April 19, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1331 | 18th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. Money is

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Jason new Land. Please only listen when you can safely

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close your eyes. And this is Q and a Friday,

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Q and a Friday, but being recorded on a Saturday.

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So should have done this yesterday, good Friday, the eighteenth

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of April twenty twenty five, but I am now doing

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it instead on Saturday. The I suppose still a good Saturday.

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Maybe nineteenth of April do I'd say eighteenth April yesterday,

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nineteenth April today, twenty twenty five at seven forty four am.

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That's more information than any of us really needed, isn't it?

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And I'm wearing my pink crocs. I mean my right

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button is itachier than my left buttock? I mean?

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What?

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What stuff do we really need to hear about? Awe? Okay,

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Vinnie wants a treat, but for some reason he's gone.

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He's on a setty, happy to clean himself if I

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crink all the thing. Oh yeah, he's noticed. Do you

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want to treat chewy chicken twists with one natural chicken

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breast meat promotes dental hygiene? Good boy, it's called and

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let meast say what is it? He's just looking at

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me like, who cares what it says on the packet?

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Just give me it a complete pet food. Okay, there

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you go, good boy. He loves them. Basically, he loves them.

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I would say it's probably his favorite treat that he's

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had ever. Sorry about all the noise, the chairs of it, clickery, clickery.

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So he's got that that will keep me occupied for

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about occupied. He can keep him occupied for about ten minutes,

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I think, unlike most other treats which keep him occupied

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for like treat treats keep occupied and maybe ten seconds.

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You know, the ones that are edible. The only things

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that keep that last any amount of time is like

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a bone thing. I'm thinking that can keep him going

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for an hour or two? What an hour? Maybe an

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egg because he likes to break up the eggshell into

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a million pieces, So you know, that can keep him

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going for putting twenty minutes. I feel like I want

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to time him now just to see how long it

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actually takes, but I won't. So I'll briefly tell you

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about what happened last night. We yesterday just because the

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reason I really gone bloody flees. So I will tell

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you what happened yesterday because I posted yesterday on my

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Facebook group, which is Jason Newland's boring group, wasn't able

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to do Q and a Friday today due to some

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neighbor drama, but will try and do it tomorrow. I'm

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going to bed or I'm now going to bed now.

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That wasn't grammatically correct. I didn't put I wasn't able,

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just wasn't able. The English language is going downhill. The

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written English language is going downhill. And I understand why

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because there's so much stuff we don't need to really

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put in, because no one's gonna put wasn't able to

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do Q and a Friday. Is there anyone in the

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world reading that thinking who wasn't able to? Who's he

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talking about? Is he talking about Vinny? Is he talking

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about the Milkman? Is he talking about I don't know.

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I'm just confused. No, it's me, obviously, I'm the first person.

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But it isn't you know, grammatically correct? Mmm. Mike wrote,

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I hope you update this of drama in an upcoming episode.

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I will update you on a drama in this for

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this one. In this episode, I will tell you right now, well,

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in a minute, what happened, because I've also got another message.

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But what is this? Oh, I did get all blame me,

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I did get a miss each a comment posted on

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my Facebook group by and we'll just want to welcome

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new a new member. Now I can't find it at

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Louisa welcome it says Hi Jason. Hi everyone. You've been

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my sandman for a couple of years now, and every

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single night I tell myself remember to join the Facebook

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group tomorrow, then forget the moment I wake up. But

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here I am. Lately, I've been really stressed. I have

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to leave London and move back to Paris. Thanks Brexit,

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and you've helped me unwind and let my mind wander.

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I haven't subscribed to a YouTube channel yet, but I

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will soon. But over the years I've built up this

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whole mental image of your flat, the windows, the guard

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and the setup, and I'm slightly scared would clash with

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my imagination. Are you planning to visit? Are you planning

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to move in? Don't worry it, I'm sure. I don't

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know if I've actually done. I haven't done much videos

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of of the flat really. I did a video when

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I first moved in, when I got the carpet put in,

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So when I late when I got the carpet laid. Yeah,

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I was quite pleased because everything was immaculate, really, the

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whole fauts only time ever that the flat was immaculate,

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and since then, because I moved in in April twenty fifteen,

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in November or maybe it was October, I don't know.

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I think about November time I got Andre in my

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little ferret, and from that moment on, the flat was

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no longer immaculate and hasn't been since. He destroyed the

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setti that I had, like literally ripped it to bits.

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He destroyed the carpet, He pretty much destroyed the bottoms

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of all the doors. He yeah, he made it his

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own and I still love him to bits, so, you know,

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even though he's not around anymore, but he yeah, I

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mean I made my impression as well. I mean, it's

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not like he's the only one. Can't blame him for everything.

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And then then a couple of years ago, I got Vinnie,

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and he's pretty much done the same, you know, ripped

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up the carpet and done. You know, just he's a

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little dog and he's he is. He keeps a place

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very messy, and it's good because I complain him even

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though probably most of the messes me. So I'm messy.

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I'm a bit messy. I'm better off. I mean, I

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don't have much stuff really other than the equipment to

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make the podcast, a television and some books. That's pretty

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much my belongings. I don't have lots and lots of belongings.

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I don't. So really it's I would say it's relatively

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tidy in here. Just there's stuff on the floor that

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that needs to be picked up. These toys are all

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over the floor and the bedroom it's closed on the

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bedroom floor, you know, things like that, so you can

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help tidy up when you move in, right, what's next?

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I they did it yesterday. Wow, So I'll admit that

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I was running behind. I wasn't really feeling it yesterday anyway.

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I spent a lot of the day in bed. The

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morning I was relaxing, but I wasn't really I didn't

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have much in a way of energy. Okay. I took

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a little one out for a wa l k and

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it was you know, it was fine, said loads to

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a couple of people. It was nice enough. Came back,

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watched a bit of Telly and really just sort of

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spent a bit of time in bed in the afternoon,

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realizing that I still hadn't done anything. Bearing in mind

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I've been making two to three recordings a day for

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the last week or so, so I having not made

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one recording, and I didn't think did I even make

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a recording Thursday? I don't think I did, So I've

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gotten right downhill. My work ethic is ridiculously bad. It's

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terrible if it was a job. The last recording I

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did was the seventeenth of April. So yeah, it was Thursday, Friday, Saturday.

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So I did do a recording on Thursday, but I

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did one. But on Wednesday I did one two, but

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I fit. On Tuesday I did one two two, Monday

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one two three. Yeah, wow, Sunday I did three blind me. Okay,

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well you want another one. That's the last one that

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didn't last ten minutes? Did it? He thinks it's his

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food and it's not his food. It's not it's a tree,

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but he thinks it's his food. He didn't even eat

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his bottle of food. Like yesterday afternoon. Anyway, I get

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a phone call. I'm hearing a bit of commotion in

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the garden. Not my garden, but a garden nearby, and

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I don't mean know what's going on. There's always a

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bit of drama around here, you know, people shouting and

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stuff like that. And then I get a phone I

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get a phone call from my friend, a local neighbor.

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He said, can I just pop around and see you?

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I said, yeah, come around. He didn't seem very happy,

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but he came around. But his voice didn't seem great.

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So he his voice is fine, but he didn't seem

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in a good mood. That's what I mean. So anyway,

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he came around. I'm not going to go in to specifics,

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but he came around and just told me he'd had

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a there's some problems he was having. And then later

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on I saw a lady outside. Bearing in mind, I

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was in the middle of watching Big Brother, so I

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had two goals yesterday catch up with Big Brother, so

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that I watched the final you know, the Fiction Night Live.

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Having caught up with it, so I'd already watched one episode,

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so it was two episodes behind, and I was going

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to watch Thursday's episode and I got about ten minutes

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into it, so there was still quite a bit maybe

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fifteen minutes. There's still quite a lot to go but

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I paused it with my friend said he was going

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to come around my neighbor. So he came around, and

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then I fast forward a little bit. There was a

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lady outside the front of my building laying on the pavement,

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and it was like, okay, what's going on here? So

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I went into sort of she was unconscious at this point,

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but she was breathing, like you know, she was kind

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of moving around a bit, but there was cans of

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drink on the floor next to her, like alcoholic drinks.

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So I'm like, oh, okay, now this this, this whole

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this kind of surprised me a little bit. So I

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called for an ambulance. I said, They said, is she breathing?

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And said, yeah, what's her name? I don't know what

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her name is, which I didn't I did find out later,

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and she was saying, do you know what's wrong with us?

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I said, no, that I've called for an ambulance. I don't.

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I really don't know. I just found her. She's lying

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on the floor on the pavement, and I'm just concerned

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that she needs medical help. So when I told them

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about the cans of alcohol, and I said, she does

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you know, I think she might have been drinking immediately,

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It's almost like they lost interest in the conversation. Which

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was weird because I was talking to someone who literally

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was telling like, usually they're quite attentive and like they

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take it seriously. This bloke didn't seem to really be

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interested as soon as alcohol's involved. He wasn't like, oh, oh, well.

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And I was kind of surprised at that, and I said, yeah.

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But.

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She's a vulnerable female. She's not able to protect herself.

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She's not able to really stop anyone doing anything they

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want to do right now, and no one's helping her.

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The weird things that I said this, people were starting

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to stop. It turned out she'd been out there for

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three hours, but she'd been knocking on people's doors and

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some of the neighbors were actually keep an eye out

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on her. But because she was drunk, they just didn't

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know what to do with her, you know, they didn't

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want to let her in their house, and that she

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was given the She was given her dad's phone number

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to different neighbors and stuff, so she had that down

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in her head. This is a mobile number. She had

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both her mom and her dad's phone number lodged in

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her head. So I don't know. She don't know how

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drunk she could have been, and she was able to

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recall two mobile phone numbers. But maybe that's just how

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what I show my ignorance. Maybe I don't know. I

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just don't know how much of it was like it exaggerated.

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But at the time I didn't know she was drunk.

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Yeah she had some cans, but yeah she she she

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might have had as far as I was concerned, I

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didn't know. She might have tripped over and hurt herself.

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She might have had a seizure, she might have It's

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it's all kinds of weird things. You know. Just because

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someone's been drinking alcohol doesn't mean that they're exempt from

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medical attention. That's my opinion. So I mean, yeah, if

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it's self inflicted, okay, But lots of things are self inflicted.

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Someone driving really rubbishly and speeding and if they have

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a brash ambulance still come. They don't say how you

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were speeding, I'm not going to help you, do They?

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In fact, literally literal self inflicted wounds get treed by

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an ambulance. So then he stopped fidgeting. Please mate, belind

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me he's not even eating all of that treat so

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I accord an ambulance. I had this weird conversation and

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they said, is she injured? So I said, are you injured?

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Because at this point she had her eyes open and

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she's not a jess. I said, she's not in yes. Oh,

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I don't know what we're going to do, bloke. Really,

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I've never had a conversation with someone from ambulance before.

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They usually like stick to the script. It just it's

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almost like you just put the script down and went

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for cigarette break, just talking to me while I was

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on a cigarette break. Yeah, well, you know, not much

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we can. What you do is ah, really, well, can

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you send the police or something? Because she's not in

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a good way and she's vulnerable, vulnerable female because I

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realized they're not that bothered about men, so maybe they'd

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be care a bit more about women in that situation.

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But no, and it's weird, and they said, well, call

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call us back. Well, we'll call the police, but you know,

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whether we don't know if they're going to come or not,

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and if anything worse happened, and just call us back. Okay.

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So then she she's laying in the road, she's like

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half laying in the road, and I'm thinking, well, this

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is getting more dangerous now, because I mean luck, yeah,

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I was. I was standing in the road with her.

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I'm not going to push on the road, No, I wasn't.

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I was standing in there with her to make sure

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no cars kind of ran her over because literally there

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was a car parked just in front so as a

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as a bend, so it would have been quite easy

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for a car to drive around the other car not

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knowing that she was behind the car. You know, it

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was kind of a bit of a blind spot I

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could imagine, especially if they were driving into park and

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they could have they could have hit her potentially. So

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I stopped. I was just stood there to make sure

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no one did that. And then two neighbors parked up

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in their cars. It's quite weird, so they were kind

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of standing around, like what were you going to do?

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A bloke stopped with his dog who was another neighbor

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was walking his dog, and which I was. I was.

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I was glad to have that support, to be honest,

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I just didn't know what to do. I didn't know.

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And then so I called the police and the police

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are talking to me, and ah, so she's in the road.

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Can you not get her off the road, I said, don't.

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I don't want to touch her. You know, she's, as

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I said before, she's a she's a female vulnerable. I

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don't want to be grabbing her. And I understand if

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there was it was a motorway, I'd have to have

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to think about it. But this is a very quiet

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road and there's no way anyone was going to hit

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her because I was stopping it. But she's like, oh,

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and she was telling me to get away from her,

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so that you know that that in itself wasn't particularly good.

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And he said, well, if you tried putting your trousers

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back on and then offering to help, And I said,

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I'm wearing trousers. What stupid? And he said, well, you

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know we can. That didn't That didn't happen. I don't

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know why I'm saying it. And she's it went weird

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after this that that wasn't the weird part. So I

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step away. She starts getting up, So she's getting up now,

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and she starts talking to someone else. She goes over

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to a car and starts trying to open a car door,

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pulling on it and hitting the car not hard. And

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I said to the police. I was just trying to

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get in a car. Now that piqued their interest if

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it was criminal damage did come to that, so her

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welfare wasn't particularly important to them. But and I don't

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know why, but I guess just because she was drink

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drunk or whatever. But the idea that she was maybe

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hurting a car with the old criminal damage and they

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really grabbed old of that. Also, she's trying to get

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into a car. She's doing like yeah. But I told

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her to get off and she did because it was

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a neighbor's car. So I said, can you get off?

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Actually I said it nicely, but Lee, can you leave

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that alone? And she looked at me, So that's a

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neighbor's car, move away, and she did. I said, there's

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no damage, no damage, no harm done. You know, I

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wanted to get arrested. I wanted to get some help. Well,

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in the meantime, I'm talking to the police for about

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ten minutes, well not the police, but they're nine niney nine,

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this bloke with a dog is he's actually on the

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phone because she's walked around the bushes and just she's

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falling down multiple times. And you never see a toddler

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like balancing on a toy, you know that a toddler

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in the gardens and they're balancing on a toy and

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it's like, oh, they're going to fall, They're going to fall,

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but they don't what. It was a bit like that

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with this woman, but she actually did fall. She's going

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to fall, she's yeah, she's gone, but she kept getting up.

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It's like a weeble, you know, weeble's wobble, but they

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don't fall down. I mean, she did fall down, but

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she did get up again. And I guess I'm the

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one that wobbles really. Anyway, she he got her telephone,

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her dad's telephone number. He's on the phone to her dad.

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He found a mom up. Mum, what didn't want to know?

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So this is this is someone that's in a I

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don't know, late thirties, possibly this this this lady maybe

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even early forties, middle thirties and early forties, I don't know,

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to be fair, yeah, probably thirties. So I did see

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her dad, so he was he founded. My mom didn't

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want to know. He found the dad up and her

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dad said, I'm already on my way because it's from London,

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Like he's ten minutes away. That's why he said he's

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ten minutes away. How can it be ten minutes away

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from London if you just called him? What turned out

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that she'd already the neighbor across the road had already

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phoned their dad, because you'd be knocking on everyone's doors.

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I didn't know this at this point, and it was weird.

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It was just a strange situation. Prior to that, between

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the ambulance and the police phone calls, I I was

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saying to her, so where are you? I don't know,

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trying to sort of see if try and get her

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an ambulance, you know, sort of said to her, and

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she started swearing at me and being abusive to me verbally,

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wasn't abusive to anyone else, just me for some reason,

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and telling me to go whatever to my dad and

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whatever to my mum, and okay, you're not helping yourself here,

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you know. I was trying to help and she said, oh,

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I said where are you from? And said, oh, Stratford.

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I said, well, I know it Stratford. And you wouldn't

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get away with this behavior there. You know this this

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you would not get away, You would not This is

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be a very dangerous situation. For you if you did

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this in Stratford. And she's like, and I was losing

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a bit of sympathy and understand I suppose why the

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police an ambulance. They get so much hassle when they

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go just to people that were drunk. Try and help

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someone that won't let you help them. So I do

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understand that. I just at the same time, I can't

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ignore someone that's lying on them on the floor, can't

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even hardly walk. She couldn't walk. That puts her in

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such a dangerous situation, which it would do if it

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was a man. It would make no difference to me

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man or woman. I can't really ignore it. I don't

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think or I can't. So it turned out so this

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was half four. I finally, after all the stuff, I

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finally got back up here. Just yeah, the police. I

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didn't realize i'd had it. Yeah, it was about ten

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past six, I was or twenty six. I was back upstairs,

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So I mean, the whole thing didn't start a half

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past four, but probably five five. I don't know. I

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lose track of the timing, so we're probably out there

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for about an hour. And I had two miscalls from

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the police. The text and the police just after I

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think it was. I can tell you, actually, what's this

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guy to do with Q and A Friday? I don't

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know this was at how weird? Doesn't give me a

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time for the Texas. I thought Texas had times yesterday

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eighteen o three. This is the Clinical Assessment Service of

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East Anglia Ambulance Service. We have attempted to contract with FUNE.

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I've been known to be made a if there's been

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any worse than the patient's condition, please ring nine on nine.

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So I didn't have my phone switched on. It was on,

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but it wasn't on. If the volume wasn't on, then

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if it was on, I didn't hear it. But I

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think I might go on an editor mute just to forgot,

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because I thought I got it on mute most of

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the time. Oh dear, I wouldn't normally I would. I

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wouldn't do that if I you know, I didn't purposely

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do that. But I got a couple of emails, one

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saying we are continue to rage. Help. This was probably

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about half an hour later. An hour later, actually a

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clinician may call you back from a withheld number. Please

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keep your phone lying clear. I only call nine nine

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nine again if the patient's condition worsens. Alternatively, should you

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no longer require help, please reply cancel. So I just

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sent a cancel. I didn't I thought they just that

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was it. They weren't bothering. But it didn't tell me

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that the ambulance was still planning to come. But they

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just it wasn't a priority, which is fair enough. They've

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got their criteria.

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And.

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When I called them, I didn't know if it's a

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priority or not. Unfortunately, I've had to call the ambulance

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and the police so many times since I've lived there,

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and I've been in this situation before with my neighbor downstairs,

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the one directly below me, and she tre no was

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I say it was because she passed away, But she

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was only young. She only in a little bit older

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than me, about a year older than me or something.

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And this was too fat. Yeah, twenty nineteen or twenty twenty,

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right at the beginning of the year. She basically her

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mom knocked on the door and she wasn't answering, and

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I heard her mum banging on the windows, like the

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bedroom windows out of the back. So I went downstairs

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because I saw this woman and I thought, what was

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going on there. I just checked that she was all

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right because it seemed like a weird thing to be doing.

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Didn't look like a thief, but I thought, I just

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go and check it out. And I said all right.

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She said, yeah, I'm trying to get hold of my daughter.

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She's in there, but she's not. She should be because

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she arranged to pick her up. I think she had

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a doctor's appointment or something. And I said, oh, okay,

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and then she she said, well, no, I can hear her.

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She's in there, but I can't see where she is.

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She's not answering the door. Well, then she goes and

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she starts talking letterbox to her and it turns out

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she owed her money and she just didn't want to

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pay it. No, that's not true. She she'd collapsed. She

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was on the floor, collapsed, and she'd been like that

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for days apparently. So she was able to talk to

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her mum, but wasn't able to move right, there's no

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way of getting into the flat. Couldn't get into the flat. Well,

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I couldn't get into the flat. Luckily, I know some

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people that do know how to do stuff like that.

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Not luckily for the neighbors to get robbed. But yeah,

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I know people that know how to get into flats

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very quickly. So I got my my local my local

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break in service. Well, it's really weird. I know, if

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I ever, if I ever locked myself out up properly

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and I can't get locksmith whatever, a ladder, that's all

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the need. A ladder. If all the windows are locked,

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I know, something can get through the windows in for

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like thirty seconds. It's just like and they won't have

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to be quiet either, so probably even quite even quicker,

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because I'll be with them if that had to do

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it quietly. They put It's like, yeah, it's strange. It's

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just a weird, weird situation. But anyway, I called it.

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I said, you need to call an ambulance, and she said, no,

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my daughter would be in a minute. She'll know what

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to do because her other daughter was coming. She'd called her,

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and I said, I got angry, but it was like,

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you need to call an ambulance. She's lying on the

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floor and she can't move. That is not a good sign.

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I mean, I'm no doctor, but I can I can conclude.

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I can conclude that's not a good sign. And I

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was correct, and I wish I hadn't been correct. So

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I called an ambulance and the ambulance said, oh, forty

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five minutes, And I said what he said, yeah, forty

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five minutes. That's it. I said, she's lying on the floor,

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she can't move. No, be forty five minutes. Now. The

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ambulances are brilliant. And I'm not saying anything about ambulances

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or at police or anything. They've always been, you know,

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pretty much been great and I'm grateful. You know, ambulance

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services saved my friend's life multiple times. And so yeah,

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it's not. But I was just surprised at this. So

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I went, this is I say, this is a few

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years back, and it's never that. It's not. It's not

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their fault anyways. They can't be everywhere all at once.

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Even Superman can't be everywhere, can they can he? You know,

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it's like remember Superman and movie, the first one. I

467
00:36:03.280 --> 00:36:08.519
don't want to spoil it. I mean, it's fifty years ago,

468
00:36:08.599 --> 00:36:10.719
and since it came out, is it too soon to

469
00:36:10.719 --> 00:36:17.960
tell you what happened? But I think was it Superman one?

470
00:36:18.159 --> 00:36:20.719
Was it? There was I don't know if it was

471
00:36:20.760 --> 00:36:25.280
a Superhero movie where there was two missiles being sent

472
00:36:25.519 --> 00:36:30.039
at the same time. Yeah, it was two. It was Superman.

473
00:36:30.800 --> 00:36:33.000
So again, if you haven't seen it, you don't want

474
00:36:33.000 --> 00:36:38.039
to spoil it. The movie that was released in nineteen

475
00:36:38.159 --> 00:36:42.280
seventy five or was it nineteen seventy seven, but it's

476
00:36:42.320 --> 00:36:46.800
you know, it's nearly fifty years ago, and Lex Lufa

477
00:36:47.360 --> 00:36:54.000
launched two nuclear missiles or two missiles like really badness,

478
00:36:54.920 --> 00:36:58.239
so Superman couldn't and there were different areas. Superman couldn't

479
00:36:58.239 --> 00:37:00.960
get to both of them, so he had to choose one.

480
00:37:02.559 --> 00:37:05.440
It got to it and got rid of it, and

481
00:37:05.480 --> 00:37:07.599
he nearly got to the second one, I do believe,

482
00:37:07.639 --> 00:37:13.039
but he didn't get there in time, and for some reason,

483
00:37:14.840 --> 00:37:16.639
I mean maybe it was just to fit the plot

484
00:37:16.679 --> 00:37:22.639
of the movie. But Lewis Lane or Lois Lois Lane,

485
00:37:23.440 --> 00:37:26.639
who was the love of his life? But was she?

486
00:37:26.760 --> 00:37:31.280
What about Lana Lange? The movie's never really dealt with

487
00:37:31.360 --> 00:37:37.480
Lana Lane. The more recent TV show did, But it

488
00:37:37.519 --> 00:37:42.440
was always like Clark Kent loves l L. Is it

489
00:37:42.519 --> 00:37:45.599
Lewis Lane or is it Lowis Lane? Or is it

490
00:37:45.679 --> 00:37:47.440
Lana Lane?

491
00:37:48.119 --> 00:37:48.440
L L?

492
00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:52.760
Who do you love Clark? I love it l L.

493
00:37:55.239 --> 00:37:58.400
So it's you know, it was always that really I

494
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:01.960
mean in the movies it was was Lewis Lane, but yeah,

495
00:38:02.000 --> 00:38:06.920
the thing for you know, Lana Lang as well, and

496
00:38:08.920 --> 00:38:13.199
for some reason Lewis Lane. I can't can't speak like that.

497
00:38:13.239 --> 00:38:22.159
Oh Lane. The the other missile pretty much landed on

498
00:38:22.199 --> 00:38:28.880
her head. So it caused this big, you know, catastrophic

499
00:38:29.000 --> 00:38:32.239
feing or whatever in the desert. She happened to be there.

500
00:38:33.679 --> 00:38:35.719
I think he chose the other one was going towards

501
00:38:35.719 --> 00:38:38.280
the city opposed to the one that was going towards

502
00:38:38.280 --> 00:38:45.079
the desert. And he finds her and he's like, oh,

503
00:38:45.199 --> 00:38:51.079
it's Lowis Lane, and she's not survived, and it's very sad,

504
00:38:51.679 --> 00:38:58.280
and he cries, and he then flies around the world

505
00:38:58.840 --> 00:39:07.280
lots of times and turns back time and it's very good.

506
00:39:07.679 --> 00:39:10.480
Why am I talking about Superman? Oh yeah, you can't.

507
00:39:10.599 --> 00:39:14.840
The ambulance they can't be everywhere. I mean, there's a

508
00:39:14.840 --> 00:39:16.960
lot more of them of them than there is a Superman.

509
00:39:17.599 --> 00:39:22.440
But at the same time, you know, I'm so grateful

510
00:39:22.440 --> 00:39:24.400
that we've got an ambulance service, that we've got in an

511
00:39:24.480 --> 00:39:28.480
NHS here, that we've got a police service, fire service.

512
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:29.199
And.

513
00:39:30.679 --> 00:39:35.159
You know, just I am I'm grateful we've got people

514
00:39:35.239 --> 00:39:41.239
to come and collect the rubbish people that deliver the mail. Yeah,

515
00:39:41.360 --> 00:39:44.480
I am grateful for that. I don't always feel the gratitude,

516
00:39:44.519 --> 00:39:53.480
but you know, generally i'm quite I am grateful. So, yeah,

517
00:39:53.599 --> 00:39:57.400
my neighbor downstairs, I phone the police. Now I find

518
00:39:57.599 --> 00:40:03.119
I phoned the fires this next and I said, hello,

519
00:40:03.199 --> 00:40:05.079
I don't it. I don't know if you can help me.

520
00:40:07.840 --> 00:40:12.440
My neighbors on the floor downstairs. She's collapsed. She can't move,

521
00:40:13.679 --> 00:40:15.800
but she's locked out. I didn't know there's anyway you

522
00:40:15.840 --> 00:40:20.679
can get into the place, you know, she's the front

523
00:40:20.679 --> 00:40:24.239
doors locked solid and we can't get in. And the

524
00:40:24.239 --> 00:40:28.639
ambulance would be here in about forty five minutes, and

525
00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:34.239
they said, what do you expect us to do? I'm like, okay,

526
00:40:35.039 --> 00:40:40.280
And it was one of those like yeah, I know

527
00:40:40.360 --> 00:40:43.960
I need a locksmith obviously, but I just thought maybe

528
00:40:43.960 --> 00:40:47.480
in a situation like that, they could come and remove

529
00:40:47.519 --> 00:40:52.239
the door in an emergency. It seemed like an emergency.

530
00:40:52.480 --> 00:40:56.559
It was an emergency. In fact, it was much more

531
00:40:56.599 --> 00:41:01.599
serious than realized. I just assumed it was, but no

532
00:41:01.639 --> 00:41:06.639
one else did for some reason. And then I called

533
00:41:06.679 --> 00:41:10.440
up the police and again they said, what do you

534
00:41:10.480 --> 00:41:12.639
want us to do about it? Do you what do

535
00:41:12.679 --> 00:41:15.519
you expect us to do about it? I mean literally

536
00:41:15.599 --> 00:41:17.920
those words, which I was a little bit surprised about.

537
00:41:19.679 --> 00:41:22.599
I said, well, she's locked. We can't get in there.

538
00:41:22.880 --> 00:41:25.000
The ambulance said they're going to be forty five minutes,

539
00:41:26.000 --> 00:41:30.000
and they said, well what I said? I said, yeah,

540
00:41:30.039 --> 00:41:38.280
but I think she had a heart attack, and they said, oh, okay.

541
00:41:38.880 --> 00:41:43.039
Five minutes later the ambulance was here. And in that

542
00:41:43.119 --> 00:41:47.599
five minutes, I got my friend. I asked my friend

543
00:41:47.719 --> 00:41:50.519
to get into the flat, and he did. He didn't

544
00:41:50.519 --> 00:41:57.400
go in, he took He removed the window from the

545
00:41:57.440 --> 00:41:59.800
bathroom or the kitchen, I think it was the bathroom.

546
00:41:59.800 --> 00:42:04.960
When he removed that in seconds, and just as he

547
00:42:05.239 --> 00:42:09.639
had removed that, her sister turned up, who was actually

548
00:42:09.679 --> 00:42:17.239
able to fit through the window. And just as she

549
00:42:17.280 --> 00:42:20.440
was pretty much climbing through the window, the ambulance turned up.

550
00:42:22.840 --> 00:42:25.880
So she came in. She opened the door from the inside.

551
00:42:26.760 --> 00:42:28.840
The ambulance went in there. We're in there for about

552
00:42:28.880 --> 00:42:34.079
half an hour, took her into the ambulance. The ambulance

553
00:42:34.079 --> 00:42:36.519
put you the paradix rother. Took her into the ambulance

554
00:42:36.599 --> 00:42:40.840
and they were working on her in the ambulance for

555
00:42:40.880 --> 00:42:45.079
about an hour, maybe an hour and a half, and

556
00:42:45.119 --> 00:42:47.719
then it her that took her to the hospital and

557
00:42:47.880 --> 00:42:50.480
she died two days later. Now I'm not saying this

558
00:42:50.599 --> 00:42:53.360
is a sad story, although it is a sad story.

559
00:42:54.159 --> 00:42:57.639
The fact is she had had a heart attack, and

560
00:42:57.679 --> 00:43:02.679
she had another one in the ambulance. So there was

561
00:43:02.719 --> 00:43:06.400
part of me feeling guilty, like, am I lying saying

562
00:43:06.400 --> 00:43:09.400
that she said ah attack but I didn't say she had.

563
00:43:09.400 --> 00:43:12.000
I said I think she's had when I actually did

564
00:43:12.039 --> 00:43:17.360
believe that, and I was right. I just couldn't figure

565
00:43:18.039 --> 00:43:19.800
any other reason why she would be lying on the

566
00:43:19.800 --> 00:43:24.760
floor for a couple of days unable to move unless

567
00:43:24.800 --> 00:43:30.400
there was something really seriously had happened internally outside of

568
00:43:30.519 --> 00:43:34.280
like a fall or something like that. But she apparently

569
00:43:34.320 --> 00:43:38.800
she wasn't injured, wasn't physically like whatever, She hadn't broken

570
00:43:38.840 --> 00:43:42.039
a hip or anything, according to her mum. She just

571
00:43:42.079 --> 00:43:48.760
couldn't move. So I, yeah, I don't even know why

572
00:43:48.760 --> 00:43:50.960
I'm talking about this. I've talked about it when it happened,

573
00:43:51.199 --> 00:43:53.360
but this just gives you an idea the kind of

574
00:43:53.400 --> 00:43:59.280
stuff that happens around here. And eventually, yesterday this lady

575
00:43:59.519 --> 00:44:06.239
she got to her, a dad turned up. He said, right,

576
00:44:07.679 --> 00:44:10.119
he couldn't she wouldn't get up. He couldn't pick her

577
00:44:10.199 --> 00:44:12.760
up on his own. He called his wife over or

578
00:44:12.800 --> 00:44:18.559
his girlfriend over, and he shouted Ory Doris, I don't

579
00:44:18.599 --> 00:44:21.400
know what her name was. Can you come here please?

580
00:44:21.519 --> 00:44:23.400
Can you bring the camera as well so we can

581
00:44:25.079 --> 00:44:28.239
take another picture for the photo album, for the family

582
00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:31.920
photo album. And then he was going on and it's

583
00:44:32.000 --> 00:44:34.880
like he's had years of this since she was a kid.

584
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:39.719
And he looked drained, He looked so much. I don't know.

585
00:44:40.480 --> 00:44:42.960
I have no idea what the background is behind the

586
00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:47.280
whole thing. But there was no winners, that's for sure.

587
00:44:48.639 --> 00:44:52.239
And it's weird because I felt relief as he drove off,

588
00:44:54.440 --> 00:44:57.639
but at the same time, I knew that the journey

589
00:44:57.719 --> 00:45:02.920
was nowhere near ending for him or for her, And

590
00:45:03.800 --> 00:45:06.000
you know, it was over for me. I'd kind of

591
00:45:08.239 --> 00:45:11.800
I had a degree of relief. I still wasn't quite there,

592
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:15.320
but I was. It completely shattered me dealing with all

593
00:45:15.320 --> 00:45:20.519
the different people. So I kind of felt for him,

594
00:45:20.599 --> 00:45:24.360
but I felt for her as well, because you know,

595
00:45:26.239 --> 00:45:31.280
it's it's addiction, isn't it. It's a horrible, horrible thing.

596
00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:33.360
And I've had to deal with it with lots of

597
00:45:33.360 --> 00:45:40.199
different people for for a long time actually, over the years,

598
00:45:41.039 --> 00:45:44.960
for a good old twenty years. Really, I've dealt with

599
00:45:45.360 --> 00:45:48.159
my own issues and other people's issues. I had a

600
00:45:48.159 --> 00:45:51.280
little bit of fling with alcohol when I was younger,

601
00:45:52.920 --> 00:45:59.159
but yeah, I was very strange. And then my other name,

602
00:45:59.280 --> 00:46:01.599
my other name was it freaked out about some stuff

603
00:46:01.639 --> 00:46:07.599
and I just ended up ten to nine I think

604
00:46:07.840 --> 00:46:11.760
after taking him out, or maybe five to nine. I

605
00:46:11.800 --> 00:46:18.360
got home after sort of doing some other stuff, and

606
00:46:18.360 --> 00:46:22.599
then by the time I'd cooked some teacakes because I

607
00:46:22.639 --> 00:46:29.519
was hungry, the Big Brother Live episode was seven minutes in,

608
00:46:30.639 --> 00:46:34.360
so I couldn't watch yesterday's episode to see I didn't

609
00:46:34.360 --> 00:46:37.559
even know who was evicted until.

610
00:46:37.400 --> 00:46:37.559
Like.

611
00:46:39.199 --> 00:46:42.760
I watched Disturb the live show. It just ruined it,

612
00:46:42.920 --> 00:46:45.760
you know, ruined the whole. I know, shouldn't all be

613
00:46:45.760 --> 00:46:51.280
about a TV show, but for me, this, this is

614
00:46:52.639 --> 00:46:59.760
what I enjoy. So that's why I'm late doing a

615
00:46:59.800 --> 00:47:02.960
Q Friday. And it took me what an hour to

616
00:47:03.000 --> 00:47:09.280
tell you that, Oh my goodness, it really did take

617
00:47:09.320 --> 00:47:11.599
me nearly fifty minutes to tell you that I'm sorry.

618
00:47:12.639 --> 00:47:14.280
I'm going to do a Q and a Friday. Now

619
00:47:16.199 --> 00:47:21.960
BlimE me. Wow, this is what this is what happens,

620
00:47:22.119 --> 00:47:26.039
this is how things work here. So I sometimes go

621
00:47:26.079 --> 00:47:28.280
on a bit. I've also got YouTube channel by the

622
00:47:28.280 --> 00:47:35.440
way at Jason Newland and it's it's a weird thing

623
00:47:35.519 --> 00:47:40.800
because it's just weird because I've been uploading the latest

624
00:47:40.800 --> 00:47:45.360
recordings all six and yeah, I don't think it's really

625
00:47:45.360 --> 00:47:50.360
working so well. But hey, oh well, so questions. Do

626
00:47:50.440 --> 00:47:55.119
I have any questions? Well, yes I do. I put

627
00:47:55.639 --> 00:48:05.039
a like a little form on my website that you

628
00:48:05.079 --> 00:48:07.400
can fill in if you've got questions for Q and

629
00:48:07.400 --> 00:48:11.239
a Friday. And I've had a few people fill it

630
00:48:11.280 --> 00:48:14.599
in this week. So I'm just check in, did did

631
00:48:14.719 --> 00:48:16.559
did LYD? Did lyd?

632
00:48:17.679 --> 00:48:17.760
So?

633
00:48:18.159 --> 00:48:22.760
QN A fri Day? Where is it? I saved him

634
00:48:22.760 --> 00:48:27.360
in a folder one, two, three, four, five, six questions.

635
00:48:29.400 --> 00:48:32.079
This might be the longest Q and a Friday in

636
00:48:32.119 --> 00:48:36.960
the history. By the way, I'm going to go buy order.

637
00:48:37.800 --> 00:48:41.679
If I miss any out, I will answer them next week. Okay,

638
00:48:42.119 --> 00:48:44.559
So I don't want this to be like three hours long.

639
00:48:45.840 --> 00:48:50.599
O things to do? So the first question is from Ann,

640
00:48:51.760 --> 00:48:54.320
if you don't mind me asking, I was wondering how

641
00:48:54.320 --> 00:49:04.800
old Andre was when he passed. Yeah, yeah, he was

642
00:49:04.840 --> 00:49:12.320
about six and a half. The reason what happened basically

643
00:49:12.440 --> 00:49:17.079
had spine injury. A little kid trod on him a

644
00:49:17.159 --> 00:49:23.199
year earlier, like stamped, probably stomped on him. And you know,

645
00:49:23.320 --> 00:49:25.280
it wasn't anyone's fault is it was a little kid.

646
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:26.960
It wasn't like a kid that knew what he was doing.

647
00:49:27.079 --> 00:49:31.679
Is like a little toddler really well, like three years old,

648
00:49:31.760 --> 00:49:35.760
four years old, and it just stomped on him. And

649
00:49:35.800 --> 00:49:41.360
at the time, Vinnie or Vinnie Andre seemed like he

650
00:49:41.440 --> 00:49:44.360
was just angry. I picked him up and he clung

651
00:49:44.519 --> 00:49:46.239
clung to me, but at the same time he wanted

652
00:49:46.280 --> 00:49:50.320
to have a fight with his kid. I thought nothing

653
00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:53.199
of it, really, I thought I didn't like it. But

654
00:49:53.599 --> 00:49:58.480
the mum was so but apologetic, and basically she called

655
00:49:58.480 --> 00:50:00.880
me over, can you can my little boy have a

656
00:50:01.320 --> 00:50:03.599
little look sort of say loo to your ferret? And

657
00:50:04.800 --> 00:50:07.960
I've spoken to her numerous times. She's a very friendly person.

658
00:50:09.079 --> 00:50:11.440
Still speak to her husband. Don't see her anymore, but

659
00:50:11.480 --> 00:50:14.320
I see her husband regularly walking the dogs. He's also

660
00:50:14.440 --> 00:50:19.320
really friendly. But the kids, we were just talking and

661
00:50:19.360 --> 00:50:22.280
the kid it happened so quick I saw it in

662
00:50:22.280 --> 00:50:25.920
a peripheral and just see his leg raised and on

663
00:50:26.519 --> 00:50:30.719
Andre's scream. Anyway, I thought nothing of it. Really, she

664
00:50:30.920 --> 00:50:34.000
was like apologetics, like it's not your fault. We didn't

665
00:50:34.039 --> 00:50:39.559
know this was going to happen. And the next day

666
00:50:40.719 --> 00:50:44.039
Vinnie was struggling to walk. Vicki's so viny Andre was

667
00:50:44.039 --> 00:50:49.920
struggling to walk, and he was basically he couldn't walk.

668
00:50:50.000 --> 00:50:55.480
It was limping really badly. And I left it a

669
00:50:55.559 --> 00:51:00.280
day because I thought, ah, see how I am. I

670
00:51:00.280 --> 00:51:03.679
didn't even connect the two. That's how slow I am.

671
00:51:03.760 --> 00:51:08.599
Sometimes didn't even connect it. And until I took him

672
00:51:08.599 --> 00:51:12.159
to the vets, and the vets said they did an

673
00:51:12.239 --> 00:51:18.079
X ray on his back. They said he's got spiral injury,

674
00:51:18.840 --> 00:51:22.800
like he's been trod on. It was like, all okay,

675
00:51:23.239 --> 00:51:26.199
I said, yeah, a kid did stomp on him, trod

676
00:51:26.239 --> 00:51:28.880
on him on purpose. I said, okay, that'll do it.

677
00:51:29.679 --> 00:51:34.400
And I said what now. Then he said, well, in

678
00:51:34.480 --> 00:51:41.199
these cases, quite often, especially with ferrets, I mean, they're

679
00:51:41.280 --> 00:51:44.519
prone to have this kind of thing because they're so bendy.

680
00:51:44.719 --> 00:51:49.599
If you take that flexibility away from them, it kind

681
00:51:49.599 --> 00:51:55.119
of ruins their life, really, because they're so bendy and

682
00:51:55.239 --> 00:51:59.920
he once you take that away, it's you know, quality,

683
00:52:00.159 --> 00:52:04.880
not great. The weird thing about it, he nearly parts

684
00:52:05.159 --> 00:52:06.800
unless it's going to say, I'm just talking about death

685
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:12.320
and this one. But he nearly died with the anesthetic.

686
00:52:12.920 --> 00:52:16.119
They yet to have to have the the X ray

687
00:52:16.360 --> 00:52:19.039
because he wou he wouldn't stand still or sit still

688
00:52:19.079 --> 00:52:22.480
for a second. And I wasn't allowed to hold him

689
00:52:22.480 --> 00:52:27.400
because this is during the old mask covering it period,

690
00:52:28.000 --> 00:52:32.159
if you remember that. So I couldn't be in the vets,

691
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:37.760
couldn't even be inside the building. I had to stand

692
00:52:37.760 --> 00:52:40.280
in the car park. I had to hand over the

693
00:52:40.320 --> 00:52:44.400
bag with him in it to the receptionist or to

694
00:52:44.480 --> 00:52:46.719
the vet who had a mask on. I had a

695
00:52:46.719 --> 00:52:49.840
mask on. I would stand outside. He put his long arm.

696
00:52:50.119 --> 00:52:52.119
I couldn't believe that long exam was. It was about

697
00:52:52.159 --> 00:52:56.000
like eighteen foot long, and he picked it up and

698
00:52:56.039 --> 00:52:59.519
he took the bag in and I had to wait

699
00:52:59.559 --> 00:53:02.400
for him to I think he phoned me to let

700
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:05.800
me know how he was getting on. And I had

701
00:53:05.880 --> 00:53:10.800
to pick him up the next day because he was

702
00:53:10.840 --> 00:53:15.960
really groggy with the whole anesthetic, and they didn't know

703
00:53:16.000 --> 00:53:18.559
what to do because he wasn't. He was like, wasn't

704
00:53:18.599 --> 00:53:24.159
coming back, wasn't to be in fully aware. Well, in

705
00:53:24.199 --> 00:53:26.280
the end, I came and got him, took him home,

706
00:53:26.760 --> 00:53:30.079
and it took about a day or so, two days

707
00:53:30.079 --> 00:53:32.719
I think, before he was normal again. He's just like

708
00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:34.960
just lying there, just looking at me. It was weird,

709
00:53:36.320 --> 00:53:42.639
like he was drunk or something. There wasn't really much

710
00:53:42.679 --> 00:53:46.039
they could do, but he recovered. I got videos of

711
00:53:46.079 --> 00:53:49.079
him limping around, and then a video of him. He

712
00:53:49.199 --> 00:53:50.960
still wanted to go for a walk, still wanted to

713
00:53:51.000 --> 00:53:55.119
do everything as before, And eventually he got it back.

714
00:53:55.320 --> 00:53:58.480
His leg was fine or his spine was fine, and

715
00:53:58.519 --> 00:54:03.679
his mobility was perfect, so I thought. And then a

716
00:54:03.760 --> 00:54:09.440
year later, for no reason other than just the injury,

717
00:54:10.119 --> 00:54:15.960
I guess that it got worse and he was limping again,

718
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:22.239
and there was more war going on this time, and

719
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:25.719
we were still in the masks, the mask episode, but

720
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:31.079
this time I was allowed inside the veterinary reception, but

721
00:54:31.039 --> 00:54:33.719
I wasn't allowed to be in now I was. I

722
00:54:33.800 --> 00:54:36.639
was allowed to go in there with him, but were

723
00:54:36.679 --> 00:54:38.400
still you know, everyone had still had to wear a

724
00:54:38.440 --> 00:54:42.360
mask and stuff. So this was like two thousand and one,

725
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:49.039
twenty twenty one, I think, and he just said he

726
00:54:49.119 --> 00:54:53.920
had another X ray. He said that the spine's gone,

727
00:54:54.239 --> 00:54:57.039
like there was just warn it was so damaged from

728
00:54:57.079 --> 00:55:01.280
before that it didn't heal proper plea, but it healed

729
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:05.199
enough for him to because they're very determined old ferrets are.

730
00:55:06.039 --> 00:55:08.679
They don't care, they won't let anything get in their way.

731
00:55:08.719 --> 00:55:11.679
But he wasn't eating and that's a sign that he

732
00:55:11.760 --> 00:55:18.199
was in pain and there was no option. Really, Yeah,

733
00:55:23.360 --> 00:55:25.440
so that was it. That's so, yeah, six and a

734
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:27.639
half years ago where it was the end, It was

735
00:55:27.679 --> 00:55:33.679
like June twoenty twenty one, wasn't six and a half

736
00:55:33.719 --> 00:55:35.159
years ago, but I think he was about six and

737
00:55:35.159 --> 00:55:37.119
a half years when I got in went when he

738
00:55:37.320 --> 00:55:43.480
passed away. Yeah, So I would try and lighten it

739
00:55:43.559 --> 00:55:49.199
up if I can. Jace, this is from Maria r

740
00:55:50.079 --> 00:55:52.159
Hi Jason. What's the longest time you ever lived in

741
00:55:52.159 --> 00:55:55.480
one place? Are there any fond childhood memories that you

742
00:55:55.559 --> 00:56:00.920
can recall? Thank you? Oh, I can't think of any

743
00:56:00.960 --> 00:56:04.320
childhood memories. So the longest time I ever lived in

744
00:56:04.320 --> 00:56:10.320
one place is here this place. Never lived anywhere for

745
00:56:10.360 --> 00:56:16.679
ten years before the second longest place was I guess

746
00:56:16.719 --> 00:56:19.559
like the family home would call it that I lived

747
00:56:20.119 --> 00:56:26.360
for between the ages of nine and fifteen, So what's

748
00:56:26.400 --> 00:56:32.199
that tenth nine and fifteen, six, it's not that long

749
00:56:32.239 --> 00:56:38.320
as it really six years? Wow, it seemed like forever,

750
00:56:38.400 --> 00:56:41.920
but then I was young, so yeah. The second longest

751
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:48.679
place was there was six years, and I did live

752
00:56:48.719 --> 00:56:51.639
at a couple of places for about four years each.

753
00:56:53.960 --> 00:56:56.559
When I first moved to Stratford from ninety one to

754
00:56:56.679 --> 00:57:02.719
ninety four, well three and a half years, so I

755
00:57:02.760 --> 00:57:05.519
spent three and a half years living in that room

756
00:57:06.000 --> 00:57:09.039
and there was another room in Stratford where I moved in.

757
00:57:10.920 --> 00:57:19.199
Was it probably about June to June nineteen ninety seven.

758
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:30.639
I moved out the summer two thousand and one, so yeah,

759
00:57:30.639 --> 00:57:34.320
that's four I was there for about four years. I

760
00:57:34.440 --> 00:57:39.599
was evicted from there. And when I was at university,

761
00:57:39.639 --> 00:57:44.639
I stayed in a place, in a room from November

762
00:57:47.199 --> 00:57:58.440
nineteen ninety two thousand and seven, and I moved out.

763
00:58:00.159 --> 00:58:06.559
I spelled like March two thousand and eleven, two thousand

764
00:58:06.559 --> 00:58:11.039
and eleven. Yeah, so what's that two thousand and seven,

765
00:58:11.159 --> 00:58:18.679
November two thousand and eight, two thousand and nine, twenty ten,

766
00:58:19.519 --> 00:58:31.320
So again that three years and probably three months. Yeah,

767
00:58:32.079 --> 00:58:37.079
I mean I lived at the MSA, the YMCA from

768
00:58:37.239 --> 00:58:47.599
September two thousand and one until about March two thousand

769
00:58:47.639 --> 00:58:51.079
and four, but I lived in three different studio apartments.

770
00:58:51.119 --> 00:58:55.119
There were studio flats, so I didn't stay in the

771
00:58:55.159 --> 00:58:58.000
same place, but I moved around because I just started

772
00:58:58.000 --> 00:59:02.320
trying to find someway quiet. But you know, technically in

773
00:59:02.360 --> 00:59:05.239
the same well, not technically I was literally in the

774
00:59:05.280 --> 00:59:10.119
same building. It's a very big building. From September two

775
00:59:10.119 --> 00:59:16.960
thousand and one, two thousand and two, two thousand and three.

776
00:59:17.280 --> 00:59:21.679
That's two years, and for two and a half years

777
00:59:21.679 --> 00:59:25.480
I suppose I was living there. This seemed a lot

778
00:59:25.519 --> 00:59:40.760
longer at the time. No, yes, no BlimE, me see

779
00:59:41.000 --> 00:59:43.000
weird because if I'd have stayed there, i'd have got

780
00:59:43.320 --> 00:59:46.360
I would have been shortlisted to get a council flat.

781
00:59:50.559 --> 00:59:52.119
That's not why I moved in there. I moved in

782
00:59:52.159 --> 00:59:54.039
there because it's the only place I could find anywhere

783
00:59:54.039 --> 00:59:58.239
to live when I moved from London, because I had

784
00:59:58.280 --> 01:00:00.559
a job to start and I could not find anywhere

785
01:00:00.719 --> 01:00:08.119
get a room or anything. And they basically I phoned

786
01:00:08.159 --> 01:00:11.599
them up. I had a friend say try to YMCA,

787
01:00:11.719 --> 01:00:14.079
so I did, and they said Yeah, we've got a

788
01:00:14.119 --> 01:00:16.480
place for you if you want to come. Never look

789
01:00:16.519 --> 01:00:20.840
tomorrow or Monday or whenever. Yeah, this is on I

790
01:00:20.840 --> 01:00:23.920
think this is on a Saturday. And I said, yeah,

791
01:00:23.960 --> 01:00:25.400
if you want to come Monday and have a look.

792
01:00:26.159 --> 01:00:34.199
Really yeah, because at the time I was staying in Yeah,

793
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:37.000
I was staying in a bed and breakfast because I

794
01:00:37.079 --> 01:00:43.000
just started the job September I think it was the ninth.

795
01:00:44.840 --> 01:00:47.880
I think ninth September ninth, two thousand and one. It

796
01:00:47.960 --> 01:00:54.599
was a Monday, I think, and I I stayed in

797
01:00:54.639 --> 01:00:59.400
the bed and Breakfast. I moved in on a Sunday,

798
01:01:01.159 --> 01:01:04.400
stayed in the bed and breakfast. I was still I

799
01:01:04.440 --> 01:01:08.920
was DJing in London, so I still had my weekend

800
01:01:09.639 --> 01:01:13.719
hobby as a DJ. I didn't want to give that up,

801
01:01:13.760 --> 01:01:18.280
but I had to. But luckily I had three weeks

802
01:01:18.280 --> 01:01:21.639
where I could still do it, and then I had

803
01:01:21.679 --> 01:01:24.159
to give it up because I was moving away. But

804
01:01:24.239 --> 01:01:27.239
at this point what I was doing is going to London,

805
01:01:28.280 --> 01:01:32.480
staying over in London, and then coming back Sunday evening.

806
01:01:34.480 --> 01:01:37.320
So I think I did two weeks in the bed

807
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:42.480
and Breakfast. But it was expensive, you know, I was

808
01:01:42.639 --> 01:01:46.920
not I didn't have I hadn't hurt that I will

809
01:01:47.079 --> 01:01:51.400
learn to speak one day. I hadn't earned any money

810
01:01:51.920 --> 01:01:58.360
yet because I'd only done two weeks of work, so

811
01:01:58.920 --> 01:02:02.960
I I'm not quite sure how I got by, but

812
01:02:04.079 --> 01:02:12.239
I did stop moaning. Finny, you like, why can't the

813
01:02:12.400 --> 01:02:14.400
sounds you make make me feel nice?

814
01:02:17.960 --> 01:02:18.039
That?

815
01:02:18.360 --> 01:02:23.119
Like it winds me up because it's just like, he's

816
01:02:23.239 --> 01:02:29.400
never never satisfied, don't you You're never satisfied? Well, no treat,

817
01:02:30.199 --> 01:02:33.840
but he had that whining just grates me a little bit.

818
01:02:33.920 --> 01:02:43.119
Sometimes it's like, come on, It's just like I wish

819
01:02:43.159 --> 01:02:44.920
they could talk so I could really know what he's

820
01:02:44.960 --> 01:02:50.920
talking about, and he's fullaby thinking. You know, I just

821
01:02:50.960 --> 01:02:52.840
want to Every time I go up to my daddy

822
01:02:52.880 --> 01:02:54.679
and I just want to talk about and ask him

823
01:02:54.679 --> 01:02:56.639
about his day, he sticks a treat in my mouth.

824
01:02:57.400 --> 01:02:59.199
I don't even want to treat. I don't even like him.

825
01:02:59.239 --> 01:03:00.360
I eat them, just please?

826
01:03:00.440 --> 01:03:00.559
Hi.

827
01:03:02.159 --> 01:03:05.079
I was just yeah, Okay, that's not likely, is it?

828
01:03:07.760 --> 01:03:10.360
So yeah, I'm trying to think, are there any fond

829
01:03:10.480 --> 01:03:22.840
childed memories that you can recall? Yeah? I'm sure there

830
01:03:22.880 --> 01:03:35.719
was loads. Recalling them is another thing. I mean, Christmases

831
01:03:35.719 --> 01:03:40.119
were always good, like during the period between the ages

832
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:50.119
of seven and fourteen. Things when even fifteen, but things

833
01:03:50.159 --> 01:03:52.639
have got a bit stressed at home by then. But

834
01:03:53.480 --> 01:04:00.440
during that period, Christmases were brilliant. So every Christmas was

835
01:04:00.480 --> 01:04:05.320
great pretty much when I was a kid at you know,

836
01:04:05.400 --> 01:04:14.119
between the ages of seven and fourteen, every Christmas unless

837
01:04:14.119 --> 01:04:19.000
I'm forgetting stuff, but generally I don't have. I told

838
01:04:19.079 --> 01:04:23.079
you when I got a bike, that was cool because

839
01:04:23.159 --> 01:04:26.159
it was the only time I really got something. I

840
01:04:26.320 --> 01:04:29.119
was always happy what I got I got. That's the

841
01:04:29.119 --> 01:04:34.320
one thing about my parents at the time, very generous

842
01:04:34.440 --> 01:04:37.559
when it came to Christmas and birthdays and stuff like that.

843
01:04:38.400 --> 01:04:41.320
It can't be no way can they be faulted for that.

844
01:04:41.440 --> 01:04:48.079
It was so generous. I had multiple presents, loads and

845
01:04:48.119 --> 01:04:51.880
loads of loads, so it was brilliant. But only once

846
01:04:52.119 --> 01:04:55.119
did I you know that this I don't know, maybe

847
01:04:55.119 --> 01:04:57.880
it's the same four kids. There was that one present

848
01:04:59.599 --> 01:05:03.239
as a kid that you want, you want father Christmas

849
01:05:03.239 --> 01:05:07.760
to bring you and mine did. I did get that

850
01:05:07.840 --> 01:05:10.559
and it was a bike. It was a racer and

851
01:05:10.639 --> 01:05:18.280
I was probably thirteen at the time. I had a

852
01:05:18.280 --> 01:05:22.400
paper around and I just wanted I needed a bike

853
01:05:22.559 --> 01:05:25.280
to get me around. Because it was taking me so long,

854
01:05:26.679 --> 01:05:29.400
and I was yeah, so yeah, I got my bike

855
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:33.760
for Christmas. It's brilliant. It's very very pleased, best present

856
01:05:33.800 --> 01:05:41.800
I ever had. I'm trying to think. Yeah, so that

857
01:05:41.880 --> 01:05:48.679
was always good. I used to like going to the

858
01:05:48.760 --> 01:05:53.760
library on my own. That was nice. When I discovered

859
01:05:53.800 --> 01:05:57.480
the library, the library became kind of like a second

860
01:05:57.480 --> 01:06:01.320
home for me. I just loved it, loved going in there,

861
01:06:02.159 --> 01:06:05.760
reading the books, sitting down reading the books, going through

862
01:06:05.800 --> 01:06:09.039
every single book on the shelf, having a little dip.

863
01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:11.480
You know that sounded weird, but you know what I mean,

864
01:06:11.920 --> 01:06:18.480
dipping in and have a little read. There was up upstairs.

865
01:06:18.599 --> 01:06:23.639
There was this I don't know, like partition thing upstairs

866
01:06:24.360 --> 01:06:31.119
where there was these kind of like encyclopedias and there

867
01:06:31.159 --> 01:06:34.079
was a big tables so I suppose the research area

868
01:06:34.159 --> 01:06:38.079
maybe they would call it. And I went through a

869
01:06:38.159 --> 01:06:43.840
period when I was researching things that's very interested in.

870
01:06:46.119 --> 01:06:48.119
I don't want to say the occult because that sounds

871
01:06:48.159 --> 01:06:50.519
a bit bad, but I was really interested in were

872
01:06:50.519 --> 01:07:01.280
wolves and witches and vampires and all that stuff fascinated me.

873
01:07:02.039 --> 01:07:06.320
I was interested in UFOs and I just I'd literally

874
01:07:06.360 --> 01:07:11.079
go in and I would do my own research on

875
01:07:11.119 --> 01:07:16.079
a subject. So I researched vampires and Dracula and I

876
01:07:16.159 --> 01:07:19.519
was led the Impaler, and I just I researched that.

877
01:07:19.599 --> 01:07:22.360
I went through all the different books and I copied

878
01:07:22.360 --> 01:07:27.480
out they what they wrote into my own pads just

879
01:07:27.519 --> 01:07:30.800
for me. It was not for I wouldn't you wouldn't

880
01:07:30.880 --> 01:07:41.320
find me doing homework at all, but this, yeah, I was.

881
01:07:41.480 --> 01:07:44.400
There was no reason for it. I just got obsessed.

882
01:07:45.480 --> 01:07:48.840
So that's what I did. That was brilliant. I spent

883
01:07:49.000 --> 01:07:54.039
hours doing that. I'd love that. And I'd had maybe

884
01:07:54.119 --> 01:07:57.960
three or four five big massive textbooks out and I'd

885
01:07:57.960 --> 01:08:00.519
just been looking at all the different pictures and yeah,

886
01:08:00.840 --> 01:08:17.840
loved it to Yeah, absolutely loved it and reading. I

887
01:08:17.840 --> 01:08:20.119
think my favorite bit was when none of the family

888
01:08:20.159 --> 01:08:22.720
were around, when I could just be I didn't mind

889
01:08:22.800 --> 01:08:27.199
obviously if they were around, but not around me, so

890
01:08:27.279 --> 01:08:32.319
I could be left on my own quiet. One of

891
01:08:32.399 --> 01:08:36.479
my favorite things to do. And I'm thinking back when

892
01:08:36.479 --> 01:08:42.520
I was like maybe ten eleven, ten, yeah, probably about ten,

893
01:08:43.199 --> 01:08:54.000
I would lie down on my Yeah, I'd lie down

894
01:08:54.000 --> 01:08:58.840
on the bed and I'd listen to classical music. There

895
01:08:58.880 --> 01:09:03.800
was an album which was basically the A Lot of

896
01:09:07.000 --> 01:09:16.680
really really big movie scores. There's what was that Do

897
01:09:16.359 --> 01:09:20.920
Do Do Do do a million dollars? Fist full of

898
01:09:21.000 --> 01:09:27.119
million dollars or whatever, and there was the Pretty Star

899
01:09:27.239 --> 01:09:31.640
Wars and Superman. Definitely Superman because they had the long

900
01:09:31.720 --> 01:09:37.039
version where Louis Lane is actually talking in them in

901
01:09:37.119 --> 01:09:40.840
the song and it's the bit where they're singing no,

902
01:09:41.279 --> 01:09:45.279
it is a bit where they're yeah, there's a bit.

903
01:09:45.439 --> 01:09:49.399
There's some music from Superman where she's flying with him

904
01:09:49.479 --> 01:09:52.880
or he's holding her and flying with her, and it's

905
01:09:52.880 --> 01:09:55.600
like a romantic one. And there's a song that it's

906
01:09:55.840 --> 01:09:58.279
really nice song. But anyway, I used to do that.

907
01:09:58.880 --> 01:10:01.359
I just lay down on a back listened to the

908
01:10:01.520 --> 01:10:08.920
music and relax. When I was about ten. So that

909
01:10:09.039 --> 01:10:15.760
was a nice memory. Every time I visited my uncle,

910
01:10:18.840 --> 01:10:22.640
my uncle Terry, that was a nice memory because he

911
01:10:22.720 --> 01:10:29.239
was so brilliant. It was just lovely. It was lovely.

912
01:10:29.319 --> 01:10:31.840
I mean, yeah, he had money, but that wasn't the

913
01:10:31.880 --> 01:10:36.640
reason he was lovely. He was just lovely, best uncle

914
01:10:36.720 --> 01:10:42.079
you could wish for. So I visited him a few times,

915
01:10:42.439 --> 01:10:44.279
a couple of times when I was a bit older,

916
01:10:44.319 --> 01:10:52.000
when I was in my teens, and it always treated

917
01:10:52.039 --> 01:10:55.840
me with respect, always treated me like a human, but

918
01:10:55.960 --> 01:10:58.640
didn't talk down to me, didn't treat me like I

919
01:10:58.760 --> 01:11:07.800
was a kid. And he showed interest, and it was

920
01:11:07.840 --> 01:11:12.479
like almost like I was an equal in a way,

921
01:11:12.560 --> 01:11:15.439
in a weird way, and he was, you know, he's

922
01:11:15.479 --> 01:11:18.039
fairly well off. He was a wealthy owned his own

923
01:11:18.079 --> 01:11:21.960
shipping company. This is back in Dover, so he was,

924
01:11:22.119 --> 01:11:24.359
you know, as well off, lived in a really large

925
01:11:24.399 --> 01:11:30.319
house on the beach in deal or something. Can't deal

926
01:11:30.399 --> 01:11:35.159
with her so lovely though, And someone said to me, oh, yeah,

927
01:11:35.159 --> 01:11:38.079
it's easy to be nice if you're rich, Like I

928
01:11:38.079 --> 01:11:41.640
don't think it's that simple. It's not that it's a

929
01:11:41.720 --> 01:11:46.640
very simple way to look at it. It's there's nothing

930
01:11:46.680 --> 01:11:51.479
wrong with being wealthy. And I've met plenty of people

931
01:11:51.840 --> 01:11:58.000
that weren't so nice. We're now wealthy, and I've met

932
01:11:58.399 --> 01:12:01.479
lots of people that were really nice when they were

933
01:12:02.439 --> 01:12:08.359
had no money, but also met really unpleasant people that

934
01:12:08.479 --> 01:12:12.560
had no money as well. It's I think it's down

935
01:12:12.560 --> 01:12:16.079
to the personality and not what's in their bank account.

936
01:12:16.520 --> 01:12:21.399
I'm guessing that's just my personal take on it. But

937
01:12:21.439 --> 01:12:26.039
it was lovely and it can't be changed that those memories,

938
01:12:29.199 --> 01:12:31.199
and I think the fact that he left me left

939
01:12:31.239 --> 01:12:34.039
me to do what I wanted to do. By that,

940
01:12:34.079 --> 01:12:35.800
I don't mean I was left on my own, but

941
01:12:35.840 --> 01:12:37.840
he's just like, if I wanted to go into a

942
01:12:37.880 --> 01:12:41.159
different room and watch movies on my own, I could,

943
01:12:42.359 --> 01:12:47.279
and that was quite nice because I didn't really get

944
01:12:47.319 --> 01:12:49.680
to do that like at home because there were so

945
01:12:49.760 --> 01:12:55.520
many of us. So I think any time my family

946
01:12:55.760 --> 01:13:00.600
wasn't around, I was kind of happier. I think it

947
01:13:00.680 --> 01:13:06.239
was just crowd too many people constantly arguing between my

948
01:13:06.279 --> 01:13:09.880
brothers and me, they'd bring me into it as well.

949
01:13:10.119 --> 01:13:13.119
I'd probably argue more with my middle brother than with

950
01:13:13.159 --> 01:13:16.359
my oldest brother, but then he would probably argue with

951
01:13:16.960 --> 01:13:21.560
They would argue amongst themselves more as well, because it's

952
01:13:21.640 --> 01:13:24.119
like the age, because there was two years between me

953
01:13:24.159 --> 01:13:26.960
and my middle brother, those two years through my middle

954
01:13:26.960 --> 01:13:31.239
brother and my oldest brother, but that four year gap

955
01:13:31.960 --> 01:13:36.520
meant that we weren't really very different in age, so

956
01:13:36.560 --> 01:13:40.600
we didn't have so much to argue about. And then

957
01:13:40.640 --> 01:13:43.000
my little brother was eight years younger than me, so

958
01:13:43.119 --> 01:13:47.399
no one really argued with him until he got to

959
01:13:47.479 --> 01:13:53.560
about probably five or six. And then yeah, it was

960
01:13:53.560 --> 01:14:02.039
a bit of a bit of a little ruffian. Yeah,

961
01:14:02.159 --> 01:14:07.119
so I don't what do I want memories? See one

962
01:14:07.119 --> 01:14:09.920
of my fondest memories, And it's going to be weird

963
01:14:09.920 --> 01:14:14.159
for anyone that from the UK that knows the person

964
01:14:14.199 --> 01:14:21.880
I'm mentioning. But my school, and I think it was

965
01:14:22.039 --> 01:14:31.520
nineteen seventy nine, maybe nineteen eighty. My school was on

966
01:14:31.560 --> 01:14:38.520
the Rolf Harris Show and we rehearsed for months before

967
01:14:38.600 --> 01:14:44.880
that before the filming. At the time, Rolf Harris was

968
01:14:45.079 --> 01:14:51.319
super famous in his country and it travel around different

969
01:14:51.399 --> 01:14:55.159
schools and they'd be singing and dancing and all that stuff.

970
01:14:56.279 --> 01:15:00.079
The thing is it wasn't filmed in the schools that

971
01:15:00.199 --> 01:15:03.680
their own studio that they filmed it in, but it

972
01:15:03.760 --> 01:15:06.119
was it was a school. It looked like a school,

973
01:15:06.920 --> 01:15:08.800
and it probably was a school, to be fair, but

974
01:15:09.119 --> 01:15:13.520
it was maybe they used it during the summertime, but

975
01:15:13.600 --> 01:15:16.960
then make out it was the school, you know, the

976
01:15:17.039 --> 01:15:20.199
actual school that makes sense, the school that they were visiting.

977
01:15:21.039 --> 01:15:27.479
So it wasn't just the it wasn't just the whole day,

978
01:15:27.680 --> 01:15:32.239
the traveling with all the kids, because you know, the

979
01:15:32.319 --> 01:15:35.960
whole school wasn't just like one year. So there's probably

980
01:15:37.399 --> 01:15:39.760
I don't know how many coachfuls of kids there was.

981
01:15:42.119 --> 01:15:48.079
We were all The rehearsing bit was really fun, so

982
01:15:48.079 --> 01:15:51.159
there's a lot of singing, a lot of dancing, you know.

983
01:15:52.960 --> 01:15:55.239
The sixth well I say six maybe maybe it was

984
01:15:55.279 --> 01:15:58.239
three months leading up to, but it seemed like quite

985
01:15:58.239 --> 01:16:04.119
a long time. And I think Rolf Harris came around

986
01:16:04.119 --> 01:16:07.239
and saw us first at the school to announce that

987
01:16:07.279 --> 01:16:10.680
he was going to be having us on his show,

988
01:16:10.760 --> 01:16:14.279
and it was one of the biggest shows on Saturday

989
01:16:14.359 --> 01:16:19.840
night TV early TV, and he did a different different

990
01:16:20.119 --> 01:16:24.520
school each week, so it was exciting. The build up

991
01:16:24.640 --> 01:16:29.359
was exciting. The actual event was brilliant. I was on

992
01:16:29.439 --> 01:16:34.079
Camra quite a few times and I said I was

993
01:16:34.159 --> 01:16:37.960
like nine or ten. I'm not sure exactly that the

994
01:16:38.079 --> 01:16:41.560
act exact year is even nineteen seventy nine or ninety,

995
01:16:42.399 --> 01:16:47.039
nineteen eighty, and it could be eighty one, because I'd

996
01:16:47.039 --> 01:16:51.239
have been ten in eighty one. Yes, maybe it was

997
01:16:51.239 --> 01:16:54.039
eighty one. I think it was nineteen eighty. I think

998
01:16:56.520 --> 01:17:01.479
it was brilliant, absolutely one of the best days of

999
01:17:01.600 --> 01:17:07.439
my childhood. So yeah, I mean Rolf Harris is no

1000
01:17:07.520 --> 01:17:12.000
longer around and see, yeah, things didn't go quite so

1001
01:17:12.239 --> 01:17:16.680
well with him and his career, But it doesn't take

1002
01:17:16.720 --> 01:17:19.279
away the fact that that was one of the highlights

1003
01:17:19.319 --> 01:17:27.039
of my childhood. Positive highlights. What else childed fond chartered

1004
01:17:27.159 --> 01:17:33.479
memories that I can recall. There was a period when

1005
01:17:33.479 --> 01:17:36.880
my dad was in a good mood. I don't don't

1006
01:17:36.960 --> 01:17:41.560
quite know why, but I remember coming home from school.

1007
01:17:42.079 --> 01:17:43.680
So I was a teenager at this point, so I

1008
01:17:43.680 --> 01:17:52.760
would have been probably thirteen, maybe twelve thirteen, and his

1009
01:17:55.399 --> 01:17:57.600
I don't know what it is he went. There was

1010
01:17:57.640 --> 01:18:00.439
this little period when he was buying stuff. So she

1011
01:18:00.600 --> 01:18:05.600
bought a new computer. And even though I don't have

1012
01:18:06.079 --> 01:18:12.199
they had no interest in computers back then. The fact

1013
01:18:12.239 --> 01:18:17.479
that everyone was happy was nice. My dad was excited,

1014
01:18:18.000 --> 01:18:21.399
My brothers were excited. My middle brother was more excited

1015
01:18:21.399 --> 01:18:24.880
than anyone about the computer, and he was learning to

1016
01:18:24.960 --> 01:18:30.239
code and all kinds of stuff. But it was just

1017
01:18:30.439 --> 01:18:34.760
and yeah, it was nice because it was a nice atmosphere.

1018
01:18:36.079 --> 01:18:43.399
So that happened a few times. Those kinds of things, Yeah,

1019
01:18:44.279 --> 01:18:48.880
I did. I'm never really I don't think I really

1020
01:18:48.920 --> 01:18:53.520
felt like I am superstitious, But I tried to do

1021
01:18:53.560 --> 01:18:57.159
the exact same walk and tried to do everything the

1022
01:18:57.239 --> 01:19:03.239
same as I did that day on the same day

1023
01:19:03.239 --> 01:19:06.960
of the week, to see if I get the same result.

1024
01:19:07.359 --> 01:19:11.159
So I got home and things were nice. It's weird.

1025
01:19:11.279 --> 01:19:13.399
I'd be like looking at the floor at which bit

1026
01:19:13.479 --> 01:19:17.920
did I walk on? How did I feel? What was

1027
01:19:17.920 --> 01:19:20.399
I listening to? Or do you know? Just really trying

1028
01:19:20.399 --> 01:19:25.159
to focus on getting into that zone of if I

1029
01:19:25.199 --> 01:19:29.640
could get into the same zone, the same mindset, feeling

1030
01:19:29.720 --> 01:19:32.760
exactly the same way as I did the day when

1031
01:19:32.880 --> 01:19:37.359
I got home and the computer was there and he

1032
01:19:37.479 --> 01:19:40.680
was in a good mood and everyone was like happy past.

1033
01:19:40.720 --> 01:19:43.479
If I could get into that, then the same would

1034
01:19:43.520 --> 01:19:46.800
happen again, not a new computer, but just it'd be

1035
01:19:46.800 --> 01:19:54.039
the same vibe. And yeah, that's that's what I used

1036
01:19:54.079 --> 01:20:02.279
to try and do. One one of my happy memories.

1037
01:20:02.439 --> 01:20:05.760
I think when I was a kid, Saturday evenings was nice.

1038
01:20:06.279 --> 01:20:10.800
Quite often we'd all sit down and watch TV. When

1039
01:20:10.800 --> 01:20:14.079
I was really young, I would sit lay on my

1040
01:20:14.199 --> 01:20:19.199
front watching TV. I'd be on the floor. They want

1041
01:20:19.199 --> 01:20:23.119
to go a bit older. I was well. I was

1042
01:20:23.119 --> 01:20:25.119
told I couldn't because my bomb was too big. No

1043
01:20:25.119 --> 01:20:27.760
one could see the TV. That's not true. I don't

1044
01:20:27.760 --> 01:20:30.960
know why I said it. And so we'd all have

1045
01:20:31.039 --> 01:20:34.840
a dressing gowns on would have eaten at dinner, which

1046
01:20:34.880 --> 01:20:40.279
was usually like in the evening, like a snack kind

1047
01:20:40.319 --> 01:20:43.479
of like crisps, the buffet kind of thing that would

1048
01:20:43.520 --> 01:20:49.399
have So that was nice. Then we'd watch TV or

1049
01:20:49.479 --> 01:20:56.560
like TV shows early evening and I'd probably be in

1050
01:20:56.600 --> 01:21:00.239
bed at eight or whatever time I don't know by

1051
01:21:00.279 --> 01:21:06.239
them addressing gown on get a bag of sweets, which

1052
01:21:06.279 --> 01:21:13.680
is cool. So yeah, those were nice. And then there

1053
01:21:13.760 --> 01:21:16.680
was the period when because we didn't always do it,

1054
01:21:16.720 --> 01:21:21.720
but there was appeared when we had Yeah, we used

1055
01:21:21.760 --> 01:21:26.199
to get videos, not every week, but when we did

1056
01:21:26.199 --> 01:21:29.680
get videos, we'd get like four movies maybe on a

1057
01:21:29.760 --> 01:21:32.840
Friday night, maybe Saturday night, and we'd be able to

1058
01:21:32.920 --> 01:21:34.680
keep it for the weekend and take it back on

1059
01:21:34.720 --> 01:21:38.159
the Sunday or the Monday or something like that. This

1060
01:21:38.319 --> 01:21:44.000
is like early days of the video take cossette, and

1061
01:21:45.840 --> 01:21:47.880
that used to be brilliant, going down to the video

1062
01:21:47.960 --> 01:21:54.199
shop and we'd all go down together and try and

1063
01:21:54.279 --> 01:22:02.680
choose some movies together and yeah, great, yeah, I think

1064
01:22:02.760 --> 01:22:04.560
we were allowed to take it back Monday. So what

1065
01:22:04.600 --> 01:22:07.960
we did is we took it back so we'd rent

1066
01:22:09.199 --> 01:22:12.720
or was it Sunday afternoon, so my dad would take

1067
01:22:12.800 --> 01:22:15.520
us up there in the car and we'd get the stuff,

1068
01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:17.239
and then one of us or a couple of us

1069
01:22:17.279 --> 01:22:20.720
would walk back and take the tapes backs down the seafront.

1070
01:22:21.000 --> 01:22:30.159
It's probably about thirty forty minute walk. Unless it was Monday,

1071
01:22:30.199 --> 01:22:32.800
we had to take it back. It's not really that relevant,

1072
01:22:32.800 --> 01:22:37.359
but yeah, that was cool. That was nice. I liked that.

1073
01:22:37.600 --> 01:22:44.399
I used to look forward to that childhood memories. Probably

1074
01:22:44.640 --> 01:22:47.960
some of my favorite childhood memories was when I got

1075
01:22:48.039 --> 01:22:55.520
my first television and I was fourteen, and it was

1076
01:22:55.560 --> 01:23:02.640
a black and white porbod TV, and it was the

1077
01:23:02.680 --> 01:23:08.600
first time that I had any kind of say of

1078
01:23:08.680 --> 01:23:14.239
all I watched outside of being in the living room

1079
01:23:14.239 --> 01:23:16.960
on my own, you know, because there's stuff I used

1080
01:23:16.960 --> 01:23:18.319
to be able to watch when I was a kid

1081
01:23:18.600 --> 01:23:22.680
that no one else watched, like Grange Hill. My little

1082
01:23:22.680 --> 01:23:26.239
brother was too young to watch it, and both my

1083
01:23:26.279 --> 01:23:28.560
older brothers were too old to watch it. So it

1084
01:23:28.680 --> 01:23:30.840
was a time when I had the TV to myself

1085
01:23:30.920 --> 01:23:34.439
for about an hour and a half two hours sometimes,

1086
01:23:34.560 --> 01:23:38.239
you know, when I was around about the maybe twelve mark,

1087
01:23:39.920 --> 01:23:44.239
i'd watch Yeah, I'd watch Grange Hill for example, my

1088
01:23:44.279 --> 01:23:47.159
brothers were too old, they like, wouldn't watch that no more.

1089
01:23:48.520 --> 01:23:56.279
I remember watching Mister Merlin. But then there was a

1090
01:23:56.319 --> 01:23:59.239
period when when my little brother was old enough, we

1091
01:23:59.319 --> 01:24:05.119
used to watch cartoons together, so things like Musket Hounds,

1092
01:24:06.680 --> 01:24:21.399
what other ones, Danger Mouse, Mighty Mouse, Scooby Doo, the

1093
01:24:21.479 --> 01:24:29.159
Muppet Babies. So this is something. I don't think my

1094
01:24:29.199 --> 01:24:33.119
little brother even remembered this, but he there was this.

1095
01:24:33.319 --> 01:24:35.520
There was a film. I sent him a birthday card

1096
01:24:35.560 --> 01:24:37.439
with it once on it, and he didn't I think

1097
01:24:37.479 --> 01:24:40.720
he remembered how to point out what it was. And

1098
01:24:40.760 --> 01:24:46.720
it was a movie called Animal Olympics, Animal Impics. He

1099
01:24:46.800 --> 01:24:54.000
watched it over and over and over and over and

1100
01:24:54.039 --> 01:24:58.880
over and over again. I mean probably hundreds of times.

1101
01:24:59.760 --> 01:25:05.119
That is his favorite movie. He just loved watching it.

1102
01:25:06.039 --> 01:25:08.239
I'm not sure how much he understood what was going

1103
01:25:08.279 --> 01:25:11.279
on because he was little, really little, but he loved

1104
01:25:11.319 --> 01:25:14.319
watching it. And I sent him a birthday card a

1105
01:25:14.359 --> 01:25:17.720
couple of years back with like an image from that,

1106
01:25:18.800 --> 01:25:22.840
and he didn't know what it was. I don't think

1107
01:25:23.600 --> 01:25:26.319
I should tell him one day, Well, he has to

1108
01:25:26.399 --> 01:25:28.800
live and you want another treat, Yeah, that's what it is.

1109
01:25:30.119 --> 01:25:35.960
This is what we're doing. You're just feeding, feeding, feeding, feeding, food,

1110
01:25:36.000 --> 01:25:40.439
food weight. I'll put it on there. I'll see if

1111
01:25:40.479 --> 01:25:44.840
he takes up. Yeah, when he really wants something, I

1112
01:25:44.880 --> 01:25:48.479
could put it on a chandelier, like I've got a chandelier,

1113
01:25:48.560 --> 01:25:51.039
but I could put it like high up on the

1114
01:25:51.079 --> 01:25:55.399
ceiling and still get to it. Any our childhood memories,

1115
01:25:55.439 --> 01:25:57.920
there probably are a few. Can't really think of anything

1116
01:25:58.039 --> 01:26:05.880
right now. Yeah, just a few little bits every now

1117
01:26:05.880 --> 01:26:09.960
and having my appendix out. That's one of the best

1118
01:26:10.079 --> 01:26:15.039
memories of my life. That was brilliant being in hospital again,

1119
01:26:15.239 --> 01:26:17.279
I think partly because I was away from the family.

1120
01:26:17.920 --> 01:26:23.840
It was a bit of peace and quiet really, and yeah,

1121
01:26:24.000 --> 01:26:29.039
I loved that. That was brilliant. Another time would be

1122
01:26:32.279 --> 01:26:34.119
I had it by in my mind just now and

1123
01:26:34.159 --> 01:26:40.720
it's gone. Well, that was weird my stomach. Oh yeah,

1124
01:26:40.800 --> 01:26:44.880
chicken pox. I loved having chicken pox because I didn't

1125
01:26:44.880 --> 01:26:48.239
have to go to school. Oh, it was brilliant, and

1126
01:26:48.279 --> 01:26:51.960
it was snowing outside, so I was there. Basically, I

1127
01:26:52.000 --> 01:26:54.960
think my oldest brother got it first. We all kind

1128
01:26:54.960 --> 01:26:57.359
of took turns getting it, so it was only I

1129
01:26:57.399 --> 01:26:59.840
think it was a point where I had to stay

1130
01:26:59.880 --> 01:27:05.000
home because too many of my family had it, so

1131
01:27:05.239 --> 01:27:08.000
I got like two weeks off work, off work, off school,

1132
01:27:08.000 --> 01:27:13.760
I think because I had to be contaminated or whatever

1133
01:27:13.760 --> 01:27:17.720
they call it contained. And I did get it, and

1134
01:27:18.880 --> 01:27:22.840
it was brilliant. It was so cool to not have

1135
01:27:22.880 --> 01:27:24.960
to go to school. I mean, that's one of the

1136
01:27:25.000 --> 01:27:28.039
benefits of having the appendix out. Didn't have to go

1137
01:27:28.079 --> 01:27:31.039
to school for a couple of weeks, didn't have to

1138
01:27:31.079 --> 01:27:40.119
go to school with the older chicken pox. I just

1139
01:27:40.159 --> 01:27:44.600
remember sitting indoors, drawing and things like that. It was

1140
01:27:44.720 --> 01:27:48.720
snowing outside, maybe a bit of music playing, I don't know,

1141
01:27:49.079 --> 01:27:51.239
there was. The whole family was in, but everyone was

1142
01:27:51.319 --> 01:27:58.680
quite chilled out. We were just enjoying, enjoying it. Yeah,

1143
01:27:58.760 --> 01:28:04.600
that was nice. Basically illness, anything involved illness, it might

1144
01:28:04.840 --> 01:28:08.279
I wasn't ill with it. I wasn't ill with chicken pox.

1145
01:28:08.439 --> 01:28:12.439
I mean, I got it. I had the blotches, b itchy,

1146
01:28:12.560 --> 01:28:16.479
that's it. It wasn't nothing for me. That wasn't being

1147
01:28:16.560 --> 01:28:22.319
ill and appendicitis. I I didn't really have it. I

1148
01:28:22.319 --> 01:28:27.119
don't think I had appendicitis. I was trying to get

1149
01:28:27.119 --> 01:28:30.239
off school, so I kept using the thing about having

1150
01:28:30.279 --> 01:28:32.319
a stomach ache and I did have a stomach ache,

1151
01:28:32.399 --> 01:28:35.920
but I don't know if it was appendicitis. I think

1152
01:28:35.960 --> 01:28:39.640
it might have been grumbling appendix or something. But they

1153
01:28:39.680 --> 01:28:42.439
took it out anyway, which was a win win situation

1154
01:28:42.560 --> 01:28:48.279
for me. It was just great. I just yeah. I mean,

1155
01:28:48.319 --> 01:28:50.640
I was thinking, at this rate, I'm going to run

1156
01:28:50.640 --> 01:28:52.600
out of body parts because I was trying to work

1157
01:28:52.640 --> 01:28:55.680
out what else can I have removed to get another

1158
01:28:55.720 --> 01:28:59.760
two weeks off school, But it didn't come to that.

1159
01:29:03.039 --> 01:29:11.760
Other things. There's a few bits, and bobsessed a few

1160
01:29:11.760 --> 01:29:17.680
of them anyway. So Georgie asks, do you have a

1161
01:29:17.720 --> 01:29:21.760
hidden talent? I don't have. I don't. I don't even

1162
01:29:21.840 --> 01:29:26.079
have any on show, never mind any hidden ones. I

1163
01:29:26.079 --> 01:29:33.800
ain't got no talents. No, I don't. Yeah, I do

1164
01:29:34.119 --> 01:29:38.960
think so, I don't know. I used to think I

1165
01:29:38.960 --> 01:29:43.840
could sing, and I think I could when I was younger.

1166
01:29:44.439 --> 01:29:46.920
Everything's when I was younger, really, isn't it. But I

1167
01:29:47.039 --> 01:29:49.039
used to think I could sing, and I think I

1168
01:29:49.079 --> 01:29:57.119
could now not so much. But hidden talents I can

1169
01:29:57.159 --> 01:30:04.800
be annoying. It's not so hidden, is it. No, I

1170
01:30:04.800 --> 01:30:09.640
don't think there is. I can't. No, there's nothing. Really,

1171
01:30:09.720 --> 01:30:13.159
I don't think there's anything that I can do that

1172
01:30:13.359 --> 01:30:24.800
would surprise anybody. I'm just trying to think. Mm hmmm, Finny,

1173
01:30:24.880 --> 01:30:29.520
I can seeing my peripheral begging, begging. I tell you, you're

1174
01:30:29.479 --> 01:30:36.000
begging again. Stop begging. Do you ever see it on

1175
01:30:36.119 --> 01:30:42.560
TV or movies where they're showing someone's doing something and

1176
01:30:42.600 --> 01:30:45.520
the person, like the start of show, can't see them

1177
01:30:45.560 --> 01:30:48.800
doing it, but it's literally in their peripherals. In no

1178
01:30:48.880 --> 01:30:51.960
way you would not see that person moving around to

1179
01:30:52.079 --> 01:30:56.359
the side of you, but they don't because it's a movie.

1180
01:30:56.439 --> 01:30:59.960
It's like, wait a minute, even the actor can see

1181
01:31:00.119 --> 01:31:04.399
that person. I can see Vinny. I'm not looking at him,

1182
01:31:04.439 --> 01:31:07.199
but I can see him moving around and doing his

1183
01:31:07.279 --> 01:31:11.439
little I haven't eaten him for a thousand years. My

1184
01:31:11.560 --> 01:31:17.239
daddy never gives me anything, you know, not Tom Sawyer,

1185
01:31:17.279 --> 01:31:25.199
what is it? The little kid? Tom? Please, sir? Can

1186
01:31:25.279 --> 01:31:31.640
I have some Miller? Oliver Twist? That's it? So I

1187
01:31:31.640 --> 01:31:33.680
looked at him. As soon as I saw him, I thought, yeah,

1188
01:31:33.720 --> 01:31:37.279
Oliver Twist, Oliver. I'm gonna call you Oliver now. I'm

1189
01:31:37.279 --> 01:31:39.720
gonna call you Oliver Twist. And you've got some food

1190
01:31:39.760 --> 01:31:46.039
on your on your mouth. Clean up after yourself. Oh,

1191
01:31:46.159 --> 01:31:48.199
the other day and I talked about it, but I

1192
01:31:48.199 --> 01:31:51.720
still can't believe that. I went out. I had a

1193
01:31:51.760 --> 01:31:55.560
little bit of chocolate and the toffee was all over

1194
01:31:55.560 --> 01:31:58.920
my beard from the bit of chocolate I had, and

1195
01:31:58.960 --> 01:32:02.359
I went out took him out. I was talking to

1196
01:32:02.560 --> 01:32:05.279
different people. I was talking to two people. When I

1197
01:32:05.359 --> 01:32:08.359
got back as well, not one punched person mentioned the

1198
01:32:08.399 --> 01:32:10.960
fact that I had this and it was stretched out

1199
01:32:10.960 --> 01:32:14.920
as well. It wasn't like just a little bit. Why

1200
01:32:14.920 --> 01:32:24.720
didn't anyone mention it? It was just do I don't

1201
01:32:24.760 --> 01:32:32.159
have any hidden talents? I don't think I really. I

1202
01:32:32.239 --> 01:32:40.399
used to write poems, I used to write songs, but

1203
01:32:40.520 --> 01:32:47.039
again not something I would call talents. I suppose things

1204
01:32:47.079 --> 01:32:52.079
that I wanted to do. The poems were more just

1205
01:32:52.119 --> 01:32:56.039
as an expression, to be fair. The songs that was

1206
01:32:56.159 --> 01:33:00.399
more to do with romance. I was trying to be romantick.

1207
01:33:02.319 --> 01:33:06.520
You know, it's a long time ago. No, I can't

1208
01:33:06.520 --> 01:33:10.000
think of any. Maybe I do, but they're hidden. They

1209
01:33:10.079 --> 01:33:16.000
must be hidden, very very well hidden, because I don't

1210
01:33:20.000 --> 01:33:27.720
really No, I don't think I have any. But then

1211
01:33:27.840 --> 01:33:30.159
you know, if they're hidden, I wouldn't know in a

1212
01:33:30.199 --> 01:33:31.640
sense I know you're talking about I I've got any

1213
01:33:31.680 --> 01:33:34.079
hidden talents that I kind of don't tell anyone about,

1214
01:33:35.439 --> 01:33:38.760
But I don't think I have. But you know, I

1215
01:33:38.880 --> 01:33:44.680
do believe that we're all we've all got hidden talents

1216
01:33:44.960 --> 01:33:48.720
that maybe we never find out about. You know, I'm

1217
01:33:48.760 --> 01:33:53.600
not just just one thing, multiple things that you know,

1218
01:33:53.720 --> 01:33:57.239
I might be or you might be really really good.

1219
01:33:58.000 --> 01:34:01.119
It's something that you've never even attempted to do, but

1220
01:34:01.159 --> 01:34:04.960
because you've got no interest in it yet, if you

1221
01:34:05.119 --> 01:34:09.520
did have a go at it and you realized that

1222
01:34:09.600 --> 01:34:13.159
you were naturally gifted, I'm guessing that would make you

1223
01:34:13.279 --> 01:34:18.560
interested in it. Oh, Okay, I do have a talent,

1224
01:34:18.640 --> 01:34:21.560
it's not hidden so much. I am very good on

1225
01:34:21.600 --> 01:34:27.359
the phone, and I was very good at sales, but

1226
01:34:27.399 --> 01:34:31.840
I didn't enjoy it. I didn't enjoy the pressure or

1227
01:34:31.880 --> 01:34:35.520
the stress. So yeah, and I was very good at listening.

1228
01:34:36.279 --> 01:34:43.239
I'm good at listening. My job, apart from being a

1229
01:34:43.279 --> 01:34:46.199
counselor and stuff, later on, I did have a job

1230
01:34:46.239 --> 01:34:50.479
where my whole job was listening to phone calls and

1231
01:34:50.520 --> 01:34:56.079
making sure that the people the staff calls that they

1232
01:34:56.079 --> 01:34:58.880
were doing their job properly and they were sticking to

1233
01:34:58.960 --> 01:35:04.439
the script. And you know, I had to Mark these

1234
01:35:04.520 --> 01:35:08.840
calls and I was I'd say it was pretty good

1235
01:35:09.039 --> 01:35:11.479
at that, But I don't know if that's much of

1236
01:35:11.520 --> 01:35:15.760
a hidden talent. Being pedantic really, isn't it. I don't

1237
01:35:15.760 --> 01:35:18.560
know if I mean literally my job was being pedantic,

1238
01:35:20.840 --> 01:35:28.399
being quite inflexible. So yeah, I've got hidden talent. I'm

1239
01:35:28.520 --> 01:35:35.439
very inflexible, but that's not so hidden, I don't think.

1240
01:35:37.640 --> 01:35:39.960
If you ask me that question again a different day,

1241
01:35:40.079 --> 01:35:43.640
I will be thinking about that. It's quite weird because Georgia.

1242
01:35:44.039 --> 01:35:51.319
I also know someone called Georgia Georgia, and I was

1243
01:35:51.399 --> 01:35:58.119
dreaming about it last night. It's really weird. It's had

1244
01:35:58.159 --> 01:36:04.199
some very very strange dreams last night. And I had

1245
01:36:04.199 --> 01:36:08.359
this conversation with this this female that I used to

1246
01:36:09.439 --> 01:36:16.079
work with, and I I had this fear I never

1247
01:36:16.119 --> 01:36:21.800
ever dated waitresses that I worked with, just basically because

1248
01:36:22.239 --> 01:36:25.960
I kind of did nearly once and it was awkward.

1249
01:36:26.000 --> 01:36:28.880
So I thought, no, I'm not doing that anymore, and

1250
01:36:31.760 --> 01:36:34.079
because you know, I got to work with them, it

1251
01:36:34.079 --> 01:36:39.800
doesn't work out as awkward. So there was this one

1252
01:36:39.840 --> 01:36:43.840
waitress who I really liked as a friend, you know,

1253
01:36:43.880 --> 01:36:47.800
I just really liked that, and she started giving me

1254
01:36:47.840 --> 01:36:50.520
some hints that maybe she liked me in a more

1255
01:36:50.640 --> 01:36:55.039
you know, my more I don't know for romance is

1256
01:36:55.039 --> 01:36:58.279
the right word, but in a more physical way and

1257
01:36:58.680 --> 01:37:04.119
sort of telling me stuff whatever. And she gave me

1258
01:37:04.319 --> 01:37:11.439
three really massive hints over time, you know, three different occasions.

1259
01:37:12.319 --> 01:37:17.039
Once she danced with me, and other times she told

1260
01:37:17.079 --> 01:37:20.560
me some things that she liked. And on the third

1261
01:37:20.600 --> 01:37:24.159
time she told me I'm not going to use the words,

1262
01:37:24.239 --> 01:37:27.399
but it was on the leaving do she said, you like,

1263
01:37:28.359 --> 01:37:34.159
I'm going to say blank, and I've got blank. I

1264
01:37:34.199 --> 01:37:42.439
still didn't take the hint, and because I was just nervous,

1265
01:37:42.720 --> 01:37:45.520
I just didn't know. I felt like I was being

1266
01:37:45.560 --> 01:37:48.520
watched by the other people in the room, and I

1267
01:37:48.880 --> 01:37:53.680
just yeah, I didn't know really what to do, so

1268
01:37:53.760 --> 01:37:57.319
I didn't pursue. I didn't, which I kind of regret.

1269
01:37:58.439 --> 01:38:04.159
And even now our dream about her really weird. I

1270
01:38:04.199 --> 01:38:07.199
mean literally last night, but over the years, and it's

1271
01:38:07.279 --> 01:38:12.680
twenty twenty four years ago, so it's way too long

1272
01:38:12.720 --> 01:38:16.439
to be and it didn't seem to bother me at

1273
01:38:16.479 --> 01:38:25.760
the time, but this literally had a I was conversing

1274
01:38:25.840 --> 01:38:29.439
with her, explaining to us so I diapologize and saying

1275
01:38:29.439 --> 01:38:32.119
I know that you I wish I'd kind of done

1276
01:38:32.119 --> 01:38:36.560
something and we didn't. Yeah, blahlah blah blah blah. It's weird,

1277
01:38:36.840 --> 01:38:42.760
very weird. And Hillary asked me, Okay, let's try again.

1278
01:38:42.880 --> 01:38:45.800
Where entireland did you go? I've been there many times,

1279
01:38:46.359 --> 01:38:49.640
too many different parts. Just interested where you went? So

1280
01:38:49.720 --> 01:38:59.000
I went near bang Kok bang Kok, and it's yeah,

1281
01:38:59.199 --> 01:39:02.840
I suppose I don't go into great detail about where

1282
01:39:02.840 --> 01:39:05.680
I've been. I don't really judge because it's where I

1283
01:39:05.720 --> 01:39:10.159
went is a little bit of a I think the

1284
01:39:10.239 --> 01:39:13.039
class is some of it like sex tourists, and I

1285
01:39:13.159 --> 01:39:16.119
wasn't that. It wasn't for that reason. I was just

1286
01:39:16.119 --> 01:39:20.920
going because it's a Buddhist country and I wanted I

1287
01:39:21.000 --> 01:39:23.960
needed to get away. I was talking to a friend

1288
01:39:23.960 --> 01:39:29.600
about this. After I lost Andrea, I started going back

1289
01:39:29.680 --> 01:39:33.720
and my panic attacks came back, not like the occasional

1290
01:39:33.720 --> 01:39:36.520
one or the like the standard kind of stuff that

1291
01:39:36.560 --> 01:39:42.079
I have, but like really became really bad again. And

1292
01:39:42.600 --> 01:39:45.279
I think part of that because I lost Andrea, I

1293
01:39:45.319 --> 01:39:50.640
no longer had the emotional what Vinnie gives me, and

1294
01:39:50.640 --> 01:39:55.520
what Andre gave me is emotional support. I suppose really

1295
01:39:55.520 --> 01:40:02.640
in reality, it's emotional support. It's an emotional or emotional whatever,

1296
01:40:04.960 --> 01:40:09.640
and so I was up here on my own, and

1297
01:40:09.680 --> 01:40:12.600
I was also dealing with all the drama of downstairs

1298
01:40:12.600 --> 01:40:16.760
and my neighbor and all that came with that, and

1299
01:40:16.800 --> 01:40:24.880
it got too much. So I managed to go away.

1300
01:40:25.880 --> 01:40:29.399
And I just basically chose the first place because I'd

1301
01:40:29.439 --> 01:40:32.479
done a big research, gone on YouTube, and every time

1302
01:40:32.479 --> 01:40:36.000
I put in Thailand there was like Pattire came up

1303
01:40:36.039 --> 01:40:43.720
and Bouquette Bangkok, those kinds of areas, so I thought, yeah,

1304
01:40:43.720 --> 01:40:48.960
I had there, That's why I did. So I just

1305
01:40:48.960 --> 01:40:55.920
went there and just found somewhere to stay. And yeah,

1306
01:40:56.840 --> 01:40:59.439
it was all right the first time I went twice.

1307
01:40:59.439 --> 01:41:02.199
The second time rainy season, so that wasn't so good

1308
01:41:03.800 --> 01:41:07.079
at the moment they got Sangrin Sangron. I think it's

1309
01:41:07.119 --> 01:41:09.600
just come to an end where there's basically two weeks

1310
01:41:09.600 --> 01:41:16.199
of covering each other with waters like a New Year.

1311
01:41:16.439 --> 01:41:20.880
I think it's like the Thailand New Year celebration Songrin,

1312
01:41:21.399 --> 01:41:25.319
song Grand or Songrin. I wouldn't want to be there

1313
01:41:25.399 --> 01:41:30.920
during that. Something I noticed about myself is weird. Even

1314
01:41:30.960 --> 01:41:36.479
though I was technically on holiday, the bipolar didn't stay

1315
01:41:36.520 --> 01:41:43.119
at home. It's weird. Honestly, I thought in my mind,

1316
01:41:43.800 --> 01:41:49.239
bearing in mind that I hadn't really been anywhere since

1317
01:41:49.560 --> 01:41:55.600
two thousand and three was the last time I'd already

1318
01:41:55.680 --> 01:42:00.760
gone anywhere, like on my own holiday, so that's yeah,

1319
01:42:00.840 --> 01:42:05.880
twenty years or whatever. Nearly I thought I'd just go

1320
01:42:06.000 --> 01:42:10.479
away and I'd be oh so happy, And no, it

1321
01:42:10.520 --> 01:42:15.680
wasn't like that. It was there was the relief of

1322
01:42:15.760 --> 01:42:18.439
not having to deal with people that were here, but

1323
01:42:18.479 --> 01:42:22.199
then I had to deal with new people, although most

1324
01:42:22.239 --> 01:42:24.000
of those people were nice, but there was a lot

1325
01:42:24.000 --> 01:42:28.560
of It was quite It wasn't busy like it normally

1326
01:42:28.640 --> 01:42:32.840
is because of the the because it was a mask

1327
01:42:33.039 --> 01:42:38.520
wearing times. It was just after that or during that period,

1328
01:42:41.079 --> 01:42:43.399
but there was still a fair bit of people around.

1329
01:42:45.840 --> 01:42:50.279
And yeah, that's where it went. So I've met a

1330
01:42:50.319 --> 01:42:52.880
couple of people actually around here that went to Thailand

1331
01:42:53.920 --> 01:42:58.640
and they went to those parts. The thing is, there's

1332
01:42:58.680 --> 01:43:00.880
lots of islands that I could have gone. I could

1333
01:43:00.920 --> 01:43:04.560
have gone on excursions. There was a big old fairy

1334
01:43:04.800 --> 01:43:08.319
full of little little boats, which I could have traveled

1335
01:43:08.359 --> 01:43:13.920
to multiple different islands, because it is pretty much paradise,

1336
01:43:14.000 --> 01:43:20.199
isn't it out there. The thing is, once I got

1337
01:43:20.239 --> 01:43:26.119
out there. I just the first time, because I went

1338
01:43:26.119 --> 01:43:32.119
out twice. The first time I broke my rib because

1339
01:43:32.119 --> 01:43:36.239
I just had like a genuine message, like a proper

1340
01:43:36.640 --> 01:43:42.079
time message. And this bloke he just pressed on my

1341
01:43:42.199 --> 01:43:46.000
back and my and all I heard was click, a

1342
01:43:46.039 --> 01:43:50.279
really loud click. He found it funny. I couldn't breathe.

1343
01:43:50.960 --> 01:43:53.479
I didn't find it quite as funny. I mean maybe

1344
01:43:53.520 --> 01:43:54.880
if I was able to breathe, I might have been

1345
01:43:54.920 --> 01:44:00.239
able to laugh. But you know, and from and that

1346
01:44:00.399 --> 01:44:04.880
was I think the second day in so from then

1347
01:44:04.920 --> 01:44:09.680
on I was I just couldn't really do much. It

1348
01:44:09.760 --> 01:44:13.760
didn't stop me getting around, but I couldn't you know.

1349
01:44:14.199 --> 01:44:17.479
I wasn't sleeping really, I wasn't able to, you know.

1350
01:44:17.560 --> 01:44:21.000
It was just it was very uncomfortable, to the point

1351
01:44:21.039 --> 01:44:23.720
where I left early. I got an early flight back.

1352
01:44:25.600 --> 01:44:28.600
But I did manage to give food out, so that

1353
01:44:28.680 --> 01:44:31.039
was really good. I loved that bit. So I made

1354
01:44:31.079 --> 01:44:33.439
to give loads of food out to people who were hungry.

1355
01:44:34.359 --> 01:44:40.680
So the second time I went, I thought I deserved

1356
01:44:40.920 --> 01:44:45.000
once my Once my rob was held up, it started

1357
01:44:45.000 --> 01:44:48.920
getting bad again downstairs, and I thought more, I've got

1358
01:44:48.920 --> 01:44:54.239
to get out of here, and I had to go somewhere,

1359
01:44:54.800 --> 01:44:56.800
so I just thought, yeah, I'm to go there, just

1360
01:44:56.920 --> 01:45:00.159
got a flight, didn't book a hotel or anything. I

1361
01:45:00.239 --> 01:45:03.439
just like just went there, got to Bangkok and decided

1362
01:45:03.479 --> 01:45:09.119
where to go next. And I ended up in a

1363
01:45:09.159 --> 01:45:13.000
sports bar really nice. It was full of Australians, run

1364
01:45:13.039 --> 01:45:17.520
by Australians, full of Australian customers. I was the only

1365
01:45:18.079 --> 01:45:24.520
brick there, I think, and it was really well. It

1366
01:45:24.600 --> 01:45:26.319
was a sports bar. It was aimed at all the

1367
01:45:26.359 --> 01:45:29.640
different sports. The good thing they did have boxing on once,

1368
01:45:30.520 --> 01:45:32.640
so that was one of the highlights of the holiday,

1369
01:45:33.439 --> 01:45:38.479
sitting there having me breakfast watching heavyweight boxing fight. It

1370
01:45:38.560 --> 01:45:49.359
was and Uize and and Uieze and Otis Otis was it.

1371
01:45:49.520 --> 01:45:52.840
I forget his name, but yeah it was really it

1372
01:45:52.920 --> 01:45:55.239
was a Cuban fighter. But anyway, that was That was good.

1373
01:45:57.800 --> 01:46:02.319
So technically things are going well there. Yeah. I got

1374
01:46:02.359 --> 01:46:09.760
there just before my birthday and I had a really

1375
01:46:09.800 --> 01:46:13.960
good birthday. Went on this big pub crawl. It was

1376
01:46:14.000 --> 01:46:16.840
part of another bar and it took us all around

1377
01:46:16.960 --> 01:46:23.800
different places, different pubs and stuff. And the next day

1378
01:46:24.119 --> 01:46:26.279
I had a chest infection. I was feeling the all

1379
01:46:26.399 --> 01:46:29.319
during that day as well as it was going on

1380
01:46:29.920 --> 01:46:33.920
and I had a chest infection that lasted about ten days.

1381
01:46:34.680 --> 01:46:39.720
So I was in bed and then I tried to

1382
01:46:39.760 --> 01:46:43.000
get a ticket early to go home, couldn't, so I

1383
01:46:43.079 --> 01:46:46.359
ended up staying there for two and a half weeks,

1384
01:46:46.399 --> 01:46:53.079
three weeks, I can't remember. And then I was well

1385
01:46:53.119 --> 01:46:57.319
for about I was probably I was still coughing a bit,

1386
01:46:57.399 --> 01:47:01.039
but I was on my way to getting better. Wasn't

1387
01:47:01.079 --> 01:47:05.560
completely healed, wasn't completely back, but I probably had a

1388
01:47:05.600 --> 01:47:09.680
couple of days of feeling better, and I had probably

1389
01:47:10.399 --> 01:47:13.279
four days of been able to go out and walk around.

1390
01:47:14.800 --> 01:47:16.720
I waited until it was the evening when there wasn't

1391
01:47:16.760 --> 01:47:21.279
so many people around because unfortunately I dan't cough in

1392
01:47:21.359 --> 01:47:28.439
public because somebody would always shout out a certain word

1393
01:47:29.159 --> 01:47:36.079
beginning of sea and then ended with it's. That was weird.

1394
01:47:36.560 --> 01:47:39.439
So yeah, but I didn't realize because they were putting

1395
01:47:39.439 --> 01:47:44.439
adverts on TV in Thailand that was just scaring everyone,

1396
01:47:45.000 --> 01:47:52.319
like proper, Yeah, it's weird, weird seeing what other countries do.

1397
01:47:54.479 --> 01:47:58.640
So Michelle, how did you decide to start the boy

1398
01:47:58.680 --> 01:48:02.560
You Let Me Bore You to Sleep podcast? They Great

1399
01:48:02.600 --> 01:48:07.319
Bay Away, Think the Grips bad Away. I'm slowing today,

1400
01:48:08.359 --> 01:48:10.359
am I slurring or I am I just being lazy

1401
01:48:10.600 --> 01:48:15.159
a little bit both, a bit tired. Yesterday I was shattered,

1402
01:48:16.560 --> 01:48:17.680
like at the end of it, I had to go

1403
01:48:17.720 --> 01:48:22.000
to bed early. I just I hadn't eaten really much.

1404
01:48:22.239 --> 01:48:26.439
I just like it drained everything out of me. So

1405
01:48:26.479 --> 01:48:28.840
I woke up today. I'm still feel like I'm a

1406
01:48:28.880 --> 01:48:32.520
little bit recovering from that. It's weird. I'm not built

1407
01:48:32.520 --> 01:48:38.680
for that stuff anymore, taking on other people's stuff, like, oh,

1408
01:48:38.840 --> 01:48:43.399
I'm not so I think they let me boy to sleep.

1409
01:48:43.439 --> 01:48:49.399
It was twenty eighteen, had I did have precursors to

1410
01:48:49.600 --> 01:48:54.800
let me boy to sleep? In two thousand and ten,

1411
01:48:58.960 --> 01:49:06.720
I did a hypno chats, which is basically a mixture

1412
01:49:06.800 --> 01:49:12.359
between chatting and hypnosis. So I would just talk about

1413
01:49:12.399 --> 01:49:17.239
my day about a subject, and then I would ease

1414
01:49:17.359 --> 01:49:25.600
into a hypnosis session and I'd end up doing like

1415
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:31.119
a a relaxation session at the end of it, so

1416
01:49:31.840 --> 01:49:35.760
that that's the hypno chats, and I'd choose a subject

1417
01:49:35.800 --> 01:49:37.840
and it could be all kinds of weird different things.

1418
01:49:38.720 --> 01:49:42.239
Weird things. I mean, I do still have them, but

1419
01:49:42.279 --> 01:49:43.760
no one ever listened to them, so I just got

1420
01:49:43.880 --> 01:49:46.439
rid of them. But I've still got them on here

1421
01:49:47.760 --> 01:49:57.720
on my Really that's weird. Oh okay, hypno Chats? Is

1422
01:49:57.760 --> 01:50:07.279
it hypno hip no Chats? Yeah? I do, still got

1423
01:50:07.279 --> 01:50:10.720
it on and still got the recordings. I've got twenty

1424
01:50:11.720 --> 01:50:16.800
twenty yeah, twenty different ones. They range, They do range

1425
01:50:16.920 --> 01:50:22.119
different subjects. Number one was future. Number two is public

1426
01:50:22.159 --> 01:50:27.640
transport and sending healing energy. Wow. One if it tells

1427
01:50:27.680 --> 01:50:31.960
me what year it was, no, it doesn't. It says

1428
01:50:31.960 --> 01:50:41.560
twenty fifteen, but it was long before that. Yeah. And

1429
01:50:41.600 --> 01:50:45.520
then so I did hitno Chats. Then I did another

1430
01:50:45.720 --> 01:50:59.840
version talking out talking out loudly or thinking out loudly,

1431
01:51:00.000 --> 01:51:01.960
I don't know, something like that, which was like another

1432
01:51:02.079 --> 01:51:05.960
version of this where I just talked about stuff. And

1433
01:51:06.000 --> 01:51:12.560
then I did hypnotic Buffet hip not tick buffet. See

1434
01:51:12.600 --> 01:51:19.439
if that's still around on my Oh it's not hypnotic buffet.

1435
01:51:19.520 --> 01:51:22.920
Have I lost all those recordings of way? Okay, I

1436
01:51:22.960 --> 01:51:27.119
may have lost them all, never mind, Oh no, I don't.

1437
01:51:29.319 --> 01:51:30.880
I don't really want to have lost them all, to

1438
01:51:30.880 --> 01:51:36.840
be fair. Hypnotic Buffet, Oh no, they are still on it.

1439
01:51:37.800 --> 01:51:39.880
I was looking at the wrong in the wrong folder.

1440
01:51:40.520 --> 01:51:46.960
So there are thirty one hypnotic buffets and the last

1441
01:51:46.960 --> 01:51:58.560
one I did was where's that's weird? I don't want

1442
01:51:58.600 --> 01:52:04.159
to see properties. That's it? According to this the last

1443
01:52:04.199 --> 01:52:06.640
one I did was the six of all was twenty eighteen,

1444
01:52:08.359 --> 01:52:14.119
but that I don't think that would be true. It

1445
01:52:14.159 --> 01:52:18.800
says created eleventh of September twenty eighteen. Yeah, I don't

1446
01:52:18.840 --> 01:52:25.000
think that's true either. Before that, so, yeah, I did those.

1447
01:52:25.119 --> 01:52:31.279
Did I have those named? I don't know, I look

1448
01:52:32.960 --> 01:52:40.560
or yeah. The underlying thing was so hypnotic buffet thoughts

1449
01:52:40.600 --> 01:52:46.800
and ideas to transform lives every Monday. So this is

1450
01:52:46.800 --> 01:52:54.720
what I did, probably two thousand, well maybe it was

1451
01:52:54.760 --> 01:53:02.039
twenty fifteen. Did I what was it two thousand, twenty eighteen? No,

1452
01:53:02.399 --> 01:53:06.399
it wouldn't have been twenty eighteen. I don't think so anyway.

1453
01:53:08.479 --> 01:53:11.359
But I started to let me boy to sleep in.

1454
01:53:13.399 --> 01:53:23.520
That was previous versions general. Yeah, eleventh of September two

1455
01:53:23.560 --> 01:53:27.159
thousand and eight, that's just when they were transferred. So

1456
01:53:28.199 --> 01:53:35.479
after that, so I did the three different things I

1457
01:53:35.560 --> 01:53:38.399
used to do Jason Chats, which was just a blog

1458
01:53:38.560 --> 01:53:40.880
about my life, and I just talked about that and

1459
01:53:40.960 --> 01:53:44.319
someone posted, I think it was on YouTube. They said,

1460
01:53:45.039 --> 01:53:49.560
oh I was fall asleep whenever you do your blogs.

1461
01:53:51.119 --> 01:53:53.000
Part of me, it was a little bit like, oh,

1462
01:53:53.079 --> 01:53:55.800
that's a bit rude. It'll bit rude. You know, I'm

1463
01:53:55.840 --> 01:54:00.479
talking about my life and you're falling asleep. Dumber's ga

1464
01:54:00.520 --> 01:54:03.720
and it's time for food, baby food, food food. But

1465
01:54:03.800 --> 01:54:08.399
then another party fought h there's something in that. So

1466
01:54:08.960 --> 01:54:15.760
regardless what I talk about, you're bored. Guess what the

1467
01:54:15.800 --> 01:54:18.119
person said, you just bore me and I fall asleep.

1468
01:54:19.439 --> 01:54:23.119
They might have been trying to be rude, but I

1469
01:54:23.239 --> 01:54:30.319
thought about it and I thought, okay, So I started

1470
01:54:30.319 --> 01:54:32.960
a podcast, let Me Boy You to Sleep, which was

1471
01:54:38.000 --> 01:54:48.199
when was it, Let Me Boy You to Sleep? Twenty

1472
01:54:48.279 --> 01:54:53.520
seventh of March twenty eighteen. That was the very first,

1473
01:54:53.560 --> 01:54:59.880
so we have I missed that. I could have put

1474
01:55:00.079 --> 01:55:07.680
down the what was it, eighteen nineteen twenty, I could have.

1475
01:55:10.800 --> 01:55:13.279
I could have done the seventh year anniversary episode, but

1476
01:55:13.319 --> 01:55:20.600
I didn't think about it. Oh well, so yeah, it's

1477
01:55:20.880 --> 01:55:24.680
it was. So that was the very very very first

1478
01:55:25.000 --> 01:55:31.039
recording after Let Me Boy to Sleep. Now, I didn't

1479
01:55:31.079 --> 01:55:33.479
do any research. I didn't look online to see if

1480
01:55:33.520 --> 01:55:37.079
anyone else was doing boring recordings. I just did it.

1481
01:55:37.680 --> 01:55:41.680
There is another podcast something like Bore Me to sleep

1482
01:55:41.880 --> 01:55:45.039
that's been around a few more years than me. And

1483
01:55:45.199 --> 01:55:48.119
someone was saying, oh, you're just copying them, Like, No,

1484
01:55:48.680 --> 01:55:53.520
first of all, I didn't know they existed. Secondly, I

1485
01:55:53.520 --> 01:55:57.199
don't think anyone does what I do. I don't mean

1486
01:55:57.239 --> 01:55:59.399
it in a good way, because you know, I'll probably

1487
01:55:59.399 --> 01:56:02.319
be better off if I did copy other people. But

1488
01:56:03.640 --> 01:56:06.840
this is what I do is unique. Even if even

1489
01:56:06.880 --> 01:56:10.439
if it was the identical type of thing, it would

1490
01:56:10.479 --> 01:56:13.920
still be different. Yeah, if you got if you like,

1491
01:56:13.960 --> 01:56:21.279
gave a topic talk about watching tennis, and you gave

1492
01:56:21.359 --> 01:56:23.680
that topic to any other podcasts and you gave it

1493
01:56:23.720 --> 01:56:26.479
to me, mine's going to be different from theirs, and

1494
01:56:26.520 --> 01:56:28.439
there is probably going to be different from everyone else's

1495
01:56:28.439 --> 01:56:32.960
as well. It's gonna be different. So that's how I

1496
01:56:33.119 --> 01:56:38.319
ended up doing this. And I didn't expect it to

1497
01:56:38.520 --> 01:56:42.520
lead anywhere. I really didn't. I don't think it would

1498
01:56:42.520 --> 01:56:51.560
be Yeah, I didn't. I didn't really think anything of it.

1499
01:56:51.560 --> 01:56:53.600
It was just a new thing. I thought maybe i'd

1500
01:56:53.640 --> 01:56:58.520
do perhaps ten twenty, you know, like the Hypnotic Buffet

1501
01:56:58.760 --> 01:57:05.079
or the hypno Chats. I didn't think it would lead

1502
01:57:05.119 --> 01:57:09.920
to anything sort of a lot ongoing, but it did,

1503
01:57:10.960 --> 01:57:15.239
and seven years. Over seven years later, here we are.

1504
01:57:17.600 --> 01:57:20.680
I think it's because I was getting feedback. People were

1505
01:57:20.720 --> 01:57:25.520
telling me they're very relaxing regardless of what I talk about,

1506
01:57:25.600 --> 01:57:29.520
and some people like the fact that it's I'm real.

1507
01:57:30.399 --> 01:57:32.920
I do make stuff up, obviously. I think that's obvious.

1508
01:57:33.119 --> 01:57:37.279
I do that as well. I don't generally take myself

1509
01:57:37.319 --> 01:57:42.560
too seriously. I can see the funny side to a

1510
01:57:42.600 --> 01:57:47.880
lot of things. And also something that I didn't know

1511
01:57:47.920 --> 01:57:50.640
would happen is I was getting a lot of people

1512
01:57:50.720 --> 01:57:53.800
over the years telling me that I'm company that actually

1513
01:57:53.920 --> 01:57:57.039
it's a friendly voice to listen to. It's like, you

1514
01:57:57.119 --> 01:58:00.600
get to know me, and do you to listen to

1515
01:58:00.640 --> 01:58:05.760
me every day? And it's something that some people look

1516
01:58:05.800 --> 01:58:12.520
forward to. So that's in some ways that's probably more

1517
01:58:12.520 --> 01:58:20.640
of a compliment. And yeah, I mean that's partly why

1518
01:58:21.520 --> 01:58:23.960
there's a couple of if I see an elderly person,

1519
01:58:24.880 --> 01:58:28.279
not just elderly, but if I see someone in the park,

1520
01:58:28.479 --> 01:58:32.119
they're on their own because generally I only talk to

1521
01:58:32.159 --> 01:58:35.159
dog walkers because Vinnie wants to say low to them.

1522
01:58:35.479 --> 01:58:37.920
He loves people, but he loves dog walkers because they've

1523
01:58:37.920 --> 01:58:40.960
got treats. There's a few dog that says a loo

1524
01:58:41.079 --> 01:58:46.439
too as well. But Vinny wants to say low to everybody.

1525
01:58:47.600 --> 01:58:51.960
So if the person looks okay, some people don't look approachable,

1526
01:58:52.640 --> 01:58:57.840
to be fair, but if the person looks approachable, I'll

1527
01:58:57.920 --> 01:58:59.760
let Vinnie take me up to them and I'll just say,

1528
01:59:00.079 --> 01:59:04.600
can he say hello? He wants to say hello, and

1529
01:59:04.880 --> 01:59:07.159
no one's ever said go away yet. I think I

1530
01:59:07.199 --> 01:59:09.079
did have one person ignore me and just walk on,

1531
01:59:10.720 --> 01:59:16.000
and it's like, as my mom, so you sh had

1532
01:59:16.000 --> 01:59:22.439
a reason. So I and a couple of times, one

1533
01:59:22.560 --> 01:59:28.399
recently and a man said that will be my only

1534
01:59:28.439 --> 01:59:35.479
contact today, so thank you. I was like, oh, so

1535
01:59:35.520 --> 01:59:40.079
I'm avoiding from now on and joking. And then I

1536
01:59:40.159 --> 01:59:43.199
think yesterday or the day before that, it was a

1537
01:59:43.239 --> 01:59:47.479
bloke and a man he said, oh, thank you for stopping,

1538
01:59:47.560 --> 01:59:52.920
thank you for talking to me. So these are like

1539
01:59:53.000 --> 01:59:56.079
people that live on the estate. Maybe they don't see anyone.

1540
01:59:56.359 --> 02:00:02.840
I don't know, but Finny absolutely loves people and he

1541
02:00:02.920 --> 02:00:07.239
knows when a person's friendly, because that's when this bloke

1542
02:00:07.319 --> 02:00:12.560
I think yesterday, he said, oh, he just wants to

1543
02:00:12.600 --> 02:00:16.159
come if he must like everyone. I said, no, not necessarily.

1544
02:00:16.319 --> 02:00:20.039
He does love people, but he knows people. There's people

1545
02:00:20.079 --> 02:00:21.880
he doesn't want to go and say lo to. He

1546
02:00:21.920 --> 02:00:25.159
can tell who's friendly and who's not friendly. He knows.

1547
02:00:25.439 --> 02:00:31.000
I think dogs actually do know. They can tell a

1548
02:00:31.039 --> 02:00:34.359
dog lover from someone that isn't a dog lover. Maybe

1549
02:00:34.359 --> 02:00:39.760
not instantly, but you know, there's people that clearly that

1550
02:00:39.880 --> 02:00:43.039
I kind of know that don't like Vinnie, but not

1551
02:00:43.119 --> 02:00:45.159
don't like him, but kn't of keep the distance from him.

1552
02:00:45.319 --> 02:00:48.239
Not really into dogs, and he knows that. You know,

1553
02:00:48.359 --> 02:00:50.760
he gets excited to see them, but he doesn't try

1554
02:00:50.800 --> 02:00:53.920
and jump up, he doesn't doesn't really take much notice

1555
02:00:53.920 --> 02:00:57.359
of them really, so he knows. And this bloke was

1556
02:00:57.399 --> 02:01:00.960
so happy that I was telling him that, yeah, he's

1557
02:01:00.960 --> 02:01:05.239
fuzzy who he says hello to, because he doesn't he

1558
02:01:05.359 --> 02:01:08.439
knows if someone's not friendly. And he seemed to really

1559
02:01:08.479 --> 02:01:12.359
appreciate that, so that was nice. I don't know how

1560
02:01:12.439 --> 02:01:18.840
I got on to that subject. Last question Brooke brook Brook,

1561
02:01:18.880 --> 02:01:23.720
my friend Brooke. What is hypnosis and why does it work?

1562
02:01:24.039 --> 02:01:26.960
What are some myths about hypnosis there important to dispel?

1563
02:01:27.560 --> 02:01:31.960
What is your best TOFU recipe? Okay, the last one,

1564
02:01:32.039 --> 02:01:33.720
I don't have one, so I want to skip that

1565
02:01:33.760 --> 02:01:38.039
one now. If you said toffee recipe. I'd say, I

1566
02:01:38.119 --> 02:01:41.359
love anything with toffee, especially ones where that I get

1567
02:01:41.439 --> 02:01:44.439
ended up with bits of toffee and my beard scaring

1568
02:01:44.479 --> 02:01:49.880
the neighbors. Would you tell someone though, if you if

1569
02:01:49.920 --> 02:01:52.039
you were talking to someone I'm not talking about a

1570
02:01:52.039 --> 02:01:55.760
complete stranger, but someone that you see regularly, you know,

1571
02:01:55.840 --> 02:01:58.359
something you may see daily, even and you saw they

1572
02:01:58.399 --> 02:02:02.479
had toffee sticking out their beer? Would you mention it

1573
02:02:02.520 --> 02:02:06.560
to them? And there's ways of mentioning it without being rude,

1574
02:02:06.600 --> 02:02:11.439
isn't there is? You know, It's like if I'm going

1575
02:02:11.439 --> 02:02:14.760
out and I've got gravy all down my top and

1576
02:02:14.840 --> 02:02:18.159
I scream on my head, like, okay, perhaps we shouldn't

1577
02:02:18.159 --> 02:02:22.399
mention that because there's something going on there, but just

1578
02:02:22.399 --> 02:02:29.880
a little I would have preferred, mind you, something happened

1579
02:02:29.960 --> 02:02:32.960
yesterday and I wasn't particularly pleased with let's talk to

1580
02:02:33.000 --> 02:02:37.399
my neighbor. And I was saying, oh, I wear a hack,

1581
02:02:37.479 --> 02:02:40.560
so I don't like to because I'm I'm a bit

1582
02:02:40.680 --> 02:02:44.199
conscious about my my board patch on the top of

1583
02:02:44.239 --> 02:02:45.960
my head. And he said, what about the one at

1584
02:02:45.960 --> 02:02:49.239
the front of your head? What do you mean? He said,

1585
02:02:49.239 --> 02:02:51.039
the one on the front where you've got a comb over.

1586
02:02:52.960 --> 02:02:55.600
I said, I do not have a comb over. My

1587
02:02:55.680 --> 02:02:58.119
hair is not long enough. I can't even brush my hair.

1588
02:02:58.319 --> 02:03:01.239
It's not long enough to brush. He's said, there's none there.

1589
02:03:02.000 --> 02:03:06.399
I said, technically, you're correct, that is probably the reason.

1590
02:03:06.439 --> 02:03:10.840
But from the distance he could see that, like the

1591
02:03:10.840 --> 02:03:15.960
front of the hair is pretty much just disappearing, which means,

1592
02:03:19.479 --> 02:03:24.319
and I really am not pleased to say this, It

1593
02:03:24.560 --> 02:03:29.000
means what I'm going to have is hair around the side,

1594
02:03:30.439 --> 02:03:33.680
and I've already got the ball patch at the back.

1595
02:03:35.000 --> 02:03:44.800
It's fitling out on top. There's yeah, I don't know

1596
02:03:44.800 --> 02:03:49.039
how long it's going to take. Now my decision will

1597
02:03:49.039 --> 02:03:51.359
have to be this if it does in fact happen.

1598
02:03:51.800 --> 02:03:56.840
So the board patch grows and the one on the

1599
02:03:56.840 --> 02:04:00.600
front kind of grows to the point of eating in

1600
02:04:00.640 --> 02:04:06.199
the middle. What do I do with a straight hair

1601
02:04:06.319 --> 02:04:09.720
the stray hairs? Do I let them grow really long

1602
02:04:10.239 --> 02:04:16.560
and pretend that that's hair and hold on to that

1603
02:04:16.720 --> 02:04:21.039
because I know people that do that. They literally they

1604
02:04:21.119 --> 02:04:23.680
cherish those hairs, even though there's only like a little

1605
02:04:23.680 --> 02:04:29.359
fuzz now, because it's their hair. They cherish it. They

1606
02:04:30.399 --> 02:04:35.640
it's important to them, regardless of how ridiculous it might look,

1607
02:04:36.359 --> 02:04:39.880
they love it, they keep it, and I'm now in

1608
02:04:39.880 --> 02:04:42.319
that position where I'm thinking, yeah, I might have to

1609
02:04:42.399 --> 02:04:45.119
keep that, have a little bit of fuzz on top,

1610
02:04:49.039 --> 02:04:52.000
like a little brillo pad. I don't know, just I

1611
02:04:52.039 --> 02:04:56.760
don't know what, because I used to have an attitude

1612
02:04:56.760 --> 02:04:59.399
when I was younger just to shave my head. I

1613
02:04:59.439 --> 02:05:02.800
still do shaw my head sometimes, like it doesn't matter.

1614
02:05:02.920 --> 02:05:04.920
If I ever go bored, it will not affect me

1615
02:05:04.960 --> 02:05:07.560
at all, because I've walked around for years with a

1616
02:05:07.640 --> 02:05:13.319
bald head. Being bored would not affect me at all.

1617
02:05:15.279 --> 02:05:17.159
Now it's easy to say that when you're not bald,

1618
02:05:17.640 --> 02:05:21.880
when you're not naturally bald, So shaving my head bald

1619
02:05:22.359 --> 02:05:26.479
is a lot different from actually not need, not needing

1620
02:05:26.520 --> 02:05:35.399
to save my head bald because it's doing it naturally. Ah. Yeah,

1621
02:05:35.520 --> 02:05:39.000
I didn't realize that, you know what, It's not as

1622
02:05:39.920 --> 02:05:48.920
non affecting me as I thought. And Brooke might be

1623
02:05:48.960 --> 02:05:51.239
listening to this thinking what's that got to do with

1624
02:05:51.279 --> 02:05:57.239
how hypnosis works? Okay, I'll go back to that hypnosis.

1625
02:05:57.920 --> 02:06:00.279
All I can do is my understanding. Because I've so

1626
02:06:00.319 --> 02:06:03.000
many books. I know what the theories are, all the

1627
02:06:03.079 --> 02:06:08.239
different theories, and like the myths about hypnosis. What's important

1628
02:06:08.279 --> 02:06:14.760
to dispel even now I see on Facebook and places

1629
02:06:15.279 --> 02:06:23.359
the idea hypnosis if you like, it's somehow harmful given

1630
02:06:23.399 --> 02:06:26.359
away control to someone and they can do make you

1631
02:06:26.439 --> 02:06:28.800
do whatever they want you to do, and it's it's

1632
02:06:28.840 --> 02:06:34.479
not true. It's really not. It's it's not how it works.

1633
02:06:35.640 --> 02:06:41.159
If I mean, maybe there's a degree of I suppose

1634
02:06:41.199 --> 02:06:45.880
if you was hypnotizing someone every day and you wanted to,

1635
02:06:46.279 --> 02:06:48.119
you know, you could sort of play around of it

1636
02:06:48.159 --> 02:06:57.600
and have fun with it, but ultimately can't just control

1637
02:06:57.720 --> 02:07:01.560
someone completely. I don't think maybe some people can. I

1638
02:07:01.600 --> 02:07:09.760
don't have that. I mean, everyone's manipulatively, manipuitaable, maniputable, able

1639
02:07:09.800 --> 02:07:13.960
to be manipulated, and as people with public we are.

1640
02:07:14.039 --> 02:07:18.399
That's why as adverts on TV constantly, everyone's being at

1641
02:07:18.520 --> 02:07:21.640
least are trying to manipulate us. And that is in

1642
02:07:21.720 --> 02:07:24.720
no way a conspiracy thing. It's just a factual thing.

1643
02:07:25.760 --> 02:07:30.720
And hypnosis has been used in advertising. It's one of

1644
02:07:30.720 --> 02:07:37.800
the first things that was used for Like generally, hypnosis

1645
02:07:37.800 --> 02:07:40.760
are used for advertising because they knew that it worked,

1646
02:07:41.239 --> 02:07:45.119
they knew that they wanted to advertise in this manipulation

1647
02:07:45.479 --> 02:07:47.840
to try and get you to buy a product or

1648
02:07:47.920 --> 02:07:53.239
to think a certain way. So yeah, it works. That

1649
02:07:53.359 --> 02:08:01.920
stuff works. It's I don't know. He hypnosis some of

1650
02:08:01.960 --> 02:08:06.199
the myths with it. I would say, I think it's

1651
02:08:06.199 --> 02:08:10.640
a standard thing. Some people think that the hypnotists will

1652
02:08:10.640 --> 02:08:15.479
get them to do silly things, like like with stage hypnosis.

1653
02:08:16.079 --> 02:08:25.359
But that's not the case. The idea that maybe you'd

1654
02:08:25.359 --> 02:08:29.000
be under you being hypnosis and you're completely unconscious and

1655
02:08:29.079 --> 02:08:32.159
you don't know anything that's going on. I would say

1656
02:08:32.159 --> 02:08:38.039
that's not the case either, because the fact that the

1657
02:08:38.159 --> 02:08:43.520
unconscious you might be consciously unaware the unconsciously aware. But

1658
02:08:44.079 --> 02:08:46.199
you've got to remember, your unconscious is looking out for

1659
02:08:46.239 --> 02:08:50.560
you all the time. That's the thing that pulls your

1660
02:08:50.640 --> 02:08:53.560
hand back when it touches a hot surface. Not your

1661
02:08:53.600 --> 02:08:59.680
conscious mind. Your unconscious, your automatic reflexes is looking out

1662
02:08:59.720 --> 02:09:03.640
for you. It's not your conscious mind that sees that

1663
02:09:03.680 --> 02:09:07.720
speeding car coming as you're walking. You're about to walk

1664
02:09:07.760 --> 02:09:12.359
out on the road between two cars. You're about to

1665
02:09:12.399 --> 02:09:16.079
walk out. You don't see it, but you move back

1666
02:09:17.680 --> 02:09:22.239
like in an instant. It's not your conscious minded does that?

1667
02:09:22.840 --> 02:09:25.560
Because it was your conscious minded, does that you'd get

1668
02:09:25.640 --> 02:09:30.399
hit by the car. Our conscious minds don't move that quickly.

1669
02:09:31.439 --> 02:09:35.119
So your unconscious mind or your subconscious mind, or whatever

1670
02:09:35.119 --> 02:09:41.520
you want to call it, I call it unconscious because

1671
02:09:41.520 --> 02:09:43.880
we're not really conscious of it, that's all. It's not

1672
02:09:43.960 --> 02:09:51.199
unconscious like being asleep. I like to believe it's looking

1673
02:09:51.199 --> 02:09:58.479
out for us, has our best interest at heart. But

1674
02:09:58.560 --> 02:10:01.199
when it comes to hypnosis, I suppose, going back to

1675
02:10:01.560 --> 02:10:04.960
theory and how it works, it doesn't always know what's right.

1676
02:10:07.239 --> 02:10:09.399
It can see if a car's coming towards us, that's

1677
02:10:09.760 --> 02:10:11.039
the right thing is to get out of the way.

1678
02:10:11.479 --> 02:10:13.560
If you put your hand on hot stove, you take

1679
02:10:13.560 --> 02:10:17.640
it away, it's the right thing. Things like that. Protecting

1680
02:10:17.680 --> 02:10:25.720
our bodies is standard. But sometimes but when it comes

1681
02:10:25.760 --> 02:10:32.640
to things like phobias and being worried about things and

1682
02:10:32.680 --> 02:10:37.119
stuff like that, the unconscious mind doesn't always know. It

1683
02:10:37.199 --> 02:10:43.000
needs help, needs us to let it know what's I mean,

1684
02:10:43.039 --> 02:10:44.800
you could say in a way like a computer, but

1685
02:10:44.960 --> 02:10:51.000
programming it needs guidance, needs supervision. So the unconscious mind

1686
02:10:51.119 --> 02:10:54.520
just needs to be It needs us to let it

1687
02:10:54.600 --> 02:11:02.119
know what it needs. And I think we need to

1688
02:11:02.159 --> 02:11:06.239
be quite specific as well, And there's different ways you

1689
02:11:06.239 --> 02:11:12.000
can do that. Just by you know, you can do affirmations,

1690
02:11:12.039 --> 02:11:15.159
you can do hypnosis, you can do all this stuff,

1691
02:11:15.159 --> 02:11:19.520
but you could also just just live the life. So

1692
02:11:19.640 --> 02:11:28.439
Brooke for example, and Brook, you're living the life. You're

1693
02:11:28.479 --> 02:11:32.359
doing what you do helping people have had strokes, and

1694
02:11:35.199 --> 02:11:38.439
you know you're living. If you live the life do

1695
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:42.319
you want to live, your unconscious mind helps you to

1696
02:11:42.399 --> 02:11:46.520
continue to live the life you live. So if you're

1697
02:11:46.800 --> 02:11:55.159
thinking positive things, your unconscious mind is basically hearing that, like, oh,

1698
02:11:55.239 --> 02:11:58.680
you want to you want to be positive, you want

1699
02:11:58.720 --> 02:12:04.279
to think more more positive thoughts. If you've got kind

1700
02:12:04.319 --> 02:12:06.439
of love in your heart and you're thinking about people

1701
02:12:06.479 --> 02:12:11.279
that you care about, your unconscious mind realize that and

1702
02:12:11.319 --> 02:12:16.680
if you need more of that. So our unconscious mind's

1703
02:12:16.720 --> 02:12:20.840
always listening to our thoughts. So what we say to

1704
02:12:20.880 --> 02:12:27.720
ourselves is hugely important. In technically, you say, that's not hypnosis,

1705
02:12:27.760 --> 02:12:30.960
it's just the brain, it's the mind. So yeah, fair enough,

1706
02:12:31.000 --> 02:12:34.720
but it's still part of that whole thing. You get

1707
02:12:34.760 --> 02:12:36.960
what you think about, You get more of what you

1708
02:12:37.000 --> 02:12:42.920
think about. We come what we think about. And there's

1709
02:12:43.039 --> 02:12:50.920
so many examples of this around us. You can see

1710
02:12:50.920 --> 02:12:57.640
it if you know someone that's constantly complaining, like constantly.

1711
02:13:01.840 --> 02:13:09.439
You can see even in their face, their behavior, their interactions,

1712
02:13:10.039 --> 02:13:14.840
you can see how they even their voice, even their

1713
02:13:14.880 --> 02:13:23.439
health is affected by that negativity, by that internal looking

1714
02:13:23.479 --> 02:13:32.960
at things in a negative way. So even I guess

1715
02:13:33.520 --> 02:13:36.720
because some people, some of the funniest people can be

1716
02:13:36.760 --> 02:13:42.880
really negative, like proper funny. But then some of those

1717
02:13:42.920 --> 02:13:48.520
people are not very happy. So it's one of those things,

1718
02:13:48.199 --> 02:13:51.680
what do you focus on? We get what we focus on,

1719
02:13:54.560 --> 02:14:00.199
and it's not like an instant thing, but it's it's

1720
02:14:00.279 --> 02:14:02.600
kind of like it works in different ways. So you

1721
02:14:02.640 --> 02:14:04.880
get what we get what we focus on. So if

1722
02:14:04.920 --> 02:14:09.000
you let's say itchy bum Let's say I'm focused on

1723
02:14:09.000 --> 02:14:14.760
having an itchy bumb, it gets itcher. That's actually a

1724
02:14:14.800 --> 02:14:17.880
good example, you know, if you're kind of thinking of too,

1725
02:14:18.199 --> 02:14:20.880
and it works with the unconscious mind. It doesn't understand

1726
02:14:21.399 --> 02:14:25.119
negative and positive. Really, it's just focus on what you're

1727
02:14:25.119 --> 02:14:30.560
thinking about. So if you're thinking, oh, I don't want

1728
02:14:30.600 --> 02:14:33.319
to have that itch in the bottom of my foot,

1729
02:14:35.079 --> 02:14:36.720
I don't want to have that itch in the bottom

1730
02:14:36.760 --> 02:14:39.039
of my foot, all your unconscious mind is really going

1731
02:14:39.119 --> 02:14:42.119
to get from that is focus on the itch in

1732
02:14:42.199 --> 02:14:47.600
your foot, just going to focus on it. So if

1733
02:14:47.640 --> 02:14:49.640
you put in a different language, I like my foot,

1734
02:14:49.680 --> 02:14:54.479
I feel relaxed and calm, and you know, by imagining

1735
02:14:54.520 --> 02:15:02.079
that that might change it that way. And also our

1736
02:15:02.159 --> 02:15:05.039
brains don't know that. And this is scientists say this.

1737
02:15:05.960 --> 02:15:09.079
Our brains don't know the difference between imagined and real

1738
02:15:09.880 --> 02:15:16.239
in a sense of if we imagine feeling relaxed, lying

1739
02:15:16.279 --> 02:15:20.800
on a beach, on a hammock or whatever, and actually

1740
02:15:20.840 --> 02:15:26.399
doing it, we have the same physiological effect on our

1741
02:15:26.439 --> 02:15:29.279
bodies and on our minds as if we were actually there.

1742
02:15:31.359 --> 02:15:33.079
I'm not saying that you can get sun tanned, but

1743
02:15:33.079 --> 02:15:38.800
I'm just you know, generally, our unconscious mind or our mind,

1744
02:15:38.840 --> 02:15:43.159
our brain doesn't know the difference. And I think that's

1745
02:15:43.239 --> 02:15:51.479
quite interesting actually. So my motto is not my motto.

1746
02:15:52.279 --> 02:15:56.960
I took it from Earld Nightingale, but it has become

1747
02:15:57.039 --> 02:16:01.079
what we think about, and I try and remember that

1748
02:16:01.159 --> 02:16:07.960
every single day. Become what we think about. So if

1749
02:16:07.960 --> 02:16:14.600
you think about what do you want to become. If

1750
02:16:14.640 --> 02:16:19.600
someone wants to stay let's say someone wants to stay unhappy,

1751
02:16:20.279 --> 02:16:24.680
then just think about unhappy things. It's kind of basic, really,

1752
02:16:25.279 --> 02:16:27.720
and I don't think anyone could argue that that would

1753
02:16:28.199 --> 02:16:32.959
probably help the person to feel rubbish inside if that's

1754
02:16:33.000 --> 02:16:38.760
all they focus on. And that's why I don't watch

1755
02:16:40.479 --> 02:16:44.000
these like true crime things. I'm not knocking anyone does,

1756
02:16:44.040 --> 02:16:47.239
but I just don't find it it's useful for me

1757
02:16:48.639 --> 02:16:52.680
my mental states. It's really interesting, that's for sure. I

1758
02:16:52.719 --> 02:16:57.079
know that I understand why people get caught up in it,

1759
02:16:57.559 --> 02:16:59.920
especially the ones where you see all the film footage

1760
02:17:00.120 --> 02:17:04.280
the police arresting the people and then the interrogation makes

1761
02:17:04.280 --> 02:17:07.280
me want to watch it now. But I've spent two

1762
02:17:07.360 --> 02:17:12.719
hours watching one of them, and it's so fascinating, but

1763
02:17:12.799 --> 02:17:19.079
at the same time, I don't feel good afterwards. It's

1764
02:17:19.360 --> 02:17:23.440
you know, there's been so much horrible stuff I've just ingested.

1765
02:17:24.799 --> 02:17:29.520
That's pretty much poison. Really think about it, poison for

1766
02:17:29.559 --> 02:17:36.360
the mind, negativity. So yeah, we become what we think about.

1767
02:17:37.000 --> 02:17:42.719
So I try and remember that every day and try

1768
02:17:43.040 --> 02:17:49.040
to focus. I focus on doing these recordings helping people,

1769
02:17:50.600 --> 02:17:57.440
and that's my life. That is everything to me. So

1770
02:17:57.639 --> 02:18:02.360
that's kind of so I've can't I don't know if

1771
02:18:02.399 --> 02:18:06.239
I have, but I feel like I've become this in

1772
02:18:06.280 --> 02:18:13.520
a way, but with moods, with an unstable personality. But

1773
02:18:13.799 --> 02:18:20.360
I've become this person that I wanted to become, or

1774
02:18:20.520 --> 02:18:25.000
I've just become me. In some ways, I feel like

1775
02:18:25.040 --> 02:18:30.559
I've found my voice. It took a long time, but

1776
02:18:30.600 --> 02:18:32.559
I seem to have found my voice since I've been

1777
02:18:33.040 --> 02:18:38.760
doing these Let Me Boy the Sleeps recordings. I do

1778
02:18:38.799 --> 02:18:42.520
feel like I've found me and I can just be me.

1779
02:18:44.079 --> 02:18:46.600
And I know that I do censor myself a lot

1780
02:18:47.399 --> 02:18:50.719
sometimes when I do these, I think because they will

1781
02:18:50.719 --> 02:18:55.040
not upset anyone, and I try not to swear, and

1782
02:18:55.879 --> 02:18:58.360
my natural would probably be to swear a little bit.

1783
02:18:59.280 --> 02:19:03.760
And but it's still ultimately it's just me being me.

1784
02:19:09.760 --> 02:19:11.799
And in a way, he can't really be anything more

1785
02:19:11.840 --> 02:19:15.760
than ourselves can we. There's got to come a point,

1786
02:19:15.840 --> 02:19:18.159
especially at my age, I was like, maybe I am

1787
02:19:18.200 --> 02:19:25.159
good enough. I may be better. I may become better.

1788
02:19:26.479 --> 02:19:28.639
I just remember years ago I was in the Buddhist

1789
02:19:28.639 --> 02:19:33.159
Center and I said to someone because they pointed out

1790
02:19:33.200 --> 02:19:37.120
one of my flaws, which is sometimes Buddhists have a

1791
02:19:37.159 --> 02:19:43.479
tendency to do, especially when I'm around them, and I said, well,

1792
02:19:44.239 --> 02:19:46.719
I'm not doing this. I don't want to be perfect.

1793
02:19:47.799 --> 02:19:49.680
And he was confused by that, So what do you

1794
02:19:49.719 --> 02:19:52.079
mean he don't want to be perfect. I said, no, no,

1795
02:19:52.319 --> 02:19:56.399
I'm not trying to be perfect, and that when it

1796
02:19:56.479 --> 02:20:00.959
gainst how he was, I guess attempting his life to

1797
02:20:01.000 --> 02:20:04.799
be perfect. I don't want to be I never want

1798
02:20:04.879 --> 02:20:11.920
to be perfect. I just wanted to be better. I

1799
02:20:11.959 --> 02:20:16.799
wanted to be I want to leave something, you know,

1800
02:20:16.840 --> 02:20:25.520
I want to be useful. I didn't want to be useful,

1801
02:20:25.559 --> 02:20:28.760
not when I was in my twenties, but since the

1802
02:20:28.840 --> 02:20:32.319
age of probably much since two thousand and six, when

1803
02:20:32.319 --> 02:20:37.920
I was thirty five, although I started before then, but

1804
02:20:37.959 --> 02:20:40.639
I didn't really manage to do much until yeah, till

1805
02:20:40.799 --> 02:20:46.639
two thousand and six. I wanted to help people, but

1806
02:20:46.799 --> 02:20:52.000
knowing that I'm not, really I don't. It's a struggle

1807
02:20:52.079 --> 02:20:56.079
being around people for any length of time. Generally not

1808
02:20:56.440 --> 02:20:59.440
all people I meet. The occasional person that I can

1809
02:20:59.479 --> 02:21:06.520
spend time, but it's yeah, it I had to make

1810
02:21:06.559 --> 02:21:09.559
that decision, Like, you know what, I can help one person,

1811
02:21:11.000 --> 02:21:14.239
I could spend fifty minutes or four hours, and I

1812
02:21:14.280 --> 02:21:20.159
can help four people enough four hours. Or I can

1813
02:21:20.239 --> 02:21:29.159
make a recording online and help hundreds of people. We're

1814
02:21:29.239 --> 02:21:35.239
just one recording uploaded to YouTube or Facebook or wherever

1815
02:21:35.319 --> 02:21:39.040
I was doing it, whatever podcast host I was using

1816
02:21:39.079 --> 02:21:49.879
at that time, and MySpace to start with. And then

1817
02:21:49.920 --> 02:21:56.280
when the videos were getting thousands of yours, it made

1818
02:21:56.319 --> 02:21:59.440
sense that instead of doing a group session where I

1819
02:21:59.479 --> 02:22:06.760
was seeing maybe twelve sometime there's eighteen people, I can

1820
02:22:06.799 --> 02:22:18.040
reach a thousand people or five hundred people. And that's

1821
02:22:18.040 --> 02:22:24.639
a large audience. I mean, down between a thousand and

1822
02:22:24.680 --> 02:22:37.600
two thousand people. That's a big old theater. So that's

1823
02:22:37.600 --> 02:22:49.040
pretty much why I went in this direction. What is hypnosis?

1824
02:22:49.040 --> 02:22:50.879
How does it work? I don't know if I've really

1825
02:22:50.879 --> 02:22:55.479
answered that question, but I've kind of given a my

1826
02:22:55.719 --> 02:22:59.079
version of what I think. It's more than just having

1827
02:22:59.159 --> 02:23:02.319
someone talk to you you and get you to relax

1828
02:23:02.399 --> 02:23:10.040
and focus on this and whatever. It's It's about thoughts,

1829
02:23:10.079 --> 02:23:14.120
it's about attitude. It's about expectation. What do you believe

1830
02:23:14.159 --> 02:23:18.600
is going to happen? Belief is so strong, so powerful,

1831
02:23:20.639 --> 02:23:24.360
like the most powerful thing. What you expect to happen,

1832
02:23:25.239 --> 02:23:28.559
what you really expect to happen, has such an impact

1833
02:23:29.159 --> 02:23:35.000
on what does actually happen. So expect things to go well,

1834
02:23:37.440 --> 02:23:42.559
you know, just an idea. Right, the noisy people are

1835
02:23:42.600 --> 02:23:47.479
back in the garden, and so they clearly you don't

1836
02:23:47.520 --> 02:23:50.399
have a break at Easter. Bless them. So I'm going

1837
02:23:50.479 --> 02:23:53.760
to go, so thank you for listening. Remember to be

1838
02:23:53.840 --> 02:23:56.239
kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy.

1839
02:23:57.000 --> 02:24:01.520
Thank you to Anne, Maria, Georgie, Hillary, Michelle and Brooke

1840
02:24:02.159 --> 02:24:08.159
for your questions. I hope of answered them and side

1841
02:24:08.200 --> 02:24:20.760
the introduction, So long, take care, lots of love. Bye.

1842
02:24:21.360 --> 02:24:35.959
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1843
02:24:36.000 --> 02:24:41.559
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1844
02:24:42.920 --> 02:24:52.159
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1845
02:24:54.159 --> 02:24:59.799
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1846
02:24:59.799 --> 02:25:06.559
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1847
02:25:06.719 --> 02:25:21.639
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1848
02:25:21.760 --> 02:25:41.559
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1849
02:25:41.639 --> 02:25:52.200
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1850
02:25:55.079 --> 02:26:02.360
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1851
02:26:04.280 --> 02:26:17.719
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1852
02:26:17.920 --> 02:26:22.559
find like some people do and myself as well, I

1853
02:26:22.719 --> 02:26:29.479
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1854
02:26:33.799 --> 02:26:36.200
and I just listen to it over and over again

1855
02:26:38.479 --> 02:26:51.520
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1856
02:26:51.520 --> 02:26:56.200
going back to about nineteen ninety nine, it was it

1857
02:26:56.239 --> 02:27:01.280
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It kind

1858
02:27:01.280 --> 02:27:08.440
of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find it

1859
02:27:08.479 --> 02:27:12.360
again and it still has the same effect on me.

1860
02:27:14.959 --> 02:27:24.719
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me,

1861
02:27:28.719 --> 02:27:35.360
just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening

1862
02:27:35.920 --> 02:27:48.159
to her in the morning and in the evening. And

1863
02:27:48.360 --> 02:27:57.479
I knew before even pressing the play button that since

1864
02:27:57.520 --> 02:28:01.479
I've done that, pressed the play but button. This was

1865
02:28:01.840 --> 02:28:12.840
in the days of CD players pressed the play button.

1866
02:28:16.239 --> 02:28:19.120
In fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

1867
02:28:20.360 --> 02:28:28.760
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1868
02:28:29.280 --> 02:28:42.280
necessarily listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1869
02:28:46.920 --> 02:28:52.920
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1870
02:28:57.680 --> 02:29:19.559
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1871
02:29:19.680 --> 02:29:33.680
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1872
02:29:33.719 --> 02:29:39.959
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1873
02:29:40.079 --> 02:29:50.760
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1874
02:29:50.879 --> 02:29:55.600
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1875
02:29:55.760 --> 02:30:09.559
till two thousand and six, but I knew, I knew

1876
02:30:09.879 --> 02:30:22.639
how helpful I found being able to just let go

1877
02:30:25.639 --> 02:30:31.040
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1878
02:30:38.719 --> 02:30:45.440
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1879
02:30:46.879 --> 02:30:56.239
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1880
02:30:56.319 --> 02:31:08.000
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1881
02:31:08.040 --> 02:31:21.959
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

1882
02:31:21.959 --> 02:31:28.280
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1883
02:31:30.120 --> 02:31:45.159
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1884
02:31:45.239 --> 02:32:01.239
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1885
02:32:01.520 --> 02:32:17.000
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

1886
02:32:17.239 --> 02:32:31.040
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1887
02:32:31.079 --> 02:32:38.440
set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1888
02:32:41.920 --> 02:32:49.840
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1889
02:32:49.959 --> 02:33:08.040
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1890
02:33:10.840 --> 02:33:20.319
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

1891
02:33:20.479 --> 02:33:26.559
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1892
02:33:28.399 --> 02:33:38.799
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1893
02:33:39.360 --> 02:33:47.440
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1894
02:33:47.479 --> 02:33:51.719
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1895
02:33:51.760 --> 02:34:04.760
all where you are right now. And as you become

1896
02:34:05.399 --> 02:34:19.760
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1897
02:34:20.079 --> 02:34:43.840
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

1898
02:34:45.360 --> 02:34:51.399
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1899
02:34:51.719 --> 02:35:08.000
you're listening. I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1900
02:35:12.680 --> 02:35:29.120
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1901
02:35:31.159 --> 02:35:45.319
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1902
02:35:45.440 --> 02:35:56.799
carry on talking. And it's only where I listen back

1903
02:35:57.000 --> 02:36:06.000
to do the editing. I hear snoring, and I think,

1904
02:36:06.399 --> 02:36:16.600
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1905
02:36:17.159 --> 02:36:23.520
a pig turned up. That's why I sound like when

1906
02:36:23.520 --> 02:36:34.440
I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

1907
02:36:42.360 --> 02:36:51.360
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1908
02:36:51.520 --> 02:37:02.440
feel in your feet, How relaxed you feel in your hands.

1909
02:37:17.520 --> 02:37:29.719
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1910
02:37:31.479 --> 02:37:47.280
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1911
02:37:53.840 --> 02:38:10.520
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1912
02:38:10.559 --> 02:38:41.680
you the bree easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1913
02:38:41.920 --> 02:39:10.719
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1914
02:39:10.879 --> 02:40:00.760
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1915
02:40:00.840 --> 02:40:19.200
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1916
02:40:25.200 --> 02:40:38.120
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1917
02:40:38.319 --> 02:41:18.600
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1918
02:41:20.360 --> 02:41:39.319
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1919
02:41:50.600 --> 02:42:23.440
enjoying that feeling of h peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1920
02:42:48.520 --> 02:43:14.040
Time seems to just drip by, so varies slowly, relaxed,

1921
02:43:19.879 --> 02:43:59.079
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1922
02:43:59.200 --> 02:45:10.879
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1923
02:45:11.879 --> 02:45:58.600
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1924
02:45:58.840 --> 02:46:16.000
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress rip out

1925
02:46:16.040 --> 02:46:35.559
of your body, to appear out of every part of

1926
02:46:35.680 --> 02:47:01.520
your body and being released from your brain your mind

1927
02:47:19.319 --> 02:48:03.479
slowly but surely. The muscles sing les, relax rex really

1928
02:48:08.680 --> 02:48:49.399
so very deeply, rects so deeply, and the feelings, the

1929
02:48:49.600 --> 02:49:14.920
pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part

1930
02:49:15.040 --> 02:49:56.000
of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing the

1931
02:49:56.120 --> 02:50:57.719
feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles,

1932
02:51:00.040 --> 02:51:54.120
front of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's

1933
02:51:54.120 --> 02:52:04.159
a sense of peace m spreads through your very core.

1934
02:52:34.680 --> 02:52:54.600
Even when you focus on your mind, your mind becomes

1935
02:53:01.920 --> 02:54:24.799
bee and slowerven deeper, relaxing, so very slow his stomach.

1936
02:54:38.879 --> 02:55:26.600
He's fin's stomach. You're back. Notice, Notice how relaxed you'd

1937
02:55:26.760 --> 02:56:08.159
never fear in the hole of your back. Your spy

1938
02:56:09.200 --> 02:56:13.920
from your brain all the way down the middle of

1939
02:56:13.959 --> 02:56:38.200
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort,

1940
02:56:41.159 --> 02:57:58.000
increasing deeply relaxed. Your knees, spreading those signals down a

1941
02:57:58.239 --> 02:58:20.920
spine or cord into air, every part of your body,

1942
02:58:21.600 --> 02:59:09.879
your shins and your calf muscles. We're outbursts. Feelings of

1943
02:59:10.079 --> 02:59:27.280
peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes,

1944
02:59:31.559 --> 02:59:43.079
to your eyes, your fingers, all the way to your

1945
02:59:43.159 --> 03:00:58.680
lower back. The tinker rediatinker peace, drifting mind, just wandering away,

1946
03:01:08.200 --> 03:01:49.840
happy to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1947
03:02:14.040 --> 03:02:52.040
the whole body, enjoying a censor. Letting go he even more.

1948
03:03:00.360 --> 03:04:01.079
As peace for.

1949
03:04:35.079 --> 03:05:17.000
Enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety. So

1950
03:05:17.520 --> 03:07:19.479
fury he relaxed, lessing God. Maybe we can just focus

1951
03:07:19.879 --> 03:07:28.559
on the different parts of your body, just to notice

1952
03:07:54.600 --> 03:08:57.200
your forehead and your eyes Etu sluce. Notice in a

1953
03:08:57.399 --> 03:11:05.680
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, PRIs rifting, peace, fall energy, peace,

1954
03:11:06.360 --> 03:12:21.399
to breathe much easier, lest you may have you may

1955
03:12:21.520 --> 03:13:22.600
not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful moly even more

1956
03:13:23.000 --> 03:13:47.559
deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful peace,

1957
03:14:16.200 --> 03:16:15.280
Christ total peace, Come so calm lett him go peace

1958
03:16:16.239 --> 03:17:27.559
with mind rexed forty sir, relx relaxed. Your body feels

1959
03:17:27.840 --> 03:18:31.079
almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace real liquor,

1960
03:18:47.360 --> 03:19:08.959
so peaceful, so fairy. And you could start to notice

1961
03:19:09.399 --> 03:19:18.399
that you are feeling more relaxed, even though I've not

1962
03:19:20.120 --> 03:19:30.799
purposely focused your mind upon that sense of physical comfort

1963
03:19:31.559 --> 03:19:38.399
that is growing within you throughout your body, and your

1964
03:19:38.520 --> 03:19:49.079
mind starts to slow down, And that could be almost

1965
03:19:49.280 --> 03:19:58.799
in recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast,

1966
03:20:05.360 --> 03:20:15.719
and things just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to

1967
03:20:15.920 --> 03:20:24.479
my voice, you give yourself an opportunity to take a

1968
03:20:24.600 --> 03:20:31.399
break from the day, take a break from your life

1969
03:20:32.559 --> 03:20:41.000
as it is, and to give yourself a rest, giving

1970
03:20:41.079 --> 03:20:48.520
yourself permission to take some time off and to allow

1971
03:20:48.719 --> 03:20:54.840
your body to relax and allow your mind to slow down,

1972
03:20:58.959 --> 03:21:06.840
which in turn releases the tension any stresses that you

1973
03:21:07.079 --> 03:21:16.959
had in your body. It's almost as if the parts

1974
03:21:17.000 --> 03:21:22.159
of your body just open up, allowing the negativity out

1975
03:21:29.000 --> 03:21:35.000
and at the same time replacing that negativity with positive

1976
03:21:36.239 --> 03:21:44.360
heathing energy, which then fills your body up and your

1977
03:21:44.520 --> 03:22:01.360
mind to also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence,

1978
03:22:05.239 --> 03:22:21.840
an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads

1979
03:22:22.319 --> 03:22:33.120
through your body like a wave of comfort. And all

1980
03:22:33.200 --> 03:22:45.239
this comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe

1981
03:22:45.399 --> 03:22:48.000
half an hour, however long you want it to be,

1982
03:22:49.520 --> 03:23:01.399
to just rest and allow your mind and your body

1983
03:23:03.680 --> 03:23:20.440
to almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1984
03:23:24.719 --> 03:23:34.040
which allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness

1985
03:23:38.120 --> 03:23:46.920
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1986
03:23:47.719 --> 03:23:52.319
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1987
03:23:56.600 --> 03:24:06.280
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1988
03:24:11.360 --> 03:24:18.559
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1989
03:24:18.760 --> 03:24:24.440
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1990
03:24:27.920 --> 03:24:40.120
to feel more comfort and to experience more of this

1991
03:24:41.920 --> 03:24:57.079
deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1992
03:24:58.639 --> 03:25:04.399
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1993
03:25:04.639 --> 03:25:19.159
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1994
03:25:21.680 --> 03:25:31.360
It becomes even more calm and comfortable, just by focusing

1995
03:25:35.399 --> 03:25:41.159
and As I move down your body, starting at your head,

1996
03:25:43.879 --> 03:25:50.559
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1997
03:25:50.760 --> 03:25:58.399
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1998
03:25:58.440 --> 03:26:11.760
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1999
03:26:12.200 --> 03:26:25.239
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

2000
03:26:25.280 --> 03:26:32.200
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

2001
03:26:32.559 --> 03:26:41.120
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

2002
03:26:42.920 --> 03:26:47.760
like mister Herbert the Pigeon can just allow you to

2003
03:26:47.920 --> 03:26:55.159
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

2004
03:26:58.319 --> 03:27:03.000
This isn't this isn't a their ile environments. This is

2005
03:27:03.120 --> 03:27:11.120
the world. I live in the countryside, so there's lots

2006
03:27:11.159 --> 03:27:22.079
of nature sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead,

2007
03:27:24.120 --> 03:27:29.600
just notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you

2008
03:27:31.719 --> 03:27:39.000
focus only on my voice and that part of your body.

2009
03:27:44.200 --> 03:27:52.479
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

2010
03:27:54.959 --> 03:28:04.639
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

2011
03:28:04.719 --> 03:28:11.159
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

2012
03:28:11.399 --> 03:28:25.840
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

2013
03:28:26.319 --> 03:28:32.920
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of

2014
03:28:33.079 --> 03:28:47.879
your mouth relaxing, calm and loose as you focus now

2015
03:28:48.680 --> 03:28:55.559
on your jaw, not just the part of your jaw

2016
03:28:55.719 --> 03:29:00.399
near your mouth and your chin, but all they up

2017
03:29:01.120 --> 03:29:07.159
the sides of your face to your ears, the hole

2018
03:29:07.840 --> 03:29:34.840
of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on

2019
03:29:35.040 --> 03:29:40.440
your neck, the front of your neck and your throat

2020
03:29:42.680 --> 03:29:53.399
relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of your neck,

2021
03:29:55.479 --> 03:30:02.399
the right and left side of your neck relax and

2022
03:30:03.959 --> 03:30:17.600
loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

2023
03:30:20.879 --> 03:30:30.920
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

2024
03:30:31.120 --> 03:30:38.000
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

2025
03:30:38.360 --> 03:30:51.239
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

2026
03:30:51.440 --> 03:31:02.520
experience in the back of your neck. Moving down your

2027
03:31:02.680 --> 03:31:09.959
back and moving either side of your spine right from

2028
03:31:10.040 --> 03:31:15.399
the top of your back all the way down to

2029
03:31:15.520 --> 03:31:27.760
the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

2030
03:31:32.799 --> 03:31:39.840
And as you move up and down your spine, you

2031
03:31:39.959 --> 03:31:47.079
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

2032
03:31:47.760 --> 03:32:01.159
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

2033
03:32:01.440 --> 03:32:12.079
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

2034
03:32:12.319 --> 03:32:19.319
sides of your back, the top of your back, the

2035
03:32:19.559 --> 03:32:27.879
middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

2036
03:32:28.440 --> 03:32:35.760
and slowly up and down your back. There's the muscles

2037
03:32:35.959 --> 03:32:41.040
in the top of your back relax and become looser.

2038
03:32:45.399 --> 03:32:51.399
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

2039
03:32:51.520 --> 03:33:01.040
to just almost divide from each other, separating and it's melting.

2040
03:33:06.799 --> 03:33:12.799
And in your lower back it seems to be an

2041
03:33:12.840 --> 03:33:27.040
extra special feeling of comfort that spreads into your hips.

2042
03:33:29.360 --> 03:33:37.159
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

2043
03:33:37.360 --> 03:33:46.120
area where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and

2044
03:33:46.239 --> 03:33:55.440
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

2045
03:33:55.479 --> 03:34:08.959
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

2046
03:34:15.520 --> 03:34:20.479
I don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders.

2047
03:34:22.239 --> 03:34:29.239
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

2048
03:34:32.319 --> 03:34:47.920
continue to relax so calmly. And as you focus on

2049
03:34:48.079 --> 03:35:01.000
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose.

2050
03:35:05.799 --> 03:35:32.200
They're already feeding, calm and feeling. Those muscles then move

2051
03:35:32.639 --> 03:35:48.440
from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

2052
03:35:52.559 --> 03:36:14.159
so smooth and calm, and the feeding in your shoulders

2053
03:36:21.479 --> 03:36:28.920
seems to spread deep into your shoulders. That sense of

2054
03:36:29.079 --> 03:36:41.559
relaxation not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also

2055
03:36:41.920 --> 03:36:55.440
relaxing the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms.

2056
03:36:58.280 --> 03:37:04.200
Relaxing a whole area between the tops of your shoulders

2057
03:37:05.559 --> 03:37:23.319
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

2058
03:37:23.559 --> 03:37:39.159
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

2059
03:37:44.520 --> 03:37:56.120
into your arms, and you may feel almost as if

2060
03:37:56.239 --> 03:38:02.719
your arms are not even there, just this, so relaxed,

2061
03:38:05.920 --> 03:38:52.120
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so pose, not feeling

2062
03:38:52.440 --> 03:39:07.719
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

2063
03:39:09.399 --> 03:39:34.479
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into your wrists, your

2064
03:39:34.760 --> 03:39:49.639
forearments and your wrists being so heavy, yet at the

2065
03:39:50.000 --> 03:40:33.559
same time, so right and gentle. Frey. See now on

2066
03:40:36.280 --> 03:41:11.200
your hands, I have, yes, so peaceful in your hands.

2067
03:41:29.719 --> 03:41:48.719
There's a sense of real peace. It just seems to

2068
03:41:52.719 --> 03:42:13.719
I feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Yes,

2069
03:42:31.399 --> 03:43:39.879
your things, A thing is said, a thing? It tips.

2070
03:44:08.479 --> 03:44:27.639
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable.

2071
03:44:38.639 --> 03:46:06.399
Moving your focus to your legs. Love muscles in your thighs,

2072
03:46:23.159 --> 03:47:00.639
your knees, so relaxed, you carved muscles, and you just shins,

2073
03:47:04.280 --> 03:47:05.799
how puzzy they.

2074
03:47:58.079 --> 03:47:58.120
Y?

2075
03:49:04.719 --> 03:49:19.360
And the fathing and your feet, Sir, peaceful, so calm,

2076
03:49:25.159 --> 03:50:17.200
so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful, so calm, so peace,

2077
03:50:17.840 --> 03:50:50.399
f RelA in peace for so calm, loving that deep relaxation,

2078
03:50:52.079 --> 03:51:14.280
to spread your chest, in your stomach, so letting go everything.

2079
03:51:25.559 --> 03:51:31.559
So I'm gonna start counting down now from twenty down

2080
03:51:31.639 --> 03:51:39.719
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

2081
03:51:40.559 --> 03:51:47.000
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

2082
03:51:47.079 --> 03:51:56.200
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step

2083
03:51:56.719 --> 03:52:12.239
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

2084
03:52:12.399 --> 03:52:17.719
walk down those steps that the deeper and more relaxed

2085
03:52:18.000 --> 03:53:33.600
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty nineteen a

2086
03:53:33.920 --> 03:59:06.280
tame seventeen sixty eight fifteen fourteen four see too well

2087
04:00:05.440 --> 04:13:04.799
five eight nine hey seven four five four one. And

2088
04:13:05.079 --> 04:13:22.120
now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

2089
04:13:22.239 --> 04:13:34.040
down from ten dout one, focusing just on your eyes,

2090
04:13:37.799 --> 04:13:46.280
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

2091
04:13:47.799 --> 04:14:04.840
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

2092
04:14:04.920 --> 04:14:13.239
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

2093
04:14:13.399 --> 04:14:28.399
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

2094
04:14:28.799 --> 04:14:41.799
each number counting down that you may find the all

2095
04:14:41.959 --> 04:14:48.040
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

2096
04:14:51.040 --> 04:14:57.680
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

2097
04:14:57.760 --> 04:15:12.399
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

2098
04:15:12.520 --> 04:15:22.479
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

2099
04:15:31.079 --> 04:24:29.079
ten nine, fight seven, four five four three two one.

2100
04:24:35.399 --> 04:24:52.079
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

2101
04:24:54.879 --> 04:25:19.719
seven six life, four three two one. And maybe that

2102
04:25:19.920 --> 04:25:24.000
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

2103
04:25:24.040 --> 04:25:28.360
it's a bit too fast for you to notice the

2104
04:25:29.680 --> 04:25:36.479
calming of your body, maybe even a little bit of

2105
04:25:36.600 --> 04:25:40.520
pressure there, Like you're counting down from ten to one.

2106
04:25:40.639 --> 04:25:44.040
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

2107
04:25:44.079 --> 04:25:53.920
STI go floppy just because you're counting down. We could

2108
04:25:53.959 --> 04:25:57.719
try it again, but this time I go it's slower,

2109
04:26:00.120 --> 04:26:04.799
is time as you focus on the whole of your

2110
04:26:04.879 --> 04:26:13.239
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

2111
04:26:13.319 --> 04:26:27.399
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

2112
04:26:27.559 --> 04:27:00.639
number that I count down ten nine eight seven six

2113
04:27:09.079 --> 04:28:18.000
five four three two one. And just notice how how

2114
04:28:18.079 --> 04:28:28.159
you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

2115
04:28:28.280 --> 04:28:38.639
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

2116
04:28:38.959 --> 04:28:58.639
space that you have, that space between being active physically

2117
04:28:58.840 --> 04:29:07.639
or mentally to just sitting or lying down and just

2118
04:29:07.879 --> 04:29:13.760
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

2119
04:29:14.040 --> 04:29:19.479
to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

2120
04:29:20.479 --> 04:29:29.600
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

2121
04:29:29.719 --> 04:29:34.319
the more I came down from ten to one, the

2122
04:29:34.399 --> 04:29:42.360
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

2123
04:29:43.760 --> 04:29:59.440
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

2124
04:30:01.000 --> 04:30:10.920
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

2125
04:30:17.719 --> 04:30:18.680
Allows you.

2126
04:30:21.360 --> 04:30:21.879
To just.

2127
04:30:24.879 --> 04:30:31.280
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to

2128
04:30:31.440 --> 04:30:41.520
one and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as

2129
04:30:41.559 --> 04:30:47.600
it widens, it's almost like the thestress and attention falls

2130
04:30:47.920 --> 04:31:06.319
into the gap and gives you that distance, that space.

2131
04:31:08.680 --> 04:32:44.959
Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

2132
04:33:03.200 --> 04:33:03.440
One.

2133
04:33:15.360 --> 04:33:35.439
How does your body feel now? Can you notice the

2134
04:33:36.799 --> 04:34:14.080
feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed as we now focus

2135
04:34:14.200 --> 04:34:34.840
on your legs, just your legs. We're just gonna start

2136
04:34:35.000 --> 04:34:54.040
with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not the

2137
04:34:54.159 --> 04:35:02.680
most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure, like

2138
04:35:02.799 --> 04:35:05.319
most of your body, there's not a lot going on

2139
04:35:05.520 --> 04:35:17.919
right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

2140
04:35:20.759 --> 04:35:24.479
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

2141
04:35:26.680 --> 04:35:31.159
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs and your

2142
04:35:31.279 --> 04:35:36.520
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

2143
04:35:37.560 --> 04:35:53.119
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joints. Now,

2144
04:35:53.159 --> 04:36:00.840
this is a big area. It's a very heavy, it's

2145
04:36:01.040 --> 04:36:07.439
very strong. Probably the strongest muscles in your body are

2146
04:36:07.520 --> 04:36:23.880
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

2147
04:36:24.000 --> 04:36:37.240
enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge how

2148
04:36:37.319 --> 04:36:59.240
important our thighs are to our lives, how much they

2149
04:36:59.319 --> 04:37:12.759
actually do for us all through our lives. And it

2150
04:37:13.400 --> 04:37:18.520
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

2151
04:37:18.720 --> 04:37:26.599
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

2152
04:37:29.919 --> 04:37:42.599
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I

2153
04:37:42.759 --> 04:37:51.840
thank you gratitude for what our thighs do for us.

2154
04:37:58.400 --> 04:38:04.000
And I know this may sound it is strange. Maybe

2155
04:38:04.040 --> 04:38:06.880
you think, why am I surely how I should be

2156
04:38:06.919 --> 04:38:11.720
out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

2157
04:38:15.840 --> 04:38:18.119
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

2158
04:38:19.159 --> 04:38:21.400
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

2159
04:38:21.439 --> 04:38:25.200
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

2160
04:38:25.240 --> 04:38:33.840
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

2161
04:38:35.720 --> 04:38:43.680
gaining such an important part, and I think we don't

2162
04:38:43.759 --> 04:38:51.599
necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate

2163
04:38:53.400 --> 04:38:58.479
all that my knees do for me until I have

2164
04:38:58.599 --> 04:39:02.000
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever,

2165
04:39:03.560 --> 04:39:07.520
maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason.

2166
04:39:09.240 --> 04:39:15.439
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

2167
04:39:15.560 --> 04:39:21.479
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

2168
04:39:23.279 --> 04:39:30.520
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

2169
04:39:30.720 --> 04:39:39.119
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

2170
04:39:43.200 --> 04:39:47.840
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

2171
04:39:47.919 --> 04:39:55.400
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

2172
04:39:56.959 --> 04:39:59.520
and love to your knees for all that they do

2173
04:39:59.680 --> 04:40:12.720
for you. And you can still have that attention on

2174
04:40:12.880 --> 04:40:19.040
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

2175
04:40:19.360 --> 04:40:36.759
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

2176
04:40:36.919 --> 04:40:42.119
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

2177
04:40:43.000 --> 04:40:48.599
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

2178
04:40:49.439 --> 04:40:57.200
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

2179
04:41:02.680 --> 04:41:07.479
You know, anyone that's had even the slightest sprain of

2180
04:41:07.520 --> 04:41:15.119
an ankle, knows how how much we take our ankles

2181
04:41:15.200 --> 04:41:23.400
for granted, And it's kind of strange in a way

2182
04:41:23.479 --> 04:41:29.080
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

2183
04:41:29.119 --> 04:41:33.200
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

2184
04:41:33.319 --> 04:41:36.639
is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with that

2185
04:41:37.919 --> 04:41:43.840
because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so

2186
04:41:44.080 --> 04:41:54.080
much thinner than the rest of our legs, and from

2187
04:41:54.119 --> 04:41:58.639
a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make

2188
04:41:58.799 --> 04:42:06.799
sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting on

2189
04:42:07.680 --> 04:42:16.759
your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

2190
04:42:18.240 --> 04:42:27.840
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

2191
04:42:27.959 --> 04:42:37.880
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

2192
04:42:40.279 --> 04:42:53.240
helps you to get around and be mobile. And there's

2193
04:42:53.240 --> 04:43:01.520
the calf muscles. Of course, I was younger, I couldn't

2194
04:43:01.560 --> 04:43:04.479
see the point in calf muscles. I didn't seem to

2195
04:43:04.560 --> 04:43:10.479
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

2196
04:43:10.680 --> 04:43:14.400
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

2197
04:43:14.520 --> 04:43:18.479
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

2198
04:43:18.959 --> 04:43:32.479
use her legs and your shins there to protect your

2199
04:43:32.560 --> 04:43:41.599
lower legs. Shaped in a way almost as a protector

2200
04:43:42.040 --> 04:43:56.759
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

2201
04:43:56.880 --> 04:44:03.840
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

2202
04:44:03.919 --> 04:44:07.639
We're just going to focus on the legs. And I

2203
04:44:07.759 --> 04:44:12.639
realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably

2204
04:44:13.680 --> 04:44:17.360
focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on

2205
04:44:17.479 --> 04:44:23.240
your feet a little bit. You can have them in

2206
04:44:23.360 --> 04:44:29.080
your awareness the same as you have your thighs in

2207
04:44:29.200 --> 04:44:33.639
your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on your

2208
04:44:33.720 --> 04:44:39.680
thighs a few minutes, we've been focusing on your ankles,

2209
04:44:45.360 --> 04:45:00.599
there's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs in

2210
04:45:00.720 --> 04:45:10.119
this that movement of energy, because the thighs hold lots

2211
04:45:10.159 --> 04:45:15.680
of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big

2212
04:45:16.040 --> 04:45:28.119
straw muscles that we have in our thighs, But the

2213
04:45:28.319 --> 04:45:34.279
skin on the outside of the thighs, as in the

2214
04:45:34.439 --> 04:45:40.000
outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

2215
04:45:43.919 --> 04:45:57.080
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

2216
04:45:57.240 --> 04:46:04.680
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

2217
04:46:04.840 --> 04:46:10.639
the arch trees, it's all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

2218
04:46:15.080 --> 04:46:18.439
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

2219
04:46:18.479 --> 04:46:25.919
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

2220
04:46:26.040 --> 04:46:29.560
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

2221
04:46:29.639 --> 04:46:32.759
be able to get deep into the muscles and to

2222
04:46:32.840 --> 04:46:37.919
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

2223
04:46:38.000 --> 04:46:46.599
the bones of your leg massage in all the veins

2224
04:46:46.840 --> 04:46:57.040
and just gently heathing your thighs, and you could move

2225
04:46:57.240 --> 04:47:04.599
down mess and inside your knees, just messaging those bones,

2226
04:47:05.599 --> 04:47:12.639
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

2227
04:47:12.759 --> 04:47:22.159
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

2228
04:47:22.439 --> 04:47:27.360
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

2229
04:47:27.400 --> 04:47:34.840
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it

2230
04:47:34.880 --> 04:47:38.759
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

2231
04:47:38.919 --> 04:47:42.880
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

2232
04:47:44.919 --> 04:47:51.759
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

2233
04:47:51.880 --> 04:47:59.200
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity which

2234
04:47:59.200 --> 04:48:09.720
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

2235
04:48:09.759 --> 04:48:21.200
your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

2236
04:48:21.319 --> 04:48:30.959
that crease in your legs, that fold in between your legs.

2237
04:48:31.680 --> 04:48:36.319
You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

2238
04:48:36.400 --> 04:48:46.919
going inside massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

2239
04:48:47.040 --> 04:48:54.119
course feel the bones of your knees, heating through your fingertips,

2240
04:49:01.520 --> 04:49:06.840
and then as you go down to your calf muscles.

2241
04:49:07.200 --> 04:49:08.919
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

2242
04:49:09.759 --> 04:49:17.119
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

2243
04:49:17.240 --> 04:49:26.319
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part.

2244
04:49:32.279 --> 04:49:38.360
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

2245
04:49:38.520 --> 04:49:46.040
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

2246
04:49:46.159 --> 04:49:53.319
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

2247
04:49:53.400 --> 04:49:57.439
the precious bones that they are. Because our legs are

2248
04:49:57.479 --> 04:50:01.279
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

2249
04:50:03.759 --> 04:50:17.720
and more precious of anyture on the planet. When you

2250
04:50:17.959 --> 04:50:30.119
start to think about your legs in this way, it

2251
04:50:30.240 --> 04:50:39.880
can change your perspective. It might sound a bit a

2252
04:50:39.959 --> 04:50:45.240
bit silly to start with the idea of having love

2253
04:50:45.799 --> 04:50:55.159
for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to

2254
04:50:55.240 --> 04:51:01.840
be able to put your hands in your thighs, massage

2255
04:51:02.720 --> 04:51:08.240
the muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers

2256
04:51:08.520 --> 04:51:18.319
deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show how

2257
04:51:18.439 --> 04:51:25.840
much you care about your legs, how much you care

2258
04:51:26.200 --> 04:51:34.200
for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

2259
04:51:34.439 --> 04:51:47.279
your calves, your ankles. The strength of your ankles considering

2260
04:51:47.479 --> 04:51:51.959
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

2261
04:51:52.119 --> 04:52:05.799
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

2262
04:52:06.080 --> 04:52:17.880
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

2263
04:52:17.959 --> 04:52:29.159
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

2264
04:52:29.319 --> 04:52:33.319
of how what weight you are, even if you're only

2265
04:52:33.720 --> 04:52:38.479
ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for these

2266
04:52:38.919 --> 04:52:45.400
little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight stone

2267
04:52:47.000 --> 04:52:56.159
double dock, yet my ankles support my body all the time.

2268
04:53:00.159 --> 04:53:02.959
They do give off a sigh of relief when I

2269
04:53:03.080 --> 04:53:13.759
sit down. That's my whole legs do. My feet feet

2270
04:53:13.799 --> 04:53:39.000
also go and my toes clap. They're so happy. Your

2271
04:53:39.119 --> 04:53:48.439
legs really are amazing. And I know that talking about

2272
04:53:49.000 --> 04:53:54.799
talking about your legs is probably possibly among the most

2273
04:53:55.720 --> 04:54:03.279
most boring things you've ever heard anyone say. Possibly or

2274
04:54:03.400 --> 04:54:10.240
boring or not, Everything I said is true. Your legs

2275
04:54:10.880 --> 04:54:30.880
are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, They deserve

2276
04:54:31.000 --> 04:54:43.400
to relax deeply. They deserve to take some time out

2277
04:54:43.959 --> 04:55:07.439
of the day to just let go completely. Your legs

2278
04:55:12.880 --> 04:55:26.119
really can relax. And because the legs are so such

2279
04:55:26.200 --> 04:55:30.680
a most you know, very important part of your body.

2280
04:55:32.000 --> 04:55:34.560
When you relax your legs, the rest of your body

2281
04:55:35.240 --> 04:55:54.000
also naturally follows in that journey of comfort. I can

2282
04:55:54.119 --> 04:55:59.080
feel it in my hips. My hips feel really loose,

2283
04:56:02.360 --> 04:56:06.919
and also my ler back as well. My lower back

2284
04:56:07.159 --> 04:56:12.720
really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm just sitting

2285
04:56:12.759 --> 04:56:18.759
in a chair and there's no stretching as far as

2286
04:56:18.840 --> 04:56:21.880
I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost as if the

2287
04:56:22.000 --> 04:56:25.959
muscles are just relaxed so much that there is a

2288
04:56:26.119 --> 04:56:50.799
natural stretch as the tension has reduced a lot. And

2289
04:56:50.880 --> 04:56:54.279
I'm now going to count down from ten down to one,

2290
04:56:58.599 --> 04:57:28.319
and you can continue yah to fill wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

2291
04:57:32.599 --> 04:57:33.159
Four.

2292
04:57:36.240 --> 04:58:01.040
Three two one relax. So I'm just going to count

2293
04:58:01.119 --> 04:58:06.159
down from five down to one, and as a countdown,

2294
04:58:07.439 --> 04:58:12.159
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

2295
04:58:13.840 --> 04:58:22.840
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

2296
04:58:24.599 --> 04:58:28.959
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

2297
04:58:29.119 --> 04:58:42.200
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

2298
04:58:42.279 --> 04:58:50.840
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

2299
04:58:50.880 --> 04:58:56.720
you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

2300
04:58:57.400 --> 04:59:14.479
there's nothing to think about. Starting with number five four

2301
04:59:23.959 --> 04:59:59.840
three two one. As you notice the gradual letting go

2302
05:00:02.319 --> 05:00:09.599
the tension in your body, you may also begin to

2303
05:00:09.919 --> 05:00:17.159
notice and be aware of how your mind is starting

2304
05:00:17.639 --> 05:00:25.599
to slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

2305
05:00:28.200 --> 05:00:33.400
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

2306
05:00:33.479 --> 05:00:39.400
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

2307
05:00:41.000 --> 05:00:44.639
and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

2308
05:00:44.759 --> 05:00:55.159
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there is

2309
05:00:55.240 --> 05:01:03.720
that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even

2310
05:01:04.200 --> 05:01:11.000
even if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's

2311
05:01:11.119 --> 05:01:17.040
still going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't

2312
05:01:17.080 --> 05:01:22.000
got the television on, there's no music in the background

2313
05:01:22.119 --> 05:01:24.759
unless you're listening to the recording with music. Of course,

2314
05:01:29.639 --> 05:01:31.799
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

2315
05:01:31.919 --> 05:01:35.040
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

2316
05:01:36.319 --> 05:01:39.599
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

2317
05:01:39.720 --> 05:01:51.000
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

2318
05:01:51.080 --> 05:02:08.279
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

2319
05:02:08.319 --> 05:02:17.080
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

2320
05:02:17.200 --> 05:02:28.599
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural

2321
05:02:28.799 --> 05:02:41.200
process something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost

2322
05:02:42.479 --> 05:02:49.319
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

2323
05:02:49.520 --> 05:02:53.360
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

2324
05:02:53.479 --> 05:03:05.080
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

2325
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the process of this recording and others is simply two

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allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

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to just let go, to just be here, to be

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in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

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of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

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depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

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in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

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of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

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part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

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relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

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can also, if you choose stay focused on my voice

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and really enjoy the process gradually relaxing each muscle in

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your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

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go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

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down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

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down more with each number that you hear me say.

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Naturally feeling calm, slow and peaceful six five four three

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two one, being aware of how your mind has slowed

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right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

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on your mind, you may notice that there are some

2345
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thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some

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reason perhaps need your attention. So what you can do

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is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with

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love like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it

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over them, petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to

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05:11:41.000 --> 05:11:47.119
let those thoughts know that you're not abandon in them.

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You just need them. You require them to just calm down,

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slow down, quiet down for now. So as you focus

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on those remaining thoughts, as we count down this time

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from seven down to one. With each number, just imagine

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sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts,

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which will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

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With every number, they thoughts would become more and more relaxed.

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Starting with number seven six five four three two one. Anything. Now,

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notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body. We're going

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to focus on your hands because the more relaxed your

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hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

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And this you focus on your hands and your fingers.

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There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

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fists or dents in the fingers or anything like that.

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It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

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they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

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calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

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throughout your body. You may have already noticed your mind

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05:18:47.720 --> 05:19:15.479
is starting to dressed like since just on your hands

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and fingers, allowing them to experience a real deepening of

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05:19:34.799 --> 05:19:50.680
that relaxation in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed.

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With each number from eight down to one, you can

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05:20:14.279 --> 05:20:25.520
almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

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hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with each number

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you hear, going down from eight down to one, drift in,

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drifting again, starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four,

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three y just being here now, nothing to think about,

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05:25:21.880 --> 05:25:33.319
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

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And this is your natural state of being. This is

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how you just normally feel when you take away all

2381
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of that other stuff that we add, you know, things

2382
05:25:59.400 --> 05:26:14.720
like dress and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just

2383
05:26:15.080 --> 05:26:21.639
generally thinking about stuff. When you take that away, which

2384
05:26:21.720 --> 05:26:30.880
is what we do what we do now, you're left

2385
05:26:31.040 --> 05:26:41.919
with a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you

2386
05:26:42.200 --> 05:26:56.119
very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling

2387
05:26:57.200 --> 05:27:04.360
of comfort. It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself

2388
05:27:04.439 --> 05:27:16.080
and you've found a special place where everything is peaceful,

2389
05:27:19.000 --> 05:27:24.400
a place where you can feel relaxed and your natural

2390
05:27:26.560 --> 05:27:32.880
sense of comfort, a place where you can be you,

2391
05:27:37.599 --> 05:27:44.599
where you can accept yourself for who you are, a

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05:27:44.680 --> 05:27:51.200
place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

2393
05:27:55.200 --> 05:28:03.759
a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

2394
05:28:03.880 --> 05:28:09.319
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself

2395
05:28:11.840 --> 05:28:29.119
appreciate who you are. That sense of gratitude is in

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05:28:29.240 --> 05:28:40.240
the air all around you. That's also a place where

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05:28:40.439 --> 05:28:50.759
you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

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Healing energy so king into your body, and that healing

2399
05:29:08.520 --> 05:29:18.799
energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each and every

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05:29:19.080 --> 05:29:30.080
single part of your body, and you start to realize

2401
05:29:30.279 --> 05:29:37.319
that actually that healing energy, it's not just entered into

2402
05:29:37.400 --> 05:29:48.799
your brain it's become part of your brain, and that

2403
05:29:49.080 --> 05:30:00.919
spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not just

2404
05:30:03.040 --> 05:30:09.520
allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and healthy

2405
05:30:11.080 --> 05:30:22.520
in this moment, but also you start to realize that actually,

2406
05:30:24.959 --> 05:30:33.959
what's happening now with that healing, relaxing energy spreading through

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05:30:34.119 --> 05:30:46.959
your body, it's actually changing your life. It's actually changing

2408
05:30:47.040 --> 05:30:52.119
the way you're going to feel, not just now, but

2409
05:30:52.319 --> 05:30:58.919
to morrow and the next day. As your health improves,

2410
05:31:02.479 --> 05:31:09.840
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

2411
05:31:10.240 --> 05:31:15.439
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

2412
05:31:16.639 --> 05:31:24.200
no longer have the effect that they used to because

2413
05:31:24.360 --> 05:31:36.040
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

2414
05:31:36.040 --> 05:31:46.520
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

2415
05:31:47.439 --> 05:31:55.400
power to control you the way they seem to be

2416
05:31:55.520 --> 05:32:04.599
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

2417
05:32:06.639 --> 05:32:18.400
who decides what affects you, you're the one who decides

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05:32:21.200 --> 05:32:32.240
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

2419
05:32:33.759 --> 05:32:49.319
noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to grow and

2420
05:32:49.520 --> 05:33:00.880
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

2421
05:33:00.919 --> 05:33:18.159
ability to relax so much easier and sleep in. It's

2422
05:33:18.240 --> 05:33:28.599
the most natural thing in the world to you because

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05:33:28.840 --> 05:33:36.000
falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

2424
05:33:37.759 --> 05:33:43.360
in your life, and you know that you were born,

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05:33:44.880 --> 05:33:51.520
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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We were born with that ability the just drift off

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into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2428
05:34:20.400 --> 05:34:24.799
will fall asleep when we don't even want to try

2429
05:34:24.919 --> 05:34:29.680
to stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

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05:34:29.840 --> 05:34:34.159
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

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05:34:34.759 --> 05:34:38.799
We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

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05:34:39.360 --> 05:34:44.240
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

2433
05:34:44.360 --> 05:34:52.680
to drift. And the more you fight drifting, the more

2434
05:34:52.720 --> 05:34:55.279
you try and stop yourself and drift in a shape,

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05:34:57.400 --> 05:35:08.479
the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

2436
05:35:09.439 --> 05:35:15.279
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

2437
05:35:15.479 --> 05:35:25.319
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of

2438
05:35:25.400 --> 05:35:36.080
our DNA, and sometimes as we get older in life,

2439
05:35:37.400 --> 05:35:50.959
perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's

2440
05:35:51.080 --> 05:36:04.159
not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

2441
05:36:15.560 --> 05:36:23.040
It's very very easy to let go because that's all

2442
05:36:23.119 --> 05:36:37.479
it is. It's just deciding to let go. And when

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05:36:37.599 --> 05:36:45.400
you press the play button, on my recordings. You have

2444
05:36:45.639 --> 05:36:56.200
given permission for my voice to relax you when you

2445
05:36:56.360 --> 05:37:01.520
press that play button. You have given me permision for

2446
05:37:01.720 --> 05:37:15.759
my words to affect you in a positive, only a

2447
05:37:15.919 --> 05:37:37.240
positive way, opening up your mind too useful and healing

2448
05:37:38.840 --> 05:37:54.880
suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on how

2449
05:37:55.040 --> 05:38:07.119
you feel right now, as well as those changes that

2450
05:38:07.439 --> 05:38:17.439
continue long after the recording ends, those changes within you

2451
05:38:20.279 --> 05:38:33.000
that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in

2452
05:38:33.599 --> 05:38:45.520
a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in

2453
05:38:45.680 --> 05:38:52.159
your life in the direction that you choose for yourself.

2454
05:39:01.279 --> 05:39:13.279
And this feeling, this feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness,

2455
05:39:21.040 --> 05:39:35.000
This feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2456
05:39:42.919 --> 05:39:56.680
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2457
05:39:59.720 --> 05:40:08.720
Move moving forward, you're going to find that you're more

2458
05:40:08.880 --> 05:40:23.959
relaxed physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And

2459
05:40:24.080 --> 05:40:29.400
it's not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your

2460
05:40:29.560 --> 05:40:41.560
mind will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because

2461
05:40:41.639 --> 05:40:51.360
from now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on,

2462
05:40:52.040 --> 05:41:02.840
you're going to start noticing when negativity arises and you

2463
05:41:02.959 --> 05:41:16.720
can just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn

2464
05:41:16.840 --> 05:41:37.200
around and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

2465
05:41:45.360 --> 05:41:51.840
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2466
05:41:53.240 --> 05:42:08.599
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2467
05:42:08.840 --> 05:42:15.200
you're the person that has done this. You are the

2468
05:42:15.360 --> 05:42:20.400
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

2469
05:42:20.639 --> 05:42:28.479
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

2470
05:42:29.240 --> 05:42:38.479
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2471
05:42:40.840 --> 05:42:47.400
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2472
05:42:48.479 --> 05:43:02.479
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2473
05:43:02.599 --> 05:43:14.159
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

2474
05:43:14.240 --> 05:43:18.799
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your

2475
05:43:18.919 --> 05:43:34.680
mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

2476
05:43:36.200 --> 05:43:49.080
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's

2477
05:43:49.200 --> 05:43:55.840
not allowed Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2478
05:43:55.919 --> 05:44:04.000
be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2479
05:44:05.040 --> 05:44:21.799
in your life. Which makes room feel more comfort, more healing,

2480
05:44:23.959 --> 05:44:51.200
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it. Just

2481
05:44:54.959 --> 05:45:15.000
let go with everything. I'm going to count down now

2482
05:45:15.279 --> 05:45:23.479
from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax

2483
05:45:25.680 --> 05:45:37.200
if you choose. You can drift to sleep with every

2484
05:45:37.400 --> 05:45:48.240
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as

2485
05:45:48.400 --> 05:45:55.639
relaxed or if you choose, you can feel twice as

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05:45:55.799 --> 05:47:59.279
sleepy now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, four, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven,

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six five. Woh, this is your time to just take

2488
05:49:02.400 --> 05:49:17.520
a break, your time to relax, to allow your mind

2489
05:49:17.680 --> 05:49:34.880
to slow down, to give yourself permission to take a

2490
05:49:35.040 --> 05:49:48.959
break from everything. And you're the only person that can

2491
05:49:49.159 --> 05:49:55.200
make that decision. You're the only person that can actually

2492
05:49:55.319 --> 05:50:14.720
tell your mind to just relax, to just take some

2493
05:50:15.040 --> 05:50:27.840
time off so that you can focus on your body,

2494
05:50:28.799 --> 05:50:43.759
getting in touch with how you feel physically, and in

2495
05:50:43.880 --> 05:50:51.639
the process of this body scan, where you focus on

2496
05:50:51.840 --> 05:51:02.080
different parts of your body, parts that you focus on

2497
05:51:02.799 --> 05:51:14.200
and observe. Even though you're not purposely requesting for those

2498
05:51:14.400 --> 05:51:20.000
parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

2499
05:51:21.599 --> 05:51:27.159
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

2500
05:51:28.159 --> 05:51:41.880
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

2501
05:51:41.919 --> 05:51:54.200
attention is focused on my words, and as my words

2502
05:51:55.159 --> 05:52:05.319
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

2503
05:52:09.119 --> 05:52:31.279
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

2504
05:52:31.319 --> 05:52:50.639
your mind calms down, your body relaxes, and when your

2505
05:52:50.720 --> 05:53:14.520
body calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though we've

2506
05:53:14.680 --> 05:53:23.479
not really started the focus on your body, you can

2507
05:53:24.159 --> 05:53:39.520
already feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing

2508
05:53:39.759 --> 05:53:54.000
out stress and tension, healing all the parts of your body,

2509
05:53:55.919 --> 05:54:03.599
including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

2510
05:54:03.799 --> 05:54:09.520
organs inside your body, all of the muscles, all of

2511
05:54:09.599 --> 05:54:12.400
the fat, all.

2512
05:54:12.479 --> 05:54:20.000
Of everything, every hair on your body is filled with

2513
05:54:20.200 --> 05:54:30.880
that healing energy. And when your brain.

2514
05:54:35.200 --> 05:54:48.439
Fills with that healing energy, the feeling of comfort and

2515
05:54:48.599 --> 05:55:14.720
relaxation increases, deeply, increases in a way to your mind

2516
05:55:18.319 --> 05:55:31.840
starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy because it's not needed,

2517
05:55:35.200 --> 05:55:51.479
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

2518
05:55:54.639 --> 05:55:59.240
So if you're listening to this and what you need

2519
05:55:59.479 --> 05:56:05.319
is to relaxation, that's what you get. If what you

2520
05:56:05.639 --> 05:56:13.639
need is to fall asleep naturally and easily as your

2521
05:56:13.799 --> 05:56:30.159
mind drifts, that's also what will happen. Because by pressing

2522
05:56:30.279 --> 05:56:35.000
that play button on the podcast and listening to me,

2523
05:56:36.240 --> 05:56:44.759
you give permission for your body and your mind. In fact,

2524
05:56:49.680 --> 05:56:54.000
you give the command to your body and your mind

2525
05:56:54.279 --> 05:57:06.639
to relax deeply and to drift off to sleep, if

2526
05:57:06.919 --> 05:57:22.000
that's what you want or need. And as I focus

2527
05:57:23.639 --> 05:57:33.680
on the different parts of your body, you may start

2528
05:57:34.040 --> 05:57:42.000
to just drift. And then you come back again and

2529
05:57:42.200 --> 05:57:46.639
you hear me talking, and I'm focusing on a different

2530
05:57:46.759 --> 05:58:01.080
part of your body, you may find yourself drifting. Be

2531
05:58:01.240 --> 05:58:08.799
don't realize you're drifting until you stop drifting and you're

2532
05:58:08.840 --> 05:58:16.159
alert again to my voice. Focusing on a different part

2533
05:58:16.319 --> 05:58:25.639
of your body starts to relax even deeper, because that

2534
05:58:25.919 --> 05:58:40.119
drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone. And

2535
05:58:40.319 --> 05:58:45.279
the more you drift, the longer you drift, and the

2536
05:58:45.439 --> 05:59:00.759
longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep, and

2537
05:59:00.880 --> 05:59:10.080
that's the last you remember until you wake up in

2538
05:59:10.240 --> 05:59:15.840
your own time. When you experience the right amount of sleep.

2539
05:59:16.680 --> 05:59:25.759
Fear because when you do, and if you do fall asleep,

2540
05:59:25.959 --> 05:59:53.439
it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep, healing sleep. It

2541
05:59:53.720 --> 06:00:01.479
feels so nice to relax into your own body and

2542
06:00:01.680 --> 06:00:10.080
mind as you as you feel that heating energy is

2543
06:00:10.240 --> 06:00:23.599
spreading through it, relaxing news so deeply, relaxing news so

2544
06:00:25.759 --> 06:00:40.599
so deeply. As we start to focus on your eyes,

2545
06:00:48.479 --> 06:01:35.159
moving down to your jaw, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers,

2546
06:01:42.479 --> 06:02:14.520
your chest, your stomach, your back, your spine, you hs,

2547
06:02:22.439 --> 06:03:07.080
you legs, your feet, your joys, feedingeetings, spreading and growing

2548
06:03:08.680 --> 06:03:21.080
inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again

2549
06:03:23.360 --> 06:03:31.439
on parts of your body. Focusing this time on your forehead.

2550
06:03:37.919 --> 06:03:47.200
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

2551
06:03:47.279 --> 06:04:09.040
of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

2552
06:04:09.159 --> 06:04:13.200
could move your fingers a little bit so you can

2553
06:04:14.279 --> 06:04:28.959
focus on each one individually, both hands and even though

2554
06:04:29.159 --> 06:04:34.200
as you focus on both of your hands now they

2555
06:04:34.279 --> 06:04:42.439
almost seem to just melt into one, where there is

2556
06:04:42.479 --> 06:04:50.080
your right hand start and your left hand end, almost

2557
06:04:50.240 --> 06:05:01.799
as if just mix together. Now focusing on your knees,

2558
06:05:07.680 --> 06:05:30.680
just noticing how your knees feel. Now, focusing on your elbows,

2559
06:05:33.439 --> 06:05:45.880
focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

2560
06:05:48.560 --> 06:06:20.479
of your elbows. Now focusing absurd the back of your neck,

2561
06:06:30.439 --> 06:07:08.080
feeding the energy on the back of your neck. Observing

2562
06:07:10.439 --> 06:07:29.799
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in your ankles,

2563
06:08:29.799 --> 06:08:48.720
noticin now you toes on both of your feet, being

2564
06:08:48.959 --> 06:09:44.479
aware how you toast fear right now, notice thin high

2565
06:09:44.560 --> 06:10:34.000
you entire body fails. Noticing your mind feels now, letting go,

2566
06:10:42.759 --> 06:11:24.119
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, letting

2567
06:11:24.840 --> 06:11:51.439
go everything, everything. I'm going to start now, and I

2568
06:11:51.479 --> 06:11:53.560
would like you just, first of all, just to see

2569
06:11:53.639 --> 06:12:01.799
yourself lying down on that message table, lying on your front.

2570
06:12:03.080 --> 06:12:11.040
Your head is supported, your arms are supported, and you

2571
06:12:11.119 --> 06:12:17.759
feel comfortable, and breathing is really easy, and you feel

2572
06:12:21.279 --> 06:12:24.279
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

2573
06:12:24.720 --> 06:12:28.840
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness,

2574
06:12:29.759 --> 06:12:37.880
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2575
06:12:38.720 --> 06:12:46.639
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

2576
06:12:49.520 --> 06:12:55.240
This is about how you feel and how you can

2577
06:12:56.720 --> 06:13:02.000
enjoy that sense of comfort and re naxation that comes

2578
06:13:02.119 --> 06:13:08.840
from letting go and allowing my hands and my fingers

2579
06:13:09.360 --> 06:13:20.720
to relax you by a message your body. So I

2580
06:13:20.799 --> 06:13:25.799
want to start off just by placing my hands on

2581
06:13:25.919 --> 06:13:30.200
the back of your head, just gently, just so you

2582
06:13:30.319 --> 06:13:34.799
can feel what my hands feel like really on you,

2583
06:13:39.279 --> 06:13:41.599
So you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands

2584
06:13:41.680 --> 06:13:47.119
on the back of your head. With my hands to

2585
06:13:47.200 --> 06:13:51.200
the side of your head, not pressing, but just holding

2586
06:13:51.360 --> 06:13:57.400
there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little

2587
06:13:57.400 --> 06:14:04.319
bit on your face, you can feel my hands so

2588
06:14:04.479 --> 06:14:17.439
you can become accustomed to them. And now put my

2589
06:14:17.599 --> 06:14:20.360
hands on the back of your head again and gently

2590
06:14:21.959 --> 06:14:26.959
let them slide down onto the back of your neck.

2591
06:14:34.560 --> 06:14:44.400
You can feel my hands gently stroke in the back

2592
06:14:44.439 --> 06:14:50.880
of your neck to start with, just so you can

2593
06:14:50.959 --> 06:14:55.759
get used to the feeling of my hands on your skin,

2594
06:14:56.400 --> 06:15:04.919
get accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good,

2595
06:15:05.240 --> 06:15:14.799
it's all fine. And I'm going to start gently massaging

2596
06:15:15.599 --> 06:15:32.439
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

2597
06:15:32.520 --> 06:15:38.759
this is a very trusting situation, really, because our necks

2598
06:15:38.799 --> 06:15:43.159
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

2599
06:15:43.799 --> 06:15:48.799
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

2600
06:15:48.919 --> 06:15:54.479
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

2601
06:15:54.520 --> 06:16:03.119
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

2602
06:16:03.360 --> 06:16:20.240
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

2603
06:16:20.360 --> 06:16:29.040
massage the sides of your neck, gently moving from the

2604
06:16:29.119 --> 06:16:32.959
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

2605
06:16:33.000 --> 06:16:36.279
where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

2606
06:16:38.360 --> 06:16:43.840
to your jaw your ears kind of area that side

2607
06:16:43.880 --> 06:16:48.880
of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer than

2608
06:16:49.240 --> 06:17:05.279
the front of your neck. The message in the back

2609
06:17:05.360 --> 06:17:13.959
of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we hold tension,

2610
06:17:18.200 --> 06:17:22.759
and as that area's message, you can actually feel a

2611
06:17:22.880 --> 06:17:30.880
sense of release in the back of your neck and

2612
06:17:31.040 --> 06:17:36.279
maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice how

2613
06:17:36.360 --> 06:17:49.360
it feels, Notice how you feel. And then moving down

2614
06:17:49.560 --> 06:17:54.240
to that area between your neck and your shoulders, that

2615
06:17:54.520 --> 06:18:03.119
musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2616
06:18:05.319 --> 06:18:07.520
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2617
06:18:07.560 --> 06:18:09.799
of people would message if they were going to give you,

2618
06:18:10.720 --> 06:18:16.200
like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2619
06:18:16.759 --> 06:18:19.200
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2620
06:18:21.040 --> 06:18:27.639
from the neck, and again that can hold tension and stress.

2621
06:18:28.880 --> 06:18:33.880
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful.

2622
06:18:36.959 --> 06:18:52.360
And you decide how deep that message is, and just

2623
06:18:52.560 --> 06:18:59.479
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

2624
06:18:59.599 --> 06:19:10.200
those muscles into reading relaxed all the time, being firm

2625
06:19:10.840 --> 06:19:27.919
yet gentle with you and just stroking down the area

2626
06:19:30.759 --> 06:19:36.319
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your

2627
06:19:36.400 --> 06:19:47.400
shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a

2628
06:19:47.439 --> 06:19:50.840
little bit off the table, just to give you a

2629
06:19:50.919 --> 06:20:01.479
little bit of a stretch, but very gently, and you've

2630
06:20:01.479 --> 06:20:04.639
got the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the

2631
06:20:04.880 --> 06:20:15.759
sides and the back. Again, this is a part that

2632
06:20:15.919 --> 06:20:21.200
can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a

2633
06:20:21.240 --> 06:20:31.439
bit of needing. If if you wish to really release

2634
06:20:31.639 --> 06:20:40.000
the tension to really get into those muscles, and you

2635
06:20:40.080 --> 06:20:43.919
can let your fingers in there. They can feel really

2636
06:20:44.159 --> 06:20:53.959
nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly.

2637
06:20:57.639 --> 06:21:07.040
It can all be beneficial to the realaxation with the

2638
06:21:07.159 --> 06:21:20.639
muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down your arms.

2639
06:21:27.240 --> 06:21:30.759
We do one arm at a time, starting with your

2640
06:21:30.919 --> 06:21:41.639
right arm. Wow, DearS, I just lift your arm up,

2641
06:21:42.560 --> 06:21:47.639
just hold it to the side of you the way

2642
06:21:47.680 --> 06:21:54.119
it still be attached, and I just message the tops

2643
06:21:54.200 --> 06:22:07.560
of your arms all the way down to your forearms

2644
06:22:10.319 --> 06:22:34.240
into your wrists, gently massaging that parts, the softer part

2645
06:22:34.319 --> 06:22:40.759
which is the under part of the arm, which leads

2646
06:22:40.919 --> 06:22:45.759
to the crease in your elbow, the inside. It's much

2647
06:22:46.279 --> 06:23:02.759
more sensitive skin sometimes just having that stroked and I

2648
06:23:02.959 --> 06:23:19.759
feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to

2649
06:23:19.880 --> 06:23:32.200
your right hand, just holding your hand in both of

2650
06:23:32.319 --> 06:23:42.000
my hands, just pressing gently on the back of your

2651
06:23:42.119 --> 06:23:52.799
hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly, at the

2652
06:23:52.919 --> 06:24:07.880
same time pressing down and messaging each finger and then

2653
06:24:08.119 --> 06:24:19.040
starting to massage the palms of the hand. Just turning

2654
06:24:19.159 --> 06:24:29.919
the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually having your

2655
06:24:30.080 --> 06:24:38.560
handheld can really be an emotional experience sometimes even if

2656
06:24:38.639 --> 06:24:43.479
it is a stranger, someone you don't know very well,

2657
06:24:44.520 --> 06:24:51.599
like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate,

2658
06:24:59.319 --> 06:25:11.840
you can feel an nice, you can feel safe. And

2659
06:25:11.959 --> 06:25:15.159
as I put that right arm back down where it was,

2660
06:25:20.799 --> 06:25:27.279
we did the same with your left arm, exactly the

2661
06:25:27.479 --> 06:25:36.880
same message in the muscles in your arm all the

2662
06:25:36.959 --> 06:25:45.439
way down. Do your rest, stroking the inside of your arm,

2663
06:25:50.959 --> 06:26:04.439
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

2664
06:26:04.560 --> 06:26:20.959
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging

2665
06:26:21.240 --> 06:26:37.080
the palm of your left hand, and you feel so

2666
06:26:40.000 --> 06:27:05.599
so relaxing, so comforting, and just rest your left down,

2667
06:27:05.840 --> 06:27:19.919
back down. Start to massage your back, the biggest part

2668
06:27:20.000 --> 06:27:31.400
of your body, starting at the top, starting again where

2669
06:27:31.439 --> 06:27:34.520
we already be have been, the area at the top

2670
06:27:34.880 --> 06:27:40.919
in between his shoulders, k near your neck. Going back

2671
06:27:41.599 --> 06:27:47.000
a message in that area again, but this time moving downwards,

2672
06:27:53.520 --> 06:27:59.240
taking it downward. Stroke to the middle of your back,

2673
06:28:00.200 --> 06:28:07.000
HM working from the outside inwards. It's a massage in

2674
06:28:07.119 --> 06:28:14.240
the your back, but the the outsides of your back,

2675
06:28:18.400 --> 06:28:32.000
the parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost

2676
06:28:34.159 --> 06:28:46.639
the part that connects your front to your back. Just

2677
06:28:46.919 --> 06:28:55.360
massaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2678
06:28:58.799 --> 06:29:03.200
moving down and moving across a little bed, and moving

2679
06:29:03.240 --> 06:29:08.639
all the way down again, being very gentle. You have

2680
06:29:08.919 --> 06:29:19.680
ferm as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

2681
06:29:21.080 --> 06:29:25.319
We can message the muscles on either side of your spine,

2682
06:29:26.200 --> 06:29:29.200
from the top of your neck all the way down

2683
06:29:32.000 --> 06:29:40.959
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2684
06:29:44.000 --> 06:29:51.360
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, two

2685
06:29:51.520 --> 06:29:57.360
fingers and just go your side of the spine almost

2686
06:29:57.799 --> 06:30:01.200
just push down, go all way down to the bottom

2687
06:30:01.240 --> 06:30:09.720
of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening up

2688
06:30:10.360 --> 06:30:19.599
the body, stretching your body so that you feel more

2689
06:30:19.680 --> 06:30:37.040
relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm

2690
06:30:37.080 --> 06:30:40.759
going to move to one side, to your right side,

2691
06:30:45.560 --> 06:30:50.119
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis,

2692
06:30:51.159 --> 06:30:57.439
I'm going to message that area of your back. I'll

2693
06:30:57.520 --> 06:31:01.240
stretch over the other side and I'll pull the muscles

2694
06:31:01.840 --> 06:31:08.040
gently and massage and push from one end that side

2695
06:31:08.159 --> 06:31:12.479
or way to my side to the middle of fact

2696
06:31:13.279 --> 06:31:18.560
to where your spine is massaging that side of your spine,

2697
06:31:20.200 --> 06:31:25.400
the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like

2698
06:31:25.639 --> 06:31:33.639
kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm yet

2699
06:31:34.639 --> 06:31:43.520
lots there to massage. Potentially one of the most important

2700
06:31:43.560 --> 06:31:50.720
places to actually have a message because you really feel it.

2701
06:31:52.639 --> 06:31:57.639
You really feel the release and the pleasure of having

2702
06:31:57.759 --> 06:32:05.240
your lower back massaged. It releases so much from your

2703
06:32:05.279 --> 06:32:15.319
body that's not useful, starting a healing process which will

2704
06:32:15.400 --> 06:32:28.479
continue long after this recording is over. The message in

2705
06:32:28.560 --> 06:32:31.720
this part of your body not only feels really good

2706
06:32:32.439 --> 06:32:37.479
for you, it's actually fun to do because it is,

2707
06:32:38.000 --> 06:32:43.040
as I said, like kneading bread. It's a part that

2708
06:32:43.080 --> 06:32:48.319
you can really get hold of and really message deeply.

2709
06:32:50.599 --> 06:33:00.959
If that's your choice, I'm going to move over to

2710
06:33:01.040 --> 06:33:03.639
the other side of your body and do the same

2711
06:33:07.319 --> 06:33:15.400
with the opposite part of your lawer back, kneading and

2712
06:33:15.639 --> 06:33:23.959
messaging from your sides or way to the middle of

2713
06:33:24.000 --> 06:33:37.840
your back where your spine is pressing and kneading firm

2714
06:33:38.000 --> 06:33:44.279
and gentle at the same time. It feels so releasing.

2715
06:33:47.560 --> 06:33:57.360
This mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation or mixed

2716
06:33:57.599 --> 06:34:07.520
together plus there's that feeling from your stomach as it's

2717
06:34:07.599 --> 06:34:12.840
being stretched. Even though you're in your stomach now, you

2718
06:34:12.959 --> 06:34:16.759
can feel it being stretched because that whole area is

2719
06:34:16.880 --> 06:34:28.119
connected to your stomach. Now we're going to move or

2720
06:34:28.319 --> 06:34:33.520
move further up to your top of your body and

2721
06:34:33.759 --> 06:34:42.040
we do the same this time, starting with your upper back.

2722
06:34:42.520 --> 06:34:47.720
Put my hands forward over and messing massage in that

2723
06:34:48.040 --> 06:34:54.720
area up to your spine, from the side of your

2724
06:34:54.759 --> 06:34:59.919
body up to your spine. So some of that message area,

2725
06:35:00.680 --> 06:35:06.639
the muscle tissue or whatever fatty tissue even will be

2726
06:35:06.919 --> 06:35:12.159
possibly from your chest. There's all connected. The chest and

2727
06:35:12.279 --> 06:35:18.840
the back connect together. I'm going to be massaging and

2728
06:35:19.000 --> 06:35:24.200
just pulling some of that skin from your side up

2729
06:35:25.880 --> 06:35:34.560
and massaging that area of your upper back all the

2730
06:35:34.639 --> 06:35:41.240
way to your spine. And then I'll move down a

2731
06:35:41.319 --> 06:35:44.200
bit and I'll continue with the middle of your back

2732
06:35:44.400 --> 06:35:53.400
doing exactly the same thing as gentle or as deep

2733
06:35:53.479 --> 06:36:04.919
as you choose. H. Now I'll move the other side

2734
06:36:04.959 --> 06:36:09.799
again and do the exact same thing with the top

2735
06:36:09.880 --> 06:36:19.200
of your back on the other side, from pretty much

2736
06:36:19.360 --> 06:36:32.799
underneath your arm area really to your spine, and then

2737
06:36:32.919 --> 06:36:39.680
continue in that all the way down including your lower

2738
06:36:40.000 --> 06:36:57.520
your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to your thighs,

2739
06:36:58.880 --> 06:37:04.319
the backs of your thigh and the sides of your thighs,

2740
06:37:08.520 --> 06:37:17.479
starting with your right leg. Massage in the back and

2741
06:37:17.639 --> 06:37:26.159
the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a

2742
06:37:26.279 --> 06:37:29.680
lot of muscles there. It's an area that can be

2743
06:37:29.840 --> 06:37:34.080
very tense at times and maybe needs a little bit

2744
06:37:34.159 --> 06:37:37.759
more pressure than the rest of the body that's up

2745
06:37:37.880 --> 06:37:48.040
to you. You can gently stroke the back of your

2746
06:37:48.119 --> 06:37:54.040
legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath

2747
06:37:54.080 --> 06:38:07.040
your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area. And then working

2748
06:38:07.200 --> 06:38:14.639
down to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles

2749
06:38:15.520 --> 06:38:28.840
thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands and fingers,

2750
06:38:29.360 --> 06:38:42.639
digging deep to your ankles. In the back of your

2751
06:38:43.599 --> 06:38:49.599
back of your ankles, just gently massage in that area,

2752
06:38:55.080 --> 06:39:01.360
maybe lifting the leg and stretching it a little bitter.

2753
06:39:11.400 --> 06:39:26.560
Moving to the right foot, massage in the bottom of

2754
06:39:26.599 --> 06:39:41.000
your feet and the side of your feet gently but

2755
06:39:42.000 --> 06:39:52.840
firm enough so they don't tickle, and just allow the

2756
06:39:53.000 --> 06:39:58.880
pleasure that you get from having your feet massaged to

2757
06:39:59.040 --> 06:40:05.639
just overtake you. Yeah, As I continue to message your feet,

2758
06:40:08.119 --> 06:40:16.080
the bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel.

2759
06:40:18.520 --> 06:40:20.759
You can put a lot of pressure into your heel

2760
06:40:21.560 --> 06:40:26.520
and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be

2761
06:40:26.639 --> 06:40:38.319
a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently, the message

2762
06:40:38.439 --> 06:40:44.439
in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each

2763
06:40:44.560 --> 06:40:58.200
one individually. Moving over to the left leg to do

2764
06:40:58.400 --> 06:41:07.119
exactly the same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs,

2765
06:41:09.360 --> 06:41:11.880
work in the back of the thighs and the sides,

2766
06:41:13.520 --> 06:41:23.919
massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working all the

2767
06:41:24.000 --> 06:41:36.799
way down. And this is an area that maybe you

2768
06:41:36.880 --> 06:41:44.639
could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging. So

2769
06:41:44.759 --> 06:41:50.959
perhaps if you wanted like a bigger future recording wants,

2770
06:41:51.000 --> 06:41:59.840
spend more time on one particular area. As you moved

2771
06:42:00.080 --> 06:42:12.680
down to your calf muscles, massage in your calf muscles

2772
06:42:14.200 --> 06:42:28.080
firmly and gently, move down your aincor into your feet,

2773
06:42:29.959 --> 06:42:35.680
Massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

2774
06:42:35.759 --> 06:42:45.759
your feet, stretching your toes, and massage in each tone individually.

2775
06:42:48.400 --> 06:42:53.880
And the feeling of pleasure and release that you experience

2776
06:42:54.080 --> 06:43:12.680
when you're having your feet massaged feels any good? Now,

2777
06:43:16.200 --> 06:43:20.240
just turn over in your mind. Laying on your back,

2778
06:43:27.680 --> 06:43:33.400
I'm just going to start again for your neck area,

2779
06:43:40.360 --> 06:43:48.040
in your shoulders, just to get back in touch with

2780
06:43:48.200 --> 06:44:05.319
that area. And as we move up, I can clean

2781
06:44:05.400 --> 06:44:10.119
my hands, make them more fresh, because now I'm gonna

2782
06:44:10.159 --> 06:44:26.520
message your face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your

2783
06:44:26.560 --> 06:44:32.560
eyes are closed and I can just stretch your eyes

2784
06:44:32.840 --> 06:44:44.639
a little bit, pushing up on your eyebrows, just massaging around,

2785
06:44:44.799 --> 06:45:00.119
just scalp, massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, to

2786
06:45:00.200 --> 06:45:13.200
your jaw, gently, the side of your neck, your chin.

2787
06:45:20.080 --> 06:45:20.479
Mm hmm.

2788
06:45:24.279 --> 06:45:31.959
Then just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2789
06:45:35.759 --> 06:45:39.799
starting by massage in the very top of your chest

2790
06:45:43.639 --> 06:45:48.840
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2791
06:45:57.319 --> 06:46:10.080
and then just message in the hole of chest, moving

2792
06:46:10.200 --> 06:46:23.759
the chest around, because it's quite a large area. You

2793
06:46:23.840 --> 06:46:31.599
can move from one side to the next, moving my

2794
06:46:31.799 --> 06:46:42.520
hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2795
06:46:44.720 --> 06:46:47.759
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2796
06:46:53.040 --> 06:47:01.680
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again.

2797
06:47:14.319 --> 06:47:19.119
And then allow my hands to just massage gently and

2798
06:47:19.400 --> 06:47:26.119
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2799
06:47:26.240 --> 06:47:35.840
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2800
06:47:36.119 --> 06:47:41.759
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

2801
06:47:41.880 --> 06:48:00.639
down to just below your red cage, moving down, then

2802
06:48:00.759 --> 06:48:10.000
messaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

2803
06:48:10.119 --> 06:48:24.560
it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also

2804
06:48:24.759 --> 06:48:29.959
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

2805
06:48:30.080 --> 06:48:36.360
area that really doesn't get much attention but feels really

2806
06:48:36.520 --> 06:48:46.680
good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the

2807
06:48:46.880 --> 06:48:53.840
sides of your body, just below your arms, all the

2808
06:48:53.919 --> 06:49:07.319
way down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

2809
06:49:09.360 --> 06:49:12.720
We're going to stand one side of you like I

2810
06:49:12.840 --> 06:49:17.319
did when I did your lower back. We go do

2811
06:49:17.400 --> 06:49:23.439
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2812
06:49:26.959 --> 06:49:39.000
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in

2813
06:49:41.560 --> 06:49:45.759
a whole area from below your ribs all the way

2814
06:49:45.880 --> 06:49:56.720
down to below your belly button, and then move round

2815
06:49:56.799 --> 06:50:06.680
to the other side of you and repeat that process

2816
06:50:07.000 --> 06:50:20.080
of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

2817
06:50:22.479 --> 06:50:27.159
And it's something about having your stomach massage that's different

2818
06:50:27.240 --> 06:50:34.080
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2819
06:50:34.680 --> 06:50:38.639
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomachs

2820
06:50:40.000 --> 06:50:47.799
that we may not be aware of. As I now

2821
06:50:48.000 --> 06:50:56.240
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2822
06:50:57.720 --> 06:51:06.919
around your belly button, and then going the other way around.

2823
06:51:13.439 --> 06:51:19.200
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2824
06:51:19.880 --> 06:51:30.159
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2825
06:51:30.200 --> 06:51:36.959
of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and I can

2826
06:51:37.080 --> 06:51:43.040
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2827
06:51:45.880 --> 06:51:52.040
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at front of

2828
06:51:52.119 --> 06:52:03.119
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently messaging

2829
06:52:03.200 --> 06:52:14.479
your knees, Sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2830
06:52:14.639 --> 06:52:26.799
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2831
06:52:27.119 --> 06:52:41.840
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2832
06:52:42.040 --> 06:52:48.119
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

2833
06:52:48.919 --> 06:52:57.200
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

2834
06:52:57.720 --> 06:53:05.479
your ankle, your toes, message in every part of your feet.

2835
06:53:10.240 --> 06:53:15.319
It feels so good just to let go and enjoy

2836
06:53:15.799 --> 06:53:39.799
the process, enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort

2837
06:53:40.040 --> 06:53:47.000
and so many feelings that come just from touching your skin.

2838
06:53:57.759 --> 06:54:03.680
And you can just lie there for as long as

2839
06:54:03.720 --> 06:54:16.319
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being

2840
06:54:16.479 --> 06:54:48.240
massaged by me, enjoy feeling deeply right, and all we're

2841
06:54:48.240 --> 06:54:57.439
gonna do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

2842
06:55:09.000 --> 06:55:19.279
there are going to be a hundred candles, and you're

2843
06:55:19.319 --> 06:55:25.639
going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2844
06:55:28.279 --> 06:55:37.919
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

2845
06:55:38.000 --> 06:55:45.799
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

2846
06:55:51.279 --> 06:55:58.159
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2847
06:55:58.159 --> 06:56:07.159
I'd like you to actually visit sickly, gently blow that

2848
06:56:07.360 --> 06:56:22.000
candle out, just so it's not big blows, just a gentle,

2849
06:56:26.439 --> 06:56:35.880
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

2850
06:56:36.000 --> 06:56:43.159
next number as we move down, and you can just

2851
06:56:44.759 --> 06:56:55.439
h blow that one out as well. And as we

2852
06:56:55.680 --> 06:57:06.000
move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and

2853
06:57:06.200 --> 06:57:14.599
more relaxed, and if you need to sleep, you also

2854
06:57:14.840 --> 06:57:26.360
find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleeping. In fact, you

2855
06:57:26.560 --> 06:57:36.799
may struggle to blow out all one hundred of these

2856
06:57:37.040 --> 06:58:01.880
candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed, more

2857
06:58:02.319 --> 06:58:19.599
and more deeply tired, and the further you go down,

2858
06:58:22.279 --> 06:58:35.880
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2859
06:58:36.279 --> 06:58:50.680
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2860
06:58:50.919 --> 06:58:55.040
even though there may be background sounds where you are

2861
06:59:00.040 --> 06:59:11.159
will be aware of those sounds at the moment, be

2862
06:59:11.520 --> 06:59:26.720
may start to just not even notice them at all

2863
06:59:29.479 --> 06:59:43.479
because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

2864
06:59:43.560 --> 06:59:50.360
of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to

2865
06:59:50.439 --> 06:59:57.000
say hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2866
07:00:00.080 --> 07:00:13.479
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but none of

2867
07:00:13.560 --> 07:00:25.759
that scene as important whatsoever. More candles you blow out,

2868
07:00:27.599 --> 07:00:40.319
the less important anything is. From more candles you blow out,

2869
07:00:44.560 --> 07:00:57.759
the further you seem to move away from sounds and

2870
07:01:00.919 --> 07:01:15.279
general date days, stuff seems to just move away on

2871
07:01:15.520 --> 07:01:31.639
its own. You feel more calma with every candle you

2872
07:01:31.840 --> 07:01:51.599
blow out, guiding you the next number, do you hear

2873
07:01:51.759 --> 07:02:02.520
me say? And then you blow that candle out to

2874
07:02:06.279 --> 07:02:34.080
h so easy, so simple. We're gonna start by introducing

2875
07:02:34.279 --> 07:02:52.880
the first candle, which is a hundred. First candles one hundred.

2876
07:02:57.759 --> 07:03:11.959
When you blow the candle out, you'll find immediately a

2877
07:03:12.560 --> 07:03:26.560
slight change in how you feel, as well as a

2878
07:03:26.720 --> 07:03:48.880
real sense of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding.

2879
07:03:57.680 --> 07:04:26.880
Starting with one hundred, blow out by candle now ninety

2880
07:04:27.279 --> 07:05:54.639
nine Candle ninety eight can ninety seven, Can we ninety six,

2881
07:06:22.439 --> 07:07:24.400
hand ninety five, had ninety four, can do ninety three,

2882
07:07:44.599 --> 07:09:16.959
hand ninety two and ninety one, ten to ninety eight,

2883
07:09:17.279 --> 07:12:09.880
two nine and eighty eight and eighties. Candle eighty eight, five,

2884
07:12:45.840 --> 07:13:28.479
two four, four, eighty two.

2885
07:14:35.720 --> 07:16:47.240
And two one. Candle seventy nine, can do seventy eight,

2886
07:16:56.119 --> 07:17:39.319
can do seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five,

2887
07:17:58.240 --> 07:18:52.680
candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle

2888
07:18:57.680 --> 07:20:04.520
seventy one, hand seventy one and seventy and sixty nine

2889
07:20:14.360 --> 07:21:02.240
candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

2890
07:21:07.840 --> 07:22:08.119
sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty

2891
07:22:26.599 --> 07:24:00.560
sixty one, candle sixty and fifty nine and fifty eight

2892
07:24:11.360 --> 07:25:36.919
candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle

2893
07:25:40.919 --> 07:26:54.119
fifty four, handle fifty three, candle fifty two, cando.

2894
07:26:56.759 --> 07:29:02.479
Fifty two two fifty, candle fifty one, candle fifty candle

2895
07:29:06.400 --> 07:31:01.599
foty nine, candle forty eight, candle forty seven, candle forty six,

2896
07:31:29.680 --> 07:32:53.439
handle forty five, handle forty two candle What do you

2897
07:32:53.599 --> 07:35:27.119
one end forty, candle thirty nine, hand thirty eight, can't

2898
07:35:27.200 --> 07:37:06.360
do thirty seven, canto thirty five and two thirty four,

2899
07:37:39.799 --> 07:40:32.439
tendo thirty three, hand thirty one, chendle thirty and twoinighteen

2900
07:40:33.159 --> 07:42:54.639
nine ten twenty eight, candle, twenty seven, candle twenty six,

2901
07:43:35.599 --> 07:44:30.560
can twenty five, came to chief fo.

2902
07:45:04.720 --> 07:45:50.159
Endle twenty three and twenty two.

2903
07:46:27.439 --> 07:49:05.439
To it you want and to winy m sand ninety candle,

2904
07:49:08.479 --> 07:51:44.080
seventeen candle six day, chez fourty f.

2905
07:52:15.639 --> 07:53:58.279
Ten ten eleven, shand.

2906
07:55:09.319 --> 07:58:37.919
Shame nine, jam to eight, jamdo six him, can do

2907
07:58:41.520 --> 08:01:41.319
fo and doy seven two candle or let go of

2908
08:01:41.520 --> 08:01:49.680
all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts

2909
08:01:49.720 --> 08:01:54.599
about the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

2910
08:01:56.680 --> 08:02:01.799
Just let it all go because none of it is

2911
08:02:02.000 --> 08:02:16.439
useful in this moment. This is your opportunity to just

2912
08:02:16.799 --> 08:02:31.159
focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch

2913
08:02:31.319 --> 08:02:40.759
with that natural sense of peace that we all have

2914
08:02:41.080 --> 08:02:48.240
within us. It's available for everyone. It just sometimes takes

2915
08:02:49.119 --> 08:02:52.840
a little bit of effort to set up the right

2916
08:02:55.279 --> 08:02:59.319
time and place in order for you to just let go.

2917
08:03:02.919 --> 08:03:08.400
Because when you do decide to let go and relax.

2918
08:03:11.000 --> 08:03:17.680
That's what your body starts to do because you've chosen.

2919
08:03:19.200 --> 08:03:26.159
You've chosen to just allow your body to unwind and

2920
08:03:26.279 --> 08:03:33.279
your mind starts to slow down. And it's a nice feeling.

2921
08:03:35.319 --> 08:03:38.479
It's a nice feeling at the beginning, just to know

2922
08:03:39.599 --> 08:03:49.680
that you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and

2923
08:03:49.840 --> 08:03:56.360
because you've made that decision, your body or just follow suit,

2924
08:03:58.919 --> 08:04:03.599
because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

2925
08:04:03.880 --> 08:04:13.520
just permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2926
08:04:13.799 --> 08:04:17.959
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2927
08:04:18.080 --> 08:04:25.439
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2928
08:04:25.680 --> 08:04:34.080
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2929
08:04:34.159 --> 08:04:39.720
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2930
08:04:44.080 --> 08:04:50.560
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2931
08:04:50.639 --> 08:04:56.919
the say so we need say okay, it's time for

2932
08:04:57.040 --> 08:05:06.680
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2933
08:05:06.720 --> 08:05:16.200
body just follows. It's like a breath of relief. Ah good,

2934
08:05:16.319 --> 08:05:23.200
I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

2935
08:05:23.279 --> 08:05:26.560
a day, of a very physical day that you may

2936
08:05:26.639 --> 08:05:30.439
experience in the past, but you get home and you

2937
08:05:30.680 --> 08:05:34.400
just sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your

2938
08:05:34.479 --> 08:05:40.599
shoes off and not ah. Feels so nice knowing that

2939
08:05:40.720 --> 08:05:44.720
you don't have to get up again for a little

2940
08:05:44.759 --> 08:05:48.439
while at least, if you choose, you can just sit

2941
08:05:48.560 --> 08:06:01.119
there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful. And

2942
08:06:01.400 --> 08:06:06.400
just by sitting down like that, your body knows that

2943
08:06:06.520 --> 08:06:11.959
it's time to relax. Your body has been given permission

2944
08:06:12.159 --> 08:06:21.840
from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're

2945
08:06:21.959 --> 08:06:33.680
prepared to let go of everything and just completely allow

2946
08:06:34.119 --> 08:06:43.040
all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions

2947
08:06:43.400 --> 08:07:02.240
can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because

2948
08:07:02.599 --> 08:07:09.119
that sense of relaxation in your body is a very

2949
08:07:09.279 --> 08:07:16.040
natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual

2950
08:07:16.360 --> 08:07:19.240
when you first start to relax, if you if you

2951
08:07:19.360 --> 08:07:24.599
haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and giving

2952
08:07:24.639 --> 08:07:29.880
yourself this space to let go completely and relax, they

2953
08:07:30.080 --> 08:07:37.799
seem are most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the

2954
08:07:38.000 --> 08:07:42.959
most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2955
08:07:44.680 --> 08:07:52.439
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

2956
08:07:55.119 --> 08:08:05.200
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

2957
08:08:07.759 --> 08:08:15.479
And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2958
08:08:15.599 --> 08:08:23.200
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2959
08:08:24.560 --> 08:08:27.959
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2960
08:08:28.040 --> 08:08:32.000
inside of a clock, just unwinding. And it's almost like

2961
08:08:32.159 --> 08:08:37.240
you could see the little wind up knob that's used

2962
08:08:38.119 --> 08:08:42.159
just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

2963
08:08:42.240 --> 08:08:50.720
it up, and the energy that fremetic stress for energy

2964
08:08:52.279 --> 08:09:02.560
gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength as

2965
08:09:02.599 --> 08:09:12.000
a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you

2966
08:09:12.200 --> 08:09:20.360
may find a the more relaxed you feel, that your

2967
08:09:20.520 --> 08:09:30.639
mind starts to wonder, maybe seemed to stop listening to

2968
08:09:30.759 --> 08:09:35.200
me for a while, and your mind goes somewhere else,

2969
08:09:36.599 --> 08:09:42.439
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2970
08:09:42.599 --> 08:09:49.240
that was just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

2971
08:09:49.400 --> 08:10:00.520
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're

2972
08:10:00.599 --> 08:10:04.240
not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

2973
08:10:05.360 --> 08:10:13.799
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2974
08:10:13.959 --> 08:10:20.240
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely,

2975
08:10:21.959 --> 08:10:29.200
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2976
08:10:30.680 --> 08:10:35.200
all letting them go, allow them to drop onto the floor.

2977
08:10:40.479 --> 08:10:46.479
When you start to get in touch with the feelings

2978
08:10:46.680 --> 08:10:58.360
of such relaxation, this feels so nice to be in

2979
08:10:58.599 --> 08:11:05.360
touch with the calmness of the different body parts as

2980
08:11:05.520 --> 08:11:21.159
they become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier

2981
08:11:21.840 --> 08:11:31.240
and more natural, effortless, as that cool enters through your

2982
08:11:31.400 --> 08:11:41.720
mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation,

2983
08:11:44.360 --> 08:11:50.279
and in just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2984
08:11:50.479 --> 08:11:55.560
stress from every part of your body.

2985
08:11:56.759 --> 08:11:57.240
And might.

2986
08:12:00.919 --> 08:12:05.479
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2987
08:12:06.040 --> 08:12:13.520
you notice that things have come to a standstill or

2988
08:12:13.680 --> 08:12:22.759
maybe just much much lower than before, because your mind

2989
08:12:22.959 --> 08:12:33.479
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

2990
08:12:33.560 --> 08:12:40.040
allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2991
08:12:42.799 --> 08:12:54.759
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation

2992
08:12:55.759 --> 08:13:07.560
of your mind. Let you know, feeling completely calm, loose,

2993
08:13:07.919 --> 08:13:22.159
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2994
08:13:22.400 --> 08:13:34.919
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and

2995
08:13:35.040 --> 08:13:43.720
your life. To be able to let go everything and

2996
08:13:43.919 --> 08:13:52.360
to relax completely you know, all parts of your body

2997
08:13:53.720 --> 08:14:03.759
and mind. Even your bones has araxed, All your muscles

2998
08:14:04.319 --> 08:14:19.919
are relaxed, even the skin that covers your body is relaxed.

2999
08:14:25.080 --> 08:14:26.319
Every hair.

3000
08:14:29.360 --> 08:14:29.919
That you have.

3001
08:14:31.720 --> 08:14:49.279
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts to

3002
08:14:49.520 --> 08:15:02.520
feel the benefits of this healing relaxation. And then as

3003
08:15:02.720 --> 08:15:08.880
you focus on the inside of your scalp where your

3004
08:15:09.000 --> 08:15:16.720
brain is, you can start to realize and notice the

3005
08:15:16.959 --> 08:15:28.360
benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then, as your brain

3006
08:15:29.959 --> 08:15:40.279
continues to relax, it sends those messages to the rest

3007
08:15:40.520 --> 08:15:51.080
of your body and your mind to rely, relax even

3008
08:15:51.360 --> 08:16:10.880
more deeply, relax in me more completely, letting go any

3009
08:16:12.720 --> 08:16:22.919
remaining thoughts or concerns, allowed them just to drop onto

3010
08:16:23.040 --> 08:16:31.720
the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment,

3011
08:16:33.959 --> 08:16:46.759
In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling your

3012
08:16:46.919 --> 08:17:11.680
brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of

3013
08:17:11.840 --> 08:17:32.080
your brain feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and

3014
08:17:32.400 --> 08:17:44.720
be peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy.

3015
08:17:47.759 --> 08:17:57.799
In that sense of deep deep comfort really does allow

3016
08:17:58.119 --> 08:18:13.319
you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of comfort that

3017
08:18:13.520 --> 08:18:26.840
is spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle

3018
08:18:27.040 --> 08:18:43.919
of your body, eat deeper and deeper, much more deeper

3019
08:18:44.439 --> 08:19:02.479
than before, much more comfort spreading through your body, your mind,

3020
08:19:05.520 --> 08:19:23.279
be so peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in

3021
08:19:23.599 --> 08:19:33.919
avery part of your body, letting him go. Mm hmm

3022
08:19:35.040 --> 08:19:57.240
a everything and everything so peaceful, calm, so relaxed. A

3023
08:19:57.759 --> 08:20:18.840
very second the passes you feel deeper deeper, relax deeper

3024
08:20:21.279 --> 08:20:43.159
and deeper, relax come, so calm, peace for so very

3025
08:20:43.720 --> 08:20:55.680
peace from your head down to your ties. Such peace

3026
08:20:56.599 --> 08:21:07.439
and comfort for growing all all the time. Such peace

3027
08:21:08.520 --> 08:21:21.959
and comfort spreading through your body and mind deeper and deeper,

3028
08:21:24.880 --> 08:21:38.159
such comforts, spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle of

3029
08:21:38.319 --> 08:21:56.040
your body. So the feel amazing, so laxed, so peace,

3030
08:21:56.159 --> 08:22:21.799
so so peaceful, letting go. You're going to do a

3031
08:22:22.000 --> 08:22:29.720
body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in your body,

3032
08:22:30.840 --> 08:22:36.479
not trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

3033
08:22:37.759 --> 08:22:42.720
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

3034
08:22:42.959 --> 08:22:50.400
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

3035
08:22:51.360 --> 08:22:56.279
in the different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself

3036
08:22:57.720 --> 08:23:05.200
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

3037
08:23:05.240 --> 08:23:13.840
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

3038
08:23:17.279 --> 08:23:23.840
So I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

3039
08:23:28.439 --> 08:23:36.159
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

3040
08:23:36.360 --> 08:23:41.560
move your hands around. Just maybe move your fingers.

3041
08:23:41.240 --> 08:23:41.840
A little bit.

3042
08:23:44.279 --> 08:23:50.000
I've been and closing your hands very gently, just so

3043
08:23:50.439 --> 08:23:55.959
that you can get in touch with how your hands

3044
08:23:58.439 --> 08:24:18.759
and your fingers feel, very very slow movements. Focusing now

3045
08:24:19.599 --> 08:24:26.880
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

3046
08:24:26.880 --> 08:24:31.599
of an equivalent with your feet is you've just done

3047
08:24:31.840 --> 08:24:39.759
with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your

3048
08:24:39.840 --> 08:24:51.759
feet around, moving your toes gently, only very gently and

3049
08:24:52.040 --> 08:25:03.639
very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in this moment.

3050
08:25:10.560 --> 08:25:16.400
Focusing now and your eyes, and I'd like you to

3051
08:25:16.639 --> 08:25:23.720
just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and

3052
08:25:23.799 --> 08:25:28.319
close your eyes a couple of times to really get

3053
08:25:28.400 --> 08:25:32.200
in touch with how you feel when you do close

3054
08:25:32.279 --> 08:25:40.279
your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when you

3055
08:25:40.439 --> 08:25:49.279
do close them. Maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches the

3056
08:25:49.439 --> 08:25:59.880
tops of your eyes, perhaps quint in your eyes, scrunch

3057
08:26:00.240 --> 08:26:05.360
up your eyes, just so you can hear again touch

3058
08:26:08.000 --> 08:26:15.319
with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

3059
08:26:18.080 --> 08:26:18.720
Right now.

3060
08:26:27.919 --> 08:26:33.919
Now focusing on your thighs, and you know it just

3061
08:26:33.959 --> 08:26:42.319
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

3062
08:26:44.680 --> 08:26:55.319
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

3063
08:26:56.639 --> 08:27:05.080
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

3064
08:27:05.360 --> 08:27:16.400
and the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

3065
08:27:18.720 --> 08:27:33.799
your thighs fear right now, moving your focus to the

3066
08:27:33.919 --> 08:27:40.759
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

3067
08:27:42.240 --> 08:27:47.520
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

3068
08:27:47.599 --> 08:27:51.720
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

3069
08:27:51.840 --> 08:27:58.200
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So there's your

3070
08:27:58.520 --> 08:28:03.919
focus on on the back of your neck. Maybe you

3071
08:28:04.040 --> 08:28:10.680
can move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up.

3072
08:28:12.680 --> 08:28:18.279
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

3073
08:28:21.439 --> 08:28:26.279
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

3074
08:28:28.240 --> 08:28:41.240
pony very slowly, very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

3075
08:28:43.000 --> 08:28:52.200
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

3076
08:28:52.360 --> 08:29:04.040
can be more in touch, weird if the feelings with

3077
08:29:04.360 --> 08:29:12.759
the sensations, the physical sensations, and how back of your

3078
08:29:13.000 --> 08:29:31.639
neck feels. Right now, as we now focus on the

3079
08:29:31.840 --> 08:29:37.720
tops of your arms, the parts where your biceps and

3080
08:29:37.799 --> 08:29:45.720
your triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders. To

3081
08:29:45.959 --> 08:29:52.840
focus on those parts, the tops of your arms, you

3082
08:29:53.000 --> 08:30:00.959
may like to just tense them, but very very gently

3083
08:30:02.840 --> 08:30:11.880
and slowly, so you're not straining or putting any pressure

3084
08:30:13.000 --> 08:30:16.360
whatsoever on your arms.

3085
08:30:19.040 --> 08:30:21.520
It's just so that you can.

3086
08:30:23.959 --> 08:30:31.159
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

3087
08:30:32.720 --> 08:30:44.639
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

3088
08:30:46.799 --> 08:30:56.400
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go.

3089
08:31:00.680 --> 08:31:06.000
Notice how the tops of your arms feel.

3090
08:31:08.560 --> 08:31:09.240
Right now.

3091
08:31:17.240 --> 08:31:28.040
As a now focus when your stomach, the area the

3092
08:31:28.159 --> 08:31:34.479
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

3093
08:31:34.560 --> 08:31:41.639
way down to your hips, just a part of your grind.

3094
08:31:48.000 --> 08:31:55.200
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in the area

3095
08:31:55.959 --> 08:32:11.200
very very gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing

3096
08:32:11.400 --> 08:32:20.840
to do, maybe you can just move your body, pushing

3097
08:32:21.000 --> 08:32:25.400
your stomach up and maybe moving a little bit to

3098
08:32:25.479 --> 08:32:32.479
the side, easing your hips, just so you can get

3099
08:32:32.880 --> 08:32:40.759
more in tune with how you're lower up to an

3100
08:32:41.000 --> 08:33:00.720
area is feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical

3101
08:33:02.560 --> 08:33:09.200
sensations or your lower abdomen.

3102
08:33:19.560 --> 08:33:20.520
As you move.

3103
08:33:22.279 --> 08:33:35.400
Your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips and

3104
08:33:35.599 --> 08:33:53.439
inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue. Just

3105
08:33:53.759 --> 08:34:02.360
noticing how your tongue in your mouth feels. It may

3106
08:34:02.639 --> 08:34:11.319
help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it

3107
08:34:11.880 --> 08:34:19.279
to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the side

3108
08:34:19.439 --> 08:34:25.680
of your mouth, and then to the right gently to

3109
08:34:25.840 --> 08:34:32.479
the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the

3110
08:34:33.799 --> 08:34:40.599
top of your mouth, and then down gently against the

3111
08:34:40.680 --> 08:34:51.799
bottom of your mouth, ays very slowly in a very

3112
08:34:54.439 --> 08:35:11.759
very gentle so that you can beware of how you

3113
08:35:12.200 --> 08:35:34.319
feel in your mouth area. Now I'm going to focus

3114
08:35:36.639 --> 08:35:51.360
on your wrists, and I'll ask you to maybe just

3115
08:35:52.520 --> 08:36:01.000
routine your wrists by moving your hands in a circular

3116
08:36:01.400 --> 08:36:11.159
motion very gently and slowly, just.

3117
08:36:12.880 --> 08:36:14.279
So you can.

3118
08:36:19.959 --> 08:36:38.959
Feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your wrists.

3119
08:36:43.080 --> 08:36:46.000
Perhaps move in your hands.

3120
08:36:47.319 --> 08:36:48.680
Up and down.

3121
08:36:51.159 --> 08:37:18.479
Again very very gently and slowly, very gentle and slow.

3122
08:37:31.919 --> 08:37:32.959
As you now.

3123
08:37:35.400 --> 08:37:49.919
Start to observe a lower back. The back part is

3124
08:37:51.599 --> 08:38:07.279
just above of your hips, where your cocksix are a

3125
08:38:07.520 --> 08:38:14.400
whole area which also really does include the science of

3126
08:38:14.520 --> 08:38:25.319
your body, because those muscles are very much connected. There's

3127
08:38:25.400 --> 08:38:32.439
those muscles also move into your hip area, connecting to

3128
08:38:32.599 --> 08:38:47.560
your buttics the sides of your hips, and if you're

3129
08:38:48.799 --> 08:38:59.720
physically able to do so, maybe can very gently just

3130
08:39:00.439 --> 08:39:13.919
move body ever slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

3131
08:39:17.639 --> 08:39:33.599
just enough ye to gauge how you feel in your

3132
08:39:33.759 --> 08:39:51.880
lower back. Perhaps secret even move your hips gently up

3133
08:39:51.959 --> 08:40:08.560
and down gently, slowly, in order to be in touch

3134
08:40:11.159 --> 08:40:34.599
with the physical sensations of your lower back as we

3135
08:40:34.919 --> 08:40:50.520
now live. Your attention to your jewel, the area for

3136
08:40:50.759 --> 08:40:55.959
your chin, all the way up to near where your

3137
08:40:56.159 --> 08:41:01.040
ears are, all.

3138
08:41:00.799 --> 08:41:15.680
Of your jaw. You can just yeah, it's okay to

3139
08:41:15.880 --> 08:41:16.240
do so.

3140
08:41:18.200 --> 08:41:28.680
Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

3141
08:41:29.439 --> 08:41:44.599
gently and slowly opening your mouthing, closing your mouth very

3142
08:41:44.919 --> 08:42:10.159
gently and slowly, so you can be in touch with

3143
08:42:10.479 --> 08:42:46.840
how you Joe feels now. I't to sit now the

3144
08:42:47.159 --> 08:43:02.159
chest area. You don't need to do anything to move

3145
08:43:02.279 --> 08:43:13.840
your chest because it moves every time you breath. It

3146
08:43:14.159 --> 08:43:28.599
moves very gently and slowly, automatically with each bread you take.

3147
08:43:35.639 --> 08:43:42.680
As you focus on how your chest.

3148
08:43:47.560 --> 08:43:48.040
Feels.

3149
08:43:53.319 --> 08:44:28.360
When you prey, move in your focus to your forearms,

3150
08:44:30.919 --> 08:44:47.040
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently that's slowly

3151
08:44:49.479 --> 08:44:58.040
tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

3152
08:44:58.520 --> 08:45:22.080
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

3153
08:45:30.560 --> 08:45:51.040
gently and softly o sad your forearms and dolopers.

3154
08:46:01.759 --> 08:46:01.799
No.

3155
08:46:10.799 --> 08:46:29.439
Focus the rest of your back, your upper back in

3156
08:46:29.799 --> 08:46:47.799
the middle, the middle of your back again, this part

3157
08:46:48.000 --> 08:47:02.599
of your body. News Also, every time you pray, you

3158
08:47:02.880 --> 08:47:13.959
may not notice that. Usually the sho observe.

3159
08:47:16.040 --> 08:47:17.119
Your upper back.

3160
08:47:17.560 --> 08:47:25.080
In the middle of your back, you can really feel

3161
08:47:27.560 --> 08:47:30.599
that shinto.

3162
08:47:35.919 --> 08:47:37.240
End s.

3163
08:47:42.720 --> 08:48:31.959
Moment moving your focus into area the butter as the gray,

3164
08:48:34.680 --> 08:49:09.360
there's muscles and those bones in your midsection. Just notice

3165
08:49:09.439 --> 08:49:16.560
sound how your hips feel.

3166
08:49:19.759 --> 08:49:28.560
Right now, you can.

3167
08:49:31.000 --> 08:49:44.599
Very very gently move your hips, maybe side to side

3168
08:49:46.159 --> 08:49:48.000
very gently and.

3169
08:49:51.000 --> 08:50:21.919
S yeah, sorrow.

3170
08:50:29.759 --> 08:50:29.799
M.

3171
08:50:36.560 --> 08:50:53.319
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

3172
08:50:53.439 --> 08:51:05.200
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

3173
08:51:05.279 --> 08:51:11.759
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

3174
08:51:13.080 --> 08:51:21.840
It's almost like time is storing chin. It's a slower

3175
08:51:22.000 --> 08:51:29.880
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

3176
08:51:29.919 --> 08:51:51.959
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

3177
08:51:56.319 --> 08:52:04.759
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

3178
08:52:04.840 --> 08:52:12.599
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

3179
08:52:12.720 --> 08:52:15.479
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

3180
08:52:16.279 --> 08:52:23.680
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

3181
08:52:28.639 --> 08:52:41.000
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

3182
08:52:41.240 --> 08:53:02.119
move from that big movement into those smaller movements, starting

3183
08:53:02.279 --> 08:53:13.080
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

3184
08:53:13.119 --> 08:53:17.439
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

3185
08:53:17.520 --> 08:53:23.639
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

3186
08:53:24.919 --> 08:53:31.520
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

3187
08:53:31.799 --> 08:53:43.000
notice that your body begins to present to you small

3188
08:53:44.119 --> 08:54:04.479
feelings around your body, small physical sensations, legs, whether pleasurable

3189
08:54:05.680 --> 08:54:19.639
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

3190
08:54:19.759 --> 08:54:27.520
to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about

3191
08:54:27.560 --> 08:54:43.759
them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned,

3192
08:54:44.919 --> 08:55:00.319
but just noticing what your body is telling you. Things

3193
08:55:00.360 --> 08:55:06.680
in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

3194
08:55:08.080 --> 08:55:17.319
maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

3195
08:55:21.439 --> 08:55:30.639
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

3196
08:55:30.799 --> 08:55:46.919
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, just being

3197
08:55:47.000 --> 08:55:55.840
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

3198
08:55:55.880 --> 08:56:07.240
a certain feeling. Maybe you're left wrist also has its

3199
08:56:07.360 --> 08:56:28.080
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on your

3200
08:56:28.200 --> 08:56:40.479
right arm, your right forearm, there may not be any

3201
08:56:41.040 --> 08:56:48.279
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

3202
08:56:52.000 --> 08:56:56.360
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

3203
08:56:57.279 --> 08:57:09.360
You know it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

3204
08:57:09.439 --> 08:57:13.159
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

3205
08:57:13.360 --> 08:57:20.040
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling almost

3206
08:57:20.159 --> 08:57:23.000
like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

3207
08:57:24.840 --> 08:57:35.880
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

3208
08:57:36.000 --> 08:57:44.200
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

3209
08:57:44.360 --> 08:57:49.759
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

3210
08:57:49.880 --> 08:58:15.439
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder, your

3211
08:58:15.520 --> 08:58:31.400
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

3212
08:58:32.200 --> 08:58:42.919
the right side of your lower back. Of course that

3213
08:58:43.119 --> 08:58:55.520
connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and also

3214
08:58:55.759 --> 08:59:09.479
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

3215
08:59:09.840 --> 08:59:13.319
like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

3216
08:59:14.720 --> 08:59:19.119
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

3217
08:59:19.159 --> 08:59:23.279
on the middle of my back, it almost felt like

3218
08:59:23.479 --> 08:59:28.240
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

3219
08:59:33.000 --> 08:59:38.279
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

3220
08:59:38.360 --> 08:59:47.159
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

3221
08:59:47.240 --> 08:59:59.520
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

3222
08:59:59.560 --> 09:00:18.720
lower back. Hmm comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

3223
09:00:26.319 --> 09:00:39.720
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

3224
09:00:40.000 --> 09:00:56.240
right now. And there's so much of the chest obviously

3225
09:00:56.319 --> 09:00:59.880
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

3226
09:00:59.919 --> 09:01:08.599
the chest bone, you've got the muscles in your chest.

3227
09:01:11.400 --> 09:01:18.240
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. Your male.

3228
09:01:20.000 --> 09:01:20.639
You've got the.

3229
09:01:23.479 --> 09:01:29.000
Different well why not that different these days, But there

3230
09:01:29.080 --> 09:01:34.279
may be more muscles at the top of the chest,

3231
09:01:37.639 --> 09:01:41.919
but at the side underneath, it's pretty much the same.

3232
09:01:42.720 --> 09:01:45.759
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

3233
09:01:47.119 --> 09:01:52.240
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

3234
09:01:52.319 --> 09:02:00.959
breast tissue stretches and moves into your back. To just

3235
09:02:01.040 --> 09:02:20.599
being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there

3236
09:02:20.759 --> 09:02:40.959
is in your chest. Well, I noticed I focus on

3237
09:02:41.080 --> 09:02:49.520
my chest, I feel it in my back up the back.

3238
09:02:50.959 --> 09:02:54.040
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

3239
09:02:54.080 --> 09:03:04.000
you know, I'm breathe in in, and it stretches my

3240
09:03:04.319 --> 09:03:15.119
chest and my back at the same time. It feels

3241
09:03:18.439 --> 09:03:27.080
it feels okay, it doesn't feel.

3242
09:03:29.439 --> 09:03:31.639
I got a little bit of pain in my right.

3243
09:03:33.400 --> 09:03:39.520
Chest, a little bit not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe.

3244
09:03:41.040 --> 09:03:49.520
Stiffness possibly, I don't know. I notice my shoulders also

3245
09:03:51.240 --> 09:03:51.919
wanting to.

3246
09:03:54.200 --> 09:03:58.880
Flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

3247
09:03:59.080 --> 09:04:08.040
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders martha back,

3248
09:04:09.880 --> 09:04:13.880
because I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles

3249
09:04:14.639 --> 09:04:22.880
in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which

3250
09:04:22.959 --> 09:04:29.000
then moves. I think it's the scapulous in your back.

3251
09:04:39.040 --> 09:04:46.720
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

3252
09:04:47.040 --> 09:04:51.799
is you can, if you want to, you can just

3253
09:04:55.400 --> 09:05:07.040
flax or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

3254
09:05:08.520 --> 09:05:11.959
in order to get more of the sense of how

3255
09:05:12.080 --> 09:05:26.959
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you do tense

3256
09:05:27.040 --> 09:05:30.959
and muscle and you let it go and you let

3257
09:05:31.000 --> 09:05:40.040
it relax, it relaxes way more than it would normally.

3258
09:05:44.959 --> 09:05:50.240
And you have to feel that you're able to do that.

3259
09:05:51.840 --> 09:05:55.639
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

3260
09:05:57.560 --> 09:06:03.040
with the per part of your body. You need to

3261
09:06:03.119 --> 09:06:13.519
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply.

3262
09:06:16.519 --> 09:06:31.760
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

3263
09:06:31.959 --> 09:06:43.040
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

3264
09:06:43.160 --> 09:07:09.519
we started this recording? How come and peaceful is your

3265
09:07:09.639 --> 09:07:21.760
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

3266
09:07:22.080 --> 09:07:29.440
just my voice to listen to. Because you know, the

3267
09:07:29.639 --> 09:07:40.360
intention behind this recording is relaxation. At the very least,

3268
09:07:41.959 --> 09:07:46.519
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

3269
09:07:46.559 --> 09:07:54.760
the recording than you did at the beginning at the

3270
09:07:54.959 --> 09:08:08.680
very least, mind to slow down because your body continues

3271
09:08:10.760 --> 09:08:18.279
to relax, because that's.

3272
09:08:18.360 --> 09:08:18.919
What you.

3273
09:08:20.519 --> 09:08:41.519
Want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, a relaxation,

3274
09:08:44.839 --> 09:09:00.319
to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind to

3275
09:09:00.480 --> 09:09:34.720
the point of boredom. When you start maybe to drift away, drifting,

3276
09:09:48.360 --> 09:09:58.040
it's almost as if you're moving further away from the

3277
09:09:58.199 --> 09:10:12.239
body in your mind, just leaving there. Kind of liking

3278
09:10:12.319 --> 09:10:17.680
it an escape pod in the spaceship a movie, a

3279
09:10:17.879 --> 09:10:20.199
space movie, you know, I mean, it gets a little

3280
09:10:20.319 --> 09:10:26.839
pard in it sends the man far away from the

3281
09:10:26.959 --> 09:11:35.919
spaceship save to dream and continue to relax terrific so slo.

3282
09:11:48.800 --> 09:11:49.160
And be.

3283
09:12:20.239 --> 09:12:54.839
And peaceful and focusing on that feeling. Are those individual

3284
09:12:55.319 --> 09:13:03.120
parts your body that's relaxing.

3285
09:13:04.400 --> 09:13:13.360
One by one? You may.

3286
09:13:15.040 --> 09:13:28.720
Find that every now and then you realize that you

3287
09:13:28.879 --> 09:13:37.519
are listening to my voice because your mind started to

3288
09:13:37.760 --> 09:13:53.000
imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into some

3289
09:13:53.319 --> 09:14:01.720
kind of a dreamy state, and then you become aware

3290
09:14:01.919 --> 09:14:11.160
of my voice again. And even though you may want

3291
09:14:11.400 --> 09:14:16.279
to focus on my voice, you may also wish to

3292
09:14:18.839 --> 09:14:30.400
allow your mind to just drift naturally into that space

3293
09:14:30.720 --> 09:14:54.680
of comfort and safety as you feel more comfort spreading

3294
09:14:55.080 --> 09:15:07.800
through your body like a warm get covering you gently,

3295
09:15:11.839 --> 09:15:30.239
keeping your body at just the perfect temperature. Even if

3296
09:15:30.319 --> 09:15:42.279
you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem to

3297
09:15:43.440 --> 09:15:59.639
matter anymore. There's that sensor. Peace spreads through your mind

3298
09:16:06.800 --> 09:16:13.599
like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to blow away

3299
09:16:17.519 --> 09:16:33.160
all negativity, strong enough to remove from your mind any

3300
09:16:33.279 --> 09:16:48.080
anxiety or stress that was there before, and blow away

3301
09:16:48.319 --> 09:16:53.519
any other thoughts or feelings that.

3302
09:16:55.959 --> 09:16:58.879
Just don't fit.

3303
09:17:02.800 --> 09:17:27.720
With the sense relaxation that is really your body and

3304
09:17:28.000 --> 09:17:44.519
your mind. As your focus on.

3305
09:17:44.639 --> 09:17:51.160
Your mind, we count down from ten down to wind.

3306
09:17:52.599 --> 09:17:59.519
With each number you hear, your mind.

3307
09:18:02.199 --> 09:18:03.160
Will become.

3308
09:18:08.879 --> 09:18:28.480
Slightly more relaxed, just just slightly more, from ten down

3309
09:18:28.599 --> 09:18:35.639
to nine, just a slight movement. From nine down to eight,

3310
09:18:36.919 --> 09:18:53.360
just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

3311
09:18:53.480 --> 09:19:01.319
to seven. That feeling is a gap, almost like a

3312
09:19:01.839 --> 09:19:07.680
gap that starts to get the wider, the gap between

3313
09:19:08.839 --> 09:19:15.319
those feelings that you used to have in your mind

3314
09:19:18.639 --> 09:19:25.879
compared to the feelings you have there growing now, feelings

3315
09:19:25.959 --> 09:19:36.879
of comfort and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider.

3316
09:19:38.559 --> 09:19:45.760
Eight down to seven, seven down to six. When we

3317
09:19:45.879 --> 09:19:52.239
get to five the mind will start to have a

3318
09:19:52.720 --> 09:20:05.879
certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

3319
09:20:05.959 --> 09:20:14.760
your head sucking pretension and stress and any remaining feedings

3320
09:20:15.120 --> 09:20:20.519
that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

3321
09:20:26.279 --> 09:20:29.680
And in down to four, you.

3322
09:20:29.760 --> 09:20:38.440
Can start to really experience that sense of not just emptiness,

3323
09:20:38.680 --> 09:20:52.519
but space, place full of fresh air, the place where

3324
09:20:52.559 --> 09:20:59.000
you can stretch. It's almost as if as you go

3325
09:20:59.199 --> 09:21:04.559
down to four and three, your mind is expanding with

3326
09:21:04.959 --> 09:21:07.040
this sense.

3327
09:21:09.680 --> 09:21:10.959
Of peace.

3328
09:21:12.360 --> 09:21:15.120
And tranquility growing.

3329
09:21:17.279 --> 09:21:25.839
And moves down to When you get to one, your mind.

3330
09:21:28.839 --> 09:21:40.279
Just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost the

3331
09:21:40.519 --> 09:21:55.440
perfect feeling, maybe the sensation that you'd like to keep

3332
09:21:58.680 --> 09:22:01.959
a place that's say, where.

3333
09:22:03.239 --> 09:22:21.919
Nothing can affect you at all, and you can.

3334
09:22:21.959 --> 09:22:31.080
Stay in that that space and conform confidence, confident in

3335
09:22:31.199 --> 09:22:39.319
your own ability to create this space and this feeling

3336
09:22:39.639 --> 09:22:46.800
of comfort within your own mind just by accounting ten.

3337
09:22:48.360 --> 09:22:49.080
Down to one.

3338
09:22:53.639 --> 09:22:58.160
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3339
09:22:58.239 --> 09:23:05.480
you're on your own, the time when you can maybe

3340
09:23:05.720 --> 09:23:14.279
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes,

3341
09:23:18.120 --> 09:23:29.800
just counts slowly from ten down to one, and we

3342
09:23:30.040 --> 09:23:34.360
experience these feelings.

3343
09:23:35.360 --> 09:23:36.120
In your mind.

3344
09:23:42.000 --> 09:23:46.279
And when you feel that way in your mind. Your

3345
09:23:46.360 --> 09:24:00.919
body copies your mind, and that feeling is break through

3346
09:24:01.120 --> 09:24:08.239
your spine and a nervous system into every part of

3347
09:24:08.360 --> 09:24:20.919
your body, travels through your blood stream, breathing and relaxing

3348
09:24:23.120 --> 09:24:41.080
every particle of your existence, and we can we can

3349
09:24:41.279 --> 09:24:49.639
practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

3350
09:24:50.279 --> 09:24:53.639
and then you can practice on your own.

3351
09:24:55.919 --> 09:24:59.160
Each time you count for ten.

3352
09:25:00.000 --> 09:25:14.959
About one, the feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation

3353
09:25:16.199 --> 09:25:36.160
becomes stronger, deeper, really mind brain. With these positive chemicals,

3354
09:25:37.959 --> 09:25:48.080
the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing

3355
09:25:48.239 --> 09:25:50.680
your whole body and mind.

3356
09:25:53.319 --> 09:26:06.400
So very very easily, just the way counting ten down

3357
09:26:06.480 --> 09:26:15.080
to one, so you can do now, I'm gonna count

3358
09:26:15.160 --> 09:26:19.559
from ten down to one. I'd like you to repeat

3359
09:26:19.760 --> 09:26:26.919
the number after me. So when I say ten, you can.

3360
09:26:26.959 --> 09:26:29.680
Just repeat to yourself.

3361
09:26:31.040 --> 09:26:31.239
Ten.

3362
09:26:36.879 --> 09:26:42.000
Just notice, be aware of how you feel.

3363
09:26:45.919 --> 09:26:53.120
In your mind and your body. Then when I say.

3364
09:26:53.199 --> 09:27:10.440
Nine, you can repeat to yourself. Nine became noticing the

3365
09:27:10.839 --> 09:27:15.800
increase in comfort and calm.

3366
09:27:16.559 --> 09:27:27.040
See your mind and in the body the same. Wanna

3367
09:27:27.120 --> 09:27:28.000
say eight.

3368
09:27:30.839 --> 09:27:42.440
When I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

3369
09:27:46.400 --> 09:27:46.680
when I.

3370
09:27:46.760 --> 09:27:58.599
Say three, two and nastly when I say one.

3371
09:28:01.160 --> 09:28:13.040
To be that number. Now, of course, when you do

3372
09:28:13.279 --> 09:28:18.599
this on your own without listening to me, you can

3373
09:28:19.519 --> 09:28:26.239
say the numbers or whatever speed that you feel is

3374
09:28:26.559 --> 09:28:32.279
necessary for you, so you can adapt.

3375
09:28:34.639 --> 09:28:38.120
So if you feel you want to say the numbers

3376
09:28:38.400 --> 09:28:45.279
ten down to one faster than I do, then you.

3377
09:28:45.319 --> 09:28:46.319
Go ahead and do that.

3378
09:28:47.239 --> 09:28:50.919
Or if you feel when you do it yourself, do

3379
09:28:51.040 --> 09:28:57.040
you like to have more more space between the numbers,

3380
09:28:59.639 --> 09:29:06.120
Maybe take a lot longer to get the ten all

3381
09:29:06.639 --> 09:29:13.639
way down to one. That's your choice.

3382
09:29:13.720 --> 09:29:14.599
All say it to do.

3383
09:29:24.639 --> 09:29:26.480
So I'm gonna count from ten.

3384
09:29:26.559 --> 09:29:27.279
Down to one.

3385
09:29:33.120 --> 09:29:34.120
Can I get to one?

3386
09:29:35.480 --> 09:29:38.120
That will be the end of this recording.

3387
09:29:40.559 --> 09:29:44.199
And let's of course you're listening with music, and the

3388
09:29:44.360 --> 09:29:53.800
music will continue ten.

3389
09:30:05.919 --> 09:35:00.800
Noaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa foo twenty ninety eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty

3390
09:35:05.639 --> 09:35:56.279
twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two.

3391
09:36:02.559 --> 09:36:11.959
One. Now open your.

3392
09:36:11.879 --> 09:36:22.480
Eyes, noticing how you physically feel having count down from

3393
09:36:22.559 --> 09:36:29.519
twenty to one, allowing stress attention.

3394
09:36:29.760 --> 09:36:32.559
To leave through your fingertips and your tools.

3395
09:36:34.080 --> 09:36:37.160
And as you focus on your fingertips.

3396
09:36:38.040 --> 09:36:44.160
Maybe they feel a little bit tingly, which is I

3397
09:36:44.239 --> 09:36:49.279
suppose quite an understanding considering attention has been exiting your

3398
09:36:49.319 --> 09:36:58.519
body through your fingertips. So now I'm going to count.

3399
09:36:58.319 --> 09:37:05.480
From twenty down to one again. This time you need

3400
09:37:05.519 --> 09:37:11.800
to feel relief of tension and stress and the anxiety

3401
09:37:11.879 --> 09:37:12.400
that you may.

3402
09:37:12.400 --> 09:37:25.519
Have through your stomach, just leading through your stomach, almost

3403
09:37:25.599 --> 09:37:26.800
as if it's.

3404
09:37:26.879 --> 09:37:33.239
Just releasing to hold your stomach naval.

3405
09:37:34.360 --> 09:37:37.400
To just above your chest or below your chests, right.

3406
09:37:38.440 --> 09:37:41.720
So surrounding your belly by the area, the whole area.

3407
09:37:43.839 --> 09:37:48.400
You can feel the tension of your body where it's left,

3408
09:37:48.680 --> 09:37:54.360
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that your.

3409
09:37:54.319 --> 09:38:02.599
Stomach will become very relaxed. As a countdown twenty, that's one.

3410
09:38:04.239 --> 09:38:08.080
Now twenty.

3411
09:38:12.360 --> 09:39:07.760
Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight,

3412
09:39:11.919 --> 09:39:24.839
seven six fine, ooh.

3413
09:39:28.680 --> 09:39:39.080
Three what.

3414
09:39:44.080 --> 09:39:46.680
You can open your eyes again if you choose, you

3415
09:39:46.839 --> 09:39:50.319
can just keep them clothes and get the girls reaxing.

3416
09:39:52.599 --> 09:39:57.160
Just made you say your stomach gills, that is, as

3417
09:39:57.199 --> 09:40:00.519
your fakes just dottle skinned your body.

3418
09:40:02.480 --> 09:40:04.720
It's not to say your body does.

3419
09:40:05.839 --> 09:40:16.360
Focusing like a body back, chest, stomach, lay sounds and feet,

3420
09:40:19.639 --> 09:40:25.919
not to sing and you know, you may start to

3421
09:40:25.959 --> 09:40:32.559
adore all the sense of tiredness, which may be the

3422
09:40:32.680 --> 09:40:37.040
reason listening to this recording.

3423
09:40:36.599 --> 09:40:37.239
The kids you.

3424
09:40:38.760 --> 09:40:48.440
Like to let go completely if everything corect bork into

3425
09:40:48.559 --> 09:41:04.239
a nice natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now the focus

3426
09:41:07.199 --> 09:41:14.000
and the forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate

3427
09:41:14.120 --> 09:41:19.000
your eyes in this focus as well. With forehead and

3428
09:41:19.120 --> 09:41:25.279
your eyes, it's that whole area basically almost as if

3429
09:41:25.360 --> 09:41:31.319
you were wearing a mask, even like a Batman mask

3430
09:41:31.519 --> 09:41:38.120
or something or or something you know, the kind of

3431
09:41:38.199 --> 09:41:41.279
mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite a

3432
09:41:41.319 --> 09:41:42.120
lot of botead.

3433
09:41:46.040 --> 09:41:49.080
Focusing on that area because that's the area that we're

3434
09:41:49.120 --> 09:41:49.559
now going.

3435
09:41:49.559 --> 09:41:56.080
To release tension, stress from your mind and your brain,

3436
09:41:56.360 --> 09:41:59.839
from your mind, or any tension that you may have

3437
09:42:00.160 --> 09:42:03.440
good meaning your face, your neck.

3438
09:42:04.000 --> 09:42:04.080
You.

3439
09:42:05.760 --> 09:42:13.800
Lies, forehead, or your scalp. So basically any intension within

3440
09:42:13.919 --> 09:42:22.800
your head area go do mind, Angel Green, that's gonna

3441
09:42:22.839 --> 09:42:26.839
be the least three your forehead and your eyes.

3442
09:42:30.800 --> 09:42:32.400
If we count down game.

3443
09:42:33.120 --> 09:43:04.480
Twenty count to one down twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen,

3444
09:43:08.839 --> 09:43:57.559
fourteen thirteen, Joel eleven ten nine eight seven six one

3445
09:44:29.599 --> 09:44:33.639
Skinny face you know.

3446
09:44:35.760 --> 09:44:40.559
Cheap boy.

3447
09:44:41.839 --> 09:44:49.919
Scanned, thank you, thank you science.

3448
09:44:52.800 --> 09:45:01.680
M we had become.

3449
09:45:01.559 --> 09:45:26.760
Priest relaxation, were just head me minds rest like s Tommy,

3450
09:45:28.480 --> 09:45:29.879
how easily.

3451
09:45:31.639 --> 09:45:40.160
It is just like God, the God.

3452
09:45:42.879 --> 09:45:52.279
Thing easily.

3453
09:46:00.199 --> 09:46:11.199
Do now, So talking to head, wow.

3454
09:46:12.559 --> 09:46:25.559
And peace, stretch the wine. Why didn't put it mind?

3455
09:46:28.279 --> 09:46:28.720
It just.

3456
09:46:30.839 --> 09:46:33.120
Sucked down talk.

3457
09:46:41.000 --> 09:46:44.080
Yeah, we'll sat down into.

3458
09:46:43.919 --> 09:46:49.519
The clouds clad.

3459
09:46:51.720 --> 09:47:10.480
Let's suck back. Take now, take away. This makes me

3460
09:47:10.519 --> 09:47:12.519
a good talking about.

3461
09:47:12.319 --> 09:47:19.319
It without tens of stressful even a way issues maybe

3462
09:47:19.519 --> 09:47:23.279
one serve still no east now.

3463
09:47:25.239 --> 09:47:26.400
It s out.

3464
09:47:29.400 --> 09:47:30.120
Take away.

3465
09:47:32.080 --> 09:47:36.239
It's like out down the game. I give out what.

3466
09:47:39.959 --> 09:47:55.839
Now twenty nineteen eighteen.

3467
09:48:01.559 --> 09:50:08.120
SI it's a kid.

3468
09:50:17.319 --> 09:50:34.120
H m m m