Aug. 23, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Good Morning | LMBYTS #1420 | Jason Newland | 23rd August 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Good Morning | LMBYTS #1420 | Jason Newland | 23rd August 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Chase

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Newland and this is let me bore you to sleep.

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Please only listen when you can faifly close your eze.

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They they so today. I don't know what that was about. Sorry.

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Today is Saturday, the twenty third, I think twenty third,

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twenty third, eighteen nineteen twenty third, twenty four. I can

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work it out by doing something else on my birthdays

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on Tuesday, and that's the twenty six So it's Saturday,

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twenty third, twenty fourth, twenty fifth, twenty sixth year. So

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happy birthday to me, Hair birthday to me. So yeah, yeah,

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it's my birthday Tuesday. I'm just reminding everyone. I don't

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know why, you know, I shouldn't really keep mentioning it

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because I'm I'm scared of the flood of cards and gifts.

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I'm going to get, oh overwhelming all in cards. I

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won't be able to get out of my front door.

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There'd be so many cards. The whole of the my

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whole street will be blocked off with all those cards.

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I think these days I get about three cards cards,

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two cards max for my birthday these days, maybe three.

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I always get one from my dad. Usually get one

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from me brother, and usually I mean yeah, sometimes I don't,

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but generally I get one from him, and that's it. Yeah,

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that's the only guarantees. Sometimes I get one from me

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have a brother and we have a sister, but I

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always get one from me dad. That's the only guaranteed

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card I get for my birthday.

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Mm hmmm, rare.

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Yeah, what did I dream about last night?

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It's really weird?

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Cool it last night because it was just now really,

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because I've only just got out of bed. It's what's

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the time, it's one minute past seven. I've been up

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about eighteen minutes, i'd say the most, probably about fifteen

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sixteen minutes, long enough to do a whiz and take

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me tablet. And that was it. And then I got

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up and read through an email I got from Cleo, Cleo,

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Chloe Cleo. And here I am sitting on my sofa

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talking again out very little, very overcast today, very overcast.

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It's weird. Yesterday was a weird one. The heating came on.

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It was chilly in here inside, it was cold inside outside,

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absolutely fine, weird. It shouldn't be colder inside. I know,

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It's just it. Maybe it's because of the shelter. When

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I was outside there was some sun, well though it

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was mainly cloudy, so there wasn't really a lot of sun.

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But here there's a massive tree that kind of blocks

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most of the sun and the light from getting in.

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So maybe that's what is But and it feels quite.

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It feels very cool in here now. Yeah, it's weird.

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This is strange. Can be warmer outside than inside. But

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there's no sound inside, is there? No? But what did

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I dream about during the night? What did what did I?

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What did I? What did I? I can't remember? Let

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me just think. Yeah, it's I can't tell you all

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my dreams because some of them are just too weird

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and occasionally erotic, and I'm not going to talk about them. Okay,

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Well what happened was this? I'll tell you then if

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you want. I met a lady in my dreams.

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She let me.

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Hold her hand, and yeah, that was it, and I

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was done for and it was I couldn't control myself

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and I had to apologize. She said, why you apologize?

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And I said, because I'm not going to be any

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use if you want to take me home and make

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passionate love. And she said, why did you think I

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wanted to take you home and make passionate love. I said,

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oh no, I messed up another relationship and she said,

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this isn't a relationship. I said, but holding my hand,

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she said, I'm a paramedic. I'm helping you up before

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you fell over. Oh oh, world, go with that one.

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None of that happened. No, what did I dream? Did

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I dream? What did A dream? I didn't dream about

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those places that I lived, because I've got this whole

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little dream world where it's weird because I'm living in

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one place, but I have my own place, which is

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a council place. But I don't like that place because

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it's it's shared. You can you know, there's so else

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is living in the same place. But in reality, I

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actually had my own flat, which is a proper council one.

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It was just weird. This that the whole scenario that

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just replays itself. Oh I know what I did. I

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went back working in one of my jobs I used

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to have in a factory, and I was back there.

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It does make me think, though, because I was like

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in my early twenties, so it's thirty years ago, and

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I think about people that I used to work with.

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And I'm pretty sure Terry was in his forties, so

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it will be like an old man now, and people

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that were in their fifties, which was a few, they

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might alfur. For example, he might not be around anymore.

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I'll tell you one of the funniest I've talked about

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this before, but one of the funniest men I ever

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met was in this factory and he was a temp,

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just a temporary, and he did. He came in and

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we worked together and it was funny. It's really chilled out.

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And he was in his fifties, probably fifty five man,

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and by age BlimE me, yeah, wow, I'm talking about him.

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Being fifty five is like really old. And I just

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realized that's what I'm going to be in a few days,

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like really old. And I don't think I no, no,

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fifty five is not old. I just realized. Anyway, this bloke,

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he's a big, big bloke, like big strong man. He

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looked a little bit like he clearly had a bit

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of a past the way he talked and the way

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he moved, and there was a certain confidence there and

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he was so funny and he knew Arthur. So Uncle

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Arthur was the he was, they had to explain Uncle

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Arthur without making him sound like a complete knob. I

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don't know, because I got on well with him, but

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I didn't even I didn't as well. I got really

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badly with him, but I would also sometimes we would

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see each other out and we'd have a drink together,

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and we got on perfectly, but in work we didn't

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for some weird reason. So we'd en up shout at

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each other. And he became a supervisor and I used

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to make just laugh at him, and because we were

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the same level. In nineteen eighty nine, because I moved

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to London for and I was I there October November,

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December January February March, so I was there for six

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months from eighty nine to ninety six months where I

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was just living in a room in London. That was

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kind of still my favorite period of being in London, though,

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because it was all new. I didn't know anybody didn't.

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Everything was kind of fresh. Even the air felt fresh,

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which it wasn't because I was in London. The year

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has never been fresh in London. I think you'd have

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to go quite high up. Yeah, you have to fly

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into the sky, fly into the sky, you know how

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it feels. Yeah, that was quite a nice period. It

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was a bit a bit boring, I'll be honest. It

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was a bit boring. So I didn't have hardly any money,

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so I couldn't really enjoy the experience of being in London.

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I mean, there are stuff, there are things you can

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do in London that well they used to be free.

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I don't know if they are now, but you know,

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things like the museums and stuff standing outside the houses

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of I was at the Palace going to some Sometimes

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there's concerts and stuff in Hyde Park and also go

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into the park. You know, there's lots of places. There

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are places you can go which doesn't cost you money

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other than the travel to get there and back. Then

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traveling on the tube was really really cheap. The rent

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was really really cheap. It you know, it wasn't really

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because I lived in a little town before that and

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the rent was about thirty pounds a week. I went

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there and it was about about forty pounds a week,

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thirty five pounds a week. There wasn't a lot of difference.

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It was very kind of similar, kind of maybe a

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little bit more, but not a lot more. I'm pretty sure,

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I'd didn't pay forty pounds a week, probably at thirty

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pound thirty five pound, so it's relatively similar. But now

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it's night and day. It's a completely it's not it's

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daytime now. But let's not be literal. It's absolutely like

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it's yeah, I couldn't. I couldn't live in London now.

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I wouldn't be able to afford to even rent a room,

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even if I was working. It'd be yeah, it's just wouldn't.

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I wouldn't be able to do it, sort of moving

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from here to there, which is ironic because I'm in

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Essex and moving to Essex was a step up for

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people living in London. It used to be it often

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was the goal to move out of London and to

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move to South End or to Romford or to Hainal,

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or to Colchester or to Chelmsford or to I don't know,

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there's so many different Essex is one of the biggest

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counties in the country, so it's a huge area in

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you know, in comparison to the UK, to it to England.

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I say huge area. I mean, I'm sure people in

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America travel. It's that's that's some people travel, maybe that far.

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Just to get to the shops, going all the way.

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You know, it's it's amazing that some people will travel

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like two hours to get to work and that's just

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standard two hours to get it to the other side

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of the country. Here, tiny little place. I'm surprised we

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were ever discovered. Honestly, it's like it must have been

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people living here. I reckon this country, this this plot

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of land should record. It was left undisturbed for a

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long long time because it's so out of the way.

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Did you know that I think it's Isle of Man

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they used to put prison German prisoners of wars, like

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during the Second World War they used to put prisoners

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of war on the Isle of Man. Was the island

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Isle of Wight and one of those. So wow, I

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don't know why, I just something. I saw the documentary

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the other day and I thought it was interesting, and

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I thought I mentioned that when the when the right

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conversation or the right topic arises, I'll just checked that

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in as a fact and that will help me contribute

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towards the conversation. And I don't know, I just feel

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more more a part of society, like I contributed something

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to the ongoing dialogue about world War two, but havn't

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said it. I just realized that it was kind of

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a bit out of place, really, wasn't. It didn't really

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fit in with what I was already talking about. But

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then I think, in what was I talking about? And

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then I remember I was talking about the bloke I met,

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what was his name, Ray? His name was Ray.

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Weird.

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I probably can remember him because of the name of

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Ray Winston, and he reminds me. He was kind of

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like Ray Winston's size build, very stocky, strong body. You know,

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it even looked a bit like Ray Winston. But this

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is before Ray Winston was not before he was a star,

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because he was a staff from the seventies. He was

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in a movie called Borstal, but he wasn't like a

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big star the way he is Ray Winston. Tell one

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of my favorite movie stars English ones was Bob Hoskins,

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and I can't believe that he just when he left

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the planet, it wasn't an astronaut. When he left the planet.

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It was almost like, oh, okay, nothing, And I don't know,

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it's just to me, there was something so lovely about

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him on screen. I know, you played a gangster and

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not all his roles were nice and cuddly, but it

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was something like he was like a tough guy but

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at the same time gentle and loving and passionate. And

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it's almost like, you know, you knew that if he

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was looking after you, he keeps you safe, but it

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also keep you nice and comfortable as well. What I'm

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talking about, I don't know. I got no idea. I

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don't know. It just seemed like you protect you Bob.

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I thought Bob was lovely and Bob Hoskins right back

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to Ray. So Ray, I tell this room I had

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at the time. Oh no, what am I talking? I'm

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now just remembering the room I lived in back in

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nineteen eighty nine, because Ray was a few years later

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than that. But this room I lived in, and.

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There was.

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Oh, they must have moved out, because yeah, so downstairs

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was two girls or two females were down there and

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they were, yeah, they're both seemed to be really close

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friends and they were at University of East London, I think.

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And then upstairs there was me. There must have been

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three rooms upstairs, because there wouldn't just be two rooms

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with that. Possibly, I don't know. Seems a bit strange though,

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sure that there'd been more than four rooms to rent

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in a house. Maybe not, but there was my room.

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So if you go to the top of the stairs

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or whatever, I was up there somewhere, turn right, turn left,

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and then I was able to sit on the window sill. Yeah,

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it was. There was enough room to sit out on

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the window sill. And you know, not in the winter,

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but in the springtime as it's sort of you know,

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between the because you know, I was listening to radio

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last night and someone was moaning, saying, all, it's now

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going into autumn, and it will be winter before we

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know it. And we mean, yeah, but it will be

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winter before we know it, but will also be spring

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before we know it, and also be summer again before

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we know it. So, you know, time time is. It

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doesn't feel like time is going fast in the moment necessarily.

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I mean, I've I think some people find time goes

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very slowly when I'm talking to them. I watched sometimes

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I talk I've got this my friend's husband, and I'll

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talk and he'sy yawning and his eyes are closing, and

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I'm sure that half an hour hour seemed like probably

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four or five hours for him.

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Hm hmm.

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It's I've been doing that to people for years, talking

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and watching them trying to hold in a yawn. I

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don't think it's always it's not always the my the

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subject matter, but it might be. But I'm not sure.

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But I'm thinking that I don't necessarily always have the

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most interesting voice. Possibly the most exciting, not interesting, that

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wouldn't be word, because I think I'm I'm relatively now,

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I'm quite exciting. I excite myself. Oh, I don't know

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what that means. Do you mean you excite yourself? I

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don't know. You're gonna tell us about Ray. You started

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telling us about Ray and then you just stopped. Okay, Ray.

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So we were just we worked together a couple of days.

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It might have just been one day to be fair,

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like a Friday, and we got on really well. And

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he said, oh, George, you're gonna come to the pub.

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And normally I'd say no, because normally I just didn't

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really have any money to go out. But for some

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reason I thought, yeah, So we went to the pub.

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We went to this Irish pub which was it was

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around the corner from where I lived. Now, yeah, I'm

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just trying to think, all right, Yeah, I'm trying to

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place where we worked, so I. So we went into

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this pub and we're just sitting there, remember which we

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were sitting one side of it, of the bar, because

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the bar went all the way around, so it was

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quite quite a big bar. And we were just chatting

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and he was telling me stories about Arthur. He he

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knew Arthur, who was the supervisor and my arch enemy

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at work. Ray I think had gone to school with Arthur,

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so we'd known him forever. And he just went on

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and just told me about Arthur, told me all lots

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of things about him that he got up to over

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the last forty odd years. And I was, honestly, I

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was laughing my head off, and then he was telling

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me stuff. It wasn't all based aimed at Arthur. There's

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a few little bits and bobs, but and I contributed

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and told him some stuff that had happened some of

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the stories. I've talked about this story, and anyone that's

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listened to me for a long time may remember it.

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It's about a bloke going into a pub and he's

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basically really kicking off and yeah, so the story, if

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you remember the story, it's like I told that story

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probably six years ago. It was really it was very funny,

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and there's also a sadness as well, but like a

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sadness and a positivity there because he was going blind.

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His eyesight was really really bad and he was, you know,

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he was heading towards blindness, and he had his daughter

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looking after him, helping him out and stuff, and.

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He just.

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It was weird. There was a rule. It was positive

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and even he was just funny whether he was drinking

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or not drinking. And he wasn't no aggression, nothing, it

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was no, it didn't change him. It was just it

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just he just enjoyed having a pint. So we had

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like fully four pints. I was probably drunk, to be honest,

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but at that but the next day we went into

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work because we had a Saturdays. We didn't not always

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work Saturday, but that day we did, and Arthur was

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there and we were just starting to work and we

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see Alfur walking and we can't stop laughing. And Arthur's

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walking up to us and he's he's like, he's like,

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what you're doing laughing? To get on with some work,

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do some work, and Ray just tells him to shut up,

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and Halfur walks away. He does he doesn't know what

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to say because he's he he knows Ray, I mean

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he's Ray. Half is the reason of Ray was working

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there because Ray, you know, after I think Ray was,

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I keep saying Ray and Arthur. So I think he

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probably met Arthur in the pub and Arthur said, well,

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try and get in our place, into the factory, and

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I'll get you some work and i'll keep you on

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and stuff. So Ray said, okay, so you know, we're

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still friends. It's just that he wouldn't take any rubbish

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from him.

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And then he left.

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He was there, he didn't like the job, so he

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didn't come back. He was so funny. I met some

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characters doing that job. I met a lot of people

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from a lot of different countries and doing some of

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the jobs I had. I mean in London, you know,

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when I was a security guard, the other security guards

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were African, most of them. And when I worked in

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the Yeah, when I worked in the big bakery, most

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of the people I worked with when I worked inside

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the bakery itself rather than in the canteen, most of

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the people I worked with were from other countries. Probably

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think India and Jamaica. I think that was the two

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main places. Now a lot of them already knew me

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because I was serving and food before serving of food.

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That sounds weird, but I was working in the canteen

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for a good few months so they, you know, most

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of the people working out already knew who I was,

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so I got on quite well with the people. But

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it was very weird because the thing is from a

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safety perspective in a place like that, where if something

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goes wrong, it could really go wrong. All these I mean, dad,

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the mixes, the bread mixeres were the size of this building.

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I'm exaggerating for the sake of it, but you know, huge, massive,

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And the miscommunication was kind of ridiculous because it was

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so loud to start with, so it was hard, but

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then people were shouting in different languages. So there was

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one point where I heard shouting and in the end

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someone pulled me physically out of the way of something

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that was heading towards me. And because all I was

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hearing was like, it's something that I didn't understand what

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I was hearing, so I didn't figure it was for me,

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but I was on the floor, I think I was.

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There was two English speaking people, not English speaking, they

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all spoke English, but English person there whose first language

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was English. There's two of us, and it is from

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a communication point of view, because when it's quiet, I

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can communicate with anyone pretty much. And also even if

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someone's English isn't maybe it's it's not, you know, I

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can still communicate. I can communicate with people. When I've

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been abroad, I always managed to communicate with people because

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you know, it takes I take my time, and I'm

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in no hurry, and you know, i'd find a way.

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But when there's a lot of noise, it's practically impossible.

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I suppose you can use sign language or you know,

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sort of signs, not sign language, but signs to sort

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of to tell people stuff. But I don't know if

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they had that. All I know is I remember coming

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back because I used they had a like a bus,

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like a private bus coach thing that would bring go

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from warden Stowe to Stratford and then to other places.

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So i'd get I'd grab on that because it was

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free and and this was just for us, you know,

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the workers. Now I've done a twenty four hour shift,

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so I was tired. Tired is not the word. And

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I did this. I did one week where I did

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one hundred hours, so I don't know how many how

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many hours that is in a in a day seven

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seventy ten hours a day for seven days is seventy

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another thirty, so one hundred hours five days, twenty hours,

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So I must have been doing sixteen hours or something

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a day. Two shifts, and I did once do a

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twenty four hour shift, which is just ridiculous. But I

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did that with a security as well, because I shifts

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for twelve hours. I did a twenty four hours fell asleep,

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got suspended. Yeah, it's to do sixteen hours in a bakery.

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Shouldn't really be allowed just from a health and safety perspective.

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But I remember I got my biggest paycheck I'd ever

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had up to that point, and it was cash, had

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my tax taken off already as well, had a little

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brown envelope as we used to get back in the

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nineties or early nineties, late eighties. And I went up

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to the manager's office to collect my paycheck or my

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paid cash, and I was saying all, and I was smiling.

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I said, why, because apparently I'd earn the most out

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of anyone else in the in the factory, because of

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all the hours I've done. And I opened up and

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I looked at this amount of money, and I'd never

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seen so much cash, like for one week's work. Never

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you know, I was used to one hundred pounds a

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week if I was lucky so to get two hundred

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and fifty after tax. In fact, I don't think i'd

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hardly earn I was getting more than one hundred pounds

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in the bakery. I was probably getting about one hundred

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and thirty one hundred and forty pounds a week. I

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was paying tax on that, which seems I don't know,

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should we get paying tax on such a small amount.

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But yeah, that was back then. Yeah. I remember I

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was traveling on the bus and it was really just

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surreal because or this coach thing, because all these voices

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and I didn't understand a word that anyone was saying,

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and I fell asleep and it was just so weird,

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just a weird feeling like I don't it's like I

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don't know where I am. I didn't know where I was,

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very strange.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, ooh ooh bah bah.

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The thing is, I think a lot of the the

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people that worked there, there was a lot of older

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men working there. There was I think there's one woman

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in the whole factory, like in the actual the bakery itself,

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it was all men. And then there was yeah, there

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was women working in the administration area, the p and

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the catering part. Yeah no, And the women could have

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done a job just as well as a man. It

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wasn't really it was it was endurance rather than physical

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strength in a sense of I mean, back then, I

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think the average woman would have been stronger than me anyway,

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but it wasn't. What was really weird is they'd never

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turned anything off. They hated to turn the the conveyor

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belt off if they didn't have to, which meant when

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stuff was coming off the other end of the conveyor

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belt and needed to be put into trays, there was

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very little wiggle room. And you might be thinking, what

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you're wiggling about, for what's wiggling got to do with anything?

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What I mean by that is if you miss, if

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you you know, you can't get it back. Once one

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falls off the end onto the floor, another one falls

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onto the floor and you can't And because it's fallen

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onto the floor, you can't get to the position that

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you need to get the next one off. And I've

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literally stood there up to my knees in bread rolls

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because tray after trays just banging onto the floor until

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someone stops to convey about. And I don't know why.

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It's not like I'd wanted to stop it for a

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long time. Just a few seconds. Let me get up

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to you up to date. Sometimes the the brown trays

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or baskets that the bread rolls we put into, they

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weren't replaced. So I needed them. I needed to put

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the bread somewhere, and so I'd look around and be

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none left, or someone just taking one's eyes and there's

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literally nowhere to put anything, and it just end up

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on the floor. And I thought that was just such

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a waste of food, such a waste. Yeah, I kind

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of wish I'd stuck with that. There's a few there's

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so many things that I would have changed over the

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years if I went back. But then one little change

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could have just transformed my whole life, couldn't it. One

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little decision, one little tweak or twerk there or hear,

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and my whole world would potentially have been different. So,

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I mean, if I had stayed there, who knows, I

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might have ended up. I don't know why, but I

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might have ended up, getting married, having kids, getting a mortgage,

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you know, having like a normal life, just because I

473
00:45:33.480 --> 00:45:41.320
suppose something technically financially I was doing all right. I

474
00:45:41.440 --> 00:45:43.800
possibly would have been able to afford to get a

475
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:46.800
mortgage on the money I was getting because I was

476
00:45:46.840 --> 00:45:55.079
working so many hours. It's weird, though, isn't it, Because

477
00:45:55.079 --> 00:45:59.840
you think two hundred and fifty pounds a week, that's

478
00:45:59.880 --> 00:46:06.039
a thousand pounds a month, which is what twelve thousand

479
00:46:06.079 --> 00:46:11.679
pounds a year take that was take home. It's such

480
00:46:11.719 --> 00:46:21.000
a small amount, but back then, back then, nineteen ninety one,

481
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:30.159
it wasn't a small amount. It was like really good money.

482
00:46:31.719 --> 00:46:46.039
Kind of it was okay money, And I couldn't really

483
00:46:46.079 --> 00:46:50.519
do anything else but work because I was just so

484
00:46:50.679 --> 00:46:56.400
naked doing the job, and so i'd be, you know,

485
00:46:56.519 --> 00:46:59.960
partner obviously part of my days off, if I did

486
00:47:00.079 --> 00:47:03.800
get days off, but that was always a choice anyway.

487
00:47:03.840 --> 00:47:06.679
I didn't have to I didn't have to do the overtime.

488
00:47:08.360 --> 00:47:13.599
It was it was an opportunity to have some money.

489
00:47:15.920 --> 00:47:20.039
So that was just useful to get paid, useful having

490
00:47:20.159 --> 00:47:27.840
some cash. My root was forty pounds a week at

491
00:47:27.960 --> 00:47:35.639
that time, so to begin over two hundred pounds a week.

492
00:47:36.920 --> 00:47:43.039
It was definitely pretty groovy.

493
00:47:43.519 --> 00:47:53.719
Oh moovy.

494
00:47:54.599 --> 00:48:00.360
I was thinking of what was it Saturday today?

495
00:48:01.280 --> 00:48:01.400
Hm?

496
00:48:01.480 --> 00:48:19.880
Hmm, yeah, Saturday. I partly would kind of like to

497
00:48:20.239 --> 00:48:27.360
go out, but I haven't really been out since since

498
00:48:27.400 --> 00:48:30.440
I had to go out for uncle sausages, although I

499
00:48:30.480 --> 00:48:33.880
did go out Monday. I got taxi to the doctor's

500
00:48:33.880 --> 00:48:45.920
surgery and had my year the mental health review check thing.

501
00:48:47.719 --> 00:48:47.760
S.

502
00:48:47.800 --> 00:48:51.400
Had a blood test and blood pressure dad and got

503
00:48:51.519 --> 00:48:59.760
weighed and checked my pulse. Everything was fine. If I

504
00:48:59.760 --> 00:49:02.280
hadn't know about the blood tests, but everything was fine

505
00:49:04.280 --> 00:49:12.119
as far as my blood pressure was really good. My

506
00:49:12.280 --> 00:49:17.320
pulse rate. Blood pressure is a pulsory, isn't it. Blood

507
00:49:17.320 --> 00:49:22.280
pressure is really good, pulse rates fine. My weight's good.

508
00:49:23.039 --> 00:49:27.199
So I've lost some weight a little bit, just a

509
00:49:27.239 --> 00:49:33.920
little bit. I've kept it off anyway, so the way

510
00:49:34.039 --> 00:49:38.400
I got rid of the fact I reduced has stayed off.

511
00:49:40.719 --> 00:49:45.159
So I'm just under fifteen stone now and it's a

512
00:49:45.280 --> 00:49:49.239
much more manageable weight. I just feel I'm so light,

513
00:49:49.280 --> 00:49:55.119
though I'm scared or blow away just but it's all right.

514
00:49:55.159 --> 00:50:04.079
I just feel lighter, which I'm kind of surprised about. Yeah,

515
00:50:15.639 --> 00:50:17.519
baby day, I don't know what I was talking about, then,

516
00:50:21.119 --> 00:50:23.559
I'll be honest with you, I'd got no idea what

517
00:50:23.639 --> 00:50:35.920
I was just waffling on about. H I got my

518
00:50:36.039 --> 00:50:43.960
deliveries yesterday. It was so nice. It's weird because the

519
00:50:44.199 --> 00:50:53.360
Amazon bloke delivered it in his huge sack with wheels,

520
00:50:53.519 --> 00:50:57.800
like big box thing with wheels, and I don't think

521
00:50:57.800 --> 00:51:02.199
I've ever seen that before. So I'm wondering what the

522
00:51:02.239 --> 00:51:07.639
noise is because I'm hearing this like banging up the stairs,

523
00:51:07.840 --> 00:51:12.440
like uh, Vinnie was barking. I'm just telling Vinnie to

524
00:51:12.519 --> 00:51:16.360
stop barking, not realizing that he's actually barking for a reason.

525
00:51:17.320 --> 00:51:20.719
And he's being a good good boy, isn't he for

526
00:51:20.800 --> 00:51:25.079
letting me know that someone's coming to my door? Anyway,

527
00:51:25.239 --> 00:51:27.159
the bloke knocked on my door and open it and

528
00:51:27.159 --> 00:51:37.119
he's got this big thing on the floor and he's

529
00:51:37.239 --> 00:51:39.920
just stroking his thing, this big thing, and I was like,

530
00:51:42.039 --> 00:51:44.800
so I know. He said, yeah, he got some packages there,

531
00:51:47.159 --> 00:51:52.360
and I think there was one, two, three, four different packages.

532
00:51:53.519 --> 00:52:00.559
So I had my soap, I had my wet wipes,

533
00:52:02.320 --> 00:52:21.599
I had my face wipes, I had deodorant, and oh yeah,

534
00:52:21.880 --> 00:52:30.079
I also had uh two packs of dog food as well,

535
00:52:32.079 --> 00:52:38.039
So that's six different things. So the deodorant I got,

536
00:52:42.079 --> 00:52:44.360
I got enough to last me for the year to

537
00:52:44.519 --> 00:52:48.960
rest of the year. I got enough soap to last

538
00:52:49.000 --> 00:52:58.000
me for the rest of the year. I'm trying to

539
00:52:58.039 --> 00:53:02.280
think what else. Tea packs? Oh yeah, so seven, I've

540
00:53:02.320 --> 00:53:09.079
got tea bags. I've got wow, huge amounts of tea bags.

541
00:53:09.079 --> 00:53:13.320
So that that would be I got, yeah, easily enough

542
00:53:13.360 --> 00:53:15.320
tea bags for last wear to the end of the year.

543
00:53:19.840 --> 00:53:24.280
So it's like a couple of thousand tea bags, I think. No,

544
00:53:25.559 --> 00:53:29.920
not a couple of thousand, No, I'm exaggerating. There eight

545
00:53:30.239 --> 00:53:34.840
eight eight eight eight, there's about eight hundred tea bags.

546
00:53:35.840 --> 00:53:41.280
There was two packs of two backs either two packs

547
00:53:41.320 --> 00:53:45.920
of five. Yeah, I like you a little little box things.

548
00:53:46.199 --> 00:53:50.079
So there's I think there's five boxes in each or

549
00:53:50.079 --> 00:53:53.719
maybe six box in boxes in each five I think

550
00:53:54.519 --> 00:53:59.440
maybe six. There's eighty per box. So yeah, there's at

551
00:53:59.519 --> 00:54:08.400
least eight hundred tea bags to get me through to

552
00:54:08.519 --> 00:54:24.280
the end of the year. So see how many you need? One, two, three, four.

553
00:54:24.920 --> 00:54:32.400
I have at least four cups of tea per day,

554
00:54:43.480 --> 00:54:47.000
so I'm trying to work out how many days. So

555
00:54:47.360 --> 00:54:59.320
four okay, if I had if I had eight cups

556
00:54:59.320 --> 00:55:04.360
of tea a day, that would give me one hundred days.

557
00:55:13.039 --> 00:55:30.920
Since I've had half of that. Yeah, it's two hundred

558
00:55:31.039 --> 00:55:36.199
days of tea bags and mid days left in this year.

559
00:55:38.039 --> 00:55:44.920
So we're nearly at the end of August, September, October, November,

560
00:55:45.440 --> 00:55:57.360
December three six three, what three? It's more than three

561
00:55:57.440 --> 00:56:03.000
weeks in my thirty I'm thinking, And so thirty sorry,

562
00:56:03.800 --> 00:56:29.679
thirty days sit in October, November, December thirty times by eight. Okay, sir,

563
00:56:29.800 --> 00:56:33.599
I'll work out another way as I'm fallen asleep talking

564
00:56:33.639 --> 00:56:39.000
about it. Mathematics is a way for me to fall asleep, yes,

565
00:56:43.800 --> 00:56:49.400
or two hundred days thirty sixty ninety one hundred and

566
00:56:49.440 --> 00:56:58.639
twenty September October one hundred and twenty. How many did

567
00:56:58.639 --> 00:57:08.119
I say? I've got eight hundred three six? Oh No,

568
00:57:08.360 --> 00:57:12.639
that's that's for one a day, though, isn't it three

569
00:57:13.719 --> 00:57:17.960
thirty sixteen ninety one hundred and twenty days? But one

570
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:22.880
a day? But what about four a day? Four day?

571
00:57:24.159 --> 00:57:28.920
As far as I reckon, eight hundred will last me

572
00:57:30.719 --> 00:57:33.679
until the end of the year. In fact, I would

573
00:57:34.000 --> 00:57:38.119
I reckon as we get to the end of the year,

574
00:57:39.519 --> 00:57:46.840
like you know, moving towards happy New Year, boom, all

575
00:57:46.880 --> 00:57:55.599
that stuff. I will find that letter. I don't know

576
00:57:55.639 --> 00:58:07.960
why whatever I say, Emma, Wow, I'm drifting off back

577
00:58:08.000 --> 00:58:11.920
to sleep again as I'm talking. So I'll better just

578
00:58:12.000 --> 00:58:18.199
go and get some breakfast. I do bore myself to sleep. Genuinely.

579
00:58:25.559 --> 00:58:32.119
It's weird, isn't it. It's very very strange. So yeah,

580
00:58:32.239 --> 00:58:36.920
today's Saturday. I'm gonna have me breakfast now, I'm gonna

581
00:58:36.920 --> 00:58:42.719
watch a bit of Telly. I'm then gonna take Vinnie

582
00:58:42.800 --> 00:58:49.840
out for a walk and m I need to edit

583
00:58:49.880 --> 00:58:53.079
this and upload this. But outside of that, I don't

584
00:58:53.199 --> 00:59:05.519
have much in the way of plans. Really. Yeah, so

585
00:59:05.559 --> 00:59:12.760
I'm going to go. Thank you for listening, and remember

586
00:59:12.920 --> 00:59:16.480
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

587
00:59:16.519 --> 00:59:23.079
be happy. Be gentle with yourself, Mister Krokiy voice says,

588
00:59:23.280 --> 00:59:27.320
be careful, be gentle with yourself because you do deserve

589
00:59:27.679 --> 00:59:34.800
to feel safe, lots of love. Bye bye bye bye.

590
00:59:39.960 --> 00:59:54.559
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

591
00:59:54.599 --> 01:00:00.000
a way that can not just allow you to feel

592
01:00:01.519 --> 01:00:10.719
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

593
01:00:12.760 --> 01:00:18.480
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

594
01:00:18.480 --> 01:00:25.159
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

595
01:00:25.320 --> 01:00:40.239
and peace. But also I think it would be nice

596
01:00:40.360 --> 01:01:00.199
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer to

597
01:01:00.239 --> 01:01:10.800
the recording is ended, so that you can still benefit

598
01:01:13.679 --> 01:01:20.960
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

599
01:01:22.880 --> 01:01:36.360
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

600
01:01:36.519 --> 01:01:41.159
find like some people do and myself as well. I

601
01:01:41.320 --> 01:01:48.079
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

602
01:01:52.440 --> 01:01:54.800
and I just listen to it over and over again

603
01:01:57.079 --> 01:02:10.119
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

604
01:02:10.119 --> 01:02:15.880
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

605
01:02:15.920 --> 01:02:20.159
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was

606
01:02:20.280 --> 01:02:28.360
hypnosis really, and I managed to find it again and

607
01:02:28.400 --> 01:02:34.199
it still has the same effect on me. And part

608
01:02:34.239 --> 01:02:47.920
of it was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt

609
01:02:47.960 --> 01:02:54.960
so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening to her

610
01:02:57.840 --> 01:03:07.519
in the morning and in the evening. And I knew

611
01:03:07.880 --> 01:03:16.599
before even pressing the play button that since I've done

612
01:03:16.639 --> 01:03:21.119
that pressed the play button. This is in the days

613
01:03:21.119 --> 01:03:35.280
of CD players press the play button. If that it

614
01:03:35.360 --> 01:03:39.480
might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie

615
01:03:39.519 --> 01:03:50.679
down on the bed and then even without necessarily listening

616
01:03:52.360 --> 01:04:00.880
to her words, because I had the memory rised. Really,

617
01:04:05.519 --> 01:04:11.519
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

618
01:04:16.320 --> 01:04:38.159
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

619
01:04:38.280 --> 01:04:51.920
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

620
01:04:52.320 --> 01:04:58.559
was listening to this recording in the early days of

621
01:04:58.679 --> 01:05:09.280
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

622
01:05:09.480 --> 01:05:14.199
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

623
01:05:14.360 --> 01:05:28.119
till two thousand and six, but I knew, I knew

624
01:05:28.480 --> 01:05:41.239
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

625
01:05:44.239 --> 01:05:49.639
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

626
01:05:57.320 --> 01:06:04.039
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

627
01:06:05.480 --> 01:06:14.840
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

628
01:06:14.920 --> 01:06:26.559
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

629
01:06:26.639 --> 01:06:40.559
me for over a decade. Maybe not solidly, obviously, not

630
01:06:40.559 --> 01:06:46.880
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

631
01:06:48.719 --> 01:07:03.760
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

632
01:07:03.800 --> 01:07:19.840
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

633
01:07:20.119 --> 01:07:35.599
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

634
01:07:35.840 --> 01:07:49.639
affected by the words that I say. So if I

635
01:07:49.679 --> 01:07:57.039
set you focus on your feet notice your feet relaxing.

636
01:08:00.519 --> 01:08:08.440
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

637
01:08:08.559 --> 01:08:26.640
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

638
01:08:29.439 --> 01:08:38.960
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

639
01:08:39.079 --> 01:08:45.159
that the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

640
01:08:47.000 --> 01:08:57.399
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

641
01:08:57.960 --> 01:09:06.039
notice what almost fels like a very light breeze, even

642
01:09:06.079 --> 01:09:10.319
though there may not be any type of breeze at

643
01:09:10.359 --> 01:09:23.359
all where you are right now. And as you become

644
01:09:24.000 --> 01:09:38.399
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

645
01:09:38.680 --> 01:10:02.439
my hands our feeling now. And when it comes to

646
01:10:03.960 --> 01:10:10.000
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

647
01:10:10.319 --> 01:10:26.640
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

648
01:10:31.279 --> 01:10:47.720
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

649
01:10:49.760 --> 01:11:03.800
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing m and then

650
01:11:03.840 --> 01:11:15.000
I carry on talking. And it's only when I listen

651
01:11:15.159 --> 01:11:24.600
back to do the editing I hear snoring and I think,

652
01:11:25.000 --> 01:11:34.760
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Is this snoring

653
01:11:35.119 --> 01:11:41.840
was a pig turned up? That's why I sound like

654
01:11:41.920 --> 01:11:53.039
when I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

655
01:12:00.960 --> 01:12:10.439
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

656
01:12:10.439 --> 01:12:21.039
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

657
01:12:36.119 --> 01:12:48.359
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

658
01:12:50.079 --> 01:13:04.720
deeper level of comfort you feel, hm, the easier your

659
01:13:04.800 --> 01:13:28.319
breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So

660
01:13:28.399 --> 01:13:51.600
this allows you to breath easier without necessarily focusing on

661
01:13:51.640 --> 01:14:17.039
your breath. I ever been able to notice the ease

662
01:14:20.439 --> 01:14:47.039
in which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so very

663
01:14:47.279 --> 01:15:36.000
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when

664
01:15:36.039 --> 01:15:51.359
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a

665
01:15:51.479 --> 01:16:05.680
beautiful field with trees and flowers mhm, producing all that

666
01:16:07.720 --> 01:16:40.479
life giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else,

667
01:16:43.680 --> 01:17:17.800
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

668
01:17:18.199 --> 01:18:08.800
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

669
01:18:08.960 --> 01:18:44.079
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful,

670
01:18:54.000 --> 01:20:02.279
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

671
01:20:03.239 --> 01:20:54.640
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

672
01:20:54.800 --> 01:21:22.560
nothing really requires your att tension. You can enjoy the

673
01:21:22.800 --> 01:21:34.760
physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip out of

674
01:21:34.800 --> 01:21:54.479
your body, to appear out of every part of your

675
01:21:54.520 --> 01:22:38.680
body being released from your brain. H your mind slowly

676
01:22:43.279 --> 01:23:28.960
but surely. The muscles in your legs relax so very deeply,

677
01:23:38.720 --> 01:24:09.800
res so deeply, And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

678
01:24:09.880 --> 01:24:34.399
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

679
01:24:37.720 --> 01:25:15.960
further and deeper and deeper. H noticin the feelings in

680
01:25:16.039 --> 01:26:16.119
the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles

681
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:55.479
in front of your body, I all say, feeling peaceful deeply,

682
01:27:12.479 --> 01:27:39.079
There's a sense of peace spreads through your very core.

683
01:27:53.279 --> 01:28:13.199
Even when you focus on your mind, the mind becomes

684
01:28:20.520 --> 01:29:43.399
eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing so very slow. Your stomach,

685
01:29:57.479 --> 01:30:40.560
PA's fin You's stomach, your back. Notice Notice how relaxed

686
01:30:44.880 --> 01:31:23.039
you'd now fear in the hole of your back. Your

687
01:31:23.319 --> 01:31:32.399
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

688
01:31:32.439 --> 01:31:44.279
of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day.

689
01:31:55.319 --> 01:33:16.439
Deecomfort priest deeply exed you niels spreading these signals down

690
01:33:16.600 --> 01:33:17.920
a spine.

691
01:33:17.520 --> 01:33:18.359
Or cord.

692
01:33:22.439 --> 01:33:41.319
Into air every part of your body, your shins and

693
01:33:41.439 --> 01:34:33.039
your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility

694
01:34:36.960 --> 01:34:50.960
spreading through your body tips of your toes, to your eyes,

695
01:34:55.359 --> 01:35:14.800
your fingers all wait till you lower back, letting her

696
01:35:17.000 --> 01:36:29.000
retinker peace, drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go,

697
01:36:32.239 --> 01:37:33.600
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body

698
01:37:37.880 --> 01:38:05.199
enjoying a sense listening guy.

699
01:38:08.520 --> 01:38:10.640
He for more.

700
01:39:18.760 --> 01:40:34.720
Peace for joy space, this space of peace and safety,

701
01:40:35.560 --> 01:40:37.000
so firy.

702
01:40:39.640 --> 01:42:15.399
Firy relaxed, letting go.

703
01:42:33.319 --> 01:42:40.920
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

704
01:42:41.039 --> 01:43:15.720
your body, just to notice a forehead in your eyes.

705
01:43:48.319 --> 01:44:35.840
It so lose, noticing a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom.

706
01:45:21.399 --> 01:45:34.199
Rif ri.

707
01:45:47.720 --> 01:47:14.000
Pea'ce for energy peace to breathe so much easier loose

708
01:47:35.119 --> 01:47:47.960
you may have you may not have noticed your mind drifting,

709
01:48:24.520 --> 01:48:48.960
peaceful move ay even more deeply in the direction of

710
01:48:54.000 --> 01:50:56.600
total blissful pace, bliss for pace torest total peace. Come soap, calm,

711
01:51:07.960 --> 01:52:19.960
letting go, peace with mind rexed forty, so relaxed, so relaxed.

712
01:52:44.279 --> 01:53:11.119
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

713
01:53:17.479 --> 01:54:27.640
so peace relax liquor, and you could start to notice

714
01:54:28.000 --> 01:54:37.039
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

715
01:54:38.720 --> 01:54:49.439
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

716
01:54:50.159 --> 01:54:57.039
that is growing within you throughout your body and your

717
01:54:57.119 --> 01:55:07.800
mind starts to slow down, and that could be almost

718
01:55:07.880 --> 01:55:16.199
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly

719
01:55:17.039 --> 01:55:34.079
fast and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening

720
01:55:34.279 --> 01:55:43.000
to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take

721
01:55:43.039 --> 01:55:49.640
a break from the day, take a break from your

722
01:55:49.720 --> 01:55:56.800
life as it is, and to give yourself a rest,

723
01:55:59.359 --> 01:56:06.680
giving yourself permission to take some time off and to

724
01:56:06.760 --> 01:56:12.720
allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

725
01:56:12.840 --> 01:56:24.199
slow down, which in turn releases the tension and he

726
01:56:24.399 --> 01:56:33.279
stresses that you had in your body. It's almost as

727
01:56:33.359 --> 01:56:39.199
if the parts of your body just open up, allowing

728
01:56:39.239 --> 01:56:51.199
the negativity out and at the same time replacing that

729
01:56:51.399 --> 01:57:01.039
negativity with positive heathing energy which then fills your body

730
01:57:01.159 --> 01:57:13.800
up and your mind to also starts to appreciate those

731
01:57:14.119 --> 01:57:31.800
feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

732
01:57:34.960 --> 01:57:43.560
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

733
01:57:45.840 --> 01:57:58.039
of comfort, and all this comes and just allowing yourself

734
01:58:00.840 --> 01:58:06.039
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

735
01:58:06.119 --> 01:58:18.720
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

736
01:58:18.800 --> 01:58:29.279
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

737
01:58:29.399 --> 01:58:45.319
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

738
01:58:45.760 --> 01:58:58.840
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

739
01:58:58.880 --> 01:59:07.359
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

740
01:59:07.439 --> 01:59:18.119
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

741
01:59:19.079 --> 01:59:33.399
with that growing positivity and calmness, And it feels nice.

742
01:59:33.520 --> 01:59:39.560
It really does feel nice to know that you are

743
01:59:39.600 --> 01:59:49.800
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

744
01:59:53.000 --> 01:59:56.000
and to experience.

745
01:59:57.600 --> 01:59:58.880
More at this.

746
02:00:00.520 --> 02:00:16.119
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body, and as I focus

747
02:00:17.239 --> 02:00:23.239
on each part of your body, you can notice that

748
02:00:23.239 --> 02:00:40.319
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

749
02:00:40.319 --> 02:00:50.000
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

750
02:00:54.000 --> 02:00:59.800
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

751
02:01:02.479 --> 02:01:09.199
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

752
02:01:09.359 --> 02:01:17.000
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

753
02:01:17.039 --> 02:01:30.439
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

754
02:01:30.800 --> 02:01:43.840
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

755
02:01:43.880 --> 02:01:50.840
to start by focusing on your forehead, just being aware

756
02:01:51.159 --> 02:01:59.840
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds.

757
02:02:01.520 --> 02:02:06.399
But mister Herbert, the pigeon can just allow you to

758
02:02:06.560 --> 02:02:13.800
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

759
02:02:16.920 --> 02:02:24.319
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

760
02:02:25.720 --> 02:02:31.760
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

761
02:02:32.279 --> 02:02:42.800
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

762
02:02:43.039 --> 02:02:51.399
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

763
02:02:53.119 --> 02:03:00.319
only on my voice and that part of your body.

764
02:03:02.800 --> 02:03:12.520
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

765
02:03:13.560 --> 02:03:22.079
how the your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light

766
02:03:23.119 --> 02:03:29.359
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

767
02:03:29.399 --> 02:03:41.880
eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

768
02:03:43.720 --> 02:03:50.760
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the

769
02:03:50.960 --> 02:04:05.520
whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and loose. As you

770
02:04:05.640 --> 02:04:13.640
focus now on your jaw, not just the parts of

771
02:04:13.680 --> 02:04:18.359
your jaw near your mouth and your chin, but all

772
02:04:18.399 --> 02:04:22.359
the way up the size of your face to.

773
02:04:22.359 --> 02:04:36.880
Your ears, that hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

774
02:04:40.319 --> 02:04:57.760
And calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of your

775
02:04:57.800 --> 02:05:10.319
neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The

776
02:05:10.640 --> 02:05:16.319
sides of your neck, the right and left side of

777
02:05:16.359 --> 02:05:27.960
your neck relax and loose and calm.

778
02:05:34.079 --> 02:05:40.960
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

779
02:05:41.039 --> 02:05:51.479
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

780
02:05:51.640 --> 02:05:53.920
may have been there before.

781
02:05:55.199 --> 02:06:09.279
And enjoying that sense surve increasing comfort and release that

782
02:06:09.520 --> 02:06:19.920
you can experience in the back of your neck, moving

783
02:06:20.159 --> 02:06:27.000
down your back and moving either side of your spine

784
02:06:28.039 --> 02:06:32.800
right from the top of your back all the way

785
02:06:32.960 --> 02:06:45.680
down to the bottom of your back down to your

786
02:06:45.720 --> 02:06:57.720
lower back, and as you move up and down your spine,

787
02:06:58.439 --> 02:07:04.600
you can feel the muscle either side of your spine

788
02:07:05.079 --> 02:07:19.680
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

789
02:07:19.720 --> 02:07:30.279
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

790
02:07:30.439 --> 02:07:37.079
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

791
02:07:37.920 --> 02:07:44.159
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

792
02:07:45.840 --> 02:07:53.680
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

793
02:07:53.800 --> 02:07:59.680
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

794
02:08:04.000 --> 02:08:10.039
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

795
02:08:10.119 --> 02:08:20.119
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

796
02:08:25.399 --> 02:08:27.079
And in your lower back.

797
02:08:30.520 --> 02:08:38.079
There seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

798
02:08:43.319 --> 02:08:49.479
The spreads into your hips, so down your lower back,

799
02:08:49.800 --> 02:08:57.760
into your hips, into the area where your coxis are,

800
02:09:01.319 --> 02:09:08.960
and into your buttocks, and all these muscles that spread

801
02:09:10.279 --> 02:09:20.039
when your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

802
02:09:24.479 --> 02:09:37.359
start to really let go, and even nowhere about to

803
02:09:37.439 --> 02:09:44.199
focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine will

804
02:09:44.239 --> 02:10:05.520
continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly, and

805
02:10:05.560 --> 02:10:10.760
as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that

806
02:10:10.760 --> 02:10:42.239
they're already feeling really loose, They're already feeding, calm and fearing.

807
02:10:46.439 --> 02:10:54.760
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

808
02:11:01.319 --> 02:11:30.800
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

809
02:11:30.880 --> 02:11:43.800
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

810
02:11:43.840 --> 02:11:54.279
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

811
02:11:54.640 --> 02:12:11.039
into your muscles, but all so relaxing the bones and

812
02:12:11.279 --> 02:12:19.479
moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing that

813
02:12:19.680 --> 02:12:25.000
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

814
02:12:25.039 --> 02:12:26.239
your arms.

815
02:12:30.000 --> 02:12:36.640
Healing. You feel so.

816
02:12:38.520 --> 02:12:52.600
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep

817
02:12:53.399 --> 02:13:14.279
healing message into your arms, and you may feel almost

818
02:13:14.399 --> 02:13:19.159
as if your arms are not even there, because they're

819
02:13:19.680 --> 02:13:24.760
so relaxed, so.

820
02:13:26.199 --> 02:13:39.359
Deeply relaxed, so so.

821
02:13:39.960 --> 02:14:16.199
Calm, so loose, not feeling spreading all the way down

822
02:14:16.399 --> 02:14:40.600
your arms, two elbows, including your elbows, the comforts spreads

823
02:14:45.439 --> 02:15:03.800
all away into wrists, your forearments and your wrists so heavy,

824
02:15:07.399 --> 02:15:48.800
yet at the same time slight and gentle, fu sive.

825
02:15:51.199 --> 02:16:29.840
Now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands,

826
02:16:48.360 --> 02:17:11.959
the sense of real peace. It just seems to feel

827
02:17:14.200 --> 02:17:23.079
so familiar when your hands relax deeply.

828
02:17:32.000 --> 02:17:32.360
El is.

829
02:17:50.000 --> 02:18:58.520
Your things, you thing this sad lest you thinger tips,

830
02:19:27.079 --> 02:19:46.319
moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

831
02:19:57.239 --> 02:21:42.440
moving your focus tulex are muscles in your thighs, your knees,

832
02:21:46.440 --> 02:23:16.879
so relaxed, a carved mussels and just shins compusily four

833
02:24:23.280 --> 02:24:44.799
and the feathing your feet, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

834
02:24:51.920 --> 02:25:46.920
so calm, so peaceful, syclm so peace for Rea, sin,

835
02:25:52.280 --> 02:25:53.559
peace for.

836
02:25:57.399 --> 02:25:57.559
Sa.

837
02:25:58.079 --> 02:26:13.159
Come allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest and

838
02:26:13.319 --> 02:26:45.040
your stomach, letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start

839
02:26:45.120 --> 02:26:56.799
counting down now, from twenty down to one. You can

840
02:26:56.879 --> 02:27:00.120
imagine in a way it's like just walking down on

841
02:27:00.319 --> 02:27:06.040
some steps and each step or twenty steps, and each

842
02:27:06.159 --> 02:27:18.840
step represents a level of comfort, each step represents a

843
02:27:19.079 --> 02:27:31.559
deepening of that comfort, and the vervies you walk down

844
02:27:31.639 --> 02:27:37.159
those steps that a deeper and more relaxed you feel.

845
02:27:43.799 --> 02:30:19.520
So starting with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen.

846
02:31:34.200 --> 02:31:34.600
Three.

847
02:32:17.200 --> 02:40:43.040
Four four see too well. Five eight nine eight seven.

848
02:40:01.840 --> 02:42:36.559
Four five.

849
02:43:55.239 --> 02:48:21.200
Four one.

850
02:48:23.399 --> 02:48:40.360
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

851
02:48:40.399 --> 02:48:52.680
count down from ten douts one, focusing just on your eyes,

852
02:48:56.399 --> 02:49:04.920
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

853
02:49:06.399 --> 02:49:23.479
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

854
02:49:23.520 --> 02:49:31.920
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

855
02:49:32.040 --> 02:49:47.040
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

856
02:49:47.399 --> 02:50:00.479
each number counting down that you may find the all

857
02:50:00.559 --> 02:50:06.680
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

858
02:50:09.639 --> 02:50:16.319
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

859
02:50:16.399 --> 02:50:31.079
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

860
02:50:31.159 --> 02:50:41.280
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

861
02:50:49.680 --> 02:59:55.040
ten nine eight seven yo five four three two one two.

862
03:00:02.520 --> 03:00:13.879
Counting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven

863
03:00:15.959 --> 03:00:28.479
six five four three two.

864
03:00:30.360 --> 03:00:37.040
One.

865
03:00:37.600 --> 03:00:40.520
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

866
03:00:40.559 --> 03:00:44.559
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

867
03:00:44.840 --> 03:00:54.559
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

868
03:00:54.559 --> 03:00:58.440
little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down from

869
03:00:58.479 --> 03:01:01.280
ten to one. Would you expect me to do man,

870
03:01:02.079 --> 03:01:06.680
expect me to stick old floppy just because you're counting down.

871
03:01:12.239 --> 03:01:15.639
We could try it again, but this time, I go

872
03:01:15.680 --> 03:01:23.079
this lower this time, as you focus on the whole

873
03:01:23.159 --> 03:01:29.440
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

874
03:01:29.639 --> 03:01:39.680
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

875
03:01:44.399 --> 03:02:39.079
with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

876
03:02:46.079 --> 03:03:00.360
Three, two.

877
03:03:21.000 --> 03:03:38.159
One, And just notice how how you feel, generally, how

878
03:03:38.159 --> 03:03:52.280
your body feels. It's not necessarily even about yeah, counting

879
03:03:52.440 --> 03:03:59.680
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

880
03:04:00.879 --> 03:04:19.360
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

881
03:04:24.079 --> 03:04:29.280
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

882
03:04:29.440 --> 03:04:36.120
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

883
03:04:36.760 --> 03:04:39.799
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

884
03:04:39.840 --> 03:04:50.840
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

885
03:04:50.879 --> 03:04:58.280
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

886
03:04:58.399 --> 03:05:10.799
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

887
03:05:10.920 --> 03:05:25.000
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

888
03:05:25.120 --> 03:05:32.520
or emotionally, moves them away.

889
03:05:36.319 --> 03:05:44.200
Allows you to just slow down.

890
03:05:47.760 --> 03:05:50.239
So ione to count again from ten down to one,

891
03:05:50.639 --> 03:06:01.040
and notice that gap widening. The gap, it widens. It's

892
03:06:01.120 --> 03:06:20.840
almost like thestress and attention falls into the gap and

893
03:06:20.920 --> 03:07:28.680
gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

894
03:07:46.559 --> 03:08:29.079
Three two.

895
03:08:21.799 --> 03:08:22.079
One.

896
03:08:33.959 --> 03:08:38.000
How does your body feel.

897
03:08:39.920 --> 03:09:04.639
Now? Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the

898
03:09:05.040 --> 03:09:35.040
feeling more relaxed as we now focus on your legs,

899
03:09:35.200 --> 03:09:55.840
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

900
03:09:56.079 --> 03:10:15.239
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

901
03:10:15.399 --> 03:10:21.959
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

902
03:10:21.959 --> 03:10:33.680
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

903
03:10:33.840 --> 03:10:40.000
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

904
03:10:40.040 --> 03:10:46.159
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

905
03:10:46.200 --> 03:10:53.239
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs, basically

906
03:10:53.360 --> 03:10:57.079
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

907
03:11:01.079 --> 03:11:11.840
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

908
03:11:12.000 --> 03:11:19.479
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

909
03:11:19.639 --> 03:11:26.079
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

910
03:11:26.120 --> 03:11:42.479
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

911
03:11:42.600 --> 03:11:55.879
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

912
03:11:55.959 --> 03:12:17.879
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

913
03:12:17.920 --> 03:12:31.959
actually do for us all for our lives. And it

914
03:12:32.000 --> 03:12:37.159
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

915
03:12:37.319 --> 03:12:45.360
all of our body parts, especially our thighs needs some TLC,

916
03:12:48.559 --> 03:13:01.879
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

917
03:13:04.879 --> 03:13:17.239
gratitude for what our thighs do for us. And I

918
03:13:17.360 --> 03:13:23.079
know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

919
03:13:23.479 --> 03:13:26.280
why am I surely how I should be out in

920
03:13:26.360 --> 03:13:34.959
the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard

921
03:13:34.959 --> 03:13:38.120
to set a microphone up on a tree. That's why

922
03:13:38.120 --> 03:13:40.840
I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging

923
03:13:40.840 --> 03:13:50.799
a tree. Now I can't see the television from the tree.

924
03:13:51.040 --> 03:13:55.319
If you move down to your knees, gaining such an

925
03:13:55.360 --> 03:14:05.079
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

926
03:14:05.120 --> 03:14:12.479
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

927
03:14:12.680 --> 03:14:17.920
needs do for me until I have a problem with

928
03:14:17.920 --> 03:14:23.239
my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll pash it,

929
03:14:23.360 --> 03:14:29.280
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

930
03:14:29.399 --> 03:14:34.920
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

931
03:14:34.959 --> 03:14:42.479
being able to use my legs without any kind of

932
03:14:42.600 --> 03:14:50.959
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

933
03:14:51.079 --> 03:15:02.120
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

934
03:15:02.120 --> 03:15:07.559
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel.

935
03:15:10.600 --> 03:15:16.360
You can have that sense of gratitude and love to

936
03:15:16.440 --> 03:15:29.079
your knees for all that they do for you, and

937
03:15:29.200 --> 03:15:32.879
you can still have that attention on your thighs and

938
03:15:32.959 --> 03:15:39.360
maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

939
03:15:39.479 --> 03:15:58.239
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

940
03:15:58.319 --> 03:16:02.879
the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles.

941
03:16:03.360 --> 03:16:11.079
The bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and

942
03:16:11.120 --> 03:16:22.079
of course your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's

943
03:16:22.120 --> 03:16:28.319
had even like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows

944
03:16:28.440 --> 03:16:40.440
how how much we take our ankles for granted. And

945
03:16:40.479 --> 03:16:42.840
it's kind of strange in a way when you think that.

946
03:16:45.319 --> 03:16:49.319
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

947
03:16:49.399 --> 03:16:53.639
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

948
03:16:54.000 --> 03:16:57.159
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

949
03:16:57.200 --> 03:17:05.239
picking stuff up. Ankles so much thinner than the rest

950
03:17:05.239 --> 03:17:15.920
of our legs, and from a physics perspective or logical

951
03:17:16.000 --> 03:17:20.159
even it doesn't really make sense that all this weight

952
03:17:21.799 --> 03:17:28.799
would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to

953
03:17:28.840 --> 03:17:42.159
your feet that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does

954
03:17:42.239 --> 03:17:49.079
so much great work supports us, supports our body for

955
03:17:49.159 --> 03:18:03.680
a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you to get

956
03:18:03.680 --> 03:18:12.760
her around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

957
03:18:12.799 --> 03:18:20.440
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

958
03:18:20.479 --> 03:18:25.719
point in calf muscles. It didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

959
03:18:26.680 --> 03:18:30.239
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

960
03:18:30.239 --> 03:18:33.799
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

961
03:18:33.879 --> 03:18:38.799
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs

962
03:18:43.879 --> 03:18:56.520
and your shins there to protect your lower legs shaped

963
03:18:56.559 --> 03:19:02.239
in a way almost does it protect for the bone,

964
03:19:08.840 --> 03:19:12.760
leading of course to your ankles.

965
03:19:15.319 --> 03:19:16.040
And your feet.

966
03:19:20.719 --> 03:19:22.680
But we're not going to focus on your feet. We're

967
03:19:22.719 --> 03:19:29.000
just going to focus on the legs. I realize that

968
03:19:29.120 --> 03:19:33.159
now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focuses on

969
03:19:33.280 --> 03:19:36.799
them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your feet.

970
03:19:36.520 --> 03:19:37.040
A little bit.

971
03:19:41.040 --> 03:19:45.520
You can have them in your awareness, the same as

972
03:19:45.559 --> 03:19:49.959
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

973
03:19:50.040 --> 03:19:56.000
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, let

974
03:19:56.040 --> 03:20:07.159
me focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation of

975
03:20:10.120 --> 03:20:22.920
comfort in your thighs, and this that movement of energy

976
03:20:24.959 --> 03:20:32.040
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

977
03:20:32.079 --> 03:20:36.879
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

978
03:20:37.040 --> 03:20:50.399
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

979
03:20:50.440 --> 03:20:55.799
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

980
03:20:56.559 --> 03:21:08.159
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature.

981
03:21:14.680 --> 03:21:22.239
And inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

982
03:21:22.280 --> 03:21:27.120
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, it's all this stuff

983
03:21:27.159 --> 03:21:35.920
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

984
03:21:36.040 --> 03:21:40.200
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

985
03:21:40.239 --> 03:21:46.479
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

986
03:21:46.680 --> 03:21:49.600
of course, but to be able to get deep into

987
03:21:49.680 --> 03:21:54.479
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

988
03:21:54.520 --> 03:22:01.600
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

989
03:22:01.600 --> 03:22:11.000
in or the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

990
03:22:14.760 --> 03:22:20.120
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

991
03:22:21.479 --> 03:22:28.319
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

992
03:22:28.399 --> 03:22:34.239
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

993
03:22:39.559 --> 03:22:43.280
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

994
03:22:43.360 --> 03:22:49.360
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

995
03:22:49.559 --> 03:22:55.559
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

996
03:22:56.879 --> 03:23:00.280
That might be because it's an area that's not really

997
03:23:00.399 --> 03:23:06.920
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

998
03:23:07.200 --> 03:23:13.959
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

999
03:23:14.079 --> 03:23:19.000
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1000
03:23:26.799 --> 03:23:36.719
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

1001
03:23:36.760 --> 03:23:42.200
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

1002
03:23:47.520 --> 03:23:51.399
that fold in between your legs. You can just massage

1003
03:23:51.479 --> 03:23:58.559
with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in

1004
03:23:58.680 --> 03:24:08.719
the muscle tissue you can cause, field the bones of

1005
03:24:08.799 --> 03:24:20.719
your knees, healing through your fingertips, and then as you

1006
03:24:20.799 --> 03:24:26.600
go down to your calf muscles. Now that's the part

1007
03:24:26.600 --> 03:24:30.760
I'd like to be able to really put my fingertips

1008
03:24:30.879 --> 03:24:40.319
deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue

1009
03:24:40.440 --> 03:24:51.600
of that muscle, healing every part. And then doing the

1010
03:24:51.719 --> 03:24:59.840
same for my shins, massage in and gently stroking the bones,

1011
03:25:01.600 --> 03:25:07.319
gently stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1012
03:25:07.399 --> 03:25:13.799
deserve to be treated as the precious bones that they are,

1013
03:25:15.120 --> 03:25:18.399
Because our legs are so precious as in all the

1014
03:25:18.440 --> 03:25:23.799
other parts of our body, and more precious of any

1015
03:25:23.959 --> 03:25:39.520
jure on the planet. When you start to think about.

1016
03:25:42.639 --> 03:25:43.639
Your legs in.

1017
03:25:43.639 --> 03:25:55.079
This way, it can change your perspective. It might sound

1018
03:25:55.079 --> 03:26:01.959
a bit a bit silly to start with the idea

1019
03:26:02.079 --> 03:26:10.600
of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

1020
03:26:13.280 --> 03:26:17.840
wanting to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1021
03:26:19.879 --> 03:26:26.319
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1022
03:26:26.319 --> 03:26:35.520
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show.

1023
03:26:36.760 --> 03:26:38.079
How much you care.

1024
03:26:41.159 --> 03:26:46.280
About your legs, how much you care for what your

1025
03:26:46.360 --> 03:26:56.079
legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

1026
03:27:00.319 --> 03:27:08.159
the strength of your ankles, considering how thin they are

1027
03:27:08.200 --> 03:27:12.079
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs,

1028
03:27:15.719 --> 03:27:27.440
yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your

1029
03:27:27.520 --> 03:27:37.280
ankles are truly a gift because of what they do

1030
03:27:37.360 --> 03:27:49.159
for you, supporting all that weight, regardless of how what

1031
03:27:49.280 --> 03:27:55.239
weight you are, Even if you only ate stone, there's

1032
03:27:55.280 --> 03:28:02.079
still a lot of weight for these little ankles. H Now,

1033
03:28:02.120 --> 03:28:09.879
I'm a lot heavier than each stone double down, yet

1034
03:28:09.920 --> 03:28:18.959
my ankles support my body all the time. Orthough they

1035
03:28:19.000 --> 03:28:22.239
do give off a sigh of relief when I sit down.

1036
03:28:24.520 --> 03:28:32.760
That's got my whole legs do. My feet feet also

1037
03:28:32.879 --> 03:29:00.440
go my toes clap. I'm so happy. Your legs really

1038
03:29:01.799 --> 03:29:08.239
are amazing. And I know that talk about talking about

1039
03:29:08.280 --> 03:29:15.079
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1040
03:29:15.159 --> 03:29:22.680
things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly or boring or not,

1041
03:29:24.239 --> 03:29:39.760
everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1042
03:29:39.840 --> 03:29:52.479
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1043
03:29:59.639 --> 03:30:03.120
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1044
03:30:05.280 --> 03:30:34.040
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1045
03:30:41.639 --> 03:30:45.799
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1046
03:30:46.000 --> 03:30:52.000
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1047
03:30:52.040 --> 03:30:59.440
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1048
03:31:02.680 --> 03:31:13.879
a journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1049
03:31:15.239 --> 03:31:22.360
My hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back

1050
03:31:22.399 --> 03:31:22.799
as well.

1051
03:31:24.799 --> 03:31:25.840
My lower back.

1052
03:31:25.799 --> 03:31:31.360
Really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1053
03:31:31.399 --> 03:31:37.399
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1054
03:31:37.440 --> 03:31:40.520
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1055
03:31:40.600 --> 03:31:44.600
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1056
03:31:44.719 --> 03:32:09.440
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1057
03:32:09.479 --> 03:32:16.760
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

1058
03:32:17.200 --> 03:32:46.920
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1059
03:32:51.200 --> 03:33:10.799
Four three two. Why relaxed?

1060
03:33:18.639 --> 03:33:22.479
So I'm just going to count down and fire down

1061
03:33:22.520 --> 03:33:27.000
to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

1062
03:33:27.040 --> 03:33:35.000
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1063
03:33:35.879 --> 03:33:43.920
how you feel in this moment as you hear the

1064
03:33:44.000 --> 03:33:52.120
numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting down represent

1065
03:33:53.079 --> 03:34:02.159
you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also

1066
03:34:04.399 --> 03:34:11.079
relaxing your mind. I just notice how you feel. There's

1067
03:34:11.120 --> 03:34:16.920
nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to

1068
03:34:17.000 --> 03:35:09.360
think about, starting with number five, four three two. And

1069
03:35:09.520 --> 03:35:21.799
as you notice the gradual letting go that the tension

1070
03:35:21.959 --> 03:35:29.200
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1071
03:35:29.280 --> 03:35:38.319
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1072
03:35:40.760 --> 03:35:47.159
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1073
03:35:47.319 --> 03:35:52.559
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1074
03:35:53.840 --> 03:35:59.760
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and a

1075
03:35:59.840 --> 03:36:03.280
more more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1076
03:36:03.360 --> 03:36:14.000
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that

1077
03:36:15.159 --> 03:36:23.040
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1078
03:36:23.040 --> 03:36:30.079
if there's background sounds either your side online, it's still

1079
03:36:30.520 --> 03:36:35.840
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1080
03:36:35.840 --> 03:36:41.000
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1081
03:36:41.040 --> 03:36:48.479
you're listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're

1082
03:36:48.639 --> 03:36:50.760
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1083
03:36:50.799 --> 03:36:55.440
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1084
03:36:55.559 --> 03:36:58.719
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1085
03:37:00.399 --> 03:37:10.559
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1086
03:37:17.040 --> 03:37:27.319
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1087
03:37:31.799 --> 03:37:38.559
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1088
03:37:38.879 --> 03:37:50.680
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1089
03:37:50.799 --> 03:38:01.000
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1090
03:38:01.079 --> 03:38:07.959
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1091
03:38:08.120 --> 03:38:12.040
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1092
03:38:12.079 --> 03:38:23.760
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1093
03:38:24.120 --> 03:38:35.079
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1094
03:38:35.959 --> 03:38:46.280
allow you to take advantage of this space. This time,

1095
03:38:49.200 --> 03:39:01.000
it's just let go to just be here, be in

1096
03:39:01.159 --> 03:39:16.719
tune with how you feel, yet with the intention of

1097
03:39:16.879 --> 03:39:28.000
wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1098
03:39:29.120 --> 03:39:34.360
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1099
03:39:36.079 --> 03:39:51.159
in this moment. As we know relaxing is the majority

1100
03:39:52.360 --> 03:39:56.879
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1101
03:39:56.920 --> 03:40:03.879
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1102
03:40:05.000 --> 03:40:27.440
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1103
03:40:27.520 --> 03:40:34.559
can also, if you choose, stay focused on my voice

1104
03:40:36.319 --> 03:41:07.879
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1105
03:41:07.920 --> 03:41:35.280
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1106
03:41:35.399 --> 03:41:51.040
go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

1107
03:41:52.040 --> 03:42:04.120
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1108
03:42:04.399 --> 03:42:16.959
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1109
03:42:18.000 --> 03:45:23.600
feeling calm and slow and peaceful. Six, five, four, three, two.

1110
03:44:59.239 --> 03:45:25.520
Four, being aware of how.

1111
03:45:25.399 --> 03:45:41.239
Your mind to slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

1112
03:45:54.879 --> 03:46:01.680
And as you focus on your mind, you may notice

1113
03:46:01.920 --> 03:46:11.079
that there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn

1114
03:46:11.239 --> 03:46:27.040
thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention. That's

1115
03:46:27.120 --> 03:46:35.799
what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1116
03:46:39.040 --> 03:46:41.760
Sprinkle those thoughts.

1117
03:46:45.719 --> 03:46:46.600
With love.

1118
03:46:48.040 --> 03:46:53.399
Like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1119
03:46:53.719 --> 03:47:00.920
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1120
03:47:01.079 --> 03:47:07.639
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them. You just

1121
03:47:07.959 --> 03:47:18.079
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1122
03:47:20.360 --> 03:47:35.360
quiet down for now. So as you focus on those

1123
03:47:36.000 --> 03:47:40.920
remaining thoughts as we count down this time from seven

1124
03:47:41.799 --> 03:47:50.520
down to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those

1125
03:47:50.719 --> 03:48:10.159
flower petals of love kindness grated over those thoughts, which

1126
03:48:10.200 --> 03:48:16.200
will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

1127
03:48:20.319 --> 03:48:34.799
With every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

1128
03:48:40.360 --> 03:51:08.719
starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, two one.

1129
03:51:11.479 --> 03:51:28.399
And as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

1130
03:51:28.559 --> 03:51:37.920
your body, we're.

1131
03:51:37.719 --> 03:51:39.840
Going to focus.

1132
03:51:42.920 --> 03:51:52.559
On your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are,

1133
03:51:54.920 --> 03:51:58.799
the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1134
03:52:13.719 --> 03:52:14.159
And there.

1135
03:52:15.840 --> 03:52:26.000
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1136
03:52:26.520 --> 03:52:31.280
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1137
03:52:32.319 --> 03:52:42.680
dents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

1138
03:52:43.120 --> 03:52:57.159
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1139
03:53:11.799 --> 03:53:22.399
Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1140
03:53:22.479 --> 03:53:34.399
mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1141
03:53:39.600 --> 03:54:10.239
And you may have already noticed you mind is starting

1142
03:54:13.600 --> 03:54:36.159
to dress like sense just on your hands and fingers,

1143
03:54:41.040 --> 03:54:54.879
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

1144
03:54:56.600 --> 03:55:05.680
in your hands and fingers, more.

1145
03:55:08.000 --> 03:55:16.000
And more relaxed. With each number.

1146
03:55:23.479 --> 03:55:35.959
From eight down to one. You can almost feel that

1147
03:55:36.799 --> 03:55:51.239
healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming.

1148
03:55:55.079 --> 03:55:57.079
Year and more.

1149
03:55:58.600 --> 03:56:15.399
Relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight down

1150
03:56:16.120 --> 04:00:30.799
to one, drifting, drifting again, starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

1151
04:00:31.879 --> 04:00:41.360
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1152
04:00:42.799 --> 04:00:52.120
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1153
04:00:56.520 --> 04:01:04.079
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1154
04:01:04.239 --> 04:01:07.000
how you just normally.

1155
04:01:06.680 --> 04:01:12.680
Feel when you take away all of that other stuff

1156
04:01:15.000 --> 04:01:19.840
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

1157
04:01:20.040 --> 04:01:35.559
and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1158
04:01:37.760 --> 04:01:41.040
You take that away, which is what we do.

1159
04:01:41.639 --> 04:01:49.799
What we do now you're left with.

1160
04:01:52.440 --> 04:02:00.600
A real sense of peacefulness which come us to you

1161
04:02:00.799 --> 04:02:14.760
very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling

1162
04:02:15.760 --> 04:02:23.000
of comfort. It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself

1163
04:02:23.040 --> 04:02:34.680
and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1164
04:02:37.600 --> 04:02:43.079
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1165
04:02:45.159 --> 04:02:51.520
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1166
04:02:56.200 --> 04:03:03.639
where you can accept yourself who you are, a place

1167
04:03:03.680 --> 04:03:13.879
where you're not trying to please anybody else ever, a

1168
04:03:14.000 --> 04:03:22.600
place where you can actually not just love yourself, but

1169
04:03:24.040 --> 04:03:31.360
in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate

1170
04:03:32.840 --> 04:03:48.079
who you are. That sense of gratitude is in the

1171
04:03:48.120 --> 04:04:00.000
air all around you. That's also a place where you

1172
04:04:01.440 --> 04:04:15.000
can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

1173
04:04:16.040 --> 04:04:27.440
Healing energy soaking into your body, and that healing energy

1174
04:04:27.799 --> 04:04:38.120
spreads through your veins, traveling to each and every single

1175
04:04:38.479 --> 04:04:49.040
part of your body, and you start to realize that

1176
04:04:49.239 --> 04:04:56.559
actually that healing energy, it's not just entered into your brain,

1177
04:04:59.360 --> 04:05:09.399
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

1178
04:05:11.520 --> 04:05:22.520
is now mixed with heathing energy, not just allowing you

1179
04:05:22.559 --> 04:05:30.639
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

1180
04:05:35.079 --> 04:05:44.520
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

1181
04:05:44.719 --> 04:05:53.319
now with that heathing, relaxing energy spreading through your body,

1182
04:05:55.200 --> 04:06:06.040
it's actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

1183
04:06:06.120 --> 04:06:12.719
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1184
04:06:12.840 --> 04:06:21.799
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

1185
04:06:21.840 --> 04:06:29.680
physical health but your mental health, things that used to

1186
04:06:29.799 --> 04:06:35.920
bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

1187
04:06:37.200 --> 04:06:43.799
have the effect that they used to because something has

1188
04:06:44.239 --> 04:06:57.280
changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause

1189
04:06:57.360 --> 04:07:09.360
you to feel anger no longer have that power to

1190
04:07:09.479 --> 04:07:15.159
control you the way they seem to be able to before.

1191
04:07:18.799 --> 04:07:29.719
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1192
04:07:29.920 --> 04:07:41.680
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1193
04:07:42.479 --> 04:07:55.399
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

1194
04:07:56.319 --> 04:08:10.680
developments of healing, continuing to grow and improve your life

1195
04:08:11.040 --> 04:08:22.920
day by day, including of course, your ability to relax

1196
04:08:23.520 --> 04:08:38.040
so much easier and sleep in. It's the most natural

1197
04:08:38.239 --> 04:08:48.799
thing in the world to you, because falling asleep is

1198
04:08:48.879 --> 04:08:59.799
something that you've done so many times in your life,

1199
04:09:00.280 --> 04:09:04.360
and you know that you were born, as we all were,

1200
04:09:05.120 --> 04:09:15.239
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

1201
04:09:16.440 --> 04:09:26.879
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

1202
04:09:28.159 --> 04:09:39.959
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

1203
04:09:40.000 --> 04:09:44.079
and we don't even want to try to take us

1204
04:09:44.120 --> 04:09:48.559
stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or

1205
04:09:48.559 --> 04:09:52.879
it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1206
04:09:53.360 --> 04:09:54.639
We don't want to go to sleep.

1207
04:09:56.799 --> 04:10:01.840
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

1208
04:10:02.000 --> 04:10:10.360
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1209
04:10:11.040 --> 04:10:13.399
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

1210
04:10:13.440 --> 04:10:26.479
a safe the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

1211
04:10:26.520 --> 04:10:31.959
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1212
04:10:33.639 --> 04:10:43.520
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1213
04:10:43.600 --> 04:10:54.159
part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

1214
04:10:54.200 --> 04:11:07.719
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely.

1215
04:11:09.440 --> 04:11:27.440
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1216
04:11:34.159 --> 04:11:41.680
It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1217
04:11:41.719 --> 04:11:42.120
it is.

1218
04:11:42.159 --> 04:11:42.719
It's just.

1219
04:11:46.159 --> 04:11:57.639
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1220
04:11:57.719 --> 04:12:08.000
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1221
04:12:08.200 --> 04:12:16.319
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1222
04:12:17.319 --> 04:12:25.760
you have given me permission for my words to effect

1223
04:12:28.239 --> 04:12:40.159
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

1224
04:12:45.280 --> 04:13:03.719
your mind too useful and healing suggestions that can have

1225
04:13:08.079 --> 04:13:15.719
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1226
04:13:20.280 --> 04:13:30.120
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1227
04:13:30.239 --> 04:13:41.559
recording ends, Those changes within you that continue to flourish

1228
04:13:41.719 --> 04:13:56.360
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1229
04:13:59.399 --> 04:14:06.559
allow you to move forward in your life in the

1230
04:14:06.600 --> 04:14:23.879
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

1231
04:14:24.120 --> 04:14:39.799
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness. This

1232
04:14:40.000 --> 04:14:53.760
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1233
04:15:01.520 --> 04:15:06.280
and that positivity grows.

1234
04:15:06.360 --> 04:15:07.000
Within you.

1235
04:15:12.680 --> 04:15:24.719
Each and every day. Moving forward, you're going to find

1236
04:15:24.920 --> 04:15:36.840
that you're more relaxed physically and in your mind is

1237
04:15:37.040 --> 04:15:47.479
more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower. It's

1238
04:15:47.559 --> 04:15:52.079
just that your mind will be less clogged up with

1239
04:15:52.520 --> 04:16:05.319
unnecessary negativity. Is from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

1240
04:16:09.319 --> 04:16:17.600
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises,

1241
04:16:21.200 --> 04:16:32.360
and you can just say stop, stop, and that negativity

1242
04:16:34.799 --> 04:16:42.200
will turn around and leave you alone.

1243
04:16:45.840 --> 04:16:55.840
Stop and that negativity would disappear.

1244
04:17:03.959 --> 04:17:10.479
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1245
04:17:11.879 --> 04:17:27.239
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1246
04:17:27.440 --> 04:17:33.840
you're the person that has done this. You are the

1247
04:17:33.959 --> 04:17:39.040
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1248
04:17:39.239 --> 04:17:47.200
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

1249
04:17:47.840 --> 04:17:57.120
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1250
04:17:59.440 --> 04:18:05.159
the birth right of being able to just fall asleep

1251
04:18:05.520 --> 04:18:21.040
easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't

1252
04:18:21.040 --> 04:18:32.760
you think it feels nice? Doesn't it to feel calm full?

1253
04:18:32.840 --> 04:18:37.840
That healing energy is spreading through your body and your mind,

1254
04:18:44.319 --> 04:18:55.239
to spend time a special place where negativity can no

1255
04:18:55.360 --> 04:19:08.440
longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed

1256
04:19:08.719 --> 04:19:14.959
Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here.

1257
04:19:15.280 --> 04:19:16.920
It doesn't belong here.

1258
04:19:20.479 --> 04:19:35.360
Negativity has no place in your life, which makes room

1259
04:19:35.559 --> 04:20:06.600
for more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It

1260
04:20:06.639 --> 04:20:09.319
feels nice, doesn't it.

1261
04:20:09.760 --> 04:20:14.040
Just the let go.

1262
04:20:15.879 --> 04:20:35.799
With everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down

1263
04:20:35.879 --> 04:20:45.360
to one. You can continue to relax, if you choose,

1264
04:20:45.639 --> 04:20:59.239
you can drift to sleep. With every number you hear

1265
04:20:59.360 --> 04:21:10.959
me say, you can fill twice as relaxed, or if

1266
04:21:10.959 --> 04:22:31.159
you choose, you can fill twice as sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen.

1267
04:22:36.399 --> 04:23:36.200
Toelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1268
04:23:42.840 --> 04:23:43.079
Four.

1269
04:24:16.440 --> 04:24:26.479
This is your time to just take a break, your.

1270
04:24:26.399 --> 04:24:27.200
Time to.

1271
04:24:29.959 --> 04:24:46.280
Relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to give

1272
04:24:46.360 --> 04:25:05.120
yourself permission to take a break from everything. And you're

1273
04:25:05.159 --> 04:25:07.360
the only person that.

1274
04:25:07.440 --> 04:25:09.120
Can make that decision.

1275
04:25:11.920 --> 04:25:14.680
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

1276
04:25:19.479 --> 04:25:43.840
to just relax, to just take some time off so

1277
04:25:43.879 --> 04:25:44.280
that you.

1278
04:25:44.280 --> 04:25:46.479
Can focus on your body.

1279
04:25:47.440 --> 04:26:02.440
Getting in touch with how you feel physically, and in

1280
04:26:02.479 --> 04:26:10.280
the process of this body scan, where you focus on

1281
04:26:10.440 --> 04:26:20.600
different parts of your body, those parts that you focus

1282
04:26:20.639 --> 04:26:32.440
on and observe, even though you're not purposely requesting for

1283
04:26:32.559 --> 04:26:38.639
those parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

1284
04:26:40.200 --> 04:26:45.799
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

1285
04:26:46.760 --> 04:27:00.520
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

1286
04:27:00.520 --> 04:27:12.840
attention is focused on my words, and as my words

1287
04:27:13.760 --> 04:27:23.959
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

1288
04:27:27.719 --> 04:27:49.879
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

1289
04:27:49.920 --> 04:28:01.159
your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

1290
04:28:08.639 --> 04:28:10.000
And when your body.

1291
04:28:13.319 --> 04:28:33.200
Calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though who have

1292
04:28:33.280 --> 04:28:41.879
not really started the focus on your body, you.

1293
04:28:41.920 --> 04:28:44.200
Can already.

1294
04:28:45.120 --> 04:28:58.639
Feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing out

1295
04:29:02.079 --> 04:29:12.639
stress and tension, heathing all the parts of your body,

1296
04:29:14.520 --> 04:29:22.280
including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

1297
04:29:22.399 --> 04:29:28.120
organs inside your body, all of the muscles, all of

1298
04:29:28.200 --> 04:29:36.079
the fat, all everything, every hair on your body.

1299
04:29:37.840 --> 04:29:40.479
Is filled without healing energy.

1300
04:29:48.200 --> 04:29:49.559
And when your brain.

1301
04:29:53.840 --> 04:29:55.879
Fills with that healing.

1302
04:29:55.600 --> 04:30:22.760
Energy, the feeding of comforts of relaxation increases deeply increases.

1303
04:30:28.360 --> 04:30:29.680
In a way that.

1304
04:30:32.719 --> 04:30:49.440
Your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsing because it's

1305
04:30:49.559 --> 04:31:08.799
not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

1306
04:31:08.959 --> 04:31:17.319
what's needed. So if you're listening to this and what

1307
04:31:17.360 --> 04:31:21.239
you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

1308
04:31:23.360 --> 04:31:24.920
If what you need is.

1309
04:31:26.520 --> 04:31:33.639
To fall asleep naturally and easily, that your mind drifts,

1310
04:31:36.040 --> 04:31:39.840
that's also what happened.

1311
04:31:44.719 --> 04:31:48.159
Beccause by.

1312
04:31:48.360 --> 04:31:53.639
Pressing that play button on the podcast and listening to me,

1313
04:31:54.840 --> 04:31:56.799
I give permission.

1314
04:31:58.079 --> 04:31:59.799
For your body and your mind.

1315
04:32:02.840 --> 04:32:11.879
In fact, you give the command to your body and

1316
04:32:12.000 --> 04:32:23.200
your mind to relax deeply and to drift off to

1317
04:32:23.360 --> 04:32:31.760
sleep if that's what you want, what need.

1318
04:32:39.319 --> 04:32:41.040
And as I focus.

1319
04:32:42.239 --> 04:32:52.319
On the different parts of your body, you may start

1320
04:32:52.639 --> 04:33:00.600
to just drift. And then you come back again and

1321
04:33:00.760 --> 04:33:04.759
do you hear me talking? And I'm focusing on a

1322
04:33:04.880 --> 04:33:16.840
different parts of your body, and you may find yourself drifting,

1323
04:33:19.599 --> 04:33:22.080
but you don't realize you're drifting.

1324
04:33:23.439 --> 04:33:24.919
Until you stop drifting.

1325
04:33:27.240 --> 04:33:33.799
You're a laugh again to my voice. Focusing what a

1326
04:33:33.959 --> 04:33:39.319
different parts of your body starts to relax in deeper,

1327
04:33:43.720 --> 04:33:49.240
because that drifting is basically you already.

1328
04:33:50.919 --> 04:33:53.599
In the sleep side.

1329
04:33:58.720 --> 04:34:03.919
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, the

1330
04:34:04.040 --> 04:34:05.040
longer you dread.

1331
04:34:08.279 --> 04:34:20.000
Eventually that drifting continues into sleep, and that's.

1332
04:34:19.799 --> 04:34:21.680
The last you remember.

1333
04:34:23.200 --> 04:34:31.520
Until you wake up in your own time, when.

1334
04:34:31.319 --> 04:34:34.880
You experience the right amount of sleep.

1335
04:34:35.319 --> 04:34:44.400
Far because when you do, and if you do all asleep,

1336
04:34:44.599 --> 04:34:49.520
it's extremely pleasant.

1337
04:34:52.240 --> 04:35:01.840
So relaxing, so deep he sleep.

1338
04:35:12.119 --> 04:35:17.680
It feels so nice to relax into.

1339
04:35:18.799 --> 04:35:20.919
The one body in mind.

1340
04:35:25.319 --> 04:35:30.560
As you feel that healing energy is spreading through it.

1341
04:35:32.599 --> 04:35:54.639
Relaxing is so deeply, relaxing is so so deeply. We

1342
04:35:55.000 --> 04:36:08.319
start to focus on your eyes, un it down.

1343
04:36:10.880 --> 04:36:21.360
To your jewel. Now do you make.

1344
04:36:28.639 --> 04:36:30.479
The sholdest.

1345
04:36:37.119 --> 04:36:44.880
A hay.

1346
04:36:53.159 --> 04:37:50.599
FEUs. Yes, yes, boy you you max you f.

1347
04:38:00.240 --> 04:38:24.000
To and being easing, breathing.

1348
04:38:25.240 --> 04:38:32.040
Growing inside your body and then you are.

1349
04:38:34.919 --> 04:38:40.040
Now let's focus again.

1350
04:38:41.959 --> 04:38:43.040
On parts of your.

1351
04:38:42.880 --> 04:38:57.759
Body, focusing this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth,

1352
04:38:59.000 --> 04:39:00.080
your lips.

1353
04:39:01.639 --> 04:39:06.439
The tongue, all of your mouth.

1354
04:39:18.680 --> 04:39:22.279
Focus then one of the fingers.

1355
04:39:26.840 --> 04:39:31.159
And you really need it. Then your fingers, little good.

1356
04:39:31.520 --> 04:39:46.959
You can focus on each one individually, both hands and

1357
04:39:47.040 --> 04:39:49.439
even though if you focus on both.

1358
04:39:49.159 --> 04:39:51.159
Of your hands now.

1359
04:39:52.720 --> 04:40:01.000
They almost seem to just melt into one. Ware is

1360
04:40:01.080 --> 04:40:07.520
your right hands start to lift hand end.

1361
04:40:08.319 --> 04:40:14.880
Or masters there.

1362
04:40:12.000 --> 04:40:27.400
Just mixed together. Now focusing on your thes. Just noticing

1363
04:40:28.680 --> 04:40:53.400
how your knees fill now, focusing on your elbows, focusing.

1364
04:40:52.959 --> 04:40:54.520
On both of your elbows.

1365
04:41:00.680 --> 04:41:09.119
Just absurving, feasing of your holmors.

1366
04:41:32.319 --> 04:41:34.119
Now not disten.

1367
04:41:35.279 --> 04:41:39.240
Abserving what a back.

1368
04:41:49.119 --> 04:42:43.959
Feeding that energy? The back came back, its becus, its

1369
04:42:44.159 --> 04:42:45.919
cool sensations.

1370
04:42:47.439 --> 04:42:48.159
You think.

1371
04:44:07.080 --> 04:44:08.000
Being aware?

1372
04:44:09.799 --> 04:44:13.200
Now you joice?

1373
04:44:15.959 --> 04:44:20.759
Yea, right now.

1374
04:44:51.520 --> 04:44:52.560
What you say?

1375
04:45:02.840 --> 04:45:33.759
I et sire, body feels notice you mind feels. Now,

1376
04:45:51.880 --> 04:46:17.400
let him go, Let's h go, Let's see go everything,

1377
04:46:25.680 --> 04:46:51.639
Let's go, letsing go, let's go everything.

1378
04:46:59.599 --> 04:46:59.919
Mm hm.

1379
04:47:00.080 --> 04:47:10.520
Now I'm going to start now, and I'd like it

1380
04:47:10.720 --> 04:47:12.880
just first of all, just to see the sun.

1381
04:47:14.240 --> 04:47:15.080
Lying down.

1382
04:47:16.520 --> 04:47:20.400
On that message table, lying on the front.

1383
04:47:21.680 --> 04:47:29.680
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

1384
04:47:29.720 --> 04:47:35.919
feel comfortable and you're breathing. It's really easy, and you

1385
04:47:36.080 --> 04:47:42.680
feel you feel confident in how you look as well.

1386
04:47:42.840 --> 04:47:46.759
So there's none of that issue of body problems or

1387
04:47:46.919 --> 04:47:56.479
shyness because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

1388
04:47:57.319 --> 04:48:05.240
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

1389
04:48:08.119 --> 04:48:15.680
This is about how you feel, how you can enjoy

1390
04:48:16.639 --> 04:48:22.639
that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting

1391
04:48:22.799 --> 04:48:28.000
go and allow him my hands and my fingers to

1392
04:48:28.159 --> 04:48:40.040
relax you by a message your body. No one starts

1393
04:48:40.080 --> 04:48:44.880
off just by placing my hands on the back of

1394
04:48:44.959 --> 04:48:49.919
your head, just generally, just you can feel with my

1395
04:48:50.080 --> 04:48:52.400
hands feel.

1396
04:48:52.279 --> 04:48:59.000
Like really on you. So you can maybe feel the

1397
04:48:59.080 --> 04:49:01.279
warmth of my hand hands on the back of your head.

1398
04:49:04.639 --> 04:49:06.799
And with my hands to the side of your head,

1399
04:49:07.840 --> 04:49:14.400
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

1400
04:49:14.479 --> 04:49:18.119
your ears, and a little bit on your face, just

1401
04:49:18.240 --> 04:49:25.000
so you can feel my hands so you can become accustomed.

1402
04:49:26.040 --> 04:49:26.439
To them.

1403
04:49:35.080 --> 04:49:37.279
And now put my hands on the back of your

1404
04:49:37.319 --> 04:49:42.040
head again and gently let them slide down.

1405
04:49:44.400 --> 04:49:45.560
Onto the back of your neck.

1406
04:49:53.159 --> 04:49:54.919
You can feel my hands.

1407
04:50:01.400 --> 04:50:02.720
Gently stroking the.

1408
04:50:02.799 --> 04:50:09.119
Back of your neck. And to start with, just so

1409
04:50:09.240 --> 04:50:10.360
you can get used.

1410
04:50:10.240 --> 04:50:10.479
To the.

1411
04:50:12.319 --> 04:50:20.439
Feeling my hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize

1412
04:50:20.560 --> 04:50:22.040
that you're safe.

1413
04:50:22.799 --> 04:50:24.759
It's all good, it's all fine.

1414
04:50:31.159 --> 04:50:35.520
And really start gently messaging the muscles.

1415
04:50:35.200 --> 04:50:44.759
In the back of your neck with both hands.

1416
04:50:50.919 --> 04:50:56.959
And this is a very trusting situation really, because our

1417
04:50:57.080 --> 04:51:01.720
necks is so fragile to have someone have their hands

1418
04:51:02.439 --> 04:51:07.400
around your neck in that way and sometimes be problematic

1419
04:51:07.520 --> 04:51:13.119
for people, which is why massages are quite good because

1420
04:51:13.119 --> 04:51:22.000
it allows you to relax and to in touch with

1421
04:51:23.319 --> 04:51:39.880
trust to feel peaceful and calm. It's a massage the

1422
04:51:40.159 --> 04:51:42.759
side of your neck, gently.

1423
04:51:45.599 --> 04:51:51.279
Moving from the bottom of your neck to be sort

1424
04:51:51.319 --> 04:51:51.959
of near where.

1425
04:51:51.799 --> 04:51:52.919
Your shoulders start.

1426
04:51:53.000 --> 04:52:00.200
I guess, all the way up to your jaw. It's

1427
04:52:00.479 --> 04:52:06.240
kind of area. That side of your neck, of course,

1428
04:52:06.400 --> 04:52:08.759
is a lot longer than the front of your neck.

1429
04:52:21.759 --> 04:52:28.759
I'm the message in the back of your neck, especially

1430
04:52:28.840 --> 04:52:37.240
that area where perhaps we hold tension, and it's that

1431
04:52:37.439 --> 04:52:38.520
area's message.

1432
04:52:38.919 --> 04:52:42.959
You can actually feel a sense of release in the

1433
04:52:43.040 --> 04:52:50.880
back of your neck. Yah h. Maybe you can breathe

1434
04:52:50.880 --> 04:52:57.000
it out as well, not just how you feel.

1435
04:53:06.880 --> 04:53:10.279
Then moving down to that area between.

1436
04:53:10.000 --> 04:53:17.119
The neck and the shoulders, that must the area started

1437
04:53:17.119 --> 04:53:24.479
into message, the area on both sides, and this would

1438
04:53:24.520 --> 04:53:27.319
be the area that a lot of people would message

1439
04:53:27.360 --> 04:53:30.759
if they were going to give you, like the shoulder message.

1440
04:53:32.240 --> 04:53:36.000
Even that's more technically the shoulders, but it's all the

1441
04:53:36.080 --> 04:53:43.360
muscles that would lead to the shoulders and again making

1442
04:53:43.520 --> 04:53:51.000
whole attention and stress and massaged. Sometimes a nice deep

1443
04:53:51.159 --> 04:53:59.439
message is useful. What you decide how deep and messige was.

1444
04:54:11.080 --> 04:54:11.680
The well.

1445
04:54:13.599 --> 04:54:29.680
Becus just the deal the petsuls wos my idea yet

1446
04:54:30.080 --> 04:54:54.639
gets it's spreading down the air. Two hus who muss.

1447
04:55:01.520 --> 04:55:02.880
A w to you watch panting.

1448
04:55:04.520 --> 04:55:06.279
Another was got with the mone