Sept. 19, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

(no music) (5 hours) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

👉 "#1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025" Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance. - Website Changes: - He restored his primary site,...

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👉 "#1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025"

Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance.

  • Website Changes:
    • He restored his primary site, JasonNewland.com, with 1,000 of the most recent episodes.
    • He discontinued LetMeBoreYouToSleep.com, citing confusion and redundancy.
    • Now users can stream 6 versions of each recording (e.g., with/without music, extended versions).
  • Distribution: Some syncing issues with Spotify remain.
❓Q&A SECTION HIGHLIGHTS 🔹 1. “What do you do for downtime besides walking and recording?”
  • Boxing and walking Vinnie (his dog) are daily routines.
  • TV & movies are his go-to relaxation tools—especially binge-watching series.
  • Not much time for anything else when he’s busy making recordings.
🔹 2. “Are you happy?”
  • He finds this question difficult.
  • Doesn’t provide a clear answer—seems reflective and ambiguous.
🔹 3. “Have you ever collected anything?” Jason gives an epic, sprawling answer that spans decades. Key collections include:
  • Comics as a child: The Dandy, Look-In
  • Time Out magazines in London
  • Books (science fiction, Star Trek, Wilt, beat generation, philosophy, Buddhism, psychology)
  • Stand-up comedy: LPs, videos, cassettes (George Carlin, Richard Pryor, Bill Cosby, Steve Martin, Eddie Murphy, Lenny Bruce, etc.)
  • Top Trumps cards (as a kid, but had no one to play with)
  • Hypnosis & therapy books (later tied into his professional interest)
  • Audio recordings: NLP, self-help, meditation
  • Personal journals: 45-50 handwritten journals over 25 years (sadly destroyed)
He details many transitions in life, including moving frequently, being evicted, and repeatedly losing his possessions and collections. 🔹 4. “How’s your dad?”
  • Jason says his dad is doing well, recovering energy after treatment for a health condition.
  • Recently met up with Jason and his brother.
  • Jason notes how rare it is for all of them to be together, especially outside their hometown.
🔹 5. “Have you ever done Tai Chi or Qigong? Thoughts on meditation?”
  • Yes to both, lightly practiced at a Buddhist center.
  • Strong preference for walking meditation:
    • Focuses on breath, balance, awareness of surroundings.
    • Helps manage chronic back pain.
    • Uses walking time with Vinnie as a form of mindfulness.
  • He finds seated meditation uncomfortable due to back issues.
  • Expresses appreciation for slow movement practices like Qigong and Tai Chi, especially their meditative elements.
🔹 6. “Are older British homes more haunted? Do you think your flat is haunted?”
  • Doesn’t believe in ghosts per se, but:
    • Remembers feeling uneasy in his childhood home.
    • Recounts a strange experience with a carpet rising on its own.
  • Acknowledges that there's more energy in the world than humans can perceive.
  • Mostly jokes that his flat is haunted by Vinnie (his dog) and formerly by Andre (his ferret).
  • Notes that noisy neighbors are more disturbing than ghosts.
🛒 BONUS: Mini Rant About Shampoo (1:15:30)
  • Ordered 10 bottles of shampoo via Uber Eats.
  • Only received 1 bottle.
  • Cue: "Never been so angry!"
🧘‍♂️ TONE & STYLE Jason’s style remains:
  • Meandering and reflective
  • Occasionally funny and self-deprecating
  • Deeply personal, often nostalgic
  • Gentle and soothing despite the tangents
🧠 THEMES
  • Technological frustration
  • Nostalgia and memory
  • Minimalism vs. materialism
  • Self-reflection and growth
  • Mental and physical wellness
  • Gentle humor amidst daily chaos


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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland,

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and this is let me Bore you to sleep.

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It's also que Ay Friday. It is It's cur and

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a Friday, everybody.

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So it's Friday, the nineteenth of September two thousand and

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twenty five. It is three point fifty three pm.

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And please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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So before I get on with the questions, because there

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isn't many, nor many questions, very few questions today. There's

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been a few problems with Apple podcasts. Just I'm not

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laughing at I'm just it's ridiculous some of the stuff

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that's I kind of don't know why. So it all started,

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we didn't start, but and kindly let me know. Let

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me know.

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This is on two days ago, that the new recordings

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are not showing up on Apple Podcasts anymore. There's no

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reason why they're not showing up.

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I couldn't figure it out.

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So I refreshed them and did everything I could try

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and do. They still weren't giving me the latest recordings.

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And I really spent ages.

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On it trying to figure out what's wrong, why it

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wasn't working. And all that stuff. In the end, I

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had to delete them or put them all into archive

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mode and then re redo it on Apple Podcasts. So

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each podcast I've got, which is how many podcasts, I've got.

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One, two, three, four, five, six No one one two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve,

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So I think there's twelve podcasts. I've not done all

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of them, but I've re not uploaded, but submitted, resubmitted

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the twelve podcasts onto Apple Podcasts, which is kind of

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like starting all over again, which is frustrating, and it

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significantly affected my stats. So I guess I'm not saying

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I've lost the listeners, but the listeners.

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May not be aware of the problems I've had with

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the Apple podcasts, so.

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A lot of people may just maybe thousands out there

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that just don't know that. I have not released any

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new recordings since the seventeenth, not the seventeenth, since the

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since I don't know whatever date it was, it was.

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About a week ago. Now I have.

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Done it, redone it all whether or not it's going

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to work or not, because I've tested them. So it's

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just got a bit confused for me as well. So

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I've been working on it. So what I've done is

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I've gone back into it and uploaded a new version

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of each one. So according to this, so let me

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boy to Sleep is working fine now under the new one.

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I'm gonna have to add something.

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So all the pages, all the all the podcasts are

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now up and running.

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They should be.

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kind of not only if I confuse myself, but I

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think I've confused people with all the changes that I

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I know this is another change, but unfortunately I.

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my main source of listeners. I'm hoping that everyone kind

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of will find them.

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My main website, Jason Newland dot com is now up

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and running properly again as a podcast. So if you

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go on there, it's got a thousand episodes. So the

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latest thousand episodes are available. So there's eighty four pages,

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and there's a thousand one two, three, four, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve.

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twelve times by eighty four wherever that is? So ten

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back to every episode. So what I've done is I've

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made the Jason Newland dot com the podcast for my hypnosis,

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A Sleeping Deeply, which has every recording I do is

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on there, including all the different versions, you know, the

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without music, with music, five ten and all that stuff.

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see how far back it goes some people in the gardens.

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he won't be.

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I think he's I've closed the window, but there's not

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much more I can really do do. Yeah, So this,

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I think the thing is with this, how many episodes?

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on my website. So what I'm going to do is

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think via here it should be able to subscribe Apple podcast,

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Apple podcast, so you can go to the Apple Now

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it's just all over the place.

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so I'll figure that out. I'll get it sorted. But

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at the moment, you can actually just listen to late's

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recordings on there. It's a podcast now like it was before.

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a podcast. So you can just go to Jasonnewland dot

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com and you can listen to six versions of the

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last recording, or six versions of the one before that,

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and before that and before that, all the way back

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to second of April this year. A thousand recordings since

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the second of April, but that does include the six

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different versions, but still quite a lot. So yeah, it

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makes it a little bit easier.

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but it's there. I'll put it on mute, moot, and

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It and it should pull up.

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It also pulls up all the information about it as well,

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and there is a link hypnosis, a sleeping deeply. Okay,

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Well it's not given me a link to the speaker page.

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Well hopefully, Okay.

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The other thing is I've got rid of the let

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what do I need two websites for one's enough? And

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it seemed like a good idea at the time when

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I did it. But if anything, I think just annoyed

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people because I got rid of the Jasonnuland dot com,

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which has been.

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Around for twenty years. And at least you knew how

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to find me. You know, if if all the apps

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go down or all.

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The the podcast you know, sharing platforms go down, you

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can at least listen to me on my website.

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So it's it's handy. Does it allows open on Spotify?

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Is it open on Spotify? Okay? So it's not completely

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syncd up, but it's.

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It's okay. I think it's doing its job.

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way to update it make it a little bit better.

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But that's it, really, And what else? Why is it

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going so slow? Yeah?

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twelve podcasts. There's like one hundred and one shows on

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my Apple podcast archived from over the last i'll BlimE me,

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however many years. So yeah, it's the first time I've

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archived before deleted stuff, but this was because it needs

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to be done. I think basically Apple podcasts got confused.

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I'm using a confused word a lot. I think maybe

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I'm just the only one that got confused. It don't

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take much much for the end.

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So I should also say welcome to Karen who's joined

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Jason Newland's boring group on Facebook, and if you'd like

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to join then please do.

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That'd be brilliant.

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We love to have you, and that I do believes

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all that information. It's you know, it might be a

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little bit annoying. I do apologize, but you know, it

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is what it is. It's all done now.

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I just need to do a little bit of sinking

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it will update on the Apple Podcasts. If it doesn't,

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things have been a bit weird the last couple of days,

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but I won't go into that. It's just you know

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a few strange things around here. So I'm going to

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start off with Ben and just apologize for the noisy

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people outside. In fact, what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna

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draw the curtains. See if i can block some of

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that noise out. There's still a little window opens. I

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closed that, and I've drawn the curtains over. I've got

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these sound deadening curtains. I hope that they're gonna I

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don't say you make any difference. At least I'm giving

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it a I'm giving it a try, and I'm putting

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always walking the dog by making recordings? What's Jason do

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for himself apart from boxing?

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As he like it's weird?

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Talk about it my third person. What's my downtime? My

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downtime right now is wanting that noise to stop outside.

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very very very noisy. Okay, my downtime I do I

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like to I would say boxing my downtime. But so

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if I make a lot of recordings. I'll be you know,

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there'll be days when I'll just make three recordings in.

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A day, which is a lot. Not recently, but I

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have done that quite a few times. And what do

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I do. I like to watch a movie, especially if

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a new release or a new season of a TV

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show that's come out. Sometimes if I get my teeth

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into a TV show, I will watch. I'm not saying

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i'd binge watch, but I will definitely watch a of episodes.

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And if I can get into it and the whole

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seasons done and finished, I'll get through the entire lot

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within you know, maybe a month. So I might end

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up watching two, three, four episodes a day, but I

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won't sit all day watching it. I'm not going to

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do like eight hours straight watching TV. Generally I have

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done in the past, but not not for a long time. Second, Also,

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are you happy? That's a difficult question to ask. I've

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got no idea how to answer that question. Third, have

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you ever collected anything?

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I have I have. Let's go for all the things

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I've collected when I was a kid. When I was

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a kid, I used to collect, so I used to

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get the two different comics every week, The Dandy and Looking,

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and I used to collect them. So although i'd get

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them every week, i'd also collect them, and sometimes i'd

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get them put them all in order, sit in the

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toilet or sit on the toilet. I remember once my

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oldest brother was watching I Think the fa Cup on

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a Saturday afternoon and I went into the downstairs toilet

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and organized all of my comics in order, like by date.

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I quite enjoyed that, and I.

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Did the same thing when I moved to London. I

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time Out magazine every week. Was it a Thursday or

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was it a Tuesday? But I'd buy it every week

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and I had about three years worth collected, big massive

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old pile. That's what one hundred and fifty magazines. So yeah,

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I collected them for a few years. I when I

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was at school, I used to collect books.

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I don't think it was oh yeah, I used to,

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I suppose, because you know, finances were limited with school.

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I didn't like have a huge amount of books, but

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I did have a bookshelf for of paperbacks and also

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had hard back books and stuff as well. And I

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used to collect sign fiction books for a while because

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I want. There's a lot of rude bits in them.

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It's the truth, you know. They have lots of adult

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scenes in these books. And yeah, I enjoyed that. I

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collected the Wilt books as well because I found them hilarious.

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So Wilt is if you've never heard of Wilt, w

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I l t. There's a writer they wrote, wrote quite

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a few books based on this character.

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It's just funny. It's really funny. What other things I

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used to collect.

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A lot of books. I went through a period when

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I collected and read Trek books like I was almost

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obsessed with them. And these were adventures from Star Trek

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like the original TV show, but not a TV show

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that makes sense. There was like extra stories, extra adventures

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which maybe is it came before Star Trek TV show,

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did I don't know, Gene Roddenberry or whatever, But there

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was loads of those. I used to read a lot.

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Of those, especially when I was feeling anti social at

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school and I didn't I go through periods when I

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didn't want to be around anyone.

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I'd be near anyone, so I would hide and read

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a book during lunch break. So that was a thing

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I remember. I remember sitting outside it was behind the

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because we all had these form rooms where we'd have

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to sort of congregate the beginning and at the beginning

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of the day and also after lunch and maybe even

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like at the end of the day. I can't remember,

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but one year I was there and it was I

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think it was the science lab. It's one of the

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science labs I was in, and so it had an

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exit out the back as well as in the front.

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I guess the fire exit was stairs and everything. So

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I used to sit outside the back, like the fire

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exit door and going that way, going in out that way,

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because that wasn't the the exit that most people used,

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So I'd hide and just sit on like near the stairwell.

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So I just remember that reading reading the old Star

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Trek books.

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Other things. I went through a period when I was

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when I got into karate. Well, yeah, martial arts. I

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collected magazines. I can't even remember the name of the magazines,

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but martial arts magazines, martial arts books, kung fu books,

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exercise books, books about Bruce Lee, various martial arts paraphernalia

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like nunchucks and throwing stars and all the standard stuff

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that kids would kind of perhaps get back then. Yeah,

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that's definitely something I used to used to collect. Trying

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to think I used to I went through a period

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when I was really into Yeah, I'm just trying to

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think when I was a kid, what other things I do? Oh,

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I remember when I worked in the bakery when I

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was a kid. The first bakery I worked in, I

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worked all through the summer, so I was doing five

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or six mornings a week. I mean I could have done,

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you know, seven, but I think I probably did five

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or six and every because I only worked t all,

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like lunchtime from six till twelve or something. I'd come

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home and I'd go and buy these top Trump cards

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that cost a pound or something, and I'd buy them

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like I had to buy something. And I ended up

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clickeding these and I got loads of them, but I

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had no one to play them with. So it's top

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Trump cars and top trunk motor bikes and top Trump

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planes and stuff like that. It was kind of pointless, really,

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but that's what I did. That's what I did. What

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would have been useful if I had collected clothes, like

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nice clothes so that I could looked, could have been

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like fashionable, that would have helped me in so many ways.

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That I had no idea, Like if only i'd kind

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of had a clue back then, because I could have

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bought myself, you know, a pair of trousers, nice pair

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of shoes, your fashionable stuff on me, not like for

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school as well, but something that would look good, even.

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Like a white shirt. You know, there's a white shirt

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which for school.

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But then you've got you can get a really.

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Nice white shirt, you know, proper. You know this difference

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in clothes. I don't know why I'm trying to explain that,

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but there was nothing wrong with the clothes I was wearing.

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I just could have put a bit of effort in

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myself because I could. At the time, I had a

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little bit of money coming in from the jobs, so

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that that would have been possibly a better way to

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spend my money. Oh well, it matter then. I when

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I got to my tea, like leaving school, I did,

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I mean, I collected I had like quite a good

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tape collection of music albums and stuff. So I had

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probably a couple of carrier bag falls, maybe three carry

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bag falls of tapes, so there's quite a few. But

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some of those were carried on from when I was

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a kid as well, so I'd had a lot of those.

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But then when I got to probably nineteen eighty nine,

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I started collecting comedy videos, like stand up comedy videos.

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In nineteen eighty nine, during in fact, it might might

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have been nineteen eighty eight, it might have been, but

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I started collecting live stand up comedy shows, live videos

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like Robin William, Steve Martin, There's so many Emo Phillips,

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Steve Wright or Steven Wright, Eddie Murphy, as well as

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like Burning Manning.

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Roy, Chubby Brown, you know, Jasper Carrot. So any comedy,

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live comedy show I could get, I did any stand

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up show I would get. So I had quite a

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nice collection of those.

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It wasn't so much that I was collecting them. I

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just I suppose I was collecting them, but it didn't

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Maybe yeah, I was collecting them without realizing, not really

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thinking about it. I just wanted to watch them. And

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then I was still collecting Yeah, live stand up albums

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in nineteen eighty nine and more videos, but that's when

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it turned into a collection. So nineteen eighty nine I

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was buying albums and audio tapes of stand up comedians

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at this point, mainly from American stand ups that I'd

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never heard of. I've already had stuff from Richard Pryor.

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So this is nineteen ninety So I was getting stuff

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from and I was going to second nd shops as

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well as traveling up to London to get to like

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the big stores, the big music stores like Verge, HMV

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and what's that other one, the other record shop, I

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think what it's called. But there was three main record

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shops in the West End of London which had its

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own stand up comedy section, specifically not just for American

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but a lot of American stuff.

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So I kind of.

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Discovered Lenny Bruce, George Carlin, Andrew dyas Clay, Sam Kinnerson.

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Then it was Roddy Dangerfield that I already knew about anyway,

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because he was already famous in this country for a

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long time. Bill Cosby, Richard Pryor.

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I think I.

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Already had Richard Pryce's videos and Bill Cosby. I had

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Bill's Cosby's the one way he turns fifty and so

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he's just sitting on a stool, and I didn't realize

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that he had loads of albums and stuff.

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So this is Bill Cosby.

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Yeah, so I had quite a few albums of his.

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I had all of Richard Pryor's albums, all of Richard

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Pryor's live performances, including one that's quite quite rare. I

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don't know that anymore, but it's probably on YouTube anyway.

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And what else. Yeah, I had really good collection, really

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nice collection, and I spent quite a few months just

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pretty much all my money went on that when I

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was working, and just all my money went on getting

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new albums because I wanted to. I decided to sort

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of try and be a comedian, stand up comedian, and

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this was kind of this is part of that.

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Compulse of thing, and this is this is part of

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the whole excitement of wanting to do it. And I

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suppose thinking if I listened to other people, like the

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best comedians in the world, well some of the best

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in the world, it would rub off on me.

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But it didn't. It really didn't.

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But hey, it was worth a try, wasn't it. After that,

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when I moved so I sold all of that stuff.

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But then I moved to London and I got I

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started collecting comedy tapes.

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Like Richard Pryor, George Carlin. George Carlin was kind of

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my favorite really for a while. It just made me

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laugh so much, but I didn't collect collect I just

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had some. But then when I moved to London, I

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really started collecting books again. I also at this time

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was collecting journals that I was writing, So I was

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writing journals every day and over like a twenty five

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year period, I had about forty five fifty journals, like

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pads full of me, my writings and my.

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Life and my thoughts and stuff. That's all destroyed a

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few years back, and I think I got really more

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into buying books, collecting books, but reading them. Yeah, so anything,

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not just comedy books. But I really got into the

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Beach Generation. I also used to read Time Out and

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find out what the latest popular book was, and I'd

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ended up reading that as well, So I you know,

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I had quite a large book collection. They all just

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stacked up on top of each other against the wall.

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Had a lot of books.

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And probably about twenty bin Bag Falls and the Beach Generation.

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That's when I kind of really got quite transfixed with poetry.

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With Anne Ginsburg. I can't remember half of them, but

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a lot of Jack Carouac, all those kinds of that generation.

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I was reading their books.

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I can't, I can't, honestly, said I understood a lot

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of it either, And I also used to read the poetry,

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some of them.

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Snyder was another one. Some of the poetry I liked.

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Some of it was.

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A lot of it was context based, as most of

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it seemed to be coming out of America in the

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fifties and sixties, and I wasn't around then. I wasn't American.

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I wasn't living in America in the fifties and sixties.

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And I'm pretty certain even if I was in this country,

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it was a different environment. You know, we were, It's

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just it would have been different. So I'm never really

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gonna understand the vibe, not really, but I enjoyed reading them.

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And then I discovered, kind of by accident, Charles Berkowski,

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who was his books would be put into the same

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category as beat generation, and he wasn't a beatnik. He

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wasn't each He's kind of like a crossover. He probably

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knew some of them, and he lived like some of them,

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but he wasn't he. For anyone that's read Charles Werkowski,

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it's very real, almost too real, I suppose, some would say.

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And that's why I liked about it. I like, yeah,

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I quite quite like gritty real stuff, not as in

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horrible stuff, but just I don't know someone's personal opinion.

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And because he talks from a third person, so he

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talks about himself, but he's not himself.

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It's Hank Chenesky.

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Is the character in his books, but it's basically him.

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And he also wrote because he wrote a really famous

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book called post Office Women, and oh, I forget the

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other one, but there was a trilogy, and he also

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wrote ham On Rye and some other ones, bar Fly

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and things like that. I quite liked the poetry that

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he did. And yeah, so I had a large collection

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of his books because it was quite prolific. So I

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had a lot of his books and don't have them anymore.

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So that was me collecting early nineties comedy tapes and

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then books I would say really focused on the Beat generation,

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but I also had at that time, I started collecting

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Buddhist books and Zen Dooism and I started reading that stuff.

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So I got into that because that fitted in with

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the Beat generation and the the and I just all

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kind of fitted together with me, and it's something I

447
00:37:34.559 --> 00:37:39.159
was interested in anyway. I quite like it if I

448
00:37:39.159 --> 00:37:41.599
can find something that has an overlap to something else.

449
00:37:43.719 --> 00:37:47.320
And then.

450
00:37:47.119 --> 00:37:51.199
When I left there, I did take my stuff with

451
00:37:51.400 --> 00:37:58.360
me and I ended up in moved once twice. And

452
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:01.880
then I collected more books on Buddhism, so that was

453
00:38:01.920 --> 00:38:07.440
the main thing I've focused on around ninety five, Like

454
00:38:07.599 --> 00:38:11.880
ninety four to ninety five, it was mainly just Buddhist

455
00:38:11.880 --> 00:38:19.760
books that I collected sid I mean, I wasn't buying

456
00:38:19.800 --> 00:38:21.840
loads of loads of books, but I had a really

457
00:38:21.840 --> 00:38:25.159
good collection and I would read them as well.

458
00:38:28.559 --> 00:38:33.239
And then in the end of ninety five I was

459
00:38:33.239 --> 00:38:39.880
evicted and I basically just chucked everything out because I

460
00:38:39.880 --> 00:38:52.440
couldn't take it with me. Then I I'm not sure

461
00:38:52.559 --> 00:38:54.960
chucked it. I think I left it outside and dustman

462
00:38:55.079 --> 00:38:58.159
took it. They weren't supposed to do. It just happened

463
00:38:58.159 --> 00:39:00.000
to be in black bags, as was how I traveled,

464
00:39:00.679 --> 00:39:02.639
because I didn't know where I was going to take them,

465
00:39:03.159 --> 00:39:05.719
and I was I think, I'm going to try and

466
00:39:05.719 --> 00:39:07.880
take into my girlfriends and ask if she'd look after

467
00:39:07.960 --> 00:39:12.920
them for me. Anyway, the dustman came and got them

468
00:39:13.000 --> 00:39:17.239
and pretty much took most of my belongings, thinking it

469
00:39:17.280 --> 00:39:20.800
was just all rubbish. So technically I didn't really chuck

470
00:39:20.840 --> 00:39:32.639
it out. What else I in ninety six, nineteen ninety six,

471
00:39:34.360 --> 00:39:37.039
I was kind of starting from scratch again, so I

472
00:39:37.079 --> 00:39:44.559
had the only thing I really had was as far

473
00:39:44.639 --> 00:39:49.960
as belongings go, one book or two books and that

474
00:39:50.079 --> 00:39:54.280
was it, and a few clothes. So I started from

475
00:39:54.360 --> 00:39:59.159
scratch in January ninety six. And by the.

476
00:39:59.119 --> 00:40:02.239
Like's Vinny scraping his teeth on a.

477
00:40:03.960 --> 00:40:06.840
Something. Not quite sure, but it seems happy anyway. It's

478
00:40:06.880 --> 00:40:23.159
not eating his dinner today for some reason, and I, well,

479
00:40:23.239 --> 00:40:25.000
I do I'm trying to think what I was going

480
00:40:25.039 --> 00:40:28.000
to say. Then he just stopped, Okay.

481
00:40:28.199 --> 00:40:33.639
I I carried on with my writing because I managed

482
00:40:33.639 --> 00:40:37.960
to save the journals, so that was fine. So I

483
00:40:38.039 --> 00:40:41.239
still had all my journals.

484
00:40:44.000 --> 00:40:49.400
And then I didn't buy a lot of books or

485
00:40:49.400 --> 00:40:52.760
anything back then, I think because i'd lost all my

486
00:40:52.800 --> 00:40:57.119
book collection kind of a few times over already at

487
00:40:57.119 --> 00:40:59.599
this point, I just didn't know if there's any point.

488
00:41:01.840 --> 00:41:11.000
So between ninety six and then ninety seven, I didn't

489
00:41:11.320 --> 00:41:14.280
really purchase much.

490
00:41:15.119 --> 00:41:21.599
I didn't collect anything really at all during that period.

491
00:41:22.519 --> 00:41:28.639
And I was a security guard for over a year,

492
00:41:31.639 --> 00:41:34.039
and I had a girlfriend as well, so that kind

493
00:41:34.079 --> 00:41:39.159
of took up time outside of security work, and that

494
00:41:39.239 --> 00:41:43.599
was a long hours, so I didn't Apart from reading

495
00:41:43.679 --> 00:41:46.400
books and stuff, I just didn't really have a lot

496
00:41:46.480 --> 00:41:53.639
going on watching TV when I got home. And then

497
00:41:53.960 --> 00:42:01.800
late nineteen ninety seven, I started acting books again, but

498
00:42:01.920 --> 00:42:06.920
this time is all about self help, motivation and self help,

499
00:42:08.719 --> 00:42:19.880
and I blimey, he's so noisy.

500
00:42:21.000 --> 00:42:25.639
I do still prefer him over this squealing and screaming

501
00:42:25.679 --> 00:42:30.519
outside in the garden. I don't know, it's just I

502
00:42:30.559 --> 00:42:33.679
kind of just want to hear what's inside. I know

503
00:42:33.760 --> 00:42:37.800
it's not realistic, but just just a little bit quiet,

504
00:42:38.199 --> 00:42:41.119
a little bit of a little bit calm, you know,

505
00:42:43.519 --> 00:42:46.559
what else should I I suppose? Like ninety seven, it

506
00:42:46.639 --> 00:42:52.960
was really much. I was collecting audio recordings self help,

507
00:42:53.039 --> 00:43:05.639
audio recordings, motivation, zig ziglar, meditation recordings for relaxing, and

508
00:43:05.679 --> 00:43:10.320
I was really trying to figure a way for me to,

509
00:43:13.840 --> 00:43:19.880
I don't know, grow as a person and become better

510
00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:25.079
and become calmer and to heal. I don't know, I'm

511
00:43:25.079 --> 00:43:27.000
not quite sure what it was I was looking for,

512
00:43:27.039 --> 00:43:33.360
but I collected lots of books. I read lots of books,

513
00:43:34.440 --> 00:43:41.840
and then early nineteen ninety eight, it's January, I bought

514
00:43:41.840 --> 00:43:46.039
my first two books on hypnosis.

515
00:43:47.360 --> 00:43:50.119
I didn't read them straight away. I kind of looked

516
00:43:50.159 --> 00:43:53.159
at them and thought I'll read them one day, and

517
00:43:53.199 --> 00:43:55.800
then I did, and I thought.

518
00:43:55.559 --> 00:44:04.519
Oh, I did an NLP course at college, did like

519
00:44:05.119 --> 00:44:09.159
a part time evening course at City University in London.

520
00:44:12.000 --> 00:44:17.920
And that's when my interest was peaked more so in

521
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:22.760
that side of things because it involved hypnosis. It also

522
00:44:23.760 --> 00:44:27.719
for me kind of involved therapy and you know, all

523
00:44:27.719 --> 00:44:29.440
the things that I was kind of interested in.

524
00:44:32.199 --> 00:44:37.440
So I started buying loads of NLP books, all the

525
00:44:37.440 --> 00:44:45.119
ones I could get, and hypnosis books blying me if anny,

526
00:44:45.599 --> 00:44:52.360
So yeah, I started collecting all that stuff. And then

527
00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:57.960
really for the next few years I built my hypnosis

528
00:44:57.960 --> 00:45:09.360
collection up. But then in two thousand, I'm not saying

529
00:45:09.400 --> 00:45:16.880
I lost interest in hypnosis, but I did. It's true,

530
00:45:16.920 --> 00:45:24.119
I kind of, for some reason, I became obsessed with

531
00:45:24.239 --> 00:45:29.719
building websites. And I spent the next year and a

532
00:45:29.800 --> 00:45:39.039
half obsessively pretty much all day every day working on websites,

533
00:45:40.599 --> 00:45:44.159
learning how to build them, how to learning the code

534
00:45:44.239 --> 00:45:48.119
and HTML and all that stuff. And that was what

535
00:45:48.199 --> 00:45:51.519
I did, and I loved it, loved every second of it.

536
00:45:53.880 --> 00:45:54.840
And that's what I did.

537
00:45:54.920 --> 00:46:02.679
For yeah, for the pretty much much until summertime two

538
00:46:02.760 --> 00:46:12.880
thousand and one, like maybe May time. But then I

539
00:46:12.920 --> 00:46:21.519
was made I was evicted, so I moved out and

540
00:46:21.559 --> 00:46:27.119
I didn't. Everything was kind of up in the air.

541
00:46:27.199 --> 00:46:31.639
So I still had my belongings, still had my books,

542
00:46:33.880 --> 00:46:34.800
but I didn't.

543
00:46:36.519 --> 00:46:38.320
I was kind of a bit aimless, to be honest,

544
00:46:38.360 --> 00:46:40.800
I had this. I was forced into a sales job

545
00:46:41.800 --> 00:46:43.480
by the job center.

546
00:46:44.519 --> 00:46:44.920
And.

547
00:46:47.519 --> 00:46:50.239
It was although I was quite good, it was difficult,

548
00:46:50.480 --> 00:46:54.280
very difficult to do that, and.

549
00:46:55.480 --> 00:47:01.440
I stopped reading, I stopped doing it any website building,

550
00:47:02.559 --> 00:47:06.960
I stopped being interested in anything during that period. And

551
00:47:07.000 --> 00:47:12.119
then September I moved to where my name was because

552
00:47:12.119 --> 00:47:14.800
she was ill, so I wanted to be closer to

553
00:47:14.840 --> 00:47:18.280
my men, and I had a new.

554
00:47:18.239 --> 00:47:24.000
Job again in insurance. But it's selling, which is not

555
00:47:24.079 --> 00:47:26.360
really It was kind of the wrong for me, figuring

556
00:47:26.400 --> 00:47:29.679
for me to get involved in really, but at the

557
00:47:29.719 --> 00:47:32.079
time I didn't know what was going to happen. I didn't,

558
00:47:32.320 --> 00:47:33.079
you know, I.

559
00:47:33.199 --> 00:47:37.840
Wasn't really prepared for the outcome of putting myself in

560
00:47:38.320 --> 00:47:40.400
that kind of stressful environment.

561
00:47:42.039 --> 00:47:51.400
Long term. And during that period it wasn't so bad

562
00:47:51.400 --> 00:47:54.320
because I really got I no longer got involved but

563
00:47:54.360 --> 00:48:00.559
I completely stopped doing any kind of website stuff during

564
00:48:00.639 --> 00:48:04.480
two thousand and like the end of two thousand and one,

565
00:48:04.800 --> 00:48:13.000
two thousand and two, and I would say even most

566
00:48:13.039 --> 00:48:17.000
of two thousand and three. Then two thousand and four

567
00:48:17.079 --> 00:48:19.840
I picked it up. I picked it up again, maybe

568
00:48:19.920 --> 00:48:22.880
two thousand and three I picked it up again. But

569
00:48:22.920 --> 00:48:25.679
I didn't do anything for a couple of years website wise.

570
00:48:29.920 --> 00:48:35.960
But I did collect hypnosis books like a lot. I

571
00:48:36.000 --> 00:48:36.480
had a.

572
00:48:36.719 --> 00:48:43.480
Huge library of hypnosis books, plus psychology books, counseling books.

573
00:48:44.039 --> 00:48:50.440
And this was a long time, like six years, five

574
00:48:50.559 --> 00:48:54.039
six years before I even started thinking about becoming a counselor.

575
00:48:55.000 --> 00:49:01.360
I was just interested in therapy, interested in how to.

576
00:49:03.960 --> 00:49:07.599
Helping others, but I guess also figuring a way to

577
00:49:07.679 --> 00:49:13.840
help myself maybe, So that's kind of where I was there.

578
00:49:14.039 --> 00:49:20.599
And I'd a big, big book collection, and that book

579
00:49:20.639 --> 00:49:28.199
collection continued right the way until two thousand and seven November,

580
00:49:31.119 --> 00:49:33.840
and I had all these bookcases in this place I lived.

581
00:49:36.239 --> 00:49:39.000
Even I found it quite impressive the amount of books

582
00:49:39.039 --> 00:49:45.119
I had, because it was very looked, very professional, the

583
00:49:45.159 --> 00:49:46.800
setup I had, and I.

584
00:49:46.760 --> 00:49:50.119
Was doing videos with these bookcases and all these books

585
00:49:50.119 --> 00:49:55.760
behind me on psychology and hypnosis and psychotherapy and all

586
00:49:55.760 --> 00:49:59.360
this stuff behind me is like, yeah, I wonder how

587
00:49:59.360 --> 00:50:04.719
many people full as if I know something of Oh,

588
00:50:04.800 --> 00:50:12.400
and then I moved. I also I had videos, I

589
00:50:12.480 --> 00:50:17.480
had audios, I had CDs DVDs of hypnosis stuff courses

590
00:50:18.079 --> 00:50:22.880
as well as having done courses like live in person

591
00:50:22.920 --> 00:50:29.159
as well. So I moved into a tiny room when

592
00:50:29.159 --> 00:50:36.639
I was at college, and I had to get rid

593
00:50:36.679 --> 00:50:39.400
of some of the books because it was too many too.

594
00:50:39.480 --> 00:50:40.719
It was literally I had all.

595
00:50:40.599 --> 00:50:45.639
These these big containers full of books that was taken

596
00:50:45.719 --> 00:50:49.159
up half the room. I wasn't going to get rid

597
00:50:49.159 --> 00:50:54.000
of the hypnosis books. I couldn't be getting rid of

598
00:50:54.039 --> 00:50:58.159
the therapy books because I was studying counsel in the therapy.

599
00:50:59.239 --> 00:51:03.920
So why ended up doing is getting rid of all

600
00:51:04.000 --> 00:51:06.960
of the I also used to collect.

601
00:51:08.199 --> 00:51:11.679
I had quite quite a large collection of.

602
00:51:12.880 --> 00:51:17.400
Buddhist books as well, probably about fifty or sixty Buddhist books,

603
00:51:17.840 --> 00:51:22.719
maybe one hundred, there's quite a lot. Anyway, I donated

604
00:51:22.760 --> 00:51:28.079
them to the Buddhist Center, and then I gave away

605
00:51:28.559 --> 00:51:34.159
all of my philosophy books, which again I had a

606
00:51:34.199 --> 00:51:38.320
big collection of like philosophy and not just philosophy but

607
00:51:38.440 --> 00:51:40.199
things that.

608
00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:41.119
Kind of minded, you know.

609
00:51:42.360 --> 00:51:45.880
So I got rid of all of those, gave them

610
00:51:45.920 --> 00:51:53.280
to a second hand shop, and then that kind of

611
00:51:54.320 --> 00:51:57.360
I kind of halfed not I don't say half my

612
00:51:57.440 --> 00:52:01.199
book collection, but there was also all the other stuff

613
00:52:01.320 --> 00:52:08.599
like about creativity and really anything that wasn't to do

614
00:52:08.679 --> 00:52:15.360
with hypnosis or therapy I got rid of, which cut

615
00:52:15.400 --> 00:52:22.400
down my book collection by probably behalf, maybe a quarter,

616
00:52:23.840 --> 00:52:25.519
maybe I knocked a quarter.

617
00:52:25.320 --> 00:52:25.800
Off of it.

618
00:52:29.559 --> 00:52:38.280
And then I moved again. Then I moved again, and

619
00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:40.599
that was the place before I moved in here, and

620
00:52:40.639 --> 00:52:44.199
that was even smaller, well probably not smaller, but it

621
00:52:44.239 --> 00:52:49.199
was damp. My books were starting to rot. I don't know,

622
00:52:49.280 --> 00:52:55.000
it's not good. And I had a bit of a thing,

623
00:52:55.199 --> 00:52:57.760
a bit of an episode, and I actually destroyed it,

624
00:52:57.800 --> 00:53:01.800
all of my books apart from one, which was The

625
00:53:03.960 --> 00:53:08.360
Teachings of the Buddha, which I've had for probably since

626
00:53:08.400 --> 00:53:13.199
about nineteen ninety two, so I've had that book for

627
00:53:13.280 --> 00:53:20.400
quite a while. That's the only surviving book. So yeah,

628
00:53:20.480 --> 00:53:23.360
that was kind of That was probably the biggest collection

629
00:53:23.440 --> 00:53:27.519
I had was probably hypnosis books, but I also had

630
00:53:27.519 --> 00:53:36.840
a pretty healthy Buddhist collection as well. There wasn't even enough.

631
00:53:36.719 --> 00:53:38.760
Room on the shelves in a Buddhist center to put

632
00:53:38.760 --> 00:53:43.800
them on because there was so many. So other than that,

633
00:53:44.519 --> 00:53:46.719
trying to think of any other things that I've collected

634
00:53:48.599 --> 00:53:58.440
recently over the last few years, the last ten years,

635
00:54:00.039 --> 00:54:02.760
I can't think of anything. So that's kind of really it.

636
00:54:03.480 --> 00:54:08.960
Books seems to be the main thing. Number Four, How

637
00:54:09.039 --> 00:54:12.519
is your dad? So my dad he's doing all right.

638
00:54:12.559 --> 00:54:17.079
I saw him last weekend. He came up to see

639
00:54:17.159 --> 00:54:18.960
me and with my little brother.

640
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:25.880
So he had lunch around the corner and he's, you know,

641
00:54:26.119 --> 00:54:29.119
he's he had some treatment and stuff for a condition.

642
00:54:31.639 --> 00:54:37.199
He's getting his energy back, and.

643
00:54:35.599 --> 00:54:37.760
He seems to be doing well. It seems to be

644
00:54:37.840 --> 00:54:41.159
positive and seems to be doing good. And I think

645
00:54:41.199 --> 00:54:44.800
he enjoyed sort of spending time with two of his

646
00:54:44.880 --> 00:54:51.280
sons together at the same time out which is only

647
00:54:51.480 --> 00:54:55.440
kind of that hasn't happened, doesn't happen too often, although

648
00:54:55.440 --> 00:54:59.320
it did happen just before Christmas, But that was the

649
00:54:59.360 --> 00:55:05.760
first time dead outside of the town that he lives

650
00:55:06.119 --> 00:55:10.519
as the first that's the city's the second time pretty

651
00:55:10.599 --> 00:55:14.800
much in decades that we've all kind of got together.

652
00:55:17.199 --> 00:55:20.400
So that was nice. But yeah, it seems to be

653
00:55:20.440 --> 00:55:22.719
doing good.

654
00:55:24.199 --> 00:55:29.639
Maria asks, with your previous interest in martial arts, have

655
00:55:29.719 --> 00:55:33.639
you ever practiced tai chi or chigung? Also, what are

656
00:55:33.679 --> 00:55:40.760
your thoughts on meditation? Yes, and yes, I did a

657
00:55:40.760 --> 00:55:47.599
bit of tai chi and chigung. I think that chigung.

658
00:55:47.679 --> 00:55:50.599
I think they were both probably connected to the Buddhist center.

659
00:55:51.360 --> 00:55:56.360
So what we'd have is there'd be a like a

660
00:55:56.440 --> 00:56:00.320
practitioner would come along and do a course, maybe a

661
00:56:00.360 --> 00:56:04.360
six week course on ti chie or a regular Tuesday

662
00:56:04.440 --> 00:56:08.119
night on ti chi or chickgung and stuff. So I

663
00:56:08.159 --> 00:56:11.239
did a little bit of tai chie, but the one

664
00:56:11.280 --> 00:56:18.039
I really liked was chiegung because but I did it minimally.

665
00:56:18.960 --> 00:56:21.480
I don't mean I changed the way I did it,

666
00:56:21.599 --> 00:56:23.679
but I mean I didn't do much of it.

667
00:56:25.519 --> 00:56:32.360
But I did appreciate the slow movements, the micro movements,

668
00:56:32.440 --> 00:56:35.239
the real like the idea of like holding a ball

669
00:56:35.920 --> 00:56:41.960
and passing that energy ball to another person and just

670
00:56:42.840 --> 00:56:45.840
that slow movement. I mean, I'm doing it now. You

671
00:56:45.880 --> 00:56:53.000
can't see me do it, but it feels nice. And

672
00:56:53.039 --> 00:57:00.480
because I'm quite a slow person anyway, moving slowly is

673
00:57:00.679 --> 00:57:06.159
my default really, and which brings me to your meditation

674
00:57:06.559 --> 00:57:12.159
is I think meditation is great. I kind of meditate

675
00:57:12.199 --> 00:57:18.679
every day using walking meditation. So I want to take

676
00:57:18.800 --> 00:57:24.679
Vinnie out. I walk very slowly, and what I do

677
00:57:24.880 --> 00:57:28.360
is I focus on my feet on the ground, how

678
00:57:28.400 --> 00:57:30.800
my feet feel, how.

679
00:57:30.639 --> 00:57:36.639
My body feels as I walk. And it's also part

680
00:57:36.679 --> 00:57:39.280
of like paying control because I've got arthrights in my

681
00:57:39.320 --> 00:57:43.039
lower back and it plays up, you know, whenever I move.

682
00:57:43.159 --> 00:57:46.880
Basically it's hurting now, but I say hurting, but it's

683
00:57:47.559 --> 00:57:50.320
I can feel it now and when I walk and

684
00:57:50.320 --> 00:57:53.199
when I sit down for too long, so when I walk,

685
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:59.679
I can feel it. So sometimes by focusing on all

686
00:57:59.719 --> 00:58:06.599
of my body movement, it eases that. It kind of

687
00:58:06.639 --> 00:58:10.519
reminds me that I've got a whole body that has feeling,

688
00:58:11.559 --> 00:58:19.360
not just that one part. And included in that meditation

689
00:58:20.360 --> 00:58:23.039
as well as being aware of Vinnie, because I have

690
00:58:23.079 --> 00:58:25.039
to be aware of what he's up to, and I

691
00:58:25.119 --> 00:58:28.840
need to also be aware of my surroundings. But I'd

692
00:58:28.920 --> 00:58:32.079
say that's part of the meditation, and that's my natural

693
00:58:32.159 --> 00:58:36.000
state is to be perhaps too aware of my surroundings

694
00:58:36.119 --> 00:58:40.679
to be honest. But the way you know, the weather,

695
00:58:40.840 --> 00:58:46.480
the wind, the air, the feeling the wind on my face,

696
00:58:47.880 --> 00:58:52.440
the feeling of breathing and my lungs, the temperature on

697
00:58:52.480 --> 00:58:58.000
my hands, on my face, this the sun may be shining,

698
00:58:58.119 --> 00:59:01.480
and the just little things that the sounds of the

699
00:59:01.519 --> 00:59:06.239
birds or the wind or the traffic, just little things

700
00:59:06.320 --> 00:59:12.920
or dogs in the background, all that stuff. In fact,

701
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:15.639
even like next door, like you know, with all of

702
00:59:15.800 --> 00:59:18.400
the kids and the dogs barking over there.

703
00:59:19.119 --> 00:59:23.320
That's fine. When I'm meditating, I don't need quiet. I

704
00:59:23.440 --> 00:59:27.440
just incorporate it into the meditation and just be one

705
00:59:27.480 --> 00:59:32.400
with it. I should try and do that when I

706
00:59:32.400 --> 00:59:36.239
do a recording. Really, shouldn't I be one? Be one,

707
00:59:36.360 --> 00:59:45.719
my son. I don't do so much traditional meditation anymore,

708
00:59:47.440 --> 00:59:49.880
although I'm kind of I did meditate the other day.

709
00:59:50.519 --> 00:59:54.800
I could perhaps do with it, but I do. I

710
00:59:54.960 --> 00:59:57.440
like to walk in meditation because I do it every time,

711
00:59:58.400 --> 00:59:59.800
unless I'm talking to someone.

712
01:00:00.239 --> 01:00:04.199
Then I'm not. If I'm on my own with him

713
01:00:04.559 --> 01:00:09.280
and we just walk in slowly. I mean, it's probably

714
01:00:09.320 --> 01:00:17.159
not the most deep meditation practice, but there is a

715
01:00:17.239 --> 01:00:28.280
meditation practice there. There is an intention to slow things down,

716
01:00:28.920 --> 01:00:31.480
to allow things to slow down, so I'm not trying

717
01:00:31.480 --> 01:00:38.679
to force my breathing to become deeper and slower, but

718
01:00:38.880 --> 01:00:42.880
allow my body, my mind, you know, allowed for that

719
01:00:43.000 --> 01:00:47.239
to happen. And I don't try and cause my mind

720
01:00:47.320 --> 01:00:52.079
to slow down and for the thoughts to maybe vanish

721
01:00:52.239 --> 01:01:02.559
or just disappey or slow. But I'm open to that happening. See, Yeah,

722
01:01:02.679 --> 01:01:05.719
it's quite nice. I do that.

723
01:01:07.920 --> 01:01:15.559
Every day if I can. You know, sometimes I can't,

724
01:01:15.760 --> 01:01:17.760
but I'll be honest, sometimes I'm not in the right

725
01:01:17.800 --> 01:01:18.480
frame of mind.

726
01:01:18.559 --> 01:01:21.039
But if I can, I will.

727
01:01:22.880 --> 01:01:26.920
It's better when there's no one else around, because I

728
01:01:26.960 --> 01:01:30.360
do especially if I if I can walk really slow,

729
01:01:30.599 --> 01:01:34.559
like super slow, if there's no one around, it doesn't

730
01:01:34.599 --> 01:01:40.639
look quite so weird. But when there's people around, I

731
01:01:40.719 --> 01:01:45.559
walk at a very very slow pace anyway. But there's

732
01:01:45.559 --> 01:01:51.519
an even slower pace with meditation, with meditative walking, and

733
01:01:51.559 --> 01:01:57.599
it can be and it can be literally almost micro movements.

734
01:01:59.159 --> 01:02:07.360
I don't really do that when I'm out, but I

735
01:02:07.440 --> 01:02:14.599
do focus on my feet when I'm walking, I focus

736
01:02:14.639 --> 01:02:19.960
on my balance, I focus on my back, not just

737
01:02:20.000 --> 01:02:23.320
my lower back, but also my upper back, my shoulders,

738
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:34.480
my posture, my neck, just noticing how I feel. And

739
01:02:37.559 --> 01:02:41.519
that's my connection with chigung and meditation could like the

740
01:02:41.639 --> 01:02:47.079
moving walking, meditation you could say is chickung. You could

741
01:02:47.159 --> 01:02:53.119
say it is tai chi. Oh No, I'm not an

742
01:02:53.159 --> 01:02:54.760
expert on any of this stuff.

743
01:02:55.199 --> 01:02:57.599
I do know more about meditation than I know about

744
01:02:57.639 --> 01:03:02.840
tai chi or chickung. I think it's all really really

745
01:03:02.880 --> 01:03:08.960
good stuff. And in some ways, I think tai chi

746
01:03:09.400 --> 01:03:16.960
and chigung because it's movement, it's got an extra dimension

747
01:03:17.079 --> 01:03:17.840
added to it.

748
01:03:21.599 --> 01:03:23.639
I'm never going to be able to. I say, I'm

749
01:03:23.679 --> 01:03:25.760
never going to because I tried for years to do

750
01:03:25.800 --> 01:03:30.800
this and it didn't work. So sitting on a cushion

751
01:03:31.679 --> 01:03:34.599
isn't something I can do on the floor on a cushion. No,

752
01:03:36.239 --> 01:03:39.199
I tried it from I think I did it all

753
01:03:39.239 --> 01:03:48.679
the way from November two thousand and two to two

754
01:03:48.719 --> 01:03:53.320
thousand and four, maybe even two thousand and five.

755
01:03:54.000 --> 01:03:58.880
Seriously, I tried for years to sit on a cushion.

756
01:03:59.239 --> 01:04:02.360
I did sit on a for years and then have

757
01:04:02.440 --> 01:04:05.039
to get up and sit on a chair. And I

758
01:04:05.079 --> 01:04:10.280
was just in pain that whole time. And eventually, I

759
01:04:10.320 --> 01:04:12.719
mean that they tried every which way. At one point,

760
01:04:12.800 --> 01:04:16.800
at about seventeen cushions, I had scaffold in holding me up.

761
01:04:17.119 --> 01:04:22.840
But it's still didn't work. I had a lastic band

762
01:04:23.440 --> 01:04:25.440
tied to my ed so I didn't.

763
01:04:26.920 --> 01:04:27.480
Fall off.

764
01:04:27.559 --> 01:04:39.400
I don't know, but yeah, I like the idea of movement.

765
01:04:40.119 --> 01:04:44.480
A little bit of movement is nice. Doesn't have to

766
01:04:44.480 --> 01:04:46.679
be the whole body. I mean, tie cheek can be

767
01:04:46.800 --> 01:04:56.519
used by anyone who can has access to movement of

768
01:04:56.559 --> 01:04:59.320
some of their limbs. So if someone was in.

769
01:04:59.239 --> 01:05:01.360
A wheelchair, still be able to do it with their

770
01:05:01.400 --> 01:05:05.840
hands or you know, there's going to be limitations, I

771
01:05:05.840 --> 01:05:08.239
suppose if someone's unable to move their body.

772
01:05:09.679 --> 01:05:16.000
But I'm guessing meditation would be fine in that situation.

773
01:05:16.360 --> 01:05:22.199
But I imagine, you know, imagining doing the movements would

774
01:05:22.239 --> 01:05:28.800
be calming, imagining doing tai chi in your mind, or

775
01:05:28.840 --> 01:05:36.760
doing chigung chikung chigung. But yeah, I don't know enough about.

776
01:05:36.440 --> 01:05:36.880
It, but.

777
01:05:38.440 --> 01:05:43.400
Out of the two, because tai chi, I did tai

778
01:05:43.559 --> 01:05:47.920
chi with when I did Wing Chun kung fu in

779
01:05:48.000 --> 01:05:52.320
two thousand and four. He taught wing chun. He taught

780
01:05:52.400 --> 01:05:56.960
gee kundu, and he also taught tai chi, and he

781
01:05:57.039 --> 01:05:59.599
basically taught that tai chi was just a slow down

782
01:05:59.679 --> 01:06:06.719
version of a fighting style. You know, kicks, punches, blocks

783
01:06:06.800 --> 01:06:13.480
and all that stuff. So it's really just a very slow.

784
01:06:14.639 --> 01:06:25.599
Version of a form, which would be or a.

785
01:06:22.360 --> 01:06:26.360
A kater sometimes it is called it's just a mixture

786
01:06:26.400 --> 01:06:34.400
of movements where it's blocking and punching, then kicking, then sweeping.

787
01:06:34.039 --> 01:06:37.880
And you know, all kinds of like movements. And as

788
01:06:37.880 --> 01:06:42.639
the grades go up in like karate or whatever discipline,

789
01:06:43.119 --> 01:06:49.400
the katers or the forms become more and more complicated.

790
01:06:49.679 --> 01:06:53.400
So it's almost like an fighting an invisible opponent or

791
01:06:53.920 --> 01:07:00.719
multiple invisible opponents. The tie cheer he seems to be

792
01:07:00.760 --> 01:07:08.760
doing that, but invisible opponents that are really slow. So yeah,

793
01:07:08.880 --> 01:07:19.639
I'd recommend both for all, including meditation, because it's so useful,

794
01:07:19.920 --> 01:07:20.880
healthy healing.

795
01:07:21.480 --> 01:07:26.480
It's great stuff. I'm making myself want to go back

796
01:07:26.480 --> 01:07:27.920
to meditation, BlimE me.

797
01:07:29.480 --> 01:07:30.280
So thank you for that.

798
01:07:30.440 --> 01:07:35.920
So, Ben and Maria, I have answered both your questions. Yeah,

799
01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:44.480
Hope asks me the houses in Britain are older than

800
01:07:44.519 --> 01:07:50.840
in Canada. Do you think they're more haunted? Do you

801
01:07:50.960 --> 01:07:55.679
think your grouping of flats is haunted? And have you

802
01:07:55.719 --> 01:07:58.400
ever lived in a place you thought was haunted?

803
01:08:00.840 --> 01:08:07.480
And M I don't know, really, I don't know how

804
01:08:07.559 --> 01:08:13.280
to answer that. I don't I don't think so. I mean.

805
01:08:16.840 --> 01:08:19.079
The big house I used to live in where I'm

806
01:08:19.119 --> 01:08:23.319
between the ages of nine and fifteen with my family.

807
01:08:27.079 --> 01:08:30.600
Didn't have a good atmosphere in there. And I'm talking

808
01:08:30.600 --> 01:08:32.319
when there was no one else in the house, just me.

809
01:08:33.319 --> 01:08:37.359
I didn't feel I didn't like it. I was at

810
01:08:37.399 --> 01:08:39.800
the top of the stairs in the you know, in

811
01:08:39.840 --> 01:08:41.760
the well. I was in a room at the top

812
01:08:41.760 --> 01:08:45.399
of the stairs, and that was there was two sets

813
01:08:45.399 --> 01:08:50.920
of stairs, and I.

814
01:08:50.840 --> 01:08:51.560
Didn't like it.

815
01:08:51.600 --> 01:09:04.079
I didn't didn't get a good feeling about the place. Yeah,

816
01:09:04.199 --> 01:09:08.319
as for see anything, I don't don't, you know, don't

817
01:09:09.119 --> 01:09:09.840
anything like that.

818
01:09:09.880 --> 01:09:16.439
It's not really ever happened. So I mean, I know that,

819
01:09:16.560 --> 01:09:21.000
you know, everything's energy and most there's more stuff we

820
01:09:21.079 --> 01:09:25.039
can't see than what we can see all of the

821
01:09:25.479 --> 01:09:29.279
you know, I'm looking around the room and that big gap,

822
01:09:29.680 --> 01:09:32.720
I say, big gap. I'm not living in a mansion,

823
01:09:32.760 --> 01:09:36.520
but that space between me and this desk and the

824
01:09:36.560 --> 01:09:39.960
television at the other side of the room is full

825
01:09:40.000 --> 01:09:48.039
of trillions and trillions and trillions and particles of energy,

826
01:09:50.479 --> 01:09:53.840
energy waves and all kinds of stuff that I'm never

827
01:09:53.880 --> 01:09:58.920
going to see or hear or feel, not consciously anyway.

828
01:10:00.319 --> 01:10:03.000
So I never try not to sort of when I

829
01:10:03.039 --> 01:10:06.000
get serious. I try not to like poo poo other

830
01:10:06.079 --> 01:10:10.600
people's beliefs and things, because there's more stuff that I

831
01:10:10.640 --> 01:10:14.520
don't know than I do know, and that is always

832
01:10:14.520 --> 01:10:19.479
going to be the case my entire life. For everything

833
01:10:19.520 --> 01:10:22.199
I know, there's billions of things that I don't know,

834
01:10:22.720 --> 01:10:27.359
maybe trillions of things that I don't know. So and

835
01:10:27.399 --> 01:10:30.359
I'm okay with that. I can't know everything. I don't

836
01:10:30.359 --> 01:10:32.159
want to know everything.

837
01:10:33.319 --> 01:10:36.479
Sometimes I want to know everything about specific subjects, but

838
01:10:37.520 --> 01:10:45.239
generally I don't know. I don't have any Yeah. I mean,

839
01:10:45.920 --> 01:10:50.000
my flat's haunted with a little Jack Russell, and before

840
01:10:50.039 --> 01:10:53.720
that it was haunted by a little ferritic called Andre

841
01:10:55.920 --> 01:11:05.239
and any occasional mice. But generally, yeah, it's so.

842
01:11:05.159 --> 01:11:08.239
It wouldn't bother me. It's the neighbors. As long as

843
01:11:08.279 --> 01:11:10.560
the neighbors are quiet, I don't really care what else happens.

844
01:11:11.560 --> 01:11:14.359
As long as everything everything, everyone's safe. And that's sort

845
01:11:14.399 --> 01:11:21.279
of rocking with the asse for so Yeah, No, I

846
01:11:21.279 --> 01:11:24.239
think the answer to that is no. There was one

847
01:11:24.279 --> 01:11:31.239
incident in that house I was telling you about. We'd

848
01:11:31.279 --> 01:11:35.439
only lived there for a little while, and my dad

849
01:11:35.479 --> 01:11:39.039
had put a carpet down, and the carpet started to

850
01:11:39.199 --> 01:11:47.880
rise on its own, and that was strange. But I

851
01:11:47.920 --> 01:11:50.359
think my dad said it was like the air was

852
01:11:50.520 --> 01:11:54.279
going through the skirting boards or something like that. But

853
01:11:55.159 --> 01:12:02.520
that was very weird. It didn't happen in any other room.

854
01:12:02.680 --> 01:12:10.279
Then there was that poltergeist. Uh yeah, not not nothing really,

855
01:12:11.479 --> 01:12:17.000
it was just yeah, I just did I don't know,

856
01:12:17.039 --> 01:12:20.359
I just didn't. I mean, I've lived in a I

857
01:12:20.439 --> 01:12:24.640
literally have lived in a mansion, I guess technically when

858
01:12:24.680 --> 01:12:30.399
I lived in the Children's home in South End. Huge building,

859
01:12:31.680 --> 01:12:38.920
huge like mansion size in a sense, like absolutely massive,

860
01:12:40.439 --> 01:12:48.239
big grounds and massive building. Really you know. So but

861
01:12:48.359 --> 01:12:54.560
I don't remember ever anything happening anything spooky, paranormal or

862
01:12:54.600 --> 01:13:00.239
anything like that there. And that building was proba be

863
01:13:00.279 --> 01:13:07.159
there for a good five six hundred years probably. In fact,

864
01:13:07.279 --> 01:13:09.600
I imagine when it was first built, it probably was

865
01:13:09.760 --> 01:13:15.520
I mentioned, or a hospital or something like that, big, big,

866
01:13:15.520 --> 01:13:16.159
old building.

867
01:13:17.279 --> 01:13:26.239
So yeah, I'm no, here's the answer. Really, the flats

868
01:13:26.279 --> 01:13:30.239
are fine. I mean I don't have access really to

869
01:13:30.279 --> 01:13:32.880
any of the other flats. So I talked to a

870
01:13:32.920 --> 01:13:36.840
couple of the other tenants. Now got two new people

871
01:13:36.920 --> 01:13:41.560
moving in, so I don't know them, and I speak

872
01:13:41.640 --> 01:13:44.439
to one one of the other tenants that I speak

873
01:13:44.479 --> 01:13:45.840
to him every now and then, I don't see him

874
01:13:45.920 --> 01:13:50.000
very often. And the other two one that I know,

875
01:13:50.960 --> 01:13:52.680
I speak to them every now and then, but.

876
01:13:56.039 --> 01:13:59.640
Really I don't. It's kind of things are changing around

877
01:13:59.640 --> 01:14:04.079
here than two new flats, two new people that moved in.

878
01:14:04.720 --> 01:14:09.920
I don't know them, and it's you know, things change, No,

879
01:14:10.079 --> 01:14:17.520
people move on, and it's it's all changing, whether or

880
01:14:17.560 --> 01:14:24.479
not they're haunted. I don't know. No, I don't think so.

881
01:14:24.479 --> 01:14:32.119
So yeah, so I only had three people leaving messages

882
01:14:32.359 --> 01:14:38.119
for questions, but I did get one, one, two, three, four, five, six.

883
01:14:38.159 --> 01:14:42.600
I had six questions. I'm not sure if I've answered

884
01:14:42.640 --> 01:14:46.319
them very well. I'm not sure if I I'm not

885
01:14:46.319 --> 01:14:48.520
sure if I ever answer questions very well. I never

886
01:14:49.479 --> 01:14:52.399
really asked, do I do you know?

887
01:14:52.560 --> 01:14:55.399
I ordered something on Uber eats.

888
01:14:56.079 --> 01:14:59.560
And because I'm trying to get I'm trying to get

889
01:14:59.600 --> 01:15:03.279
stocked up for not necessarily just for the end of

890
01:15:03.319 --> 01:15:06.800
the year, but for the future, just to prepare me

891
01:15:06.960 --> 01:15:12.640
for what's to come. And I so I've been getting

892
01:15:12.800 --> 01:15:19.079
like toilet roll and washing up liquid and black bin

893
01:15:19.199 --> 01:15:21.680
bags and just started collecting stuff so that I've got

894
01:15:21.760 --> 01:15:25.159
enough to last me, hopefully for another year if I can.

895
01:15:26.680 --> 01:15:34.600
And so I ordered ten bottles of shampoo. You know

896
01:15:34.680 --> 01:15:39.039
how many they delivered one. I ordered a couple of

897
01:15:39.119 --> 01:15:43.119
other things, but not much. They delivered one bottle of shampoo.

898
01:15:45.239 --> 01:15:47.359
The whole point of it was to get ten, so

899
01:15:47.399 --> 01:15:49.840
that would last me. Bearing in mind I'm pretty much

900
01:15:50.520 --> 01:15:53.399
bored most of the time. That's going to last me

901
01:15:53.439 --> 01:15:58.119
a year. Ten bottles of shampoo. But no, no, no, no, no.

902
01:15:58.199 --> 01:16:05.960
Only one couldn't believe it never been so angry. So

903
01:16:06.119 --> 01:16:09.600
I do believe that is it for today. Thank you

904
01:16:09.640 --> 01:16:13.479
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

905
01:16:13.520 --> 01:16:17.279
do deserve to be happy and be gentle of yourself.

906
01:16:17.279 --> 01:16:30.439
You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye. Relax

907
01:16:34.079 --> 01:16:44.640
in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

908
01:16:44.720 --> 01:16:52.039
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

909
01:16:53.399 --> 01:17:02.800
now and throughout the time we've spent together here, not

910
01:17:03.359 --> 01:17:08.680
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

911
01:17:08.760 --> 01:17:15.920
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

912
01:17:20.680 --> 01:17:33.479
But also I think it would be nice to have

913
01:17:33.960 --> 01:17:51.000
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

914
01:17:51.039 --> 01:18:04.520
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

915
01:18:05.399 --> 01:18:14.319
to my voice maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

916
01:18:20.359 --> 01:18:28.199
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

917
01:18:28.319 --> 01:18:31.800
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

918
01:18:31.920 --> 01:18:42.520
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

919
01:18:42.560 --> 01:18:47.720
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

920
01:18:47.960 --> 01:19:00.640
every evening. There was this recording from going back to

921
01:19:00.640 --> 01:19:06.239
about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was

922
01:19:06.239 --> 01:19:13.920
a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really, and

923
01:19:15.840 --> 01:19:19.159
I managed to find it again and it still has

924
01:19:19.199 --> 01:19:24.800
the same effect on me. And part of it was

925
01:19:28.439 --> 01:19:41.640
the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and

926
01:19:41.720 --> 01:19:48.560
I'd look forward to listening to her in the morning

927
01:19:49.000 --> 01:19:59.840
and in the evening. And I knew before even press

928
01:20:00.079 --> 01:20:08.039
in the play button that since I've done that pressed

929
01:20:08.079 --> 01:20:16.640
the play button. This is in the days of CD

930
01:20:16.800 --> 01:20:25.479
players pressed the play button. I fact, it might have

931
01:20:25.560 --> 01:20:29.920
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

932
01:20:29.960 --> 01:20:42.800
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

933
01:20:42.960 --> 01:20:55.920
words because I had to memorized. Really, it was as

934
01:20:55.960 --> 01:21:06.640
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

935
01:21:06.800 --> 01:21:28.840
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation and I remember,

936
01:21:28.960 --> 01:21:42.439
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was.

937
01:21:42.560 --> 01:21:49.840
Listening to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

938
01:21:52.359 --> 01:22:00.000
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

939
01:22:00.279 --> 01:22:05.039
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

940
01:22:05.039 --> 01:22:06.159
thousand and six.

941
01:22:12.920 --> 01:22:28.720
But I knew, I knew how helpful I found being

942
01:22:28.760 --> 01:22:37.960
able to just let go, to have that trust in

943
01:22:38.039 --> 01:22:48.439
the person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going

944
01:22:48.520 --> 01:22:59.039
to be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each

945
01:22:59.159 --> 01:23:05.760
time you hear in my voice, you may feel the same.

946
01:23:12.119 --> 01:23:26.760
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

947
01:23:27.560 --> 01:23:31.600
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

948
01:23:33.319 --> 01:23:39.880
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

949
01:23:39.960 --> 01:23:56.520
every day. There's something that I do which you may

950
01:23:56.640 --> 01:24:17.600
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

951
01:24:17.720 --> 01:24:30.239
for example, I also am affected by the words that

952
01:24:30.359 --> 01:24:41.920
I say. So if I said to you, focus on

953
01:24:41.960 --> 01:24:51.800
your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing

954
01:24:51.880 --> 01:25:04.399
on my feet. I will be noticing my feet relaxing.

955
01:25:14.319 --> 01:25:20.520
If I said, focus on your hands, and maybe notice

956
01:25:20.680 --> 01:25:32.159
the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice the the air

957
01:25:32.600 --> 01:25:37.279
in the room, the temperature of the room, on the

958
01:25:37.319 --> 01:25:49.119
backs of your hands. You may start to notice what

959
01:25:49.239 --> 01:25:56.640
almost feels like a very light breeze, even though there

960
01:25:57.359 --> 01:26:02.479
may not be any type of breeze at all where

961
01:26:02.520 --> 01:26:16.119
you are right now. And as you become aware of

962
01:26:16.159 --> 01:26:29.479
your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands

963
01:26:33.479 --> 01:26:55.800
our feeling now and when it comes to potentially drifting

964
01:26:55.920 --> 01:27:01.000
off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

965
01:27:06.720 --> 01:27:21.359
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

966
01:27:21.479 --> 01:27:39.920
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

967
01:27:39.960 --> 01:27:54.359
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

968
01:27:54.439 --> 01:28:06.079
on talking. It's only when I listen back to do

969
01:28:06.239 --> 01:28:15.319
the editing I hear snoring and I think, I don't

970
01:28:15.319 --> 01:28:25.760
remember snoring. I remember talking. Is this snoring was a

971
01:28:25.920 --> 01:28:32.159
pick turned up? That's why I sound like when I

972
01:28:32.279 --> 01:28:51.000
snare and I get really into the whole experience. I

973
01:28:51.039 --> 01:29:00.399
don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you feel

974
01:29:00.399 --> 01:29:11.000
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

975
01:29:26.079 --> 01:29:38.319
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

976
01:29:40.039 --> 01:29:55.840
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

977
01:30:02.399 --> 01:30:19.079
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

978
01:30:19.119 --> 01:30:50.239
you the breve easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

979
01:30:50.479 --> 01:31:19.279
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

980
01:31:19.439 --> 01:32:09.319
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

981
01:32:09.439 --> 01:32:27.760
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

982
01:32:33.760 --> 01:32:46.680
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and.

983
01:32:46.880 --> 01:33:27.319
Flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too,

984
01:33:28.920 --> 01:33:48.920
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything

985
01:33:59.159 --> 01:34:31.840
enjoy Yeah, that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

986
01:34:57.079 --> 01:35:22.600
Time seems to just to rip by so very slowly, relaxed,

987
01:35:28.439 --> 01:36:07.600
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

988
01:36:07.760 --> 01:37:12.159
this moment, completely free. Notice that your mind has slowed down.

989
01:37:20.439 --> 01:38:07.159
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

990
01:38:07.399 --> 01:38:24.560
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress rip out

991
01:38:24.600 --> 01:38:44.119
of your body, to appear out of every part of

992
01:38:44.239 --> 01:39:08.800
your body and being released from your brain in your

993
01:39:08.920 --> 01:39:44.720
mind slowly but surely, the muscle sing les.

994
01:40:00.119 --> 01:40:53.520
KSh rhs really so very deeply, rights so deeply, and

995
01:40:53.760 --> 01:41:21.520
the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders

996
01:41:21.560 --> 01:41:46.079
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper,

997
01:42:00.600 --> 01:42:30.239
noticing the feelings in the back of your neck, the

998
01:42:30.439 --> 01:43:13.279
feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body,

999
01:43:20.000 --> 01:44:03.479
I all say, feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense of

1000
01:44:03.760 --> 01:44:48.319
peace spreads through your very core. Even when you focus

1001
01:44:48.399 --> 01:45:47.840
on your mind, the mind becomes be and slower, even deeper, relaxing,

1002
01:46:11.600 --> 01:47:25.319
so very slow. Your stomach PA's fllin's stomach, your back. Notice,

1003
01:47:28.520 --> 01:47:47.079
Notice how relaxed you'd never fear in the hall of

1004
01:47:47.079 --> 01:48:20.079
your back. In spy from your brain all the way

1005
01:48:20.159 --> 01:48:31.560
down the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions

1006
01:48:31.600 --> 01:49:33.960
of messages every day, deepcomfort, increasing, deep playing rit you mes,

1007
01:50:03.800 --> 01:50:07.880
spreading those signals down your spine.

1008
01:50:07.479 --> 01:50:08.319
Or cord.

1009
01:50:12.399 --> 01:50:31.279
Into air, every part of your body, your shins and

1010
01:50:31.399 --> 01:51:25.880
your calf, muscles, your elbows, feelings of peace and tranquility

1011
01:51:26.920 --> 01:51:40.920
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1012
01:51:45.319 --> 01:52:36.560
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. I thinker, retinker, pease,

1013
01:52:52.359 --> 01:53:18.960
drifting mind just wandering a way, happy to let go,

1014
01:53:22.199 --> 01:54:23.560
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body

1015
01:54:27.840 --> 01:56:50.720
enjoying a sensor listing go yeahssssssssssssssssst peace for enjoy the space,

1016
01:56:53.079 --> 01:58:11.720
this space of peace and safety, so fiery relaxed, y

1017
01:58:46.439 --> 01:59:28.760
m letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the

1018
01:59:28.920 --> 02:00:27.800
different parts of your body, just to notice.

1019
02:00:03.199 --> 02:00:06.359
A forehead in your eyes.

1020
02:00:38.520 --> 02:01:25.800
Du so los noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom.

1021
02:02:11.199 --> 02:02:11.600
Pri.

1022
02:02:23.920 --> 02:03:23.159
Tri PE's for energy peace to breeze so much easier.

1023
02:04:03.479 --> 02:04:03.840
Loose.

1024
02:04:25.079 --> 02:04:36.680
You may have or may not have noticed your mind

1025
02:04:37.399 --> 02:05:39.199
drifting peaceful moly even more deeply in the direction of

1026
02:05:43.960 --> 02:07:56.760
total blissful pace, blissful peace est total peace. Come so calm,

1027
02:07:57.920 --> 02:09:09.920
letting go, peace with mind rexed foty sir rex so relaxed.

1028
02:09:34.239 --> 02:10:01.079
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I think peaceful,

1029
02:10:07.439 --> 02:11:16.279
so peaceful, real lika, so peaceful. And you could start

1030
02:11:16.720 --> 02:11:26.279
to notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though

1031
02:11:26.399 --> 02:11:37.640
I've not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of

1032
02:11:38.039 --> 02:11:43.479
physical comfort that is growing within you throughout your body,

1033
02:11:46.640 --> 02:11:56.359
and your mind starts to slow down, And that could

1034
02:11:56.359 --> 02:12:04.680
be almost in recognition of I guess my speech not

1035
02:12:04.880 --> 02:12:18.439
being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1036
02:12:21.880 --> 02:12:29.840
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1037
02:12:29.920 --> 02:12:37.920
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1038
02:12:37.960 --> 02:12:45.640
break from your life as it is, and to give

1039
02:12:45.680 --> 02:12:54.199
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

1040
02:12:56.359 --> 02:13:01.760
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1041
02:13:01.880 --> 02:13:12.520
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

1042
02:13:13.920 --> 02:13:22.680
and he stresses that you had in your body. It's

1043
02:13:22.720 --> 02:13:27.359
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1044
02:13:28.600 --> 02:13:40.239
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1045
02:13:41.079 --> 02:13:50.640
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1046
02:13:50.680 --> 02:14:02.520
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1047
02:14:03.399 --> 02:14:21.760
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1048
02:14:24.920 --> 02:14:32.920
an energy that spreads through your body like.

1049
02:14:32.920 --> 02:14:33.880
A wave.

1050
02:14:35.800 --> 02:14:48.640
Of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself.

1051
02:14:50.800 --> 02:14:56.000
A few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1052
02:14:56.079 --> 02:15:06.359
want it to be, just rest and allow.

1053
02:15:08.479 --> 02:15:18.479
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1054
02:15:18.600 --> 02:15:34.840
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1055
02:15:34.960 --> 02:15:39.680
room for feelings of pleasure.

1056
02:15:41.840 --> 02:15:53.399
And happiness to move around your body and into your mind,

1057
02:15:55.079 --> 02:15:59.920
almost as if your mind and your body are singing,

1058
02:16:00.000 --> 02:16:13.159
looking together, almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity

1059
02:16:13.880 --> 02:16:24.720
and calmness, and it feels nice. It really does feel

1060
02:16:24.840 --> 02:16:30.600
nice to know that you are the one that has

1061
02:16:30.680 --> 02:16:47.879
allowed yourself to feel more comfort and to experience more

1062
02:16:48.319 --> 02:17:04.520
of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as

1063
02:17:04.600 --> 02:17:12.159
I focus on each part of your body, you can

1064
02:17:12.280 --> 02:17:26.440
notice that that part becomes even more relaxed just by

1065
02:17:26.760 --> 02:17:35.959
focusing on it. It becomes even more calm and comfortable,

1066
02:17:38.440 --> 02:17:46.520
just by focusing. And as I move down your body,

1067
02:17:47.840 --> 02:17:55.120
starting at your head, the parts that you've already focused

1068
02:17:55.159 --> 02:18:04.680
on will continue to relax deeply, and those parts that

1069
02:18:04.799 --> 02:18:16.479
we've not yet focused on or just automatically release any

1070
02:18:16.879 --> 02:18:31.319
remaining tension in anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now,

1071
02:18:33.520 --> 02:18:39.719
I'm going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just

1072
02:18:39.879 --> 02:18:48.360
being aware of the feelings of your forehead and any

1073
02:18:48.399 --> 02:18:55.959
background sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow

1074
02:18:56.040 --> 02:19:03.200
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in

1075
02:19:03.239 --> 02:19:11.319
the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This

1076
02:19:11.520 --> 02:19:19.360
is the world. I live in the countryside, so there's

1077
02:19:19.440 --> 02:19:29.799
lots of nature sounds around. So as you focus on

1078
02:19:29.840 --> 02:19:37.479
your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more relaxed

1079
02:19:37.840 --> 02:19:46.799
as you focus only on my voice and that part

1080
02:19:46.920 --> 02:19:57.760
of your body moving down to your eyes, focusing on

1081
02:19:57.799 --> 02:20:08.520
your eyes, noticing how the your eyelids feel so heavy

1082
02:20:10.920 --> 02:20:18.000
yet so light at the same time, and all the

1083
02:20:18.120 --> 02:20:31.000
muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down

1084
02:20:31.079 --> 02:20:37.520
to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and

1085
02:20:37.600 --> 02:20:50.280
your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and

1086
02:20:50.440 --> 02:21:02.000
loose as you focus now on your jaw, not just

1087
02:21:02.959 --> 02:21:06.639
the part of your jaw near your mouth and your chin,

1088
02:21:07.879 --> 02:21:11.000
but all the way up the size of your face

1089
02:21:12.159 --> 02:21:24.639
to your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding more

1090
02:21:25.399 --> 02:21:47.479
relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the front of

1091
02:21:47.520 --> 02:22:00.000
your neck and your throat relaxing and loose and calm.

1092
02:22:00.200 --> 02:22:06.000
The sides of your neck, the right and left side

1093
02:22:06.159 --> 02:22:18.760
of your neck, relax and loose and calm.

1094
02:22:24.079 --> 02:22:30.920
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1095
02:22:31.000 --> 02:22:41.440
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1096
02:22:41.600 --> 02:22:47.079
may have been there before, and enjoying that.

1097
02:22:49.680 --> 02:23:00.799
Sense of increasing comfort and release that you can experience

1098
02:23:01.959 --> 02:23:11.559
in the back of your neck. Moving down your back

1099
02:23:13.959 --> 02:23:18.760
and moving either side of your spine right from the

1100
02:23:18.760 --> 02:23:24.159
top of your back all the way down to the

1101
02:23:24.200 --> 02:23:41.719
bottom of your back, down to your lower back as

1102
02:23:41.760 --> 02:23:49.200
you move up and down your spine, you can feel

1103
02:23:49.319 --> 02:23:57.079
the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1104
02:24:04.559 --> 02:24:11.360
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1105
02:24:11.399 --> 02:24:21.559
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1106
02:24:21.639 --> 02:24:28.639
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1107
02:24:28.760 --> 02:24:38.280
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1108
02:24:39.479 --> 02:24:44.799
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1109
02:24:44.879 --> 02:24:54.719
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1110
02:24:54.840 --> 02:25:00.520
in the middle of your back also seen to just

1111
02:25:00.920 --> 02:25:15.440
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, And

1112
02:25:15.639 --> 02:25:21.719
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1113
02:25:21.920 --> 02:25:37.959
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips, so

1114
02:25:38.200 --> 02:25:46.319
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1115
02:25:46.360 --> 02:25:54.879
where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all

1116
02:25:54.920 --> 02:26:04.239
those muscles that spread from your lower back into your

1117
02:26:04.319 --> 02:26:17.680
hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1118
02:26:24.079 --> 02:26:29.159
I don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders.

1119
02:26:30.799 --> 02:26:37.959
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1120
02:26:40.879 --> 02:26:56.600
continue to relax so calmly. And as you focus on

1121
02:26:56.639 --> 02:27:09.600
your shoulders, you mean no is They're already feeling really loose.

1122
02:27:14.399 --> 02:27:40.799
They're already feeding calm and feeling those muscles the move

1123
02:27:41.200 --> 02:27:57.040
from your neck into your shoulders, feel so soft and gentle,

1124
02:28:01.120 --> 02:28:30.840
so smooth and calm. The feedling in your shoulders seens

1125
02:28:30.879 --> 02:28:38.600
to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1126
02:28:39.760 --> 02:28:51.280
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1127
02:28:54.120 --> 02:29:04.120
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1128
02:29:06.840 --> 02:29:12.840
relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1129
02:29:14.120 --> 02:29:31.920
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1130
02:29:32.120 --> 02:29:52.319
comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message

1131
02:29:53.079 --> 02:30:04.959
into your arms. You may feel almost as if your

1132
02:30:05.319 --> 02:30:14.600
arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed, so

1133
02:30:16.159 --> 02:31:00.319
deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1134
02:30:45.399 --> 02:30:45.559
So.

1135
02:30:52.200 --> 02:31:11.680
Police feeling spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

1136
02:31:14.920 --> 02:31:40.600
including your elbows, their comforts spreads or away into wrists,

1137
02:31:42.920 --> 02:31:58.000
your forearments and your wrists feeling so heavy. Yet at

1138
02:31:58.159 --> 02:32:41.680
the same time, sunlight and gentle folk. You see now

1139
02:32:42.079 --> 02:33:19.799
on your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands.

1140
02:33:38.319 --> 02:33:57.360
There's a sense of real peace. It just seems to

1141
02:34:01.600 --> 02:34:40.159
feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Is your

1142
02:34:40.280 --> 02:36:18.000
fingers a thing is sadly your finger tips. Moving your

1143
02:36:18.040 --> 02:36:47.639
attention to the front of your body so comfortable, moving

1144
02:36:47.879 --> 02:38:12.440
your focus to your legs, A lot muscles.

1145
02:38:13.920 --> 02:38:32.840
In your thighs, your knees.

1146
02:38:36.399 --> 02:39:14.120
So relaxed, a calf muscles, and just shains co puzya

1147
02:40:06.600 --> 02:41:32.680
four and the feathing your feet, so peaceful, so calm,

1148
02:41:33.719 --> 02:42:26.440
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm.

1149
02:42:23.280 --> 02:42:23.440
So.

1150
02:42:25.360 --> 02:42:37.120
Peace fall RelA sin.

1151
02:42:42.239 --> 02:42:59.040
Peace fall, so calm, loving that deep relaxation.

1152
02:43:00.680 --> 02:43:22.920
Just spread your chest and your stomach, letting go of everything.

1153
02:43:34.120 --> 02:43:40.159
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1154
02:43:40.200 --> 02:43:48.360
to one. You can imagine in a way, it's like

1155
02:43:49.120 --> 02:43:55.600
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1156
02:43:55.639 --> 02:44:04.840
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1157
02:44:05.280 --> 02:44:20.879
represents a deepening of that comfort and the fervies you

1158
02:44:21.000 --> 02:44:26.360
walk down those steps that are deeper and more relaxed

1159
02:44:26.559 --> 02:45:42.840
you feel so starting with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen

1160
02:46:20.639 --> 02:52:14.239
sevent Jane sixteen three four four see too well five

1161
02:53:24.760 --> 03:05:13.559
eight nine eight seven s five four two one. And

1162
03:05:13.639 --> 03:05:30.719
now as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count

1163
03:05:30.799 --> 03:05:42.639
down from ten tout one, focusing just on your eyes,

1164
03:05:46.360 --> 03:05:56.360
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1165
03:05:56.360 --> 03:06:13.440
our whole area that makes up your eye and as

1166
03:06:13.479 --> 03:06:21.879
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1167
03:06:22.000 --> 03:06:37.000
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1168
03:06:37.360 --> 03:06:50.440
each number counting down, and you may find the all

1169
03:06:50.479 --> 03:06:56.760
you want to do is just drift off to sleep,

1170
03:06:59.600 --> 03:07:06.280
and it's that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1171
03:07:06.360 --> 03:07:20.719
to do that. Now focus in on your eyes. I'm

1172
03:07:20.799 --> 03:07:30.120
going to begin counting down from ten down to one

1173
03:07:30.559 --> 03:12:50.479
right now, ten nine eight seven y five four.

1174
03:14:03.200 --> 03:18:02.559
Three two.

1175
03:16:37.399 --> 03:16:37.719
One.

1176
03:16:43.959 --> 03:16:58.719
So count and down from ten to one ten nine

1177
03:17:00.399 --> 03:17:06.559
eight seven six.

1178
03:17:08.440 --> 03:17:28.639
Five four three two one. And maybe that was a

1179
03:17:28.680 --> 03:17:32.799
bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's a

1180
03:17:32.840 --> 03:17:39.040
bit too fast for you to notice the calming of

1181
03:17:39.079 --> 03:17:45.879
your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1182
03:17:45.959 --> 03:17:49.559
Like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1183
03:17:49.600 --> 03:17:53.120
expect me to do? Man, expect me to stick gold

1184
03:17:53.319 --> 03:18:03.200
floppy just because you're counting down. We can try again,

1185
03:18:04.520 --> 03:18:10.520
but this time I go this lower. This time, as

1186
03:18:10.559 --> 03:18:15.479
you focus on the whole of your body before we

1187
03:18:15.719 --> 03:18:22.760
focus on your legs, just notice how your body does

1188
03:18:24.479 --> 03:18:37.680
start to feel more relaxed with every number that I

1189
03:18:37.840 --> 03:19:49.440
count down ten nine eight seven six five four three

1190
03:19:49.799 --> 03:20:22.200
two one.

1191
03:20:22.520 --> 03:20:28.239
And just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1192
03:20:28.280 --> 03:20:43.159
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1193
03:20:43.200 --> 03:20:50.920
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1194
03:20:53.479 --> 03:21:09.399
space between being active physically or mentally to just.

1195
03:21:14.040 --> 03:21:19.239
Sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1196
03:21:19.399 --> 03:21:26.079
not saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So

1197
03:21:26.719 --> 03:21:29.760
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1198
03:21:29.799 --> 03:21:31.959
a space, a gap.

1199
03:21:38.120 --> 03:21:41.719
And the more I camped down from ten to one,

1200
03:21:42.840 --> 03:21:51.120
the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1201
03:21:52.319 --> 03:22:09.520
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves.

1202
03:22:09.559 --> 03:22:18.000
Those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1203
03:22:19.120 --> 03:22:24.200
Away.

1204
03:22:26.280 --> 03:22:27.719
Allows you.

1205
03:22:29.920 --> 03:22:30.440
To just.

1206
03:22:33.440 --> 03:22:34.159
Slow down.

1207
03:22:37.760 --> 03:22:40.719
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1208
03:22:40.840 --> 03:22:50.840
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1209
03:22:50.879 --> 03:22:56.959
it's almost like the thestress and attention falls into the

1210
03:22:57.000 --> 03:23:14.920
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1211
03:23:17.239 --> 03:25:20.559
Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

1212
03:25:11.760 --> 03:25:22.760
One.

1213
03:25:23.920 --> 03:25:28.079
How does your body feel.

1214
03:25:29.879 --> 03:25:40.159
Now?

1215
03:25:42.799 --> 03:25:55.479
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1216
03:25:57.799 --> 03:26:25.280
more relaxed. As we now focus on your legs, just

1217
03:26:25.360 --> 03:26:46.799
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1218
03:27:01.520 --> 03:27:06.040
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1219
03:27:06.639 --> 03:27:13.040
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1220
03:27:13.120 --> 03:27:25.319
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1221
03:27:25.399 --> 03:27:31.479
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1222
03:27:31.760 --> 03:27:38.440
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1223
03:27:38.520 --> 03:27:43.840
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1224
03:27:43.879 --> 03:27:51.719
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1225
03:27:52.719 --> 03:28:06.239
down to your knee joints. Now, this is a big area.

1226
03:28:07.319 --> 03:28:12.280
It's a very heavy area, it's very strong. Probably the

1227
03:28:12.399 --> 03:28:27.079
strongest muscles in your body are in your thighs. But

1228
03:28:27.159 --> 03:28:35.639
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1229
03:28:41.479 --> 03:28:52.280
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1230
03:28:52.399 --> 03:29:13.120
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1231
03:29:13.120 --> 03:29:23.559
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1232
03:29:23.680 --> 03:29:32.159
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1233
03:29:32.200 --> 03:29:39.840
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1234
03:29:40.840 --> 03:29:41.319
a bit of.

1235
03:29:47.840 --> 03:30:00.520
Acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us.

1236
03:30:06.959 --> 03:30:11.799
And I know this may sound a bit strange.

1237
03:30:12.360 --> 03:30:15.399
Maybe you think, why am I sure how I should

1238
03:30:15.399 --> 03:30:20.280
be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1239
03:30:24.399 --> 03:30:26.840
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1240
03:30:27.719 --> 03:30:30.000
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1241
03:30:30.000 --> 03:30:33.760
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1242
03:30:33.799 --> 03:30:42.520
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1243
03:30:44.280 --> 03:30:52.280
gain such an important part. And I think we don't

1244
03:30:52.319 --> 03:31:00.000
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1245
03:31:01.959 --> 03:31:07.079
all that my knees do for me until I have

1246
03:31:07.159 --> 03:31:10.559
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1247
03:31:12.120 --> 03:31:16.120
maybe i'll pash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1248
03:31:17.799 --> 03:31:24.079
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1249
03:31:24.120 --> 03:31:30.120
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1250
03:31:31.840 --> 03:31:39.120
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1251
03:31:39.319 --> 03:31:47.719
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1252
03:31:51.799 --> 03:31:56.440
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1253
03:31:56.479 --> 03:32:04.000
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1254
03:32:05.520 --> 03:32:08.200
and love to your knees for all that they do

1255
03:32:08.319 --> 03:32:21.319
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1256
03:32:21.440 --> 03:32:27.639
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1257
03:32:27.920 --> 03:32:45.360
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1258
03:32:45.479 --> 03:32:50.840
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1259
03:32:51.600 --> 03:32:57.319
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1260
03:32:58.040 --> 03:33:05.799
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1261
03:33:11.280 --> 03:33:15.879
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1262
03:33:16.000 --> 03:33:23.079
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1263
03:33:23.159 --> 03:33:31.760
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1264
03:33:31.799 --> 03:33:37.399
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1265
03:33:37.559 --> 03:33:40.479
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1266
03:33:41.520 --> 03:33:45.000
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1267
03:33:45.040 --> 03:33:49.959
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1268
03:33:50.000 --> 03:33:55.920
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1269
03:34:02.280 --> 03:34:06.719
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1270
03:34:06.760 --> 03:34:12.920
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1271
03:34:13.840 --> 03:34:23.920
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1272
03:34:24.440 --> 03:34:33.520
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1273
03:34:35.600 --> 03:34:45.280
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1274
03:34:45.799 --> 03:34:55.200
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

1275
03:35:01.479 --> 03:35:09.479
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1276
03:35:09.639 --> 03:35:13.000
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles didn't seem

1277
03:35:13.000 --> 03:35:18.159
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1278
03:35:18.879 --> 03:35:22.760
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1279
03:35:22.799 --> 03:35:26.959
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1280
03:35:27.000 --> 03:35:39.000
we use our legs, and your shins there to protect

1281
03:35:40.920 --> 03:35:49.600
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

1282
03:35:49.639 --> 03:36:02.040
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1283
03:36:05.280 --> 03:36:11.920
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1284
03:36:11.959 --> 03:36:14.159
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1285
03:36:16.159 --> 03:36:20.760
I realize, but now that I've mentioned your feet, it

1286
03:36:20.920 --> 03:36:25.840
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1287
03:36:25.879 --> 03:36:31.760
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1288
03:36:31.760 --> 03:36:37.559
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1289
03:36:37.600 --> 03:36:42.000
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1290
03:36:42.079 --> 03:36:48.559
your thighs a few minutes, we'll be focusing on your ankles.

1291
03:36:53.959 --> 03:37:09.159
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs in

1292
03:37:09.280 --> 03:37:11.000
this that movement.

1293
03:37:12.120 --> 03:37:20.159
Of energy, because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1294
03:37:21.559 --> 03:37:26.440
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1295
03:37:26.520 --> 03:37:39.479
we have in our thighs, but the skin on the

1296
03:37:39.520 --> 03:37:45.000
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1297
03:37:45.079 --> 03:37:53.959
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1298
03:37:56.680 --> 03:38:10.639
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's

1299
03:38:11.040 --> 03:38:16.200
the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the arch trees, all

1300
03:38:16.360 --> 03:38:24.879
this stuff that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes

1301
03:38:25.559 --> 03:38:28.319
it'd be nice if you could actually put your fingers

1302
03:38:29.280 --> 03:38:35.319
inside your thighs and a message, so you can message

1303
03:38:35.360 --> 03:38:38.559
on the outside, of course, but to be able to

1304
03:38:38.559 --> 03:38:41.799
get deep into the muscles and to be able to

1305
03:38:41.879 --> 03:38:48.200
just message inside your thighs, message in the bones of

1306
03:38:48.280 --> 03:38:56.399
your leg, message in all the veins, and just gently

1307
03:38:59.120 --> 03:39:08.719
heaving your thighs and you could move down message and

1308
03:39:08.840 --> 03:39:14.479
inside your knees, just message in those bones, but with

1309
03:39:14.760 --> 03:39:22.440
healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into the joints

1310
03:39:23.360 --> 03:39:31.479
of your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1311
03:39:32.520 --> 03:39:37.280
your knee, you know, the inside crease where your knee is.

1312
03:39:38.840 --> 03:39:44.399
It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice

1313
03:39:44.440 --> 03:39:45.559
when you stroke it.

1314
03:39:46.799 --> 03:39:50.239
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1315
03:39:50.360 --> 03:39:56.920
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part that

1316
03:39:57.159 --> 03:40:03.920
crease and you're leggs. It's almost it's like a part

1317
03:40:04.040 --> 03:40:08.959
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1318
03:40:16.760 --> 03:40:26.680
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

1319
03:40:26.719 --> 03:40:32.159
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

1320
03:40:37.879 --> 03:40:42.559
folding between your legs, you can just massage with your fingertips.

1321
03:40:43.680 --> 03:40:50.479
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1322
03:40:55.079 --> 03:40:56.600
You can of course feel.

1323
03:40:56.440 --> 03:41:02.719
The bones of your knees healing through your fingertips.

1324
03:41:10.079 --> 03:41:15.440
And then as you go down to your calf muscles,

1325
03:41:15.799 --> 03:41:17.600
and that's the part I'd like to be able to

1326
03:41:18.360 --> 03:41:25.719
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1327
03:41:25.799 --> 03:41:34.879
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1328
03:41:40.840 --> 03:41:46.920
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1329
03:41:47.079 --> 03:41:54.680
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1330
03:41:54.719 --> 03:42:01.879
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

1331
03:42:02.000 --> 03:42:06.120
the precious bones that they are. Our legs are so

1332
03:42:06.319 --> 03:42:09.879
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1333
03:42:12.360 --> 03:42:14.479
and more precious of any joel.

1334
03:42:16.799 --> 03:42:17.520
On the planet.

1335
03:42:26.079 --> 03:42:37.840
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1336
03:42:38.639 --> 03:42:45.319
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1337
03:42:48.399 --> 03:42:52.680
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1338
03:42:53.559 --> 03:43:03.559
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your fihs, wanting

1339
03:43:03.680 --> 03:43:07.719
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1340
03:43:09.559 --> 03:43:16.000
the message the muscles and the bones, and to get

1341
03:43:16.079 --> 03:43:24.399
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to

1342
03:43:24.520 --> 03:43:33.959
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1343
03:43:34.000 --> 03:43:39.760
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1344
03:43:42.120 --> 03:43:51.639
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your

1345
03:43:51.719 --> 03:43:59.760
ankles considering how thin they are compared to the rest

1346
03:43:59.760 --> 03:44:07.399
of your your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1347
03:44:08.840 --> 03:44:23.399
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1348
03:44:23.440 --> 03:44:34.319
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1349
03:44:34.440 --> 03:44:41.319
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1350
03:44:41.360 --> 03:44:46.040
if you're only eight stone, there's still a lot of

1351
03:44:46.120 --> 03:44:53.200
weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier

1352
03:44:53.239 --> 03:45:03.360
than eight stone double down. Yeah, ankles support my body

1353
03:45:04.079 --> 03:45:10.719
all the time. Or they do give off a sigh

1354
03:45:10.719 --> 03:45:16.120
of relief when I sit down, I have my whole

1355
03:45:16.200 --> 03:45:25.680
legs do my feet feet also go my toes clap.

1356
03:45:26.879 --> 03:45:44.040
I'm so happy.

1357
03:45:47.399 --> 03:45:56.600
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

1358
03:45:56.680 --> 03:46:03.120
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

1359
03:46:03.159 --> 03:46:08.760
most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

1360
03:46:11.799 --> 03:46:18.360
or boring or not, Everything I said is true. Your

1361
03:46:18.440 --> 03:46:39.040
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

1362
03:46:39.079 --> 03:46:51.719
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

1363
03:46:51.760 --> 03:47:15.399
out of the day to just let go completely. The

1364
03:47:15.639 --> 03:47:33.440
legs really can relax. And because the legs are so

1365
03:47:34.479 --> 03:47:39.319
such a most, you know, very important part of your body.

1366
03:47:40.559 --> 03:47:43.200
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

1367
03:47:43.799 --> 03:48:02.600
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

1368
03:48:02.680 --> 03:48:07.680
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

1369
03:48:10.920 --> 03:48:15.520
and also my lawyer back as well. My lower back

1370
03:48:15.760 --> 03:48:21.319
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

1371
03:48:21.360 --> 03:48:27.399
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

1372
03:48:27.399 --> 03:48:30.479
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

1373
03:48:30.559 --> 03:48:34.559
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

1374
03:48:34.680 --> 03:48:59.399
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

1375
03:48:59.440 --> 03:49:07.239
I'm now a countdown from ten down to one, and

1376
03:49:07.360 --> 03:49:33.440
you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six.

1377
03:49:36.239 --> 03:49:41.840
Five, four.

1378
03:49:44.799 --> 03:50:09.639
Three two one relax. So I'm just going to count

1379
03:50:09.680 --> 03:50:14.920
down and five down to one. And as a countdown,

1380
03:50:16.000 --> 03:50:21.000
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1381
03:50:22.399 --> 03:50:31.799
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment.

1382
03:50:33.159 --> 03:50:37.600
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1383
03:50:37.719 --> 03:50:50.799
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1384
03:50:50.840 --> 03:50:59.399
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1385
03:50:59.440 --> 03:51:05.319
you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1386
03:51:05.959 --> 03:51:23.120
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four,

1387
03:51:32.520 --> 03:51:51.000
three two.

1388
03:51:49.559 --> 03:51:59.920
One. As you know.

1389
03:52:04.440 --> 03:52:12.600
The gradual letting go that the tension in your body,

1390
03:52:16.200 --> 03:52:22.000
you may also begin to notice and be aware of

1391
03:52:22.000 --> 03:52:28.280
how your mind is starting to slow down.

1392
03:52:30.719 --> 03:52:37.120
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1393
03:52:37.280 --> 03:52:42.520
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1394
03:52:43.799 --> 03:52:49.840
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

1395
03:52:49.879 --> 03:52:53.520
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1396
03:52:53.639 --> 03:53:05.920
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

1397
03:53:05.959 --> 03:53:13.159
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1398
03:53:13.159 --> 03:53:20.760
there's background sounds either your side online is still going

1399
03:53:20.840 --> 03:53:25.879
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

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03:53:25.959 --> 03:53:31.159
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

1401
03:53:31.159 --> 03:53:38.760
listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're very

1402
03:53:38.920 --> 03:53:40.840
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1403
03:53:40.920 --> 03:53:45.760
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1404
03:53:46.399 --> 03:53:50.120
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1405
03:53:50.319 --> 03:54:00.520
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1406
03:54:07.000 --> 03:54:21.920
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow, and.

1407
03:54:23.639 --> 03:54:29.440
Without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1408
03:54:32.280 --> 03:54:41.239
something magical, this is just a natural process, something that's

1409
03:54:42.159 --> 03:54:51.760
easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost know. The sense

1410
03:54:51.840 --> 03:54:58.680
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1411
03:54:58.959 --> 03:55:02.879
into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1412
03:55:05.520 --> 03:55:14.879
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1413
03:55:15.280 --> 03:55:20.079
of this recording and others.

1414
03:55:21.280 --> 03:55:31.280
Is simply two allow you to take advantage of this

1415
03:55:32.399 --> 03:55:48.600
space this time. It's just let go to just be here,

1416
03:55:49.920 --> 03:56:02.879
to be in tune with how you feel, yet with

1417
03:56:03.559 --> 03:56:15.559
the intention of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even

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03:56:17.079 --> 03:56:21.520
to fall asleep, depending on what it is that you

1419
03:56:22.600 --> 03:56:35.719
wish for yourself in this moment. As we know, relaxing

1420
03:56:37.399 --> 03:56:45.520
is the majority of the process of falling asleep. The

1421
03:56:45.600 --> 03:56:50.159
actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at the end.

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03:56:53.079 --> 03:57:05.280
The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find.

1423
03:57:06.479 --> 03:57:22.639
Yourself drifting. You can also if you choose stay focused

1424
03:57:23.680 --> 03:57:47.639
on my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing

1425
03:57:51.920 --> 03:58:18.440
each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the

1426
03:58:18.600 --> 03:58:32.680
sensation of letting go completely.

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03:58:38.680 --> 03:58:45.760
This time, I an a count from six down to one,

1428
03:58:47.559 --> 03:58:56.760
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

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03:58:57.159 --> 03:59:10.840
each number that you hear me say, naturally, feeling calm

1430
03:59:11.319 --> 03:59:17.760
and slow, peaceful.

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03:59:23.000 --> 03:59:50.200
Sex five.

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04:00:09.879 --> 04:02:16.159
Four, three, two four, being aware of how your mind

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04:02:16.399 --> 04:02:45.200
to slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as

1434
04:02:45.239 --> 04:02:54.040
you focus on your mind, you may notice that there

1435
04:02:54.040 --> 04:03:02.120
are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that

1436
04:03:04.399 --> 04:03:17.399
for some reason perhaps need your attention. That's what you

1437
04:03:17.520 --> 04:03:31.719
can do is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

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04:03:35.680 --> 04:03:36.559
With love.

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04:03:38.000 --> 04:03:42.559
Like a petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1440
04:03:43.680 --> 04:03:50.879
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1441
04:03:51.040 --> 04:03:57.600
thoughts know that you're not abandon in them. You just

1442
04:03:57.959 --> 04:04:08.040
need them quiet them to just calm down, slow down,

1443
04:04:10.360 --> 04:04:25.280
quiet down for now. So as you focus on those

1444
04:04:25.959 --> 04:04:30.879
remaining thoughts, as we count down this time from seven

1445
04:04:31.760 --> 04:04:40.479
down to one, with each number, just imagine sprinkling those

1446
04:04:40.680 --> 04:05:00.200
flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which

1447
04:05:00.200 --> 04:05:06.159
will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

1448
04:05:10.280 --> 04:05:24.760
With every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

1449
04:05:30.319 --> 04:08:01.479
starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one. And

1450
04:08:01.680 --> 04:08:23.159
as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in your body,

1451
04:08:27.479 --> 04:08:40.719
we're going to focus on your hands, because the more

1452
04:08:40.799 --> 04:08:47.879
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1453
04:08:48.159 --> 04:08:50.319
mind are.

1454
04:09:03.680 --> 04:09:04.280
And there's.

1455
04:09:05.799 --> 04:09:15.959
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1456
04:09:16.479 --> 04:09:21.239
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1457
04:09:22.280 --> 04:09:33.719
dancing the fingers or anything like that. It's just noticing

1458
04:09:34.520 --> 04:10:02.120
and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel. Because

1459
04:10:02.280 --> 04:10:13.600
the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels,

1460
04:10:15.479 --> 04:10:29.680
and the more comfort you feel throughout your body. And

1461
04:10:30.280 --> 04:11:03.600
you may have already noticed your mind is starting to

1462
04:11:03.959 --> 04:11:31.639
dress like sense just on your hands and fingers, allowing

1463
04:11:32.200 --> 04:11:46.639
them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation in

1464
04:11:46.760 --> 04:12:05.959
your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number.

1465
04:12:13.399 --> 04:12:14.399
From eight.

1466
04:12:16.559 --> 04:12:28.760
Down to one, you can almost feel that healing and

1467
04:12:28.959 --> 04:12:45.319
relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming year

1468
04:12:45.520 --> 04:12:54.559
and roar relaxing with each number.

1469
04:12:56.440 --> 04:12:57.239
You hear.

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04:13:01.000 --> 04:13:15.719
Going down eight down to one to drifting to drifting

1471
04:13:15.879 --> 04:13:34.959
again starting with number eight.

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04:14:02.840 --> 04:15:01.799
Seven six.

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04:15:17.000 --> 04:15:42.559
F four.

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04:16:01.799 --> 04:17:20.600
Three.

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04:17:21.840 --> 04:17:31.319
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1476
04:17:32.760 --> 04:17:46.719
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1477
04:17:46.959 --> 04:17:54.680
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1478
04:17:54.840 --> 04:18:01.760
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1479
04:18:02.159 --> 04:18:09.120
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1480
04:18:09.319 --> 04:18:25.520
worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1481
04:18:27.719 --> 04:18:31.040
You take that away, which is what we do.

1482
04:18:31.600 --> 04:18:32.120
What we do.

1483
04:18:32.280 --> 04:18:49.639
Now you're left with a real sense of peacefulness which

1484
04:18:49.760 --> 04:18:59.680
comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1485
04:19:04.040 --> 04:19:12.399
a feeling of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside

1486
04:19:12.440 --> 04:19:24.639
yourself and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

1487
04:19:27.559 --> 04:19:33.040
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

1488
04:19:35.120 --> 04:19:41.479
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

1489
04:19:46.159 --> 04:19:53.159
where you can accept yourself for who you are, the

1490
04:19:53.239 --> 04:19:59.760
place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

1491
04:20:03.799 --> 04:20:12.399
the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1492
04:20:12.479 --> 04:20:17.920
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself

1493
04:20:20.399 --> 04:20:37.760
appreciate who you are. That sense of gratitude is in

1494
04:20:37.840 --> 04:20:48.360
the air all around you, and that's also a place

1495
04:20:48.520 --> 04:20:58.760
where you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into

1496
04:20:58.799 --> 04:21:16.280
your body, healing energy soaking into your body, and that

1497
04:21:16.479 --> 04:21:26.719
healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each and

1498
04:21:27.040 --> 04:21:37.920
every single part of your body, and you start to

1499
04:21:38.040 --> 04:21:45.600
realize that actually, that healing energy, it's not just entered

1500
04:21:45.639 --> 04:21:57.200
into your brain, it's become part of your brain, and

1501
04:21:57.280 --> 04:22:09.280
the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not

1502
04:22:09.440 --> 04:22:17.399
just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and

1503
04:22:17.680 --> 04:22:30.200
healthy in this moment, but also you start to realize

1504
04:22:30.399 --> 04:22:40.360
to actually, what's happening now with that healing, relaxing energy

1505
04:22:41.280 --> 04:22:53.280
spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life. It's

1506
04:22:53.319 --> 04:22:59.000
actually changing the way you're going to feel, not just now,

1507
04:23:00.680 --> 04:23:11.040
but tomorrow and the next day. There's your health improves,

1508
04:23:11.040 --> 04:23:18.600
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1509
04:23:18.799 --> 04:23:24.040
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1510
04:23:25.239 --> 04:23:32.799
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1511
04:23:32.920 --> 04:23:44.559
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1512
04:23:44.639 --> 04:23:49.440
to cause you to feel anger.

1513
04:23:52.840 --> 04:23:56.840
No longer have that power.

1514
04:23:59.239 --> 04:24:05.120
To control the way they seem to be able to before.

1515
04:24:08.760 --> 04:24:19.600
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1516
04:24:19.879 --> 04:24:31.639
affects you. You're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1517
04:24:32.440 --> 04:24:45.360
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

1518
04:24:46.280 --> 04:24:59.639
developments of healing, continuing to grow and improve your life

1519
04:25:01.000 --> 04:25:12.879
day by day, including of course your ability to relax

1520
04:25:13.479 --> 04:25:28.399
so much easier and sleeping. It's the most natural thing

1521
04:25:29.319 --> 04:25:39.319
in the world to you, because falling asleep is something

1522
04:25:39.479 --> 04:25:50.360
that you've done so many times in your life, and

1523
04:25:50.479 --> 04:25:54.319
you know that you were born, as we all were,

1524
04:25:55.079 --> 04:26:06.440
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. You're born with

1525
04:26:06.959 --> 04:26:19.440
that ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1526
04:26:25.360 --> 04:26:30.200
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep and we

1527
04:26:30.239 --> 04:26:31.200
don't even want to.

1528
04:26:33.120 --> 04:26:33.399
Try.

1529
04:26:33.520 --> 04:26:38.280
Tell us stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1530
04:26:38.440 --> 04:26:42.799
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1531
04:26:43.319 --> 04:26:44.600
We don't want to go to sleep.

1532
04:26:46.760 --> 04:26:51.799
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1533
04:26:51.959 --> 04:26:59.440
we just start to drift, and the more you fight

1534
04:27:00.040 --> 04:27:03.319
dfting or we try to stop yourself and drift in

1535
04:27:03.399 --> 04:27:16.440
a safe the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

1536
04:27:16.479 --> 04:27:21.920
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1537
04:27:23.600 --> 04:27:33.479
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1538
04:27:33.559 --> 04:27:41.959
part of our DNA, and.

1539
04:27:42.120 --> 04:27:47.760
Sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1540
04:27:48.479 --> 04:27:57.680
we have forgotten that relaxing completely.

1541
04:27:59.360 --> 04:27:59.840
It's not a.

1542
04:28:01.719 --> 04:28:26.000
Wonderfully pleasant experience. It's also really easy. It's very very

1543
04:28:26.479 --> 04:28:32.079
easy to let go, because that's all it is.

1544
04:28:32.120 --> 04:28:32.680
It is just.

1545
04:28:36.120 --> 04:28:47.600
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1546
04:28:47.680 --> 04:28:57.959
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1547
04:28:58.159 --> 04:29:06.280
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1548
04:29:07.280 --> 04:29:18.280
you've given me permission for my words to effect you

1549
04:29:18.879 --> 04:29:36.120
in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up your mind.

1550
04:29:37.680 --> 04:29:58.440
Two useful and healing suggestions that can have such an

1551
04:29:58.520 --> 04:30:10.440
amazing effect act on how you feel right now, as

1552
04:30:10.520 --> 04:30:21.520
well as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

1553
04:30:23.159 --> 04:30:32.319
those changes within you that continue to flourish and grow,

1554
04:30:36.799 --> 04:30:50.799
transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

1555
04:30:51.120 --> 04:30:57.440
to move forward in your life in the direction that

1556
04:30:57.719 --> 04:31:14.920
you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

1557
04:31:15.079 --> 04:31:39.000
you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, this feels so nice.

1558
04:31:40.479 --> 04:31:53.239
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1559
04:31:54.559 --> 04:32:13.680
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

1560
04:32:13.719 --> 04:32:24.559
going to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

1561
04:32:24.639 --> 04:32:33.600
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

1562
04:32:33.639 --> 04:32:39.360
thinking slower. It's just that your mind would be less

1563
04:32:40.159 --> 04:32:51.719
clogged up with unnecessary negativity, because from now on, your

1564
04:32:51.879 --> 04:33:02.440
mind rejects negativity. For now, you're going to start noticing

1565
04:33:05.639 --> 04:33:18.240
when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop

1566
04:33:21.080 --> 04:33:30.720
and the negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1567
04:33:35.799 --> 04:33:55.159
Stop and that negativity will disappear. And that you notice

1568
04:33:55.439 --> 04:34:03.759
that you feel way more than axed than you probably expected.

1569
04:34:09.919 --> 04:34:19.520
You can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1570
04:34:19.639 --> 04:34:25.799
has done this. You are the one that has opened

1571
04:34:25.959 --> 04:34:34.520
your mind up to the simple facts. You can feel

1572
04:34:35.319 --> 04:34:45.200
more relaxed in your body and in your mind. You've

1573
04:34:45.240 --> 04:34:46.799
opened your mind.

1574
04:34:46.680 --> 04:34:47.159
Up to.

1575
04:34:49.400 --> 04:34:56.000
The birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1576
04:34:57.040 --> 04:35:11.080
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

1577
04:35:11.159 --> 04:35:22.720
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm full,

1578
04:35:22.799 --> 04:35:27.400
That healing energy is spreading through your body in your

1579
04:35:27.479 --> 04:35:45.000
mind to spend time a special place where negativity can

1580
04:35:45.080 --> 04:35:58.400
no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed.

1581
04:35:58.520 --> 04:36:05.720
Intrigue doesn't doesn't this, doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't

1582
04:36:05.880 --> 04:36:24.599
belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1583
04:36:24.720 --> 04:36:39.520
makes room for more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace.

1584
04:36:56.479 --> 04:36:59.840
It feels nice, doesn't it, just.

1585
04:37:03.279 --> 04:37:04.240
To let go.

1586
04:37:05.799 --> 04:37:25.759
With everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down

1587
04:37:25.840 --> 04:37:35.200
to one. He can continue to relax. If you choose,

1588
04:37:35.560 --> 04:37:49.200
you can career to sleep with every number you hear

1589
04:37:49.360 --> 04:38:00.919
me say, you can feel twice as relaxed, or if

1590
04:38:00.919 --> 04:39:09.479
you choose, you can fill wise sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

1591
04:39:18.560 --> 04:40:25.799
thirteen to wel e eleven ten nine A seven six five.

1592
04:40:32.840 --> 04:41:07.880
Why this is your time.

1593
04:41:10.319 --> 04:41:24.680
To just take a break, your time to relax, to

1594
04:41:24.759 --> 04:41:37.040
allow your mind to slow down, to give yourself a

1595
04:41:37.119 --> 04:41:55.200
permission to take a break from everything. And you're the

1596
04:41:55.400 --> 04:41:56.880
only person.

1597
04:41:57.159 --> 04:42:03.080
That can make that decision. You're the only person that

1598
04:42:03.200 --> 04:42:06.000
can actually tell your mind.

1599
04:42:09.799 --> 04:42:19.240
Just relax, to just.

1600
04:42:22.880 --> 04:42:34.240
Take some time off so that you.

1601
04:42:34.240 --> 04:42:36.799
Can focus on your body.

1602
04:42:37.400 --> 04:42:41.400
Getting in touch with how you feel.

1603
04:42:42.680 --> 04:42:58.319
Physically and in the process of this boody scan where

1604
04:42:58.439 --> 04:43:09.439
you focus on different parts of your body, those parts

1605
04:43:09.639 --> 04:43:16.159
that you focus on and observe, even though you're not

1606
04:43:17.400 --> 04:43:24.919
purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

1607
04:43:27.159 --> 04:43:33.560
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

1608
04:43:33.680 --> 04:43:46.360
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1609
04:43:46.400 --> 04:43:56.680
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

1610
04:44:01.520 --> 04:44:12.479
and does my words by you to focus on those

1611
04:44:12.680 --> 04:44:30.799
parts of your body. Your focus increases, which actually calms

1612
04:44:31.000 --> 04:44:48.720
your mind. And when you wind calms down, your body.

1613
04:44:50.439 --> 04:44:51.119
Relaxes.

1614
04:44:58.599 --> 04:45:11.840
Than when your body calms down, your mind.

1615
04:45:12.319 --> 04:45:28.000
Relaxes, and those have not really started to focus on

1616
04:45:28.159 --> 04:45:34.159
your body. You can already.

1617
04:45:35.119 --> 04:45:48.880
Feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing out.

1618
04:45:52.040 --> 04:45:59.520
Stress, attention, heathing.

1619
04:46:00.959 --> 04:46:07.840
All the parts of your body, bleeding, your skin, the bones,

1620
04:46:09.319 --> 04:46:15.520
your blood, all of your organs inside your body, all

1621
04:46:15.560 --> 04:46:18.319
of the muscles, all of the.

1622
04:46:18.319 --> 04:46:22.119
Fact of everything.

1623
04:46:23.919 --> 04:46:38.200
Every hair on your body is filled with bath energy, and.

1624
04:46:38.319 --> 04:46:39.520
On your brain.

1625
04:46:43.799 --> 04:46:49.880
Fills with that earthing energy.

1626
04:46:53.840 --> 04:46:58.919
The feeding of comfort and relaxation.

1627
04:47:01.919 --> 04:47:12.799
Increases, deeply increases.

1628
04:47:18.319 --> 04:47:32.880
In a way your mind starts to feel, perhaps speak to.

1629
04:47:33.040 --> 04:47:43.840
Rousing because it's not needed, and.

1630
04:47:43.959 --> 04:47:45.959
It may starts.

1631
04:47:48.720 --> 04:48:04.279
To drive if that's what's needed. So if you're listening

1632
04:48:04.520 --> 04:48:10.520
to this and what you need is deeply vexation, that's

1633
04:48:10.560 --> 04:48:17.040
what you get. If what you need is to fall

1634
04:48:17.080 --> 04:48:26.959
asleep naturally easily, your mind drifts, that's awesome.

1635
04:48:28.279 --> 04:48:29.279
For whatever.

1636
04:48:34.680 --> 04:48:35.400
Accuse my.

1637
04:48:38.319 --> 04:48:43.200
I say that play button from the podcast that listening

1638
04:48:43.319 --> 04:48:50.360
to me, I give permission your body and your mind.

1639
04:48:52.799 --> 04:49:01.799
In fact, you give the command to your buddy and

1640
04:49:01.959 --> 04:49:13.680
your mind drive deeply and to drive go to sleep

1641
04:49:15.000 --> 04:49:18.240
if that's what he wants.

1642
04:49:21.040 --> 04:49:21.520
Wanted.

1643
04:49:29.279 --> 04:49:39.159
And as I focus on the two parts of your body,

1644
04:49:39.919 --> 04:49:48.400
you may start to just do it. And then you

1645
04:49:48.520 --> 04:49:55.759
go back again talking and focusing on the different parts

1646
04:49:55.799 --> 04:50:09.360
of your body, you may find yourself drifting.

1647
04:50:09.599 --> 04:50:12.040
Do you don't realize you drifting.

1648
04:50:13.400 --> 04:50:22.000
Until you stop drifting. You're alert again to my voice.

1649
04:50:22.000 --> 04:50:27.360
You said, what a different part of your body starts

1650
04:50:27.560 --> 04:50:38.040
to relax the indema because that drifting it's basically you

1651
04:50:38.080 --> 04:50:49.919
already in the sleep sound and the more you drift,

1652
04:50:50.680 --> 04:50:55.080
the longer you drift, and the longer you dread that

1653
04:50:58.240 --> 04:51:10.360
eventually that drift continues in the sleep. That's the most

1654
04:51:10.639 --> 04:51:11.400
of them will.

1655
04:51:13.279 --> 04:51:13.439
Toil.

1656
04:51:13.479 --> 04:51:14.240
You wake up.

1657
04:51:18.599 --> 04:51:23.680
In your own time when you experience the my amount

1658
04:51:23.840 --> 04:51:25.319
of sleep, the.

1659
04:51:29.639 --> 04:51:30.360
Ef you do.

1660
04:51:32.319 --> 04:52:02.880
Indeed, sleep pleas so relaxing, so deep. Sleep feels so

1661
04:52:03.200 --> 04:52:23.279
nice to maxine to one body mind you spreading Tolexe,

1662
04:52:23.799 --> 04:52:48.560
so deep, relax, so so deep, he smelled, likes your

1663
04:52:48.720 --> 04:54:22.400
eyes down shoes. Yes, why.

1664
04:54:31.000 --> 04:54:32.159
Who thinks.

1665
04:54:49.560 --> 04:55:30.000
You see sighed lespake this again.

1666
04:55:32.159 --> 04:55:39.759
Part speak have you spent this time on you boy?

1667
04:55:46.479 --> 04:56:11.919
Now lips hook Now what you see on the thinks.

1668
04:56:17.119 --> 04:56:21.479
People? You think it's what it's.

1669
04:56:22.840 --> 04:56:25.159
Like one in the.

1670
04:56:32.240 --> 04:56:39.840
Hands and the day she takes on both of your hands.

1671
04:56:40.759 --> 04:56:51.520
You see, it's just not. It's worn your life.

1672
04:56:51.599 --> 04:56:52.799
Don't start.

1673
04:56:58.919 --> 04:57:42.400
Snicks, th look so things sweet stops.

1674
04:57:50.639 --> 04:58:39.479
Just step so you want to do it and even

1675
04:58:39.880 --> 05:00:00.599
like a as