May 18, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | LMBYTS #1354 | 16th May 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name

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is you all need rub hands together, that's my nickname.

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My name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when

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you can safely close short eyes. And this is let

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me boy to sleep. And today it is Q and

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A Friday. Yes it's a little bit late, a little

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bit late, but I'll be busy day busy. So before

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I go on, I'll just give you a little update

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on what's been going on this week. Wow, I think

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the Actually I did go to do a recording on Wednesday,

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but I just gave up because I didn't I wasn't

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in the mood. So I kind of did about twenty

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minutes and I just turned it off. I did want

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on Tuesday, didn't do one Thursday. So yeah, done a

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little bit less than normal this week. But I have

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been very busy with my website. I've been working on

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my website, not just the website as far as what

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it looks like on a laptop or a tablet, but

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also adapting it for mobile phones to make sure it

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works correctly. So I've changed a few things. If you've

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been on there recently or you know, if you say

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a couple of weeks ago. I think you'll if you

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go back, you'll see it's very different. It's just nicer.

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It looks nicer. So I've got the podcasts which is

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in the index, and they're all listed, but there's images

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of the podcast and you just click on the podcast

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and that takes you to the all the latest recordings.

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Or if you want to find out where my podcasts

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are on the various different apps, just click on podcast apps.

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I've got Audible boring myself already, that's quick. There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Apple,

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Amazon Music podcast App, cast Box, Deser, Luminary Podcast, Republic Player,

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FM Podcast, Addict, podcast Index, pod Chaser, pod Friend, pod Verse, Podbean, Spreaker, Spotify,

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and SoundCloud. Basically alphabetical order really from top top to bottom.

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Apart from it's not all actually it's just the a's

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at the top and the s's are at the bottom.

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But other than that, it's yeah, it's kind of alphabetical.

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And again they're all got images. So before it was

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just text, did you clicked on? This is images now,

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So if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example, and

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then it gives you a list of all the different

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podcasts and then you can click on, let's say, for example,

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let me Boil your Pain Away, and that takes you

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to let Me Boy Pain Away on Apple podcasts. It's

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just a different way of doing it. It might be

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a useful thing. So if you if you're on cast

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Box and you don't know where my let Me Boy

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to Sleep podcast is, you just click on podcast apps,

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go down, click on cast Box, click on let Me

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Boy to Sleep, and it brings you to the let

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Me Boy to Sleep podcast on cast Box. So it's yeah,

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it's kind of I think it's easy to use other

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than net. I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists.

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So at the moment, I've got four four different podcasts

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that I've been working on. So let Me Boy to Sleep. Okay,

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there's a few changes on it. Oh okay, so let

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Me Boy to Sleep. The infrastrate is built for these,

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but they're not all updated yet. Let Me Boy Sleep,

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Deep Sleep, whisper Hypnosis, relaxing Sleep hypnosis Daily and Relaxation

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of stress and panic attacks. So with these, so let's say,

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for example, you click on playlists and then you can

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click on let Me Boy to Sleep. It gives you

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six different options without music, with music, five hours without music,

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five hours with music, ten hours without music, ten hours

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with music. At the moment, I'm working on the ones

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without music, because I think the first thousand of the

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let Me Boy You to Sleep ones are without music,

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although I might remedy that. So if you click on

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let me boardy Sleep, you click on without music, and

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then you've got all the way up from one to

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fifty again is it images? So it's not just text anymore.

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Just makes it a little bit easier visually to you know,

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manipulate and to maneuver to I don't know what's another

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word for that, navigate, And it goes down to the

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last one is thirteen hundred and fifty one to fourteen hundred.

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Only one the one to fifty is on there at

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the moment, and you click on that and that will

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take you to the podcast, and it's exactly the same

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as when you go onto the homepage. You can download,

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you can stream, you can save it for yourself. It

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tells you how big the file is, tells you how

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long the recording is. So yeah, and there's all fifty

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on there. That's it. So I'm quite pleased with that.

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It's taken a lot of hours to put this together.

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It may not seem like much, but it's taken a

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long time because I've been to get it so it

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works fine on the phone for the images and everything

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to be together and to be the same size, and

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it's taken a bit of code code work, as it were.

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So I'm going to have a break from the website

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today and do this recording now, and I'm probably not

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gonna bother with the website. I probably will, actually, but

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I'm probably, yeah, I'm gonna not get The problem is

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if I could finish a sentence. That's one of the

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things I've got problems with the problem is I struggled

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to stop doing something once I start, especially move that

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metal thing, keep banging it on my desk. Once I

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start doing these things, for example, working on the podcast apps,

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there's so much to do. There's a lot of it's

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quite intricate in a sense of you know, I don't matter.

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Some of it is just copy paste, but it's remembering

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where to paste and what to change, and changing sizes

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of images and pasting in the link to the podcast,

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you know, and making it all kind of a line

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with each other. So it's quite a lot involved in it.

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I'm pretty please for how it's working out so far.

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I've got a few other ideas what i want to

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do as well, to make it a little bit easier

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to a gate around the website. In some ways, you

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could say I've turned my website into an app kind

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of in a way now kind of because you know

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you've got the homepage. It's just the website basically the podcast.

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But if you click on podcasts, then it gives you

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all the different podcasts. Then you can choose one you

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want to say, for example, relax, let's say stop smoking.

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Click on that. Okay, that's not a good example because

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that link's not done yet. That's not a good example either,

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So I'll ask podcasts. Yeah, okay, so you can go

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directly to the podcast blame me, or if you want

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to go to the playlists, you know, the all the

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different types. Again you click on there, let me boydy

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sleep with music about music whatever. So yeah, it seems

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happy if that's such a word. So I'll get on

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the recording. And not a lot going on. I've just

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been working on this. Got a letter, I got a letter,

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let me I like to read you ab out my

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letters to sever Look, oh, read you my latest letters.

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What's this way? Your Income Related Employment and Support Allowance

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ESA payments will end, So it ends on the first

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five.

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Will end.

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They sent me this on the second of May. I

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didn't get it till about three days ago. How it

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takes so long to get here, I'll never know. I mean,

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it's coming all the way from Wolverhampton. So unless they

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sent it on the back of a donkey.

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And.

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We've received your Universal credit you see claim, and we

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sent a plane to drop off any planes. Your final

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payment of the essay covers the period first of the

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fifth to the fourteenth of the fifth. So m I

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I honestly I think I've had my last payment, which

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means I've got wow, two weeks, two weeks. But then

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I've got another letter. This is from the Council, the council,

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City Council. This letter, it doesn't have a die sixth

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of May. This letter is important, Dearness the New Land.

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This letter is important. You must read all of it carefully,

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and you must inform this office immediately if your circumstances change.

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Go to blah blah blah blah blah dot blah blah blah.

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The Department for Work and Pensions had advis us here's

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something all right, Okay, this is the first year I

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noticed because always looked for month, just like if there's

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any kind of financial thing on there, as in with

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pound signs, because it's just gives just it's the first

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thing I notice really of the additional award mentioned above.

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So the department Oh okay, the Department for Work and

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Pensions has advised us that you have started claiming Universal

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Credit and that you qualify for an additional two weeks

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extension of your housing benefit known as Transition to Uce

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Housing payment of the additional award mentioned above, one hundred

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and sixty eight pound ninety has been recovered against previously

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notified overpayment over payment. How how is it own over payment?

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Then it says if you are worried about paying your

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rent bills or living expenses, here you can help. If

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you are struggling to find your to pay your bills

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for any reason, speak to the Financial Equality and Well

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Being Teams today. Okay, so you know this. Suddenly you

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owe this money and then it's been recovered. So I

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was like confused about that, like what's going on? So

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then it says another one another letter. Dear mister Newland,

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this letter is also important. You must also read all

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of this carefully and you must inform blah blah blah

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blah so you claim. For you to claim for benefit

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has been looked at because managing managed migration to Universal

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credits successfully and your benefit has been stopped from the

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first of May twenty twenty five. So pretty much I think.

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Oh no, I think it's the eighth of June before

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I get paid. Oh, I'm confused. The housing costs will

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now be paid within your Universal Credit award. Please contact

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your work coach if you have any changes or the

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costs are incorrect. If you are ad vont lah blah

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blah blah blah blah, as your intitement has ended, any

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overpayments which were previously overpaid or recovered or blah blah

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blah via deductions from the housing benefit payment will now

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end as such, if you have any outstanding over there's

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like too much information, and then it says here you

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have been overpaid one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety housand.

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Benefit of this overpayment one hundred and sixty eight pound

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ninety is non recoverable and therefore only the balance of

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zero will be recovered. Does anyone understand what that means?

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Any ideas anyone? I really don't. You have been overpaid

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one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. Housing benefit of

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this overpayment on hundred and sixty eight pound ninety is

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non recoverable, and therefore only the balance of zero will

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be recovered. I get from that that there's nothing to pay.

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They've written it off. But have they written it off?

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Because worded very strangely, the reason for the overpayment is

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managed migration, which has been calculated as follows, from the

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first of the fifth, twenty twenty five to the twelve

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of the fifth, twenty twenty five one week and four

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days old award one hundred and seven pounds forty eight

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new awards zero weekly amount overpaid one hundred and seven

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pound forty eight. Total amount overpaid one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety. It doesn't make sense. I don't understand it.

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I know one hundred and seven pounds that's the rent

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for a week. Your repayment will be accepted without prejudice

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to any further action if you are It doesn't make

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the way they've worded it is so I'm gonna say

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of two because I don't know what that means. But

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I heard someone say it once on a video in

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about nineteen eighty two. I think it was a Steve

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Martin movie. Oh so, I don't know. Confusing, very confusing, right,

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t WDDD. They've also they have agreed to pay my

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rent directly to the housing benefit and they've also agreed

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to pay me every two weeks from the eighth of

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I think it's the eighth of June, and they'll let

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me know on the fourth of June what I'm getting.

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So is going to be an interesting period and next

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a couple of weeks. So I'll find out Wednesday, on

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the twenty first, whether or not. Wow, that's fine. I'm

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just going to go around. I'm going to have to start

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collecting the money people lone me and I go around.

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Oh you know all that money that I'll be lending

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you over the last ten years, and you thought that

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you didn't have to pay it back. When you see

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this baseball back in my hand, you do have to

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pay it back. Okay, right back to seriousness. Any questions

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for this Friday? So let's have a look. Oh toda

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Vin he started barking like prop up and it sounds

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like someone was at my door, and I went nothing,

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there he's barking again. It really sounds like someone was

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pushing on the door, the front door. So I just

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went out as I do, just just like I wonder

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what's going on. There's a pigeon. Someone's left the back

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door open downstairs. It's come up, flying basically bashing into

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each window trying to get out, poor little thing. So

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I got a hammer, I got my boast. For all that,

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I just I thought, what am I going to do?

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So this has happened before, it's not the first time,

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so I didn't have a towel, but I did have

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like a T shirt. So I've got a T shirt,

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not the one I was wearing, it's a different T shirt.

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And I was trying to check it over the pigeon.

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sized pigeon. In fact, there might be a dove and

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I was trying to check it over it but it

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wasn't going over. The pigeon was just moving its head

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and just knocking it off and just looking at me.

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And then when I went down it flew off again

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and smashed against the window. In the end, it just

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it let it, let me pick it up, and actually

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wrapped his or her I think it's a girl, actually

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wrapped her hands or her fingers around my fingers, and

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I was stroking her and just carrying it, carried it downstairs,

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and for a little while she was just standing on

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my hand, just looking around, and I was just talking

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to her, and then I started telling her a story.

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I thought i'd tell her about the chip shop that

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used to work in. Then she was off, but yeah,

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just went into the tree. I think it's probably a

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relative of Horrace, maybe his girlfriend. I'm going to say

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probably his daughter to be fair, because she's quite young.

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He's been around for ten years since I moved in, right.

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So other than that, anything else that's happened, I can't

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think of anything even mildly interesting. Well, it's never going

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to be anything interested, but it's not a lot gone on.

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Uh ah. A neighbor just phoned me up while I

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was doing this recording, asking me if I had any antidepressants.

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He's like Solita prim or whatever they are, and I said, no,

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don't have those that medication. I said, I've got a

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few spare on my own, but you won't want to

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take my medication. It's a different medication and it's you know,

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shouldn't mix that stuff. Plus it takes it takes quite

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a few weeks to kick in the older floors a team.

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So Maria, first question, Hi Jason, how long ago did

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you last visit Thailand? How long did you stay and

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did you enjoy the food there. I don't think I

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ate any of the food there, to be honest. I

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just ate normal food, human food. I didn't. I mean,

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for one, I was not going to eat the street food.

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And it's smelled amazing, but I was not going to

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eat the street food. Just food is. I wouldn't eat

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street food in this country, so I'm definitely not going

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to eat street food abroad. Yeah, when I went, it

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was kind of during the COVID Between the COVID God

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just said the words sorry. That period like twenty twenty one,

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I think it was. So they even though we were

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pretty much we were in lockdown here, they were in

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lockdown there, not not to the point of banning anyone visiting,

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but you had to wear masks in every shop, had to.

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I mean people were wearing masks in the street. It

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was you know, it was pretty full on. Had to

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had to have your blood, your temperature done before entering

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any any places, any establishments, had to do that and

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hand wash everywhere. So it was it was a very

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step it was. It was. Yeah, it was a bit

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of a weird time and a lot of the restaurants

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were closed. A lot of everything was closed when I

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went there, actually, so I stayed in a like a

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hotel place. Luckily when I stayed, I stayed in this place,

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which was a sports bar. Loads of TVs all around

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the place, including two outside. Remember I watched the boxing.

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That was cool. And they had food there, so I

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ate every day there and it was really burgers and

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stuff like that. To be honest with you, you know,

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I wasn't very I wasn't very creative with my food choices.

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But they were catering for Westerners, well Westerners and Australians,

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mainly Australians. It was an Australian bar run by Australian

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people and other than me, I think everyone in all

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the customers were Australian that were like staying living there

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and would visit as well. So it's a very I mean,

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there was a few people that weren't Australian. All the

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staff other than the owners, the staff weren't Australian. But

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there's the they wouldn't be allowed to work there. In Thailand,

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you have to be tied to work in most jobs,

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actually most. I've done a little bit of research into that,

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and you can if you've got a share in a place,

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you can work, but you can't take a tied job.

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So technically, if you've got forty you know, forty nine

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percent share in a restaurant, you're working a restaurant. You're

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not You're not taking someone else's job because it's your business,

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isn't it, or its fifty business. So that's when I visited.

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It's quite a long time ago. It wasn't long. I'd

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I had.

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I had a chest infection, so it's just I can't remember.

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It was over two weeks, two and a bit weeks,

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and I came back. I was there for two days.

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I think it's getting vague, to be honest. It was

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a bit of a non event. Really, it wasn't. It wasn't. Really.

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What I didn't realize is that's it. You made it

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one nice, please, brilliant thanks.

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Too.

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That's a weird one. He has absolutely destroyed this bag

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which had his treating chewy chicken twists. Right, he's destroyed it.

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It's empty and he's destroyed it. I gave him that

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bag when it had one left in it, and he

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just looked at it for a boat an hour and

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a half. So you destroy it and rip it open

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when there's nothing in it, but when it's something in it,

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you won't even attempt to open it. What's weird and

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that's strange behavior. Yeah, it wasn't wasn't the right time.

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It wasn't really the right time for me to go. Really.

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I just I just got like a rebate, a benefit

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rebate actually from from a previous year is something that

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I should have got paid and I wasn't, and I

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decided just to I had to get away from it.

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Things are just difficult living here for you know, and

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I basically turned into a care in some ways. I

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My friend always said to me, I'm care and I said, no,

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I'm not your care. But it did I think emotionally

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I was, you know, I just constantly worried about him,

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just for years, for years and years. So I needed

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to get away and you know, I gave him a

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little bit of money as well. When I got that money,

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paid off my debts and went away, I did the

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older gave a load of food out to people that

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were home well, that were hungry. So that was that

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was the highlight for me. That was, you could say,

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almost the highlight of my life. He is handing out

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hundreds of black meals and whatever it was. I can't

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remember how many it was, but I did it two

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days in a row, and it was kind of the

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best thing I've ever done or feeling why. It's just

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felt amazing. So it's worth it for that, And I

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know I could have I could have done the same

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thing here. It's you know, I don't know. Just for

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some reason, I wanted to go to a Buddhist country.

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Wanted to see how what Buddhist people like are people

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that were born into Buddhism, not just but in this country.

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You know, it's something that there are people born into

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it in this country, but there if they're Westerners, then

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the people their parents probably weren't born into it and

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they they've just raised their kids in that kind of way.

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But to be to live in a country where everybody

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going back many many, many many years. You know, all

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born as Buddhists, all raised as Buddhists. I just found

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that an interesting thing to be around. And I could

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see the difference, could see the difference in the mentality.

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There might not have been anything to do with the religion,

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but and most of them didn't practice the religion anyway,

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but you know, they it was the foundation of their

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belief system, was the foundation of their culture, which I

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just found it interesting. So enjoy the food. Probably the

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best food I had when I was there was apple

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pie and ice cream. Yeah, that was nice. So the

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cook in the that bar, it was a bar, but

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it was also like hotel as well, the sports bar.

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The cook in now, I got ridly well with her,

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and she would she made sure she got lots of

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pies in for me so I could have an apple

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pie and ice cream after my meals. And I had

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a cook breakfast every morning and also so I basically ate.

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I'd eat twice a day there, so i'd eat breakfast,

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cook breakfast, then i'd have when I was out, i'd

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probably see if I could get something maybe in McDonald's

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or I'm trying to think, just to have a look

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around see if there's other places. Some places I went.

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I went in one place which was it was terrible.

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It was really bad. It was I think it's called

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the Nag's Head, and apparently it used to be owned

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by Kevin Keegan. That's what they said because pictures of

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him on the on the wall that was Kevin Keegan

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was like a superstar footballer in the early eighties in

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the UK, well worldwide as well, I think, and he

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had curly hair stopped. I'd say it's not relevant, but

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it was because it was the fashion back then. The

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amount of people, the amount of boys that were getting

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their hair curled permed to look like Kevin Keegan because

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he was a superstar footballer. So I went in there

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and I think that it was a it was a

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cooked breakfast, and I think it was some beans, an

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egg which I'm not sure what kind of egg. It was,

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some bacon that did not look like bacon, and some

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sausages the type that I give Anny like, they're not sausages,

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they're those bendy rubbery ones.

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I just.

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I mean, I'm pretty sure they just didn't have any

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food in possibly was the only customer they'd had for

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a while, so I just I said thanks and I

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yeah left. Well I ate it first, but I ate

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some of it. It wasn't wasn't great. I did go

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to a Thai restaurant, a pizza yeah, So yeah, I

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don't think I had even one bit of typhood the

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whole time I was there.

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Yeah.

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I have had typhood. I've had it in this country,

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but I didn't have anyone kind of because you know,

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back when I was in London, i'd go on dates

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and the some of the people that I'd go on

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dates with, they'd be much more open culturally to new things.

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And because you can pretty much eat any food from

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anywhere in the world in London, like any type of food.

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So you know, I've been in Vietnam, are Vietnamese, I've

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been Entai, I've been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever, lots

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of different places, and there's always I always felt that

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pressure to kind of be involved. You know, two show

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that I'm open minded and I ordered something without knowing

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what it is. Sometimes I deeply regret it, and as

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I got older, I just thought, you know what, no,

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if I go into a Chinese restaurant, I probably am

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going to order an omelet and chips, or an omelet

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and fried rice, egg fried rice. You know, I know

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what I like, and that's what I like. I like omelets,

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and yeah, I'm sure that Sure, the typhoond's amazing. I

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mean people, I mean, some people go to Thailand for

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the tayphood. It's the thing they look forward to most

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because I guess it's the most authentic typhood you're going

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to get. It's like the most authentic any food you're

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going to get is in the country of origin. I imagine.

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I'm sure if you want to the best burger, then

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you have to go to where the first I don't

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even know, America. Is that where the burgers come from.

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Or if you want the first mushy pea, you want

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the best mushy peas, you've got to go up north.

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Or if you want the best fried mars bar, you've

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got to go up north. Or if you want the

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best fish and chips, probably gotta go up north, or

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maybe Scotland or or I don't know, but you Uk.

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I imagine for fish and chips, probably the best fish

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and chips you'll get in the world will probably be

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in this country. It might I might be wrong. It's

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just because it's our heritage. It's our you know, goes

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back centuries. I don't know if that's true or not.

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Right.

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Kathleen asks me, I've got a lot of questions to

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get through, just letting you know that it's loads. I'm

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kind of surprised at how is that.

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One?

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Two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight nine. There's nine,

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but there's thirteen comments, so I'm not quite sure. Okay,

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one's got one with one's got three replies, so there's

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nine questions. The next one is from Kathleen, A couple

472
00:38:08.760 --> 00:38:13.679
of questions, JJ or love in his flop it? Here?

473
00:38:14.920 --> 00:38:19.480
Is he able to straighten it? Always floppy? He can?

474
00:38:19.760 --> 00:38:27.599
He can straighten it sometimes if he's I'm trying to think, oh,

475
00:38:27.639 --> 00:38:30.920
I'm just doing them straightening my hands to show you

476
00:38:31.400 --> 00:38:34.000
the ears not being floppy. But you can't see that,

477
00:38:34.079 --> 00:38:39.800
can you? When there's a sound got his attention. His

478
00:38:39.960 --> 00:38:43.400
ears do stick up, both of them. But I saw

479
00:38:43.440 --> 00:38:48.039
a picture of his mummy and his mummy also had

480
00:38:48.039 --> 00:38:51.760
a floppy ear. I said, look, I've got it on here.

481
00:38:52.000 --> 00:38:58.719
I think I've got it on here unless I haven't. Sometimes,

482
00:39:00.239 --> 00:39:09.760
h if I've got any pictures of Vinnie, right, Okay,

483
00:39:09.840 --> 00:39:13.320
that's I've got a picture of Vinnie when he was

484
00:39:13.360 --> 00:39:17.079
a baby on here. I'm pretty sure there's a picture

485
00:39:17.079 --> 00:39:33.480
of him with his mummy, like his you know, birth mummy. Uh.

486
00:39:33.679 --> 00:39:44.960
He's so cute when he was a baby, I do.

487
00:39:45.119 --> 00:39:49.559
That's something that I kind of wish that I had. Oh,

488
00:39:49.599 --> 00:39:52.840
there's a little cute. He's in a cage. I never

489
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.400
liked the idea of put them dogs in cages. Never

490
00:39:55.519 --> 00:40:00.719
been something i've I don't know. It's something about being

491
00:40:00.760 --> 00:40:05.920
in a cage, I guess, but he's I mean, it

492
00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:07.800
can be for their own safety anyway. I can't out.

493
00:40:07.880 --> 00:40:11.880
But he's in this cage, which is probably I guess,

494
00:40:12.000 --> 00:40:17.119
was there prepared for multiple puppies, and he was the

495
00:40:17.159 --> 00:40:22.000
only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got

496
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:26.400
his little hands in the air, and he's tiny, you know,

497
00:40:26.599 --> 00:40:32.519
absolutely tiny, and doesn't I don't have a date on this.

498
00:40:35.559 --> 00:40:37.519
I got a date when it was sent fortieth of

499
00:40:37.639 --> 00:41:00.079
January twenty twenty three. January twenty twenty three, really, no,

500
00:41:00.159 --> 00:41:03.519
two thousand January too fair, No, wouldn't have sent it

501
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:09.679
to me in twenty twenty three. That's her date. Isn't it?

502
00:41:10.039 --> 00:41:18.880
What's my date? Wasn't January twenty twenty three? I didn't

503
00:41:18.880 --> 00:41:22.639
even know jury January twenty twenty three. I didn't get

504
00:41:22.719 --> 00:41:41.400
him till I'm losing track of time twoenty twenty three.

505
00:41:41.679 --> 00:41:46.519
But I thought I got him in November twenty twenty three,

506
00:41:46.760 --> 00:41:54.639
but I didn't do that. I got him. I got

507
00:41:54.719 --> 00:42:09.559
him in twenty twenty two, November twenty twenty two, twenty

508
00:42:09.639 --> 00:42:18.000
twenty two, Stop it, mate, don't be bucking twenty twenty two,

509
00:42:18.039 --> 00:42:23.239
twenty twenty two. So November twenty twenty two, November twenty

510
00:42:23.320 --> 00:42:28.440
twenty three, November twoenty twenty four, it was December, wasn't it?

511
00:42:29.679 --> 00:42:38.199
Twoenty twenty three, twenty four? Two years and like five months?

512
00:42:38.199 --> 00:42:42.679
Four months, five months. So yeah, so I got him

513
00:42:42.719 --> 00:42:48.480
in December twenty twenty three and twenty twenty two, so

514
00:42:48.519 --> 00:42:50.719
she must have sent me those pictures yet in the

515
00:42:50.840 --> 00:42:55.639
January Okay, yeah, Oh that just threw me off for

516
00:42:55.639 --> 00:42:58.840
a second. Then there's a picture of him with his

517
00:42:59.039 --> 00:43:07.760
mummy somewhere. Yeah, I just can't find it unless it's

518
00:43:07.880 --> 00:43:11.280
on the laptop, which it could be. Let's have a

519
00:43:11.320 --> 00:43:19.199
look to look, So look at my lap, torp lap trp. Oh,

520
00:43:19.280 --> 00:43:28.599
Vinnie's found another fly Vinnie, Vinnie, Vinny vin vin Nnnnnie. Oh,

521
00:43:28.639 --> 00:43:33.440
I don't know where Vinie Vinni Venni Veni Annie Vinnie

522
00:43:33.480 --> 00:43:40.079
venn I any any Vinny somebab in Vinnie my new

523
00:43:40.199 --> 00:43:48.119
set up with Vinnie. Vinnie at mummy's note, knows that

524
00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:58.760
his baby Vinnie. No, I can't fight it. It's here, somewhere,

525
00:44:00.159 --> 00:44:04.199
It's here somewhere. I've got a picture of Logi Logi

526
00:44:04.320 --> 00:44:13.039
Vinnie last stayed together. Oh, I've got the limage. LOGI

527
00:44:13.119 --> 00:44:16.840
don't care. He's just there, Just chill down. Then he's

528
00:44:16.840 --> 00:44:22.960
looking at me, he's looking at his watch. How much

529
00:44:23.000 --> 00:44:26.239
longer we got before? If we get rid of him,

530
00:44:27.280 --> 00:44:29.880
I said, you're missing. When he's when he's moved out,

531
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:32.440
you're missing. I won't. I want my house back. I

532
00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:36.079
want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinnie.

533
00:44:36.159 --> 00:44:40.079
It's not your bed, it's my bed. Okay, I want

534
00:44:40.119 --> 00:44:50.800
our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, yes,

535
00:44:50.920 --> 00:44:55.840
he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy is biological.

536
00:44:55.920 --> 00:45:00.320
Mum had to flopy here as well. Don't I about

537
00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:11.199
his dad? Oh ITCHI bum the both his parents had

538
00:45:11.320 --> 00:45:15.519
were red, but he was the only one that was

539
00:45:15.559 --> 00:45:17.199
red all over. I mean, he's got a little bit

540
00:45:17.199 --> 00:45:19.440
of white on his belly and a little bit on

541
00:45:19.480 --> 00:45:22.199
his neck, but he's pretty much and he's on his

542
00:45:22.360 --> 00:45:27.480
He's got a little couple of little little socks, little

543
00:45:27.519 --> 00:45:30.760
white socks on other than that, and gloves, but he's

544
00:45:30.800 --> 00:45:41.559
pretty much red all over. He knows I'm talking about him,

545
00:45:41.719 --> 00:45:46.159
probably because I just keep saying his name, Vinnie, Vinnie, Minnie.

546
00:45:48.320 --> 00:45:51.480
Will you be getting a new bathroom like your neighbors,

547
00:45:52.960 --> 00:46:05.159
cheers Kathleen. M it looks like no, so my neighbor's downstairs.

548
00:46:05.400 --> 00:46:13.079
To be fair, there was a a There was a

549
00:46:13.159 --> 00:46:16.960
reason why she got a new bathroom because she needed it.

550
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:20.960
Wasn't because she needed a new bathroom as in the

551
00:46:21.000 --> 00:46:27.159
old one was too old. It was it was I

552
00:46:27.159 --> 00:46:29.519
don't know how to word it, but it was something

553
00:46:29.559 --> 00:46:32.880
that was required, if you know what I mean. So

554
00:46:32.920 --> 00:46:35.840
it wasn't something that they just got round to doing,

555
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:38.800
because it was time. It was needed to be done.

556
00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:42.320
She and my neighbor down stays to get a kitchen,

557
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:46.320
and that was basically due to time. It was time

558
00:46:46.360 --> 00:46:51.760
to redo them. My neighbor opposite has had his kitchen done,

559
00:46:52.400 --> 00:46:56.159
he's having his bathroom done, and he's having his windows done.

560
00:46:56.400 --> 00:46:59.480
And when they came round to he knew. He's known

561
00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:02.760
about the wind for a few months. He's just waiting

562
00:47:02.760 --> 00:47:04.239
to sort of find out when they're going to come

563
00:47:04.239 --> 00:47:06.400
and do them. But he didn't know about the bathroom

564
00:47:06.440 --> 00:47:08.199
until the other day when they came to measure up.

565
00:47:10.119 --> 00:47:14.840
So but he's he's lived there for thirty odd years

566
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:18.119
and he's never had anything new at all the whole

567
00:47:18.119 --> 00:47:18.960
time he's been there.

568
00:47:19.519 --> 00:47:20.559
So you know.

569
00:47:22.039 --> 00:47:27.400
It is, I really don't know, don't doesn't I asked

570
00:47:27.480 --> 00:47:31.360
the council. I saw the counsel lady, the late a

571
00:47:31.440 --> 00:47:35.400
lady from the council on Wednesday. They came round to

572
00:47:35.519 --> 00:47:39.559
check the bathroom downstairs to make sure it was all

573
00:47:40.000 --> 00:47:45.559
all okay and sign it off, and a little word

574
00:47:45.599 --> 00:47:50.320
with the lady and said, when am I going to

575
00:47:50.400 --> 00:47:52.719
have one? I cut a few onions firstfere I went

576
00:47:52.760 --> 00:47:58.039
down there and just to so I can cry and

577
00:47:58.079 --> 00:47:58.920
see him upset.

578
00:48:00.039 --> 00:48:00.320
Mhm.

579
00:48:01.159 --> 00:48:02.960
Here's a little clue though, if you're going to do

580
00:48:03.079 --> 00:48:09.599
that before going up to someone, and you know, cut

581
00:48:09.679 --> 00:48:13.320
up onions in order to cry to in order to

582
00:48:13.599 --> 00:48:20.159
get the older emotions going with the other person. If

583
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:22.639
you're going to shake their hand, put the onions down first.

584
00:48:24.440 --> 00:48:32.480
That's all I'm want to say. And Tammy asks, can

585
00:48:32.599 --> 00:48:36.400
hypnosis be in effected to all in reshaping our subconscious patterns?

586
00:48:36.760 --> 00:48:41.079
Don't know next, I don't know. That's that's a that's

587
00:48:41.159 --> 00:48:51.719
a hard question. And I'll tell you what I tell you.

588
00:48:51.800 --> 00:48:59.320
The biggest thing, just based on my studies, the biggest

589
00:48:59.320 --> 00:49:03.599
thing that affect excess, let's say unconscious, I call it

590
00:49:03.639 --> 00:49:11.639
unconscious with subconscious unconscious patterning is our conscious mind. What

591
00:49:11.679 --> 00:49:20.519
we do, what we listen to, what we think, our experiences,

592
00:49:20.599 --> 00:49:26.239
stuff like that is what shapes us. Reshaping doing something different,

593
00:49:26.320 --> 00:49:34.960
thinking differently on purpose purposefully. So, for example, if someone

594
00:49:35.119 --> 00:49:41.320
was constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking about something different,

595
00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:47.679
because we get what we think about, you know, we

596
00:49:48.239 --> 00:49:55.360
become what we think about because we're basically it's kind

597
00:49:55.360 --> 00:49:58.760
of weird. I've seen all these different angles, all these

598
00:49:58.800 --> 00:50:01.639
different things, and it all kind of points to the

599
00:50:01.679 --> 00:50:07.719
same thing, to the same conclusion, and that is that

600
00:50:07.840 --> 00:50:16.519
our thoughts are so powerful on ourselves. It's almost like

601
00:50:19.719 --> 00:50:24.559
what we consciously think, what you purposefully think, not what

602
00:50:24.679 --> 00:50:31.519
you think automatically. What you purposely think affects your brain,

603
00:50:32.199 --> 00:50:38.280
affects your body, affects your let's say, unconscious mind affects

604
00:50:38.360 --> 00:50:47.039
those automatic thinking processes. Now none of that might have

605
00:50:47.079 --> 00:50:55.000
made any sense, not even to me, but I kind

606
00:50:55.000 --> 00:50:59.320
of I'm starting to look at hypnosis in a different

607
00:50:59.320 --> 00:51:02.280
way to help. I used to look at it, and

608
00:51:07.360 --> 00:51:20.840
belief expectations is almost is so important. Just generally, what

609
00:51:20.880 --> 00:51:26.079
we expect to happen has a huge effect on what

610
00:51:26.159 --> 00:51:33.760
does happen, how we expect to feel. You know, someone

611
00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:42.000
that it's just proven so many times and experiments. It's

612
00:51:42.039 --> 00:51:46.039
just like when I was seventeen, I mentioned this a

613
00:51:46.119 --> 00:51:49.079
few a couple of weeks ago, went to a party.

614
00:51:49.119 --> 00:51:51.679
It was held it's at the chip shop, but we

615
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:57.800
went to my boss's house and we were drinking. They

616
00:51:57.840 --> 00:52:00.599
gave me They all were in on it. They gave

617
00:52:00.679 --> 00:52:04.880
me non alcoholic lager. So every time I went to

618
00:52:04.880 --> 00:52:06.639
get a can that no, no, I'll get it for you.

619
00:52:07.400 --> 00:52:10.920
I thought they would just be nice. But they were

620
00:52:10.920 --> 00:52:14.480
all in on it, and they were laughing when I

621
00:52:14.519 --> 00:52:16.320
was talking, so I thought I was also being funny.

622
00:52:17.320 --> 00:52:27.400
So you know, I got drunk and there was no difference,

623
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:32.639
but not being drunk before there was no difference. There

624
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:38.119
really wasn't any difference between drinking alcohol and not drinking

625
00:52:38.159 --> 00:52:42.880
alcohol because I thought I was drinking alcohol and all

626
00:52:42.920 --> 00:52:47.000
those chemicals in my brain kicked off. They just did

627
00:52:47.039 --> 00:52:51.559
their thing, and I was expecting to feel a certain way,

628
00:52:51.639 --> 00:52:56.840
and I felt that way. Now, good chance is if

629
00:52:56.840 --> 00:53:00.679
they hadn't told me, I, I may well gone home.

630
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.480
I may well have been ill. I may well have

631
00:53:03.519 --> 00:53:08.440
woken up with her with her hangover. That's how powerful

632
00:53:09.239 --> 00:53:13.320
belief is when you believe that something's you know, you

633
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:19.719
believe that non alcoholic lager was alcoholic lager. You know,

634
00:53:20.159 --> 00:53:24.320
it's just I mean, that was quite a good thing

635
00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:28.360
to happen. In one way, it was horrible, horribly embarrassing

636
00:53:28.559 --> 00:53:34.960
and quite I think it's a great cruel thing to do, actually,

637
00:53:35.119 --> 00:53:42.960
to be honest, But hey, but it was a learning experience.

638
00:53:43.800 --> 00:53:50.079
And when you think that was forty years ago, thirty

639
00:53:50.119 --> 00:53:57.519
eight years ago, I mean, it's kind of crazy, is it?

640
00:53:57.760 --> 00:54:01.880
Thirty eight years on? All different things I've learned since

641
00:54:01.920 --> 00:54:08.519
then comes back to that is belief. And with all

642
00:54:08.559 --> 00:54:11.400
the religious stuff that I've kind of studied and I've

643
00:54:11.440 --> 00:54:16.519
been interested in religion, different religions since I was a kid.

644
00:54:16.639 --> 00:54:21.639
I don't know why, just it wasn't so much interested

645
00:54:21.719 --> 00:54:33.159
in the specifics of the religion or the rules. I

646
00:54:33.239 --> 00:54:37.719
was fascinated by why people did it. I was fascinated

647
00:54:37.960 --> 00:54:41.159
and had I still an't really I understand it a

648
00:54:41.159 --> 00:54:43.760
little bit more now than I used to, I think,

649
00:54:44.679 --> 00:54:51.480
but just fascinated how why. Well I kind of understand

650
00:54:51.599 --> 00:54:59.519
why people need religion, but I can there's like two

651
00:54:59.679 --> 00:55:04.559
sides to it because I've seen the damage like from

652
00:55:04.559 --> 00:55:06.920
a I don't want to say damage, but how someone

653
00:55:06.920 --> 00:55:10.760
can turn it to be in a negative. So I

654
00:55:10.840 --> 00:55:18.719
knew someone that was they lost someone close to them.

655
00:55:18.840 --> 00:55:23.199
That person's gone to heaven. Good good thing, you know.

656
00:55:23.239 --> 00:55:26.880
That's a kind of a positive way to deal with it.

657
00:55:27.239 --> 00:55:32.159
They're gone to heaven. They're happy now, they're now, they're

658
00:55:32.199 --> 00:55:35.760
not suffering anymore. That kind of I know it's cliche stuff,

659
00:55:35.800 --> 00:55:41.000
but it was. It's got to be helpful. It can't

660
00:55:41.039 --> 00:55:46.199
not be really can It's like, so, Okay, I'm going

661
00:55:46.280 --> 00:55:50.519
to see them again soon. That's nice. So it's not

662
00:55:50.559 --> 00:55:52.800
the last time you ever see them. So there's that belief.

663
00:55:53.519 --> 00:55:58.679
It can be comforting, but then that belief turned for

664
00:55:58.719 --> 00:56:03.519
this one person I'm thinking about, turned into I want

665
00:56:03.519 --> 00:56:13.440
to be with them now, and it's like no, and

666
00:56:13.920 --> 00:56:16.400
they tried to be with them now as it were,

667
00:56:17.079 --> 00:56:23.800
this is a few years ago, and well it's really hard.

668
00:56:23.840 --> 00:56:25.719
So what do you do with that? It's like, okay, well,

669
00:56:26.719 --> 00:56:30.360
if you didn't believe in that belief system, that religious

670
00:56:30.360 --> 00:56:33.920
belief system, then you wouldn't be doing that because you

671
00:56:33.960 --> 00:56:35.519
wouldn't be trying to be with them. If you didn't

672
00:56:35.519 --> 00:56:39.599
believe you could be with them, you'd perhaps just have

673
00:56:39.760 --> 00:56:44.960
to find a way to move on with your life.

674
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:49.639
So yeah, it's it's a complicated thing. But I've just

675
00:56:49.719 --> 00:56:52.400
seen some of the things that people do. A lot

676
00:56:52.400 --> 00:56:54.079
of it's been on the news, to be fair, but

677
00:56:56.440 --> 00:57:03.559
based on belief, based on their expectations of what's going

678
00:57:03.599 --> 00:57:08.679
to happen to them or if they're going to be rewarded,

679
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:14.559
even if it's doing a non good thing. I'm keeping

680
00:57:14.599 --> 00:57:28.039
this very vague. So it's really powerful if you take

681
00:57:28.239 --> 00:57:33.760
anyone you having the chance to raise a child is

682
00:57:33.800 --> 00:57:36.559
a chance to raise your own little angel, or your

683
00:57:36.559 --> 00:57:40.880
own little monster, or your own little confused creature that

684
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:47.320
doesn't know what I mean. I just don't think individual

685
00:57:47.440 --> 00:57:53.119
human beings necessarily always. I know I wouldn't. I wouldn't

686
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:56.559
have the capacity to raise a child in a way

687
00:57:56.639 --> 00:58:00.719
that they needed to be raised. I don't think. I mean,

688
00:58:00.760 --> 00:58:04.360
some people do have that, some people like me probably don't.

689
00:58:04.960 --> 00:58:12.199
I don't think I'm patient enough. But it's really weird

690
00:58:12.280 --> 00:58:21.800
to just think how much you can forge a child's

691
00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:26.079
brain and their mind by the stuff you say, by

692
00:58:26.079 --> 00:58:28.159
what they see you do, what they hear you say,

693
00:58:28.639 --> 00:58:34.159
the behavior, your belief structure, what you tell them things

694
00:58:34.280 --> 00:58:37.800
like as fact when it's just an opinion, and they

695
00:58:37.840 --> 00:58:40.960
believe it, and they will literally do anything to back

696
00:58:41.079 --> 00:58:46.239
up because you've said it, so therefore it's true. And

697
00:58:46.320 --> 00:58:50.320
I've seen that in action. And I had a friend

698
00:58:50.360 --> 00:58:55.719
that and I told his mum this, I said, you

699
00:58:55.760 --> 00:59:00.679
know what, I'm my friend who passed away funder. I

700
00:59:00.719 --> 00:59:04.719
told his mum, do you realize that he believed every

701
00:59:04.760 --> 00:59:08.199
single thing you said to him? And she laughed, and

702
00:59:08.239 --> 00:59:11.920
I said, serious, if you came in here now and

703
00:59:12.000 --> 00:59:15.679
told everyone okay, if you okay, not now, but if

704
00:59:15.719 --> 00:59:25.079
you told him on a Tuesday, that was a Thursday,

705
00:59:25.239 --> 00:59:28.599
he would stick to that. He says a Thursday. My

706
00:59:28.679 --> 00:59:31.559
mom said it's a Thursday, So it's a Thursday. Even

707
00:59:31.599 --> 00:59:35.920
if everyone's walking around with T shirts on saying it's

708
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:40.840
Tuesday and the TV comes on saying we're celebrating Tuesday

709
00:59:40.920 --> 00:59:47.519
Day today, he would just completely ignore that factual information

710
00:59:48.199 --> 00:59:51.800
because his mom said it was Thursday, and he wouldn't

711
00:59:51.800 --> 01:00:00.000
back down, not for anything. I've never had that connection

712
01:00:00.199 --> 01:00:07.079
with anyone to believe what they say. So I've heard

713
01:00:07.199 --> 01:00:11.320
so much bs ever since I was born, so much

714
01:00:11.480 --> 01:00:19.440
just silly stuff, that I realized that nobody is going

715
01:00:19.519 --> 01:00:23.320
to be telling the truth the whole time because a

716
01:00:23.320 --> 01:00:24.920
lot of it is just made up. A lot of

717
01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:28.280
it is It might be truthful to them, but it

718
01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:33.760
might be someone else's lie and opinions and all that stuff.

719
01:00:33.800 --> 01:00:38.119
So I think I've benefited in a way from not

720
01:00:38.199 --> 01:00:42.559
being in that sort of stuck structure of I believe this,

721
01:00:44.480 --> 01:00:47.119
and I'm never going to change how I think I

722
01:00:47.199 --> 01:00:52.800
believe this, or I kind of don't have that. I

723
01:00:52.800 --> 01:00:54.480
think life would be a lot easier if I did

724
01:00:54.800 --> 01:00:57.840
to be fair. I've said to be fair three times now,

725
01:00:58.519 --> 01:01:03.920
to be honest. I don't like to be honest, and

726
01:01:04.039 --> 01:01:07.320
I've kind of moved away, probably from what you were asking.

727
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:09.440
So what's my favorite ice cream?

728
01:01:09.480 --> 01:01:09.840
Okay?

729
01:01:10.599 --> 01:01:19.079
It is? I like, no, everything we do, this is

730
01:01:19.119 --> 01:01:30.159
my little belief Everything we do affects us, whether it's

731
01:01:30.239 --> 01:01:35.480
our belief system, whether it's and our beliefs. I mean,

732
01:01:35.559 --> 01:01:41.400
some people's it's hard for their belief system to change,

733
01:01:41.800 --> 01:01:44.920
but I've seen my belief systems change in like an instant.

734
01:01:46.599 --> 01:01:55.639
One example is, Okay, I have a real issue with motorbikes.

735
01:01:56.400 --> 01:01:59.000
Just this, just the sound of them, that's all it is.

736
01:01:59.320 --> 01:02:04.159
I don't like loud sounds, never have done, probably never

737
01:02:04.199 --> 01:02:08.920
will do. Maybe I've got a theory of what that is,

738
01:02:08.960 --> 01:02:13.000
but it's it's it's just part of my brain. I can't.

739
01:02:13.039 --> 01:02:16.360
I can't deal with loud, really loud sounds. I don't

740
01:02:16.360 --> 01:02:20.360
even have loud music on, you know. I have it

741
01:02:20.400 --> 01:02:23.519
on loud enough so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't.

742
01:02:23.639 --> 01:02:25.599
I don't even like to put it on louder. If

743
01:02:25.599 --> 01:02:28.320
I have to cover up noise in the garden because

744
01:02:28.360 --> 01:02:34.559
it's too loud for me, then so, because I got

745
01:02:34.599 --> 01:02:38.159
an issue, if I see a motorbike revin I go

746
01:02:38.239 --> 01:02:45.800
into that little angry mode, my little angry smurf pops up.

747
01:02:48.239 --> 01:02:50.840
It's like, how could you be so inconsiderate to me?

748
01:02:52.079 --> 01:02:54.039
Even when they don't even know I exist? You know,

749
01:02:54.199 --> 01:02:56.000
not the smurf. I'm talking about the person on the bike.

750
01:02:57.599 --> 01:03:03.199
So I'm thinking, and I'm walking past, I'm just like,

751
01:03:04.840 --> 01:03:09.119
and then I hear we coming from that direction. I

752
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:12.159
look over, puts his visor up, and it's someone that

753
01:03:12.199 --> 01:03:19.639
I see regularly who walks his dog. Instantly, that belief, Okay,

754
01:03:19.679 --> 01:03:22.079
not the whole belief about bikes and noise hasn't changed,

755
01:03:22.119 --> 01:03:24.199
because I still have an issue with noise, but the

756
01:03:24.239 --> 01:03:31.320
emotions connected to motorbikes seem to have eased, definitely eased

757
01:03:31.360 --> 01:03:37.719
in that moment anyway, which showed that the if it

758
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:45.480
can bend, If a belief system can bend quite easily

759
01:03:45.559 --> 01:03:51.000
and be molded and sort of curved around quite easily,

760
01:03:52.360 --> 01:03:57.880
be manipulated and maneuvered, I'm trying to think of clever words,

761
01:03:58.599 --> 01:04:06.119
then it's not really it's yeah, if it can be.

762
01:04:07.719 --> 01:04:12.719
If it's not that tightly structured so it can be

763
01:04:12.840 --> 01:04:22.559
moved and changed so easily, says Vinnie's Flappy years, then

764
01:04:22.599 --> 01:04:25.320
it's not very strong, is it? That belief? That belief

765
01:04:25.360 --> 01:04:34.920
is not a very strong belief if it can almost

766
01:04:35.000 --> 01:04:42.000
transform instantly. It was never a strong belief. There was

767
01:04:42.039 --> 01:04:46.840
never a really however strong the emotions were at times,

768
01:04:48.679 --> 01:04:57.400
wasn't connected to a particularly strong foundation. M M, yes,

769
01:05:00.880 --> 01:05:04.320
so yeah, I probably can't. I can't answer your question

770
01:05:04.480 --> 01:05:07.559
in a way that I may Maybe you'd like to

771
01:05:07.599 --> 01:05:10.760
hear me answer it again. I can only assume on

772
01:05:10.800 --> 01:05:13.280
that one. I don't know, but I can't answer it

773
01:05:13.280 --> 01:05:16.639
in a way that you would get in a textbook

774
01:05:18.079 --> 01:05:22.039
or in a way that makes any cognitive sense. Probably,

775
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:29.880
I'm just trying to explain from my perspective kind of

776
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:34.320
how I map it out in front of me, going

777
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:39.559
to like rituals. You got rituals, so you've got things

778
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:45.199
like I know you go go far back. Okay, take

779
01:05:45.199 --> 01:05:49.480
a breath, now go from a religious point of view

780
01:05:49.960 --> 01:05:56.360
this country. Things like Christianity aren't from this country. You know,

781
01:05:57.199 --> 01:06:05.159
They're not from Africa, They're not from America. Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism,

782
01:06:05.559 --> 01:06:10.239
none of these religions are from the countries you know

783
01:06:13.440 --> 01:06:19.239
are probably most of the people listening. So if you

784
01:06:19.280 --> 01:06:24.760
go back to your original country belief systems, if you're

785
01:06:24.760 --> 01:06:29.079
in Australia, or if you're in Canada, if you're in America,

786
01:06:29.920 --> 01:06:37.639
if you're in England, in Scotland, in Wales, it's different.

787
01:06:37.800 --> 01:06:44.000
It's a completely different belief structure that we came from originally.

788
01:06:44.559 --> 01:06:46.960
Although I'm forty eight percent Irish, I don't know if

789
01:06:46.960 --> 01:06:51.760
I've mentioned that. So my ancestors, my ancestors were like

790
01:06:51.760 --> 01:06:57.840
pretty much Irish, so that would be Celtic. And there

791
01:06:57.920 --> 01:07:00.400
was a lot of ritual and it goes back to

792
01:07:00.480 --> 01:07:06.400
almost worshiping the sun and the wind and the trees.

793
01:07:06.599 --> 01:07:09.760
And I don't know, I'll make part of that up,

794
01:07:13.920 --> 01:07:20.280
but there's that belief system. You know, people I guess

795
01:07:20.400 --> 01:07:25.280
like carrying a rabbit's foot or believe in something's good

796
01:07:25.400 --> 01:07:33.840
luck because it is for them, no matter how ridiculous

797
01:07:33.840 --> 01:07:40.440
it seems to everyone else. I've seen people that are superstitious,

798
01:07:41.280 --> 01:07:45.239
and I think nearly everyone i've seen it's superstitious in

799
01:07:45.239 --> 01:07:51.559
a working environment as successful. I've seen that a few times,

800
01:07:52.119 --> 01:07:55.800
and they've been successful. They're actually good. And you mess

801
01:07:55.880 --> 01:08:00.920
with their superstitious thing, whether it's they might have a

802
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:07.199
picture of their their daughter on the thing, so if

803
01:08:07.199 --> 01:08:11.039
you draw a mustache on their daughter, photograph. This is

804
01:08:11.119 --> 01:08:17.680
their day up. Whether they're superstitious or not, I suppose,

805
01:08:19.039 --> 01:08:25.800
but if they lose the the the thing that they

806
01:08:26.000 --> 01:08:29.119
have as a I guess kind of like a talisman

807
01:08:29.239 --> 01:08:42.479
or whatever. So you know, it's it's belief, and I

808
01:08:42.520 --> 01:08:48.159
think next to that belief expectations. When you believe something,

809
01:08:48.239 --> 01:08:51.600
then you expect something. I think you kind of need both.

810
01:08:53.119 --> 01:08:55.760
When you got both together, it makes a very strong

811
01:08:56.680 --> 01:09:03.520
super strong. So for example, there was a time when

812
01:09:03.560 --> 01:09:08.800
I was confident going out, confident that I would be

813
01:09:08.800 --> 01:09:16.279
able to talk confidently to ladies. Yes, it's twenty twenty

814
01:09:16.319 --> 01:09:20.960
five years ago, so it's a while back. But I

815
01:09:21.000 --> 01:09:24.439
felt confident and I had that belief, but it wasn't

816
01:09:24.600 --> 01:09:28.119
just it was belief. So the expectations were based on

817
01:09:28.199 --> 01:09:32.640
my belief. But also that belief was based on previous experience.

818
01:09:34.039 --> 01:09:36.960
So all the previous experience and all the new experience

819
01:09:37.119 --> 01:09:47.439
was kind of backing up that belief, confirming it. New evidence,

820
01:09:48.800 --> 01:09:53.279
more evidence to confirm it. But I was ignoring the

821
01:09:53.520 --> 01:10:01.439
evidence that was confirming otherwise because that's what I focused on.

822
01:10:03.039 --> 01:10:05.640
So I was you know, that wasn't all I was doing.

823
01:10:05.680 --> 01:10:07.560
I'm just saying, I've just had a period when I

824
01:10:07.680 --> 01:10:19.079
was fairly confident. Didn't last long. Three hours. Yeah, so

825
01:10:19.239 --> 01:10:26.239
I don't know. I probably haven't answered your question our

826
01:10:26.359 --> 01:10:40.640
subconscious patterns. We can change what we think about by

827
01:10:40.920 --> 01:10:48.600
just thinking on purpose. Sometimes it is that instead of

828
01:10:48.720 --> 01:10:51.119
just allowing I mean, it's something to be said for

829
01:10:51.199 --> 01:10:53.800
allowing thoughts to come and go, and that's a kind

830
01:10:53.840 --> 01:10:58.199
of meditation in itself. But when you're doing that, you're

831
01:10:58.199 --> 01:11:05.560
not holding onto them, following the thoughts. So in a meditation, if,

832
01:11:05.720 --> 01:11:12.920
for example, you just sit and just breathe always made

833
01:11:12.960 --> 01:11:17.399
me laugh every time the meditation leader would say, don't

834
01:11:17.399 --> 01:11:25.680
forget to breathe. I've never once forgotten to breathe. It's like,

835
01:11:25.760 --> 01:11:32.239
you know, swimming. People you're going swimming, don't forget to swim. Really,

836
01:11:33.479 --> 01:11:42.239
don't forget to keep above the water. Okay, Oh, don't

837
01:11:42.279 --> 01:11:47.720
forget to eat. I've never forgotten to eat anyway, so

838
01:11:50.000 --> 01:11:53.319
on a recent show. So there's I could go on

839
01:11:53.359 --> 01:11:55.199
and on about that all day long, and it probably

840
01:11:55.199 --> 01:12:08.800
wouldn't make any more sense. Possibly, but there's something to

841
01:12:08.840 --> 01:12:14.039
be said for just sitting down allowing your thoughts to

842
01:12:14.159 --> 01:12:17.479
just come, but don't follow the thoughts. You will follow them.

843
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:20.479
But once you once you notice you're kind of focusing

844
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:30.560
on something, let it go and then just just allow

845
01:12:30.640 --> 01:12:33.680
the thoughts to come and go. And then when you

846
01:12:33.760 --> 01:12:41.560
notice yourself focusing on something, let it go again. And

847
01:12:41.600 --> 01:12:44.680
it's kind of a good way to I mean, it's

848
01:12:44.960 --> 01:12:47.239
it's a similar thing if you want to find out

849
01:12:47.600 --> 01:12:51.399
if you're going to buy take over a restaurant or

850
01:12:51.520 --> 01:12:57.520
let's say it's a fast food place or a chip shop.

851
01:12:58.119 --> 01:13:01.039
Yeah it's a chip shop, and you want to find

852
01:13:01.039 --> 01:13:04.279
out the kind of customers you're going to get. You

853
01:13:04.319 --> 01:13:06.000
want to find out what it's going to be, like,

854
01:13:06.079 --> 01:13:11.119
what kind of foot traffic you're going to get. Then

855
01:13:12.600 --> 01:13:14.520
you sit in the window and look out. You're sitting

856
01:13:14.560 --> 01:13:22.680
there and watch, and the longer you sit, the more

857
01:13:22.680 --> 01:13:24.680
of an idea you're going to get of what's going on.

858
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:29.800
And you start seeing patterns. Oh, that bloke's coming, he

859
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:38.640
comes in every Tuesday and every Thursday. Oh he's always

860
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:41.760
got yogurt on his head. You know, just things like that,

861
01:13:42.279 --> 01:13:47.520
and it can be it could be quite interesting to

862
01:13:47.600 --> 01:13:55.399
see the to see to notice what you're thinking without

863
01:13:55.439 --> 01:14:02.239
adding anything, without getting into an internal dialogue or being imaginative,

864
01:14:03.640 --> 01:14:09.000
which can also be fun. I suppose. I don't know

865
01:14:09.039 --> 01:14:13.079
if I've answered that. Jonathan, on a recent show, you

866
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:15.960
mentioned a disability of yours but didn't refer to what

867
01:14:16.039 --> 01:14:19.760
it was, and also implied that you maybe don't drive.

868
01:14:20.000 --> 01:14:27.479
But curious about both of these. Well, that's the thing

869
01:14:27.520 --> 01:14:31.000
with these recordings. I've mentioned it a few times, but

870
01:14:31.079 --> 01:14:34.640
I know that sometimes if people fall asleep or whatever,

871
01:14:34.680 --> 01:14:37.079
they just you're not going to hear what I've talked about.

872
01:14:37.479 --> 01:14:40.359
But I don't know if I'll mentioned it too much.

873
01:14:40.399 --> 01:14:46.920
But yeah, I have a I've got bipolar effective disorder

874
01:14:47.039 --> 01:14:54.600
and which is classed as a disability with me and

875
01:14:59.520 --> 01:15:04.840
eu PDS an emotionally unstable personality disorder. So they are

876
01:15:04.880 --> 01:15:10.439
the two things. It's like mental mental stuff. That's my disability.

877
01:15:11.399 --> 01:15:17.680
I haven't got any physical disabilities, but I do have

878
01:15:17.720 --> 01:15:23.039
a disability bus pass. I do come like an old pensioner.

879
01:15:23.079 --> 01:15:30.479
Now I do not allowed to drive because of the

880
01:15:30.560 --> 01:15:40.079
medication I'm on because it causes drowsiness and the d

881
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:43.399
d W what is it called, the d LP PL

882
01:15:43.600 --> 01:15:51.680
DAL whatever d w L the driving people driving, I

883
01:15:51.680 --> 01:15:55.840
forget the name of the company, the driving place. Yeah,

884
01:15:55.840 --> 01:16:00.479
they didn't ban me like in a way of like

885
01:16:00.560 --> 01:16:04.159
banning me for drink driving or whatever or speeding. They

886
01:16:04.239 --> 01:16:06.079
just banned me from driving. They said, you're not allowed

887
01:16:06.079 --> 01:16:10.880
to drive. This was quite a few years ago. However,

888
01:16:11.800 --> 01:16:18.800
I don't drive. I can't drive, so it's one of

889
01:16:18.840 --> 01:16:25.399
those weird things. When I first got my bus pass,

890
01:16:25.560 --> 01:16:31.199
I had to go to the driving place and get

891
01:16:31.279 --> 01:16:34.920
proof about me not being able to drive. That's the

892
01:16:34.960 --> 01:16:38.239
only reason they would give me a bus pass. So

893
01:16:38.279 --> 01:16:40.800
I just went scott let from the doctor just to

894
01:16:40.800 --> 01:16:44.239
tell them what I was, my situation, and they banned me.

895
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:50.119
It's like wow, but yeah, I don't know quite it

896
01:16:50.239 --> 01:16:53.119
causes drowsiness to medications. I think it's probably more to

897
01:16:53.159 --> 01:16:59.319
do with that than my my road rage potential. I

898
01:16:59.319 --> 01:17:02.119
don't know. Yeah, I don't know what kind of driver

899
01:17:02.159 --> 01:17:04.760
I would be, but yeah, I don't drive. Never driven.

900
01:17:05.479 --> 01:17:09.720
I've had two sets of driving lessons, one in London

901
01:17:09.880 --> 01:17:16.800
and one in Ipswich. Period in London nineteen ninety one,

902
01:17:17.359 --> 01:17:20.840
what's the point. I was walking faster than the traffic

903
01:17:20.960 --> 01:17:25.439
was driving. I didn't really see the bigger picture really,

904
01:17:25.600 --> 01:17:29.720
like of driving outside of London. But inside of London

905
01:17:29.760 --> 01:17:33.680
it didn't seem any point. It's why everything was moving

906
01:17:33.720 --> 01:17:37.600
so slowly and you've got cars you have, you can't

907
01:17:37.640 --> 01:17:39.760
even drive, you can't You've got stopped like every two

908
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:43.960
seconds to let cars through because people are parked both

909
01:17:44.000 --> 01:17:47.239
sides of the road, because you're not allowed to park

910
01:17:47.279 --> 01:17:51.920
on the pavement in London, which is I'm glad. That's

911
01:17:51.960 --> 01:17:55.600
one of my big pet peeves, people parking on the pavement.

912
01:17:56.239 --> 01:17:58.680
I don't know what it is. We've got start locally.

913
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:05.159
It's an ambulance they park on the pavement. Anyway, Yeah,

914
01:18:05.199 --> 01:18:07.680
I just got my little pet peeve, people parking on

915
01:18:07.720 --> 01:18:11.000
the pavement. Then you're not allowed to do that in London.

916
01:18:11.840 --> 01:18:14.159
You're not allowed to do it anywhere in this country,

917
01:18:14.279 --> 01:18:19.359
but it's not enforced, but in London it's enforced. So

918
01:18:19.600 --> 01:18:22.880
you literally got to stop and if there's another car coming,

919
01:18:22.920 --> 01:18:24.800
you've got to let them through or they'll let you through.

920
01:18:27.479 --> 01:18:32.479
And yeah, so I just didn't see the point in driving.

921
01:18:34.239 --> 01:18:36.520
Plus I was working whenever I had the money to

922
01:18:36.600 --> 01:18:39.960
pay for driving lessons. I was working too many hours

923
01:18:40.960 --> 01:18:50.760
to have any time to take driving lessons. So that's that,

924
01:18:53.800 --> 01:18:58.000
Joe Anne, not a question. But if you are thinking

925
01:18:58.039 --> 01:19:01.680
about selling merch, I would definitely wear a T shirt

926
01:19:01.760 --> 01:19:04.720
that said I sleep with Jason every night.

927
01:19:05.880 --> 01:19:06.079
Boy.

928
01:19:08.079 --> 01:19:10.760
Tell me says that's shirt I definitely could not wear

929
01:19:10.840 --> 01:19:17.159
to work, and I'm thinking why and then tell me

930
01:19:17.199 --> 01:19:21.239
put someone by the same name in my office so

931
01:19:21.279 --> 01:19:25.119
I don't want to give them ideas. Yeah, that could

932
01:19:25.159 --> 01:19:29.399
get awkward. By the way, I shouldn't be reading you

933
01:19:29.399 --> 01:19:32.359
about what other people have written, because you need to

934
01:19:32.439 --> 01:19:35.680
join the boarding group Jason Newland's boring group. If you

935
01:19:35.720 --> 01:19:37.640
want to see what people have written, you need to

936
01:19:37.760 --> 01:19:42.520
join men. So the next one, Oh, yeah, I've got

937
01:19:42.560 --> 01:19:47.359
to answer that question. Am I sorry? I was thinking

938
01:19:47.399 --> 01:19:51.640
about that. I mean, you know, merch merchandise isn't going

939
01:19:51.720 --> 01:19:56.319
to happen anywhere anytime soon, maybe in the future, unless

940
01:19:56.319 --> 01:20:01.760
you want to just make some yourself. That would be cool.

941
01:20:02.119 --> 01:20:04.960
Maybe put my website at the bottom, my website address,

942
01:20:05.840 --> 01:20:09.680
just otherwise they won't know who you're talking about. Man.

943
01:20:10.760 --> 01:20:14.039
But yeah, I used to have a T shirt with

944
01:20:14.960 --> 01:20:19.960
let me boy to Sleep on it and my website address.

945
01:20:21.079 --> 01:20:24.000
People did actually look they used to look at it.

946
01:20:24.399 --> 01:20:30.359
It was quite a bright picture an image, and I'm

947
01:20:30.399 --> 01:20:31.920
not sure if I had Andrea on there, I might've

948
01:20:31.920 --> 01:20:35.840
had a picture of Andrea on there as well. See

949
01:20:35.840 --> 01:20:38.800
that's the weird thing. I don't think about the future, like,

950
01:20:40.520 --> 01:20:41.960
that's the kind of thing that I should have gotten

951
01:20:42.640 --> 01:20:45.319
and just kept one, isn't it? Because I got it

952
01:20:45.319 --> 01:20:48.960
printed for me, I should have kept one and just

953
01:20:49.039 --> 01:20:54.680
kept it somewhere safe as a kind of keepsake. I

954
01:20:54.760 --> 01:20:59.880
had a T shirt with chronic pain relief on it

955
01:21:00.039 --> 01:21:01.960
of a website. I had another one with free pain

956
01:21:02.079 --> 01:21:05.800
relief back in two thousand and six T shirt. I

957
01:21:05.800 --> 01:21:11.319
remember collecting that and again I just wore it until

958
01:21:11.319 --> 01:21:16.720
it wore out. See what I had? I had a

959
01:21:16.760 --> 01:21:20.119
T shirt in nineteen ninety one and it was a

960
01:21:20.119 --> 01:21:24.920
picture of me. It was in the West End, and

961
01:21:25.199 --> 01:21:30.479
there's this bloke taking photographs. And I mentioned a lot

962
01:21:30.520 --> 01:21:32.880
of people would take a photograph of their loved one,

963
01:21:33.439 --> 01:21:36.399
maybe of their kids, and then having it printed on

964
01:21:36.439 --> 01:21:40.800
a T shirt for them to wear. But I had

965
01:21:40.840 --> 01:21:44.399
a picture of me and I had put it onto

966
01:21:44.439 --> 01:21:46.800
a T shirt and I wore that T shirt of myself.

967
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:51.159
No one ever mentioned it, no one ever said anything.

968
01:21:55.840 --> 01:22:01.479
Maybe it was a baseball bat. Sean. This is a question,

969
01:22:01.720 --> 01:22:06.920
Sean asks me, how are you able to recall dates?

970
01:22:07.039 --> 01:22:11.800
So accurately. I have often been drifted in off and

971
01:22:12.119 --> 01:22:17.199
you'll be talking about something you've seen or that happened

972
01:22:17.199 --> 01:22:19.600
to you in the past, and you seem to be

973
01:22:20.319 --> 01:22:26.079
very accurately recall the specific year it happened. It's quite impressive.

974
01:22:26.520 --> 01:22:31.560
Thank you very much. This question finally being asked after

975
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:36.079
you list the Lion documentary release years in the Disney

976
01:22:36.119 --> 01:22:40.640
Triviury episode. You're able to do it with your stories.

977
01:22:42.720 --> 01:22:45.399
So I start this question again because I've just been

978
01:22:45.720 --> 01:23:11.199
rudely interrupted by three different dogs as someone downstairs shouting

979
01:23:11.279 --> 01:23:17.239
as well. Now brilliant, right here we go, Sean says,

980
01:23:17.239 --> 01:23:19.880
how are you able to record dates so accurately? I've

981
01:23:19.920 --> 01:23:22.359
often been drifted off and you'll be talking about something

982
01:23:22.399 --> 01:23:25.640
you've seen or that happened to you in the past,

983
01:23:26.239 --> 01:23:30.119
and you seem to be very accurately recalling the specific

984
01:23:30.199 --> 01:23:34.399
year it happened. It's quite impressive. I agree, Thank you

985
01:23:34.479 --> 01:23:34.840
very much.

986
01:23:35.800 --> 01:23:36.399
And this.

987
01:23:37.960 --> 01:23:42.479
Question finally being asked after you list the Lion documentary

988
01:23:42.960 --> 01:23:48.960
release years in the tr Disney Trivia episode. You're also

989
01:23:49.039 --> 01:23:51.920
able to do it with your stories too, in X

990
01:23:52.079 --> 01:23:55.560
year this happened, etc. I'm always amazed by your memory

991
01:23:56.159 --> 01:23:59.439
well thank you well. I mean to be fair. Sometimes

992
01:23:59.680 --> 01:24:01.199
I do it the laptop in front of me, so

993
01:24:01.239 --> 01:24:07.279
if I'm looking up stuff. So I don't always remember

994
01:24:07.319 --> 01:24:13.079
every single year, but when it's when it's to do

995
01:24:13.159 --> 01:24:16.680
with my life, not to do my life. I mean,

996
01:24:17.479 --> 01:24:27.039
technically Madonna releasing The Like a Prayer album in nineteen

997
01:24:27.079 --> 01:24:31.279
eighty nine wasn't to do with my life, but it was.

998
01:24:31.560 --> 01:24:37.199
It signified a particular time. Remember listening to it in

999
01:24:37.399 --> 01:24:43.960
France in the France very poor. It might have been Dover,

1000
01:24:44.399 --> 01:24:46.560
even Dover or France, but I think it was France

1001
01:24:47.399 --> 01:24:51.720
and it was Cala I suppose, isn't it. And the

1002
01:24:51.800 --> 01:24:57.199
video The Like a Prayer video was on. But there's

1003
01:24:57.199 --> 01:24:59.000
a few ways I do it. I don't do it

1004
01:24:59.000 --> 01:25:01.920
on purpose. And I had a friend that used to

1005
01:25:01.960 --> 01:25:04.800
keep that used to mock me for it when I'd

1006
01:25:04.840 --> 01:25:07.600
sort of say the year or sometimes the month as well,

1007
01:25:09.000 --> 01:25:10.600
and they'd picked me up on it to the point

1008
01:25:10.640 --> 01:25:14.279
where I felt a little bit self conscious. And I

1009
01:25:14.279 --> 01:25:16.359
don't like feeling it. I don't think anyone likes feeling

1010
01:25:16.359 --> 01:25:21.319
self conscious today. So I kind of felt, oh, and

1011
01:25:23.000 --> 01:25:27.119
like I had to stop doing it. This is with

1012
01:25:27.239 --> 01:25:29.840
someone like in person, you know, and they'd like start

1013
01:25:29.920 --> 01:25:34.239
laughing every time I've mentioned a year. I don't know

1014
01:25:34.239 --> 01:25:38.279
why I do it. I think it's just I don't

1015
01:25:38.319 --> 01:25:42.600
know how I do it. Rather, I think the reason

1016
01:25:42.640 --> 01:25:45.239
I do it is to I'd like to treat it,

1017
01:25:45.279 --> 01:25:52.239
try and be a little bit factual. But also it's

1018
01:25:52.319 --> 01:25:56.000
just me kind of talking out loud. The process, the

1019
01:25:56.039 --> 01:26:02.119
brain process that's going on. I've got my life broken

1020
01:26:02.159 --> 01:26:06.800
into different parts in my memory. Then there's a lot

1021
01:26:06.800 --> 01:26:09.399
of things I don't remember. I mean, I generally don't

1022
01:26:09.439 --> 01:26:14.119
remember much about Thailand. I don't remember much about the

1023
01:26:14.199 --> 01:26:22.079
last few years, last couple of years, or the last

1024
01:26:22.079 --> 01:26:29.920
week or so. There's and that's partly because nothing's going on.

1025
01:26:31.479 --> 01:26:36.760
Because even though I've generally had quite a boring life,

1026
01:26:37.720 --> 01:26:40.279
but at the same time, it wasn't boring, if you

1027
01:26:40.319 --> 01:26:47.600
know what I mean. It was I was constantly on

1028
01:26:47.640 --> 01:26:50.960
the move, constantly moving from place to place, even if

1029
01:26:50.960 --> 01:26:53.079
it was in the same part of town or the

1030
01:26:53.119 --> 01:26:56.880
same part of the country. I'd you know, i'd be

1031
01:26:57.000 --> 01:27:01.319
moving every couple of years, every year, sometimes twice three

1032
01:27:01.359 --> 01:27:06.760
times a year, and I'd be having different jobs, and

1033
01:27:06.800 --> 01:27:10.239
I'd be having different girlfriends, and I'd be different, lots

1034
01:27:10.239 --> 01:27:15.640
of different things happening, and I've got those things kind

1035
01:27:15.640 --> 01:27:22.840
of broken up. So I could list, Yeah, I could

1036
01:27:22.920 --> 01:27:28.800
go by jobs, or i could go by where I've lived.

1037
01:27:29.680 --> 01:27:35.439
I can pretty much. I can't remember the addresses, but

1038
01:27:35.520 --> 01:27:39.840
I can pretty much remember all the moves, and a

1039
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.920
lot of them by date, not day date, but by year,

1040
01:27:43.479 --> 01:27:46.000
and sometimes even by roughly what part of the year

1041
01:27:46.039 --> 01:27:55.159
it was. And then there's jobs. So you know, I

1042
01:27:55.199 --> 01:28:00.800
started working nineteen eighty six in a chip shop, so

1043
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:03.199
that's kind of the start. But if we go all

1044
01:28:03.199 --> 01:28:07.239
the way back to the very start of working, and

1045
01:28:07.560 --> 01:28:14.920
I had a paper round and I worked in the bakehouse,

1046
01:28:15.720 --> 01:28:18.520
which was a restaurant. I worked in a bakery of

1047
01:28:18.600 --> 01:28:23.199
the restaurant at the weekend Saturday and Sunday, I think

1048
01:28:23.239 --> 01:28:29.720
it was it was either five o'clock on a Saturday

1049
01:28:29.960 --> 01:28:32.680
or five o'clock on a Sunday and six o'clock the

1050
01:28:32.720 --> 01:28:38.359
other day. I forget which was which, And I think

1051
01:28:38.359 --> 01:28:41.079
it might have been six o'clock fried at six o'clock

1052
01:28:41.079 --> 01:28:45.920
Saturday five o'clock Sunday, because maybe Sunday was busier day

1053
01:28:46.119 --> 01:28:50.239
because then they've got a little coaches and stuff come to,

1054
01:28:50.520 --> 01:28:55.119
you know, they would come to visit. They wouldn't drive

1055
01:28:55.159 --> 01:28:57.720
into the outual restaurant. They did park and let all

1056
01:28:57.760 --> 01:29:09.640
the people off. You know how coaches work. So I

1057
01:29:09.640 --> 01:29:13.159
I remember that. But then when I've got like memories

1058
01:29:13.159 --> 01:29:17.920
connected to each job, so I remember some of the

1059
01:29:17.920 --> 01:29:22.520
things I did, so if I if I zoom in

1060
01:29:23.039 --> 01:29:29.319
on a job, and maybe it's because I've been I

1061
01:29:29.520 --> 01:29:34.079
focused on myself pretty much the whole time. It means

1062
01:29:34.239 --> 01:29:38.520
some would say it's some would argue it's just me

1063
01:29:38.640 --> 01:29:47.960
being selfish, or me put myself first or whatever. But

1064
01:29:48.000 --> 01:29:52.000
in some ways I kind of had to. There hasn't

1065
01:29:52.119 --> 01:29:58.359
been a safety net really, so I've kind of not that.

1066
01:29:59.079 --> 01:30:02.239
Probably many people have safety in it, but I didn't have.

1067
01:30:02.479 --> 01:30:07.640
I kind of I never really knew what was going

1068
01:30:07.680 --> 01:30:10.039
to happen next, or where I was going to end

1069
01:30:10.119 --> 01:30:12.079
up next, where I was going to work next, where

1070
01:30:12.079 --> 01:30:15.720
I was going to live next. You know it. There's

1071
01:30:15.720 --> 01:30:21.760
always that kind of quite uncertainty in my life. Instability. Definitely,

1072
01:30:22.159 --> 01:30:27.920
I was unstable in lots of different ways. I'm not

1073
01:30:28.640 --> 01:30:30.439
I'm not being a victim. I'm just saying that's just

1074
01:30:30.439 --> 01:30:33.840
how it was. And I didn't seem to know how

1075
01:30:33.880 --> 01:30:38.119
to get out of that. It's almost that that was

1076
01:30:39.960 --> 01:30:45.000
in built. And I guess a lot of that would

1077
01:30:45.000 --> 01:30:47.680
have been because of when I was a little, very little,

1078
01:30:48.039 --> 01:30:52.000
we moved around a lot. I had stability at the

1079
01:30:52.039 --> 01:30:57.680
age of seven to the age of fifteen, I mean

1080
01:30:58.279 --> 01:31:03.279
we still moved. So the AGA one, two, three, three

1081
01:31:03.319 --> 01:31:07.840
times four times, so I still moved four times in

1082
01:31:07.880 --> 01:31:10.760
those years. But there was a period between nine and

1083
01:31:12.319 --> 01:31:17.119
fifteen for six years where I stayed in the same place,

1084
01:31:18.520 --> 01:31:22.920
and until I moved here, that was the longest time

1085
01:31:22.960 --> 01:31:28.760
I ever lived anywhere six years. I've lived in places

1086
01:31:28.760 --> 01:31:32.800
for four years, three years, two years, a year, a

1087
01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:38.279
few months, and so yeah, I've got Sometimes when I

1088
01:31:38.319 --> 01:31:41.960
was younger, and maybe I was my brain was a

1089
01:31:42.000 --> 01:31:49.600
little bit too active to fall asleep. I would recall

1090
01:31:51.319 --> 01:31:56.560
all the different places I lived by year, So I

1091
01:31:56.640 --> 01:31:59.640
mean that's possibly why I remember. I'd recall all the

1092
01:31:59.640 --> 01:32:10.680
different places in order that I worked, and that used

1093
01:32:10.680 --> 01:32:13.479
to send me to sleep sometimes. So and I do

1094
01:32:13.560 --> 01:32:18.840
this in my twenties and my thirties. I don't know

1095
01:32:18.880 --> 01:32:21.079
how many times I moved around when I was very young.

1096
01:32:23.359 --> 01:32:25.119
A lot is going to be the answer to that.

1097
01:32:25.319 --> 01:32:28.439
But I don't know how many. So there's no stability,

1098
01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:35.319
really like proper stability until I was seven. And then

1099
01:32:35.800 --> 01:32:38.239
the stability was there because even though we moved a

1100
01:32:38.239 --> 01:32:40.960
couple of times, it was all of us together, so

1101
01:32:41.039 --> 01:32:49.439
it was it wasn't unstable from that perspective. Yeah, I

1102
01:32:49.439 --> 01:32:53.479
think the only stable thing I had up to the

1103
01:32:53.479 --> 01:33:01.239
age of fourteen whatever was my older brother, the one

1104
01:33:01.359 --> 01:33:03.319
just a bit older than me, because I was with

1105
01:33:03.439 --> 01:33:08.000
him the whole time. We we was in foster care

1106
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:11.199
together for a year and a half or whatever when

1107
01:33:11.239 --> 01:33:15.039
I was six months old till about two, so we

1108
01:33:15.119 --> 01:33:20.279
lived together before that. Then we lived together just you know,

1109
01:33:20.399 --> 01:33:23.319
my older brother always stayed with my nano granddad, and

1110
01:33:23.359 --> 01:33:27.640
then we moved away. We got took away to Newcastle,

1111
01:33:28.159 --> 01:33:30.159
then we lived in the colored children's homes, and then

1112
01:33:30.159 --> 01:33:32.359
we came back and ended up living with my dad.

1113
01:33:32.439 --> 01:33:37.439
And so he was the only real consistent other than

1114
01:33:37.479 --> 01:33:41.159
my older brother, who became consistent in my life from

1115
01:33:41.199 --> 01:33:45.079
the age of and he was there for the first

1116
01:33:45.119 --> 01:33:46.920
six months, but I didn't know anyone did, like at

1117
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:51.520
that point from their I'm sure there was a bond

1118
01:33:51.840 --> 01:33:54.720
six months. I probably would have bonded with him as

1119
01:33:54.760 --> 01:33:58.359
in emotionally known who he was because I see him

1120
01:33:58.359 --> 01:34:03.079
every day, I suppose, but from the age of two onwards,

1121
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:11.239
so for five years from age two to fifteen, so

1122
01:34:11.359 --> 01:34:20.159
it's that thirteen years, so thirteen years and fifteen years,

1123
01:34:20.159 --> 01:34:22.520
so thirteen years of my oldest brother, fifteen years my

1124
01:34:22.560 --> 01:34:25.039
younger brother got my other older brother, but not the

1125
01:34:25.079 --> 01:34:33.279
oldest Other than my dad and my nan, they were

1126
01:34:33.319 --> 01:34:35.760
the only two people. But this is differently because I

1127
01:34:35.800 --> 01:34:41.159
lived with them. I lived with my dad for seven

1128
01:34:41.239 --> 01:34:45.079
to fifteen, and I did live with him a few

1129
01:34:45.119 --> 01:34:51.800
times after that for a short period. I never lived

1130
01:34:51.800 --> 01:34:54.760
with my nan. I just stay over sometimes, but I'd

1131
01:34:54.760 --> 01:35:02.880
never lived with her, but i'd see her regularly, so

1132
01:35:03.000 --> 01:35:05.880
I just I remember, Yeah, I just got these little memories.

1133
01:35:06.039 --> 01:35:11.359
Sometimes I do get modeled up. I do think like,

1134
01:35:11.439 --> 01:35:15.560
oh wait a minute, that's that that was a different year,

1135
01:35:17.359 --> 01:35:20.000
and thinking about something that happened over Christmas, and I'm

1136
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:26.279
thinking that wasn't me, that's someone else's memory. I don't

1137
01:35:26.279 --> 01:35:33.880
remember doing it. I've never flown a plane, weird, so

1138
01:35:35.039 --> 01:35:38.880
I have there's also jobs looking at that, looking at

1139
01:35:39.279 --> 01:35:42.439
the music, so there's connection with the music and the years.

1140
01:35:42.680 --> 01:35:47.319
I don't have that anymore, because I have lost track

1141
01:35:47.359 --> 01:35:51.640
of the music today I have. I feel a little

1142
01:35:51.640 --> 01:35:58.399
bit sad about that, but you know, I just there's

1143
01:35:58.439 --> 01:36:00.600
so many albums that I do listen to, so many

1144
01:36:00.640 --> 01:36:07.319
songs from the past, you know, my favorite song collection.

1145
01:36:07.840 --> 01:36:11.439
There's so many that it would take I reckon. If

1146
01:36:11.439 --> 01:36:14.880
I added continuously added songs that I really like, I

1147
01:36:14.880 --> 01:36:20.720
could sit for possibly twenty four hours, if not more,

1148
01:36:21.319 --> 01:36:27.880
listening to different songs, all of them that I love. Possibly,

1149
01:36:28.920 --> 01:36:32.920
I don't know, I'm kind of making it up. But

1150
01:36:33.039 --> 01:36:36.000
during that period there was a lot of music connected

1151
01:36:36.159 --> 01:36:39.640
so to the times that I remember when I was

1152
01:36:39.640 --> 01:36:42.439
in the chip shop, I used to go in in

1153
01:36:42.439 --> 01:36:51.720
the afternoon, going a bit early because I used to

1154
01:36:51.880 --> 01:36:55.039
enjoy being in there on my own, and I'll be

1155
01:36:55.119 --> 01:37:01.000
preparing the kitchen. Maybe doing this is an early afternoon,

1156
01:37:01.880 --> 01:37:03.239
So I go in a little bit early in the

1157
01:37:03.239 --> 01:37:08.399
afternoon and just take my time. And I don't know

1158
01:37:08.439 --> 01:37:10.199
what it was I was doing, but I was probably

1159
01:37:10.199 --> 01:37:15.039
just getting getting the fryers on, you know, setting up

1160
01:37:15.079 --> 01:37:19.640
for the evening, the evening shift. And I'd listened to

1161
01:37:19.840 --> 01:37:22.640
I had there was a tape recorder downstairs, and I

1162
01:37:22.680 --> 01:37:27.279
had two tapes and they were both the first two

1163
01:37:27.399 --> 01:37:35.560
albums from Madonna. I loved Papa Don't Preach True Blue, Sorry,

1164
01:37:35.560 --> 01:37:40.039
the album True Blue and my two favorite albums Versus

1165
01:37:40.079 --> 01:37:45.039
True Blue and Like a Prayer. They are my two

1166
01:37:45.119 --> 01:37:49.239
favorite Madonna albums. But during that period I quite liked

1167
01:37:49.239 --> 01:37:52.680
the first two albums that she did as well. Holiday

1168
01:37:53.840 --> 01:37:56.960
You can so raged that one subjectly like dancing a

1169
01:37:56.960 --> 01:37:59.560
little bit on my own, and so I remember that.

1170
01:37:59.600 --> 01:38:02.000
And there's other things like when I first moved above

1171
01:38:02.039 --> 01:38:08.279
the chip Shop, I was playing George Michael's first album Faith.

1172
01:38:09.279 --> 01:38:11.560
Was this album Faith? I think it wasn't it? So

1173
01:38:11.600 --> 01:38:15.239
I was playing that album over and over again in

1174
01:38:15.359 --> 01:38:25.399
my kitchen, just little bits, little bits and bobs connected

1175
01:38:25.439 --> 01:38:35.560
to music. The Yeah, I'm trying to give an example.

1176
01:38:35.600 --> 01:38:42.399
Now I can't think of any examples. Yeah, but there's

1177
01:38:42.600 --> 01:38:46.680
there are examples. It is. It's not necessarily going to

1178
01:38:46.720 --> 01:38:50.239
pop up when I wanted to. But if I was,

1179
01:38:51.199 --> 01:38:56.640
for example, I don't know if he was, Like, let's

1180
01:38:56.680 --> 01:39:00.279
focus on the year two thousand and five, straight way,

1181
01:39:01.640 --> 01:39:07.880
Michael Jackson's album History came out, so I would talk

1182
01:39:07.920 --> 01:39:11.279
about that. Was it two thousand and five or two

1183
01:39:11.319 --> 01:39:13.159
thousand and four? I think it was two thousand and five.

1184
01:39:14.680 --> 01:39:16.479
I was definitely listening to it in two thousand and

1185
01:39:16.560 --> 01:39:19.600
five anyway, and then we could say, well that was

1186
01:39:19.640 --> 01:39:24.000
the year. Yeah, it's two thousand and five, and then

1187
01:39:24.039 --> 01:39:28.680
I could say, okay, well I had I had two

1188
01:39:28.760 --> 01:39:34.359
girlfriends that year. I also went and worked at Butlin's.

1189
01:39:36.359 --> 01:39:40.439
And just going back through that year, I can remember

1190
01:39:40.479 --> 01:39:43.760
certain things that happened. I know remember where I was

1191
01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:48.000
living because I was living in one place. Then I

1192
01:39:48.039 --> 01:39:51.239
went to Butlan's. Then I come back and I was homeless,

1193
01:39:51.279 --> 01:39:55.279
didn't have anywhere to stay. But that was pretty much

1194
01:39:55.479 --> 01:40:01.560
the beginning of two thousand and six. So and the

1195
01:40:01.600 --> 01:40:03.840
only reason I went to Buttling's is because we were

1196
01:40:03.840 --> 01:40:07.199
being evicted. So I was evicted from the house. It

1197
01:40:07.319 --> 01:40:09.960
was a council house that my friend was living in

1198
01:40:10.119 --> 01:40:12.720
or council flat wherever it was, and he was being evicted.

1199
01:40:13.560 --> 01:40:18.279
Was it a council I can't remember. He had a

1200
01:40:18.279 --> 01:40:22.399
flat and a house. Anyway, I I had to get

1201
01:40:22.439 --> 01:40:25.720
out of there, so I went and moved. But I

1202
01:40:25.800 --> 01:40:28.800
just went in to the job center, like what am

1203
01:40:28.840 --> 01:40:32.680
I going to do? Because I had no job? What

1204
01:40:32.720 --> 01:40:35.119
am I going to do? It was like literally he

1205
01:40:35.199 --> 01:40:36.880
told me. I think he gave me about a week's

1206
01:40:36.920 --> 01:40:41.439
notice or five days, so we moved. Yeah, we have

1207
01:40:41.520 --> 01:40:46.159
to be out in five days. He knew about it.

1208
01:40:46.359 --> 01:40:51.359
He'd had the viction notice for about a month. So

1209
01:40:51.680 --> 01:40:54.960
I aw, so I went and I managed to. I

1210
01:40:54.960 --> 01:40:58.359
went into a job center and that is big signs.

1211
01:40:58.520 --> 01:41:03.279
Do you want to work at Buttling's? I laughed, but yeah, sure,

1212
01:41:06.600 --> 01:41:09.279
And then I thought I looked around as another jobs,

1213
01:41:09.840 --> 01:41:13.640
so I just well, there's other jobs, but nothing that

1214
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:18.039
offered accommodation. Because that was the problem. It's like, I

1215
01:41:18.239 --> 01:41:26.399
need somewhere to live. And I said to I said, well,

1216
01:41:26.399 --> 01:41:30.800
what's going on with this Buttling's thing? They said, well,

1217
01:41:30.880 --> 01:41:32.560
it's a holiday camp. I said, no, I know what

1218
01:41:32.600 --> 01:41:36.000
it is. They said that, you know, there's music, they

1219
01:41:36.039 --> 01:41:41.319
have families going and have a holiday there. Said I already,

1220
01:41:41.520 --> 01:41:45.800
I'm not asking about the actual camp. So what is

1221
01:41:45.840 --> 01:41:49.000
it your What is it you're offering? I said, we

1222
01:41:49.079 --> 01:41:54.880
offer entertainment variety. There's pubs, there's restaurants, there's a swim pool.

1223
01:41:55.079 --> 01:41:57.840
Was like, no, it's like it was trying to sell

1224
01:41:57.880 --> 01:42:00.439
me a tickets to go going is it?

1225
01:42:00.760 --> 01:42:00.840
Like?

1226
01:42:00.960 --> 01:42:04.199
No? No, wait a minute, what what are you here for?

1227
01:42:04.760 --> 01:42:09.880
He said, I'm getting paid. I work for Buttling's. I said, okay,

1228
01:42:11.319 --> 01:42:13.680
how can I structure this question in a way that

1229
01:42:13.720 --> 01:42:18.119
you're going to understand it? I said, what what's the

1230
01:42:18.119 --> 01:42:21.439
big signs for? He said, that's so that people know

1231
01:42:21.560 --> 01:42:26.720
that we're here, that a bit further away. He didn't

1232
01:42:26.760 --> 01:42:29.479
say that that is just funny. Why the big signs?

1233
01:42:29.479 --> 01:42:31.399
Asked for people who are further away can see it?

1234
01:42:32.239 --> 01:42:36.399
And he said there's jobs. Do you want a job?

1235
01:42:36.640 --> 01:42:39.479
Do you want a job? And I said, I don't know.

1236
01:42:40.239 --> 01:42:43.039
I mean the problem I've got is got nowhere to

1237
01:42:43.079 --> 01:42:46.319
live in five days, and if I do get a job,

1238
01:42:46.600 --> 01:42:48.079
I have to work for a month before I get

1239
01:42:48.079 --> 01:42:51.720
any money. He said, oh, but this is this is

1240
01:42:51.720 --> 01:42:54.720
a good situation. I said why. He said, you don't

1241
01:42:54.760 --> 01:42:58.239
have to sign off because I was temporarily unemployed. Then

1242
01:42:58.760 --> 01:43:00.479
he said you don't have to sign off to do this.

1243
01:43:00.479 --> 01:43:04.880
This is part of the unemployment program. I said really.

1244
01:43:04.960 --> 01:43:10.039
He said yeah. So you go to Buttlings in Bogna Regis,

1245
01:43:10.920 --> 01:43:14.600
you can work, you still get your unemployment, you get

1246
01:43:14.640 --> 01:43:19.880
extra twenty quid on top, you get fed. A's a

1247
01:43:19.920 --> 01:43:23.039
restaurant which you get fed or canteen, get fed three

1248
01:43:23.079 --> 01:43:28.119
times a day, you get a big discount on drinks,

1249
01:43:30.640 --> 01:43:33.640
and you don't have to pay for any accommodation. You

1250
01:43:33.640 --> 01:43:37.239
get accommodation, have to share a bed or bedroom rather sorry,

1251
01:43:37.680 --> 01:43:41.640
with someone else. So there's two people in a not

1252
01:43:41.680 --> 01:43:45.920
a very particularly big room, in fact, probably about the

1253
01:43:45.920 --> 01:43:49.720
size of this room, maybe a little bit smaller than

1254
01:43:49.760 --> 01:43:53.920
this room actually, And I said, I didn't have a

1255
01:43:53.920 --> 01:44:00.359
lot of options at that point. So yeah, so I

1256
01:44:00.359 --> 01:44:02.199
had to fill a form in. I had to do

1257
01:44:02.239 --> 01:44:06.960
a questionnaire and like to test my intelligence. And I

1258
01:44:07.000 --> 01:44:09.760
remember when I handed it in and fireworks went off.

1259
01:44:09.800 --> 01:44:13.239
I said, Wow, you're the most intelligent person we've ever

1260
01:44:13.319 --> 01:44:20.079
seen it. Ever, how come you're not teaching in a university?

1261
01:44:20.159 --> 01:44:27.760
And that didn't happen. So I just thought, he said, well,

1262
01:44:27.760 --> 01:44:30.920
what kind of work can you do? I said, what's available?

1263
01:44:32.960 --> 01:44:35.640
And it kind of broke down what I should what

1264
01:44:35.720 --> 01:44:38.520
I would have done. If I had looked at longer,

1265
01:44:38.840 --> 01:44:44.600
further picture, the bigger picture, the more advanced picture, the future,

1266
01:44:46.000 --> 01:44:48.800
I would have chosen something that I wouldn't have disliked doing.

1267
01:44:50.720 --> 01:44:54.760
But I had experience working in the bar, and they

1268
01:44:54.960 --> 01:44:56.560
saw it as soon as they saw that acts I

1269
01:44:56.560 --> 01:44:59.600
had to film a CV and they said, okay, well

1270
01:44:59.640 --> 01:45:02.640
you can work in a bar. Then I didn't realize

1271
01:45:02.720 --> 01:45:05.840
it was going to be the world's busiest bar. And

1272
01:45:08.079 --> 01:45:10.760
I've never I don't think I could ever work anywhere

1273
01:45:10.800 --> 01:45:14.039
with a bar that busy. And I've been in bars.

1274
01:45:14.600 --> 01:45:20.880
These these were like thousands of people, you know, in

1275
01:45:20.920 --> 01:45:24.760
this massive, massive hall venue.

1276
01:45:25.279 --> 01:45:25.960
There was like.

1277
01:45:26.039 --> 01:45:32.159
Three bars and the show it was a show on

1278
01:45:33.560 --> 01:45:37.199
and there was hundreds of tables, and there's people, families,

1279
01:45:37.239 --> 01:45:41.279
and there was literally it was non stop from the

1280
01:45:41.279 --> 01:45:44.960
beginning of the evening to the end. There was never

1281
01:45:45.319 --> 01:45:46.880
The only breaks we got is when we were allowed

1282
01:45:46.920 --> 01:45:49.800
to have a break. There was no standing around, no waiting.

1283
01:45:50.199 --> 01:45:53.319
It was constant. I mean, the amount of money that

1284
01:45:53.439 --> 01:46:01.880
would have taken would have been huge. So I I said, okay,

1285
01:46:02.520 --> 01:46:06.439
I really I probably should have been better off going

1286
01:46:06.520 --> 01:46:11.640
and doing the cleaning becoming like cleaning the chalets. But

1287
01:46:11.880 --> 01:46:16.319
had a little no I had I wait a minute,

1288
01:46:17.239 --> 01:46:19.960
this is two thousand and five, Yes, I had. I'd

1289
01:46:19.960 --> 01:46:25.199
had a little test of doing that. In nineteen eighty

1290
01:46:25.359 --> 01:46:30.520
nine I cleaned caravans for a little while and it

1291
01:46:30.600 --> 01:46:32.640
was kind of the same process you know, you've got

1292
01:46:32.640 --> 01:46:35.359
a limited to time to do it, and you've got

1293
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:40.159
to it's got to be kind of perfect, and it's

1294
01:46:40.319 --> 01:46:43.479
very hard work. You know, if you ever go anywhere

1295
01:46:43.520 --> 01:46:50.199
that has a chalet or a caravan. I don't know

1296
01:46:50.199 --> 01:46:51.880
what I was I was going to sort of say,

1297
01:46:51.960 --> 01:46:53.840
just think about the people that have to clean it.

1298
01:46:55.000 --> 01:46:58.159
I'm not sure where I'm going with that, but it's hard.

1299
01:46:58.239 --> 01:47:01.920
It's really hard. It's not easy to very difficult job.

1300
01:47:02.880 --> 01:47:08.800
It kind of put me off. Ah, I just had

1301
01:47:08.800 --> 01:47:12.079
an interruption there. There's bark dogs barking, so it sounded

1302
01:47:12.119 --> 01:47:14.520
like someone was knocking on the door, but they wasn't.

1303
01:47:16.079 --> 01:47:19.960
And I can't remember what I was talking about, but yeah,

1304
01:47:20.720 --> 01:47:24.279
that's kind of how I was saying about buttlings and

1305
01:47:24.439 --> 01:47:32.720
caravans or something. I It's almost like I've got things

1306
01:47:32.800 --> 01:47:48.720
mapped in my brain. And yeah, because things would changing

1307
01:47:48.840 --> 01:47:54.279
so often back then, I've kind of compartmentalized them into

1308
01:47:54.439 --> 01:47:58.600
like little little flags or little arrows to different bits.

1309
01:47:58.640 --> 01:47:58.880
You know.

1310
01:48:00.399 --> 01:48:04.880
Since I've been living here, this is probably the most

1311
01:48:05.600 --> 01:48:10.560
the most stable. Maybe not emotionally, but it's the most

1312
01:48:11.560 --> 01:48:14.520
It's the first place I've ever lived for ten years,

1313
01:48:15.079 --> 01:48:20.039
never lived in the same building or the same premises

1314
01:48:20.039 --> 01:48:23.520
for ten years ever in my life. So this is

1315
01:48:24.560 --> 01:48:28.920
the first, which means some of the stuff the last

1316
01:48:28.960 --> 01:48:33.000
ten years has become very muddled, a little bit, a

1317
01:48:33.000 --> 01:48:39.239
bit mixed together. So I haven't had that separation that,

1318
01:48:39.840 --> 01:48:46.319
you know, because I remember, like two thousand and fifteen

1319
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:52.319
when I moved in it. I remember that period, and

1320
01:48:52.399 --> 01:48:54.479
I remember I broke my wrists falling out of the bath,

1321
01:48:54.560 --> 01:48:56.920
and there was a few you know. I remember the

1322
01:48:56.920 --> 01:49:00.479
first night I slept in the bedroom, all I had

1323
01:49:00.520 --> 01:49:06.199
was a bed. I had no All I had when

1324
01:49:06.199 --> 01:49:12.119
I moved here was a bed and a bag of

1325
01:49:12.199 --> 01:49:16.880
clothes and a chair. That was it. That was pretty

1326
01:49:16.920 --> 01:49:25.760
much my entire belongings really, which was a bit weird

1327
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:29.680
at age forty five. Well I was forty four at

1328
01:49:29.680 --> 01:49:33.560
the time, forty four, so like, it's not a lot

1329
01:49:33.600 --> 01:49:38.640
of belonging, did it. But I had to check a

1330
01:49:38.640 --> 01:49:42.920
lot of stuff out from the place, including clothes because

1331
01:49:43.119 --> 01:49:46.720
it was moldy, so I had it was just horrible

1332
01:49:46.720 --> 01:49:49.239
when the place I lived before this, A lot of

1333
01:49:49.239 --> 01:49:52.319
stuff I'd had to check out and other stuff I

1334
01:49:52.359 --> 01:49:53.840
just didn't want to bring with me. I wanted to

1335
01:49:54.000 --> 01:50:00.800
like a fresh start I brought a goldfish. Definitely put

1336
01:50:00.840 --> 01:50:07.399
the goldfish. Unfortunately, they yeah, they didn't, so they didn't

1337
01:50:07.439 --> 01:50:11.560
survive the journey. They did survive the journey, but they yeah,

1338
01:50:11.800 --> 01:50:16.039
that's just sad. I promised them to get them a big,

1339
01:50:16.960 --> 01:50:20.600
big bowl, like a proper big tank. I didn't stick

1340
01:50:20.600 --> 01:50:29.600
to that promise. And they needed they needed a tank

1341
01:50:31.159 --> 01:50:34.760
because those gold those goldfish bowls, you know, the plastic ones.

1342
01:50:35.039 --> 01:50:42.680
They're okay, but not enough room for fifty goldfish. I

1343
01:50:42.720 --> 01:50:46.680
didn't really have fifty goldfish, come on. So, yeah, I

1344
01:50:46.760 --> 01:50:50.359
just remember certain things. I remember certain years when I

1345
01:50:50.359 --> 01:50:53.960
fractured my back. I remember when that happened. That was

1346
01:50:54.079 --> 01:51:00.640
the literally a week after got Vinnie. I remember the

1347
01:51:00.640 --> 01:51:06.479
month that, you know. I remember certain things, certain times

1348
01:51:06.560 --> 01:51:16.800
where big things happen, which I'm sure most people do also,

1349
01:51:16.840 --> 01:51:20.279
I suppose because I've got dates on my podcasts, I

1350
01:51:20.319 --> 01:51:24.319
can sometimes go back and some of the images and

1351
01:51:24.359 --> 01:51:30.399
some are like just to remind myself, Oh, you know,

1352
01:51:30.439 --> 01:51:33.079
if I what's the first date I did the first

1353
01:51:33.119 --> 01:51:34.640
time I did and let me boy to sleep, what

1354
01:51:34.680 --> 01:51:36.760
was the very first date? And I can go back

1355
01:51:36.800 --> 01:51:40.000
and find that date. It was I think March twenty eighteen,

1356
01:51:40.760 --> 01:51:45.560
so it was like, okay, which it is crazy. Really,

1357
01:51:48.000 --> 01:51:50.359
three years, I'll be ten years doing to let Me

1358
01:51:50.399 --> 01:51:54.439
Boy to Sleep. Next year it'll be twenty years of

1359
01:51:54.479 --> 01:52:02.119
making podcasts and videos online. Twenty years. You think i'd

1360
01:52:02.119 --> 01:52:05.680
have an audience by now, wudn't you by keep going

1361
01:52:06.439 --> 01:52:10.600
or keep at it? So anyway, thanks Sean. I hope

1362
01:52:10.600 --> 01:52:13.960
I've answered these questions. It's been two hours so far,

1363
01:52:14.800 --> 01:52:21.000
so Jackie says, Tammy. I agree. I love that Jason

1364
01:52:21.079 --> 01:52:23.920
is so candid with his thoughts, and I love his awareness,

1365
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:29.199
his inherent kindness. Oh, thank you. Let's not got too crazy.

1366
01:52:29.239 --> 01:52:32.039
This is not a cult. Oh carry on. You can

1367
01:52:32.079 --> 01:52:34.920
say nice things. There's never a trust me. I never

1368
01:52:34.960 --> 01:52:37.800
get bored of hearing nice things said about me. That's

1369
01:52:37.800 --> 01:52:39.800
the one thing I will never get bored of. That

1370
01:52:41.159 --> 01:52:44.000
if you send me nice words saying how I'm helping you,

1371
01:52:44.319 --> 01:52:47.479
and not once have I ever seen a message and

1372
01:52:47.560 --> 01:52:52.319
thought I'll shut up. I'll not you against being nice. No,

1373
01:52:53.640 --> 01:52:57.920
I can't get enough of that. Honestly, it probably says

1374
01:52:57.920 --> 01:53:03.840
something about my need for acceptance, possibly, but yeah, it's

1375
01:53:03.880 --> 01:53:10.520
not it's nice to feel appreciated. I think I don't

1376
01:53:10.520 --> 01:53:16.760
feel appreciated in real life. So it's nice that. I mean,

1377
01:53:16.760 --> 01:53:20.000
I know this is real life, but technically it's kind

1378
01:53:20.000 --> 01:53:28.560
of I suppose it'd be a little bit like beyond

1379
01:53:28.600 --> 01:53:33.560
a radio, wouldn't it like being a radio presenter, which

1380
01:53:33.640 --> 01:53:36.640
is possibly what I should have done. Maybe that was

1381
01:53:36.760 --> 01:53:42.720
my calling to be a radio presenter, just chatting over

1382
01:53:42.880 --> 01:53:47.039
these years. I could have done that, and maybe maybe

1383
01:53:47.399 --> 01:53:51.239
I still could. I don't know. I don't know. It

1384
01:53:51.399 --> 01:53:54.039
might not be, it might be too late. Maybe this

1385
01:53:54.159 --> 01:53:57.159
is kind of my version. This is the this today's

1386
01:53:57.199 --> 01:54:02.439
version of a radio show. Maybe don't know about you,

1387
01:54:02.520 --> 01:54:04.439
but if he's not discussing himself or his day to

1388
01:54:04.520 --> 01:54:09.880
day impressions, I get bored, Oh so bored, and being

1389
01:54:09.960 --> 01:54:13.239
that bored is not conducive to sleeping. What do you

1390
01:54:13.319 --> 01:54:17.000
think about that? What do you think about that?

1391
01:54:17.039 --> 01:54:17.319
Then?

1392
01:54:17.439 --> 01:54:18.359
What do you think about that?

1393
01:54:18.560 --> 01:54:19.279
Hey?

1394
01:54:20.640 --> 01:54:23.399
Hey, JJ, if you see this, why do you think

1395
01:54:23.439 --> 01:54:26.119
this is? Yep? I'm going to have to post this

1396
01:54:26.199 --> 01:54:29.079
in your next Q and A. I hope I can

1397
01:54:29.199 --> 01:54:35.520
keep up. Actually I posted it. I posted that. I

1398
01:54:35.920 --> 01:54:41.239
realized I posted that into the Q and A. Any

1399
01:54:41.319 --> 01:54:43.960
questions for this Friday? I do I will do that

1400
01:54:44.000 --> 01:54:45.960
if I see a thing that's kind of asking a

1401
01:54:46.039 --> 01:54:50.520
question somewhere else, I'll post it. Otherwise I forget if

1402
01:54:50.520 --> 01:54:59.199
it's sort of somewhere else. Well, I don't know. It's

1403
01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:02.399
we're all different, we're all like different things. I mean,

1404
01:55:02.600 --> 01:55:07.079
some people would find it really good just to hear

1405
01:55:07.119 --> 01:55:10.439
me counting down. So it's like countdown from one thousand,

1406
01:55:11.920 --> 01:55:22.840
like thousand, nine hundred and ninety nine, nine hundred and

1407
01:55:22.960 --> 01:55:30.600
ninety eight. I think there's a few of you thinking, well,

1408
01:55:30.720 --> 01:55:34.560
not now, but like, is he going to continue? How

1409
01:55:34.600 --> 01:55:37.479
long is he going to continue for? Is he just

1410
01:55:37.600 --> 01:55:42.680
going to go down to maybe nine hundred and ninety

1411
01:55:44.159 --> 01:55:48.079
or to keep going, keep pushing it and go all

1412
01:55:48.159 --> 01:55:51.119
the way down, all the way down to one, which

1413
01:55:51.159 --> 01:55:55.159
will take probably two hours. But no, I'm not going

1414
01:55:55.239 --> 01:55:57.159
to do that. But some people would like that. Some

1415
01:55:57.319 --> 01:56:03.039
people would find that useful, and different people like different things.

1416
01:56:04.720 --> 01:56:10.880
I do realize that the problem we've talked about myself

1417
01:56:11.119 --> 01:56:14.600
is well, I have no problem talk about myself. I

1418
01:56:14.720 --> 01:56:18.680
love it. But when it's about my day to day life,

1419
01:56:20.920 --> 01:56:24.159
it's not always easier to do because there's nothing going

1420
01:56:24.239 --> 01:56:30.680
on a lot of time. So like with the Q

1421
01:56:30.760 --> 01:56:32.439
and a Friday, it makes it a little bit easier

1422
01:56:32.479 --> 01:56:38.359
because I've got something to talk about, and I'll still

1423
01:56:38.439 --> 01:56:40.439
manage to talk about my day to day life as

1424
01:56:40.479 --> 01:56:45.479
well during this, but there's not a huge amount going

1425
01:56:45.600 --> 01:56:51.720
on at the moment, and I do try and keep

1426
01:56:51.880 --> 01:56:57.439
things positive. So if this things something's there's things that

1427
01:56:57.520 --> 01:57:00.680
aren't so great going on, I don't like to really

1428
01:57:00.760 --> 01:57:03.840
talk about that stuff because I like to think that

1429
01:57:03.920 --> 01:57:10.800
this is a fairly I don't know, just a nice

1430
01:57:11.840 --> 01:57:14.960
a nice space. I mean, not everything I say is

1431
01:57:15.039 --> 01:57:17.399
going to be like super positive, but I try to

1432
01:57:18.039 --> 01:57:30.319
keep it light. Being bored, yeah, I think I don't

1433
01:57:30.359 --> 01:57:33.960
know why that is, why being bored doesn't send you

1434
01:57:34.039 --> 01:57:39.079
to sleep. I'm not sure well that that type of boring.

1435
01:57:42.520 --> 01:57:44.680
We're all different. I think that's just what it is.

1436
01:57:46.479 --> 01:57:51.000
There's going to be some people who've listened to my

1437
01:57:51.119 --> 01:57:58.439
recordings and think, like we're just just talking. What's the

1438
01:57:58.560 --> 01:58:03.840
point in this? Yet they may like the sleep hypnosis

1439
01:58:03.920 --> 01:58:10.680
recordings I do. And some people absolutely can't stand the

1440
01:58:10.760 --> 01:58:16.479
whisper stuff, and other people prefer the whisper stuff. Some

1441
01:58:16.600 --> 01:58:19.199
people really there's a few people that really like the

1442
01:58:20.079 --> 01:58:25.960
the boring, the was it bedtime, storytime, things that I've done.

1443
01:58:30.960 --> 01:58:34.119
It's just everyone's different than they. Some people like the

1444
01:58:35.279 --> 01:58:39.039
I've had quite a bit of positive a lot, and

1445
01:58:39.119 --> 01:58:43.039
I a fair amount of positive feedback for the let

1446
01:58:43.159 --> 01:58:48.560
Me Bore Your Pain Away. That was kind of a

1447
01:58:48.640 --> 01:58:51.359
bit of a passion project. To be fair, I haven't

1448
01:58:51.399 --> 01:58:56.399
done any this week. I haven't felt it. I just haven't,

1449
01:58:57.039 --> 01:59:01.000
haven't it. I mean, when to do a recording? I

1450
01:59:01.079 --> 01:59:06.359
said on Wednesday and I'm just looking just there's no words.

1451
01:59:07.239 --> 01:59:09.520
There was words, but they weren't words I wanted to say.

1452
01:59:10.560 --> 01:59:10.880
I just.

1453
01:59:12.359 --> 01:59:16.960
Wasn't in the mood. So when I'm like that, there's

1454
01:59:17.039 --> 01:59:20.279
no point me making a recording because I'm never going

1455
01:59:20.359 --> 01:59:22.800
to force myself to do it because otherwise, if I'm

1456
01:59:22.840 --> 01:59:27.039
not enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I think

1457
01:59:27.079 --> 01:59:32.600
that's going to come across. I think. I don't know,

1458
01:59:32.800 --> 01:59:41.279
maybe not. So you won't have to post this to

1459
01:59:41.319 --> 01:59:45.399
the next Q and A because you we've done it today.

1460
01:59:46.520 --> 01:59:49.000
So I don't really know what the answer is. We're

1461
01:59:49.000 --> 01:59:53.000
all different. We all just like different things. I did

1462
01:59:53.119 --> 01:59:57.119
do a survey ages ago, like a little questionnaire what

1463
01:59:57.279 --> 02:00:01.560
do you prefer? And it was different but different people.

1464
02:00:02.680 --> 02:00:07.760
No one there was no real I suppose to let

1465
02:00:07.800 --> 02:00:12.000
Me Boy to Sleep was the unanimous one, because I

1466
02:00:12.399 --> 02:00:16.760
think that I think that the majority of people that

1467
02:00:16.960 --> 02:00:20.359
come to this group like have come through the let

1468
02:00:20.439 --> 02:00:24.119
Me Boy to Sleep, not necessarily through the chronic pain

1469
02:00:24.319 --> 02:00:27.920
or this, or through the stress and pain relief, or

1470
02:00:28.039 --> 02:00:31.680
through the stop smoking or whatever other ones I've done.

1471
02:00:31.680 --> 02:00:37.119
Because I've done lots of different podcasts, thousands of recordings.

1472
02:00:37.159 --> 02:00:47.760
I've done thousands. It's ridiculous, really, So you yeah, I'd

1473
02:00:47.960 --> 02:00:52.600
like to get that feedback. I'd like to just it'd

1474
02:00:52.640 --> 02:00:56.199
be nice if if there was a way of just

1475
02:00:58.199 --> 02:01:03.640
finding out what everyone likes. But then the problem with

1476
02:01:03.720 --> 02:01:10.600
that is if I start to try and change what

1477
02:01:10.680 --> 02:01:15.880
I'm doing to suit every individual request or need, I

1478
02:01:15.960 --> 02:01:21.399
will be then micromanaging myself, and then I wouldn't want

1479
02:01:21.399 --> 02:01:25.840
to do it anymore. I've been micromanaged before, and it's horrible.

1480
02:01:26.479 --> 02:01:27.359
It's like just.

1481
02:01:29.600 --> 02:01:33.960
Constantly like, no, do like that, do it? You're doing this,

1482
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:34.399
You're doing that.

1483
02:01:35.159 --> 02:01:35.680
It's no.

1484
02:01:36.880 --> 02:01:44.119
There needs to be freedom there, and I don't want

1485
02:01:44.159 --> 02:01:51.239
to do something that I don't like doing. So you know,

1486
02:01:51.359 --> 02:01:56.399
there was a podcast that I did in I think

1487
02:01:56.439 --> 02:02:03.239
it was during kind of lockdown period, okay, and it

1488
02:02:03.560 --> 02:02:09.760
was what was it called relaxation for stress and panic attacks.

1489
02:02:11.359 --> 02:02:14.239
I did a lot of recordings. I lived every day

1490
02:02:14.319 --> 02:02:18.760
I was doing them, and I ended up doing I've

1491
02:02:18.800 --> 02:02:23.079
now got two hundred and thirty nine, and there's a

1492
02:02:23.119 --> 02:02:26.840
few recent years that most of them, like two hundred

1493
02:02:26.880 --> 02:02:31.079
and twenty three, two hundred and twenty nine, two hundred

1494
02:02:31.119 --> 02:02:34.840
and thirty, two hundred. Okay, So two hundred and thirty

1495
02:02:35.000 --> 02:02:40.760
was seventh of May twenty twenty one. Okay, let's have

1496
02:02:40.800 --> 02:02:44.399
a look at where number one was. So May twenty

1497
02:02:44.560 --> 02:02:52.920
twenty one, so I started, okay, right, I started it

1498
02:02:52.960 --> 02:02:58.840
a long time before that, so yeah, probably about too

1499
02:03:00.119 --> 02:03:07.119
two thousand and fifteen. But but I didn't really start

1500
02:03:07.199 --> 02:03:10.920
getting into it UNTI about twenty nineteen. So I did

1501
02:03:11.039 --> 02:03:15.880
number fifty six, fifty four, fifty three in twenty nineteen,

1502
02:03:16.840 --> 02:03:19.359
all the way up to I'm reading this off the scream,

1503
02:03:19.479 --> 02:03:21.359
just in case you think that I'm remembering it all.

1504
02:03:22.960 --> 02:03:28.159
And but that was October September, October December. But then

1505
02:03:28.399 --> 02:03:37.399
number seventy in twenty twenty, so seventy and we know,

1506
02:03:37.520 --> 02:03:41.319
you know what happened in twenty twenty, So number seventy

1507
02:03:42.039 --> 02:03:48.399
all the way up to I mean, honestly, BlimE me

1508
02:03:54.439 --> 02:04:02.039
a lot. I did a lot so twoenty twenty two thousand,

1509
02:04:05.000 --> 02:04:08.840
right twenty ninth of December twenty twenty, from number seventy

1510
02:04:08.920 --> 02:04:12.640
to two hundred and eighteen seventy to two hundred and eighteen.

1511
02:04:13.840 --> 02:04:18.680
And it was so regular as well. It was quite regular,

1512
02:04:21.560 --> 02:04:24.680
and I was doing just I had this little microphone,

1513
02:04:24.760 --> 02:04:28.560
lapel microphone, and I was making recordings while I was pacing,

1514
02:04:29.159 --> 02:04:31.479
not pacing in it like a weird way, but just

1515
02:04:32.079 --> 02:04:35.479
walking around. And I was I was quite energetic. I

1516
02:04:35.600 --> 02:04:37.840
was getting quite passionate about what I was talking about.

1517
02:04:38.920 --> 02:04:45.960
So there's a ninth of January, twelfth of January, thirteenth, fourteenth, fifteenth, seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth,

1518
02:04:46.520 --> 02:04:50.640
twenty fourth, twenty fifth, twenty sixth, twenty seven, twenty eight,

1519
02:04:50.800 --> 02:04:57.039
twenty nine, thirty thirty, first of January, like nearly, it's

1520
02:04:57.159 --> 02:05:10.640
like wow. And in February the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, six, seven, eight, nine, twelve, thirteen, fifteen, sixteen, eighteen, nineteen,

1521
02:05:10.800 --> 02:05:17.560
twenty one, twenty four, twenty six, twenty seventh February. So

1522
02:05:18.159 --> 02:05:25.439
you know, I'm quite regularly doing his recordings and after

1523
02:05:25.479 --> 02:05:29.439
a certain time, I started giving them names. Instead of

1524
02:05:29.600 --> 02:05:36.399
just a number, I started giving them. Yeah, the first one,

1525
02:05:37.319 --> 02:05:40.239
number eighty, I gave it a name to Smiley Mirror

1526
02:05:41.720 --> 02:05:48.079
twenty sixth of January twenty twenty, and then meaning purpose

1527
02:05:51.880 --> 02:05:56.960
was the next one, web page ball or sock Silly

1528
02:05:57.079 --> 02:06:01.520
song that was a good one, actually silly song thirty

1529
02:06:01.560 --> 02:06:06.520
for January twenty twenty. I don't know. I thought it

1530
02:06:06.560 --> 02:06:10.000
was funny self worth and not me saying it, but

1531
02:06:10.119 --> 02:06:12.199
I think the actual podcast, do you The recording is

1532
02:06:12.279 --> 02:06:18.199
quite a good recording if I remember rightly, it is

1533
02:06:18.279 --> 02:06:22.960
over five years ago. Then you got self worth, gratitude,

1534
02:06:23.119 --> 02:06:30.720
drip focusing, bath floater. Oh I like some of these titles.

1535
02:06:31.880 --> 02:06:37.199
I'm not sure if I yeah, it's anyone's guess what

1536
02:06:37.319 --> 02:06:42.680
I was talking about. Magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness, Is it

1537
02:06:42.840 --> 02:06:56.600
true You're not broken? Relaxation sessions, reassuring letter, self sabotage, relapse, noise, sensitivity, question,

1538
02:06:56.760 --> 02:07:05.279
automatic thinking, evict self, prejude, just blimey, hash be kind free, anxiety,

1539
02:07:06.479 --> 02:07:13.039
brain plasticity. That was January February twenty twenty. Send healing,

1540
02:07:13.520 --> 02:07:17.239
don't feel guilty for being ill, Give attention, to mini me.

1541
02:07:18.279 --> 02:07:23.479
Stress and anxiety are natural germs. That's one about germs.

1542
02:07:23.520 --> 02:07:26.720
That was twenty twenty March. I wonder what made me

1543
02:07:26.800 --> 02:07:30.319
think about that? M I wonder.

1544
02:07:34.720 --> 02:07:34.960
So this.

1545
02:07:35.239 --> 02:07:37.279
I was doing this at the beginning of the year.

1546
02:07:41.840 --> 02:07:44.000
Just something kicked in and I was like nearly every

1547
02:07:44.079 --> 02:07:46.520
day making a new one. And they would lasted for

1548
02:07:46.600 --> 02:07:49.039
like forty fifty minutes, some of them, some of them

1549
02:07:49.199 --> 02:07:59.439
like twenty minutes. But yeah, never give up. Remember this

1550
02:07:59.600 --> 02:08:03.760
is ten Prairie. It's been emotional. That's an hour and

1551
02:08:03.840 --> 02:08:10.319
six minutes. A safe, positive, healing, relaxation. How are you today?

1552
02:08:10.960 --> 02:08:17.079
Relaxed hands equals relaxed brain, feel safe, feel comfort, feel relaxed,

1553
02:08:19.359 --> 02:08:28.800
and reduce anxiety level. Compassion reduces stress. Funny memory, intrusive

1554
02:08:28.880 --> 02:08:35.359
thoughts such as thoughts we are born positive blind me

1555
02:08:35.920 --> 02:08:42.439
taping fingertips no mass. I like that one, but I'm

1556
02:08:42.520 --> 02:08:45.640
kind of talking about boxing, but it's still relevant. See

1557
02:08:45.720 --> 02:08:53.319
these are amongst my favorite recordings I've ever made. Chained Elephant, vice,

1558
02:08:53.479 --> 02:08:59.479
gript positive Butterflies. You can choose what you think about,

1559
02:09:01.039 --> 02:09:11.920
bubble fark confidence. I can't know my dear ringo tension release. Okay,

1560
02:09:11.920 --> 02:09:15.079
I got no of that groovy relax or sleep session

1561
02:09:16.119 --> 02:09:24.319
TV remote, amazing loved and deeply relaxed. Stress licking ferret.

1562
02:09:25.800 --> 02:09:33.640
That's about andre so stress versus love. Focus on feeling relaxed,

1563
02:09:35.319 --> 02:09:42.720
relax sleep neurons lighting up okay. Buckets of healing relaxing,

1564
02:09:43.720 --> 02:09:51.520
No bucket of relaxing healing you in the mirror, stress

1565
02:09:51.880 --> 02:09:55.560
sucking helmet. Some of these names are a bit weird.

1566
02:09:58.359 --> 02:10:05.880
Letting stress know it's not a prisoner. Dissolving the rust

1567
02:10:05.960 --> 02:10:11.840
of anxiety. I don't know what was going on in

1568
02:10:11.920 --> 02:10:13.520
my brain at the time, but it seems to be

1569
02:10:14.119 --> 02:10:24.560
quite active. Removing stress batteries, hand squeeze, stress relief technique,

1570
02:10:27.880 --> 02:10:33.159
blind sports, recording yourself. I've got no idea what that was.

1571
02:10:43.560 --> 02:10:48.920
You are going to be okay. Reduce stress when thinking

1572
02:10:48.960 --> 02:10:54.159
of someone you dislike You've got a balloon. Anxiety reduction technique.

1573
02:10:55.720 --> 02:11:02.880
Overcome hurdle too big to swallow. Choose relaxation bubble or

1574
02:11:03.000 --> 02:11:13.079
sleep bubble. Say nice things to yourself whilst walking ah

1575
02:11:15.520 --> 02:11:21.880
negativity fumigation, questioning your worries. There's some I quite like

1576
02:11:22.079 --> 02:11:27.760
these these titles from five years ago. What this is

1577
02:11:27.880 --> 02:11:30.239
now like four and a half years ago, it's near

1578
02:11:30.319 --> 02:11:38.359
the end of twenty twenty. Natural born positivity, burping your

1579
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:45.399
anxiety war not taking yourself too seriously when you're feeling agitated,

1580
02:11:47.960 --> 02:11:53.359
positivity trigger you were born able to relax and sleep naturally,

1581
02:11:53.760 --> 02:12:01.000
which is true. Put trust in your brain to relax

1582
02:12:02.920 --> 02:12:08.439
or sleep during noise, support networks and asking for help,

1583
02:12:14.920 --> 02:12:24.600
making friends with yourself, victim mentality, emotional abuse, never again,

1584
02:12:26.319 --> 02:12:32.560
and caring for carers. Okay, that was a really long one.

1585
02:12:32.640 --> 02:12:36.319
So I've got no idea. What kind of sounds like?

1586
02:12:36.439 --> 02:12:45.439
Quite a heavy one. The power of breathing. Okay, so

1587
02:12:45.520 --> 02:12:49.760
I'm talking about bereaveing. I don't know why, make friends

1588
02:12:49.800 --> 02:12:56.640
with your stress, hot water bottles, stress relief technique, pouring healing,

1589
02:12:56.720 --> 02:13:02.880
relaxation and safety into your brain, taping scalp to relax,

1590
02:13:03.199 --> 02:13:19.479
brain rehearsing feeling Okay, ah, listen to my boring voice

1591
02:13:21.119 --> 02:13:31.159
Superman re energizing. Right. There's quite a few, isn't it

1592
02:13:36.319 --> 02:13:38.680
Kettle anger release. I quite like that one, and so

1593
02:13:38.800 --> 02:13:42.159
it's only a short one, but it's quite good holding

1594
02:13:42.359 --> 02:13:47.479
safe hands and there's a quantum memory shift. There's another

1595
02:13:47.520 --> 02:13:51.680
one that's a bit more that's me trying to be advanced.

1596
02:13:52.760 --> 02:13:53.560
It didn't work.

1597
02:13:54.399 --> 02:13:58.399
Maybe it did. I don't know. Hi, Jason from Cindy.

1598
02:13:58.600 --> 02:14:01.520
You recently shared a story about your grandfather has told

1599
02:14:01.600 --> 02:14:04.479
you by your Nan. Are there any other NaN's stories

1600
02:14:04.520 --> 02:14:25.520
you can share. I'm trying to think. I mean we

1601
02:14:25.720 --> 02:14:29.319
used to talk about I mean, this story is about her.

1602
02:14:29.520 --> 02:14:35.720
She was really good swimmer. But I feel like NaN's

1603
02:14:35.720 --> 02:14:39.119
stories that she told me she told me about in

1604
02:14:39.279 --> 02:14:45.920
our family. She told me about her parents. She told me.

1605
02:14:47.359 --> 02:14:50.239
I got a lot of information about my very very

1606
02:14:50.399 --> 02:14:54.199
young childhood from her because no one else would talk

1607
02:14:54.239 --> 02:14:57.439
about it, but she would. So she told me she

1608
02:14:57.560 --> 02:15:01.640
had pictures of me when I was a baby, and

1609
02:15:04.920 --> 02:15:18.560
there was I think I had blonde hair back then. Yeah,

1610
02:15:19.560 --> 02:15:28.239
I'm just trying to think it was. I'll get back

1611
02:15:28.279 --> 02:15:28.840
to you on that one.

1612
02:15:29.119 --> 02:15:29.399
I might.

1613
02:15:29.680 --> 02:15:31.840
I'm just trying to think. Can't, off the top of

1614
02:15:31.920 --> 02:15:42.000
my head any particular stories that she told me. I

1615
02:15:42.079 --> 02:15:44.920
can't believe it's been over ten years since I last

1616
02:15:44.920 --> 02:15:55.000
spoke to her. She used to Yeah, she'd talk about stuff,

1617
02:15:55.079 --> 02:15:59.439
but a lot of things that would talk about would

1618
02:15:59.439 --> 02:16:03.520
be about what going on now. We didn't really focus

1619
02:16:04.079 --> 02:16:07.319
too much on the past. But when she did, she

1620
02:16:07.479 --> 02:16:11.640
talk about like how she remembers some of the stuff

1621
02:16:11.720 --> 02:16:14.520
that happened. I mean, there was one she said that

1622
02:16:14.800 --> 02:16:22.199
my dad, my biological mother, had moved out of her

1623
02:16:22.319 --> 02:16:25.199
house and bettered in mind. Both my dad and her

1624
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:29.560
were very young, and it was before they got married.

1625
02:16:29.640 --> 02:16:32.719
And they got married in what's sixty five I think,

1626
02:16:34.239 --> 02:16:36.680
which was five years before I got where I was born,

1627
02:16:37.399 --> 02:16:39.559
and my dad was twenty six when I was born,

1628
02:16:41.079 --> 02:16:45.559
so he would have got married at twenty one. They

1629
02:16:45.600 --> 02:16:48.319
were dating before that, and he was living at home

1630
02:16:51.879 --> 02:16:56.680
and my dad was at work. I think he was

1631
02:16:56.680 --> 02:16:59.879
an apprentice at the time, see less school than when

1632
02:17:00.000 --> 02:17:09.479
an apprenticeship. And it's not funny really, but my other

1633
02:17:09.559 --> 02:17:12.360
biological grandfather, the one that I never met because he

1634
02:17:12.479 --> 02:17:18.520
passed away quite early before I was born, I think,

1635
02:17:20.520 --> 02:17:25.159
so basically, and apparently he was just a huge man.

1636
02:17:25.680 --> 02:17:26.000
Huge.

1637
02:17:26.719 --> 02:17:30.360
My granddad wasn't huge, but it was. It wasn't he

1638
02:17:30.479 --> 02:17:32.840
is what. He was very slim, and but this bloke

1639
02:17:33.040 --> 02:17:35.799
was just, you know, apparently according to my name, he

1640
02:17:35.879 --> 02:17:41.479
was massive and he just shadowed my grand he'd like,

1641
02:17:41.639 --> 02:17:45.040
really just my name was worried for my granddad, my

1642
02:17:45.159 --> 02:17:50.799
other granddad that her husband or other well, what happened

1643
02:17:50.840 --> 02:17:54.200
next is so he knocks on the door, where's my door?

1644
02:17:56.600 --> 02:18:00.840
So I don't know. So they didn't know she was

1645
02:18:00.920 --> 02:18:05.079
in the house. So she was in the bedroom upstairs.

1646
02:18:06.399 --> 02:18:09.719
What they didn't know, both my nan and my granddad

1647
02:18:10.200 --> 02:18:14.840
because my granddad was retired at this point. Was he retired,

1648
02:18:15.000 --> 02:18:18.399
I don't know, Yeah, he was retired. He was retired

1649
02:18:18.440 --> 02:18:27.920
at this point. He didn't know that she was upstairs.

1650
02:18:28.000 --> 02:18:32.159
Not only was she upstairs, she'd moved out of her

1651
02:18:32.239 --> 02:18:36.319
family home. She took us stuff and moved out into

1652
02:18:36.399 --> 02:18:40.559
my nan and granddad's. They didn't even know. So he's

1653
02:18:40.639 --> 02:18:42.319
knock on the doorstair walk my daughter, I want to

1654
02:18:42.479 --> 02:18:46.440
bring her back, so they my name because she was

1655
02:18:46.440 --> 02:18:48.680
always around the house because she was my dad's girlfriend

1656
02:18:49.959 --> 02:18:52.200
or fiance or whatever. So I don't know. But so

1657
02:18:54.840 --> 02:18:57.159
my nan did say that she was worried for my granddad,

1658
02:18:58.440 --> 02:19:01.360
like her I keep saying, because they were both my granddads.

1659
02:19:01.520 --> 02:19:05.520
But she was worried for her husband and my granddad Newland.

1660
02:19:06.520 --> 02:19:09.479
She was worried for him because he was tiny compared

1661
02:19:09.479 --> 02:19:16.479
to this bloke, the other granddad. So but I think, well,

1662
02:19:17.440 --> 02:19:21.280
I came my grandad would have been sixty then, so

1663
02:19:21.440 --> 02:19:27.280
this this would have been no, he'd have been fifty.

1664
02:19:27.319 --> 02:19:28.760
He would have still been at work, so it'd have

1665
02:19:28.760 --> 02:19:33.159
been about fifty five. Even think he retired in nineteen

1666
02:19:33.280 --> 02:19:37.120
seventy when he was sixty. I think you could retire

1667
02:19:37.159 --> 02:19:46.440
at sixty back then, and then he I think, so,

1668
02:19:46.639 --> 02:19:52.040
I'm not one hundred percent sure, but anyway, and I

1669
02:19:52.079 --> 02:19:54.200
don't know what I'm thinking. My granddad was a boxer

1670
02:19:55.040 --> 02:19:57.639
in the army. But he was a boxer, he was,

1671
02:19:58.479 --> 02:20:00.920
and at fifty five, which she is nearly as old

1672
02:20:00.920 --> 02:20:03.719
as I am, he would have been a lot, probably more,

1673
02:20:03.879 --> 02:20:06.840
much more fitter than I am, and he would have

1674
02:20:06.879 --> 02:20:11.920
been well able to take care of himself because not

1675
02:20:12.040 --> 02:20:13.879
only was he a boxer, but he's also had been

1676
02:20:13.959 --> 02:20:16.879
in the army. You know, he'd served time in the

1677
02:20:17.000 --> 02:20:22.360
army for I think twelve years as a career, and

1678
02:20:22.559 --> 02:20:24.520
then he was in the army game during the war

1679
02:20:24.600 --> 02:20:28.799
for for six years. So it's you know, done over

1680
02:20:28.879 --> 02:20:36.159
twenty years in the army pretty much nearly so I

1681
02:20:36.239 --> 02:20:39.920
don't know, but apparently, but they didn't come to blows.

1682
02:20:39.959 --> 02:20:41.840
But my name said that she was really worried that

1683
02:20:41.920 --> 02:20:48.479
he was going to he was just like beat up

1684
02:20:48.520 --> 02:20:51.959
my other granddad. But they didn't. Now, I don't know

1685
02:20:52.079 --> 02:20:52.920
how well they got on.

1686
02:20:53.680 --> 02:20:54.399
I think she was.

1687
02:20:54.559 --> 02:20:56.559
I think he was gone before they even got married,

1688
02:20:56.600 --> 02:21:01.479
before my dad got married to her. But she did

1689
02:21:01.520 --> 02:21:04.200
tell me stuff about my mom, about my biological mum

1690
02:21:05.879 --> 02:21:08.600
and what she did say though, she said she was

1691
02:21:10.920 --> 02:21:16.799
even though she was a problem and just always causing,

1692
02:21:16.959 --> 02:21:20.840
just causing problems, causing. She had a chaotic life back then.

1693
02:21:21.319 --> 02:21:23.360
She might I don't know which she might have a

1694
02:21:23.399 --> 02:21:27.520
really good life now. But she said for all her faults,

1695
02:21:28.159 --> 02:21:31.360
the one thing she had to say is she was funny.

1696
02:21:32.840 --> 02:21:37.959
She made a laugh, She made my nn laugh. And

1697
02:21:39.799 --> 02:21:42.719
that's the one thing that I kind of think, Okay, cool,

1698
02:21:44.040 --> 02:21:50.479
that means something to me, like us good because she, yeah,

1699
02:21:50.639 --> 02:21:54.120
she'd lived a chaotic life, but that's probably because of

1700
02:21:54.200 --> 02:21:59.280
where her background came from. She'd you know, she'd learned

1701
02:21:59.319 --> 02:22:03.239
that and she was whatever you know, wasn't just her

1702
02:22:03.280 --> 02:22:07.799
own decision to be like that. And she also had

1703
02:22:09.319 --> 02:22:10.840
a called to my nan.

1704
02:22:11.040 --> 02:22:11.520
She was.

1705
02:22:13.280 --> 02:22:19.600
Like bipolar or what, she had mental health stuff. But

1706
02:22:19.719 --> 02:22:24.319
she was best friends with my auntie. I think my

1707
02:22:24.440 --> 02:22:28.319
auntie and her went to school together. My auntie was

1708
02:22:28.360 --> 02:22:31.920
probably a couple of years younger than my dad, and

1709
02:22:32.200 --> 02:22:35.079
it's probably how they met, Probably how him and my

1710
02:22:35.719 --> 02:22:39.760
mum met, because she'd be around, probably with her sister,

1711
02:22:39.959 --> 02:22:47.959
and I don't know, they just got together, so, you know,

1712
02:22:48.079 --> 02:22:55.280
even though she left when I was six months old,

1713
02:22:56.159 --> 02:23:03.079
so it's like nineteen seventy one, the fact is they've

1714
02:23:03.120 --> 02:23:06.440
been together quite a while. They got married sixty five,

1715
02:23:06.639 --> 02:23:09.200
so six years, and they were probably together a year

1716
02:23:09.280 --> 02:23:12.280
or two before that, so you know, it was it

1717
02:23:12.399 --> 02:23:15.879
wasn't like a short term and they had three kids,

1718
02:23:17.520 --> 02:23:20.239
so it must have been. It must have had a

1719
02:23:20.319 --> 02:23:26.520
good time at some point. I don't know. She's told

1720
02:23:26.559 --> 02:23:33.440
Why did she tell me? She that's just one of

1721
02:23:33.520 --> 02:23:40.040
the things she's basically, she said that when my mom

1722
02:23:40.200 --> 02:23:42.040
took off, yeah, she used to. She used to go

1723
02:23:42.120 --> 02:23:45.840
into the butchers and the bakers, and they'd all be

1724
02:23:45.959 --> 02:23:50.079
asking her about the money that my mum owed them.

1725
02:23:51.360 --> 02:23:55.000
So apparently she just owed money to everyone. That's what

1726
02:23:55.159 --> 02:23:58.319
my name said. Again, It's like, you know, I'm not

1727
02:23:58.399 --> 02:24:01.559
here to say horrible things about anyone, but that's on

1728
02:24:01.719 --> 02:24:05.840
my name. She's she said like this, she'd just be

1729
02:24:06.159 --> 02:24:09.440
borrowing money off everyone, but she'd make people laugh. That

1730
02:24:09.680 --> 02:24:17.879
she was like just funny, funny person. So yeah, I

1731
02:24:18.000 --> 02:24:30.639
think maybe it's the Maybe that's why I've got bipolar. Maybe,

1732
02:24:30.639 --> 02:24:42.399
and that's where my my brain comes from. I mean, yeah, inherited, well,

1733
02:24:42.399 --> 02:24:46.399
he inherited this brain. But that's it. It's probably have

1734
02:24:46.559 --> 02:24:48.600
this loasure of stuff. But that's one off the top

1735
02:24:48.639 --> 02:24:52.799
of my head. I realized the time's going, it's now

1736
02:24:53.120 --> 02:24:58.920
Lime is six o'clock. Dev asks Hello Jason, Hello all,

1737
02:24:59.000 --> 02:25:01.639
I'm a nubie at this, a chronic pain sufferer, but

1738
02:25:01.760 --> 02:25:05.120
also interested in learning about hypnosis in general, as well

1739
02:25:05.159 --> 02:25:09.120
as applying it to creative writing. I find Jason's podcast

1740
02:25:09.319 --> 02:25:13.000
very effective, actually, but both for pain relief and sleep.

1741
02:25:13.680 --> 02:25:16.639
I'd also like to learn how a writer can place

1742
02:25:16.680 --> 02:25:22.559
itself into a sort of fictional environment and develop a story. Equally,

1743
02:25:22.799 --> 02:25:25.639
I would like to learn about immersing a reader into

1744
02:25:25.719 --> 02:25:29.239
the story. I'm currently struggling with writing a sort of

1745
02:25:29.360 --> 02:25:36.680
ghost story. Thanks and advance. I don't know, so I'm

1746
02:25:36.719 --> 02:25:46.399
not a writer. I suppose to immerse someone into a

1747
02:25:46.600 --> 02:25:59.399
story would be keeping it flowing. Well, then let's be

1748
02:25:59.520 --> 02:26:01.639
teaching how to write. I don't. I don't know how

1749
02:26:01.719 --> 02:26:06.000
to write, but it's my understanding of like writing with

1750
02:26:06.479 --> 02:26:09.920
creative writing is one of the things I've done a

1751
02:26:10.000 --> 02:26:13.959
little bit of books on it and played around of it.

1752
02:26:16.719 --> 02:26:18.840
What I liked about it is there's no right or wrong,

1753
02:26:19.120 --> 02:26:24.159
you know, it's it's art creativity. There's no there is

1754
02:26:24.280 --> 02:26:27.799
no right or wrong. You just see what comes up

1755
02:26:28.479 --> 02:26:35.120
and maybe something really cool or come up a fictional

1756
02:26:35.280 --> 02:26:40.600
environment developer story. I tell you what you could do.

1757
02:26:43.879 --> 02:26:46.200
You could tell the story. You could verbally tell the

1758
02:26:46.280 --> 02:26:52.319
story and see what comes up. Transcribe it. There's loads

1759
02:26:52.360 --> 02:26:58.360
of transcribing places you can get stuff transcribed. Just record

1760
02:26:58.399 --> 02:27:01.559
it on your on your phone hm and then just

1761
02:27:02.399 --> 02:27:07.159
look back at it and maybe start to you could

1762
02:27:07.280 --> 02:27:09.959
like map it out. It's like okay, well, as that's that,

1763
02:27:10.200 --> 02:27:13.399
there's that character. Where would they go? What would they do?

1764
02:27:13.600 --> 02:27:15.040
And you know, I don't know. I mean, it's not

1765
02:27:15.159 --> 02:27:20.639
something that I'm ever going to be doing. Well, if

1766
02:27:20.680 --> 02:27:22.520
I ever wrote a book, it would be kind of

1767
02:27:22.959 --> 02:27:27.399
it'd have to be factual pretty much it made up

1768
02:27:27.559 --> 02:27:38.360
but about me maybe or I'm trying to think there's

1769
02:27:38.399 --> 02:27:46.280
something else I was thought about doing. Yeah, just it'd

1770
02:27:46.360 --> 02:27:49.360
have to be that. That's the way you could do

1771
02:27:49.479 --> 02:27:55.920
it maybe, but as far as hypnosis, I'm not really sure.

1772
02:27:58.600 --> 02:28:01.559
It's something I don't really know about. When it comes

1773
02:28:01.600 --> 02:28:04.479
to writing, I used to write diaries and journals, but

1774
02:28:06.000 --> 02:28:09.920
it was more for me. It's like shouting. Doesn't he

1775
02:28:09.959 --> 02:28:14.159
hear that in the background. It's not a very good answer.

1776
02:28:15.559 --> 02:28:16.920
Let me think about it a bit more. If I

1777
02:28:17.000 --> 02:28:19.239
come up with I think of anything else, I'll mention

1778
02:28:19.280 --> 02:28:22.879
it in the next recording. I might do a little

1779
02:28:22.879 --> 02:28:28.799
bit of research. So thanks everybody, Thank you. Going down

1780
02:28:28.840 --> 02:28:41.239
the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean, Jackie, Cindy

1781
02:28:41.559 --> 02:28:46.920
and Dev It's a marathon, wasn't it. There's a lot

1782
02:28:47.000 --> 02:28:50.120
of I don't know how long I've been talking for.

1783
02:28:50.200 --> 02:28:51.840
It's got to be nearly two and a half hours,

1784
02:28:53.680 --> 02:28:56.280
which means I'm not sure when this is going to

1785
02:28:56.319 --> 02:29:02.239
get edited. I'm literally this on a Saturday afternoon. I

1786
02:29:02.360 --> 02:29:06.079
know it's Friday Q and a Friday, but I was

1787
02:29:06.159 --> 02:29:11.319
got so caught up in building a website. But I

1788
02:29:11.440 --> 02:29:17.280
did start this. I thought I started it at three.

1789
02:29:19.799 --> 02:29:24.159
I definitely started it before four o'clock because I was

1790
02:29:24.159 --> 02:29:26.360
already at two hours last time. I went into a toilet,

1791
02:29:26.440 --> 02:29:32.799
so I had a break. Blimey's now seven minutes past

1792
02:29:33.280 --> 02:29:38.000
six and there's boxing on at seven, so this might

1793
02:29:38.079 --> 02:29:39.959
be one of those Q and A Fridays that come

1794
02:29:40.000 --> 02:29:46.000
out on Sunday morning. I apologize kind of. I'll do

1795
02:29:46.040 --> 02:29:49.879
a little bit, just a little bit, so thank you.

1796
02:29:50.719 --> 02:29:54.159
I just didn't expect to get this many questions. I'm pleased. Thanks,

1797
02:29:54.239 --> 02:29:57.360
But there's been times when I get like two questions

1798
02:29:57.440 --> 02:30:00.680
and I still managed to last that an hour or so.

1799
02:30:04.639 --> 02:30:05.120
So that's it.

1800
02:30:05.559 --> 02:30:10.399
That is the end of this recording, So thank you

1801
02:30:10.520 --> 02:30:13.120
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you

1802
02:30:13.239 --> 02:30:17.079
do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

1803
02:30:18.479 --> 02:30:33.399
You deserve to feel safe, lots of love. Bye. Relax

1804
02:30:37.040 --> 02:30:47.559
in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

1805
02:30:47.680 --> 02:30:55.000
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

1806
02:30:56.399 --> 02:31:05.760
now and throughout the time we spend together here, not

1807
02:31:06.319 --> 02:31:11.600
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

1808
02:31:11.760 --> 02:31:18.840
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1809
02:31:23.639 --> 02:31:36.239
but also I think it would be nice to have

1810
02:31:36.959 --> 02:31:53.959
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1811
02:31:54.079 --> 02:32:09.159
is ended. You can still benefit from listening to my voice.

1812
02:32:12.239 --> 02:32:23.680
Maybe in a few hours time perhaps tomorrow, and then

1813
02:32:23.840 --> 02:32:31.760
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1814
02:32:31.920 --> 02:32:35.440
do and myself as well. I sometimes I find one

1815
02:32:35.520 --> 02:32:45.840
particular recording that really resonates with me, and I just

1816
02:32:46.000 --> 02:32:51.600
listen to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1817
02:32:59.280 --> 02:33:03.559
There was this record boarding from We're going back to

1818
02:33:03.639 --> 02:33:08.920
about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis, but

1819
02:33:09.000 --> 02:33:14.159
it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1820
02:33:16.680 --> 02:33:21.799
and I managed to find it again and it still

1821
02:33:21.920 --> 02:33:27.319
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1822
02:33:27.680 --> 02:33:42.360
was the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful,

1823
02:33:44.520 --> 02:33:50.959
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1824
02:33:51.120 --> 02:34:01.760
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1825
02:34:02.559 --> 02:34:11.000
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1826
02:34:11.040 --> 02:34:19.559
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1827
02:34:19.799 --> 02:34:28.440
players pressed the play button. In fact, it might have

1828
02:34:28.520 --> 02:34:32.840
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1829
02:34:32.920 --> 02:34:45.719
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1830
02:34:45.959 --> 02:34:58.879
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1831
02:34:58.920 --> 02:35:09.600
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1832
02:35:09.799 --> 02:35:31.799
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1833
02:35:31.920 --> 02:35:36.399
my mind would slow down.

1834
02:35:41.879 --> 02:35:44.399
Now now.

1835
02:35:44.840 --> 02:35:51.360
I was listening to this recording in the early days

1836
02:35:51.399 --> 02:35:59.639
of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any

1837
02:36:01.559 --> 02:36:07.000
videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing

1838
02:36:07.040 --> 02:36:20.920
that till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew

1839
02:36:21.399 --> 02:36:34.079
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1840
02:36:37.200 --> 02:36:42.520
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1841
02:36:50.239 --> 02:36:57.000
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1842
02:36:58.399 --> 02:37:07.760
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1843
02:37:07.879 --> 02:37:19.399
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1844
02:37:19.559 --> 02:37:33.399
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1845
02:37:33.520 --> 02:37:39.799
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1846
02:37:41.639 --> 02:37:55.280
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

1847
02:37:55.440 --> 02:38:08.360
I do which you may not realize by listening, is

1848
02:38:12.520 --> 02:38:26.799
when I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1849
02:38:28.319 --> 02:38:33.799
am affected by the words that I say.

1850
02:38:39.159 --> 02:38:39.680
So if I.

1851
02:38:42.639 --> 02:38:49.959
Set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1852
02:38:53.479 --> 02:39:01.159
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1853
02:39:01.479 --> 02:39:19.520
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1854
02:39:22.360 --> 02:39:31.879
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1855
02:39:32.000 --> 02:39:38.040
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room,

1856
02:39:39.920 --> 02:39:50.319
on the backs of your hands. You may start to

1857
02:39:50.920 --> 02:39:58.959
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1858
02:39:59.040 --> 02:40:03.200
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1859
02:40:03.319 --> 02:40:16.239
all where you are right now. And as you become

1860
02:40:16.920 --> 02:40:31.280
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1861
02:40:31.600 --> 02:40:55.360
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1862
02:40:56.920 --> 02:41:02.920
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1863
02:41:03.239 --> 02:41:19.440
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1864
02:41:24.200 --> 02:41:28.840
I also notice my mind.

1865
02:41:30.559 --> 02:41:31.079
Drifting.

1866
02:41:39.000 --> 02:41:51.559
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1867
02:41:56.479 --> 02:42:05.559
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1868
02:42:05.879 --> 02:42:14.959
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1869
02:42:16.879 --> 02:42:24.159
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1870
02:42:26.879 --> 02:42:33.959
It was this snoring was a pig turned up. That's

1871
02:42:34.000 --> 02:42:41.440
why I sound like when I snare and I get

1872
02:42:41.559 --> 02:42:55.440
really into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel,

1873
02:43:01.719 --> 02:43:12.159
how relaxed you feel in your feet, how relaxed you

1874
02:43:12.440 --> 02:43:30.639
feel in your hands. I have noticed.

1875
02:43:32.719 --> 02:43:33.920
More and more.

1876
02:43:39.600 --> 02:43:52.239
That the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1877
02:43:55.959 --> 02:44:12.079
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1878
02:44:15.280 --> 02:44:36.200
muscle relaxation. So this allows you the breve easier without

1879
02:44:37.719 --> 02:44:58.360
necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice

1880
02:45:09.040 --> 02:45:10.319
the ease.

1881
02:45:13.360 --> 02:45:14.120
In which.

1882
02:45:21.479 --> 02:45:44.120
You breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1883
02:46:11.840 --> 02:46:29.520
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my

1884
02:46:29.680 --> 02:46:48.280
eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful field with

1885
02:46:48.639 --> 02:47:22.479
trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It

1886
02:47:22.799 --> 02:47:38.920
feels nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time

1887
02:47:44.799 --> 02:48:32.920
away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with

1888
02:48:33.200 --> 02:49:02.000
a joyful heart. Time seems to just.

1889
02:49:03.799 --> 02:49:05.239
Drip by.

1890
02:49:09.639 --> 02:49:59.440
So very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1891
02:50:00.360 --> 02:50:57.280
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, notice that

1892
02:51:04.840 --> 02:51:51.319
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1893
02:51:51.639 --> 02:52:22.239
requires your attention. You can enjoy the physical sensations of

1894
02:52:22.399 --> 02:52:34.840
allowing the stress to rip out of your body, to

1895
02:52:34.959 --> 02:52:58.440
appear out of every part of your body, and being

1896
02:52:59.000 --> 02:53:37.600
released yeah from your brain in your mind slowly but surely,

1897
02:53:44.520 --> 02:53:46.040
the muscles.

1898
02:53:45.920 --> 02:53:47.239
In your legs.

1899
02:54:02.399 --> 02:54:58.200
Relax so very deeply, RELs so deeply, and the feeings,

1900
02:55:00.879 --> 02:55:25.719
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders deepening each

1901
02:55:26.159 --> 02:55:37.760
part of your body further and deeper.

1902
02:55:48.120 --> 02:55:49.280
And deeper.

1903
02:56:03.559 --> 02:56:33.959
Noticine, the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings

1904
02:56:34.200 --> 02:57:23.000
in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body, I

1905
02:57:23.239 --> 02:58:07.040
all say, feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense of peace

1906
02:58:11.600 --> 02:58:13.120
spreads through.

1907
02:58:14.479 --> 02:58:15.680
Your very core.

1908
02:58:46.200 --> 02:59:06.079
Even when you focus on your mind, the mind becomes

1909
02:59:13.479 --> 03:00:36.319
be and slowerven, deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

1910
03:00:50.440 --> 03:00:52.479
he's Forllin's stomach.

1911
03:01:14.639 --> 03:01:15.280
Your back.

1912
03:01:20.719 --> 03:01:49.559
Notice, Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in the hole

1913
03:01:49.920 --> 03:01:50.639
of your back.

1914
03:02:15.840 --> 03:02:16.959
In spy.

1915
03:02:20.719 --> 03:02:25.399
From your brain, all the way down the middle of

1916
03:02:25.520 --> 03:02:49.719
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort,

1917
03:02:52.719 --> 03:04:09.319
increasing deep clay ries you melegs, spreading these signals down

1918
03:04:09.520 --> 03:04:18.479
a spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1919
03:04:33.159 --> 03:05:21.399
your chins and your calf, muscles, your elbows, Feelings of

1920
03:05:21.600 --> 03:05:38.719
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1921
03:05:43.120 --> 03:05:54.559
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1922
03:05:54.680 --> 03:07:08.399
lower back. On letting go, retinker peace, drifting mind just

1923
03:07:08.879 --> 03:07:34.719
wandering away, happy to let go, let go completely, let go,

1924
03:08:00.360 --> 03:08:57.639
so tranquil, the whole body enjoying a sensor lett him

1925
03:08:57.719 --> 03:09:03.000
go hm he no.

1926
03:10:11.719 --> 03:10:12.760
Peace four.

1927
03:10:46.559 --> 03:10:57.760
Enjoy the space, this space.

1928
03:11:00.360 --> 03:11:01.399
Of peace.

1929
03:11:04.680 --> 03:13:26.920
And safety, so firy, fy, relaxed, letting go. Maybe we

1930
03:13:27.120 --> 03:13:34.600
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1931
03:13:38.760 --> 03:14:48.159
just to notice a forehead and your eyes uo so los,

1932
03:15:07.920 --> 03:16:41.040
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, drift, drifting, peace,

1933
03:16:41.440 --> 03:18:28.559
for energy, peace, to breathe such easier loose you may

1934
03:18:28.959 --> 03:19:18.159
have you may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful,

1935
03:19:32.239 --> 03:19:53.479
move even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1936
03:19:57.719 --> 03:21:17.399
blissful pace, arrest, total peace.

1937
03:21:42.159 --> 03:22:28.959
Come so calm, let him go, peace with mind.

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03:22:38.239 --> 03:23:12.760
Rexed forty, so relaxed, so relaxed.

1939
03:23:37.200 --> 03:24:04.040
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. H I'm peaceful,

1940
03:24:10.399 --> 03:25:19.239
so peaceful, real liquor, so peaceful. And you could start

1941
03:25:19.719 --> 03:25:29.200
to notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even though

1942
03:25:29.360 --> 03:25:40.600
I've not purposely focused your mind upon that sense of

1943
03:25:41.000 --> 03:25:46.399
physical comfort that is growing within you throughout your body,

1944
03:25:49.639 --> 03:25:59.280
and your mind starts to slow down. And that could

1945
03:25:59.360 --> 03:26:07.639
be almost in recognition of I guess my speech not

1946
03:26:07.840 --> 03:26:24.920
being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer. Just

1947
03:26:25.280 --> 03:26:33.799
by listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity

1948
03:26:35.559 --> 03:26:41.200
to take a break from the day, take a break

1949
03:26:41.399 --> 03:26:49.079
from your life as it is, and to give yourself

1950
03:26:49.200 --> 03:26:57.040
a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off

1951
03:26:59.319 --> 03:27:04.280
and to allow allow your body to relax and allow

1952
03:27:04.520 --> 03:27:14.840
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1953
03:27:15.040 --> 03:27:19.479
tension and it stresses that you had in your body.

1954
03:27:25.479 --> 03:27:29.360
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1955
03:27:29.639 --> 03:27:41.319
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1956
03:27:41.479 --> 03:27:52.760
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy which then

1957
03:27:52.920 --> 03:28:02.079
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1958
03:28:02.239 --> 03:28:19.680
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1959
03:28:21.760 --> 03:28:35.799
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1960
03:28:35.920 --> 03:28:46.159
a wave of comfort, and all this comes, and just

1961
03:28:49.760 --> 03:28:58.520
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1962
03:28:58.639 --> 03:29:03.200
long you want it to be, to just rest.

1963
03:29:08.319 --> 03:29:09.319
And allow.

1964
03:29:11.479 --> 03:29:21.440
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1965
03:29:21.600 --> 03:29:37.760
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1966
03:29:37.959 --> 03:29:42.600
room for feelings of pleasure.

1967
03:29:44.840 --> 03:29:46.120
And happiness.

1968
03:29:49.639 --> 03:29:58.440
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

1969
03:29:59.280 --> 03:30:03.840
as if your mind, mind, and your body are sinking together,

1970
03:30:08.120 --> 03:30:17.799
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness,

1971
03:30:22.879 --> 03:30:30.079
and it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1972
03:30:30.319 --> 03:30:35.959
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1973
03:30:39.440 --> 03:30:48.840
to feel more comfort and to experience.

1974
03:30:50.520 --> 03:30:51.680
More of this.

1975
03:30:53.479 --> 03:31:08.639
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1976
03:31:10.200 --> 03:31:16.000
on each part of your body, you can notice that.

1977
03:31:16.159 --> 03:31:17.120
That part.

1978
03:31:20.840 --> 03:31:33.280
Becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1979
03:31:33.440 --> 03:31:47.000
becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing. And

1980
03:31:47.200 --> 03:31:52.680
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1981
03:31:55.399 --> 03:32:00.719
the parts that you've already focused on or can continue

1982
03:32:02.079 --> 03:32:09.159
to relax deeply and those parts that we've not yet

1983
03:32:09.360 --> 03:32:22.239
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1984
03:32:22.399 --> 03:32:36.639
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1985
03:32:36.680 --> 03:32:43.120
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1986
03:32:43.280 --> 03:32:51.920
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1987
03:32:52.200 --> 03:32:59.040
sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you

1988
03:32:59.239 --> 03:33:06.719
to feel from more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1989
03:33:09.840 --> 03:33:12.840
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment.

1990
03:33:14.239 --> 03:33:15.200
This is the world.

1991
03:33:18.639 --> 03:33:24.719
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1992
03:33:25.239 --> 03:33:35.719
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1993
03:33:35.959 --> 03:33:43.760
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1994
03:33:46.079 --> 03:33:50.559
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1995
03:33:55.719 --> 03:34:04.040
Moving down to your eyes, see on your eyes noticing

1996
03:34:06.479 --> 03:34:16.200
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1997
03:34:16.239 --> 03:34:22.680
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1998
03:34:22.959 --> 03:34:37.360
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1999
03:34:37.840 --> 03:34:44.479
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

2000
03:34:44.639 --> 03:34:59.399
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose, as you focus now

2001
03:35:00.239 --> 03:35:07.120
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

2002
03:35:07.200 --> 03:35:11.639
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

2003
03:35:11.760 --> 03:35:18.120
up the size of your face to your ears, that

2004
03:35:18.399 --> 03:35:42.840
hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing

2005
03:35:46.360 --> 03:35:51.479
on your neck, the front of your neck, and your

2006
03:35:51.639 --> 03:36:04.959
throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

2007
03:36:07.040 --> 03:36:14.000
the right and the left side of your neck, relax and.

2008
03:36:15.479 --> 03:36:20.639
Loose and calm.

2009
03:36:27.000 --> 03:36:33.680
And now the back of your neck, focusing on the

2010
03:36:33.959 --> 03:36:44.399
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

2011
03:36:44.600 --> 03:36:53.440
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

2012
03:36:54.479 --> 03:37:05.120
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

2013
03:37:05.239 --> 03:37:17.479
back of your neck. Moving down your back and moving

2014
03:37:17.760 --> 03:37:22.079
either side of your spine right from the top of

2015
03:37:22.200 --> 03:37:27.719
your back all the way down to the bottom of

2016
03:37:27.799 --> 03:37:44.760
your back, down to your lower back. And as you

2017
03:37:45.040 --> 03:37:52.319
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

2018
03:37:52.559 --> 03:38:07.600
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

2019
03:38:07.760 --> 03:38:14.440
as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to

2020
03:38:14.680 --> 03:38:25.079
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

2021
03:38:28.879 --> 03:38:32.559
the top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

2022
03:38:36.079 --> 03:38:43.200
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

2023
03:38:43.440 --> 03:38:48.440
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

2024
03:38:48.559 --> 03:38:58.520
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

2025
03:38:58.559 --> 03:39:05.879
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

2026
03:39:05.920 --> 03:39:19.319
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

2027
03:39:19.440 --> 03:39:30.159
back it seems to be an extra special feeling of

2028
03:39:30.399 --> 03:39:42.399
comfort that spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

2029
03:39:42.719 --> 03:39:50.680
into your hips, into the area where your cosix are,

2030
03:39:54.280 --> 03:40:00.799
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that bread.

2031
03:40:03.200 --> 03:40:08.159
From your lower back into your hip area.

2032
03:40:11.000 --> 03:40:27.639
Start to melt, start to really let go, and even

2033
03:40:27.760 --> 03:40:34.799
nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your back and

2034
03:40:34.959 --> 03:40:46.559
your spine will continue to let go, continue to relax

2035
03:40:50.079 --> 03:41:00.559
so calmly, and as you focus on your sh shoulders,

2036
03:41:02.319 --> 03:41:17.559
you may notice that they're already feeding really loose, They're

2037
03:41:17.680 --> 03:41:43.760
already feeding calm, and they're feeding those muscles the move

2038
03:41:44.159 --> 03:41:59.840
from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

2039
03:42:04.079 --> 03:42:25.680
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

2040
03:42:33.040 --> 03:42:41.520
seems to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

2041
03:42:42.760 --> 03:42:55.000
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing.

2042
03:42:57.120 --> 03:42:58.440
The bones.

2043
03:43:03.879 --> 03:43:10.520
And moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

2044
03:43:12.360 --> 03:43:17.120
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

2045
03:43:17.399 --> 03:43:23.440
underneath your arms healing.

2046
03:43:28.840 --> 03:43:29.520
You feel so.

2047
03:43:31.440 --> 03:43:45.479
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep

2048
03:43:46.360 --> 03:44:07.159
healing message into your arms. And you may feel almost

2049
03:44:07.319 --> 03:44:12.079
as if your arms are not even there because they're

2050
03:44:12.600 --> 03:44:55.520
so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose,

2051
03:45:02.959 --> 03:45:14.079
not feeling spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

2052
03:45:17.879 --> 03:45:34.239
including your elbows circumforts spreads.

2053
03:45:38.559 --> 03:45:39.360
Or away.

2054
03:45:41.719 --> 03:45:56.719
Into wrists, your forearments and your wists feeling so heavy.

2055
03:46:00.360 --> 03:46:44.319
Yet at the same time sunlight and gentle focus Now

2056
03:46:45.079 --> 03:47:22.760
on your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands.

2057
03:47:41.239 --> 03:48:04.840
There's a sense of real peace. Just seems to feel

2058
03:48:07.159 --> 03:48:43.079
so familiar when your hands relax deeply mhm ees your

2059
03:48:43.280 --> 03:50:20.920
fingers a things slid less, you thinger tips, moving your

2060
03:50:21.000 --> 03:50:50.600
attention to the front of your body, so comfortable, moving

2061
03:50:50.879 --> 03:50:52.360
your focus.

2062
03:50:53.719 --> 03:52:15.440
To your legs was muscles.

2063
03:52:16.920 --> 03:53:09.600
In your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, a calf muscles

2064
03:53:10.920 --> 03:55:17.200
and just shins com pusy the four and the feathing

2065
03:55:18.639 --> 03:55:45.639
in your feet. So peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm,

2066
03:56:15.719 --> 03:56:29.719
so peaceful, cyclm so peace fa.

2067
03:56:38.280 --> 03:56:40.120
Re sin.

2068
03:56:45.200 --> 03:56:46.719
Peace fa.

2069
03:56:50.319 --> 03:56:51.719
S come.

2070
03:56:59.239 --> 03:57:07.000
Eleven, the deep relaxation. Just spread your chest and your stomach,

2071
03:57:20.079 --> 03:57:38.840
letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down

2072
03:57:38.959 --> 03:57:50.399
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

2073
03:57:50.479 --> 03:57:56.079
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

2074
03:57:56.200 --> 03:58:00.399
each step or twenty steps, and each step reps sense

2075
03:58:01.639 --> 03:58:14.520
a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of

2076
03:58:14.760 --> 03:58:25.479
that comfort and the fervies you walk down those steps

2077
03:58:25.639 --> 03:58:37.879
that a deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

2078
03:58:38.040 --> 04:03:10.799
with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen, sickst eight fourteen

2079
04:04:10.280 --> 04:13:29.120
fourteen too well five eight nine hey seven three five

2080
04:14:48.159 --> 04:19:23.200
four two one, And now as you focus on your eyes,

2081
04:19:32.760 --> 04:19:43.079
we're going to count down from ten dout one, focusing

2082
04:19:44.399 --> 04:19:52.680
just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

2083
04:19:55.719 --> 04:20:04.639
your eyeballs themselves, a whole area that makes up your

2084
04:20:04.719 --> 04:20:21.159
eye and as we count down from ten down to one,

2085
04:20:23.760 --> 04:20:36.680
whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll become twice is

2086
04:20:36.879 --> 04:20:48.719
relaxed with each number counting down that you may find

2087
04:20:52.920 --> 04:20:58.680
the all you want to do is just drift off

2088
04:20:59.040 --> 04:21:08.159
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

2089
04:21:08.319 --> 04:21:21.399
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

2090
04:21:23.479 --> 04:21:26.200
I'm going to begin counting down.

2091
04:21:27.479 --> 04:21:43.159
From ten down to one right now, ten.

2092
04:22:09.120 --> 04:26:53.079
Nine eight seven y five four.

2093
04:27:21.360 --> 04:29:12.559
Fe two.

2094
04:30:40.399 --> 04:30:40.639
One.

2095
04:30:46.920 --> 04:31:01.639
So count and down from ten to one ten nine

2096
04:31:03.360 --> 04:31:31.079
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

2097
04:31:31.200 --> 04:31:34.120
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

2098
04:31:35.360 --> 04:31:39.559
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

2099
04:31:39.879 --> 04:31:47.920
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

2100
04:31:47.959 --> 04:31:52.079
of pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

2101
04:31:52.200 --> 04:31:55.559
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

2102
04:31:55.639 --> 04:32:05.440
STI go floppy just because you're counting down. We can

2103
04:32:05.520 --> 04:32:12.079
try again, but this time I go this slower. This time,

2104
04:32:13.319 --> 04:32:18.280
as you focus on the whole of your body before

2105
04:32:18.399 --> 04:32:25.360
we focus on your legs, just notice how your body

2106
04:32:25.479 --> 04:32:40.440
does start to feel more relaxed with every number that

2107
04:32:40.559 --> 04:33:31.560
I count down ten nine eight seven six five four

2108
04:33:39.000 --> 04:34:30.000
three two one. And just notice how how you feel

2109
04:34:30.119 --> 04:34:40.360
generally how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about

2110
04:34:44.799 --> 04:34:52.040
counting down from ten to one. It's that space that

2111
04:34:52.159 --> 04:35:10.919
you have, that space between being active physically or mentally

2112
04:35:11.919 --> 04:35:20.000
to just sitting or lying down and just being there,

2113
04:35:20.720 --> 04:35:26.159
not doing anything, not saying anything, not needing to think

2114
04:35:26.279 --> 04:35:32.200
about anything. So it opens up a space, you know,

2115
04:35:32.360 --> 04:35:41.720
a bit of a space, a gap. And the more

2116
04:35:43.000 --> 04:35:46.319
I came down from ten to one, the bigger that

2117
04:35:46.560 --> 04:35:57.520
gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

2118
04:36:03.479 --> 04:36:15.799
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

2119
04:36:16.360 --> 04:36:20.560
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

2120
04:36:22.080 --> 04:36:22.439
Away.

2121
04:36:29.240 --> 04:36:30.240
Allows you.

2122
04:36:32.919 --> 04:36:33.439
To just.

2123
04:36:36.400 --> 04:36:43.159
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

2124
04:36:43.560 --> 04:36:53.799
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

2125
04:36:53.840 --> 04:36:59.840
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

2126
04:37:00.040 --> 04:37:17.840
app and gives you that distance, that space.

2127
04:37:20.240 --> 04:37:25.680
Now ten.

2128
04:37:30.040 --> 04:39:27.040
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one. How

2129
04:39:27.119 --> 04:39:30.919
does your body feel.

2130
04:39:32.880 --> 04:39:33.040
Now?

2131
04:39:45.759 --> 04:40:02.040
Can you notice that the feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

2132
04:40:24.520 --> 04:40:28.880
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

2133
04:40:44.840 --> 04:41:05.000
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2134
04:41:05.119 --> 04:41:10.400
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because.

2135
04:41:13.439 --> 04:41:14.240
I'm sure, like.

2136
04:41:14.360 --> 04:41:16.840
Most of your body is not a lot going on

2137
04:41:17.080 --> 04:41:29.479
right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

2138
04:41:32.319 --> 04:41:36.040
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

2139
04:41:38.240 --> 04:41:42.720
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

2140
04:41:42.799 --> 04:41:48.040
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

2141
04:41:49.119 --> 04:42:04.639
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joints. Now,

2142
04:42:04.720 --> 04:42:11.720
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area,

2143
04:42:12.240 --> 04:42:18.200
it's very strong. Probably the strongest muscles in your body

2144
04:42:18.840 --> 04:42:33.200
are in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

2145
04:42:35.200 --> 04:42:47.919
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

2146
04:42:48.599 --> 04:43:08.000
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

2147
04:43:10.639 --> 04:43:24.119
they actually do for us, all for our lives. And

2148
04:43:24.240 --> 04:43:29.919
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

2149
04:43:30.000 --> 04:43:36.919
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

2150
04:43:37.119 --> 04:43:51.599
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

2151
04:43:54.080 --> 04:44:03.360
I thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

2152
04:44:09.959 --> 04:44:15.560
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

2153
04:44:15.599 --> 04:44:18.400
you think, why am I sure that I should be

2154
04:44:18.479 --> 04:44:23.240
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

2155
04:44:27.400 --> 04:44:29.680
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

2156
04:44:30.720 --> 04:44:32.919
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

2157
04:44:33.000 --> 04:44:36.720
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

2158
04:44:36.759 --> 04:44:45.400
from the tree. If you move down to your knees,

2159
04:44:47.279 --> 04:44:55.200
getting such an important part, and I think we don't

2160
04:44:55.279 --> 04:45:03.159
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

2161
04:45:04.919 --> 04:45:10.000
all that my knees do for me until I have

2162
04:45:10.119 --> 04:45:13.520
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

2163
04:45:15.119 --> 04:45:19.080
maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

2164
04:45:20.799 --> 04:45:27.000
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

2165
04:45:27.080 --> 04:45:33.040
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

2166
04:45:34.799 --> 04:45:42.040
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

2167
04:45:42.279 --> 04:45:50.639
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

2168
04:45:54.759 --> 04:45:59.400
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

2169
04:45:59.439 --> 04:46:06.959
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

2170
04:46:08.479 --> 04:46:11.080
and love to your knees for all that they do

2171
04:46:11.279 --> 04:46:24.279
for you. And you can still have that attention on

2172
04:46:24.400 --> 04:46:30.599
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

2173
04:46:30.919 --> 04:46:32.119
you've noticed that.

2174
04:46:32.439 --> 04:46:33.759
They are.

2175
04:46:35.520 --> 04:46:51.880
Relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms

2176
04:46:51.919 --> 04:46:56.159
of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles, and

2177
04:46:56.279 --> 04:47:04.080
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of

2178
04:47:04.200 --> 04:47:15.240
course your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's had

2179
04:47:16.119 --> 04:47:21.560
even like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how

2180
04:47:23.240 --> 04:47:33.560
how much we take our ankles for granted. And it's

2181
04:47:33.639 --> 04:47:35.720
kind of strange in a way when you think that.

2182
04:47:38.279 --> 04:47:42.240
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

2183
04:47:42.360 --> 04:47:46.439
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

2184
04:47:46.959 --> 04:47:50.040
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

2185
04:47:50.159 --> 04:47:57.799
picking stuff up. But our ankles so much thinner than

2186
04:47:57.840 --> 04:48:06.919
the rest of our legs, and from a physics perspective

2187
04:48:08.200 --> 04:48:12.400
or logical even it doesn't really make sense that all

2188
04:48:12.479 --> 04:48:21.200
this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles then

2189
04:48:21.319 --> 04:48:34.479
leading to your feet that thin area, a thin bone. Yeah,

2190
04:48:34.560 --> 04:48:40.240
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

2191
04:48:40.360 --> 04:48:52.200
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

2192
04:48:52.400 --> 04:49:05.680
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

2193
04:49:05.720 --> 04:49:13.360
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

2194
04:49:13.400 --> 04:49:18.479
point in calf muscles. I didn't seem to do anything Okay,

2195
04:49:19.599 --> 04:49:23.159
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

2196
04:49:23.200 --> 04:49:26.720
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

2197
04:49:26.840 --> 04:49:31.240
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs,

2198
04:49:36.799 --> 04:49:49.439
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

2199
04:49:49.520 --> 04:49:54.200
in a way, almost as a protector for the bone,

2200
04:50:01.799 --> 04:50:13.680
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

2201
04:50:13.799 --> 04:50:15.680
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

2202
04:50:15.759 --> 04:50:22.200
going to focus on the legs. I realize that now

2203
04:50:22.279 --> 04:50:26.840
that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focuses on them anyway,

2204
04:50:27.400 --> 04:50:29.720
So maybe I should focus on your feet.

2205
04:50:29.439 --> 04:50:29.959
A little bit.

2206
04:50:34.000 --> 04:50:38.400
You can have them in your awareness the same as

2207
04:50:38.479 --> 04:50:42.840
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

2208
04:50:42.959 --> 04:50:46.959
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

2209
04:50:48.720 --> 04:50:59.520
we've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

2210
04:50:59.759 --> 04:51:15.119
of comfort in your thighs and this that movement of

2211
04:51:15.520 --> 04:51:24.919
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

2212
04:51:25.000 --> 04:51:29.759
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

2213
04:51:29.959 --> 04:51:43.279
in our thighs, but the skin on the outside of

2214
04:51:43.360 --> 04:51:48.680
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

2215
04:51:49.479 --> 04:52:01.080
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch sensive to temperature,

2216
04:52:07.639 --> 04:52:15.159
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

2217
04:52:15.200 --> 04:52:19.959
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, it's all this stuff

2218
04:52:20.159 --> 04:52:28.799
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

2219
04:52:28.959 --> 04:52:33.080
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

2220
04:52:33.159 --> 04:52:39.360
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

2221
04:52:39.599 --> 04:52:42.520
of course, but to be able to get deep into

2222
04:52:42.599 --> 04:52:47.400
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

2223
04:52:47.479 --> 04:52:54.479
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

2224
04:52:54.560 --> 04:53:03.799
in all the veins and just gently healing your thighs,

2225
04:53:07.720 --> 04:53:12.959
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

2226
04:53:14.439 --> 04:53:21.240
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips spreading

2227
04:53:21.319 --> 04:53:27.080
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

2228
04:53:32.479 --> 04:53:36.200
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

2229
04:53:36.319 --> 04:53:42.279
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

2230
04:53:42.520 --> 04:53:48.400
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

2231
04:53:49.799 --> 04:53:53.159
That might be because it's an area that's not really

2232
04:53:53.319 --> 04:53:59.759
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part that

2233
04:54:00.159 --> 04:54:06.880
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

2234
04:54:07.000 --> 04:54:11.880
that has a sensitivity which is a little bit different.

2235
04:54:19.720 --> 04:54:29.639
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

2236
04:54:29.680 --> 04:54:35.040
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

2237
04:54:40.439 --> 04:54:44.360
that fold in between your legs. You can just massage

2238
04:54:44.439 --> 04:54:51.479
with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in

2239
04:54:51.639 --> 04:55:00.360
the muscle tissue. You can of course field the the

2240
04:55:00.520 --> 04:55:13.319
bones of your knees, healing through your fingertips. And then

2241
04:55:13.400 --> 04:55:19.119
as you go down to your calf muscles. Now that's

2242
04:55:19.200 --> 04:55:22.680
the part I'd like to be able to really put

2243
04:55:22.759 --> 04:55:29.639
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every

2244
04:55:31.319 --> 04:55:44.080
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part, and then

2245
04:55:44.159 --> 04:55:51.159
doing the same for my shins, massage in and gently

2246
04:55:51.360 --> 04:55:58.159
stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a loving

2247
04:55:58.240 --> 04:56:05.639
way as they deserve to be treated as the precious

2248
04:56:05.759 --> 04:56:09.759
bones that they are, because our legs are so precious

2249
04:56:10.720 --> 04:56:15.319
as in all the other parts of our body, and

2250
04:56:15.520 --> 04:56:29.840
more precious than anyture on the planet. When you start

2251
04:56:30.000 --> 04:56:41.880
to think about your legs in this way, it can

2252
04:56:42.159 --> 04:56:51.639
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

2253
04:56:51.919 --> 04:56:57.360
silly to start with the idea of having love for

2254
04:56:57.479 --> 04:57:06.680
your legs, showing a appreciation for your thighs, wanting to

2255
04:57:06.759 --> 04:57:12.560
be able to put your hands in your thighs and

2256
04:57:12.799 --> 04:57:19.159
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

2257
04:57:19.279 --> 04:57:27.759
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension. Just to show

2258
04:57:29.680 --> 04:57:37.040
how much you care about your legs, how much you

2259
04:57:37.159 --> 04:57:45.720
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

2260
04:57:46.000 --> 04:57:58.799
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles considering

2261
04:57:59.040 --> 04:58:03.520
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

2262
04:58:03.680 --> 04:58:17.360
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

2263
04:58:17.639 --> 04:58:29.439
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

2264
04:58:29.520 --> 04:58:40.799
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

2265
04:58:40.840 --> 04:58:44.840
of how what weight you are, even if you only

2266
04:58:45.279 --> 04:58:50.000
ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

2267
04:58:50.439 --> 04:58:57.240
little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight stone.

2268
04:58:58.560 --> 04:59:00.319
Double down h.

2269
04:59:02.639 --> 04:59:11.560
Yet my ankles support my body all the time, or

2270
04:59:11.639 --> 04:59:14.520
they do give off a sigh of relief when I

2271
04:59:14.639 --> 04:59:23.279
sit down, as you have my whole legs do. My

2272
04:59:23.479 --> 04:59:30.599
feet feet also go and my toes clap. They're so happy.

2273
04:59:50.400 --> 04:59:59.560
Your legs really are amazing. And I know that talking

2274
04:59:59.599 --> 05:00:06.040
about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

2275
05:00:06.119 --> 05:00:11.720
most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

2276
05:00:14.560 --> 05:00:21.279
but boring or not everything I said is true. Your

2277
05:00:21.439 --> 05:00:41.959
legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

2278
05:00:42.080 --> 05:00:54.639
deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time

2279
05:00:54.759 --> 05:01:00.400
out of the day to just let go compare completely.

2280
05:01:18.360 --> 05:01:26.959
The legs really can relax.

2281
05:01:34.560 --> 05:01:38.680
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

2282
05:01:38.959 --> 05:01:44.880
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

2283
05:01:44.959 --> 05:01:52.200
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

2284
05:01:55.919 --> 05:02:06.759
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

2285
05:02:08.159 --> 05:02:15.000
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

2286
05:02:15.119 --> 05:02:21.959
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

2287
05:02:23.080 --> 05:02:26.119
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

2288
05:02:26.240 --> 05:02:31.439
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

2289
05:02:32.439 --> 05:02:35.040
But it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

2290
05:02:35.119 --> 05:02:40.680
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

2291
05:02:40.840 --> 05:03:03.119
tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

2292
05:03:03.200 --> 05:03:12.040
count down from ten down to one, and you can continue.

2293
05:03:13.240 --> 05:03:14.040
To fill.

2294
05:03:15.560 --> 05:03:44.639
Wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

2295
05:03:47.759 --> 05:03:52.560
Three two.

2296
05:03:56.759 --> 05:04:14.520
One relax. So I'm just going to count down from

2297
05:04:14.680 --> 05:04:19.159
five down to one. And as a countdown, if you

2298
05:04:19.319 --> 05:04:26.200
just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down

2299
05:04:27.279 --> 05:04:31.159
and notice how you feel.

2300
05:04:33.520 --> 05:04:34.680
In this moment.

2301
05:04:36.119 --> 05:04:40.520
As you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

2302
05:04:40.680 --> 05:04:53.720
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

2303
05:04:53.840 --> 05:05:02.200
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

2304
05:05:02.240 --> 05:05:08.279
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

2305
05:05:08.959 --> 05:05:46.759
there's nothing to think about starting with number five, four, three, two.

2306
05:05:52.560 --> 05:05:52.799
One.

2307
05:06:02.240 --> 05:06:14.080
And as you notice the gradual letting go that the

2308
05:06:14.240 --> 05:06:21.880
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

2309
05:06:22.000 --> 05:06:29.200
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

2310
05:06:30.560 --> 05:06:37.159
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

2311
05:06:39.759 --> 05:06:44.959
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

2312
05:06:45.040 --> 05:06:50.919
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

2313
05:06:52.520 --> 05:06:56.159
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

2314
05:06:56.319 --> 05:07:06.680
It's just a continuous circle of relax station. And there's

2315
05:07:06.759 --> 05:07:15.279
that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even

2316
05:07:15.759 --> 05:07:22.520
even if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's

2317
05:07:22.680 --> 05:07:28.560
still going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't

2318
05:07:28.599 --> 05:07:33.560
got the television on, there's no music in the background,

2319
05:07:33.639 --> 05:07:36.319
unless you're listening to the recording with music, of course,

2320
05:07:41.159 --> 05:07:43.319
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

2321
05:07:43.479 --> 05:07:46.560
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

2322
05:07:47.880 --> 05:07:51.119
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

2323
05:07:51.240 --> 05:08:02.560
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

2324
05:08:02.639 --> 05:08:19.799
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

2325
05:08:19.880 --> 05:08:28.599
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

2326
05:08:28.720 --> 05:08:40.840
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

2327
05:08:43.200 --> 05:08:54.080
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the

2328
05:08:54.400 --> 05:09:01.080
sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put no

2329
05:09:01.279 --> 05:09:05.840
effort into it. It's not something that you can really force.

2330
05:09:08.479 --> 05:09:17.840
It's something that happens naturally. And part of the process

2331
05:09:18.240 --> 05:09:29.439
of this recording and others is simply to allow you

2332
05:09:31.840 --> 05:09:42.680
to take advantage of this space, this time, to just

2333
05:09:46.880 --> 05:09:54.439
let go, to just be here, to be in tune

2334
05:09:58.119 --> 05:10:10.240
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

2335
05:10:10.520 --> 05:10:22.599
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

2336
05:10:22.840 --> 05:10:27.759
on what it is that you wish for yourself.

2337
05:10:29.000 --> 05:10:29.799
In this moment.

2338
05:10:36.799 --> 05:10:46.159
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

2339
05:10:46.279 --> 05:10:51.439
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

2340
05:10:51.599 --> 05:10:59.360
tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed do you become,

2341
05:11:03.319 --> 05:11:21.279
the easier you find yourself drifting, you can also if

2342
05:11:21.360 --> 05:11:32.200
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

2343
05:11:38.119 --> 05:12:01.400
the process of gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

2344
05:12:06.479 --> 05:12:35.639
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

2345
05:12:41.639 --> 05:12:45.680
This time, I an a count from six down to one,

2346
05:12:50.560 --> 05:12:52.200
and you can notice.

2347
05:12:53.119 --> 05:12:54.159
Your mind.

2348
05:12:56.439 --> 05:12:58.360
Calming down more.

2349
05:12:59.599 --> 05:13:04.240
We've each number that you hear me.

2350
05:13:04.479 --> 05:15:52.439
Say naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful. Six, five, four, three, two, one,

2351
05:16:13.599 --> 05:16:23.200
being aware of how your mind has slowed right down,

2352
05:16:26.439 --> 05:16:49.840
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2353
05:16:50.119 --> 05:17:00.240
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there. Yeah,

2354
05:17:02.680 --> 05:17:12.200
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

2355
05:17:12.279 --> 05:17:12.919
your attention.

2356
05:17:19.919 --> 05:17:21.159
So what you can do is.

2357
05:17:26.720 --> 05:17:39.240
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

2358
05:17:40.959 --> 05:17:45.200
like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

2359
05:17:46.639 --> 05:17:53.799
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

2360
05:17:54.000 --> 05:17:58.680
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them.

2361
05:18:00.119 --> 05:18:01.439
You just need them.

2362
05:18:02.680 --> 05:18:14.680
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

2363
05:18:18.279 --> 05:18:18.680
For now.

2364
05:18:26.560 --> 05:18:31.560
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

2365
05:18:31.759 --> 05:18:36.959
count down this time from seven down to one. With

2366
05:18:37.119 --> 05:18:51.040
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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05:18:52.639 --> 05:19:04.479
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

2368
05:19:05.880 --> 05:19:20.880
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2369
05:19:21.040 --> 05:21:47.720
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one.

2370
05:22:04.360 --> 05:22:21.319
And as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

2371
05:22:21.520 --> 05:22:43.040
your body, we're going to focus on your hands, because

2372
05:22:43.159 --> 05:22:49.400
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

2373
05:22:49.479 --> 05:23:10.240
body and mind are. And there's you focus on your

2374
05:23:10.439 --> 05:23:20.639
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

2375
05:23:21.599 --> 05:23:26.680
There's no clenching of fists or dents in the fingers

2376
05:23:26.799 --> 05:23:40.360
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

2377
05:23:40.599 --> 05:24:08.759
your hands, noticing how they feel, because the more relaxed

2378
05:24:09.200 --> 05:24:18.880
your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and the

2379
05:24:19.240 --> 05:24:27.319
more comfort you feel throughout your body.

2380
05:24:33.279 --> 05:24:36.360
You may.

2381
05:24:38.639 --> 05:25:21.080
Have already noticed your mind is starting to drest f

2382
05:25:21.400 --> 05:25:36.520
since just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

2383
05:25:39.000 --> 05:25:50.479
experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

2384
05:25:50.599 --> 05:26:16.639
and fingers more and more relaxed. With each number from

2385
05:26:16.799 --> 05:26:30.159
eight down to one, you can almost feel that healing

2386
05:26:31.639 --> 05:26:44.119
and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming.

2387
05:26:48.000 --> 05:26:49.599
Year more.

2388
05:26:51.520 --> 05:27:09.119
Relaxing with each number, yeah, going down from eight down to.

2389
05:27:09.360 --> 05:29:20.279
One, drifting, drifting again, starting with number eight, seven, six, five,

2390
05:29:44.799 --> 05:31:31.680
four three foo. Just being here now, nothing to think about,

2391
05:31:33.439 --> 05:31:44.840
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

2392
05:31:49.439 --> 05:31:56.919
And this is your natural state of being. This is

2393
05:31:57.200 --> 05:32:03.840
how you just normally feel when you take away all

2394
05:32:04.040 --> 05:32:10.959
that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

2395
05:32:11.400 --> 05:32:27.080
stress and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally

2396
05:32:27.279 --> 05:32:33.279
thinking about stuff. When you take that away, which is

2397
05:32:33.360 --> 05:32:42.599
what we do what we do now, you're left with

2398
05:32:45.400 --> 05:32:54.400
a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly,

2399
05:32:58.599 --> 05:33:09.439
because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort.

2400
05:33:13.080 --> 05:33:16.360
It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've

2401
05:33:16.479 --> 05:33:31.119
found a special place where everything is peaceful, a place

2402
05:33:31.319 --> 05:33:39.200
where you can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort,

2403
05:33:42.360 --> 05:33:49.759
a place where you can be you, where you can

2404
05:33:50.520 --> 05:33:57.159
accept yourself for who you are, a place where you're

2405
05:33:57.200 --> 05:34:07.639
not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

2406
05:34:07.799 --> 05:34:17.200
you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

2407
05:34:17.360 --> 05:34:26.799
ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

2408
05:34:35.680 --> 05:34:42.279
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

2409
05:34:49.919 --> 05:34:57.759
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

2410
05:34:58.119 --> 05:35:13.360
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

2411
05:35:13.479 --> 05:35:23.479
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

2412
05:35:27.240 --> 05:35:34.119
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

2413
05:35:40.040 --> 05:35:44.639
and you start to realize that actually, that healing energy,

2414
05:35:47.119 --> 05:35:53.520
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

2415
05:35:54.040 --> 05:36:05.319
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

2416
05:36:05.439 --> 05:36:16.560
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

2417
05:36:16.799 --> 05:36:28.680
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

2418
05:36:31.639 --> 05:36:39.119
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

2419
05:36:39.279 --> 05:36:48.919
that heathing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's actually

2420
05:36:49.360 --> 05:36:59.560
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

2421
05:36:59.639 --> 05:37:06.439
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

2422
05:37:08.360 --> 05:37:15.840
As your health improves, not just your physical health, but

2423
05:37:15.959 --> 05:37:23.400
your mental health. Things that used to bother you in

2424
05:37:23.520 --> 05:37:31.080
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

2425
05:37:31.599 --> 05:37:40.520
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

2426
05:37:45.599 --> 05:37:52.000
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

2427
05:37:55.840 --> 05:38:05.919
no longer have that power to control you the way

2428
05:38:06.000 --> 05:38:14.040
they seem to be able to before. As you realize

2429
05:38:15.040 --> 05:38:27.479
that you're the one who decides what affects you. You're

2430
05:38:28.000 --> 05:38:37.880
the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm when

2431
05:38:38.799 --> 05:38:53.720
you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing,

2432
05:38:56.279 --> 05:39:04.880
continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

2433
05:39:10.759 --> 05:39:19.000
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

2434
05:39:23.919 --> 05:39:33.080
and sleep in It's the most natural thing in the

2435
05:39:33.240 --> 05:39:42.880
world to you, because falling asleep is something that you've

2436
05:39:43.080 --> 05:39:53.759
done so many times in your life, and you know

2437
05:39:54.000 --> 05:39:58.799
that you were born, as we all were, with the

2438
05:39:58.959 --> 05:40:09.959
ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that

2439
05:40:10.840 --> 05:40:22.360
ability to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

2440
05:40:28.360 --> 05:40:33.159
Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep when we

2441
05:40:33.200 --> 05:40:39.720
don't even want to try to stay awake. Maybe it's

2442
05:40:39.840 --> 05:40:44.240
a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday

2443
05:40:44.439 --> 05:40:46.880
or something we look forward to. We don't want to

2444
05:40:46.919 --> 05:40:52.000
go to sleep. But the more we want to stay awake,

2445
05:40:54.240 --> 05:41:01.240
the more we just start to drift. And the more

2446
05:41:01.959 --> 05:41:05.639
you fight drifting, the more you try to stop yourself

2447
05:41:05.720 --> 05:41:10.720
and drift in a shape, the deeper and stronger that

2448
05:41:11.000 --> 05:41:22.400
drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the need

2449
05:41:23.720 --> 05:41:31.799
to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's

2450
05:41:31.919 --> 05:41:46.240
our birthright. It's part of our DNA, and sometimes as

2451
05:41:46.319 --> 05:41:51.880
we get older in life, perhaps at times we have

2452
05:41:52.360 --> 05:42:05.439
forgotten that relaxing can completely It's not only a wonderfully

2453
05:42:05.840 --> 05:42:29.840
pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very easy

2454
05:42:31.240 --> 05:42:34.520
to let go, because.

2455
05:42:34.200 --> 05:42:34.919
That's all it is.

2456
05:42:35.119 --> 05:42:49.799
It's just deciding to let go. And when you press

2457
05:42:50.119 --> 05:42:58.799
the play button on my recordings, you have given permission.

2458
05:43:00.639 --> 05:43:01.799
For my voice.

2459
05:43:03.080 --> 05:43:10.520
To relax you. When you press that play button, you've

2460
05:43:10.599 --> 05:43:14.599
given me permission for my words.

2461
05:43:17.959 --> 05:43:19.159
To affect.

2462
05:43:21.159 --> 05:43:33.119
You in a positive, only a positive way, opening up.

2463
05:43:38.240 --> 05:43:45.599
Your mind to useful.

2464
05:43:46.680 --> 05:44:03.119
And healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect

2465
05:44:05.959 --> 05:44:17.319
on how you feel right now, as well as those

2466
05:44:17.720 --> 05:44:27.240
changes that continue long after the recording ends, those changes

2467
05:44:28.080 --> 05:44:41.799
within you that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your

2468
05:44:41.919 --> 05:44:54.799
life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

2469
05:44:56.119 --> 05:45:01.439
forward in your life in the direction that you choose

2470
05:45:02.919 --> 05:45:19.080
for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

2471
05:45:19.279 --> 05:45:43.639
experience of safety, comfort, calmness, this feels so nice. It's

2472
05:45:43.840 --> 05:45:58.000
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

2473
05:45:59.279 --> 05:46:16.880
within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're going

2474
05:46:17.000 --> 05:46:27.759
to find that you're more relaxed physically and in your

2475
05:46:27.880 --> 05:46:37.919
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower,

2476
05:46:40.200 --> 05:46:43.840
it's just that your mind will be less clogged up

2477
05:46:44.919 --> 05:46:58.240
with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

2478
05:47:02.279 --> 05:47:10.479
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity arises,

2479
05:47:14.119 --> 05:47:25.279
and you can just say stop, stop, and that negativity

2480
05:47:27.720 --> 05:47:43.639
will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and that

2481
05:47:43.919 --> 05:48:00.400
negativity will disappear. And as you notice that you feel

2482
05:48:01.759 --> 05:48:13.840
way more relaxed than you probably expected, you can now

2483
05:48:17.400 --> 05:48:23.240
congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

2484
05:48:25.000 --> 05:48:30.439
You are the one that has opened your mind up

2485
05:48:31.159 --> 05:48:39.200
to the simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

2486
05:48:39.319 --> 05:48:40.840
in your body and.

2487
05:48:41.040 --> 05:48:41.680
In your mind.

2488
05:48:47.919 --> 05:48:53.799
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

2489
05:48:53.880 --> 05:49:10.720
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

2490
05:49:10.840 --> 05:49:17.799
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

2491
05:49:17.919 --> 05:49:18.279
Doesn't it?

2492
05:49:21.439 --> 05:49:22.240
To feel.

2493
05:49:23.479 --> 05:49:28.880
Calm? All that healing energy is spreading through your body

2494
05:49:30.040 --> 05:49:41.759
and your mind to spend time in a special place

2495
05:49:42.200 --> 05:49:59.040
where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad,

2496
05:50:00.479 --> 05:50:07.240
it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't, This doesn't deserve

2497
05:50:07.319 --> 05:50:15.520
to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2498
05:50:16.560 --> 05:50:33.360
in your life, which makes room feel more comfort, more heathing,

2499
05:50:35.520 --> 05:51:02.759
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it. Just

2500
05:51:06.240 --> 05:51:26.119
the let go with everything. I'm going to count down

2501
05:51:26.360 --> 05:51:35.040
now from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

2502
05:51:37.200 --> 05:51:48.759
If you choose, you can drift to sleep with every

2503
05:51:48.959 --> 05:52:00.520
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as next,

2504
05:52:03.599 --> 05:52:14.880
or if you choose, you can fill twice sleepy now.

2505
05:52:20.279 --> 05:54:20.000
Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2506
05:54:28.520 --> 05:55:14.360
five four. This is your time to just take a break,

2507
05:55:19.000 --> 05:55:30.040
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2508
05:55:38.720 --> 05:55:52.799
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

2509
05:55:57.520 --> 05:56:02.000
And you you're the only person that can make that decision.

2510
05:56:04.880 --> 05:56:07.599
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

2511
05:56:12.400 --> 05:56:22.200
to just relax, to just.

2512
05:56:25.880 --> 05:56:27.159
Take some time.

2513
05:56:28.880 --> 05:56:40.720
Off so that you can focus on your body, getting

2514
05:56:41.080 --> 05:56:55.439
in touch with how you feel physically and in the

2515
05:56:55.599 --> 05:57:04.080
process of this scan where you focus on different parts

2516
05:57:04.159 --> 05:57:15.080
of your body, those parts that you focus on and observe,

2517
05:57:18.040 --> 05:57:26.360
even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

2518
05:57:26.479 --> 05:57:33.959
your body to relax It's kind of expected. You expect

2519
05:57:35.319 --> 05:57:43.000
when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

2520
05:57:48.520 --> 05:57:56.919
because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

2521
05:57:58.680 --> 05:58:09.880
on my words, and as my words guide you to

2522
05:58:10.040 --> 05:58:22.400
focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

2523
05:58:29.520 --> 05:58:45.880
which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

2524
05:58:50.759 --> 05:59:12.840
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

2525
05:59:13.000 --> 05:59:29.840
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

2526
05:59:30.000 --> 05:59:42.680
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2527
05:59:42.919 --> 05:59:57.400
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2528
06:00:01.520 --> 06:00:08.840
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2529
06:00:10.000 --> 06:00:16.880
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

2530
06:00:18.319 --> 06:00:25.080
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

2531
06:00:26.919 --> 06:00:33.119
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

2532
06:00:41.119 --> 06:00:56.880
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

2533
06:00:57.119 --> 06:01:22.200
feeling of comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that.

2534
06:01:25.680 --> 06:01:26.599
Your mind.

2535
06:01:29.840 --> 06:01:43.360
Starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy because it's not needed,

2536
06:01:46.720 --> 06:02:03.040
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

2537
06:02:06.200 --> 06:02:10.759
So if you're listening to this and what you need

2538
06:02:11.040 --> 06:02:16.880
is deep relaxation, that's what you'll get. If what you

2539
06:02:17.200 --> 06:02:17.759
need is.

2540
06:02:19.439 --> 06:02:21.040
To fall asleep.

2541
06:02:22.360 --> 06:02:31.319
Naturally and easily as your mind drifts. That's also what

2542
06:02:31.400 --> 06:02:44.400
will happen, because by pressing that play button on the

2543
06:02:44.520 --> 06:02:51.319
podcast and listening to me, you give permission of your

2544
06:02:51.400 --> 06:03:02.360
body and your mind. In fact, you give the command

2545
06:03:03.880 --> 06:03:14.759
to your body and your mind to relax deeply and

2546
06:03:14.919 --> 06:03:20.680
to drift off to sleep if that's what you want

2547
06:03:24.119 --> 06:03:36.560
or need. And as I focus on the different parts

2548
06:03:36.959 --> 06:03:51.040
of your body, you may start to just drift. And

2549
06:03:51.119 --> 06:03:54.919
then you come back again and you hear me talking,

2550
06:03:55.279 --> 06:03:59.439
and I'm focusing on a different parts of your body,

2551
06:04:04.279 --> 06:04:13.840
and you may find yourself drifting, but you don't realize

2552
06:04:13.959 --> 06:04:21.400
you're drifting until you stop drifting and you're alert again

2553
06:04:22.360 --> 06:04:28.119
to my voice, focusing on a different part of your

2554
06:04:28.200 --> 06:04:39.680
body starts to relax even deeper, because that drifting is

2555
06:04:39.799 --> 06:04:52.240
basically you already in the sleep zone. And the more

2556
06:04:52.319 --> 06:04:58.040
you drift, the longer you drift, and the longer you drift,

2557
06:05:01.159 --> 06:05:13.240
eventually that drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last

2558
06:05:13.400 --> 06:05:22.639
you remember until you wake up in your own time,

2559
06:05:23.959 --> 06:05:28.439
when you experience the right amount of sleep for you,

2560
06:05:32.439 --> 06:05:37.279
because when you do and if you do fall asleep,

2561
06:05:37.520 --> 06:06:04.759
it's extremely pleasant so relaxing, so deep, healing sleep. I'm

2562
06:06:04.799 --> 06:06:12.240
going it feels so nice to relax into your own

2563
06:06:12.400 --> 06:06:20.959
body and mind as you as you feel that heating

2564
06:06:21.240 --> 06:06:34.159
energy is spreading through you, relaxing us so deeply, relaxing

2565
06:06:34.439 --> 06:06:51.200
use so so deeply. As we start to focus on

2566
06:06:51.400 --> 06:07:13.400
your eyes, m even down to your chow, down to

2567
06:07:13.560 --> 06:08:01.919
your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, your chest, stomach,

2568
06:08:09.200 --> 06:08:43.720
your back, your spine, your hips, your legs, your feet,

2569
06:08:52.560 --> 06:09:22.000
your joys and feeling feetings spreading and growing inside your body,

2570
06:09:23.959 --> 06:09:35.560
feeling you up. Now let's focus again on parts of

2571
06:09:35.639 --> 06:09:50.040
your body, focusing this time on your forehead. Now on

2572
06:09:50.200 --> 06:09:59.400
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth.

2573
06:10:11.599 --> 06:10:22.959
Focus then on your fingers. Maybe you could move your

2574
06:10:23.040 --> 06:10:28.639
fingers a little bit. You can focus on each one individually,

2575
06:10:34.880 --> 06:10:42.080
both hands, and even though as you focus on both

2576
06:10:42.119 --> 06:10:47.560
of your hands now they almost seem to just melt

2577
06:10:47.680 --> 06:10:55.639
into one where there is your right hand start in

2578
06:10:55.759 --> 06:11:11.799
your left hand end, almost as if we just mixed together. Now,

2579
06:11:12.000 --> 06:11:39.880
focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees feel. Now,

2580
06:11:40.119 --> 06:11:47.319
focusing on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows,

2581
06:11:53.599 --> 06:11:55.479
just observing.

2582
06:11:56.759 --> 06:11:57.799
The feeling.

2583
06:12:00.119 --> 06:12:32.000
A few elbows now focusing, absurding the back of your neck,

2584
06:12:41.959 --> 06:13:19.439
feeding that energy on the back of your neck, obsurv

2585
06:13:22.000 --> 06:13:41.319
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in your ankles.

2586
06:14:41.319 --> 06:14:52.200
Not to sin, no, you tse on both.

2587
06:14:52.279 --> 06:15:00.759
For your feet. Be with.

2588
06:15:02.840 --> 06:15:13.479
How your toes feel right now.

2589
06:15:26.560 --> 06:16:00.479
H N two. Then how you entire body mhm feels

2590
06:16:10.119 --> 06:17:04.360
noticing your mind feels now letting go, letting go, letting

2591
06:17:05.360 --> 06:17:53.680
go everything, letting go, letting go, letting go everything everything.

2592
06:18:00.040 --> 06:18:03.680
I'm going to start now, and I'd like you just,

2593
06:18:03.840 --> 06:18:09.479
first of all, just to see yourself lying down on

2594
06:18:09.599 --> 06:18:15.759
the message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

2595
06:18:16.159 --> 06:18:24.919
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing

2596
06:18:25.119 --> 06:18:34.520
is really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

2597
06:18:34.639 --> 06:18:36.840
how you look as well. So there's none of that

2598
06:18:37.000 --> 06:18:43.759
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

2599
06:18:44.919 --> 06:18:51.319
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

2600
06:18:51.439 --> 06:19:01.680
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

2601
06:19:02.080 --> 06:19:10.200
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

2602
06:19:10.279 --> 06:19:16.319
of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and

2603
06:19:16.520 --> 06:19:24.639
allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you by

2604
06:19:24.680 --> 06:19:33.159
a message your body. So I want to start off

2605
06:19:33.400 --> 06:19:38.279
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

2606
06:19:39.720 --> 06:19:45.080
just gently, just you can feel what my hands feel

2607
06:19:45.200 --> 06:19:51.919
like really on you, so you can maybe feel the

2608
06:19:52.040 --> 06:19:54.200
warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

2609
06:19:57.880 --> 06:20:01.400
With my hands to the side of your head, not pressing,

2610
06:20:01.560 --> 06:20:07.880
but just holding there very gently, maybe over your ears,

2611
06:20:08.439 --> 06:20:11.400
and a little bit on your face, just so you

2612
06:20:11.520 --> 06:20:18.000
can feel my hands so you can become accustomed.

2613
06:20:18.959 --> 06:20:19.400
To them.

2614
06:20:28.040 --> 06:20:30.200
And now put my hands on the back of your

2615
06:20:30.279 --> 06:20:37.680
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

2616
06:20:37.759 --> 06:20:54.759
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

2617
06:20:55.000 --> 06:21:01.959
stroking the back of your neck to start with, just

2618
06:21:02.000 --> 06:21:06.080
so you can get used to the feeling with my

2619
06:21:06.240 --> 06:21:14.240
hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize that you're

2620
06:21:14.360 --> 06:21:24.360
safe and it's all good, it's all fine. And I'm

2621
06:21:24.360 --> 06:21:28.599
going to start gently messaging the muscles in the back

2622
06:21:28.639 --> 06:21:44.360
of your neck with both hands. Now, this is a

2623
06:21:44.479 --> 06:21:51.479
very trusting situation really, because our necks are so fragile

2624
06:21:52.799 --> 06:21:56.240
and to have someone have their hands around your neck

2625
06:21:57.000 --> 06:22:02.360
in that way can sometimes be problemmatic for people, which

2626
06:22:02.439 --> 06:22:06.720
is why massages are quite good, because it allows you

2627
06:22:06.880 --> 06:22:20.959
to relax and to get in touch with trust, to

2628
06:22:21.080 --> 06:22:33.479
feel peaceful and calm, and there's a massage the sides

2629
06:22:33.599 --> 06:22:41.599
of your neck gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

2630
06:22:43.319 --> 06:22:45.840
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

2631
06:22:45.919 --> 06:22:53.000
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your ears,

2632
06:22:53.439 --> 06:22:59.159
kind of area that side of your neck. Of course,

2633
06:22:59.200 --> 06:23:01.720
there's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

2634
06:23:14.759 --> 06:23:21.799
The message in the back of your neck, especially that

2635
06:23:22.040 --> 06:23:31.479
area where perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message,

2636
06:23:31.840 --> 06:23:35.919
you can actually feel a sense of release in the

2637
06:23:36.000 --> 06:23:43.880
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

2638
06:23:44.000 --> 06:23:49.919
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2639
06:23:59.759 --> 06:24:03.439
Then moving down to that area between your neck and

2640
06:24:03.520 --> 06:24:11.520
your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message.

2641
06:24:13.119 --> 06:24:14.639
That area on both sides.

2642
06:24:16.840 --> 06:24:19.080
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2643
06:24:19.080 --> 06:24:21.319
of people would message if they were going to give you,

2644
06:24:22.279 --> 06:24:23.680
like a shoulder message.

2645
06:24:25.200 --> 06:24:26.200
Even that's not.

2646
06:24:26.360 --> 06:24:29.880
Technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that lead

2647
06:24:29.959 --> 06:24:36.080
to the shoulders from the neck and the game that

2648
06:24:36.200 --> 06:24:43.159
can hold tension and stress. And when massaged sometimes a

2649
06:24:43.279 --> 06:24:50.560
nice deep message is useful, and you decide how deep

2650
06:24:51.240 --> 06:24:52.279
that message is.

2651
06:25:03.599 --> 06:25:04.840
And just allow.

2652
06:25:06.319 --> 06:25:11.400
My knuckles just to dig in to get to those

2653
06:25:11.560 --> 06:25:21.720
muscles and to reading relaxed all the time, being firm

2654
06:25:22.360 --> 06:25:39.479
yet gentle with you and just stroking down the area

2655
06:25:42.319 --> 06:25:48.439
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders,

2656
06:25:54.439 --> 06:25:59.240
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

2657
06:25:59.279 --> 06:26:02.720
bit of the table just to give you a little

2658
06:26:02.759 --> 06:26:13.159
bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've got

2659
06:26:13.200 --> 06:26:16.840
the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the sides

2660
06:26:17.040 --> 06:26:27.599
and the back. Again, this is a part that can

2661
06:26:27.759 --> 06:26:32.959
really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit

2662
06:26:33.040 --> 06:26:43.240
of needing. If if you wish to really release the

2663
06:26:43.400 --> 06:26:51.720
tension to really get into those muscles and you can

2664
06:26:51.799 --> 06:26:56.000
let your fingers in there. You can feel really nice.

2665
06:26:57.959 --> 06:27:05.479
Sometimes it's just being stroked or being massaged quite strongly.

2666
06:27:09.200 --> 06:27:18.599
It can all be beneficial to the reaxation with the

2667
06:27:18.720 --> 06:27:32.200
muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down your arms,

2668
06:27:38.799 --> 06:27:42.319
we do one arm at a time, starting with your

2669
06:27:42.439 --> 06:27:52.680
right arm. Well I do is I just lift your

2670
06:27:52.840 --> 06:27:55.599
arm up, just hold it to the side of you

2671
06:27:58.840 --> 06:28:02.720
that way it still be a ted and I just

2672
06:28:03.119 --> 06:28:17.639
message the tops of your arms all the way down

2673
06:28:17.840 --> 06:28:42.319
to your forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that parts.

2674
06:28:44.840 --> 06:28:48.520
The softer part which is the underpart of the arm

2675
06:28:51.599 --> 06:28:55.319
which leads to the crease in your rowbo the inside.

2676
06:28:56.759 --> 06:29:11.080
It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked,

2677
06:29:14.200 --> 06:29:29.439
can I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving

2678
06:29:29.599 --> 06:29:43.200
down to your right hand, just holding your hand in

2679
06:29:43.400 --> 06:29:53.200
both of my hands, just pressing gently on the back

2680
06:29:53.279 --> 06:30:04.360
of your hand and stretching your fingers slightly at the

2681
06:30:04.479 --> 06:30:19.439
same time, pressing down and massaging each finger, and then

2682
06:30:19.639 --> 06:30:21.799
starting to massage.

2683
06:30:21.319 --> 06:30:23.119
The palms of the hand.

2684
06:30:29.840 --> 06:30:40.840
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

2685
06:30:40.959 --> 06:30:47.400
having your hand held can really be an emotional experience

2686
06:30:47.840 --> 06:30:53.840
sometimes even if it is a stranger, So when you

2687
06:30:53.959 --> 06:30:59.479
don't know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

2688
06:30:59.639 --> 06:31:14.599
maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice, you

2689
06:31:14.680 --> 06:31:25.279
can feel safe. And as I put that right arm

2690
06:31:25.479 --> 06:31:33.639
back down where it was, I did the same with

2691
06:31:33.799 --> 06:31:45.840
your left arm, exactly the same, massage in the muscles

2692
06:31:47.040 --> 06:31:50.799
in your arm all the way down to your rest,

2693
06:31:54.959 --> 06:32:04.759
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2694
06:32:04.840 --> 06:32:18.799
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2695
06:32:25.319 --> 06:32:35.360
stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

2696
06:32:47.439 --> 06:33:15.599
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and I just

2697
06:33:15.799 --> 06:33:28.639
rest your left down, back down. Start to massage your back,

2698
06:33:30.400 --> 06:33:38.400
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

2699
06:33:41.639 --> 06:33:45.599
starting again where we already have been, the area at

2700
06:33:45.639 --> 06:33:52.080
the top in between your shoulders, near your neck, going

2701
06:33:52.200 --> 06:33:56.840
back a message in that area again, but this time

2702
06:33:57.240 --> 06:34:10.279
moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to the middle of

2703
06:34:10.319 --> 06:34:18.400
your back, working from the outside inwards. It's a massage

2704
06:34:18.520 --> 06:34:26.040
in the your back, but the outsides of your back.

2705
06:34:29.959 --> 06:34:31.040
The parts.

2706
06:34:33.279 --> 06:34:46.119
Where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the path

2707
06:34:46.240 --> 06:34:59.159
that connects your front to your back, and just massaging

2708
06:34:59.360 --> 06:35:11.119
down firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down,

2709
06:35:11.319 --> 06:35:14.919
and then moving across a little bit, and moving all

2710
06:35:14.959 --> 06:35:20.799
the way down again, being very gentle. You have firm

2711
06:35:21.000 --> 06:35:32.639
as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine. We

2712
06:35:32.759 --> 06:35:36.840
can message the muscles and either side of your spine

2713
06:35:37.720 --> 06:35:40.720
from the top of your neck all the way down

2714
06:35:43.560 --> 06:35:52.479
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2715
06:35:55.520 --> 06:36:03.919
Sometimes people use knuckle or the two fingers and just

2716
06:36:05.639 --> 06:36:10.279
go your side of the spine almost just push down,

2717
06:36:11.119 --> 06:36:13.400
go all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2718
06:36:15.080 --> 06:36:24.759
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2719
06:36:25.880 --> 06:36:32.799
your body so that you feel more relaxed, but at

2720
06:36:32.840 --> 06:36:49.159
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2721
06:36:49.279 --> 06:36:57.599
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2722
06:36:57.639 --> 06:37:03.159
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

2723
06:37:03.279 --> 06:37:09.959
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2724
06:37:10.040 --> 06:37:14.799
other side and i will pull the muscles gently and

2725
06:37:15.040 --> 06:37:19.799
massage and push from one end that side or the

2726
06:37:19.840 --> 06:37:24.880
way to my side to the middle of fact to

2727
06:37:24.919 --> 06:37:29.639
where your spine is. Massage in that side of your

2728
06:37:29.680 --> 06:37:36.720
spine the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost

2729
06:37:36.919 --> 06:37:42.080
like kneading bread. There's that big area.

2730
06:37:41.919 --> 06:37:42.319
Which is.

2731
06:37:43.799 --> 06:37:54.080
Firm yet lots there to massage. Potentially one of the

2732
06:37:54.159 --> 06:38:00.799
most important places to actually have a massage because you

2733
06:38:01.119 --> 06:38:06.799
really feel it. You really feel the release and the

2734
06:38:06.880 --> 06:38:15.319
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2735
06:38:15.639 --> 06:38:24.080
much from your body that's not useful, starting a healing

2736
06:38:24.240 --> 06:38:29.799
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2737
06:38:39.159 --> 06:38:42.000
The message in this part of your body not only

2738
06:38:42.119 --> 06:38:46.919
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2739
06:38:48.360 --> 06:38:54.000
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2740
06:38:54.080 --> 06:38:57.919
a part that you can really get hold of and

2741
06:38:58.119 --> 06:39:11.759
really massage deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going

2742
06:39:11.799 --> 06:39:13.799
to move over to the other side of your body

2743
06:39:14.319 --> 06:39:23.000
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2744
06:39:23.080 --> 06:39:30.159
lawer back, kneading and messaging from your sides all the

2745
06:39:30.240 --> 06:39:37.360
way to the middle of your back where your spine

2746
06:39:37.520 --> 06:39:51.240
is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at the same time.

2747
06:39:53.200 --> 06:40:05.720
It feels so releasing this mixed to a pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2748
06:40:06.080 --> 06:40:17.720
relaxation or mixed together. Plus, there's that feeling from your

2749
06:40:17.799 --> 06:40:22.959
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2750
06:40:23.040 --> 06:40:27.319
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2751
06:40:27.479 --> 06:40:38.880
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2752
06:40:38.919 --> 06:40:43.840
to move or move further up to your top of

2753
06:40:43.919 --> 06:40:48.360
your body and I we do the same this time,

2754
06:40:49.680 --> 06:40:56.479
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2755
06:40:57.799 --> 06:41:04.000
and messing massage in that area, yeah, up to your spine,

2756
06:41:05.159 --> 06:41:07.759
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2757
06:41:09.560 --> 06:41:15.720
So some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or

2758
06:41:15.759 --> 06:41:19.759
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2759
06:41:21.599 --> 06:41:25.720
because or connected the chest and the back connect together.

2760
06:41:28.840 --> 06:41:32.119
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2761
06:41:32.240 --> 06:41:40.200
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

2762
06:41:43.159 --> 06:41:47.319
of your upper back all the way to your spine,

2763
06:41:51.759 --> 06:41:53.959
and then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2764
06:41:54.599 --> 06:41:57.319
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

2765
06:41:57.439 --> 06:42:03.080
thing as gentle, as.

2766
06:42:04.680 --> 06:42:05.880
Deep as you choose.

2767
06:42:14.560 --> 06:42:19.159
Now move the other side again and do the exact

2768
06:42:19.400 --> 06:42:23.080
same thing with the top of your back on the

2769
06:42:23.200 --> 06:42:32.720
other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2770
06:42:38.159 --> 06:42:47.680
to your spine, and then continue in that all the

2771
06:42:47.759 --> 06:42:52.720
way down, including the lower your middle of your back.

2772
06:43:06.439 --> 06:43:11.159
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your

2773
06:43:11.200 --> 06:43:20.919
thighs and the sides of your thighs, starting with your

2774
06:43:21.040 --> 06:43:24.799
right leg, and massage in.

2775
06:43:26.119 --> 06:43:26.799
The back.

2776
06:43:29.000 --> 06:43:37.639
And the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's

2777
06:43:37.680 --> 06:43:41.119
a lot of muscles there. It's an area that can

2778
06:43:41.159 --> 06:43:45.479
be very tense at times and maybe needs a little

2779
06:43:45.520 --> 06:43:48.959
bit more pressure than the rest of the body that's

2780
06:43:49.200 --> 06:43:49.639
up to you.

2781
06:43:54.560 --> 06:43:56.680
You can gently stroke the back.

2782
06:43:59.240 --> 06:44:03.599
Of your leg squear you know, opposite your knee joint

2783
06:44:04.880 --> 06:44:17.840
or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area. And

2784
06:44:17.840 --> 06:44:25.159
then working down to your calf muscles, massage in your

2785
06:44:25.279 --> 06:44:34.639
calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both

2786
06:44:34.799 --> 06:44:53.400
hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles, in the

2787
06:44:53.520 --> 06:44:59.880
back of your back of your ankles, just gently mess

2788
06:45:00.159 --> 06:45:12.119
arge in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2789
06:45:12.240 --> 06:45:34.919
a little bit. Moving to the right foot, Massage in

2790
06:45:37.479 --> 06:45:38.119
the bottom of.

2791
06:45:38.159 --> 06:45:38.880
Your feet.

2792
06:45:42.959 --> 06:45:54.119
And the side of your fate gently but firm enough

2793
06:45:54.360 --> 06:46:05.119
so they don't tickle, and just allow the pleasure that

2794
06:46:05.200 --> 06:46:11.360
you get from having your feet massaged to just overtake

2795
06:46:11.479 --> 06:46:20.319
you as I continue to message your feet, the bottoms

2796
06:46:20.360 --> 06:46:30.119
of your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel. You

2797
06:46:30.159 --> 06:46:33.119
can put a lot of pressure into your heel and

2798
06:46:33.279 --> 06:46:38.240
it feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be a

2799
06:46:38.279 --> 06:46:50.000
bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently the message in

2800
06:46:50.159 --> 06:46:58.360
the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each one individually,

2801
06:47:06.799 --> 06:47:10.639
moving her to the left leg to do exactly the

2802
06:47:10.759 --> 06:47:21.119
same thing, starting at the top of the thighs, work

2803
06:47:21.200 --> 06:47:25.759
in the back of the thighs and the sides, massaging

2804
06:47:25.959 --> 06:47:36.119
deeply and gently the whole area, working all the way down.

2805
06:47:43.119 --> 06:47:48.880
And this is an area that maybe you could like

2806
06:47:49.040 --> 06:47:57.840
to spend more time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if

2807
06:47:57.880 --> 06:48:02.759
you wanted, I could make a future recording where spend

2808
06:48:02.840 --> 06:48:11.799
more time on one particular area as you move down

2809
06:48:14.680 --> 06:48:26.159
to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles firmly

2810
06:48:28.200 --> 06:48:42.159
and gently, moving down your aincor into your feet. Massage

2811
06:48:42.279 --> 06:48:47.799
in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet,

2812
06:48:52.959 --> 06:49:00.159
stretching your toes, and massage in each tone individually. That

2813
06:49:00.520 --> 06:49:06.000
feeling of pleasure and release that you experience when your

2814
06:49:06.040 --> 06:49:28.200
having your feet messaged feels really good. Now, she turn

2815
06:49:28.360 --> 06:49:39.439
over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just

2816
06:49:39.560 --> 06:49:52.880
going to start again for your neck area, in your shoulders,

2817
06:49:56.880 --> 06:50:07.319
just to get back in touch with that area. And

2818
06:50:07.439 --> 06:50:19.080
as you move up, I can clean my hands, make

2819
06:50:19.159 --> 06:50:24.959
them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

2820
06:50:29.360 --> 06:50:39.439
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

2821
06:50:40.560 --> 06:50:46.360
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2822
06:50:46.520 --> 06:51:03.360
up on your eyebrows, just messaging around, just scalp, massaging

2823
06:51:03.599 --> 06:51:13.840
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, gently

2824
06:51:18.799 --> 06:51:35.840
the side of your neck, your chin mm hmm, and

2825
06:51:36.119 --> 06:51:43.520
just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2826
06:51:47.319 --> 06:51:51.599
starting by massage in the very top of your chest.

2827
06:51:55.159 --> 06:51:56.080
Where the collar.

2828
06:51:55.880 --> 06:52:09.080
Bone is, either side of the collar bone, and then

2829
06:52:09.319 --> 06:52:21.759
just message in the whole of the chest, moving the

2830
06:52:21.919 --> 06:52:35.520
chest around because it's quite a large area. You can

2831
06:52:35.639 --> 06:52:43.720
move from one side to the next, moving my hands

2832
06:52:46.319 --> 06:52:56.759
underneath pretty much where your arms are, stretching up, stretching

2833
06:52:56.880 --> 06:52:59.279
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2834
06:53:04.599 --> 06:53:13.240
moving up over your chest and then moving down again,

2835
06:53:25.840 --> 06:53:30.639
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

2836
06:53:30.959 --> 06:53:37.639
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2837
06:53:37.759 --> 06:53:47.400
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2838
06:53:47.680 --> 06:53:51.240
massage in and slide in at the same time.

2839
06:53:53.000 --> 06:53:54.000
Moving down.

2840
06:53:57.599 --> 06:54:12.919
To just below your red cage, moving down, then messaging

2841
06:54:13.080 --> 06:54:21.720
up again, giving your chest all the attention that it

2842
06:54:21.880 --> 06:54:36.400
needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also going

2843
06:54:36.479 --> 06:54:42.000
to be focusing on your sides as well, an area

2844
06:54:42.119 --> 06:54:48.279
that really doesn't get much attention but feels really good

2845
06:54:49.479 --> 06:54:58.840
when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides

2846
06:54:58.919 --> 06:55:05.639
of your body, just below your arms, all the way

2847
06:55:05.759 --> 06:55:18.840
down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

2848
06:55:20.919 --> 06:55:24.279
We're going to stand one side of you like I

2849
06:55:24.360 --> 06:55:28.880
did when I did your lower back. We're gonna do

2850
06:55:28.959 --> 06:55:35.000
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2851
06:55:38.479 --> 06:55:53.159
gently massaging from one side to the next, moving a

2852
06:55:53.319 --> 06:55:57.639
whole area from below your ribs all the way down

2853
06:55:58.599 --> 06:56:08.400
to below your belly butter and then move around to

2854
06:56:08.479 --> 06:56:18.599
the other side of you and repeat that process of

2855
06:56:19.040 --> 06:56:34.040
relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free. And

2856
06:56:34.159 --> 06:56:38.959
it's something about having your stomach message that's different from

2857
06:56:39.080 --> 06:56:46.279
any other part because we do have a tendency of

2858
06:56:46.439 --> 06:56:51.560
holding a different kind of stress in our stomachs that

2859
06:56:51.680 --> 06:56:59.959
we may not be aware of. As in our message.

2860
06:57:00.040 --> 06:57:07.759
That's your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2861
06:57:09.240 --> 06:57:17.720
around your belly button, and then go in the other

2862
06:57:17.840 --> 06:57:28.000
way around. There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes

2863
06:57:29.880 --> 06:57:39.759
from feeling how you're feeling as a Now, move down

2864
06:57:41.159 --> 06:57:48.159
the tops of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and

2865
06:57:48.279 --> 06:57:51.520
I can do this two legs at the same time,

2866
06:57:53.720 --> 06:58:03.119
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at

2867
06:58:03.200 --> 06:58:11.880
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2868
06:58:12.840 --> 06:58:25.520
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2869
06:58:25.560 --> 06:58:33.319
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2870
06:58:37.479 --> 06:58:47.200
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2871
06:58:53.319 --> 06:58:58.720
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2872
06:58:58.959 --> 06:59:07.279
massaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2873
06:59:08.080 --> 06:59:16.080
your heel, your ankle, your toes, message in every part

2874
06:59:16.319 --> 06:59:24.720
of your feet feels so good. Just to let go

2875
06:59:26.159 --> 06:59:50.040
and enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so

2876
06:59:50.360 --> 06:59:56.720
much comfort, and so many feelings that come just from

2877
06:59:57.360 --> 07:00:14.080
touching your skin. And you can just lie there for

2878
07:00:14.200 --> 07:00:23.439
as long as you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep

2879
07:00:23.799 --> 07:00:53.479
comfort from being massaged by me. Enjoy feeling deeply relaxed.

2880
07:00:59.319 --> 07:01:05.799
And a we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

2881
07:01:08.319 --> 07:01:23.400
In your mind, there are going to be a hundred candles,

2882
07:01:30.520 --> 07:01:36.319
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2883
07:01:36.680 --> 07:01:44.080
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down

2884
07:01:49.279 --> 07:01:56.119
all the way down to one, and each time I

2885
07:01:56.400 --> 07:02:05.479
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

2886
07:02:05.560 --> 07:02:16.560
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically gently

2887
07:02:16.680 --> 07:02:32.400
blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

2888
07:02:32.799 --> 07:02:46.639
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2889
07:02:46.799 --> 07:02:54.240
I'll say the next number to move down, and you

2890
07:02:54.319 --> 07:03:06.840
can just blow that one out as well. And as

2891
07:03:06.919 --> 07:03:17.279
we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more

2892
07:03:17.520 --> 07:03:18.880
and more relaxed.

2893
07:03:21.919 --> 07:03:24.720
If you need to sleep.

2894
07:03:25.639 --> 07:03:37.759
You'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2895
07:03:37.880 --> 07:03:47.919
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2896
07:03:48.080 --> 07:04:06.479
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2897
07:04:13.200 --> 07:04:31.159
more and more deeply tired, And the further you go down,

2898
07:04:33.799 --> 07:04:34.599
the more.

2899
07:04:36.000 --> 07:04:36.880
Your mind.

2900
07:04:38.400 --> 07:04:50.720
Starts to drift. You may find that you stop listening

2901
07:04:50.959 --> 07:05:03.520
to me after a while. And even though there may

2902
07:05:03.599 --> 07:05:12.319
be background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of

2903
07:05:12.439 --> 07:05:27.959
those sounds at the moment, be me start to just

2904
07:05:31.599 --> 07:05:42.720
not even notice them at all, because they are unimportant.

2905
07:05:50.759 --> 07:05:51.439
Where I am.

2906
07:05:54.040 --> 07:05:58.840
I've got the sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the

2907
07:05:58.919 --> 07:06:06.840
pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and there's the

2908
07:06:06.880 --> 07:06:17.439
odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in

2909
07:06:17.560 --> 07:06:34.759
the distance, But none of that seems important whatsoever. More

2910
07:06:35.840 --> 07:06:49.159
candles you blow out, the less important anything is. More

2911
07:06:49.560 --> 07:06:58.159
candles you blow out, the further you seem to.

2912
07:07:00.159 --> 07:07:01.799
Move away.

2913
07:07:07.360 --> 07:07:13.279
From sounds and from general.

2914
07:07:16.360 --> 07:07:27.560
Date days. Stuff seems to just move away on its own.

2915
07:07:32.799 --> 07:07:35.000
You feel more.

2916
07:07:37.279 --> 07:07:59.639
Calmer with every candle you blow out, guiding the next number,

2917
07:08:02.479 --> 07:08:12.000
did you hear me say? And then you blow that

2918
07:08:12.360 --> 07:08:39.840
candle out to so easy so simple. We're gonna start

2919
07:08:40.319 --> 07:08:58.080
by introducing the first candle, which is a hundred first

2920
07:08:58.680 --> 07:09:19.599
candles one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll

2921
07:09:19.799 --> 07:09:37.400
find immediately a slight change in how you feel, as

2922
07:09:37.479 --> 07:09:38.680
well as a real.

2923
07:09:38.799 --> 07:09:39.479
Sense of.

2924
07:09:41.959 --> 07:10:10.000
Positivity growing within you. Relaxation and sleepiness expe ending starting

2925
07:10:10.680 --> 07:10:39.119
with one hundred, flow out that candle now ninety nine,

2926
07:10:57.599 --> 07:12:06.119
candle ninety eight, can do ninety seven, cam ninety six,

2927
07:12:34.159 --> 07:13:56.479
end ninety five and ninety four, candle ninety three, hand

2928
07:14:07.759 --> 07:14:55.080
ninety two and ninety one, ten to.

2929
07:14:58.080 --> 07:15:17.880
Ninety and.

2930
07:15:28.240 --> 07:15:56.360
Eighty nine and fifty.

2931
07:15:57.720 --> 07:16:28.319
Eight and.

2932
07:16:39.880 --> 07:18:57.880
Eighty candle eighty ten, eight five, ten.

2933
07:19:13.439 --> 07:20:57.279
Four, fenn eighty two and two one.

2934
07:22:33.040 --> 07:23:14.080
Can seventy nine, can do seventy eight, candle seventy seven,

2935
07:23:25.439 --> 07:24:26.639
candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle

2936
07:24:30.759 --> 07:25:35.279
seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one,

2937
07:25:46.919 --> 07:26:42.360
candle seventy and do sixty nine candle sixty eight, candle

2938
07:26:44.479 --> 07:27:39.919
sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four mm hmm.

2939
07:27:44.000 --> 07:28:34.840
Candle sixty four can do sixty three candle sixty and

2940
07:28:38.159 --> 07:30:12.080
sixty one, candle sixty and fifty nine, handle fifty eight,

2941
07:30:22.919 --> 07:31:48.439
candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle

2942
07:31:52.439 --> 07:33:09.200
fifty four, handle fifty three handle fifty two fifty two,

2943
07:33:41.680 --> 07:35:14.040
keen to fifty two, candle fifty one, candle fifty candle

2944
07:35:17.919 --> 07:37:13.159
foty nine, candle forty eight, ten forty seven, candle forty six,

2945
07:37:41.240 --> 07:39:00.279
candle forty five, candle woty two, candle.

2946
07:39:04.279 --> 07:41:03.119
Four do you want and forty handle thirty nine, can't

2947
07:41:03.360 --> 07:42:24.000
do thirty eight, I can't do thirty seven ten two

2948
07:42:26.400 --> 07:44:34.200
thirty five, candle thirty four, candle thirty three, hand thirty one,

2949
07:45:17.360 --> 07:48:20.720
shandle thirty and twin ten nine, can fruity paints and

2950
07:48:25.360 --> 07:50:39.599
twenty seven and twenty six, candle twenty five and twin

2951
07:50:41.119 --> 07:51:18.000
kief four, endle twenty.

2952
07:51:18.240 --> 07:51:57.240
Three and.

2953
07:52:00.080 --> 07:52:40.720
Ety two and twenty one.

2954
07:53:15.319 --> 07:53:16.000
And to.

2955
07:53:20.240 --> 07:57:05.680
Winty m and ninety haendle seventeen sixteen, chancel.

2956
07:57:09.919 --> 07:58:27.279
Fourteen and.

2957
07:58:32.560 --> 07:59:18.959
Well woh.

2958
07:59:29.799 --> 08:01:22.080
And even hey yeah, Jame do.

2959
08:01:26.479 --> 08:03:04.040
Nine and eight JO.

2960
08:03:07.520 --> 08:04:02.479
Six, can't.

2961
08:04:48.240 --> 08:04:49.520
Can do.

2962
08:04:53.080 --> 08:05:32.560
Foo and do.

2963
08:06:40.799 --> 08:07:56.520
Seven two? Cant let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2964
08:07:56.840 --> 08:08:02.919
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2965
08:08:04.439 --> 08:08:08.759
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2966
08:08:08.840 --> 08:08:15.080
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2967
08:08:19.959 --> 08:08:35.360
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2968
08:08:39.680 --> 08:08:46.080
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2969
08:08:48.159 --> 08:08:56.279
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2970
08:08:56.360 --> 08:09:01.200
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2971
08:09:01.360 --> 08:09:08.759
effort to set up the right time and place in

2972
08:09:09.000 --> 08:09:15.240
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2973
08:09:15.439 --> 08:09:23.240
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2974
08:09:23.279 --> 08:09:31.959
body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen to

2975
08:09:32.439 --> 08:09:39.520
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2976
08:09:39.639 --> 08:09:47.080
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2977
08:09:47.200 --> 08:09:51.400
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2978
08:09:51.919 --> 08:10:02.159
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2979
08:10:02.279 --> 08:10:10.799
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2980
08:10:10.840 --> 08:10:15.479
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2981
08:10:15.840 --> 08:10:25.080
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2982
08:10:25.319 --> 08:10:29.520
we're going from here to there, we're walking around and

2983
08:10:29.639 --> 08:10:36.959
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2984
08:10:37.200 --> 08:10:45.599
or space to really relax deeply, So it kind of

2985
08:10:45.720 --> 08:10:51.279
waits for you to lead the way waits for your permission.

2986
08:10:55.639 --> 08:11:02.119
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2987
08:11:02.200 --> 08:11:08.479
to say so, we need say okay, it's time for

2988
08:11:08.560 --> 08:11:18.240
your body to let go completely and relax totally. Your

2989
08:11:18.279 --> 08:11:24.759
body just follows. It's all like a breath of relief.

2990
08:11:25.959 --> 08:11:34.400
Ah good, I can now relax. That feeling at the

2991
08:11:34.560 --> 08:11:37.799
end of a day of very physical day that you

2992
08:11:37.959 --> 08:11:41.840
may experience in the past. But you get home and

2993
08:11:41.959 --> 08:11:45.720
you just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick

2994
08:11:45.799 --> 08:11:47.080
your shoes off and not.

2995
08:11:47.400 --> 08:11:50.080
Ah, feels so nice.

2996
08:11:51.880 --> 08:11:55.840
Knowing that you don't have to get up again for

2997
08:11:55.919 --> 08:11:59.360
a little while at least if you choose, you can

2998
08:11:59.520 --> 08:12:08.520
just sit there for maybe an hour to feels blissful.

2999
08:12:12.599 --> 08:12:17.279
And just by sitting down like that, your body knows

3000
08:12:17.880 --> 08:12:22.840
that it's time to relax. Your body has been given

3001
08:12:22.959 --> 08:12:29.840
permission from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind,

3002
08:12:33.200 --> 08:12:43.639
you're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

3003
08:12:44.799 --> 08:12:53.520
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. An

3004
08:12:53.599 --> 08:13:07.759
intensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

3005
08:13:13.360 --> 08:13:20.400
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

3006
08:13:20.520 --> 08:13:26.959
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

3007
08:13:27.080 --> 08:13:30.720
unusual when you first start to relax. If you if

3008
08:13:30.759 --> 08:13:35.119
you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

3009
08:13:35.840 --> 08:13:40.360
giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax,

3010
08:13:41.319 --> 08:13:48.000
they seem more most alien, but it isn't. It's actually

3011
08:13:49.319 --> 08:13:54.479
the most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

3012
08:13:56.200 --> 08:14:04.000
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

3013
08:14:06.680 --> 08:14:08.479
to allow yourself.

3014
08:14:12.360 --> 08:14:13.319
To feel.

3015
08:14:14.520 --> 08:14:21.119
Really calm in your mind. And it is almost like

3016
08:14:21.279 --> 08:14:30.880
a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button and

3017
08:14:31.080 --> 08:14:37.240
all the tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

3018
08:14:37.639 --> 08:14:41.840
like a cog, like the inside of a clock, just unwinding.

3019
08:14:42.479 --> 08:14:46.400
And it's almost like you could see the little wind

3020
08:14:46.520 --> 08:14:51.279
up knob that it's used just going the opposite way

3021
08:14:52.319 --> 08:14:57.639
that you choose to wind it up, and the energy

3022
08:14:58.319 --> 08:15:08.799
that fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power,

3023
08:15:10.119 --> 08:15:17.560
losing its strength as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

3024
08:15:18.720 --> 08:15:28.279
and deeper, and you may find a the more relaxed

3025
08:15:29.639 --> 08:15:40.599
you feel, that your mind starts to wonder. Maybe you

3026
08:15:40.720 --> 08:15:44.919
seem to stop listening to me for a while, your

3027
08:15:45.040 --> 08:15:50.560
mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening

3028
08:15:50.599 --> 08:15:56.279
to me again, and that is just your mind drifting

3029
08:15:56.680 --> 08:16:06.520
to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're

3030
08:16:09.119 --> 08:16:14.479
stressed and tense, we're not may not actually be aware

3031
08:16:14.799 --> 08:16:21.119
of what we need, what we physically or emotionally need

3032
08:16:21.639 --> 08:16:29.360
in this moment. But when you allow your body and

3033
08:16:29.599 --> 08:16:40.720
mind to relax completely and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

3034
08:16:42.240 --> 08:16:46.360
all letting them go allow them to drop onto the

3035
08:16:46.479 --> 08:16:57.200
floor when you start to get in touch with the

3036
08:16:57.439 --> 08:17:09.520
feelings of such relaxation, and this feels so nice, to

3037
08:17:09.639 --> 08:17:15.919
be in touch with the calmness of the different body

3038
08:17:16.080 --> 08:17:29.319
parts as they become looser and looser. Even your breathing

3039
08:17:29.919 --> 08:17:41.360
seems easier and more natural, effortless, as that cool there

3040
08:17:41.880 --> 08:17:49.279
enters through your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing

3041
08:17:49.400 --> 08:17:57.720
in comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out any

3042
08:17:58.919 --> 08:18:06.319
excess remain intention or stress from every part of your

3043
08:18:06.400 --> 08:18:14.159
body and mind. And as you start to focus on

3044
08:18:14.319 --> 08:18:22.599
your mind, maybe you notice that things come to a

3045
08:18:22.799 --> 08:18:33.520
standstill or maybe just much much lower than before, because

3046
08:18:33.599 --> 08:18:40.919
your mind is not really needed when listening to my voice,

3047
08:18:44.799 --> 08:18:50.919
which allows your mind to relax just as deeply as

3048
08:18:51.040 --> 08:19:01.119
your body. And that's synchronicity. Between the relax say of

3049
08:19:01.360 --> 08:19:08.080
your body relaxation of your mind.

3050
08:19:10.439 --> 08:19:11.680
Let you know that.

3051
08:19:13.840 --> 08:19:21.040
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed.

3052
08:19:22.880 --> 08:19:23.880
Really is.

3053
08:19:25.639 --> 08:19:34.360
A great healing experience fear and has.

3054
08:19:38.680 --> 08:19:39.799
So many.

3055
08:19:41.040 --> 08:19:49.799
Positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life. To

3056
08:19:49.919 --> 08:19:56.319
be able to let go over everything and to relax

3057
08:19:57.639 --> 08:20:08.560
completely in all parts of your body and mind. Even

3058
08:20:08.680 --> 08:20:16.759
your bones as are axed, all your muscles are raxed,

3059
08:20:23.599 --> 08:20:37.919
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

3060
08:20:40.919 --> 08:20:41.479
That you have.

3061
08:20:43.119 --> 08:21:00.639
It is also deeply relaxed. And your brain freeze as

3062
08:21:00.799 --> 08:21:14.080
the feel the benefits this healing relaxation. And then as

3063
08:21:14.240 --> 08:21:20.439
you focus on the inside of your scalp where your

3064
08:21:20.560 --> 08:21:28.240
brain is, you can start to realize and notice the

3065
08:21:28.479 --> 08:21:39.880
benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then it's your brain

3066
08:21:41.520 --> 08:21:51.840
continues to react. It sends those messages to the rest

3067
08:21:52.080 --> 08:22:11.319
of your body and your mind to revert more deeply, relaxiny,

3068
08:22:13.360 --> 08:22:29.439
more completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts for concens

3069
08:22:31.759 --> 08:22:38.119
allowed them just to drop onto the floor because they're

3070
08:22:38.200 --> 08:22:46.680
no longer necessary in this moment, In this moment of

3071
08:22:47.040 --> 08:23:12.479
deep relaxation and calmness, filling your brain with deep, concentrated heathing, calming,

3072
08:23:17.759 --> 08:23:36.319
relaxing every part of your brain feeling so loose and comfortable,

3073
08:23:39.599 --> 08:23:56.279
so relaxed, andeaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy,

3074
08:23:59.479 --> 08:24:09.759
that's and deep deep comfort really does allow you.

3075
08:24:13.400 --> 08:24:14.639
To enjoy.

3076
08:24:16.439 --> 08:24:26.040
Those ever increase in sensations of comfort that are spreading

3077
08:24:27.560 --> 08:24:39.360
throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle of your body,

3078
08:24:41.799 --> 08:25:01.799
e deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much

3079
08:25:02.880 --> 08:25:26.080
more content spreading through your body, your mind, be so peaceful, calm, so.

3080
08:25:28.439 --> 08:25:30.279
Very very.

3081
08:25:31.759 --> 08:25:46.599
Peaceful in avery part of your body, letting go a

3082
08:25:47.200 --> 08:26:09.520
everything and everything so peaceful, calm, so relax a very

3083
08:26:10.880 --> 08:26:16.959
second the passes you feel.

3084
08:26:19.000 --> 08:26:37.840
Dper, dper relax dper and dper relax.

3085
08:26:40.360 --> 08:26:59.799
Come so peace for so very peace from your head

3086
08:27:00.119 --> 08:27:11.919
it down to your ties. Such peace and comfort throwing

3087
08:27:12.479 --> 08:27:26.919
all the time, such peace and comfort spreading through your

3088
08:27:27.119 --> 08:27:42.799
body and mind, deep and deeper, such comforts spreading and

3089
08:27:43.240 --> 08:27:50.520
sinking deeper into a muscle your body.

3090
08:27:54.159 --> 08:27:55.799
So you feel.

3091
08:27:58.000 --> 08:28:27.639
Amazing, so relaxed, so peaceful, so peaceful, letting go every

3092
08:28:32.520 --> 08:28:38.720
You're going to do a body scan, focusing on firstly

3093
08:28:38.880 --> 08:28:43.639
how you feel in your body, not trying to change

3094
08:28:44.319 --> 08:28:49.919
how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to

3095
08:28:50.119 --> 08:28:57.279
move away from any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting,

3096
08:28:58.840 --> 08:29:03.919
observing an accepting how you feel in the different parts

3097
08:29:04.000 --> 08:29:10.680
of your body, just allowing yourself to be exactly as

3098
08:29:10.759 --> 08:29:22.240
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

3099
08:29:22.319 --> 08:29:29.720
you actually feel in this moment. I'm going to start

3100
08:29:29.840 --> 08:29:40.799
off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware of

3101
08:29:40.919 --> 08:29:49.159
your hands. I'd like you to move your hands around,

3102
08:29:50.599 --> 08:29:56.200
just maybe move your fingers a little bit. I've been

3103
08:29:56.360 --> 08:30:02.720
enclosing your hands very gently, just so that you can

3104
08:30:04.639 --> 08:30:11.680
get in touch with how your hands and your fingers fell,

3105
08:30:17.080 --> 08:30:36.000
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

3106
08:30:36.119 --> 08:30:40.000
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

3107
08:30:40.200 --> 08:30:45.919
your feet is you've just done with your hands, Maybe

3108
08:30:47.360 --> 08:30:54.759
turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your

3109
08:30:54.919 --> 08:31:08.880
toes gently, only very gently and very slowly, noticing how

3110
08:31:10.639 --> 08:31:12.400
your feet feel.

3111
08:31:14.200 --> 08:31:15.159
In this moment.

3112
08:31:22.119 --> 08:31:27.959
Focusing now and your eyes. And I'd like you to

3113
08:31:28.200 --> 08:31:35.240
just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and

3114
08:31:35.360 --> 08:31:39.840
close your eyes a couple of times to really get

3115
08:31:39.959 --> 08:31:43.759
in touch with how you feel. When you do close

3116
08:31:43.799 --> 08:31:51.840
your eyes, the muscle changes in your eyes when you

3117
08:31:51.959 --> 08:32:01.319
do close them maybe raising your eyebrows, wretches the tops

3118
08:32:01.400 --> 08:32:12.040
of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your

3119
08:32:12.080 --> 08:32:19.560
eyes just so you can hear it again, touch with

3120
08:32:19.799 --> 08:32:27.159
all aspects of how your eyes feel.

3121
08:32:29.639 --> 08:32:30.080
Right now.

3122
08:32:39.479 --> 08:32:45.279
Now focus in on your thighs, and you know it

3123
08:32:45.439 --> 08:32:51.720
just starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very

3124
08:32:53.159 --> 08:33:02.159
very gently, just enough so you can be come more

3125
08:33:04.200 --> 08:33:15.240
attuned to the physical sensation of your upper legs, the

3126
08:33:15.400 --> 08:33:18.360
front of your thighs, and the backs of your thigh

3127
08:33:22.919 --> 08:33:42.319
noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now, moving

3128
08:33:42.560 --> 08:33:51.000
your focus to the back of your neck, just noticing

3129
08:33:51.159 --> 08:33:57.200
the back of your neck, the muscles, and of course

3130
08:33:57.360 --> 08:33:59.720
they lead to the side of your neck.

3131
08:34:01.200 --> 08:34:02.639
They also lead to.

3132
08:34:02.759 --> 08:34:07.639
The top of your back, which leads to your shoulders.

3133
08:34:09.279 --> 08:34:12.959
So as your focus on the back of your neck,

3134
08:34:14.919 --> 08:34:21.360
maybe you can move your head gently upwards as if

3135
08:34:21.400 --> 08:34:28.799
you're looking up. Maybe moving your head down as if

3136
08:34:28.880 --> 08:34:35.799
you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side to side,

3137
08:34:36.959 --> 08:34:50.279
right to left, binly, very slowly and very gently. I'm

3138
08:34:50.360 --> 08:34:56.040
not trying to force anything. It has to be very

3139
08:34:58.400 --> 08:35:04.279
very gentle, just so you can.

3140
08:35:05.759 --> 08:35:07.400
Be more.

3141
08:35:09.040 --> 08:35:21.919
In touch with the feelings with the sensations physical sensations.

3142
08:35:21.159 --> 08:35:29.119
Of how the back of your neck feels right now,

3143
08:35:36.680 --> 08:35:40.639
as we now focus.

3144
08:35:42.959 --> 08:35:48.159
On the tops of your arms, the parts where your

3145
08:35:48.319 --> 08:35:53.479
biceps and your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders.

3146
08:35:57.040 --> 08:36:02.119
Should focus on those parts the tops of your arms.

3147
08:36:04.319 --> 08:36:11.919
You may like to just tense them, but very very

3148
08:36:12.080 --> 08:36:15.520
gently and slowly.

3149
08:36:18.080 --> 08:36:18.520
See you're not.

3150
08:36:18.840 --> 08:36:27.919
Straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

3151
08:36:30.599 --> 08:36:33.000
It's just so that you can.

3152
08:36:35.520 --> 08:36:43.000
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms.

3153
08:36:44.240 --> 08:36:45.639
Are feeling.

3154
08:36:47.439 --> 08:36:58.599
In this moment, and just noticing as you gently, very

3155
08:36:58.880 --> 08:37:07.200
gently and slowly typing the muscles, and.

3156
08:37:07.279 --> 08:37:07.919
Then let go.

3157
08:37:12.200 --> 08:37:17.599
Notice how the tops of your arms feel.

3158
08:37:20.119 --> 08:37:38.360
Right now. As a now focus on your stomach, the

3159
08:37:38.520 --> 08:37:45.680
area the lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving

3160
08:37:45.759 --> 08:37:53.200
all the way down to your hips, just above your grind.

3161
08:37:59.520 --> 08:38:06.759
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

3162
08:38:07.479 --> 08:38:22.720
very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing

3163
08:38:22.959 --> 08:38:29.319
to do, and maybe you can just move your body,

3164
08:38:31.959 --> 08:38:36.919
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to

3165
08:38:37.040 --> 08:38:42.040
the side using your hips, just so.

3166
08:38:42.680 --> 08:38:44.880
You can get more.

3167
08:38:46.360 --> 08:38:47.599
In tune.

3168
08:38:49.000 --> 08:39:01.200
With how you're lower auto an area is feeling in

3169
08:39:01.360 --> 08:39:20.759
this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations of your lower abdomen.

3170
08:39:31.080 --> 08:39:32.119
As you move.

3171
08:39:33.799 --> 08:39:46.919
Your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips and

3172
08:39:47.159 --> 08:40:05.000
inside your mouth, the teeth, your guns, your tongue, just

3173
08:40:05.319 --> 08:40:13.880
noticing how your tongue in your mouth feels. It may

3174
08:40:14.159 --> 08:40:15.000
help by.

3175
08:40:16.959 --> 08:40:21.200
Moving your tongue around your mouth.

3176
08:40:22.439 --> 08:40:28.639
Moving it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against

3177
08:40:30.159 --> 08:40:34.680
the side of your mouth, and then to the right,

3178
08:40:36.240 --> 08:40:43.279
gently to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up

3179
08:40:43.400 --> 08:40:49.599
against the top of your mouth, and then down gently

3180
08:40:51.560 --> 08:41:02.360
against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and

3181
08:41:02.520 --> 08:41:07.360
a very very gentle.

3182
08:41:11.799 --> 08:41:13.040
So that you can.

3183
08:41:16.599 --> 08:41:17.720
Be aware.

3184
08:41:22.520 --> 08:41:44.759
Of how you feel in your mouth area. Now I'm

3185
08:41:44.840 --> 08:42:00.759
going to focus on your wrists. I'm going to ask

3186
08:42:00.959 --> 08:42:09.520
you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your

3187
08:42:09.720 --> 08:42:22.680
hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just.

3188
08:42:24.439 --> 08:42:25.759
So you can.

3189
08:42:31.520 --> 08:42:50.279
Feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your wrists.

3190
08:42:54.599 --> 08:42:57.560
Perhaps move in your hands.

3191
08:42:58.840 --> 08:43:00.439
Up and down out.

3192
08:43:02.680 --> 08:43:29.959
The game very very gently and slowly, very gentz and slur.

3193
08:43:43.479 --> 08:43:44.520
As you now.

3194
08:43:46.959 --> 08:43:49.360
Start to serve.

3195
08:43:53.159 --> 08:44:04.240
You lower back m bad parts just the buf of

3196
08:44:04.520 --> 08:44:21.119
your hips where your coxis are a whole area which

3197
08:44:21.240 --> 08:44:28.599
also really does include the side of your body, because

3198
08:44:28.720 --> 08:44:31.400
those muscles are very much connected.

3199
08:44:36.639 --> 08:44:40.759
There's those muscles also move into.

3200
08:44:40.560 --> 08:44:49.119
Your hip area connecting to your buttocks, the sides of

3201
08:44:49.240 --> 08:45:03.840
your hips, and if you're physically able to do so,

3202
08:45:06.080 --> 08:45:17.240
maybe even very gently, just move your body ever is slightly,

3203
08:45:19.599 --> 08:45:32.720
very slowly, some side to side, just enough, ye.

3204
08:45:35.360 --> 08:45:36.720
S gauge.

3205
08:45:41.439 --> 08:45:59.119
How you feel in your lower back. Perhaps even move

3206
08:45:59.319 --> 08:46:10.639
your heads gently up and down gently, slowly.

3207
08:46:13.360 --> 08:46:14.200
In order to.

3208
08:46:18.799 --> 08:46:28.759
Be in touch with the physical sensations of your lower back.

3209
08:46:45.799 --> 08:46:47.400
As we now, move.

3210
08:46:51.919 --> 08:46:53.279
Your attention.

3211
08:46:56.759 --> 08:46:58.000
To your jewel.

3212
08:47:00.959 --> 08:47:06.599
An area from your chin all the way up to

3213
08:47:06.840 --> 08:47:08.319
near where your ears are.

3214
08:47:11.520 --> 08:47:27.000
Oh, of your jaw, you can just yeah, it's okay

3215
08:47:27.200 --> 08:47:27.799
to do so.

3216
08:47:29.720 --> 08:47:40.240
Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

3217
08:47:41.000 --> 08:47:53.599
gently and slowly opening your mouth in closing your mouth

3218
08:47:55.919 --> 08:48:11.040
very gently, baby, so you can.

3219
08:48:13.959 --> 08:48:15.159
Be in touch.

3220
08:48:21.599 --> 08:48:55.520
With how you jure feels. Now I'm just sitting down

3221
08:48:58.360 --> 08:49:13.240
the chest area. You don't need to do anything to

3222
08:49:13.479 --> 08:49:20.040
move your chest because it moves every time you breathe.

3223
08:49:25.360 --> 08:49:39.240
It moves very gently and slowly automatically with each breath

3224
08:49:39.639 --> 08:49:59.400
you take. As you focus on how your chest yell

3225
08:50:04.880 --> 08:50:39.919
when you pray, move in your focus to your forearms,

3226
08:50:42.439 --> 08:50:58.520
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently, that's slowly

3227
08:51:01.000 --> 08:51:09.560
tense the muscles in your forms. And when you do that,

3228
08:51:10.080 --> 08:51:43.200
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly, gently.

3229
08:51:46.080 --> 08:51:48.080
And softly.

3230
08:51:51.560 --> 08:52:30.680
Obsad your forearms until bers no focus the rest of

3231
08:52:30.759 --> 08:52:31.560
your back.

3232
08:52:35.680 --> 08:52:36.680
Off the back.

3233
08:52:40.959 --> 08:52:58.400
In the middle, the middle of your back again, this

3234
08:52:59.040 --> 08:53:03.639
part of your body. News.

3235
08:53:05.919 --> 08:53:09.119
Also every time you pray.

3236
08:53:14.080 --> 08:53:15.639
You may not notice that.

3237
08:53:17.799 --> 08:53:25.159
Usually makes you serve.

3238
08:53:27.560 --> 08:53:34.520
Your upper back in the middle of your back. You

3239
08:53:34.919 --> 08:54:32.119
can really feel that, gentle and mom moving your focus.

3240
08:54:33.560 --> 08:54:34.319
Into your.

3241
08:54:35.799 --> 08:54:48.639
Area of buttees the gray. There's muscles and those bones

3242
08:54:51.200 --> 08:55:31.959
in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips feel. Right now,

3243
08:55:39.479 --> 08:55:55.279
you can very very gently move your hips, maybe side

3244
08:55:55.479 --> 08:55:59.680
to side, very gently.

3245
08:55:59.520 --> 08:56:34.840
And softly.

3246
08:56:41.319 --> 08:57:04.400
M snow. Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts

3247
08:57:04.560 --> 08:57:14.720
in your mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually.

3248
08:57:16.720 --> 08:57:22.880
It doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting

3249
08:57:23.159 --> 08:57:32.759
to It's almost like time is streng chin. It's a

3250
08:57:32.959 --> 08:57:41.080
slower pace to maybe what you're used to in your

3251
08:57:41.200 --> 08:57:52.439
day to day life. It's a slower movement of energy,

3252
08:58:03.279 --> 08:58:16.240
very small movements which make up the larger movements which

3253
08:58:16.279 --> 08:58:22.520
is always the case. Now, when you move your hand,

3254
08:58:24.080 --> 08:58:26.880
it might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots

3255
08:58:26.959 --> 08:58:34.840
of minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other.

3256
08:58:35.200 --> 08:58:47.159
And what happens in this space that we're sharing is

3257
08:58:52.479 --> 08:58:53.599
we move from.

3258
08:58:56.279 --> 08:58:58.919
That big.

3259
08:59:03.360 --> 08:59:20.439
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how

3260
08:59:20.520 --> 08:59:27.799
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

3261
08:59:27.880 --> 08:59:32.119
i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

3262
08:59:32.400 --> 08:59:37.799
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way,

3263
08:59:37.919 --> 08:59:44.799
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

3264
08:59:49.119 --> 08:59:58.799
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

3265
09:00:05.319 --> 09:00:17.400
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not.

3266
09:00:22.799 --> 09:00:31.880
Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge

3267
09:00:31.959 --> 09:00:39.439
them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is

3268
09:00:39.599 --> 09:00:56.520
just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but

3269
09:00:56.759 --> 09:01:11.840
just noticing what your body. He's telling you, the feelings

3270
09:01:11.880 --> 09:01:18.240
in your arms instead of feeling the whole of the arm.

3271
09:01:19.639 --> 09:01:28.840
They've notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

3272
09:01:33.000 --> 09:01:42.200
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

3273
09:01:42.319 --> 09:01:58.479
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones. Just being

3274
09:01:58.560 --> 09:02:07.360
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

3275
09:02:07.439 --> 09:02:18.759
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

3276
09:02:18.880 --> 09:02:39.599
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on your

3277
09:02:39.720 --> 09:02:52.040
right arm, your right forearm, there may not be any

3278
09:02:52.560 --> 09:02:59.799
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

3279
09:03:03.560 --> 09:03:07.919
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

3280
09:03:08.840 --> 09:03:09.880
You know, it's there.

3281
09:03:16.200 --> 09:03:21.919
The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you

3282
09:03:22.040 --> 09:03:25.759
think about them, kind of almost like they're the same,

3283
09:03:26.919 --> 09:03:32.560
you know, the same feeling, almost like you both of

3284
09:03:32.639 --> 09:03:37.240
your shoulders are just one thing. Of course they're not.

3285
09:03:45.919 --> 09:03:51.240
And when you focus on your left shoulder and then

3286
09:03:51.319 --> 09:03:57.919
on your right shoulder, maybe find that you move the

3287
09:03:58.080 --> 09:04:08.799
muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing

3288
09:04:10.119 --> 09:04:15.439
the difference in each shoulder.

3289
09:04:26.840 --> 09:04:42.680
Your lower back, the left side of your lower back

3290
09:04:42.880 --> 09:04:45.200
and the right side.

3291
09:04:45.000 --> 09:04:55.680
Of your lower back, of course that connection to your

3292
09:04:55.720 --> 09:05:09.080
buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up into

3293
09:05:09.159 --> 09:05:22.040
the middle of your back. And sometimes like right now,

3294
09:05:22.200 --> 09:05:27.000
actually when I focus on their part, when I focused

3295
09:05:27.000 --> 09:05:32.880
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

3296
09:05:32.919 --> 09:05:35.799
of my back, it almost felt like the muscles in

3297
09:05:35.880 --> 09:05:45.919
my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched

3298
09:05:46.000 --> 09:05:52.560
a little bit, even though I wasn't doing anything to

3299
09:05:53.919 --> 09:05:59.639
try to stretch your lower back. It just seemed to happen.

3300
09:06:00.880 --> 09:06:02.279
The feeling of.

3301
09:06:04.560 --> 09:06:18.480
Very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

3302
09:06:22.199 --> 09:06:23.480
I have feeling.

3303
09:06:29.480 --> 09:06:49.720
In your chest, just noticing what sensations you are experiencing

3304
09:06:50.480 --> 09:07:05.559
in your chest right now. And there's so much of

3305
09:07:05.680 --> 09:07:10.400
the chest. Obviously there's the collar bone leading to the chest.

3306
09:07:11.199 --> 09:07:17.400
You've got the chest bone, You've got the muscles.

3307
09:07:19.440 --> 09:07:20.160
In your chest.

3308
09:07:22.919 --> 09:07:29.519
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. You're male,

3309
09:07:31.559 --> 09:07:38.120
you've got the different well why not that different these days,

3310
09:07:38.160 --> 09:07:45.279
But there may be more muscles at the top of

3311
09:07:45.360 --> 09:07:53.000
the chest, but at the side underneath it's pretty much

3312
09:07:53.080 --> 09:07:53.440
the same.

3313
09:07:54.239 --> 09:07:55.440
Whether you're a man or a woman.

3314
09:07:56.319 --> 09:08:02.080
There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to your back

3315
09:08:03.279 --> 09:08:07.319
as well as breast tissue stretches and moves into your back.

3316
09:08:12.199 --> 09:08:23.440
To just being aware of your chest, being.

3317
09:08:30.319 --> 09:08:50.279
With whatever feeling there is in your chest, well, I

3318
09:08:50.480 --> 09:08:53.120
noticed I focused on my chest.

3319
09:08:57.519 --> 09:09:01.040
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

3320
09:09:02.519 --> 09:09:05.559
And mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

3321
09:09:05.639 --> 09:09:15.519
you know, I'll breathe in in and it stretches my

3322
09:09:15.839 --> 09:09:18.120
chest and my back at the same time.

3323
09:09:26.080 --> 09:09:26.680
It feels.

3324
09:09:29.959 --> 09:09:41.599
It feels okay, it doesn't feel I got a little

3325
09:09:41.639 --> 09:09:48.040
bit of pain in my right chest, a little bit,

3326
09:09:48.239 --> 09:09:54.319
not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I

3327
09:09:54.400 --> 09:10:01.440
don't know. I notice my shoulders are also.

3328
09:10:02.800 --> 09:10:03.440
Wanting to.

3329
09:10:05.760 --> 09:10:10.440
Flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

3330
09:10:10.599 --> 09:10:18.919
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and my

3331
09:10:19.000 --> 09:10:24.559
other back. Because I can move my shoulders and stretch

3332
09:10:24.720 --> 09:10:32.160
the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up,

3333
09:10:34.160 --> 09:10:38.040
which then moves I think it's the scapulous.

3334
09:10:39.959 --> 09:10:40.559
In your back.

3335
09:10:50.599 --> 09:10:58.279
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

3336
09:10:58.559 --> 09:11:03.319
is you can, if you want to, you can just

3337
09:11:06.919 --> 09:11:18.599
flax or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

3338
09:11:20.040 --> 09:11:23.519
in order to get more of a sense of how

3339
09:11:23.599 --> 09:11:38.639
they feel. And when you're relaxing and you detense and

3340
09:11:38.800 --> 09:11:43.239
muscle and you let it go and you let it relax,

3341
09:11:44.480 --> 09:11:56.720
it relaxes way more than it would normally. And you

3342
09:11:56.919 --> 09:12:03.599
have to feel that you're able to do that. There's

3343
09:12:03.680 --> 09:12:09.120
no point in doing it if there's an issue with

3344
09:12:09.319 --> 09:12:14.680
the per part of your body. You need to be

3345
09:12:15.319 --> 09:12:25.080
gentle with yourself at all times when you relax in deeply,

3346
09:12:28.080 --> 09:12:43.319
it's important to be kind to yourself as you notice

3347
09:12:43.519 --> 09:12:44.080
your mind.

3348
09:12:48.440 --> 09:12:52.199
How much has your mind slowed down.

3349
09:12:54.319 --> 09:12:57.680
Since we started this recording.

3350
09:13:13.720 --> 09:13:29.319
How come and peaceful is your mind right now? We

3351
09:13:29.360 --> 09:13:34.919
have nothing to think about and just my voice to

3352
09:13:35.080 --> 09:13:45.760
listen to. Because you know the intention behind this recording,

3353
09:13:47.199 --> 09:13:54.800
this relaxation, at the very least, for you to feel

3354
09:13:55.080 --> 09:13:59.839
more relaxed at the end of recording than you did

3355
09:14:00.199 --> 09:14:12.040
at the beginning, at the very least, to your mind

3356
09:14:12.919 --> 09:14:14.800
to slow down.

3357
09:14:18.000 --> 09:14:23.639
Your body continues to relax.

3358
09:14:28.480 --> 09:14:39.360
Because that's what you want to happen. That's what you

3359
09:14:40.040 --> 09:15:08.720
expect to happen, for relaxation to fill your d maybe

3360
09:15:09.160 --> 09:15:17.279
calm in your mind to the point of boredom when

3361
09:15:17.360 --> 09:16:01.319
you start maybe to drift away. It's all amost as

3362
09:16:01.400 --> 09:16:11.000
if you're moving further away from a body in your mind,

3363
09:16:13.400 --> 09:16:25.239
just leaving that there, kind of liking it. And Escape

3364
09:16:25.360 --> 09:16:30.400
Pod and the Spaceship a movie, a space movie, you

3365
09:16:30.519 --> 09:16:34.559
know when it gets a little part in it since

3366
09:16:34.680 --> 09:16:51.080
the man far away from the spaceship Save dream.

3367
09:17:05.680 --> 09:17:48.639
Twos, slow.

3368
09:18:00.319 --> 09:18:01.199
And be so.

3369
09:18:17.559 --> 09:18:19.160
Oh lor.

3370
09:18:31.720 --> 09:18:53.839
O pie soil good.

3371
09:18:53.959 --> 09:19:09.199
Focus see on that feeving of those individual parts your body.

3372
09:19:09.879 --> 09:19:14.720
That are relaxing.

3373
09:19:15.959 --> 09:19:16.639
One by one.

3374
09:19:24.319 --> 09:19:27.559
You may find that.

3375
09:19:31.919 --> 09:19:32.599
Every now and.

3376
09:19:32.760 --> 09:19:44.080
Then you realize that you are listening to my voice

3377
09:19:46.720 --> 09:19:58.440
because your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started

3378
09:19:58.559 --> 09:20:07.120
to almost move into some kind of a dreamy state.

3379
09:20:11.959 --> 09:20:14.599
And then you become aware of my voice again.

3380
09:20:18.199 --> 09:20:20.639
And even though you may.

3381
09:20:22.440 --> 09:20:27.480
Want to focus on my voice, you may also wish

3382
09:20:27.800 --> 09:20:41.160
to allow your mind to just drift naturally into that

3383
09:20:41.480 --> 09:21:04.279
space of comfort and safety. As you feel warm comfort.

3384
09:21:05.599 --> 09:21:07.879
Spreading through your body.

3385
09:21:10.480 --> 09:21:24.440
Like a warm blanket covering you gently, keeping your body

3386
09:21:24.559 --> 09:21:43.639
at just the perfect temperature. Even if you can hear

3387
09:21:43.800 --> 09:21:56.839
the background sounds, they just don't seem to matter anymore.

3388
09:22:02.199 --> 09:22:18.599
There's that sensor peace spreads through your mind like a

3389
09:22:18.800 --> 09:22:35.559
gentle breeze, Yes, strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong.

3390
09:22:35.319 --> 09:22:35.760
Enough to.

3391
09:22:39.199 --> 09:22:49.319
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

3392
09:22:49.519 --> 09:23:05.040
there before, and blow away the other thoughts, feelings that

3393
09:23:07.519 --> 09:23:31.480
just don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling.

3394
09:23:33.639 --> 09:23:34.519
Your body.

3395
09:23:39.199 --> 09:23:40.120
And your mind.

3396
09:23:54.839 --> 09:23:59.879
This you focus on your mind, you count.

3397
09:23:59.680 --> 09:24:02.599
Down from ten down to one.

3398
09:24:04.599 --> 09:24:10.959
Each number you hear, your mind.

3399
09:24:13.760 --> 09:24:14.680
Will become.

3400
09:24:20.440 --> 09:24:26.839
Slightly h.

3401
09:24:29.839 --> 09:24:39.120
Relaxed, just just slightly, from.

3402
09:24:39.040 --> 09:24:46.519
Ten down to nine, just a slight movement, nine down

3403
09:24:46.599 --> 09:24:49.400
to eight, just a number.

3404
09:24:50.919 --> 09:24:51.800
Small.

3405
09:24:55.879 --> 09:25:08.480
Change in how you feel eight down to seven, that

3406
09:25:08.879 --> 09:25:14.760
feelings is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

3407
09:25:15.120 --> 09:25:22.760
to get the wider, the gap between those feelings.

3408
09:25:23.839 --> 09:25:27.120
That you used to have in your mind.

3409
09:25:30.160 --> 09:25:37.279
Compared to the feelings you have. The growing now even

3410
09:25:37.400 --> 09:25:46.800
is of comfort and security and confidence, and the gap

3411
09:25:47.239 --> 09:25:53.360
becomes wider. Eight down to seven, seven down to six.

3412
09:25:57.040 --> 09:26:02.199
When you get to five, your mind will start to

3413
09:26:03.519 --> 09:26:15.879
have a certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet

3414
09:26:16.480 --> 09:26:23.400
outside of your head sucking contension and a stress and

3415
09:26:23.519 --> 09:26:27.839
any remaining feelings that you don't want.

3416
09:26:29.639 --> 09:26:39.440
Sucking them out through your skull. And in down to four.

3417
09:26:41.160 --> 09:26:47.919
You can start to really experience that sense of not

3418
09:26:48.239 --> 09:26:58.440
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

3419
09:27:03.279 --> 09:27:10.000
the place where you can stretch. It's almost as if

3420
09:27:10.080 --> 09:27:14.120
as you go down to four and three your mind

3421
09:27:14.319 --> 09:27:18.599
is expanding with this sense.

3422
09:27:21.199 --> 09:27:22.519
Of peace.

3423
09:27:23.919 --> 09:27:26.639
And tranquility, growing.

3424
09:27:29.080 --> 09:27:37.440
It moves down to when you get to one, your mind.

3425
09:27:40.400 --> 09:27:53.480
Just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling,

3426
09:27:59.319 --> 09:28:04.160
maybe the sensation that.

3427
09:28:05.760 --> 09:28:07.239
You'd like to keep.

3428
09:28:10.239 --> 09:28:21.040
The place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

3429
09:28:32.720 --> 09:28:36.720
and you can stay in that that space of a

3430
09:28:36.879 --> 09:28:47.279
countfort confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

3431
09:28:48.199 --> 09:28:54.199
space and this feel of comfort within your own mind

3432
09:28:55.760 --> 09:28:58.319
just by accounting ten.

3433
09:29:00.040 --> 09:29:00.599
Down to one.

3434
09:29:05.199 --> 09:29:08.559
And this is something that you can do to yourself.

3435
09:29:09.559 --> 09:29:16.639
When you're on your own, the time when you can

3436
09:29:16.760 --> 09:29:20.680
maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes.

3437
09:29:24.919 --> 09:29:31.959
Close your eyes, just count slowly.

3438
09:29:32.120 --> 09:29:36.519
From ten down to one.

3439
09:29:41.120 --> 09:29:45.839
Can you experience these feelings.

3440
09:29:46.919 --> 09:29:47.639
In your mind?

3441
09:29:53.519 --> 09:29:57.839
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

3442
09:29:57.919 --> 09:30:12.440
body copies your mind, and a feeling its spread through

3443
09:30:12.680 --> 09:30:19.800
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

3444
09:30:19.879 --> 09:30:35.000
your body, travels through your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing every

3445
09:30:36.000 --> 09:30:38.080
particle of your existence.

3446
09:30:50.800 --> 09:30:54.440
And we can we can practice this a few.

3447
09:30:54.360 --> 09:31:02.239
Times before you had to be recorded, and then.

3448
09:31:02.199 --> 09:31:05.199
You can break this on your own.

3449
09:31:07.440 --> 09:31:17.959
Each time you count for ten about one, the feelings

3450
09:31:18.160 --> 09:31:41.360
of comforts, calms, deep deep relaxation becomes stronger, deep mind

3451
09:31:42.279 --> 09:31:53.879
grain with these positive chemicals spread throughout your body, relaxing

3452
09:31:56.040 --> 09:32:05.519
so quickly, relaxing your whole putting your mind so very,

3453
09:32:07.239 --> 09:32:13.120
very easily, just by counting.

3454
09:32:14.559 --> 09:32:25.919
Ten down to one. So we're gonna do now. I'm

3455
09:32:25.919 --> 09:32:30.120
gonna count from ten down to one. I'd like you

3456
09:32:30.400 --> 09:32:35.080
to repeat the number after me. So when I say ten,

3457
09:32:38.120 --> 09:32:38.480
you can.

3458
09:32:38.480 --> 09:32:41.199
Just repeat to yourself.

3459
09:32:42.559 --> 09:32:42.800
Ten.

3460
09:32:48.440 --> 09:32:53.599
Just notice, be aware of how you feel.

3461
09:32:57.480 --> 09:33:04.480
In your mind and your body. Then when the same

3462
09:33:04.760 --> 09:33:10.040
nine you can beat to your son.

3463
09:33:13.080 --> 09:33:28.559
Nine became noticing the increase in comfort, a harmless.

3464
09:33:28.199 --> 09:33:38.440
In your mind and in your body the same. Can

3465
09:33:38.519 --> 09:33:39.559
I say eight.

3466
09:33:42.360 --> 09:33:54.199
When I say seven, six, when I say five, four.

3467
09:33:57.959 --> 09:34:09.279
When I say three, two? And lastly you want to

3468
09:34:09.360 --> 09:34:22.040
say one, beat that number. Now.

3469
09:34:22.199 --> 09:34:26.040
Of course, when you do this on your own.

3470
09:34:27.400 --> 09:34:31.480
Without listening to me, you can say.

3471
09:34:31.360 --> 09:34:39.599
The numbers or whatever speak that you feel it is necessary.

3472
09:34:40.519 --> 09:34:47.239
For you, so you can adapt. So you feel you

3473
09:34:47.400 --> 09:34:53.720
want to say the numbers ten down to one faster

3474
09:34:54.319 --> 09:34:57.839
than I do, then you go ahead and do that

3475
09:34:58.720 --> 09:35:03.080
which you feel when you do it yourself, you'd like

3476
09:35:03.279 --> 09:35:11.919
to have more space between the numbers, maybe take a

3477
09:35:12.000 --> 09:35:18.839
lot longer to get a little ten all way down

3478
09:35:19.440 --> 09:35:26.120
to one. That's your choice also to do.

3479
09:35:36.199 --> 09:35:38.599
So you count and ten down.

3480
09:35:38.480 --> 09:35:47.440
To one, and when I get to one, then will

3481
09:35:47.519 --> 09:35:48.720
at the end of.

3482
09:35:48.879 --> 09:35:50.160
This recording.

3483
09:35:52.080 --> 09:35:56.239
And less, of course you're listening to music, the music

3484
09:35:56.360 --> 09:35:57.160
will continue.

3485
09:36:17.480 --> 09:36:17.519
No.

3486
09:40:36.720 --> 09:41:23.080
Twenty ninety ninety sixty sixty, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven.

3487
09:41:27.440 --> 09:41:52.680
Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

3488
09:41:57.519 --> 09:42:23.959
Four, three, two one. Now open your eyes.

3489
09:42:27.319 --> 09:42:34.480
Noticin how you physically feel having count down from twenty

3490
09:42:34.680 --> 09:42:43.040
to one, allowing stress attention to lead to your fingertips

3491
09:42:43.239 --> 09:42:47.959
and your twos. And as you focus on your fingertips,

3492
09:42:49.559 --> 09:42:54.239
maybe they can feel a little bit moretingly, which is

3493
09:42:55.680 --> 09:43:00.800
I suppose quite understanding considering attention is being exiting your

3494
09:43:00.879 --> 09:43:09.839
body through your fingertips. So now I'm going to count

3495
09:43:09.879 --> 09:43:11.440
from twenty down to one again.

3496
09:43:11.959 --> 09:43:12.680
This time.

3497
09:43:16.800 --> 09:43:22.559
You can feel relief of tension and stress and the

3498
09:43:22.680 --> 09:43:23.959
anxiety that you may.

3499
09:43:23.959 --> 09:43:36.680
Have leathing through your stomach, just leading through your stomach,

3500
09:43:36.720 --> 09:43:40.639
almost as if it's just releasing.

3501
09:43:41.639 --> 09:43:44.760
To hold your stomach enable.

3502
09:43:45.919 --> 09:43:49.000
To just a public chests or below your chests right now,

3503
09:43:50.000 --> 09:43:53.239
So surrounding your belly by the area, the whole area,

3504
09:43:55.360 --> 09:43:59.879
you can build tension in your body where its left

3505
09:44:00.239 --> 09:44:05.519
just least from the area, and you may notice that

3506
09:44:05.680 --> 09:44:16.279
your stomach will become very next as a countdown twenty thousand, one, yeah.

3507
09:44:18.839 --> 09:44:19.639
Twenty.

3508
09:44:23.879 --> 09:45:14.279
Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen thirteen, well never damne

3509
09:45:19.000 --> 09:45:31.080
eight yep six why.

3510
09:45:40.279 --> 09:45:57.639
Three? What can I be ance again? If you choose

3511
09:45:58.559 --> 09:45:59.279
just keep them.

3512
09:45:59.199 --> 09:46:05.000
Clothes because it feels real axable. Just made us say

3513
09:46:05.080 --> 09:46:11.360
the stomach, girls, this is your bus. Just you're scared

3514
09:46:11.440 --> 09:46:12.040
of the body.

3515
09:46:14.040 --> 09:46:17.919
It's made to say girls us.

3516
09:46:21.040 --> 09:46:31.000
Like a body bag, chest, stomach, legs, arms and beats,

3517
09:46:31.160 --> 09:46:40.519
mighty s. And now you may start to do all

3518
09:46:40.599 --> 09:46:45.919
the sense of tietness, which may be the reason to listen.

3519
09:46:45.680 --> 09:46:50.440
To this acording with you. See by.

3520
09:46:52.239 --> 09:46:55.040
They go completely awakething.

3521
09:46:56.959 --> 09:47:02.519
Okay, nice and true.

3522
09:47:03.839 --> 09:47:24.839
Oh steps now focus m you can choose, you can

3523
09:47:25.120 --> 09:47:30.440
do break your eyes in this wakes as well. Forehead

3524
09:47:30.519 --> 09:47:36.800
and eyes' st o my area basically almost as if

3525
09:47:36.879 --> 09:47:38.959
you were wearing the masks.

3526
09:47:38.720 --> 09:47:39.440
Feeling like a.

3527
09:47:41.959 --> 09:47:48.080
Man, a man of mass or something m hm, so.

3528
09:47:48.239 --> 09:47:49.279
That it was something you made.

3529
09:47:49.279 --> 09:47:49.680
The kind of.

3530
09:47:49.720 --> 09:47:53.480
Mask it comes. Your eyes also comes by lot by

3531
09:47:57.599 --> 09:48:01.000
focusing on that area, because that's the everything. Now can

3532
09:48:01.239 --> 09:48:10.959
release tension, stress, mine, breaking the mind, any attention you

3533
09:48:11.120 --> 09:48:22.879
might have made base make true eyes for scale, I

3534
09:48:23.000 --> 09:48:25.160
see any attention in.

3535
09:48:25.440 --> 09:48:26.839
The head area.

3536
09:48:28.120 --> 09:48:35.519
Mine and the pey that's gonna be released.

3537
09:48:38.360 --> 09:48:46.199
Es like that down game twenty two one.

3538
09:48:48.559 --> 09:49:37.519
Now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen fourteen, fifteen, MM.

3539
09:49:49.040 --> 09:50:57.680
Nine eighte one. Yeah, thanks yep, thank