Sept. 14, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1431 | Jason Newland | 14th September 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1431 | Jason Newland | 14th September 2025
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Hello, he'll come to Qune Friday. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello.

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So this is qun a Friday. My name is Jason

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new Land. Vinnie is sitting on the sofa staring at me,

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making some weird noises. I've got his food that's on

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the floor on a little plate. There's about a quarter

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of an apple also on the floor for him to eat,

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and some fresh water, and he's still staring at me

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as if to say, where's my food. So I don't

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really know what's going on with him. It's very very stage,

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very stage. Other than that, please only listen and you

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can safely close your eyes. And also my website is

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letmeboydsleep dot com for this podcast, but I do also

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have my Jason Newland dot com which is still available.

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I've I did delete it, but I made it available again.

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It's a little bit different format, but it gives you

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links to all the different places that you could listen

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to my other stuff as well. I know I haven't

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been hugely active the last I don't know. I did

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a recording on the sixth, which was what was one, two, three, four, five, six,

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seven eight days ago, and I did one on the fifth,

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which was the Friday day before, one on the fourth,

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one on the third, one on the alright, and then

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one on the thirtieth of August, twenty ninth, twenty eighth,

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twenty seventh of August, twenty fifth, because I had my

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birthday off, then twenty fourth, twenty third, twenty second, twenty first, twentieth, nineteenth, eighteenth,

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seventeenth of August, fourteenth of August, twelfth of August, eleventh, tenth, ninth, eighth, seventh, sixth, fifth, fourth, third.

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So you know, it's not like I haven't done any recording.

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It's just been like a week and the stats have

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gone down to practically nothing. It's weird. And I did

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do recording, although I didn't you know. I'm still in

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the process of sorting some of the podcasts out I

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did start. If this is a bit echoey, I'm sorry.

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I've moved my microphone to a different part of the room,

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and I might need to get some kind of soundproofing

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on this wall here there because the bookcases aren't here anymore.

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I can get that sorid I'll sort that out at

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some point, or I could just move back to doing

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it on the chair. But that's a little bit uncomfortable.

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It's not uncomfortable as far as sitting, but making a recording,

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I'm kind of I don't really have the back support

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that I need. My neck's a little bit bent, and

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I'm kind of having to lean forward. Here I can

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just talk and I'm sitting up Drake, it's a little

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bit easier. And also because I'm looking at the laptop

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to get the Facebook questions, it's kind of handy to

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have it in front of me rather than to keep

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looking down. So yeah, I'd like to say thank you

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to those of you that have sent me lovely messages

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of support. Thank you and yeah, and also a big

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message to shout out to Brooke. I do like I've

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got a message from Cara. I've not replied yet. I'm sorry.

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I just I think I've missed a few messages that

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I've not replied to, and I do apologize. I'm not

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meaning to do that. Just kind of lost track of stuff,

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if I'm honest. But I did try and do the

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Q and A Friday on Friday and all it might

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have been Saturday morning, No, it's Friday. I think I

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ended up talking about something completely different from the Q

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and A Friday and it turned into I suppose, quite

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a serious conversation, so I just ended up ditching it

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after about forty minutes. But this is Q and a Friday,

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and I will be focusing on just the questions if

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I can find it, here we go, right, Okay, it

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would go here we go, here we go. So no

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big long blah blah blah. I'm just going to get

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straight down onto it, straight down to the nitty gritty

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drinking water as well. Spent after night up last night

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watching The Boxing Canello Crawford. It was very good. So

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Hope is the first question, and Hope asks what are

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your top five favorite movies? Ok mm hmmmmmm Off the

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top of my head, I'm just gonna shout when I'm

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shout them out, but the Wanderers, Airplane, It's a Wonderful Life,

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the Life of Brian, groundhog Day. I'm not going to

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say they're my absolute favorites. It's a Wonderful Life is

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my absolute favorite movie of all of them. But the

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others I love and have watched multiple times. Although Airplane

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Life for Brian not so much because I kind of want,

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yeah it just because their comedy is good. To leave

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them a bit, you know, let them marinate and come

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back to them maybe a few years later, leave it

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a decade or so. But they are five off the

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top of my head. I'm just trying to think of

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any other ones that I really going back to when

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I was little boom boom boom boom boom boom boom movies.

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Just I'm trying to think a movie that blew me away.

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The End of the Dragon would be another one, So

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I'm going to add that on. In fact, I would

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add that probably number two out of all the ones,

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although I couldn't really watch it anymore. But as far

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as having an impact on my life, I think let

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me It's a Wonderful Life had an impact on me.

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I remember watching it the very first time. I was

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living above the co op where I was working. It's

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nine eighty eight. Is a story behind this? Shall I

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tell you the story? Yeah? Go on there right. I

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was working at a chip shop. I probably mentioned this

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a few thousand times over the years. And what happened

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is my boss I said something that annoyed my boss.

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And this would have been the beginning of March time,

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maybe February March nineteen eighty eight, so I'd been working

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there for nearly two years, what about two years at

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this point, I've been living upstairs in the flat for

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a year. So one day he was just talking about

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going to see Stevie Wan doing concert, and I was

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getting annoyed because he was talking about nice things he

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was doing and I had no money to do anything,

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and I just, I don't know, I was probably jealous, possibly,

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And I was a big fan, a bigger fan of

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Stevie Wander than he was, because I listened to Stevie

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Wonder like nearly all the time when I'm back then

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I said something to upset him, and he pushed me

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against the wall and he was like twice my size

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at this time. It wouldn't be now, but you know,

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back then he was twicet, like pushed me against the

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wall and I just told him to get off. He

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did apologize, He did apologize, like because I walked out.

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I said, you know, I just walked out, went upstairs,

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and he apologized. And I couldn't let it go though,

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so I kind of said, no, don't worry, and then

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I went back to work and I just couldn't. I

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couldn't be there anymore, so I quit. I left, I

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was given a month to get out of the flat,

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but I didn't know where to go because I didn't

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have a job or anything. So what happened is I

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ended up moving in with my dad, who had a

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new house. So I was seventeen at this point. I

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stayed in his spare bedroom. It was only temporary. It's

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a temporary situation, and I, yeah, it didn't ask me

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to leave. But I worked in a car. I got

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a job. I got two jobs. Actually, the first job

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I got when I was living at my dad's for

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the first time was in a care home like a

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residential home, and I was helping in the kitchen because

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I had whatever you want to call it experience, you know,

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catering experience. I've been to college, spent years at school

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working and doing I can't remember what it was called.

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What was it called domestic domestic education or whatever it

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was called that involved cooking and stuff. So I got

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a job working in the kitchen. Now I thought i'd

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be able to handle that. And I'll tell you right now,

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it's going to be very hard for me to move

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my way back to talking about movies, because I'm going

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to get stuck on this, I think. But Hey, I'm

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just listening, you know. So I'm in this. I go

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to this job. I wasn't enthusiastic about it, but back

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then I just took whatever I could get. It was

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just a job. I think that was the understanding. I

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could stay with my dad, but I had to work.

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And it's very easy to get a job back then

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at my age, you know, I basically I didn't have

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to take those menial jobs. And not that there's nothing

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wrong with working in a care home. BlimE me. It's

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a really good job to have, and it's a you know,

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you know what I mean, Like if it's a it's

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although I wouldn't wasn't directly caring for elderly people. I

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was cooking for them. So that's a very important part

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of being alive, isn't it? Having food? Apparently, So I'll

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tell you right now it didn't work out very well,

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but I'll come to that. I could have done anything, really,

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I could have. You know, I lived in a place

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where there was a docks, one of the biggest docks

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in Europe. I could have got a job as a runner,

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just taking parcels from one place to another. You know,

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I could have got a job in. I don't know.

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There wasn't there wasn't a lot going, but there was

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probably thousands of jobs that I could have applied for

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on the docks, and I didn't even think about it.

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All I wanted to do is just get the first

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available job, which is why I did that. So I

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went to the job center. I said, I'll go for

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that one they phoned up. That's in a days, right.

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I don't know what it's like where you live, and

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I don't know what it's like now either. That's very

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slavery like now. Anyway, I'm getting all to try feedback

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from my own mouth, even though I've not got headphones on.

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Back in those days, we had this little job center

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on a corner.

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And it was little.

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There was no room. There was there's literally the seating

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was two desks, two seats with people even at the

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other side, and then some jobs in the window, some

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jobs in the other window the other side, and there's

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some jobs on the other side, and it's like it

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was the size of a corner shop, like a corner

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sweet shop. It wasn't big at all. And I have

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no idea where people used to go to sign on,

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because I never signed on when I was in that town,

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so or I was never unemployed, so I was, but

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I never like claimed benefits. I think it must have

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been somewhere else they went because there was no room

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in there, but they had these bits of cardboard, so

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there was this big plastic sheeting with I suppose pockets

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which you could put not like pockets in trousers, you know,

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you can put these I suppose post card size or

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index cards in and it'd advertise the latest jobs. So

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I'd look in the window and then have them either

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side so you could look outside and you could look

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inside different jobs, and then I could just like I

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think you'd maybe write down them the reference number, or

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maybe even take the card out and take it to

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the desk. I can't one million percent remember, and Viney's

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had a nice drink Liphilites. And now so it's eleven

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thirty two. He hasn't known his breakfast chat. But he

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has also had a bit of a weird night because

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he's been up with me and then asleep, and then up,

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then asleep. So I went in because I needed to

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get a job, and this sent me for an interview

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at this care home residential home. I don't even know where.

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It was an idea at the time because I worked there,

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I couldn't tell you now. So I know I can

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still remember the outlay of that town, but I don't

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remember where that nurse in the place was. Hmmm, I

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think if wait now, I don't know. So I turned

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up straight away. The woman in the kitchen, she was

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my boss. She didn't seem to take a liking to me.

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But in all fairness, I don't think I was particularly likable,

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not in a bad way. I just had a bit

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of an attitude on me, I think a little bit.

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I didn't want to be there. I was willing to work,

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I was a hard worker, but I just I wasn't

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interested in the job. It wasn't like it was my

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life's ambition to peel potatoes, which I've been doing for

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the last two years. To be fair, it's quite good

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at it, and I remember one point she was actually

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trying to say, no, that's not how you do it.

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I got a lot of experienced doing this, baby. She said,

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don't call me baby. I said, sorry. So she didn't

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like me and everything I didn't see to do anything right.

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It's all it was is just prep mainly just preparing

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the food. She did the cooking. I prepare the food,

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and then I got given responsibility of making the porridge.

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Now I've talked about the porridge incident, I don't need

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to talk about it again. Possibly, but no matter what

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I did, the porridge was not up to standard. It

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got kicked every day for I was there for two weeks,

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so a two week trial, I think I maybe it

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was a week's trial. It seemed like about a year,

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and every day people would complain the porridge was too thick,

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or it was too thin, too runny, it was too sweet,

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too salty, and it was never Basically, we had probably

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I don't know, fifty people living there, maybe maybe more,

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maybe less. They're all like their porridge different. You can't,

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it can't. It's just an impossible situation. In that kind

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of situation, they have to add their own sugar on

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their own salt. Don't they to make it how they

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want it to taste? Because I can't make one that's

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going to make everyone happy. So that got a bit frustrating.

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And back then I wasn't as amenable to criticism as

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perhaps I now. I'm not saying amenable now, but I

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was a little bit more reactive, So I was having

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arguments with people about it and just telling them what

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I thought. I said, just this is ridiculous. The whole

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situation was ridiculous. I mean, I can't I can't believe everyone.

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I think. I went into the into the where they

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all sat and ate, and I started shouting. I was like,

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you come and everyone, come in and cook your own porridge.

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And I got told off for that. The thing is,

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when I went there, I always had, you know, a

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bit a lot of respect for elderly people because because

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of how close I was to mynn. I just I

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guess I just automatically had this questionable respect I guess

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to elderly people because my name has always been old.

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When she's not around anymore. But I'm not saying she

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was born old, but ever since I've known her, ever

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since the age of seven, she's probably in her sixties

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then seven seventeen, twenty seven, thirty seven, forty seven. No, yeah,

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she's well, I know she's probably it's probably about my age.

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But anyway, it just didn't feel right that I was

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being I mean, some people are coming in shouting at me.

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Why are you shouting at me? You're old? You're supposed

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to be nice. I didn't realize that being old doesn't

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it doesn't mean anything, just doesn't mean someone's old. They're

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going to be like my name just because they were

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saying age, it's my name. At this point, I was

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what seventeen my name probably getting onto seventy at this point.

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She passed away when she was ninety five, I think

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ninety six, and that was ten years ago when I

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was forty forty four. So I can't work it out

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how old she'd have been when I was seventeen. You

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might be able to I can't. Forty four, thirty four,

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twenty four, So ninety eighty, seventy six, eight nine, ten, seven,

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sixty nine, so it makes sense about sixty nine, maybe

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sixty sixty nine seventy roughly, and she was seventeen year old.

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That's old it was to me. I mean, I realized

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now that sixty nine is very very young. I keep

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saying it to myself. Maybe it would come true. And

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I wasn't sure what to do with that job because

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it wasn't going well. And then there was an added

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element now when my step mom kind of when the

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family broke up. Let's say, and I went and lived

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with my step mom, my little brother, and my step

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mom's mom. I was sleeping on a look of camper

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bed in the living room for about blind me. It

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was nearly year, maybe ten months, yeah, nearly a year actually.

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So during that period she dated a couple of people,

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and she dated one particular person that had a motorbike,

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and I wasn't a big fan of him. I probably

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wasn't going to be a big fan of anyone that

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she was dating, to be honest, but it was not

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really any of my business. Well after she left and

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moved away and ended up, you know, starting a new

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life and that which was nineteen it was, yeah, just

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before I moved into the chip shop flat above the

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chip shop. That's when she moved. So that's when I

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didn't have anywhere to live. So you know, this all happened.

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That man on the motorbike was coming into the residential

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home every single morning to see the woman that was

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my boss because she was his not his actual mother,

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but like a mother to him, which is kind of ironic. Really,

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now I've missed a little bit out. This is going

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back another year. So the previous year after my stepmom,

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who I classed as my mom had moved away and

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I didn't really see her again after that. I had

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no regular contact since. And I was in a nightclub.

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I guess I was probably seventeen early setting on at

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late sixteen, so I don't know. It's hard to keep track,

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but I don't know. I was living above the chip

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shops during that year that I was living up there.

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I was in a nightclub with one of my friends,

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and this bloke, the motorblike bloke who used to date

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my step mom for a little while, came up to

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me and he whispered something in my ear. I can't

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tell you what it was you whispered. I can tell

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you part of the sentence. The first bit was I.

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That was the first word, and then there was another word,

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and then the last two words was your mum. He

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giggled and walked away. Now wasn't the nicest thing anyone

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could have done, to be honest, and even a lot

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older than me, a lot bigger, I just, I just

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it was difficult what to do with in that situation

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because I was still a kid. I was a teenager,

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and he was twenty six, twenty seven, twenty five, I

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don't know. Three times bigger than me. And then he's

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in there coming in. So a year later, he's in

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this place every day walking in. Told her how wonderful

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his mumm is, even though she's like she'say, his actual mum,

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which is a similar situation to me really because my

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mum wasn't my mum e but really not biologically. And

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I could see the irony in that to see how

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close he was to her and how important she was

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to him. Yeah, he wasn't able to see that, you know,

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and maybe he just didn't need forgotten it said it,

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but I hadn't. And the first he wasn't. I think

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it was he didn't come in the first day, but

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I think the second day came in and that was

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me done. That was like, nah, I stuck it. But

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I thought, I don't want to be here now if that,

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And I think I did say what's that idiot doing there?

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And she said that's my Sundays and he just just

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I let him know that I didn't want him. I

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didn't want to know him. But it was really weird,

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like kick coming in like really and yeah, I had

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some weird thoughts back then. So that wasn't good. But

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everything worked out and I got sacked. Everything worked that well.

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I got sacked. Basically my trial ended and he said,

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you know you're not you know you haven't passed a trial.

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I said, yeah, good. The only reason I stayed for

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the whole trial because of my dad, so I promised

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I would. I wouldn't have lasted probably two hours there,

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if it had just been me on my own. I

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wouldn't put up with that stuff because I was living

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with my dad. And when I told my only two

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week trial, like, just promise me, you'll stick it out

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for the trial, okay, okay, so I I you know,

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So I left there. My dad wasn't massively happy, but

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I managed to get another job within about a week,

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working at the co op. Now I can't remember why

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I'm talking. Oh yes, it's about movies, isn't it. So

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I started working at the co op, which is if

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you don't know what it is, it is like a

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it's a supermarket. It's big in the UK when England anyway,

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I don't know about other parts of the country or

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other parts of the land mass of which I live.

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And I worked in this co op and it was

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a small one. It was hm, I'd say it probably

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wasn't much maybe a little bit bigger than the average

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small shop, you know, probably a little bit bigger. And

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there was space around the back for deliveries. In fact,

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if they'd have removed all that, they could have had

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a much bigger shop, but they would have had to

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delivered from the front. So they had a storage for

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palettes and stuff. So it was a professional set up.

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And I started working there, I think it was, but

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within a week of stopping other place. I think it's

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like April time, nineteen eighty eight, and I didn't love it.

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Be that would be kind of the like the stamp

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line or the headline or the standard you know, response

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to pretty much every job I've ever had is I

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didn't really love it. This can't say I particularly liked

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any job I did. Maybe a couple I didn't mind

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too much, But you know, I've had what fifty sixty jobs. Yeah,

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there was times I quite liked working in insurance. I

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like being good at something, but I didn't like doing

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the thing I was good at, so selling car insurance

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on the phone, I didn't like doing it, but I

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enjoyed being the second best out of two hundred and

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fifty people that was nice, but the actual job itself.

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It was nice to see me myself on the leader

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board and sometimes the top salesperson of the week or

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the month, sometimes the second. It was all, you know.

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It was always like second or first, usually second, to

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be honest. So I could have just bragged and said first,

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you'd never know. But unfortunately, yeah, someone else was first

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most of the time because it was much better than me.

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It's as simple as that, wasn't it. Cody Cody, I

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think it's Cody's name.

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Was.

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It was just better than me. That's simple. So but

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it was still nice to be, you know, one of

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the best. But I didn't enjoy doing that kind of work.

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The only the only nice figure about it is perhaps

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being around people, and there was a bit of a

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social life, and it I kind of got a little

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bit of respect, I think because of how well I

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was doing. Maybe I don't know, So it was this

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partly okay hm hmm. But anyway, I get this job

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in the in the co op, really Vinny. They give

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me this horrible brown jacket when I'll go first go

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in there. So I've got trousers and a shirt and

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a tie, and they give me this brown melly. It

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had a weird smell. It wasn't smelly as in covered

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in dog pooh or anything like that. It was just smelly.

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It just had a weird smell. And I didn't like

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that because I didn't want customers coming in thinking that

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that was me. Because I was fairly hygienic back then.

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I'm not saying i'm not now, but I was proper,

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you know, because I hoped to be able to have

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a girlfriend one day, so I knew I needed to

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sort of smell nice and look presentable.

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I like.

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Now, so I'm in there, they give me this, and

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it's too tight, bearing in mind a way like maybe

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or nine stone or something, some skinny, really skinny, and

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this and they give me a jacket that's too small

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for me if I'm constricted. Now, it's very hard for

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someone a male being nine stone to where something that's

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constrictive because I was tiny. It was really really really

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really little. I mean I wouldn't be able to even

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get my arms through it. Now it'd be you know,

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it would it would be ridiculous. But I struggled even then. Eventually.

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Sorry about the noise. If you can hear the the

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screaming people in the garden. I managed to get a

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bigger one in the end, but then it was too big.

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I couldn't win the problem with I got, I'm broader

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than I am long, So I'm sure I realized that

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as I put weight on, I actually had the bone

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structure to have the weight, and then realize it back then,

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so I've got I'm not and I said, I don't

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have long arms. So it's quite hard for me to

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buy stuff now as well. If I buy some trousers,

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it's hard for me to buy trousers that are the

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right length. And when I buy something that fits my

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upper body because like XL or XXL whatever, usually the

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sleeves are too long because of my arm. My arms

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don't match my body like length wise, I'm more girthed

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than length as it were. And so I'm working in

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this shop. I remember getting in there and one of

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the things one of my main jobs to start with

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was to load the bread section, so to put the

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the bread and I suppose the cakes and all that

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stuff into the you know, the bread section, which was

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low down, which wasn't really an issue back then because

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I was able to bend down comfortably. And then other things,

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you know. I think when the deliveries came, had to

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kind of check everything off on the list from the palette,

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and then there was busy periods, especially kind of I

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think about half ten, and then at lunch time they

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seemed to get busy, so I there'd to be a

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separate till. Then there's two separate toils, the big tool

470
00:40:00.760 --> 00:40:03.360
or the front you know, on the main counter where

471
00:40:03.360 --> 00:40:05.519
all the cigarettes would be high end and the alcohol

472
00:40:05.519 --> 00:40:11.280
and all that stuff, and there was a shutter that

473
00:40:11.440 --> 00:40:15.199
for that section because it could only be they could

474
00:40:15.199 --> 00:40:19.920
only serve that stuff from half eleven in the morning

475
00:40:20.079 --> 00:40:24.920
till I think two o'clock in the afternoon, because that

476
00:40:25.039 --> 00:40:30.920
was the license in ours. I don't know if it

477
00:40:30.960 --> 00:40:35.239
was just the alcohol, and I don't think I was

478
00:40:35.280 --> 00:40:37.960
allowed to sell cigarettes. I wasn't allowed to sell alcohol

479
00:40:37.960 --> 00:40:41.559
anyway because I was only seventeen, so I had to

480
00:40:41.599 --> 00:40:46.480
get every time every time I wanted to get, So

481
00:40:46.480 --> 00:40:49.519
every time wanted alcohol, I had to ask permission for

482
00:40:49.559 --> 00:40:54.880
remembers staff to sell this alcohol. So I wasn't asking

483
00:40:55.239 --> 00:41:00.519
the customer's age, I wasn't asking my own because I

484
00:41:00.559 --> 00:41:02.519
knew what it was. But it was weird. I was

485
00:41:02.599 --> 00:41:06.840
kind of getting permission for myself rather than for them.

486
00:41:07.239 --> 00:41:11.800
And sometimes I'd had people come in that were younger

487
00:41:11.800 --> 00:41:14.960
than me, and I'd just deserve them if I could,

488
00:41:15.400 --> 00:41:18.840
because at that time I didn't like I wanted to

489
00:41:18.880 --> 00:41:22.280
be served, so it was hard. So if I saw

490
00:41:22.360 --> 00:41:25.719
someone that was able to get served, I'd always serve them.

491
00:41:25.800 --> 00:41:28.039
Then they could perhaps get me something in the future,

492
00:41:28.679 --> 00:41:30.280
you know, if I was out and I needed to

493
00:41:30.440 --> 00:41:33.000
get something from the shop, they'd go in and buy

494
00:41:33.000 --> 00:41:35.880
it for me. So that was that was quite good.

495
00:41:39.599 --> 00:41:43.559
I couldn't hear that. I don't know how loud that

496
00:41:43.719 --> 00:41:48.360
is on the microphone. I can't do anything about it.

497
00:41:51.519 --> 00:41:57.360
I suppose I could close the window. I'm just a

498
00:41:57.400 --> 00:42:00.440
bit a bit careful about closing the window when they're

499
00:42:00.440 --> 00:42:02.159
out there, because if they see me close the window,

500
00:42:02.159 --> 00:42:09.480
they might just up the volume, you know. So like anyway,

501
00:42:09.559 --> 00:42:14.679
so I'm in this shop, and one of my memories

502
00:42:14.679 --> 00:42:17.480
of this, there's two memories I got really of working there.

503
00:42:18.519 --> 00:42:25.000
One was every break time, not dinner lunch, but every

504
00:42:25.639 --> 00:42:30.719
morning break I would get a packet of biscuits, usually

505
00:42:31.360 --> 00:42:35.079
figure rolls, but there were nice figure roles, they weren't.

506
00:42:36.320 --> 00:42:38.199
I mean, I've never had a figure roll I didn't like,

507
00:42:38.239 --> 00:42:40.960
but there were specific ones I liked. They were more

508
00:42:41.039 --> 00:42:47.360
flat than sausage drawl, can't type, and a can of

509
00:42:47.400 --> 00:42:51.800
coke and I'd buy that. Usually i'd buy it before

510
00:42:51.920 --> 00:42:54.000
my break so I could just go in and eat it.

511
00:42:54.039 --> 00:42:56.719
So i'd buy it first in the morning and then

512
00:42:56.760 --> 00:43:00.719
i'd go and eat it, or I'd pay for it later,

513
00:43:00.800 --> 00:43:03.760
you know, whichever way worked out. And I go and

514
00:43:03.840 --> 00:43:08.280
have my break listen to the radio. It was like

515
00:43:08.360 --> 00:43:16.280
fifteen minutes because we had this little little room were

516
00:43:16.480 --> 00:43:22.679
sync with a little table about three chairs. I think, then,

517
00:43:22.760 --> 00:43:29.719
can it make a bit more nise please? Okay, it

518
00:43:29.760 --> 00:43:36.199
doesn't want to. And I don't know what else was

519
00:43:36.239 --> 00:43:39.760
in there, probably a coat rack. I think it was

520
00:43:39.800 --> 00:43:42.199
locked as well, so we have to use the code

521
00:43:42.239 --> 00:43:47.800
to get in and out. And it'd be a radio playing.

522
00:43:48.360 --> 00:43:52.199
And I just remember this particular time because you can

523
00:43:52.280 --> 00:43:56.159
actually check the timings the years by these two songs

524
00:43:56.840 --> 00:44:01.119
everywhere by Fleetwood Mac and Fast Car by Tracy Chapman.

525
00:44:02.840 --> 00:44:08.920
For some reason, those two songs kept playing, not for

526
00:44:09.000 --> 00:44:11.960
the duration of me working there, but like you know,

527
00:44:12.599 --> 00:44:16.039
regularly for a few weeks. Those two songs just seemed

528
00:44:16.039 --> 00:44:21.000
to be playing on the radio, usually both of them

529
00:44:21.039 --> 00:44:24.519
in that fifteen minute section. For some reason. It's kind

530
00:44:24.519 --> 00:44:28.119
of weird, and it might be a lie as well.

531
00:44:28.599 --> 00:44:36.280
It might be a lie, it may be true.

532
00:44:37.000 --> 00:44:40.880
And another memory is I would go home while I

533
00:44:41.000 --> 00:44:45.400
go back to my dad's during lunch because he lived

534
00:44:45.440 --> 00:44:48.079
just up the road, and I was borrowing the bicycle

535
00:44:48.480 --> 00:44:52.119
which I think my stepmum used to use, and it

536
00:44:52.199 --> 00:44:59.880
was a girl's bike. Did you just say girl's bike? Yeah?

537
00:45:00.199 --> 00:45:02.960
And there still are girls bikes you can buy. They

538
00:45:03.000 --> 00:45:07.280
still do exist, believe or not. I've had this conversation before.

539
00:45:07.519 --> 00:45:12.199
I don't understand, right, why are girls bikes so much

540
00:45:12.239 --> 00:45:21.519
more comfortable than men's bikes. I haven't got that crossbar

541
00:45:21.679 --> 00:45:24.639
thing that you have to like get your foot all

542
00:45:24.679 --> 00:45:33.079
the way over. I don't. It's like, why just a

543
00:45:33.159 --> 00:45:35.400
nice so you can get you she better put your

544
00:45:35.400 --> 00:45:40.559
foot over to the other pedal easily. Why does it

545
00:45:40.599 --> 00:45:44.199
have to be a struggle. So I like that bike,

546
00:45:44.400 --> 00:45:46.440
and it had a basket in the front, and the

547
00:45:46.519 --> 00:45:55.719
saddle was comfy, so all three things that my previous

548
00:45:55.760 --> 00:46:05.840
bike did not have a comfortable saddle. Before I had

549
00:46:05.840 --> 00:46:12.039
the saddle, it used to basically, it was quite intrusive

550
00:46:12.119 --> 00:46:20.800
at times, very spiky, very thin and difficult to get

551
00:46:20.840 --> 00:46:26.639
my leg over it. And it didn't have us like

552
00:46:26.719 --> 00:46:29.960
a basket at the front. I suppose the only other

553
00:46:29.960 --> 00:46:34.119
difference for this is it was pink. So I was

554
00:46:34.559 --> 00:46:37.480
going backwards and forwards, and it took about six minutes

555
00:46:38.480 --> 00:46:40.800
to get there and get back, well, to get there

556
00:46:40.960 --> 00:46:44.800
and you know, either side of the journey. So I

557
00:46:44.800 --> 00:46:49.880
would leave about seven minutes to the hour to get

558
00:46:49.880 --> 00:46:55.199
home to get to work, which wasn't you know, really ideal.

559
00:46:56.400 --> 00:47:00.000
But anyway, I'd go back, so i'd have forty minutes

560
00:47:00.039 --> 00:47:05.840
it's out of the hour, and I'd watch Neighbors on TV.

561
00:47:06.800 --> 00:47:11.199
I'd get myself a sandwich, maybe a cup of tea

562
00:47:11.239 --> 00:47:14.840
I don't remember, and then i'd go back. So it

563
00:47:14.960 --> 00:47:21.239
got me out of the place, which was nice. So

564
00:47:22.199 --> 00:47:34.840
how did I end up? I just closed the window

565
00:47:34.880 --> 00:47:40.320
because it was excessively loud. I hope that that will

566
00:47:41.920 --> 00:47:48.000
keep some of the noise out. Oh where was I? Okay,

567
00:47:48.199 --> 00:47:51.480
so I'm working in this shop. I'm trying to get

568
00:47:51.480 --> 00:47:55.400
back to the movie. Question. Wow, this is a long

569
00:47:55.440 --> 00:47:58.039
way round the streets, isn't it To get back to that.

570
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:08.440
So what happened is I got on pretty well with

571
00:48:08.480 --> 00:48:13.800
the manager, or the manager is rather or the managers was, yeah,

572
00:48:13.840 --> 00:48:17.920
I was. I got weld with her, and she offered

573
00:48:17.960 --> 00:48:24.079
me to rent a room upstairs. Because she being a manager,

574
00:48:24.400 --> 00:48:28.880
she had the flat upstairs, so she offered me to

575
00:48:28.960 --> 00:48:33.559
rent me a room up there. And I think part

576
00:48:33.559 --> 00:48:35.239
of the reason was so that i'd be on time

577
00:48:35.280 --> 00:48:40.000
for work, so because i'd be late a little bit,

578
00:48:40.000 --> 00:48:43.159
I need a few minutes. But and I thought, yeah,

579
00:48:43.199 --> 00:48:45.239
it's quite good because then I can just go upstairs

580
00:48:45.320 --> 00:48:48.639
during my break and being with my dad was only

581
00:48:48.679 --> 00:48:53.400
ever temporary anyway, so it's just yeah, suited me, so

582
00:48:53.480 --> 00:48:57.480
I moved upstairs. It was quite good. Actually, at times

583
00:48:57.880 --> 00:48:59.880
she was a bit noisy because she was really into

584
00:49:00.079 --> 00:49:10.239
CBE radio, So all night all of hers over over.

585
00:49:12.280 --> 00:49:15.360
Do you copy? Do you copy all that stuff? Whatever?

586
00:49:15.440 --> 00:49:20.559
The CB radio thing is very loud, and I don't

587
00:49:20.599 --> 00:49:22.000
know how she managed to get up in the morning

588
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:27.199
because she didn't seem to sleep. She was talking to men,

589
00:49:28.920 --> 00:49:35.079
very popular, and it was nice. She had a lovely

590
00:49:35.119 --> 00:49:39.920
living room kitchen. She'd cook on a Sunday and sometimes

591
00:49:39.920 --> 00:49:42.880
I'd have a meal, and it was quite nice. I

592
00:49:42.960 --> 00:49:44.679
was kind of left alone to do what I wanted,

593
00:49:44.760 --> 00:49:49.519
and I had my own TV in my room. I

594
00:49:49.559 --> 00:49:52.719
didn't really get involved in her life, but we gone, well,

595
00:49:53.719 --> 00:49:56.199
you know, we did got on all right, and i'd

596
00:49:56.199 --> 00:49:59.039
go she'd drive. She had a car, so she'd drive

597
00:49:59.079 --> 00:50:06.119
me to KFC sometimes, and she wanted she was wanted

598
00:50:06.159 --> 00:50:08.760
to get something to eat, so I'd go with her

599
00:50:08.840 --> 00:50:14.880
and get myself for something. Yeah, it was okay. And

600
00:50:17.039 --> 00:50:20.280
I made friends with some of her friends, and yeah,

601
00:50:20.440 --> 00:50:22.559
so it's okay. Anyway, I said that a lot. I

602
00:50:22.559 --> 00:50:27.679
haven't know so I'm at work. It's really good at

603
00:50:27.679 --> 00:50:34.599
singing as well. And I did stay friends with for

604
00:50:34.719 --> 00:50:37.679
quite a long time, even after what happens next happened.

605
00:50:39.239 --> 00:50:45.480
So it was weird because I'm at work. There's only

606
00:50:45.760 --> 00:50:55.920
me her one other person that was the manager who

607
00:50:56.000 --> 00:50:59.880
was like the assistant manager, but she didn't work full time,

608
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:03.360
I don't think, and there was a couple of part

609
00:51:03.400 --> 00:51:06.599
time staff and me, so I was only I was

610
00:51:06.639 --> 00:51:09.920
the only full time staff member. And then the other

611
00:51:10.039 --> 00:51:13.559
lady who is the assistant manager. I think she did

612
00:51:13.719 --> 00:51:17.880
like by thirty hours a week or something. Because she

613
00:51:17.960 --> 00:51:20.679
was a grandparent. She was lovely she was thinking. Her

614
00:51:20.760 --> 00:51:24.639
name was Brenda, and she gave me a Michael Jackson album,

615
00:51:24.880 --> 00:51:29.159
The Bad Not Bad Thriller. She was lovely. I really

616
00:51:29.199 --> 00:51:33.920
liked her. So technically you could say this was quite

617
00:51:33.960 --> 00:51:37.840
a successful job because I got on well with the

618
00:51:37.880 --> 00:51:43.199
assistant manager. I became pretty good friends with the part

619
00:51:43.239 --> 00:51:45.800
time worker. We had a little bit of a conflict

620
00:51:45.800 --> 00:51:47.840
at the beginning, but that was just me, that's all.

621
00:51:48.119 --> 00:51:52.119
That's how I made friends, and then we became friends.

622
00:51:52.119 --> 00:51:54.280
And he was lucky, ye younger than me or something.

623
00:51:56.599 --> 00:51:59.760
And the manager I was living with her. So it

624
00:51:59.800 --> 00:52:04.480
was kind of quite a good set up, really, and

625
00:52:05.320 --> 00:52:12.519
my job was very secure if I wanted to stay there. Now.

626
00:52:12.559 --> 00:52:15.760
The area manager was called mister Cook. I don't know

627
00:52:15.760 --> 00:52:18.280
why I remember this, but it was like a troll.

628
00:52:18.360 --> 00:52:23.679
It was like I had to explain it, like something

629
00:52:23.719 --> 00:52:25.519
that lived under a bridge. It was like that.

630
00:52:27.000 --> 00:52:29.719
Just he talked like this, meaning.

631
00:52:31.480 --> 00:52:35.239
He didn't like me. Perhaps I shouldn't have told him

632
00:52:35.360 --> 00:52:37.840
what he sounded like and did an impression of him

633
00:52:37.880 --> 00:52:39.920
in front of him. Perhaps that's why I didn't like me.

634
00:52:41.039 --> 00:52:43.159
But that's why I did the impression, because he wasn't

635
00:52:43.280 --> 00:52:48.039
very friendly, and I think he all, but said pretty much,

636
00:52:48.119 --> 00:52:50.000
the only reason I was still there is because the

637
00:52:50.079 --> 00:52:54.440
manager wanted me to stay, and I think she only

638
00:52:54.440 --> 00:52:57.360
wanted me to stay because she was getting rent, so

639
00:52:57.679 --> 00:53:00.360
you know, it was kind of one of those. But

640
00:53:00.440 --> 00:53:06.719
he said no, he wasn't pleased with my progression. So

641
00:53:06.840 --> 00:53:09.320
even though the manager wanted me to stay, she was

642
00:53:09.400 --> 00:53:11.840
clearly not giving me a very good appraise. I wish

643
00:53:11.880 --> 00:53:17.320
you so. Plus, I had a bit of an attitude

644
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:20.400
on me as well back then. Hard to believe, but

645
00:53:20.440 --> 00:53:24.840
I was a little bit rude. By rude, I don't

646
00:53:24.840 --> 00:53:29.480
mean rude, rude, but I didn't play the game. I

647
00:53:29.519 --> 00:53:36.199
didn't suck up to anyone ever. At any point. I

648
00:53:36.360 --> 00:53:40.159
was an extra polite to people just because they were

649
00:53:41.960 --> 00:53:47.000
in a higher position, because at that time, everybody was

650
00:53:47.039 --> 00:53:50.119
at a higher position than me. In pretty much every job

651
00:53:50.159 --> 00:53:53.320
I've ever had, I've never been in a high position.

652
00:53:54.519 --> 00:53:58.199
So I just treat people the same way as I

653
00:53:58.199 --> 00:54:02.320
treat anyone else. I like to think, you know, fairly respectfully,

654
00:54:04.159 --> 00:54:09.039
But as soon as they don't with me back then, anyway,

655
00:54:10.400 --> 00:54:14.840
it would be gloves are off. So you know, if

656
00:54:14.840 --> 00:54:21.679
I was when I was fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen,

657
00:54:21.840 --> 00:54:25.480
twenty twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four, twenty five,

658
00:54:26.000 --> 00:54:29.840
twenty six, twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty thirty one,

659
00:54:30.039 --> 00:54:33.639
thirty two, thirty three, thirty four, thirty five, thirty six,

660
00:54:33.679 --> 00:54:41.199
thirty seven, thirty eight, thirty nine, forty pretty much until

661
00:54:41.239 --> 00:54:46.280
I was no longer working. Once I stopped working, I

662
00:54:46.320 --> 00:54:49.880
was a much better employee, much more patient.

663
00:54:51.519 --> 00:54:55.079
And hmm wow.

664
00:54:56.400 --> 00:54:58.000
But if people were nice to me, I'd be nice

665
00:54:58.039 --> 00:55:01.840
to them. As soon as someone kind of turned and

666
00:55:01.880 --> 00:55:07.119
they were rude, I'd like, okay. And I think one

667
00:55:07.159 --> 00:55:10.960
of the hardest things are always as I got older,

668
00:55:13.159 --> 00:55:18.880
my bosses became younger. So I'm in my thirties mid

669
00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:22.920
thirties and my boss was like twenty one, which wasn't

670
00:55:22.960 --> 00:55:25.199
an issue because I really liked him. He was one

671
00:55:25.239 --> 00:55:28.880
of the nicest people I've ever known. But I had

672
00:55:28.880 --> 00:55:31.280
a previous boss who was like twenty two when I

673
00:55:31.320 --> 00:55:35.039
was thirty one. Okain, a nice bloke, but he was

674
00:55:35.519 --> 00:55:38.039
just it didn't seem to know what he was doing.

675
00:55:39.480 --> 00:55:42.519
His answer to any question was what do you think

676
00:55:42.599 --> 00:55:49.079
the answer is? It's like, okay, That's not a way

677
00:55:49.119 --> 00:55:53.239
to answer a question, what do you think? The answer is,

678
00:55:56.920 --> 00:56:01.119
whow there's a moth inside here since this morning. I

679
00:56:01.119 --> 00:56:02.800
don't know how I got in, probably through the window

680
00:56:02.840 --> 00:56:05.880
because the window was open. That's a weird question, wasn't

681
00:56:05.880 --> 00:56:12.360
it seems to be interested in my shirt? But my

682
00:56:12.480 --> 00:56:17.480
shirts are clean that moths, don't you know what I mean.

683
00:56:17.480 --> 00:56:20.480
It's only been on the hangar for a few years.

684
00:56:20.679 --> 00:56:25.360
I don't think the moth would have got to it. So, yeah,

685
00:56:25.519 --> 00:56:31.960
I lived in this place upstairs. So I go to

686
00:56:32.079 --> 00:56:41.760
work one day. I'm just in there, just a normal day. Yeah,

687
00:56:42.079 --> 00:56:47.000
I remember the So I'm standing there. Two people come in,

688
00:56:47.119 --> 00:56:50.000
a man and a woman and stand at the counter,

689
00:56:52.280 --> 00:56:57.239
the assistant manager. So the manager's standing beyond the counter.

690
00:56:59.199 --> 00:57:02.480
Who I lived with if the assistant manager walks up

691
00:57:02.519 --> 00:57:05.800
to the door, closes it and locks it and puts

692
00:57:05.880 --> 00:57:09.760
closed sign up and tells me to go into the

693
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:14.960
door into the staff room. And I'm walking in there

694
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:18.440
and say, but I've got my my my figure. I

695
00:57:18.559 --> 00:57:21.400
was in my can of coke and she said this

696
00:57:21.440 --> 00:57:26.119
isn't a break. I said, okay, We're just going into

697
00:57:26.159 --> 00:57:28.039
the other room. So I went into the storage room

698
00:57:28.519 --> 00:57:32.480
into the staff room. I had no idea what was

699
00:57:32.519 --> 00:57:37.480
going on. It's like I asked her and she wouldn't

700
00:57:37.519 --> 00:57:44.280
tell me. And then I was in there for about

701
00:57:46.159 --> 00:57:54.639
an hour, maybe less, but about an hour, and then

702
00:57:54.760 --> 00:57:58.639
the what's the name that the assistant manager came in

703
00:58:02.480 --> 00:58:04.760
if I think that, yeah, maybe someone else, but I

704
00:58:04.800 --> 00:58:07.920
think she came in and she said what happened? Told

705
00:58:07.960 --> 00:58:14.760
me what happened. So the manager, the people at the

706
00:58:14.800 --> 00:58:24.239
front desk were underclover undercover police, and the co op

707
00:58:25.000 --> 00:58:28.800
thought that someone was stealing money, so they set up

708
00:58:28.840 --> 00:58:31.920
the manager. They set her up. They basically gave us

709
00:58:31.960 --> 00:58:37.639
some marked money and when they came back in, they

710
00:58:37.679 --> 00:58:39.679
searched her and she had that money in her pocket

711
00:58:42.159 --> 00:58:48.199
as like twenty could or something. And as I said earlier,

712
00:58:48.199 --> 00:58:50.440
I still stayed friends with her. I was living with her,

713
00:58:51.480 --> 00:58:54.440
and I still stayed friends with her for years afterwards. So,

714
00:58:55.280 --> 00:58:59.119
you know, he made a mistake and she lost a

715
00:58:59.239 --> 00:59:07.039
job or the spot, which was not good for me.

716
00:59:07.360 --> 00:59:09.199
It wasn't good for her either, to be honest. I

717
00:59:09.239 --> 00:59:20.559
mean she did get another job, but it was I

718
00:59:20.679 --> 00:59:23.400
was kind of with her during the process, during the

719
00:59:23.480 --> 00:59:27.519
whole because I think it went to court quite quickly,

720
00:59:27.679 --> 00:59:31.679
and she I think she ended up getting suspended sentence

721
00:59:31.800 --> 00:59:37.000
or something like that. They couldn't prove previous money going

722
00:59:37.039 --> 00:59:39.519
missing or anything like that, so all they had proof

723
00:59:39.559 --> 00:59:46.079
of was just that one to twenty pound note the

724
00:59:46.119 --> 00:59:52.039
manager when it's the assistant. I said to the assistant manager,

725
00:59:53.079 --> 00:59:56.639
are you now going to be the new manager? And

726
00:59:56.679 --> 01:00:01.000
she said no, I'm I don't do enough hours. I

727
01:00:01.000 --> 01:00:05.599
couldn't do that. I said, oh, and she's shouting. Straight away.

728
01:00:05.679 --> 01:00:07.320
She came back and me said, it's not going to

729
01:00:07.320 --> 01:00:10.559
be you either. I said I don't know. He said no,

730
01:00:10.599 --> 01:00:11.960
you didn't. You thought it was going to be you.

731
01:00:12.320 --> 01:00:14.360
I said no, I didn't. He said, yes she did.

732
01:00:14.360 --> 01:00:16.000
I could see the look on your face. You started

733
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:18.400
looking around all the cakes she could buy with the

734
01:00:18.440 --> 01:00:23.280
extra money. I was like, wow, she could read my mind,

735
01:00:24.400 --> 01:00:26.360
because back then that's what I would do with money.

736
01:00:27.840 --> 01:00:32.760
I pay Rise more cakes and biscuits. That's my mentality

737
01:00:32.800 --> 01:00:40.320
back then. It hasn't changed that much anyway. What happened

738
01:00:40.360 --> 01:00:45.760
next wasn't so good because we got a new lady. Well,

739
01:00:45.960 --> 01:00:47.840
it was just that they happened to be a fit

740
01:00:48.320 --> 01:00:53.800
and we got we got someone nice, came in for

741
01:00:53.840 --> 01:00:56.639
a week or two, and then we had this woman

742
01:00:57.119 --> 01:01:01.519
comes along and she didn't like me h for some reason,

743
01:01:02.599 --> 01:01:04.000
and we didn't get.

744
01:01:03.880 --> 01:01:18.440
On, and yeah, we really didn't get on, and in

745
01:01:18.480 --> 01:01:19.000
the end.

746
01:01:19.239 --> 01:01:27.719
I didn't like her so much. I left. But in

747
01:01:27.760 --> 01:01:33.440
the meantime I was still living upstairs, so I think

748
01:01:33.760 --> 01:01:36.639
what's the name the manager who went upstairs. They had

749
01:01:36.679 --> 01:01:44.320
to give her three months notice to move out, eviction notice.

750
01:01:44.800 --> 01:01:47.920
So that was the very first time I'd ever been evicted.

751
01:01:48.800 --> 01:01:51.679
So that wasn't me specifically, but it was I was

752
01:01:51.760 --> 01:01:53.679
part of the eviction because I was homeless as well

753
01:01:53.719 --> 01:01:59.760
when she got kicked out. So that was during this

754
01:02:00.559 --> 01:02:05.599
I think we I started working. So I moved in

755
01:02:05.639 --> 01:02:17.880
there probably June maybe, and I moved out possibly October,

756
01:02:20.079 --> 01:02:23.920
maybe November, because at that point I'd already got a

757
01:02:23.960 --> 01:02:27.760
new job in the September, so I had to wait

758
01:02:27.800 --> 01:02:30.079
till I was eighteen years old before I applied for

759
01:02:30.159 --> 01:02:35.440
this factory job. And I was working there and I'd

760
01:02:35.480 --> 01:02:37.760
been there for at least a month maybe two before

761
01:02:37.800 --> 01:02:44.000
I moved out. So yeah, so this this whole kind

762
01:02:44.039 --> 01:02:54.760
of police thing must have happened July, August, September something

763
01:02:54.840 --> 01:02:59.760
like that. Anyway, in the meantime, I think it was

764
01:02:59.800 --> 01:03:03.199
before four, before she and while she was still working there,

765
01:03:04.559 --> 01:03:08.599
I was sitting in my room. I had a TV on.

766
01:03:08.679 --> 01:03:10.599
I had a little black and white port or TV,

767
01:03:12.719 --> 01:03:15.239
just watching TV. You know, it was three channels back then.

768
01:03:17.119 --> 01:03:21.559
No four channels sorry, BBC one, BBC two, ITV and

769
01:03:21.679 --> 01:03:30.920
Channel four. And it was either Saturday afternoon or a

770
01:03:31.039 --> 01:03:34.159
Sunday afternoon. I couldn't tell you which one it was

771
01:03:34.159 --> 01:03:38.159
one of them. And I'm just sitting up in a

772
01:03:38.159 --> 01:03:43.119
bed watching a TV and this movie is on and

773
01:03:43.159 --> 01:03:46.440
I've never seen it before. I didn't realize it was

774
01:03:46.440 --> 01:03:48.199
in black and white because of TV. It was in

775
01:03:48.280 --> 01:03:56.519
black and white. And before anyone says, how old are you?

776
01:03:56.519 --> 01:03:59.079
You're seventeen years old and you're watching a black and

777
01:03:59.079 --> 01:04:02.679
white TV. No, we did have color TVs back then.

778
01:04:02.719 --> 01:04:06.519
I just couldn't afford one. So I had a black

779
01:04:06.559 --> 01:04:12.800
and white TV and I or maybe I could afford one.

780
01:04:12.840 --> 01:04:15.400
I don't know, probably could have done. I don't know

781
01:04:15.400 --> 01:04:20.199
how much they was back when. I know I was

782
01:04:20.199 --> 01:04:26.840
earning sixty pounds a week from working in the co op,

783
01:04:28.519 --> 01:04:37.000
or sixty two pounds something like that. Yeah, this is

784
01:04:37.039 --> 01:04:40.079
weird because when I was fifteen, I was earning sixty

785
01:04:40.079 --> 01:04:44.280
pounds a week working in the chip shop when I

786
01:04:44.320 --> 01:04:48.679
was fifteen for the first few months up till September,

787
01:04:48.719 --> 01:04:52.559
so from like April to September, I was getting sixty

788
01:04:52.559 --> 01:04:55.880
pounds a week. Then I went onto the Hitts scheme,

789
01:04:55.920 --> 01:04:58.719
which is the youth training scheme, and my money went

790
01:04:58.760 --> 01:05:02.519
down to twenty seven pound thirty a week for the

791
01:05:02.559 --> 01:05:06.559
first year. Second year was thirty five pounds a week.

792
01:05:08.639 --> 01:05:10.599
So when I started working a co op and I

793
01:05:10.639 --> 01:05:13.239
was getting sixty pound a week, it was like a

794
01:05:13.320 --> 01:05:18.760
huge amount of money. Again, still not very a good

795
01:05:18.760 --> 01:05:22.440
amount of money, but you know, it was okay. I

796
01:05:22.440 --> 01:05:24.880
was probably paying twenty five pounds a week for rent

797
01:05:28.239 --> 01:05:30.679
something like that. I can't i'd have to, I don't know,

798
01:05:31.400 --> 01:05:34.800
something like that. Probably, I think the average room was

799
01:05:34.840 --> 01:05:42.960
about twenty five thirty pounds a week and then, but

800
01:05:43.000 --> 01:05:47.280
I didn't have to pay any rent once my what's

801
01:05:47.320 --> 01:05:52.400
the name my landlady, Well she wasn't really my landlady antmore,

802
01:05:52.480 --> 01:05:54.760
was she because she was being a victed but and

803
01:05:54.800 --> 01:05:59.639
she didn't work for the company anymore. Once she lost

804
01:05:59.639 --> 01:06:04.519
her job, she didn't have to pay any rent because

805
01:06:04.559 --> 01:06:06.880
she was I think I think she got the flat

806
01:06:06.920 --> 01:06:09.599
with the job, but I think she was also paying rent.

807
01:06:09.639 --> 01:06:16.039
I don't know either that, or I just stopped paying rent.

808
01:06:18.760 --> 01:06:21.480
That might have been the situation. It's like, well, you

809
01:06:21.519 --> 01:06:26.000
don't work downstairs anymore, I'm not paying rent. And then

810
01:06:26.039 --> 01:06:28.360
I left and I didn't have any money coming anyway,

811
01:06:28.800 --> 01:06:33.719
other than a couple of part time jobs cleaning. Yeah,

812
01:06:33.800 --> 01:06:36.519
I had a part a couple of part times jobs

813
01:06:36.559 --> 01:06:43.400
cleaning one in the morning, one in the evening, so

814
01:06:43.440 --> 01:06:48.880
that gave me enough to like eat, you know. And

815
01:06:48.920 --> 01:06:53.280
then I got a job in this other company, so

816
01:06:53.960 --> 01:07:02.920
I h the timescale is not quite working out. But anyway,

817
01:07:02.960 --> 01:07:04.840
I did get a job in this maybe it'd only

818
01:07:04.840 --> 01:07:09.159
be now a month before we had to get out.

819
01:07:09.639 --> 01:07:14.800
And then I found a room on the seafront. And

820
01:07:14.920 --> 01:07:17.320
the weird thing about it this lady that took over

821
01:07:17.400 --> 01:07:22.280
the manager's job. I left the job because of her,

822
01:07:22.679 --> 01:07:27.320
because she was I just didn't get on with her.

823
01:07:29.239 --> 01:07:36.000
The irony is this the room I moved into after

824
01:07:36.039 --> 01:07:38.119
I was evicted from the flat ab of the co op.

825
01:07:40.280 --> 01:07:44.360
I didn't really like living there, and I moved And

826
01:07:44.400 --> 01:07:48.199
the room I moved into was a house owned by

827
01:07:48.239 --> 01:07:51.199
the lady that was the manager of the co op

828
01:07:52.960 --> 01:07:58.000
the new manager. So I literally lived rented rooms of

829
01:07:58.159 --> 01:08:01.400
two managers of the same co op at different times,

830
01:08:02.519 --> 01:08:05.800
except the second one owned her house as she had

831
01:08:05.840 --> 01:08:13.960
it as a I don't know, like lodging's thing, and

832
01:08:14.000 --> 01:08:18.399
I moved in there when I was eighteen, and I

833
01:08:18.439 --> 01:08:26.479
lived there. That was at the end of the end

834
01:08:26.560 --> 01:08:30.680
of nineteen eighty eight, so probably I was definitely in

835
01:08:30.760 --> 01:08:43.880
that house in December till probably February eighty nine. The

836
01:08:43.920 --> 01:08:45.560
weird thing about it is I got on really well

837
01:08:45.560 --> 01:08:48.760
with it then, so outside of work, I got on

838
01:08:48.800 --> 01:08:51.520
a k over. Inside work, we didn't get on so well,

839
01:08:53.239 --> 01:08:56.720
so I just turned up at the end. It was weird,

840
01:08:59.199 --> 01:09:02.840
you know. I phoned up about a place so it

841
01:09:02.960 --> 01:09:05.399
going to come and a look at the room. Person

842
01:09:05.439 --> 01:09:07.880
on the phone said, yeah, turn up, and she answered

843
01:09:07.920 --> 01:09:09.840
the door, and I'm thinking, oh, God, don't tell me

844
01:09:09.880 --> 01:09:13.399
you live here as well. I thought she might rent

845
01:09:13.439 --> 01:09:19.760
a room, didn't know she owned the place. And I

846
01:09:19.760 --> 01:09:23.159
suppose because maybe because I was making her money, you know,

847
01:09:23.199 --> 01:09:26.199
I was paying her mortgage. I suppose wasn't me and

848
01:09:26.239 --> 01:09:31.199
the other five people that lived there, so she viewed

849
01:09:31.239 --> 01:09:34.039
me in a different way, I was no longer a

850
01:09:34.079 --> 01:09:37.600
fawn in her side that maybe she thought of I

851
01:09:37.800 --> 01:09:45.520
was before. Hmm, Yeah, that didn't work too well either,

852
01:09:45.640 --> 01:09:48.760
but so yeah, so that was one of the many

853
01:09:48.800 --> 01:09:52.600
places I lived. But I just remember that movie watching

854
01:09:52.840 --> 01:09:55.079
It's a Wonderful Life on that black and white TV

855
01:09:57.359 --> 01:09:59.399
and it was one of the first movies that were

856
01:09:59.439 --> 01:10:07.840
really had an effect on me and really had I

857
01:10:07.880 --> 01:10:21.119
don't want to say spiritual, but it had emotional maybe. Yeah,

858
01:10:21.159 --> 01:10:25.840
So thank you for that, hope. It's only taken me

859
01:10:25.880 --> 01:10:28.359
three hours to answer that one. So the next question

860
01:10:28.359 --> 01:10:34.760
I've got is Isabelle ooh, it says out there, ooh.

861
01:10:35.039 --> 01:10:40.560
Maybe this has been asked before, but what dog? What

862
01:10:40.720 --> 01:10:45.359
kind of dog is Vinnie? Also, where are some of

863
01:10:45.359 --> 01:10:50.560
your listeners from? Oh, okay, that's going to involve me

864
01:10:50.640 --> 01:11:00.760
looking at the stats. Yeah, so Vinnie is a little

865
01:11:00.840 --> 01:11:06.279
red jack Russell, which was I suppose kind of like

866
01:11:06.600 --> 01:11:10.399
is it a Passon's dog or something? And yeah, so

867
01:11:10.439 --> 01:11:16.399
he's only a little thing. It's very noisy at times, screeches,

868
01:11:18.359 --> 01:11:21.840
hates being picked up. Apparently he didn't used to when

869
01:11:21.840 --> 01:11:24.199
he was first born, and then he just took a

870
01:11:24.239 --> 01:11:29.279
dislike to it and been like that ever since. So

871
01:11:29.399 --> 01:11:33.199
I don't know. Maybe someone dropped him, maybe you know,

872
01:11:33.279 --> 01:11:35.640
by accident, maybe because he had kids in his house

873
01:11:35.680 --> 01:11:37.760
when he was born, so maybe one of them picked

874
01:11:37.840 --> 01:11:41.479
him up and dropped him by accident and that frightened

875
01:11:41.520 --> 01:11:44.760
him into being picked up, or maybe they swung him

876
01:11:44.800 --> 01:11:49.039
around or somebody, you know, little kids. So I don't know.

877
01:11:49.399 --> 01:11:56.239
I really don't know. It just be guesswork. Where am

878
01:11:56.279 --> 01:12:11.279
my listeners from? This goes into two questions because revel

879
01:12:11.560 --> 01:12:16.159
Reveal asks she adds to this question love the idea

880
01:12:16.239 --> 01:12:20.359
about where everyone is from. Very interesting to see how

881
01:12:20.359 --> 01:12:25.840
many cultures are represented by the listeners. I think Jason

882
01:12:25.920 --> 01:12:30.960
has touched himself, and I've touched on this before though

883
01:12:31.720 --> 01:12:36.960
I have. I'm happy to go over again because stats

884
01:12:37.000 --> 01:12:38.600
are the thing that I love most in the whole

885
01:12:38.640 --> 01:12:43.079
wide world, the whole world, and we have a look.

886
01:12:43.920 --> 01:12:47.279
I'll based it on the last year, So I'm not

887
01:12:47.319 --> 01:12:49.439
going to go through the stats as in how many

888
01:12:49.920 --> 01:12:57.199
I just go through the stats as in geolocation. Okay,

889
01:12:58.159 --> 01:13:05.960
so I've got countries here, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight,

890
01:13:06.079 --> 01:13:10.640
ninety ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen,

891
01:13:11.640 --> 01:13:18.840
twenty two, twenty five, so it's twenty five different countries.

892
01:13:18.920 --> 01:13:22.680
This is on my spreaker. I'm also on sound Glad

893
01:13:22.720 --> 01:13:27.720
as well, so they could be more. So according to this,

894
01:13:28.119 --> 01:13:34.680
there's twenty five different countries. The United States is number one,

895
01:13:35.159 --> 01:13:38.720
always number one, always has been since I've been doing this.

896
01:13:39.520 --> 01:13:42.119
So the most listeners that I have ever got on

897
01:13:42.199 --> 01:13:46.920
any podcast over you know, nineteen years is nearly twenty

898
01:13:47.000 --> 01:13:54.840
years is the United States. Second is United Kingdom, which

899
01:13:54.880 --> 01:14:00.439
is where I live. It's kind of stayed the same much,

900
01:14:02.560 --> 01:14:07.199
I would say, to start with United States, there still

901
01:14:07.279 --> 01:14:09.680
is a lot more. I'm getting more than double the

902
01:14:09.720 --> 01:14:12.159
amount in America than I am in my own country,

903
01:14:14.079 --> 01:14:17.760
but it used to be a higher percentage, So the

904
01:14:17.760 --> 01:14:20.560
amount of people listening to me now in my own

905
01:14:20.600 --> 01:14:22.680
country is a lot more than it used to be.

906
01:14:25.640 --> 01:14:33.520
Number three is Australia, which is pretty much been a

907
01:14:33.640 --> 01:14:40.119
kind of standard over the years. Canada is number four,

908
01:14:42.880 --> 01:14:56.680
Ireland it's number five, Weeden is number six, Denmark is

909
01:14:57.079 --> 01:15:06.399
number seven. New Zealand is number eight. Now, there was

910
01:15:06.439 --> 01:15:08.880
a time when New Zealand would be up there with

911
01:15:09.359 --> 01:15:15.279
Canada and Australia and Ireland, and I don't think it's

912
01:15:15.319 --> 01:15:17.600
I've got less people in New Zealand listening. It's just

913
01:15:17.600 --> 01:15:23.479
I've got more people in Sweden and Denmark, Spain. Then

914
01:15:23.520 --> 01:15:42.800
I've got France, Norway, Germany, United Arab Emirates, the Netherlands, Chechia, Iceland, Iraq,

915
01:15:44.680 --> 01:16:04.920
South Africa, Turkey, Mexico, India, Belgium, Malta, Israel, and Singapore.

916
01:16:06.600 --> 01:16:14.079
They're the ones listed. So I don't I mean, I

917
01:16:14.920 --> 01:16:19.560
guess I'm guessing that people only listen if they can

918
01:16:20.800 --> 01:16:25.439
understand English. I guess it makes sense that would be

919
01:16:25.479 --> 01:16:30.600
the case, wouldn't it. But there might be people in

920
01:16:30.640 --> 01:16:36.039
these other countries that are maybe originally from England, or

921
01:16:36.199 --> 01:16:39.560
maybe people listening in one ano. There are people listening

922
01:16:39.560 --> 01:16:46.880
in the second language, not their birth language, their birth

923
01:16:47.039 --> 01:16:51.760
tongue as it were. So I'm grateful. I'm grateful for

924
01:16:51.840 --> 01:16:57.840
anyone that listens. Everyone. It's amazing that anyone listens. Really

925
01:17:00.039 --> 01:17:02.680
didn't really say that, should I but I'm still amazed.

926
01:17:04.159 --> 01:17:09.000
It's why does anyone this than ever? I don't know.

927
01:17:11.159 --> 01:17:16.279
Let's see if it's changed over the last month, current

928
01:17:17.239 --> 01:17:22.520
last month. Let's see what the geolocation is more recently,

929
01:17:22.600 --> 01:17:27.840
rather than just over the entire year. Ah, this is interesting.

930
01:17:30.479 --> 01:17:34.640
So the United States is the top and it's still

931
01:17:34.680 --> 01:17:40.800
double what United Kingdom is. Then you've got Australia, Canada, Sweden,

932
01:17:42.159 --> 01:17:47.960
so one, two three, fourth, Sweden's fifth. Now Ireland was

933
01:17:48.000 --> 01:17:51.319
fifth for the whole year, but Sweden's fifth more recently

934
01:17:51.840 --> 01:18:02.399
then Ireland, France, Denmark, chech New Zealand, United Arab Emirates, Somalia,

935
01:18:03.119 --> 01:18:06.479
so that wasn't on the overall year. One was a Spain,

936
01:18:06.880 --> 01:18:20.359
South Africa, Turkey, Iraq, Mexico, Finland, Malaysia, Greece, Belgium, Germany, Norway, Jordan, Algeria.

937
01:18:20.640 --> 01:18:23.319
So if I go by month, it breaks it down more.

938
01:18:23.560 --> 01:18:28.960
It shows more countries because I think what it is.

939
01:18:29.000 --> 01:18:32.760
If I go for like the whole year, it only shows.

940
01:18:34.520 --> 01:18:36.800
It's limited to how many It kind of shows then

941
01:18:36.920 --> 01:18:44.319
says others. That makes sense, I say, last twelve months. Yeah,

942
01:18:45.359 --> 01:18:48.079
I mean there's there's a lot of others which it

943
01:18:48.079 --> 01:18:54.119
doesn't even mention. So it's four point five percent. So

944
01:18:54.239 --> 01:18:58.439
over the last year, four point five percent or just

945
01:18:58.560 --> 01:19:04.520
under five percent of my total listeners come from other

946
01:19:04.560 --> 01:19:11.279
countries than the ones that I already mentioned. So yeah,

947
01:19:11.439 --> 01:19:16.560
that's there's a lot of countries. Probably pretty much every

948
01:19:16.600 --> 01:19:19.279
country in the world. I guess there might only be

949
01:19:19.319 --> 01:19:32.000
a few, but still quite nice. As far as where abouts,

950
01:19:33.920 --> 01:19:41.079
and you've got United States, there are one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

951
01:19:41.199 --> 01:19:51.680
eight nine ten. Wow. These are regions are California, So Texas, Florida, Illinois,

952
01:19:51.920 --> 01:20:02.199
New York, Maryland, Pennsylvania, Arizona, North Carolina, New Jersey, Washington, Utah, Ohio,

953
01:20:03.279 --> 01:20:40.479
South Carolina, Massachusetts, Michigan, Indiana, Virginia, Oregon, Missouri, Connecticut, Minnesota, Colorado, Mississississippi, Maine, Montana, Wiconsin, Georgia, Alabama, Kentucky, Tennessee, Iowa, Kansas, Alaska, Nevada,

954
01:20:41.039 --> 01:20:55.000
New Mexico, Delaware, Oklahoma, Louisiana, District of Columbia, New Hampshire, Idaho, Hawaii, Arkansas,

955
01:20:55.720 --> 01:21:05.760
North Dakota, West Virginia, Nebraska, Rhode Island, Vermont, South Dakota, Wyoming,

956
01:21:06.119 --> 01:21:15.520
and others some others as well. So how many is that? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

957
01:21:15.760 --> 01:21:21.399
eight nine ten out of eight In twenty twenty two,

958
01:21:21.600 --> 01:21:25.600
twenty four, twenty six, twenty eight, thirty thirty two they

959
01:21:25.640 --> 01:21:32.560
four thirty six eight forty fifty. It's like fifty I

960
01:21:32.600 --> 01:21:39.279
mean these are regions, not states, are they? It? States?

961
01:21:39.279 --> 01:21:46.640
All regions. So it's like one, two, three, four, five, six, ten,

962
01:21:46.760 --> 01:21:51.640
and twelve one fifty six two of you. And I've

963
01:21:51.720 --> 01:21:56.279
had in six, twenty eight, ten, thirty, thirty two, thirty four,

964
01:21:56.479 --> 01:22:04.399
thirty six, thirty eight, forty forty two, forty six, forty eight,

965
01:22:05.239 --> 01:22:10.199
fifty fifty two, fifty four, fifty six fifty seven, So

966
01:22:10.359 --> 01:22:20.439
fifty seven districts or regions. So I don't know how

967
01:22:20.439 --> 01:22:23.479
many states there is in so I thought I always

968
01:22:23.520 --> 01:22:26.800
every state, but California is in our state, then is it?

969
01:22:27.199 --> 01:22:33.159
I don't know, but I'm confused. And then we can

970
01:22:33.199 --> 01:22:37.279
loick in California. And you've got Los Angeles, Napa, Mountain Views,

971
01:22:37.319 --> 01:22:45.760
San Jose, sorry, San Jos, Woodland, Elk Grove, Fresno, Palm Desert, Richmond.

972
01:22:47.079 --> 01:22:51.960
There's a lot, there's a lot, a lot, lot, lot,

973
01:22:52.039 --> 01:22:59.640
lot lot Texas. How many in Texas, Dallas, North Richland Hills,

974
01:23:00.399 --> 01:23:11.520
San Antonio, Houston, Austin, Waxahatchie, Frisco, Legal City, Grapevine, Abilene.

975
01:23:12.600 --> 01:23:18.760
I mean it's a lot, a lot of different places.

976
01:23:22.079 --> 01:23:26.760
If we go to United Kingdom, your England, Scotland, Wales,

977
01:23:26.880 --> 01:23:31.000
Northern Ireland if I go to England, so England is

978
01:23:31.039 --> 01:23:42.960
the most however, however, no, there's no however. So however

979
01:23:43.840 --> 01:23:49.960
England is eighty five nearly eighty six percent out of

980
01:23:50.000 --> 01:23:55.079
the United Kingdom. Scotland is seven zero point three six percent,

981
01:23:56.359 --> 01:24:00.319
Wales is three point two eight percent, Northern Ireland zero

982
01:24:00.359 --> 01:24:03.199
point four six percent, and other is two point nine

983
01:24:03.319 --> 01:24:08.159
four So that could be the Falkland Islands or Isle

984
01:24:08.159 --> 01:24:12.840
of White Island, man Jersey. Maybe I don't know places

985
01:24:12.920 --> 01:24:18.319
like that. I can't think of any other places. So

986
01:24:18.760 --> 01:24:25.760
England there is sid Cup. See if you from any

987
01:24:25.800 --> 01:24:31.640
of these places, contact me. Let me know sid Cup, Bristol.

988
01:24:33.279 --> 01:24:36.760
So this is this is over the last year. This

989
01:24:37.000 --> 01:24:45.840
is the top places in England. Like you know, that's

990
01:24:45.880 --> 01:24:51.079
the most viewed sid cups Number one. I don't haven't

991
01:24:51.079 --> 01:24:55.840
no where sid Cup is. Bristol number two. I've never

992
01:24:55.880 --> 01:25:02.960
been to Bristol, Newcastle upon Tyme, used to live there, Birmingham,

993
01:25:03.479 --> 01:25:06.479
So hello to everyone in Sidcup and Bristol and Newcastle

994
01:25:06.520 --> 01:25:16.960
on Tyme and Birmingham and all the other places I mentioned, Trowbridge, Hartleypool, Cambridge, Gosport,

995
01:25:17.600 --> 01:25:55.520
great Yarmouth, Leeds, Huddersfield, Manchester, ash Ford, Dagenham, Lundon, Huntington, Huntingdon, Houndslow, Sunderland, Bexley, Heath, Leicester, Hackney, Aylesbury, Fulham, Portsmouth, Dewsbury, Sutton, Wandsworth, Worksop, Islington,

996
01:25:56.840 --> 01:26:02.600
Milton Keynes, Sheffield, Milton Keynes. Why do I say like that,

997
01:26:02.680 --> 01:26:07.439
Milton Keynes. It's very posture of me. Sheffield is Milton

998
01:26:07.520 --> 01:26:40.960
Keynes a very posh place to live? Sheffield, Hull, Croydon, Eastleigh, Oxford, Lee, Maidstone, Cramlington, Liverpool, Swindon, Wembley, Luton, Nottingham, Kensington, Solihull, Newham, Watford, Chorley, Eastbourne, Wallingford.

999
01:26:42.279 --> 01:26:47.000
And then thirty three point two percent is in other places,

1000
01:26:47.640 --> 01:26:50.640
which is quite a big amount. So basically there's a

1001
01:26:50.680 --> 01:26:55.960
not enough room for them to cover everything. But Sidcup

1002
01:26:56.279 --> 01:26:59.119
is number one for the year, and so is Bristol.

1003
01:27:01.359 --> 01:27:06.560
So if is anyone out there that's this mad in

1004
01:27:06.600 --> 01:27:11.119
love with me, just contact me, especially if you're human.

1005
01:27:12.640 --> 01:27:14.880
Let's have a look what other thing. Let's say for

1006
01:27:14.920 --> 01:27:19.439
the year, for the month, so let's say the last

1007
01:27:19.920 --> 01:27:24.760
last month for the youth for England. Let's have luck.

1008
01:27:26.000 --> 01:27:29.560
So I'm going to see which one's the top Oh

1009
01:27:30.760 --> 01:27:43.039
last month, the top one was Portsmouth, Wembley, Wallingford, Manchester, Croydon, Birmingham,

1010
01:27:43.880 --> 01:27:50.119
Newcastle upon Tyne, Sheffield, Camden. These are places, some of

1011
01:27:50.159 --> 01:27:52.720
them that I've not mentioned before. These must have been

1012
01:27:52.760 --> 01:28:07.000
those other thirty three percent. And you've got Gosford, Fulham, Bristol, Wandsworth, Witness, Hartleypool, Leeds, London,

1013
01:28:07.800 --> 01:28:17.640
lewish Ham, Leighton, Buzzard, Sutton, Bromley, Harrow. I wish I

1014
01:28:17.640 --> 01:28:20.439
could say Bromley and actually roll my tongue, but I'm not.

1015
01:28:20.479 --> 01:28:27.840
I'm just making my lips vibrate. Just It's a skill,

1016
01:28:27.960 --> 01:28:38.920
isn't it. I suppose in some ways Harrow, Nottingham, Sleeveord, Gloucester,

1017
01:28:40.560 --> 01:28:54.720
Glockhoust Gloucester, Gloucester, Richmond, Sausages, Rochester, Amisham, Brent, Redditch, Lowestoft,

1018
01:28:55.439 --> 01:28:59.520
Saint Helen's Pete. Wow, there's loads, isn't there. This is

1019
01:28:59.560 --> 01:29:05.039
more than the other one. Wow, Petersfield, Whitney, Eastleigh, Ashford,

1020
01:29:05.439 --> 01:29:15.159
south Shields, Southampton, Walsall, City of Westminster, Windsor Swindon, Windsor

1021
01:29:15.720 --> 01:29:17.680
Does that mean members of the royal family are listening

1022
01:29:17.680 --> 01:29:26.119
to me? Hello, Your Highness, thank you for listening. Wakefield, Corsham,

1023
01:29:26.880 --> 01:29:35.319
Ward and Forest, Hitching, Leicester, Oxford, Tamworth, Thetford. I used

1024
01:29:35.359 --> 01:29:38.640
to know someone that was from Tamworth, someone I worked with.

1025
01:29:38.680 --> 01:29:41.119
It was not really nice bloke. It was a comedian

1026
01:29:41.159 --> 01:29:46.640
as well, really friendly, nice, nice man. It's a long

1027
01:29:46.720 --> 01:29:50.840
time ago. Okay, let's go it this month so far,

1028
01:29:50.920 --> 01:29:54.640
because that was current month. That's this month, not last month.

1029
01:29:55.039 --> 01:30:00.000
That's the current month. So Portsmouth, whoever you are in Portsmouth,

1030
01:30:00.960 --> 01:30:02.880
you're the one listening to the most to me at

1031
01:30:02.880 --> 01:30:10.239
the moment. And then Wembley, Wallingford, Manchester, Croydon, Birmingham, Newcastle

1032
01:30:10.319 --> 01:30:18.720
upon Tyne, Sheffield and Camden and Gossport, Fulham, so you're

1033
01:30:18.760 --> 01:30:21.800
the ones, you're the most one's listening to me the most.

1034
01:30:22.000 --> 01:30:29.560
But before I go, last month it's that a look England, Oh,

1035
01:30:29.880 --> 01:30:33.359
Newcastle upon Tyn was the top one, ports From the

1036
01:30:33.520 --> 01:30:45.079
number two, Gosport, Birmingham, Hartlepool, Wallingford, Leeds, Nottingham, one's Worth, Daggingham,

1037
01:30:45.600 --> 01:30:51.199
witch Church, solly Hole. So many places I've not been to.

1038
01:30:52.520 --> 01:30:54.439
Is it really weird? Like I think it would be

1039
01:30:54.520 --> 01:30:59.640
nice to travel the world on a boat though, you know,

1040
01:30:59.760 --> 01:31:04.359
on a not a ferry like a cruise. I'd like

1041
01:31:04.439 --> 01:31:07.760
to go on cruises, but I don't mean I want

1042
01:31:07.760 --> 01:31:11.119
to go cruise in Oh, let's go cruising. No, I

1043
01:31:11.159 --> 01:31:17.920
mean just on a cruise, just traveling around and have

1044
01:31:18.079 --> 01:31:22.439
something to talk about. It's that's kind of that's my

1045
01:31:22.560 --> 01:31:36.880
new dream. It's my new dream. Wimbledon, Sutton, Newham, Wembley, Abingdon, Ashford, London, Sleaford, Witness, Harrow, Stockport,

1046
01:31:37.199 --> 01:31:40.640
Oxford Hole. It's a lot of places up north that

1047
01:31:40.680 --> 01:31:46.640
I've not been to. I liked it in Nottingham. I know,

1048
01:31:46.840 --> 01:31:52.079
technically it's middle. It's the Middle. It's not North. It's

1049
01:31:52.119 --> 01:31:54.800
the middle. Isn't it like Middle East? Middle East? Not

1050
01:31:54.840 --> 01:32:03.359
Middle East. That's a different place. It's a Midlands, I suppose,

1051
01:32:03.399 --> 01:32:10.079
isn't it. Really it's kind of just like Newcastle's up north,

1052
01:32:10.119 --> 01:32:13.640
but it's not. There's those places that are nowhere near

1053
01:32:13.680 --> 01:32:18.960
the sea, but really as parts where you can't get

1054
01:32:19.039 --> 01:32:21.720
near the sea because you basically have to go into

1055
01:32:21.720 --> 01:32:27.680
Scotland to get to the sea. I'm talking like, I all, look,

1056
01:32:28.119 --> 01:32:33.159
Bognor Regis. I used to live in Bognor Regis. If

1057
01:32:33.159 --> 01:32:37.840
you're listening from Bognor Regis, Hello, do you remember me?

1058
01:32:41.439 --> 01:32:43.840
No one. No one's going to remember me from any time.

1059
01:32:43.880 --> 01:32:47.199
I don't think Bognor regis. Yeah. I used to work

1060
01:32:47.199 --> 01:32:55.880
at Buttlings, momentarily Stratford upon Avon. Not my Stratford, but

1061
01:32:56.079 --> 01:33:04.560
Stratford upon Even, Daventry, Prescott, Ellesmere Port, Lower Stuffed, Hell's

1062
01:33:04.600 --> 01:33:09.600
weren't I've got a family and low Stuffed, Spennymore, Hackney,

1063
01:33:10.399 --> 01:33:20.279
Great Missenden, Southampton, Hayward, Safe, Sheffield, Pontefract, Bushy, Acrington, Hereford,

1064
01:33:20.920 --> 01:33:28.520
Hammersmith and Lee and Lee. So I'm just trying to think.

1065
01:33:28.600 --> 01:33:32.479
If I look at the other one, the other studio, at.

1066
01:33:32.359 --> 01:33:42.520
The SoundCloud, some looks see I think SoundCloud is a

1067
01:33:42.600 --> 01:33:43.760
less UK.

1068
01:33:45.680 --> 01:33:50.920
Oh wow, that's weird. Got loads of listeners on there

1069
01:33:50.920 --> 01:34:00.439
today for some reason. Uh yeah, predominantly there's something place

1070
01:34:00.520 --> 01:34:02.079
but it says on here. So this is one of

1071
01:34:02.079 --> 01:34:06.960
my SoundCloud let me boyd this sleep podcast. Council Bluffs.

1072
01:34:07.319 --> 01:34:10.000
That's a city where that is. It's in America. So,

1073
01:34:10.159 --> 01:34:22.279
but the countries are America, United Kingdom, Ireland, Germany, Canada, Australia, France, Norway, Philippines, Malaysia, Hungary,

1074
01:34:23.079 --> 01:34:42.159
Russian Federation, Singapore, Latvia, Vietnam, Brazil, Spain, Netherlands, Denmark, Thailand, Croatia, Crotro, Croatia, Poland, Italy,

1075
01:34:43.479 --> 01:35:07.880
packing Pakistan, Sweden, kass Kas, Kazakhs, Kazakhstan, Colombia, Pauchew, gal Idea, India, Togo, Barbados, Baain,

1076
01:35:08.920 --> 01:35:13.279
the Gia. It's actually Turkia, but we still call it Turkey.

1077
01:35:13.760 --> 01:35:17.640
They rebranded. Did you know that Turkey rebranded and decided

1078
01:35:17.680 --> 01:35:21.319
to change their name instead of t u r k

1079
01:35:21.520 --> 01:35:25.479
E y, Like the bird is now t u k

1080
01:35:25.840 --> 01:35:29.640
I y e And it's supposed to be pronounced Turkia.

1081
01:35:30.039 --> 01:35:34.359
Maybe it was always pronounced Turkia by people in Turkey.

1082
01:35:35.720 --> 01:35:45.279
It's but then Germany's pronounced Deutschland, and Spain is pronounced

1083
01:35:45.399 --> 01:35:53.279
pronounced Hispania, and France is at Francis, like you know,

1084
01:35:53.319 --> 01:36:01.720
we most countries are pronounced wrongly by foreigners, like me

1085
01:36:02.039 --> 01:36:07.199
being a foreigner to another country. So it's just it's standard.

1086
01:36:07.239 --> 01:36:10.479
It's not disrespectful, it's just it's just how we're taught

1087
01:36:10.479 --> 01:36:17.479
as school, isn't that? I mean, I have very very

1088
01:36:17.600 --> 01:36:22.479
vague memories of school guess that I once went, But

1089
01:36:22.520 --> 01:36:25.880
they've got the cities or the towns. There's a council Bluffs.

1090
01:36:29.399 --> 01:36:33.720
That's a weird name, isn't it, Council Bluffs because Bluffs

1091
01:36:33.760 --> 01:36:35.760
is like when you kind of lie, isn't it? Or

1092
01:36:35.800 --> 01:36:44.039
you missdirect? So council a lying council, and they've got boardman.

1093
01:36:44.600 --> 01:36:48.840
Is that another city or town? Ashburn? So that's in

1094
01:36:48.880 --> 01:36:52.600
the United States. So that's the top three. Then you've

1095
01:36:52.600 --> 01:37:02.960
got Manchester, Dublin in course Ireland, Sandy and Phoenix in America. Folkstein,

1096
01:37:05.560 --> 01:37:11.800
I don't know where Folkstein is. Folkstein, All right, don't shout,

1097
01:37:11.840 --> 01:37:16.039
I'll find it. Oh yeah, it is in Germany. I

1098
01:37:16.119 --> 01:37:33.760
wonder if that's what's his name? Sebastian, Philadelphia, Melbourne, Sterling, Columbus, Huntingdon, Portland, Winnipegville, Gen, Schweingen, Schwingen.

1099
01:37:34.720 --> 01:37:40.319
And that is Germany as well. Yep, Germany. I've gotta

1100
01:37:40.359 --> 01:37:44.079
be careful because I remember years ago I learned about flags.

1101
01:37:46.039 --> 01:37:48.359
I know a lot about flags. I've known more about

1102
01:37:48.359 --> 01:37:51.560
flags than anyone who's ever existed. No, I had a

1103
01:37:51.560 --> 01:37:54.560
book of flags, but I noticed that some of them

1104
01:37:54.800 --> 01:37:57.479
are very similar to each other, but just the colors

1105
01:37:57.479 --> 01:38:01.560
in a different order. Sadly'd be a bit well be

1106
01:38:01.680 --> 01:38:06.520
careful because some people would take offense and I'm not

1107
01:38:06.600 --> 01:38:09.319
out to cause offense. I'm out to cause love in

1108
01:38:09.399 --> 01:38:16.720
the world and sleep and we lack fation. Chicago, City

1109
01:38:16.760 --> 01:38:23.720
of Monty, Lupper, Mountain Lupper. I genuinely don't know how

1110
01:38:23.720 --> 01:38:26.119
to say that. I mean, I do mess up the

1111
01:38:26.239 --> 01:38:29.600
names on purpose sometimes, but on this occasion, I don't

1112
01:38:29.640 --> 01:38:34.159
know how to say. And that's in the Philippines. So

1113
01:38:34.279 --> 01:38:39.000
whoever is from the Philippines or from wherever you're from, Hello,

1114
01:38:39.800 --> 01:38:48.039
maybe contact me, say Hi. Saint Helen's in England, kill Hay,

1115
01:38:48.880 --> 01:38:56.000
Kill Hay. What's that America kill Hay. Yes, it's in America, Portland, Chicago,

1116
01:38:58.439 --> 01:39:13.439
Bayn Lepaz, Bayn Lepus, Lepers, Lettuce Lepers. Where is that? Then? Malaysia, Okay, Malaysia,

1117
01:39:14.720 --> 01:39:23.359
Sydney and Lidney. Sorry at Alpharetta, Lakefield, Birmingham, Budapest, which

1118
01:39:23.399 --> 01:39:38.319
is in Hungary, trod Tronheim, Stockton on Tees, Brisbane, Sunderland,

1119
01:39:39.439 --> 01:39:46.119
which is near Newcastle, Oldbury, Riga readin Wiley, Saint John's,

1120
01:39:46.640 --> 01:39:53.479
Salt Lake City, Saint John's, miss Minneapolis, Albury, San Antonio,

1121
01:39:54.520 --> 01:39:58.039
Mill Brooks has quite a few different places, but What

1122
01:39:58.159 --> 01:40:01.600
about the other countries? Wh do you keep focusing it? Okay,

1123
01:40:01.680 --> 01:40:05.479
let's go. We could go to Scotland, the United Kingdom.

1124
01:40:05.520 --> 01:40:11.800
She'll go to Scotland. Let's have a book Scotland the

1125
01:40:11.840 --> 01:40:16.920
top places for the last last month. Okay, this is

1126
01:40:16.920 --> 01:40:23.199
the last month. Glasgow or Galasgow or Glasgie. So if

1127
01:40:23.239 --> 01:40:30.000
you're in Glasgow, Glasgie, Glasgow, if you're there, say hello,

1128
01:40:32.479 --> 01:40:39.720
grange Mouth? Is that how you pronounce it? Grangemouf Orange

1129
01:40:39.800 --> 01:40:51.199
Wolf range Mouth? I don't know. Edinburgh, Tory, Byrne, Folk, Kirk, Dundee,

1130
01:40:52.000 --> 01:41:02.079
kin Ross, Bellshill, Alness, Hamilton, Ayer, Aberdeen, Kirk, Coldie, eleven Strath,

1131
01:41:02.600 --> 01:41:10.880
Migelo Ardri, Airdrie, rother In Vaux in Varu. That sounds

1132
01:41:10.960 --> 01:41:14.520
like like an Australian name, isn't it. Where do you live? Mate?

1133
01:41:14.880 --> 01:41:18.960
In Varu? I live in Vu? You live in Vu

1134
01:41:20.359 --> 01:41:24.000
kill Manock. That was a really bad Australian accent. I apologize,

1135
01:41:24.520 --> 01:41:26.000
and I know I've got a lot of people from

1136
01:41:26.039 --> 01:41:30.800
Australia listening. Please forgive me, Molly, Please forgive me.

1137
01:41:31.119 --> 01:41:31.680
Forgive me.

1138
01:41:32.840 --> 01:41:40.359
Do you mean nothing by it? In Varus? Invery? It's

1139
01:41:40.399 --> 01:41:49.119
not in Vu, it's in Very Inverury, in Very, Kilmarnock, Livingstone,

1140
01:41:49.520 --> 01:41:58.199
bonnie Bridge, Galashiel's bar Head, Inverness, done fer Mile Line

1141
01:41:59.119 --> 01:42:03.680
Alo open Hello, where do you live? Hello? Well? Hello, yeah,

1142
01:42:03.720 --> 01:42:07.640
but where do you live? Hello? We've already done the ingredients.

1143
01:42:07.680 --> 01:42:12.359
Where do you live? I'll stop there Oben Peter's Head.

1144
01:42:15.680 --> 01:42:19.439
So where about Wales? We can't miss Wales out and

1145
01:42:19.520 --> 01:42:21.359
we'll go to Northern Island as well, so we can't

1146
01:42:21.399 --> 01:42:24.079
miss You can't miss the different parts of Northern Island

1147
01:42:24.600 --> 01:42:29.800
of the United Kingdom. And Wrexham. Chepstowe Barry. This is

1148
01:42:29.880 --> 01:42:34.279
in Wales, so Wrexham's the top. This is last month

1149
01:42:34.520 --> 01:42:45.319
Chepstow Berry Coldi coot d Side, mice Stig Cardiff, Quimbran, Ferndale.

1150
01:42:45.800 --> 01:42:54.319
Tony Pandy. That's my favorite name ever, Tony Pandy. Why

1151
01:42:54.479 --> 01:42:58.239
is it? Why do I love that name so much? Tony?

1152
01:42:58.239 --> 01:43:02.840
Where do you live Tony Pandy? Wow? I wish I

1153
01:43:02.880 --> 01:43:05.279
could live there. You can. You've just got to buy

1154
01:43:05.319 --> 01:43:08.960
a house. It's got to move. Oh. I want to

1155
01:43:09.000 --> 01:43:14.560
live in Tony Pandy. I mean, I don't know if

1156
01:43:14.560 --> 01:43:16.399
i'd want to move there. I don't know what it's like.

1157
01:43:16.880 --> 01:43:18.720
Maybe if you live in Tony Pandy. You can tell

1158
01:43:18.760 --> 01:43:25.399
me Tony Pandy, what brilliant name. I'm probably pronouncing it wrong.

1159
01:43:25.439 --> 01:43:39.079
It's probably like just come some completely different sound. Abadair, Hollywell, Caerphilly, Kafily, Newport.

1160
01:43:39.479 --> 01:43:45.840
Actually know someone lived in Newport, Bargode, Lanellie, Blackwood, Swansea,

1161
01:43:46.920 --> 01:43:52.800
Ponti Pool, Mountain, ash man A Bridge and Abba Stwift

1162
01:43:53.359 --> 01:43:59.239
ab Burstwift. So the top one's there, Wrexham and Chaps

1163
01:43:59.279 --> 01:44:06.479
though Barry Caldecott d Side. I did think about maybe

1164
01:44:07.560 --> 01:44:10.800
I'm thinking of getting married. I mean, I haven't met

1165
01:44:10.840 --> 01:44:13.439
anyone yet, but I'm just thinking about it. I'm just wondering,

1166
01:44:13.720 --> 01:44:21.319
m maybe it'd be nice to get married because I'm

1167
01:44:21.319 --> 01:44:25.520
thinking I quite like to go away. I'd quite like

1168
01:44:25.640 --> 01:44:30.000
to go away and I don't know cruises. If I

1169
01:44:30.039 --> 01:44:34.640
can afford to do it one day and it just

1170
01:44:34.720 --> 01:44:36.920
seems like I could be much nicer. I'll be able

1171
01:44:36.960 --> 01:44:42.840
to do it, and it'd be more if I had

1172
01:44:42.920 --> 01:44:45.640
someone to look after Vinnie while I went on holiday.

1173
01:44:46.520 --> 01:44:51.600
So yeah, I'm thinking of getting married. I don't know

1174
01:44:51.640 --> 01:44:54.239
what you think, would you reckon? Do you want to

1175
01:44:54.279 --> 01:44:55.560
get married to me? Do you want to marry me,

1176
01:44:57.000 --> 01:44:59.640
Do you love me? Will you love me forever? I

1177
01:44:59.720 --> 01:45:07.840
never I never know. Right last month Northern Ireland, Newtown Abbey, Belfast,

1178
01:45:09.359 --> 01:45:15.479
dung Gannon okay, because that's Uncle Sausages was from Northern Ireland.

1179
01:45:17.079 --> 01:45:19.880
So I just thought that'd be interesting. What other places

1180
01:45:19.960 --> 01:45:24.479
are there so many different places. I can't I just

1181
01:45:24.560 --> 01:45:31.479
can't begin to go through all I means. France, Lead

1182
01:45:31.800 --> 01:45:39.600
de France, al Guererose, Alps, s grand Este, nouvelle. I

1183
01:45:39.680 --> 01:45:42.880
can't even say the names. It's terrible, isn't it. I'm

1184
01:45:43.079 --> 01:45:47.359
so I'm such a lower class I am. I've got

1185
01:45:47.439 --> 01:45:57.640
no style at all. Brittany Ochitanne, Normandy, Harts de France,

1186
01:45:58.439 --> 01:46:04.760
Pays de la Lawyer, Corsica, course, Corsica. Is that in France?

1187
01:46:04.880 --> 01:46:10.479
Is it? I didn't know that I thought it was.

1188
01:46:13.479 --> 01:46:14.920
I don't know I thought it was it was a

1189
01:46:14.960 --> 01:46:19.199
different country. Paris. So Paris is the top place in France.

1190
01:46:19.800 --> 01:46:22.920
The people listen to me, it's that's nice. I just

1191
01:46:23.000 --> 01:46:27.199
want to go back to the last year, the last

1192
01:46:27.279 --> 01:46:30.640
twelve months. So I want to see in the UK,

1193
01:46:31.119 --> 01:46:39.960
United Kingdom, England Sidcup. We've already done that when we Sidcup,

1194
01:46:40.079 --> 01:46:47.600
so we've done England, United Kingdom to Scotland Scotland. Glasgow

1195
01:46:47.960 --> 01:47:03.399
is number one. Edinburgh, Falkirk, grange Mouth, then Motherwell, Bonnese, Hamilton, Dundee, Pennycuick, Aberdeen, Livingstone,

1196
01:47:04.239 --> 01:47:15.000
dun Firm Line In Invery and Rue, Johnstone, Bell's Hill, Tory,

1197
01:47:15.119 --> 01:47:25.920
burn Wick, Bretching, Ayer, Kinos Cooper, alnez al Broth, Leven, Coatbridge,

1198
01:47:26.319 --> 01:47:33.840
Kirk Coldy, inver Gordon, Inverness, dal Keith. Hello, Hello, now

1199
01:47:33.960 --> 01:47:41.000
I did that okay, Elvskinne Perth, Greenock, Cumber Maude, the

1200
01:47:41.119 --> 01:47:55.520
Cumber Nord, Bathgate, Kilmarnock, Strath Miglow, Gallas, Huth, Glen Ross's, Macduff, Paidley,

1201
01:47:55.920 --> 01:48:06.720
Glen Village, Irvine, Dumfries, Preston, pans Airdrie, bar Head, Broxburn, Alexandria. Forres.

1202
01:48:08.640 --> 01:48:12.600
There's quite a few, isn't it? And then you're a Wales.

1203
01:48:14.000 --> 01:48:17.800
This is tiring me, this is bangor so that The

1204
01:48:17.880 --> 01:48:27.279
top one is Chepstow, Wrexham, Cafilly, Pembroke, doc Caldicott Bridge

1205
01:48:27.319 --> 01:48:31.800
and Blackwood, my Stag, Cardiff, hen.

1206
01:48:31.640 --> 01:48:41.840
Goed, Barry, Elbow, Veil, ebel Vale, Aberdare, Flint, Newport, Pontypool,

1207
01:48:42.199 --> 01:48:52.239
d Side, Ferndale, Tredegar, Pembroke, Pontyprid, Mountain.

1208
01:48:51.880 --> 01:48:57.760
Ash, Swansea, Hollywell. My favorite name of all time, Tony Pandy,

1209
01:48:58.920 --> 01:49:02.600
I love that name. I don't know why Bangod. I

1210
01:49:02.680 --> 01:49:07.319
think I might need to move to Tony Pandy Bargoed.

1211
01:49:09.520 --> 01:49:11.199
So if there's anyone out there that wants to be

1212
01:49:11.239 --> 01:49:16.079
a dog sitter, I mean my wife and yeah, if

1213
01:49:16.119 --> 01:49:22.479
you live in Pondi Pandy, Tony Pandy oh Bargoed, have

1214
01:49:22.680 --> 01:49:29.680
a have a Ford West Abba, Stwift, comran Port, Talbot,

1215
01:49:30.960 --> 01:49:37.760
full Top, Port Toalbert was in America, Rile Neath, mene Bridge,

1216
01:49:38.199 --> 01:49:42.079
por Porty by the way, don't sort don't contact me

1217
01:49:42.079 --> 01:49:44.359
and said, no, it really is in Wales. No, I

1218
01:49:44.399 --> 01:49:47.039
know it's in Wales, but I think maybe there might

1219
01:49:47.119 --> 01:49:50.479
be a port Toalbert in America as well. So you're

1220
01:49:50.479 --> 01:49:58.520
a Bowld Buckley, Langdwyn, langdon No Port, Maddock, Abber, Galviny

1221
01:49:59.560 --> 01:50:10.239
roof In Murphy, Tidfill, cal Fridge, Calbridge, Rover Bangor where

1222
01:50:10.279 --> 01:50:16.279
I came. Well, lastly i'll do the hm hmm. What's

1223
01:50:16.319 --> 01:50:18.960
the other one? Northern Ireland? I do want to miss

1224
01:50:19.000 --> 01:50:26.399
that one. So always a lot more in the year, Bella, Mina, Belfast, Cookstown,

1225
01:50:27.319 --> 01:50:36.600
dun Gannon, Londonderry, Newton Abbey, Newry, Omar, bally Money, bally Money.

1226
01:50:36.640 --> 01:50:40.880
That's a no nice word, isn't it not? Because it's

1227
01:50:40.880 --> 01:50:43.520
got the word money and it just just Baally Money.

1228
01:50:48.560 --> 01:50:55.239
Craig Avon, Bangor down Patrick that's another quite good. Maybe

1229
01:50:55.279 --> 01:50:57.239
it's just because of the names. It's got a name

1230
01:50:57.319 --> 01:51:09.279
in it down Patrick and you've got new Townhards. This

1231
01:51:09.600 --> 01:51:14.039
was the last twelve months. So what other places was thinking?

1232
01:51:14.359 --> 01:51:24.039
They go to Ireland? Leinster, Munster, knnak Ulster, Ulster. I

1233
01:51:24.119 --> 01:51:28.840
thought Ulster was Northern Ireland. No, well, it just shows

1234
01:51:28.840 --> 01:51:34.840
you what I know. I'm so out of touch with places.

1235
01:51:36.319 --> 01:51:46.840
Uh what about Sweden? Nor Vinice just farted? No, I

1236
01:51:46.920 --> 01:51:50.600
think I hope it's viny. No, I didn't feel anything,

1237
01:51:50.720 --> 01:51:53.279
so I'm just smiling it so blindly out. I really

1238
01:51:53.319 --> 01:51:56.880
hope it is in. I wish i'd keep the window

1239
01:51:56.920 --> 01:52:05.439
open now, nor Bottom County, Stockholm County, Vetra, Gotterland County,

1240
01:52:06.239 --> 01:52:15.600
Ostroglotte Land County, Upsala, Upsala. That's very Viking up Sala,

1241
01:52:17.359 --> 01:52:29.199
isn't that? Now? I know this is Sweden. Upsala. Now

1242
01:52:29.279 --> 01:52:32.920
I watched The Vikings and I realized, you know, he

1243
01:52:33.000 --> 01:52:36.520
said it's the wrong country, but perhaps I can't remember,

1244
01:52:37.239 --> 01:52:40.000
but Upsala isn't that where some of the Vikings lived.

1245
01:52:44.520 --> 01:52:46.680
I watched every episode of The Vikings and it was

1246
01:52:46.680 --> 01:52:50.600
about seven thousand different series, you know, but of it

1247
01:52:50.680 --> 01:52:54.600
it went off for ages and I loved it very much.

1248
01:52:56.960 --> 01:53:01.119
Upsala Farmlands. Let's have a look at a click on

1249
01:53:01.199 --> 01:53:05.079
up side and see if there's any places that I remember. No,

1250
01:53:05.359 --> 01:53:06.560
just upsalah.

1251
01:53:07.960 --> 01:53:08.159
Ah.

1252
01:53:09.920 --> 01:53:14.359
So if you're in Sweden. I remember going to Sweden.

1253
01:53:14.479 --> 01:53:19.319
It's just on the airport on the way to somewhere,

1254
01:53:19.359 --> 01:53:26.039
and I just not surprised, but there was just everyone

1255
01:53:26.239 --> 01:53:31.159
was blonde, And you know, I see that on the

1256
01:53:31.239 --> 01:53:34.520
new newspapers and TV shows and I kin'd of just

1257
01:53:34.640 --> 01:53:42.920
assume it's a it's just a cliche. But I don't know. Obviously,

1258
01:53:43.039 --> 01:53:44.880
not anyone in Sweden is going to be blonde, but

1259
01:53:45.399 --> 01:53:50.079
it seems to be there's a few people that are.

1260
01:53:53.960 --> 01:53:57.760
What about Belgium, that's like Belgium. You've got Brussels, Capital,

1261
01:53:58.359 --> 01:54:06.920
Flanders walone wall wall Oh cool, it's a Hallo tech

1262
01:54:07.000 --> 01:54:20.560
one from Belgium and India Canada, Ireland, Sweden, Denmark. I

1263
01:54:20.840 --> 01:54:29.279
look at Denmark Capital Region, Central Jatland, South Denmark, Zealand

1264
01:54:29.720 --> 01:54:39.920
and North Denmark. So fred Fredericksburg is the top place

1265
01:54:40.079 --> 01:54:51.319
for the year. Copenhagen, More Municipal Valby from shoj Hunderstead,

1266
01:54:52.439 --> 01:55:06.520
von Loos, Bellerup Municipal Municipality, Gloucestrup mop Municipality. I can't

1267
01:55:06.560 --> 01:55:11.439
even say it, so thank you to everyone. I can't

1268
01:55:11.479 --> 01:55:15.399
go for every single country, but there's a lot of countries.

1269
01:55:15.439 --> 01:55:19.359
It's like I'm kind of covers everyone in the world,

1270
01:55:20.279 --> 01:55:23.680
kind of as far as not everyone, as in every

1271
01:55:23.720 --> 01:55:29.000
single person, but it's going to pretty much cover most cultures,

1272
01:55:30.760 --> 01:55:36.119
most religions, perhaps perhaps not. I mean, it's I got

1273
01:55:36.279 --> 01:55:42.079
no idea. Jonathan asks what does a typical day's meals

1274
01:55:42.159 --> 01:55:46.640
and beverages consist of? It depends where you're going and

1275
01:55:46.720 --> 01:55:52.159
what you're buying. If I was when I was going

1276
01:55:52.199 --> 01:55:58.119
to visit Uncle Sausages in hospital, I think it's about

1277
01:55:58.239 --> 01:56:05.279
twenty quid for a a coffee, maybe two coffees and

1278
01:56:05.359 --> 01:56:14.199
a couple of sandwiches, about twenty crid a day. It

1279
01:56:14.279 --> 01:56:16.920
does depend where you're going, because you know there's cheaper

1280
01:56:17.000 --> 01:56:21.239
places you can go and get something for sometimes meal deals.

1281
01:56:21.279 --> 01:56:24.560
If you're out, you can get like a meal deal

1282
01:56:24.680 --> 01:56:28.720
for five pound where you get a drink sandwich and

1283
01:56:29.520 --> 01:56:34.119
maybe pack it at Crisps or a chocolate bar or something,

1284
01:56:34.159 --> 01:56:36.520
you know, so you get enough for like a little

1285
01:56:37.560 --> 01:56:46.279
meal thing. Beverages. I mean, I only really just drink

1286
01:56:46.319 --> 01:56:50.880
tea and water most of the time. Occasionally I have

1287
01:56:50.960 --> 01:56:54.640
fizzy drink, but it's not often, so I don't know

1288
01:56:54.760 --> 01:57:02.760
how much fizzy drinks cost the I don't know how.

1289
01:57:02.880 --> 01:57:04.800
It's weird really because I don't because I don't go

1290
01:57:04.880 --> 01:57:09.439
into pubs. I don't drink alcohol, so I don't. I

1291
01:57:09.520 --> 01:57:12.199
don't know how. I'm not even not even the faintest

1292
01:57:12.279 --> 01:57:16.800
idea how much a pint of largo would be. So

1293
01:57:16.920 --> 01:57:25.199
if I point pint larger cost cost UK pint of

1294
01:57:25.279 --> 01:57:31.760
lager four pounds sixty the cost the average cost of

1295
01:57:31.760 --> 01:57:37.279
a pint lager in the UK is four sixty ah, okay, right,

1296
01:57:37.399 --> 01:57:40.199
So it depends where you are. According to this, it

1297
01:57:40.279 --> 01:57:44.840
says London's five pounds forty four for a pint and

1298
01:57:45.119 --> 01:57:47.800
Wales is four to twenty one, so it's the cheapest

1299
01:57:48.560 --> 01:57:52.359
place to get a pint of lager, London's the most expensive,

1300
01:57:55.399 --> 01:57:59.439
Southeast four ninety four the second most expensive. That's where

1301
01:57:59.439 --> 01:58:04.800
I live. Northeast England four fifty six. This is pounds

1302
01:58:05.399 --> 01:58:10.199
slightly above the national average, and then four ninety three

1303
01:58:11.239 --> 01:58:17.439
in Southwest are also a month the highest prices. All

1304
01:58:17.600 --> 01:58:23.319
let's have a look. What's the It's got a little

1305
01:58:23.479 --> 01:58:26.000
chart here, so I have a look at the chart.

1306
01:58:26.399 --> 01:58:31.800
Is there a chart? Yeah? See what? Oh? Go away?

1307
01:58:31.880 --> 01:58:36.600
I don't want to be a paid member. Go away right?

1308
01:58:36.800 --> 01:58:44.640
So according to this Southwest five sixteen, Southeast five twenty one,

1309
01:58:45.520 --> 01:58:50.560
London five pound fifty nine, East Midlands, Oh so nothing

1310
01:58:50.600 --> 01:58:54.479
for Norwige then no, they don't buy lager there East England,

1311
01:58:54.600 --> 01:58:58.479
East Midlands four pounds seventy four, four pounds seventy four,

1312
01:58:58.520 --> 01:59:03.600
West Midlands and also Wales Northwest four pounds eighty seven,

1313
01:59:04.760 --> 01:59:12.960
Northeast four pound fifty six. Actually has realized the Northeast

1314
01:59:13.000 --> 01:59:17.159
and the Northwest does also have a Let's see, depends

1315
01:59:17.199 --> 01:59:23.359
where you live. Scotland four pounds eighty seven. So it

1316
01:59:23.479 --> 01:59:25.560
depends what you're eating, I mean you can or what

1317
01:59:25.600 --> 01:59:28.600
you're drinking. So if you can drink alcohol, then you're

1318
01:59:28.640 --> 01:59:34.720
looking at like five quid roughly for a drink, and

1319
01:59:35.840 --> 01:59:42.359
if you're if you get a takeaway delivered, you're looking

1320
01:59:42.359 --> 01:59:48.439
at about twenty pounds, you know, roughly. It could be more.

1321
01:59:48.520 --> 01:59:51.000
Depends what you're ordering, depends where you're ordering it from,

1322
01:59:51.600 --> 01:59:55.079
what time of the day, what kind of delivery charges

1323
01:59:55.159 --> 01:59:58.960
there is there is you know, yeah, it really just

1324
01:59:59.039 --> 02:00:05.840
depends on what you get. But then you might be

1325
02:00:05.920 --> 02:00:11.319
talking about me specifically. So I get my everything I

1326
02:00:11.399 --> 02:00:14.039
get is delivered to me. And I just had a

1327
02:00:14.119 --> 02:00:21.039
delivery this morning from eats what it was called Uber Eats,

1328
02:00:21.920 --> 02:00:28.039
and that cost me I think like thirty four pounds

1329
02:00:28.079 --> 02:00:34.880
something like that. And for that I got four milks.

1330
02:00:41.520 --> 02:00:48.079
Oh okay, it's some bananas, some apples, some pizzas. Those

1331
02:00:48.279 --> 02:00:53.720
two little pizzas. I got a packet of bags which

1332
02:00:53.920 --> 02:00:56.479
you can store stuff in for the freezer and stuff

1333
02:00:56.600 --> 02:01:02.399
and the fridge. I got some jaffee cakes and another

1334
02:01:03.000 --> 02:01:12.560
little packet of biscuits, some bread rollschbatta, and I think

1335
02:01:12.680 --> 02:01:16.680
that's pretty much it. Trying to think what else there

1336
02:01:16.920 --> 02:01:25.800
was Boom boom cheese. Got some cheese as well, some

1337
02:01:26.000 --> 02:01:32.520
cheese slices. So you know, you could buy stuff like

1338
02:01:32.680 --> 02:01:35.199
I have, So I find I have a cheese and

1339
02:01:35.279 --> 02:01:37.359
tomato bread roll, which is what I'm planning to for

1340
02:01:37.479 --> 02:01:52.119
my lunch. Then the a pound, probably two pound, but

1341
02:01:52.279 --> 02:01:55.439
then Vinnie has to he loves cheese, so I can't

1342
02:01:55.520 --> 02:02:01.680
have to share it with him. Where is he He's

1343
02:02:01.760 --> 02:02:03.720
not even under the table. I don't know where he is.

1344
02:02:05.720 --> 02:02:09.279
He's actually right under my chair, like behind my chair.

1345
02:02:11.199 --> 02:02:12.560
I didn't even know he was there. I didn't know

1346
02:02:12.600 --> 02:02:16.399
where he was. So yeah, it depends really on what

1347
02:02:17.039 --> 02:02:21.199
I'm eating before I get a takeaway. It's pretty much

1348
02:02:21.199 --> 02:02:27.600
at least twenty pound, if not more. As far as

1349
02:02:27.720 --> 02:02:30.399
like a takeaway food, whether it's a pizza, whether it's

1350
02:02:30.479 --> 02:02:39.399
a roast dinner, whether it's yeah whatever, it is really

1351
02:02:39.760 --> 02:02:49.399
looking at roughly twenty. But then I mean, I guess

1352
02:02:49.520 --> 02:02:53.079
most of my money really goes on food. I mean

1353
02:02:53.199 --> 02:02:59.920
there's priorities. You know, I got the bills, so bill

1354
02:03:02.560 --> 02:03:06.560
and food, and that's it. Really, that's the two things

1355
02:03:06.640 --> 02:03:09.039
I kind of prioritize on. And I include you know,

1356
02:03:09.359 --> 02:03:12.840
Vinnie's food as well in that I get that delivered too,

1357
02:03:14.199 --> 02:03:16.279
So yeah, that's kind of it. That's really so I

1358
02:03:16.359 --> 02:03:19.000
don't I guess I don't take too much notice of

1359
02:03:19.359 --> 02:03:23.720
how much things are. I'm more interested in that I've

1360
02:03:23.760 --> 02:03:28.359
got enough to cover how much things are, if that

1361
02:03:28.520 --> 02:03:31.920
makes any sense. Because I've got direct debits for all

1362
02:03:31.960 --> 02:03:35.680
of my bills, I don't have to pay anything like

1363
02:03:36.800 --> 02:03:38.359
I have to pay it, but I don't have to

1364
02:03:38.439 --> 02:03:41.399
kind of go and do anything. It just automatically goes

1365
02:03:41.439 --> 02:03:45.479
out of my account. We know how direct debits work.

1366
02:03:46.000 --> 02:03:51.960
All right, Wow, is it Sunday today, isn't it? I

1367
02:03:52.079 --> 02:03:55.640
just seem to be very sarcastic towards myself. I'm in

1368
02:03:55.640 --> 02:04:00.199
a sarcastic Sunday, So yeah, Jonathan, that's kind of it. Really,

1369
02:04:00.279 --> 02:04:08.920
I just it depends what what is my You said

1370
02:04:08.960 --> 02:04:11.960
typical days meals consist of? You didn't say cost, did you.

1371
02:04:16.000 --> 02:04:17.640
It's because I've been out half a night. I'm not

1372
02:04:17.720 --> 02:04:20.399
reading it properly. What does the typical days meals and

1373
02:04:20.479 --> 02:04:21.560
beverages consist of?

1374
02:04:22.159 --> 02:04:22.680
Not cost?

1375
02:04:23.079 --> 02:04:24.600
You didn't ask me cost, But I'm telling you the

1376
02:04:24.640 --> 02:04:34.359
price of stuff I have in more recent years. I

1377
02:04:36.479 --> 02:04:42.079
be jay eating. I try and have something cooked and

1378
02:04:42.199 --> 02:04:45.800
a sandwich and maybe a couple of bowls of breakfast

1379
02:04:45.800 --> 02:04:54.479
cereal through the day water juice. I've got it. If

1380
02:04:54.560 --> 02:04:57.079
I don't have juice, and I don't know water basically,

1381
02:04:58.399 --> 02:05:09.479
and tea cuts it tea without sugar. Sometimes I have

1382
02:05:09.640 --> 02:05:14.319
regular takeaways. Sometimes I'll go without having a takeaway for

1383
02:05:14.479 --> 02:05:18.119
a little while, but you know, I do get I

1384
02:05:18.239 --> 02:05:23.359
haven't had one for over a week now, which is

1385
02:05:24.000 --> 02:05:28.520
a long time. But then I haven't really been eating.

1386
02:05:28.560 --> 02:05:30.039
I've been spend a lot of time in bed, so

1387
02:05:30.680 --> 02:05:33.640
I didn't really I couldn't face kind of doing it.

1388
02:05:33.760 --> 02:05:44.840
But yeah, I don't eat a huge amount really. I've

1389
02:05:44.920 --> 02:05:49.239
never been a big eater. I mean, I'm because I'm

1390
02:05:49.239 --> 02:05:51.199
a big eater because I'm eating and I'm big, but

1391
02:05:51.439 --> 02:05:55.479
I've never been a big consumer of food other than

1392
02:05:55.520 --> 02:06:01.479
when I am chocolate war Dean asks any sign of

1393
02:06:01.560 --> 02:06:04.199
new people moving in? I know that you said there

1394
02:06:04.279 --> 02:06:07.800
was a couple of empty places in your block. Well

1395
02:06:10.159 --> 02:06:14.960
it's weird because downstairs right the flat downstairs where my

1396
02:06:15.119 --> 02:06:17.199
friend used to live, and then a lady moved in

1397
02:06:17.800 --> 02:06:20.399
and she's moved out within a year of moving in there,

1398
02:06:23.439 --> 02:06:28.640
they're putting a new kitchen downstairs because apparently they like

1399
02:06:28.720 --> 02:06:31.359
to do it, and there's no one living there. I'd

1400
02:06:31.520 --> 02:06:36.800
like a new kitchen, please, can I? So they put

1401
02:06:36.840 --> 02:06:39.359
a new kitchen in. As far as I know this,

1402
02:06:39.479 --> 02:06:43.600
they're already started showing that flat out to people. The

1403
02:06:43.720 --> 02:06:50.359
flat opposite, which is Uncle's Sausages, they came last week

1404
02:06:50.760 --> 02:06:55.720
and I think it was last week. They emptied his

1405
02:06:55.880 --> 02:06:59.000
flat very quickly, and they were checking stuff out the

1406
02:06:59.079 --> 02:07:03.119
window into a not a skip, but it's like a

1407
02:07:05.039 --> 02:07:08.439
van with a kind of big metal cage on checking

1408
02:07:08.479 --> 02:07:14.399
stuff in there out of his window, which didn't sit

1409
02:07:14.479 --> 02:07:16.199
well with me, to be honest. It just seems a

1410
02:07:16.239 --> 02:07:22.359
bit disrespectful. But hey, and the painters have been in there.

1411
02:07:22.399 --> 02:07:25.720
The painting's been downstairs, so I think that one's nearly

1412
02:07:25.760 --> 02:07:27.840
ready to go as well, because all I had to

1413
02:07:27.880 --> 02:07:32.000
do is just sort out two rooms because both the

1414
02:07:32.119 --> 02:07:35.920
kitchen and the bathroom were brand new. The bathroom was

1415
02:07:36.000 --> 02:07:41.239
literally being built or rebuilt when Uncle's Sausages was in hospital.

1416
02:07:42.039 --> 02:07:46.560
He never got to see it finished, so there's probably

1417
02:07:46.640 --> 02:07:52.239
less for them to do in there. It's weird, really,

1418
02:07:54.960 --> 02:08:00.199
so I don't know really what's going to happen. There's

1419
02:08:00.199 --> 02:08:03.560
been people coming in and looking around, and I did

1420
02:08:03.680 --> 02:08:06.359
see the lady from the council coming in because she

1421
02:08:06.479 --> 02:08:09.159
got the key off me and she came in and

1422
02:08:09.279 --> 02:08:13.680
she was she had her board on her she was

1423
02:08:13.760 --> 02:08:17.479
going into of course sausages flat. So it looks like

1424
02:08:17.560 --> 02:08:21.319
that's ready to go nearly. So they've really pulled out

1425
02:08:21.319 --> 02:08:23.560
all the stops to get them done as quickly as possible,

1426
02:08:25.079 --> 02:08:30.039
to let them out as quick as possible. But when

1427
02:08:30.119 --> 02:08:33.039
people do move in, I'll let you know. But the

1428
02:08:33.159 --> 02:08:38.439
moment still both the flats are still empty that it

1429
02:08:38.680 --> 02:08:42.560
looks like, I mean, what is it now, September. I

1430
02:08:42.640 --> 02:08:47.000
wouldn't be surprised if, well, I'd say one hundred percent

1431
02:08:47.159 --> 02:08:54.119
they're both going to be full by Christmas. I wouldn't

1432
02:08:54.159 --> 02:08:58.199
be surprised if at least one of them isn't occupied

1433
02:08:58.880 --> 02:09:04.000
by the end of October, which is only well six

1434
02:09:04.079 --> 02:09:07.720
weeks away, so I wouldn't be surprised it alas be

1435
02:09:07.720 --> 02:09:11.680
surprised if both of them are occupied by like November.

1436
02:09:13.920 --> 02:09:16.039
It'd be lovely if it took six months or a year.

1437
02:09:16.840 --> 02:09:21.199
A little bit quiet, because you know, it's the thing

1438
02:09:21.319 --> 02:09:24.119
is these doors they slam if you don't if you

1439
02:09:24.159 --> 02:09:26.159
don't close and quietly, they just slam on their own,

1440
02:09:26.600 --> 02:09:30.520
which is kind of part of the fire regulation safety thing,

1441
02:09:30.600 --> 02:09:33.479
you know, But it's very noisy. And it shakes the

1442
02:09:33.520 --> 02:09:38.680
whole building when they slam because they're heavy doors. So

1443
02:09:40.680 --> 02:09:48.640
out of the six flats, two are empty. So I'm

1444
02:09:48.640 --> 02:09:51.039
going to start at the top of the building. Uncle's

1445
02:09:51.039 --> 02:09:56.640
sausages close his door quietly. His next door neighbor closes

1446
02:09:56.720 --> 02:10:01.439
the door quietly. I close my door quietly. Below me

1447
02:10:01.920 --> 02:10:07.640
closes their door quietly. The one opposite lets their door

1448
02:10:07.720 --> 02:10:12.239
slam continuously. They don't like, they're not aware of it.

1449
02:10:12.319 --> 02:10:14.600
They just let it slam, and it does shake. It

1450
02:10:14.680 --> 02:10:18.960
makes Vinnie bark and it shakes the building. The one

1451
02:10:19.039 --> 02:10:23.359
next door to that one used to let her door slam.

1452
02:10:26.960 --> 02:10:31.880
So I'm hoping that whoever moves in just doesn't it

1453
02:10:31.960 --> 02:10:36.920
the door slam, because then Vinnie's going to start, especially

1454
02:10:36.920 --> 02:10:40.479
if it's at night, he'll start barking. And if the

1455
02:10:40.520 --> 02:10:44.319
person lives in opposite me, let's say, door slam, it's

1456
02:10:44.399 --> 02:10:48.920
just going to be disruptive for me because it will

1457
02:10:48.960 --> 02:10:54.279
literally shake my flat. It's one of those things. The

1458
02:10:54.359 --> 02:10:59.199
building's not it's not like a flimsy building. It's not

1459
02:10:59.359 --> 02:11:03.680
made out of board, but it really you know that

1460
02:11:03.760 --> 02:11:10.039
all the flats are joined together, aren't they, And it

1461
02:11:10.199 --> 02:11:16.840
just seems and because everything echoes in the hallway, it

1462
02:11:16.880 --> 02:11:20.239
would seem natural that well, that someone wouldn't let the

1463
02:11:20.279 --> 02:11:24.600
door slam. Sometimes it's going to slam. My door slam sometimes,

1464
02:11:25.920 --> 02:11:27.760
you know, if I'm getting shopping in or something, and

1465
02:11:27.920 --> 02:11:32.319
sometimes it slams, but I don't. I just continuously let

1466
02:11:32.359 --> 02:11:36.319
it slam. I try and stop it. But once I

1467
02:11:36.439 --> 02:11:37.960
tried to stop it and I broke my heel, So

1468
02:11:38.039 --> 02:11:43.800
that wasn't so good. But other than that, because it

1469
02:11:44.079 --> 02:11:45.800
because it goes and you have to push it to

1470
02:11:45.960 --> 02:11:48.560
open it. So I was trying to stop it from slamming,

1471
02:11:48.680 --> 02:11:52.680
and it my heel got caught in between the door

1472
02:11:53.319 --> 02:11:57.840
and the doorfray in the bottom of the doorframe. H

1473
02:11:58.239 --> 02:12:03.399
I was limping around for about two months after that

1474
02:12:04.079 --> 02:12:08.840
was all painful. So yeah, I'm not sure, but it

1475
02:12:09.000 --> 02:12:14.520
looks like soon. Maria asks, have you ever fractured or

1476
02:12:14.560 --> 02:12:15.640
broken any bones?

1477
02:12:16.319 --> 02:12:16.359
Is?

1478
02:12:16.479 --> 02:12:18.039
So? When? And how? Thank you?

1479
02:12:19.199 --> 02:12:19.439
Well?

1480
02:12:19.800 --> 02:12:27.800
My favorite subject. It's not really I have. I've probably

1481
02:12:27.840 --> 02:12:30.159
broken more bones than I realized, but I think all

1482
02:12:30.199 --> 02:12:36.680
of us have potentially. I remember an expert on toes well,

1483
02:12:36.840 --> 02:12:38.479
I didn't speak to him personally, but it was on

1484
02:12:38.560 --> 02:12:42.800
the news or whatever. I think this was during David

1485
02:12:42.880 --> 02:12:45.880
Beckham pulled out the World Cup or the European Cup

1486
02:12:47.600 --> 02:12:51.920
because he had a broken toe and people were mocking him. So,

1487
02:12:52.039 --> 02:12:55.840
how can you pull out such an important event with

1488
02:12:56.840 --> 02:13:03.119
a little broken toe? Oh you should hurting, David. Oh sorry,

1489
02:13:03.159 --> 02:13:05.279
you're not getting paid enough for not a million pounds

1490
02:13:05.319 --> 02:13:07.439
of weeks? Not enough is it for you to just

1491
02:13:07.680 --> 02:13:12.000
endure a little bit of oh oh the toe? And

1492
02:13:12.119 --> 02:13:17.800
this expert was saying, actually is acony. It's to kick

1493
02:13:17.800 --> 02:13:19.600
a ball around with a broken toe is the most

1494
02:13:19.680 --> 02:13:23.479
ridiculous thing ever. It's not something you can do. It's

1495
02:13:24.319 --> 02:13:29.359
And also they said that probably nearly everybody's had a

1496
02:13:29.439 --> 02:13:33.880
broken toe without even realizing. If you stump your toe

1497
02:13:34.239 --> 02:13:38.439
quite often a little but a bone breaks and we're

1498
02:13:38.479 --> 02:13:41.800
in paining for weeks. It gradually goes, but it's just,

1499
02:13:42.000 --> 02:13:49.840
you know, it's just one of those things. So the

1500
02:13:50.079 --> 02:13:55.359
first real bone I remember was I broke my right

1501
02:13:55.520 --> 02:14:00.439
hand punching a piece of frozen meat while a box

1502
02:14:00.479 --> 02:14:06.960
of frozen meat. And yeah, I had to go went

1503
02:14:07.000 --> 02:14:13.560
to hospital and I basically I pushed the bone. It

1504
02:14:13.680 --> 02:14:16.880
was the second knuckle in from my little knuckle on

1505
02:14:16.960 --> 02:14:20.800
the right hand. It compressed the bone right into itself,

1506
02:14:21.960 --> 02:14:26.039
so I don't have a knuckle on that hand. And

1507
02:14:27.640 --> 02:14:32.880
oh that was weird because I was twenty what was

1508
02:14:32.960 --> 02:14:39.199
I twenty four twenty four? What was I twenty three,

1509
02:14:41.119 --> 02:14:47.640
twenty three, twenty four, something like that, And so I

1510
02:14:47.760 --> 02:14:54.880
had about five weeks off work unpaid, which was difficult,

1511
02:14:57.159 --> 02:14:58.920
and I had to learn because I couldn't do the

1512
02:14:59.039 --> 02:15:02.159
job because I I needed my hands to do the job,

1513
02:15:02.279 --> 02:15:08.760
do the manual work. And it was so weird having

1514
02:15:08.840 --> 02:15:12.039
to learn because there's certain things I needed my right

1515
02:15:12.119 --> 02:15:16.279
hand for because I was right handed well pretty much

1516
02:15:16.319 --> 02:15:20.239
everything like writing and that, but it's like toilet stuff.

1517
02:15:20.239 --> 02:15:22.760
I'm not going to this very difficult learning to do

1518
02:15:22.920 --> 02:15:26.880
stuff with my left hand. I just felt so weird.

1519
02:15:29.439 --> 02:15:32.399
It wasn't all bad, but you know, just generally. And

1520
02:15:33.399 --> 02:15:37.079
so that was the first time. The second time I

1521
02:15:37.199 --> 02:15:47.279
broke anything was I can't with you, I can go

1522
02:15:47.399 --> 02:15:53.560
through the bone. So I think two thousand and four

1523
02:15:53.800 --> 02:16:11.560
my rib when I was doing wing chun, and then I, oh, yeah,

1524
02:16:11.560 --> 02:16:13.439
I'm going to go. I can't go through the different years.

1525
02:16:13.439 --> 02:16:15.800
I can't remember, but I'll do it by body part

1526
02:16:15.920 --> 02:16:21.439
rather than yeah, I'm starting in my head. I don't

1527
02:16:21.520 --> 02:16:24.359
know what I've broken in my face, I couldn't tell you.

1528
02:16:25.119 --> 02:16:28.720
Maybe when I was very young, but not that I

1529
02:16:28.800 --> 02:16:34.799
can remember nothing in my shoulders, my arms. I broke

1530
02:16:34.879 --> 02:16:37.920
my left wrist when I first moved in there. I

1531
02:16:38.000 --> 02:16:41.639
fell out the bath, so I broke my left wrist.

1532
02:16:42.799 --> 02:16:47.879
I broke my right hand twice. So the second time

1533
02:16:48.040 --> 02:16:53.440
I punched the door, and this was about six years ago. Hey,

1534
02:16:54.440 --> 02:17:01.120
so I yeah, broke my hand again. I've damage my

1535
02:17:01.239 --> 02:17:05.040
left hand numerous times, but I don't know about whether

1536
02:17:05.159 --> 02:17:07.760
it's broken or not. It might have been like a

1537
02:17:07.840 --> 02:17:12.159
little crack or something, you know, but not like proper.

1538
02:17:12.239 --> 02:17:18.159
Broke broke my rib again. So I've had my rib

1539
02:17:18.200 --> 02:17:22.719
broken twice and my wrist broken once. I had my

1540
02:17:22.920 --> 02:17:33.120
right hand broken twice, broke my toes a few different occasions,

1541
02:17:33.760 --> 02:17:37.959
had broken toes, my big toe at least twice, the

1542
02:17:38.120 --> 02:17:44.360
top of my foot at least once. My heel, now

1543
02:17:44.600 --> 02:17:48.000
the heel, I didn't go and get anything sorted, but

1544
02:17:48.120 --> 02:17:50.879
I was hobbling around for two months, so I think

1545
02:17:50.920 --> 02:17:53.239
I broke something in my heel as well, but or

1546
02:17:53.399 --> 02:17:57.920
chipped the bone something like that. And then I fell

1547
02:17:58.000 --> 02:18:00.559
down the stairs a couple of years back, fractured my

1548
02:18:00.680 --> 02:18:04.799
back in two places. That was the first week that

1549
02:18:04.840 --> 02:18:09.000
I got Vinnie. It was weird because it had snow,

1550
02:18:10.000 --> 02:18:14.719
really solid snow settled and everything. And I got Vinny

1551
02:18:14.840 --> 02:18:17.399
that week and we all week we was in the

1552
02:18:17.600 --> 02:18:21.040
snow and I was wearing my boots making sure I

1553
02:18:21.079 --> 02:18:23.920
didn't fall over. I slipped once, but it was in

1554
02:18:24.000 --> 02:18:27.000
the snow and in the fields. It didn't hurt because

1555
02:18:27.000 --> 02:18:29.000
it was in the snow. And he laughed at me,

1556
02:18:30.040 --> 02:18:32.239
and I said, don't laugh. Next time I'm going I'm

1557
02:18:32.239 --> 02:18:36.079
going to land on you. He stopped laughing then. And

1558
02:18:38.040 --> 02:18:40.840
the last I think it was a Wednesday, maybe it

1559
02:18:40.920 --> 02:18:47.040
was a Thursday. It rained and everything melted away. All

1560
02:18:47.200 --> 02:18:54.399
the ice went, no snow, not a sight. You couldn't

1561
02:18:54.440 --> 02:18:56.879
see it had even been there, like it didn't exist.

1562
02:18:59.280 --> 02:18:59.799
And then.

1563
02:19:01.920 --> 02:19:05.920
Luke calls up. I think he might have knocked on

1564
02:19:06.000 --> 02:19:08.120
the door. He might have wrung me up, I don't know.

1565
02:19:08.200 --> 02:19:10.079
He said, I would just want to bring Vinnie down

1566
02:19:10.120 --> 02:19:13.200
in the garden and play with LOGI. I said, all right.

1567
02:19:13.399 --> 02:19:16.600
This was like nine o'clock or something. He was I

1568
02:19:16.639 --> 02:19:18.639
think he was more excited about Vinnie than I was.

1569
02:19:19.520 --> 02:19:24.159
So Luke was downstairs At this point, I let Vinnie

1570
02:19:24.319 --> 02:19:27.639
out and he ran downstairs into the garden to play

1571
02:19:27.680 --> 02:19:33.719
with LOGI I come down. I got my crocs on,

1572
02:19:36.600 --> 02:19:38.399
but I did put my coat on because it was cold,

1573
02:19:41.440 --> 02:19:44.200
and Luke was standing in the bottom of the stairs.

1574
02:19:45.079 --> 02:19:46.600
I was just talking to him as I was like

1575
02:19:46.680 --> 02:19:49.440
getting ready to come down, and I think I got

1576
02:19:49.520 --> 02:19:53.760
down about two steps or three steps, and I went

1577
02:19:55.760 --> 02:20:01.559
and I bounced down the hole of the staircase deady.

1578
02:20:03.159 --> 02:20:05.639
It's not like it's concrete steps, it's not like big,

1579
02:20:06.079 --> 02:20:09.920
not loads of steps, but it was enough. And Luke

1580
02:20:10.079 --> 02:20:15.159
was laughing because he didn't not hurt myself. He said,

1581
02:20:15.159 --> 02:20:18.079
it was so funny to watch just you bouncing off

1582
02:20:18.159 --> 02:20:21.879
of each step and a look on your face because

1583
02:20:21.920 --> 02:20:25.760
it happened so quick. I didn't really I didn't really

1584
02:20:25.840 --> 02:20:28.440
know what was going on. To be fair, I didn't.

1585
02:20:28.959 --> 02:20:31.319
I couldn't really process it because it was so quick.

1586
02:20:33.159 --> 02:20:35.120
One minute I was standing there, next minute I was

1587
02:20:35.159 --> 02:20:38.680
at the bottom of the stairs, having been on a really,

1588
02:20:38.959 --> 02:20:44.079
really weird roller coaster. Well it wasn't a roller coaster.

1589
02:20:44.120 --> 02:20:45.520
It was falling down the stairs, but you know what

1590
02:20:45.559 --> 02:20:48.680
I mean. It was a kind of very strange experience.

1591
02:20:50.559 --> 02:21:00.719
So he's laughing, I'm not feeling great, and I mean

1592
02:21:01.079 --> 02:21:02.959
it ended up that I had had a fracture back

1593
02:21:03.040 --> 02:21:06.000
in two places. So I mentioned, you know, I wasn't

1594
02:21:07.399 --> 02:21:12.040
my back wasn't feeling wonderful and I couldn't get up.

1595
02:21:12.120 --> 02:21:18.280
I needed his help to get up, and he was

1596
02:21:18.559 --> 02:21:20.920
He said I needed to go to the hospital, and

1597
02:21:21.040 --> 02:21:24.399
I said, nah, I'll be all right. But I couldn't

1598
02:21:24.399 --> 02:21:26.520
sit down, I couldn't stand up. I couldn't do anything.

1599
02:21:26.559 --> 02:21:31.719
It was just I knew something was broke, just for

1600
02:21:31.799 --> 02:21:35.280
the simple fact that well, I felt it. But at

1601
02:21:35.319 --> 02:21:38.440
the same time I thought, no, I don't. I can't

1602
02:21:38.600 --> 02:21:41.559
face being in a in the hospital for the next

1603
02:21:42.200 --> 02:21:46.000
twelve hours thirty I think it was thirteen and a

1604
02:21:46.040 --> 02:21:50.600
half hours I was in there. But he said, yeah,

1605
02:21:50.639 --> 02:21:55.440
but what if you got internal, something internal happened, you know,

1606
02:21:55.959 --> 02:22:00.239
outside of something else, you know, might say you might

1607
02:22:00.280 --> 02:22:03.760
be serious. So if you wanted to come with me,

1608
02:22:03.840 --> 02:22:05.719
I said, no, it's all right, I'll just get a

1609
02:22:05.799 --> 02:22:14.159
taxi in. He looked after Vinnie and yeah. The doctor

1610
02:22:14.239 --> 02:22:18.319
even said, oh, no, can't be fractured when he eventually

1611
02:22:18.520 --> 02:22:20.920
sort of saw me. So he can't be fractured. Because

1612
02:22:20.920 --> 02:22:23.959
it was fractured. You be in agony. I said that

1613
02:22:24.360 --> 02:22:27.600
I'm what do you think I'm in? He said, no,

1614
02:22:27.719 --> 02:22:29.040
you won't be able to You won't be able to

1615
02:22:29.079 --> 02:22:31.760
stand up if you had if you had a fracture

1616
02:22:31.799 --> 02:22:35.000
in your back, you'reon be able to stand up. He said,

1617
02:22:35.000 --> 02:22:36.799
I'm going to give you an extra anyway with a

1618
02:22:36.879 --> 02:22:39.680
cat scan. And then he came back. He said, yeah,

1619
02:22:39.680 --> 02:22:44.159
it's fractured in two places. He said, I don't know

1620
02:22:44.200 --> 02:22:47.840
how you can stand up. I said, sitting down's worst,

1621
02:22:47.920 --> 02:22:53.920
and standing up it's hers more than I sit down.

1622
02:22:54.280 --> 02:22:56.600
I've just spent the last twelve hours, twelve and a

1623
02:22:56.600 --> 02:23:03.239
half hours sitting down. Standing up was relief, but then

1624
02:23:03.280 --> 02:23:05.079
it started hurting the game and on standing up, but

1625
02:23:05.680 --> 02:23:08.079
it was relief compared to sitting down for such a

1626
02:23:08.159 --> 02:23:16.959
long time, which oh so yeah. So what I've got?

1627
02:23:17.200 --> 02:23:24.600
I think so my knuckles and I guess I've got

1628
02:23:24.680 --> 02:23:31.360
two hands to my right hand twice, my wrist once,

1629
02:23:32.600 --> 02:23:41.079
my ribs twice two different times, and my foot the

1630
02:23:41.200 --> 02:23:45.239
top of my foot once and my big toe at

1631
02:23:45.319 --> 02:23:50.479
least twice. Yeah, and the heel. I don't know, but

1632
02:23:50.600 --> 02:23:53.520
that's the breaks I've had. There's a few little breaks

1633
02:23:54.200 --> 02:24:00.239
along the way, But I suppose the the scaries one

1634
02:24:00.280 --> 02:24:02.159
would be when I fell out the bath, to be honest,

1635
02:24:03.399 --> 02:24:06.639
because I hurt my shoulder and I couldn't I couldn't

1636
02:24:06.680 --> 02:24:10.440
get up. I was on my own and I was well,

1637
02:24:11.319 --> 02:24:13.719
everything was out. You know, I was naked, so it

1638
02:24:13.840 --> 02:24:22.159
wasn't an ideal situation. But when I fell down the stairs,

1639
02:24:24.680 --> 02:24:25.920
but at least I had a T shirt on the

1640
02:24:25.959 --> 02:24:30.479
rest of me, I was naked, and then I was

1641
02:24:30.600 --> 02:24:33.719
when I was at work. Yeah, pretty much was naked

1642
02:24:33.840 --> 02:24:39.799
most places most times. It's weird, isn't it. Well, we

1643
02:24:39.920 --> 02:24:41.799
weren't all naked. I mean, it's not a bad thing,

1644
02:24:41.920 --> 02:24:45.079
is It's not. It's not an awful state of undress? Really,

1645
02:24:45.200 --> 02:24:49.680
is it. It's natural. It doesn't hold up in court though,

1646
02:24:51.360 --> 02:24:55.440
doesn't stand up in court. Wow. So yeah, I've had

1647
02:24:55.479 --> 02:25:02.399
a few, a few little knocks around, but probably other

1648
02:25:02.479 --> 02:25:04.799
than like falling out the bath, that was not good.

1649
02:25:04.879 --> 02:25:13.040
But the stairs one that was, Yeah, that's probably the worst,

1650
02:25:13.440 --> 02:25:15.799
the worst. I don't know, none of them were nice,

1651
02:25:15.879 --> 02:25:21.079
but that was you know, sitting down, standing up whatever.

1652
02:25:21.159 --> 02:25:23.760
It was just it took a long time for that

1653
02:25:23.920 --> 02:25:30.559
to calm itself. Down. Yeah, that was weird.

1654
02:25:30.680 --> 02:25:31.040
That was.

1655
02:25:35.479 --> 02:25:37.239
Yeah. Since then, I've had a few problems with my

1656
02:25:37.319 --> 02:25:39.920
upper back. I don't know if it's to do with that,

1657
02:25:43.879 --> 02:25:45.840
almost like a misalignment or something.

1658
02:25:46.680 --> 02:25:47.079
I don't know.

1659
02:25:48.799 --> 02:25:56.520
I don't know. I don't know that Maria. So that's

1660
02:25:56.680 --> 02:26:03.040
I thank you for Maria, Christine, Jonathan, Reveal, Isabelle, and Hope.

1661
02:26:04.719 --> 02:26:06.600
Thank you very much. That's all the questions I do

1662
02:26:06.760 --> 02:26:11.639
believe I've answered in this here particular Q and A Friday,

1663
02:26:12.399 --> 02:26:17.319
and Vinnie knows straight away I'm bringing this to an end.

1664
02:26:17.639 --> 02:26:22.159
He always knows. How does he always know? I don't know.

1665
02:26:26.120 --> 02:26:30.200
So yeah, thank you for listening. Remember to be kind

1666
02:26:30.239 --> 02:26:36.520
to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy and

1667
02:26:36.600 --> 02:26:43.040
be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe, lots

1668
02:26:43.079 --> 02:27:03.280
of love. Bye. Relax in a more deep and meaningful way,

1669
02:27:05.760 --> 02:27:10.760
Maybe in a way that can not just allow you

1670
02:27:11.319 --> 02:27:21.280
to feel calmer now and throughout the time we spend

1671
02:27:21.399 --> 02:27:29.319
together here, not just relaxed at the end of the

1672
02:27:29.440 --> 02:27:34.760
recording when it's finished and you can enjoy that sense

1673
02:27:34.920 --> 02:27:51.520
of comfort and peace, but also I think it would

1674
02:27:51.559 --> 02:28:08.040
be nice to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer.

1675
02:28:11.719 --> 02:28:21.520
After the recording has ended, so that you can still

1676
02:28:22.200 --> 02:28:32.040
benefit from listening to my voice maybe in a few

1677
02:28:32.120 --> 02:28:47.920
hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially

1678
02:28:47.959 --> 02:28:52.440
if you find like some people do and myself as well.

1679
02:28:52.600 --> 02:28:59.520
I sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates

1680
02:28:59.639 --> 02:29:05.959
with me, and I just listened to it over and

1681
02:29:06.079 --> 02:29:19.440
over again every morning, every evening. There was this recording

1682
02:29:19.719 --> 02:29:26.000
from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It

1683
02:29:26.159 --> 02:29:31.319
was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1684
02:29:31.440 --> 02:29:38.360
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1685
02:29:38.479 --> 02:29:41.959
find it again and it still has the same effect

1686
02:29:42.520 --> 02:29:51.680
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1687
02:29:54.520 --> 02:30:04.079
relaxed me, just felt so so peaceful, and I'd look

1688
02:30:04.319 --> 02:30:11.239
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

1689
02:30:11.319 --> 02:30:22.600
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play

1690
02:30:22.680 --> 02:30:30.840
button that since I've done that, pressed the play button.

1691
02:30:31.639 --> 02:30:42.600
This is in the days of CD players, pressed the

1692
02:30:42.680 --> 02:30:48.000
play button, if that it might have even been a

1693
02:30:48.079 --> 02:30:52.559
tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1694
02:30:52.680 --> 02:31:09.120
then even without nest necessarily listening to her words because

1695
02:31:11.040 --> 02:31:18.200
I had to memorized. Really, it was as if my

1696
02:31:18.319 --> 02:31:29.680
body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just

1697
02:31:33.680 --> 02:31:51.479
almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind

1698
02:31:54.319 --> 02:32:05.200
would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this

1699
02:32:05.399 --> 02:32:14.879
recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long

1700
02:32:15.000 --> 02:32:23.479
before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1701
02:32:24.760 --> 02:32:28.079
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six.

1702
02:32:34.879 --> 02:32:50.639
But I knew, I knew how helpful I found being

1703
02:32:50.719 --> 02:33:00.600
able to just let go, to have that trust person

1704
02:33:00.680 --> 02:33:10.639
that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to be

1705
02:33:14.559 --> 02:33:21.719
just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time you

1706
02:33:21.840 --> 02:33:34.840
hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some people

1707
02:33:37.479 --> 02:33:49.799
have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1708
02:33:49.920 --> 02:33:55.319
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

1709
02:33:57.479 --> 02:34:02.319
maybe people come back. Some people may be listen every day.

1710
02:34:13.559 --> 02:34:19.479
There's something that I do which you may not realize

1711
02:34:21.959 --> 02:34:40.479
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

1712
02:34:45.040 --> 02:34:52.799
I also am affected by the words that I say.

1713
02:34:58.120 --> 02:35:04.479
So if I said to you, focus on your feet,

1714
02:35:07.040 --> 02:35:14.719
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1715
02:35:19.639 --> 02:35:37.040
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1716
02:35:37.200 --> 02:35:44.840
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1717
02:35:44.920 --> 02:35:55.719
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1718
02:35:55.879 --> 02:36:00.479
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1719
02:36:08.319 --> 02:36:12.159
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1720
02:36:12.360 --> 02:36:20.239
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1721
02:36:20.799 --> 02:36:25.559
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1722
02:36:33.920 --> 02:36:44.479
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1723
02:36:44.840 --> 02:37:13.040
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now and

1724
02:37:13.239 --> 02:37:20.120
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1725
02:37:20.239 --> 02:37:33.360
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1726
02:37:36.600 --> 02:37:50.040
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1727
02:37:57.959 --> 02:38:10.559
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1728
02:38:15.440 --> 02:38:24.520
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1729
02:38:24.879 --> 02:38:33.920
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring,

1730
02:38:35.879 --> 02:38:43.120
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1731
02:38:45.799 --> 02:38:53.120
I was snoring. Was a pig turned up. That's why

1732
02:38:53.159 --> 02:39:01.399
I sound like when I snore, I get read into

1733
02:39:01.520 --> 02:39:20.879
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel, how

1734
02:39:20.959 --> 02:39:31.760
relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

1735
02:39:32.000 --> 02:39:58.639
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1736
02:39:58.840 --> 02:40:14.959
the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1737
02:40:15.200 --> 02:40:35.760
easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1738
02:40:40.159 --> 02:41:01.120
So this allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing

1739
02:41:03.360 --> 02:41:28.920
on your breath, however, being able to notice the ease

1740
02:41:32.360 --> 02:41:58.920
in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so very

1741
02:41:59.200 --> 02:42:47.879
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when

1742
02:42:47.959 --> 02:43:03.239
I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a

1743
02:43:03.399 --> 02:43:19.920
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1744
02:43:20.079 --> 02:43:55.639
giving oxygen. It feels nice too, if nothing else, just

1745
02:43:56.159 --> 02:44:30.159
taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of

1746
02:44:34.120 --> 02:45:20.920
peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just

1747
02:45:22.799 --> 02:46:06.799
drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely

1748
02:46:12.719 --> 02:46:48.680
unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1749
02:47:15.200 --> 02:48:06.520
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1750
02:48:06.719 --> 02:48:35.280
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

1751
02:48:35.680 --> 02:48:47.280
sensations of allowing the stress to rip out of your body,

1752
02:48:53.799 --> 02:49:17.440
to appear out of every pa of your body being

1753
02:49:18.000 --> 02:49:56.600
released from your brain in your mind, slowly but surely,

1754
02:50:03.520 --> 02:50:51.360
the muscle thing les relax rs so very deeply, res

1755
02:50:56.559 --> 02:51:21.920
so deeply, and the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1756
02:51:22.280 --> 02:51:50.040
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1757
02:51:55.040 --> 02:52:28.360
and deeper and deeper. Noticine, the feelings in the back

1758
02:52:28.440 --> 02:53:30.120
of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

1759
02:53:30.440 --> 02:54:07.319
front of your body, I all say, feeling peaceful, deeply,

1760
02:54:24.399 --> 02:54:34.680
there's a sense of peace spreads through your fairy core.

1761
02:55:05.239 --> 02:55:25.040
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

1762
02:55:32.440 --> 02:56:55.280
beve and slower, even deeper, relax so very slow, his stomach,

1763
02:57:09.399 --> 02:57:11.399
peace fall in your stomach.

1764
02:57:33.600 --> 02:57:34.239
You're back.

1765
02:57:39.680 --> 02:58:08.520
Notice Notice how relaxed you'd never feel in the hole

1766
02:58:08.879 --> 02:58:41.680
of your back. You spy from your brain all the

1767
02:58:41.799 --> 02:58:50.479
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

1768
02:58:52.920 --> 03:00:21.879
millions of messages every day, decomfort increasing deeply relaxed uns, legs,

1769
03:00:25.760 --> 03:00:35.040
spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air.

1770
03:00:35.280 --> 03:00:54.719
Every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

1771
03:01:21.959 --> 03:01:51.440
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1772
03:01:56.479 --> 03:02:12.719
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers pull

1773
03:02:12.879 --> 03:02:58.520
way till you lower back lettinker rear the tinker, peace,

1774
03:03:14.360 --> 03:03:44.360
drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go, let

1775
03:03:45.040 --> 03:04:50.360
go completely, let go, so tranquil the whole body enjoying

1776
03:04:50.520 --> 03:07:12.639
a sense listening God he more pece fur enjoying the space,

1777
03:07:15.040 --> 03:07:56.680
this space of peace and safety. So firy fy relaxed,

1778
03:09:26.639 --> 03:09:51.319
letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1779
03:09:51.719 --> 03:10:26.200
parts of your body, just to notice you fool head

1780
03:10:26.479 --> 03:11:28.399
and your eyes mutual so loose, noticing a sense of

1781
03:11:31.360 --> 03:13:36.200
complete freedom, absolute freedom day to day for energy, peace,

1782
03:13:36.879 --> 03:14:51.600
to breathe, so much easier loose. You may have or

1783
03:14:51.760 --> 03:15:52.159
may not have noticed your mind drifted hm peaceful many

1784
03:15:52.280 --> 03:16:11.440
even more deeply in the park wrecks chef total bliss

1785
03:16:11.559 --> 03:18:08.159
for pace blissph pace terrefting O to pace come so calm,

1786
03:18:19.879 --> 03:18:47.879
let him go, peace with mind.

1787
03:18:57.200 --> 03:19:31.680
Relaxed, firty, so relaxed, so relaxed.

1788
03:19:56.200 --> 03:20:23.040
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1789
03:20:29.399 --> 03:21:38.200
so pay so relax yeah, like, And you could start

1790
03:21:38.680 --> 03:21:48.159
to notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though

1791
03:21:48.360 --> 03:21:59.559
I've not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of

1792
03:22:00.079 --> 03:22:05.399
physical comfort that is growing within you throughout your body,

1793
03:22:08.600 --> 03:22:18.239
and your mind starts to slow down, And that could

1794
03:22:18.319 --> 03:22:26.600
be almost in recognition of I guess my speech not

1795
03:22:26.840 --> 03:22:43.879
being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer just

1796
03:22:44.280 --> 03:22:52.799
by listening to my voice. You give yourself an opportunity

1797
03:22:54.559 --> 03:23:00.000
to take a break from the day, take a break

1798
03:23:00.399 --> 03:23:08.079
from your life as it is, and to give yourself

1799
03:23:08.159 --> 03:23:16.040
a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off

1800
03:23:18.319 --> 03:23:23.680
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1801
03:23:23.840 --> 03:23:34.440
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

1802
03:23:35.879 --> 03:23:44.600
and he stresses that you had in your body. It's

1803
03:23:44.680 --> 03:23:49.200
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1804
03:23:50.559 --> 03:24:03.079
allowing the negativity out and the same time replacing that

1805
03:24:03.319 --> 03:24:12.920
negativity with positive heathing energy which then fills your body

1806
03:24:13.040 --> 03:24:25.600
up and your mind to also starts to appreciate those

1807
03:24:26.040 --> 03:24:43.680
feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1808
03:24:46.879 --> 03:24:55.440
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1809
03:24:57.760 --> 03:25:09.920
of comfort, and all this comes and just allowing yourself

1810
03:25:12.719 --> 03:25:17.920
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1811
03:25:18.040 --> 03:25:30.600
want it to be, to just rest and allow your

1812
03:25:30.760 --> 03:25:40.600
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

1813
03:25:41.319 --> 03:25:57.200
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

1814
03:25:57.680 --> 03:26:10.719
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

1815
03:26:10.799 --> 03:26:19.239
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

1816
03:26:19.360 --> 03:26:29.959
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other.

1817
03:26:31.000 --> 03:26:43.040
With that growing positivity and calmness, and it feels nice.

1818
03:26:45.440 --> 03:26:51.479
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1819
03:26:51.520 --> 03:27:01.680
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1820
03:27:04.920 --> 03:27:18.399
and to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout

1821
03:27:18.520 --> 03:27:30.719
your body. And as I focus on each part of

1822
03:27:30.840 --> 03:27:43.000
your body, you can notice that that part becomes even

1823
03:27:44.239 --> 03:27:53.520
more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes even

1824
03:27:53.799 --> 03:28:06.440
more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as I

1825
03:28:06.719 --> 03:28:15.000
move down your body, starting at your head, the parts

1826
03:28:15.120 --> 03:28:22.559
that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

1827
03:28:25.360 --> 03:28:31.399
and those parts that we've not yet focused on were

1828
03:28:31.520 --> 03:28:43.319
just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation of even

1829
03:28:43.719 --> 03:28:56.280
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

1830
03:28:56.360 --> 03:29:03.399
by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the

1831
03:29:03.680 --> 03:29:13.959
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like mister

1832
03:29:14.239 --> 03:29:19.120
Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel even

1833
03:29:19.319 --> 03:29:29.319
more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This isn't

1834
03:29:29.799 --> 03:29:37.680
this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world. I

1835
03:29:37.840 --> 03:29:45.239
live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around.

1836
03:29:50.600 --> 03:29:55.680
So as you focus on your forehead, just notice how

1837
03:29:55.760 --> 03:30:06.040
it becomes even more relaxed. You focus only on my

1838
03:30:06.319 --> 03:30:15.840
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1839
03:30:16.000 --> 03:30:28.920
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1840
03:30:29.159 --> 03:30:36.159
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1841
03:30:39.559 --> 03:30:50.239
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1842
03:30:50.360 --> 03:30:57.479
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1843
03:30:58.760 --> 03:31:03.760
your teeth, and your calor mums, the whole of your

1844
03:31:03.840 --> 03:31:19.239
mouth relaxing, calm and lease as you focus now on

1845
03:31:19.479 --> 03:31:26.399
your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw near

1846
03:31:26.479 --> 03:31:30.840
your mouth and your chin, but all the way up

1847
03:31:31.600 --> 03:31:37.680
the size of your face to your ears, the hole

1848
03:31:38.360 --> 03:32:05.360
of your jaw, feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on

1849
03:32:05.559 --> 03:32:10.959
your neck, the front of your neck and your throat

1850
03:32:13.200 --> 03:32:23.920
relaxing and loose and calm. The side of your neck,

1851
03:32:26.000 --> 03:32:32.959
the right and left side of your neck relax and

1852
03:32:34.479 --> 03:32:39.639
loose and calm.

1853
03:32:46.000 --> 03:32:52.680
And now the back of your neck, Focusing on the

1854
03:32:52.920 --> 03:33:03.360
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1855
03:33:03.559 --> 03:33:08.959
may have been there before, and enjoying that.

1856
03:33:11.639 --> 03:33:22.719
Sense of increasing comfort and release that you can experience

1857
03:33:23.920 --> 03:33:33.440
in the back of your neck. Moving down your back

1858
03:33:35.920 --> 03:33:40.600
and moving either side of your spine right from the

1859
03:33:40.719 --> 03:33:46.079
top of your back all the way down to the

1860
03:33:46.159 --> 03:34:03.399
bottom of your back, down to your lower back, and

1861
03:34:03.520 --> 03:34:10.639
as you move up and down your spine, you can

1862
03:34:10.799 --> 03:34:19.040
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1863
03:34:26.520 --> 03:34:33.280
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1864
03:34:33.399 --> 03:34:43.479
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1865
03:34:43.600 --> 03:34:50.559
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1866
03:34:50.719 --> 03:34:59.879
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slow

1867
03:35:00.200 --> 03:35:06.520
lead up and down your back, there's the muscles in

1868
03:35:06.639 --> 03:35:15.959
the top of your back relax and become looser. The

1869
03:35:16.120 --> 03:35:22.079
muscles in the middle of your back also seem to

1870
03:35:22.399 --> 03:35:31.559
just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1871
03:35:37.319 --> 03:35:43.319
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1872
03:35:43.360 --> 03:35:57.559
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1873
03:36:00.159 --> 03:36:08.239
down your lower backet into your hips, into the area

1874
03:36:08.280 --> 03:36:16.840
where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all

1875
03:36:16.879 --> 03:36:26.159
those muscles that spread from your lower back into your

1876
03:36:26.280 --> 03:36:39.479
hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1877
03:36:46.040 --> 03:36:51.040
I don't even know where about. To focus on your shoulders.

1878
03:36:52.760 --> 03:37:00.239
Your back and your spine will continue to let go. Yeah,

1879
03:37:02.840 --> 03:37:18.440
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1880
03:37:18.600 --> 03:37:31.520
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose,

1881
03:37:36.319 --> 03:38:00.319
they're already feeding calm, and the feeling those muscles mh.

1882
03:38:02.159 --> 03:38:14.079
The move from your neck into your shoulders feel so

1883
03:38:14.520 --> 03:38:43.520
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeling

1884
03:38:43.680 --> 03:38:56.559
in your shoulders seens to spread deep into your shoulders,

1885
03:38:58.600 --> 03:39:06.879
that sense of reaction vexation, not just traveling deeply into

1886
03:39:07.000 --> 03:39:23.799
your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving all

1887
03:39:23.879 --> 03:39:32.440
the way to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area

1888
03:39:32.639 --> 03:39:37.559
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1889
03:39:41.879 --> 03:39:57.040
He Then you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders,

1890
03:40:00.600 --> 03:40:22.719
which sends that deep healing message into your arms. And

1891
03:40:22.920 --> 03:40:27.920
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1892
03:40:28.120 --> 03:40:46.760
even there, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1893
03:40:51.040 --> 03:41:27.559
so calm, so pose not feeling. Spreading all the way

1894
03:41:27.840 --> 03:41:52.520
down your arms, two elbows, including your elbows circumforts, spreads

1895
03:41:57.399 --> 03:42:19.559
all away into rests of forearments, induists, so heavy yet

1896
03:42:19.799 --> 03:43:00.239
at the same time so light and gentle. For if

1897
03:43:00.280 --> 03:43:04.120
you see it now on.

1898
03:43:06.799 --> 03:43:30.840
Your hands, my hands.

1899
03:43:36.719 --> 03:44:06.280
So peaceful in your hands, there's a sense of real peace.

1900
03:44:18.040 --> 03:44:31.120
It just seems to I feel so familiar when your

1901
03:44:31.360 --> 03:45:36.000
hands relax deeply els a thing is a thing is

1902
03:45:39.120 --> 03:46:42.159
sad less your finger tips, moving your attention to the

1903
03:46:42.319 --> 03:47:10.799
front of your body, so comfortable, move on your focus

1904
03:47:12.719 --> 03:48:58.399
your legs, was muscles in your thighs, your knees, so

1905
03:48:58.799 --> 03:51:36.159
relax the carve muscles and just shains Compasi four feathing

1906
03:51:37.799 --> 03:52:36.319
your feet so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, circom so peaceful,

1907
03:52:40.000 --> 03:53:10.399
sycom so peace for re sin peace for so calm,

1908
03:53:18.360 --> 03:53:25.959
loving that deep relaxation, to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1909
03:53:29.719 --> 03:53:57.479
so letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting

1910
03:53:57.600 --> 03:54:09.319
down now from twenty down to one. You can imagine

1911
03:54:09.360 --> 03:54:13.040
in a way it's like just walking down some steps

1912
03:54:15.000 --> 03:54:19.319
and each step or twenty steps, and each step represents

1913
03:54:20.639 --> 03:54:33.520
a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of

1914
03:54:33.760 --> 03:54:44.440
that comfort, and the fervies you walk down those steps,

1915
03:54:44.600 --> 03:54:57.079
the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with

1916
03:54:57.280 --> 04:00:29.479
number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixte three four four

1917
04:00:29.920 --> 04:05:55.399
see too well five four nine eight.

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Seven four.

1919
04:09:47.840 --> 04:12:25.239
Five four four two.

1920
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One.

1921
04:15:35.559 --> 04:15:52.639
Now as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count

1922
04:15:52.760 --> 04:15:55.040
down from ten douts one.

1923
04:16:01.440 --> 04:16:10.440
Focus in just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles

1924
04:16:10.600 --> 04:16:19.520
around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a whole area

1925
04:16:22.520 --> 04:16:36.440
that makes up your eye. And as we count down

1926
04:16:36.680 --> 04:16:45.040
from ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1927
04:16:51.360 --> 04:17:02.280
you'll become twice is relaxed with each number counting down

1928
04:17:06.399 --> 04:17:13.360
that you may find the all you want to do

1929
04:17:13.879 --> 04:17:22.799
is just drift off to sleep. And if that's what

1930
04:17:23.079 --> 04:17:35.600
you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1931
04:17:38.559 --> 04:17:44.920
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1932
04:17:46.479 --> 04:19:03.000
from ten down to one right now, two nine eight

1933
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seven four.

1934
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Five four.

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Three two four mm hmm, So counting down from ten

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04:27:15.760 --> 04:27:36.479
to one ten nine eight seven six five four three

1937
04:27:39.360 --> 04:27:51.399
two one. And maybe that was a bit too quick

1938
04:27:52.000 --> 04:27:55.879
in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast

1939
04:27:56.200 --> 04:28:05.000
for you to notice the calming of your body, maybe

1940
04:28:05.840 --> 04:28:09.559
even a little bit of pressure there, Like you're count

1941
04:28:09.639 --> 04:28:12.079
it down from ten to one. Would you expect me

1942
04:28:12.239 --> 04:28:15.680
to do man, expect me to just to go floppy

1943
04:28:17.000 --> 04:28:25.120
just because you're counting down. We could try it again,

1944
04:28:26.479 --> 04:28:32.479
but this time I go this lower. This time, as

1945
04:28:32.520 --> 04:28:37.399
you focus on the whole of your body before we

1946
04:28:37.639 --> 04:28:44.680
focus on your legs, just notice how your body does

1947
04:28:46.440 --> 04:28:59.559
start to feel more relaxed with every number that I

1948
04:28:59.719 --> 04:29:58.239
count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three

1949
04:30:11.799 --> 04:30:49.479
two one, and just notice how how you feel, generally,

1950
04:30:49.920 --> 04:31:04.200
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1951
04:31:04.360 --> 04:31:11.440
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1952
04:31:12.799 --> 04:31:31.280
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1953
04:31:36.000 --> 04:31:41.159
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1954
04:31:41.360 --> 04:31:47.959
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1955
04:31:48.680 --> 04:31:51.680
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1956
04:31:51.760 --> 04:32:02.719
a space, a gap. And the more I count down

1957
04:32:02.799 --> 04:32:10.159
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1958
04:32:10.280 --> 04:32:22.680
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1959
04:32:22.840 --> 04:32:36.879
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1960
04:32:37.040 --> 04:32:56.079
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just slow down,

1961
04:32:59.639 --> 04:33:02.600
someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1962
04:33:02.799 --> 04:33:12.759
notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1963
04:33:12.840 --> 04:33:18.880
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1964
04:33:18.959 --> 04:34:15.680
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now, ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1965
04:34:28.439 --> 04:35:52.000
five four three two one. How did your body feel now?

1966
04:36:04.759 --> 04:36:17.400
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1967
04:36:19.759 --> 04:36:47.159
more relaxed. As we now focus on your legs, just

1968
04:36:47.319 --> 04:37:07.560
your legs. We're just going to start with focusing on

1969
04:37:08.000 --> 04:37:27.159
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1970
04:37:27.319 --> 04:37:33.840
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1971
04:37:33.880 --> 04:37:45.560
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1972
04:37:45.759 --> 04:37:51.880
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1973
04:37:51.959 --> 04:37:58.040
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

1974
04:37:58.119 --> 04:38:05.080
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically

1975
04:38:05.279 --> 04:38:08.919
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

1976
04:38:13.000 --> 04:38:23.759
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

1977
04:38:23.919 --> 04:38:31.360
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1978
04:38:31.560 --> 04:38:37.959
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

1979
04:38:38.040 --> 04:38:54.400
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1980
04:38:54.520 --> 04:39:07.759
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

1981
04:39:07.880 --> 04:39:29.759
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

1982
04:39:29.840 --> 04:39:43.279
actually do for us all for our lives. And it

1983
04:39:43.919 --> 04:39:49.040
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

1984
04:39:49.240 --> 04:39:57.119
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

1985
04:40:00.439 --> 04:40:13.119
a bit of love, shone, a bit of acknowledgement. I

1986
04:40:13.319 --> 04:40:22.360
thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1987
04:40:28.919 --> 04:40:34.560
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1988
04:40:34.599 --> 04:40:37.400
you think, why am I surely how I should be

1989
04:40:37.439 --> 04:40:42.240
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1990
04:40:46.360 --> 04:40:48.639
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1991
04:40:49.720 --> 04:40:51.919
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1992
04:40:51.959 --> 04:40:55.720
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1993
04:40:55.759 --> 04:41:04.360
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1994
04:41:06.240 --> 04:41:14.200
gain such an important part. And I think we don't

1995
04:41:14.279 --> 04:41:22.119
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

1996
04:41:23.919 --> 04:41:29.000
all that my knees do for me until I have

1997
04:41:29.119 --> 04:41:32.479
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1998
04:41:34.080 --> 04:41:38.040
maybe i'll pash it, or it's aching for some reason.

1999
04:41:39.759 --> 04:41:45.959
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

2000
04:41:46.080 --> 04:41:52.000
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

2001
04:41:53.799 --> 04:42:01.040
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

2002
04:42:01.240 --> 04:42:09.639
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

2003
04:42:13.759 --> 04:42:18.360
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

2004
04:42:18.439 --> 04:42:25.919
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

2005
04:42:27.479 --> 04:42:30.080
and love to your knees for all that they do

2006
04:42:30.279 --> 04:42:43.240
for you, and you can still have that attention on

2007
04:42:43.400 --> 04:42:49.560
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

2008
04:42:49.840 --> 04:43:07.840
you've noticed that they are relaxing more as you focus

2009
04:43:08.040 --> 04:43:13.599
now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and

2010
04:43:13.680 --> 04:43:20.639
your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and your feet,

2011
04:43:22.200 --> 04:43:33.720
incorporating of course, your ankles so important. You know, anyone

2012
04:43:33.799 --> 04:43:38.560
that's had even like the slightest sprain of an ankle

2013
04:43:39.759 --> 04:43:46.319
knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

2014
04:43:52.240 --> 04:43:54.240
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

2015
04:43:54.319 --> 04:43:59.840
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

2016
04:44:00.119 --> 04:44:04.919
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

2017
04:44:05.000 --> 04:44:08.720
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

2018
04:44:08.720 --> 04:44:14.759
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

2019
04:44:15.040 --> 04:44:24.680
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

2020
04:44:24.799 --> 04:44:29.639
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

2021
04:44:31.000 --> 04:44:38.360
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

2022
04:44:38.439 --> 04:44:53.439
ankles then leading to your feet. That thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

2023
04:44:53.520 --> 04:44:59.240
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

2024
04:44:59.319 --> 04:45:11.080
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps

2025
04:45:11.159 --> 04:45:23.799
you to get around and be mobile. And there's the

2026
04:45:23.919 --> 04:45:32.040
calf muscles of course, when I was younger, I couldn't

2027
04:45:32.080 --> 04:45:35.000
see the point in calf muscles. It didn't seem to

2028
04:45:35.080 --> 04:45:41.000
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

2029
04:45:41.200 --> 04:45:44.919
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

2030
04:45:45.000 --> 04:45:49.000
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

2031
04:45:49.479 --> 04:46:03.000
use our legs, and your shins there to protect your

2032
04:46:03.080 --> 04:46:12.119
lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a protector

2033
04:46:12.560 --> 04:46:27.279
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

2034
04:46:27.439 --> 04:46:34.360
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

2035
04:46:34.439 --> 04:46:38.799
We're just going to focus on the legs. I realize

2036
04:46:40.840 --> 04:46:44.759
that now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focuses

2037
04:46:45.040 --> 04:46:48.119
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

2038
04:46:48.159 --> 04:46:54.000
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

2039
04:46:54.040 --> 04:47:00.439
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

2040
04:47:01.279 --> 04:47:05.119
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

2041
04:47:05.119 --> 04:47:16.119
a few minutes, we've been focusing on your ankles, there's

2042
04:47:16.159 --> 04:47:31.400
still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's

2043
04:47:31.520 --> 04:47:40.720
that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of

2044
04:47:40.799 --> 04:47:47.000
different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw

2045
04:47:47.159 --> 04:47:59.200
muscles that we have in our thighs, but the skin

2046
04:48:01.119 --> 04:48:05.560
on the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

2047
04:48:05.599 --> 04:48:15.000
of all of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive

2048
04:48:15.159 --> 04:48:28.119
to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your thighs

2049
04:48:30.639 --> 04:48:35.400
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

2050
04:48:35.639 --> 04:48:41.159
ar trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

2051
04:48:45.479 --> 04:48:48.639
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

2052
04:48:48.680 --> 04:48:56.439
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and message, so

2053
04:48:56.560 --> 04:49:00.200
you can message on the outside, of course, to be

2054
04:49:00.240 --> 04:49:03.400
able to get deep into the muscles, and to be

2055
04:49:03.439 --> 04:49:08.560
able to just massage inside your thighs, message in the

2056
04:49:08.680 --> 04:49:17.400
bones of your leg, massage in all the veins, and

2057
04:49:17.599 --> 04:49:28.040
just gently healing your thighs, and you could move down

2058
04:49:30.080 --> 04:49:35.119
message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

2059
04:49:36.159 --> 04:49:43.159
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

2060
04:49:43.279 --> 04:49:52.680
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

2061
04:49:52.959 --> 04:49:58.080
of your your knee, or the inside crease where your

2062
04:49:58.159 --> 04:50:05.720
knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels

2063
04:50:05.799 --> 04:50:09.799
very nice when you stroke it. That might be because

2064
04:50:10.680 --> 04:50:15.639
it's an area that's not really touched very often. It's

2065
04:50:15.799 --> 04:50:22.279
almost like a hidden part. That crease in your legs

2066
04:50:22.400 --> 04:50:29.720
it's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

2067
04:50:29.799 --> 04:50:40.240
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

2068
04:50:40.319 --> 04:50:51.720
your legs, so you can imagine putting your fingers into

2069
04:50:51.840 --> 04:51:01.520
that crease in your legs. Walled in between your legs,

2070
04:51:02.200 --> 04:51:06.840
you can just message with your fingertips, letting your fingertips

2071
04:51:06.959 --> 04:51:17.439
going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

2072
04:51:17.560 --> 04:51:24.639
cause field the bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips,

2073
04:51:32.040 --> 04:51:37.360
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

2074
04:51:37.759 --> 04:51:39.439
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

2075
04:51:40.279 --> 04:51:47.639
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

2076
04:51:47.759 --> 04:51:56.840
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part.

2077
04:52:02.759 --> 04:52:09.080
And then doing the same for my shins, massaging and

2078
04:52:09.759 --> 04:52:16.720
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

2079
04:52:16.840 --> 04:52:24.000
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

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04:52:24.119 --> 04:52:28.040
precious bones that they are, because our legs are so

2081
04:52:28.279 --> 04:52:31.799
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

2082
04:52:34.279 --> 04:52:48.159
and more precious of any jure on the planet. When

2083
04:52:48.240 --> 04:52:56.000
you start to think about your legs in this way,

2084
04:53:00.599 --> 04:53:07.240
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

2085
04:53:10.360 --> 04:53:14.639
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

2086
04:53:15.520 --> 04:53:25.520
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

2087
04:53:25.639 --> 04:53:29.560
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

2088
04:53:31.799 --> 04:53:38.119
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

2089
04:53:38.240 --> 04:53:46.759
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to show

2090
04:53:48.680 --> 04:53:56.000
how much you care about your legs, how much you

2091
04:53:56.159 --> 04:54:04.720
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

2092
04:54:05.000 --> 04:54:17.799
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

2093
04:54:18.000 --> 04:54:22.479
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

2094
04:54:22.680 --> 04:54:36.319
especially your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

2095
04:54:36.599 --> 04:54:48.400
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

2096
04:54:48.479 --> 04:54:59.759
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

2097
04:54:59.759 --> 04:55:03.840
of how what weight you are, Even if you only

2098
04:55:04.240 --> 04:55:09.000
ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

2099
04:55:09.439 --> 04:55:15.919
little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eat stone

2100
04:55:17.520 --> 04:55:26.680
double down, Yet my ankles support my body all the time,

2101
04:55:30.400 --> 04:55:33.439
although they do give off a sigh of relief when

2102
04:55:33.439 --> 04:55:42.279
I sit down, a fact, my whole legs do. My

2103
04:55:42.479 --> 04:55:49.599
feet feet also go, my toes clap. We're so happy.

2104
04:56:09.360 --> 04:56:18.959
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that about

2105
04:56:19.520 --> 04:56:25.319
talking about your legs is probably possibly among the most

2106
04:56:26.240 --> 04:56:33.799
most boring things you've ever heard anyone say, possibly you're

2107
04:56:33.919 --> 04:56:40.759
boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs

2108
04:56:41.400 --> 04:57:01.400
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve

2109
04:57:01.520 --> 04:57:13.919
to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time out

2110
04:57:14.479 --> 04:57:37.959
of the day to just let go completely. The legs

2111
04:57:43.400 --> 04:57:56.639
really can relax. And because the legs are so such

2112
04:57:56.720 --> 04:58:01.200
a most, you know, very important part of your body.

2113
04:58:02.520 --> 04:58:05.080
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

2114
04:58:05.799 --> 04:58:24.520
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

2115
04:58:24.639 --> 04:58:29.599
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

2116
04:58:32.880 --> 04:58:37.479
and also my lower back as well. My lower back

2117
04:58:37.720 --> 04:58:43.240
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

2118
04:58:43.319 --> 04:58:49.279
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

2119
04:58:49.360 --> 04:58:52.400
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

2120
04:58:52.520 --> 04:58:56.479
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

2121
04:58:56.639 --> 04:59:21.319
natural stretch. As the ten has reduced a lot, And

2122
04:59:21.400 --> 04:59:24.799
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

2123
04:59:29.119 --> 04:59:58.520
and you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2124
05:00:03.119 --> 05:00:31.200
four three two. Why relax? So I'm just going to

2125
05:00:31.279 --> 05:00:36.680
count down for five down to one, and as a countdown,

2126
05:00:37.959 --> 05:00:42.680
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

2127
05:00:44.360 --> 05:00:53.360
counting down. And notice how you feel in this moment

2128
05:00:55.119 --> 05:00:59.479
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

2129
05:00:59.599 --> 05:01:12.720
numbers counting down represents you feeling calmer, not just in

2130
05:01:12.799 --> 05:01:21.159
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

2131
05:01:21.240 --> 05:01:27.240
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

2132
05:01:27.919 --> 05:02:05.680
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four, three, two.

2133
05:02:11.560 --> 05:02:11.799
One.

2134
05:02:21.200 --> 05:02:33.680
And as you notice the gradual letting go the tension

2135
05:02:33.880 --> 05:02:41.040
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

2136
05:02:41.200 --> 05:02:50.200
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

2137
05:02:52.680 --> 05:02:59.000
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

2138
05:02:59.240 --> 05:03:04.159
really a less your procedure. It's just natural because as

2139
05:03:04.240 --> 05:03:11.560
your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And

2140
05:03:11.680 --> 05:03:15.159
the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

2141
05:03:15.279 --> 05:03:25.799
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that

2142
05:03:27.080 --> 05:03:34.959
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

2143
05:03:34.959 --> 05:03:41.520
if there's background sounds, either your side or mine, it's

2144
05:03:41.639 --> 05:03:47.560
still going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't

2145
05:03:47.599 --> 05:03:52.520
got the television on, there's no music in the background,

2146
05:03:52.639 --> 05:03:55.279
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

2147
05:04:00.159 --> 05:04:02.319
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

2148
05:04:02.439 --> 05:04:05.560
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

2149
05:04:06.840 --> 05:04:10.119
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

2150
05:04:10.240 --> 05:04:21.560
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

2151
05:04:21.599 --> 05:04:38.799
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

2152
05:04:38.840 --> 05:04:47.599
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

2153
05:04:47.720 --> 05:04:59.799
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

2154
05:05:02.159 --> 05:05:12.880
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost know.

2155
05:05:13.000 --> 05:05:19.840
The sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

2156
05:05:20.040 --> 05:05:23.880
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

2157
05:05:24.000 --> 05:05:35.599
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

2158
05:05:36.040 --> 05:05:46.279
the process of this recording and others is simply two

2159
05:05:47.840 --> 05:05:58.240
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

2160
05:06:01.240 --> 05:06:12.119
to just let go, to just be here, to be

2161
05:06:12.799 --> 05:06:26.200
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

2162
05:06:28.439 --> 05:06:39.880
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

2163
05:06:41.040 --> 05:06:46.200
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

2164
05:06:48.000 --> 05:07:03.040
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

2165
05:07:04.279 --> 05:07:08.720
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

2166
05:07:08.840 --> 05:07:15.599
part is a tiny bit at the end. The deeper

2167
05:07:16.919 --> 05:07:39.360
relaxed you become the easier you find yourself drifting. You

2168
05:07:39.439 --> 05:07:46.479
can also, if you choose, stay focused on my voice

2169
05:07:48.240 --> 05:08:15.040
and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle

2170
05:08:19.639 --> 05:08:46.520
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

2171
05:08:46.799 --> 05:09:02.400
letting go completely. This time, I want to count from

2172
05:09:02.639 --> 05:09:12.799
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

2173
05:09:15.439 --> 05:09:23.200
calming down more with each number that you hear me

2174
05:09:23.439 --> 05:12:11.479
say naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one,

2175
05:12:32.599 --> 05:12:42.159
being aware of how your mind has slowed right down,

2176
05:12:45.439 --> 05:13:08.799
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2177
05:13:09.119 --> 05:13:19.040
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2178
05:13:21.639 --> 05:13:31.200
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2179
05:13:31.279 --> 05:13:46.479
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

2180
05:13:46.720 --> 05:14:00.959
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love all petals

2181
05:14:01.000 --> 05:14:06.479
from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled

2182
05:14:06.520 --> 05:14:13.799
with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts.

2183
05:14:13.639 --> 05:14:14.000
Know that.

2184
05:14:16.240 --> 05:14:20.400
You're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

2185
05:14:21.639 --> 05:14:33.599
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

2186
05:14:37.279 --> 05:14:37.639
For now.

2187
05:14:45.560 --> 05:14:50.560
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

2188
05:14:50.759 --> 05:14:55.959
count down this time from seven down to one, with

2189
05:14:56.119 --> 05:15:10.000
each number imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

2190
05:15:11.599 --> 05:15:23.439
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

2191
05:15:24.880 --> 05:15:39.880
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2192
05:15:40.040 --> 05:15:57.240
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number.

2193
05:15:57.159 --> 05:18:23.479
Seven, six, five, four, three, one, and.

2194
05:18:23.560 --> 05:18:41.040
Need you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body.

2195
05:18:49.439 --> 05:19:02.639
We're going to focus on your hands, because the more

2196
05:19:02.759 --> 05:19:09.799
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

2197
05:19:10.119 --> 05:19:31.680
mind are. And you focus on your hands and your fingers,

2198
05:19:37.200 --> 05:19:41.959
there's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

2199
05:19:42.279 --> 05:19:46.599
fists or tents in the fingers or anything like that.

2200
05:19:54.040 --> 05:20:07.799
It's just noticing and focusing on your head hands, noticing

2201
05:20:08.119 --> 05:20:29.520
how they feel, because the more relaxed your hands feel,

2202
05:20:33.040 --> 05:20:42.200
the calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you

2203
05:20:42.439 --> 05:21:05.639
feel throughout your body. And you may have already noticed

2204
05:21:09.959 --> 05:21:45.080
your mind is starting to dress like sain just on

2205
05:21:45.279 --> 05:22:02.680
your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience a real

2206
05:22:03.279 --> 05:22:16.720
deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers, more

2207
05:22:19.919 --> 05:22:39.360
and more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one,

2208
05:22:44.479 --> 05:22:54.279
you can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

2209
05:22:55.479 --> 05:23:14.439
into your hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with

2210
05:23:14.880 --> 05:23:33.439
each number you hear, going down eight, down to one, drifting,

2211
05:23:37.119 --> 05:26:54.720
drifting again starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two,

2212
05:27:43.799 --> 05:27:53.080
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2213
05:27:54.720 --> 05:28:08.959
nothing to say. Everything just feels calmer. And this is

2214
05:28:10.080 --> 05:28:16.840
your natural state of being. This is how you just

2215
05:28:17.959 --> 05:28:24.520
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

2216
05:28:26.919 --> 05:28:31.759
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

2217
05:28:31.959 --> 05:28:47.439
and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

2218
05:28:49.680 --> 05:28:53.599
You take that away, which is what we do. What

2219
05:28:53.720 --> 05:29:06.080
we do now you're left with a real sense of

2220
05:29:07.040 --> 05:29:19.400
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's

2221
05:29:19.639 --> 05:29:33.119
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

2222
05:29:33.159 --> 05:29:37.279
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

2223
05:29:37.360 --> 05:29:51.040
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

2224
05:29:51.200 --> 05:30:01.799
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

2225
05:30:01.880 --> 05:30:10.680
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

2226
05:30:11.680 --> 05:30:16.759
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

2227
05:30:16.840 --> 05:30:27.200
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

2228
05:30:28.919 --> 05:30:37.639
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

2229
05:30:38.279 --> 05:30:55.360
you can like yourself, appreciate who you are. That sense

2230
05:30:55.439 --> 05:31:09.119
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

2231
05:31:09.240 --> 05:31:17.560
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

2232
05:31:18.119 --> 05:31:33.040
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

2233
05:31:37.959 --> 05:31:46.919
and the healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

2234
05:31:47.279 --> 05:31:59.279
each and every single part of your body, and you

2235
05:31:59.400 --> 05:32:06.360
start to realize that actually, that healing energy, it's not

2236
05:32:06.680 --> 05:32:14.119
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

2237
05:32:19.080 --> 05:32:25.720
and that spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

2238
05:32:31.000 --> 05:32:37.240
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

2239
05:32:39.319 --> 05:32:51.279
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

2240
05:32:51.479 --> 05:33:00.840
realize that, actually, what's happening now with that healing, relaxing

2241
05:33:01.959 --> 05:33:09.840
energy spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life.

2242
05:33:15.000 --> 05:33:20.119
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

2243
05:33:20.400 --> 05:33:27.759
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

2244
05:33:27.880 --> 05:33:35.959
health improves, not just your physical health, but your mental health.

2245
05:33:39.919 --> 05:33:45.080
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

2246
05:33:45.240 --> 05:33:51.279
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

2247
05:33:51.319 --> 05:34:05.599
to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

2248
05:34:05.919 --> 05:34:15.560
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

2249
05:34:15.919 --> 05:34:25.599
have that power to control you the way they seem

2250
05:34:25.720 --> 05:34:34.599
to be able to before. As you realize that you're

2251
05:34:34.720 --> 05:34:47.400
the one who decides what affects you. You're the one

2252
05:34:48.040 --> 05:34:58.439
who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

2253
05:35:02.040 --> 05:35:16.520
to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to

2254
05:35:16.720 --> 05:35:31.080
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

2255
05:35:31.200 --> 05:35:48.680
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping is

2256
05:35:48.759 --> 05:35:59.119
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

2257
05:35:59.360 --> 05:36:05.919
falling as sleep is something that you've done so many

2258
05:36:06.080 --> 05:36:13.880
times in your life, and you know that you were born,

2259
05:36:15.400 --> 05:36:22.000
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

2260
05:36:26.279 --> 05:36:36.959
We were born with that ability to just drift off

2261
05:36:37.720 --> 05:36:50.840
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2262
05:36:50.919 --> 05:36:55.319
will fall asleep when we don't even want to try

2263
05:36:55.400 --> 05:36:59.639
to take us stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

2264
05:36:59.680 --> 05:37:03.799
the morning in or it's Christmas or holiday or something

2265
05:37:03.840 --> 05:37:06.479
we look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

2266
05:37:08.720 --> 05:37:13.720
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

2267
05:37:13.919 --> 05:37:22.240
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

2268
05:37:22.919 --> 05:37:25.279
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

2269
05:37:25.360 --> 05:37:38.400
a shape, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

2270
05:37:38.439 --> 05:37:43.840
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

2271
05:37:45.560 --> 05:37:55.400
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

2272
05:37:55.520 --> 05:38:06.040
part of our DNA. And sometimes as we get older

2273
05:38:06.119 --> 05:38:17.520
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing

2274
05:38:18.840 --> 05:38:33.279
completely is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also

2275
05:38:33.680 --> 05:38:53.119
really easy. It's very, very easy to let go, because

2276
05:38:53.159 --> 05:39:02.439
that's all it is. It is just deciding to let go.

2277
05:39:07.639 --> 05:39:13.599
And when you press the play button on my recordings,

2278
05:39:15.479 --> 05:39:22.799
you have given permission for my voice to relax you.

2279
05:39:26.479 --> 05:39:30.040
When you press that play button, you have given me

2280
05:39:30.200 --> 05:39:41.919
permission for my words to affect you in a positive,

2281
05:39:45.360 --> 05:40:04.040
only a positive way, opening up your mind to useful

2282
05:40:05.680 --> 05:40:22.080
and healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect

2283
05:40:24.959 --> 05:40:36.279
on how you feel right now, as well as those

2284
05:40:36.680 --> 05:40:46.200
changes that continue long after the recording ends, those changes

2285
05:40:47.040 --> 05:41:00.799
within you that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your

2286
05:41:00.919 --> 05:41:13.799
life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

2287
05:41:15.119 --> 05:41:20.400
forward in your life in the direction that you choose

2288
05:41:21.919 --> 05:41:38.080
for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

2289
05:41:38.240 --> 05:42:02.639
experience of safety, comfort, calmness, this feels so nice. It's

2290
05:42:02.799 --> 05:42:17.000
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

2291
05:42:18.279 --> 05:42:35.840
within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're going

2292
05:42:35.959 --> 05:42:46.759
to find that you're more relaxed physically and in your

2293
05:42:46.840 --> 05:42:56.919
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

2294
05:42:59.200 --> 05:43:02.799
it's just that you're mind will be less clogged up

2295
05:43:03.880 --> 05:43:17.200
with unnecessary negativity, because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

2296
05:43:21.240 --> 05:43:29.479
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises,

2297
05:43:33.080 --> 05:43:44.240
and you can just say stop, stop, and then negativity

2298
05:43:46.680 --> 05:44:02.639
will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and that

2299
05:44:02.919 --> 05:44:19.360
negativity would disappear. And as you notice that you feel

2300
05:44:20.720 --> 05:44:32.799
way more relaxed than you probably expected, you can now

2301
05:44:36.360 --> 05:44:42.240
congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

2302
05:44:44.000 --> 05:44:49.439
You are the one that has opened your mind up

2303
05:44:50.159 --> 05:44:58.159
to the simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

2304
05:44:58.279 --> 05:45:07.959
than your body and in your mind, you've opened your

2305
05:45:08.119 --> 05:45:13.560
mind up to the birthright of being able to just

2306
05:45:16.279 --> 05:45:31.080
fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

2307
05:45:32.720 --> 05:45:42.799
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

2308
05:45:44.439 --> 05:45:49.080
All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

2309
05:45:49.200 --> 05:46:00.759
your mind to spend time in that. That's your place

2310
05:46:01.200 --> 05:46:18.040
where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred,

2311
05:46:19.439 --> 05:46:26.200
it's not allowed entryue doesn't. It doesn't. This doesn't deserve

2312
05:46:26.319 --> 05:46:34.520
to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2313
05:46:35.560 --> 05:46:52.319
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

2314
05:46:54.479 --> 05:47:21.720
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

2315
05:47:25.240 --> 05:47:45.520
the let go with everything. I'm gonna count down now

2316
05:47:45.799 --> 05:47:54.000
from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

2317
05:47:56.200 --> 05:48:07.720
If you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every

2318
05:48:07.919 --> 05:48:19.560
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

2319
05:48:22.599 --> 05:48:26.759
or if you choose, you can fill twice as sleeping

2320
05:48:33.639 --> 05:50:39.000
now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

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05:50:47.479 --> 05:51:33.319
five four. This is your time to just take a break,

2322
05:51:38.000 --> 05:51:49.040
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2323
05:51:57.720 --> 05:52:16.799
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything end.

2324
05:52:16.840 --> 05:52:24.040
You're the only person that can make that decision. You're

2325
05:52:24.080 --> 05:52:31.439
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

2326
05:52:31.759 --> 05:52:46.200
just relax, to just take some time.

2327
05:52:47.880 --> 05:52:59.520
Off so that you can focus on your body, get

2328
05:52:59.599 --> 05:53:03.240
in in touch with how you feel.

2329
05:53:04.639 --> 05:53:20.240
Physically, and in the process of this body scan where

2330
05:53:20.360 --> 05:53:31.240
you focus on different parts of your body, those parts

2331
05:53:31.599 --> 05:53:38.080
that you focus on and observe even though you're not

2332
05:53:39.360 --> 05:53:46.880
purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

2333
05:53:49.119 --> 05:53:55.439
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

2334
05:53:55.639 --> 05:54:08.279
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

2335
05:54:08.360 --> 05:54:18.560
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

2336
05:54:23.520 --> 05:54:34.400
and as my words guide you to focus on those

2337
05:54:34.639 --> 05:54:52.759
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

2338
05:54:52.959 --> 05:55:13.040
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

2339
05:55:20.560 --> 05:55:42.479
And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

2340
05:55:42.840 --> 05:55:50.680
even though we've not really started the focus on your body,

2341
05:55:53.639 --> 05:56:04.000
you can already feel that healing energy is spreading through

2342
05:56:04.159 --> 05:56:23.240
your body, pushing out stress and tension, healing all the

2343
05:56:23.400 --> 05:56:31.880
parts of your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood,

2344
05:56:33.560 --> 05:56:38.400
all of your organs inside your body, all of the muscles,

2345
05:56:39.759 --> 05:56:46.880
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

2346
05:56:47.000 --> 05:57:00.439
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

2347
05:57:00.479 --> 05:57:16.799
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

2348
05:57:16.959 --> 05:57:41.159
comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that

2349
05:57:44.639 --> 05:58:01.319
your mind starts to fill, perhaps bit drowsy because it's

2350
05:58:01.479 --> 05:58:20.639
not needed. Then it may start to drift if that's

2351
05:58:20.880 --> 05:58:29.080
what's needed. So if you're listening to this and what

2352
05:58:29.279 --> 05:58:35.439
you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get. If

2353
05:58:35.520 --> 05:58:42.840
what you need is to fall asleep naturally and easily

2354
05:58:43.799 --> 05:58:57.080
as your mind drifts, that's also what will happen. Because

2355
05:58:57.279 --> 05:59:05.119
by pressing that play button on the podcast and listening

2356
05:59:05.279 --> 05:59:11.720
to me, you give permission for your body and your mind.

2357
05:59:14.759 --> 05:59:23.759
In fact, you give the command to your body and

2358
05:59:23.919 --> 05:59:35.080
your mind to relax deeply and to drift off to

2359
05:59:35.279 --> 05:59:51.639
sleep if that's what you want or need. And as

2360
05:59:51.759 --> 06:00:01.919
I focus on the different parts of your body, you

2361
06:00:02.119 --> 06:00:11.000
may start to just drift. And then you come back

2362
06:00:11.040 --> 06:00:16.240
again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing on

2363
06:00:16.400 --> 06:00:27.040
a different part of your body, and you may find

2364
06:00:27.200 --> 06:00:36.240
yourself drifting. You don't realize you're drifting until you stop

2365
06:00:36.400 --> 06:00:45.520
drifting and you're alert again to my voice. Focusing on

2366
06:00:45.639 --> 06:00:51.240
a different part of your body starts to relax even deeper,

2367
06:00:55.639 --> 06:01:04.080
because that drifting is basically you already into sleep zone.

2368
06:01:10.599 --> 06:01:15.599
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

2369
06:01:15.759 --> 06:01:26.240
the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

2370
06:01:31.240 --> 06:01:36.080
and that's the last you remember until you wake up

2371
06:01:40.560 --> 06:01:45.680
in your own time, when you experience the right amount

2372
06:01:45.799 --> 06:01:54.639
of sleep for you. Because when you do, and if

2373
06:01:54.720 --> 06:02:05.240
you do fall asleep, it's s s truely pleasant, so relaxing,

2374
06:02:08.279 --> 06:02:27.720
so deep healing sleep. I'm it feels so nice to

2375
06:02:27.880 --> 06:02:38.119
relax into your own body and mind as you feel

2376
06:02:38.240 --> 06:02:53.119
that healing energy is spreading through it, relaxing. Use so deeply, relaxing,

2377
06:02:53.439 --> 06:02:57.360
use so so deeply.

2378
06:03:06.479 --> 06:03:19.759
We start to focus on your eyes, moving.

2379
06:03:19.599 --> 06:04:05.680
Down to your jaw, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers,

2380
06:04:13.040 --> 06:04:45.000
your chest and stomach, your back, your spine, you itaps,

2381
06:04:52.959 --> 06:05:35.439
your legs, your feet, your toes, and feeding, eating, spreading

2382
06:05:36.799 --> 06:05:50.639
and growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's

2383
06:05:50.720 --> 06:06:00.599
focus again on parts of your body. You spend this

2384
06:06:00.799 --> 06:06:11.520
time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips,

2385
06:06:13.560 --> 06:06:32.639
your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focus in on

2386
06:06:32.799 --> 06:06:43.040
your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers a little bit.

2387
06:06:43.360 --> 06:06:58.840
You can focus on each one individually, both hands and

2388
06:06:58.959 --> 06:07:04.720
even those. Focus on both of your hands. Now they

2389
06:07:04.799 --> 06:07:13.159
almost seemed to just melt into one. Where is your

2390
06:07:13.279 --> 06:07:20.919
right hand? Start in your left hand end, almost as

2391
06:07:20.959 --> 06:07:38.240
if just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just

2392
06:07:38.759 --> 06:08:01.200
noticing how your knees fell. Now focusing on your elbows.

2393
06:08:03.959 --> 06:08:16.400
Focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

2394
06:08:19.080 --> 06:08:51.000
of your elbows. Now focusing, observing the back of your neck,

2395
06:09:00.959 --> 06:09:42.000
feeding the energy from the factory your neck, observing your ankles,

2396
06:09:51.439 --> 06:09:59.959
being aware of physical sensations in don't think.

2397
06:10:01.680 --> 06:10:10.360
U s.

2398
06:10:35.599 --> 06:11:11.959
A noticin now your toes on both of your feet,

2399
06:11:19.000 --> 06:12:04.560
being aware how your toes. Yeah, right now, notice thin

2400
06:12:14.759 --> 06:12:45.720
high your entire body feels, noticing your mind feels now

2401
06:13:03.799 --> 06:13:46.200
letting go, letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go,

2402
06:13:54.080 --> 06:14:21.680
letting go everything everything. I'm going to start now, and

2403
06:14:21.959 --> 06:14:24.119
I'd like you just, first of all, just to see

2404
06:14:24.159 --> 06:14:32.360
yourself lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

2405
06:14:33.599 --> 06:14:41.560
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

2406
06:14:41.639 --> 06:14:48.319
feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and you feel

2407
06:14:51.799 --> 06:14:54.799
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

2408
06:14:55.240 --> 06:14:59.400
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

2409
06:15:00.279 --> 06:15:08.400
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2410
06:15:09.240 --> 06:15:17.159
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

2411
06:15:20.040 --> 06:15:25.759
This is about how you feel and how you can

2412
06:15:27.240 --> 06:15:32.880
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

2413
06:15:34.279 --> 06:15:40.439
letting go and allowing my hands, my fingers to relax

2414
06:15:40.560 --> 06:15:51.520
you by a massage your body. So I want to

2415
06:15:51.599 --> 06:15:56.720
start off just by placing my hands on the back

2416
06:15:56.759 --> 06:16:01.439
of your head, just gently, just so you can feel

2417
06:16:01.599 --> 06:16:10.040
while my hands feel like really on you, so you

2418
06:16:10.119 --> 06:16:12.360
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

2419
06:16:12.439 --> 06:16:17.759
back of your head. And with my hands to the

2420
06:16:17.880 --> 06:16:22.080
side of your head, not pressing, but just holding there

2421
06:16:22.240 --> 06:16:28.080
very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little bit

2422
06:16:28.119 --> 06:16:34.840
on your face, so you can feel my hands so

2423
06:16:35.000 --> 06:16:47.959
you can become accustomed to them. And now put my

2424
06:16:48.119 --> 06:16:50.880
hands on the back of your head again and gently

2425
06:16:52.479 --> 06:16:57.479
let them slide down onto the back of your neck.

2426
06:17:05.080 --> 06:17:15.000
You can feel my hands gently stroking the back of

2427
06:17:15.119 --> 06:17:21.639
your neck to start with, just so you can get

2428
06:17:21.799 --> 06:17:26.279
used to the feeling with my hands on your skin,

2429
06:17:26.919 --> 06:17:35.439
get accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

2430
06:17:35.759 --> 06:17:45.319
it's all fine. And I'm going to start gently messaging

2431
06:17:46.119 --> 06:17:56.720
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands.

2432
06:18:02.880 --> 06:18:03.720
Now, this is a very.

2433
06:18:03.720 --> 06:18:11.799
Trusting situation really, because our necks are so fragile and

2434
06:18:11.919 --> 06:18:16.040
to have someone have their hands around your neck in

2435
06:18:16.159 --> 06:18:21.439
that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which is

2436
06:18:21.479 --> 06:18:25.880
why massages are quite good because it allows you to

2437
06:18:26.040 --> 06:18:40.319
relax and to get in touch with trust to feel

2438
06:18:40.439 --> 06:18:52.599
peaceful and calm, and there's a massage the sides of

2439
06:18:52.720 --> 06:19:00.599
your neck, gently moving from the bottom with your neck.

2440
06:19:02.319 --> 06:19:04.840
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

2441
06:19:04.919 --> 06:19:11.959
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your ears,

2442
06:19:12.400 --> 06:19:18.159
kind of area that side of your neck. Of course,

2443
06:19:18.159 --> 06:19:20.720
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

2444
06:19:33.759 --> 06:19:40.799
The message in the back of your neck, especially that

2445
06:19:41.000 --> 06:19:50.439
area where perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message,

2446
06:19:50.840 --> 06:19:54.880
you can actually feel a sense of release in the

2447
06:19:54.959 --> 06:20:02.840
back of your neck, and maybe you can breathe it

2448
06:20:02.959 --> 06:20:08.919
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2449
06:20:18.799 --> 06:20:22.400
Then moving down to that area between your neck and

2450
06:20:22.479 --> 06:20:32.639
your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message that area

2451
06:20:32.720 --> 06:20:37.040
on both sides. I mean, this would be the area

2452
06:20:37.159 --> 06:20:39.720
that a lot of people would message if they were

2453
06:20:39.759 --> 06:20:44.680
going to give you like a shoulder message. Even that's

2454
06:20:45.080 --> 06:20:48.520
not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that

2455
06:20:48.680 --> 06:20:50.240
lead to the shoulders.

2456
06:20:51.560 --> 06:20:52.400
From the neck.

2457
06:20:54.319 --> 06:20:59.439
And a game that can hold tension and stress. And

2458
06:20:59.560 --> 06:21:07.520
when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and

2459
06:21:07.799 --> 06:21:23.439
you decide how deep that message is and just allow

2460
06:21:25.319 --> 06:21:30.360
my knuckles just to dig in to get to those

2461
06:21:30.560 --> 06:21:40.720
muscles and to really relaxed all the time being firm

2462
06:21:41.360 --> 06:21:58.439
yet gentle with you and just stroking down the area

2463
06:22:01.319 --> 06:22:07.439
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders,

2464
06:22:13.439 --> 06:22:18.240
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

2465
06:22:18.279 --> 06:22:21.680
bit of the table just to give you a little

2466
06:22:21.720 --> 06:22:32.159
bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've got

2467
06:22:32.200 --> 06:22:35.799
the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the sides

2468
06:22:36.040 --> 06:22:46.599
and the back. Again, this is a part that can

2469
06:22:46.720 --> 06:22:51.919
really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit

2470
06:22:52.000 --> 06:23:02.200
of needing if if you wish to really release the

2471
06:23:02.400 --> 06:23:11.040
tension to really get into those muscles and let your

2472
06:23:11.159 --> 06:23:17.599
fingers in there make you feel really nice. Sometimes it's

2473
06:23:17.720 --> 06:23:28.200
just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly. It

2474
06:23:28.319 --> 06:23:38.200
can all be beneficial to the realaxation. Put the muscles

2475
06:23:38.279 --> 06:23:58.000
in your shoulders. Now to move down your arms would

2476
06:23:58.000 --> 06:24:01.959
do one arm at a time, starting with your right arm.

2477
06:24:08.560 --> 06:24:12.159
Well I do is I just lift your arm up,

2478
06:24:13.080 --> 06:24:18.159
just hold it to the side of you, that word

2479
06:24:18.319 --> 06:24:24.759
still be attached, and I just message the tops of

2480
06:24:24.840 --> 06:24:41.080
your arms all the way down to your forearms into

2481
06:24:41.159 --> 06:25:05.080
your wrists, gently messaging that part. The softer part, which

2482
06:25:05.200 --> 06:25:11.479
is the under part of the arm which leads to

2483
06:25:11.639 --> 06:25:17.040
the crease in your elbow. The inside. It's much more

2484
06:25:17.200 --> 06:25:34.639
sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked, I feel really nice,

2485
06:25:37.360 --> 06:25:51.240
pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand,

2486
06:25:57.279 --> 06:26:09.360
just holding your hand in both of my hands, just

2487
06:26:09.520 --> 06:26:15.840
pressing gently on the back of your hand and stretching

2488
06:26:16.000 --> 06:26:27.080
your fingers ever slightly at the same time, pressing down

2489
06:26:27.159 --> 06:26:40.360
and massaging each finger, and then starting to massage the

2490
06:26:40.560 --> 06:26:53.200
palms of the hand. Just turning the hand gently, stretching

2491
06:26:53.279 --> 06:27:03.040
it gently, and actually in your handheld can really be

2492
06:27:04.840 --> 06:27:10.479
an emotional experience sometimes even if it is a stranger,

2493
06:27:12.479 --> 06:27:16.119
so when you don't know very well, like a massage

2494
06:27:16.439 --> 06:27:29.919
person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and it

2495
06:27:30.000 --> 06:27:43.080
can feel nice, you can feel safe. As I put

2496
06:27:43.240 --> 06:27:51.720
that right arm back down where it was, I'm gonna

2497
06:27:51.799 --> 06:27:58.279
do the same with your left arm, exactly the same,

2498
06:28:02.959 --> 06:28:08.000
massage in the muscles your arm all the way down

2499
06:28:09.200 --> 06:28:21.520
to your rest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

2500
06:28:21.639 --> 06:28:35.200
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

2501
06:28:35.360 --> 06:28:51.799
massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging the

2502
06:28:52.040 --> 06:29:11.479
palm of your left hand. You can feel so so relaxing,

2503
06:29:19.159 --> 06:29:36.919
so comforting, and I just rest your left down, back down.

2504
06:29:44.479 --> 06:29:51.119
Start to message your back, the biggest part of your body,

2505
06:29:56.159 --> 06:30:03.080
starting at the top, starting again where we already been,

2506
06:30:03.880 --> 06:30:08.400
the area at the top in between his shoulders, k

2507
06:30:08.400 --> 06:30:13.799
near your neck. Going back, a massage in that area again,

2508
06:30:14.919 --> 06:30:28.639
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

2509
06:30:28.680 --> 06:30:35.159
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards.

2510
06:30:36.400 --> 06:30:43.840
It's a massage in the your back, but the outsides

2511
06:30:44.159 --> 06:30:53.720
of your back, the parts where your arms would maybe

2512
06:30:54.200 --> 06:31:06.880
rest against, almost the path that connects your front to

2513
06:31:07.080 --> 06:31:25.000
your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently, as firm

2514
06:31:25.080 --> 06:31:33.240
as you want, moving down and moving across a little bit,

2515
06:31:33.319 --> 06:31:37.240
and moving all the way down again, be very gentle

2516
06:31:39.000 --> 06:31:50.200
yet firm as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine.

2517
06:31:51.599 --> 06:31:55.319
We can massage the muscles and either side of your

2518
06:31:55.400 --> 06:31:59.279
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2519
06:31:59.439 --> 06:32:10.520
down to your lower back. We can do that a

2520
06:32:10.639 --> 06:32:20.520
few times. Sometimes people would use the knuckle or the

2521
06:32:21.720 --> 06:32:26.159
two fingers and just go your side of the spine,

2522
06:32:27.479 --> 06:32:31.200
almost just push down, go all the way down to

2523
06:32:31.319 --> 06:32:39.279
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

2524
06:32:39.560 --> 06:32:48.560
opening up the body. Stretching your body so that you

2525
06:32:48.840 --> 06:33:07.080
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

2526
06:33:07.200 --> 06:33:10.560
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

2527
06:33:10.639 --> 06:33:19.720
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

2528
06:33:19.880 --> 06:33:25.799
your pelvis, I'm going to massage that area of your back.

2529
06:33:27.759 --> 06:33:31.080
I'll stretch over the other side and I'll pull the

2530
06:33:31.200 --> 06:33:38.000
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

2531
06:33:38.279 --> 06:33:42.520
side or way to my side. It's in the middle

2532
06:33:42.599 --> 06:33:48.319
of fact to where your spine is massaging that side

2533
06:33:48.360 --> 06:33:52.759
of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2534
06:33:55.119 --> 06:34:01.119
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

2535
06:34:01.200 --> 06:34:13.000
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

2536
06:34:13.040 --> 06:34:19.639
the most important places to actually have a message because

2537
06:34:19.720 --> 06:34:25.599
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

2538
06:34:25.720 --> 06:34:33.880
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

2539
06:34:34.279 --> 06:34:42.560
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

2540
06:34:42.720 --> 06:34:48.799
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2541
06:34:58.159 --> 06:35:01.000
The message in this part of your body nine he

2542
06:35:01.119 --> 06:35:05.880
feels really good for you. It's actually fun to do

2543
06:35:07.319 --> 06:35:13.000
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2544
06:35:13.040 --> 06:35:16.880
a part that you can really get hold of and

2545
06:35:17.119 --> 06:35:30.599
really massage deeply. If that's your choice, and then I'm

2546
06:35:30.639 --> 06:35:32.439
going to move over to the other side of your

2547
06:35:32.479 --> 06:35:41.720
body and do the same with the opposite part of

2548
06:35:41.880 --> 06:35:49.040
your lawer back, kneading and messaging from your sides all

2549
06:35:49.080 --> 06:35:55.919
the way to the middle of your back where your

2550
06:35:56.000 --> 06:36:09.520
spine is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the

2551
06:36:09.599 --> 06:36:24.680
same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2552
06:36:25.080 --> 06:36:36.720
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2553
06:36:36.799 --> 06:36:41.919
stomach as it's been stretched. Even though you're in your

2554
06:36:42.000 --> 06:36:46.319
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2555
06:36:46.479 --> 06:36:57.840
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2556
06:36:57.919 --> 06:37:02.840
to move or move further up to your top of

2557
06:37:02.919 --> 06:37:07.360
your body and I we do the same this time,

2558
06:37:08.680 --> 06:37:15.479
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2559
06:37:16.759 --> 06:37:22.959
and mass massage in that area up to your spine,

2560
06:37:24.159 --> 06:37:26.720
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2561
06:37:28.520 --> 06:37:34.680
So some of that massage area, the muscle tissue or

2562
06:37:34.720 --> 06:37:38.759
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest.

2563
06:37:40.720 --> 06:37:44.680
There's all connected, the chest and the back connect together.

2564
06:37:47.840 --> 06:37:51.080
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2565
06:37:51.200 --> 06:37:59.159
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

2566
06:38:02.159 --> 06:38:06.279
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2567
06:38:10.680 --> 06:38:12.919
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2568
06:38:13.560 --> 06:38:16.319
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

2569
06:38:16.439 --> 06:38:34.000
thing as gentle, as deep as you choose. Now, I'll

2570
06:38:34.080 --> 06:38:38.639
move the other side again and do the exact same

2571
06:38:38.799 --> 06:38:42.799
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

2572
06:38:43.840 --> 06:38:57.919
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2573
06:39:03.000 --> 06:39:09.880
and then continuing that all the way down, including your

2574
06:39:09.959 --> 06:39:27.240
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

2575
06:39:27.400 --> 06:39:34.040
your thighs, the backs of your thighs and the sides

2576
06:39:34.119 --> 06:39:43.560
of your thighs, starting with your right leg, and massage

2577
06:39:43.720 --> 06:39:53.240
in the back and the sides of your thighs gently

2578
06:39:53.520 --> 06:39:59.400
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2579
06:39:59.439 --> 06:40:03.000
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2580
06:40:03.759 --> 06:40:06.200
needs a little bit more pressure than the rest of

2581
06:40:06.240 --> 06:40:14.880
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2582
06:40:14.959 --> 06:40:21.880
the back of your legs where you know, opposite your

2583
06:40:22.000 --> 06:40:29.840
knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area.

2584
06:40:36.759 --> 06:40:43.919
And then working down to your calf muscles, massage in

2585
06:40:44.040 --> 06:40:53.279
your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using

2586
06:40:53.360 --> 06:41:12.240
both hands and fingers and deep to your ankles, in

2587
06:41:12.360 --> 06:41:18.560
the back of your back of your ankles, just gently

2588
06:41:18.759 --> 06:41:31.119
massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2589
06:41:31.240 --> 06:41:53.880
a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in

2590
06:41:56.439 --> 06:42:03.240
the bottom of your feet and the sides of your

2591
06:42:03.279 --> 06:42:19.919
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2592
06:42:20.119 --> 06:42:25.560
just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving your

2593
06:42:25.639 --> 06:42:35.000
feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue to

2594
06:42:35.159 --> 06:42:41.560
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2595
06:42:44.159 --> 06:42:49.880
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2596
06:42:49.959 --> 06:42:55.840
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, yet the

2597
06:42:56.040 --> 06:43:04.119
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2598
06:43:04.279 --> 06:43:10.720
toes gently, the massage in the bottoms of your toes

2599
06:43:11.479 --> 06:43:26.759
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2600
06:43:26.919 --> 06:43:36.319
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2601
06:43:36.360 --> 06:43:40.759
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2602
06:43:40.840 --> 06:43:48.439
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2603
06:43:48.599 --> 06:44:02.599
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2604
06:44:02.680 --> 06:44:08.840
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2605
06:44:08.959 --> 06:44:17.599
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

2606
06:44:17.680 --> 06:44:22.959
a bigger future recording wants spend more time on one

2607
06:44:23.040 --> 06:44:34.919
particular area as you move down to your calf muscles.

2608
06:44:40.919 --> 06:44:54.279
Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down

2609
06:44:56.599 --> 06:45:02.959
your aincord into your feet. Massage in the backs of

2610
06:45:03.080 --> 06:45:13.520
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes,

2611
06:45:13.880 --> 06:45:20.159
and massage in each tone individually. And then feeling of

2612
06:45:20.360 --> 06:45:26.240
pleasure and release that you experience when your having your

2613
06:45:26.360 --> 06:45:47.840
feet massaged feels really good. Now should turn over in

2614
06:45:47.919 --> 06:45:58.759
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just going to

2615
06:45:58.840 --> 06:46:15.919
start again with your neck area in your shoulders, just

2616
06:46:16.080 --> 06:46:26.520
to get back in touch with that area. And as

2617
06:46:26.639 --> 06:46:38.240
you move up, I can clean my hands make them

2618
06:46:38.319 --> 06:46:43.959
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

2619
06:46:48.319 --> 06:46:58.439
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

2620
06:46:59.479 --> 06:47:05.360
I think your stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2621
06:47:05.479 --> 06:47:16.000
up on your eyebrows, and just massaging around your scalp,

2622
06:47:21.720 --> 06:47:31.159
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw,

2623
06:47:32.400 --> 06:47:54.840
gently the sides of your neck chin m hm, and

2624
06:47:55.119 --> 06:48:02.479
just moving down shall your neck down to your chest,

2625
06:48:06.279 --> 06:48:10.319
starting by massage in the very top of your chest

2626
06:48:14.119 --> 06:48:19.400
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2627
06:48:27.840 --> 06:48:31.040
and then just massage in the hole of the chest,

2628
06:48:40.279 --> 06:48:52.279
moving the chest around. Because it's quite a large area,

2629
06:48:54.240 --> 06:49:01.680
you can move from one side to the next, moving

2630
06:49:02.080 --> 06:49:13.080
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are, stretching up,

2631
06:49:15.240 --> 06:49:18.279
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2632
06:49:23.560 --> 06:49:32.200
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2633
06:49:44.799 --> 06:49:48.240
and then all alower on my hands. The just massage

2634
06:49:48.360 --> 06:49:55.919
gently and slide down towards your stomach, starting in the

2635
06:49:56.040 --> 06:50:02.919
middle of your chest, and then gradually my hands moving

2636
06:50:03.000 --> 06:50:12.279
apart and massaging and sliding at the same time, moving

2637
06:50:12.400 --> 06:50:30.959
down to just below your rib cage, moving down and

2638
06:50:31.000 --> 06:50:38.639
then massaging up again, giving your chest all the attention

2639
06:50:40.479 --> 06:50:54.759
that it needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm

2640
06:50:54.799 --> 06:50:58.759
also going to be focusing on your sides as well,

2641
06:51:00.360 --> 06:51:06.520
an area that really doesn't get much attention but feels

2642
06:51:06.639 --> 06:51:17.040
really good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down

2643
06:51:17.159 --> 06:51:24.279
the sides of your body, just below your arms, all

2644
06:51:24.319 --> 06:51:36.880
the way down to your hips. Now move into your

2645
06:51:36.959 --> 06:51:42.400
stomach area. I'm going to stand one side of you

2646
06:51:43.040 --> 06:51:47.560
like I did when I did your lower back. I'm

2647
06:51:47.560 --> 06:51:52.439
going to do a similar process of just stretching the

2648
06:51:52.599 --> 06:52:06.080
muscles from your side gently massage in from one side

2649
06:52:06.159 --> 06:52:14.680
to the next, move in the whole area from below

2650
06:52:14.759 --> 06:52:18.919
your ribs all the way down to below your belly button.

2651
06:52:26.119 --> 06:52:28.200
I'm going to move around to the other side of

2652
06:52:28.319 --> 06:52:46.880
you and repeat that process of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You

2653
06:52:47.080 --> 06:52:54.360
feel loose, you feel free. And it's something about having

2654
06:52:54.439 --> 06:53:02.759
your stomach massage that's different from any other part because

2655
06:53:02.840 --> 06:53:07.279
we do have a tendency of holding a different kind

2656
06:53:07.360 --> 06:53:11.319
of stress in our stomach that we may not be

2657
06:53:11.439 --> 06:53:22.720
aware of. As I now message your stomach in front

2658
06:53:22.799 --> 06:53:35.880
of your stomach, making circles around your belly button, thing

2659
06:53:36.040 --> 06:53:45.560
going the other way around. There's a gentleness and a

2660
06:53:45.720 --> 06:53:57.159
freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling. As I

2661
06:53:57.319 --> 06:54:05.560
now move down the tops of your thighs, muscles, massaging them,

2662
06:54:07.119 --> 06:54:10.479
and I can do this two legs at the same time,

2663
06:54:12.720 --> 06:54:22.080
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at

2664
06:54:22.159 --> 06:54:30.880
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2665
06:54:31.799 --> 06:54:44.479
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2666
06:54:44.560 --> 06:54:52.279
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2667
06:54:56.479 --> 06:55:05.560
moving down to your ankles, stroke in the tops of

2668
06:55:05.639 --> 06:55:16.200
your feet, and then with each foot in each hand,

2669
06:55:17.080 --> 06:55:25.400
just gently messaging the whole of the foot, the top,

2670
06:55:25.680 --> 06:55:34.360
the bottom, your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every

2671
06:55:34.799 --> 06:55:43.520
part of your feet. It feels so good to let

2672
06:55:43.639 --> 06:56:09.000
go and enjoy the process, enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, so

2673
06:56:09.319 --> 06:56:15.680
much comfort and so many feelings that come just from

2674
06:56:16.360 --> 06:56:33.080
touching your skin. And you can just lie there for

2675
06:56:33.159 --> 06:56:42.439
as long as you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep

2676
06:56:42.759 --> 06:57:07.360
comfort and being massaged. Quite me, enjoy the deeply.

2677
06:57:11.759 --> 06:57:11.959
Right.

2678
06:57:18.319 --> 06:57:24.799
And all we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

2679
06:57:27.319 --> 06:57:42.360
In your mind, there are gonna be a hundred candles,

2680
06:57:49.520 --> 06:57:55.279
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2681
06:57:55.680 --> 06:58:03.080
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down

2682
06:58:08.279 --> 06:58:15.119
all the way down to one, and each time I

2683
06:58:15.400 --> 06:58:24.479
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

2684
06:58:24.520 --> 06:58:35.560
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically gently

2685
06:58:35.680 --> 06:58:51.360
blow that candle out. Just it's not big blow, it's

2686
06:58:51.759 --> 06:59:05.599
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2687
06:59:05.799 --> 06:59:13.040
I'll say the next number as we move down, and

2688
06:59:13.200 --> 06:59:25.479
you can just plow that one out as well. And

2689
06:59:25.639 --> 06:59:35.560
as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling

2690
06:59:36.000 --> 06:59:44.840
more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep, you'll

2691
06:59:44.840 --> 06:59:56.720
also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2692
06:59:56.880 --> 07:00:06.880
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2693
07:00:07.080 --> 07:00:25.479
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2694
07:00:32.200 --> 07:00:50.159
more and more deeply tired, and the further you go down,

2695
07:00:52.799 --> 07:01:06.400
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2696
07:01:06.799 --> 07:01:12.560
that you stop listening to me after a while.

2697
07:01:21.119 --> 07:01:25.560
And even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2698
07:01:30.479 --> 07:01:32.680
you'll be aware of those sounds.

2699
07:01:35.639 --> 07:01:51.200
At the moment, be may start to just not even

2700
07:01:51.599 --> 07:02:10.400
notice them at all, because they're unimportant. Where I am,

2701
07:02:13.000 --> 07:02:17.799
I've got the sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the

2702
07:02:17.919 --> 07:02:25.799
pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and there's the

2703
07:02:25.880 --> 07:02:36.439
odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in

2704
07:02:36.560 --> 07:02:48.840
the distance. But none of that scene is important whatsoever.

2705
07:02:53.520 --> 07:03:08.119
All candles you blow out less important. Anything is more

2706
07:03:08.520 --> 07:03:20.360
candles you blow out. The further seemed to move away

2707
07:03:26.319 --> 07:03:39.639
from sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems to

2708
07:03:40.000 --> 07:03:56.880
just move away on its own. You feel more calmer

2709
07:04:00.599 --> 07:04:18.639
with every candle you blow out. H the next number,

2710
07:04:21.479 --> 07:04:31.000
do you hear me say? And then you blow that

2711
07:04:31.360 --> 07:04:58.040
candle out to h so easy, so simple. We're gonna

2712
07:04:58.400 --> 07:05:12.240
start by introducing the first candle, which is a hundred

2713
07:05:16.680 --> 07:05:31.520
first candles one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2714
07:05:38.319 --> 07:05:51.000
you'll find immediately a slight change in how you feel,

2715
07:05:56.200 --> 07:06:04.279
as well as a real sense of positivity growing within,

2716
07:06:10.520 --> 07:06:40.520
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred blow out

2717
07:06:40.639 --> 07:07:51.080
back candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, can ninety seven,

2718
07:08:13.560 --> 07:09:46.319
cam ninety six, ten ninety five, hand ninety four, can't

2719
07:09:46.400 --> 07:11:13.799
do ninety three, hand ninety two and ninety one, ten

2720
07:11:14.040 --> 07:12:47.279
to ninety and eighty two nine and threty eight and

2721
07:12:58.880 --> 07:15:59.000
eighties schndo eighty eight five and and and eighty two.

2722
07:16:00.959 --> 07:17:12.240
Da us.

2723
07:17:06.240 --> 07:19:27.319
And two one jes seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle

2724
07:19:31.959 --> 07:20:29.279
seventy seven, candle seventy six, can handle seventy five, candle

2725
07:20:32.080 --> 07:21:29.240
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one,

2726
07:21:49.959 --> 07:22:45.159
candle seventy one and seventy and do sixty nine can

2727
07:22:45.319 --> 07:23:32.799
do sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

2728
07:23:38.360 --> 07:24:38.639
sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three candle sixty

2729
07:24:41.000 --> 07:26:26.680
two and sixty one, candle sixty seven, fifty nine, hand

2730
07:26:29.680 --> 07:27:49.400
fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five,

2731
07:28:06.919 --> 07:29:28.400
handle fifty four, handle fifty three, handle fifty two, fifty two.

2732
07:30:00.680 --> 07:30:01.080
And to.

2733
07:30:04.240 --> 07:32:09.400
Fifty candle fifty one, candle fifty candle foty nine, candle

2734
07:32:13.639 --> 07:34:00.279
forty eight, candle forty seven, ten to forty six and

2735
07:34:04.040 --> 07:36:03.400
forty five and forty two candle who do candle forty

2736
07:36:41.959 --> 07:38:03.319
candle thirty nine and do thirty eight, can't do thirty seven,

2737
07:38:42.439 --> 07:40:48.840
canto thirty five, two thirty four, handle thirty three, handle

2738
07:40:52.279 --> 07:43:47.479
thirty one, shandle thirty two in eighteen nine, ten, twenty

2739
07:43:47.720 --> 07:46:13.400
eight and twenty seven, twenty six can do twenty five,

2740
07:46:51.880 --> 07:48:20.680
can four end of twenty thirty and doing deep two

2741
07:48:53.439 --> 07:51:39.959
and twenty world and white yen end ninety chendle seventeen

2742
07:52:26.080 --> 07:57:45.799
zo sixteen choz four, jen to t and yea nine

2743
07:58:43.720 --> 07:59:26.880
and eight s six.

2744
08:00:20.799 --> 08:01:08.479
Jim can do.

2745
08:01:12.080 --> 08:02:02.639
Wo and doy.

2746
08:02:20.319 --> 08:03:06.080
Usa two.

2747
08:03:56.520 --> 08:04:15.520
Yen. Or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2748
08:04:15.799 --> 08:04:21.919
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2749
08:04:23.400 --> 08:04:27.759
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2750
08:04:27.840 --> 08:04:34.040
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2751
08:04:38.959 --> 08:04:54.360
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2752
08:04:58.639 --> 08:05:02.919
allowing yourself to to get in touch with that natural

2753
08:05:04.720 --> 08:05:14.680
sense of peace that we all have within us. It's

2754
08:05:14.720 --> 08:05:20.119
available for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit

2755
08:05:20.159 --> 08:05:26.840
of effort to set up the right time and place

2756
08:05:27.720 --> 08:05:34.080
in order for you to just let go. Because when

2757
08:05:34.200 --> 08:05:41.959
you do decide to let go and relax, that's what

2758
08:05:42.080 --> 08:05:50.639
your body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen

2759
08:05:50.919 --> 08:05:57.400
to just allow your body to unwind and your mind

2760
08:05:58.080 --> 08:06:06.000
starts to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's

2761
08:06:06.040 --> 08:06:10.200
a nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that

2762
08:06:10.360 --> 08:06:20.759
you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because

2763
08:06:20.959 --> 08:06:26.919
you've made that decision, your body will just follow suit.

2764
08:06:29.479 --> 08:06:34.119
Because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

2765
08:06:34.439 --> 08:06:44.040
just permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2766
08:06:44.319 --> 08:06:48.520
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2767
08:06:48.599 --> 08:06:55.959
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2768
08:06:56.200 --> 08:07:04.599
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2769
08:07:04.680 --> 08:07:10.240
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission,

2770
08:07:14.599 --> 08:07:18.919
and when you do give your permission.

2771
08:07:20.599 --> 08:07:23.119
When you give to say so, we can say okay,

2772
08:07:24.400 --> 08:07:25.319
it's time.

2773
08:07:27.400 --> 08:07:33.520
For your body to let go completely and relax totally.

2774
08:07:37.080 --> 08:07:43.720
Your body just follows. It's like a breath of relief.

2775
08:07:44.959 --> 08:07:45.159
Ah.

2776
08:07:46.520 --> 08:07:53.639
Good, I can now relax. That feeling at the end

2777
08:07:53.720 --> 08:07:56.799
of a day, of a very physical day that you

2778
08:07:56.919 --> 08:08:01.240
may experience in the past. Get home and you just

2779
08:08:01.439 --> 08:08:05.400
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes

2780
08:08:05.520 --> 08:08:11.279
off and our ah feels so nice knowing that you

2781
08:08:11.360 --> 08:08:15.520
don't have to get up again for a little while

2782
08:08:15.560 --> 08:08:19.279
at least if you choose, you can just sit there

2783
08:08:19.400 --> 08:08:31.959
for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And just

2784
08:08:32.159 --> 08:08:37.200
by sitting down like that, your body knows that it's

2785
08:08:37.319 --> 08:08:43.000
time to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2786
08:08:45.200 --> 08:08:55.520
Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to

2787
08:08:55.720 --> 08:09:05.279
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2788
08:09:05.599 --> 08:09:14.360
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2789
08:09:14.720 --> 08:09:34.119
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2790
08:09:34.400 --> 08:09:40.639
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2791
08:09:42.520 --> 08:09:47.119
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2792
08:09:47.279 --> 08:09:50.560
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2793
08:09:52.000 --> 08:09:55.880
spent a lot of time, focusing and giving yourself this

2794
08:09:56.080 --> 08:10:02.200
space to let go completely and relax. They seem almost alien,

2795
08:10:04.080 --> 08:10:10.000
but it isn't. It's actually the most natural.

2796
08:10:09.680 --> 08:10:10.759
Thing in the world.

2797
08:10:12.040 --> 08:10:21.560
To let go completely, to relax totally, the most natural

2798
08:10:21.840 --> 08:10:33.959
thing in the world to allow yourself to feel really

2799
08:10:34.240 --> 08:10:40.279
calm in your mind. And it is almost like a

2800
08:10:40.479 --> 08:10:50.200
literal unwinding. It's like you press a button and all

2801
08:10:50.400 --> 08:10:57.319
the tension just releases. It's like a wheel, like a cog,

2802
08:10:58.279 --> 08:11:01.840
like the inside of the clock, just unwinding. And it's

2803
08:11:01.880 --> 08:11:05.639
almost like you could see that the little wind up

2804
08:11:06.560 --> 08:11:11.479
kno that's used just going the opposite way that you

2805
08:11:11.720 --> 08:11:18.240
choose to wind it up, and the energy that premetic

2806
08:11:19.439 --> 08:11:29.479
stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing

2807
08:11:29.560 --> 08:11:38.439
its strength. As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper,

2808
08:11:42.119 --> 08:11:49.159
and you may find a the more relaxed you feel,

2809
08:11:50.560 --> 08:12:00.479
that your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop

2810
08:12:00.639 --> 08:12:05.720
listening to me for a while, Your mind goes somewhere else,

2811
08:12:07.119 --> 08:12:12.959
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2812
08:12:13.119 --> 08:12:19.639
that was just your mind to drifting to sleep, which

2813
08:12:19.720 --> 08:12:29.599
is quite natural because sometimes when we're stressed and tense.

2814
08:12:30.880 --> 08:12:34.759
We're not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

2815
08:12:35.880 --> 08:12:44.319
what we physically, you're emotionally need in this moment. But

2816
08:12:44.479 --> 08:12:50.759
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely

2817
08:12:52.520 --> 08:12:59.720
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2818
08:13:01.200 --> 08:13:05.720
all letting them go allow them to drop onto the floor.

2819
08:13:11.040 --> 08:13:17.040
When you start to get in touch with the feelings

2820
08:13:17.200 --> 08:13:28.880
of such relaxation, this feels so nice to be in

2821
08:13:29.119 --> 08:13:35.880
touch with the calmness of the different body parts as

2822
08:13:36.040 --> 08:13:51.680
they become looser and looser. Even your breathing scenes easier

2823
08:13:52.360 --> 08:14:02.200
and more natural, effortless. Is that cools through your mouth

2824
08:14:02.400 --> 08:14:12.240
or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation,

2825
08:14:14.880 --> 08:14:20.799
and then just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2826
08:14:21.000 --> 08:14:26.040
stress from every part of your body.

2827
08:14:27.279 --> 08:14:27.880
And mind.

2828
08:14:31.439 --> 08:14:36.000
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2829
08:14:36.560 --> 08:14:44.520
you notice that things come to a standstill or maybe

2830
08:14:44.959 --> 08:14:53.520
just much much lower than before, because your mind is

2831
08:14:53.680 --> 08:15:04.560
not really needed when listening to my voice, which allows

2832
08:15:04.639 --> 08:15:10.560
your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2833
08:15:13.319 --> 08:15:25.279
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation

2834
08:15:26.279 --> 08:15:27.080
of your mind.

2835
08:15:29.439 --> 08:15:30.680
Let you know that.

2836
08:15:32.799 --> 08:15:45.240
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed really is a great

2837
08:15:46.240 --> 08:16:03.240
healing experience fear and has so many positive benefits for

2838
08:16:03.400 --> 08:16:09.319
your body, your mind, and your life. To be able

2839
08:16:09.479 --> 08:16:10.279
to let go.

2840
08:16:11.919 --> 08:16:18.319
Everything and to relax completely.

2841
08:16:19.400 --> 08:16:27.799
In all parts of your body and mind. Even your

2842
08:16:27.919 --> 08:16:44.000
bone has arised, all your muscles arise, even the skin

2843
08:16:44.799 --> 08:16:56.919
that covers your body is rised, every hair.

2844
08:17:00.119 --> 08:17:00.439
You have.

2845
08:17:02.119 --> 08:17:20.360
It's also deeply relaxed, and your brain restarts to feel

2846
08:17:20.759 --> 08:17:36.040
the benefits this healing relaxation. And as you focus on

2847
08:17:36.200 --> 08:17:41.959
the inside of your scalp where your brain is, you

2848
08:17:42.080 --> 08:17:50.000
can start to realize and notice the benefits of your

2849
08:17:50.159 --> 08:18:01.520
brain relaxing deeply. And then there's your brain continues to

2850
08:18:01.680 --> 08:18:11.759
relax sends those messages to the rest of your body

2851
08:18:13.720 --> 08:18:30.279
and your mind to re reax more deeply, relax me

2852
08:18:32.319 --> 08:18:48.400
more completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts or consents,

2853
08:18:50.759 --> 08:18:57.080
allowed them just to drop onto the floor because they're

2854
08:18:57.159 --> 08:19:05.680
no longer necessary in this moment, In this moment of

2855
08:19:06.000 --> 08:19:31.479
deep relaxation and calmness, feeling your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming,

2856
08:19:36.759 --> 08:19:55.279
relaxing every power of your brain, feeling so loose and comfortable,

2857
08:19:58.560 --> 08:20:14.240
so relaxed and peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's

2858
08:20:14.439 --> 08:20:26.680
so healthy. That sense of deep, deep comfort really does

2859
08:20:27.880 --> 08:20:39.560
allow you to enjoy those ever increase in sensations of

2860
08:20:41.479 --> 08:20:55.599
comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and

2861
08:20:56.200 --> 08:21:13.240
every muscle of your body, eat deeper, deeper, much more

2862
08:21:13.919 --> 08:21:31.639
deeper than before, much more convent spreading through your body.

2863
08:21:32.400 --> 08:21:49.119
Your mind be so peaceful and chalm, so very very

2864
08:21:50.759 --> 08:22:04.159
peaceful in avery part of your body, letting go, mm

2865
08:22:04.240 --> 08:22:28.479
hmm everything aything, so peaceful, time, so relax a very

2866
08:22:29.840 --> 08:22:36.000
second the passes you feel.

2867
08:22:38.000 --> 08:23:03.680
Dper dper relax dper and dperlax, so calm.

2868
08:23:07.520 --> 08:23:20.319
Peace for so very peace from your head down to

2869
08:23:20.439 --> 08:23:33.599
your ties, such peace and comfort throwing all the time,

2870
08:23:36.439 --> 08:23:47.599
such peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind

2871
08:23:50.119 --> 08:24:06.479
deep and deeper, such comfort, ready and sinking deeper into

2872
08:24:06.840 --> 08:24:22.000
airy muscle of your body. So the feel amazing, so relaxed,

2873
08:24:25.520 --> 08:24:37.959
so piece so so relaxed and piece, so.

2874
08:24:41.360 --> 08:24:42.360
Lett him go.

2875
08:24:46.319 --> 08:24:57.720
Every I'm gonna do a body scan, focusing on firstly

2876
08:24:57.880 --> 08:25:03.439
how you feel in your not trying to change how

2877
08:25:03.520 --> 08:25:09.319
you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to move

2878
08:25:09.400 --> 08:25:16.279
away from any discomfort, or stress or tension. Just accepting,

2879
08:25:17.840 --> 08:25:22.919
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2880
08:25:23.000 --> 08:25:29.639
of your body. Just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2881
08:25:29.720 --> 08:25:41.200
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

2882
08:25:41.279 --> 08:25:48.680
you actually feel in this moment. I'm going to start

2883
08:25:48.840 --> 08:26:00.560
off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware of hands.

2884
08:26:05.919 --> 08:26:10.360
I'd like you to move your hands around, just maybe

2885
08:26:10.479 --> 08:26:16.279
move your fingers a little bit. I've been enclosing your

2886
08:26:16.400 --> 08:26:23.880
hands very gently, just so that you can get in

2887
08:26:24.119 --> 08:26:36.240
touch with how your hands and your fingers feel, very

2888
08:26:37.400 --> 08:26:55.240
very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and if

2889
08:26:55.319 --> 08:26:59.319
you can just do kind of an equivalent with your

2890
08:26:59.439 --> 08:27:06.759
feet you've just done with your hands. Maybe turn in

2891
08:27:06.880 --> 08:27:14.959
your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your toes gently,

2892
08:27:17.599 --> 08:27:29.799
but only very gently and very slowly, noticing how your

2893
08:27:29.959 --> 08:27:43.080
feet feel in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes,

2894
08:27:46.000 --> 08:27:50.439
and I'd like you to just focus on your eyelids.

2895
08:27:52.880 --> 08:27:55.919
Maybe you can open and close your eyes a couple

2896
08:27:55.959 --> 08:28:01.560
of times to really get in touch with how you feel.

2897
08:28:01.680 --> 08:28:09.680
When you do close your eyes, the muscle changes in

2898
08:28:09.799 --> 08:28:15.520
your eyes when you do close them. Maybe you're raising

2899
08:28:15.639 --> 08:28:24.720
your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes. Perhaps

2900
08:28:24.919 --> 08:28:32.880
squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so you

2901
08:28:33.000 --> 08:28:42.599
can hear it again. Touch with all aspects of how

2902
08:28:44.439 --> 08:29:01.479
your eyes feel right now. Now focus in on your thighs,

2903
08:29:03.840 --> 08:29:08.119
and it just starts you to gently tense your thighs,

2904
08:29:09.479 --> 08:29:19.279
just very very gently, just enough so you can become

2905
08:29:20.880 --> 08:29:31.959
more achieved to the physical sensation of your upper legs,

2906
08:29:34.200 --> 08:29:37.400
the front of your thighs, and the backs of your thighs.

2907
08:29:41.919 --> 08:30:01.319
Noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now, moving

2908
08:30:01.520 --> 08:30:09.959
your focus to the back of your neck, just noticing

2909
08:30:10.119 --> 08:30:16.200
the back of your neck, the muscles, and of course

2910
08:30:16.360 --> 08:30:20.639
they lead to the side of your neck. They also

2911
08:30:20.919 --> 08:30:25.759
lead to the top of your back, which leads to

2912
08:30:25.880 --> 08:30:31.400
your shoulders. So as your focus on the back of

2913
08:30:31.479 --> 08:30:38.840
your neck, maybe you can move your head gently upwards

2914
08:30:40.040 --> 08:30:46.000
as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your head down

2915
08:30:47.439 --> 08:30:54.000
as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side

2916
08:30:54.240 --> 08:31:06.599
to side, right to left bony very slowly and very gently.

2917
08:31:09.119 --> 08:31:14.279
I'm not trying to force anything. It has to be

2918
08:31:14.840 --> 08:31:28.080
very very gentle, just so you can be more in

2919
08:31:28.360 --> 08:31:40.159
touch with the feelings, with the sensations, physical sensations of

2920
08:31:41.200 --> 08:31:48.240
how the back of your neck feels. Right now.

2921
08:31:55.680 --> 08:31:56.040
As we.

2922
08:31:58.040 --> 08:32:06.680
Now focus on the tops of your arms, the parts

2923
08:32:06.799 --> 08:32:11.479
where your biceps and your triceps are between your elbow

2924
08:32:11.560 --> 08:32:20.200
and your shoulders. To focus on those parts, the tops

2925
08:32:20.279 --> 08:32:26.799
of your arms, you may like to just tense them,

2926
08:32:27.720 --> 08:32:38.680
but very very gently and slowly, so you know, straining

2927
08:32:39.080 --> 08:32:46.880
or put in any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2928
08:32:49.560 --> 08:32:52.000
It's just so that you can.

2929
08:32:54.479 --> 08:33:01.680
Gain more of a sense of how you upper arms

2930
08:33:03.240 --> 08:33:15.159
I feeling in this moment and just noticing as you gently,

2931
08:33:17.319 --> 08:33:26.919
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go.

2932
08:33:31.159 --> 08:33:39.599
Notice how the tops of your arms feel. Right now,

2933
08:33:47.799 --> 08:33:58.560
there's a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2934
08:33:58.680 --> 08:34:04.919
lower aptomen area. Blow your belly button, move it all

2935
08:34:04.959 --> 08:34:12.159
the way down to your hips, just above your grind.

2936
08:34:18.520 --> 08:34:25.720
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

2937
08:34:26.479 --> 08:34:41.720
very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing

2938
08:34:41.919 --> 08:34:48.319
to do, and maybe you can just move your body,

2939
08:34:50.959 --> 08:34:56.080
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving an orbit to the

2940
08:34:56.319 --> 08:35:03.639
side using your hips, just so you can get more

2941
08:35:05.319 --> 08:35:17.319
in tune with how your lower abdomen area is feeling

2942
08:35:20.159 --> 08:35:37.720
in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations of your

2943
08:35:37.880 --> 08:35:56.840
lower abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth,

2944
08:36:02.159 --> 08:36:07.520
not to see in your lips and inside your mouth,

2945
08:36:09.799 --> 08:36:27.000
the tea, your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your

2946
08:36:27.159 --> 08:36:33.799
tongue in your mouth feels, and it may help by

2947
08:36:35.919 --> 08:36:43.200
moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it to your left,

2948
08:36:44.959 --> 08:36:50.639
maybe pressing it gently against the side of your mouth,

2949
08:36:52.200 --> 08:36:57.159
and then to the right, gently to the side of

2950
08:36:57.279 --> 08:37:05.200
your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth,

2951
08:37:06.400 --> 08:37:12.240
and then down gently against the bottom of your mouth.

2952
08:37:14.919 --> 08:37:31.439
Ays very slowly and a very very gentle, soothy. You

2953
08:37:31.639 --> 08:37:47.159
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth

2954
08:37:47.520 --> 08:38:19.080
area now and to focus on your wrists. And I'm

2955
08:38:19.080 --> 08:38:25.880
going to ask you to maybe just routine your wrists

2956
08:38:27.759 --> 08:38:35.799
by moving your hands in a circular motion very gently

2957
08:38:37.720 --> 08:38:41.680
and slowly, just.

2958
08:38:43.400 --> 08:38:44.759
So you can.

2959
08:38:50.479 --> 08:39:09.520
Feel the sensations that you currently eperiencing in your risks.

2960
08:39:13.599 --> 08:39:16.560
Perhapsolute in your hands.

2961
08:39:17.759 --> 08:39:19.240
Up and down.

2962
08:39:21.680 --> 08:39:43.400
Again very very gently and slowly, very gent so so

2963
08:39:47.680 --> 08:39:49.000
and slow.

2964
08:40:02.479 --> 08:40:03.439
As you now.

2965
08:40:05.919 --> 08:40:20.119
Start to observe in a lower back. Their bad part

2966
08:40:20.439 --> 08:40:30.000
is just the buf of your hips where your coxis

2967
08:40:30.119 --> 08:40:43.119
are a whole area which also really does include the

2968
08:40:43.439 --> 08:40:50.360
signs of your body is those muscles are very much connected.

2969
08:40:55.639 --> 08:41:02.639
There's those muscles also move into your hip area connecting

2970
08:41:02.919 --> 08:41:17.799
to your buttics the sides of your hips, and if

2971
08:41:17.880 --> 08:41:28.080
you're physically able to do so, maybe e in very gently,

2972
08:41:30.279 --> 08:41:44.439
just nevebody ever slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

2973
08:41:48.159 --> 08:42:04.959
just enough to gauge how you feel in your lower back.

2974
08:42:12.599 --> 08:42:23.040
Perhaps it even move your hips gently up and down,

2975
08:42:26.759 --> 08:42:41.759
gently and slowly, in order to be in touch with

2976
08:42:41.959 --> 08:42:47.720
the physical sensations of your lower back.

2977
08:43:04.799 --> 08:43:05.439
As we know.

2978
08:43:10.759 --> 08:43:21.400
To your attention to your jaw, that area from your

2979
08:43:21.680 --> 08:43:27.319
chin all the way up to near where your ears are.

2980
08:43:30.479 --> 08:43:46.200
Oh, your jaw, you can just yeah, it's okay to

2981
08:43:46.400 --> 08:43:46.759
do so.

2982
08:43:48.720 --> 08:43:59.200
Gently open your mouth, not wide, they stretch, just very

2983
08:44:00.240 --> 08:44:12.560
ently and slowly opening your mouth in closing your mouth

2984
08:44:14.919 --> 08:44:33.799
very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2985
08:44:40.639 --> 08:45:13.680
with how your jaw feels. Now and I have to

2986
08:45:13.840 --> 08:45:29.560
sit down the chest area and I need to do

2987
08:45:29.759 --> 08:45:37.680
anything to move your chest it is. It moves every

2988
08:45:37.840 --> 08:45:54.560
time you breathe. It moves very gently and slowly, automatically

2989
08:45:56.759 --> 08:46:08.200
with each breath you tache. Make you focus on.

2990
08:46:11.479 --> 08:46:13.200
Your chest.

2991
08:46:18.080 --> 08:46:58.759
Feels when you pray. Move in your focus to your forms,

2992
08:47:01.400 --> 08:47:17.560
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly

2993
08:47:20.000 --> 08:47:28.560
tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2994
08:47:29.040 --> 08:47:50.400
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and

2995
08:47:51.919 --> 08:48:32.319
slowly gently, Absolutely, I'm sady. Your forearms and dopers no

2996
08:48:41.319 --> 08:48:50.520
focus resting her back.

2997
08:48:54.680 --> 08:48:55.720
Off the back.

2998
08:48:59.759 --> 08:49:17.360
And the middle the middle of your back again this

2999
08:49:18.040 --> 08:49:28.119
part of your body. News. Also every time you breed,

3000
08:49:33.119 --> 08:49:46.720
you may not notice that. Usually make you serve your

3001
08:49:46.880 --> 08:49:54.080
upper back. In the middle of your back. You can

3002
08:49:54.360 --> 08:50:00.720
really feel that into.

3003
08:50:06.439 --> 08:50:06.680
Ends.

3004
08:50:13.360 --> 08:50:51.080
Yea men, your focus.

3005
08:50:52.560 --> 08:51:06.880
Into the area by the boy. There's muscles and those

3006
08:51:07.080 --> 08:51:43.360
bones in your midsection. This made u sense how there

3007
08:51:43.400 --> 08:52:04.000
were heaps feel right now you can very very gently

3008
08:52:06.759 --> 08:52:18.439
used your HAPs maybe side to sign very gently and

3009
08:52:39.200 --> 08:53:22.319
very gently softly. Everything starts to slow down, including the

3010
08:53:22.919 --> 08:53:31.639
thoughts in your mind and your mind itself just starts

3011
08:53:32.080 --> 08:53:37.439
to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant, but just

3012
08:53:38.319 --> 08:53:47.560
gradually starting too. It's almost like time is story him.

3013
08:53:51.479 --> 08:53:57.439
It's a slower pace to maybe what you're used to

3014
08:53:59.720 --> 08:54:07.720
in your day to day life. It's a slower movement

3015
08:54:10.840 --> 08:54:33.439
of energy, very small movements which make up the larger movements,

3016
08:54:35.040 --> 08:54:41.479
which is always the case. Now, when you move your hand,

3017
08:54:43.080 --> 08:54:45.880
it might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots

3018
08:54:45.959 --> 08:54:53.840
of minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other.

3019
08:54:54.159 --> 08:55:06.119
And what happened in this space that we're sharing is

3020
08:55:11.439 --> 08:55:25.680
we move from that big movement into those smaller movements.

3021
08:55:32.119 --> 08:55:43.319
Starting to focus on how your body feels, not just

3022
08:55:43.439 --> 08:55:47.959
as a whole, not just oh, i'm feeling this way.

3023
08:55:48.040 --> 08:55:54.159
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

3024
08:55:55.439 --> 08:56:02.080
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

3025
08:56:02.319 --> 08:56:13.520
notice that your body begins to present to you small

3026
08:56:14.639 --> 08:56:31.000
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

3027
08:56:33.759 --> 08:56:46.959
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

3028
08:56:47.040 --> 08:56:56.599
them or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them,

3029
08:56:57.520 --> 08:57:03.759
thinking about them as just being luke sure, just feelings,

3030
08:57:10.439 --> 08:57:18.919
not being particularly conserned, but just noticing what your body

3031
08:57:21.720 --> 08:57:22.360
is telling you.

3032
08:57:30.319 --> 08:57:36.599
Feelings in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of

3033
08:57:36.720 --> 08:57:37.360
the arm.

3034
08:57:38.639 --> 08:57:47.840
Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

3035
08:57:51.959 --> 08:58:00.400
the skin, the hairs of your arms, the or the

3036
08:58:00.560 --> 08:58:17.119
internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones. Just

3037
08:58:17.240 --> 08:58:23.439
being aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm

3038
08:58:26.200 --> 08:58:34.360
has a certain feeling, maybe your left wrist also has

3039
08:58:37.560 --> 08:58:58.319
its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on

3040
08:58:58.439 --> 08:58:59.040
your right.

3041
08:58:59.159 --> 08:59:11.200
Arm, you're right for arm, there may not be any.

3042
08:59:11.560 --> 08:59:18.799
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

3043
08:59:22.560 --> 08:59:26.880
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

3044
08:59:27.799 --> 08:59:39.880
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

3045
08:59:39.959 --> 08:59:43.680
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

3046
08:59:43.880 --> 08:59:50.599
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

3047
08:59:50.680 --> 08:59:53.520
like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

3048
08:59:55.360 --> 09:00:06.400
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

3049
09:00:06.520 --> 09:00:14.720
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

3050
09:00:14.919 --> 09:00:20.279
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

3051
09:00:20.400 --> 09:00:45.720
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder, and

3052
09:00:45.840 --> 09:01:01.639
you lower back the left side of your lower back

3053
09:01:01.880 --> 09:01:13.279
and the right side of your lower back. Of course

3054
09:01:13.400 --> 09:01:26.080
that connection to your buttocks into your hips, and also

3055
09:01:26.279 --> 09:01:40.000
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

3056
09:01:40.400 --> 09:01:43.880
like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

3057
09:01:45.240 --> 09:01:49.639
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

3058
09:01:49.680 --> 09:01:54.040
on the middle of my back, almost felt like the

3059
09:01:54.200 --> 09:01:58.759
muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

3060
09:02:03.520 --> 09:02:08.799
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

3061
09:02:08.880 --> 09:02:17.680
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

3062
09:02:17.759 --> 09:02:30.040
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

3063
09:02:30.119 --> 09:02:56.880
lower back comes along and feeling in your chest. Just

3064
09:02:57.200 --> 09:03:10.919
noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest right now.

3065
09:03:23.400 --> 09:03:27.159
And there's so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the

3066
09:03:27.319 --> 09:03:31.479
collar bone leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone,

3067
09:03:34.759 --> 09:03:42.560
You've got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if

3068
09:03:42.560 --> 09:03:50.959
you're female, there's possibly the breasts your male you've got

3069
09:03:51.080 --> 09:03:57.159
the different well might not make different these days, but

3070
09:03:59.360 --> 09:04:04.799
then maybe more muscles at the top of the chest,

3071
09:04:08.159 --> 09:04:12.439
but at the side underneath, it's pretty much the same.

3072
09:04:13.240 --> 09:04:16.279
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

3073
09:04:17.639 --> 09:04:22.759
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

3074
09:04:22.840 --> 09:04:31.240
breast tissue which stretches and moves into your back. To

3075
09:04:31.439 --> 09:04:50.799
just being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling

3076
09:04:51.000 --> 09:05:10.759
there is in your chest. Well, I noticed that I

3077
09:05:10.959 --> 09:05:18.880
focus on my chest. I feel it in my back

3078
09:05:19.119 --> 09:05:22.840
and my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious

3079
09:05:23.000 --> 09:05:30.599
reason would be because you know, I'll breathe in in

3080
09:05:33.360 --> 09:05:36.520
then it stretches my chest and my back at the

3081
09:05:36.560 --> 09:05:57.279
same time. It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel

3082
09:06:00.279 --> 09:06:06.560
a little bit of pain, in my right chest a

3083
09:06:06.599 --> 09:06:12.720
little bit, not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

3084
09:06:13.239 --> 09:06:22.400
I don't know. Notice my shoulders are also wanting to

3085
09:06:24.760 --> 09:06:29.440
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

3086
09:06:29.599 --> 09:06:37.879
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and my

3087
09:06:38.040 --> 09:06:43.519
upper back, because I can move my shoulders and stretch

3088
09:06:43.680 --> 09:06:51.120
the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up,

3089
09:06:53.160 --> 09:06:59.519
which then moves I think it's the scapulous in your back.

3090
09:07:09.599 --> 09:07:10.599
It feels quite nice.

3091
09:07:10.639 --> 09:07:19.400
Actually, a good thing about this is you can, if

3092
09:07:19.440 --> 09:07:20.800
you want to, you.

3093
09:07:21.000 --> 09:07:35.879
Can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in your

3094
09:07:35.919 --> 09:07:42.000
body gently in order to get more of the sense

3095
09:07:42.120 --> 09:07:56.720
of how they feel. And when you're relaxing and your

3096
09:07:56.839 --> 09:08:02.239
detense and muscle and let it go and let it relax.

3097
09:08:03.480 --> 09:08:10.559
It relaxes way more than it would normally.

3098
09:08:15.680 --> 09:08:17.760
You have to feel.

3099
09:08:19.639 --> 09:08:20.760
That you're able to do that.

3100
09:08:22.360 --> 09:08:24.160
There's no point in doing it if.

3101
09:08:24.040 --> 09:08:29.639
There's an issue with the pert part of your body.

3102
09:08:33.120 --> 09:08:39.680
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

3103
09:08:42.319 --> 09:08:53.839
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself.

3104
09:09:01.400 --> 09:09:09.519
As you notice your mind. How much is your.

3105
09:09:09.559 --> 09:09:11.239
Mind slowed down.

3106
09:09:13.319 --> 09:09:39.879
Since we started this recording? How come and peaceful is

3107
09:09:39.959 --> 09:09:49.680
your mind right now? We have nothing to think about

3108
09:09:52.239 --> 09:09:59.360
and just my voice to listen to. Because you know

3109
09:10:00.160 --> 09:10:10.919
intention behind this recording, this relaxation, at the very least

3110
09:10:12.480 --> 09:10:17.040
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

3111
09:10:17.080 --> 09:10:25.279
the recording than you did at the beginning, at the

3112
09:10:25.480 --> 09:10:37.599
very least your mind to slow down because your body

3113
09:10:38.360 --> 09:10:53.559
continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

3114
09:10:57.559 --> 09:11:12.959
That's what you expect to happen, a relaxation.

3115
09:11:15.360 --> 09:11:16.279
To fill.

3116
09:11:18.559 --> 09:11:29.599
Your body, maybe calm your mind.

3117
09:11:30.800 --> 09:11:38.319
To the point of boredom. When you start maybe to

3118
09:11:43.919 --> 09:12:25.680
drift away through it's almost as if you're moving further

3119
09:12:25.839 --> 09:12:34.120
away from a body in your mind, just leaving them there,

3120
09:12:42.080 --> 09:12:46.360
kind of liking it an escape pod and the spaceship

3121
09:12:46.760 --> 09:12:50.319
a movie, a space movie, you know, and and against

3122
09:12:50.360 --> 09:12:57.239
a little pardon it since the man far away from

3123
09:12:57.319 --> 09:14:19.360
the spaceship six three two two lights, drifting size and

3124
09:14:19.599 --> 09:15:23.000
be so pas and focusing on that eating are those

3125
09:15:24.440 --> 09:15:35.639
individual parts your body that's a relaxing one by one.

3126
09:15:43.319 --> 09:15:43.879
You may.

3127
09:15:45.559 --> 09:15:59.239
Find that every now and then you realize that you

3128
09:15:59.440 --> 09:16:08.040
runt listening to my voice because your mind started to

3129
09:16:08.279 --> 09:16:23.519
imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into some

3130
09:16:23.839 --> 09:16:32.239
kind of a dreamy state, and then you become aware

3131
09:16:32.480 --> 09:16:33.599
of my voice again.

3132
09:16:37.199 --> 09:16:39.559
And even though you may.

3133
09:16:41.440 --> 09:16:46.440
Want to focus on my voice, you may also wish

3134
09:16:46.760 --> 09:17:00.160
to allow your mind to just drift naturally into that

3135
09:17:00.480 --> 09:17:22.680
space of comfort and safety that you feel warm, comfort

3136
09:17:24.559 --> 09:17:38.319
spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

3137
09:17:42.360 --> 09:18:00.760
keeping your body at just the perfect temperature. Even if

3138
09:18:00.839 --> 09:18:12.839
you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem to

3139
09:18:13.959 --> 09:18:30.120
matter anymore. There's that sensor. Peace spreads through your mind

3140
09:18:37.360 --> 09:18:44.120
like a gentle breeze. Yeah, strong enough to blow away

3141
09:18:48.040 --> 09:18:54.480
all negativity, strong.

3142
09:18:54.319 --> 09:18:54.760
Enough to.

3143
09:18:58.160 --> 09:19:08.000
Remove from your mind and any anxiety or stress that

3144
09:19:08.239 --> 09:19:22.480
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

3145
09:19:22.800 --> 09:19:44.199
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that

3146
09:19:49.279 --> 09:20:14.160
this feeling your body end your mind. As you have

3147
09:20:14.319 --> 09:20:15.040
focused on.

3148
09:20:15.160 --> 09:20:15.959
Your mind.

3149
09:20:18.000 --> 09:20:23.879
And count down from ten down to wind, with each

3150
09:20:24.400 --> 09:20:52.279
number you hear, your mind will become slightly relaxed, just

3151
09:20:52.680 --> 09:21:02.480
just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a slight movement,

3152
09:21:04.879 --> 09:21:17.120
nine down to eight, just another small change in how

3153
09:21:17.279 --> 09:21:29.000
you feel. Eight down to seven. That feeling is a

3154
09:21:29.639 --> 09:21:34.160
is a gap, almost like a gap that starts to

3155
09:21:34.279 --> 09:21:43.639
get wider. The gap between those feelings that you used

3156
09:21:43.680 --> 09:21:50.919
to have in your mind compared to the feelings you

3157
09:21:51.120 --> 09:22:02.400
have the gluing now evens of comfort and security and confidence,

3158
09:22:04.959 --> 09:22:11.440
and the gap become wider. Eight down to seven, seven.

3159
09:22:11.319 --> 09:22:12.319
Down to six.

3160
09:22:16.160 --> 09:22:22.559
We get to five, the mind will start to have

3161
09:22:22.720 --> 09:22:36.239
a certain physical sensation, most like this a magnet outside

3162
09:22:36.360 --> 09:22:42.680
of your head, sucking contension and the stress and any

3163
09:22:42.800 --> 09:22:50.360
remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through

3164
09:22:50.440 --> 09:22:51.040
your skull.

3165
09:22:56.800 --> 09:22:58.400
And in down to four.

3166
09:23:00.160 --> 09:23:08.959
You could start to really experience that sense not just emptiness,

3167
09:23:09.199 --> 09:23:23.160
but space, place full of fresh air, place where you

3168
09:23:23.279 --> 09:23:29.919
can stretch. It's almost as if as you go down

3169
09:23:30.080 --> 09:23:32.680
to four and three, your.

3170
09:23:32.800 --> 09:23:37.559
Mind is expanded with this sense.

3171
09:23:40.160 --> 09:23:41.519
Of peace.

3172
09:23:42.879 --> 09:23:45.639
And tranquility growing.

3173
09:23:47.839 --> 09:23:54.160
It moves down to bring into one.

3174
09:23:55.720 --> 09:24:03.959
Mind is exactly how you want to feel.

3175
09:24:07.480 --> 09:24:08.199
The most.

3176
09:24:11.040 --> 09:24:23.160
Perfective feeling idea, the sensation that.

3177
09:24:24.760 --> 09:24:26.199
You'd like to keep.

3178
09:24:29.199 --> 09:24:32.480
The place that's say, where.

3179
09:24:33.760 --> 09:24:52.040
Nothing can affect you at all, and you.

3180
09:24:52.120 --> 09:25:01.440
Can stay in that that space and confirm confidence, confident

3181
09:25:01.599 --> 09:25:08.000
in your own ability to create this space and this

3182
09:25:09.400 --> 09:25:17.319
feeling of comfort within your own mind just by counting ten.

3183
09:25:18.879 --> 09:25:19.599
Down to one.

3184
09:25:24.160 --> 09:25:28.720
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3185
09:25:28.760 --> 09:25:35.360
you're on your own, the time when.

3186
09:25:35.279 --> 09:25:39.040
You can maybe sit down, maybe just for a few.

3187
09:25:38.919 --> 09:25:52.040
Minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly from ten.

3188
09:25:54.720 --> 09:25:55.480
Down to one.

3189
09:26:00.120 --> 09:26:04.879
Go you experience these feelings.

3190
09:26:05.919 --> 09:26:06.639
In your mind.

3191
09:26:12.519 --> 09:26:16.800
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

3192
09:26:16.919 --> 09:26:31.440
body copies your mind, and the feeling is spread through

3193
09:26:31.639 --> 09:26:38.760
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

3194
09:26:38.879 --> 09:26:51.440
your body, travels through your blood stream, feething and relaxing

3195
09:26:53.639 --> 09:26:57.040
every article of your existence.

3196
09:27:09.800 --> 09:27:14.160
Now we can we can practice this a few times.

3197
09:27:18.480 --> 09:27:21.239
Before the end to be recorded, and then.

3198
09:27:21.160 --> 09:27:24.199
You can write this on your head.

3199
09:27:26.279 --> 09:27:36.959
And each time you countfort ten about one, the feelings

3200
09:27:37.120 --> 09:27:50.800
of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper

3201
09:27:59.680 --> 09:28:10.000
m mind grain with these positive chemicals, the spread throughout

3202
09:28:10.080 --> 09:28:19.919
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

3203
09:28:20.080 --> 09:28:21.199
and mind.

3204
09:28:23.839 --> 09:28:37.480
So very very easily, just by counting ten down to one.

3205
09:28:42.639 --> 09:28:46.440
So we can do now, I'm gonna count from ten.

3206
09:28:46.480 --> 09:28:47.360
Down to one.

3207
09:28:48.440 --> 09:28:52.919
I'd like you to repeat the number after me. So

3208
09:28:53.040 --> 09:29:00.199
when I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

3209
09:29:01.559 --> 09:29:01.800
Death.

3210
09:29:07.120 --> 09:29:10.199
I just notice, beware.

3211
09:29:11.199 --> 09:29:22.839
How you feel in your mind and your body. Then

3212
09:29:22.879 --> 09:29:24.279
when I say mine.

3213
09:29:26.400 --> 09:29:42.000
You can repeat to yourself. Nine became noticing the increase

3214
09:29:42.319 --> 09:29:47.559
in comfort, calmness.

3215
09:29:47.199 --> 09:29:57.519
In your mind and your body. The same when I

3216
09:29:57.639 --> 09:30:01.680
say eight, when I.

3217
09:30:01.720 --> 09:30:13.239
Say seven, six, I want I say five, four.

3218
09:30:16.919 --> 09:30:23.360
When I say three, mm hmm.

3219
09:30:27.160 --> 09:30:41.040
I honestly when I say one, beat that number. Now,

3220
09:30:41.199 --> 09:30:46.720
of course, when you do this on your own without

3221
09:30:46.839 --> 09:30:51.800
listening to me, I can say the numbers or whatever

3222
09:30:53.440 --> 09:31:01.959
speed the y FI it's necessary for you, so you

3223
09:31:02.040 --> 09:31:07.959
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

3224
09:31:08.160 --> 09:31:09.400
numbers ten.

3225
09:31:09.519 --> 09:31:15.800
Down to one faster than I did, then you.

3226
09:31:15.839 --> 09:31:19.639
Go ahead and do that. What if you feel when

3227
09:31:19.639 --> 09:31:25.480
you do it yourself, do you like have more more

3228
09:31:25.760 --> 09:31:33.160
space between the numbers, Maybe take a lot longer to.

3229
09:31:33.279 --> 09:31:43.360
Get them ten all the way down to one. That's

3230
09:31:43.519 --> 09:31:44.160
your choice.

3231
09:31:44.239 --> 09:31:45.120
All say it to do.

3232
09:31:55.160 --> 09:31:57.839
So I'm going to count ten down to one.

3233
09:32:03.760 --> 09:32:04.639
We get to one.

3234
09:32:06.000 --> 09:32:12.760
The hook with this recording the mscles you're listening to

3235
09:32:12.959 --> 09:33:02.080
music and the musical continue. Yeah, no, Y.

3236
09:34:30.720 --> 09:35:32.639
Four assassa.

3237
09:35:19.879 --> 09:38:01.400
Assassssssssssss sit.

3238
09:37:00.319 --> 09:38:11.760
Nineteen eighteen, sixteen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

3239
09:38:16.519 --> 09:38:17.000
Four.

3240
09:38:21.080 --> 09:38:26.800
Three two.

3241
09:38:33.040 --> 09:38:52.440
One Now opin eyes, lets the physically filed having counts

3242
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down in twenty to one, allowing stress attention.

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To lead through your fingertips and your tastes.

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And as you focus on your fingertips.

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Maybe they feel a little bit singly, which is it's

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it's got an understanding considering attention has been exiting your

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body through your fingertips. So now I'm going to count

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from twenty down to one again. It's time.

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For you to feel relief at tension and stress and

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the anxiety that you may have leading through your stomach.

3251
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Just leading through your stomach, almost as if it's just

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releasing to hold your stomach naval to just above your

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chests or believed chests, rather to surrounding your.

3254
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Belly by the area, the whole area. You can build

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the tension of your body where's left. Just release from

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the area, and you may notice that your stomach will

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become very relaxed. As a countdown from twenty down to one, yeah.

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Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, six, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve.

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Eleven, ten, nine eight seven six nine four three h.

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Yeah, what.

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Can be nice?

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Again?

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If you choose people, just keep them clothed because the

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girl's relaxing This made us say, your stomach girls.

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Mad.

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This is your focus, just dottle skin in your body.

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It's made to say your body, girls.

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Focus like a body. Back chest, stop