:10.639 --> 02:27:16.040
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1177
02:27:19.440 --> 02:27:25.479
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1178
02:27:26.000 --> 02:27:36.520
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1179
02:27:36.760 --> 02:27:45.120
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1180
02:27:46.840 --> 02:27:55.559
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1181
02:27:56.520 --> 02:28:06.239
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1182
02:28:07.280 --> 02:28:17.000
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1183
02:28:17.040 --> 02:28:23.520
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1184
02:28:23.719 --> 02:28:38.200
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1185
02:28:38.639 --> 02:28:45.280
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1186
02:28:45.399 --> 02:29:00.479
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now

1187
02:29:01.040 --> 02:29:07.879
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1188
02:29:08.040 --> 02:29:12.479
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1189
02:29:12.559 --> 02:29:18.920
up the size of your face to your ears, that

1190
02:29:19.159 --> 02:29:30.680
hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

1191
02:29:34.040 --> 02:29:42.559
And calm.

1192
02:29:42.920 --> 02:29:52.079
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1193
02:29:52.120 --> 02:30:05.159
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1194
02:30:05.239 --> 02:30:10.159
your neck, the right and left side of.

1195
02:30:10.079 --> 02:30:10.799
Your neck.

1196
02:30:13.440 --> 02:30:29.360
Relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1197
02:30:29.399 --> 02:30:42.280
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1198
02:30:42.440 --> 02:30:47.120
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1199
02:30:48.920 --> 02:31:03.000
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and relief that

1200
02:31:03.239 --> 02:31:13.639
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1201
02:31:13.879 --> 02:31:20.680
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1202
02:31:21.760 --> 02:31:26.520
right from the top of your back all the way

1203
02:31:26.680 --> 02:31:39.399
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1204
02:31:39.440 --> 02:31:51.920
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1205
02:31:52.120 --> 02:31:57.760
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1206
02:31:58.760 --> 02:32:13.399
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1207
02:32:13.440 --> 02:32:23.959
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1208
02:32:24.120 --> 02:32:30.799
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1209
02:32:31.600 --> 02:32:37.879
the middle and your lower back. And as you scan

1210
02:32:39.559 --> 02:32:47.399
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1211
02:32:47.520 --> 02:32:53.399
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1212
02:32:57.719 --> 02:33:01.920
The muscles in the middle of your back, okay, also

1213
02:33:03.440 --> 02:33:11.920
seem to just almost divide from each other, separating and

1214
02:33:12.040 --> 02:33:24.879
almost melting, and in your lower back it seems to

1215
02:33:24.879 --> 02:33:38.600
be an extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into

1216
02:33:38.639 --> 02:33:44.520
your hips, so down your lower back, into your hips,

1217
02:33:49.120 --> 02:33:56.360
into the area where your cosis are, and into your buttocks,

1218
02:33:58.399 --> 02:34:07.799
and all those muscles spread from your lower back into

1219
02:34:07.799 --> 02:34:21.440
your hip area, start to melt, start to really let go.

1220
02:34:28.000 --> 02:34:34.799
Don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1221
02:34:34.959 --> 02:34:46.360
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1222
02:34:46.440 --> 02:35:01.360
to relax so calmly, and as your focus on your shoulders,

1223
02:35:03.079 --> 02:35:18.440
you may notice that they're already feeding, really loose, They're

1224
02:35:18.479 --> 02:35:45.200
already feeding calm and feeding those muscles. Then move from

1225
02:35:45.239 --> 02:36:00.799
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1226
02:36:04.879 --> 02:36:33.799
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1227
02:36:33.799 --> 02:36:42.360
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1228
02:36:43.520 --> 02:36:55.040
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1229
02:36:57.879 --> 02:37:07.879
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1230
02:37:10.600 --> 02:37:16.600
relaxing the whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1231
02:37:17.879 --> 02:37:35.680
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1232
02:37:35.879 --> 02:37:56.040
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1233
02:37:56.840 --> 02:38:08.479
into your arms and you may feel almost as if

1234
02:38:08.559 --> 02:38:15.079
your arms are not even there. Because they're so relaxed,

1235
02:38:18.239 --> 02:39:04.079
so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1236
02:38:49.159 --> 02:38:49.319
So.

1237
02:38:55.959 --> 02:39:11.479
Pose, not feeling, spreading all the way down your arms,

1238
02:39:13.760 --> 02:39:44.360
two elbows, including your elbows, circumforts, spreads or away into wrists,

1239
02:39:46.680 --> 02:40:01.799
your forearments and your wrists being so heavy. Yet at

1240
02:40:01.920 --> 02:40:46.120
the same time sunlight and gentle feric sive. Now on

1241
02:40:48.600 --> 02:41:42.239
your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, there's

1242
02:41:42.280 --> 02:42:08.000
a sense of real peace. Just seems to feel so

1243
02:42:08.360 --> 02:42:44.600
familiar when your hands relax deeply. Mhm ees your things.

1244
02:43:16.799 --> 02:44:21.760
A thing is sidles you thing, its tips, Moving your

1245
02:44:21.799 --> 02:44:51.399
attention to the front of your body, so comfortable, moving

1246
02:44:51.639 --> 02:44:53.319
your focus.

1247
02:44:54.520 --> 02:46:16.559
To your legs, a lot musculs.

1248
02:46:17.680 --> 02:47:10.360
In your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, even carve muscles

1249
02:47:11.680 --> 02:49:19.239
and just shins. I puzzy, the four and the faathing

1250
02:49:19.440 --> 02:49:31.159
in your feet. So peaceful, so.

1251
02:49:31.360 --> 02:50:23.520
Calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, syclm.

1252
02:50:27.040 --> 02:51:00.520
So peace for re sin, peace for s come, allowing

1253
02:51:00.600 --> 02:51:07.879
that deep relaxation to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1254
02:51:20.879 --> 02:51:22.360
letting go.

1255
02:51:25.959 --> 02:51:26.639
Everything.

1256
02:51:37.879 --> 02:51:43.920
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1257
02:51:43.959 --> 02:51:52.120
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1258
02:51:52.879 --> 02:51:59.360
just walking down some steps, and each step or twenty steps,

1259
02:51:59.399 --> 02:52:08.760
and each dep represents a level of comfort. Each step

1260
02:52:09.040 --> 02:52:24.600
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

1261
02:52:24.760 --> 02:52:30.159
walk down those steps that the deeper and more relaxed

1262
02:52:30.319 --> 02:53:46.600
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen,

1263
02:54:24.399 --> 03:01:28.799
seventeen sixteen three four four see too well five eight

1264
03:02:34.159 --> 03:13:17.319
nine eight seven u s five four two one. And

1265
03:13:17.399 --> 03:13:34.479
now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1266
03:13:34.559 --> 03:13:46.399
down from ten douts one, focusing just on your eyes,

1267
03:13:50.120 --> 03:13:58.639
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1268
03:14:00.159 --> 03:14:17.200
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1269
03:14:17.239 --> 03:14:25.799
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focusing

1270
03:14:26.040 --> 03:14:41.479
on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each

1271
03:14:41.840 --> 03:14:54.520
number counting down that you may find the all you

1272
03:14:54.559 --> 03:15:03.559
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1273
03:15:03.600 --> 03:15:10.239
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1274
03:15:10.280 --> 03:15:24.760
do that. Now, focus in on your eyes. I'm going

1275
03:15:24.840 --> 03:15:35.000
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1276
03:15:43.399 --> 03:24:41.479
ten nine eight seven y five four three two one.

1277
03:24:47.719 --> 03:25:03.920
So caunt and down from ten to one ten nine

1278
03:25:04.159 --> 03:25:22.280
eight seven six five four three two.

1279
03:25:24.079 --> 03:25:30.680
One.

1280
03:25:31.319 --> 03:25:34.239
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1281
03:25:34.280 --> 03:25:38.280
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1282
03:25:38.520 --> 03:25:48.280
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1283
03:25:48.280 --> 03:25:52.159
little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down from

1284
03:25:52.200 --> 03:25:55.000
ten to one. Would you expect me to do man,

1285
03:25:55.799 --> 03:26:00.639
expect me to stick go floppy just because you're counting down.

1286
03:26:05.959 --> 03:26:10.200
We could try again, but this time I go this lower.

1287
03:26:12.280 --> 03:26:17.159
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1288
03:26:17.200 --> 03:26:25.600
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1289
03:26:25.639 --> 03:26:39.760
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1290
03:26:39.879 --> 03:27:32.440
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1291
03:27:39.799 --> 03:28:31.319
three two one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

1292
03:28:31.680 --> 03:28:46.040
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1293
03:28:46.120 --> 03:28:53.440
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1294
03:28:54.600 --> 03:29:13.079
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1295
03:29:17.760 --> 03:29:23.000
sitting or lying down and just being there, not doing anything,

1296
03:29:23.159 --> 03:29:29.840
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1297
03:29:30.479 --> 03:29:33.520
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1298
03:29:33.559 --> 03:29:44.559
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1299
03:29:44.600 --> 03:29:52.000
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1300
03:29:52.120 --> 03:30:04.520
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1301
03:30:04.639 --> 03:30:18.719
nice feeling and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1302
03:30:18.840 --> 03:30:37.920
or emotionally, moves them away, allows you to just slow down.

1303
03:30:41.479 --> 03:30:44.440
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1304
03:30:44.600 --> 03:30:54.600
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1305
03:30:54.639 --> 03:31:00.959
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into.

1306
03:31:00.639 --> 03:31:01.319
The gap.

1307
03:31:14.479 --> 03:32:22.440
And gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

1308
03:32:40.239 --> 03:33:22.719
Three two.

1309
03:33:15.520 --> 03:33:23.120
One.

1310
03:33:27.639 --> 03:33:31.760
How does your body feel.

1311
03:33:33.639 --> 03:33:45.520
Now?

1312
03:33:46.559 --> 03:33:59.239
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1313
03:34:01.559 --> 03:34:29.040
more relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1314
03:34:29.120 --> 03:34:50.559
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1315
03:35:05.280 --> 03:35:09.319
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be

1316
03:35:09.399 --> 03:35:16.680
doing because I'm sure like most of your body is

1317
03:35:16.719 --> 03:35:28.879
not a lot going on right now. Just focusing on

1318
03:35:28.959 --> 03:35:34.520
the whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs,

1319
03:35:35.159 --> 03:35:40.639
the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs,

1320
03:35:42.000 --> 03:35:47.479
your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole

1321
03:35:47.520 --> 03:35:55.120
of your thigh that leads into your hip and it

1322
03:35:55.159 --> 03:35:57.760
goes down to your.

1323
03:35:59.440 --> 03:35:59.959
Knee. Join.

1324
03:36:05.280 --> 03:36:12.559
Now, this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1325
03:36:13.000 --> 03:36:19.040
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body

1326
03:36:19.719 --> 03:36:34.040
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1327
03:36:36.000 --> 03:36:48.760
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1328
03:36:49.399 --> 03:37:08.760
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1329
03:37:11.399 --> 03:37:24.920
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1330
03:37:25.040 --> 03:37:30.760
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

1331
03:37:30.799 --> 03:37:37.760
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1332
03:37:37.920 --> 03:37:52.399
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement,

1333
03:37:55.079 --> 03:38:04.520
thank you, gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1334
03:38:10.719 --> 03:38:16.360
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1335
03:38:16.360 --> 03:38:19.200
you think, why am I sure? How I should be

1336
03:38:19.239 --> 03:38:24.040
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1337
03:38:28.159 --> 03:38:30.559
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1338
03:38:31.479 --> 03:38:33.760
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1339
03:38:33.760 --> 03:38:37.520
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1340
03:38:37.559 --> 03:38:46.280
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1341
03:38:48.040 --> 03:38:56.000
gaining such an important part, and I think we don't

1342
03:38:56.079 --> 03:39:04.000
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1343
03:39:05.719 --> 03:39:10.840
all that my needs do for me until I have

1344
03:39:10.920 --> 03:39:14.319
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I ever

1345
03:39:15.879 --> 03:39:19.879
maybe i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

1346
03:39:21.559 --> 03:39:27.799
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1347
03:39:27.879 --> 03:39:33.879
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1348
03:39:35.600 --> 03:39:42.879
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1349
03:39:43.040 --> 03:39:51.479
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know, that's comfort.

1350
03:39:55.559 --> 03:40:00.239
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1351
03:40:00.239 --> 03:40:07.760
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1352
03:40:09.280 --> 03:40:11.920
and love to your knees for all that they do

1353
03:40:12.079 --> 03:40:25.120
for you, And you can still have that attention on

1354
03:40:25.200 --> 03:40:31.440
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1355
03:40:31.680 --> 03:40:49.120
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1356
03:40:49.239 --> 03:40:54.600
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1357
03:40:55.360 --> 03:41:01.040
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1358
03:41:01.799 --> 03:41:09.559
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1359
03:41:15.000 --> 03:41:19.639
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1360
03:41:19.760 --> 03:41:26.840
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1361
03:41:26.920 --> 03:41:35.520
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1362
03:41:35.520 --> 03:41:41.159
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1363
03:41:41.319 --> 03:41:44.559
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1364
03:41:45.280 --> 03:41:48.799
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1365
03:41:48.799 --> 03:41:53.760
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1366
03:41:53.760 --> 03:41:59.639
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1367
03:42:06.040 --> 03:42:10.479
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1368
03:42:10.520 --> 03:42:16.680
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1369
03:42:17.600 --> 03:42:27.680
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1370
03:42:28.200 --> 03:42:37.239
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1371
03:42:39.319 --> 03:42:49.079
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1372
03:42:49.559 --> 03:42:58.920
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

1373
03:43:05.239 --> 03:43:13.200
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1374
03:43:13.399 --> 03:43:16.760
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. Didn't seem

1375
03:43:16.760 --> 03:43:21.920
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1376
03:43:22.639 --> 03:43:26.520
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1377
03:43:26.559 --> 03:43:30.719
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1378
03:43:30.760 --> 03:43:42.760
we use our legs, and your shins there to protect

1379
03:43:44.680 --> 03:43:53.360
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

1380
03:43:53.399 --> 03:44:05.799
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1381
03:44:09.040 --> 03:44:15.680
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1382
03:44:15.719 --> 03:44:17.920
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1383
03:44:19.760 --> 03:44:24.440
And I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet,

1384
03:44:24.479 --> 03:44:29.159
it probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should

1385
03:44:29.200 --> 03:44:30.520
focus on your feet.

1386
03:44:30.239 --> 03:44:30.760
A little bit.

1387
03:44:34.760 --> 03:44:39.239
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1388
03:44:39.280 --> 03:44:43.680
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1389
03:44:43.760 --> 03:44:49.719
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, we've

1390
03:44:49.719 --> 03:45:00.319
been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sense station

1391
03:45:00.600 --> 03:45:16.639
of comfort in your thighs in this that movement of energy,

1392
03:45:18.680 --> 03:45:25.760
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1393
03:45:25.799 --> 03:45:30.559
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1394
03:45:30.760 --> 03:45:44.120
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1395
03:45:44.159 --> 03:45:49.520
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1396
03:45:50.280 --> 03:46:01.879
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1397
03:46:08.399 --> 03:46:15.959
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1398
03:46:16.000 --> 03:46:21.280
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all this stuff that's

1399
03:46:21.360 --> 03:46:30.000
inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1400
03:46:30.000 --> 03:46:34.559
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1401
03:46:34.959 --> 03:46:40.159
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1402
03:46:40.399 --> 03:46:43.319
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1403
03:46:43.360 --> 03:46:48.200
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1404
03:46:48.239 --> 03:46:55.280
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, message

1405
03:46:55.319 --> 03:47:04.159
in all the veins, and just gin leap healing your

1406
03:47:04.200 --> 03:47:13.840
thighs and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1407
03:47:15.200 --> 03:47:22.040
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1408
03:47:22.120 --> 03:47:27.959
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1409
03:47:33.280 --> 03:47:36.959
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1410
03:47:37.079 --> 03:47:43.079
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1411
03:47:43.280 --> 03:47:49.319
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1412
03:47:50.559 --> 03:47:54.000
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1413
03:47:54.120 --> 03:48:00.639
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1414
03:48:00.920 --> 03:48:07.879
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1415
03:48:09.639 --> 03:48:20.920
has a sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course,

1416
03:48:20.959 --> 03:48:31.479
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1417
03:48:32.360 --> 03:48:42.719
your fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between

1418
03:48:42.760 --> 03:48:47.840
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1419
03:48:47.840 --> 03:48:58.920
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue you

1420
03:48:58.959 --> 03:49:03.239
can of course feel or the bones of your knees

1421
03:49:04.600 --> 03:49:15.079
healing through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1422
03:49:17.920 --> 03:49:20.760
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1423
03:49:20.799 --> 03:49:25.520
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1424
03:49:26.239 --> 03:49:35.239
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1425
03:49:36.799 --> 03:49:46.760
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1426
03:49:49.879 --> 03:49:56.840
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1427
03:49:57.680 --> 03:50:01.879
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1428
03:50:02.000 --> 03:50:09.239
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1429
03:50:09.319 --> 03:50:12.920
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1430
03:50:12.959 --> 03:50:20.639
of our body, and more precious of any jure on

1431
03:50:20.719 --> 03:50:37.120
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1432
03:50:37.200 --> 03:50:48.319
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1433
03:50:48.479 --> 03:50:55.239
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1434
03:50:55.280 --> 03:51:03.479
idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1435
03:51:03.559 --> 03:51:09.639
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1436
03:51:10.559 --> 03:51:19.399
in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones, and

1437
03:51:19.479 --> 03:51:25.000
to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1438
03:51:27.879 --> 03:51:36.840
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1439
03:51:37.399 --> 03:51:41.159
how much you care for what your legs do for

1440
03:51:41.280 --> 03:51:54.959
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles. The strength

1441
03:51:55.040 --> 03:52:03.120
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1442
03:52:03.239 --> 03:52:09.959
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

1443
03:52:10.079 --> 03:52:26.079
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1444
03:52:26.200 --> 03:52:31.399
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1445
03:52:36.760 --> 03:52:43.719
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1446
03:52:44.879 --> 03:52:49.680
even if you're only eight stone, there's still a lot

1447
03:52:49.719 --> 03:52:52.079
of weight for these little ankles.

1448
03:52:55.639 --> 03:52:56.600
Now I'm a lot.

1449
03:52:56.600 --> 03:53:06.559
Heavier than eight stone double back, Yet my ankles support

1450
03:53:06.639 --> 03:53:14.000
my body all the time, or they do give off

1451
03:53:14.040 --> 03:53:19.479
a sigh of relief when I sit down. I have

1452
03:53:19.600 --> 03:53:28.680
my whole legs do my feet feet also go, my

1453
03:53:28.760 --> 03:53:29.479
toes clap.

1454
03:53:30.639 --> 03:53:48.360
I'm so happy.

1455
03:53:51.159 --> 03:54:00.440
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1456
03:54:00.479 --> 03:54:06.879
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1457
03:54:06.920 --> 03:54:12.520
most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1458
03:54:15.600 --> 03:54:22.120
or boring or not, everything I said is true. Your

1459
03:54:22.200 --> 03:54:42.799
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1460
03:54:42.840 --> 03:54:55.440
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1461
03:54:55.520 --> 03:55:19.200
out of the day to just let go completely. Your

1462
03:55:19.360 --> 03:55:37.200
legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1463
03:55:38.239 --> 03:55:43.040
such a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1464
03:55:44.319 --> 03:55:46.959
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1465
03:55:47.559 --> 03:56:06.360
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1466
03:56:06.440 --> 03:56:11.440
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1467
03:56:14.680 --> 03:56:19.280
and also my lawyer back as well. My lower back

1468
03:56:19.520 --> 03:56:25.079
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1469
03:56:25.120 --> 03:56:31.120
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1470
03:56:31.159 --> 03:56:34.239
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1471
03:56:34.319 --> 03:56:38.319
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1472
03:56:38.440 --> 03:57:03.159
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1473
03:57:03.200 --> 03:57:10.440
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1474
03:57:10.920 --> 03:57:40.719
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1475
03:57:44.920 --> 03:58:03.399
Four three two one.

1476
03:58:03.840 --> 03:58:15.799
Relax. So I'm just going to count down and five

1477
03:58:15.959 --> 03:58:20.200
down to one. And as a countdown, if you just

1478
03:58:20.280 --> 03:58:28.120
focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and

1479
03:58:28.280 --> 03:58:37.520
notice how you feel in this moment as you hear

1480
03:58:37.559 --> 03:58:45.200
the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting down

1481
03:58:45.319 --> 03:58:55.440
represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but

1482
03:58:55.479 --> 03:59:03.600
also relaxing your mind. I just notice how you feel.

1483
03:59:04.520 --> 03:59:10.520
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1484
03:59:10.559 --> 04:00:02.159
to think about, starting with number five, four three two one.

1485
04:00:03.040 --> 04:00:14.879
And as you notice the gradual letting go that the

1486
04:00:15.040 --> 04:00:22.680
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1487
04:00:22.760 --> 04:00:31.280
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1488
04:00:31.319 --> 04:00:38.000
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1489
04:00:40.559 --> 04:00:45.760
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1490
04:00:45.799 --> 04:00:51.760
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

1491
04:00:53.319 --> 04:00:57.000
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1492
04:00:57.079 --> 04:01:09.680
It's just a continuous of relaxation, and there's that calmness

1493
04:01:09.719 --> 04:01:16.879
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1494
04:01:16.920 --> 04:01:24.479
there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still going

1495
04:01:24.559 --> 04:01:29.639
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1496
04:01:29.719 --> 04:01:34.920
television on, there's no music in the background unless you're

1497
04:01:34.920 --> 04:01:42.520
listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're very

1498
04:01:42.680 --> 04:01:44.600
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1499
04:01:44.680 --> 04:01:49.479
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1500
04:01:50.159 --> 04:01:53.879
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1501
04:01:54.079 --> 04:02:04.280
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1502
04:02:10.760 --> 04:02:21.040
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1503
04:02:25.520 --> 04:02:32.280
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1504
04:02:32.600 --> 04:02:44.399
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1505
04:02:44.520 --> 04:02:55.520
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense

1506
04:02:55.600 --> 04:03:02.440
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1507
04:03:02.719 --> 04:03:06.639
into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1508
04:03:09.280 --> 04:03:18.639
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1509
04:03:19.040 --> 04:03:30.440
of this recording and others is simply two allow you

1510
04:03:32.639 --> 04:03:43.559
to take advantage of this space, this time, to just

1511
04:03:47.639 --> 04:03:58.360
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1512
04:03:58.920 --> 04:04:11.040
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1513
04:04:11.280 --> 04:04:23.399
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1514
04:04:23.639 --> 04:04:29.879
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1515
04:04:30.000 --> 04:04:46.159
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1516
04:04:46.239 --> 04:04:51.040
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1517
04:04:51.079 --> 04:04:59.280
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1518
04:04:59.559 --> 04:05:21.159
do you because the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1519
04:05:21.239 --> 04:05:29.680
can also if you choose, stay focused on my voice

1520
04:05:30.040 --> 04:06:01.600
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1521
04:06:01.639 --> 04:06:29.000
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1522
04:06:29.120 --> 04:06:44.239
go completely. This time, I'm go an to count from

1523
04:06:44.440 --> 04:06:54.639
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

1524
04:06:57.239 --> 04:07:10.680
calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1525
04:07:11.719 --> 04:09:24.280
feeling calm and slow and peaceful, six, five, four, three,

1526
04:09:24.280 --> 04:10:21.040
two four, being aware of how your mind to slowed,

1527
04:10:23.159 --> 04:10:49.680
write down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

1528
04:10:49.799 --> 04:10:58.120
on your mind, you may notice that there are some

1529
04:10:59.040 --> 04:11:09.079
thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason,

1530
04:11:12.159 --> 04:11:22.159
perhaps need your attention. So what you can do is

1531
04:11:27.520 --> 04:11:40.040
send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

1532
04:11:41.760 --> 04:11:47.159
like a petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1533
04:11:47.440 --> 04:11:54.639
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1534
04:11:54.799 --> 04:12:01.360
thoughts know that you're not abandon in them. You just

1535
04:12:01.719 --> 04:12:02.280
need them.

1536
04:12:03.440 --> 04:12:16.120
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1537
04:12:19.079 --> 04:12:30.920
For now. So as you focus on those remaining thoughts,

1538
04:12:32.079 --> 04:12:37.479
as we count down this time from seven down to one.

1539
04:12:37.719 --> 04:12:51.879
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1540
04:12:53.399 --> 04:13:05.319
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1541
04:13:06.680 --> 04:13:21.760
melt away and relax deeply. Of every number, fose thoughts

1542
04:13:21.840 --> 04:14:30.600
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1543
04:14:56.399 --> 04:16:18.879
three one. And as you now notice how relaxed your feeling.

1544
04:16:22.040 --> 04:16:31.760
In your body, we're going.

1545
04:16:31.719 --> 04:16:45.479
To focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1546
04:16:45.600 --> 04:16:53.799
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1547
04:17:07.440 --> 04:17:13.639
And there's you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1548
04:17:19.000 --> 04:17:23.760
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

1549
04:17:24.079 --> 04:17:36.040
fists or dancing the fingers or anything like that. It's

1550
04:17:36.280 --> 04:17:50.879
just noticing and focusing on your hands. Noticing how they feel,

1551
04:18:05.520 --> 04:18:16.120
because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1552
04:18:16.200 --> 04:18:28.120
mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1553
04:18:33.319 --> 04:18:37.200
And you may.

1554
04:18:39.440 --> 04:19:21.959
Have already noticed your mind is starting to drest ma

1555
04:19:22.280 --> 04:19:37.319
sense just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

1556
04:19:39.760 --> 04:19:51.319
experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1557
04:19:51.360 --> 04:20:17.440
and fingers, more and more relaxed with each number from

1558
04:20:17.600 --> 04:20:31.000
eight down to one. You can almost feel that healing

1559
04:20:32.399 --> 04:20:44.319
and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming

1560
04:20:48.799 --> 04:21:07.680
year more relaxing with each number, year going down from

1561
04:21:07.719 --> 04:21:38.760
eight down to one, drifting, drifting again starting with number eight.

1562
04:22:16.120 --> 04:23:46.239
Seven, six y four.

1563
04:24:05.559 --> 04:25:34.559
Three, just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

1564
04:25:34.639 --> 04:25:45.799
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1565
04:25:50.239 --> 04:25:57.760
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1566
04:25:57.959 --> 04:26:04.639
how you just normal feel when you take away all

1567
04:26:04.680 --> 04:26:11.639
of that other stuff that we add, you know, things

1568
04:26:11.719 --> 04:26:27.879
like stress and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally

1569
04:26:28.079 --> 04:26:34.280
thinking about stuff. You take that away, which is what

1570
04:26:34.319 --> 04:26:34.760
we do.

1571
04:26:35.360 --> 04:26:36.520
What we do now.

1572
04:26:42.639 --> 04:26:53.959
You're left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes

1573
04:26:54.040 --> 04:27:01.200
to you very quickly, because I would some relique is

1574
04:27:01.440 --> 04:27:15.079
just a feeling a feeling of comfort, almost as if

1575
04:27:15.120 --> 04:27:19.520
you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special place

1576
04:27:20.879 --> 04:27:33.319
where everything is peaceful, a place where you can feel

1577
04:27:34.520 --> 04:27:43.959
relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place where

1578
04:27:44.000 --> 04:27:53.520
you can be you, where you can accept yourself for

1579
04:27:53.680 --> 04:28:00.799
who you are, the place where you're not trying to

1580
04:28:00.959 --> 04:28:11.200
please anybody else ever, a place where you can actually

1581
04:28:14.520 --> 04:28:19.479
not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1582
04:28:20.079 --> 04:28:37.200
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1583
04:28:37.239 --> 04:28:50.959
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1584
04:28:51.040 --> 04:28:59.399
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1585
04:28:59.799 --> 04:29:14.879
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

1586
04:29:19.799 --> 04:29:28.719
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1587
04:29:29.079 --> 04:29:41.120
each and every single part of your body, and you

1588
04:29:41.239 --> 04:29:48.200
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

1589
04:29:48.479 --> 04:29:50.120
just entered into your.

1590
04:29:49.959 --> 04:30:01.200
Brain, it's become part of your brain, and.

1591
04:30:01.040 --> 04:30:13.000
The spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not

1592
04:30:13.200 --> 04:30:21.159
just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and

1593
04:30:21.440 --> 04:30:33.959
healthy in this moment, but also you start to realize

1594
04:30:34.159 --> 04:30:44.120
that actually, what's happening now with that healing, relaxing energy

1595
04:30:45.040 --> 04:30:57.040
spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life. It's

1596
04:30:57.079 --> 04:31:02.760
actually changing the way you're going to feel, not just now,

1597
04:31:04.399 --> 04:31:14.799
but tomorrow and the next day. There's your health improves,

1598
04:31:14.799 --> 04:31:22.360
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1599
04:31:22.559 --> 04:31:27.799
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1600
04:31:29.000 --> 04:31:36.559
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1601
04:31:36.680 --> 04:31:48.319
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1602
04:31:48.399 --> 04:31:59.000
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1603
04:31:59.680 --> 04:32:07.639
power were to control you the way they seem to

1604
04:32:07.680 --> 04:32:16.600
be able to before. As you realize that you're the

1605
04:32:16.680 --> 04:32:30.040
one who decides what affects you, You're the one who

1606
04:32:30.120 --> 04:32:36.040
decides to feel relaxed.

1607
04:32:36.200 --> 04:32:38.920
And calm when.

1608
04:32:39.559 --> 04:32:40.719
You choose.

1609
04:32:43.840 --> 04:32:58.360
To enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to

1610
04:32:58.520 --> 04:33:12.959
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

1611
04:33:13.000 --> 04:33:25.799
your ability to relax so much easier and sleep in.

1612
04:33:30.360 --> 04:33:36.040
It's the most natural thing in the world to you,

1613
04:33:40.520 --> 04:33:43.919
because falling asleep is something that you've.

1614
04:33:43.840 --> 04:33:48.759
Done so many times.

1615
04:33:50.080 --> 04:33:55.680
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1616
04:33:57.200 --> 04:33:59.599
as we all were, with the.

1617
04:33:59.639 --> 04:34:12.159
Ab to fall asleep naturally. You're born with that ability

1618
04:34:15.159 --> 04:34:29.400
to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

1619
04:34:29.479 --> 04:34:34.200
when we're kids sometimes will fall asleep and we don't

1620
04:34:34.240 --> 04:34:40.200
even want to try and take us stay awake. Maybe

1621
04:34:40.319 --> 04:34:43.639
it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or

1622
04:34:44.479 --> 04:34:47.560
holiday or something we look forward to. We don't want

1623
04:34:47.599 --> 04:34:52.119
to go to sleep, But the more we want to

1624
04:34:52.200 --> 04:35:01.439
stay awake, the more we just start to drift. And

1625
04:35:01.599 --> 04:35:05.520
the more you fights drifting, the more you try to

1626
04:35:05.639 --> 04:35:10.599
stop yourself and drift in a safe the deeper and

1627
04:35:10.840 --> 04:35:22.400
stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

1628
04:35:22.599 --> 04:35:29.040
the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

1629
04:35:32.279 --> 04:35:45.599
but it's our birthright as part of our DNA, and

1630
04:35:45.840 --> 04:35:51.319
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1631
04:35:52.240 --> 04:36:05.200
we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a

1632
04:36:05.479 --> 04:36:29.720
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

1633
04:36:30.240 --> 04:36:35.720
easy to let go, because that's all it is.

1634
04:36:35.880 --> 04:36:36.360
It's just.

1635
04:36:39.880 --> 04:36:51.319
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1636
04:36:51.439 --> 04:36:59.599
button on my recordings, you have given permission.

1637
04:37:01.400 --> 04:37:02.560
For my voice.

1638
04:37:03.880 --> 04:37:11.279
To relax you. When you press that play button, you've

1639
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given me permission for my words to effect you in

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a positive, only a positive way. Opening up your mind

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too useful and healing suggestions that can have such an

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amazing effect on how you feel right now as well

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as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

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those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

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04:38:40.560 --> 04:38:54.279
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

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04:38:54.880 --> 04:39:01.520
to move forward in your life the direge that you

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04:39:01.880 --> 04:39:18.880
choose for yourself and this feeling, this feeling that you

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can experience of safety, comfort, calmness. This feels so nice.

1649
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It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1650
04:39:58.319 --> 04:40:17.279
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1651
04:40:17.479 --> 04:40:28.279
had to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1652
04:40:28.400 --> 04:40:37.200
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

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04:40:37.400 --> 04:40:43.080
thinking slower, it's just that your mind would be less

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04:40:43.759 --> 04:40:54.560
not locked up with unnecessary negativity, because from now on,

1655
04:40:55.279 --> 04:41:04.919
your mind rejects negativity. For now on, you're going to

1656
04:41:05.080 --> 04:41:21.959
start noticing when negativity arises. You can just say stop, stop,

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04:41:24.840 --> 04:41:31.560
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

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Stop and that negativity will disappear. And that you notice

1659
04:41:59.200 --> 04:42:07.520
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1660
04:42:13.680 --> 04:42:23.240
You can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

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04:42:23.360 --> 04:42:29.479
has done this. You are the one that has opened

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04:42:29.720 --> 04:42:38.200
your mind up to the simple facts. You can feel

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04:42:39.080 --> 04:42:41.119
more relaxed in your body.

1664
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And in your mind.

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You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

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04:42:54.639 --> 04:43:11.479
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

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that's a nice feeling.

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Don't you think.

1669
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Feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? For the healing

1670
04:43:27.599 --> 04:43:38.080
energy is spreading through your body in your mind to

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04:43:38.159 --> 04:43:48.880
spend time in a special place where negativity can no

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04:43:49.080 --> 04:44:02.159
longer enter. Negativity is bad, it's barred, it's not allowed

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Entryue doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't

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belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

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04:44:28.479 --> 04:44:43.240
makes room for more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace.

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04:45:00.319 --> 04:45:01.639
Who's nice? Doesn't it?

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04:45:03.479 --> 04:45:07.680
Just to let go.

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Everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty.

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04:45:29.279 --> 04:45:30.000
Down to one.

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He can continue to relax if you choose, you can't

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04:45:43.080 --> 04:45:53.599
career to sleep with define number you hear me say

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04:45:57.919 --> 04:46:05.479
you can feel twice is relaxed, or you choose you

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04:46:05.599 --> 04:47:24.759
can fill twice a sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, moreten, tirteen.

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To well eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

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Five one.

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It is your time.

1687
04:49:14.040 --> 04:49:20.840
Let's just take a break, your time to.

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04:49:23.639 --> 04:49:39.959
Relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to give

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04:49:40.080 --> 04:49:40.840
yourself a.

1690
04:49:40.880 --> 04:49:47.919
Permission to take a break.

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From everything until the only person.

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04:50:00.080 --> 04:50:06.639
So I can make that decision. You're the only person

1693
04:50:06.799 --> 04:50:08.639
that can actually tell your mind.

1694
04:50:13.560 --> 04:50:14.919
Just reacts.

1695
04:50:22.560 --> 04:50:27.919
To just take some time.

1696
04:50:29.599 --> 04:50:40.479
Off so that you can focus on your body.

1697
04:50:41.119 --> 04:50:45.000
Getting in touch with how you feel.

1698
04:50:46.439 --> 04:51:02.040
Physically and in the process on this body scan where

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you focus on different parts of your body, those parts

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04:51:13.439 --> 04:51:19.759
and you focus on and observe it, even though you're

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04:51:19.840 --> 04:51:24.560
not purposely bequesting.

1702
04:51:26.119 --> 04:51:31.400
For those parts of your body to relax, it's kind

1703
04:51:31.439 --> 04:51:37.919
of expected you expect when you listen to it was

1704
04:51:38.880 --> 04:51:50.919
to feel or words naturally, because when you're listening to me,

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04:51:54.080 --> 04:51:55.119
your attention.

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04:51:57.000 --> 04:51:58.240
Is focused.

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On my words.

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04:52:05.479 --> 04:52:06.479
There's my words.

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I you.

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The focus.

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04:52:15.639 --> 04:52:17.639
On those parts of your body.

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04:52:21.479 --> 04:52:23.959
Your focus increases.

1713
04:52:30.319 --> 04:52:46.639
It. Thank you, arms your mind and you mind charms down.

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Your body.

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04:52:54.400 --> 04:53:27.040
Lexis down, calms down, your mind relaxes. Indeed, though not

1716
04:53:27.360 --> 04:53:42.799
really started to focus on your body already feel thank

1717
04:53:43.040 --> 04:53:56.319
you the energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress.

1718
04:53:57.479 --> 04:54:02.360
Intention He.

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Who thought skin would you want in such a woody.

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The muscles wo that everything it can But still on

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04:54:42.319 --> 04:54:58.000
the plane still de.

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Station deep.

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Wait, stop, stop, stop.

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Sweet, set.

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Still.

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The station Street