Sept. 19, 2025

(no music) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

(no music) #1434 Let me bore you to sleep | Q&A Friday

👉 "(no music) #1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025" 📄 Duration: 1 hour, 16 minutes 🔗 View Transcript on TurboScribe 🧵 OVERVIEW This episode of Let Me Bore You to Sleep is structured around Jason Newland's...

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👉 "(no music) #1434 Let Me Bore You to Sleep Q&A Friday – Jason Newland – 19th September 2025"
📄 Duration: 1 hour, 16 minutes
🔗 View Transcript on TurboScribe 🧵 OVERVIEW This episode of Let Me Bore You to Sleep is structured around Jason Newland's Q&A Friday format, though he jokes about the limited number of questions. The episode blends technical updates, listener questions, personal reflections, and Jason's signature rambling storytelling. 🛠️ TECHNICAL UPDATES (0:00 – 10:00)

  • Apple Podcast Issues: Jason discusses frustrating problems with Apple Podcasts not displaying his new episodes. After much effort, he was forced to archive and resubmit 12 podcasts to fix the issue.
  • Impact: Listener stats dropped, and Jason fears many fans aren’t aware of the uploads' disappearance.
  • Website Changes:
    • He restored his primary site, JasonNewland.com, with 1,000 of the most recent episodes.
    • He discontinued LetMeBoreYouToSleep.com, citing confusion and redundancy.
    • Now users can stream 6 versions of each recording (e.g., with/without music, extended versions).
  • Distribution: Some syncing issues with Spotify remain.
❓Q&A SECTION HIGHLIGHTS 🔹 1. “What do you do for downtime besides walking and recording?”
  • Boxing and walking Vinnie (his dog) are daily routines.
  • TV & movies are his go-to relaxation tools—especially binge-watching series.
  • Not much time for anything else when he’s busy making recordings.
🔹 2. “Are you happy?”
  • He finds this question difficult.
  • Doesn’t provide a clear answer—seems reflective and ambiguous.
🔹 3. “Have you ever collected anything?” Jason gives an epic, sprawling answer that spans decades. Key collections include:
  • Comics as a child: The Dandy, Look-In
  • Time Out magazines in London
  • Books (science fiction, Star Trek, Wilt, beat generation, philosophy, Buddhism, psychology)
  • Stand-up comedy: LPs, videos, cassettes (George Carlin, Richard Pryor, Bill Cosby, Steve Martin, Eddie Murphy, Lenny Bruce, etc.)
  • Top Trumps cards (as a kid, but had no one to play with)
  • Hypnosis & therapy books (later tied into his professional interest)
  • Audio recordings: NLP, self-help, meditation
  • Personal journals: 45-50 handwritten journals over 25 years (sadly destroyed)
He details many transitions in life, including moving frequently, being evicted, and repeatedly losing his possessions and collections. 🔹 4. “How’s your dad?”
  • Jason says his dad is doing well, recovering energy after treatment for a health condition.
  • Recently met up with Jason and his brother.
  • Jason notes how rare it is for all of them to be together, especially outside their hometown.
🔹 5. “Have you ever done Tai Chi or Qigong? Thoughts on meditation?”
  • Yes to both, lightly practiced at a Buddhist center.
  • Strong preference for walking meditation:
    • Focuses on breath, balance, awareness of surroundings.
    • Helps manage chronic back pain.
    • Uses walking time with Vinnie as a form of mindfulness.
  • He finds seated meditation uncomfortable due to back issues.
  • Expresses appreciation for slow movement practices like Qigong and Tai Chi, especially their meditative elements.
🔹 6. “Are older British homes more haunted? Do you think your flat is haunted?”
  • Doesn’t believe in ghosts per se, but:
    • Remembers feeling uneasy in his childhood home.
    • Recounts a strange experience with a carpet rising on its own.
  • Acknowledges that there's more energy in the world than humans can perceive.
  • Mostly jokes that his flat is haunted by Vinnie (his dog) and formerly by Andre (his ferret).
  • Notes that noisy neighbors are more disturbing than ghosts.
🛒 BONUS: Mini Rant About Shampoo (1:15:30)
  • Ordered 10 bottles of shampoo via Uber Eats.
  • Only received 1 bottle.
  • Cue: "Never been so angry!"
🧘‍♂️ TONE & STYLE Jason’s style remains:
  • Meandering and reflective
  • Occasionally funny and self-deprecating
  • Deeply personal, often nostalgic
  • Gentle and soothing despite the tangents
🧠 THEMES
  • Technological frustration
  • Nostalgia and memory
  • Minimalism vs. materialism
  • Self-reflection and growth
  • Mental and physical wellness
  • Gentle humor amidst daily chaos


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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland,

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and this is let me Bore you to sleep.

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It's also que Ay Friday. It is It's cur and

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O Friday, everybody.

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So it's Friday, the nineteenth of September two thousand and

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twenty five. It is three point fifty three pm. And

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please only listen when you can.

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Safely close your eyes.

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So before I get on with the questions, because there

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isn't many, nor many questions, very few questions today. There's

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been a few problems with Apple podcasts. Just I'm not

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laughing at I'm just it's ridiculous some of the stuff

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that's I kind of don't know why. So it all started,

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we didn't start, but and kindly let me know.

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Let me know.

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This is on two days ago, that the new recordings

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are not showing up on Apple Podcasts anymore. There's no

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reason why they're not showing up. I couldn't figure it out.

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So I refreshed them and did everything I could try

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and do. They still weren't giving me the latest recordings.

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And I really spent ages on it trying to figure

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out what's wrong, why it wasn't working.

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In the end, I had to delete them or put

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them all into archive mode and then re redo it

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on Apple Podcasts.

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So each podcast I've got, which is how many podcasts,

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One, two, three, four, five, six No one one two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve,

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So I think there's twelve podcasts. I've not done all

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of them, but I've re not uploaded, but submitted, resubmitted

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the twelve podcasts onto Apple Podcasts, which is kind of

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like starting all over again, which is frustrating, and it

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significantly affected my stats. So I guess I'm not saying

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I've lost the listeners, but the listeners.

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May not be aware.

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Of the problems I've had with the Apple podcasts, so

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a lot of people may just maybe thousands out there

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that just don't know that.

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I have not released any new.

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Recordings since the seventeenth, not the seventeenth, since the since

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About a week ago. Now I have.

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to work or not, because I've tested them. So it's

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just got a bit confusing for me as well. So

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of each one. So according to this, so let me

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boyd to Sleep is working fine now under the new one.

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all the all the podcasts are now up and running.

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kind of will find them.

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and running properly again as a podcast. So if you

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go on there, it's got a thousand episodes. So the

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latest thousand episodes are available. So there's eighty four pages

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back to every episode. So what I've done is I've

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made the Jason Newland dot com the podcast for my hypnosis,

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A Sleeping Deeply, which has every recording I do is

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on there, including all the different versions, you know, the

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think the thing is with this, how many episodes on?

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Apple Podcast, so you can go to the Apple Now

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it's just all over the place.

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a podcast. So you can just go to Jasonewland dot

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com and you can listen to six versions of the

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last recording, or six versions of the one before that,

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A thousand recordings since the second of April, but that

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And it should pull up right.

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It also pulls up all the information about it as well,

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and there is a link Hypnosis are Sleeping Deeply? Okay? Oh,

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it's not given me a link to the speaker page.

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of the let Me Boy, the sleep dot com website.

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I just figured, what do I need two websites for

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if anything, I think just annoyed people because I got

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rid of the Jasonnuland dot com, which has been around

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for twenty years. And at least you knew how to

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find me. You know, if if all the apps go

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down or all the the podcast you know, sharing platforms

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go down, you can at least listen to me on

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my website. So it's it's handy. Does it allows open

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on Spotify? Is it open on Spotify? Okay? So it's

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not completely syncd up, but it's.

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It's okay. I think it's doing its job.

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But that's it, really, And what else? Why is it

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my Apple podcast archived from over the last i'll BlimE me,

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however many years. So yeah, it's not the first time

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it needs to be done. I think basically Apple Podcasts

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got confused. I'm using a confused.

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I think maybe I'm just the only one that got confused.

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It don't take much much for the end. So I

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should also say welcome to Karen who's joined Jason Newland's

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boring group on Facebook, and if you'd like to join

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We love to have you, and that I do believes

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all that information. It's you know, it might be a

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apologize for the noisy people outside. In fact, what I'm

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gonna do, I'm gonna draw the curtains. See if i

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can block some of that noise out. There's still a

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little window opens. I closed that, and I've drawn the

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curtains over. I've got these sound deadening curtains. I hope

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that they're gonna don't you make any difference? At least

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I'm putting some effort in. So Ben asks me, what

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is Jason's downtime? As he's always walking the dog by

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making recordings, what's Jason do for himself apart from boxing?

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As he like it's weird talk.

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About it my third person. What's my downtime? My downtime

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right now is wanting that noise to stop outside. That's

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my main focus. Screech, squeaky's out there. So it's very

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very very noisy. Okay, my downtime I do I like

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to I would say boxing my downtime. But so I'm

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taking Vinnie out usually three times a day. Sometimes if

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I make a lot of recordings, I'll be you know,

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Not recently, but I have done that quite a few times.

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release or a new season of a TV show that's

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come out. Sometimes if I get my teeth into a

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but I will definitely watch a lot of episodes. And

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if I can get into it and the whole seasons

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done and finished, I'll get through the entire lot within

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you know, maybe a month. So I might end up

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watching two, three, four episodes a day, but I won't

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sit all day watching it. I'm not going to do

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like eight hours straight watching TV. Generally I have done

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in the past, but not not for a long time. Second, Also,

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are you happy? That's a difficult question to ask. I've

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got no idea how to answer that question. Third, have

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you ever collected anything?

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Oh? I have I have.

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Let's go for all the things I've collected when I

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was a kid, when I was a kid, I used

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to collect. So I used to get the two different

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comics every week, The Dandy and Looking, and I used

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to collect them. So although i'd get them every week,

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i'd also collect them, and sometimes i'd get them put

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them all in order, sit in the toilet.

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Or sit on the toilet. I remember once.

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My oldest brother was watching I think the fa Cup

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on a Saturday afternoon and I went into the downstairs

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toilet and organized all of my comics.

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In order, like by date.

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I quite enjoyed that, and I did the same thing

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when I moved to London. I time Out magazine every week.

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Was it a Thursday or was it a Tuesday? But

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I'd buy it every week and I had about three

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years worth collected, big massive old pile. That's what one

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hundred and fifty magazines. So yeah, I collected them for

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a few years. I when I was at school, I

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used to collect books.

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I don't think it was oh yeah, I used to,

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I suppose because.

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You know, finances were limited with school. I didn't like

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have a huge amount of books, but I did have

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a bookshelf for of paperbacks and old also had hard

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back books and stuff as well, and I used to

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collect sign fiction books for a while because I there's

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a lot of rude bits in them.

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It's the truth, you know.

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They have lots of adult scenes in these books.

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And yeah, I enjoyed that.

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I collected the Wilt books as well because I found

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them hilarious. So Wilt is if you've never heard of Wilt.

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W I l t.

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There's a writer they wrote, wrote quite a few books

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based on this character. It's just funny. It's really funny.

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What other things I used to collect.

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A lot of books.

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I went through a period when I collected and read.

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Trek books.

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Like I was almost obsessed with them. And these were

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adventures from Star Trek, like the original TV show, but

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not a TV show that makes sense. There was like

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extra stories, extra adventures which maybe is it came before

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Star Trek TV show, did I don't know, Gene Roddenberry

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or whatever.

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But there was loads of those.

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So I used to read a lot of those, especially

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when I was feeling anti social at school and I

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didn't I go through periods when I didn't want to

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be around anyone, I'd be near anyone, so I would

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hide and read a book during lunch break. So that

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was a thing I remember, I remember sitting outside. It

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was behind the because we all had these form rooms

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where we'd have to sort of congregate the beginning and

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at the beginning of the day and also after lunch

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and maybe even like at the end of the day.

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I can't remember, but one year I was there and

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it was I think it was the science lab. It's

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one of the science labs I was in, and so

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it had an exit out the back as well as

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in the front. I guess the fire exit was stairs

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and everything. So I used to sit outside the back,

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like the fire exit door and going that way, going

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in out that way, because that wasn't the the exit

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that most people used. So I'd hide and just sit

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on like near the stairwell. So I just remember that, reading,

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reading the old Star Trek books other things. I went

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through a period when I was when I got into karate. Well, yeah,

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martial arts. I collected magazines. I can't even remember the

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name of the magazines, but martial arts magazines, martial arts books,

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kung fu books, exercise books, books about Bruce Lee, various

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martial arts paraphernalia like nunchucks and throwing stars, and all

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the standard stuff that kids would kind of perhaps get

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back then, and yeah, that's definitely something I used to

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used to collect. Trying to think I used to I

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went through a period when I was really into Yeah,

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I'm just trying to think when I was a kid,

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what other things I do?

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Oh, I remember.

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When I worked in the bakery when I was a kid.

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The first bakery I worked in, I worked all through

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the summer.

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So I was doing.

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Five or six mornings a week. I mean I could

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have done, you know, seven, but I think I probably

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did five or six and every because I only worked

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t all, like lunchtime from six till twelve or something.

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I'd come home and I'd go and buy these top

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Trump cards that cost a pound or something, and I'd

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buy them. I was like, I had to buy something,

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and I ended up clickeding these and I got loads

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of them, but I had no one to play them with.

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So it's top Trump cars and top trunk motor bikes

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and top Trump planes and stuff like that.

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It was kind of pointless, really, but that's what I did.

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That's what I did.

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What would have been useful if I had collected clothes,

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like nice clothes so that I could looked could have

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been like fashionable that would have helped me in so

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many ways that I had no idea, Like if only

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i'd kind of had a clue back then, because I

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could have bought myself, you know, a pair of trousers,

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a nice pair of shoes, your fashionable stuff on me,

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not like for school as well, but something that would

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look good, even like a white shirt. You know, there's

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a white shirt which for school.

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But then you've got you can get a really.

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Nice white shirt, you know, proper. You know this difference

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in clothes. I don't know why I'm trying to explain that,

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but there was nothing wrong with the clothes I was wearing.

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I just could have put a bit of effort in

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myself because I could.

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At the time, I had a little bit of money

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coming in from the jobs, so that that would have

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been possibly a better way to spend my money.

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Oh well, it matter then.

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I when I got to my tea, like leaving school,

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I did, I mean, I collected I had like quite

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a good tape collection of music albums and stuff. So

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I had probably a couple of carrier bag falls, maybe

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three carry bag falls of tapes, so there's quite a few.

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But some of those were carried on from when I

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was a kid as well, So I'd had a lot

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of those. But then when I got to probably nineteen

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eighty nine, I started collecting comedy videos, like stand up

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comedy videos. In nineteen eighty nine during in fact, it

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might might have been nineteen eighty eight, It might have been,

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but I started collecting live stand up comedy shows, live

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videos like Robin Williams, Steve Martin, There's so many Emo Phillips,

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Steve Wright or Steven Wright, Eddie Murphy, as well as

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like Burning Manning, Roy, Chubby Brown, you know, Jasper Carrots,

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any comedy, live comedy show I could get, I did,

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any stand up show I would get. So I had

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quite a nice collection of those. It wasn't so much

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that I was collecting them. I just I suppose I

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was collecting them, but it didn't maybe yeah, I was

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collecting them without realizing, not really thinking about it.

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I just wanted to watch them. And then.

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I was still collecting Yeah, live stand up albums in

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nineteen eighty nine and more videos, but that's when it

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turned into a collection. So nineteen eighty nine I was

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buying albums and audio tapes of stand up comedians at

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this point, mainly from American stand ups that I'd never

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heard of. I mean, I already had stuff from Richard Pryor,

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so this is nineteen ninety, so I was getting stuff

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from and I was going to second nd shops as

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well as traveling up to London to get to like

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the big stores, the big music stores like Verge, HMV

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and what's that other one, the other record shop, I

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think what it's called. But there was three main record

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shops in the West End of London which had its

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own stand up comedy section, specifically not just for American

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but a lot of American stuff. So I kind of

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discovered Lenny Bruce, George Carlin, Andrew Dias, Clay, Sam Kinnerson.

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Then it was Roddy Dangerfield that I already knew about anyway,

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because he was already famous in this country for a

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long time. Bill Cosby, Richard Pryor, I think I already

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had Richard Pryce's videos and Bill Cosby. I had Bill's

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Cosby's the one way he turns fifty and so he's

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just sitting on a stool, and I didn't realize that

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he had loads of albums and stuff.

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So this is Bill Cosby.

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Yeah, so I had quite a few albums of his.

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I had all of Richard Pryor's albums, all of Richard

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Pryor's live performances, including one that's quite quite rare. I

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don't know that anymore, but it's probably on YouTube anyway.

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And what else.

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Yeah, I had really good collection, really nice collection.

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And I spent.

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Quite a few months just pretty much all my money

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went on that, and I was working, and just all

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my money went on getting new albums because I wanted to.

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I decided to sort of try and be a comedian,

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stand up comedian, and this was kind of this is

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part of that compulse of thing, and this is this

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is part of the whole excitement of wanting to do it.

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And I suppose thinking if I listened to other people,

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like the best comedians in the world, well some of

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the best in the world, it would rub off on me.

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But it didn't. It really didn't.

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But hey, it was worth a try, wasn't it. After that,

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when I moved so I sold all of that stuff.

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But then I moved to London and I got I

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started collecting comedy tapes like Richard Pryor, George Carlin, George

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Carlin was kind of my favorite really for a while.

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It just made me laugh so much. But I didn't

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collect collect I just had some. But then when I

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moved to London, I really started collecting books again. I

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also at this time was collecting journals that I was writing,

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So I was writing journals every day and over like

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a twenty five year period, I had about forty five

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fifty journals, like pads full of me, my writings and

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my life and my thoughts and stuff. That's all destroyed

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a few years back, and I think I got really

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more into buying books, collecting books, but reading them. Yeah,

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so anything, not just comedy books. But I really got

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into the Beat generation. I also used to read Time

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Out and find out what the latest popular book was,

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and I'd ended up reading that as well, so I

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you know, I had quite a large book collection. They

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all just stacked up on top of each other against

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the wall.

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Had a lot of books.

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And probably about twenty bin Bag Falls and the Beach generation.

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That's when I kind of really got quite transfixed with

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poetry with Anne Ginsburg. I can't remember half of them,

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but a lot of Jack Carouac, all those kinds of

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that generation. I was reading their books.

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I can't.

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I can't honestly said I understood a lot of it either.

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And I also used to read the poetry, some of them.

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Snyder was another one. Some of the poetry I liked.

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Some of it was a lot of it was context based,

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as most of it seemed to be coming out of

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America in the fifties and sixties, and I wasn't around then.

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I wasn't American. I wasn't living in America in the

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fifties and sixties. And I'm pretty certain even if I

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was in this country, it was a different environment, you know,

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we were, It's just it would have been different. So

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I'm never really gonna understand the vibe, not really. But

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I enjoyed reading them. And then I discovered, kind of

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by accident, Charles Berkowski, who was his books would be

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put into the same category as beat generation, and he

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wasn't a Beatnik. He wasn't each He's kind of like

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a crossover. He probably knew some of them, and he

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lived like some of them, but he wasn't he. For

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anyone that's read Charles Berkowski, it's very real, almost too real,

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I suppose some would say.

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And that's why I liked about it.

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I like, yeah, I quite quite like gritty, real stuff,

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not as in horrible stuff, but just I don't know

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someone's personal opinion. And because he talks from a third person,

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so he talks about himself, but he's not himself. It's

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Hank Chenesky is the character in his books, but it's

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basically him. And he also wrote because he wrote a

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really famous book called post Office Women, and I forget

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the other one, but there was a trilogy, and he

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also wrote ham On Rye and some other ones, bar

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Fly and things like that.

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I quite liked the poetry that he did.

444
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And yeah, so I had a large collection of his

445
00:36:44.559 --> 00:36:47.199
books because it was quite prolific. So I had a

446
00:36:47.239 --> 00:36:53.639
lot of his books and don't have them anymore. So

447
00:36:53.719 --> 00:37:01.000
that was me collecting early nineties comedy tapes and then

448
00:37:02.039 --> 00:37:07.239
books I would say really focused on the Beat generation,

449
00:37:07.480 --> 00:37:12.360
but I also had at that time I started collecting

450
00:37:13.119 --> 00:37:23.119
Buddhist books and Zen Taoism and I started reading that stuff.

451
00:37:23.199 --> 00:37:26.840
So I got into that because that fitted in with

452
00:37:26.920 --> 00:37:32.320
the Beat generation and the the and I just all

453
00:37:32.440 --> 00:37:34.440
kind of fitted together with me, and it's something I

454
00:37:34.559 --> 00:37:36.280
was interested in anyway.

455
00:37:38.280 --> 00:37:38.960
I quite like it.

456
00:37:39.000 --> 00:37:40.920
If I can find something that has an overlap to

457
00:37:41.000 --> 00:37:50.119
something else. And then when I left there, I did

458
00:37:50.159 --> 00:37:54.760
take my stuff with me and I ended up in

459
00:37:55.400 --> 00:38:01.400
moved once twice. And then I collected more books on Buddhism,

460
00:38:01.440 --> 00:38:05.239
So that was the main thing I've focused on around

461
00:38:05.360 --> 00:38:10.760
ninety five, Like ninety four to ninety five, it was

462
00:38:10.880 --> 00:38:18.679
mainly just Buddhist books that I collected sid I mean,

463
00:38:18.719 --> 00:38:20.920
I wasn't buying loads of loads of books, but I

464
00:38:20.960 --> 00:38:24.719
had a really good collection and I would read them

465
00:38:24.760 --> 00:38:25.159
as well.

466
00:38:28.559 --> 00:38:30.079
And then.

467
00:38:30.960 --> 00:38:36.360
In the end of ninety five, I was evicted and

468
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:40.360
I basically just chucked everything out because I couldn't take

469
00:38:40.400 --> 00:38:52.320
it with me. Then I, I'm not.

470
00:38:52.239 --> 00:38:54.199
Sure chucked it. I think I left it outside and

471
00:38:54.559 --> 00:38:57.719
dustman took it. They weren't supposed to do.

472
00:38:57.719 --> 00:38:59.280
It just happened to be in black bags, as was

473
00:38:59.280 --> 00:39:01.599
how I traveled, because I didn't know where I was

474
00:39:01.639 --> 00:39:05.400
going to take them, and I I think I'm going

475
00:39:05.440 --> 00:39:07.239
to try and take into my girlfriends and ask if

476
00:39:07.239 --> 00:39:12.320
she'd look after them for me. Anyway, the dustman came

477
00:39:12.360 --> 00:39:16.280
and got them and pretty much took most of my belongings,

478
00:39:16.840 --> 00:39:18.119
thinking it was just all rubbish.

479
00:39:19.199 --> 00:39:21.159
So technically, I didn't really check it out.

480
00:39:23.960 --> 00:39:34.480
What else I In ninety six nineteen ninety six, I

481
00:39:34.559 --> 00:39:38.960
was kind of starting from scratch again, so I had

482
00:39:39.280 --> 00:39:44.800
the only thing I really had was, as far as

483
00:39:44.840 --> 00:39:50.400
belongings go, one book or two books and that was it,

484
00:39:51.480 --> 00:39:55.320
and a few clothes. So I started from scratch in

485
00:39:55.480 --> 00:40:01.280
January ninety six. And by the like, it's Vinny scraping

486
00:40:01.360 --> 00:40:05.280
his teeth on a something. Not quite sure, but it

487
00:40:05.320 --> 00:40:08.079
seems happy anyway. It's not eating his dinner today for

488
00:40:08.119 --> 00:40:24.280
some reason, and I what I do. I'm trying to

489
00:40:24.320 --> 00:40:28.000
think what I was going to say. Then he just stopped, Okay.

490
00:40:28.199 --> 00:40:33.639
I I carried on with my writing because I managed

491
00:40:33.639 --> 00:40:37.960
to save the journals, so that was fine. So I

492
00:40:38.039 --> 00:40:39.840
still had all my journals.

493
00:40:44.000 --> 00:40:44.719
And then.

494
00:40:47.719 --> 00:40:50.239
I didn't buy a lot of books or anything back then,

495
00:40:51.440 --> 00:40:54.039
I think because i'd lost all my book collection kind

496
00:40:54.039 --> 00:40:57.800
of a few times over already at this point, I

497
00:40:57.880 --> 00:41:03.239
just didn't know if there's any point. So between ninety

498
00:41:03.280 --> 00:41:14.280
six and then ninety seven, I didn't really purchase much.

499
00:41:15.119 --> 00:41:21.599
I didn't collect anything really at all during that period.

500
00:41:22.519 --> 00:41:28.639
And I was a security guard for over a year,

501
00:41:31.639 --> 00:41:34.039
and I had a girlfriend as well, so that kind

502
00:41:34.079 --> 00:41:39.159
of took up time outside of security work, and that

503
00:41:39.239 --> 00:41:43.599
was a long hours, so I didn't apart from reading

504
00:41:43.679 --> 00:41:46.400
books and stuff, I just didn't really have a lot

505
00:41:46.480 --> 00:41:53.639
going on watching TV when I got home. And then

506
00:41:53.960 --> 00:42:01.800
late nineteen ninety seven, I started acting books again, but

507
00:42:01.920 --> 00:42:06.920
this time is all about self help, motivation and self help,

508
00:42:08.719 --> 00:42:21.599
and I BlimE me, he's so noisy. I do still

509
00:42:21.599 --> 00:42:26.760
prefer him over this squealing and screaming outside in the garden.

510
00:42:27.559 --> 00:42:31.159
I don't know, it's just I kind of just want

511
00:42:31.199 --> 00:42:34.840
to hear what's inside. I know it's not realistic, but

512
00:42:35.039 --> 00:42:38.719
just just a little bit quiet, a little bit of

513
00:42:39.039 --> 00:42:45.159
a little bit calm, you know, what else should I?

514
00:42:45.159 --> 00:42:47.400
I suppose, Like ninety seven, it was really much.

515
00:42:47.559 --> 00:42:55.000
I was collecting audio recordings self help, audio recordings, motivation,

516
00:42:56.079 --> 00:43:05.920
a zig ziglar, meditation, recordings for relaxing, and I was

517
00:43:06.000 --> 00:43:13.920
really trying to figure a way for me to, I

518
00:43:13.920 --> 00:43:20.199
don't know, grow as a person and become better and

519
00:43:20.360 --> 00:43:25.119
become calmer and to heal. I don't know, I'm not

520
00:43:25.199 --> 00:43:27.119
quite sure what it was I was looking for, but

521
00:43:28.360 --> 00:43:30.679
I collected lots of books.

522
00:43:32.199 --> 00:43:35.199
I read lots of books. And then.

523
00:43:36.639 --> 00:43:42.519
Early nineteen ninety eight its January, I bought my first

524
00:43:42.559 --> 00:43:46.039
two books on hypnosis.

525
00:43:47.360 --> 00:43:50.119
I didn't read them straight away. I kind of looked

526
00:43:50.159 --> 00:43:51.280
at them and thought I'll.

527
00:43:51.159 --> 00:43:59.360
Read them one day, and then I did, and I thought, oh,

528
00:44:00.119 --> 00:44:05.239
I did an NLP course at college, did like a

529
00:44:05.280 --> 00:44:12.119
part time evening course at City University in London. And

530
00:44:12.159 --> 00:44:18.159
that's when my interest was peaked more so in that

531
00:44:18.320 --> 00:44:23.840
side of things because it involved hypnosis. It also for

532
00:44:23.960 --> 00:44:27.800
me kind of involved therapy and you know, all the

533
00:44:27.840 --> 00:44:32.480
things that I was kind of interested in. So I

534
00:44:32.519 --> 00:44:37.800
started buying loads of NLP books, all the ones I

535
00:44:37.840 --> 00:44:45.920
could get, and hypnosis books blying me if Anny, So yeah,

536
00:44:45.960 --> 00:44:52.760
I started collecting all that stuff. And then really for

537
00:44:52.880 --> 00:44:59.159
the next few years I built my hypnosis collection up.

538
00:45:02.559 --> 00:45:09.800
But then in two thousand, I'm not saying I lost

539
00:45:09.840 --> 00:45:17.000
interest in hypnosis, but I did, and it's true, I

540
00:45:17.079 --> 00:45:25.199
kind of for some reason, I became obsessed with building websites.

541
00:45:27.280 --> 00:45:33.320
And I spent the next year and a half obsessively,

542
00:45:35.320 --> 00:45:40.920
pretty much all day every day working on websites, learning

543
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:44.360
how to build them, how to learning the code and

544
00:45:44.719 --> 00:45:48.639
HTML and all that stuff. And that was what I did,

545
00:45:48.960 --> 00:45:54.000
and I loved it, loved every second of it, and

546
00:45:54.039 --> 00:46:00.000
that's what I did for yeah, for the pretty MU

547
00:46:00.079 --> 00:46:07.719
much until summertime two thousand and one, like maybe May time.

548
00:46:12.400 --> 00:46:17.000
But then I was made I was evicted, so I

549
00:46:17.119 --> 00:46:18.119
moved out.

550
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:22.719
And I didn't.

551
00:46:25.679 --> 00:46:27.360
Everything was kind of up in the air, so I

552
00:46:27.400 --> 00:46:34.760
still had my belongings, still had my books, but I didn't.

553
00:46:36.519 --> 00:46:38.320
I was kind of a bit aimless, to be honest,

554
00:46:38.360 --> 00:46:40.800
I had this. I was forced into a sales job

555
00:46:41.800 --> 00:46:48.320
by the job center and it was although I was

556
00:46:48.400 --> 00:46:51.679
quite good, it was difficult, very difficult to do that,

557
00:46:53.079 --> 00:47:01.440
and I stopped reading, I stopped doing it any website building,

558
00:47:02.559 --> 00:47:06.960
I stopped being interested in anything during that period. And

559
00:47:07.000 --> 00:47:12.119
then September I moved to where my name was because

560
00:47:12.119 --> 00:47:14.800
she was ill, so I wanted to be closer to

561
00:47:14.840 --> 00:47:20.360
my men, and I had a new job again in insurance.

562
00:47:20.440 --> 00:47:25.159
But it's selling, which is not really It was kind

563
00:47:25.199 --> 00:47:26.920
of the wrong for me, thiging for me to get

564
00:47:27.000 --> 00:47:30.519
involved in really, but at the time I didn't know

565
00:47:30.559 --> 00:47:31.480
what was going to happen.

566
00:47:31.639 --> 00:47:33.079
I didn't, you know, I.

567
00:47:33.199 --> 00:47:37.840
Wasn't really prepared for the outcome of putting myself in

568
00:47:38.320 --> 00:47:40.400
that kind of stressful environment.

569
00:47:42.039 --> 00:47:49.039
Long term. And during that period.

570
00:47:50.480 --> 00:47:52.800
It wasn't so bad because I really got I no

571
00:47:52.880 --> 00:47:57.559
longer got involved, but I completely stopped doing any kind

572
00:47:57.599 --> 00:48:02.800
of website stuff during two thousand and like the end

573
00:48:02.800 --> 00:48:09.320
of two thousand and one, two thousand and two, and

574
00:48:09.679 --> 00:48:15.760
I would say even most of two thousand and three.

575
00:48:15.880 --> 00:48:18.320
Then two thousand and four I picked it up. I

576
00:48:18.360 --> 00:48:20.920
picked it up again. Maybe two thousand and three I

577
00:48:20.960 --> 00:48:23.800
picked it up again. But I didn't do anything for

578
00:48:23.800 --> 00:48:31.039
a couple of years website wise. But I did collect

579
00:48:31.119 --> 00:48:34.639
hypnosis books like a lot.

580
00:48:35.840 --> 00:48:36.480
I had a.

581
00:48:36.719 --> 00:48:43.480
Huge library of hypnosis books, plus psychology books, counseling books.

582
00:48:44.039 --> 00:48:44.719
And this was.

583
00:48:47.880 --> 00:48:51.280
A long time, like six years five six years before

584
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:55.239
I even started thinking about becoming a counselor. I was

585
00:48:55.280 --> 00:48:59.880
just interested in therapy, interested in.

586
00:49:00.880 --> 00:49:01.360
How to.

587
00:49:03.960 --> 00:49:07.599
Helping others, but I guess also figuring a way to

588
00:49:07.679 --> 00:49:13.840
help myself maybe, So that's kind of where I was there.

589
00:49:14.039 --> 00:49:21.039
And i'd big, big book collection, and that book collection

590
00:49:21.320 --> 00:49:28.199
continued right the way until two thousand and seven November,

591
00:49:31.119 --> 00:49:33.840
and I had all these bookcases in this place I lived.

592
00:49:36.239 --> 00:49:39.000
Even I found it quite impressive the amount of books

593
00:49:39.039 --> 00:49:45.119
I had because it was very looked, very professional, the

594
00:49:45.159 --> 00:49:48.280
setup I had, and I was doing videos with these

595
00:49:48.360 --> 00:49:52.559
bookcases and all these books behind me on psychology and

596
00:49:52.639 --> 00:49:58.519
hypnosis and psychotherapy and all this stuff behind me. Is like, yeah,

597
00:49:58.800 --> 00:50:04.719
I wonder how many people full as if I know something. Oh,

598
00:50:04.800 --> 00:50:12.400
and then I moved. I also I had videos, I

599
00:50:12.480 --> 00:50:17.480
had audios, I had CDs DVDs of hypnosis stuff courses

600
00:50:18.079 --> 00:50:22.880
as well as having done courses like live in person

601
00:50:22.920 --> 00:50:29.159
as well. So I moved into a tiny room when

602
00:50:29.159 --> 00:50:36.639
I was at college, and I had to get rid

603
00:50:36.679 --> 00:50:39.400
of some of the books because it was too many too.

604
00:50:39.480 --> 00:50:40.320
It was literally I.

605
00:50:40.280 --> 00:50:45.039
Had all these these big containers full of books that

606
00:50:45.239 --> 00:50:48.840
was taken up half the room. I wasn't going to

607
00:50:48.880 --> 00:50:53.719
get rid of the hypnosis books. I couldn't be getting

608
00:50:53.760 --> 00:50:57.360
rid of the therapy books because I was studying counsel

609
00:50:57.440 --> 00:50:58.159
in the therapy.

610
00:50:59.239 --> 00:51:00.559
So why ended up.

611
00:51:00.480 --> 00:51:05.159
Doing is getting rid of all of the I also

612
00:51:05.239 --> 00:51:10.760
used to collect. I had quite quite a large collection

613
00:51:11.039 --> 00:51:16.599
of Buddhist books as well, probably about fifty or sixty

614
00:51:16.639 --> 00:51:20.239
Buddhist books, maybe one hundred, there's quite a lot. Anyway,

615
00:51:22.039 --> 00:51:27.400
I donated them to the Buddhist Center, and then I

616
00:51:27.480 --> 00:51:33.559
gave away all of my philosophy books, which again I

617
00:51:33.599 --> 00:51:38.159
had a big collection of like philosophy, and not just philosophy,

618
00:51:38.239 --> 00:51:42.519
but things that kind of minded, you know. So I

619
00:51:42.559 --> 00:51:46.119
got rid of all of those, gave them to a

620
00:51:46.199 --> 00:51:54.719
second hand shop, and then that kind of I kind

621
00:51:54.719 --> 00:51:58.159
of halfed not I don't say half my book collection,

622
00:51:58.280 --> 00:52:01.760
but there was also all the other stuff like about

623
00:52:01.800 --> 00:52:11.440
creativity and really anything that wasn't to do with hypnosis

624
00:52:11.719 --> 00:52:15.719
or therapy I got rid of, which cut down my

625
00:52:15.719 --> 00:52:24.480
book collection by probably be half, maybe a quarter, maybe

626
00:52:24.519 --> 00:52:31.159
I knocked a quarter off of it. And then I

627
00:52:31.360 --> 00:52:38.639
moved again. Then I moved again, and that was the

628
00:52:38.679 --> 00:52:42.239
place before I moved in here, and that was even smaller,

629
00:52:42.360 --> 00:52:46.000
well probably not smaller, but it was damp. My books

630
00:52:46.039 --> 00:52:51.440
were starting to rot. I don't know, it's not good.

631
00:52:53.920 --> 00:52:55.440
And I had a bit of a thing, a bit

632
00:52:55.480 --> 00:52:58.119
of an episode, and I actually destroyed it all of

633
00:52:58.159 --> 00:53:04.480
my books apart from one, which was The Teachings of

634
00:53:04.519 --> 00:53:09.920
the Buddha, which I've had for probably since about nineteen

635
00:53:10.039 --> 00:53:13.920
ninety two, so I've had that book for quite a while.

636
00:53:14.800 --> 00:53:21.119
That's the only surviving book. So yeah, that was kind

637
00:53:21.119 --> 00:53:24.079
of That was probably the biggest collection I had was

638
00:53:24.159 --> 00:53:28.360
probably hypnosis books. But I also had a pretty healthy

639
00:53:29.880 --> 00:53:37.119
Buddhist collection as well. There wasn't even enough room on

640
00:53:37.159 --> 00:53:38.960
the shelves in a Buddhist center to put.

641
00:53:38.760 --> 00:53:40.599
Them on because there was so many.

642
00:53:42.800 --> 00:53:45.519
So other than that, trying to think of any other

643
00:53:45.559 --> 00:53:54.000
things that I've collected recently over the last few years,

644
00:53:54.639 --> 00:54:01.400
the last ten years, I can't think of anything. So

645
00:54:01.480 --> 00:54:04.519
that's kind of really it. Books seems to be the

646
00:54:04.559 --> 00:54:10.719
main thing. Number Four, How is your dad? So my dad,

647
00:54:11.599 --> 00:54:16.159
he's doing all right. I saw him last weekend. He

648
00:54:16.239 --> 00:54:18.719
came up to see me and with my little brother,

649
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:25.880
so he had lunch around the corner and he's, you know,

650
00:54:26.119 --> 00:54:29.119
he's he had some treatment and stuff for a condition.

651
00:54:31.639 --> 00:54:37.199
He's getting his energy back, and.

652
00:54:35.599 --> 00:54:36.679
He seems to be doing well.

653
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:39.960
It seems to be positive and seems to be doing good.

654
00:54:40.719 --> 00:54:43.400
And I think he enjoyed sort of spending time with

655
00:54:44.400 --> 00:54:49.679
two of his sons together at the same time out

656
00:54:50.599 --> 00:54:54.639
which is only kind of that hasn't happened, doesn't happen

657
00:54:54.679 --> 00:54:58.880
too often, although it did happen just before Christmas, But

658
00:54:58.960 --> 00:55:04.960
that was the first time dead outside of the town

659
00:55:05.079 --> 00:55:07.519
that he lives as the first that's the city's the

660
00:55:07.519 --> 00:55:14.159
second time pretty much in decades that we've all kind

661
00:55:14.159 --> 00:55:18.920
of got together, so that was nice.

662
00:55:19.440 --> 00:55:22.679
But yeah, it seems to be doing good.

663
00:55:24.199 --> 00:55:29.639
Maria asks, with your previous interest in martial arts, have

664
00:55:29.719 --> 00:55:33.639
you ever practiced tai chi or chigung? Also, what are

665
00:55:33.679 --> 00:55:40.760
your thoughts on meditation? Yes, and yes, I did a

666
00:55:40.760 --> 00:55:47.599
bit of tai chi and chigung. I think that chigung

667
00:55:47.679 --> 00:55:50.599
I think they were both probably connected to the Buddhist center.

668
00:55:51.360 --> 00:55:53.000
So what we'd have is.

669
00:55:55.079 --> 00:55:58.079
There'd be a like a practitioner would come along and

670
00:55:58.760 --> 00:56:01.599
do a course, maybe a six week course on ti

671
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:05.880
chie or a regular Tuesday night on Ti chi or

672
00:56:05.960 --> 00:56:08.960
chickgung and stuff. So I did a little bit of

673
00:56:09.000 --> 00:56:12.760
tai chie, but the one I really liked was chiegung

674
00:56:13.360 --> 00:56:20.360
because but I did it minimally. I don't mean I

675
00:56:20.519 --> 00:56:22.519
changed the way I did it, but I mean I

676
00:56:22.559 --> 00:56:23.039
didn't do.

677
00:56:23.079 --> 00:56:23.679
Much of it.

678
00:56:25.519 --> 00:56:32.360
But I did appreciate the slow movements, the micro movements,

679
00:56:32.440 --> 00:56:35.239
the real like the idea of like holding a ball

680
00:56:35.920 --> 00:56:41.960
and passing that energy ball to another person and just

681
00:56:42.840 --> 00:56:45.840
that slow movement. I mean, I'm doing it now, you

682
00:56:45.880 --> 00:56:53.000
can't see me do it, but it feels nice. And

683
00:56:53.039 --> 00:57:00.440
because I'm quite a slow person anyway, moving slowly is

684
00:57:00.679 --> 00:57:06.159
My default really and which brings me to your meditation

685
00:57:06.559 --> 00:57:12.440
is I think meditations great. I kind of meditate every

686
00:57:12.519 --> 00:57:19.320
day using walking meditation. So I want to take Vinnie out.

687
00:57:20.880 --> 00:57:25.920
I walk very slowly, and what I do is I

688
00:57:26.039 --> 00:57:29.119
focus on my feet on the ground, how my feet feel,

689
00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:36.239
how my body feels as I walk. And it's also

690
00:57:36.440 --> 00:57:39.159
part of like paying control because I've got arthrights in

691
00:57:39.199 --> 00:57:42.679
my lower back and it plays up, you know, whenever

692
00:57:42.679 --> 00:57:46.559
I move. Basically it's hurting now, but I say hurting,

693
00:57:46.639 --> 00:57:49.760
but it's I can feel it now and when I

694
00:57:49.800 --> 00:57:52.360
walk and when I sit down for too long, so

695
00:57:52.599 --> 00:57:56.280
when I walk, I can feel it. So sometimes by

696
00:57:56.840 --> 00:58:05.000
focusing on all of my body movement it eases that.

697
00:58:06.119 --> 00:58:08.599
It kind of reminds me that I've got a whole

698
00:58:08.639 --> 00:58:15.920
body that has feeling, not just that one part. And

699
00:58:17.519 --> 00:58:21.920
included in that meditation as well as being aware of Vinnie,

700
00:58:22.639 --> 00:58:24.280
because I have to be aware of what he's up to,

701
00:58:24.360 --> 00:58:27.360
and I need to also be aware of my surroundings.

702
00:58:28.480 --> 00:58:31.360
But I'd say that's part of the meditation, and that's

703
00:58:31.440 --> 00:58:35.159
my natural state is to be perhaps too aware of

704
00:58:35.199 --> 00:58:40.239
my surroundings to be honest. But the way you know,

705
00:58:40.280 --> 00:58:45.719
the weather the wind, the air, the feeling the wind

706
00:58:45.760 --> 00:58:50.000
on my face, the feeling of breathing and my lungs,

707
00:58:50.199 --> 00:58:56.760
the temperature on my hands, on my face, this the

708
00:58:56.800 --> 00:58:59.960
sun may be shine in, and the just little things

709
00:59:00.239 --> 00:59:02.960
that the sounds of the birds or the wind, or

710
00:59:03.000 --> 00:59:07.760
the traffic, just little things or dogs in the background,

711
00:59:09.519 --> 00:59:14.519
all that stuff. In fact, even like next door, like

712
00:59:14.679 --> 00:59:17.440
you know, with all of the kids and the dogs

713
00:59:17.480 --> 00:59:21.760
barking over there. That's fine. When I'm meditating, I don't

714
00:59:21.760 --> 00:59:25.760
need quiet. I just incorporate it into the meditation and

715
00:59:25.960 --> 00:59:32.000
just be one with it. I should try and do

716
00:59:32.039 --> 00:59:34.840
that when I do a recording. Really, shouldn't I be one?

717
00:59:35.800 --> 00:59:43.679
Be one, my son. I don't do so much traditional

718
00:59:43.800 --> 00:59:49.400
meditation anymore, although I'm kind of I did meditate the

719
00:59:49.440 --> 00:59:54.119
other day. I could perhaps do with it, but I do.

720
00:59:54.679 --> 00:59:56.880
I like to walk in meditation because I do it

721
00:59:56.920 --> 01:00:00.760
every time. Unless I'm talking to someone, then I'm not.

722
01:00:01.239 --> 01:00:04.719
But if I'm on my own with him and we

723
01:00:04.920 --> 01:00:09.840
just walk in slowly, I mean, it's probably not the

724
01:00:09.880 --> 01:00:18.719
most deep meditation practice, but there is a meditation practice there.

725
01:00:20.000 --> 01:00:29.559
There is an intention to slow things down, to allow

726
01:00:29.679 --> 01:00:32.119
things to slow down. So I'm not trying to force

727
01:00:34.639 --> 01:00:39.760
my breathing to become deeper and slower, but allow my body,

728
01:00:40.079 --> 01:00:45.119
my mind, you know, allowed for that to happen. And

729
01:00:45.159 --> 01:00:48.079
I don't try and cause my mind to slow down

730
01:00:48.639 --> 01:00:53.639
and for the thoughts to maybe vanish or just disappey

731
01:00:53.880 --> 01:01:02.559
or slow. But I'm open to that happening. See, Yeah,

732
01:01:02.679 --> 01:01:13.440
it's quite nice. I do that every day if I can.

733
01:01:13.920 --> 01:01:16.840
You know, sometimes I can't, but I'll be honest, sometimes

734
01:01:16.880 --> 01:01:18.480
I'm not in the right frame of mind.

735
01:01:18.559 --> 01:01:21.039
But if I can, I will.

736
01:01:22.880 --> 01:01:27.159
It's better when there's no one else around, because I do,

737
01:01:27.559 --> 01:01:30.679
especially if I if I can walk really slow, like

738
01:01:30.960 --> 01:01:34.840
super slow, if there's no one around, it doesn't look

739
01:01:34.920 --> 01:01:40.920
quite so weird. But when there's people around, I walk

740
01:01:40.960 --> 01:01:45.679
at a very very slow pace anyway, but there's an

741
01:01:45.719 --> 01:01:51.639
even slower pace with meditation, with meditative walking, and it

742
01:01:51.719 --> 01:01:57.599
can be and it can be literally almost micro movements.

743
01:01:59.159 --> 01:02:07.360
I don't really do that when I'm out, but I

744
01:02:07.440 --> 01:02:14.599
do focus on my feet when I'm walking. I focus

745
01:02:14.639 --> 01:02:19.960
on my balance. I focus on my back, not just

746
01:02:20.000 --> 01:02:23.320
my lower back, but also my upper back, my shoulders,

747
01:02:23.400 --> 01:02:34.480
my posture, my neck, just noticing how I feel. And

748
01:02:37.559 --> 01:02:41.519
that's my connection with chigung and meditation could like the

749
01:02:41.639 --> 01:02:47.079
moving walking meditation you could say is chickung. You could

750
01:02:47.159 --> 01:02:53.119
say it is tai chi. Oh No, I'm not an

751
01:02:53.159 --> 01:02:55.880
expert on any of this stuff. I do know more

752
01:02:55.920 --> 01:02:58.760
about meditation than I know about tai chi or chickung.

753
01:03:01.320 --> 01:03:06.639
I think it's all really really good stuff. And in

754
01:03:06.880 --> 01:03:12.039
some ways, I think tai chi and chigung because it's movement,

755
01:03:14.840 --> 01:03:17.840
it's got an extra dimension added to it.

756
01:03:21.599 --> 01:03:22.960
I'm never going to be able to.

757
01:03:23.159 --> 01:03:25.039
I say I'm never going to because I tried for

758
01:03:25.159 --> 01:03:30.159
years to do this and it didn't work. So sitting

759
01:03:30.159 --> 01:03:33.320
on a cushion isn't something I can do on the

760
01:03:33.360 --> 01:03:38.000
floor on a cushion. Note I tried it from I

761
01:03:38.039 --> 01:03:42.440
think I did it all the way from November two

762
01:03:42.480 --> 01:03:52.159
thousand and two to two thousand and four, maybe even

763
01:03:52.199 --> 01:03:58.400
two thousand and five. Seriously, I tried for years to sit.

764
01:03:58.239 --> 01:03:58.880
On a cushion.

765
01:03:59.239 --> 01:04:02.360
I did sit on a for years and then have

766
01:04:02.440 --> 01:04:05.039
to get up and sit on a chair, and I

767
01:04:05.079 --> 01:04:10.280
was just in pain that whole time. And eventually, I

768
01:04:10.320 --> 01:04:12.760
mean that they tried every which way. At one point,

769
01:04:12.800 --> 01:04:16.599
at about seventeen chushions, I had scaffold in holding me up,

770
01:04:17.119 --> 01:04:22.880
but it's still didn't work. I had a elastic band

771
01:04:23.440 --> 01:04:25.440
tied to my ed so I didn't.

772
01:04:26.920 --> 01:04:27.480
Fall off.

773
01:04:27.559 --> 01:04:39.400
I don't know, but yeah, I like the idea of movement.

774
01:04:40.119 --> 01:04:44.480
A little bit of movement is nice. Doesn't have to

775
01:04:44.480 --> 01:04:46.679
be the whole body. I mean, tie cheek can be

776
01:04:46.800 --> 01:04:56.519
used by anyone who can has access to movement of

777
01:04:56.559 --> 01:04:59.800
some of their limbs. So if someone was in a wheelchair,

778
01:05:00.119 --> 01:05:03.039
still be able to do it with their hands or

779
01:05:04.320 --> 01:05:06.400
you know, there's going to be limitations, I suppose if

780
01:05:06.440 --> 01:05:14.400
someone's unable to move their body. But I'm guessing meditation

781
01:05:14.559 --> 01:05:18.000
would be fine in that situation. But I imagine, you know,

782
01:05:18.239 --> 01:05:26.360
imagining doing the movements would be calming, imagining doing tai

783
01:05:26.480 --> 01:05:35.119
chi in your mind or doing chigung chikung chigung. But yeah,

784
01:05:35.199 --> 01:05:39.400
I don't know enough about it. But out of the two,

785
01:05:41.280 --> 01:05:44.639
because tai chi, I did tai chi with when I

786
01:05:44.679 --> 01:05:49.239
did Wing Chun kung fu in two thousand and four.

787
01:05:50.440 --> 01:05:54.480
He taught wing chun. He taught gee kundu, and he

788
01:05:54.559 --> 01:05:58.039
also taught tai chi, and he basically taught that tai

789
01:05:58.199 --> 01:06:01.039
chi was just a slow down version of a fighting style,

790
01:06:04.440 --> 01:06:08.440
you know, kicks punches, blocks and all that stuff. So

791
01:06:08.480 --> 01:06:17.079
it's really just a very slow version of a form

792
01:06:17.599 --> 01:06:24.519
which would be or a a kater sometimes it is called.

793
01:06:24.960 --> 01:06:32.039
It's just a mixture of movements where it's blocking and punching,

794
01:06:32.199 --> 01:06:34.400
then kicking, then sweeping.

795
01:06:34.039 --> 01:06:36.800
And you know, all kinds of like movements.

796
01:06:36.960 --> 01:06:40.199
And as the grades go up in like karate or

797
01:06:41.079 --> 01:06:45.840
whatever discipline, the katers or the forms become more and

798
01:06:45.960 --> 01:06:52.599
more complicated. So it's almost like an fighting an invisible

799
01:06:52.679 --> 01:07:00.519
opponent or multiple invisible opponents. The tie chee he seems

800
01:07:00.519 --> 01:07:04.599
to be doing that, but invisible opponents that.

801
01:07:04.559 --> 01:07:05.559
Are really slow.

802
01:07:08.360 --> 01:07:17.280
So yeah, I'd recommend both for all, including meditation, because

803
01:07:18.480 --> 01:07:25.440
it's so useful, healthy healing. It's great stuff. I'm making

804
01:07:25.480 --> 01:07:27.920
myself want to go back to meditation, BlimE me.

805
01:07:29.480 --> 01:07:30.239
So thank you for that.

806
01:07:30.440 --> 01:07:35.880
So, Ben and Maria, I have answered both your questions. Yeah,

807
01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:44.480
Hope asks me the houses in Britain are older than

808
01:07:44.519 --> 01:07:50.840
in Canada. Do you think they're more haunted? Do you

809
01:07:50.960 --> 01:07:55.679
think your grouping of flats is haunted? And have you

810
01:07:55.719 --> 01:08:00.960
ever lived in a place you thought was haunted? And

811
01:08:05.719 --> 01:08:07.679
m I don't know, really, I don't know how to

812
01:08:07.719 --> 01:08:08.159
answer that.

813
01:08:08.239 --> 01:08:13.280
I don't I don't think so. I mean.

814
01:08:16.800 --> 01:08:19.079
The big house I used to live in where I'm

815
01:08:19.119 --> 01:08:23.319
between the ages of nine and fifteen with my family,

816
01:08:27.079 --> 01:08:30.760
didn't have a good atmosphere in there. I'm talking when

817
01:08:30.760 --> 01:08:32.319
there was no one else in the house, just me.

818
01:08:33.319 --> 01:08:37.359
I didn't feel I didn't like it. I was at

819
01:08:37.399 --> 01:08:39.800
the top of the stairs in the you know, in

820
01:08:39.840 --> 01:08:41.760
the well. I was in a room at the top

821
01:08:41.760 --> 01:08:45.399
of the stairs, and that was there was two sets

822
01:08:45.399 --> 01:08:52.439
of stairs, and I didn't like it. I didn't didn't

823
01:08:52.479 --> 01:08:55.399
get a good feeling about the place.

824
01:09:03.800 --> 01:09:05.880
Yeahs as for see.

825
01:09:05.640 --> 01:09:09.840
Anything, I don't don't, you know, didn't anything like that.

826
01:09:09.880 --> 01:09:13.159
It's not really ever happened.

827
01:09:13.399 --> 01:09:18.239
So, I mean, I know that, you know, everything's energy

828
01:09:18.399 --> 01:09:21.840
and most there's more stuff we can't see than what

829
01:09:21.880 --> 01:09:26.279
we can see all of the you know, I'm looking

830
01:09:26.279 --> 01:09:30.640
around the room and that big gap, I say, big gap.

831
01:09:31.560 --> 01:09:34.800
I'm not living in a mansion, but that space between

832
01:09:35.000 --> 01:09:37.720
me and this desk and the television at the other

833
01:09:37.760 --> 01:09:41.840
side of the room is full of trillions and trillions

834
01:09:41.880 --> 01:09:52.560
and trillions and particles of energy, energy waves and all

835
01:09:52.640 --> 01:09:54.840
kinds of stuff that I'm never going to see or

836
01:09:54.920 --> 01:10:01.640
hear or feel, not consciously anyway, So I never try

837
01:10:01.680 --> 01:10:03.960
not to sort of when I get serious, I try

838
01:10:04.000 --> 01:10:07.680
not to like poo poo other people's beliefs and things,

839
01:10:07.720 --> 01:10:12.399
because there's more stuff that I don't know than I

840
01:10:12.439 --> 01:10:15.000
do know, and that is always going to be the

841
01:10:15.039 --> 01:10:21.159
case my entire life. For everything I know, there's billions

842
01:10:21.159 --> 01:10:23.960
of things that I don't know, maybe trillions of things

843
01:10:23.960 --> 01:10:28.199
that I don't know. So and I'm okay with that.

844
01:10:28.680 --> 01:10:32.159
I can't know everything. I don't want to know everything.

845
01:10:33.319 --> 01:10:36.479
Sometimes I want to know everything about specific subjects, but

846
01:10:37.520 --> 01:10:45.239
generally I don't know. I don't have any Yeah, I mean,

847
01:10:45.920 --> 01:10:50.000
my flat's haunted with a little Jack Russell, and before

848
01:10:50.039 --> 01:10:53.720
that it was haunted by a little ferritic called Andre

849
01:10:55.920 --> 01:11:05.239
and any occasional mice. But generally, yeah, it's so it

850
01:11:05.239 --> 01:11:08.319
wouldn't bother me. It's the neighbors. As long as the

851
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:10.560
neighbors are quiet, I don't really care what else happens.

852
01:11:11.560 --> 01:11:14.359
As long as everything everything, everyone's safe. And that's sort

853
01:11:14.359 --> 01:11:21.279
of lucky with the asked for. So yeah, no, I

854
01:11:21.279 --> 01:11:24.239
think the answer to that is no. There was one

855
01:11:24.279 --> 01:11:31.239
incident in that house I was telling you about. We'd

856
01:11:31.279 --> 01:11:35.439
only lived there for a little while, and my dad

857
01:11:35.479 --> 01:11:39.039
had put a carpet down, and the carpet started to

858
01:11:39.199 --> 01:11:47.880
rise on its own, and that was strange. But I

859
01:11:47.920 --> 01:11:50.359
think my dad said it was like the air was

860
01:11:50.520 --> 01:11:54.079
going through the skirting boards or something like that.

861
01:11:54.159 --> 01:11:56.000
But that was very weird.

862
01:11:56.000 --> 01:12:03.119
It didn't happen in any other room. Then there was

863
01:12:03.119 --> 01:12:11.800
that poltergeist. Uh yeah, not not nothing really, it was

864
01:12:12.000 --> 01:12:17.800
just yeah, I just did. I don't know, I just didn't.

865
01:12:17.960 --> 01:12:21.880
I mean, I've lived in a I literally have lived

866
01:12:21.880 --> 01:12:25.119
in a mansion, I guess technically, or I lived in

867
01:12:25.119 --> 01:12:34.319
the children's home in South End. Huge building, huge like

868
01:12:34.560 --> 01:12:41.560
mansion size in a sense, like absolutely massive, big grounds

869
01:12:41.680 --> 01:12:42.920
and massive building.

870
01:12:43.119 --> 01:12:43.680
Really you know.

871
01:12:47.640 --> 01:12:52.199
So, but I don't remember ever anything happening anything spooky,

872
01:12:53.760 --> 01:12:55.319
paranormal or anything.

873
01:12:55.000 --> 01:12:55.800
Like that there.

874
01:12:58.680 --> 01:13:01.520
And that building was prob be there for a good

875
01:13:02.960 --> 01:13:07.920
five six hundred years probably. In fact, I imagine when

876
01:13:07.960 --> 01:13:12.920
it was first built, it probably was I mentioned, or

877
01:13:12.960 --> 01:13:16.159
a hospital or something like that, big, big, old building.

878
01:13:17.279 --> 01:13:26.239
So yeah, I'm no, he's the answer. Really, the flats

879
01:13:26.279 --> 01:13:30.239
are fine. I mean I don't have access really to

880
01:13:30.279 --> 01:13:32.880
any of the other flats. So I talked to a

881
01:13:32.920 --> 01:13:36.840
couple of the other tenants. Now got two new people

882
01:13:36.920 --> 01:13:41.560
moving in, so I don't know them, and I speak

883
01:13:41.640 --> 01:13:44.439
to one one of the other tenants that I speak

884
01:13:44.479 --> 01:13:45.159
to him every now and then.

885
01:13:45.199 --> 01:13:46.359
I don't see him very often.

886
01:13:47.760 --> 01:13:51.720
And the other two one that I know, I speak.

887
01:13:51.439 --> 01:13:52.680
To them every now and then, but.

888
01:13:56.039 --> 01:13:59.640
Really I don't It's kind of things are changing around

889
01:13:59.640 --> 01:14:04.079
here than two new flats, two new people that moved in.

890
01:14:04.720 --> 01:14:09.800
I don't know them, and it's you know, things change,

891
01:14:10.079 --> 01:14:17.520
people move on, and it's it's all changing. Whether or

892
01:14:17.560 --> 01:14:24.479
not they're haunted. I don't know, No, I don't think so.

893
01:14:24.479 --> 01:14:32.119
So yeah, so I only had three people leaving messages

894
01:14:32.359 --> 01:14:38.119
for questions, but I did get one, one, two, three, four, five, six.

895
01:14:38.159 --> 01:14:42.600
I had six questions. I'm not sure if I've answered

896
01:14:42.640 --> 01:14:43.520
them very well.

897
01:14:43.960 --> 01:14:46.720
I'm not sure if I I'm not sure if I

898
01:14:46.760 --> 01:14:48.159
ever answered questions very well.

899
01:14:48.199 --> 01:14:52.399
I never really asked, do I do you know?

900
01:14:52.560 --> 01:14:58.359
I ordered something on Uber Eats and because I'm trying

901
01:14:58.359 --> 01:15:02.039
to get I'm trying to get stocked up for not

902
01:15:02.079 --> 01:15:04.439
necessarily just for the end of the year, but for

903
01:15:04.520 --> 01:15:08.560
the future, just to prepare me for what's to come.

904
01:15:09.520 --> 01:15:14.319
And I so I've been getting like toilet roll and

905
01:15:15.760 --> 01:15:20.239
washing up liquid and black bin bags and just started

906
01:15:20.239 --> 01:15:22.600
collecting and stuff so that I've got enough to last me,

907
01:15:23.359 --> 01:15:28.399
hopefully for another year if I can. And so I

908
01:15:28.520 --> 01:15:35.319
ordered ten bottles of shampoo. You know how many they

909
01:15:35.439 --> 01:15:39.760
delivered one. I ordered a couple of other things, but

910
01:15:39.800 --> 01:15:45.600
not much. They delivered one bottle of shampoo. The whole

911
01:15:45.640 --> 01:15:47.720
point of it was to get ten, so that would

912
01:15:47.760 --> 01:15:51.159
last me. Bearing in mind I'm pretty much bored most

913
01:15:51.199 --> 01:15:53.760
of the time. That's going to last me a year.

914
01:15:54.079 --> 01:15:58.119
Ten bottles of shampoo. But no, no, no, no, no.

915
01:15:58.199 --> 01:16:01.800
Only one couldn't believe.

916
01:16:01.520 --> 01:16:06.920
It, never being so angry woo, So I do believe.

917
01:16:07.000 --> 01:16:10.159
That is it for to day. Thank you for listening.

918
01:16:10.560 --> 01:16:14.039
Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve

919
01:16:14.079 --> 01:16:16.359
to be happy and be gentle of yourself.

920
01:16:17.279 --> 01:16:24.039
You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love by