July 13, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Uncle Sausages Update | LMBYTS #1392 | Jason Newland | 13th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is Jason new Land and I am sitting in my

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chair with my favorite little doggie, Finney Sidney. Oh he's

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colored up to me. I'm just stroking him. Oh yeah.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes.

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I thought i'd do a Sunday subbery as it's Sunday,

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so like a summary of last week, not a summary

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of Sunday, because I haven't done much today except sleep really,

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although I did get up very very early this morning

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to watch the boxing. So here's a summary. Let's see

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where do we start. Should we start Monday or should

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we start yesday to Yeah, let's start Monday and work

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awaited today. So I can't remember anything that happened on

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Sunday last week, so Monday. You know what? This is? Weird? Okay?

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The days seem to be mixing together, or rather the

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weeks are mixing together, and I'm not one hundred percent

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sure what happened last week and what happened this week,

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so I might get it a little bit wrong, a

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little bit wrong. So the day is Sunday, the something

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is it the twelfth of July? I think something like

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that and it's about three. It's twenty to three in

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the afternoon. I got the windows open because it's quite

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it's a stuffy day to day. It's like it's warm,

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but it's stuffy. It's overcast. The sun's not there. Obviously

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it's there, but there's no sunshine really, but it's very stuffy,

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very like there's less oxygen and the normal, which is

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probably a weird thing to say. However, based on that,

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I'm wondering whether or not we're going to have a

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big old thunderstorm tonight. I hope so. And I like

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a big thunderstorm. Even Vinnie doesn't care about them. Honestly,

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I know it's a bit selfish because I like something

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that a lot of people don't like, but I do.

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I love a thunderstorm, a really, really loud one. Yeah,

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So I think maybe it's I don't know, I don't

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know why, I just do. There's something, Ever, since I

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was a kid, I quite like the idea that nature

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is just way more powerful than anything humans can produce.

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As far as you know, just every now and then,

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it seems that nature just pops his little head up

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and says just a little reminder to the humans. You

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know I can do this in a second. Something that

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you can create, I can. You know, it's I don't know,

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just it's very powerful, isn't it? Nature? But naturally? But

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at the same time I don't as I don't like

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things that cause damage and harm. But I guess because

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we don't really get that much here, which is nice,

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but just a big thunderstorm or a particularly winded day,

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it's something to be respected, isn't it. Really? I would

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say nature. I was thinking about, you know, the old

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argument about what what instincts we're born with nature versus nurture.

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So what we talk compared to what do we learn,

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you know, compared to what natural instincts do we have?

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And dogs have been studied for this, dogs, rats, animals

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and stuff any humans, of course, but the idea that

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a dog has that it made me rethink it because

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I was thought that dogs naturally, you know, a dog

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or pockets leg. A male dog would cock its leg

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to go for weeies. It will kick behind it after

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going to a toilet to cover up because you know,

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to keep away predators and stuff and not know why

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they're doing it, and it's instinctive. But with Vinnie it's

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not instinctive because he had no brothers or sisters. When

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he was born. He was around no dogs, really, he

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had a female. He was around his mum. So when

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he went to a toilet, he crouched, which I guess

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is what his mum did. And I had him at

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ten months old, so he never cocked his leg and

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he never did the old like, you know, kicking back

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after going to a toilet, didn't do any of that stuff.

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Once he started going out for walks with Logi, my

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friend's dog downstairs, he started copying them. He started cocking

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his legs, started kicking. The weird thing about is ill.

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He'll go to toilet and then we'll turn around and

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he'll keep behind him, which is a complete different direction.

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So there's no point to always doing it, but he's just

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learned it so that that. Yeah, he had about eleven

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months with Logi, No, not eleven mode more than that,

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didn't he because my friend left in November and I

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had Logi to for another three months to the end

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of February I think, or was it March, I think February,

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So he had over I mean there three months of

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living with him solidly upstairs here, him and Logi together,

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but before that they would see each other every day,

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go for walks every day, so he copied him, but

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after living it like it didn't actually get on so

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well because Vinnie was Vinnie wanted his He wanted his

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own space, and this was his home. He didn't want

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He liked Vinni, he liked Logi visiting, but there's certain

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times when he came to bedtime, Logi took up needed

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a whole bed because of a big old dog. Vinnie

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was trying to push Logi off. He couldn't physically do it.

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Even I couldn't physically do it. It was too strong

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and heavy, and Vinnie did not like that. That's when

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he started sleeping on the pillow next to me, because

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before that he always used to sleep at the bottom

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of the bed or maybe at the side, like cuddle

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up to me when I was asleep, because he didn't

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like to cuddle up to me when I was awake.

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Doesn't like to show any kind of affection. Weird, weird

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old sausage is And so that's the pillow next to me.

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That was kind of the only space he had, or

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right behind him near the wall. Because Logi took up

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literally half the bed. Vinnie takes up half the bed,

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but he doesn't need half the bed. LOGI needed half

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the bed because he's big old thing. What's that guy

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I do with the last week? I don't know who

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expect me to keep track of what I'm saying. I'm

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sorry about the noise, but it's like a crush in

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the garden. I can't do anything about it. I'm not

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closing the windows. And at the same time, I do

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also want to make recordings, so it's one of those

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either I don't make a recording. Isn't it really weird?

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You know when you've got an adult that's really loud,

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and you've got a kid with that adult all the time,

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and then the kid starts being really loud verbally, then

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the adult gets upset with a kid for being loud. Now,

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that is funny. That's a funny old situation. Bless them.

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Loud people raise loud people. It's just because we just learned.

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It's the whole nature and nurture what everything as well,

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isn't it. It's sometimes I feel lucky that I moved

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around so much when I was very young, that I

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wasn't with the same people I wasn't with the same adults.

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And you know, it might seem weird because technically I

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probably lucky wasn't the right word. I didn't get caught

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up in that copying other people's behavior. So I didn't

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grow up like my dad, or like my mom or

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like my step mom. I didn't. I didn't grow up

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like them or like the nuns, although I do sometimes

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like to dress up and pace around with a big ruler,

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big bit of wood. But other than that, I'm not

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saying I wasn't influenced by them, because kids are influenced

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by what's around them, aren't they. And I think all

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humans are really to be honest, I know I am

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to a degree, but I didn't end up being like

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a little carbon copy or even even partially a carbon

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copy of a parent. So I didn't have the especially

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if you think back to the the era that I

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grew up, like the seventies, So I didn't grow up

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racist or homophobic, or particularly sexist or anything like that.

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I didn't have those strong views about people from other

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countries and stuff, because I've just been I traveled, not traveled,

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but I've been around. You know, I was in this

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little town at the age of seven, I was in

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this little town and I was hearing people be I

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don't know, not very friendly towards non white people, let's

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just say. And this was standard in the seventies, standard

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almost kind of just flippant in a flippant way, not

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necessarily in a bullian way, just about people that were

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non white. Now there was only I think I met

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one black person. There's one black person in my school,

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or he was a mixed race, and there was probably

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one black person in the town. The only Chinese people

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in the town were people that had a Chinese takeaway.

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The only Indian people the people that had Indian restaurants.

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It was that kind of town, you know, early eighties,

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late seventies, early eighties. It's very like ninety nine point

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nine point nine point nine point nine point nine nine

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percent Caucasian. So I go to that town and people

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are being all It wasn't just the people, but on

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television it was a very kind of prejudice. Being prejudiced

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was just okay. It was standard. It was on family entertainment.

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Was racist and homophobic. It was a standard thing. And

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I probably laughed, Yeah, I did laugh at it as well.

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I was a kid, I laughed. But the difference is

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I had been I knew I'd had black friends when

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I was in the kids home. In fact, my girlfriend

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was black. So I didn't have that attitude. I didn't

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have that kind of a lot of people in the

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town had never actually seen someone that was non white

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in the flesh, which is weird to imagine, but it's

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probably true actually, other than on television or in movies.

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So I didn't have that. I don't know, I just

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didn't have that attitude, that kind of that little brain

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defect that I think people that grew up in that

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time had a little bit if they lived in a

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completely kind of little, tiny little town in the mid

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of nowhere, where you know, obviously, if you're in London

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it's different, or if you're in a big city it's multicultural,

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and it has been for for a long long time,

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since probably the fifties. I was going to say something

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heart might mildly intelligent then, but I forgot what it was. Yeah,

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I don't know. I just I don't mean know what

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I'm trying to say here. Just I don't know why

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thinking of nature and nurture, because we're not born like that,

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are we was it the two things that babies are

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born with two fears the fear of falling and loud noises.

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That seems to be the only two. I don't think

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that's true, though. Everyone's got their own thing and it.

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Babies don't like being left on their own, do they? Sometimes?

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I was quite a good father figure. Once in nineteen

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ninety five, I was dating this lady. She was I

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think she was two years old than me. I was

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twenty five, she was twenty seven. She had two kids

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wanted to She had a daughter who was about I

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don't know, four five, and she had a son who

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was probably about a year old. It's basically a baby still.

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And that little boy bonded with me, like really bonded,

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like just automatically, I don't know why. And I used

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to be able to send him to sleep, so when

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he cried, it put his arms out for me to

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pick him up. Is like he connected with me. And

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I used to sing to him and it's I'd sing

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Michael Jackson songs and he'd fall asleep. And one time

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I went away, I was in Buttling's and I got

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a phone call from her dad, my girlfriend's dad, saying

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that the little boy, the little baby was in hospital

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because he had an asthma attack. So I come back

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to London and I get in there. So I go

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into the baby ward, which is just a weird place

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to be, and the first thing the little boy does

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is put his arms out for me to pick him up, smiling,

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so happy to see me, and it was weird, Like, wow,

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imagine if other human beings were happy to see me.

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Imagine having that kind of welcome from everyone that you

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meet in life. Life, you would just be almost blissful,

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wouldn't it. It'd be weird. Yeah, it's definitely weird, especially

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if you Yeah, that would be weird, wouldn't it. Imagine

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you were robbing someone's house and they came in and

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caught you and they were so excited to see you,

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Oh how are you? That'd be weird. Not that I

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rob people's houses, although funny enough, the lady downstairs who've

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got her flat robbed about three months ago. She found

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out who did it as a local neighbor. According to her,

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and apparently that same neighbor. Again, I don't have proof

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of this, but actually the dots fitted together because she

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knew stuff that she wouldn't know otherwise she you know

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that I've not said to her. The same neighbor was

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going around to people saying that I was a convicted

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I've been to prison for something really bad. And so

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the neighbor downstairs went online. Apparently the website can go

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on to check this stuff out. And it's weird. It's

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that really I didn't know what to do with that

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information because this is someone that I actually visited. I

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visited this person in the hospital last week, not not.

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This isn't Uncle Sausages. This is another neighbor. When if

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it was Uncle Sausages, I wouldn't be visiting them anymore

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if I thought he'd said something like that about me. Yeah,

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that was weird. I said, like, okay, well, if that

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was true, then I would not be living opposite of

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school for a fact. You know, there's a certain laws

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about stuff like that. But then it kind of like

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we had this conversation with me and the neighbor downstairs,

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and she said, yeah, but if she's going around telling people,

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you could end up really in a bad place, a

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bad spot, you know. I said yeah, And it kind

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of explains why some people are used to say to me,

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do now don't because it's the old saying, isn't it

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like the old no smoke about fire, that idiotic phrase. So, yeah,

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it's weird. I still trying to process this. It's not

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the best time to be trying to process any other

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serious stuff with what's going on with Uncle Sausages. I

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did not know what to do with that information. Also

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to find out that apparently the neighbor downstairs knows the

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person that broke into a flat. She's like a friend

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of a friend, and he didn't notice her flat. So

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he's gone and told her who organized it, which was

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the other neighbor. So I don't know she's going to

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go to the police. I've got no idea. I can't.

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It's not for me to get involved in that stuff.

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And also it's not for me to know what's what

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is it. I don't know what's true what's not true.

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But has absolutely blown my mind just thinking I'm walking

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around and people are thinking that of me. It's just absolutely, Yeah,

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it's weird. I should move on. I just it's all

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I've been thinking about since Friday. Yeah, Friday, that's when

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I Yeah, Friday, no Saturday, Saturday night, no Friday, Friday. Yeah.

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So since Friday afternoon about five point thirty, I remember roughly,

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because Uncle, well actually it was Auntie Landlord came around

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and got me to sign that form, that legal document

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that Auntie the uncle Sausages wanted me to sign. So

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I did that, and then what's her name called me

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up asked me for something. I said, a couple of

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black bags or something. As I went down, and she

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started telling me all this stuff. Why why didn't you

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you know? It's like wow, Because I said to her

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she was saying this stuff, I said, well, I don't know.

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I get on quite well with her, and she said, oh,

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you should hear what she said about you. And then

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when she was telling me, actually was things that she

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wouldn't know that makes sense, things that I've not because

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I've had already any conversations with the neighbor downstairs, hardly

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any conversations at all since she moved in. Helped her

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out a few times, actually, but I've never really had

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any sit down, proper normal conversations. And this was the

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first time that we sat and talked for like half

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an hour, hadn't hadn't done that before, And she knew

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things that she wouldn't know unless you'd actually spoken to

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the other person. There's no way she'd know that stuff.

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It's very unusual, very unusual situation. I'm thinking that with

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people like that about here. I was like, I need

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to get out of here. I said to her, why

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didn't you tell me when when she when you found out?

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When she said it, she said, I was going to,

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but you just let me know that you had bipolar,

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and I didn't want to. I was worried what your

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reaction would be. I said, I still got bipolar. You know,

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it wasn't just the weekend thing. I still here. And

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I mean generally my reactions were internal most of the time,

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not always, but most of the time. And you know,

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it's kind of limited, limited to what I can do

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in these situations. But yeah, so that that's probably one

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of the biggest things that's happened this week for me,

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is hearing that how much of it is gossip, how

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much of it is true, how much of it but

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a lot of it was based on stuff that my

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neighbor would not know. She wouldn't know. There's no way

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in the world she could know just say it one

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more time. She couldn't have known, which because I've not

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talked to anyone else. I don't talk to anyone anymore

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because my friend Luke's gone, so don't have conversations with

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people about what's going on locally. We used to chat

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about stuff. I suppose we'll have a little bit of

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a gossip, but generally, you know, since then, I don't

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have contact with pretty much anyone at all around here,

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apart from people I bump into when I'm walking over

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any Yeah, don't have had anyone knock on the door

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or ring me. But there's this one person that I

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see that I don't see it very often, but i'd

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usually see a couple of times a week actually, And

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as I said, I visited her in hospital when she

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was lying there on oxygen. I mean, you could argue

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while I was already I was at hospital anyway, so

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fair enough. But it's still, you know, it's a nice

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little bit of effort. I was going to give her

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a lift home as well, but she didn't get kicked

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out in time. She didn't get a parole. But the

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idea that someone's it's not even that they're going around

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if telling lots of people, you just say it to

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one person, that's enough to completely destroy everything. For me.

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I suppose I'm lucky that the person she told didn't

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believe her, but at the same time still checked because

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it can be checked. You could check. There's a the

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whole website devoted to this subject. I've never even had

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I know, I don't drive, but I've never been arrested,

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never had a parking fine, never even had what do

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you call it a warning? Is it a warning about anything?

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I've never put in trouble for putting a cigarette out

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on the pavement. I've you know, it's literally nothing my

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whole entire life. Saying that. When I was seven, I

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did get in trouble with the police, but that was

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because of stealing from the school. But the police didn't

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do anything to me. They just made me stand up

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and be humiliated. That was when i was Yeah, I

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was seven. But other than that, I've yeah, I've never

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had any nothing. I've got a very clean record, and

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without getting into obvious statements, I could not have been

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a counselor a therapeutic counselor counseling children adults for charities

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such as mind if I had, or, to be fair,

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possibly any criminal record. I mean, they can kind of

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override some of it. You know, if I had a

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criminal record for I'm trying to think something completely unrelated

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to human beings thirty years ago, you know, something like that,

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maybe they can kind of override it and say, well,

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fair enough, it's a long time ago. It's not I'm

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trying to think of a scenario robin a bank. Maybe now,

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it's probably not a good one. Is it. Stealing a

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tractor to carry home some pebbles from the beach for

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my petty. I'm just thinking something like that. It's like, Okay,

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I stole attract I didn't, I'm saying, But like, okay,

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stole attractor is taking pebbles from a beach, stealing. Technically

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they're not owned by anyone, I guess. But then you know,

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steal the tractor. It's not good. It's against the law.

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Get in trouble for that, get arrested, have a fine.

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The worst is going to be a suspended sentence, I imagine.

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But what I did know, I've got I got a

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friend who anyway, I won't go into that. Yeah, so

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that's very very unusual. I can't live in the mode

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of like wanting to just get out of here now,

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move away. But I can't there's no nowhere to go.

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But at the same time, I guess it. At least

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it's taken my attention off of Uncle's sausages.

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For a few hours. Ah wow.

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He's phoning me up quite a lot when I'm not there,

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and cause I gave him the an iPad to watch

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his TV, you know, the sports channels, and he's struggling

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a little bit working the thing, and I said, I

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showed him how to do it, but I do understand

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that a new thing can take a while to learn,

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and he's getting confused with it, and maybe just play

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round of it, just practice, open up the different apps

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like that, you know, because it's not really any different

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from his TV. It's just instead of using a remote control,

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he's just touching the screen instead. But it's Yeah. He

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was saying something about the nurses. They're always walking off

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to go and pray, which has thrown him off a bit.

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And then he was talking about nurses on horseback and

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I thought an award. He said no. I said, well,

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what nurses on horses I don't really know what you're saying,

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so I'll try and find out what that was about.

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He said, they're on TV. I said they're on TV. Okay,

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really was confused with that today. And then he talks

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about something, and then I'm not sure what he's talking

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about because i can't hear him very well because he's like,

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I think almost he's whispering to me because he doesn't

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want to other people to hear what's saying. Maybe or

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he doesn't want to disturb other people. I don't know.

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And I've noticed that he doesn't talk loudly anymore. He

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used to talk quiet, not it wasn't loud, but he

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was very yeah, probably above normal normal volume level. When

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he got animated and he was talking, it was never quiet.

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Now he's really quiet when he talks. I have to

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get my face really close to him. I mean literally,

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I have to get my ear inside his mouth in

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order for me to hear what he's saying, which is

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a weird visual. And it didn't used to be like that,

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I mean literally two weeks ago. He wasn't like that.

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Two weeks ago, he was with his neighbor Del Boy,

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who is the bloke in the bed next to him,

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Uncle Sausages, was walking around talking about football and stuff,

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and he was animated, and he was talking loudly. And

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you know, enthusiastically, and now he's just sitting there. A

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del boy left, so he got out of the hospital,

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and it's just it's kind of it feels a little

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bit like he's surrendered Uncle Sausages. He's just surrendered to

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the situation, which I understand is possibly part of the process.

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And he's he's done problems with his tummy, not really

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quite bad problems with his tummy, which he didn't he

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was and experiencing before he went in there, although maybe

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it was a little bit, but it's you know, it's progressed.

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And he was saying, oh, I've got a tummy buget

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must have called it from from the hospital, which is possible,

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but no one else has got it. And well, it's

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kind of I think it's part of what he's going

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through and and also could be a reaction to the

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medication and stuff. I just wish I could just pick

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him up and take him out. You're not even allowed

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to out of the hospital ward anymore, and he's in the

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discharge ward, so they're waiting for him to be I

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might just call this about Uncle's Uncle's Sausages update, because

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that way, if you don't want to hear about Uncle Sausages.

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You can just ignore this because not everyone's going to

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want to listen to recordings that are like this, because

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you know, even though I'm not going to go into

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any kind of graphic detail or whatsoever it might, it's

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not necessarily something people are going to want to listen to.

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So I will just put down Uncle Sausages Update. That's fair,

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isn't it. Yeah, So if you get the Sunday Summary,

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unlet's record it Sunday Summary, Uncle Sausages Update. Ah. Maybe

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I don't know, doesn't really matter, does anyone? Does anyone

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even bother worried about what the titles are of the recordings?

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Wait a minute, that's supposed to be Mondays, but were

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in objects? Does anyone care? I don't know. I just

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don't know. I don't know. It's weird. He was moaning

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about the food. He's still moaning about the food, and

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he's I think there's a little bit of a clash

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of cultures there because he's a you know, he's nearly

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eighty years old. He's got his religion. He hasn't really

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spent any time around people with an outwardly different religion

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to him, and you wouldn't even know what religion he

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was because he doesn't dress up or anything. So I

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think that's some kind it's a little bit of a

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bit of a shock to his system to be around

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people that are dressed differently, and he's never been in

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hospital before, so it's kind of I think that it's

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a little bit of a culture shock being around people

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that are maybe speaking very different with a very different accent,

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and I think communication wise, he's struggling with that because

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I think they might struggle with him because he's got

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a very strong Irish accent, and some of his nurses

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and doctors have got a very strong accent from where

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they were born. So I think it's a little bit

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hard for both sides to understand what each other is saying.

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And because he can't understand, sometimes he's not asking for

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people to repeat. And I said to him, look if

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you don't, if you don't know understand what someone's saying,

466
00:40:01.800 --> 00:40:05.079
maybe because they're not speaking loud enough. He's also I

467
00:40:05.119 --> 00:40:09.880
think he's a little bit he is. Hearing isn't as

468
00:40:09.920 --> 00:40:12.159
good as it used to be. He struggles to hear

469
00:40:12.199 --> 00:40:18.920
me on the phone, and how many people's hearing is

470
00:40:18.960 --> 00:40:20.800
as good as it used to be when they're seventy

471
00:40:20.840 --> 00:40:25.719
eight realistically, you know. So I'm not saying anything prerogative.

472
00:40:27.119 --> 00:40:32.679
I'm not saying anything peroxide about him. So I said, look,

473
00:40:32.760 --> 00:40:38.119
I've got sausages. Just you can't ask people to repeat themselves,

474
00:40:38.599 --> 00:40:40.920
or you can even say I don't understand what you're saying.

475
00:40:41.880 --> 00:40:44.360
As long as you don't, you know, don't say in

476
00:40:44.400 --> 00:40:47.960
a horrible way, but I don't understand what you're saying.

477
00:40:50.079 --> 00:40:55.320
And hopefully if that person has any communication skills, they

478
00:40:55.360 --> 00:40:59.960
will speak a little bit clearer and a little bit slower,

479
00:41:00.519 --> 00:41:03.480
and maybe a little bit louder, maybe or get closer

480
00:41:03.480 --> 00:41:06.840
to the person. It just seems like the obvious thing

481
00:41:08.079 --> 00:41:13.719
to do, although I've seen this so many times over

482
00:41:13.760 --> 00:41:19.000
the years, people with the same accent, like a really

483
00:41:19.039 --> 00:41:24.400
strong accent, not being able to understand each other. I've

484
00:41:24.440 --> 00:41:29.199
seen people from Glasgow, Liverpool, Newcastle talking to each other

485
00:41:29.719 --> 00:41:32.400
and they're talking so fast, and the other person says,

486
00:41:32.639 --> 00:41:40.119
huh what now. The person then repeats exactly the same

487
00:41:40.239 --> 00:41:43.679
sentence as they did before, in exactly the same way,

488
00:41:44.199 --> 00:41:48.079
at exactly the same speed, with the exact same amount

489
00:41:48.119 --> 00:41:54.760
of mumbling. And then a person uh, and then they

490
00:41:54.800 --> 00:41:57.199
can kind of put it together after hearing it two

491
00:41:57.280 --> 00:42:04.320
or three times. I've noticed that for thirty forty years

492
00:42:05.119 --> 00:42:08.400
that people have the tends I say people with some

493
00:42:08.480 --> 00:42:13.719
people have a tendency of they just repeat themselves exactly

494
00:42:13.719 --> 00:42:16.639
how they did before. But the fact that the person

495
00:42:16.800 --> 00:42:22.039
listening to them didn't understand what they said or didn't

496
00:42:22.079 --> 00:42:28.360
catch the full sentence means maybe, you know, as I said,

497
00:42:28.360 --> 00:42:35.199
like speaking a little bit clearer. But I noticed that

498
00:42:35.239 --> 00:42:37.960
when people, for example, someone says I had a friend

499
00:42:38.000 --> 00:42:41.840
who used to sort of talk, and then he'd almost

500
00:42:43.280 --> 00:42:45.880
it's like his sentence would fall asleep at the end.

501
00:42:46.800 --> 00:42:51.159
So yeah, I'm going to head down to the what

502
00:42:52.199 --> 00:42:57.719
I'm now just going to head down to the world

503
00:42:58.320 --> 00:43:01.320
and it just drop off. Is like the last bit,

504
00:43:01.440 --> 00:43:03.559
the last word or the last two words were almost

505
00:43:03.599 --> 00:43:14.400
like fall asleep. Now, if someone asks me to repeat myself,

506
00:43:14.400 --> 00:43:20.039
because I'm perfect, of course I would think, oh, they

507
00:43:20.079 --> 00:43:24.320
didn't understand what I said, so maybe I'm mumbled, and

508
00:43:24.360 --> 00:43:29.239
I mumble everyone I'm imagine everyone mumbled. Sometimes I love mumbling.

509
00:43:29.280 --> 00:43:35.000
It makes me makes me horny. So it that was

510
00:43:35.039 --> 00:43:45.039
a really weird thing to say, and the thrown me off.

511
00:43:45.079 --> 00:43:55.079
I've thrown myself off. Wow, thrown myself off. That sounds

512
00:43:55.119 --> 00:43:58.679
weird as well, isn't it. Stop throwing yourself off. There's people,

513
00:43:58.679 --> 00:44:08.360
we've got company. You're ruining the Christmas dinner. Well yeah, anyway,

514
00:44:08.400 --> 00:44:11.320
I just I don't even know why I'm talking about

515
00:44:11.360 --> 00:44:15.039
that while I'm talking about people mumbling, oh yeah, the

516
00:44:15.119 --> 00:44:20.440
nurses or the doctors. So in his last ward, so

517
00:44:20.639 --> 00:44:23.920
he'd been in one. This is fourth ward he's been in.

518
00:44:24.440 --> 00:44:28.679
The first one was in the accident emergency department, so

519
00:44:28.719 --> 00:44:31.159
it was in the ward there while he was being

520
00:44:32.480 --> 00:44:36.400
scanned and blood tests and all that stuff. So it

521
00:44:36.480 --> 00:44:40.880
was an award. But he then got moved after two

522
00:44:40.960 --> 00:44:43.360
days or it was. He had a Friday night, got

523
00:44:43.400 --> 00:44:48.400
moved on a Saturday to a new ward, to another ward,

524
00:44:52.440 --> 00:44:55.159
but it was only in there for about two days,

525
00:44:56.880 --> 00:45:00.639
maybe three days, two or three days, and then he

526
00:45:00.679 --> 00:45:03.440
got moved to the ward he was in before he

527
00:45:03.519 --> 00:45:08.760
moved to this new one to start with. He liked

528
00:45:08.760 --> 00:45:11.119
it in there. I wouldn't say liked. I mean, he

529
00:45:11.159 --> 00:45:17.480
didn't didn't wake up every morning singing, you know, he didn't.

530
00:45:17.719 --> 00:45:21.760
He doesn't like it, but he liked the other patients

531
00:45:25.559 --> 00:45:28.719
Dell Boy lived next to him. I think some other

532
00:45:28.800 --> 00:45:34.039
bloke that Big Paul or every cardon was opposite. And

533
00:45:34.039 --> 00:45:36.360
then there was another bloke that was the other side opposite,

534
00:45:36.440 --> 00:45:40.440
but he he was asleep most of the time, but

535
00:45:40.519 --> 00:45:43.159
his wife used to come and chat to us. She

536
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:52.320
was in there every single day and excused the noise

537
00:45:52.360 --> 00:46:05.320
again outside when the that squeaky voice just put me off.

538
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:10.760
What was I was going to say? Yeah, when del

539
00:46:10.800 --> 00:46:19.159
Boy moved out, he had a new person move in

540
00:46:21.559 --> 00:46:26.679
and he didn't like him. Uncle Sausages took a dislike

541
00:46:26.760 --> 00:46:29.199
to this person. He thought that they were talking about

542
00:46:29.280 --> 00:46:33.960
him and stuff, and he thought that he was getting

543
00:46:34.000 --> 00:46:41.119
a preferential treatment. But the ward nurse because I called

544
00:46:41.119 --> 00:46:44.639
the ward nurse when Uncle Sausages told me this, and

545
00:46:44.679 --> 00:46:49.159
we got together and had a conversation, and she explained

546
00:46:49.159 --> 00:46:52.719
that everybody had got different needs because they're all in

547
00:46:52.760 --> 00:46:57.000
the same ward for the same reason, but variations of

548
00:46:57.039 --> 00:47:05.800
that reason and at various stages of the condition as well.

549
00:47:08.039 --> 00:47:12.639
So this person had more personal needs than Uncle Sausages has.

550
00:47:15.519 --> 00:47:18.360
And Uncle Sausages was saying, Oh, I think he's private

551
00:47:18.760 --> 00:47:21.679
because he keeps clicking his fingers, which I'm sure, he didn't,

552
00:47:21.719 --> 00:47:25.519
but kept asking for help with stuff, and that was annoying.

553
00:47:25.960 --> 00:47:29.679
Uncle sausages, And I tried to explain that if he

554
00:47:29.800 --> 00:47:33.360
was private, he wouldn't be in a ward with other people.

555
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:37.119
You know that, you know, his own place is in

556
00:47:37.199 --> 00:47:40.320
his own room. He definitely wouldn't be in that ward

557
00:47:40.360 --> 00:47:48.000
with everyone. But I think I think it's kind of

558
00:47:48.039 --> 00:47:53.039
just being stuck in one place. It was really just

559
00:47:53.960 --> 00:47:56.800
winding them up. And then he started thinking that they

560
00:47:56.840 --> 00:47:59.599
were saying that he was yeah, I want to say

561
00:47:59.599 --> 00:48:02.199
the word, but that they were kind of talking about

562
00:48:02.280 --> 00:48:10.920
him as if he was a criminal, some kind of

563
00:48:11.000 --> 00:48:13.440
you know, because of his name or his accent or whatever.

564
00:48:16.519 --> 00:48:20.320
And he started saying, don't you call me paranoid, because

565
00:48:21.559 --> 00:48:23.880
because he sort of said, maybe you're just you know,

566
00:48:27.039 --> 00:48:32.000
it might just be boredom. It's almost like he was

567
00:48:32.360 --> 00:48:37.840
trying to create some drama but not meaning to. But

568
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:42.280
then there's also confusion based on the condition, the medication.

569
00:48:43.239 --> 00:48:47.960
Just being in that environment. I feel confused now just

570
00:48:48.519 --> 00:48:51.199
back and forward there when I'm in there, I just

571
00:48:52.000 --> 00:48:58.599
it is it's quite a confusing experience. So he must

572
00:48:58.639 --> 00:49:09.000
be yeah, all over the place. And then they moved

573
00:49:09.039 --> 00:49:14.800
him to this new ward and he was saying, oh,

574
00:49:15.320 --> 00:49:20.599
that bloke one he got Uncle Sausages kicked out and moved,

575
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:28.800
which isn't true at all. It's basically he was moved

576
00:49:28.840 --> 00:49:35.360
to the discharge ward. I'm sure there's a few discharge

577
00:49:35.400 --> 00:49:38.760
wards in the hospitals, but he was moved to one

578
00:49:38.800 --> 00:49:45.159
of the discharge wards because he's being discharged, although it

579
00:49:45.320 --> 00:49:52.320
might take a while because he got asked by the

580
00:49:52.360 --> 00:49:57.400
hospice or the discharged nurse. But I think she's part

581
00:49:57.440 --> 00:50:01.000
of the hospice as well. And she said, she said,

582
00:50:01.079 --> 00:50:04.440
Uncle Sausages, what have you? What have you decided? Because

583
00:50:04.480 --> 00:50:08.599
she she came a week before and she came in

584
00:50:08.599 --> 00:50:10.199
the same thing that you decided what you want to

585
00:50:10.199 --> 00:50:12.760
do yet? And he said, well, I don't want to

586
00:50:12.800 --> 00:50:15.280
go home. He didn't want to come back to the

587
00:50:15.320 --> 00:50:19.760
flat because of the the mess and stuff like that there.

588
00:50:20.239 --> 00:50:22.519
She doesn't want to come back here what she did originally,

589
00:50:24.000 --> 00:50:27.480
And she said what do you want? He said, well,

590
00:50:28.960 --> 00:50:31.119
she said, do you want to go into a care home?

591
00:50:32.320 --> 00:50:36.239
She said he said, no, hospice. That's what he told her,

592
00:50:36.719 --> 00:50:38.679
which I was a little bit surprised about because I've

593
00:50:38.719 --> 00:50:41.920
never I didn't think that was something that you could

594
00:50:42.000 --> 00:50:45.239
choose to do. I thought it was something that you

595
00:50:47.079 --> 00:50:49.760
I don't know. I just I thought it had gone

596
00:50:49.800 --> 00:50:53.000
for a care home, because I imagine that would be a

597
00:50:53.079 --> 00:50:58.480
much nicer environment and he'd make friends and stuff, and

598
00:51:00.760 --> 00:51:04.239
thinking about it as possibly where he should have been anyway,

599
00:51:05.599 --> 00:51:08.320
not not like a care home, but in a kind

600
00:51:08.360 --> 00:51:14.320
of a residential home where he was having his he

601
00:51:14.360 --> 00:51:17.639
was being looked after. He's got a few needs, just

602
00:51:18.159 --> 00:51:20.360
he'd have been looked after, and I think that's I

603
00:51:20.360 --> 00:51:22.760
think he'd have been much happier if he'd have had

604
00:51:22.760 --> 00:51:26.559
that for the last few years, just somewhere where he

605
00:51:26.599 --> 00:51:32.400
had his own room, ideally getting fed every day, he

606
00:51:32.440 --> 00:51:35.880
could watch you know, I have an own TV. He

607
00:51:35.880 --> 00:51:38.639
could watch sport all day long if he wanted. He'd

608
00:51:38.679 --> 00:51:41.559
also be able to have company, because he loves to

609
00:51:41.599 --> 00:51:47.639
talk to people. He's a people's person, and which is

610
00:51:47.679 --> 00:51:54.119
ironic because he's also solitary like me. And I think

611
00:51:54.159 --> 00:51:57.199
that's part of the reason why I've really tried to

612
00:51:57.239 --> 00:52:00.840
help him over the last year or so. I've always

613
00:52:00.880 --> 00:52:02.639
been there if he needed me since I've been there

614
00:52:02.719 --> 00:52:05.800
for ten years, but it kind of got a bit

615
00:52:05.840 --> 00:52:08.119
closer over the last year because of stuff with his

616
00:52:08.159 --> 00:52:12.119
flat and bills, and he couldn't he couldn't communicate on

617
00:52:12.159 --> 00:52:14.519
the phone anymore with people, so he helped got me

618
00:52:14.599 --> 00:52:22.239
to help him do it. And he loves chatting, loves

619
00:52:22.599 --> 00:52:27.840
people really a bit like Vinny loves humans. But he

620
00:52:27.920 --> 00:52:31.960
lives a solitary life what has done where he doesn't

621
00:52:32.000 --> 00:52:36.119
see anyone really unless he goes out to the petrol

622
00:52:36.119 --> 00:52:38.880
station or goes to the chip van. They all know

623
00:52:38.960 --> 00:52:42.320
him at the chip van because he chats to everyone.

624
00:52:42.480 --> 00:52:46.719
They feel like they know him because every you know,

625
00:52:46.800 --> 00:52:51.760
once a week he's there waiting for the chips, fish

626
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:57.719
and chips and four cans of drink and a bad sausage.

627
00:52:58.519 --> 00:53:00.199
I even know what he gets now because I got

628
00:53:00.199 --> 00:53:07.840
it fro him before, mushy peas and curry sauce. I think.

629
00:53:09.199 --> 00:53:13.320
But they they really they love him in there. They're

630
00:53:13.360 --> 00:53:16.280
just because he talks then about because the thing is

631
00:53:16.400 --> 00:53:21.000
because they're I think they're I don't know what country

632
00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:29.280
they're from. Uncle Sausages does. And that's the thing. So

633
00:53:29.440 --> 00:53:32.079
Uncle Sasages hasn't He doesn't have a problem with people

634
00:53:32.119 --> 00:53:36.400
for being from other countries. It's just because his normal

635
00:53:36.440 --> 00:53:38.480
thing is. I've seen him do it with the security

636
00:53:38.519 --> 00:53:41.679
guards when we first went to hospital. He was asking

637
00:53:41.719 --> 00:53:47.199
them where they were from specifically so he could talk

638
00:53:47.239 --> 00:53:50.639
about sport. So if he saw someone who like, they're

639
00:53:50.679 --> 00:53:54.800
from India or from Pakistan or from that kind of

640
00:53:54.840 --> 00:53:58.679
part of the world, he'd go cricket, So where are

641
00:53:58.719 --> 00:54:03.440
you from? If they said old Bangladesh and it go

642
00:54:03.519 --> 00:54:11.519
into cricket. If if he got someone that says, oh,

643
00:54:11.519 --> 00:54:16.440
they're from Cingali or they're from Jamaica or whatever, it'd

644
00:54:16.519 --> 00:54:21.239
talk about whatever kind of probably football, you know, if

645
00:54:21.239 --> 00:54:25.760
someone is from Spain or Italy football, it kind of

646
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:28.880
go with whatever is the national sport. But if someone

647
00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:35.199
was from Australia, he'd go cricket, do you know what

648
00:54:35.199 --> 00:54:38.239
I mean. So he's kind of that's he's interesting where

649
00:54:38.280 --> 00:54:41.800
people are from. But because people aren't talking to him,

650
00:54:41.840 --> 00:54:43.679
the nurses are not and the doctors are not there

651
00:54:44.159 --> 00:54:49.079
to talk about sport. They're there to yeah, save people's

652
00:54:49.079 --> 00:54:53.000
lives and to do their rounds, and they've got to

653
00:54:53.000 --> 00:54:59.000
get to the next person. So I think it's I

654
00:54:59.039 --> 00:55:01.480
guess since he feels like he's been silenced a bit,

655
00:55:02.360 --> 00:55:07.039
and I'm hoping that he gets out there as soon

656
00:55:07.079 --> 00:55:10.239
as possible. I hope it will be a care home

657
00:55:12.400 --> 00:55:18.920
because then he'll be around people and possibly he'll ever,

658
00:55:19.119 --> 00:55:20.599
you know, be able to have a nice chat with

659
00:55:20.679 --> 00:55:26.639
people and be able to just, I don't know, be

660
00:55:26.719 --> 00:55:30.320
himself again. But then I don't know how much of

661
00:55:30.400 --> 00:55:35.280
him not being himself is because of the See I'll

662
00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:36.920
tell you what. It is breaking my heart. You know,

663
00:55:37.079 --> 00:55:40.199
this whole situation. I know it's supposed to perhaps I

664
00:55:40.199 --> 00:55:43.440
shouldn't call this to let me boy to sleep. It's hard.

665
00:55:43.599 --> 00:55:48.000
It's hard, but he doesn't seem to be himself anymore

666
00:55:48.320 --> 00:55:50.360
the way he used to. It goes in and out

667
00:55:50.360 --> 00:55:58.119
of it. It's not just personality wise. I mean, he

668
00:55:58.199 --> 00:56:00.119
was getting angry during the week, and I've never I've

669
00:56:00.119 --> 00:56:03.719
seen him angry before, but he's gone through little periods

670
00:56:03.760 --> 00:56:08.800
of anger and telling me off, like okay. I will

671
00:56:08.920 --> 00:56:16.719
normally put up with that. Oh wow, Yeah, it's sometimes

672
00:56:16.760 --> 00:56:20.920
I would be like, you know, go go yourself, like

673
00:56:22.599 --> 00:56:27.760
that's it, but I can't because that would be the wrong,

674
00:56:27.880 --> 00:56:31.079
wrong thing to do. So I'm kind of just trying

675
00:56:31.119 --> 00:56:39.920
to stick with it and hope that he gets released

676
00:56:40.480 --> 00:56:46.280
or gets discharged. It's quite funny isn't it considering the

677
00:56:46.400 --> 00:56:48.880
nurses and the care workers. I have to deal with

678
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:53.840
discharges all day long. He's in the discharge ward, which

679
00:56:53.920 --> 00:57:01.199
there are anyway, so he is. I don't know if

680
00:57:01.199 --> 00:57:02.519
he's going to be out of there by the end

681
00:57:02.519 --> 00:57:05.440
of the week, the end of next week. Well it

682
00:57:05.559 --> 00:57:09.960
starts tomorrow, doesn't it really Monday? I don't know. But

683
00:57:10.199 --> 00:57:14.960
the nurse that he spoke to regarding getting discharged where

684
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:18.119
he'd like to go, she's on it, and they've been

685
00:57:18.159 --> 00:57:24.559
on it for They started last Thursday, not this Thursday,

686
00:57:24.920 --> 00:57:28.039
got on the one before, so they've been on it

687
00:57:28.280 --> 00:57:34.239
for over a week already, trying to find him somewhere

688
00:57:34.280 --> 00:57:44.000
to move. And if he doesn't come back here. I

689
00:57:44.039 --> 00:57:49.000
didn't realize this, they literally will stop his money and

690
00:57:49.039 --> 00:57:53.679
give him twenty pounds a week to live on. Someone

691
00:57:53.719 --> 00:57:55.440
told me that. I don't know if it's true or not,

692
00:57:58.199 --> 00:58:01.960
and I realized, he'll be getting on his meals and

693
00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:05.079
he'll be getting you know, he'll get somewhere to live

694
00:58:05.119 --> 00:58:15.039
in that, but he's twenty pounds a week. It's what

695
00:58:15.039 --> 00:58:19.480
if he wants some new clothes, what if he wants

696
00:58:19.519 --> 00:58:22.079
to buy you know what I mean? Just he wants

697
00:58:22.119 --> 00:58:25.960
to because who knows, you don't know. They're giving him

698
00:58:27.440 --> 00:58:36.440
three an amount of time three and how long a give.

699
00:58:36.559 --> 00:58:39.800
But he might, you know, he may be around for

700
00:58:39.800 --> 00:58:45.159
a lot longer. Hopefully he is. So he might because

701
00:58:45.199 --> 00:58:46.719
I said to him, when you do, if you get

702
00:58:46.719 --> 00:58:53.880
a nice room in a care home, get yourself a

703
00:58:53.920 --> 00:58:58.679
big old TV. You know, just just I didn't say.

704
00:58:58.719 --> 00:59:00.800
I didn't say you must get off or too, but

705
00:59:00.880 --> 00:59:03.440
get a nice TV. Big because he's just got a

706
00:59:03.440 --> 00:59:05.960
little one way he lives. I don't know why. It

707
00:59:06.039 --> 00:59:10.639
was not little, but it's kind of quite small, although

708
00:59:10.639 --> 00:59:13.880
he likes it. He likes to set up he's got before.

709
00:59:14.400 --> 00:59:17.159
But I said, just get a massive TV if he can.

710
00:59:18.400 --> 00:59:23.280
And what's weird is he's got a huge collection of magazines,

711
00:59:23.760 --> 00:59:33.079
sports magazines like football programs and things like that, cricket, rugby. Yeah.

712
00:59:33.280 --> 00:59:35.280
I said to him, what do you want to do

713
00:59:35.320 --> 00:59:37.039
with that stuff? And he said, just get rid of it.

714
00:59:42.679 --> 00:59:48.840
I mean, he had his whole flat cleared out just

715
00:59:48.840 --> 00:59:54.679
before Christmas because of I'd just say his collection is

716
00:59:54.719 --> 00:59:59.480
collecting got out of hand, okay, but he still managed

717
00:59:59.480 --> 01:00:05.360
to keep whold with thousands and thousands of magazines like

718
01:00:05.519 --> 01:00:13.920
every drawer, every cupboard's full, and now he's willing to

719
01:00:13.960 --> 01:00:21.599
just like just chuck it away, and that just seems

720
01:00:24.239 --> 01:00:30.480
it just seems wrong to do that. I mean, technically,

721
01:00:30.559 --> 01:00:32.519
I haven't got to do anything that counsel can come

722
01:00:32.519 --> 01:00:36.119
and do that, but i'd kind of like I'll speak

723
01:00:36.159 --> 01:00:38.000
to him and say, look, is there anything personal you

724
01:00:38.039 --> 01:00:40.559
want me to go through and get rid of or

725
01:00:41.719 --> 01:00:44.119
get for you to take into the home or put

726
01:00:44.199 --> 01:00:47.000
into storage because he might have you know, he's got

727
01:00:47.000 --> 01:00:49.559
a big bible. I'm sure he doesn't want that chucked out,

728
01:00:50.440 --> 01:00:54.199
and he probably wants that to go to someone because honestly,

729
01:00:54.400 --> 01:00:57.840
it's like the side of the table massive someone gave

730
01:00:57.880 --> 01:01:00.440
it to him. I think is uncle pay should go

731
01:01:00.559 --> 01:01:05.119
to him when he was a kid. So he's had

732
01:01:05.119 --> 01:01:10.960
that for forever, like big bound bible and it's like

733
01:01:11.000 --> 01:01:13.840
in a little booklet thing, so it's well, big booklet thing,

734
01:01:14.320 --> 01:01:20.639
so it's very kind of kept kept well. And he

735
01:01:20.760 --> 01:01:24.840
might have personal stuff. He might have photographs, you know,

736
01:01:24.960 --> 01:01:28.239
family photographs, things like that. I don't know where they are,

737
01:01:29.320 --> 01:01:31.400
So I'm going to ask him, is this stuff in

738
01:01:31.440 --> 01:01:34.840
your flat that you want me to get for you? Photographs?

739
01:01:35.800 --> 01:01:43.079
Just I don't know any sentimental things because unless they

740
01:01:43.119 --> 01:01:46.920
allow him to come back to the flat to go

741
01:01:47.039 --> 01:01:52.880
through the stuff. But I imagine that'd be really hard

742
01:01:52.880 --> 01:01:54.360
for you. He said he doesn't want to set foot

743
01:01:54.360 --> 01:01:57.719
in the place again, but I imagine that'd be hard,

744
01:01:58.480 --> 01:02:00.280
very hard for him to go back into that flat

745
01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:05.840
now after this, because he's lived there for like thirty years,

746
01:02:05.880 --> 01:02:11.480
nearly twenty six years, ninety nine. I think he moved

747
01:02:11.519 --> 01:02:18.679
in there. So I don't know it's going to be.

748
01:02:21.480 --> 01:02:24.119
It just doesn't seem right that because I saw this

749
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:29.719
with Luke. When Luke left, left me, left us, left

750
01:02:29.719 --> 01:02:39.800
the world. His flat was completely full of stuff. His family,

751
01:02:39.920 --> 01:02:43.599
immediate family came around because I had the key to

752
01:02:43.679 --> 01:02:47.480
his flat. I had a spare key up here, so

753
01:02:47.599 --> 01:02:56.400
I let them in and they just took a few bits,

754
01:02:56.480 --> 01:03:00.400
like just like personal items like a T shirt had

755
01:03:00.440 --> 01:03:02.639
his smell on and stuff like that, still like his

756
01:03:02.719 --> 01:03:05.960
sisters and his mum just keepsakes, and that was it.

757
01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:12.199
And then they tossed me at the keyback and they

758
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:14.280
didn't want to go. They didn't want to set foot

759
01:03:14.320 --> 01:03:21.440
into that place again. And then I think a couple

760
01:03:21.480 --> 01:03:27.480
of week Yeah, then what happened is no, I didn't

761
01:03:27.519 --> 01:03:29.360
take the key back. I said to a sister, keep

762
01:03:29.400 --> 01:03:32.199
the key. I don't want to I'm not going in

763
01:03:32.199 --> 01:03:35.360
there anymore either, and I want to go in I

764
01:03:35.360 --> 01:03:41.480
didn't want to go in there. And so basically then

765
01:03:41.639 --> 01:03:44.480
another friend of his got hold of the key, was

766
01:03:44.519 --> 01:03:48.320
given the key, and he went in there and started

767
01:03:48.320 --> 01:03:53.519
taking stuff out bit by bit, over like a week

768
01:03:53.599 --> 01:03:56.039
or two, got rid of as much as he could,

769
01:03:56.519 --> 01:04:00.719
anything that he could sell really to be honest or use.

770
01:04:04.000 --> 01:04:10.320
And then when the council came round to empty the place,

771
01:04:11.559 --> 01:04:15.719
this is something that I found very difficult actually, because

772
01:04:17.480 --> 01:04:25.920
they were very I only use the word unprofessional, but

773
01:04:26.239 --> 01:04:29.920
to be fair, what they're doing, they probably don't hire

774
01:04:30.199 --> 01:04:34.480
people with It's kind of perhaps they don't even think

775
01:04:34.920 --> 01:04:39.719
beyond what they're doing. They don't realize that actually, when

776
01:04:39.719 --> 01:04:45.480
they're empty in someone's flat of belongings, Okay, that person's

777
01:04:45.519 --> 01:04:48.960
not there anymore, but the other people around in the

778
01:04:49.000 --> 01:04:54.159
other flats, the neighbors may be very close to that

779
01:04:54.199 --> 01:04:59.000
person still be grieving. And the way they were treating

780
01:04:59.079 --> 01:05:04.039
his stuff, and we literally heard one and say what

781
01:05:04.159 --> 01:05:07.239
a bunch of junk as he was chucking it onto

782
01:05:07.239 --> 01:05:10.119
the back of a lorry and he was smashing this

783
01:05:10.159 --> 01:05:13.159
stuff up with a big hammer, that big mallet thing

784
01:05:14.400 --> 01:05:21.280
like outside the front, just to make more room. And

785
01:05:21.360 --> 01:05:29.760
I just found that so disrespectful. But I don't think

786
01:05:29.760 --> 01:05:33.400
they did it with disrespect. I think they I think

787
01:05:33.559 --> 01:05:37.159
maybe they just to them, it's just a job. They're

788
01:05:37.199 --> 01:05:41.480
clearing out a flat. They don't know what the situation is.

789
01:05:42.480 --> 01:05:45.639
A lot of people leave flats. They just move out,

790
01:05:46.559 --> 01:05:48.800
you know, it's and leave all their stuff in there,

791
01:05:50.360 --> 01:05:52.599
so that before they know it could be just someone

792
01:05:52.639 --> 01:05:55.400
that's just moved to a different town or just hadn't

793
01:05:55.400 --> 01:05:58.559
paid the rent for two years and skipped, you know,

794
01:05:58.800 --> 01:06:01.760
ran out, so they didn't they didn't know what the

795
01:06:01.800 --> 01:06:12.880
situation was. But still just yeah, I don't know. It's

796
01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:16.679
hard to explain it. I mean, I'm pretty sure if

797
01:06:16.719 --> 01:06:21.519
i'd have done that job, I might I might have

798
01:06:21.599 --> 01:06:23.480
said the same thing. I might have said, Oh, what

799
01:06:23.559 --> 01:06:27.239
a bunch of rubbish, what's all this stuff? I might

800
01:06:27.280 --> 01:06:30.679
have done, And maybe I might even do now, if

801
01:06:30.840 --> 01:06:33.199
you know, but maybe in the past, if I because

802
01:06:33.239 --> 01:06:36.840
I've had jobs where I've cleaned and stuff, so maybe

803
01:06:37.079 --> 01:06:44.119
i'd have had the same attitude. Perhaps I've become a

804
01:06:44.119 --> 01:06:51.800
bit more. I've always been quite sensitive, but I think

805
01:06:51.840 --> 01:06:57.480
I was more sensitive about myself towards myself when I

806
01:06:57.519 --> 01:07:02.000
was younger. I've become more sensitive towards other people as

807
01:07:02.039 --> 01:07:07.480
I got older. It's yeah, I think that's probably what

808
01:07:07.519 --> 01:07:11.920
it was. So I've always been a sensitive person, I

809
01:07:11.920 --> 01:07:16.280
would say to a degree depending on the situation, depending

810
01:07:16.280 --> 01:07:25.239
on my mood. But yeah, so I don't really want

811
01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:29.320
someone to be doing that with uncle Sausages flat, going

812
01:07:29.400 --> 01:07:36.760
in there shouting out about how whatever messy it is,

813
01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:44.599
or orso this rubbish or because that would just be disrespectful.

814
01:07:48.119 --> 01:07:53.119
So I'm kind of in my in my mind thinking, well,

815
01:07:53.159 --> 01:07:56.559
maybe I'll say to Uncle's Sausages, if you want me

816
01:07:56.719 --> 01:08:00.760
to start bagging stuff up, clearing out the place so

817
01:08:00.800 --> 01:08:03.760
that when the council come, all they've got to do

818
01:08:03.840 --> 01:08:06.639
is just get rid of the furniture. So I can't

819
01:08:06.679 --> 01:08:08.320
I got nowhere to put the furniture, but I can

820
01:08:08.320 --> 01:08:11.719
get rid of the belongings and see if he's anything

821
01:08:11.760 --> 01:08:15.079
he needs. So, you know, because he's got thousands of

822
01:08:15.400 --> 01:08:19.520
well not thousands, but probably hundreds of newspaper articles on

823
01:08:19.640 --> 01:08:24.239
various sporting events. He's got tickets from sporting events that

824
01:08:24.279 --> 01:08:32.000
he's attended. Yeah, so much, because he loves sports. That's

825
01:08:32.039 --> 01:08:39.359
his it's not just a hobby, it's his life. But

826
01:08:39.439 --> 01:08:45.439
it's weird today he said, the iPad's not working, or

827
01:08:45.479 --> 01:08:47.800
it wasn't working properly, or he couldn't get it to work.

828
01:08:48.840 --> 01:08:52.159
And I said, well, I'll try and talk it through

829
01:08:52.239 --> 01:08:57.880
with you. And I said, so you want the BBC

830
01:08:58.000 --> 01:09:00.800
app don't you actually want to watch Wimbledon? He said, oh,

831
01:09:00.840 --> 01:09:05.439
I can't involve the Wimbledon. I didn't think I'd ever

832
01:09:05.479 --> 01:09:08.840
hear that sentence come out of his mouth. Didn't care

833
01:09:08.840 --> 01:09:13.239
about Wimbledon, the wimbled men's finals, which is one of

834
01:09:13.239 --> 01:09:16.800
the biggest sporting events in this country in a year,

835
01:09:16.840 --> 01:09:20.359
it's one of the biggest events, well, the men's and

836
01:09:20.439 --> 01:09:25.479
the female finals, and maybe doubles and the wheelchair as well,

837
01:09:25.560 --> 01:09:28.079
but just the finals, you know, the final weekend. That's

838
01:09:28.079 --> 01:09:32.479
what I'm trying to say. And he just didn't have

839
01:09:32.520 --> 01:09:35.840
any interest. Yeah, he's been watching Wimbledon. He's had it

840
01:09:35.880 --> 01:09:40.760
on TV for the last two weeks in the other

841
01:09:40.800 --> 01:09:43.960
ward because he had a TV which was on the

842
01:09:44.039 --> 01:09:48.000
kind of not a ceiling but wasn't on the ceiling,

843
01:09:48.239 --> 01:09:49.960
but it was quite high up, so he had that

844
01:09:50.640 --> 01:09:52.319
and it was playing the whole time, you know, all

845
01:09:52.399 --> 01:10:07.880
day long. So yeah, it's kind of strange, very very strange.

846
01:10:08.680 --> 01:10:11.239
I do hope though, if he gets to go into

847
01:10:11.359 --> 01:10:18.239
a care home, that it's not too far away, because

848
01:10:18.920 --> 01:10:24.520
it's cost me a fortune getting to him the last

849
01:10:24.840 --> 01:10:32.159
three and a bit weeks, and the further he is away,

850
01:10:32.319 --> 01:10:34.960
the less I'm going to be able to travel to

851
01:10:34.960 --> 01:10:40.199
see him. Because it's not just about expense, which is

852
01:10:40.600 --> 01:10:47.079
quite a big thing, but it's also time and leaving

853
01:10:47.119 --> 01:10:51.239
a little Vinnie on his own for too long. I know,

854
01:10:51.399 --> 01:10:53.840
technically I should be able to leave him all day long,

855
01:10:55.880 --> 01:11:01.119
but he's never been left alone, and since I had him,

856
01:11:01.199 --> 01:11:04.399
I've been with him pretty much twenty four hours a

857
01:11:04.479 --> 01:11:09.319
day for two and a half years. However long it's been,

858
01:11:10.720 --> 01:11:17.319
so to suddenly be leaving him alone for five six

859
01:11:17.399 --> 01:11:22.159
hours is I think it's been a bit traumatic for

860
01:11:22.239 --> 01:11:32.520
him and he never gets used to it. I mean

861
01:11:32.520 --> 01:11:35.439
I have left him alone for a few hours, like

862
01:11:35.840 --> 01:11:40.960
really rarely, very rare, but generally if I go out,

863
01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:45.119
I take him with me pretty much all the time,

864
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:49.399
and I haven't been able to do that and you

865
01:11:49.439 --> 01:11:51.800
know why I didn't go. I didn't take him to

866
01:11:51.840 --> 01:11:55.000
the hospital. Organized to take him to the hospital, but

867
01:11:55.079 --> 01:11:57.199
I couldn't take him. You know why not. This was

868
01:11:57.239 --> 01:12:00.159
a couple of weeks ago because I was visit is

869
01:12:00.159 --> 01:12:05.000
it In that other neighbor who was on oxygen, and

870
01:12:05.039 --> 01:12:07.279
I thought i'd go and visit her. Can't take Vinnie

871
01:12:07.279 --> 01:12:09.840
into that ward, so I'd have to leave him here.

872
01:12:10.479 --> 01:12:13.520
Because you know, I was visiting Uncle's Sausages. I thought

873
01:12:13.520 --> 01:12:16.359
I visited her as well, So I didn't take Vinnie.

874
01:12:16.760 --> 01:12:19.600
So Uncle's Sausages didn't get to say Vinnie, who he's

875
01:12:19.720 --> 01:12:24.600
been looking forward to seeing. Then I find out what

876
01:12:24.720 --> 01:12:33.039
she's been up to. Absolutely amazing. Let it go, baby,

877
01:12:33.119 --> 01:12:37.079
let it go. I have no you haven't, I know

878
01:12:37.159 --> 01:12:48.760
I haven't. Oh, so you know this. I'm hoping that

879
01:12:49.000 --> 01:12:54.880
something happens in a positive way as far as his

880
01:12:57.479 --> 01:13:02.840
being moved out this week. It'd be great if he

881
01:13:02.880 --> 01:13:05.199
can find somewhere or if they can find somewhere for

882
01:13:05.399 --> 01:13:12.319
him that's relatively close to hear although he's not going

883
01:13:12.399 --> 01:13:15.039
to ask for that, but he you know, as long

884
01:13:15.079 --> 01:13:18.319
as it's central, even central in the town, I can

885
01:13:18.359 --> 01:13:20.640
get to. If it's Central. I can get there a

886
01:13:20.680 --> 01:13:22.720
lot quick, a lot easier than where he is at

887
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:28.800
the moment, you know, if it's just one bus rather

888
01:13:28.840 --> 01:13:36.680
than two buses, and then I can you know, just

889
01:13:38.359 --> 01:13:45.720
he'll have people around him. And all the nurses were

890
01:13:45.720 --> 01:13:47.720
saying that they liked him. He was a lovely man,

891
01:13:47.800 --> 01:14:04.800
and you know he's he's a friendly bloke. I think

892
01:14:04.800 --> 01:14:07.239
he's just, you know, kind of had enough of being there.

893
01:14:07.279 --> 01:14:14.560
Really just wants to wants to get out, wants to

894
01:14:14.600 --> 01:14:17.680
have a bit of freedom. He wants his parole. That's

895
01:14:17.680 --> 01:14:20.760
what he wants. He wants his paroles, so he does

896
01:14:24.640 --> 01:14:30.199
bless him. So it was really weird. I didn't made

897
01:14:30.199 --> 01:14:36.920
an image yesterday, used chat GPT. All I asked, is

898
01:14:37.840 --> 01:14:46.399
make a man, elderly man made of sausages. Okay, his

899
01:14:46.520 --> 01:14:52.039
uncle sausages. Isn't he have sitting on a bed, Have

900
01:14:54.600 --> 01:14:59.359
Jack Russell next to the bed licking his lips? And

901
01:14:59.399 --> 01:15:05.840
then I said, add a whiskey, wispy white hair or

902
01:15:05.880 --> 01:15:13.239
wavy white hair, and a baseball cap. And the ironic

903
01:15:13.319 --> 01:15:20.239
thing is the face actually looks like him, like he's

904
01:15:20.279 --> 01:15:23.520
got the same kind of same features. I'm talking about

905
01:15:23.520 --> 01:15:26.359
the same kind of eyes, same kind of mouth, same

906
01:15:26.439 --> 01:15:33.319
kind of jaw. He was uncanny. It's really strange, especially

907
01:15:33.359 --> 01:15:36.159
with that baseball cap and the hair because he's got

908
01:15:36.239 --> 01:15:39.279
quite long hair and it's very well, you know quite

909
01:15:39.479 --> 01:15:42.920
you know, I don't know, it looks like him not

910
01:15:43.000 --> 01:15:47.239
the Sausages park, because he's not made of sausages. We

911
01:15:47.319 --> 01:15:51.479
call him uncalled sausages or Vinnie does because that's the

912
01:15:51.560 --> 01:15:55.680
thing that he gets through him. He goes to the

913
01:15:55.920 --> 01:15:57.720
I don't know if he goes up the road to

914
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:00.680
the shops, but he gets these sausage is in a pack.

915
01:16:01.079 --> 01:16:03.680
And there was those robbery ones that I don't think

916
01:16:03.720 --> 01:16:06.199
are fit for human consumption, but I think they are

917
01:16:06.199 --> 01:16:12.600
sold for humans and their robbery and savaloi ish I think.

918
01:16:14.119 --> 01:16:19.520
Never liked sabalois. Could not, oh savalois. I couldn't believe

919
01:16:19.560 --> 01:16:21.279
when people used to come into the chip shop and

920
01:16:21.319 --> 01:16:27.159
actually ask for a savoy. They were willing to pay

921
01:16:27.600 --> 01:16:30.720
to eat a savoi. Literally, they were willing to give

922
01:16:30.720 --> 01:16:35.319
their own money. You couldn't. Honestly, I wouldn't. I wouldn't

923
01:16:35.319 --> 01:16:38.079
eat it if you gave me money. Savolois.

924
01:16:38.319 --> 01:16:39.920
Oh, I never liked them.

925
01:16:40.159 --> 01:16:43.359
But anyway, it's there's kind of those kinds of sausages robbery,

926
01:16:43.560 --> 01:16:48.680
not really sausages, but this one air. He loves them,

927
01:16:49.119 --> 01:16:52.000
absolutely loves them. He'd eat a whole pack if he

928
01:16:52.039 --> 01:16:57.039
could in one sitting. He doesn't get to, but he

929
01:16:57.079 --> 01:17:02.159
would if he could. So that's why he cause Uncle sausages,

930
01:17:02.239 --> 01:17:07.119
Uncle sausages. He's also got a lady who doesn't have

931
01:17:07.159 --> 01:17:09.960
a dog, but she likes. All the dogs love her

932
01:17:10.079 --> 01:17:15.520
around here because she's they all call her Nanny treats.

933
01:17:16.720 --> 01:17:19.720
So she's known as Nanny Treats by all the dogs.

934
01:17:20.439 --> 01:17:25.479
Vinny started that one as well, and all the dogs either.

935
01:17:25.520 --> 01:17:27.920
It's quite weird because some of the other dog owners

936
01:17:27.920 --> 01:17:34.760
are starting to call her nanny treats. That's funny. If

937
01:17:34.760 --> 01:17:37.239
you say something enough people to start to pick it up,

938
01:17:37.239 --> 01:17:40.960
wouldn't they. I guess, Oh, it's Nanny treats. But wow,

939
01:17:41.960 --> 01:17:46.199
it's catching on baby. But Vinny. If I actually say

940
01:17:46.199 --> 01:17:50.520
to Vinny, there's Nanny treats, and he looks up like

941
01:17:50.640 --> 01:17:53.479
where you could say, oh, well, I've just said the

942
01:17:53.479 --> 01:17:58.520
word treats, but no, he's looking for nanny treats. He

943
01:17:58.600 --> 01:18:01.560
knows the difference between just saying treats and nanny treats,

944
01:18:03.359 --> 01:18:06.159
and he can spot off from a mile away, which

945
01:18:06.159 --> 01:18:11.319
is an exaggeration, but he can see her, you know,

946
01:18:12.479 --> 01:18:14.279
you know when you can see the outline of someone

947
01:18:14.319 --> 01:18:17.079
from a distance, but maybe not see their face properly

948
01:18:17.600 --> 01:18:19.600
to not really know whether or not to wave to them.

949
01:18:22.239 --> 01:18:27.079
He knows who it is. Maybe he's just got much

950
01:18:27.079 --> 01:18:33.199
better eyesight than me, and I don't generally, but sometimes

951
01:18:33.279 --> 01:18:35.239
I let him off the lead. Well, I let go

952
01:18:35.319 --> 01:18:40.600
of the lead and he runs to her, because I

953
01:18:40.680 --> 01:18:43.720
know that once he gets to her, he's not leaving

954
01:18:43.760 --> 01:18:49.640
her side. He will not leave her because I literally

955
01:18:49.720 --> 01:18:53.479
have to drag him away because he will eat every

956
01:18:53.520 --> 01:18:59.239
single treat that she gives him. He adores her, absolutely

957
01:18:59.319 --> 01:19:01.439
adores her, and even if she didn't give him any

958
01:19:01.439 --> 01:19:05.439
treats ever again, he'd still get excited to see her

959
01:19:05.840 --> 01:19:11.239
because he loves her, because he just she adores him.

960
01:19:11.439 --> 01:19:13.159
I mean, she loves all the dogs, but I think

961
01:19:13.199 --> 01:19:17.000
he's one of her favorite ones because he's been and

962
01:19:17.039 --> 01:19:20.119
there's another one who lives next door, but this one's

963
01:19:20.159 --> 01:19:23.640
been in the house at least once. She let him

964
01:19:23.640 --> 01:19:25.960
in and she ran her around and he loved it,

965
01:19:26.159 --> 01:19:33.039
absolutely loved it. So she's so it's Nanny treats and

966
01:19:33.079 --> 01:19:38.439
you've got Uncle sausages. There's no one else at the moment. Really.

967
01:19:39.680 --> 01:19:42.319
There's a few people that I see it, you know,

968
01:19:42.439 --> 01:19:46.000
when I take him out, but there hasn't got any

969
01:19:46.079 --> 01:19:48.720
nicknames for any of them. There's Del Boy, but that's

970
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:51.439
a different person. That's not the one in the hospital.

971
01:19:51.560 --> 01:19:55.840
That's just a wheeler and dealer that me and Luke

972
01:19:55.960 --> 01:19:59.039
used to call Del Boy. He worked on the market

973
01:19:59.680 --> 01:20:01.960
for the always like selling stuff out of his garage

974
01:20:02.000 --> 01:20:04.479
and just it'd buy stuff and sell it. That's all.

975
01:20:04.560 --> 01:20:10.199
It was market trader, but we call him Del Boy.

976
01:20:11.000 --> 01:20:16.119
Other than that, there was pants, but he's don't live

977
01:20:16.159 --> 01:20:21.800
around her anymore. The lawnmower man, he doesn't live anymore

978
01:20:22.039 --> 01:20:27.479
because he'd spent about literally about eight hours mowing a

979
01:20:27.520 --> 01:20:32.640
tiny little beer grass. It taking so many pills or

980
01:20:32.640 --> 01:20:35.840
whatever he's took, and he would literally just be standing there,

981
01:20:39.079 --> 01:20:43.560
one lader grass at a time. But with a lawnmower,

982
01:20:43.680 --> 01:20:45.880
I don't know how it's even possible. And all we

983
01:20:46.039 --> 01:20:49.560
hear is that lawnmower starting and stopping, starting and stopping

984
01:20:50.079 --> 01:20:55.920
from morning till night or day on. So I called

985
01:20:55.960 --> 01:21:03.439
him lawnmower man, among other things. We have a name

986
01:21:03.560 --> 01:21:15.359
other people. No, that's it. Really, I'm now beginning to

987
01:21:15.399 --> 01:21:20.840
wonder what my nickname is. Oh please, I'm worried to

988
01:21:20.880 --> 01:21:29.000
even ask. But that's it. Really, that's really what's happened

989
01:21:29.000 --> 01:21:34.199
this week been backward and forward. Dealt with taxi drivers

990
01:21:34.239 --> 01:21:45.359
and bus drivers, passengers, the heat, all the nurses, and

991
01:21:45.680 --> 01:21:50.079
it's been a very strange week. And then Uncle's sausages

992
01:21:50.159 --> 01:21:55.439
started to get a little bit agitated thinking that people

993
01:21:55.479 --> 01:22:02.000
were doing stuff, and like ah, he got very very complicated,

994
01:22:02.359 --> 01:22:12.319
very difficult. But it seems to be hopefully heading towards

995
01:22:12.319 --> 01:22:19.920
the right direction in a sense of him being discharged.

996
01:22:19.960 --> 01:22:27.119
That's what I mean by the right direction, and fingers crossed,

997
01:22:27.159 --> 01:22:31.920
he will end up in a nice place where he's

998
01:22:34.039 --> 01:22:39.880
he feels okay. I know what I mean when I

999
01:22:39.920 --> 01:22:42.439
say that, but I still am not sure what it

1000
01:22:42.479 --> 01:22:51.000
means whatever okay, is that he feels I want to

1001
01:22:51.079 --> 01:22:55.600
use a word happy, but that's probably the last word. Maybe,

1002
01:22:55.640 --> 01:22:59.560
But I'd like him to feel that he's been looked

1003
01:22:59.600 --> 01:23:04.039
after and that he feels safe. And yeah, I guess

1004
01:23:04.079 --> 01:23:06.760
that's it, isn't it to feel safe and to feel

1005
01:23:06.760 --> 01:23:11.279
looked after, To feel heard when he speaks, to be

1006
01:23:11.359 --> 01:23:18.039
listened to, and maybe, you know, make a couple of

1007
01:23:18.079 --> 01:23:28.319
friends along the way. And yeah, very strange times. All

1008
01:23:28.399 --> 01:23:31.079
my glasses just fell off. Well, actually I just done.

1009
01:23:33.239 --> 01:23:35.239
What did I do? I did something and I knocked

1010
01:23:35.279 --> 01:23:37.840
my glasses off with my thumb. I didn't just fall

1011
01:23:37.880 --> 01:23:39.920
off at all. But you want to know that? Why

1012
01:23:39.960 --> 01:23:41.960
did I have to tell you the truth? Damn it?

1013
01:23:44.279 --> 01:23:46.199
So I'm going to have a Chelsea bun with icy

1014
01:23:46.279 --> 01:23:51.840
and a big cherry on the top, pretend it so no,

1015
01:23:52.000 --> 01:23:55.439
And when I eat that, and then I might make

1016
01:23:55.479 --> 01:23:57.640
myself another cup of tea as well to have that with.

1017
01:24:00.880 --> 01:24:11.479
And then I will possibly edit this recording. It's now

1018
01:24:12.720 --> 01:24:17.439
what time is it? It's four o three, so I've

1019
01:24:17.439 --> 01:24:22.960
been talking for nearly an hour and a half. I'll

1020
01:24:22.960 --> 01:24:28.159
probably watched maybe I'll watch a move ov a move

1021
01:24:29.119 --> 01:24:36.680
I don't know, and then I'll have an early night tonight,

1022
01:24:36.880 --> 01:24:39.600
even though I spent half a day in bed. Oh,

1023
01:24:40.000 --> 01:24:43.520
I woke up. I just remembered. Do you know what?

1024
01:24:43.640 --> 01:24:47.680
Here's how this is changing me. I woke up this morning.

1025
01:24:48.800 --> 01:24:51.239
I went to bed at eight, which I've been doing

1026
01:24:51.239 --> 01:24:58.199
a little bit during the week. Yeah, I just I'm

1027
01:24:58.279 --> 01:25:01.000
kind of ready to go to bed at that time,

1028
01:25:01.479 --> 01:25:03.199
so we're in a bit of eight. Woke up at

1029
01:25:03.279 --> 01:25:10.079
half Oh yeah, I woke up at half twelve. I

1030
01:25:10.119 --> 01:25:12.199
woke up a couple of times in that period as well,

1031
01:25:13.399 --> 01:25:20.000
including getting a phone call. And I had this dream

1032
01:25:22.079 --> 01:25:26.560
where I actually said out loud and I felt it

1033
01:25:26.640 --> 01:25:32.640
that it's the first time I've ever been happy, and

1034
01:25:32.680 --> 01:25:42.279
it involved a lady involved fall in love, and it

1035
01:25:42.399 --> 01:25:44.840
was weird. I was kind of pursuing her, not in

1036
01:25:44.880 --> 01:25:48.520
a kind of weird way, but just but she was

1037
01:25:48.760 --> 01:25:52.279
allowing me in a sense like she I don't know.

1038
01:25:52.560 --> 01:25:54.680
It was a weird one because a dream, so it's

1039
01:25:54.720 --> 01:25:59.119
all completely involved elephants and swings and stuff, you know,

1040
01:25:59.119 --> 01:26:04.880
it could be ice scream, all kinds of weird things involved.

1041
01:26:06.159 --> 01:26:18.159
But basically I remember saying to her in this stream,

1042
01:26:18.159 --> 01:26:20.279
telling her that I loved her or I love her

1043
01:26:20.359 --> 01:26:22.640
and I want to spend the rest of my life

1044
01:26:22.680 --> 01:26:27.760
with her or something like that. And she was concerned.

1045
01:26:27.760 --> 01:26:30.239
She said, how long was that going to be? I

1046
01:26:30.279 --> 01:26:32.159
said why? She said, well, I've got things to do,

1047
01:26:32.479 --> 01:26:36.479
I've got to make plans. So it was weird, and

1048
01:26:36.479 --> 01:26:38.840
then I woke up, but there was that whole thing

1049
01:26:38.880 --> 01:26:43.600
of like, okay, it's the first time I felt happy,

1050
01:26:44.159 --> 01:26:49.520
like that was the first time. And it was a

1051
01:26:49.600 --> 01:26:55.960
strange time to wake up, like okay, brilliant, and I'm

1052
01:26:56.000 --> 01:26:59.960
partially awake, you know, because half twelve, I'll be spending

1053
01:27:00.039 --> 01:27:04.560
a fair bit of time in bed yesterday afternoon or

1054
01:27:04.640 --> 01:27:11.239
during the day actually, and the boxing was on Live Boxing,

1055
01:27:13.000 --> 01:27:17.119
which was multiple world title fights. Well a cup of yeah.

1056
01:27:17.800 --> 01:27:20.720
So I just I thought, no, I'm not going to

1057
01:27:20.800 --> 01:27:23.399
watch it. I'm going to go back to bed because

1058
01:27:23.479 --> 01:27:25.840
you know, I don't get up in the middle of

1059
01:27:25.840 --> 01:27:31.039
the night anymore to watch boxing. And this little voice,

1060
01:27:31.399 --> 01:27:33.319
well it was not really little voice, but a thought

1061
01:27:33.359 --> 01:27:37.840
came into my head said why are you putting it off?

1062
01:27:38.760 --> 01:27:43.159
Why put off something that you enjoy? And I thought

1063
01:27:43.159 --> 01:27:51.000
of Uncle sausages. I thought, yeah, why am I putting

1064
01:27:51.039 --> 01:27:55.520
that off? Why am I not sitting up? Okay, it's

1065
01:27:55.640 --> 01:27:58.199
disruptive to the next day because I'm gonna be tired

1066
01:27:58.239 --> 01:28:05.439
all day Sunday. But at the same time, it's a lie.

1067
01:28:05.560 --> 01:28:08.000
It's a live event, it's a big event in a

1068
01:28:08.039 --> 01:28:12.520
boxing calendar, and it was a really good event as well.

1069
01:28:13.359 --> 01:28:19.720
Every fight was good. Why why am I just like,

1070
01:28:19.840 --> 01:28:23.279
and I'll go to bed, and I need to make

1071
01:28:23.279 --> 01:28:26.880
sure on bed to at least four o'clock. It's twelve thirty.

1072
01:28:26.880 --> 01:28:31.880
It's too early to be getting up. So this whole

1073
01:28:31.920 --> 01:28:34.279
thing seems to be changing my attitude a little bit

1074
01:28:35.119 --> 01:28:43.399
to the whole idea of putting stuff off. Yeah, anyway,

1075
01:28:43.439 --> 01:28:45.880
it's good. It was a good night, and I've been

1076
01:28:45.880 --> 01:28:51.520
tired all day bless. But also in a few weeks time,

1077
01:28:51.600 --> 01:28:56.880
there's a there's the Canelo Crawford fight, which is is

1078
01:28:56.880 --> 01:29:00.439
it September I think, but that that that's going to

1079
01:29:00.479 --> 01:29:03.880
be on during the night, and I'm watching it hopefully.

1080
01:29:04.239 --> 01:29:10.159
I'm going to watch that because that's arguably the biggest

1081
01:29:10.159 --> 01:29:15.680
fight of the year, arguably just from the sense of

1082
01:29:16.000 --> 01:29:21.680
the two biggest names in boxing fighting each other. It's huge,

1083
01:29:22.239 --> 01:29:29.439
two unified world champions fighting each other. I mean it, Yeah,

1084
01:29:32.039 --> 01:29:36.479
it's quite rare that happens. It does happen, but this is, like,

1085
01:29:36.760 --> 01:29:40.399
you know, it's a big deal in the boxing world.

1086
01:29:40.439 --> 01:29:41.920
So I'm going to be watching that, and that's going

1087
01:29:42.000 --> 01:29:45.039
to be early hours in the morning on I think

1088
01:29:45.119 --> 01:29:55.119
September twelfth or thirteenth, something like that, or fourteenth yeah.

1089
01:29:55.239 --> 01:29:57.680
And then next week is the world heavyweight title fight,

1090
01:29:58.039 --> 01:30:01.560
but that's in England, so that's and that's du Boir

1091
01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:09.319
against Usik for all the belts, so that's something to

1092
01:30:09.359 --> 01:30:14.119
look forward to. So I hope that Uncle Sausages by

1093
01:30:14.199 --> 01:30:20.239
next weekend, Uncle Sausages is out of the hospital, living

1094
01:30:20.399 --> 01:30:25.319
in a decent place, I mean where, you know, somewhere

1095
01:30:25.319 --> 01:30:31.520
that he wants to be, that he's happy with. And

1096
01:30:31.560 --> 01:30:36.399
I'm sitting here watching the boxing with Little Vinny. That's

1097
01:30:36.520 --> 01:30:43.000
my eating some pizza. I hope. Yeah, that's my dream.

1098
01:30:43.479 --> 01:30:46.279
So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember

1099
01:30:46.840 --> 01:30:50.279
to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to

1100
01:30:50.319 --> 01:30:55.239
be happy. Be gentle of yourself. He deserves to feel safe.

1101
01:30:58.079 --> 01:31:14.720
Lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and

1102
01:31:18.000 --> 01:31:25.399
meaningful way, Maybe in a way that can not just

1103
01:31:25.640 --> 01:31:35.760
allow you to feel calmer now and throughout the time

1104
01:31:36.439 --> 01:31:44.800
we spend together here, not just relaxed at the end

1105
01:31:44.840 --> 01:31:49.279
of the recording when it's finished and you can enjoy

1106
01:31:49.479 --> 01:32:06.880
that sense of comfort and peace, but also I think

1107
01:32:06.920 --> 01:32:18.119
it would be nice to have those feelings of relaxation

1108
01:32:20.439 --> 01:32:34.680
continue for longer after the recording has ended, so that

1109
01:32:34.800 --> 01:32:47.239
you can still benefit from listening to my voice maybe

1110
01:32:47.319 --> 01:32:58.680
in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by

1111
01:32:58.800 --> 01:33:06.760
listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do

1112
01:33:07.159 --> 01:33:11.600
and myself as well. Sometimes I find one particular recording

1113
01:33:12.279 --> 01:33:21.119
that really resonates with me, and I just listen to

1114
01:33:21.159 --> 01:33:34.119
it over and over again every morning, every evening. There

1115
01:33:34.159 --> 01:33:39.159
was this recording from We're going back to about nineteen

1116
01:33:39.239 --> 01:33:47.000
ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1117
01:33:47.119 --> 01:33:54.119
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1118
01:33:54.159 --> 01:33:57.640
find it again and it still has the same effect

1119
01:33:58.199 --> 01:34:09.840
on me, And part of it was the person's voice

1120
01:34:10.199 --> 01:34:20.439
relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward

1121
01:34:20.880 --> 01:34:27.560
to listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

1122
01:34:33.960 --> 01:34:42.960
And I knew before even pressing the play button that

1123
01:34:43.279 --> 01:34:47.720
since I've done that, pressed the play button. This is

1124
01:34:48.079 --> 01:34:59.039
in the days of CD players pressed the play button.

1125
01:35:02.439 --> 01:35:05.359
In fact, it might have even been a tap tape recorder.

1126
01:35:06.560 --> 01:35:14.960
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1127
01:35:15.479 --> 01:35:28.479
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1128
01:35:33.159 --> 01:35:39.159
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1129
01:35:43.920 --> 01:36:05.760
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation. And

1130
01:36:05.880 --> 01:36:19.520
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1131
01:36:19.920 --> 01:36:26.159
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1132
01:36:26.279 --> 01:36:36.880
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1133
01:36:37.079 --> 01:36:41.800
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1134
01:36:41.960 --> 01:36:55.720
till two thousand and six. But I knew, I knew

1135
01:36:56.079 --> 01:37:08.840
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1136
01:37:11.840 --> 01:37:17.279
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1137
01:37:24.920 --> 01:37:33.000
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1138
01:37:33.079 --> 01:37:42.479
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1139
01:37:42.520 --> 01:37:54.159
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1140
01:37:54.239 --> 01:38:08.159
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1141
01:38:08.199 --> 01:38:14.479
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1142
01:38:16.319 --> 01:38:31.399
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1143
01:38:31.439 --> 01:38:47.439
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1144
01:38:47.720 --> 01:39:03.199
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

1145
01:39:03.479 --> 01:39:17.279
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1146
01:39:17.279 --> 01:39:26.600
said to you, focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1147
01:39:28.159 --> 01:39:36.039
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1148
01:39:36.159 --> 01:39:55.199
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1149
01:39:57.039 --> 01:40:06.560
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1150
01:40:06.680 --> 01:40:12.760
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1151
01:40:14.600 --> 01:40:25.039
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1152
01:40:25.600 --> 01:40:33.640
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1153
01:40:33.720 --> 01:40:37.960
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1154
01:40:37.960 --> 01:40:50.960
all where you are right now. And as you become

1155
01:40:51.600 --> 01:41:04.199
aware of your hands, I'm all so aware of how

1156
01:41:05.359 --> 01:41:29.800
relaxed my hands are feeling now, and when it comes

1157
01:41:29.960 --> 01:41:37.079
to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the

1158
01:41:37.119 --> 01:41:52.960
reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make

1159
01:41:53.079 --> 01:42:14.239
these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting. In fact,

1160
01:42:14.520 --> 01:42:31.239
at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and

1161
01:42:31.279 --> 01:42:42.199
then I carry on talking. And it's only where I

1162
01:42:42.279 --> 01:42:51.680
listen back to do the editing. I hear snoring, and

1163
01:42:51.760 --> 01:43:01.760
I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This

1164
01:43:01.960 --> 01:43:08.920
snaw enemy is a pick turned up. That's why I

1165
01:43:09.000 --> 01:43:17.119
sound like when I snow. How I get really into

1166
01:43:17.199 --> 01:43:36.560
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1167
01:43:36.680 --> 01:43:47.000
relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1168
01:43:47.079 --> 01:44:13.239
feel in your hands. I have noticed more and more

1169
01:44:14.279 --> 01:44:27.000
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1170
01:44:30.600 --> 01:44:46.800
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1171
01:44:49.960 --> 01:45:10.920
muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breath easier without

1172
01:45:12.399 --> 01:45:43.279
necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice

1173
01:45:43.720 --> 01:46:13.479
the ease in which you breathe so naturally, he breathes

1174
01:46:14.039 --> 01:46:57.720
so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving,

1175
01:47:03.439 --> 01:47:16.800
when I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1176
01:47:18.880 --> 01:47:33.279
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

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01:47:35.319 --> 01:48:08.079
life giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else,

1178
01:48:11.279 --> 01:48:45.439
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1179
01:48:45.800 --> 01:49:36.319
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1180
01:49:36.600 --> 01:50:11.640
just drip by so very slowly, relax so deeply, peaceful,

1181
01:50:21.600 --> 01:51:30.199
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1182
01:51:30.880 --> 01:52:22.279
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1183
01:52:22.439 --> 01:52:52.359
nothing really requires your attention, You can enjoy the physical sensations.

1184
01:52:56.840 --> 01:53:03.000
I allowed the stress to drip out of your body,

1185
01:53:09.520 --> 01:53:33.319
drippin out of every part of your body and being

1186
01:53:33.680 --> 01:54:12.359
released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely,

1187
01:54:19.199 --> 01:55:08.960
the musclesing you legs relax rs so very deeply, relas

1188
01:55:12.239 --> 01:55:37.680
so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1189
01:55:37.960 --> 01:56:05.760
arms and shoulders deepening each part of your body, further

1190
01:56:10.720 --> 01:56:44.079
and deeper and deeper, noticing the feelings in the back

1191
01:56:44.119 --> 01:57:46.479
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front

1192
01:57:46.560 --> 01:58:40.319
of your body. I all say, feeling peaceful deeply, there's

1193
01:58:40.359 --> 01:59:21.640
a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core. Even

1194
01:59:21.920 --> 01:59:41.520
when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes.

1195
01:59:48.159 --> 02:00:09.600
Bef and slower. Heeven deep.

1196
02:00:24.680 --> 02:01:27.199
Relaxing, so very slow his stomach. PA's for in your stomach.

1197
02:01:49.279 --> 02:02:23.399
Look back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in

1198
02:02:23.560 --> 02:02:56.279
the hole of your back. Your spy from your brain

1199
02:02:56.800 --> 02:03:04.560
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

1200
02:03:04.880 --> 02:03:28.119
and receiving millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing

1201
02:03:38.640 --> 02:04:44.239
deeply relaxed, your knees, relax spreading those signals down a

1202
02:04:44.479 --> 02:04:53.159
spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1203
02:05:07.840 --> 02:05:56.000
your shins and your calf muscles. We are outbos feelings

1204
02:05:56.000 --> 02:06:12.640
of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of

1205
02:06:12.720 --> 02:06:28.760
your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the way

1206
02:06:28.960 --> 02:07:38.520
to your lower back. M lettinger ridiatinker peace, drifting mind

1207
02:07:43.000 --> 02:08:06.640
just wandering away, happy to let go it go completely,

1208
02:08:09.039 --> 02:09:06.279
let go, so tranquil in the whole body, enjoying a

1209
02:09:06.560 --> 02:11:28.359
sensor lett him go he even more piece enjoy the space,

1210
02:11:30.720 --> 02:12:12.319
this space of peace and safety. So fury he relaxed,

1211
02:13:42.319 --> 02:14:07.000
letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1212
02:14:07.439 --> 02:14:42.199
parts of your body, just to notice your forehead and

1213
02:14:42.439 --> 02:15:48.880
your eyes mutual, so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom,

1214
02:16:00.920 --> 02:17:53.399
absolute freedom, ris dressing, peace for energy, peace to breathe

1215
02:17:57.200 --> 02:19:07.760
so much easier. Yes, you may have or may not

1216
02:19:08.000 --> 02:20:08.840
have noticed your mind drifting peaceful m mooingly, even more

1217
02:20:09.200 --> 02:20:34.079
deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace.

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02:21:02.639 --> 02:21:03.200
Raft.

1219
02:21:50.879 --> 02:23:01.479
Out to pace, come souk cam, let him go peace

1220
02:23:02.440 --> 02:24:12.600
with mind relaxed forty sir, relax so relaxed. Your body

1221
02:24:13.360 --> 02:24:53.280
feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace

1222
02:25:09.479 --> 02:25:55.639
uh like's fair. And you could start to notice that

1223
02:25:56.639 --> 02:26:04.200
you are feeling more or less next even though I've

1224
02:26:04.559 --> 02:26:16.239
not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical

1225
02:26:16.520 --> 02:26:24.319
comfort that is growing within you throughout your body, and

1226
02:26:24.479 --> 02:26:34.079
your mind starts to slow down, And that could be

1227
02:26:34.799 --> 02:26:42.760
almost in recognition of I guess my speech not being

1228
02:26:43.000 --> 02:27:00.200
particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer. Just by

1229
02:27:01.159 --> 02:27:10.280
listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to

1230
02:27:10.399 --> 02:27:16.319
take a break from the day, take a break from

1231
02:27:17.079 --> 02:27:24.319
your life as it is, and to give yourself a rest,

1232
02:27:26.959 --> 02:27:34.239
giving yourself permission to take some time off, and to

1233
02:27:34.360 --> 02:27:40.280
allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

1234
02:27:40.440 --> 02:27:51.799
slow down, which in turn releases the tension and he

1235
02:27:52.000 --> 02:28:00.879
stresses that you had in your body. It's almost as

1236
02:28:00.920 --> 02:28:06.760
if the parts of your body just open up, allowing

1237
02:28:06.840 --> 02:28:18.760
the negativity out and at the same time replacing that

1238
02:28:19.000 --> 02:28:28.600
negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your body

1239
02:28:28.719 --> 02:28:41.280
up and your mind to also starts to appreciate those

1240
02:28:41.760 --> 02:28:59.360
feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1241
02:29:02.559 --> 02:29:11.120
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1242
02:29:13.440 --> 02:29:25.600
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1243
02:29:28.399 --> 02:29:33.600
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1244
02:29:33.719 --> 02:29:46.280
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

1245
02:29:46.440 --> 02:29:56.319
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

1246
02:29:57.000 --> 02:30:12.879
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1247
02:30:13.360 --> 02:30:26.399
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

1248
02:30:26.479 --> 02:30:34.920
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

1249
02:30:35.040 --> 02:30:45.639
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1250
02:30:46.680 --> 02:30:58.719
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1251
02:31:01.120 --> 02:31:07.159
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1252
02:31:07.200 --> 02:31:17.360
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1253
02:31:20.600 --> 02:31:34.079
and to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout

1254
02:31:34.200 --> 02:31:46.399
your body. And as I focus on each part of

1255
02:31:46.520 --> 02:31:58.680
your body, you can notice that that part becomes even

1256
02:31:59.840 --> 02:32:09.200
more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes even

1257
02:32:09.479 --> 02:32:22.120
more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as I

1258
02:32:22.399 --> 02:32:30.680
move down your body, starting at your head, the parts

1259
02:32:30.840 --> 02:32:38.239
that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

1260
02:32:41.040 --> 02:32:47.079
and those parts that we've not yet focused on were

1261
02:32:47.200 --> 02:32:59.000
just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation of even

1262
02:32:59.399 --> 02:33:11.959
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

1263
02:33:12.079 --> 02:33:19.079
by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the

1264
02:33:19.360 --> 02:33:29.639
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like mister

1265
02:33:29.920 --> 02:33:34.840
Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel even

1266
02:33:35.000 --> 02:33:45.000
more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This isn't

1267
02:33:45.479 --> 02:33:53.360
this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world. I

1268
02:33:53.520 --> 02:34:00.920
live in the countryside, so there's lots of natures around.

1269
02:34:06.280 --> 02:34:11.360
So as you focus on your forehead, just notice how

1270
02:34:11.440 --> 02:34:21.440
it becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on

1271
02:34:21.680 --> 02:34:31.200
my voice and that part of your body moving down

1272
02:34:31.479 --> 02:34:44.000
to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your

1273
02:34:44.040 --> 02:34:51.879
eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1274
02:34:55.280 --> 02:35:05.920
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1275
02:35:06.040 --> 02:35:13.200
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1276
02:35:14.440 --> 02:35:22.360
your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1277
02:35:25.879 --> 02:35:36.079
calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1278
02:35:39.159 --> 02:35:42.719
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1279
02:35:43.559 --> 02:35:47.879
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1280
02:35:47.920 --> 02:35:54.399
of your face to your ears, that hole of your

1281
02:35:54.520 --> 02:36:04.479
jaw feeding more relaxed.

1282
02:36:07.920 --> 02:36:08.639
And calm.

1283
02:36:16.799 --> 02:36:25.879
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1284
02:36:26.000 --> 02:36:39.040
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1285
02:36:39.159 --> 02:36:44.399
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1286
02:36:47.360 --> 02:37:03.159
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1287
02:37:03.280 --> 02:37:09.840
your neck. Focus in on the back of your neck,

1288
02:37:15.799 --> 02:37:20.959
letting go of any tension that may have been there before,

1289
02:37:22.799 --> 02:37:36.879
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1290
02:37:37.120 --> 02:37:47.520
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1291
02:37:47.760 --> 02:37:54.319
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1292
02:37:55.639 --> 02:38:00.399
right from the top of your back all the way

1293
02:38:00.600 --> 02:38:13.239
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1294
02:38:13.319 --> 02:38:23.879
lower back, and as you move up and down your spine,

1295
02:38:26.040 --> 02:38:30.440
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1296
02:38:32.680 --> 02:38:47.239
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1297
02:38:47.319 --> 02:38:57.799
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1298
02:38:58.040 --> 02:39:04.639
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1299
02:39:05.520 --> 02:39:11.760
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1300
02:39:13.440 --> 02:39:21.280
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1301
02:39:21.440 --> 02:39:27.280
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1302
02:39:31.639 --> 02:39:37.600
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1303
02:39:37.719 --> 02:39:47.239
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1304
02:39:53.000 --> 02:39:59.000
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1305
02:39:59.040 --> 02:40:13.239
extra special or feeling of comfort that spreads into your hips.

1306
02:40:15.559 --> 02:40:23.360
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1307
02:40:23.559 --> 02:40:32.319
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

1308
02:40:32.399 --> 02:40:41.639
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1309
02:40:41.719 --> 02:40:55.159
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1310
02:41:01.879 --> 02:41:08.639
Don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1311
02:41:08.840 --> 02:41:19.479
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1312
02:41:20.319 --> 02:41:35.200
to relax so calmly. And as you focus on your shoulders,

1313
02:41:36.959 --> 02:41:52.239
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose. They're

1314
02:41:52.360 --> 02:42:19.040
already feeling calm and feeling those muscles then move from

1315
02:42:19.159 --> 02:42:34.680
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1316
02:42:38.760 --> 02:43:00.399
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shirts

1317
02:43:07.719 --> 02:43:16.200
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1318
02:43:17.440 --> 02:43:28.920
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1319
02:43:31.760 --> 02:43:41.639
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1320
02:43:44.479 --> 02:43:50.399
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1321
02:43:51.760 --> 02:44:06.959
and underneath your arms. He then you feel so relaxed

1322
02:44:09.520 --> 02:44:21.440
and comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing

1323
02:44:24.840 --> 02:44:42.120
message into your arms, And you may feel almost as

1324
02:44:42.200 --> 02:44:48.959
if your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1325
02:44:52.159 --> 02:45:38.319
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1326
02:45:38.639 --> 02:45:53.920
spreading all the way down your arms to elbows, including

1327
02:45:55.600 --> 02:46:22.159
your elbows, their comforts spreads or away into rests of forearments.

1328
02:46:22.600 --> 02:46:50.799
Induists so heavy, yet at this same time slight and gentle.

1329
02:47:15.559 --> 02:47:54.520
Frek sive. Now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful

1330
02:47:56.280 --> 02:48:33.799
in your hands. There's a sense of real peace. It

1331
02:48:34.079 --> 02:48:59.799
just seems to feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Yeah,

1332
02:49:17.600 --> 02:50:26.079
if thing is you, things solid les you, thing you tips.

1333
02:50:54.680 --> 02:51:13.879
Moving your attention to the front to your body so comfortable,

1334
02:51:24.840 --> 02:52:51.600
moving in your focus, your legs, why my souls in

1335
02:52:51.760 --> 02:53:45.600
your thighs, your knees so relaxed, the carved mussels and

1336
02:53:45.920 --> 02:56:05.600
just chins compresedly. Four faith your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm,

1337
02:56:11.360 --> 02:57:04.360
say peaceful, sircom sir, peaceful, say calm, so peace fall

1338
02:57:13.000 --> 02:57:14.760
RelA sin.

1339
02:57:19.879 --> 02:57:34.719
Peace fall, so calm, loving.

1340
02:57:34.520 --> 02:57:41.639
That deep relaxation, to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1341
02:57:45.399 --> 02:58:12.600
so relax, letting go h everything. So I'm gonna start

1342
02:58:12.719 --> 02:58:24.399
counting down now from twenty down to one. You can

1343
02:58:24.479 --> 02:58:27.920
imagine in a way it's like just walking down some

1344
02:58:28.239 --> 02:58:34.120
steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step

1345
02:58:34.360 --> 02:58:47.159
represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening

1346
02:58:49.159 --> 02:58:59.959
of that comfort, and the vervies you walk down those steps,

1347
02:59:00.000 --> 02:59:12.559
it's the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1348
02:59:12.680 --> 03:03:02.040
with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sikste point fifteen

1349
03:03:44.760 --> 03:11:10.959
fourteen four two two well fur two nine eight seven

1350
03:12:48.040 --> 03:19:57.120
four five four two one. No. As you focus on

1351
03:19:57.239 --> 03:20:10.200
your eyes, We're going to count down from ten down

1352
03:20:10.280 --> 03:20:24.879
to one. Focus in just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1353
03:20:25.319 --> 03:20:34.159
the muscles around your eyes, your eye waves themselves, our

1354
03:20:34.280 --> 03:20:51.159
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

1355
03:20:51.399 --> 03:20:59.639
count down from ten down to one, whilst focus in

1356
03:21:00.159 --> 03:21:16.120
your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each number

1357
03:21:17.120 --> 03:21:28.680
counting down, and you may find the all you want

1358
03:21:28.799 --> 03:21:37.639
to do is just drift off to sleep. And if

1359
03:21:37.840 --> 03:21:51.280
that's what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1360
03:21:54.239 --> 03:22:00.120
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin count to

1361
03:22:00.399 --> 03:22:44.120
down from ten down to one right now. Ten nine

1362
03:23:18.399 --> 03:31:30.520
eight seven four five four three two one. So counting

1363
03:31:30.600 --> 03:31:43.879
down from ten to one ten nine eight seven six

1364
03:31:46.079 --> 03:32:06.239
five four three two one. And maybe that was a

1365
03:32:06.319 --> 03:32:10.440
bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's a

1366
03:32:10.479 --> 03:32:16.600
bit too fast for you to notice the calming of

1367
03:32:16.719 --> 03:32:23.399
your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1368
03:32:23.600 --> 03:32:27.120
like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1369
03:32:27.239 --> 03:32:30.440
expect me to do? Man, expect me to just to

1370
03:32:30.520 --> 03:32:40.120
go with floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1371
03:32:40.200 --> 03:32:43.920
try it again, but this time I go a bit slower.

1372
03:32:46.159 --> 03:32:51.040
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1373
03:32:51.079 --> 03:32:59.399
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

1374
03:32:59.479 --> 03:33:13.639
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1375
03:33:13.760 --> 03:33:46.840
number that I count down ten nine, eight seven, six

1376
03:33:55.239 --> 03:35:04.200
five four three, two one, and just notice how how

1377
03:35:04.280 --> 03:35:14.360
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

1378
03:35:14.479 --> 03:35:24.840
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1379
03:35:25.159 --> 03:35:44.840
space that you have, that space between being active physically

1380
03:35:45.040 --> 03:35:54.639
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

1381
03:35:55.399 --> 03:36:00.840
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1382
03:36:00.959 --> 03:36:06.840
about anything. So it opens up a space, you know,

1383
03:36:07.040 --> 03:36:16.360
a bit of a space, a gap. And the more

1384
03:36:17.639 --> 03:36:21.000
I came down from ten to one, the bigger that

1385
03:36:21.200 --> 03:36:32.200
gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1386
03:36:38.120 --> 03:36:50.479
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1387
03:36:51.000 --> 03:37:07.600
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to

1388
03:37:08.040 --> 03:37:17.399
just slow down, someone to count again from ten down

1389
03:37:17.440 --> 03:37:27.440
to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap, And

1390
03:37:27.559 --> 03:37:32.559
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention

1391
03:37:33.399 --> 03:37:52.520
falls into the gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1392
03:37:54.879 --> 03:40:01.319
Now nine eight, seven, six, five, four three two one. Now,

1393
03:40:01.559 --> 03:40:22.719
how does your body feel now? Can you notice do

1394
03:40:22.799 --> 03:40:59.399
you feeling calmer? Do you feeling more relaxed? As we

1395
03:40:59.559 --> 03:41:19.840
now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just

1396
03:41:19.959 --> 03:41:39.959
gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's

1397
03:41:40.040 --> 03:41:48.680
not the most exciting thing to be doing, because I'm sure,

1398
03:41:48.840 --> 03:41:51.399
like most of your body, is not a lot going

1399
03:41:51.479 --> 03:42:04.159
on right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1400
03:42:06.959 --> 03:42:10.680
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1401
03:42:12.920 --> 03:42:17.360
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1402
03:42:17.479 --> 03:42:22.719
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1403
03:42:23.760 --> 03:42:39.280
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint. Now,

1404
03:42:39.399 --> 03:42:46.399
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area,

1405
03:42:46.920 --> 03:42:52.879
it's very strong. Probably the strongest muscles in your body

1406
03:42:53.479 --> 03:43:07.879
are in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1407
03:43:09.879 --> 03:43:22.600
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1408
03:43:23.280 --> 03:43:42.680
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1409
03:43:45.280 --> 03:43:58.799
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1410
03:43:58.920 --> 03:44:04.600
it may seem will sound really weird, but I think

1411
03:44:04.680 --> 03:44:11.600
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1412
03:44:11.799 --> 03:44:26.239
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

1413
03:44:28.760 --> 03:44:38.040
I thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1414
03:44:44.600 --> 03:44:50.239
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1415
03:44:50.280 --> 03:44:53.079
you think, why am I surely how I should be

1416
03:44:53.120 --> 03:44:57.920
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1417
03:45:02.040 --> 03:45:04.319
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1418
03:45:05.399 --> 03:45:07.600
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1419
03:45:07.639 --> 03:45:11.399
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1420
03:45:11.440 --> 03:45:20.040
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1421
03:45:21.920 --> 03:45:29.879
gain such an important part. And I think we don't

1422
03:45:29.959 --> 03:45:37.799
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1423
03:45:39.600 --> 03:45:44.680
all that my knees do for me until I have

1424
03:45:44.799 --> 03:45:48.200
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1425
03:45:49.799 --> 03:45:53.719
maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1426
03:45:55.440 --> 03:46:01.639
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1427
03:46:01.760 --> 03:46:07.719
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1428
03:46:09.479 --> 03:46:16.719
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1429
03:46:16.959 --> 03:46:25.319
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1430
03:46:29.399 --> 03:46:34.040
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1431
03:46:34.120 --> 03:46:41.600
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1432
03:46:43.159 --> 03:46:45.760
and love to your knees for all that they do

1433
03:46:45.959 --> 03:46:58.959
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1434
03:46:59.079 --> 03:47:05.280
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel maybe

1435
03:47:05.559 --> 03:47:23.000
you've notice that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1436
03:47:23.159 --> 03:47:28.360
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1437
03:47:29.239 --> 03:47:34.799
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1438
03:47:35.680 --> 03:47:43.399
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1439
03:47:49.079 --> 03:47:54.239
Anyone has had even the slightest sprain of an ankle

1440
03:47:55.440 --> 03:48:02.040
knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1441
03:48:07.920 --> 03:48:09.920
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1442
03:48:10.000 --> 03:48:15.600
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1443
03:48:15.760 --> 03:48:20.600
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1444
03:48:20.680 --> 03:48:24.399
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1445
03:48:24.440 --> 03:48:30.440
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

1446
03:48:30.719 --> 03:48:40.360
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1447
03:48:40.479 --> 03:48:45.319
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

1448
03:48:46.680 --> 03:48:54.040
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1449
03:48:54.120 --> 03:49:04.200
ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area, a

1450
03:49:04.440 --> 03:49:14.040
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1451
03:49:14.159 --> 03:49:24.120
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1452
03:49:26.479 --> 03:49:39.440
helps you to get around and be mobile. And there's

1453
03:49:39.479 --> 03:49:47.319
the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I

1454
03:49:47.399 --> 03:49:50.600
couldn't see the point in calf muscles it didn't seem

1455
03:49:50.639 --> 03:49:55.719
to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1456
03:49:56.520 --> 03:50:00.639
then my calf muscles get some work. Of course, that's

1457
03:50:00.719 --> 03:50:04.680
not true. The carved muscles are being used whenever we

1458
03:50:05.159 --> 03:50:18.680
use her legs and your shins there to protect your

1459
03:50:18.799 --> 03:50:27.799
lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a protector

1460
03:50:28.239 --> 03:50:42.959
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

1461
03:50:43.120 --> 03:50:50.040
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

1462
03:50:50.120 --> 03:50:53.840
We're just going to focus on the legs. And I

1463
03:50:54.000 --> 03:50:58.879
realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably

1464
03:50:58.879 --> 03:51:03.440
because sitting on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1465
03:51:03.520 --> 03:51:09.399
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1466
03:51:09.440 --> 03:51:14.959
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1467
03:51:15.239 --> 03:51:19.520
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1468
03:51:19.719 --> 03:51:24.440
your thighs for a few minutes, we've been focusing on

1469
03:51:24.559 --> 03:51:41.280
your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your

1470
03:51:41.399 --> 03:51:53.520
thighs and this that movement of energy because the thighs

1471
03:51:53.799 --> 03:52:00.680
hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1472
03:52:01.280 --> 03:52:05.319
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs,

1473
03:52:14.079 --> 03:52:19.799
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1474
03:52:19.879 --> 03:52:24.399
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1475
03:52:24.639 --> 03:52:42.319
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And

1476
03:52:42.520 --> 03:52:50.879
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1477
03:52:51.040 --> 03:52:56.879
the arch trees, all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1478
03:53:01.159 --> 03:53:04.319
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1479
03:53:04.360 --> 03:53:09.719
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message.

1480
03:53:12.239 --> 03:53:15.760
You can message on the outside, of course, but to

1481
03:53:15.799 --> 03:53:18.959
be able to get deep into the muscles and to

1482
03:53:19.040 --> 03:53:24.120
be able to just massage inside your thighs, message in

1483
03:53:24.200 --> 03:53:32.840
the bones of your leg massage in all the veins,

1484
03:53:33.040 --> 03:53:43.239
and just gently healing your thighs, and you could move

1485
03:53:43.440 --> 03:53:50.799
down message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1486
03:53:51.840 --> 03:53:58.840
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

1487
03:53:58.959 --> 03:54:08.360
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1488
03:54:08.639 --> 03:54:13.559
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1489
03:54:13.600 --> 03:54:21.040
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it

1490
03:54:21.120 --> 03:54:24.959
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1491
03:54:25.120 --> 03:54:29.079
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1492
03:54:31.120 --> 03:54:38.000
It's almost like a hidden part that crease in your legs.

1493
03:54:38.079 --> 03:54:45.399
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1494
03:54:45.479 --> 03:54:55.920
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1495
03:54:56.000 --> 03:55:07.399
your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

1496
03:55:07.520 --> 03:55:17.200
that crease in your legs, that fold in between your legs.

1497
03:55:17.879 --> 03:55:22.520
You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1498
03:55:22.639 --> 03:55:33.120
going inside message in the muscle tissue. You can of

1499
03:55:33.239 --> 03:55:40.319
course feel the bones of your knees heading through your fingertips.

1500
03:55:47.719 --> 03:55:53.040
And then as you go down to your calf muscles.

1501
03:55:53.440 --> 03:55:55.120
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1502
03:55:55.959 --> 03:56:03.319
really put my fingertips deep inside my half muscles, massage

1503
03:56:03.440 --> 03:56:12.520
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1504
03:56:18.440 --> 03:56:24.559
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1505
03:56:24.719 --> 03:56:32.239
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1506
03:56:32.360 --> 03:56:39.520
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

1507
03:56:39.639 --> 03:56:43.639
the precious bones that they are, because our legs are

1508
03:56:43.680 --> 03:56:47.479
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1509
03:56:49.959 --> 03:57:03.840
and more precious of any jure on the planet. When

1510
03:57:03.920 --> 03:57:11.680
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1511
03:57:16.280 --> 03:57:22.920
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1512
03:57:26.040 --> 03:57:30.319
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1513
03:57:31.200 --> 03:57:41.200
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1514
03:57:41.319 --> 03:57:45.239
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1515
03:57:47.159 --> 03:57:53.680
and massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1516
03:57:53.680 --> 03:58:01.959
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to

1517
03:58:02.159 --> 03:58:11.600
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1518
03:58:11.680 --> 03:58:17.360
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1519
03:58:19.760 --> 03:58:29.239
your knees, your cars, your ankles. The strength of your

1520
03:58:29.360 --> 03:58:37.479
ankles considering how thin they are compared to the rest

1521
03:58:37.520 --> 03:58:44.920
of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1522
03:58:46.479 --> 03:59:00.920
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1523
03:59:01.079 --> 03:59:11.879
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1524
03:59:12.120 --> 03:59:18.959
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1525
03:59:19.000 --> 03:59:23.639
if you only ate stone, there's still a lot of

1526
03:59:23.760 --> 03:59:30.799
weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier

1527
03:59:30.879 --> 03:59:40.559
than eight stone double down, yet my ankles support my

1528
03:59:40.680 --> 03:59:47.959
body all the time. Although they do give off a

1529
03:59:48.079 --> 03:59:53.440
sigh of relief when I sit down. That's in fact

1530
03:59:53.479 --> 04:00:00.559
my whole legs do. My feet feel or so go

1531
04:00:02.360 --> 04:00:27.920
and my toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs really

1532
04:00:29.399 --> 04:00:35.799
are amazing. And I know that talk about talking about

1533
04:00:35.920 --> 04:00:42.639
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1534
04:00:42.760 --> 04:00:50.120
things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly they're boring or

1535
04:00:50.239 --> 04:00:58.239
not everything I said, is true. Your legs are amazing.

1536
04:01:07.200 --> 04:01:20.040
Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1537
04:01:27.360 --> 04:01:30.680
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1538
04:01:32.879 --> 04:02:01.600
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1539
04:02:09.239 --> 04:02:13.360
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1540
04:02:13.600 --> 04:02:19.559
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1541
04:02:19.639 --> 04:02:26.879
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1542
04:02:30.600 --> 04:02:41.440
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1543
04:02:42.840 --> 04:02:49.959
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1544
04:02:50.000 --> 04:02:56.600
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1545
04:02:57.760 --> 04:03:00.760
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1546
04:03:00.879 --> 04:03:06.120
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1547
04:03:07.159 --> 04:03:09.799
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1548
04:03:10.040 --> 04:03:15.959
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1549
04:03:16.840 --> 04:03:38.120
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1550
04:03:38.200 --> 04:03:46.040
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1551
04:03:47.920 --> 04:04:14.200
to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1552
04:04:18.840 --> 04:04:46.879
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1553
04:04:46.959 --> 04:04:52.360
count down for five down to one. And as a countdown,

1554
04:04:53.639 --> 04:04:58.360
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1555
04:05:00.120 --> 04:05:09.040
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1556
04:05:10.799 --> 04:05:15.200
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1557
04:05:15.360 --> 04:05:28.399
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1558
04:05:28.479 --> 04:05:36.840
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1559
04:05:36.879 --> 04:05:42.920
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1560
04:05:43.600 --> 04:06:00.639
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four,

1561
04:06:10.200 --> 04:06:46.120
three two one. As you notice the gradual letting go

1562
04:06:48.520 --> 04:06:55.440
of the tension in your body, you may also begin

1563
04:06:55.760 --> 04:07:01.760
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1564
04:07:02.840 --> 04:07:10.639
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1565
04:07:11.159 --> 04:07:18.520
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1566
04:07:18.719 --> 04:07:24.959
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1567
04:07:25.000 --> 04:07:29.719
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1568
04:07:29.760 --> 04:07:35.000
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1569
04:07:41.040 --> 04:07:49.559
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1570
04:07:49.719 --> 04:07:55.319
even even if there's background sounds either your side or mind,

1571
04:07:57.040 --> 04:08:02.920
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1572
04:08:03.000 --> 04:08:08.200
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1573
04:08:08.319 --> 04:08:10.959
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1574
04:08:15.840 --> 04:08:18.000
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1575
04:08:18.120 --> 04:08:21.239
room with other people. Of Course, you might be, but

1576
04:08:22.520 --> 04:08:25.799
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1577
04:08:25.920 --> 04:08:37.239
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1578
04:08:37.319 --> 04:08:54.479
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1579
04:08:54.520 --> 04:09:03.280
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1580
04:09:03.399 --> 04:09:15.520
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1581
04:09:17.840 --> 04:09:28.719
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

1582
04:09:29.040 --> 04:09:35.760
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

1583
04:09:35.959 --> 04:09:40.520
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

1584
04:09:43.159 --> 04:09:52.520
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

1585
04:09:52.920 --> 04:10:04.120
of this recording and others is simple two allow you

1586
04:10:06.520 --> 04:10:17.360
to take advantage of this space, this time, to just

1587
04:10:21.559 --> 04:10:29.120
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

1588
04:10:32.799 --> 04:10:44.879
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1589
04:10:45.200 --> 04:10:57.280
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1590
04:10:57.520 --> 04:11:03.719
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1591
04:11:03.879 --> 04:11:20.000
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1592
04:11:20.120 --> 04:11:24.719
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1593
04:11:24.959 --> 04:11:33.159
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1594
04:11:33.520 --> 04:11:55.280
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You can

1595
04:11:55.360 --> 04:12:03.959
also if you choose stay focus on my voice and

1596
04:12:05.520 --> 04:12:35.360
really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle in

1597
04:12:35.520 --> 04:13:02.840
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1598
04:13:03.000 --> 04:13:18.600
go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

1599
04:13:19.680 --> 04:13:31.680
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1600
04:13:32.000 --> 04:13:44.520
down more with each number that you hear me say naturally,

1601
04:13:45.600 --> 04:13:54.719
feeling calm and slow and peaceful.

1602
04:14:00.639 --> 04:16:26.959
Six, five, four, three, two, what.

1603
04:16:48.280 --> 04:17:01.600
Being aware? How your mind to slow right down, sinking

1604
04:17:04.200 --> 04:17:24.479
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1605
04:17:24.799 --> 04:17:34.760
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1606
04:17:37.319 --> 04:17:46.879
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1607
04:17:46.959 --> 04:18:02.159
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

1608
04:18:02.399 --> 04:18:16.040
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all

1609
04:18:16.159 --> 04:18:21.799
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1610
04:18:21.879 --> 04:18:29.079
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1611
04:18:29.319 --> 04:18:36.120
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1612
04:18:37.360 --> 04:18:48.399
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

1613
04:18:48.799 --> 04:19:04.159
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining

1614
04:19:04.360 --> 04:19:09.600
thoughts as we count down this time from seven down

1615
04:19:09.680 --> 04:19:18.760
to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower

1616
04:19:18.879 --> 04:19:37.959
petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts which will

1617
04:19:38.000 --> 04:19:47.959
allow them to just melt away and relax deeply. With

1618
04:19:48.159 --> 04:20:02.360
every number, those thoughts will become more a more relaxed.

1619
04:20:07.959 --> 04:22:40.000
Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, needing, Now,

1620
04:22:44.319 --> 04:23:05.520
notice how relaxed your feeling in your body. We're going

1621
04:23:05.600 --> 04:23:19.319
to focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1622
04:23:19.520 --> 04:23:26.360
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1623
04:23:41.319 --> 04:23:47.360
And this you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1624
04:23:52.879 --> 04:23:57.639
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

1625
04:23:57.959 --> 04:24:02.280
fists or and it's in the fingers or anything like that.

1626
04:24:09.719 --> 04:24:23.959
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

1627
04:24:24.079 --> 04:24:48.760
they feel, because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

1628
04:24:49.040 --> 04:24:58.399
calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

1629
04:25:00.520 --> 04:25:30.680
throughout your body. You may have already noticed you mind

1630
04:25:33.959 --> 04:26:03.719
is starting to dress fahim just on your hands and fingers,

1631
04:26:08.639 --> 04:26:22.440
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

1632
04:26:24.200 --> 04:26:42.079
in your hands and fingers more and more relaxed. With

1633
04:26:42.280 --> 04:27:00.920
each number from eight down to one, you can almost

1634
04:27:02.760 --> 04:27:12.360
feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands

1635
04:27:13.440 --> 04:27:34.159
and fingers becoming year more relaxing. With each number you

1636
04:27:34.479 --> 04:27:53.360
hear going down from eight down to one, drifting, drifting

1637
04:27:53.520 --> 04:30:39.639
again starting with number eight seven six, five four three.

1638
04:31:59.479 --> 04:32:08.760
Just be here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1639
04:32:10.399 --> 04:32:24.319
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1640
04:32:24.600 --> 04:32:32.200
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1641
04:32:32.479 --> 04:32:39.399
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1642
04:32:39.799 --> 04:32:46.719
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1643
04:32:46.959 --> 04:33:03.120
worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1644
04:33:05.360 --> 04:33:09.279
You take that away, which is what we do. What

1645
04:33:09.400 --> 04:33:21.799
we do now you're left with a real sense of

1646
04:33:22.720 --> 04:33:35.080
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's

1647
04:33:35.319 --> 04:33:48.799
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

1648
04:33:48.840 --> 04:33:52.959
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1649
04:33:53.080 --> 04:34:06.720
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1650
04:34:06.880 --> 04:34:17.479
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1651
04:34:17.560 --> 04:34:26.360
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1652
04:34:27.360 --> 04:34:32.439
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

1653
04:34:32.520 --> 04:34:42.880
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

1654
04:34:44.599 --> 04:34:53.360
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1655
04:34:53.959 --> 04:34:59.720
you can like yourself, appreciate.

1656
04:35:00.439 --> 04:35:01.479
Who you are.

1657
04:35:10.319 --> 04:35:16.959
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1658
04:35:24.599 --> 04:35:32.400
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1659
04:35:32.759 --> 04:35:48.040
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1660
04:35:48.159 --> 04:35:58.159
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1661
04:36:01.919 --> 04:36:08.759
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1662
04:36:14.720 --> 04:36:19.319
and you start to realize that actually, that healing energy,

1663
04:36:21.759 --> 04:36:28.200
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1664
04:36:28.720 --> 04:36:40.000
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1665
04:36:40.080 --> 04:36:51.240
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1666
04:36:51.479 --> 04:37:03.360
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1667
04:37:06.279 --> 04:37:13.759
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

1668
04:37:13.959 --> 04:37:23.599
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

1669
04:37:24.040 --> 04:37:34.240
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1670
04:37:34.319 --> 04:37:41.119
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1671
04:37:43.040 --> 04:37:50.479
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

1672
04:37:50.639 --> 04:37:58.040
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

1673
04:37:58.159 --> 04:38:05.759
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

1674
04:38:06.279 --> 04:38:15.159
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

1675
04:38:20.279 --> 04:38:26.680
Maybe things they used to cause you to feel anger

1676
04:38:30.520 --> 04:38:40.599
no longer have that power to control you the way

1677
04:38:40.680 --> 04:38:48.680
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1678
04:38:49.720 --> 04:38:58.240
that you are the one who decides what affects you,

1679
04:39:01.919 --> 04:39:10.720
You're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

1680
04:39:12.319 --> 04:39:28.360
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing,

1681
04:39:30.959 --> 04:39:39.520
continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1682
04:39:45.439 --> 04:39:53.639
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1683
04:39:58.599 --> 04:40:08.200
and sleeping. It's the most natural thing in the world

1684
04:40:09.680 --> 04:40:17.959
to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

1685
04:40:21.000 --> 04:40:28.680
so many times in your life, and you know that

1686
04:40:28.919 --> 04:40:34.159
you were born, as we all were, with the ability

1687
04:40:35.759 --> 04:40:46.080
to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability

1688
04:40:49.040 --> 04:41:03.279
to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

1689
04:41:03.360 --> 04:41:08.080
when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep when we don't

1690
04:41:08.119 --> 04:41:14.119
even want to try to tell us stay awake. Maybe

1691
04:41:14.200 --> 04:41:17.560
it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or

1692
04:41:18.400 --> 04:41:21.479
holiday or something we look forward to. We don't want

1693
04:41:21.479 --> 04:41:26.000
to go to sleep. But the more we want to

1694
04:41:26.080 --> 04:41:35.360
stay awake, the more we just start to drift. And

1695
04:41:35.479 --> 04:41:39.360
the more you fight drifting, the more you try and

1696
04:41:39.520 --> 04:41:44.479
stop yourself and drift in a shape, the deeper and

1697
04:41:44.720 --> 04:41:56.279
stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

1698
04:41:56.520 --> 04:42:02.919
the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

1699
04:42:06.159 --> 04:42:19.479
but it's our birthright as part of our DNA and

1700
04:42:19.720 --> 04:42:25.240
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1701
04:42:26.119 --> 04:42:39.080
we have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a

1702
04:42:39.360 --> 04:43:03.599
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

1703
04:43:04.119 --> 04:43:09.919
easy to let go, because that's all it is. It's

1704
04:43:10.159 --> 04:43:24.799
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

1705
04:43:24.959 --> 04:43:35.319
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

1706
04:43:35.520 --> 04:43:43.919
my voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1707
04:43:44.919 --> 04:43:53.319
you have given me permission for my words to affect

1708
04:43:55.840 --> 04:44:07.680
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

1709
04:44:12.880 --> 04:44:31.119
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

1710
04:44:35.680 --> 04:44:43.119
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1711
04:44:47.840 --> 04:44:57.680
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1712
04:44:57.840 --> 04:45:08.479
recording ends. Those changes within you to continue to flourish

1713
04:45:09.319 --> 04:45:23.919
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1714
04:45:27.000 --> 04:45:34.040
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1715
04:45:34.200 --> 04:45:51.439
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

1716
04:45:51.720 --> 04:46:07.319
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just

1717
04:46:07.599 --> 04:46:21.200
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1718
04:46:29.119 --> 04:46:42.880
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

1719
04:46:46.000 --> 04:46:55.759
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1720
04:46:58.119 --> 04:47:10.439
physically and in your mind is more relaxed and It's

1721
04:47:10.520 --> 04:47:16.080
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

1722
04:47:16.159 --> 04:47:28.040
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity, because from

1723
04:47:28.159 --> 04:47:38.439
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

1724
04:47:38.479 --> 04:47:49.279
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

1725
04:47:49.479 --> 04:48:03.439
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

1726
04:48:04.040 --> 04:48:23.400
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

1727
04:48:31.560 --> 04:48:38.040
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1728
04:48:39.479 --> 04:48:54.840
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1729
04:48:55.040 --> 04:49:01.799
you're the person that has done this. You're the one

1730
04:49:02.360 --> 04:49:07.319
that has opened your mind up to the simple facts

1731
04:49:10.479 --> 04:49:15.479
that you can feel more relaxed in your body and

1732
04:49:15.680 --> 04:49:27.119
in your mind. You've opened your mind up to the

1733
04:49:27.240 --> 04:49:34.880
birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily when

1734
04:49:35.520 --> 04:49:49.000
you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you think

1735
04:49:51.599 --> 04:50:00.479
it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All that

1736
04:50:00.840 --> 04:50:05.439
healing energy is spreading through your body and your mind

1737
04:50:11.919 --> 04:50:22.759
to spend time a special place where negativity can no

1738
04:50:22.959 --> 04:50:36.520
longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed entry.

1739
04:50:39.279 --> 04:50:42.919
Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here, It

1740
04:50:43.000 --> 04:50:52.040
doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in your life,

1741
04:51:02.000 --> 04:51:11.479
which makes room feel more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation,

1742
04:51:16.360 --> 04:51:41.560
more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it. Just let go

1743
04:51:43.479 --> 04:52:02.919
with everything, and I'm gonna count down now from twenty

1744
04:52:03.159 --> 04:52:12.840
down to one. You can continue to relax. If you choose,

1745
04:52:13.240 --> 04:52:26.799
you can drift to sleep. With every number you hear

1746
04:52:26.959 --> 04:52:38.520
me say, you can fell twice as relaxed, or if

1747
04:52:38.560 --> 04:54:13.840
you choose, you can feel twice as sleepy now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thteenve.

1748
04:54:13.159 --> 04:54:37.919
Eleven, ten, nine, eight.

1749
04:54:45.040 --> 04:55:48.279
Seven, six five. Oh, this is your time to just

1750
04:55:48.400 --> 04:56:03.119
take a break, your time to relax, to allow your

1751
04:56:03.439 --> 04:56:20.560
mind to slow down, to give yourself permission to take

1752
04:56:21.040 --> 04:56:34.880
a break from everything. And you're the only person that

1753
04:56:35.040 --> 04:56:41.000
can make that decision. You're the only person that can

1754
04:56:41.080 --> 04:57:00.759
actually tell your mind to just relax, to just take

1755
04:57:00.880 --> 04:57:14.040
some time off so that you can focus on your body,

1756
04:57:15.040 --> 04:57:29.959
getting in touch with how you feel physically. And in

1757
04:57:30.080 --> 04:57:37.840
the process of this body scan where you focus on

1758
04:57:38.040 --> 04:57:48.119
different parts of your body, those parts that you focus

1759
04:57:48.279 --> 04:58:00.080
on and observe. Even though you're not purposely requesting for

1760
04:58:00.200 --> 04:58:06.200
those parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

1761
04:58:07.799 --> 04:58:13.360
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

1762
04:58:14.360 --> 04:58:28.080
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

1763
04:58:28.119 --> 04:58:40.400
attention is focused on my words, and as my words

1764
04:58:41.360 --> 04:58:51.520
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

1765
04:58:55.360 --> 04:59:17.479
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

1766
04:59:17.520 --> 04:59:36.880
your mind calms down, your body relaxes. And when your

1767
04:59:36.959 --> 05:00:00.639
body calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though who

1768
05:00:00.639 --> 05:00:09.360
have not really started the focus on your body, you

1769
05:00:09.520 --> 05:00:20.360
can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

1770
05:00:25.279 --> 05:00:39.560
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

1771
05:00:39.680 --> 05:00:49.439
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

1772
05:00:49.520 --> 05:00:54.080
of your organs inside your body, all of the muscles,

1773
05:00:55.439 --> 05:01:02.560
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

1774
05:01:02.680 --> 05:01:16.119
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

1775
05:01:16.159 --> 05:01:32.479
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

1776
05:01:32.639 --> 05:01:56.880
comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that

1777
05:02:00.319 --> 05:02:17.000
your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy because it's

1778
05:02:17.159 --> 05:02:36.360
not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

1779
05:02:36.560 --> 05:02:44.759
what's needed. So if you're listening to this and what

1780
05:02:44.959 --> 05:02:51.119
you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get. If

1781
05:02:51.200 --> 05:02:58.560
what you need is to fall asleep naturally and easily,

1782
05:02:59.479 --> 05:03:12.759
as you're mind drifts, that's also what will happen, because

1783
05:03:12.959 --> 05:03:20.799
by pressing that play button on the podcast and listening

1784
05:03:20.959 --> 05:03:27.400
to me, you give permission for your body and your mind.

1785
05:03:30.439 --> 05:03:39.439
In fact, you give the command to your body and

1786
05:03:39.599 --> 05:03:50.759
your mind to relax deeply and to drift off to

1787
05:03:50.959 --> 05:04:07.319
sleep if that's what you want or need. And as

1788
05:04:07.400 --> 05:04:17.599
I focus on the different parts of your body, you

1789
05:04:17.799 --> 05:04:26.680
may start to just drift. And then you come back

1790
05:04:26.759 --> 05:04:31.919
again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing on

1791
05:04:32.080 --> 05:04:44.439
a different part of your body. You may find yourself drifting,

1792
05:04:47.200 --> 05:04:52.560
but you don't realize you're drifting until you stop drifting

1793
05:04:54.439 --> 05:05:01.200
and you're alert again to my voice focusing and on

1794
05:05:01.360 --> 05:05:06.919
a different part of your body, starts to relax even deeper,

1795
05:05:11.319 --> 05:05:19.759
because that drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone.

1796
05:05:26.279 --> 05:05:31.279
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

1797
05:05:31.439 --> 05:05:41.919
the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

1798
05:05:46.919 --> 05:05:51.799
and that's the last you remember until you wake up

1799
05:05:56.240 --> 05:06:00.840
in your own time. When you experience it's the right

1800
05:06:00.919 --> 05:06:10.360
amount of sleep fear, because when you do and if

1801
05:06:10.400 --> 05:06:24.000
you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so

1802
05:06:24.400 --> 05:06:43.400
deep healing, sleep. I'm going to feel so nice to

1803
05:06:43.599 --> 05:06:53.159
relax into your own body and mind as you as

1804
05:06:53.240 --> 05:07:00.880
you feel that healing energy is spreading through you, relaxing

1805
05:07:01.040 --> 05:07:22.200
news so deeply, relaxing us so so deeply. As we

1806
05:07:22.639 --> 05:07:39.240
start to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

1807
05:07:47.159 --> 05:08:29.560
down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, You're chest,

1808
05:08:35.639 --> 05:09:09.680
his stomach, your back, your spine, you hips, your legs,

1809
05:09:17.560 --> 05:09:52.520
your feet, your toes, and the feeding iseatings spreading and

1810
05:09:52.840 --> 05:10:06.840
growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus

1811
05:10:06.959 --> 05:10:16.840
again on parts of your body, focusing this time on

1812
05:10:16.959 --> 05:10:29.840
your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1813
05:10:33.040 --> 05:10:49.159
the whole of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers.

1814
05:10:54.520 --> 05:10:59.080
Maybe you could move your fingers a little bits. You

1815
05:10:59.240 --> 05:11:14.880
can focus on each one individually, both hands and even

1816
05:11:14.959 --> 05:11:16.880
though if you focus on both of.

1817
05:11:16.919 --> 05:11:18.759
Your hands now.

1818
05:11:20.279 --> 05:11:28.639
They almost seemed to just melt into one. Where is

1819
05:11:28.720 --> 05:11:36.319
your right hand start in your left hand end, almost

1820
05:11:36.479 --> 05:11:48.000
as if just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees,

1821
05:11:53.880 --> 05:12:16.880
just noticing how your knees fell. Now focusing on your elbows,

1822
05:12:19.639 --> 05:12:32.080
focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

1823
05:12:34.759 --> 05:13:06.680
of your elbows out focusing, absurding the back of your neck,

1824
05:13:16.639 --> 05:13:54.319
feeding that energy in the back of your neck, absurving

1825
05:13:56.639 --> 05:14:16.000
your ankles, being aware of physical sensation's in your ankles,

1826
05:15:16.000 --> 05:15:34.959
Noticing now your toes on both of your feet, being

1827
05:15:35.200 --> 05:16:30.599
aware how your toes feel right now, notice sin how

1828
05:16:30.759 --> 05:17:20.200
your entire body feels, noticing your mind feels now, letting go,

1829
05:17:28.959 --> 05:18:11.080
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, letting go,

1830
05:18:15.279 --> 05:18:37.680
h everything, everything. I'm going to start now, and I

1831
05:18:37.680 --> 05:18:39.799
would like you just, first of all, just to see

1832
05:18:39.840 --> 05:18:48.040
yourself lying down on the message table, lying on your front.

1833
05:18:49.279 --> 05:18:57.240
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

1834
05:18:57.319 --> 05:19:04.000
feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and you feel

1835
05:19:07.520 --> 05:19:10.479
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

1836
05:19:10.919 --> 05:19:15.080
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

1837
05:19:15.959 --> 05:19:24.080
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

1838
05:19:24.919 --> 05:19:32.840
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

1839
05:19:35.720 --> 05:19:41.479
This is about how you feel and how you can

1840
05:19:42.959 --> 05:19:48.560
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

1841
05:19:49.959 --> 05:19:55.599
letting go and allowing my hands, that my fingers to

1842
05:19:55.759 --> 05:20:07.159
relax you by a message your body. So I want

1843
05:20:07.200 --> 05:20:12.159
to start off just by placing my hands on the

1844
05:20:12.240 --> 05:20:17.439
back of your head, just gently, just so you can feel, well,

1845
05:20:17.479 --> 05:20:25.919
my hands feel like really on you, so you can

1846
05:20:26.000 --> 05:20:28.319
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

1847
05:20:28.360 --> 05:20:33.840
of your head. And with my hands to the side

1848
05:20:33.880 --> 05:20:38.479
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

1849
05:20:41.439 --> 05:20:44.439
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

1850
05:20:45.720 --> 05:20:50.959
just so you can feel my hands so you can

1851
05:20:51.040 --> 05:21:04.240
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

1852
05:21:04.319 --> 05:21:08.520
the back of your head again and gently let them

1853
05:21:08.680 --> 05:21:21.040
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

1854
05:21:21.119 --> 05:21:30.919
feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

1855
05:21:31.000 --> 05:21:37.720
neck to start with, just so you can get used

1856
05:21:37.840 --> 05:21:41.959
to the the feeling of my hands on your skin.

1857
05:21:42.599 --> 05:21:50.639
Get accustomed to it, realize that you're safe and it's

1858
05:21:50.680 --> 05:21:59.520
all good, it's all fine, And I'm going to start

1859
05:21:59.680 --> 05:22:03.360
chinking the message in the muscles in the back of

1860
05:22:03.439 --> 05:22:19.279
your neck with both hands. Now. This is a very

1861
05:22:19.400 --> 05:22:27.479
trusting situation, really, because our necks are so fragile and

1862
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to have someone have their hands around your neck in

1863
05:22:31.840 --> 05:22:37.119
that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which is

1864
05:22:37.200 --> 05:22:41.599
why massages are quite good, because it allows you to

1865
05:22:41.720 --> 05:22:56.000
relax and to get in touch with trust, to feel

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05:22:56.119 --> 05:23:08.319
peaceful and calm and there's a massage the sides of

1867
05:23:08.400 --> 05:23:16.279
your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

1868
05:23:18.000 --> 05:23:20.520
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

1869
05:23:20.599 --> 05:23:27.240
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your

1870
05:23:27.360 --> 05:23:33.840
ears kind of area that side of your neck. Of course,

1871
05:23:33.880 --> 05:23:36.400
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

1872
05:23:49.319 --> 05:23:56.360
And then massage in the back of your neck, especially

1873
05:23:56.439 --> 05:24:04.880
that area where perhaps we hold tension, and as that

1874
05:24:05.040 --> 05:24:10.080
area's message, you can actually feel a sense of release

1875
05:24:10.400 --> 05:24:18.000
in the back of your neck and maybe you can

1876
05:24:18.159 --> 05:24:23.720
breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice

1877
05:24:23.759 --> 05:24:36.599
how you feel. And then moving down to that area

1878
05:24:37.159 --> 05:24:44.759
between your neck and your shoulders, that musty area, starting

1879
05:24:44.840 --> 05:24:51.799
to message that area on both sides. I mean, this

1880
05:24:51.880 --> 05:24:54.319
would be the area that a lot of people would

1881
05:24:54.439 --> 05:24:57.119
message if they were going to give you like a

1882
05:24:57.279 --> 05:25:03.319
shoulder message. And that's not technically the shoulders, but it's

1883
05:25:03.360 --> 05:25:07.520
all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from the

1884
05:25:07.680 --> 05:25:15.119
neck and again that can hold tension and stress. And

1885
05:25:15.279 --> 05:25:23.200
when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and

1886
05:25:23.520 --> 05:25:39.119
you decide how deep that message is and just allow

1887
05:25:41.000 --> 05:25:46.040
my knuckles just to dig in to get to those

1888
05:25:46.240 --> 05:25:56.400
muscles and to really relaxed all the time being firm

1889
05:25:57.040 --> 05:26:14.159
yet gentle with you and just stroking down the area

1890
05:26:17.000 --> 05:26:23.119
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders,

1891
05:26:29.119 --> 05:26:33.919
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

1892
05:26:33.959 --> 05:26:37.400
bit of the table just to give you a little

1893
05:26:37.400 --> 05:26:47.840
bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've got

1894
05:26:47.880 --> 05:26:51.479
the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the sides

1895
05:26:51.720 --> 05:27:02.279
and the back. Again, this is a part that can

1896
05:27:02.400 --> 05:27:07.599
really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit

1897
05:27:07.680 --> 05:27:17.880
of needing if if you wish to really release the

1898
05:27:18.080 --> 05:27:26.400
tension to really get into those muscles, and you can

1899
05:27:26.479 --> 05:27:30.680
let your fingers in there. They can feel really nice

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05:27:32.599 --> 05:27:40.159
sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly.

1901
05:27:43.880 --> 05:27:53.279
It can all be beneficial to the relaxation of the

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05:27:53.400 --> 05:28:06.840
muscles in your shoulders. Now, to move down your arms

1903
05:28:13.439 --> 05:28:16.959
would do one arm at a time, starting with your

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05:28:17.119 --> 05:28:27.840
right arm. My idea is I just lift your arm up,

1905
05:28:28.799 --> 05:28:33.840
just hold it to the side of you that way

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05:28:34.040 --> 05:28:40.439
still be attached, and I just message the tops of

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05:28:40.560 --> 05:28:56.759
your arms all the way down to your forearms into

1908
05:28:56.840 --> 05:29:20.759
your wrists, gently massaging that parts. The softer part, which

1909
05:29:20.880 --> 05:29:27.200
is the under part of the arm which leads to

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05:29:27.319 --> 05:29:32.720
the crease in your rowbow the inside. It's much more

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05:29:32.880 --> 05:29:50.319
sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked feel really nice,

1912
05:29:53.040 --> 05:30:06.919
pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand,

1913
05:30:12.959 --> 05:30:25.040
just holding your hand with both of my hands, just

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05:30:25.200 --> 05:30:31.520
pressing gently on the back of your hand and stretching

1915
05:30:31.680 --> 05:30:42.400
your fingers ever so lightly at the same time, pressing

1916
05:30:42.560 --> 05:30:55.880
down and massaging each finger, and then starting to massage

1917
05:30:56.000 --> 05:31:06.560
the palms of the hand. Just turning the hand gently,

1918
05:31:08.319 --> 05:31:18.159
stretching it gently, and actually having your hand held can

1919
05:31:18.319 --> 05:31:25.119
really be an emotional experience sometimes even if it is

1920
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a stranger. So when you don't know very well, like

1921
05:31:30.880 --> 05:31:37.799
a massage person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate

1922
05:31:45.400 --> 05:31:58.040
and you can feel nice, you can feel safe. And

1923
05:31:58.200 --> 05:32:01.360
as I put that right arm back down where it was,

1924
05:32:07.040 --> 05:32:13.959
we did the same with your left arm, exactly the same.

1925
05:32:18.680 --> 05:32:23.680
Massage in the muscles in your arm all the way down.

1926
05:32:24.880 --> 05:32:37.200
Do you arrest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

1927
05:32:37.319 --> 05:32:50.880
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

1928
05:32:51.040 --> 05:33:07.159
massage in your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging

1929
05:33:07.439 --> 05:33:23.279
the palm of your left hand. You can feel so

1930
05:33:26.200 --> 05:33:51.479
so relaxing, so comforting, And I just rest your left

1931
05:33:51.680 --> 05:34:05.680
arm back down. Start to massage your back, the biggest

1932
05:34:05.840 --> 05:34:17.240
part of your body, starting at the top, starting again

1933
05:34:17.400 --> 05:34:20.720
where we already have been, the area at the top

1934
05:34:21.080 --> 05:34:27.880
in between his shoulders, near your neck. Going back a

1935
05:34:28.000 --> 05:34:33.240
message in that area again, but this time moving downwards,

1936
05:34:39.720 --> 05:34:45.479
taking a downward stroke to the middle of your back,

1937
05:34:47.880 --> 05:34:53.360
working from the outside inwards. It's a massage in the

1938
05:34:55.639 --> 05:35:04.639
your back, but the the outsides of your back, the

1939
05:35:04.840 --> 05:35:20.400
parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the

1940
05:35:20.560 --> 05:35:33.799
part that connects your front to your back. Just messaging

1941
05:35:34.040 --> 05:35:45.319
down firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving

1942
05:35:45.520 --> 05:35:49.599
down and moving across a little bed, and moving all

1943
05:35:49.599 --> 05:35:55.880
the way down again, being very gentle yet firm as

1944
05:35:56.000 --> 05:36:07.599
you choose. Eventually we get to the spine. We can

1945
05:36:07.720 --> 05:36:12.599
message the muscles and either side of your spine from

1946
05:36:12.639 --> 05:36:18.240
the top of your neck all the way down to

1947
05:36:18.360 --> 05:36:27.159
your lower back. We can do that a few times.

1948
05:36:30.200 --> 05:36:38.360
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the two fingers and

1949
05:36:38.560 --> 05:36:44.919
just go your side of the spine, almost just push down,

1950
05:36:45.799 --> 05:36:48.080
go all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

1951
05:36:49.720 --> 05:36:59.400
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

1952
05:37:00.560 --> 05:37:07.479
your body so that you feel more relaxed, but at

1953
05:37:07.520 --> 05:37:23.840
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

1954
05:37:23.959 --> 05:37:32.240
to one side, to your right side, and from the

1955
05:37:32.319 --> 05:37:37.840
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

1956
05:37:37.959 --> 05:37:44.599
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

1957
05:37:44.680 --> 05:37:49.479
other side and I will pull the muscles gently and

1958
05:37:49.720 --> 05:37:54.680
massage and push from one end that side or way

1959
05:37:54.799 --> 05:37:59.680
to my side in the middle of fact to where

1960
05:37:59.680 --> 05:38:07.000
you're biners massaging that sign of your spine the opposite

1961
05:38:07.119 --> 05:38:12.720
side to where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread.

1962
05:38:15.159 --> 05:38:21.520
There's that big area which is firm yet lots there

1963
05:38:21.799 --> 05:38:31.240
to message. Potentially one of the most important places to

1964
05:38:31.360 --> 05:38:38.880
actually have a message because you really feel it. You

1965
05:38:39.119 --> 05:38:44.080
really feel the release and the pleasure of having your

1966
05:38:44.159 --> 05:38:51.799
lower back massaged. It releases so much from your body

1967
05:38:53.360 --> 05:39:02.200
that's not useful, starting a healing process which will continue

1968
05:39:02.400 --> 05:39:14.799
long after this recording is over. The message in this

1969
05:39:15.000 --> 05:39:18.880
part of your body not only feels really good for you,

1970
05:39:20.360 --> 05:39:24.799
it's actually fun to do because it is, as I said,

1971
05:39:25.000 --> 05:39:30.080
like kneading bread. It's a part that you can really

1972
05:39:30.200 --> 05:39:37.959
get hold of and really massage deeply. If that's your choice,

1973
05:39:46.000 --> 05:39:47.880
then I'm going to move over to the other side

1974
05:39:47.919 --> 05:39:54.360
of your body and do the same with the opposite

1975
05:39:54.479 --> 05:40:03.799
part of your lawer bag, kneading and messaging from your

1976
05:40:04.000 --> 05:40:11.439
sides or way to the middle of your back where

1977
05:40:11.479 --> 05:40:25.119
your spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at

1978
05:40:25.159 --> 05:40:40.400
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1979
05:40:40.759 --> 05:40:52.400
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1980
05:40:52.479 --> 05:40:57.599
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1981
05:40:57.680 --> 05:41:02.000
stomach now, you can feel it is stretch because that

1982
05:41:02.159 --> 05:41:13.520
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1983
05:41:13.599 --> 05:41:18.520
to move or move further up to your top of

1984
05:41:18.599 --> 05:41:24.880
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

1985
05:41:26.240 --> 05:41:32.479
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

1986
05:41:32.680 --> 05:41:38.639
mess it massage in that area up to your spine,

1987
05:41:39.840 --> 05:41:42.439
from the side of your body up to your spine.

1988
05:41:44.240 --> 05:41:50.400
So some of that message area, the muscle tissue or

1989
05:41:50.400 --> 05:41:54.439
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

1990
05:41:56.279 --> 05:42:00.360
because or connected the chest and the back connect together.

1991
05:42:03.520 --> 05:42:06.799
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

1992
05:42:06.880 --> 05:42:14.840
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

1993
05:42:17.840 --> 05:42:22.000
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

1994
05:42:26.439 --> 05:42:28.639
And then I'll move down a bit, and I'll continue

1995
05:42:29.240 --> 05:42:32.000
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

1996
05:42:32.119 --> 05:42:49.400
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now,

1997
05:42:49.520 --> 05:42:53.319
I'll move or the other side again and do the

1998
05:42:53.439 --> 05:42:57.599
exact same thing with the top of your back on

1999
05:42:57.720 --> 05:43:07.000
the other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area

2000
05:43:07.119 --> 05:43:22.360
really to your spine, and then continuing that all the

2001
05:43:22.439 --> 05:43:27.400
way down, including the lower your middle of your back.

2002
05:43:41.080 --> 05:43:46.240
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

2003
05:43:48.919 --> 05:43:55.919
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right

2004
05:43:56.119 --> 05:44:04.479
leg and the side in the back and the sides

2005
05:44:05.319 --> 05:44:12.759
of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a lot of

2006
05:44:12.880 --> 05:44:16.680
muscles there. It's an area that can be very tense

2007
05:44:16.799 --> 05:44:21.040
at times and maybe needs a little bit more pressure

2008
05:44:21.279 --> 05:44:24.279
than the rest of the body that's up to you.

2009
05:44:29.200 --> 05:44:35.119
You can gently stroke the back of your legs where

2010
05:44:36.119 --> 05:44:41.000
you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath your knee joint,

2011
05:44:42.159 --> 05:44:54.279
very sensitive, gentle area, and then working down to your

2012
05:44:55.080 --> 05:45:03.360
calf muscles, massage in your half muscles thoroughly and deeply,

2013
05:45:04.479 --> 05:45:16.319
if you choose, using both hands and fingers, digging deep

2014
05:45:24.720 --> 05:45:30.119
to your ankles, in the back of your back of

2015
05:45:30.200 --> 05:45:44.720
your ankles. Just gently message in that area, maybe lifting

2016
05:45:44.799 --> 05:45:58.759
the leg and stretching it a little bit. Moving to

2017
05:45:58.919 --> 05:46:13.279
the right foot, massage in the bottom of your feet

2018
05:46:17.639 --> 05:46:28.799
and the sides of your feet gently but firm enough

2019
05:46:29.000 --> 05:46:39.759
so they don't tickle, and just allow the pleasure that

2020
05:46:39.880 --> 05:46:46.159
you get from having your feet massaged to just overtake you.

2021
05:46:49.479 --> 05:46:55.080
As I continue to message your feet, the bottoms of

2022
05:46:55.159 --> 05:47:05.159
your feet, the sides arches, your heel. You can put

2023
05:47:05.200 --> 05:47:09.159
a lot of pressure into your heel and it feels amazing,

2024
05:47:11.240 --> 05:47:13.799
Yet the arches need to be a bit more gentle.

2025
05:47:19.000 --> 05:47:25.720
Stretching your toes gently and message in the bottoms of

2026
05:47:25.840 --> 05:47:42.040
your toes with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over

2027
05:47:42.200 --> 05:47:45.919
to the left leg to do exactly the same thing.

2028
05:47:49.240 --> 05:47:56.000
Starting at the top of the thighs, work in the

2029
05:47:56.119 --> 05:48:01.360
back of the thighs and the sides. Argin deeply and

2030
05:48:01.560 --> 05:48:17.840
gently the whole area, working all the way down. And

2031
05:48:18.000 --> 05:48:23.720
this is an area that maybe you could like to

2032
05:48:23.840 --> 05:48:33.080
spend more time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted,

2033
05:48:33.240 --> 05:48:38.240
like a bigger future recording wants, spend more time on

2034
05:48:38.439 --> 05:48:50.599
one particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

2035
05:48:56.599 --> 05:49:10.000
massage in your calf muscles, firmly and gently move down

2036
05:49:12.279 --> 05:49:18.639
your aincor into your feet. Massage in the backs of

2037
05:49:18.759 --> 05:49:29.200
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes,

2038
05:49:29.560 --> 05:49:35.840
and massage in each tone individually. And the feeling of

2039
05:49:36.040 --> 05:49:41.919
pleasure and release that you experience when your having your

2040
05:49:42.040 --> 05:50:03.520
feet massaged feels really good. Now, she turn over in

2041
05:50:03.599 --> 05:50:14.439
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just going to

2042
05:50:14.520 --> 05:50:31.599
start again for your neck area, in your shoulders, just

2043
05:50:31.759 --> 05:50:42.279
to get back in touch with that area. And as

2044
05:50:42.319 --> 05:50:53.959
we move up, I can clean my hands, make them

2045
05:50:54.000 --> 05:50:59.599
more fresh, because now I'm going to message your face gently,

2046
05:51:04.000 --> 05:51:14.119
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

2047
05:51:15.200 --> 05:51:21.040
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2048
05:51:21.200 --> 05:51:31.680
up on your eyebrows and just massaging around your scalp,

2049
05:51:37.400 --> 05:51:46.880
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw,

2050
05:51:48.080 --> 05:52:10.639
gently the sides of your neck, your chin mhmm. Then

2051
05:52:10.799 --> 05:52:18.159
just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2052
05:52:21.959 --> 05:52:25.560
starting him by massage in the very top of your

2053
05:52:25.720 --> 05:52:34.159
chest where the collar phone is. Give a side of

2054
05:52:34.240 --> 05:52:46.080
the collar phone. Then just massage in the hole of

2055
05:52:46.200 --> 05:53:07.040
the chest, moving the chest around because it's quite a

2056
05:53:07.200 --> 05:53:12.520
large area. You can move from one side to the next,

2057
05:53:17.000 --> 05:53:23.400
moving my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are,

2058
05:53:27.799 --> 05:53:33.040
stretching up, stretching some of the muscles of your back

2059
05:53:33.159 --> 05:53:46.799
in the process, moving up over your chest and they're

2060
05:53:46.840 --> 05:54:02.919
moving down again, and then allow my hands to just

2061
05:54:03.319 --> 05:54:11.479
massage gently and slide down towards your stomach, starting in

2062
05:54:11.599 --> 05:54:18.159
the middle of your chest, and then gradually my hands

2063
05:54:18.319 --> 05:54:24.919
moving apart and massage in and slide in at the

2064
05:54:25.040 --> 05:54:33.880
same time, moving down to just below your red cage,

2065
05:54:43.200 --> 05:54:53.680
moving down, then massaging up again, giving your chest all

2066
05:54:53.759 --> 05:55:02.080
the attention that it needs to feel comp completely relaxed,

2067
05:55:09.400 --> 05:55:13.159
remembering them. I'm also going to be focusing on your

2068
05:55:13.439 --> 05:55:19.159
sides as well, an area that really doesn't get much attention.

2069
05:55:21.720 --> 05:55:31.040
It feels really good when it's massaged. Just stroking my

2070
05:55:31.279 --> 05:55:39.119
hands down the sides of your body, just below your arms,

2071
05:55:39.840 --> 05:55:52.319
all the way down to your hips. Now moving to

2072
05:55:52.439 --> 05:55:57.919
your stomach area. I'm going to stand one side of

2073
05:55:58.040 --> 05:56:00.520
you like I did when I did your or back.

2074
05:56:03.080 --> 05:56:08.119
We gonna do a similar process of just stretching the

2075
05:56:08.279 --> 05:56:21.880
muscles from your side, gently massaging from one side to

2076
05:56:22.000 --> 05:56:25.240
the next, move in.

2077
05:56:27.799 --> 05:56:32.000
A whole area from below your ribs all the way

2078
05:56:32.080 --> 05:56:42.720
down to below your belly button, and then move.

2079
05:56:42.639 --> 05:56:45.639
Around to the other side of you and repeat that

2080
05:56:52.279 --> 05:57:06.279
process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, You feel free.

2081
05:57:08.680 --> 05:57:13.360
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different

2082
05:57:13.439 --> 05:57:20.279
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2083
05:57:20.880 --> 05:57:24.840
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomachs

2084
05:57:26.200 --> 05:57:34.000
that we may not be aware of. As a now

2085
05:57:34.200 --> 05:57:42.439
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2086
05:57:43.919 --> 05:57:53.119
around your belly button, anything going the other way around.

2087
05:57:59.599 --> 05:58:05.400
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2088
05:58:06.080 --> 05:58:16.360
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2089
05:58:16.439 --> 05:58:23.159
of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and I can

2090
05:58:23.319 --> 05:58:29.240
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2091
05:58:32.119 --> 05:58:38.240
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at front of

2092
05:58:38.319 --> 05:58:49.319
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2093
05:58:49.400 --> 05:59:00.680
your knees, Sliding down your shins, put pressure on either

2094
05:59:00.840 --> 05:59:13.000
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2095
05:59:13.360 --> 05:59:28.040
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2096
05:59:28.240 --> 05:59:34.319
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

2097
05:59:35.119 --> 05:59:43.439
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

2098
05:59:43.919 --> 05:59:51.680
your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet.

2099
05:59:56.479 --> 06:00:02.759
It feels so good. Just let go and enjoy the process.

2100
06:00:08.400 --> 06:00:27.240
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort and so

2101
06:00:27.479 --> 06:00:44.200
many feelings come just from touching your skin. And you

2102
06:00:44.360 --> 06:00:50.560
can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2103
06:00:54.560 --> 06:01:06.319
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me.

2104
06:01:13.520 --> 06:01:35.479
Enjoy fear deeply rased. And all we're gonna do is

2105
06:01:39.119 --> 06:01:55.799
blow out some candles. In your mind, there're gonna be

2106
06:01:55.840 --> 06:02:06.680
a hundred candles, and you're going to blow each one

2107
06:02:06.799 --> 06:02:17.880
out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred. As

2108
06:02:17.919 --> 06:02:29.599
I count down all the way down to one, and

2109
06:02:29.759 --> 06:02:38.560
each time I say a number, you can imagine that

2110
06:02:38.799 --> 06:02:45.159
candle in front of you, and I'd like you to

2111
06:02:45.279 --> 06:03:04.599
actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so it's

2112
06:03:04.639 --> 06:03:16.159
not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish.

2113
06:03:20.840 --> 06:03:25.439
And then I'll say the next number as we move down,

2114
06:03:28.680 --> 06:03:35.159
and you can just blow that one out as well.

2115
06:03:41.119 --> 06:03:49.639
And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

2116
06:03:50.759 --> 06:03:59.400
feeling more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep,

2117
06:04:00.279 --> 06:04:12.439
you also find yourself becoming incredibly tired, and sleepy. In fact,

2118
06:04:12.560 --> 06:04:22.599
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2119
06:04:22.759 --> 06:04:41.200
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2120
06:04:47.880 --> 06:05:05.840
more and more deeply tired, and the further you go down,

2121
06:05:08.479 --> 06:05:22.119
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2122
06:05:22.479 --> 06:05:36.880
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2123
06:05:37.119 --> 06:05:41.279
even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2124
06:05:46.159 --> 06:05:57.360
you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment, be

2125
06:05:57.720 --> 06:06:12.919
me start to just not even notice them at all,

2126
06:06:15.720 --> 06:06:29.680
because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

2127
06:06:29.759 --> 06:06:36.560
of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to

2128
06:06:36.680 --> 06:06:43.240
say hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2129
06:06:46.279 --> 06:06:59.639
maybe traffic and trains in the distance. But none of

2130
06:06:59.720 --> 06:07:11.959
that's scene is important whatsoever. More candles you blow out,

2131
06:07:13.799 --> 06:07:26.560
the less important anything is. More candles you blow out,

2132
06:07:30.759 --> 06:07:43.959
the further you seem to move away from sounds and

2133
06:07:46.560 --> 06:07:58.919
from general date days, stuff seems to just move away

2134
06:08:01.479 --> 06:08:17.599
on its own. You feel more calma with every candle

2135
06:08:17.799 --> 06:08:37.200
you blow out, guiding you to the next number. Do

2136
06:08:37.360 --> 06:08:47.520
you hear me say? And then you blow that candle

2137
06:08:47.560 --> 06:09:15.200
out too? So easy, so simple. We're gonna start by

2138
06:09:19.439 --> 06:09:32.759
introducing the first candle, which is a hundred. The first

2139
06:09:33.360 --> 06:09:47.200
candle is one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2140
06:09:54.000 --> 06:10:06.720
you'll find immediately a light change in how you feel,

2141
06:10:11.880 --> 06:10:20.119
as well as the real sense of positivity growing within you,

2142
06:10:26.200 --> 06:10:56.240
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred blow out

2143
06:10:56.319 --> 06:11:58.520
by candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight can do

2144
06:12:02.159 --> 06:13:36.159
ninety seven, tene ninety six and ninety five, had ninety

2145
06:13:36.639 --> 06:15:10.840
four can do ninety three, can ninety two and ninety one,

2146
06:15:29.240 --> 06:15:52.599
ten to ninety and.

2147
06:16:02.880 --> 06:16:04.560
Eighty nine.

2148
06:16:21.639 --> 06:18:56.080
And eighty eight and eighties can do eighty eight five

2149
06:19:32.080 --> 06:23:13.439
who t eighty two and two one. Candle seventy nine

2150
06:23:26.560 --> 06:24:05.840
can dole seventy eight can do seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2151
06:24:19.759 --> 06:25:19.240
candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle

2152
06:25:24.479 --> 06:26:26.520
seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, candle seventy

2153
06:26:41.639 --> 06:27:34.680
and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle

2154
06:27:38.439 --> 06:28:41.240
sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three,

2155
06:28:51.080 --> 06:30:42.560
candle sixty sixty one, candle sixty and fifty nine handle

2156
06:30:45.319 --> 06:32:05.119
fifty eight candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five,

2157
06:32:22.599 --> 06:33:43.880
candle fifty four, handle fifty three, end fifty two, fifty two,

2158
06:34:16.319 --> 06:35:48.680
two to fifty two, candle fifty one, candle fifty, candle

2159
06:35:52.599 --> 06:37:43.360
foty nine, cheno foot he ate, candle forty seven, candle

2160
06:37:46.080 --> 06:39:39.080
forty six, candle forty five and forty two, jendle who

2161
06:39:39.520 --> 06:42:13.479
to candle forty, candle thirty nine, thirty eight, can't do

2162
06:42:17.959 --> 06:44:26.479
thirty seven, can't do thirty five, jenwo thirty four, tenso

2163
06:44:30.479 --> 06:47:19.720
thirty three, handle thirty one, candle thirty, candle twoighteen nine,

2164
06:47:58.000 --> 06:50:22.360
candle twenty eight and twenty seven, candle twenty six, candle

2165
06:50:27.439 --> 06:52:31.880
twenty five and twinty four, end of twenty thirty and

2166
06:52:34.400 --> 06:54:58.639
twine and twenty one and to winy y can go

2167
06:55:01.799 --> 06:59:07.400
ninety candle seventeen ten sixteen, chancel four y and well

2168
06:59:53.200 --> 07:03:05.279
wo candle eleven hands ye shame to nine eight eight,

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07:03:38.400 --> 07:05:24.200
jendo six m can do.

2170
07:05:27.680 --> 07:06:18.319
Four and doy.

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Seven two can or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2172
07:08:31.520 --> 07:08:37.599
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2173
07:08:39.080 --> 07:08:43.560
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all go,

2174
07:08:47.000 --> 07:08:54.680
because none of it is useful in this moment. This

2175
07:08:54.959 --> 07:09:14.799
is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing

2176
07:09:14.919 --> 07:09:22.880
yourself to get in touch with that natural sense of

2177
07:09:23.080 --> 07:09:31.720
peace that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2178
07:09:32.880 --> 07:09:37.759
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2179
07:09:37.959 --> 07:09:44.000
set up the right time and place in order for

2180
07:09:44.119 --> 07:09:51.040
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2181
07:09:53.439 --> 07:09:58.759
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2182
07:09:58.840 --> 07:10:09.080
to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow

2183
07:10:09.240 --> 07:10:15.040
your body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2184
07:10:18.400 --> 07:10:22.799
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2185
07:10:22.840 --> 07:10:28.759
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2186
07:10:28.919 --> 07:10:37.959
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2187
07:10:39.759 --> 07:10:46.799
your body or just follow suit, because sometimes all the

2188
07:10:46.959 --> 07:10:51.680
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2189
07:10:52.759 --> 07:11:01.240
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2190
07:11:01.360 --> 07:11:05.319
here to there, we're walking around, and we're doing stuff,

2191
07:11:07.639 --> 07:11:13.959
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2192
07:11:14.159 --> 07:11:21.119
really relax deeply. So it kind of waits for you

2193
07:11:21.439 --> 07:11:30.599
to lead the way, waits for your permission, and when

2194
07:11:30.639 --> 07:11:37.240
you do give your permission, when you give the say

2195
07:11:37.360 --> 07:11:43.720
so we need say okay, it's time for your body

2196
07:11:45.360 --> 07:11:54.319
to let go completely and relax totally. Your body just follows.

2197
07:11:57.319 --> 07:12:02.759
It's like a breath of relief. Ah. Good, I can

2198
07:12:02.840 --> 07:12:09.880
now relax. That feeling at the end of a day,

2199
07:12:09.919 --> 07:12:13.639
of a very physical day that you may experience in

2200
07:12:13.759 --> 07:12:17.319
the past, where you get home and you just sit

2201
07:12:17.479 --> 07:12:21.400
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off

2202
07:12:21.520 --> 07:12:27.319
and not Ah, feels so nice knowing that you don't

2203
07:12:28.000 --> 07:12:31.360
have to get up again for a little while at

2204
07:12:31.439 --> 07:12:35.119
least if you choose you can just sit there for

2205
07:12:35.279 --> 07:12:48.000
maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And just by

2206
07:12:48.200 --> 07:12:53.240
sitting down like that, your body knows that it's time

2207
07:12:53.360 --> 07:12:58.680
to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2208
07:13:00.919 --> 07:13:11.200
Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to

2209
07:13:11.400 --> 07:13:20.959
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2210
07:13:21.279 --> 07:13:30.040
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2211
07:13:30.400 --> 07:13:49.799
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2212
07:13:50.080 --> 07:13:56.319
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2213
07:13:58.200 --> 07:14:02.799
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2214
07:14:02.959 --> 07:14:06.240
first start to relax with you if you haven't really

2215
07:14:07.680 --> 07:14:11.560
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2216
07:14:11.759 --> 07:14:16.799
space to let go completely and relax. They seem are

2217
07:14:16.959 --> 07:14:25.240
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2218
07:14:25.360 --> 07:14:33.919
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2219
07:14:35.919 --> 07:14:42.639
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2220
07:14:47.040 --> 07:14:54.400
to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

2221
07:14:54.680 --> 07:15:02.360
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2222
07:15:02.479 --> 07:15:11.240
button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

2223
07:15:11.360 --> 07:15:15.319
a wheel, like a cog, like the inside of a clock,

2224
07:15:15.520 --> 07:15:19.360
just unwinding, and it's almost like you could see the

2225
07:15:20.360 --> 07:15:25.680
little wind up knob that's used just going the opposite

2226
07:15:25.759 --> 07:15:31.720
way that you choose to wind it up, and the

2227
07:15:32.000 --> 07:15:42.560
energy that frenetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing

2228
07:15:42.680 --> 07:15:50.479
its power, losing its strength. As a sense of relaxation

2229
07:15:50.840 --> 07:16:01.599
becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a the

2230
07:16:01.840 --> 07:16:08.799
more relaxed you feel, that your mind starts to wonder,

2231
07:16:11.959 --> 07:16:17.799
maybe just seem to stop listening to me for a while,

2232
07:16:17.959 --> 07:16:24.560
and your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize

2233
07:16:24.599 --> 07:16:29.599
you're listening to me again, and that is just your

2234
07:16:29.759 --> 07:16:40.479
mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural because sometimes

2235
07:16:40.720 --> 07:16:47.759
when we're stressed and tense. We're not mean. I actually

2236
07:16:47.880 --> 07:16:52.799
be aware of what we need, what we physically are

2237
07:16:52.880 --> 07:17:03.560
emotionally need in this moment when you allow your body

2238
07:17:04.000 --> 07:17:09.119
and mind to relax completely and you let go of

2239
07:17:09.759 --> 07:17:19.520
all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas all letting them go, allow

2240
07:17:19.680 --> 07:17:27.759
them to drop onto the floor. When you start to

2241
07:17:29.919 --> 07:17:40.000
get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation, this

2242
07:17:40.799 --> 07:17:47.479
feels so nice to be in touch with the calmness

2243
07:17:49.439 --> 07:17:58.400
of the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2244
07:18:02.639 --> 07:18:14.799
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as

2245
07:18:14.880 --> 07:18:20.040
that cool air enters through your mouth or nose into

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07:18:20.159 --> 07:18:31.000
your lungs, breathing in comfort and relaxation, and then just

2247
07:18:31.159 --> 07:18:39.560
breathing out any excess remain intention or stress from every

2248
07:18:40.159 --> 07:18:47.919
part of your body and mind. And as you start

2249
07:18:48.040 --> 07:18:54.119
to focus on your mind, maybe you notice that things

2250
07:18:56.520 --> 07:19:01.599
have come to a standstill or may be just much

2251
07:19:02.080 --> 07:19:10.200
much lower than before, because your mind is not really

2252
07:19:11.520 --> 07:19:20.919
needed when listening to my voice, which allows your mind

2253
07:19:21.080 --> 07:19:29.400
to relax just as deeply as your body. And that's

2254
07:19:29.560 --> 07:19:42.000
synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and relaxation of

2255
07:19:42.200 --> 07:19:53.759
your mind. Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

2256
07:19:54.159 --> 07:20:08.360
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2257
07:20:08.639 --> 07:20:21.119
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and

2258
07:20:21.240 --> 07:20:29.919
your life. To be able to let go everything and

2259
07:20:30.119 --> 07:20:40.520
to relax completely in all parts of your body and mind.

2260
07:20:42.880 --> 07:20:51.400
Even your bones are axed, all your muscles are arised,

2261
07:20:58.279 --> 07:21:11.680
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every

2262
07:21:12.319 --> 07:21:29.360
hair that you have is also deeply relaxed. And your

2263
07:21:29.560 --> 07:21:43.000
brain really starts to feel the benefits of this healing relaxation.

2264
07:21:48.319 --> 07:21:54.279
And as you focus on the inside of your scalp

2265
07:21:54.759 --> 07:22:00.560
where your brain is, you can start to realize and

2266
07:22:00.799 --> 07:22:13.639
notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. And then

2267
07:22:13.680 --> 07:22:25.119
it's your brain continues to relax sends those messages to

2268
07:22:25.919 --> 07:22:33.799
the rest of your body and your mind to rely,

2269
07:22:34.319 --> 07:22:56.240
relax more deeply, relax me more completely, letting go of

2270
07:22:56.799 --> 07:23:09.119
any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just drop onto

2271
07:23:09.240 --> 07:23:17.919
the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment,

2272
07:23:20.200 --> 07:23:33.000
In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling your

2273
07:23:33.119 --> 07:23:57.919
brain with deep, concentrated healing, calming, relaxing every part of

2274
07:23:58.040 --> 07:24:04.080
your brain, feeling.

2275
07:24:06.720 --> 07:24:08.720
So loose.

2276
07:24:09.919 --> 07:24:25.200
And comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful. Your brain feels

2277
07:24:26.840 --> 07:24:35.959
so light and so healthy in that sense of deep

2278
07:24:37.360 --> 07:24:52.080
deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy those ever

2279
07:24:52.439 --> 07:25:09.599
increasing sensations of comfort spreading throughout your body, relaxing each

2280
07:25:11.240 --> 07:25:14.400
and every muscle of your body.

2281
07:25:16.479 --> 07:25:16.959
Eat.

2282
07:25:18.599 --> 07:25:37.840
Deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more

2283
07:25:39.880 --> 07:25:53.560
comfort spreading through your body and your mind. Be so

2284
07:25:55.479 --> 07:26:11.520
peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part

2285
07:26:14.200 --> 07:26:25.599
of your body. Letting him go, m hm, a everything aything,

2286
07:26:29.319 --> 07:26:47.680
so peaceful, come so relax a very second the passes

2287
07:26:50.720 --> 07:26:55.119
you feel d path.

2288
07:26:56.360 --> 07:27:15.680
Depaxt deper and deperlax, calm.

2289
07:27:18.240 --> 07:27:30.840
So calm, peace for so very piece.

2290
07:27:33.560 --> 07:27:42.840
From your head down to your ties. Such peace and

2291
07:27:43.200 --> 07:27:59.639
comfort growing all the time, Such peace and comfort spreading

2292
07:28:00.599 --> 07:28:16.119
through your body and mind deeper deeper, such comforts spreading

2293
07:28:17.400 --> 07:28:25.200
and sinking deeper into a muscle your body.

2294
07:28:28.840 --> 07:28:30.439
So they feel.

2295
07:28:32.639 --> 07:28:58.040
Amazing, so laxed, so peaceful, so lax and peaceful, letting go.

2296
07:29:07.200 --> 07:29:13.400
You're going to do a body scan, focusing on firstly

2297
07:29:13.560 --> 07:29:18.279
how you feel in your body, not trying to change

2298
07:29:19.000 --> 07:29:24.599
how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to

2299
07:29:24.799 --> 07:29:31.959
move away from any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting,

2300
07:29:33.520 --> 07:29:38.599
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2301
07:29:38.680 --> 07:29:45.319
of your body. Just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2302
07:29:45.400 --> 07:29:56.880
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

2303
07:29:56.959 --> 07:30:04.360
you actually feel in this moment. I'm going to start

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07:30:04.520 --> 07:30:15.439
off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware of

2305
07:30:15.560 --> 07:30:23.840
your hands. I'd like you to move your hands around,

2306
07:30:25.279 --> 07:30:30.880
just maybe move your fingers a little bit. I've been

2307
07:30:31.040 --> 07:30:37.360
enclosing your hands very gently, just so that you can

2308
07:30:39.319 --> 07:30:46.319
get in touch with how your hands and your fingers feel,

2309
07:30:51.759 --> 07:31:10.680
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

2310
07:31:10.799 --> 07:31:14.680
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2311
07:31:14.880 --> 07:31:20.599
your feet is you've just done with your hands, Maybe

2312
07:31:22.040 --> 07:31:29.439
turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your

2313
07:31:29.560 --> 07:31:42.840
toes gently, but only very gently and very slowly, noticing

2314
07:31:43.319 --> 07:31:57.959
how your feet fell in this moment. Focusing now on

2315
07:31:58.080 --> 07:32:06.119
your eyes, I like you to just focus on your eyelids.

2316
07:32:08.560 --> 07:32:11.599
Maybe you can open and close your eyes a couple

2317
07:32:11.639 --> 07:32:17.240
of times to really get in touch with how you feel.

2318
07:32:17.360 --> 07:32:25.360
When you do close your eyes, the muscle changes in

2319
07:32:25.479 --> 07:32:32.360
your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows.

2320
07:32:34.080 --> 07:32:41.919
It stretches the tops of your eyes. Perhaps squinting your eyes,

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07:32:45.680 --> 07:32:51.000
scrunching up your eyes, just so you can herely get

2322
07:32:51.080 --> 07:33:01.520
in touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

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07:33:04.279 --> 07:33:20.159
Right now, now focusing on your thighs, and it just

2324
07:33:20.200 --> 07:33:28.560
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2325
07:33:30.880 --> 07:33:41.520
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

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07:33:42.840 --> 07:33:51.279
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

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07:33:51.560 --> 07:34:02.599
and the backs of your thighs. Noticing and observing how

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07:34:04.959 --> 07:34:20.000
your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the

2329
07:34:20.119 --> 07:34:26.959
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2330
07:34:28.479 --> 07:34:33.720
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2331
07:34:33.799 --> 07:34:37.959
of your neck, they also lead to the top of

2332
07:34:38.040 --> 07:34:44.400
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as your

2333
07:34:44.720 --> 07:34:50.439
focus on the back of your neck, maybe you can

2334
07:34:51.360 --> 07:34:56.919
move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up,

2335
07:34:58.880 --> 07:35:04.479
Maybe moving your head down as if you were looking down.

2336
07:35:07.639 --> 07:35:14.880
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left, bonly,

2337
07:35:16.720 --> 07:35:27.439
very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2338
07:35:29.240 --> 07:35:38.400
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2339
07:35:38.560 --> 07:35:52.040
can be more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations,

2340
07:35:52.240 --> 07:36:01.479
of physical sensations of hownd back of your neck fields

2341
07:36:03.200 --> 07:36:18.599
right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2342
07:36:18.720 --> 07:36:24.959
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2343
07:36:25.040 --> 07:36:33.119
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

2344
07:36:33.360 --> 07:36:40.560
those parts, the tops of your arms, you may like

2345
07:36:40.680 --> 07:36:50.200
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2346
07:36:52.759 --> 07:36:59.759
so you're not straining or put in any pressure whatsoever

2347
07:37:01.639 --> 07:37:11.319
on your arms. It's just soothly you can gain more

2348
07:37:11.720 --> 07:37:19.880
of a sense of how your upper arms are feeling

2349
07:37:22.119 --> 07:37:33.279
in this moment, and just noticing as you gently, very

2350
07:37:33.560 --> 07:37:42.599
gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go.

2351
07:37:46.880 --> 07:37:55.279
Notice how the tops of your arms feel right now,

2352
07:38:03.439 --> 07:38:14.279
as a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2353
07:38:14.400 --> 07:38:20.680
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2354
07:38:20.759 --> 07:38:34.520
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2355
07:38:34.720 --> 07:38:42.360
you're able to tense these muscles in the area very

2356
07:38:44.599 --> 07:38:57.880
very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing to do,

2357
07:38:59.159 --> 07:39:07.360
and maybe you can just move your body, pushing your

2358
07:39:07.439 --> 07:39:12.319
stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to the side

2359
07:39:12.919 --> 07:39:19.400
using your hips, just so that you can get more

2360
07:39:21.040 --> 07:39:33.000
in tune with how your lower abdomen area is feeling

2361
07:39:35.840 --> 07:39:53.400
in this moment, just noticing the physical sensations or your

2362
07:39:53.560 --> 07:40:12.520
lower abdomen. As you move your attention to your mouth,

2363
07:40:17.840 --> 07:40:26.080
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth,

2364
07:40:27.200 --> 07:40:43.319
your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your tongue in

2365
07:40:43.400 --> 07:40:53.080
your mouth feels. It may help by moving your tongue

2366
07:40:54.439 --> 07:41:01.400
around your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2367
07:41:01.479 --> 07:41:08.200
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2368
07:41:08.599 --> 07:41:13.479
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2369
07:41:16.599 --> 07:41:22.080
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2370
07:41:22.240 --> 07:41:31.080
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth. Aways

2371
07:41:32.080 --> 07:41:47.080
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2372
07:41:47.319 --> 07:42:03.560
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2373
07:42:14.840 --> 07:42:34.880
Now I'm going to focus on your wrists. I'm going

2374
07:42:34.919 --> 07:42:43.560
to ask you to maybe just routine your wrists by

2375
07:42:43.680 --> 07:42:54.479
moving your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2376
07:42:57.240 --> 07:43:15.959
just slowly. You can feel the sensations that you are

2377
07:43:16.439 --> 07:43:32.279
currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in your hands.

2378
07:43:33.479 --> 07:43:34.880
Up and down.

2379
07:43:37.360 --> 07:44:04.720
Again, very very gently and slowly, very genzl and slow

2380
07:44:18.159 --> 07:44:34.560
as you now start to observe your lower back. The

2381
07:44:34.919 --> 07:44:45.680
bad part is just above your hips where your coxix

2382
07:44:45.799 --> 07:44:58.799
are a whole area which also really does include the

2383
07:44:59.159 --> 07:45:05.319
signs of your body because those muscles are very much

2384
07:45:05.479 --> 07:45:16.759
connected as those muscles also move into your hip area

2385
07:45:17.759 --> 07:45:33.159
connecting to your buttocks, the side of your hips, and

2386
07:45:33.319 --> 07:45:41.759
if you're physically able to do so, maybe you can

2387
07:45:42.720 --> 07:45:55.400
very gently just move your body ever so slightly, very slowly,

2388
07:45:58.479 --> 07:46:16.279
some side to side, right, just enough to gauge how

2389
07:46:16.439 --> 07:46:29.880
you feel in your lower back. Perhaps it could even

2390
07:46:33.520 --> 07:46:44.759
move your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly,

2391
07:46:48.040 --> 07:47:00.599
in order to be in touch with the physical sensations

2392
07:47:02.200 --> 07:47:03.439
of your law back.

2393
07:47:20.479 --> 07:47:27.959
As we know, your attention.

2394
07:47:31.439 --> 07:47:39.119
To your jaw, the area from your chin all the

2395
07:47:39.240 --> 07:47:47.080
way up to near where your ears are. Oh of

2396
07:47:47.200 --> 07:48:02.479
your jaw, you can just yeah, it's okay to do so.

2397
07:48:04.400 --> 07:48:14.880
Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

2398
07:48:15.639 --> 07:48:28.279
gently and slowly opening your mouth in closing your mouth

2399
07:48:30.599 --> 07:48:49.520
very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2400
07:48:56.360 --> 07:49:30.200
with how your jaw feels. Now, I just sit down

2401
07:49:33.040 --> 07:49:45.880
the chest area, and you don't need to do anything

2402
07:49:47.840 --> 07:49:54.720
to move your chest because it moves every time you breathe,

2403
07:50:00.080 --> 07:50:13.919
and moves very gently and slowly automatically with each breath

2404
07:50:14.279 --> 07:50:34.240
you take. As you focus on how your chest feels

2405
07:50:39.520 --> 07:51:14.560
when you pray, move in your focus to your forearms,

2406
07:51:17.119 --> 07:51:33.279
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly

2407
07:51:35.680 --> 07:51:44.240
tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2408
07:51:44.759 --> 07:52:08.279
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

2409
07:52:16.759 --> 07:52:22.080
gently and softly.

2410
07:52:26.240 --> 07:52:27.520
I'm sad.

2411
07:52:31.680 --> 07:53:05.959
Your forearms and delpos no focus the rest of your back,

2412
07:53:10.119 --> 07:53:19.599
your upper back in the middle, the middle of your

2413
07:53:19.720 --> 07:53:42.200
back again, this part of your body. News. Also every

2414
07:53:42.680 --> 07:53:58.599
time you prey. You may not notice that usually these

2415
07:53:58.759 --> 07:54:04.680
you lop sir, your upper back in the middle of

2416
07:54:04.880 --> 07:54:29.759
your back. You can really feel that gentle ends m

2417
07:55:04.479 --> 07:55:18.200
moving your focus into your hip area of buttees the grain.

2418
07:55:20.919 --> 07:55:56.279
There's muscles and those bones in your midsection. Just noticing.

2419
07:55:58.119 --> 07:56:00.240
How your hips.

2420
07:56:02.439 --> 07:56:23.759
Feel. Right now, you can very very gently move your hips,

2421
07:56:28.759 --> 07:56:55.040
maybe side to side, very gently and slo y, very

2422
07:56:59.759 --> 07:57:38.000
nat okay, softly. Everything starts to slow down, including the

2423
07:57:38.599 --> 07:57:47.319
thoughts in your mind and your mind itself just starts

2424
07:57:47.759 --> 07:57:53.119
to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant, but just

2425
07:57:54.000 --> 07:58:03.240
gradually starting too. It's almost like time is storing chin.

2426
07:58:07.159 --> 07:58:13.119
It's a slower pace to maybe what you're used to

2427
07:58:15.439 --> 07:58:23.400
in your day to day life. It's a slower movement

2428
07:58:26.520 --> 07:58:48.520
of energy, very small movements which make up the larger

2429
07:58:48.639 --> 07:58:56.040
movements which is always the case. Now, when you move

2430
07:58:56.439 --> 07:59:00.880
your hand, it might seem like it's one movement, but

2431
07:59:00.880 --> 07:59:08.919
there's lots of minute different muscles moving in accordance with

2432
07:59:09.040 --> 07:59:20.400
each other. And what happens in this space that we're

2433
07:59:20.520 --> 07:59:39.759
sharing is we move from that big movement into those

2434
07:59:40.040 --> 07:59:56.880
smaller movements. Starting to focus on how your body feels,

2435
07:59:58.680 --> 08:00:03.080
not just as a whole, just oh, I feel in

2436
08:00:03.200 --> 08:00:08.119
this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling

2437
08:00:08.240 --> 08:00:13.599
relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way.

2438
08:00:17.119 --> 08:00:25.159
Starting to notice that your body begins to present to

2439
08:00:25.279 --> 08:00:46.000
you small feelings around your body, small physical sensations in

2440
08:00:46.119 --> 08:01:01.599
your legs, whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation

2441
08:01:02.000 --> 08:01:11.439
to label them or to judge them those feelings, just

2442
08:01:11.720 --> 08:01:19.439
thinking them, thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings,

2443
08:01:26.080 --> 08:01:34.599
not being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body

2444
08:01:37.439 --> 08:01:50.799
is telling you. The feelings in your arms, instead of

2445
08:01:50.959 --> 08:01:58.479
feeling the whole of the arm, maybe notice those individual

2446
08:02:01.599 --> 08:02:13.080
all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of

2447
08:02:13.159 --> 08:02:18.919
your arms, all the internal parts of your arms, the veins,

2448
08:02:29.080 --> 08:02:38.200
the bones. Just being aware of maybe your elbow on

2449
08:02:38.360 --> 08:02:46.680
your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left

2450
08:02:46.799 --> 08:02:59.159
wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2451
08:03:11.599 --> 08:03:18.319
What about your forearm when your right arm, you're right forearm,

2452
08:03:25.680 --> 08:03:26.880
there may not be any.

2453
08:03:27.240 --> 08:03:34.479
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2454
08:03:38.240 --> 08:03:42.560
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2455
08:03:43.479 --> 08:03:55.560
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2456
08:03:55.639 --> 08:03:59.360
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2457
08:03:59.560 --> 08:04:06.439
like the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like

2458
08:04:06.560 --> 08:04:11.080
you both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of

2459
08:04:11.200 --> 08:04:22.400
course they're not. And when you focus on your left

2460
08:04:22.479 --> 08:04:30.639
shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that

2461
08:04:30.799 --> 08:04:36.119
you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the

2462
08:04:36.240 --> 08:05:01.639
muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder and your

2463
08:05:01.720 --> 08:05:17.599
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

2464
08:05:18.439 --> 08:05:29.119
the right side of your lower back, of course that

2465
08:05:29.319 --> 08:05:41.759
connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and also

2466
08:05:41.959 --> 08:05:55.720
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

2467
08:05:56.080 --> 08:05:59.560
like right now, actually I want to focus on their part.

2468
08:06:00.919 --> 08:06:05.319
When I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2469
08:06:05.360 --> 08:06:09.479
on the middle of my back, it almost felt like

2470
08:06:09.680 --> 08:06:14.439
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2471
08:06:19.200 --> 08:06:24.479
just stretched a little bit, even though I wasn't doing

2472
08:06:24.560 --> 08:06:33.360
anything to try to stretch your lower back. It just

2473
08:06:33.439 --> 08:06:45.720
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2474
08:06:45.799 --> 08:07:04.919
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2475
08:07:12.520 --> 08:07:25.919
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2476
08:07:26.200 --> 08:07:42.439
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2477
08:07:42.520 --> 08:07:46.159
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2478
08:07:46.200 --> 08:07:54.799
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2479
08:07:57.599 --> 08:08:03.680
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2480
08:08:03.720 --> 08:08:11.840
you're male, you've got the different well my not that

2481
08:08:12.000 --> 08:08:19.479
different these days, but there may be more muscles at

2482
08:08:19.520 --> 08:08:25.720
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath

2483
08:08:26.880 --> 08:08:29.720
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2484
08:08:29.759 --> 08:08:36.159
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2485
08:08:36.319 --> 08:08:40.759
your back as well as breast tissue which stretches and

2486
08:08:40.959 --> 08:08:48.639
moves into your back. To just being aware of your chest,

2487
08:08:57.560 --> 08:09:24.919
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. When

2488
08:09:24.919 --> 08:09:32.759
I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I feel

2489
08:09:32.799 --> 08:09:37.439
it in my back and my upper back, and mean,

2490
08:09:37.520 --> 08:09:40.439
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2491
08:09:40.479 --> 08:09:51.200
I'll breathe in in then it stretches my chest and

2492
08:09:51.560 --> 08:10:05.439
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2493
08:10:12.240 --> 08:10:17.000
doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain in

2494
08:10:17.119 --> 08:10:23.680
my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but a

2495
08:10:23.759 --> 08:10:34.000
little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I notice

2496
08:10:34.040 --> 08:10:43.919
my shoulders also wanting to flex for some reason. I

2497
08:10:44.000 --> 08:10:51.919
think that's probably part of my upper back, that connection

2498
08:10:52.159 --> 08:10:56.560
between my shoulders and my upper back, because I can

2499
08:10:56.639 --> 08:11:01.439
move my shoulders and stretch the muscle in my back,

2500
08:11:03.959 --> 08:11:10.479
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves. I

2501
08:11:10.560 --> 08:11:26.680
think it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2502
08:11:32.000 --> 08:11:35.159
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2503
08:11:35.319 --> 08:11:49.240
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2504
08:11:49.479 --> 08:11:56.959
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2505
08:11:57.000 --> 08:12:07.319
of a sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing,

2506
08:12:12.119 --> 08:12:16.159
when you do tense and muscle and you let it

2507
08:12:16.319 --> 08:12:23.680
go and you let it relax, it relaxes way more

2508
08:12:25.319 --> 08:12:35.639
than it would normally. You have to feel that you're

2509
08:12:35.680 --> 08:12:39.639
able to do that. There's no point doing it if

2510
08:12:39.720 --> 08:12:45.319
there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2511
08:12:48.799 --> 08:12:55.360
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2512
08:12:58.000 --> 08:13:09.520
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself

2513
08:13:17.080 --> 08:13:25.560
as you notice your mind how much has your mind

2514
08:13:25.880 --> 08:13:53.119
slowed down since we started this recording? How came and

2515
08:13:53.360 --> 08:14:05.000
peaceful is your mind right now with nothing to think

2516
08:14:05.080 --> 08:14:15.080
about and just my voice to listen to, because you know,

2517
08:14:15.599 --> 08:14:26.599
the intention behind this recording is relaxation. At the very least,

2518
08:14:28.159 --> 08:14:32.720
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2519
08:14:32.919 --> 08:14:41.759
recording than you did at the beginning, at the very least,

2520
08:14:45.919 --> 08:14:54.919
for your mind to slow down because your body continues

2521
08:14:56.959 --> 08:15:13.520
to relax, because that's what you want to happen. That's

2522
08:15:13.639 --> 08:15:34.840
what you expect to happen, for relaxation to fill your body,

2523
08:15:43.080 --> 08:15:48.159
maybe calm in your mind to the point of boredom.

2524
08:15:51.759 --> 08:16:36.000
When you start maybe tore away resting, it's almost as

2525
08:16:36.040 --> 08:16:45.639
if you're moving further away from your body in your mind,

2526
08:16:48.040 --> 08:16:59.919
just leaving that there. Kind of liking it and escape

2527
08:17:00.080 --> 08:17:05.080
pod in the spaceship and movie a space movie, you

2528
08:17:05.159 --> 08:17:09.240
know when they gets a little pard in it, since

2529
08:17:09.319 --> 08:17:25.439
the man far away from the spaceship save to dream

2530
08:17:34.000 --> 08:18:35.919
and continue to relax, drifting so slow and be so.

2531
08:18:52.159 --> 08:18:53.400
So rare.

2532
08:19:06.439 --> 08:19:41.040
And peace and focusing on the feeding of those individual

2533
08:19:41.560 --> 08:19:51.319
parts of your body. That's a relaxing one by one

2534
08:19:59.000 --> 08:20:11.360
you me find that every now and then you realize

2535
08:20:11.520 --> 08:20:22.400
that you aren't listening to my voice because your mind

2536
08:20:22.959 --> 08:20:37.720
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2537
08:20:37.919 --> 08:20:47.000
into some kind of a dreamy state. And then you

2538
08:20:47.119 --> 08:20:53.919
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2539
08:20:54.919 --> 08:21:01.080
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2540
08:21:01.840 --> 08:21:15.639
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2541
08:21:15.759 --> 08:21:37.159
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2542
08:21:37.840 --> 08:21:51.080
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2543
08:21:51.240 --> 08:22:15.720
you gently, keeping your body at the perfect temperature. And

2544
08:22:15.880 --> 08:22:27.759
even if you can hear background sounds, they just don't

2545
08:22:28.000 --> 08:22:45.200
seem to matter anymore. There's that sensor peace spreads through

2546
08:22:45.319 --> 08:22:58.959
your mind like a gentle breeze, Yes, strong enough to

2547
08:22:59.159 --> 08:23:15.400
blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your

2548
08:23:15.520 --> 08:23:33.360
mind any anxiety or stress that was there before, and

2549
08:23:33.639 --> 08:23:44.319
blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't

2550
08:23:44.680 --> 08:24:13.919
fit with the sense relaxation. It's feeling your body and

2551
08:24:14.240 --> 08:24:34.279
your mind. Unless you focus on your mind and count

2552
08:24:34.400 --> 08:24:40.479
down from ten down to one, and with each number

2553
08:24:41.040 --> 08:25:07.959
you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed, just

2554
08:25:08.400 --> 08:25:16.439
just slightly so. From ten down to nine, just a

2555
08:25:16.680 --> 08:25:26.040
slight movement, from nine down to eight, just another small

2556
08:25:30.520 --> 08:25:43.200
change in how you feel. Eight down to seven. That

2557
08:25:43.560 --> 08:25:49.439
feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

2558
08:25:49.799 --> 08:25:58.799
to get wider, the gap between those feelings that you

2559
08:25:59.080 --> 08:26:06.400
used to have in your mind compared to the feelings

2560
08:26:06.560 --> 08:26:14.479
you have, the growing now feelings of comfort and security

2561
08:26:14.799 --> 08:26:26.080
and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down to seven,

2562
08:26:26.479 --> 08:26:35.279
seven down to six. When you get to five, the

2563
08:26:35.560 --> 08:26:49.159
mind will start to have a certain physical sensation, most

2564
08:26:49.319 --> 08:26:55.560
like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking the

2565
08:26:55.799 --> 08:27:02.240
tension and stress and any remaining feelings that you don't want,

2566
08:27:04.279 --> 08:27:13.319
sucking them out through your skull. And in down to

2567
08:27:13.599 --> 08:27:21.000
four you can start to really experience that sense of

2568
08:27:22.560 --> 08:27:38.720
not just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air, place.

2569
08:27:38.479 --> 08:27:40.159
Where you can stretch.

2570
08:27:43.639 --> 08:27:46.319
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2571
08:27:47.080 --> 08:27:55.919
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

2572
08:27:56.599 --> 08:28:08.799
peace and tranquility growing as it moves down to When

2573
08:28:08.840 --> 08:28:18.240
you get to one, your mind just feels exactly how

2574
08:28:18.360 --> 08:28:37.400
you want to feel, almost a perfect feeling, maybe the

2575
08:28:37.599 --> 08:28:46.639
sensation that you'd like to keep a place that's safe,

2576
08:28:47.680 --> 08:29:07.959
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2577
08:29:08.159 --> 08:29:17.119
stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2578
08:29:17.279 --> 08:29:23.720
in your own ability to create this space and this

2579
08:29:25.080 --> 08:29:31.439
feeling of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2580
08:29:32.560 --> 08:29:41.400
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2581
08:29:41.520 --> 08:29:50.560
can do yourself when you're on your own the time

2582
08:29:50.720 --> 08:29:54.240
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2583
08:29:54.319 --> 08:30:07.000
few minutes, close your eyes. It just counts slowly from

2584
08:30:07.240 --> 08:30:21.599
ten down to one and re experience these feelings in

2585
08:30:21.759 --> 08:30:30.599
your mind. And when you feel that way in your mind,

2586
08:30:32.360 --> 08:30:46.639
your body copies your mind, and the feeling is spread

2587
08:30:46.880 --> 08:30:54.080
through your spine and your nervous system into every part

2588
08:30:54.400 --> 08:31:07.119
of your body, travels through your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing

2589
08:31:09.319 --> 08:31:28.159
every particle of your existence. And we can practice this

2590
08:31:28.520 --> 08:31:36.560
a few times before the end of the recording, and

2591
08:31:36.639 --> 08:31:42.880
then you can practice on your own. At each time

2592
08:31:43.799 --> 08:31:55.799
you countfort ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2593
08:31:56.040 --> 08:32:14.479
and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your

2594
08:32:15.759 --> 08:32:24.959
mind and your brain with these positive chemicals, the spread

2595
08:32:25.319 --> 08:32:34.959
throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole

2596
08:32:35.240 --> 08:32:47.319
body and mind so very, very easily just by counting

2597
08:32:49.240 --> 08:32:59.560
ten down to one. So we're going to do now,

2598
08:33:00.439 --> 08:33:04.360
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2599
08:33:04.560 --> 08:33:08.880
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2600
08:33:08.919 --> 08:33:17.479
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2601
08:33:23.119 --> 08:33:32.439
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2602
08:33:32.599 --> 08:33:42.119
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2603
08:33:42.240 --> 08:33:58.080
can repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in

2604
08:33:58.279 --> 08:34:06.240
comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body

2605
08:34:12.200 --> 08:34:21.680
the same. Wanna say eight, Want I say seven, six,

2606
08:34:24.080 --> 08:34:38.520
I want to say five, four, when I say three, two,

2607
08:34:42.919 --> 08:34:56.720
and lastly want to say one? Can you be that number? Now?

2608
08:34:56.840 --> 08:35:02.919
Of course, when you do this your own without listening

2609
08:35:03.000 --> 08:35:09.599
to me, you can say the numbers or whatever speed

2610
08:35:10.479 --> 08:35:18.479
that you feel is necessary for you, so you can adapt.

2611
08:35:20.840 --> 08:35:24.319
So if you feel you want to say the numbers

2612
08:35:24.599 --> 08:35:31.439
ten down to one faster than I do, then you

2613
08:35:31.560 --> 08:35:35.319
go ahead and do that. Or if you feel when

2614
08:35:35.360 --> 08:35:39.080
you do it yourself that you'd like to have more

2615
08:35:40.919 --> 08:35:47.479
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer

2616
08:35:48.759 --> 08:35:54.639
to get from ten all the way down to one,

2617
08:35:58.840 --> 08:36:11.400
that's your choice. Will say it today. So I'm gonna

2618
08:36:11.520 --> 08:36:20.319
count from ten down to one. I'm gonna get to one.

2619
08:36:21.680 --> 08:36:27.200
That will be the end of this recording. And that's,

2620
08:36:27.240 --> 08:36:31.200
of course you're listening to music, and the music will

2621
08:36:31.279 --> 08:36:52.799
continue ten nine.

2622
08:37:17.560 --> 08:40:10.319
Fo assassa.

2623
08:40:14.680 --> 08:42:02.400
U s u h u u u u twenty nineteen eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten,

2624
08:42:07.159 --> 08:42:57.520
nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now

2625
08:42:57.599 --> 08:43:08.479
open eyes, noticing how you physically feel having counted down

2626
08:43:08.560 --> 08:43:16.439
from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension to leave

2627
08:43:16.599 --> 08:43:21.119
through your fingertips and your toes. And as you focus

2628
08:43:21.240 --> 08:43:26.240
on your fingertips, maybe they feel a little bit tingly,

2629
08:43:28.520 --> 08:43:34.000
which is I suppose quite understanding, considering attention has been

2630
08:43:34.720 --> 08:43:44.040
exiting your body through your fingertips. So now I'm going

2631
08:43:44.119 --> 08:43:47.119
to count from twenty down to one again. This time

2632
08:43:51.439 --> 08:43:57.200
you got to feel relief of tension and stress, an

2633
08:43:57.360 --> 08:44:09.439
anxiety that you may have leaving through your stomach. Just

2634
08:44:10.000 --> 08:44:14.720
leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just releasing.

2635
08:44:16.360 --> 08:44:21.720
The whole of your stomach will enable to just above

2636
08:44:21.799 --> 08:44:25.799
your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding your

2637
08:44:25.880 --> 08:44:30.840
beny by an area. The whole area. You can feel

2638
08:44:31.040 --> 08:44:36.400
the tension of your body where it's left just releasing

2639
08:44:37.599 --> 08:44:40.919
from the area, and you may notice that your stomach

2640
08:44:41.000 --> 08:44:47.080
will become very relaxed as I count down from twenty

2641
08:44:48.040 --> 08:45:49.000
down to one. Now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine,

2642
08:45:53.759 --> 08:46:30.360
eight seven six by ooh three two what And you

2643
08:46:30.400 --> 08:46:33.000
can open your eyes again if you choose, but you

2644
08:46:33.000 --> 08:46:38.880
can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing. Just

2645
08:46:39.040 --> 08:46:44.240
notice saying your stomach. Girls, notice as your focus, just

2646
08:46:45.040 --> 08:46:49.319
do a little scan of your body. It's not to

2647
08:46:49.400 --> 08:47:02.560
say your body els. Focusing on upper body, back, chest, stomach, left, exams, hands, feet,

2648
08:47:05.599 --> 08:47:12.520
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2649
08:47:15.000 --> 08:47:18.799
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2650
08:47:18.919 --> 08:47:23.439
reason you're listening to this. He called in because you

2651
08:47:24.479 --> 08:47:29.599
would like to let go completely of everything.

2652
08:47:31.599 --> 08:47:32.759
And drift.

2653
08:47:33.959 --> 08:47:49.360
Off into a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now

2654
08:47:49.479 --> 08:47:59.119
we're gonna focus on your forehead, and if you choose,

2655
08:47:59.240 --> 08:48:02.479
you can call create your eyes in this focus as well.

2656
08:48:04.319 --> 08:48:09.759
Your forehead and your eyes. It's that whole area basically,

2657
08:48:10.720 --> 08:48:13.639
almost as if you were wearing a mask, you know,

2658
08:48:13.840 --> 08:48:18.200
like a I don't know, a Batman mask or something,

2659
08:48:19.119 --> 08:48:23.959
or I'm trying to zorrow or something, you know, the

2660
08:48:24.080 --> 08:48:27.159
kind of mask that covers your eyes but also covers

2661
08:48:27.240 --> 08:48:33.479
quite a lot of the forehead. We're focusing on that area,

2662
08:48:34.000 --> 08:48:36.279
because that's the area that we're now going to release

2663
08:48:37.200 --> 08:48:42.720
tension and stress from your mind and your brain, from

2664
08:48:42.799 --> 08:48:47.000
your mind, and any tension that you may have remaining

2665
08:48:47.159 --> 08:48:52.479
your face, in your neck and your jaw, and your eyes,

2666
08:48:53.319 --> 08:49:00.279
your forehead or your scalp. So basically any tension your

2667
08:49:00.400 --> 08:49:08.880
head area, including your mind and your brain that's going

2668
08:49:08.959 --> 08:49:17.200
to be released. Three or fourhead in your eyes as

2669
08:49:17.240 --> 08:49:23.439
a countdown a game from twenty down to one now

2670
08:49:25.919 --> 08:50:43.919
twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2671
08:50:49.520 --> 08:51:19.159
four three. What noticing as she scanned your face, the jaw,

2672
08:51:19.720 --> 08:51:28.560
your eyes, the cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

2673
08:51:30.200 --> 08:51:33.840
your neck, the back of your neck, in the front

2674
08:51:33.919 --> 08:51:38.119
of your neck, the side of your neck, and her throat.

2675
08:51:40.360 --> 08:51:40.720
M hm.

2676
08:51:44.040 --> 08:51:55.119
Noticing being aware of the comfort increased in the relaxation,

2677
08:51:57.240 --> 08:52:02.119
not just in your head and neck and mind, also

2678
08:52:02.639 --> 08:52:12.119
the rest of your body. It is how loose and

2679
08:52:12.439 --> 08:52:16.040
calm you feel, how easily.

2680
08:52:17.840 --> 08:52:19.360
It is to just let go.

2681
08:52:22.159 --> 08:52:46.360
Completely, let go completely, how easily so I'm going to

2682
08:52:46.439 --> 08:52:50.040
do now, is I want to focus on the top

2683
08:52:50.119 --> 08:52:57.560
of your head. How are we going to allow.

2684
08:52:58.880 --> 08:53:00.919
Every asked.

2685
08:53:02.319 --> 08:53:08.400
Piece of tension or stress that might be lingering or

2686
08:53:08.599 --> 08:53:14.880
hiding in your body or mind my head to just

2687
08:53:16.680 --> 08:53:23.040
be sucked out at the top of your head at least.

2688
08:53:26.759 --> 08:53:33.959
And yeah, I wanta sat down into the clouds. Imagine

2689
08:53:33.959 --> 08:53:35.240
a people loud.

2690
08:53:35.000 --> 08:53:35.799
Of gop your head.

2691
08:53:38.000 --> 08:53:40.200
It's like a whirlpool and.

2692
08:53:40.279 --> 08:53:44.560
This is gonna suck that at tension out of the

2693
08:53:44.720 --> 08:53:45.799
top of your head.

2694
08:53:47.919 --> 08:53:56.840
And just take away the good to focus. Imagine an

2695
08:53:56.959 --> 08:54:01.279
opening on the top of your head with a tension

2696
08:54:01.400 --> 08:54:07.279
and stress and in remaining issues maybe worries of concerns

2697
08:54:07.479 --> 08:54:11.240
that are no use to you. Now you can all

2698
08:54:11.400 --> 08:54:15.319
be sucked down at the top of your head and

2699
08:54:15.599 --> 08:54:21.919
taken away. As I count down again from twenty down

2700
08:54:22.119 --> 08:55:41.560
to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, even, ten, nine,

2701
08:55:48.040 --> 08:56:10.720
eight seven six by four.

2702
08:56:14.479 --> 08:56:19.479
Two j.

2703
08:56:24.759 --> 08:56:51.360
Wa bream noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm

2704
08:56:53.639 --> 08:57:07.759
physically and mentally felt right now, how peace or your

2705
08:57:08.000 --> 08:57:14.279
mind feels. It feel so nice to just let go,

2706
08:57:16.560 --> 08:57:25.880
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

2707
08:57:30.720 --> 08:57:35.560
and just to take a break from all that pointless

2708
08:57:35.759 --> 08:57:41.240
worry and concerns about things that you don't need to

2709
08:57:41.360 --> 08:57:51.959
think about right now, because this is your time to

2710
08:57:52.200 --> 08:57:59.840
let go. This is your space to enjoy feeling deep,

2711
08:58:00.080 --> 08:58:07.119
be relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in your body.

2712
08:58:10.279 --> 08:58:19.200
It can feel so good, so nice to just not

2713
08:58:19.520 --> 08:58:28.560
have to do anything, to be able to really enjoy

2714
08:58:30.279 --> 08:58:39.080
that serenity that comes and letting go completely, that peacefulness

2715
08:58:39.279 --> 08:58:56.840
that comes with m being in this peaceful space. And

2716
08:58:57.119 --> 08:59:01.840
you can keep this sense of calmness for as long

2717
08:59:01.959 --> 08:59:15.439
as you choose, if you choose to drift into a deep,

2718
08:59:16.319 --> 08:59:25.040
healing natural sleep, and you can do that, it's completely

2719
08:59:25.720 --> 08:59:33.080
up to you, and you can keep this feeling of

2720
08:59:33.279 --> 08:59:39.119
calmness physically, mean in your mind, as long as you

2721
08:59:39.360 --> 08:59:56.439
choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed. I'd like you

2722
08:59:56.680 --> 09:00:02.479
to make up your mind that you're going to relax.

2723
09:00:11.080 --> 09:00:14.360
I want to explore that with you. What it feels

2724
09:00:14.520 --> 09:00:21.360
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

2725
09:00:23.000 --> 09:00:29.439
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. I guess it

2726
09:00:29.560 --> 09:00:32.200
is a command, really, isn't it. When you're telling yourself

2727
09:00:34.240 --> 09:00:41.639
relax in a gentle but firm way, that only you

2728
09:00:41.959 --> 09:00:46.880
can really tell you something in that way. You can't

2729
09:00:46.919 --> 09:00:51.080
really have someone else saying to you now it relax, relax,

2730
09:00:51.720 --> 09:00:55.439
you know, and it needs to be gentle. But you

2731
09:00:55.520 --> 09:01:02.599
can't someone else can't really have the same the same

2732
09:01:02.799 --> 09:01:10.279
kind of influence or power that you have over your

2733
09:01:10.479 --> 09:01:22.040
own physicality, over how you feel, because when you say

2734
09:01:22.080 --> 09:01:30.319
it to yourself, it means more. It's personal, and your

2735
09:01:30.479 --> 09:01:35.680
brain and your unconscious mind and your body listens to

2736
09:01:35.840 --> 09:01:41.479
what you say. So, for example, we'll test it out

2737
09:01:42.119 --> 09:01:44.599
and do a little test, a few little tests along

2738
09:01:44.639 --> 09:01:48.360
the way, and you can get more of an idea

2739
09:01:48.599 --> 09:01:54.680
of the force, a positive force that you can have

2740
09:01:56.080 --> 09:02:02.400
in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation in your

2741
09:02:02.479 --> 09:02:09.680
body and your mind quite quickly just by you telling

2742
09:02:09.799 --> 09:02:19.759
yourself to relax. So I'm going to start by it's

2743
09:02:19.840 --> 09:02:25.759
focus on your hands. To focus on your hands and

2744
09:02:25.919 --> 09:02:30.639
just tell your hands to relax, and just say relax.

2745
09:02:32.279 --> 09:02:37.680
As you focus on your hands, you could say my

2746
09:02:38.000 --> 09:02:41.759
hands are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax.

2747
09:02:43.840 --> 09:02:49.599
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

2748
09:02:50.279 --> 09:02:54.479
and imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying,

2749
09:02:54.639 --> 09:02:57.639
you know, like they've got little ears lets a little weird.

2750
09:03:00.240 --> 09:03:10.599
So talking to your hands and just say relax, you know,

2751
09:03:10.799 --> 09:03:32.080
disin now your hands start to relax. Now focus on

2752
09:03:32.159 --> 09:03:36.200
your eyes and tell your eyes to relax. You just

2753
09:03:36.279 --> 09:03:41.119
say in the same word relax and find a right

2754
09:03:42.319 --> 09:03:49.080
tone for you. You know, I might say relax, but

2755
09:03:49.279 --> 09:03:57.520
you you might say relax or relax. You know, you

2756
09:03:57.639 --> 09:04:04.040
might say it differently to yourself, and that's important for

2757
09:04:04.200 --> 09:04:10.360
you to gauge what feels right for you. You just

2758
09:04:10.520 --> 09:04:15.479
tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

2759
09:04:16.000 --> 09:04:20.720
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

2760
09:04:20.959 --> 09:04:56.439
just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now, I just

2761
09:04:56.560 --> 09:05:06.840
did that myself, And sometimes you may feel that you

2762
09:05:07.040 --> 09:05:12.479
need a bit more time or the different parts to relax,

2763
09:05:13.319 --> 09:05:17.200
you know, because I start talking again and maybe that

2764
09:05:17.400 --> 09:05:21.240
part hasn't relaxed fully. But what happened is that will

2765
09:05:21.319 --> 09:05:25.639
just continue to relax even though I'm talking. And that's

2766
09:05:25.759 --> 09:05:33.319
happening with my eyes. Something else I noticed is when

2767
09:05:33.360 --> 09:05:37.520
I started focused on my eyes, they actually almost became

2768
09:05:37.639 --> 09:05:39.799
They got worse before they got better in a way.

2769
09:05:40.520 --> 09:05:44.000
So I felt a degree of tension growing in my eyes.

2770
09:05:45.639 --> 09:05:50.000
And then disappearing. So I think what that was really

2771
09:05:50.240 --> 09:05:56.119
is just me becoming more aware of the tension that

2772
09:05:56.319 --> 09:06:00.439
was already there that I wasn't I wasn't focused on

2773
09:06:00.520 --> 09:06:10.199
it before, so wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious

2774
09:06:10.319 --> 09:06:23.680
to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still continuing to relax,

2775
09:06:24.319 --> 09:06:30.000
as well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

2776
09:06:30.040 --> 09:06:36.199
a certain kind of energy. I cannot bush, but I

2777
09:06:36.319 --> 09:06:41.400
can kind of feel a degree of energy in my hands.

2778
09:06:44.639 --> 09:06:49.319
Maybe that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's

2779
09:06:49.319 --> 09:06:59.639
supportsing that. The next part, I think we should focus.

2780
09:06:59.400 --> 09:07:00.360
On the back of the neck.

2781
09:07:01.040 --> 09:07:04.959
That's a part of which quite often, or for me,

2782
09:07:05.440 --> 09:07:08.519
holds tension. I don't know about it for yourself, but

2783
09:07:08.639 --> 09:07:12.879
I think it's quite a standard place where tension is

2784
09:07:13.000 --> 09:07:19.839
sometimes held. So, and I'm doing exactly what you're doing

2785
09:07:20.319 --> 09:07:22.400
as you do it as well, So I'm telling my

2786
09:07:23.360 --> 09:07:26.760
body parts to relax as well. So if you tell

2787
09:07:26.800 --> 09:07:29.760
your neck the back of your neck, focus on the

2788
09:07:29.839 --> 09:07:36.480
back of your neck and just say relax in your

2789
09:07:36.519 --> 09:07:39.480
own words and your own tone, in your own voice.

2790
09:07:40.160 --> 09:07:41.080
You can say out.

2791
09:07:40.959 --> 09:07:44.599
Loud, or you can just say it to yourself internally,

2792
09:07:45.519 --> 09:07:50.519
but you're focusing and you're saying it literally to the back.

2793
09:07:50.360 --> 09:07:53.120
Of your neck, as if the back of your neck

2794
09:07:53.239 --> 09:07:59.599
can actually hear what you're seeing. So you do that

2795
09:07:59.720 --> 09:08:03.160
now to say the legs to the back of your neck,

2796
09:08:04.319 --> 09:08:45.519
and I'll do the same. And what I noticed, and

2797
09:08:45.959 --> 09:08:47.120
you may have had.

2798
09:08:47.000 --> 09:08:52.080
A similar thing. Yes, even those focusing on the back

2799
09:08:52.160 --> 09:09:03.080
of the neck, other parts started to I don't know,

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09:09:03.440 --> 09:09:06.839
showed themselves to me or maybe because they want to

2801
09:09:06.879 --> 09:09:10.720
be relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings

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09:09:10.800 --> 09:09:14.199
in my shoulders, attention in my shoulders and in my

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09:09:14.319 --> 09:09:21.559
upper back. Whether that was because my back of my

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09:09:21.680 --> 09:09:27.480
neck was saying I'm pretty much okay, it's the other

2805
09:09:27.639 --> 09:09:36.919
parts that need attention, but my low my back of

2806
09:09:36.959 --> 09:09:41.199
my neck is still relaxing. But I just became aware

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09:09:41.279 --> 09:09:47.919
of other parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen,

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09:09:48.080 --> 09:09:52.959
and it's not. It doesn't mean that it's going any wrong.

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09:09:53.120 --> 09:09:59.800
It just means you're being notified with more places all.

2810
09:10:00.000 --> 09:10:05.559
So you want to feel relaxed, So I'm going.

2811
09:10:05.559 --> 09:10:09.680
To focus on my other back. So you can do

2812
09:10:09.800 --> 09:10:15.559
the same. Even if you don't have any feelings of

2813
09:10:15.720 --> 09:10:20.599
tension that obvious in your upper back, do you just

2814
09:10:20.760 --> 09:10:25.639
focus on your back and the whole area from the

2815
09:10:25.839 --> 09:10:30.680
shoulder blades down to the middle of your back and

2816
09:10:30.879 --> 09:10:35.919
your spine. And with me, it's more the shoulder blades more.

2817
09:10:40.639 --> 09:10:46.080
Yeah, that's the parts that really sort of giving me.

2818
09:10:47.800 --> 09:10:48.519
The nod.

2819
09:10:50.040 --> 09:10:52.319
That it needs relax in the sounds. Go to ask

2820
09:10:52.440 --> 09:10:55.720
that part to relax, and you can do the same.

2821
09:10:55.800 --> 09:11:22.559
Now relapsed at upper back. Something strange happened there.

2822
09:11:23.080 --> 09:11:23.360
And this.

2823
09:11:24.839 --> 09:11:31.040
Often happens, and I'm doing this for sixteen years or something,

2824
09:11:31.760 --> 09:11:40.919
and often one surprised, amaze, really bad. There can be

2825
09:11:41.000 --> 09:11:45.360
a feeling. So when I was focusing on the back

2826
09:11:45.400 --> 09:11:49.639
of my neck, my upper back was starting to feel

2827
09:11:49.760 --> 09:11:55.879
quite stressed and in need of attention. As soon as

2828
09:11:55.919 --> 09:11:59.839
I started talking to you about my upper back and

2829
09:12:01.040 --> 09:12:04.760
talking about, you know, getting ready to ask the other

2830
09:12:04.879 --> 09:12:09.680
bat to relax, why the back already started to relax.

2831
09:12:12.480 --> 09:12:15.559
It's almost as if it doesn't need to hear the words,

2832
09:12:16.519 --> 09:12:34.279
just needs detention, just needs to be noticed. And that

2833
09:12:34.480 --> 09:12:40.199
is something that often happens in this type of situation,

2834
09:12:42.000 --> 09:12:47.279
is when you start to relax a couple of parts

2835
09:12:47.319 --> 09:12:52.680
of your body, as we've done with our hands, the eyes,

2836
09:12:52.919 --> 09:12:54.360
that eyelids.

2837
09:12:55.599 --> 09:13:02.559
And now back of the neck, top of the bag

2838
09:13:04.480 --> 09:13:05.040
at the bank.

2839
09:13:06.360 --> 09:13:10.360
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

2840
09:13:13.080 --> 09:13:21.400
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

2841
09:13:21.519 --> 09:13:31.360
parts of your body start to just become looser. I

2842
09:13:31.440 --> 09:13:34.120
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche.

2843
09:13:34.319 --> 09:13:39.040
You know, the little ball starts rolling, and before you

2844
09:13:39.160 --> 09:13:42.160
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

2845
09:13:42.199 --> 09:13:58.879
and can't And if you focus on your face, you

2846
09:13:59.040 --> 09:14:05.599
focus on your eye, is the eyelids, your eyebrows, and

2847
09:14:06.559 --> 09:14:08.800
the muscles around your eyes.

2848
09:14:13.639 --> 09:14:15.360
And maybe you start to notice that.

2849
09:14:17.080 --> 09:14:22.160
Your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your

2850
09:14:22.279 --> 09:14:28.080
face is more relaxed. I would say my entire face

2851
09:14:28.239 --> 09:14:42.839
is a lot more relaxed than it was. So you're

2852
09:14:42.839 --> 09:14:48.639
going to focus now on your shoulders. It came just

2853
09:14:48.800 --> 09:14:54.040
like before, just to your shoulders. You can't do them

2854
09:14:54.080 --> 09:14:56.319
in the ditchit. You can do the right shoulder and

2855
09:14:56.360 --> 09:14:57.000
the shoulder.

2856
09:14:58.559 --> 09:15:00.680
I just didn't do both the same time.

2857
09:15:02.760 --> 09:15:06.000
Just tell your shoulders as you focus on them in

2858
09:15:06.080 --> 09:15:10.760
your mind, focus somehow you feel maybe.

2859
09:15:11.839 --> 09:15:14.519
You can see them in your mind's eye.

2860
09:15:18.080 --> 09:16:02.800
Just tell your shoulders to relax as nice as they relax.

2861
09:16:13.199 --> 09:16:21.040
But I didn't you notice, especially with my back, is

2862
09:16:21.519 --> 09:16:27.400
the connection between the different parts the back, the shoulders,

2863
09:16:27.519 --> 09:16:37.879
the neck being reconnected and being such a large part

2864
09:16:37.919 --> 09:16:43.919
of your body, it's always hard to separate them from

2865
09:16:44.000 --> 09:16:52.000
each other. And when lower back is starting to relax

2866
09:16:52.120 --> 09:17:00.559
on the same maybe you're going to flow.

2867
09:17:02.800 --> 09:17:06.120
And that could be an issue because we will go

2868
09:17:06.239 --> 09:17:07.480
at different speeds.

2869
09:17:09.720 --> 09:17:13.839
And the idea of the beginning of this recording was

2870
09:17:13.919 --> 09:17:16.400
for you to be able to just say to yourself,

2871
09:17:19.959 --> 09:17:32.720
relax without focusing on any particular part of your body.

2872
09:17:35.000 --> 09:17:37.800
Because when you know that tenning your.

2873
09:17:38.040 --> 09:17:51.400
Hands to relax, your hands relax, you tell your eyelids

2874
09:17:52.680 --> 09:17:58.360
and your eyes, the muscles around your eyes and your

2875
09:17:58.440 --> 09:18:17.760
eyebrows to relax, they relax too. Backup your neck too, relax,

2876
09:18:23.199 --> 09:18:59.639
relaxes until you're opa back to relas did relaxes, until

2877
09:18:59.680 --> 09:19:03.199
your shoulders to relax.

2878
09:19:13.760 --> 09:19:40.080
That they relaxed. And you told your hands to relax,

2879
09:19:40.919 --> 09:19:45.720
they relaxed, and they continued to relax.

2880
09:19:51.559 --> 09:19:57.199
And you told your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

2881
09:19:58.199 --> 09:20:10.120
the winds relax, they relaxed and continued to relax.

2882
09:20:16.519 --> 09:20:19.919
When you told at the back of your neck, you

2883
09:20:20.040 --> 09:20:20.599
s the back of.

2884
09:20:20.639 --> 09:20:21.239
Your neck.

2885
09:20:24.760 --> 09:20:36.680
And told it to relax. They relaxed and continued to relax.

2886
09:20:44.839 --> 09:20:51.080
And you told you are out the back to relax.

2887
09:20:53.080 --> 09:20:55.919
They relaxed and continued.

2888
09:20:57.879 --> 09:21:08.080
To relax, as with your shoulders.

2889
09:21:10.680 --> 09:21:19.040
Told your shoulders to relax, and shoulders relaxed, and me

2890
09:21:24.360 --> 09:21:35.680
to relax. And it's not just that, it's.

2891
09:21:38.360 --> 09:21:42.760
But the rest of your body is also been listening,

2892
09:21:44.480 --> 09:21:47.400
and that relaxation has been spreading.

2893
09:21:49.559 --> 09:21:53.680
So from your eyes to relaxation, spread to your bullhead,

2894
09:21:56.559 --> 09:21:58.599
around your face, into.

2895
09:21:58.400 --> 09:22:11.680
Your skin, into your jure, on to the front of.

2896
09:22:11.639 --> 09:22:12.919
The side of the knee.

2897
09:22:14.519 --> 09:22:17.480
Only damn chest and stony.

2898
09:22:24.199 --> 09:22:28.279
Lepsed hands and shoulders, the.

2899
09:22:28.440 --> 09:22:51.760
Top three the ms, upper elbows, wrists, letty with no

2900
09:22:52.080 --> 09:23:09.120
back hips. That's explaining. Just start to relax, Yeah, stepping

2901
09:23:09.319 --> 09:23:10.480
from your legs.

2902
09:23:15.319 --> 09:23:16.440
Oh way down.

2903
09:23:23.519 --> 09:23:30.360
Tops of your feet beside the bottoms of the.

2904
09:23:34.800 --> 09:23:50.279
Lele h.

2905
09:24:06.199 --> 09:24:09.879
And it should putting you that is worn to mind

2906
09:24:11.720 --> 09:24:24.519
as peaceful.

2907
09:24:31.879 --> 09:24:32.559
The pot.

2908
09:24:37.160 --> 09:24:54.319
Cheese, he said.

2909
09:24:56.319 --> 09:25:04.279
The way because it's not in your word.

2910
09:25:07.760 --> 09:25:53.400
The pay's peaceful body teams to vacation between body macin

2911
09:25:53.879 --> 09:26:08.040
the word you say to yourself, yes, I think that.

2912
09:26:10.680 --> 09:26:11.319
Is just.

2913
09:26:14.360 --> 09:26:19.440
Its fight song and body.

2914
09:26:25.680 --> 09:26:43.120
Saying ye, it's s.

2915
09:26:49.400 --> 09:26:55.279
Sensentuals Story.

2916
09:27:03.519 --> 09:27:14.160
Bs T.

2917
09:27:17.800 --> 09:27:17.839
E.

2918
09:28:23.440 --> 09:29:08.199
Thirty Now, ninety ninety eighteen seventeen six.

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09:30:00.279 --> 09:35:02.319
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