Sept. 17, 2025

(no music) (5 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday

(no music) (5 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday

(no music) (5 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday | Jason Newland | 16th September 2025 🎙 Title: Let Me Bore You to Sleep #1433 – Trivia Tuesday (Shortest Days, Longest Rambles) 📄 Description (Spreaker-formatted, ready to paste):...

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(no music) (5 hours) #1433 Let me bore you to sleep | Trivia Tuesday | Jason Newland | 16th September 2025

🎙 Title: Let Me Bore You to Sleep #1433 – Trivia Tuesday (Shortest Days, Longest Rambles) 📄 Description (Spreaker-formatted, ready to paste): Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You to Sleep, I’m Jason Newland. It's Trivia Tuesday... or actually Wednesday. I missed Tuesday. Oops. 😴 In this extra-dull, extra-soothing episode, I take you on a rambling journey that begins with the trivia of shortest and longest days around the world — and ends somewhere in a memory of selling comedy albums to a policeman and having cold hands in 1990. Also: Vinny cuddles, night shift chaos, and a Buddhist fire exit incident. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. 🙏
Website: LetMeBoreYouToSleep.com ⏱️ Timestamps: 0:00 – Intro & Lighting Talk
Why I didn’t record Tuesday. The morning is strangely dark. I ramble about windows and needing the lights on.

5:00 – Trivia Tuesday Begins

  • 🌍 Longest and shortest days by country
  • Ecuador, Kenya, UK, Australia, Iceland, the Poles
  • Wondering where the moon goes for 6 months 🤔
30:00 – Memory Lane (Night Shift Jobs)
  • My double-glazing canvassing job in 1990
  • Working night shift at a meter factory
  • Trying to do two jobs and sleeping like a vampire
55:00 – Living with My Dad
  • Staying at Dad’s while working two jobs
  • Heating issues and blackout curtains
  • How many towns were involved in getting me to move out?
1:05:00 – Comedy Dreams & Video Players
  • Selling all my comedy stuff for £250
  • Trying (and failing) to learn stand-up from tapes
  • Buying a broken VCR from a “friend”
1:20:00 – Vinny Gets Affectionate
  • Vinny cuddles up on my lap ❤️
  • I wonder if he’s just accepted his fate...
1:25:00 – Outro
  • Realizing I’ve completely abandoned the trivia
  • Reminders to be kind to yourself
  • “You deserve to be happy. You deserve to feel safe.”
🐾 Special Guest: Vinny the dog – occasional barking, cuddles, and sabotage.

🔑 Keywords: sleep podcast, longest day trivia, ASMR, Jason Newland, relaxing voice, bedtime story, night shift, UK nostalgia, Vinny the dog, Let Me Bore You to Sleep, meditation, boring podcast, fall asleep fast

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Hello, and welcome to let me bore you to sleep.

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My name's Jason Luland and this is Trivia Tuesday.

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Now.

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To be honest, I don't like being honest, as you know,

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But to be honest, I'm doing this on Wednesday because

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yesterday I couldn't be bothered.

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I couldn't do it.

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I just I was busy, not busy, but a neighbor

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knocked and had a a chat, and time went by

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and before I knew it, it was time to go

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bye byes. So I didn't do it. And the weather's changed,

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not not that that should really be a reason, but

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it's nine twenty two.

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In the morning, and really I need the light on.

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It's like early evening here lightwise inside days now. If

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I was going to read a book, I would need

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the light on, or a paper or something, you know,

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something like that. Luckily, with computers, you know, there's a

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light on in the behind the screen, isn't there, So

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I ain't got to worry about that.

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But if I was.

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Sitting here writing stuff down, I would need to have

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the light on at nine twenty three in the morning.

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It's kind of weird, honestly, And I haven't even got

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the curtains drawn, so the curtains are open.

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The windows are open because it's it was cold.

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I put the heating on and now it's too hot

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for our ton. The windows weird time, it's I mean,

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it's only what is it, the seventeenth of September two

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thous and and twenty five. Hmmm, that's kind of I

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think that's the thing about this time of year. Not

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this time of year, but like between now and March

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oct Jenney, there's only six months and between you get a.

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Lot of these days. And you know, during any in

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England or where I live anyway, this is kind of

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standard sort of lighting during the day for a good

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couple of months, like December, January, maybe part of November.

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I don't remember it normally being quite like this in September.

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M m.

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It's just really I can't I can't really show you

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because if I took a picture, it doesn't give you

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a gauge.

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Really.

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I mean, it's never like super bright inside here anyway,

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because there is a tree that's blocking a fair bit

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of like sunlight.

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When the sun's out. Yeah, it's a little bit dull.

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Please only listen when you can safe the close your eyes.

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My website is let me bore you to sleep dot com.

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What else can I tell you? Not really much. I

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just yeah, everything's okay. I I slept last night.

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And then I got up. I dreamt.

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Vinny is now in my dreams with me, which I

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don't know if that's normal or weird, I don't know,

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but yeah, he's in my dreams, so he accompanies me

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wherever I go, just like in real life. By the way,

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I've got Q and A Friday coming up this week,

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which is in.

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Two days. It's Wednesday today. So I have posted on.

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My my Facebook group, which is Jason Newland's Boring Group,

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but I haven't had any questions yet. Had two people

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like it the post I put, but no questions. So

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please go to the page Jason Newland's Boring Group on

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Facebook and.

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Ask me some questions if you'd like to.

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And I should also say welcome to the newest members

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of the group, which would be Sue Brooke, Janice Patrick, Camilla, Melenis, Marina,

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Mary Forge, Vivek Fari Bada and Peter so Yeah and Andy.

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So that's like the last few that have joined. So

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thank you for being part of this Shoper Grove group.

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The link is on my website if you want to

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find it. If you can't find it is I think

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it should be quite easy to find.

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So here we go.

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So this is time for trivia Tuesday. I need to

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figure out a.

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For some reason, I'm very focused on.

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Light today. So what are the shortest day's longest days?

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Or shall I do weather?

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Because really weird because if I just what's the shortest

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days of the year, there's one short day, then there's

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one longest day, longest days in the summer, shortest days

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in I suppose.

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Probably December or beginning of January. Let's just shucked.

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I could just go through countries or the shortest and

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longest days.

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Please give me.

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Shortest, shortest if I could spell, and longest days days

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of the year by country.

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Got it?

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The shortest and longest days of the year, depending on leitude,

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not the country itself. No, by country? Oh it is,

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oh okay, So it has example by country list all countries.

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The thing is it's probably going to be a lot

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of them. That's a huge list, almost two hundred countries.

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But I can absolutely create it for you. Before I

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dive in, I want to check list all countries. Yes,

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I just asked you. Just just do it, man, I'm

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a proper task master, mask tasker.

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Right.

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I'll start off with the general rules. It says equator equator,

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zero latitude equator. Sorry, day length barely changes after twelve

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hours of daylight all year. Twelve hours of daylight all

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year in the equator, so it's like twelve hours daylight

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twelve hours night and the kind of stays the same length.

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I am kind of ad libbing, but fair enough. Tropics

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up to I don't know what that means. Variation is small.

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The longest thirteen hours, shortest is eleven hours, so there's

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not a lot of differences there. Mid latitudes, which would

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be UK, USA, Europe, China bigger swings. So longest days

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sixteen to seventeen hours, shortest days seven to eight hours.

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Arctic Antarctic circle at least one day with twenty four

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hour daylight midnight Sunday okay specific and one with twenty

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four hour darkness.

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Polar night. Does that mean.

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Continuous So twenty four hours of light, twenty four hours

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of darkness, twenty four hours of light, twenty.

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Four hour darkness.

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See.

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If that's the case, that must have been really weird

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for people that were traveling up there to kind of

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try and climb a mountain or something and thinking, Wow.

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Time just slows down when we're here. This is brilliant.

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This is been light for age years, the days We've

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got so much done, and then they go to sleep

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and think, God, it's light again.

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I feel so refreshed. I feel like I've been asleep forever.

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So poles one continuous six month day and one continuous

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six month night each year. Yeah, I've heard about that.

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That's got to be very, very strange. So that's a

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North and South pole or North South pole, one continuous

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six month day, one continuous six month night. I'd like

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to visit that just to see what that's like. It's

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gotta be weird because so that means the moon never

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comes out. Where does the moon go? Where does the

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sun go? After the six months? The sun just goes

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on holiday meanwhile, and go somewhere hot with it. But

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what we're I mean the moon, what happens to the moon?

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So can you literally during the night, where does the

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sun go for six months? That's strange, isn't it? Unless

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it's literally because of the mountains are so maybe it's

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because of the mountains. They're so big that the sun

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can't penetrate them. That's a problem. The sun's been trying

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to penetrate the mountains for years, but he can't. Perhaps

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they just don't get on examples by country. So let's

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have a look. Here's a complete that's what I'm using

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chat GPT. Right, there's a huge list, almost two hundred countries.

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But I can actually absolutely absolutely create it for you.

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List all countries alphabetically with their shortest the longest day lengths. M.

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It's not given it to me. It's just given me

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loads and loads of countries. Yes, I'm going to see

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if they can do that. Yes, please, because this offered

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me maybe to tell me ones that they can give

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me the shortest and longest days. But before that has

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given me a list of some So Ecuador longest days

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twelve hours seven minutes. So that's Ecuador, Kenya near equator equator.

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I keep no Ecuador, yeah, near equator, Kenya, Keny is

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near the equator. Okay, I didn't know that. Longest day

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twelve hours seven minutes. Shortest day eleven hours fifty three minutes.

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So they have long days. It's basically like pretty much

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twelve twelve, isn't it. Twelve hours of dark, twelve hours

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of sun kind of all year round, with a few

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minutes in between.

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Literally, I mean.

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That's seven minutes either way. So wow, it is fourteen minutes.

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So there can be fourteen minutes difference in the entire

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year between the longest day and the shortest day.

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That's absolutely.

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And then you've got UK London, so oh, it's going

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to give me the actual date.

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That's nice.

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Around June twenty first, London. The longest day is sixteen

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hours forty minutes. The shortest day around the twenty first

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of December.

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I thought it was.

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Around December time, seven hours fifty minutes. The good thing

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about the shortest day is knowing that every single day

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afterwards the day is going to get longer. And I

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don't know, just there's something quite nice about that. I mean,

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it takes a while, it does. But you know, there

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was a time when I'd be up till four in

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the morning, sometimes eight in the morning.

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I'd be awake all night for.

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Years and years and years. And what I noticed in

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the summer, like well, in the spring rather really, so

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when you forget get.

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To like March.

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April kind of those kind of months. It's light so

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early in the morning and it really gets early quick.

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It's like the time seems to just I don't know.

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It's it's quite nice and.

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The birds are up and singing, and you know you

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can look out and see them having a shower, brushing

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their teeth, you know, tucking into their corn flakes they did,

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They all really getting ready. Okay, they're worring flakes. New

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York longest day is fifteen hours, shortest days nine hours.

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So so far the UK has got the shortest day

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out of anyone. Also the longest day, oh no, yeah,

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just by ten minutes. Austraia longest day December twenty first,

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it's the summer solstice fourteen hours twenty minutes, so it's

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not as long as we have.

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Well, so we're doing all right, and we.

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Really shortest days June twenty first, nine hours fifty minutes.

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So it's literally the exact opposite of us in the UK.

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In Australia it's like the mirror image sixteen out or

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the opposite image. Rather, that's not really a mirror image,

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is it. But then if you look at a mirror,

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it's back to front, isn't it.

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People use the word in.

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The mirriage, in the mirriage mirror image in the wrong way,

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don't they really? I think when I say it was

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like looking at someone's like a mirror image, which technically

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if someone looks right like you and you're facing them,

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and if they were your doppel ganger or whatever, or

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your twin, then that would be like looking in the mirror,

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and that'd be an imm mirriage.

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I can't say that.

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My words all back to front these days, so an

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IMMI mirriage. And but at the same time, it's also

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back to front, isn't it, So it's not really a

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mirror image.

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I wonder where imma merriage came from.

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Way you think words sentences would be quite easy for me,

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wouldn't you really?

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Considering an amount of.

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Talking I've done over the years. That's got to be weird.

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How do people in Australia get used to it being

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warm in the winter? How do you get used to that?

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Could you imagine like it's warm in the winter. But

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you know what Australia do. They do it wrong. They

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they do it back to front.

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They say, oh, the summertime is their winter.

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No, it's still summer. It's just you're getting bad weather. December, November, December, January,

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February or whatever or January. That's winter still. Just because

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you're getting nice weather, it's still winter. Don't call it summer.

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You got it wrong. Canada longest day sixteen hours thirty minutes.

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Shortest day seven hours thirty minutes. So we're still ahead.

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Looks like we're still ahead. The UK is still ahead.

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For the longest day we so far have all these countries. Nope,

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just got to Iceland. Iceland. Wow, longest day twenty one

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hours daylight. Shortest day three to four hours daylight. But

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then if you look at the UK, where are we?

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Okay seven hours fifteen minutes eight so it's double but.

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Okay, fair enough.

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We don't have the shortest day, but Iceland do three

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to four hours. So literally, what time does it get

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light in Iceland?

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That's gotta be.

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Really weird just.

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To think that you've got to get you pretty much

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got to get everything done.

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So if you live in Iceland, maybe let us know,

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do you, I mean, do the shops open outside of

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those four hours.

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Or does everything open and close? Because there's a lot

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of polar bears and stuff around.

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Isn't there.

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In Iceland? I don't know. I might be was that

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Denmark or was that Greenland? Or I'm sure it's polar

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bears somewhere walking around. I don't mean like walking around

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doing their shopping, but walking around, not like fully clothed

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and gossiping about each other. But you know there's polar bears.

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But then twenty one hours daylight sometimes, So how does

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that regulate mood? And how does that How does that

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affect sleep? Because I'm just going back to.

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Where is it Ecuador? Not Ecuador?

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The are right the poles to the north pole South pole,

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one continuous six month day and one continue a six

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month night. So how does that affect people's sleeping habits?

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I mean, technically, I suppose if you're born there, you're

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acclimatized and you don't know any different. But I don't know,

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because I thought that the moon, the lunar kind of

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sequence and stuff had an effect. And that's as much

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as I know. I suppose you just got to get

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thick curtains, aren't you. Well though I can sleep in daylight,

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never used to be able to.

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But I can now.

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I can just go to bed in the middle of summer,

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you know, eleven o'clock in the morning or two in

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the afternoon, and I can go to sleep.

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Just not like full eight hours sleep, but I have

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a nap and fall asleep.

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Fine, as long as Vinnie don't bark. Nothing else really

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bothers me, and I can have the curtains open, windows open.

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It's fine. I don't need it to be dark anymore.

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But there was a time back in nineteen ninety one, No,

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nineteen ninety I had this part time No, I had

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a full time job. I had two jobs, actually, but

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I moved away from London in review. I think it

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was March nineteen ninety it might be in February, it's

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around that time. And then I got a job I

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was going back to doing. By the way, unless you

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in case you wondered what the sound is in the background,

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it's Vinny chewing on one of his bony things.

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Okay, so.

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I I still remember that conversation. It's weird because where

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I was living there was a phone at the bottom

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of the stairs, I think, and it was a payphone.

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So I phoned up my Actually I don't know if

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I phoned them up. Well, they phoned me up, but

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basically to let me know that there was a job.

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If I wanted it, I might have just phoned them

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up just to see how they are. And this person

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I used to work with, and they said, oh, there's

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a job Jeff has taken on. People are going to

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do canvasing. And he was the body. He's no longer

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with us, but he was sort of in charge of

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the canvassin for double glazing, because that's what I was

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doing in eighty nine nineteen eighty nine, and then lost

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that job because the company, the main company we were

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working for, decided to invest their money in advertising on

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radio instead of canvassing. But then and that was kind

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of late summer, end of the summer, sort of autumn

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time in nineteen eighty nine, and then nineteen ninety the

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same man had found another company to work for, maybe

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more than one actually, and we went out between I

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think about four o'clock in the afternoon until about eight.

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It was four hours work and I think it was

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like one hundred and twenty pound a week, so, which

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is pretty good back then.

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So I was told there's a job if you want it.

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So I called up Jeff and he said, yeah, if

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you can get back here. We can start Monday. And

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so I.

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Phoned my dad up and told him, and my dad said, well,

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you can move in here for a little while, you

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can stay here for a little while.

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So I did. I packed my bags.

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Didn't have much stuff literally, just probably a couple of

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black bags of stuff, bin bags and stuff, and then

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got on the train, came back or went back to

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my dad's, and.

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I started working at this doing the canvassing. And then

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I started thinking, hmmm, it's not really.

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I mean, it was more than what I was learning before.

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I was earning less than one hundred pound a week

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before during that period, but one hundred and twenty poundst

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wasn't like lots of money, but it was still, you know,

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twenty quid more than a while I was getting. But

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I wanted to. I was looking maybe get a job,

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like a proper job, and I applied to go and

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work at this meta factory that I'd already worked at

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twice before, so I knew people at work there, I

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knew some supervisors, and I kind of I didn't work

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my way back, but I managed to get a job

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interview and they took me on. But this time it

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was night shift, which is what I wanted because then

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I could continue to do the canvassing job, not really

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thinking too much about how much work that would be.

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It's a heck, you know, it's a long day. So

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I was starting work at ten in the evening and

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then I was finishing at six in the morning. I was, yeah,

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then I did. I'd go to bed, be in bed

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by seven, and i'd be up by two and i'd

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start working four, finish at eight. I'd normally get dropped

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off at home so I wouldn't have to travel, and

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then i'd get ready, maybe pasig to eat, and then

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just had to work.

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So that's what my week was.

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Like for.

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I don't know a couple of months until I just

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it was too much. It was It's a shame because

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I think I was doing Saturday mornings as well in

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the canvasing a lot extra overtime and when they needed me,

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so it was a little bit too much. In retrospect,

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I kind of wish i'd just stuck at it and

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saved some money, which I didn't because since I started

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doing some money, I decided that I wanted to move

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back to London and do stand up comedy, and instead

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of saving money, which is what I would need to

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do that. I every time I got paid, I would

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go to London and I would buy comedy albums and

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comedy videos. I suppose in a way trying to learn

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the craft.

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Without doing it.

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You know, maybe if I could learn something from watching

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the greats performing and I didn't. I learned nothing, but

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that kind of became my hobby. So I didn't save

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a penny.

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However, I think it was.

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December time I did sell my entire collection of comedy

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stuff for about two hundred and fifty pound and I

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had loads of albums, tapes, video tapes, a lot, you know,

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lots of stuff. So I sold it all for two

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hundred and fifty and that did help me to move

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back to London. So it kind of worked, but it did.

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I mean, there was probably thousands of pounds worth of

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stuff there, but never mind, and i'd sort of the

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blokes that bought this stuff was a He did stand

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up comedy, but as a like for charity, so he

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was a policeman but at the charity gear. He did

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charity gigs where he did stand up and he just

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wanted the albums just to get new jokes for his

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stand up show.

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So yeah, it all worked out. I think he was

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a friend of my dad.

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Actually, unless my dad just gave him money. So just

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I don't care how much it costs, just pay him

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what he wants so that it'll move away. That might

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be like he wanted to move to London.

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Just come on.

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The whole of the town got together and put a

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pound in each. There was more than two hundred and

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fifty people living in that town. But you know, you

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get the idea. Everyone wanted me out. They are, they are,

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But then I remember I'm staying at my dad's. This

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was quite good, Like this was the best time that

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we kind of lived together because.

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During the week he was at home.

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During the week, I was at work like nearly all

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the time every night, so literally he'd get home, he

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go to worker with sometimes cross swords, cross swords. Sometimes

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i'd see him in the morning. I'd be having my

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breakfast when he was getting up, and then I'd be

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going to bed. So sometimes I see him before he

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went to book to work, and i'd be gone before

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he got home. I might see him briefly for a

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few minutes at eight o'clock when I got back. But

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you know, that was kind of sometimes, and then he

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spent most of his weekends at his girlfriend's who ended

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up being his wife. So it was quite a good situation.

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We didn't really sort of annoy each other too much. Yeah,

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so that was quite cool. So it was nice, especially

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at the weekend. I kind of had the house to myself.

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Not that I needed the whole house, but it was

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just nice to have the TV in the living room

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and instead of my black and white TV upstairs, which

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I could have got myself a color TV. I didn't

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I could have done unless I did. Maybe I did

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have a colored TV, because I'm thinking, you know, if

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I had, because I've got this. Yeah, this is a thing.

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When I lived in nineteen eighty nine, I lived in

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a house, like in a room in a house, and.

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I watched.

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Eddie Murphy's Delirious on videotape, which meant I must have

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had a video recorder. There's no way I would have

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a video recorder with a black and white TV. That

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doesn't make sense. So I must have had a TV

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unless there was just one in a room that I

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was renting as possible. It is possible, but I rented

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that Delirious out from the video shop or borrowed it someone.

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I can't really remember. It's a long time ago now,

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I suppose.

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I do remember the turning up for the job interview,

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and if nothing else, I was kind of having to

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explain why I had.

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Worked there twice already in the meter the meta factory,

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not meat but met like electric meters factory, and why

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I had left twice without even telling them. I just

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I had a habit of not telling people when I left.

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And because I've had like fifty odd jobs or something, so.

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I think I had one. I had three jobs in

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one week once. I think this is not nineteen eighty eight.

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So what I did is I told the lady who

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was interviewing me the story of me going to Spain

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for the afternoon, and she found it so hilarious that

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she just gave me the job. I don't think she

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felt sorry for me, but I just you know the facts.

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I got ripped off by a taxi driver and I

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was left with no money and I just couldn't just

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had to come back, had no choice. And she I

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don't know, however, whatever it was the way I told

463
00:37:37.239 --> 00:37:40.480
her the story, she found it very funny. I don't

464
00:37:40.519 --> 00:37:44.719
quite know what I said, but she found it humorous.

465
00:37:46.480 --> 00:37:50.639
And if I remember, she was almost crying. I don't

466
00:37:50.679 --> 00:37:53.800
know if it's because she was crying from boredom or

467
00:37:54.079 --> 00:37:55.960
I mean she was sitting there. Maybe she had piles.

468
00:37:56.000 --> 00:37:58.679
I don't know, but she just.

469
00:38:00.039 --> 00:38:01.960
Could have been hemorrhoid and induced tears.

470
00:38:02.320 --> 00:38:03.119
But she.

471
00:38:03.480 --> 00:38:10.719
Yeah, she gave me the job and I started working.

472
00:38:11.039 --> 00:38:13.400
I had to be trained, so I think I had

473
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:16.639
a week of days. So I wasn't able to do

474
00:38:16.679 --> 00:38:23.039
the canvasin or was I I worked nine till five.

475
00:38:23.679 --> 00:38:28.320
Maybe I was able to maybe they I don't know.

476
00:38:29.280 --> 00:38:34.159
I think I had to have a week off. But

477
00:38:34.280 --> 00:38:41.559
a problem I had at that time was I'd be

478
00:38:41.639 --> 00:38:47.599
going to sleep at seven in the morning, and because

479
00:38:47.599 --> 00:38:48.360
i'd get home.

480
00:38:48.280 --> 00:38:51.159
Probably i'd probably get home.

481
00:38:51.079 --> 00:38:54.639
About half six, have started to eat and then go

482
00:38:54.679 --> 00:38:59.039
to bed. So maybe it was half past seven, just

483
00:38:59.079 --> 00:39:01.360
trying to think for me to go to bed after eating,

484
00:39:02.440 --> 00:39:09.639
who knows. But really I struggled a little bit because

485
00:39:09.679 --> 00:39:15.519
of the light coming in. And I think my dad

486
00:39:15.559 --> 00:39:19.519
puts some extra thick curtains up, and.

487
00:39:21.079 --> 00:39:25.039
He he made it.

488
00:39:25.280 --> 00:39:27.079
He put these curtains up, but it was like he

489
00:39:27.159 --> 00:39:31.360
made it from a big sign. So he pushed them over,

490
00:39:31.440 --> 00:39:32.599
so I had to put them over the thing.

491
00:39:32.639 --> 00:39:33.039
But it's this.

492
00:39:33.159 --> 00:39:42.480
Big like like fabricated sign like stitched to it as well.

493
00:39:43.239 --> 00:39:46.119
So when the curtains are open or closed rather, and

494
00:39:46.159 --> 00:39:49.280
it was covering the whole window, it was completely black,

495
00:39:49.400 --> 00:39:53.519
but we could see a luminous as please leave. So

496
00:39:54.239 --> 00:39:58.920
I'm not quite sure what that was about, please move out.

497
00:39:59.000 --> 00:40:05.079
And I got used to it after a while. The

498
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:09.880
hardest bit was the weekends really, because I'd be finishing

499
00:40:10.159 --> 00:40:14.159
at six on a Friday and I wouldn't be going

500
00:40:14.199 --> 00:40:17.320
back till ten on a Monday in the evening on

501
00:40:17.320 --> 00:40:22.880
a Monday, so you could say, technically I had three

502
00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:26.960
days off every week. I didn't, but I kind of did.

503
00:40:27.199 --> 00:40:34.880
I had all day Friday, all day Saturday, no Monday night,

504
00:40:34.960 --> 00:40:39.280
Tuesday night, Wednesday night, Thursday, no Friday night, so Saturday Sunday,

505
00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:42.199
we'll talk about two days.

506
00:40:42.320 --> 00:40:46.480
What was I saying three days? I know, three days.

507
00:40:46.239 --> 00:40:48.800
Because then you got the whole of Monday. So yeah,

508
00:40:48.840 --> 00:40:54.320
technically three days off. Bit's not you know, three whole days,

509
00:40:56.639 --> 00:41:02.800
but it's you know, I kind of wasn't sure what

510
00:41:02.960 --> 00:41:05.000
to do. I mean when I first started, I thought,

511
00:41:05.039 --> 00:41:08.440
now I'm just go to bed, go to bed like normal,

512
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:18.519
wake up at two or three in the afternoon, and then.

513
00:41:17.920 --> 00:41:21.159
Go back to bed. Maybe try and try and just

514
00:41:21.559 --> 00:41:25.559
have the normal sleep patterns and wake pattern as I

515
00:41:25.599 --> 00:41:31.000
normally do, you know, like night shift. And that was

516
00:41:31.000 --> 00:41:31.679
a little bit.

517
00:41:31.559 --> 00:41:35.800
Hard because you know, back then, there was no night

518
00:41:35.880 --> 00:41:39.599
television really to speak of. There was a few bits

519
00:41:39.639 --> 00:41:41.440
and bobs on at night, but there wasn't a lot

520
00:41:41.519 --> 00:41:47.599
going on. There wasn't really anything to do or anywhere

521
00:41:47.639 --> 00:41:50.800
to go. Unlike when I moved to London, there was

522
00:41:51.119 --> 00:41:53.559
always stuff to do, you know, providing I could afford

523
00:41:53.599 --> 00:41:58.079
to get there and afford a bottle of coke or

524
00:41:58.119 --> 00:42:02.360
whatever while I was there an entrance fee, I could

525
00:42:02.400 --> 00:42:06.760
just there's always somewhere like in the West End or

526
00:42:07.119 --> 00:42:07.960
somewhere like that.

527
00:42:11.320 --> 00:42:14.760
But where I was living at the time, there was

528
00:42:14.800 --> 00:42:15.519
nothing there.

529
00:42:15.920 --> 00:42:18.840
There was, it was something. It's a nice little town,

530
00:42:18.880 --> 00:42:23.480
but there was nothing to do really other than maybe

531
00:42:23.559 --> 00:42:26.920
going into pubs and stuff. And that's at the time

532
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:29.719
that really wasn't me. I wasn't really a pubby person.

533
00:42:31.000 --> 00:42:33.760
I'm still not really, but.

534
00:42:35.320 --> 00:42:40.559
I definitely wasn't then. I didn't like pubs. I liked

535
00:42:40.559 --> 00:42:44.719
pubs when I was sixteen. But I didn't as well.

536
00:42:45.039 --> 00:42:47.079
I just liked it because I wasn't supposed to be.

537
00:42:47.000 --> 00:42:51.440
In there, but it wasn't.

538
00:42:51.559 --> 00:42:52.679
Yeah, I never really.

539
00:42:54.760 --> 00:42:56.559
Never really got the point of it. I never really

540
00:42:56.559 --> 00:42:59.679
saw the point of pubs.

541
00:43:02.239 --> 00:43:03.960
I can see the point of them in the past,

542
00:43:04.079 --> 00:43:06.639
you know, with a community getting together, and.

543
00:43:11.960 --> 00:43:13.239
But I didn't.

544
00:43:13.400 --> 00:43:15.800
I was never really part of any kind of community,

545
00:43:17.639 --> 00:43:20.519
as in like lots and lots of different people or

546
00:43:20.559 --> 00:43:23.440
living together in a in a room, not in a

547
00:43:23.519 --> 00:43:26.880
room in a road. Rather, I suppose I lived in

548
00:43:27.199 --> 00:43:30.599
houses where there was like a community of people living

549
00:43:31.119 --> 00:43:35.239
not together but separately but kind of get to know

550
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:39.840
them a bit. But that going into a pub and

551
00:43:40.719 --> 00:43:45.000
saying a load to your calm mechanic or the person

552
00:43:45.039 --> 00:43:48.239
who delivers your milk or your post or the local

553
00:43:48.280 --> 00:43:49.519
electrician or.

554
00:43:51.840 --> 00:43:53.159
Never really kind of had that.

555
00:43:54.960 --> 00:43:58.320
I suppose the only closest thing I got was maybe

556
00:43:58.480 --> 00:44:03.079
seeing people that I worked with. That would be probably

557
00:44:03.159 --> 00:44:07.320
the closest thing. And even when I moved to London.

558
00:44:08.159 --> 00:44:12.079
Really I would say the only time I went to

559
00:44:12.119 --> 00:44:16.039
a pub is were people that I worked with, outside

560
00:44:16.039 --> 00:44:19.880
of when I was going to comedy clubs or when

561
00:44:19.920 --> 00:44:22.199
I was dating if I dated someone.

562
00:44:21.960 --> 00:44:34.199
And would go to a pub. But became accustomed to

563
00:44:34.239 --> 00:44:39.800
being able to sleep during the day. And it wasn't

564
00:44:39.840 --> 00:44:41.800
the last time I did night shift either. So I

565
00:44:41.840 --> 00:44:48.320
did night shift in nineteen ninety. I finished I think

566
00:44:48.440 --> 00:44:53.880
October nineteen ninety because what they did is they got

567
00:44:53.960 --> 00:44:57.920
rid of the night shift and they moved me onto

568
00:44:58.280 --> 00:45:02.320
a double shift of one week being six in the

569
00:45:02.320 --> 00:45:05.239
morning till two at night six in the morning til

570
00:45:05.239 --> 00:45:08.880
two in the afternoon other and then they'd following week

571
00:45:09.360 --> 00:45:13.000
two in the afternoon until ten at night. And I said,

572
00:45:13.000 --> 00:45:16.599
I don't want to do that, and they said, that's

573
00:45:16.639 --> 00:45:18.519
your new hours. I said, but I don't want to

574
00:45:18.559 --> 00:45:22.000
do it. And they were also making Peter redundant as well,

575
00:45:26.039 --> 00:45:29.760
and I just I wasn't pleased. I wasn't happy with it.

576
00:45:29.800 --> 00:45:33.840
So I left, just didn't go in because I only

577
00:45:33.880 --> 00:45:36.920
took the job on because it was night shift. I

578
00:45:37.000 --> 00:45:40.199
never liked the double shifts. I did that two previous

579
00:45:40.239 --> 00:45:43.519
times I worked there. Didn't like it because it's hard

580
00:45:43.559 --> 00:45:50.519
to get really, I've found it was hard to get

581
00:45:50.599 --> 00:45:54.760
into any kind of routine. If the hours are the

582
00:45:54.800 --> 00:46:01.239
same every day, then it's a routine that I can

583
00:46:01.280 --> 00:46:02.079
get my head around.

584
00:46:03.760 --> 00:46:06.360
I mean, what are you doing any there? He goes,

585
00:46:06.400 --> 00:46:12.800
you're dinner there? Do you want to hear?

586
00:46:14.239 --> 00:46:14.679
What is it?

587
00:46:15.320 --> 00:46:16.880
He's standing on the side of the.

588
00:46:17.159 --> 00:46:20.480
Of the settee looking at me.

589
00:46:20.719 --> 00:46:21.599
He doesn't really do that.

590
00:46:21.639 --> 00:46:24.480
He's on the armist but on this side of where

591
00:46:24.480 --> 00:46:25.039
I don't sit.

592
00:46:25.440 --> 00:46:28.760
You want to get on my lap? You want to

593
00:46:28.760 --> 00:46:34.280
go on my lap? Come on, that's all right. One

594
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:35.199
of the problems he.

595
00:46:35.159 --> 00:46:42.960
Has he loves to cuddle, but he doesn't like cuddling,

596
00:46:44.920 --> 00:46:47.400
which is a weird one and it's hard to explain.

597
00:46:47.639 --> 00:46:48.639
Is like.

598
00:46:50.360 --> 00:46:54.480
If he is like he's he doesn't know whether to

599
00:46:54.559 --> 00:46:57.360
do it or not. So if I had to pick

600
00:46:57.440 --> 00:47:03.039
him up, he'll run away. But actually what he really wants.

601
00:47:03.239 --> 00:47:05.079
Is probably to lay on my lap.

602
00:47:07.760 --> 00:47:10.000
And he looked like he was trying to get onto

603
00:47:10.000 --> 00:47:12.920
my lap from over there, but as soon as I

604
00:47:12.960 --> 00:47:15.519
went to reach out to help him, he ran off,

605
00:47:15.639 --> 00:47:16.480
jumped off the chair.

606
00:47:18.320 --> 00:47:18.760
Don't you.

607
00:47:22.000 --> 00:47:24.800
Whether it's just that he wants attention and I wasn't

608
00:47:24.840 --> 00:47:28.360
giving it to him. Hey, you get my attention now,

609
00:47:28.360 --> 00:47:31.920
aren't you. You definitely get my attention when you bark.

610
00:47:33.840 --> 00:47:35.639
That's not the kind of attention you want though.

611
00:47:35.519 --> 00:47:35.840
Is it?

612
00:47:36.800 --> 00:47:39.599
No, No, it's not.

613
00:47:42.559 --> 00:47:45.320
He's been a little bit more affectionate these days to me.

614
00:47:48.079 --> 00:47:54.159
Maybe he's he's just succumbed to the idea that he's

615
00:47:54.159 --> 00:47:54.800
stuck with me.

616
00:47:56.519 --> 00:47:57.480
Perhaps that's what it is.

617
00:47:57.519 --> 00:48:00.800
Maybe all his dreams have just faded and he's given

618
00:48:00.920 --> 00:48:04.719
up the hope of getting out of here, and he's

619
00:48:04.800 --> 00:48:06.039
just accepted.

620
00:48:05.519 --> 00:48:10.280
His fate, that he's stuck with his old man. Is

621
00:48:10.280 --> 00:48:14.360
that what it is? Then, if you just accepted your fate.

622
00:48:18.199 --> 00:48:19.920
He doesn't have it too bad, he can't.

623
00:48:20.000 --> 00:48:23.199
I mean, he gets out at least three times a day.

624
00:48:23.480 --> 00:48:27.880
I mean, it sounds like a prison, isn't it. Like

625
00:48:28.400 --> 00:48:35.159
he's released, he has exercise three times a day.

626
00:48:36.880 --> 00:48:38.639
I think he has okay. I don't know.

627
00:48:39.679 --> 00:48:42.840
It's hard to tell, isn't it. But he seems it

628
00:48:42.920 --> 00:48:50.599
seems okay. He seems fairly fairly content, all right. So

629
00:48:50.840 --> 00:48:55.400
I've had night shift jobs. So I had the one

630
00:48:56.840 --> 00:49:00.360
at the factory making meters, but.

631
00:49:00.360 --> 00:49:03.639
I was doing a different job this time. I was actually.

632
00:49:04.840 --> 00:49:07.079
Instead of packing the meters, which is what I did

633
00:49:07.079 --> 00:49:11.679
the last two previous times I worked there, I was

634
00:49:12.400 --> 00:49:23.280
doing more meter work, as in testing meters, putting meters together,

635
00:49:23.639 --> 00:49:29.039
you know, building them, taking them apart, fixing and stuff

636
00:49:29.039 --> 00:49:31.800
like that. So there's a lot more technical stuff and

637
00:49:31.800 --> 00:49:34.719
it's a lot more interesting as well. But then sometimes

638
00:49:34.719 --> 00:49:37.079
I'd be on the conveyor belt where all I was

639
00:49:37.119 --> 00:49:41.480
doing was just putting a screw in. You know, there's

640
00:49:41.519 --> 00:49:45.480
the conveyor belt would be huge. It's start off with

641
00:49:45.639 --> 00:49:49.000
like an empty case, and then by the end of

642
00:49:49.000 --> 00:49:52.079
it there'd be a meter, you know, a complete met

643
00:49:52.079 --> 00:49:57.760
I put together. Now, I'm pretty sure that that wouldn't

644
00:49:57.760 --> 00:50:00.039
be done by hand anymore, probably hasn't been.

645
00:50:00.199 --> 00:50:01.159
For a long time.

646
00:50:02.639 --> 00:50:09.800
But it was weird because at the time. So when

647
00:50:09.840 --> 00:50:15.000
I'm moved and because I've lived around a lot, every

648
00:50:15.039 --> 00:50:18.199
time I saw electric meter, I look at it and

649
00:50:18.199 --> 00:50:19.880
think that could have been one of the ones that

650
00:50:19.920 --> 00:50:24.079
I touched. You could argue, well, I just touch it

651
00:50:24.119 --> 00:50:26.159
now and then you know it is, But no, I

652
00:50:26.199 --> 00:50:29.239
mean it's something nice. I suppose you know, if you

653
00:50:29.280 --> 00:50:32.639
make toilet seats and you visit someone and you sit

654
00:50:32.719 --> 00:50:34.880
down the toilet seat, instead of thinking about all the

655
00:50:34.880 --> 00:50:36.840
different people who have sat down on that toilet seat

656
00:50:36.880 --> 00:50:38.480
doing poos, you can.

657
00:50:38.320 --> 00:50:45.360
Think, oh, I might have helped make that seat when

658
00:50:45.400 --> 00:50:45.960
it was clean.

659
00:50:49.840 --> 00:50:52.159
It's I don't know, it's just I kind of looked

660
00:50:52.199 --> 00:50:58.480
at the meters and thinking, ah, because you imagine I

661
00:50:58.519 --> 00:51:03.199
saw thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands of these

662
00:51:03.239 --> 00:51:07.880
electric meters. They were all black. They all looked the same.

663
00:51:09.320 --> 00:51:14.000
And I've seen loads of them since no open back

664
00:51:14.039 --> 00:51:19.000
in the past. Not so much recently, but it used

665
00:51:19.039 --> 00:51:23.800
to have. They used to have their little logo on

666
00:51:23.840 --> 00:51:25.760
it and stuff. But I think they were the main

667
00:51:26.480 --> 00:51:32.880
provider of electric meters in Europe. Maybe not the world,

668
00:51:32.960 --> 00:51:37.199
but in Europe, and they had more than one factory,

669
00:51:37.719 --> 00:51:40.480
but they were big. That was pretty much the main

670
00:51:40.800 --> 00:51:45.519
place to get employment in that town outside of the docks.

671
00:51:46.639 --> 00:51:51.480
Sod. It was the I think it was the biggest

672
00:51:52.519 --> 00:51:54.079
poor in Europe for a while.

673
00:51:55.800 --> 00:51:58.599
So, you know, it's sort of it was doing quite

674
00:51:58.599 --> 00:52:02.800
well well. Maybe this second maybe Dover was up, you know,

675
00:52:02.960 --> 00:52:08.880
higher up, but it is at loads and loads of

676
00:52:08.960 --> 00:52:13.400
jobs from trawling, you know, trawlling the seas.

677
00:52:13.079 --> 00:52:13.920
And stuff or whatever.

678
00:52:14.039 --> 00:52:16.519
And I think, what do they do They take the

679
00:52:16.559 --> 00:52:25.119
ships out to the sea they called trawlers. Two working

680
00:52:25.239 --> 00:52:32.760
in the export agencies. Two I mean I worked on

681
00:52:32.840 --> 00:52:46.840
the docks one one, two, three, four, at least four times.

682
00:52:47.639 --> 00:52:51.000
Three of those times were for cleaning jobs and the

683
00:52:51.119 --> 00:52:52.039
other time.

684
00:52:52.320 --> 00:53:00.800
Was in a what was it, Oh, it was a.

685
00:53:00.800 --> 00:53:07.280
Holage company for chemicals, so liquid chemicals and these big

686
00:53:07.360 --> 00:53:11.360
tankers would that that was what my job was working

687
00:53:11.400 --> 00:53:14.599
in the office.

688
00:53:18.159 --> 00:53:18.920
I remember that.

689
00:53:19.039 --> 00:53:21.880
I remember because I had a lot well, I knew

690
00:53:21.960 --> 00:53:24.960
quite a few people that worked on the docks, because

691
00:53:24.960 --> 00:53:28.079
that was the main place really to get jobs outside

692
00:53:28.079 --> 00:53:34.519
of retail or in the factory, unless you was I

693
00:53:34.519 --> 00:53:39.920
suppose delivering post or milk or a builder or you know,

694
00:53:40.039 --> 00:53:41.559
just the other kind of things.

695
00:53:42.039 --> 00:53:43.039
But as far as.

696
00:53:44.519 --> 00:53:49.000
Condensed jobs, like lots of jobs in one place, they

697
00:53:49.039 --> 00:53:51.559
were the two main ones.

698
00:53:52.800 --> 00:53:53.599
In that town.

699
00:53:54.440 --> 00:53:56.360
But then if you go to the next town, there

700
00:53:56.440 --> 00:54:03.639
was a sugar factory and so that employed huge amounts

701
00:54:03.679 --> 00:54:05.599
of people.

702
00:54:06.679 --> 00:54:08.239
I'm not sure what else they had there.

703
00:54:08.599 --> 00:54:11.880
It turned in to be in the pretty much the

704
00:54:11.960 --> 00:54:16.960
capital of insurance, like nearly every insurance company was held

705
00:54:17.000 --> 00:54:20.840
there as well. In the ninety in the two thousands,

706
00:54:20.920 --> 00:54:25.239
I made like so many different companies in one place.

707
00:54:26.639 --> 00:54:34.320
So yeah, I worked in two and in both those

708
00:54:34.320 --> 00:54:43.679
companies I I actually worked with, I think I had three,

709
00:54:44.280 --> 00:54:49.519
possibly three or four people came in from the previous company.

710
00:54:50.599 --> 00:54:58.039
One was already there, so Jody he I remember Jody

711
00:54:58.199 --> 00:55:00.840
like he was the number one sells per in Churchill.

712
00:55:01.159 --> 00:55:03.840
When I worked at Churchill, I was kind of number two.

713
00:55:05.320 --> 00:55:07.599
Sometimes Jersey was number two, but that was rare.

714
00:55:07.800 --> 00:55:16.079
He was overall number one, and I didn't.

715
00:55:15.840 --> 00:55:17.800
Really I did not talk to him, but I didn't

716
00:55:17.840 --> 00:55:19.719
really kind of get to know him because he was

717
00:55:19.760 --> 00:55:24.239
in a different team to me and we didn't really

718
00:55:24.280 --> 00:55:27.320
have an opportunity to just wander around and talk to

719
00:55:27.360 --> 00:55:32.119
each other, and you know, so I didn't really I

720
00:55:32.199 --> 00:55:33.440
knew him to sort of saylo to.

721
00:55:34.159 --> 00:55:38.000
And he knew me because we were on.

722
00:55:37.880 --> 00:55:41.039
The leaderboard and you know, on the wall, so everyone

723
00:55:41.079 --> 00:55:45.960
kind of knew who we were. And he'd been there

724
00:55:46.000 --> 00:55:50.960
for a long time, I think. So he left and

725
00:55:51.000 --> 00:55:54.000
I didn't see him for probably a couple of years,

726
00:55:55.119 --> 00:56:01.159
maybe a year. And this is in two thousand and

727
00:56:01.239 --> 00:56:07.800
I'm working in the It's like a gift shop, a

728
00:56:07.840 --> 00:56:17.239
Buddhist gift shop, selling some nice stuff, some absolute just yeah,

729
00:56:18.000 --> 00:56:21.320
it depends on what you like. But there was incest

730
00:56:22.199 --> 00:56:22.840
you could buy.

731
00:56:23.039 --> 00:56:23.480
There was.

732
00:56:25.920 --> 00:56:30.320
Ornaments, cushions, curtains.

733
00:56:32.159 --> 00:56:34.119
I did have. I mean I can't remember. They had

734
00:56:34.159 --> 00:56:36.199
like these hairy curtains that you could buy.

735
00:56:36.960 --> 00:56:40.679
It's like, wow, it's really weird.

736
00:56:42.079 --> 00:56:42.800
I remember this.

737
00:56:42.719 --> 00:56:46.360
One time because I worked in the same shop in

738
00:56:46.400 --> 00:56:52.000
a different town when I was doing my degree, and

739
00:56:51.119 --> 00:56:53.800
the manager at the shop.

740
00:56:56.079 --> 00:57:03.480
It's spent about five hours putting together this curtain display

741
00:57:05.079 --> 00:57:07.400
like really put a lot of energy into it in time.

742
00:57:09.440 --> 00:57:11.199
And he said, what do you think. I said, I

743
00:57:11.199 --> 00:57:16.639
think it's lovely. However, he said, what do you mean? However,

744
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:21.960
I said, you put it right in front of the

745
00:57:22.000 --> 00:57:29.559
fire exit, and he said, so, now, what go to

746
00:57:29.639 --> 00:57:34.760
explain is what I noticed with some of my Buddhist friends.

747
00:57:35.480 --> 00:57:37.159
It wasn't that they didn't care.

748
00:57:38.599 --> 00:57:44.840
About stuff like that. They were so focused on the

749
00:57:44.920 --> 00:57:54.719
moment that he just didn't really have I would in

750
00:57:54.760 --> 00:57:59.079
some ways, I'm a bit too prepared for things like that.

751
00:58:02.079 --> 00:58:04.840
Hopefully nothing like that happens, but I'm kind of if

752
00:58:04.880 --> 00:58:08.519
I get on a ship, I know where the lifeboats

753
00:58:08.559 --> 00:58:13.360
are and you know, I'm ready. I've got a dress.

754
00:58:13.880 --> 00:58:16.920
I walk around with a full dress underneath my clothes

755
00:58:17.480 --> 00:58:20.320
in case they go, you know, like only women and children.

756
00:58:20.679 --> 00:58:21.320
I'm on there.

757
00:58:23.199 --> 00:58:25.119
None of that stuff I'm getting out of there.

758
00:58:26.519 --> 00:58:28.519
I'm soon going to stand there because I've got a

759
00:58:28.559 --> 00:58:31.239
WILLI No, you don't get to go on a ship

760
00:58:31.280 --> 00:58:33.519
because you've got a WILLI No, it doesn't work like that.

761
00:58:33.679 --> 00:58:41.679
Sorry. In fact, on the Titanic, I can't believe it.

762
00:58:41.719 --> 00:58:42.119
I just.

763
00:58:43.920 --> 00:58:47.840
I understand children that get I understand that. Well, you

764
00:58:47.840 --> 00:58:51.039
go against women, then they are you asgginest?

765
00:58:52.079 --> 00:58:53.079
Are you sexist?

766
00:58:53.880 --> 00:58:56.840
Well, sometimes when I brush my hair and have a bath,

767
00:58:57.719 --> 00:59:01.480
I would say that I'm pretty sexist sometimes get attention.

768
00:59:02.840 --> 00:59:04.159
No, that's not what it means.

769
00:59:05.599 --> 00:59:16.440
So I I like to be fairly prepared. And when

770
00:59:16.519 --> 00:59:18.840
I said that to him, he's like, oh, it's all right,

771
00:59:19.000 --> 00:59:23.639
done matter and he went upstairs, and I thought, it

772
00:59:23.679 --> 00:59:29.280
does matter. But at the same time, he'd just spent

773
00:59:29.360 --> 00:59:35.960
about five hours putting it together, and I did feel

774
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:40.400
for him because it was a lovely display and he's

775
00:59:40.519 --> 00:59:46.440
very artistic, and he'd been doing that job for a

776
00:59:46.559 --> 00:59:49.719
long time, also in the other shop that I used

777
00:59:49.760 --> 00:59:52.159
to work in, because that's he got me that job

778
00:59:54.639 --> 00:59:58.239
originally in the other shop back in two thousand November

779
00:59:58.280 --> 01:00:08.360
two thousand and two. And yeah, I felt bad, but

780
01:00:08.519 --> 01:00:12.320
like you know what, a fire exit's there for a reason.

781
01:00:13.400 --> 01:00:19.280
And you don't need it till you need it. I

782
01:00:19.360 --> 01:00:21.079
was going to say, like a condom, but it's not

783
01:00:21.159 --> 01:00:27.559
really good analogy, is it, But you know, generally, But anyway,

784
01:00:27.679 --> 01:00:30.199
he went upstairs, he had the he did have the

785
01:00:30.280 --> 01:00:31.039
up with me. He was like.

786
01:00:32.599 --> 01:00:35.239
Then he came down and he started taking the stuff down.

787
01:00:36.880 --> 01:00:37.679
And I helped him.

788
01:00:37.679 --> 01:00:39.159
I said, look, we just move it to a different

789
01:00:39.159 --> 01:00:41.800
part of the part of the shop and he said, yeah,

790
01:00:41.800 --> 01:00:48.800
I suppose, and he probably didn't say that. I did

791
01:00:48.840 --> 01:00:51.880
feel a bit bad because that where the fire exit

792
01:00:52.119 --> 01:00:57.599
was was really he couldn't kind of have anything there,

793
01:00:58.880 --> 01:01:01.679
and it looked at a place it was very kind

794
01:01:01.679 --> 01:01:07.199
of bear area, and there.

795
01:01:07.079 --> 01:01:13.480
Was like a little courtyard outside. So although a fire

796
01:01:13.519 --> 01:01:18.599
exit if yeah, I wouldn't want to be stuck in

797
01:01:18.599 --> 01:01:20.639
that courtyard to be fair. Although you could get onto

798
01:01:20.639 --> 01:01:26.360
the roofs, which I sometimes did. There was one member

799
01:01:26.400 --> 01:01:29.679
of staff that I didn't get on with, and she

800
01:01:29.760 --> 01:01:30.960
used to pick on me. Basically.

801
01:01:31.000 --> 01:01:32.760
She used to be just say rude things to me

802
01:01:32.840 --> 01:01:38.920
for no reason. And I think there was that safety

803
01:01:38.960 --> 01:01:42.199
of working with Buddhists, and she wasn't a Buddhist, but

804
01:01:42.280 --> 01:01:45.800
she felt safe that she could probably get away with

805
01:01:45.840 --> 01:01:51.519
more stuff than she would normally, and in the end

806
01:01:51.559 --> 01:01:56.679
I just had to let the management know that I

807
01:01:56.679 --> 01:02:02.039
wouldn't work with her anymore. It's weird and this is

808
01:02:02.079 --> 01:02:05.719
supposed to be a peaceful environment. But that was my opinion.

809
01:02:06.960 --> 01:02:10.079
It should it should be peaceful, And I wasn't out

810
01:02:10.079 --> 01:02:14.559
to cause trouble. I was just unfortunately being criticized every

811
01:02:14.599 --> 01:02:20.599
turn by her for no reason. And then every now

812
01:02:20.639 --> 01:02:22.840
and I thought, no, I'm not talking to her anymore.

813
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:26.760
She'd draw me in by asking me a question about myself,

814
01:02:27.719 --> 01:02:30.440
knowing that I love to talk about myself, and she'd

815
01:02:30.519 --> 01:02:34.599
draw me in being friendly, and then she'd criticize something

816
01:02:34.639 --> 01:02:37.199
I just said, or she'd pull apart what I just said.

817
01:02:37.360 --> 01:02:41.920
It's like ah, and then she said she kept going

818
01:02:41.960 --> 01:02:47.480
about I'm angry, what's its own, I'm at Cambridge, I'm

819
01:02:47.519 --> 01:02:50.719
at Cambridge University. I'm at Cambridge. She used to love

820
01:02:50.840 --> 01:02:54.880
saying that. It turned out she was an Angrier Ruskin

821
01:02:56.199 --> 01:02:59.159
in Cambridge, which is not the same as being at Cambridge.

822
01:02:59.599 --> 01:03:06.320
There's an Angland Ruskin at Chelsford Angler Ruskin University is

823
01:03:06.400 --> 01:03:09.440
not the same as going to Cambridge just because it's

824
01:03:09.480 --> 01:03:15.559
in Cambridge. It's like me working in McDonald's in Cambridge

825
01:03:15.559 --> 01:03:20.679
and saying, yeah, I'm at Cambridge. It's not exactly the same,

826
01:03:23.400 --> 01:03:27.400
but she really was acting like she was at Cambridge

827
01:03:28.480 --> 01:03:35.679
University campus and she wasn't. I found it funny. I

828
01:03:35.760 --> 01:03:40.079
laughed for about an hour. Solid she didn't enjoy that

829
01:03:42.400 --> 01:03:47.440
because someone asked her because she said something that her

830
01:03:47.480 --> 01:03:48.280
car broke.

831
01:03:48.039 --> 01:03:51.480
Down, and I think she was on the phone saying, yeah,

832
01:03:51.639 --> 01:03:54.559
if you picked the car up yet, because she had

833
01:03:54.559 --> 01:03:59.079
to get I think she got a lift back, and

834
01:03:59.239 --> 01:03:59.840
she was saying that.

835
01:04:00.199 --> 01:04:03.599
She was saying to the address, it's in the car

836
01:04:03.679 --> 01:04:08.960
park at the university in Cambridge, and I think they

837
01:04:08.960 --> 01:04:14.280
were asking, like what Cambridge University and you're like, yeah,

838
01:04:14.480 --> 01:04:22.679
well we're in here now, we can't see it. And

839
01:04:22.719 --> 01:04:27.440
then she says Anglia Ruskin and they laugh about ten minutes.

840
01:04:28.519 --> 01:04:30.719
And there's nothing wrong with Angler Ruskin, by the way,

841
01:04:30.760 --> 01:04:32.039
it's a really good place, but.

842
01:04:34.239 --> 01:04:39.280
Pretending you're somewhere that you're not. I could go to

843
01:04:39.320 --> 01:04:46.280
Anglio Ruskin, but I couldn't go to Cambridge. I could

844
01:04:46.320 --> 01:04:50.360
go to Angry Ruskin in Cambridge potentially said I could.

845
01:04:50.400 --> 01:04:52.440
I don't know if I could, but I you know.

846
01:04:52.440 --> 01:04:59.639
I mean, I'm qualified probably enough to go and do that. However,

847
01:05:02.760 --> 01:05:04.760
there's no way on this planet I would get into

848
01:05:04.800 --> 01:05:08.880
Cambridge University because I'm.

849
01:05:08.679 --> 01:05:10.000
Not of that ilk.

850
01:05:11.880 --> 01:05:12.199
I'm not.

851
01:05:14.239 --> 01:05:17.239
I'm not. I'm not in that on that level of education.

852
01:05:17.599 --> 01:05:17.840
Just not.

853
01:05:21.320 --> 01:05:24.400
Oh but Jason, I'm sure you could do it if

854
01:05:24.440 --> 01:05:29.320
you really tried. No, not even if I tried, if

855
01:05:29.320 --> 01:05:33.079
you tried really hard. No, not even if I gave

856
01:05:33.159 --> 01:05:37.079
it at least ten percent, I couldn't. Well, don't you

857
01:05:37.079 --> 01:05:38.440
give it more than ten percent?

858
01:05:39.159 --> 01:05:41.920
Because I'm lazy. Where have you been? Have you not

859
01:05:41.960 --> 01:05:48.760
been observing? Okay, don't got to be rude, you're rude.

860
01:05:49.679 --> 01:05:58.320
Dere I think the next time I did night shift?

861
01:05:59.559 --> 01:06:01.159
Oh yeah, So I went.

862
01:06:01.000 --> 01:06:05.280
Back to London. This is how Cheico was.

863
01:06:05.400 --> 01:06:07.440
I went back to the job that I had before

864
01:06:07.679 --> 01:06:10.159
in London that I didn't give them notice. I didn't

865
01:06:10.199 --> 01:06:12.639
go back, and I went back to him and said

866
01:06:12.719 --> 01:06:17.400
there's any chance of another job? And I suppose rightly.

867
01:06:17.480 --> 01:06:22.920
So they said no, we're fall now. Sorry bye. So

868
01:06:23.440 --> 01:06:32.039
just like okay, and this is January nineteen ninety one,

869
01:06:32.719 --> 01:06:40.000
so I've moved there. I paid rent probably two weeks

870
01:06:40.000 --> 01:06:41.159
in advance or something.

871
01:06:41.199 --> 01:06:41.639
Like that.

872
01:06:43.000 --> 01:06:46.599
I was in this grotty room. I lived for four years,

873
01:06:46.639 --> 01:06:50.159
believe it or not, nearly four years, was it all

874
01:06:50.199 --> 01:06:53.239
the way through ninety one, ninety two, ninety three and

875
01:06:53.400 --> 01:06:58.639
up to the summer ninety four, so three and over

876
01:06:58.679 --> 01:07:05.840
three and a half years. And there was this when

877
01:07:05.880 --> 01:07:08.199
I moved in, there no central heating.

878
01:07:09.719 --> 01:07:12.159
And there was a little bathroom heater on the wall.

879
01:07:12.480 --> 01:07:14.760
The other side of the room to where I was

880
01:07:14.960 --> 01:07:15.760
my bed was.

881
01:07:18.760 --> 01:07:24.760
A draft coming in the window, and there was a meter,

882
01:07:25.039 --> 01:07:29.639
an electric meter. So I wasn't even getting that heating

883
01:07:29.719 --> 01:07:41.440
for free electric meter fifty pence pieces, so I pretty much.

884
01:07:43.079 --> 01:07:48.760
Had that. Eventually it broke, but it was like a

885
01:07:48.800 --> 01:07:49.679
little bathroom.

886
01:07:49.800 --> 01:07:51.920
You know, there's ones. I don't know if they still exist,

887
01:07:53.000 --> 01:07:59.119
but I think it was like two bars. And it

888
01:07:59.159 --> 01:08:03.800
shouldn't have been on a bedroom war Why would you

889
01:08:03.880 --> 01:08:07.840
not have central heating. I mean, central heating is not

890
01:08:07.880 --> 01:08:08.400
a new thing.

891
01:08:09.599 --> 01:08:13.239
It wasn't. It wasn't like in nineteen ninety one. Oh,

892
01:08:13.320 --> 01:08:14.880
we don't know. That's central heating.

893
01:08:15.519 --> 01:08:20.239
No, that's that's uh, that's the devil's work.

894
01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:25.680
That is No, if God had wanted me to be warm,

895
01:08:26.000 --> 01:08:30.560
he'd have made me warm I don't know what the

896
01:08:30.560 --> 01:08:33.560
answer would be. It's like.

897
01:08:37.000 --> 01:08:39.119
We're supposed to be cold. That's why we're boiled in

898
01:08:39.119 --> 01:08:44.239
a cold country. Yes, it builds character. Shivering in your

899
01:08:44.239 --> 01:08:49.600
bed builds character. Yeah, builds an attitude. I'll tell you

900
01:08:49.760 --> 01:08:50.720
that's that's for sure.

901
01:08:51.960 --> 01:08:55.640
After decades of that living in places that were cold,

902
01:08:56.279 --> 01:08:57.399
I won't be cold anymore.

903
01:08:59.479 --> 01:09:02.640
So the heating goes on. If it's cold, the heating

904
01:09:02.680 --> 01:09:05.159
goes on. I don't care what time of the year

905
01:09:05.199 --> 01:09:07.760
it is. I'm not going to sit here being cold.

906
01:09:10.560 --> 01:09:13.239
I know some people are. Nope, the heating goes off

907
01:09:13.359 --> 01:09:16.199
in March and it comes back on at the end

908
01:09:16.199 --> 01:09:17.000
of September.

909
01:09:17.640 --> 01:09:18.000
That's it.

910
01:09:18.239 --> 01:09:22.039
No heating throughout that whole time, regardless of how curled

911
01:09:22.079 --> 01:09:22.439
it is.

912
01:09:23.880 --> 01:09:25.800
I don't do that. I know a lot of people

913
01:09:25.800 --> 01:09:30.119
do do that because I've done a survey.

914
01:09:30.800 --> 01:09:33.359
I haven't done a survey, but I've just known a

915
01:09:33.359 --> 01:09:36.600
lot of people that have said that, and they were

916
01:09:36.640 --> 01:09:40.199
literally with his cold, put an extra pair, another.

917
01:09:40.079 --> 01:09:43.800
Jumper on if it's cold. No.

918
01:09:44.479 --> 01:09:46.840
The way I say is, I don't put a jumper

919
01:09:46.880 --> 01:09:50.960
on if I'm cold. I put a jumper on if

920
01:09:51.439 --> 01:09:56.000
I'm not warm enough. There's a difference there. To me,

921
01:09:56.920 --> 01:09:59.720
there's a difference between like I've got a little cardigan on. Now,

922
01:10:02.960 --> 01:10:05.159
if I don't have this on, it's a little bit

923
01:10:05.199 --> 01:10:13.960
too cool. It's not cold, it's a little bit too cool.

924
01:10:14.439 --> 01:10:20.239
I'm not shivering, That's what I mean. I don't put

925
01:10:20.239 --> 01:10:22.119
the jumper on and then have.

926
01:10:22.079 --> 01:10:27.199
Cold hands and a cold face when I'm indoors. I

927
01:10:27.279 --> 01:10:31.479
just don't allow that to happen. Because I had decades

928
01:10:31.520 --> 01:10:36.079
of it. That's why I mean, even when I was

929
01:10:36.119 --> 01:10:40.560
a kid, it was the same like so really from

930
01:10:40.920 --> 01:10:45.039
up to the age of forty four, so I had

931
01:10:45.159 --> 01:10:50.039
forty four years of living in places that I had

932
01:10:50.079 --> 01:10:56.640
no control over the heating pretty much, forty four years

933
01:10:56.680 --> 01:11:01.520
where I couldn't decide whether or not I could be warm.

934
01:11:01.800 --> 01:11:05.800
It's a long time. So now I have the heating

935
01:11:05.840 --> 01:11:12.560
on all summer. It's like a greenhouse in here. I've

936
01:11:12.600 --> 01:11:18.079
got tomatoes grown out of my ears. It's brilliant. No

937
01:11:19.960 --> 01:11:24.560
phillis turned into a cactus. No, I don't have the

938
01:11:24.600 --> 01:11:28.079
heating them. If it's cold, if it's like a really

939
01:11:28.119 --> 01:11:32.079
cold night, which we do have in this country. We

940
01:11:32.199 --> 01:11:34.960
have really cold nights in the summer. Sometimes if I

941
01:11:35.000 --> 01:11:36.479
need the heating, and I'll put the heating on.

942
01:11:36.439 --> 01:11:39.680
For a little while. I got no issue.

943
01:11:39.720 --> 01:11:41.800
I mean, most of the summer the heating is turned off,

944
01:11:41.920 --> 01:11:45.560
like off off, so I don't leave it on automatics,

945
01:11:45.560 --> 01:11:49.399
so it comes on if it's cold, I'll decide. In

946
01:11:49.439 --> 01:11:51.479
the winter, I've got it on automatics, so if it

947
01:11:51.520 --> 01:11:55.359
gets below a certain temperature, it comes on. In the summer,

948
01:11:55.399 --> 01:12:00.720
I don't do that, but sometimes it's cold, just because

949
01:12:00.760 --> 01:12:08.479
it's July or June, which is pretty much the hottest

950
01:12:08.479 --> 01:12:11.000
months of the year in this country, and we have

951
01:12:11.399 --> 01:12:17.439
We've had some really hot days this year, but only

952
01:12:17.680 --> 01:12:22.960
I would say, only a few hot nights. There's been

953
01:12:22.960 --> 01:12:24.560
a few nights where it's been like.

954
01:12:24.560 --> 01:12:33.640
Oh, a little bit, a little bit stuffy, but the

955
01:12:33.680 --> 01:12:39.640
real heat. I didn't really experience the real heat at

956
01:12:39.640 --> 01:12:43.279
home this year because I was visiting uncle Sausages, so

957
01:12:44.760 --> 01:12:47.439
I experienced the heat as in, you know, going there

958
01:12:47.439 --> 01:12:52.199
in a taxi or on the bus, mainly taxis to

959
01:12:52.239 --> 01:13:00.920
start with, and then but then the getting side the hospital,

960
01:13:00.920 --> 01:13:03.760
and it wasn't warm inside the hospital because there's air

961
01:13:03.760 --> 01:13:09.000
conditioning everywhere. It wasn't cold everywhere, but it wasn't you know,

962
01:13:09.079 --> 01:13:17.520
it's definitely a different temperature to being outside. So I didn't.

963
01:13:18.880 --> 01:13:22.159
Yeah, I didn't really get the full extent of the

964
01:13:22.199 --> 01:13:30.239
summer because I spent well six weeks or something going

965
01:13:30.279 --> 01:13:33.159
backward and forward, so I can't. I spent most of

966
01:13:33.199 --> 01:13:35.600
the summer pretty much from the end of.

967
01:13:41.720 --> 01:13:48.720
June. The end of June. That's it.

968
01:13:48.840 --> 01:13:52.640
You come to me, good boy, good boy. We don't

969
01:13:52.680 --> 01:13:57.000
do that too, No, we don't. We don't bark. We

970
01:13:57.239 --> 01:14:00.680
don't bark because you're a good boy. You're not just

971
01:14:00.720 --> 01:14:04.840
a good boy. You're a clever boy. You're very clever.

972
01:14:05.600 --> 01:14:08.560
You're the most beautifullest boy in a whole wide world.

973
01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:09.920
Yes you why? Yes you are yes?

974
01:14:10.039 --> 01:14:11.640
You are yes?

975
01:14:11.720 --> 01:14:12.279
You are yes?

976
01:14:12.359 --> 01:14:12.880
You are yes.

977
01:14:12.960 --> 01:14:14.520
You are yes.

978
01:14:14.640 --> 01:14:15.279
You are yes?

979
01:14:15.359 --> 01:14:15.960
You are yes?

980
01:14:16.079 --> 01:14:17.319
You are yes?

981
01:14:17.439 --> 01:14:38.319
You were you you? Yeah, good boy.

982
01:14:38.479 --> 01:14:38.720
Come.

983
01:14:45.319 --> 01:14:48.399
Vine's decided he wants to come and sit on my lap,

984
01:14:48.520 --> 01:14:49.439
so he's doing that.

985
01:14:51.199 --> 01:14:53.239
He put his poor out literally to try and get

986
01:14:53.239 --> 01:14:56.399
onto my knee, so he's not I've let him get

987
01:14:56.439 --> 01:14:57.920
on my lap and he's not trying to get down.

988
01:14:58.000 --> 01:15:00.960
So it's clearly where he wants to be, isn't it.

989
01:15:01.479 --> 01:15:06.239
You're happy? Yeah, I can't.

990
01:15:06.319 --> 01:15:11.840
Rich and hurt my neck the other times. So yeah,

991
01:15:11.880 --> 01:15:15.399
when I couldn't get that job in the.

992
01:15:16.720 --> 01:15:17.199
At the place.

993
01:15:17.239 --> 01:15:20.800
When I moved back to London, I said to my landlady,

994
01:15:20.800 --> 01:15:25.239
I said, oh, excuse me, landlady. She said, yes, tenant.

995
01:15:26.319 --> 01:15:31.039
I said, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

996
01:15:31.279 --> 01:15:33.720
She said, what do you mean. I said, well, you

997
01:15:33.760 --> 01:15:37.079
know that job I told you I had. She said yeah.

998
01:15:38.199 --> 01:15:43.159
I said, I lied. There's no job there. There never was.

999
01:15:44.520 --> 01:15:45.800
She said, does it not exist?

1000
01:15:45.880 --> 01:15:49.880
I said, yeah, it exists, but I just thought I

1001
01:15:49.880 --> 01:15:54.760
could go back there, but I was wrong. I misinformed you.

1002
01:15:56.600 --> 01:15:59.439
Please forgive me. Can you ever forgive me? And she

1003
01:15:59.439 --> 01:16:04.039
said probably not. I said, okay, thanks. She said, why

1004
01:16:04.039 --> 01:16:06.000
are you thanking me? I just said, I won't forgive you.

1005
01:16:06.600 --> 01:16:10.920
I said no, but I just it's a new thing

1006
01:16:10.960 --> 01:16:13.399
I'm trying out. I'd just like to say thanks to people.

1007
01:16:15.079 --> 01:16:16.840
Just stop trying to make new friends, you see. So

1008
01:16:16.920 --> 01:16:20.920
if I say thanks to everyone, maybe it will cause

1009
01:16:20.960 --> 01:16:24.920
a more peaceful society and catch on and end up

1010
01:16:24.920 --> 01:16:31.439
with some kind of world stability politically and emotionally.

1011
01:16:31.520 --> 01:16:32.279
Maybe.

1012
01:16:33.880 --> 01:16:35.760
She said, so you didn't get the job. What if

1013
01:16:35.760 --> 01:16:40.880
can you pay the rent next week? I said, well,

1014
01:16:41.880 --> 01:16:45.840
and she said, you're joking me. I said, I wish

1015
01:16:45.880 --> 01:16:47.640
I was not very funny joke, is it.

1016
01:16:48.119 --> 01:16:48.680
She said no.

1017
01:16:50.760 --> 01:16:52.680
She said what you're going to do? I said, I

1018
01:16:52.760 --> 01:16:55.000
don't know. I guess I'm just going to have to

1019
01:16:55.039 --> 01:16:58.920
move back. And she said, what would your dad say?

1020
01:17:00.520 --> 01:17:03.560
I said, what do you mean? She said nothing, don't worry.

1021
01:17:03.760 --> 01:17:05.359
I said, what do you mean, what would my dad say?

1022
01:17:05.399 --> 01:17:07.880
What do you know about my dad? She said nothing?

1023
01:17:10.880 --> 01:17:13.680
And then she looked away and started humming and whistling,

1024
01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:17.399
which I thought quite weird behavior. And I said, have

1025
01:17:17.479 --> 01:17:23.680
you spoken to my dad? She said no? I said,

1026
01:17:23.680 --> 01:17:27.920
come on, have you spoken to my dad? She said well,

1027
01:17:29.199 --> 01:17:31.560
I said, come on, did you taken ages? Have you

1028
01:17:31.600 --> 01:17:36.199
spoken to my dad? She said yes, I have? I

1029
01:17:36.239 --> 01:17:36.680
said how?

1030
01:17:38.119 --> 01:17:42.239
She said, well, when he helped you move? He said no.

1031
01:17:42.359 --> 01:17:44.199
I said, wait a minute, he didn't help me move.

1032
01:17:44.560 --> 01:17:51.560
Someone else helped me move. Okay, Well, you gave him

1033
01:17:51.640 --> 01:17:53.880
the telephone number for the house, didn't you? I said, yes,

1034
01:17:54.760 --> 01:17:59.039
will he phoned me up? Why to warn me about you?

1035
01:18:00.079 --> 01:18:01.760
What do you mean, warn you about me?

1036
01:18:03.119 --> 01:18:09.399
Just to let me know how annoying you were? I said, what,

1037
01:18:11.319 --> 01:18:13.640
that's what it was. It's nothing rude, nothing bad.

1038
01:18:13.680 --> 01:18:15.600
You just want to let me know, warn me in

1039
01:18:16.239 --> 01:18:19.039
you know ahead of time that you're just a bit

1040
01:18:19.079 --> 01:18:20.880
of annoying, a bit of a pain to live with.

1041
01:18:23.039 --> 01:18:24.880
I said, I'm not really living with you, an't I

1042
01:18:25.000 --> 01:18:25.880
you're downstairs.

1043
01:18:25.880 --> 01:18:26.720
I'm upstairs.

1044
01:18:27.039 --> 01:18:30.640
I got my own room. She said, yeah, but we

1045
01:18:30.720 --> 01:18:36.239
have to share a kitchen and a bathroom. I said yeah,

1046
01:18:36.640 --> 01:18:37.479
and she said, well, he.

1047
01:18:37.520 --> 01:18:42.119
Just warned me. What do you mean warned you? She said,

1048
01:18:42.119 --> 01:18:45.720
it doesn't matter. All I can tell you is that.

1049
01:18:47.239 --> 01:18:49.399
You might not want to tell him you're coming back.

1050
01:18:51.199 --> 01:18:53.119
What do you mean tell him I'm going back? What

1051
01:18:55.039 --> 01:18:57.359
I think he's moved.

1052
01:18:59.319 --> 01:18:59.760
Moved?

1053
01:19:01.079 --> 01:19:03.520
Yeah, he waited till you left and went came back

1054
01:19:03.560 --> 01:19:07.439
to London and he moved.

1055
01:19:07.279 --> 01:19:08.600
Did he give you an address?

1056
01:19:08.800 --> 01:19:08.880
No?

1057
01:19:10.479 --> 01:19:13.319
And she looked away and started whistling and humming. I said, look,

1058
01:19:14.239 --> 01:19:16.319
I've I kind of figured out that when you do that,

1059
01:19:16.359 --> 01:19:22.199
you're lying. And she said, wow, you are clever. I

1060
01:19:22.239 --> 01:19:28.159
wasn't sure she's being sarcastic or not. And I said

1061
01:19:28.199 --> 01:19:31.600
to her, well, where's he moved to? She said, I

1062
01:19:31.640 --> 01:19:39.880
can't tell. You said, why not swore me to secrecy? Okay,

1063
01:19:41.119 --> 01:19:46.640
Well I guess I have to stay here. She said,

1064
01:19:46.640 --> 01:19:52.159
it's okay, it's okay, actually, I said, why, said well,

1065
01:19:52.840 --> 01:19:55.960
he said that when you lose your job, he'll pay

1066
01:19:56.239 --> 01:19:59.600
for the first month and then I can kick you

1067
01:19:59.640 --> 01:20:05.520
out if you haven't found anything. So you're telling me

1068
01:20:05.720 --> 01:20:10.239
that you're going to be phoning them up tomorrow or

1069
01:20:10.279 --> 01:20:12.560
whatever to let him know that I haven't gotten myself

1070
01:20:12.560 --> 01:20:15.479
a job, so that he pays rent for the next month.

1071
01:20:16.600 --> 01:20:21.000
She said no, I said, good, said no, I've already

1072
01:20:21.000 --> 01:20:25.119
spoke to him. He's already sent the money. He's sent

1073
01:20:25.239 --> 01:20:34.800
a check. It's going to be here tomorrow probably. I like,

1074
01:20:35.359 --> 01:20:38.079
so you've basically he's sent you one hundred and sixty pound.

1075
01:20:38.880 --> 01:20:41.399
She said yeah, there's forty pounds a week back then.

1076
01:20:43.479 --> 01:20:44.960
And she said it's that why there was such a

1077
01:20:45.000 --> 01:20:47.199
pause between you talking just then, because you have to

1078
01:20:47.199 --> 01:20:48.399
try and add it up in your head.

1079
01:20:49.640 --> 01:20:52.199
I said, yeah. I was going to say one hundred

1080
01:20:52.199 --> 01:20:56.920
and twenty, and then I realized that's three fours. So

1081
01:20:57.039 --> 01:20:58.720
I thought, how else can I work it out?

1082
01:20:59.800 --> 01:21:04.159
And I realized if I do eighty times by two,

1083
01:21:04.840 --> 01:21:10.399
it's one hundred and sixty. She said yeah. I said thanks.

1084
01:21:10.439 --> 01:21:14.119
She said yeah, I wasn't really congratulating you. I'm just

1085
01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:20.399
you know, acknowledging and what you said. And I said

1086
01:21:20.439 --> 01:21:23.439
to her, look instead of just being a little bit gnarly,

1087
01:21:23.560 --> 01:21:27.479
a little bit ugh, a little bit you know, looking

1088
01:21:27.520 --> 01:21:32.319
down at me, a little bit judgmental, perhaps you could

1089
01:21:32.319 --> 01:21:35.720
be helpful, caring kind.

1090
01:21:36.199 --> 01:21:41.079
Baby. He just gives me kisses, just gives me kisses.

1091
01:21:45.880 --> 01:21:51.119
And she said, well, okay, I suppose I could try

1092
01:21:51.199 --> 01:21:56.039
and help. I said, that'd be nice. She said, are

1093
01:21:56.039 --> 01:21:59.720
you any good at cleaning toilets? I said, what.

1094
01:22:01.279 --> 01:22:03.159
I could give you, like a two pounds discount a

1095
01:22:03.199 --> 01:22:04.960
week if you clean the bog?

1096
01:22:06.399 --> 01:22:08.840
I said, no, one's called it a bog for years.

1097
01:22:08.880 --> 01:22:09.560
She said, I do.

1098
01:22:10.079 --> 01:22:12.119
I love calling it a bog makes her feel really

1099
01:22:12.159 --> 01:22:12.880
down to earth.

1100
01:22:14.920 --> 01:22:16.039
Should we call it a toilet?

1101
01:22:16.079 --> 01:22:21.199
And she said, no one called it a bog? And

1102
01:22:21.279 --> 01:22:24.159
I was like, okay, fair enough, No, I said, I'm

1103
01:22:24.159 --> 01:22:29.199
not cleaning the toilet for two pound. How's that going

1104
01:22:29.239 --> 01:22:32.000
to make a difference to my rent? Just two pounds

1105
01:22:32.000 --> 01:22:35.479
off a week off of forty? She said, well, that

1106
01:22:35.640 --> 01:22:41.760
minilonio thirty eight pound. It wasn't a literal question. I

1107
01:22:41.840 --> 01:22:45.479
know it'll leave me with thirty eight pounds to pay.

1108
01:22:46.039 --> 01:22:48.479
She said, well, that's what you just asked me.

1109
01:22:51.079 --> 01:22:54.880
And obviously i'd done her accent different because she was Italian,

1110
01:22:54.920 --> 01:22:58.720
so she had a very very strong Italian accent, but

1111
01:22:58.760 --> 01:23:03.439
I didn't do her accent. Yeah, I hope you're pleased.

1112
01:23:04.520 --> 01:23:09.119
I hope, I hope you appreciate me.

1113
01:23:10.439 --> 01:23:20.479
Thank you very much. Yeah, and what else? Yeah, anyway,

1114
01:23:20.600 --> 01:23:23.680
she came through and she gave me a shout.

1115
01:23:23.880 --> 01:23:30.479
Json Jason, Jason. So I go down and I said, yeah,

1116
01:23:31.319 --> 01:23:32.399
she said.

1117
01:23:32.640 --> 01:23:37.760
Come down the stairs please. So I went downstairs and

1118
01:23:38.840 --> 01:23:44.199
there was this other lady there and I said, I

1119
01:23:44.199 --> 01:23:49.640
said hello, you said yeah, and this is my friend Canterbella.

1120
01:23:50.079 --> 01:23:56.600
I said, she wants to doc to you do I said, okay,

1121
01:23:56.640 --> 01:23:59.960
fair enough, So I'm talking to her. She ends up

1122
01:24:00.079 --> 01:24:02.880
it ends up that she's the HR. She's in charge

1123
01:24:02.920 --> 01:24:07.279
of the HR department in a bakery, a huge bakery

1124
01:24:07.479 --> 01:24:12.600
in London, East London. And she said to me there's

1125
01:24:12.640 --> 01:24:15.640
a job going in the canteen and you can work

1126
01:24:15.680 --> 01:24:20.600
there or you can apply to it there. I said, okay,

1127
01:24:21.680 --> 01:24:27.039
told me the hours, told me the wages. So she

1128
01:24:27.199 --> 01:24:29.039
was helping me out, but she was helping a friend

1129
01:24:29.039 --> 01:24:30.720
out so that she got her rent, but at the

1130
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:34.640
same time in helping me out, and I went along

1131
01:24:34.680 --> 01:24:38.640
for the job interview, got the job. Turned out the

1132
01:24:38.720 --> 01:24:41.479
chef who was in charge of the kitchen didn't have

1133
01:24:41.520 --> 01:24:43.600
a choice about whether I worked there or not. And

1134
01:24:43.640 --> 01:24:46.119
he told me that he wouldn't have employed me, which

1135
01:24:46.159 --> 01:24:49.560
is nice, how lovely, and that's that he told me

1136
01:24:49.600 --> 01:24:54.600
that after we'd become friends. Yeah, like he still he

1137
01:24:54.720 --> 01:24:56.319
liked me at that point when he said he wouldn't

1138
01:24:56.319 --> 01:24:59.760
have employed me, and he still wouldn't, so hey nice.

1139
01:25:00.680 --> 01:25:04.279
And he sold me a dodgy video player that didn't work,

1140
01:25:05.359 --> 01:25:10.600
but I've forgiven him twenty five pounds that cost me.

1141
01:25:13.159 --> 01:25:17.760
I don't get that money back while I I mean,

1142
01:25:17.840 --> 01:25:23.079
how could you do that to someone? Admittedly, he'd stopped

1143
01:25:23.079 --> 01:25:26.279
working there, so he'd left, and I was still working

1144
01:25:26.319 --> 01:25:30.000
at the factory, so he Yeah, I guess he was

1145
01:25:30.000 --> 01:25:31.439
just trying to make a little bit of money in that,

1146
01:25:31.560 --> 01:25:38.680
but seemed a bit rude. So Vinnie's still lying on

1147
01:25:38.720 --> 01:25:43.800
my lap and cuddling up to me. Normally it might

1148
01:25:43.880 --> 01:25:45.960
do it and hold him and I want to get down,

1149
01:25:46.600 --> 01:25:48.760
but he doesn't want to get down. He seems happy

1150
01:25:49.560 --> 01:25:50.880
to just be cuddling.

1151
01:25:52.880 --> 01:25:53.479
It's weird.

1152
01:25:54.399 --> 01:26:01.279
It's almost like he's become an affectionate turning into a dog,

1153
01:26:02.079 --> 01:26:10.000
like a nice friendly doggie. Hey, I don't understand. But anyway,

1154
01:26:10.119 --> 01:26:15.760
I ended up working after that. I worked in the

1155
01:26:15.800 --> 01:26:21.000
actual factory, the bakery itself, not the canteen, and I.

1156
01:26:21.039 --> 01:26:35.560
Was doing what was I doing. I was doing all

1157
01:26:35.640 --> 01:26:40.479
kinds of shifts, including night shift, So yeah, I did

1158
01:26:40.479 --> 01:26:43.279
a nice st Was I doing night shift?

1159
01:26:44.840 --> 01:26:48.359
Yeah, I'm pretty certain I was doing night shift, and

1160
01:26:48.399 --> 01:26:50.960
then sometimes a night shift led me to do days

1161
01:26:51.000 --> 01:26:58.880
as well. Yeah, yeah, so that it was kind of

1162
01:26:58.920 --> 01:27:00.720
all over the place, but that that was my second

1163
01:27:00.840 --> 01:27:05.359
night shift job. My third night shift job would be

1164
01:27:05.920 --> 01:27:07.239
working in.

1165
01:27:09.159 --> 01:27:23.000
Security in nineteen ninety six, and I had one, two, three,

1166
01:27:23.239 --> 01:27:29.720
four five.

1167
01:27:37.039 --> 01:27:39.880
I'm just trying to think at least five different places

1168
01:27:39.920 --> 01:27:43.800
that I did night shift on. I did day shift

1169
01:27:43.800 --> 01:27:54.039
on a few places, but predominantly night shift. I don't

1170
01:27:54.079 --> 01:27:56.079
think I did night shift again after that.

1171
01:27:56.159 --> 01:27:56.960
I think that was it.

1172
01:27:57.560 --> 01:28:00.199
That was the last time I did night shift. But

1173
01:28:00.239 --> 01:28:07.399
I did that for a while. It was okay if

1174
01:28:07.479 --> 01:28:11.520
there was people around, If I was on my own

1175
01:28:11.560 --> 01:28:14.399
the whole time, I'd end up having to go to

1176
01:28:14.439 --> 01:28:19.279
sleep even though I was sleeping during the day. Now,

1177
01:28:19.319 --> 01:28:22.680
the problem is, back then there was no internet, nothing

1178
01:28:22.760 --> 01:28:25.359
that was reading, but I struggled to read when I was.

1179
01:28:25.680 --> 01:28:26.600
Tired at night.

1180
01:28:27.640 --> 01:28:30.319
But I could have built websites and stuff. And you know,

1181
01:28:30.640 --> 01:28:33.600
if it had been ten years later, I could have

1182
01:28:33.920 --> 01:28:35.319
really made use of that time.

1183
01:28:43.720 --> 01:28:45.680
Let me just have a look and see what the.

1184
01:28:50.479 --> 01:28:52.760
I was supposed to be talking about longest days and

1185
01:28:52.880 --> 01:28:57.520
shortest days, And I'll be honest, I've lost interest in that.

1186
01:28:58.560 --> 01:29:03.640
Never mind, So thank you for listening. Remember to be

1187
01:29:03.760 --> 01:29:06.119
kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy

1188
01:29:06.960 --> 01:29:11.920
and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe,

1189
01:29:12.199 --> 01:29:12.760
lots of love.

1190
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Bye. Relax in a more deep and.

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01:29:31.680 --> 01:29:39.079
Meaningful way, maybe in a way that can not just

1192
01:29:39.359 --> 01:29:49.479
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1193
01:29:50.119 --> 01:29:58.439
we've spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1194
01:29:58.560 --> 01:30:02.960
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1195
01:30:03.159 --> 01:30:20.560
that sense of comfort and peace. But also I think

1196
01:30:20.600 --> 01:30:31.800
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1197
01:30:34.119 --> 01:30:48.359
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1198
01:30:48.479 --> 01:31:00.960
you can still benefit from listening to my voice. Maybe

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01:31:01.000 --> 01:31:12.399
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

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01:31:12.520 --> 01:31:20.479
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1201
01:31:20.840 --> 01:31:24.479
and myself as well. I sometimes I find one particular

1202
01:31:24.600 --> 01:31:34.640
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

1203
01:31:34.720 --> 01:31:40.000
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1204
01:31:47.640 --> 01:31:52.279
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1205
01:31:52.399 --> 01:31:57.720
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

1206
01:31:57.760 --> 01:32:07.239
guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I

1207
01:32:07.319 --> 01:32:10.640
managed to find it again and it still has the

1208
01:32:10.680 --> 01:32:19.880
same effect on me. And part of it was the

1209
01:32:19.960 --> 01:32:33.239
person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and I'd

1210
01:32:33.279 --> 01:32:40.520
look forward to listening to her in the morning and

1211
01:32:40.600 --> 01:32:51.680
in the evening. And I knew before even pressing the

1212
01:32:51.720 --> 01:33:00.000
play button that since I've done that, pressed the play button,

1213
01:33:00.119 --> 01:33:11.880
and this was in the days of CD players press

1214
01:33:11.960 --> 01:33:17.279
the play button. In fact, it might have even been

1215
01:33:17.319 --> 01:33:22.000
a tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1216
01:33:22.039 --> 01:33:40.520
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

1217
01:33:40.600 --> 01:33:48.079
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1218
01:33:50.000 --> 01:34:03.439
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1219
01:34:03.520 --> 01:34:23.920
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind would

1220
01:34:24.000 --> 01:34:35.359
slow down. Now now I was listening to this recording

1221
01:34:38.720 --> 01:34:44.760
in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long before

1222
01:34:46.359 --> 01:34:54.439
I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself, because

1223
01:34:54.439 --> 01:34:57.520
I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1224
01:35:04.399 --> 01:35:20.359
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

1225
01:35:20.399 --> 01:35:29.439
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1226
01:35:29.560 --> 01:35:39.920
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1227
01:35:40.000 --> 01:35:50.800
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1228
01:35:51.039 --> 01:36:03.640
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

1229
01:36:03.880 --> 01:36:18.079
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1230
01:36:18.920 --> 01:36:22.920
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1231
01:36:24.680 --> 01:36:31.760
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1232
01:36:42.960 --> 01:36:51.000
And something that I do which you may not realize

1233
01:36:51.319 --> 01:36:52.600
by listening.

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01:36:56.680 --> 01:36:56.920
Is.

1235
01:37:00.880 --> 01:37:15.199
When I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1236
01:37:16.680 --> 01:37:27.960
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1237
01:37:27.960 --> 01:37:38.359
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1238
01:37:41.840 --> 01:37:49.760
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1239
01:37:49.840 --> 01:38:07.920
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said focus on your hands,

1240
01:38:10.720 --> 01:38:20.239
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

1241
01:38:20.359 --> 01:38:26.439
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1242
01:38:28.319 --> 01:38:38.720
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1243
01:38:39.279 --> 01:38:47.359
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1244
01:38:47.399 --> 01:38:51.640
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1245
01:38:51.680 --> 01:39:04.680
all where you are right now. And as you become

1246
01:39:05.279 --> 01:39:19.680
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1247
01:39:19.960 --> 01:39:43.760
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1248
01:39:45.279 --> 01:39:51.319
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1249
01:39:51.640 --> 01:40:07.920
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1250
01:40:12.600 --> 01:40:29.000
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1251
01:40:31.039 --> 01:40:45.199
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1252
01:40:45.359 --> 01:40:56.680
carry on talking. And it's only where I listen back

1253
01:40:56.880 --> 01:41:05.880
to do the editing, I hear snoring, and I think

1254
01:41:06.319 --> 01:41:16.520
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1255
01:41:17.079 --> 01:41:23.399
a pig turned up. That's why I sound like when

1256
01:41:23.399 --> 01:41:34.359
I snare, how I get really into the whole experience.

1257
01:41:42.239 --> 01:41:51.239
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1258
01:41:51.399 --> 01:42:02.359
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1259
01:42:17.439 --> 01:42:29.640
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1260
01:42:31.359 --> 01:42:47.199
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1261
01:42:53.720 --> 01:43:10.560
It's almost like that muscle relaxation. So this allows you

1262
01:43:15.439 --> 01:43:42.079
debree easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being

1263
01:43:42.119 --> 01:43:58.840
able to notice the ease.

1264
01:44:01.720 --> 01:44:02.640
In which.

1265
01:44:09.840 --> 01:44:29.800
You breathe so naturally, You breathe so very easily.

1266
01:44:30.760 --> 01:44:32.640
And smoothly.

1267
01:45:00.199 --> 01:45:17.920
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my

1268
01:45:18.039 --> 01:45:36.680
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1269
01:45:37.000 --> 01:46:11.119
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It

1270
01:46:11.159 --> 01:46:27.319
feels nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time

1271
01:46:33.199 --> 01:47:21.560
away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with

1272
01:47:21.600 --> 01:47:58.039
a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so

1273
01:47:59.159 --> 01:48:49.039
varies slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

1274
01:48:49.960 --> 01:49:53.439
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1275
01:49:53.680 --> 01:50:40.840
mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires

1276
01:50:40.880 --> 01:51:11.279
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1277
01:51:11.520 --> 01:51:24.279
the stress rip out of your body, to appear out

1278
01:51:24.359 --> 01:51:53.520
of every part of your body, and being released from

1279
01:51:53.560 --> 01:52:35.199
your brain and her mind slowly but surely. The muscles singles,

1280
01:52:50.760 --> 01:53:46.800
relax res so very deeply, so deeply, and the feelings,

1281
01:53:49.199 --> 01:54:14.119
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1282
01:54:14.520 --> 01:54:52.560
part of your body further and deeper and deeper, Noticing

1283
01:54:55.840 --> 01:55:22.680
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

1284
01:55:22.720 --> 01:56:36.760
your wrists muscles into your body. I also feeling peaceful, deeply.

1285
01:56:53.760 --> 01:57:04.079
There's a sense of peace m breads through your very core.

1286
01:57:34.560 --> 01:57:36.119
Even when you.

1287
01:57:39.000 --> 01:58:39.159
Focus on your mind, your mind becomes bee and slowerven, deeper, relaxing,

1288
01:59:02.960 --> 01:59:40.880
so very slow. His stomach, it's fallin's stomach.

1289
02:00:03.000 --> 02:00:03.800
You're back.

1290
02:00:09.079 --> 02:00:37.920
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in the hole

1291
02:00:38.279 --> 02:00:39.159
of your back.

1292
02:01:04.199 --> 02:01:05.399
Your spy.

1293
02:01:09.079 --> 02:01:13.840
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1294
02:01:13.880 --> 02:01:25.600
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every.

1295
02:01:25.359 --> 02:01:38.800
Day, deep coomfort.

1296
02:01:41.079 --> 02:02:59.199
Increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, spreading those signals down a spine.

1297
02:02:58.840 --> 02:02:59.720
Or cord.

1298
02:03:03.720 --> 02:03:22.600
Into air, every part of your body, your shins and

1299
02:03:22.760 --> 02:04:14.359
your calf muscles. We're outbursts feelings of peace and tranquility

1300
02:04:18.279 --> 02:04:32.279
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1301
02:04:36.640 --> 02:04:56.079
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. Lettinger

1302
02:04:58.319 --> 02:06:10.319
reatinker peace, drifting mind just wounding away, happy to let go,

1303
02:06:13.560 --> 02:07:14.880
let go completely, let go, so tranquil the whole body,

1304
02:07:19.199 --> 02:07:51.960
enjoying a censor letting go. He even more.

1305
02:08:00.279 --> 02:09:01.399
Attatatas he's fall.

1306
02:09:34.960 --> 02:09:46.199
Enjoy the space, this space.

1307
02:09:48.720 --> 02:09:49.840
Of peace.

1308
02:09:53.039 --> 02:10:26.560
And safety. So firy f relx.

1309
02:11:56.000 --> 02:12:20.760
Lessing God. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1310
02:12:21.119 --> 02:12:55.920
parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

1311
02:12:56.119 --> 02:14:02.640
your eyes utual sols notica, a sense of complete freedom,

1312
02:14:14.640 --> 02:14:17.119
absolute freedom.

1313
02:15:02.560 --> 02:15:03.359
Drift.

1314
02:15:15.239 --> 02:16:55.159
Drifting, Pea's for energy, peace to breeze much easier lest

1315
02:17:16.440 --> 02:17:28.040
you may have You may not have noticed your mind

1316
02:17:28.719 --> 02:18:30.520
drifting peaceful, move even more deeply in the direction of

1317
02:18:35.319 --> 02:20:59.040
total blissful pace, blissful pace, ris total peace. Come so calm.

1318
02:20:49.239 --> 02:20:49.959
Let him go.

1319
02:21:14.760 --> 02:21:28.120
Peace with mind relaxed.

1320
02:21:31.680 --> 02:22:01.239
Forty so relax relaxed.

1321
02:22:25.559 --> 02:22:52.440
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1322
02:22:58.760 --> 02:24:06.799
so peace real liquor, so peaceful, so fairy. And you

1323
02:24:06.799 --> 02:24:14.000
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1324
02:24:17.000 --> 02:24:26.840
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1325
02:24:28.079 --> 02:24:34.200
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1326
02:24:34.239 --> 02:24:47.159
your body, and your mind starts to slow down. And

1327
02:24:47.200 --> 02:24:54.719
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1328
02:24:54.959 --> 02:25:09.760
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1329
02:25:13.239 --> 02:25:21.239
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1330
02:25:21.239 --> 02:25:29.280
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1331
02:25:29.280 --> 02:25:36.959
break from your life as it is, and to give

1332
02:25:37.000 --> 02:25:45.120
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1333
02:25:45.239 --> 02:25:52.840
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1334
02:25:52.879 --> 02:26:03.319
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1335
02:26:03.399 --> 02:26:12.840
tension and it stresses that you had in your body.

1336
02:26:13.840 --> 02:26:17.760
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1337
02:26:18.000 --> 02:26:29.760
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1338
02:26:29.840 --> 02:26:41.120
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1339
02:26:41.319 --> 02:26:50.559
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1340
02:26:50.600 --> 02:27:07.239
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting

1341
02:27:07.639 --> 02:27:23.079
feeling positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body

1342
02:27:24.120 --> 02:27:34.280
like a wave of comfort. And all this comes from

1343
02:27:34.479 --> 02:27:46.079
just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

1344
02:27:46.520 --> 02:27:51.639
however long you want it to be, to just rest.

1345
02:27:56.680 --> 02:27:57.680
And allow.

1346
02:27:59.719 --> 02:28:09.799
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1347
02:28:09.959 --> 02:28:26.159
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1348
02:28:26.319 --> 02:28:39.760
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1349
02:28:39.959 --> 02:28:48.200
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1350
02:28:48.319 --> 02:28:58.879
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1351
02:28:59.120 --> 02:29:14.639
other with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1352
02:29:14.840 --> 02:29:20.840
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1353
02:29:20.879 --> 02:29:31.079
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1354
02:29:34.319 --> 02:29:37.280
and to experience.

1355
02:29:38.920 --> 02:29:40.200
More of this.

1356
02:29:41.840 --> 02:29:57.239
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1357
02:29:58.559 --> 02:30:04.520
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1358
02:30:04.520 --> 02:30:21.600
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1359
02:30:21.600 --> 02:30:31.280
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1360
02:30:35.319 --> 02:30:41.440
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1361
02:30:43.760 --> 02:30:50.520
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1362
02:30:50.639 --> 02:30:58.319
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1363
02:30:58.360 --> 02:31:11.760
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1364
02:31:12.120 --> 02:31:25.120
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1365
02:31:25.200 --> 02:31:32.159
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1366
02:31:32.479 --> 02:31:41.079
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1367
02:31:42.799 --> 02:31:47.719
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

1368
02:31:47.840 --> 02:31:55.120
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1369
02:31:58.239 --> 02:32:01.319
This isn't this isn't there an environments.

1370
02:32:02.600 --> 02:32:03.559
This is the world.

1371
02:32:07.000 --> 02:32:13.079
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1372
02:32:13.600 --> 02:32:24.079
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1373
02:32:24.360 --> 02:32:32.120
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1374
02:32:34.440 --> 02:32:38.920
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1375
02:32:44.079 --> 02:32:52.360
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1376
02:32:54.840 --> 02:33:04.559
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1377
02:33:04.600 --> 02:33:12.680
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing.

1378
02:33:13.920 --> 02:33:21.040
Completely. Moving your focus.

1379
02:33:22.079 --> 02:33:28.680
Down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth,

1380
02:33:28.799 --> 02:33:39.959
and your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing, calm

1381
02:33:41.479 --> 02:33:52.920
and loose, as you focus now on your jaw, not

1382
02:33:53.239 --> 02:33:57.280
just a part of your jaw near your mouth and

1383
02:33:57.399 --> 02:34:01.639
your chin, but all the way out the size of

1384
02:34:01.760 --> 02:34:03.559
your face to.

1385
02:34:03.639 --> 02:34:18.159
Your ears, the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

1386
02:34:21.639 --> 02:34:22.319
And calm.

1387
02:34:30.520 --> 02:34:39.600
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1388
02:34:39.719 --> 02:34:52.719
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1389
02:34:52.840 --> 02:34:57.559
your neck, the right and left side of.

1390
02:34:57.639 --> 02:35:09.000
Your neck relax and loose and calm.

1391
02:35:15.360 --> 02:35:22.040
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

1392
02:35:22.319 --> 02:35:32.760
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1393
02:35:32.959 --> 02:35:38.360
may have been there before, and enjoying that.

1394
02:35:41.000 --> 02:35:52.120
Sense of increasing comfort and release that you can experience

1395
02:35:53.280 --> 02:35:53.520
in the.

1396
02:35:53.600 --> 02:35:54.520
Back of your neck.

1397
02:36:00.840 --> 02:36:07.239
Moving down your back and moving either side of your

1398
02:36:07.520 --> 02:36:11.280
spine right from the top of your back.

1399
02:36:13.000 --> 02:36:14.280
All the way.

1400
02:36:14.280 --> 02:36:26.920
Down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1401
02:36:27.040 --> 02:36:37.600
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1402
02:36:39.719 --> 02:36:44.120
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1403
02:36:46.360 --> 02:37:00.920
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1404
02:37:01.040 --> 02:37:09.159
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine.

1405
02:37:11.239 --> 02:37:18.319
Into both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1406
02:37:19.200 --> 02:37:25.760
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan.

1407
02:37:27.159 --> 02:37:34.959
Gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1408
02:37:35.120 --> 02:37:40.959
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1409
02:37:45.319 --> 02:37:51.319
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1410
02:37:51.440 --> 02:37:56.760
to just almost divide from each other, separate in and

1411
02:37:59.559 --> 02:38:12.399
almost melting, and in your lower back it seems to

1412
02:38:12.479 --> 02:38:26.120
be an extra special feeling of comfort that spreads into

1413
02:38:26.200 --> 02:38:32.040
your hips. Sit down your lower back, into your hips,

1414
02:38:36.719 --> 02:38:43.799
into the area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks,

1415
02:38:45.959 --> 02:38:49.399
and all those muscles that spread.

1416
02:38:51.600 --> 02:38:56.520
From your lower back into your hip area.

1417
02:38:59.319 --> 02:39:16.000
Start to melt, start to really let go, and even

1418
02:39:16.120 --> 02:39:23.159
nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your back and

1419
02:39:23.319 --> 02:39:34.920
your spine will continue to let go, continue to relax

1420
02:39:38.440 --> 02:39:50.680
so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders, you

1421
02:39:50.879 --> 02:40:16.399
may notice that they're already feeling really loose, They're already feeding, calm.

1422
02:40:22.399 --> 02:40:35.079
And fearing. Those muscles then move from your neck into

1423
02:40:35.159 --> 02:40:44.559
your shoulders feel so soft.

1424
02:40:47.559 --> 02:41:13.120
And gentle, so smooth, and calm, and the feeling in

1425
02:41:13.239 --> 02:41:28.040
your shoulders seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that

1426
02:41:28.360 --> 02:41:37.239
sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1427
02:41:40.719 --> 02:41:43.360
but also relaxing.

1428
02:41:45.479 --> 02:41:46.799
The bones.

1429
02:41:52.280 --> 02:42:00.840
And moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing a

1430
02:42:01.000 --> 02:42:06.280
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

1431
02:42:06.319 --> 02:42:07.200
your arms.

1432
02:42:11.280 --> 02:42:17.879
Healing. You feel so.

1433
02:42:19.799 --> 02:42:33.840
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep

1434
02:42:34.719 --> 02:42:55.520
healing message into your arms, and you may feel almost

1435
02:42:55.680 --> 02:42:59.959
as if your arms are not even there. It could

1436
02:43:00.120 --> 02:43:16.159
is this so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so.

1437
02:43:20.399 --> 02:43:53.559
So calm, so po not feeling spreading.

1438
02:43:55.760 --> 02:44:08.920
All the way down your arms, two elbows, including.

1439
02:44:09.319 --> 02:44:35.840
Your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your forearments

1440
02:44:36.319 --> 02:44:51.760
and your wrists so heavy. Yet at this same time,

1441
02:44:59.360 --> 02:45:37.200
so I and gentle frey, you see now on your hands,

1442
02:46:06.079 --> 02:46:35.680
so peaceful in your hands, there's a sense of real peace.

1443
02:46:47.440 --> 02:47:00.479
It just seems to I feel so familiar when your

1444
02:47:00.680 --> 02:48:05.440
hands relax deeply fes your fingers. A thing is.

1445
02:48:08.520 --> 02:49:11.479
Sidles, you think its tips. Moving your attention to the

1446
02:49:11.680 --> 02:49:42.120
front of your body, so comfortable, moving your focures to

1447
02:49:42.200 --> 02:51:24.120
your legs, lot muscles, in your thighs, your knees.

1448
02:51:27.760 --> 02:52:05.719
So relaxed, a calf muscles and just chans, how puzzy they.

1449
02:52:57.959 --> 02:54:19.280
Ye, and the feathing and your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm,

1450
02:54:25.040 --> 02:55:14.680
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so.

1451
02:55:16.680 --> 02:55:28.440
Peace fall RelA sin.

1452
02:55:33.559 --> 02:55:48.280
Peace fall, so calm, loving that.

1453
02:55:48.680 --> 02:55:59.159
Deep relaxation, the spread your chesting stuff, so.

1454
02:56:08.440 --> 02:56:14.200
Letting go of everything.

1455
02:56:25.479 --> 02:56:31.440
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

1456
02:56:31.520 --> 02:56:39.639
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1457
02:56:40.440 --> 02:56:46.879
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1458
02:56:46.959 --> 02:56:56.079
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1459
02:56:56.639 --> 02:57:12.159
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

1460
02:57:12.319 --> 02:57:17.639
walk down those steps that the deeper and more relaxed

1461
02:57:17.920 --> 02:59:13.760
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen.

1462
02:59:59.200 --> 03:00:00.280
Sixty h.

1463
03:00:12.319 --> 03:00:30.159
H h.

1464
03:00:35.479 --> 03:00:53.799
H h h h.

1465
03:01:14.959 --> 03:06:16.600
Fifteen fourteen four see too well five eight.

1466
03:07:21.719 --> 03:10:24.280
Nine eight seven.

1467
03:10:16.239 --> 03:12:17.760
Four five.

1468
03:13:36.600 --> 03:18:05.360
Four one. And now.

1469
03:18:09.760 --> 03:18:22.399
As you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count down

1470
03:18:22.799 --> 03:18:38.559
from ten dout one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1471
03:18:39.000 --> 03:18:47.840
the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our

1472
03:18:47.959 --> 03:19:04.840
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

1473
03:19:05.120 --> 03:19:13.360
count down from ten down to one, whilst focus in

1474
03:19:13.639 --> 03:19:28.959
on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each

1475
03:19:29.440 --> 03:19:41.879
number counting down that you may find the all you

1476
03:19:42.159 --> 03:19:51.000
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1477
03:19:51.159 --> 03:19:57.719
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1478
03:19:57.879 --> 03:20:12.479
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1479
03:20:12.639 --> 03:20:14.559
begin counting down.

1480
03:20:15.840 --> 03:20:58.040
From ten down to one right now. Ten nine.

1481
03:21:32.079 --> 03:23:12.319
Eight seven.

1482
03:24:29.879 --> 03:28:00.920
Five four three two.

1483
03:29:28.760 --> 03:29:29.000
One.

1484
03:29:35.280 --> 03:29:51.959
So counted down from ten to one ten nine eight

1485
03:29:54.799 --> 03:30:00.120
seven six five.

1486
03:30:02.399 --> 03:30:20.120
Four three two one. And maybe that was a bit

1487
03:30:20.200 --> 03:30:24.280
too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit

1488
03:30:24.399 --> 03:30:30.879
too fast for you to notice the calming of your body,

1489
03:30:34.079 --> 03:30:38.639
maybe even a little bit of pressure there, like you're

1490
03:30:38.719 --> 03:30:41.440
counting down from ten to one. Would you expect me

1491
03:30:41.600 --> 03:30:41.959
to do?

1492
03:30:42.280 --> 03:30:46.440
Man, expect me to just to go with floppy just

1493
03:30:46.520 --> 03:30:55.920
because you're counting down. I could try it again, but

1494
03:30:56.040 --> 03:30:57.520
this time I go this slow.

1495
03:30:59.760 --> 03:31:04.719
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1496
03:31:04.760 --> 03:31:11.760
body before we focus on your legs, just notice.

1497
03:31:12.959 --> 03:31:25.760
How your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1498
03:31:27.040 --> 03:31:51.040
every number that I count down ten nine eight seven

1499
03:32:00.239 --> 03:33:15.559
six five four three two one. And just notice how.

1500
03:33:17.799 --> 03:33:27.239
How you feel generally how your body feels. It's not

1501
03:33:27.399 --> 03:33:38.399
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1502
03:33:38.520 --> 03:33:55.680
that space that you have, that space between being active

1503
03:33:58.040 --> 03:34:07.520
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

1504
03:34:07.799 --> 03:34:13.680
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not needing

1505
03:34:13.920 --> 03:34:19.399
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1506
03:34:20.399 --> 03:34:29.520
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1507
03:34:29.639 --> 03:34:34.200
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1508
03:34:34.280 --> 03:34:42.280
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1509
03:34:43.680 --> 03:34:59.319
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1510
03:35:00.920 --> 03:35:08.879
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1511
03:35:10.440 --> 03:35:25.440
Away. Allows you to just slow down.

1512
03:35:29.079 --> 03:35:31.959
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1513
03:35:32.200 --> 03:35:42.159
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1514
03:35:42.239 --> 03:35:48.600
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap.

1515
03:36:02.079 --> 03:36:06.200
It gives you that distance and space.

1516
03:36:08.559 --> 03:38:15.000
Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now,

1517
03:38:15.239 --> 03:38:19.280
how does your body feel.

1518
03:38:21.239 --> 03:38:21.399
Now?

1519
03:38:34.120 --> 03:38:49.399
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1520
03:38:49.840 --> 03:39:17.239
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1521
03:39:33.239 --> 03:39:53.360
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1522
03:39:53.479 --> 03:39:58.360
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1523
03:40:01.799 --> 03:40:04.479
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1524
03:40:04.600 --> 03:40:17.000
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

1525
03:40:17.120 --> 03:40:23.520
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1526
03:40:23.680 --> 03:40:30.639
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1527
03:40:30.760 --> 03:40:35.680
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1528
03:40:35.799 --> 03:40:45.079
that leads into your hip and it goes down to your.

1529
03:40:47.000 --> 03:40:58.879
Knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's a

1530
03:40:59.040 --> 03:40:59.959
very heavy area.

1531
03:41:00.079 --> 03:41:06.159
Yeah, it's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your

1532
03:41:06.239 --> 03:41:19.200
body or in your thighs. But I don't think we

1533
03:41:21.000 --> 03:41:33.959
perhaps give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't

1534
03:41:35.559 --> 03:41:38.520
acknowledge how important.

1535
03:41:39.280 --> 03:41:59.559
Our thighs are to our lives, how much they actually

1536
03:41:59.680 --> 03:42:13.440
do for us all through our lives. And it may

1537
03:42:13.559 --> 03:42:18.799
seem to sound really weird, but I think that all

1538
03:42:18.959 --> 03:42:19.319
of our.

1539
03:42:19.239 --> 03:42:30.120
Body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit

1540
03:42:30.159 --> 03:42:46.920
of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude

1541
03:42:49.879 --> 03:42:58.680
for what our thighs do for us. And I know

1542
03:42:58.879 --> 03:43:05.200
this may sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I,

1543
03:43:06.000 --> 03:43:08.760
Surely I should be able in the garden hugging a

1544
03:43:08.879 --> 03:43:17.280
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1545
03:43:17.360 --> 03:43:20.399
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1546
03:43:20.440 --> 03:43:23.920
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1547
03:43:24.040 --> 03:43:25.559
can't see the television.

1548
03:43:25.120 --> 03:43:25.600
From the tree.

1549
03:43:32.319 --> 03:43:36.559
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1550
03:43:36.680 --> 03:43:46.360
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1551
03:43:46.440 --> 03:43:53.760
for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1552
03:43:53.879 --> 03:43:59.120
knees do for me until I have a problem with

1553
03:43:59.239 --> 03:44:01.719
my knee. It's occasionally, if.

1554
03:44:01.680 --> 03:44:02.040
I ever.

1555
03:44:03.479 --> 03:44:07.440
Maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1556
03:44:09.159 --> 03:44:15.360
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1557
03:44:15.440 --> 03:44:21.399
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1558
03:44:23.159 --> 03:44:26.040
any kind of physical discomfort.

1559
03:44:26.879 --> 03:44:33.920
Is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

1560
03:44:34.559 --> 03:44:43.959
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1561
03:44:44.040 --> 03:44:51.920
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1562
03:44:52.000 --> 03:44:57.840
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1563
03:44:58.000 --> 03:44:59.799
needs for all that they do for you.

1564
03:45:10.280 --> 03:45:13.440
And you can still have that attention on your thighs

1565
03:45:14.079 --> 03:45:20.159
and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed

1566
03:45:20.399 --> 03:45:37.559
that they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now

1567
03:45:39.440 --> 03:45:43.200
on the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your

1568
03:45:43.280 --> 03:45:49.639
calf muscles, and the bones between your knees and your

1569
03:45:49.719 --> 03:46:02.719
feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important. You know,

1570
03:46:02.760 --> 03:46:07.559
anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1571
03:46:07.600 --> 03:46:15.719
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1572
03:46:21.600 --> 03:46:23.600
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1573
03:46:23.719 --> 03:46:29.280
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1574
03:46:29.479 --> 03:46:34.280
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1575
03:46:34.399 --> 03:46:38.280
it doesn't can't see any problem with that because we're

1576
03:46:38.360 --> 03:46:39.360
just picking stuff up.

1577
03:46:40.959 --> 03:46:42.479
But our ankles.

1578
03:46:43.719 --> 03:46:53.639
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1579
03:46:53.799 --> 03:46:58.360
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't.

1580
03:46:58.079 --> 03:47:01.719
Really make sense that all this weight.

1581
03:47:03.079 --> 03:47:10.040
Would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to

1582
03:47:10.120 --> 03:47:23.319
your feet that thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does

1583
03:47:23.559 --> 03:47:30.360
so much great work. Supports us, supports our body for

1584
03:47:30.440 --> 03:47:40.799
a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps you to

1585
03:47:44.799 --> 03:47:46.479
get around and be mobile.

1586
03:47:52.799 --> 03:47:53.760
And there's the calf.

1587
03:47:53.639 --> 03:48:02.120
Muscles, of course, showinger. I couldn't see the point in

1588
03:48:02.200 --> 03:48:08.200
calf muscles didn't seem to do anything, okay, if I

1589
03:48:08.239 --> 03:48:12.159
walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1590
03:48:13.559 --> 03:48:16.120
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1591
03:48:16.159 --> 03:48:26.079
being used whenever we use our legs and your shins

1592
03:48:29.360 --> 03:48:38.360
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

1593
03:48:40.200 --> 03:48:52.280
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1594
03:48:52.399 --> 03:48:53.760
to your ankles.

1595
03:48:56.639 --> 03:49:03.200
And your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1596
03:49:03.319 --> 03:49:05.399
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1597
03:49:07.479 --> 03:49:08.719
I realize.

1598
03:49:10.239 --> 03:49:14.120
That now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing

1599
03:49:14.399 --> 03:49:18.079
on them anyway. For maybe I should focus on your feet.

1600
03:49:17.799 --> 03:49:18.319
A little bit.

1601
03:49:22.360 --> 03:49:26.760
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1602
03:49:26.840 --> 03:49:31.200
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1603
03:49:31.319 --> 03:49:37.280
haven't been focusing on your thighs a few minutes, we'll

1604
03:49:37.319 --> 03:49:39.559
be focusing on your ankles.

1605
03:49:45.280 --> 03:50:00.479
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and

1606
03:50:00.600 --> 03:50:04.520
this that movement of energy.

1607
03:50:06.239 --> 03:50:13.280
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1608
03:50:13.360 --> 03:50:18.120
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1609
03:50:18.319 --> 03:50:31.639
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1610
03:50:31.719 --> 03:50:37.040
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1611
03:50:37.840 --> 03:50:49.440
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1612
03:50:56.000 --> 03:51:03.520
and inside your thighs the bones there's the muscle, there's

1613
03:51:03.559 --> 03:51:08.319
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, it's all this stuff

1614
03:51:08.479 --> 03:51:17.200
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1615
03:51:17.319 --> 03:51:21.440
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1616
03:51:21.520 --> 03:51:27.719
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1617
03:51:27.879 --> 03:51:30.879
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1618
03:51:30.959 --> 03:51:35.760
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1619
03:51:35.840 --> 03:51:40.280
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg.

1620
03:51:42.319 --> 03:51:48.079
Massage in all the veins and just gently.

1621
03:51:50.479 --> 03:52:00.120
Heathing your thighs, and you could move down message and

1622
03:52:00.200 --> 03:52:05.760
inside your knees. It's a messaging those bones, but with

1623
03:52:06.120 --> 03:52:13.319
healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into the joints

1624
03:52:14.680 --> 03:52:22.680
of your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1625
03:52:23.840 --> 03:52:28.520
your knee, you know, the inside crease where your knee is.

1626
03:52:30.200 --> 03:52:35.680
It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice

1627
03:52:35.760 --> 03:52:40.360
when you stroke it. That might be because it's an

1628
03:52:40.399 --> 03:52:45.680
area that's not really touched very often. It's almost like

1629
03:52:45.760 --> 03:52:49.159
a hidden part, that crease.

1630
03:52:50.959 --> 03:52:55.440
In your legs. It's almost like a part that.

1631
03:52:57.239 --> 03:53:00.280
Has a sensitivity, which is a little bit differ from

1632
03:53:08.079 --> 03:53:18.000
of course, it's protected by your legs, so you can

1633
03:53:18.040 --> 03:53:23.399
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs.

1634
03:53:29.200 --> 03:53:32.799
Fold in between your legs. You can just message with

1635
03:53:32.920 --> 03:53:40.000
your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside message in the

1636
03:53:40.719 --> 03:53:49.959
muscle tissue. You can of course feel the bones of

1637
03:53:50.079 --> 03:54:01.959
your knees heading through your fingertips. And then as you

1638
03:54:02.120 --> 03:54:07.879
go down to your calf muscles, and that's the part

1639
03:54:07.920 --> 03:54:12.040
I'd like to be able to really put my fingertips

1640
03:54:12.159 --> 03:54:21.600
deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue

1641
03:54:21.719 --> 03:54:32.879
of that muscle, healing every part, and then doing the

1642
03:54:33.000 --> 03:54:41.120
same for my shins, massage in and gently stroking the bones,

1643
03:54:42.920 --> 03:54:48.600
gently stroking them, healing in a loving way, because they

1644
03:54:48.719 --> 03:54:55.040
deserve to be treated as the precious bones that they are.

1645
03:54:56.440 --> 03:54:59.639
Because my legs are so precious as in all the

1646
03:54:59.719 --> 03:55:06.159
other hearts of our body, the more precious of anytual.

1647
03:55:08.120 --> 03:55:20.840
On the planet. When you start to think about.

1648
03:55:23.959 --> 03:55:32.799
Your legs in this way, it can change your perspective.

1649
03:55:35.520 --> 03:55:41.280
It might sound a bit a bit silly to start

1650
03:55:41.360 --> 03:55:48.120
with the idea of having love for your legs, showing

1651
03:55:48.159 --> 03:55:56.399
appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be able to put

1652
03:55:56.440 --> 03:56:04.280
your hands in your thighs, the massage the muscles and

1653
03:56:04.399 --> 03:56:09.159
the bones, and to get your fingers deep in there,

1654
03:56:10.399 --> 03:56:16.399
releasing all tension, just to show.

1655
03:56:18.040 --> 03:56:25.399
How much you care about your legs, how much you

1656
03:56:25.520 --> 03:56:28.920
care for what your legs do for you.

1657
03:56:30.520 --> 03:56:42.639
Regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of

1658
03:56:42.760 --> 03:56:50.840
your ankles considering how thin they are compared to the

1659
03:56:50.920 --> 03:56:58.600
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1660
03:57:00.200 --> 03:57:07.280
so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

1661
03:57:08.559 --> 03:57:15.399
Your ankles are truly a gift.

1662
03:57:17.399 --> 03:57:26.479
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1663
03:57:28.479 --> 03:57:33.000
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you're

1664
03:57:33.000 --> 03:57:38.040
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1665
03:57:38.159 --> 03:57:44.879
these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight

1666
03:57:44.959 --> 03:57:55.600
stone double down, yet my ankles support my body all

1667
03:57:55.639 --> 03:58:02.559
the time. They do give off a sigh of relief

1668
03:58:02.639 --> 03:58:07.920
when I sit down, as have my whole legs do.

1669
03:58:11.600 --> 03:58:18.959
My feet feet also go, my toes clap, they're so happy.

1670
03:58:38.760 --> 03:58:43.879
Your legs really are amazing.

1671
03:58:46.520 --> 03:58:50.159
And I know that talk about talking about your legs

1672
03:58:50.280 --> 03:58:51.079
is probably.

1673
03:58:53.280 --> 03:58:57.959
Possibly among the most most boring things you've ever heard

1674
03:58:58.000 --> 03:59:06.399
anyone say, possibly your gory or not. Everything I said

1675
03:59:06.520 --> 03:59:23.200
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1676
03:59:23.600 --> 03:59:31.920
just respect, they deserve to relax.

1677
03:59:33.360 --> 03:59:44.079
Deeply. They deserve to take some time out of the

1678
03:59:44.200 --> 04:00:07.680
day to just let go completely. The legs.

1679
04:00:12.799 --> 04:00:15.319
Really can relax.

1680
04:00:22.959 --> 04:00:27.040
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1681
04:00:27.319 --> 04:00:33.239
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1682
04:00:33.319 --> 04:00:40.559
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1683
04:00:44.280 --> 04:00:55.120
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1684
04:00:56.520 --> 04:01:03.639
My hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back

1685
04:01:03.719 --> 04:01:04.079
as well.

1686
04:01:06.120 --> 04:01:09.000
My lower back really feels it.

1687
04:01:09.079 --> 04:01:13.239
Feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting in a chair

1688
04:01:14.120 --> 04:01:16.120
and there's no stretching.

1689
04:01:18.239 --> 04:01:19.520
As far as I'm aware.

1690
04:01:19.239 --> 04:01:22.360
That I'm doing, but it's almost as if the muscles

1691
04:01:22.399 --> 04:01:26.440
are just relaxed so much that there is a natural

1692
04:01:26.719 --> 04:01:34.280
stretch as the tension has reduced a lot.

1693
04:01:50.639 --> 04:01:53.719
And I'm now going to count down from ten down

1694
04:01:53.799 --> 04:02:05.079
to one, and you can continue to fill wonderfully relaxed.

1695
04:02:08.920 --> 04:02:40.959
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

1696
04:02:45.120 --> 04:02:52.040
One relax.

1697
04:03:00.040 --> 04:03:04.200
I'm just going to count down from five down to one.

1698
04:03:04.959 --> 04:03:09.520
And as a countdown, if you just focus on the numbers,

1699
04:03:11.200 --> 04:03:19.520
just the numbers counting down, and notice how you feel.

1700
04:03:21.879 --> 04:03:26.479
In this moment as you hear the numbers counting down,

1701
04:03:27.520 --> 04:03:29.840
knowing that those numbers.

1702
04:03:32.040 --> 04:03:42.680
Counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1703
04:03:42.840 --> 04:03:51.200
but also relaxing your mind. I'll just notice how you feel.

1704
04:03:52.079 --> 04:03:58.000
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1705
04:03:58.120 --> 04:03:58.879
to think about.

1706
04:04:01.959 --> 04:04:50.920
Starting with number five, four, three two one. Now, did

1707
04:04:50.959 --> 04:04:59.840
you notice the gradual letting go.

1708
04:05:02.200 --> 04:05:09.520
The tension in your body. You may also begin to

1709
04:05:09.799 --> 04:05:17.079
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

1710
04:05:17.520 --> 04:05:25.520
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1711
04:05:28.120 --> 04:05:33.319
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1712
04:05:33.360 --> 04:05:39.280
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1713
04:05:40.879 --> 04:05:44.520
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1714
04:05:44.639 --> 04:05:55.159
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that

1715
04:05:56.440 --> 04:06:04.319
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1716
04:06:04.360 --> 04:06:11.319
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1717
04:06:11.799 --> 04:06:14.680
going to be quite calm.

1718
04:06:16.360 --> 04:06:19.000
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1719
04:06:19.319 --> 04:06:23.559
music in the background, unless you're listening to the recording

1720
04:06:23.600 --> 04:06:31.040
with music. Of course, you're very likely not going to

1721
04:06:31.079 --> 04:06:34.120
be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

1722
04:06:34.200 --> 04:06:38.719
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

1723
04:06:38.799 --> 04:06:40.159
can do this on your own.

1724
04:06:41.680 --> 04:06:51.719
So no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1725
04:06:58.319 --> 04:07:06.479
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort.

1726
04:07:07.799 --> 04:07:13.200
Starts to grow, and.

1727
04:07:15.000 --> 04:07:20.200
Without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1728
04:07:23.600 --> 04:07:32.280
something magical, this is just a natural process, something that's

1729
04:07:33.479 --> 04:07:43.200
easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense of

1730
04:07:43.479 --> 04:07:50.760
relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1731
04:07:51.760 --> 04:07:57.440
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1732
04:07:57.600 --> 04:08:08.360
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1733
04:08:08.639 --> 04:08:20.600
recording and others is simply two allow you to take

1734
04:08:20.639 --> 04:08:35.520
advantage of this space, this time, to just let go,

1735
04:08:38.680 --> 04:08:41.559
to just be here, to be.

1736
04:08:42.159 --> 04:08:43.159
In tune.

1737
04:08:46.479 --> 04:08:58.559
With how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1738
04:08:58.879 --> 04:09:10.959
to relaxed deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1739
04:09:11.200 --> 04:09:16.120
on what it is that you wish for yourself.

1740
04:09:17.360 --> 04:09:18.159
In this moment.

1741
04:09:25.159 --> 04:09:34.520
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1742
04:09:34.639 --> 04:09:39.799
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1743
04:09:39.959 --> 04:09:47.719
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relax do you become,

1744
04:09:51.680 --> 04:09:53.079
the easier.

1745
04:09:55.639 --> 04:09:56.559
You find.

1746
04:09:57.799 --> 04:10:13.840
Yourself drifting. You can also if you choose stay focused

1747
04:10:15.000 --> 04:10:38.959
on my voice and really enjoy the process gradually relaxing

1748
04:10:43.239 --> 04:10:44.799
each muscle.

1749
04:10:49.040 --> 04:11:15.879
In your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1750
04:11:16.159 --> 04:11:24.000
letting go completely.

1751
04:11:30.040 --> 04:11:34.040
This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

1752
04:11:38.879 --> 04:11:48.079
and you can notice your mind calming down more with

1753
04:11:48.479 --> 04:11:50.040
each number.

1754
04:11:51.399 --> 04:12:00.079
That you hear me say naturally feeling.

1755
04:12:01.719 --> 04:14:12.319
Come slow, peaceful, six, five, four, three, two.

1756
04:14:40.520 --> 04:15:15.760
Four, being aware of how your mind has slowed right down, sinking.

1757
04:15:17.879 --> 04:15:38.200
Deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1758
04:15:38.479 --> 04:15:43.280
you may notice that.

1759
04:15:45.200 --> 04:15:52.959
There are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

1760
04:15:53.200 --> 04:16:01.239
that for some reason need your attention.

1761
04:16:08.159 --> 04:16:09.520
That's what you can do is.

1762
04:16:15.079 --> 04:16:27.760
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love.

1763
04:16:29.319 --> 04:16:33.559
Like a petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1764
04:16:35.000 --> 04:16:42.159
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1765
04:16:42.360 --> 04:16:47.000
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them.

1766
04:16:48.479 --> 04:16:56.239
You just need them. You require them to just calm down,

1767
04:16:58.520 --> 04:17:02.959
slow down, quiet down.

1768
04:17:06.639 --> 04:17:07.040
For now.

1769
04:17:14.920 --> 04:17:19.920
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1770
04:17:20.120 --> 04:17:25.360
count down this time from seven down to one with

1771
04:17:25.479 --> 04:17:39.399
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1772
04:17:41.000 --> 04:17:52.840
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1773
04:17:54.280 --> 04:17:57.799
melt away and relax deeply.

1774
04:18:01.639 --> 04:18:02.879
With every number.

1775
04:18:08.440 --> 04:18:25.799
Those thoughts would become more and more relaxed. Starting with

1776
04:18:26.079 --> 04:19:18.280
number seven, six, five, four.

1777
04:19:43.959 --> 04:20:17.079
Three two.

1778
04:20:35.799 --> 04:21:05.920
What it is you now notice how relaxed your feeling

1779
04:21:09.639 --> 04:21:25.239
in your body. We're going to focus on your hands.

1780
04:21:31.079 --> 04:21:36.639
It is the more relaxed your hands are, the more

1781
04:21:36.719 --> 04:21:40.079
relaxed your body and mind are.

1782
04:21:55.040 --> 04:21:55.319
And this.

1783
04:21:57.159 --> 04:22:07.280
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1784
04:22:07.799 --> 04:22:12.559
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1785
04:22:13.639 --> 04:22:23.920
dancing the fingers or anything like that. Yeah, it's just

1786
04:22:24.399 --> 04:22:38.440
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1787
04:22:53.079 --> 04:22:54.440
Because the more.

1788
04:22:56.479 --> 04:23:04.879
Relaxed do your hands feel, the calm your mind feels,

1789
04:23:06.799 --> 04:23:08.200
and the more.

1790
04:23:10.760 --> 04:23:27.079
Comfort you feel throughout your body. And you may have.

1791
04:23:31.079 --> 04:23:52.000
Already noticed your mind is starting.

1792
04:23:54.920 --> 04:23:56.040
To dress.

1793
04:24:09.479 --> 04:24:10.440
Like sense.

1794
04:24:14.159 --> 04:24:28.799
Just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience

1795
04:24:31.559 --> 04:24:39.760
how real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

1796
04:24:45.799 --> 04:24:50.600
more and more relaxed.

1797
04:24:55.760 --> 04:24:57.200
With each number.

1798
04:25:04.760 --> 04:25:05.639
From eight.

1799
04:25:07.920 --> 04:25:14.239
Down to one, you can.

1800
04:25:14.159 --> 04:25:25.399
Almost view that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

1801
04:25:25.600 --> 04:25:27.200
hands and.

1802
04:25:27.399 --> 04:25:32.479
Fingers becoming.

1803
04:25:36.360 --> 04:25:38.000
Year law.

1804
04:25:39.879 --> 04:25:40.600
Relaxing.

1805
04:25:43.760 --> 04:25:48.520
With each number you hear.

1806
04:25:52.360 --> 04:25:53.479
Going down.

1807
04:25:54.760 --> 04:26:13.479
From eight down to one, drifting, drifting again, starting with.

1808
04:26:18.079 --> 04:28:08.799
Number eight seven five.

1809
04:28:33.120 --> 04:30:20.040
Four three, hush, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1810
04:30:21.799 --> 04:30:33.200
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1811
04:30:37.959 --> 04:30:45.719
This is your natural state of being. This is how

1812
04:30:45.840 --> 04:30:52.440
you just normally feel when you take away all that

1813
04:30:52.879 --> 04:30:54.239
other stuff.

1814
04:30:56.280 --> 04:31:00.479
That we add, nothing like ress.

1815
04:31:00.399 --> 04:31:01.440
And worrying and.

1816
04:31:04.360 --> 04:31:16.840
Overthinking, the anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1817
04:31:19.040 --> 04:31:22.159
You take that away, which is what we do.

1818
04:31:22.920 --> 04:31:24.000
What we do now.

1819
04:31:30.239 --> 04:31:31.000
You're left with.

1820
04:31:33.760 --> 04:31:42.760
A real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly,

1821
04:31:46.959 --> 04:31:57.799
because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort,

1822
04:32:01.760 --> 04:32:05.559
almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've found.

1823
04:32:05.920 --> 04:32:09.000
A special place where.

1824
04:32:11.159 --> 04:32:22.680
Everything is peaceful, a place where you can feel relaxed

1825
04:32:23.280 --> 04:32:24.639
and your natural.

1826
04:32:26.440 --> 04:32:31.479
Sense of comfort, a place.

1827
04:32:31.239 --> 04:32:40.040
Where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1828
04:32:41.079 --> 04:32:46.120
for who you are, the place where you're not trying

1829
04:32:46.200 --> 04:32:56.559
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

1830
04:32:58.319 --> 04:33:07.040
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1831
04:33:07.639 --> 04:33:13.360
you can like yourself, appreciate.

1832
04:33:14.119 --> 04:33:15.159
Who you are.

1833
04:33:24.040 --> 04:33:26.560
A sense of gratitude.

1834
04:33:28.919 --> 04:33:38.159
Is in the air all around you, and.

1835
04:33:38.279 --> 04:33:44.759
That's also a place where you can actually feel.

1836
04:33:46.080 --> 04:34:02.080
The healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soap into.

1837
04:34:01.840 --> 04:34:02.720
Your body.

1838
04:34:07.319 --> 04:34:16.279
And that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1839
04:34:16.639 --> 04:34:20.360
each and every single part.

1840
04:34:21.799 --> 04:34:30.919
Of your body. When you start to realize that actually

1841
04:34:31.759 --> 04:34:37.840
that healing energy it's not just entered into your brain,

1842
04:34:40.639 --> 04:34:50.159
it's become part of your brain, and the spinal fluid

1843
04:34:52.840 --> 04:35:00.840
is now mixed with healing energy, not just.

1844
04:35:02.959 --> 04:35:07.200
Allowing you to feel so much more relaxed.

1845
04:35:08.680 --> 04:35:17.439
And healthy in this moment, but also.

1846
04:35:19.959 --> 04:35:27.479
You start to realize to actually, what's happening now with

1847
04:35:27.639 --> 04:35:37.279
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, It's actually

1848
04:35:37.720 --> 04:35:47.919
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1849
04:35:48.040 --> 04:35:54.799
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1850
04:35:56.720 --> 04:35:57.840
As your health.

1851
04:35:58.080 --> 04:36:05.319
Improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

1852
04:36:09.279 --> 04:36:14.439
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

1853
04:36:14.639 --> 04:36:20.680
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

1854
04:36:20.680 --> 04:36:26.560
to because something has changed.

1855
04:36:27.639 --> 04:36:28.880
Deep within you.

1856
04:36:33.959 --> 04:36:40.360
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1857
04:36:44.200 --> 04:36:54.279
no longer have that power to control you the way

1858
04:36:54.360 --> 04:37:02.360
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1859
04:37:03.439 --> 04:37:15.840
that you're the one who decides what affects you, you're

1860
04:37:16.360 --> 04:37:24.720
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm.

1861
04:37:26.000 --> 04:37:32.479
When you choose to enjoy.

1862
04:37:33.680 --> 04:37:49.200
Noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to grow and

1863
04:37:49.400 --> 04:38:01.919
improve your life day by day, including a course, your ability.

1864
04:38:03.439 --> 04:38:13.360
To relax so much easier and sleep in.

1865
04:38:17.919 --> 04:38:23.599
It's the most natural thing in the world to you,

1866
04:38:28.119 --> 04:38:31.919
because falling asleep is something that you've done.

1867
04:38:34.720 --> 04:38:36.279
So many times.

1868
04:38:37.639 --> 04:38:43.279
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1869
04:38:44.799 --> 04:38:47.240
as we all were, with the.

1870
04:38:47.319 --> 04:39:00.319
Ability to fall asleep naturally, and you're born with that ability.

1871
04:39:02.720 --> 04:39:10.759
To just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1872
04:39:16.720 --> 04:39:17.639
Even when we're.

1873
04:39:17.599 --> 04:39:22.319
Kids, sometimes will fall asleep and we don't even want

1874
04:39:22.400 --> 04:39:28.240
to try to take a stay awake. Maybe it's a

1875
04:39:28.360 --> 04:39:33.119
birthday in the morning, night it's Christmas or holiday.

1876
04:39:32.799 --> 04:39:34.040
Or something we look forward to.

1877
04:39:34.680 --> 04:39:35.840
I don't want to go to sleep.

1878
04:39:38.119 --> 04:39:43.080
But the more you want to stay awake, the more

1879
04:39:43.319 --> 04:39:51.639
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1880
04:39:52.319 --> 04:39:54.680
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

1881
04:39:54.759 --> 04:40:07.759
a safe the deeper and stronger they're drifting. Comes because

1882
04:40:07.799 --> 04:40:13.240
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1883
04:40:14.959 --> 04:40:24.799
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1884
04:40:24.919 --> 04:40:35.400
part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

1885
04:40:35.520 --> 04:40:41.959
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten.

1886
04:40:45.799 --> 04:40:49.720
That relaxing completely.

1887
04:40:50.720 --> 04:41:04.080
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1888
04:41:15.439 --> 04:41:20.159
It's very very easy to let go.

1889
04:41:22.159 --> 04:41:23.279
Because that's all it is.

1890
04:41:23.479 --> 04:41:23.959
It's just.

1891
04:41:27.479 --> 04:41:38.880
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1892
04:41:39.000 --> 04:41:47.240
button on my recordings, you have given permission.

1893
04:41:48.959 --> 04:41:50.200
From my voice.

1894
04:41:51.479 --> 04:41:52.159
To relax you.

1895
04:41:55.880 --> 04:41:59.400
When you press that play button, you have given me

1896
04:41:59.520 --> 04:42:02.880
permission for my words.

1897
04:42:06.319 --> 04:42:16.720
To effect you in a positive, only a positive way.

1898
04:42:20.639 --> 04:42:21.479
Opening up.

1899
04:42:26.599 --> 04:42:27.479
Your mind.

1900
04:42:29.000 --> 04:42:39.560
Two useful and healing suggestions.

1901
04:42:44.159 --> 04:42:44.799
They can have.

1902
04:42:49.360 --> 04:42:56.799
Such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1903
04:43:01.560 --> 04:43:11.400
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1904
04:43:11.520 --> 04:43:22.159
recording ends. Those changes within you to continue to flourish

1905
04:43:23.040 --> 04:43:37.599
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1906
04:43:40.680 --> 04:43:47.759
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1907
04:43:47.880 --> 04:43:50.000
direction that you choose.

1908
04:43:51.319 --> 04:43:52.080
For yourself.

1909
04:44:01.200 --> 04:44:10.360
And this feeling, this feeling with you in experience of safety,

1910
04:44:11.159 --> 04:44:13.159
comfort and calmness.

1911
04:44:20.959 --> 04:44:22.560
This feels so nice.

1912
04:44:31.840 --> 04:44:44.560
It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

1913
04:44:45.919 --> 04:44:48.200
grows within you.

1914
04:44:54.000 --> 04:44:56.599
Each and every day.

1915
04:45:00.080 --> 04:45:12.360
Moving forward, you're how to find you're more relaxed physically

1916
04:45:15.599 --> 04:45:24.279
and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's not

1917
04:45:24.439 --> 04:45:30.080
that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind would

1918
04:45:30.119 --> 04:45:42.159
be less knocked up if unnecessary negativity, because from now on,

1919
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your mind rejects negativity.

1920
04:45:50.639 --> 04:45:54.200
From now on, you're going to start noticing.

1921
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When negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop.

1922
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And the negativity.

1923
04:46:16.080 --> 04:46:19.159
Will turn around and leave your life.

1924
04:46:27.159 --> 04:46:33.880
Stop and that negativity.

1925
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Will disappear.

1926
04:46:45.279 --> 04:46:51.720
And that you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1927
04:46:53.159 --> 04:46:55.080
than you probably expected.

1928
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You can now.

1929
04:47:05.759 --> 04:47:08.919
Congratulate yourself because.

1930
04:47:08.720 --> 04:47:11.599
You're the person that has done this.

1931
04:47:13.360 --> 04:47:18.799
You are the one that has opened your mind up

1932
04:47:19.520 --> 04:47:27.560
to the simple facts, and you can feel more relaxed

1933
04:47:27.680 --> 04:47:29.200
in your body and.

1934
04:47:29.400 --> 04:47:30.040
In your mind.

1935
04:47:36.279 --> 04:47:42.159
You've opened your mind up to the birthrights, have been

1936
04:47:42.240 --> 04:47:59.040
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

1937
04:47:59.200 --> 04:48:06.159
that's a nice feeling, don't you think feels nice?

1938
04:48:06.279 --> 04:48:06.639
Doesn't it?

1939
04:48:09.759 --> 04:48:12.159
To feel calm?

1940
04:48:13.840 --> 04:48:18.439
For that healing energy is spreading through your body in

1941
04:48:18.560 --> 04:48:36.240
your mind. Spend time a special place where negativity can

1942
04:48:36.400 --> 04:48:49.720
no longer enter. Negativity is bad. It's bad, it's not allowed.

1943
04:48:49.840 --> 04:48:56.240
Intrigue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here,

1944
04:48:56.599 --> 04:48:58.080
It doesn't been long here.

1945
04:49:01.799 --> 04:49:16.520
Negativity has no place in your life, which makes.

1946
04:49:16.439 --> 04:49:26.080
Room for more comfort, more heaving, more relaxation.

1947
04:49:30.080 --> 04:49:30.799
More peace.

1948
04:49:47.919 --> 04:49:48.759
It was nice.

1949
04:49:48.840 --> 04:49:51.159
An't that it's just.

1950
04:49:54.599 --> 04:49:55.279
The go.

1951
04:49:58.919 --> 04:50:14.759
Everything. Let the count down.

1952
04:50:14.720 --> 04:50:17.599
Now from twenty down to one.

1953
04:50:21.000 --> 04:50:23.279
He can continue to relax.

1954
04:50:25.560 --> 04:50:36.919
If he cheases, you can career to sleep. But yet

1955
04:50:37.000 --> 04:50:38.000
re number.

1956
04:50:40.159 --> 04:50:48.880
He heard me say, he can feel no Wise is relaxed,

1957
04:50:51.959 --> 04:50:56.599
or if he cheats, you can feel the Wise is sleeping.

1958
04:51:03.040 --> 04:51:09.599
Now twenty.

1959
04:51:18.279 --> 04:51:44.840
Ninety eighteen, seventeen, six sixty.

1960
04:51:52.040 --> 04:52:01.040
Fifteen for teen.

1961
04:52:09.840 --> 04:52:19.000
To well.

1962
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The fifth dam nine.

1963
04:52:50.880 --> 04:53:17.119
Eighty five.

1964
04:53:57.680 --> 04:54:07.759
This is your time. Let's just take a break, your.

1965
04:54:07.720 --> 04:54:08.439
Time to.

1966
04:54:11.240 --> 04:54:27.560
Relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to give

1967
04:54:27.599 --> 04:54:46.159
yourself permission to take a break for everything. And you

1968
04:54:46.680 --> 04:54:50.520
I am person they can make a listen.

1969
04:54:53.240 --> 04:54:55.720
To the only person to tell me, w.

1970
04:55:01.000 --> 04:55:28.040
Yes, thanks, thanks, but by.

1971
04:55:43.599 --> 04:56:03.919
The Princess opusponded absurd.

1972
04:56:06.520 --> 04:56:11.279
To speak. But with the

1973
04:56:19.119 --> 04:56:22.279
It spake, it spake