May 23, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1358 | 23rd May 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1358 | 23rd May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com.

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And this is Q and A Friday. Bla la la

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la la lulu.

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Yeah, Hi, Hi, So my name is Adjason new Land.

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Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

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Right.

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It's one fifty five pm in the afternoon on Friday,

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the twenty third of Moy two thousand and five, No,

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two thousand and fifth, twenty twenty five. Wow, so nineteen

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ninety five O five, fifty.

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Thirty years ago.

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Now I'm just thinking it's weird. I've got these memories

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of stuff that happened thirty years ago, and I'm just like,

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how can it really be.

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Thirty years ago?

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Right? So it's Q and A Friday. It's all right. Outside,

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it's a bit it's kind of glum and bright, a

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little bit of both today out there. It's not cold,

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it's yeah.

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There was a lot of activity.

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It disbuilded last night, a lot of doors slamming, like

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you know, till early hours. I'm not quite sure what

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that was about, but I'm up here, so I didn't.

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I wasn't getting involved. I think it just might have

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just been a lot of a lot of traffic, perhaps

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maybe maybe a little bit of traffic. Oh that's nice

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sort of plane to come over while I'm doing this.

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How pleasant.

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So I've got a message here on my Facebook group

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or my Facebook group Jason Newlands Boring Group. You can

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find a link to that group or by going to

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Jasonnewland dot com. And it's literally right at the top

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is a banner at the top of the page. Join

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Jason Newland's boring group. Click on that and it takes

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you straight there. I wonder what it is.

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On the Facebook page, on the the.

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On the phone. Yeah, they're both together as well, side

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by side, and I'll take you straight to the page.

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And you can join. You can join.

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So I had a message from Claire Clara Claire. I'm

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not sure if I'm pronouncing that right, Claire Cloa, who

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hoped my name on your podcast. Thank you for the welcome.

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You're welcome. Thank you for welcoming the welcome. I did

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do a recording yesterday. It was number one thousand, three

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hundred and fifty seven.

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That's weird.

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Got a fly A fly. I don't know if it's

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the same fly. It must be a different fly. It's

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weird because I just had Vinnie on my not on

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my lap, but to the left of me, as I

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was sitting down with my feet up and I was

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watching a boxing YouTube channel, and then he was asleep,

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and suddenly he just reached up and snapped out a fly.

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It's like one of those movies with those plants that

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move really quick, except shape as a jack russell. He's

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been a bit weird today and no more weird than

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any other time. A bit stroge.

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So what I'm going to do?

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Ah, I've got six. Nope, I haven't got There's a

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bird outside that goes like that. That wasn't too loud,

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so I thought it was one of the neighbors. So

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he used to have a neighbor that lived over the

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fence that used to squawk like a pigeon. But early

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in the morning. I'm talking like six in the morning,

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five six in the morning, four in the morning, it'd

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be like doing that noise. He was a bit of

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a character, this one. He doesn't live around here anymore,

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but I remember once he was my neighbor who lived

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the other side of the built of the block where

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he lived. I knew him, and he was like he

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was a friend, and he said he got woken up

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at about five in the morning, someone was outside his

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bedroom window. Bearing in mind he lived upstairs, okay, these

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were like studio apartments. He looked outside and it was

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the neighbor from downstairs on a ladder painting his window

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frame pink. No apparent reason, just decided it would be

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a good idea that didn't end well, it's just that

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I don't think it was the choice of color. But

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you can't. First of all, these frames are not wooden.

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They're like double blazing frames, so it can't really be

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painting them, I don't think, and I'm not sure the

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counsel liked that. Another thing he did is he would

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spend like he's got tight. He had a tiny little

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bit of grass in front or out the back, a

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tiny little bit of grass that was kind of his

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little area. And I'm talking very small, very small little.

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If you think of the smallest garden, the half of

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it half that, you know, it's really tiny little. He

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would spend all day long mowing it. I mean you could.

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Literally probably cut it with.

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Scissors now scissors in about half that time he was

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I don't know, it was just on pills, and he'd

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be doing it all day. Had another one lived over there.

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These are people that live over the fence. It's a

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different world over there. This bloke, he doesn't live there

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anymore either. He used to have palettes delivered, wooden palettes,

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like from a lorry. It'd have a big pile delivered,

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and it did this in the summer. I think. Yeah,

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so basically spend so this big, massive pile of palettes,

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wooden palettes. It's spend all day breaking them up with

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an axe, which was very noisy, as I'm sure you

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can imagine, all day long, and then the evening it'd

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have a bonfire. And that was his routine for the

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whole of the summer. So's noise all day, smoke all night.

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And bonfires, however lovely they may be, you know, are

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like a nice bonfire, but it's not great. I think

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bonfires are better in the winter because in the summer,

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I don't know about you, but I kind of like

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to have my windows open. Probably need to have my

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windows open, like in the in the in the evening,

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in the evening in the summer, and that's not ideal

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to have smoke coming in. But it's a different kind

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of smoke, isn't it. Bonfire smoke. I remember I was

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at a bonfire, and it's a place that I lived.

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This is the Buddhist community, and it was this fire

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and there was a big like meeting together and giving

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one I suppose, like a party kind of thing, as

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much of a party as Buddhists can do. And I

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didn't even notice it until the next day. Every item

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of clothing that I'd worn that evening stunk like really bad.

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But I didn't notice the.

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Smaller smoke when I was out there because I wasn't

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even you know, I was avoiding the smoke.

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I was just near the fire, but.

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You know, I wouldn't like stand there or sit there

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and then smoke pumping into me. Yeah, but quite smelly. Yeah.

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I had some strange had a fantasist living over there

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as well, a different bloke. Gossip. It's all gossip, isn't it. Yeah.

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He was unusual character.

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He is.

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I mean, he was in all the national papers. He

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was quite famous. I couldn't believe it, but I got

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one right of actually, but it was just one day.

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I'll do it.

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I could write a book.

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My name is to say that I could write a

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Guinness book of records of everything I've done, been through,

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and I'm thinking about herself that I could write a

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book just about the neighbors. I'd have to be very

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careful of see not to name any of them. But

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I don't think you'd even believe even ten percent of

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what I've seen and heard and experienced since I've lived here,

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and not just here, but all the other places I've lived,

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all the different houses I've shared. Wow, Seriously, you'd think

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I was making it up, and I probably would be.

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That's the problem. So I've got Mike. These are the

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people that have left me questions for today. So the

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very beginning, I'm going to mention everyone's name, so you

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know that I have answered your question, maybe not very well,

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but I've at least attempted. So first of all was Mike.

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Then it's Ben, Cindy Hope, but I will mention Hope

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that she didn't actually ask the question, but it's part

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of the Cindy's question, and then Alie Oh Hope. Yeah,

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Pope has got a difference. She's got a question as well,

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and Sandy, So Sandy, Hope, Ali, Cindy, Ben, and Mike. Yeah.

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So it's one, two, three, four, five, six questions, And

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I hope that those who asked the questions, those you

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have asked the questions, and when you hear the answers,

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I hope it's it's everything you hoped it would be.

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I just.

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I don't know what I'm going to say, because you

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know I don't always tell the truth. So I'll try

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a little bit.

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Okay. So Sebastian has mentioned b in another cover which

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he likes to do. I want to meet you at

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the beach tonight. What, as Sebastian wrote Jason, maybe he

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even wants to go to a hotel room every hour.

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Sebastian sends me another message. He loves going on his

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AI things and if he sees a picture that is

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he just if you can see a way to make

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fun of me, he does. Right here we go. Mike

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has asked, as I was falling asleep last night to

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the Schools episode Schools, I was at the boring, the

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boring Monday's boring thing. I think I was wondering how

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much you plan out what you're going to say? Do

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you develop an outline or do you just jump in

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and wing it? Does your mind ever go blank and

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you find yourself at a loss for words? Right well,

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with the I'll talk just about the let Me Buoy

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the sleep recordings, because with the occasionally I will work

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out what I'm roughly going to say with the if

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I do a hypnosis recording, although nine see nine percent

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of all my hypnosis recordings that are being just me

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talking off the top of my head. And the only

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preparation would be maybe having a concept. So if it

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was a relaxation technique, for example, and let's say it

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involved a biscuits in, I don't know why it would

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involve a biscuit in. So I'm saying, I want to

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have a biscuit tin, and I'm gonna crumble up all

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the biscuits and just shake the biscuits and then make

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some holes in the biscuits here at the bottom and

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just shake them and watch those biscuit drops just filtered down,

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and as as they fall to filtered down and fall

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out of the bottom of the biscuits in, you know,

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you feel more relaxed and calmer.

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Something like that.

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It's just sounds rubbish and it sounds a bit crummy.

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Oh So.

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With the let Me boy to sleep, the most I

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do regarding preparation for most of them would be just

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to think about a subject. A lot of the times,

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when it comes to let's say Monday's boring objects, I

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don't know. Usually I don't know what I'm going to

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talk about until I start. I wasn't going to talk

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about I don't think I was even going to talk

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about schools when I I first started that recording with

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the trivia Tuesday, yeah, I do. That's much more planned

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as far as you know. Look up the trivia bits

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and yes, there's a little bit more planning than that.

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And with the Q and A Fridays, of course, I

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have the questions in front of me, so in a sense,

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you plan what I'm going to talk about. But outside

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of that, no, I don't know. So when I didn't,

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I had a little skip through the questions before I

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started this. But I've got no idea what I'm going

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to say until I say it. With the School's episode,

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for example, I ended up talking about schools, so I

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just went with it. I don't have any kind of

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outline or structure for what I'm going to talk about

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pretty much ever, other than when it's a if it's

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a trivia one, the structure is just reading out the trivia.

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The trivia's were thinking about something to talk about, and

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then focused on that subject and finding the trivia bits

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of information and maybe commenting on it. So it's organized,

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but not really Q and a Friday.

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It's just.

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I just answer, just honestly ish if I can. But

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generally no, I don't. I don't have any idea what

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I'm going to talk about. I mean sometimes I don't.

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It's not that I my mind never really goes blank.

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It did.

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That is actually it's not totally true. I mean, I

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know I am a hero to a lot of you

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out there. Altogether, there's a hero if you look inside

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your pants, right, And.

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I like, I quite like the idea that it is.

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I thought.

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The way that the recording has come out that it

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would seem like they were just pretty much ad libbed,

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because they are.

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It's just me just talking.

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I didn't I didn't think they seemed very structured. I mean,

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a Q and a Friday is kind of structured in

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a sense of I'm just answering questions. So there is

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a degree of structure, and if I focus on let's say,

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a boring object, the only structure, okay, there is a

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structure with that in the sense of I choose a subject.

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So let's say if I choose mobile phones for an example,

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as a subject, I will have that little reminder in

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my head to bring the subject back mobile phones. So

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when I'm starting to talk about dolphins and you know,

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tree houses and stuff like that, then I realized, we've

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got to bring it back to mobile phones. So I

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managed to bring it back. I don't generally have that

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little voice in my head when I do just a

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general recording. And also even when I do the let's

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say a sleep normal sleep recording, if you want to

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call it hypnosis, a body scam, whatever, even if I

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have an idea of something that I'm going to discuss.

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So maybe I decided I'm just going to focus on

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each part of the body and imagine the wind is

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just blowing through that part of the body. And then

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when I get to start the recording, I might change

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my mind and decide to say the word relax five

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times or something like that with each time, you know,

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where as you focus on each part of the body

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or you know.

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So it's not.

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I kind of wish I was more structured, but I

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think if I was more structured, i'd be.

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I probably I've got more chance of.

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Being successful possibly if I was structured, but at the

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same time, I wouldn't be able to produce as many

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recordings as I do because for me, structure reduces I'm

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not going to say reduces creativity, but quite for me

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it does a little bit. I like the idea of

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being able to not know what I'm going to say

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because it amuses me then and I'm kind of interested

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in what I'm going to say next because I never

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know what I'm going to, what subject I'm going to

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end up talking about, or what direction I'm going to traveling.

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I really don't know. Now. Occasionally it's not so much

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that I find myself a loss for words, but occasionally,

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and this is true.

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I'm telling you. This is Mike. I'm telling you this, Mike.

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Is very true. And I did one recently. I do.

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I do recording and I'm just in a rotten mood.

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But I didn't.

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Realize until I started the recording, and I have to

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stop occasionally. I've done the whole recording and just trushed it.

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The other day I started I think I was to

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do a trivia Tuesday, and I I like, nah. I

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tried I think four different attempts to try to do it,

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and it wasn't the right day, so yeah, I just

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I abandoned it. Which is kind of weird because sometimes

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I might not feel in the mood to do recorded,

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but once I start the recording, I cheer up, and

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when I've completed the recording, I feel good like I've

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actually accomplished something, like I've contributed something to the world

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in my little way. But sometimes it's just a no go.

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As far as a loss for words. I think, if

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if I'm in if I'm talking to human, yeah I'm

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not Mike, I'm not saying you're not human, don't ever

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go at me. And what I think if I was

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face to face with one person I had this would

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be I mean, I think the reason why it is

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easier because there's no interruption. There's nothing interrupting my stream

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of thought. If if this is a conversation, then I

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would have to stop talking and it'd just be a

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different process because in order to get to some of

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the I guess more weird things that come out of

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my mouth, it takes a bit of traveling, It takes

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a bit of I need to like.

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Just let go, just you know, be free.

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Without I was gonna say without censuring myself. But you

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know what I do, I don't sense to myself. But

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in the end, I kind of do a little bit,

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but I generally don't. Generally Occasionally I said something and

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I edit it out and I think, no, it's like no,

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And you might be thinking, yeah, but you said something

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the other day and didn't edit that out. What kind

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of stuff do you edit out?

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What it's like? What I know, I'll just you got it.

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Well, you haven't got to remember, but you could maybe

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you think that. Yeah, sometimes I leave stuff in It

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makes me laugh. I know it might sound strange, but

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I've just I just sometimes find things funny.

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And even when I listen back to it, it just makes

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me giggle because it's just so ridiculous.

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Love I like absurd, I do. I like absurd, and

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but I like I like everything. I like so well,

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anything that makes me laugh I like. And I lost

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for words. No, there's a freedom. This is freedom for me.

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This is the only time I feel free is when

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I can just talk and I can just be me.

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And I think I found my voice over the last

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eight years, which might sound weird because it's a long

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period of time. Is it seven? How many years. Is

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it seven years? Not eight years? Is seven years? Seven years? Sorry,

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Since I've been doing since twenty eighteen, since I've been

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doing these, let me boy to sleep or lumbits lumbits

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lumbits bites. Yeah, since I being doing these, I think

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I've discovered my voice. At the same time, I realized

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I'm not a bad person really, just you know, stuff

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I come out with. I'm not out to cause anyone problems.

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I don't really have any I don't really have much

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in a way of extreme views. I never really wanted

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to have extreme views. You know. I grew up in

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a society in the seventies. You know, I was born

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in nineteen seventies, so I went through the seventies where

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there was a lot of extreme views around to do

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with well every single aspect of life really, And as

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I got older, you know, once I kind of reached

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I mean, it still went on through the eighties as well,

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but as I started to get older, I realized that

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these views that I had weren't my views, and I

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started to do something about it. Started to educate myself

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a bit. And by educate myself, I mean.

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Just just.

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Read and listen read other people's opinions, I think that

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can be educating. So if you've got one side of

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the argument and that's the only side of the argument

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you ever hear, it's going to kind of make sense,

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especially if you're a kid and you've grown up with that.

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But then if you see the other side of.

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The argument, it can be like it could be annoying,

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it can be difficult to hear. But then if you

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see another part of the argument from a different perspective,

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and then again from another perspective, And the more perspectives

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you get, the I think the more educated I became

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realizing that it is.

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Opinions and perspective and experiences. People.

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You know, we've all got different experiences, and it's yeah,

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I'm not not really into the extremest things, and it

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is I can't neighbor. It's proper, proper right wing always

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shouting on about it. And they it's like it's almost

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like they'd they read the sun and that's where they

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get their their opinions from. That's where they get their

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information from, and everything's kind of based around. It's like

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no new knowledge is going to go in because they've

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got that fixed, that fixed mentality.

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That that model that's there.

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I realized this has got nothing to do with the question,

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is it, But yeah, for me, yeah I do. I'm

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trying to explain that sometimes I do have a loss

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for words, but not really generally, not in this, not

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for this podcast. I'm hm hmm.

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I mean, there are better days.

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Some days. I guess I'm probably a bit more upbeat

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than others. I try not to be. I try not

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to I try to keep it light if I can,

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but it's not always, not always easy, you know. But

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at the same time, this isn't therapy for me. I'm

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not talking to help myself therapeutically, or though it might

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be helping me, maybe it'll be helping other people in

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some ways. To hear someone talking. And you know, if

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I don't really mention my mental health travels, journeys, whatever

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you want to call it, over the last fifty years,

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you know, fifty odd years, I don't really go into

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it too much detail. But I think maybe for some

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people would look at this, look at where I am now,

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and I'm doing all right, all things considered. You know,

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I'm still here. According to some of the messages I get,

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I'm helping people and I'm doing something positive with my time.

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And and then my psychologist said this to me, because

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I remember saying this is years ago. She said, can

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you put your trouser back on? Please? Like she said,

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didn't he what do you want? You want to a treat?

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I gotta go, and I'm not gonna go. You can

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hear me. I'm just gonna go and get my treat

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out of the packet.

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All right?

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All right, here we go. How did that get on

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the law?

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We stopped checking my stuff on the floor?

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Wow?

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I wait, So I've got this good boy chewy chicken

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twists with one hundred natural chicken breast meat, promotes dental

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hygiene and a complimentary pet food.

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Did you hear what you said? He said, I don't

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care what it says on the packet, just give me it.

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All right. Well, I'm trying to open it.

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He's sitting on both his He basically sitting on his

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bum with his hands in the air, like just there

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you go. I'm not sure if he learned to do

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that or if he was taught it, or I don't

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know if he just did it, because he's always done

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it since I've had him. But he was ten months

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old and I got.

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Him right, So that's that. Uh, yeah, I'm a psychologist.

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And this is probably eight nine years ago, she said

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to me because I said, well, I don't feel that

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i'm really helping society. I'm not help I'm not contributing.

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That's it. I'm not contributing to society being at home

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and not going to work or whatever. And she said, yeah,

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but society is not just your local area. Society is

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not just your country. Society is the world, isn't it.

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Society is everywhere? And I said, what are you talking about?

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She said, I don't know. I'm just trying to make

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you feel better.

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I said, it's because it's Friday afternoon.

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You're just waiting to go home. She said, yeah, I

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just wish you'd stop talking. I said, well, we can

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have a cup tea if you want. You said, no,

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I don't trust your tea. I said, I'm not going

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to put anything in it. She said that's a problem.

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An empty cup is no good. Does not question my

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first I said it was a silly conversation, but I

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just said, ah, I didn't think about it really like that.

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She said, well, you got people listening. I mean, if

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you forget the world, you've got people listening in this

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country just because no one's listening locally. I said, yeah,

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got a few. I suppose a few thousand around the

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country that listen. She said, there you go.

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So for.

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So, I guess in a way I am. From then on,

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I kind of thought maybe I saw a little bit differently.

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I am contributing to society in my own little way,

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in my own weird way. See. Yeah, and maybe if

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someone's listening, if they're like, you're very young maybe or

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I don't have to be young, but they might be listening.

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They might have a bipile or a personality disorder, some

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kind of mental health issue, and wondering like what's going

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to become of them and how they're going to get

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how they gonna you know, what's it like to Is

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it even possible to be like that and be in

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your thirties and forties and fifties.

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And yeah, it is possible. I'm proof of that.

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I was going to say living proof, but I don't

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know if I have to say a word of living

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considering I'm talking. I just heard this weird sound outside

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in the garden, and I didn't know what.

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It was, so I just had a little look and

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it's a man.

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Looks like he's washing the windows, which I'm kind of

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a little bit confused because but these are downstairs windows. Now,

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I know we have people wash the communal windows, but

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I've never had anyone washing my actual windows from outside,

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not in ten years i've lived there. So I've closed

480
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the windows just in case he's gonna wash them. Literally,

481
00:37:27.559 --> 00:37:32.000
I've got us. It's nominally joking it. I've got cobwebs

482
00:37:32.559 --> 00:37:34.800
that have been outside my window. I can't reach them

483
00:37:35.119 --> 00:37:38.360
to wash them, been out there for so long. If

484
00:37:38.360 --> 00:37:41.679
you get a magnifying glass, you can actually see one

485
00:37:41.880 --> 00:37:46.239
in a like a little rocking chair, smoking a pipe,

486
00:37:46.760 --> 00:37:51.599
another one knitting because the spiders is because they're so old.

487
00:37:54.079 --> 00:37:56.280
That would work on some level. I'm sure this needs

488
00:37:56.320 --> 00:38:03.719
a bit of rewriting. And Ben, when you were young

489
00:38:04.199 --> 00:38:07.119
and your dad collected you all again, did you have

490
00:38:07.159 --> 00:38:10.039
any pets? Right? So this is referring to when I

491
00:38:10.079 --> 00:38:13.559
left the children's home at seven, just before I was seven,

492
00:38:14.880 --> 00:38:18.480
the summer before I was seven. Why do I say

493
00:38:18.559 --> 00:38:25.039
summer so loudly? And nineteen seventy seven it was it

494
00:38:25.079 --> 00:38:30.159
was literally I think we moved there and Elvis passed away.

495
00:38:30.920 --> 00:38:35.440
That was. It was that kind of period. I remember

496
00:38:35.440 --> 00:38:43.320
that day because it rained so hard. And I mean

497
00:38:43.360 --> 00:38:46.440
this was nineteen seventy seven. This is when summers lasted

498
00:38:47.480 --> 00:38:54.079
for like it's for seemingly for weeks. I mean, whether

499
00:38:54.119 --> 00:38:57.679
they did or not, I don't know, but we definitely

500
00:38:58.920 --> 00:39:03.199
seventy five, seventy six, seventy seven we had some pretty

501
00:39:03.239 --> 00:39:10.079
long hot summers in the UK. And I remember walking

502
00:39:10.440 --> 00:39:12.519
I don't know, I think we were walking back from

503
00:39:12.559 --> 00:39:17.280
the beach and it pelted down and I've not said

504
00:39:17.280 --> 00:39:21.360
the word pelted for a long time, pelted down with rain,

505
00:39:22.440 --> 00:39:28.599
like really, we were all soaked through. Now, bearing in

506
00:39:28.679 --> 00:39:32.599
mind I was tiny and probably three drain three brain

507
00:39:32.639 --> 00:39:39.599
drops probably would have been enough to half wet me anyway.

508
00:39:37.400 --> 00:39:42.760
And you know a good thing about it is whenever

509
00:39:42.800 --> 00:39:44.920
it rained that hard, I just wet myself because I

510
00:39:44.960 --> 00:39:47.559
didn't it didn't matter. I could do a wee my

511
00:39:47.639 --> 00:39:54.079
pants and no one would know. Made a mistake one

512
00:39:54.159 --> 00:39:57.199
day though, because it started to rain really hard and

513
00:39:57.239 --> 00:40:00.800
the top of me started getting completely drenched, I thought, okay, good,

514
00:40:00.840 --> 00:40:03.519
I can go to the toilet and it stopped raining.

515
00:40:05.599 --> 00:40:09.559
Not a good look, not a good look at all.

516
00:40:11.719 --> 00:40:12.679
And other than that.

517
00:40:13.320 --> 00:40:15.039
I mean, it's not the only bad thing about it.

518
00:40:16.639 --> 00:40:20.039
The job interview didn't go very well either. Do do

519
00:40:20.039 --> 00:40:23.159
Do Do Do Do do do? See, I was on

520
00:40:23.239 --> 00:40:27.119
the way to a job interview. I'm pretending I was

521
00:40:27.159 --> 00:40:30.079
still a kid, but I was on my way to

522
00:40:30.199 --> 00:40:33.880
job interview, and it rained, and I weed myself and

523
00:40:33.960 --> 00:40:36.079
I went into the job interview and he thought I

524
00:40:36.119 --> 00:40:39.239
would weed myself and they didn't give me the job.

525
00:40:40.639 --> 00:40:42.079
That was That's what that was about.

526
00:40:43.159 --> 00:40:47.719
And I don't know if I wanted the job either,

527
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:55.039
but I might have done. I don't know how many jobs.

528
00:40:54.880 --> 00:41:00.159
Have gone forward. I didn't get twice right twice. I've

529
00:41:00.199 --> 00:41:04.440
actually been offered two jobs at the same time and

530
00:41:04.440 --> 00:41:08.800
I had to choose. Happened twice once. I was in

531
00:41:08.920 --> 00:41:11.920
two thousand and four, I was offered a job in

532
00:41:12.239 --> 00:41:18.559
a call center, like selling car insurance again or working

533
00:41:18.639 --> 00:41:25.320
as a care assistant. Now. At the time, I wanted

534
00:41:25.360 --> 00:41:29.079
to be a care assistant, but the money would have

535
00:41:29.119 --> 00:41:32.199
been absolutely rubbish compared to well, I just wouldn't have

536
00:41:32.239 --> 00:41:34.920
been a good salary. But that's not what I wanted.

537
00:41:34.920 --> 00:41:37.239
I wanted to do something where I was helping people.

538
00:41:39.320 --> 00:41:42.039
But I chose to call center because first of all,

539
00:41:42.039 --> 00:41:44.320
I knew what I was doing because I'd already had

540
00:41:44.320 --> 00:41:48.199
a job doing that, and it was a second call certer.

541
00:41:48.239 --> 00:41:51.199
I'd worked in second insurance job, i'd worked in third

542
00:41:51.239 --> 00:41:56.559
call center, and also I'd never done care work before,

543
00:41:56.679 --> 00:42:01.440
so I didn't know if or not i'd be right

544
00:42:01.519 --> 00:42:03.119
for that kind of job, didn't knowough i'd be able

545
00:42:03.119 --> 00:42:09.840
to do it, And the second time was back in

546
00:42:11.159 --> 00:42:12.800
There might have been other times, but this another one

547
00:42:12.840 --> 00:42:25.000
I remember was in two thousand and twelve, around December

548
00:42:25.599 --> 00:42:29.800
year or into November, I went for two jobs once.

549
00:42:29.960 --> 00:42:33.199
One was in a car insurance company, the third car

550
00:42:33.199 --> 00:42:37.000
insurance company that I ended up working in, so you

551
00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:38.840
won't be surprised I know that I took that one.

552
00:42:39.880 --> 00:42:43.679
But the other job I got offered was interviewing people

553
00:42:43.760 --> 00:42:47.760
on the phone, which actually was much more to my

554
00:42:47.920 --> 00:42:53.480
skill set because I wasn't selling anything. I got to

555
00:42:53.519 --> 00:42:57.320
be nice all day. I would have been good at it.

556
00:42:59.159 --> 00:43:00.800
I just would have been good. It would have been

557
00:43:04.079 --> 00:43:09.639
pretty much very easy job, but also rewarding because I'm

558
00:43:09.679 --> 00:43:15.719
giving people jobs and stuff. So it's like a like

559
00:43:15.760 --> 00:43:24.679
an OUTCOO center working on behalf of big companies but

560
00:43:24.800 --> 00:43:33.920
it wasn't. It didn't seem like a stable position, and

561
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:44.000
so I just yeah, I just went with the insurance job. Sure,

562
00:43:44.039 --> 00:43:56.320
there's a horse joke there somewhere. Stable position. So yeah,

563
00:43:57.960 --> 00:43:59.519
how did I talking about that?

564
00:43:59.559 --> 00:44:02.320
You asked me I had any pets? Blimey.

565
00:44:03.840 --> 00:44:04.199
Yeah.

566
00:44:04.239 --> 00:44:12.639
So when we went there, do you want that last one?

567
00:44:12.679 --> 00:44:15.599
Do you want them?

568
00:44:15.679 --> 00:44:16.760
How about eating your dinner?

569
00:44:17.320 --> 00:44:19.920
This is the last one. You've got no more treats,

570
00:44:23.920 --> 00:44:26.559
and you're not having any more treats to next Thursday.

571
00:44:27.159 --> 00:44:28.719
So this is it. This is your this is your

572
00:44:28.760 --> 00:44:32.360
last treat for a whole week. Okay, up to you.

573
00:44:33.519 --> 00:44:39.440
I went we had ants.

574
00:44:40.559 --> 00:44:44.000
In the house. I mean, that's not really technically a pet,

575
00:44:44.119 --> 00:44:55.000
is it. No? No, no pets. I was let another's

576
00:44:55.039 --> 00:44:57.400
packet is probably going to want to rip its bits.

577
00:45:02.280 --> 00:45:06.360
Let's just take out the thing which keeps the bag fresh,

578
00:45:06.400 --> 00:45:07.880
because I don't know if I want him eating that.

579
00:45:08.559 --> 00:45:11.760
It'll be all at the bag to bits now trying

580
00:45:11.800 --> 00:45:22.199
to get to what's not in there. Not initially, I mean,

581
00:45:22.199 --> 00:45:26.400
we weren't in that house for very long because.

582
00:45:26.039 --> 00:45:27.400
It was a little bit derelict.

583
00:45:28.239 --> 00:45:31.239
It was I think it was condemned. So we had

584
00:45:31.239 --> 00:45:35.079
to move out. My dad joked something about, you know,

585
00:45:35.719 --> 00:45:37.920
it was fine until I moved in, which was a

586
00:45:37.920 --> 00:45:45.599
bit rude, too much farting, ha ha ha. And so

587
00:45:46.639 --> 00:45:50.079
when we moved into the next house, which is only

588
00:45:51.400 --> 00:45:56.840
probably five months maybe after moving there to that town

589
00:45:57.320 --> 00:46:01.559
maybe less, maybe six months maybe less, moved into this

590
00:46:01.679 --> 00:46:09.119
new build house and we did have a cat called

591
00:46:10.440 --> 00:46:19.360
oh what was a cat called Tiger? Yeah, we had

592
00:46:19.400 --> 00:46:25.679
a cat called Tiger, and which was the first time

593
00:46:25.719 --> 00:46:31.480
I'd ever never stroked a pussy before. I'd never never

594
00:46:31.679 --> 00:46:37.440
had a dog, never, never never really been around any

595
00:46:37.519 --> 00:46:45.159
kind of pets in my life. So I was a

596
00:46:45.159 --> 00:46:50.760
little bit I didn't wasn't quite sure how to how

597
00:46:50.840 --> 00:46:54.280
to I don't know, I didn't really know what to

598
00:46:54.320 --> 00:47:00.239
do with it. But yeah, so we had a cat.

599
00:47:01.159 --> 00:47:08.639
Unfortunately didn't The cat didn't last long. Got yeah, it

600
00:47:08.800 --> 00:47:13.239
got I got run over to be fairst That's what happened.

601
00:47:13.679 --> 00:47:23.400
Got home from school and I was upsetting. But other

602
00:47:23.480 --> 00:47:29.320
than that than nothing. And then I won a goldfish

603
00:47:29.719 --> 00:47:35.440
at the the yearly Fair, which was thinking August or September.

604
00:47:38.719 --> 00:47:40.519
That's the thing. You can make people more nice. Please

605
00:47:41.280 --> 00:47:47.920
don't start knocking stuff off. He wants me to give

606
00:47:48.000 --> 00:47:51.559
him more. I can't give him more because I don't

607
00:47:51.599 --> 00:48:01.360
have more to give him. I really don't, no, So yeah,

608
00:48:01.719 --> 00:48:05.519
I had it. I won a goldfish called Popeye. I

609
00:48:05.599 --> 00:48:07.599
called him Popeye because he had one eye that was

610
00:48:08.639 --> 00:48:12.800
much bigger than the other eye. So Popeye was my

611
00:48:13.119 --> 00:48:25.679
first ever pet, really my first mind. And then it

612
00:48:25.760 --> 00:48:31.360
turned out he had an eye disease, so I felt

613
00:48:31.360 --> 00:48:35.599
a little bit guilty called him Popeye. But I didn't

614
00:48:35.599 --> 00:48:38.000
think it was fair to change his name. I've always

615
00:48:38.039 --> 00:48:40.920
like it's all he knew. He didn't know any other name,

616
00:48:41.320 --> 00:48:43.639
and I don't think he realized the reason for the name,

617
00:48:43.760 --> 00:48:46.159
so there was no point telling him. There didn't see

618
00:48:46.199 --> 00:48:49.840
any point changing it because that just that would be

619
00:48:49.880 --> 00:48:53.760
confusing from him. So I had these little drops took

620
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:58.199
him to the vet. I'm not sure if he did.

621
00:48:58.199 --> 00:48:59.000
I thought he might have.

622
00:48:58.960 --> 00:49:04.280
Taken him to the vet blind me, or maybe could

623
00:49:04.280 --> 00:49:06.239
he take a goldfish to the vet? I don't know.

624
00:49:07.559 --> 00:49:11.679
We've got these little drops which put into his water,

625
00:49:11.880 --> 00:49:16.679
and it seemed to help a bit. I used to

626
00:49:16.719 --> 00:49:21.440
be fascinated with Popeye. It's just the whole kind of

627
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:30.159
the poohing I found weird. The laying of cable, just

628
00:49:30.199 --> 00:49:41.480
the whole haven't it attached for that long? Wonderf whales

629
00:49:41.519 --> 00:49:47.199
do that? Mhmm. You couldn't fit a whale in a

630
00:49:47.199 --> 00:49:54.119
little goldfish thing, could you. My dad had a did

631
00:49:54.159 --> 00:49:58.159
we have a goldfish pond? Or is it my granddaddy

632
00:49:58.239 --> 00:49:59.440
put a goldfish pond in?

633
00:50:04.079 --> 00:50:04.199
Well?

634
00:50:04.239 --> 00:50:06.199
I think we might have got a goldfish pond, but

635
00:50:06.239 --> 00:50:08.400
it might have been my granddad. I can't remember. Now,

636
00:50:08.719 --> 00:50:14.159
that's weird. I'd have to ask my dad. There was

637
00:50:14.199 --> 00:50:18.079
definitely a goldfish pond in that garden of that house,

638
00:50:18.760 --> 00:50:22.840
just a little goldfish pond, and it was because you

639
00:50:22.880 --> 00:50:26.159
used to put a tennis ball in there in the

640
00:50:26.199 --> 00:50:39.079
winter so that it always left an air an air hole. Mmm.

641
00:50:43.480 --> 00:50:47.000
I remember my brother, my little brother had a goldfish

642
00:50:47.639 --> 00:50:52.440
called ton Katoy or Tony or something like that. And

643
00:50:54.079 --> 00:50:58.480
he was showing off. This is about ten years ago.

644
00:50:59.119 --> 00:51:02.639
You know, he's a he would be nearly fifty soon.

645
00:51:03.559 --> 00:51:07.440
He was going on about how he is goldfish.

646
00:51:09.400 --> 00:51:10.079
Lived for.

647
00:51:12.239 --> 00:51:18.079
Like seven years or whatever. He had it for seven years,

648
00:51:19.199 --> 00:51:21.880
and my dad started laughing. This was at the dinner table.

649
00:51:22.679 --> 00:51:23.239
That's my dad.

650
00:51:23.400 --> 00:51:25.840
They said, why are you laughing? He said, oh, you

651
00:51:25.920 --> 00:51:29.440
just kept replacing it every time he died. You just

652
00:51:29.480 --> 00:51:32.679
didn't notice, right.

653
00:51:33.480 --> 00:51:36.960
Really, I said, why can you do that with a cat?

654
00:51:40.159 --> 00:51:42.519
But I guess it's you know, he didn't didn't want to.

655
00:51:43.559 --> 00:51:45.920
So my dad don't like animals.

656
00:51:47.360 --> 00:51:48.079
It's really weird.

657
00:51:48.079 --> 00:51:51.679
Because one of them said to me, because they won't

658
00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:56.159
come here, they won't enter my house. My dad won't

659
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:02.679
set foot into this place, this flat. And I was

660
00:52:02.840 --> 00:52:05.480
told like it was because I had an andre the ferret.

661
00:52:05.920 --> 00:52:10.079
Now I've got a dog. Doesn't like animals. Someone said

662
00:52:10.079 --> 00:52:14.840
these are allergic to animals. I said, well, that's obviously

663
00:52:14.880 --> 00:52:18.639
a lie. And I said, well it's not true because

664
00:52:19.960 --> 00:52:23.880
he spent thirty five years or whatever, forty years going

665
00:52:23.880 --> 00:52:28.079
into people's houses, you know, part of his job, so

666
00:52:28.440 --> 00:52:31.119
you know. And then one day he said, well, I'm

667
00:52:31.119 --> 00:52:37.559
not allergic to animals, just don't like them. Okay, good,

668
00:52:37.599 --> 00:52:38.679
at least you've got some truth.

669
00:52:38.719 --> 00:52:42.519
Then, But out of.

670
00:52:42.599 --> 00:52:46.880
The four people he visits, they've all got animals, they've

671
00:52:46.880 --> 00:52:54.039
all got dogs, including me, but he doesn't have come here.

672
00:52:54.960 --> 00:52:55.960
Weird, isn't it?

673
00:52:56.000 --> 00:52:59.719
Meets me in a restaurant or a coffee place, won't

674
00:52:59.719 --> 00:53:08.760
set put into this place. I don't know, there's a

675
00:53:08.800 --> 00:53:13.320
lot to discuss. That's not really the question.

676
00:53:13.440 --> 00:53:18.119
If any come on me, I know I gave it

677
00:53:18.159 --> 00:53:25.159
to her. I'll tell you it's weird.

678
00:53:25.239 --> 00:53:28.239
The other day I gave him a packet and there's

679
00:53:28.280 --> 00:53:30.840
one bit left in. There's one of those shoes left.

680
00:53:31.800 --> 00:53:35.320
And he just looked at the packet. The packet wasn't closed,

681
00:53:36.079 --> 00:53:41.000
it was open. He wouldn't take it out. He just

682
00:53:41.000 --> 00:53:45.679
couldn't be bothered. But as soon as he'd eaten that bit,

683
00:53:46.920 --> 00:54:00.480
he destroyed the packet into many pieces. Is what he's

684
00:54:00.519 --> 00:54:12.559
doing right now. Other animals we had, Wow, this is noisy.

685
00:54:13.039 --> 00:54:27.639
Other animals. When I don't know how old I was,

686
00:54:29.320 --> 00:54:38.760
probably thirteen, my dad got a dog for my stepmom.

687
00:54:41.239 --> 00:54:45.719
She wanted a dog, but I couldn't just get a

688
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:52.840
normal dog's just a normal standard dog, normal dog size.

689
00:54:53.119 --> 00:54:59.960
No came home with Saint Bernard, one of the world's

690
00:55:00.079 --> 00:55:13.800
biggest dogs, and cute as anything. As a puppy, I

691
00:55:13.840 --> 00:55:16.079
mean all puppies are cute. There's no he can't there's

692
00:55:16.119 --> 00:55:19.440
no non cute puppy. So it's like a none cute

693
00:55:19.719 --> 00:55:22.119
pussy cat, you know what I mean. They're just always

694
00:55:23.760 --> 00:55:28.280
they're always cute. And they when they're little, and then they, oh,

695
00:55:28.880 --> 00:55:30.360
is that as noisy as for you as it is

696
00:55:30.360 --> 00:55:33.679
for me? That's really wanted me up.

697
00:55:37.039 --> 00:55:43.800
It's still funny, though, I don't know why he's so silly.

698
00:55:44.079 --> 00:55:51.920
So I yeah. We had this dog called Misty Saint Bernard,

699
00:55:52.079 --> 00:55:56.480
and you literally, if you just you could watch it grow.

700
00:55:56.280 --> 00:55:59.719
In front of you. I mean, I'm not even joking.

701
00:55:59.719 --> 00:56:06.320
It grew and grew and grew. I remember one day, everyone,

702
00:56:06.360 --> 00:56:08.960
not one day. I remember saying to my dad, is

703
00:56:08.960 --> 00:56:12.440
it finished growing yet? Said, you asked that yesterday and

704
00:56:12.519 --> 00:56:15.599
the day before that. You'll know when it's finished growing,

705
00:56:15.679 --> 00:56:17.840
So the hell, because you won't be able to see

706
00:56:17.840 --> 00:56:22.599
the sun anymore. And it was right huge, bigger than me.

707
00:56:24.280 --> 00:56:27.800
I was like thirteen fourteen or whatever. Thirteen bigger than

708
00:56:27.800 --> 00:56:34.400
me when it's trully grown, weighed more than me, probably

709
00:56:34.440 --> 00:56:39.079
weighed about twelve fourteen stone. I weighed about eight and

710
00:56:39.119 --> 00:56:44.920
a half stone. When I took it for a walk,

711
00:56:45.079 --> 00:56:48.519
it would just drag me along. I had no control

712
00:56:48.519 --> 00:56:52.159
over it, or over her. Other no control over her.

713
00:56:52.800 --> 00:56:57.320
She was a beautiful dog, but she got too big

714
00:56:57.360 --> 00:56:59.079
for the house. So she and we had had quite

715
00:56:59.079 --> 00:57:01.760
a big house but it wasn't big in the sense

716
00:57:01.840 --> 00:57:06.400
of I had a few rooms, but it wasn't big

717
00:57:07.199 --> 00:57:08.159
as finny.

718
00:57:08.719 --> 00:57:10.880
There's no point looking for stuff that isn't there.

719
00:57:11.440 --> 00:57:15.880
It's not there anymore. It's not there anymore, my dearest.

720
00:57:17.199 --> 00:57:23.280
The thing is, my dad built a kennel outside, and

721
00:57:23.320 --> 00:57:28.440
she lived outside because she just literally she'd get in

722
00:57:28.559 --> 00:57:31.960
and she'd knock everything over. She struggled to get through

723
00:57:32.000 --> 00:57:36.440
the door. I mean, she was huge, really big, and

724
00:57:38.760 --> 00:57:43.679
she wasn't she didn't have what she needed. And this

725
00:57:43.800 --> 00:57:48.920
is her time, probably forty so maybe it was when

726
00:57:48.920 --> 00:57:52.400
I was fourteen. This was at a time when everything

727
00:57:52.480 --> 00:58:00.800
was starting to go a little bit wrong, and you know,

728
00:58:01.800 --> 00:58:07.840
both my brothers ended up moving out. My stepmm went

729
00:58:07.880 --> 00:58:10.360
to start going back to work, so she was hardly

730
00:58:10.400 --> 00:58:13.719
ever there. My dad was always at working. I'd be

731
00:58:13.760 --> 00:58:18.760
babysitting my little brother after school and during the summer holidays,

732
00:58:18.920 --> 00:58:24.400
and Misty was just left or on her own too

733
00:58:24.480 --> 00:58:28.760
much was there. Wasn't really anyone's fault. It's just that

734
00:58:28.840 --> 00:58:31.880
wasn't planned. Just how it ended up being. You know,

735
00:58:31.920 --> 00:58:34.880
it went from being a big, full family house to

736
00:58:34.960 --> 00:58:41.000
her I don't know, something quite strange for the last

737
00:58:41.079 --> 00:58:47.719
year or so. And Misty she just, I mean, she'd

738
00:58:47.800 --> 00:58:53.239
jump on me. Every time I was anywhere near her.

739
00:58:53.280 --> 00:58:55.519
She would jump on me and pin me down and

740
00:58:55.599 --> 00:59:04.800
dribble all over my school uniform. And you know, that

741
00:59:04.960 --> 00:59:06.639
was a time when I didn't really want to go

742
00:59:06.679 --> 00:59:11.159
to school with a stain on my trousers going home

743
00:59:11.199 --> 00:59:14.880
from you know, school, going home from lunch. What you've

744
00:59:14.920 --> 00:59:18.000
been doing nothing? Why is that big stain on your crotch?

745
00:59:20.440 --> 00:59:22.639
Don't worry about it? What about that one on your jumper?

746
00:59:22.840 --> 00:59:27.400
Oh that's Misty. Misty just that's dribbling on me. Why

747
00:59:27.400 --> 00:59:29.960
didn't you say Misty did on your crotch as well?

748
00:59:30.000 --> 00:59:30.440
I don't know.

749
00:59:30.480 --> 00:59:33.800
I just didn't think quick enough. But she was.

750
00:59:33.880 --> 00:59:38.840
She was just like beautiful dog, messive though massive. It

751
00:59:38.880 --> 00:59:40.920
probably costs more to feed her than it did me

752
00:59:42.280 --> 00:59:44.639
on a week because I were feeding her tripe, which

753
00:59:44.719 --> 00:59:51.679
was not cheap. But she was too big, way too big.

754
00:59:52.719 --> 00:59:56.679
And it got to the point where I sit sort

755
00:59:56.679 --> 00:59:57.719
of try and go. I used to go in the

756
00:59:57.760 --> 01:00:02.079
front door because I couldn't go around the back because

757
01:00:02.079 --> 01:00:06.119
she jump on me. I was not scared, but a

758
01:00:06.119 --> 01:00:11.719
little bit kind of Yeah, it was a shame I

759
01:00:11.760 --> 01:00:14.159
couldn't take you for walks. I couldn't handle her. She

760
01:00:14.239 --> 01:00:17.719
was too strong. So she didn't get any walks, any

761
01:00:17.719 --> 01:00:22.719
proper walks anymore. And so yeah, that was that wasn't good.

762
01:00:22.760 --> 01:00:25.280
She did found my dad found her a better home,

763
01:00:25.440 --> 01:00:31.400
a proper home. But I mean she had a big

764
01:00:31.440 --> 01:00:34.920
garden to run around in. But you know, for me,

765
01:00:35.239 --> 01:00:37.400
it was a big garden I could run, but for her,

766
01:00:37.559 --> 01:00:40.280
she could just like a couple of jumps and she'd

767
01:00:40.320 --> 01:00:43.639
be either side of the of the fence. So it

768
01:00:43.679 --> 01:00:52.239
wasn't really that big for her. It was more like, yeah,

769
01:00:52.400 --> 01:00:54.719
just a tiny little mat really the grass was for

770
01:00:54.760 --> 01:00:59.199
her if she was so, she wasn't that big. She

771
01:00:59.320 --> 01:01:03.519
was half the size in the house. She was quite big,

772
01:01:04.119 --> 01:01:16.960
and she's white and brown pretty of course huge, absolutely huge.

773
01:01:17.320 --> 01:01:20.119
Ever since then, I've not I don't know, I just

774
01:01:20.719 --> 01:01:25.039
not scared of big dogs. I just just I could

775
01:01:25.039 --> 01:01:26.880
never have a big dog. I kind of can only

776
01:01:26.920 --> 01:01:28.960
really have a little dog. If I was going to

777
01:01:29.039 --> 01:01:31.199
have a dog, I've always thought that in my mind.

778
01:01:32.199 --> 01:01:32.800
I've lived with.

779
01:01:32.800 --> 01:01:37.320
Dogs on a few occasions. Other than that, I lived

780
01:01:38.239 --> 01:01:44.679
in London with a dog one two three different dogs

781
01:01:44.719 --> 01:01:51.079
in London and they were all kind of medium sized dogs.

782
01:01:51.119 --> 01:01:53.079
They weren't big, they weren't little, they were just kind

783
01:01:53.119 --> 01:01:57.280
of medium kind of size. And I just thought, well,

784
01:01:58.000 --> 01:02:02.239
nothing bigger than that, because they're hard to manage if

785
01:02:02.239 --> 01:02:07.960
they're being naughty, because the dogs are strong. Vinnie's really strong,

786
01:02:09.400 --> 01:02:11.800
but I can. I can beat him in an arm whstile,

787
01:02:11.960 --> 01:02:13.440
you know, just about.

788
01:02:16.440 --> 01:02:18.159
So I did think if I was because I thought

789
01:02:18.199 --> 01:02:20.519
back getting a dog when I first moved in there

790
01:02:21.360 --> 01:02:25.639
in twoenty fifteen, and I did look.

791
01:02:25.760 --> 01:02:29.000
I got permission from the council, and I started to

792
01:02:29.039 --> 01:02:38.159
look at a shelter and there was this Pomeranian, little Pomeranian,

793
01:02:39.320 --> 01:02:41.599
and I thought, oh, he's so cute, but he didn't

794
01:02:41.679 --> 01:02:45.920
like me. And because he didn't like me, I thought, now,

795
01:02:47.960 --> 01:02:50.159
you know, I had this little fantasy that if I

796
01:02:50.199 --> 01:02:52.679
ever went to a shelter, it would be the dog

797
01:02:52.719 --> 01:02:54.760
that came up to me that I would take home.

798
01:02:56.639 --> 01:03:01.239
Didn't didn't work like that. They all none of them

799
01:03:01.400 --> 01:03:01.639
liked me.

800
01:03:03.840 --> 01:03:09.440
So yeah, I don't know, I just I suppose I

801
01:03:09.440 --> 01:03:12.000
had a little fantasy of what it would really be

802
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:16.360
like compared to what it really was like. And then

803
01:03:16.360 --> 01:03:19.199
when I did end up getting my own, so if

804
01:03:19.199 --> 01:03:24.920
you want to call a pet andre little ferret. He

805
01:03:25.119 --> 01:03:27.719
hated me when I first got him, but I fell

806
01:03:27.719 --> 01:03:29.960
in love with him as soon as I saw him.

807
01:03:29.960 --> 01:03:33.159
I just fell in love with him. It's his little,

808
01:03:33.199 --> 01:03:37.480
tiny little face, little body, but his tiny patches on

809
01:03:37.519 --> 01:03:39.760
his eyes, and just I fell in love with him.

810
01:03:40.239 --> 01:03:42.239
And every time I picked him up, he hissed and

811
01:03:42.320 --> 01:03:48.559
he bit me. He absolutely didn't like me at all too.

812
01:03:48.639 --> 01:03:51.840
A couple of weeks before he sort of accepted that

813
01:03:51.920 --> 01:03:54.360
I existed, he wasn't able to get rid of me,

814
01:03:57.320 --> 01:04:01.400
and then we were kind of inseparable. Well, he couldn't

815
01:04:01.400 --> 01:04:03.360
get away from me, really, I suppose that's the best

816
01:04:03.360 --> 01:04:10.440
way to explain it. And so yeah, we had pets,

817
01:04:11.519 --> 01:04:14.679
but only really them too. So really, when I first

818
01:04:14.800 --> 01:04:20.519
moved there, other than the ants, there was nothing. Then

819
01:04:20.519 --> 01:04:24.320
we had the cat and she wasn't there for long unfortunately.

820
01:04:26.800 --> 01:04:30.519
And then when we moved, I had my little goldfish,

821
01:04:30.559 --> 01:04:36.719
and then when we moved I didn't have a goldfish anymore.

822
01:04:37.039 --> 01:04:37.840
Then we had the.

823
01:04:40.199 --> 01:04:51.480
Misty, the huge, huge dog. In about about fourteen, maybe

824
01:04:51.559 --> 01:04:55.519
fifteen fourteen fifteen. I lose track of the times, really,

825
01:04:56.280 --> 01:05:01.239
but it was a point when neither of my brothers

826
01:05:01.280 --> 01:05:03.719
were living there, so I was on the top floor

827
01:05:03.840 --> 01:05:08.840
on my own, which was weird, and I didn't like

828
01:05:08.960 --> 01:05:11.199
living with them, but I missed them when they weren't there.

829
01:05:12.360 --> 01:05:17.960
It's weird. And it's just like the brother just above me,

830
01:05:18.559 --> 01:05:20.440
the two years older. He used to wind me up

831
01:05:20.440 --> 01:05:23.079
all the time, but I missed him when he left.

832
01:05:23.639 --> 01:05:27.159
When he moved out, I was like, oh, because I'd

833
01:05:27.159 --> 01:05:30.519
spent my whole life with him. Literally from the day

834
01:05:30.519 --> 01:05:39.119
I was born to fifteen or fourteen fifteen whatever. I'd

835
01:05:39.159 --> 01:05:43.239
been with him every single day of my life, moving

836
01:05:43.280 --> 01:05:47.440
around the country, living in different places. So suddenly he

837
01:05:47.480 --> 01:05:52.239
wasn't there. It was very strange, even though we didn't

838
01:05:52.320 --> 01:05:55.880
necessarily get on that well. And then my other brother,

839
01:05:56.159 --> 01:06:05.960
the oldest one, he moved out, and that was strange.

840
01:06:06.079 --> 01:06:07.920
It's like just being at the top of that old

841
01:06:07.960 --> 01:06:12.599
house on my own, very weird. So what I did

842
01:06:12.920 --> 01:06:17.639
is I got myself a budgy to replace him. It's

843
01:06:19.360 --> 01:06:23.360
thought i'd replaced him a budgy, and I did. I

844
01:06:23.440 --> 01:06:26.400
got myself a budgy in a cage. I had it

845
01:06:26.440 --> 01:06:28.159
in my bedroom start with, but it was a little

846
01:06:28.159 --> 01:06:31.440
bit too clattery, a bit annoying. So I thought I

847
01:06:31.519 --> 01:06:35.920
put it in the other bedroom, in my brother's bedroom

848
01:06:35.960 --> 01:06:41.960
at the front of the house, and unfortunately there was

849
01:06:42.000 --> 01:06:46.639
no heat and it froze.

850
01:06:48.880 --> 01:06:51.199
There was there was there was this terrible really but

851
01:06:51.239 --> 01:06:53.000
it's so.

852
01:06:53.280 --> 01:06:59.719
This must have been during the winter and there's no Yeah,

853
01:06:59.840 --> 01:07:05.159
the the heating would be off. I think my dad's

854
01:07:05.199 --> 01:07:08.360
always had a bit of a problem with heating. I

855
01:07:08.360 --> 01:07:11.239
remember when I was living with I moved out and

856
01:07:11.280 --> 01:07:16.360
lived with my stepmom and her mom in the flat

857
01:07:17.599 --> 01:07:21.199
then my step man's flat. So my little brother and

858
01:07:21.239 --> 01:07:25.960
my stepmom were in one bed, my step nn was

859
01:07:26.000 --> 01:07:28.840
in the other bed in the other room, and then

860
01:07:28.880 --> 01:07:31.159
I was on the living room floor on a little

861
01:07:31.199 --> 01:07:37.159
camper bed. I didn't like that, so I went and

862
01:07:37.199 --> 01:07:39.239
moved back. I asked my dad if I could move

863
01:07:39.320 --> 01:07:45.360
back into the house because it was horrible, and he said, yeah, it.

864
01:07:45.480 --> 01:07:46.760
Was freezing cold.

865
01:07:48.320 --> 01:07:49.679
There was no hit, so you're going to put the

866
01:07:49.679 --> 01:07:55.360
heat and said, nope, no heat. I had to move

867
01:07:55.400 --> 01:07:58.480
out again. I was fifteen years old. By the way,

868
01:07:58.480 --> 01:08:03.880
I wasn't even leak. They should they had it right,

869
01:08:04.239 --> 01:08:08.119
they had a duty of care, but they in back

870
01:08:08.159 --> 01:08:11.639
in them days, it wasn't really enforced but freezing colds.

871
01:08:11.679 --> 01:08:14.480
I went back to the flat where as one, but

872
01:08:14.480 --> 01:08:18.359
I didn't want to be there because just I missed

873
01:08:18.399 --> 01:08:22.159
my own room, you know, my own stuff, my own space.

874
01:08:23.760 --> 01:08:25.680
And I know I'd only been there for a little

875
01:08:25.680 --> 01:08:30.159
while because the house had to get sold. But would

876
01:08:30.199 --> 01:08:33.479
the house have to get sold if I was living there,

877
01:08:34.920 --> 01:08:38.319
I don't know. It probably would have put it off,

878
01:08:39.399 --> 01:08:41.760
Probably wouldn't have had to sell it until I was

879
01:08:41.840 --> 01:08:50.479
sixteen or maybe eighteen, I don't know which would have

880
01:08:50.560 --> 01:08:53.079
been getting it would have been better because the house

881
01:08:53.119 --> 01:08:58.640
would have been worth a lot more because it went

882
01:08:58.720 --> 01:09:02.159
up from being I think sixty six grand when they

883
01:09:02.199 --> 01:09:07.079
sold it in nineteen eighty six or nineteen eighty seven,

884
01:09:08.439 --> 01:09:12.319
in nineteen eighty eight went up to two hundred and

885
01:09:12.359 --> 01:09:17.239
fifty thousand pounds. Can you believe that that's not even

886
01:09:17.239 --> 01:09:19.800
a lie? I remember I went into my dad's because

887
01:09:19.840 --> 01:09:22.800
he had a new house by then, like he'd got

888
01:09:22.880 --> 01:09:25.720
himself another house. So I guess they split the money.

889
01:09:25.840 --> 01:09:29.039
She she took her money, he took his and put

890
01:09:29.039 --> 01:09:32.880
a deposit on a new house. So I went in

891
01:09:32.920 --> 01:09:35.119
to his house just to see him, and there was

892
01:09:35.920 --> 01:09:36.520
this thing.

893
01:09:36.680 --> 01:09:39.760
He pointed to it. It was on this little chip

894
01:09:39.800 --> 01:09:41.840
board wooden.

895
01:09:41.439 --> 01:09:46.359
Board thing where he posts no pin stuff on, and

896
01:09:46.399 --> 01:09:48.720
there was a picture of our house with a two

897
01:09:48.760 --> 01:09:56.600
hundred and fifty thousand pounds price tag, and you could

898
01:09:56.600 --> 01:09:58.039
see a dent in the wall where he had been

899
01:09:58.119 --> 01:10:05.039
head button it. It was so angry because a year

900
01:10:05.319 --> 01:10:08.600
just over a year, year and a half, and it

901
01:10:08.680 --> 01:10:13.239
went up by that much. A year later it dropped

902
01:10:13.239 --> 01:10:15.640
down by about to about one hundred and twenty five

903
01:10:16.359 --> 01:10:18.239
or two years later, so it was a big drop.

904
01:10:19.039 --> 01:10:23.079
But you know it's now worth about seven hundred to

905
01:10:23.079 --> 01:10:28.159
eight hundred thousand when online just to search, maybe a

906
01:10:28.199 --> 01:10:28.800
little bit more.

907
01:10:30.279 --> 01:10:33.439
But it's just like wow. So if we just if I,

908
01:10:33.439 --> 01:10:34.319
if I had moved.

909
01:10:34.119 --> 01:10:37.159
In there, I might have been doing everyone a favor,

910
01:10:37.439 --> 01:10:43.479
like everyone i'd stayed there, and the council so like

911
01:10:43.600 --> 01:10:46.760
you I have to especially if I was on a

912
01:10:46.880 --> 01:10:50.000
YTS scheme, which I was said no, you have to

913
01:10:50.159 --> 01:10:55.399
look after until he's eighteen and do your care whatever,

914
01:10:56.720 --> 01:11:00.520
which meant the house price would have gone up. My

915
01:11:00.640 --> 01:11:04.159
dad could have sold that one hundred and twenty five

916
01:11:04.159 --> 01:11:04.720
grand each.

917
01:11:08.279 --> 01:11:09.880
She would have been better off, He would have been

918
01:11:09.880 --> 01:11:10.359
better off.

919
01:11:10.560 --> 01:11:13.640
He probably would be by his house outright the one

920
01:11:13.640 --> 01:11:20.680
he got. I mean, guess would have been amazing if

921
01:11:21.399 --> 01:11:22.880
if if if.

922
01:11:24.199 --> 01:11:25.479
So yeah, so.

923
01:11:25.600 --> 01:11:30.520
Yeah, we had pets. The budget was a weird one

924
01:11:30.600 --> 01:11:33.399
because I tried to give him mouth to mouth resuscitation

925
01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:39.479
and that didn't seem to work. So I thought, I'm

926
01:11:39.520 --> 01:11:40.159
not proud of this.

927
01:11:40.319 --> 01:11:40.880
I did do this.

928
01:11:40.920 --> 01:11:43.199
I didn't. I mean, I just thought to myself because

929
01:11:43.239 --> 01:11:46.640
I didn't know if he was still alive or not,

930
01:11:49.000 --> 01:11:52.359
and because he just I didn't know if because he

931
01:11:52.399 --> 01:11:53.680
was not looking at me, I didn't know if he

932
01:11:53.720 --> 01:11:57.119
was giving me the cold shoulder literally, but if he

933
01:11:57.239 --> 01:12:03.119
was just annoyed because I'd left him on his own, and.

934
01:12:03.800 --> 01:12:05.399
I don't know, I was a kid. I just didn't

935
01:12:05.439 --> 01:12:06.159
really know what to do.

936
01:12:07.000 --> 01:12:14.039
So I thought, because I was up three stories high,

937
01:12:14.319 --> 01:12:16.159
and I thought, well, if I just put it out,

938
01:12:16.199 --> 01:12:21.159
it's going to fly away, isn't it. And Okay, so

939
01:12:21.359 --> 01:12:27.560
I know budgies that generally don't necessarily it might not

940
01:12:27.600 --> 01:12:30.039
have a great life out in the wild, it's going

941
01:12:30.079 --> 01:12:32.560
to a better life than what it has there, you know,

942
01:12:33.960 --> 01:12:35.279
And so I.

943
01:12:35.319 --> 01:12:35.760
Kind of.

944
01:12:38.479 --> 01:12:40.880
He didn't fly, That's what I'm going to say. He

945
01:12:40.920 --> 01:12:49.199
didn't fly. So that was the end of that. Never

946
01:12:49.199 --> 01:12:53.960
give me off to mouth resuscitation to a budgy. It's

947
01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:58.640
a hard one to judge, you know. But I did

948
01:12:58.720 --> 01:13:02.560
do That's genuinely true. I'm not I'm not proud of it.

949
01:13:02.640 --> 01:13:09.520
I just something I did. And the herd compressions. It's

950
01:13:09.640 --> 01:13:15.239
very hard to really know how hard to push. If

951
01:13:15.319 --> 01:13:22.840
they squeak, you might be pushing too hard. So also,

952
01:13:23.079 --> 01:13:29.399
have you ever had one driving test lesson car or motorbike? Yeah?

953
01:13:29.439 --> 01:13:30.239
I had more than one.

954
01:13:30.960 --> 01:13:31.680
I've had.

955
01:13:33.680 --> 01:13:36.000
Nineteen ninety one, I had a couple of driving lessons

956
01:13:36.119 --> 01:13:38.960
two thousand and four. I had a few driving lessons

957
01:13:39.960 --> 01:13:40.640
ninety one.

958
01:13:41.319 --> 01:13:45.239
I just couldn't be bothered. Just didn't see the point.

959
01:13:49.359 --> 01:13:59.720
And my spatial awareness is not necessarily perfect, which showed

960
01:14:01.600 --> 01:14:05.960
both times I tried to learn to drive. I was

961
01:14:07.880 --> 01:14:11.479
too close or too far. I could never I can

962
01:14:11.560 --> 01:14:15.239
never really figure out where the car should be. That

963
01:14:15.399 --> 01:14:19.359
might have come with time, but yeah, I didn't. I

964
01:14:19.399 --> 01:14:25.079
didn't enjoy it the second time in two thousand and four,

965
01:14:26.000 --> 01:14:31.880
my driving instructor was too enthusiastic. It was only a

966
01:14:31.920 --> 01:14:34.039
young bloke. I mean I was young as well myself.

967
01:14:34.079 --> 01:14:38.600
I was only twenty three or twenty four whatever, But

968
01:14:39.359 --> 01:14:45.560
I just twenty three, probably thirty three, not twenty three.

969
01:14:45.640 --> 01:14:48.479
I was thirty three. He was in his early twenties,

970
01:14:48.520 --> 01:14:55.359
i'd say. But it was super excited, super enthusiastic, motivational,

971
01:14:55.399 --> 01:14:56.960
and I just wanted him to calm down.

972
01:14:58.199 --> 01:14:59.560
Oh you can do it, you can do it, like

973
01:15:00.359 --> 01:15:00.680
come on.

974
01:15:01.680 --> 01:15:03.479
I did want it to be negative. I just didn't

975
01:15:03.439 --> 01:15:08.560
want him to be like over the top, you know.

976
01:15:08.800 --> 01:15:12.640
It was like emotionally doing cartwheels all the time. It

977
01:15:12.720 --> 01:15:15.199
was just a little bit, a little bit too much.

978
01:15:16.399 --> 01:15:19.640
So I just whenever he came around, I just hid,

979
01:15:19.760 --> 01:15:24.319
didn't answer the door. I ended up paying for quite

980
01:15:24.359 --> 01:15:26.159
a lot of lessons I didn't turn up for.

981
01:15:27.680 --> 01:15:28.000
Anyway.

982
01:15:28.000 --> 01:15:33.520
Any end. I stopped. I went into the DVLA or

983
01:15:33.680 --> 01:15:35.800
I don't know wherever, the places that I always take

984
01:15:35.840 --> 01:15:37.880
my lessons, and I went to the reception. I said,

985
01:15:37.920 --> 01:15:41.560
I'd like to cancel my lessons please, and she said, well,

986
01:15:41.640 --> 01:15:45.039
who you driving with? And I said the name of

987
01:15:45.079 --> 01:15:47.920
the person who's your instructor. She said, I'll just go

988
01:15:47.960 --> 01:15:50.920
and get him. I said no, no, no, no, no,

989
01:15:50.920 --> 01:15:57.880
no no, and she said too enthusiastic. I said, yeah,

990
01:15:58.760 --> 01:16:04.079
too enthusias We heard that a lot. I said okay,

991
01:16:04.399 --> 01:16:08.880
and we canceled. That was it, and I moved, so

992
01:16:08.920 --> 01:16:12.840
we couldn't find out where I was. What was my

993
01:16:13.039 --> 01:16:20.800
longest relationship? This is from Ben again. So I you

994
01:16:20.840 --> 01:16:24.479
talked about romantic relationships, I guess.

995
01:16:25.520 --> 01:16:29.119
The longest one. I go through them.

996
01:16:29.359 --> 01:16:38.800
But I had one ninety one, which was that finished

997
01:16:38.800 --> 01:16:45.279
in the summer. I had one ninety three, sort of

998
01:16:45.319 --> 01:16:56.119
December ninety three all the way to September ish ninety four,

999
01:16:58.520 --> 01:16:59.920
so it's what's that October?

1000
01:17:00.199 --> 01:17:03.359
So what's that? Nine months? So nine months, that's quite

1001
01:17:03.399 --> 01:17:04.640
a long one.

1002
01:17:05.000 --> 01:17:12.680
And there was one in two thousand and nineteen ninety six.

1003
01:17:15.520 --> 01:17:26.640
It started probably May, maybe June nineteen ninety six, until

1004
01:17:28.239 --> 01:17:50.279
probably around April nineteen ninety seven. So what's that July, August, September, October, November, December, January, February, March, April.

1005
01:17:50.479 --> 01:17:55.119
So yeah, that was about ten months. So that was

1006
01:17:55.840 --> 01:17:59.960
probably the longest relationship I was ever in, like romantic relationship.

1007
01:18:01.439 --> 01:18:05.199
I'm being very vague with a word romantic, very very

1008
01:18:05.359 --> 01:18:36.359
generous with that word. But yeah, A look, I'm trying

1009
01:18:36.399 --> 01:18:43.640
to think, No, that's it that that was the longest one.

1010
01:18:43.640 --> 01:18:48.000
In ten months, but if you I was just listening

1011
01:18:48.039 --> 01:18:52.520
to some of the gardeners then and sometimes there's a

1012
01:18:52.560 --> 01:18:54.960
voice and I just don't recognize it, and it sounds clear.

1013
01:18:55.279 --> 01:19:02.720
It's like is it outside my garden? So, yeah, that's

1014
01:19:02.920 --> 01:19:07.319
my longest relationship. I'm trying to think of ever had

1015
01:19:07.319 --> 01:19:09.039
any other relationships.

1016
01:19:10.880 --> 01:19:14.119
I've had a few little ones, a few level short

1017
01:19:14.199 --> 01:19:15.720
relationships kind of.

1018
01:19:22.399 --> 01:19:29.560
Yeah, I mean ninety five, I think one two.

1019
01:19:33.239 --> 01:19:33.520
One.

1020
01:19:34.199 --> 01:19:39.359
I had two. You had two relationships ninety five, one

1021
01:19:39.399 --> 01:19:48.680
in ninety six, one in ninety seven. During college, I

1022
01:19:48.680 --> 01:19:52.199
didn't really have I had a friendship with a female,

1023
01:19:53.119 --> 01:19:55.720
but it wasn't a relationship, but it was a friendship

1024
01:19:56.319 --> 01:19:58.520
and then it turned into something a bit more at

1025
01:19:58.560 --> 01:20:01.920
the end of the course, at the end of the

1026
01:20:02.000 --> 01:20:05.199
university degree. But for the three years we were just

1027
01:20:05.640 --> 01:20:11.640
really good friends and then that kind of didn't really

1028
01:20:13.039 --> 01:20:13.880
come to anything.

1029
01:20:14.079 --> 01:20:14.600
We were just.

1030
01:20:16.199 --> 01:20:27.439
Friends, very close friends. And nope, no, not really. The

1031
01:20:27.520 --> 01:20:30.159
last ten years.

1032
01:20:31.319 --> 01:20:36.279
Pretty much it's been a dry well.

1033
01:20:38.479 --> 01:20:42.279
But yeah, as long as one about ten ten months,

1034
01:20:44.119 --> 01:20:50.359
you imagine saying ten years, wow, ten months longest one? Cindy,

1035
01:20:51.079 --> 01:20:54.239
would you tell us about the TV license tax? Do

1036
01:20:54.279 --> 01:20:56.520
you pay it every do you pay it on every

1037
01:20:56.560 --> 01:20:59.039
TV in the household or is it one feed for

1038
01:20:59.399 --> 01:21:05.079
per house regardless of the number of TVs. Mike's answered this,

1039
01:21:05.159 --> 01:21:06.880
so he hasn't answered. It's a good question. I've never

1040
01:21:06.920 --> 01:21:11.439
understood the whole UK TV license thing. How do they

1041
01:21:11.520 --> 01:21:14.159
know if you have a TV or not? Do they

1042
01:21:14.239 --> 01:21:16.520
have the right to just enter your house and look

1043
01:21:16.560 --> 01:21:21.640
at all your technology devices? And Hope has written I

1044
01:21:21.680 --> 01:21:23.600
had a friend who had to prove she didn't have

1045
01:21:23.640 --> 01:21:26.560
a TV in order to avoid the tax. She was

1046
01:21:26.600 --> 01:21:29.119
so so angry she had to let the TV tax

1047
01:21:29.159 --> 01:21:33.000
people in to search a flat. I'm Canadian, as she

1048
01:21:33.279 --> 01:21:36.520
was when she moved to England. Okay, I feel there's

1049
01:21:36.560 --> 01:21:45.520
a lot of questions there, so yeah, it's one okay,

1050
01:21:45.600 --> 01:21:50.479
So in this flat that I live, it wouldn't manified

1051
01:21:50.479 --> 01:21:53.800
one hundred TVs as far as I'm aware, it's this

1052
01:21:53.880 --> 01:21:59.800
one TV license per household. They do do a discount

1053
01:22:00.159 --> 01:22:08.199
or blind people, and so the whole was found that

1054
01:22:08.439 --> 01:22:15.439
just incredibly rude. To be fair, I just I don't know.

1055
01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:17.560
I don't know if there's a discount for people that

1056
01:22:17.680 --> 01:22:22.600
are pensioners. But I pay what do I pay this other?

1057
01:22:22.640 --> 01:22:23.720
Look?

1058
01:22:24.439 --> 01:22:31.359
Do I pay every single month TV license pay. I

1059
01:22:31.359 --> 01:22:34.439
think it's fifteen pound a month.

1060
01:22:43.720 --> 01:22:44.680
Tv TV.

1061
01:22:44.960 --> 01:22:47.039
It's at the beginning of the months and ASA look

1062
01:22:48.960 --> 01:22:53.880
first of May fifteen pound, So I pay fifteen pound

1063
01:22:53.960 --> 01:22:59.680
a month for my TV license. I only have one television.

1064
01:23:00.840 --> 01:23:04.279
But the way they figured it's one of those really really,

1065
01:23:05.239 --> 01:23:10.680
it's to me such a dumb thing, a dumb idea.

1066
01:23:10.960 --> 01:23:14.399
It made sense originally, you know, when they first started

1067
01:23:14.439 --> 01:23:21.880
doing it, I guess, but there was two channels BBC one,

1068
01:23:22.119 --> 01:23:28.880
BBC two, both of them neither of them had adverts,

1069
01:23:29.640 --> 01:23:33.600
although they had sponsorship and stuff like that, but they

1070
01:23:33.600 --> 01:23:38.199
didn't have adverts, so it was a public service. Then

1071
01:23:38.319 --> 01:23:45.680
ITV came along, which was financed by advertising. Channel four

1072
01:23:45.760 --> 01:23:51.520
came along, financed by advertising. Channel five came along, financed

1073
01:23:51.560 --> 01:23:59.399
by advertising, and then over the years everything except BBC

1074
01:23:59.479 --> 01:24:07.279
channels are financed by advertising, all of them. Yet we

1075
01:24:07.359 --> 01:24:12.960
all still have to pay for BBC, even the people

1076
01:24:13.000 --> 01:24:17.960
don't use BBC. And you know, I see YouTube videos

1077
01:24:17.960 --> 01:24:20.279
where people say, oh, come on, you don't have to

1078
01:24:20.359 --> 01:24:21.960
let them in, or if you do let them in,

1079
01:24:22.239 --> 01:24:26.800
they have to prove that you watch BBC. And it's

1080
01:24:27.000 --> 01:24:30.680
not it's not quite as simple as that there. There

1081
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:34.600
can be a little bit intimidating. You know, these people

1082
01:24:34.680 --> 01:24:37.319
coming around, they do it for a living. They know

1083
01:24:38.439 --> 01:24:41.000
what buttons, the push, They know how to get people

1084
01:24:41.039 --> 01:24:44.720
to open up and how to incriminate themselves or whatever.

1085
01:24:45.560 --> 01:24:49.279
And it seems weird that some people go to prison

1086
01:24:49.359 --> 01:24:52.840
for not paying a TV license or refusing to pay

1087
01:24:52.880 --> 01:24:58.159
the TV license. They actually go to prison. How can

1088
01:24:58.199 --> 01:25:04.279
that in any world be justifiable? That doesn't me with

1089
01:25:04.439 --> 01:25:09.760
no strong views. It just seems ridiculous, just all absurd, absurd,

1090
01:25:10.079 --> 01:25:15.560
but not in a funny way. And so yeah, we

1091
01:25:15.680 --> 01:25:19.279
do have to have a TV license unless you can

1092
01:25:19.319 --> 01:25:24.560
prove that you do not have a television. And they

1093
01:25:24.720 --> 01:25:31.359
also now include streaming. So if you stream TV, even

1094
01:25:31.359 --> 01:25:35.319
if it isn't the BBC, So if you stream itv

1095
01:25:35.920 --> 01:25:39.479
app which has got adverts on, you're using the TV.

1096
01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:44.439
So you watch TV, any kind of terrestrial television, even

1097
01:25:44.439 --> 01:25:48.199
if it's streaming and you're viewing it through the internet,

1098
01:25:48.880 --> 01:25:50.800
you have to pay a TI TV license for.

1099
01:25:50.840 --> 01:25:52.960
It, according to.

1100
01:25:54.479 --> 01:26:00.199
Them. I'm sure there's ways around it. I know people

1101
01:26:00.279 --> 01:26:04.159
that don't pay the license and they just don't answer

1102
01:26:04.199 --> 01:26:09.399
the door. I never used to pay the TV license

1103
01:26:09.439 --> 01:26:14.199
until I moved here, but I pretty much always lived

1104
01:26:14.319 --> 01:26:19.239
in a multiple occupancy house, so the landlord paid the

1105
01:26:19.239 --> 01:26:24.800
TV license for the building. So I never had to

1106
01:26:24.800 --> 01:26:29.279
pay a TV license until I moved here, and I thought,

1107
01:26:29.880 --> 01:26:33.680
I'll just pay it because I've seen what happens when

1108
01:26:33.720 --> 01:26:39.479
people don't pay it and they get hounded. And how

1109
01:26:39.520 --> 01:26:47.239
do they watch that? Look do how do they know

1110
01:26:47.239 --> 01:26:51.720
if you have a TV or not? So this is Mike, Well,

1111
01:26:55.159 --> 01:26:58.640
they have these Well they basically just look at who's

1112
01:26:58.680 --> 01:26:59.920
paid for a TV license.

1113
01:27:01.960 --> 01:27:03.560
So if they've got everyone in a.

1114
01:27:03.640 --> 01:27:07.279
Road except number forty three, seventy two, and sixty five

1115
01:27:08.680 --> 01:27:13.000
haven't paid a TV license, then they know where to go.

1116
01:27:14.760 --> 01:27:16.439
And they're just going to assume.

1117
01:27:16.039 --> 01:27:21.279
That everybody has a TV, because most everybody does have

1118
01:27:21.319 --> 01:27:25.600
a TV. Some people don't, but most people do, and

1119
01:27:25.640 --> 01:27:29.560
even those people who don't. Actually, I remember having this

1120
01:27:29.600 --> 01:27:34.600
conversation with a dog walker and they said, oh yeah,

1121
01:27:35.079 --> 01:27:37.800
they said something about TV, and I said, wait a minute,

1122
01:27:37.880 --> 01:27:42.439
you told me you don't watch TV, because I remembered

1123
01:27:42.439 --> 01:27:46.520
what they'd said previously. When people contradict themselves, I tend

1124
01:27:46.560 --> 01:27:51.760
to remember what they said previously. And she said, oh no,

1125
01:27:52.119 --> 01:27:57.920
I stream I said it's still watching Telly just because

1126
01:27:57.960 --> 01:28:00.640
you don't own a television. So she time she didn't

1127
01:28:00.640 --> 01:28:02.880
own a television, which I assumed she didn't watch TV

1128
01:28:04.279 --> 01:28:06.239
or there There's been times when I've not owned a

1129
01:28:06.279 --> 01:28:09.680
TV and I did still watch TV online on my

1130
01:28:09.760 --> 01:28:16.119
laptop or at least watch programs, you know, streaming. So

1131
01:28:17.840 --> 01:28:22.039
they will check, they can check, and they will not

1132
01:28:22.399 --> 01:28:26.319
and they will harass. And they also they've got these

1133
01:28:26.479 --> 01:28:30.079
vans that apparently can tell, but I don't know if

1134
01:28:30.079 --> 01:28:30.680
they can or not.

1135
01:28:31.640 --> 01:28:32.800
I don't know if it's just.

1136
01:28:36.600 --> 01:28:38.960
There might just be like a little sausage roll maker

1137
01:28:39.000 --> 01:28:41.920
inside there a little bed that they sleep in. I

1138
01:28:41.960 --> 01:28:45.600
don't know if it's actually anything's working. But yeah, they've

1139
01:28:45.600 --> 01:28:47.840
definitely got the law on their side for some reason.

1140
01:28:49.439 --> 01:28:51.520
Do they have the right to just enter a house

1141
01:28:51.720 --> 01:28:56.359
and look at your technology devices? According to them, they do,

1142
01:28:57.319 --> 01:29:01.439
but uh, I think it can get to the point

1143
01:29:01.479 --> 01:29:07.479
where they can call the police in order to gain access, and.

1144
01:29:09.359 --> 01:29:14.479
Which is just ridiculous. It's really can you imagine.

1145
01:29:15.439 --> 01:29:18.319
Wasting the police time because you want to see if

1146
01:29:18.319 --> 01:29:28.560
someone owns a television that's phenomenally bad bad, and they

1147
01:29:28.600 --> 01:29:30.439
do check if they did get into your house. They

1148
01:29:30.479 --> 01:29:34.000
do look around and try and check all the technology devices.

1149
01:29:34.560 --> 01:29:37.159
So if you've got a laptop, dellas Zoom, if you've

1150
01:29:37.159 --> 01:29:40.880
got broadband, you've got internet. If you've got a phone

1151
01:29:41.199 --> 01:29:46.279
with internet, then you can watch television. If you've got access,

1152
01:29:46.399 --> 01:29:49.319
if you're able to watch television, then they think you

1153
01:29:49.319 --> 01:29:54.159
should be paying a TV license. That's their mentality. Everybody

1154
01:29:54.479 --> 01:30:01.760
with a smartphone can gain access to streaming television in

1155
01:30:01.800 --> 01:30:03.319
the UK anywhere. I don't know what it's like in

1156
01:30:03.359 --> 01:30:07.159
America or in Australia or Canada or anywhere else, but

1157
01:30:07.279 --> 01:30:13.920
in the UK, any phone, you know, a decent phone

1158
01:30:15.479 --> 01:30:20.199
which has internet access, which would be every phone that's

1159
01:30:20.399 --> 01:30:26.760
in the world can stream TV. So it's very difficult

1160
01:30:26.760 --> 01:30:33.760
to really get out of it. Yeah, I'm not not

1161
01:30:33.760 --> 01:30:35.439
a big fan of the whole thing, but you know what,

1162
01:30:35.640 --> 01:30:40.159
sometimes what is an old old saying pick your battles,

1163
01:30:41.279 --> 01:30:44.399
and I can't be bothered with this, you know, I

1164
01:30:44.439 --> 01:30:48.960
know people that have stood up for themselves and ended

1165
01:30:49.039 --> 01:30:54.439
up with a big fine corek costs and you know,

1166
01:30:54.600 --> 01:30:56.960
just like it's not worth it for the sake of

1167
01:30:57.000 --> 01:30:58.000
fifteen pound a month.

1168
01:30:58.960 --> 01:31:03.399
No, So yeah, they kind of got us by the

1169
01:31:03.399 --> 01:31:09.159
the curly world is as it were. I mean, I

1170
01:31:09.279 --> 01:31:12.359
just I don't know for personally. I think the BBC

1171
01:31:13.319 --> 01:31:15.760
it would make sense for the BBC to either just

1172
01:31:15.800 --> 01:31:21.560
start having adverts or have it as an app, you know,

1173
01:31:21.600 --> 01:31:22.560
where people.

1174
01:31:22.319 --> 01:31:26.880
Can just subscribe, subscribe to all the different channels on

1175
01:31:26.920 --> 01:31:30.239
the BBC for a monthly price, which would be the

1176
01:31:30.680 --> 01:31:35.119
cost of a TV license. The problem with that is

1177
01:31:35.520 --> 01:31:40.199
they would probably I imagine, lose ninety percent.

1178
01:31:42.920 --> 01:31:44.319
Of their customers.

1179
01:31:44.920 --> 01:31:48.760
Ninety percent of the revenue would probably be gone because

1180
01:31:48.800 --> 01:31:57.079
people wouldn't wouldn't want to pay you know. If they didn't,

1181
01:31:57.159 --> 01:31:58.680
they didn't if they didn't have to pay.

1182
01:31:58.479 --> 01:31:59.119
It, they wouldn't.

1183
01:31:59.399 --> 01:32:04.960
They probably find another way to watch it. So how

1184
01:32:05.000 --> 01:32:06.560
do you feel about bugs?

1185
01:32:06.720 --> 01:32:09.439
Says Allie? Are you a kill of spiders?

1186
01:32:09.840 --> 01:32:12.560
I know, I know technically and they record you needed,

1187
01:32:13.199 --> 01:32:15.439
I think, Or do you catch them and bring them outside?

1188
01:32:16.960 --> 01:32:17.199
Nah?

1189
01:32:17.279 --> 01:32:20.520
I don't kill bugs. I'm not bothered about bugs.

1190
01:32:20.560 --> 01:32:24.640
Really. Fly is annoying me because I keep trying to

1191
01:32:24.680 --> 01:32:28.520
land on my food and I said to him, like,

1192
01:32:29.159 --> 01:32:32.560
why you keep landing on my breakfast? And a fly said,

1193
01:32:32.600 --> 01:32:34.399
I'm trying to get the taste of that dog poo

1194
01:32:34.399 --> 01:32:35.000
out of my mouth.

1195
01:32:35.720 --> 01:32:36.159
It's like.

1196
01:32:37.880 --> 01:32:42.279
Rude. I was like, why they annoy me?

1197
01:32:42.399 --> 01:32:46.119
Flies annoy me, not enough to sort of get too angry,

1198
01:32:46.199 --> 01:32:48.960
just to just annoy you a bit. Spiders I don't

1199
01:32:49.039 --> 01:32:51.840
care about. I wouldn't even put it outside. Just leave it,

1200
01:32:52.319 --> 01:32:53.640
leave it, let me do what it wants.

1201
01:32:55.159 --> 01:32:55.800
I don't care.

1202
01:32:56.520 --> 01:33:06.920
And I think Horace just popped up onto the window

1203
01:33:06.960 --> 01:33:11.439
still and then he's gone talking about creepy careoris and

1204
01:33:11.479 --> 01:33:12.880
bugs horis.

1205
01:33:15.640 --> 01:33:21.640
Pigeon. Yeah, I think spiders, I'm not bothered. I don't

1206
01:33:21.640 --> 01:33:22.279
care about them.

1207
01:33:22.319 --> 01:33:24.720
I think the only the only bug, if you want

1208
01:33:24.720 --> 01:33:27.359
to call it a bug, would be like a wasp

1209
01:33:27.880 --> 01:33:29.920
or a.

1210
01:33:31.880 --> 01:33:36.079
Be a hornet, that kind of thing. I would definitely

1211
01:33:36.119 --> 01:33:39.000
try to well. I would always try and guide them

1212
01:33:39.119 --> 01:33:44.279
out of the window. I would put the effort in

1213
01:33:44.399 --> 01:33:48.039
to get them out of the window because this isn't

1214
01:33:48.039 --> 01:33:50.960
the right place for those animals to be.

1215
01:33:52.079 --> 01:33:56.920
They you know, they need to be outside. None of

1216
01:33:56.920 --> 01:34:01.399
them want to be inside, really, I don't think. So

1217
01:34:01.640 --> 01:34:05.800
I try and get them out and without doing any harm.

1218
01:34:05.840 --> 01:34:11.960
You know, in the past, if it was a spider,

1219
01:34:12.000 --> 01:34:14.199
I'd probably would try and get it outside. But I

1220
01:34:14.239 --> 01:34:15.640
don't care anymore.

1221
01:34:16.199 --> 01:34:18.359
Just doesn't bother Spiders don't bother me at all.

1222
01:34:19.600 --> 01:34:22.760
I don't bother them. They don't bother me. But luckily

1223
01:34:23.039 --> 01:34:24.800
I'm in a country where we haven't got a way

1224
01:34:24.800 --> 01:34:30.800
about stuff like that. Yes, for me, I just.

1225
01:34:38.239 --> 01:34:41.039
I think flies with anyone's that annoying me. And when

1226
01:34:41.119 --> 01:34:45.880
I hear a wasp's like, because I know wasps don't

1227
01:34:45.920 --> 01:34:49.000
bother me if I don't bother them, but trying to

1228
01:34:49.000 --> 01:34:50.560
get them out of the window can be a little

1229
01:34:50.600 --> 01:34:53.760
bit bothersome to them. I don't. I don't want to

1230
01:34:53.760 --> 01:34:59.439
push them, you know, too far. Hope asks me, do

1231
01:34:59.479 --> 01:35:03.640
you like any sports other than boxing? If so, what, no,

1232
01:35:05.239 --> 01:35:14.279
Sandy asks, oh uh no, genuinely, not really. I don't

1233
01:35:14.279 --> 01:35:18.039
mind a bit of mixed martial arts in UFC and

1234
01:35:18.079 --> 01:35:20.199
stuff that can be amazing.

1235
01:35:21.279 --> 01:35:26.199
I'm the skill. I never really appreciated the skill.

1236
01:35:26.119 --> 01:35:32.199
Until more recently, and it's phenomenally skillful. I just don't

1237
01:35:32.199 --> 01:35:35.159
find it when they're on the floor, that's when the

1238
01:35:35.199 --> 01:35:39.640
real skill is. But I don't find it exciting to watch.

1239
01:35:42.079 --> 01:35:46.039
It's interesting to watch, but it's not exciting in the

1240
01:35:46.079 --> 01:35:51.680
same way as punching is for me. But I can see,

1241
01:35:51.720 --> 01:35:54.760
like if someone can do something that I can't do,

1242
01:35:55.520 --> 01:35:58.239
which is most people, to be fair, so I'm impressed

1243
01:35:58.800 --> 01:36:02.239
to see the highest legs. And with the USC that's

1244
01:36:02.279 --> 01:36:06.199
what you see, just like with the professional boxes. He's

1245
01:36:06.239 --> 01:36:10.680
seeing the boxes at the highest level. And I can't

1246
01:36:10.680 --> 01:36:13.520
even talk about other other sports that I might like

1247
01:36:13.560 --> 01:36:15.399
having in boxing without talking about boxing.

1248
01:36:16.039 --> 01:36:16.840
It's terrible.

1249
01:36:18.079 --> 01:36:21.640
And I used to I used to like tennis and

1250
01:36:22.000 --> 01:36:25.439
snooker when I was a kid, but that's and darts,

1251
01:36:25.479 --> 01:36:29.439
even because we were grew up watching that stuff. You know,

1252
01:36:29.720 --> 01:36:34.920
snooker was huge in this country in the early eighties.

1253
01:36:36.840 --> 01:36:42.279
Darts was huge, honestly, it's a big, really really popular sports.

1254
01:36:43.279 --> 01:36:53.159
Eric Bristow and Tennis, Mecenroe, Connor Beyond brought Beyond Beyond

1255
01:36:53.319 --> 01:36:59.199
Borg what his name was, and all these and then

1256
01:36:59.279 --> 01:37:02.680
Agacy and in the early nineties or late eighties, early nineties,

1257
01:37:02.720 --> 01:37:08.479
and you know, tennis was huge in this country during

1258
01:37:08.520 --> 01:37:14.760
the old McEnroe era, partly because of McEnroe, to be fair,

1259
01:37:14.880 --> 01:37:22.239
he just he really a bit like Alex Higgins with snooker.

1260
01:37:23.439 --> 01:37:25.359
He made it into.

1261
01:37:28.479 --> 01:37:31.640
Hurricane Higgins they called him, but he was it was

1262
01:37:31.640 --> 01:37:32.239
a maverick.

1263
01:37:34.399 --> 01:37:37.439
And so yeah, I don't know it, so I quite

1264
01:37:37.520 --> 01:37:39.600
I used to watch football as well because my oldest

1265
01:37:39.600 --> 01:37:43.520
brother loved football and I wanted to be like him

1266
01:37:43.520 --> 01:37:47.880
a bit, so I used to watch football. And at

1267
01:37:47.920 --> 01:37:52.520
that time we lived near a town called Ipswich, which

1268
01:37:52.720 --> 01:37:55.760
was head of the league. They won the FA Cup

1269
01:37:56.279 --> 01:38:02.039
and the Europa Cup or whatever. They were the top league.

1270
01:38:02.079 --> 01:38:06.840
They were the top team in the country, and so

1271
01:38:08.640 --> 01:38:11.920
it was hard not to kind of been to get

1272
01:38:12.479 --> 01:38:16.600
blown away with that wave of excitement when our local

1273
01:38:16.760 --> 01:38:21.000
team was the best team in the entire country and

1274
01:38:21.039 --> 01:38:24.039
one of the best teams in the world like Europe,

1275
01:38:24.159 --> 01:38:29.560
you know, like football teams. So I'll tell you when

1276
01:38:29.560 --> 01:38:39.239
that was. Nineteen seventy eight two So Ipswich Town Football

1277
01:38:39.279 --> 01:38:43.479
Club FC, Ipswich Town FC.

1278
01:38:43.960 --> 01:38:44.680
So let's have a.

1279
01:38:44.640 --> 01:38:51.640
Look the nineteen seventy eight FA Cup Finals association football

1280
01:38:51.640 --> 01:38:55.199
match between Arsenal and its Switched Town six and May

1281
01:38:55.479 --> 01:39:01.800
nineteen seventy eight at old Wembley Stadium. And so if

1282
01:39:01.840 --> 01:39:06.039
I just go to study, I want to just I

1283
01:39:06.119 --> 01:39:11.079
want to back this up with actual correct information rather

1284
01:39:11.119 --> 01:39:17.720
than just me making it up, because I do remember

1285
01:39:18.039 --> 01:39:28.159
them being really really really really big and it was

1286
01:39:28.239 --> 01:39:31.960
their biggest time and it was during the Bobby Robson

1287
01:39:32.000 --> 01:39:35.680
era as well, so Bobby Robson who was a legend

1288
01:39:36.439 --> 01:39:46.840
as a manager, and so look so Bobby Rogers during

1289
01:39:46.880 --> 01:39:53.039
the Bobby Robson era. At their peak in the nineteen

1290
01:39:53.079 --> 01:40:03.279
seventeen nine nineteen eighty season, they beat Manchester United. Their

1291
01:40:03.279 --> 01:40:06.560
major success came nineteen seventy eight when Ipswich b Arsenal

1292
01:40:06.840 --> 01:40:10.000
at Wembley Stadium to win the only their only FA

1293
01:40:10.039 --> 01:40:15.800
Cup trophy. The triumph was followed or by almost winning

1294
01:40:15.840 --> 01:40:23.119
the triple in eighty eighty one, so they were really big,

1295
01:40:24.439 --> 01:40:29.159
really big back then, and it's which did win the

1296
01:40:29.239 --> 01:40:32.199
UEFA Cup in nineteen eighty one as well.

1297
01:40:37.600 --> 01:40:39.439
It's hard, I mean anyone that's been.

1298
01:40:40.319 --> 01:40:44.880
I suppose there's probably thousands of people, anyone that's had

1299
01:40:45.039 --> 01:40:51.920
their local football team be like at the top, even

1300
01:40:51.920 --> 01:40:53.680
if it is just for a year, a couple of

1301
01:40:53.760 --> 01:40:57.119
years or whatever, it is something it has an effect

1302
01:40:57.359 --> 01:41:03.359
on the local area, it really does. Like really, I've

1303
01:41:03.359 --> 01:41:06.279
only experienced it once and that was, you know, when

1304
01:41:06.279 --> 01:41:09.800
I lived near Ipswich and when I was a kid.

1305
01:41:10.119 --> 01:41:16.199
So between seventy eight and eighty two, Ipswich for big

1306
01:41:16.239 --> 01:41:21.800
players and to win the FA Cup is like at

1307
01:41:21.800 --> 01:41:27.039
the time, it was like the highest prize really and

1308
01:41:27.039 --> 01:41:29.039
there's a lot more different cups now. That's for me.

1309
01:41:29.279 --> 01:41:32.479
FA Cup was a much bigger deal than it is

1310
01:41:32.520 --> 01:41:36.159
even now. I'm saying that like I know something about football.

1311
01:41:37.760 --> 01:41:42.159
And also what was really big back then was sabutio,

1312
01:41:43.600 --> 01:41:45.119
which is I don't know if you've ever heard of it.

1313
01:41:45.119 --> 01:41:49.560
It's basically, you put this green cloth onto a table.

1314
01:41:50.159 --> 01:41:51.600
You can you can play it on the floor as well,

1315
01:41:51.600 --> 01:41:54.039
but it needs to be a flat floor. I mean,

1316
01:41:54.840 --> 01:41:58.439
I don't know how many floors are bumpy and lopsided,

1317
01:41:58.520 --> 01:42:01.439
but you buy flat I mean because you're you're basically

1318
01:42:01.479 --> 01:42:06.119
got these things that they're like little weebels, you know,

1319
01:42:06.159 --> 01:42:09.520
weebles robble but they don't fall down, but you push

1320
01:42:09.600 --> 01:42:13.479
them and they then they hit the ball and the

1321
01:42:13.520 --> 01:42:19.760
ball pushes and yeah, I don't know, it made sense

1322
01:42:19.760 --> 01:42:22.479
to me when I said it, but a very popular game,

1323
01:42:28.479 --> 01:42:31.359
So no, I don't really. Boxing is the only sport

1324
01:42:31.359 --> 01:42:47.439
I follow, even things like martial arts, the taekwondo, the Olympics, judo.

1325
01:42:49.199 --> 01:42:54.359
I think some of that stuff. Judo, for example, is

1326
01:42:55.600 --> 01:43:01.520
when you realize what's being done, I think, okay, I'm

1327
01:43:01.520 --> 01:43:05.640
going to talk talk for myself with judo, because my

1328
01:43:05.720 --> 01:43:07.880
dad was a judo man. When he was a school

1329
01:43:08.960 --> 01:43:12.640
he got to got a brown belt in judo, and

1330
01:43:13.600 --> 01:43:15.640
so that was his thing and he kept it with him.

1331
01:43:15.680 --> 01:43:18.680
He's like, I always, yeah, it was good balance and

1332
01:43:18.680 --> 01:43:21.680
all that stuff, But I didn't watching it. I didn't

1333
01:43:21.720 --> 01:43:26.479
see I couldn't see any kind of excitement, any kind

1334
01:43:26.560 --> 01:43:30.239
of point to watching it. I could see the point

1335
01:43:30.279 --> 01:43:35.520
of doing it, But once you learn a little bit

1336
01:43:35.560 --> 01:43:40.720
about what they're doing, you realize that it's phenomenal what

1337
01:43:40.800 --> 01:43:46.079
they're doing actually, And when you put two really really

1338
01:43:46.159 --> 01:43:51.520
good people, it's it's like a chess game. It's almost

1339
01:43:52.239 --> 01:43:54.319
you know, if you put one one really good person

1340
01:43:54.319 --> 01:43:59.399
against someone that's average, then that really good person is

1341
01:43:59.439 --> 01:44:03.880
going to check that average person all around, and it's

1342
01:44:03.880 --> 01:44:06.720
going to look spectacular. It's going to you know, it's

1343
01:44:06.720 --> 01:44:10.319
going to look just amazing. But you put two really

1344
01:44:10.359 --> 01:44:13.920
good people together and no one's going to get chucked around.

1345
01:44:14.560 --> 01:44:15.239
Necessarily.

1346
01:44:15.680 --> 01:44:19.560
They're going to try and chuck each other around. And

1347
01:44:19.640 --> 01:44:23.319
it's the same with the USC or with the jiu jitsu.

1348
01:44:24.760 --> 01:44:27.159
They'll try and get each other, choke each other out,

1349
01:44:27.760 --> 01:44:30.920
but it's much easier for you know, if I got

1350
01:44:30.920 --> 01:44:36.600
into a jiu jitsu, someone that's I even doing it

1351
01:44:36.600 --> 01:44:41.560
a little while would get me into a choke in seconds.

1352
01:44:43.359 --> 01:44:48.279
But two really good people they can't.

1353
01:44:48.840 --> 01:44:50.560
It's not that easy.

1354
01:44:51.119 --> 01:44:52.800
Not that it's that it will be easy for them,

1355
01:44:53.000 --> 01:44:59.760
but I'd say it's it's which in a way, as

1356
01:44:59.800 --> 01:45:08.039
a as an observer, as an audience, it I think

1357
01:45:08.079 --> 01:45:16.319
unless really into the sport, the skill doesn't necessarily impress

1358
01:45:18.199 --> 01:45:22.079
because not based on speed. But with you know, with races,

1359
01:45:22.399 --> 01:45:25.880
the one who wins first, one that gets their first wins.

1360
01:45:26.720 --> 01:45:29.520
It's a much easier thing to watch, isn't it a

1361
01:45:29.600 --> 01:45:36.479
running race, a swimming race, waring rowing sorry, rowing race,

1362
01:45:38.159 --> 01:45:43.359
hoeing hoe in rowing, horse race or whatever. You know,

1363
01:45:43.399 --> 01:45:48.159
when people are racing and it makes sense like okay,

1364
01:45:48.159 --> 01:45:53.039
the winner wins. But when it comes to like combat

1365
01:45:53.119 --> 01:45:57.039
sports is just so much more. I mean, boxing used

1366
01:45:57.039 --> 01:46:01.159
to be I preferred the boxing in the olymps. How

1367
01:46:01.159 --> 01:46:03.279
it used to be when they used to have a

1368
01:46:03.279 --> 01:46:08.199
scoring system when a beat like would actually every time

1369
01:46:08.439 --> 01:46:12.720
a glove touched the head guard or the body, it

1370
01:46:12.760 --> 01:46:18.520
would trigger off a point. So that was good because

1371
01:46:18.560 --> 01:46:21.680
then you could see how many points each boxer needed

1372
01:46:21.720 --> 01:46:23.760
to win, and if you was on one person's side,

1373
01:46:23.800 --> 01:46:24.960
you so I've get more.

1374
01:46:25.079 --> 01:46:25.479
Get more.

1375
01:46:26.279 --> 01:46:28.760
Now they don't do that anymore. If I don't even

1376
01:46:28.840 --> 01:46:33.720
have head gear anymore. I don't think in the amateur

1377
01:46:35.640 --> 01:46:38.640
do they have head gear in the the Olympics, I

1378
01:46:38.640 --> 01:46:45.720
don't know if they do anymore. They might do, so

1379
01:46:45.760 --> 01:46:51.279
I think with because I'm a very I'm a non

1380
01:46:51.359 --> 01:46:54.000
fan when I watch any other sport. So if I

1381
01:46:54.039 --> 01:46:59.000
do watch something, I'm looking for excitement in the same

1382
01:46:59.039 --> 01:47:03.880
way as if someone not really into boxing, they might

1383
01:47:03.960 --> 01:47:06.279
watch the same five as me and think what a

1384
01:47:06.319 --> 01:47:10.119
pile of rubbish, and I might think that was an

1385
01:47:10.159 --> 01:47:14.399
amazing fight. It might not be exciting in the sense

1386
01:47:14.439 --> 01:47:19.880
of lots of action, but the skill involved, you know,

1387
01:47:20.119 --> 01:47:24.039
it might might be phenomenal. The kind of skill you'd

1388
01:47:24.039 --> 01:47:29.680
get with Mayweather, or the kind of skill you get

1389
01:47:29.720 --> 01:47:38.159
with Tyson Fury or with Usik. There's different types of

1390
01:47:38.159 --> 01:47:49.840
skill levels, or with Lumachenko the nominal skills. So it's

1391
01:47:49.880 --> 01:47:54.119
not always exciting to watch, But you know, I think

1392
01:47:54.159 --> 01:47:58.199
there's a reason why only one person ever beat Tyson

1393
01:47:58.279 --> 01:48:08.760
Fury and there was Usik, because Usik is phenomenal. He

1394
01:48:08.880 --> 01:48:12.520
is now powerful pound the top out of everyone at

1395
01:48:12.520 --> 01:48:18.439
the moment. But is this something he's like, Wow, he's

1396
01:48:18.520 --> 01:48:23.600
got Yeah. Anyway, I won't bore you about talking about boxing,

1397
01:48:23.800 --> 01:48:28.880
but no, I'm not really interested there other sports.

1398
01:48:28.920 --> 01:48:29.600
Boxing is the.

1399
01:48:29.520 --> 01:48:39.279
Only one I really like, and I'm trying to think

1400
01:48:39.319 --> 01:48:40.039
of any others.

1401
01:48:40.760 --> 01:48:41.479
No, not really.

1402
01:48:43.840 --> 01:48:46.600
Sandy asks, I would like to know if you have

1403
01:48:47.399 --> 01:48:51.760
taught Vinny any tricks, and also thank you for being

1404
01:48:51.800 --> 01:48:54.039
with me for the last six years. I love fullness

1405
01:48:54.119 --> 01:48:56.600
leap to your stories. Well, thank you, Sandy, thank you

1406
01:48:56.680 --> 01:48:59.359
for inviting me to be with you for the last

1407
01:48:59.399 --> 01:49:02.600
six years. I'm happy to help.

1408
01:49:04.800 --> 01:49:05.119
Vinny.

1409
01:49:05.880 --> 01:49:08.000
He's taught me a few tricks.

1410
01:49:08.880 --> 01:49:12.640
Vinnie will not do a single thing I ask him

1411
01:49:12.680 --> 01:49:16.600
to do. Do you know the whole time I've had him,

1412
01:49:16.640 --> 01:49:23.279
which is two years and two years and five months

1413
01:49:24.439 --> 01:49:29.479
six months, nearly two years and six months I've had him,

1414
01:49:29.760 --> 01:49:31.880
he won't come into the kitchen unless he wants to.

1415
01:49:34.479 --> 01:49:36.960
And if I say to him something's making a weird

1416
01:49:37.000 --> 01:49:41.640
noise over there. If I say to him, do you

1417
01:49:41.640 --> 01:49:45.760
want to come come in the kitchen, he just stands

1418
01:49:45.760 --> 01:49:52.680
at the door and stares at me. Right, I've now

1419
01:49:52.760 --> 01:49:55.960
realized and this is a new thing. If I say

1420
01:49:56.000 --> 01:50:02.319
to him, stay there, he runs into the kitchen. He

1421
01:50:02.359 --> 01:50:03.479
won't do what I tell him.

1422
01:50:03.640 --> 01:50:07.119
It does exactly the opposite. So I realized he wouldn't

1423
01:50:07.119 --> 01:50:07.960
do what I told him.

1424
01:50:08.119 --> 01:50:08.840
I realized that.

1425
01:50:09.520 --> 01:50:11.439
But he will do the opposite. So if I don't

1426
01:50:11.479 --> 01:50:12.079
want him.

1427
01:50:11.920 --> 01:50:16.560
To do something, I just tell him to do the

1428
01:50:16.600 --> 01:50:19.199
thing I don't want him to do, and he does

1429
01:50:19.279 --> 01:50:24.880
the thing that I do want him to do. No, no,

1430
01:50:24.960 --> 01:50:27.000
I tell him to tell him to do the thing

1431
01:50:27.439 --> 01:50:29.520
that I do want him to do. But I tell

1432
01:50:29.560 --> 01:50:34.560
him not to do the thing that Oh I knew

1433
01:50:34.560 --> 01:50:37.880
what I meant. You know what I mean. So if

1434
01:50:37.920 --> 01:50:43.199
it's reverse psychology or whatever, but he will not If

1435
01:50:43.239 --> 01:50:45.800
I say sit, he stands, I say stand, he sits.

1436
01:50:47.319 --> 01:50:51.199
He You know, he won't do a single thing I

1437
01:50:51.279 --> 01:50:56.520
tell him or ask him. The only thing he's ever

1438
01:50:56.600 --> 01:51:03.600
done consistently is when I'm out, And only command he

1439
01:51:03.640 --> 01:51:07.840
ever listens to is when I shout to him, vinny

1440
01:51:08.279 --> 01:51:13.359
ignore me, and he does the only thing he actually

1441
01:51:13.359 --> 01:51:20.159
listens to. So he won't do anything, no tricks, nothing,

1442
01:51:21.720 --> 01:51:28.359
He's just completely is all about him. It does whatever

1443
01:51:28.399 --> 01:51:34.159
he wants, whenever he wants, even in bed right. If

1444
01:51:34.199 --> 01:51:39.560
I accidentally touch him, my hand moves over all, my

1445
01:51:39.680 --> 01:51:47.560
leg moves. He growls at me. It's my bed, he

1446
01:51:47.880 --> 01:52:07.520
growls at me. He's very, very, a little bit temperamental. Ah,

1447
01:52:07.960 --> 01:52:10.479
I think that's all the questions. I've got no idea

1448
01:52:10.520 --> 01:52:13.159
how long I've been doing this for, but it's now

1449
01:52:14.159 --> 01:52:19.840
tend to four, so I've been doing it over an hour.

1450
01:52:22.439 --> 01:52:25.560
There's warm in it. That's because I opened I closed

1451
01:52:25.560 --> 01:52:28.199
the window. Isn't it because of that man doing washing,

1452
01:52:28.560 --> 01:52:35.239
cleaning the windows or whatever? So thank you for listening,

1453
01:52:35.680 --> 01:52:38.279
and remember to be kind to yourself, because you do

1454
01:52:38.439 --> 01:52:52.920
deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye. Relax in

1455
01:52:53.000 --> 01:53:04.039
a more deep and meaningful maybe in a way that

1456
01:53:04.239 --> 01:53:13.720
can not just allow you to feel calmer now and

1457
01:53:14.760 --> 01:53:23.119
throughout the time we spend together here, not just relaxed

1458
01:53:25.359 --> 01:53:29.600
at the end of the recording when it's finished and

1459
01:53:29.640 --> 01:53:39.520
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but

1460
01:53:39.720 --> 01:53:53.159
also I think it would be nice to have those

1461
01:53:53.479 --> 01:54:10.439
feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

1462
01:54:15.520 --> 01:54:27.640
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

1463
01:54:28.079 --> 01:54:39.520
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

1464
01:54:39.680 --> 01:54:47.640
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1465
01:54:47.720 --> 01:54:51.279
do and myself as well, I sometimes I find one

1466
01:54:51.359 --> 01:55:01.680
particular recording that really resonates with me, and I just

1467
01:55:01.800 --> 01:55:07.479
listened to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1468
01:55:15.119 --> 01:55:19.760
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1469
01:55:19.880 --> 01:55:24.880
nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis, but it

1470
01:55:24.960 --> 01:55:30.000
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1471
01:55:32.479 --> 01:55:37.680
and I managed to find it again and it still

1472
01:55:37.760 --> 01:55:43.359
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1473
01:55:43.520 --> 01:55:58.239
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1474
01:56:00.359 --> 01:56:06.840
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1475
01:56:06.920 --> 01:56:17.640
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1476
01:56:18.359 --> 01:56:26.840
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1477
01:56:26.880 --> 01:56:36.880
the play button. This is in the days of CD players,

1478
01:56:39.039 --> 01:56:44.560
pressed the play button, if that it might have even

1479
01:56:44.600 --> 01:56:48.800
been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the

1480
01:56:48.840 --> 01:57:02.279
bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words

1481
01:57:05.600 --> 01:57:14.920
because I had to memorized. Really, it was as if

1482
01:57:15.000 --> 01:57:26.199
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1483
01:57:26.479 --> 01:57:47.840
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my

1484
01:57:48.000 --> 01:58:01.920
mind would slow down. Now now I was listening to

1485
01:58:02.000 --> 01:58:11.239
this recording, in the early days of learning hypnosis, and

1486
01:58:11.479 --> 01:58:20.399
long before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1487
01:58:21.600 --> 01:58:24.960
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six.

1488
01:58:31.720 --> 01:58:47.520
But I knew, I knew how helpful I found being

1489
01:58:47.560 --> 01:58:56.760
able to just let go, to have that trust in

1490
01:58:56.840 --> 01:59:07.239
the person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going

1491
01:59:07.319 --> 01:59:17.840
to be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each

1492
01:59:17.960 --> 01:59:24.560
time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1493
01:59:30.920 --> 01:59:45.600
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1494
01:59:46.359 --> 01:59:50.399
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1495
01:59:52.119 --> 01:59:58.640
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1496
01:59:58.760 --> 02:00:15.319
every day. That's something that I do which you may

1497
02:00:15.439 --> 02:00:36.399
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1498
02:00:36.520 --> 02:00:49.039
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1499
02:00:49.159 --> 02:01:00.720
I say. So if I said to you, focus on

1500
02:01:00.760 --> 02:01:10.600
your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing

1501
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:31.600
on my feet. I will be noticing my feet relaxing.

1502
02:01:33.119 --> 02:01:39.319
If I said, focus on your hands, and maybe notice

1503
02:01:39.439 --> 02:01:50.960
the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the the air

1504
02:01:51.359 --> 02:01:56.079
in the room, the temperature of the room. On the

1505
02:01:56.119 --> 02:02:07.920
backs of your hands, you may start to notice what

1506
02:02:08.039 --> 02:02:15.359
almost feels like a very light breeze, even though there

1507
02:02:16.159 --> 02:02:21.279
may not be any type of breeze at all where

1508
02:02:21.319 --> 02:02:34.920
you are right now. And as you become aware of

1509
02:02:34.960 --> 02:02:48.279
your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands

1510
02:02:52.279 --> 02:02:53.439
are feeling.

1511
02:02:54.840 --> 02:03:10.399
Now, and when.

1512
02:03:10.279 --> 02:03:17.239
It comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may

1513
02:03:17.319 --> 02:03:33.640
be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when

1514
02:03:33.680 --> 02:03:46.920
I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1515
02:03:54.800 --> 02:04:06.319
In fact, at times I've actually fallen sick sleep without

1516
02:04:06.399 --> 02:04:20.399
even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And it's

1517
02:04:20.439 --> 02:04:29.520
only when I listen back to do the editing I

1518
02:04:29.600 --> 02:04:38.880
hear snoring and I think, I don't remember snoring. I

1519
02:04:38.920 --> 02:04:49.800
remember talking. This snoring was a pig turned up. That's

1520
02:04:49.800 --> 02:04:57.279
why I sound like when I snare and I get

1521
02:04:57.359 --> 02:05:11.359
really into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

1522
02:05:17.560 --> 02:05:24.119
How relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed

1523
02:05:27.920 --> 02:05:49.039
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

1524
02:05:49.239 --> 02:06:08.159
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1525
02:06:11.760 --> 02:06:27.960
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1526
02:06:31.079 --> 02:06:52.079
muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breath easier without

1527
02:06:53.520 --> 02:07:24.520
necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able to notice

1528
02:07:24.880 --> 02:07:54.640
the ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe

1529
02:07:55.199 --> 02:08:33.239
so very easily and smooth. Hm. Whenever I imagine m

1530
02:08:36.560 --> 02:08:52.640
my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed, I

1531
02:08:52.880 --> 02:09:06.319
tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and flowers

1532
02:09:13.119 --> 02:09:46.119
producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice two

1533
02:09:47.720 --> 02:10:06.680
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1534
02:10:17.960 --> 02:10:50.520
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1535
02:11:15.880 --> 02:11:41.359
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1536
02:11:47.239 --> 02:12:26.399
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1537
02:12:26.560 --> 02:13:38.239
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1538
02:13:39.239 --> 02:14:25.960
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1539
02:14:26.199 --> 02:14:42.319
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

1540
02:14:43.079 --> 02:14:57.000
out of your body, to appear out of every part.

1541
02:15:02.800 --> 02:15:41.960
Have your body being released from your brain, your mind

1542
02:15:46.680 --> 02:16:30.600
slowly but surely, the muscles, thing legs relax res re

1543
02:16:36.040 --> 02:17:16.760
so very deeply, relax so deeply, and the feelings, the

1544
02:17:16.959 --> 02:17:42.280
pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part

1545
02:17:42.399 --> 02:18:23.360
of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing the

1546
02:18:23.520 --> 02:18:50.159
feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings in

1547
02:18:50.200 --> 02:19:45.639
your wrists, muscles, in front of your body. I all say,

1548
02:19:49.479 --> 02:20:28.799
feeling peaceful, deeply, there's a sense of peace spreads through

1549
02:20:30.319 --> 02:21:08.120
your fairy core. Even when you focus on your mind,

1550
02:21:20.000 --> 02:22:30.520
your mind becomes eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so

1551
02:22:31.120 --> 02:23:46.040
very slow, his stomach, peace fall in your stomach, you're back. Notice,

1552
02:23:47.319 --> 02:24:05.799
Notice how relaxed you'd never feel in the hole of

1553
02:24:05.879 --> 02:24:38.879
your back. Your spy from your brain all the way

1554
02:24:38.959 --> 02:24:50.360
down the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions

1555
02:24:50.399 --> 02:26:18.719
of messages every day. Deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed unslegs,

1556
02:26:22.600 --> 02:26:31.879
spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air,

1557
02:26:32.159 --> 02:26:51.600
every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

1558
02:27:18.799 --> 02:27:52.479
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1559
02:27:53.319 --> 02:28:09.559
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1560
02:28:09.559 --> 02:28:27.120
the way till you lower back. Lettinker Rea the thinker

1561
02:28:54.920 --> 02:29:36.879
peace hmm hmm, drifting mind just wandering away, happy to

1562
02:29:37.120 --> 02:30:41.440
let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the

1563
02:30:41.559 --> 02:32:28.600
whole body enjoying a sensor listening go Heph more Pece four,

1564
02:33:02.680 --> 02:33:44.360
Join the space, this space of peace and safety, so

1565
02:33:45.079 --> 02:35:47.360
very relaxed, letting go. Maybe we can just focus on

1566
02:35:47.479 --> 02:36:22.040
the different parts of your body, just to notice you

1567
02:36:22.319 --> 02:37:25.120
forelhead and your eyes itu so loose, noticing the sense

1568
02:37:25.200 --> 02:39:33.040
of complete freedom, absolute freedom pref pria pea's for energy peace,

1569
02:39:33.719 --> 02:40:48.360
to breathe so much easier loose you may have you

1570
02:40:48.600 --> 02:41:49.360
may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful many even

1571
02:41:49.719 --> 02:42:09.319
more deeply in the direction of total bliss for pace,

1572
02:42:13.520 --> 02:44:04.959
bliss for pace, terrefting to to pace come so calm,

1573
02:44:16.719 --> 02:45:28.559
letting go, peace with mind rexed forty so relaxed, relaxed.

1574
02:45:53.040 --> 02:46:19.879
Your body feels almost invisible, so the very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1575
02:46:26.239 --> 02:47:36.360
so peace relax liqa, And you could start to notice

1576
02:47:36.760 --> 02:47:45.760
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1577
02:47:47.479 --> 02:47:58.159
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

1578
02:47:58.920 --> 02:48:05.760
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1579
02:48:05.840 --> 02:48:16.440
mind starts to slow down. And that could be almost

1580
02:48:16.639 --> 02:48:26.159
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1581
02:48:32.719 --> 02:48:43.079
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1582
02:48:43.280 --> 02:48:51.840
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1583
02:48:51.959 --> 02:48:58.760
break from the day, take a break from your life,

1584
02:49:00.040 --> 02:49:08.360
yes it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1585
02:49:08.440 --> 02:49:15.879
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

1586
02:49:16.079 --> 02:49:22.239
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1587
02:49:26.319 --> 02:49:34.000
which in turn releases the tension and it stresses that

1588
02:49:34.200 --> 02:49:43.840
you had in your body. It's almost as if the

1589
02:49:43.959 --> 02:49:48.959
parts of your body just open up, allowing the negativity

1590
02:49:49.280 --> 02:50:01.159
out and at the same time replacing that negativity with

1591
02:50:01.840 --> 02:50:11.440
positive heathing energy, which then fills your body up and

1592
02:50:11.600 --> 02:50:23.719
your mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of

1593
02:50:24.959 --> 02:50:44.479
increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy

1594
02:50:44.840 --> 02:50:55.399
that spreads through your body like a wave of comfort.

1595
02:51:00.239 --> 02:51:10.479
And all this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes,

1596
02:51:12.319 --> 02:51:15.360
maybe half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1597
02:51:16.879 --> 02:51:28.760
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1598
02:51:31.000 --> 02:51:47.799
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1599
02:51:52.079 --> 02:52:01.399
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1600
02:52:05.479 --> 02:52:14.280
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1601
02:52:15.079 --> 02:52:19.680
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1602
02:52:23.920 --> 02:52:33.639
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1603
02:52:38.719 --> 02:52:45.920
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1604
02:52:46.120 --> 02:52:51.799
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1605
02:52:55.280 --> 02:53:07.479
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1606
02:53:09.280 --> 02:53:24.440
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1607
02:53:26.000 --> 02:53:31.760
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1608
02:53:32.000 --> 02:53:46.520
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1609
02:53:49.079 --> 02:53:58.719
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing.

1610
02:54:02.760 --> 02:54:08.520
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1611
02:54:11.239 --> 02:54:17.920
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1612
02:54:18.120 --> 02:54:25.760
relax deeply and those parts that we've not yet focused

1613
02:54:25.799 --> 02:54:39.120
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1614
02:54:39.559 --> 02:54:52.600
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1615
02:54:52.639 --> 02:54:59.520
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1616
02:55:00.239 --> 02:55:10.319
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like

1617
02:55:10.520 --> 02:55:15.600
mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel

1618
02:55:15.719 --> 02:55:25.719
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1619
02:55:25.879 --> 02:55:31.040
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1620
02:55:34.479 --> 02:55:40.520
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1621
02:55:41.040 --> 02:55:51.520
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1622
02:55:51.799 --> 02:55:59.559
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1623
02:56:01.879 --> 02:56:06.360
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1624
02:56:11.559 --> 02:56:19.840
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1625
02:56:22.319 --> 02:56:32.000
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1626
02:56:32.079 --> 02:56:38.520
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1627
02:56:38.760 --> 02:56:53.200
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1628
02:56:53.639 --> 02:57:00.600
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, all of your

1629
02:57:00.680 --> 02:57:16.079
mouth relaxing, calm and lease as you focus now on

1630
02:57:16.319 --> 02:57:23.239
your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw near

1631
02:57:23.319 --> 02:57:27.719
your mouth and your chin, but all the way up

1632
02:57:28.440 --> 02:57:34.479
the size of your face to your ears, a hole

1633
02:57:35.200 --> 02:58:02.200
of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on

1634
02:58:02.399 --> 02:58:07.799
your neck, the front of your neck, and your throat

1635
02:58:10.040 --> 02:58:20.760
relaxing and loose and calm. The side of your neck,

1636
02:58:22.840 --> 02:58:29.760
the right and left side of your neck relax and

1637
02:58:31.319 --> 02:58:44.959
loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1638
02:58:48.239 --> 02:58:58.280
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1639
02:58:58.479 --> 02:59:05.360
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1640
02:59:05.719 --> 02:59:18.600
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

1641
02:59:18.799 --> 02:59:29.879
experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

1642
02:59:30.040 --> 02:59:37.319
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1643
02:59:37.399 --> 02:59:42.760
the top of your back all the way down to

1644
02:59:42.879 --> 02:59:55.120
the bottom of your back down to your lower back.

1645
03:00:00.360 --> 03:00:07.479
As you move up and down your spine, you can

1646
03:00:07.639 --> 03:00:15.840
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1647
03:00:23.360 --> 03:00:30.120
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1648
03:00:30.200 --> 03:00:40.319
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1649
03:00:40.440 --> 03:00:47.399
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1650
03:00:47.559 --> 03:00:57.040
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1651
03:00:58.280 --> 03:01:03.520
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1652
03:01:03.680 --> 03:01:13.479
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1653
03:01:13.639 --> 03:01:19.280
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1654
03:01:19.719 --> 03:01:34.200
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, And

1655
03:01:34.440 --> 03:01:40.479
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1656
03:01:40.719 --> 03:01:56.760
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips, so

1657
03:01:56.959 --> 03:02:05.040
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1658
03:02:05.120 --> 03:02:13.680
where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all

1659
03:02:13.719 --> 03:02:22.959
those muscles that spread from your lower back into your

1660
03:02:23.120 --> 03:02:36.319
hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1661
03:02:42.879 --> 03:02:47.879
I don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders.

1662
03:02:49.600 --> 03:02:56.600
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1663
03:03:00.000 --> 03:03:15.280
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1664
03:03:15.440 --> 03:03:28.360
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose.

1665
03:03:33.159 --> 03:03:59.559
They're already feeding calm and feeling. Those muscles the move

1666
03:04:00.079 --> 03:04:15.799
from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

1667
03:04:19.920 --> 03:04:41.479
so smooth and calm, and the feeding in your shoulders

1668
03:04:48.840 --> 03:04:57.319
seens to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1669
03:04:58.559 --> 03:05:10.040
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1670
03:05:12.920 --> 03:05:22.799
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1671
03:05:25.639 --> 03:05:31.559
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1672
03:05:32.920 --> 03:05:50.680
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1673
03:05:50.920 --> 03:06:06.520
comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message

1674
03:06:11.879 --> 03:06:23.479
into your arms. And you may feel almost as if

1675
03:06:23.600 --> 03:06:30.079
your arms are not even there because they're so relaxed,

1676
03:06:33.319 --> 03:07:19.479
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1677
03:07:19.799 --> 03:07:35.079
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1678
03:07:36.760 --> 03:08:03.280
your elbows circumforts, spreads all away into wrists a forearments

1679
03:08:03.760 --> 03:08:19.200
and your wists so heavy yet at the same time

1680
03:08:26.840 --> 03:09:00.959
slight and gentle. Focusing out on.

1681
03:09:03.639 --> 03:09:27.760
Your hands, my hands.

1682
03:09:33.559 --> 03:10:03.120
So peaceful in your hands. This is sense real peace.

1683
03:10:14.879 --> 03:10:28.639
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1684
03:10:29.000 --> 03:12:07.239
relax deeply ees your thingers. You things said a finger tips,

1685
03:12:35.840 --> 03:12:55.000
moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1686
03:13:06.000 --> 03:14:32.760
moving in your focus, your legs, a lot, muscles in

1687
03:14:32.920 --> 03:15:26.760
your thighs, your knees so relaxed, a carved muscles and

1688
03:15:27.079 --> 03:17:35.319
just shins a puzzy four and the fathing your feet

1689
03:17:42.319 --> 03:18:37.600
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, sircom so peaceful, sycom

1690
03:18:42.079 --> 03:19:15.559
so peace fa re sin peace faur so calm, allowing

1691
03:19:15.680 --> 03:19:22.799
that deep relaxation to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1692
03:19:35.920 --> 03:19:54.680
letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

1693
03:19:54.799 --> 03:20:06.239
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1694
03:20:06.319 --> 03:20:11.879
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1695
03:20:12.000 --> 03:20:17.520
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1696
03:20:17.760 --> 03:20:31.319
level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort.

1697
03:20:37.959 --> 03:20:43.639
And the vervies you walk down those steps, the deeper

1698
03:20:44.079 --> 03:22:01.520
and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen,

1699
03:22:39.440 --> 03:29:43.840
seventeen sixsting three four four see too well five ey

1700
03:30:49.200 --> 03:40:42.520
nine eight seven four five four four two f one.

1701
03:41:32.079 --> 03:41:48.920
And now as you focus on your eyes, We're going

1702
03:41:49.000 --> 03:42:00.280
to count down from ten douts one. Focus in just

1703
03:42:00.559 --> 03:42:08.479
on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

1704
03:42:11.559 --> 03:42:20.200
your eye waves themselves, our whole area that makes up

1705
03:42:20.319 --> 03:42:36.360
your eye. And as we count down from ten down

1706
03:42:36.440 --> 03:42:49.399
to one, whilst focus in on your eyes. You'll become

1707
03:42:51.479 --> 03:43:03.559
twice is relaxed with each number counting down that you

1708
03:43:03.760 --> 03:43:11.280
may find the all you want to do is just

1709
03:43:13.319 --> 03:43:20.479
drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want,

1710
03:43:23.520 --> 03:43:36.479
then just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on

1711
03:43:36.639 --> 03:43:44.000
your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down from ten

1712
03:43:44.360 --> 03:43:45.319
down to one.

1713
03:43:49.360 --> 03:43:58.920
Right now, ten.

1714
03:44:24.920 --> 03:53:02.799
Nine eight seven four five four three two one. So

1715
03:53:11.280 --> 03:53:22.600
counting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven

1716
03:53:24.719 --> 03:53:47.319
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

1717
03:53:47.360 --> 03:53:51.559
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

1718
03:53:51.559 --> 03:53:57.479
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

1719
03:53:57.719 --> 03:54:04.559
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1720
03:54:04.760 --> 03:54:08.280
Like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1721
03:54:08.399 --> 03:54:11.920
expect me to do man, expect me to stick gold

1722
03:54:12.120 --> 03:54:21.959
floppy just because you're counting down. We could try it again,

1723
03:54:23.319 --> 03:54:29.319
but this time I go this lower. This time, as

1724
03:54:29.360 --> 03:54:34.239
you focus on the whole of your body before we

1725
03:54:34.479 --> 03:54:41.520
focus on your legs. Just notice how your body does

1726
03:54:43.280 --> 03:54:56.399
start to feel more relaxed with every number that I

1727
03:54:56.600 --> 03:55:55.079
count down ten nine eight seven six five four three

1728
03:56:00.280 --> 03:56:09.000
h two.

1729
03:56:29.719 --> 03:56:29.959
One.

1730
03:56:41.319 --> 03:56:47.040
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1731
03:56:47.040 --> 03:57:01.920
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1732
03:57:02.000 --> 03:57:09.680
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1733
03:57:12.280 --> 03:57:33.200
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1734
03:57:33.440 --> 03:57:38.239
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1735
03:57:38.559 --> 03:57:45.559
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1736
03:57:45.680 --> 03:57:49.239
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1737
03:57:50.200 --> 03:57:59.920
a gap. And the more I cammed down from ten

1738
03:58:00.120 --> 03:58:07.479
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1739
03:58:07.719 --> 03:58:20.319
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1740
03:58:25.879 --> 03:58:34.600
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1741
03:58:35.280 --> 03:58:46.040
moves them away. Allows you.

1742
03:58:48.719 --> 03:58:49.239
To just.

1743
03:58:52.239 --> 03:58:58.959
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1744
03:58:59.360 --> 03:59:09.600
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1745
03:59:09.680 --> 03:59:15.719
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1746
03:59:15.799 --> 03:59:33.680
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1747
03:59:36.040 --> 03:59:41.520
Now ten.

1748
03:59:45.840 --> 04:01:42.840
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. How

1749
04:01:42.920 --> 04:02:03.959
did your body feel now? Can you notice that you

1750
04:02:04.159 --> 04:02:41.440
feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed. As we now focus

1751
04:02:41.559 --> 04:03:01.360
on your legs, just your legs, We're just going to

1752
04:03:01.840 --> 04:03:21.239
start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not

1753
04:03:21.360 --> 04:03:29.840
the most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure

1754
04:03:30.000 --> 04:03:32.559
like most of your body is not a lot going

1755
04:03:32.639 --> 04:03:45.280
on right now, Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1756
04:03:48.120 --> 04:03:51.840
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1757
04:03:54.040 --> 04:03:58.520
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1758
04:03:58.639 --> 04:04:03.879
inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1759
04:04:04.920 --> 04:04:20.440
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint. Now,

1760
04:04:20.520 --> 04:04:27.559
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1761
04:04:28.040 --> 04:04:34.040
It's very strong. Probably the strongest muscles in your body

1762
04:04:34.639 --> 04:04:49.040
are in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1763
04:04:51.040 --> 04:05:03.719
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1764
04:05:04.440 --> 04:05:23.799
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1765
04:05:26.440 --> 04:05:39.920
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1766
04:05:40.079 --> 04:05:45.760
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

1767
04:05:45.840 --> 04:05:52.760
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1768
04:05:52.959 --> 04:06:07.399
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

1769
04:06:09.920 --> 04:06:19.200
I thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

1770
04:06:25.760 --> 04:06:31.360
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1771
04:06:31.399 --> 04:06:34.440
you think, why am I, Surely I should be out

1772
04:06:34.520 --> 04:06:43.360
in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's

1773
04:06:43.440 --> 04:06:46.719
hard to set a microphone up on a tree That's

1774
04:06:46.719 --> 04:06:49.200
why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside

1775
04:06:49.280 --> 04:06:52.719
hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television from

1776
04:06:52.760 --> 04:07:03.319
the tree. If you move down to your knees gain

1777
04:07:03.639 --> 04:07:11.760
such an important part. And I think we don't necessarily

1778
04:07:13.280 --> 04:07:20.920
I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all

1779
04:07:21.000 --> 04:07:26.000
that my knees do for me until I have a

1780
04:07:26.079 --> 04:07:31.159
problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe

1781
04:07:31.200 --> 04:07:36.799
i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason. It's

1782
04:07:37.079 --> 04:07:42.799
then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1783
04:07:42.920 --> 04:07:48.840
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1784
04:07:50.600 --> 04:07:57.879
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1785
04:07:58.079 --> 04:08:06.479
possibly not appreciated or it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1786
04:08:10.559 --> 04:08:15.200
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1787
04:08:15.280 --> 04:08:22.760
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1788
04:08:24.319 --> 04:08:26.879
and love to your knees for all that they do

1789
04:08:27.120 --> 04:08:40.079
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1790
04:08:40.239 --> 04:08:46.399
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1791
04:08:46.719 --> 04:09:04.159
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply. As you

1792
04:09:04.280 --> 04:09:09.479
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1793
04:09:10.399 --> 04:09:15.959
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1794
04:09:16.840 --> 04:09:24.559
and your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles so important.

1795
04:09:30.079 --> 04:09:34.840
You know, anyone that's had even the slightest sprain of

1796
04:09:34.920 --> 04:09:42.479
an ankle knows how how much we take our ankles

1797
04:09:42.559 --> 04:09:50.760
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1798
04:09:50.840 --> 04:09:56.440
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1799
04:09:56.479 --> 04:10:00.559
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1800
04:10:00.680 --> 04:10:04.000
is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with that

1801
04:10:05.280 --> 04:10:11.239
because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so

1802
04:10:11.399 --> 04:10:21.440
much thinner than the rest of our legs, and from

1803
04:10:21.479 --> 04:10:26.000
a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make

1804
04:10:26.159 --> 04:10:34.159
sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting on

1805
04:10:35.040 --> 04:10:44.120
your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1806
04:10:45.600 --> 04:10:55.159
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1807
04:10:55.280 --> 04:11:05.239
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1808
04:11:07.479 --> 04:11:13.920
It helps you to get her around and be mobile.

1809
04:11:20.239 --> 04:11:28.079
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1810
04:11:28.440 --> 04:11:31.520
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. I didn't

1811
04:11:31.520 --> 04:11:36.879
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1812
04:11:37.680 --> 04:11:41.520
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1813
04:11:41.600 --> 04:11:45.719
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1814
04:11:45.799 --> 04:11:57.719
we use her legs and your shins there to protect

1815
04:12:00.280 --> 04:12:09.440
lex shaped in a way, almost as a protector for

1816
04:12:09.559 --> 04:12:24.760
the bone, leading of course to your ankles and your feet.

1817
04:12:29.479 --> 04:12:31.440
But we're not going to focus on your feet. We're

1818
04:12:31.479 --> 04:12:35.639
just going to focus on the legs. And I realize

1819
04:12:37.680 --> 04:12:41.600
that now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focusing

1820
04:12:41.879 --> 04:12:44.959
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1821
04:12:45.000 --> 04:12:50.840
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1822
04:12:50.879 --> 04:12:57.239
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1823
04:12:58.120 --> 04:13:01.959
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1824
04:13:01.959 --> 04:13:07.040
a few minutes, let me focus in on your ankles.

1825
04:13:12.719 --> 04:13:27.959
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and

1826
04:13:28.040 --> 04:13:37.479
there's that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots

1827
04:13:37.520 --> 04:13:43.040
of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big

1828
04:13:43.399 --> 04:13:55.479
straw muscles that we have in our thighs, but the

1829
04:13:55.719 --> 04:14:01.639
skin on the outside of the thighs, as in the

1830
04:14:01.799 --> 04:14:07.360
outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1831
04:14:11.280 --> 04:14:24.479
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1832
04:14:24.600 --> 04:14:32.040
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood vessels,

1833
04:14:32.200 --> 04:14:38.000
the arch trees to all this stuff that's inside your thighs,

1834
04:14:42.319 --> 04:14:45.479
and I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1835
04:14:45.520 --> 04:14:50.879
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message,

1836
04:14:53.239 --> 04:14:56.799
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1837
04:14:56.879 --> 04:15:00.159
to be able to get deep into the muscles, to

1838
04:15:00.159 --> 04:15:05.280
be able to just massage inside your thighs, message in

1839
04:15:05.360 --> 04:15:14.000
the bones of your leg massage in all the veins

1840
04:15:14.200 --> 04:15:24.399
and just gently healing your thighs, and you could move

1841
04:15:24.600 --> 04:15:31.959
down message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1842
04:15:32.959 --> 04:15:40.000
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1843
04:15:40.120 --> 04:15:49.520
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1844
04:15:49.799 --> 04:15:54.719
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1845
04:15:54.760 --> 04:16:02.200
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it

1846
04:16:02.239 --> 04:16:06.120
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1847
04:16:06.280 --> 04:16:10.239
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1848
04:16:12.280 --> 04:16:19.120
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1849
04:16:19.239 --> 04:16:26.559
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity, which

1850
04:16:26.600 --> 04:16:37.079
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1851
04:16:37.159 --> 04:16:48.559
your legs, so you can imagine putting your fingers into

1852
04:16:48.680 --> 04:16:58.319
that crease in your legs that fold in between your legs.

1853
04:16:59.040 --> 04:17:02.840
You can just mess up out of your fingertips, letting

1854
04:17:02.840 --> 04:17:13.920
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You

1855
04:17:14.000 --> 04:17:20.040
can of course feel the bones of your knees healing

1856
04:17:20.280 --> 04:17:33.000
through your fingertips. And then as you go down to

1857
04:17:33.079 --> 04:17:35.879
your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like to

1858
04:17:35.920 --> 04:17:41.319
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

1859
04:17:41.520 --> 04:17:50.239
calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1860
04:17:51.840 --> 04:18:01.760
healing every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

1861
04:18:04.920 --> 04:18:11.840
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1862
04:18:12.719 --> 04:18:16.840
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1863
04:18:17.040 --> 04:18:24.239
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1864
04:18:24.360 --> 04:18:27.920
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1865
04:18:28.000 --> 04:18:35.639
of our body, and more precious of any jure on

1866
04:18:35.760 --> 04:18:52.079
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1867
04:18:52.239 --> 04:19:03.040
in this way, it can change your perspective. Do it

1868
04:19:03.200 --> 04:19:08.840
might sound a bit a bit silly to start with

1869
04:19:10.079 --> 04:19:16.440
the idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation

1870
04:19:18.440 --> 04:19:24.040
for your thighs, wanting to be able to put your

1871
04:19:24.200 --> 04:19:32.440
hands in your thighs, massage the muscles and the bones,

1872
04:19:34.360 --> 04:19:40.040
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1873
04:19:42.920 --> 04:19:51.520
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1874
04:19:52.440 --> 04:19:56.159
how much you care for what your legs do for

1875
04:19:56.319 --> 04:20:09.920
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1876
04:20:10.079 --> 04:20:18.120
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1877
04:20:18.239 --> 04:20:24.959
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs, yet they're

1878
04:20:25.120 --> 04:20:37.360
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1879
04:20:41.200 --> 04:20:42.799
truly a gift.

1880
04:20:44.840 --> 04:20:53.920
Because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1881
04:20:55.959 --> 04:21:00.399
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1882
04:21:00.479 --> 04:21:05.479
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1883
04:21:05.600 --> 04:21:12.319
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight

1884
04:21:12.440 --> 04:21:23.040
stone double down, yet my ankles support my body all

1885
04:21:23.120 --> 04:21:29.559
the time. Although they do give off a sigh of

1886
04:21:29.680 --> 04:21:34.920
relief when I sit down. That's in fact, my whole

1887
04:21:35.000 --> 04:21:44.479
legs do. My feet feet also go and my toes clap.

1888
04:21:45.680 --> 04:22:14.200
I'm so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1889
04:22:14.319 --> 04:22:18.239
know that talking about talking about your legs is probably

1890
04:22:20.760 --> 04:22:25.399
possibly among the most most boring things you've ever heard

1891
04:22:25.479 --> 04:22:33.840
anyone say. Possibly or boring or not, everything I said

1892
04:22:34.000 --> 04:22:50.639
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1893
04:22:51.040 --> 04:23:09.520
just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1894
04:23:09.639 --> 04:23:14.920
take some time out of the day to just let

1895
04:23:15.079 --> 04:23:51.000
go completely. Your legs really can relax, and because the

1896
04:23:51.159 --> 04:23:55.639
legs are so such a most you know, very important

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part of your body. When you relax she legs, the

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rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

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of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

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hips feel really loose, and also my lwer back as well.

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My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

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I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

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as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

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as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

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there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced.

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A lot.

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And I'm now going to count down from ten down

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to one, and you can continue to feel wonderfully relaxed.

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Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two one relax.

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So I'm just going to count down from five down

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to one. And as a countdown, if you just focus

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on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and notice

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how you feel in this moment as you hear the

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numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting and represent

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you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but also

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relaxing your mind, and just notice how you feel. There's

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nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to

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think about. Starting with number five four three two one.

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As you notice the gradual letting go the tension in

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your body, you may also begin to notice and be

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aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

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This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

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really a special procedure. It's just sure because as your

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body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

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more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

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just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there is that

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calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1928
04:29:31.799 --> 04:29:38.360
if there's background sounds, either your side or mine, it's

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still going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't

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got the television on, there's no music in the background

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unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

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you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

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room with other people. Of course you might be, but

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generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

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your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1936
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about stuff. Relaxation automatically rises a sense of comfort, starts

1937
04:30:35.680 --> 04:30:44.440
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1938
04:30:44.559 --> 04:30:56.680
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1939
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something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1940
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the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1941
04:31:16.879 --> 04:31:20.719
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1942
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really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1943
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the process of this recording and others is simply two

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allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

1945
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just let go, to just be here, to be in

1946
04:32:09.920 --> 04:32:25.319
tune with how you feel, yet with the intention of

1947
04:32:25.639 --> 04:32:36.719
wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1948
04:32:37.879 --> 04:32:43.040
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1949
04:32:44.840 --> 04:32:59.879
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1950
04:33:01.120 --> 04:33:05.560
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1951
04:33:05.680 --> 04:33:12.439
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1952
04:33:13.759 --> 04:33:36.200
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1953
04:33:36.279 --> 04:33:43.279
can also if you choose stay focused on my voice

1954
04:33:45.080 --> 04:34:11.880
and really enjoy the process of gradua relaxing each muscle

1955
04:34:16.479 --> 04:34:43.360
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1956
04:34:43.639 --> 04:34:59.240
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1957
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six down to one, and you can notice your mind

1958
04:35:12.279 --> 04:35:20.000
calming down more with each number that you hear me

1959
04:35:20.279 --> 04:38:08.319
say naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful sex five, four, three, two, one,

1960
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being aware of how your mind to slowed right down,

1961
04:38:42.240 --> 04:39:05.639
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1962
04:39:05.919 --> 04:39:15.880
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1963
04:39:18.479 --> 04:39:28.040
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1964
04:39:28.119 --> 04:39:43.319
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

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04:39:43.560 --> 04:39:57.200
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love. M all

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04:39:57.319 --> 04:40:03.319
petals from a flower, Just sprinkler over them, petals filled

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04:40:03.360 --> 04:40:10.479
with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts know

1968
04:40:10.759 --> 04:40:17.240
that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1969
04:40:18.479 --> 04:40:30.439
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

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For now.

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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

1972
04:40:47.560 --> 04:40:52.799
count down this time from seven down to one, with

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04:40:52.959 --> 04:41:06.840
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flowers petals of love, kindness,

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04:41:08.439 --> 04:41:20.279
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1976
04:41:36.880 --> 04:41:54.279
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven

1977
04:42:13.560 --> 04:44:21.159
six five four three two one. The need you now

1978
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notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body. We're going

1979
04:44:46.759 --> 04:45:00.400
to focus on your hands, because the more relaxed extra

1980
04:45:00.680 --> 04:45:07.520
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

1981
04:45:22.439 --> 04:45:22.840
And there.

1982
04:45:24.599 --> 04:45:34.759
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1983
04:45:35.279 --> 04:45:40.000
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1984
04:45:41.080 --> 04:45:51.360
tents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

1985
04:45:51.880 --> 04:46:05.919
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel.

1986
04:46:20.560 --> 04:46:31.000
Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your

1987
04:46:31.240 --> 04:46:43.119
mind feels, and the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

1988
04:46:49.080 --> 04:47:22.400
You may have already noticed you mind is starting to

1989
04:47:22.759 --> 04:47:51.200
dress fain just on your hands and fingers, allowing them

1990
04:47:52.279 --> 04:48:05.720
to experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your

1991
04:48:05.880 --> 04:48:07.759
hands and fingers.

1992
04:48:13.240 --> 04:48:13.880
More.

1993
04:48:16.759 --> 04:48:36.200
And more relaxed with each number from eight down to one.

1994
04:48:41.279 --> 04:48:51.119
You can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

1995
04:48:52.319 --> 04:49:11.279
into your hands and fingers, becoming yearn more relaxing with

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04:49:11.720 --> 04:49:16.360
each number, year.

1997
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Going down.

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Eight down to one, drifting drifting again, starting with number eight.

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04:50:00.400 --> 04:51:36.439
Seven six, five.

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04:52:00.639 --> 04:53:47.479
Four three two, just being here now nothing to think about,

2001
04:53:49.240 --> 04:54:00.680
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

2002
04:54:05.240 --> 04:54:12.720
And this is your natural state of being. This is

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04:54:13.000 --> 04:54:19.639
how you just normally feel when you take away all

2004
04:54:19.840 --> 04:54:26.799
that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

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04:54:27.200 --> 04:54:42.880
stress and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally

2006
04:54:43.119 --> 04:54:49.119
thinking about stuff. When you take that away, which is

2007
04:54:49.159 --> 04:54:58.439
what we do what we do now, you're left with

2008
04:55:01.200 --> 04:55:10.240
a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly,

2009
04:55:14.439 --> 04:55:25.240
because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort.

2010
04:55:28.880 --> 04:55:32.159
It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've

2011
04:55:32.319 --> 04:55:46.919
found a special place where everything is peaceful, a place

2012
04:55:47.119 --> 04:55:55.000
where you can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort,

2013
04:55:58.200 --> 04:56:05.599
a place where you can be you, where you can

2014
04:56:06.319 --> 04:56:12.959
accept yourself for who you are, a place where you're

2015
04:56:13.040 --> 04:56:23.479
not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

2016
04:56:23.599 --> 04:56:33.000
you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

2017
04:56:33.159 --> 04:56:42.639
ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

2018
04:56:51.479 --> 04:56:58.080
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

2019
04:57:05.759 --> 04:57:13.560
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

2020
04:57:13.919 --> 04:57:29.200
healing energy soaking into your body, heathing energy soaking into

2021
04:57:29.319 --> 04:57:39.319
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

2022
04:57:43.040 --> 04:57:49.919
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

2023
04:57:55.880 --> 04:58:00.479
and you start to realize that actually, that healing energy,

2024
04:58:02.919 --> 04:58:09.319
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

2025
04:58:09.840 --> 04:58:21.119
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

2026
04:58:21.240 --> 04:58:32.360
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

2027
04:58:32.639 --> 04:58:44.479
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

2028
04:58:47.439 --> 04:58:54.919
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

2029
04:58:55.119 --> 04:59:04.759
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body is actually

2030
04:59:05.200 --> 04:59:15.400
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

2031
04:59:15.479 --> 04:59:22.279
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

2032
04:59:24.200 --> 04:59:31.639
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

2033
04:59:31.799 --> 04:59:39.200
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

2034
04:59:39.319 --> 04:59:46.919
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

2035
04:59:47.400 --> 04:59:56.319
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

2036
05:00:01.439 --> 05:00:07.799
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

2037
05:00:11.639 --> 05:00:21.759
no longer have that power to control you the way

2038
05:00:21.840 --> 05:00:29.840
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

2039
05:00:30.880 --> 05:00:43.279
that you're the one who decides what affects you, you're

2040
05:00:43.799 --> 05:00:53.680
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

2041
05:00:54.599 --> 05:01:09.520
you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing,

2042
05:01:12.119 --> 05:01:13.400
continuing to.

2043
05:01:13.560 --> 05:01:27.959
Grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

2044
05:01:28.040 --> 05:01:29.319
your ability.

2045
05:01:30.919 --> 05:01:46.000
To relax so much easier, and sleeping is the most

2046
05:01:46.279 --> 05:01:57.279
natural thing in the world to you, because falling asleep

2047
05:01:57.439 --> 05:02:05.799
is something that you've done so many times in your life,

2048
05:02:09.040 --> 05:02:13.080
and you know that you were born, as we all were,

2049
05:02:13.880 --> 05:02:23.840
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

2050
05:02:25.200 --> 05:02:35.599
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

2051
05:02:36.880 --> 05:02:48.680
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

2052
05:02:48.759 --> 05:02:53.599
when we don't even want to try to stay awake.

2053
05:02:55.000 --> 05:02:58.439
Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas

2054
05:02:58.639 --> 05:03:02.439
or holiday or something we look forward to. We don't

2055
05:03:02.479 --> 05:03:07.080
want to go to sleep. But the more we want

2056
05:03:07.119 --> 05:03:12.279
to stay awake, the more we just start to drift.

2057
05:03:16.439 --> 05:03:20.439
And the more you fight drifting, the more you try

2058
05:03:20.479 --> 05:03:25.639
and stop yourself and drift in asleep, the deeper and

2059
05:03:25.880 --> 05:03:37.439
stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

2060
05:03:37.639 --> 05:03:44.080
the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

2061
05:03:47.319 --> 05:04:00.639
but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And

2062
05:04:00.880 --> 05:04:06.400
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

2063
05:04:07.279 --> 05:04:20.240
we have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a

2064
05:04:20.520 --> 05:04:44.759
wonderfully pleasant experience. It's also really easy. It's very very

2065
05:04:45.279 --> 05:04:51.080
easy to let go, because that's all it is. It's

2066
05:04:51.319 --> 05:05:05.959
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

2067
05:05:06.119 --> 05:05:16.479
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

2068
05:05:16.680 --> 05:05:19.639
my voice to relax you.

2069
05:05:23.319 --> 05:05:26.880
When you press that play button, you have given me

2070
05:05:27.040 --> 05:05:30.360
permission for my words.

2071
05:05:33.759 --> 05:05:44.159
To affect you in a positive, only a positive way,

2072
05:05:48.119 --> 05:06:11.639
opening up your mind to useful and healing suggestions that

2073
05:06:11.799 --> 05:06:23.000
can have such an amazing effect on how you feel

2074
05:06:23.720 --> 05:06:37.880
right now, as well as those changes that continue long

2075
05:06:38.319 --> 05:06:48.560
after the recording ends, those changes within you that continue

2076
05:06:48.840 --> 05:07:02.080
to flourish and grow, transforming your life in a positive,

2077
05:07:03.919 --> 05:07:13.520
beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in your life

2078
05:07:15.000 --> 05:07:29.759
in the direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling,

2079
05:07:32.560 --> 05:07:40.639
this feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness.

2080
05:07:48.400 --> 05:08:02.360
This feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2081
05:08:10.279 --> 05:08:24.040
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2082
05:08:27.119 --> 05:08:36.919
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2083
05:08:39.279 --> 05:08:51.599
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2084
05:08:51.680 --> 05:08:57.200
not that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind

2085
05:08:57.319 --> 05:09:09.200
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity, because from

2086
05:09:09.279 --> 05:09:19.560
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2087
05:09:19.639 --> 05:09:30.439
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

2088
05:09:30.639 --> 05:09:44.560
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2089
05:09:45.200 --> 05:10:04.560
and leave you alone. Stop and that negative activity would disappear.

2090
05:10:12.720 --> 05:10:19.200
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2091
05:10:20.599 --> 05:10:35.959
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2092
05:10:36.200 --> 05:10:42.560
you're the person that has done this. You are the

2093
05:10:42.720 --> 05:10:47.759
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

2094
05:10:48.000 --> 05:10:55.840
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

2095
05:10:56.599 --> 05:11:05.840
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2096
05:11:08.200 --> 05:11:14.759
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2097
05:11:15.840 --> 05:11:29.840
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2098
05:11:29.959 --> 05:11:39.639
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

2099
05:11:41.279 --> 05:11:45.880
All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

2100
05:11:46.040 --> 05:11:46.919
your mind.

2101
05:11:53.080 --> 05:12:03.720
To spend time in a special place where negativity can

2102
05:12:03.880 --> 05:12:16.560
no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not

2103
05:12:16.680 --> 05:12:23.680
allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here,

2104
05:12:24.159 --> 05:12:33.159
doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in your life,

2105
05:12:43.159 --> 05:12:52.639
which makes room for more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation,

2106
05:12:57.520 --> 05:13:22.680
more peace. It feels nice. Doesn't it Just let go

2107
05:13:24.639 --> 05:13:42.840
with everything. I'm not going to count down now from

2108
05:13:43.639 --> 05:13:53.200
twenty down to one. You can continue to relax. If

2109
05:13:53.279 --> 05:14:05.119
you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every number

2110
05:14:07.599 --> 05:14:16.400
you hear me say, you can feel twice as relaxed,

2111
05:14:19.439 --> 05:14:23.639
or if you choose, you can feel twice as sleepy

2112
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now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

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Four.

2114
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This is your time to just take a break, your

2115
05:17:35.159 --> 05:17:45.880
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2116
05:17:54.560 --> 05:18:08.599
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

2117
05:18:13.360 --> 05:18:17.840
And you're the only person that can make that decision.

2118
05:18:20.680 --> 05:18:23.439
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

2119
05:18:28.240 --> 05:18:52.479
to just relax, to just take some time off so

2120
05:18:52.639 --> 05:18:57.479
that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

2121
05:18:57.799 --> 05:19:12.479
with how you feel physically, and in the process of

2122
05:19:15.279 --> 05:19:20.000
this body scan where you focus on different parts of

2123
05:19:20.080 --> 05:19:30.880
your body, those parts that you focus on and observe.

2124
05:19:33.840 --> 05:19:42.200
Even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

2125
05:19:42.279 --> 05:19:49.799
your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect

2126
05:19:51.159 --> 05:19:58.799
when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

2127
05:20:04.319 --> 05:20:12.759
because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

2128
05:20:14.520 --> 05:20:25.720
on my words, and as my words guide you to

2129
05:20:25.880 --> 05:20:38.240
focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

2130
05:20:45.360 --> 05:21:01.720
which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2131
05:21:06.560 --> 05:21:28.639
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2132
05:21:28.799 --> 05:21:45.639
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

2133
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focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2134
05:21:58.759 --> 05:22:13.200
energy reading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2135
05:22:17.360 --> 05:22:24.639
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2136
05:22:25.799 --> 05:22:32.720
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

2137
05:22:34.119 --> 05:22:40.880
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

2138
05:22:42.759 --> 05:22:48.919
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

2139
05:22:56.959 --> 05:23:12.680
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

2140
05:23:12.919 --> 05:23:37.319
feeling of comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in a

2141
05:23:37.439 --> 05:23:52.319
way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

2142
05:23:57.599 --> 05:24:08.119
because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

2143
05:24:16.919 --> 05:24:23.599
if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

2144
05:24:25.680 --> 05:24:29.919
and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

2145
05:24:32.119 --> 05:24:39.000
If what you need is to fall asleep naturally and

2146
05:24:39.200 --> 05:24:47.799
easily as your mind drifts, that's also what will happen.

2147
05:24:53.479 --> 05:25:01.200
Because by pressing that play button on the podcast and

2148
05:25:01.520 --> 05:25:07.840
listening to me, you give permission for your body and

2149
05:25:07.959 --> 05:25:19.959
your mind. In fact, you give the command to your

2150
05:25:20.040 --> 05:25:31.360
body and your mind to relax deeply and to drift

2151
05:25:31.479 --> 05:25:40.400
off to sleep if that's what you want or need.

2152
05:25:48.080 --> 05:25:53.759
And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

2153
05:25:58.720 --> 05:26:02.720
you may start to just drift.

2154
05:26:06.840 --> 05:26:10.040
And then you come back again and you hear.

2155
05:26:10.080 --> 05:26:14.639
Me talking and I'm focusing on a different part of

2156
05:26:14.759 --> 05:26:15.279
your body.

2157
05:26:21.000 --> 05:26:29.959
You may find yourself drifting, but you don't realize you're

2158
05:26:30.040 --> 05:26:34.119
drifting until you stop drifting.

2159
05:26:35.560 --> 05:26:42.520
And you're alert again to my voice focusing on a

2160
05:26:42.720 --> 05:26:48.080
different part of your body starts to relax even deeper,

2161
05:26:52.479 --> 05:26:54.159
because that drifting.

2162
05:26:55.479 --> 05:27:07.720
Is basically you already in the sleep zone. And the

2163
05:27:07.840 --> 05:27:13.200
more you drift, the longer you drift, and the longer

2164
05:27:13.240 --> 05:27:18.200
you drift, eventually.

2165
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That drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last you

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05:27:29.400 --> 05:27:33.040
remember until you wake up.

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05:27:37.400 --> 05:27:42.479
In your own time when you experience the right amount

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05:27:42.639 --> 05:27:51.479
of sleep for you. Because when you do, and if

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you do for a sleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing,

2170
05:28:05.119 --> 05:28:25.319
so deep healing sleep. It feels so nice to relax

2171
05:28:25.599 --> 05:28:34.400
into your own body and mind as you as you

2172
05:28:34.639 --> 05:28:42.439
feel that healing energy is spreading through it, relaxing, use

2173
05:28:42.599 --> 05:29:04.159
so deeply, relaxing, use so so deeply. As we start

2174
05:29:04.360 --> 05:29:20.360
to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

2175
05:29:28.279 --> 05:30:17.720
down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, your chest, stomach,

2176
05:30:25.000 --> 05:30:59.520
your back, your spine, your hips, your legs, your feet,

2177
05:31:00.040 --> 05:31:36.880
ye your toes and feeding feet, spreading and growing inside

2178
05:31:37.240 --> 05:31:40.840
your body, feeling you up.

2179
05:31:43.680 --> 05:31:57.200
Now let's focus again more parts of your body, focusing

2180
05:31:57.360 --> 05:31:58.799
this time on your forehead.

2181
05:32:05.279 --> 05:32:14.560
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

2182
05:32:14.639 --> 05:32:36.400
of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

2183
05:32:36.520 --> 05:32:40.560
could move your fingers a little bit so you can

2184
05:32:41.639 --> 05:32:56.319
focus on each one individually, both hands, and even though

2185
05:32:56.759 --> 05:33:02.000
you focus on both of your hands now they almost

2186
05:33:02.119 --> 05:33:10.279
seemed to just melt into one. Where does your right

2187
05:33:10.400 --> 05:33:18.000
hand start and your left hand end, almost as if

2188
05:33:20.759 --> 05:33:36.159
just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just noticing

2189
05:33:37.439 --> 05:34:01.439
how your knees fell. Now focusing on your elbows, focusing

2190
05:34:01.720 --> 05:34:15.959
on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling of

2191
05:34:16.159 --> 05:34:47.840
your elbows. Now focusing observing the back of your neck,

2192
05:34:57.799 --> 05:35:35.439
feeding that energy on the back of your neck, observing

2193
05:35:37.799 --> 05:35:49.919
your ankles, being aware.

2194
05:35:52.200 --> 05:35:57.680
Of physical sensations in your ankles.

2195
05:36:03.439 --> 05:36:58.159
Us not to see.

2196
05:37:00.319 --> 05:37:16.759
Now your toes on both of your feet, being aware

2197
05:37:18.639 --> 05:38:11.759
how you to feel right now, m notice sin how

2198
05:38:11.919 --> 05:39:01.319
your entire body feels, noticing your mind feels now, letting go,

2199
05:39:10.119 --> 05:39:52.240
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, letting go,

2200
05:39:59.360 --> 05:40:19.040
every everything, everything. I'm going to start now, and I'd

2201
05:40:19.119 --> 05:40:21.439
like you just first of all, just to see yourself

2202
05:40:23.000 --> 05:40:29.200
lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

2203
05:40:30.439 --> 05:40:38.400
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

2204
05:40:38.479 --> 05:40:45.119
feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and you feel

2205
05:40:48.639 --> 05:40:51.639
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

2206
05:40:52.080 --> 05:40:56.200
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

2207
05:40:57.119 --> 05:41:05.240
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2208
05:41:06.080 --> 05:41:14.000
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

2209
05:41:16.880 --> 05:41:22.599
This is about how you feel and how you can

2210
05:41:24.080 --> 05:41:29.720
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

2211
05:41:31.119 --> 05:41:37.279
letting go and allowing my hands, my fingers to relax

2212
05:41:37.400 --> 05:41:48.400
you by a massage your body. So I want to

2213
05:41:48.439 --> 05:41:53.560
start off just by placing my hands on the back

2214
05:41:53.599 --> 05:41:58.479
of your head, just gently, just you can feel what

2215
05:41:58.639 --> 05:42:07.080
my hands feel like really on you, so you can

2216
05:42:07.159 --> 05:42:09.439
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

2217
05:42:09.520 --> 05:42:15.000
of your head, and with my hands to the side

2218
05:42:15.040 --> 05:42:19.639
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

2219
05:42:22.599 --> 05:42:25.599
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2220
05:42:26.840 --> 05:42:32.080
just so you can feel my hands so you can

2221
05:42:32.159 --> 05:42:45.400
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

2222
05:42:45.439 --> 05:42:49.680
the back of your head again and gently let them

2223
05:42:49.840 --> 05:43:02.159
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

2224
05:43:02.279 --> 05:43:12.360
feel my hands gently stroking the back of your neck

2225
05:43:12.560 --> 05:43:19.040
to start with, just so you can get used to

2226
05:43:19.159 --> 05:43:24.520
the feeling with my hands on your skin, get accustomed

2227
05:43:24.560 --> 05:43:32.759
to realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's

2228
05:43:32.840 --> 05:43:42.959
all fine, And I'm going to start gently messaging the

2229
05:43:43.159 --> 05:43:59.759
muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

2230
05:43:59.799 --> 05:44:06.119
this is a very trusting situation, really, because our necks

2231
05:44:06.159 --> 05:44:10.520
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

2232
05:44:11.159 --> 05:44:16.159
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

2233
05:44:16.279 --> 05:44:21.840
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

2234
05:44:21.880 --> 05:44:30.479
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

2235
05:44:30.720 --> 05:44:47.599
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

2236
05:44:47.680 --> 05:44:56.400
massage the sides of your neck gently moving from the

2237
05:44:56.479 --> 05:45:00.560
bottom of your neck, it would be or near where

2238
05:45:00.560 --> 05:45:05.759
your shoulders start, I guess all the way up to

2239
05:45:05.959 --> 05:45:11.279
your jaw, your ears, kind of area that side of

2240
05:45:11.319 --> 05:45:16.639
your neck. Of course it's a lot longer than the

2241
05:45:16.759 --> 05:45:32.759
front of your neck. The message in the back of

2242
05:45:32.840 --> 05:45:41.319
your neck, especially that area where perhaps we hold tension,

2243
05:45:45.560 --> 05:45:50.119
and as that area's message, you can actually feel a

2244
05:45:50.240 --> 05:45:58.240
sense of release in the back of your neck and

2245
05:45:58.400 --> 05:46:03.639
maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice how

2246
05:46:03.720 --> 05:46:16.720
it feels. Notice how you feel. And then moving down

2247
05:46:16.919 --> 05:46:21.599
to that area between your neck and your shoulders, that

2248
05:46:21.880 --> 05:46:30.439
musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2249
05:46:32.639 --> 05:46:34.880
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2250
05:46:34.880 --> 05:46:37.080
of people would message if they were going to give

2251
05:46:37.119 --> 05:46:43.560
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2252
05:46:44.119 --> 05:46:46.560
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2253
05:46:48.400 --> 05:46:55.000
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2254
05:46:56.240 --> 05:47:00.680
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep mass sage is

2255
05:47:00.840 --> 05:47:19.479
useful and you decide how deep that message is and

2256
05:47:19.680 --> 05:47:26.759
just allow my knuckles just to dig in to get

2257
05:47:26.799 --> 05:47:36.400
to those muscles and to really relaxed all the time

2258
05:47:36.759 --> 05:47:54.599
being firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down

2259
05:47:54.759 --> 05:48:03.439
the area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles

2260
05:48:03.479 --> 05:48:14.119
of your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the

2261
05:48:14.240 --> 05:48:18.000
shoulders a little bit of the table just to give

2262
05:48:18.040 --> 05:48:22.080
you a little bit of a stretch, but very gently.

2263
05:48:28.560 --> 05:48:31.200
And you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2264
05:48:31.959 --> 05:48:42.919
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

2265
05:48:43.080 --> 05:48:48.479
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2266
05:48:48.520 --> 05:48:56.560
a bit of needing if if you wish to really

2267
05:48:58.439 --> 05:49:03.880
release the tension to really get into those muscles, and

2268
05:49:07.360 --> 05:49:10.639
you can let your fingers in there. I you feel

2269
05:49:10.840 --> 05:49:18.919
really nice. Sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

2270
05:49:20.360 --> 05:49:29.040
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the reaxation

2271
05:49:34.159 --> 05:49:35.959
of the muscles in your shoulders.

2272
05:49:45.840 --> 05:49:55.680
Now to move down your arms, would do one arm

2273
05:49:55.759 --> 05:49:58.799
at a time, starting with your right arm.

2274
05:50:05.400 --> 05:50:09.000
What I'll do is I just lift your arm up,

2275
05:50:09.919 --> 05:50:15.000
just hold it to the side of you the way

2276
05:50:15.000 --> 05:50:21.520
it still be attached, and I just message the tops

2277
05:50:21.560 --> 05:50:34.919
of your arms all the way down to your forearms

2278
05:50:37.680 --> 05:51:01.599
into your wrists, gently messaging that parts, the softer part,

2279
05:51:01.680 --> 05:51:08.119
which is the under part of the arm, which leads

2280
05:51:08.279 --> 05:51:13.119
to the crease in your elbow. The inside. It's much

2281
05:51:13.639 --> 05:51:30.560
more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked, I feel

2282
05:51:30.720 --> 05:51:47.360
really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your

2283
05:51:47.479 --> 05:51:59.680
right hand, just holding your hand in both of my

2284
05:51:59.799 --> 05:52:09.360
head hands, just pressing gently on the back of your

2285
05:52:09.479 --> 05:52:20.200
hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly at the

2286
05:52:20.279 --> 05:52:35.240
same time pressing down and massaging each finger, and then

2287
05:52:35.439 --> 05:52:38.959
starting to massage the palms of their hand.

2288
05:52:45.639 --> 05:52:56.680
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

2289
05:52:56.799 --> 05:52:59.840
having your hand held can really be.

2290
05:53:01.680 --> 05:53:07.319
An emotional experience sometimes even if it is a stranger.

2291
05:53:09.319 --> 05:53:12.959
So when you don't know very well, like a massage

2292
05:53:13.240 --> 05:53:26.759
person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and you

2293
05:53:26.840 --> 05:53:39.599
can feel nice, you can feel safe. And as I

2294
05:53:39.720 --> 05:53:48.520
put that right arm back down where it was, I

2295
05:53:48.599 --> 05:53:55.119
did the same with your left arm, exactly the same

2296
05:53:59.720 --> 05:54:04.840
that sigean the muscles and your arm all the way down.

2297
05:54:06.040 --> 05:54:18.360
Do your rest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

2298
05:54:18.479 --> 05:54:32.040
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

2299
05:54:32.200 --> 05:54:48.639
massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging the

2300
05:54:48.880 --> 05:55:08.279
palm of your left hand. You can feel so so relaxing,

2301
05:55:16.000 --> 05:55:33.759
so comforting, and just rest your left arm back down.

2302
05:55:41.319 --> 05:55:47.959
Start to message your back, the biggest part of your body,

2303
05:55:53.000 --> 05:55:59.360
starting at the top, starting again where we already B

2304
05:55:59.520 --> 05:56:02.720
F B, and the area at the top in between

2305
05:56:02.799 --> 05:56:09.639
your shoulders k near your neck, going back, a massage

2306
05:56:09.680 --> 05:56:21.159
in that area again, but this time moving downwards, taking

2307
05:56:21.240 --> 05:56:29.439
a downward stroke to the middle of your back, working

2308
05:56:29.639 --> 05:56:37.360
from the outside inwards. It's a massage in the your back,

2309
05:56:37.479 --> 05:56:49.279
but the the outsides of your back, the parts where

2310
05:56:49.279 --> 05:57:02.119
your arms would maybe rest against, almost the path that

2311
05:57:02.279 --> 05:57:15.439
connects your front to your back, and just messaging down

2312
05:57:17.639 --> 05:57:26.959
firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down,

2313
05:57:27.159 --> 05:57:30.799
and then moving across a little bed, moving all the

2314
05:57:30.880 --> 05:57:38.759
way down again, being very gentle yet firm as you choose.

2315
05:57:45.159 --> 05:57:49.840
Eventually you get to the spine. We can massage the

2316
05:57:50.000 --> 05:57:54.159
muscles and either side of your spine from the top

2317
05:57:54.279 --> 05:58:00.279
of your neck all the way down to your lower back.

2318
05:58:06.520 --> 05:58:12.840
We can do that a few times. Sometimes people use

2319
05:58:15.720 --> 05:58:19.759
the knuckle or the you know, two fingers and just

2320
05:58:21.439 --> 05:58:26.080
go your side of the spine, almost just push down,

2321
05:58:26.919 --> 05:58:29.240
go all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2322
05:58:30.880 --> 05:58:40.560
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2323
05:58:41.720 --> 05:58:48.639
your body so that you feel more relaxed but at

2324
05:58:48.680 --> 05:59:04.959
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2325
05:59:05.119 --> 05:59:13.400
to one side, to your right side. That's from the

2326
05:59:13.479 --> 05:59:18.959
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis. I'm going to

2327
05:59:19.080 --> 05:59:25.759
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2328
05:59:25.840 --> 05:59:30.599
other side and i will pull the muscles gently and

2329
05:59:30.840 --> 05:59:35.840
massage and push from one end that side or way

2330
05:59:35.959 --> 05:59:40.919
to my side to the middle of fact to where

2331
05:59:40.919 --> 05:59:47.599
your spine is. Massaging that side of your spine the

2332
05:59:47.680 --> 05:59:53.880
opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread.

2333
05:59:56.319 --> 06:00:02.680
There's that big area which is fir yet lots there

2334
06:00:02.919 --> 06:00:12.400
to message. Potentially one of the most important places to

2335
06:00:12.520 --> 06:00:20.040
actually have a message because you really feel it. You

2336
06:00:20.279 --> 06:00:25.240
really feel the release and the pleasure of having your

2337
06:00:25.319 --> 06:00:32.959
lower back massaged. It releases so much from your body

2338
06:00:34.479 --> 06:00:43.360
that's not useful, starting a healing process which will continue

2339
06:00:43.560 --> 06:00:55.959
long after this recording is over. The message in this

2340
06:00:56.119 --> 06:00:59.919
part of your body not only feels really good for you,

2341
06:01:01.479 --> 06:01:05.919
it's actually fun to do because it is, as I said,

2342
06:01:06.159 --> 06:01:11.200
like kneading bread. It's a part that you can really

2343
06:01:11.360 --> 06:01:19.119
get hold of and really message deeply. If that's your choice,

2344
06:01:27.119 --> 06:01:29.000
then I'm going to move over to the other side

2345
06:01:29.080 --> 06:01:35.520
of your body and do the same with the opposite

2346
06:01:35.639 --> 06:01:44.959
part of your law back. Kneading and messaging from your

2347
06:01:45.119 --> 06:01:52.599
sides or way to the middle of your back where

2348
06:01:52.639 --> 06:02:06.240
your spine is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at

2349
06:02:06.279 --> 06:02:21.520
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2350
06:02:21.880 --> 06:02:33.560
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2351
06:02:33.599 --> 06:02:38.759
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2352
06:02:38.840 --> 06:02:43.159
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2353
06:02:43.279 --> 06:02:54.680
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2354
06:02:54.759 --> 06:02:59.599
to move or move further up to your top of

2355
06:02:59.639 --> 06:03:04.200
your boy and I'm gonna do the same this time,

2356
06:03:05.520 --> 06:03:12.319
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2357
06:03:13.599 --> 06:03:21.159
and massage in that area up to your spine, from

2358
06:03:21.240 --> 06:03:25.400
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2359
06:03:25.560 --> 06:03:31.880
some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2360
06:03:32.080 --> 06:03:37.720
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2361
06:03:37.840 --> 06:03:45.000
all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm going

2362
06:03:45.080 --> 06:03:48.639
to be massaging and just pulling some of that skin

2363
06:03:49.959 --> 06:03:59.279
from your side up and massaging that area of your

2364
06:03:59.360 --> 06:04:07.560
upper back, yeah, all the way to your spine. And

2365
06:04:07.720 --> 06:04:10.439
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2366
06:04:10.599 --> 06:04:13.439
the middle of your back doing exactly the same thing

2367
06:04:17.319 --> 06:04:31.119
as gentle as deep as you choose. Now, I'll move

2368
06:04:31.599 --> 06:04:35.840
the other side again and do the exact same thing

2369
06:04:36.520 --> 06:04:39.639
with the top of your back on the other side,

2370
06:04:40.680 --> 06:04:54.759
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2371
06:05:00.080 --> 06:05:07.040
then continuing that all the way down, including your lower

2372
06:05:07.360 --> 06:05:24.840
your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to your thighs,

2373
06:05:26.200 --> 06:05:31.680
the backs of your thighs, and the sides of your thighs,

2374
06:05:35.880 --> 06:05:44.840
starting with your right leg. Massage in the back and

2375
06:05:44.959 --> 06:05:53.520
the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a

2376
06:05:53.639 --> 06:05:57.040
lot of muscles there. It's an area that can be

2377
06:05:57.200 --> 06:06:01.439
very tense at times and maybe needs a little bit

2378
06:06:01.520 --> 06:06:05.119
more pressure than the rest of the body. That's up

2379
06:06:05.240 --> 06:06:15.400
to you. You can gently stroke the back of your

2380
06:06:15.520 --> 06:06:21.400
legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath

2381
06:06:21.439 --> 06:06:34.400
your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area. And then working

2382
06:06:34.560 --> 06:06:42.000
down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles

2383
06:06:42.880 --> 06:06:56.200
thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands and fingers,

2384
06:06:56.720 --> 06:07:07.279
digging deep, h do your ankles.

2385
06:07:09.040 --> 06:07:11.599
In the back of your back of your.

2386
06:07:11.560 --> 06:07:25.959
Ankles, just gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the

2387
06:07:26.119 --> 06:07:41.959
leg and stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot,

2388
06:07:49.919 --> 06:07:59.720
massaging the bottom of your feet and the side of

2389
06:08:00.119 --> 06:08:16.759
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2390
06:08:16.959 --> 06:08:22.400
just allow the pleasure that you get from having your

2391
06:08:22.479 --> 06:08:31.799
feet message to just overtake you. As I continue to

2392
06:08:32.000 --> 06:08:38.360
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2393
06:08:41.000 --> 06:08:46.720
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2394
06:08:46.799 --> 06:08:52.680
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2395
06:08:52.880 --> 06:09:00.959
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2396
06:09:01.080 --> 06:09:07.560
toes gently, a massage in the bottoms of your toes

2397
06:09:08.279 --> 06:09:23.599
with my fingers, each one individually, moving her to the

2398
06:09:23.759 --> 06:09:33.159
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2399
06:09:33.200 --> 06:09:37.599
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2400
06:09:37.680 --> 06:09:45.279
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2401
06:09:45.439 --> 06:09:59.439
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2402
06:09:59.520 --> 06:10:05.680
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2403
06:10:05.799 --> 06:10:14.400
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

2404
06:10:14.520 --> 06:10:19.200
a bigger future recording, I want to spend more time

2405
06:10:19.360 --> 06:10:30.720
on one particular area. As you move down to your

2406
06:10:30.840 --> 06:10:40.520
calf muscles, Massage in your calf muscles.

2407
06:10:41.560 --> 06:10:55.439
Firmly and gently, moving down your aincord into your feet.

2408
06:10:57.319 --> 06:11:03.040
Massage in the becks of your feet, the bottoms of

2409
06:11:03.119 --> 06:11:13.119
your feet, stretching your toes and message in each tone individually.

2410
06:11:15.759 --> 06:11:21.240
And the feeling of pleasure and release that you experience

2411
06:11:21.439 --> 06:11:40.040
when you're having your feet massaged feels really good. Now

2412
06:11:43.560 --> 06:11:47.599
shed turn over in your mind. Laying on your back,

2413
06:11:55.040 --> 06:12:07.759
I'm just going to start again your neck area, in

2414
06:12:07.919 --> 06:12:16.159
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that area.

2415
06:12:23.080 --> 06:12:33.400
And as we move up, I can clean my hands,

2416
06:12:34.720 --> 06:12:38.040
make them more fresh, because now I'm going to message

2417
06:12:38.400 --> 06:12:54.240
your face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes

2418
06:12:54.319 --> 06:13:00.200
are closed and I can just stretch your eyes. It's

2419
06:13:00.240 --> 06:13:10.479
a little bit pushing up on your eyebrows, and just

2420
06:13:10.759 --> 06:13:24.000
massaging around your scalp, massaging down your cheeks, around your ears,

2421
06:13:27.119 --> 06:13:39.919
into your chaw, gently the side of your neck, your

2422
06:13:40.080 --> 06:13:53.360
chin mm hmm, and just moving down.

2423
06:13:57.240 --> 06:14:04.680
From your neck down to your chest, starting by massage

2424
06:14:04.759 --> 06:14:07.479
in the very top of your chest.

2425
06:14:11.000 --> 06:14:24.720
Where the collarbone is, either side of the collarbone, and

2426
06:14:24.759 --> 06:14:37.439
then just massage in the hole of the chest, moving

2427
06:14:37.520 --> 06:14:51.119
the chest around because it's quite a large area. You

2428
06:14:51.200 --> 06:14:58.520
can move from one side to the next. Move in

2429
06:14:58.880 --> 06:15:04.560
my hands, m underneath pretty much where your arms are

2430
06:15:08.959 --> 06:15:14.200
stretching up, stretching some of the muscles of your back

2431
06:15:14.279 --> 06:15:27.959
in the process moving up over your chest, and they're

2432
06:15:28.000 --> 06:15:44.080
moving down again then all allowing my hands, they just

2433
06:15:44.479 --> 06:15:52.639
message gently and slide down towards your stomach, starting in

2434
06:15:52.720 --> 06:15:59.360
the middle of your chest, and then gradually my hand's

2435
06:15:59.439 --> 06:16:06.799
moving upon art and massaging and sliding at the same time,

2436
06:16:08.799 --> 06:16:25.200
moving down to just below your rib cage, moving down,

2437
06:16:27.840 --> 06:16:35.479
then massaging up again, giving your chest all the attention

2438
06:16:37.319 --> 06:16:51.599
that it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm

2439
06:16:51.639 --> 06:16:55.599
also going to be focusing on your sides as well,

2440
06:16:57.200 --> 06:17:02.880
an area that really doesn't get much at engine but

2441
06:17:03.040 --> 06:17:12.840
feels really good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands

2442
06:17:13.599 --> 06:17:20.279
down the sides of your body, just below your arms,

2443
06:17:21.000 --> 06:17:33.479
all the way down to your hips. Now moving to

2444
06:17:33.599 --> 06:17:39.080
your stomach area. I'm going to stand one side of

2445
06:17:39.200 --> 06:17:41.639
you like I did when I did your lower back.

2446
06:17:44.240 --> 06:17:49.279
I'm gonna do a similar process of just stretching the

2447
06:17:49.439 --> 06:18:03.040
muscles from your side, gently massaging from one side to

2448
06:18:03.159 --> 06:18:11.720
the next, move in a whole area from below your

2449
06:18:11.840 --> 06:18:15.799
ribs all the way down to below your belly button,

2450
06:18:22.959 --> 06:18:25.200
and then move around to the other side of you

2451
06:18:26.000 --> 06:18:44.759
and repeat that process of relaxing deeply calmly. You feel loose,

2452
06:18:46.479 --> 06:18:47.439
you feel free.

2453
06:18:49.840 --> 06:18:54.840
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different.

2454
06:18:54.599 --> 06:19:00.799
From any other part. Because we do you have a

2455
06:19:00.919 --> 06:19:05.400
tendency of holding a different kind of stress in her

2456
06:19:05.439 --> 06:19:14.880
stomach that we may not be aware of. As I

2457
06:19:15.040 --> 06:19:22.599
now message your stomach in front of your stomach, making

2458
06:19:22.959 --> 06:19:33.560
circles around your belly button, and then going the other

2459
06:19:33.639 --> 06:19:43.799
way around, there's a gentleness and a freedom that comes

2460
06:19:45.680 --> 06:19:55.560
from feeling how you're feeling. As I now move down

2461
06:19:56.959 --> 06:20:03.959
the tops of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and

2462
06:20:04.080 --> 06:20:07.319
I can do this two legs at the same time,

2463
06:20:09.560 --> 06:20:18.919
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at

2464
06:20:19.000 --> 06:20:27.720
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2465
06:20:28.639 --> 06:20:41.319
gently massaging your knees, Sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2466
06:20:41.400 --> 06:20:49.119
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2467
06:20:53.319 --> 06:21:03.000
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2468
06:21:09.159 --> 06:21:14.560
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2469
06:21:14.799 --> 06:21:23.119
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2470
06:21:23.880 --> 06:21:32.200
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2471
06:21:32.279 --> 06:21:42.680
your feet. Feels so good, Just let go and enjoy

2472
06:21:43.159 --> 06:22:07.159
the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

2473
06:22:07.400 --> 06:22:14.319
and so many feelings that come just from touching your skin.

2474
06:22:25.080 --> 06:22:31.040
And you can just lie there for as long as

2475
06:22:31.080 --> 06:22:43.639
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being

2476
06:22:43.840 --> 06:23:15.599
massaged by me. Enjoy feeling deeply right. And all we're

2477
06:23:15.599 --> 06:23:24.799
gonna do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

2478
06:23:36.360 --> 06:23:46.639
there are going to be a hundred candles, and you're

2479
06:23:46.680 --> 06:23:53.000
going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2480
06:23:55.639 --> 06:24:05.279
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

2481
06:24:05.360 --> 06:24:13.159
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

2482
06:24:18.639 --> 06:24:25.520
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2483
06:24:25.520 --> 06:24:35.319
I'd like you to actually physically generally blow that candle out,

2484
06:24:41.680 --> 06:24:53.840
just so it's not big blows, just a gentle, and

2485
06:24:54.040 --> 06:25:03.599
that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the next

2486
06:25:03.720 --> 06:25:14.520
number as we move down, and you can just blow

2487
06:25:14.599 --> 06:25:23.959
that one out as well. And as we move down

2488
06:25:24.080 --> 06:25:34.720
the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding more and more relaxed.

2489
06:25:37.720 --> 06:25:43.720
If you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming

2490
06:25:45.479 --> 06:25:59.159
incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to

2491
06:25:59.279 --> 06:26:12.200
blow out or one hundred of these candles as you

2492
06:26:13.360 --> 06:26:40.279
feel more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired.

2493
06:26:44.639 --> 06:26:50.360
And the further you go down, the more.

2494
06:26:51.799 --> 06:27:04.000
Your mind starts to drift. You may find that you

2495
06:27:05.360 --> 06:27:09.400
stop listening to me after a while.

2496
06:27:18.000 --> 06:27:22.400
And even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2497
06:27:27.319 --> 06:27:33.479
you'll be aware of those sounds, at the moment.

2498
06:27:38.479 --> 06:27:39.119
You may.

2499
06:27:42.439 --> 06:27:57.279
Start to just not even notice them at all because

2500
06:27:57.400 --> 06:28:10.959
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2501
06:28:11.080 --> 06:28:18.000
the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say

2502
06:28:18.119 --> 06:28:24.360
hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2503
06:28:27.400 --> 06:28:40.840
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, But none of

2504
06:28:40.919 --> 06:28:53.119
that scene is important whatsoever. More candles you blow out,

2505
06:28:54.959 --> 06:29:07.000
the less important anything is. Y. From more candles you

2506
06:29:07.159 --> 06:29:23.360
blow out, the further you seem to move away from

2507
06:29:24.000 --> 06:29:36.880
sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems to just

2508
06:29:38.919 --> 06:29:57.479
move away on its own. You feel more calmer with

2509
06:29:57.720 --> 06:29:59.720
every candle you blow out.

2510
06:30:00.200 --> 06:30:02.799
H H.

2511
06:30:09.560 --> 06:30:19.639
Guiding you to the next number, do you hear me say?

2512
06:30:26.720 --> 06:30:29.919
And then you blow that candle out to.

2513
06:30:33.639 --> 06:30:33.680
H.

2514
06:30:38.159 --> 06:31:01.680
So easy, so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the

2515
06:31:01.959 --> 06:31:20.240
first candle, which is a hundred. First candle is one hundred.

2516
06:31:25.119 --> 06:31:39.319
When you blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a

2517
06:31:39.959 --> 06:31:53.919
slight change in how you feel, as well as a

2518
06:31:54.080 --> 06:32:16.240
real sense of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding.

2519
06:32:25.040 --> 06:32:54.919
Starting with one hundred, blow out that candle now ninety nine,

2520
06:33:13.400 --> 06:34:50.000
candle ninety eight, cand ninety seven, ten ninety six anden

2521
06:34:55.080 --> 06:36:12.000
ninety five, hand ninety four, can do ninety three and

2522
06:36:23.599 --> 06:37:44.400
ninety two and ninety one, ten to ninety and eighty,

2523
06:37:44.639 --> 06:40:36.200
T nine and eighty eight and eighty candle eighties eight

2524
06:40:36.959 --> 06:44:49.119
five four foen and eighty two and two one jen

2525
06:44:53.439 --> 06:45:46.959
seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2526
06:46:00.919 --> 06:47:00.400
candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle

2527
06:47:05.599 --> 06:48:07.680
seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, candle seventy

2528
06:48:22.799 --> 06:49:01.520
and do sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2529
06:49:15.279 --> 06:49:36.840
candle sixty five, candle sixty four.

2530
06:49:49.840 --> 06:49:50.560
Mm hmm.

2531
06:49:54.919 --> 06:50:00.080
Mm hmm, and.

2532
06:50:02.479 --> 06:50:54.520
Sixty four candle sixty three, candle sixty two and sixty

2533
06:50:54.680 --> 06:52:27.880
one m candle sixty and fifty nine handle fifty eight,

2534
06:52:38.759 --> 06:54:04.279
candle fifty seven, candle fifty six candle fifty five, candle

2535
06:54:08.279 --> 06:55:25.040
fifty four, handle fifty three, candle fifty two, fifty two,

2536
06:55:57.479 --> 06:57:29.840
ten to the candle fIF t one candle fifty candle

2537
06:57:33.759 --> 06:59:29.000
forty nine, candle forty eight, candle forty seven, candle forty six,

2538
06:59:57.040 --> 07:01:21.200
candle forty five, forty two candle. Who do you want?

2539
07:01:54.159 --> 07:03:54.479
Candle four, candle thirty nine, can do thirty eight, can't

2540
07:03:54.560 --> 07:05:33.759
do thirty seven, canto thirty five, ten two thirty four,

2541
07:06:07.200 --> 07:09:00.880
handle thirty three, handle thirty one, chandle thirty and twinity nine,

2542
07:09:39.159 --> 07:12:03.439
can twenty eight and twenty seven, twenty six, can do,

2543
07:12:08.599 --> 07:14:15.959
twenty five, can tif four end twenty three and twent

2544
07:14:16.479 --> 07:14:56.479
deep two and twenty one.

2545
07:15:31.119 --> 07:15:31.840
And to.

2546
07:15:36.040 --> 07:19:26.360
Witi en nd ninety chendle seventeen kezo sixtyen chance fourte

2547
07:20:42.959 --> 07:21:48.000
ten to four and eleven.

2548
07:22:25.040 --> 07:22:29.880
Y ye.

2549
07:23:36.680 --> 07:24:41.000
Shame do nine ten.

2550
07:24:46.119 --> 07:26:18.080
Eight s six him.

2551
07:27:04.080 --> 07:27:05.319
Can do.

2552
07:27:08.880 --> 07:30:07.200
Wo can do seven two Or let go.

2553
07:30:08.880 --> 07:30:17.040
All of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts

2554
07:30:17.080 --> 07:30:21.959
about the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

2555
07:30:24.040 --> 07:30:24.720
Just let it all go.

2556
07:30:28.159 --> 07:30:35.840
Because none of it is useful in this moment. This

2557
07:30:36.119 --> 07:30:45.119
is your opportunity to just focus.

2558
07:30:49.919 --> 07:30:58.720
On feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch with

2559
07:30:58.880 --> 07:31:08.959
that natural sense of peace that we all have within us.

2560
07:31:11.360 --> 07:31:16.799
It's available for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little

2561
07:31:16.840 --> 07:31:23.159
bit of effort to set up the right time and

2562
07:31:23.360 --> 07:31:30.639
place in order for you to just let go. Because

2563
07:31:30.720 --> 07:31:38.639
when you do decide to let go and relax, that's

2564
07:31:38.720 --> 07:31:46.720
what your body starts to do because you've chosen, You've

2565
07:31:46.959 --> 07:31:53.799
chosen to just allow your body to unwind, and your

2566
07:31:53.919 --> 07:32:02.919
mind starts to slow down and nice feeling. It's a

2567
07:32:03.000 --> 07:32:07.240
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2568
07:32:07.720 --> 07:32:18.000
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2569
07:32:18.119 --> 07:32:26.599
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2570
07:32:26.680 --> 07:32:31.319
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2571
07:32:31.639 --> 07:32:40.880
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2572
07:32:41.159 --> 07:32:45.360
we're going from here to there, we're walking around and

2573
07:32:45.439 --> 07:32:52.799
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2574
07:32:53.040 --> 07:33:01.439
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2575
07:33:01.520 --> 07:33:07.080
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2576
07:33:11.439 --> 07:33:17.919
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2577
07:33:18.000 --> 07:33:24.279
to say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2578
07:33:24.400 --> 07:33:34.040
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2579
07:33:34.080 --> 07:33:43.560
body just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah good,

2580
07:33:43.680 --> 07:33:50.560
I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

2581
07:33:50.639 --> 07:33:53.919
a day, of a very physical day that you may

2582
07:33:54.000 --> 07:33:57.799
experience in the past, where you get home and you

2583
07:33:58.040 --> 07:34:01.759
just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your

2584
07:34:01.840 --> 07:34:07.959
shoes off, and our ah feels so nice. Know that

2585
07:34:08.040 --> 07:34:12.080
you don't have to get up again for a little

2586
07:34:12.119 --> 07:34:15.799
while at least if you choose, you can just sit

2587
07:34:15.919 --> 07:34:28.479
there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And

2588
07:34:28.759 --> 07:34:33.720
just by sitting down like that, your body knows that

2589
07:34:33.880 --> 07:34:39.319
it's time to relax. Your body has been given permission

2590
07:34:39.520 --> 07:34:49.200
from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're

2591
07:34:49.319 --> 07:35:01.040
prepared to let go of everything and just completely allow

2592
07:35:01.479 --> 07:35:10.439
all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions

2593
07:35:10.759 --> 07:35:29.599
can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because

2594
07:35:29.959 --> 07:35:36.479
that sense of relaxation in your body is a very

2595
07:35:36.639 --> 07:35:43.400
natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual

2596
07:35:43.720 --> 07:35:46.599
when you first start to relax, if you if you

2597
07:35:46.720 --> 07:35:51.959
haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and giving

2598
07:35:52.000 --> 07:35:57.240
yourself this space to let go completely and relax may

2599
07:35:57.439 --> 07:36:05.159
seem are most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the

2600
07:36:05.360 --> 07:36:10.319
most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2601
07:36:12.040 --> 07:36:19.799
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

2602
07:36:22.479 --> 07:36:32.520
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

2603
07:36:35.119 --> 07:36:42.840
And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2604
07:36:42.959 --> 07:36:50.520
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2605
07:36:51.919 --> 07:36:55.319
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2606
07:36:55.400 --> 07:36:59.319
inside of a clock, just unwinding, and it's almost like

2607
07:36:59.479 --> 07:37:04.119
you could see either the little wind up knob that's

2608
07:37:04.319 --> 07:37:09.000
used just going the opposite way that you choose to

2609
07:37:09.200 --> 07:37:17.279
wind it up, and the energy that fremetic stress for

2610
07:37:17.759 --> 07:37:27.240
energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength.

2611
07:37:29.720 --> 07:37:39.000
As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

2612
07:37:39.319 --> 07:37:47.439
you may find a the more relaxed you feel, that

2613
07:37:47.560 --> 07:37:57.319
your mind starts to wonder, maybe just seemed to stop

2614
07:37:57.479 --> 07:38:02.560
listening to me for a while. Your mind goes somewhere else,

2615
07:38:03.959 --> 07:38:09.799
and in you realize you're listening to me again, and

2616
07:38:09.959 --> 07:38:13.000
that was just your mind to drift in to sleep,

2617
07:38:16.240 --> 07:38:26.799
which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense.

2618
07:38:27.720 --> 07:38:31.599
We're not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

2619
07:38:32.720 --> 07:38:35.439
what we physically or emotionally.

2620
07:38:36.759 --> 07:38:44.720
Need in this moment, but when you allow your body

2621
07:38:45.159 --> 07:38:50.279
and mind to relax completely and you let go of

2622
07:38:50.880 --> 07:39:00.680
all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all letting them go allow

2623
07:39:00.840 --> 07:39:08.880
them to drop onto the floor when you start to

2624
07:39:11.080 --> 07:39:21.159
get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation, this

2625
07:39:21.959 --> 07:39:28.639
feels so nice to be in touch with the calmness

2626
07:39:30.599 --> 07:39:39.520
of the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2627
07:39:43.799 --> 07:39:55.959
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as

2628
07:39:56.000 --> 07:40:02.000
that cool auders through your mouth or nose into your lungs,

2629
07:40:04.680 --> 07:40:13.040
breathing in comfort and relaxation, and then just breathing out

2630
07:40:13.279 --> 07:40:21.919
any excess remain intention or stress from every part of

2631
07:40:22.040 --> 07:40:22.840
your body.

2632
07:40:24.119 --> 07:40:24.720
And mind.

2633
07:40:28.279 --> 07:40:32.840
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2634
07:40:33.400 --> 07:40:40.880
you notice that things have come to a standstill or

2635
07:40:41.040 --> 07:40:50.119
maybe just much much lower than before, because your mind

2636
07:40:50.319 --> 07:41:00.840
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

2637
07:41:00.919 --> 07:41:07.400
allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2638
07:41:10.159 --> 07:41:18.400
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and

2639
07:41:21.159 --> 07:41:23.919
relaxation of your mind.

2640
07:41:26.279 --> 07:41:27.479
Let you know that.

2641
07:41:29.639 --> 07:41:42.080
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed really is a great

2642
07:41:43.040 --> 07:42:00.119
healing experience fear and has so many positive benefits for

2643
07:42:00.240 --> 07:42:06.159
your body, your mind, and your life to be able

2644
07:42:06.319 --> 07:42:17.400
to let go everything and to relax completely in all

2645
07:42:18.040 --> 07:42:26.520
parts of your body and mind. Even your bones has axed,

2646
07:42:29.799 --> 07:42:30.319
all your.

2647
07:42:30.400 --> 07:42:43.799
Muscles are rerixed, Even the skin that covers your body.

2648
07:42:46.360 --> 07:42:53.759
Is relaxed. Every hair.

2649
07:42:56.720 --> 07:42:57.319
That you have.

2650
07:42:59.080 --> 07:42:59.959
Is also.

2651
07:43:01.840 --> 07:43:18.919
Deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to feel the benefits.

2652
07:43:20.240 --> 07:43:20.599
But this.

2653
07:43:22.200 --> 07:43:34.560
Healing relaxation, and as you focus on the inside of

2654
07:43:34.680 --> 07:43:40.360
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

2655
07:43:40.639 --> 07:43:50.159
realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply.

2656
07:43:54.639 --> 07:44:03.200
Then as your brain continues to relax, he sends those

2657
07:44:03.959 --> 07:44:12.080
messages to the rest of your body and your mind

2658
07:44:14.000 --> 07:44:37.080
to re relax more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting go

2659
07:44:37.279 --> 07:44:49.040
of any remaining thoughts or concens allow them just to

2660
07:44:49.360 --> 07:44:56.840
drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary in

2661
07:44:57.520 --> 07:45:08.680
this moment, In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness,

2662
07:45:11.000 --> 07:45:21.000
filling your brain with deep concentrated.

2663
07:45:21.959 --> 07:45:47.919
Heathing, calming, relaxing, every part of your brain feeling so

2664
07:45:49.200 --> 07:45:58.279
loose and comfortable, so relaxed.

2665
07:45:59.360 --> 07:46:12.080
And be peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy,

2666
07:46:15.319 --> 07:46:25.560
That sense of deep, deep comfort really does allow you

2667
07:46:29.200 --> 07:46:40.680
to enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort that

2668
07:46:40.840 --> 07:46:54.240
are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle

2669
07:46:54.400 --> 07:47:13.599
of your body deep about deeper, much more deeper than before,

2670
07:47:17.360 --> 07:47:29.840
much more comfort spreading through your body in your mind,

2671
07:47:32.880 --> 07:47:50.639
be so peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in

2672
07:47:50.919 --> 07:48:01.200
a very part of your body. Letting go mm hm

2673
07:48:02.400 --> 07:48:24.599
a everything and everything so peaceful time, so relax a

2674
07:48:25.119 --> 07:48:46.200
very second the passes you feel dper, dper, relax dper

2675
07:48:48.680 --> 07:49:11.479
and deeper, relax come so peace for so very peace

2676
07:49:14.680 --> 07:49:24.000
from your head down to your ties, such peace and

2677
07:49:24.360 --> 07:49:36.880
comfort throwing all all the time, such peace and comfort

2678
07:49:39.880 --> 07:49:54.080
spreading through your body and mind deeper, deeper, such comforts,

2679
07:49:56.560 --> 07:50:06.360
spreading and sinking deeper into airy muscle of your body,

2680
07:50:09.959 --> 07:50:23.639
so that you feel amazing, so relaxed, so piece, so.

2681
07:50:28.360 --> 07:50:30.400
So relaxed.

2682
07:50:33.680 --> 07:50:44.080
And peace So letting go everything.

2683
07:50:48.319 --> 07:50:54.880
I'm gonna do a body scan, focusing on firstly how

2684
07:50:54.959 --> 07:50:56.880
you feel in your.

2685
07:50:56.799 --> 07:51:02.880
Body, not trying to change how you feel, not trying

2686
07:51:03.080 --> 07:51:08.080
to relax, not trying to move away from any discomfort

2687
07:51:09.400 --> 07:51:17.200
or stress or tension, just accepting, observing and accepting how

2688
07:51:17.279 --> 07:51:22.439
you feel in the different parts of your body, just

2689
07:51:22.599 --> 07:51:31.439
allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to notice

2690
07:51:32.200 --> 07:51:40.319
to get in touch with how you actually feel in

2691
07:51:40.479 --> 07:51:49.119
this moment. So I'm going to start off by focusing

2692
07:51:50.400 --> 07:52:02.959
on your hands. Just be aware of your hands. I'd

2693
07:52:03.080 --> 07:52:07.479
like you to move your hands around, just maybe move

2694
07:52:07.520 --> 07:52:09.000
your fingers.

2695
07:52:08.599 --> 07:52:09.200
A little bit.

2696
07:52:11.639 --> 07:52:17.319
I've been and closing your hands very gently, just so

2697
07:52:17.799 --> 07:52:23.319
that you can get in touch with how your hands

2698
07:52:25.799 --> 07:52:46.119
and your fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2699
07:52:46.959 --> 07:52:54.240
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

2700
07:52:54.240 --> 07:52:54.560
of an.

2701
07:52:54.479 --> 07:53:00.000
Equivalent with your feet is you've just done with your hands,

2702
07:53:01.479 --> 07:53:10.360
Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving

2703
07:53:10.479 --> 07:53:20.439
your toes gently, but only very gently and very slowly,

2704
07:53:23.439 --> 07:53:28.279
noticing how your feet feel.

2705
07:53:30.000 --> 07:53:43.319
In this moment. Focusing now and your eyes, I'd like

2706
07:53:43.439 --> 07:53:50.439
you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can

2707
07:53:50.639 --> 07:53:54.840
open and close your eyes a couple of times to

2708
07:53:55.040 --> 07:53:58.759
really get in touch with how you feel. When you

2709
07:53:58.959 --> 07:54:04.639
do close your eyes, the muscle changes.

2710
07:54:06.479 --> 07:54:12.360
In your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising

2711
07:54:12.479 --> 07:54:13.520
your eyebrows.

2712
07:54:15.240 --> 07:54:16.680
It stretches the.

2713
07:54:16.799 --> 07:54:27.639
Tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up

2714
07:54:27.720 --> 07:54:31.840
your eyes just so you can hear it.

2715
07:54:31.840 --> 07:54:42.959
Again touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2716
07:54:45.439 --> 07:54:45.919
Right now.

2717
07:54:55.279 --> 07:55:01.080
Now focus in on your thighs, and you know it

2718
07:55:01.240 --> 07:55:07.520
just starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very

2719
07:55:09.000 --> 07:55:20.799
very gently, just enough so you can become more atchuned

2720
07:55:22.360 --> 07:55:31.520
to the physical sensation of your upper legs, the front

2721
07:55:31.599 --> 07:55:39.279
of your thighs, in the backs of your thigh, noticing

2722
07:55:41.479 --> 07:55:58.520
and observing how your thighs feel. Right now, moving your

2723
07:55:58.720 --> 07:56:07.040
focus to the back of your neck, just noticing the

2724
07:56:07.200 --> 07:56:13.319
back of your neck, the muscles, and of course they

2725
07:56:13.560 --> 07:56:18.000
lead to the side of your neck. They also lead

2726
07:56:18.360 --> 07:56:23.479
to the top of your back, which leads to your shoulders.

2727
07:56:25.080 --> 07:56:28.759
So as your focus on the back of your neck,

2728
07:56:30.720 --> 07:56:37.200
maybe you can move your head gently upwards as if

2729
07:56:37.240 --> 07:56:44.599
you're looking up. Maybe moving your head down as if

2730
07:56:44.680 --> 07:56:45.639
you were looking down.

2731
07:56:48.799 --> 07:56:53.639
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2732
07:56:55.599 --> 07:56:56.360
but only.

2733
07:56:57.840 --> 07:57:08.599
Very slow, very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2734
07:57:10.360 --> 07:57:20.040
It has to be very very gentle, just so you can.

2735
07:57:21.599 --> 07:57:23.200
Be more.

2736
07:57:24.840 --> 07:57:34.279
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2737
07:57:35.639 --> 07:57:44.919
sensations of how the back of your neck feels. Right now,

2738
07:57:52.520 --> 07:58:00.479
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2739
07:58:02.840 --> 07:58:07.680
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2740
07:58:07.720 --> 07:58:15.439
your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on those parts,

2741
07:58:16.479 --> 07:58:22.119
the tops of your arms. You may like to just

2742
07:58:22.919 --> 07:58:34.240
tense them, but very very gently and slowly, see you know,

2743
07:58:34.680 --> 07:58:43.720
straining or put in any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2744
07:58:46.400 --> 07:58:53.080
It's just so that you can gain more of a

2745
07:58:53.400 --> 07:59:01.400
sense of how your upper arms a feeling.

2746
07:59:03.240 --> 07:59:15.599
In this moment, and just noticing as you gently, very gently.

2747
07:59:17.080 --> 07:59:28.439
And slowly tighten the muscles and then let go. Notice

2748
07:59:30.560 --> 07:59:44.880
how the tops of your arms feel right now as

2749
07:59:45.000 --> 07:59:55.799
a now focus on your stomach, the area the lower

2750
07:59:55.919 --> 08:00:02.119
abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the way

2751
08:00:02.240 --> 08:00:09.000
down to your hips, just a part of your grind.

2752
08:00:15.360 --> 08:00:22.560
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

2753
08:00:23.319 --> 08:00:38.560
very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing

2754
08:00:38.759 --> 08:00:45.159
to do, and maybe you can just move your body

2755
08:00:47.799 --> 08:00:52.759
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to

2756
08:00:52.840 --> 08:00:59.799
the side using your hips, just so you can get

2757
08:01:00.319 --> 08:01:12.639
more in tune with how your lower abdomen area is

2758
08:01:13.759 --> 08:01:34.319
feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or

2759
08:01:34.400 --> 08:01:53.680
your lower abdomen. As you move your attention to your mouth,

2760
08:01:59.000 --> 08:02:07.240
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, the teeth

2761
08:02:08.360 --> 08:02:24.479
your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your tongue in

2762
08:02:24.560 --> 08:02:34.240
your mouth feels. It may help by moving your tongue

2763
08:02:35.599 --> 08:02:42.520
around your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2764
08:02:42.599 --> 08:02:49.319
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2765
08:02:49.759 --> 08:02:54.639
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2766
08:02:57.759 --> 08:03:03.240
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2767
08:03:03.400 --> 08:03:12.240
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always

2768
08:03:13.200 --> 08:03:28.240
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2769
08:03:28.439 --> 08:03:44.720
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2770
08:03:56.000 --> 08:04:16.159
Now I'm going to focus on your wrists and I'll

2771
08:04:16.279 --> 08:04:23.159
ask you to maybe just rotate your wrists.

2772
08:04:24.599 --> 08:04:32.639
By moving your hands in a circular motion very gently

2773
08:04:34.560 --> 08:04:55.080
and slowly, just so that you can feel the sensations

2774
08:04:56.159 --> 08:05:11.560
that you are currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move

2775
08:05:11.840 --> 08:05:24.319
in your hands up and down again very very gently

2776
08:05:27.759 --> 08:06:03.200
and slowly, very gentzor and slow has been out. Start

2777
08:06:03.919 --> 08:06:19.000
to observe your lower back. The bad part is just

2778
08:06:19.479 --> 08:06:35.759
above your hips, where your coxix are a whole area

2779
08:06:36.720 --> 08:06:42.400
which also really does include the signs of your body

2780
08:06:44.119 --> 08:06:53.720
because those muscles are very much connected. There's those muscles

2781
08:06:54.680 --> 08:07:00.799
also move into your hip area, connecting to or buttics

2782
08:07:03.919 --> 08:07:18.680
the sides of your hips, and if you're physically able

2783
08:07:18.880 --> 08:07:33.080
to do so, maybe very gently, just move body eviss slightly,

2784
08:07:35.400 --> 08:07:45.880
very slowly from side to side, just enough.

2785
08:07:51.080 --> 08:07:52.479
To e gauge.

2786
08:07:57.240 --> 08:08:10.560
How you feel in your lower back. Perhaps it could

2787
08:08:10.639 --> 08:08:25.919
even move your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly,

2788
08:08:29.159 --> 08:08:30.119
in order to.

2789
08:08:34.639 --> 08:08:36.240
Be in touch.

2790
08:08:38.520 --> 08:08:43.040
With the physical sensations.

2791
08:08:43.360 --> 08:08:44.560
Of your lower back.

2792
08:09:01.639 --> 08:09:16.840
As we now live, your attention to your jaw, that

2793
08:09:17.159 --> 08:09:22.880
area from your chin all the way up to near

2794
08:09:22.919 --> 08:09:29.200
where your ears are, all your jaw.

2795
08:09:38.919 --> 08:09:39.919
And you can, just.

2796
08:09:41.959 --> 08:09:48.639
If it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth,

2797
08:09:51.560 --> 08:10:03.200
not wide, no stretching, just very gently and slowly opening

2798
08:10:03.279 --> 08:10:09.759
your mouthing, closing your mouth.

2799
08:10:11.759 --> 08:10:30.680
Very gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2800
08:10:37.479 --> 08:11:11.240
with how your jaw feels. Now, I just sit now

2801
08:11:14.200 --> 08:11:27.040
your chest area, and you don't need to do anything

2802
08:11:29.000 --> 08:11:35.840
to move your chest because it moves every time you breathe,

2803
08:11:41.000 --> 08:11:54.159
and it moves very gently and slowly automatically with each

2804
08:11:54.720 --> 08:12:10.040
bread you tape. As you focus on how your chest.

2805
08:12:14.880 --> 08:12:55.639
Feels when you pray, move in your focus to your forms,

2806
08:12:58.240 --> 08:12:59.240
your elbows.

2807
08:13:05.200 --> 08:13:17.599
Maybe you're able to very gently and slowly tense the

2808
08:13:17.840 --> 08:13:25.919
muscles in your forms, and when you do that, you

2809
08:13:26.119 --> 08:13:27.159
can feel.

2810
08:13:30.119 --> 08:13:59.040
Your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2811
08:14:01.959 --> 08:14:38.680
And softly up sad your forearms and dopers no focus

2812
08:14:45.840 --> 08:14:57.880
the rest of your back, your upper back in the middle,

2813
08:14:59.439 --> 08:15:15.400
the mid door your back, and again this part of

2814
08:15:15.520 --> 08:15:30.400
your body. News Also every time you pray, you may

2815
08:15:30.479 --> 08:15:44.479
not notice that usually makes you observe your upper back

2816
08:15:44.919 --> 08:15:52.720
in the middle of your back. You can really feel.

2817
08:15:54.919 --> 08:16:47.919
That gentle end moment minn your focus.

2818
08:16:49.360 --> 08:16:49.919
Into the.

2819
08:16:51.599 --> 08:17:04.439
Area, the buttex, the gray, there's muscles and those bones

2820
08:17:07.040 --> 08:17:43.919
in your midsection. Just noticing how you are hips feel

2821
08:17:47.119 --> 08:18:01.360
right now, you can very very gently.

2822
08:18:03.479 --> 08:18:15.279
Move your hips, maybe side to side, very gently and

2823
08:18:18.400 --> 08:19:11.880
slow y, very gently, softly, slowly, everything starts to slow down,

2824
08:19:18.360 --> 08:19:24.040
including the thoughts in your mind and your mind itself

2825
08:19:27.240 --> 08:19:33.919
just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant,

2826
08:19:34.000 --> 08:19:42.000
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2827
08:19:42.400 --> 08:19:53.560
storing chin. It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2828
08:19:53.919 --> 08:20:01.520
used to in your day to day life. It's a

2829
08:20:01.799 --> 08:20:28.720
slower movement of energy, very small movements which make up

2830
08:20:29.080 --> 08:20:32.959
the larger movements, which is always the case.

2831
08:20:36.319 --> 08:20:40.759
Now, when you move your hand, it might seem like

2832
08:20:40.880 --> 08:20:47.240
it's one movement, but it's lots of minute, different muscles moving.

2833
08:20:49.080 --> 08:21:00.400
In accordance with each other. What happens in this space

2834
08:21:01.159 --> 08:21:19.599
that we're sharing is we move from that big movement

2835
08:21:20.360 --> 08:21:36.479
into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how your

2836
08:21:36.959 --> 08:21:43.639
body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

2837
08:21:43.680 --> 08:21:47.959
i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2838
08:21:48.200 --> 08:21:53.599
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way,

2839
08:21:53.759 --> 08:22:00.599
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

2840
08:22:04.959 --> 08:22:14.599
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

2841
08:22:21.119 --> 08:22:33.240
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not.

2842
08:22:38.639 --> 08:22:47.680
Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge

2843
08:22:47.759 --> 08:22:55.240
them those feelings. Just thinking them, thinking about them is

2844
08:22:55.400 --> 08:23:12.319
just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but

2845
08:23:12.599 --> 08:23:27.639
just noticing what your body is telling you, the feelings

2846
08:23:27.720 --> 08:23:34.040
in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2847
08:23:35.439 --> 08:23:44.680
maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2848
08:23:48.799 --> 08:23:58.000
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

2849
08:23:58.159 --> 08:24:14.279
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones. Just being

2850
08:24:14.360 --> 08:24:23.200
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2851
08:24:23.240 --> 08:24:34.599
a certain feeling, Maybe your left wrist also has its

2852
08:24:34.720 --> 08:24:55.439
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm, on your

2853
08:24:55.560 --> 08:25:07.840
right arm, your right forearm. There may not be any

2854
08:25:08.400 --> 08:25:15.639
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2855
08:25:19.360 --> 08:25:23.720
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2856
08:25:24.639 --> 08:25:25.720
You know, it's there.

2857
08:25:32.000 --> 08:25:37.720
The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you

2858
08:25:37.840 --> 08:25:41.560
think about them, kind of almost like they're the same,

2859
08:25:42.720 --> 08:25:48.560
you know, the same feeling, almost like both of your

2860
08:25:48.599 --> 08:25:50.360
shoulders are just one thing.

2861
08:25:52.159 --> 08:25:53.040
Of course they're not.

2862
08:26:01.720 --> 08:26:07.080
And when you focus on your left shoulder and then

2863
08:26:07.119 --> 08:26:11.919
on your right shoulder, maybe find.

2864
08:26:11.720 --> 08:26:17.119
That you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2865
08:26:17.240 --> 08:26:42.799
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your

2866
08:26:42.880 --> 08:26:58.759
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

2867
08:26:59.560 --> 08:27:10.279
the right inside of your lower back of course that

2868
08:27:10.479 --> 08:27:22.880
connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and also

2869
08:27:23.119 --> 08:27:36.840
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

2870
08:27:37.200 --> 08:27:40.720
like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2871
08:27:42.080 --> 08:27:46.479
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2872
08:27:46.520 --> 08:27:50.599
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2873
08:27:50.840 --> 08:27:55.599
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2874
08:28:00.360 --> 08:28:05.639
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2875
08:28:05.720 --> 08:28:14.520
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2876
08:28:14.599 --> 08:28:26.880
seemed to happen the feeling of very gently stretching your

2877
08:28:26.959 --> 08:28:46.040
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2878
08:28:53.680 --> 08:29:07.080
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2879
08:29:07.360 --> 08:29:23.599
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously

2880
08:29:23.680 --> 08:29:27.319
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2881
08:29:27.360 --> 08:29:35.959
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2882
08:29:38.759 --> 08:29:44.840
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2883
08:29:44.880 --> 08:29:53.000
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2884
08:29:53.159 --> 08:30:00.639
different these days? But there may be more muscles at

2885
08:30:00.680 --> 08:30:06.880
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath,

2886
08:30:08.040 --> 08:30:10.880
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2887
08:30:10.880 --> 08:30:17.319
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2888
08:30:17.479 --> 08:30:21.919
your back as well as breast tissue. It stretches and

2889
08:30:22.119 --> 08:30:29.799
moves into your back. To just being aware of your chest,

2890
08:30:38.720 --> 08:31:06.040
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. When

2891
08:31:06.080 --> 08:31:13.919
I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I feel

2892
08:31:13.959 --> 08:31:18.560
it in my back and my upper back. I mean,

2893
08:31:18.680 --> 08:31:21.599
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2894
08:31:21.599 --> 08:31:32.360
I'll breathe in in and it stretches my chest and

2895
08:31:32.720 --> 08:31:46.599
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2896
08:31:53.200 --> 08:31:58.000
it doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain

2897
08:31:58.119 --> 08:32:04.720
in my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but

2898
08:32:04.880 --> 08:32:15.159
little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I noticed

2899
08:32:15.200 --> 08:32:22.840
my shoulders are also wanting to flex for some reason.

2900
08:32:25.040 --> 08:32:32.439
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

2901
08:32:32.639 --> 08:32:37.560
connection between my shoulders and my other back. Because I

2902
08:32:37.599 --> 08:32:42.599
can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

2903
08:32:45.119 --> 08:32:50.880
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves.

2904
08:32:51.599 --> 08:32:53.799
I think it's the scapulous.

2905
08:32:55.759 --> 08:32:56.360
In your back.

2906
08:33:06.439 --> 08:33:14.080
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

2907
08:33:14.400 --> 08:33:19.159
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2908
08:33:22.720 --> 08:33:34.400
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2909
08:33:35.880 --> 08:33:39.319
in order to get more of the sense of how

2910
08:33:39.439 --> 08:33:54.439
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you detense and

2911
08:33:54.639 --> 08:33:59.080
muscle and you let it go and you let it relax,

2912
08:34:00.319 --> 08:34:12.560
it relaxes way more than it would normally. That you

2913
08:34:12.720 --> 08:34:17.560
have to feel that you're able to do that.

2914
08:34:19.200 --> 08:34:20.959
There's no point doing it if.

2915
08:34:20.880 --> 08:34:26.479
There's an issue with the per part of your body.

2916
08:34:29.959 --> 08:34:36.520
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2917
08:34:39.119 --> 08:34:50.680
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself.

2918
08:34:58.240 --> 08:35:06.680
As you notice your mind. How much has your mind

2919
08:35:07.040 --> 08:35:34.240
slowed down since we started this recording? How come and

2920
08:35:34.520 --> 08:35:45.840
peaceful is your mind. Right now, we have nothing to

2921
08:35:45.959 --> 08:35:55.840
think about and just my voice to listen to. Because

2922
08:35:55.959 --> 08:36:06.880
you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation. At

2923
08:36:06.919 --> 08:36:13.360
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

2924
08:36:13.400 --> 08:36:16.759
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning,

2925
08:36:21.919 --> 08:36:22.159
at the.

2926
08:36:22.319 --> 08:36:33.959
Very least, for your mind to slow down because your

2927
08:36:34.080 --> 08:36:45.639
body continues to relax, because that's.

2928
08:36:45.720 --> 08:36:46.279
What you.

2929
08:36:47.880 --> 08:37:09.840
Want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for relaxation.

2930
08:37:12.200 --> 08:37:27.680
To fill your body, maybe calm in your mind to

2931
08:37:27.840 --> 08:38:02.119
the point of boredom. When you start maybe to drift away. Drifting,

2932
08:38:15.720 --> 08:38:17.319
it's almost as.

2933
08:38:17.200 --> 08:38:17.959
If you're.

2934
08:38:21.080 --> 08:38:29.240
Moving further away from a body in your mind, just

2935
08:38:29.599 --> 08:38:41.400
leaving that there, kind of liking it an escape pod

2936
08:38:42.200 --> 08:38:46.360
in the spaceship a movie, a space movie, you know,

2937
08:38:46.560 --> 08:38:50.520
and and against that little part in it since the

2938
08:38:50.639 --> 08:39:22.279
man far away from the spaceship safe dream continue to relax,

2939
08:39:42.439 --> 08:40:03.360
terrifting so slow.

2940
08:40:16.159 --> 08:40:34.560
And be so so rare.

2941
08:40:47.560 --> 08:41:22.200
And peace and focusing on the fealing with those individual

2942
08:41:22.759 --> 08:41:32.479
parts of your body. That's a relaxing. One by one,

2943
08:41:40.159 --> 08:41:52.520
you may find that every now and then you realize

2944
08:41:52.680 --> 08:42:03.520
that you aren't listening to my voice because your mind

2945
08:42:04.119 --> 08:42:18.840
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2946
08:42:19.040 --> 08:42:28.119
into some kind of a dreamy state, and then you

2947
08:42:28.279 --> 08:42:35.080
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2948
08:42:36.080 --> 08:42:42.240
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2949
08:42:43.000 --> 08:42:56.799
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2950
08:42:56.919 --> 08:43:18.360
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2951
08:43:19.000 --> 08:43:32.240
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2952
08:43:32.400 --> 08:43:46.400
you gently, keeping your body at just the perfect temperature.

2953
08:43:56.799 --> 08:44:01.279
And even if you can hear it back ground sounds,

2954
08:44:06.880 --> 08:44:19.360
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sensor

2955
08:44:22.080 --> 08:44:38.919
peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet

2956
08:44:39.080 --> 08:44:51.319
strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong.

2957
08:44:51.119 --> 08:44:51.599
Enough to.

2958
08:44:55.000 --> 08:45:05.119
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2959
08:45:05.319 --> 08:45:20.400
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

2960
08:45:20.799 --> 08:45:46.240
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that is

2961
08:45:46.520 --> 08:46:11.840
feeling your body end your mind. Unless you focus on

2962
08:46:12.000 --> 08:46:18.439
your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2963
08:46:19.799 --> 08:46:30.159
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2964
08:46:36.240 --> 08:46:56.560
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly, from ten down to nine,

2965
08:46:57.360 --> 08:47:04.319
just a slight movement, from nine down to eight, just

2966
08:47:04.439 --> 08:47:21.520
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2967
08:47:24.279 --> 08:47:29.680
That feeling is a gap almost like a gap that

2968
08:47:30.040 --> 08:47:39.720
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2969
08:47:39.919 --> 08:47:46.840
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2970
08:47:47.000 --> 08:47:54.520
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2971
08:47:54.799 --> 08:48:06.479
security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down

2972
08:48:06.560 --> 08:48:14.040
to seven, seven, down to six. When you get to five,

2973
08:48:16.400 --> 08:48:25.639
the mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2974
08:48:30.080 --> 08:48:35.759
most like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2975
08:48:36.680 --> 08:48:42.520
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2976
08:48:42.599 --> 08:48:53.680
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull. And

2977
08:48:53.840 --> 08:48:59.959
in down to four you can start to really experience

2978
08:49:00.000 --> 08:49:12.400
against that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2979
08:49:12.560 --> 08:49:21.319
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2980
08:49:24.799 --> 08:49:27.439
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2981
08:49:28.240 --> 08:49:37.080
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

2982
08:49:37.759 --> 08:49:50.040
peace and tranquility growing it moves down to when you

2983
08:49:50.119 --> 08:49:59.520
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2984
08:49:59.799 --> 08:50:20.000
want want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe the sensation that.

2985
08:50:21.599 --> 08:50:23.040
You'd like to keep.

2986
08:50:26.040 --> 08:50:36.880
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2987
08:50:48.520 --> 08:50:55.040
and you could stay in that that space of conform confidence,

2988
08:50:57.759 --> 08:51:04.639
confident in your own ability to create this space and

2989
08:51:04.799 --> 08:51:11.919
this feeling of comfort within your own mind just by

2990
08:51:12.119 --> 08:51:22.319
counting ten down to one. And this is something that

2991
08:51:22.520 --> 08:51:31.240
you can do yourself when you're on your own the

2992
08:51:31.439 --> 08:51:35.240
time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for

2993
08:51:35.360 --> 08:51:48.119
a few minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly from

2994
08:51:48.400 --> 08:52:02.759
ten down to one and re experience these feelings in

2995
08:52:02.880 --> 08:52:03.479
your mind.

2996
08:52:09.360 --> 08:52:09.799
And when you.

2997
08:52:10.000 --> 08:52:19.919
Feel that way in your mind, your body copies your mind,

2998
08:52:25.759 --> 08:52:28.799
and the feeling is spread through your.

2999
08:52:29.599 --> 08:52:36.279
Spine and your nervous system into every part of your body,

3000
08:52:38.360 --> 08:52:52.720
travels through your bloodstream, heaving and relaxing every particle of

3001
08:52:52.880 --> 08:53:09.720
your existence. And we can we can practice this a

3002
08:53:09.840 --> 08:53:11.080
few times.

3003
08:53:15.319 --> 08:53:17.599
Before the end of the recording.

3004
08:53:17.639 --> 08:53:18.479
And then you can.

3005
08:53:19.840 --> 08:53:28.319
Practice on your own. Each time you comfort ten about one.

3006
08:53:32.799 --> 08:53:45.720
The feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation becomes stronger.

3007
08:53:46.400 --> 08:54:00.639
And deeper feeling your mind and your brain. With these

3008
08:54:01.840 --> 08:54:12.639
positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly,

3009
08:54:14.720 --> 08:54:21.560
relaxing your whole body and mind so very.

3010
08:54:23.040 --> 08:54:25.159
Very easily.

3011
08:54:27.159 --> 08:54:29.000
Just by counting.

3012
08:54:30.400 --> 08:54:40.720
Ten down to one. That's what we're going to do now.

3013
08:54:41.599 --> 08:54:45.520
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

3014
08:54:45.720 --> 08:54:50.000
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

3015
08:54:50.080 --> 08:54:57.040
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

3016
08:54:58.400 --> 08:54:58.639
Ten.

3017
08:55:04.279 --> 08:55:13.599
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

3018
08:55:13.759 --> 08:55:23.279
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

3019
08:55:23.400 --> 08:55:29.159
can beat to yourself nine.

3020
08:55:33.159 --> 08:55:44.360
Became noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in your

3021
08:55:44.560 --> 08:55:55.159
mind and in your body, the same when I say eight,

3022
08:55:58.200 --> 08:56:09.759
when I say seven, six, I want to say five, four,

3023
08:56:13.759 --> 08:56:24.119
when I say three, two, and.

3024
08:56:24.319 --> 08:56:25.720
Lastly want to say one.

3025
08:56:28.159 --> 08:56:30.599
You can be that number.

3026
08:56:37.720 --> 08:56:37.840
Now.

3027
08:56:38.000 --> 08:56:41.919
Of course, when you do this on your own.

3028
08:56:43.200 --> 08:56:48.159
Without listening to me, you can say the numbers or

3029
08:56:48.240 --> 08:56:58.520
whatever speed that you feel is necessary for you, so

3030
08:56:58.680 --> 08:57:03.479
you can adapt. So if you feel you want to

3031
08:57:04.439 --> 08:57:07.439
say the numbers ten down to one.

3032
08:57:09.119 --> 08:57:13.680
Faster than I do, then you go ahead and do that.

3033
08:57:14.599 --> 08:57:18.040
Or if you feel when you do it yourself.

3034
08:57:18.240 --> 08:57:20.520
That you'd like to have more.

3035
08:57:22.080 --> 08:57:30.000
More space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer to.

3036
08:57:30.119 --> 08:57:31.279
Get from ten.

3037
08:57:33.200 --> 08:57:41.439
All the way down to one, that's your choice also

3038
08:57:41.720 --> 08:57:54.159
to do. So I'm going to count from ten down

3039
08:57:54.279 --> 08:57:54.680
to one.

3040
08:58:00.400 --> 08:58:01.479
I'm gonna get to one.

3041
08:58:02.840 --> 08:58:08.200
That will be the end of this recording, and this

3042
08:58:08.400 --> 08:58:13.520
of course listening with music, and the music will continue.

3043
08:58:20.639 --> 08:58:59.240
Ten nine, eight.

3044
08:59:00.799 --> 08:59:16.639
As.

3045
08:59:27.360 --> 09:00:55.439
FO say.

3046
09:02:52.520 --> 09:04:23.639
Twenty ninety, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two.

3047
09:04:29.880 --> 09:04:30.119
One.

3048
09:04:38.520 --> 09:04:44.119
Now open your eyes, noticing.

3049
09:04:45.919 --> 09:04:50.880
How you physically feel having counted down from twenty to one,

3050
09:04:54.200 --> 09:04:59.439
allowing stress intention to leave through your fingertips and your

3051
09:04:59.560 --> 09:05:05.799
tass and as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they

3052
09:05:05.880 --> 09:05:12.240
feel a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite

3053
09:05:12.240 --> 09:05:17.319
an understanding considering attention has been exiting your body through

3054
09:05:17.360 --> 09:05:18.159
your fingertips.

3055
09:05:24.639 --> 09:05:26.639
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

3056
09:05:26.759 --> 09:05:33.959
one again. This time you got to feel relief of

3057
09:05:34.159 --> 09:05:45.240
tension and stress and the anxiety that you may have leaving.

3058
09:05:47.080 --> 09:05:47.959
Through your stomach.

3059
09:05:50.560 --> 09:05:54.279
Just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

3060
09:05:55.279 --> 09:06:01.799
releasing the whole of your stomach. When the people to

3061
09:06:02.319 --> 09:06:05.840
just above your chest or below your chest, rather so

3062
09:06:06.080 --> 09:06:11.559
surrounding your belly button area, the whole area, you can.

3063
09:06:11.680 --> 09:06:16.080
Feel the tension of your body where there's left just

3064
09:06:16.959 --> 09:06:21.599
releasing from the area, and you may notice that your

3065
09:06:21.680 --> 09:06:22.879
stomach will become.

3066
09:06:22.839 --> 09:06:24.279
Very relaxed.

3067
09:06:25.279 --> 09:07:43.360
As I countdown from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

3068
09:07:46.519 --> 09:07:56.559
nine four three.

3069
09:08:00.800 --> 09:08:06.440
Two what.

3070
09:08:11.279 --> 09:08:13.480
And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

3071
09:08:13.919 --> 09:08:15.120
but you can just keep them.

3072
09:08:15.040 --> 09:08:17.680
Closed because it feels relaxing.

3073
09:08:20.000 --> 09:08:21.040
Just notice saying your.

3074
09:08:21.040 --> 09:08:26.639
Stomach, girls, notice as your focus, just do a little

3075
09:08:26.720 --> 09:08:27.879
scan of your body.

3076
09:08:29.959 --> 09:08:31.760
Just notice, say your body of els.

3077
09:08:33.199 --> 09:08:43.720
Focusing on the upper body, your back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

3078
09:08:46.760 --> 09:08:56.319
Just noticing, and you know you may start to all

3079
09:08:56.400 --> 09:09:01.480
the sense of tiredness, which may be the reason listening

3080
09:09:01.559 --> 09:09:04.800
to this according because.

3081
09:09:04.519 --> 09:09:06.440
You like to.

3082
09:09:08.080 --> 09:09:10.760
Let go completely of everything.

3083
09:09:12.760 --> 09:09:13.680
And career.

3084
09:09:15.120 --> 09:09:20.319
All into a nice, natural, calm.

3085
09:09:20.360 --> 09:09:32.000
Relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus.

3086
09:09:34.559 --> 09:09:41.360
On your forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate

3087
09:09:41.440 --> 09:09:43.639
your eyes in this focus as well.

3088
09:09:45.480 --> 09:09:50.919
Your forehead and your eyes, it's that whole area basically,

3089
09:09:51.839 --> 09:09:54.800
almost as if you were wearing a mask.

3090
09:09:54.639 --> 09:09:55.279
You know, like a.

3091
09:09:57.199 --> 09:10:00.360
I don't know, Batman mask or something, or.

3092
09:10:02.440 --> 09:10:05.400
I'm trying to sorrow or something, you know, the kind

3093
09:10:05.400 --> 09:10:08.559
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

3094
09:10:08.599 --> 09:10:15.440
a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area because

3095
09:10:15.480 --> 09:10:18.760
that's the area that we're now going to release tension

3096
09:10:19.000 --> 09:10:24.080
and stress from your mind and your brain, from your

3097
09:10:24.239 --> 09:10:28.239
mind and any tension that you may have remaining in

3098
09:10:28.319 --> 09:10:34.440
your face, in your neck and mature, your eyes, and

3099
09:10:34.480 --> 09:10:40.239
your forehead and or your scalp. So basically any tension

3100
09:10:40.919 --> 09:10:45.120
within your head area, including your mind and.

3101
09:10:45.239 --> 09:10:50.199
Your brain, and that's going to.

3102
09:10:50.199 --> 09:10:51.400
Be released.

3103
09:10:52.480 --> 09:10:59.080
Through your forehead and your eyes. As I count down

3104
09:10:59.160 --> 09:11:42.800
again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen.

3105
09:11:47.919 --> 09:11:54.000
Twelve, eleven.

3106
09:12:00.000 --> 09:12:25.360
And nine eight seven six five.

3107
09:12:30.879 --> 09:12:35.319
H three.

3108
09:12:44.879 --> 09:12:58.319
What noticing she scanned her face.

3109
09:12:59.680 --> 09:13:07.879
Mhm, your your eyes, your cheap bins, your ears, your forehead,

3110
09:13:08.879 --> 09:13:10.199
your scalp.

3111
09:13:11.360 --> 09:13:15.000
Your neck, the back of your neck, in the front

3112
09:13:15.080 --> 09:13:18.879
of your neck, the side of your neck, and the throat.

3113
09:13:20.440 --> 09:13:22.319
Hm mm hmmm.

3114
09:13:25.160 --> 09:13:33.160
Lticing being aware of the comfort increased being in that.

3115
09:13:35.480 --> 09:13:41.879
Relaxation, not just in your head and neck and mind,

3116
09:13:42.919 --> 09:13:44.839
also the rest of your body.

3117
09:13:50.160 --> 09:13:57.319
Just notice how loose and calm you feel, and how easily.

3118
09:13:58.959 --> 09:14:00.519
It is to just let go.

3119
09:14:03.319 --> 09:14:19.720
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

3120
09:14:27.040 --> 09:14:27.639
What to do?

3121
09:14:27.879 --> 09:14:28.360
Valance.

3122
09:14:29.639 --> 09:14:31.839
I want to focus on the top of your head,

3123
09:14:37.279 --> 09:14:37.599
and we.

3124
09:14:37.680 --> 09:14:41.919
Can allow every last.

3125
09:14:43.480 --> 09:14:47.400
Piece of tension or stress that mind.

3126
09:14:48.360 --> 09:14:54.440
Be lingering or hiding in your body or mind ad.

3127
09:14:55.680 --> 09:14:56.080
To just.

3128
09:14:57.839 --> 09:15:08.559
Be sucked out the top of your head released into Yeah,

3129
09:15:09.680 --> 09:15:12.000
I wants sat down into the clouds.

3130
09:15:14.519 --> 09:15:16.239
Imagine a big cloud of.

3131
09:15:16.279 --> 09:15:16.919
God your head.

3132
09:15:19.160 --> 09:15:22.800
It's like a whirlpool and this can suck that.

3133
09:15:23.199 --> 09:15:29.760
Tension out the top of your head and just take

3134
09:15:29.800 --> 09:15:30.239
it away.

3135
09:15:32.160 --> 09:15:32.839
It did.

3136
09:15:35.800 --> 09:15:36.400
Your focus.

3137
09:15:37.400 --> 09:15:41.279
Imagine an opening on the top of your head with

3138
09:15:41.519 --> 09:15:47.279
a tension and stress and in remaining issues, maybe ways

3139
09:15:47.440 --> 09:15:50.160
of concerns that we're no use to you.

3140
09:15:50.319 --> 09:15:54.120
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

3141
09:15:54.160 --> 09:15:55.000
of your head.

3142
09:15:56.760 --> 09:16:03.319
Taken away. It's like outdown again. From twenty down to

3143
09:16:03.519 --> 09:17:05.599
one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteenighteen.

3144
09:17:03.360 --> 09:17:09.400
Well e.

3145
09:17:22.400 --> 09:17:41.480
Nine eight seven six.

3146
09:17:45.519 --> 09:17:51.839
Five four.

3147
09:17:55.639 --> 09:18:16.760
Two to what bring?

3148
09:18:21.879 --> 09:18:24.120
Noticing how you feel.

3149
09:18:30.400 --> 09:18:38.959
How relaxed and calm you physically and mentally feel right now,

3150
09:18:44.599 --> 09:18:54.400
Help be so your mind feels. It feels so nice

3151
09:18:54.599 --> 09:19:01.120
to just let go, to give yourself some space to

3152
09:19:01.360 --> 09:19:12.720
breathe easily, to think calmly, and just to take a

3153
09:19:12.879 --> 09:19:20.720
break from all that pointless worry concerns about things.

3154
09:19:20.599 --> 09:19:30.199
That you don't need to think about right now, because.

3155
09:19:31.480 --> 09:19:33.639
This is your time to let go.

3156
09:19:35.000 --> 09:19:37.839
This is your space to enjoy.

3157
09:19:39.080 --> 09:19:48.279
Feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in your body.

3158
09:19:51.440 --> 09:20:00.360
They can feel so good, so nice to just not

3159
09:20:00.639 --> 09:20:01.360
have to do.

3160
09:20:02.080 --> 09:20:13.239
Anything, to be able to really enjoy that serenity that

3161
09:20:13.440 --> 09:20:21.440
comes and letting go completely that peacefulness that comes with.

3162
09:20:28.160 --> 09:20:29.519
In this.

3163
09:20:31.319 --> 09:20:41.400
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3164
09:20:42.239 --> 09:20:54.040
for as long as you choose. You choose to drift

3165
09:20:54.239 --> 09:21:01.440
off into deep healing natural seep, and you can do that.

3166
09:21:05.120 --> 09:21:13.360
It's completely up to you. And you can keep this

3167
09:21:13.680 --> 09:21:20.160
feeling calmness physically, mean in your mind as long as

3168
09:21:20.239 --> 09:21:33.680
you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed.

3169
09:21:36.919 --> 09:21:42.680
And I'd like you to make up your mind, are

3170
09:21:42.680 --> 09:21:54.080
you going to relax? And what explore that with you?

3171
09:21:54.760 --> 09:21:57.040
What it feels like when you actually.

3172
09:21:58.319 --> 09:22:05.559
Decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but

3173
09:22:05.760 --> 09:22:07.319
giving yourself that.

3174
09:22:10.279 --> 09:22:12.519
Yes, it is a command, really, isn't it. When you're

3175
09:22:12.559 --> 09:22:22.680
telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm way, that only.

3176
09:22:22.760 --> 09:22:27.800
You can really tell you something in that way. You

3177
09:22:27.879 --> 09:22:29.080
can't really have someone else.

3178
09:22:28.919 --> 09:22:34.080
Saying to you, now it relax, relax, you know, and

3179
09:22:35.279 --> 09:22:35.760
it needs to be.

3180
09:22:35.839 --> 09:22:40.160
Gentle, but you can't someone else can't really have the same.

3181
09:22:43.360 --> 09:22:49.400
The same kind of influence or power that you have

3182
09:22:50.639 --> 09:22:54.720
over your own physicality.

3183
09:22:54.760 --> 09:23:03.319
Over how you feel, because when you say it.

3184
09:23:03.720 --> 09:23:06.879
To yourself, it means more.

3185
09:23:08.040 --> 09:23:09.720
It's personal, and.

3186
09:23:11.319 --> 09:23:16.559
Your brain and your unconscious mind and your body listens

3187
09:23:16.800 --> 09:23:17.800
to what you say.

3188
09:23:20.120 --> 09:23:23.559
So for example, we'll test it out and do a

3189
09:23:23.599 --> 09:23:24.239
little test.

3190
09:23:24.360 --> 09:23:25.839
I do you little tests.

3191
09:23:25.440 --> 09:23:28.959
Along the way, and you can get more of an

3192
09:23:29.080 --> 09:23:29.800
idea of.

3193
09:23:31.279 --> 09:23:37.279
The force, a positive force that you can have in

3194
09:23:38.279 --> 09:23:43.680
creating a sense of comfort and relaxation in your.

3195
09:23:43.639 --> 09:23:51.879
Body and your mind quite quickly just by you telling yourself.

3196
09:23:53.239 --> 09:23:53.879
To relax.

3197
09:23:58.559 --> 09:24:02.160
So I'm going to start by it's focused on your hands.

3198
09:24:06.000 --> 09:24:09.000
Focus on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

3199
09:24:10.040 --> 09:24:11.800
and just say relax.

3200
09:24:13.440 --> 09:24:18.800
As you focus on your hands, you could say my

3201
09:24:19.120 --> 09:24:22.919
hands are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax.

3202
09:24:25.000 --> 09:24:30.760
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

3203
09:24:31.440 --> 09:24:35.639
and imagining that your hands, can you hear what you're saying.

3204
09:24:35.800 --> 09:24:38.239
You know, like they've got little ears. Let's see a

3205
09:24:38.319 --> 09:24:38.760
little weird.

3206
09:24:41.360 --> 09:24:52.760
So talking to your hands and just say relax, noticin.

3207
09:24:58.360 --> 09:24:59.919
Now your hands start to relax.

3208
09:25:12.480 --> 09:25:15.959
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3209
09:25:17.120 --> 09:25:21.919
You're just saying the same word relax and find the

3210
09:25:22.120 --> 09:25:24.839
right tone for you.

3211
09:25:24.839 --> 09:25:28.680
You know, I might say.

3212
09:25:29.080 --> 09:25:38.319
Relax, but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

3213
09:25:38.639 --> 09:25:44.279
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

3214
09:25:45.160 --> 09:25:49.319
for you to gauge what feels right for you.

3215
09:25:51.160 --> 09:25:52.319
Did just tell your.

3216
09:25:52.279 --> 09:25:57.839
Eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids,

3217
09:25:58.000 --> 09:26:03.360
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell

3218
09:26:03.480 --> 09:26:05.559
your eyes directly.

3219
09:26:07.839 --> 09:26:46.959
Relax now. Now, I just did that myself, and sometimes

3220
09:26:47.040 --> 09:26:48.040
you may feel that you.

3221
09:26:48.199 --> 09:26:49.839
Need a bit more time.

3222
09:26:51.839 --> 09:26:55.080
Or the different parts to relax, you know, because I

3223
09:26:55.160 --> 09:27:01.080
started talking again and maybe that pies and relaxed. But

3224
09:27:01.239 --> 09:27:03.720
what will happen is that it will just continue to relax,

3225
09:27:03.839 --> 09:27:08.040
even go on to me. And that's happened with my eyes.

3226
09:27:11.000 --> 09:27:15.599
Something else I noticed is when I started focusing on

3227
09:27:15.680 --> 09:27:19.080
my eyes, that actually almost became.

3228
09:27:18.800 --> 09:27:20.959
They got worse before they got better in a way.

3229
09:27:21.680 --> 09:27:24.760
So I felt a degree of tension growing in my

3230
09:27:24.879 --> 09:27:30.800
eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that was

3231
09:27:30.959 --> 09:27:36.120
really was just me becoming more aware of the tension

3232
09:27:37.239 --> 09:27:41.559
that was already there. But I I wasn't focused on

3233
09:27:41.680 --> 09:27:49.239
the people, so I wasn't really acknowledging it or really

3234
09:27:50.879 --> 09:28:04.239
conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still continuing

3235
09:28:04.279 --> 09:28:05.239
to relax.

3236
09:28:05.480 --> 09:28:11.120
As well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

3237
09:28:11.199 --> 09:28:12.040
a certain kind of.

3238
09:28:14.919 --> 09:28:18.040
Energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of.

3239
09:28:20.400 --> 09:28:26.279
Funeral a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

3240
09:28:26.319 --> 09:28:31.160
where the tension has been released. Maybe that's causing that,

3241
09:28:38.559 --> 09:28:40.800
and it's part I think we should focus.

3242
09:28:40.559 --> 09:28:41.480
On the back of the neck.

3243
09:28:42.199 --> 09:28:46.120
That's a part of which quite often, or for me,

3244
09:28:46.599 --> 09:28:49.639
holds tension. I don't know about it for yourself, but

3245
09:28:49.800 --> 09:28:54.040
I think it's quite a standard place where tension is

3246
09:28:54.160 --> 09:28:55.040
sometimes held.

3247
09:28:56.599 --> 09:29:01.000
So and I'm doing it, that mean what you're doing

3248
09:29:01.440 --> 09:29:02.720
as you do it as well, So.

3249
09:29:02.839 --> 09:29:07.400
I'm telling my body parts to relax as well. So

3250
09:29:07.440 --> 09:29:09.639
if you tell your neck at the back of your neck,

3251
09:29:10.160 --> 09:29:12.400
focus on the back of your neck and just say

3252
09:29:15.239 --> 09:29:18.639
relax in your own words.

3253
09:29:18.440 --> 09:29:21.559
In your own tone, in your own voice. You can

3254
09:29:21.639 --> 09:29:23.559
say out loud, or you can just say.

3255
09:29:23.360 --> 09:29:28.839
It to yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying

3256
09:29:28.919 --> 09:29:30.160
it literally.

3257
09:29:30.239 --> 09:29:33.519
To the back of your neck, as if the back

3258
09:29:33.559 --> 09:29:40.279
of your neck can actually hear what you're seeing. So

3259
09:29:40.319 --> 09:29:43.839
to do that, now, just say relax to the back

3260
09:29:43.919 --> 09:30:25.400
of your neck, and I'll do the same. And what

3261
09:30:25.720 --> 09:30:29.080
I noticed and in May that similar thing.

3262
09:30:30.440 --> 09:30:33.440
Is even though I was focusing on the back.

3263
09:30:33.319 --> 09:30:40.919
Of the neck, other parts started to.

3264
09:30:43.879 --> 09:30:47.519
I don't know, showed themselves to me or maybe because

3265
09:30:47.559 --> 09:30:50.400
they want to be relaxed as well. But I started

3266
09:30:50.440 --> 09:30:54.120
to noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention in my

3267
09:30:54.239 --> 09:30:56.000
shoulders and in my upper back.

3268
09:30:59.080 --> 09:31:03.599
Whether that was because my back of my neck was saying,

3269
09:31:05.080 --> 09:31:09.239
I'm pretty much on akame. It's the other parts that

3270
09:31:09.440 --> 09:31:16.559
need attention, but.

3271
09:31:16.680 --> 09:31:21.000
My low back of my neck is still relaxing. But

3272
09:31:21.120 --> 09:31:25.760
I just became more aware of other parts that needed attention.

3273
09:31:28.000 --> 09:31:30.680
Now, this might happen and it's not.

3274
09:31:32.319 --> 09:31:34.839
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3275
09:31:35.680 --> 09:31:41.720
you're being notified of more places but also want to

3276
09:31:41.839 --> 09:31:48.839
be relaxed. So I'm going to focus on my other bank.

3277
09:31:50.160 --> 09:31:54.160
So you can do the same, even if you don't.

3278
09:31:54.000 --> 09:31:54.639
Have any.

3279
09:31:56.080 --> 09:32:01.519
Feelings of tension that obvious in your other bank. You

3280
09:32:01.720 --> 09:32:06.599
just focus on your back and the whole area and

3281
09:32:06.760 --> 09:32:08.680
the shoulder blades down.

3282
09:32:10.239 --> 09:32:14.239
To the middle of the back and the spine. And

3283
09:32:14.400 --> 09:32:16.639
with me, it's more the shoulder blades.

3284
09:32:16.440 --> 09:32:17.120
That are more.

3285
09:32:21.800 --> 09:32:23.319
Yeah, that's the parts that we.

3286
09:32:25.559 --> 09:32:27.239
Sort of giving me.

3287
09:32:28.959 --> 09:32:33.120
The nott the it needs relax in the sounds to

3288
09:32:33.279 --> 09:32:36.879
ask that part to relax, and you can do the same.

3289
09:32:36.959 --> 09:33:03.720
Now relax about the bank. There's something strange happened there.

3290
09:33:04.239 --> 09:33:04.519
And this.

3291
09:33:06.000 --> 09:33:08.239
Often happens, and been doing this work.

3292
09:33:10.400 --> 09:33:18.720
In sixteen years or something, and often one surprised, amazed

3293
09:33:18.760 --> 09:33:19.239
really that.

3294
09:33:21.680 --> 09:33:22.720
It can be a feeling.

3295
09:33:24.199 --> 09:33:26.160
So, when I was focusing on.

3296
09:33:26.199 --> 09:33:30.199
The back of the neck, my op back was starting

3297
09:33:30.279 --> 09:33:34.040
to feel quite stressed and in need of attention.

3298
09:33:36.480 --> 09:33:38.800
As soon as I started talking.

3299
09:33:38.519 --> 09:33:44.199
To you about my upper back and talking about getting

3300
09:33:44.239 --> 09:33:49.000
ready to ask the other back to relax, why the

3301
09:33:49.080 --> 09:33:54.680
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

3302
09:33:54.839 --> 09:34:05.080
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs engine, just

3303
09:34:05.279 --> 09:34:06.480
needs to be noticed.

3304
09:34:15.400 --> 09:34:21.959
That is something that often happens in this type of situation.

3305
09:34:23.160 --> 09:34:28.440
Is when you start to la a couple of parts

3306
09:34:28.480 --> 09:34:33.160
of your body, as we've done with our hands, the

3307
09:34:33.400 --> 09:34:34.800
eyes that eye.

3308
09:34:34.680 --> 09:34:43.400
Its and now back of the neck, talk of the

3309
09:34:43.480 --> 09:34:46.199
bag up the bag.

3310
09:34:47.519 --> 09:34:51.519
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

3311
09:34:54.239 --> 09:34:58.800
and decide in its own way to start.

3312
09:34:59.760 --> 09:35:00.599
Yeah, as.

3313
09:35:02.279 --> 09:35:07.720
Are the parts of your body start to just become looser.

3314
09:35:12.480 --> 09:35:15.279
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche.

3315
09:35:15.440 --> 09:35:20.360
You know, a little ball starts rolling and before you know,

3316
09:35:20.680 --> 09:35:23.879
the whole of your body is completely relaxed and cold.

3317
09:35:33.080 --> 09:35:40.680
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3318
09:35:40.720 --> 09:35:49.040
your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles.

3319
09:35:49.040 --> 09:35:56.519
Around your eyes. Maybe you start to notice that.

3320
09:35:58.239 --> 09:36:03.720
Beforehead is more al so it was, Maybe your face

3321
09:36:03.879 --> 09:36:04.800
is more relaxed.

3322
09:36:07.480 --> 09:36:11.239
I would say, my entire face is a lot more

3323
09:36:11.319 --> 09:36:12.440
relaxed than it was.

3324
09:36:23.720 --> 09:36:29.160
So I'm going to focus now on your shoulders. It

3325
09:36:29.279 --> 09:36:33.040
came just like before. Just tell your shoulders.

3326
09:36:34.440 --> 09:36:36.360
You can't do them in the digitally. You can do

3327
09:36:36.519 --> 09:36:40.599
the right shoulder and this shoulder. I just can't do

3328
09:36:40.720 --> 09:36:41.879
both at the same time.

3329
09:36:43.879 --> 09:36:47.120
Just tell your shoulders and you focus on them in

3330
09:36:47.199 --> 09:36:50.599
your mind, focus on how you feel.

3331
09:36:51.360 --> 09:36:55.680
Maybe you can see them in your mind's eye.

3332
09:36:59.239 --> 09:36:59.839
Just tell your.

3333
09:37:04.199 --> 09:37:05.360
To relax.

3334
09:37:42.480 --> 09:37:55.559
As nice as the relax I didn't make this.

3335
09:37:58.360 --> 09:37:59.720
Specially my back.

3336
09:38:02.160 --> 09:38:09.279
Is the connection between the different parts the bank, the shoulders.

3337
09:38:08.639 --> 09:38:09.400
The neck.

3338
09:38:14.720 --> 09:38:19.120
Being more connected and being such a large part of

3339
09:38:19.199 --> 09:38:24.839
your body, it's as hard to separate.

3340
09:38:24.440 --> 09:38:25.519
Them from each other.

3341
09:38:31.000 --> 09:38:33.559
And when luller back is starting to relax.

3342
09:38:33.239 --> 09:38:34.040
On the same.

3343
09:38:40.040 --> 09:38:44.879
Think you're going too slow, and that could be an.

3344
09:38:44.800 --> 09:38:52.800
Issue because we will go different speeds. And the idea

3345
09:38:52.839 --> 09:38:55.319
of beginning of this recording.

3346
09:38:54.919 --> 09:38:57.040
Was for you to be able to just say.

3347
09:38:56.919 --> 09:39:11.319
To yourself, HM relates without focusing on.

3348
09:39:11.519 --> 09:39:17.080
Any particular part of the body. Because when you know

3349
09:39:17.319 --> 09:39:31.040
that telling your hands to relax, your hands relates, you tell.

3350
09:39:30.879 --> 09:39:37.559
Your eyelids, your eyes and muscles around.

3351
09:39:37.239 --> 09:39:54.239
Your eyes and your eyebrows to relax until back of

3352
09:39:54.360 --> 09:40:14.319
your neck to relax until you're out back.

3353
09:40:31.720 --> 09:40:42.319
Dins until you shoulders.

3354
09:40:44.000 --> 09:41:21.279
Night, and tell your hands to race.

3355
09:41:22.080 --> 09:41:24.080
And last to.

3356
09:41:33.080 --> 09:41:34.199
Told your eyes.

3357
09:41:36.639 --> 09:41:41.599
The muscles n your eyes the money grows to rats.

3358
09:41:43.639 --> 09:41:44.559
And the last.

3359
09:41:48.160 --> 09:41:59.559
To wake the back of your neck.

3360
09:42:01.160 --> 09:42:02.279
So that your man.

3361
09:42:06.160 --> 09:42:07.360
Hold it to the nights.

3362
09:42:11.959 --> 09:42:28.279
Last two nuts he told you about back.

3363
09:42:31.599 --> 09:42:32.599
To the lights.

3364
09:42:34.239 --> 09:42:36.879
In the lights feteen.

3365
09:42:39.000 --> 09:42:39.680
Two lights.

3366
09:42:48.000 --> 09:42:53.839
That's what you shoulders, So you shoulders to lights.

3367
09:42:57.839 --> 09:43:00.480
L m HM.

3368
09:43:05.519 --> 09:43:19.760
Two nights. And it's not just that, it's but the

3369
09:43:19.839 --> 09:43:20.800
rest of your body.

3370
09:43:21.800 --> 09:43:24.199
It's all saying lessly.

3371
09:43:25.800 --> 09:43:32.959
Never reaxation was go spreading the eyes to the axation

3372
09:43:33.120 --> 09:43:34.080
and spread.

3373
09:43:33.879 --> 09:43:34.959
To buy him.

3374
09:43:37.639 --> 09:43:38.239
The lud.

3375
09:43:38.319 --> 09:43:53.360
Your face that's been skin. It's got the points inside

3376
09:43:53.480 --> 09:44:07.319
of the neck, down your chest and stiles and shoes.

3377
09:44:09.360 --> 09:44:10.000
It's up.

3378
09:44:24.720 --> 09:44:33.760
To back.

3379
09:44:37.080 --> 09:45:33.720
Its let's start to te the snow.

3380
09:45:47.400 --> 09:45:48.800
And she didn't.

3381
09:45:50.680 --> 09:46:22.519
Known it. Stop ussle.

3382
09:46:26.000 --> 09:46:44.080
M h, stop.

3383
09:46:50.319 --> 09:47:34.559
Its s yous me