June 9, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland.

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Who.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes.

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What else? M h? What do I normally say? Shall

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I say something? Oh? Itchy got itchy side? Hello? Pinny?

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So this is let be boy to sleep. Monday's boring objects?

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What could I talk about today? Well? You if you

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have you're not if you're not prepared, No, I haven't.

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Why not you should be prepared? You are you not

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a professional? No? Cat yourself a professional? No? Why are you?

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Don I don't know. You should know what you're doing. No,

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I don't know what I'm doing. I'm just plodding along

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hoping that I don't fall in a hole. Basically, So

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Monday's boring, op jets. I'm going to talk about something

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that I've never talked about before. It's a part of

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my life that I don't think I've ever even mentioned,

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which may surprise you that i'd done over one thousand

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and three hundred recordings. And how could I have not mentioned?

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How can I be at least one thing that I've

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not mentioned because I've not exactly had an interest in life.

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So but there is one thing, and I was thinking

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about this earlier when I was on the toilet. I

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don't know what what I thought about it then, But

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there's selfie that I wanted to be sot, this is

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what the subject is going to be then, but I'll

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be talking about myself. But the subject is entre entrepreneurship.

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That's the subject. That's the boring subject for today's Monday's

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boring object. So entrepreneurship or entrepreneurs Right from an early,

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quite an early age, I wanted to be successful in

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some kind of business. Clearly it never happened, but I

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kind of I don't know what it was. Maybe it

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was the idea of working for myself. I saw my dad,

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he was self employed, so he had a successful business.

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And I used to like watching del Boy on Only

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Fools and Horses, the duck in and dive in and

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arfur daily ducking and diving. And I wasn't so big

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on the con aspect of that, you know, selling people

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cars that didn't have any breaks. That wasn't you know,

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not really my style, but it made for a comedy show.

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So when I was in my I think my first

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delve into any kind of entrepreneurship, money making outside of

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working for someone else was probably when I was about thirteen,

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so yeah, I'm just trying to delve back to see

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probably thirteen. Yeah, so one of the things. So I

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started working, I think when I was twelve part time.

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I think twelve was the that was the minimum age

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to do a paper round. I think might have been eleven,

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but I think it was twelve, I think. And so, hmmm,

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I get a little bit modeled up because I had

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so many different paper rounds. I had a morning paper round,

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I hadn't eaten lot at different times, I had an

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evening paper round. I had a monthly delivering leaflets, and

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there was a fortnightly delivering these pamphlet things. I also

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worked in the bakery well as well as I also

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worked in the washing dishes in this restaurant, and then

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I worked in a bakery called a bakehouse they called it.

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So I started off working in the evenings just washing up,

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which is a cool job. Actually it was all right.

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So that was very busy, but it was okay, And

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I'd worked during the day, sometimes on a Saturday, and

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I think it was something like seventy five pence an hour,

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which may not seem a lot but when I was

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twenty one or twenty two, literally ten years later, I

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still was only getting about two pounds an hour, you know,

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so it was pretty you know, I was probably better

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off then than I was when I left school, so financially,

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I mean, but then I didn't have to pay rent

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or buy food, so I guess it was it was

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a little bit different. So forgetting the jobs I had,

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there was I don't know what it was, but I

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started to think, hmm, what can I do to earn

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some money. I don't know why I wanted to earn

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money because I knew I could do a paper around

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and I could I could get money. It wasn't a lot,

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but it was still you know, it was still okay.

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And I had multiple jobs going at the same time

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at times. Why I don't know why, but yeah, I

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just this this feeling, this need two do something too,

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I don't know, make something with myself kind of to

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be successful. It never happened, but you know, I kind

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of really was. I was going for it. So I'm

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not sure which order it happened. But I'll focus on

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what I did at school first, and then I'll talk

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about what I did outside of school when I was

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still at school, but what I did on the outside,

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and then I'll move into what I did once I

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left school. So this is how I worked this out

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in my brain. Okay, I categorized things, so I've broken

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it up into periods. So it's the period before I

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left school, those couple of years, three years or whatever

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before I left school. And then there's period when I

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was working at the chip shop and when I left

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the chip shop. So that's a little period on its own,

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can you hear that plane. Then there's another period, you know,

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So I broken up into periods. So the period before

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leaving school is then broken up into different periods. There's

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the period, it's the things I did at school and

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the things I did outside of school. And then I

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break it in again into those things that at school,

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those things that I was getting money for, and those

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things that I was owed money for. So at school

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there was a few trends. One thing I realized is

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people kept running out of pens. So I bought a

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bunch of pens and I would sell them and I

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made a profit, but it was just it was never

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going to buy me my new jet, you know. So

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that was a little bit boring I was walking around.

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I could walk to school with a whole satchel full

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of pens and come home and made like maybe fifty

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pence profit. It really wasn't worth it. And then but

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unfortunately the pens were rubbish as well, so that didn't

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really last. There was a reason they were so cheap.

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And then there was another trend. I mean, pens weren't

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a trend, but there was a couple of trends that

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I kind of jumped on. One was gobstoppers. Gob Stoppers

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became really, really really popular. And if you don't know

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what a gobstopper is is basically it just it's called

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a gob stopper because you can't talk when it's in

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your mouth. It's so big, and it's like a like

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a big ball at a Actually, when you suck the

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ball for long enough, it it's got like maybe different

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tastes and stuff, and probably a little bit like what's

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his name, Willy Wonka? It wasn't they had a gob stopper,

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didn't they? That was different flavors of dinner and stuff. Anyway,

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in the end, in the middle of right in the middle,

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there'd be like chewing them, but it would take ages

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to get through it, and the teachers would confiscate it.

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They'd make you spit it out if you had one

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in your mouth, and they saw it, which made it

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more attractive to the pupils. You know. It was like

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a challenge to be able to get away with spending

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the whole lesson forty five minutes with that, you know,

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something in your mouth. But what happened is people, I think,

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what happened to you hear that?

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Do you hear that?

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I don't think you hear that in a garden? It

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I distracted me, all right. So what it was is

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I noticed that when when one kid had something, all

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the other kids seem to want it, mainly the boys,

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to be fair, if one had it, others wanted it,

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but they couldn't have it because you know, they didn't

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sell god stoppers. The teacher didn't have a supply to

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sell to us. I probably would have gone against education

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standards possibly, But then I thought, hmmm, because I saw

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I had a friend who wanted who had one, and

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I said, can I have one? He said yeah, and

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he said it'd be a pound, And I think they

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cost like forty pence fifty pence to buy. Maybe twenty

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pence to buy, you know, so I was like okay,

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and I thought, hmmm, So what I did is I

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bought about ten of these and the sales technique was

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just to basically walk around sucking or be in a

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classroom break tom is good because people want stuff and

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it's easier to you know, exchange money and stuff during

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a break rather than at class time. So I made

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a few quid doing that. Another friend of mine was

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doing the same thing as well. Actually, so it wasn't

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I don't think it was really my It wasn't really

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my invention really. And then another thing happened where there

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was this trend where it was chucking coins at a wall.

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So let's say two people would chuck pound coins or

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fifty pence pieces against the wall and whichever one got

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closest to the wall would win the other person's money.

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That's the simplest way to explain it. Sometimes it yeah,

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it's exposed. It's it's a similar to bowls, you know,

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where you've got to get the closest to the ball,

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to the white ball. You've got to get your bowls,

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so you'd kind of knock the other the other person's

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ball out the way. So it's a little bit like that.

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So you might bounce off the wall, but not the

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other person's coined further away from the wall. And people

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were losing. What it nearly was every time someone lost,

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but then they'd like go double or nothing, double or nothing.

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And so I saw that people were getting they wanted

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to get their money back. And this is something that

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was happening every single break time, lunchtime, break two breaks

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and lunchtime every day for quite a while. I think

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it got banned in the end. Yeah. Yeah, that and

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the Ouiji board that got banned, and the gangs. They banned.

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The gangs as well, went through a little phase of

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having gangs, the Wanderers, the Warriors, the Wongs, just because

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of the Wanderers movie. And I started my own gang

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called the Silver Eagles, because no one wanted me to

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be in their gang. So I started my own gang.

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But I had I had the It was kind of

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like a misfits gang. And yeah, I went a bit wrong.

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So everything got banned because I had people in my

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gang that were actually acting like a gang. They didn't

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I don't think they realized it was just for fun. Yeah,

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So it's so then what I did is I thought

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people are losing their minds because they haven't got enough

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money to try and win back. So I started lending

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money because I had I had a couple of part

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time jobs, so I had I always had some cash.

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So I started taking like ten twenty pounds to scool

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with me. That's probably my life savings, to be fair.

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But and i'd always like one pound coins. And I

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started to lend people money. And I had a little

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book and I kept track of everything i'd had interest

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added on. I don't remember what the interest was. It's

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a long time ago, and I didn't realize how hard

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it is to do to be a money lender. Really,

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it's not an easy job. And I always thought, you know,

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you see these I mean it's many movies and TV

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shows and that I've seen, you know how money lenders

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operate in later years, you know, I sort of like

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how they can be quite quite naughty, you know, when

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it comes to getting their money back. But after doing

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it for a little while, I realized that people will

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make they will take the whatever you want to call it,

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as much as they can. They will avoid paying it.

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Sometimes they outright they like say nope, you're not getting

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it back and it leaves. You know, once one person

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does that, then the whole thing's gone. Now this happened

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to me. Someone decided they weren't going to pay me back.

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So I collected and I got a friend to come

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and he collected it for me. And I disliked the

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whole situation so much. It wasn't like awful, but it

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was very much. Yeah, I stopped it before it got

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our hand, and then that's when I realized that life

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is not for me. You know, a little bit of

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a little taste of that. It's like, no, over like

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two pound fifty, you know what I mean. It's like, no,

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it's really silly because my friend was my friend was saying,

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I'll give the money. You need to own the money.

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It was in the toilet at school, and this kid

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was saying, no, you ain't getting nothing, and he did

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end the pain. But it just wasn't wasn't It just

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wasn't for me. It wasn't for him, even my friend,

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because he's like, no, this isn't really what I want

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to be doing. So I think that's a good thing

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that it taught me that that sort of lifestyle was

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not for me. I'm a bit. I guess it's the

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word vanilla. I would be a little bit, a little

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bit peaceful. I think just had a bit of an interruption.

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Then someone knocked on No, they didn't knock on the door.

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They knocked on the phone. They rang on the door.

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They rang me up. That's it, oh key, When I

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was I talking about what was I talking about? When earlier?

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But what was it? It was something hmmm, pens, gobs, stoppers,

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coins against the wall, money lending. I didn't go really

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to plan change of mind with that stuff, and I

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think that was the end of my entrepreneurial career at school.

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That was it for the school thing. Outside of school,

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I had three different businesses that I started. And by businesses,

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I mean I put postcards in the local shop window.

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That's what I mean by businesses. With my telephone number,

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my home telephone number. The first one. There was three

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different ones. There was one for car cleaning, there was

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one for wait a minute, what was a car cleaning?

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Dog walking? And there was another one for looking after kids, babysitting. Now,

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I used to babysit my little brother, so I kind

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of knew my way around being a babysitter. So I thought, oh,

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maybe I can do this, maybe make some money out

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of it, because I was getting nothing for looking after

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my little brother all through the summer and in the

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evenings and like between school to say, evenings between school

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and like six o'clock. I was looking after him, and yeah,

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I just it was quite easy, well, yeah, generally, so

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I thought maybe I could make some money out of that.

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I didn't get any I might have even put an

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advert in the local paper as well. I didn't do

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any leaflets. Didn't make any leaflets at this point. I

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don't think I did. Maybe I did, but I think

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it was mainly just and if I remember rightly, it

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was just one news agents that I put my postcard

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in the window. Maybe I did it in two. I'm

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trying to think of the different places in town. There

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was definitely one place where I used to have my

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paper around anywhere else in town where was there another

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news agents? There was one down the seafront, and there

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was one on the way to my AND's house where

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I used to live when I was eight. Mm hm uh.

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That's the only ones I can remember. As far as

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the news agents go in that town. There probably was others,

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but not like within where I would go, Oh, no,

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that whara? Is that a news agent's. Yeah, there was

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a news agent's, of course there was, which was not

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near where I was talking about it. It was near

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where my dad moved to and I lived with him

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for a little while. It was opposite the co op,

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and it was it was kind of weird because it

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was it was next to a launderette, and then next

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the laundret was a hairdressers, and oppositely that was the

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co op. So it was like there was three shops,

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well the laundret to three buildings with three commercial businesses.

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So if you was standing outside the co op that

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I worked in, looked across the road on the left

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hand side, was was it Wagate road? BlimE me, I

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don't know if that's us that's come into our mind.

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It might be the road. So there's this news agent's

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quite a spacey shop actually, and then there was the laundrette,

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and then there was on the right hand side there

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was the women's. I think it was like a hairdresser's

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because in them days, you know, so a little while ago,

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would quite often just be for females. Barbers would be

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for men. But then some hairdressers would have different sections,

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one for men, one for women. Not It wasn't so

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much segregation. It's just unless it was because I went

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to a hairdressers that had a men's section and there

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was a women's section. It's yeah, for some reason, I

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got to get Yeah, I had my haircut and a

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women's section once because I had a PERM. I know

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it's at half perm. I was still at school, so

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I had a half perm because because I've got no idea,

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because I was fifteen, I guess fourteen fifteen seemed like

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a good idea. It was weird really, because I also

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dyed my hair dark brown. They might think, what's weird

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about dying your hair dark brown? And they having a

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half perm? These are two different, separate, different separate occasions. Well, firstly,

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my hair is already dark brown, so that was a

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bit pointless. And once my hair got past a certain length,

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it went curly. Anyway, I got naturally curly hair. I

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just I guess it has to get to a certain

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length before it goes curly curly. I'm talking about what

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when I used to have a full sexy head of hair. Yeah,

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the same hairdresses that I got my I think I

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did the coloring. I colored my hair from a box,

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you know, you know, from the soup. I don't know

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hair dye, I guess, so I did that myself, made

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a mess of it. I had a big Yeah. It

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was a bit weird going school that day, because it does.

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It doesn't just dye your hair if you leave it,

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it dyees your skin temporarily at least, And so I

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was going to I was, honestly, I was like. The

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teacher said, you can't come to school with black face.

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I said, I'm not, you know, because in that in

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that day, it wasn't it was okay to do that,

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but it was crowned upon even then. But I said,

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I'm not. I wouldn't do that stuff. It's so we'll

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take it off what you've got makeup on, so it's

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not it's dye. I've literally it dripped down my face.

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I was told to sit with it for an hour

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or whatever to let it soak in. So I thought

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I'd do it for two hours because it would definitely

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be done, and then rinse it off and then but

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it didn't say anything about my face. And the teacher said,

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were you not aware that it was all down in

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your face. I said, yeah, but I didn't. I was

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focusing on my hair. He said, don't you ever wash

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your face? I said this, yeah, I have done. It

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is what do you mean you have done? Do you

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not wash your face every day? And I said where

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you asked, I don't ask you personal questions. I don't

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ask you whether or not you flush. That's what do

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you mean, whether or not I flush? I said, I

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don't ask you if you flush a toilet when you've

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done a pooh. I said, well, everyone does, but I

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said so, I don't know if that's done if you do.

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He said, you just saying this, Jason, to distract the

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listeners from the fact that you said blackface earlier. I said, no,

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it's a term that people use. It's not a term

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I use, but it's a term that's used for someone

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that like puts like brown paint on their face, and

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it's not acceptable anymore. It was in the eighties. He said,

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we're in the eighties. I said, I know, but just

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getting confusing. You're talking about my listeners in thirty forty

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years time. But we're now in nineteen eighty four and

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things are different now. He said, yeah, I know, and

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I said, but that's not what I was doing. It

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literally it stained my face. He said, are you sure

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so you can see it? Try wiping it off? He said, nah,

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I don't want to touch you. I said, is it

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because of the healthy guidelines and child protection? He said no,

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you just look dirty. You just smell bad, and I

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don't want to I don't you look like you might

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have fleas. I said, well, you can't say that to me.

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You're a teacher and he said, I'm not a teacher.

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I said, what do you mean you're a teacher. You're

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here at the oh he said, I'm the janitor. Why

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would a teacher be cleaning the toilets? I said, oh,

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I did wonder about that, which brings me to the

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next question. Why are you asking me if I flush?

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You literally see me flush every day when you see me.

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Why are you hanging around the toilets anyway? And I said, well,

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that's what I was thinking about you now I know

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you're a cleaner. He said, what's your excuse? I said,

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I don't have one, And I said to him, be

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honest with me, mister janitor, do you feel we've managed

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to move away from you know what I said earlier,

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and he said, no, I'm not sure if it Maybe

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everyone's forgotten. I said, I don't know, because it wasn't

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used in a derogatory word way. It was literally just

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used in to someone thinking I was doing that when

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I wasn't doing that. I said, yeah, but it's the term.

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It's just not a nice term. I said, but I

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wasn't using that term. I don't use that term. But

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that's what the newspapers use. Well, that's what the news

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uses when a celebrity comes out and does something like that.

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I mean, you remember Ted Danson in the early nineties

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when he was dating Whoopi Goldberg. He painted He went

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to a fancy dress party and painted his face a

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different color and he got into a lot of a

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lot of trouble. Wow. The Jena said, how many people

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listening to this podcast do you think are going to

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actually remember that Whoopi Goldberg and Ted Danson used to date.

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That's a blast from the past. How do you remember

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things like that? Well, more importantly, why do you remember

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things like that? I said, it's always handy to get

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me out of trouble. I can use it as an

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example because of someone like Ted Danson, who was he

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was a legend. He is a legend, star of cheers,

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being in loads of movies, loads of TV shows. He

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is a legend, and he's still a legend now and

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he still makes good TV shows now even though he's

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sit in his nineties or whatever. And at the time,

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he was dating Woodpee Goldberg, who was also arguably one

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of the most famous actresses in Hollywood at that time,

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huge star, and she didn't obviously didn't care that he

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was putting makeup on. He said, ah, the janet. He said,

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what do you think about Woody Goldberg? Now? Then I said,

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what do you mean? Well, she seems to come up

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with quite a lot of criticism ever since doing that

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view show. We actually have a TV show based on

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that in the UK called Angry Women, Not Angry Women, Moaning,

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not moaning Women, Wicked Women. I told it's got a name.

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It's been shut down anyway, speak they've took it off air.

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Moaning not moaning it was. I used to watch. It

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was quite good. There's a few presenters on there that

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I really liked. Women Something Women, and it was kind

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of a copy of the view. I think the view

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was first, but it might not have been. But anyway

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that the Janet was say, or what do you think

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about Whoopie Goldberg?

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Now?

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I said, well, so, what you don't realize is I

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was a fan of Whoopi Goldberg before she was famous.

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He said, no, you wasn't You weren't a fan of it.

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I said, yes, I was. See Whoopi Goldberg did comedy

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before she was an actress, and she had a hit

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stage show on Broadway, which was one of the best

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shows I've ever seen. I wouldn't say I've seen them.

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I had it on video and I also had it

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on album as well. I still can't remember what it

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was called. But it was phenomenal. It was funny, it

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was insightful, intelligent, she did different characters. It's one as

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a one woman show, brilliant and I think she won

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Bafters or whatever. She were loads of awards for it,

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and that's what That's what got her into I guess,

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into being on TV and being in movies because I

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was such a big stand up fan and I collected

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albums and comedy video. I need to start doing that again,

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don't I. I just start collecting having a comedy collection.

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I like collecting things. I like looking at them. So

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if I had a row of comedy DVDs all along

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the wall, I'd look at them and think, oh, look

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at them. They're all comedy DVDs. I collected them. I

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spent ten years collecting them. And it'd have to be

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specific and don't have to be all stand up, and

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it'd be in groups. So maybe I'll have Maybe that's

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why I categorize things memories in groups, because it's a

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very librarian kind of way to do things, which means

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maybe I should have been a librarian. That didn't you know.

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I used to work in this children's charity. And this

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is when I was a counselor at the charity as well,

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and I couldn't work there anymore because of the It

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was just the working environment was not very nice. But

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I still stayed as a counselor. Part of my job

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when I was there for eight months I was there

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was to do admin pretty much, just to be on

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the reception. That was my job. There's more to it,

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I'll tell you one day. But it wasn't good. It

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was not good. But one of my roles was to

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alphab to organize is the files by alphabetic or order. Okay,

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So I left in two thousand and eleven August. I

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went back probably about twenty sixteen, maybe two thousand seventeen,

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maybe twenty eighteen, it was around that time. Was quite

469
00:39:22.320 --> 00:39:28.800
a few years later looking at maybe doing some voluntary

470
00:39:28.840 --> 00:39:31.159
work there, because I did volunteer work before, and I

471
00:39:31.239 --> 00:39:34.320
like being a voluntary volunteer. Just didn't like working for

472
00:39:34.360 --> 00:39:40.960
them because if you volunteer, people can't. They might try,

473
00:39:41.039 --> 00:39:44.400
but they can't be rude here, you know, they can't.

474
00:39:44.400 --> 00:39:48.159
They dislike they have to. I say, they have to.

475
00:39:48.760 --> 00:39:59.599
But generally volunteers hold all the cards really, you know,

476
00:39:59.760 --> 00:40:06.440
so a manager, supervisor, they got no choice but to

477
00:40:06.519 --> 00:40:14.199
really be gentle and respectful. I'm not saying that's always

478
00:40:14.239 --> 00:40:17.480
the case, but you know, in my experience that seemed

479
00:40:17.480 --> 00:40:20.559
to be the case. And that's what it was when

480
00:40:20.599 --> 00:40:22.639
I was as a volunteer there. As soon as I

481
00:40:22.679 --> 00:40:29.400
started working there, Wow, I was treated very differently. It

482
00:40:29.480 --> 00:40:35.360
was dark opposite. It's amazing considering it was a charity

483
00:40:35.400 --> 00:40:40.880
for children. So anyway, I thought, oh maybe I'll go

484
00:40:40.880 --> 00:40:44.800
and volunteer again. I was looking for some volunteer places,

485
00:40:46.599 --> 00:40:52.280
get me out, you know, just to do something, and

486
00:40:53.599 --> 00:40:56.000
so I go into this building just out of interest,

487
00:40:56.119 --> 00:41:01.880
like half hoping that the manager would have gone moved on,

488
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:05.639
got a different job, you know that hopefully she wasn't

489
00:41:05.639 --> 00:41:09.920
there anymore. But she was there, unfortunately, but it was

490
00:41:09.960 --> 00:41:14.840
worth a try, so I went in there. I'm talking

491
00:41:14.880 --> 00:41:16.920
to a man I've never met before. He was in

492
00:41:17.000 --> 00:41:19.840
charge of the volunteers, so he was saying, or we

493
00:41:19.960 --> 00:41:27.199
might have some volunteer work. And then in through the

494
00:41:27.239 --> 00:41:30.880
door comes not the manager, she did turn up later on,

495
00:41:33.400 --> 00:41:35.360
but a lady that I used to work with that

496
00:41:35.480 --> 00:41:38.360
was in the counseling office. I used to go really

497
00:41:38.360 --> 00:41:43.159
well with her. She came in. She was the one

498
00:41:43.159 --> 00:41:45.719
that would give me, tell me what I needed to

499
00:41:45.800 --> 00:41:51.760
do with the client files and the alphabetical stuff, you know,

500
00:41:51.880 --> 00:41:54.639
where to put it and stuff. She came in telling

501
00:41:54.639 --> 00:41:58.159
me that I had completely ruined everything and put everything

502
00:41:58.280 --> 00:42:05.599
into the files in wrong alphabet unalphabetically, and all it

503
00:42:05.679 --> 00:42:10.639
was is by surname, so you know it. And it's like,

504
00:42:12.440 --> 00:42:14.400
and I said, what are you talking about it? She says, yeah, yeah,

505
00:42:14.480 --> 00:42:16.039
you just messed it all up. She made it a

506
00:42:16.079 --> 00:42:20.400
complete nightmare because every seven years, I think it was,

507
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:22.679
they had to go through all the files and get

508
00:42:22.760 --> 00:42:26.559
rid of anything that was over seven years old. So

509
00:42:26.639 --> 00:42:29.360
they were going they were now in that process again,

510
00:42:30.679 --> 00:42:34.039
having and I was going through that process when I

511
00:42:34.119 --> 00:42:36.840
was working there, so it was the next turn to

512
00:42:36.880 --> 00:42:39.719
do that. And she was saying, you've made such a mess.

513
00:42:41.400 --> 00:42:45.480
Everything's in the wrong order and under wrong alphabet and stuff.

514
00:42:47.440 --> 00:42:51.760
I said, well, first of all, hi, how are you? Yeah,

515
00:42:51.840 --> 00:42:57.679
maybe say hello first. So they just moaning at me,

516
00:42:59.559 --> 00:43:03.239
desperate women, wicked women. What was it called? I can't remember?

517
00:43:05.159 --> 00:43:08.239
And I said, are you sure that it was me

518
00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:14.159
and not one of the many, many, many people that

519
00:43:14.199 --> 00:43:19.199
have come and gone in the last seven years. I mean,

520
00:43:19.199 --> 00:43:24.599
come on, how can you bear it in mind that

521
00:43:24.639 --> 00:43:28.840
the files at the time, there's seven years worth of

522
00:43:28.960 --> 00:43:35.519
files would have been put in there. Okay, how can

523
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:37.760
But I'm the one to blame for the whole thing.

524
00:43:37.880 --> 00:43:42.400
It's like wow, And I was amazed. It's like really,

525
00:43:45.920 --> 00:43:50.320
And the one thing I can do, I can alphab

526
00:43:50.360 --> 00:43:57.400
better to lize this is that makes sense. I know

527
00:43:58.119 --> 00:44:00.800
I might have to do it in my head or

528
00:44:00.880 --> 00:44:03.159
do it all my fingers to figure out what comes before,

529
00:44:03.639 --> 00:44:07.119
but I know A comes first and know the z's

530
00:44:07.159 --> 00:44:13.559
at the end. Somewhere and M and then oh, they're

531
00:44:13.639 --> 00:44:16.480
kind of in the middle ish b QoS. Do you

532
00:44:16.519 --> 00:44:20.320
know I might have to work it out, but I

533
00:44:20.360 --> 00:44:26.000
know that the F is after B. Just things like that.

534
00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:30.800
You know, I don't need a chart on the wall

535
00:44:30.840 --> 00:44:32.960
for me to look at it, but I know the alphabet.

536
00:44:33.519 --> 00:44:35.760
I can't do it backwards. There's a lot of things

537
00:44:35.800 --> 00:44:41.159
I can't do backwards. I can't do a wee way backwards.

538
00:44:42.239 --> 00:44:44.360
You know, why would I what would do? I can

539
00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:47.719
walk backwards, but I will bang into things.

540
00:44:50.079 --> 00:44:50.440
Did you know?

541
00:44:50.440 --> 00:44:52.519
I don't ever tell you The only time I ever

542
00:44:53.719 --> 00:44:57.440
ever had a black eye in my whole life was

543
00:44:58.760 --> 00:45:06.280
when I was walking home from school this kid. So

544
00:45:06.360 --> 00:45:11.920
I'm like shouting at this kid, and he's looking at me,

545
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:17.719
and he bangs into a lamp post because he's distracted

546
00:45:17.760 --> 00:45:20.280
by me. And I'm laughing my head off and I

547
00:45:20.280 --> 00:45:24.440
turn around and I bang into a limp post. Now,

548
00:45:24.760 --> 00:45:28.599
back in them days, the lamp posts were concrete. They

549
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.840
weren't like metal like they are now. Not saying that

550
00:45:31.480 --> 00:45:36.159
banging into a metal lamp post wouldn't be problematic, but

551
00:45:37.079 --> 00:45:43.480
these were solid concrete lamposts, and my eye just so

552
00:45:47.679 --> 00:45:49.480
I dy's looking at me? Do you like that sound?

553
00:45:53.000 --> 00:45:56.039
I was so proud of my black eye, my shiner.

554
00:45:57.320 --> 00:46:00.800
Really really loved it. I don't know why it's called

555
00:46:00.800 --> 00:46:06.719
a shiner, but I loved it. It's and it was like, really,

556
00:46:06.719 --> 00:46:17.480
my whole eyebrow is like blulu, so proud, and I

557
00:46:17.559 --> 00:46:20.199
was like walking around like I've just been in a

558
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:23.320
big fight, and I was a big man. I was

559
00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:27.760
probably about twelve, thirteen or whatever at the time. It's

560
00:46:27.800 --> 00:46:31.400
like yeah, but unfortunately my friend was just going around

561
00:46:31.440 --> 00:46:36.039
telling everyone, Yeah, he walked into a lamp post. He'd

562
00:46:36.039 --> 00:46:38.239
already told everyone before I got to school the next day.

563
00:46:38.960 --> 00:46:45.719
So I'm walking around like the big I am, and

564
00:46:45.800 --> 00:46:52.039
everyone already knew. So people was saying, what happened to you?

565
00:46:52.280 --> 00:46:54.000
Are you okay? I said, oh, you should see the

566
00:46:54.039 --> 00:46:59.039
other person. And I said that a few times. Eventually

567
00:46:59.079 --> 00:47:02.719
someone said, what the post? Lamp post looked fine this morning,

568
00:47:03.639 --> 00:47:10.079
still standing up? Ah, how do you know? Dean told everyone?

569
00:47:10.440 --> 00:47:14.440
Really said yeah, we didn't tell everyone, but everyone then

570
00:47:14.519 --> 00:47:18.440
just spread it around because he said that you were

571
00:47:18.480 --> 00:47:21.280
going to brag about being in a fight and how

572
00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:27.440
you beat up ten people, and you know why, you've

573
00:47:27.440 --> 00:47:32.960
got a black eye because one of them got lucky.

574
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.559
I said, Okay, I walked into a lamp post. What's

575
00:47:35.599 --> 00:47:44.800
wrong with that? It's funny, but it's not hugely glamorous,

576
00:47:44.880 --> 00:47:53.400
is it. Yeah, it's the only time never I've been bruised.

577
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:55.639
I've had bruises and stuff, but I've never actually had

578
00:47:55.639 --> 00:48:00.960
a proper, full, proper shiner time in my life. I

579
00:48:00.960 --> 00:48:06.320
ever got one of them. So yeah, I had my

580
00:48:06.679 --> 00:48:12.599
hair dark brown half a perm. I never really understood

581
00:48:12.639 --> 00:48:19.639
what half a perm was, but I was intrigued, very intrigued.

582
00:48:20.760 --> 00:48:22.119
I didn't know if it was going to half my

583
00:48:22.159 --> 00:48:24.119
hair was gonna be permed in our half would just

584
00:48:24.159 --> 00:48:31.440
be left. See. I didn't realize when I was between

585
00:48:31.440 --> 00:48:37.840
the ages of twenty and twenty four. Summer twenty nineteen

586
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:41.840
ninety four, I grew my hair long. So I had

587
00:48:41.920 --> 00:48:45.119
long hair all the way down to my middle of

588
00:48:45.159 --> 00:48:51.119
my back for years. But because my hair is so curly,

589
00:48:52.519 --> 00:48:57.320
it was almost impossible to manage. I'd have it in

590
00:48:57.360 --> 00:49:01.960
a ponytail most of the time. I didn't know that

591
00:49:02.000 --> 00:49:05.559
it was possible to straighten the hair. I could have

592
00:49:05.599 --> 00:49:08.679
straightened it, it could have been lovely. I could have

593
00:49:08.760 --> 00:49:14.079
still well. I wouldn't still have it, because I imagine my

594
00:49:14.239 --> 00:49:16.920
hair would have fallen out much quicker if I'd have

595
00:49:17.000 --> 00:49:20.079
kept the ponytail, because it really pulls on the roots

596
00:49:20.119 --> 00:49:24.519
than it. So I did think about growing my hair

597
00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:27.960
long just for the for a laugh, really, just to

598
00:49:27.960 --> 00:49:33.800
see what it would look like now being a bit

599
00:49:35.719 --> 00:49:49.440
mildly slightly marginally bald, how it would work out. But

600
00:49:49.480 --> 00:49:52.280
I just never got around to it because for some reason,

601
00:49:52.480 --> 00:49:56.000
the longer my hair gets the border I look, which

602
00:49:56.039 --> 00:50:00.400
is weird because the size get very curly. So what

603
00:50:00.599 --> 00:50:04.519
very thick curly hair at the back at the sides,

604
00:50:06.880 --> 00:50:13.239
not so much at the front. There's there's it's kind

605
00:50:13.280 --> 00:50:19.199
of like looking down on a forest, you know, when

606
00:50:19.199 --> 00:50:21.920
you look down the forest and it's like really thick forest.

607
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:26.599
Then you get an opening and on the on one

608
00:50:26.679 --> 00:50:32.119
side there's the like bits of opening that's like the

609
00:50:32.119 --> 00:50:34.800
front of my hair, and on the crown on my

610
00:50:34.840 --> 00:50:38.800
head it's like a lake. Is that's just like an

611
00:50:38.800 --> 00:50:42.440
opening completely. That's that's kind of what my the top

612
00:50:42.440 --> 00:50:48.320
of my head looks like. Yeah, I don't know if

613
00:50:48.320 --> 00:50:56.400
that's a good visual. I did have my hair bleached

614
00:50:57.880 --> 00:51:07.920
in nineteen eighty nineteen eighty eight. So I wanted to

615
00:51:07.920 --> 00:51:11.880
be like Bross. So my hair bleached, both my ears pierced.

616
00:51:12.639 --> 00:51:15.519
I got a lot of attention. I wanted a lot

617
00:51:15.559 --> 00:51:19.159
of attention, and I was get in it, but not

618
00:51:19.239 --> 00:51:25.639
for women, and I couldn't understand it. I was with

619
00:51:25.719 --> 00:51:29.519
my friend and we were going into like I said, right,

620
00:51:29.559 --> 00:51:32.400
all these men are chatting me up, what's going on?

621
00:51:33.679 --> 00:51:35.159
And it turned out we was in a gay bar.

622
00:51:35.320 --> 00:51:37.519
Didn't know. I didn't know there was a gay bar

623
00:51:37.559 --> 00:51:42.559
in town. The reason I liked it in there because

624
00:51:42.559 --> 00:51:45.679
it was friendly and it wasn't like a gay nightclub.

625
00:51:45.679 --> 00:51:48.440
It was just a bar, but it was run by

626
00:51:48.480 --> 00:51:55.119
a gay bloke, and the atmosphere in there was really nice,

627
00:51:55.599 --> 00:52:00.079
really nice. There was no arguments of no, no, it

628
00:52:00.119 --> 00:52:03.519
was just really nice. So I'd go in there because

629
00:52:03.599 --> 00:52:05.440
some people I knew went in there and just to

630
00:52:05.480 --> 00:52:08.440
have a chat, and it was bright and it was lovely.

631
00:52:10.119 --> 00:52:12.400
I didn't know it was a gay club or a

632
00:52:12.400 --> 00:52:17.559
gay bar rather because back then it wasn't official in

633
00:52:17.599 --> 00:52:21.079
a sense. It wasn't like an official gay bite. It

634
00:52:21.159 --> 00:52:27.199
was just a bar run for I guess, for his

635
00:52:27.400 --> 00:52:30.599
people that he knew, and for people to feel comfortable

636
00:52:30.599 --> 00:52:34.559
going there. And that's one of the things about I

637
00:52:34.599 --> 00:52:36.079
didn't know I was going to talk about gay bars,

638
00:52:36.119 --> 00:52:40.000
but I've been lots of gay nightclubs over the years

639
00:52:40.039 --> 00:52:44.239
when I was younger. The one thing, the two things

640
00:52:44.280 --> 00:52:48.199
I noticed, one thing I liked, one thing I didn't like.

641
00:52:51.119 --> 00:52:57.039
I liked the atmosphere. It's just such a good atmosphere.

642
00:52:57.519 --> 00:53:01.400
Never ever seen trouble in a gay bar or gay club.

643
00:53:01.440 --> 00:53:03.719
I'm not saying that it never happened, but I never

644
00:53:03.760 --> 00:53:08.599
saw it. And you know in London, you go anywhere,

645
00:53:10.719 --> 00:53:14.000
you know what I Mean's there's usually something happens during

646
00:53:14.039 --> 00:53:18.280
the night. Nothing nothing happened ever when I was out,

647
00:53:19.320 --> 00:53:22.960
and they're probably all too busy checking me out. And

648
00:53:24.920 --> 00:53:29.320
then the thing I didn't wasn't so impressed with. And

649
00:53:29.400 --> 00:53:31.920
I don't know why this is. And I've been in

650
00:53:32.000 --> 00:53:38.840
quite a few nightclubs during that period. Every single gay

651
00:53:38.920 --> 00:53:41.760
club or gay nightclub rave I went to, there's no

652
00:53:41.840 --> 00:53:47.440
lights in the toilets. I couldn't figure it out, Like,

653
00:53:47.599 --> 00:53:49.360
how am I supposed to know where? I remember saying,

654
00:53:49.360 --> 00:53:52.800
how I'm supposed to know where everything is? And you

655
00:53:52.960 --> 00:53:56.039
just follow the follow the follow the sounds, follow the noises,

656
00:53:57.199 --> 00:53:59.840
So does anyone know where the cubicle is? Like, so

657
00:54:00.000 --> 00:54:09.840
over here, okay, I lead you there, like no, it's okay, No,

658
00:54:09.960 --> 00:54:11.880
I don't need you to hold my hat. Oh you

659
00:54:11.960 --> 00:54:18.280
got lovely hands. Okay, but it's yeah, I remember, yeah,

660
00:54:18.280 --> 00:54:20.760
I remember got a girlfriend from a gay bar once.

661
00:54:21.679 --> 00:54:25.960
It was brilliant because it's that old you can't you

662
00:54:26.039 --> 00:54:29.840
can't pick up women in a gay bar. It is like, actually,

663
00:54:31.159 --> 00:54:34.519
I think women were there the same reason I was there,

664
00:54:34.639 --> 00:54:38.800
because it was a nice atmosphere. It was safe, unthreatening,

665
00:54:38.880 --> 00:54:42.800
it was nice, just a lovely place. So I used

666
00:54:42.800 --> 00:54:48.360
to meet women, well, particularly met one particular female, and

667
00:54:48.920 --> 00:54:51.039
I'm sure she was there for exactly the same reason.

668
00:54:51.079 --> 00:54:55.199
And we got on and we ended up dating, and

669
00:54:55.239 --> 00:55:02.679
we had a lot in common, you know, just chilled out,

670
00:55:02.840 --> 00:55:06.760
didn't really want all that the hassle. You know, it's

671
00:55:06.840 --> 00:55:10.800
quite nice to just she didn't want to be somewhere

672
00:55:10.800 --> 00:55:12.679
where she's going to be hit on all the time,

673
00:55:12.880 --> 00:55:16.840
and I quite like being somewhere where I was being

674
00:55:16.880 --> 00:55:20.880
hit on all the time, you know. And we ended

675
00:55:20.920 --> 00:55:29.920
up going out, and it's yeah, I remember, she was it.

676
00:55:31.599 --> 00:55:35.119
We couldn't go out, we kind of we had the

677
00:55:35.199 --> 00:55:39.880
first night together on that night, but we did arrange

678
00:55:39.920 --> 00:55:43.159
to meetach other the next day, and she phoned me

679
00:55:43.199 --> 00:55:48.079
out and said, oh, she couldn't meet me until later

680
00:55:48.119 --> 00:55:51.039
on in the day because she had to get a

681
00:55:51.079 --> 00:55:54.320
prostate exam. So I thought, okay, well we'll meet up

682
00:55:54.440 --> 00:55:57.280
later on. And it was good. It was a nice

683
00:55:57.320 --> 00:56:10.320
fromantic time. Yeah. Yeah, So one other things I My

684
00:56:10.440 --> 00:56:18.119
next delve into entrepreneurship was probably when I was at

685
00:56:18.119 --> 00:56:23.559
the chip shop, because oh yeah, I did get a

686
00:56:23.599 --> 00:56:32.000
couple of phone calls for the child minding service or

687
00:56:32.079 --> 00:56:39.039
babysitting service, and they all said the same thing, your boy.

688
00:56:40.239 --> 00:56:45.519
It's like, okay, weird question. I said, yeah, all right,

689
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:48.880
never mind by it. In the end, after a few

690
00:56:48.880 --> 00:56:51.320
of these corps, I said, wait a minute, what's the problem.

691
00:56:51.800 --> 00:56:55.639
I'm not leaving my kid with a boy. We figured

692
00:56:55.639 --> 00:56:59.000
that you were if you're offering a babysitting service, that

693
00:56:59.039 --> 00:57:02.480
you'd be female. I said, what difference does it make?

694
00:57:04.960 --> 00:57:07.119
I said, I babysit my little brother all the time.

695
00:57:07.920 --> 00:57:11.599
And ironically I didn't say this to the person because

696
00:57:12.079 --> 00:57:14.360
I couldn't really predict the future to him, but I

697
00:57:14.400 --> 00:57:17.880
would have said to him what I want to say

698
00:57:17.920 --> 00:57:21.519
to you is I had multiple people asked me to

699
00:57:21.519 --> 00:57:25.960
babysit their kids as I got older, because you know,

700
00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:32.280
when I was in a chip shop there was one, two, three,

701
00:57:32.880 --> 00:57:38.320
three different people asked me to babysit for them, and

702
00:57:38.320 --> 00:57:40.719
they pay me. They give me five quid or whatever.

703
00:57:41.599 --> 00:57:43.400
And it meant that they could go out for a meal,

704
00:57:43.559 --> 00:57:46.920
they could go out and do something, and I just

705
00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:50.239
turn up when they were already in bed. So I'd

706
00:57:50.280 --> 00:57:54.639
just go watch TV, watch a big, big colored TV

707
00:57:54.840 --> 00:57:59.599
and stuff. It was easy just sitting there for a

708
00:57:59.599 --> 00:58:01.639
few hours. I said come back and I go home,

709
00:58:02.079 --> 00:58:04.880
or they give me a lift home if if I

710
00:58:05.159 --> 00:58:11.519
you know, was if they weren't drunk. So I did

711
00:58:11.599 --> 00:58:15.480
it a few times and I did it again when

712
00:58:15.519 --> 00:58:18.119
I worked in the co op. I looked after my

713
00:58:18.159 --> 00:58:24.320
friend's kids used to babysit. I think that was it,

714
00:58:24.440 --> 00:58:30.679
but no. I also I was actually a childminder for

715
00:58:30.920 --> 00:58:35.440
probably about four months five months when I was eighteen.

716
00:58:36.639 --> 00:58:39.519
Actually lived in like a live in nanny, but all

717
00:58:39.519 --> 00:58:42.880
my only job really was just to take her to school.

718
00:58:43.239 --> 00:58:46.360
The rest of the time I'd just be I'd be

719
00:58:46.360 --> 00:58:48.800
in the flat while she was in bed, so I'd

720
00:58:48.800 --> 00:58:50.280
have to just make sure that she was safe, and

721
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:53.920
she'd be asleep anyway, and they'd be doing a night shift.

722
00:58:56.159 --> 00:58:57.719
So I did that for a while and then i'd

723
00:58:57.760 --> 00:58:59.719
take Yeah, I'd take her to school in the morning.

724
00:58:59.760 --> 00:59:04.280
That's it, and that was it. I didn't I'm not sure.

725
00:59:04.559 --> 00:59:08.360
Maybe no, I didn't pick her up from school. I

726
00:59:08.360 --> 00:59:12.480
think the mother picked her up from school because she

727
00:59:12.599 --> 00:59:15.400
was up by then, so she'd be in bed by seven,

728
00:59:16.000 --> 00:59:19.280
and then she'd be up again, probably by two two

729
00:59:19.440 --> 00:59:23.320
or three two. Probably the school was only around the corner.

730
00:59:27.400 --> 00:59:30.760
But I couldn't really use that as a as a

731
00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:35.800
defense when I was a kid, saying to this person

732
00:59:35.840 --> 00:59:38.239
on the phone, what difference does it make for my

733
00:59:38.320 --> 00:59:43.239
boy or a girl? Just I didn't really get it,

734
00:59:43.239 --> 00:59:46.079
to be honest, I didn't understand. I didn't see what

735
00:59:46.119 --> 00:59:49.639
the difference would be. But yeah, I didn't get any

736
00:59:49.679 --> 00:59:54.599
work anyway. And then when I was at the chip shop,

737
00:59:55.519 --> 00:59:58.239
it it got a bit silly because I had literally

738
00:59:58.239 --> 01:00:01.559
I was selling my furniture just so I could get by,

739
01:00:02.800 --> 01:00:06.719
because my dad had all my furniture and storage from

740
01:00:06.719 --> 01:00:10.800
my bedroom. So when I got that flat, he moved in,

741
01:00:12.400 --> 01:00:14.880
you know, as far as the furniture goes. Probably the TV.

742
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:17.159
I'm thinking about it. I probably did get the TV,

743
01:00:17.239 --> 01:00:19.599
so it was in storage. I was wondering the other

744
01:00:19.679 --> 01:00:23.679
day what happened to that TV. I got my bed,

745
01:00:24.599 --> 01:00:43.920
I got my wardrobe and bed wardrobe. There probably wasn't

746
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:48.159
much more. Probably maybe a chair. That was about it. Really,

747
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:52.679
there wasn't like a lot of things. I didn't have,

748
01:00:52.760 --> 01:00:57.880
like huge amounts of belongings. I wonder where everything went.

749
01:00:58.599 --> 01:01:03.239
I must have had some stuff because it was in

750
01:01:03.400 --> 01:01:09.679
storage downstairs in the garage where at my step NaN's place.

751
01:01:12.880 --> 01:01:16.239
I mean all my weights and my punch bags and

752
01:01:16.280 --> 01:01:22.239
all that stuff I sold before I even moved into

753
01:01:22.239 --> 01:01:24.960
the flat of the chip shop. So I didn't have

754
01:01:25.000 --> 01:01:27.199
any of that stuff anymore because I wasn't able to

755
01:01:27.320 --> 01:01:28.880
use that. For was a point neving it if I

756
01:01:28.880 --> 01:01:31.840
can't use it, because at the time I didn't know

757
01:01:31.920 --> 01:01:40.679
I was ever going to find anywhere else to live. Yeah,

758
01:01:41.199 --> 01:01:43.239
So I got to the point where I was sleeping

759
01:01:43.280 --> 01:01:47.599
on the floor on a mattress in the living room,

760
01:01:49.239 --> 01:01:56.960
and I didn't really have any belongings. So I started

761
01:01:56.960 --> 01:02:00.760
to for what can I do? So I started to

762
01:02:00.800 --> 01:02:04.519
be a bit of a wheeler dealer, and I knew

763
01:02:04.559 --> 01:02:09.920
some people that had stuff to sell or stuff for

764
01:02:10.000 --> 01:02:13.440
me to buy to sell, and sometimes they'd let me

765
01:02:13.480 --> 01:02:16.800
have it and I'd pay them once I got the

766
01:02:16.840 --> 01:02:20.440
money from the person I was selling it to, which

767
01:02:20.480 --> 01:02:22.039
is quite a good deal for me because I didn't

768
01:02:22.039 --> 01:02:24.719
have any sort of cash to play with. So I

769
01:02:24.760 --> 01:02:26.679
did that for a bit, sold a few little bits

770
01:02:26.679 --> 01:02:31.320
and bobs sold a fridge freezer. That's probably my biggest sell.

771
01:02:31.599 --> 01:02:34.199
I think I made about forty five pounds for that,

772
01:02:35.559 --> 01:02:39.280
which was pretty much double what I was getting a

773
01:02:39.320 --> 01:02:43.000
week in my pocket, so that was quite a nice

774
01:02:43.039 --> 01:02:48.880
bit of money. What else then I got what I

775
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.719
started doing. I met a jeweler who was one of

776
01:02:51.719 --> 01:02:54.639
the customers, and he was telling me that there was

777
01:02:55.599 --> 01:03:00.320
money and jewelry, and I think he was kind of hired.

778
01:03:00.400 --> 01:03:05.119
He had a jewelry store, retired and he'd been in

779
01:03:05.159 --> 01:03:09.039
London or something, but he still kind of did a

780
01:03:09.039 --> 01:03:13.119
little bit on the side, you know. So I talked

781
01:03:13.119 --> 01:03:19.039
to him and I was like, oh, he sometimes he

782
01:03:19.119 --> 01:03:21.199
showed me catalogs. I'll be sitting on his lap and

783
01:03:21.199 --> 01:03:25.719
he showed me catalogs and bits of the jewelryes, and

784
01:03:25.760 --> 01:03:28.760
like said, well, you could the markup prices for that,

785
01:03:29.920 --> 01:03:34.719
so you can you can spend one hundred pounds on

786
01:03:34.800 --> 01:03:37.079
something to sell it for like maybe three point fifty

787
01:03:37.159 --> 01:03:42.920
four hundred because the more something costs, the more valuable

788
01:03:43.000 --> 01:03:47.039
it feels to the person buying it. But the markup

789
01:03:47.119 --> 01:03:54.880
is really high, and thought all so I kind of

790
01:03:55.000 --> 01:04:04.559
looked into it, and again this man decide he said

791
01:04:04.599 --> 01:04:09.840
he could sell me stuff, so he gave me a catalog. Again,

792
01:04:10.079 --> 01:04:12.679
I would buy the stuff, I would sell it, and

793
01:04:12.719 --> 01:04:16.960
then he would provide me with that and I would

794
01:04:17.000 --> 01:04:19.280
get the money for him. So that's kind of I

795
01:04:19.320 --> 01:04:24.559
would order from him and sell it to people. Now,

796
01:04:24.599 --> 01:04:28.199
I sold a couple of rings, but they didn't really

797
01:04:28.239 --> 01:04:33.440
go very far. It's only so much you can do

798
01:04:33.760 --> 01:04:38.440
when you work in a chip shop. Because it was

799
01:04:38.519 --> 01:04:47.079
quite hard for me to present myself as successful to

800
01:04:47.199 --> 01:04:49.400
the people on the other side of the counter, the

801
01:04:49.480 --> 01:04:57.119
customers successful enough to depart with their money for jewelry

802
01:04:58.679 --> 01:05:03.559
when I I stunk of fish and I was wearing

803
01:05:05.280 --> 01:05:09.480
just dirty were not dirty bit clothes that were just horrible,

804
01:05:09.519 --> 01:05:15.360
and I, yeah, I didn't I didn't really, I didn't

805
01:05:15.400 --> 01:05:19.639
fit the part. I got a couple of sales but

806
01:05:19.800 --> 01:05:23.880
you know, it didn't work great, but it was something,

807
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:26.519
so I kind of made a little bit of money.

808
01:05:28.519 --> 01:05:33.159
My friend came around once with some a big black

809
01:05:33.239 --> 01:05:43.519
bag full of cigarettes, and that was he. He had

810
01:05:43.519 --> 01:05:46.079
a friend who had a friend and we were going

811
01:05:46.159 --> 01:05:50.360
to sell them in the pubs. So I stored them.

812
01:05:50.840 --> 01:05:52.639
This is before I moved into the flat, So this

813
01:05:52.719 --> 01:05:56.480
is a long time ago, before I moved into the

814
01:05:56.480 --> 01:05:58.559
the flat above the chip shops. So this is like

815
01:05:58.800 --> 01:06:10.480
forty wow, forty years ago. And so we're all ready

816
01:06:10.519 --> 01:06:13.079
to go out that night and you know, go into

817
01:06:13.119 --> 01:06:15.199
the pubs, and just so I couldn't even get served

818
01:06:15.199 --> 01:06:17.480
in the pubs. I was what fifteen at the time.

819
01:06:18.119 --> 01:06:21.199
So let's go around and sell these cigarettes to people.

820
01:06:22.000 --> 01:06:24.159
And he came around. I thought, but all right, let's

821
01:06:24.159 --> 01:06:27.119
get ready to go, and they said no, it's a problem.

822
01:06:27.440 --> 01:06:31.599
I said what And he showed me the newspaper and

823
01:06:32.760 --> 01:06:37.480
what He didn't know where the cigarettes had come from.

824
01:06:38.400 --> 01:06:41.639
So he sped the rest of the evening disposing of them,

825
01:06:42.800 --> 01:06:48.199
because you know, it was dodgy. It's like, I can't

826
01:06:48.199 --> 01:06:51.239
believe it. I really I didn't mind being a wheeler.

827
01:06:51.400 --> 01:06:53.639
I was trying to be a wheeler dealer. But I

828
01:06:53.719 --> 01:06:59.519
wasn't trying to be a criminal. I'm a criminal, So yeah,

829
01:06:59.559 --> 01:07:03.440
that wasn't It wasn't great, I mean ideally old. It

830
01:07:03.559 --> 01:07:07.559
just sort of it wasn't one hundred percent sure it

831
01:07:07.639 --> 01:07:10.039
was from there, but it just seemed a little bit

832
01:07:10.039 --> 01:07:13.760
of a coincidence. No one sort of knew, well, no

833
01:07:13.760 --> 01:07:16.800
one that did know would tell, which is probably the

834
01:07:16.880 --> 01:07:24.079
right thing anyway. But so we're walking around disposing of

835
01:07:24.119 --> 01:07:31.320
them for hours, literally taking them out of packets and

836
01:07:31.679 --> 01:07:34.360
breaking them up one by one. They must have been

837
01:07:36.119 --> 01:07:39.159
there was a lot, a lot as yeah, a lot,

838
01:07:42.800 --> 01:07:46.519
a lot of money's worth. Actually, in today's money, that

839
01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:55.519
would be worth probably a couple of thousand pounds worth

840
01:07:55.519 --> 01:08:00.360
of cigarettes. Now it was about twenty pounds a packets now,

841
01:08:00.440 --> 01:08:05.559
so yeah, at least one hundred packs, probably maybe even

842
01:08:05.559 --> 01:08:12.119
more than that. So yeah, it's after that I didn't

843
01:08:12.159 --> 01:08:16.439
I thought, no, I don't think I'm gonna I'm not

844
01:08:16.439 --> 01:08:19.439
going to sell contraband, not contraband, but I just the

845
01:08:19.520 --> 01:08:23.560
idea of I didn't want to sell stolen goods. I

846
01:08:23.600 --> 01:08:25.239
mean it might not have been, but I didn't want

847
01:08:25.239 --> 01:08:28.159
to do that anyway because I was in such a

848
01:08:28.159 --> 01:08:31.079
small town you couldn't get away with it. And I

849
01:08:31.079 --> 01:08:34.079
when I moved to London, I was buying stuff all

850
01:08:34.119 --> 01:08:40.159
the time that was snide or dodgy, stuff that had

851
01:08:40.159 --> 01:08:43.479
come in on the boats. I don't mean I wasn't

852
01:08:43.479 --> 01:08:50.159
buying immigrants. I wasn't buying illegals. No, there was like

853
01:08:51.960 --> 01:08:56.359
tapes that were what do you call them, like copies

854
01:08:56.399 --> 01:09:02.840
of stuff snids. I suppose that's what they call I

855
01:09:02.840 --> 01:09:05.720
forget what they call them. But yeah, So that was

856
01:09:05.720 --> 01:09:10.000
the end of that criminal empire, just wasn't for me.

857
01:09:13.439 --> 01:09:18.880
And then I traveled to London to the main place

858
01:09:18.960 --> 01:09:23.159
where they sell jewelry. And this is probably a little

859
01:09:23.199 --> 01:09:26.760
bit later, probably Yeah, that was a couple of years later,

860
01:09:26.800 --> 01:09:31.840
probably about nineteen eighty nine. I went to London and

861
01:09:31.880 --> 01:09:35.920
I bought I probably spent about one hundred pounds on jewelry,

862
01:09:36.479 --> 01:09:42.600
brought it back trying to sell it, and I was

863
01:09:42.640 --> 01:09:45.520
even walking through the train trying to sell it to

864
01:09:45.560 --> 01:09:50.319
people on the train. What was going on in my mind?

865
01:09:50.439 --> 01:09:54.439
I didn't sell anything, But I don't know where I

866
01:09:54.600 --> 01:10:03.479
got the the confidence should we say, maybe stupidity, but confidence?

867
01:10:03.479 --> 01:10:05.960
Where did I get that from to be able to

868
01:10:06.000 --> 01:10:08.439
walk up to complete strangers on the train that were

869
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:13.079
sitting there and try and sell them jewelry out of

870
01:10:13.119 --> 01:10:17.079
a carrier back. It didn't even know No, I don't

871
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:20.359
think they even had boxes, which was a bit silly.

872
01:10:22.079 --> 01:10:26.680
Like Yeah, in the end, I'm not sure. I think

873
01:10:26.720 --> 01:10:31.319
I did sell some, but I think I didn't sell many.

874
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:36.760
I did sell some, not on the train, but afterwards

875
01:10:37.479 --> 01:10:42.960
I might have given a few away. But another thing

876
01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:48.079
I did is I bought the Exchange and Mart, which

877
01:10:48.159 --> 01:10:53.680
was a magazine and very famous for it was very famous.

878
01:10:53.680 --> 01:10:56.840
I'm not sure if it's still around. It might be

879
01:10:56.880 --> 01:11:01.680
a website now, but people used to sell their cars

880
01:11:01.720 --> 01:11:06.199
on there. Buy and selling cars. They also had buying

881
01:11:06.239 --> 01:11:08.840
and selling number plates was a very that was a

882
01:11:08.920 --> 01:11:14.720
very kind of specialized thing. But there's also a business

883
01:11:14.760 --> 01:11:23.800
section where you could phone up or send off for

884
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:28.199
a business kit absolutely free, and it'd be a like

885
01:11:28.319 --> 01:11:31.039
free business idea and you go along and they just

886
01:11:31.079 --> 01:11:33.520
send it to you in the post and you'd give

887
01:11:33.560 --> 01:11:35.520
it go and see if you could, you know, make

888
01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:40.880
money from it. And I did that for every single

889
01:11:41.039 --> 01:11:46.479
business opportunity there was. And I remember I came downstairs

890
01:11:46.520 --> 01:11:52.720
one morning and I had about forty five. It was

891
01:11:52.760 --> 01:11:56.399
a brilliant day. I had about forty five packages or

892
01:11:56.600 --> 01:12:02.720
envelopes with stuff in with all these different things. It's different,

893
01:12:02.800 --> 01:12:04.880
you know, because I was just giving stuff away free,

894
01:12:05.119 --> 01:12:08.800
trying to get people to sell it, samples and stuff.

895
01:12:09.760 --> 01:12:14.199
It was so good. There was financial plans. There was

896
01:12:15.439 --> 01:12:20.439
even money lending, which perhaps wasn't a good thing to

897
01:12:20.439 --> 01:12:26.239
me get to get involved in again. But the one

898
01:12:26.279 --> 01:12:30.039
thing I did take up, I did sort of delve

899
01:12:30.039 --> 01:12:33.319
into the jewelry, try to start business as a jeweler

900
01:12:35.439 --> 01:12:39.760
kind of in person. I had this idea that i'd

901
01:12:39.800 --> 01:12:44.520
be I'd call myself mister Gold, and I'd travel. I'd

902
01:12:44.560 --> 01:12:49.199
go around the pubs and I'd wear lots of jewelry

903
01:12:49.399 --> 01:12:54.000
and a suit, and everyone would come to me for

904
01:12:54.119 --> 01:12:58.279
their jewelry requirements and I'd just be known in the

905
01:12:58.319 --> 01:13:01.479
local town. And that would be if someone got engaged,

906
01:13:02.640 --> 01:13:06.720
they'd come to me because I would get them a

907
01:13:06.800 --> 01:13:11.760
reduced rate than what they would get in jewelers, but

908
01:13:11.840 --> 01:13:18.439
it would still be the same quality. Didn't quite work out,

909
01:13:18.920 --> 01:13:24.119
that was the plan, And so I had leaflets made

910
01:13:24.199 --> 01:13:29.359
up and you know, all this stuff done, and yeah,

911
01:13:29.479 --> 01:13:38.239
I had necklaces and yeah, it didn't quite work. The

912
01:13:38.279 --> 01:13:43.119
next thing I tried was perfume. Now this company, I

913
01:13:43.119 --> 01:13:45.600
still feel a little bit giddy thinking about it because

914
01:13:45.600 --> 01:13:51.359
it was exciting. They sent me a whole pack of perfumes,

915
01:13:51.960 --> 01:13:57.079
a big sample pack, like big. You know, we would

916
01:13:57.119 --> 01:14:00.279
go through the letterbox. I mean, it might argue because

917
01:14:00.279 --> 01:14:02.840
it wouldn't go through letbox doesn't mean it doesn't mean

918
01:14:02.840 --> 01:14:07.600
it's like big, but it was big. It was kind

919
01:14:07.600 --> 01:14:14.880
of like suits, I don't know, not suitcase size, but

920
01:14:15.840 --> 01:14:21.960
briefcase size, maybe maybe a bit smaller than briefcase. And

921
01:14:22.000 --> 01:14:28.920
the samples were nice, really nice, and they'd be it

922
01:14:29.039 --> 01:14:34.039
was so I felt professional. So what I did I

923
01:14:34.079 --> 01:14:38.640
started going around to people I knew, and it'd be

924
01:14:39.560 --> 01:14:48.239
almost like an Ann Summer's party, but with perfume, but

925
01:14:48.399 --> 01:14:54.520
without any laughter or people. So I guess there's nothing

926
01:14:54.560 --> 01:14:59.119
like an n Summer's party. But I knew a few people,

927
01:14:59.159 --> 01:15:03.359
a few females, and I just like, try that because

928
01:15:03.359 --> 01:15:06.359
back in them days, perfume, you know, it's it's not

929
01:15:06.840 --> 01:15:12.319
things were different. There wasn't a lot of is it

930
01:15:12.399 --> 01:15:16.560
cologne that men wear, which is basically just perfume, isn't it?

931
01:15:16.560 --> 01:15:19.680
So that there wasn't a lot of really kind of

932
01:15:19.840 --> 01:15:25.720
men perfume like there is now. Not that I don't

933
01:15:25.760 --> 01:15:26.520
wear cologne.

934
01:15:28.199 --> 01:15:28.840
I just like.

935
01:15:31.479 --> 01:15:35.159
And I like an old fashioned bio. I think that's perfect.

936
01:15:36.520 --> 01:15:40.720
Oh hm, I thought you were coming and could smell

937
01:15:40.760 --> 01:15:45.119
you from a block off, block off, block away, block away,

938
01:15:45.640 --> 01:15:55.159
a mile away, so I don't have bo It's weird though,

939
01:15:55.159 --> 01:15:58.119
because I've known a few people like really really bad

940
01:15:58.199 --> 01:16:03.920
bo in it. And I was sitting there. I was

941
01:16:04.000 --> 01:16:07.039
in there, working in the place, and the person's I

942
01:16:07.119 --> 01:16:11.239
wasn't far from their armpit. It just the working environment

943
01:16:11.399 --> 01:16:16.039
meant that perhaps I need to explain that, but you know,

944
01:16:16.159 --> 01:16:22.760
I could smell them. And I was also near the microwave,

945
01:16:24.079 --> 01:16:29.920
and the microwave was heating up a pie. And it

946
01:16:29.960 --> 01:16:31.760
was weird because I was kind of getting a little

947
01:16:31.800 --> 01:16:37.039
bit of a similar smell from both his armpit and

948
01:16:37.079 --> 01:16:41.239
the microwave, and they were almost like they were mixing together,

949
01:16:42.439 --> 01:16:47.640
really like having a little dance in the air. The

950
01:16:48.039 --> 01:16:52.800
two smells were. And if it's symbiotic whatever, like a

951
01:16:52.880 --> 01:17:00.840
little symbiotic bouncing on a symbiotic trampoline, I don't know,

952
01:17:03.039 --> 01:17:10.560
but I was like, oh, that's weird. And then I

953
01:17:10.600 --> 01:17:18.800
started to think, is the pie is smelling like his armpits?

954
01:17:19.359 --> 01:17:23.239
Or is the armpits smelling like that pie? Now I

955
01:17:23.239 --> 01:17:26.600
didn't know what kind of pie it was because I

956
01:17:26.640 --> 01:17:32.560
wasn't the one heating the pie up, so and the

957
01:17:32.600 --> 01:17:38.760
pies all had different bottoms of like tin foil. Obviously

958
01:17:38.760 --> 01:17:41.479
don't put the tin fold in the microwave, but they

959
01:17:41.520 --> 01:17:49.279
all had different So I'm standing there thinking what was

960
01:17:49.319 --> 01:17:52.279
I sitting down? Sometimes I sit down when I want

961
01:17:52.279 --> 01:17:54.680
to enjoy a smell and try and figure out what

962
01:17:54.840 --> 01:17:59.880
the substances, especially if there's two different smells. Sometimes I

963
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:04.239
to rest my legs. On this occasion, I think I

964
01:18:04.279 --> 01:18:09.039
was just standing. Yeah, because he was very tall. That's

965
01:18:09.039 --> 01:18:10.880
why I was able to get to the arm not

966
01:18:10.960 --> 01:18:13.000
get to the arm pits. But that's why the arm

967
01:18:13.000 --> 01:18:15.359
pits are a little bit closer to me. And I didn't

968
01:18:15.359 --> 01:18:18.239
actually have my nose in his armpit. That would have

969
01:18:18.279 --> 01:18:22.159
been inappropriate to do that when there was customers around.

970
01:18:23.279 --> 01:18:25.680
But the microwave was also to right at me, he

971
01:18:25.920 --> 01:18:29.399
was to left of me because we was in a

972
01:18:29.479 --> 01:18:39.199
like a food environment. I thought, I wonder what kind

973
01:18:39.199 --> 01:18:44.439
of pie it is? Then? Is it a chicken pie?

974
01:18:45.840 --> 01:18:49.159
Is it a vegetable pie. I don't know why I'm

975
01:18:49.159 --> 01:18:54.000
squeaking when I say the word pie pie. But they

976
01:18:54.039 --> 01:18:59.359
had different metal covers, like or not covers, but holders.

977
01:19:00.159 --> 01:19:07.560
So the chicken ones were yellow, the I think the

978
01:19:07.880 --> 01:19:18.680
steak ones were oblong with purple bombs purple aluminium or

979
01:19:19.279 --> 01:19:24.359
aluminium aluminium is the correct way to say that. But

980
01:19:24.479 --> 01:19:29.520
the bottom of the one with silver aluminium, which meant

981
01:19:29.560 --> 01:19:32.479
it was a beef and onion pie. And I thought

982
01:19:32.479 --> 01:19:44.600
to myself, beef and onion, beef an onion. But I

983
01:19:44.600 --> 01:19:47.239
didn't realize I was saying it out loud. The customers

984
01:19:47.239 --> 01:19:50.439
will looking at me a bit weird. The person I

985
01:19:50.479 --> 01:19:54.279
was working with was like, we're talking about But then

986
01:19:54.279 --> 01:19:56.520
when the customer shouted out, no, he's talking about my pie.

987
01:19:56.560 --> 01:19:59.279
It's in a microwave. It sounds it smells like it's ready,

988
01:19:59.720 --> 01:20:03.760
and it hasn't. It hasn't pinged yet, but not that

989
01:20:03.800 --> 01:20:06.560
I'm time in it. But I reckon it's probably ready

990
01:20:06.600 --> 01:20:09.920
because I can smell it. I said, are you sure, though,

991
01:20:10.119 --> 01:20:13.039
is it sure? That's what you can smell? And he said,

992
01:20:13.079 --> 01:20:15.199
what else could I be able to smell other than

993
01:20:15.279 --> 01:20:20.119
the beef and onion pie, and I said maybe, And

994
01:20:20.159 --> 01:20:22.439
I thought, no, I can't just say his armpits, can

995
01:20:22.479 --> 01:20:26.720
I because that would be I don't know. I don't

996
01:20:26.720 --> 01:20:29.960
think it would go down too well. I guess that's

997
01:20:29.960 --> 01:20:33.359
something you need to discuss with the person first, isn't it.

998
01:20:33.359 --> 01:20:40.319
It's like it could be an awkward conversation. So you're right, Tony, Yeah,

999
01:20:40.359 --> 01:20:45.000
you're right. Before we start our shift today tonight, I

1000
01:20:45.039 --> 01:20:47.880
was just wondering if I can ask you something, Yeah,

1001
01:20:47.880 --> 01:20:52.000
what is it? Well? I just want to know just

1002
01:20:52.079 --> 01:20:59.840
in case I have to heat up a beef and

1003
01:21:00.000 --> 01:21:08.800
onion pie in a microwave and a customer asks, is

1004
01:21:08.840 --> 01:21:14.399
there a beef and onion pie being heated up? Or

1005
01:21:14.399 --> 01:21:16.840
maybe I haven't heated a beef nunion pie up? And

1006
01:21:16.880 --> 01:21:20.680
if the custom asks, is a beef and onion pie

1007
01:21:20.760 --> 01:21:23.439
being heated up? And if there isn't a beef and

1008
01:21:23.439 --> 01:21:26.239
onion pie being heated up? Is it okay? If I

1009
01:21:26.359 --> 01:21:31.800
tell them that it's your armpits that they're smelling. It's

1010
01:21:31.880 --> 01:21:35.239
weird to sort of bring that into a conversation, isn't it,

1011
01:21:35.359 --> 01:21:42.840
Especially when you've been talking about Star Trek. So I

1012
01:21:42.880 --> 01:21:50.000
was thinking they overlap. There's an overlapping smell. He intrigued me,

1013
01:21:50.840 --> 01:21:55.520
I didn't realize, but it seems to still be intriguing

1014
01:21:55.640 --> 01:22:00.760
me for a weird way. For some reason, my phone

1015
01:22:01.600 --> 01:22:11.039
keeps turning off. I don't trust that phone. And then

1016
01:22:11.079 --> 01:22:20.119
I started thinking beef an onion pie body odor? What

1017
01:22:20.199 --> 01:22:23.199
they've both got in common other than the smell bo?

1018
01:22:24.079 --> 01:22:31.119
Beef an onion bo body odor bo? So I started thinking,

1019
01:22:31.359 --> 01:22:35.399
is that why they call beef and onion pies beef

1020
01:22:35.399 --> 01:22:39.239
and onion pies because they smell like bo? Then I thought, no,

1021
01:22:39.359 --> 01:22:41.960
that doesn't make sense. Maybe that's why they call bo

1022
01:22:42.119 --> 01:22:47.600
bo because it smells like a beef and onion pie. Again,

1023
01:22:47.720 --> 01:22:52.760
I thought perhaps I should ask him, but that didn't

1024
01:22:52.800 --> 01:22:56.600
seem like how when is a good time? I suppose

1025
01:22:56.680 --> 01:22:59.239
directly after asking, if it's okay to point at his

1026
01:22:59.319 --> 01:23:02.840
armpits if a customer thinks they're smelling a beef onion

1027
01:23:02.920 --> 01:23:05.800
pie being heated up, that would be probably the ideal

1028
01:23:06.640 --> 01:23:19.880
entry into that part of the conversation. Yeah, so I

1029
01:23:19.960 --> 01:23:26.039
delved in jewelry and so that was okay. The perfume,

1030
01:23:26.079 --> 01:23:31.600
that's it. Perfume. I did sell a little bit of perfume,

1031
01:23:32.239 --> 01:23:35.840
not a lot a little bit but not a lot,

1032
01:23:36.800 --> 01:23:39.600
and I just thought, oh, so that didn't really work.

1033
01:23:41.119 --> 01:23:47.199
But I loved the whole planning, not the doing, but

1034
01:23:47.239 --> 01:23:52.000
the dreaming. Not the doing, but the thinking about it.

1035
01:23:52.439 --> 01:23:58.840
The idea of being an entrepreneur. It really appealed to me,

1036
01:23:59.359 --> 01:24:04.079
and getting all these new things through the post about,

1037
01:24:04.279 --> 01:24:09.760
you know, how to sell registration numbers and all things

1038
01:24:09.880 --> 01:24:19.640
like that, but ultimately never really made any any money.

1039
01:24:19.920 --> 01:24:21.840
I was probably at a loss with the amount of

1040
01:24:21.840 --> 01:24:25.640
money I paid out over the years with that, you know,

1041
01:24:25.720 --> 01:24:27.680
not that I paid out a lot, but I didn't

1042
01:24:27.760 --> 01:24:37.600
have a lot come in either. So that's my entrepreneurial period.

1043
01:24:41.720 --> 01:24:43.359
I think it kind of came to an end by

1044
01:24:43.399 --> 01:24:48.439
the time I was By the time I was nineteen,

1045
01:24:48.520 --> 01:24:52.239
I kind of kind of given up on that. I

1046
01:24:52.520 --> 01:24:55.760
just didn't really pursue it anymore. But for good like

1047
01:24:55.960 --> 01:25:00.960
five years was that fourteen, fifteen, six seven, In eighteen nineteen,

1048
01:25:01.520 --> 01:25:07.359
maybe six years I was really pursuing options, looking at

1049
01:25:07.399 --> 01:25:15.359
ways to maybe make some money as an entrepreneur. I

1050
01:25:15.359 --> 01:25:20.840
also tried this one. I think I was eighteen. I

1051
01:25:20.880 --> 01:25:25.800
was going to sell water filters as a self employed basis,

1052
01:25:27.560 --> 01:25:30.000
but that didn't really work. Because I didn't have a car,

1053
01:25:30.920 --> 01:25:35.159
and to carry around water filters is just yeah, it

1054
01:25:35.239 --> 01:25:38.680
was a big old suitcase. And I thought, oh, so

1055
01:25:38.760 --> 01:25:42.119
that didn't work. Plus I think they wanted money from me.

1056
01:25:43.399 --> 01:25:47.760
They wanted me to put down a deposit on or

1057
01:25:47.800 --> 01:25:50.479
to pay for the first water filter that I was

1058
01:25:50.520 --> 01:25:53.000
going to use as a demonstration, because they wouldn't be

1059
01:25:53.039 --> 01:25:55.039
able to use it again, they wouldn't be able to

1060
01:25:55.039 --> 01:25:57.800
sell it on. So I think they wanted me to

1061
01:25:57.840 --> 01:26:04.239
pay them that and I said okay, and then I

1062
01:26:04.279 --> 01:26:07.000
didn't speak to him again. I just like left it

1063
01:26:07.199 --> 01:26:10.680
like and it probably wasn't a lot of money, but

1064
01:26:10.960 --> 01:26:17.840
probably more than I had. Anyway, Perhaps that was their stick,

1065
01:26:18.760 --> 01:26:23.479
is that was their way of selling water if it

1066
01:26:23.640 --> 01:26:30.600
was by employing people on a self employed basis, which

1067
01:26:30.600 --> 01:26:35.520
didn't cost them anything, and then they'd sell a water

1068
01:26:35.560 --> 01:26:39.600
filler to them. I wonder how many interviews he did

1069
01:26:39.640 --> 01:26:44.159
a week, how many jobs he gave away a week? Ah,

1070
01:26:48.920 --> 01:26:53.239
So that was pretty much the That was that period.

1071
01:26:55.439 --> 01:26:59.560
There was I think what I would have liked to die.

1072
01:26:59.600 --> 01:27:02.640
Oh yeah, I did become a window cleaner. And it's

1073
01:27:02.680 --> 01:27:05.960
not so much I mean, it's it's entrepreneurial isn't it.

1074
01:27:06.000 --> 01:27:11.520
It's it's self employed. I became a window cleaner and

1075
01:27:11.600 --> 01:27:15.760
I cleaned one window. I think it was my landlord's,

1076
01:27:15.840 --> 01:27:19.840
my landlady's windows. And then I left the ladder and

1077
01:27:19.880 --> 01:27:25.479
all my equipment in her garage. Then I moved to Spain,

1078
01:27:27.960 --> 01:27:31.920
decided to move to Spain. Came back the same day

1079
01:27:32.560 --> 01:27:36.319
after going to Spain for the afternoon, and she evicted me,

1080
01:27:36.359 --> 01:27:39.479
and she wouldn't give me the I wouldn't give me

1081
01:27:39.560 --> 01:27:52.359
the ladder back. M So that's that's the end of

1082
01:27:52.520 --> 01:28:02.560
Monday's boring objects talking about being an entrepreneur or entrepreneurial ship,

1083
01:28:03.479 --> 01:28:05.640
being an entrepreneur. I don't know what I'm going to

1084
01:28:05.680 --> 01:28:08.720
call it. I can't even spell the word. I literally

1085
01:28:08.800 --> 01:28:12.399
can't say it either, can I. So I will see

1086
01:28:12.720 --> 01:28:17.159
see how this all comes out. But that's it for me.

1087
01:28:17.560 --> 01:28:22.359
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to

1088
01:28:22.399 --> 01:28:25.319
yourself because you do deserve to be happy, and be

1089
01:28:25.399 --> 01:28:32.600
gentle of yourself because you deserve to feel safe. Lots

1090
01:28:32.600 --> 01:28:32.920
of love.

1091
01:28:35.439 --> 01:28:35.960
Bye.

1092
01:28:41.560 --> 01:28:56.159
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1093
01:28:56.199 --> 01:29:01.760
a way that can not just are you to feel

1094
01:29:03.119 --> 01:29:12.359
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1095
01:29:14.359 --> 01:29:20.079
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1096
01:29:20.079 --> 01:29:26.760
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1097
01:29:26.920 --> 01:29:41.840
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1098
01:29:41.960 --> 01:30:01.760
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1099
01:30:01.840 --> 01:30:12.399
the recording is ended, so that you can still benefit

1100
01:30:15.279 --> 01:30:22.560
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1101
01:30:24.479 --> 01:30:38.039
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1102
01:30:38.119 --> 01:30:42.800
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1103
01:30:42.920 --> 01:30:49.680
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1104
01:30:54.039 --> 01:30:56.399
and I just listen to it over and over again

1105
01:30:58.680 --> 01:31:10.720
every morning every year evening. There was this recording from

1106
01:31:11.520 --> 01:31:15.880
We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was

1107
01:31:16.279 --> 01:31:21.199
it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It

1108
01:31:21.279 --> 01:31:28.479
kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find

1109
01:31:28.520 --> 01:31:32.560
it again and it still has the same effect on me.

1110
01:31:35.199 --> 01:31:44.920
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me,

1111
01:31:48.920 --> 01:31:55.600
just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening

1112
01:31:56.119 --> 01:32:08.279
to her in the more and in the evening. And

1113
01:32:08.560 --> 01:32:17.720
I knew before even pressing the play button that since

1114
01:32:17.760 --> 01:32:22.159
I've done that pressed the play button. This is in

1115
01:32:22.239 --> 01:32:36.760
the days of CD players pressed the play button in fact,

1116
01:32:36.800 --> 01:32:40.800
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

1117
01:32:40.880 --> 01:32:50.640
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

1118
01:32:51.760 --> 01:33:02.479
listening to her words because I had to memorized. Really,

1119
01:33:07.119 --> 01:33:13.119
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1120
01:33:17.920 --> 01:33:39.760
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1121
01:33:39.880 --> 01:33:53.520
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1122
01:33:53.920 --> 01:34:00.239
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1123
01:34:00.319 --> 01:34:10.960
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1124
01:34:11.079 --> 01:34:15.800
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1125
01:34:15.960 --> 01:34:29.720
till two thousand and six. But I knew, I knew

1126
01:34:30.079 --> 01:34:42.840
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1127
01:34:45.840 --> 01:34:51.239
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1128
01:34:58.920 --> 01:35:07.239
knowing that it's to be just as relaxing, if not

1129
01:35:07.399 --> 01:35:16.680
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

1130
01:35:16.720 --> 01:35:28.319
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1131
01:35:28.560 --> 01:35:42.479
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

1132
01:35:42.479 --> 01:35:50.479
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

1133
01:35:50.520 --> 01:36:05.720
people maybe listen every day. That's something that I do

1134
01:36:07.319 --> 01:36:21.800
which you may not realize by listening, is when I

1135
01:36:22.079 --> 01:36:38.279
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

1136
01:36:38.720 --> 01:36:51.520
by the words that I say. So if I said

1137
01:36:51.600 --> 01:36:58.640
to you, focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing.

1138
01:37:02.159 --> 01:37:10.039
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1139
01:37:10.159 --> 01:37:28.239
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1140
01:37:31.039 --> 01:37:40.560
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1141
01:37:40.680 --> 01:37:46.760
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1142
01:37:48.600 --> 01:37:59.000
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1143
01:37:59.560 --> 01:38:07.640
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1144
01:38:07.680 --> 01:38:11.920
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1145
01:38:11.960 --> 01:38:24.960
all where you are right now. And as you become

1146
01:38:25.600 --> 01:38:40.000
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1147
01:38:40.279 --> 01:39:04.039
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

1148
01:39:05.560 --> 01:39:11.600
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1149
01:39:11.920 --> 01:39:28.239
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1150
01:39:32.880 --> 01:39:49.439
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1151
01:39:51.359 --> 01:40:05.520
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1152
01:40:05.680 --> 01:40:17.000
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1153
01:40:17.199 --> 01:40:26.199
to do the editing I hear snoring and I think

1154
01:40:26.600 --> 01:40:37.399
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Snoring was a

1155
01:40:37.560 --> 01:40:43.800
pig turned up. That's why I sound like when I

1156
01:40:43.920 --> 01:41:02.640
snare and I get really into the whole experience. I

1157
01:41:02.680 --> 01:41:12.119
don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel in

1158
01:41:12.199 --> 01:41:37.840
your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands. I

1159
01:41:37.880 --> 01:41:52.119
have noticed more and more that the more relaxed, deeper

1160
01:41:57.159 --> 01:42:07.520
level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1161
01:42:14.039 --> 01:42:30.720
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1162
01:42:30.800 --> 01:43:01.880
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1163
01:43:02.119 --> 01:43:30.920
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1164
01:43:31.079 --> 01:44:20.960
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1165
01:44:21.079 --> 01:44:39.399
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1166
01:44:45.399 --> 01:44:58.319
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1167
01:44:58.520 --> 01:45:38.840
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1168
01:45:40.560 --> 01:45:59.520
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1169
01:46:10.800 --> 01:46:43.359
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1170
01:47:08.720 --> 01:47:34.199
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1171
01:47:40.119 --> 01:48:19.239
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1172
01:48:19.399 --> 01:49:23.800
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1173
01:49:32.079 --> 01:50:18.520
Slowed down because nothing really he requires your attention. You

1174
01:50:18.640 --> 01:50:34.800
can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to

1175
01:50:34.960 --> 01:50:45.680
rip out of your body. To appear out of every

1176
01:50:49.079 --> 01:51:19.920
part of your body being released from your brain, hung

1177
01:51:20.279 --> 01:51:55.720
your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs

1178
01:52:11.079 --> 01:53:05.159
relax rex really, so very deeply, relax so deeply. And

1179
01:53:05.399 --> 01:53:33.159
the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders,

1180
01:53:33.199 --> 01:54:15.880
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine,

1181
01:54:16.119 --> 01:54:43.000
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

1182
01:54:43.039 --> 01:55:40.920
your wrists, muscles in front of your body, I all say,

1183
01:55:42.359 --> 01:56:21.640
feeling peaceful deeply. There's a sense of peace spreads through

1184
01:56:23.159 --> 01:57:00.960
your very core. Even when you focus on your mind,

1185
01:57:12.880 --> 01:58:23.319
your mind becomes eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing so

1186
01:58:23.960 --> 01:59:24.000
very slow his stomach, PA's fall in your stomach, your back.

1187
01:59:29.359 --> 01:59:58.239
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in the hole

1188
01:59:58.560 --> 02:00:31.399
of your back. You spy from your brain all the

1189
02:00:31.479 --> 02:00:40.199
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

1190
02:00:42.600 --> 02:01:14.199
millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply rix

1191
02:01:44.560 --> 02:02:19.199
you mes relax, spreading those signals down a spine or

1192
02:02:19.319 --> 02:02:42.680
cord into air every part of your body, your chins

1193
02:02:42.880 --> 02:03:33.640
and your calf muscles, your elbows, Feelings of peace and

1194
02:03:33.800 --> 02:03:51.840
tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to

1195
02:03:51.920 --> 02:04:03.960
your eyes, your fingers all wait till you lower back.

1196
02:04:15.800 --> 02:05:27.640
Letting go, read the thinker, peace drifting mind just wandering away,

1197
02:05:28.399 --> 02:06:10.119
happy to let go, Let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1198
02:06:34.239 --> 02:07:10.159
the whole body enjoying a sense of listening. God he

1199
02:07:11.319 --> 02:09:09.119
for more peace, for joy the space, this space of

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02:09:09.399 --> 02:11:35.479
peace and safety. So firy fary, relaxed, letting go. Maybe

1201
02:11:35.520 --> 02:11:43.319
we can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1202
02:11:47.399 --> 02:12:56.840
just to notice a forehead in your eyes ito so lose,

1203
02:13:16.560 --> 02:14:36.039
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, pref prif

1204
02:14:49.319 --> 02:15:34.279
pea's for energy, peace to breeze such easier.

1205
02:16:15.119 --> 02:16:15.479
Loose.

1206
02:16:36.719 --> 02:16:49.600
You may have or may not have noticed your mind drifted,

1207
02:17:26.120 --> 02:17:56.159
peaceful men, even more deeply in the direction of total

1208
02:18:00.760 --> 02:19:51.239
bliss for pace, bliss for pace, terrest, total peace. Come

1209
02:19:56.879 --> 02:21:06.520
so calm, let him go, peace with mind rexed forty,

1210
02:21:09.680 --> 02:22:06.440
So relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, So

1211
02:22:07.079 --> 02:23:27.079
very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace RELI lichas and you

1212
02:23:27.120 --> 02:23:34.319
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1213
02:23:37.280 --> 02:23:47.120
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1214
02:23:48.399 --> 02:23:54.520
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1215
02:23:54.559 --> 02:24:07.440
your body and your mind starts to slow down, and

1216
02:24:07.520 --> 02:24:15.040
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1217
02:24:15.239 --> 02:24:30.120
speech not being particularly fast and things just generally feel calmer.

1218
02:24:33.559 --> 02:24:41.479
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1219
02:24:41.559 --> 02:24:49.559
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1220
02:24:49.600 --> 02:24:57.280
break from your life as it is, and to give

1221
02:24:57.319 --> 02:25:05.440
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1222
02:25:05.559 --> 02:25:13.000
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1223
02:25:13.200 --> 02:25:23.680
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1224
02:25:23.719 --> 02:25:33.000
tension and he stresses that you had in your body.

1225
02:25:34.159 --> 02:25:38.040
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1226
02:25:38.319 --> 02:25:50.040
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1227
02:25:50.120 --> 02:26:01.440
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy which then

1228
02:26:01.600 --> 02:26:10.879
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1229
02:26:10.920 --> 02:26:28.399
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1230
02:26:30.440 --> 02:26:44.479
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1231
02:26:44.600 --> 02:26:54.879
a wave of comfort, and all this comes and just

1232
02:26:58.440 --> 02:27:07.239
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1233
02:27:07.319 --> 02:27:17.040
long you want it to be, to just rest and

1234
02:27:17.200 --> 02:27:27.239
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1235
02:27:30.079 --> 02:27:45.879
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows

1236
02:27:46.200 --> 02:27:59.000
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1237
02:27:59.440 --> 02:28:08.120
around and your body and into your mind, almost as

1238
02:28:08.120 --> 02:28:17.280
if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

1239
02:28:17.600 --> 02:28:31.639
mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness, And

1240
02:28:31.719 --> 02:28:39.559
it feels nice, really does feel nice to know that

1241
02:28:39.639 --> 02:28:48.840
you are the one that has allowed yourself to feel

1242
02:28:49.280 --> 02:29:06.000
more comfort and to experience more this deep relaxation spreading

1243
02:29:07.559 --> 02:29:20.200
throughout your body. And as I focus on each part

1244
02:29:20.360 --> 02:29:30.040
of your body, you can notice that that part becomes

1245
02:29:32.280 --> 02:29:42.719
even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes

1246
02:29:42.879 --> 02:29:56.040
even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as

1247
02:29:56.079 --> 02:30:04.239
I move down your body, starting at your head, the

1248
02:30:04.280 --> 02:30:12.280
parts that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

1249
02:30:15.040 --> 02:30:21.079
and those parts that we've not yet focused on or

1250
02:30:21.200 --> 02:30:33.040
just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation of even

1251
02:30:33.399 --> 02:30:46.000
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

1252
02:30:46.079 --> 02:30:53.319
by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the

1253
02:30:53.360 --> 02:31:04.440
feelings of your forehead background sounds like mister Herbert the

1254
02:31:04.520 --> 02:31:09.920
Pigeon can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

1255
02:31:13.799 --> 02:31:19.920
Just means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't

1256
02:31:19.959 --> 02:31:28.000
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

1257
02:31:28.000 --> 02:31:40.360
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around. So

1258
02:31:40.399 --> 02:31:45.639
as you focus on your forehead, just notice how it

1259
02:31:45.840 --> 02:31:55.719
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

1260
02:31:56.000 --> 02:32:05.559
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1261
02:32:05.680 --> 02:32:18.799
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1262
02:32:18.840 --> 02:32:26.079
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1263
02:32:29.280 --> 02:32:39.959
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1264
02:32:40.040 --> 02:32:47.239
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1265
02:32:48.440 --> 02:32:56.399
your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1266
02:33:00.159 --> 02:33:10.159
arm and lease as you focus now on your jawl

1267
02:33:13.159 --> 02:33:16.760
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1268
02:33:17.559 --> 02:33:21.879
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1269
02:33:21.920 --> 02:33:28.440
of your face to your ears, a hole of your

1270
02:33:28.520 --> 02:33:38.479
jaw feeding more relaxed.

1271
02:33:41.920 --> 02:33:50.760
And calm.

1272
02:33:50.799 --> 02:34:00.040
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1273
02:34:00.079 --> 02:34:13.040
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1274
02:34:13.159 --> 02:34:18.440
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1275
02:34:21.360 --> 02:34:37.239
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1276
02:34:37.280 --> 02:34:50.159
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1277
02:34:50.319 --> 02:34:55.040
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1278
02:34:56.799 --> 02:35:10.920
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1279
02:35:11.120 --> 02:35:21.520
you can experience in the back of your neck, moving

1280
02:35:21.760 --> 02:35:28.360
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1281
02:35:29.639 --> 02:35:30.840
right from the top.

1282
02:35:30.719 --> 02:35:31.760
Of your back.

1283
02:35:33.319 --> 02:35:37.000
All the way down to the bottom of your back

1284
02:35:43.000 --> 02:35:54.319
down to your lower back. And as you move up

1285
02:35:54.360 --> 02:36:03.200
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1286
02:36:03.319 --> 02:36:16.879
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1287
02:36:17.000 --> 02:36:26.239
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1288
02:36:28.000 --> 02:36:37.639
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

1289
02:36:37.719 --> 02:36:41.239
top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1290
02:36:44.760 --> 02:36:51.920
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1291
02:36:52.079 --> 02:36:57.200
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1292
02:36:57.239 --> 02:37:07.200
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1293
02:37:07.239 --> 02:37:14.520
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1294
02:37:14.600 --> 02:37:28.079
each other, separating and almost melting, And in your lower

1295
02:37:28.120 --> 02:37:39.680
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1296
02:37:44.920 --> 02:37:51.079
The spreads into your hips, so down your lower back,

1297
02:37:51.399 --> 02:37:59.399
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

1298
02:38:02.920 --> 02:38:10.600
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread

1299
02:38:11.879 --> 02:38:21.639
from your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1300
02:38:26.079 --> 02:38:38.959
start to really let go. Don't even nowhere about to

1301
02:38:39.040 --> 02:38:45.840
focus on your shoulders, your back and your spine will

1302
02:38:45.879 --> 02:39:07.120
continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly, and

1303
02:39:07.159 --> 02:39:12.360
as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that

1304
02:39:12.399 --> 02:39:42.719
they're already feeling really loose, They're already feeling calm, and

1305
02:39:42.959 --> 02:39:55.440
the feeling those muscles then move from your neck into

1306
02:39:55.479 --> 02:40:14.559
your shoulders feel so soft and gentle, so smooth.

1307
02:40:20.079 --> 02:40:32.520
And calm, and.

1308
02:40:32.479 --> 02:40:45.399
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1309
02:40:45.440 --> 02:40:55.879
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1310
02:40:56.239 --> 02:41:13.200
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1311
02:41:13.319 --> 02:41:22.159
all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area

1312
02:41:22.319 --> 02:41:32.079
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing.

1313
02:41:37.520 --> 02:41:50.440
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who

1314
02:41:50.760 --> 02:42:12.680
sends that deep healing message into your arms and you

1315
02:42:12.840 --> 02:42:18.520
may feel almost as if your arms are not even there,

1316
02:42:20.040 --> 02:43:11.840
because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1317
02:42:57.040 --> 02:42:57.200
So.

1318
02:43:03.840 --> 02:43:19.399
Loose, not feeling spreading all the way down your arms,

1319
02:43:21.639 --> 02:43:52.239
two elbows, including your elbows circumforts, spreads all away into wrists,

1320
02:43:54.559 --> 02:44:09.680
your forearments, and your wrists hm so heavy yet at

1321
02:44:09.799 --> 02:44:54.000
the same time so light and gentle. Focus now on

1322
02:44:56.479 --> 02:45:50.120
your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, there's

1323
02:45:50.159 --> 02:46:13.079
a sense of real peace. It just seems to I

1324
02:46:13.239 --> 02:46:51.799
feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply, ees your

1325
02:46:51.920 --> 02:47:59.840
thingers a thing is said, you think it's it.

1326
02:48:16.319 --> 02:48:20.440
M m.

1327
02:48:28.719 --> 02:48:47.879
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1328
02:48:58.840 --> 02:50:27.200
moving your foot vocous tu les what muscles in your thighs,

1329
02:50:43.360 --> 02:51:20.840
your knees so relaxed, the calf muscles and just shains

1330
02:51:24.479 --> 02:53:36.879
compresedly four and the fathing and your feet, sir, peaceful,

1331
02:53:38.799 --> 02:54:35.000
so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, sycm so

1332
02:54:36.959 --> 02:54:48.760
peace fa rea sin.

1333
02:54:53.879 --> 02:54:55.159
Peace for.

1334
02:54:58.959 --> 02:55:14.440
Sc oh allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest

1335
02:55:14.719 --> 02:55:46.639
and your stomach, letting go everything. So I'm gonna start

1336
02:55:46.719 --> 02:55:58.399
counting down now, from twenty down to one. You can

1337
02:55:58.479 --> 02:56:01.959
imagine in a way it's like just walking down some

1338
02:56:02.239 --> 02:56:08.200
steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step

1339
02:56:08.360 --> 02:56:21.200
represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening

1340
02:56:23.159 --> 02:56:34.159
of that comfort. And the vervies you walk down those steps,

1341
02:56:34.280 --> 02:56:46.799
the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with

1342
02:56:46.959 --> 03:02:19.840
number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixt three four four teen,

1343
03:03:26.000 --> 03:05:37.360
too well five fy.

1344
03:06:42.040 --> 03:09:44.680
Nine eight seven.

1345
03:10:15.280 --> 03:17:30.959
Six five four one h And now as you focus

1346
03:17:31.040 --> 03:17:48.959
on your eyes, we're gonna count down from ten douts one,

1347
03:17:51.120 --> 03:18:00.760
focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscle around

1348
03:18:00.799 --> 03:18:12.280
your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our whole area that

1349
03:18:12.479 --> 03:18:26.600
makes up your eye. And as we count down from

1350
03:18:26.719 --> 03:18:34.760
ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1351
03:18:41.040 --> 03:18:53.040
you'll become twice is relaxed with each number counting down,

1352
03:18:56.079 --> 03:18:59.200
and you may find.

1353
03:19:01.600 --> 03:19:07.399
The all you want to do is just drift off

1354
03:19:07.680 --> 03:19:16.879
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1355
03:19:17.000 --> 03:19:30.079
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1356
03:19:32.159 --> 03:19:37.639
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1357
03:19:37.760 --> 03:25:02.079
one right now, ten nine eight seven ye five four.

1358
03:26:14.840 --> 03:29:07.600
Three two one two. Counting down from ten to one

1359
03:29:07.879 --> 03:29:18.200
ten nine eight seven six.

1360
03:29:20.079 --> 03:29:30.079
Five four three two.

1361
03:29:31.959 --> 03:29:38.600
One.

1362
03:29:39.200 --> 03:29:42.159
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1363
03:29:42.200 --> 03:29:46.120
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1364
03:29:46.440 --> 03:29:56.159
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1365
03:29:56.200 --> 03:30:00.000
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1366
03:30:00.120 --> 03:30:02.879
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1367
03:30:03.680 --> 03:30:07.440
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

1368
03:30:07.479 --> 03:30:16.840
counting down. We could try it again, but this time

1369
03:30:16.920 --> 03:30:23.159
I go a bit slower this time, as you focus

1370
03:30:23.280 --> 03:30:27.959
on the whole of your body before we focus on

1371
03:30:28.000 --> 03:30:38.399
your legs. Just notice how your body does start to

1372
03:30:38.879 --> 03:30:50.159
feel more relaxed with every number that I count down

1373
03:30:53.440 --> 03:32:33.600
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one,

1374
03:32:34.159 --> 03:32:39.879
And just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1375
03:32:39.920 --> 03:32:54.799
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1376
03:32:54.840 --> 03:33:02.559
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1377
03:33:05.120 --> 03:33:26.079
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1378
03:33:26.280 --> 03:33:31.120
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1379
03:33:31.399 --> 03:33:38.440
saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So it

1380
03:33:38.520 --> 03:33:42.120
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1381
03:33:43.040 --> 03:33:52.920
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1382
03:33:52.959 --> 03:34:00.879
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. There's that gap

1383
03:34:00.959 --> 03:34:18.840
of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and

1384
03:34:18.920 --> 03:34:29.639
it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1385
03:34:30.760 --> 03:34:37.040
Away.

1386
03:34:37.920 --> 03:34:39.360
Allows you.

1387
03:34:41.559 --> 03:34:42.159
To just.

1388
03:34:45.079 --> 03:34:51.840
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1389
03:34:52.239 --> 03:35:02.479
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1390
03:35:02.520 --> 03:35:08.920
it's almost like thestress and attention falls into the gap

1391
03:35:22.360 --> 03:36:29.920
and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1392
03:36:48.159 --> 03:37:30.600
three two.

1393
03:37:23.399 --> 03:37:34.280
One.

1394
03:37:35.559 --> 03:37:39.600
How does your body feel.

1395
03:37:41.520 --> 03:37:53.200
Now?

1396
03:37:54.440 --> 03:38:09.719
Can you notice that you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1397
03:38:10.159 --> 03:38:37.600
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1398
03:38:53.520 --> 03:39:13.719
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1399
03:39:13.799 --> 03:39:18.680
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1400
03:39:22.120 --> 03:39:24.840
I'm sure like most of your body is not a

1401
03:39:24.920 --> 03:39:37.360
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1402
03:39:37.440 --> 03:39:43.879
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1403
03:39:43.959 --> 03:39:51.040
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1404
03:39:51.079 --> 03:39:55.959
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1405
03:39:56.079 --> 03:40:04.879
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1406
03:40:05.079 --> 03:40:19.120
your knee joint. Now, this is a big area. It's

1407
03:40:19.159 --> 03:40:24.680
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1408
03:40:25.639 --> 03:40:38.879
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1409
03:40:38.879 --> 03:40:47.319
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1410
03:40:53.120 --> 03:41:03.879
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our eyes are to

1411
03:41:04.079 --> 03:41:24.760
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1412
03:41:24.799 --> 03:41:35.280
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1413
03:41:35.319 --> 03:41:43.799
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1414
03:41:43.840 --> 03:41:51.479
our thighs, need some TLC. A bit of love shown,

1415
03:41:52.479 --> 03:42:10.520
a bit of like none, thank you, gratitude for what

1416
03:42:10.559 --> 03:42:19.680
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1417
03:42:19.879 --> 03:42:26.600
sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I surely

1418
03:42:26.559 --> 03:42:29.120
how I should be able in the garden hugging a

1419
03:42:29.200 --> 03:42:37.600
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1420
03:42:37.680 --> 03:42:40.680
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1421
03:42:40.760 --> 03:42:44.319
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1422
03:42:44.319 --> 03:42:53.079
can't see the television from the tree. If you move

1423
03:42:53.200 --> 03:43:03.079
down to your knees, getting such an important part. And

1424
03:43:03.120 --> 03:43:07.639
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1425
03:43:10.040 --> 03:43:15.159
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

1426
03:43:15.280 --> 03:43:21.719
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1427
03:43:21.799 --> 03:43:26.799
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1428
03:43:26.959 --> 03:43:33.399
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1429
03:43:33.479 --> 03:43:37.920
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1430
03:43:38.040 --> 03:43:47.319
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1431
03:43:48.079 --> 03:43:56.879
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1432
03:43:57.920 --> 03:44:05.040
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1433
03:44:07.079 --> 03:44:12.760
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1434
03:44:13.000 --> 03:44:19.200
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1435
03:44:19.280 --> 03:44:31.639
that they do for you. And you can still have

1436
03:44:31.680 --> 03:44:35.879
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1437
03:44:35.920 --> 03:44:47.840
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1438
03:44:49.600 --> 03:45:01.319
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1439
03:45:01.680 --> 03:45:07.559
your shins, and your calf muscles. The bones between your

1440
03:45:08.440 --> 03:45:14.120
knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles

1441
03:45:16.399 --> 03:45:27.719
so important. Anyone that's had even the slightest sprain of

1442
03:45:27.760 --> 03:45:35.319
an ankle knows how how much we take our ankles

1443
03:45:35.440 --> 03:45:43.639
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1444
03:45:43.680 --> 03:45:49.319
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1445
03:45:49.360 --> 03:45:53.440
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1446
03:45:53.520 --> 03:45:56.879
is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with that

1447
03:45:58.159 --> 03:46:04.120
because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so

1448
03:46:04.280 --> 03:46:14.319
much thinner than the rest of our legs, and from

1449
03:46:14.319 --> 03:46:18.879
a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make

1450
03:46:19.000 --> 03:46:27.079
sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting on

1451
03:46:27.879 --> 03:46:37.000
your ankles then leading to your feet. That thin area,

1452
03:46:38.440 --> 03:46:48.079
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1453
03:46:48.159 --> 03:46:58.120
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1454
03:47:00.479 --> 03:47:13.440
helps you to get around and be mobile. And there's

1455
03:47:13.440 --> 03:47:21.360
the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I

1456
03:47:21.399 --> 03:47:24.639
couldn't see the point in calf muscles. It didn't seem

1457
03:47:24.639 --> 03:47:29.799
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1458
03:47:30.520 --> 03:47:34.399
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1459
03:47:34.440 --> 03:47:38.600
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1460
03:47:38.639 --> 03:47:50.559
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1461
03:47:52.559 --> 03:48:01.239
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1462
03:48:01.280 --> 03:48:13.680
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1463
03:48:16.959 --> 03:48:23.600
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1464
03:48:23.600 --> 03:48:25.840
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1465
03:48:27.639 --> 03:48:32.319
And I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet

1466
03:48:32.399 --> 03:48:37.079
it probably focuses on them anyway, that maybe I should

1467
03:48:37.079 --> 03:48:43.120
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1468
03:48:43.239 --> 03:48:48.520
them in your awareness the same as you have your

1469
03:48:48.559 --> 03:48:52.840
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1470
03:48:53.479 --> 03:48:58.319
on your thighs for a few minutes, we'll be focusing

1471
03:48:58.399 --> 03:49:15.079
on your ankles. There's still that sensation of comfort in

1472
03:49:15.120 --> 03:49:27.000
your thighs, and this that movement of energy because the

1473
03:49:27.079 --> 03:49:34.719
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1474
03:49:35.280 --> 03:49:39.680
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs.

1475
03:49:48.079 --> 03:49:53.840
But the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1476
03:49:53.879 --> 03:49:58.440
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1477
03:49:58.639 --> 03:50:16.360
very sense sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And

1478
03:50:16.520 --> 03:50:24.920
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1479
03:50:25.040 --> 03:50:31.280
the archrees, it's all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1480
03:50:35.280 --> 03:50:38.639
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1481
03:50:38.719 --> 03:50:46.159
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1482
03:50:46.239 --> 03:50:49.799
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1483
03:50:49.840 --> 03:50:53.000
be able to get deep into the muscles, and to

1484
03:50:53.040 --> 03:50:58.159
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

1485
03:50:58.200 --> 03:51:06.879
the bones of your leg, massage in all the veins

1486
03:51:07.040 --> 03:51:17.280
and just gently heathing your thighs, and you could move

1487
03:51:17.440 --> 03:51:24.879
down message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1488
03:51:25.840 --> 03:51:32.920
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1489
03:51:32.959 --> 03:51:42.440
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1490
03:51:42.639 --> 03:51:47.600
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1491
03:51:47.600 --> 03:51:55.079
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area, very it

1492
03:51:55.079 --> 03:51:59.120
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1493
03:51:59.120 --> 03:52:03.200
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1494
03:52:05.120 --> 03:52:12.040
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1495
03:52:12.079 --> 03:52:19.440
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1496
03:52:19.479 --> 03:52:29.959
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1497
03:52:30.000 --> 03:52:41.440
your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

1498
03:52:41.520 --> 03:52:51.239
that crease in your legs, that fold in between your legs.

1499
03:52:51.920 --> 03:52:56.559
You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1500
03:52:56.600 --> 03:53:07.200
going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

1501
03:53:07.239 --> 03:53:14.360
course feel the bones of your knees healing through your fingertips.

1502
03:53:21.719 --> 03:53:27.079
And then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1503
03:53:27.440 --> 03:53:29.200
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1504
03:53:30.000 --> 03:53:37.360
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1505
03:53:37.440 --> 03:53:46.520
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part.

1506
03:53:52.479 --> 03:53:58.559
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1507
03:53:59.399 --> 03:54:06.440
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

1508
03:54:06.520 --> 03:54:13.760
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1509
03:54:13.799 --> 03:54:17.760
precious bones that they are. Because our legs are so

1510
03:54:17.959 --> 03:54:21.520
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1511
03:54:24.000 --> 03:54:37.879
the more precious of any jure on the planet. When

1512
03:54:37.920 --> 03:54:49.440
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1513
03:54:50.280 --> 03:54:56.959
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1514
03:55:00.040 --> 03:55:04.360
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1515
03:55:05.200 --> 03:55:15.239
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1516
03:55:15.319 --> 03:55:19.360
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1517
03:55:21.479 --> 03:55:27.920
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1518
03:55:27.920 --> 03:55:36.639
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1519
03:55:38.360 --> 03:55:45.760
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1520
03:55:45.840 --> 03:55:54.440
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1521
03:55:54.680 --> 03:56:07.520
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

1522
03:56:07.680 --> 03:56:12.239
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1523
03:56:12.360 --> 03:56:26.079
especially your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1524
03:56:26.280 --> 03:56:38.159
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1525
03:56:38.159 --> 03:56:49.479
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1526
03:56:49.520 --> 03:56:53.559
of how what weight you are, even if you're only

1527
03:56:53.799 --> 03:56:58.760
eight stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

1528
03:56:59.120 --> 03:57:05.520
little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight ston

1529
03:57:07.200 --> 03:57:16.399
double down, yet my ankles support my body all the time,

1530
03:57:20.200 --> 03:57:23.120
or they do give off a sigh of relief when

1531
03:57:23.159 --> 03:57:32.000
I sit down. That's got my whole legs do. My

1532
03:57:32.159 --> 03:57:37.399
feet feet also go, my toes clap.

1533
03:57:38.520 --> 03:57:51.000
I'm so happy.

1534
03:57:59.040 --> 03:58:08.159
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talk

1535
03:58:08.319 --> 03:58:14.760
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1536
03:58:14.799 --> 03:58:20.399
most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1537
03:58:23.239 --> 03:58:30.000
they're boring or not, everything I said is true. Your

1538
03:58:30.079 --> 03:58:50.680
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1539
03:58:50.719 --> 03:59:03.360
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1540
03:59:03.440 --> 03:59:27.040
out of the day to just let go completely. The

1541
03:59:27.280 --> 03:59:45.079
legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1542
03:59:46.120 --> 03:59:50.959
such a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1543
03:59:52.200 --> 03:59:54.840
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1544
03:59:55.440 --> 04:00:14.239
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1545
04:00:14.319 --> 04:00:19.319
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1546
04:00:22.559 --> 04:00:27.200
and also my lwer back as well. My lower back

1547
04:00:27.399 --> 04:00:32.959
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1548
04:00:33.000 --> 04:00:39.040
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1549
04:00:39.040 --> 04:00:42.120
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1550
04:00:42.239 --> 04:00:46.200
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1551
04:00:46.319 --> 04:01:11.040
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1552
04:01:11.079 --> 04:01:18.319
I'm now going to camp down from ten down to one,

1553
04:01:18.799 --> 04:01:42.879
and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight, seven,

1554
04:01:44.360 --> 04:02:20.639
six five four three tube. Why relaxed. So I'm just

1555
04:02:20.680 --> 04:02:25.360
going to count down from fire down to one. And

1556
04:02:25.399 --> 04:02:29.959
as a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers,

1557
04:02:31.520 --> 04:02:39.639
just the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel

1558
04:02:42.200 --> 04:02:47.479
in this moment as you hear the numbers counting down,

1559
04:02:47.840 --> 04:03:00.440
knowing that those numbers counting down represent you feeling armor

1560
04:03:01.680 --> 04:03:07.680
not just in your body, but also relaxing your mind.

1561
04:03:09.920 --> 04:03:14.319
I just notice how you feel. There's nothing to do,

1562
04:03:15.280 --> 04:03:22.799
there's nothing to say, there's nothing to think about, starting

1563
04:03:23.479 --> 04:04:11.360
with number five, four, three, two one. And as you

1564
04:04:11.520 --> 04:04:26.719
notice the gradual letting go the tension in your body,

1565
04:04:27.840 --> 04:04:33.639
you may also begin to notice and be aware of

1566
04:04:33.639 --> 04:04:42.680
how your mind is starting to slow down. This is

1567
04:04:42.799 --> 04:04:49.479
just a natural thing that happens. It's not really a

1568
04:04:49.520 --> 04:04:56.639
special procedure. It's just natural because as your body relaxes,

1569
04:04:56.799 --> 04:05:02.280
your mind also starts to relax. And the more your

1570
04:05:02.319 --> 04:05:05.559
mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's just a

1571
04:05:05.719 --> 04:05:18.319
continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness that comes

1572
04:05:18.440 --> 04:05:25.719
from relative quietness. You know, even even if there's background

1573
04:05:25.879 --> 04:05:32.520
sounds either your side or mine, it's still going to

1574
04:05:32.680 --> 04:05:38.440
be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the television on.

1575
04:05:39.000 --> 04:05:43.280
There's no music in the background unless you're listening to

1576
04:05:43.319 --> 04:05:51.079
the recording. With music, of course, you're very likely not

1577
04:05:51.120 --> 04:05:53.200
going to be sitting in a room with other people.

1578
04:05:54.079 --> 04:05:58.760
Of course you might be, but generally it's more ideal

1579
04:05:58.799 --> 04:06:04.319
if you can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1580
04:06:09.959 --> 04:06:22.959
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises,

1581
04:06:25.280 --> 04:06:36.079
a sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying

1582
04:06:36.079 --> 04:06:45.000
to build it up into something fantastical or something magical,

1583
04:06:47.079 --> 04:06:59.920
this is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

1584
04:07:00.120 --> 04:07:04.479
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

1585
04:07:05.319 --> 04:07:12.079
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1586
04:07:12.079 --> 04:07:17.799
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1587
04:07:17.920 --> 04:07:28.719
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1588
04:07:28.959 --> 04:07:40.920
recording and others is simply two allow you to take

1589
04:07:41.000 --> 04:07:55.959
advantage of this space. This time, it's just let go

1590
04:07:59.000 --> 04:08:07.799
to just be, to be in tune with how you feel,

1591
04:08:13.840 --> 04:08:26.120
yet with the intention of wanting to relax deeply and

1592
04:08:26.239 --> 04:08:32.760
maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what it is

1593
04:08:32.840 --> 04:08:46.040
that you wish for yourself in this moment. As we know,

1594
04:08:46.600 --> 04:08:55.959
relaxing is the majority of the process of falling asleep.

1595
04:08:57.120 --> 04:09:01.000
The actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at

1596
04:09:01.040 --> 04:09:16.040
the end. The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you

1597
04:09:16.200 --> 04:09:30.639
find yourself drifting. But you can also if you choose

1598
04:09:31.600 --> 04:09:47.799
stay focused on my voice and really enjoy the process,

1599
04:09:52.200 --> 04:10:24.120
gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just

1600
04:10:24.680 --> 04:10:51.200
observing the sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm

1601
04:10:51.200 --> 04:10:59.559
going to count from six down to one, and you

1602
04:10:59.639 --> 04:11:09.120
can it is your mind calming down more with each

1603
04:11:09.600 --> 04:11:23.120
number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm and

1604
04:11:23.280 --> 04:14:22.760
slow and peaceful, sex five four, three h what being

1605
04:14:22.920 --> 04:14:35.600
aware of how your mind to slowed right down, sinking

1606
04:14:38.200 --> 04:14:58.520
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1607
04:14:58.799 --> 04:15:11.319
you you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1608
04:15:11.319 --> 04:15:20.879
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1609
04:15:20.959 --> 04:15:36.200
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1610
04:15:36.399 --> 04:15:50.040
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all

1611
04:15:50.159 --> 04:15:55.840
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1612
04:15:55.879 --> 04:16:03.120
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1613
04:16:03.280 --> 04:16:10.159
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them,

1614
04:16:11.319 --> 04:16:22.440
You require them to just calm down slow down, quiet

1615
04:16:22.799 --> 04:16:38.200
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining

1616
04:16:38.319 --> 04:16:43.639
thoughts as we count down this time from seven down

1617
04:16:43.680 --> 04:16:52.760
to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower

1618
04:16:52.879 --> 04:17:12.000
petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which will

1619
04:17:12.000 --> 04:17:21.959
allow them to just melt away and relax deeply. With

1620
04:17:22.159 --> 04:17:36.399
every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

1621
04:17:42.000 --> 04:20:01.959
starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, two one.

1622
04:20:00.040 --> 04:20:15.719
Yeah, and as you now.

1623
04:20:18.319 --> 04:20:26.760
Notice how relaxed you're feeling.

1624
04:20:29.920 --> 04:20:39.760
In your body, we're going.

1625
04:20:39.600 --> 04:20:53.360
To focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1626
04:20:53.520 --> 04:21:00.440
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mine and are.

1627
04:21:15.319 --> 04:21:21.520
And there's you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1628
04:21:26.879 --> 04:21:31.639
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

1629
04:21:31.959 --> 04:21:37.799
fists or dancing the fingers or anything like that. Yeah,

1630
04:21:43.719 --> 04:21:58.000
it's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

1631
04:21:58.079 --> 04:22:22.799
they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

1632
04:22:23.040 --> 04:22:32.520
calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

1633
04:22:34.520 --> 04:23:00.000
throughout your body. And you may have already noticed you

1634
04:23:04.239 --> 04:23:35.159
mind is starting to dress like sense just on your

1635
04:23:35.280 --> 04:23:53.600
hands and fingers, allowing them to experience a real deepening

1636
04:23:54.799 --> 04:24:09.680
of that relaxation in your hands and fingers more and

1637
04:24:09.920 --> 04:24:33.479
more relaxed with each number from eight down to one.

1638
04:24:34.120 --> 04:24:43.959
You can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

1639
04:24:45.200 --> 04:25:00.959
into your hands and fingers, becoming year and more relaxing

1640
04:25:04.079 --> 04:25:23.120
with each number. Yeah, going down from eight down to one, drifting,

1641
04:25:26.840 --> 04:25:33.840
drifting again starting with.

1642
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Number eight, seven, six.

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Five, four, three.

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Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

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nothing to say, and everything just feels calm. This is

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your natural state of being. This is how you just

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normally feel when you take away all that other stuff.

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That we add, you know, things like.

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Stress and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking

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about stuff. You take that away, which is what we do.

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What we do now you're left with a real sense

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of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately

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it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort, almost as

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if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

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place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

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feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place where.

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You can be you, where you can.

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Accept your for who you are, the place where you're

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not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

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you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

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ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

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That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

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That's also a place where you can actually feel the

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healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

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your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

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traveling to each and every single part of your body,

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and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

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it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

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of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

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with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

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much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

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you start to realize that actually, what's happening now without healing,

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relaxing energy spreading through your body's actually changing your life.

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It's actually change in the way you're going to feel,

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not just now, but tomorrow and the next day. There's

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your health improves, not just your physical health, but your

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mental health. Things that used to bother you in the past,

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for some reason, no longer have the effect that they

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used to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe

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things that used to cause you to feel anger. No

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longer have that power to control you the way they

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seem to be able to before, as you realize that

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you're the one who decides what affects you. You're the

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one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you

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04:36:47.799 --> 04:37:05.799
choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing

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to grow and improve your life day by day, including

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of course, your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping.

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It's the most natural thing in the world to you,

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because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

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times in your life, and you know that you were born,

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as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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We're born with that ability to just drift off into

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a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes we'll

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fall asleep and we don't even want to try to

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us stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

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or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

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We don't want to go to sleep.

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But the more you want to stay awake, the more

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we just start to drift.

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And the more you fight drifting, the more you try

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to stop yourself and drift in a safe, the deeper

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and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just

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with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

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but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

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sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

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we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a

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wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very, very

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easy to let go, because that's all it is.

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It's just.

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Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

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button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

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voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

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you have given me permission for my words to effect

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you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

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your mind. Two useful and healing suggestions that can have

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such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

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as well as those changes that continue long after the

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recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

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and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

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allowing you to move forward in your life in the

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direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

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feeling that you in experience of safety, comfort and calmness,

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this feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

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and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

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Moving forward, you had to find that you're more relaxed

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physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

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not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

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would be less locked up with unnecessary negativity because from

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now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

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04:45:12.479 --> 04:45:23.560
going to start noticing when negativity arises. You can just

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04:45:23.639 --> 04:45:38.119
say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around and

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04:45:38.400 --> 04:46:05.639
leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear. And

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as you notice that you feel way more relaxed than

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04:46:13.680 --> 04:46:29.319
you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because you're

1735
04:46:29.799 --> 04:46:35.840
the person that has done this. You are the one

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04:46:36.400 --> 04:46:41.520
that has opened your mind up to the simple facts

1737
04:46:44.479 --> 04:46:49.520
and you can feel more relaxed in your body and

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04:46:49.720 --> 04:47:01.119
in your mind. You've opened your mind up to the

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birthright of.

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Being able to just.

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Fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling,

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don't you think? Who's nice?

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Doesn't it to feel calm for their healing energy is

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spreading through your body in your mind.

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To spend time in a special place where negativity can

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04:47:56.720 --> 04:48:10.080
no longer enter. Negativity is bad, It's bad, It's not allowed.

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Intrigue doesn't doesn't this doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't

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belong here. Negativity has no place.

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In your life, which makes room for more comfort, more.

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Heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It's nice, doesn't.

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04:49:09.479 --> 04:49:15.959
It, Just to let go.

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Everything.

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Let the count down now from twenty down to one.

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He can continue to relax.

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If you choose, you can.

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Career to sleep a dif re number.

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He may say.

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You can fill twice.

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As relaxed, or if you chease, you can fill twise sleeping.

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Now twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen sixte fifty thing warten to

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left dam.

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Nine eight seven six.

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Five one.

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It's your time. Just take a break, your time to.

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Relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to keep.

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04:53:47.959 --> 04:53:49.959
Yourself permission.

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To take a break.

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From everything. And you're the only person.

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04:54:08.840 --> 04:54:14.720
I can make that decision. You're the only person that

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04:54:14.840 --> 04:54:22.799
can actually tell your mind just reacts.

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04:54:30.439 --> 04:54:30.880
To just.

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Take some time so that you can focus on your body.

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I can, in God se how you feel physically, and

1774
04:55:03.919 --> 04:55:11.439
in the process of this body scan where you focus

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04:55:11.799 --> 04:55:21.560
on different parts of your body, those parts that you

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04:55:21.759 --> 04:55:30.959
focus on and observed, even though you're not purpose be

1777
04:55:30.959 --> 04:55:38.959
requesting for those parts of your body to relax. It's

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04:55:39.080 --> 04:55:45.360
kind of expected. You expect when you listen to my

1779
04:55:45.560 --> 04:55:58.439
voice to feel more relax naturally, because when you're listening

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04:55:58.560 --> 04:56:08.279
to me, your attention it's focused on my words.

1781
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Does my words i you to focus.

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On those parts of your body.

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The focus increases, it's.

1784
04:56:38.520 --> 04:57:15.759
Actually harms your mind. My arms down relaxes, calms down,

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04:57:21.360 --> 04:57:40.720
the mind relaxes. Indeed, started Witness Body.

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Ready Dear Thank You.

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Spreading group by Christian griefs.

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Sho mm hm.

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Wots.

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