June 29, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Sunday Summary | LMBYTS #1384 | Jason Newland | 29th June 2025
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Hello, oh, welcome to Sweaty Heatwave. My name's Sweaty Heatwave.

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My website is Sweatyheatwave dot com. Bla blur. It's hot.

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It's hot, hot, hot, hot, hot hot hot. I can't

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take video out until it gets cooler down because it'll

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be too hot for him out there, so he's stuck

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inside with me me. So yeah. Jasonnewland dot com is

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my website. My name is Jason Newland. Please I'm listen

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when you can safely close your eyes. And Vinnie has

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spotted a fly? Is it a same fly from last year?

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Vin same fly has been visited ten years now, it's

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been visiting us ten years. On breeze to chase the

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same fly. Eyes hot, I'm gonna scrunch my T shirt

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T shirt, T shirt up so my bellies feeling the

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cool breeze. There's a little bit of a cool breeze

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coming in through the window a little bit. Well, it's

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a breeze. I don't know if it's cool, but it's breezy.

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I'm just gonna imagine it's cool. I mean, technically, I

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don't have to take all my clothes off because once

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I kind of expose my belly area. That's about ninety

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five percent of my body, isn't it so? Oh lovely?

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By the way, there's any single women out there that

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looking for a new boyfriend, Oh, come and let me

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know me and my big wobbly belly war Okay, I'll

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stop now. Whoops. I want to say thank you to

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Tammy for your PayPal gift. Thank you very much. And

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it's Sunday, the uh, I don't know what the date is.

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I think it's a twenty ninth of or the thirtieth.

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It's either the twenty ninth the thirtieth of June twenty

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twenty five, because the first of July is Tuesday, and

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it's Sunday today. So if there's thirty one days in June,

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then this is the thirtieth today. If there's thirty days

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in June than today's or twenty ninth.

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Were you the April, May, June, September, thirty days in

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fourth for the bed member?

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I don't. I can't remember the rhyme. I can't remember

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the rhyme. I don't. I don't remember it. But I've

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told you a thousand times. Yeah, Unfortunately, when you start

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telling me something that I'm not interested in my brain

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shuts down. Sorry, I can't help it. Oh, my friend's

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still in hospital. I haven't been there this week end. Today,

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Alvin is you're gonna hear me shuffling about a bit

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because he's hunting the fly today. Sunday is very, very

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difficult to travel anywhere unless you have a car of

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your own, and I was not going to ask neighbors

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for help today because it's Sunday, you know. So this

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is going to be like my summary of the week.

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That's what I'm going to talk about, although I kind

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of went quite in depth, but there's probably stuff I've

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forgotten that I didn't mention. So the buses and the

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trains are not very regular on a Sunday Saturday. I needed.

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I needed to not go in yesterday. I needed a break.

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I just needed a little bit of time with my

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little baby boy over here. And I think he needed

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that because he's been acting strange towards me, especially the

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last few days before, you know, I had some time

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until I was back. For example, it's not really eating

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much at the moment, but that's I'm guessing that's down

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to the heat. A lot of that however, However, however, However,

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he stopped sleeping in bed with me again. It could

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be partially to do the heat, but he was just

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sitting down on the floor staring at me. There was

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he had definitely had an issue with me, really like

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he didn't he was angry or whatever. So I managed

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to get him back in the bedroom me and he's

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fine again, but for a few days. I mean, I

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woke up the other day he wasn't even in the

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same room because in the living room. He does do

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that occasionally, but it's rare, it's very rare. And I

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was starting to think. I wonder if I kicked him

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out of bed in my sleep one night and it

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upset him. I was in my sleep. I didn't I'm

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not responsible for what I do when I'm asleep. I

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might have been a bit having a dream or something,

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dreaming I was a dad daddy leg long lick leg

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long a long leg, daddy long leg juggling or something.

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I don't know, and so I might have just acted.

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He kicked him out of the bed, and he might

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have he might have been a shock to him, because

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if he was asleep, and you know, he's got every

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right to be annoyed with me. For that, But at

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the same time, I would never do that. If I don't,

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I might do No, I wouldn't. I would never do

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that if I was awake, not necessarily really annoyed me. No,

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I would never do that. A little boy. It's only

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little Linnie. It's only little baby.

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It's my little baby, my little baby, my little baby.

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Vinny Vinnie, Vinnie Vinnie. He's a big grumpy as well.

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I think the heat's got him a little bit. I

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don't care too much about the heat. Yeah, it's just

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heating it. I've been warmer, That's how I see it.

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It's like, you know what, I've been way hotter than

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this on numerous occasions. It's just just have to adapt.

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It's not all. It's not forever. It's just for I

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don't know, a few days if that, and then everyone's

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going to start complaining, Oh it's so cold. Guarantee you

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guarantee in October time, Guarantee people will be walking around saying,

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didn't you never summer? What happened to the summers? Almost

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it didn't exist completely, forgetting the fact that they couldn't

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leave the house because it was so hot. You could

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fry an egg on your head, especially baldies like me.

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It's like short term memory in it. That's what it is.

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So you know, I've been to Thailand. This is cool

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in Thailand. This is not a hot day in time.

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And also I worked in a bakery, like a proper

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big industrial bakery when I was in my twenties that

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was hot all the time, like hot with all their otherns,

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ridiculously hot. So yeah, this this isn't really I'm not

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saying it's comfortable. I'm not hugely uncomfortable though, really, because

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I'm indoors, got the windows open, sitting down, just chatting

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with you, got me a little my little monkey lying

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by my feet, huge jelly belly. It wabbles even when

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I sit still, m m m. If you haven't met me,

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you probably think, wow, what I thought you said he

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was massively fat. Well it's all I mean. You know,

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if you met me, you wouldn't think, oh, I didn't

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realize he was slim because I'm not slim. I had

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been doing some stomach exer Okay, I had been doing

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some stomach exercises until last Friday, when any kind of

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routine I had went up in pooh. Basically, although it's

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kind of strange because it's always like I've started a

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new routine, but I don't want I don't want this

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new routine really because it's involving going to a hospital

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every day, and that's not what let's face it, unless

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you work in the hospital, it's not what anyone wants

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to do is go to hospital every day. I mean,

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BlimE me, no, thank you, no, it's lovely, but of

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that enough now thanks, bye bye bye bye. Yeah not.

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I'm not even sure if I would make a very

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good patient, because that's pretty much where the word patients

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come from, isn't it. It's like he's a patient person.

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Any idea is to be because you have to wait

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around a lot, don't you if you're a patient and

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back in the old days. Is a little bit similar

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to how my neighbor is because he's been in there

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since Friday, so it's that Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday,

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Saturday Sunday, nine days he's been in there, and it's

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rare to be in hospital that long. Because there's a

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there's a term in this country, which is really there

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might be another countries. I'm not saying that we're special

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but we are. And it's a term which is being

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used by I don't know if it was created by

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the NHS, but it's definitely on news about the NHS

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and people that were in beds, So the lack of

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hospital bed availability to new patients, that's basically what this

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subject was. So people that were in beds were called

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bed blockers, which it's such a horrible term, you know,

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for someone that's unwell, Because someone a bed blocker, it's

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that's just like calling someone a coffin dodger, isn't it.

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It's you know, it's it's in the kind of it's

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in that ballpark. So he actually said to me, my neighbor, oh,

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I don't want to be in there because I'm just

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blocking the bed. And I said, if you were my size,

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you would be blocking the bed. You'd probably be breaking

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the bed, but you're not blocking anything. Yeah, but I

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should This bed could be used for someone that needs

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it more. So I'm like, okay, first of all, you're

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seventy eight years old, nearly you're nearly eighty years old.

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And I said, trust me, I'm not an expert on

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the NHS or anything, well anything, I'm not an expert

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on anything. However, I do know one thing about the

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NHS is they would not keep someone in the bed

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unless they had to less it was important they get

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people out quickly as possible. I mean, there was a

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time when if I hope it's okay and need to

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say woman, but when a woman gives birth, I hope

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that's not offended anyone back in I'm going to I mean,

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the last time I really had any contact with births

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was nineteen eighty when my little brother was born and

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she was in hospital for a few days, and it

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was just a standard birth. I don't think there was

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any not that I know of, any complications. I think

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she was a bit sore, like most people are, I guess,

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but when she pooed him out, she wasn't. There was

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nothing extra happening. But she was in hospital for probably

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three or four days probably, and then came out. And

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you know, nowadays, they're just like, as soon as you've

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had the baby, they wheel you out, it's okay, well,

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thanks by, and you're like, if they can ideal, if

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they will actually if you give birth in the ambulance,

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they just turn around and say you're home again. Seriously,

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I'm making it up seriously. I mean I had my

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appendix out when I was twelve, eleven twelve, I lose track,

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to be honest with you, I think about twelve ish

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and I was in hospital probably five or six days,

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maybe a whole week. Best time in my childhood. That

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was happiest moment, the happiest period of my life as

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a child. When I was in hospital strange and I

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literally I did have the time of my life. It

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was great. I mean there was parts I didn't enjoy,

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you know, like the pain being prodded around in that,

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but generally, you know, outside of the actual operation and

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the anesthetic, I had a jolly good time, jolly, jolly,

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jolly good time. I'm pretty sure that anyone had a

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kid having an operation now, providing everything goes to plan,

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they'll be out very fairly quickly. I've known people to

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have heart surgery and be out the next day. It's

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like what that used to be. Something you'd stay in

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hospital for weeks with, maybe even longer. It's changed, everything's

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changed so much. At this point, my neighbor said, you

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ain't half going on. I just said that I feel

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that I'm blocking the bed. I mean, you give me

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a lecture and I said, yeah, I know, how does

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it feel? How does it feel? Hey, how does it feel?

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You do it to me? Now I'm doing it to you.

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How do you feel being on the receiving end? And

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he bunched me, but I said, like, look, they wouldn't

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keep you in here unless they need to. It's I

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think it's fair, it's safe to say that. I think

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they don't keep people in hospital beds unless it's necessary.

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And I think what happened is the news bulletins. This

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is a few years back. I mean it might even

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be going twenty years fifteen ten, fifteen, twenty years ago,

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but there was a big focus on it and a

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massive guilt trip on people to the whole almost for

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being ill. People shouldn't feel guilty for being ill. It's ridiculous.

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And they even got to the point where they are saying, well,

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just don't go to the A and E unless you're

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really ill. Are you sure you need to go that

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this is the accident emergency? Are you sure you really

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need to go to the A and E? Don't block

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the A and E up, it's there for emergencies. And

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then they start giving examples of some people that would

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go in there because I don't know, I'm trying to

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think that's something really silly. But they'd always give the

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most extreme example as saying it's someone went in there

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because they wanted to order a taxi or something, you know,

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something said like that, or to they wanted to get

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a kebab. It's like, okay, there's going to be a kebab.

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There are going to be situations where someone walks into

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an emergency ward of a hospital and ask some how

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much for the suitcases or something like that, or I

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ordered where I need to get my dry cleaning done.

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It's going to happen occasionally, isn't it. But I wouldn't.

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I imagine it's not the norm. It's not the normal situation.

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But these news bulletins and even adverts they put on TV,

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you know, don't waste the NHA's time, don't go into

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the an unless it's an emergency. The thing is, most people,

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I'm guessing, you know, just from well I think it's

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a fair guess, But most people, I imagine are not medically trained.

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You know, the vast majority of people are not medically trained,

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or at least not enough to know whether something is

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an emergency. Now my friends in hospital. He feels absolutely fine.

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Now if it hadn't been for me, And I don't

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mean that as as you would just say it now,

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do it now, there's a he you will if you

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look inside your pants, right, we'll do that now, get

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that over and done with. If it hadn't been for me,

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and this is this is truth. I'm not saying it's

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nothing good about it. But he would still be in

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his home having fun, watching the sport. He'd know nothing

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about this. He'd know nothing if he doesn't look. He

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didn't have a mirror, he didn't know he was yellow,

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and he would have had hadn't spent the last nine

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year nine days in well. He thinks his prison, but

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it's honestly, he feels like he's locked up. But he

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wouldn't have been in hospital for the last nine days.

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But he also wouldn't have been having medication to help

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with his blood which is full of ammonia, which has

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caused him to be yellow. So who knows where he

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would be in nine you know, after nine days of

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no medication to help to clear that out of his blood.

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You know, he sort of goes different ways, doesn't it

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paramedics said it was the right thing to do. Everyone

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said it's everyone medical said it's the right thing to

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do to get him into the hospital, And the fact

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that he's still in there is kind of backing that up.

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I would say, but he had no physical symptoms, so

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that was an emergency situation and he didn't even know it. Now,

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I didn't call for an ambulance because I've still got

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that stuck in my head. Don't call for an ambulance

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unless it's an emergency. How are we supposed to know

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if something's an emergency. I was told that if someone

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turns yellow, that's a very serious situation. It's pretty much

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in most cases. I'm sure there are times when it's not.

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But you know, it's the liver. It's an organ malfunction.

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And I didn't realize that the pancreas, the gall bladder,

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and the liver were all connected and any of those

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organs could cause someone to go yellow. I didn't know.

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I've done a bit of research since since this all happened.

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Apparently we've only got one liver. I thought we had three.

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Just shows you what I know, So I think I didn't,

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you know, I ended up calling one one one, which

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is what they brought into play to stop people from

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wasting the emergency accident emergency time, or the ambulances time.

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And there are time wasters out there, of course, there

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are that always will be. I mean I went to

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I knew someone that worked or volunteered at the Samaritans.

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I've known a few people actually that have volunteered at Samaritans,

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especially people that were counselors when I was training and stuff.

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And I applied myself once that they turned me down,

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apparently something to do with not wearing any pants. But hey,

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I didn't know. I didn't think it was a normal interview.

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It's not always acceptable to take a pack lunch to

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a job interview. Where's the rules? Where's the rule book?

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No flasks of coffee? Apparently they get quite a few

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time wasters at the Samaritans. And again they don't promote this.

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The reason I don't promote it is because they don't

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want people to stop phoning up. By the way, the Samaritans.

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If you don't know what it is, it then might

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be a version in every country. I don't know. It's

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basically a helpline, it's a phone. It's some way that

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you can phone up and talk to someone about anything.

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You're not really phoning up to get help as such.

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You know, if you need an ambulance, you need to call

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for an ambulance. If you need a police, you need

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to call for the police. The Samaritans, I think they

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can signpost you to different places, but they're really just

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an ear for you. You can talk about whatever's going on,

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and I think it's proven its usefulness millions of times

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over now. I didn't know, I've never I think I

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might have called the Samaritans once. Actually, oh yeah, they

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were engaged. That's it. That's why I phoned phone once

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and they were engaged, which was just is weird and

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it the one time. But it's an amazing it's an

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amazing service. I didn't realize that some people phoned up.

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There's there's two I think probably two times. You could

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say three times. Three types of time wasters. But the

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Samaritans don't class it as time wasters because if they

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start putting adverts on TV saying only call if it's serious,

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only call, don't wait, you know, it would be so

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negative that a lot of people wouldn't phone up, thinking

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that they didn't need to and that phone call could

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be it could be life saving for that person. They

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might not even realize how much they needed to talk

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to someone, because some people have the need to have

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a conversation with a human being so or to feel

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that kind of communication, that connection, I guess, and I

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suppose also if you're living, it's almost living on their own,

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and things become normalized, don't they. So to have I've

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had that a little bit in the past where someone's

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found out what I'm doing and they're like, no, that's

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not normal. You know, that's not normal behavior. And I

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didn't realize. Now you're probably wondering what I'm talking about

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right now. It's nothing horrible. It's just I'm not going

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to tell you what it was. But the psychiatrist said, no,

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that's that's weird. I said, okay, okay. Apparently sticking if

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you put if you kneel down and put shoes on

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your knees to pretend to be really short and walk around,

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there's a thing you do that, but apparently it's weird

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if you do it around your house on your own,

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there's no one else around, it's and like just do

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that all the time. Apparently it's a strange thing to do. Yeah, okay,

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so there's three types of people that perhaps don't use

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the Samaritans in the best way potentially. But again I've

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always got a caveat for these. I've always got like

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a a defense for the people doing it sometimes. So

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one is they phone up to they use it as

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some kind of horny chat line. I think that's a

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that's a nice way of saying it, you know, one

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of those premium number chat lines. Some people use it

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like that. I know it's I was quite surprised at that,

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and I didn't think they could hear what I was doing.

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And then there's people that I guess are just sort

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of wind up, you know, they just sort of wind up.

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They just like I think it's funny just to mess

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around with people. There's always going to be those types around.

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And then there's the I suppose that they said they

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get some people that phone every single day and maybe

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they feel this, I don't know, they don't necessarily feel

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they're helping that person, but they don't know they might

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really be helping them. Yeah, they get on first name

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turns with some people that literally call up every single day,

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and if that's what they need then do it because

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that's what they're there for. They're there, it's a free service.

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And the way I say, I'm going from a different perspective.

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If I remember someone saying when I was doing the

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counseling training, someone said, there's whole theory about well, if

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someone comes in and just talks about it, talks absolutely

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rubbish for fifty minutes, a little bit like me now, really,

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but they come in and you know that, you know

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why they're come in. You already they've already had a

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phone conversation with the counseling service to find out what's

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going on with them and the reason why they have

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applied for counseling or the reason they're being sent by

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the doctor the counseling We're not going to have a

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full information, but it's going to have at least an idea.

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So let's say they're in there because I don't know

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for whatever thing, but maybe it's yeah, I can't think

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of anything that isn't problematic. But but then they come

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in and they end up talking about basketball or football,

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or they talk about UFOs, or they talk about dinosaurs

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for fifty minutes, or they come in and they just

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make stuff up blatantly just make stuff up. Now, this

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seemed to frustrate some of the other counselors, and I've

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read books and stuff as well on it, and some

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people get upset with it. Say, you know, some counseling

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books will say, well, you've got to bring them back

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to why they're there, You've got to get them focused

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on all that stuff, which I do understand. But I

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kind of figured out that actually, sometimes people need to

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use I suppose they can still be gaining benefit from

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talking to someone, even if it is it's got nothing

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to do with why they're there, maybe just that human

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human interaction, maybe sitting in a room with someone that

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is listening. And what I've noticed that in most cases,

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I mean it's going back a while now, they'd start

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talking about why they're there. Not always, but you know,

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something quite often, And I found that interesting that actually,

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I suppose you could say some people use metaphors stories.

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So maybe the given example, it's a little bit like

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say I need advice for a friend, and you pretty

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much always know that the person is talking about theirselves,

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don't you. So you know, if someone comes up to you,

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if it's someone you know that, or I need some

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advice for a friend, and he's thinking about getting an

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enlargement procedure, but he's not sure because he's seeing it

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on TV and he doesn't know whetheryone or it'd be

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safe if we're about getting a pump. But he didn't

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get it in the end, and he hasn't got a

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lot of money because you know, he's on benefits at

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the moment, and he's he's it's quite expensive, especially looking

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after his little dog, Vinnie. You know, if you make

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a mistake and if you give too much information away.

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But I think sometimes that's useful for counselors or for

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clients or other patients to do it in their own way.

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And I think, I guess that's what I'm saying with Samaritans.

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Sometimes if someone's just they're not even talking about their

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own life, it might help them sort out certain blockages

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in their mind or in their energies or whatever. I

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don't know blockages in their energies what you're talking about, Jay,

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I'm not one hundred percent sure. Yeah, I'll make it.

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I make most of what I say up. The video

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is about twelve inches away from the fly. He's staring

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at it. He wants it badly, so he's rested his

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He was rested his chin on my left leg, and

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the fly was on my right leg, and he was

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I guess he was thinking, do dogs think? I don't know.

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I found a new technique, by the way, to stop

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internal dialogue, to turn it off. It's not really a

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new way, but it's a new way for me focus

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on the wind or the breeze. Because I noticed always

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noticing new things about myself, and then sometimes I forget

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about the thing I've noticed, and then I noticed it

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again a few years later, and then I forget about

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it again, and then I noticed it again. Something that

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I've got a habit of doing is so if something happened.

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If something happens, it can be just the most simple thing,

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an interaction or a non interaction, or if someone with

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a dog they say something rude, which happens occasionally, Villy

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barks and maybe they don't like the fact that he's

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barking at their dog. And then I start thinking of

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all the different conversations I could have had with that person,

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how it could have gone. And I can go on

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for ages and then maybe I'll see them again, and

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I'll kind of keep my distance and I start imaging

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all the different scenarios and conversations I might have with

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them if I did see them, and it's weird, and

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I thought, you know what, I'll focus on the wind,

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the wind outside my pants, you know, in the air.

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He switches it off into to me. I sometimes I

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feel that I'm rehearsing, practicing, rehearsing what I'm going to say,

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you know, And I'm going to go out with Vin

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in a few hours, and I kind of know roughly

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who I'm going to see, what dogs are going to

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be there. And I realized sometimes I kind of rehearse

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things that I'm going to say to these people. And

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it's weird because I don't rehearse anything I'm going to

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say here. I don't really think about what I'm going

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to say until I start doing a recording, unless it's

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like a specific recording where I might have a little

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bit of information in front of me and stuff, but

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not to let me pull you to sleeps. But when

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I'm dealing with a human, I kind of it's almost like, actually,

464
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I think sometimes I just say the same thing to everyone,

465
00:38:14.559 --> 00:38:19.119
or it's hot today in it all, when there's one

466
00:38:19.400 --> 00:38:23.599
I was thing saying I was walking around after him

467
00:38:24.119 --> 00:38:29.079
after Vinnie and I had the Pooh bag on my hand.

468
00:38:30.079 --> 00:38:32.039
I was walking around and he literally took me on

469
00:38:32.119 --> 00:38:36.719
a It took me on a very long walk. So

470
00:38:36.719 --> 00:38:40.639
I saw about three different dog walkers during that journey

471
00:38:40.639 --> 00:38:44.199
of me just following him around the field finding somewhere

472
00:38:44.239 --> 00:38:48.199
to do a nice, big smelly one so I could

473
00:38:48.239 --> 00:38:51.960
pick it up. So I'm walking with him, walking behind

474
00:38:52.039 --> 00:38:55.679
him with this Pooh bag on my hand ready to use,

475
00:39:00.039 --> 00:39:03.159
and I thought to myself, I must look like the

476
00:39:03.159 --> 00:39:08.880
world's worst ventiloquist. You know, it's just because Pooh bag

477
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:12.800
on my head. So the next person I see, I

478
00:39:12.800 --> 00:39:15.840
say it to them, and then I say it to

479
00:39:15.880 --> 00:39:18.320
the next person. I say it three different people. I said,

480
00:39:18.360 --> 00:39:23.000
I must look like the worst world's worst ventiloquist. I

481
00:39:23.159 --> 00:39:26.320
just like I thought it's funny. So I think they

482
00:39:26.360 --> 00:39:30.400
did laugh. I'm not sure. I can't remember. I really

483
00:39:30.440 --> 00:39:36.039
don't want to be one of them people that that

484
00:39:36.239 --> 00:39:39.719
is out of touch with reality. That worries me a

485
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:42.079
little bit. I'm not saying I'm in touch with reality,

486
00:39:42.159 --> 00:39:47.679
but I don't want to. I don't want to be

487
00:39:47.760 --> 00:39:52.039
talking at people and not realizing that they don't want

488
00:39:52.079 --> 00:39:58.360
me to be, because I have been that person, and

489
00:39:58.440 --> 00:40:00.440
I have to be very careful. I don't do that

490
00:40:02.079 --> 00:40:14.400
because you know, conversation has to be two ways. But

491
00:40:14.440 --> 00:40:19.880
I've got my little special in my little interests. So

492
00:40:19.920 --> 00:40:26.280
I've got a tendency of h of making weird noises

493
00:40:27.079 --> 00:40:28.880
with my throat, which I want to just add some

494
00:40:29.000 --> 00:40:40.159
water I've got. I don't know, I just I think

495
00:40:40.199 --> 00:40:47.880
sometimes I'm just a bit too self aware. It's almost like, oh,

496
00:40:48.719 --> 00:40:56.039
I just found something in my belly bun. What is that? Uh,

497
00:41:00.199 --> 00:41:03.800
it's a bit of chocolate. It's not, it's not really

498
00:41:03.880 --> 00:41:09.320
it's a Mars bar. No, it's not. I'm constantly studying

499
00:41:09.320 --> 00:41:15.320
myself and I don't really know how useful that is,

500
00:41:15.440 --> 00:41:25.079
to be honest, but I seem to be observing what

501
00:41:25.199 --> 00:41:31.079
I'm doing, what I'm thinking, how I'm talking, in my behavior,

502
00:41:33.880 --> 00:41:36.280
the things that I want to say and don't say,

503
00:41:36.440 --> 00:41:44.159
the things that I do say and don't want to say. Yeah,

504
00:41:44.199 --> 00:41:47.760
it's weird. It's kind of weird. Perhaps a little bit

505
00:41:47.760 --> 00:42:02.079
too self conscious, perhaps hm hmm, perhaps just a really

506
00:42:02.199 --> 00:42:07.039
big egotist. But it's not. I don't think it's really

507
00:42:07.079 --> 00:42:11.440
in that way because I like to be in control

508
00:42:12.239 --> 00:42:14.519
of me, but I don't want to be in control

509
00:42:14.559 --> 00:42:18.440
of other people. So that's that's a big difference. I

510
00:42:18.480 --> 00:42:22.519
think I do like to have control over my environment,

511
00:42:24.000 --> 00:42:26.000
but I know that I can only do that in

512
00:42:26.119 --> 00:42:29.400
my environment, which is in this home, this flat, and

513
00:42:29.480 --> 00:42:34.880
even then there's limitations because I've got a very stubborn

514
00:42:35.239 --> 00:42:40.639
little doggie here, and I've also got people around here

515
00:42:40.679 --> 00:42:44.719
that are antisocial, that live outside and live in the

516
00:42:44.760 --> 00:42:49.840
other places, so I can't control them. I can't control him,

517
00:42:50.119 --> 00:42:54.480
but I've got, you know, a general control of the

518
00:42:54.559 --> 00:43:03.000
environment to a degree. When I go out that changes

519
00:43:03.079 --> 00:43:06.960
a little bit. I've noticed that the last week, getting

520
00:43:06.960 --> 00:43:17.440
on buses, getting in taxis, asking people for lifts. It's been, Yeah,

521
00:43:17.480 --> 00:43:21.159
it's been challenging. And there was someone on the bus

522
00:43:21.199 --> 00:43:23.920
the other day that was listening to I think he

523
00:43:24.000 --> 00:43:27.039
was watching a YouTube video on his phone. It was

524
00:43:27.320 --> 00:43:33.599
very loud, and again I might have been reading the

525
00:43:33.679 --> 00:43:36.039
signals wrong, but it looked to me like he was

526
00:43:36.079 --> 00:43:39.760
doing it because he wanted someone to say something. You know,

527
00:43:39.800 --> 00:43:44.840
he was being antisocial and he was just almost egging,

528
00:43:45.719 --> 00:43:50.760
egging the passion passengers to say something so that he

529
00:43:50.800 --> 00:43:54.880
could I don't know what do what. I don't know.

530
00:43:55.679 --> 00:43:58.039
It wouldn't have ended well for him, but it would

531
00:43:58.199 --> 00:44:01.039
I don't know what he wanted out of it. In

532
00:44:01.079 --> 00:44:03.280
the end, the bus driver just showered at him. He

533
00:44:03.400 --> 00:44:08.079
turned it down, and he did. He still had on

534
00:44:08.119 --> 00:44:11.039
a little bit, but he was really like he was

535
00:44:11.039 --> 00:44:15.159
looking for trouble, and you trouble. You were in the

536
00:44:15.239 --> 00:44:21.119
red blush. I cannot I can relate to that. I

537
00:44:21.159 --> 00:44:23.320
was a little bit like that in my early twenties,

538
00:44:25.440 --> 00:44:28.119
but this bloke was in his at least in his thirties,

539
00:44:28.360 --> 00:44:33.599
maybe forties, so it was a little bit. Yeah, and

540
00:44:33.679 --> 00:44:35.719
it was it's not good to be like that at

541
00:44:35.760 --> 00:44:39.199
any age. But I suppose it's always a little phase

542
00:44:40.880 --> 00:44:46.679
because he's going through a little phase. Nice little phase. Oh, oh,

543
00:44:47.039 --> 00:44:48.119
he's going through phase.

544
00:44:49.000 --> 00:44:52.480
He's got his he's got his ra his radio thing.

545
00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:56.239
He's it's a phone, well, his phone. He's got his

546
00:44:56.320 --> 00:45:00.559
phone on really loud. He's watching one of those movies things.

547
00:45:00.679 --> 00:45:04.800
It's YouTube. He's watching a YouTube movie. It's a video.

548
00:45:05.119 --> 00:45:09.320
He's watching a YouTube video on his radio his phone,

549
00:45:09.800 --> 00:45:14.679
on his phone. Oh, and it's really loud. He's going

550
00:45:14.679 --> 00:45:15.400
through a phase.

551
00:45:16.000 --> 00:45:16.840
It's a phase.

552
00:45:18.199 --> 00:45:21.719
Oh, everyone, come on, let's give him a hark and

553
00:45:21.760 --> 00:45:29.880
pushing him off the bus. So yeah, bless him. A

554
00:45:29.960 --> 00:45:36.840
weird thing happened to A weird thing happened my neighbor. Actually,

555
00:45:38.000 --> 00:45:40.480
it got into kind of an argument with someone on

556
00:45:40.480 --> 00:45:42.800
one of the wards he was on, because he's now

557
00:45:42.800 --> 00:45:47.880
on a third ward since he's been there, and the

558
00:45:47.920 --> 00:45:53.000
second ward he was on, they some bloke was complaining

559
00:45:53.599 --> 00:45:59.639
about him being too noisy, and yeah, he was being

560
00:45:59.719 --> 00:46:06.679
a bit aggressive and stuff, and they ended up moving

561
00:46:07.000 --> 00:46:11.239
my neighbor, keeping that bloke there, but moving my neighbor.

562
00:46:12.440 --> 00:46:15.679
So I've only got one side of the story. There's

563
00:46:15.719 --> 00:46:17.880
there's the old sailor, isn't that You know, there's three

564
00:46:17.920 --> 00:46:20.639
sides to a story, the two sides and then the truth,

565
00:46:21.679 --> 00:46:25.719
you know, both sides, then the truth. So who knows

566
00:46:25.760 --> 00:46:31.599
what exactly occurred. But I did say to my neighbor

567
00:46:31.639 --> 00:46:34.559
and I thought this was funny. Actually, I said to

568
00:46:34.639 --> 00:46:36.719
him because he told me on the phone. I said, well,

569
00:46:37.599 --> 00:46:39.840
because he'd been moved to a new warden act to

570
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.360
try and find out where it was. I said, well,

571
00:46:42.440 --> 00:46:44.840
you know when we go out for a walk, because

572
00:46:44.840 --> 00:46:48.719
I take him out for a sit down in the

573
00:46:50.480 --> 00:46:54.960
because in front of the hospital there's all these chairs

574
00:46:55.000 --> 00:46:57.800
and stuff like that. You can sit down, there's a

575
00:46:57.880 --> 00:47:00.800
duck pond. It's very nice. That's it, actually, you know,

576
00:47:01.079 --> 00:47:05.840
especially in this weather. And I said to him, when

577
00:47:05.880 --> 00:47:08.000
we go out, perhaps we'll make a little visit to

578
00:47:08.039 --> 00:47:10.400
that bloke, go back and have it all, make a

579
00:47:10.440 --> 00:47:16.719
little visit, perhaps punch him or something. I was joking, okay,

580
00:47:17.559 --> 00:47:19.280
so I was go and see him. We go out

581
00:47:19.280 --> 00:47:20.880
for a walk that day and he said on the

582
00:47:20.880 --> 00:47:22.199
way back, said A were going to go and visit

583
00:47:22.199 --> 00:47:30.239
that bloke. Then I said, I said, no, every I said, like, look,

584
00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:33.440
every everyone's in here because they're run well. No one's

585
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.840
in there for a jolly. They're not in there for fun,

586
00:47:36.440 --> 00:47:39.039
apart from well even that, even the nurses and doctors

587
00:47:39.079 --> 00:47:45.360
are not in there for fun, are they. But different

588
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:49.280
people deal with with being unwell differently, and perhaps his

589
00:47:49.480 --> 00:47:55.320
way of dealing with it is by being annoyed by you, well,

590
00:47:55.360 --> 00:48:01.000
you know, by what's going on. And he was he

591
00:48:01.119 --> 00:48:03.199
was cool. I don't I'm not sure if he really

592
00:48:03.440 --> 00:48:05.079
I don't know if he was just joking or not

593
00:48:05.400 --> 00:48:07.360
when he said that to me, Should we go and

594
00:48:07.400 --> 00:48:12.320
see him now? But I think twenty years ago I

595
00:48:12.360 --> 00:48:15.239
think he would have well that that would have had

596
00:48:15.239 --> 00:48:18.880
a different outcome. Becau's a bit fiery, but he's you know,

597
00:48:19.159 --> 00:48:27.280
he's pretty old now, maybe thirty years ago. So my

598
00:48:27.440 --> 00:48:29.920
that bloke would probably be a baby now, or he'd

599
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:33.039
be he'd only be about ten so the other block,

600
00:48:33.199 --> 00:48:37.519
so that probably wouldn't have been too good. I don't

601
00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:43.320
know old he was mabe forties, fifties, I don't know. Anyway,

602
00:48:44.239 --> 00:48:46.119
I find my dad up just to sort of see

603
00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:48.920
how he's getting on with his treatments. He's in treatment now,

604
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:52.559
started last week for four weeks. It's going to be

605
00:48:53.559 --> 00:48:58.000
And I told him I've thought it was a funny

606
00:48:58.079 --> 00:49:01.400
story that you know my neighbor, you know, the fact

607
00:49:01.440 --> 00:49:03.400
that he said or she would go and see him.

608
00:49:03.719 --> 00:49:06.360
I thought that was quite quite amusing. I told my

609
00:49:06.440 --> 00:49:10.239
dad and he was like, we can't do that. Get

610
00:49:10.320 --> 00:49:11.840
kicked out of the wall, do you get arrested on?

611
00:49:12.920 --> 00:49:16.480
Like my reaction was, well, I do what I want

612
00:49:16.519 --> 00:49:19.679
to do firstly, and tell me what I can do,

613
00:49:19.760 --> 00:49:21.440
but of course I'm not going to do it. Like

614
00:49:22.920 --> 00:49:26.840
it was so ridiculous. I just it was, I don't

615
00:49:26.880 --> 00:49:32.320
know it it turned a nice conversation into just awkwardness

616
00:49:32.599 --> 00:49:35.639
for no reason on the phone with my dad, like why,

617
00:49:36.639 --> 00:49:39.159
and his wife was there saying the same things, all

618
00:49:39.280 --> 00:49:41.639
but you're get in trouble. You won't be allowed back

619
00:49:41.679 --> 00:49:44.280
in the hospital. Like I didn't say I was going

620
00:49:44.320 --> 00:49:47.199
to actually do it. You really felt I'm going to

621
00:49:47.239 --> 00:49:50.559
walk up soil in the hospital bed and start, you know,

622
00:49:51.039 --> 00:49:56.639
being naughty, aggressive, And of course I'm not. I don't

623
00:49:56.639 --> 00:50:05.960
know what they think of me. Honestly, it's I got

624
00:50:05.960 --> 00:50:08.599
that off my chest. Now I'll move on. How is

625
00:50:08.639 --> 00:50:09.480
it really annoyed me?

626
00:50:10.679 --> 00:50:10.880
Ah?

627
00:50:12.800 --> 00:50:15.719
It's weird though, because my dad started treatment on Wednesday,

628
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:21.800
and I spoke to him on the Tuesday. I didn't

629
00:50:21.800 --> 00:50:23.719
know was having be He had just been on holiday,

630
00:50:24.079 --> 00:50:25.800
just to see how his holiday was, and when his

631
00:50:25.960 --> 00:50:30.159
treatment starts. Oh, it starts tomorrow. I said, well, I

632
00:50:30.199 --> 00:50:32.239
was going to say to you, which I thought about

633
00:50:32.280 --> 00:50:36.119
for quite a while, is going up to the hospital

634
00:50:36.159 --> 00:50:40.000
with him on the first day of his treatment, just

635
00:50:40.039 --> 00:50:42.639
to be a bit of emotional support. I know his

636
00:50:42.679 --> 00:50:44.280
wife's going to be there, but it thought it'd just

637
00:50:44.280 --> 00:50:47.880
be a nice thing, and he said no, I said,

638
00:50:47.880 --> 00:50:49.360
for he'd just have a cup of coffee. I'm not

639
00:50:49.360 --> 00:50:58.079
gonowed to drink coffee. It was really negative towards me, like, okay,

640
00:50:58.599 --> 00:51:01.159
I just thought maybe it'd be no, And it just

641
00:51:01.199 --> 00:51:06.719
seemed weird that my neighbor wants me to visit, he

642
00:51:06.760 --> 00:51:09.679
wants me to be there with him, but my own

643
00:51:09.760 --> 00:51:12.920
dad doesn't. I know. It was only it was a

644
00:51:12.960 --> 00:51:17.039
hospital visit and it was to have treatment. But I

645
00:51:17.079 --> 00:51:19.039
just thought it'd be a nice thing to do, just

646
00:51:19.079 --> 00:51:24.159
to be there for him in a time of need,

647
00:51:24.239 --> 00:51:30.559
maybe rather than just just I don't know. I don't

648
00:51:30.599 --> 00:51:34.719
know what I was thinking. Really. I thought maybe it'd

649
00:51:34.719 --> 00:51:44.199
be a nice thing. But it's strange, very strange. But yeah,

650
00:51:44.239 --> 00:51:47.400
he definitely didn't want me visiting. He said he didn't

651
00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:49.960
want me visiting or not visiting. He didn't want me

652
00:51:50.039 --> 00:51:54.239
to go there. I said, well, I could just see you,

653
00:51:54.320 --> 00:51:56.239
give you a hug before you go in or no,

654
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.559
it's right, just didn't don't want me. Yes, some bloke

655
00:52:02.599 --> 00:52:06.599
that i've a neighbor I've known for ten years is

656
00:52:08.800 --> 00:52:11.440
asking me when I'm going to go up next, phone

657
00:52:11.559 --> 00:52:14.920
me up. You know, as well as being seeing them

658
00:52:14.920 --> 00:52:16.760
every day, I'm speaking to you on the phone probably

659
00:52:16.760 --> 00:52:19.679
twice one in the morning before I go, and then

660
00:52:19.679 --> 00:52:26.760
one in the evening. It seems to be strange. I

661
00:52:26.800 --> 00:52:29.800
had this weird relationship with family. I seem to be

662
00:52:29.880 --> 00:52:33.480
more appreciated by strangers than by people that actually know

663
00:52:33.639 --> 00:52:38.280
me or think. I think I'm just known. I think

664
00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:43.039
I'm the real me is known better by people that

665
00:52:44.400 --> 00:52:48.079
don't know me. I don't know if that makes sense.

666
00:52:50.719 --> 00:52:53.119
Family don't know me, they don't know me the real me,

667
00:52:55.800 --> 00:53:02.000
and I think neighbors I've got to see the real

668
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:09.239
me people that I've helped, And so I think if

669
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:13.920
you help people for no reason, they get to see

670
00:53:14.400 --> 00:53:16.320
it's not the reason to do it for me, but

671
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:23.840
they get to realize that. Oh, because I think for

672
00:53:24.000 --> 00:53:28.159
some people it's quite an unusual situation to give without

673
00:53:28.239 --> 00:53:32.280
expecting anything back. I mean, I've got help this week

674
00:53:32.280 --> 00:53:38.960
from people that want something back. Then I've got you know, So,

675
00:53:39.199 --> 00:53:43.920
I've had lifts. I've had three lifts this week. Turn

676
00:53:43.960 --> 00:53:48.679
them by someone that gets paid to take me. The

677
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:54.159
other one was by someone they didn't want anything, So

678
00:53:54.199 --> 00:53:58.599
it's kind of I offered the money to both. One

679
00:53:58.639 --> 00:54:05.760
said no, the other person said yes, and one went

680
00:54:05.800 --> 00:54:08.199
out of their way to take me and the other one,

681
00:54:09.360 --> 00:54:11.159
and he took me because it was going where they

682
00:54:11.159 --> 00:54:18.400
were going anyway, So it is that's the person that

683
00:54:18.480 --> 00:54:19.760
went out of their way to take me. It was

684
00:54:19.760 --> 00:54:22.000
the one they didn't want any money. It's kind of

685
00:54:22.079 --> 00:54:25.239
just a weird if they're both helping, and I was

686
00:54:25.280 --> 00:54:31.000
grateful for both. But it's just a different, different way

687
00:54:31.000 --> 00:54:34.239
of thinking. And I quite like that because that's the

688
00:54:34.239 --> 00:54:42.760
way I think is. I don't know, that just feels right,

689
00:54:45.280 --> 00:54:50.880
you know, helping someone feels right, It just feels nice.

690
00:54:52.519 --> 00:54:57.920
So technically, I suppose it could just be unselfish. I'm

691
00:54:58.000 --> 00:55:03.960
just just making myself feel nice by helping the neighbors

692
00:55:04.039 --> 00:55:07.800
and doing stuff. Maybe that's all it is. And to me,

693
00:55:07.920 --> 00:55:12.000
that's a win win because if I get to feel

694
00:55:12.039 --> 00:55:16.960
good and they feel the benefit as well, then that's

695
00:55:17.000 --> 00:55:23.880
a win win all around, I suppose. And I imagine

696
00:55:23.920 --> 00:55:27.599
my neighbor that gave me a lift, that didn't want anything,

697
00:55:29.400 --> 00:55:34.159
felt good for helping me. And he's only a young lad,

698
00:55:34.199 --> 00:55:39.360
he's only like twenty twenty one something like that, and

699
00:55:39.400 --> 00:55:45.119
I was lovely such a you know, he potentially hear

700
00:55:45.159 --> 00:55:48.400
the dogs in the back ground, He potentially made himself

701
00:55:48.440 --> 00:55:53.119
late for work, so I said to him, Look, can

702
00:55:53.199 --> 00:55:56.400
you hear that? Dude? I just swear then, didn't I?

703
00:55:56.400 --> 00:56:01.679
I just said a naughty word, bloody dot. I can't

704
00:56:01.719 --> 00:56:03.920
moan about dogs because he does the same, this one

705
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:10.079
except him, he's like, he screeches is so high pitched

706
00:56:11.519 --> 00:56:16.079
it rattles the windows, rattles the windows of mes Sole.

707
00:56:23.800 --> 00:56:26.480
So it's been a weird week. It's been a weird,

708
00:56:26.719 --> 00:56:39.880
weird week. It seems to have lasted. Really. The dog

709
00:56:39.960 --> 00:56:43.400
doesn't doesn't onally bark quite so much. It's probably a

710
00:56:43.440 --> 00:56:47.000
cat in the garden or the kid. Maybe the kid

711
00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:52.039
out there just playing with it. Of his tail's going now,

712
00:56:52.079 --> 00:56:57.880
so he's hearing. He's hearing the dog. Did your tail disco? Vinnie?

713
00:56:58.880 --> 00:57:09.920
Are you excited about it here with the doggie? He excited. Yeah.

714
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:19.320
The week feels like it's lasted a long time. It

715
00:57:19.440 --> 00:57:22.440
doesn't really feel as if it's gone. It's gone quickly

716
00:57:22.840 --> 00:57:27.920
at all. That might be partly because I've got a

717
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:34.199
lot done. I know, I haven't made loads of recordings,

718
00:57:34.239 --> 00:57:47.320
but I've done a few, and I've done a lot

719
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:52.639
of traveling, a lot of traveling. And I worked it

720
00:57:52.639 --> 00:57:57.000
out the other day with yesterday that I think I've

721
00:57:57.039 --> 00:58:08.960
been out more in the last nine days, like probably

722
00:58:09.079 --> 00:58:14.960
than I have done the last two years, maybe three years,

723
00:58:17.280 --> 00:58:29.280
maybe two years. Actually leave in the area that I live. Yes,

724
00:58:30.239 --> 00:58:32.519
Oh wait, wait a minute. In January, didn't I did?

725
00:58:32.679 --> 00:58:35.880
Did I? Jiu jitsu? Didn't I? So I went there

726
00:58:35.880 --> 00:58:41.119
a few times or a couple of times. That's two

727
00:58:41.199 --> 00:58:41.880
journeys out.

728
00:58:49.199 --> 00:58:49.599
Hm hmm.

729
00:58:51.679 --> 00:58:56.039
That was in the winter. It was cold, it was cold.

730
00:58:59.440 --> 00:59:02.480
It's really I try not to moan too much about

731
00:59:02.519 --> 00:59:07.679
the weather. The only weather that annoys me, well, the

732
00:59:07.719 --> 00:59:13.719
only okay, the only weather that affects me really is rain,

733
00:59:15.639 --> 00:59:22.440
just because of this little one. And he just refuses

734
00:59:22.800 --> 00:59:30.760
if it's raining, he refuses to do his business quickly.

735
00:59:30.920 --> 00:59:34.079
It's almost like he wants to take his time. Now.

736
00:59:34.159 --> 00:59:36.960
In reality, he might just be doing exactly what he

737
00:59:37.000 --> 00:59:42.199
normally does. But I'm getting wet and I don't want

738
00:59:42.199 --> 00:59:45.639
to get wet, or the rain when it's windy as well,

739
00:59:45.679 --> 00:59:50.239
so I can't use me bolli, so the umbrella can't

740
00:59:50.239 --> 01:00:01.519
be used. It's just okay, yeah, especially at night, so

741
01:00:01.599 --> 01:00:06.159
I can't see anything much it's raining and it's windy,

742
01:00:08.079 --> 01:00:12.480
or even if it's raining, and then I've got so

743
01:00:12.519 --> 01:00:14.559
I've got my torch. My torch is broken, so I

744
01:00:14.559 --> 01:00:18.719
have to get a new torch. So holding a torch,

745
01:00:18.800 --> 01:00:25.400
holding a brolley and trying to steer this little one

746
01:00:26.079 --> 01:00:32.159
and pick up his bits and bobs after he's sprinkled

747
01:00:32.159 --> 01:00:37.480
them onto the floor, let them fall down like little

748
01:00:37.519 --> 01:00:45.079
anchors out a little boat. Phillers poos are very much

749
01:00:45.239 --> 01:00:54.320
like angers. Yeah, it's something I didn't realize. I was

750
01:00:54.320 --> 01:00:57.440
watching Words or Gummage earlier, and it was the original

751
01:00:57.480 --> 01:01:02.760
words are coming from the probably early eighties, late seventies,

752
01:01:02.800 --> 01:01:09.559
early eighties, And there was another character in it that

753
01:01:09.599 --> 01:01:12.119
I'd not seen before, or at least i'd forgotten about,

754
01:01:12.719 --> 01:01:16.639
and it was Barbara Windsor. She was like this porcelain

755
01:01:17.280 --> 01:01:22.199
statue and Barbara Windsor, I mean, she looked young there,

756
01:01:26.239 --> 01:01:30.119
and she would have been I mean, she wasn't old,

757
01:01:30.119 --> 01:01:32.159
but she would have probably been in her forties at

758
01:01:32.159 --> 01:01:38.400
that point. But she just looked so young. And because

759
01:01:38.440 --> 01:01:42.440
she I wait a minute, no, she was in Was

760
01:01:42.480 --> 01:01:46.639
she in the carry on movies in the sixties or

761
01:01:46.760 --> 01:01:50.559
was the seventies that Barbara Windsor was in the carry

762
01:01:50.559 --> 01:01:59.079
on movies? I'm not sure, because yeah, she might have

763
01:01:59.159 --> 01:02:04.920
just been still in the thirties. She just looked so young.

764
01:02:05.000 --> 01:02:07.920
I had not seen her outside of the carry On movies.

765
01:02:08.239 --> 01:02:12.639
I'd not seen Barbara Windsor look young like that kind

766
01:02:12.639 --> 01:02:17.199
of you know, young, because when she was in EastEnders

767
01:02:17.679 --> 01:02:22.639
she was a lot older, and she was probably in

768
01:02:22.679 --> 01:02:26.719
her seventies, sixties and seventies or whatever. Fifties, sixties, seventies.

769
01:02:29.639 --> 01:02:34.519
I've forgotten, like what she looked like. I've never seen her.

770
01:02:34.880 --> 01:02:37.320
It was out of context. I've seen her in two

771
01:02:37.400 --> 01:02:41.360
different places, the carry On Movies and EastEnders, and there

772
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:47.320
was many years between them. Never seen her in anything else.

773
01:02:48.719 --> 01:02:52.239
So this is the first time and I was like, wow, okay,

774
01:02:53.199 --> 01:02:56.039
that's the Barbara winds I remember from the carry On movies.

775
01:03:00.039 --> 01:03:02.119
This would mean nothing if you don't know who Barbara

776
01:03:02.159 --> 01:03:06.000
Windsor is, and if you don't know what to carry

777
01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:12.039
On movies are. And they are a I don't wanted

778
01:03:12.119 --> 01:03:23.079
to explain it. Really, they are a heritage from this country.

779
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:30.599
They were they were comedy comedy movies, and I love them.

780
01:03:30.719 --> 01:03:34.719
I still love them. Not everyone's cup of tea, of course,

781
01:03:35.039 --> 01:03:37.760
never no one and no one, no one's ever going

782
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:40.960
to love everything are they by the way. I watched

783
01:03:40.960 --> 01:03:50.599
a movie called The Amateur, and it's really good. It's

784
01:03:50.639 --> 01:03:57.239
really good. It's got I can't remember his name. It's

785
01:03:57.280 --> 01:04:00.039
got quite a few famous people, quite yeah, quite a

786
01:04:00.079 --> 01:04:04.000
few big names in it. It's really good movie. Unfortunately.

787
01:04:04.679 --> 01:04:06.519
I think the problem with some of these movies that

788
01:04:06.559 --> 01:04:11.239
are coming out is the titles. The titles don't give

789
01:04:11.280 --> 01:04:13.519
away really. I mean it does, I guess if you

790
01:04:13.559 --> 01:04:17.159
think about it. But now seeing it, The Amateur makes

791
01:04:17.280 --> 01:04:23.320
kind of sense. But it's all like espionage, and that

792
01:04:23.400 --> 01:04:29.880
doesn't really interest me so much, you know. But it's

793
01:04:30.000 --> 01:04:40.639
really good, really good. Yeah, I liked it. And I

794
01:04:40.719 --> 01:04:45.880
find myself not watching movies because they just don't. They

795
01:04:45.920 --> 01:04:50.360
look a bit bland, like the cover. The descripture doesn't

796
01:04:50.400 --> 01:05:01.639
even sound interesting. Nice playing going past. I did watch

797
01:05:01.679 --> 01:05:03.519
a movie the other day called I think it's called

798
01:05:03.559 --> 01:05:12.079
The Death of Stalin, very funny. Amando Nucci, I think

799
01:05:12.239 --> 01:05:19.320
is the person that wrote it. Amando Amando Nucci. I

800
01:05:19.360 --> 01:05:24.559
think that's his name. Is phenomenal. I think he wrote

801
01:05:24.639 --> 01:05:27.400
in the thick of It or the Thick of It,

802
01:05:28.000 --> 01:05:35.039
very very funny bloke, great writer, and very different from anything.

803
01:05:36.119 --> 01:05:38.079
I think he's got a different a different way of

804
01:05:38.119 --> 01:05:46.119
looking at the world to any other writer or producer

805
01:05:46.199 --> 01:05:48.920
that I've seen. I don't know if he produced it,

806
01:05:48.960 --> 01:05:53.760
but he wrote it. It's really good. It's very funny.

807
01:05:53.920 --> 01:05:58.079
It's just and because they didn't do you know, when

808
01:05:58.079 --> 01:06:02.880
they do movies and they have they put on accents

809
01:06:03.000 --> 01:06:05.360
and stuff like that, they didn't bother with this. It

810
01:06:05.440 --> 01:06:12.039
didn't need it, and I don't think it's needed really.

811
01:06:13.679 --> 01:06:19.159
I know some some producers or directors are looking for

812
01:06:19.239 --> 01:06:26.159
some kind of authenticity, so they'll you know, they'll have

813
01:06:27.199 --> 01:06:32.280
try and put on foreign accents. And this didn't even

814
01:06:32.280 --> 01:06:37.639
bother even Starling. Starling himself was a company, like a londoner.

815
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:46.360
And it was funny. It's just it's great. It's a really, really,

816
01:06:46.360 --> 01:06:50.360
really good movie. I started to watch it years ago

817
01:06:50.440 --> 01:06:53.079
because not a new one started to watch it years ago,

818
01:06:53.119 --> 01:06:56.880
but I didn't. I don't know. Sometimes I'm not in

819
01:06:56.880 --> 01:07:01.639
the mood and I just give up watching something because

820
01:07:01.639 --> 01:07:07.760
it doesn't it doesn't catch me, doesn't grab me. I'd

821
01:07:07.760 --> 01:07:10.000
tell you a couple of things were like that. One

822
01:07:10.039 --> 01:07:18.440
was You're gonna be surprised at this sopranos. I thought

823
01:07:18.440 --> 01:07:22.280
it was a part of poo poo. When it first

824
01:07:22.320 --> 01:07:25.239
came out, watched a little bit of it and I thought, now,

825
01:07:26.000 --> 01:07:29.679
see you, I don't want anything to do with it.

826
01:07:30.079 --> 01:07:32.599
I thought, oh god, this is boring. It's just another one,

827
01:07:33.000 --> 01:07:37.480
another Robert de Niro Want to Be movie. You know,

828
01:07:37.559 --> 01:07:43.280
It's like, nah, it's been done to death. It ended

829
01:07:43.360 --> 01:07:46.039
up being one of my favorite TV shows probably ever,

830
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:52.480
because it was a great show. I mean arguably by

831
01:07:52.840 --> 01:07:56.920
millions of people that loved it. I just at the start,

832
01:07:57.000 --> 01:08:01.360
I just thought, and it was really promoted. It was,

833
01:08:01.559 --> 01:08:05.039
you know, this big thing. I watched a new TV show,

834
01:08:05.119 --> 01:08:09.039
The Soprano's new HBO show. It's going to be on

835
01:08:09.159 --> 01:08:12.679
Channel four on Sunday nights, starting with a double episode.

836
01:08:14.119 --> 01:08:20.199
So I thought, neah, now you're right. And then I

837
01:08:20.319 --> 01:08:23.920
ended up watching it for what ten eleven years whatever

838
01:08:23.920 --> 01:08:24.279
it was on.

839
01:08:27.720 --> 01:08:28.039
Yeah.

840
01:08:28.319 --> 01:08:34.279
Wow. It started when I was in London, started when

841
01:08:34.279 --> 01:08:38.279
I was in London, and it finished when I was

842
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:42.640
I think in the last the last year of university

843
01:08:43.199 --> 01:08:52.600
or the second year of university. That's crazy in it.

844
01:08:55.840 --> 01:09:01.760
Apologies for the squeaky sounds in the backgrounds to neighbors.

845
01:09:04.479 --> 01:09:06.920
I think it's quite a little echoey area. Dout there.

846
01:09:07.239 --> 01:09:11.439
That's what it was. I don't think it's so much

847
01:09:11.479 --> 01:09:14.399
that people are talking really loudly. They are, but I

848
01:09:14.399 --> 01:09:17.199
don't think it's it's I don't think they're talking. I

849
01:09:17.239 --> 01:09:19.760
think they probably just talking normal volume. No they're not.

850
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:24.199
It's echoy So it's like a little echo chamber. And

851
01:09:27.359 --> 01:09:30.159
we have a similar thing in this garden, but it

852
01:09:30.239 --> 01:09:34.720
seems to catch the wind sometimes, like the wind seems

853
01:09:34.760 --> 01:09:45.199
to move around the garden. M Another TV show was

854
01:09:46.039 --> 01:09:52.319
I tried to watch this multiple times. It was The

855
01:09:52.399 --> 01:09:56.079
Walking Dead. I tried to watch it and I only

856
01:09:56.119 --> 01:09:59.000
got as far as there's the beginning. I'm not going

857
01:09:59.079 --> 01:10:01.439
to spoil it really, just tell you he wakes up

858
01:10:01.479 --> 01:10:05.119
in a hospital and he walks out of the hospital

859
01:10:06.039 --> 01:10:10.760
and then he sees her there the first zombie or whatever,

860
01:10:12.239 --> 01:10:15.520
and I just turned it off. I just got off bored.

861
01:10:18.279 --> 01:10:20.920
I tried to watch it probably about five six times,

862
01:10:21.680 --> 01:10:24.600
thinking to myself, well, this is a popular TV show,

863
01:10:25.319 --> 01:10:28.680
I should really give it another go. And at this

864
01:10:28.880 --> 01:10:36.399
point I think there's probably into season three at that time.

865
01:10:36.479 --> 01:10:41.199
Because I hadn't yeah, because I hadn't had any decent

866
01:10:41.279 --> 01:10:46.359
internet that was even fast enough to to stream Netflix

867
01:10:46.640 --> 01:10:50.359
at that time, and back then Netflix was pretty much

868
01:10:50.399 --> 01:10:55.399
the I think Amazon was around as well, but they

869
01:10:55.399 --> 01:10:58.880
were the two main ones, Amazon and Netflix. There was

870
01:10:58.920 --> 01:11:02.600
no Apple Teeth, there was no now TV, I don't

871
01:11:02.640 --> 01:11:11.920
think which was Sky, and there was no Paramount streaming,

872
01:11:13.000 --> 01:11:17.680
and there would have been no Disney Plus streaming, so

873
01:11:17.840 --> 01:11:22.239
it's you know, it was MGM streaming, so it's kind

874
01:11:22.279 --> 01:11:26.680
of a bit limited. Netflix was pretty much the main one,

875
01:11:26.960 --> 01:11:31.319
and apparently I only needed five megabytes a second to

876
01:11:31.439 --> 01:11:34.359
stream Netflix and I didn't. My internet didn't even cover that.

877
01:11:36.560 --> 01:11:46.119
It's like wow. So it wasn't really until I I

878
01:11:46.119 --> 01:11:52.520
think I moved in here that I started watching The

879
01:11:52.600 --> 01:12:00.880
Walking Dead. Unless I did, I might maybe downloaded it.

880
01:12:00.920 --> 01:12:04.520
I can't remember. I know I downloaded all of the

881
01:12:04.560 --> 01:12:10.079
episodes of Frasier. I think I downloaded all the episodes

882
01:12:10.119 --> 01:12:15.560
of Cheers and I watched them every day. This was

883
01:12:15.680 --> 01:12:23.039
during the period when I was I suppose probably waiting

884
01:12:23.199 --> 01:12:27.680
for this place, that year two year period when I

885
01:12:27.800 --> 01:12:40.279
was kind of in a bit of a limbo LIMBOI period. Yeah,

886
01:12:40.359 --> 01:12:44.479
I watched every single episode of Frasier. I think I

887
01:12:44.520 --> 01:12:46.680
probably watched a couple of episodes a day while I

888
01:12:46.720 --> 01:12:54.600
was having me breakfast. And I don't think I even

889
01:12:54.720 --> 01:13:05.239
had a television at that time, which is weird. No,

890
01:13:05.399 --> 01:13:08.039
I must have had a television. How could I not

891
01:13:08.119 --> 01:13:11.479
have had a television. I think I did. Yeah, I

892
01:13:11.479 --> 01:13:12.560
did have a television.

893
01:13:16.720 --> 01:13:26.880
Yeah.

894
01:13:27.039 --> 01:13:43.159
Another one was, oh, what's his name? Hear the sounds?

895
01:13:43.159 --> 01:13:44.399
I don't know if you can hear them or not.

896
01:13:47.279 --> 01:13:49.000
I can hear them, so I Mentionine, you can hear,

897
01:13:49.399 --> 01:13:57.840
it will be less. Why he shouting? I sometimes think

898
01:13:57.880 --> 01:13:59.760
that the adults are just saying to the kids, shout

899
01:13:59.800 --> 01:14:05.680
now on he's making a podcast up there, show because

900
01:14:05.680 --> 01:14:15.159
they're bored. But I'm probably just imagining that. Maybe there was.

901
01:14:16.760 --> 01:14:19.319
Remember when I first moved in there, there was a

902
01:14:19.319 --> 01:14:23.279
little bit of a neighborly dispute going on between this

903
01:14:23.399 --> 01:14:26.000
bloke that lived downstairs and the bloke that lived upstairs

904
01:14:27.439 --> 01:14:31.880
and the bloke lived downstairs. I had a few friends,

905
01:14:33.640 --> 01:14:37.319
like other neighbors, and they were literally standing outside. This

906
01:14:37.399 --> 01:14:44.000
is early in the morning, and you know those things

907
01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:48.119
that go bang, you know, like little gunpowder, a little

908
01:14:48.199 --> 01:14:51.239
gunpowder packages and used to chuck them on the floor

909
01:14:51.239 --> 01:14:55.720
and they go bang, but were really loud. They had

910
01:14:55.760 --> 01:14:57.560
them and they were chucking them up at his window,

911
01:14:58.640 --> 01:15:06.279
at his bedroom window. And that was quite early on

912
01:15:06.359 --> 01:15:10.319
when I first moved in. And that's when I realized,

913
01:15:11.760 --> 01:15:19.560
uh uh, what I've I done, because that is the

914
01:15:19.600 --> 01:15:23.039
mentality of some of the people that have lived around it,

915
01:15:25.399 --> 01:15:32.039
because it's very that's not adult behavior, is it. And

916
01:15:32.079 --> 01:15:39.600
I thought, wow, that's very strange. I'll tell you one day,

917
01:15:39.640 --> 01:15:41.760
because I don't really tell I don't talk about what's

918
01:15:41.760 --> 01:15:46.600
happened around it. One day, I need to write a

919
01:15:46.640 --> 01:15:50.439
little book. I'll do it vaguely. I'm not going to

920
01:15:51.079 --> 01:15:54.159
mention anyone's names, the fact I can't remember anyone's names anyway,

921
01:15:54.760 --> 01:15:58.840
because they're just people have come and gone. But some

922
01:15:58.920 --> 01:16:03.680
of the things I've seen, Wow, some of the things

923
01:16:04.680 --> 01:16:10.119
you wouldn't believe it. I saw a couple of neighbors

924
01:16:10.159 --> 01:16:13.520
getting him to punch up over some frozen sausages. Hm,

925
01:16:14.079 --> 01:16:16.560
it's true. Wow.

926
01:16:18.720 --> 01:16:18.840
Uh.

927
01:16:21.239 --> 01:16:25.119
I remember once my friend downstairs, he came home. He

928
01:16:25.199 --> 01:16:28.399
was with his cousin and his cousin's kid, but he

929
01:16:28.640 --> 01:16:32.600
was a little bit worse for where before he even

930
01:16:32.640 --> 01:16:36.800
went out, he got escorted back by the police. We

931
01:16:36.920 --> 01:16:45.880
got brought back by the police. And I think this

932
01:16:46.039 --> 01:16:50.000
is before I got finny, but yeah, I'm not sure

933
01:16:51.119 --> 01:16:52.640
I think it was yet. It would have probably been

934
01:16:52.680 --> 01:16:59.199
before that. So my friend was telling me he was

935
01:16:59.199 --> 01:17:01.439
a little bit bruised. So he said that he got

936
01:17:01.479 --> 01:17:09.439
started on by there was like six blokes and this

937
01:17:09.479 --> 01:17:12.039
is him outside. So he's outside the police car. He's

938
01:17:12.079 --> 01:17:14.159
not in trouble or anything. The police had brought him home.

939
01:17:14.960 --> 01:17:21.199
So I think he was struggling to really function, and

940
01:17:21.319 --> 01:17:23.079
I think he just went up to them and just

941
01:17:24.119 --> 01:17:27.359
they didn't like him approaching them or something. I don't know.

942
01:17:28.840 --> 01:17:35.079
And yeah, well we stopped a few because he was

943
01:17:35.079 --> 01:17:37.920
struggling to walk. It was because of what he had ingested,

944
01:17:38.439 --> 01:17:41.399
whether it was alcohol or whatever. So he was very

945
01:17:41.760 --> 01:17:46.479
worse aware, as I said, So we were stopping every

946
01:17:46.880 --> 01:17:52.000
few seconds, and he telled me this story. It'd tell

947
01:17:52.000 --> 01:17:55.880
it over again, and it'd changed every time. By the

948
01:17:55.960 --> 01:17:59.600
time we got inside his flat, there were thirty men

949
01:18:00.399 --> 01:18:05.640
that started on him in the park, three hundred. It

950
01:18:06.000 --> 01:18:13.399
just kept expanding, So, you know, I don't know, I

951
01:18:13.399 --> 01:18:16.680
don't know what he was talking about. And it was funny,

952
01:18:16.760 --> 01:18:19.800
you know, started off at six, ended up at thirty,

953
01:18:20.880 --> 01:18:25.840
and it started off there was six teenagers that were

954
01:18:25.880 --> 01:18:31.039
just being a bit obnoxious, and then it ended up

955
01:18:31.079 --> 01:18:37.399
being like thirty raw marines in tanks. It was like,

956
01:18:37.520 --> 01:18:44.159
what the heck's going on here? I remember the only

957
01:18:44.319 --> 01:18:49.800
time because he used to love to lie, but sometimes

958
01:18:49.800 --> 01:18:53.960
it was obvious. Sometimes it was less obvious, and we'd

959
01:18:54.039 --> 01:18:56.840
laugh at stuff, you know. But remember once he said

960
01:18:56.880 --> 01:19:01.000
something and I said, I'm calling BS on that, and

961
01:19:01.039 --> 01:19:03.840
he couldn't stop laughing because he wasn't used to people

962
01:19:03.880 --> 01:19:05.680
standing up to him to be out I think, like

963
01:19:05.760 --> 01:19:08.319
pulling it or pulling him up on stuff like that.

964
01:19:08.880 --> 01:19:13.479
But it was so ridiculous what he said, because I knew,

965
01:19:14.319 --> 01:19:17.359
I literally knew the truth. I knew what was what.

966
01:19:19.960 --> 01:19:22.800
I wasn't in the mood to for just going along

967
01:19:22.840 --> 01:19:24.520
with it. You know, sometimes I just go along with

968
01:19:24.520 --> 01:19:26.640
it just for the sake of it. It was easier

969
01:19:27.239 --> 01:19:29.399
if it depended on how he was, what his mood

970
01:19:29.479 --> 01:19:32.399
was like, or what my mood was like. But on

971
01:19:32.439 --> 01:19:36.000
that occasion, my mood wasn't prepared to put up with it.

972
01:19:36.399 --> 01:19:40.680
And I said, I'm calling BS on that. That might

973
01:19:40.800 --> 01:19:42.319
not be in the words I used, but you know,

974
01:19:44.680 --> 01:19:48.119
and he just stopped and looked at me, and literally

975
01:19:48.159 --> 01:19:53.319
he couldn't stop laughing. It was just because he said,

976
01:19:53.359 --> 01:19:55.159
you don't normally say stuff like that to me. I said,

977
01:19:55.159 --> 01:19:58.039
I know, but come on, I can't bothered. He's just

978
01:19:58.079 --> 01:20:02.800
talking rubbish, absolutely rubbish, and he just let I know,

979
01:20:03.000 --> 01:20:07.439
but he just I don't know. It's a very funny moment,

980
01:20:07.680 --> 01:20:11.920
a very funny moment. There was another time with him,

981
01:20:12.520 --> 01:20:15.720
So we had another friend who I'm still friends with,

982
01:20:16.479 --> 01:20:20.800
who came in here and he I think we was

983
01:20:20.840 --> 01:20:27.039
watching boxing. Very likely it was boxing, because that was

984
01:20:27.079 --> 01:20:30.840
often the only time the Saturday evening where my friend

985
01:20:30.880 --> 01:20:35.640
would be upstairs with me because normally, well normally on

986
01:20:35.640 --> 01:20:39.000
a Saturday night, I watched boxing or I'm left alone.

987
01:20:39.359 --> 01:20:41.319
So if he's up here, it's usually because boxing's on

988
01:20:42.960 --> 01:20:48.520
or when he was around that is, so my other

989
01:20:48.560 --> 01:20:51.560
friend comes up. Well, it's more he was like mutual

990
01:20:51.600 --> 01:20:53.359
friend of both of us and other neighbors. So he

991
01:20:53.399 --> 01:20:56.000
came in. He was just sitting next to me and

992
01:20:56.039 --> 01:20:59.319
he said, I was sitting at my table. He was

993
01:20:59.359 --> 01:21:05.319
sitting on him here, and my other friend, my friend downstairs,

994
01:21:05.439 --> 01:21:11.960
was sitting on a chair over there. So the new

995
01:21:12.039 --> 01:21:14.439
friend that just come in, he said, oh you O

996
01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:22.239
k if I if I light up A A j O,

997
01:21:22.560 --> 01:21:32.359
I N t h. It rhymes with point point point

998
01:21:34.199 --> 01:21:38.239
shoint loint point. I can't think of a word that

999
01:21:38.359 --> 01:21:45.239
is a proper word that rhymes like that. Point hmmm,

1000
01:21:46.039 --> 01:21:51.279
point point that's it rhymes a point anyway, I said, yeah,

1001
01:21:51.319 --> 01:21:57.159
I suppose, I don't care. I think he was just

1002
01:21:57.199 --> 01:21:59.000
sitting there having a beer and I was sitting there,

1003
01:21:59.039 --> 01:22:06.600
probably drinking cocaine cola and the stuff was so pungent

1004
01:22:06.920 --> 01:22:09.600
because I don't I don't touch that stuff, and he's

1005
01:22:09.640 --> 01:22:15.199
like so pungent, and I was, I was coughing a

1006
01:22:15.279 --> 01:22:23.399
little bit. He he my friend downstairs was like looking

1007
01:22:23.399 --> 01:22:29.239
at me like, oh, it's awful smell. So my friend

1008
01:22:29.319 --> 01:22:33.920
with the with thing the rhymes with point, he said,

1009
01:22:34.000 --> 01:22:36.319
kind of borrow the toilet. I said, as long as

1010
01:22:36.319 --> 01:22:39.640
you give it back. We all laughed and he said okay,

1011
01:22:39.920 --> 01:22:44.159
So he went to a toilet. Luke, my mother friend

1012
01:22:44.159 --> 01:22:46.840
from downstairs, he said to me, you've got to please

1013
01:22:46.960 --> 01:22:50.039
ask him just to put that out. Is making me choke,

1014
01:22:50.960 --> 01:22:54.279
because Luke did have really bad lungs. Anyway, he had

1015
01:22:55.720 --> 01:23:01.520
I don't know asthma, and I see per COPD whatever.

1016
01:23:02.239 --> 01:23:05.039
So he said, can you ask him to put it

1017
01:23:05.079 --> 01:23:10.000
out because I just can't struggling to breathe with that

1018
01:23:10.079 --> 01:23:12.199
thing on there, and I want to watch the boxing.

1019
01:23:12.479 --> 01:23:14.159
We had the windows open and everything, but it was

1020
01:23:14.199 --> 01:23:18.039
just too much. So I said, all right, I'll ask him.

1021
01:23:18.399 --> 01:23:21.319
So he comes out of the toilet and he sits

1022
01:23:21.319 --> 01:23:24.159
down and says, I don't mean to be rude or anything,

1023
01:23:24.159 --> 01:23:27.359
but are you okay to maybe smoke down in the

1024
01:23:27.479 --> 01:23:30.119
kitchen or put it out or maybe go in the

1025
01:23:30.159 --> 01:23:33.760
garden because it's a bit too pungent, too a bit

1026
01:23:33.800 --> 01:23:39.039
too smoky. So he was fine with it. He said,

1027
01:23:39.039 --> 01:23:44.920
that's that's okay, that's fine, Luke. Luke pipes up. He says, oh, really,

1028
01:23:44.960 --> 01:23:46.680
I'm fine with it. It's okay with me. It's not

1029
01:23:46.720 --> 01:23:53.319
bothering me. It's like and he looks at me and smiles.

1030
01:23:54.079 --> 01:23:57.279
It's almost like he did it purposely, just to make

1031
01:23:57.479 --> 01:24:03.680
me look silly. I didn't, I didn't say anything. I

1032
01:24:03.720 --> 01:24:09.439
was like, just shook my head. I can't believe. And

1033
01:24:09.479 --> 01:24:11.319
then we watched the box and he kept looking over

1034
01:24:11.399 --> 01:24:14.079
and smiling at me because he was so pleased with himself.

1035
01:24:15.359 --> 01:24:20.800
And when the other neighbor left. The other neighbor left,

1036
01:24:20.880 --> 01:24:23.560
Luke started laughing because he was holding the laughter in

1037
01:24:23.800 --> 01:24:27.560
right away. He's like giggling to himself. And they started

1038
01:24:27.640 --> 01:24:31.560
laughing as soon as my other neighbor left so he

1039
01:24:31.760 --> 01:24:33.720
could think a boxing finished or he had to go

1040
01:24:33.760 --> 01:24:40.199
and do something. And I've told that neighbor since because

1041
01:24:40.319 --> 01:24:43.920
since Luke passed or when he'd left, I told the

1042
01:24:43.960 --> 01:24:47.079
other that neighbor about the story. He found it funny

1043
01:24:47.720 --> 01:24:52.640
because it's just it's how how Luke was. He's just

1044
01:24:52.720 --> 01:24:57.960
had that his sense of humor was. It was just

1045
01:24:58.119 --> 01:25:01.000
it was a funny moment. It's one of my one

1046
01:25:01.039 --> 01:25:05.279
of my fond memories. Actually, another one was when the

1047
01:25:05.319 --> 01:25:10.000
same neighbor actually he spent the summer living in Luke's

1048
01:25:10.000 --> 01:25:13.600
flat because he had some problems. He had his own flat,

1049
01:25:13.640 --> 01:25:17.039
but he he Luke was kind of looking after him really,

1050
01:25:17.640 --> 01:25:22.079
sort of emotionally, and they're spending time with him, and

1051
01:25:24.239 --> 01:25:31.439
another neighbor opposite in the building opposite was mowing the

1052
01:25:31.560 --> 01:25:35.479
lawn and apparently this is what happened. Luke puts his

1053
01:25:35.600 --> 01:25:38.720
head out the out of the window says, excuse me, mate,

1054
01:25:39.399 --> 01:25:42.079
I suppose you could just hold off doing that for

1055
01:25:42.079 --> 01:25:44.279
a little while. So I only just got him too sleep.

1056
01:25:45.000 --> 01:25:47.279
So the neighbor came over, thinking it was a baby.

1057
01:25:47.319 --> 01:25:49.960
He looked through the window and there's a fully grown

1058
01:25:50.000 --> 01:25:55.760
man on the sofa asleep, and they both started laughing.

1059
01:25:55.960 --> 01:26:03.479
The neighbors started laughing. And it's when I was down

1060
01:26:03.520 --> 01:26:07.199
there when this happened, and when when Luke told me. Honestly,

1061
01:26:07.239 --> 01:26:08.960
it was one of the funniest things I heard for

1062
01:26:09.000 --> 01:26:12.960
a long time, because it was so ridiculous, like, oh,

1063
01:26:12.960 --> 01:26:14.560
can you keep it quiet. I've just got him off

1064
01:26:14.560 --> 01:26:17.119
to sleep. Like you don't think that's going to be

1065
01:26:17.119 --> 01:26:21.880
a grown man, a grown adult asleep on the sofa

1066
01:26:22.119 --> 01:26:25.239
when you say that, And I've just got him off

1067
01:26:25.279 --> 01:26:29.399
to sleep, like it'd be like cradling him and singing

1068
01:26:29.920 --> 01:26:37.439
bedtime stories to him or something, lullabies. I'll tell one

1069
01:26:37.479 --> 01:26:39.800
maybe that as well. He found it funny. So it

1070
01:26:39.960 --> 01:26:45.119
is this. It's weird because those two stories were kind

1071
01:26:45.119 --> 01:26:48.760
of a connection with that other neighbor. There's always going

1072
01:26:48.800 --> 01:26:54.520
to be there, however strange that might be. It's there's

1073
01:26:54.640 --> 01:27:03.840
that connection because we were both friends with Luke, and yeah,

1074
01:27:03.960 --> 01:27:06.439
Luke was kind of just looking out for him for

1075
01:27:06.520 --> 01:27:19.319
that summer. Yeah, Wow, I don't know what I'm talking about. Him,

1076
01:27:19.520 --> 01:27:32.239
mister Lukey, Baby, I got a thing in the winter,

1077
01:27:32.520 --> 01:27:35.600
like before Christmas, and it was going to be dangling

1078
01:27:35.840 --> 01:27:39.880
on the tree outside because Luke planted the Christmas tree

1079
01:27:40.000 --> 01:27:42.720
that's in the front garden. It's now as big as

1080
01:27:42.720 --> 01:27:45.039
the building. But it was a little sapling when he

1081
01:27:45.199 --> 01:27:54.479
planted it, and it's grown to be massive, so he's

1082
01:27:55.560 --> 01:28:00.039
as funny as it grew. Once he got above the

1083
01:28:00.159 --> 01:28:08.319
length of the surrounding bushes that are trimmed, the council

1084
01:28:09.680 --> 01:28:12.479
kept coming out and starting to trim the tree. So

1085
01:28:12.560 --> 01:28:14.800
every time the trimmers were out, Luke could run out

1086
01:28:14.840 --> 01:28:18.159
and say, don't touch the tree, don't touch the tree.

1087
01:28:18.560 --> 01:28:21.520
And he did that for years, don't touch the tree.

1088
01:28:21.760 --> 01:28:23.600
And then the tree got too big and everyone left

1089
01:28:23.600 --> 01:28:25.239
the tree alone and they kind of got to know.

1090
01:28:26.439 --> 01:28:29.039
And now it is nearly as tall as the building.

1091
01:28:30.199 --> 01:28:32.039
So I kind of look at that tree and I

1092
01:28:32.079 --> 01:28:34.560
think of him because I know that he planted it,

1093
01:28:34.600 --> 01:28:38.399
and I was. I mean, he planted it before I

1094
01:28:38.479 --> 01:28:41.319
was even here, because he'd lived there a couple of

1095
01:28:41.399 --> 01:28:46.159
years before me, maybe three years before me, so he'd

1096
01:28:46.199 --> 01:28:52.720
already planted that. Yeah, he must have been, because he'd lived

1097
01:28:52.720 --> 01:29:02.920
there for twelve years. Wow, So yeah, maybe maybe more

1098
01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:08.840
than maybe more than two years before me. I think

1099
01:29:08.840 --> 01:29:10.720
he might have lived here for four or five years

1100
01:29:10.720 --> 01:29:19.760
before I got here. Yeah, maybe it's I can't I

1101
01:29:19.800 --> 01:29:23.399
could find out, but I don't know exactly. It's not

1102
01:29:23.439 --> 01:29:27.680
really important, is it. I suppose my neighbor that's in hospital,

1103
01:29:27.720 --> 01:29:32.600
he's been here since about nineteen ninety nine, which, if

1104
01:29:32.640 --> 01:29:34.520
I do remember, it is about the same time as

1105
01:29:34.560 --> 01:29:47.880
a soprano starting roughly roughly, that's a long time. It's

1106
01:29:47.920 --> 01:29:50.119
a lot. It doesn't seem like a long time, but

1107
01:29:50.199 --> 01:29:53.760
it does as well. At the same time, how many

1108
01:29:53.800 --> 01:29:57.560
times can I say in a sentence? Times, time, time, time,

1109
01:30:00.399 --> 01:30:07.800
A lot's happened. But then what is it now? For

1110
01:30:10.920 --> 01:30:15.039
twenty nine thirty nine, forty nine fifty nine, So it's

1111
01:30:15.119 --> 01:30:25.680
twenty twenty six years. Because that period was potentially the

1112
01:30:25.760 --> 01:30:28.720
highlight of my life, of my adult life kind of.

1113
01:30:29.640 --> 01:30:32.880
It was one of the best periods of my life

1114
01:30:34.319 --> 01:30:41.800
between the ages of i'd say probably January nineteen ninety

1115
01:30:41.920 --> 01:30:52.880
eight and two thousand and one. Once it got to

1116
01:30:52.880 --> 01:30:57.760
two thousand and one, things when a little bit eerie,

1117
01:30:57.960 --> 01:31:05.680
not eerie, bit bit not so great, but eighty eight

1118
01:31:08.399 --> 01:31:18.399
eighty nine, ninety nine, two thousand, eighty ninety seven, ninety eight,

1119
01:31:18.560 --> 01:31:21.520
ninety nine, two thousand, two thousand and one. So yeah,

1120
01:31:21.560 --> 01:31:26.640
I had three three years which things were going fairly

1121
01:31:26.680 --> 01:31:36.560
well in some ways, and because I just started my

1122
01:31:36.720 --> 01:31:42.039
interest in hypnosis NLP, and then in two thousand I

1123
01:31:42.119 --> 01:31:50.000
became super interested in the Internet and building websites. So

1124
01:31:50.119 --> 01:31:58.520
during two thousand, the whole year I devoted to building websites,

1125
01:31:58.680 --> 01:32:01.199
to learning how to build ups sites, and it was

1126
01:32:01.239 --> 01:32:03.640
the most exciting thing I'd ever done in my life.

1127
01:32:04.039 --> 01:32:09.319
For some reason, I became obsessed with it, absolutely obsessed,

1128
01:32:11.279 --> 01:32:17.920
and I missed that feeling. And I kind of realize

1129
01:32:18.000 --> 01:32:23.720
now that I was probably for some of that period

1130
01:32:23.800 --> 01:32:33.000
going through a very big manic stage, But I didn't know.

1131
01:32:33.119 --> 01:32:37.279
All I knew I was enjoying myself and i'd be awake.

1132
01:32:39.520 --> 01:32:42.600
I was getting like four hours sleep a night if that,

1133
01:32:43.680 --> 01:32:47.199
I didn't need to eat really, just like I'd forget

1134
01:32:47.239 --> 01:32:49.920
to eat because I was so busy focusing on the

1135
01:32:49.920 --> 01:32:52.720
web pages and how to build them. Had all these

1136
01:32:52.840 --> 01:32:57.520
big pile of books, HTML code, how to. Yeah, I

1137
01:32:57.600 --> 01:33:03.840
just loved it, loved everything about it. It's like a code.

1138
01:33:03.920 --> 01:33:08.640
I was trying to crack. I had had the books,

1139
01:33:08.680 --> 01:33:10.359
but I was trying to crack it on my own,

1140
01:33:10.880 --> 01:33:14.800
trying to figure it out on my own, and I

1141
01:33:14.840 --> 01:33:17.840
once spent There's a thing, you know, with on the

1142
01:33:17.840 --> 01:33:22.079
internet or you know on the phone, you press a link,

1143
01:33:22.520 --> 01:33:25.119
click a link, and it takes you somewhere else. Another

1144
01:33:25.199 --> 01:33:29.199
website opens up, another page on the website takes you

1145
01:33:29.279 --> 01:33:38.880
to an app whatever. They're called hyperlinks. So I wanted

1146
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.359
to figure out how to build a hyperlink on a website,

1147
01:33:44.640 --> 01:33:48.000
a web page, rather to take it to other pages.

1148
01:33:48.159 --> 01:33:49.520
You could also do it so it took you to

1149
01:33:49.520 --> 01:33:51.800
another part of the page as well, but I wanted

1150
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:55.920
just to figure out how to do it. Now, it's

1151
01:33:56.039 --> 01:33:58.840
very easy to do if you just look into a book,

1152
01:34:01.920 --> 01:34:06.279
but I refused to do that. I wanted to work

1153
01:34:06.319 --> 01:34:15.159
out how to build a hyperlink by dissecting a page.

1154
01:34:15.319 --> 01:34:20.000
And I spent days doing this, just dissecting a page,

1155
01:34:20.439 --> 01:34:24.119
taking a little bit of code off, and then seeing

1156
01:34:24.119 --> 01:34:27.039
if that page works with the link, and if it

1157
01:34:27.079 --> 01:34:29.039
didn't work, I put it back to what it was

1158
01:34:29.079 --> 01:34:33.920
before and taken a bit more off. So I stripped

1159
01:34:33.960 --> 01:34:38.840
down the page as bare as possible to the point,

1160
01:34:39.039 --> 01:34:41.479
and this was a big page from the Internet. It's

1161
01:34:41.479 --> 01:34:46.720
like an Internet page that I had copied. I stripped

1162
01:34:46.760 --> 01:34:50.920
it down to the bare minimum, to the point where

1163
01:34:52.159 --> 01:34:55.439
it pretty much was just the code for the link.

1164
01:34:55.760 --> 01:34:58.840
There was a little bit I suppose body whatever, just

1165
01:34:59.319 --> 01:35:02.800
so it had so it worked. But I broke it

1166
01:35:02.840 --> 01:35:07.760
down to its bare, bare minimum. And it took me

1167
01:35:07.960 --> 01:35:11.880
probably three three days, maybe four days even doing that,

1168
01:35:14.039 --> 01:35:20.479
eighteen hours a day, solidly focused on that one page,

1169
01:35:20.600 --> 01:35:24.199
and I loved every second of it. It was probably

1170
01:35:24.199 --> 01:35:27.600
a bit of frustration as well, because it didn't work

1171
01:35:27.640 --> 01:35:34.720
most of the time until it did, But it was

1172
01:35:35.039 --> 01:35:41.680
so satisfying when I figured out how to do it. Yeah,

1173
01:35:41.720 --> 01:35:43.560
I could have just looked in a book. I mean

1174
01:35:43.600 --> 01:35:47.640
I had probably five six books. Any of those books

1175
01:35:47.640 --> 01:35:55.600
would have told me how to build it, and it

1176
01:35:55.680 --> 01:36:01.800
was just I was determined to figure it out myself

1177
01:36:01.880 --> 01:36:06.000
by I guess reverse engineering it would be called now,

1178
01:36:10.039 --> 01:36:19.359
by unbuilding the page, starting from yeah, starting working my

1179
01:36:19.439 --> 01:36:22.880
way back to the beginning of the page being built.

1180
01:36:22.960 --> 01:36:28.119
You know. I did a similar thing for how to

1181
01:36:28.199 --> 01:36:32.840
make something, how to make text a different color, how

1182
01:36:32.880 --> 01:36:35.640
to make it a different size, how to make it bold,

1183
01:36:36.319 --> 01:36:42.920
how to yeah, all different things. It took. Yeah, so

1184
01:36:43.000 --> 01:36:47.039
I devoted a whole year to that. I loved it,

1185
01:36:47.159 --> 01:36:52.279
I really did. I remember I've told this story before,

1186
01:36:52.359 --> 01:36:59.199
but not for ages. When I started at Churchill Insurance,

1187
01:37:01.039 --> 01:37:07.880
we had information on a They called it the intranet,

1188
01:37:08.199 --> 01:37:12.000
so basically you could put stuff, you could read stuff

1189
01:37:12.000 --> 01:37:15.520
off the server. So it wasn't the Internet. You couldn't

1190
01:37:15.560 --> 01:37:22.039
access the Internet, but you can access bits of information. Now.

1191
01:37:22.079 --> 01:37:25.880
I decided that it's okay to have all that information,

1192
01:37:26.000 --> 01:37:32.760
but it's very much scattered and it would be easy

1193
01:37:32.800 --> 01:37:35.840
if it was all in one place. So I built

1194
01:37:35.840 --> 01:37:44.680
a website in between calls, and I linked all the

1195
01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:47.279
stuff that was on the computer system on the Internet,

1196
01:37:47.760 --> 01:37:53.439
so script to read out information about no claims, bonus,

1197
01:37:53.960 --> 01:38:01.119
information about each company, answers to common questions. A converter

1198
01:38:02.640 --> 01:38:09.239
A converter like a calculator, but it was specifically for

1199
01:38:09.359 --> 01:38:14.199
converting sales, to see what conversion you are and stuff.

1200
01:38:15.720 --> 01:38:18.119
But someone else built that, but I added that to

1201
01:38:18.199 --> 01:38:26.560
it and I started using it myself. I didn't and

1202
01:38:26.600 --> 01:38:29.640
then someone on my team said, oh, can you can

1203
01:38:29.680 --> 01:38:33.119
you email that to me? So I did, and eventually

1204
01:38:33.800 --> 01:38:36.279
quite a few people around the sales law was using

1205
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:39.520
it because it's useful because everything's in one place. You's

1206
01:38:39.560 --> 01:38:42.760
clicked on it and it just gave your list of

1207
01:38:42.800 --> 01:38:45.560
things you can click on, and it's it's very simple,

1208
01:38:45.600 --> 01:38:50.359
but it was useful. It was weird because on one day,

1209
01:38:52.000 --> 01:38:58.399
I'm on a phone call and my manager or myself

1210
01:38:58.439 --> 01:39:01.319
my team leader, said, when you finish that call, can

1211
01:39:01.359 --> 01:39:04.920
you come off? Can you can you log out? Said okay?

1212
01:39:04.960 --> 01:39:06.239
And I was coming to the end of the car

1213
01:39:07.079 --> 01:39:11.359
and I locked out and there was two blokes standing

1214
01:39:11.439 --> 01:39:14.800
there with him, and he said, can you come with us?

1215
01:39:17.000 --> 01:39:21.680
I thought, oh, this is not looking good. Really did

1216
01:39:21.720 --> 01:39:24.039
not know what's going on. I thought I'd messed up

1217
01:39:24.119 --> 01:39:29.560
big time, you know, sold sold lor insurance or haulage

1218
01:39:29.640 --> 01:39:32.720
insurance to someone with a mini, you know, I just

1219
01:39:32.800 --> 01:39:38.760
made a mistake like that that has happened. But yeah,

1220
01:39:39.760 --> 01:39:42.279
but it wasn't. It wasn't anything like that. So they

1221
01:39:42.680 --> 01:39:46.319
took me up into the IT department and there was

1222
01:39:46.359 --> 01:39:48.600
another person in there and they all sat me down

1223
01:39:48.640 --> 01:39:51.640
and they said, did you is it is it true

1224
01:39:51.640 --> 01:39:55.960
that you built that website on the intranet? I said, yeah,

1225
01:39:57.279 --> 01:40:04.039
how did you do it? See, they thought I'd somehow

1226
01:40:04.720 --> 01:40:11.640
infiltrated the intranet and brought in software and maybe put

1227
01:40:12.000 --> 01:40:16.479
some kind of virus onto the system by using discs

1228
01:40:16.560 --> 01:40:18.880
and stuff like that, which I hadn't There was no

1229
01:40:19.000 --> 01:40:23.000
access to do that. And I said, have you done it? Then?

1230
01:40:23.560 --> 01:40:27.079
I said, I said, well, if you brought a disk in,

1231
01:40:27.159 --> 01:40:29.199
if you've managed to, how have you got it onto

1232
01:40:29.279 --> 01:40:34.960
the Internet? I said, I built it? So what do

1233
01:40:35.000 --> 01:40:37.000
you mean you built it? You built the website how?

1234
01:40:37.800 --> 01:40:40.119
I said, what do you mean how? I just built

1235
01:40:40.119 --> 01:40:46.640
it just I know how to build websites. It's very basic,

1236
01:40:46.920 --> 01:40:50.720
you know, it's nothing special here. Probably couldn't do it now,

1237
01:40:50.800 --> 01:40:54.279
but I could then because I'd spent a year and

1238
01:40:54.319 --> 01:40:57.039
a half doing it, because I spent you know, half

1239
01:40:57.079 --> 01:41:00.760
of two thousand and one also doing it. And he said,

1240
01:41:00.960 --> 01:41:04.479
and they said they couldn't understand. How did I build

1241
01:41:04.479 --> 01:41:10.119
a website in between phone calls without bringing in discs

1242
01:41:10.199 --> 01:41:16.479
and code and without infiltrating the their servers. I said, no,

1243
01:41:16.600 --> 01:41:19.359
I just built a website on the server from my computer,

1244
01:41:19.880 --> 01:41:23.880
and then people wanted it, so I shared it. It

1245
01:41:23.920 --> 01:41:29.119
was just on It wasn't on the internet, but it

1246
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:32.279
had a link to the internet. So the website was

1247
01:41:32.319 --> 01:41:40.760
just a website page. It was on my desktop. I

1248
01:41:40.880 --> 01:41:44.800
shared it out all the hyperlinks to the pages on

1249
01:41:44.880 --> 01:41:48.159
the internet. That's all it was. So it's just one page.

1250
01:41:48.640 --> 01:41:51.039
Opened it up and it was a website with the

1251
01:41:51.079 --> 01:41:53.239
links to all the other stuff. So all the other

1252
01:41:53.279 --> 01:41:57.039
stuff was already on there. And they're like, how did

1253
01:41:57.039 --> 01:42:00.079
you do that? I said, I just did it, know

1254
01:42:00.199 --> 01:42:02.560
how to do it. And they couldn't believe. They didn't

1255
01:42:02.560 --> 01:42:05.000
believe me that I'd died off of my own head.

1256
01:42:07.319 --> 01:42:11.960
I said yeah, And they were annoyed because they said

1257
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.399
that they'd spent the last year trying to put together

1258
01:42:15.720 --> 01:42:20.439
some kind of website service which would do exactly what

1259
01:42:20.479 --> 01:42:24.479
I'd done. This would have been more complicated and more

1260
01:42:25.119 --> 01:42:30.359
precise and a much better version. But they were peeved

1261
01:42:30.520 --> 01:42:33.680
because this bloke said that he was taken on. He'd

1262
01:42:33.720 --> 01:42:36.159
been there for nearly a year and they had been

1263
01:42:36.199 --> 01:42:41.880
planning to do this. He was the IT boss or

1264
01:42:41.960 --> 01:42:44.279
part of the IT team, and now it's one of

1265
01:42:44.319 --> 01:42:47.640
his jobs is to put together at the website on

1266
01:42:47.680 --> 01:42:54.039
the intranet for all of the workers in this because

1267
01:42:54.039 --> 01:42:58.439
there was like hundreds of people working there, and then

1268
01:42:58.479 --> 01:43:01.920
they could update a new script to read out, or

1269
01:43:01.960 --> 01:43:04.840
there was a new raw there's new you know, always

1270
01:43:04.920 --> 01:43:08.680
changing stuff, so it'd be quite handy to have that information.

1271
01:43:10.960 --> 01:43:18.880
Just stuff like the for new people, the the phonetic alphabet.

1272
01:43:20.720 --> 01:43:23.079
It's handy to have that because I was learning that.

1273
01:43:23.680 --> 01:43:27.520
I didn't know the phonetic phonetic alphabet properly until I

1274
01:43:27.640 --> 01:43:33.359
moved into until I started working in that job. So

1275
01:43:33.520 --> 01:43:35.199
someone new, you could just have it on the screen,

1276
01:43:35.439 --> 01:43:38.000
just click a quick click and it's there and they

1277
01:43:38.000 --> 01:43:40.000
can just read it, read it out, just get to

1278
01:43:40.039 --> 01:43:43.680
know it, and have it on a little have it

1279
01:43:43.720 --> 01:43:47.079
on a little page below what they're doing, so it's

1280
01:43:47.119 --> 01:43:50.159
just always there. So it's just simple things like that.

1281
01:43:50.960 --> 01:43:52.399
And he said, well, we're going to have to take

1282
01:43:52.439 --> 01:43:57.439
it off because it's I can't have it on the internet.

1283
01:43:57.479 --> 01:44:00.880
I said, it's not on the internet. It said, what

1284
01:44:00.960 --> 01:44:04.319
you mean. I said, it's it's just on people's desktops,

1285
01:44:04.520 --> 01:44:08.520
individual desktops. You can just ask people to take it

1286
01:44:08.560 --> 01:44:14.079
off their desktops. It links to the internet, but it's

1287
01:44:14.079 --> 01:44:17.760
not on the internet. So they basically had no control

1288
01:44:17.800 --> 01:44:21.079
over it. And I think that's what annoyed them, because

1289
01:44:21.159 --> 01:44:24.279
this thing was not on their own Internet, which is

1290
01:44:24.319 --> 01:44:27.520
what an internet is. It's basically it's a it's the

1291
01:44:27.600 --> 01:44:32.199
company Internet, which they have complete control over. But if

1292
01:44:32.199 --> 01:44:36.399
you have a link to that Internet and your part

1293
01:44:36.520 --> 01:44:40.760
that you're in that system, then it just logs into it.

1294
01:44:41.760 --> 01:44:43.880
I don't think they knew that was possible. Maybe they

1295
01:44:43.880 --> 01:44:48.640
didn't realize you could do that, so I didn't know.

1296
01:44:48.680 --> 01:44:51.079
It wasn't supposed to be done. I didn't know that

1297
01:44:51.159 --> 01:44:53.600
it shouldn't be able to be done because it's the

1298
01:44:53.640 --> 01:44:57.920
Internet's supposed to be very private and secure, which makes

1299
01:44:57.920 --> 01:45:00.439
you wonder maybe that link on the normal into the

1300
01:45:00.479 --> 01:45:02.800
Internet might have taken there as well. I don't know.

1301
01:45:03.279 --> 01:45:08.199
I doubt it, though. So they told me you can't

1302
01:45:08.279 --> 01:45:10.279
use it, can't use it anymore because we're going to

1303
01:45:10.560 --> 01:45:12.800
They were going to build their own and they're in

1304
01:45:12.840 --> 01:45:14.880
the middle of doing it. And I had a little

1305
01:45:14.920 --> 01:45:19.520
hope then a little hope in my chest at a

1306
01:45:19.560 --> 01:45:24.399
little bit of a little bit of ooh, maybe they're

1307
01:45:24.399 --> 01:45:27.399
going to ask me to help build it. But they didn't.

1308
01:45:28.960 --> 01:45:34.159
They didn't at all, And I was like, oh, okay,

1309
01:45:34.640 --> 01:45:38.439
because I could have built it so easily what I

1310
01:45:38.439 --> 01:45:40.520
already had, but I could have made it much better.

1311
01:45:41.159 --> 01:45:43.680
And maybe looked into you know, with the right software

1312
01:45:43.720 --> 01:45:46.439
and stuff, I could have made it quite nice. It's

1313
01:45:46.439 --> 01:45:51.439
not that I was I didn't have any qualifications or experience.

1314
01:45:51.520 --> 01:45:54.760
I just had a year and a half of phaneticism

1315
01:45:56.920 --> 01:46:02.720
for building websites. That was my obsession. I was obsessed

1316
01:46:02.960 --> 01:46:07.399
with it. That's all I did with my time. Loved it,

1317
01:46:08.520 --> 01:46:11.560
loved every second of it. It's weird. I just absolutely

1318
01:46:12.119 --> 01:46:18.880
loved it. And they never built the Internet the Internet

1319
01:46:19.560 --> 01:46:25.439
website while I was there, anyway, but they did tell

1320
01:46:25.479 --> 01:46:29.399
people to take it off. I didn't take it off mine,

1321
01:46:29.520 --> 01:46:31.880
and other people didn't take it off theirs either, so

1322
01:46:31.960 --> 01:46:36.720
people were still using it. So they just you know,

1323
01:46:37.159 --> 01:46:39.520
they were still putting stuff on the Internet like individual

1324
01:46:39.520 --> 01:46:41.479
where they didn't put it in a way that you

1325
01:46:41.479 --> 01:46:46.039
could just find it easily and quickly. So I just

1326
01:46:46.079 --> 01:46:49.199
continued using mine and updating it as I needed it.

1327
01:46:51.000 --> 01:46:54.039
And a year later they still hadn't I think the

1328
01:46:54.079 --> 01:46:58.560
bloke left, they still hadn't put it together. I'm sure

1329
01:46:58.600 --> 01:47:03.760
they have now twenty odd years later, but it was

1330
01:47:03.880 --> 01:47:08.720
it was like a little quite a nice little moment

1331
01:47:08.800 --> 01:47:11.560
for me, really, Although to start with, I was a

1332
01:47:11.600 --> 01:47:13.760
little bit concerned I've been taken in the room with

1333
01:47:13.840 --> 01:47:21.800
four men thinking all what I've had done. But yeah,

1334
01:47:21.840 --> 01:47:24.199
it was it was quite cool. They just couldn't believe it.

1335
01:47:24.159 --> 01:47:24.319
Like.

1336
01:47:25.800 --> 01:47:28.680
How could you do that on your own? The thing

1337
01:47:28.760 --> 01:47:35.479
is it was quite basic code HTML. It's once you

1338
01:47:35.560 --> 01:47:40.920
see that even now, actually even now I can because

1339
01:47:40.960 --> 01:47:43.920
I use code for my website. It's code is already there,

1340
01:47:43.920 --> 01:47:47.560
but I add my own code and I can get

1341
01:47:47.840 --> 01:47:50.239
chet GPT to make the code. But I can change

1342
01:47:50.239 --> 01:47:55.199
the code. I still know now it's very basic. Just

1343
01:47:55.199 --> 01:47:58.640
by changing the size of things, the color of things.

1344
01:47:59.399 --> 01:48:03.720
I can change the links, so I can play around

1345
01:48:03.720 --> 01:48:08.520
with the code. Even now, even after all those years,

1346
01:48:08.119 --> 01:48:11.479
it is quite it's quite handy. I can read through

1347
01:48:11.520 --> 01:48:17.119
the code and kind of find some stuff, you know,

1348
01:48:18.560 --> 01:48:22.159
even after all those years. So a year and a

1349
01:48:22.199 --> 01:48:29.079
half of obsession, some of it did stick. But then

1350
01:48:29.119 --> 01:48:33.479
again in two thousand and four, I was building my

1351
01:48:33.479 --> 01:48:36.880
own websites as well, so I took a break from

1352
01:48:36.880 --> 01:48:46.800
building websites for two years, so two thousand and two,

1353
01:48:47.079 --> 01:48:50.119
two thousand, no, about a year and a half, two years,

1354
01:48:50.479 --> 01:48:55.159
and then I started again. So in September two thousand

1355
01:48:55.199 --> 01:48:57.640
and one or no, it was a summer two thousand

1356
01:48:57.640 --> 01:49:00.479
and one, I was no longer building website. It's because

1357
01:49:00.520 --> 01:49:05.399
I was evicted. And then I moved to a new

1358
01:49:05.439 --> 01:49:10.159
place and I lived there two thousand and one, two

1359
01:49:10.199 --> 01:49:19.920
thousand and two, and probably yeah, two thousand and three

1360
01:49:20.199 --> 01:49:22.920
I got a computer and I started building websites again.

1361
01:49:23.640 --> 01:49:27.279
And then two thousand and four I built a website

1362
01:49:27.960 --> 01:49:32.079
which was helped with pain. And then two thousand and

1363
01:49:32.119 --> 01:49:37.520
six I built my website free Pain Relief dot co

1364
01:49:37.520 --> 01:49:45.239
dot uk. So I built that with code, and then

1365
01:49:45.600 --> 01:49:52.520
eventually I started using website builders because it was just easier.

1366
01:49:52.920 --> 01:49:56.640
It was a lot quicker, so I stopped using code.

1367
01:49:56.680 --> 01:50:00.600
I stopped building them from code, which was probably in

1368
01:50:00.640 --> 01:50:04.560
some ways a mistake, because that was a skill that

1369
01:50:04.600 --> 01:50:11.560
I could have built upon. And I'm not saying that

1370
01:50:11.640 --> 01:50:14.760
I was skillful, but it was definitely some knowledge I

1371
01:50:14.840 --> 01:50:20.800
had which everyone was doing something that I really enjoyed

1372
01:50:20.800 --> 01:50:23.800
doing as well. So there's a lot of shouting in

1373
01:50:23.800 --> 01:50:27.079
the garden, so I'm going to go, so thank you

1374
01:50:27.119 --> 01:50:29.640
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1375
01:50:29.720 --> 01:50:33.880
do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You

1376
01:50:33.960 --> 01:50:45.119
do deserve to feel safe. Lots of love, bye, relax.

1377
01:50:48.279 --> 01:50:58.840
In a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

1378
01:50:58.920 --> 01:51:06.439
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

1379
01:51:07.640 --> 01:51:17.039
now and throughout the time we spend together here, not

1380
01:51:17.600 --> 01:51:22.920
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

1381
01:51:23.000 --> 01:51:30.159
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1382
01:51:34.880 --> 01:51:47.720
but also I think it would be nice to have

1383
01:51:48.199 --> 01:52:04.479
those feelings of relaxation continue for long, longer after the

1384
01:52:04.560 --> 01:52:18.119
recording has ended, so that you can still benefit from

1385
01:52:18.239 --> 01:52:25.159
listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1386
01:52:27.039 --> 01:52:40.520
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1387
01:52:40.720 --> 01:52:45.359
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1388
01:52:45.520 --> 01:52:52.279
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1389
01:52:56.600 --> 01:52:59.000
and I'll just listen to it over and over again

1390
01:53:01.239 --> 01:53:14.279
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1391
01:53:14.319 --> 01:53:20.079
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1392
01:53:20.119 --> 01:53:25.439
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1393
01:53:27.920 --> 01:53:33.119
and I managed to find it again and it still

1394
01:53:33.199 --> 01:53:38.800
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1395
01:53:38.920 --> 01:53:53.680
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1396
01:53:55.800 --> 01:54:02.239
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1397
01:54:02.359 --> 01:54:13.039
morning and in the evening and I knew before even

1398
01:54:13.800 --> 01:54:22.279
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1399
01:54:22.319 --> 01:54:30.840
the play button. This is in the days of CD

1400
01:54:31.039 --> 01:54:39.720
players press the play button. If that it might have

1401
01:54:39.800 --> 01:54:44.119
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1402
01:54:44.159 --> 01:54:57.000
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1403
01:54:57.199 --> 01:55:10.119
words because I had to memorized. Really, it was as

1404
01:55:10.159 --> 01:55:20.880
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1405
01:55:21.039 --> 01:55:43.079
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1406
01:55:43.199 --> 01:55:57.239
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1407
01:55:57.279 --> 01:56:04.039
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1408
01:56:06.600 --> 01:56:14.439
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1409
01:56:14.479 --> 01:56:19.279
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1410
01:56:19.279 --> 01:56:38.600
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1411
01:56:38.680 --> 01:56:49.000
found being able to just let go, to have that

1412
01:56:49.319 --> 01:57:01.960
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1413
01:57:02.039 --> 01:57:10.439
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1414
01:57:13.039 --> 01:57:20.000
Each time you hear my voice. You may feel the same.

1415
01:57:26.359 --> 01:57:41.079
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1416
01:57:41.800 --> 01:57:45.840
maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day,

1417
01:57:47.560 --> 01:57:54.079
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1418
01:57:54.159 --> 01:58:10.760
every day and something that I do, which you may

1419
01:58:10.840 --> 01:58:31.840
not realize by listening. Is when I record these recordings now,

1420
01:58:31.960 --> 01:58:44.479
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1421
01:58:44.600 --> 01:58:56.760
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1422
01:58:59.279 --> 01:59:07.039
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1423
01:59:11.920 --> 01:59:29.319
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1424
01:59:29.479 --> 01:59:37.119
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1425
01:59:37.199 --> 01:59:47.439
each hand, perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1426
01:59:47.960 --> 01:59:52.800
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1427
02:00:00.600 --> 02:00:04.479
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1428
02:00:04.640 --> 02:00:12.560
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1429
02:00:13.079 --> 02:00:18.000
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1430
02:00:26.159 --> 02:00:36.800
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1431
02:00:37.119 --> 02:01:05.319
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1432
02:01:05.479 --> 02:01:12.439
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1433
02:01:12.520 --> 02:01:25.680
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1434
02:01:28.880 --> 02:01:42.359
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1435
02:01:50.239 --> 02:02:02.840
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1436
02:02:07.720 --> 02:02:16.840
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1437
02:02:17.159 --> 02:02:26.239
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1438
02:02:28.159 --> 02:02:35.439
and I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1439
02:02:38.239 --> 02:02:45.439
Was this snoring was a pig turned up. That's why

1440
02:02:45.439 --> 02:02:53.199
I sound like when I snare and I get really

1441
02:02:53.319 --> 02:03:06.800
into the whole experience, I don't know how you feel,

1442
02:03:12.960 --> 02:03:23.520
how relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1443
02:03:23.680 --> 02:03:25.239
feel in your hands.

1444
02:03:40.319 --> 02:03:52.000
I have noticed more and more that the more.

1445
02:03:51.840 --> 02:04:08.920
Relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your

1446
02:04:08.960 --> 02:04:32.520
breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So

1447
02:04:32.600 --> 02:04:55.800
this allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on

1448
02:04:55.840 --> 02:05:24.720
your breath, however, being able to notice the ease in

1449
02:05:24.880 --> 02:05:52.079
which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so very easily

1450
02:05:53.640 --> 02:05:55.439
and smoothly.

1451
02:06:23.079 --> 02:06:40.800
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my

1452
02:06:40.920 --> 02:06:59.640
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field. We've

1453
02:07:00.039 --> 02:07:00.960
breeze and.

1454
02:07:01.119 --> 02:07:41.520
Flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice two,

1455
02:07:43.159 --> 02:08:02.119
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1456
02:08:13.399 --> 02:08:45.960
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1457
02:09:11.279 --> 02:09:13.319
Time seems to just.

1458
02:09:15.079 --> 02:09:16.560
Drip by.

1459
02:09:20.880 --> 02:10:10.720
So very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1460
02:10:11.600 --> 02:11:08.560
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1461
02:11:16.119 --> 02:12:02.680
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1462
02:12:02.880 --> 02:12:33.479
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1463
02:12:33.640 --> 02:12:46.119
allowing the stress to rip out of your body, to

1464
02:12:46.199 --> 02:13:10.920
appear out of every part of your body being released

1465
02:13:16.159 --> 02:13:55.880
from your brain, un your mind slowly but surely. The

1466
02:13:56.079 --> 02:14:44.000
muscles in your legs relax x so very deeply, res

1467
02:14:48.840 --> 02:15:14.239
so deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1468
02:15:14.520 --> 02:15:42.359
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1469
02:15:47.319 --> 02:16:20.359
and deeper and deep uh noticine, the feelings in the

1470
02:16:20.399 --> 02:17:20.280
back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles

1471
02:17:22.360 --> 02:17:59.639
in the front of your body. I allsoy feeling peaceful deeply.

1472
02:18:16.639 --> 02:18:26.920
There's a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core.

1473
02:18:57.440 --> 02:19:17.360
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

1474
02:19:24.719 --> 02:20:46.680
eve and slower, even deeper, relax so very slow his

1475
02:20:47.079 --> 02:21:26.559
stomach peace fall in your stomach. You're back.

1476
02:21:31.959 --> 02:22:01.239
Notice Notice how relaxed You'd never feel the hole of

1477
02:22:01.319 --> 02:22:02.239
your back.

1478
02:22:27.120 --> 02:22:36.239
In A spy from your brain all the way down the

1479
02:22:36.280 --> 02:22:46.959
middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages

1480
02:22:47.680 --> 02:24:18.719
every day deep comfort increasing deeply relaxed, unis RELs spreading

1481
02:24:18.879 --> 02:24:27.959
those signals down a spine or cord into air. Every

1482
02:24:28.280 --> 02:24:48.959
part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles

1483
02:25:14.200 --> 02:25:15.440
were elbows.

1484
02:25:31.680 --> 02:25:49.120
Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

1485
02:25:49.159 --> 02:26:05.000
of your toes to your eyes. You fear fingers all

1486
02:26:05.000 --> 02:26:22.559
the way till you lower back. M lettinker Rea the tinker,

1487
02:26:50.399 --> 02:27:33.200
peace drifting mind just wandering away. Happy to let go,

1488
02:27:36.440 --> 02:28:37.799
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body

1489
02:28:42.079 --> 02:30:23.520
enjoying a sense of listening. Guy he for more peace,

1490
02:30:23.799 --> 02:31:09.159
for joy, the space, this space.

1491
02:31:11.639 --> 02:33:19.600
Of peace and safety. So firy, fary, relaxed, letting go.

1492
02:33:37.520 --> 02:33:45.120
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1493
02:33:45.239 --> 02:34:53.040
your body, just to notice a forehead in your eyes. Hauo.

1494
02:34:58.719 --> 02:35:39.399
So this noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

1495
02:36:25.440 --> 02:37:36.760
pri pri he's for energy peace to breathe such easier.

1496
02:38:17.719 --> 02:38:50.399
Loose you may have you may not have noticed your

1497
02:38:50.559 --> 02:39:43.959
mind drifting, peaceful, move.

1498
02:39:44.520 --> 02:40:04.799
Even more deeply in the direction of total bliss for pace,

1499
02:40:08.959 --> 02:42:12.760
bliss for pace, raft, total peace. Come soap, letting go

1500
02:42:37.680 --> 02:43:49.200
peace with mind. Rexed Forday, so relaxed, relaxed. Your body

1501
02:43:49.920 --> 02:44:30.159
feels almost invisible, So the very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful,

1502
02:44:46.000 --> 02:45:29.719
relax liquor, and you.

1503
02:45:29.719 --> 02:45:36.879
Could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1504
02:45:39.879 --> 02:45:49.719
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1505
02:45:50.959 --> 02:45:57.079
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1506
02:45:57.159 --> 02:46:10.040
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1507
02:46:10.120 --> 02:46:17.600
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1508
02:46:17.840 --> 02:46:32.680
speech not being particularly fast and things just generally feel calmer.

1509
02:46:36.120 --> 02:46:44.120
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1510
02:46:44.159 --> 02:46:52.159
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1511
02:46:52.200 --> 02:46:59.760
break from your life as it is, and to give

1512
02:46:59.799 --> 02:47:08.399
your self arrest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

1513
02:47:10.600 --> 02:47:15.959
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1514
02:47:16.120 --> 02:47:26.760
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

1515
02:47:28.159 --> 02:47:36.879
and he stresses that you had in your body. It's

1516
02:47:36.920 --> 02:47:41.600
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1517
02:47:42.840 --> 02:47:54.479
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1518
02:47:55.319 --> 02:48:04.840
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1519
02:48:04.879 --> 02:48:07.399
body up and your.

1520
02:48:07.319 --> 02:48:24.239
Mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence,

1521
02:48:28.079 --> 02:48:44.680
an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads

1522
02:48:45.120 --> 02:48:55.959
through your body like a wave of comfort. And all

1523
02:48:56.000 --> 02:49:08.079
this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes maybe

1524
02:49:08.200 --> 02:49:10.959
half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1525
02:49:12.280 --> 02:49:14.600
to just rest.

1526
02:49:19.559 --> 02:49:20.600
And allow.

1527
02:49:22.719 --> 02:49:32.680
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1528
02:49:33.399 --> 02:49:49.040
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1529
02:49:49.200 --> 02:50:02.639
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1530
02:50:02.840 --> 02:50:11.079
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1531
02:50:11.200 --> 02:50:21.760
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1532
02:50:22.000 --> 02:50:37.559
other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice.

1533
02:50:37.719 --> 02:50:43.760
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1534
02:50:43.760 --> 02:50:53.959
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1535
02:50:57.200 --> 02:51:00.239
and to experience.

1536
02:51:01.799 --> 02:51:18.479
More of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And

1537
02:51:18.559 --> 02:51:26.120
as I focus on each part of your body, you

1538
02:51:26.200 --> 02:51:40.200
can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed just

1539
02:51:40.440 --> 02:51:49.280
by focusing on it. It becomes even more calm and

1540
02:51:49.479 --> 02:52:00.159
comfortable just by focusing. And as I move down on

1541
02:52:00.200 --> 02:52:07.840
your body, starting at your head, the parts that you've

1542
02:52:08.079 --> 02:52:18.079
already focused on will continue to relax deeply, and those

1543
02:52:18.200 --> 02:52:24.920
parts that we've not yet focused on or just automatically

1544
02:52:28.680 --> 02:52:37.440
release any remaining tension in anticipation of even more comfort

1545
02:52:38.799 --> 02:52:49.520
about to come. Now, I'm going to start by focusing

1546
02:52:50.159 --> 02:52:56.920
on your forehead, just being aware the feelings of your

1547
02:52:57.000 --> 02:53:07.520
forehead and any background sounds. But mister Herbert, the pigeon

1548
02:53:09.440 --> 02:53:16.520
can just allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just

1549
02:53:16.680 --> 02:53:22.600
means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't a

1550
02:53:22.760 --> 02:53:32.840
sterile environment. This is the world. I live in the countryside,

1551
02:53:33.239 --> 02:53:43.200
so there's lots of nature sounds around. So as you

1552
02:53:43.360 --> 02:53:50.879
focus on your forehead, just notice how it becomes even.

1553
02:53:50.680 --> 02:54:00.399
More relaxed as you focus only on my voice and

1554
02:54:00.440 --> 02:54:08.959
that part of your body. Moving down to your eyes,

1555
02:54:10.920 --> 02:54:22.079
focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so

1556
02:54:22.399 --> 02:54:32.120
heavy yet so light at the same time, and all

1557
02:54:32.159 --> 02:54:37.479
the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely.

1558
02:54:42.159 --> 02:54:49.840
Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1559
02:54:51.000 --> 02:55:02.079
your teeth, and your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1560
02:55:02.440 --> 02:55:12.879
calm and loose. As you focus now on your jawl

1561
02:55:15.760 --> 02:55:19.360
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1562
02:55:20.120 --> 02:55:24.440
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1563
02:55:24.479 --> 02:55:32.760
of your face to your ears, a hole of your jaw,

1564
02:55:33.959 --> 02:55:41.079
feeding more relaxed.

1565
02:55:44.520 --> 02:55:52.959
And calm.

1566
02:55:53.399 --> 02:56:02.559
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1567
02:56:02.600 --> 02:56:15.639
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The side of

1568
02:56:15.719 --> 02:56:21.040
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1569
02:56:23.920 --> 02:56:39.799
relax and loose and calm, and now the back of

1570
02:56:39.879 --> 02:56:52.719
your neck, focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1571
02:56:52.920 --> 02:56:57.600
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1572
02:56:59.360 --> 02:57:09.760
and in joy in that sense of increasing comfort and

1573
02:57:10.120 --> 02:57:17.440
release that you can experience in the back of your neck,

1574
02:57:23.719 --> 02:57:29.639
moving down your back and moving either.

1575
02:57:29.479 --> 02:57:33.479
Side of your spine right from the top of.

1576
02:57:33.440 --> 02:57:34.319
Your back.

1577
02:57:35.920 --> 02:57:39.600
All the way down to the bottom of your back

1578
02:57:45.559 --> 02:57:56.840
down to your lower back. And as you move up

1579
02:57:56.959 --> 02:58:05.760
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1580
02:58:05.920 --> 02:58:19.479
side of your spine relaxing even more. And as those

1581
02:58:19.600 --> 02:58:29.040
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1582
02:58:30.600 --> 02:58:40.280
from your spine into both sides of your back, the

1583
02:58:40.319 --> 02:58:43.840
top of your back, the middle and your lower back.

1584
02:58:47.319 --> 02:58:53.200
And as you scan gently and slowly.

1585
02:58:53.719 --> 02:58:59.000
Up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1586
02:58:59.120 --> 02:59:08.959
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1587
02:59:09.079 --> 02:59:14.760
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1588
02:59:15.159 --> 02:59:29.680
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, And

1589
02:59:29.879 --> 02:59:35.959
in your lower back it seems to be an extra

1590
02:59:36.159 --> 02:59:52.159
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips, so

1591
02:59:52.399 --> 03:00:00.559
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1592
03:00:00.600 --> 03:00:09.120
where your cocksix are and into your buttocks, and all

1593
03:00:09.120 --> 03:00:18.440
those muscles that spread from your lower back into your

1594
03:00:18.559 --> 03:00:31.920
hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1595
03:00:38.319 --> 03:00:43.399
I don't even know where about. To focus on your shoulders.

1596
03:00:45.040 --> 03:00:52.200
Your back, and your spine will continue to let go,

1597
03:00:55.120 --> 03:01:10.840
continue to relax so calmly. And as you focus on

1598
03:01:10.879 --> 03:01:23.840
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose,

1599
03:01:28.600 --> 03:01:46.799
they're already feeding calm, and they're feeling.

1600
03:01:50.600 --> 03:01:58.959
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders

1601
03:02:05.479 --> 03:02:34.879
feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1602
03:02:35.079 --> 03:02:47.959
the feeling in your shoulders seens to spread deep into

1603
03:02:48.000 --> 03:02:58.440
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1604
03:02:58.840 --> 03:03:06.319
into your muscle, but also relaxing.

1605
03:03:08.360 --> 03:03:16.760
The bones and moving all the way.

1606
03:03:16.719 --> 03:03:25.479
To underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area between the

1607
03:03:25.600 --> 03:03:30.360
tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1608
03:03:34.159 --> 03:03:40.840
Healing. You feel so.

1609
03:03:42.719 --> 03:03:56.799
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep

1610
03:03:57.600 --> 03:04:18.479
healing message into your arms, and you may feel almost

1611
03:04:18.600 --> 03:04:23.399
as if your arms are not even there because they're

1612
03:04:23.840 --> 03:04:28.959
so relaxed, so.

1613
03:04:30.360 --> 03:05:14.319
Deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1614
03:04:59.600 --> 03:04:59.760
So.

1615
03:05:06.479 --> 03:05:21.559
Loose, not feeling spreading all the way down your arms,

1616
03:05:24.239 --> 03:05:46.360
two elbows, including your elbows circumforts, spreads.

1617
03:05:49.639 --> 03:06:11.840
All away into wrists, your forearments injurers, so heavy, yet

1618
03:06:12.079 --> 03:06:56.639
at the same time so light and gentle. Folks. Now on,

1619
03:06:59.040 --> 03:07:52.760
you have my hands, so peaceful in your hands. There's

1620
03:07:52.760 --> 03:08:16.159
a sense of real peace. It just seems to feel

1621
03:08:18.399 --> 03:08:55.079
so familiar. When your hands relax deeply, ees your fingers,

1622
03:09:27.239 --> 03:10:32.840
you thinks sadly, you think your tips, moving your attention

1623
03:10:34.200 --> 03:11:01.840
to the front of your body, so comfortable, Move on

1624
03:11:02.120 --> 03:12:46.120
your focus your legs, a muscles in your thighs, your

1625
03:12:46.200 --> 03:13:23.959
knees so relaxed, a carved mussels, and just shins.

1626
03:13:27.079 --> 03:15:45.879
Co pusly four the feathing your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm,

1627
03:15:47.959 --> 03:16:36.760
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so com.

1628
03:16:37.520 --> 03:17:11.000
So peace for re sin peace for so calm, allowing

1629
03:17:11.079 --> 03:17:18.319
that deep relaxation to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1630
03:17:22.000 --> 03:17:49.120
so letting go of everything. So I'm gonna.

1631
03:17:48.920 --> 03:18:00.799
Start counting down now, from twenty down to one. You

1632
03:18:00.840 --> 03:18:04.319
can imagine in a way it's like just walking down

1633
03:18:04.479 --> 03:18:10.239
some steps and each step or twenty steps, and each

1634
03:18:10.360 --> 03:18:23.040
step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a

1635
03:18:23.239 --> 03:18:35.760
deepening of that comfort and the furvies you walk down

1636
03:18:35.840 --> 03:18:48.079
those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So

1637
03:18:48.680 --> 03:22:38.600
starting with number twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen sickst eight

1638
03:23:21.360 --> 03:24:22.600
four four two.

1639
03:25:28.600 --> 03:27:39.479
Too well five five.

1640
03:28:44.639 --> 03:33:17.079
Nine hey seven four.

1641
03:33:40.079 --> 03:35:00.440
Five four four.

1642
03:38:37.719 --> 03:39:44.200
One. And now as you focus on your eyes, we're

1643
03:39:44.239 --> 03:39:55.840
going to count down from ten outs one, focusing just

1644
03:39:56.000 --> 03:40:03.959
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

1645
03:40:06.959 --> 03:40:15.719
your eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up

1646
03:40:15.760 --> 03:40:31.799
your eye. And as we count down from ten down

1647
03:40:31.879 --> 03:40:44.920
to one, whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll become

1648
03:40:46.920 --> 03:40:59.040
twice is relaxed with each number counting down, and you

1649
03:40:59.200 --> 03:41:06.760
may find the all you want to do is just

1650
03:41:08.760 --> 03:41:15.959
drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want,

1651
03:41:18.959 --> 03:41:31.799
then just allow yourself to do that. Now, focus in

1652
03:41:31.879 --> 03:41:39.000
on your eyes. I'm going to begin counting down from

1653
03:41:39.159 --> 03:44:50.840
ten down to one right now, ten nine eight seven sy.

1654
03:45:52.760 --> 03:51:07.959
Five four three two one two. Counting down from ten

1655
03:51:08.040 --> 03:51:32.680
to one ten nine eight seven six five four three two.

1656
03:51:34.559 --> 03:51:44.399
One. And maybe that was a bit too quick in

1657
03:51:44.479 --> 03:51:48.600
order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for

1658
03:51:48.639 --> 03:51:58.440
you to notice the calming of your body. Maybe even

1659
03:51:58.680 --> 03:52:02.319
a little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down

1660
03:52:02.399 --> 03:52:03.360
from ten to one.

1661
03:52:03.440 --> 03:52:06.840
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

1662
03:52:06.879 --> 03:52:16.760
stick go floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1663
03:52:16.760 --> 03:52:20.639
try it again, but this time I go this lower.

1664
03:52:22.719 --> 03:52:27.639
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1665
03:52:27.639 --> 03:52:31.239
body before we focus on your legs.

1666
03:52:33.559 --> 03:52:42.799
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1667
03:52:43.159 --> 03:54:03.760
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

1668
03:54:04.040 --> 03:54:41.760
two one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

1669
03:54:42.159 --> 03:54:56.479
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1670
03:54:56.600 --> 03:55:03.840
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1671
03:55:05.079 --> 03:55:23.639
that space between being active physically or mentally to just.

1672
03:55:28.239 --> 03:55:33.479
Sitting or lying down and just being there, not doing anything,

1673
03:55:33.639 --> 03:55:40.280
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1674
03:55:40.959 --> 03:55:44.000
that opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1675
03:55:44.000 --> 03:55:45.200
a space.

1676
03:55:45.639 --> 03:55:55.440
A gap. And the more I came down from ten

1677
03:55:55.559 --> 03:56:03.040
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1678
03:56:03.159 --> 03:56:16.959
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1679
03:56:21.319 --> 03:56:30.079
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1680
03:56:30.719 --> 03:56:39.360
moves them away.

1681
03:56:40.520 --> 03:56:44.760
Allows you to just.

1682
03:56:47.680 --> 03:56:54.440
Slow down, someone to count again, from ten down to one,

1683
03:56:54.840 --> 03:56:56.920
and notice that.

1684
03:56:57.520 --> 03:57:05.719
Gap widening, the gap, and as it widens, it's almost

1685
03:57:05.879 --> 03:57:25.040
like the stress and attention falls into the gap and

1686
03:57:25.120 --> 03:57:37.040
gives you that distance, that space. Now ten.

1687
03:57:41.280 --> 03:58:08.360
Nine, eight, seven, six.

1688
03:58:20.680 --> 03:59:00.680
Five four three mhm.

1689
03:59:07.319 --> 03:59:37.000
Two one.

1690
03:59:37.760 --> 03:59:57.959
Now, how does your body feel now? Can you notice

1691
03:59:59.239 --> 04:00:10.200
that you're feeling calmer, the feeling.

1692
04:00:12.040 --> 04:00:39.479
More relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1693
04:00:39.600 --> 04:01:01.079
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1694
04:01:15.760 --> 04:01:20.120
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1695
04:01:20.840 --> 04:01:27.280
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1696
04:01:27.319 --> 04:01:39.559
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1697
04:01:39.639 --> 04:01:45.719
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1698
04:01:46.000 --> 04:01:52.639
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1699
04:01:52.719 --> 04:01:58.079
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1700
04:01:58.120 --> 04:02:05.959
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1701
04:02:06.959 --> 04:02:21.040
down to your knee joints. Now, this is a big area.

1702
04:02:21.559 --> 04:02:26.520
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1703
04:02:26.600 --> 04:02:41.319
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1704
04:02:41.360 --> 04:02:49.920
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1705
04:02:55.719 --> 04:03:06.479
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1706
04:03:06.639 --> 04:03:27.360
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1707
04:03:27.360 --> 04:03:37.840
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1708
04:03:37.920 --> 04:03:46.399
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1709
04:03:46.399 --> 04:03:54.040
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1710
04:03:55.040 --> 04:04:13.120
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1711
04:04:13.159 --> 04:04:22.280
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1712
04:04:22.440 --> 04:04:29.200
sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I Surely

1713
04:04:29.239 --> 04:04:32.079
I should be out in the garden hugging a tree

1714
04:04:32.239 --> 04:04:40.360
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1715
04:04:40.399 --> 04:04:43.760
on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1716
04:04:43.760 --> 04:04:47.159
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1717
04:04:47.159 --> 04:04:55.959
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1718
04:04:55.959 --> 04:05:05.680
to your knees, getting such an important in part, and

1719
04:05:05.719 --> 04:05:10.200
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1720
04:05:12.639 --> 04:05:17.760
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my nees do for

1721
04:05:17.840 --> 04:05:24.360
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1722
04:05:24.399 --> 04:05:29.360
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1723
04:05:29.520 --> 04:05:36.000
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1724
04:05:36.040 --> 04:05:40.479
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1725
04:05:40.639 --> 04:05:49.879
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1726
04:05:50.680 --> 04:05:59.440
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1727
04:06:00.520 --> 04:06:07.639
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1728
04:06:09.680 --> 04:06:15.360
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1729
04:06:15.600 --> 04:06:22.040
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all.

1730
04:06:21.879 --> 04:06:34.200
That they do for you. And you can still have

1731
04:06:34.239 --> 04:06:38.479
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1732
04:06:38.520 --> 04:06:43.840
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that.

1733
04:06:43.680 --> 04:06:45.159
They are.

1734
04:06:46.760 --> 04:07:02.600
Relaxing more deeply as you focus is now on the

1735
04:07:02.639 --> 04:07:07.000
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles

1736
04:07:07.360 --> 04:07:15.079
and the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate,

1737
04:07:15.200 --> 04:07:26.559
and of course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had

1738
04:07:27.360 --> 04:07:34.840
even the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1739
04:07:34.959 --> 04:07:45.079
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1740
04:07:45.079 --> 04:07:50.639
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1741
04:07:50.959 --> 04:07:54.040
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1742
04:07:54.079 --> 04:07:58.959
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't can't see any

1743
04:07:58.959 --> 04:08:02.360
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up.

1744
04:08:03.879 --> 04:08:05.440
But our ankles.

1745
04:08:06.600 --> 04:08:16.600
So much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1746
04:08:16.680 --> 04:08:21.239
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1747
04:08:21.280 --> 04:08:28.559
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1748
04:08:29.559 --> 04:08:39.600
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1749
04:08:40.719 --> 04:08:47.719
a thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1750
04:08:49.799 --> 04:08:59.520
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1751
04:09:00.079 --> 04:09:08.639
to balance, It helps you to get her around and

1752
04:09:08.680 --> 04:09:16.959
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1753
04:09:17.000 --> 04:09:24.639
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1754
04:09:24.680 --> 04:09:29.879
point in calf muscles. I didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1755
04:09:30.879 --> 04:09:34.399
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1756
04:09:34.440 --> 04:09:35.120
get some work.

1757
04:09:36.479 --> 04:09:39.040
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1758
04:09:39.079 --> 04:09:48.959
being used whenever we use her legs and your shins

1759
04:09:52.239 --> 04:10:01.280
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way,

1760
04:10:03.079 --> 04:10:15.239
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1761
04:10:15.280 --> 04:10:25.440
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1762
04:10:25.479 --> 04:10:27.680
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1763
04:10:27.719 --> 04:10:28.399
on the legs.

1764
04:10:30.399 --> 04:10:31.680
I realize.

1765
04:10:33.120 --> 04:10:37.040
That now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focuses

1766
04:10:37.280 --> 04:10:40.959
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your feet.

1767
04:10:40.719 --> 04:10:49.000
A little bit. You can have them in your awareness

1768
04:10:49.000 --> 04:10:52.840
the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1769
04:10:53.559 --> 04:10:57.520
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a

1770
04:10:57.559 --> 04:11:08.680
few minutes that we're focusing on your ankles, there's still

1771
04:11:08.719 --> 04:11:23.840
that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's that

1772
04:11:24.280 --> 04:11:27.479
movement of energy.

1773
04:11:29.159 --> 04:11:36.200
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1774
04:11:36.239 --> 04:11:41.040
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1775
04:11:41.200 --> 04:11:54.600
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1776
04:11:54.639 --> 04:12:00.079
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1777
04:12:00.760 --> 04:12:12.360
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1778
04:12:18.879 --> 04:12:26.399
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1779
04:12:26.440 --> 04:12:31.280
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, to all this stuff

1780
04:12:31.399 --> 04:12:40.120
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1781
04:12:40.200 --> 04:12:44.399
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1782
04:12:44.399 --> 04:12:50.639
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1783
04:12:50.879 --> 04:12:53.799
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1784
04:12:53.840 --> 04:12:58.680
the muscles, and to be able to just message inside

1785
04:12:58.719 --> 04:13:05.719
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1786
04:13:05.799 --> 04:13:15.200
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1787
04:13:18.959 --> 04:13:24.319
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1788
04:13:25.680 --> 04:13:32.520
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1789
04:13:32.600 --> 04:13:38.440
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1790
04:13:43.760 --> 04:13:44.840
Of course, there's the.

1791
04:13:44.719 --> 04:13:48.959
Back of your your knee, you know, the inside crease

1792
04:13:49.959 --> 04:13:56.959
where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very

1793
04:13:57.600 --> 04:13:59.760
it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1794
04:14:01.040 --> 04:14:04.440
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1795
04:14:04.600 --> 04:14:11.239
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1796
04:14:11.399 --> 04:14:18.159
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

1797
04:14:18.280 --> 04:14:23.200
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1798
04:14:31.000 --> 04:14:40.920
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

1799
04:14:40.959 --> 04:14:46.360
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs

1800
04:14:51.680 --> 04:14:55.360
that fold in between your legs. You can just mess

1801
04:14:55.399 --> 04:15:02.639
out of your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going in massage

1802
04:15:02.680 --> 04:15:10.680
in the muscle tissue. You can of course field the

1803
04:15:11.760 --> 04:15:24.600
bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips, and then

1804
04:15:24.639 --> 04:15:30.399
as you go down to your calf muscles. Now that's

1805
04:15:30.440 --> 04:15:34.000
the part I'd like to be able to really put

1806
04:15:34.000 --> 04:15:42.559
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every

1807
04:15:42.600 --> 04:15:55.319
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then

1808
04:15:55.440 --> 04:16:02.440
doing the same for my shins, massage in and gently

1809
04:16:02.600 --> 04:16:09.760
stroking the bones, gently stroking them healing in a loving way,

1810
04:16:11.040 --> 04:16:17.440
because they deserve to be treated as the precious bones

1811
04:16:17.479 --> 04:16:22.120
that they are, because our legs are so precious as

1812
04:16:22.200 --> 04:16:26.959
in all the other parts of our body, and more

1813
04:16:26.959 --> 04:16:41.120
precious than any jure on the planet. When you start

1814
04:16:41.239 --> 04:16:53.239
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1815
04:16:53.399 --> 04:17:02.879
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1816
04:17:03.159 --> 04:17:08.680
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1817
04:17:08.719 --> 04:17:18.120
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1818
04:17:18.120 --> 04:17:24.680
able to put your hands in your thighs and massage

1819
04:17:25.479 --> 04:17:31.159
the muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers

1820
04:17:31.319 --> 04:17:41.120
deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show how

1821
04:17:41.239 --> 04:17:48.639
much you care about your legs, how much you care

1822
04:17:48.959 --> 04:17:57.000
for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1823
04:17:57.239 --> 04:18:10.079
your cars, your ankle, the strength of your ankles, considering

1824
04:18:10.280 --> 04:18:14.799
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1825
04:18:14.920 --> 04:18:28.680
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1826
04:18:28.879 --> 04:18:40.719
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1827
04:18:40.760 --> 04:18:52.079
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1828
04:18:52.120 --> 04:18:56.120
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1829
04:18:56.520 --> 04:19:01.319
ate stone, it's still a lot of weight for these

1830
04:19:01.719 --> 04:19:02.600
little ankles.

1831
04:19:06.120 --> 04:19:08.399
Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight snow.

1832
04:19:09.799 --> 04:19:19.000
Double down, yet my ankles support my body all the time.

1833
04:19:22.760 --> 04:19:25.719
Orthough they do give off a sigh of relief when

1834
04:19:25.719 --> 04:19:30.799
I sit down, as you have, my whole legs do.

1835
04:19:34.479 --> 04:19:41.319
My feet feet also go and my toes clap. They're

1836
04:19:41.360 --> 04:20:09.920
so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I know

1837
04:20:10.239 --> 04:20:17.200
that about talking about your legs is probably possibly among

1838
04:20:17.280 --> 04:20:21.600
the most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say.

1839
04:20:22.479 --> 04:20:32.040
Possibly, but boring or not, everything I said is true.

1840
04:20:32.399 --> 04:20:47.319
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1841
04:20:53.120 --> 04:20:54.959
they deserve to relax.

1842
04:20:56.239 --> 04:21:07.000
Deeply. They deserve to take some time out of the

1843
04:21:07.079 --> 04:21:38.239
day to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1844
04:21:45.840 --> 04:21:50.000
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1845
04:21:50.200 --> 04:21:56.159
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1846
04:21:56.239 --> 04:22:03.479
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1847
04:22:07.200 --> 04:22:18.079
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1848
04:22:19.440 --> 04:22:26.319
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

1849
04:22:26.360 --> 04:22:33.239
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1850
04:22:34.319 --> 04:22:37.399
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1851
04:22:37.479 --> 04:22:42.760
no stretching. As far as I'm aware that I'm doing

1852
04:22:43.760 --> 04:22:46.440
it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1853
04:22:46.639 --> 04:22:52.600
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1854
04:22:53.440 --> 04:23:14.719
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1855
04:23:14.760 --> 04:23:23.399
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1856
04:23:24.479 --> 04:23:50.840
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1857
04:23:55.399 --> 04:24:14.959
four three two Why relax?

1858
04:24:22.799 --> 04:24:26.639
So I'm just going to count down the five down

1859
04:24:26.680 --> 04:24:31.159
to one, And as a countdown, if you just focus

1860
04:24:31.239 --> 04:24:39.200
on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

1861
04:24:40.079 --> 04:24:46.040
how you feel in this moment.

1862
04:24:47.399 --> 04:24:51.840
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1863
04:24:51.920 --> 04:25:05.040
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1864
04:25:05.079 --> 04:25:13.440
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1865
04:25:13.479 --> 04:25:19.559
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1866
04:25:20.200 --> 04:25:37.360
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1867
04:25:46.760 --> 04:26:12.719
three two one.

1868
04:26:13.479 --> 04:26:19.959
And as you notice the gradual.

1869
04:26:22.159 --> 04:26:23.000
Letting go.

1870
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That the tension in your body, you may also begin

1871
04:26:32.360 --> 04:26:39.360
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1872
04:26:39.440 --> 04:26:47.280
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1873
04:26:47.719 --> 04:26:55.159
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1874
04:26:55.319 --> 04:27:01.559
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1875
04:27:01.600 --> 04:27:06.319
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes the more

1876
04:27:06.319 --> 04:27:11.639
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1877
04:27:17.639 --> 04:27:26.200
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1878
04:27:26.280 --> 04:27:33.360
even even if there's background sounds either your side, online,

1879
04:27:33.639 --> 04:27:38.239
it's still going to be quite calm.

1880
04:27:39.239 --> 04:27:41.920
You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

1881
04:27:42.200 --> 04:27:46.479
music in the background unless you're listening to the recording.

1882
04:27:46.479 --> 04:27:53.959
With music, of course, you're very likely not going to

1883
04:27:53.959 --> 04:27:57.079
be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

1884
04:27:57.120 --> 04:28:01.639
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

1885
04:28:01.719 --> 04:28:12.680
can do this on your own, so no distractions, and

1886
04:28:12.719 --> 04:28:22.879
when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation.

1887
04:28:24.000 --> 04:28:36.079
Automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow, and

1888
04:28:37.879 --> 04:28:43.159
without trying to build it up into something fantastical or

1889
04:28:46.520 --> 04:28:55.440
something magical, this is just a natural process, something that's

1890
04:28:56.399 --> 04:29:02.360
easy to accomplish.

1891
04:29:02.680 --> 04:29:07.079
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

1892
04:29:07.879 --> 04:29:14.680
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1893
04:29:14.680 --> 04:29:20.399
It's not something that you can really force. It's something

1894
04:29:20.520 --> 04:29:31.280
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

1895
04:29:31.559 --> 04:29:34.360
recording and others.

1896
04:29:35.520 --> 04:29:47.120
Is simply two allow you to take advantage of this space.

1897
04:29:49.719 --> 04:29:54.040
This time it's just.

1898
04:29:58.120 --> 04:29:58.639
Let go.

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04:30:01.559 --> 04:30:09.840
To just be here, to be in tune with how

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04:30:09.879 --> 04:30:23.280
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1901
04:30:23.399 --> 04:30:30.000
deeply and maybe even.

1902
04:30:31.280 --> 04:30:35.760
To fall asleep, depending on what it is that you

1903
04:30:36.799 --> 04:30:49.959
wish for yourself in this moment. As we know, relaxing

1904
04:30:51.600 --> 04:30:59.879
is the majority of the process of falling asleep. Yeah,

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04:31:00.040 --> 04:31:03.559
to have fallen asleep part is a tiny bit at

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04:31:03.600 --> 04:31:18.600
the end. The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you

1907
04:31:18.799 --> 04:31:34.559
find yourself drifting. You can also, if you choose stay

1908
04:31:36.159 --> 04:31:54.399
focused on my voice and really enjoy the process of

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04:31:54.799 --> 04:32:07.719
gradually relaxing each muscle.

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04:32:11.920 --> 04:32:38.920
In your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1911
04:32:39.040 --> 04:32:54.719
letting go completely. This time, I an a count from

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04:32:54.920 --> 04:33:05.720
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

1913
04:33:07.680 --> 04:33:21.159
calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1914
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feeling calm.

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And slow and peaceful. Six, five, four, three fa one,

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04:36:24.840 --> 04:36:32.119
being aware of how your mind has slowed.

1917
04:36:33.720 --> 04:36:59.959
Right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you folks

1918
04:37:00.319 --> 04:37:06.599
on your mind, you may notice that.

1919
04:37:08.080 --> 04:37:16.639
There are some thoughts still there.

1920
04:37:13.919 --> 04:37:23.479
Maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1921
04:37:23.560 --> 04:37:38.759
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

1922
04:37:38.959 --> 04:37:46.599
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

1923
04:37:49.919 --> 04:37:50.479
With love.

1924
04:37:52.200 --> 04:37:57.599
Might all petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them,

1925
04:37:57.880 --> 04:38:05.119
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1926
04:38:05.279 --> 04:38:11.799
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them. You just

1927
04:38:12.159 --> 04:38:22.279
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1928
04:38:24.560 --> 04:38:26.639
quiet down.

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For now.

1930
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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As we

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count down this time from seven down to one. With

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each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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04:39:03.880 --> 04:39:15.759
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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04:39:17.159 --> 04:39:32.240
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1935
04:39:32.319 --> 04:41:07.520
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

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Two one.

1937
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Yeah, And as you now.

1938
04:42:20.880 --> 04:42:42.240
Notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body, we're going.

1939
04:42:42.200 --> 04:42:55.919
To focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

1940
04:42:56.080 --> 04:43:03.000
hands are, the more relaxed extrar body and mind are.

1941
04:43:17.880 --> 04:43:24.119
And there's you focus on your hands and your fingers.

1942
04:43:29.479 --> 04:43:34.279
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching the

1943
04:43:34.520 --> 04:43:39.080
fists or tents in the fingers or anything like that.

1944
04:43:46.319 --> 04:43:52.599
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands.

1945
04:43:59.520 --> 04:44:20.680
Notice and how they feel, because the more relaxed your

1946
04:44:20.840 --> 04:44:31.040
hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and the more

1947
04:44:33.639 --> 04:44:38.599
comfort you feel throughout your body.

1948
04:44:43.759 --> 04:45:14.240
And you may have already noticed you're mind is starting

1949
04:45:17.799 --> 04:45:45.840
to dress face just on your hands and fingers, allowing

1950
04:45:46.439 --> 04:46:00.959
them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation in

1951
04:46:01.000 --> 04:46:19.119
your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each

1952
04:46:19.360 --> 04:46:39.680
number from eight down to one. You can almost feel

1953
04:46:40.080 --> 04:46:52.400
that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers,

1954
04:46:54.159 --> 04:47:15.680
becoming year more relaxing with each number you hear, going

1955
04:47:15.799 --> 04:47:36.080
down from eight down to one, drifting, drifting again, starting

1956
04:47:36.360 --> 04:49:56.799
with number eight, seven, six, five, four.

1957
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Three foo, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1958
04:51:44.680 --> 04:51:56.319
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1959
04:52:00.680 --> 04:52:08.279
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1960
04:52:08.439 --> 04:52:11.200
how you just normally.

1961
04:52:10.880 --> 04:52:19.240
Feel when you take away all that other stuff that

1962
04:52:19.360 --> 04:52:24.520
we add, you know, things like stress and worrying and

1963
04:52:27.240 --> 04:52:41.919
overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff. When

1964
04:52:41.959 --> 04:52:45.959
you take that away, which is what we do, what

1965
04:52:46.000 --> 04:52:58.560
we do now, you're left with a real sense of

1966
04:52:59.279 --> 04:53:11.680
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's

1967
04:53:11.919 --> 04:53:25.400
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

1968
04:53:25.439 --> 04:53:29.560
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1969
04:53:29.639 --> 04:53:43.400
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1970
04:53:43.439 --> 04:53:54.119
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1971
04:53:54.159 --> 04:54:03.119
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1972
04:54:03.959 --> 04:54:09.080
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

1973
04:54:09.119 --> 04:54:19.840
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

1974
04:54:21.200 --> 04:54:29.959
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1975
04:54:30.560 --> 04:54:47.639
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1976
04:54:47.720 --> 04:55:01.439
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1977
04:55:01.520 --> 04:55:09.959
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1978
04:55:10.400 --> 04:55:25.360
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

1979
04:55:30.240 --> 04:55:39.200
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1980
04:55:39.520 --> 04:55:51.560
each and every single part of your body, and you

1981
04:55:51.680 --> 04:55:58.759
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

1982
04:55:58.959 --> 04:56:05.720
just entered in to your brain, it's become part of

1983
04:56:05.840 --> 04:56:16.759
your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed with

1984
04:56:17.040 --> 04:56:28.360
healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so much

1985
04:56:28.520 --> 04:56:42.919
more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also you

1986
04:56:43.080 --> 04:56:51.479
start to realize that actually, what's happening now with that healing,

1987
04:56:52.479 --> 04:57:06.479
relaxing energy spreading through your body it's actually changing your life.

1988
04:57:07.240 --> 04:57:11.520
It's actually the changing the way you're going to feel

1989
04:57:12.319 --> 04:57:19.799
not just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As

1990
04:57:19.880 --> 04:57:27.400
your health improves, not just your physical health, but your

1991
04:57:27.479 --> 04:57:35.279
mental health. Things that used to bother you in the past,

1992
04:57:37.319 --> 04:57:43.119
for some reason, no longer have the effect that they

1993
04:57:43.319 --> 04:57:57.200
used to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe

1994
04:57:57.400 --> 04:58:07.360
things that used to cause you to feel anger no

1995
04:58:07.400 --> 04:58:17.360
longer have that power to control you the way they

1996
04:58:17.599 --> 04:58:26.479
seem to be able to before. As you realize that

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04:58:26.560 --> 04:58:39.319
you're the one who decides what affects you, You're the

1998
04:58:39.439 --> 04:58:50.240
one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you

1999
04:58:50.400 --> 04:59:08.400
choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing

2000
04:59:08.759 --> 04:59:22.720
to grow and improve your life day by day, including

2001
04:59:22.840 --> 04:59:36.279
of course, your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping.

2002
04:59:40.799 --> 04:59:46.520
It's the most natural thing in the world to you,

2003
04:59:51.000 --> 04:59:58.240
because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

2004
04:59:58.360 --> 05:00:07.520
times in your life, and you know that you were born,

2005
05:00:07.680 --> 05:00:11.319
as we all were, with the ability.

2006
05:00:12.360 --> 05:00:22.680
To fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability

2007
05:00:25.599 --> 05:00:39.919
to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

2008
05:00:39.959 --> 05:00:44.680
when we're kids. Sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't

2009
05:00:44.720 --> 05:00:49.080
even want to. We'll try to take us stay awake.

2010
05:00:50.400 --> 05:00:53.959
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

2011
05:00:54.080 --> 05:00:57.880
or holiday or something we look forward to. We don't

2012
05:00:57.919 --> 05:01:02.520
want to go to sleep, But the more we want

2013
05:01:02.560 --> 05:01:07.759
to stay awake, the more we just start to drift.

2014
05:01:11.880 --> 05:01:15.880
And the more you fight drifting, the more you try

2015
05:01:15.959 --> 05:01:20.880
to stop yourself and drift in a safe the deeper

2016
05:01:21.040 --> 05:01:32.680
and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just

2017
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with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

2018
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but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

2019
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sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

2020
05:02:02.720 --> 05:02:15.720
we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a

2021
05:02:15.959 --> 05:02:40.240
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

2022
05:02:40.680 --> 05:02:46.919
easy to let go, because that's all it is. It's just.

2023
05:02:50.360 --> 05:03:02.279
Deciding to let go. When you press the play button

2024
05:03:04.560 --> 05:03:13.599
on my recordings, you have given permission for my voice

2025
05:03:14.360 --> 05:03:21.599
to relax you. When you press that play button, you

2026
05:03:21.680 --> 05:03:25.880
have given me permission for my words.

2027
05:03:29.200 --> 05:03:42.759
To affect you in a positive only a positive way.

2028
05:03:43.560 --> 05:04:07.119
Opening up your mind too useful, and he suggestions that

2029
05:04:07.240 --> 05:04:18.560
can have such an amazing effect on how you feel

2030
05:04:19.159 --> 05:04:33.439
right now, as well as those changes that continue long

2031
05:04:33.759 --> 05:04:44.240
after the recording ends, those changes within you that continue

2032
05:04:44.279 --> 05:05:00.520
to flourish and grow, transforming your life in positive, beautiful way,

2033
05:05:03.599 --> 05:05:10.759
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2034
05:05:10.799 --> 05:05:28.119
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2035
05:05:28.319 --> 05:05:43.959
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just

2036
05:05:44.159 --> 05:05:57.840
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2037
05:06:05.720 --> 05:06:11.319
and that positivity grows within.

2038
05:06:11.040 --> 05:06:22.520
You each and every day.

2039
05:06:22.560 --> 05:06:32.400
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2040
05:06:34.720 --> 05:06:47.040
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2041
05:06:47.119 --> 05:06:52.680
not that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind

2042
05:06:52.759 --> 05:07:04.680
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2043
05:07:04.720 --> 05:07:15.040
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2044
05:07:15.080 --> 05:07:25.919
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

2045
05:07:26.080 --> 05:07:40.080
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2046
05:07:40.599 --> 05:07:56.840
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity.

2047
05:07:59.080 --> 05:07:59.959
Will disappear.

2048
05:08:08.159 --> 05:08:14.680
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2049
05:08:16.040 --> 05:08:31.439
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2050
05:08:31.599 --> 05:08:38.040
you're the person that has done this. You are the

2051
05:08:38.159 --> 05:08:43.240
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

2052
05:08:43.439 --> 05:08:51.319
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

2053
05:08:52.040 --> 05:09:01.319
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2054
05:09:03.639 --> 05:09:10.240
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2055
05:09:11.240 --> 05:09:25.319
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2056
05:09:25.360 --> 05:09:36.959
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

2057
05:09:37.000 --> 05:09:41.639
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your

2058
05:09:41.720 --> 05:09:57.520
mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

2059
05:09:59.000 --> 05:10:11.919
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

2060
05:10:11.959 --> 05:10:18.680
not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2061
05:10:18.720 --> 05:10:26.840
be here, It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2062
05:10:27.799 --> 05:10:44.639
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

2063
05:10:46.759 --> 05:10:53.759
more relaxation, more peace.

2064
05:11:10.639 --> 05:11:22.479
It feels nice, doesn't it? Just the let go with everything.

2065
05:11:36.040 --> 05:11:43.279
I'm going to count down now from twenty down to one.

2066
05:11:43.919 --> 05:11:50.919
You can continue to relax. If you choose, you can

2067
05:11:53.599 --> 05:12:04.080
drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

2068
05:12:08.400 --> 05:12:15.840
you can fell twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

2069
05:12:15.919 --> 05:14:31.360
you can feel twice as sleepy. Now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2070
05:14:39.759 --> 05:15:29.439
five four. This is your time to just take a break,

2071
05:15:30.240 --> 05:15:41.360
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2072
05:15:50.000 --> 05:16:09.040
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything. End,

2073
05:16:09.080 --> 05:16:16.319
you're the only person that can make that decision. You're

2074
05:16:16.360 --> 05:16:23.720
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

2075
05:16:24.040 --> 05:16:48.240
just relax, to just take some time off so that

2076
05:16:48.279 --> 05:16:53.319
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

2077
05:16:54.439 --> 05:17:10.880
how you feel physically. And in the process of this

2078
05:17:11.080 --> 05:17:16.040
body scan, where you focus on different parts of your body,

2079
05:17:22.439 --> 05:17:30.000
those parts that you focus on and observe, even though

2080
05:17:30.040 --> 05:17:38.240
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

2081
05:17:38.400 --> 05:17:46.919
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

2082
05:17:47.080 --> 05:18:00.240
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed. Naturally is

2083
05:18:00.240 --> 05:18:10.040
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

2084
05:18:10.200 --> 05:18:21.919
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

2085
05:18:26.119 --> 05:18:41.040
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

2086
05:18:41.200 --> 05:18:58.200
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2087
05:19:02.000 --> 05:19:24.119
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2088
05:19:24.240 --> 05:19:41.119
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

2089
05:19:41.240 --> 05:19:53.959
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2090
05:19:54.159 --> 05:20:08.680
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2091
05:20:12.799 --> 05:20:20.119
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2092
05:20:21.240 --> 05:20:28.200
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

2093
05:20:29.560 --> 05:20:36.360
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

2094
05:20:38.159 --> 05:20:49.279
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

2095
05:20:52.400 --> 05:21:08.159
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

2096
05:21:08.360 --> 05:21:32.799
feeling of comfort and relaxation increases deeply, increases in a

2097
05:21:32.880 --> 05:21:52.400
way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

2098
05:21:53.040 --> 05:22:03.599
because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

2099
05:22:12.360 --> 05:22:19.240
if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

2100
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and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you'll get.

2101
05:22:27.560 --> 05:22:32.279
If what you need is to fall asleep.

2102
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Naturally and easily as your mind drifts, that's also what

2103
05:22:42.680 --> 05:22:55.680
will happen. Because by pressing that play button on the

2104
05:22:55.759 --> 05:22:57.159
podcast and.

2105
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Listening to me, you give per mission for your body

2106
05:23:03.200 --> 05:23:15.200
and your mind. In fact, you give the command to

2107
05:23:15.279 --> 05:23:26.279
your body and your mind to relax deeply and to

2108
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drift off to sleep if that's what you want or need.

2109
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And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

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you may start to just drift. And then you come

2111
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back again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing

2112
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on a different part of your body, you may find

2113
05:24:19.479 --> 05:24:28.040
yourself drifting. You don't you realize you're drifting. Until you

2114
05:24:28.240 --> 05:24:36.599
stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice, focusing

2115
05:24:37.720 --> 05:24:42.560
on a different part of your body starts to relax

2116
05:24:42.720 --> 05:24:55.240
even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already in

2117
05:24:55.319 --> 05:25:06.400
the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer you drift,

2118
05:25:07.840 --> 05:25:18.560
and the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

2119
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and that's the last you remember until you wake up

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in your own time, when you experience the right amount

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05:25:38.080 --> 05:25:46.959
of sleep for you, because when you do and if

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you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so

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05:26:01.000 --> 05:26:20.040
deep healing sleep. I'm going to feel so nice to

2124
05:26:20.159 --> 05:26:29.720
relax into your own body and mind as you as

2125
05:26:29.799 --> 05:26:37.479
you feel that healing energy is spreading through it, relaxing

2126
05:26:37.720 --> 05:26:59.799
us so deeply, relaxing, use so so deeply. Start to

2127
05:27:00.119 --> 05:27:24.080
focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw, down

2128
05:27:24.599 --> 05:28:13.240
to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, your chest, stomach,

2129
05:28:20.439 --> 05:28:55.000
your back, your spine, you hips, you legs, your feet,

2130
05:29:03.799 --> 05:29:33.319
your toes and feedingetings, spreading and growing inside your body,

2131
05:29:35.200 --> 05:29:46.880
feeling you up. Now let's focus again on parts of

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05:29:46.880 --> 05:30:01.400
your body, focusing this time on your forehead, now on

2133
05:30:01.439 --> 05:30:10.680
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth.

2134
05:30:22.840 --> 05:30:34.279
Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you could move your

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05:30:34.279 --> 05:30:39.959
fingers a little bits. You can focus on each one individually,

2136
05:30:46.119 --> 05:30:53.360
both hands, and even though as you focus on both

2137
05:30:53.360 --> 05:30:58.840
of your hands now they almost seem to just melt

2138
05:30:58.959 --> 05:31:07.880
into one. Where does your right hand start in your

2139
05:31:07.959 --> 05:31:23.119
left hand end, almost as if just mixed together. Now,

2140
05:31:23.240 --> 05:31:51.159
focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees fell. Now,

2141
05:31:51.360 --> 05:31:58.639
focusing on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows,

2142
05:32:04.840 --> 05:32:39.479
just observing the feeling of your elbows. Now, focusing and

2143
05:32:39.560 --> 05:32:57.400
observing the back of your neck, feeling that energy in

2144
05:32:57.520 --> 05:33:44.919
the back of your neck, obsurv your ankles, being aware

2145
05:33:47.639 --> 05:34:55.759
of physical sensations in your ankles. Not to see no

2146
05:34:58.880 --> 05:35:14.479
you twos on both of your feet, being aware how

2147
05:35:16.599 --> 05:36:07.479
you toast feel right now, nine too, then how your

2148
05:36:08.080 --> 05:36:56.959
entire body feels. Noticing your mind feels now letting go,

2149
05:37:05.560 --> 05:37:46.959
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, letting

2150
05:37:47.639 --> 05:38:14.000
go everything. You sing I'm going to start now, and

2151
05:38:14.240 --> 05:38:16.400
I'd like you just, first of all, just to see

2152
05:38:16.439 --> 05:38:24.639
yourself lying down on the message table, lying on your front,

2153
05:38:25.880 --> 05:38:33.880
your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

2154
05:38:33.919 --> 05:38:40.680
feel comfortable and breathing is really easy, and you feel

2155
05:38:44.080 --> 05:38:47.119
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

2156
05:38:47.520 --> 05:38:51.720
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

2157
05:38:52.560 --> 05:39:01.599
because I'm a professional and this is a session, so

2158
05:39:02.159 --> 05:39:04.799
none of that stuff matters whatsoever.

2159
05:39:08.599 --> 05:39:15.200
This is about you. This is about how you feel

2160
05:39:15.720 --> 05:39:22.639
and how you can enjoy that sense of comfort and

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05:39:22.680 --> 05:39:30.040
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands

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05:39:30.759 --> 05:39:42.520
and my fingers to relax you by a message your body.

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05:39:43.400 --> 05:39:45.639
So I want to start off just by placing my

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05:39:45.799 --> 05:39:52.680
hands on the back of your head, just gently, just

2165
05:39:52.959 --> 05:39:56.720
you can feel what my hands feel.

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05:39:56.479 --> 05:39:59.959
Like really on you.

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05:40:02.040 --> 05:40:04.439
So you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands

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05:40:04.479 --> 05:40:09.959
on the back of your head. With my hands to

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05:40:10.000 --> 05:40:14.000
the side of your head, not pressing, but just holding

2170
05:40:14.159 --> 05:40:20.200
there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little

2171
05:40:20.200 --> 05:40:25.639
bit on your face, just so you can feel my hands.

2172
05:40:27.080 --> 05:40:37.119
So you can become accustomed to them.

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05:40:39.279 --> 05:40:41.479
And now put my hands on the back of your

2174
05:40:41.520 --> 05:40:49.000
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

2175
05:40:49.000 --> 05:41:06.040
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

2176
05:41:06.240 --> 05:41:13.240
stroking the back of your neck to start with, just

2177
05:41:13.279 --> 05:41:17.360
so you can get used to the feeling of my

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05:41:17.520 --> 05:41:25.520
hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize that you're

2179
05:41:25.599 --> 05:41:35.599
safe and it's all good, it's all fine, And I'm

2180
05:41:35.599 --> 05:41:39.880
going to start gently messaging the muscles in the back

2181
05:41:39.919 --> 05:41:55.639
of your neck with both hands. Now, this is a

2182
05:41:55.720 --> 05:42:02.759
very trusting situation, really, because our necks are so fragile

2183
05:42:04.040 --> 05:42:07.520
and to have someone have their hands around your neck

2184
05:42:08.240 --> 05:42:13.680
in that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which

2185
05:42:13.680 --> 05:42:18.040
is why massages are quite good, because it allows you

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05:42:18.119 --> 05:42:32.240
to relax and to get in touch with trust, to

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05:42:32.319 --> 05:42:44.759
feel peaceful and calm. And there's a massage the sides

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05:42:44.840 --> 05:42:52.919
of your neck gently moving from the bottom of your neck,

2189
05:42:54.599 --> 05:42:57.119
it would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

2190
05:42:57.159 --> 05:42:58.159
I guess.

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05:42:58.400 --> 05:43:04.880
All the way up to your jaw, your ears, kind

2192
05:43:04.880 --> 05:43:10.639
of area that side of your neck. Of course, it's

2193
05:43:10.680 --> 05:43:26.240
a lot longer than the front of your neck. The

2194
05:43:26.279 --> 05:43:33.680
message in the back of your neck, especially that area

2195
05:43:33.840 --> 05:43:42.720
where perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message,

2196
05:43:43.119 --> 05:43:47.200
you can actually feel a sense of release in the

2197
05:43:47.240 --> 05:43:55.159
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

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05:43:55.240 --> 05:44:01.279
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2199
05:44:10.959 --> 05:44:14.599
And then moving down to that area between your neck

2200
05:44:14.639 --> 05:44:24.400
and your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message that

2201
05:44:24.599 --> 05:44:28.919
area on both sides. I mean, this would be the

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05:44:29.000 --> 05:44:31.840
area that a lot of people would message if they

2203
05:44:31.840 --> 05:44:36.680
were going to give you like a shoulder message. Even

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05:44:36.759 --> 05:44:40.720
that's not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles

2205
05:44:40.720 --> 05:44:44.799
that lead to the shoulders from the neck.

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05:44:46.599 --> 05:44:51.840
And the game that can hold tension and stress and

2207
05:44:51.880 --> 05:45:00.119
when massaged, sometimes a nice deep message is useful. Do

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05:45:00.159 --> 05:45:03.759
you decide how deep that message is.

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05:45:14.880 --> 05:45:21.880
And just allow my knuckles just to dig in, to

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05:45:22.000 --> 05:45:31.479
get to those muscles and to really relaxed all the

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05:45:31.560 --> 05:45:49.639
time being firm yet gentle with you and just stroking

2212
05:45:49.759 --> 05:45:58.240
down that area to your actual shoulders, moving to the

2213
05:45:58.360 --> 05:46:00.360
muscles of your shoulders.

2214
05:46:05.680 --> 05:46:10.799
And maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little.

2215
05:46:10.520 --> 05:46:14.000
Bit of the table just to give you a little

2216
05:46:14.000 --> 05:46:24.439
bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've got

2217
05:46:24.439 --> 05:46:28.119
the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the sides

2218
05:46:28.279 --> 05:46:38.919
and the back. Again, this is a part that can

2219
05:46:39.000 --> 05:46:44.240
really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit

2220
05:46:44.279 --> 05:46:54.599
of needing if if you wish to really release the

2221
05:46:54.639 --> 05:47:03.000
tension to really get into those muscles, and you can

2222
05:47:03.040 --> 05:47:08.840
let your fingers in there if you feel really nice.

2223
05:47:09.200 --> 05:47:16.759
Sometimes it's just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly.

2224
05:47:20.439 --> 05:47:29.880
It can all be beneficial to the reorxation. Put the

2225
05:47:29.959 --> 05:47:43.560
muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down your arms.

2226
05:47:50.040 --> 05:47:53.599
We do one arm at a time, starting with your

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05:47:53.680 --> 05:48:03.959
right arm. Well I do is I just lift your

2228
05:48:04.080 --> 05:48:06.880
arm up, just hold it to the side of you

2229
05:48:10.080 --> 05:48:14.959
by way it still be attached, and I just message

2230
05:48:16.439 --> 05:48:29.200
the tops of your arms all the way down to

2231
05:48:29.319 --> 05:48:56.159
your forearms into your wrists, gently messaging that parts, the

2232
05:48:56.319 --> 05:49:02.639
softer part which is the under part of the arm,

2233
05:49:02.840 --> 05:49:06.919
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside

2234
05:49:08.040 --> 05:49:23.479
it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

2235
05:49:25.479 --> 05:49:40.720
can I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving

2236
05:49:40.840 --> 05:49:54.439
down to your right hand, just holding your hand in

2237
05:49:54.680 --> 05:50:04.479
both of my hands, just pressing gently on the back

2238
05:50:04.520 --> 05:50:12.080
of your hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly

2239
05:50:15.400 --> 05:50:22.360
at the same time pressing down and massaging each finger,

2240
05:50:30.319 --> 05:50:34.400
and then starting to massage the palms of the hand.

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05:50:41.080 --> 05:50:52.159
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

2242
05:50:52.200 --> 05:50:58.720
having your hand held can really be an emotional experience

2243
05:50:59.119 --> 05:51:05.159
sometimes even if it is a stranger, so when you

2244
05:51:05.200 --> 05:51:10.040
don't know very well, like a massage person, or a

2245
05:51:10.200 --> 05:51:25.439
therapist maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice,

2246
05:51:25.799 --> 05:51:36.200
you can feel safe. And as I put that right

2247
05:51:36.360 --> 05:51:44.319
arm back down where it was, we're gonna did the

2248
05:51:44.439 --> 05:51:56.119
same with your left arm, exactly the same. Massage in

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05:51:56.400 --> 05:52:01.560
the muscles in your arm all the way down. Do

2250
05:52:01.599 --> 05:52:14.159
your rest stroking the inside of your arm, just being

2251
05:52:14.319 --> 05:52:28.319
gentle or as firm as you require, and then massaging

2252
05:52:29.080 --> 05:52:44.720
your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging the palm

2253
05:52:45.520 --> 05:53:12.400
of your left hand. It feels so relaxing, so comforting,

2254
05:53:26.439 --> 05:53:37.119
and I just rest your left arm back down. Start

2255
05:53:37.240 --> 05:53:47.479
to message your back, the biggest part of your body,

2256
05:53:48.439 --> 05:53:54.840
starting at the top, starting again where we already be

2257
05:53:54.919 --> 05:53:59.000
have been, the area at the top in between his shoulders,

2258
05:54:00.680 --> 05:54:06.080
near your neck. Going back the massage in that area again,

2259
05:54:07.200 --> 05:54:20.919
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

2260
05:54:20.959 --> 05:54:28.880
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards.

2261
05:54:28.639 --> 05:54:36.119
It's a massage in the your back, but the outsides

2262
05:54:36.439 --> 05:54:45.959
of your back, the parts where your arms would maybe

2263
05:54:46.439 --> 05:54:59.240
rest against, almost the path that connects your front to

2264
05:54:59.360 --> 05:55:16.880
your back, and just messaging down firmly but gently, as

2265
05:55:17.000 --> 05:55:25.040
firm as you want, moving down and moving across a

2266
05:55:25.040 --> 05:55:28.720
little bed and moving all the way down again being

2267
05:55:28.840 --> 05:55:41.680
very gentle yet firm as you choose. Eventually we get

2268
05:55:41.720 --> 05:55:46.799
to the spine. We can massage the muscles on either

2269
05:55:46.959 --> 05:55:50.319
side of your spine from the top of your neck

2270
05:55:50.720 --> 05:56:02.279
all the way down to your lower back. We can

2271
05:56:02.319 --> 05:56:11.720
do that a few times. Sometimes people use the knuckle

2272
05:56:12.599 --> 05:56:17.360
or the you know, two fingers and just go your

2273
05:56:17.439 --> 05:56:22.520
side of the spine and almost just push down, go

2274
05:56:22.599 --> 05:56:26.080
all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2275
05:56:26.319 --> 05:56:36.000
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2276
05:56:37.159 --> 05:56:44.080
your body so that you feel more relaxed but at

2277
05:56:44.080 --> 05:57:00.439
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2278
05:57:00.560 --> 05:57:08.880
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2279
05:57:08.919 --> 05:57:14.400
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

2280
05:57:14.520 --> 05:57:21.240
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2281
05:57:21.279 --> 05:57:26.119
other side and I will pull the muscles gently and

2282
05:57:26.279 --> 05:57:31.040
massage and push from one end that side or the

2283
05:57:31.080 --> 05:57:36.159
way to my side to the middle of fact to

2284
05:57:36.159 --> 05:57:42.799
where your spine is. Massaging that side of your spine

2285
05:57:43.000 --> 05:57:48.240
the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like

2286
05:57:48.439 --> 05:57:56.599
kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm yet

2287
05:57:57.479 --> 05:58:06.319
lots there to massage. Potentially one of the most important

2288
05:58:06.360 --> 05:58:13.759
places to actually have a message because you really feel it.

2289
05:58:15.439 --> 05:58:20.479
You really feel the release and the pleasure of having

2290
05:58:20.560 --> 05:58:28.040
your lower back massaged. It releases so much from your

2291
05:58:28.080 --> 05:58:38.159
body that's not useful, starting a healing process which will

2292
05:58:38.200 --> 05:58:51.279
continue long after this recording is over. The message in

2293
05:58:51.360 --> 05:58:54.639
this part of your body not only feels really good

2294
05:58:55.240 --> 05:59:01.000
for you, it's actually fun to do because is as

2295
05:59:01.000 --> 05:59:06.000
I said, like kneading bread, It's a part that you

2296
05:59:06.040 --> 05:59:13.599
can really get hold of and really message deeply. If

2297
05:59:13.639 --> 05:59:23.799
that's your choice, then I'm going to move over to

2298
05:59:23.840 --> 05:59:26.479
the other side of your body and do the same

2299
05:59:30.119 --> 05:59:34.880
with the opposite part of your lawer back.

2300
05:59:37.439 --> 05:59:46.319
Kneading and messaging from your sides or way to the

2301
05:59:46.400 --> 05:59:49.000
middle of your back where your spine is.

2302
05:59:53.240 --> 06:00:02.520
Pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2303
06:00:04.479 --> 06:00:17.119
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2304
06:00:17.319 --> 06:00:29.000
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2305
06:00:29.040 --> 06:00:34.240
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2306
06:00:34.279 --> 06:00:38.599
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2307
06:00:38.720 --> 06:00:50.119
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2308
06:00:50.200 --> 06:00:55.159
to move or move further up to your top of

2309
06:00:55.159 --> 06:01:01.479
your body, and we do the same this time, starting

2310
06:01:02.799 --> 06:01:09.119
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2311
06:01:09.240 --> 06:01:16.639
massive massage in that area up to your spine, from

2312
06:01:16.680 --> 06:01:20.880
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2313
06:01:21.000 --> 06:01:27.360
some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2314
06:01:27.520 --> 06:01:33.200
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2315
06:01:33.360 --> 06:01:40.319
or connected the chest and the back connect together. I'm

2316
06:01:40.319 --> 06:01:43.520
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2317
06:01:43.759 --> 06:01:54.479
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

2318
06:01:54.599 --> 06:02:03.080
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2319
06:02:03.159 --> 06:02:05.919
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2320
06:02:06.040 --> 06:02:08.919
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

2321
06:02:12.759 --> 06:02:26.319
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now, I'll

2322
06:02:26.360 --> 06:02:30.479
move or the other side again and do the exact

2323
06:02:30.639 --> 06:02:34.400
same thing with the top of your back on the

2324
06:02:34.439 --> 06:02:44.040
other side from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2325
06:02:49.400 --> 06:02:58.959
to your spine, and then continue in that all the

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06:02:59.000 --> 06:03:04.000
way down, including your lower your middle of your back.

2327
06:03:17.680 --> 06:03:23.000
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

2328
06:03:25.520 --> 06:03:32.959
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

2329
06:03:35.240 --> 06:03:45.040
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2330
06:03:45.080 --> 06:03:51.520
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2331
06:03:51.560 --> 06:03:54.840
an area that can be very tense at times and

2332
06:03:55.000 --> 06:03:58.400
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2333
06:03:58.439 --> 06:04:06.639
of the body. It's up to you. You can gently

2334
06:04:06.720 --> 06:04:14.040
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

2335
06:04:14.080 --> 06:04:19.639
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2336
06:04:19.880 --> 06:04:36.040
gentle area, and then working down to your calf muscles. Massage

2337
06:04:36.159 --> 06:04:41.880
in your half muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2338
06:04:45.279 --> 06:05:02.240
using both hands and fingers, sticking deep, do your ankles

2339
06:05:04.479 --> 06:05:10.159
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

2340
06:05:10.400 --> 06:05:22.080
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

2341
06:05:22.880 --> 06:05:46.000
stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage

2342
06:05:46.159 --> 06:05:55.319
in the bottom of your feet and the side of

2343
06:05:55.360 --> 06:06:06.680
your fate gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2344
06:06:12.159 --> 06:06:17.680
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

2345
06:06:17.720 --> 06:06:27.119
your feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue

2346
06:06:27.200 --> 06:06:33.799
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, besides

2347
06:06:36.439 --> 06:06:42.159
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2348
06:06:42.240 --> 06:06:48.119
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2349
06:06:48.319 --> 06:06:50.439
arches need to be a bit more gentle.

2350
06:06:55.560 --> 06:07:02.360
Stretching your toes gently a massage in the bottoms of

2351
06:07:02.400 --> 06:07:18.639
your toes with my fingers, each one individually, moving over

2352
06:07:18.799 --> 06:07:22.560
to the left leg to do exactly the same thing.

2353
06:07:25.840 --> 06:07:32.680
Starting at the top of the thighs, work in the

2354
06:07:32.720 --> 06:07:38.040
back of the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and

2355
06:07:38.159 --> 06:07:54.479
gently the whole area, working all the way down. And

2356
06:07:54.560 --> 06:08:00.360
this is an area that maybe you could like to

2357
06:08:00.439 --> 06:08:09.200
spend more time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you

2358
06:08:09.319 --> 06:08:15.319
wanted like a bigger future recording wants, spend more time on.

2359
06:08:15.040 --> 06:08:27.240
One particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

2360
06:08:33.159 --> 06:08:46.599
massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down

2361
06:08:48.880 --> 06:08:55.279
your raincor into your feet, Massage in the backs of

2362
06:08:55.360 --> 06:09:05.919
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes

2363
06:09:06.119 --> 06:09:12.439
and message in each tone individually. And the feeling of

2364
06:09:12.599 --> 06:09:18.560
pleasure and release that you experience when you're having your

2365
06:09:18.639 --> 06:09:40.159
feet massaged feels really good. Now should turn over in

2366
06:09:40.200 --> 06:09:51.040
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just going to

2367
06:09:51.119 --> 06:10:08.200
start again for your neck area in your shoulders, just

2368
06:10:08.360 --> 06:10:18.919
to get back in touch with that area. And as

2369
06:10:18.919 --> 06:10:30.560
you move up, I can clean my hands, make them

2370
06:10:30.560 --> 06:10:36.240
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently

2371
06:10:40.599 --> 06:10:51.759
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed, and

2372
06:10:51.799 --> 06:10:57.639
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2373
06:10:57.759 --> 06:11:08.279
up on your eyebrows, and just messaging around your scalp,

2374
06:11:14.000 --> 06:11:23.479
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw

2375
06:11:24.639 --> 06:11:43.279
gently the side of your neck, your chin mm hmm,

2376
06:11:47.080 --> 06:11:54.799
and just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2377
06:11:58.560 --> 06:12:02.639
starting by message in the very top of your chest

2378
06:12:06.400 --> 06:12:19.439
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2379
06:12:20.119 --> 06:12:23.360
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

2380
06:12:32.560 --> 06:12:44.599
moving the chest around. Because it's quite a large area.

2381
06:12:46.479 --> 06:12:53.959
You can move from one side to the next, moving

2382
06:12:54.319 --> 06:13:05.400
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2383
06:13:07.479 --> 06:13:10.599
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2384
06:13:15.840 --> 06:13:24.520
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2385
06:13:37.080 --> 06:13:37.560
and then.

2386
06:13:37.439 --> 06:13:43.360
Allowing my hands to just massage gently and slide down

2387
06:13:44.639 --> 06:13:49.560
towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2388
06:13:53.000 --> 06:13:59.680
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massage in

2389
06:13:59.759 --> 06:14:09.200
and sliding at the same time, moving down to just

2390
06:14:09.279 --> 06:14:24.799
below your ribcage, moving down and then messaging up again,

2391
06:14:27.560 --> 06:14:28.880
giving your chest.

2392
06:14:30.119 --> 06:14:38.680
All the attention that it needs to feel completely relaxed.

2393
06:14:46.000 --> 06:14:49.959
Remembering them. I'm also going to be focusing on your

2394
06:14:50.040 --> 06:14:55.240
sides as well, an area that really doesn't get much

2395
06:14:55.319 --> 06:15:07.520
attention but feels really good when it's massaged. Just stroking

2396
06:15:07.599 --> 06:15:15.119
my hands down the sides of your body, just below

2397
06:15:15.159 --> 06:15:27.919
your arms, all the way down to your hips. Now

2398
06:15:28.479 --> 06:15:34.080
move into your stomach area. I'm going to stand one

2399
06:15:34.119 --> 06:15:36.520
side of you like I did when I did your

2400
06:15:36.520 --> 06:15:42.959
lower back. I'm gonna do a similar process of just

2401
06:15:43.119 --> 06:15:58.040
stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging from one

2402
06:15:58.080 --> 06:16:06.639
side to the next, move in a whole area from

2403
06:16:06.680 --> 06:16:10.560
below your ribs all the way down to below your

2404
06:16:10.560 --> 06:16:20.439
belly button, and then move around to the other side

2405
06:16:20.439 --> 06:16:36.000
of you and repeat that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly.

2406
06:16:39.080 --> 06:16:46.319
You feel loose, you feel free, And it's something about

2407
06:16:46.360 --> 06:16:51.240
having your stomach message that's different from any other part

2408
06:16:54.720 --> 06:16:59.279
because we do have a tendency of holding a different

2409
06:16:59.400 --> 06:17:03.439
kind of dress in her stomachs that we may not

2410
06:17:03.560 --> 06:17:14.560
be aware of. As a Now massage your stomach in

2411
06:17:14.680 --> 06:17:21.799
front of your stomach, they can circles around your belly

2412
06:17:21.799 --> 06:17:36.479
button and then go in the other way around. There's

2413
06:17:36.520 --> 06:17:42.840
a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling how

2414
06:17:42.919 --> 06:17:53.119
you're feeling. As I now move down the tops of

2415
06:17:53.159 --> 06:17:59.720
your thighs the muscles message in them, and I can

2416
06:17:59.799 --> 06:18:06.200
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2417
06:18:08.680 --> 06:18:14.880
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at front of

2418
06:18:14.919 --> 06:18:25.919
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2419
06:18:26.000 --> 06:18:37.319
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2420
06:18:37.439 --> 06:18:49.639
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2421
06:18:49.959 --> 06:19:04.799
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2422
06:19:04.840 --> 06:19:10.919
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

2423
06:19:11.720 --> 06:19:20.040
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

2424
06:19:20.520 --> 06:19:28.439
your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet.

2425
06:19:33.319 --> 06:19:39.400
Feels so good. Just let go and enjoy the process.

2426
06:19:45.000 --> 06:20:03.880
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so

2427
06:20:04.040 --> 06:20:20.639
many feelings that come just from touching your skin. And

2428
06:20:20.759 --> 06:20:27.240
you can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2429
06:20:31.119 --> 06:20:42.959
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me.

2430
06:20:50.119 --> 06:21:12.119
Enjoy feeling deeply right. And all we're gonna do is

2431
06:21:15.680 --> 06:21:32.200
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

2432
06:21:32.279 --> 06:21:42.680
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

2433
06:21:42.799 --> 06:21:53.200
each one out individually, one by one, starting at a hundred.

2434
06:21:54.279 --> 06:22:05.959
As I count down all the way down to one,

2435
06:22:06.159 --> 06:22:15.080
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2436
06:22:15.119 --> 06:22:21.759
that candle in front of you. I'd like you to

2437
06:22:21.880 --> 06:22:41.200
actually physically gently blow that candle out, just so it's

2438
06:22:41.240 --> 06:22:50.360
not big blow, it's just a gentle and that candle

2439
06:22:51.799 --> 06:23:01.119
will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number as

2440
06:23:01.159 --> 06:23:10.400
we move down, and you can just blow that one

2441
06:23:10.439 --> 06:23:20.200
out as well. And as we move down the numbers,

2442
06:23:24.720 --> 06:23:33.400
you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed. If you

2443
06:23:33.560 --> 06:23:42.720
need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired

2444
06:23:43.919 --> 06:23:55.360
and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to blow out

2445
06:23:55.400 --> 06:24:09.119
all one hundred of these can does as you feel

2446
06:24:12.040 --> 06:24:35.759
more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired,

2447
06:24:40.080 --> 06:24:48.639
And the further you go down, the more your mind

2448
06:24:49.680 --> 06:25:02.040
starts to drift. You may find that you stop listening

2449
06:25:02.200 --> 06:25:14.840
to me after a while. And even though there may

2450
06:25:14.840 --> 06:25:23.639
be background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of

2451
06:25:23.680 --> 06:25:39.240
those sounds at the moment he may start to just

2452
06:25:42.880 --> 06:26:02.279
not even notice them at all because they're unimportant. Where

2453
06:26:02.360 --> 06:26:09.279
I am, I've got the sounds of the birds. There's

2454
06:26:09.520 --> 06:26:17.759
horrors the pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and

2455
06:26:17.799 --> 06:26:26.400
there's the odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and

2456
06:26:27.799 --> 06:26:37.200
trains in the distance, But none of that scene is

2457
06:26:37.400 --> 06:26:51.599
important whatsoever. More candles you blow out, the less important

2458
06:26:53.080 --> 06:27:09.080
anything is. More candles you blow out, the further seemed

2459
06:27:09.360 --> 06:27:29.040
to move away from sounds and from general date days.

2460
06:27:29.119 --> 06:27:44.680
Stuff seems to just move away on its own. You

2461
06:27:44.840 --> 06:28:05.639
feel more calmer with every candle you blow out, guiding

2462
06:28:05.840 --> 06:28:15.080
you to the next number. Do you hear me say?

2463
06:28:22.159 --> 06:28:34.439
And then you blow that candle out to So easy,

2464
06:28:39.279 --> 06:28:59.880
so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the first candle,

2465
06:29:03.400 --> 06:29:20.840
which is a hundred. First candle is one hundred. When

2466
06:29:21.080 --> 06:29:35.840
you blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight

2467
06:29:37.880 --> 06:29:49.799
change in how you feel, as well as a real

2468
06:29:50.040 --> 06:30:11.720
sense of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding.

2469
06:30:20.479 --> 06:31:09.479
Starting with one hundred, blow out by candle now ninety nine, candle,

2470
06:31:12.000 --> 06:33:07.680
ninety eight, cand ninety seven, ten, ninety six, ten, ninety five, hand,

2471
06:33:12.319 --> 06:34:46.880
ninety four, candle ninety three and ninety two and ninety

2472
06:34:47.159 --> 06:36:39.639
one ten to ninety and eighty nine and eighty eight and.

2473
06:36:51.159 --> 06:39:02.360
Eighty end, eighty.

2474
06:38:31.360 --> 06:42:25.599
Eight five and hand and eighty two n two one,

2475
06:42:44.479 --> 06:43:37.400
en seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle

2476
06:43:41.040 --> 06:44:43.400
seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three,

2477
06:44:55.319 --> 06:45:58.799
candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, candle

2478
06:46:02.560 --> 06:47:05.880
seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2479
06:47:10.680 --> 06:47:59.040
candle sixty five, candle sixty four mm, candle sixty four,

2480
06:48:14.919 --> 06:49:19.040
candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one, candle sixty

2481
06:49:48.520 --> 06:50:59.799
and fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle

2482
06:51:05.799 --> 06:52:32.680
fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three,

2483
06:52:50.759 --> 06:54:30.080
handle fifty two, fifty two, keen to fifty two, candle

2484
06:54:33.959 --> 06:56:07.159
fisht one can do fifty candle fourteen nine, candle forty eight,

2485
06:56:44.479 --> 06:58:24.279
candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five and

2486
06:58:29.400 --> 07:01:09.439
fourty two, candle foy one, candle forty, candle thirty nine

2487
07:01:14.040 --> 07:02:35.240
and thirty eight. I can't do thirty seven, ten two

2488
07:02:37.680 --> 07:04:41.119
thirty five, ten two thirty four, handle thirty three, handle

2489
07:04:44.520 --> 07:07:39.799
thirty one, chandle thirty and twoin teen nine can fruity

2490
07:07:40.000 --> 07:10:05.680
eates and twenty seven, Cado twenty six, cand twenty five

2491
07:10:44.159 --> 07:12:12.119
and to tif four end twenty three and twin deep

2492
07:12:12.759 --> 07:14:39.880
two and twenty one and to win teen and ninety,

2493
07:15:27.680 --> 07:19:43.000
candle seventeen sixteen, chancel fourteen ten true four and eleven

2494
07:20:20.279 --> 07:23:19.000
Hey yeh, jame do nine ten to eight s six

2495
07:24:13.080 --> 07:25:00.759
cam mumm do.

2496
07:25:04.319 --> 07:25:54.840
Ooh and doy.

2497
07:26:52.119 --> 07:26:58.360
Seven two.

2498
07:27:48.840 --> 07:27:56.520
Two four.

2499
07:28:02.319 --> 07:28:09.520
Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about

2500
07:28:09.560 --> 07:28:16.119
the past, thoughts about the future, and even things you've

2501
07:28:16.159 --> 07:28:23.919
been thinking about today. Just let it all go because

2502
07:28:23.959 --> 07:28:31.560
none of it is useful in this moment. This is

2503
07:28:32.599 --> 07:28:40.479
your opportunity to just focus.

2504
07:28:45.360 --> 07:28:54.159
On feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch with

2505
07:28:54.319 --> 07:29:04.400
that natural sense of peace that we all have within us.

2506
07:29:06.799 --> 07:29:12.240
It's available for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little

2507
07:29:12.279 --> 07:29:18.599
bit of effort to set up the right time and

2508
07:29:18.759 --> 07:29:26.040
place in order for you to just let go. Because

2509
07:29:26.159 --> 07:29:34.080
when you do decide to let go and relax, that's

2510
07:29:34.159 --> 07:29:42.159
what your body starts to do because you've chosen, You've

2511
07:29:42.400 --> 07:29:49.240
chosen to just allow your body to unwind and your

2512
07:29:49.360 --> 07:29:55.080
mind starts to slow down, and.

2513
07:29:55.119 --> 07:29:59.919
It's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at the beginning,

2514
07:30:00.240 --> 07:30:08.919
just to know that you have chosen to decide to

2515
07:30:09.119 --> 07:30:16.880
relax deeply, and because you've made that decision, your body

2516
07:30:18.119 --> 07:30:24.119
will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the muscles in

2517
07:30:24.240 --> 07:30:30.000
your body need is just permission from you to relax.

2518
07:30:34.000 --> 07:30:38.799
Because so often we're busy, we're going from here to there,

2519
07:30:38.959 --> 07:30:44.720
we're walking around, and we're doing stuff, and the body

2520
07:30:44.799 --> 07:30:52.880
doesn't have any time or space to really relax deeply.

2521
07:30:56.319 --> 07:30:59.000
So it kind of waits for you to lead the way,

2522
07:31:01.119 --> 07:31:11.159
waits for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

2523
07:31:12.880 --> 07:31:13.520
when you give.

2524
07:31:13.439 --> 07:31:17.599
To say so, when you say okay, it's time.

2525
07:31:19.680 --> 07:31:25.759
For your body to let go completely and relax totally,

2526
07:31:29.360 --> 07:31:36.000
your body just follows. It's like a breath of relief.

2527
07:31:37.200 --> 07:31:45.639
Ah good, I can now relax. That feeling at the

2528
07:31:45.799 --> 07:31:49.080
end of a day of very physical day that you

2529
07:31:49.200 --> 07:31:53.080
may experience in the past, but you get home and

2530
07:31:53.200 --> 07:31:57.000
you just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick

2531
07:31:57.080 --> 07:32:03.520
your shoes off, and feel so nice knowing that you

2532
07:32:03.639 --> 07:32:07.759
don't have to get up again for a little while

2533
07:32:07.840 --> 07:32:11.560
at least if you choose, you can just sit there

2534
07:32:11.680 --> 07:32:24.240
for maybe an hour to It feels blissful and just

2535
07:32:24.400 --> 07:32:29.479
by sitting down like that your body knows that it's

2536
07:32:29.599 --> 07:32:35.279
time to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2537
07:32:37.479 --> 07:32:47.799
Because it's a mindset. In your mind, you're prepared to

2538
07:32:48.000 --> 07:32:57.560
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2539
07:32:57.880 --> 07:33:06.639
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2540
07:33:07.000 --> 07:33:26.400
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2541
07:33:26.639 --> 07:33:32.919
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2542
07:33:34.799 --> 07:33:39.400
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2543
07:33:39.520 --> 07:33:42.840
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2544
07:33:44.279 --> 07:33:48.119
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2545
07:33:48.360 --> 07:33:54.479
space to let go completely and relax, they seem almost alien,

2546
07:33:56.319 --> 07:34:02.240
but it isn't. It's actually the most natural thing in

2547
07:34:02.319 --> 07:34:12.560
the world to let go completely, to relax totally, the

2548
07:34:12.720 --> 07:34:23.680
most natural thing in the world to allow yourself to

2549
07:34:23.919 --> 07:34:31.720
feel really calm in your mind. And it is almost

2550
07:34:32.360 --> 07:34:39.439
like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button

2551
07:34:42.080 --> 07:34:48.479
and all the tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

2552
07:34:48.880 --> 07:34:53.080
like a cog, like the inside of a clock, just unwinding.

2553
07:34:53.759 --> 07:34:57.919
And it's almost like you could see the little wind up,

2554
07:34:58.880 --> 07:35:03.720
not that you just going the opposite way that you

2555
07:35:04.000 --> 07:35:10.479
choose to wind it up and the energy that fremetic

2556
07:35:11.680 --> 07:35:21.759
stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing

2557
07:35:21.840 --> 07:35:30.720
its strength as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper,

2558
07:35:34.360 --> 07:35:41.439
and you may find a the more relaxed you feel,

2559
07:35:42.840 --> 07:35:52.720
that your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop

2560
07:35:52.880 --> 07:35:58.000
listening to me for a while, Your mind goes somewhere else,

2561
07:35:59.400 --> 07:36:05.240
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2562
07:36:05.360 --> 07:36:11.880
that is just your mind to drifting to sleep, which

2563
07:36:11.959 --> 07:36:21.840
is quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense,

2564
07:36:23.159 --> 07:36:27.040
we're not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

2565
07:36:28.159 --> 07:36:36.599
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2566
07:36:36.759 --> 07:36:43.040
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely

2567
07:36:44.799 --> 07:36:52.000
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2568
07:36:53.479 --> 07:36:58.000
all letting them go, allow them to drop onto the floor.

2569
07:37:03.279 --> 07:37:09.279
When you start to get in touch with the feelings

2570
07:37:09.479 --> 07:37:21.159
of such relaxation, this feels so nice, to be in

2571
07:37:21.400 --> 07:37:28.159
touch with the calmness of the different body parts as

2572
07:37:28.279 --> 07:37:34.959
they become looser and looser.

2573
07:37:39.200 --> 07:37:42.119
Even your breathing seems.

2574
07:37:43.400 --> 07:37:53.840
Easier and more natural, effortless, as that cool adenters through

2575
07:37:53.880 --> 07:38:03.000
your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in comfort

2576
07:38:03.360 --> 07:38:11.720
and relaxation, and then just breathing out any excess remain

2577
07:38:11.919 --> 07:38:20.119
intention or stress from every part of your body and mind.

2578
07:38:23.720 --> 07:38:28.279
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2579
07:38:28.840 --> 07:38:36.319
you notice that things have come to a standstill or

2580
07:38:36.439 --> 07:38:45.560
maybe just much much lower than before, because your mind

2581
07:38:45.759 --> 07:38:56.279
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

2582
07:38:56.360 --> 07:39:02.840
allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2583
07:39:05.599 --> 07:39:13.840
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and

2584
07:39:16.599 --> 07:39:30.360
relaxation of your mind. Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

2585
07:39:30.720 --> 07:39:44.959
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2586
07:39:45.200 --> 07:39:57.720
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and

2587
07:39:57.840 --> 07:40:04.759
your life. To be able to let go over everything

2588
07:40:06.479 --> 07:40:15.119
and to relax completely in all parts of your body

2589
07:40:16.520 --> 07:40:26.560
and mind. Even your boneses are rexed, all your muscles

2590
07:40:27.119 --> 07:40:42.720
are arixed, even the skin that covers your body is relaxed.

2591
07:40:47.880 --> 07:41:05.520
Every hair that you have is also deeply relaxed. And

2592
07:41:05.799 --> 07:41:15.959
your brain really starts to feel the benefits of this

2593
07:41:17.639 --> 07:41:29.799
healing relaxation. And then as you focus on the inside

2594
07:41:29.959 --> 07:41:35.200
of your scalp where your brain is, you can start

2595
07:41:35.759 --> 07:41:45.560
to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply.

2596
07:41:50.080 --> 07:41:59.880
Then as your brain continues to relax sends those messages

2597
07:42:00.119 --> 07:42:07.520
is to the rest of your body and your mind

2598
07:42:09.439 --> 07:42:32.520
to re relax more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting go

2599
07:42:32.720 --> 07:42:44.479
of any remaining forces or concens allowed them just to

2600
07:42:44.799 --> 07:42:52.279
drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary in

2601
07:42:52.959 --> 07:42:58.919
this moment, In this moment of deep.

2602
07:43:00.400 --> 07:43:07.200
Relaxation and calmness, filling.

2603
07:43:09.439 --> 07:43:34.040
Your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part

2604
07:43:34.439 --> 07:43:52.919
of your brain feething so loose and comfortable, so relaxed

2605
07:43:54.840 --> 07:44:07.520
and be peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy.

2606
07:44:10.720 --> 07:44:20.959
That sense of deep deep comfort really does allow you

2607
07:44:24.639 --> 07:44:36.119
to enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort that

2608
07:44:36.279 --> 07:44:49.639
are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle

2609
07:44:49.840 --> 07:45:06.720
of your body, e deeper and deeper, much more deeper

2610
07:45:07.240 --> 07:45:25.279
than before, much more comfort spreading through your body. Your mind.

2611
07:45:28.319 --> 07:45:46.080
Be so peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in

2612
07:45:46.400 --> 07:45:57.840
avery part of your body, letting go m h A,

2613
07:45:58.439 --> 07:46:20.759
everything and everything so peaceful. Time, so relax a very

2614
07:46:22.119 --> 07:46:28.200
second the passes you feel.

2615
07:46:30.240 --> 07:46:49.159
Dper, dper relax dper and dper relax.

2616
07:46:51.639 --> 07:47:10.319
Come so calm, be peace, for so very peace from

2617
07:47:10.439 --> 07:47:20.400
your head down to your ties. Such peace and comfort

2618
07:47:22.720 --> 07:47:36.200
throwing all all the time, such peace and comfort spreading

2619
07:47:37.200 --> 07:47:52.680
through your body and mind deeper deeper, such comfort spreading

2620
07:47:54.000 --> 07:48:05.439
and sinking deeper into a muscle of your body, so

2621
07:48:05.680 --> 07:48:23.840
that you feel amazing, so relaxed, so piece, so so

2622
07:48:24.560 --> 07:48:44.560
relax and peace, letting go everything. I'm gonna do a

2623
07:48:44.799 --> 07:48:52.520
body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in your body,

2624
07:48:53.639 --> 07:48:59.279
not trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2625
07:49:00.520 --> 07:49:05.520
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2626
07:49:05.759 --> 07:49:13.159
or tension, just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2627
07:49:14.159 --> 07:49:19.080
in the different parts of your body, just allowing yourself

2628
07:49:20.479 --> 07:49:27.959
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

2629
07:49:28.000 --> 07:49:36.639
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2630
07:49:40.119 --> 07:49:41.479
I'm going to start off.

2631
07:49:43.680 --> 07:49:52.799
By focusing on your hands. Just be aware of your hands.

2632
07:49:58.159 --> 07:50:02.639
I'd like you to move your hands around, just maybe

2633
07:50:02.759 --> 07:50:08.159
move your fingers a little bit. I've been and closing

2634
07:50:08.400 --> 07:50:16.119
your hands very gently, just so that you can get

2635
07:50:16.119 --> 07:50:22.919
in touch with how your hands and your fingers fell,

2636
07:50:28.360 --> 07:50:47.279
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

2637
07:50:47.400 --> 07:50:51.279
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2638
07:50:51.439 --> 07:50:57.159
your feet is you've just done with your hands, Maybe

2639
07:50:58.599 --> 07:51:06.040
turn in your ankle, moving your feet around, moving your

2640
07:51:06.159 --> 07:51:19.400
toes gently, but only very gently and very slowly, noticing

2641
07:51:19.919 --> 07:51:34.560
how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now and

2642
07:51:34.680 --> 07:51:42.720
your eyes. I'd like you to just focus on your eyelids.

2643
07:51:45.159 --> 07:51:48.159
Maybe you can open and close your eyes a couple

2644
07:51:48.240 --> 07:51:53.319
of times to really get in touch with how.

2645
07:51:53.279 --> 07:52:00.080
You feel when you do close your eyes. The muscle changes.

2646
07:52:01.919 --> 07:52:07.799
In your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising

2647
07:52:07.919 --> 07:52:16.959
your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps

2648
07:52:17.200 --> 07:52:25.159
squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so you

2649
07:52:25.279 --> 07:52:34.880
can hear it again. Touch with all aspects of how

2650
07:52:36.680 --> 07:52:53.159
your eyes feel right now. Now, focus in on your

2651
07:52:53.319 --> 07:52:59.439
thighs and it it just starts you to gently tense

2652
07:52:59.639 --> 07:53:09.599
your eyes, just very very gently, just enough so you

2653
07:53:09.720 --> 07:53:12.000
can become.

2654
07:53:13.159 --> 07:53:21.919
More attuned to the physical sensation.

2655
07:53:23.040 --> 07:53:28.200
Of your upper legs, the front of your thighs, and

2656
07:53:28.319 --> 07:53:41.680
the backs of your thigh. Noticing and observing how your

2657
07:53:41.840 --> 07:53:56.919
thighs feel right now, Moving your focus to the back

2658
07:53:57.000 --> 07:54:03.560
of your neck. Just noticing the back of your neck

2659
07:54:05.040 --> 07:54:10.319
the muscles and of course they lead to the side

2660
07:54:10.400 --> 07:54:14.520
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2661
07:54:14.599 --> 07:54:20.959
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as your

2662
07:54:21.319 --> 07:54:27.040
focus on the back of your neck, maybe you can

2663
07:54:27.959 --> 07:54:33.479
move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up.

2664
07:54:35.439 --> 07:54:41.080
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2665
07:54:44.200 --> 07:54:49.080
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2666
07:54:51.000 --> 07:55:02.159
but only very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying

2667
07:55:02.240 --> 07:55:10.439
to force anything. It has to be very very gentle,

2668
07:55:13.520 --> 07:55:25.000
just so you can be more in touch with the feelings,

2669
07:55:26.799 --> 07:55:35.159
with the sensations, the physical sensations of how the back

2670
07:55:35.279 --> 07:55:51.400
of your neck feels. Right now, as we now focus

2671
07:55:54.200 --> 07:55:59.400
on the tops of your arms, the parts where your

2672
07:55:59.520 --> 07:56:03.880
bise lips and your triceps are between your elbow and

2673
07:56:03.959 --> 07:56:12.560
your shoulders. Should focus on those parts, the tops of

2674
07:56:12.680 --> 07:56:20.040
your arms. You may like to just tense them, but

2675
07:56:20.759 --> 07:56:31.360
very very gently and slowly, see you know, straining or

2676
07:56:32.200 --> 07:56:39.159
put in any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2677
07:56:41.840 --> 07:56:44.240
It's just so that you can.

2678
07:56:46.759 --> 07:56:53.959
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2679
07:56:55.520 --> 07:57:07.439
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2680
07:57:09.599 --> 07:57:19.200
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2681
07:57:23.439 --> 07:57:31.880
notice how the tops of your arms feel right now.

2682
07:57:40.040 --> 07:57:50.840
As a now focus on your stomach the area, the

2683
07:57:50.959 --> 07:57:57.159
lower abdomen area below your belly button. Move it all

2684
07:57:57.240 --> 07:58:04.439
the way down to your hips, just above your grind.

2685
07:58:10.799 --> 07:58:18.000
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

2686
07:58:18.720 --> 07:58:33.959
very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing

2687
07:58:34.200 --> 07:58:40.599
to do, and maybe you can just move your body,

2688
07:58:43.240 --> 07:58:48.200
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to

2689
07:58:48.279 --> 07:58:55.279
the side using your hips, just so you can get

2690
07:58:55.680 --> 07:59:08.040
more in tune with how your lower abdomen area is

2691
07:59:09.200 --> 07:59:29.759
feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or

2692
07:59:29.840 --> 07:59:49.080
your lower abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth,

2693
07:59:54.479 --> 08:00:02.639
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, the teeth,

2694
08:00:03.759 --> 08:00:19.919
your guns, your tongue, Just noticing how your tongue and

2695
08:00:20.000 --> 08:00:29.680
your mouth feels. It may help by moving your tongue

2696
08:00:31.000 --> 08:00:37.959
around your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2697
08:00:38.040 --> 08:00:44.759
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2698
08:00:45.200 --> 08:00:50.080
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2699
08:00:53.159 --> 08:00:58.680
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2700
08:00:58.799 --> 08:01:07.680
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always

2701
08:01:08.639 --> 08:01:23.680
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2702
08:01:23.880 --> 08:01:40.119
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2703
08:01:51.439 --> 08:02:11.200
Now I'm going to focus on your wrists and I

2704
08:02:11.720 --> 08:02:20.560
ask you to maybe just routate your wrists by moving

2705
08:02:20.639 --> 08:02:31.080
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2706
08:02:33.880 --> 08:02:37.080
just so that you can.

2707
08:02:42.759 --> 08:02:51.680
Feel the sensations that.

2708
08:02:51.880 --> 08:03:07.279
You are currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps smooth in

2709
08:03:07.560 --> 08:03:25.040
your hands up and down again very very gently and slowly,

2710
08:03:34.040 --> 08:04:00.159
very genteel and slow. As we know, start troops the

2711
08:04:04.720 --> 08:04:16.639
lower back. The bad part is just above your hips

2712
08:04:21.040 --> 08:04:33.520
where your coxix are, a whole area which also really

2713
08:04:33.720 --> 08:04:38.119
does include the signs of your body.

2714
08:04:39.560 --> 08:04:49.159
Because those muscles are very much connected. There's those muscles

2715
08:04:50.119 --> 08:04:56.240
also move into your hip area connecting to your buttocks

2716
08:04:59.319 --> 08:05:12.200
the size as to your hips, and if you're physically

2717
08:05:13.759 --> 08:05:20.840
able to do so, maybe you can very gently.

2718
08:05:22.560 --> 08:05:35.880
Just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly from side

2719
08:05:36.040 --> 08:05:56.040
to side just enough e gauge how you feel in

2720
08:05:56.279 --> 08:06:12.240
your lower back. Perhaps it even move your hips gently

2721
08:06:14.560 --> 08:06:30.119
up and down, gently and slowly in order to be

2722
08:06:30.680 --> 08:06:40.000
in touch with the physical sensations of your lower back.

2723
08:06:57.040 --> 08:07:12.279
As we now, move your attention to your jaw, that

2724
08:07:12.599 --> 08:07:18.279
area from your chin all the way up to near

2725
08:07:18.360 --> 08:07:34.400
where your ears are the hole of your jaw, and

2726
08:07:34.639 --> 08:07:41.479
you can just if it's okay to do so gently

2727
08:07:42.959 --> 08:07:52.840
open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very gently

2728
08:07:53.200 --> 08:08:08.200
and slowly opening your mouthing, closing your mouth very gently

2729
08:08:10.560 --> 08:08:33.479
and slowly so you can be in touch with how

2730
08:08:33.680 --> 08:09:10.799
your jaw feels. Now to sit now the chest area,

2731
08:09:20.360 --> 08:09:25.240
and you don't need to do anything to move your

2732
08:09:25.479 --> 08:09:36.680
chest because it moves every time you breathe, and it

2733
08:09:36.919 --> 08:09:50.919
moves very gently and slowly automatically with each breath you

2734
08:09:51.159 --> 08:10:16.360
takee as you focun some how your chest feels when

2735
08:10:16.479 --> 08:10:54.680
you breathe. Live in your focus to your forms, your elbers.

2736
08:11:00.639 --> 08:11:13.040
Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly tense the

2737
08:11:13.279 --> 08:11:21.360
muscles in your forearms, and when you do that, you

2738
08:11:21.520 --> 08:11:44.880
can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

2739
08:11:53.360 --> 08:12:24.759
gently and softly up saving your forearms and dopers. Now

2740
08:12:33.599 --> 08:12:52.240
focus the rest of your back, your upper back in

2741
08:12:52.599 --> 08:13:10.560
the middle, the middle of your back again this part

2742
08:13:10.799 --> 08:13:25.400
of your body news. Also every time you breed. You

2743
08:13:25.680 --> 08:13:39.439
may not notice that. Usually mas you observe your upper

2744
08:13:39.639 --> 08:13:48.200
back in the middle of your back, you can really feel.

2745
08:13:50.360 --> 08:13:50.400
That.

2746
08:13:52.119 --> 08:14:47.400
Gentle end No mom moving your focus into your area,

2747
08:14:50.720 --> 08:15:02.520
your buttees, your brain. There's muscles and those brain in

2748
08:15:02.639 --> 08:15:43.240
your midsection. Just noticing how your hips feel right. Now,

2749
08:15:50.720 --> 08:16:06.520
you can very very gently move your it's maybe side

2750
08:16:06.720 --> 08:16:54.000
to side very gently and slow, very gently, softly, slowly,

2751
08:16:59.319 --> 08:17:16.119
everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2752
08:17:16.240 --> 08:17:19.159
mind and your mind.

2753
08:17:19.000 --> 08:17:29.360
Itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant,

2754
08:17:29.439 --> 08:17:37.439
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2755
08:17:37.840 --> 08:17:49.000
storing chin. It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2756
08:17:49.319 --> 08:17:53.520
used to in your day to day life.

2757
08:17:56.680 --> 08:18:23.599
It's a slower movement of energy, very small movements which

2758
08:18:23.720 --> 08:18:31.880
make up the larger movements. This is always the case. Now,

2759
08:18:31.919 --> 08:18:36.479
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2760
08:18:36.599 --> 08:18:42.319
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2761
08:18:44.479 --> 08:18:53.479
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2762
08:18:55.360 --> 08:19:10.000
space that we're sharing is we move from that big

2763
08:19:14.599 --> 08:19:26.200
movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on.

2764
08:19:31.520 --> 08:19:36.639
How your body feels, not just as a whole.

2765
08:19:37.720 --> 08:19:40.880
Not just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling

2766
08:19:41.959 --> 08:19:47.919
stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm

2767
08:19:48.000 --> 08:19:55.040
feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice

2768
08:19:55.240 --> 08:20:07.439
that your body begins to present to you small feelings

2769
08:20:09.040 --> 08:20:26.279
around your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether

2770
08:20:26.680 --> 08:20:39.479
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2771
08:20:42.400 --> 08:20:50.040
or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking

2772
08:20:50.040 --> 08:21:03.240
about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being

2773
08:21:04.279 --> 08:21:14.599
particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is telling you.

2774
08:21:22.400 --> 08:21:28.560
The feelings in your arms. Instead of feeling the hole

2775
08:21:28.840 --> 08:21:38.599
of the arm, maybe notice those individual feelings, all those

2776
08:21:38.680 --> 08:21:50.479
different muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms,

2777
08:21:52.400 --> 08:22:06.479
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2778
08:22:09.319 --> 08:22:15.360
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2779
08:22:15.560 --> 08:22:26.159
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

2780
08:22:26.439 --> 08:22:35.720
has its own individual physical sensation.

2781
08:22:48.159 --> 08:22:54.880
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2782
08:23:02.240 --> 08:23:03.479
there may not be any.

2783
08:23:03.840 --> 08:23:11.040
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2784
08:23:14.799 --> 08:23:19.159
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2785
08:23:20.080 --> 08:23:32.159
You know it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2786
08:23:32.200 --> 08:23:35.959
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2787
08:23:36.159 --> 08:23:42.560
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, what

2788
08:23:42.680 --> 08:23:45.759
it's like both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2789
08:23:47.599 --> 08:23:58.680
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2790
08:23:58.759 --> 08:24:07.000
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2791
08:24:07.159 --> 08:24:12.560
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2792
08:24:12.680 --> 08:24:38.200
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder, your

2793
08:24:38.279 --> 08:24:54.200
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

2794
08:24:55.000 --> 08:24:56.439
the right side.

2795
08:24:56.240 --> 08:25:06.919
Of your lower back of course that connection to your

2796
08:25:07.000 --> 08:25:20.319
buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up into

2797
08:25:20.400 --> 08:25:33.279
the middle of your back. And sometimes like right now,

2798
08:25:33.439 --> 08:25:38.200
actually when I focus on their part, when I focused

2799
08:25:38.240 --> 08:25:44.119
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

2800
08:25:44.159 --> 08:25:47.040
of my back, I almost felt like the muscles in

2801
08:25:47.119 --> 08:25:57.159
my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched

2802
08:25:57.240 --> 08:26:03.799
a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2803
08:26:05.159 --> 08:26:10.919
try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed to happen.

2804
08:26:12.119 --> 08:26:29.720
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

2805
08:26:33.439 --> 08:26:56.759
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2806
08:26:58.360 --> 08:27:15.720
you like experience in in your chest right now. And

2807
08:27:15.799 --> 08:27:19.880
there's so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar

2808
08:27:19.959 --> 08:27:23.759
bone leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone,

2809
08:27:27.040 --> 08:27:34.840
You've got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if

2810
08:27:34.840 --> 08:27:43.000
you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've

2811
08:27:43.040 --> 08:27:49.360
got the different well might not that different these days,

2812
08:27:49.400 --> 08:27:56.560
but there may be more muscles at the top of

2813
08:27:56.599 --> 08:28:04.240
the chest, but at the side underneath it's pretty much

2814
08:28:04.319 --> 08:28:07.759
the same whether you're a man or a woman. There's

2815
08:28:07.880 --> 08:28:14.680
muscles there, muscles that stretch out to your back, as

2816
08:28:14.759 --> 08:28:18.560
well as breast tissue which stretches and moves into your back,

2817
08:28:23.479 --> 08:28:42.439
to just being aware of your chest, being with whatever

2818
08:28:42.680 --> 08:29:02.240
feeling there is in your chest. When I noticed that,

2819
08:29:03.000 --> 08:29:09.959
I focus on my chest, I feel it in my

2820
08:29:10.919 --> 08:29:14.639
back and my upper back. I mean, I guess the

2821
08:29:14.759 --> 08:29:22.880
obvious reason would be because you know, I'll breathe in in,

2822
08:29:25.560 --> 08:29:28.759
and it stretches my chest and my back at the

2823
08:29:28.840 --> 08:29:49.560
same time. It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel

2824
08:29:52.240 --> 08:29:56.479
I got a little bit of pain in my right chest,

2825
08:29:58.759 --> 08:30:05.000
a little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2826
08:30:05.520 --> 08:30:14.439
I don't know. I noticed my shoulders are also wanting

2827
08:30:14.639 --> 08:30:21.560
to flex for some reason. I think that's probably part

2828
08:30:21.639 --> 08:30:30.080
of my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and

2829
08:30:30.119 --> 08:30:34.279
my other back, because I can move my shoulders and

2830
08:30:35.360 --> 08:30:42.040
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

2831
08:30:43.000 --> 08:30:48.520
or up, which then moves I think it's the scapulous

2832
08:30:51.200 --> 08:31:08.880
in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually, a good

2833
08:31:08.919 --> 08:31:12.279
thing about this is you can if you want to,

2834
08:31:13.000 --> 08:31:27.880
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

2835
08:31:28.040 --> 08:31:33.720
your body gently in order to get more of a

2836
08:31:33.919 --> 08:31:48.720
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing and

2837
08:31:48.880 --> 08:31:52.919
you do tense and muscle and you let it go

2838
08:31:53.240 --> 08:32:00.279
and you let it relax, it relaxes the way more

2839
08:32:01.919 --> 08:32:11.919
than it would normally. That you have to feel that

2840
08:32:12.000 --> 08:32:15.880
you're able to do that. There's no point doing it

2841
08:32:16.080 --> 08:32:16.799
if there's.

2842
08:32:16.639 --> 08:32:18.759
An issue.

2843
08:32:20.360 --> 08:32:25.840
With the per part of your body. You need to

2844
08:32:25.919 --> 08:32:36.319
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply.

2845
08:32:39.319 --> 08:32:54.560
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

2846
08:32:54.759 --> 08:33:05.840
your mind, how much as your mind slowed down since

2847
08:33:05.919 --> 08:33:32.319
we started this recording, How come and peaceful is your

2848
08:33:32.439 --> 08:33:44.560
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

2849
08:33:44.880 --> 08:33:52.240
just my voice to listen to, because you know, the

2850
08:33:52.439 --> 08:34:03.159
intention behind this recording is relaxation. At the very least,

2851
08:34:04.759 --> 08:34:09.279
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2852
08:34:09.319 --> 08:34:17.560
the recording than you did at the beginning. At the

2853
08:34:17.759 --> 08:34:29.880
very least, your mind to slow down as your body

2854
08:34:30.599 --> 08:34:45.840
continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

2855
08:34:49.840 --> 08:35:08.240
That's what you expect to happen. A relaxation to fill

2856
08:35:10.840 --> 08:35:23.799
your body, maybe calm in your mind, to the point

2857
08:35:24.000 --> 08:36:11.360
of boredom. When you start maybe to drift away, it's

2858
08:36:11.560 --> 08:36:21.319
almost as if you're moving further away from a body

2859
08:36:21.560 --> 08:36:35.040
in your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking

2860
08:36:35.119 --> 08:36:40.479
it an escape pod and a spaceship a movie, a

2861
08:36:40.639 --> 08:36:43.599
space movie, you know, and against a little part in it,

2862
08:36:45.479 --> 08:37:01.919
since the man far away from the spaceship, say three,

2863
08:37:10.880 --> 08:37:58.799
continue to relax, drifting so slow.

2864
08:38:11.560 --> 08:38:12.479
And be so.

2865
08:38:28.759 --> 08:39:14.799
So, 't be so, and focusing on the feeling of

2866
08:39:15.000 --> 08:39:27.400
those individual parts of your body. That's a relaxing one

2867
08:39:27.479 --> 08:39:44.200
by one. You may find that every now and then

2868
08:39:47.119 --> 08:39:58.319
you realize that you aren't listening to my voice because

2869
08:39:58.319 --> 08:40:09.840
your mind start to imagine something different, maybe started to

2870
08:40:12.119 --> 08:40:23.240
almost move into some kind of a dreamy state. And

2871
08:40:23.360 --> 08:40:29.919
then you become aware of my voice again. And even

2872
08:40:30.040 --> 08:40:36.799
though you may want to focus on my voice, you

2873
08:40:36.959 --> 08:40:44.880
may also wish to allow your mind to just drift

2874
08:40:48.080 --> 08:41:04.520
naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As you

2875
08:41:05.400 --> 08:41:22.439
feel more comfort spreading through your body like a warm

2876
08:41:22.680 --> 08:41:39.279
blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just the

2877
08:41:39.599 --> 08:41:56.720
perfect temperature. And even if you can hear background sounds,

2878
08:42:02.319 --> 08:42:14.799
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sensor

2879
08:42:17.520 --> 08:42:34.360
peace spreads through your mind like a gentle grease, yet

2880
08:42:34.520 --> 08:42:46.759
strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong.

2881
08:42:46.560 --> 08:42:47.040
Enough to.

2882
08:42:50.439 --> 08:43:00.560
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2883
08:43:00.759 --> 08:43:15.840
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

2884
08:43:16.240 --> 08:43:41.639
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that is

2885
08:43:41.959 --> 08:44:07.000
feeling your body, end your mind, and as you focus

2886
08:44:07.240 --> 08:44:13.880
on your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2887
08:44:15.240 --> 08:44:25.599
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2888
08:44:31.680 --> 08:44:52.000
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly, from ten down to nine,

2889
08:44:52.799 --> 08:44:59.680
just a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just

2890
08:44:59.759 --> 08:45:16.119
a another small change in how you feel. Eight down

2891
08:45:16.279 --> 08:45:24.119
to seven. That feeling is a gap, almost like a

2892
08:45:24.639 --> 08:45:30.479
gap that starts to get the wider, the gap between

2893
08:45:31.639 --> 08:45:38.080
those feelings that you used to have in your mind

2894
08:45:41.400 --> 08:45:48.680
compared to the feelings you have there growing now, feelings

2895
08:45:48.759 --> 08:45:59.639
of comfort and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider.

2896
08:46:01.360 --> 08:46:08.599
Eight down to seven, seven down to six. When you

2897
08:46:08.680 --> 08:46:15.040
get to five, your mind will start to have a

2898
08:46:15.479 --> 08:46:28.680
certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

2899
08:46:28.759 --> 08:46:35.799
your head sucking atension and the stress and any remaining

2900
08:46:36.919 --> 08:46:43.319
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2901
08:46:49.080 --> 08:46:54.200
And in down to four you can start to really

2902
08:46:54.799 --> 08:47:07.840
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2903
08:47:08.000 --> 08:47:16.720
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2904
08:47:20.240 --> 08:47:22.880
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2905
08:47:23.680 --> 08:47:32.479
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

2906
08:47:33.159 --> 08:47:45.400
peace and tranquility growing as it moves down to When

2907
08:47:45.439 --> 08:47:54.799
you get to one, your mind just feels exactly how

2908
08:47:54.919 --> 08:48:15.439
you want to feel, perfect feeling, maybe the sensation that.

2909
08:48:17.040 --> 08:48:18.479
You'd like to keep.

2910
08:48:21.479 --> 08:48:32.279
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2911
08:48:44.000 --> 08:48:50.479
and you can stay in that that space of confirm confidence,

2912
08:48:53.200 --> 08:49:00.159
confident in your own ability to create this space and

2913
08:49:00.279 --> 08:49:07.360
this feeling of comfort within your own mind just by

2914
08:49:07.560 --> 08:49:09.599
counting ten.

2915
08:49:11.159 --> 08:49:11.880
Down to one.

2916
08:49:16.439 --> 08:49:20.959
And this is something that you can do yourself when

2917
08:49:21.000 --> 08:49:28.279
you're on your own, the time when you can maybe

2918
08:49:28.479 --> 08:49:37.080
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes,

2919
08:49:40.919 --> 08:49:52.560
just count slowly from ten down to one and re

2920
08:49:52.840 --> 08:50:05.720
experience these feelings in your mind. And when you feel

2921
08:50:05.840 --> 08:50:15.360
that way in your mind, your body copies your mind,

2922
08:50:21.200 --> 08:50:27.080
and a feeling is spread through your spine and your

2923
08:50:27.279 --> 08:50:35.080
nervous system into every part of your body, travels through

2924
08:50:35.119 --> 08:50:49.360
your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing. Every particle of your existence

2925
08:51:02.040 --> 08:51:06.040
now we can. We can practice this a few times

2926
08:51:10.759 --> 08:51:13.759
before the end of the recording, and then you can

2927
08:51:15.279 --> 08:51:21.200
practice on your own. And each time you count for

2928
08:51:21.479 --> 08:51:36.279
ten about one, the feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep

2929
08:51:36.880 --> 08:51:53.919
relaxation become stronger and deeper feeling your mind and your brain.

2930
08:51:55.520 --> 08:52:05.119
With these positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing

2931
08:52:05.279 --> 08:52:16.799
you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind so very,

2932
08:52:18.479 --> 08:52:24.360
very easily just by counting.

2933
08:52:25.799 --> 08:52:36.159
Ten down to one. So we're gonna do now.

2934
08:52:37.000 --> 08:52:40.959
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2935
08:52:41.159 --> 08:52:45.439
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2936
08:52:45.479 --> 08:52:54.080
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2937
08:52:59.639 --> 08:53:09.040
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2938
08:53:09.200 --> 08:53:18.720
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2939
08:53:18.840 --> 08:53:34.639
can beat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in

2940
08:53:34.880 --> 08:53:42.799
comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body.

2941
08:53:48.799 --> 08:53:58.240
The same when I say eight, I want I say seven, six,

2942
08:54:00.799 --> 08:54:15.080
want I say five, four, When I say three, two,

2943
08:54:19.479 --> 08:54:24.439
and lastly you want to say one, you can repeat

2944
08:54:24.720 --> 08:54:26.040
that number.

2945
08:54:33.159 --> 08:54:33.279
Now.

2946
08:54:33.400 --> 08:54:38.959
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2947
08:54:39.080 --> 08:54:44.080
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2948
08:54:45.720 --> 08:54:50.840
speed that you feel is necessary.

2949
08:54:51.799 --> 08:54:52.119
For you.

2950
08:54:53.880 --> 08:54:58.840
So you can adapt. So if you feel you want

2951
08:54:58.880 --> 08:55:05.720
to say the numbers ten down to one faster than

2952
08:55:05.799 --> 08:55:10.040
I do, then you go ahead and do that. Or

2953
08:55:10.119 --> 08:55:14.040
if you feel when you do it yourself that you'd

2954
08:55:14.279 --> 08:55:22.720
like to have more more space between the numbers, maybe

2955
08:55:22.840 --> 08:55:24.520
take a lot longer.

2956
08:55:25.360 --> 08:55:26.680
To get from ten.

2957
08:55:28.639 --> 08:55:36.880
All the way down to one, that's your choice also

2958
08:55:37.159 --> 08:55:48.759
to do. So, I'm going to count.

2959
08:55:48.560 --> 08:55:56.919
From ten down to one. I want to get to one.

2960
08:55:58.279 --> 08:56:04.200
That will be the end this recording. The less course,

2961
08:56:04.279 --> 08:56:16.319
you're listening to music, and the music will continue ten

2962
08:56:28.799 --> 09:01:23.680
nine wait s twenty ninety eighty, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

2963
09:01:28.400 --> 09:02:13.599
twelve eleven, ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three

2964
09:02:18.680 --> 09:02:42.200
two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically

2965
09:02:42.319 --> 09:02:51.360
feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress

2966
09:02:51.439 --> 09:02:55.080
and tension to lead through your fingertips.

2967
09:02:54.520 --> 09:02:55.360
And your tastes.

2968
09:02:56.880 --> 09:03:01.599
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

2969
09:03:01.599 --> 09:03:07.759
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an

2970
09:03:07.799 --> 09:03:12.759
understanding considering the tension has been exiting your body through

2971
09:03:12.799 --> 09:03:21.720
your fingertips. So now I'm going to count from twenty

2972
09:03:21.799 --> 09:03:28.720
down to one again. This time you get to feel

2973
09:03:28.880 --> 09:03:34.880
relief of tension and stress and the anxiety that you

2974
09:03:34.959 --> 09:03:47.919
may have leaving through your stomach. Just leaving through your stomach,

2975
09:03:47.959 --> 09:03:53.599
almost as if it's just releasing the hold of your

2976
09:03:53.680 --> 09:03:59.400
stomach and enable to just above your chest or below

2977
09:03:59.400 --> 09:04:03.720
your chest, so surrounding your belly by an area, the

2978
09:04:03.840 --> 09:04:09.759
whole area. You can feel the tension of your body

2979
09:04:10.400 --> 09:04:15.880
where it's left. Just release from the area, and you

2980
09:04:15.959 --> 09:04:20.919
may notice that your stomach will become very relaxed. As

2981
09:04:21.200 --> 09:05:25.840
I countdown from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine.

2982
09:05:30.319 --> 09:05:52.000
Eight, seven, six, four, three.

2983
09:05:56.200 --> 09:06:08.360
Two what And you can open your eyes again if

2984
09:06:08.400 --> 09:06:11.959
you choose, but you can just keep them closed because

2985
09:06:12.000 --> 09:06:19.319
it feels relaxing. Just notice how your stomach feels. Notice

2986
09:06:19.760 --> 09:06:23.319
there's your focus. Just do a little scan of your body.

2987
09:06:25.400 --> 09:06:39.120
Just notice how your body feels, focusing on the upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2988
09:06:42.199 --> 09:06:49.080
Just noticing, and you know you may start to feel

2989
09:06:51.599 --> 09:06:55.839
more a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

2990
09:06:55.919 --> 09:06:59.800
you listening to this according.

2991
09:06:59.400 --> 09:07:01.879
Because you'd like to.

2992
09:07:03.519 --> 09:07:11.400
Let go completely of everything and dread well into a

2993
09:07:11.559 --> 09:07:26.440
nice natural calm relaxing sleep. So now we're going to

2994
09:07:26.559 --> 09:07:36.080
focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you can

2995
09:07:36.199 --> 09:07:41.680
incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead

2996
09:07:41.760 --> 09:07:47.879
and your eyes, it's that whole area, basically, almost as

2997
09:07:47.919 --> 09:07:50.239
if you were wearing a mask.

2998
09:07:50.080 --> 09:07:50.720
You know, like a.

2999
09:07:52.639 --> 09:07:58.040
I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or I'm

3000
09:07:58.120 --> 09:08:01.360
trying to Zora, you know, the kind of mask that

3001
09:08:01.480 --> 09:08:04.319
covers your eyes but also covers quite a lot of

3002
09:08:04.360 --> 09:08:11.160
the forehead. I'm focusing on that area because that's the

3003
09:08:11.279 --> 09:08:15.080
area that we're now going to release tension and stress

3004
09:08:15.480 --> 09:08:20.120
from your mind and your brain, from your mind and

3005
09:08:20.839 --> 09:08:25.400
any tension that you may have remaining your face, in

3006
09:08:25.519 --> 09:08:30.040
your neck and your jawl and your eyes and your

3007
09:08:30.160 --> 09:08:36.599
forehead and or your scalp. So basically, any tension within

3008
09:08:36.720 --> 09:08:39.559
your head area, including.

3009
09:08:39.120 --> 09:08:45.639
Your mind and your brain, and that's going to.

3010
09:08:45.639 --> 09:08:49.639
Be released through your forehead and your eyes.

3011
09:08:53.599 --> 09:08:55.199
As I count down the game.

3012
09:08:55.120 --> 09:10:30.800
From twenty down to one twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

3013
09:10:40.279 --> 09:10:56.919
what maticin the scan Your face, the jaw, your eyes,

3014
09:10:58.239 --> 09:11:07.239
the cheap bones, is your forehead, your scalp, your neck,

3015
09:11:08.559 --> 09:11:11.040
the back of your neck, in the front of your neck,

3016
09:11:12.000 --> 09:11:14.319
the side of your neck, and the throat.

3017
09:11:17.160 --> 09:11:17.319
HM.

3018
09:11:20.599 --> 09:11:31.680
Noticing being aware of the comfort increased in that relaxation,

3019
09:11:33.839 --> 09:11:38.720
not just in your head and neck and mind, also

3020
09:11:39.199 --> 09:11:48.680
the rest of your body. Just notice how loose and

3021
09:11:49.000 --> 09:11:52.680
calm you feel, and how easily.

3022
09:11:54.400 --> 09:12:05.720
It is to just let go completely. Let go completely

3023
09:12:13.360 --> 09:12:15.160
now easily.

3024
09:12:22.319 --> 09:12:26.760
Swor de valance. Want to focus on the top of

3025
09:12:26.839 --> 09:12:37.360
your head, and we can allow every last.

3026
09:12:38.879 --> 09:12:44.080
Piece attention or stress of mind being.

3027
09:12:44.160 --> 09:12:48.639
Lingering or hiding in your body or mind.

3028
09:12:49.239 --> 09:12:56.199
Head to just be sucked out the top of your

3029
09:12:56.239 --> 09:13:07.440
head released and yeah, I's sucked down into the clouds.

3030
09:13:09.959 --> 09:13:14.919
Imagine a being cloud of God your head almost like

3031
09:13:15.040 --> 09:13:15.919
a whirlpool.

3032
09:13:16.720 --> 09:13:21.160
And this is can suck that tension now a the

3033
09:13:21.279 --> 09:13:22.319
top of your head.

3034
09:13:24.480 --> 09:13:25.319
And just take it.

3035
09:13:25.360 --> 09:13:28.199
Away good.

3036
09:13:31.199 --> 09:13:34.959
Your focus. Imagine an opening on the top of your

3037
09:13:35.080 --> 09:13:42.120
head with a tension, stress and any remaining issues maybe

3038
09:13:42.319 --> 09:13:45.599
worries of concerns that have no use to you.

3039
09:13:45.760 --> 09:13:49.559
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

3040
09:13:49.599 --> 09:13:50.400
of your head.

3041
09:13:52.199 --> 09:13:58.519
Taken away. As I count down again from twenty down

3042
09:13:58.720 --> 09:14:59.000
to one now twenty nineteen eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thteen, twelve,

3043
09:15:04.800 --> 09:15:51.639
even nine, eight seven, six, five four three.

3044
09:16:01.319 --> 09:16:19.559
What breathe? Noticing how you feel.

3045
09:16:25.800 --> 09:16:34.360
How relaxed and calm you physically and mentally fail right now,

3046
09:16:40.040 --> 09:16:49.839
help be peas your mind feels. It feels so nice

3047
09:16:50.040 --> 09:16:56.559
to just let go, to give yourself some space to

3048
09:16:56.800 --> 09:17:08.639
breathe easily, to think calmly, just to take a break

3049
09:17:08.760 --> 09:17:15.599
from all that pointless worry and concerns about.

3050
09:17:15.440 --> 09:17:18.839
Things that you don't need to think about.

3051
09:17:21.720 --> 09:17:29.040
Right now, because this is your time to let go.

3052
09:17:30.440 --> 09:17:40.199
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3053
09:17:40.319 --> 09:17:47.599
in your mind, relaxed in your body. I can feel

3054
09:17:48.160 --> 09:17:57.959
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

3055
09:18:00.319 --> 09:18:09.239
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

3056
09:18:10.720 --> 09:18:16.879
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

3057
09:18:23.599 --> 09:18:24.959
In this.

3058
09:18:26.800 --> 09:18:36.839
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3059
09:18:37.680 --> 09:18:49.440
for as long as you choose. You choose to drift

3060
09:18:49.680 --> 09:18:56.519
on into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you can

3061
09:18:56.599 --> 09:19:08.160
do that. It's completely up to you, and you can

3062
09:19:08.360 --> 09:19:14.480
keep this feeling calmness physically, mean in your mind, as

3063
09:19:14.680 --> 09:19:29.040
long as you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relax,

3064
09:19:32.360 --> 09:19:36.000
And I'd like you to make up your mind.

3065
09:19:37.959 --> 09:19:39.040
That you're going to relax.

3066
09:19:47.680 --> 09:19:50.959
I want to explore that with you. What it feels

3067
09:19:51.080 --> 09:19:57.919
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax.

3068
09:19:59.559 --> 09:20:07.160
Look yourself. But giving yourself that, yes, it is a command, really,

3069
09:20:07.199 --> 09:20:14.120
isn't it When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

3070
09:20:14.239 --> 09:20:21.279
but firm way, that only you can really tell yourself

3071
09:20:21.760 --> 09:20:24.599
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

3072
09:20:24.639 --> 09:20:30.760
to you, now it relax, relax, you know, and it

3073
09:20:30.839 --> 09:20:33.239
needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else can't

3074
09:20:33.279 --> 09:20:42.279
really have the same the same kind of influence or

3075
09:20:42.680 --> 09:20:50.800
power that you have over your own physicality, over how

3076
09:20:50.959 --> 09:21:01.160
you feel, because when you say it to yourself, it

3077
09:21:01.440 --> 09:21:09.239
means more. It's personal, and your brain and your unconscious

3078
09:21:09.440 --> 09:21:15.599
mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

3079
09:21:15.879 --> 09:21:19.720
for example, we'll test it out. We'll do a little tests,

3080
09:21:19.919 --> 09:21:23.720
do little tests along the way, and you can get

3081
09:21:23.839 --> 09:21:30.319
more of an idea of the force, the positive force

3082
09:21:30.480 --> 09:21:37.199
that you can have in creating a sense of comfort

3083
09:21:37.440 --> 09:21:42.199
and relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly

3084
09:21:44.000 --> 09:21:54.680
just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

3085
09:21:54.760 --> 09:22:01.720
to start by it's focused on your hands. To focus

3086
09:22:01.800 --> 09:22:04.440
on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

3087
09:22:05.440 --> 09:22:10.360
and just say relax. As you focus on my hands,

3088
09:22:12.599 --> 09:22:17.160
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

3089
09:22:17.199 --> 09:22:18.360
my hands to relax.

3090
09:22:20.440 --> 09:22:21.040
I think if you.

3091
09:22:21.120 --> 09:22:27.919
Actually do it directly by focusing and imagining that your

3092
09:22:28.040 --> 09:22:31.080
hands can hear what they're saying.

3093
09:22:31.199 --> 09:22:34.199
You know, they've got little ears, which is a little weird.

3094
09:22:36.800 --> 09:22:47.440
So talking to your hands and just say relax, you know, just.

3095
09:22:54.040 --> 09:22:55.480
Your hands start to relax.

3096
09:23:07.919 --> 09:23:11.400
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3097
09:23:12.519 --> 09:23:17.360
You just saying the same word relax, and find the

3098
09:23:17.519 --> 09:23:20.279
right tone for you.

3099
09:23:22.839 --> 09:23:24.120
You know, I might say.

3100
09:23:24.519 --> 09:23:33.720
Relax, but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

3101
09:23:34.040 --> 09:23:39.720
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

3102
09:23:40.599 --> 09:23:46.639
for you to gauge what feels right for you. But

3103
09:23:46.879 --> 09:23:52.080
just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

3104
09:23:52.599 --> 09:23:57.279
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

3105
09:23:57.519 --> 09:24:03.760
just tell your eyes relax.

3106
09:24:05.639 --> 09:24:05.839
Now.

3107
09:24:32.639 --> 09:24:42.800
Now, I just did that myself, and sometimes you may

3108
09:24:42.879 --> 09:24:43.319
feel that.

3109
09:24:43.400 --> 09:24:45.279
You need a bit more time.

3110
09:24:47.279 --> 09:24:50.480
Or the different parts to relax, you know, because I

3111
09:24:50.599 --> 09:24:55.519
started talking again, and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully,

3112
09:24:56.480 --> 09:24:59.160
But what happened is that we'll just continue to relax

3113
09:24:59.279 --> 09:25:06.959
even don't. And that's happened with my eyes. Something else

3114
09:25:07.000 --> 09:25:11.599
I noticed is when I started focusing on my eyes,

3115
09:25:11.919 --> 09:25:15.400
that actually almost became they got worse before they got

3116
09:25:15.480 --> 09:25:18.440
better in a way. So I felt a degree of

3117
09:25:18.639 --> 09:25:25.239
tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So I

3118
09:25:25.360 --> 09:25:28.239
think what that was really was just me becoming more

3119
09:25:28.319 --> 09:25:33.720
aware of the tension that was already there.

3120
09:25:34.279 --> 09:25:34.959
But I wasn't.

3121
09:25:35.959 --> 09:25:39.879
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

3122
09:25:40.639 --> 09:25:58.000
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

3123
09:25:58.160 --> 09:26:01.360
eyes is still continuing to really acts as well as

3124
09:26:01.440 --> 09:26:07.360
my hands. Actually, my hands have got a certain kind

3125
09:26:07.400 --> 09:26:13.199
of energy, like not buzzing, but I can.

3126
09:26:13.160 --> 09:26:13.480
Kind of.

3127
09:26:15.839 --> 09:26:18.000
Funer a degree of energy in my hands.

3128
09:26:21.199 --> 09:26:25.879
Maybe that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's

3129
09:26:25.879 --> 09:26:36.239
supports and that it's part I think we should focus.

3130
09:26:36.000 --> 09:26:36.919
On the back of the neck.

3131
09:26:37.639 --> 09:26:39.279
That's a part which quite often.

3132
09:26:41.160 --> 09:26:43.559
Or for me, holds tension. I don't know about it

3133
09:26:43.559 --> 09:26:48.239
for yourself, but I think it's quite a standard place

3134
09:26:48.360 --> 09:26:55.839
where tension is sometimes held. So and I'm doing exactly what.

3135
09:26:55.959 --> 09:26:57.919
You're doing as you do it as well.

3136
09:26:58.080 --> 09:27:01.040
So I'm telling my body parts.

3137
09:27:00.959 --> 09:27:03.839
To relax as well. So if you tell your neck

3138
09:27:03.959 --> 09:27:04.919
at the back of your.

3139
09:27:04.879 --> 09:27:07.480
Neck, focus on the back of your neck, and just

3140
09:27:07.599 --> 09:27:13.480
say relax in your own.

3141
09:27:13.360 --> 09:27:16.080
Words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

3142
09:27:16.720 --> 09:27:18.760
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3143
09:27:18.800 --> 09:27:24.279
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying

3144
09:27:24.360 --> 09:27:27.400
it literally to the back of your neck.

3145
09:27:28.360 --> 09:27:30.319
Is it at the back of your neck? Can actually

3146
09:27:30.519 --> 09:27:32.559
hear what you're saying.

3147
09:27:35.559 --> 09:27:36.160
As you do that?

3148
09:27:36.319 --> 09:27:39.760
Now, just say relax to the back of your neck.

3149
09:27:40.919 --> 09:27:41.800
And I did the same.

3150
09:28:20.599 --> 09:28:23.279
And what I noticed and you may have.

3151
09:28:23.400 --> 09:28:28.279
That similar thing is even though I was focusing on

3152
09:28:28.360 --> 09:28:39.360
the back of my neck, other parts started to I

3153
09:28:39.400 --> 09:28:43.080
don't know, showed themselves to me or maybe because they

3154
09:28:43.160 --> 09:28:45.919
want to be relaxed as well. But I started to

3155
09:28:46.080 --> 09:28:50.639
noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention in my shoulders.

3156
09:28:50.440 --> 09:28:51.400
And in my upper back.

3157
09:28:54.519 --> 09:28:58.639
Whether that was because my back of my neck was

3158
09:28:58.760 --> 09:29:04.680
saying I'm pretty much okay, it's the other parts that

3159
09:29:04.879 --> 09:29:13.879
need attention, but my lobe, my back of my neck

3160
09:29:14.000 --> 09:29:17.919
is still relaxing. But I just became more aware of

3161
09:29:18.080 --> 09:29:24.680
other parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen and

3162
09:29:25.760 --> 09:29:26.120
it's not.

3163
09:29:27.720 --> 09:29:30.279
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3164
09:29:31.120 --> 09:29:35.360
you're being notified of more places.

3165
09:29:36.120 --> 09:29:38.040
But also want to feel relaxed.

3166
09:29:41.319 --> 09:29:43.559
So I'm going to focus on my.

3167
09:29:43.760 --> 09:29:48.959
Upper back so you can do the same. Even if

3168
09:29:49.000 --> 09:29:49.519
you don't have.

3169
09:29:49.680 --> 09:29:55.000
Any feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper back,

3170
09:29:56.919 --> 09:30:01.800
you just focus on your back and the whole area

3171
09:30:02.000 --> 09:30:06.480
from the shoulder blades down to the making of your

3172
09:30:06.519 --> 09:30:10.800
back and the spine. And with me, it's more the

3173
09:30:10.879 --> 09:30:12.559
shoulder blades are more.

3174
09:30:17.239 --> 09:30:22.680
Yeah, that's the parts that I really sort of given me.

3175
09:30:24.400 --> 09:30:24.720
Did not.

3176
09:30:26.639 --> 09:30:28.919
That it needs relax in the sounds, going to ask

3177
09:30:29.040 --> 09:30:32.319
that part to relax, and you can do the same.

3178
09:30:32.400 --> 09:30:59.879
Now relapse about the bank. Something strange happened there, And this.

3179
09:31:01.440 --> 09:31:03.720
Often happens, and we're doing this form.

3180
09:31:05.800 --> 09:31:12.000
For sixteen years or something, and often I one surprised

3181
09:31:12.879 --> 09:31:19.680
but amaze really bad. There can be a feeling. So

3182
09:31:19.879 --> 09:31:22.120
when I was focusing on the back.

3183
09:31:22.000 --> 09:31:26.239
Of my neck, my other back was starting to feel

3184
09:31:26.360 --> 09:31:32.480
quite stressed and in need of attention. As soon as

3185
09:31:32.519 --> 09:31:36.519
I started talking to you about my upper back and

3186
09:31:37.599 --> 09:31:41.400
talking about you know, getting ready to ask the upper

3187
09:31:41.480 --> 09:31:46.279
back to relax. Why the back already started to relax.

3188
09:31:49.040 --> 09:31:52.160
It's almost as if it doesn't need to hear the words,

3189
09:31:53.040 --> 09:32:11.120
this needs attention, just needs to be noticed. That is

3190
09:32:11.239 --> 09:32:14.639
something that often happens in this.

3191
09:32:15.559 --> 09:32:17.400
Type of situation.

3192
09:32:18.559 --> 09:32:23.879
Is when you start to relax a couple of parts

3193
09:32:23.919 --> 09:32:26.480
of your body, as we've done with.

3194
09:32:26.599 --> 09:32:32.279
Our hands, the eyes that eyemids, and.

3195
09:32:32.480 --> 09:32:39.400
Now back of the neck, top of the bag.

3196
09:32:41.040 --> 09:32:44.440
Of the bag, the rest of the body seems to

3197
09:32:44.639 --> 09:32:53.319
just take notice and decide in its own way to

3198
09:32:53.519 --> 09:32:55.919
start relaxing.

3199
09:32:57.760 --> 09:33:00.639
Other parts of your body start up to just.

3200
09:33:02.360 --> 09:33:09.720
Become looser. I suppose it's kind of like a bit

3201
09:33:09.760 --> 09:33:14.279
of an avalanche, you know, the little ball starts rolling

3202
09:33:14.480 --> 09:33:17.160
and before you know it, the whole of your body

3203
09:33:17.319 --> 09:33:29.480
is completely relaxed and calm. And if you focus on

3204
09:33:29.599 --> 09:33:41.919
your face, you focus on your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrows,

3205
09:33:42.160 --> 09:33:44.519
and the muscles.

3206
09:33:44.440 --> 09:33:51.199
Around your eyes, and maybe you start to.

3207
09:33:51.319 --> 09:33:56.239
Notice that your forehead is more relaxed than it was.

3208
09:33:58.279 --> 09:34:03.519
Maybe your face is more than that. I would say

3209
09:34:03.599 --> 09:34:07.839
my entire face is a lot more relaxed than it was.

3210
09:34:19.160 --> 09:34:24.959
So you're going to focus now on your shoulders again,

3211
09:34:25.160 --> 09:34:28.480
just like before, just to your shoulders.

3212
09:34:29.879 --> 09:34:31.800
You can't do them in the digit. You can do

3213
09:34:32.160 --> 09:34:36.400
right shoulder and your shoulder. I just can't do both

3214
09:34:36.440 --> 09:34:37.279
at the same time.

3215
09:34:39.319 --> 09:34:42.559
Just tell your shoulders and you focus on them in

3216
09:34:42.639 --> 09:34:46.040
your mind, focus on how you feel.

3217
09:34:46.760 --> 09:34:51.080
Maybe you can see them in your mind's eye.

3218
09:34:54.680 --> 09:34:56.440
Just tell your shoulders.

3219
09:34:59.599 --> 09:35:00.639
To as.

3220
09:35:38.199 --> 09:35:54.319
Nice as they relax. I didn't notice. The species of

3221
09:35:54.440 --> 09:36:02.639
my bank is the connection between the parts the back,

3222
09:36:03.080 --> 09:36:12.760
the shoulders, the neck being more connected and being such

3223
09:36:13.519 --> 09:36:19.160
a large part of your body, it's almost hard to

3224
09:36:19.319 --> 09:36:27.959
separate them from each other. My lull back has started

3225
09:36:28.000 --> 09:36:28.919
to relax on the.

3226
09:36:29.000 --> 09:36:40.040
Same they didn't going too slow, and that could be.

3227
09:36:40.080 --> 09:36:44.080
An issue because we will go a different speeds.

3228
09:36:46.319 --> 09:36:50.400
And the idea at the beginning of this recording was

3229
09:36:50.480 --> 09:36:53.000
for you to be able to just say to yourself,

3230
09:36:56.559 --> 09:37:09.319
relax without focusing on anyarticular a part of the body.

3231
09:37:11.599 --> 09:37:17.919
Because when you know that telling your hands to relax,

3232
09:37:21.919 --> 09:37:25.959
your hands relax, you.

3233
09:37:26.080 --> 09:37:33.000
Tell your eyelids, your eyes, the muscles around.

3234
09:37:32.680 --> 09:37:42.080
Your eyes and your eyebrows to relax and they relax.

3235
09:37:48.000 --> 09:37:50.440
Until the back of your neck.

3236
09:37:53.599 --> 09:38:17.519
To relax, and as until you're off back ter rights.

3237
09:38:26.879 --> 09:38:51.239
And dirids, until your shoulders, rights, the rights.

3238
09:39:15.000 --> 09:39:19.839
You told your hands to relax and relaxed. You continued

3239
09:39:21.680 --> 09:39:33.760
to relax and told your eye, the muscles around your eyes,

3240
09:39:34.760 --> 09:39:46.680
your eye brows, to relax. They relaxed, continue to relax

3241
09:39:53.040 --> 09:39:56.839
and told at the back of your necks. In the

3242
09:39:56.879 --> 09:40:02.800
back of your neck, I told it to the lex

3243
09:40:07.080 --> 09:40:22.239
It relaxed. You continued to relax, and you told you

3244
09:40:22.360 --> 09:40:31.879
all about the back to relax. It relaxed and continued

3245
09:40:34.440 --> 09:40:49.000
to relax. That's with your shoulders. Told your shoulders to relax,

3246
09:40:52.559 --> 09:41:01.680
solders relaxed and to relapse.

3247
09:41:07.319 --> 09:41:12.319
And it's not just that, it's.

3248
09:41:14.919 --> 09:41:18.480
But the rest of your body was all also in

3249
09:41:18.959 --> 09:41:26.519
this thing. But their reaxation has been spreading to from

3250
09:41:26.559 --> 09:41:34.360
your eyes to relaxation, spread to your forehead, around your face,

3251
09:41:34.639 --> 09:41:48.080
into your skin, into your jaw, onto the front of

3252
09:41:48.199 --> 09:41:52.959
the side of your neck, and way down your chest.

3253
09:41:53.000 --> 09:41:53.959
And style.

3254
09:42:01.040 --> 09:42:02.760
Stands and shoulders.

3255
09:42:04.760 --> 09:42:32.839
It's up, nobody lists. Let's you know, no bag, it's

3256
09:42:33.519 --> 09:42:46.000
but explain you just start to relax, then treading in

3257
09:42:46.160 --> 09:42:47.040
your legs.

3258
09:42:52.120 --> 09:43:02.360
Way down to paples, bat the.

3259
09:43:02.639 --> 09:43:44.800
Sight, the bottoms of h and your body. That's it

3260
09:43:45.080 --> 09:43:46.839
more your mind.

3261
09:43:53.559 --> 09:44:09.519
Snow pass the point the.

3262
09:44:11.760 --> 09:44:30.559
East shoes. Pos fames.

3263
09:44:30.440 --> 09:44:33.680
Say yeah, they.

3264
09:44:38.480 --> 09:44:39.360
Yes, it's not the.

3265
09:44:44.639 --> 09:45:37.879
Mans, peaceful teams. Which body you say to your son, yes.

3266
09:45:43.639 --> 09:45:52.680
And think, don't take this this, just play the sun.

3267
09:45:54.360 --> 09:46:27.080
And sensations.

3268
09:46:29.440 --> 09:47:38.559
Spoil must.

3269
09:47:21.360 --> 09:47:39.519
Must, I'm saying, do you think.

3270
09:48:00.080 --> 09:48:01.720
Twenty men dunk.

3271
09:48:01.519 --> 09:48:02.440
To twenty.

3272
09:48:09.360 --> 09:50:09.199
One, ten, nineteen seven, stay sixteen attatatatas