May 19, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) SKOOLS | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1356 | 19th May 2025

(no music) (10 hours) SKOOLS | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1356 | 19th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. Please only listen where you can safety close

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your eyes. I said that as I yawned and scratched

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my beard at the same time. So yes, I can multitask.

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Thank you very much. This is let me buoy to

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sleep number. What number is it? I don't know. One thousand,

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three hundred and one, one thousand, three hundrud. I have

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to check this. Let me go to one of my podcasts,

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one thousand, three hundred and fifty six. BlimE me, that's

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a lot in it. That's a lot. So yep. This

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is Monday's Borrowing Objects without an object to talk about. Now,

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what I thought I might do is if I look

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back on my Jason Newland's Boring group on Facebook, there

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was a question that at the time of answererring, I

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thought to myself, hmmm, maybe that would be a good

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subject to converse about on my Monday's Boring Objects. But

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I'm going to have to find the question. I'll have

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a look. Okay, okay, give me two seconds. I do

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also have a YouTube channel which is at Chason Newland

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that's also my podcast. So every single recording I do

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goes on there. The website has all of my well

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it will do if I'm just in the middle of

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doing some playlists, but I've been I've been changing things,

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trying to make it a bit better. But I decided

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to be to There was a certain thing I was

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doing and it would take me forever, so I decided

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not to do that. It seemed a bit pointless. I

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may go back and do it in the future, but

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right now, I'm just going to stick to what I've

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got planned. So I do have all of the recordings

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uploaded to the podcast, each individual podcast on the website,

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which will be on the website when they are published.

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It's just going to take a little while to do that.

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I'm having a quick look. Oh yeah, I also started

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a cult, if anyone wants to join, can we see? Right?

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It might have been about the hypnosis and creative writing, right,

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I was fall about talking about how I started in hypnosis,

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but I've probably done that so many times. I talked

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that one too to sleep. But I think there's a

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few little things I probably haven't talked about. Let me

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just think thinking the different jobs I've had, different places,

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have lived, h relationships, mm hmm, people, mm hmm. I

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wanted to talk about something that I haven't really mentioned before,

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something that's all kind of not surprised you, but maybe

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a little bit like, oh, you know, I mean that

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is kind of a sader surprise potentially, but just something

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where you're thinking, hmm, didn't know that about the juicy

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JJ man bloke person. I didn't know how old I

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was until I was seven. How about that? I didn't

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know my day at birth till I was seven. That's

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a bit of a That's more trivia, isn't it. It's

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more trivia Tuesday. It is Monday today, isn't it? Is

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it Monday? I think it is Monday, the nineteenth of

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May twenty twenty five, one two, all weeks to the

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end of the month. It's the year man, and it's

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like we're nearly halfway through the year. Jingle bells, jingle bells,

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jingle all the way. How much fun it is to

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ride in? No, No, it's oh. One of my favorite

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hymns was should I talked about my I talked about

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my high school. So there's only two schools I really remember,

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I really remember I've been in. I could just talk

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about schools in general. Let's talk about my schools in general. Okay.

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I have this memory of walking to school on the

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first day on my own, and this is when I

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was I don't know, five four or five or something.

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That's when I lived in Newcastle. But I have another

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memory of another school. It might be the same school,

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and it's really it was freaky. It was one of

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those freaky moments. And so I was in this school

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behind the school gates that the right side of the school,

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inside the school, not inside the school, but inside the

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playground part of the front of the school. Although that

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might have been the back of the school, I don't

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think it's really relevant. I think it was the front

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of the school or the side. It was eble to side,

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the back or the front. And it definitely wasn't underground.

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It was definitely on top of the ground. And I

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was standing there on my own looking through the fence,

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and my memory is it was it wasn't barbed wire

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or anything like that, but it was these metal fence. Now,

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because I was so little, probably looked really tall. It

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might have only been like five foot, but in my

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memory it was like twenty foot high. And so I'm

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looking through the fence at this lady and she falls over.

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I lot dies with her, but I'm locked eyes. I mean,

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there was no locks involved. But I looked at her

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and she fell over, and I thought that I had

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caused her to fall over, which is kind of a

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weird thing. I believed that I had somehow made her

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fall over with my mind, which was a weird thing

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to think. I think at that age, at any age, really,

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and I don't remember too much about it. I think

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I might have gone back in school and told a

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teacher maybe, or just gone in a hidden because I

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didn't want to get in trouble. That was a very

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strange memory. Now I don't know where that was. That

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might have been in Newcastle, might be in South End,

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it might I don't know where it was. And then

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I remember there was another school which was almost overlooking

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sure there was like a motorway. This was in South End,

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I think, or Newcastle again. I think that was a

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different school, and I got the very vague memories of

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standing looking. I used to do a lot of looking

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back then and just could see it was very inner

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city school, I would say, or around places it wasn't

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kind of I'm sure there was like a motorway that

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you could see. That's my memory of it. Anyway, I

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don't I remember walking to school through down a bypass

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kind of this. I don't know. It was a some

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kind of bridge that would walk down. There was other

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kids as well. It wasn't just me, but walking to school.

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This would be in Newcastle. But again I don't remember

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much of the actual school itself. Have you hear Vinnie's

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been really fidgety. We've just been out, just got back.

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I took his food out of the fridge because he

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wasn't eating it. I'm getting a little bit fed up

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with chucking it away because at the moment he's just

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eating dry food and he doesn't seem to want wet

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food at all. So I put it in the fridge,

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just brought it out and he's ignoring it. And he's

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not ignoring it like he's not calling to him, but

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he's just I've got an actually beard. I don't know why.

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I think it might be a heat rash or flease.

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So I remember this vaguely remember that. But the first

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school that I really kind of have any any set

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of memories for was when I was seven, and I've

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moved in with papa and papa's new wife. It sounds

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like a song title, don't it. And there was this

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school just up the well, not just up the road,

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but it was yeah, it wasn't wasn't far away from

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where the house was that we were living because we

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were living with my dad's new wife's mother that it

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was her house. So we were living there for I

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don't know how long because we went to school, I

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guess in the September. We moved there about in the

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summer during the summer holidays from South End Nazareth House

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in South End and went to school. I was seven,

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so I don't know what. We didn't have years back

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then the way they do now we do. But it

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wasn't it's like first, second, four fifth, It wasn't like

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year twelve, year fifteen or whatever. Didn't have that back then.

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And I was only there probably four maybe one term,

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perhaps two terms, and then we moved because the house

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we was in was I think it was derelict. It

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was basically falling apart. So they moved my step mom's

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mum into a flat and we got a council house

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because we were overcrowded anyway, not that I cared. I didn't.

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I was fine. I like living there, so we I mean,

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it's like, okay, living in a room with one other kid,

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or even two other kids, it's better than living in

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a room with twelve other kids in my see, you know,

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That's how I kind of saw it. And then we

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moved to the house that my nan and grand had

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ended up living in for a long time, especially my

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na lived in there for a long, long long time.

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So we moved into this new build on this new

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sort of state, and it was technically a three bedroom house.

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The third bedroom was some would argue wasn't big enough

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to be like a It was a very small bedroom.

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Some people might say it's just like a box room.

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Some people might just say, you know, there's lots of

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different things people can say. I was happy there because

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that was my room. For the first time in my life,

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I had my own bedroom. It was glorious. So I've

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talked about this before. My bruce Leaf poster on the wall,

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and even though I didn't know who Brucely was at

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that time, but I learned someone just sneezed the loudest

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sneeze I've ever heard in my life, So so we

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went about school, so we went to a different school,

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which was kind of about fifteen minute walk from there,

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so that was like, okay. So that was the second

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junior school I went to in that town. And it's

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kind of weird. I mean, we moved from one house

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that I really liked to another house that I really liked,

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and you know, it wasn't big enough for all of

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us really, plus another kid came along, so in reality,

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we couldn't have stayed there, but I would have happily

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stayed there because well I had my own room. That

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wasn't just the only reason, because I ended up having

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my own room when we moved again. But it was

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just I liked that house. It was a lovely house.

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And I liked the school as well. I like the

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other school. My memories of the first school in that

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town that I went to a seven was and I

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just turned seven, literally probably a week or two before

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the before going to school, And yeah, it was just nice.

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I liked it. I got into a little bit of

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trouble for stealing one of some one of a girl

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who I liked found the keys or managed I don't

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know where she got the keys from to the tuck

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shop and told me about it and invited me in

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to have a feast, and we got caught by the

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janitor after a few days of do it that, and

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the police came into the school and got me to

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stand up and her to stand up and told us

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all off. Now I assumed they hadn't told my parents

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because I didn't get told office at home, But in

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reality they probably did. All the teachers did. But because

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I only just moved there, they probably didn't feel they

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could really tell me off. Yeah, I had only been

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there for like a couple of months living with them.

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Unless I did tell me off, and I just laughed,

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it's possible I just didn't hear them, didn't listen. Yeah,

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I don't know. And then there was another time when

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there was this cupboard that had all like the toys

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in so we were playing toys Lego, these big lego

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don't know Lego, but these big bricks sticker bricks or

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whatever they were called, and had all his toys on

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the floor. The teacher came out of this room where

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all the toys were stored and said, somebody has made

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a dent in the wall. Now I remember even now,

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it was like a brick wall, big old bricks with

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paint covered in paint, but there was a like a dent.

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And their teacher said, no one's going to lunch until

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we find out who did it. No one was owning

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up to it, so I just said, I did it, okay,

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and there's the teacher, so send everyone to lunch. Kept

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me behind and the teacher said that. He said to me, okay,

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then new boy, show me how you did it. And

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I went in there and I thought, oh, now I'm

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on the spot. It's really hard, is you know, something

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you're not prepared for to if you if you lie

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to get out of doing something you've done, you can

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kind of be prepared in a way, but to lie

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about doing something you haven't done is difficult. Found it

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very difficult, very difficult. So I pretty much said, well,

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I did it with this and it was like a

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lego brick, plastic plastic lego brick. Oh yeah, that's how

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I did it. And the teacher just laughed at me,

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said show me how you did it. Then, So I

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did this with this, like, yeah, that's how I did that,

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and I was robbing this thing against the wall. It's

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like the worst lie, not the worst lie. But it

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was It's like trying to escape from a prison cell

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with a toothbrush or some candy floss, not candy floss,

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you know, tooth loss, whatever, it just you could do it, probably,

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but it would take forever, you know, to break for

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a wall, to even scratch the wall would take more

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than I pressure than I had available, you know, with

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my little seven year old body. I mean I was

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a size for a five year old. And they said,

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did you really do it? I said yeah. They said,

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you do realize after the stealing this might mean you'll

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go to prison. I said really. She said no, not really.

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I said, okay, but I'm not sure if I admitted

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that it wasn't me or not. But the weird thing

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about it is I felt like it was me. That's

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a strange thing. I felt like I'd done it. Weird.

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So I got moved, So I got expelled from that school. No,

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I didn't get expelled. I don't think I did. I

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left that school and we went to this other school,

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which is around the corner from the new housing the

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state we moved to. So I was moving towards I

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was probably yeah, seven and a half at this point,

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So I'm unless unless that might be an eighty, so

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maybe I'd had the whole year there, but I think

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it was I might have had the whole year there.

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So I went to this other school between eight and nine,

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and I liked that school. I liked that school even

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more than the first school, because yeah, I wasn't at

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the other school long enough to make friends, so I

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might have only been there for one term, because I

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did make friends at the next school, like good friends,

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like my best friend who was called Andrew. I had

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two I had Ian and Andrew. Ian lived up the road.

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He was on the same mistake as well. I was

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just living and went to school the same school, all

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the same age. Ian's birthday was the same date as mine,

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exactly the same date. And we were good friends who

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were best friends in and out of each other's houses.

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Used to just spend all the times together, really, and

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I was probably that period between living in that house,

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whatever period that was. But I mean, you know, really,

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from a school I was very whispery, whistley loud, wasn't

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it from a school perspective. From a school perspective, possibly

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that was my favorite time, you know, where both school

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and house, school and home synchronization was really good. Every

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aspect was good. And that was the only period really

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between the ages of eight and nine. So I went

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to the school I liked. I had friends for the

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first time, not for the first time, but for the

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first time where it was a degree of stability because

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we'd stayed. I've never been at a school for a

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whole year before, so I'd been there for over a year.

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And I guess because I do one term said a

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year and new two years. I suppose if you think

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about it, because when I moved into the other house

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when I was seven, seven, maybe the beginning of the

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year nineteen seventy eight, so I was yeah, and then

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started at the other school and I was there until

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I was nine, and then then we moved again and

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I went to a different school again, another junior school,

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and I liked that school as well, to be fair,

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but yeah, I wasn't enjoying the home life at that

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point then. But as far as schools go with I'd

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say I probably liked that school better. The third junior

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school I went to during that period, I liked the

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school better and I did make lots of friends because

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I was there for two years, so I kind of had,

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you know, I kind of got to make more deeper friendships,

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I don't know, like closer friendships, maybe a bit more

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stability in that sense. But the previous school it was

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just really nice because living on a council of state,

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it was a new build. Pretty much all the kids

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of my age group that moved onto that council estate

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were going to the same school as me, so we

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could hang out with each other. And then we moved

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and I lost all those friends, even though I was

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living in a little town. There was I think three

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or there was at least three junior school. It was

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probably a junior infant that's kind of the same thing.

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I think. You know, they went up to the age

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of eleven and in high school from eleven onwards. Is Yeah,

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that was a shame because it was the first time

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that I'd had any kind of stable schooling. And I've

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been through quite a bit while I was there as well,

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because I had problems with my ears partially deaf, had

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an operation, and I liked the school and I like

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my friends, and I had a girlfriend as well. My

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first ever girlfriend was there, and so that was cool,

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I say, my first ever I kind of had her

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girlfriend at the other school, but she kept getting me

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into trouble, so yeah, I think he got moved away.

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That was the one with the keys to the tuck shop. Yeah,

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I had a girlfriend and we used to just chase

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each other and push each other over and stuff, pull

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each other's hair, you know, that's that kind of It

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was a very deep and loving friendship, a very very

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a lot of romance. I was eight, but I did

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have my first ever date with her. I went to

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the cinema. I don't really remember what movies we went

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to see because it was Saturday matinee, so there was

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two movies, one old older one and one more newer one.

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I think I might have seen Spider Man the new spots,

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not the New Spider Man now, but back then it

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was the new movie New Spider Man movie, which was

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about nineteen seventy eight. I feel I need to check

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this up. Nineteen seventy eight Spied a Man movie. It

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was nineteen seventy eight. I'll wait a minute. The film

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was that's weird Spider Man. Let's have a look. I'm

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going to get this back. Nineteen seventy seven movie Spider Man.

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For the first time, I loved it, and I remember

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going to watch it and on the what was it

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The undercard were not the Undercan but the movie before

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was Sinbad in the Eye of the Tiger, I think,

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or it might have been, No, I think it was that.

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I think it was I Love Spider Man. I'm not

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sure which came first, Spider Man or Superman. As far

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as like the new movies that came out in the

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late seventies, it was so good, loved loved it. I mean,

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back then, superheroes were a big thing on TV. I

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mean there'd been a big thing forever really, but there

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was a real popular, popular thing. Oh we had, you

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know that was on TV at the time. So we

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had we have the Incredible Hulk, Wonder Woman, the Bionic Man,

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kung Fu. I mean, kung Fu was kind of like

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a superhero, but it wasn't really but kind of was

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more like real life superhero, you know, because he did

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kung fu. That's why he was called kung Fu. What

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other ones was there, well, a Bionic Woman. I don't

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know when they started calling it. It was a six million

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dollar man then I'm sure they just started calling it

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the Bionic Man eventually, and then spider Man, because Spider

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Man was also a TV show as well, and I'm

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trying to think of other and we used to have

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some of the older shows on as well, like some

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of the Superman shows, of the Lone Ranger, High Whole, Silvar, Rocketman.

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I'm trying to think of some of the others, like

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but these we were in black and white. Dick Tracy and

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the Dick Tracy technically wasn't a superhero, but he kind

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of was. Yeah, there was a lot a lot on

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back then. I probably missed out some really obvious ones.

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Shall I check, because I'm sure, I'm sure there's some

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that I've missed out. So super hero TV shows, I'm

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going to go online nineteen seventies. I don't want images

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list of superhero television and she was just okay, it's

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going right away back from nineteen forty nine. So the

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Lone Ranger is that how old The Lone Ranger was?

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Flash Gordon. Flash Gordon still one of the greatest movies

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ever in my opinion, one of the greatest, greatest soundtrack.

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But they I used to watch the Flash Gordon TV

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show and this was from like nineteen fifty four to

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fifty five, but they used to show it on TV,

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like in the late seventies early eighties.

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Zoro.

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They used to show that on The Invisible Man. They

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used to show that. Again they were black and white.

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I think the Mighty Atom I don't remember seeing that.

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Sounds good though, I mean superheroes. I'm just looking. It's

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got stuff here that I can't I mean, mister Terrific,

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Captain Nice. I don't remember ever seeing those left in

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the sixties Kung Fu, Yeah, to see. I thought that

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was I did think that was kind of like a

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superhero Mirror Man. Nope, the Six Million Dollar Man nineteen

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seventy three to seventy eight. The Tomorrow People, of course,

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seventy three to seventy nine. And they were superheroes, weren't they.

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That was an English thing and they could do I

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think telepathy between each other and stuff. The Invisible Man

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again started.

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Here they.

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I thought the Invisible Man was in the eighties. Maybe

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they just started another one. Because this is saying the

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Invisible Man was nineteen seventy Invisible Man nineteen seventy five

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to ninety seventy six. Surely it's not the one with

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McCullum producers. Why are they're saying who's in it? They're not.

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It starred David McCullum nineteen seventy five to nineteen Wow,

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I didn't realize that. I used to love that. So

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that was seventy five to seventy six. They were still

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showing it. They were showing repeats and stuff. So I

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used to watch that The Bionic Woman. Of course, I've

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already mentioned Man from Atlantis, yep, superhero that was Bobby Ewing.

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So Men from Atlantis another huge show. Anyone it's old

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enough to remember that huge. He was a pin up.

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He was a pin up for everyone, not just for adults,

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but for kids as well. I used to have him

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on my wall because he was a superstar. He could

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breathe underwater. Come on. I kind of felt I was

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similar to him because I swam the way he did.

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Because I was not I had no way of keeping

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above the water. So I just thought, you know what,

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I'll swim the way the Man from Atlantis does, which

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has gone very wiggly, and I could go from one

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link to the other without without going above the water.

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So I thought I was quite good, but I couldn't swim.

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I used to bang into people as well, I remember

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once I did it and I banged into the side

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and banging my face because I couldn't see where I

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was going. Monkey Monkey, So I remember Monkey nineteen seventy

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eight to nineteen eighty. Used to watch it on BBC two,

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and I remember watching that in the house we moved

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into when I was nine, watching it on TV while

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I was stripping the wallpaper in the living room. So

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we just moved in buck Roger's in the twenty fifth century.

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It's a superhero may it didn't have any powers though,

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so I just lets you see all the different superheroes

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we had during that period. I'm going to miss seventies out.

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Minimal nineteen eighty three. Now, I loved Minimal and then

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I didn't, so basically it was my favorite show. It

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was basically was a man that turned into an animal,

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hence Minimal. That's a dog barking now. And it didn't

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go down very well with the audience apparent. It wasn't

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only got one series and that was it. But I

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liked it a lot. But unfortunately, on the night that

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I was going to watch it, because I think I've

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seen a few episodes, the I got into trouble for

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something over nothing really but to do with my schoolwork.

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And I ended up getting big lecture and my dad

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just had a tantrum on me over a broken ruler,

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like a ruler my ruler had a chip in it.

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He wouldn't know why there was a chip in my ruler.

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I don't mean a chip as in, you know, potato,

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And I said, I don't know, and he just went

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on and on and on so and then I went

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and sat in and I couldn't watch Manimal just looked

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at it like, nah, it's bought. It. Never been able

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to watch it since it's weird, isn't it? The A

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team those superheroes were? They really but not didn't have powers,

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But then quite a few superheroes don't have powers. Batman

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doesn't have powers. Highway to Heaven it's not a super

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I mean, it's a brilliant show. I loved it. I

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watched that from all the way from the beginning to

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the end that one. I don't mean from the beginning

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of the episode to the end of the episode, but

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from eighty four to eighty nine. Loved Highway to Heaven.

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Why has the Incredible Hulk not been mentioned anyone? I've

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not mentioned a Whulk have I But it's not mentioned

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No Hulk, which was possibly one of the biggest biggest

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shows on TV at the time, late seventies, the Hulk.

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No no Hulk on this list, so it's not a

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complete list. How can they not mention the Hulk? Anyway?

471
00:39:14.119 --> 00:39:21.599
I mentioned the Hulk Super Grand that was like eighty

472
00:39:21.639 --> 00:39:24.440
five to eighty seven, So that was funny, but it

473
00:39:24.519 --> 00:39:26.519
was a little bit. I watched it, but it was

474
00:39:26.840 --> 00:39:28.960
you know, I was kind of coming to leave school

475
00:39:29.440 --> 00:39:30.599
and left school at that point.

476
00:39:35.679 --> 00:39:35.719
Er.

477
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:42.840
Yeah, why if they put bay Watch down? This is

478
00:39:42.840 --> 00:39:45.719
supposed to be superheroes. They might have got this right.

479
00:39:46.519 --> 00:39:51.199
Independence DC and Novel List is television series based on

480
00:39:51.280 --> 00:39:56.159
DC comics. Okay, let's look at that one adventure as

481
00:39:56.199 --> 00:40:00.039
a Superman Batman Shasa. So all these these are the

482
00:40:00.079 --> 00:40:02.079
ones I was looking for, But these are in the

483
00:40:02.159 --> 00:40:05.519
six fifties and sixties. Wonder Woman seventy five to seventy nine,

484
00:40:07.719 --> 00:40:16.559
Superboy eighty eight to ninety two. Really, I don't remember

485
00:40:16.559 --> 00:40:22.960
ever seeing. Superboy was a cartoon for the Chinese reality

486
00:40:23.039 --> 00:40:31.199
singing contest see Superboy TV series. Okay, it's an American

487
00:40:31.239 --> 00:40:35.079
television series based on a fictional DC comic character Superman's

488
00:40:35.159 --> 00:40:38.519
early years a Superboy. The show ran from eighty eight

489
00:40:38.559 --> 00:40:42.159
to ninety two. In syndication. It was renamed The Adventures

490
00:40:42.159 --> 00:40:51.960
as Superboy at the start of the third season, although

491
00:40:51.960 --> 00:40:58.119
they sold arises the first being focused on Clark Kent. Really,

492
00:40:58.800 --> 00:41:01.360
I'd love to see that. I didn't know there was

493
00:41:01.400 --> 00:41:06.199
a Superboy. Why did they never showed that on TV

494
00:41:06.480 --> 00:41:11.559
in this country? I'm pretty sure i'd remember that. Shazam again,

495
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.840
that was seventy four to seventy six. Never saw that.

496
00:41:16.400 --> 00:41:23.360
The Batman series, I mean, who hasn't I mean, maybe

497
00:41:23.360 --> 00:41:25.880
there are people that hasn't seen it, but the Batman

498
00:41:26.280 --> 00:41:29.760
shows sixty six sixty eight with some of the best

499
00:41:29.800 --> 00:41:36.880
television ever in my opinion. I loved it. The Flash

500
00:41:37.280 --> 00:41:44.719
nineteen ninety to ninety one, so that was funny. Lewis

501
00:41:44.800 --> 00:41:47.920
and Clark, The New Adventures of Superman, now that was

502
00:41:48.079 --> 00:41:51.920
huge in this country ninety three to ninety seven. Who

503
00:41:51.960 --> 00:41:54.199
used to be on a Saturday evening and it was

504
00:41:54.239 --> 00:41:58.760
one of the top rated shows like in this country

505
00:41:58.840 --> 00:42:05.639
at that time, huge viewership. And the Lewis Lane whatever

506
00:42:05.679 --> 00:42:11.280
her name was, she was absolutely like you couldn't It's

507
00:42:11.320 --> 00:42:14.679
almost like you couldn't look at a newspaper about seeing

508
00:42:14.679 --> 00:42:20.159
her face on there. Small Ville, now, you know what

509
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:25.800
is a weird thing. I didn't even know what small

510
00:42:25.880 --> 00:42:31.800
Ville was about, so started in two thousand and one.

511
00:42:32.199 --> 00:42:35.760
I came over it by accident in two thousand and two.

512
00:42:36.679 --> 00:42:38.480
But it used to be on in a weird time,

513
00:42:38.559 --> 00:42:42.960
like on a Sunday afternoon, which is a strange time

514
00:42:43.039 --> 00:42:50.320
for something like a Superman show to be on. And

515
00:42:51.400 --> 00:42:54.280
I did not know, I said, I'm probably two thousand

516
00:42:54.280 --> 00:42:56.719
and three, sorry, not two thousand and two. Two thousand

517
00:42:56.760 --> 00:43:01.519
and three. I didn't know it was about Superman, and

518
00:43:01.679 --> 00:43:04.480
I saw a small villain. I thought that sounds familiar,

519
00:43:08.199 --> 00:43:11.679
and then I started watching it. I loved it, and

520
00:43:11.760 --> 00:43:15.239
I watched it every Sunday. I didn't see it from

521
00:43:15.719 --> 00:43:18.639
the beginning all the way to the end, because it

522
00:43:18.679 --> 00:43:21.400
went on to twenty eleven. I stopped watching it probably

523
00:43:21.480 --> 00:43:29.199
after a couple of years. And what I mean two

524
00:43:29.239 --> 00:43:31.480
things that amazed me about that, I mean, I were

525
00:43:31.519 --> 00:43:39.800
not amazed me is he I was watching what's that

526
00:43:39.960 --> 00:43:46.039
name for the Devil? The TV show on Netflix? All

527
00:43:51.079 --> 00:44:10.599
Not Be Easy bub Netflick, a Devil TV show Lucifer, Lucifer. Okay,

528
00:44:10.639 --> 00:44:15.159
so Lucifer. There was this character in Lucifer, and I

529
00:44:15.199 --> 00:44:20.960
thought he looks familiar. Where have I seen him before?

530
00:44:21.119 --> 00:44:23.559
And it was really good in the show, Like I

531
00:44:23.599 --> 00:44:29.440
don't know who he is. He was Superman. It was

532
00:44:29.519 --> 00:44:32.920
smallvill Superman because he was I think he literally was

533
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:35.599
a kid. He was like a teenager when he started

534
00:44:35.639 --> 00:44:41.480
doing that show. And it was so weird to see

535
00:44:41.519 --> 00:44:44.760
him all grown up because I I suppose he's in

536
00:44:44.840 --> 00:44:48.159
his forties now, maybe even older. I don't know. Shall

537
00:44:48.199 --> 00:44:52.119
we find out Let's find out camera, Let's find out

538
00:44:52.519 --> 00:44:58.760
Tom Willing forty eight. The weird thing about it, it

539
00:44:58.800 --> 00:45:01.840
looks better now than he did then, not as anything

540
00:45:01.840 --> 00:45:05.719
wrong with how he looked then, but he's just maybe

541
00:45:05.719 --> 00:45:08.159
he's just grown into his face. I don't know, he's

542
00:45:12.079 --> 00:45:16.440
it just looks so it just looks. It's weird. I

543
00:45:16.480 --> 00:45:22.599
don't want to see what other things he done. I

544
00:45:22.599 --> 00:45:24.239
don't know why they can't have a little bit of

545
00:45:24.719 --> 00:45:27.639
continuity and just let him be Superman as an adult.

546
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:34.639
But I didn't seem to want to. It's being in

547
00:45:34.679 --> 00:45:40.920
a few movies, being a few TV shows. He was

548
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:53.000
a batwoman. He played Clark Kent. Really wow, but that

549
00:45:53.199 --> 00:46:01.760
was like eight years after Smallville finished. Hmmm, well, wait

550
00:46:01.840 --> 00:46:12.679
a minute, was this one professionals? Professionals? Okay, No, it's

551
00:46:12.760 --> 00:46:20.199
not the TV show that I used to love, but

552
00:46:20.320 --> 00:46:21.960
the point I was trying to make, if there was

553
00:46:21.960 --> 00:46:24.639
a point, I don't know. I used to shave my

554
00:46:24.760 --> 00:46:29.000
head while I watched small Ville. So I had these

555
00:46:29.039 --> 00:46:32.400
clippers and I just used to do that, and I

556
00:46:32.440 --> 00:46:34.960
had when I shaved my head, I didn't like rinse

557
00:46:35.000 --> 00:46:38.599
my hair off and everything, or rinse rinse my scalp

558
00:46:39.679 --> 00:46:45.440
in the bath, and then I would rub in this

559
00:46:45.840 --> 00:46:51.360
moisturizer into my scalp and just message my scalp while

560
00:46:51.400 --> 00:46:57.599
I watched small Ville on TV. And not only did it,

561
00:46:57.599 --> 00:47:01.679
it just it felt nice, but how lovely. It's a

562
00:47:01.840 --> 00:47:09.159
really nice now. Yeah, I just remember doing that. I

563
00:47:09.199 --> 00:47:11.360
don't know why I remember that. That was two thousand

564
00:47:11.360 --> 00:47:14.960
and three Sundays. This is when I was working in

565
00:47:15.000 --> 00:47:26.239
the call center selling car insurance. So maybe it was

566
00:47:26.280 --> 00:47:28.679
Spider Man I went to on that date with. I

567
00:47:28.760 --> 00:47:30.440
didn't go on a date with Spider Man, but I

568
00:47:30.480 --> 00:47:33.639
went on a date with the girl at school to

569
00:47:33.840 --> 00:47:37.519
see Spider Man. I think because I think I went

570
00:47:37.559 --> 00:47:41.760
to see Superman with my brother. I definitely went to

571
00:47:41.760 --> 00:47:46.880
see Superman two with my brother because I was dreaming

572
00:47:46.920 --> 00:47:50.920
about it the day before or the night before. I

573
00:47:51.000 --> 00:47:55.320
dreamt because we kept seeing I dreamt, we kept seeing

574
00:47:55.360 --> 00:47:58.880
the adverts, you know, with all the super villains that

575
00:47:58.960 --> 00:48:04.960
were in Superman three, at Superman two, and yeah, I

576
00:48:05.079 --> 00:48:08.320
just I wanted to see that more than I wanted

577
00:48:08.320 --> 00:48:14.000
to see the first one. It excited me. But then

578
00:48:14.039 --> 00:48:16.599
I also got excited about seeing the third one because

579
00:48:16.719 --> 00:48:19.519
Richard Pryor was in it. And at the time Richard

580
00:48:19.519 --> 00:48:24.519
Pryor was he was the biggest Hollywood actor at the

581
00:48:24.559 --> 00:48:28.599
time because he'd done Stir Crazy and he was doing

582
00:48:28.639 --> 00:48:31.760
his due, you know, films with Gene Wilder, and he

583
00:48:31.960 --> 00:48:37.639
was a huge star. And this is before I even

584
00:48:37.719 --> 00:48:43.199
discovered his stand up. Generally didn't know he did stand up.

585
00:48:43.440 --> 00:48:45.840
It's weird, isn't it. But then I was I was

586
00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:48.519
a little kid, so I didn't really I knew what

587
00:48:48.559 --> 00:48:50.840
stand up comedy was because we had stand up comedy

588
00:48:50.880 --> 00:48:55.840
on television, but it was a different It definitely wasn't.

589
00:48:55.960 --> 00:48:59.840
Richard Pryor didn't have that kind of adult comedy on

590
00:49:00.159 --> 00:49:06.679
that I got to see anyway. I remember I used

591
00:49:06.679 --> 00:49:11.719
to share give this girl my chocolate. So if i'd

592
00:49:11.719 --> 00:49:16.719
have i'd ever, I'd ever packed lunch with sandwiches, packet

593
00:49:16.760 --> 00:49:22.440
of crisps, and maybe a chocolate bar, like a little

594
00:49:22.480 --> 00:49:32.000
chocolate bar, such as a penguin. Now I didn't like penguins.

595
00:49:33.239 --> 00:49:36.719
I don't know why. I just didn't like them. So

596
00:49:36.800 --> 00:49:39.280
i'd give them away or try and swap with someone

597
00:49:39.639 --> 00:49:42.239
if someone had a kit cat or you know, different

598
00:49:42.320 --> 00:49:45.840
kind of thing. And what i'd sometimes do is give

599
00:49:45.880 --> 00:49:50.599
away the penguin to someone, to this girl to show

600
00:49:50.639 --> 00:49:54.679
how much I loved her. Sometimes i'd pick flowers. I

601
00:49:54.800 --> 00:49:59.159
go up to her and say there go and she

602
00:49:59.280 --> 00:50:03.840
said this nets and I'm like, check them on the floor.

603
00:50:03.880 --> 00:50:05.400
Said why do you check them on the floor? Because

604
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:09.880
I was stinging me. Oh, so you knew there was

605
00:50:09.920 --> 00:50:12.800
stinging net lers in nettles? Ended you because she used

606
00:50:12.840 --> 00:50:16.480
to slur sometimes when she spoke, And I said, what,

607
00:50:18.000 --> 00:50:21.239
I can't understand you because you're slurred. She said, so

608
00:50:21.360 --> 00:50:24.480
you knew that there was stinging nettles. I said, no,

609
00:50:25.119 --> 00:50:27.880
there were flowers, I thought, But you said there was

610
00:50:27.920 --> 00:50:31.880
stinging your fingers. I said, yeah, I didn't know why,

611
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:35.599
but it makes sense now, that's if they sting, they're

612
00:50:35.639 --> 00:50:38.760
called stinging nettles. That makes sense. The name very much

613
00:50:38.960 --> 00:50:43.960
applies to the topic that we're conversing about. She said,

614
00:50:43.960 --> 00:50:49.000
what I'm wondering if fin's eating his dinner now, he's

615
00:50:49.039 --> 00:50:53.400
eating his eating his wet food. He started looking on

616
00:50:53.440 --> 00:50:57.039
the floor for dry bits of dry food because I

617
00:50:57.199 --> 00:50:59.079
told dropped things on the floor when I'm putting them

618
00:50:59.119 --> 00:51:03.480
in the pocket, and he's been hunting around for them,

619
00:51:03.920 --> 00:51:07.280
and because he had no more, he's had to settle

620
00:51:07.280 --> 00:51:11.639
with a wet food. I don't know if you can

621
00:51:11.679 --> 00:51:14.800
hear that slurping away. I'm not going to give him

622
00:51:14.800 --> 00:51:21.119
any attention. I'm not going to look at him or anything. Well,

623
00:51:21.239 --> 00:51:23.320
I think that he's stopped. He might be looking at me.

624
00:51:25.639 --> 00:51:27.519
I think he did look up, and then he's continued.

625
00:51:29.559 --> 00:51:35.159
So I was at that school. Nothing particularly interesting occurred

626
00:51:35.199 --> 00:51:40.840
at that school that I can really remember, other than

627
00:51:42.280 --> 00:51:45.360
there was one incident. And this is really weird, but

628
00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:48.440
it's true. I had by two incidents. There was this

629
00:51:48.559 --> 00:51:52.519
bully there. Still remember his name. I won't say his

630
00:51:52.599 --> 00:51:56.199
name because I'm sure he's you know, it's sure he's

631
00:51:56.239 --> 00:51:59.400
a good bloke, just you know, at that time, he

632
00:51:59.480 --> 00:52:02.039
was a bit of a bit of a ruffian and

633
00:52:02.320 --> 00:52:10.559
used to try and cause trouble. And he picked on

634
00:52:10.639 --> 00:52:16.000
my friend who was who had a I think he

635
00:52:16.039 --> 00:52:20.000
had like one one kidney or something, my friend who

636
00:52:20.079 --> 00:52:23.159
lived three doors up from where I lived, and it

637
00:52:23.239 --> 00:52:25.880
was making fun of him because he because he had

638
00:52:25.920 --> 00:52:29.639
a bag and I had a bag thing. I didn't

639
00:52:29.639 --> 00:52:32.519
really understand it, but I knew that he was unwell

640
00:52:32.599 --> 00:52:38.920
and stuff. So this kid was making fun of him.

641
00:52:38.960 --> 00:52:45.199
So I intervened and it didn't end well for him,

642
00:52:45.360 --> 00:52:50.519
to be fair, but it didn't seem to stop him

643
00:52:50.519 --> 00:52:55.960
from keep coming back. And then another time was outside

644
00:52:56.840 --> 00:53:01.800
in the in the field. So at this point my

645
00:53:01.920 --> 00:53:04.320
other brother, my one who was two years older, was

646
00:53:04.320 --> 00:53:13.679
there as well, because I was eight and he was ten. Yeah,

647
00:53:13.760 --> 00:53:16.800
so he was like in his probably in the last

648
00:53:16.880 --> 00:53:19.320
year of that school. I still had a couple more

649
00:53:19.400 --> 00:53:25.840
left if I was going to stay there. And this kid,

650
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:28.639
I think his name is Mark. I think I know

651
00:53:28.679 --> 00:53:31.239
what his name was, but it stayed with me for

652
00:53:31.280 --> 00:53:36.000
some reason. And I don't know if he I think

653
00:53:36.039 --> 00:53:40.920
he grabbed my bag or something, or he might have

654
00:53:40.960 --> 00:53:43.440
walked up and just pushed me over something like that.

655
00:53:43.480 --> 00:53:49.840
I don't know and my brother, and this is totally true.

656
00:53:49.880 --> 00:53:53.280
It's not even made up, because well I could make

657
00:53:53.320 --> 00:53:55.559
it up. I could say anything good night, but it

658
00:53:56.000 --> 00:54:02.039
really happened, which was quite impressive. He showered oie. He

659
00:54:02.119 --> 00:54:06.360
might not said oh, but he showered something out leave

660
00:54:06.440 --> 00:54:11.079
him alone, leave my brother alone, or whatever something like that,

661
00:54:11.880 --> 00:54:15.199
and I think this kid shouted something back at him

662
00:54:15.440 --> 00:54:19.800
because there was quite a distance between them, and my

663
00:54:19.840 --> 00:54:23.880
brother chucked this tennis ball which he was playing with

664
00:54:23.880 --> 00:54:27.320
with his friends or whatever. Chucked it and it landed right

665
00:54:27.400 --> 00:54:30.440
in his eye, not my brother's eye, and then he just

666
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:32.920
chuck it in the air and look up, he chucked

667
00:54:32.920 --> 00:54:38.360
it at this kid. It landed in his eye, Like

668
00:54:38.760 --> 00:54:41.360
how can you? I mean, he had to have his

669
00:54:41.400 --> 00:54:45.519
surgically removed. He didn't it landed. How could you even

670
00:54:45.599 --> 00:54:53.519
you could even plan something like that. I was like, honestly,

671
00:54:53.599 --> 00:54:58.000
I was probably the time that I had the most.

672
00:54:59.519 --> 00:55:04.239
I pleased they pleased with my brother and I didn't

673
00:55:04.280 --> 00:55:06.320
need him to look after me for that because I'd

674
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:08.119
already dealt with him before and I could the game.

675
00:55:08.199 --> 00:55:11.639
But it was just nice. It's quite nice. You know

676
00:55:11.679 --> 00:55:16.920
when a brother does something like that and it's like

677
00:55:17.280 --> 00:55:22.719
such a good shot. Anyway, there was another time with

678
00:55:22.760 --> 00:55:28.000
my brother. Anyway, it's he's yeah, he did, he did.

679
00:55:28.360 --> 00:55:30.599
He did stand up for me a couple of times,

680
00:55:31.400 --> 00:55:35.559
so I'll give him that. So that school kind of

681
00:55:35.639 --> 00:55:41.760
left the ironic thing about it, right, here's a weird

682
00:55:41.760 --> 00:55:44.679
thing about it. We moved to different school, to a

683
00:55:44.679 --> 00:55:51.679
different house away from that school, but because he was

684
00:55:51.719 --> 00:55:58.519
in the final year, so I started a new junior

685
00:55:58.599 --> 00:56:03.360
school at age none. But my brother was eleven, so

686
00:56:03.480 --> 00:56:06.079
he went to the high school. But he went to

687
00:56:06.079 --> 00:56:09.320
a different high school. So both my brothers. My other

688
00:56:09.400 --> 00:56:11.880
brother was four years older than me, so he would

689
00:56:11.880 --> 00:56:14.159
have been in the second year of high school or

690
00:56:14.719 --> 00:56:21.920
third year of high school at this point. No second year. No,

691
00:56:26.679 --> 00:56:33.880
this sounds weird. I can't remember nine ten eleven, so no,

692
00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:36.360
maybe my other brother still had one year left at

693
00:56:36.119 --> 00:56:42.519
that junior school. Yeah, eight, nine ten, I don't know anyway,

694
00:56:42.920 --> 00:56:45.320
I think he still had one year left there. And

695
00:56:45.360 --> 00:56:52.840
then my other brother went to the high school. But anyhow,

696
00:56:52.920 --> 00:56:55.280
it ended up I went to a different junior school,

697
00:56:55.320 --> 00:57:01.119
another junior school that was miles away, so didn't have

698
00:57:01.119 --> 00:57:07.960
my friends anymore, made some new friends. Both my brothers

699
00:57:08.599 --> 00:57:14.599
went to a different high school to me. I mean

700
00:57:14.679 --> 00:57:17.840
there was no reason for it. I mean literally, there's

701
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:20.280
like they went. They just went to a different So

702
00:57:20.320 --> 00:57:22.440
I ended up going to a completely different high school

703
00:57:22.800 --> 00:57:24.840
because I was at this different junior school for two

704
00:57:24.920 --> 00:57:30.119
years and instead of just continuing to go to the

705
00:57:30.119 --> 00:57:33.079
school I was already at, which wouldn't have been hard

706
00:57:33.119 --> 00:57:40.239
to get to from where I was living. I mean, ironically,

707
00:57:40.320 --> 00:57:43.280
I think that sort of doing the correct word. This

708
00:57:43.519 --> 00:57:49.360
junior school that I was going to before was literally,

709
00:57:50.599 --> 00:57:52.840
I don't know, five minute walk from the high school

710
00:57:53.239 --> 00:57:56.159
that both my brothers ended up going to. So they

711
00:57:56.199 --> 00:57:58.239
were allowed it's why for them to walk there. But

712
00:57:59.159 --> 00:58:01.360
I could have just as easily continued going to the

713
00:58:01.440 --> 00:58:05.679
junior school. In fact, I could have gone with them,

714
00:58:05.719 --> 00:58:10.440
couldn't I could have walked with them, and walking there

715
00:58:10.480 --> 00:58:12.199
wasn't an issue because I was walking to school on

716
00:58:12.239 --> 00:58:17.039
my own anyway at that age. Long before that, yeah,

717
00:58:17.079 --> 00:58:21.119
I was walking to school at seven eight Yeah, eight

718
00:58:21.239 --> 00:58:22.760
years old, I was walking to school on my own,

719
00:58:23.719 --> 00:58:25.800
so it wasn't an issue. And even when I went

720
00:58:25.840 --> 00:58:29.000
to the other junior school, I was walking to about

721
00:58:29.039 --> 00:58:33.039
fifty minutes forty minutes to get there and about two

722
00:58:33.039 --> 00:58:38.760
hours to get home because I was very slow. And

723
00:58:38.800 --> 00:58:43.320
that's something I noticed. When I was at that school.

724
00:58:43.320 --> 00:58:48.280
I used to walk around and just sing songs, and

725
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:53.800
I went through a period when I thought I was

726
00:58:53.840 --> 00:58:59.119
a superhero and I thought that I could become invisible.

727
00:59:04.280 --> 00:59:07.719
I didn't always tell people that I thought I was invisible.

728
00:59:12.039 --> 00:59:14.960
I remember I decided to do it once during the

729
00:59:15.000 --> 00:59:18.199
court the register call at school, so we'd always go

730
00:59:18.280 --> 00:59:20.599
in the first first part of the day and then

731
00:59:20.719 --> 00:59:23.280
call out a name. Maybe they did it in assembly,

732
00:59:23.320 --> 00:59:27.440
I can't remember. He who has to shout out, yes, sir,

733
00:59:27.599 --> 00:59:31.440
here's sir whatever. And I decided, I'm going to make

734
00:59:31.480 --> 00:59:36.800
myself invisible. So I made myself invisible and no one

735
00:59:36.880 --> 00:59:39.079
was looking at me, so I thought this is working.

736
00:59:42.719 --> 00:59:45.559
And then they called my name out. The teacher or

737
00:59:45.599 --> 00:59:49.800
the headmaster called my name out, and I thought, I

738
00:59:49.960 --> 00:59:52.199
just keep quiet because there's no point me talking because

739
00:59:52.199 --> 00:59:54.199
people aren't going to see me. They'll freak everyone out.

740
00:59:58.679 --> 01:00:01.800
It's really weird because they everyone was looking at my

741
01:00:01.920 --> 01:00:05.639
seat or where I would have been sitting, because no

742
01:00:05.679 --> 01:00:07.920
one sat on the seat. I suppose they must have

743
01:00:08.159 --> 01:00:10.880
just I don't know why they didn't sit on it

744
01:00:10.960 --> 01:00:12.800
because there was no one there because I was invisible.

745
01:00:13.320 --> 01:00:18.960
I was technically I was there, and the teacher kept

746
01:00:19.000 --> 01:00:30.000
saying Jason new Land, Jashon and people like, we're looking

747
01:00:30.159 --> 01:00:32.599
over in my direction, and I know they couldn't see

748
01:00:32.639 --> 01:00:43.480
me because I was invisible. Horace. Can you hear that? Hi? Horace?

749
01:00:43.880 --> 01:00:57.639
Right mate? You're okay? Yeah, how you been? How's the kids? Well?

750
01:00:57.639 --> 01:01:07.480
I didn't want to talk. I board him, he's gone.

751
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:10.480
I think it was one of his kids that got

752
01:01:10.519 --> 01:01:13.239
stuck inside here to the other day, came in the

753
01:01:13.280 --> 01:01:15.960
back door. Back door was lodged open for some reason,

754
01:01:17.280 --> 01:01:19.480
and it comes up trying to get in and out

755
01:01:19.480 --> 01:01:22.639
of the top part where all the windows can't get

756
01:01:22.639 --> 01:01:25.719
through the windows. I used to think I could walk

757
01:01:25.760 --> 01:01:32.400
through walls. The best thing to in those situations is

758
01:01:33.199 --> 01:01:35.159
as long as you never test it, you can still

759
01:01:35.199 --> 01:01:40.360
believe it. Because there used to be this big wall

760
01:01:40.599 --> 01:01:47.360
just right. It had a gold painted on it, and

761
01:01:47.400 --> 01:01:52.559
it was just a random wall, very strange, and I

762
01:01:52.679 --> 01:02:00.320
used to believe I could walk through the wall, but

763
01:02:00.320 --> 01:02:06.760
I never tested it. I wonder one never tested it,

764
01:02:09.679 --> 01:02:12.679
but I did. I used to just remember once I actually,

765
01:02:15.320 --> 01:02:19.400
I think we're playing hide and seek or we're playing soldiers,

766
01:02:20.760 --> 01:02:24.239
and I was in the grass and I made myself invisible.

767
01:02:24.639 --> 01:02:33.119
I thought I'd made myself invisible, and no one found me.

768
01:02:36.800 --> 01:02:41.920
Was there the whole weekend? No one found me. It's like, Wow,

769
01:02:42.800 --> 01:02:48.079
I didn't realize that people were just ignoring me. Did

770
01:02:48.159 --> 01:02:49.679
you ever when you was a kid, did you ever

771
01:02:49.719 --> 01:02:53.119
turn up at school on a Saturday by accident and

772
01:02:53.239 --> 01:02:57.039
wonder why you couldn't get in? That happened to me.

773
01:02:58.679 --> 01:03:03.199
I mean, I woke up like, oh, I'm late, and

774
01:03:03.239 --> 01:03:08.360
I'm like running to school to get there, and I'm wondering, oh,

775
01:03:08.440 --> 01:03:11.000
everyone's gone, because I didn't realize they were all still

776
01:03:11.039 --> 01:03:15.599
in bed. There's no one here. Everyone's had their lunch,

777
01:03:15.639 --> 01:03:19.280
they're gone their breakfast. Rather, they're gone. So I'm rushing

778
01:03:20.559 --> 01:03:26.199
and get there, and then I realized it's Saturday. I laughed,

779
01:03:26.400 --> 01:03:29.760
I've just well. I waited till I caught my breath

780
01:03:29.760 --> 01:03:32.800
and then I laughed. And I get home and at

781
01:03:32.800 --> 01:03:36.159
this point people the family, people the family are having

782
01:03:36.159 --> 01:03:40.079
their breakfast, and I told them and some of them laughed,

783
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:46.320
some of them just looked at me. Bewildered. I say

784
01:03:46.360 --> 01:03:48.119
bewildered because that was a new word that I was

785
01:03:48.239 --> 01:03:51.960
trust trying out back then. I like to try a

786
01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:56.800
new word that I hadn't really used regularly, and I thought,

787
01:03:56.840 --> 01:04:05.119
you know what, because this was probably about nineteen eighty

788
01:04:06.119 --> 01:04:09.079
for I've not used the word bewildered. I don't think

789
01:04:09.079 --> 01:04:13.320
I've ever used it every I know what it means,

790
01:04:13.440 --> 01:04:17.519
but in the context of a sentance. But I don't

791
01:04:17.519 --> 01:04:20.119
know I've ever used it in a sentence or in

792
01:04:20.159 --> 01:04:29.559
some kind of grammatical conversational format. But then I forgot

793
01:04:29.599 --> 01:04:34.559
to use it until now I was remembered. So yeah,

794
01:04:34.960 --> 01:04:37.559
thinking about it's kind of feeling is a bit bewildered. Really,

795
01:04:40.440 --> 01:04:48.679
So I did like that school. There's a few things

796
01:04:48.719 --> 01:04:50.960
that I perhaps didn't like so much that One of

797
01:04:50.960 --> 01:04:53.280
those things was they kept trying to teach me French,

798
01:04:54.679 --> 01:04:57.599
like come on, are you kidding? What are you doing?

799
01:04:58.800 --> 01:05:03.800
I've never been mean, I've just for some reason, speaking

800
01:05:03.840 --> 01:05:08.960
different languages never really been something that I was particularly

801
01:05:10.519 --> 01:05:16.239
I wasn't interested in, but I also didn't really understand.

802
01:05:17.280 --> 01:05:19.800
Now I think part of the reason for that, other

803
01:05:19.880 --> 01:05:25.039
than lack of intelligence on my part, probably is unlike

804
01:05:25.199 --> 01:05:29.960
the my dad's generation and my NaN's generation, we didn't

805
01:05:30.000 --> 01:05:38.480
learn Latin, and Latin is almost the root of so

806
01:05:38.679 --> 01:05:45.400
many of the European languages, so you can almost it's

807
01:05:45.840 --> 01:05:49.880
I think, I'm just this is just my interpretation. It

808
01:05:49.920 --> 01:05:53.199
is easier to learn another language when you know Latin.

809
01:05:53.760 --> 01:05:56.480
I mean, Latin is I guess another language, I suppose,

810
01:05:56.519 --> 01:05:59.960
but you can, you know, when it comes to French

811
01:06:00.199 --> 01:06:04.000
or German, you've got the Latin roots, so you can

812
01:06:04.159 --> 01:06:06.079
kind of get to know what things are and it

813
01:06:06.079 --> 01:06:12.639
makes a bit easier to connect together. At ten years old,

814
01:06:12.679 --> 01:06:16.239
I was still learning English and I still am so

815
01:06:16.280 --> 01:06:21.840
I didn't really understand, and I didn't learn to read

816
01:06:21.880 --> 01:06:26.280
really till I taught myself pretty much. I did go

817
01:06:26.360 --> 01:06:32.320
to school, but I was what five, six six probably

818
01:06:32.320 --> 01:06:34.719
when I first got my first book, first got my

819
01:06:34.760 --> 01:06:39.679
first book. That's pretty much my only position, actually, that book,

820
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:41.920
and I used to read it over and over and

821
01:06:41.920 --> 01:06:43.719
over and over and over and over and over again.

822
01:06:45.760 --> 01:06:48.159
And then when I went to junior school, this particular

823
01:06:48.280 --> 01:06:52.840
junior school, the one I'm talking about, I'd read and

824
01:06:52.880 --> 01:06:55.920
read and read and read, take the books home, bring

825
01:06:55.960 --> 01:06:59.719
them back, read, you know, I read everything every single

826
01:06:59.760 --> 01:07:04.079
book I had pretty much in their little library. I read,

827
01:07:04.880 --> 01:07:10.239
and yeah, I loved it. Loved reading. That's the only

828
01:07:10.760 --> 01:07:18.400
kind of mildly intelligent thing. Flappy us there. I'm not

829
01:07:18.519 --> 01:07:22.199
saying intelligently, but yeah, the only thing that I really

830
01:07:22.239 --> 01:07:27.599
had is the love of reading. So I'm guessing there

831
01:07:27.639 --> 01:07:30.519
must have been some kind of brain activity going on

832
01:07:31.280 --> 01:07:36.000
inside my head. I don't know what or how much,

833
01:07:36.119 --> 01:07:41.320
but there was something going on. I loved to read.

834
01:07:42.559 --> 01:07:44.800
I'd like to get that passion back because I've kind

835
01:07:44.840 --> 01:07:46.679
of lost it a little bit. I mean, I do

836
01:07:46.800 --> 01:07:52.239
listen to audio books, but it's not the same. I mean,

837
01:07:52.239 --> 01:07:54.480
it can be that. I mean, I wouldn't be saying

838
01:07:54.480 --> 01:07:59.760
that if I was seriously visually impaired. I am visually impaired,

839
01:07:59.760 --> 01:08:05.039
but not seriously, so I think i'd take offense if

840
01:08:05.039 --> 01:08:08.199
people said, oh, you're not reading because you've not actually

841
01:08:08.199 --> 01:08:14.679
seen it with your eyes. But the problem is when

842
01:08:14.679 --> 01:08:16.800
I listen to an audiobook, I do have a tendency

843
01:08:16.840 --> 01:08:24.479
of falling asleep, and I wouldn't class that is reading

844
01:08:24.479 --> 01:08:26.640
the book if I was reading the book, and every time.

845
01:08:28.359 --> 01:08:30.680
The thing is when you read a book, if you

846
01:08:30.720 --> 01:08:33.920
fall asleep reading the book, don't. You're not on like

847
01:08:34.000 --> 01:08:36.319
page forty two, and then when you wake up, you're

848
01:08:36.359 --> 01:08:40.239
on page ninety three. You know, you don't read why

849
01:08:40.239 --> 01:08:42.760
you're asleep, do you? But you can listen while you're asleep,

850
01:08:43.960 --> 01:08:46.640
or the thing can still play. You're not still turning

851
01:08:46.680 --> 01:08:50.079
the pages when you're asleep, and then like, oh, what's happened?

852
01:08:50.119 --> 01:08:52.720
I don't know. It's like I've just gone through thirty

853
01:08:52.760 --> 01:08:56.159
seven pages and I don't know what's happened. Never mind,

854
01:08:56.359 --> 01:09:01.680
that's still classes reading the book. It wouldn't be good.

855
01:09:03.439 --> 01:09:06.119
So I don't know when it comes to listening to

856
01:09:06.199 --> 01:09:10.319
audio books whether that's class the same as reading a book.

857
01:09:11.159 --> 01:09:16.920
I like to think it is, but I don't know.

858
01:09:18.000 --> 01:09:26.359
I don't know. I'm not sure I have read. From

859
01:09:26.479 --> 01:09:37.479
an audiobook perspective, how many audiobooks i've got were's. I've

860
01:09:37.479 --> 01:09:42.000
got three hundred and eighty nine titles in my in

861
01:09:42.039 --> 01:09:46.520
my catalog, I've read more than that because you get

862
01:09:46.600 --> 01:09:49.439
some free. So I've read quite a few that were free,

863
01:09:49.560 --> 01:09:54.439
but recently I've had to go and go in to

864
01:09:54.560 --> 01:09:57.960
read them and they're taking them off. But they got three

865
01:09:58.039 --> 01:10:01.800
hundred and eighty nine, three hundred and eighty three in

866
01:10:01.800 --> 01:10:07.880
my library, all all three hundred and eighty nine, all

867
01:10:08.399 --> 01:10:14.039
but three hundred and eighty three titles. I couldn't even

868
01:10:14.079 --> 01:10:18.000
tell you blind me the thing is a lot of

869
01:10:18.039 --> 01:10:24.399
it is not not story books. Most of it is

870
01:10:24.640 --> 01:10:29.520
kind of self help. I think like the art of

871
01:10:29.640 --> 01:10:37.680
war and philosophy, psychology. Well, I do have the Beatrix

872
01:10:37.920 --> 01:10:44.479
Potter collection as a man thinking of the men, historic goats,

873
01:10:45.199 --> 01:10:49.920
Essentials of social psychology, the power of habit breaking, the

874
01:10:49.920 --> 01:10:57.399
habit of being just self breaking, the habit of breaking

875
01:10:57.520 --> 01:11:02.079
the habit, the habit of being yourself influenced, Knew and

876
01:11:02.159 --> 01:11:09.079
Expanded Art Finish and Artificial Intelligence for Dummies, Borderline Personality

877
01:11:09.119 --> 01:11:15.199
Disorder Never Finished, The eighty twenty Principal chat Chat GPT

878
01:11:15.520 --> 01:11:20.640
Mastery twelve books in one Understanding Disorders of the Brain.

879
01:11:21.199 --> 01:11:24.239
Then You've Got Gold by Zig Ziggler, The Jimp Paradox,

880
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:32.920
Chimp Paradox, Stephen Peters, The Crowd, a Study of Psychology

881
01:11:33.399 --> 01:11:37.600
Under You Got Success, Habits The Law of Success Napoleon Hill,

882
01:11:38.920 --> 01:11:44.720
nineteen gal The Stranger's Secret for Success. And then You've

883
01:11:44.720 --> 01:11:47.720
Got My Voice Will Go with You by Sidney Rosen

884
01:11:48.000 --> 01:11:50.800
As a hypnosis one The Therapist Guide to E D

885
01:11:51.000 --> 01:11:54.279
m R E M d r R, The Coach to

886
01:11:54.319 --> 01:12:01.840
be Disliked, The Complex Borderline Personality Disorder co Cybernetics by

887
01:12:02.960 --> 01:12:09.479
Maxwell Maltz. And then you've got realer imagined Outspark your

888
01:12:09.600 --> 01:12:14.880
outsmite your pain, The TENX mentor that grant cardone, the

889
01:12:14.880 --> 01:12:21.239
ten X Rule, Seven Power Principles for Success, Hypnosis about

890
01:12:21.279 --> 01:12:26.000
Trance by James Tripp, The Essence of Success by L. Nightingale,

891
01:12:26.399 --> 01:12:32.079
The Direct Line by L. Nightingale, Great Ideas by el Nightingale,

892
01:12:32.720 --> 01:12:35.319
The Magic of Thinking Big. So quite a few of

893
01:12:35.319 --> 01:12:38.039
these I've read in the past, but these are audio versions.

894
01:12:38.560 --> 01:12:43.199
Napoleon Hill's Golden Rules by Napoleon Hill, NLP, The ES

895
01:12:43.199 --> 01:12:47.159
Central Guide. I'm pretty sure I listened to that audio

896
01:12:47.159 --> 01:12:51.000
book or that it was an audio recording back in

897
01:12:51.159 --> 01:12:56.239
ninety eight. BlimE me. Hypnosis There's no one understanding, or

898
01:12:56.239 --> 01:13:00.800
as I start here, Advanced Hipnotherapy, Reason to Stay Alive

899
01:13:00.880 --> 01:13:04.800
but by Matt Haig. The Joy of Meditation by Sally

900
01:13:05.079 --> 01:13:09.119
Meryl Bedfield I think her name is. That's the recording

901
01:13:09.680 --> 01:13:16.279
that I listened to back in nineteen no. Two thousand.

902
01:13:16.760 --> 01:13:20.159
In two thousand, I listened to that recording I found it,

903
01:13:21.520 --> 01:13:24.720
and I've got it saved on here. I think I

904
01:13:24.840 --> 01:13:27.359
purchased it as like two could or something. I think,

905
01:13:27.399 --> 01:13:33.600
but love that recording. And you've got the Quantum Revelation,

906
01:13:34.000 --> 01:13:38.119
the Quantum Rules. I forgot about that. I was really

907
01:13:38.159 --> 01:13:42.119
into quantum, wasn't I quantum stuff for a couple of weeks,

908
01:13:42.119 --> 01:13:46.560
and I seem to have, I don't know, seemed to

909
01:13:46.600 --> 01:13:50.039
have moved away from it. I'm really interested in all

910
01:13:50.079 --> 01:13:55.920
that stuff. So you got de pack Chopra Chopra, The

911
01:13:56.039 --> 01:14:01.800
Quantum Doctor, The Power of your subconscious Quantum Entanglement. Quantum Physics.

912
01:14:01.840 --> 01:14:08.479
Simplified Reality is Plastic. That's a hypnosis book. Quantum Physics.

913
01:14:09.199 --> 01:14:11.960
The Mountain is You. Think and Grow Rich. The Pain

914
01:14:12.039 --> 01:14:15.640
Habit Story of Earl Nightingale. That's quite a recent one.

915
01:14:16.239 --> 01:14:20.319
Think and Grow Rich. The Secret Million Dollar Weekend Money,

916
01:14:20.640 --> 01:14:24.520
The Ultimate Bob Propter Library. I'm Worth I've had that

917
01:14:24.560 --> 01:14:28.199
for years that month I'm Worth More by Bob Moore,

918
01:14:29.000 --> 01:14:33.880
Before and Laughter as Jimmy Carr. Napoleon Hill, The Road

919
01:14:33.920 --> 01:14:38.640
to Riches, Napoleon Hill's master Course, The Way Out to

920
01:14:38.680 --> 01:14:44.920
Anyone's Success. Secrets of Success by Brian Brian Brian Brian Tracy,

921
01:14:46.039 --> 01:14:50.880
you are a bad ass at making money, clearly, not

922
01:14:51.319 --> 01:14:55.359
the odds, but Napoleon Hill, Napoleon Hill's Keys to Positivity,

923
01:14:56.159 --> 01:14:58.640
The Power of Ambition, which is what I was listening

924
01:14:58.640 --> 01:15:02.159
to earlier today, it's only three minutes left for that one.

925
01:15:02.880 --> 01:15:07.399
And Beatrix Potter Collection, which I just accidentally clicked on earlier.

926
01:15:08.279 --> 01:15:12.000
That's just some of the ones that I've listened to. Wow,

927
01:15:12.600 --> 01:15:18.359
quite a few. So then that was the junior school.

928
01:15:19.560 --> 01:15:24.359
Then what happened is I moved. I played the violin

929
01:15:24.439 --> 01:15:26.840
in junior school, so that was pretty good. I also

930
01:15:26.960 --> 01:15:34.840
learned to swim, like technically still, I had swimming lessons.

931
01:15:35.199 --> 01:15:37.199
Put it this way, I'm better at swimming than I

932
01:15:37.399 --> 01:15:41.399
was before because when I was I had a bit

933
01:15:41.399 --> 01:15:44.319
of an accident in the swimming pool, not not that

934
01:15:44.399 --> 01:15:50.880
kind of accident, just yeah, I was saved by the lifeguard.

935
01:15:51.640 --> 01:15:53.720
So after that, and that was when I was very little,

936
01:15:53.760 --> 01:15:59.319
probably about four so or maybe five, So I didn't

937
01:15:59.479 --> 01:16:04.520
like I didn't like swimming pools or anything. And the

938
01:16:04.560 --> 01:16:07.640
swimming instructor we actually had a swimming pool in this school,

939
01:16:08.279 --> 01:16:13.840
which is pretty amazing, and the the sw I had

940
01:16:13.840 --> 01:16:18.319
swimming lessons for quite a while, and he was so

941
01:16:18.520 --> 01:16:22.840
patient with me, absolutely lovely. And the good thing about

942
01:16:22.880 --> 01:16:28.800
it is I got to swim, but without having anyone around.

943
01:16:28.800 --> 01:16:30.600
I mean, there was a couple other people having lessons,

944
01:16:31.640 --> 01:16:33.600
but what I found is when everyone got into this

945
01:16:34.159 --> 01:16:36.760
to the swimming pool together, they'll all be jumping on

946
01:16:36.800 --> 01:16:40.520
top of each other. And that was not good for

947
01:16:40.640 --> 01:16:44.000
me because I just didn't feel safe and I didn't

948
01:16:44.000 --> 01:16:48.720
feel comfortable with that. And I also had I had

949
01:16:48.880 --> 01:16:53.720
violin lessons, so I went learned the violin for probably

950
01:16:53.720 --> 01:16:56.199
about a year, maybe a look, maybe longer than a year.

951
01:16:57.119 --> 01:16:59.920
I was at that school for two years, so playing

952
01:17:00.119 --> 01:17:04.920
violin for maybe a year and a half, maybe two years,

953
01:17:04.920 --> 01:17:06.359
I don't know. I think it was at least over

954
01:17:06.399 --> 01:17:10.319
a year anyway. And then I went to high school

955
01:17:10.399 --> 01:17:18.399
when I was eleven, just turned eleven in nineteen eighty one. Yeah,

956
01:17:18.520 --> 01:17:21.479
nineteen eighty one, in September, that's when I went to

957
01:17:21.520 --> 01:17:28.680
high school. And yeah, that was a whole news story.

958
01:17:28.720 --> 01:17:31.600
That was that was weird. I remember we went there

959
01:17:31.600 --> 01:17:35.159
for the afternoon, probably a few months before going there

960
01:17:35.199 --> 01:17:38.279
for properly, just to kind of have a tour of

961
01:17:38.319 --> 01:17:41.279
the place, and that was huge, and I was tiny.

962
01:17:42.399 --> 01:17:44.680
I mean, it just take off two years and that's

963
01:17:44.720 --> 01:17:48.000
the kind of size I was. So I was eleven,

964
01:17:48.039 --> 01:17:49.880
so I looked about the size of a nine year old,

965
01:17:51.079 --> 01:17:55.560
absolutely tiny, and apart from the fact, I was also

966
01:17:55.880 --> 01:17:59.000
one of the youngest there as well, because it had

967
01:17:59.039 --> 01:18:00.880
to be eleven to be an the first year of

968
01:18:00.960 --> 01:18:05.159
high school. But some of the kids, after being there

969
01:18:05.199 --> 01:18:07.960
for a few weeks, a couple of weeks, two three weeks,

970
01:18:08.119 --> 01:18:11.479
would turning twelve, So a lot of the kids were

971
01:18:11.479 --> 01:18:15.359
nearly a year older than me, and that really showed

972
01:18:15.600 --> 01:18:19.479
later on in school. So when like at thirteen, when

973
01:18:19.520 --> 01:18:22.840
I was twelve and they were thirteen, there was there

974
01:18:22.880 --> 01:18:26.000
was a lot of size difference there some kids that

975
01:18:26.079 --> 01:18:29.680
had beards and you know, they were grown like almost

976
01:18:29.720 --> 01:18:33.399
like adults, and I was still a kid. So that

977
01:18:33.479 --> 01:18:40.840
was weird. And yeah, I mean that's a difference as

978
01:18:40.880 --> 01:18:44.239
a whole new conversation that high school. But I just

979
01:18:44.359 --> 01:18:48.760
remember just looking around thinking, Wow, I got lost. I

980
01:18:48.800 --> 01:18:51.680
got lost all the way. For five years, I would

981
01:18:51.680 --> 01:18:56.680
get lost in that place. Honestly, I had to. I

982
01:18:56.720 --> 01:19:00.840
needed help to navigate to know where because we have

983
01:19:00.880 --> 01:19:04.159
a roster, you know what classes we had to go

984
01:19:04.279 --> 01:19:07.600
to and where we needed to be next, and I

985
01:19:07.680 --> 01:19:12.800
needed help. I could find my way around the whole

986
01:19:12.840 --> 01:19:17.039
time I was there. It's just I didn't know what classes,

987
01:19:17.079 --> 01:19:22.920
what number classes they were, and oh, I mean there's

988
01:19:22.920 --> 01:19:25.479
one I had a different form room, which was like

989
01:19:25.520 --> 01:19:27.560
where we'd go in the morning and we'd then go

990
01:19:27.640 --> 01:19:30.000
back at the end of the day to sign and

991
01:19:30.079 --> 01:19:34.119
kind of sign out kind of, and we could go

992
01:19:34.159 --> 01:19:36.880
there during breaks, so that I used to just stay

993
01:19:36.920 --> 01:19:41.520
there during the breaks sometimes because I was worried I

994
01:19:41.560 --> 01:19:45.880
wouldn't get back in time for lunch, or after lunch,

995
01:19:45.880 --> 01:19:55.680
we had to go back there as well. I think, yeah,

996
01:19:55.720 --> 01:19:59.960
anyway that I think that school deserves a boring record

997
01:20:00.199 --> 01:20:04.600
on its own. But there was good thing. I liked

998
01:20:04.840 --> 01:20:07.239
all of the junior schools. The three junior schools that

999
01:20:07.279 --> 01:20:13.439
I remember, I liked all of them. I liked the

1000
01:20:13.479 --> 01:20:19.560
second one more than the first one because I made

1001
01:20:19.640 --> 01:20:28.279
some new friends and at that time, the home, the

1002
01:20:28.359 --> 01:20:31.079
home situation was as good as a school situation. It

1003
01:20:31.199 --> 01:20:34.800
was just really nice. Everything was nice. So that was

1004
01:20:34.840 --> 01:20:38.800
my favorite. That's my favorite time during childhood really roundup

1005
01:20:38.920 --> 01:20:44.199
age of eight, between eight and nine, well between seven

1006
01:20:44.239 --> 01:20:50.560
and nine really, because we was also evenized in the

1007
01:20:50.560 --> 01:20:53.960
other school and everything. So that period of time, those

1008
01:20:54.000 --> 01:21:01.720
two years, but between eight and nine. Like I'm not

1009
01:21:01.720 --> 01:21:06.600
saying it's like a Disney movie, but it was also

1010
01:21:06.680 --> 01:21:08.920
like a Disney movie. But it was not. I liked it. It was.

1011
01:21:08.960 --> 01:21:15.479
Everything was very simple, you know. We lived in a

1012
01:21:15.560 --> 01:21:19.119
new house. Nothing needed to be done. Everything was good.

1013
01:21:19.199 --> 01:21:23.239
We had snow. I built an iceberg, not not an iceberg,

1014
01:21:23.279 --> 01:21:28.039
an igloo. You know. It was good. We used to

1015
01:21:28.199 --> 01:21:30.239
used to hang around all the others, the kids that

1016
01:21:30.319 --> 01:21:33.199
were local. We used to go into the fields and

1017
01:21:33.399 --> 01:21:36.479
jump out of trees, climb trees, things like that. I

1018
01:21:36.520 --> 01:21:38.359
used to get pushed out of trees. It was. It

1019
01:21:38.840 --> 01:21:42.319
was fun. We used to climb into trees to get

1020
01:21:42.319 --> 01:21:44.439
away from the other kids. It was. It was good fun.

1021
01:21:46.039 --> 01:21:49.600
So then then we moved. It was weird because my

1022
01:21:49.760 --> 01:21:52.199
name and grand they'd moved in straight away to that

1023
01:21:52.319 --> 01:21:55.560
house from London, and we moved into a bigger house

1024
01:21:55.600 --> 01:21:59.520
because of the family growing. So I'd be backing forward

1025
01:21:59.560 --> 01:22:03.680
to that house constantly. So for a short while, I

1026
01:22:03.680 --> 01:22:08.840
would keep contact with my friends Ian and Andrew. Ian

1027
01:22:09.000 --> 01:22:12.279
was my bestest friend. Andrew was another good friend that

1028
01:22:12.800 --> 01:22:17.720
lived few doors up. Andrew lived just around the corner.

1029
01:22:17.800 --> 01:22:21.960
Literally it was like a minute's walk. But as time

1030
01:22:22.000 --> 01:22:27.159
went by, I wasn't at school with him anymore, and

1031
01:22:29.279 --> 01:22:33.119
I kind of lost contact with him. But for some

1032
01:22:33.159 --> 01:22:36.560
reason I kept contact with Andrew because because he lived

1033
01:22:36.560 --> 01:22:40.279
literally two three doors up, I used to see him

1034
01:22:40.359 --> 01:22:42.159
or see his mum and dad and they were friends

1035
01:22:42.199 --> 01:22:45.399
with my nan and granddad. They so it's kind of

1036
01:22:45.920 --> 01:22:49.680
kind of kept in contact with him into my early twenties.

1037
01:22:49.960 --> 01:22:53.159
Still used to visit him in my early twenties, which

1038
01:22:53.880 --> 01:22:55.560
bearing in mind, I moved out of that place when

1039
01:22:55.600 --> 01:22:59.920
I was nine, so was that nineteen to so yeah,

1040
01:23:00.159 --> 01:23:04.760
over probably fift thirteen fourteen years. But I lost contact

1041
01:23:04.760 --> 01:23:10.279
of Ian. And he was my bestest friend's and he

1042
01:23:10.359 --> 01:23:13.920
was on the same date of birth as me, but

1043
01:23:14.000 --> 01:23:16.479
my name. You should tell me stuff because she kind

1044
01:23:16.479 --> 01:23:18.840
of knew what's going on around and she'd sort of

1045
01:23:18.920 --> 01:23:23.680
update me on how he was doing. Even in my thirties.

1046
01:23:23.720 --> 01:23:26.960
She'd tell, oh, yeah, he's he's got married or whatever,

1047
01:23:27.079 --> 01:23:29.479
and she just keep up to date with some of

1048
01:23:29.520 --> 01:23:33.840
the kids that are now like fully grown adults what

1049
01:23:33.920 --> 01:23:38.479
they're up to. But it's weird because that it's just

1050
01:23:43.239 --> 01:23:45.800
I don't know why we kind of didn't keep in touch.

1051
01:23:46.600 --> 01:23:49.600
Maybe it's just a bit harder, you know, but it

1052
01:23:49.720 --> 01:23:52.760
was so close to me and really close. And then

1053
01:23:52.800 --> 01:23:56.159
I got my new best friend, Dean in high school

1054
01:23:56.239 --> 01:23:58.159
now in junior school. That the last two years of

1055
01:23:58.199 --> 01:24:02.319
junior school and most of the way through high school.

1056
01:24:04.000 --> 01:24:06.279
In the last year of high school, we became a

1057
01:24:06.319 --> 01:24:11.760
little bit estranged, you know. I think there was yeah,

1058
01:24:12.199 --> 01:24:16.359
we didn't get on so well, but all the years

1059
01:24:16.640 --> 01:24:23.159
previous to that we were inseparable. It's yeah, so that

1060
01:24:23.319 --> 01:24:28.439
was what's that. Another friend called Ian no Ivan who

1061
01:24:28.439 --> 01:24:30.399
lived around the corner used to come to my house,

1062
01:24:31.399 --> 01:24:35.279
and another friend Neil. So it's really I had three

1063
01:24:35.439 --> 01:24:40.319
friends that were known by my family that were welcome

1064
01:24:40.359 --> 01:24:43.359
in the house to come visit, and you know, they'd

1065
01:24:43.359 --> 01:24:45.720
just like, go upstairs is upstairs, so they just come up.

1066
01:24:46.600 --> 01:24:50.840
So I had three three friends and that's the only

1067
01:24:50.920 --> 01:24:54.920
friends I had that I'm pretty sure they would just

1068
01:24:54.960 --> 01:24:56.600
walk in the back. To be fair, I don't think

1069
01:24:56.600 --> 01:24:58.319
they'd even knock on the front door. Walk in the

1070
01:24:58.359 --> 01:25:03.640
back and knock on the back door, or shout up

1071
01:25:03.680 --> 01:25:09.279
at my bedroom standing in the little alleyway. Oy juicy,

1072
01:25:09.760 --> 01:25:12.760
are you there? One of them did sound like a

1073
01:25:14.359 --> 01:25:19.319
like a pirate, and that was Ian, not like Ian Ivan,

1074
01:25:21.720 --> 01:25:24.079
So they were cool. I had other friends, but I didn't.

1075
01:25:24.199 --> 01:25:26.720
I used to go around Pill's houses and get banned

1076
01:25:28.039 --> 01:25:32.000
from the wasn't allowed to go around anymore, never allowed

1077
01:25:32.000 --> 01:25:34.960
to go into well, I'm not allowed to go into.

1078
01:25:35.000 --> 01:25:41.000
But Dean's dad didn't like me, so it was always like,

1079
01:25:41.039 --> 01:25:44.720
way on the doorstep, I'll go and get him, and

1080
01:25:44.800 --> 01:25:46.840
he let I went in once. But he did live

1081
01:25:46.840 --> 01:25:49.600
in an old people's home like he was. That was

1082
01:25:49.640 --> 01:25:54.239
the family business, so I didn't care about that. But

1083
01:25:54.359 --> 01:25:57.880
I don't think that just didn't. He didn't didn't take

1084
01:25:57.920 --> 01:26:05.239
to me, but my parents let it. Literally, Dean would

1085
01:26:05.279 --> 01:26:09.520
just come in to go upstairs. He was, in some

1086
01:26:09.560 --> 01:26:13.520
ways I think, part of the family really. Yeah, we

1087
01:26:13.520 --> 01:26:16.960
were always together, and then Neil was a bit like

1088
01:26:17.000 --> 01:26:19.239
that as well. Niel just used to come around and

1089
01:26:19.359 --> 01:26:22.039
he'd come up, and the same with Ivan. But they

1090
01:26:22.079 --> 01:26:24.039
were the only three really that I used to have

1091
01:26:24.199 --> 01:26:31.880
come around regularly to my house and I'd go around Ivans,

1092
01:26:32.439 --> 01:26:34.520
but I didn't used to hang around in his house,

1093
01:26:34.720 --> 01:26:37.279
but I used to wait for him and his mom

1094
01:26:37.359 --> 01:26:39.119
was lovely. He used to talk to his mum and

1095
01:26:39.159 --> 01:26:42.079
it is yeah, Ivan's mom was lovely. He had two

1096
01:26:42.079 --> 01:26:44.960
older brothers I think that were into motorbikes. But he

1097
01:26:45.079 --> 01:26:46.960
was a good bloke. He was a good lad and

1098
01:26:47.000 --> 01:26:49.840
that his brothers were nice. And his mom was absolutely lovely,

1099
01:26:50.159 --> 01:26:55.159
so friendly, and so he was well promeed my house

1100
01:26:55.199 --> 01:26:58.520
as well, but I didn't used to spend too much

1101
01:26:58.600 --> 01:27:01.640
time in his house. Used to be just like waiting

1102
01:27:01.680 --> 01:27:07.039
for him and would go out and then Ian. So

1103
01:27:07.079 --> 01:27:13.680
I wasn't allowed really into Dean's house. But Neil and

1104
01:27:13.720 --> 01:27:16.640
I don't know why, but his parents liked me. They

1105
01:27:16.720 --> 01:27:18.439
just welcomed me. I don't think they liked They just

1106
01:27:18.439 --> 01:27:22.359
put up with me. They tolerated me, and they'd let

1107
01:27:22.399 --> 01:27:25.880
me in, always always let me in. I'd stay over,

1108
01:27:26.600 --> 01:27:32.760
we'd go in the garden, we'd cause trouble and they

1109
01:27:32.840 --> 01:27:36.479
just kept letting me. They just let me in. And

1110
01:27:36.520 --> 01:27:38.920
they were lovely, both of them, both the father and

1111
01:27:39.000 --> 01:27:42.720
the mother both lovely. And when I got when I

1112
01:27:42.760 --> 01:27:46.960
moved into the chip shop flat above the flat when

1113
01:27:47.000 --> 01:27:50.119
I was sixteen, they gave me stuff for the flat.

1114
01:27:50.479 --> 01:27:55.079
I could, you know, toaster, cutlery, stuff like that. It's lovely.

1115
01:27:56.239 --> 01:27:58.600
And this is after some of the weird stuff I

1116
01:27:58.640 --> 01:28:01.840
got up to in their house. I mean, once I

1117
01:28:01.880 --> 01:28:04.039
got drunk, or we all got drunk, but I got

1118
01:28:04.079 --> 01:28:07.880
particularly drunk, and for some reason we thought it would

1119
01:28:07.880 --> 01:28:10.399
be a funny thing to I think it was about

1120
01:28:10.399 --> 01:28:15.560
fifteen fourteen maybe, and we thought it'd be funny too,

1121
01:28:15.560 --> 01:28:18.359
because we had like a half day I think it

1122
01:28:18.399 --> 01:28:22.359
was a school teacher strike or something like that, and

1123
01:28:22.760 --> 01:28:27.800
we went around to me. Dean and Neil were there

1124
01:28:27.920 --> 01:28:34.239
in Neil's house. We thought, let's raid the alcohol cupboard.

1125
01:28:35.039 --> 01:28:37.960
So we were drinking out of pint glasses and just

1126
01:28:38.079 --> 01:28:42.960
mixing everything. Really silly idea to do, very very dangerous

1127
01:28:43.000 --> 01:28:46.479
as well, so I would never do that now, but

1128
01:28:46.560 --> 01:28:51.359
I did on that occasion, and I don't The other

1129
01:28:51.399 --> 01:28:56.800
two got drunk, but not like I got. They thought

1130
01:28:56.840 --> 01:28:59.720
it'd be a funny idea to take me up to

1131
01:29:01.880 --> 01:29:04.000
their mom and dad's his mom and dad's bed and

1132
01:29:04.159 --> 01:29:08.520
wrapped me in the douvet like a sausage roll. Okay,

1133
01:29:08.920 --> 01:29:12.720
wrapped me in the douvet. And that was not a

1134
01:29:12.720 --> 01:29:16.239
good idea because, as I kept saying to them, I

1135
01:29:16.359 --> 01:29:21.399
need to get to the bathroom. So I won't really

1136
01:29:21.439 --> 01:29:23.439
go into what happens next, but I made a real

1137
01:29:23.560 --> 01:29:29.800
mess of the bed, the bed in the the house. Really,

1138
01:29:30.319 --> 01:29:33.760
I mean I was because I was very drunk. I

1139
01:29:33.840 --> 01:29:43.520
completely destroyed the house and then I left. They thought

1140
01:29:43.520 --> 01:29:47.119
it was hilarious, not the parents. I never saw the

1141
01:29:47.159 --> 01:29:52.239
parents result reaction because they weren't there. They were at work.

1142
01:29:53.039 --> 01:29:55.920
I left and did my paper round and then I

1143
01:29:55.960 --> 01:30:01.560
went home, went to bed, and then I got up

1144
01:30:01.720 --> 01:30:10.159
about half six and it was dinner time, and I

1145
01:30:10.199 --> 01:30:13.199
had boiled X that was my dinner. I did not

1146
01:30:13.279 --> 01:30:15.760
want eggs. Eggs was the one thing I'm probably out

1147
01:30:15.760 --> 01:30:17.680
of the whole world of food. I did not want

1148
01:30:17.720 --> 01:30:21.640
to eat. And I had a headache. And Tucker's Luck

1149
01:30:21.720 --> 01:30:25.319
was on TV, so I can guess get the actual

1150
01:30:25.439 --> 01:30:29.600
year from Tucker's Luck. Tucker's Luck used to be on

1151
01:30:29.800 --> 01:30:35.640
BBC two. Tucker's Luck BBC two. I'm sure it was

1152
01:30:35.720 --> 01:30:42.119
used to be on a Tuesday BBC two. Tucker's Luck

1153
01:30:44.520 --> 01:30:46.880
is eighty three to eighty five. Tucker's Luck was on,

1154
01:30:48.479 --> 01:30:56.000
so I wonder if it tells me okay. Series three

1155
01:30:56.159 --> 01:30:59.159
went on to twenty second of October nineteen eighty five,

1156
01:31:00.199 --> 01:31:06.520
so I would have been just turned fifteen at that point,

1157
01:31:07.920 --> 01:31:09.720
so I reckon it was probably a little bit before that,

1158
01:31:09.880 --> 01:31:13.079
when I was about fourteen, and he used to be

1159
01:31:13.479 --> 01:31:21.000
On thirteenth of March. I wonder if it's a it's

1160
01:31:21.000 --> 01:31:22.760
going to bug me down. I'm sure it's a Tuesday

1161
01:31:22.840 --> 01:31:26.800
or Wednesday. I don't know why, but I just had

1162
01:31:26.840 --> 01:31:38.800
this feeling, Oh my goodness, wow, thirteenth of March. Okay,

1163
01:31:39.239 --> 01:31:43.319
and this was this is the second series of Tucker's Luck.

1164
01:31:44.479 --> 01:31:49.039
Tucker's Luck, second series, episode one, so it might have

1165
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:51.079
been anyway. It was the same day of the week,

1166
01:31:51.119 --> 01:31:54.199
so it might have been a different episode, but it

1167
01:31:54.279 --> 01:31:58.920
was a Tuesday. In fact, let's have a look at

1168
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:03.960
the tenth of tenth of March Cebra or not. Now

1169
01:32:03.960 --> 01:32:08.760
it's nineteen eighty three, so let's just look at this one.

1170
01:32:11.720 --> 01:32:16.960
That was a Thursday. So that was the very first

1171
01:32:17.039 --> 01:32:28.800
series and the third series. For some reason, the date's

1172
01:32:28.840 --> 01:32:31.840
not coming up, Oh yeah it is. That was a Tuesday.

1173
01:32:32.520 --> 01:32:37.199
So the first and the second and third series was

1174
01:32:37.239 --> 01:32:42.920
on a Tuesday. First series was on a Wednesday Thursday rather,

1175
01:32:43.760 --> 01:32:50.279
so I'm pretty certain it would have been eighty four. Wow,

1176
01:32:50.399 --> 01:32:57.720
So I was fourteen, probably four thirteen, fourteen fourteen, probably,

1177
01:33:00.079 --> 01:33:08.159
and they was still lovely to me, like just fat.

1178
01:33:07.880 --> 01:33:09.960
I'm sure they didn't find it funny, but it was

1179
01:33:09.960 --> 01:33:12.359
one of those things that just for some reason they

1180
01:33:12.399 --> 01:33:15.960
were just nice. And I did get banned from some

1181
01:33:16.079 --> 01:33:18.720
of the people, like friends from school. I'd go around

1182
01:33:18.720 --> 01:33:22.680
their houses and get told I wasn't allowed to go

1183
01:33:22.760 --> 01:33:26.720
back because I don't know, say the wrong thing, do

1184
01:33:26.800 --> 01:33:32.880
the wrong thing, whatever, And I'm going. There was this

1185
01:33:32.920 --> 01:33:37.000
one kid and he had this big pile of mud

1186
01:33:38.399 --> 01:33:42.399
and decided he wanted to wrestle, so I kept climbing

1187
01:33:42.399 --> 01:33:49.000
onto the parlor, jumping onto him, and his mum didn't

1188
01:33:49.159 --> 01:33:53.800
like it. Apparently I was getting too excited, Like kay,

1189
01:33:53.800 --> 01:34:00.239
I should rephrase out, but I was getting excited. Yeah,

1190
01:34:00.239 --> 01:34:01.920
I was just like getting pumped up, and I was

1191
01:34:02.279 --> 01:34:05.880
perhaps being a bit too over the top, maybe too

1192
01:34:06.199 --> 01:34:08.199
Maybe it seemed like I was being aggressive or whatever,

1193
01:34:08.239 --> 01:34:11.000
but I was just like running up and jump in

1194
01:34:11.159 --> 01:34:14.840
and you know, I didn't have a sword or anything,

1195
01:34:15.000 --> 01:34:17.479
but I was I definitely thought I was a Viking.

1196
01:34:17.520 --> 01:34:19.600
I think at the time I was going through a

1197
01:34:19.640 --> 01:34:30.680
little Viking phrase phrase phase phrase. There was another two. Yeah,

1198
01:34:30.720 --> 01:34:34.079
I remember I went around another kid's house, and I

1199
01:34:34.119 --> 01:34:39.199
wasn't annowed to go back there again. My favorite place,

1200
01:34:39.279 --> 01:34:42.960
the favorite place I ever went to was this girl's

1201
01:34:43.199 --> 01:34:45.800
I really liked that and I was hoping that she

1202
01:34:45.880 --> 01:34:48.680
was going to be my girlfriend. And she invited me

1203
01:34:48.760 --> 01:34:51.960
to a birthday party. And it was the first birthday party,

1204
01:34:54.199 --> 01:34:56.840
probably the only birthday party I was ever invited to

1205
01:34:56.920 --> 01:35:00.159
as a kid, Not that I've really been invited to

1206
01:35:00.520 --> 01:35:03.279
many as an adult, eva really, but that was the

1207
01:35:03.319 --> 01:35:07.079
first one, first and only one. And I was in

1208
01:35:07.119 --> 01:35:10.159
this Her dad was like a vicar, so it was

1209
01:35:10.199 --> 01:35:14.119
in this not monastery, but vicary. Just said huge house,

1210
01:35:14.439 --> 01:35:18.439
huge house. And I went to a birthday party and

1211
01:35:20.720 --> 01:35:23.279
I was probably in the first year put it the

1212
01:35:23.279 --> 01:35:27.520
first year of high school. I'd say, I think. And

1213
01:35:27.560 --> 01:35:32.039
I loved her, okay, And she took me aside and

1214
01:35:32.079 --> 01:35:36.760
said just two things. I said, yeah, what can you

1215
01:35:37.239 --> 01:35:40.680
stop looking through my under my underwear draw please? And

1216
01:35:40.720 --> 01:35:45.000
I said, okay, what's the second thing? She said, I'm moving.

1217
01:35:46.239 --> 01:35:47.640
I said, just because at the end of it, I

1218
01:35:47.680 --> 01:35:51.319
was just I was looking for some binoculars. She said, why,

1219
01:35:51.720 --> 01:36:04.239
why this is a weird can't you bother? Why would

1220
01:36:04.279 --> 01:36:06.560
my binoculars be in your underwear, dwells, that's what I

1221
01:36:06.640 --> 01:36:15.479
keep mine. Okay, So I didn't, I wasn't looking through,

1222
01:36:15.479 --> 01:36:18.359
but I did do that as an older age. Yeah,

1223
01:36:18.359 --> 01:36:20.199
I got kicked out of a few people's houses for

1224
01:36:20.199 --> 01:36:23.640
that as well. But that's enough of my date in

1225
01:36:23.800 --> 01:36:27.840
history in my twenties. So I yeah, so I'm just basically,

1226
01:36:29.520 --> 01:36:32.680
she takes me aside and said I've got some news.

1227
01:36:32.720 --> 01:36:39.920
I said, okay, I thought weird. She said, I'm moving away.

1228
01:36:40.159 --> 01:36:43.640
I said, what do you mean, well, because this is

1229
01:36:43.720 --> 01:36:47.680
just at the end of school, the school break, and said, oh,

1230
01:36:47.680 --> 01:36:51.359
I'm not coming back to school again. I'm moving. My

1231
01:36:51.840 --> 01:36:55.760
parents are moving to a different district. He's going to

1232
01:36:55.760 --> 01:36:59.000
be a vicar of a different place the other side

1233
01:36:59.039 --> 01:37:09.039
of the country. And she seemed generally genuinely concerned for

1234
01:37:09.159 --> 01:37:13.439
my welfare, for my well being. So I think she

1235
01:37:13.560 --> 01:37:17.159
might have liked me a bit. I know it's very

1236
01:37:17.199 --> 01:37:20.399
both very young. We were like eleven twelve or whatever,

1237
01:37:21.000 --> 01:37:23.439
but just like, it was so nice the fact that

1238
01:37:23.520 --> 01:37:26.800
she invited me to a birthday party, and also that

1239
01:37:26.840 --> 01:37:29.079
she told me that she was moving away, and she

1240
01:37:29.159 --> 01:37:35.000
seemed to care that she was moving away. And I said, well,

1241
01:37:35.000 --> 01:37:37.399
we can still keep in touch. She said, Nah, I

1242
01:37:37.439 --> 01:37:40.920
don't really want to. I said, okay, that's to be fair.

1243
01:37:40.960 --> 01:37:46.079
I think that's sport the moment, it did, and I

1244
01:37:46.119 --> 01:37:47.680
think her trying to push me out of a window

1245
01:37:47.680 --> 01:37:51.880
didn't help either. But I just yeah, but before that,

1246
01:37:51.920 --> 01:37:59.960
it was romantic, not romantic, but it was kind of nice. Yeah,

1247
01:38:00.199 --> 01:38:02.000
there was a bit of a problem with the toilet lid.

1248
01:38:02.159 --> 01:38:08.239
And when I got back to school after the holiday,

1249
01:38:08.359 --> 01:38:11.720
the school holidays, there was a few other kids that

1250
01:38:11.760 --> 01:38:14.439
were at that party. I want to keep going on

1251
01:38:14.479 --> 01:38:20.119
about as about the blocked toilet, and whenever they mentioned

1252
01:38:20.159 --> 01:38:22.880
block toilets for the next four years of school, everyone

1253
01:38:22.920 --> 01:38:27.560
would look at me, even if the toilet. You know.

1254
01:38:27.600 --> 01:38:31.359
So I mentioned block toilets in a different classroom where

1255
01:38:31.359 --> 01:38:35.159
I wasn't even there. Everyone would walk from that classroom

1256
01:38:35.600 --> 01:38:38.119
to the other side of the school and look in

1257
01:38:38.159 --> 01:38:40.039
the door and look at me. Some people would go

1258
01:38:40.039 --> 01:38:42.359
out out the front or at the side, look through

1259
01:38:42.359 --> 01:38:46.479
the window and look at me and then walk off.

1260
01:38:46.560 --> 01:38:51.640
It was a very strange, strange environment. I had nothing

1261
01:38:51.640 --> 01:38:55.680
to do with the block toilet. Okay, maybe I did.

1262
01:38:56.800 --> 01:39:02.119
I think sometimes block toilets just it's just not sometimes.

1263
01:39:02.760 --> 01:39:04.920
I mean, I don't think toilets are or they're not

1264
01:39:04.960 --> 01:39:10.520
suited for all sizes, are they? You know, there's sometimes

1265
01:39:11.880 --> 01:39:14.960
just needed a wider I was going to say a

1266
01:39:14.960 --> 01:39:17.039
bigger mouth, but that's probably not the right term for

1267
01:39:17.039 --> 01:39:21.079
a toilet. Is it a bigger it's you know, yeah,

1268
01:39:21.600 --> 01:39:23.399
it's like when you're hungry. It'd be nicer if we

1269
01:39:23.439 --> 01:39:26.600
had a bigger hole to put the food in when

1270
01:39:26.600 --> 01:39:32.119
we were really really hungry. Mind, I suppose we are

1271
01:39:32.159 --> 01:39:40.560
supposed to chew on we technically right. I've talked for

1272
01:39:40.680 --> 01:39:43.600
much longer than I expected because this was supposed to

1273
01:39:43.680 --> 01:39:48.840
be not supposed to be, but I was hoping to eat,

1274
01:39:49.800 --> 01:39:54.239
to get some food, and a little bit earlier than this.

1275
01:39:54.359 --> 01:40:00.840
Because it's now nearly half past eight, I've been talking

1276
01:40:00.960 --> 01:40:05.800
for well over an hour, probably over an hour and

1277
01:40:05.840 --> 01:40:11.119
a half, I think, maybe even longer than that. And

1278
01:40:11.159 --> 01:40:14.119
I still didn't manage to cover all the schools. So

1279
01:40:14.239 --> 01:40:24.359
this is Monday's boring objects schools, junior schools. So that's it.

1280
01:40:24.439 --> 01:40:27.800
That's the end of this recording. It's I hope it's

1281
01:40:27.840 --> 01:40:31.199
been as exciting for you as it as it was

1282
01:40:31.600 --> 01:40:39.119
for me. So please remember to be kind to yourself,

1283
01:40:39.199 --> 01:40:43.560
because you do deserve to be happy and remember to

1284
01:40:43.600 --> 01:40:51.039
be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe, lots

1285
01:40:51.039 --> 01:41:11.800
of love bye. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1286
01:41:14.279 --> 01:41:19.359
maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1287
01:41:19.800 --> 01:41:29.840
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend

1288
01:41:29.880 --> 01:41:37.880
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

1289
01:41:37.960 --> 01:41:43.319
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

1290
01:41:43.439 --> 01:42:00.119
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1291
01:41:59.960 --> 01:42:15.960
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for

1292
01:42:16.119 --> 01:42:28.039
longer after the recording has ended, so that you can

1293
01:42:29.680 --> 01:42:40.319
still benefit from listening to my voice, maybe in a

1294
01:42:40.359 --> 01:42:52.880
few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly,

1295
01:42:55.960 --> 01:43:00.560
especially if you find like some people do, and myself

1296
01:43:00.600 --> 01:43:05.760
as well. Sometimes I find one particular recording that really

1297
01:43:07.399 --> 01:43:14.399
resonates with me, and I just listen to it over

1298
01:43:14.439 --> 01:43:27.159
and over again every morning, every evening. There was this

1299
01:43:27.279 --> 01:43:34.159
recording from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine.

1300
01:43:34.479 --> 01:43:39.800
It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1301
01:43:39.920 --> 01:43:46.920
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1302
01:43:46.960 --> 01:43:50.439
find it again and it still has the same effect

1303
01:43:51.000 --> 01:43:59.800
on me. And part of it was the person's for

1304
01:44:00.079 --> 01:44:12.600
this relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

1305
01:44:12.800 --> 01:44:19.760
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

1306
01:44:19.840 --> 01:44:31.119
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play

1307
01:44:31.159 --> 01:44:39.319
button that since I've done that, pressed the play button.

1308
01:44:40.119 --> 01:44:51.119
This is in the days of CD players pressed the

1309
01:44:51.159 --> 01:44:56.520
play button. In fact, it might have even been a

1310
01:44:56.600 --> 01:45:00.760
tape tape recorder. I'd lie to down on the bed

1311
01:45:01.000 --> 01:45:17.640
and then even without necessarily listening to her words because

1312
01:45:19.560 --> 01:45:26.720
I had them memorized. Really, it was as if my

1313
01:45:26.840 --> 01:45:38.199
body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just

1314
01:45:42.159 --> 01:45:59.920
almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind

1315
01:46:00.039 --> 01:46:13.560
and would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to

1316
01:46:13.640 --> 01:46:22.920
this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and

1317
01:46:23.119 --> 01:46:32.039
long before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1318
01:46:33.239 --> 01:46:36.600
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

1319
01:46:43.520 --> 01:46:59.479
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

1320
01:46:59.520 --> 01:47:08.640
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1321
01:47:08.680 --> 01:47:19.039
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1322
01:47:19.119 --> 01:47:29.920
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1323
01:47:30.159 --> 01:47:42.680
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

1324
01:47:43.000 --> 01:47:57.279
people have been listening to me for over a decade.

1325
01:47:58.000 --> 01:48:02.039
Maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1326
01:48:03.800 --> 01:48:13.680
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1327
01:48:22.039 --> 01:48:30.159
There's something that I do which you may not realize

1328
01:48:30.439 --> 01:48:49.000
by listening, is when I record these recordings now, for example,

1329
01:48:53.560 --> 01:49:05.720
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1330
01:49:06.600 --> 01:49:13.119
So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

1331
01:49:15.520 --> 01:49:23.399
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1332
01:49:28.159 --> 01:49:45.560
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1333
01:49:45.680 --> 01:49:53.359
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1334
01:49:53.399 --> 01:50:03.680
each hand, perhaps notice the the air in the room,

1335
01:50:04.199 --> 01:50:09.640
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1336
01:50:16.800 --> 01:50:20.720
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1337
01:50:20.840 --> 01:50:28.800
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1338
01:50:29.319 --> 01:50:40.840
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1339
01:50:42.399 --> 01:50:53.000
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1340
01:50:53.359 --> 01:51:21.560
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1341
01:51:21.720 --> 01:51:28.640
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1342
01:51:28.720 --> 01:51:43.279
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1343
01:51:45.079 --> 01:51:58.560
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1344
01:52:06.479 --> 01:52:19.079
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1345
01:52:23.960 --> 01:52:35.000
and then I carry on talking. It's only when I

1346
01:52:35.079 --> 01:52:44.479
listen back to do the editing, I hear snoring, and

1347
01:52:44.560 --> 01:52:54.600
I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This

1348
01:52:54.760 --> 01:53:02.119
snoring was a pig turned up. That's why it sounds

1349
01:53:02.199 --> 01:53:11.880
like when I snore. How I get really into the

1350
01:53:11.920 --> 01:53:30.079
whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How relaxed

1351
01:53:30.239 --> 01:53:40.319
do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

1352
01:53:40.520 --> 01:54:07.119
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1353
01:54:07.319 --> 01:54:23.520
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1354
01:54:23.720 --> 01:54:44.319
easier you're breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1355
01:54:48.640 --> 01:55:09.640
So this allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing

1356
01:55:11.840 --> 01:55:37.479
on your breath. However, being able to notice the ease

1357
01:55:40.840 --> 01:56:07.439
in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so very

1358
01:56:07.720 --> 01:56:56.600
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've

1359
01:56:56.640 --> 01:57:12.479
got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful

1360
01:57:12.640 --> 01:57:29.720
field with trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen.

1361
01:57:49.960 --> 01:58:05.119
It feels nice two if nothing thing else, just taking

1362
01:58:05.359 --> 01:58:43.079
some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace

1363
01:58:48.079 --> 01:59:31.680
serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip

1364
01:59:32.359 --> 02:00:15.359
by so very slowly, relaxed, so deep play peaceful, completely

1365
02:00:21.239 --> 02:01:22.920
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1366
02:01:23.680 --> 02:02:15.079
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1367
02:02:15.239 --> 02:02:43.800
nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical

1368
02:02:44.159 --> 02:02:55.840
sensations of allowing the stress to rip out of your body,

1369
02:03:02.279 --> 02:03:25.279
to appear out of every part of your body, and

1370
02:03:25.640 --> 02:04:05.159
being released from your brain in your mind slowly but surely.

1371
02:04:12.000 --> 02:04:49.319
The muscles in your legs relax rs so very deeply,

1372
02:04:59.159 --> 02:05:30.079
r yes so deeply in the feelings, the pleasant feelings

1373
02:05:30.119 --> 02:05:54.399
in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your

1374
02:05:54.439 --> 02:06:36.359
body further and deeper and deeper. Noticin the feelings in

1375
02:06:36.439 --> 02:07:36.520
the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles

1376
02:07:38.560 --> 02:08:29.680
in front of your body, I also feeling peaceful deeply.

1377
02:08:32.880 --> 02:08:43.159
There's a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core.

1378
02:09:13.720 --> 02:09:33.600
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

1379
02:09:40.920 --> 02:11:02.960
beve and slower, even deep relaxing, so very slow, your

1380
02:11:03.279 --> 02:11:59.479
stomach peace for in your stomach held back. Notice Notice

1381
02:11:59.680 --> 02:12:18.119
how relaxed you'd now feel in the hole of your back,

1382
02:12:43.319 --> 02:12:52.439
in spy from your brain all the way down the

1383
02:12:52.479 --> 02:13:03.199
middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages

1384
02:13:03.880 --> 02:14:30.359
every day, deep comfort increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, legs,

1385
02:14:34.279 --> 02:14:43.640
spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air.

1386
02:14:43.800 --> 02:15:02.520
Every part of your body, your shins and your half

1387
02:15:02.720 --> 02:15:59.199
muscles were outbows. Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through

1388
02:15:59.319 --> 02:16:16.680
your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers,

1389
02:16:21.000 --> 02:17:07.079
all the way till you'll lower back. M Lettinker Redia thinker, peace,

1390
02:17:22.840 --> 02:17:53.520
drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go, let

1391
02:17:53.559 --> 02:18:59.079
go completely, leo, so tranquil, the whole body enjoying a

1392
02:18:59.319 --> 02:21:21.159
sense of listing, guy Heph more Pe, enjoying the space,

1393
02:21:23.520 --> 02:21:53.680
this space of peace and safety.

1394
02:21:55.959 --> 02:23:35.799
So fary, hey yy, letting go.

1395
02:23:53.719 --> 02:24:01.319
Maybe we can just focus on the different part of

1396
02:24:01.440 --> 02:25:09.319
your body, just to notice your forehead and your eyes mutual,

1397
02:25:14.920 --> 02:25:55.639
so loose, noticing in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

1398
02:26:41.760 --> 02:27:51.000
ris day, peace for energy, peace to breathe, so much

1399
02:27:51.479 --> 02:29:06.600
easier loose. You may have may not have noticed your

1400
02:29:06.799 --> 02:30:08.239
mind drifting peaceful me really even more deeply in the

1401
02:30:08.399 --> 02:31:44.920
direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace, terrefting out to pace,

1402
02:32:09.600 --> 02:33:06.559
come so calm, let him go, peace with mind relaxed

1403
02:33:10.799 --> 02:34:10.000
forty so relax c relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

1404
02:34:25.159 --> 02:35:02.479
so very relaxed. I'm peaceful so pa so yeah, uh

1405
02:35:09.639 --> 02:35:49.719
like fair And you could start to notice that you

1406
02:35:51.040 --> 02:36:00.280
are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purpose le

1407
02:36:01.680 --> 02:36:10.639
focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort that

1408
02:36:10.840 --> 02:36:17.840
is growing within you throughout your body, and your mind

1409
02:36:19.920 --> 02:36:28.360
starts to slow down, and that could be almost in

1410
02:36:29.239 --> 02:36:37.840
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast

1411
02:36:44.360 --> 02:36:54.799
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1412
02:36:54.920 --> 02:37:03.440
my voice, you give yourself a an opportunity to take

1413
02:37:03.479 --> 02:37:10.040
a break from the day, take a break from your

1414
02:37:10.120 --> 02:37:17.200
life as it is, and to give yourself a rest,

1415
02:37:19.760 --> 02:37:27.079
giving yourself permission to take some time off and to

1416
02:37:27.200 --> 02:37:33.120
allow your body to relax and allow your mind to

1417
02:37:33.239 --> 02:37:44.600
slow down, which in turn releases the tension and he

1418
02:37:44.799 --> 02:37:53.719
stresses that you had in your body. It's almost as

1419
02:37:53.760 --> 02:37:59.559
if the parts of your body just open up, allowing

1420
02:37:59.639 --> 02:38:10.719
the next activity out and at the same time replacing

1421
02:38:11.520 --> 02:38:21.079
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1422
02:38:21.120 --> 02:38:33.000
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1423
02:38:33.840 --> 02:38:52.280
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling positive, healing,

1424
02:38:55.399 --> 02:39:03.959
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1425
02:39:06.280 --> 02:39:18.479
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1426
02:39:21.239 --> 02:39:26.479
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1427
02:39:26.520 --> 02:39:39.120
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

1428
02:39:39.239 --> 02:39:49.680
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

1429
02:39:49.799 --> 02:40:05.719
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1430
02:40:06.159 --> 02:40:19.239
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

1431
02:40:19.319 --> 02:40:27.760
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

1432
02:40:27.840 --> 02:40:38.520
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1433
02:40:39.479 --> 02:40:53.760
with that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1434
02:40:53.920 --> 02:40:59.920
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1435
02:41:00.200 --> 02:41:13.479
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1436
02:41:13.680 --> 02:41:32.040
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body.

1437
02:41:34.559 --> 02:41:39.920
And as I focus on each part of your body,

1438
02:41:42.280 --> 02:41:54.360
you can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed

1439
02:41:56.319 --> 02:42:05.280
just by focusing on it. It becomes even more calm

1440
02:42:05.440 --> 02:42:16.200
and comfortable just by focusing. And as I move down

1441
02:42:16.360 --> 02:42:23.959
your body, starting at your head, the parts that you've

1442
02:42:24.319 --> 02:42:34.239
already focused on will continue to relax deeply, and those

1443
02:42:34.440 --> 02:42:41.159
parts that we've not yet focused on were just automatically

1444
02:42:44.920 --> 02:42:53.719
release any remain intention in anticipation of even more comfort

1445
02:42:55.000 --> 02:43:05.760
about to come. Now, I'm going to start by focusing

1446
02:43:06.399 --> 02:43:12.879
on your forehead. Just being aware of the feelings of

1447
02:43:12.959 --> 02:43:23.239
your forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert the

1448
02:43:23.360 --> 02:43:28.719
Pigeon can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

1449
02:43:32.600 --> 02:43:38.719
Just means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't

1450
02:43:38.760 --> 02:43:46.760
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

1451
02:43:46.840 --> 02:43:59.159
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around. So

1452
02:43:59.239 --> 02:44:04.440
as you focus on your forehead, just notice how it

1453
02:44:04.639 --> 02:44:14.559
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

1454
02:44:14.799 --> 02:44:24.360
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1455
02:44:24.479 --> 02:44:37.600
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1456
02:44:37.639 --> 02:44:44.799
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1457
02:44:48.079 --> 02:44:58.760
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1458
02:44:58.840 --> 02:45:06.079
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1459
02:45:07.239 --> 02:45:15.200
your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1460
02:45:18.680 --> 02:45:28.959
calm and lease. As you focus now on your jaw,

1461
02:45:32.000 --> 02:45:35.559
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1462
02:45:36.360 --> 02:45:40.680
and your chin, but all the way up the side

1463
02:45:40.719 --> 02:45:48.639
of your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw,

1464
02:45:50.200 --> 02:46:17.399
feeding more relaxed and calm focusing on your neck. The

1465
02:46:17.399 --> 02:46:24.959
front of your neck and your throat relaxing and loose

1466
02:46:25.680 --> 02:46:35.280
and calm. The side of your neck, the right and

1467
02:46:35.520 --> 02:46:49.680
left side of your neck relax and loose and calm,

1468
02:46:54.520 --> 02:47:01.040
and now the back of your neck. Focus in on

1469
02:47:01.120 --> 02:47:11.040
the back of your neck, letting go of any tension

1470
02:47:11.799 --> 02:47:20.639
that may have been there before, and enjoying that sense

1471
02:47:20.879 --> 02:47:32.479
of increasing comfort and release that you can experience in

1472
02:47:32.559 --> 02:47:44.479
the back of your neck. Moving down your back and

1473
02:47:44.600 --> 02:47:49.479
moving either side of your spine right from the top

1474
02:47:49.520 --> 02:47:55.040
of your back all the way down to the bottom

1475
02:47:55.159 --> 02:48:12.159
of your back down to your lower back. And as

1476
02:48:12.200 --> 02:48:19.680
you move up and down your spine, you can feel

1477
02:48:19.760 --> 02:48:27.559
the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1478
02:48:35.040 --> 02:48:41.799
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1479
02:48:41.879 --> 02:48:52.000
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1480
02:48:52.079 --> 02:48:59.120
your back, the top of your back, the middle and

1481
02:48:59.239 --> 02:49:08.719
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1482
02:49:09.959 --> 02:49:15.239
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1483
02:49:15.319 --> 02:49:25.159
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1484
02:49:25.319 --> 02:49:30.959
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1485
02:49:31.360 --> 02:49:45.920
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, and

1486
02:49:46.120 --> 02:49:52.200
in your lower back. There seems to be an extra

1487
02:49:52.360 --> 02:50:08.520
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips. Sit

1488
02:50:08.639 --> 02:50:16.319
down your lower back, get into your hips, into the

1489
02:50:16.399 --> 02:50:25.159
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

1490
02:50:25.239 --> 02:50:34.479
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1491
02:50:34.520 --> 02:50:48.120
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1492
02:50:54.520 --> 02:50:59.559
I don't even know where about. To focus on your shoulders.

1493
02:51:00.280 --> 02:51:08.440
H your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1494
02:51:11.319 --> 02:51:27.040
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1495
02:51:27.120 --> 02:51:40.040
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose.

1496
02:51:44.840 --> 02:52:11.280
They're already feeding, calm and fearing. Those muscles then move

1497
02:52:11.639 --> 02:52:27.479
from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1498
02:52:31.559 --> 02:53:00.479
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1499
02:53:00.479 --> 02:53:07.959
seens to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of

1500
02:53:08.120 --> 02:53:20.639
relaxation not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also

1501
02:53:20.959 --> 02:53:34.559
relaxing the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1502
02:53:37.280 --> 02:53:43.360
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1503
02:53:44.600 --> 02:54:02.360
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relax and

1504
02:54:02.600 --> 02:54:22.879
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1505
02:54:23.520 --> 02:54:35.200
into your arms and you may feel almost as if

1506
02:54:35.239 --> 02:54:41.799
your arms are not even there because they're so relaxed,

1507
02:54:44.959 --> 02:55:31.159
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1508
02:55:31.479 --> 02:55:46.719
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1509
02:55:48.440 --> 02:56:15.239
your elbows circumfort spreads or away into wrists are forearments

1510
02:56:15.440 --> 02:56:39.040
induists so heavy, yet at the same time so light

1511
02:56:42.319 --> 02:57:38.920
and gentle. Fred. See now on your hands, my hands,

1512
02:57:45.200 --> 02:58:14.840
so peaceful in your hands, the sense of real peace.

1513
02:58:26.559 --> 02:58:40.360
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1514
02:58:40.680 --> 03:00:17.719
relax deeply feels a thing is you, things, sids, your

1515
03:00:17.879 --> 03:01:04.040
finger tips, moving your attention to the front, to your body,

1516
03:01:05.239 --> 03:02:42.440
so comfortable, moving in your focus, your legs, a muscus

1517
03:02:44.360 --> 03:03:03.239
in your thighs, your knees.

1518
03:03:06.840 --> 03:03:40.120
So relaxed, a carved mussels, and just chins.

1519
03:03:43.319 --> 03:05:55.520
Complesitly four and the fathing and your feet so peaceful,

1520
03:05:57.600 --> 03:06:56.399
so calm, say peaceful, sircom so peaceful, cyclm, so peace

1521
03:06:56.879 --> 03:07:29.479
for RelA s peace for so calm, loving that deep relaxation,

1522
03:07:31.120 --> 03:07:47.920
to spread your chest, in your stomach so real, letting

1523
03:07:48.440 --> 03:08:06.680
go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now,

1524
03:08:09.319 --> 03:08:18.040
from twenty down to one. You can imagine in a

1525
03:08:18.079 --> 03:08:23.920
way it's like just walking down some steps and each

1526
03:08:24.079 --> 03:08:29.719
step or twenty steps, and each step represents a level

1527
03:08:30.280 --> 03:08:43.000
of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort

1528
03:08:49.600 --> 03:08:54.760
and the furvies you walk down those steps that are

1529
03:08:54.920 --> 03:09:06.079
deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number

1530
03:09:06.159 --> 03:14:38.600
twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen, sikest eight four four two

1531
03:15:44.799 --> 03:24:13.639
two of five eight nine hey seven three five four

1532
03:25:15.639 --> 03:29:50.680
four two one. No, as you focus on your eyes,

1533
03:30:00.239 --> 03:30:03.559
We're going to count down from ten down to one.

1534
03:30:09.920 --> 03:30:18.920
Focus in just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles

1535
03:30:19.120 --> 03:30:28.040
around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our whole area

1536
03:30:31.000 --> 03:30:44.959
that makes up your eye. And as we count down

1537
03:30:45.159 --> 03:30:53.520
from ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1538
03:31:00.079 --> 03:31:10.760
will become twice is relaxed with each number counting down,

1539
03:31:14.879 --> 03:31:21.840
and you may find the all you want to do

1540
03:31:22.360 --> 03:31:31.280
is just drift off to sleep. And if that's what

1541
03:31:31.600 --> 03:31:44.079
you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1542
03:31:47.040 --> 03:31:53.440
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1543
03:31:54.959 --> 03:33:11.440
from ten down to one right now, ten nine eight

1544
03:34:05.000 --> 03:41:23.639
seven four five four three two one. So counting down

1545
03:41:23.719 --> 03:41:39.159
from ten to one ten nine eight seven six five

1546
03:41:41.479 --> 03:41:59.239
four three two one. And maybe that was a bit

1547
03:41:59.319 --> 03:42:03.399
too quick, in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit

1548
03:42:03.520 --> 03:42:10.000
too fast for you to notice the calming of your body,

1549
03:42:13.200 --> 03:42:17.760
maybe even a little bit of pressure there, Like you're

1550
03:42:17.840 --> 03:42:20.559
counting down from ten to one. Would you expect me

1551
03:42:20.719 --> 03:42:23.600
to do man, expect me to just to go with

1552
03:42:23.760 --> 03:42:33.600
floppy just because you're counting down. We could try it again,

1553
03:42:34.959 --> 03:42:40.959
but this time I go this slower. This time, as

1554
03:42:41.000 --> 03:42:45.879
you focus on the whole of your body before we

1555
03:42:46.159 --> 03:42:53.200
focus on your legs. Just notice how your body does

1556
03:42:54.959 --> 03:43:08.079
start to feel more relaxed with every number that I

1557
03:43:08.280 --> 03:44:06.760
count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three

1558
03:44:20.280 --> 03:44:57.959
two one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

1559
03:44:58.399 --> 03:45:12.680
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1560
03:45:12.840 --> 03:45:19.959
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1561
03:45:21.280 --> 03:45:39.760
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1562
03:45:44.479 --> 03:45:49.639
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1563
03:45:49.840 --> 03:45:56.479
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1564
03:45:57.159 --> 03:46:00.879
that opens up a space, you know, of a space,

1565
03:46:01.840 --> 03:46:11.680
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1566
03:46:11.799 --> 03:46:19.120
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1567
03:46:19.360 --> 03:46:32.000
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling

1568
03:46:37.559 --> 03:46:46.239
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1569
03:46:46.959 --> 03:47:08.479
moves them away, allows you to just slow down. Someone

1570
03:47:08.559 --> 03:47:11.719
to count again from ten down to one, and notice

1571
03:47:12.559 --> 03:47:21.479
that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens, it's

1572
03:47:21.520 --> 03:47:27.719
almost like the stress and attention falls into the gap

1573
03:47:41.200 --> 03:48:37.200
and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1574
03:48:48.360 --> 03:49:23.959
four three two.

1575
03:49:42.239 --> 03:49:42.479
One.

1576
03:49:54.360 --> 03:50:14.440
How did your body fel now? Can you notice that

1577
03:50:15.600 --> 03:50:52.239
you feeling calmer? There? You feeling more relaxed as we

1578
03:50:52.399 --> 03:51:12.639
now focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just

1579
03:51:12.760 --> 03:51:32.760
gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's

1580
03:51:32.840 --> 03:51:41.120
not the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm

1581
03:51:41.239 --> 03:51:43.879
sure like most of your body is not a lot

1582
03:51:43.959 --> 03:51:56.280
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

1583
03:51:56.360 --> 03:52:02.840
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

1584
03:52:02.920 --> 03:52:09.760
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1585
03:52:09.879 --> 03:52:14.760
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1586
03:52:14.920 --> 03:52:23.680
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1587
03:52:23.879 --> 03:52:37.920
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1588
03:52:37.959 --> 03:52:43.440
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1589
03:52:44.440 --> 03:52:57.600
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1590
03:52:57.680 --> 03:53:05.959
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1591
03:53:11.920 --> 03:53:22.680
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1592
03:53:22.879 --> 03:53:43.479
our lives, how much they actually do for us, all

1593
03:53:43.600 --> 03:53:54.040
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1594
03:53:54.120 --> 03:54:02.520
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1595
03:54:02.639 --> 03:54:10.280
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1596
03:54:11.239 --> 03:54:29.200
a bit of acknowledgment. I thank you gratitude for what

1597
03:54:29.360 --> 03:54:38.440
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1598
03:54:38.680 --> 03:54:44.319
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I

1599
03:54:45.079 --> 03:54:47.879
Surely I should be out in the garden hugging a

1600
03:54:48.000 --> 03:54:56.399
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1601
03:54:56.479 --> 03:54:59.479
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1602
03:54:59.520 --> 03:55:03.360
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1603
03:55:03.360 --> 03:55:12.159
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1604
03:55:12.200 --> 03:55:21.959
to your knees gain such an important part. And I

1605
03:55:22.040 --> 03:55:28.879
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1606
03:55:28.959 --> 03:55:34.120
don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for me

1607
03:55:35.360 --> 03:55:40.520
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally

1608
03:55:40.600 --> 03:55:45.559
if I ever maybe I'll pash it or it's aching

1609
03:55:45.760 --> 03:55:52.120
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1610
03:55:52.280 --> 03:55:55.920
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1611
03:55:56.840 --> 03:56:06.040
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1612
03:56:06.879 --> 03:56:15.600
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1613
03:56:16.760 --> 03:56:23.719
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1614
03:56:25.879 --> 03:56:31.559
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1615
03:56:31.799 --> 03:56:37.959
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1616
03:56:38.120 --> 03:56:50.319
that they do for you, and you can still have

1617
03:56:50.479 --> 03:56:54.639
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1618
03:56:54.719 --> 03:57:08.760
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that are relaxing more deeply

1619
03:57:15.520 --> 03:57:20.000
as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1620
03:57:20.479 --> 03:57:25.840
your shins, and your calf muscles, and the bones between

1621
03:57:26.079 --> 03:57:32.879
your knees and your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles

1622
03:57:35.200 --> 03:57:46.319
so important. Anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1623
03:57:46.440 --> 03:57:53.399
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1624
03:57:53.639 --> 03:58:02.159
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1625
03:58:02.239 --> 03:58:07.799
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1626
03:58:07.959 --> 03:58:10.840
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1627
03:58:11.959 --> 03:58:15.520
which is okay. It doesn't can't see any problem with

1628
03:58:15.600 --> 03:58:21.000
that because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles

1629
03:58:22.840 --> 03:58:32.760
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1630
03:58:32.879 --> 03:58:37.399
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1631
03:58:37.479 --> 03:58:44.719
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1632
03:58:45.760 --> 03:58:55.760
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1633
03:58:57.239 --> 03:59:06.840
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1634
03:59:06.959 --> 03:59:16.920
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1635
03:59:19.159 --> 03:59:31.959
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1636
03:59:31.959 --> 03:59:39.719
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1637
03:59:40.079 --> 03:59:43.200
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. It didn't

1638
03:59:43.200 --> 03:59:48.520
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1639
03:59:49.319 --> 03:59:53.159
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1640
03:59:53.239 --> 03:59:57.360
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1641
03:59:57.479 --> 04:00:09.360
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1642
04:00:11.360 --> 04:00:20.000
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1643
04:00:20.079 --> 04:00:32.360
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1644
04:00:35.719 --> 04:00:42.319
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1645
04:00:42.399 --> 04:00:44.520
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1646
04:00:46.600 --> 04:00:51.200
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it

1647
04:00:51.360 --> 04:00:56.239
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1648
04:00:56.360 --> 04:01:02.200
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1649
04:01:02.239 --> 04:01:07.799
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1650
04:01:08.079 --> 04:01:12.360
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1651
04:01:12.520 --> 04:01:17.239
your thighs for a few minutes, we've been focusing on

1652
04:01:17.399 --> 04:01:34.559
your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs,

1653
04:01:39.559 --> 04:01:46.920
and there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold

1654
04:01:48.879 --> 04:01:54.120
lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the

1655
04:01:54.440 --> 04:02:06.920
big straw muscles that we have in our thighs, but

1656
04:02:07.120 --> 04:02:12.719
the skin on the outside of the thighs, as in

1657
04:02:13.280 --> 04:02:19.040
the outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1658
04:02:22.920 --> 04:02:36.120
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1659
04:02:36.239 --> 04:02:43.680
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1660
04:02:43.840 --> 04:02:49.639
the ar trees, all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1661
04:02:53.959 --> 04:02:57.159
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1662
04:02:57.159 --> 04:03:02.520
actually put your fingers in side your thighs and a message,

1663
04:03:04.920 --> 04:03:08.440
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1664
04:03:08.520 --> 04:03:11.639
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1665
04:03:11.719 --> 04:03:16.879
to be able to just massage inside your thighs, message

1666
04:03:16.920 --> 04:03:25.639
in the bones of your leg, massage in or the veins,

1667
04:03:25.840 --> 04:03:36.040
and just gently healing your thighs, and you could move

1668
04:03:36.239 --> 04:03:43.639
down message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1669
04:03:44.639 --> 04:03:51.680
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1670
04:03:51.760 --> 04:04:00.799
the joints of your knees. Of course, there is the

1671
04:04:00.920 --> 04:04:05.159
back of your your knee, you know, the inside crease

1672
04:04:06.159 --> 04:04:13.159
where your knee is. It's a really sensitive area. Very

1673
04:04:13.840 --> 04:04:17.639
it feels very nice when you stroke it. That might

1674
04:04:17.760 --> 04:04:21.879
be because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1675
04:04:23.920 --> 04:04:30.799
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1676
04:04:30.879 --> 04:04:37.920
It's almost it's like a part that has a sensitivity,

1677
04:04:38.040 --> 04:04:48.440
which is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected

1678
04:04:48.600 --> 04:04:59.760
by your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

1679
04:05:00.079 --> 04:05:09.360
into that crease in your legs, that fold in between

1680
04:05:09.440 --> 04:05:14.479
your legs. You can just message with your fingertips, letting

1681
04:05:14.479 --> 04:05:25.559
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You

1682
04:05:25.680 --> 04:05:31.680
can of course field the bones of your knees heading

1683
04:05:31.959 --> 04:05:44.639
through your fingertips, and then as you go down to

1684
04:05:44.760 --> 04:05:47.520
your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like to

1685
04:05:47.559 --> 04:05:53.000
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

1686
04:05:53.200 --> 04:06:01.879
calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1687
04:06:03.479 --> 04:06:13.399
healing every part and then doing the same for my shins,

1688
04:06:16.600 --> 04:06:23.479
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1689
04:06:24.399 --> 04:06:28.520
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1690
04:06:28.680 --> 04:06:35.920
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1691
04:06:36.000 --> 04:06:39.559
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1692
04:06:39.639 --> 04:06:47.280
of our body, the more precious of any jure on

1693
04:06:47.399 --> 04:07:03.719
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1694
04:07:03.879 --> 04:07:15.000
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1695
04:07:15.200 --> 04:07:21.760
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1696
04:07:21.959 --> 04:07:28.120
idea of having love for your legs, show an appreciation

1697
04:07:30.079 --> 04:07:35.680
for your thighs, wanting to be able to put your

1698
04:07:35.879 --> 04:07:44.120
hands in your thighs and massage the muscles and the bones,

1699
04:07:46.000 --> 04:07:51.680
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1700
04:07:54.559 --> 04:08:03.200
just to show how much you care about your legs.

1701
04:08:04.079 --> 04:08:07.399
How m do you care for what your legs do

1702
04:08:07.799 --> 04:08:20.799
for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the

1703
04:08:21.040 --> 04:08:29.120
strength of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared

1704
04:08:29.719 --> 04:08:36.360
to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs, yet

1705
04:08:36.399 --> 04:08:48.520
they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles

1706
04:08:48.840 --> 04:08:57.959
are truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1707
04:09:03.440 --> 04:09:10.399
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are.

1708
04:09:11.559 --> 04:09:16.360
Even if you only ate stone, it's still a lot

1709
04:09:16.399 --> 04:09:23.079
of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot

1710
04:09:23.280 --> 04:09:33.239
heavier than each stone double down. Yet my ankles support

1711
04:09:33.319 --> 04:09:40.680
my body all the time, whether they do give off

1712
04:09:40.719 --> 04:09:46.280
a sigh of relief when I sit down, as in fact,

1713
04:09:46.319 --> 04:09:55.200
my whole legs do. My feet feet also go and

1714
04:09:55.319 --> 04:10:23.000
my toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

1715
04:10:25.639 --> 04:10:29.440
And I know that about talking about your legs is

1716
04:10:29.559 --> 04:10:36.200
probably possibly among the most most boring things you've ever

1717
04:10:36.840 --> 04:10:45.159
heard anyone say. Possibly they're boring or not. Everything I

1718
04:10:45.280 --> 04:11:01.200
said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve

1719
04:11:02.280 --> 04:11:20.879
not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve

1720
04:11:21.120 --> 04:11:26.000
to take some time out of the day to just

1721
04:11:26.360 --> 04:12:02.559
let go completely. Your legs really can relax. And because

1722
04:12:02.639 --> 04:12:06.559
the legs are so such a most, you know, very

1723
04:12:06.639 --> 04:12:12.360
important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1724
04:12:12.440 --> 04:12:19.680
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1725
04:12:23.399 --> 04:12:34.239
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1726
04:12:35.639 --> 04:12:42.760
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1727
04:12:42.799 --> 04:12:49.440
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1728
04:12:50.559 --> 04:12:53.600
even though I'm just sitting in a chair. And there's

1729
04:12:53.680 --> 04:12:58.920
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1730
04:13:00.000 --> 04:13:02.600
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1731
04:13:02.840 --> 04:13:08.760
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1732
04:13:09.680 --> 04:13:30.920
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1733
04:13:31.000 --> 04:13:38.879
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1734
04:13:40.719 --> 04:14:07.000
to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1735
04:14:11.639 --> 04:14:39.680
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1736
04:14:39.799 --> 04:14:45.159
count down from five down to one, and as a countdown,

1737
04:14:46.440 --> 04:14:51.200
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1738
04:14:52.840 --> 04:15:01.840
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1739
04:15:03.600 --> 04:15:08.000
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1740
04:15:08.159 --> 04:15:21.200
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1741
04:15:21.319 --> 04:15:29.639
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1742
04:15:29.719 --> 04:15:35.719
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1743
04:15:36.399 --> 04:15:53.479
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

1744
04:16:03.000 --> 04:16:38.760
three two one. Now, as you notice the gradual letting

1745
04:16:38.879 --> 04:16:47.360
go of the tension in your body, you may also

1746
04:16:47.920 --> 04:16:53.399
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1747
04:16:54.520 --> 04:17:02.399
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1748
04:17:03.280 --> 04:17:11.200
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1749
04:17:11.319 --> 04:17:16.600
just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1750
04:17:17.360 --> 04:17:22.239
starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the

1751
04:17:22.360 --> 04:17:27.799
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1752
04:17:33.840 --> 04:17:42.360
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1753
04:17:42.520 --> 04:17:48.120
even even if there's background sounds either your side or mind,

1754
04:17:49.840 --> 04:17:55.760
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1755
04:17:55.799 --> 04:18:00.479
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1756
04:18:00.559 --> 04:18:03.760
background unless you're listening to the recording. With music, of course,

1757
04:18:08.639 --> 04:18:10.799
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1758
04:18:10.920 --> 04:18:14.040
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1759
04:18:15.360 --> 04:18:18.600
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1760
04:18:18.719 --> 04:18:30.040
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1761
04:18:30.120 --> 04:18:47.280
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1762
04:18:47.319 --> 04:18:56.079
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1763
04:18:56.200 --> 04:19:08.319
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1764
04:19:10.680 --> 04:19:21.360
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1765
04:19:21.479 --> 04:19:28.360
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1766
04:19:28.520 --> 04:19:32.360
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1767
04:19:32.479 --> 04:19:44.120
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1768
04:19:44.559 --> 04:19:54.760
the process of this recording and others is simply two.

1769
04:19:56.360 --> 04:20:03.280
Allow you to take it of advantage of this space

1770
04:20:05.959 --> 04:20:18.920
this time, to just let go, to just be here,

1771
04:20:20.360 --> 04:20:33.280
to be in tune with how you feel, yet with

1772
04:20:34.040 --> 04:20:45.840
the intention of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even

1773
04:20:47.520 --> 04:20:51.920
to fall asleep, depending on what it is that you

1774
04:20:53.040 --> 04:21:06.159
wish for yourself in this moment. As we know, relaxing

1775
04:21:07.840 --> 04:21:15.959
is the majority of the process of falling asleep. The

1776
04:21:16.040 --> 04:21:20.159
actual falling asleep part is a tiny bit at the end.

1777
04:21:23.520 --> 04:21:38.200
The deeper relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1778
04:21:47.799 --> 04:21:54.399
You can also, if you choose stay focused on my

1779
04:21:54.600 --> 04:22:22.600
voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each

1780
04:22:23.120 --> 04:22:49.680
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

1781
04:22:55.000 --> 04:23:10.639
of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count

1782
04:23:10.719 --> 04:23:20.760
from six down to one, and you can notice your

1783
04:23:20.959 --> 04:23:31.280
mind calming down more with each number that you hear

1784
04:23:31.639 --> 04:26:19.959
me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful. Six, five, four, three, two, one,

1785
04:26:41.079 --> 04:26:50.639
being aware of hell your mind to slow right down,

1786
04:26:53.920 --> 04:27:17.280
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1787
04:27:17.600 --> 04:27:27.559
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1788
04:27:30.120 --> 04:27:39.680
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1789
04:27:39.760 --> 04:27:54.959
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

1790
04:27:55.200 --> 04:28:08.479
to those thoughts. Spring all those thoughts with love, like

1791
04:28:08.639 --> 04:28:12.680
all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1792
04:28:14.120 --> 04:28:21.239
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1793
04:28:21.479 --> 04:28:27.920
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them. You just

1794
04:28:28.399 --> 04:28:38.440
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1795
04:28:40.760 --> 04:28:55.639
quiet down for now. So as you focus on those

1796
04:28:56.399 --> 04:29:02.399
remaining thoughts as we count down time from seven down

1797
04:29:02.479 --> 04:29:11.559
to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower

1798
04:29:11.719 --> 04:29:30.760
petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which will

1799
04:29:30.799 --> 04:29:40.760
allow them to just melt away and relax deeply. With

1800
04:29:40.959 --> 04:29:55.159
every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

1801
04:30:00.760 --> 04:32:31.920
starting with number seven, six, five, four, three one. And

1802
04:32:32.120 --> 04:32:49.559
as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body,

1803
04:32:57.920 --> 04:33:11.159
were going to focus on your hands, because the more

1804
04:33:11.240 --> 04:33:18.319
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1805
04:33:18.599 --> 04:33:40.159
mind are. And you focus on your hands and your fingers,

1806
04:33:45.680 --> 04:33:50.439
there's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

1807
04:33:50.759 --> 04:33:55.080
fists or tents in the fingers or anything like that.

1808
04:34:02.520 --> 04:34:16.759
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

1809
04:34:16.880 --> 04:34:41.560
they feel, because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

1810
04:34:41.840 --> 04:34:51.200
calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

1811
04:34:53.319 --> 04:35:23.479
throughout your body. You may have already noticed you're mind

1812
04:35:26.759 --> 04:35:56.520
is starting to dress fai, just on your hands and fingers,

1813
04:36:01.479 --> 04:36:15.240
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

1814
04:36:17.000 --> 04:36:34.880
in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With

1815
04:36:35.080 --> 04:36:53.720
each number from eight down to one, you can almost

1816
04:36:55.560 --> 04:37:04.520
feel that healing and relax an energy spreading into your

1817
04:37:04.720 --> 04:37:24.520
hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with each number

1818
04:37:26.919 --> 04:37:46.680
you hear, going down eight down to one, drifting, drifting again,

1819
04:37:51.639 --> 04:41:52.319
starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three, just

1820
04:41:52.560 --> 04:42:01.560
being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1821
04:42:03.200 --> 04:42:17.119
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1822
04:42:17.439 --> 04:42:25.000
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1823
04:42:25.319 --> 04:42:32.240
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1824
04:42:32.599 --> 04:42:39.560
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1825
04:42:39.759 --> 04:42:55.919
worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1826
04:42:58.159 --> 04:43:02.080
You take that away, which is what we do. What

1827
04:43:02.200 --> 04:43:14.599
we do now you're left with a real sense of

1828
04:43:15.520 --> 04:43:27.880
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's

1829
04:43:28.119 --> 04:43:41.599
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

1830
04:43:41.639 --> 04:43:45.759
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

1831
04:43:45.880 --> 04:43:59.520
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

1832
04:43:59.639 --> 04:44:10.319
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

1833
04:44:10.360 --> 04:44:19.159
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

1834
04:44:20.159 --> 04:44:25.240
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

1835
04:44:25.319 --> 04:44:35.680
to please anybody else ever, A place where you can

1836
04:44:37.400 --> 04:44:46.159
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1837
04:44:46.759 --> 04:45:03.840
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

1838
04:45:03.959 --> 04:45:17.599
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

1839
04:45:17.720 --> 04:45:26.040
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

1840
04:45:26.639 --> 04:45:41.520
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

1841
04:45:46.439 --> 04:45:55.400
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

1842
04:45:55.759 --> 04:46:07.759
each and every single part of your body, and you

1843
04:46:07.919 --> 04:46:14.840
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

1844
04:46:15.200 --> 04:46:22.639
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

1845
04:46:27.560 --> 04:46:34.200
and that spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

1846
04:46:39.479 --> 04:46:45.720
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

1847
04:46:47.799 --> 04:46:59.759
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1848
04:46:59.840 --> 04:47:09.319
realize to actually what's happening now with that healing, relaxing

1849
04:47:10.439 --> 04:47:23.680
energy spreading through your body's actually changing your life. It's

1850
04:47:23.759 --> 04:47:29.279
actually changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

1851
04:47:31.119 --> 04:47:37.919
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1852
04:47:41.520 --> 04:47:48.840
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1853
04:47:49.240 --> 04:47:54.479
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1854
04:47:55.680 --> 04:48:03.240
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1855
04:48:03.360 --> 04:48:15.040
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1856
04:48:15.080 --> 04:48:25.520
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1857
04:48:26.439 --> 04:48:34.439
power to control you the way they seem to be

1858
04:48:34.520 --> 04:48:43.599
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

1859
04:48:45.639 --> 04:48:57.400
who decides what affects you, You're the one who decides

1860
04:49:00.200 --> 04:49:11.240
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

1861
04:49:12.799 --> 04:49:28.319
noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to grow and

1862
04:49:28.520 --> 04:49:39.799
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

1863
04:49:39.919 --> 04:49:57.279
ability to relax so much easier. And sleeping is the

1864
04:49:57.400 --> 04:50:08.240
most natural thing in the world to you, because falling

1865
04:50:08.360 --> 04:50:16.799
asleep is something that you've done so many times in

1866
04:50:16.919 --> 04:50:24.040
your life, and you know that you were born, as

1867
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we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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We were born with that ability to just drift off

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into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids sometimes

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will fall sleep when we don't even want to try

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to take a stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

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the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something we

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look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

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But the more we want to stay awake, the more

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we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

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the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

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a sleepe, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

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we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

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and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birth right,

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it's part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get

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older in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that

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relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's

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also really easy. It's very very easy to let go,

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because that's all it is. It's just deciding to let go.

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And when you press the play button on my recordings,

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you have given permission for my voice to relax you.

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When you press that play button, you have given me

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04:53:38.720 --> 04:53:50.439
permission for my words to affect you in a positive

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only a positive way, up your mind. Two useful and

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healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on

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how you feel right now, as well as those changes

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that continue long after the recording ends, those changes within

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04:54:56.360 --> 04:55:09.279
you that continue you to flourish and grow, transforming your

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life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

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forward in your life in the direction that you choose

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for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

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experience a safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice. It's

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such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

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within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're going

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to find that you're more relaxed physically and in your

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04:56:55.319 --> 04:57:05.400
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

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it's just that your mind will be less clogged up

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with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

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From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity

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arises and you can just say stop, stop, and that

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04:57:51.959 --> 04:58:10.919
negativity will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and

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04:58:11.080 --> 04:58:26.200
that negativity would disappear. And as you notice that you

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04:58:27.560 --> 04:58:40.799
feel way more relaxed than you probably expected, you can

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now congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

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You are the one that has opened your mind up

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to the simple fact, you can feel more relaxed in

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your body and in your mind. You've opened your mind

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up to the birthright of being able to just fall

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asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

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Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

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All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

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your mind to spend time a special place where negativity

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can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

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not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

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be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in

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your life, which makes room for more comfort, more more heathing,

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more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

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the let go with everything. I'm gonna count down now

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from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

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If you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every

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number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

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or if you choose, you can fell twice as sleeping

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now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five. Oh,

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this is your time to just take a break, your

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time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

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to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

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And you're the only person that can make that decision.

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You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

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to just relax, to just take some time off so

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that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

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with how you feel physically. And in the process of

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this body scan, where you focus on different parts of

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your body, those parts that you focus on and observe,

1939
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even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

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your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect

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when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

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because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

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on my words, and as my words guide you to

1944
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focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

1945
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which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

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your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

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mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

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focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

1949
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energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

1950
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healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

1951
05:10:37.479 --> 05:10:44.360
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1952
05:10:45.799 --> 05:10:52.520
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

1953
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every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

1954
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And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

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feeling of comfort and relaxation increases deeply, increases in a

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way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

1957
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because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

1958
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if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

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and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you'll get.

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If what you need is to fall asleep naturally and

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easily as your mind drifts, that's also what will happen.

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Because by pressing that play button on the podcast and

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listening to me, you give permission for your body and

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your mind. In fact, you give the command to your

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body and your mind to relax deeply and to drift

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off to sleep if that's what you want or need.

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So I focus on the different parts of your body.

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You may start to just drift, and then you come

1969
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back again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing

1970
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on a different part of your body, and you may

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find yourself drifting. You don't realize you're drifting. Until you

1972
05:14:44.439 --> 05:14:52.759
stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice, focusing

1973
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on a different part of your body, starts to relax

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even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already into

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sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer you drift,

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and the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

1977
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and that's the last you remember until you wake up

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in your own time, when you experience the right amount

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of sleep for you, because when you do and if

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you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so

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deep healing sleep. I'm going to feel so nice to

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relax into your own body and mind as you feel

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that healing energy is spreading through you, relaxing use so deeply,

1984
05:17:00.880 --> 05:17:16.759
relaxing is so so deeply. As we start to focus

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05:17:18.639 --> 05:17:40.840
on your eyes, moving down to your jaw, down to

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05:17:41.000 --> 05:18:29.360
your neck, your shoulders, arms, hand, fingers, you chest, stomach,

1987
05:18:36.680 --> 05:19:11.200
you're back, his spine, you hips, your legs, your feet,

1988
05:19:20.040 --> 05:19:48.560
your toes, and I'm feeling isetings spreading and growing inside

1989
05:19:48.880 --> 05:20:02.439
your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again on

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parts of your body, focusing this time on your forehead.

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Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

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05:20:26.279 --> 05:20:48.040
of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

1993
05:20:48.200 --> 05:20:53.720
could move your fingers a little bit. You can focus

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on each one individually, both hands, and even though if

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05:21:08.439 --> 05:21:13.680
you focus on both of your hands now they almost

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05:21:13.759 --> 05:21:22.319
seemed to just melt into one. Where is your right hand?

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05:21:22.520 --> 05:21:32.439
Start in your left hand end, almost as if just

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mixed together. Now, focusing on your knees, just noticing how

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05:21:49.360 --> 05:22:13.400
your knees fell. Now, focusing on your elbows. Focusing on

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05:22:13.599 --> 05:22:52.959
both of your elbows. Just observing the feeling of your elbows. Now,

2001
05:22:53.400 --> 05:23:11.080
focusing observing the back of your neck, feeling the energy

2002
05:23:13.560 --> 05:24:00.119
on the back of your neck, absurd your ankles. Be

2003
05:24:00.560 --> 05:25:15.799
aware of physical sensations in your ankles. Noticin now your toes,

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05:25:19.119 --> 05:25:33.520
on both of your feet, being aware how your toes

2005
05:25:36.279 --> 05:26:27.959
feel right now, notice sin how your entire body feels.

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Noticing your mind feels.

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Now.

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Letting go, letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go,

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letting go everything everything. I'm going to start now, and

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I would like you, just, first of all, just to

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05:28:32.360 --> 05:28:40.279
see yourself lying down on that message table, lying on

2012
05:28:40.360 --> 05:28:45.360
your front. Your head is supported, your arms are supported

2013
05:28:49.880 --> 05:28:56.080
and you feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and

2014
05:28:56.279 --> 05:29:03.080
you feel you feel confident in how you look as well.

2015
05:29:03.240 --> 05:29:07.880
So there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness,

2016
05:29:08.759 --> 05:29:16.919
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

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so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

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This is about how you feel and how you can

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enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

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05:29:42.759 --> 05:29:48.400
letting go and allowing my hands and my fingers to

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05:29:48.560 --> 05:30:00.919
relax you by a message your body starts off just

2022
05:30:01.000 --> 05:30:05.759
by placing my hands on the back of your head,

2023
05:30:07.240 --> 05:30:10.919
just gently, just so you can feel what my hands

2024
05:30:12.319 --> 05:30:19.319
feel like really on you, so you can maybe feel

2025
05:30:19.360 --> 05:30:21.680
the warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

2026
05:30:25.040 --> 05:30:27.240
And with my hands to the side of your head,

2027
05:30:28.240 --> 05:30:34.799
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

2028
05:30:34.880 --> 05:30:38.560
your ears, and a little bit on your face, just

2029
05:30:38.639 --> 05:30:44.080
so you can feel my hands so you can become

2030
05:30:44.159 --> 05:30:57.159
accustomed to them. And now put my hands on the

2031
05:30:57.200 --> 05:31:01.919
back of your head again and gently let them slide

2032
05:31:02.000 --> 05:31:14.200
down onto the back of your neck. You can feel

2033
05:31:14.279 --> 05:31:24.279
my hands gently stroking the back of your neck to

2034
05:31:24.360 --> 05:31:30.880
start with, just so you can get used to the

2035
05:31:32.720 --> 05:31:36.279
feeling of my hands on your skin, get accustomed to

2036
05:31:40.279 --> 05:31:45.159
realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine,

2037
05:31:51.560 --> 05:31:55.639
And I'm going to start gently messaging the muscles in

2038
05:31:55.759 --> 05:32:11.560
the back of your neck with both hands. Now, this

2039
05:32:11.720 --> 05:32:17.919
is a very trusting situation, really, because our next is

2040
05:32:18.040 --> 05:32:23.200
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

2041
05:32:23.279 --> 05:32:28.400
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2042
05:32:29.639 --> 05:32:34.080
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

2043
05:32:34.159 --> 05:32:44.080
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

2044
05:32:48.400 --> 05:33:00.279
to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a message the

2045
05:33:00.599 --> 05:33:08.560
sides of your neck. Gently moving from the bottom of

2046
05:33:08.639 --> 05:33:12.360
your neck, it would be sort of near where your

2047
05:33:12.400 --> 05:33:18.119
shoulders start, I guess, all the way up to your jaw,

2048
05:33:19.919 --> 05:33:23.439
your ears kind of area that side of your neck.

2049
05:33:26.200 --> 05:33:28.759
Of course, it's a lot longer than the front of

2050
05:33:28.840 --> 05:33:44.919
your neck. And then message in the back of your neck,

2051
05:33:48.759 --> 05:33:57.560
especially that area where perhaps we hold tension. And as

2052
05:33:57.639 --> 05:34:02.279
that area's message, you can actually feel a sense of

2053
05:34:02.439 --> 05:34:10.479
release in the back of your neck and maybe you

2054
05:34:10.639 --> 05:34:15.959
can breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels.

2055
05:34:16.200 --> 05:34:28.840
Notice how you feel. And then moving down to that

2056
05:34:29.040 --> 05:34:34.360
area between your neck and your shoulders, that muscle area

2057
05:34:37.080 --> 05:34:44.520
starting to message that area on both sides. I mean,

2058
05:34:44.560 --> 05:34:46.880
this would be the area that a lot of people

2059
05:34:46.919 --> 05:34:49.799
would message if they were going to give you, like

2060
05:34:49.919 --> 05:34:55.799
a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but

2061
05:34:55.959 --> 05:35:00.240
it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from

2062
05:35:00.279 --> 05:35:06.639
the neck and a game that can hold tension and stress,

2063
05:35:07.880 --> 05:35:12.880
and when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful.

2064
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And you decide how deep that message is and just

2065
05:35:31.560 --> 05:35:38.520
allow my knuckles just to dig in, to get to

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05:35:38.639 --> 05:35:48.639
those muscles and to realy relaxed all the time being

2067
05:35:48.919 --> 05:36:06.439
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

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05:36:06.639 --> 05:36:15.159
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

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05:36:15.240 --> 05:36:26.360
your shoulders, and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2070
05:36:26.400 --> 05:36:29.720
a little bit off the table, just to give you

2071
05:36:29.840 --> 05:36:40.240
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently. And

2072
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you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2073
05:36:43.639 --> 05:36:54.599
the sides and the back. Again, this is a path

2074
05:36:54.759 --> 05:37:00.200
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, a

2075
05:37:00.279 --> 05:37:10.479
bit of needing. If if you wish to really release

2076
05:37:10.680 --> 05:37:19.040
the tension to really get into those muscles and you

2077
05:37:19.080 --> 05:37:22.919
can let your fingers in there. You can feel really

2078
05:37:23.159 --> 05:37:32.959
nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly.

2079
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It can all be beneficial to the relaxation. Put the

2080
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muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down your arms.

2081
05:38:06.279 --> 05:38:09.799
We do one arm at a time, starting with your

2082
05:38:09.919 --> 05:38:20.639
right arm. Well, I des I just lift your arm up,

2083
05:38:21.599 --> 05:38:26.680
just hold it to the side of you, that word

2084
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still be attached, and I just message the tops of

2085
05:38:33.360 --> 05:38:49.560
your arms all the way down to your forearms into

2086
05:38:49.639 --> 05:39:13.560
your wrists, gently massaging that parts, the softer part which

2087
05:39:13.680 --> 05:39:20.200
is the underpart of the arm, which leads to the

2088
05:39:20.319 --> 05:39:26.639
crease in your elbow, the inside it's much more sensitive skin.

2089
05:39:36.319 --> 05:39:47.520
Sometimes just having that stroked feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing.

2090
05:39:56.279 --> 05:40:06.880
Now moving down to your right hand, just holding your

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05:40:07.040 --> 05:40:20.200
hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently on

2092
05:40:20.319 --> 05:40:27.520
the back of your hand and stretching your fingers ever

2093
05:40:27.720 --> 05:40:36.520
so lightly at the same time pressing down and massaging

2094
05:40:37.240 --> 05:40:49.919
each finger, and then starting to massage the palms of

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05:40:50.040 --> 05:41:02.520
the hand. Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently,

2096
05:41:07.799 --> 05:41:14.000
and actually having your handheld can really be an emotional

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05:41:14.159 --> 05:41:21.240
experience sometimes even if it is a stranger. So when

2098
05:41:21.279 --> 05:41:25.680
you don't know very well, like a massage person or

2099
05:41:26.200 --> 05:41:39.400
a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice,

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you can feel safe. And as I put that right

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arm back down where it was, did the same with

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05:42:01.240 --> 05:42:13.319
your left arm exactly the same. Massage in the muscles

2103
05:42:14.520 --> 05:42:18.279
and your arm all the way down. Do your rest

2104
05:42:22.400 --> 05:42:32.200
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2105
05:42:32.319 --> 05:42:45.479
as firm as you require. And then massage in your

2106
05:42:45.560 --> 05:43:00.880
left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massage in the palm

2107
05:43:01.759 --> 05:43:19.959
of your left hand, and you can feel so so relaxing,

2108
05:43:27.639 --> 05:43:45.400
so comforting, and I just rest your left down, back down.

2109
05:43:52.959 --> 05:43:59.599
Start to message your back, the biggest part of your body,

2110
05:44:04.680 --> 05:44:11.599
starting at the top, starting again where he already have been,

2111
05:44:12.360 --> 05:44:17.000
the area at the top in between his shoulders, near

2112
05:44:17.119 --> 05:44:22.279
your neck. Going back, the massage in that area again,

2113
05:44:23.400 --> 05:44:37.119
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

2114
05:44:37.159 --> 05:44:43.680
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards.

2115
05:44:45.119 --> 05:44:52.319
A massage in the your back, but the the outsides

2116
05:44:52.639 --> 05:45:02.200
of your back, the parts where your arms will maybe

2117
05:45:02.680 --> 05:45:15.360
rest against, almost the path that connects your front to

2118
05:45:15.560 --> 05:45:33.479
your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently, as firm

2119
05:45:33.560 --> 05:45:41.759
as you want, moving down and moving across a little bit,

2120
05:45:41.759 --> 05:45:45.720
and moving all the way down again. Be very gentle

2121
05:45:47.520 --> 05:45:58.720
yet firm as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine.

2122
05:46:00.119 --> 05:46:03.799
We can message the muscles and either side of your

2123
05:46:03.880 --> 05:46:07.759
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2124
05:46:07.919 --> 05:46:19.000
down to your lower back. We can do that a

2125
05:46:19.119 --> 05:46:30.360
few times. Sometimes people use the knuckle or the two

2126
05:46:30.560 --> 05:46:36.360
fingers and just go your side of the spine almost

2127
05:46:36.799 --> 05:46:39.840
just push down, go all the way down to the

2128
05:46:39.880 --> 05:46:48.479
bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening

2129
05:46:48.599 --> 05:46:57.639
up the body, stretching your body so that you feel

2130
05:46:58.400 --> 05:47:15.840
more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now

2131
05:47:15.919 --> 05:47:19.759
I'm going to move to one side, to your right side,

2132
05:47:24.599 --> 05:47:29.119
that from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis.

2133
05:47:30.200 --> 05:47:36.439
I'm going to massage that area of your back. I'll

2134
05:47:36.560 --> 05:47:39.560
stretch over the other side and I will pull the

2135
05:47:39.720 --> 05:47:46.520
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

2136
05:47:46.759 --> 05:47:51.159
side or right to my side in the middle of

2137
05:47:51.279 --> 05:47:56.799
fact to where your spine is. Massage in that side

2138
05:47:56.880 --> 05:48:03.799
of your spine the opposite side to where understanding. It's

2139
05:48:03.840 --> 05:48:09.759
almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which is

2140
05:48:11.279 --> 05:48:21.560
firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the

2141
05:48:21.639 --> 05:48:28.279
most important places to actually have a message, because you

2142
05:48:28.599 --> 05:48:34.240
really feel it. You really feel the release and the

2143
05:48:34.360 --> 05:48:42.799
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2144
05:48:43.119 --> 05:48:51.560
much from your body that's not useful, starting a healing

2145
05:48:51.720 --> 05:48:57.279
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2146
05:49:06.599 --> 05:49:09.479
The message in this part of your body not only

2147
05:49:09.599 --> 05:49:14.360
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2148
05:49:15.799 --> 05:49:21.479
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread, it's

2149
05:49:21.560 --> 05:49:25.400
a part that you can really get hold of and

2150
05:49:25.599 --> 05:49:39.080
really massage deeply if that's your choice. And then I'm

2151
05:49:39.119 --> 05:49:40.919
going to move over to the other side of your

2152
05:49:40.959 --> 05:49:50.200
body and do the same with the opposite part of

2153
05:49:50.360 --> 05:49:57.520
your lawer bag. Kneading and messaging from your sides all

2154
05:49:57.560 --> 05:50:04.400
the way to the middle of your back where your

2155
05:50:04.479 --> 05:50:18.000
spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the

2156
05:50:18.119 --> 05:50:33.200
same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2157
05:50:33.560 --> 05:50:45.200
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2158
05:50:45.279 --> 05:50:50.400
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2159
05:50:50.520 --> 05:50:54.799
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2160
05:50:54.959 --> 05:51:06.319
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2161
05:51:06.400 --> 05:51:11.319
to move or move further up to your top of

2162
05:51:11.400 --> 05:51:15.840
your body, and I we do the same this time

2163
05:51:17.159 --> 05:51:23.959
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2164
05:51:25.240 --> 05:51:31.439
and mess it massage in that area up to your spine,

2165
05:51:32.639 --> 05:51:35.240
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2166
05:51:37.040 --> 05:51:43.200
So some of that massage area, the muscle tissue or

2167
05:51:43.240 --> 05:51:47.240
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2168
05:51:49.080 --> 05:51:56.479
because all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm

2169
05:51:56.560 --> 05:51:59.720
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2170
05:52:00.040 --> 05:52:10.680
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

2171
05:52:10.799 --> 05:52:19.240
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2172
05:52:19.360 --> 05:52:22.080
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2173
05:52:22.240 --> 05:52:25.080
the middle of your back doing exactly the same thing

2174
05:52:29.000 --> 05:52:42.799
as gentle, as deep as you choose. Now, I'll move

2175
05:52:42.959 --> 05:52:47.119
or the other side again and do the exact same

2176
05:52:47.319 --> 05:52:51.279
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

2177
05:52:52.360 --> 05:53:06.400
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2178
05:53:11.479 --> 05:53:18.319
and then continuing that all the way down, including the

2179
05:53:18.439 --> 05:53:35.759
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

2180
05:53:35.919 --> 05:53:42.520
your thighs, the backs of your thighs and the sides

2181
05:53:42.599 --> 05:53:52.040
of your thighs, starting with your right leg and massage

2182
05:53:52.200 --> 05:54:01.720
in the back and the sides of your thighs gently

2183
05:54:02.040 --> 05:54:07.880
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2184
05:54:07.959 --> 05:54:11.520
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2185
05:54:12.240 --> 05:54:14.680
needs a little bit more pressure than the rest of

2186
05:54:14.759 --> 05:54:23.360
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2187
05:54:23.479 --> 05:54:30.400
the back of your legs where you know, opposite your

2188
05:54:30.479 --> 05:54:38.319
knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area,

2189
05:54:45.279 --> 05:54:52.400
and then working down to your calf muscles. Massage in

2190
05:54:52.520 --> 05:55:01.759
your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using

2191
05:55:01.840 --> 05:55:20.720
both hands and fingers, stigging deep to your ankles. In

2192
05:55:20.840 --> 05:55:27.040
the back of your back of your ankles, just gently

2193
05:55:27.240 --> 05:55:39.599
message in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2194
05:55:39.639 --> 05:56:02.240
out a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage

2195
05:56:02.360 --> 05:56:11.479
in the bottom of your feet and the sides of

2196
05:56:11.599 --> 05:56:22.840
your feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2197
05:56:28.400 --> 05:56:33.840
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

2198
05:56:33.919 --> 05:56:43.319
your feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue

2199
05:56:43.439 --> 05:56:50.040
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2200
05:56:52.680 --> 05:56:58.360
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2201
05:56:58.479 --> 05:57:04.319
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2202
05:57:04.560 --> 05:57:12.599
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2203
05:57:12.759 --> 05:57:19.200
toes gently, the massage in the bottoms of your toes

2204
05:57:19.959 --> 05:57:35.240
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2205
05:57:35.400 --> 05:57:44.799
left leg to do exactly the same thing. Starting at

2206
05:57:44.840 --> 05:57:49.279
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2207
05:57:49.360 --> 05:57:56.919
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently, a

2208
05:57:57.080 --> 05:58:11.119
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2209
05:58:11.200 --> 05:58:17.319
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2210
05:58:17.439 --> 05:58:26.080
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

2211
05:58:26.159 --> 05:58:31.439
a bigger future recording wants, spend more time on one

2212
05:58:31.560 --> 05:58:43.400
particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

2213
05:58:49.400 --> 05:59:02.799
massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, move down

2214
05:59:05.119 --> 05:59:11.479
your aincor into your feet. Massage in the backs of

2215
05:59:11.560 --> 05:59:22.000
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes

2216
05:59:22.360 --> 05:59:28.639
and massage in each tone individually. And then feeling of

2217
05:59:28.840 --> 05:59:34.720
pleasure and release that you experience when your having your

2218
05:59:34.840 --> 05:59:56.040
feet massaged feels really good. Now, if she turn over

2219
05:59:56.279 --> 06:00:07.279
in your mind, laying on your back, I'm just gonna

2220
06:00:07.319 --> 06:00:24.400
start again for your neck area in your shoulders, just

2221
06:00:24.560 --> 06:00:35.000
to get back in touch with that area. And as

2222
06:00:35.119 --> 06:00:46.759
you move up, I can clean my hands, make them

2223
06:00:46.799 --> 06:00:52.439
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

2224
06:00:56.799 --> 06:01:06.919
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed, and

2225
06:01:08.040 --> 06:01:13.840
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2226
06:01:14.000 --> 06:01:30.840
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging

2227
06:01:31.040 --> 06:01:41.319
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw, gently

2228
06:01:46.279 --> 06:02:04.240
the sides of your neck, your chin. Then just moving

2229
06:02:04.439 --> 06:02:15.599
down from your neck down to your chest, starting by

2230
06:02:15.759 --> 06:02:22.880
message in the very top of your chest where the

2231
06:02:23.000 --> 06:02:36.599
collar phone is either side of the collarbone, and then

2232
06:02:36.799 --> 06:02:49.240
just message in the hole of the chest, moving the

2233
06:02:49.400 --> 06:03:02.759
chest around, because it's quite a lot large area. You

2234
06:03:02.840 --> 06:03:10.599
can move from one side to the next, moving my

2235
06:03:10.840 --> 06:03:21.560
hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2236
06:03:23.720 --> 06:03:26.759
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2237
06:03:32.040 --> 06:03:40.680
moving up over your chest, and they're moving down again

2238
06:03:53.400 --> 06:03:58.119
a little aloud. My hands the just massage gently and

2239
06:03:58.400 --> 06:04:05.119
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2240
06:04:05.240 --> 06:04:14.799
your chest, and then gradually my hand's moving apart and

2241
06:04:15.159 --> 06:04:21.159
massage in and sliding at the same time, moving down

2242
06:04:25.080 --> 06:04:40.400
to just below your rid cage, moving down, then massaging

2243
06:04:40.560 --> 06:04:49.200
up again, giving your chest all the attention that it

2244
06:04:49.360 --> 06:05:03.880
needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering them I'm also going

2245
06:05:03.959 --> 06:05:09.439
to be focusing on your sides as well, an area

2246
06:05:09.599 --> 06:05:15.759
that really doesn't get much attention but feels really good

2247
06:05:16.959 --> 06:05:26.319
when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides

2248
06:05:26.400 --> 06:05:33.080
of your body, just below your arms, all the way

2249
06:05:33.200 --> 06:05:46.319
down to your hips. Now moving to your stomach area,

2250
06:05:48.360 --> 06:05:51.759
I'm going to stand one side of you like I

2251
06:05:51.840 --> 06:05:56.360
did when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do

2252
06:05:56.400 --> 06:06:01.799
a similar process of just stretching hm the muscles from

2253
06:06:01.840 --> 06:06:15.279
your side, gently massaging from one side to the next,

2254
06:06:17.599 --> 06:06:24.400
move in the whole area from below your ribs all

2255
06:06:24.479 --> 06:06:34.880
the way down to below your belly button, and then

2256
06:06:35.119 --> 06:06:38.319
move around to the other side of you and repeat

2257
06:06:38.400 --> 06:06:58.200
that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you

2258
06:06:58.360 --> 06:07:04.319
feel free, And it's something about having your stomach massage

2259
06:07:05.560 --> 06:07:12.240
that's different from any other part because we do have

2260
06:07:12.400 --> 06:07:16.840
a tendency of holding a different kind of stress in

2261
06:07:16.959 --> 06:07:26.439
our stomach that we may not be aware of. There's

2262
06:07:26.520 --> 06:07:32.040
an our message your stomach in front of your stomach,

2263
06:07:33.959 --> 06:07:44.959
making circles around your belly button and then going the

2264
06:07:45.040 --> 06:07:54.840
other way around. There's a gentleness and a freedom that

2265
06:07:55.080 --> 06:08:06.439
comes from feeling how you're feeling. As I now move

2266
06:08:06.959 --> 06:08:14.040
down the tops of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them,

2267
06:08:15.599 --> 06:08:19.000
and I can do this two legs at the same time,

2268
06:08:21.200 --> 06:08:30.560
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, at

2269
06:08:30.680 --> 06:08:39.360
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2270
06:08:40.319 --> 06:08:52.959
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2271
06:08:53.040 --> 06:09:00.799
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2272
06:09:04.959 --> 06:09:14.639
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2273
06:09:20.799 --> 06:09:26.200
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2274
06:09:26.439 --> 06:09:34.759
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2275
06:09:35.560 --> 06:09:43.840
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2276
06:09:43.959 --> 06:09:53.680
your feet. Feels so good, Just to let go and

2277
06:09:53.959 --> 06:10:18.840
enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

2278
06:10:19.040 --> 06:10:26.000
and so many feelings that come just from touching your skin.

2279
06:10:36.720 --> 06:10:42.680
And you can just lie there for as long as

2280
06:10:42.759 --> 06:10:55.319
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being

2281
06:10:55.479 --> 06:11:27.240
massaged by me. Enjoy fear deeply. Right, and all we're

2282
06:11:27.279 --> 06:11:36.439
gonna do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

2283
06:11:48.040 --> 06:11:58.560
there are gonna be a hundred candles, and you're gonna

2284
06:11:58.599 --> 06:12:08.799
blow each one out individually, one by one, starting at

2285
06:12:08.840 --> 06:12:17.400
one hundred. As I count down all the way down

2286
06:12:17.479 --> 06:12:30.319
to one, and each time I say a number, you

2287
06:12:30.479 --> 06:12:37.439
can imagine that candle in front of you, and I'd

2288
06:12:37.560 --> 06:12:47.000
like you to actually physically generally blow that candle out,

2289
06:12:53.319 --> 06:13:01.000
just so it's not big blow, it's just a gentle,

2290
06:13:05.439 --> 06:13:14.880
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

2291
06:13:15.040 --> 06:13:22.159
next number as we move down, and you can just

2292
06:13:23.759 --> 06:13:34.439
h blow that one out as well. And as we

2293
06:13:34.680 --> 06:13:45.040
move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and

2294
06:13:45.240 --> 06:13:53.639
more relaxed, and if you need to sleep, you'll also

2295
06:13:53.840 --> 06:14:05.400
find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you

2296
06:14:05.599 --> 06:14:15.799
may struggle to blow out all one hundred of these

2297
06:14:16.040 --> 06:14:40.959
candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed, more

2298
06:14:41.279 --> 06:14:58.639
and more deeply tired, and the further you go down,

2299
06:15:01.279 --> 06:15:14.919
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2300
06:15:15.319 --> 06:15:29.680
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2301
06:15:29.919 --> 06:15:34.080
even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2302
06:15:38.959 --> 06:15:50.159
you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment, be

2303
06:15:50.520 --> 06:16:05.720
may start to just not even notice them at all

2304
06:16:08.520 --> 06:16:22.520
because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

2305
06:16:22.599 --> 06:16:29.360
of the birds. There's horrors. The pigeon who likes to

2306
06:16:29.479 --> 06:16:36.040
say hello sometimes and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2307
06:16:39.080 --> 06:16:52.479
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, But none of

2308
06:16:52.560 --> 06:17:04.759
that scene is important whatsoever. More candles you blow out,

2309
06:17:06.599 --> 06:17:19.360
the less important anything is. More candles you blow out,

2310
06:17:23.560 --> 06:17:39.560
the further seemed to move away from sounds and from

2311
06:17:39.959 --> 06:17:54.319
general date days. Stuff seems to just move away on

2312
06:17:54.520 --> 06:18:10.400
its own. Mhm. You feel more calma with every candle

2313
06:18:10.599 --> 06:18:30.240
you blow out, guiding you the next number. Do you

2314
06:18:30.479 --> 06:18:41.680
hear me say? And then you blow that candle out too?

2315
06:18:49.840 --> 06:19:13.319
So easy, so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the

2316
06:19:13.599 --> 06:19:31.880
first candle, which is a hundred. First candles one hundred.

2317
06:19:36.799 --> 06:19:50.959
When you blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a

2318
06:19:51.599 --> 06:20:05.560
slight change in how you feel, as well as a

2319
06:20:05.720 --> 06:20:27.919
real sense of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding.

2320
06:20:36.680 --> 06:21:06.599
Starting with one hundred, blow out back candle now ninety nine,

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06:21:25.040 --> 06:23:02.000
candle ninety eight, cand ninety seven, need to see, candle

2322
06:23:06.759 --> 06:24:35.400
ninety five, hand ninety four, candle ninety three, ten nine

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06:24:35.919 --> 06:25:57.119
two and ninety one ten to ninety and eighteen nine

2324
06:26:14.479 --> 06:29:25.119
and eighty eight and eighties candle eighties eight five han

2325
06:29:40.959 --> 06:33:06.240
hand En eighty two and two one candle seventy nine,

2326
06:33:19.400 --> 06:34:13.319
candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle

2327
06:34:17.000 --> 06:35:18.479
seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two,

2328
06:35:31.040 --> 06:36:43.520
candle seventy one, candle seventy one and seventy and sixty nine,

2329
06:36:53.360 --> 06:37:41.279
Candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

2330
06:37:46.880 --> 06:38:47.119
sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty

2331
06:39:02.279 --> 06:40:39.520
and sixty one, candle sixty fifty nine, handle fifty eight,

2332
06:40:50.400 --> 06:42:15.919
candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle

2333
06:42:19.919 --> 06:43:07.400
fifty four, handle fifty three, ten.

2334
06:43:10.520 --> 06:44:46.680
Fifty two, fifty two, han toft, candle.

2335
06:44:50.200 --> 06:46:23.319
Fifty one, candle fifty, candle foty nine, cano fot he ate,

2336
06:47:00.680 --> 06:48:40.520
candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five and

2337
06:48:45.639 --> 06:50:56.080
forty two, candle who to candle forty, candle thirty nine

2338
06:51:30.159 --> 06:52:55.119
and two thirty eight, candle thirty seven, candle thirty five,

2339
06:53:38.639 --> 06:55:45.360
eight thirty four, handle thirty three, handle thirty one, candle

2340
06:55:49.599 --> 06:58:54.520
thirty handle twenty eighteen nine, candle twenty eight and twenty seven,

2341
06:59:32.439 --> 07:01:09.560
twenty six candle twenty five and two win tief four

2342
07:01:43.759 --> 07:03:08.000
end of twenty three and twin cheap and twenty want

2343
07:03:42.799 --> 07:06:39.799
and to winy en can do ninety chendle, seventeen sixteen

2344
07:07:32.119 --> 07:10:41.479
chancel fourteen and two well ooh and uh eleven ye

2345
07:11:48.319 --> 07:15:59.200
shame nine ten to eight n six jam cano and

2346
07:17:08.360 --> 07:18:24.000
seven two candle or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2347
07:18:24.319 --> 07:18:30.400
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2348
07:18:31.880 --> 07:18:36.240
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2349
07:18:36.319 --> 07:18:42.560
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2350
07:18:47.439 --> 07:19:02.840
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2351
07:19:07.119 --> 07:19:13.560
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2352
07:19:15.639 --> 07:19:23.759
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2353
07:19:23.840 --> 07:19:28.680
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2354
07:19:28.799 --> 07:19:36.240
effort to set up the right time and place in

2355
07:19:36.479 --> 07:19:42.720
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2356
07:19:42.919 --> 07:19:50.680
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2357
07:19:50.720 --> 07:19:59.439
body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen to

2358
07:19:59.759 --> 07:20:07.000
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2359
07:20:07.080 --> 07:20:14.560
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2360
07:20:14.680 --> 07:20:18.880
nice feeling at the beginning just to know that you

2361
07:20:19.400 --> 07:20:29.639
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2362
07:20:29.759 --> 07:20:38.279
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2363
07:20:38.319 --> 07:20:42.959
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2364
07:20:43.319 --> 07:20:52.560
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2365
07:20:52.799 --> 07:20:57.000
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2366
07:20:57.119 --> 07:21:04.439
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2367
07:21:04.680 --> 07:21:13.080
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2368
07:21:13.200 --> 07:21:18.759
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2369
07:21:23.080 --> 07:21:29.560
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2370
07:21:29.639 --> 07:21:35.959
the say so we need, say okay, it's time for

2371
07:21:36.040 --> 07:21:45.720
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2372
07:21:45.759 --> 07:21:55.240
body just follows. So like a breath of relief. Ah good,

2373
07:21:55.319 --> 07:22:02.680
I can now relax. Feeling at the end of a day,

2374
07:22:02.759 --> 07:22:06.479
of a very physical day that you may experience in

2375
07:22:06.560 --> 07:22:10.119
the past. But you get home and you just sit

2376
07:22:10.319 --> 07:22:14.200
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off

2377
07:22:14.319 --> 07:22:20.119
and not Ah feels so nice knowing that you don't

2378
07:22:20.799 --> 07:22:24.159
have to get up again for a little while at

2379
07:22:24.240 --> 07:22:27.919
least if you choose, you can just sit there for

2380
07:22:28.080 --> 07:22:40.799
maybe an hour to it feels blissful. And just by

2381
07:22:41.000 --> 07:22:46.040
sitting down like that, your body knows that it's time

2382
07:22:46.159 --> 07:22:51.479
to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2383
07:22:53.720 --> 07:23:04.000
Because it's a mindset. In your mind, you're prepared to

2384
07:23:04.200 --> 07:23:13.799
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2385
07:23:14.080 --> 07:23:22.840
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2386
07:23:23.240 --> 07:23:42.599
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2387
07:23:42.880 --> 07:23:49.119
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2388
07:23:51.000 --> 07:23:55.639
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2389
07:23:55.759 --> 07:23:59.040
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2390
07:24:00.479 --> 07:24:04.360
spend a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2391
07:24:04.560 --> 07:24:09.599
space to let go completely and relax, they seem are

2392
07:24:09.759 --> 07:24:18.040
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2393
07:24:18.159 --> 07:24:26.720
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2394
07:24:28.720 --> 07:24:35.439
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2395
07:24:39.840 --> 07:24:47.200
to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

2396
07:24:47.479 --> 07:24:55.159
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2397
07:24:55.279 --> 07:25:04.720
button and all the tensions releases, and it's like a wheel,

2398
07:25:05.080 --> 07:25:09.319
like a cog, like the inside of the clock, just unwinding.

2399
07:25:09.959 --> 07:25:13.880
And it's almost like you could see the little wind

2400
07:25:14.000 --> 07:25:19.840
up knob that's used just going the opposite way that

2401
07:25:19.919 --> 07:25:25.840
you choose to wind it up, and the energy that

2402
07:25:26.080 --> 07:25:36.279
premetic stress for energy, gradually winding down, losing its power,

2403
07:25:37.599 --> 07:25:45.000
losing its strength, as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

2404
07:25:46.200 --> 07:25:55.720
and deeper, and you may find a the more relaxed

2405
07:25:57.119 --> 07:26:08.439
you feel, that your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem

2406
07:26:08.520 --> 07:26:12.400
to stop listening to me for a while, and your

2407
07:26:12.520 --> 07:26:18.000
mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening

2408
07:26:18.080 --> 07:26:23.759
to me again, and that is just your mind drifting

2409
07:26:24.119 --> 07:26:34.000
to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're

2410
07:26:36.599 --> 07:26:41.959
stressed and tense, we're not may I actually be aware

2411
07:26:42.279 --> 07:26:48.599
of what we need, what we physically or emotionally need

2412
07:26:49.119 --> 07:26:56.840
in this moment. But when you allow your body and

2413
07:26:57.080 --> 07:27:08.200
mind to relax completely, and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2414
07:27:09.680 --> 07:27:14.240
all letting them go, allow them to drop onto the floor.

2415
07:27:19.520 --> 07:27:25.520
When you start to get in touch with the feelings

2416
07:27:25.680 --> 07:27:37.400
of such relaxation, this feels so nice, to be in

2417
07:27:37.639 --> 07:27:44.360
touch with the calmness of the different body parts as

2418
07:27:44.520 --> 07:27:59.919
they become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easy

2419
07:28:00.119 --> 07:28:10.040
yea and more natural, effortless, as that cool enters through

2420
07:28:10.119 --> 07:28:19.400
your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts

2421
07:28:19.599 --> 07:28:27.919
and relaxation and then just breathing out any excess remain

2422
07:28:28.159 --> 07:28:36.319
intention or stress from every part of your body and mind.

2423
07:28:39.919 --> 07:28:44.520
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2424
07:28:45.040 --> 07:28:53.000
you notice that things come to a standstill or maybe

2425
07:28:53.439 --> 07:29:02.040
just much much lower than before, because your mind is

2426
07:29:02.159 --> 07:29:13.040
not really needed when listening to my voice, which allows

2427
07:29:13.119 --> 07:29:19.040
your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2428
07:29:21.799 --> 07:29:30.080
And that synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and

2429
07:29:32.840 --> 07:29:46.599
relaxation of your mind lets you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

2430
07:29:46.959 --> 07:30:01.159
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2431
07:30:01.439 --> 07:30:13.919
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and

2432
07:30:14.040 --> 07:30:22.720
your life. To be able to let go everything and

2433
07:30:22.959 --> 07:30:33.319
to relax completely in all parts of your body and mind.

2434
07:30:35.680 --> 07:30:44.200
Even your bones has arised, all your muscles are arised,

2435
07:30:51.040 --> 07:31:04.479
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every

2436
07:31:05.119 --> 07:31:22.159
hair that you have is also deeply relaxed. And your

2437
07:31:22.360 --> 07:31:35.799
brain really styles to feel the benefits of this healing relaxation.

2438
07:31:41.119 --> 07:31:47.080
And as you focus on the inside of your scalp

2439
07:31:47.560 --> 07:31:53.360
where your brain is, you can start to realize and

2440
07:31:53.639 --> 07:32:06.680
notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then it's

2441
07:32:06.759 --> 07:32:17.959
your brain continues to relax. It sends those messages to

2442
07:32:18.759 --> 07:32:26.080
the rest of your body and your mind to re

2443
07:32:27.119 --> 07:32:49.040
relax more deeply, relax me more completely, letting go of

2444
07:32:49.599 --> 07:33:01.919
any remaining forces or concerns, allow them just drop onto

2445
07:33:02.040 --> 07:33:10.720
the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment,

2446
07:33:13.000 --> 07:33:25.799
In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling your

2447
07:33:25.919 --> 07:33:50.720
brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of

2448
07:33:50.840 --> 07:34:11.119
your brain, feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed, and

2449
07:34:11.439 --> 07:34:23.759
be peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy

2450
07:34:26.799 --> 07:34:36.840
in that sense of deep deep comfort really does allow

2451
07:34:37.119 --> 07:34:50.599
you to enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort,

2452
07:34:52.319 --> 07:35:05.080
that is spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every

2453
07:35:05.479 --> 07:35:21.720
muscle of your body, eat deeper and deeper, much more

2454
07:35:22.439 --> 07:35:40.159
deeper than before, much more comfort spreading true your body

2455
07:35:40.680 --> 07:35:57.479
in your mind, be so peaceful and calm, so very fair,

2456
07:35:59.200 --> 07:36:10.479
peaceful in avery part of your body, lett him go

2457
07:36:12.520 --> 07:36:29.119
mm hmm, a everything aything, so peaceful and calm, so

2458
07:36:30.000 --> 07:36:44.439
relax a very second the passes you feel.

2459
07:36:46.479 --> 07:37:07.319
Depath, deper relax, deper and deperlax.

2460
07:37:07.840 --> 07:37:23.599
Calm, so calm, peace for so very peace.

2461
07:37:26.360 --> 07:37:35.639
From your head down to your ties. Such peace and

2462
07:37:36.000 --> 07:37:52.439
comfort growing all the time, Such peace and comfort spreading

2463
07:37:53.439 --> 07:38:05.680
through your body and mind deep and deeper, such comforts

2464
07:38:08.200 --> 07:38:18.000
spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle of your body,

2465
07:38:21.639 --> 07:38:35.200
so that you feel amazing, so laxed, so piece so

2466
07:38:40.000 --> 07:39:00.360
so relax and peaceful, letting go everything. You're going to

2467
07:39:00.439 --> 07:39:07.200
do a body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel

2468
07:39:08.119 --> 07:39:12.479
in your body, not trying to change how you feel,

2469
07:39:13.639 --> 07:39:18.599
not trying to relax, not trying to move away from

2470
07:39:18.680 --> 07:39:27.240
any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and

2471
07:39:27.439 --> 07:39:32.040
accepting how you feel in the different parts of your body,

2472
07:39:34.040 --> 07:39:43.119
just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to notice,

2473
07:39:43.880 --> 07:39:52.000
to get in touch with how you actually feel in

2474
07:39:52.159 --> 07:40:02.080
this moment. So I'm going to start off focusing on

2475
07:40:02.240 --> 07:40:14.759
your hands. Just be aware of your hands. I'd like

2476
07:40:14.880 --> 07:40:19.319
you to move your hands around, just maybe move your

2477
07:40:19.520 --> 07:40:26.759
fingers a little bit. I've been enclosing your hands very gently,

2478
07:40:28.400 --> 07:40:34.040
just so that you can get in touch with how

2479
07:40:34.200 --> 07:40:48.400
your hands and your fingers feel, very very slow movements.

2480
07:40:56.799 --> 07:41:04.560
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2481
07:41:04.720 --> 07:41:09.840
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2482
07:41:10.040 --> 07:41:16.240
just done with your hands. Maybe turn in your ankles,

2483
07:41:18.200 --> 07:41:26.560
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently but only

2484
07:41:27.759 --> 07:41:39.599
very gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet fulfill

2485
07:41:41.680 --> 07:41:54.799
in this moment. Focusing now on your eyes, and I'd

2486
07:41:54.919 --> 07:42:01.840
like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you

2487
07:42:01.959 --> 07:42:05.000
can open and close your eyes a couple of times

2488
07:42:06.439 --> 07:42:10.319
to really get in touch with how you feel when

2489
07:42:10.360 --> 07:42:18.439
you do close your eyes. The muscle changes in your

2490
07:42:18.520 --> 07:42:25.159
eyes when you do close them, Maybe raising your eyebrows,

2491
07:42:26.919 --> 07:42:34.720
it stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes,

2492
07:42:38.479 --> 07:42:43.840
scrunching up your eyes just so you can hear it again.

2493
07:42:44.080 --> 07:42:57.560
Touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel right now.

2494
07:43:06.959 --> 07:43:12.959
Now focusing on your thighs, and you know it just

2495
07:43:13.000 --> 07:43:21.360
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2496
07:43:23.680 --> 07:43:34.319
just enough so you can become more atchuned to the

2497
07:43:35.639 --> 07:43:44.119
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2498
07:43:44.400 --> 07:43:55.400
in the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

2499
07:43:57.759 --> 07:44:12.799
your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the

2500
07:44:12.919 --> 07:44:19.799
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2501
07:44:21.240 --> 07:44:26.520
the muscles and of course they lead to the side

2502
07:44:26.599 --> 07:44:30.759
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2503
07:44:30.840 --> 07:44:37.200
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as your

2504
07:44:37.520 --> 07:44:44.400
focus on the back of your neck, maybe can move

2505
07:44:44.520 --> 07:44:52.000
your head gently upwards as if you're looking up. Maybe

2506
07:44:53.240 --> 07:45:00.919
moving your head down as if you're looking down. Perhaps

2507
07:45:01.200 --> 07:45:07.680
moving your head side to side, right to left, only

2508
07:45:09.520 --> 07:45:20.279
very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2509
07:45:22.040 --> 07:45:31.200
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2510
07:45:31.360 --> 07:45:44.840
can be more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations,

2511
07:45:45.040 --> 07:45:54.240
the physical sensations of hound back of your neck feels.

2512
07:45:56.000 --> 07:46:11.400
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2513
07:46:11.520 --> 07:46:17.759
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2514
07:46:17.840 --> 07:46:25.919
are between your elbow and your shoulders. Should focus on

2515
07:46:26.200 --> 07:46:33.360
those parts the tops of your arms. You may like

2516
07:46:33.479 --> 07:46:43.000
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly.

2517
07:46:45.560 --> 07:46:54.520
See you're straining or put in any pressure whatsoever on

2518
07:46:54.680 --> 07:47:04.119
your arms. It's just so the you can gain more

2519
07:47:04.520 --> 07:47:12.680
of a sense of how your upper arms are feeling

2520
07:47:14.919 --> 07:47:26.080
in this moment, and just noticing as you gently, very

2521
07:47:26.360 --> 07:47:35.400
gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2522
07:47:39.680 --> 07:47:48.080
notice how the tops of your arms feel right now.

2523
07:47:56.279 --> 07:48:07.080
As a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2524
07:48:07.200 --> 07:48:13.520
lower abdomen area below your belly, buttton moving all the

2525
07:48:13.599 --> 07:48:27.319
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2526
07:48:27.520 --> 07:48:35.159
you're able to tense these muscles in the area very

2527
07:48:37.400 --> 07:48:50.680
very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing to do,

2528
07:48:51.959 --> 07:49:00.200
and maybe you can just move your body, pushing your

2529
07:49:00.279 --> 07:49:05.119
stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to the side.

2530
07:49:05.639 --> 07:49:13.880
He's your hips, just so you can get more in

2531
07:49:14.240 --> 07:49:28.680
tune with how your lower abdomen area is feeling in

2532
07:49:28.840 --> 07:49:46.720
this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or your lower

2533
07:49:47.040 --> 07:50:11.319
abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth, noticing

2534
07:50:11.560 --> 07:50:20.759
your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns,

2535
07:50:22.159 --> 07:50:37.959
your tongue, just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels.

2536
07:50:38.680 --> 07:50:48.400
And it may help by moving your tongue around your mouth,

2537
07:50:49.919 --> 07:50:56.119
moving it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against

2538
07:50:57.639 --> 07:51:02.119
the side of your mouth, and then to the right,

2539
07:51:03.680 --> 07:51:10.759
gently to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up

2540
07:51:10.880 --> 07:51:17.040
against the top of your mouth, and then down gently

2541
07:51:19.000 --> 07:51:29.880
against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and

2542
07:51:30.000 --> 07:51:44.720
a very very gentle so that you can be aware

2543
07:51:50.000 --> 07:52:12.240
of how you feel in your mouth area. Now I'm

2544
07:52:12.319 --> 07:52:28.200
going to focus on your wrists and I'm gonna ask

2545
07:52:28.400 --> 07:52:37.000
you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your

2546
07:52:37.200 --> 07:52:50.119
hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just

2547
07:52:51.880 --> 07:53:08.759
so that you can feel the sensations that you are

2548
07:53:09.279 --> 07:53:24.639
currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in your hands

2549
07:53:26.319 --> 07:53:50.520
up and down again very very gently and slowly, very

2550
07:53:51.119 --> 07:54:20.759
gentzl and slow as you now start to observe your

2551
07:54:20.959 --> 07:54:32.840
lower back. The bad part is just above your hips,

2552
07:54:37.240 --> 07:54:49.759
where your coxix are a whole area which also really

2553
07:54:49.919 --> 07:54:57.119
does include the signs of your body because those muscles

2554
07:54:57.200 --> 07:55:07.919
are very much connected as those muscles also move into

2555
07:55:08.040 --> 07:55:17.360
your hiperia, connecting to your buttocks the sides of your hips,

2556
07:55:25.959 --> 07:55:34.240
And if you're physically able to do so, maybe you

2557
07:55:34.439 --> 07:55:44.720
can very gently just move your body ever so slightly,

2558
07:55:47.080 --> 07:56:03.680
very slowly, some side to side, just enough s gauge

2559
07:56:08.919 --> 07:56:22.200
how you feel in your lower back. Perhaps it could

2560
07:56:22.360 --> 07:56:37.599
even move your hips gently up and down gently slowly,

2561
07:56:40.840 --> 07:56:53.360
in order to be in touch with the physical sensations

2562
07:56:55.040 --> 07:56:56.240
of your lower back.

2563
07:57:13.279 --> 07:57:14.000
As we know.

2564
07:57:19.240 --> 07:57:29.880
To your attention to your jaw, an area from your

2565
07:57:30.159 --> 07:57:35.799
chin all the way up to near where your ears are.

2566
07:57:38.959 --> 07:57:54.479
Oh of your jaw, you can just, yeah, it's okay

2567
07:57:54.680 --> 07:58:05.560
to do so. Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching,

2568
07:58:06.840 --> 07:58:20.680
just very gently and slowly opening your mouthing, closing your

2569
07:58:20.799 --> 07:58:41.720
mouth very gently and slowly, so you can be in

2570
07:58:42.000 --> 07:59:22.159
touch with how your jaw feels now and I to

2571
07:59:22.319 --> 07:59:37.799
sit now the chest area, and you don't need to

2572
07:59:38.000 --> 07:59:46.159
do anything to move your chest because it moves every

2573
07:59:46.319 --> 07:59:59.200
time you breathe, and it moves very gently and slowly

2574
08:00:01.560 --> 08:00:16.680
automatically with each bread he takes. As you focus on

2575
08:00:19.240 --> 08:01:03.200
how your chest feels when you pray, move in your

2576
08:01:03.479 --> 08:01:18.680
focus to your forearms, your elbows. Maybe you're able to

2577
08:01:21.479 --> 08:01:32.639
very gently and slowly tense the muscles in your forearms,

2578
08:01:36.080 --> 08:01:42.720
and when you do that, you can feel your elbows

2579
08:01:42.959 --> 08:02:19.959
as well. Very gently and slowly, gently and softly obsad

2580
08:02:24.479 --> 08:02:58.759
your forearms and delbos. No focus the rest of your back,

2581
08:03:02.919 --> 08:03:25.159
your upper back in the middle, the middle of your back. Again,

2582
08:03:25.840 --> 08:03:36.560
this part of your body moves also every time you pray.

2583
08:03:41.599 --> 08:03:55.200
You may not notice that. Usually as you observe your

2584
08:03:55.400 --> 08:04:02.560
upper back in the middle of your back, you can

2585
08:04:02.880 --> 08:05:01.439
really feel that gent th moment. Moving your focus into

2586
08:05:01.560 --> 08:05:15.000
your hip area of butties the grain, those muscles and

2587
08:05:15.159 --> 08:05:52.000
those bones in your midsection, just noticing how there were

2588
08:05:52.200 --> 08:06:15.400
hips feel right Now you can very very gently move

2589
08:06:15.759 --> 08:06:30.080
your hips maybe side to side very gently and s

2590
08:06:42.639 --> 08:07:23.520
very very gently softly. No, everything starts to slow down,

2591
08:07:30.000 --> 08:07:35.680
including the thoughts in your mind and your mind itself

2592
08:07:38.919 --> 08:07:45.560
just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant,

2593
08:07:45.639 --> 08:07:53.639
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2594
08:07:54.080 --> 08:08:05.200
strength chin. It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2595
08:08:05.560 --> 08:08:13.200
used to in your day to day life. It's a

2596
08:08:13.439 --> 08:08:40.400
slower movement of energy, very small movements which make up

2597
08:08:40.759 --> 08:08:48.319
the larger movements, which is always the case. Now, when

2598
08:08:48.360 --> 08:08:53.520
you move your hand, it might seem like it's one movement,

2599
08:08:53.639 --> 08:09:01.560
but it's lots of minute different muscles moving in accordance

2600
08:09:01.680 --> 08:09:12.880
with each other. And what happens in this space that

2601
08:09:13.040 --> 08:09:32.240
we're sharing is we move from that big movement into

2602
08:09:32.360 --> 08:09:49.720
those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how your body feels,

2603
08:09:51.520 --> 08:09:55.799
not just as a whole, not just oh, i'm feel

2604
08:09:55.840 --> 08:10:00.520
in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm

2605
08:10:00.560 --> 08:10:05.919
feeling relaxed and calm, I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling

2606
08:10:06.040 --> 08:10:17.200
that way. Starting to notice that your body begins to

2607
08:10:17.360 --> 08:10:34.279
present to you small feelings around your body, small physical

2608
08:10:34.599 --> 08:10:53.560
sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting

2609
08:10:53.680 --> 08:11:01.919
the temptation to label them or to judge them, those feelings,

2610
08:11:04.200 --> 08:11:08.680
just thinking them, thinking about them is just being neutral,

2611
08:11:11.319 --> 08:11:26.599
just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but just noticing what

2612
08:11:26.840 --> 08:11:43.520
your body is telling you. Feelings in your arms instead

2613
08:11:43.560 --> 08:11:48.599
of feeling the whole of the arm. Maybe notice those

2614
08:11:50.599 --> 08:12:04.439
individual feelings, all those different muscles and the skin, the

2615
08:12:04.759 --> 08:12:10.880
hairs of your arms, all the internal parts of your arms,

2616
08:12:11.040 --> 08:12:30.279
the veins, the bones, just being aware of maybe your

2617
08:12:30.400 --> 08:12:38.560
elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe

2618
08:12:38.840 --> 08:12:51.959
your left wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2619
08:13:04.400 --> 08:13:11.119
What about your forearm when your right arm, you're right forearm,

2620
08:13:18.479 --> 08:13:24.560
there may not be any particular feeling that you could

2621
08:13:24.599 --> 08:13:32.479
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2622
08:13:33.479 --> 08:13:43.720
other than just a feeling. You know, it's there. The

2623
08:13:43.840 --> 08:13:49.680
feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think

2624
08:13:49.759 --> 08:13:54.560
about them, kind of almost like they're the same, you know,

2625
08:13:55.799 --> 08:14:00.880
the same feeling, almost like you're both your shoulders are

2626
08:14:01.000 --> 08:14:13.759
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2627
08:14:14.000 --> 08:14:20.000
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2628
08:14:22.040 --> 08:14:26.520
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2629
08:14:28.080 --> 08:14:41.799
Maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each

2630
08:14:42.400 --> 08:15:09.439
shoulder and your lower back, the left side of your

2631
08:15:09.520 --> 08:15:13.360
lower back and the right side of your lower back.

2632
08:15:21.279 --> 08:15:26.560
Of course that connection to your buttocks and to your hips,

2633
08:15:34.040 --> 08:15:37.639
and also moving up into the middle of your back,

2634
08:15:47.520 --> 08:15:51.560
and sometimes like right now, actually I want to focus

2635
08:15:51.680 --> 08:15:57.240
on their part. When I focused on my buttocks and

2636
08:15:57.319 --> 08:16:01.360
then I focused on the middle of my back, it

2637
08:16:01.439 --> 08:16:04.279
almost felt like the muscles in my lower back were

2638
08:16:04.360 --> 08:16:16.159
being stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit. Even

2639
08:16:16.200 --> 08:16:24.840
though I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your

2640
08:16:24.919 --> 08:16:29.720
lower back, it just seemed to happen. The feeling of

2641
08:16:32.000 --> 08:16:49.840
very gently stretching your lower back comes along. I have

2642
08:16:50.159 --> 08:17:15.479
feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations you are

2643
08:17:15.680 --> 08:17:32.799
experiencing in your chest right now. And there's so much

2644
08:17:33.000 --> 08:17:37.240
of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone leading to

2645
08:17:37.360 --> 08:17:43.680
the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've got the

2646
08:17:43.840 --> 08:17:52.680
muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female, there's

2647
08:17:53.799 --> 08:18:04.159
possibly the breasts. You're male, you've got the different well

2648
08:18:04.200 --> 08:18:08.319
why not that different these days, but there may be

2649
08:18:08.560 --> 08:18:16.959
more muscles at the top of the chest, but at

2650
08:18:17.040 --> 08:18:22.080
the side underneath it's pretty much the same, whether you're

2651
08:18:22.080 --> 08:18:26.639
a man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that

2652
08:18:26.840 --> 08:18:32.080
stretch out to your back, as well as breast tissue

2653
08:18:32.119 --> 08:18:40.279
which stretches and moves into your back, to just being

2654
08:18:40.319 --> 08:18:59.799
aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there is

2655
08:19:01.240 --> 08:19:20.599
in your chest. When I noticed I focus on my chest,

2656
08:19:25.000 --> 08:19:28.520
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

2657
08:19:30.000 --> 08:19:33.040
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

2658
08:19:33.119 --> 08:19:43.000
you know, I'll breathe in in, and it stretches my

2659
08:19:43.319 --> 08:19:54.159
chest and my back at the same time. It feels

2660
08:19:57.439 --> 08:20:09.240
it feels okay, doesn't feel I got a little bit

2661
08:20:09.279 --> 08:20:16.159
of pain in my right chest, a little bit, not pain,

2662
08:20:16.360 --> 08:20:26.279
but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I

2663
08:20:26.439 --> 08:20:34.520
noticed my shoulders are also wanting to flex for some reason.

2664
08:20:36.680 --> 08:20:44.080
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

2665
08:20:44.279 --> 08:20:49.200
connection between my shoulders and my upper back, because I

2666
08:20:49.240 --> 08:20:54.240
can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

2667
08:20:56.759 --> 08:21:03.279
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves I

2668
08:21:03.360 --> 08:21:19.479
think it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2669
08:21:24.799 --> 08:21:28.000
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2670
08:21:28.119 --> 08:21:42.080
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2671
08:21:42.279 --> 08:21:49.759
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2672
08:21:49.799 --> 08:21:59.840
of a sense of how they feel. And when you relax,

2673
08:22:04.919 --> 08:22:08.959
when you do tense and muscle and you let it

2674
08:22:09.119 --> 08:22:16.479
go and you let it relax, it relaxes way more

2675
08:22:18.119 --> 08:22:28.159
than it would normally. That you have to feel that

2676
08:22:28.240 --> 08:22:32.080
you're able to do that. There's no point doing it

2677
08:22:32.319 --> 08:22:38.119
if there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2678
08:22:41.599 --> 08:22:48.200
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2679
08:22:50.799 --> 08:23:02.319
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself

2680
08:23:09.880 --> 08:23:18.360
as you notice your mind. How much has your mind

2681
08:23:18.680 --> 08:23:45.919
slowed down since we started this recording? How came and

2682
08:23:46.159 --> 08:23:57.520
peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing to

2683
08:23:57.599 --> 08:24:07.479
think about and just my voice to listen to, because

2684
08:24:07.599 --> 08:24:18.560
you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation. At

2685
08:24:18.599 --> 08:24:25.000
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

2686
08:24:25.080 --> 08:24:28.400
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning.

2687
08:24:33.560 --> 08:24:42.240
At the very least, for your mind to slow down

2688
08:24:45.159 --> 08:24:57.880
as your body continues to relax, because that's what you

2689
08:24:59.520 --> 08:25:19.360
want to happen, that's what you expect to happen. For

2690
08:25:19.599 --> 08:25:39.319
relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm your mind to

2691
08:25:39.479 --> 08:26:13.759
the point of boredom when you start, maybe to drift away, breasting.

2692
08:26:27.400 --> 08:26:37.080
It's almost as if you're moving further away from your

2693
08:26:37.200 --> 08:26:50.840
body in your mind, just leaving that there, kind of

2694
08:26:50.919 --> 08:26:55.840
liking it an escape pod in the spaceship a movie,

2695
08:26:56.639 --> 08:26:59.240
a space movie, you know when it gets a little

2696
08:26:59.319 --> 08:27:06.599
part in it, since the man far away from the spaceship,

2697
08:27:15.720 --> 08:27:54.759
safe to dream and continue to relax, to drift in

2698
08:28:13.479 --> 08:28:14.959
so slow.

2699
08:28:27.799 --> 08:28:28.680
And be so.

2700
08:28:44.959 --> 08:29:31.040
So rare hempy song, and focusing on the feeding of

2701
08:29:31.240 --> 08:29:43.599
those individual parts of your body. That's a relaxing one

2702
08:29:43.680 --> 08:30:00.439
by one, you may find that every now and then

2703
08:30:03.319 --> 08:30:14.520
you realize that you aren't listening to my voice because

2704
08:30:14.560 --> 08:30:26.080
your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started to

2705
08:30:28.319 --> 08:30:39.479
almost move into something kind of a dreamy state, and

2706
08:30:39.560 --> 08:30:46.119
then you become aware of my voice again. And even

2707
08:30:46.279 --> 08:30:53.000
though you may want to focus on my voice, you

2708
08:30:53.159 --> 08:31:01.080
may also wish to allow your mind to just drift

2709
08:31:04.279 --> 08:31:20.720
naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As you

2710
08:31:21.599 --> 08:31:38.680
feel more comfort spreading through your body like a warm

2711
08:31:38.880 --> 08:31:55.520
blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just the

2712
08:31:55.799 --> 08:32:12.959
perfect temperature. And even if you can hear background sounds,

2713
08:32:18.520 --> 08:32:31.000
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sensor

2714
08:32:33.720 --> 08:32:50.560
peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet

2715
08:32:50.759 --> 08:33:03.200
strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to

2716
08:33:06.639 --> 08:33:16.799
remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2717
08:33:17.000 --> 08:33:32.080
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

2718
08:33:32.439 --> 08:33:57.880
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation, that is

2719
08:33:58.159 --> 08:34:23.200
feeling your body and your mind. Un As you focus

2720
08:34:23.479 --> 08:34:30.080
on your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2721
08:34:31.479 --> 08:34:41.799
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2722
08:34:47.880 --> 08:35:08.200
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly, from ten down to nine,

2723
08:35:09.000 --> 08:35:15.959
just a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just

2724
08:35:16.080 --> 08:35:33.159
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2725
08:35:35.959 --> 08:35:41.360
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2726
08:35:41.680 --> 08:35:51.360
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2727
08:35:51.560 --> 08:35:58.479
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2728
08:35:58.680 --> 08:36:06.200
feelings you have they're growing now, feelings of comfort and

2729
08:36:06.439 --> 08:36:18.119
security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down

2730
08:36:18.240 --> 08:36:25.040
to seven, Seven down to six, And when you get

2731
08:36:25.119 --> 08:36:32.159
to five, the mind will start to have a certain

2732
08:36:33.560 --> 08:36:45.119
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

2733
08:36:45.240 --> 08:36:53.759
head sucking the tension and stress and any remaining feelings

2734
08:36:54.119 --> 08:36:59.520
that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2735
08:37:05.319 --> 08:37:10.439
And in down to four you can start to really

2736
08:37:11.040 --> 08:37:24.040
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2737
08:37:24.200 --> 08:37:32.959
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2738
08:37:36.479 --> 08:37:39.119
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2739
08:37:39.880 --> 08:37:48.720
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

2740
08:37:49.400 --> 08:38:01.599
peace and tranquility growing, so it moves down to When

2741
08:38:01.639 --> 08:38:11.040
you get to one, in mind just feels exactly how

2742
08:38:11.159 --> 08:38:27.080
you want to feel. It's almost a perfect feeling, maybe

2743
08:38:30.159 --> 08:38:31.639
a sensation that.

2744
08:38:33.279 --> 08:38:34.639
It'd like to keep.

2745
08:38:37.680 --> 08:38:48.520
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2746
08:39:00.240 --> 08:39:04.919
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

2747
08:39:05.040 --> 08:39:14.759
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

2748
08:39:15.680 --> 08:39:21.680
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

2749
08:39:23.240 --> 08:39:33.159
just by counting ten down to one. And this is

2750
08:39:33.319 --> 08:39:38.000
something that you can do yourself when you're on your own,

2751
08:39:42.880 --> 08:39:46.799
the time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just

2752
08:39:46.880 --> 08:39:58.919
for a few minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly

2753
08:40:00.119 --> 08:40:12.759
ten down to one and to re experience these feelings

2754
08:40:14.400 --> 08:40:22.720
in your mind. And when you feel that way in

2755
08:40:22.840 --> 08:40:38.400
your mind, your body copies your mind, and the feeling

2756
08:40:38.599 --> 08:40:45.439
is spread through your spine and your nervous system into

2757
08:40:45.799 --> 08:40:52.479
every part of your body, travels through your blood stream,

2758
08:40:58.080 --> 08:41:18.840
healing and relaxing every particle of your existence. Now we can.

2759
08:41:19.799 --> 08:41:27.759
We can practice this a few times before the end

2760
08:41:27.840 --> 08:41:32.680
of the recording, and then you can practice on your own.

2761
08:41:34.799 --> 08:41:44.520
And each time you count for ten about one, the

2762
08:41:44.720 --> 08:41:56.639
feelings of comforts, calmness, and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger

2763
08:41:58.080 --> 08:42:12.279
and deeper feeling your mind and your brain. With these

2764
08:42:13.479 --> 08:42:24.279
positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly,

2765
08:42:26.360 --> 08:42:36.240
relaxing your whole body and mind so very very easily

2766
08:42:38.840 --> 08:42:51.439
just by counting from ten down to one. So we're

2767
08:42:51.439 --> 08:42:54.759
going to do now, I'm going to count from ten

2768
08:42:55.000 --> 08:42:59.360
down to one. I'd like you to repeat the number

2769
08:42:59.560 --> 08:43:06.000
after me. So when I say ten, you can just

2770
08:43:06.159 --> 08:43:19.919
repeat to yourself ten. Just notice, be aware of how

2771
08:43:20.159 --> 08:43:31.520
you feel in your mind and your body. Then when

2772
08:43:31.560 --> 08:43:45.240
I say nine, you can repeat to yourself nine again,

2773
08:43:47.200 --> 08:43:56.560
noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in your mind

2774
08:43:57.840 --> 08:44:06.799
and in your body. The same when I say eight,

2775
08:44:09.720 --> 08:44:21.400
I want to say seven, six, I want I say five, four,

2776
08:44:25.400 --> 08:44:37.360
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2777
08:44:39.799 --> 08:44:50.720
you can repeat that number. Now. Of course, when you

2778
08:44:52.000 --> 08:44:57.319
do this on your own without listening to me, you

2779
08:44:57.439 --> 08:45:03.599
can say the numbers of what ever speed that you

2780
08:45:03.919 --> 08:45:13.680
feel is necessary for you, so you can adapt. So

2781
08:45:13.759 --> 08:45:17.639
if you feel you want to say the numbers ten

2782
08:45:18.000 --> 08:45:24.400
down to one faster than I do, then you go

2783
08:45:24.520 --> 08:45:28.200
ahead and do that. Or if you feel when you

2784
08:45:28.319 --> 08:45:33.959
do it yourself that you'd like to have more more

2785
08:45:34.240 --> 08:45:41.599
space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer to

2786
08:45:41.759 --> 08:45:51.840
get from ten all the way down to one, that's

2787
08:45:52.000 --> 08:46:05.520
your choice also to do. So I'm gonna count and ten.

2788
08:46:05.560 --> 08:46:14.520
Down to one, and when I get to one, that

2789
08:46:14.680 --> 08:46:15.639
will be the end.

2790
08:46:16.159 --> 08:46:21.799
Of this recording. The let's of course, you're listening with music,

2791
08:46:23.040 --> 08:48:39.720
and the music will continue ten ninety four.

2792
08:50:00.279 --> 08:50:47.360
US USA USA U.

2793
08:51:04.200 --> 08:51:55.200
Twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen sixteen fifteen fourteen thirteen twelve eleven, ten,

2794
08:52:04.680 --> 08:52:50.680
eight seven, six, five, four, three two one. Now open

2795
08:52:50.759 --> 08:53:01.279
your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having counted down

2796
08:53:01.360 --> 08:53:09.240
from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension to leave

2797
08:53:09.400 --> 08:53:13.919
through your fingertips and your toes. And as you focus

2798
08:53:14.040 --> 08:53:19.040
on your fingertips maybe they feel a little bit tingly,

2799
08:53:21.360 --> 08:53:25.880
which is I suppose quite an understanding considering the tension

2800
08:53:26.319 --> 08:53:36.599
has been exiting your body through your fingertips. So now

2801
08:53:36.599 --> 08:53:38.919
I'm going to count from twenty down to one. Again.

2802
08:53:39.400 --> 08:53:48.439
This time you get to feel relief of tension and stress,

2803
08:53:49.880 --> 08:53:59.599
an anxiety that you may have leaving through your stomach,

2804
08:54:02.200 --> 08:54:05.919
just leading through your stomach, almost as if it's just

2805
08:54:06.919 --> 08:54:14.040
releasing the hole of your stomach. You'll enable to just

2806
08:54:14.159 --> 08:54:18.360
above your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding

2807
08:54:18.479 --> 08:54:23.119
your belly by an area, the whole area. You can

2808
08:54:23.319 --> 08:54:27.759
feel the tension of your body where it's left, just

2809
08:54:28.639 --> 08:54:33.279
releasing from the area. And you may notice that your

2810
08:54:33.319 --> 08:54:39.880
stomach will become very relaxed as I countdown from twenty

2811
08:54:40.840 --> 08:55:55.040
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2812
08:55:58.159 --> 08:56:08.159
five oh three.

2813
08:56:12.439 --> 08:56:25.759
Two, and you can open your eyes again if you choose, or.

2814
08:56:25.759 --> 08:56:29.319
You can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2815
08:56:31.639 --> 08:56:36.759
Just notice, say your stomach gels, I notice as your focus.

2816
08:56:37.040 --> 08:56:42.119
Just do a little scan of your body, not to

2817
08:56:42.200 --> 08:56:55.360
say your body feels focusing on upper body, back, chest, stomach, LEAs, arms, hands, feet,

2818
08:56:58.400 --> 08:57:07.959
just noticing, and you know, you may start to more

2819
08:57:08.000 --> 08:57:12.040
of a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

2820
08:57:12.119 --> 08:57:18.080
you're listening to this recording because you would like to

2821
08:57:19.720 --> 08:57:31.639
let go completely of everything and dread off into a nice, natural, calm,

2822
08:57:32.000 --> 08:57:34.200
relaxing sleep.

2823
08:57:41.799 --> 08:57:42.720
So now we're going to.

2824
08:57:42.799 --> 08:57:52.319
Focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you can

2825
08:57:52.400 --> 08:57:57.880
incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead

2826
08:57:58.000 --> 08:58:04.080
and your eyes. It's that whole area basically almost as

2827
08:58:04.159 --> 08:58:06.880
if you were wearing a mask, you know, like a

2828
08:58:08.880 --> 08:58:14.599
I don't know, Batman mask or something, or I'm trying

2829
08:58:14.639 --> 08:58:17.479
to zorrow or something, you know, the kind of mask

2830
08:58:17.560 --> 08:58:20.439
that covers your eyes but also covers quite a lot

2831
08:58:20.479 --> 08:58:27.279
of the forehead. We're focusing on that area because that's

2832
08:58:27.319 --> 08:58:30.680
the area that we're now going to release tension and

2833
08:58:30.880 --> 08:58:36.200
stress from your mind and your brain, from your mind,

2834
08:58:36.319 --> 08:58:40.560
and any tension that you may have remaining your face,

2835
08:58:41.560 --> 08:58:46.080
in your neck and your jaw and your eyes and

2836
08:58:46.159 --> 08:58:52.840
your forehead or your scalp. So basically, any tension within

2837
08:58:52.919 --> 08:59:01.520
your head area, including your mind and your brain, that's

2838
08:59:01.599 --> 08:59:05.880
going to be released through your forehead in your eyes.

2839
08:59:09.840 --> 08:59:13.560
As I count down again from twenty down to one

2840
08:59:16.040 --> 09:01:05.639
now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, one, noticing,

2841
09:01:08.000 --> 09:01:15.639
and she scanned your face mataw, your eyes, the cheap bones,

2842
09:01:15.880 --> 09:01:21.840
your ears, your forehead, your scalp.

2843
09:01:23.000 --> 09:01:26.759
Your neck, the back of your neck, in front of

2844
09:01:26.840 --> 09:01:28.319
your neck, the.

2845
09:01:28.520 --> 09:01:39.400
Side of your neck, and her throat. Noticing being aware

2846
09:01:39.680 --> 09:01:50.759
of the comfort increased in the relaxation, not just in

2847
09:01:50.880 --> 09:01:55.919
your head and neck and mind, also the rest of

2848
09:01:56.000 --> 09:02:06.159
your body. Just notice how loose and calm you feel,

2849
09:02:07.279 --> 09:02:08.919
and how easily.

2850
09:02:10.639 --> 09:02:12.200
It is to just let go.

2851
09:02:15.000 --> 09:02:30.720
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

2852
09:02:38.520 --> 09:02:40.080
So what I'm going to do now is.

2853
09:02:41.560 --> 09:02:49.319
To focus on the top of your head and we're

2854
09:02:49.360 --> 09:02:58.119
going to allow every nast piece of tension or stress

2855
09:02:58.319 --> 09:03:04.560
the way you can lingering or hiding in your body, mind,

2856
09:03:05.279 --> 09:03:06.040
you head.

2857
09:03:07.360 --> 09:03:07.759
To just.

2858
09:03:09.479 --> 09:03:13.000
Be sucked out on the top of your head.

2859
09:03:15.360 --> 09:03:15.840
At least.

2860
09:03:19.599 --> 09:03:26.759
And yeah, I once sucked down into the clouds. Imagine

2861
09:03:26.799 --> 09:03:32.159
a people aloud of put your head's like a whirlpool

2862
09:03:32.919 --> 09:03:35.759
and this can suck that tension.

2863
09:03:36.919 --> 09:03:42.200
Out the top of your head and just take away.

2864
09:03:43.840 --> 09:03:44.439
The good.

2865
09:03:47.439 --> 09:03:51.200
To focus. Imagine an opening on the top of your

2866
09:03:51.279 --> 09:03:57.880
head with a tension and stress and in remaining issues,

2867
09:03:58.040 --> 09:04:01.799
maybe worries of consert instead of no ease to you.

2868
09:04:01.959 --> 09:04:05.799
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2869
09:04:05.799 --> 09:04:06.319
of my head.

2870
09:04:08.080 --> 09:04:14.040
I've taken away as I count down again from twenty

2871
09:04:14.479 --> 09:05:52.759
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen fifty fourteen, thirteen, twelve, even, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2872
09:05:57.119 --> 09:06:42.199
five four three, wha break. Noticing how you feel, how

2873
09:06:42.319 --> 09:06:50.599
relaxed and calm you physically and mentally fail right now,

2874
09:06:56.279 --> 09:07:05.440
help be me so your mind feels it feels so

2875
09:07:05.760 --> 09:07:11.040
nice to just let go, to give yourself some space

2876
09:07:12.760 --> 09:07:24.279
to breathe easily, to think calmly, and just to take

2877
09:07:24.360 --> 09:07:32.000
a break from all that pointless worry concerns about things

2878
09:07:32.279 --> 09:07:41.519
that you don't need to think about right now, because

2879
09:07:43.120 --> 09:07:47.199
this is your time to let go. This is your

2880
09:07:47.400 --> 09:07:57.279
space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind,

2881
09:07:58.559 --> 09:08:07.879
relaxed in your body. It can feel so good, so

2882
09:08:08.440 --> 09:08:16.720
nice to just not have to do anything, to be

2883
09:08:16.879 --> 09:08:27.519
able to really enjoy that serenity that comes of letting

2884
09:08:27.680 --> 09:08:33.120
go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

2885
09:08:39.800 --> 09:08:41.160
Being in this.

2886
09:08:43.000 --> 09:08:53.040
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2887
09:08:53.919 --> 09:09:05.040
for as long as you choose, if you choose to

2888
09:09:05.279 --> 09:09:13.080
drift into deep healing natural sleep, and you can do that,

2889
09:09:16.760 --> 09:09:25.000
that's completely up to you, and you can keep this

2890
09:09:25.319 --> 09:09:31.199
feeling of calmness physically mean in your mind, as long

2891
09:09:31.639 --> 09:09:48.879
as you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed. I'd

2892
09:09:49.040 --> 09:09:54.639
like you to make up your mind that you're going

2893
09:09:54.720 --> 09:10:06.440
to relax. I want to explore that with you. What

2894
09:10:06.599 --> 09:10:13.519
it feels like when you actually decide that you're going

2895
09:10:13.599 --> 09:10:22.080
to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. Yes,

2896
09:10:22.199 --> 09:10:24.519
it is a command, Really, isn't it When you're telling

2897
09:10:24.559 --> 09:10:34.080
yourself relax in a gentle but firm way, that only

2898
09:10:34.400 --> 09:10:39.440
you can really tell you something in that way. You

2899
09:10:39.519 --> 09:10:43.879
can't really have someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax,

2900
09:10:44.519 --> 09:10:48.559
you know, and it needs to be gentle, but you can't.

2901
09:10:48.720 --> 09:10:55.839
Someone else can't really have the same the same kind

2902
09:10:55.959 --> 09:11:05.559
of influence or power that you have over your own physicality,

2903
09:11:06.400 --> 09:11:15.440
over how you feel, because when you say it to

2904
09:11:15.519 --> 09:11:23.919
yourself it means more. It's personal, and your brain and

2905
09:11:24.120 --> 09:11:31.800
your unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

2906
09:11:32.120 --> 09:11:35.879
for example, we'll test it out and do your test,

2907
09:11:36.120 --> 09:11:39.919
few little tests along the way, and you can get

2908
09:11:40.080 --> 09:11:46.519
more of an idea of the force, the positive force

2909
09:11:46.680 --> 09:11:53.440
that you can have in creating a sense of comfort

2910
09:11:53.639 --> 09:11:58.440
and relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly,

2911
09:12:00.239 --> 09:12:10.919
just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

2912
09:12:10.959 --> 09:12:18.080
to start by it's focus on your hands. Focus on

2913
09:12:18.120 --> 09:12:21.959
your hands, and just tell your hands to relax. Just

2914
09:12:22.080 --> 09:12:29.239
say relax. As you focus on your hands, you could

2915
09:12:29.480 --> 09:12:33.959
say my hands are relaxed, or I want my hands

2916
09:12:34.000 --> 09:12:37.879
to relax. But I think if you actually do it

2917
09:12:38.080 --> 09:12:46.319
directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can hear

2918
09:12:46.440 --> 09:12:47.519
what you're saying, you.

2919
09:12:47.599 --> 09:12:50.440
Know, like they've got little ears. It's a little weird.

2920
09:12:53.040 --> 09:13:04.000
So talking to your hands and just say relax, medicine.

2921
09:13:10.040 --> 09:13:25.120
Now your hands start to relax. Now focus on your

2922
09:13:25.239 --> 09:13:29.000
eyes and tell your eyes to relax. If you just

2923
09:13:29.120 --> 09:13:33.919
say in the same word relax, and find the right

2924
09:13:35.199 --> 09:13:41.879
tone for you. You know, I might say relax, but

2925
09:13:42.080 --> 09:13:50.319
you you might say relax or relax. You know, you

2926
09:13:50.440 --> 09:13:56.839
might say it differently to yourself, and that's important for

2927
09:13:57.000 --> 09:14:03.519
you to gauge what fields right the to Just tell

2928
09:14:03.599 --> 09:14:09.519
your eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids,

2929
09:14:09.680 --> 09:14:15.040
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell

2930
09:14:15.120 --> 09:14:19.959
your eyes directly relax.

2931
09:14:21.879 --> 09:14:22.080
Yeah.

2932
09:14:48.839 --> 09:14:59.000
Now, I just did that myself. And sometimes you may

2933
09:14:59.120 --> 09:15:01.440
feel that you need a bit more time.

2934
09:15:03.440 --> 09:15:06.720
Or the different parts to relax, you know, because I

2935
09:15:06.839 --> 09:15:11.760
start talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully.

2936
09:15:12.720 --> 09:15:15.760
But what happened is that it will just continue to relax.

2937
09:15:15.480 --> 09:15:16.440
Even though I'm talking.

2938
09:15:18.080 --> 09:15:23.839
And that's happening with my eyes. Something else I noticed

2939
09:15:24.000 --> 09:15:28.639
is when I started focused on my eyes, that actually

2940
09:15:29.400 --> 09:15:32.239
almost became they got worse before they got better in

2941
09:15:32.319 --> 09:15:35.319
a way sort of. I felt a degree of tension

2942
09:15:35.800 --> 09:15:41.760
growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So I think

2943
09:15:41.879 --> 09:15:45.000
what that was really was just me becoming more aware

2944
09:15:46.599 --> 09:15:51.199
of the tension that was already there that I wasn't.

2945
09:15:52.160 --> 09:15:56.080
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

2946
09:15:56.839 --> 09:16:14.239
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

2947
09:16:14.360 --> 09:16:18.519
eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2948
09:16:22.000 --> 09:16:27.400
my hands have got a certain kind of energy, like

2949
09:16:27.639 --> 09:16:32.800
not buzzing, but I can kind of feel a degree

2950
09:16:32.839 --> 09:16:38.800
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

2951
09:16:38.919 --> 09:16:50.239
is being released. Maybe that's the cause of that, and

2952
09:16:50.360 --> 09:16:52.279
that's part I think we should focus on.

2953
09:16:52.319 --> 09:16:53.160
The back of the neck.

2954
09:16:53.839 --> 09:16:59.040
That's the part was quite often well for me holds tension.

2955
09:16:59.080 --> 09:17:03.319
I don't know about the I think it's quite a

2956
09:17:03.519 --> 09:17:10.959
standard place where tension is sometimes held. So and I'm

2957
09:17:11.040 --> 09:17:14.120
doing exactly what you're doing as you do it as well,

2958
09:17:14.279 --> 09:17:18.199
so I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

2959
09:17:19.000 --> 09:17:21.319
So if you tell your neck, the back of your neck,

2960
09:17:21.839 --> 09:17:24.040
focus on the back of your neck, and just say

2961
09:17:26.919 --> 09:17:29.720
relax in your own.

2962
09:17:29.559 --> 09:17:32.279
Words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

2963
09:17:32.959 --> 09:17:35.000
You can say out loud, or you can just say

2964
09:17:35.040 --> 09:17:40.519
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying

2965
09:17:40.599 --> 09:17:41.879
it literally.

2966
09:17:41.879 --> 09:17:45.199
To the back of your neck, as if the back

2967
09:17:45.239 --> 09:17:51.959
of your neck can actually hear what you're seeing. So

2968
09:17:52.160 --> 09:17:55.599
do that now, Just say relax to the back of

2969
09:17:55.639 --> 09:17:58.000
your neck, and I'll do the same.

2970
09:18:00.040 --> 09:18:00.279
Yeh.

2971
09:18:36.839 --> 09:18:40.360
Then what I noticed, and you may have had similar

2972
09:18:40.440 --> 09:18:44.919
thing is even though I was focusing on the back

2973
09:18:44.959 --> 09:18:57.680
of my neck, other parts started to show themselves to me, or.

2974
09:18:58.400 --> 09:19:00.599
Maybe because they want to be real because as well.

2975
09:19:00.720 --> 09:19:05.480
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention

2976
09:19:05.639 --> 09:19:11.120
in my shoulders and in my upper back. Whether that

2977
09:19:11.400 --> 09:19:16.720
was because my back of my neck was saying, well,

2978
09:19:16.760 --> 09:19:21.720
I'm pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

2979
09:19:28.120 --> 09:19:29.080
But my lobe.

2980
09:19:28.959 --> 09:19:32.800
My back of my neck is still relaxing, but I

2981
09:19:33.000 --> 09:19:33.720
just became.

2982
09:19:33.519 --> 09:19:39.879
More aware of other parts that needed attention. Now, this

2983
09:19:40.120 --> 09:19:45.000
might happen, and it's not. It doesn't mean that it's

2984
09:19:45.080 --> 09:19:51.599
going wrong. It just means you're being notified of more places.

2985
09:19:52.319 --> 09:19:54.279
But also want to feel relaxed.

2986
09:19:57.519 --> 09:20:00.519
So I'm going to focus on my up the back.

2987
09:20:01.839 --> 09:20:05.800
So you can do the same, even if you don't.

2988
09:20:05.680 --> 09:20:06.360
Have any.

2989
09:20:07.720 --> 09:20:13.199
Feelings of tension that robvious in your upper back. You

2990
09:20:13.360 --> 09:20:18.360
just focus on your back and the whole area from

2991
09:20:18.440 --> 09:20:23.000
the shoulder blades down to the middle of your back

2992
09:20:23.440 --> 09:20:27.519
and the spine. And with me, it's more the shoulder

2993
09:20:27.559 --> 09:20:28.760
blades are more.

2994
09:20:33.480 --> 09:20:38.879
Yeah, that's the past that really sort of given me.

2995
09:20:40.599 --> 09:20:41.279
The nod.

2996
09:20:42.879 --> 09:20:45.160
That you need to relax in the souls that ask

2997
09:20:45.239 --> 09:20:48.519
that part to relax, and you can do the same.

2998
09:20:48.599 --> 09:21:15.400
Now reacts up the back. There's something strange happened there,

2999
09:21:15.879 --> 09:21:18.519
And this often happens.

3000
09:21:18.599 --> 09:21:19.480
I've been doing this for.

3001
09:21:22.400 --> 09:21:30.360
Sixteen years or something, and often one surprised but amazed.

3002
09:21:30.440 --> 09:21:36.319
Really bad, there can be a feeling. So when I

3003
09:21:36.480 --> 09:21:39.959
was focusing on the back of my neck, my upper

3004
09:21:40.040 --> 09:21:44.919
back was starting to feel quite stressed and in need

3005
09:21:45.080 --> 09:21:50.400
of attention. As soon as I started talking to you

3006
09:21:50.680 --> 09:21:55.839
about my upper back and talking about, you know, getting

3007
09:21:55.879 --> 09:22:00.639
ready to ask the upper back to relax. Why the

3008
09:22:00.720 --> 09:22:06.360
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

3009
09:22:06.480 --> 09:22:16.720
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

3010
09:22:16.959 --> 09:22:28.720
needs to be noticed. And that is something that often

3011
09:22:28.919 --> 09:22:35.919
happens in this type of situation is when you start

3012
09:22:37.000 --> 09:22:38.080
to relax.

3013
09:22:39.239 --> 09:22:42.720
A couple of parts of your body, as we've done with.

3014
09:22:42.800 --> 09:22:47.239
Our hands, the eyes and eyelids.

3015
09:22:48.400 --> 09:22:55.559
And now back of the neck, talk of the bag.

3016
09:22:57.279 --> 09:23:00.559
Of the bag, the rest of the god he seems

3017
09:23:00.599 --> 09:23:08.239
to just take notice and decide in its own way

3018
09:23:09.519 --> 09:23:12.120
to start relaxing.

3019
09:23:13.959 --> 09:23:15.559
Other parts of your body.

3020
09:23:16.040 --> 09:23:25.480
Start to just become looser. I suppose it's kind of

3021
09:23:25.599 --> 09:23:29.279
like a bit of an avalanche, you know, the little

3022
09:23:29.360 --> 09:23:32.680
ball starts rolling and before you know it, the whole

3023
09:23:32.760 --> 09:23:45.040
of your body is completely relaxed and coron And if

3024
09:23:45.040 --> 09:23:52.879
you focus on your face, you focus on your eyes,

3025
09:23:55.279 --> 09:24:01.639
the eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles around your eyes,

3026
09:24:06.599 --> 09:24:12.360
maybe you start to notice that your forehead is more relaxed.

3027
09:24:11.919 --> 09:24:12.440
Than it was.

3028
09:24:14.519 --> 09:24:19.879
Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would say my

3029
09:24:20.199 --> 09:24:21.160
entire face is.

3030
09:24:22.360 --> 09:24:35.879
A lot more relaxed than it was, so you're going.

3031
09:24:35.800 --> 09:24:42.160
To focus now on your shoulders. It came just like before.

3032
09:24:43.519 --> 09:24:44.720
Just telling your shoulders.

3033
09:24:46.080 --> 09:24:47.360
You can do them in the ditch.

3034
09:24:47.639 --> 09:24:49.800
You can do the right shoulder and your shoulder.

3035
09:24:51.360 --> 09:24:53.519
I just can't do both at the same time.

3036
09:24:55.559 --> 09:24:58.639
Just tell your shoulders and you focus.

3037
09:24:58.400 --> 09:24:59.319
On them in your mind.

3038
09:25:00.680 --> 09:25:03.559
Hope I somehow feel maybe.

3039
09:25:04.639 --> 09:25:07.360
You can see them near mine's eye.

3040
09:25:10.919 --> 09:25:17.000
Just tell your shoulders to relax.

3041
09:25:54.120 --> 09:25:55.599
As nice as they relax.

3042
09:26:06.000 --> 09:26:14.360
But I didn't notice, especially with my back, is the

3043
09:26:14.519 --> 09:26:20.360
connection between the different parts the back, the shoulders, the

3044
09:26:20.599 --> 09:26:30.680
neck being all connected and being such a large part

3045
09:26:30.760 --> 09:26:36.720
of your body, it's almost hard to separate them from

3046
09:26:36.800 --> 09:26:45.000
each other. And my lower back has started to relax on.

3047
09:26:45.040 --> 09:26:56.120
The same Maybe you're going too slow and that could

3048
09:26:56.199 --> 09:26:59.959
be an issue because we will go a different spece.

3049
09:27:02.559 --> 09:27:06.760
And the idea of giving of this recording was for

3050
09:27:06.879 --> 09:27:13.279
you to be able to just say to yourself, relax

3051
09:27:21.599 --> 09:27:25.519
without focusing on any particular part of your body.

3052
09:27:27.800 --> 09:27:28.559
Because when you.

3053
09:27:28.680 --> 09:27:39.519
Know that turning your hands to relax, your hands relax,

3054
09:27:42.120 --> 09:27:48.760
me tell your eyelids and your eyes, the muscles around

3055
09:27:48.879 --> 09:28:04.559
your eyes and your eyebrows to relax. They relax until

3056
09:28:04.839 --> 09:28:06.239
the backup your.

3057
09:28:06.279 --> 09:28:11.000
Neck, relax.

3058
09:28:15.199 --> 09:28:41.319
And relaxes until you're alphabets.

3059
09:28:43.080 --> 09:28:44.400
And didn't relaxes.

3060
09:28:52.080 --> 09:28:54.040
You tell your shoulders.

3061
09:29:06.800 --> 09:29:07.120
They re.

3062
09:29:31.199 --> 09:29:35.279
You told your hands to relax, They relaxed, and they

3063
09:29:35.400 --> 09:29:38.519
continued to relax.

3064
09:29:44.519 --> 09:29:49.480
You told your eyelids, the muscles.

3065
09:29:49.160 --> 09:29:53.160
Round your eyes, my vows to relax.

3066
09:29:55.239 --> 09:29:55.959
They relaxed.

3067
09:29:59.519 --> 09:30:00.519
M ten.

3068
09:30:02.279 --> 09:30:11.239
To relax. And you told at the back of your neck.

3069
09:30:12.680 --> 09:30:14.040
Us on the back of your neck.

3070
09:30:17.519 --> 09:30:29.440
And told it to relax and relaxed and continued to relax.

3071
09:30:37.639 --> 09:30:45.959
And you told your aunt the back to relax. It

3072
09:30:46.120 --> 09:30:48.639
relaxed and continued.

3073
09:30:50.680 --> 09:31:00.879
To remax. That's your shoulders.

3074
09:31:03.319 --> 09:31:05.160
You tell your shoulders to relax.

3075
09:31:05.559 --> 09:31:06.120
In your.

3076
09:31:08.760 --> 09:31:12.639
Shoulders relaxed and continue.

3077
09:31:17.160 --> 09:31:17.879
To relax.

3078
09:31:23.519 --> 09:31:28.480
And it's not just that, it's.

3079
09:31:31.160 --> 09:31:32.160
But the rest of your.

3080
09:31:32.160 --> 09:31:40.199
Body is also been listening, and their relaxation has been spreading.

3081
09:31:42.360 --> 09:31:46.440
So from your eyes, the relaxation spread to your forehead,

3082
09:31:49.319 --> 09:31:50.919
around your face.

3083
09:31:50.879 --> 09:32:04.440
Into your skin, into your jaw, into the front and

3084
09:32:04.680 --> 09:32:10.360
side of the knee. Only damn chest and stomach.

3085
09:32:16.639 --> 09:32:19.559
And relaxed hands and shoulders.

3086
09:32:21.000 --> 09:32:44.760
Me up for your stupors wrists letting didn't know a

3087
09:32:44.879 --> 09:32:54.959
bad hips that exploit and just start to the next

3088
09:32:55.160 --> 09:32:56.279
of the ticky.

3089
09:32:59.440 --> 09:32:59.959
Up there.

3090
09:33:01.480 --> 09:33:16.160
Spreading through your legs. Oh my down killing pols, the

3091
09:33:16.319 --> 09:33:33.160
tops of your feet beside the bottoms, your toes.

3092
09:33:37.160 --> 09:33:38.319
Turn right.

3093
09:33:59.000 --> 09:34:04.400
And you should pot. That's is more to mind. The

3094
09:34:04.559 --> 09:34:31.480
homes snow. Peace's a toy where if you choose to

3095
09:34:31.680 --> 09:34:49.440
go asleep, ju easily do that. Easily do it by

3096
09:34:54.559 --> 09:34:56.040
because there's nothing.

3097
09:34:55.760 --> 09:34:56.879
You know in your mind.

3098
09:35:00.559 --> 09:35:45.239
The braves peaceful. The body teams that connection between body,

3099
09:35:45.720 --> 09:36:00.599
lets the word you say to yourself, Lets and see,

3100
09:36:00.760 --> 09:36:04.120
don't need the faas.

3101
09:36:04.000 --> 09:36:05.360
Just one time.

3102
09:36:07.160 --> 09:36:21.639
I just fighting song, entire body saying word.

3103
09:36:25.080 --> 09:36:35.959
Yes, that's.

3104
09:36:37.839 --> 09:36:47.680
D sensationals complet sp.

3105
09:36:49.800 --> 09:37:35.440
Well the boy lea saying to just.

3106
09:37:37.279 --> 09:37:38.040
Tell itself?

3107
09:37:53.720 --> 09:37:55.720
Do you think.

3108
09:38:16.239 --> 09:39:35.680
Starting now will be twenty ninety ninety seventeen sixty.

3109
09:39:41.120 --> 09:45:04.360
Fourt attatatas assass