June 2, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025

(no music) (5 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025
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Hello, Hello, Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason

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Newland and this is let Me Boy You to Sleep.

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Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes,

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and this is Monday's boring Objects.

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I hope you're well.

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I actually started this recording to do a kind of

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a relaxation recording, and I realized that it's just not

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quite enough to do that.

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Here.

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Too much noise, too much background noise. Vinnie's like cleaning

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himself and it's weird. So yeah, I'm gonna do this

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instead because he is a part of the let Me

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Boy You to Sleep or to let Me Boil Your

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Pain Away recordings. And those that listen regularly know who

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Vinny is. You know that he's a little Jack Russell,

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little red Jack Russell who likes to be involved. He's

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kind of like my co host in a weird way.

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Very weird way, really, isn't it. So I've ordered some

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shopping and it's apparently it's on its way. It should

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be here in about twenty minutes. And then I've got

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a meeting a friend for coffee at this afternoon. So

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that's the first time I'll've been out anywhere in public

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since wow, December. Yeah, first time I've been out anywhere

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since December, because that was when I went saw my

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dad at the pub just before Christmas. I mean, I

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go to the park and I have been to the

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pet shop probably since then. I'm into the garage a

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couple of times, but I don't like going to the

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garage anymore. I have been to the pharmacy probably a

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couple of times in that time. I mean last month

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I didn't go, but all the other months I did.

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This month I didn't go, but I got a neighbor

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that I asked a neighbor to go and collect it

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for me, and they did, which is grew groovy. So

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probably January, February, March, January, February, March I got them.

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You know, I probably had to go and collect themselves.

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Maybe not January, but definitely February. Much But I haven't

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been in a public place, you know, sitting down with

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humans around me. So it's going to be a bit strange,

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but it's okay. It's it's a very old friend, someone

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I've known for a long time. I'm thinking I'm going

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to talk about Buddhism because it's a Buddhist friend. I'm meeting,

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and I don't I don't want to really focus on

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him as the boring object. And also I don't think.

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I don't think that anything I talk about is boring.

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It's just.

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Yeah, that's the thing. I hope people don't think that

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if I was going to talk about let's say, yeah,

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train spotting or a subject that's some people would be

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absolutely engrossed and fascinating with. You absolutely love that I'm

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mocking it and corn it boring because I'm not. I mean,

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look at some of the subjects that I've covered in

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my Boring Objects. I say, look, I don't know what

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I had myself. I'm gonna have to go and look.

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I go and look, look, look, look, look, look look

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at where is it? Okay, sleepy boring objects. Monday's sleepy

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Boring Objects. So I've now done I've done a lot.

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There's a lot of a lot of episodes. But and

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when I first started doing them, I did the first

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song was rain. Okay, that's not something I particularly find interesting. Hair,

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that's the number one I don't particularly find interesting. Bricks,

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so you know, printers, cameras, plugs. So I was talking

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about really random just objects.

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And then.

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Swimming pools, ovens, hitch hiking. Books. Now, there's nothing boring

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about books to me. So that was something that I've

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had a big interest in over the years. And once

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I actually get my eyes tested and get some proper glasses,

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I will be getting back into reading the books once

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in my eyes. Work microphones, that's not a boring subject. Well, mops,

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now that probably is. So yeah, I don't know how

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manage you talk about mops for thirty five minutes. Wallpaper,

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I mean, that is the epiphany of boringness, isn't it

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really wallpaper or a painted wall? Train, spotters, games, beds,

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as jobs, baths now the jobs only lasted thirty eight

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minutes fifty nine seconds when that was the eighteenth of

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October twenty twenty one. So yeah, I started doing these

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sleepy boarding objects on the ninth of August twenty twenty one,

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so I've been doing it for a while now. I yeah,

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I could have made that jobs one last for about

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ten hours. Really, I got baths, wooden benches. Belgium. Again,

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I loved Belgium. I got It's like I don't have

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an issue with Belgium. I really really loved Belgium. When

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I went there, brilliant place great especially it's it. Whatever

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I say now is going to probably come across as wrong,

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and it's just I like the fact that it's flat

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like this. I'm not a big I'm not a lover

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of hills, really, I'm not. I'd like to be able

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to just walk and you can see ahead of yourself,

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can't You can see what's about you can wherever you go,

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So basically, whenever you leave your house, no matter where

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you go, how far away you go, you can always

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see your house. It's great and tea bags cheese. Yes,

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I've done quite a few. The last one I did

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was dog walking and I'm pretty sure that was super

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super exciting for everyone. Oh God, I'm trying to manipulate, manipulate,

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maneuver the laptop, but it keeps missing schools. I did

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that the week before Monday's Boring Objects, but I didn't

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even talk. I didn't even give it a subject. And

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the one before that, I didn't give it a subject.

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That's weird. I don't know what that is about. Strange.

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And then I did Willy Wonka that was the twenty

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first of April, then another one before that I didn't

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give it a subject. That's kind of the point of

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the thing, isn't it said? Why am I not giving

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them subjects?

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Doc job?

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That's the one they first of March this year, twenty

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twenty five homes cleaning jobs, New Year's Eve, Monday's boring objects.

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So I did a recording on New Year's Eve last

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year and an hour and forty minutes. So maybe I

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was actually talking about New Year's Eves that I had

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spent over the years. And then the Monday before that

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it was Christmas. Well, it was probably Christmas Eve, wasn't

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it New Year's EO Christmas Eve? So I talked about

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Christmas for one hour and eighteen minutes, blind me. Then

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before that I talked about friends, hair styles. Before that,

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counseling degree, girlfriend's girlfriends and girl they tell your girlfriend

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ooh girlfriends lasted two hours and seven minutes. What the

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ex about? On nine IQ tes tests? Two hours and

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fourteen minutes. So I actually did an online I did

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online IQ tests. Wow, I kind of vaguely remember that.

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That was in October last year. So today what did

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I say I was going to talk about? I can't remember.

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I have a.

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Not deliveries. Oh Buddhism. So I'm going to talk I'm

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going to talk about Buddhism. I'm not going to talk

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about Buddhism itself. I'm not going to go into details,

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you know, about what Buddhism is and stuff. But I'm

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going to talk about my experiences with Buddhism from from

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an early age and then onwards. So just let you know.

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I do have a Facebook group called Jason Newland's Boring Group.

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The link is on my website. I also have a

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YouTube channel at Jason Newland. I'm just going to go

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back to doing I tried to make some videos the

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last few days and it takes so long and my

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head looks my face looks like a tomato. I'm not Yeah,

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I'm just going to go back to doing audios. It's

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much more relaxed for me. I'm just talking to the microphone.

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I can look at the computer screen if I want to,

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I can close my eyes, I can just chill out

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and yeah, this suits me better, better, and what else.

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So yeah, that's it. I'll probably just continue go back

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to uploading on YouTube. The six versions that are recording,

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you know, without music and then with music five and

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ten hours. Yeah, today's second of June two thousand and

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twenty five. I got my Universal Credit an email from

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them telling me to check some stuff and I didn't

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understand it. I genuinely didn't understand it. And then then

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I've got a letter through today, so apparently on my

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new style employment and support allowance on your interview on

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and there's a little gap, but you you had an interview,

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so they did call me last week with us to

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agree what you need to do to get new style essay.

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This is known as your claimant commitment. You agreed your

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claimant commitment on a twenty eighth of May two twenty five,

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which was Thursday, Wednesday, Wednesday, last Wednesday. What happens next?

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We're right to tell you if you can get newest

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new style of essay and this so how much you

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will get. So at this point I don't even know

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I'm getting if I'm getting it, I don't know when

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they're going to tell me. And then this is this

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is absolutely it's kind of it's funny, but it's not

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funny because it's very confusing. I've got a letter about

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another one about my employment and support allowance, your contribution

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based employment and support allowance will change the new style

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employment and we will book an appointment. So I get this.

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They sent this in a twenty fifth bearing in mind

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it's so they sent this on well, it's dated the

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twenty fifth, which would be the Sunday before last, so

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it will have been sent out earliest on a Monday.

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So it's literally taken Yes, it's taken a whole week

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to get here, so I'm not sure how that works.

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And now I've got a letter from the rent for

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the council ari rent reminder. It appears you have not

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received your rent. We have not received your rent payment

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on time, and you now owe one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety if you have paid within the last

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few days. Thank you. Please disregard this letter. And it's

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given me like a list of things that will happen

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over pay payment overdue that leads to legal action, core proceedings,

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then eviction a little bit heavy handed. I mean, my

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rents ten years. My rent's always been paid and the

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only reason it's not being paid yet is because the

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benefits have changed over they just so does that mean

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I owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety? I

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don't know. This is confusing me. I really think, you know,

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if you owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety,

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the word legal actions, core proceedings and evictions shouldn't not

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be on that letter. This is just a really it's weird.

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I'm not I'm not a big fan of that. If

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I have in paid difficulty paying you rent, please contact us.

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If you normally pay your rent with housing benefit or

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have made a claim for Universal Credit, then it may

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have been suspended or stopped. Wow. The thing is, these

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letters are just generic, aren't they. No one's actually like

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thinking all that Jason want to get him now and

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typing it out. It's just I guess if you go,

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I mean one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. The

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rents one hundred and what four pounds a week, so

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that's not even two weeks rent, and they's sending a

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letter out, so I don't know, very strange, it's very

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very unusual behavior. I personally think, should I talk about

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a rent? I can't even remember that A lot of

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the rents I've paid over the years that might be

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more interesting or moor less interesting, more boring. I just

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viny just said, Oh, you're all over the place. Why

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are you making so much noise? You've already ruined one

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recording today, viny, Why don't try and ruin this one

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as well. I'm doing it all on my own. He said,

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that's so rude. Stop being so rude. Don't flap your

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ears at me. You've got such an attitude now as

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you're getting older.

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Yes, you have.

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You're getting an attitude. You need to calm yourself down. No,

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don't look away, you look at me. You need to

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calm He's so cute. He's wiggling his tail. It's both

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his ears are up and he's turning his head. He's

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so damn cute. And if you are. I finally found

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some food that he likes, that he really likes, and

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one's called I'll tell you though. It's like a whole food.

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Where is it? I got it from Amazon.

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I've got it.

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I bought it on Amazon. It's not, you know, an

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Amazon mute food?

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Where is it?

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Okay? He really likes it. And I've gone through probably

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ten different types of food trying to find him something

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that he would almost, I don't want to say, get

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excited to eat, but it seems sometimes he just reluctantly

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eats what I give him, it's like okay, or eat

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it if he's hungry, But he doesn't seem to be

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particularly you know, excited. Let's have a look.

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Past three months.

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Oh, I got some Yeah, because I also got some

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soap and some toothpaste, tough paste and some deodorant. Sketches

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shoes on the thirteenth for me that my other shoes

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are falling apart, right, so I get these sketches. Men's

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go Max Athletic. The idea of me buying anything with

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the name athletic in it is kind of funny to me.

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But they're supposed to be good for sort of slipping on.

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And the weird problem is, and they're supposed to be

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ten size ten, they're too loose.

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They're not.

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Too loose. They're not falling off me when I walk,

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but they're not I definitely couldn't run in them. Again,

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That's kind of tiggles me a little bit because it

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was I've just had the little visual of me trying

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to run. I'm not going to be running in them.

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But that's not the point is I took Vinnie around

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the field the other day, around the actual field fields

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and ended up with a blister on the back of

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my foot. This is this is wearing socks. So how

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much did it cost? Fifty pounds fifty sixpences supposed to

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be tenpence, size ten and I desperately needed because the

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other ones. When I broke my foot, probably ah, BlimE

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me two years ago, two years, maybe a year, a

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year and a half. I can't it's a while, and

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I couldn't put socks on. Maybe it was when I

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broke my toe. I can't remember, but I couldn't put

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socks on because my foot. It must have been my toe.

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Oh was it when I kicked the wall when I

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was asleep. I think I kicked the wall. Yeah, so

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I broke my toe, my big toe. And it wasn't

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on purpose, by the way, So I was hobbling around

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for a while. I couldn't put my socks on. That

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was just a just no, it's a no no. So

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but luckily the shoes I had were comfortable enough, the

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former sketches ones. I had to not need shoo to

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not need socks, and I went through about a year

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where I didn't wear socks at all. Some would say

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that's gross, but it's it's not the worst thing I've done.

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So it's it probably maybe it is, maybe it is groom.

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I don't know, but I got I went through the

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whole winter about wearing socks. I was outside, didn't need socks,

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just got used to it, and there was a degree

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of freedom I quite liked. I enjoyed that, I know,

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just a little bit of it was relaxing. It was

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I didn't feel so restricted. But then the shoes that

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I had started falling apart internally and also at the bottom.

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They're just worn out, basically because I do I suppose,

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I do quite a bit of walking through the week,

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taking him out and stuff. So I could no longer

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where I could no longer have them without socks. So

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I started wearing socks. But then they just became really

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uncomfortable because there's just it's like stick things sticking into

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my foot. So that's why I had to better go

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and buy some new shoes. And I did think maybe

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I could go back to not wearing any socks again,

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But it turns out I'm going to need to two

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pairs of socks really if I want them to fit

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tight no nicely. If I was going to walk around

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the field like I did before, I probably need two

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pairs of socks. But the question is why it is

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only my right heel blister, but my left heel didn't.

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I mean I wasn't hopping, I'd use both feet, So

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why did only one blister and the other one did not?

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That just seems a bit strange. So, okay, we're talking

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about dog food. Dog food. I just had my delivery,

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by the way, I just I had a few, a few.

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I think that's why I'm kind of losing track of

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where I am with this recording a little bit, because

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I've had a few interruptions from Vinnie from the door,

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going from the door going to once is when the

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post got delivered and Vinnie went absolutely rah rah rah.

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And then I got my delivery and Vinie went rah

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rah rah rah rah. And earlier we had someone in

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the garden talking a loudness or volume that's unnecessary. Really,

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I think she did, did he or she? When they

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talk on their phone and have their phone on a

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loud speaker and they walk to the next road, so

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I think what they do They leave their phone like

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the other side of the road or something, and then

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come back into the garden and talk. That's what it

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sounds like. So loud Lily's Kitchen Natural adult dog Food.

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Now it was blah, six pound fifty six and it

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was six tins one hundred and fifty grams each. I

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give him half a tin per meal basically because he

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had treats and he eats the dry food and stuff

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in between. So I did give him the whole packet.

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I give him the whole tin, and he couldn't eat all.

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It's too much, so I'm just give him half at

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a time. He loves it. I don't have to coax

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him to eat it, which I did before with the

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other stuff, and I really have I mean, you might think, oh,

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wait a minute, it was a one time purchase. So

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I paid seven pound twenty nine. Really seven pounded? Does

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it tell me how much I paid delivered twenty eighth

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of may buy it again? Okay, let's have a look.

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Buy again. Seven pound twenty nine. Yeah, that's how much

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I paid for six So I'm going to have another

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look to see what other what other foods visit the store.

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Lily's Kitchen calling all daring dogs shop dog food. Okay,

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that's what we want. I'm not I'm not happy now

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because they also serve they help I don't want to

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buy food that also makes food cat for cats. It

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just it just feels feels unfair for any shop dry food. No, well,

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I suppose good shop wear food. Let's have a look

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see what different ones they've got. So they've got ones

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in big ten, which I don't want. Classic dinners. That's

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the ones I got, uh, Classic dinners multipack six times

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one point fifty gram all I can also by them.

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What's this thirteen pound forty nine thirteen amiens in that one?

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Then thirty is Cottage pie pack of ten. It's oh,

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it's not thirteen pounds, it's twelve pounds fourteen, So it's

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a different it's a discount, but that's the same, the

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same one. I'd like the idea of maybe me, you know,

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having options, having different ones. I don't want to just

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get him like ten of the same, although there's quite

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a few different ones that they do. They've got let's

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have a look beef goulash, Cottage pie, lean machine, whatever

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that is great British breakfast Sunday lunch, chicken and turkey,

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casse role lamb, hot pot lamb tag in to guinea

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fishy pie, fishy fish pie, fishy fish pie as opposed

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to what kind of other fish pie, coronation chicken. Okay,

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so that's all the ones I do. It's still good.

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Oh no, it's more beef supper, lamb supper, chicken supper,

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and you've got organic as well. So I don't know

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how many is in that one? One, two, three, four?

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Is it four for fourteen pound? That seems a little

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bit Oh no, it's back of ten fourteen pound pack

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of ten. Okay, so I'll go back. So there's quite

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a few. Let's have a look at some of these

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other ones. This is the pack of pack of one

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Lily's Kitchen six six Weekend Favorites. Okay, so that's seven

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pound A note it is eight pound forty nine. But

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there's cheaper ways of getting it lowest price other sellers

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seven pound seventy five plus three delivery. So why is

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it costing more than the actual place that makes the stuff?

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That don't make so much sense. Where are they getting

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it from? Or they buying it in bulk and then

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dividing it into smaller packs, or you know, I knew

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what I meant when I said what I said. I

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could put it down on my Amazon list if anyone's

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interested in buying Viny some food, let me know if

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you are, because honestly I have tried. Is what I

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bought him so far. Win a lot meaty chunks, Win

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a lot of Sunday dinners, Caesar's Country Stew Adult and

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Lily's Kitchen, so that's recent. The other one's pedigree charm Adult,

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Wet Food, Sebalt or other ones have I got him? Oh,

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some of it might actually have been from Sainsbury who

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won't be on here. But he's had lots of different

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old another pedigree Chum, different one Sultana cake, and then

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that's for me. I do like a bit of cake.

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Hard to believe, but I do. I do like to

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kick Oh, Morrison's Chocolate Claires. I ordered that at some

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point in the past. I haven't ordered anything from Amazon,

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like the shopping groceries for ages. I use Uber Eats

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now because Amazon kept not delivering the stuff that I ordered,

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so they used Morrison's and had a few examples when

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they just didn't. The stuff wasn't in the bag and

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you get refund and stuff, but I just didn't. That

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wasn't quite what I was looking for, you know what

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I mean? Sketches Men's Go Max delivered Tuesday ten for

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June our three delivery chooes. I was going to say

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I didn't buy it in tenth for June. I need

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a second of June.

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Now.

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I did buy some FM London one two, three, four

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five eight pack. There was an eight pack of boxes

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or underwear and they were too small, just too They

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weren't too small, but they were just too tight. So

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I can't really wear them. I can wear them, but

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they're just a bit too tight, you know, a bit

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too Oh, look at this, just looking at something. I've bought.

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Most of the stuff I've bought on Amazon, it's just

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been food. Just looking at other dog food. It must

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be I'll wag a complete dog food. So I've bought

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oh yeah, James well beloved adult dog food. And according

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to this, I bought socks. But I don't know where

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any of them are now. I'm not sure how many

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of those have been eaten by Vinnie. Possibly a few, possibly,

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I mean genuinely, possibly a few have been eaten by

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him or hidden. He might have a stash somewhere. I

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don't know where he would have them. Oh wow, I

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there's a muzzle that I got for LOGI, so that's

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quite a while back. In it it doesn't say what

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date it was, man, right, I can't find any others. So, yeah,

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what was I talking about? What was the etireking a boot?

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This is going to be one of those recordings where

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I don't actually get to the point, and as we

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all know, that doesn't happen very often. Maybe so we

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stick with a Buddhist. So my first interest in Buddhism,

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I would say, probably came when I watched Kung Fu

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on TV, Kung Fu show Good Our Supper, I don't

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know if you remember, and there was one scene where

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he was locked in a I don't know what it

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was called, like a heated little shed thing, you know,

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like a coal bunker thing, and he was locked in

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there overnight or for two days or three days, and

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he when they opened the door, expecting him to be

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in a not very good space, he was calmly, meditating, smiling,

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if I if I remember correctly. They were so annoyed

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that they closed door again, but that might just be added,

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and I just added that myself. And that's when I

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started thinking and like, oh, because I've been I've been

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in a situation where I was locked in cupboards and

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locked in places, and like, I didn't know how to

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deal with it. And I thought, oh, there is a

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way of dealing with that kind of stuff where you,

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you know, to calm yourself down. I didn't really understand

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because I was like eight nine years old, but I

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liked it. I liked it a lot, I did. I

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liked it, and I thought, hmm, And then I remember

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seeing Incredible Hulk and he also used to try and work,

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what you know, find ways to calm himself down so

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that he didn't get angry because you wouldn't like him

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when he got angry. And this was the TV show

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from the seventies and I guess early eighties as well.

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And again I was kind of like, okay, because I

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had a few anger stuff issues. I guess back then

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I would explode. So I could see the similarity between

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me and the Incredible Hulk, except I just turned red

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and stayed the same size other than that, and didn't

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get any stronger, but just screamed like a benchie. So

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I kind of like that seed was sown the idea

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of finding a way to calm down my mind or

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calm down me, and I was I guess I was

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a little bit a stress head when I was a kid,

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and I didn't even know why I wasn't. I didn't

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understand why I was how I was. And I remember

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one particular time I went home from school and was

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still living in the house where my name and the

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grand had moved in, so I would have been about

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nine eight or nine. I went into kitchen and I

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and my stepmom said, we are You're right. I said, yeah, fine,

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he said, come on, you don't and I started crying.

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And I'm sort of just uncontrollably crying, and I didn't

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know why, and it was I just remember that, and

470
00:38:38.719 --> 00:38:40.800
it happened a few times. It still happens as an

471
00:38:40.800 --> 00:38:45.320
adult sometimes, but it was really just like built up

472
00:38:45.519 --> 00:38:49.760
and I didn't really I had no way of dealing

473
00:38:49.800 --> 00:38:52.480
with it. I guess I had nowhere of dealing what

474
00:38:52.639 --> 00:38:56.119
happened in the past. I didn't understand it. None of

475
00:38:56.119 --> 00:39:04.840
it really made sense bucket see the benefit of some

476
00:39:04.960 --> 00:39:10.800
kind of I knew it was meditation. So I don't

477
00:39:10.840 --> 00:39:13.639
know how I knew it was meditation. Maybe someone told

478
00:39:13.639 --> 00:39:18.280
me that was that Kung Fu was doing in that

479
00:39:19.159 --> 00:39:22.880
like dungeony room thing that he was locked in like

480
00:39:22.920 --> 00:39:29.440
a hot room or something. But yeah, those seeds were

481
00:39:29.480 --> 00:39:36.599
planted of like, maybe there is a way to calm myself.

482
00:39:39.960 --> 00:39:45.400
And then I when my dad was ill, he had

483
00:39:45.400 --> 00:39:50.039
to have a serious operation when I was about twelve,

484
00:39:50.119 --> 00:39:58.000
i'd say, maybe eleven. So at that time I turned

485
00:39:58.000 --> 00:40:00.679
to the New Testament. It kind of co decided. When

486
00:40:00.719 --> 00:40:05.119
the Gideon Society came around the school, and probably right

487
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:07.000
at the beginning of the first year of high school,

488
00:40:07.079 --> 00:40:11.480
they handed these Gideon Bibles. I've got one on the shelf.

489
00:40:11.519 --> 00:40:15.199
Actually it's not the same one, but it's say it

490
00:40:15.320 --> 00:40:17.480
is the same one. It's a red Gideon's Bible, and

491
00:40:18.280 --> 00:40:21.920
that they produced probably millions over the years, hundreds of

492
00:40:21.920 --> 00:40:27.880
millions probably, and I read it. I spent all my

493
00:40:27.920 --> 00:40:33.719
time reading it, really and there was a degree of

494
00:40:35.960 --> 00:40:44.400
meditation that came from that for me, by letting go

495
00:40:44.599 --> 00:40:50.920
and not clinging onto stuff and not not getting angry

496
00:40:50.920 --> 00:40:54.159
with people. But at the same time, I was letting

497
00:40:54.159 --> 00:40:56.559
people get away with stuff that I would not normally

498
00:40:56.559 --> 00:40:59.840
have done at school and that so, you know, it

499
00:41:00.000 --> 00:41:05.519
didn't last long, but it lasted till my dad had

500
00:41:05.519 --> 00:41:08.559
his operation and was better. So then I went back

501
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:15.280
to my old ways and then when I was then

502
00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:21.480
I started doing karate and there was a degree of

503
00:41:23.719 --> 00:41:30.079
self control involved in that. There was definitely, I would say,

504
00:41:30.239 --> 00:41:36.199
a degree of controlled in the anger because it's it's

505
00:41:36.199 --> 00:41:39.079
a very It's a discipline, isn't it. Like all sports,

506
00:41:39.079 --> 00:41:42.760
it's a discipline. So I was starting to learn a

507
00:41:42.800 --> 00:41:45.679
bit of discipline. I'd already been in the cecre det

508
00:41:45.760 --> 00:41:47.719
so I'd had to learn that kind of discipline as

509
00:41:47.760 --> 00:41:59.719
well being shouted at and not reacting, which yeah, wasn't easy.

510
00:42:00.679 --> 00:42:11.079
But they're on a a religious education trip school trip

511
00:42:11.599 --> 00:42:18.159
to London, visiting a few different religious places. So we

512
00:42:18.199 --> 00:42:22.159
went to a church I think we went to.

513
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:28.559
Is was it.

514
00:42:30.119 --> 00:42:33.800
What are they called, a Muslim place, a Jewish place,

515
00:42:36.239 --> 00:42:42.280
Catholic place, and a Buddhist place. We might have even

516
00:42:42.320 --> 00:42:45.159
gone to a Sekh place. So we went to quite

517
00:42:45.159 --> 00:42:48.960
a few different places and didn't spend a huge amount

518
00:42:48.960 --> 00:42:52.639
of time there, but because there was nothing there. There

519
00:42:52.719 --> 00:42:55.639
was just like empty buildings really, so we kind of

520
00:42:55.639 --> 00:42:57.440
had to look around. But when we got to the

521
00:42:57.480 --> 00:43:03.599
Buddhist center in London, there was people there and we

522
00:43:03.639 --> 00:43:07.719
all sat around and they answered questions because we didn't

523
00:43:07.719 --> 00:43:10.039
have that with any of the other places that we visited,

524
00:43:12.599 --> 00:43:15.920
so you know, it was probably a bit more enjoyable

525
00:43:15.960 --> 00:43:20.079
because there was interaction. And then they did they answered questions,

526
00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:23.599
and I kept asking questions about karate because they did

527
00:43:23.719 --> 00:43:27.599
karate there as well, so that kind of I think

528
00:43:27.599 --> 00:43:30.760
I annoyed everyone else in the in the group. And

529
00:43:30.800 --> 00:43:33.079
then I was also the first time I ever had

530
00:43:33.119 --> 00:43:39.639
a McDonald's milkshake. Oh my goodness, that was phenomenal. So

531
00:43:39.880 --> 00:43:44.719
two really lovely experiences in one day. So what they

532
00:43:44.760 --> 00:43:49.599
did at the London Buddies Center, which is in bethnal Green,

533
00:43:49.639 --> 00:43:57.320
I think we did some meditation that probably lasted ten minutes,

534
00:43:57.559 --> 00:44:02.480
maybe fifteen minutes, and we all sat on mats. They

535
00:44:02.519 --> 00:44:09.719
had bells and incest was burning and it was like, really,

536
00:44:11.719 --> 00:44:14.760
I liked it a lot, I mean really really liked it.

537
00:44:17.079 --> 00:44:19.960
In fact, I think if if I'd have been closer,

538
00:44:21.079 --> 00:44:25.159
if there'd been one in my town, I possibly would

539
00:44:25.159 --> 00:44:28.519
have gone. I mean I might not have been allowed

540
00:44:28.559 --> 00:44:31.199
to go, but I would have probably asked to go

541
00:44:31.679 --> 00:44:34.960
and maybe sneaked in just for the meditation because I

542
00:44:35.000 --> 00:44:41.000
needed it. I so needed it a way to calm

543
00:44:41.039 --> 00:44:46.440
my mind, makes you must I'm starting to think, why

544
00:44:46.480 --> 00:44:52.800
don't I go I should go back Hey. So that

545
00:44:53.000 --> 00:44:56.920
was that experience, and then I left school the next

546
00:44:57.000 --> 00:45:03.840
year and I didn't do anything other than just try

547
00:45:03.880 --> 00:45:06.880
and survive really, so I gave up the karate. I

548
00:45:06.880 --> 00:45:12.840
didn't had no interests really, and then it was probably

549
00:45:13.079 --> 00:45:19.400
nineteen eighty nine I decided I became very interested in comedy.

550
00:45:21.800 --> 00:45:26.119
I started to write a journal. And then nineteen ninety,

551
00:45:27.679 --> 00:45:29.920
after living in London for a while, I came back

552
00:45:30.800 --> 00:45:34.480
to the town I was used to living, and I

553
00:45:34.559 --> 00:45:41.119
decided to become a comedian, a stand up So I

554
00:45:41.199 --> 00:45:43.079
planned and I was going to move back to London

555
00:45:43.119 --> 00:45:44.639
the next year, and I did so. I went back

556
00:45:44.639 --> 00:45:53.159
to London ninety one, and then probably about ninety two,

557
00:45:54.920 --> 00:45:57.480
maybe ninety three, but I'd say probably about ninety two,

558
00:45:58.320 --> 00:46:05.719
I started getting in trusted in Beat generation books like

559
00:46:05.760 --> 00:46:11.360
the Dama Bumbs, the I Don't know, there's so many

560
00:46:11.360 --> 00:46:14.280
different ones, wasn't there on the Road and the Dama

561
00:46:14.320 --> 00:46:21.480
Bums both by Carriac Karaoke Jack Carroac and then Alan

562
00:46:21.519 --> 00:46:30.000
Ginsburg and Cassidy or whatever, lots of different ones. And

563
00:46:30.079 --> 00:46:33.239
as I have a tendency to do in my life,

564
00:46:33.599 --> 00:46:37.719
I collected every single book I could on the subject,

565
00:46:38.239 --> 00:46:43.760
every single Beat book, every poetry book, everything. I'm not

566
00:46:43.800 --> 00:46:46.119
saying I had all those books, but I collected all

567
00:46:46.159 --> 00:46:49.679
the ones I could afford to get, and I did

568
00:46:49.679 --> 00:46:52.760
that for the next three years up to one for

569
00:46:52.920 --> 00:46:55.199
the next couple of years to two thousand and four,

570
00:46:57.960 --> 00:47:01.400
nineteen ninety four. Sorry, not too for nineteen ninety four.

571
00:47:03.000 --> 00:47:06.719
So I got very much into after that, though, I

572
00:47:06.760 --> 00:47:12.960
got into Buddhism. Well, actually probably more Taoism to start with,

573
00:47:14.119 --> 00:47:17.360
because the Beat generation, a lot of what they're talking

574
00:47:17.360 --> 00:47:21.920
about was very Buddhist, very Dooist or Taoist, however you

575
00:47:22.000 --> 00:47:27.840
want to pronounce it. And that interested me. So I

576
00:47:27.920 --> 00:47:32.719
kind of from there got back into interested in Buddhism.

577
00:47:32.760 --> 00:47:35.880
Interested in I mean, I remember I used to go

578
00:47:35.960 --> 00:47:39.119
to school, go to school, go to work, and I

579
00:47:39.119 --> 00:47:45.840
would be reading books like Confucious books or Zen books

580
00:47:45.880 --> 00:47:51.480
about Zen maybe the cones or not like ice cream

581
00:47:51.559 --> 00:47:57.320
cones but or is it co Aen's, And I'd have

582
00:47:57.480 --> 00:48:01.639
these I think the right word piffy, you know, like

583
00:48:01.760 --> 00:48:04.880
there a book of sayings, and I'd read those in

584
00:48:04.920 --> 00:48:11.480
my breaks at work. So I got very involved in Buddhism.

585
00:48:12.239 --> 00:48:17.719
But only in the sense of reading the books. And

586
00:48:17.760 --> 00:48:26.440
then two thousand and five or two thousand, yeah, between yeah,

587
00:48:26.519 --> 00:48:37.119
so between that time and two thousand and five September August, No,

588
00:48:37.400 --> 00:48:44.159
when was it, probably li I'm in November, maybe two

589
00:48:44.639 --> 00:48:47.519
nineteen ninety five, I keep it's so long ago. I

590
00:48:47.559 --> 00:48:52.480
can't it's like nineteen ninety five. That was like that

591
00:48:52.559 --> 00:48:59.079
was a different century. So nineteen ninety five, I I

592
00:48:59.199 --> 00:49:05.440
sold all my book books, or my Buddhist books. And

593
00:49:05.480 --> 00:49:09.800
I had a good collection, a large collection, but I

594
00:49:09.880 --> 00:49:16.639
sold them all and because I was basically being evicted

595
00:49:16.639 --> 00:49:19.840
and I needed somewhere, I needed some cash, and then

596
00:49:19.840 --> 00:49:22.280
I went and worked at Butlin's. So you know, it

597
00:49:22.320 --> 00:49:30.320
didn't really work out. It worked out in the end.

598
00:49:31.199 --> 00:49:35.440
I love that little collection and I had, Yeah, I

599
00:49:35.480 --> 00:49:39.400
had a good collection of books back then, probably a

600
00:49:39.440 --> 00:49:49.760
good couple of hundred books. Yeah, and then nothing. Honestly

601
00:49:50.039 --> 00:49:54.840
from ninety five then ninety six I did read buy

602
00:49:55.000 --> 00:50:01.760
another book, which was it was a Buddhist book, the Tibetan.

603
00:50:04.400 --> 00:50:07.320
I've still it's not the same one, but it's the

604
00:50:07.360 --> 00:50:09.840
same one. So I basically had that book three times

605
00:50:09.880 --> 00:50:14.480
now and it's on my bookcase it's a red cover.

606
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:20.000
I forget something path of good Fortune to make me

607
00:50:20.039 --> 00:50:24.000
want to read it again. Strange, isn't it? So I

608
00:50:24.079 --> 00:50:26.159
bought that and I was reading that when I was

609
00:50:26.280 --> 00:50:33.119
doing a security job during ninety six ninety seven, and

610
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:40.199
I think I also got I also had see this

611
00:50:40.280 --> 00:50:42.679
is weird. I've had this book.

612
00:50:43.800 --> 00:50:44.400
It is.

613
00:50:46.320 --> 00:50:51.079
Teachings of the Buddha, and I've had it since probably

614
00:50:51.760 --> 00:51:00.400
nineteen ninety three. I still got it. So I can't

615
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:00.840
get it.

616
00:51:05.760 --> 00:51:11.519
What is that book name? Where is oh?

617
00:51:11.679 --> 00:51:26.639
Is that? Still can't find that book.

618
00:51:29.159 --> 00:51:33.000
Much.

619
00:51:37.320 --> 00:51:47.840
There's obstacles everywhere. I came back the cover and there's

620
00:51:47.920 --> 00:51:50.800
like a I guess it's a dust cover or whatever.

621
00:51:50.880 --> 00:51:56.360
It's is very worn now. But it's called The Teachings

622
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.000
of Buddha and it's one size English.

623
00:52:02.079 --> 00:52:02.840
Other side is.

624
00:52:05.800 --> 00:52:09.159
I don't know, Chinese, Mandarin. I'm not sure what the

625
00:52:10.360 --> 00:52:13.000
what the language is. It might be Japanese. Actually, I'm

626
00:52:13.039 --> 00:52:18.000
not sure the Teachings that of Buddha. What year was

627
00:52:18.039 --> 00:52:27.360
this printed? Oh, it's Japan, Yes, so it's Japanese. So

628
00:52:27.480 --> 00:52:32.199
it's English and Japanese. Nineteen sixty six it was printed,

629
00:52:33.639 --> 00:52:39.639
and then again the revised edition. Wow seven hundred and

630
00:52:39.840 --> 00:52:48.760
third revised edition, seven hundred and three revisions of this,

631
00:52:50.079 --> 00:52:52.480
nineteen ninety one, this was so this this was from

632
00:52:52.519 --> 00:52:55.119
nineteen ninety one, so I probably got it in about

633
00:52:55.199 --> 00:52:55.760
ninety two.

634
00:52:57.119 --> 00:52:58.480
It's the only.

635
00:52:58.920 --> 00:53:04.519
Item that I have from that long ago. And then

636
00:53:04.719 --> 00:53:07.559
do you know how much it cost me? Twenty five

637
00:53:07.719 --> 00:53:11.679
pound still got the price tag on it on the inside.

638
00:53:12.599 --> 00:53:21.159
Twenty five pound. When you consider at the time my

639
00:53:21.360 --> 00:53:25.519
rent was forty pounds a week. I was earning one

640
00:53:25.599 --> 00:53:29.559
hundred pounds a week in my job, So I spent

641
00:53:29.639 --> 00:53:34.840
twenty five pounds on a book, which kind of shows

642
00:53:35.880 --> 00:53:43.400
how interesting I was in the subject, because so it's

643
00:53:43.440 --> 00:53:47.639
English and Japanese, and there is how many pages, over

644
00:53:47.719 --> 00:53:51.000
six hundred pages. But it's not a big book. It's

645
00:53:51.480 --> 00:53:58.920
you know, quite small. The writing is quite small. So yeah,

646
00:53:59.039 --> 00:54:02.039
it's good, but it's very in a way. It's kind

647
00:54:02.039 --> 00:54:05.119
of similar to the Gideon's Bible in the sense of

648
00:54:06.320 --> 00:54:11.440
you can look up things to to focus on. So,

649
00:54:11.639 --> 00:54:22.280
for example, if you're interested in Iuly I should be

650
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:30.000
at the back. Actually, yes, at the back like a glossary. No,

651
00:54:30.119 --> 00:54:36.239
it isn't, hm, it's not at all. There is a

652
00:54:36.400 --> 00:54:44.000
there's a also Okay, So there is like it's an index.

653
00:54:45.360 --> 00:54:47.039
So if you want to look at truth where you

654
00:54:47.079 --> 00:54:55.159
want to, okay, do not forget what you are seeking.

655
00:55:01.199 --> 00:55:06.360
Do not let your mind be disturbed, even under unsatisfactory circumstances.

656
00:55:07.199 --> 00:55:09.079
So there's little things like that you can go into

657
00:55:09.199 --> 00:55:15.800
and say, okay, it can help in a few you know,

658
00:55:17.280 --> 00:55:21.400
I suppose stuff when it's getting when things are maybe

659
00:55:21.480 --> 00:55:26.360
a little bit difficult, the meaning of life, a prejudice life,

660
00:55:28.039 --> 00:55:31.599
and the five things that no one can accomplish in

661
00:55:31.599 --> 00:55:38.719
this world, the four truths in this world is faith

662
00:55:38.800 --> 00:55:44.280
is a manifest manifestation, manifestation. I can't even say the word,

663
00:55:44.559 --> 00:55:46.519
but anyway that the reason I getting that out is

664
00:55:46.559 --> 00:55:51.880
because I just I forgot. I don't think I've got

665
00:55:51.880 --> 00:55:55.679
that book, but I forget that that book predates every

666
00:55:55.760 --> 00:56:01.639
other item or belonging that I have in world. I

667
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:06.719
have nothing that's older in that book. I mean, even

668
00:56:06.880 --> 00:56:12.119
my internal organs have regenerated in that time, because I'd say,

669
00:56:12.239 --> 00:56:14.960
is that every seven years our organs regenerate over time,

670
00:56:15.079 --> 00:56:22.079
So that book's older than me. Technically it was born

671
00:56:22.119 --> 00:56:26.199
when I was twenty one. That book, so in this sense,

672
00:56:26.400 --> 00:56:31.639
like my son or my daughter that book is and

673
00:56:31.679 --> 00:56:36.920
it's the only thing. Even when I was destroying books

674
00:56:37.840 --> 00:56:45.840
back in twoenty fourteen, I wouldn't go near that one.

675
00:56:48.400 --> 00:56:50.800
I mean, it's not that it's irreplaceable, because it's probably

676
00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:57.119
probably now on it's nine thousandth edition reprint or whatever,

677
00:56:57.199 --> 00:57:05.000
but it's yeah, it's traveled with me. You think about it,

678
00:57:05.000 --> 00:57:11.480
it's traveled for so it was in Stratford and it's

679
00:57:11.519 --> 00:57:14.599
traveled with me all the different places I've moved, So

680
00:57:14.760 --> 00:57:20.360
let's count those. So from Stratford ninety four to another

681
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:26.920
place in light and so that's one, then again stayed

682
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:32.239
with me there, then to Ireland, then back to London.

683
00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:36.960
So that's four places. Just been to Ireland, it's been,

684
00:57:38.559 --> 00:57:44.920
then to Bogner, Regis, then back to London, then to

685
00:57:44.960 --> 00:57:53.320
another place in London, another place in London, then another

686
00:57:53.400 --> 00:58:00.159
place in London, then Ipswich, another place in it's which

687
00:58:00.280 --> 00:58:06.360
number place in Nipswich, nomber place in Ipswich, number place

688
00:58:06.400 --> 00:58:14.480
in Nipswich. So that's fourteen so far. Then where I'm

689
00:58:14.519 --> 00:58:19.960
living now that's fifteen. No, where I moved, So he's

690
00:58:20.039 --> 00:58:32.239
rather then six sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen nineteen or twenty,

691
00:58:32.679 --> 00:58:37.199
so about nineteen or twenty different places I've lived since

692
00:58:37.239 --> 00:58:41.239
I've got this book. I think it's more than that.

693
00:58:41.480 --> 00:58:44.320
I've moved, probably more than that. I'm just think old. Yeah,

694
00:58:44.360 --> 00:58:48.920
twenty one, twenty two, Yeah, maybe twenty three, twenty two,

695
00:58:48.960 --> 00:58:52.079
between twenty one and twenty three. Times I've moved since

696
00:58:52.119 --> 00:58:55.800
I've got this book. So it's moved around with me. Now,

697
00:58:56.719 --> 00:58:58.800
how I thought about it, I would have took it with.

698
00:58:58.920 --> 00:58:59.360
Me to.

699
00:59:00.880 --> 00:59:02.760
When I went to Amsterdam, or when I went to

700
00:59:02.800 --> 00:59:09.840
the Isle of Man, or when I went to Bulgaria,

701
00:59:10.039 --> 00:59:12.480
or when I went to Thailand or whatever. I could

702
00:59:12.519 --> 00:59:14.559
have sort of taken it with me. Is my travel

703
00:59:15.760 --> 00:59:19.119
my travel companion, But I didn't didn't think about it.

704
00:59:20.519 --> 00:59:24.199
I've got you know, I like to travel light, not

705
00:59:24.320 --> 00:59:32.159
in physical weight, but just generally light. So yeah, so

706
00:59:32.199 --> 00:59:34.239
that I've got that book, So that's that's been with

707
00:59:34.280 --> 00:59:40.239
me the whole time. I I generally, I don't really

708
00:59:40.239 --> 00:59:43.000
look at it. It's terrorist or I should have got

709
00:59:43.000 --> 00:59:45.400
that other book, shouldn't I The other book that I've got,

710
00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:49.480
Path of Great Fortune, Noble Path of Great Fortune or

711
00:59:49.519 --> 00:59:59.239
something it's called. So what year am I up to

712
00:59:59.519 --> 00:59:59.760
on this?

713
01:00:02.920 --> 01:00:03.000
So?

714
01:00:03.159 --> 01:00:06.039
Yeah, I think when I got involved in about two thousand,

715
01:00:06.760 --> 01:00:09.880
nineteen ninety seven blind Me. I keep saying two thousand,

716
01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:19.800
nineteen ninety seven, I started getting into self development, and

717
01:00:19.880 --> 01:00:23.119
before that I was it's going to be strange because

718
01:00:23.119 --> 01:00:28.719
I never really did any sales in the nineties. I

719
01:00:28.800 --> 01:00:33.360
tried a few different sales jobs and failed every single

720
01:00:33.360 --> 01:00:38.679
one of them. And because they were always not always

721
01:00:38.719 --> 01:00:44.159
but one wasn't, but most of them were, you know,

722
01:00:46.039 --> 01:00:53.800
bonus only no actual pay unless you sell. I couldn't

723
01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:56.639
keep it up because I always I had a tendency

724
01:00:56.679 --> 01:01:01.360
of starting those jobs. They're not hard to get because

725
01:01:01.719 --> 01:01:03.960
there's nothing for the people to lose. Is that really

726
01:01:04.320 --> 01:01:06.599
The companies that take you on they don't pay you anything,

727
01:01:07.440 --> 01:01:10.440
and they give you a commission, so they'd have to

728
01:01:10.480 --> 01:01:13.039
pay you a commission. If you make money, it's a

729
01:01:13.079 --> 01:01:19.239
win win for them. So I didn't get you know,

730
01:01:19.719 --> 01:01:21.760
but I was interested in selling, and I had lots

731
01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:24.440
of selling books, lots of sales books, and I used

732
01:01:24.480 --> 01:01:28.440
to read those books for fun in the ninety five,

733
01:01:28.599 --> 01:01:34.760
ninety six, ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine. It's weird.

734
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:39.360
I just in fact, earlier than that, I started reading

735
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:45.679
sales books in nineteen eighty nine when I was doing canvassing,

736
01:01:46.679 --> 01:01:51.000
and I just liked the positivity of it. Anything that

737
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:53.199
could help me to feel a little bit more positive

738
01:01:53.559 --> 01:01:58.480
was a good thing. But I did go after rails

739
01:01:58.519 --> 01:02:06.960
a bit during the nineties, and then I started doing

740
01:02:07.079 --> 01:02:13.039
sales in two thousand and one as a job, like

741
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:20.079
full time properly, so you know, I kind of began

742
01:02:20.199 --> 01:02:24.159
reading books again on sales and listening to audio tapes

743
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:33.519
by zig Ziggler and people like that. I kind of, yeah,

744
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:37.280
I'd lost contact with the Budhi, the Buddhism stuff. I

745
01:02:37.320 --> 01:02:40.679
didn't have anything to do with that, although I didn't

746
01:02:40.719 --> 01:02:42.960
have my little book here, but I didn't look at it.

747
01:02:44.280 --> 01:02:48.719
And then probably about November two thousand and two or

748
01:02:48.960 --> 01:02:51.960
the end of two thousand and two, I was in.

749
01:02:53.679 --> 01:02:55.719
Much need to.

750
01:02:58.239 --> 01:03:05.280
For help as far as relaxing, as far as anxiety

751
01:03:05.360 --> 01:03:11.079
control and stuff like that. So what happened is I

752
01:03:11.159 --> 01:03:16.519
used to walk past this place every day, a Buddhist center. No,

753
01:03:16.559 --> 01:03:18.480
it was at a Buddhist shop, and then I realized

754
01:03:18.480 --> 01:03:22.159
there was a Buddhist center, and then I kind of

755
01:03:22.239 --> 01:03:25.639
started thinking about going in there, and I knew it

756
01:03:25.679 --> 01:03:28.440
was open, and I think a Wednesday or Tuesday evening,

757
01:03:28.519 --> 01:03:33.159
and I don't know, it kind of pulled me in

758
01:03:33.199 --> 01:03:36.000
a little bit. So I was going into the shop

759
01:03:36.639 --> 01:03:40.679
quite regularly and buying gifts. It was a gift shop

760
01:03:40.920 --> 01:03:44.880
called Evolution, so I'd buy gifts for my nan or

761
01:03:44.960 --> 01:03:47.280
buy gifts for family from there, because I liked it

762
01:03:47.320 --> 01:03:51.119
in there, and I liked the atmosphere. I liked the

763
01:03:51.159 --> 01:03:56.199
calmness of the people that were working there, who I

764
01:03:56.280 --> 01:03:58.559
ended up being friends with. I ended up actually working

765
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:03.000
there myself, but at that time I wasn't going to

766
01:04:03.039 --> 01:04:08.159
the Buddhist center. And then I'm not quite sure how

767
01:04:08.199 --> 01:04:14.079
it worked, but I ended up going and from then on.

768
01:04:14.280 --> 01:04:17.320
In fact, that very first night, I met my friend

769
01:04:17.320 --> 01:04:21.000
who I'm going to see in a couple of hours,

770
01:04:22.559 --> 01:04:28.960
and he was there and we just got on really well.

771
01:04:29.079 --> 01:04:33.719
I mean, what's that two thousand and two, three four five,

772
01:04:33.800 --> 01:04:40.280
So that's what twenty twenty three years? Twenty three years. Yeah,

773
01:04:40.679 --> 01:04:43.239
so I've known him for twenty two twenty three years.

774
01:04:44.280 --> 01:04:45.800
Even we lived with him for a little while. I

775
01:04:45.920 --> 01:04:51.639
worked with him twice, so because he lived in a

776
01:04:51.639 --> 01:04:54.960
Buddhist community. When I moved in and then moved out,

777
01:04:57.320 --> 01:04:59.000
he moved out after a couple of weeks, but he

778
01:04:59.079 --> 01:05:01.599
was planning on moving now anyway, That's why they were

779
01:05:01.639 --> 01:05:07.039
looking for someone to move in. And I worked with

780
01:05:07.159 --> 01:05:10.559
him in the Evolution Shop in It's which he got

781
01:05:10.599 --> 01:05:15.000
me a job there because after going to the Buddhist

782
01:05:15.000 --> 01:05:18.880
Center for a while for about a year, Yeah, I

783
01:05:19.000 --> 01:05:22.559
kept I kept my job going for as long as

784
01:05:22.559 --> 01:05:24.679
I could. I didn't want to leave my job. I

785
01:05:24.679 --> 01:05:26.239
didn't want to lose it. Didn't want to leave it

786
01:05:26.639 --> 01:05:29.519
because I was good at it, and you know, I

787
01:05:29.559 --> 01:05:34.480
was doing quite well, but I wasn't well enough to

788
01:05:34.559 --> 01:05:36.760
keep going. And then in the end I had to leave.

789
01:05:37.039 --> 01:05:38.719
So it was another year. So it's the end of

790
01:05:38.719 --> 01:05:42.159
two thousand and three. Even though I'd gone part time,

791
01:05:42.840 --> 01:05:46.039
I just packed it in. I couldn't do it anymore.

792
01:05:47.239 --> 01:05:53.199
And that Christmas, my friend offered me a job just

793
01:05:53.320 --> 01:05:59.119
over the Christmas period working in the Evolution shop because

794
01:05:59.159 --> 01:06:02.519
that was their busy part of the whole year. So

795
01:06:02.559 --> 01:06:05.320
I did. I worked there, probably not every day, probably

796
01:06:05.400 --> 01:06:09.920
three days a week or you know, part time, but

797
01:06:10.079 --> 01:06:15.079
just you know, having somewhere because I needed to have

798
01:06:15.119 --> 01:06:18.800
an income. But at the same time, I couldn't work

799
01:06:18.840 --> 01:06:24.039
full time. I didn't fill up to that, so and

800
01:06:24.119 --> 01:06:35.400
I worked there part time until the following August, and

801
01:06:35.639 --> 01:06:38.480
I kind of lived on savings really, and then again

802
01:06:38.760 --> 01:06:41.679
I ended up living on credit cards and stuff, which

803
01:06:41.760 --> 01:06:50.519
wasn't probably the best idea. And then and then I left,

804
01:06:50.639 --> 01:06:52.400
but I didn't leave the Budhet Center, but I left

805
01:06:52.679 --> 01:07:01.400
the shop, got a job, and I continued going to

806
01:07:01.440 --> 01:07:06.159
the Buddhist Center. Four soce is two thousand and four,

807
01:07:09.400 --> 01:07:13.000
I had my Mitra ceremony, which is kind of like

808
01:07:13.079 --> 01:07:18.199
I guess, like a christening, like a christening kind of thing.

809
01:07:18.519 --> 01:07:22.880
It's a ceremony. And that was in August two thousand

810
01:07:23.039 --> 01:07:28.039
or August or September two thousand and four. And then

811
01:07:28.719 --> 01:07:33.239
in two thousand and five I moved into the Buddhist

812
01:07:33.280 --> 01:07:38.840
community because I was going very well with the people

813
01:07:38.880 --> 01:07:41.280
living there, well most of them. I didn't know everyone,

814
01:07:41.320 --> 01:07:47.920
but I knew like at least one, two three people before,

815
01:07:48.039 --> 01:07:51.039
in fact four people living there. There was another person

816
01:07:51.079 --> 01:07:53.840
I didn't know so well, but he moved out, and

817
01:07:53.840 --> 01:07:59.039
another person my friend who yeah, so and I lived there.

818
01:07:59.519 --> 01:08:03.599
In continue you go to the Buddhist Center from up

819
01:08:03.679 --> 01:08:11.079
until I left in two thousand and seven, around November

820
01:08:11.119 --> 01:08:19.000
time when I had to find because basically there was

821
01:08:19.039 --> 01:08:25.159
a squirmish, a squirmish, and so I had to move

822
01:08:25.199 --> 01:08:30.479
out and I went and lived. I needed really to

823
01:08:30.520 --> 01:08:33.000
live closer to where the university was, which was in

824
01:08:33.039 --> 01:08:37.720
a different town, which is what I did. But then

825
01:08:37.800 --> 01:08:40.479
I started going to the Buddhist center in that town,

826
01:08:42.199 --> 01:08:45.960
and then I ended up working in the because a

827
01:08:46.000 --> 01:08:49.039
couple of people knew me anyway, because it was it

828
01:08:49.159 --> 01:08:52.880
wasn't that far away. And then I started working in

829
01:08:52.920 --> 01:09:00.720
the Evolution shop in that town because my friend was

830
01:09:00.760 --> 01:09:04.399
working there, the one that got me a job at

831
01:09:04.479 --> 01:09:07.239
the Evolution in Ipswich, got me a job at the

832
01:09:07.279 --> 01:09:12.720
Evolution in this town as well, And it was it

833
01:09:12.800 --> 01:09:18.640
was just part time again during Christmas, their busiest time,

834
01:09:19.079 --> 01:09:21.800
and it was handy because I was a student that

835
01:09:22.000 --> 01:09:27.119
actually a little bit of money was useful. So I

836
01:09:27.319 --> 01:09:30.680
did that on and off for a couple of years

837
01:09:31.680 --> 01:09:36.720
during the period of being at university, really just part

838
01:09:36.800 --> 01:09:41.840
time Saturdays, not every Saturday, it's just whenever. Really, you

839
01:09:42.000 --> 01:09:50.319
needn't be barking, please mate. And then I when I

840
01:09:50.319 --> 01:09:55.560
finished university, I moved literally around the corner from the

841
01:09:55.600 --> 01:10:00.000
Buddhist center, so I was probably going a little bit

842
01:10:00.079 --> 01:10:04.479
more regular then because it's just up the road. And

843
01:10:04.479 --> 01:10:06.479
then I moved again a year later and it was

844
01:10:06.520 --> 01:10:10.119
also across across the road. It's just like the opposite,

845
01:10:10.239 --> 01:10:13.000
but it's still the same kind of distance, a little

846
01:10:13.000 --> 01:10:15.840
bit further away, but you know, ten minute walk, five

847
01:10:15.840 --> 01:10:20.760
minute walk, six minute walk, ten seven, eight nine, something

848
01:10:20.800 --> 01:10:25.960
like that, and so i'd go along. I used to

849
01:10:25.960 --> 01:10:28.239
go New Year's Eve and stuff like that as well.

850
01:10:31.279 --> 01:10:35.640
So I was involved in the Buddhist center then during

851
01:10:35.680 --> 01:10:39.640
this period sort of especially like during two thousand and

852
01:10:40.680 --> 01:10:46.039
three two thousand and four, I bought so many books

853
01:10:46.079 --> 01:10:50.760
on Buddhism. It's just it's one of those things that

854
01:10:50.800 --> 01:10:53.159
I have a tendency of doing. If I really get

855
01:10:53.159 --> 01:10:57.960
into a subject, I'll buy every book I can. What

856
01:10:58.359 --> 01:11:03.279
I find is to study a subject, I like to

857
01:11:04.359 --> 01:11:09.079
if you, if you read enough books on a subject,

858
01:11:09.359 --> 01:11:16.680
you'll start to see repetition almost or yeah, you guarantee

859
01:11:16.760 --> 01:11:20.279
to see repetition. But that repetition is good because then

860
01:11:20.319 --> 01:11:23.760
it helps for me, It helps it to absorb it

861
01:11:25.199 --> 01:11:29.279
and also get to see things from a slightly different

862
01:11:29.439 --> 01:11:34.560
angle or different opinion or expressed in a slightly.

863
01:11:38.520 --> 01:11:38.760
Way.

864
01:11:39.119 --> 01:11:42.920
You know, so that that's what I did. Bought a

865
01:11:42.920 --> 01:11:45.399
lot of books. I ended up giving most of them

866
01:11:45.439 --> 01:11:53.479
to the Buddhist Center. Yeah, I did accept this one.

867
01:11:54.000 --> 01:11:57.039
The reason I know is because I didn't print. I

868
01:11:57.079 --> 01:12:00.279
didn't prink because I printed the Buddhist Center's print it.

869
01:12:01.319 --> 01:12:03.800
But I didn't give this one. I kept this one.

870
01:12:04.479 --> 01:12:08.199
This was never this will be with me, this will

871
01:12:08.239 --> 01:12:12.359
be me, this is this is with me forever, I

872
01:12:12.359 --> 01:12:24.760
guess now. And when I moved away to hear So

873
01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:27.600
there's a lot of things happened in the Buddhist world,

874
01:12:27.640 --> 01:12:32.319
you know, since I've been involved. I went to retreats

875
01:12:32.359 --> 01:12:35.000
and I went on a pain management retreat as well,

876
01:12:35.520 --> 01:12:39.680
back in two thousand and five, I think, unless it

877
01:12:39.720 --> 01:12:45.439
was two thousand and six, and I think it might

878
01:12:45.439 --> 01:12:48.359
have been two thousand and six. And that was amazing

879
01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:53.359
because I was interested in pain relief as a practitioner

880
01:12:53.399 --> 01:12:57.199
and this was like a breath works mindfulness pain relief

881
01:12:59.640 --> 01:13:03.199
and lasted for about a week I think two weeks

882
01:13:03.239 --> 01:13:07.079
a week. I think it's about a week. So as

883
01:13:07.119 --> 01:13:16.199
well as being a retreat, it was also training as well. Yeah,

884
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:22.319
so I used to go out and meet up with Buddhists.

885
01:13:22.359 --> 01:13:24.039
I used to meet up with my friend that I'm

886
01:13:24.079 --> 01:13:28.640
seeing today when I was in the same town. You know,

887
01:13:28.760 --> 01:13:32.720
when I first started going to the Buddhist center, we

888
01:13:32.840 --> 01:13:36.359
used to meet up quite often, once a week, once

889
01:13:36.359 --> 01:13:41.640
every two weeks, and he almost kind of became like

890
01:13:41.680 --> 01:13:45.920
a counselor to me. It wasn't the idea, it wasn't

891
01:13:45.920 --> 01:13:49.680
the plan, and that wasn't his intention. But I used

892
01:13:49.680 --> 01:13:53.520
to just go and unload and he just sit down

893
01:13:53.560 --> 01:13:59.520
and listen, and you know, it was probably wasn't really

894
01:13:59.560 --> 01:14:03.319
fair on him, but he was so so gentle and

895
01:14:03.520 --> 01:14:11.159
so what the right word attentive? And I said to him,

896
01:14:12.479 --> 01:14:15.680
why don't you, why don't you become a counselor, and

897
01:14:15.720 --> 01:14:17.000
they said he didn't want to.

898
01:14:19.520 --> 01:14:20.119
But then.

899
01:14:21.680 --> 01:14:25.479
Once I'd finished my counseling course, he trained up to

900
01:14:25.479 --> 01:14:30.600
become a counselor. So he also is a counselor. Well,

901
01:14:30.640 --> 01:14:33.840
he's trained. I don't know if he's seeing clients or not.

902
01:14:33.920 --> 01:14:34.399
I don't know.

903
01:14:35.000 --> 01:14:35.600
I know why not.

904
01:14:36.319 --> 01:14:40.199
I haven't seen clients for over a decade now. I

905
01:14:40.199 --> 01:14:50.199
wouldn't even know how what what why? I'm sure I

906
01:14:50.279 --> 01:14:56.960
must have some skills. I don't know it, h but yeah,

907
01:14:57.079 --> 01:15:02.800
it's so I've seen him go food, lots of different things.

908
01:15:02.800 --> 01:15:12.279
I mean, he's now got a kid that's probably thirteen, twelve, thirteen,

909
01:15:12.359 --> 01:15:16.520
fourteen now. And I went to his wedding which was

910
01:15:16.560 --> 01:15:29.199
in probably about two thousand and nine, which is yeah,

911
01:15:29.279 --> 01:15:40.279
two thousand and nine, twenty nineteen, so yeah, probably the

912
01:15:40.279 --> 01:15:42.239
next year they had a baby, so it's probably fifteen

913
01:15:42.319 --> 01:15:48.399
years old. He's boy. Now. Wow, it's really weird. My niece.

914
01:15:49.199 --> 01:15:52.239
I got a message from my stepmom saying, I'll just

915
01:15:52.279 --> 01:15:56.399
letting you know that your niece is now it's her

916
01:15:56.640 --> 01:16:02.000
seventeenth birthday today. This is yesterday. I forgot to send

917
01:16:02.000 --> 01:16:14.159
a card, but hey, and seventeen, and I remember, it

918
01:16:14.239 --> 01:16:17.479
doesn't seem long ago that she was running around two

919
01:16:17.439 --> 01:16:19.479
all of us and just punching us all in the balls.

920
01:16:20.439 --> 01:16:23.479
You know what was last year? No, but you know

921
01:16:23.479 --> 01:16:25.600
when she was a little kid, you know, kid doing

922
01:16:25.640 --> 01:16:28.520
they just sort of they realized they've found a place

923
01:16:28.560 --> 01:16:32.640
where they can hurt you. And I had a video

924
01:16:32.720 --> 01:16:38.159
camera and I filmed her when she was probably five

925
01:16:38.760 --> 01:16:43.680
four something like that, and she was at a dinner

926
01:16:43.720 --> 01:16:46.000
table if it was at Christmas, and I was filming

927
01:16:46.359 --> 01:16:51.479
and she was just being so funny and start making

928
01:16:51.560 --> 01:16:56.119
faces and doing all funny voices and stuff. But I

929
01:16:56.239 --> 01:17:00.840
lost it. I lost the film footage. I don't know

930
01:17:00.880 --> 01:17:04.920
what happened. And it's a little bit unlike me because

931
01:17:04.920 --> 01:17:07.840
I did. I kept a lot of film footage that well,

932
01:17:07.840 --> 01:17:10.720
most film footage that I took with that camera is

933
01:17:10.760 --> 01:17:14.399
actually on YouTube. Now that wouldn't be, of course, because

934
01:17:14.399 --> 01:17:19.319
that's of family and stuff I wouldn't show. I wouldn't

935
01:17:19.359 --> 01:17:22.479
have videos of kids and stuff on my YouTube channel.

936
01:17:23.600 --> 01:17:29.359
Even with my neighbor, I was filming Vinnie in their garden,

937
01:17:31.760 --> 01:17:34.000
and I made sure that the little girl wasn't in

938
01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:37.680
the camera. You could hear a voice. But I'm not filming.

939
01:17:38.840 --> 01:17:40.840
I just want to All I want is to film Vinie.

940
01:17:40.840 --> 01:17:44.159
I don't want to film humans. I don't want humans

941
01:17:44.199 --> 01:17:50.680
on the camera. It's laying on the floor, the windows

942
01:17:50.760 --> 01:17:53.520
the curtains are open, and the sun shining in, and

943
01:17:53.520 --> 01:17:56.960
he's found the one little part where the sun's still

944
01:17:57.000 --> 01:18:04.920
shining on the carpet. Honestly, it's almost dog shaped size.

945
01:18:06.000 --> 01:18:11.479
He fits in it perfectly. It's a tiny little bit

946
01:18:11.520 --> 01:18:16.279
on the carpet that's got some This makes me laugh.

947
01:18:16.359 --> 01:18:22.199
He's so funny. He's so cute, but I know if

948
01:18:22.239 --> 01:18:24.119
I went over and I touched him, he'd growl at me.

949
01:18:25.920 --> 01:18:30.319
It doesn't like being disturbed, but it's okay for him

950
01:18:31.119 --> 01:18:34.000
to disturb me. It's fine for me to disturb him.

951
01:18:35.520 --> 01:18:39.239
Mind you. I woke up this morning and he was

952
01:18:39.319 --> 01:18:45.720
just standing over me, and I thought he needed to

953
01:18:45.720 --> 01:18:49.239
get up and go, but he didn't. He didn't want

954
01:18:49.239 --> 01:18:51.600
to go out, didn't want anything. As soon as I

955
01:18:51.640 --> 01:18:53.359
got out of bed, he just went back and laid

956
01:18:53.359 --> 01:18:57.039
down to go to sleep. So I'm thinking he woke

957
01:18:57.119 --> 01:19:00.880
me up. So maybe but I was making some weird

958
01:19:00.920 --> 01:19:04.159
noises or something and he was concerned, so he woke

959
01:19:04.239 --> 01:19:06.720
me up. Or he was protecting me, guarding me or

960
01:19:06.760 --> 01:19:15.479
something which or just watching me. Either he was he

961
01:19:15.640 --> 01:19:20.039
was helping me, or he's just a weirdo, A bit

962
01:19:20.079 --> 01:19:27.479
of both. Tech stuff is da dar. See if I've

963
01:19:27.479 --> 01:19:34.680
got any messages? Okay, right? PayPal? Yeah that's just for

964
01:19:34.760 --> 01:19:42.760
the groceries I got delivered, which is fine, Okay, it's

965
01:19:42.800 --> 01:19:43.600
not coming up.

966
01:19:47.680 --> 01:19:47.840
Right.

967
01:19:47.920 --> 01:19:56.439
Another message? My what sit downstairs? Jason's sorry, babe, do

968
01:19:56.520 --> 01:19:58.640
you have any fizzy drink? As my sugar levels are

969
01:19:58.640 --> 01:20:10.239
really low? I don't nothing I don't. Sorry, I'm not

970
01:20:10.279 --> 01:20:18.319
allowed to drink fizzy drinks, although saying that some times

971
01:20:20.079 --> 01:20:25.920
I have. Oh, I could give her an ice cream

972
01:20:26.199 --> 01:20:28.520
I got on Yeah, I could give her that. I

973
01:20:28.520 --> 01:20:31.960
would be I just got some cornetto's, could give her

974
01:20:31.960 --> 01:20:35.439
a cornetto. I suppose every day she asks us something.

975
01:20:37.199 --> 01:20:38.920
The weird thing about it is she doesn't even talk

976
01:20:38.960 --> 01:20:41.960
to me. She like has no conversation with me at all,

977
01:20:42.479 --> 01:20:47.159
but constantly asking stuff. So that's today yesterday, hijason, do

978
01:20:47.199 --> 01:20:49.600
you have some juice please? As I literally only have one,

979
01:20:49.720 --> 01:20:59.600
only have tap water. That was yesterday and last Tuesday?

980
01:21:00.039 --> 01:21:03.640
Do you have any frozen meals? I could nick because

981
01:21:03.680 --> 01:21:09.119
I'm waiting on the food bank. And the Thursday before that,

982
01:21:10.439 --> 01:21:14.720
can you put if she wanted me, have someone put

983
01:21:14.760 --> 01:21:19.000
money into my account. And then the Monday before that,

984
01:21:19.760 --> 01:21:23.479
I've got some butter. I can borrow to butter some rolls.

985
01:21:25.720 --> 01:21:29.960
And then the Sunday before that is r anywhere you

986
01:21:30.000 --> 01:21:32.239
can order me some white chest of drawers on a

987
01:21:32.319 --> 01:21:34.960
pay monthly for the baby, as I got so much

988
01:21:35.000 --> 01:21:44.039
baby clothes now nowhere to put them, and I can

989
01:21:44.079 --> 01:21:49.279
pay you once a month towards it. Like no I

990
01:21:49.319 --> 01:21:53.600
can't get credit. I literally cannot get credit. Even if

991
01:21:53.600 --> 01:22:01.840
I wanted to, I couldn't. It's amazing, absolutely amazing. So

992
01:22:02.960 --> 01:22:06.760
length okay, the the Sunday before that, have you got

993
01:22:06.800 --> 01:22:07.199
a lighter?

994
01:22:07.239 --> 01:22:07.600
Please?

995
01:22:12.000 --> 01:22:15.199
Sunday before that? Can you keep my can you keep

996
01:22:15.199 --> 01:22:26.560
an eye on my flat? It goes on. I told

997
01:22:26.600 --> 01:22:29.319
I had a friend that did this. It's okay. And

998
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:33.319
then the thirtieth of April, do you have any money

999
01:22:33.319 --> 01:22:35.479
I could have because I need to go to London.

1000
01:22:35.479 --> 01:22:40.439
I need twenty pound which I didn't have any money.

1001
01:22:40.720 --> 01:22:45.720
So that's the twenty fifth of April. Fifth of April.

1002
01:22:46.159 --> 01:22:48.560
Don't suppose you've got fifteen pound I can have so

1003
01:22:48.600 --> 01:22:51.039
I can get a or if you can just order

1004
01:22:51.119 --> 01:22:54.199
me an egg, egg, fried rice, set a chicken and

1005
01:22:54.279 --> 01:23:01.399
chips from the Chinese. It's like, what did I answer that? Nope,

1006
01:23:01.920 --> 01:23:04.039
got no money, but you can have a pasta pack

1007
01:23:04.560 --> 01:23:08.039
just needs boiling. I left a bag outside your door.

1008
01:23:10.119 --> 01:23:13.560
I don't think she ate that. And in the Thursday

1009
01:23:13.600 --> 01:23:20.600
before that, oh no, And oh the Wednesday before that,

1010
01:23:21.319 --> 01:23:28.000
do you have any potatoes? Friday before that do you

1011
01:23:28.039 --> 01:23:35.840
have any chocolates? And Friday twenty first of March, I

1012
01:23:35.840 --> 01:23:37.560
wonder if you had in money I could borrow for

1013
01:23:37.680 --> 01:23:49.000
taxi okay, which I didn't. And then the Monday, BlimE me,

1014
01:23:49.640 --> 01:23:56.319
that's amazing, this is amazing. The Monday, seventeenth March, I

1015
01:23:56.319 --> 01:24:00.199
wonder if you could transfer me seventeen pound so I

1016
01:24:00.239 --> 01:24:08.920
can give you cash at midnight, or if you can

1017
01:24:08.960 --> 01:24:11.119
borrow me the money, could you order me a big Mac?

1018
01:24:14.039 --> 01:24:22.239
That was a nom twenty seventh of February. Is there

1019
01:24:22.279 --> 01:24:24.119
any way you could do me a big favor and

1020
01:24:24.159 --> 01:24:25.439
try and get me an iPhone?

1021
01:24:25.479 --> 01:24:25.840
Please?

1022
01:24:26.319 --> 01:24:30.159
Mine keeps turning off and he's smashed, and I'm having whatever.

1023
01:24:30.199 --> 01:24:31.960
I'm not going to be the whole thing out. I

1024
01:24:32.000 --> 01:24:45.199
can pay you next week when I'm paid. I said,

1025
01:24:45.199 --> 01:24:46.640
I have no money. Is the only way you could

1026
01:24:46.640 --> 01:24:52.000
get paid monthly? And I said I can't. I can't,

1027
01:24:52.800 --> 01:24:57.279
I can't borrow any money.

1028
01:24:59.439 --> 01:24:59.760
Whatever.

1029
01:24:59.800 --> 01:25:05.399
Look nineteenth of February, will I be able to ask?

1030
01:25:05.479 --> 01:25:07.119
Can I? Can you boy?

1031
01:25:07.520 --> 01:25:11.479
I boy sixty pound? I said, sorry, I've already learnt

1032
01:25:11.520 --> 01:25:13.439
some an eighty pounds and they didn't pay it back,

1033
01:25:14.039 --> 01:25:19.960
which left me with nothing. What other one? What's the

1034
01:25:20.039 --> 01:25:52.239
next one? Just kind of can just going back all right? January? Oh,

1035
01:25:52.359 --> 01:25:59.359
jee certainly got any eggs? This is last January. Third

1036
01:25:59.399 --> 01:26:01.520
of January? Do you have any Do you have ten

1037
01:26:01.600 --> 01:26:05.600
pound I can borrow? Third of January?

1038
01:26:05.880 --> 01:26:06.680
Have any?

1039
01:26:06.800 --> 01:26:19.640
Yeah? Painkillers? Seventeenth December last year? Any painkillers? Fifteenth of December.

1040
01:26:19.880 --> 01:26:20.600
You've got a lighter?

1041
01:26:20.680 --> 01:26:21.000
Please?

1042
01:26:30.039 --> 01:26:34.159
Twenty third of October? Do you have seventeen pound you

1043
01:26:34.199 --> 01:26:42.479
can put in my count? Don't have any money as

1044
01:26:42.479 --> 01:26:49.880
I couldn't. Nineteenth of October? Can I have six pound

1045
01:26:49.960 --> 01:26:54.119
or eight pounds to borrow off you? And then a

1046
01:26:54.199 --> 01:27:06.279
big whatever? Information? I said zero cash? Sixteenth the day before? Wow,

1047
01:27:07.640 --> 01:27:12.119
can I borrow you ten or fifteen pounds? I got

1048
01:27:12.159 --> 01:27:16.000
thirty seven pence so I can do that. Fifteenth of

1049
01:27:16.000 --> 01:27:20.039
October last year, do you have any newspapers I can use?

1050
01:27:23.520 --> 01:27:30.720
Sixteenth of October? Have you got any milk? Okay? What's

1051
01:27:30.760 --> 01:27:41.359
the next one? Going back? Seventh of October? See this

1052
01:27:41.439 --> 01:27:43.319
is when this is at a time when I was

1053
01:27:43.359 --> 01:27:48.640
helping her. I had to stop after this. My heating

1054
01:27:48.640 --> 01:27:51.479
box is not working. I was wondering if you know

1055
01:27:51.560 --> 01:27:55.279
how to whatever? Just wondering. This is seventh October, wondering

1056
01:27:55.279 --> 01:27:58.840
if you have ten pounds till Thursday? As I'm very

1057
01:27:58.960 --> 01:28:01.560
not very well. So I put ten pounds in a

1058
01:28:01.600 --> 01:28:05.119
bank and I just texted that to her. Oh sorry,

1059
01:28:05.159 --> 01:28:07.479
I'm at a garage and on a six pounds short.

1060
01:28:07.479 --> 01:28:19.560
Could you help me out? Yeah? It just goes on

1061
01:28:19.720 --> 01:28:28.760
and on and on. It's weird. Seventeenth of August last year,

1062
01:28:28.800 --> 01:28:31.760
do you have thirty pounds? I can board to get whatever?

1063
01:28:31.880 --> 01:28:49.840
Where's you're going? Wow? Friday, nineteenth of July, could you

1064
01:28:49.920 --> 01:28:54.880
transfer me sixty nine pence? And then a little while

1065
01:28:54.920 --> 01:28:58.119
later can you put twenty pounds on my account? And

1066
01:28:58.159 --> 01:29:02.119
I give you cash? I had no money in my accounsel.

1067
01:29:02.119 --> 01:29:06.840
I couldn't thirty first of July do you ever take measure?

1068
01:29:08.000 --> 01:29:21.920
I don't know what that was about? Random? Oh, this

1069
01:29:22.000 --> 01:29:25.239
is the word. Thirteenth of July. Could I connect my

1070
01:29:25.399 --> 01:29:26.039
to your WiFi?

1071
01:29:26.159 --> 01:29:26.479
Please?

1072
01:29:26.560 --> 01:29:31.479
My data is low? No no no no no no.

1073
01:29:31.520 --> 01:29:34.560
That you give someone your password for your WiFi, that's

1074
01:29:34.600 --> 01:29:37.239
it forever, then you're never going to get them off.

1075
01:29:38.079 --> 01:29:40.880
You can block people and you can change the password,

1076
01:29:40.960 --> 01:29:45.600
but blind me, I can't bother with that. Okay, so

1077
01:29:45.640 --> 01:29:57.600
we're going back to seventh of July. So wow, seventeenth

1078
01:29:57.880 --> 01:30:05.039
seventh of July. Oh yeah, I let my umbrella. I

1079
01:30:05.039 --> 01:30:09.439
didn't get my umbrella back then. I need you, really

1080
01:30:09.479 --> 01:30:14.119
need your help. I'm in a taxi and I only

1081
01:30:14.159 --> 01:30:17.319
have three pound and I put I have less than you.

1082
01:30:19.039 --> 01:30:34.159
So what do I do? Wow, it's weird just looking

1083
01:30:34.199 --> 01:30:40.239
back at it, it's uh oh yeah, what is this?

1084
01:30:40.479 --> 01:30:45.279
Back in God, this was like constant. This is a

1085
01:30:45.319 --> 01:30:55.680
long This is a twenty seventh, twenty seventh for June,

1086
01:30:56.039 --> 01:31:05.840
twenty seventh for June, So twenty sixth of June. I

1087
01:31:06.000 --> 01:31:07.640
just want to check your okay as there is an

1088
01:31:07.640 --> 01:31:11.520
ambulance outside at four m this morning. I'm okay and.

1089
01:31:14.279 --> 01:31:14.640
Very lot.

1090
01:31:14.680 --> 01:31:19.680
I don't have money for fizzy drink or chocolate. The

1091
01:31:19.720 --> 01:31:36.960
ambulance wasn't for her anyway, So I got I got

1092
01:31:37.119 --> 01:31:40.960
some coke. I less some coke outside your door. This

1093
01:31:41.000 --> 01:31:42.039
is on the twenty seventh.

1094
01:31:56.359 --> 01:31:56.680
Can you?

1095
01:31:56.800 --> 01:31:59.720
Oh yeah? Can you? So you want to borrow a

1096
01:31:59.720 --> 01:32:11.319
fifty quid? Could you buy me thirty for my prescription?

1097
01:32:16.159 --> 01:32:18.680
And then later on another fourteen pound?

1098
01:32:19.560 --> 01:32:19.880
Wow?

1099
01:32:20.000 --> 01:32:23.439
This is just silly, isn't it. Oh well, I'll move

1100
01:32:23.479 --> 01:32:26.960
on from that because it's weird because she's only lived

1101
01:32:27.000 --> 01:32:29.600
here for three months. He's only moved in last monk.

1102
01:32:31.159 --> 01:32:36.960
There's only been here three days. So I think one

1103
01:32:36.960 --> 01:32:41.640
of the downsides of the Buddhism, I guess was, well,

1104
01:32:41.680 --> 01:32:46.600
not a downside, but I tried to help people. I

1105
01:32:46.640 --> 01:32:51.199
guess one of the downsides of helping people is more

1106
01:32:51.359 --> 01:32:55.479
here than anywhere else. Not here, but like in this area,

1107
01:32:56.000 --> 01:33:00.319
people have sort of took advantage of it, or took

1108
01:33:00.359 --> 01:33:05.640
advantage of the situation. And bit by bit I've managed

1109
01:33:05.680 --> 01:33:08.680
to stop it. I'm still getting asked for stuff, but

1110
01:33:08.760 --> 01:33:11.720
I just say no. I had another neighbor downstairs knock

1111
01:33:11.760 --> 01:33:13.560
on my door when I was in bed on Friday

1112
01:33:14.079 --> 01:33:20.479
about eleven o'clock, asking if I had twenty pound. She said, oh,

1113
01:33:20.520 --> 01:33:25.000
I need, I need some tobacco. If you got twenty pound, Well,

1114
01:33:25.039 --> 01:33:29.479
twenty pound doesn't buy tobacco, it's like thirty six pounds

1115
01:33:29.560 --> 01:33:31.800
or something, so twenty pound's not going to get you anything.

1116
01:33:32.640 --> 01:33:34.960
And I said, but she did, you know? She just

1117
01:33:35.000 --> 01:33:38.760
want And I said, no, she's okay, bye, So she

1118
01:33:38.760 --> 01:33:41.800
didn't hassle me for it. But like, I don't have

1119
01:33:41.800 --> 01:33:45.560
any money, I don't have any cash. I'm thinking of

1120
01:33:45.640 --> 01:33:48.600
getting a big sign sticking it on my door, my

1121
01:33:48.680 --> 01:33:52.439
front door. You know those what do those, you know

1122
01:33:52.479 --> 01:33:57.680
when a shop is empty, and they said this property

1123
01:33:57.720 --> 01:34:04.000
does not contain cash. Some shops had that done it

1124
01:34:04.079 --> 01:34:08.439
in the window when they're closed. I remember when I

1125
01:34:08.439 --> 01:34:11.359
worked in the chip shop, he always left the till

1126
01:34:11.399 --> 01:34:14.560
open and I said, why do you do that? Then

1127
01:34:15.199 --> 01:34:18.720
he said, because if someone does break in it, they

1128
01:34:18.760 --> 01:34:24.279
can just help themselves to because there was always like

1129
01:34:24.359 --> 01:34:27.479
a float, maybe twenty quid or something. They can help

1130
01:34:27.479 --> 01:34:32.199
themselves to that and leave. They haven't got a take,

1131
01:34:32.279 --> 01:34:34.399
they won't take the till with them. I think the

1132
01:34:34.439 --> 01:34:38.560
till was quite expensive, probably a few underquid, so they

1133
01:34:38.560 --> 01:34:41.279
won't break the till because generally they'll smash the till

1134
01:34:41.359 --> 01:34:44.760
up to get into it, even though underneath the till

1135
01:34:44.880 --> 01:34:46.760
was a little catch which you could push and it

1136
01:34:46.760 --> 01:34:50.880
would open it. I don't know if they still have

1137
01:34:51.000 --> 01:34:56.319
that end tills. They had it in a oh. When

1138
01:34:56.359 --> 01:35:00.239
I was in the comedy club, they had one which

1139
01:35:00.279 --> 01:35:05.880
was really old. For some reason, my boss liked it.

1140
01:35:05.880 --> 01:35:12.399
It didn't work at all, but it looked nice like wooden.

1141
01:35:13.880 --> 01:35:15.600
But you could open it from the bottom. So I

1142
01:35:15.600 --> 01:35:18.640
think maybe a lot of tills you can just open

1143
01:35:18.680 --> 01:35:21.680
them from the bottom, press a button or a lever

1144
01:35:21.840 --> 01:35:24.479
and they open, so you haven't got smash them and

1145
01:35:24.520 --> 01:35:27.199
break them or anything. I mean, listen, I'm not giving

1146
01:35:27.239 --> 01:35:32.399
advice to thieves. If he was to break into a shop,

1147
01:35:33.560 --> 01:35:41.159
here's my advice. No, not really, but yeah, this was

1148
01:35:41.199 --> 01:35:44.000
about Buddhism. It didn't really end up being about Buddhism,

1149
01:35:44.039 --> 01:35:44.319
did it.

1150
01:35:44.800 --> 01:35:45.479
Not really?

1151
01:35:46.800 --> 01:35:51.119
Not really, I replied to the neighby downstairs or not,

1152
01:35:51.319 --> 01:36:00.680
I can't remember. Wow, that's a lot of it's sorry, Oka,

1153
01:36:00.720 --> 01:36:01.239
I replied.

1154
01:36:01.319 --> 01:36:01.560
There.

1155
01:36:03.279 --> 01:36:05.479
The thing is, if I do take her anything down

1156
01:36:05.560 --> 01:36:07.560
like the other day, I want to have a chat

1157
01:36:07.600 --> 01:36:09.800
with her, just to find out what's going on. So

1158
01:36:09.920 --> 01:36:13.680
can I come in and got no clothes on? I said,

1159
01:36:13.720 --> 01:36:21.199
that's fine, And doesn't talk to me, doesn't have any

1160
01:36:22.399 --> 01:36:27.720
any conversation with her or anything. It's just it's almost

1161
01:36:27.760 --> 01:36:31.880
like she doesn't like me at all. Yeah, she asks

1162
01:36:31.920 --> 01:36:32.319
her stuff.

1163
01:36:32.359 --> 01:36:32.720
I don't.

1164
01:36:32.760 --> 01:36:37.399
I don't kind of understand that. It's weird. It just

1165
01:36:37.399 --> 01:36:44.279
seems a bit strange. I did buy her television. That's

1166
01:36:44.279 --> 01:36:48.600
a long, a long while ago. That was the second

1167
01:36:48.640 --> 01:37:01.960
of June last year, second of June. Oh, yeah, she

1168
01:37:02.039 --> 01:37:04.159
wanted me to go. She asked me to go to television.

1169
01:37:04.560 --> 01:37:06.800
And she said I'd like one like yours or a

1170
01:37:06.840 --> 01:37:10.279
little smaller, And my answer was, my TV is huge,

1171
01:37:10.359 --> 01:37:13.359
there's no way I can. So I've got this on

1172
01:37:13.359 --> 01:37:15.399
a special offer and I paid for it over a

1173
01:37:15.439 --> 01:37:18.800
long time. But this was like over a grand or

1174
01:37:18.800 --> 01:37:24.039
maybe just under one thousand pounds. It's like, I think,

1175
01:37:24.640 --> 01:37:28.840
I don't know what size it is, seventy five eighty

1176
01:37:28.880 --> 01:37:31.680
five something like that, but she got I ended up

1177
01:37:31.680 --> 01:37:42.680
getting her a fifty five inch one.

1178
01:37:43.119 --> 01:37:43.600
Wow.

1179
01:37:46.760 --> 01:37:53.720
So yeah, it's just not going to look when my

1180
01:37:53.880 --> 01:38:03.479
very first message, the very first message, eighteenth of May

1181
01:38:04.119 --> 01:38:12.600
last year, eighteenth of my very first message, So soon

1182
01:38:12.640 --> 01:38:15.119
as she got a message, this is probably the day

1183
01:38:15.159 --> 01:38:23.399
I gave her the telephone number. How are you? This

1184
01:38:23.479 --> 01:38:27.239
is at half six eighteenth, so you'd be a Saturday.

1185
01:38:27.279 --> 01:38:31.560
Probably cool. Thanks, just watching boxing. Okay, that's good. I'm

1186
01:38:31.600 --> 01:38:33.399
just waiting to see if my friend can borrow me

1187
01:38:33.439 --> 01:38:47.680
twenty pounds to get food. So I'm like, okay, so

1188
01:38:47.760 --> 01:38:50.840
I must have maybe a carder. So I ended up

1189
01:38:50.840 --> 01:39:21.800
giving her that money. H so yeah, oh dear, so yeah,

1190
01:39:21.960 --> 01:39:25.560
I see. That's the end of the recording. The end

1191
01:39:25.560 --> 01:39:26.600
of the recording.

1192
01:39:27.520 --> 01:39:28.960
La La la La, La la la.

1193
01:39:38.640 --> 01:39:44.199
I'm feeling quite hungry. Anyone else, I can't be bothered

1194
01:39:44.239 --> 01:39:46.880
to go out though, I might have to cancel going out.

1195
01:39:47.119 --> 01:39:49.840
I'm not really in the mood. I don't want to

1196
01:39:49.840 --> 01:39:54.960
go out or don't really don't, but I don't know

1197
01:39:56.239 --> 01:40:05.439
or don't. Yeah did it?

1198
01:40:06.840 --> 01:40:10.880
Here wee go walking down the street.

1199
01:40:14.840 --> 01:40:15.319
Mm hmmm.

1200
01:40:26.000 --> 01:40:41.479
Oh quite tired? Mm hmm how interesting.

1201
01:40:43.079 --> 01:40:59.920
Deep d d dede. So I'm just looking at some

1202
01:41:00.119 --> 01:41:08.880
and online.

1203
01:41:12.039 --> 01:41:13.039
So really.

1204
01:41:16.680 --> 01:41:18.760
That's pretty much the end of the record. And I

1205
01:41:18.880 --> 01:41:29.159
do believe is it time to eat though? Because when

1206
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:30.319
did I eat last nine?

1207
01:41:30.439 --> 01:41:32.319
Ten? And yeah, maybe it is.

1208
01:41:33.600 --> 01:41:36.520
Yeah, I think I'm going to cancel my meeting. I

1209
01:41:36.520 --> 01:41:41.439
don't want to go out after all these nice things

1210
01:41:41.439 --> 01:41:55.760
I said about him. I just coming bothered. It's not

1211
01:41:55.840 --> 01:42:03.840
just that I just can't. Yeah, you know not can't

1212
01:42:03.840 --> 01:42:18.800
you bother? That's not the right word. Am hm. Oh,

1213
01:42:19.880 --> 01:42:21.920
I have suffing to eat and then I see how

1214
01:42:21.960 --> 01:42:34.880
I feel afterwards. So yeah, thank you for listening. I

1215
01:42:34.880 --> 01:42:37.960
feel like I really wound down this recording to almost

1216
01:42:38.039 --> 01:42:46.760
to stand still. It's real boo, So thank you for listening.

1217
01:42:46.920 --> 01:42:51.840
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

1218
01:42:51.960 --> 01:42:57.000
to be happy. Remember to be gentle.

1219
01:42:58.359 --> 01:42:59.039
With yourself.

1220
01:43:00.760 --> 01:43:14.960
You deserve to feel safe lots of love by relax

1221
01:43:18.560 --> 01:43:29.119
in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

1222
01:43:29.199 --> 01:43:36.720
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

1223
01:43:37.920 --> 01:43:47.319
now and throughout the time we spend together here, not

1224
01:43:47.840 --> 01:43:53.159
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

1225
01:43:53.279 --> 01:44:00.439
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1226
01:44:05.159 --> 01:44:17.960
but also I think it would be nice to have

1227
01:44:18.479 --> 01:44:35.479
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1228
01:44:35.520 --> 01:44:49.000
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1229
01:44:49.920 --> 01:44:58.840
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1230
01:45:04.880 --> 01:45:12.720
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1231
01:45:12.840 --> 01:45:16.319
some people do, and myself as well. I sometimes I

1232
01:45:16.439 --> 01:45:27.000
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1233
01:45:27.079 --> 01:45:32.279
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1234
01:45:32.439 --> 01:45:45.039
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1235
01:45:45.039 --> 01:45:50.560
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1236
01:45:50.640 --> 01:45:55.720
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1237
01:45:58.199 --> 01:46:03.359
and I managed to find it again and it still

1238
01:46:03.479 --> 01:46:09.039
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1239
01:46:09.199 --> 01:46:23.960
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1240
01:46:26.039 --> 01:46:32.520
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1241
01:46:32.640 --> 01:46:43.319
morning and in the evening, and I knew before even

1242
01:46:44.079 --> 01:46:51.079
pressing the play button that as soon as I'd done

1243
01:46:51.119 --> 01:46:55.560
that pressed the play button. This was in the days

1244
01:46:55.600 --> 01:47:09.920
of CD players pressed the play button, ifact it might

1245
01:47:09.960 --> 01:47:14.239
have even been a tap tape recorder. I'd lie down

1246
01:47:14.319 --> 01:47:26.920
on the bed and then even without necessarily listening to

1247
01:47:27.119 --> 01:47:40.239
her words because I had them memorized. Really, it was

1248
01:47:40.279 --> 01:47:50.920
as if my body knew exactly what to do, and

1249
01:47:51.079 --> 01:48:12.840
the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I

1250
01:48:12.920 --> 01:48:26.840
remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was

1251
01:48:27.039 --> 01:48:34.319
listening to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1252
01:48:36.880 --> 01:48:44.720
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1253
01:48:44.760 --> 01:48:49.520
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1254
01:48:49.560 --> 01:49:08.840
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1255
01:49:08.960 --> 01:49:19.399
found being able to just let go, to have that

1256
01:49:19.600 --> 01:49:32.239
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1257
01:49:32.319 --> 01:49:40.640
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1258
01:49:43.279 --> 01:49:50.279
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1259
01:49:56.640 --> 01:50:11.319
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade.

1260
01:50:12.079 --> 01:50:16.119
Maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day,

1261
01:50:17.840 --> 01:50:27.760
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1262
01:50:36.119 --> 01:50:44.079
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1263
01:50:44.479 --> 01:51:03.079
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1264
01:51:07.600 --> 01:51:19.720
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1265
01:51:20.680 --> 01:51:27.039
So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

1266
01:51:29.560 --> 01:51:37.439
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1267
01:51:42.199 --> 01:51:59.600
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said

1268
01:51:59.680 --> 01:52:07.399
focus in your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1269
01:52:07.479 --> 01:52:17.720
each hand, perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1270
01:52:18.239 --> 01:52:23.720
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1271
01:52:30.880 --> 01:52:34.760
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1272
01:52:34.880 --> 01:52:42.840
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1273
01:52:43.359 --> 01:52:53.880
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1274
01:52:56.439 --> 01:53:07.079
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1275
01:53:07.399 --> 01:53:35.600
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1276
01:53:35.760 --> 01:53:42.680
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1277
01:53:42.760 --> 01:53:55.960
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1278
01:53:59.159 --> 01:54:12.640
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1279
01:54:20.520 --> 01:54:33.119
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1280
01:54:38.000 --> 01:54:47.079
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1281
01:54:47.439 --> 01:54:56.520
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1282
01:54:58.439 --> 01:55:05.720
and I think I don't remember, but snoring I remember talking?

1283
01:55:08.520 --> 01:55:15.720
Is this snoring was a pig turned up? That's why

1284
01:55:15.720 --> 01:55:23.319
I sound like when I snare, how I get really

1285
01:55:23.600 --> 01:55:37.079
into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

1286
01:55:43.239 --> 01:55:49.840
How relaxed do you feel in your feet? How relaxed

1287
01:55:53.600 --> 01:56:14.760
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

1288
01:56:14.920 --> 01:56:33.880
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1289
01:56:37.479 --> 01:56:53.600
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1290
01:56:56.800 --> 01:57:20.199
muscle relaxation. So this allows you depreve easier without necessarily

1291
01:57:23.000 --> 01:57:51.000
focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice the

1292
01:57:51.039 --> 01:58:20.960
ease in which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so

1293
01:58:21.279 --> 01:59:04.600
very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving.

1294
01:59:10.279 --> 01:59:23.640
When I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1295
01:59:25.720 --> 01:59:40.119
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

1296
01:59:42.159 --> 02:00:14.960
life giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else,

1297
02:00:18.159 --> 02:00:52.279
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1298
02:00:52.640 --> 02:01:43.600
of peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just.

1299
02:01:45.359 --> 02:01:46.840
Drip by.

1300
02:01:51.159 --> 02:02:41.000
So very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1301
02:02:41.880 --> 02:03:38.840
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1302
02:03:46.399 --> 02:04:32.960
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1303
02:04:33.159 --> 02:05:03.720
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1304
02:05:03.920 --> 02:05:16.359
allowing the stress to rip out of your body, to

1305
02:05:16.479 --> 02:05:40.159
appear out of every part of your body, and being

1306
02:05:40.520 --> 02:06:19.199
released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely.

1307
02:06:26.039 --> 02:07:13.840
The muscles se lex relax rex so very deeply, relax

1308
02:07:19.119 --> 02:07:44.520
so deeply, And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1309
02:07:44.800 --> 02:08:12.640
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1310
02:08:17.600 --> 02:08:50.920
and deeper and deeper. Noticing the feelings in the back

1311
02:08:50.960 --> 02:09:53.359
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles in front

1312
02:09:53.439 --> 02:10:47.279
of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a

1313
02:10:47.439 --> 02:11:29.039
sense of peace spreads through your fairy core. Even when

1314
02:11:29.119 --> 02:11:56.960
you focus on your mind, your mind becomes bef and slower,

1315
02:12:12.239 --> 02:13:34.039
heeven deep relaxing, so very slow. Your stomach, it's Fallin's stomach.

1316
02:13:56.119 --> 02:14:30.239
You're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now fear in

1317
02:14:30.399 --> 02:15:03.119
the hole of your back. His spy from your brain

1318
02:15:03.640 --> 02:15:11.399
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

1319
02:15:11.720 --> 02:15:47.359
and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort, increasing deeply relaxed,

1320
02:16:17.439 --> 02:16:52.040
your knees les, spreading those signals down a spine or

1321
02:16:52.159 --> 02:17:14.840
cord into air, every part off your gotting yah, your

1322
02:17:14.959 --> 02:18:03.479
shins and your calf missles were outpers feelings of peace

1323
02:18:06.399 --> 02:18:20.360
and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1324
02:18:24.639 --> 02:18:36.120
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1325
02:18:36.200 --> 02:20:00.360
lower back. Letting go, retinker peace, drifting mind just wandering away,

1326
02:20:01.280 --> 02:20:41.959
happy to let go, let go completely, let go, so

1327
02:20:42.319 --> 02:21:43.040
tranquil the whole body enjoying a sensor letting go, he

1328
02:21:43.840 --> 02:23:39.360
even more peace, enjoy the space, this space.

1329
02:23:41.879 --> 02:24:09.120
Of peace and safety.

1330
02:24:10.000 --> 02:26:09.159
So fury fy relaxed, lessing God. Maybe we can just

1331
02:26:12.040 --> 02:26:20.959
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1332
02:26:21.159 --> 02:27:50.000
notice your forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose, noticing

1333
02:27:50.200 --> 02:29:25.479
the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, rita peace for energy,

1334
02:29:58.360 --> 02:30:06.600
peace to grow, ease much ease, yeah.

1335
02:30:48.000 --> 02:30:48.280
Lease.

1336
02:31:09.600 --> 02:31:21.600
You may have or may not have noticed your mind

1337
02:31:21.879 --> 02:32:23.520
drifting peaceful, move even more deeply in the direction of.

1338
02:32:28.479 --> 02:33:59.000
Total blissful pace, blissful pace, raft go to pace.

1339
02:34:23.680 --> 02:34:43.159
Come on, souk cam, let him go.

1340
02:35:07.920 --> 02:35:25.200
Peace with mind.

1341
02:35:19.760 --> 02:36:24.000
Relaxed forty sir, relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

1342
02:36:39.200 --> 02:37:31.959
so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so useful, real liquor, h

1343
02:37:40.440 --> 02:37:42.159
so peaceful.

1344
02:37:47.360 --> 02:37:59.879
Sor fair, fair face, And you.

1345
02:38:00.079 --> 02:38:07.120
Could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1346
02:38:10.159 --> 02:38:19.879
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1347
02:38:21.239 --> 02:38:27.319
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1348
02:38:27.440 --> 02:38:40.239
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1349
02:38:40.360 --> 02:38:47.840
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1350
02:38:48.120 --> 02:39:02.840
speech not being particularly fast, and things just really feel calmer.

1351
02:39:06.399 --> 02:39:14.360
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1352
02:39:14.399 --> 02:39:22.360
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1353
02:39:22.479 --> 02:39:30.120
break from your life as it is, and to give

1354
02:39:30.159 --> 02:39:38.239
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1355
02:39:38.399 --> 02:39:45.799
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1356
02:39:46.040 --> 02:39:56.360
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1357
02:39:56.559 --> 02:40:01.000
tension and he stresses that you had in your body.

1358
02:40:07.000 --> 02:40:10.879
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1359
02:40:11.159 --> 02:40:22.840
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1360
02:40:23.000 --> 02:40:34.280
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1361
02:40:34.479 --> 02:40:43.600
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1362
02:40:43.760 --> 02:40:59.639
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost up

1363
02:41:00.000 --> 02:41:15.600
if didn't feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1364
02:41:15.680 --> 02:41:26.319
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1365
02:41:26.680 --> 02:41:38.719
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1366
02:41:38.760 --> 02:41:42.600
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1367
02:41:42.959 --> 02:41:56.760
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1368
02:41:56.879 --> 02:42:13.479
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1369
02:42:17.760 --> 02:42:27.120
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1370
02:42:31.159 --> 02:42:40.000
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1371
02:42:40.799 --> 02:42:45.360
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1372
02:42:49.639 --> 02:42:59.360
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1373
02:43:04.399 --> 02:43:11.600
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1374
02:43:11.840 --> 02:43:17.520
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1375
02:43:20.959 --> 02:43:33.159
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1376
02:43:35.000 --> 02:43:50.159
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1377
02:43:51.719 --> 02:43:57.479
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1378
02:43:57.680 --> 02:44:12.200
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1379
02:44:14.760 --> 02:44:24.399
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1380
02:44:28.479 --> 02:44:34.239
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1381
02:44:36.920 --> 02:44:43.639
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1382
02:44:43.799 --> 02:44:51.440
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1383
02:44:51.520 --> 02:45:04.840
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1384
02:45:05.280 --> 02:45:08.159
of even more comfort.

1385
02:45:09.079 --> 02:45:09.920
About to come.

1386
02:45:15.440 --> 02:45:21.399
Now I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead.

1387
02:45:24.159 --> 02:45:32.520
Just being aware of the feelings of your forehead and

1388
02:45:32.600 --> 02:45:40.040
any background sounds like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just

1389
02:45:40.120 --> 02:45:47.559
allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're

1390
02:45:47.600 --> 02:45:54.399
in the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1391
02:45:55.760 --> 02:46:03.559
This is the world. I live in the countryside, so

1392
02:46:03.600 --> 02:46:14.040
there's lots of nature sounds around. So as you focus

1393
02:46:14.159 --> 02:46:21.159
on your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more

1394
02:46:21.239 --> 02:46:30.760
relaxed as you focus only on my voice and that

1395
02:46:31.000 --> 02:46:41.799
part of your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing

1396
02:46:42.120 --> 02:46:53.000
on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy

1397
02:46:55.440 --> 02:47:02.479
yet so light at the same time, and all the

1398
02:47:02.600 --> 02:47:15.479
muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down

1399
02:47:15.600 --> 02:47:22.000
to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and

1400
02:47:22.120 --> 02:47:35.239
your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and loose.

1401
02:47:39.680 --> 02:47:47.479
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1402
02:47:47.639 --> 02:47:51.120
part of your jaw near your mouth and your chin,

1403
02:47:52.399 --> 02:47:55.479
but all the way up the size of your face

1404
02:47:56.680 --> 02:48:05.040
to your ears, all of your jaw, feeding.

1405
02:48:08.840 --> 02:48:15.479
More relaxed and calm.

1406
02:48:23.680 --> 02:48:32.760
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1407
02:48:32.879 --> 02:48:45.879
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1408
02:48:46.000 --> 02:48:51.520
your neck, the right and left side of your neck.

1409
02:48:54.239 --> 02:49:02.159
Relax and loose and calm.

1410
02:49:08.559 --> 02:49:15.200
And now the back of your neck. Focusing on the

1411
02:49:15.520 --> 02:49:25.920
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1412
02:49:26.120 --> 02:49:34.959
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1413
02:49:36.000 --> 02:49:46.680
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the.

1414
02:49:46.760 --> 02:49:47.680
Back of your neck.

1415
02:49:54.000 --> 02:50:00.239
Moving down your back and moving either side and if

1416
02:50:00.319 --> 02:50:06.440
your spine right from the top of your back all

1417
02:50:06.840 --> 02:50:16.159
the way down to the bottom of your back, down

1418
02:50:19.840 --> 02:50:27.239
to your lower back, and as you move up and

1419
02:50:27.440 --> 02:50:36.479
down your spine, you can feel the muscles either side

1420
02:50:36.520 --> 02:50:51.239
of your spine relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax,

1421
02:50:53.360 --> 02:51:01.239
that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards from your

1422
02:51:01.360 --> 02:51:10.920
spine into both sides of your back, the top of

1423
02:51:11.000 --> 02:51:17.920
your back, the middle and your lower back. And as

1424
02:51:18.000 --> 02:51:25.440
you scan gently and slowly up and down your back,

1425
02:51:27.840 --> 02:51:32.159
there's the muscles in the top of your back relax

1426
02:51:32.760 --> 02:51:40.360
and become looser. The muscles in the middle of your

1427
02:51:40.440 --> 02:51:47.840
back also seem to just almost divide from each other,

1428
02:51:48.840 --> 02:52:05.040
separating and almost melting, and in your lower back it

1429
02:52:05.159 --> 02:52:17.799
seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort that

1430
02:52:18.200 --> 02:52:24.479
spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back, into

1431
02:52:24.559 --> 02:52:35.840
your hips, into the area where your cosicks are, and

1432
02:52:36.000 --> 02:52:44.879
into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread from

1433
02:52:44.959 --> 02:52:54.440
your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1434
02:52:58.920 --> 02:53:11.200
start to really let go, don't even know where about.

1435
02:53:11.360 --> 02:53:17.360
To focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1436
02:53:18.440 --> 02:53:35.200
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly.

1437
02:53:39.879 --> 02:53:44.799
And as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1438
02:53:45.040 --> 02:54:09.159
that they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding calm

1439
02:54:15.559 --> 02:54:28.239
and feeding those muscles. Then move from your neck into

1440
02:54:28.360 --> 02:54:53.760
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1441
02:55:05.120 --> 02:55:17.639
and the feeling in your shoulders seens to spread deep

1442
02:55:17.920 --> 02:55:27.680
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation not just traveling

1443
02:55:28.200 --> 02:55:36.520
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing.

1444
02:55:38.639 --> 02:55:39.959
The bones.

1445
02:55:45.399 --> 02:55:53.920
And moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that

1446
02:55:54.120 --> 02:55:59.440
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

1447
02:55:59.479 --> 02:56:18.600
your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in

1448
02:56:18.719 --> 02:56:38.799
your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message into your arms,

1449
02:56:45.239 --> 02:56:50.319
and you may feel almost as if your arms are

1450
02:56:50.440 --> 02:57:02.040
not even there because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed,

1451
02:57:09.239 --> 02:57:29.959
so so calm, so.

1452
02:57:36.639 --> 02:57:51.760
Pose, not feeling, spreading all the way down your arms,

1453
02:57:54.520 --> 02:57:56.239
two elbows.

1454
02:58:00.079 --> 02:58:15.760
Bluding your elbows, circumforts, spreads.

1455
02:58:20.079 --> 02:58:20.799
Or away.

1456
02:58:23.239 --> 02:58:38.239
Into your wrists, your forearments and your wrists so heavy,

1457
02:58:41.879 --> 02:59:22.719
yet at the same time so light and gentle. Freak.

1458
02:59:22.799 --> 03:00:03.200
You see now on your hands, my hands, peaceful in

1459
03:00:03.399 --> 03:00:40.959
your hands, there's a sense of real peace. It just

1460
03:00:41.200 --> 03:00:57.399
seems to feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply.

1461
03:01:06.399 --> 03:01:25.399
Fies the thing is.

1462
03:01:57.520 --> 03:03:03.079
You things sidly you think it tips. Moving your attention

1463
03:03:04.479 --> 03:03:32.520
to the front of your body, so comfortable, Moving your

1464
03:03:32.799 --> 03:05:16.360
focus to your legs. Why muscles in your thighs, your

1465
03:05:16.479 --> 03:05:58.639
knees so relaxed, the carved mussels, and just chins compresedly.

1466
03:06:51.120 --> 03:08:19.239
Four See in your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1467
03:08:26.399 --> 03:09:00.639
so calm, sir peaceful, mhm.

1468
03:09:02.559 --> 03:09:21.680
So calm, so peace fall RelA sin.

1469
03:09:26.760 --> 03:09:45.920
Peace fall, so calm, loving that deep relaxation, to spread

1470
03:09:46.200 --> 03:10:07.360
your chest in your stumm so RelA, letting go of everything.

1471
03:10:18.639 --> 03:10:24.639
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1472
03:10:24.719 --> 03:10:32.799
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1473
03:10:33.600 --> 03:10:40.040
just walking down some steps, and each step or twenty steps,

1474
03:10:40.120 --> 03:10:49.239
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1475
03:10:49.799 --> 03:11:05.319
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fairvies you

1476
03:11:05.479 --> 03:11:10.799
walk down those steps that the deeper and more relaxed

1477
03:11:11.079 --> 03:12:27.200
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen,

1478
03:13:05.159 --> 03:20:09.760
seventeen sixteen us fifteen fourteen four two too well five eight.

1479
03:21:14.879 --> 03:24:17.520
Nine eight seven.

1480
03:24:28.680 --> 03:27:11.959
Si five.

1481
03:27:29.719 --> 03:31:08.479
Four one.

1482
03:31:58.120 --> 03:31:58.159
No.

1483
03:32:02.879 --> 03:32:15.200
And as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1484
03:32:15.319 --> 03:32:27.120
down from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1485
03:32:30.840 --> 03:32:39.360
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1486
03:32:40.879 --> 03:32:57.879
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1487
03:32:58.000 --> 03:33:06.319
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1488
03:33:06.479 --> 03:33:21.479
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1489
03:33:21.879 --> 03:33:34.840
each number counting down, and you may find the all

1490
03:33:35.000 --> 03:33:41.120
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1491
03:33:44.120 --> 03:33:50.719
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1492
03:33:50.840 --> 03:34:05.479
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1493
03:34:05.600 --> 03:34:15.559
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1494
03:34:24.120 --> 03:38:23.600
ten nine night seven five.

1495
03:39:34.120 --> 03:40:48.360
Four three.

1496
03:41:53.680 --> 03:43:40.959
Two one. So counted down from ten to one ten

1497
03:43:42.920 --> 03:44:12.120
nine eight seven six five four three two one. And

1498
03:44:12.280 --> 03:44:15.639
maybe that was a bit too quick, in order to relax.

1499
03:44:16.879 --> 03:44:21.079
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1500
03:44:21.360 --> 03:44:29.440
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1501
03:44:29.520 --> 03:44:33.600
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1502
03:44:33.719 --> 03:44:37.079
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

1503
03:44:37.159 --> 03:44:41.120
stick go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1504
03:44:46.719 --> 03:44:50.000
We could try it again, but this time I go

1505
03:44:50.159 --> 03:44:50.760
this slower.

1506
03:44:53.000 --> 03:44:57.879
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1507
03:44:57.920 --> 03:45:06.280
body before you focus on your legs. Just notice how

1508
03:45:06.399 --> 03:45:20.479
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1509
03:45:20.639 --> 03:46:21.079
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

1510
03:46:34.319 --> 03:47:08.680
Two one, And just notice how.

1511
03:47:10.959 --> 03:47:20.399
How you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not

1512
03:47:20.559 --> 03:47:31.559
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1513
03:47:31.680 --> 03:47:48.840
that space that you have, that space between being active

1514
03:47:51.200 --> 03:48:00.719
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

1515
03:48:00.959 --> 03:48:06.840
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not needing

1516
03:48:07.120 --> 03:48:12.559
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1517
03:48:13.559 --> 03:48:22.680
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1518
03:48:22.799 --> 03:48:27.360
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1519
03:48:27.440 --> 03:48:35.440
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1520
03:48:36.840 --> 03:48:46.399
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling.

1521
03:48:51.600 --> 03:48:52.840
And it moves.

1522
03:48:54.079 --> 03:49:01.399
Those stresses or discomforts physically or most and he moves

1523
03:49:01.719 --> 03:49:11.719
them away, allows you.

1524
03:49:14.440 --> 03:49:14.959
To just.

1525
03:49:17.920 --> 03:49:18.600
Slow down.

1526
03:49:22.239 --> 03:49:25.120
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1527
03:49:25.360 --> 03:49:35.319
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1528
03:49:35.399 --> 03:49:41.559
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into.

1529
03:49:41.399 --> 03:49:59.360
The gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1530
03:50:01.760 --> 03:51:56.520
No. Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one.

1531
03:52:08.399 --> 03:52:09.120
How does your.

1532
03:52:11.200 --> 03:52:12.440
Body feel.

1533
03:52:14.399 --> 03:52:14.559
Now?

1534
03:52:27.280 --> 03:52:42.559
Can you notice? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1535
03:52:43.000 --> 03:53:10.399
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1536
03:53:26.399 --> 03:53:46.520
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1537
03:53:46.639 --> 03:53:51.520
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1538
03:53:54.959 --> 03:53:57.799
I'm sure like most of your body is not not

1539
03:53:58.000 --> 03:54:10.319
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

1540
03:54:10.399 --> 03:54:16.879
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

1541
03:54:16.959 --> 03:54:23.799
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1542
03:54:23.920 --> 03:54:28.840
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1543
03:54:28.959 --> 03:54:37.719
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1544
03:54:37.920 --> 03:54:51.959
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1545
03:54:52.000 --> 03:54:57.479
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1546
03:54:58.479 --> 03:55:11.600
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1547
03:55:11.719 --> 03:55:20.000
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1548
03:55:25.959 --> 03:55:36.719
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1549
03:55:36.920 --> 03:55:57.520
our lives, how much they actually do for us, all

1550
03:55:57.639 --> 03:56:08.239
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird, but.

1551
03:56:11.120 --> 03:56:12.479
I think that all of our.

1552
03:56:12.399 --> 03:56:23.280
Body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1553
03:56:23.319 --> 03:56:40.079
of love shown, a bit of acknowledgment, thank you, gratitude

1554
03:56:43.040 --> 03:56:51.840
for what our thighs do for us. And I know

1555
03:56:52.040 --> 03:56:58.120
this may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why

1556
03:56:58.159 --> 03:57:01.840
am I surely out should be in the garden hugging

1557
03:57:01.879 --> 03:57:09.799
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1558
03:57:09.879 --> 03:57:13.559
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1559
03:57:13.600 --> 03:57:17.079
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1560
03:57:17.200 --> 03:57:25.959
can't see the television from the tree. If you move

1561
03:57:26.040 --> 03:57:35.360
down to your knees getting such an important part, and

1562
03:57:35.959 --> 03:57:40.399
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1563
03:57:42.879 --> 03:57:48.000
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for

1564
03:57:48.120 --> 03:57:53.959
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's

1565
03:57:54.000 --> 03:57:59.079
occasionally if I ever maybe I'll pash it, or it's

1566
03:57:59.280 --> 03:58:05.760
aching for some reason. It's then that I realize how

1567
03:58:05.959 --> 03:58:09.840
much it does. You know, the benefit of being able

1568
03:58:09.920 --> 03:58:18.440
to use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort

1569
03:58:20.079 --> 03:58:27.079
is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

1570
03:58:27.719 --> 03:58:37.120
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1571
03:58:37.200 --> 03:58:45.079
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1572
03:58:45.159 --> 03:58:49.280
can have that sense of gratitude.

1573
03:58:50.000 --> 03:58:51.719
And love to your knees.

1574
03:58:51.559 --> 03:59:03.879
For all that they do for you, And you can

1575
03:59:04.000 --> 03:59:08.239
still have that attention on your thighs and maybe notice

1576
03:59:08.319 --> 03:59:15.200
how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are

1577
03:59:17.040 --> 03:59:33.399
relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms

1578
03:59:33.440 --> 03:59:37.280
of your legs and your shins and your calf muscles

1579
03:59:37.680 --> 03:59:45.360
and the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate

1580
03:59:45.440 --> 03:59:56.760
and of course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had

1581
03:59:57.639 --> 04:00:03.079
even like the slightest brain of an ankle knows how

1582
04:00:05.200 --> 04:00:15.319
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1583
04:00:15.360 --> 04:00:20.879
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1584
04:00:21.200 --> 04:00:24.280
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1585
04:00:24.360 --> 04:00:29.040
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't I can't see

1586
04:00:29.040 --> 04:00:31.559
any problem with that because.

1587
04:00:31.280 --> 04:00:35.639
We're just picking stuff up. But our ankles.

1588
04:00:36.879 --> 04:00:46.799
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1589
04:00:46.959 --> 04:00:51.440
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1590
04:00:51.559 --> 04:00:58.799
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1591
04:00:59.760 --> 04:01:09.799
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1592
04:01:11.280 --> 04:01:20.920
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1593
04:01:21.000 --> 04:01:30.959
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1594
04:01:33.200 --> 04:01:46.000
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1595
04:01:46.079 --> 04:01:53.760
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1596
04:01:54.159 --> 04:01:57.479
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1597
04:01:57.520 --> 04:02:02.559
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1598
04:02:03.360 --> 04:02:07.200
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1599
04:02:07.280 --> 04:02:11.399
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1600
04:02:11.520 --> 04:02:23.440
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1601
04:02:25.399 --> 04:02:34.040
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

1602
04:02:34.120 --> 04:02:46.920
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles.

1603
04:02:49.799 --> 04:02:56.360
And your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1604
04:02:56.479 --> 04:02:56.879
your feet.

1605
04:02:56.959 --> 04:03:01.360
We're just going to focus on the legs. I realize,

1606
04:03:03.399 --> 04:03:07.280
but now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focuses

1607
04:03:07.559 --> 04:03:08.360
on them anyway.

1608
04:03:08.920 --> 04:03:11.479
For maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1609
04:03:15.520 --> 04:03:19.920
You can have them in your awareness, the same as

1610
04:03:20.040 --> 04:03:24.360
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1611
04:03:24.479 --> 04:03:30.399
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, let

1612
04:03:30.440 --> 04:03:32.719
me focusing on your ankles.

1613
04:03:38.440 --> 04:03:53.680
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs and

1614
04:03:53.760 --> 04:03:57.680
this that movement of energy.

1615
04:03:59.399 --> 04:04:06.440
Because of eyes hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1616
04:04:06.520 --> 04:04:11.280
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1617
04:04:11.479 --> 04:04:24.799
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1618
04:04:24.879 --> 04:04:30.200
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1619
04:04:31.000 --> 04:04:42.600
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1620
04:04:49.159 --> 04:04:56.680
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1621
04:04:56.719 --> 04:05:01.840
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, all this stuff that's

1622
04:05:02.120 --> 04:05:10.719
inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1623
04:05:10.719 --> 04:05:15.040
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1624
04:05:15.719 --> 04:05:20.879
and a message. So you can message on the outside,

1625
04:05:21.120 --> 04:05:24.040
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1626
04:05:24.120 --> 04:05:28.920
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1627
04:05:29.000 --> 04:05:36.000
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1628
04:05:36.079 --> 04:05:41.239
in all the veins and just gently.

1629
04:05:43.639 --> 04:05:50.799
Healing your thighs, and you could move down.

1630
04:05:52.639 --> 04:05:57.680
Message and inside your knees, just a message in those bones,

1631
04:05:58.680 --> 04:06:05.719
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1632
04:06:05.840 --> 04:06:15.239
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1633
04:06:15.479 --> 04:06:20.440
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1634
04:06:20.479 --> 04:06:27.920
your knee is. It's a really sensitive area. Very it

1635
04:06:27.959 --> 04:06:31.840
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1636
04:06:32.000 --> 04:06:35.920
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1637
04:06:37.959 --> 04:06:42.399
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease.

1638
04:06:44.120 --> 04:06:45.920
In your legs. It's almost.

1639
04:06:47.680 --> 04:06:52.360
It's like a part that has a sensitivity, which is

1640
04:06:52.399 --> 04:07:03.399
a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs.

1641
04:07:10.760 --> 04:07:15.040
So you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1642
04:07:15.879 --> 04:07:24.799
in your legs, that fold in between your legs. You

1643
04:07:24.879 --> 04:07:30.600
can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside,

1644
04:07:32.319 --> 04:07:40.360
massage in the muscle or tissue. You can of course

1645
04:07:40.520 --> 04:07:47.200
field the bones of your knees heading through your fingertips,

1646
04:07:54.600 --> 04:07:59.840
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1647
04:08:00.280 --> 04:08:02.000
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1648
04:08:02.840 --> 04:08:10.159
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1649
04:08:10.280 --> 04:08:16.280
in every single tissue of that muscle.

1650
04:08:17.520 --> 04:08:26.159
Healing every part, and then doing.

1651
04:08:26.000 --> 04:08:34.280
The same for my shins. Massage in gently stroking the bones,

1652
04:08:36.079 --> 04:08:41.760
gently stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1653
04:08:41.879 --> 04:08:48.239
deserve to be treated as the precious bones that they are.

1654
04:08:49.600 --> 04:08:52.840
Because our legs are so precious as in all the

1655
04:08:52.920 --> 04:08:58.959
other parts of our body, and more precious of any chore.

1656
04:09:01.280 --> 04:09:14.040
On the planet. When you start to think about.

1657
04:09:17.120 --> 04:09:25.959
Your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1658
04:09:28.680 --> 04:09:34.440
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1659
04:09:34.520 --> 04:09:41.280
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1660
04:09:41.319 --> 04:09:49.559
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1661
04:09:49.600 --> 04:09:57.040
your hands in your thighs and massage the muscles.

1662
04:09:57.399 --> 04:10:02.479
And the bones, and to get your fingers deep in there.

1663
04:10:03.600 --> 04:10:12.280
Releasing all tension, just to show how much you care

1664
04:10:15.600 --> 04:10:18.559
about your legs, how much.

1665
04:10:18.520 --> 04:10:22.079
You care for what your legs do for you.

1666
04:10:23.719 --> 04:10:35.840
Regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of

1667
04:10:35.920 --> 04:10:44.000
your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to the

1668
04:10:44.079 --> 04:10:51.799
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1669
04:10:53.319 --> 04:11:00.479
so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

1670
04:11:01.719 --> 04:11:08.559
Your ankles are truly a gift.

1671
04:11:10.559 --> 04:11:19.639
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1672
04:11:21.639 --> 04:11:26.040
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1673
04:11:26.200 --> 04:11:31.159
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1674
04:11:31.319 --> 04:11:38.040
these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight

1675
04:11:38.120 --> 04:11:48.760
stone double down, Yet my ankles support my body all

1676
04:11:48.840 --> 04:11:55.239
the time. Whether they do give off a sigh of

1677
04:11:55.360 --> 04:11:56.120
relief when.

1678
04:11:56.000 --> 04:12:01.079
I sit down, a's aat my whole legs do?

1679
04:12:04.760 --> 04:12:12.120
My feet? Feet also go my toast clap. The're so happy.

1680
04:12:31.920 --> 04:12:41.079
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1681
04:12:41.159 --> 04:12:47.559
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1682
04:12:47.680 --> 04:12:50.159
most most boring things.

1683
04:12:49.920 --> 04:12:51.840
You've ever heard anyone say.

1684
04:12:52.760 --> 04:13:00.280
Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said is true, true,

1685
04:13:02.680 --> 04:13:17.559
your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1686
04:13:23.360 --> 04:13:26.879
they deserve to relax deeply.

1687
04:13:34.200 --> 04:13:35.239
They deserve to.

1688
04:13:35.360 --> 04:13:37.680
Take some time out of the day.

1689
04:13:39.760 --> 04:13:41.920
To just let go completely.

1690
04:14:00.159 --> 04:14:17.920
Legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1691
04:14:19.000 --> 04:14:23.760
such a most you know, very important part of your body.

1692
04:14:25.079 --> 04:14:27.639
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1693
04:14:28.319 --> 04:14:47.079
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1694
04:14:47.200 --> 04:14:52.120
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1695
04:14:55.399 --> 04:14:57.239
and also my lower back as well.

1696
04:14:59.280 --> 04:15:00.879
My lower back really.

1697
04:15:01.280 --> 04:15:05.879
Feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in

1698
04:15:06.000 --> 04:15:12.040
a chair and there's no stretching as far as I'm

1699
04:15:12.079 --> 04:15:14.959
aware that I'm doing, but it's almost as if the

1700
04:15:15.079 --> 04:15:19.000
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1701
04:15:19.200 --> 04:15:27.440
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot.

1702
04:15:43.799 --> 04:15:46.879
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

1703
04:15:46.959 --> 04:15:53.559
to one, and you can continue.

1704
04:15:54.760 --> 04:16:21.040
To feel wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1705
04:16:25.680 --> 04:16:53.719
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1706
04:16:53.840 --> 04:16:58.520
count down for five down to one, and it's a

1707
04:16:58.639 --> 04:17:04.639
countdown if you just focus on the numbers, just the

1708
04:17:04.799 --> 04:17:15.280
numbers counting down, and notice how you feel in this

1709
04:17:15.559 --> 04:17:21.159
moment as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that

1710
04:17:21.840 --> 04:17:35.040
those numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just

1711
04:17:35.200 --> 04:17:43.680
in your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice

1712
04:17:43.760 --> 04:17:49.799
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1713
04:17:50.479 --> 04:18:07.520
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five four

1714
04:18:17.040 --> 04:18:34.319
three two one.

1715
04:18:43.959 --> 04:18:50.159
As you notice the gradual.

1716
04:18:52.440 --> 04:19:00.959
Letting go of the tension in your body, you may

1717
04:19:01.079 --> 04:19:06.920
also begin to notice and be aware of how your

1718
04:19:07.120 --> 04:19:15.840
mind is starting to slow down. This is just a

1719
04:19:16.040 --> 04:19:18.680
natural thing that happens.

1720
04:19:21.280 --> 04:19:23.760
It's not really a special procedure.

1721
04:19:25.079 --> 04:19:30.239
It's just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind

1722
04:19:30.360 --> 04:19:36.120
also starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes,

1723
04:19:36.239 --> 04:19:40.840
the more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle

1724
04:19:40.959 --> 04:19:51.479
of relaxation, and there is that calmness that comes from

1725
04:19:53.479 --> 04:19:59.239
relative quietness. You know, even even if there's background sounds

1726
04:20:00.639 --> 04:20:07.840
either your side, online, it's still going to be quite calm.

1727
04:20:09.520 --> 04:20:12.159
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1728
04:20:12.479 --> 04:20:16.719
music in the background unless you're listening to the recorded

1729
04:20:16.760 --> 04:20:17.319
with music.

1730
04:20:17.479 --> 04:20:24.680
Of course, you're very likely not going to be sitting

1731
04:20:24.680 --> 04:20:27.879
in a room with other people. Of course you might be,

1732
04:20:28.040 --> 04:20:31.959
but generally it's more ideal if.

1733
04:20:31.840 --> 04:20:36.639
You can do this on your own, so no distractions,

1734
04:20:42.840 --> 04:20:55.760
and when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises.

1735
04:20:58.120 --> 04:21:08.879
A sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying

1736
04:21:08.959 --> 04:21:17.840
to build it up into something fantastical or something magical,

1737
04:21:19.959 --> 04:21:30.159
this is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

1738
04:21:32.959 --> 04:21:40.319
In fact, it's almost the sense of relaxing completely happens

1739
04:21:40.479 --> 04:21:45.239
really when you put no effort into it. It's not

1740
04:21:45.440 --> 04:21:53.959
something that you can really force. It's something that happens naturally.

1741
04:21:56.879 --> 04:22:04.479
And part of the process of this recording and others.

1742
04:22:05.799 --> 04:22:07.319
Is simply.

1743
04:22:08.639 --> 04:22:20.079
Two allow you to take advantage of this space, this.

1744
04:22:20.479 --> 04:22:24.239
Time, to just.

1745
04:22:28.399 --> 04:22:35.959
Let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1746
04:22:39.639 --> 04:22:51.719
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1747
04:22:52.040 --> 04:23:04.120
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1748
04:23:04.360 --> 04:23:10.559
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1749
04:23:10.719 --> 04:23:26.879
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1750
04:23:27.000 --> 04:23:31.559
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1751
04:23:31.840 --> 04:23:40.040
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1752
04:23:40.399 --> 04:23:46.239
you become, the easier.

1753
04:23:48.799 --> 04:23:49.719
You find.

1754
04:23:50.959 --> 04:24:07.000
Yourself drifting. You can also, if you choose stay focused

1755
04:24:08.159 --> 04:24:32.120
on my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing

1756
04:24:36.440 --> 04:25:04.360
each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation.

1757
04:25:09.040 --> 04:25:09.959
Of letting go.

1758
04:25:16.399 --> 04:25:26.760
Completely. This time, I'm going to count from six down

1759
04:25:26.840 --> 04:25:39.159
to one, and you can notice your mind calming down

1760
04:25:39.600 --> 04:25:51.399
more with each number that you hear me say. Naturally,

1761
04:25:52.280 --> 04:25:56.760
the feeling calm and slow.

1762
04:26:00.840 --> 04:26:01.879
Peace, four.

1763
04:26:07.520 --> 04:26:54.879
Six, five, four.

1764
04:27:26.760 --> 04:28:12.239
Three two.

1765
04:28:33.719 --> 04:29:08.920
What being aware, mind has slowed right down, sinking.

1766
04:29:11.040 --> 04:29:31.360
Deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1767
04:29:31.639 --> 04:29:41.600
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1768
04:29:44.200 --> 04:29:53.719
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1769
04:29:53.799 --> 04:30:09.000
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1770
04:30:09.239 --> 04:30:22.879
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love, like all

1771
04:30:23.040 --> 04:30:28.680
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1772
04:30:28.719 --> 04:30:36.440
filled with love towards those thoughts. To let those thoughts over.

1773
04:30:38.760 --> 04:30:42.959
You're not abandon in them. You just need them.

1774
04:30:44.200 --> 04:30:56.120
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiets down.

1775
04:31:00.079 --> 04:31:13.000
Now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts as

1776
04:31:13.040 --> 04:31:16.920
we count down this time from seven down to one.

1777
04:31:18.479 --> 04:31:32.559
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1778
04:31:34.159 --> 04:31:46.000
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1779
04:31:47.440 --> 04:32:02.399
melt away and relax deeply. Of every number, they thoughts

1780
04:32:02.559 --> 04:33:11.200
would become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1781
04:33:37.159 --> 04:34:59.080
three two one, Mesen, Now, notice how relaxed you're feeling

1782
04:35:02.799 --> 04:35:03.599
in your body.

1783
04:35:11.959 --> 04:35:25.439
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more.

1784
04:35:25.319 --> 04:35:32.360
Relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1785
04:35:32.639 --> 04:35:33.200
mind are.

1786
04:35:48.159 --> 04:35:48.479
And this.

1787
04:35:50.319 --> 04:35:59.880
You focus on your hands and your fingers. This is

1788
04:36:00.119 --> 04:36:02.159
nothing needed to be done.

1789
04:36:03.119 --> 04:36:08.200
There's no clenching of fists or dents in the fingers

1790
04:36:08.360 --> 04:36:20.119
or anything like that. Yeah, it's just noticing and focusing

1791
04:36:21.840 --> 04:36:31.880
on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1792
04:36:46.240 --> 04:36:47.680
Because the more.

1793
04:36:49.639 --> 04:36:58.080
Relaxed do your hands feel, the calm your mind feels,

1794
04:37:00.080 --> 04:37:01.360
and the more.

1795
04:37:03.919 --> 04:37:15.319
Comfort you feel throughout your body, and gee.

1796
04:37:17.560 --> 04:37:28.759
May have already noticed.

1797
04:37:32.520 --> 04:37:45.119
You mind is starting.

1798
04:37:48.080 --> 04:37:49.200
To dress.

1799
04:38:02.639 --> 04:38:16.639
Like since just on your hands and fingers, allowing.

1800
04:38:16.720 --> 04:38:30.279
Them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation.

1801
04:38:31.040 --> 04:38:33.439
In your hands and fingers.

1802
04:38:38.959 --> 04:38:39.520
More.

1803
04:38:42.439 --> 04:39:01.880
And more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one,

1804
04:39:06.959 --> 04:39:08.159
you can almost.

1805
04:39:09.599 --> 04:39:18.680
Feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your.

1806
04:39:18.759 --> 04:39:38.560
Hands and fingers becoming year row relaxing with each number

1807
04:39:40.959 --> 04:39:46.639
you hear, going down.

1808
04:39:48.439 --> 04:40:06.680
Eight down to one, drifting drift to the game, starting with.

1809
04:40:11.240 --> 04:41:01.080
Number eight seven h.

1810
04:41:15.680 --> 04:42:02.000
H five.

1811
04:42:26.319 --> 04:44:07.680
Four three, just being here.

1812
04:44:08.200 --> 04:44:18.119
Now, nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing to say,

1813
04:44:22.279 --> 04:44:33.880
and everything just feels calmer. This is your natural state

1814
04:44:34.000 --> 04:44:42.439
of being. This is how you just normally feel when

1815
04:44:43.000 --> 04:44:50.119
you take away all that other stuff that we add,

1816
04:44:51.840 --> 04:45:03.479
you know, things like stress and worrying, over thinking, the anxiety, tension,

1817
04:45:07.759 --> 04:45:14.680
just generally thinking about stuff. You take that away, which

1818
04:45:14.759 --> 04:45:23.959
is what we do. What we do now you're left

1819
04:45:24.080 --> 04:45:35.000
with a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you

1820
04:45:35.279 --> 04:45:49.200
very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling

1821
04:45:50.240 --> 04:45:57.520
of comfort almost as if you've got inside yourself and

1822
04:45:57.680 --> 04:46:12.639
you've found a special where everything is peaceful, a place

1823
04:46:12.840 --> 04:46:20.720
where you can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort,

1824
04:46:23.880 --> 04:46:31.279
a place where you can be you, where you can

1825
04:46:32.040 --> 04:46:38.680
accept yourself for who you are, the place where you're

1826
04:46:38.720 --> 04:46:49.159
not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

1827
04:46:49.319 --> 04:46:58.720
you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

1828
04:46:58.880 --> 04:47:08.360
ways more important, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1829
04:47:17.200 --> 04:47:23.799
That sense of gratitude's in the air all around you,

1830
04:47:31.279 --> 04:47:37.560
and that's also a place where you can actually feel

1831
04:47:39.240 --> 04:47:53.319
the healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking

1832
04:47:54.560 --> 04:48:05.000
into your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1833
04:48:08.759 --> 04:48:15.599
traveling to each and every single part of your body.

1834
04:48:21.560 --> 04:48:26.000
When you start to realize that actually that healing.

1835
04:48:25.840 --> 04:48:34.159
Energy it's not just entered into your brain, it's.

1836
04:48:34.119 --> 04:48:43.720
Become part of your brain, and the spinal fluid.

1837
04:48:46.000 --> 04:48:54.000
Is now mixed with healing energy, not just.

1838
04:48:56.119 --> 04:49:00.360
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed.

1839
04:49:01.840 --> 04:49:13.840
And healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1840
04:49:14.000 --> 04:49:23.360
realize to actually, what's happening now without a healing, relaxing

1841
04:49:24.520 --> 04:49:32.360
energy spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life

1842
04:49:37.479 --> 04:49:42.639
it's actually changing the way you're going to feel, not

1843
04:49:42.919 --> 04:49:50.279
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

1844
04:49:50.439 --> 04:49:58.479
health improves, not just your physical health but your mental health.

1845
04:50:02.439 --> 04:50:07.599
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

1846
04:50:07.799 --> 04:50:13.799
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

1847
04:50:13.840 --> 04:50:28.119
to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

1848
04:50:28.439 --> 04:50:33.919
that used to cause you to feel anger.

1849
04:50:37.360 --> 04:50:44.680
No longer have that power to control you.

1850
04:50:47.159 --> 04:50:53.439
The way they seem to be able to before. As

1851
04:50:53.560 --> 04:51:05.080
you realize that you are the one besides what affects you,

1852
04:51:08.759 --> 04:51:12.040
You're the one who decides.

1853
04:51:14.240 --> 04:51:27.400
To feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing,

1854
04:51:28.520 --> 04:51:39.759
these natural developments of healing continue to grow.

1855
04:51:42.319 --> 04:51:53.639
And improve your life day by day, including of course,

1856
04:51:53.720 --> 04:52:11.240
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It's

1857
04:52:11.319 --> 04:52:21.680
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

1858
04:52:21.919 --> 04:52:25.080
falling the sleep is something that you've done.

1859
04:52:27.880 --> 04:52:29.479
So many times.

1860
04:52:30.799 --> 04:52:36.439
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1861
04:52:37.959 --> 04:52:44.560
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally,

1862
04:52:48.759 --> 04:52:53.479
and you're born with that ability.

1863
04:52:55.880 --> 04:52:57.720
To just drift.

1864
04:52:59.159 --> 04:53:11.040
Oh into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids,

1865
04:53:12.720 --> 04:53:15.599
sometimes we'll fall asleep and we don't even want to

1866
04:53:17.639 --> 04:53:22.759
try to stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1867
04:53:22.919 --> 04:53:27.200
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1868
04:53:27.840 --> 04:53:31.880
We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

1869
04:53:32.479 --> 04:53:37.319
you want to stay awake, the more we just start

1870
04:53:37.439 --> 04:53:45.799
to drift. And the more you fight drifting or you

1871
04:53:45.959 --> 04:53:50.520
try to stop yourself from drift in a safe the

1872
04:53:50.720 --> 04:54:02.560
deep hours, stronger thout drifting becomes. Because we're born not

1873
04:54:02.880 --> 04:54:08.959
just with the need to relax deeply and to naturally

1874
04:54:09.119 --> 04:54:19.240
fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA,

1875
04:54:26.319 --> 04:54:31.319
and sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at

1876
04:54:31.560 --> 04:54:44.720
times we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only

1877
04:54:45.919 --> 04:55:09.400
a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very,

1878
04:55:10.279 --> 04:55:16.479
very easy to let go, because that's all it is.

1879
04:55:16.639 --> 04:55:17.119
It is just.

1880
04:55:20.639 --> 04:55:32.040
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1881
04:55:32.159 --> 04:55:42.400
button on my recordings, you have given permission from my

1882
04:55:42.639 --> 04:55:50.759
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1883
04:55:51.759 --> 04:56:02.759
you have given me permission for my words to you

1884
04:56:03.400 --> 04:56:20.639
in a positive, only a positive way, opening up the mind.

1885
04:56:22.200 --> 04:56:32.720
To useful and healing suggestions.

1886
04:56:37.319 --> 04:56:37.919
They can have.

1887
04:56:42.520 --> 04:56:54.919
Such an amazing effect how you feel right now, as

1888
04:56:55.040 --> 04:57:05.319
well as those changes that continue long after the recording

1889
04:57:05.639 --> 04:57:16.680
ends those changes within you. They continue to flourish, Emperor,

1890
04:57:21.319 --> 04:57:35.680
transforming your life in positive, beautiful way, allowing you to

1891
04:57:36.040 --> 04:57:43.240
move forward in your life in the direction that you choose.

1892
04:57:44.479 --> 04:57:45.240
For yourself.

1893
04:57:54.599 --> 04:58:06.319
This feeling, this feeling be an experience of safety, comfort, calmness.

1894
04:58:14.119 --> 04:58:15.720
This feels so nice.

1895
04:58:25.000 --> 04:58:37.720
It's such a healthy place to be. And that positivity

1896
04:58:39.200 --> 04:58:57.840
rose within you each and every day moving forward, you

1897
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had to find them. You're more reacted physically and in

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your mind.

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Is more lax.

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And it's not that you're thinking smaller, it's just that

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your mind would be less unlooked up if unnecessary negativity,

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because from now do your mind rejects negativity. Now you're

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going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

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just say stop, stop.

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And then make it to the tea.

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You'll turn it around and leave your life stop and

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then make it to the tea. It disappear. Did you

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notice that you feel way on the legs, then you're

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probably expected eat. Now, congratulate yourself because you're the person

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understand this. You but the one that's opening your mind

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up to the simple fais. You can feel your resting body.

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End in your mind.

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You're both your mind up to.

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The birthright of beg just to sleep easily when you choose.

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That's a nice feeling. There's no extens.

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Speaking, spin, speech plays spring when new.

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Can you give it to

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Spot m