May 30, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1362 | 30th May 2025
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Hello, Welcome to Finny making noise in the background. Welcome

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to Jason new Land dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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This is let me boy to sleep Q and a

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Friday EF and I've got a little bit of a

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different setup. Well to start with, I'm filming it for

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some reason. Don't ask me why. I don't know why.

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I never know why. I never know why. I do

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a lot of things. Really, there's some background stuff and

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I was hoping to have the cause I've basically got

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the camera. I've got the window in front of me,

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so I've got natural light. Now. It just means the

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backgrounds a little bit mm hmm, messy a bit, and

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I'm warm. I ain't got any any lights on nothing.

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Having a sunshine on my face probably does it, doesn't it.

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So what I'm going to do is did I say

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only listen and you can safely close or eyes? Hopefully

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I did. I'm looking down here because that's where my

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laptop is, and this is where all the Christians are

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in case you wondered, So I hope you will, just

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to let you know. I mean you probably already may

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be a member, but I've got a Jason Newland's boring

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group on Facebook, and also got a YouTube channel at

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Jason new Land. That's it, really, I'm sure that takes

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longer normally, I do. I mean I do. Also also

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also also have the website, so I had a few

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stuff going on with the website, changed things around, and

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what I've done is it's all been up, it's all back.

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I did the recording yesterday, but I decided not to

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upload it because it, you know, wasn't wasn't quite what

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I wanted it to be. And you may query that thinking, well,

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you mean the ones that you actually upload are to

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your satisfaction. Oh, took Finnie out for a walk for

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an hour, out for an hour, nice lovely. Went out

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early about about half seven, got back about half eight.

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It's now eighteen minutes past ten. Oh gas lovely. So

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all the changes I did has all gone back to

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how it was. So the podcasts are back how they were,

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the website's back how it was, Everything's back to exactly

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how it was at the beginning.

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Of the week.

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Yeah, So that's it really. So if you haven't watched

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or listened or had any you know, had any contact

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since the beginning of the week, then there'd be no change,

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no change. So what I'm going to do, I'm going

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to go through the recordings of the questions in my

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vidual air. So today is Friday, the thirtieth, thirtieth of May.

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How many days is there in this month? Thirty one? Right,

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So next week Tuesday? Okay, all right, so thirty one.

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So it's it's the first on Sunday, twenty twenty five.

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So the first question I got is from Hope and

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it is what got you interested in? No, wait a minute,

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I'm doing it from the wrong. I want to do

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the first ones first. So I want to go to

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Hillary first, because Hillary asked the first question. I'd just

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like to do things in a certain order. Hillary. Also,

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I want to say thank you for the PayPal gift

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that I received, but I didn't. I don't know who

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sent it. I do, but I don't if that makes sense.

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There is no email address to reply. And also I

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was looking through my emails to see because I would

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have responded, and I think I'm perasly going to have

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to go through Facebook. It just gets like confusing. So

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if you can contact me, please so I can say

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thank you. And I think it's just get I get confused. Sometimes,

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especially when I look in the mirror. Hillary asks, really

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sad that you're not using a word BlimE me anymore. Also,

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what would you do if you won the lottery?

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Oh?

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Wow, I've had fantasies about this, and I'm sure I'm

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not the only one, so blimey. I. I mean it

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depends on how much a one, so I guess it's

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a fantasy or win like huge amounts. I mean, you know,

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one hundred grand would be a huge amount to me.

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A million would be a huge amount. But you know,

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I'm thinking, like in order to do what I want

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to do in order to share it. So the very

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first thing I would do is I'd probably just maybe

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give my dad a few quid maybe like get together. No,

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I thought, and this is something that I should have. Yeah,

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it's kind of two beginnings to this. The first one

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is where I say, right, the money never had money before,

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So that money's going to see I read my faces,

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it's going outside. It's just to catch the sun I

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burn in the winter. Seriously, that's kind of skin I got.

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So I like the idea. Wow, see how dusty this is?

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BlimE me. I didn't realize is it dusty? Is it

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just the light shining on it. I think it might

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just be the light shining on it. Yes, I think

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there's a bit of both. I think it's the light.

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Actually it probably is dusty as well. So I'm talking

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about the microphone grip thing at the top. For those

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listening on the podcast. My fantasy is first of all,

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to get either get everyone together in one place, invite

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everyone to a party, get them picked up wherever they

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are in the country, picked up by chauffeur and brought

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to this place, and then hand out money to everyone.

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That's like a little fantasy. But there's the I suppose

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there's another part of me he thinks, well, my best

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my best move would be too. I think if if

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I was to win a lot of money, you need

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to splash out a little bit. You need to have

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a good time initially to celebrate even you know, I

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don't mean spend lots of money, but just need to

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do something, go on holiday, or you know, buy myself

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a really good camera or you know for video in

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I don't know, something like that. Maybe by this place

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here's something that would be like an initial thing. So

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that would mean that because that would give me security

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in the future. So if I do was to blow

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through it, or at least i'd have a home. But

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I quite like the idea of just stepping back, going away,

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and I don't necessarily mean a holiday. I always used

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to think, maybe some kind of health club for six

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months or three months, go away from everything. It probably

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wouldn't be able to do that with Vinnie, so i'd

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have to get rid of him. Yeah, this is what

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I thought about before I had Vinnie and Andre. So

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this is something I thought about a lot over the years.

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It's a little fantasy. I like to just go to

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sleep too sometimes just thinking about all the good things

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I could do, you know. But I thought maybe have

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a step back instead of because you know, a million

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pounds is a phenomenal amount of money, but at the

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same time, if you break it down, it's three thousand

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pounds a day for a year, or three thousand, three

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hundred whatever, it's not that much. Just it's be easy

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to spend three thousand pounds a day just going to

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really expensive restaurants and stuff like. You know. I mean,

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if you were buying a really expensive coat an item

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of clothing, go and buy a watch that would cost

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like one hundred grand or fifty grand you So, I mean,

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so you could get through it in a year if

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I wasn't careful. So I'd have to be careful. And

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I think people are used to having money are better

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with money. There's an old saying, an old saying that

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if you took because you know, there's this whole thing,

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why why is I need two percent of the world

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got two percent of the world have got something like

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ninety five percent of the of the of the wealth

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or ninety percent of the wealth. But some economic experts

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have kind of got their heads together and said, well,

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if you spread all that money out between everybody in

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the world, that money would still end up back into

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that percentage. And I can kind of understand that because

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to never have had money it would be I mean

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even to have so if I like a five thousand

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pound would be like winning the lottery in a way,

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you know, So to step back, and I think this

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would be a time when I would actually go and

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listen to my dad. I go to my dad and

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I get his advice because he's always been really good

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with money. So I think I would I would sweat

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like I am today. I think the heating is on.

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Why is the heating on. It's it's gone off, but

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it's not. It's it's been on. That's why it's hot.

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BlimE me. See, I'm going to try and say it

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throughout this recording. BlimE me, BlimE me, BlimE me. I

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think I quite like the idea of going away. So

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maybe I couldn't go and leave Vinnie on his own

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for any length of time because it's not fair on him.

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But I definitely do a couple of weeks away and

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I'd need a holiday, So I go away for a

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couple of weeks, pay someone to look after him here,

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stay in my flat for that period of time. I

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don't know who, but someone that I trusted again, that's

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going to I don't know who I could trust to

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do that, but I'd find someone and then go away

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for a couple of weeks just to think things over,

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just to figure out what I'm going to do next,

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to plan it, you know. Then I would go. I

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suppose the first people would go and see would be

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my dad. I would try and get my dad to

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get everyone together like immediate family, and then I would

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I'd speak to my dad first about the money, and

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I would give him so if I if I won

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lots and lots, then I would give him a big amount,

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and I would the people I would give money to

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at the very beginning would be my brother. In fact,

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I would track down the other two brothers and give

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money to them as well, and so i'd give I'll

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give money to all three brothers, and then my step

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brother and stepsister give them money, So that would be

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six people to give money to my dad. I mean

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that would be shared with his wife anyway, with my

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step mom, so that's for the two of them, so

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that six loads of money would be gone. I'd probably

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then also give money to my first step mom via

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my little brother, so give him the money to give

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to her. And I would also give money to my

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step uncle or I haven't seen since I was a teenager,

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but he was so lovely, so I would give him

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money because I think he's according to my brother, he's

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not doing so great, so I would help him out.

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And then I would go and give money to both

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my aunties and my uncle. So I kind of work

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my way down, not down, but like go for the

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obvious people, even though I don't really have much contact

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with any of them, but still my relatives. So I

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give them money. Then, well, I thinking it'd be cool

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if I had like millions and millions and millions, So

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give them like fifty grand each, because that's a substantial

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amount to actually potentially make a difference to their life.

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It might not, but I'm thinking it might in the

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sense of they can at least go on holiday, going

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toward the world, travel the world, go on a few

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holidays with that, I imagine. I don't know how much

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holiday would be for a couple to go on holiday.

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I don't know. I've never gone on holiday as a couple.

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I've never done a cruise, like my dad likes cruises.

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My dad likes to cruise, so I don't know. There

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can be quite expensive. I know, I doll So I mean,

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I would like to travel the world on a cruise,

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but there's no way in the world I'm leaving Vinnie

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Vinnie's That won't happen while I've got Vinnie, because that

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would be like a six month, six month thing, you know.

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I mean, I could go off for the odd week

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and stuff, which I probably would do, but I'm not

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gonna leave the little penguin. I'm just trying to think

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what's in the background there's a lot of rubbish in

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the background here, I might try and edit it so

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that the background is blank or blue or green or something.

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I might try and do that on a video. I

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don't know how easy it is to do that. So

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then what I'd do is I would then move to

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probably aim at cousins, send money to the cousins that

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I've had contact with, maybe even give money to to

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cousins that I haven't seen since I was a kid,

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just because they're family, you know, just like just give

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them some money. So I've got probably one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,

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eight nine, put about ten cousins I have contact with one.

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But yeah, there's a couple that I haven't seen for years,

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but I was very very close to them, so I'd

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give them money. I'd also give their mum money as well.

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So I lived with her for four years and she

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did help me out. Annoyed the hell out of me,

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and I annoyed her, but she did help me out,

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So I do you know, now I appreciate it. Maybe

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at the time I did as well, but we just

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used to annoy each other. So I'd give I give

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her money, give her kids money, I give the dad

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money as well, because I've gotten very well with him

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as well. So I give all of them money to

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do what they want with it. So i'd like to,

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you know, if it was ten grand even, you know,

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I give something so that could I'm literally dripping. The

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radio is aren't on. They're warm, but they're not on,

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if you know what I mean. I can't if I

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got got up and turned it off, it wouldn't click

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because it is turned off. But why did it come on? Yes,

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So I that's one way of doing it. And then

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I would give money to friends. So I'd start with

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family first. Technically friends, I would say possibly is the beginning,

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because that anyone that I see on a regular basis

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is in some ways closer than family in a way.

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I mean, I have more conversation with dog walkers and

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i'd do with my own family, but more meaningful conversations

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as well sometimes, but that's just because they don't. No

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one lives near me, and you know, I don't go out,

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I don't go very don't travel very far. I'll get

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myself a chauffeur and I'll buy myself a very expensive car.

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I don't know I would need. I think I quite

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like the idea of having a taxi driver. So if

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there was someone that I knew that I liked to

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be my taxi driver and just drive me around if

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I needed to drive around, and hm, I would This

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is going to take the whole record and just talking

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about my fantasies, isn't it. I yeah, I think taking

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a step back would be very very useful, taking a

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step back and like, okay, go away for a couple

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of weeks. I'd have to tell someone. Who would I

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tell if I won the lottery? Who would I tell?

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Probably everybody. To be fair, I'll tell you first. I would.

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You're the first person i'd tell, and obviously have to

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let the certain people know. The thing is, I think

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I'd keep a little bit quiet because as soon as

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not not publicly, but family wise or friends. I think

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if I told anyone that I'd won the lottery and

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it was a big amount of money, wouldn't they expect

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something from me? I mean they would be getting something

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from him because I could not. You know, it's how

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good you're not, It's not I had a friend won

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five grand five grand on a lottery ticket once and

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it didn't even buy a meal or nothing, just like,

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I couldn't have done that. I'd have just at least

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got a Chinese takeaway for everyone or took everyone out

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for a meal. This is where I lived. There was

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only like four of us living there, so I can't

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take us all out. That's going to cost what one

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hundred quid back then? This was in nineteen sixty three.

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I'm trying to think, Yeah, so that I would. I

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don't have any big purchases that I would want. I

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wouldn't want a boat, not really into this two I like,

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I like ferries or to be on a cruise ship,

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love all that stuff. I wouldn't want to be on

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a boat, So that's a purchase I wouldn't make. I

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wouldn't buy a plane. And if I had a substantial

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amount of money, then I would start flying first class.

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I've never I've never flown comfortably before, so that would

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be definitely something that I would do. What else I

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probably i'd want to move away from here. I think

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I would buy this place and then I just have

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it as my It might seem sound bad, have it

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like as a storage or have it as a I

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don't know. Maybe I wouldn't. Maybe i'd just move on

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get myself a place, or maybe buy this and just

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let someone live here for free. I don't know, because

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that kind of goes against my ethos. Try not to

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bang the the microphone. Thanks Finn, he's on the ground.

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I would. With a counsel property. It seems kind of

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wrong for the government or for the councils to sell

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them because it doesn't take into consideration future people that

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are going to need council properties. And you know, in

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my mind, they shouldn't have ever really been sold off

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because council properties were for everyone. They weren't. Now they

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seemed to be aimed at people like me, but they

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used to be aimed at people that worked. It was

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for people like my granddad, and my dad had families

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and they had a council house and social housing, and

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it was just that's how it was. And in the

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eighties or whatever, and they kind of started selling them

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properties off, but they didn't build new places to replace

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the council houses and the council flats that we're gone.

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I'm not getting into politics, it's just I don't It

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just seems seems kind of wrong to buy it because

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that's one person less that won't be able to live here,

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but then it'd be seen it seemed kind of wrong

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to stay here, which I would be allowed. I don't

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have to. There's no law to say that someone with

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money isn't allowed to have a council flat as long

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as you pay the rent, you know so, but that

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seems kind of wrong as well. If I had, you know,

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a substantial amount of money to still be living in

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a council property social housing, I don't know. I definitely

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wouldn't move out straight away. I left to see how

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long the money lasted, you know. So I think from

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a strategic so I've got to be strategic, but at

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the same time realistic because I'm not in the thirties,

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am I. You know, it's okay. I could put my money,

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put half of it or three caupters of it into

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some kind of bank account that's going to give me

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high interest, but it might have to stay in there

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for ten years or something silly like that. I'll be

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sixty five when I can get that money out. You know.

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There's no guarantees, is there. So I don't know if

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I would want to necessarily do that. I think Hillary

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you was more interested in what silly things I would do,

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aren't you? I think possibly what silly things would I do?

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I would definitely not have the heating on in the summer.

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It's nearly June. Why is the heating come on? Mind you?

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It has been cold, it's been cold at night, and

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then it's just the temperatures changes. If anyone that's never

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been to this country, we have seasons, but we have

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multiple seasons in one day sometimes and it might sound silly,

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but asking anyone that lives here and they will tell

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you the same thing. You know, it can feel like winter, summer,

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autumn all in one days like changes. The day can

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start off frosty and ice on the cars, and then

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by one o'clock in the afternoon it could be steaming

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sun and people are walking around and there's shorts and

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little nipple tassels and stuff. And then in the evening

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it can be kind of like really windy and blowing

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winds off Autumn not fall autumn. I don't know where

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it comes from, which came first autumn or fall. I

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wonder whether four is just invented in order to make

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that rhyme rhyme, you know, for people to remember what's

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what for when the clocks go forward. Do you know

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that what I'm talking about? No spring back, no fall back,

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fall back, spring forward. So you put the clocks forward

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in spring and the clock's going out back in fall.

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But it makes no sense in this country because we

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don't use the term fall. We use autumn. My friend

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used to love and when I say how many days

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in this year? How many days in this month? Bearing

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in mind it's the thirtieth today, So is all I'm

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asking is this the last day of the month or

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is it one more day? You know what? He wouldn't

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just say, oh there's one more day. No, No April,

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May and June, November forty days, thirty days in September,

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whatever that that stupid rhyme is? I said, so how

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many days in this month? I just told you again

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you're fit to be moved year in November. I'm not

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listening to you. Could you tell me what the how

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many days are? And in the end, I just have

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to go on my phone and look, it's like I

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wasn't at school on that day. It's not in my head.

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I'm sorry. It's like when do you get someone that

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you're talking to like? And he said, oh, what's what's

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the name. I forget the name, and they said it's Ian.

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The person's name is Ian. I don't want you telling

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me that. You're telling me like I'm supposed to remember.

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If I didn't know by now, why am I going

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to remember? Because you said it like, I don't care

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what the name is. I don't know what the name is.

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When I say I don't know, I'm not asking what

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it is. I don't know, and I still don't know.

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But I've told you it's Ian. I still don't know.

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I mean, I know now, but I won't know after

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this conversation's gone. Actually, after that conversation, I probably did

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remember it because I just said Ian because it was

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annoying conversation. M. Yeah, there's some method in that one,

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isn't there. I supposed this that makes sense. So if

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I won the lottery plastic surgery, probably I don't know.

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I definitely I wouldn't. Ah. I think I try and

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get myself a bit fitter and maybe get some professional

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help with that. I get some professional therapy as well,

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because you know, I'm not sure. I'm not sure how

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how I would deal with being wealthy, but ultimately I

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want to continue doing this. So this is the only

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thing that has any meaning to me, which is weird

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because some would argue this is a completely meaningless thing

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that I do. But for me, it's the only thing

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that gets me out of bed and gives me any

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kind of enthusiasm or interest, you know, like continuously. You

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know this, when boxing's on is a big fight, I'm

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interested in that. And when there's a chocolate bar in

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front of me about to go in my mouth, I'm

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interested in that, you know. But I mean, like continuous

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since two thousand and six, making videos, making recordings, and

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going all the way back to nineteen ninety seven or

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ninety eight when I first got involved in this whole thing.

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So I don't know, it's there's so many different things.

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I'd like to help as many people as I can ultimately,

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and that might involve getting some professionals involved with this

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thing that I do, getting a proper quality set up,

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you know, recording studio, TV studio, whatever to make the videos,

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make the audio, have professionals doing the editing and all

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that stuff, and maybe reach a larger audience and perhaps

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help more people be bored. Maybe. Yeah, I mean, I

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quite like the idea of when I right at the

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beginning when I said get a party, have a party,

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get everyone together, get everyone that I've known, and this

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includes people that I'm not even friends with anymore. So

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I've got a friend in Nottingham who doesn't like me anymore,

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but I do appreciate the friendship we had, you know,

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twenty thirty years ago, so and he did help me

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out back then, so I would give him money. I

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would probably even try and contact a couple of ex

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girlfriends and give them money. I think anyone that's anyone

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that's been a girlfriend with one of my girlfriends deserves

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deserves a bit of my lottery. Wind to be fair,

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have putting up with me for that time. My two

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goddaughters who I don't really see anymore, not official god daughters,

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but because I'm a Buddhist, so the mother wouldn't do it,

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she wouldn't go, she wouldn't allow me to officially be

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a godfather. But I was kind of in that same

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way I was for a while, So I would give

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them some money, help them out, and try and find

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people from the past and also help them out. So

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even like my best friend from school that I haven't

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seen since I was eighteen nineteen, give him money. In fact,

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there's a few that I would give money to even

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if it was I don't have to see them. I

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just send them money. I get some kind of an

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accountancy to go and give them the cash and get

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them to sign for it and stuff and film it.

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I don't necessarily want to be there when it's done.

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And I would also get a private investigator, pay a

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private investigator, like a top top top one to just

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do some research and look into my family history on

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my mother's side and start to see I've got any

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we've ever got any brothers or sisters or anything like that,

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any family that's surround you know, because that's half of

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my gene pool, isn't it? So be Yeah, that'd be interesting.

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I'd like to also get that person to find any

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social social services information about me when I was in care.

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I'd like to see those notes. I'd like to see

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their records if they kept them. These are the seventies,

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so I don't know if they'd still have them now.

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But I did get an freedom of information thing with

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my because i'd seen a psychiatrist back in two thousand

471
00:38:19.440 --> 00:38:33.400
and thirteen, twenty thirteen, and twenty fourteen, stuff like that,

472
00:38:36.159 --> 00:38:39.199
and the I'd had a lot of problems with the colors.

473
00:38:39.320 --> 00:38:44.679
So psychiatrists are very rude to me, very dismissive, and

474
00:38:45.159 --> 00:38:49.480
almost one even like was looked in disgust that something

475
00:38:49.519 --> 00:38:54.760
I'd said was like, yeah, so I thought I would

476
00:38:55.360 --> 00:39:00.800
ask for all the notes that are being written about me,

477
00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:08.360
and it was quite an eye opening stuff as also

478
00:39:09.159 --> 00:39:13.519
it was rude some of the stuff that they wrote down.

479
00:39:16.079 --> 00:39:18.119
So I'm wondering if I could quite try and do

480
00:39:18.239 --> 00:39:23.440
that with notes from a long time ago. So I'd

481
00:39:23.440 --> 00:39:27.000
need professional help with that. A lot of people say

482
00:39:27.039 --> 00:39:32.400
that I need professional help. So that's that I could

483
00:39:32.400 --> 00:39:34.159
go on and no, no, on, no, because there's lots

484
00:39:34.199 --> 00:39:37.719
of different things that I would like to do, but

485
00:39:38.320 --> 00:39:43.079
I still like to continue what I'm doing, really, but

486
00:39:43.320 --> 00:39:48.519
just have a nice life, do some nice things, you know,

487
00:39:49.159 --> 00:40:02.000
have some nice clothes and I don't know, hair transplant

488
00:40:02.000 --> 00:40:08.960
maybe I don't know, something like that. Michelle asks when

489
00:40:09.000 --> 00:40:13.440
you aren't recording, do you have conversations with Vinnie or

490
00:40:13.599 --> 00:40:16.440
just quiet? Yeah. I talked to him all the time,

491
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:24.519
and it's quieter than when I am doing a recording.

492
00:40:25.719 --> 00:40:28.800
I mean, that's true, it's there's not a lot of

493
00:40:32.199 --> 00:40:34.880
he does sleep quite a lot, but we do chat.

494
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:37.760
I do talk to him as if he can understand.

495
00:40:38.719 --> 00:40:41.360
I don't know. I mean, he's asleep now right to

496
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:44.039
the left of me. It's fast asleep on the floor,

497
00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:46.880
which is weird that he chooses to sleep right next

498
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:49.920
to me because there's this comfy sofa over there, and

499
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:52.519
if you see on the just down there, there's a

500
00:40:52.639 --> 00:40:57.639
yellow it was originally the throw for the settee so

501
00:40:57.719 --> 00:40:59.760
that he could sit on that while I did a video.

502
00:41:00.639 --> 00:41:04.400
But it's really comfortable. It's on the floor. I can't

503
00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:09.400
believe how red I look. I can't even see my face.

504
00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:14.320
The light is no I can see my face, but

505
00:41:14.360 --> 00:41:21.480
it just looks one big like a tomato. Yeah, I

506
00:41:21.519 --> 00:41:25.239
do you talk to him? I quite like it. When

507
00:41:25.239 --> 00:41:30.000
he turns his head like that, you know, That's that's

508
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:33.000
when I know I've got his full attention. And another

509
00:41:33.000 --> 00:41:36.320
thing he does do is when I'm watching TV, he

510
00:41:36.400 --> 00:41:38.559
will sit up on his barm and look at me

511
00:41:38.639 --> 00:41:42.400
because he wants something, whether he wants a t R

512
00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:46.199
E E E E T or a W A n

513
00:41:46.880 --> 00:41:52.960
W A l K. But what he does is he

514
00:41:53.039 --> 00:41:56.519
stands that he sits there stares at me, and I

515
00:41:56.599 --> 00:41:59.559
kind of try and move my feet or my my

516
00:41:59.559 --> 00:42:04.039
male my leg, elbow, my knee up to it blocks

517
00:42:04.119 --> 00:42:06.039
him and he walked around the other way to stare

518
00:42:06.079 --> 00:42:11.079
at me. Doesn't make a sound, He just stares at me.

519
00:42:11.400 --> 00:42:14.400
And he can do it for hours. Seriously, he doesn't

520
00:42:14.440 --> 00:42:24.880
give up, just dares. It's very weird. That's when I

521
00:42:24.920 --> 00:42:26.920
sort of say, what was it you want? What is

522
00:42:26.920 --> 00:42:30.199
it you want, darling? What is it you want? And

523
00:42:30.239 --> 00:42:35.360
I go through different things and he's like noding his

524
00:42:35.440 --> 00:42:40.800
head from his side to side, like one ear flapping.

525
00:42:43.199 --> 00:42:47.239
So yeah, I do talk to him. I don't know

526
00:42:47.280 --> 00:42:49.519
if he I don't know if he likes me talking

527
00:42:49.559 --> 00:42:54.840
to him, I don't know. But he doesn't like me

528
00:42:54.920 --> 00:42:57.639
leaving him. Doesn't like me leaving him on his own,

529
00:42:58.320 --> 00:43:03.039
that's for sure. The other day, I think it was yesterday,

530
00:43:03.079 --> 00:43:06.280
I had an Amazon package and all I did was

531
00:43:06.440 --> 00:43:08.880
go to the front door. So I closed the living

532
00:43:08.960 --> 00:43:13.639
room door, went to the front door, opened the front door,

533
00:43:14.559 --> 00:43:19.000
got the package, brought it in. It was just some toothpaste,

534
00:43:19.119 --> 00:43:25.320
some some deodorant, I can't remember what I He had

535
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:28.079
some dog food as well, so I put that just

536
00:43:28.159 --> 00:43:31.280
two boxes. I put them on the floor, closed the

537
00:43:31.280 --> 00:43:36.039
front door, locked it, and went into the bathroom. He's

538
00:43:36.079 --> 00:43:37.719
and I need to go to a toilet and he

539
00:43:37.800 --> 00:43:47.559
starts like that, Vinny, I'm here, Vinny, I'm actually here.

540
00:43:47.599 --> 00:43:53.960
I'm in the bathroom. It's like it's like almost like

541
00:43:54.039 --> 00:43:57.480
his ears had switched off and he just decided that

542
00:43:57.519 --> 00:44:03.679
i'd left him, which I hadn't. Sometimes right, and this

543
00:44:03.800 --> 00:44:08.320
is really it's a bit silly. Really, Well, I've got

544
00:44:08.320 --> 00:44:17.320
to take the rubbish downstairs, He'll start. And what I

545
00:44:17.400 --> 00:44:20.679
do is I talk to him all the way while

546
00:44:20.679 --> 00:44:25.920
I'm going downstairs. Vinie, I'm still here, and he's quiet listening. Vinnie,

547
00:44:25.920 --> 00:44:29.039
I'm still here. It's like I shouldn't have to do that.

548
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:31.719
He is he's a baby. I guess he's still a

549
00:44:31.760 --> 00:44:34.599
little baby, still a little he's all he'll always be

550
00:44:34.639 --> 00:44:39.760
a baby when he always be my baby? Uh, Carina,

551
00:44:41.239 --> 00:44:44.719
have you ever been to Ireland? And if so, did

552
00:44:44.760 --> 00:44:49.000
you like it? Yes? And no? No? Yeah? I have

553
00:44:50.079 --> 00:44:55.480
been to Ireland twice and I am forty eight percent Irish.

554
00:44:55.519 --> 00:45:01.760
You know, I am forty percent Irish officially, and I

555
00:45:01.800 --> 00:45:10.800
had my DNA test done. We may be related. I

556
00:45:10.960 --> 00:45:14.599
went to Ireland basically I went to live but it

557
00:45:14.599 --> 00:45:16.840
didn't really work out, so I came back after about

558
00:45:17.039 --> 00:45:23.039
five weeks. But I moved to Ireland in probably September

559
00:45:23.519 --> 00:45:28.480
nineteen eighty no nineteen ninety four, a long time ago.

560
00:45:31.039 --> 00:45:37.400
And what happened is my best friend Andrea, who Andrea

561
00:45:37.559 --> 00:45:40.320
was named after. My little ferry was named after him.

562
00:45:40.920 --> 00:45:47.079
He was Irish, lived in Carlo, County Carlo, that's where

563
00:45:47.079 --> 00:45:54.800
his family came from. Now. His sister was living with

564
00:45:55.280 --> 00:46:00.280
another friend of mine, and Andrea was living with to

565
00:46:02.480 --> 00:46:09.079
Then this someone came onto the scene and really kind

566
00:46:09.119 --> 00:46:13.119
of shook things up and Andre ended up getting sacked

567
00:46:13.599 --> 00:46:16.800
for something that he was kind of egged on to do.

568
00:46:16.880 --> 00:46:20.039
It was like a bit it's a silly situation. It

569
00:46:20.239 --> 00:46:22.239
was a health and safety issue, so they kind of

570
00:46:22.280 --> 00:46:25.880
probably had no choice. But he went downhill from there

571
00:46:26.079 --> 00:46:30.480
and he moved in with this bloke that we lived,

572
00:46:30.599 --> 00:46:34.199
that we worked with, and he was just drinking all

573
00:46:34.280 --> 00:46:35.960
time and it was just he kind of went off

574
00:46:36.000 --> 00:46:40.880
the rails. His mum came to visit, stayed with his

575
00:46:40.960 --> 00:46:45.480
sister and when she saw him, her little boy, I

576
00:46:45.519 --> 00:46:47.760
mean he was twenty four at the time, but when

577
00:46:47.800 --> 00:46:51.360
she saw what a messy was she said, you're coming

578
00:46:51.400 --> 00:46:57.280
home with me, like no choice. She said, that's it,

579
00:46:57.400 --> 00:47:01.039
You're coming home. You're not living like this, because he was.

580
00:47:01.320 --> 00:47:05.360
He was sleeping in a set, yeah, in this was it?

581
00:47:05.559 --> 00:47:11.079
So for bed downstairs? And yeah, she said, you're not

582
00:47:11.119 --> 00:47:14.440
living like this or you're doing is drinking And so

583
00:47:15.559 --> 00:47:20.199
they were here for about two weeks. I mean, she

584
00:47:20.239 --> 00:47:22.760
didn't she wasn't holding his ear or anything, but came

585
00:47:22.800 --> 00:47:27.960
on you. But he just did what she said, and

586
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:34.360
he didn't want to leave me really, however sad or

587
00:47:34.400 --> 00:47:38.480
weird that might sound, but she his mum invited me

588
00:47:38.559 --> 00:47:45.400
to go and stay there in Ireland. I didn't go

589
00:47:45.480 --> 00:47:54.880
at the same time as them because I don't know why.

590
00:47:55.039 --> 00:47:59.320
I can't remember exactly why, but I think I needed

591
00:47:59.320 --> 00:48:03.519
to sort a few things out first. I was in

592
00:48:03.559 --> 00:48:10.760
a relationship as well. Yeah, I think I went to

593
00:48:10.840 --> 00:48:13.079
tell her. Yeah, I think I had to go and

594
00:48:13.119 --> 00:48:16.519
tell her that I was moving to Ireland. I was

595
00:48:16.519 --> 00:48:18.840
going to keep the relation. I did keep the relationship going,

596
00:48:20.639 --> 00:48:23.519
but there was absolutely no contact between us, so it

597
00:48:23.559 --> 00:48:31.719
wasn't really a relationship, I suppose, and it kind of

598
00:48:31.760 --> 00:48:34.480
sizzled out to nothing anyway, because we weren't anywhere near

599
00:48:34.480 --> 00:48:37.400
each other, so that but that she did call me

600
00:48:37.440 --> 00:48:38.960
while I was in Ireland to tell me she'd met

601
00:48:39.000 --> 00:48:43.000
someone else, and you know, I was kind of like,

602
00:48:43.039 --> 00:48:46.800
who is this? Who is this? She said, I mean

603
00:48:46.800 --> 00:48:50.280
your girlfriend? Like, oh, yeah, I forgot we were dating,

604
00:48:51.440 --> 00:48:53.599
So it wasn't really a big deal. When I did

605
00:48:53.639 --> 00:48:56.360
move back, I visited and met him and he was cool.

606
00:48:57.440 --> 00:49:00.199
Got on really well with him. I just did. It

607
00:49:00.280 --> 00:49:02.280
was it was one of those things that it had

608
00:49:02.400 --> 00:49:08.440
run its course, I guess, but I went. So I

609
00:49:08.480 --> 00:49:12.280
went to Ireland. I got the ferry there, got a

610
00:49:12.360 --> 00:49:14.719
lift back in a van, in the back of a van,

611
00:49:17.400 --> 00:49:19.280
but it was it was one of those vans with

612
00:49:19.400 --> 00:49:22.559
no windows in the back, so I didn't see anything.

613
00:49:22.559 --> 00:49:25.519
I didn't know where I was going. I don't know

614
00:49:25.559 --> 00:49:33.920
why they blindfolded me. And to start with, we was

615
00:49:34.039 --> 00:49:37.199
in Carlo, but we weren't at his parents. We was

616
00:49:37.480 --> 00:49:43.039
his other sisters and her husband. So we both stayed

617
00:49:43.039 --> 00:49:50.320
there for that night. Then we went and I went

618
00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:54.440
to his mum's house or she might come and picked

619
00:49:54.480 --> 00:49:57.519
us up. So I met his dad and his mum

620
00:49:57.920 --> 00:50:01.400
for the first time, though his mum might have been there.

621
00:50:02.199 --> 00:50:05.719
No I don't can't remember. I can't remember, but I

622
00:50:05.760 --> 00:50:08.800
think I met his dad for the first time. His dad.

623
00:50:10.480 --> 00:50:15.280
It was weird because his dad was very, very tough man.

624
00:50:15.599 --> 00:50:19.119
That they were kind of the tough family of the town,

625
00:50:20.119 --> 00:50:27.119
the Doolies at the time. And the weird thing about

626
00:50:27.119 --> 00:50:30.360
it is his dad's I think his dad found out

627
00:50:30.360 --> 00:50:35.239
I thought I was quite funny, and also because I

628
00:50:35.280 --> 00:50:38.679
wasn't intimidated by him. I'm just a huge strong man

629
00:50:39.360 --> 00:50:43.239
and I probably weighed about what nine and a half

630
00:50:43.320 --> 00:50:46.119
stone probably at the time, maybe ten stone if that.

631
00:50:48.159 --> 00:50:53.719
It was a huge, honestly big strong man and tough

632
00:50:53.760 --> 00:50:57.280
guy in that and he used to say things to me,

633
00:50:57.679 --> 00:51:02.840
probably expected me to, I don't know, maybe be intimidated

634
00:51:02.960 --> 00:51:05.840
or whatever, and I just laughed at him. And because

635
00:51:05.880 --> 00:51:08.559
he I think he just found that funny that I

636
00:51:08.599 --> 00:51:13.679
didn't care. I wasn't bothered, you know, and which I wasn't.

637
00:51:14.639 --> 00:51:19.679
Just I don't really get intimidated generally. Perhaps I should,

638
00:51:20.920 --> 00:51:26.000
but I got on quite well with him. We even

639
00:51:26.079 --> 00:51:29.159
went to the dogs because he was he used to

640
00:51:29.199 --> 00:51:32.320
train greyhounds and we went to the dogs together. It

641
00:51:32.360 --> 00:51:34.920
took me. It was a nice I've never been to

642
00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:38.599
anything like that before, and bearing in mind, I couldn't

643
00:51:38.639 --> 00:51:43.880
understand like only every fourth word he said because he

644
00:51:43.960 --> 00:51:46.440
was speaking so fast. But I still managed to do it.

645
00:51:46.480 --> 00:51:52.480
I still managed to I don't know adapt my ears.

646
00:51:52.519 --> 00:51:57.199
I guess so we Yeah, we got on all right.

647
00:51:57.960 --> 00:52:01.760
I mean he might have just been verbally abused me

648
00:52:01.800 --> 00:52:05.199
the whole time. I just didn't realize it because I

649
00:52:05.199 --> 00:52:07.519
couldn't understand what he was saying. So is me just

650
00:52:07.599 --> 00:52:13.440
laughing and he's thinking here crazy? What? Hell? Yeah, he's

651
00:52:13.480 --> 00:52:19.320
not scared of me. Why. I don't know. But his

652
00:52:19.400 --> 00:52:21.639
mom was nice. He's dead. I've got on all his

653
00:52:21.960 --> 00:52:30.280
he was dead, He's dire, and it's weird. I remember

654
00:52:30.320 --> 00:52:36.159
that house because it was Was it a bungalow? I

655
00:52:36.159 --> 00:52:38.320
think it was a bungalow. Either it was a bungalow

656
00:52:38.480 --> 00:52:47.280
or it wasn't. I only remember three rooms in the house.

657
00:52:48.280 --> 00:52:53.880
I don't remember the bathroom. I was there for five weeks.

658
00:52:53.960 --> 00:52:55.800
I must have gone to the toilet at some point.

659
00:52:58.159 --> 00:53:03.199
But I remember my room and it was you know

660
00:53:03.280 --> 00:53:05.599
by I just picked my ear at the end of

661
00:53:05.760 --> 00:53:08.480
night in camera. I wonder what else I've done of

662
00:53:08.559 --> 00:53:11.719
I've picked my nose probably as well. Sorry, how well.

663
00:53:12.920 --> 00:53:24.440
And I I remember it was cold. I mean it

664
00:53:24.480 --> 00:53:32.320
was September, but September is not normally cold really, but

665
00:53:32.400 --> 00:53:38.719
over there it was cold and lots of blankets, but

666
00:53:38.960 --> 00:53:43.639
very quiet. Where they lived is literally in the countryside.

667
00:53:43.800 --> 00:53:48.320
I mean I live in the countryside now, but they

668
00:53:48.400 --> 00:53:52.840
lived in the countryside. I mean it's like as countryside

669
00:53:52.880 --> 00:53:59.119
as you can get across the road country just trees,

670
00:53:59.400 --> 00:54:07.519
trees everywhere, so you could hear frogs farting, you know.

671
00:54:07.639 --> 00:54:12.360
It was that kind of thing and so quiet, and

672
00:54:12.480 --> 00:54:16.920
having lived in London for quite a long time at

673
00:54:16.920 --> 00:54:20.639
that point, it was the first time really that I'd

674
00:54:20.639 --> 00:54:28.440
ever been that I'd ever had a quiet night, a

675
00:54:28.480 --> 00:54:32.440
bit like now. It's not normally this quiet, but it's

676
00:54:32.519 --> 00:54:36.519
quiet today for some reason, and I'm making the best

677
00:54:36.880 --> 00:54:45.440
off that opportunity to do a recording. I remember the

678
00:54:45.559 --> 00:54:48.280
kitchen because quite a big kitchen, and there was a table,

679
00:54:49.480 --> 00:54:54.760
and they would eat the breakfast I think it was

680
00:54:54.760 --> 00:54:58.599
a cook breakfast. Then they'd have lunch, then they'd have

681
00:54:58.679 --> 00:55:02.559
dinner by evening meal, then they'd have supper. I think

682
00:55:02.679 --> 00:55:05.199
the lunchtime I'd get my own stuff because I'd be gone,

683
00:55:05.239 --> 00:55:07.760
i'd be out of the house, but there'd be supper

684
00:55:07.920 --> 00:55:10.199
before going to bed, like an hour or so before

685
00:55:10.280 --> 00:55:14.440
going to bed. I never done that before. I might

686
00:55:14.480 --> 00:55:16.880
have a packet of crisps or some biscuits, but I'd

687
00:55:16.880 --> 00:55:21.159
never have food and I'd probably put on a little

688
00:55:21.159 --> 00:55:25.480
bit of weight when I was out there. And then

689
00:55:26.480 --> 00:55:32.119
I remember the living room because they had a nice,

690
00:55:32.519 --> 00:55:36.079
nice living room. They had a TV, they had sky

691
00:55:36.880 --> 00:55:42.639
a sky you know, satellite stuff, and me and Andre would

692
00:55:42.679 --> 00:55:49.840
sit and watch Simpsons, would also watch Star Trek the

693
00:55:49.920 --> 00:55:54.880
Next Generation, and at some points would also watch Wonder

694
00:55:54.880 --> 00:55:59.599
Woman with the volume down, but you know, we would

695
00:55:59.599 --> 00:56:06.880
watch it. And I remember when I when I first

696
00:56:07.119 --> 00:56:12.719
got there, and I think Andre, I think she his mum,

697
00:56:12.840 --> 00:56:15.960
said something like, what do you what do you like

698
00:56:16.039 --> 00:56:19.920
to do? And Andre said he likes to read. And

699
00:56:19.960 --> 00:56:23.719
she said, you're one of them readers? Are you the

700
00:56:24.400 --> 00:56:28.320
one of them readers? And I said, yeah, yeah, I do.

701
00:56:28.360 --> 00:56:32.159
I do you know, I mean at that point I

702
00:56:32.199 --> 00:56:35.880
had no books anymore, but previously that I'd had a

703
00:56:35.960 --> 00:56:39.599
large book collection. I've had lots of large book collections

704
00:56:39.639 --> 00:56:42.679
over the years. If I had all my books now

705
00:56:43.599 --> 00:56:46.320
right from a kid right till now, that I've ever bought.

706
00:56:47.039 --> 00:56:55.280
I probably have about five thousand books. I'd say probably

707
00:56:56.679 --> 00:57:02.000
maybe not that many, but a good few thousands. It

708
00:57:02.039 --> 00:57:05.199
would fill this room and the room next to me,

709
00:57:05.760 --> 00:57:08.639
and the hallway, but fill the entire flat with books.

710
00:57:09.400 --> 00:57:15.719
There's a lot of books. He's moved then he's moved

711
00:57:15.840 --> 00:57:18.760
over in front of me, to the left, so I

712
00:57:18.800 --> 00:57:25.079
can see him. Seems to be hid me before, but

713
00:57:25.239 --> 00:57:28.199
now I can see him, and he's listening. He's got

714
00:57:28.199 --> 00:57:35.400
his eyes open and he's listening to me. Aren't you

715
00:57:35.400 --> 00:57:42.079
you're listening to me? I know you're listening. He's even

716
00:57:42.199 --> 00:57:46.199
moving his head like pretending not to listen, pretending to

717
00:57:46.239 --> 00:57:48.280
be asleep. But I can see he's got his eyes open.

718
00:57:52.079 --> 00:57:55.239
I know what he wants. But I'll get something through

719
00:57:55.280 --> 00:58:00.400
him when I finish this. Yes, I lived there for

720
00:58:01.280 --> 00:58:04.440
Oh yeah. His mum said, oh you like you like books?

721
00:58:04.480 --> 00:58:07.480
And do yea? I said, you're one of them there,

722
00:58:07.519 --> 00:58:11.519
book readers. I said, okay, yeah, said well I've got

723
00:58:11.840 --> 00:58:14.079
I've got books if you want to read anything, and

724
00:58:14.159 --> 00:58:17.519
they had a bookcase full of books. I said, it's

725
00:58:17.519 --> 00:58:20.039
not really how it works. She said, what do you mean?

726
00:58:20.119 --> 00:58:23.079
I said, well, I don't just read anything. And I

727
00:58:23.199 --> 00:58:26.079
read books I'm interested in. I just read anything for

728
00:58:26.079 --> 00:58:31.199
the sake of it. The thing is, they had a

729
00:58:31.239 --> 00:58:34.079
really good book collection, and it's full of stories and

730
00:58:35.000 --> 00:58:40.119
really good stories like shirwlock Homes and stuff like and

731
00:58:40.239 --> 00:58:45.639
just like really good. It's like these were good books.

732
00:58:46.000 --> 00:58:47.760
So I felt a bit of a bit of a

733
00:58:47.840 --> 00:58:55.079
nob Having said that, but we started looking for me

734
00:58:55.159 --> 00:59:01.400
and Andre started looking somewhere to live, and a couple

735
00:59:01.440 --> 00:59:08.480
of things happened. I a couple of things that kind

736
00:59:08.480 --> 00:59:12.039
of put me off being there, to be honest. One

737
00:59:12.159 --> 00:59:19.199
thing was whenever I went out, I seemed to get

738
00:59:19.719 --> 00:59:22.519
blokes try and kind of start trouble with me because

739
00:59:22.519 --> 00:59:25.519
I was from England. You know. I remember I was

740
00:59:25.559 --> 00:59:28.000
at the cubicle and there's two lads either side of

741
00:59:28.039 --> 00:59:31.719
me saying, oh, here are You're from England? But first

742
00:59:31.719 --> 00:59:35.760
of all, how do you know? And I said, yeah, oh,

743
00:59:35.800 --> 00:59:38.519
England's crap. I said, yeah, I know. That's why I

744
00:59:38.559 --> 00:59:40.960
moved out of there. That's what I moved away. They

745
00:59:40.960 --> 00:59:43.239
didn't know what to say because I agreed with them,

746
00:59:43.840 --> 00:59:47.000
but I just, I don't know, didn't really sit very

747
00:59:47.000 --> 00:59:52.239
well with me. And there was one time when there

748
00:59:52.320 --> 00:59:59.880
was there was literally a street fight with everybody fighting

749
01:00:01.199 --> 01:00:05.599
over nothing, and I'm just standing there looking and no

750
01:00:05.639 --> 01:00:08.360
one's touching me, no one's coming near me. They're just

751
01:00:08.840 --> 01:00:14.079
it's so weird. Everyone's so nice during the day in

752
01:00:14.159 --> 01:00:19.039
that town, Soul, Soul, like so what so like that's

753
01:00:19.119 --> 01:00:24.679
just our way saying hello, okay, okay, so so everyone

754
01:00:24.880 --> 01:00:28.239
nice and then they go this this is what it was.

755
01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:30.960
It seemed like at the time. I'm not it's not

756
01:00:31.000 --> 01:00:33.239
everywhere it's the same, and it's maybe not the same now.

757
01:00:34.480 --> 01:00:37.119
But then they go out on a Saturday night and

758
01:00:38.119 --> 01:00:41.159
kind of air their grievances, kind of you know, sought

759
01:00:41.159 --> 01:00:44.199
it out. It seemed to be that's what happened, and

760
01:00:44.199 --> 01:00:47.280
it's seemed to be quite a regular thing in that

761
01:00:47.400 --> 01:00:52.559
place at that time. And then the next day everyone

762
01:00:52.599 --> 01:00:57.119
was fine again, Soul, but few of them we have

763
01:00:57.400 --> 01:01:00.639
black eyes and stuff, saying so to each other. So

764
01:01:00.800 --> 01:01:03.320
I don't know, it was. I found that a bit strange.

765
01:01:05.480 --> 01:01:07.559
It's not what I was used to, not what i'd

766
01:01:07.599 --> 01:01:14.320
sort of really I I'd not experienced that before. And

767
01:01:14.360 --> 01:01:18.239
another thing is I kind of fell for Andre's cousin,

768
01:01:19.840 --> 01:01:29.280
not Jason, but Michelle. Was it Michelle Oh my goodness, blimey.

769
01:01:29.559 --> 01:01:32.320
I don't know. I know he had a cousin called Jason,

770
01:01:32.719 --> 01:01:36.280
because he was the size of a house. He was

771
01:01:36.280 --> 01:01:39.519
only young. I think he was like nineteen, and well

772
01:01:39.639 --> 01:01:43.480
I was young as well when I and he maybe

773
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:47.559
was seventeen eighteen. So I'm in his coffee shop in town,

774
01:01:48.599 --> 01:01:53.280
and I mean literally the sun went out. The sun

775
01:01:53.400 --> 01:01:55.880
wasn't because the sun was shining in through the doorway,

776
01:01:56.519 --> 01:01:58.280
and I looked back and he was there, and he

777
01:01:58.320 --> 01:02:02.480
took up the entire doorway. He was that big, and

778
01:02:02.519 --> 01:02:05.559
he was tall, and I mean he was just huge man.

779
01:02:07.039 --> 01:02:13.719
Slim as well, but just big, you know. And his

780
01:02:14.679 --> 01:02:17.280
sister kind of got to know because we hung around

781
01:02:17.280 --> 01:02:18.960
with him a little bit, and he had a couple

782
01:02:19.000 --> 01:02:21.480
of other cousins as well that we would hang around with,

783
01:02:23.800 --> 01:02:27.320
and because he grew up with them all and then

784
01:02:27.800 --> 01:02:30.119
he went to England and didn't see them for a while.

785
01:02:33.320 --> 01:02:37.760
I liked his sister, his cousin, my friend's cousin. I

786
01:02:37.880 --> 01:02:41.519
liked his cousin, and we kind of used to spend

787
01:02:41.599 --> 01:02:44.679
some time together when we were out drinking it. She'd

788
01:02:44.719 --> 01:02:46.679
be talking to me, sitting next to me and stuff.

789
01:02:47.599 --> 01:02:49.400
But I never had the courage to kind of ask

790
01:02:49.440 --> 01:02:52.679
her out. I didn't know she would or not, and

791
01:02:53.119 --> 01:02:59.119
I don't know anyway, I that I think that same

792
01:02:59.239 --> 01:03:01.840
night as the big thing that happened, the big punch

793
01:03:01.920 --> 01:03:06.000
up whatever, I saw her in the street kissing some

794
01:03:06.159 --> 01:03:10.760
bloke and that was kind of my That was it,

795
01:03:10.800 --> 01:03:15.320
I thought, Now I'm getting out of here, just just yeah.

796
01:03:15.480 --> 01:03:17.400
I don't know, it was my. It was my tipping

797
01:03:17.480 --> 01:03:20.840
point for leaving. A couple of things happened previous to that.

798
01:03:21.599 --> 01:03:24.079
I was looking for a job. First of all, I

799
01:03:24.159 --> 01:03:28.440
heard I overheard his mum talking on the phone to

800
01:03:28.559 --> 01:03:32.800
his sister, the one in England. This is this is

801
01:03:32.800 --> 01:03:35.679
pretty much what I heard her say. He seems to

802
01:03:35.719 --> 01:03:39.519
think he can live here forever. In a different accent.

803
01:03:40.960 --> 01:03:43.760
He seems to think he can live here forever. Now

804
01:03:43.800 --> 01:03:45.400
I know he wasn't talking about it. She wasn't talking

805
01:03:45.400 --> 01:03:48.280
about Andre, because she'd have had Andre living there forever.

806
01:03:49.199 --> 01:03:53.719
She definitely would learn a little boy. So she wasn't

807
01:03:53.719 --> 01:03:56.679
talking about her husband either, And it wasn't about any

808
01:03:56.679 --> 01:03:58.559
of the Greyhounds. So I'm pretty sure it was me.

809
01:03:59.199 --> 01:04:01.840
Could have been about the g the chance, but probably

810
01:04:01.880 --> 01:04:08.440
about me and there's an old sayings and don't don't

811
01:04:08.440 --> 01:04:11.440
ever eavesdrop because you never hear anything nice about yourself.

812
01:04:12.280 --> 01:04:14.960
So yeah, maybe that was there some truth in that

813
01:04:15.039 --> 01:04:20.840
one on that occasion. So that happened as well, just

814
01:04:21.000 --> 01:04:25.320
prior to me, you know, seeing my friend's cousin kissing,

815
01:04:25.800 --> 01:04:28.639
and I think a couple of days before that, i'd

816
01:04:28.639 --> 01:04:31.360
gone to look to get a job, and because I'd

817
01:04:31.400 --> 01:04:37.079
worked in a meat storage place, his mum said, oh,

818
01:04:37.199 --> 01:04:39.480
try this place, so I went along, got an interview.

819
01:04:40.400 --> 01:04:48.920
It was an abatoir. I'm that that's not a suitable

820
01:04:49.000 --> 01:04:57.599
job for me. Just no, And you know, it took

821
01:04:57.639 --> 01:05:00.320
me around and what I need to do and I

822
01:05:00.320 --> 01:05:04.119
don't know, I said, I was putting labels on boxes.

823
01:05:05.199 --> 01:05:08.239
That's what I did, boxes of frozen meat. I wasn't

824
01:05:08.559 --> 01:05:17.960
just I couldn't. That wasn't you know. I know people

825
01:05:18.000 --> 01:05:22.519
do it, and it just I just wasn't. No, was't

826
01:05:22.559 --> 01:05:29.639
not my thing. So it's getting a little bit harder,

827
01:05:29.719 --> 01:05:32.440
Like what, it's not a lot of opportunities. The other

828
01:05:32.519 --> 01:05:38.719
place was dry cleaners, big dry cleaners, and that didn't

829
01:05:38.760 --> 01:05:43.679
seem I just saw this bird. It's like it looks

830
01:05:43.719 --> 01:05:47.840
like a Peregrine, Falcon or something, and to this dry

831
01:05:47.880 --> 01:05:50.800
Cleaners was not ideal either. It didn't seem to be

832
01:05:50.840 --> 01:05:56.320
anything that was really suitable for me at the time.

833
01:05:58.719 --> 01:06:05.159
And then I went and had a look at a

834
01:06:05.199 --> 01:06:08.119
place that I was going to move into with Andre,

835
01:06:08.880 --> 01:06:14.559
because you were looking actively looking around, but that was

836
01:06:14.599 --> 01:06:18.400
before I heard. I didn't realize his mum wanted me

837
01:06:18.440 --> 01:06:22.639
out of there. And that's when I thought, Okay, you

838
01:06:22.679 --> 01:06:26.000
want me out, I'll get out. And I left that day.

839
01:06:28.199 --> 01:06:34.519
I phoned up, got a ferry booked, and I said, right,

840
01:06:34.519 --> 01:06:37.039
I'll go in and see your Andre was very upset.

841
01:06:37.599 --> 01:06:40.119
Everyone else was cheering. I think the whole town was

842
01:06:40.159 --> 01:06:44.760
like celebrating, but Andre was upset and he didn't really

843
01:06:44.800 --> 01:06:49.480
forgive me for leaving, to be honest. So I came back.

844
01:06:50.119 --> 01:06:53.079
I also got food poisoning. I got I had a

845
01:06:53.119 --> 01:06:58.440
bad beer, and I was ill, and yeah, whatever it was,

846
01:06:58.599 --> 01:07:02.559
or was ill for quite a while and the I

847
01:07:02.679 --> 01:07:09.000
came back, I regretted. I regretted it, regretted sort of

848
01:07:09.079 --> 01:07:15.079
leaving not giving it a more of a go. And

849
01:07:15.119 --> 01:07:18.800
then I went and visited again, probably about March time,

850
01:07:19.639 --> 01:07:24.960
maybe April the next year, maybe May April. It was

851
01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:29.840
just before the Eurovision Song contest and that was recently

852
01:07:30.079 --> 01:07:32.840
so it's now the end of May, so maybe it

853
01:07:32.880 --> 01:07:37.760
was in May when when and visited that stayed with

854
01:07:39.519 --> 01:07:46.119
At this point, my other friend was living there, so

855
01:07:46.199 --> 01:07:51.320
I stayed with him and Andre. They were all living together,

856
01:07:52.039 --> 01:07:54.960
so I stayed with him. So Andrea's sister and is

857
01:07:55.360 --> 01:08:06.079
my other friend. At this point, Andre was just if

858
01:08:06.119 --> 01:08:07.880
he was off the rolls when he was in London.

859
01:08:07.920 --> 01:08:10.800
This is nothing compared to by the time I'd left.

860
01:08:11.519 --> 01:08:17.399
He he he was just drinking a lot. But at

861
01:08:17.399 --> 01:08:20.319
one point it's quite weird because we were all out,

862
01:08:21.600 --> 01:08:24.720
he got a little bit handsy with me and he

863
01:08:24.800 --> 01:08:27.840
pushed me against the wall. It's sort of sad. You

864
01:08:27.880 --> 01:08:32.680
were my best friend, all right, and a people were

865
01:08:32.680 --> 01:08:35.399
trying to get intervene and I said, no, no, leave it.

866
01:08:35.439 --> 01:08:39.880
Then that's fine, and we just had a little chat.

867
01:08:42.479 --> 01:08:45.119
So he hadn't really forgiven me for leaving him. But

868
01:08:47.399 --> 01:08:51.119
it wasn't you know, it didn't didn't turn nasty or anything,

869
01:08:51.159 --> 01:08:53.640
and he still said goodbye to me when I left

870
01:08:53.720 --> 01:09:00.680
and hugged me in that But yeah, it was Yeah,

871
01:09:00.920 --> 01:09:04.960
I don't know, so I don't know would it have

872
01:09:05.039 --> 01:09:12.279
been right to stay there? Hard to tell. I mean,

873
01:09:12.279 --> 01:09:17.760
it's a beautiful country. It's just I don't know just

874
01:09:17.880 --> 01:09:21.920
at the time I would have been. If I'd had

875
01:09:21.920 --> 01:09:24.880
a bit of money, had my own place, had a

876
01:09:24.880 --> 01:09:29.680
bit of space, bit of time to figure out what

877
01:09:29.800 --> 01:09:34.079
I was going to be able to do, it might

878
01:09:34.079 --> 01:09:36.319
have been you know, I mean, I possibly would have

879
01:09:36.399 --> 01:09:40.720
ended up getting married, having kids, have like a normal life,

880
01:09:41.520 --> 01:09:45.479
much more normal than I've had. Maybe, or I might

881
01:09:45.479 --> 01:09:52.439
have gone down a different route, so you know, down

882
01:09:52.479 --> 01:09:55.760
the drinking route. And you know, I kind of did

883
01:09:55.800 --> 01:10:00.039
a bit anyway in my thirties, but that was that

884
01:10:00.199 --> 01:10:08.560
wasn't socially. I was in private private. So yeah, I

885
01:10:08.600 --> 01:10:14.279
think Ireland is a beautiful country and I'd like to

886
01:10:14.319 --> 01:10:17.039
go back back. I do have two friends that live

887
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:27.680
in Ireland. I would like to visit. Yeah, I would,

888
01:10:28.279 --> 01:10:36.800
but we'll see one day, Kate asks me. So that

889
01:10:36.880 --> 01:10:42.760
was Karna. Kate's you do you anythingny ever visit Logi? No,

890
01:10:43.720 --> 01:10:49.279
I haven't seen Logi since he left. There's like a

891
01:10:49.319 --> 01:10:54.520
buzzard or something right above the tree keeps coming into

892
01:10:54.600 --> 01:10:58.840
the little area of sky that I could see. But

893
01:10:58.880 --> 01:11:01.279
I think it's I think it's a buzzard, or it's

894
01:11:01.319 --> 01:11:08.279
a pedigree falcon, or it's not a golden eagle, but

895
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:12.079
it's something right up there, and it's kind of this hovering,

896
01:11:12.720 --> 01:11:18.079
very beautiful. No, I don't see Logi. Then he hasn't.

897
01:11:18.399 --> 01:11:24.640
Neither of us have seen Logi since he left. But

898
01:11:24.720 --> 01:11:28.239
he's doing well. I've heard heard things and it seems

899
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:30.960
to be fine. He's living in a family. He escaped

900
01:11:30.960 --> 01:11:34.119
from where I was living. He was an escape artist

901
01:11:34.960 --> 01:11:38.000
and he ended up back in the hostel. But he's

902
01:11:38.119 --> 01:11:45.880
managed to got some new a new family, and they, Yeah,

903
01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:49.199
he's I'm sure he's very happy. He loves being around

904
01:11:49.239 --> 01:11:54.880
people and yeah, so it's all kind of ended up.

905
01:11:57.600 --> 01:11:59.960
He just wanted to I think he wanted a peaceful life.

906
01:12:00.439 --> 01:12:04.359
He loves a cuddle, loves being around people. He just

907
01:12:04.399 --> 01:12:07.800
wants peaceful life. That's you know, go for a walk,

908
01:12:08.079 --> 01:12:12.359
one walk a day, just to get out, you know,

909
01:12:12.600 --> 01:12:17.720
have have food, have water, just chill out. That that

910
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:26.279
was LOGI. Jonathan asks how tall are you? Six foot four?

911
01:12:28.039 --> 01:12:31.600
I know might not look like that, but what that

912
01:12:31.680 --> 01:12:34.199
means is that everyone else around me is much taller

913
01:12:34.199 --> 01:12:38.560
than they realize. They're taller than they think. In fact,

914
01:12:38.600 --> 01:12:43.600
some of them are like seven foot three. I don't know.

915
01:12:43.720 --> 01:12:50.439
I'm kind of my whole life well, since the age

916
01:12:50.479 --> 01:12:56.439
of sixteen, I suppose I've been five for eight. And

917
01:12:56.520 --> 01:13:01.640
then I got measure a year or so ago and

918
01:13:01.680 --> 01:13:04.439
they said five to nine. You got you. They said,

919
01:13:04.560 --> 01:13:07.880
you've got five nine on your thing. I said, but

920
01:13:08.000 --> 01:13:10.920
for what it was five eight, and she said we

921
01:13:10.960 --> 01:13:13.680
can missure again. I said, no, that's fine, I'll take

922
01:13:13.720 --> 01:13:21.680
five nine. So according to my official documents, my medical record,

923
01:13:22.479 --> 01:13:25.640
I'm five nine. But if they went back, they'd see

924
01:13:25.680 --> 01:13:28.560
that I was five eight every other time. So I

925
01:13:28.600 --> 01:13:37.960
don't know. It's a bit weird. I thought it's supposed

926
01:13:37.960 --> 01:13:47.119
to shrink with age, not get taller. And what else?

927
01:13:47.399 --> 01:13:54.600
Ali asks me, do you have any recommendations or advice

928
01:13:54.640 --> 01:13:58.800
as someone who's wanting to start their own podcast? Don't

929
01:13:58.840 --> 01:14:05.439
do it? No? Oh, Also, I see you have a

930
01:14:05.479 --> 01:14:09.079
lot of questions already, totally don't mind you skipping this one.

931
01:14:09.960 --> 01:14:13.800
Oh no, it's fine, I'll answer this one, Elie. I've

932
01:14:13.800 --> 01:14:22.840
got practical, practical recommendations or whatever I mean you have,

933
01:14:23.159 --> 01:14:33.960
I guess you. I would say, sign up with a

934
01:14:34.039 --> 01:14:43.760
podcast host and you can use free stuff, but it's

935
01:14:43.800 --> 01:14:47.000
worth paying even like a like a ten pound a

936
01:14:47.000 --> 01:14:52.000
month podcast fee to have one, and there's a few

937
01:14:52.039 --> 01:14:56.159
that you can use. It depends how many podcasts you're

938
01:14:56.199 --> 01:14:59.640
going to be doing a week or a month, or

939
01:14:59.680 --> 01:15:01.960
you know, if you're could have been doing a lot

940
01:15:01.960 --> 01:15:08.239
of podcasts, then there's some podcast posts that aren't going

941
01:15:08.319 --> 01:15:11.600
to be suitable because they're limited. They might be limited

942
01:15:11.640 --> 01:15:14.960
to how many podcasts you can upload, they might be

943
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:19.439
limited to how many people can listen. You know, Spreaker's

944
01:15:19.520 --> 01:15:23.359
got no limitations, although they do increase. The prices depend

945
01:15:23.439 --> 01:15:29.680
on how many podcasts you've got. And SoundCloud is I

946
01:15:29.680 --> 01:15:32.000
mean they've got a free account on SoundCloud. I think

947
01:15:32.039 --> 01:15:36.239
they've got free one on spreaker, but you'll get a

948
01:15:36.359 --> 01:15:44.359
very minimum amount of space. Spreaker is quite good to share,

949
01:15:45.520 --> 01:15:57.000
especially with Spotify and stuff like that. Have a subject,

950
01:15:58.000 --> 01:16:01.439
have something you're interested in. Do in something that you're

951
01:16:01.439 --> 01:16:04.079
not going to get bored of, which is weird considering

952
01:16:04.119 --> 01:16:10.079
I'm my podcasts are boring, but I don't get bored

953
01:16:10.119 --> 01:16:14.600
of being boring because to me, I'm not boring. There's

954
01:16:14.600 --> 01:16:24.279
a poem there somewhere, isn't there? Do Do something that

955
01:16:24.319 --> 01:16:26.640
you want to that you're going to be doing for fun,

956
01:16:28.920 --> 01:16:33.159
in the sense of so you'll enjoy it, you know.

957
01:16:33.680 --> 01:16:36.399
I mean I do. I like doing the let me

958
01:16:36.439 --> 01:16:40.199
Bow your Pain away now. Chronic pain some would say

959
01:16:40.319 --> 01:16:44.640
is not a fun topic. But it's something that I'm

960
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:48.399
interested in and so I have fun making them. So

961
01:16:48.439 --> 01:16:50.279
I haven't made one for a couple of weeks. I

962
01:16:50.279 --> 01:16:53.399
don't think I have to be in a proper mood,

963
01:16:53.479 --> 01:16:58.600
you know, So do something that you're going to enjoy.

964
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:01.720
That would be my my advice. I don't know. If

965
01:17:01.720 --> 01:17:09.239
you're looking for practical suggestions, find a decent podcast host.

966
01:17:13.159 --> 01:17:16.720
You can. There's lots of ways of making images as well.

967
01:17:23.560 --> 01:17:25.920
Just do it. I mean, if you want for equipment,

968
01:17:27.600 --> 01:17:29.720
there's a lot of equipment out there now which you

969
01:17:29.760 --> 01:17:35.039
can use, which is quite easy. You can have stuff

970
01:17:35.079 --> 01:17:40.039
connected to your phone, you can have or you can

971
01:17:40.079 --> 01:17:42.439
get like it's lots of different ways to you know,

972
01:17:45.000 --> 01:17:46.960
to do the audio and to make If you want

973
01:17:46.960 --> 01:17:50.960
to make a video as well, I'd say just go

974
01:17:51.039 --> 01:17:57.239
for it and see see if you like it. It

975
01:17:57.359 --> 01:18:01.880
might it might change your life, you know, it might

976
01:18:02.000 --> 01:18:08.520
be something that you really loved doing. It might help

977
01:18:08.600 --> 01:18:12.680
you in some ways, you know, emotionally, it depends what

978
01:18:12.720 --> 01:18:24.760
you're doing. Yeah, I don't know, just thinking advice. If

979
01:18:24.800 --> 01:18:28.960
someone wanted to start their own podcast, it's weird. I

980
01:18:29.000 --> 01:18:33.000
can't remember what it was like because for me, I

981
01:18:33.039 --> 01:18:37.760
didn't start a podcast because podcasting wasn't really a thing

982
01:18:37.800 --> 01:18:43.119
when I started. It was for me because I was

983
01:18:43.239 --> 01:18:52.159
uploading audio recordings and videos onto MySpace, so I wasn't

984
01:18:52.239 --> 01:19:00.000
doing podcasting. YouTube wasn't a thing at that time. Facebook

985
01:19:00.039 --> 01:19:04.319
book wasn't a thing, well at least it wasn't popular

986
01:19:04.920 --> 01:19:08.880
at that time because Facebook basically closed my Space down really,

987
01:19:09.600 --> 01:19:12.600
but I was with my Space, so I was uploading audios,

988
01:19:12.680 --> 01:19:19.920
hypnosis audios and hypnosis videos. And then YouTube came along

989
01:19:20.359 --> 01:19:23.079
and I started putting my videos on YouTube as well

990
01:19:23.159 --> 01:19:27.399
as my Space because with my Space, with you know,

991
01:19:27.439 --> 01:19:33.479
you could upload the stuff, so they stored it. And

992
01:19:33.520 --> 01:19:40.439
then I started using a free podcast host or whatever.

993
01:19:40.439 --> 01:19:48.000
I think it was called free podcast host in probably

994
01:19:48.079 --> 01:19:54.760
two thousand and seven, maybe maybe two thousand and six,

995
01:19:55.880 --> 01:19:59.319
maybe it was. But so I started using a podcasts.

996
01:19:59.359 --> 01:20:01.640
I started using lots of different podcasts, but that was

997
01:20:01.680 --> 01:20:08.079
the main one I used, and so I guess I

998
01:20:08.119 --> 01:20:10.760
didn't start out as a podcast. All I did is

999
01:20:10.880 --> 01:20:16.119
just podcasts were just another way for me to present

1000
01:20:16.159 --> 01:20:22.319
the audio, If that makes sense. It's kind of I wasn't.

1001
01:20:23.000 --> 01:20:25.640
I used it as a like. I was already making

1002
01:20:25.720 --> 01:20:29.640
videos before YouTube came out, before YouTube was a thing.

1003
01:20:29.680 --> 01:20:33.479
I was making videos already, so I was already making

1004
01:20:34.359 --> 01:20:37.720
It's weird because when I uploaded my videos to YouTube,

1005
01:20:38.199 --> 01:20:40.640
I didn't know that anybody else made videos on YouTube.

1006
01:20:41.319 --> 01:20:43.399
But there were other people. I wasn't the only one.

1007
01:20:44.119 --> 01:20:48.479
So I started YouTube two thousand and seven, and there

1008
01:20:48.560 --> 01:20:51.039
was some other people doing it. So it's weird that

1009
01:20:51.199 --> 01:20:53.199
like people had the same kind of idea at the

1010
01:20:53.239 --> 01:20:57.520
same time. But it's only a handful of us. Really,

1011
01:20:57.600 --> 01:21:01.479
it was only a real, real small amount. And anyone

1012
01:21:01.760 --> 01:21:06.640
listening or watching this from that time who used to

1013
01:21:06.680 --> 01:21:10.520
follow my videos, you'll know what I'm saying is true.

1014
01:21:11.880 --> 01:21:16.880
You'll know. You will know. I don't know why I'm

1015
01:21:16.920 --> 01:21:23.039
doing that for, so just go through it and have fun,

1016
01:21:23.199 --> 01:21:28.600
That's what I would say. Hope asks what got you

1017
01:21:28.840 --> 01:21:38.800
interested in hypnosis? It was there was a couple of

1018
01:21:38.840 --> 01:21:47.119
things to start with. I don't know why, but I

1019
01:21:47.159 --> 01:21:49.439
was going through this little period at the end of

1020
01:21:49.479 --> 01:21:55.840
two thousand and at the end of nineteen ninety seven,

1021
01:21:56.000 --> 01:22:03.680
and I just had a bit of a very very

1022
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:09.520
problematic period in my life. You know, lost my job,

1023
01:22:09.600 --> 01:22:14.680
lost my girlfriend, pretty much had to move, had no

1024
01:22:15.520 --> 01:22:17.439
you know, everything kind of went. And then there was

1025
01:22:17.439 --> 01:22:25.720
a family thing, really big family thing happened, and I

1026
01:22:25.720 --> 01:22:33.880
I was lost, so lost at that time, and the

1027
01:22:33.920 --> 01:22:36.960
only thing I had I was writing. So I was

1028
01:22:37.439 --> 01:22:41.079
writing down how I felt and stuff, so that kind

1029
01:22:41.119 --> 01:22:46.439
of helped. And then I started listening to audio books,

1030
01:22:46.520 --> 01:22:51.960
self help audio books, reading reading self help books to

1031
01:22:51.960 --> 01:22:56.319
try and help me get through that period. So when

1032
01:22:56.319 --> 01:22:59.600
I was going and buying these audio books and looking

1033
01:22:59.600 --> 01:23:04.359
at these off help books, I started noticing hypnosis books.

1034
01:23:05.279 --> 01:23:10.560
And for me, it was kind of like very spelly,

1035
01:23:11.479 --> 01:23:15.319
very kind of magic y, you know, like a script

1036
01:23:15.479 --> 01:23:18.920
almost seemed a little bit like a magic spell. And

1037
01:23:19.520 --> 01:23:22.680
so I was looking at these books thinking, Hmm, I

1038
01:23:22.680 --> 01:23:25.640
didn't know you could learn this. I don't know how

1039
01:23:25.680 --> 01:23:32.720
I thought hypnotists became hypnotists if they didn't learn. But

1040
01:23:32.800 --> 01:23:38.159
I just just fought. Oh, I just grabbed my slight interest.

1041
01:23:38.520 --> 01:23:42.079
And I'd never ever had an interest before outside of

1042
01:23:42.159 --> 01:23:49.079
just watching on TV. In the early nineties, I thought,

1043
01:23:51.159 --> 01:23:53.840
but I don't know why. And there was these two

1044
01:23:53.960 --> 01:23:57.359
particular books, and I used to look at them. One

1045
01:23:57.439 --> 01:24:03.319
was an Introduction to hypnosis. Another one was Hypnosis for

1046
01:24:03.439 --> 01:24:06.439
Beginnings or something, so it's too one was green, one

1047
01:24:06.600 --> 01:24:10.720
was I think it was orange. I kept putting them

1048
01:24:10.720 --> 01:24:13.479
back in the same bookshop, and I'd go to it

1049
01:24:13.560 --> 01:24:17.159
every week, and I kept putting them back. I'd read

1050
01:24:17.159 --> 01:24:18.840
a little bit more, and I kept putting them back.

1051
01:24:20.319 --> 01:24:23.079
And this went on for months, and I'd go and

1052
01:24:23.119 --> 01:24:25.600
buy other stuff. And you know, as I was really

1053
01:24:25.600 --> 01:24:28.159
into the audio books because I could, I could listen

1054
01:24:28.199 --> 01:24:30.079
to her while I walked around and stuff, so that

1055
01:24:30.159 --> 01:24:33.479
kind of suited me. And you know, Field the Fear

1056
01:24:33.520 --> 01:24:38.800
and Do It Anyway and Anthony Robbins and all that stuff.

1057
01:24:40.600 --> 01:24:49.399
Zig Ziggler and then then he just barked. Then and

1058
01:24:49.439 --> 01:24:58.920
then after months of just thinking about these books, calm down, Vin,

1059
01:25:00.479 --> 01:25:09.600
I just thought, so, it's January nineteen ninety eight. I

1060
01:25:09.680 --> 01:25:14.960
bought them. I'm now worn out by the time I

1061
01:25:15.039 --> 01:25:17.800
must have read them, probably by the time I bought them.

1062
01:25:17.960 --> 01:25:22.560
But I thought, okay, because I had these like fantasies

1063
01:25:22.560 --> 01:25:24.279
of buying them, and I was like why do I

1064
01:25:24.279 --> 01:25:28.439
want to buy these two books. I'm not interested in hypnosis.

1065
01:25:28.479 --> 01:25:33.199
I don't know anything about hypnosis. Vinnie, don't bark, please please,

1066
01:25:33.600 --> 01:25:36.640
he's like that on his back. I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

1067
01:25:36.800 --> 01:25:41.560
Like anyone think that. It's like, do you want to

1068
01:25:41.600 --> 01:25:43.840
do anything? Am I? I'm just asking you to be quiet?

1069
01:25:43.920 --> 01:25:52.079
BlimE me said it. Blame me and I I don't

1070
01:25:52.079 --> 01:25:54.840
know why. I just felt I needed to buy these books,

1071
01:25:55.600 --> 01:26:00.840
bought them, read them, didn't read them straight away. I

1072
01:26:00.880 --> 01:26:04.199
can't really express how much I love books. I still

1073
01:26:04.239 --> 01:26:08.159
love books. I mean, similar I got I've only got

1074
01:26:08.199 --> 01:26:11.039
a small book collection now, but most of those books

1075
01:26:11.039 --> 01:26:15.000
are hypnosis books. I love books. I don't know what

1076
01:26:15.079 --> 01:26:21.399
it is. I don't know why I love them. I

1077
01:26:22.079 --> 01:26:27.920
think my favorite, my probably ideal job would have been

1078
01:26:27.960 --> 01:26:31.000
working in a bookshop. That's probably what I should have

1079
01:26:31.039 --> 01:26:36.880
done as a younger man. That that probably I should

1080
01:26:37.199 --> 01:26:41.800
you know, I should have would have ideally, And I

1081
01:26:41.800 --> 01:26:44.439
don't know why I didn't even think about it. Bearing

1082
01:26:44.399 --> 01:26:47.199
in mind how much I've always loved books since being

1083
01:26:47.239 --> 01:26:54.039
a small child, since I kind of taught myself to read, well,

1084
01:26:54.359 --> 01:26:58.000
I mean I taught myself, I kind of I did

1085
01:26:58.039 --> 01:27:02.000
also go to school by I had this one book.

1086
01:27:02.199 --> 01:27:04.720
I still can't find it. It's on there somewhere. It's

1087
01:27:04.760 --> 01:27:09.119
a Jack and Nory book. And I read it over

1088
01:27:09.119 --> 01:27:11.479
and over and over and over and over again. And

1089
01:27:11.760 --> 01:27:15.399
it's the only thing that was ever. I'm not saying

1090
01:27:15.439 --> 01:27:20.239
any good but competent act that I could do, that

1091
01:27:20.239 --> 01:27:24.199
I could actually say, Yeah, I can read. I don't

1092
01:27:24.279 --> 01:27:26.720
understand all the words I read. I still don't understand

1093
01:27:26.720 --> 01:27:29.680
all the words I read, but I do check what

1094
01:27:29.720 --> 01:27:32.560
they are. And you can tell from the meaning, from

1095
01:27:32.600 --> 01:27:36.560
the structure of the sentence or the paragraph, what the

1096
01:27:36.600 --> 01:27:41.439
word means. Providing the person that's writing that paragraph knows

1097
01:27:41.439 --> 01:27:44.359
what the word means, you know, they might put a

1098
01:27:44.399 --> 01:27:50.800
wrong word in. But yeah, so I've got these books home.

1099
01:27:56.279 --> 01:27:58.359
I didn't touch them to start with. I just like

1100
01:27:58.439 --> 01:28:01.560
looked at them again, don't know why I had them

1101
01:28:03.159 --> 01:28:11.039
and then started reading them, and something something happened to me.

1102
01:28:16.560 --> 01:28:22.960
So I don't know what it was, just maybe it's

1103
01:28:23.119 --> 01:28:28.359
I kind of felt, well, the way I talk kind

1104
01:28:28.359 --> 01:28:40.680
of matches what I would. I don't know. I noticed

1105
01:28:40.720 --> 01:28:43.319
sometimes people would kind of glaze over when I talk

1106
01:28:43.399 --> 01:28:53.039
to them, and I noticed this, and I didn't realize

1107
01:28:53.279 --> 01:28:55.960
that I was sort of putting him into a trance.

1108
01:28:56.199 --> 01:28:58.800
This is before I even read a hypnosis book. Happened

1109
01:28:58.800 --> 01:29:01.439
to a counselor. Counselor fell asleep when I was talking.

1110
01:29:02.600 --> 01:29:06.079
It's true. I'm not even like it's a Saturday morning.

1111
01:29:06.720 --> 01:29:10.439
I was having counseling, trauma, counseling, can you believe? And

1112
01:29:11.119 --> 01:29:14.279
she was a student and she fell asleep, her eyes

1113
01:29:14.479 --> 01:29:21.039
like started glazing, and her eyes, I live closed. And

1114
01:29:21.079 --> 01:29:23.560
this was before I even knew what hypnosis was. I

1115
01:29:23.640 --> 01:29:25.640
had not even read a book, didn't know the first

1116
01:29:25.680 --> 01:29:30.239
thing about it. This was like the summer ninety seven,

1117
01:29:30.960 --> 01:29:39.640
I think, or like late summer. So yeah, that was weird,

1118
01:29:40.640 --> 01:29:46.079
very strange. And I noticed that other people were having that,

1119
01:29:46.199 --> 01:29:49.920
And also noticed that sometimes if I talked to someone

1120
01:29:50.359 --> 01:29:56.359
and I just keep talking and just keep talking, not fast,

1121
01:29:56.399 --> 01:30:00.680
but just keep talking and make the sentence keep lasting

1122
01:30:02.000 --> 01:30:06.119
in a way that it kind of never ends. The

1123
01:30:06.159 --> 01:30:13.760
sentence never ends, and which means the person can't sort

1124
01:30:13.800 --> 01:30:18.760
of talk say something themselves. And it's I don't know,

1125
01:30:18.800 --> 01:30:20.800
it's a bit weird the reaction I was getting. And

1126
01:30:20.840 --> 01:30:26.880
I started playing with it, started to testing it out

1127
01:30:27.279 --> 01:30:31.319
with people, then he please, why are you banging? You see?

1128
01:30:31.359 --> 01:30:36.039
The camera's banging the cameras to the stand. He knows

1129
01:30:36.079 --> 01:30:38.560
he's doing it. I'm pretty sure he's doing it on purpose.

1130
01:30:39.479 --> 01:30:42.600
He's purposely moved himself over there to bang the camera

1131
01:30:43.640 --> 01:30:50.960
so it wobbles. I'm pretty sure he is. He's a

1132
01:30:51.079 --> 01:31:02.199
very naughty boy. It's very cheeky he is. But yeah,

1133
01:31:02.199 --> 01:31:04.479
that's kind of how I got into it. Just I

1134
01:31:04.560 --> 01:31:07.600
found it interesting and the most thing that I found

1135
01:31:07.680 --> 01:31:12.840
most interesting of all was the pain relief out of anything,

1136
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:17.640
that was the thing. Nothing else really grabbed me the

1137
01:31:17.640 --> 01:31:20.960
way that that did. The idea to be able to

1138
01:31:21.000 --> 01:31:29.920
take away someone's pain, I mean, wow, what could be

1139
01:31:29.920 --> 01:31:32.920
better than that? And finish just done the biggest part?

1140
01:31:39.279 --> 01:31:41.399
I think it's him, did you do finish? Did you

1141
01:31:41.479 --> 01:31:45.279
just do the biggest fart? It always aims his bum

1142
01:31:45.479 --> 01:31:48.640
at me whenever he lays down, if it's in the bed,

1143
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:51.119
never had his face in him. It's always his bum

1144
01:31:51.279 --> 01:31:54.279
faced at me. Ready for so when he lets it off,

1145
01:31:54.560 --> 01:31:58.920
I get to smell it, and he doesn't. It's got

1146
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:08.800
his eyes. Why don't haven't you? Hey? So yeah, that's

1147
01:32:08.840 --> 01:32:14.560
how I kind of got into hypnosis. And then I

1148
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:25.359
started buying books. Then I started Yeah, then I got

1149
01:32:25.399 --> 01:32:28.079
some and I kind of moved and started finding out

1150
01:32:28.119 --> 01:32:32.800
about NLP, got books on NLP. Then I did training

1151
01:32:32.840 --> 01:32:38.680
in NLP. Then I did training in the hypnosis and

1152
01:32:40.640 --> 01:32:49.399
continued the purchasing and getting hypnosis books right the way

1153
01:32:49.479 --> 01:32:55.920
up to about two thousand and thirteen. So from nineteen

1154
01:32:56.039 --> 01:33:04.960
ninety eight to two thy thirty, I was purchasing hypnosis books,

1155
01:33:05.439 --> 01:33:09.079
had a very very good collection. I lost all of

1156
01:33:09.119 --> 01:33:12.760
those books, but I did have a really good collection.

1157
01:33:13.279 --> 01:33:20.039
I also had training videos, training DVDs, training audios, really

1158
01:33:20.279 --> 01:33:23.359
out of print books as well. Some of the ones

1159
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:28.560
that I bought in ninety nine two thousand that weren't

1160
01:33:28.560 --> 01:33:32.359
in print anymore, you couldn't get them. In fact, you

1161
01:33:32.399 --> 01:33:41.399
could get them, but they're expensive on Amazon or eBay.

1162
01:33:41.439 --> 01:33:44.039
But I think for me, I liked just studying it.

1163
01:33:45.159 --> 01:33:48.119
I liked the idea of being good at it but

1164
01:33:48.239 --> 01:33:56.720
without testing. So during ninety nine, two thousand, two thousand

1165
01:33:56.720 --> 01:33:59.920
and one, two thousand and two, two thousand and three,

1166
01:34:00.239 --> 01:34:07.039
two thousand and four, two thousand and five, training doing trainings,

1167
01:34:07.079 --> 01:34:13.239
I was buying and reading lots of books, even making

1168
01:34:13.279 --> 01:34:20.359
recordings for myself. I did a little bit of relaxation

1169
01:34:20.520 --> 01:34:23.640
stuff for some friends, some pain relief for my nan,

1170
01:34:24.720 --> 01:34:27.319
but outside of that, I didn't ever test it with

1171
01:34:28.760 --> 01:34:34.199
the public. And it's only two thousand and six. When

1172
01:34:34.199 --> 01:34:36.960
I started doing that, I was kind of pushed into

1173
01:34:37.039 --> 01:34:41.600
it by a friend who called my bluff. I've talked

1174
01:34:41.600 --> 01:34:45.159
about that in the past, and it was just I

1175
01:34:45.159 --> 01:34:47.920
didn't want to do it. I was quite happy just

1176
01:34:47.960 --> 01:34:53.640
to read the books and kind of fantasize that maybe

1177
01:34:53.640 --> 01:34:59.640
I could be good at it rather than actually do anything.

1178
01:35:06.000 --> 01:35:08.560
And then you know, in two thousand and six, I

1179
01:35:08.600 --> 01:35:12.600
also started making audios and videos. The reason I started

1180
01:35:12.640 --> 01:35:16.039
making audios is because I was doing I was volunteering

1181
01:35:16.199 --> 01:35:25.079
at a alcohol charity and I was doing these group

1182
01:35:25.119 --> 01:35:27.279
sessions two a week or one on a Friday, I

1183
01:35:27.279 --> 01:35:29.520
think one a week at the time on a Friday,

1184
01:35:30.079 --> 01:35:36.000
and someone said, can you not You know, it's not

1185
01:35:36.159 --> 01:35:38.279
enough once a week isn't enough. Isn't there any way

1186
01:35:38.319 --> 01:35:42.880
of getting a recording of this? So the charity and

1187
01:35:43.000 --> 01:35:47.399
me got together and made some CDs. They went so quickly,

1188
01:35:47.960 --> 01:35:51.319
and the charity couldn't really afford to keep making new CDs.

1189
01:35:52.560 --> 01:35:55.520
What I did is I taped a recording me and

1190
01:35:55.560 --> 01:35:59.600
we printed it onto a CD. So I thought, Okay,

1191
01:35:59.680 --> 01:36:06.520
what's solution for this. I had my website and I

1192
01:36:06.600 --> 01:36:10.279
put the recording. I started putting my recordings on my

1193
01:36:10.319 --> 01:36:14.000
website where you could download them or stream. I can't

1194
01:36:14.039 --> 01:36:17.840
remember you could stream at the time or download them.

1195
01:36:17.920 --> 01:36:27.920
And then I discovered MySpace, so I started uploading the

1196
01:36:27.960 --> 01:36:31.319
audios to MySpace from the live sessions. I started recording

1197
01:36:31.319 --> 01:36:35.359
the live sessions every time I did one these live

1198
01:36:35.399 --> 01:36:37.880
group sessions, and I was doing it also at drug

1199
01:36:38.000 --> 01:36:44.359
rehab center as well. A few months later, until the

1200
01:36:44.479 --> 01:36:47.960
end of two thousand. Until the end of two thousand

1201
01:36:48.000 --> 01:36:57.640
and seven, yest and I started making videos. So thought,

1202
01:36:57.640 --> 01:37:01.640
while I'm doing the audios to MySpace, I can do videos,

1203
01:37:01.680 --> 01:37:04.399
So let me try to try that. Use the webcam

1204
01:37:04.439 --> 01:37:09.560
from the laptop. Terrible picture and not that this one's

1205
01:37:09.640 --> 01:37:12.239
much better blind. Look at my eyes, I look so

1206
01:37:12.359 --> 01:37:23.119
blue next to the red of my face. The yeah,

1207
01:37:23.439 --> 01:37:28.319
the I think the videos. I had one video that

1208
01:37:28.399 --> 01:37:31.439
reached about ten thousand views. I think that was the

1209
01:37:31.520 --> 01:37:37.000
Chronic Pain one. It's like wow. And the thing about

1210
01:37:37.079 --> 01:37:40.239
MySpace is I never I think I'm not sure if

1211
01:37:40.239 --> 01:37:46.800
I ever had one negative review. People so supportive on MySpace.

1212
01:37:48.079 --> 01:37:51.920
It's a shame that place just didn't continue because it

1213
01:37:51.960 --> 01:37:58.880
was a really nice space, really was well it's kind

1214
01:37:58.880 --> 01:38:02.760
of like MySpace really that it was a nice place.

1215
01:38:03.079 --> 01:38:10.119
And then Facebook came along. YouTube came along, so YouTube

1216
01:38:10.279 --> 01:38:14.039
YouTube took all the videos. YouTube YouTube was a place

1217
01:38:14.079 --> 01:38:17.479
for the videos to be. My Space started to just

1218
01:38:17.560 --> 01:38:23.479
dwindle down when Facebook came along again. So you had

1219
01:38:23.479 --> 01:38:26.319
somewhere to post to YouTube videos, or you had someone

1220
01:38:26.319 --> 01:38:30.680
to post videos and in somewhere that you could have

1221
01:38:30.880 --> 01:38:36.079
social interactions with people, and Facebook was the new place

1222
01:38:36.119 --> 01:38:38.319
for that, and everyone kind of just went over there.

1223
01:38:40.399 --> 01:38:42.079
And then, as I said earlier, I started using a

1224
01:38:42.079 --> 01:38:49.239
podcast for the audio, so I really didn't use my

1225
01:38:49.399 --> 01:38:53.079
Space at all after a little while, which is the shame,

1226
01:38:54.640 --> 01:38:59.760
but that's kind of how disprogressed. I focused mainly on

1227
01:38:59.760 --> 01:39:04.680
the YouTube videos for up to about twenty thirteen, two

1228
01:39:04.800 --> 01:39:10.159
thousand and seven, but I did also have podcasts, but

1229
01:39:10.199 --> 01:39:14.439
they were kind of not secondary, but it was I'd

1230
01:39:14.439 --> 01:39:18.359
make the video and then I'd extract the audio and

1231
01:39:18.520 --> 01:39:21.399
put that on the podcast. Sometimes i'd do a video

1232
01:39:21.800 --> 01:39:24.319
audio just on its own, but quite often it would

1233
01:39:24.359 --> 01:39:27.159
just be the video and then then i'd extract that,

1234
01:39:27.279 --> 01:39:31.680
so I'd be focusing more on the video aspect, you know,

1235
01:39:31.800 --> 01:39:41.680
things on YouTube. And then probably I moved here twenty fifteen,

1236
01:39:41.800 --> 01:39:45.960
started doing more recordings, audios, did some videos and stuff.

1237
01:39:46.520 --> 01:39:48.760
Hadn't done many videos for a while for a couple

1238
01:39:48.800 --> 01:39:54.520
of years, and I haven't been steady with videos really.

1239
01:39:54.560 --> 01:39:59.319
I've got through little periods. The audios. I think two

1240
01:39:59.399 --> 01:40:03.479
thousand and eight really kicked in. I started putting more

1241
01:40:03.520 --> 01:40:09.359
effort and doing them a lot more regular in twenty eighteen,

1242
01:40:09.520 --> 01:40:11.439
once I started doing the let Me Boy to Sleep,

1243
01:40:13.399 --> 01:40:21.199
And since then I've done thousands of recordings and it is, Yeah,

1244
01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:25.399
it's sort of grown, I guess from there. But I

1245
01:40:25.560 --> 01:40:28.479
like to think in a way, even though I'm not

1246
01:40:30.439 --> 01:40:34.680
really don't really do hypnosis anymore, not really, I kind

1247
01:40:34.680 --> 01:40:36.720
of do and I don't. I like to think that

1248
01:40:39.840 --> 01:40:44.399
I incorporate what I learn. So when I when I

1249
01:40:44.479 --> 01:40:48.439
do the let Me Boil Your Pain Away, I'm still

1250
01:40:48.760 --> 01:40:55.720
using techniques and I don't know how to explain it.

1251
01:40:56.680 --> 01:41:00.199
But I think it's about trying to instead of of

1252
01:41:01.720 --> 01:41:05.800
adapting myself, because what I was trying to do before

1253
01:41:06.319 --> 01:41:15.960
is adapting myself to the hypnosis. Now I just adapt

1254
01:41:15.960 --> 01:41:23.039
the hypnosis to myself. So I try and use whatever

1255
01:41:23.159 --> 01:41:29.560
has been absorbed into my brain and hope for the best.

1256
01:41:29.880 --> 01:41:38.680
I suppose I don't know, but yeah, I hope that

1257
01:41:38.760 --> 01:41:44.239
answered your question. So I have answered every question. There

1258
01:41:44.279 --> 01:41:48.199
was nine nine questions, So thank you very much everyone.

1259
01:41:49.159 --> 01:41:51.840
So I was going to say thank you to everyone

1260
01:41:52.439 --> 01:42:00.520
all that's answered to ask. So Hillary, Sandy, Michelle, Karna

1261
01:42:01.399 --> 01:42:08.520
or coroner. Sure it's Karna, Kate, Jonathan, Ali, and Hope.

1262
01:42:10.000 --> 01:42:12.720
Thank you very much, and I'm going to go now.

1263
01:42:12.800 --> 01:42:15.680
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself,

1264
01:42:16.439 --> 01:42:23.560
because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.

1265
01:42:31.720 --> 01:42:46.279
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, Maybe in

1266
01:42:46.319 --> 01:42:51.880
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1267
01:42:53.239 --> 01:43:02.479
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1268
01:43:04.520 --> 01:43:10.199
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1269
01:43:10.239 --> 01:43:16.920
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1270
01:43:17.079 --> 01:43:32.000
and peace, But also I think it would be nice

1271
01:43:32.079 --> 01:43:51.880
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1272
01:43:51.960 --> 01:44:02.560
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1273
01:44:05.439 --> 01:44:12.319
from listening to my voice. Maybe in a few hours

1274
01:44:12.439 --> 01:44:27.960
time perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if

1275
01:44:28.000 --> 01:44:32.279
you find like some people do and myself as well.

1276
01:44:32.439 --> 01:44:39.439
I sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates

1277
01:44:39.479 --> 01:44:45.880
with me, and I just listen to it over and

1278
01:44:45.920 --> 01:44:59.279
over again every morning, every evening. There was this recording

1279
01:44:59.560 --> 01:45:05.960
from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It

1280
01:45:06.000 --> 01:45:11.119
was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

1281
01:45:11.239 --> 01:45:18.239
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

1282
01:45:18.319 --> 01:45:21.840
find it again and it still has the same effect

1283
01:45:22.319 --> 01:45:33.960
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

1284
01:45:34.359 --> 01:45:44.520
relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward

1285
01:45:45.000 --> 01:45:51.680
to listening to her in the morning and in the evening.

1286
01:45:58.119 --> 01:46:02.880
And I knew before or even pressing the play button

1287
01:46:07.039 --> 01:46:11.520
that since I've done that pressed the play button. This

1288
01:46:11.760 --> 01:46:23.199
was in the days of CD players press the play button.

1289
01:46:26.600 --> 01:46:29.439
In fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

1290
01:46:30.720 --> 01:46:39.079
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1291
01:46:39.640 --> 01:46:52.600
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1292
01:46:57.279 --> 01:47:03.279
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1293
01:47:08.039 --> 01:47:29.880
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1294
01:47:30.000 --> 01:47:43.680
I remember my mind would slow down now Now, I

1295
01:47:44.079 --> 01:47:50.319
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1296
01:47:50.399 --> 01:48:01.119
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1297
01:48:01.239 --> 01:48:05.960
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1298
01:48:06.079 --> 01:48:20.560
till two thousand and six. I knew, I knew how

1299
01:48:22.279 --> 01:48:36.079
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1300
01:48:36.159 --> 01:48:41.399
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1301
01:48:49.039 --> 01:48:57.119
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1302
01:48:57.199 --> 01:49:06.600
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1303
01:49:06.680 --> 01:49:18.319
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1304
01:49:18.359 --> 01:49:32.279
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1305
01:49:32.319 --> 01:49:38.640
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1306
01:49:40.439 --> 01:49:54.159
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

1307
01:49:54.239 --> 01:50:07.239
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

1308
01:50:11.319 --> 01:50:25.640
when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1309
01:50:27.119 --> 01:50:38.399
am affected by the words that I say. So if

1310
01:50:38.399 --> 01:50:48.800
I set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1311
01:50:52.279 --> 01:51:00.159
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1312
01:51:00.319 --> 01:51:18.399
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1313
01:51:21.159 --> 01:51:30.680
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1314
01:51:30.800 --> 01:51:36.880
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1315
01:51:38.760 --> 01:51:49.159
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1316
01:51:49.720 --> 01:51:57.800
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1317
01:51:57.840 --> 01:52:02.079
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1318
01:52:02.119 --> 01:52:15.119
all where you are right now. And as you become

1319
01:52:15.720 --> 01:52:30.119
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1320
01:52:30.399 --> 01:52:54.199
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1321
01:52:55.720 --> 01:53:02.800
potentially drifting off to sleep, which maybe the reason you're listening,

1322
01:53:08.520 --> 01:53:23.119
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

1323
01:53:23.279 --> 01:53:41.680
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

1324
01:53:41.720 --> 01:53:56.159
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

1325
01:53:56.199 --> 01:54:07.880
on talking. It's only when I listen back to do

1326
01:54:08.039 --> 01:54:17.079
the editing I hear snoring and I think, I don't

1327
01:54:17.119 --> 01:54:26.920
remember snoring. I remember talking. It was this snoring was

1328
01:54:27.520 --> 01:54:33.840
a pig turned up. That's why I sound like when

1329
01:54:33.840 --> 01:54:44.800
I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

1330
01:54:52.720 --> 01:55:02.119
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

1331
01:55:02.199 --> 01:55:12.800
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1332
01:55:27.880 --> 01:55:40.079
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1333
01:55:41.800 --> 01:55:57.640
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1334
01:56:04.159 --> 01:56:20.880
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1335
01:56:20.920 --> 01:56:52.039
you debree easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1336
01:56:52.239 --> 01:57:21.039
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1337
01:57:21.239 --> 01:58:11.119
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1338
01:58:11.199 --> 01:58:29.520
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1339
01:58:35.560 --> 01:58:48.439
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1340
01:58:48.680 --> 01:59:22.199
flowers producing all that life gives, leaving oxygen. It feels

1341
01:59:22.319 --> 01:59:44.119
nice two, if nothing else, just taking some time away

1342
01:59:48.800 --> 02:00:32.119
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a

1343
02:00:32.439 --> 02:01:08.520
joyful heart. Time scene ins to just drip by, so

1344
02:01:09.720 --> 02:01:59.479
very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any

1345
02:02:00.439 --> 02:03:03.880
thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that your

1346
02:03:04.079 --> 02:03:51.279
mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really requires

1347
02:03:51.319 --> 02:04:21.680
your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing

1348
02:04:21.960 --> 02:04:34.159
the stress to rip out of your body, to appear

1349
02:04:34.479 --> 02:04:58.439
out of every part of your body, and being released

1350
02:05:03.720 --> 02:05:43.439
from your brain in your mind slowly but surely, the

1351
02:05:43.640 --> 02:06:20.720
muscles in your legs relax res re so very deeply,

1352
02:06:30.479 --> 02:07:01.800
reas so deeply, and the feedings pleasant feelings in your

1353
02:07:02.079 --> 02:07:26.159
arms and shoulders deepening in each part of your body

1354
02:07:29.439 --> 02:08:07.880
further and deeper and deeper noticine, the feelings in the

1355
02:08:07.920 --> 02:09:10.000
back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in

1356
02:09:10.279 --> 02:09:47.199
front of your body, I all say, feeling peaceful deeply,

1357
02:10:04.199 --> 02:10:45.399
there's a sense of peace spreads through your very core e.

1358
02:10:45.399 --> 02:11:04.920
Even when you focus on your mind. Her mind becomes

1359
02:11:12.279 --> 02:12:35.119
bee and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

1360
02:12:49.239 --> 02:13:36.920
it's Formin's stomach, your back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd

1361
02:13:37.119 --> 02:14:15.439
now feel in the hole of your back. You spy

1362
02:14:19.520 --> 02:14:24.279
from your brain all the way down the middle of

1363
02:14:24.319 --> 02:14:48.560
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort,

1364
02:14:51.520 --> 02:16:08.159
increasing deep thy lx you NICs spreading these signals down

1365
02:16:08.319 --> 02:16:31.279
a spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1366
02:16:31.960 --> 02:17:20.200
your chins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of

1367
02:17:20.399 --> 02:17:37.639
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1368
02:17:41.920 --> 02:17:53.440
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1369
02:17:53.479 --> 02:19:18.520
lower back. Lettinker, re thinker, peace, drifting mind just wandering away,

1370
02:19:18.520 --> 02:19:59.200
happy to let go, let go completely, let go, so

1371
02:19:59.520 --> 02:20:56.760
trunk the whole body, enjoying a sensor lett him go,

1372
02:21:00.280 --> 02:22:59.239
he no peace fur enjoy the space, this space of

1373
02:22:59.520 --> 02:25:25.760
peace and safety. So fiery, relaxed, letting go. Maybe we

1374
02:25:25.920 --> 02:25:33.440
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1375
02:25:37.559 --> 02:26:46.959
just to notice a forehead in your eyes Uo so lose,

1376
02:27:06.719 --> 02:28:25.879
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom pri tri

1377
02:28:39.479 --> 02:30:26.959
Pea's for energy peace to breathe much easier, loose you

1378
02:30:27.159 --> 02:31:16.959
may have I may not have noticed your mind drifted peaceful,

1379
02:31:31.040 --> 02:31:52.360
move even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1380
02:31:56.520 --> 02:34:00.200
blissful pace, arrest, total peace. Come so calm, Let think

1381
02:34:00.280 --> 02:35:36.200
God peace with mind rexed forty relaxed, so relaxed. Your

1382
02:35:36.360 --> 02:36:17.719
body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peaceful,

1383
02:36:33.520 --> 02:37:19.360
real liquor, so peaceful. And you could start to notice

1384
02:37:19.719 --> 02:37:28.760
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1385
02:37:30.479 --> 02:37:41.200
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

1386
02:37:41.920 --> 02:37:48.760
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1387
02:37:48.840 --> 02:37:59.479
mind starts to slow down. And that could be almost

1388
02:37:59.600 --> 02:38:09.200
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1389
02:38:15.680 --> 02:38:26.120
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1390
02:38:26.239 --> 02:38:34.920
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1391
02:38:34.959 --> 02:38:41.799
break from the day, take a break from your life

1392
02:38:42.920 --> 02:38:51.399
as it is, and to give yourself a rest giving

1393
02:38:51.399 --> 02:38:58.920
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

1394
02:38:59.079 --> 02:39:05.239
your body to lacks and allow your mind to slow down,

1395
02:39:09.280 --> 02:39:17.120
which in turn releases the tension and it stresses that

1396
02:39:17.159 --> 02:39:26.879
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

1397
02:39:26.959 --> 02:39:32.000
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

1398
02:39:32.280 --> 02:39:44.200
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

1399
02:39:44.799 --> 02:39:54.520
positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up and

1400
02:39:54.559 --> 02:40:06.719
your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of

1401
02:40:07.959 --> 02:40:27.479
increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy

1402
02:40:27.840 --> 02:40:38.360
that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort.

1403
02:40:43.200 --> 02:40:53.520
And all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1404
02:40:55.319 --> 02:40:58.399
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1405
02:41:00.239 --> 02:41:14.079
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1406
02:41:14.159 --> 02:41:31.239
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1407
02:41:35.040 --> 02:41:44.440
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1408
02:41:48.440 --> 02:41:57.559
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1409
02:41:58.079 --> 02:42:02.680
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1410
02:42:06.920 --> 02:42:18.079
almost mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness,

1411
02:42:21.680 --> 02:42:28.920
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1412
02:42:29.120 --> 02:42:34.840
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1413
02:42:38.239 --> 02:42:50.520
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1414
02:42:52.280 --> 02:43:07.719
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1415
02:43:09.000 --> 02:43:14.959
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1416
02:43:14.959 --> 02:43:32.040
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1417
02:43:32.040 --> 02:43:41.719
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1418
02:43:45.760 --> 02:43:52.000
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1419
02:43:54.200 --> 02:44:00.959
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1420
02:44:01.079 --> 02:44:08.760
relax deeply and those parts that we've not yet focused

1421
02:44:08.799 --> 02:44:22.200
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1422
02:44:22.559 --> 02:44:35.559
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1423
02:44:35.639 --> 02:44:42.600
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1424
02:44:42.920 --> 02:44:51.520
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1425
02:44:53.239 --> 02:44:58.159
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1426
02:44:58.280 --> 02:45:05.559
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1427
02:45:08.639 --> 02:45:14.680
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1428
02:45:17.440 --> 02:45:23.520
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1429
02:45:24.040 --> 02:45:34.559
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1430
02:45:34.760 --> 02:45:43.159
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1431
02:45:44.879 --> 02:45:53.600
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1432
02:45:54.559 --> 02:46:04.280
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eye, noticing

1433
02:46:05.280 --> 02:46:15.040
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1434
02:46:15.040 --> 02:46:21.520
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1435
02:46:21.760 --> 02:46:36.239
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1436
02:46:36.639 --> 02:46:43.319
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1437
02:46:43.440 --> 02:46:58.440
your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1438
02:46:59.040 --> 02:47:05.920
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1439
02:47:06.040 --> 02:47:10.479
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1440
02:47:10.600 --> 02:47:16.920
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1441
02:47:17.200 --> 02:47:28.680
hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed.

1442
02:47:32.079 --> 02:47:40.639
And calm.

1443
02:47:40.959 --> 02:47:50.120
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1444
02:47:50.159 --> 02:48:03.200
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1445
02:48:03.280 --> 02:48:08.559
your neck, the right and left side of your neck,

1446
02:48:11.479 --> 02:48:27.360
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1447
02:48:27.440 --> 02:48:40.280
your neck, focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1448
02:48:40.479 --> 02:48:45.159
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1449
02:48:46.920 --> 02:49:01.040
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1450
02:49:01.239 --> 02:49:11.639
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1451
02:49:11.920 --> 02:49:18.520
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1452
02:49:19.760 --> 02:49:24.520
right from the top of your back all the way

1453
02:49:24.719 --> 02:49:37.440
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1454
02:49:37.479 --> 02:49:49.920
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1455
02:49:50.159 --> 02:49:56.319
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1456
02:49:56.799 --> 02:50:11.399
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1457
02:50:11.479 --> 02:50:22.000
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1458
02:50:22.159 --> 02:50:28.840
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1459
02:50:29.639 --> 02:50:35.920
the middle and your lower back. And as you scan

1460
02:50:37.600 --> 02:50:45.440
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1461
02:50:45.559 --> 02:50:51.440
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1462
02:50:55.760 --> 02:51:01.760
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1463
02:51:01.879 --> 02:51:11.399
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1464
02:51:17.159 --> 02:51:23.120
and in your lower back it seems to be an

1465
02:51:23.200 --> 02:51:37.440
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1466
02:51:39.680 --> 02:51:47.639
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1467
02:51:47.719 --> 02:51:56.520
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1468
02:51:56.559 --> 02:52:05.799
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1469
02:52:05.840 --> 02:52:19.440
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1470
02:52:26.000 --> 02:52:32.840
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1471
02:52:32.959 --> 02:52:44.360
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1472
02:52:44.440 --> 02:52:59.399
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1473
02:53:01.120 --> 02:53:16.479
you may notice that they're already feeding really loose, they're

1474
02:53:16.520 --> 02:53:42.600
already feeding calm, and they're feeding those muscles then move

1475
02:53:42.959 --> 02:53:58.840
from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

1476
02:54:02.879 --> 02:54:31.799
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1477
02:54:31.840 --> 02:54:40.399
seens to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1478
02:54:41.559 --> 02:54:53.079
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1479
02:54:55.920 --> 02:55:05.879
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1480
02:55:08.600 --> 02:55:14.600
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1481
02:55:15.920 --> 02:55:33.719
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1482
02:55:33.920 --> 02:55:54.120
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1483
02:55:54.840 --> 02:56:06.520
into your arms? And you may feel almost as if

1484
02:56:06.559 --> 02:56:13.120
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1485
02:56:16.280 --> 02:57:02.479
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1486
02:57:02.799 --> 02:57:19.399
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1487
02:57:19.760 --> 02:57:46.600
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your forearments

1488
02:57:46.760 --> 02:58:02.239
and your wrists feeling so heavy. Yet the same time,

1489
02:58:09.799 --> 02:59:10.280
sunlight and gentle frey. See now on your hands, my hands,

1490
02:59:16.559 --> 02:59:46.200
so peaceful in your hands. There's a sense of real peace.

1491
02:59:57.879 --> 03:00:11.680
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1492
03:00:12.000 --> 03:01:19.840
relax deeply feel your things. A thing is said less

1493
03:01:49.000 --> 03:02:22.479
you think it's tips. Moving your attention to the front

1494
03:02:22.639 --> 03:03:53.959
of your body, so comfortable, moving your focus to your legs,

1495
03:04:12.239 --> 03:05:06.879
a muscles in your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, a

1496
03:05:07.120 --> 03:07:16.000
carved musselves and just shans cow pused the four feathing

1497
03:07:17.440 --> 03:08:14.000
in your feet, sir, peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

1498
03:08:14.520 --> 03:08:45.520
so peaceful, so calm so peace fa re sin peace fall.

1499
03:08:49.120 --> 03:09:04.559
So come loving that deep vacation. Just spread your chest

1500
03:09:04.840 --> 03:09:36.440
and your stomach, letting go of everything. So I'm gonna

1501
03:09:36.479 --> 03:09:48.360
start counting down now from twenty down to one. You

1502
03:09:48.399 --> 03:09:51.879
can imagine in a way it's like just walking down

1503
03:09:52.000 --> 03:09:57.799
some steps and each step or twenty steps, and each

1504
03:09:57.920 --> 03:10:10.600
step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a

1505
03:10:10.799 --> 03:10:23.319
deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you walk down

1506
03:10:23.399 --> 03:10:28.920
those steps that the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1507
03:10:35.520 --> 03:14:00.000
So starting with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen, sicksting

1508
03:14:25.920 --> 03:22:35.120
eight fourteen fourteen too well five eight nine hey seven

1509
03:24:12.200 --> 03:31:21.040
tho five four two one, And now as you focus

1510
03:31:21.200 --> 03:31:33.959
on your eyes, we're going to count down from ten

1511
03:31:34.159 --> 03:31:49.559
dout one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the

1512
03:31:49.680 --> 03:31:58.760
muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a whole

1513
03:31:59.040 --> 03:32:15.920
area that makes up your eye. And as we count

1514
03:32:16.040 --> 03:32:24.879
down from ten down to one. Whilst focusing on your eyes,

1515
03:32:31.159 --> 03:32:43.200
you'll become twice is relaxed with each number counting down

1516
03:32:46.200 --> 03:32:53.280
that you may find the all you want to do

1517
03:32:53.680 --> 03:33:02.360
is just to drift off to sleep. And if that's

1518
03:33:02.600 --> 03:33:15.639
what you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1519
03:33:18.399 --> 03:33:24.799
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1520
03:33:26.319 --> 03:34:42.959
from ten down to one right now, ten nine eight

1521
03:35:36.319 --> 03:44:04.159
seven ye five four three two.

1522
03:42:39.200 --> 03:42:39.520
One.

1523
03:42:45.719 --> 03:43:01.959
So count and down from ten to one ten nine

1524
03:43:02.159 --> 03:43:29.959
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1525
03:43:30.000 --> 03:43:32.959
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1526
03:43:34.159 --> 03:43:38.399
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1527
03:43:38.639 --> 03:43:46.760
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1528
03:43:46.799 --> 03:43:50.879
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

1529
03:43:51.000 --> 03:43:54.399
Would you expect me to do? Man? Expect me to

1530
03:43:54.440 --> 03:44:04.239
stick gold floppy just because you're counting down. We can

1531
03:44:04.319 --> 03:44:08.200
try it again, but this time I go this lower.

1532
03:44:10.280 --> 03:44:15.200
This time, as you focus on the whole of your

1533
03:44:15.200 --> 03:44:23.639
body before we focus on your legs, just notice how

1534
03:44:23.680 --> 03:44:37.799
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

1535
03:44:37.920 --> 03:45:11.040
number that I count down ten nine eight seven six

1536
03:45:19.399 --> 03:46:28.360
five four three two one. And just notice how how

1537
03:46:28.440 --> 03:46:38.559
you feel generally, how your body feels it's not necessarily

1538
03:46:38.600 --> 03:46:49.120
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1539
03:46:49.319 --> 03:47:09.079
space that you have, that space between being active physically

1540
03:47:09.200 --> 03:47:18.040
or mentally to just sitting or lying down and just

1541
03:47:18.239 --> 03:47:24.120
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not needing

1542
03:47:24.360 --> 03:47:29.879
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1543
03:47:30.840 --> 03:47:40.000
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1544
03:47:40.079 --> 03:47:44.680
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1545
03:47:44.719 --> 03:47:52.920
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1546
03:47:54.120 --> 03:48:10.319
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1547
03:48:11.360 --> 03:48:27.159
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1548
03:48:28.040 --> 03:48:40.799
Allows you to just slow down. Someone to count again

1549
03:48:40.879 --> 03:48:47.120
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

1550
03:48:49.239 --> 03:48:53.680
the gap, And as it widens, it's almost like the

1551
03:48:55.399 --> 03:49:13.000
stress and attention falls into the gap and gives you

1552
03:49:13.040 --> 03:50:20.040
that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1553
03:50:38.280 --> 03:51:20.639
three two.

1554
03:51:13.559 --> 03:51:20.719
One.

1555
03:51:25.319 --> 03:51:29.799
Now, how does your body feel.

1556
03:51:31.680 --> 03:51:42.959
Now?

1557
03:51:44.559 --> 03:51:59.840
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1558
03:52:00.280 --> 03:52:27.760
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1559
03:52:43.639 --> 03:53:03.840
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1560
03:53:03.920 --> 03:53:08.799
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1561
03:53:12.280 --> 03:53:15.000
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1562
03:53:15.040 --> 03:53:27.479
lot going on right now, Just focusing on the whole

1563
03:53:27.559 --> 03:53:34.000
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1564
03:53:34.120 --> 03:53:41.159
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1565
03:53:41.200 --> 03:53:46.120
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1566
03:53:46.239 --> 03:53:55.040
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1567
03:53:55.200 --> 03:54:09.239
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1568
03:54:09.280 --> 03:54:14.799
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

1569
03:54:15.760 --> 03:54:29.040
muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

1570
03:54:29.040 --> 03:54:37.399
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1571
03:54:43.280 --> 03:54:54.040
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1572
03:54:54.200 --> 03:55:14.879
our lives, how much they actually do for us, all

1573
03:55:14.920 --> 03:55:25.399
for our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1574
03:55:25.479 --> 03:55:33.920
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1575
03:55:33.959 --> 03:55:41.600
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1576
03:55:42.600 --> 03:56:00.680
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1577
03:56:00.680 --> 03:56:09.799
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1578
03:56:10.000 --> 03:56:16.319
sound a bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I,

1579
03:56:16.440 --> 03:56:19.280
Surely I should be out in the garden hugging a

1580
03:56:19.360 --> 03:56:27.719
tree or something well, it's hard to set a microphone

1581
03:56:27.799 --> 03:56:30.879
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1582
03:56:30.879 --> 03:56:34.680
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. I can't

1583
03:56:34.719 --> 03:56:43.520
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1584
03:56:43.520 --> 03:56:53.360
to your knees getting such an important part, and I

1585
03:56:53.399 --> 03:57:00.280
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1586
03:57:00.280 --> 03:57:05.479
don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for me

1587
03:57:06.719 --> 03:57:11.920
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1588
03:57:11.959 --> 03:57:16.920
if I ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching

1589
03:57:17.079 --> 03:57:23.559
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1590
03:57:23.600 --> 03:57:28.040
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1591
03:57:28.159 --> 03:57:37.440
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1592
03:57:38.200 --> 03:57:47.000
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1593
03:57:48.079 --> 03:57:55.200
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1594
03:57:57.239 --> 03:58:02.920
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1595
03:58:03.120 --> 03:58:09.360
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1596
03:58:09.440 --> 03:58:21.760
that they do for you. And you can still have

1597
03:58:21.799 --> 03:58:26.040
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1598
03:58:26.079 --> 03:58:37.959
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1599
03:58:39.719 --> 03:58:51.440
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1600
03:58:51.799 --> 03:58:57.280
your shins, and your calf muscles, and the bones between

1601
03:58:57.399 --> 03:59:07.600
your knees and feet, incorporating of course, your ankles so important.

1602
03:59:13.040 --> 03:59:17.680
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1603
03:59:17.760 --> 03:59:24.879
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1604
03:59:24.959 --> 03:59:33.520
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1605
03:59:33.559 --> 03:59:39.200
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1606
03:59:39.319 --> 03:59:42.239
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1607
03:59:43.280 --> 03:59:46.799
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1608
03:59:46.799 --> 03:59:51.760
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1609
03:59:51.799 --> 03:59:57.680
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1610
04:00:04.040 --> 04:00:08.479
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1611
04:00:08.520 --> 04:00:14.719
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1612
04:00:15.639 --> 04:00:25.719
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet that

1613
04:00:26.239 --> 04:00:34.479
thin area, a thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1614
04:00:34.559 --> 04:00:41.639
great work. Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1615
04:00:46.360 --> 04:00:56.159
helps us to balance, helps you to get around and

1616
04:00:56.239 --> 04:01:10.479
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I

1617
04:01:10.520 --> 04:01:13.479
was younger, I couldn't see the point in calf muscles.

1618
04:01:14.200 --> 04:01:18.920
It didn't seem to do anything, Okay, if I walked

1619
04:01:18.920 --> 04:01:22.639
around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1620
04:01:24.000 --> 04:01:26.600
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1621
04:01:26.639 --> 04:01:36.520
being used whenever we use our legs and your shins

1622
04:01:39.799 --> 04:01:48.840
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

1623
04:01:50.639 --> 04:02:02.799
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1624
04:02:02.840 --> 04:02:13.000
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1625
04:02:13.040 --> 04:02:15.239
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1626
04:02:15.239 --> 04:02:21.920
on the legs. I realize that now that I've mentioned

1627
04:02:21.959 --> 04:02:26.680
your feet, it probably focuses on them anyway, for maybe

1628
04:02:26.719 --> 04:02:32.879
I should focus on your feet a little bit. You

1629
04:02:32.920 --> 04:02:37.559
can have them in your awareness the same as you

1630
04:02:38.159 --> 04:02:42.079
have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't

1631
04:02:42.079 --> 04:02:47.719
been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes, we've

1632
04:02:47.760 --> 04:02:58.719
been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation of

1633
04:03:01.879 --> 04:03:14.680
comfort in your thighs and this that movement of energy

1634
04:03:16.719 --> 04:03:23.760
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1635
04:03:23.799 --> 04:03:28.600
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1636
04:03:28.760 --> 04:03:42.120
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

1637
04:03:42.159 --> 04:03:47.520
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1638
04:03:48.280 --> 04:03:59.879
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1639
04:04:06.440 --> 04:04:13.959
and inside your thighs, the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1640
04:04:14.000 --> 04:04:18.840
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, it's all this stuff

1641
04:04:18.920 --> 04:04:27.680
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1642
04:04:27.760 --> 04:04:31.959
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1643
04:04:31.959 --> 04:04:38.200
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1644
04:04:38.440 --> 04:04:41.360
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1645
04:04:41.399 --> 04:04:46.239
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1646
04:04:46.280 --> 04:04:53.280
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1647
04:04:53.360 --> 04:05:02.719
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1648
04:05:06.520 --> 04:05:13.280
and you could move down messaging inside your knees. Just

1649
04:05:13.479 --> 04:05:20.200
message in those bones, but with healing fingertips spreading that

1650
04:05:20.559 --> 04:05:31.760
healing energy deep into the joints of your knees. Of course,

1651
04:05:31.840 --> 04:05:35.200
there's the back of your your knee, you know, the

1652
04:05:35.319 --> 04:05:42.319
inside crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1653
04:05:44.319 --> 04:05:48.719
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1654
04:05:48.840 --> 04:05:52.559
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1655
04:05:52.719 --> 04:05:59.319
very often. It's almost like a hidden part that crease

1656
04:06:01.399 --> 04:06:05.959
in your legs. It's almost it's like a part that

1657
04:06:07.680 --> 04:06:18.959
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1658
04:06:19.000 --> 04:06:29.520
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1659
04:06:30.360 --> 04:06:40.040
your fingers into that crease in your legs, that fold

1660
04:06:40.159 --> 04:06:44.319
in between your legs. You can just massage with your fingertips.

1661
04:06:45.479 --> 04:06:56.120
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1662
04:06:56.840 --> 04:07:01.239
You can of course field the bone of your knees,

1663
04:07:02.639 --> 04:07:13.120
healing through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1664
04:07:15.920 --> 04:07:18.760
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1665
04:07:18.840 --> 04:07:23.559
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1666
04:07:24.280 --> 04:07:33.280
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1667
04:07:34.799 --> 04:07:44.760
healing every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

1668
04:07:47.920 --> 04:07:54.840
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1669
04:07:55.719 --> 04:07:59.840
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1670
04:08:00.079 --> 04:08:07.280
treated as the precious bones that they are, because our

1671
04:08:07.360 --> 04:08:10.959
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1672
04:08:10.959 --> 04:08:18.639
of our body, and more precious than any jure on

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04:08:18.760 --> 04:08:35.120
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1674
04:08:35.200 --> 04:08:46.319
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1675
04:08:46.520 --> 04:08:53.239
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1676
04:08:53.280 --> 04:09:01.479
idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1677
04:09:01.559 --> 04:09:07.680
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1678
04:09:08.600 --> 04:09:15.479
in your thighs and massage the muscles and the bones,

1679
04:09:17.319 --> 04:09:23.040
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension.

1680
04:09:25.920 --> 04:09:34.719
Just to show how much you care about your legs,

1681
04:09:35.399 --> 04:09:39.200
how much you care for what your legs do for

1682
04:09:39.319 --> 04:09:52.959
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1683
04:09:53.079 --> 04:10:01.159
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1684
04:10:01.239 --> 04:10:08.000
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're

1685
04:10:08.079 --> 04:10:20.360
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1686
04:10:24.200 --> 04:10:29.440
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1687
04:10:34.760 --> 04:10:41.760
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1688
04:10:42.920 --> 04:10:47.680
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1689
04:10:47.719 --> 04:10:54.440
of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot

1690
04:10:54.639 --> 04:11:02.399
heavier than eight stone doubled out. Yeah, yet my ankles

1691
04:11:04.159 --> 04:11:11.799
support my body all the time. Or they do give

1692
04:11:11.879 --> 04:11:16.719
off a sigh of relief when I sit down, as

1693
04:11:17.280 --> 04:11:24.440
you have my whole legs do. My feet feet also

1694
04:11:24.639 --> 04:11:50.000
go and my toes clap. They're so happy. Your legs

1695
04:11:51.760 --> 04:11:59.600
really are amazing. And I know that talk about talking

1696
04:11:59.639 --> 04:12:06.360
about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1697
04:12:06.399 --> 04:12:14.120
boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly they're boring

1698
04:12:14.239 --> 04:12:22.440
or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing.

1699
04:12:31.319 --> 04:12:44.200
Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1700
04:12:51.479 --> 04:12:54.840
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1701
04:12:57.040 --> 04:13:25.799
to just let go completely. The legs really can relax.

1702
04:13:33.399 --> 04:13:37.559
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1703
04:13:37.760 --> 04:13:43.719
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1704
04:13:43.799 --> 04:13:51.040
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1705
04:13:54.719 --> 04:14:05.639
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1706
04:14:06.959 --> 04:14:13.879
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

1707
04:14:13.920 --> 04:14:20.799
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1708
04:14:21.879 --> 04:14:24.959
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1709
04:14:25.040 --> 04:14:30.280
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing,

1710
04:14:31.280 --> 04:14:33.840
but it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1711
04:14:33.920 --> 04:14:39.520
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1712
04:14:39.639 --> 04:15:01.920
tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

1713
04:15:02.000 --> 04:15:09.520
count down from ten downs to one, and you can

1714
04:15:09.559 --> 04:15:38.360
continue to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1715
04:15:42.959 --> 04:16:11.000
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1716
04:16:11.120 --> 04:16:16.479
count down from five down to one. And as a countdown,

1717
04:16:17.799 --> 04:16:22.799
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1718
04:16:24.159 --> 04:16:33.200
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment.

1719
04:16:34.920 --> 04:16:39.360
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1720
04:16:39.479 --> 04:16:52.600
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1721
04:16:52.639 --> 04:17:01.000
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1722
04:17:01.040 --> 04:17:07.120
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1723
04:17:07.760 --> 04:17:44.879
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four, three,

1724
04:17:45.159 --> 04:18:10.399
two one. And as you notice the gradual letting go

1725
04:18:12.639 --> 04:18:19.639
that the tension in your body, you may also begin

1726
04:18:19.920 --> 04:18:26.879
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1727
04:18:26.959 --> 04:18:34.840
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1728
04:18:35.280 --> 04:18:42.719
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1729
04:18:42.879 --> 04:18:49.120
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1730
04:18:49.159 --> 04:18:53.840
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1731
04:18:53.879 --> 04:18:59.200
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1732
04:19:05.159 --> 04:19:13.719
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1733
04:19:13.840 --> 04:19:20.920
even even if there's background sounds either your side, online,

1734
04:19:21.159 --> 04:19:27.120
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1735
04:19:27.159 --> 04:19:32.399
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1736
04:19:32.440 --> 04:19:35.159
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

1737
04:19:40.000 --> 04:19:42.159
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1738
04:19:42.280 --> 04:19:47.159
room with other people. Of course it might be but generally,

1739
04:19:47.319 --> 04:19:51.920
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1740
04:19:52.120 --> 04:20:02.280
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1741
04:20:08.760 --> 04:20:19.079
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1742
04:20:23.559 --> 04:20:30.319
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1743
04:20:30.639 --> 04:20:42.399
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1744
04:20:42.520 --> 04:20:52.760
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1745
04:20:52.840 --> 04:20:59.680
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1746
04:20:59.799 --> 04:21:03.760
no refert into it. It's not something that you can

1747
04:21:03.840 --> 04:21:15.600
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1748
04:21:15.879 --> 04:21:26.079
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1749
04:21:27.680 --> 04:21:38.200
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1750
04:21:41.079 --> 04:21:52.200
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1751
04:21:52.600 --> 04:22:06.040
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1752
04:22:08.280 --> 04:22:19.760
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1753
04:22:20.879 --> 04:22:26.120
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1754
04:22:27.799 --> 04:22:42.920
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1755
04:22:44.120 --> 04:22:48.600
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1756
04:22:48.639 --> 04:22:55.600
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1757
04:22:56.760 --> 04:23:09.559
relaxed do you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1758
04:23:19.120 --> 04:23:25.799
You can also if you choose stay focused on my

1759
04:23:25.959 --> 04:23:54.040
voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each

1760
04:23:54.440 --> 04:24:21.040
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

1761
04:24:26.319 --> 04:24:42.000
of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count

1762
04:24:42.040 --> 04:24:52.120
from six down to one, and you can notice your

1763
04:24:52.319 --> 04:25:02.600
mind calming down more with each number, do you hear

1764
04:25:02.959 --> 04:27:21.959
me say, naturally feeling calm and slow and peaceful sex five, four, three,

1765
04:27:22.280 --> 04:28:19.120
two one, being aware of how your mind has slowed

1766
04:28:21.280 --> 04:28:47.719
right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

1767
04:28:47.799 --> 04:28:56.159
on your mind, you may notice that there are some

1768
04:28:57.040 --> 04:29:06.440
thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some

1769
04:29:06.680 --> 04:29:19.799
reason perhaps need your attention. That's what you can do

1770
04:29:19.920 --> 04:29:37.559
is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with

1771
04:29:37.799 --> 04:29:43.520
love like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it

1772
04:29:43.559 --> 04:29:51.200
over them, petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to

1773
04:29:51.360 --> 04:29:58.120
let those thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them.

1774
04:29:58.920 --> 04:30:06.760
You just need them. You require them to just calm down,

1775
04:30:08.959 --> 04:30:26.440
slow down, quiet down for now. So as you focus

1776
04:30:26.520 --> 04:30:31.840
on those remaining thoughts as we count down this time

1777
04:30:31.879 --> 04:30:40.360
from seven down to one. With each number, just imagine

1778
04:30:40.479 --> 04:30:56.639
sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts,

1779
04:31:01.719 --> 04:31:07.920
which will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

1780
04:31:12.040 --> 04:31:26.559
With every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed.

1781
04:31:32.120 --> 04:34:03.279
Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one. And

1782
04:34:03.479 --> 04:34:20.919
as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in your body,

1783
04:34:29.279 --> 04:34:42.479
we're going to focus on your hands, because the more

1784
04:34:42.599 --> 04:34:49.680
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1785
04:34:49.919 --> 04:35:10.680
mind are. And there you focus on your hands and

1786
04:35:10.759 --> 04:35:20.840
your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

1787
04:35:21.080 --> 04:35:26.119
clenching of fists or tents in the fingers or anything

1788
04:35:26.200 --> 04:35:40.159
like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1789
04:35:47.119 --> 04:36:09.319
noticing how they feel, because the more relaxed your hands feel,

1790
04:36:12.840 --> 04:36:22.040
the calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you

1791
04:36:22.240 --> 04:36:50.000
feel throughout your body. You may have already noticed your

1792
04:36:54.400 --> 04:37:25.880
mind is starting to drest face just on your hands

1793
04:37:27.040 --> 04:37:45.000
and fingers, allowing them to experience a real deepening of

1794
04:37:45.159 --> 04:38:01.159
that relaxation in your hands and fingers more or relaxed.

1795
04:38:06.200 --> 04:38:24.599
With each number from eight down to one, you can

1796
04:38:24.639 --> 04:38:35.880
almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

1797
04:38:36.080 --> 04:38:55.880
hands and fingers, becoming year and more relaxing. With each number,

1798
04:38:58.240 --> 04:39:13.279
you hear going down eight down to one to drifting,

1799
04:39:16.880 --> 04:41:19.119
to drifting again starting with number eight seven six, five,

1800
04:41:43.599 --> 04:43:30.520
four three two. Just being here now, nothing to think about,

1801
04:43:32.240 --> 04:43:43.840
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1802
04:43:48.240 --> 04:43:55.799
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1803
04:43:56.000 --> 04:44:02.639
how you just normally feel when you take away all

1804
04:44:02.840 --> 04:44:09.840
that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

1805
04:44:10.200 --> 04:44:25.119
stress and worrying and overthinking and the anxiety, tension, just

1806
04:44:25.439 --> 04:44:32.119
generally thinking about stuff. You take that away, which is

1807
04:44:32.159 --> 04:44:41.439
what we do. What we do now you're left with

1808
04:44:44.200 --> 04:44:52.720
a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very

1809
04:44:52.799 --> 04:45:08.279
quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort.

1810
04:45:11.880 --> 04:45:15.240
It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've

1811
04:45:15.279 --> 04:45:29.959
found a special place where everything is peaceful, a place

1812
04:45:30.119 --> 04:45:38.040
where you can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort,

1813
04:45:41.159 --> 04:45:48.959
a place where you can be you, where you can

1814
04:45:49.319 --> 04:45:56.000
accept yourself for who you are, a place where you're

1815
04:45:56.000 --> 04:46:06.560
not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

1816
04:46:06.599 --> 04:46:16.080
you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

1817
04:46:16.159 --> 04:46:25.639
ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1818
04:46:34.479 --> 04:46:41.119
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1819
04:46:48.720 --> 04:46:56.599
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1820
04:46:56.919 --> 04:47:12.240
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1821
04:47:12.319 --> 04:47:22.319
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1822
04:47:26.040 --> 04:47:37.880
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1823
04:47:38.840 --> 04:47:43.479
and you start to realize that actually, that healing energy,

1824
04:47:45.919 --> 04:47:52.319
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1825
04:47:52.840 --> 04:48:04.119
of your brain, and that spine fluid is now mixed

1826
04:48:04.240 --> 04:48:15.400
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1827
04:48:15.599 --> 04:48:27.520
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1828
04:48:30.439 --> 04:48:37.959
you start to realize to actually, what's happening now with

1829
04:48:38.080 --> 04:48:47.799
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, It's actually

1830
04:48:48.159 --> 04:48:58.400
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1831
04:48:58.479 --> 04:49:05.279
to feel just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1832
04:49:07.159 --> 04:49:14.720
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

1833
04:49:14.759 --> 04:49:22.240
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

1834
04:49:22.319 --> 04:49:29.959
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

1835
04:49:30.400 --> 04:49:39.360
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

1836
04:49:44.400 --> 04:49:50.840
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1837
04:49:54.639 --> 04:50:04.759
no longer have that power to control you the way

1838
04:50:04.799 --> 04:50:12.959
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

1839
04:50:13.880 --> 04:50:26.759
that you're the one who decides what affects you, you're

1840
04:50:26.799 --> 04:50:36.720
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

1841
04:50:37.599 --> 04:50:52.560
you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing,

1842
04:50:55.080 --> 04:51:07.319
continuing to grow and prove your life day by day,

1843
04:51:09.560 --> 04:51:17.840
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1844
04:51:22.759 --> 04:51:32.000
and sleep in. It's the most natural thing in the

1845
04:51:32.040 --> 04:51:41.799
world to you, because falling asleep is something that you've

1846
04:51:41.880 --> 04:51:52.599
done so many times in your life, and you know

1847
04:51:52.799 --> 04:51:57.639
that you were born, as we all were, with the

1848
04:51:57.759 --> 04:52:08.840
ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that

1849
04:52:09.639 --> 04:52:21.159
ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

1850
04:52:27.159 --> 04:52:32.000
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep when we

1851
04:52:32.000 --> 04:52:36.639
don't even want to try to think us stay awake.

1852
04:52:37.959 --> 04:52:41.520
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

1853
04:52:41.639 --> 04:52:45.439
or holiday or something we look forward to. We don't

1854
04:52:45.439 --> 04:52:50.080
want to go to sleep. But the more we want

1855
04:52:50.119 --> 04:52:55.279
to stay awake, the more we just start to drift.

1856
04:52:59.439 --> 04:53:03.439
And the more more you fight drifting, more you try

1857
04:53:03.520 --> 04:53:08.639
to stop yourself and drift in asleep, the deeper and

1858
04:53:08.840 --> 04:53:20.479
stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

1859
04:53:20.639 --> 04:53:27.119
the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

1860
04:53:30.319 --> 04:53:43.680
but it's our birthright it's part of our DNA, and

1861
04:53:43.880 --> 04:53:49.560
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1862
04:53:50.240 --> 04:54:03.279
we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a

1863
04:54:03.520 --> 04:54:27.799
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

1864
04:54:28.240 --> 04:54:34.080
easy to let go, because that's all it is. It's

1865
04:54:34.319 --> 04:54:49.000
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

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play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

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my to relax you. When you press that play button,

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you've given me permission for my words to affect you

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in a positive, only a positive way, opening up your

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04:55:37.319 --> 04:55:59.799
mind too useful and healing suggestions that can have. So

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it's an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

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as well as those changes that continue long after the

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recording ends. Those changes within you to continue to flourish

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and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

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allowing you to move forward in your life in the

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direction that you use for yourself. And this feeling, this

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feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just

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feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

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and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

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Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

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physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

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not that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind

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04:58:40.319 --> 04:58:52.200
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

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now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

1885
04:59:02.599 --> 04:59:13.479
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

1886
04:59:13.639 --> 04:59:27.599
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

1887
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and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

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And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

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than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

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you're the person that has done this. You are the

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one that has opened your mind up to the simple

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facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

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and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

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the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

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when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

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think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

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that healing energy is spreading through your body and your

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mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

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can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad. It's

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not a leaf art entry doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't

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deserve to be here. Doesn't belong here. Negativity has no

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place in your life, which makes room feel more comfort,

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more heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it?

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Just the let go with everything. I'm going to count

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down now from twenty down to one. You can continue

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to relax. If you choose, you can drift to sleep.

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With every number you hear me say, you can fill

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twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you can fill

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twice sleeping now. Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

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five four. This is your time to just take a break,

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your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

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to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

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And you you're the only person that can make that decision.

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You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

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to just relax, to just take some time off so

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that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

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with how you feel physically. And in the process of

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this body scan, you focus on different parts of your body,

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those parts that you focus on and observe, even though

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you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

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to relax It's kind of expected. You expect when you

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listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

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when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

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my words, and as my words guide you to focus

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on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

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actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

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your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

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mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

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focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

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energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

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healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

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your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

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all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

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every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

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And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

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feeling of comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in a

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way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

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because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

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if if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to

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this and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what

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you'll get. If what you need is to fall asleep

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naturally and easily as your mind drifts. That's also what

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will happen, because by pressing that play button on the

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podcast and listening to me, you give permission for your

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body and your mind. In fact, you give the command

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to your body and your mind to relax deeply and

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to drift off to sleep if that's what you want

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or need. And as I focus on the different parts

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of your body, you may start to just drift. And

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then you come back again and you hear me talking,

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and I'm focusing on a different parts of your body,

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and you may find yourself drifting, but you don't realize

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you're drifting until you stop drifting and you're alert again

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to my voice focusing on a different part of your

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body starts to relax even deeper, because that drifting is

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basically you already in the sleep zone. And the more you drift,

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the longer you drift, and the longer you drift, eventually

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that drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last you

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remember until you wake up in your own time, when

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you experience the right amount of sleep for you, because

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when you do and if you do fall asleep, it's

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extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep, healing sleep. I'm going

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it feels so nice to relax into your own body

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and mind, as if you feel that heating energy is

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spreading through it, relaxing us so deeply, relaxing, use so

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so deeply. As we start to focus on your eyes,

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moving down to youture, down to your neck, you shoulders, arms, hands, fingers,

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your chest, yes, stomach, your back, your spine, your hips,

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your legs, your feet, your toes and feedingeeings, spreading and

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growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus

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again on parts of your body, focusing this time on

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your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

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the whole of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers.

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Maybe you could move your fingers a little bit. You

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can focus on each one individually, both hands, and even

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though as you focus on both of your hands now

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they almost seem to just melt into one where there

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is your right hand start in your left hand end,

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almost as if just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees,

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just noticing how your knees feel. Now, focusing on your elbows,

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focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

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off your elbows. Yes, now, focusing absurving the back of

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your neck, feeding that energy on the back of your neck,

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Observing your ankles, being aware of physical sensations.

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In your ankles, not to sin.

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Now your TOAs I'm going for your feet. Being aware

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how your toes feel right now, nine too, sin, how

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your entire body feels, noticing your mind feels now, letting go,

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lett him go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go,

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letting go everything everything. I can start now, and I

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05:30:01.840 --> 05:30:03.959
would like you just, first of all, just to see

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yourself lying down on the message table, lying on your front.

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Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

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feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and you feel

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you feel confident in how you look as well. So

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there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

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05:30:40.119 --> 05:30:48.279
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

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so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you,

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is about how you feel and how you can enjoy

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that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting

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05:31:14.560 --> 05:31:20.279
go and allowing my hands and my fingers to relax

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05:31:20.360 --> 05:31:31.400
you by a message your body. So I want to

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start off just by placing my hands on the back

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of your head, just gently, just you can feel what

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05:31:41.599 --> 05:31:50.080
my hands feel like really on you, so you can

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05:31:50.119 --> 05:31:52.479
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

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of your head. With my hands to the side of

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your head, not pray thin, but just holding there very gently,

2009
05:32:05.599 --> 05:32:08.639
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2010
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just so you can feel my hands so you can

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05:32:15.159 --> 05:32:28.400
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

2012
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the back of your head again and gently let them

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05:32:32.840 --> 05:32:45.240
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

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feel my hands gently stroke in the back of your

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05:32:55.119 --> 05:33:01.919
neck to start with, just so you can get used

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05:33:01.959 --> 05:33:06.919
to the feeling of my hands on your skin, get

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05:33:06.919 --> 05:33:15.279
accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

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05:33:15.599 --> 05:33:25.200
it's all fine. And I'm going to start gently messaging

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the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now.

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This is a very trusting situation really, because our necks

2021
05:33:49.159 --> 05:33:53.680
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

2022
05:33:54.200 --> 05:33:59.200
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

2023
05:33:59.279 --> 05:34:04.840
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

2024
05:34:04.880 --> 05:34:13.479
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

2025
05:34:13.680 --> 05:34:30.599
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm, and there's a

2026
05:34:30.680 --> 05:34:39.439
massage the sides of your neck gently moving from the

2027
05:34:39.479 --> 05:34:43.319
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

2028
05:34:43.360 --> 05:34:46.720
where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

2029
05:34:48.720 --> 05:34:54.200
to your jaw, your ears kind of area that side

2030
05:34:54.200 --> 05:34:59.240
of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer than

2031
05:34:59.560 --> 05:35:14.639
the front of your neck. And then message in the

2032
05:35:15.400 --> 05:35:23.159
back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

2033
05:35:23.319 --> 05:35:31.400
hold tension, and as that area's message, you can actually

2034
05:35:31.520 --> 05:35:35.319
feel a sense of release in the back of your

2035
05:35:35.400 --> 05:35:43.520
neck and maybe you can breathe it out as well.

2036
05:35:46.040 --> 05:35:58.799
Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel. And then

2037
05:35:58.880 --> 05:36:03.119
moving down to that area between your neck and your shoulders,

2038
05:36:04.520 --> 05:36:13.479
that muscle area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2039
05:36:15.639 --> 05:36:17.880
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2040
05:36:17.919 --> 05:36:20.080
of people would message if they were going to give

2041
05:36:20.119 --> 05:36:26.599
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2042
05:36:27.080 --> 05:36:29.680
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2043
05:36:31.400 --> 05:36:36.279
from the neck and a game that can hold tension

2044
05:36:37.319 --> 05:36:43.520
and stress. And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message

2045
05:36:43.639 --> 05:36:51.119
is useful. And you decide how deep that message is

2046
05:37:02.400 --> 05:37:09.439
and just allow my knuckles just to dig in to

2047
05:37:09.560 --> 05:37:19.479
get to those muscles and to read relaxed all the time,

2048
05:37:19.759 --> 05:37:37.639
being firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down

2049
05:37:37.720 --> 05:37:46.439
the area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles

2050
05:37:46.439 --> 05:37:57.159
of your shoulders, and maybe initially just pulling up the

2051
05:37:57.240 --> 05:38:01.000
shoulders a little bit of the table just to give

2052
05:38:01.000 --> 05:38:05.080
you a little bit of a stretch, but very gently.

2053
05:38:11.520 --> 05:38:14.240
And you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2054
05:38:14.959 --> 05:38:16.040
the sides.

2055
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And the back.

2056
05:38:24.560 --> 05:38:28.959
Again, this is a part that can really take quite

2057
05:38:29.000 --> 05:38:36.840
a bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing. If

2058
05:38:37.159 --> 05:38:45.080
if you wish to really release the tension to really

2059
05:38:45.119 --> 05:38:51.560
get into those muscles, and you can let your fingers

2060
05:38:51.599 --> 05:38:57.680
in there. You can feel really nice. Sometimes it's just

2061
05:38:57.720 --> 05:39:08.279
being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly. It can

2062
05:39:08.319 --> 05:39:18.040
all be beneficial to the real oxation with the muscles

2063
05:39:18.080 --> 05:39:37.639
in your shoulders. Now to move down your arms, we

2064
05:39:37.799 --> 05:39:48.560
do one arm at a time, starting with your right arm. Well,

2065
05:39:48.599 --> 05:39:53.360
I des, I just lift your arm up, just hold

2066
05:39:53.400 --> 05:39:59.119
it to the side of you that way still be attached,

2067
05:40:01.040 --> 05:40:15.759
and I just message the tops of your arms all

2068
05:40:15.799 --> 05:40:33.479
the way down to your forearms into your wrists, gently

2069
05:40:33.799 --> 05:40:46.759
massaging that parts. The softer part, which is the underpart

2070
05:40:46.799 --> 05:40:52.360
of the arm which leads to the crease in your

2071
05:40:52.400 --> 05:41:08.479
elbow the inside. It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just

2072
05:41:08.520 --> 05:41:18.880
having that stroked can feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing.

2073
05:41:27.599 --> 05:41:38.240
Now moving down to your right hand, just holding your

2074
05:41:38.360 --> 05:41:51.560
hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently on

2075
05:41:51.680 --> 05:41:58.880
the back of your hand and stretching your fingers ever

2076
05:41:59.040 --> 05:42:07.840
so lightly at the same time, pressing down and massaging

2077
05:42:08.560 --> 05:42:21.240
each finger, and then starting to massage the palms of

2078
05:42:21.360 --> 05:42:33.880
the hand. Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently,

2079
05:42:39.159 --> 05:42:44.759
and actually having your hand held can really be an

2080
05:42:44.840 --> 05:42:52.360
emotional experience sometimes even if it is a stranger, so

2081
05:42:52.439 --> 05:42:56.720
when you don't know very well, like a massage person

2082
05:42:56.959 --> 05:43:09.959
or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and you can

2083
05:43:10.000 --> 05:43:22.639
feel nice and you can feel safe. And as I

2084
05:43:22.720 --> 05:43:31.200
put that right arm back down where it was, we

2085
05:43:31.599 --> 05:43:38.119
did the same with your left arm, exactly the same

2086
05:43:42.799 --> 05:43:47.520
message in the muscles in your arm, all the way

2087
05:43:47.599 --> 05:44:01.240
down to your rest, stroking the inside of your arm,

2088
05:44:01.319 --> 05:44:14.799
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

2089
05:44:14.919 --> 05:44:31.319
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging

2090
05:44:31.560 --> 05:44:51.319
the palm of your left hand. You feel so so relaxing,

2091
05:44:58.959 --> 05:45:16.759
so comforting, mhm, and just rest your left down, back down.

2092
05:45:24.319 --> 05:45:35.119
Start to massage your back, the biggest part of your body,

2093
05:45:36.000 --> 05:45:42.919
starting at the top, starting again where we already have been,

2094
05:45:43.680 --> 05:45:48.400
the area at the top in between his shoulders, near

2095
05:45:48.439 --> 05:45:53.639
your neck. Going back a message in that area again,

2096
05:45:54.759 --> 05:46:08.479
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

2097
05:46:08.520 --> 05:46:16.639
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards,

2098
05:46:16.439 --> 05:46:23.680
a massage in the your back, but the the outsides

2099
05:46:24.000 --> 05:46:33.560
of your back, the parts where your arms would maybe

2100
05:46:34.000 --> 05:46:46.759
rest against, almost the part that connects your front to

2101
05:46:46.880 --> 05:47:04.439
your back, and just massaging down firmly but gently, as

2102
05:47:04.560 --> 05:47:12.479
firm as you want, moving down, and then moving across

2103
05:47:12.520 --> 05:47:14.799
a little bit, and moving all the way down again,

2104
05:47:16.119 --> 05:47:28.880
being very gentle yet firm as you choose. Eventually you

2105
05:47:29.080 --> 05:47:33.720
get to the spine. We can message the muscles and

2106
05:47:34.040 --> 05:47:37.520
either side of your spine from the top of your

2107
05:47:37.639 --> 05:47:49.560
neck all the way down to your lower back. We

2108
05:47:49.639 --> 05:47:58.759
can do that a few times. Sometimes people use the

2109
05:47:58.840 --> 05:48:04.599
knuckle or the you know, two fingers and just go

2110
05:48:04.720 --> 05:48:09.119
your side of the spine and almost just push down,

2111
05:48:09.919 --> 05:48:13.639
go all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2112
05:48:13.880 --> 05:48:23.560
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2113
05:48:24.720 --> 05:48:31.639
your body so that you feel more relaxed, but at

2114
05:48:31.639 --> 05:48:48.000
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2115
05:48:48.080 --> 05:48:56.439
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2116
05:48:56.439 --> 05:49:01.959
bottom of your ribs to your elvis, I'm going to

2117
05:49:02.080 --> 05:49:08.799
message that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2118
05:49:08.840 --> 05:49:13.639
other side and i will pull the muscles gently and

2119
05:49:13.840 --> 05:49:18.599
massage and push from one end that side or the

2120
05:49:18.639 --> 05:49:23.720
way to my side to the middle of fact to

2121
05:49:23.720 --> 05:49:30.319
where your spine is. Massaging that side of your spine

2122
05:49:30.560 --> 05:49:35.799
the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like

2123
05:49:35.959 --> 05:49:44.200
kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm yet

2124
05:49:45.000 --> 05:49:53.880
lots there to message. Potentially one of the most important

2125
05:49:53.919 --> 05:50:01.279
places to actually have a message because you reasly feel it.

2126
05:50:03.000 --> 05:50:08.040
You really feel the release and the pleasure of having

2127
05:50:08.080 --> 05:50:15.599
your lower back massaged. It releases so much from your

2128
05:50:15.639 --> 05:50:25.720
body that's not useful, starting a healing process which will

2129
05:50:25.759 --> 05:50:38.840
continue long after this recording is over. The message in

2130
05:50:38.919 --> 05:50:42.200
this part of your body not only feels really good

2131
05:50:42.799 --> 05:50:47.919
for you, it's actually fun to do because it is,

2132
05:50:48.360 --> 05:50:53.439
as I said, like kneading bread. It's a part that

2133
05:50:53.479 --> 05:50:58.680
you can really get hold of and really massage deeply.

2134
05:51:00.959 --> 05:51:11.240
If that's your choice, then I'm going to move over

2135
05:51:11.279 --> 05:51:13.599
to the other side of your body and do the

2136
05:51:13.680 --> 05:51:25.599
same with the opposite heart of your lawer back, kneading

2137
05:51:25.720 --> 05:51:33.919
and messaging from your sides all the way to the

2138
05:51:33.919 --> 05:51:42.759
middle of your back where your spine is pressing and kneading,

2139
05:51:47.840 --> 05:51:53.279
firm and gentle at the same time. It feels so

2140
05:51:54.000 --> 05:52:07.159
releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation or

2141
05:52:07.319 --> 05:52:17.720
mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your stomach as

2142
05:52:17.720 --> 05:52:22.599
it's being stretched. Even though you're in your stomach now,

2143
05:52:23.119 --> 05:52:26.919
you can feel it being stretched because that whole area

2144
05:52:27.080 --> 05:52:38.159
is connected to your stomach. Now we're going to move

2145
05:52:38.439 --> 05:52:43.279
or move further up to your top of your body

2146
05:52:43.840 --> 05:52:51.479
and I we did the same this time, starting with

2147
05:52:51.560 --> 05:52:57.040
your upper back. Put my hands forward over and mess

2148
05:52:57.080 --> 05:53:04.200
it massage in that area up to your spine, from

2149
05:53:04.240 --> 05:53:08.439
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2150
05:53:08.560 --> 05:53:14.919
some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2151
05:53:15.080 --> 05:53:20.759
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2152
05:53:20.840 --> 05:53:27.840
all connected the chest and the back connect together. I'm

2153
05:53:27.880 --> 05:53:31.080
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2154
05:53:31.319 --> 05:53:42.080
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

2155
05:53:42.159 --> 05:53:50.639
your upper back all the way to your spine, and

2156
05:53:50.720 --> 05:53:53.479
then I'll move down a bit, and I'll continue with

2157
05:53:53.560 --> 05:53:56.479
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

2158
05:54:00.319 --> 05:54:14.159
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now move

2159
05:54:14.279 --> 05:54:18.520
or the other side again and do the exact same

2160
05:54:18.639 --> 05:54:22.639
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

2161
05:54:23.680 --> 05:54:42.240
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2162
05:54:42.840 --> 05:54:49.479
and then continue in that all the way down, including

2163
05:54:49.599 --> 05:55:06.759
your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2164
05:55:07.040 --> 05:55:13.319
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2165
05:55:13.479 --> 05:55:22.680
sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg, and

2166
05:55:22.799 --> 05:55:32.599
massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2167
05:55:32.639 --> 05:55:39.080
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2168
05:55:39.119 --> 05:55:42.400
an area that can be very tense at times and

2169
05:55:42.560 --> 05:55:45.959
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2170
05:55:45.959 --> 05:55:54.159
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

2171
05:55:54.279 --> 05:56:01.560
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

2172
05:56:01.639 --> 05:56:07.200
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2173
05:56:07.439 --> 05:56:20.080
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles,

2174
05:56:22.959 --> 05:56:29.439
massage in your half muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2175
05:56:32.840 --> 05:56:49.799
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles,

2176
05:56:52.000 --> 05:56:57.720
in the back of your back, of your ankles, just

2177
05:56:57.959 --> 05:57:09.319
gently massage in that area. Yeah, maybe lifting the leg

2178
05:57:09.520 --> 05:57:31.400
and stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot,

2179
05:57:32.919 --> 05:57:42.880
massage the bottom of your feet and the side of

2180
05:57:42.919 --> 05:57:54.200
your fate gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2181
05:57:59.639 --> 05:58:05.200
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

2182
05:58:05.279 --> 05:58:14.680
your feet massaged to just overtake you. As I continue

2183
05:58:14.759 --> 05:58:21.400
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2184
05:58:24.000 --> 05:58:29.720
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2185
05:58:29.799 --> 05:58:35.759
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2186
05:58:35.880 --> 05:58:44.000
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2187
05:58:44.080 --> 05:58:50.639
toes gently the message in the bottoms of your toes

2188
05:58:51.279 --> 05:59:06.599
with my fingers, each one individually, moving her to the

2189
05:59:06.720 --> 05:59:16.159
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2190
05:59:16.200 --> 05:59:20.639
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2191
05:59:20.680 --> 05:59:28.240
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently that

2192
05:59:28.400 --> 05:59:42.479
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2193
05:59:42.520 --> 05:59:48.680
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2194
05:59:48.759 --> 05:59:57.439
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted, I

2195
05:59:57.439 --> 06:00:02.400
could make a future ording want spend more time on

2196
06:00:02.560 --> 06:00:14.799
one particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles.

2197
06:00:20.720 --> 06:00:34.159
Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down

2198
06:00:36.439 --> 06:00:42.720
your ain, cool into your feet. Massage in the backs

2199
06:00:42.759 --> 06:00:53.439
of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes,

2200
06:00:53.680 --> 06:00:59.880
and massage in each tone individually, and they're feeling the

2201
06:01:00.159 --> 06:01:06.119
pleasure and release that you experience when your having your

2202
06:01:06.159 --> 06:01:27.720
feet messaged. Feels really good. Now shed turn over in

2203
06:01:27.759 --> 06:01:38.599
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just going to

2204
06:01:38.680 --> 06:01:55.759
start again for your neck area, in your shoulders, just

2205
06:01:55.880 --> 06:02:06.400
to get back in touch with that area. And as

2206
06:02:06.439 --> 06:02:18.119
you move up, I can clean my hands, make them

2207
06:02:18.119 --> 06:02:23.799
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

2208
06:02:28.159 --> 06:02:39.319
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

2209
06:02:39.360 --> 06:02:45.200
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2210
06:02:45.319 --> 06:03:02.159
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around, just scalp, massaging

2211
06:03:02.400 --> 06:03:12.680
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, gently

2212
06:03:17.599 --> 06:03:35.080
the side of your neck, your chin, m and just

2213
06:03:35.200 --> 06:03:46.599
moving down from your neck down to your chest, starting

2214
06:03:46.799 --> 06:03:54.159
by massage in the very top of your chest where

2215
06:03:54.159 --> 06:04:07.040
the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2216
06:04:07.680 --> 06:04:10.919
and then just message in the whole of the chest,

2217
06:04:20.080 --> 06:04:32.159
moving the chest around, because it's quite a large area.

2218
06:04:34.040 --> 06:04:41.520
You can move from one side to the next, moving

2219
06:04:41.880 --> 06:04:52.919
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are, stretching up,

2220
06:04:55.040 --> 06:04:58.119
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2221
06:05:03.400 --> 06:05:12.080
moving up over your chest and then moving down again,

2222
06:05:24.639 --> 06:05:29.439
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

2223
06:05:29.759 --> 06:05:36.479
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2224
06:05:36.599 --> 06:05:46.200
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2225
06:05:46.479 --> 06:05:52.119
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

2226
06:05:52.240 --> 06:06:11.000
down to just below your red cage, moving down, then

2227
06:06:11.119 --> 06:06:20.319
messaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

2228
06:06:20.479 --> 06:06:34.959
it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also

2229
06:06:35.080 --> 06:06:40.360
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

2230
06:06:40.439 --> 06:06:46.759
area that really doesn't get much attention but feels really

2231
06:06:46.840 --> 06:06:57.200
good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the

2232
06:06:57.240 --> 06:07:04.200
sides of your body, just below your arms, all the

2233
06:07:04.279 --> 06:07:17.680
way down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

2234
06:07:19.720 --> 06:07:23.119
We're going to stand one side of you like I

2235
06:07:23.159 --> 06:07:27.680
did when I did your lower back. We're gonna do

2236
06:07:27.759 --> 06:07:37.040
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2237
06:07:37.279 --> 06:07:51.880
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in

2238
06:07:51.919 --> 06:07:56.159
a whole area from below your ribs all the way

2239
06:07:56.200 --> 06:08:07.119
down to below your belly button and then move around

2240
06:08:07.159 --> 06:08:17.080
to the other side of you and repeat that process

2241
06:08:17.360 --> 06:08:32.240
of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

2242
06:08:32.799 --> 06:08:37.560
And it's something about having your stomach massage that's different

2243
06:08:37.599 --> 06:08:44.439
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2244
06:08:45.040 --> 06:08:48.919
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomach

2245
06:08:50.319 --> 06:08:58.959
that we may not be aware of. As in our message,

2246
06:08:59.040 --> 06:09:08.599
your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles around

2247
06:09:08.799 --> 06:09:17.319
your belly button, and then going the other way around.

2248
06:09:23.840 --> 06:09:29.560
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2249
06:09:30.200 --> 06:09:40.520
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2250
06:09:40.560 --> 06:09:47.319
of your thighs the muscles, massaging them, and I can

2251
06:09:47.439 --> 06:09:53.439
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2252
06:09:56.240 --> 06:10:02.400
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at front of

2253
06:10:02.479 --> 06:10:13.479
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2254
06:10:13.560 --> 06:10:24.880
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2255
06:10:25.000 --> 06:10:37.200
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2256
06:10:37.520 --> 06:10:52.319
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2257
06:10:52.360 --> 06:10:58.439
then with each foot in each hand, just gently massaging

2258
06:10:59.279 --> 06:11:07.599
the whole of the foot, the top the bottom, your heel,

2259
06:11:08.040 --> 06:11:15.439
your ankle, your toes, message in every part of your

2260
06:11:15.520 --> 06:11:25.720
feet feels so good. Just to let go and enjoy

2261
06:11:26.159 --> 06:11:50.200
the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

2262
06:11:50.360 --> 06:11:57.360
and so many feelings that come just from touching your skin.

2263
06:12:08.080 --> 06:12:10.639
And you can just lie.

2264
06:12:10.479 --> 06:12:20.240
There for as long as you choose, enjoying the feeling

2265
06:12:21.560 --> 06:12:23.720
of deep comfort.

2266
06:12:26.159 --> 06:12:58.240
From being massaged by me. Enjoy feeling deeply laxed. And

2267
06:12:58.279 --> 06:13:04.720
all we're going to do is blow out some candles.

2268
06:13:07.119 --> 06:13:22.240
In your mind, there are going to be a hundred candles,

2269
06:13:29.319 --> 06:13:35.159
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2270
06:13:35.479 --> 06:13:43.919
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down

2271
06:13:48.080 --> 06:13:55.000
all the way down to one, and each time I

2272
06:13:55.200 --> 06:14:04.319
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

2273
06:14:04.360 --> 06:14:15.400
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically gently

2274
06:14:15.479 --> 06:14:31.560
blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

2275
06:14:31.599 --> 06:14:45.479
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2276
06:14:45.599 --> 06:14:53.080
I'll say the next number to move down, and you

2277
06:14:53.119 --> 06:15:05.680
can just blow that one out as well. And as

2278
06:15:05.720 --> 06:15:16.279
we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more

2279
06:15:16.319 --> 06:15:25.000
and more relaxed. If you need to sleep, you'll also

2280
06:15:25.159 --> 06:15:36.759
find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you

2281
06:15:36.919 --> 06:15:47.200
may struggle to blow out all one hundred of these

2282
06:15:47.360 --> 06:16:12.279
candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed, more

2283
06:16:12.720 --> 06:16:30.000
and more deeply tired, And the further you go down,

2284
06:16:32.599 --> 06:16:46.279
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2285
06:16:46.639 --> 06:17:01.080
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2286
06:17:01.279 --> 06:17:05.439
even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2287
06:17:10.279 --> 06:17:21.520
you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment, be

2288
06:17:21.880 --> 06:17:37.360
me start to just not even notice them at all,

2289
06:17:39.840 --> 06:17:53.360
because they are unimportant. Where I am, I've got the

2290
06:17:53.439 --> 06:18:00.639
sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes

2291
06:18:00.680 --> 06:18:06.680
to say hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that

2292
06:18:06.799 --> 06:18:23.479
goes by, maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but

2293
06:18:23.560 --> 06:18:35.439
none of that scene as important whatsoever. More candles you

2294
06:18:35.560 --> 06:18:50.040
blow out, the less important anything is. More candles you

2295
06:18:50.159 --> 06:19:00.279
blow out, the further you seem to move oh way

2296
06:19:06.159 --> 06:19:19.560
from sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems to

2297
06:19:19.799 --> 06:19:36.799
just move away on its own. You feel more calmer

2298
06:19:40.400 --> 06:19:58.479
with every candle you blow out, guiding the next number,

2299
06:20:01.279 --> 06:20:10.880
did you hear me say? And then you blow that

2300
06:20:11.200 --> 06:20:37.799
candle out to so easy, so simple, We're going to

2301
06:20:38.200 --> 06:20:52.639
start by introducing the first candle, which is a hundred

2302
06:20:56.479 --> 06:21:11.360
first candles one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2303
06:21:18.119 --> 06:21:30.959
you'll find immediately a slight change in how you feel,

2304
06:21:36.000 --> 06:21:44.279
as well as a real sense of positivity growing within you,

2305
06:21:50.319 --> 06:22:20.520
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred, glory that

2306
06:22:20.840 --> 06:23:31.119
candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, can ninety seven,

2307
06:23:53.439 --> 06:25:26.400
CAM ninety six, ten ninety five and ninety four, candle

2308
06:25:32.159 --> 06:27:00.119
ninety three, candle ninety two and ninety one, ten to ninety,

2309
06:27:27.040 --> 06:28:27.119
eighty nine and fifty eight and.

2310
06:28:38.680 --> 06:30:19.840
Eight, candle eighty and eighty.

2311
06:30:19.919 --> 06:31:38.599
Five, ten, ten, ten, eighty.

2312
06:31:38.439 --> 06:34:57.599
Two and two one can seventy nine, can do seventy eight,

2313
06:35:06.479 --> 06:36:09.119
candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle

2314
06:36:11.919 --> 06:37:12.639
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one,

2315
06:37:29.759 --> 06:38:30.840
candle seventy one, candle seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight,

2316
06:38:40.599 --> 06:39:43.279
candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle

2317
06:39:45.439 --> 06:40:55.919
sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one,

2318
06:41:00.599 --> 06:42:27.520
candle sixty and fifty nine handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven,

2319
06:42:46.799 --> 06:44:15.119
candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle

2320
06:44:17.639 --> 06:45:40.959
fifty three, handle fifty two fifty two, ten to.

2321
06:45:44.080 --> 06:47:21.639
Fifty two, candle fifty one, candle fifty candle foty nine,

2322
06:47:48.720 --> 06:49:40.560
candle forty eight, can forty seven, candle forty six, candle

2323
06:49:43.880 --> 06:50:59.159
forty five, candle voughty two candle.

2324
06:51:03.040 --> 06:53:07.799
Four to handle forty candle thirty nine, can do thirty eight,

2325
06:53:37.000 --> 06:55:10.599
I can't do thirty seven ten two thirty five candle

2326
06:55:15.599 --> 06:58:30.400
thirty four, handle thirty three had thirty one candle thirty

2327
06:58:37.520 --> 07:00:25.840
and twin ten nine can fruitsy paints and twenty seven

2328
07:00:59.040 --> 07:02:40.759
and twenty six and twenty five and twin tief f

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07:03:15.119 --> 07:04:38.599
endle twenty three, hand to twenty two and two to

2330
07:04:39.040 --> 07:08:11.119
one and to winty and and ninety candle seventeen sixteen

2331
07:09:03.439 --> 07:10:31.799
cancel fourteen and well.

2332
07:11:17.319 --> 07:11:31.040
Four and eleven.

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Ten jame do.

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Nine ten.

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Y two six, can't can do.

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07:16:51.880 --> 07:17:42.880
Woo and doy.

2337
07:18:39.639 --> 07:19:55.360
Two two candle. Let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2338
07:19:55.639 --> 07:20:01.880
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2339
07:20:03.240 --> 07:20:07.840
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all go,

2340
07:20:11.159 --> 07:20:18.840
because none of it is useful in this moment. This

2341
07:20:19.080 --> 07:20:39.000
is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing

2342
07:20:39.080 --> 07:20:47.040
yourself to get in touch with that natural sense of

2343
07:20:47.240 --> 07:20:55.880
peace that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2344
07:20:57.000 --> 07:21:01.959
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2345
07:21:02.080 --> 07:21:08.200
set up the right time and place in order for

2346
07:21:08.240 --> 07:21:17.240
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2347
07:21:17.560 --> 07:21:22.919
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2348
07:21:22.959 --> 07:21:33.240
to do because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow

2349
07:21:33.360 --> 07:21:39.240
your body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2350
07:21:42.520 --> 07:21:46.959
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2351
07:21:47.000 --> 07:21:52.919
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2352
07:21:53.040 --> 07:22:02.159
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2353
07:22:03.919 --> 07:22:11.000
your body will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the

2354
07:22:11.119 --> 07:22:15.840
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2355
07:22:16.919 --> 07:22:25.439
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2356
07:22:25.479 --> 07:22:29.560
here to there, we're walking around and we're doing stuff,

2357
07:22:31.759 --> 07:22:38.119
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2358
07:22:38.319 --> 07:22:45.439
really relax deeply. So it kind of waits for you

2359
07:22:45.599 --> 07:22:54.759
to lead the way, waits for your permission, and when

2360
07:22:54.799 --> 07:23:01.439
you do give your permission, when you give to say.

2361
07:23:01.479 --> 07:23:07.919
So we need say okay, it's time for your body

2362
07:23:09.520 --> 07:23:18.479
to let go completely and relax totally. Your body just follows.

2363
07:23:21.479 --> 07:23:26.919
It's like a breath of relief. Ah good, I can

2364
07:23:26.959 --> 07:23:34.040
now relax. That feeling at the end of a day,

2365
07:23:34.080 --> 07:23:37.840
of a very physical day that you may experience in

2366
07:23:37.880 --> 07:23:41.479
the past. But you get home and you just sit

2367
07:23:41.639 --> 07:23:45.599
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off

2368
07:23:45.639 --> 07:23:51.479
and not Ah, feels so nice. Know that you don't

2369
07:23:52.119 --> 07:23:55.479
have to get up again for a little while at

2370
07:23:55.560 --> 07:23:59.360
least if you choose, you can just sit there for

2371
07:23:59.400 --> 07:24:12.159
maybe an hour or it feels blissful. And just by

2372
07:24:12.319 --> 07:24:17.439
sitting down like that, your body knows that it's time

2373
07:24:17.479 --> 07:24:22.880
to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2374
07:24:25.040 --> 07:24:35.360
Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to

2375
07:24:35.520 --> 07:24:45.200
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2376
07:24:45.400 --> 07:24:54.240
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2377
07:24:54.560 --> 07:25:14.000
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2378
07:25:14.200 --> 07:25:20.520
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2379
07:25:22.319 --> 07:25:27.040
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2380
07:25:27.080 --> 07:25:30.479
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2381
07:25:31.799 --> 07:25:35.799
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2382
07:25:35.919 --> 07:25:40.959
space to let go completely and relax. They seem more

2383
07:25:41.080 --> 07:25:49.439
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2384
07:25:49.520 --> 07:25:58.119
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2385
07:26:00.080 --> 07:26:06.799
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2386
07:26:11.200 --> 07:26:18.639
to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

2387
07:26:18.799 --> 07:26:26.560
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a

2388
07:26:26.639 --> 07:26:35.439
button and all the tension just releases, and it's like

2389
07:26:35.479 --> 07:26:39.439
a wheel, like a cog, like the inside of a clock,

2390
07:26:39.639 --> 07:26:43.479
just unwinding. And it's almost like you could see the

2391
07:26:44.479 --> 07:26:49.840
little wind up knob that's used just going the opposite

2392
07:26:49.880 --> 07:26:56.000
way that you choose to wind it up, and the

2393
07:26:56.119 --> 07:27:06.720
energy that fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing

2394
07:27:06.840 --> 07:27:14.639
its power, losing its strength. As a sense of relaxation

2395
07:27:15.000 --> 07:27:25.799
becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a the

2396
07:27:25.959 --> 07:27:33.080
more relaxed you feel, that your mind starts to wonder,

2397
07:27:36.080 --> 07:27:41.959
maybe seem to stop listening to me for a while,

2398
07:27:43.560 --> 07:27:48.919
your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're

2399
07:27:48.959 --> 07:27:54.240
listening to me again, and that was just your mind

2400
07:27:54.599 --> 07:28:05.080
drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when

2401
07:28:05.119 --> 07:28:12.080
we're stressed and tense, we're not mean I actually be

2402
07:28:12.799 --> 07:28:17.720
aware of what we need, what we physically or emotionally

2403
07:28:19.720 --> 07:28:27.759
need in this moment. But when you allow your body

2404
07:28:28.119 --> 07:28:33.599
and mind to relax completely and you let go of

2405
07:28:33.880 --> 07:28:43.680
all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all letting them go allow

2406
07:28:43.799 --> 07:28:54.000
them to drop onto the floor when you start to

2407
07:28:54.040 --> 07:29:04.040
get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation, and

2408
07:29:04.560 --> 07:29:10.720
this feels so nice to be in touch with the

2409
07:29:10.919 --> 07:29:20.240
calmness of the different body parts as they become looser

2410
07:29:21.799 --> 07:29:36.119
and looser. Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless,

2411
07:29:38.759 --> 07:29:42.720
as that cool air enters through your mouth or nose

2412
07:29:43.919 --> 07:29:55.000
into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then

2413
07:29:55.119 --> 07:30:01.400
just breathing out any excess remain in ten journal stress

2414
07:30:03.080 --> 07:30:11.560
from every part of your body and mind. And as

2415
07:30:11.599 --> 07:30:17.240
you start to focus on your mind, maybe you notice

2416
07:30:17.479 --> 07:30:25.840
that things come to a standstill or maybe just much

2417
07:30:26.240 --> 07:30:34.400
much lower than before, because your mind is not really

2418
07:30:35.680 --> 07:30:45.080
needed when listening to my voice, which allows your mind

2419
07:30:45.240 --> 07:30:53.599
to relax just as deeply as your body. And that's

2420
07:30:53.680 --> 07:31:07.520
synchronicity between the relaxation your body and relaxation of your mind.

2421
07:31:09.240 --> 07:31:19.240
Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed

2422
07:31:21.680 --> 07:31:37.560
really is a great healing experience fear and has so

2423
07:31:37.959 --> 07:31:47.720
many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2424
07:31:48.599 --> 07:31:54.360
To be able to let go over everything and to

2425
07:31:54.560 --> 07:32:05.279
relax completely. You know, all parts of your body and mind,

2426
07:32:07.040 --> 07:32:15.599
even your bones are rexed, all your muscles are raxed,

2427
07:32:22.439 --> 07:32:35.880
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every

2428
07:32:36.400 --> 07:32:53.119
hair that you have it is also deeply relaxed. And

2429
07:32:53.360 --> 07:33:07.200
your brain really styles the the benefits but this healing relaxation,

2430
07:33:12.479 --> 07:33:18.439
and as you focus on the inside of your scalp

2431
07:33:18.880 --> 07:33:24.799
where your brain is, you can start to realize and

2432
07:33:24.959 --> 07:33:38.000
notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. And as

2433
07:33:38.080 --> 07:33:50.159
your brain continues to relax sends those messages to the

2434
07:33:50.319 --> 07:33:57.439
rest of your body and to your mind to re

2435
07:33:58.439 --> 07:34:21.240
reax more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting go of any

2436
07:34:23.080 --> 07:34:33.279
remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just to drop onto

2437
07:34:33.360 --> 07:34:42.080
the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment,

2438
07:34:44.319 --> 07:34:57.159
In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling your

2439
07:34:57.240 --> 07:35:22.080
brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of

2440
07:35:22.159 --> 07:35:43.680
your brain feething, so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and peaceful.

2441
07:35:47.000 --> 07:35:58.360
Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy in that

2442
07:35:58.720 --> 07:36:12.279
sense of deep deep comfort really does allow you to

2443
07:36:12.639 --> 07:36:23.959
enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort that are

2444
07:36:24.159 --> 07:36:37.439
spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle of

2445
07:36:37.560 --> 07:36:56.599
your body, eat deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before,

2446
07:37:00.319 --> 07:37:12.840
much more comfort spreading through your body and your mind.

2447
07:37:15.840 --> 07:37:33.639
Be so peaceful and calm, so very fairy, peaceful in

2448
07:37:33.919 --> 07:37:45.439
avery part of your body, letting go m hm a

2449
07:37:46.000 --> 07:38:07.799
everything and everything so peaceful and calm, so relax a

2450
07:38:08.080 --> 07:38:15.919
very second the passes you feel.

2451
07:38:17.799 --> 07:38:36.720
Dper deper relax, dper and dper relax.

2452
07:38:39.159 --> 07:38:58.200
Come so calm peace for so very peace from your

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07:38:58.439 --> 07:39:10.759
head down to your toes. Such peace and comfort throwing

2454
07:39:11.240 --> 07:39:25.759
all the time, such peace and comfort spreading through your

2455
07:39:25.919 --> 07:39:41.680
body and mind, deep and deeper, such comfort spreading and

2456
07:39:42.040 --> 07:39:53.680
sinking deeper into a muscle of your body. So you

2457
07:39:54.040 --> 07:40:22.680
feel amazing, so relaxed, so peaceful, sol and peaceful, letting go.

2458
07:40:26.119 --> 07:40:31.720
Every I'm going.

2459
07:40:31.639 --> 07:40:38.119
To do a body scan focusing on firstly how you

2460
07:40:38.200 --> 07:40:43.919
feel in your body, not trying to change how you feel,

2461
07:40:44.959 --> 07:40:50.000
not trying to relax, not trying to move away from

2462
07:40:50.040 --> 07:40:58.599
any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and

2463
07:40:58.759 --> 07:41:03.439
accepting how you feel in the different parts of your body.

2464
07:41:05.360 --> 07:41:14.479
Just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to notice,

2465
07:41:15.200 --> 07:41:23.360
to get in touch with how you actually feel in

2466
07:41:23.479 --> 07:41:33.439
this moment. I'm going to start off by focusing on

2467
07:41:33.560 --> 07:41:46.119
your hands. Just be aware of your hands. I'd like

2468
07:41:46.240 --> 07:41:50.840
you to move your hands around. Just maybe move your

2469
07:41:50.880 --> 07:41:56.799
fingers a little bit. I've been and closing your hands

2470
07:41:57.439 --> 07:42:04.720
very gently so that you can get in touch with

2471
07:42:05.240 --> 07:42:21.560
how your hands and your fingers fell, very very slow movements.

2472
07:42:28.119 --> 07:42:35.919
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2473
07:42:36.040 --> 07:42:41.200
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2474
07:42:41.360 --> 07:42:47.639
just done with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles,

2475
07:42:49.560 --> 07:43:00.639
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very

2476
07:43:01.319 --> 07:43:13.080
gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet fill in

2477
07:43:13.200 --> 07:43:26.319
this moment. Focusing now and your eyes, and I like

2478
07:43:26.439 --> 07:43:33.479
you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can

2479
07:43:33.639 --> 07:43:37.840
open and close your eyes a couple of times to

2480
07:43:38.040 --> 07:43:41.880
really get in touch with how you feel. When you

2481
07:43:41.919 --> 07:43:50.240
do close your eyes, the muscle changes in your eyes

2482
07:43:50.400 --> 07:43:58.279
when you do close them, Maybe raising your eyebrows. It

2483
07:43:58.599 --> 07:44:06.159
stretches the top of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes,

2484
07:44:09.799 --> 07:44:15.159
scrunching up your eyes just so you can hear it again,

2485
07:44:15.400 --> 07:44:29.080
touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel. Right now.

2486
07:44:38.279 --> 07:44:44.720
Now focus in on your thighs, and it just starts

2487
07:44:44.759 --> 07:44:52.720
you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2488
07:44:55.000 --> 07:45:06.959
just enough so you can become more atchuned to the

2489
07:45:06.959 --> 07:45:15.560
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2490
07:45:15.720 --> 07:45:27.080
and the backs of your thigh noticing and observing how

2491
07:45:29.080 --> 07:45:44.200
your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the

2492
07:45:44.240 --> 07:45:51.159
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2493
07:45:52.599 --> 07:45:57.880
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2494
07:45:57.919 --> 07:46:02.119
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2495
07:46:02.159 --> 07:46:08.720
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as your

2496
07:46:08.880 --> 07:46:14.680
focus on the back of your neck, maybe you can

2497
07:46:15.520 --> 07:46:21.080
move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up,

2498
07:46:23.000 --> 07:46:28.680
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2499
07:46:31.759 --> 07:46:36.799
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2500
07:46:38.720 --> 07:46:49.880
only very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to

2501
07:46:50.240 --> 07:47:01.159
force anything. It has to be very very gentle, just

2502
07:47:01.759 --> 07:47:12.959
so you can be more in touch with the feelings,

2503
07:47:14.360 --> 07:47:22.759
with the sensations, the physical sensations of how the back

2504
07:47:22.840 --> 07:47:39.400
of your neck feels right now, as we now focus

2505
07:47:41.759 --> 07:47:47.080
on the tops of your arms, the parts where your

2506
07:47:47.119 --> 07:47:52.319
biceps and your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders.

2507
07:47:55.880 --> 07:48:01.319
Should focus on those parts, the tops of your arms.

2508
07:48:03.119 --> 07:48:10.759
You may like to just tense them, but very very

2509
07:48:10.880 --> 07:48:20.200
gently and slowly. See you're not straining or put in

2510
07:48:20.240 --> 07:48:30.880
any pressure whatsoever on your arms. It's just so that

2511
07:48:31.279 --> 07:48:40.360
you can gain more of a sense of how your

2512
07:48:40.479 --> 07:48:51.840
upper arms are feeling in this moment, and just noticing

2513
07:48:53.319 --> 07:49:04.560
as you gently, very gently and slowly tighten the muscles

2514
07:49:05.919 --> 07:49:14.959
and then let go. Notice how the tops of your

2515
07:49:15.119 --> 07:49:34.319
arms feel right now. As a now focus on your stomach,

2516
07:49:37.119 --> 07:49:44.479
the area the lower abdomen area below your bellygutton moving

2517
07:49:44.560 --> 07:49:52.520
all the way down to your hips, just above your grind.

2518
07:49:58.360 --> 07:50:05.599
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

2519
07:50:06.279 --> 07:50:21.560
very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing

2520
07:50:21.759 --> 07:50:28.159
to do, and maybe you can just move your body,

2521
07:50:30.759 --> 07:50:35.759
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to

2522
07:50:35.840 --> 07:50:42.880
the side using your hips, just so you can get

2523
07:50:43.240 --> 07:50:55.639
more in tune with how you're lower aptomen area is

2524
07:50:56.720 --> 07:51:17.360
feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or

2525
07:51:17.400 --> 07:51:36.680
your lower abdomen. As you move your attention to your mouth,

2526
07:51:42.040 --> 07:51:50.319
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, the teeth,

2527
07:51:51.319 --> 07:52:07.479
your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your tongue in

2528
07:52:07.560 --> 07:52:17.279
your mouth feels. It may help by moving your tongue

2529
07:52:18.560 --> 07:52:25.560
around your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2530
07:52:25.599 --> 07:52:32.360
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2531
07:52:32.759 --> 07:52:37.680
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2532
07:52:40.720 --> 07:52:46.319
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2533
07:52:46.360 --> 07:52:56.000
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always

2534
07:52:56.200 --> 07:53:11.279
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2535
07:53:11.439 --> 07:53:27.000
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth

2536
07:53:27.360 --> 07:53:59.240
area now and to focus on your wrists. And I'll

2537
07:53:59.279 --> 07:54:08.119
ask you to mabe just routine your wrists by moving

2538
07:54:08.200 --> 07:54:19.520
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly,

2539
07:54:21.400 --> 07:54:39.880
just so that you can feel the sensations that you

2540
07:54:39.959 --> 07:54:55.319
are currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps move in your

2541
07:54:55.560 --> 07:55:12.599
hands up and down the game very very gently and slowly,

2542
07:55:21.599 --> 07:55:47.880
very ganzl and slow as you now start to observe

2543
07:55:51.959 --> 07:56:02.919
you lower back that by pap this just the bum

2544
07:56:03.000 --> 07:56:18.759
of your hips where your coxis are a whole area

2545
07:56:19.680 --> 07:56:25.400
which also really does include the side of your body,

2546
07:56:27.119 --> 07:56:37.240
because those muscles are very much connected there's those muscles

2547
07:56:37.639 --> 07:56:43.759
also move into your hip area connecting to your buttocks,

2548
07:56:46.880 --> 07:57:01.720
the sides of your hips, and if you're physically able

2549
07:57:01.840 --> 07:57:11.080
to do so, maybe you can very gently just move

2550
07:57:11.240 --> 07:57:24.240
your body evice is slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

2551
07:57:27.959 --> 07:57:44.840
just enough ye gauge how you feel in your lower back.

2552
07:57:52.400 --> 07:58:02.880
Perhaps it could even move your hips gently up and down,

2553
07:58:06.599 --> 07:58:21.560
gently and slowly in order to be in touch with

2554
07:58:21.759 --> 07:58:46.279
the physical sensations of your lower back. As we now live,

2555
07:58:50.720 --> 07:58:56.639
your attention to your jaw.

2556
07:59:00.159 --> 07:59:05.880
Area from your chin all the way up to near

2557
07:59:05.919 --> 07:59:22.360
where your ears are, the hole of your jaw, you.

2558
07:59:22.360 --> 07:59:30.919
Can just yeah, it's okay to do so. Gently open

2559
07:59:31.080 --> 07:59:41.759
your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very gently and

2560
07:59:43.840 --> 07:59:59.400
slowly opening your mouthing, closing your mouth very gently and slowly,

2561
08:00:08.959 --> 08:00:22.799
so you can be in touch with how you jow feels.

2562
08:00:26.040 --> 08:01:08.560
Now I to sit now the chest area. You don't

2563
08:01:08.720 --> 08:01:16.159
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2564
08:01:16.319 --> 08:01:27.279
moves every time you breathe, and it moves very gently

2565
08:01:29.159 --> 08:01:46.400
and slowly automatically with each breath you takee As you

2566
08:01:46.840 --> 08:02:33.919
focus on how your chest feels when you pray, move

2567
08:02:34.119 --> 08:02:49.080
in your focus to your forearms, your elbows. Maybe you're

2568
08:02:49.200 --> 08:03:02.799
able to very gently and slowly. It's the muscles in

2569
08:03:02.959 --> 08:03:09.919
your forearms, and when you do that, you can feel

2570
08:03:13.119 --> 08:03:45.040
your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently and

2571
08:03:45.599 --> 08:04:29.360
softly obsad your forearms and delpas no focus the rest

2572
08:04:29.439 --> 08:04:42.799
of your back, your upper back in the middle, the

2573
08:04:42.840 --> 08:04:59.200
middle of your back again, this part of your body

2574
08:05:00.040 --> 08:05:13.840
m news. Also every time you pray. You may not

2575
08:05:13.840 --> 08:05:27.959
notice that usually makes you observe your upper back in

2576
08:05:28.080 --> 08:05:37.959
the middle of your back. You can really feel that

2577
08:05:39.680 --> 08:05:48.720
gentle and slow.

2578
08:05:53.040 --> 08:06:33.200
Moment moving your focus into your.

2579
08:06:34.599 --> 08:06:47.479
Area of buttees the grain. There's muscles and those bones

2580
08:06:50.040 --> 08:07:31.040
in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips feel. Right now,

2581
08:07:38.279 --> 08:07:54.159
you can very very gently move your hips, maybe side

2582
08:07:54.279 --> 08:08:54.119
to side, very gently and softly, slowly. Everything starts to

2583
08:08:54.159 --> 08:09:06.159
slow down, including the thoughts in your mind and your

2584
08:09:06.200 --> 08:09:16.240
mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to

2585
08:09:16.279 --> 08:09:24.119
be instant, but just gradually starting to It's almost like

2586
08:09:24.400 --> 08:09:35.759
time is strength chin. It's a slower pace to maybe

2587
08:09:36.000 --> 08:09:44.000
what you're used to in your day to day life.

2588
08:09:44.200 --> 08:10:11.200
It's a slower movement of energy, very small movements which

2589
08:10:11.279 --> 08:10:19.400
make up the larger movements which is always the case. Now,

2590
08:10:19.479 --> 08:10:24.080
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2591
08:10:24.159 --> 08:10:29.919
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2592
08:10:32.040 --> 08:10:41.200
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2593
08:10:42.919 --> 08:10:57.639
space that we're sharing is we move from that big

2594
08:11:02.159 --> 08:11:19.319
movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how

2595
08:11:19.319 --> 08:11:26.639
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

2596
08:11:26.680 --> 08:11:31.439
i'm feeling this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense, or

2597
08:11:31.680 --> 08:11:36.919
I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way, I'm

2598
08:11:36.919 --> 08:11:48.439
feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body begins

2599
08:11:48.479 --> 08:12:04.560
to present to you small feelings around your body, small

2600
08:12:05.040 --> 08:12:24.040
physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not. Maybe

2601
08:12:24.360 --> 08:12:30.959
resisting the temptation to label them or to judge them,

2602
08:12:32.400 --> 08:12:38.479
those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is just

2603
08:12:38.680 --> 08:12:55.680
being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but just

2604
08:12:56.040 --> 08:13:10.799
noticing what your body he's telling you. The feelings in

2605
08:13:10.840 --> 08:13:17.599
your arms. Instead of feeling the hole of the arm,

2606
08:13:18.439 --> 08:13:31.759
maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2607
08:13:31.799 --> 08:13:41.040
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

2608
08:13:41.119 --> 08:13:57.319
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones. Just being

2609
08:13:57.400 --> 08:14:06.200
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2610
08:14:06.240 --> 08:14:17.680
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

2611
08:14:17.680 --> 08:14:38.439
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on your

2612
08:14:38.520 --> 08:14:50.880
right arm, your right forearm, there may not be any

2613
08:14:51.360 --> 08:14:58.639
particular feeling that he could even give a name to,

2614
08:15:02.360 --> 08:15:06.759
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2615
08:15:07.639 --> 08:15:19.759
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2616
08:15:19.759 --> 08:15:23.560
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2617
08:15:23.680 --> 08:15:30.439
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

2618
08:15:30.520 --> 08:15:33.360
like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2619
08:15:35.200 --> 08:15:46.240
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2620
08:15:46.319 --> 08:15:54.560
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2621
08:15:54.720 --> 08:15:59.919
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe ten

2622
08:16:00.119 --> 08:16:14.279
to the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder

2623
08:16:25.520 --> 08:16:41.159
and your lower back, the left side of your lower

2624
08:16:41.240 --> 08:16:52.680
back and the right side of your lower back, of

2625
08:16:52.799 --> 08:17:00.200
course that connection to your buttocks and to your hips,

2626
08:17:05.400 --> 08:17:09.000
and also moving up into the middle of your back.

2627
08:17:18.919 --> 08:17:23.119
And sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on

2628
08:17:23.159 --> 08:17:28.799
their part, when I focused on my buttocks and then

2629
08:17:28.840 --> 08:17:33.159
I focused on the middle of my back, I almost

2630
08:17:33.200 --> 08:17:35.959
felt like the muscles in my lower back were being

2631
08:17:36.240 --> 08:17:47.759
stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit, even though

2632
08:17:47.799 --> 08:17:56.880
I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your lower back.

2633
08:17:57.200 --> 08:18:05.439
It just seemed to happen. The eating of very gently

2634
08:18:06.919 --> 08:18:28.400
stretching your lower back comes along. I have feeling in

2635
08:18:28.479 --> 08:18:49.439
your chest, just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in

2636
08:18:49.479 --> 08:19:06.639
your chest right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2637
08:19:06.680 --> 08:19:10.319
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2638
08:19:10.360 --> 08:19:19.000
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2639
08:19:21.720 --> 08:19:27.799
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2640
08:19:27.840 --> 08:19:36.040
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2641
08:19:36.119 --> 08:19:43.639
different these days, But there may be more muscles at

2642
08:19:43.639 --> 08:19:49.880
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath

2643
08:19:51.040 --> 08:19:53.880
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2644
08:19:53.880 --> 08:20:00.360
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2645
08:20:00.439 --> 08:20:05.000
your back as well as breast tissue which stretches and

2646
08:20:05.119 --> 08:20:12.799
moves into your back. To just being aware of your chest,

2647
08:20:21.680 --> 08:20:49.040
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. When

2648
08:20:49.080 --> 08:20:56.919
I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I feel

2649
08:20:56.959 --> 08:21:01.639
it in my back and my upper back. I mean,

2650
08:21:01.680 --> 08:21:04.560
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2651
08:21:04.639 --> 08:21:15.400
I'll breathe in in and it stretches my chest and

2652
08:21:15.720 --> 08:21:35.599
my back at the same time. It feels. It feels okay,

2653
08:21:36.159 --> 08:21:41.040
it doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain

2654
08:21:41.119 --> 08:21:47.759
in my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but

2655
08:21:47.880 --> 08:21:58.159
little discomfort, maybe stiffness, possibly, I don't know. I noticed

2656
08:21:58.200 --> 08:22:08.119
my shoulders also wanting to flex for some reason. I

2657
08:22:08.119 --> 08:22:16.080
think that's probably part of my upper back, that connection

2658
08:22:16.319 --> 08:22:20.720
between my shoulders and my other back. Because I can

2659
08:22:20.759 --> 08:22:25.599
move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

2660
08:22:28.080 --> 08:22:34.680
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves I

2661
08:22:34.680 --> 08:22:50.840
think it's the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2662
08:22:56.119 --> 08:22:59.319
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2663
08:22:59.439 --> 08:23:13.439
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2664
08:23:13.599 --> 08:23:21.080
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2665
08:23:21.119 --> 08:23:31.439
of the sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing,

2666
08:23:36.240 --> 08:23:40.360
when you do tense and muscle and you let it

2667
08:23:40.439 --> 08:23:47.840
go and you let it relax, it relaxes way more

2668
08:23:49.479 --> 08:23:59.720
than it would normally. You have to feel that you're

2669
08:23:59.720 --> 08:24:03.840
able to do that. There's no point doing it if

2670
08:24:03.880 --> 08:24:09.479
there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2671
08:24:12.959 --> 08:24:19.560
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times.

2672
08:24:22.119 --> 08:24:32.319
When we relax in deeply, it's important to be kind

2673
08:24:33.000 --> 08:24:49.040
to yourself as you notice your mind. How much has

2674
08:24:49.080 --> 08:25:12.759
your mind slowed down since we started this recording. How

2675
08:25:12.919 --> 08:25:28.200
came and peaceful is your mind right now? We have

2676
08:25:28.360 --> 08:25:34.360
nothing to think about and just my voice to listen to.

2677
08:25:38.439 --> 08:25:47.040
Because you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation.

2678
08:25:49.720 --> 08:25:54.919
At the very least, for you to feel more relaxed

2679
08:25:56.200 --> 08:25:59.080
at the end of the recording than you did at

2680
08:25:59.119 --> 08:26:13.639
the beginning. At the very least, your mind to slow down.

2681
08:26:16.799 --> 08:26:31.159
Your body continues to relax, because that's what you want

2682
08:26:32.840 --> 08:26:51.919
to happen. That's what you expect to happen for relaxation,

2683
08:26:55.200 --> 08:27:11.000
to fill your body, maybe calm your mind to the

2684
08:27:11.040 --> 08:27:24.639
point of boredom. When you start maybe to drift.

2685
08:27:29.799 --> 08:28:03.479
Away, it's almost as if you're.

2686
08:28:04.040 --> 08:28:12.279
Moving further away from your body in your mind, just

2687
08:28:12.599 --> 08:28:24.439
leaving that there. Kind of liking it an escape pod

2688
08:28:25.159 --> 08:28:29.400
and a spaceship a movie. A space movie. You know,

2689
08:28:29.520 --> 08:28:33.360
when they get into a little part in it, since

2690
08:28:33.479 --> 08:28:57.799
the man far away from the spaceship, safe to dream

2691
08:28:58.159 --> 08:30:00.279
and continue to relax. Drifting so slow and peace Oh

2692
08:30:17.080 --> 08:30:56.799
really don't be. So let's focus in on that feeving

2693
08:31:02.319 --> 08:31:12.799
of those individual parts of your body that are relaxing.

2694
08:31:14.759 --> 08:31:31.520
One by one, you may find that every now and

2695
08:31:31.560 --> 08:31:44.880
then you realize that you weren't listening to my voice

2696
08:31:45.520 --> 08:31:57.279
because your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started

2697
08:31:57.360 --> 08:32:05.959
to or my move into some kind of a dreamy state.

2698
08:32:10.759 --> 08:32:17.119
And then you become aware of my voice again. And

2699
08:32:17.200 --> 08:32:23.639
even though you may want to focus on my voice,

2700
08:32:24.279 --> 08:32:31.759
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

2701
08:32:32.080 --> 08:32:51.959
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

2702
08:32:52.040 --> 08:33:09.520
you feel more comfort spreading through your body like a

2703
08:33:09.720 --> 08:33:24.119
warm blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just

2704
08:33:26.799 --> 08:33:44.319
the perfect temperature. And even if you can hear background sounds,

2705
08:33:49.840 --> 08:34:02.200
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

2706
08:34:05.080 --> 08:34:21.919
peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet

2707
08:34:22.080 --> 08:34:34.520
strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to

2708
08:34:38.000 --> 08:34:48.159
remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2709
08:34:48.319 --> 08:35:03.439
there before, and blow away any other thought. What's feelings

2710
08:35:03.799 --> 08:35:29.240
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that is

2711
08:35:29.479 --> 08:35:54.919
feeling your body and your mind. Unless you focus on

2712
08:35:55.000 --> 08:36:01.479
your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2713
08:36:02.799 --> 08:36:13.200
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2714
08:36:19.240 --> 08:36:38.880
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly so, from ten down

2715
08:36:38.919 --> 08:36:46.040
to nine, just a slight movement from nine down to eight,

2716
08:36:47.240 --> 08:37:03.720
just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

2717
08:37:03.799 --> 08:37:11.759
to seven, That feeling is a gap, almost like a

2718
08:37:12.159 --> 08:37:19.560
gap that starts to get wider, the gap between those

2719
08:37:20.360 --> 08:37:29.479
feelings that you used to have in your mind compared

2720
08:37:29.560 --> 08:37:36.439
to the feelings you have there growing now, feelings of

2721
08:37:36.560 --> 08:37:47.360
comfort and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider.

2722
08:37:48.919 --> 08:37:56.200
Eight down to seven, seven down to six. When you

2723
08:37:56.240 --> 08:38:03.040
get to five, the mind will start to have a

2724
08:38:03.040 --> 08:38:16.279
certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

2725
08:38:16.319 --> 08:38:23.400
your head sucking the tension and stress and any remaining

2726
08:38:24.479 --> 08:38:30.880
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2727
08:38:36.639 --> 08:38:41.840
And in down to four you can start to really

2728
08:38:42.360 --> 08:38:55.400
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2729
08:38:55.560 --> 08:39:04.400
place full of fresh air, the place where you can stretch.

2730
08:39:07.799 --> 08:39:10.479
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2731
08:39:11.240 --> 08:39:20.080
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

2732
08:39:20.720 --> 08:39:33.080
peace and tranquility growing it moves down to When you

2733
08:39:33.119 --> 08:39:42.599
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2734
08:39:42.880 --> 08:40:02.479
want to feel. It's almost perfect feeling, maybe the sensation

2735
08:40:02.919 --> 08:40:12.919
that you'd like to keep a place that's safe, where

2736
08:40:13.599 --> 08:40:32.639
nothing can affect you at all, and you can stay

2737
08:40:32.680 --> 08:40:41.520
in that a space of comfort and confidence, confident in

2738
08:40:41.560 --> 08:40:49.680
your own ability to create this space and this feeling

2739
08:40:49.959 --> 08:40:56.400
of comfort within your own mind just by counting and

2740
08:40:56.680 --> 08:41:05.599
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2741
08:41:05.680 --> 08:41:14.720
can do yourself when you're on your own the time

2742
08:41:14.880 --> 08:41:18.439
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2743
08:41:18.479 --> 08:41:31.639
few minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly from ten

2744
08:41:34.520 --> 08:41:46.639
down to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

2745
08:41:52.319 --> 08:41:56.680
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2746
08:41:56.720 --> 08:42:11.400
body copies your mind and the feeling is spread through

2747
08:42:11.479 --> 08:42:18.599
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

2748
08:42:18.720 --> 08:42:31.279
your body, travels through your blood stream, healing and relaxing

2749
08:42:33.439 --> 08:42:51.479
every particle of your existence. Now we can we can

2750
08:42:51.599 --> 08:42:59.919
practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

2751
08:43:00.639 --> 08:43:06.520
and then you can practice on your own. And each

2752
08:43:06.759 --> 08:43:20.639
time you countfort ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2753
08:43:20.159 --> 08:43:39.840
and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your

2754
08:43:39.880 --> 08:43:49.119
mind and your brain with these positive chemicals, the spread

2755
08:43:49.439 --> 08:43:59.759
throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body,

2756
08:44:00.119 --> 08:44:13.639
your mind so very very easily just by counting ten

2757
08:44:16.520 --> 08:44:24.759
down to one. So we're going to do now, I'm

2758
08:44:24.759 --> 08:44:28.759
going to count from ten down to one. I'd like

2759
08:44:28.880 --> 08:44:33.080
you to repeat the number after me. So when I

2760
08:44:33.240 --> 08:44:48.439
say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten. Just notice,

2761
08:44:48.720 --> 08:44:57.520
be aware of how you feel in your mind and

2762
08:44:57.599 --> 08:45:07.000
your body. Then when I say nine, you can beat

2763
08:45:08.240 --> 08:45:23.159
to yourself nine a game, noticing the increase in comfort

2764
08:45:23.479 --> 08:45:36.439
and calmness in your mind and in your body. The

2765
08:45:36.560 --> 08:45:45.840
same when I say eight, when I say seven, six,

2766
08:45:48.319 --> 08:46:03.040
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2767
08:46:07.040 --> 08:46:12.000
and lastly you want to say one, you can repeat

2768
08:46:12.279 --> 08:46:24.159
that number. Now. Of course, when you do this on

2769
08:46:24.200 --> 08:46:30.279
your own without listening to me, you can say the

2770
08:46:30.400 --> 08:46:39.919
numbers or whatever speed that you feel is necessary for you,

2771
08:46:41.439 --> 08:46:46.400
so you can adapt. So if you feel you want

2772
08:46:46.439 --> 08:46:53.319
to say the numbers ten down to one faster than

2773
08:46:53.360 --> 08:46:57.680
I do, then you go ahead and do that. Or

2774
08:46:57.680 --> 08:47:01.639
if you feel when you do it yourself that you'd

2775
08:47:01.840 --> 08:47:10.599
like to have more space between the numbers, maybe take

2776
08:47:10.680 --> 08:47:17.319
a lot longer to get from ten all the way

2777
08:47:17.400 --> 08:47:35.040
down to one, that's your choice also to do. So

2778
08:47:35.080 --> 08:47:43.479
I'm going to count from ten down to one, and

2779
08:47:43.599 --> 08:47:46.919
when I get to one, that will be the end

2780
08:47:47.479 --> 08:47:53.159
of this recording, unless, of course, you're listening with music

2781
08:47:54.360 --> 08:48:42.639
and the music will continue two nine eight.

2782
08:51:17.639 --> 08:52:36.400
Us twenty.

2783
08:52:40.159 --> 08:54:06.040
Ninety eighteen, seventeen, sixty, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

2784
08:54:06.200 --> 08:54:29.840
two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically

2785
08:54:29.880 --> 08:54:38.959
feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress

2786
08:54:39.040 --> 08:54:42.919
and tension to leave through your fingertips and your tails.

2787
08:54:44.439 --> 08:54:49.159
And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

2788
08:54:49.159 --> 08:54:55.279
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an

2789
08:54:55.360 --> 08:55:01.240
understanding considering attention has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2790
08:55:07.639 --> 08:55:09.720
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2791
08:55:09.720 --> 08:55:17.560
one again. This time you can feel relief of tension

2792
08:55:19.159 --> 08:55:27.919
and stress and the anxiety that you may have leaving

2793
08:55:30.080 --> 08:55:36.040
through your stomach. Just leaving through your stomach, almost as

2794
08:55:36.080 --> 08:55:42.560
if it's just releasing the hold of your stomach and

2795
08:55:42.840 --> 08:55:47.400
naval to just above your chest or below your chest,

2796
08:55:47.479 --> 08:55:53.520
rather so surrounding your belly button area, the whole area.

2797
08:55:54.159 --> 08:55:58.799
You can feel the tension of your body wherever it's left,

2798
08:55:59.040 --> 08:56:04.400
just LEAs from the area, and you may notice that

2799
08:56:04.479 --> 08:56:10.759
your stomach will become very relaxed as I countdown from

2800
08:56:10.799 --> 08:57:29.840
twenty down to one. Now twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2801
08:57:34.599 --> 08:57:55.439
four three two what And you can open your eyes

2802
08:57:55.479 --> 08:57:58.000
again if you choose, but I can just keep them

2803
08:57:58.040 --> 08:58:00.959
closed because of killed relaxing.

2804
08:58:02.959 --> 08:58:04.040
Just notice how.

2805
08:58:03.840 --> 08:58:09.279
Your stomach feels. I notice as your focus, just do

2806
08:58:09.279 --> 08:58:14.000
a little scan of your body. Just notice how your

2807
08:58:14.000 --> 08:58:26.720
body feels, focusing on upper body, bag, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2808
08:58:29.720 --> 08:58:36.680
Just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2809
08:58:39.159 --> 08:58:43.400
more a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

2810
08:58:43.439 --> 08:58:50.959
you're listening to this according because you would like to

2811
08:58:51.040 --> 08:59:03.040
let go completely of everything and dread into a nice, natural, calm,

2812
08:59:03.319 --> 08:59:19.040
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your forehead,

2813
08:59:22.439 --> 08:59:25.240
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2814
08:59:25.360 --> 08:59:32.240
this focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes, it's

2815
08:59:32.319 --> 08:59:36.880
that whole area basically, almost as if you were wearing

2816
08:59:36.880 --> 08:59:40.759
a mask, you know, like a I don't know, a

2817
08:59:40.759 --> 08:59:47.759
Batman mask or something, or I'm trying to zorro or something,

2818
08:59:47.799 --> 08:59:50.000
you know, the kind of mask that covers your eyes

2819
08:59:50.400 --> 08:59:56.319
but also covers quite a lot of the forehead. I'm

2820
08:59:56.400 --> 08:59:59.439
focusing on that area because that's the area that we're

2821
08:59:59.479 --> 09:00:04.279
now going to release tension and stress from your mind

2822
09:00:05.759 --> 09:00:09.639
and your brain, from your mind, and any tension that

2823
09:00:09.720 --> 09:00:13.599
you may have remain in your face, in your neck

2824
09:00:14.040 --> 09:00:19.880
and your jawl, your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp.

2825
09:00:21.479 --> 09:00:26.840
So basically any tension within your head area, including your

2826
09:00:26.959 --> 09:00:35.680
mind and your brain, that's going to be released through

2827
09:00:35.720 --> 09:00:42.520
your forehead and your eyes. As I count down again

2828
09:00:42.680 --> 09:01:52.759
from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine,

2829
09:01:53.159 --> 09:02:39.680
eight seven six, why h three? What noticing? And she

2830
09:02:39.959 --> 09:02:46.959
scanned her face with jaw, your eyes, the cheap bons,

2831
09:02:47.200 --> 09:02:56.599
your ears, the forehead, your scalp, neck, the back of

2832
09:02:56.680 --> 09:02:59.959
your neck, in the front of your neck, the son

2833
09:03:00.119 --> 09:03:01.880
adds of the neck and the throat.

2834
09:03:03.400 --> 09:03:05.040
Hm hm.

2835
09:03:08.159 --> 09:03:19.279
Letice being aware of the comfort increased in the relaxation,

2836
09:03:21.360 --> 09:03:26.319
not just in your head and neck and mind, also

2837
09:03:26.759 --> 09:03:36.279
the rest of your body. It is how loose and

2838
09:03:36.560 --> 09:03:40.319
calm you feel, and how easily.

2839
09:03:41.959 --> 09:03:43.759
It is to just let go.

2840
09:03:46.319 --> 09:04:11.360
Completely, let go completely, how easily, so I'm gonna do vows.

2841
09:04:12.599 --> 09:04:14.840
I wanted to focus on the top of your head.

2842
09:04:20.319 --> 09:04:27.599
Am I going to allow every last piece of tension

2843
09:04:28.720 --> 09:04:33.720
or stress of mind be lingering or hiding in your

2844
09:04:33.799 --> 09:04:42.959
body or mind head to just be sucked out on

2845
09:04:43.080 --> 09:04:52.840
the top of your head at least be yeah, I'm

2846
09:04:53.159 --> 09:04:59.159
sucked out into the clouds. Imagine to be aloud of

2847
09:04:59.240 --> 09:05:04.319
put your head and it's like a whirlpool and.

2848
09:05:04.360 --> 09:05:09.159
This is can suck that tension now the top of

2849
09:05:09.240 --> 09:05:13.520
your head and just take away.

2850
09:05:15.159 --> 09:05:15.759
The good.

2851
09:05:18.759 --> 09:05:22.119
To focus. Imagine an opening.

2852
09:05:21.759 --> 09:05:25.919
On the top of your head with a tension.

2853
09:05:25.520 --> 09:05:31.439
And stress and in remaining issues maybe worries of concerns

2854
09:05:31.639 --> 09:05:31.959
that have.

2855
09:05:32.200 --> 09:05:36.240
No use to you. Now you can all be sucked

2856
09:05:36.279 --> 09:05:40.439
down at the top of your head. I've taken away.

2857
09:05:42.439 --> 09:05:46.919
As I count down again from twenty down to one.

2858
09:05:50.279 --> 09:07:38.959
Now twenty nine, eighteen, seventeen, sixty, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, two eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

2859
09:07:48.919 --> 09:08:14.839
one h three, noticing how you feel, how relaxed and

2860
09:08:15.199 --> 09:08:29.239
calm you physically and mentally feel right now, how peace

2861
09:08:29.480 --> 09:08:37.919
or your mind feels. It feels so nice to just

2862
09:08:38.120 --> 09:08:46.519
let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

2863
09:08:48.440 --> 09:08:58.440
to think calmly, just to take a break from all

2864
09:08:58.519 --> 09:09:03.760
that pointless really concerns about things.

2865
09:09:03.599 --> 09:09:06.400
That you don't need to think about.

2866
09:09:09.279 --> 09:09:16.599
Right now, because this is your time to let go.

2867
09:09:18.000 --> 09:09:27.760
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2868
09:09:27.879 --> 09:09:35.160
in your mind, relaxed in your body. They can feel

2869
09:09:35.720 --> 09:09:45.519
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2870
09:09:47.839 --> 09:09:56.760
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2871
09:09:58.279 --> 09:10:04.440
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

2872
09:10:11.160 --> 09:10:12.519
Being in this.

2873
09:10:14.319 --> 09:10:24.400
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2874
09:10:25.239 --> 09:10:37.000
for as long as you choose. You choose to drift

2875
09:10:37.239 --> 09:10:44.400
on into deep, healing natural sleep, and you can do that,

2876
09:10:48.080 --> 09:10:56.319
It's completely up to you, And you can keep this

2877
09:10:56.639 --> 09:11:03.120
feeling of calmness physically in your mind as long as

2878
09:11:03.199 --> 09:11:20.440
you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relax. I'd like

2879
09:11:20.559 --> 09:11:26.599
you to make up your mind that you're going to relax,

2880
09:11:35.199 --> 09:11:37.959
and I want to explore that with you. What it

2881
09:11:38.160 --> 09:11:45.480
feels like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

2882
09:11:47.160 --> 09:11:53.760
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. Yes, it is

2883
09:11:53.839 --> 09:11:58.800
a command, really, isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax

2884
09:12:01.000 --> 09:12:06.239
in a gentle but firm way that only you can

2885
09:12:06.360 --> 09:12:11.279
really tell yourself in that way. You can't really have

2886
09:12:11.400 --> 09:12:16.040
someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax, you know,

2887
09:12:17.040 --> 09:12:20.279
and it needs to be gentle. But you can't someone

2888
09:12:20.319 --> 09:12:27.319
else can't really have the same the same kind of

2889
09:12:27.959 --> 09:12:36.919
influence or power that you have over your own physicality,

2890
09:12:37.720 --> 09:12:47.400
over how you feel, because when you say it to yourself,

2891
09:12:48.680 --> 09:12:55.639
it means more. It's personal, and your brain and your

2892
09:12:56.080 --> 09:13:03.120
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

2893
09:13:03.440 --> 09:13:07.199
for example, we'll test it out. We'll do a little test,

2894
09:13:07.360 --> 09:13:10.959
a few little tests along the way, and you can

2895
09:13:11.080 --> 09:13:17.360
get more of an idea of the force, a positive

2896
09:13:17.559 --> 09:13:23.959
force that you can have in creating a sense of

2897
09:13:24.279 --> 09:13:29.279
comfort and relaxation in your body and your mind quite

2898
09:13:29.360 --> 09:13:42.080
quickly just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm

2899
09:13:42.120 --> 09:13:48.839
going to start by let's focus on your hands. To

2900
09:13:49.000 --> 09:13:52.000
focus on your hands, and just tell your hands to relax,

2901
09:13:53.000 --> 09:13:57.879
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

2902
09:14:00.199 --> 09:14:04.720
you could say, my hands are relaxed, or I want

2903
09:14:04.760 --> 09:14:09.080
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

2904
09:14:09.199 --> 09:14:17.199
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

2905
09:14:17.440 --> 09:14:18.599
hear what you're saying.

2906
09:14:18.800 --> 09:14:21.760
You know, they've got little ears, which is a little weird.

2907
09:14:24.360 --> 09:14:35.319
So talking to your hands and just say relax medicine.

2908
09:14:41.360 --> 09:14:56.480
Now your hands start to relax. Now focus on your

2909
09:14:56.559 --> 09:15:00.680
eyes and tell your eyes to relax. You're just saying

2910
09:15:00.720 --> 09:15:07.839
the same word, relax. And find the right tone for you.

2911
09:15:10.400 --> 09:15:14.800
You know, I might say relax, but you you might

2912
09:15:14.919 --> 09:15:22.239
say relax or relax. You know, you might say it

2913
09:15:22.360 --> 09:15:30.000
differently to yourself, and that's important for you to gauge

2914
09:15:30.279 --> 09:15:35.599
what feels right for you. But just tell your eyes

2915
09:15:36.839 --> 09:15:41.040
to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids, the

2916
09:15:41.160 --> 09:15:46.639
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell your

2917
09:15:46.839 --> 09:16:21.559
eyes directly relax now. Now, I just did that myself,

2918
09:16:21.959 --> 09:16:31.760
and sometimes you may feel that you need a bit

2919
09:16:31.879 --> 09:16:37.599
more time or the different parts to relax, you know,

2920
09:16:37.720 --> 09:16:42.160
because I start talking again and maybe that part hasn't

2921
09:16:42.279 --> 09:16:45.480
relaxed fully. But what will happen is that we'll just

2922
09:16:45.599 --> 09:16:47.080
continue to relax.

2923
09:16:46.839 --> 09:16:47.760
Even though I'm talking.

2924
09:16:49.400 --> 09:16:55.199
And that's happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed

2925
09:16:55.319 --> 09:16:59.919
is when I start focused on my eyes, that actually

2926
09:17:00.720 --> 09:17:03.559
almost became they got worse before they got better in

2927
09:17:03.680 --> 09:17:06.639
a way sort of. I felt a degree of tension

2928
09:17:07.120 --> 09:17:13.080
growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So I think

2929
09:17:13.199 --> 09:17:16.360
what that was really is just me becoming more aware

2930
09:17:17.919 --> 09:17:22.519
of the tension that was already there that I wasn't

2931
09:17:23.519 --> 09:17:27.440
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

2932
09:17:28.199 --> 09:17:45.559
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

2933
09:17:45.680 --> 09:17:49.879
eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2934
09:17:53.319 --> 09:17:58.720
my hands had got a certain kind of energy, like

2935
09:17:59.000 --> 09:17:59.680
not buzzing.

2936
09:18:00.319 --> 09:18:01.000
I can kind of.

2937
09:18:03.360 --> 09:18:09.480
Funeral degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where

2938
09:18:09.559 --> 09:18:21.599
the tension is being released. Maybe that's causing that, And

2939
09:18:21.720 --> 09:18:23.760
it's part I think we should focus.

2940
09:18:23.559 --> 09:18:24.480
On the back of the neck.

2941
09:18:25.160 --> 09:18:30.360
That's a part which quite often, well for me, holds tension.

2942
09:18:30.400 --> 09:18:33.040
I don't know about it for yourself, but I think

2943
09:18:33.080 --> 09:18:39.639
it's quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So,

2944
09:18:41.760 --> 09:18:44.879
and I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do

2945
09:18:45.000 --> 09:18:48.559
it as well, So I'm telling my body parts to

2946
09:18:48.680 --> 09:18:49.559
relax as well.

2947
09:18:50.319 --> 09:18:52.400
So if you tell your neck at the back of your.

2948
09:18:52.440 --> 09:18:55.040
Neck, focus on the back of your neck, and just

2949
09:18:55.160 --> 09:19:02.319
say relax in your own words, in your own tone,

2950
09:19:02.720 --> 09:19:05.519
in your own voice. You can say out loud, or

2951
09:19:05.599 --> 09:19:10.000
you can just say it to yourself internally, but you're

2952
09:19:10.120 --> 09:19:14.199
focusing and you're saying it literally to the.

2953
09:19:14.239 --> 09:19:16.599
Back of your neck. Because it in the back of

2954
09:19:16.839 --> 09:19:23.279
your neck, you can actually hear what you're saying. So

2955
09:19:23.480 --> 09:19:26.839
do that now, just say it lags to the back

2956
09:19:26.879 --> 09:19:29.319
of your neck, and I did the same.

2957
09:20:08.160 --> 09:20:11.680
Now, what I noticed and you may have had similar

2958
09:20:11.760 --> 09:20:16.239
thing is, even though I was focusing on the back

2959
09:20:16.279 --> 09:20:27.199
of my neck, other parts started to I don't know,

2960
09:20:27.559 --> 09:20:30.959
showed themselves to me or maybe because they want to

2961
09:20:31.000 --> 09:20:34.879
be relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings

2962
09:20:34.919 --> 09:20:38.199
in my shoulders, a tension in my shoulders and in

2963
09:20:38.279 --> 09:20:45.559
my upper back. Whether that was because my back of

2964
09:20:45.639 --> 09:20:50.919
my neck was saying, well, I'm pretty much okay. It's

2965
09:20:51.279 --> 09:21:00.319
the other parts that need attention, but my low my

2966
09:21:00.760 --> 09:21:04.360
back of my neck is still relaxing. But I just

2967
09:21:04.480 --> 09:21:11.080
became more aware of other parts that needed attention. Now,

2968
09:21:11.160 --> 09:21:16.080
this might happen and it's not. It doesn't mean that

2969
09:21:16.160 --> 09:21:20.680
it's going wrong. It just means you're being notified of

2970
09:21:21.680 --> 09:21:29.440
more places that also want to feel relaxed. So I'm

2971
09:21:29.519 --> 09:21:33.680
going to focus on my upper back. So you can

2972
09:21:33.760 --> 09:21:34.319
do the same.

2973
09:21:36.080 --> 09:21:37.639
Even if you don't have any.

2974
09:21:39.040 --> 09:21:42.559
Feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper back,

2975
09:21:44.480 --> 09:21:49.360
you just focus on your back and the whole area

2976
09:21:49.519 --> 09:21:54.000
from the shoulder blades down to the middle of your

2977
09:21:54.080 --> 09:21:58.319
back and the spine. And with me, it's all the

2978
09:21:58.440 --> 09:22:06.639
shoulder blades down. H Yeah, that's the parts that really.

2979
09:22:08.559 --> 09:22:10.199
Sort of giving me.

2980
09:22:11.919 --> 09:22:12.680
The NOTT.

2981
09:22:14.199 --> 09:22:16.480
That it needs relax in the sounds, going to ask

2982
09:22:16.599 --> 09:22:19.839
that part to relax, and you can do the same.

2983
09:22:19.959 --> 09:22:46.720
Now relax out the back. There's something strange happened there.

2984
09:22:47.199 --> 09:22:53.480
And this often happens, and I'm doing this for over

2985
09:22:53.720 --> 09:23:01.680
sixteen years or something, and often I'm want surprised, but amazed,

2986
09:23:01.760 --> 09:23:07.639
really bad. There can be a feeling. So when I

2987
09:23:07.839 --> 09:23:11.279
was focusing on the back of my neck, my upper

2988
09:23:11.360 --> 09:23:16.239
back was starting to feel quite stressed and in need

2989
09:23:16.400 --> 09:23:21.720
of attention. As soon as I started talking to you

2990
09:23:22.000 --> 09:23:27.160
about my upper back and talking about, you know, getting

2991
09:23:27.239 --> 09:23:32.000
ready to ask the upper back to relax, why the

2992
09:23:32.040 --> 09:23:37.680
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

2993
09:23:37.800 --> 09:23:48.080
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

2994
09:23:48.279 --> 09:24:00.720
needs to be noticed. That is something that often happens

2995
09:24:01.160 --> 09:24:08.360
in this type of situation is when you start to

2996
09:24:08.519 --> 09:24:13.559
relax a couple of parts of your body, as we've

2997
09:24:13.639 --> 09:24:19.800
done with our hands, the eyes and the eyelids, and.

2998
09:24:20.040 --> 09:24:26.720
Now back of the neck, top of the bag.

2999
09:24:28.839 --> 09:24:32.239
The bag, the rest of the body seems to just

3000
09:24:33.639 --> 09:24:43.480
take notice and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

3001
09:24:45.319 --> 09:24:50.680
Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

3002
09:24:55.440 --> 09:24:58.279
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3003
09:24:58.440 --> 09:25:03.160
you know, the little ball starts rolling, and before you

3004
09:25:03.319 --> 09:25:06.279
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

3005
09:25:06.360 --> 09:25:23.040
and calm. And if you focus on your face, you

3006
09:25:23.160 --> 09:25:30.720
focus on your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrowns, and the

3007
09:25:30.879 --> 09:25:39.279
muscles around your eyes, and maybe you start to notice

3008
09:25:39.440 --> 09:25:46.080
that your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe

3009
09:25:46.160 --> 09:25:47.760
your face is more relaxed.

3010
09:25:50.480 --> 09:25:54.239
I would say my entire face is a lot more

3011
09:25:54.319 --> 09:25:55.400
relaxed than it was.

3012
09:26:06.680 --> 09:26:12.519
So you're going to focus now on your shoulders again,

3013
09:26:12.720 --> 09:26:17.800
just like before. Just tell your shoulders, and you can't

3014
09:26:17.879 --> 09:26:18.879
do them in the digity.

3015
09:26:19.000 --> 09:26:20.040
You can do the right.

3016
09:26:19.959 --> 09:26:21.120
Shoulder and their shoulder.

3017
09:26:22.680 --> 09:26:24.839
I just can't do both at the same time.

3018
09:26:26.879 --> 09:26:30.120
Just tell your shoulders as you focus on them in

3019
09:26:30.199 --> 09:26:36.319
your mind, focus on how you feel. Maybe you can

3020
09:26:36.680 --> 09:26:43.400
see them in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders

3021
09:26:47.160 --> 09:26:48.319
to relax.

3022
09:27:25.480 --> 09:27:26.919
As nice as they relax.

3023
09:27:37.440 --> 09:27:46.360
I didn't notice, especially with my bank is the connection

3024
09:27:46.639 --> 09:27:52.120
between the different parts, the back, the shoulders, the neck

3025
09:27:57.680 --> 09:28:02.120
being all connected and being such a large part of

3026
09:28:02.199 --> 09:28:08.480
your body, it's almost hard to separate them from each other.

3027
09:28:14.199 --> 09:28:17.000
My lull back is starting to relax on the same.

3028
09:28:23.000 --> 09:28:24.120
Maybe you're going too.

3029
09:28:24.120 --> 09:28:30.120
Slow, and that could be an issue because we will

3030
09:28:30.199 --> 09:28:36.559
go at different speeds. And the idea of the beginning

3031
09:28:36.639 --> 09:28:39.000
of this recording was for you to be able to

3032
09:28:39.239 --> 09:28:55.599
just say to yourself, relax without focusing on any particular

3033
09:28:55.800 --> 09:29:01.800
part of your body. Because when you oor telling your

3034
09:29:02.160 --> 09:29:15.519
hands to relax, your hands relaxed. You tell your eyelids,

3035
09:29:16.959 --> 09:29:23.319
your eyes, the muscles around your eyes, and your eyebrows

3036
09:29:24.319 --> 09:29:37.239
to relax, and they relax. You tell the back of

3037
09:29:37.319 --> 09:29:57.160
your neck to relax, and it relaxes. You tell your upa.

3038
09:29:57.000 --> 09:30:16.319
Back to rites and the rises.

3039
09:30:23.400 --> 09:30:25.319
Thectoria's shoulders.

3040
09:30:26.680 --> 09:31:05.839
To rights, and you told your hands to relax. They relaxed,

3041
09:31:06.360 --> 09:31:09.879
and we continued to relax.

3042
09:31:15.879 --> 09:31:22.519
You told your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

3043
09:31:22.599 --> 09:31:27.279
eyebrows to relax, They relaxed.

3044
09:31:30.839 --> 09:31:41.879
They continue to relax. And you told the back of

3045
09:31:41.959 --> 09:31:42.559
your neck.

3046
09:31:44.000 --> 09:31:45.360
Us on the back of your neck.

3047
09:31:48.919 --> 09:31:50.279
And told you to relax.

3048
09:31:54.639 --> 09:31:59.400
They relaxed. And continued.

3049
09:32:00.199 --> 09:32:15.239
To relax. And you told your alcome back to relax,

3050
09:32:17.239 --> 09:32:20.000
the relaxed and continued.

3051
09:32:22.000 --> 09:32:32.199
To relax. That's with your shoulders.

3052
09:32:34.639 --> 09:32:41.160
You told your shoulders to relax, and you shoulders relaxed

3053
09:32:41.680 --> 09:32:49.199
and to relax.

3054
09:32:54.839 --> 09:33:03.559
And it's not just that, it's with the rest of your.

3055
09:33:03.480 --> 09:33:10.440
Body is also in being honestly, and their relaxation has

3056
09:33:10.639 --> 09:33:16.879
been spreading. So from your eyes the relaxation spread to

3057
09:33:17.040 --> 09:33:22.239
your forehead, around your face.

3058
09:33:22.199 --> 09:33:25.599
Into your skin, into your jaw.

3059
09:33:34.720 --> 09:33:38.839
Into the front of the sides of your neck, all

3060
09:33:38.839 --> 09:33:50.919
the way down your chest and stoch, relaxed hands and shoulders.

3061
09:33:52.199 --> 09:34:03.919
And the up through your eyes, burning the arms, your top, arm, elbows, wrists.

3062
09:34:07.519 --> 09:34:23.519
That's no baysts exploiting.

3063
09:34:24.160 --> 09:34:34.680
And just start to nex ticky spreading for your necks.

3064
09:34:39.440 --> 09:34:40.360
Poll the way down.

3065
09:34:41.319 --> 09:34:49.919
Do you think of the tops of your feet, the

3066
09:34:50.199 --> 09:34:54.800
side of your fat, the bottoms.

3067
09:34:54.319 --> 09:35:30.599
Of your face, your lexing into your toes, and this

3068
09:35:30.680 --> 09:35:34.400
your puty relaxes more. Your mind.

3069
09:35:35.680 --> 09:36:02.879
Becomes snow peaceful to the point where I choose a.

3070
09:36:03.440 --> 09:36:19.519
Sight easy do that, pa, say do it?

3071
09:36:20.400 --> 09:36:20.720
Do it?

3072
09:36:25.839 --> 09:36:42.879
Because it's nothing what your mine to play speaceful botany

3073
09:36:43.680 --> 09:37:18.599
teams a vacumation between the body makes in the word

3074
09:37:20.279 --> 09:37:32.760
you say to yourself nights and think you don't need

3075
09:37:34.239 --> 09:37:35.360
to focus.

3076
09:37:35.040 --> 09:37:36.720
On just one part.

3077
09:37:38.680 --> 09:37:40.279
You just play the song.

3078
09:37:41.919 --> 09:38:18.959
The entire body saying help. A word lights sensationals, compt destory.

3079
09:38:19.160 --> 09:38:22.480
The boy.

3080
09:38:27.680 --> 09:38:28.519
You say.

3081
09:38:38.199 --> 09:38:39.279
To your body.

3082
09:38:44.199 --> 09:41:13.000
Might ten starting now number twenty ninety assass six four.

3083
09:42:18.319 --> 09:43:03.239
Us w

3084
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Assassa as