April 11, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Q&A Friday | Let me bore you to sleep #1325 | 11th April 2025
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Hello, and welcome to CU and Cunich Cuney Friday, Cooney Cooney,

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Cumbere Friday. My name's Jason Newland. This is Jason Newland

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dot com. Please only listen to one who can safely

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close your eyes. It is eleventh what Friday? The eleventh

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of April two thousand and twenty five. Now little problem. No,

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I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about this what

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I don't really know what to do today because because

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because because because of the wonderful things he does, I

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haven't really had any questions hardly. Now does that mean

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we're at the end of the Q and A Friday.

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Does that mean that's kind of it now we sort

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of stop doing them? Or I don't know. I don't

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know what the what the solution is, if I'm honest.

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So I do have a couple of questions, but and

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I realized one question can take me the whole session.

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But the idea, what's going on? What's that?

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Or right?

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Okay? So maybe my problem is I post them on

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all the different pages and stead of just on the

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Jason Newlands Boring group on Facebook, but posted like the

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any questions. I think the two things that have been

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problematic is first of all, I have produced probably too

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many recordings in a sense that the post hello, do

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you have any questions for this week's Q and A Friday,

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eleventh of April twenty twenty five, which I posted on

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the ninth Wednesday, has got kind of hidden by all

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the other posts that I posted, because you know I've done.

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I did three recordings yesterday. This will be the second

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one today. I did two the day before that, two

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the day before that. So yes, quite a few, I guess.

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So I'm thinking what can I do to cover that?

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So I got questions from Hillary where in high landage

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of visit? And I've got another question from Sebastian. Oh

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that wasn't a question. Well, podcast win, don't make me

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start on my own. So he didn't. I didn't ask

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a question. He posted a picture of do you know?

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On YouTube? But what on Facebook? At the moment there's

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all these pictures of like action figures done by AI

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and people are doing their own ones. Well, he's done

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for me, and it says Uncle Smellie hours of boredom.

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And it's basically a very very short, plump man with

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hardly any hair, wearing pink glasses and says comes with

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several cooled dysfunctionalities ages nine and up, not age is

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five and up. So it yeah, that was his thing

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for me, So it wasn't a question. So I say, hello,

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do you have any questions for this seach Q and

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a Friday Sebastian answers have aware of you of robbing

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yourself by not talking to me. Never mind, I'll keep

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on barding your dms and one day you will have

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to face it. So I say, do you have an

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actual question? And he says, do you like your action figure?

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I designed for you? So no, Sebastian, I don't like it.

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I mean, it's nice that you took the time to

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I don't even know what the right word is to

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be honest, uncle Smellie ours of boredom. I mean, the

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thing is, I don't want to say nice things about him.

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But Sebastian's been doing AI and images and stuff like that.

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Before AI was even about, he was doing and making

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weird making weird images and videos like ten years ago.

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So I'm a little bit scared what he could come

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up with with the new technology. In some of the

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things he's actually posted are very funny. There's one he did.

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Where there's me in a dressing gown and suddenly all

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these people just pulled my dresser gown off and it's

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like a kung fu or karate dojo. So yeah, I

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do like the some of new stuff you post, but

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it's usually it's not aimed at making me feel good

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about myself? Is it a? So? Where all? Guess? Where

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did Thailand? We're entirely to go? So that's that one,

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seems there's any other questions, any other questions, any other questions?

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Nothing on Jason Newland's boring group, Let Me Boy to Sleep.

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Let's see there's anything on that page?

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Oh?

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What come on Jason Newland Hypnosis. Let's all look on

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that page? Is there anything? You never know? There might

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be something? No, nothing on there, Let me Boy to Sleep?

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Anything on there? I wonder why trains make so much noise?

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Sometimes might not be a train? Actually, Oh, I didn't

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seem to post it on that one? Okay, fair enough?

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So did I post it on the Jason Newland Hypnotist?

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All one word? I didn't, okay, fair enough? So the

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ones I posted on I didn't get any other responses,

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so only one question. And I don't believe if I'm correct,

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I've ever had only one question in a week, which

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is it. I'm not concerned as in like no, oh, no,

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what we're going to do, but a little bit like okay,

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because it seems a little bit of a shame to

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wave goodbye to the Q and a Friday, because I've

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kind of got a little bit used to it. It's

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it's almost the first regular thing that I've ever really done.

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Like like I'm saying like a lot Todayn't I regular

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as in, well, okay, we all know what regular means,

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don't me. But I don't know. I don't know what

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the solution is. So I'm thinking, if I go onto

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my website, is there a way general settings? Is there

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a way I can add something to the top of

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the page header and footer header layout? Because I'm thinking

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if there is, I don't I need to I need

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to go to the page. So I go to pages

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because maybe if I can put so if I edit

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that homepage, if I can add a question or a

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button or voice message as well? No not voice menage

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contact form review form. I wonder what the review form

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would do write a review for hypnosis and Sleeping Deeply Blind?

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It no okay that it brings up. It brings up

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a different one for each podcast. So there's too many podcasts.

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It's a big, long old thing. So if I go

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to intake form, what's an intake form?

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Anyone?

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Intake form? Look what this is? Intake form? Your name? Wow? Okay,

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that's a lot of stuff. What if I can Nopes

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not allow me to change stuff? That's no good. No,

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that's that's probably more for me to feell in, isn't it.

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I suppose so people can know where to go. So

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let's do another one. So I'm thinking if I can

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do what would be quite nice if I could just

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have a section and you can ask. So if I

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could put a contact form at the top. And I

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don't know if I'm able to edit the contact form layout.

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I suppose, Yeah, I could put something at the top,

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so you could just put your name in email address

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and your message. I don't know if it allow me

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to edit what's in the form. Doesn't seem to, does

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it seem to. That's just added another one. That's no

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point to that. So maybe I'll do that. I'll put

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that at the top of the page for the Jasonnuland

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dot Com website, and then you can just ask your question,

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you know, add a question that you want for Q

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and A Friday, and I will just write them down,

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keep a track of them and answer them as I

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get them. Well, not I ever get them, but whatever

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I get before that Friday our answer, and then whatever

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I get the following week leading up by answer that

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as well. That makes sense, I think. So I need

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to put a header head in head in head in

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ask question for Q and A Friday. This is real time, baby,

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I'm doing this in real time. But how do I'm

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not used to doing it like this? How do I

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get it to be I don't want largest. I think

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H two is fine. I don't need largest, but I

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do need it to be in the middle. How do

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I get it into the center? Styles typography, font font

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font font font font font there is in many choices

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book antiguy, Well that would be it. I don't know

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old text A line that's it, got it in the middle.

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So is that useful? Ask question for Q and a

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Friday for the next for yeah, I'll update that. So

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let's have a look how it looks on my website

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on the on the phone. Jess and new Land dot

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com Yeah, BlimE me ask question for ask questions for

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Q and a Friday? Should it be more than that?

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Should ask questions? Ask question for ask a question for

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the next Q and A Friday. What would be the

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best way to word it? I don't know? Uh to do? Do? Do?

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I'm going to ask Q and a chat GPT what's

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the best way to word a title? To inform asking

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for questions for the next Q and A Friday? And

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I can't do it myself. I just thought i'd be

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interested to see what it comes up with. Got a

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question for Q and a Friday? See this is better.

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This is Ask me anything Q and a Friday submission

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or submit your question for Q and a Friday. I

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think they ask me anything. I quite like that, so

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what okay, let's get rid of that. Ask me anything

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Q and a Friday submission. Do you think that's okay?

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I think it's what you're doing. So just on new

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Land ask me anything Q and a Friday submission. So

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from now on we'll just see, we'll see and see

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how it goes. So every time I do recording, I'll

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just say you can go to my website ask a

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question for Q and a Friday and just go to

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in fact, what I could do? Oh I could? I

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mean it's going to come on the first page. I

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don't need to have it as a as a separate

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link door. I really a separate page. I might do, though,

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but it's on the very first page. When you go

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to my web fite Jasonnewland dot com, is there, ask

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me anything Q and a Friday submission and you just

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put in your name, put in your email address. You

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can put any email address, doesn't matter. I'm not going

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to respond unless you want me to respond. And then

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there's just a question and just under your message. That's it.

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I could probably change it a little bit, getting make

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it a bit more flashy, but I think that's all right.

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That does the job, doesn't It don't need flashy, just

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need functional, I would argue, So let me know what

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you think about it. So the question really is Thailand?

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So what I thought i'd just maybe talk about Thailand

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as I don't really have. I mean, you know, what

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did I do, where did I go? What did I

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So yeah, I'll just talk about my time in Thailand

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as I don't It's the only question I've got. So

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thank you Hillary and Yeah, that's what I do. I

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think the first time I really heard about Thailand, I

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mean I heard about it when I was a kid,

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to see it on TV, movies and stuff like that.

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I didn't realize the connection with Vietnam and all that stuff,

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didn't know the history of that. But I think it

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was more when I got into Buddhism and learned a

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bit more about Tibet and Japan, China, India, Burma, all

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the different places where Buddhism was and Thailand being a

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Buddhist country. I mean, how many Buddhist countries are there?

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Not many? Right, I need to spell countries correctly, Oh dear,

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I still have to look at the keyboard and the type.

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So there's twelve recognized Buddhist countries in the world where

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Buddhism plays a significant role in shaping the culture. So

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the top ten, really, why is it doing? Whoops? The

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page is gone? Why is the page gone? Right? The

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page is gone? Buddhist by country? Okay, here we go. So, wow,

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there's some countries where there's none recognized.

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I was going to say Afghanistan is thirty one million,

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four hundred and ten Buddhists, But now that's the population

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of the country, there's about ten thousand Buddhists. This is estimate.

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I didn't realize there'd be Anybody's in Afghanistan, Albania, Algeria,

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American Samoa, Andra, Angola about ten thousand, Argentina about ten thousand,

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No twenty thousand, Armenia ten thousand, Alulba ten thousand, Australia

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six hundred thousand. Well, no, Australia. Australia has got quite

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a link to Thailand. There's a link there. It's like,

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I don't know how to express it. There's a lot

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of Australian visitors to Thailand, and I think there's a

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lot of Thailand visitors to Australia. There's a all I think,

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a good positive connection. I might be wrong, but it

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seems like it's almost like a a family, like they're

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related in some way, a bit like maybe England and Ireland.

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There's always going to be that connection, regardless of the

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blamely some of the weird history that went on. There's

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I think the average person in England would think of

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Ireland as being what I do. Did I tell you

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I'm forty eight percent Irish? I would I'm going to

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you know I'm going to be saying that until I'm ninety.

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It would never get boring for me. So yeah, I

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think Australia's a six hundred thousand. I dodn't think it

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would be that many, so it's quite a high. It's

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two point still, namely two point seven percent. Austria twenty thousand,

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alger Baijan ten thousand. I might mispronounce some of these

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words names. Bahamas ten thousand, and Bahrain thirty thousand, Bangladesh

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a million, a million and one thousand, so that doesn't

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surprise me. But there is one hundred and forty eight million,

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six hundred and ninety thousand people there, so it's still

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zero point six percent. So it's still a very very

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tiny percentage. But when you consider that India is where

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Buddhism came from, and the history of Bangladesh and all

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the other parts of that area sort of you know,

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with the religions and stuff. So yeah, the Barbados ten thousand,

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Blaris ten thousand, Belgium thirty thousand Buddhists, so it's zero

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it's still zero point two percent. That's weird. I just

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they've got ten million people in Belgium thirty thousand is

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zero point two percent, is it thirty thousand, three hundred thousand,

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three million. Yeah, I suppose blindly, so it's a very

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small amount. Just it seems like quite a few people.

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So yeah, thirty thousand, believes ten thousand, ben In ten thousand,

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Bermuda ten thousand. Used to be more, but they just

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keep disappearing. Do do Do Do Do do do? Don't

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hear about the Muda Triangle anymore?

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Do?

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We used to be such a big thing. It's like

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the Yetty and the Lockmous Monster, and you know, there's

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TV shows and movies about it, and it's almost like

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no one cares anymore. I still care. Bhutan is one

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of the most famous Buddhist countries. Seventy four point seven

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percent of the country is Buddhist five hundred and forty thousand,

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so seven hundred and thirty thousand people live in Bhutan.

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Seventy four point seven percent is big. So I'd quite

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like to go there. I'm because for me, it's it

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might I know something that, oh, you're going to Thailand.

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It's just to.

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Have a party lifestyle and stuff. It wasn't that party life.

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I've never been a party lifestyle person in my life,

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even when I was young and fruity, I didn't never

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did never, just wasn't really a crowd person. The only

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place I ever felt comfortable in my life as an adult,

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like out like socially, I mean, would be the comedy

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club that used to frequent and I loved that place.

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It was the only place I really felt at home.

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So Bolivia ten thousand, zero point one percent, Botswana ten thousand,

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So I'm surprised that there's any just because some of

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the cultures ten ten thousand, two million people in Botswana.

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Brazil two hundred and fifty thousand. Again, I'm surprised at that.

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I didn't realize there'd be that many in Brazil. Brunei

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thirty thousand, eight point six percent. So that's interesting because

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Brunei is I think it's not known for being a

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Buddhist place, is it, But it's got one of our higher

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percentages in the world. You've got Bulgaria ten thousand. I

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didn't think there'd be any Buddhists in Bulgaria, Burkina Faso

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ten thousand, because these are very Catholic or Christian countries.

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Bulgaria is pretty sure Cambodia Wa Bam Van Cambodia. There's

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fourteen million, one hundred and forty thousand people living in Cambodia.

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How many people do you think are Buddhists according to

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these statistics, thirteen million, six hundred and ninety thousand, ninety

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six point nine percent in Cambodia. Wow, Cameroon ten thousand, Canada,

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Canada two hundred and eighty thousand. So that's cool a

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very tiny amount percentage wise, because it's thirty four million

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in Canada. Chad. I've got no idea where that is,

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Sir ten thousand? Which is Chad? Is it near Brazil? Chile?

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Ten thousand? China? See this surprises me. I know, it

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doesn't really surprise me, but it kind of surprises me

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now considering just the way that China is portrayed in

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the West media that there's no freedom. Well, according to

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this is two hundred and forty four million, one hundred

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and thirty thousand Buddhists in China out of one point

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three out of one point three billion, so as eighteen

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point two percent. Again, one of the countries that one

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of the world's highest proportions of Buddhists. So I'd like

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to go to China. I'd like to go and visit

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the Buddhist temples and maybe even stay in one for

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a while. But I don't know what the rules are anymore.

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Just I really don't know regarding going to China and

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if we're allowed to go there, And I know there's

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Chinese people will listen to this recording, So hello, See

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there's people from Russia put it from China. There's people

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from all over the world, and some countries that block

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maybe the Western Internet, they just use VPNs and they

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get through that way. So it looks like I've got

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someone from maybe I don't know, trying to feel the country,

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Holland or Brussels or.

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Scotland.

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But actually they're listening from China because they've got a

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VPN and they just put more of a Western country

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down so they can listen. So Hello, Hello my Chinese friends,

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my Russian friends, my Egyptian friends, Costa Rican friends, my

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Cuban friends, Denmark friends. Believe I can't mind Bermuda friends,

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mind you. I used to have more more listeners from Bermuda,

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but for some reason they just keep vanishing. See I'm

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going to keep doing it. I can't help it. Sorry,

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I have no control. So China is definitely a place

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I'd like to go to visit because it's a because

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of the Buddhism, really Costa Rica, Croatia, ten thousand, Cyprus, Kuba.

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I'm thinking this is just out loud, which is where

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they're put in ten thousand, is they don't know, they're

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just guessing. France there's two hundred. I imagine they're guessing anyway.

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But France, you've got two hundred and eighty thousand, which

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is zero point five percent out sixty two million, seven

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hundred and ninety. So France has got less people than

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the UK, more than the United Kingdom. Germany eighty two

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eighty two million, three hundred thousand, so they've got more people,

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but they've got two hundred and ten thousand Buddhists. Ghana

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ten thousand, Greece, Guam, Guatemala, Guinea, Guyana, Haiti, Honduras, they've

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all got that ten thousand. Hong Kong is got thirteen

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point two percent, which is nine hundred and thirty thousand.

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But that's in China, isn't it controversial? Sorry? Seven million,

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fifty and that's a separate place. But it's now part

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of China, isn't it Hong Kong? So it's nine hundred

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and thirty thousand. That's blimey, that's good amount. Hungary ten thousand,

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Iceland ten thousand, India nine million, two hundred and fifty thousand,

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which is where Buddhism originated from. Some people think it

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originated from China, but it was India originated from India

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one point two billion, so zero point eight percent still

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a small amount in India, I think used to be

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a Buddhist country and then changed. I think it's gone

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through different phrases over the years. Indonese year two million

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and two million and sixty two thousand, one hundred and

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fifty so that's BlimE There's two hundred and sixty six

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million people and a half million people living there, so

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Iran ten thousand, Iraq ten thousand. See I didn't that surprisingly,

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just because I thought I didn't think they'd be allowed.

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But then that's just the way that these countries are

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portrayed on the news. Maybe there is more freedom, more

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religious freedom than is you know, presented in the media.

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What else we got Italy one hundred and ten thousand

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out sixty million Jamaica ten thousand, Japan forty five million,

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eight hundred and twenty thousand, so out of one hundred

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and twenty six and a half million, So it's thirty

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six point two percent. So I knew Japan would be large.

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I was well, I thought it might be larger, but nope,

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it's still thirty six point two percent. Still one of

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the largest ones in the country in the world. Keeps

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saying country South Korea eleven million, our forty eight millions

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is twenty two point nine percent. South Korea Kuwait is

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eighty thousand our two point seven million, So that's that's interesting.

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Laos four point one million million our six point two million,

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so sixty six point one percent. And you've got other

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countries leven and Latvia, lesofa Liberia girl who came and

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you changed my world, Libya, Leitchenstein, Lithuania, Luxeenbourg, they'd like

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ten thousand a part of Libya's twenty thousand according to this,

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Macau or Mecca Macau ninety thousand, seventeen point three percent.

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That's quite high. BPP. Malaysia five million out of twenty

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eight point four million, so that's nineteen point eight percent.

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Mexico Mauritius, Martinic Mutinik, Malta, Mali, Maldives ten thousand. Blimey,

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I didn't realize there's so many countries, so I just

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skipped to the ones where there's actually a lot of people,

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because this is getting ridiculous, This is not this is

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taking forever forever. I tell you Laos four million point

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one hundred Malaysia did I do that? Five million? So

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that's nineteen point eight percent, Mongolia one point five million,

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fifty five point one percent, Burma or Mayan mar thirty

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eight point four million, it's eighty nine point nine percent,

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Nepal eight two point four million, eight point two percent

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New Zealand fifty two thousand. And then you've got Netherlands

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forty thousand, Norway thirty thousand, so it's still a small proportion.

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Then you've got fifty thousand in Peru, still a small

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proportion of the people, sixty thousand in Portugal, one hundred

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and seventy thousand in Russia. Wow, okay, cool ninety thousand.

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I mean it's one hundred and forty two point nine

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million people in Russia according to this, so it's zero

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point one percent, So it's very small percentage ninety thousand

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in Saudi Arabia, Singapore one point seven million, so thirty

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three point nine percent. And then you've got Sri Lanka

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fourteen point four million, sixty nine point three percent, Taiwan

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four point nine million, it's twenty one point three percent,

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Thailand sixty four point four million, ninety three point two percent,

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and then you've got Vietnam fourteen point three million, sixteen

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point four percent. So really, if I go to the

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just to the percentages, just to the percentages. So Cambodia's

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top a ninety six point nine percent, thirteen point six million,

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but Thailand ninety three point two percent second, but it's

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got a lot more Buddhists, sixty four point four million.

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So that's why I went to Thailand. That's why I

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wanted to go there for quite a few years. And

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there was a few things that appeal to me. Just

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seems like, what would it be like to be in

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a Buddhist environment unlike here where the Buddhists go to

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a center and it's not this is not a Buddhist country,

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and this is where I live, and it's kind of

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all kind of behind closed doors, kind of for the Buddhists.

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I mean, it's you're free to practice in this country

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whatever you want to do. But I think the general

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public probably don't ever hear about Buddhists. They don't make

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a fuss. I don't, you know, it's kind of quiet, quiet,

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i'd say. But in Thailand the thing, So I'll go

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through the thing. There's a thing in Thailand they've got.

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I saw this myself, and I've seen it on videos

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on YouTube. There is a the monks. Because I visited

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the monastery. It's on this massive, massive, massive hill and

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the steps and it was hard walking up there. If

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I was going to do it again and have to

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be early morning or in the evening because it's way

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too hot, or have someone carry me. When I say someone,

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I mean putting someone dragged me. It'd have to be

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a horse or something. And the wow, China has got

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more Buddhists than anywhere. I just realized that, BlimE me,

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China's got the most Buddhists. China, it's just it's not

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the biggest percentage. That two hundred and forty four million

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Chinese Buddhists, and then Thailand's second at sixty four. So

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I realized I couldn't just go to China. There's visas

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and well it's visas for Thailand as well, but it's

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a lot easier what it was just to go to Thailand.

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And basically what happened is I wanted to go. I've

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not really talked about this, but I received a back

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payment which was owed to me from money that I

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should have been getting and I didn't going back for

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a few years, so they called me up and sent

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that to me. So what I did is I at

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the time, paid off my debts, paid off bills, paid

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off phone contracts, paid off all the different things, got

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some new equipment for this place, you know, for the recording,

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and gave some of it away to friends. And then

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that's when I went over to a fort you go

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to Thailand. So I did got the did during there

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was still needed a COVID pass at that time, even

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though we was out out of it in Thailand. That

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was still all wearing masks and also in the airports

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and all that stuff, not in England but in Thailand

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and on the plane. If you can believe that I

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had to wear a mask for twelve hours, you know,

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when it came to eating because there was two meals

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during that time. I have never spent so long chewing

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on a little bit of food as I did that day.

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I must have spent about three hours eating my dinner

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because it was such a break to not have that

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mask on, because it was very, very stifling, you know,

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I had to sort of be stuck with it. And

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they kick around telling people, put your mask on, put

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your mask on. I mean, it's nice that, you know,

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the good thing about that period is I wasn't I

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was being asked to put a mask on because everyone

467
00:41:13.800 --> 00:41:16.000
else had to not just to cover up my face

468
00:41:16.719 --> 00:41:21.000
for other people because they were complaining. So it's nice,

469
00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:27.760
you know, there's a reason for it. And so got there.

470
00:41:28.079 --> 00:41:38.000
What was weird is so I got my friend to

471
00:41:38.039 --> 00:41:40.719
look after my flat. I wasn't gone for long anyway,

472
00:41:42.079 --> 00:41:44.920
a couple of weeks or whatever, but it just had

473
00:41:44.960 --> 00:41:55.079
to because I'd lost Andrea a few months earlier, and

474
00:41:55.159 --> 00:41:57.159
I was very aimless at that time. You know, I

475
00:41:57.199 --> 00:41:58.480
was living on my own, a game. I didn't have

476
00:41:58.519 --> 00:42:00.480
anyone with me, but I had onto with me for

477
00:42:00.679 --> 00:42:02.840
six years, five to six and a half years or whatever.

478
00:42:03.199 --> 00:42:06.760
Five and a half years. It's before I got Vinnie.

479
00:42:07.039 --> 00:42:08.480
I got Vin at the end of the year. At

480
00:42:08.480 --> 00:42:15.280
that year two thousand and twenty three. I think it

481
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:23.119
was so I just thought, or was it twenty two?

482
00:42:23.239 --> 00:42:27.920
I really lose track. I think it probably twenty two,

483
00:42:28.039 --> 00:42:30.320
wasn't it twenty twenty one?

484
00:42:30.360 --> 00:42:30.480
Two?

485
00:42:30.519 --> 00:42:37.719
Yeah, twenty twenty two, endo, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four,

486
00:42:37.800 --> 00:42:42.519
twenty yeah, yeah, twenty two. Yeah, So it's it was

487
00:42:42.760 --> 00:42:52.440
twenty twenty two, And so I go over I didn't.

488
00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:56.119
I booked a hotel, I booked. It's just, you know,

489
00:42:56.280 --> 00:43:00.920
just everything over there is fairly cheap, an expensive place

490
00:43:01.000 --> 00:43:05.840
to go. The airfares are now like they went up

491
00:43:05.840 --> 00:43:09.800
to about double three times the amount because just after

492
00:43:10.920 --> 00:43:14.719
that whole period the fuel went up. So I managed

493
00:43:14.760 --> 00:43:17.440
to go there before the air price the air flights

494
00:43:17.480 --> 00:43:23.719
went up. And I had a couple of things in

495
00:43:23.800 --> 00:43:27.960
mind what I wanted to do. I was open to

496
00:43:28.000 --> 00:43:32.239
the idea of meeting someone because I was led to

497
00:43:32.280 --> 00:43:36.480
believe it's a very friendly place and maybe I might

498
00:43:36.519 --> 00:43:40.199
meet a female and go on dates and who knows.

499
00:43:40.800 --> 00:43:44.119
I didn't know, but I was open to it. And

500
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:46.599
that is the kind of place. It's very friendly. People

501
00:43:46.639 --> 00:43:51.320
are friendly there. There's no what I did find out

502
00:43:51.519 --> 00:43:55.360
is talking to some of the tie girls, the Thai ladies.

503
00:43:57.360 --> 00:44:02.880
To them, they're very very up front, very straight, don't

504
00:44:02.920 --> 00:44:06.880
mince their words. And one of them said to me,

505
00:44:06.920 --> 00:44:11.119
you know, you all look the same to us, So

506
00:44:11.159 --> 00:44:12.480
what do you mean, So do you just all are

507
00:44:12.480 --> 00:44:15.320
the same. You've all got big noses, because here I've

508
00:44:15.320 --> 00:44:20.719
got a big nose, but in Thailand pretty much all

509
00:44:20.760 --> 00:44:23.679
Westerners have got big noses because they've got little noses

510
00:44:23.719 --> 00:44:27.039
over there. So it's that in their mind, like you

511
00:44:27.159 --> 00:44:30.760
just got big nose. You're English or you're American or European.

512
00:44:31.000 --> 00:44:34.079
They know straight away, and they've got names they've got

513
00:44:34.119 --> 00:44:46.000
like Arab, English, American. I think Arab kind of covers

514
00:44:46.440 --> 00:44:50.679
anyone from like in their mind that anyone from like India,

515
00:44:50.960 --> 00:44:55.199
from the the Arabian. You know, it's like they kind

516
00:44:55.199 --> 00:44:59.320
of class as an Arab, which is I was always

517
00:44:59.320 --> 00:45:03.800
fort you don't say the word Arab, but they just do.

518
00:45:04.000 --> 00:45:07.679
And also when it comes because I think, you know,

519
00:45:08.599 --> 00:45:10.639
I tell you that it's the best place to go

520
00:45:10.840 --> 00:45:15.760
if for a trans person, because if you want to

521
00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:18.920
walk down the street test it out, if you want

522
00:45:18.920 --> 00:45:23.000
to test out dressing the way that you want to dress.

523
00:45:23.880 --> 00:45:28.000
You can do that in Thailand and no one cares.

524
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.920
I mean technically you can probably do in London as well,

525
00:45:31.760 --> 00:45:34.559
maybe some of the other cities. And I've seen people

526
00:45:34.599 --> 00:45:37.400
in London walk around dressing gowns in the middle of

527
00:45:37.480 --> 00:45:42.199
winter in snow, eating and ice cream, So you know,

528
00:45:42.239 --> 00:45:46.239
I've seen some of the weirdest things. Probably the weirdest

529
00:45:46.239 --> 00:45:50.599
thing I saw in Thailand was someone on a bicycle

530
00:45:53.079 --> 00:45:56.159
with a ladder, but it was like it wasn't a

531
00:45:56.199 --> 00:46:03.800
foldable ladder. It's a full ladder, probably six foot but

532
00:46:03.840 --> 00:46:06.000
instead of having it on the side, he had it

533
00:46:06.920 --> 00:46:10.559
on front of him, so it was like stretching out

534
00:46:10.760 --> 00:46:13.800
both sides of the road and he's riding along like that.

535
00:46:16.519 --> 00:46:21.880
I was like, what, how I was spending the microphone

536
00:46:21.880 --> 00:46:27.760
and how how? Why? So that that was one of

537
00:46:27.760 --> 00:46:32.480
the weirdest things I saw. But when I got to

538
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:39.280
I had this idea what I wanted to do. I

539
00:46:39.400 --> 00:46:43.599
needed a break from because I was taking care of

540
00:46:43.639 --> 00:46:47.000
my friend and I that was just getting harder and harder.

541
00:46:47.320 --> 00:46:50.639
I needed a break from that. I gave him some

542
00:46:50.760 --> 00:46:58.400
money and I just needed because it was just getting

543
00:46:58.880 --> 00:47:02.119
too much for me and having lost Andre and I

544
00:47:02.159 --> 00:47:04.079
don't want to go A was serious, but yeah, I

545
00:47:04.199 --> 00:47:09.840
needed I started having I'd started having panic attacks again

546
00:47:09.880 --> 00:47:12.440
for the first time, I mean regularly for the first

547
00:47:12.440 --> 00:47:19.559
time in years, you know, like properly, full on, constantly

548
00:47:19.639 --> 00:47:24.280
all the time. Kind of that moment, that situation, and

549
00:47:24.280 --> 00:47:26.679
it was like reverting back to two thousand and six,

550
00:47:28.079 --> 00:47:31.719
and I didn't think that would happen again. And I

551
00:47:31.719 --> 00:47:33.880
couldn't get a griff of them. I couldn't seem to

552
00:47:33.960 --> 00:47:39.599
sort out it. It couldn't. Sort of, it's almost like

553
00:47:39.639 --> 00:47:43.639
I could. I was struggling, really struggling, and I was

554
00:47:43.679 --> 00:47:51.119
also getting what's that thing where your ears go and

555
00:47:51.159 --> 00:47:53.239
your kind of dizzy and stuff? Was getting that as well,

556
00:47:54.840 --> 00:47:57.320
So it was all weird. I was going through some weird,

557
00:47:57.519 --> 00:48:04.440
weird things at that time. And then I thought, you know,

558
00:48:04.880 --> 00:48:07.440
I'm just going to go. So I went out there

559
00:48:08.920 --> 00:48:13.000
on the plane, my ears popped, and that's the last

560
00:48:13.039 --> 00:48:18.559
time I had any ear problems, balance problems, whatever you

561
00:48:18.599 --> 00:48:21.159
call it. I forget them, forget the term. I know

562
00:48:21.239 --> 00:48:23.480
the term, but I forget what it is. But it's

563
00:48:23.519 --> 00:48:25.880
the last time that happened. Because both my ears popped

564
00:48:26.000 --> 00:48:31.559
on the plane. An expensive cure to be fair, but

565
00:48:33.920 --> 00:48:37.480
it cleared whatever was going on in my ears in vertigo.

566
00:48:37.559 --> 00:48:39.920
That's it. It cleared it. And I haven't had it

567
00:48:39.960 --> 00:48:42.920
since I used to have it a few years ago.

568
00:48:44.480 --> 00:48:50.679
But that was course through a burst ear drum. This

569
00:48:50.960 --> 00:48:53.400
seemed to be caused by stress or something. I don't

570
00:48:53.440 --> 00:48:56.400
know what it was, grief, it could be anything, all

571
00:48:56.480 --> 00:49:01.159
kinds of stuff. So I need to get away. So

572
00:49:01.199 --> 00:49:05.159
I got away. I went there, stayed in this hotel.

573
00:49:06.159 --> 00:49:08.000
I think one of my happiest memories, and it's going

574
00:49:08.039 --> 00:49:09.840
to be weird to say this, but one of my happy,

575
00:49:10.159 --> 00:49:15.119
happiest times was sitting on the verandah. And this hotel

576
00:49:15.159 --> 00:49:16.880
was in a back alley, so it wasn't even like

577
00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:20.280
a near the sea or anything. I wasn't far from

578
00:49:20.320 --> 00:49:27.199
the sea, and I was sitting on the verandah taking

579
00:49:27.199 --> 00:49:30.559
in the smells. And that's the one thing about I'm

580
00:49:30.559 --> 00:49:32.599
not doing about the whole of Thailand, but anywhere I

581
00:49:32.639 --> 00:49:37.039
went it smelt nice because of the food. It's like

582
00:49:37.320 --> 00:49:40.000
just there's a lot of street food, and it just

583
00:49:40.000 --> 00:49:45.480
smelt nice. There was no horrible smells, and the Thai

584
00:49:45.599 --> 00:49:49.920
people probably amongst the cleanest people I've ever been around.

585
00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:53.800
They have multiple showers a day because of the heats

586
00:49:53.840 --> 00:49:56.760
it's so hot and stuff. And it was like, wow,

587
00:49:58.039 --> 00:49:59.559
I have more showers in a day than I do

588
00:49:59.599 --> 00:50:02.760
any year. Yeah. I shouldn't say that out loud, should I?

589
00:50:02.840 --> 00:50:07.360
But yeah, it was very It was very clean, very

590
00:50:07.360 --> 00:50:11.159
clean place. From that perspective. From that perspective, what I

591
00:50:11.159 --> 00:50:14.679
did found weird though I did found I found. I

592
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:21.119
find itd weird is there was hardly any hot water.

593
00:50:21.760 --> 00:50:26.639
It was just warm like here I used to and

594
00:50:26.760 --> 00:50:29.599
I don't. I don't scold my hands when I wash

595
00:50:29.639 --> 00:50:32.960
my hands, but I wash my hands quite regularly every

596
00:50:32.960 --> 00:50:36.239
time I go out because we share the banister and stuff,

597
00:50:36.280 --> 00:50:39.800
you know, outside in the hallway, and I always wash

598
00:50:39.880 --> 00:50:43.199
my hands when I get back, just so that, you know,

599
00:50:43.480 --> 00:50:46.760
got rid of any who knows what people have been

600
00:50:48.960 --> 00:50:51.519
doing with their hands. I don't know. I know what

601
00:50:51.559 --> 00:50:56.400
I've been doing with mine. So when I was out there,

602
00:50:56.639 --> 00:50:59.440
it just wasn't hot. The water wasn't hot to a

603
00:50:59.519 --> 00:51:05.079
level that I was used to, which is very strange.

604
00:51:06.719 --> 00:51:10.840
Maybe that's why they have so many showers, because it's

605
00:51:10.960 --> 00:51:14.719
like keeping a constant cleansing in a cleanly less miss

606
00:51:15.000 --> 00:51:23.119
ness ness thing cleanly mess. And I don't know if

607
00:51:23.119 --> 00:51:26.440
every single person has lots and lots of showers, but

608
00:51:26.519 --> 00:51:32.239
it's you know, the whole time I was out there,

609
00:51:32.320 --> 00:51:40.000
I didn't meet one bad smelling person at all, A

610
00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:46.119
type person that smell weird, not weird. But when it's hot,

611
00:51:46.880 --> 00:51:50.519
there's a tendency. You know, just naturally you're gonna come

612
00:51:50.559 --> 00:51:55.880
across yourd with you'red wiffy person. It's just natural. Especially

613
00:51:55.920 --> 00:51:58.719
BlimE me on the tube, that's the person I was

614
00:51:58.760 --> 00:52:01.199
always stuck under their eyes put armpit and I couldn't

615
00:52:01.239 --> 00:52:06.880
get out. That was always. Yeah, I love the tube

616
00:52:07.320 --> 00:52:14.840
and I didn't, so that was strange. I just I

617
00:52:14.920 --> 00:52:17.079
just not have any hot water. That threw me off

618
00:52:17.079 --> 00:52:20.519
a bit. But one of my happiest memories of being

619
00:52:20.559 --> 00:52:26.400
there was sitting on the verandah. The first few mornings

620
00:52:28.119 --> 00:52:32.199
I had. There was no food in the restaurant because

621
00:52:32.199 --> 00:52:35.440
I had like a Thai restaurant part of the hotel.

622
00:52:35.960 --> 00:52:40.320
But because of that period, you know, two thousand and

623
00:52:40.360 --> 00:52:46.800
two twenty one, pretty much most of the tourism in Thailand,

624
00:52:46.840 --> 00:52:50.960
and I'd say probably the whole of the world pretty

625
00:52:51.039 --> 00:52:56.000
much closed down, So there was there wasn't a lot open.

626
00:52:56.320 --> 00:52:59.119
When I went there, a lot of restaurants were closed.

627
00:52:59.320 --> 00:53:02.039
A lot of bars were closed, not that I'm really

628
00:53:02.079 --> 00:53:04.440
a bar person anyway, but there was a lot of

629
00:53:04.559 --> 00:53:12.800
things weren't open. They either hadn't they either they hadn't

630
00:53:12.880 --> 00:53:16.480
reopened them, or they were closed completely. There was parts

631
00:53:16.519 --> 00:53:21.159
of the area that were completely derelict that two years

632
00:53:21.159 --> 00:53:26.320
earlier had been really busy. So and the only real

633
00:53:26.800 --> 00:53:31.159
regular people they were getting was people that lived a

634
00:53:31.159 --> 00:53:34.960
bit closer. So they had people from India, they ape

635
00:53:35.119 --> 00:53:39.519
from Emirates, they appealed from Australia coming over, but they

636
00:53:39.559 --> 00:53:42.760
didn't weren't getting a lot of They're still getting like

637
00:53:42.760 --> 00:53:47.960
Americans and English, but because of the the restrictions, they

638
00:53:48.000 --> 00:53:51.039
weren't getting as many as they would normally get. This

639
00:53:51.119 --> 00:53:54.880
is what I was told. None of the hotels were full,

640
00:53:56.480 --> 00:54:03.079
so it was fairly check the rooms. I mean, I

641
00:54:03.079 --> 00:54:07.480
think if that was in this country, what the people

642
00:54:07.559 --> 00:54:09.599
what to cut the hotels in this country would do

643
00:54:10.159 --> 00:54:12.280
is put the prices up to try and get their

644
00:54:12.280 --> 00:54:16.000
money back. But they didn't do that. They just treated

645
00:54:16.000 --> 00:54:19.039
people fairly because they were happy to have the customers.

646
00:54:20.119 --> 00:54:22.800
You know, the mentality in this country is well, if

647
00:54:22.800 --> 00:54:26.079
you've If you've got one hundred rooms and I can

648
00:54:26.119 --> 00:54:28.679
only fill fifty, then we'll try and charge them twice

649
00:54:28.679 --> 00:54:31.199
a price. We can get the money back for the

650
00:54:31.199 --> 00:54:35.599
other fifty rooms that we not fill in. But the

651
00:54:35.639 --> 00:54:38.239
way they see it over there more is well, actually

652
00:54:39.199 --> 00:54:43.039
we're grateful to have fifty rooms full, so we'll let

653
00:54:43.079 --> 00:54:46.880
people have a cheaper have a cheaper time, you know,

654
00:54:47.000 --> 00:54:52.079
maybe stay for ten or twenty percent off the price

655
00:54:54.000 --> 00:54:56.559
because they've got such a choice of other hotels to

656
00:54:56.559 --> 00:55:01.000
stay in. So that's you know, that's I quite like that.

657
00:55:04.400 --> 00:55:08.800
But that was nice sitting on that veranda or that balcony. Rather,

658
00:55:10.719 --> 00:55:15.760
I bought some paper, some paper what are they called

659
00:55:17.679 --> 00:55:22.599
paper dishes, and some paper spoons or plastic spoons to eat,

660
00:55:22.719 --> 00:55:26.000
and I got some breakfast cereal, little boxes of breakfast cereal,

661
00:55:26.480 --> 00:55:29.159
and some milk put it in the fridge, and a

662
00:55:29.159 --> 00:55:32.440
cup of coffee, so I had coffee anyway there. So

663
00:55:32.480 --> 00:55:36.440
I had a cup of coffee and my corn flakes

664
00:55:37.599 --> 00:55:40.880
on the veranda the balcony. What's the difference to the

665
00:55:40.960 --> 00:55:47.079
veranda on the balcony. And I'm listening to my phone

666
00:55:47.119 --> 00:55:50.920
and I'm listening to LBC radio and it was Steve

667
00:55:50.960 --> 00:55:54.480
Allen who does his four o'clock what he used to

668
00:55:54.480 --> 00:55:57.480
do four till seven in the morning radio show, just

669
00:55:57.519 --> 00:56:00.159
a talk show where he just talked. He didn't and

670
00:56:00.199 --> 00:56:04.400
for phones, but he would read out, you know, text

671
00:56:04.440 --> 00:56:09.519
messages and stuff like that. And I just remember, I

672
00:56:09.559 --> 00:56:13.360
don't know what time of the day it was for me.

673
00:56:14.199 --> 00:56:22.239
It was BlimE me. It's probably mourning for me, maybe

674
00:56:22.239 --> 00:56:25.679
ten o'clock in the morning or something. But it was

675
00:56:25.840 --> 00:56:35.639
just nice. It's very peaceful, and it wasn't busy. Really,

676
00:56:36.440 --> 00:56:39.119
It wasn't really busy where I was. It was quite

677
00:56:39.239 --> 00:56:42.760
quite kind of a little area. It wasn't a lot going on.

678
00:56:43.239 --> 00:56:47.239
The tourism was probably i'd say probably ten percent what

679
00:56:47.320 --> 00:56:51.280
it would normally be, which is why it was only

680
00:56:51.280 --> 00:56:56.920
ten percent of the place is open, probably, And I

681
00:56:57.079 --> 00:57:00.199
just thought, oh, so I had at my dinner, how

682
00:57:00.239 --> 00:57:02.880
many precaste. But the very first night I got there,

683
00:57:04.719 --> 00:57:06.840
I went and there, looked around, I went for a walk,

684
00:57:07.800 --> 00:57:11.000
didn't know where I was going. But the good thing

685
00:57:11.079 --> 00:57:14.400
about you know, if you go to a seaside resort

686
00:57:14.639 --> 00:57:18.920
in Thailand. Again, I don't know if all the places

687
00:57:18.960 --> 00:57:22.599
are same, but it's well lit. There's a lot of

688
00:57:22.639 --> 00:57:27.199
people around because it's a tourist destination. It's the safest

689
00:57:27.239 --> 00:57:30.079
I've ever felt walking around at two in the morning.

690
00:57:32.960 --> 00:57:36.800
I mean ever, never ever felt safe really, because the

691
00:57:36.840 --> 00:57:38.639
only time I'd walk around at two in the morning

692
00:57:38.719 --> 00:57:42.400
was when I was in London, and me in London

693
00:57:42.880 --> 00:57:46.480
two in the morning is not. Yeah, it's never. Even

694
00:57:46.480 --> 00:57:49.039
as a young person, it wasn't. I was worried, but

695
00:57:49.079 --> 00:57:51.960
I never really felt kind of, I felt on guard.

696
00:57:52.440 --> 00:57:56.880
But here I didn't feel on guard at all. It

697
00:57:56.960 --> 00:58:01.159
seemed like the sort of place where, yeah, if you

698
00:58:01.199 --> 00:58:04.360
want trouble, you can have it. It's like, if you

699
00:58:04.400 --> 00:58:06.719
want trouble, they give it to you, but if you don't,

700
00:58:06.800 --> 00:58:11.440
they're fine. You know, it's not anywhere if you want

701
00:58:11.480 --> 00:58:13.559
to be a trouble maker. It's very easy to get

702
00:58:13.599 --> 00:58:20.000
into trouble anywhere you go, but there it's you won't.

703
00:58:21.079 --> 00:58:24.400
My experiences, I felt safe. That's pretty much what I'm saying.

704
00:58:26.280 --> 00:58:27.760
And I got to know a few of the people

705
00:58:28.440 --> 00:58:34.159
and some of the some of the Buddhist parts of

706
00:58:34.199 --> 00:58:37.079
their life, so it's basically they're indoctrinated into it. They're

707
00:58:37.079 --> 00:58:44.480
born into Buddhism. Now they have Buddhist holidays. They also

708
00:58:44.840 --> 00:58:50.679
absolutely love their royal family out there. I mean like

709
00:58:51.880 --> 00:58:55.199
in a way that maybe we used to in this country.

710
00:58:57.199 --> 00:59:03.519
They're really important to them. I mean, I know there

711
00:59:03.559 --> 00:59:05.440
are people out there in this country that love the

712
00:59:05.519 --> 00:59:09.320
royal family, but I'm talking as a nation. There's a

713
00:59:09.440 --> 00:59:13.719
real loyalty to the royal family in Thailand. It's they're

714
00:59:13.719 --> 00:59:19.119
almost like say royalty, I suppose, but they're very Yeah,

715
00:59:21.639 --> 00:59:25.159
it's hard to explain what I mean, but it's huge.

716
00:59:26.000 --> 00:59:30.840
And when there's a birthday, there's no alcohol sold when

717
00:59:30.840 --> 00:59:35.559
there's a public a royal day. So if it's the

718
00:59:35.639 --> 00:59:38.840
King's birthday or whatever something like that, no alcohol during

719
00:59:38.840 --> 00:59:43.079
that day. They're still open. Bars will still open, but

720
00:59:43.079 --> 00:59:46.000
it will be soft drinks only, and they'll actually tell

721
00:59:46.039 --> 00:59:48.719
people because I went in on the day I went

722
00:59:49.880 --> 00:59:55.480
The day after I went there, it was a bank

723
00:59:55.519 --> 00:59:58.320
holiday due to a remember the royal family. I think

724
00:59:58.360 --> 01:00:02.239
it was a king's birthday. And I went in and

725
01:00:02.280 --> 01:00:08.000
there was this bar and I wasn't bold about drinking

726
01:00:08.039 --> 01:00:11.719
alcohol anywhere. I was still a bit jet lagged. I

727
01:00:11.760 --> 01:00:17.880
needed something to eat, and so I sat down and

728
01:00:18.199 --> 01:00:21.280
the first thing I was told is you can't serve

729
01:00:21.320 --> 01:00:27.199
your alcohol. I said, that's all right, and she said

730
01:00:27.239 --> 01:00:31.960
what I said, that's okay. I'm not bothered. I don't

731
01:00:32.000 --> 01:00:36.280
care if I drinking alcohol and actually couldn't speak English.

732
01:00:37.360 --> 01:00:43.360
She said, what too, surprised because I think most people

733
01:00:43.440 --> 01:00:46.920
that go there are going to drink. And I wasn't

734
01:00:46.920 --> 01:00:50.639
really that bothered. So I had something to eat. I

735
01:00:50.639 --> 01:00:54.000
can't remember what I had. I have to I found

736
01:00:54.000 --> 01:00:59.280
a burger and chips and the coke. That's back in

737
01:00:59.320 --> 01:01:02.599
the days when I drinking Coca cola. I'm like now

738
01:01:02.639 --> 01:01:07.119
when I just drink water, don't even drink alcohol anymore.

739
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:21.960
BlimE me and I think the So there was a

740
01:01:22.039 --> 01:01:25.840
lady called Ella there. I really I don't know. I

741
01:01:25.960 --> 01:01:28.880
just like really liked her because we were talking and

742
01:01:28.920 --> 01:01:31.199
she had the same kind of energy as me, quite

743
01:01:31.199 --> 01:01:35.719
low key. I'm quite low energy, really and in my moments,

744
01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:39.320
I do have my moments, but it doesn't everyone, but

745
01:01:39.360 --> 01:01:44.840
I'm quite low in she're quite quiet. I don't get

746
01:01:48.440 --> 01:01:52.119
I'm not the most excitable person. Really, you know, I'm

747
01:01:52.119 --> 01:01:57.719
not particularly loud, and we seem to get one quite well.

748
01:02:02.119 --> 01:02:05.239
Now you're gonna just probably I don't know I'm telling

749
01:02:05.280 --> 01:02:10.480
you this, but anyway, she was it Ella or is

750
01:02:10.519 --> 01:02:13.679
it Bella? Or was it Stella? Or was it Gee

751
01:02:13.760 --> 01:02:16.440
or is it nom? I don't know. I forget what

752
01:02:16.519 --> 01:02:21.280
her name was, but she invited me. I think of

753
01:02:21.320 --> 01:02:23.639
Ella because it's someone a big brother Cordella. That's what

754
01:02:23.719 --> 01:02:27.880
I'm thinking of, that word, that name, she said. So

755
01:02:27.880 --> 01:02:29.679
I went in there a couple of days in a row.

756
01:02:31.519 --> 01:02:38.760
I think the first night she I'm always at the

757
01:02:38.800 --> 01:02:40.800
second night because I went in there because I quite

758
01:02:40.880 --> 01:02:46.000
liked the vibe in there. And she said, I was

759
01:02:46.119 --> 01:02:49.599
got talking to another bloke. It was from Ireland, and

760
01:02:49.679 --> 01:02:52.239
he just, you know, he was just chatting and stuff,

761
01:02:52.280 --> 01:02:56.639
and they were closing up and we're going out, and

762
01:02:56.800 --> 01:03:01.760
the he was going back with the other waitress or

763
01:03:01.760 --> 01:03:04.280
the other there was like two managers. He was I

764
01:03:04.320 --> 01:03:07.280
don't know if that was his girlfriend or what. And

765
01:03:07.320 --> 01:03:11.440
she said, I'll bring bring Jason back and the other

766
01:03:11.480 --> 01:03:18.079
one said, no, don't know, and I thought, I don't care,

767
01:03:18.440 --> 01:03:22.480
it's fine, I don't know. I didn't ask to go

768
01:03:22.480 --> 01:03:27.039
anywhere anyway. Well, a couple of nights later I went

769
01:03:27.119 --> 01:03:30.000
back and she's just there on her own, and at

770
01:03:30.039 --> 01:03:33.519
the end of the night she offered to take me home.

771
01:03:35.800 --> 01:03:41.440
And this is a bit where I should be saying, well,

772
01:03:41.480 --> 01:03:44.039
I'd like to be saying I went home. It was

773
01:03:44.079 --> 01:03:47.760
the best night of my life. We fell in love,

774
01:03:48.760 --> 01:03:54.000
and you know, we got married and we're going to

775
01:03:54.079 --> 01:03:57.000
spend the rest of my life with our I say,

776
01:03:57.159 --> 01:03:59.599
I bet the rest of our lives together. But she's

777
01:04:00.239 --> 01:04:05.639
but younger than me. I don't know how much I

778
01:04:05.679 --> 01:04:09.920
would say. It's hard to guess. Under thirty. I would say,

779
01:04:10.320 --> 01:04:14.559
maybe maybe older, but it's hard. You know, I met

780
01:04:14.679 --> 01:04:18.079
someone else that I got on with she was thirty

781
01:04:18.079 --> 01:04:22.559
eight and didn't look I couldn't. I would never have

782
01:04:22.599 --> 01:04:25.920
guessed her age. I'm no good at guessing ages anymore.

783
01:04:28.760 --> 01:04:31.000
Not that ever was so if I ever was that good.

784
01:04:31.039 --> 01:04:33.440
But I think there was a period when I was

785
01:04:33.480 --> 01:04:36.519
in my twenties and I could kind of gauge in age,

786
01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:41.159
gauge and age, you know, if someone was nineteen or

787
01:04:41.199 --> 01:04:47.519
someone was like late twenties, maybe early thirties. But as

788
01:04:47.519 --> 01:04:52.880
I got older, people in the early twenties look just

789
01:04:53.280 --> 01:04:58.480
some of them are really really young. And then some

790
01:04:58.519 --> 01:05:04.280
people in their sixties, yes, look really really young, Like

791
01:05:04.760 --> 01:05:06.880
how can you can't be? I know a couple of

792
01:05:06.920 --> 01:05:11.039
people and they're both BlimE me. I think they're both

793
01:05:11.199 --> 01:05:17.440
like nearly eighty, and neither of them look it. It's like,

794
01:05:17.760 --> 01:05:26.280
how can you be nearly eighty? So it's uh. Someone

795
01:05:26.320 --> 01:05:28.760
did say to me and said, you said, well, you

796
01:05:28.840 --> 01:05:30.960
look younger than you are. But it probably wouldn't do

797
01:05:31.039 --> 01:05:33.280
if you took your glasses off and we could see

798
01:05:33.280 --> 01:05:36.840
your eyes, because I've got like shades some of my glasses,

799
01:05:37.320 --> 01:05:42.119
actor like or whatever. I thought's a bit rude. If anything,

800
01:05:42.119 --> 01:05:45.559
I'll probably a look younger about the glasses. Probably not.

801
01:05:47.239 --> 01:05:53.320
So in those situations, all you can do you can argue,

802
01:05:53.440 --> 01:05:58.039
or you can just silently fart and walk away. So

803
01:05:58.159 --> 01:06:05.800
I chose to do that. So I yeah, So we

804
01:06:05.880 --> 01:06:08.800
didn't have a romance, and I didn't. What I did

805
01:06:09.079 --> 01:06:13.639
is first of all. I thought, yeah, But it wasn't

806
01:06:13.679 --> 01:06:15.400
do you want to come back to mine? It was

807
01:06:15.840 --> 01:06:26.039
let's go then, And she called two mopeds, two moped taxis.

808
01:06:26.519 --> 01:06:28.360
She had her own moped, but she left it there

809
01:06:28.400 --> 01:06:31.280
because she had a couple of drinks. So she got

810
01:06:31.280 --> 01:06:35.159
a moped taxi for herself and one for me. And

811
01:06:35.199 --> 01:06:39.119
I said no, I said, no way in the world

812
01:06:39.159 --> 01:06:47.840
am I getting on the back of that and I'm

813
01:06:47.840 --> 01:06:51.199
not sure days gone past when I wish that I'd

814
01:06:51.320 --> 01:06:57.360
just got on the back of the moped because I

815
01:06:57.440 --> 01:07:04.360
put fear ahead of pleasure, maybe fear ahead of I

816
01:07:04.440 --> 01:07:06.639
wasn't scared of her. I was just scared of the

817
01:07:06.239 --> 01:07:13.920
motor journey to being on a moped, just just having

818
01:07:14.039 --> 01:07:17.079
seen the way they ride those mopeds in and out

819
01:07:17.079 --> 01:07:19.880
of traffic, like seeing that and then thinking this is

820
01:07:19.880 --> 01:07:23.599
going to happen at eleven o'clock at night or half

821
01:07:23.599 --> 01:07:26.840
eleven at night, and it was dark at that point,

822
01:07:30.320 --> 01:07:33.199
and I didn't know where we were going. You know,

823
01:07:33.239 --> 01:07:34.960
It's like a part of me thinking and that this

824
01:07:35.079 --> 01:07:37.840
is my friend's He put this image in my head.

825
01:07:38.519 --> 01:07:40.519
He kept saying, well, be careful. You don't go home

826
01:07:40.559 --> 01:07:42.360
with someone and wake up in a bar full of

827
01:07:42.400 --> 01:07:46.320
ice or one of your organs missing. It's like brilliant,

828
01:07:47.360 --> 01:07:49.280
like thanks for that. I really wanted that in my head,

829
01:07:50.199 --> 01:07:57.599
and I kept I was thinking this, this lady's seriously,

830
01:07:58.880 --> 01:08:00.840
we're gonna say up my street. You know, as far

831
01:08:00.880 --> 01:08:03.840
as she just really lovely, I liked her a lot,

832
01:08:05.679 --> 01:08:12.239
but I did think, well, maybe I don't know, I

833
01:08:12.320 --> 01:08:15.679
might just is she gonna sort of try and make

834
01:08:15.719 --> 01:08:19.119
some money from me by I'm going to wake up

835
01:08:19.159 --> 01:08:25.159
with only one liver, you know, So I thought maybe,

836
01:08:26.439 --> 01:08:28.359
But there was that was it was more than moped

837
01:08:28.479 --> 01:08:34.039
to be fair. And then there was also I'm thinking,

838
01:08:34.079 --> 01:08:36.600
maybe she's just being friendly, and she takes me back

839
01:08:36.640 --> 01:08:40.760
to her place and introduces me to a boyfriend or

840
01:08:40.760 --> 01:08:45.600
a husband, and she's just being friendly, just a friendly person.

841
01:08:46.520 --> 01:08:50.359
Because that happened in Bulgaria. I was I spent all

842
01:08:50.439 --> 01:08:55.279
day talking to a wait to she was work behind

843
01:08:55.279 --> 01:08:57.079
the bar, so I think she's like a bar manager

844
01:08:58.199 --> 01:09:03.039
all day in the hotel. This is when I went snowboarding,

845
01:09:03.520 --> 01:09:07.319
but I'd spent the day before traveling down a mountain

846
01:09:07.399 --> 01:09:11.920
on my face, so I took a day off. I

847
01:09:12.000 --> 01:09:15.439
was teaching her English, she was teaching me Bulgarian. It's

848
01:09:15.479 --> 01:09:18.039
just me and her pretty much for hours and hours.

849
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:24.359
And then in the evening, when my fellow travelers that

850
01:09:24.439 --> 01:09:27.720
I traveled there with got back from the mountain slopes,

851
01:09:29.680 --> 01:09:33.760
you know, we were another dinner, trying not to laugh

852
01:09:33.800 --> 01:09:39.960
at the the music act. And then it's just I

853
01:09:39.960 --> 01:09:42.079
don't know, I'm not used to having music being played

854
01:09:42.079 --> 01:09:44.920
on meeting. You know, when summer starts playing a harp

855
01:09:44.960 --> 01:09:49.279
to chord and it's like what starts dancing. It's like,

856
01:09:49.359 --> 01:09:58.880
I'm this is this is confusing my senses. And we're

857
01:09:58.920 --> 01:10:01.600
in this bar, which is part of our hotel. Where

858
01:10:01.640 --> 01:10:03.920
I went to was part of another kind of hotel

859
01:10:04.000 --> 01:10:06.800
part because all part of this big old complex and

860
01:10:06.800 --> 01:10:10.359
there's this like underground trapped tunnels and stuff. And I

861
01:10:10.479 --> 01:10:13.479
just followed them until I found new other places to

862
01:10:13.520 --> 01:10:17.640
go to what didn't seem to even be part of

863
01:10:17.680 --> 01:10:22.000
the hotel. It was like part of something else. Anyway,

864
01:10:22.039 --> 01:10:25.920
I'm in the in the bar, another bar with my

865
01:10:27.279 --> 01:10:38.760
my friends that have traveled to Bulgaria with and this

866
01:10:38.760 --> 01:10:40.720
this bloke came up to me, tapped me on the

867
01:10:40.720 --> 01:10:46.960
shoulder and he looked exactly how he was. He was

868
01:10:47.000 --> 01:10:56.039
a gangster, like proper gangster. It's like it's it's hard

869
01:10:56.079 --> 01:11:00.239
to explain, but I would bet any money I had

870
01:11:00.239 --> 01:11:04.720
that he had a gun on him and he said

871
01:11:04.760 --> 01:11:09.880
he pointed, he put pointed, and he's like, he's the

872
01:11:09.960 --> 01:11:12.399
lady that I've been talking to all day. He says,

873
01:11:12.600 --> 01:11:19.680
that's my fiance. M m m m mmm. I mean

874
01:11:19.720 --> 01:11:21.840
that's when I thought I'm really am gonna wake up

875
01:11:21.840 --> 01:11:28.520
in nice on a mountain, a mountain, and she comes

876
01:11:28.560 --> 01:11:34.000
over and he says, and I thought, oh god, I

877
01:11:34.039 --> 01:11:36.960
don't know what to say here, because I really liked her,

878
01:11:38.600 --> 01:11:41.359
and I didn't realize she was I didn't ask if

879
01:11:41.359 --> 01:11:44.119
she had a boyfriend or anything, because I was just

880
01:11:44.199 --> 01:11:47.640
chatting to her. It was nothing. I wasn't flirting, really,

881
01:11:47.760 --> 01:11:54.079
just having a nice conversation during that whole day. And

882
01:11:54.119 --> 01:11:58.239
she said, and she came over smiling, and I thought,

883
01:11:58.239 --> 01:12:03.279
I wonder if he's smiling. I didn't look, and I

884
01:12:03.279 --> 01:12:06.920
think might still have his hand on my shoulder, and

885
01:12:07.920 --> 01:12:12.840
my knees were shaking. My knees were shaken. That sounds

886
01:12:12.880 --> 01:12:15.119
like a song, isn't it. And the hips were weak.

887
01:12:17.159 --> 01:12:21.079
And he said, I understand in it an accent. You've

888
01:12:21.119 --> 01:12:24.560
been teaching. You've been teaching whatever her name was, to

889
01:12:24.880 --> 01:12:27.319
some English words, and she's been I said, she's been

890
01:12:27.359 --> 01:12:31.199
teaching you some Bulgaria and I said, yeah. He said, oh,

891
01:12:31.319 --> 01:12:39.960
very good, very good. I'm not blame me. He it's

892
01:12:40.079 --> 01:12:43.880
so cool because he I think it's probably the only

893
01:12:43.960 --> 01:12:47.439
time ever that I've been thankful that I wasn't good looking,

894
01:12:49.359 --> 01:12:53.600
because I clearly was not a threat to him in

895
01:12:53.640 --> 01:12:56.319
any way. And I don't mean this physically, but I

896
01:12:56.399 --> 01:13:01.840
wasn't like a threat to his relationship. I was some handsome, strapping,

897
01:13:03.800 --> 01:13:06.720
you know, handsome guy that's gonna try and steal his

898
01:13:06.800 --> 01:13:11.399
fiance away. He didn't see any any threaten or at all,

899
01:13:12.439 --> 01:13:17.279
which was good for me. Really. It's the only time

900
01:13:17.279 --> 01:13:19.199
I've ever been grateful that I would look like I

901
01:13:19.239 --> 01:13:26.319
do and he liked me, brought me a drink and

902
01:13:26.800 --> 01:13:31.279
he was chatting to me, and they were chatting, and

903
01:13:31.399 --> 01:13:35.439
she was like, you know, talking to me, and it's

904
01:13:35.479 --> 01:13:42.399
like really nice. I didn't know what to do next.

905
01:13:43.800 --> 01:13:48.000
I still wasn't sure because I'd seen the Sopranos. I mean,

906
01:13:48.000 --> 01:13:51.600
the Sopranos hadn't finished. The Sopranos were still going strong

907
01:13:51.640 --> 01:13:55.479
in those days, because this was two thousand and two,

908
01:13:55.680 --> 01:14:01.199
probably about March time, so the Sopranos are still you know, no,

909
01:14:01.279 --> 01:14:04.079
it's infancy because it went on to about twenty ten,

910
01:14:04.079 --> 01:14:08.880
didn't it. Well I suppose infancy, yeah, I guess, but

911
01:14:08.920 --> 01:14:10.840
I wasn't sure how this was going to play out.

912
01:14:13.199 --> 01:14:15.359
But it went Okay, I'm here, so it's fine.

913
01:14:17.199 --> 01:14:17.760
And then.

914
01:14:19.640 --> 01:14:30.760
I yeah, that was just strange, very strange. Yeah, she

915
01:14:30.920 --> 01:14:36.520
was it was I didn't. Yeah, I mean it's not Thailand.

916
01:14:36.600 --> 01:14:42.920
It's a different story. It's just when I go abroad,

917
01:14:43.680 --> 01:14:46.239
or in the past, when I've gone abroad, I seemed

918
01:14:46.279 --> 01:14:53.640
to be different, maybe a bit more confident, maybe maybe

919
01:14:53.840 --> 01:15:00.560
a bit more relaxed, maybe a bit freer. I don't

920
01:15:00.560 --> 01:15:05.159
put any effort in. Yeah, I'm not kind of like

921
01:15:06.680 --> 01:15:10.840
trying to get to know anyone. Just see what happens.

922
01:15:10.920 --> 01:15:18.680
Let it happen naturally. But on that occasion I got

923
01:15:18.720 --> 01:15:26.039
to know three four women, five actually five, So there

924
01:15:26.119 --> 01:15:29.000
was the first waitress was the I say, when I

925
01:15:29.039 --> 01:15:31.640
get to know, I didn't do anything with anyone, but

926
01:15:31.640 --> 01:15:34.720
we've got to know them. The first one was the

927
01:15:34.880 --> 01:15:37.640
very first waitress that served us and I had a

928
01:15:37.880 --> 01:15:41.279
cheese toasty sandwich, and it was the very first day

929
01:15:41.279 --> 01:15:46.920
we got there to the hotel, and she smiled at me.

930
01:15:52.119 --> 01:15:55.000
I mean some would view it and say she caught

931
01:15:55.000 --> 01:15:57.720
me looking down a top, but I'm just going to

932
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:00.920
stick to she smiled at me, and she did smile

933
01:16:00.960 --> 01:16:04.960
at me when she caught me. She smiled and we

934
01:16:05.000 --> 01:16:07.439
had a bit of a connection. That chatted to me

935
01:16:07.520 --> 01:16:14.079
and the next hour was in there and we we

936
01:16:14.239 --> 01:16:22.039
decided to go out on a date. Yeah, I think

937
01:16:22.159 --> 01:16:25.199
like the next night, the next evening when she finished

938
01:16:25.199 --> 01:16:29.800
work and go to a restaurant or something. So I

939
01:16:29.880 --> 01:16:31.680
went into the bar to see her, and there was

940
01:16:31.720 --> 01:16:34.840
this other bar the other side of the place, in

941
01:16:34.880 --> 01:16:37.800
the middle of nowhere. Again, I kind of found my

942
01:16:37.840 --> 01:16:40.239
way around these places because I spent a lot of

943
01:16:40.239 --> 01:16:47.079
time on my own, just wandering around. And the I

944
01:16:47.119 --> 01:16:50.439
got in there and she was just basically talking to

945
01:16:50.520 --> 01:16:54.960
another bloke and she waved to me, but then she

946
01:16:55.039 --> 01:17:00.439
carried on talking to this bloke. So I left the day.

947
01:17:02.840 --> 01:17:05.159
I went to a pizza place that was there that

948
01:17:05.199 --> 01:17:11.159
I found, and I got really well with the lady

949
01:17:12.039 --> 01:17:16.479
in the pizza place, and we were like talking and

950
01:17:16.520 --> 01:17:24.720
maybe talking about maybe doing something. And then I got

951
01:17:24.800 --> 01:17:26.560
to know the other one in the other bar, the

952
01:17:26.560 --> 01:17:30.279
one that I told you about the beginning. So what

953
01:17:30.439 --> 01:17:35.159
happened is it's very strange. The one that I was

954
01:17:35.159 --> 01:17:39.640
supposed to go on a date with and she was

955
01:17:39.640 --> 01:17:45.000
talking to another bloke. I saw her two days later.

956
01:17:45.039 --> 01:17:46.800
I think she might have had the day off. Saw

957
01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:51.680
her two days later and the first thing she said

958
01:17:51.720 --> 01:17:54.199
is where were you? I said, I was there. I'm

959
01:17:54.199 --> 01:17:55.680
not you know, you saw me in a wave to you?

960
01:17:56.239 --> 01:17:58.079
So where did you go? I said, we was talking

961
01:17:58.079 --> 01:18:02.199
to some bloke okay, and she had she had the

962
01:18:02.239 --> 01:18:05.800
help with me, Like, I said, what's wrong? She said,

963
01:18:06.359 --> 01:18:10.840
I got talking to a friend of mine. I said, okay,

964
01:18:11.720 --> 01:18:14.199
she said yeah, I told her. She said to me,

965
01:18:14.279 --> 01:18:18.319
I just met just met this this english man is

966
01:18:18.319 --> 01:18:20.199
really lovely and I've got on really well with him.

967
01:18:20.840 --> 01:18:24.119
And I said, yeah, same here and we both said,

968
01:18:24.199 --> 01:18:27.920
what's his name is, Jason? It's you. We both we

969
01:18:28.039 --> 01:18:31.720
both met you, And like I was playing them against

970
01:18:31.720 --> 01:18:34.840
each other, which I wasn't. I just only met them.

971
01:18:35.159 --> 01:18:40.279
I had gone out with either of them really some

972
01:18:40.359 --> 01:18:42.479
kind of playboy. But it wasn't like that at all.

973
01:18:44.640 --> 01:18:51.039
But she wasn't happy and she yeah. Ironically, the very

974
01:18:51.119 --> 01:18:55.760
very first night when I got there, the receptionist, I

975
01:18:55.800 --> 01:18:57.840
really liked the receptionist. I feel I was going through

976
01:18:57.840 --> 01:19:02.840
little phase of liking people. I really liked the receptionist

977
01:19:03.119 --> 01:19:05.479
who you know, we spoke to ready for it first

978
01:19:05.479 --> 01:19:08.279
of all, and then she disappeared. Didn't see her till

979
01:19:08.319 --> 01:19:14.800
the very last night, and she came up to me

980
01:19:15.159 --> 01:19:18.159
the very last night and were sort of talking to me,

981
01:19:18.199 --> 01:19:21.079
and I was like, okay, yeah, I just I don't know.

982
01:19:22.159 --> 01:19:23.960
I couldn't be bothered to talk to anyone. I thought

983
01:19:23.960 --> 01:19:28.359
I'd had enough of people by then, but I'd maybe

984
01:19:28.359 --> 01:19:31.239
had enough to drink and stuff. But the next day,

985
01:19:31.239 --> 01:19:32.880
because I didn't know, I didn't recognize her, because she

986
01:19:32.960 --> 01:19:36.239
hadn't been there the whole week other than that one

987
01:19:36.720 --> 01:19:40.880
time when we first got there. So we go to logout,

988
01:19:41.079 --> 01:19:42.600
you know, to I think we had to collect that

989
01:19:42.640 --> 01:19:47.640
passports and whatever to leave, and she's on a reception.

990
01:19:47.760 --> 01:19:51.199
I was like, oh my god, it's you. She said, yeah.

991
01:19:53.680 --> 01:19:55.600
I didn't realize that her. She was trying to talk

992
01:19:55.640 --> 01:19:58.359
to me the night before, and I just couldn't be bothered,

993
01:19:58.960 --> 01:20:01.800
not in a rude I just I think I just

994
01:20:01.880 --> 01:20:07.640
had enough. I wanted to go home, really, And she

995
01:20:07.720 --> 01:20:10.920
came out and followed me to the coach and saw

996
01:20:10.960 --> 01:20:13.680
me off on the coach and gave me a big hug,

997
01:20:13.720 --> 01:20:15.960
and I'm not sure she gave me a kiss. I

998
01:20:16.000 --> 01:20:23.119
can't remember. We made love in the snow. We didn't, well,

999
01:20:23.119 --> 01:20:26.399
everyone watched from the bus. We were on the top

1000
01:20:26.439 --> 01:20:29.119
of the bus. No, we wouldn't know. Nothing like that happened.

1001
01:20:29.119 --> 01:20:32.000
But she did like give me a big hug and everything, like,

1002
01:20:33.680 --> 01:20:34.359
what's going on?

1003
01:20:34.439 --> 01:20:34.640
White.

1004
01:20:34.760 --> 01:20:41.159
It's almost like I was suddenly became attractive to women

1005
01:20:42.520 --> 01:20:45.359
out of nowhere for a week, and then when I

1006
01:20:45.399 --> 01:20:47.520
got back to the UK, I went back to being

1007
01:20:48.640 --> 01:20:57.279
invisible again. It's like brilliant. Then. I think three days

1008
01:20:57.359 --> 01:21:02.119
or two days before we left, I met this other

1009
01:21:02.439 --> 01:21:07.560
lady from Germany and we would just chat in and

1010
01:21:07.600 --> 01:21:10.479
we went for a little walk and she grabbed me

1011
01:21:10.560 --> 01:21:14.439
and start kissing me and everything. And she she palls

1012
01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:18.119
me to the actually the elevator, to the lift to

1013
01:21:18.199 --> 01:21:23.479
go up to my room. Right just as a lift

1014
01:21:23.600 --> 01:21:27.520
the lift doors about to close. What happens, This hand

1015
01:21:27.720 --> 01:21:32.800
comes through and stops the doors from closing. And it's

1016
01:21:32.880 --> 01:21:36.479
her friend. Her friend doesn't want it to have fun.

1017
01:21:37.960 --> 01:21:41.199
So there's a term. There's a term for that, now,

1018
01:21:41.279 --> 01:21:48.760
isn't there. It's two words. One's blocking. I was blocked

1019
01:21:51.520 --> 01:21:56.159
by her and it was weird. I was like, okay,

1020
01:21:56.159 --> 01:22:03.199
fair enough, yeah, just google both both of us. Probably

1021
01:22:03.199 --> 01:22:09.520
a little bit tipsy or whatever. But she's the one

1022
01:22:09.520 --> 01:22:12.680
that kind of made the moves. But her friends blame me.

1023
01:22:12.800 --> 01:22:15.079
She didn't want to She didn't want her friend to

1024
01:22:15.079 --> 01:22:19.600
have any fun. So that was that done as well.

1025
01:22:20.880 --> 01:22:23.119
I just had to accept, okay, fair enough, see her,

1026
01:22:25.640 --> 01:22:28.680
I need to pooh anyway, bye. I was poohing a

1027
01:22:28.720 --> 01:22:32.520
lot when I went there. I couldn't believe it. It

1028
01:22:32.680 --> 01:22:35.920
really changed my whole body being there. So I don't

1029
01:22:35.920 --> 01:22:37.880
know if it was the altitude or if it was

1030
01:22:37.920 --> 01:22:42.039
the food. Maybe a little bit too much alcohol, I

1031
01:22:42.079 --> 01:22:52.880
don't know, but yeah, nice fresh air though, that was nice.

1032
01:22:53.560 --> 01:22:55.720
And then there was the twins. Now there wasn't I

1033
01:22:55.920 --> 01:23:06.079
just h so I I did. I did go and

1034
01:23:06.119 --> 01:23:10.560
say goodbye to all three of the women that I

1035
01:23:10.720 --> 01:23:13.359
kind of got to know a little bit. Not the

1036
01:23:13.359 --> 01:23:16.439
German one. I didn't see her again. I don't think

1037
01:23:16.800 --> 01:23:18.039
I might have done. I think she was with a

1038
01:23:18.119 --> 01:23:21.119
family though it's like family holidays, so I was like, okay,

1039
01:23:21.960 --> 01:23:26.600
got to keep away. But I went to see the

1040
01:23:26.680 --> 01:23:30.199
other three. So there's one that worked in one bar,

1041
01:23:31.000 --> 01:23:33.399
there's another one worked in the pizza place, and the

1042
01:23:33.479 --> 01:23:36.880
other worked one worked in the restaurant downstairs. Not need

1043
01:23:36.920 --> 01:23:39.439
a reception. So I went to each one and say goodbye,

1044
01:23:42.720 --> 01:23:45.239
and it was just like I thought, well, I've not

1045
01:23:45.560 --> 01:23:51.680
dated anyone. I've not actually gone out anywhere, so I'll

1046
01:23:51.760 --> 01:23:54.199
just say goodbye, you know. And they were all one

1047
01:23:54.239 --> 01:23:59.720
of them that even took me into a room I

1048
01:23:59.800 --> 01:24:02.399
wait from the bar, and it was like a storage

1049
01:24:02.479 --> 01:24:05.159
room and there was nothing in there but just empty.

1050
01:24:05.239 --> 01:24:10.079
But it was a few storage I guess, and crates

1051
01:24:10.079 --> 01:24:12.680
of coke cans or whatever, and that was it, and

1052
01:24:12.720 --> 01:24:16.399
closed the door and just looked at me as like,

1053
01:24:18.760 --> 01:24:22.239
what I'm supposed to do now? I literally had about

1054
01:24:22.279 --> 01:24:25.960
half an hour to get on the bus, and I

1055
01:24:26.000 --> 01:24:31.399
didn't know what I didn't know what she wanted. And

1056
01:24:33.399 --> 01:24:39.319
because I was so naive and very I was quite

1057
01:24:39.319 --> 01:24:45.479
a young person back then. I was only thirty one. Yeah,

1058
01:24:45.479 --> 01:24:48.479
I was still thirty one, so I was young, and

1059
01:24:48.520 --> 01:24:54.159
then I was only a youngster. I really was. I

1060
01:24:54.159 --> 01:24:57.079
didn't know, I didn't know what to do, but obviously

1061
01:24:57.199 --> 01:24:59.479
gave me a big hug, didn't see no way let

1062
01:24:59.479 --> 01:25:03.720
me go, picked me up, wrattled me around a little bit.

1063
01:25:04.880 --> 01:25:16.560
I didn't mind, to be honest. I mean, yeah, I

1064
01:25:16.600 --> 01:25:19.000
feel quite happy. It would have brought a home with

1065
01:25:19.079 --> 01:25:26.880
me and possibly got married. I know that life doesn't

1066
01:25:26.920 --> 01:25:29.359
work like that I'll just bring someone home and get married,

1067
01:25:29.359 --> 01:25:34.279
But there seemed to be a connection. Maybe there wasn't

1068
01:25:35.119 --> 01:25:37.359
I feel like I'm making this up. Maybe I'm not.

1069
01:25:37.720 --> 01:25:44.840
I don't know, maybe I am the the bomber boom boom,

1070
01:25:45.000 --> 01:25:52.279
boom boom what else? So yeah, that was good. And

1071
01:25:52.319 --> 01:25:58.159
then I did give I got the address. Oh yeah,

1072
01:25:58.159 --> 01:26:01.399
one of them gave me an address and telephone number.

1073
01:26:01.399 --> 01:26:05.600
But I tried to contact but didn't seem to do.

1074
01:26:07.239 --> 01:26:10.039
I gave me my tele I tried to phone. That's it.

1075
01:26:10.119 --> 01:26:13.920
I tried to phone. I've got one of those you know,

1076
01:26:14.000 --> 01:26:16.520
those cards that you can phone abroad and stuff, but

1077
01:26:17.399 --> 01:26:22.279
it didn't seem to work. It was Yeah, the language

1078
01:26:22.359 --> 01:26:25.600
barrier was definitely an issue. It'd be easier now with

1079
01:26:26.159 --> 01:26:31.039
all the different apps, and this is before Facebook and whatsappened,

1080
01:26:32.079 --> 01:26:35.399
all the different ways to communicate with people. There's no

1081
01:26:35.600 --> 01:26:41.439
smartphones back then, and it would have been easy, you know,

1082
01:26:42.119 --> 01:26:47.439
much easier to sort of keep in contact with someone.

1083
01:26:49.079 --> 01:26:52.640
So what happened then is in my Thailand, Sid, I

1084
01:26:52.640 --> 01:26:58.960
did meet someone else, but at this point I had

1085
01:26:59.479 --> 01:27:06.720
a can rib and I wasn't really interested in her

1086
01:27:06.880 --> 01:27:10.600
as a as a other than just as a tourist guide. Really,

1087
01:27:10.680 --> 01:27:16.520
she showed me around, but she did sort of try

1088
01:27:16.560 --> 01:27:19.199
and take advantage of me, I think financially a little bit,

1089
01:27:20.960 --> 01:27:27.199
but I wasn't that bothered. And then she in a place.

1090
01:27:27.319 --> 01:27:30.760
This is where I met her because a couple of

1091
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:33.319
this man said I can you buy me some foods?

1092
01:27:33.359 --> 01:27:36.239
I said, all right. Then he actually came up to me.

1093
01:27:36.239 --> 01:27:41.560
He said, you got any money? I said, have you

1094
01:27:41.560 --> 01:27:43.560
you asking me if I've got any money for? What's

1095
01:27:43.600 --> 01:27:46.039
in your wallet? What's in your wallet? And he got

1096
01:27:46.039 --> 01:27:48.720
his wallet out and said, look nothing. And he was

1097
01:27:48.760 --> 01:27:52.920
a taxi driver, but there was no customers. I said,

1098
01:27:53.199 --> 01:27:56.000
so what are you asking? Well, you showed me your

1099
01:27:56.000 --> 01:27:59.279
wallet for and he said, I'm hungry. You can I

1100
01:27:59.279 --> 01:28:01.960
have some food? I said, I'm sure you'll find someone

1101
01:28:02.000 --> 01:28:04.359
to give you food. He said, well you getting some food?

1102
01:28:04.399 --> 01:28:08.600
I said, you right? And he said what is this way?

1103
01:28:08.840 --> 01:28:11.239
I think he led me. I didn't realize he owned

1104
01:28:11.239 --> 01:28:14.119
the place he led me to actually had his name

1105
01:28:14.159 --> 01:28:15.920
on the front. And I don't know if he owned

1106
01:28:15.960 --> 01:28:17.920
it or rented it or it was a family thing,

1107
01:28:19.520 --> 01:28:22.399
but I mean he was hungry as well. There was

1108
01:28:22.479 --> 01:28:26.199
no customers, There was no one in there. There's this

1109
01:28:26.279 --> 01:28:32.560
little bar restaurant. There wasn't really a restaurant more takeaway,

1110
01:28:33.680 --> 01:28:37.600
so I gave him the food, gave his fellow taxi

1111
01:28:37.720 --> 01:28:43.439
driver I like, because I had moped taxis, gave them food,

1112
01:28:44.159 --> 01:28:48.159
and then I just left wait for a walk. Later

1113
01:28:48.239 --> 01:28:51.119
on in the evening, I forget all about it, and

1114
01:28:51.159 --> 01:28:53.960
I walked past and they all start shouting for me

1115
01:28:54.000 --> 01:28:57.079
to come in. And I didn't know who they were

1116
01:28:57.079 --> 01:28:59.000
because I didn't realize where I was because it was

1117
01:28:59.039 --> 01:29:03.680
all still new, and they were so, oh, come in,

1118
01:29:03.760 --> 01:29:06.560
let me buy you, give you a drink, and they

1119
01:29:06.560 --> 01:29:08.760
were like all over me, like being nice to me

1120
01:29:08.800 --> 01:29:13.399
and stuff, very very friendly. So I stayed in there

1121
01:29:13.439 --> 01:29:19.800
for a couple of hours, had some drinks, and met

1122
01:29:19.800 --> 01:29:22.800
this person that was a bit friendly as well. But

1123
01:29:23.119 --> 01:29:25.439
you know, it sort of became my tour guide for

1124
01:29:25.439 --> 01:29:31.680
a few days, showed me around and that I had

1125
01:29:31.680 --> 01:29:36.800
this idea. But maybe it was a little bit drunk,

1126
01:29:36.800 --> 01:29:40.279
but I had an idea, I thought, And this is

1127
01:29:40.319 --> 01:29:43.720
something I'd thought about before because I'd seen on YouTube

1128
01:29:45.560 --> 01:29:51.760
during twenty twenty and twenty twenty one, because the tourists

1129
01:29:53.840 --> 01:29:59.960
pretty much had disappeared, like completely for about two years.

1130
01:30:01.239 --> 01:30:06.680
They the people that would normally work, didn't have any

1131
01:30:06.720 --> 01:30:11.600
money for food, didn't have any food. So there was

1132
01:30:12.279 --> 01:30:16.000
charities and there was YouTubers and all stuff giving out

1133
01:30:16.039 --> 01:30:23.560
food to people queuing up along the beach. Some people

1134
01:30:23.600 --> 01:30:25.359
were running along to get the food, and I was

1135
01:30:25.439 --> 01:30:28.239
giving food out off the back of trucks and stuff

1136
01:30:28.239 --> 01:30:32.520
like that. I didn't see that when I got there,

1137
01:30:33.199 --> 01:30:35.880
but I did think to myself before I got there,

1138
01:30:36.720 --> 01:30:40.279
I want to give some food out. I wasn't expecting

1139
01:30:40.319 --> 01:30:41.960
to do it the way I did it, but I

1140
01:30:42.079 --> 01:30:46.319
was thinking I want to. It's been a dream, really

1141
01:30:46.359 --> 01:30:49.920
to be able to do something like that on a

1142
01:30:49.960 --> 01:30:57.960
more a bigger scale than just giving someone a burger

1143
01:30:57.960 --> 01:31:04.600
for McDonald's. Who's sitting in a a shop, a shop

1144
01:31:07.199 --> 01:31:12.920
what do you call it? A shop entrance? And I

1145
01:31:12.960 --> 01:31:18.680
thought it'd be nice to do something that was like

1146
01:31:18.680 --> 01:31:22.000
a one off situation that I'm possibly never going to

1147
01:31:22.039 --> 01:31:25.800
be able to do again. So what I decided is,

1148
01:31:27.760 --> 01:31:32.800
I said to the lady who was running this place

1149
01:31:33.439 --> 01:31:35.880
which sells food and it's like a little bar as

1150
01:31:35.920 --> 01:31:38.680
well where I got the food from during the day

1151
01:31:38.680 --> 01:31:44.119
for the taxi drivers or the motorbike taxi drivers. I

1152
01:31:44.159 --> 01:31:48.279
said to her, Actually, I said to the person I

1153
01:31:48.319 --> 01:31:52.079
was talking to. That became my guide. I got an idea.

1154
01:31:53.000 --> 01:32:00.640
She said, what's that? I said, what if? I because

1155
01:32:00.800 --> 01:32:03.079
she was telling me how people were hungry and how

1156
01:32:03.119 --> 01:32:05.680
there was no like there was. She was pointing out

1157
01:32:05.720 --> 01:32:08.199
the bar she used to work out, which had a

1158
01:32:08.279 --> 01:32:10.359
pool table, and it was just like a small bar,

1159
01:32:11.359 --> 01:32:14.760
but it was empty. She was living upstairs and then

1160
01:32:14.760 --> 01:32:20.000
pretty much a derelict room, didn't have anything, didn't have

1161
01:32:20.319 --> 01:32:22.359
you know, she was like living from one day to

1162
01:32:22.359 --> 01:32:28.159
the next. And I kind of became a meal ticket

1163
01:32:28.199 --> 01:32:31.640
for a little while, which, you know, it is what

1164
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:37.560
it is. It is fine. But she sort of pointed

1165
01:32:37.600 --> 01:32:40.039
me towards the lady that was in charge of that place,

1166
01:32:40.479 --> 01:32:43.479
of the place we were sitting in, and I said, well,

1167
01:32:43.520 --> 01:32:48.640
how much would it cost to give away a meal

1168
01:32:50.920 --> 01:32:56.239
and a drink like a meal in a bottle of water,

1169
01:32:57.000 --> 01:33:02.239
I think something like that. And she was working out.

1170
01:33:02.279 --> 01:33:04.119
She did, how many do you want to do? I said, well,

1171
01:33:04.319 --> 01:33:08.000
it depends how much they are each bear in my mind,

1172
01:33:08.039 --> 01:33:11.319
I had to try and figure it out the currency change,

1173
01:33:11.359 --> 01:33:19.920
you know, from pounds to tie bart or tie bart

1174
01:33:19.960 --> 01:33:26.399
to pounds, you know, conversion. And I was like, okay, well,

1175
01:33:26.479 --> 01:33:30.479
you know roughly what would it be and I couldn't

1176
01:33:30.479 --> 01:33:34.159
even tell you how much it was per meal, but

1177
01:33:34.199 --> 01:33:45.600
we decided to do a lot of meals. I don't

1178
01:33:45.640 --> 01:33:47.359
know what it was at one hundred, two hundred and

1179
01:33:47.359 --> 01:33:51.359
fifty two hundred, I can't remember. And then so we

1180
01:33:51.439 --> 01:33:53.960
did that and when they were all like stacked up.

1181
01:33:54.119 --> 01:33:56.039
There's actually a photograph of me on one of my

1182
01:33:56.159 --> 01:34:02.319
podcasts with the staff there. They're all like hugging me.

1183
01:34:04.039 --> 01:34:08.399
And most of the people I gave the food out too,

1184
01:34:09.239 --> 01:34:14.920
were coming on mopeds because even though the job was

1185
01:34:16.199 --> 01:34:25.600
taxi drivers, they didn't really have any customers. So I

1186
01:34:25.680 --> 01:34:29.279
gave out not just me, the other staff did as well.

1187
01:34:29.600 --> 01:34:31.840
The other like everyone kind of muck did and gave

1188
01:34:31.880 --> 01:34:35.600
out the food. But I was it went really quickly,

1189
01:34:36.079 --> 01:34:40.079
like really quickly, And then they kept cooking more and

1190
01:34:40.119 --> 01:34:42.439
said you you want me to cook more? She said,

1191
01:34:42.439 --> 01:34:44.359
I bought more. I can cook it if you want.

1192
01:34:44.399 --> 01:34:51.199
And I lost track. I lost track of what I

1193
01:34:51.239 --> 01:34:54.119
was spending, I lost track of what I was given away.

1194
01:34:55.159 --> 01:34:58.199
And I did it the next day as well. I

1195
01:34:58.199 --> 01:35:03.800
think I did twice as much the next day. Yeah,

1196
01:35:03.800 --> 01:35:09.880
I spent a lot, a lot on that. It's the

1197
01:35:09.920 --> 01:35:13.359
most Yeah, it's yeah, A lot. I feel I've never

1198
01:35:13.520 --> 01:35:15.520
never spent that much money in one day. I don't

1199
01:35:15.560 --> 01:35:20.279
think it for that kind of thing before. But it

1200
01:35:20.439 --> 01:35:26.319
was one of the best experiences of my life giving

1201
01:35:26.359 --> 01:35:29.840
away food to people that were hungry. I can't think

1202
01:35:29.840 --> 01:35:33.520
of anything really better than that to be more more

1203
01:35:33.640 --> 01:35:42.039
useful in a way. I know it's short term solution,

1204
01:35:42.319 --> 01:35:46.000
but it's still I mean, it might be a short

1205
01:35:46.079 --> 01:35:48.960
term solution, but it's going to mean a hell of

1206
01:35:49.039 --> 01:35:51.479
a lot to the person that's eating. And how do

1207
01:35:51.520 --> 01:35:55.319
I know, just because I've given out a meal to someone,

1208
01:35:55.640 --> 01:35:59.720
they might be sharing that with three people, they might

1209
01:35:59.720 --> 01:36:02.560
be taking at home to their kid and not eating

1210
01:36:02.600 --> 01:36:10.479
anything themselves, you know, I don't know. I find out

1211
01:36:11.239 --> 01:36:16.600
after the third day, and this is weird. I find

1212
01:36:16.640 --> 01:36:20.760
out after the third day that I was being charged

1213
01:36:22.880 --> 01:36:30.600
Western prices for the food. So I was being charged

1214
01:36:30.640 --> 01:36:33.079
the same amount as I would have been charged if

1215
01:36:33.119 --> 01:36:38.920
I'd have gone in there as a tourist to order

1216
01:36:38.920 --> 01:36:41.279
a meal. That's how much I would have been charged.

1217
01:36:41.439 --> 01:36:43.960
And I got charged that amount for each and every meal.

1218
01:36:45.920 --> 01:36:48.000
But if I had been a tie, I'd have gone

1219
01:36:48.039 --> 01:36:50.159
in there and ordered the same thing. It would have

1220
01:36:50.159 --> 01:36:58.199
been probably one third of the price, but they charged

1221
01:36:58.199 --> 01:37:05.720
me the full price, and the lady that was going

1222
01:37:05.840 --> 01:37:08.479
to be like, give me a bit as a tour guide.

1223
01:37:09.800 --> 01:37:13.439
She told me after about the fourth day, she said,

1224
01:37:13.439 --> 01:37:15.880
you couldn't. She fell out with them over it, but

1225
01:37:15.920 --> 01:37:19.039
she said she couldn't tell me because I seemed so

1226
01:37:19.119 --> 01:37:22.159
happy doing what I was doing, and they told her,

1227
01:37:22.159 --> 01:37:25.039
don't you dare tell them because I think she was

1228
01:37:25.039 --> 01:37:28.039
also her boss for the other bar when it reopens,

1229
01:37:28.079 --> 01:37:31.880
and just I didn't go back there after that. I

1230
01:37:31.920 --> 01:37:36.640
didn't go back, didn't. I just, you know, once I

1231
01:37:36.680 --> 01:37:40.239
found that out, I was a bit because it wasn't

1232
01:37:40.239 --> 01:37:42.920
even about the money. It was about the simple fact

1233
01:37:43.039 --> 01:37:51.399
that I could have given twice three night, I was

1234
01:37:51.399 --> 01:37:55.239
only given away one given away. I was only given

1235
01:37:55.279 --> 01:37:57.520
away one third of what I could have been given away.

1236
01:37:58.239 --> 01:38:01.319
I could have given away two thirds more food and

1237
01:38:01.439 --> 01:38:08.399
meals to people that needed it, and I wasn't. And

1238
01:38:08.439 --> 01:38:15.760
that's hundreds of meals that I didn't get to give away.

1239
01:38:15.880 --> 01:38:19.239
So that was, yeah, I didn't like that. That kind

1240
01:38:19.279 --> 01:38:24.680
of left a little bit of her horrible. I mean,

1241
01:38:24.920 --> 01:38:26.920
I understand they want to get paid for the work

1242
01:38:26.960 --> 01:38:28.840
because they were cooking and it was hard working it.

1243
01:38:29.680 --> 01:38:31.800
But wouldn't they get paid. Don't they take that out

1244
01:38:31.840 --> 01:38:36.279
of the that would be the wages they would take anywhay,

1245
01:38:36.319 --> 01:38:39.399
isn't it if they're not going to work for nothing

1246
01:38:39.960 --> 01:38:42.560
when they give away the food to the taie people,

1247
01:38:42.760 --> 01:38:44.800
they're still going to make a profit, still going to

1248
01:38:44.840 --> 01:38:48.760
cover their wages and cover their costs. And bear in

1249
01:38:48.800 --> 01:38:53.720
mind how many there's No. I can't imagine any day

1250
01:38:55.039 --> 01:38:57.039
in her history that she would have sold as many

1251
01:38:57.359 --> 01:39:02.600
meals as that in a day. Ever, uh, the what

1252
01:39:02.680 --> 01:39:08.359
she did that day, those two days with me, and

1253
01:39:08.439 --> 01:39:09.880
all she had to do was cook. She didn't have

1254
01:39:09.920 --> 01:39:14.680
to she didn't have to deal with anyone else. And

1255
01:39:14.800 --> 01:39:17.319
at the end, I think you said, oh, can you pay?

1256
01:39:17.600 --> 01:39:21.960
Can you pay my system? Give her a bit more money?

1257
01:39:22.680 --> 01:39:25.199
Like I just said yes, But I thought, BlimE me,

1258
01:39:26.079 --> 01:39:28.159
that's this is before I realized I've been ripped off.

1259
01:39:29.680 --> 01:39:34.159
So yeah, I said, it wasn't about the money rather

1260
01:39:34.159 --> 01:39:37.560
than about I could have given more free stuff out.

1261
01:39:39.640 --> 01:39:43.000
So that was that was weird. Some of the I

1262
01:39:43.079 --> 01:39:49.359
quite liked some of the Buddhists rituals that they do.

1263
01:39:49.680 --> 01:39:54.920
I like the bowing, that's nice, it's very respectful. The

1264
01:40:00.079 --> 01:40:03.520
what I'm going to say, oh yeah, even when they're drinking,

1265
01:40:03.560 --> 01:40:06.119
they'll chuck a bit of the drink into the street.

1266
01:40:06.920 --> 01:40:11.520
It's like an offering to the Buddha. So it's kind

1267
01:40:11.520 --> 01:40:16.600
of even though they're doing technically is a Buddhist really

1268
01:40:17.600 --> 01:40:21.640
it is like a non toxicant religion. You don't take toxicants.

1269
01:40:21.720 --> 01:40:24.840
It's one of the one of the I don't say

1270
01:40:24.920 --> 01:40:26.800
rules are one of the things.

1271
01:40:27.600 --> 01:40:27.760
But.

1272
01:40:30.680 --> 01:40:35.359
It's less that their Buddhists, as in not meditating and

1273
01:40:35.520 --> 01:40:41.239
not practicing, but they have a monk practice for them.

1274
01:40:42.199 --> 01:40:44.800
So the monk will come down from the mountain or

1275
01:40:44.800 --> 01:40:50.359
from the monastery and they will give offerings to the

1276
01:40:50.399 --> 01:40:58.840
monk in the form of usually food, and then the

1277
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:04.359
monk will say some prayers for them, and they'll sit

1278
01:41:04.439 --> 01:41:07.600
there and just have the monk offer prayers to them.

1279
01:41:08.079 --> 01:41:11.520
So it's a give and take situation. So the monk

1280
01:41:11.800 --> 01:41:16.800
sits in the monastery all day meditating and practicing for

1281
01:41:18.479 --> 01:41:21.399
the rest of the people in Thailand, and they can

1282
01:41:21.479 --> 01:41:25.439
just get on with their lives and not have to

1283
01:41:25.479 --> 01:41:29.239
do that. So it's a very different way to how

1284
01:41:29.279 --> 01:41:35.600
the Western meditators work. Really, I mean, it isn't it

1285
01:41:35.640 --> 01:41:40.319
isn't we don't I say, we are not that involved.

1286
01:41:40.920 --> 01:41:44.159
I haven't been involved for years. Really, in my mind

1287
01:41:44.199 --> 01:41:56.399
I am, but in practice i'm not. Yeah, I'm trying

1288
01:41:56.439 --> 01:42:03.439
to think other things. What this is the irony? When

1289
01:42:03.439 --> 01:42:11.600
I got back this, my tour guide started contacting me,

1290
01:42:11.960 --> 01:42:15.840
asking me for stuff. So I ended up buying a television,

1291
01:42:16.840 --> 01:42:21.119
ended up sending them money, all these kinds of things

1292
01:42:21.520 --> 01:42:25.279
by I forget what was called some app And in

1293
01:42:25.319 --> 01:42:26.960
the end I just had to cut her off because

1294
01:42:27.000 --> 01:42:30.600
she was just kept asking for more, more, more, more,

1295
01:42:30.760 --> 01:42:35.159
more and more. But she was a good tour guide.

1296
01:42:35.800 --> 01:42:39.840
So I paid her to do to take me around,

1297
01:42:40.199 --> 01:42:43.439
paid her for everything that she needed. Food, We went

1298
01:42:43.800 --> 01:42:48.399
and fed the dogs. We got food off her. What's it.

1299
01:42:49.760 --> 01:42:55.640
There's this uh street food vendor and he was making

1300
01:42:55.680 --> 01:42:59.319
these like meat stick things on sticks, almost like kebabs,

1301
01:42:59.359 --> 01:43:03.800
I suppose, and there'd be three in a pack, and

1302
01:43:03.880 --> 01:43:07.880
maybe they'd had vegetables on them as well. And I

1303
01:43:07.920 --> 01:43:12.159
bought the entire store. And we walked through the beach.

1304
01:43:12.680 --> 01:43:15.239
And it's good to have her with me because she

1305
01:43:15.319 --> 01:43:21.079
knew who not to approach. She said, don't go near them.

1306
01:43:21.359 --> 01:43:24.960
They don't like foreigners because some people didn't like the

1307
01:43:25.039 --> 01:43:30.159
you know people. She just knew who was who. So

1308
01:43:31.439 --> 01:43:37.000
we would give out the food along the beach and

1309
01:43:37.039 --> 01:43:40.079
I thought, and then we walked back after doing that.

1310
01:43:41.960 --> 01:43:45.199
I couldn't believe that stall was full again, full of food.

1311
01:43:46.640 --> 01:43:50.039
I thought I'd done him a favor. You go home now. Nope,

1312
01:43:50.840 --> 01:43:53.760
it just appeared out of nowhere. It's almost like he

1313
01:43:53.840 --> 01:43:55.520
just shook it like a magic trick and all the

1314
01:43:55.520 --> 01:43:59.760
food is there again. Wow. So we've got a load

1315
01:43:59.800 --> 01:44:03.880
of more food and fed the dogs. So there's a

1316
01:44:03.880 --> 01:44:07.640
lot of stray dogs around, so we start feeding dogs.

1317
01:44:08.239 --> 01:44:11.199
Some of them just have to kind of chuck the

1318
01:44:11.239 --> 01:44:13.560
meat and let them eat it. And there was this

1319
01:44:13.640 --> 01:44:20.399
big pound of massive gate and there's that waste ground

1320
01:44:20.439 --> 01:44:24.319
or whatever, and there was huge amounts of dogs behind there.

1321
01:44:26.239 --> 01:44:30.079
So I'd be chucking food over there for them and

1322
01:44:31.119 --> 01:44:35.520
it was cool. I got to do things that I

1323
01:44:35.600 --> 01:44:40.079
probably never would get to do here. I mean, I

1324
01:44:40.239 --> 01:44:43.399
can't go around feeding stray dogs in the UK because

1325
01:44:43.439 --> 01:44:51.199
there ain't none. Really, there's not going to walk on

1326
01:44:51.279 --> 01:44:55.560
a beach and give out food to people some bathing

1327
01:44:55.640 --> 01:44:59.560
on a beach because they probably don't want that. It's

1328
01:44:59.600 --> 01:45:02.520
a different scenario. Plus, people aren't sleeping on the beach

1329
01:45:02.560 --> 01:45:05.640
at night in this kind well maybe they are. I

1330
01:45:05.640 --> 01:45:07.920
don't know. I've not been everywhere, but there was a

1331
01:45:07.920 --> 01:45:11.119
lot of people were on the beach late at night

1332
01:45:11.840 --> 01:45:17.199
just sleeping. So there was that, I know, I thing

1333
01:45:17.279 --> 01:45:20.800
I quite liked. There was this This sounds like I'm

1334
01:45:20.840 --> 01:45:22.560
just bragging about what I did, but this is just

1335
01:45:22.640 --> 01:45:27.479
what I did. It's not really bragging and just it

1336
01:45:27.640 --> 01:45:33.079
was something I'm I'm glad I got to do. And yeah,

1337
01:45:33.199 --> 01:45:34.960
so I did a few other things like that as well,

1338
01:45:35.000 --> 01:45:46.000
but I'm glad I've got to do that. Yeah, I am.

1339
01:45:46.560 --> 01:45:49.880
It's a shame too. I don't think it kind of

1340
01:45:49.920 --> 01:45:53.119
worked out so well that's what I would have wanted

1341
01:45:53.159 --> 01:45:56.800
it to, but it's it was a great experience to

1342
01:45:56.800 --> 01:46:02.880
be able to do that. So yeah, that was my Thailand,

1343
01:46:03.760 --> 01:46:06.680
one of my one of my Thailand journeys. I think

1344
01:46:06.720 --> 01:46:11.520
I've talked forever about this now, so I didn't have

1345
01:46:11.520 --> 01:46:20.720
any other questions. So yeah, thank you, thank you. What

1346
01:46:20.760 --> 01:46:22.279
I'm going to do, Wait a minute, I'm going to

1347
01:46:22.319 --> 01:46:28.520
go into my website. Okay, go into my website and

1348
01:46:28.600 --> 01:46:30.680
let me see if it works. If I go to

1349
01:46:30.800 --> 01:46:36.279
Jasonnewland dot com ask me anything Q and a Friday

1350
01:46:36.319 --> 01:46:39.399
submission right at the top of the page. So I'm

1351
01:46:39.399 --> 01:46:51.119
going to put in right Willie Warmer email Willi Warmer

1352
01:46:52.319 --> 01:47:08.359
at booby So my question have you I'd like to

1353
01:47:08.399 --> 01:47:21.720
give different weird, funny names? Have you always been so handsome? Right?

1354
01:47:21.760 --> 01:47:25.399
So that's the question. So I'll see what comes through.

1355
01:47:25.560 --> 01:47:28.479
I said, Look, so I'm let's submit that all it's

1356
01:47:28.520 --> 01:47:30.319
asking me. Am I a robot? No, I'm not a

1357
01:47:30.439 --> 01:47:35.039
robot sending the message was sent successfully, so let me

1358
01:47:35.079 --> 01:47:39.760
see if the message came up in the junk mail

1359
01:47:40.439 --> 01:47:50.720
it has. Let me click. So the message from Williwarmer. Ah,

1360
01:47:50.920 --> 01:47:55.560
this message sent from Jason dot com Williwarmer email Williwarmer

1361
01:47:55.680 --> 01:48:00.279
at boobies dot com form type contact Have you always

1362
01:48:00.319 --> 01:48:03.439
been so handsome? There's no d in that, so I

1363
01:48:03.439 --> 01:48:07.079
should have done it wrong. So it works, So if

1364
01:48:07.119 --> 01:48:14.960
you have questions for next Friday. For next Friday, you

1365
01:48:15.000 --> 01:48:19.079
can start adding now so that next Friday I can

1366
01:48:19.119 --> 01:48:25.159
actually answer some questions rather than this has been like

1367
01:48:25.199 --> 01:48:28.960
a more like an ordinary let me boy to sleep, really,

1368
01:48:29.000 --> 01:48:37.520
isn't it? Which is fine? But it's just weird. I

1369
01:48:37.520 --> 01:48:40.359
didn't think I have a ever have a week where

1370
01:48:40.359 --> 01:48:44.520
it was just one question, because I haven't the whole

1371
01:48:44.560 --> 01:48:48.319
time i've been doing this, and the Q and a

1372
01:48:48.439 --> 01:48:51.760
Friday is wonderful. Which the first one, I don't know

1373
01:48:51.760 --> 01:48:54.079
if I've got it, I've got a there's something like

1374
01:48:55.000 --> 01:48:58.680
Q and a Friday one hundred and seventy two episodes. Okay,

1375
01:48:58.720 --> 01:49:02.239
that's with all the different ones. So let's see when

1376
01:49:02.359 --> 01:49:07.840
was the first one? And the first one was, Oh

1377
01:49:07.920 --> 01:49:14.600
my goodness, you won't even believe this. That you might

1378
01:49:14.640 --> 01:49:17.119
be asleep now, but if you are awake, you won't

1379
01:49:17.119 --> 01:49:25.920
believe it. The very first Q and a Friday was

1380
01:49:25.960 --> 01:49:30.520
a tenth of April twenty twenty four, and it's now

1381
01:49:30.560 --> 01:49:34.720
the eleventh of April twenty twenty five. So I have

1382
01:49:34.880 --> 01:49:48.520
literally done every single week since then. I don't know

1383
01:49:48.560 --> 01:49:52.520
if I've missed any out. I'm pretty sure i've done

1384
01:49:52.560 --> 01:50:04.399
every week. In fact, i'm pretty sure I have blimey

1385
01:50:05.319 --> 01:50:13.880
wow wow a year. So this is a year of

1386
01:50:13.960 --> 01:50:16.680
letting boy to sleep, and it's probably the worst one yet.

1387
01:50:17.039 --> 01:50:23.399
One question I should have put that if I have

1388
01:50:23.479 --> 01:50:26.600
known now, I could have put the first year anniversary

1389
01:50:27.479 --> 01:50:31.079
Q and a Friday I think he's moaning now I

1390
01:50:31.079 --> 01:50:36.520
don't know what he wants. Wow, blimey. Okay, anyway, I'm

1391
01:50:36.560 --> 01:50:40.560
going to go. Thank you for listening. Remember Q and it. Oh,

1392
01:50:41.199 --> 01:50:46.479
tonight is the fction night for celebrity Big Brother. I

1393
01:50:46.520 --> 01:50:49.960
think that's on at nine o'clock. So I've been watching

1394
01:50:49.960 --> 01:50:54.199
that at nine. It's now caught past seven, which means

1395
01:50:54.640 --> 01:51:01.760
probably get myself some food, and then I will watch

1396
01:51:04.239 --> 01:51:08.560
the end of a movie that I started to watch. Well,

1397
01:51:08.600 --> 01:51:11.199
actually know what I'll do play watch, I watch something

1398
01:51:11.279 --> 01:51:13.560
while I do that. Well, maybe i'll try and edit

1399
01:51:13.600 --> 01:51:17.720
this now. I want to get this edited before People

1400
01:51:17.720 --> 01:51:22.239
Brother starts. It's even out. I'll do it first thing

1401
01:51:22.239 --> 01:51:29.239
in the morning. I'd kind of like to do it tonight. Yeah,

1402
01:51:29.520 --> 01:51:32.800
we'll see. So thank you for listening, Thank you Hillary

1403
01:51:32.800 --> 01:51:37.199
for your question. And sorry, there's only one one answer

1404
01:51:37.279 --> 01:51:42.079
to give. Please, thank you for listening. Remember to be

1405
01:51:42.159 --> 01:51:47.199
kind to yourself and also be gentle with yourself. Could

1406
01:51:47.199 --> 01:51:50.000
you deserve to be happy and you do deserve to

1407
01:51:50.000 --> 01:52:06.079
feel safe? Lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more

1408
01:52:07.119 --> 01:52:17.359
deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way that can

1409
01:52:18.720 --> 01:52:28.000
not just allow you to feel calmer now and throughout

1410
01:52:29.039 --> 01:52:38.199
the time we spend together here, not just relaxed at

1411
01:52:38.239 --> 01:52:42.399
the end of the recording when it's finished and you

1412
01:52:42.479 --> 01:52:52.800
can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but also

1413
01:53:00.319 --> 01:53:06.800
I think it would be nice to have those feelings

1414
01:53:06.840 --> 01:53:23.079
of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

1415
01:53:28.199 --> 01:53:40.079
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

1416
01:53:40.720 --> 01:53:52.199
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

1417
01:53:52.319 --> 01:54:00.359
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people

1418
01:54:00.399 --> 01:54:04.640
do and myself as well. Sometimes I find one particular

1419
01:54:04.720 --> 01:54:14.760
recording that really resonates with me, and I just listen

1420
01:54:14.840 --> 01:54:20.119
to it over and over again every morning, every evening.

1421
01:54:27.800 --> 01:54:32.399
There was this recording from We're going back to about

1422
01:54:32.560 --> 01:54:37.840
nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a

1423
01:54:37.920 --> 01:54:47.359
guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I

1424
01:54:47.439 --> 01:54:50.760
managed to find it again and it still has the

1425
01:54:50.800 --> 01:55:00.720
same effect on me. And part of it was person's

1426
01:55:00.840 --> 01:55:13.600
voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

1427
01:55:13.840 --> 01:55:20.800
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

1428
01:55:20.840 --> 01:55:32.159
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play

1429
01:55:32.199 --> 01:55:40.359
button that since I've done that, pressed the play button.

1430
01:55:41.119 --> 01:55:52.119
This is in the days of CD players pressed the

1431
01:55:52.199 --> 01:55:57.520
play button in fact, it might have even been a

1432
01:55:57.600 --> 01:56:02.159
tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

1433
01:56:02.199 --> 01:56:20.640
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

1434
01:56:20.760 --> 01:56:28.239
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

1435
01:56:30.159 --> 01:56:43.600
knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just almost

1436
01:56:43.640 --> 01:57:01.199
went into automatic relaxation, and I remember, remember, my mind

1437
01:57:03.840 --> 01:57:14.840
would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this

1438
01:57:14.920 --> 01:57:24.399
recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long

1439
01:57:24.479 --> 01:57:33.079
before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1440
01:57:34.279 --> 01:57:37.960
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six.

1441
01:57:44.520 --> 01:57:50.600
I knew, I knew how.

1442
01:57:51.960 --> 01:58:05.760
Helpful I found being able to just let go, to

1443
01:58:05.880 --> 01:58:11.079
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1444
01:58:18.720 --> 01:58:25.479
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1445
01:58:26.880 --> 01:58:36.279
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1446
01:58:36.359 --> 01:58:48.039
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1447
01:58:48.079 --> 01:59:01.960
me for over a decade. Maybe not so obviously, not

1448
01:59:02.000 --> 01:59:08.319
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1449
01:59:10.159 --> 01:59:25.199
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1450
01:59:25.239 --> 01:59:36.239
do which you may not realize by listening.

1451
01:59:36.800 --> 01:59:37.039
Is.

1452
01:59:41.000 --> 01:59:56.039
When I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also

1453
01:59:56.840 --> 02:00:07.720
am affected by the words yes that I say. So

1454
02:00:07.880 --> 02:00:16.960
if I said to you, focus on your feet, notice

1455
02:00:17.079 --> 02:00:24.279
your feet relaxing. I will be focusing on my feet.

1456
02:00:29.159 --> 02:00:46.560
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1457
02:00:46.720 --> 02:00:54.399
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1458
02:00:54.439 --> 02:01:04.680
each hand. Perhaps no is the the air in the room,

1459
02:01:05.199 --> 02:01:16.760
the temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1460
02:01:17.840 --> 02:01:21.720
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1461
02:01:21.880 --> 02:01:29.920
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1462
02:01:30.319 --> 02:01:35.239
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1463
02:01:43.399 --> 02:01:54.039
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1464
02:01:54.359 --> 02:02:22.560
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1465
02:02:22.720 --> 02:02:29.680
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1466
02:02:29.760 --> 02:02:42.920
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1467
02:02:46.119 --> 02:02:59.600
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1468
02:03:07.479 --> 02:03:20.079
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1469
02:03:24.960 --> 02:03:34.079
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1470
02:03:34.399 --> 02:03:43.479
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1471
02:03:45.399 --> 02:03:52.680
and I think I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1472
02:03:55.560 --> 02:04:02.760
This snoring was a pig turned up. That's why I

1473
02:04:02.840 --> 02:04:10.960
sound like when I snore. How I get really into

1474
02:04:11.039 --> 02:04:30.399
the whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How

1475
02:04:30.479 --> 02:04:40.800
relaxed do you feel in your feet? How relaxed you

1476
02:04:40.920 --> 02:05:02.199
feel in your hands? I have noticed more and more

1477
02:05:08.079 --> 02:05:20.840
that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1478
02:05:24.439 --> 02:05:40.640
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1479
02:05:43.760 --> 02:06:04.720
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier without

1480
02:06:06.199 --> 02:06:37.079
necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to notice

1481
02:06:37.560 --> 02:07:07.319
the ease in which you breathe so naturally. You breathe

1482
02:07:07.880 --> 02:07:51.560
so very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving,

1483
02:07:57.239 --> 02:08:10.600
when I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1484
02:08:12.720 --> 02:08:27.079
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

1485
02:08:29.119 --> 02:09:01.920
life giving oxygen. It feels nice to, if nothing else,

1486
02:09:05.119 --> 02:09:39.239
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1487
02:09:39.640 --> 02:10:30.159
of peace serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1488
02:10:30.399 --> 02:11:05.520
just drip by so very slowly, relaxed, very deeply peaceful,

1489
02:11:15.439 --> 02:12:23.920
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1490
02:12:24.680 --> 02:13:16.079
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1491
02:13:16.239 --> 02:13:44.840
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

1492
02:13:45.159 --> 02:13:56.439
sensations have allowed the stress to rip out of your

1493
02:13:56.479 --> 02:14:23.840
body to appear out of every part of your body

1494
02:14:26.239 --> 02:14:59.840
and being released from your brain er your mind slowly

1495
02:15:04.720 --> 02:16:00.880
but surely the muscles, thingles relax rs R so very deeply, rights,

1496
02:16:06.079 --> 02:16:31.479
so deeply in the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1497
02:16:31.760 --> 02:16:59.600
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1498
02:17:04.520 --> 02:17:37.879
and deeper and deeper, noticine, the feelings in the back

1499
02:17:37.959 --> 02:18:40.319
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front

1500
02:18:40.399 --> 02:19:34.239
of your body, I allsay, feeling peaceful deeply, there's a

1501
02:19:34.399 --> 02:20:15.959
sense of peace spreads through your very core. Even when

1502
02:20:16.079 --> 02:20:43.959
you focus on your mind, your mind becomes bef and slower,

1503
02:21:00.040 --> 02:22:19.520
even deeper, relaxing, so very slow, your stomach peace for

1504
02:22:19.879 --> 02:23:01.959
in your stomach, you're back. Notice it is how relaxed

1505
02:23:06.319 --> 02:23:44.360
you now feel. In the hole of your back. You

1506
02:23:44.760 --> 02:23:53.840
spy from your brain all the way down the middle

1507
02:23:53.879 --> 02:24:04.200
of your back, sending and receiving and millions of messages

1508
02:24:04.920 --> 02:25:35.959
every day, deepcomfort, increasing deeply relaxed. Your knees les, spreading

1509
02:25:36.159 --> 02:25:45.239
these signals down a spine or cord into air every

1510
02:25:45.520 --> 02:26:04.280
part of your body, your shins and your half muscles,

1511
02:26:31.440 --> 02:27:00.319
we're outbows, feelings of peace and tranquility, spreading through through

1512
02:27:00.360 --> 02:27:17.719
your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers,

1513
02:27:22.000 --> 02:27:23.840
all the way till your lower back.

1514
02:27:25.799 --> 02:27:26.239
Mhm.

1515
02:27:35.639 --> 02:28:39.120
Thettinger rear, the tinker peace, drifting mind just wandering.

1516
02:28:38.399 --> 02:29:03.319
Away, happy to let go, let go, depally, let go,

1517
02:29:28.840 --> 02:29:57.040
so tranquil, the whole body.

1518
02:29:59.319 --> 02:32:15.719
Enjoy sense, lett him go he ephn more peece enjoying

1519
02:32:21.360 --> 02:32:57.959
the space, this space of peace and safety. So very

1520
02:33:01.120 --> 02:35:00.280
hey y, letting go. Maybe we can just focus the

1521
02:35:00.399 --> 02:35:35.040
different parts of your body, just to notice your.

1522
02:35:35.000 --> 02:35:37.719
Forehead and your eyes.

1523
02:36:09.760 --> 02:36:56.639
Mutual, so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

1524
02:37:42.920 --> 02:39:35.239
es y, peace for energy, peace to breathe so much easier. Yes,

1525
02:39:56.559 --> 02:41:01.639
you may have. I may not have noticed your mind drifting, peaceful, moveingly,

1526
02:41:01.799 --> 02:41:22.040
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1527
02:41:26.200 --> 02:43:29.520
blissful pace, terrefting out to pace. Come so calm, let

1528
02:43:29.719 --> 02:44:41.440
him go peace with mind rexed fourty c relax cy rexed.

1529
02:45:05.680 --> 02:45:32.559
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1530
02:45:38.920 --> 02:46:47.200
so peace m hm. Uh like's fair. And you could

1531
02:46:47.319 --> 02:46:57.360
start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed, even

1532
02:46:57.520 --> 02:47:08.639
though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that sense

1533
02:47:09.040 --> 02:47:14.959
of physical comfort. That is growing within you throughout your body,

1534
02:47:18.120 --> 02:47:27.760
and your mind starts to slow down, and that could

1535
02:47:27.840 --> 02:47:36.159
be almost in recognition of I guess my speech not

1536
02:47:36.319 --> 02:47:53.479
being particularly fast and things just generally feel calmer. Just

1537
02:47:53.799 --> 02:48:02.319
by listening to my voice, you give yourself an opportunity

1538
02:48:04.040 --> 02:48:09.799
to take a break from the day, take a break

1539
02:48:09.879 --> 02:48:17.639
from your life as it is, and to give yourself

1540
02:48:17.680 --> 02:48:25.639
a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

1541
02:48:27.799 --> 02:48:33.200
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1542
02:48:33.360 --> 02:48:44.000
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

1543
02:48:45.399 --> 02:48:54.120
and it stresses that you had in your body. It's

1544
02:48:54.159 --> 02:48:58.799
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1545
02:49:00.120 --> 02:49:11.719
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1546
02:49:12.559 --> 02:49:22.079
that negativity with positive heathing energy which then fills your

1547
02:49:22.120 --> 02:49:34.000
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1548
02:49:34.840 --> 02:49:53.319
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

1549
02:49:56.399 --> 02:50:04.479
an energy that HM spreads through your body like a

1550
02:50:04.639 --> 02:50:18.760
wave of comfort, and all this comes and just allowing

1551
02:50:18.840 --> 02:50:27.319
yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long

1552
02:50:27.399 --> 02:50:37.399
you want it to be, to just rest and allow

1553
02:50:39.959 --> 02:50:49.920
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1554
02:50:50.079 --> 02:51:06.280
the settings of comfort and relaxation can't, which allows more

1555
02:51:06.440 --> 02:51:19.879
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1556
02:51:20.079 --> 02:51:28.319
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1557
02:51:28.440 --> 02:51:39.520
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1558
02:51:40.520 --> 02:51:54.799
with that growing positivity and calmness, And it feels nice.

1559
02:51:54.959 --> 02:52:00.959
It really does feel nice to know that you are

1560
02:52:01.000 --> 02:52:11.200
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

1561
02:52:14.440 --> 02:52:27.959
and to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout

1562
02:52:28.000 --> 02:52:40.239
your body. And as I focus on each part of

1563
02:52:40.319 --> 02:52:52.799
your body, you can notice that that part becomes even

1564
02:52:53.760 --> 02:53:03.079
more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes even

1565
02:53:03.280 --> 02:53:16.000
more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as I

1566
02:53:16.200 --> 02:53:24.559
move down your body, starting at your head, the parts

1567
02:53:24.639 --> 02:53:32.079
that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

1568
02:53:34.840 --> 02:53:40.879
and those parts that we've not yet focused on or

1569
02:53:41.040 --> 02:53:52.840
just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation of even

1570
02:53:53.239 --> 02:54:06.079
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm gonna start by

1571
02:54:06.159 --> 02:54:13.799
focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of the feelings

1572
02:54:13.840 --> 02:54:24.159
of your forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert

1573
02:54:24.239 --> 02:54:29.719
the Pigeon can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

1574
02:54:33.639 --> 02:54:39.760
Just means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't

1575
02:54:39.760 --> 02:54:47.799
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

1576
02:54:47.840 --> 02:55:00.200
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around. So

1577
02:55:00.239 --> 02:55:05.479
as you focus on your forehead, just notice how it

1578
02:55:05.639 --> 02:55:15.559
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

1579
02:55:15.799 --> 02:55:25.360
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1580
02:55:25.479 --> 02:55:38.600
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1581
02:55:38.680 --> 02:55:45.799
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1582
02:55:49.079 --> 02:55:59.719
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1583
02:55:59.799 --> 02:56:07.079
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1584
02:56:08.239 --> 02:56:16.200
your teeth, and your gums, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1585
02:56:19.719 --> 02:56:30.000
calm and loose. As you focus now on your jaw,

1586
02:56:33.000 --> 02:56:36.600
not just the part of your jaw near your mouth

1587
02:56:37.360 --> 02:56:41.680
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1588
02:56:41.719 --> 02:56:48.239
of your face to your ears, that hole of your

1589
02:56:48.319 --> 02:57:15.639
jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck,

1590
02:57:18.280 --> 02:57:24.079
the front of your neck and your throat relaxing and

1591
02:57:25.600 --> 02:57:36.120
loose and calm. The side of your neck, the right

1592
02:57:36.239 --> 02:57:50.239
and left side of your neck, relax and loose and calm.

1593
02:57:55.520 --> 02:58:02.399
And now the back of your neck. Focusing on the

1594
02:58:02.479 --> 02:58:12.920
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1595
02:58:13.079 --> 02:58:22.000
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1596
02:58:22.959 --> 02:58:33.680
increasing comfort and release that you can experience in the

1597
02:58:33.719 --> 02:58:46.000
back of your neck, moving down your back and moving

1598
02:58:46.239 --> 02:58:50.639
either side of your spine right from the top of

1599
02:58:50.680 --> 02:58:56.280
your back all the way down to the bottom of

1600
02:58:56.319 --> 02:59:13.280
your back down to your lower back, and as you

1601
02:59:13.520 --> 02:59:20.879
move up and down your spine, you can feel the

1602
02:59:21.040 --> 02:59:36.159
muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more. And

1603
02:59:36.239 --> 02:59:43.120
as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to

1604
02:59:43.159 --> 02:59:53.600
spread outwards from your spine into both sides of your back,

1605
02:59:57.360 --> 03:00:01.120
the top of your back, the middle, and your lower back.

1606
03:00:04.559 --> 03:00:11.760
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1607
03:00:11.920 --> 03:00:17.000
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1608
03:00:17.079 --> 03:00:27.040
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1609
03:00:27.040 --> 03:00:34.399
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1610
03:00:34.440 --> 03:00:47.920
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

1611
03:00:47.959 --> 03:00:58.760
back it seems to be an extra special feeling of

1612
03:00:58.879 --> 03:01:10.920
comfort that spreads into your hips sit down your lower back,

1613
03:01:11.200 --> 03:01:19.200
into your hips, into the area where your cosicks are,

1614
03:01:22.760 --> 03:01:30.399
and into your buttocks, and all these muscles that spread

1615
03:01:31.719 --> 03:01:41.440
from your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1616
03:01:45.879 --> 03:01:58.239
start to really let go, I don't even know where about.

1617
03:01:58.360 --> 03:02:03.639
To focus on your shape, shoulders, your back, and your

1618
03:02:03.840 --> 03:02:22.200
spine will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly.

1619
03:02:26.840 --> 03:02:31.840
And as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1620
03:02:32.040 --> 03:03:02.760
that they're already feeling really loose. They're already feeding calm

1621
03:03:02.559 --> 03:03:15.280
and fear. Those muscles then move from your neck into

1622
03:03:15.319 --> 03:03:51.920
your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1623
03:03:52.079 --> 03:04:04.719
and the feeling in your shoulders seens to spread deep

1624
03:04:04.920 --> 03:04:14.680
into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1625
03:04:15.159 --> 03:04:32.479
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1626
03:04:32.680 --> 03:04:41.479
moving all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1627
03:04:41.600 --> 03:04:47.479
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1628
03:04:51.399 --> 03:05:06.600
He then you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders.

1629
03:05:10.120 --> 03:05:32.239
Who sends that deep healing message into your arms and

1630
03:05:32.440 --> 03:05:37.479
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1631
03:05:37.639 --> 03:06:00.559
even there, because they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so

1632
03:06:00.559 --> 03:06:32.040
so calm.

1633
03:06:16.879 --> 03:06:17.040
So.

1634
03:06:23.680 --> 03:06:38.799
Loose, not feeling spreading all the way down your arms

1635
03:06:41.479 --> 03:07:07.120
two elbows, including your elbows mm hmm, circumforts spreads or

1636
03:07:07.120 --> 03:07:26.520
away into rests of forearments and your rests so heavy,

1637
03:07:28.840 --> 03:08:10.239
yet at the same time so light and gentle. Frek sick.

1638
03:08:12.600 --> 03:08:51.280
Now on your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands,

1639
03:09:09.760 --> 03:09:28.799
there's a sense of real peace. It just seems to

1640
03:09:33.040 --> 03:10:11.479
feel so familiar when your hands relax deeply. Else, a

1641
03:10:11.760 --> 03:11:48.959
thing is you, things slightly you thing you tips, moving

1642
03:11:49.280 --> 03:12:07.760
your attention to the front, to your body, so comfortable,

1643
03:12:18.639 --> 03:13:46.680
move in your focus, your legs, why musculs in your thighs,

1644
03:14:03.200 --> 03:14:40.840
your knees so relaxed, the carved mussels and just chins

1645
03:14:44.319 --> 03:16:59.680
Copusily four and the fathing new faith. Sir, peaceful, so calm,

1646
03:17:05.200 --> 03:18:08.079
say peaceful, sircom so peaceful, sycom so peace for RelA,

1647
03:18:08.079 --> 03:18:14.959
sin peace for.

1648
03:18:18.799 --> 03:18:24.079
So calm.

1649
03:18:27.879 --> 03:18:35.479
Loveing that deep relaxation, to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1650
03:18:39.239 --> 03:19:06.520
so RelA, letting go everything. So I'm going to start

1651
03:19:06.559 --> 03:19:18.239
counting down now, from twenty down to one. You can

1652
03:19:18.319 --> 03:19:21.760
imagine in a way it's like just walking down some

1653
03:19:22.040 --> 03:19:28.000
steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step

1654
03:19:28.200 --> 03:19:41.040
represents a level of comfort, each step represents a deepening

1655
03:19:42.959 --> 03:19:53.360
of that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those

1656
03:19:53.440 --> 03:20:06.440
steps a deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1657
03:20:06.520 --> 03:23:55.840
with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen se risting eight

1658
03:24:38.600 --> 03:32:04.799
four four see too well five five nine hey seven

1659
03:33:41.920 --> 03:40:51.040
four five four four one. No, as you focus on

1660
03:40:51.079 --> 03:41:04.079
your eyes, we're going to count down from ten down

1661
03:41:04.120 --> 03:41:18.719
to one. Focus in just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1662
03:41:19.159 --> 03:41:28.040
the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our

1663
03:41:28.120 --> 03:41:45.040
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

1664
03:41:45.239 --> 03:41:53.639
count down from ten down to one, whilst focus in

1665
03:41:53.760 --> 03:42:09.200
on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each

1666
03:42:09.559 --> 03:42:22.200
number counting down, and you may find the all you

1667
03:42:22.280 --> 03:42:31.280
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1668
03:42:31.319 --> 03:42:37.959
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1669
03:42:38.000 --> 03:42:52.639
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1670
03:42:52.760 --> 03:43:02.559
begin counting down from ten down to one right now.

1671
03:43:11.000 --> 03:52:09.079
Two nine y seven four five four three two one.

1672
03:52:15.440 --> 03:52:32.159
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

1673
03:52:34.920 --> 03:52:49.920
seven six five four three two.

1674
03:52:51.760 --> 03:52:58.440
One.

1675
03:52:59.040 --> 03:53:01.959
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1676
03:53:02.000 --> 03:53:05.959
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1677
03:53:06.239 --> 03:53:16.000
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1678
03:53:16.000 --> 03:53:19.879
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1679
03:53:19.920 --> 03:53:22.120
ten to one. Would you expect me to do?

1680
03:53:22.399 --> 03:53:22.719
Man?

1681
03:53:23.520 --> 03:53:28.120
Expect me to stick gold floppy just because you're counting down.

1682
03:53:33.639 --> 03:53:36.959
We could try it again, but this time I go.

1683
03:53:37.120 --> 03:53:44.520
It's slower this time, as you focus on the whole

1684
03:53:44.600 --> 03:53:50.879
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1685
03:53:51.079 --> 03:54:01.120
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1686
03:54:05.840 --> 03:55:21.000
with every number that I count down ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, four, three,

1687
03:55:21.280 --> 03:55:59.000
two one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1688
03:55:59.399 --> 03:56:13.760
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1689
03:56:13.840 --> 03:56:21.120
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1690
03:56:22.319 --> 03:56:40.799
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1691
03:56:45.479 --> 03:56:50.719
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

1692
03:56:50.879 --> 03:56:57.520
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1693
03:56:58.200 --> 03:57:01.239
that opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1694
03:57:01.239 --> 03:57:12.280
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1695
03:57:12.280 --> 03:57:19.680
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1696
03:57:19.840 --> 03:57:32.239
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1697
03:57:32.360 --> 03:57:46.440
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1698
03:57:46.559 --> 03:58:07.319
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just slow down,

1699
03:58:09.200 --> 03:58:12.159
someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1700
03:58:12.319 --> 03:58:22.319
notice that gap widening, the gap, and as it widens,

1701
03:58:22.360 --> 03:58:28.440
it's almost like the distress and attention falls into the

1702
03:58:28.479 --> 03:58:54.000
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten

1703
03:58:58.520 --> 04:00:55.520
nine eight, seven, six, five four three two one. How

1704
04:00:55.600 --> 04:00:59.120
did you work body feel?

1705
04:01:01.360 --> 04:01:12.639
Now?

1706
04:01:14.239 --> 04:01:29.559
Can you notice that you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1707
04:01:29.959 --> 04:01:57.440
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1708
04:02:13.360 --> 04:02:33.520
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1709
04:02:33.600 --> 04:02:38.479
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1710
04:02:41.959 --> 04:02:44.680
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1711
04:02:44.719 --> 04:02:57.159
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1712
04:02:57.239 --> 04:03:03.680
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1713
04:03:03.799 --> 04:03:10.879
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1714
04:03:10.879 --> 04:03:15.799
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1715
04:03:15.920 --> 04:03:24.719
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1716
04:03:24.920 --> 04:03:38.959
your knee joint. Now, this is a big area. It's

1717
04:03:38.959 --> 04:03:44.520
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1718
04:03:45.440 --> 04:03:58.719
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1719
04:03:58.719 --> 04:04:07.079
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1720
04:04:12.959 --> 04:04:23.760
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1721
04:04:23.879 --> 04:04:44.559
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1722
04:04:44.600 --> 04:04:55.079
through our lives and It may seem sound really weird,

1723
04:04:55.159 --> 04:05:03.639
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1724
04:05:03.639 --> 04:05:11.280
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1725
04:05:12.280 --> 04:05:30.360
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1726
04:05:30.399 --> 04:05:39.520
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1727
04:05:39.680 --> 04:05:46.440
sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I surely

1728
04:05:46.440 --> 04:05:48.959
how I should be out in the garden hugging a

1729
04:05:49.040 --> 04:05:57.399
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1730
04:05:57.479 --> 04:06:00.559
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing it indoors.

1731
04:06:00.600 --> 04:06:04.120
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1732
04:06:04.159 --> 04:06:12.920
can't see the television from the tree. If you move

1733
04:06:13.000 --> 04:06:22.920
down to your knees getting such an important part, and

1734
04:06:22.959 --> 04:06:27.440
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1735
04:06:29.879 --> 04:06:35.040
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for

1736
04:06:35.079 --> 04:06:41.559
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1737
04:06:41.639 --> 04:06:46.600
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1738
04:06:46.760 --> 04:06:53.239
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1739
04:06:53.280 --> 04:06:57.719
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1740
04:06:57.879 --> 04:07:07.840
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1741
04:07:07.920 --> 04:07:16.680
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1742
04:07:17.760 --> 04:07:24.879
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1743
04:07:26.920 --> 04:07:32.600
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1744
04:07:32.840 --> 04:07:39.040
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1745
04:07:39.120 --> 04:07:51.440
that they do for you, and you can still have

1746
04:07:51.479 --> 04:07:55.719
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1747
04:07:55.760 --> 04:08:09.840
thighs feel, Maybe is that they are relaxing more deeply

1748
04:08:16.559 --> 04:08:21.159
as you focus now on the bottoms of your legs,

1749
04:08:21.520 --> 04:08:26.959
your shins, and your calf muscles, and the bones between

1750
04:08:27.120 --> 04:08:36.200
your knees and your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles

1751
04:08:36.239 --> 04:08:47.520
so important. Anyone that's had even the slightest sprain of

1752
04:08:47.559 --> 04:08:55.159
an ankle knows how how much we take our ankles

1753
04:08:55.239 --> 04:09:03.440
for granted. And it's kind of strange in a way

1754
04:09:03.520 --> 04:09:09.159
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

1755
04:09:09.159 --> 04:09:13.280
a lot thinner than the rest of our arms, which

1756
04:09:13.360 --> 04:09:16.799
is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with that

1757
04:09:17.959 --> 04:09:23.920
because we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so

1758
04:09:24.079 --> 04:09:34.159
much thinner than the rest of our legs, and from

1759
04:09:34.159 --> 04:09:38.719
a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make

1760
04:09:38.840 --> 04:09:46.959
sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting on

1761
04:09:47.719 --> 04:09:56.799
your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1762
04:09:58.239 --> 04:10:07.920
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1763
04:10:07.959 --> 04:10:17.959
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1764
04:10:20.159 --> 04:10:26.639
It helps you to get her around and be mobile.

1765
04:10:32.959 --> 04:10:40.920
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1766
04:10:41.120 --> 04:10:44.200
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. It didn't

1767
04:10:44.200 --> 04:10:49.639
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1768
04:10:50.360 --> 04:10:54.239
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1769
04:10:54.280 --> 04:10:58.440
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1770
04:10:58.479 --> 04:11:10.440
we use our legs and your shins. There to protect

1771
04:11:12.399 --> 04:11:21.079
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1772
04:11:21.079 --> 04:11:33.399
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1773
04:11:36.760 --> 04:11:43.399
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1774
04:11:43.440 --> 04:11:45.639
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1775
04:11:47.600 --> 04:11:52.360
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll

1776
04:11:52.399 --> 04:11:57.319
probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1777
04:11:57.360 --> 04:12:03.239
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1778
04:12:03.239 --> 04:12:09.040
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1779
04:12:09.079 --> 04:12:13.479
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1780
04:12:13.520 --> 04:12:18.360
your thighs for a few minutes that we're focusing on

1781
04:12:18.399 --> 04:12:35.200
your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in your

1782
04:12:35.239 --> 04:12:47.399
thighs and this that movement of energy because the thighs

1783
04:12:47.639 --> 04:12:54.559
hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1784
04:12:55.120 --> 04:12:59.280
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs.

1785
04:13:07.920 --> 04:13:13.680
But the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1786
04:13:13.719 --> 04:13:18.319
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1787
04:13:18.479 --> 04:13:36.200
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And

1788
04:13:36.319 --> 04:13:44.760
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1789
04:13:44.879 --> 04:13:51.120
the arch trees, all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1790
04:13:54.959 --> 04:13:58.200
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1791
04:13:58.200 --> 04:14:03.799
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message,

1792
04:14:05.920 --> 04:14:09.520
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1793
04:14:09.559 --> 04:14:12.719
to be able to get deep into the muscles, and

1794
04:14:12.760 --> 04:14:17.920
to be able to just massage inside your thighs, message

1795
04:14:17.920 --> 04:14:26.000
in the bones of your leg, massage in all the

1796
04:14:26.159 --> 04:14:36.799
veins and just gently healing your thighs, and you could

1797
04:14:36.840 --> 04:14:44.760
move down messaging inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1798
04:14:45.639 --> 04:14:52.760
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1799
04:14:52.799 --> 04:15:02.239
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1800
04:15:02.479 --> 04:15:07.399
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1801
04:15:07.440 --> 04:15:14.920
your knee is it's a very sensitive area. Very it

1802
04:15:14.920 --> 04:15:18.959
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1803
04:15:18.959 --> 04:15:22.959
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1804
04:15:24.959 --> 04:15:31.879
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1805
04:15:31.920 --> 04:15:39.000
It's almost it's like a part that has a sensitivity,

1806
04:15:39.040 --> 04:15:49.559
which is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected

1807
04:15:49.600 --> 04:16:00.959
by your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers

1808
04:16:01.000 --> 04:16:10.440
into that crease in your legs, that fold in between

1809
04:16:10.479 --> 04:16:15.520
your legs. You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1810
04:16:15.559 --> 04:16:26.600
your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You

1811
04:16:26.680 --> 04:16:32.799
can of course field the bones of your knees heading

1812
04:16:32.959 --> 04:16:45.680
through your fingertips, and then as you go down to

1813
04:16:45.760 --> 04:16:48.600
your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like to

1814
04:16:48.600 --> 04:16:54.040
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

1815
04:16:54.200 --> 04:17:02.920
calf muscles, massage in every sea tissue of that muscle,

1816
04:17:04.479 --> 04:17:14.440
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1817
04:17:17.600 --> 04:17:24.520
Massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1818
04:17:25.399 --> 04:17:29.600
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1819
04:17:29.719 --> 04:17:36.959
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1820
04:17:37.040 --> 04:17:40.639
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1821
04:17:40.680 --> 04:17:48.399
of our body and more precious than any jure on

1822
04:17:48.440 --> 04:18:04.840
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1823
04:18:04.879 --> 04:18:16.040
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1824
04:18:16.200 --> 04:18:22.920
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1825
04:18:22.959 --> 04:18:31.159
idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1826
04:18:31.239 --> 04:18:37.360
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1827
04:18:38.280 --> 04:18:45.159
in your thighs and massage the muscles and the bones,

1828
04:18:47.000 --> 04:18:52.719
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1829
04:18:55.600 --> 04:19:04.399
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1830
04:19:05.120 --> 04:19:08.879
how much you care for what your legs do for

1831
04:19:09.000 --> 04:19:22.680
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1832
04:19:22.760 --> 04:19:30.840
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1833
04:19:30.920 --> 04:19:37.680
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs, yet they're

1834
04:19:37.760 --> 04:19:50.079
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1835
04:19:53.879 --> 04:19:59.120
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1836
04:20:04.440 --> 04:20:11.440
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1837
04:20:12.600 --> 04:20:17.159
even if you only eat ate stone, there's still a

1838
04:20:17.200 --> 04:20:23.840
lot of weight for these little ankles. Now, I'm a

1839
04:20:23.879 --> 04:20:32.079
lot heavier than each stone double down, yet my ankles

1840
04:20:33.840 --> 04:20:41.520
support my body all the time. Although they do give

1841
04:20:41.559 --> 04:20:47.280
off a sigh of relief when I sit down. That's fact,

1842
04:20:47.319 --> 04:20:56.239
my whole legs do. My feet feet also go and

1843
04:20:56.319 --> 04:21:24.079
my toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

1844
04:21:26.639 --> 04:21:30.360
And I know that talking about talking about your legs

1845
04:21:30.440 --> 04:21:37.040
is probably possibly among the most most boring things I've

1846
04:21:37.079 --> 04:21:46.120
ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything

1847
04:21:46.159 --> 04:22:01.719
I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

1848
04:22:01.760 --> 04:22:21.319
deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They

1849
04:22:21.440 --> 04:22:26.799
deserve to take some time out of the day to

1850
04:22:26.959 --> 04:23:03.159
just let go completely. Your legs really can relax. And

1851
04:23:03.239 --> 04:23:07.239
because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1852
04:23:07.440 --> 04:23:13.440
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1853
04:23:13.479 --> 04:23:20.719
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1854
04:23:24.440 --> 04:23:35.319
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1855
04:23:36.680 --> 04:23:43.559
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

1856
04:23:43.600 --> 04:23:50.479
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1857
04:23:51.559 --> 04:23:54.639
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1858
04:23:54.719 --> 04:23:59.920
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1859
04:23:59.920 --> 04:24:03.680
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1860
04:24:03.879 --> 04:24:09.840
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1861
04:24:10.680 --> 04:24:31.959
has reduced a lot and I'm now going to count

1862
04:24:32.000 --> 04:24:41.360
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1863
04:24:41.719 --> 04:25:08.040
to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine eight seven, six, five

1864
04:25:12.639 --> 04:25:40.719
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1865
04:25:40.799 --> 04:25:46.239
count down five down to one, and as a countdown,

1866
04:25:47.479 --> 04:25:52.479
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

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counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

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as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

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numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

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your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

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you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

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there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four

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three two one. Now, as you notice the gradual letting

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go of the tension in your body, you may also

1875
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begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

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is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

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thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

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just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1879
04:28:18.399 --> 04:28:23.360
starts to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the

1880
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more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

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And there is that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

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You know, even even if there's background sounds either your

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side or mind, it's still going to be quite calm.

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You know, you haven't got the television on, there's no

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music in the background unless you're listening to the recording.

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With music, of course, you're very likely not going to

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be sitting in a room with other people. Of course

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04:29:14.360 --> 04:29:18.879
you might be, but generally it's more ideal if you

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04:29:18.959 --> 04:29:29.920
can do this on your own, so no distractions, and

1890
04:29:29.959 --> 04:29:45.159
when you stop thinking about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A

1891
04:29:45.280 --> 04:29:56.000
sense of comfort starts to grow, and without trying to

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04:29:56.079 --> 04:30:07.000
build it up into something fantastical or something magical, this

1893
04:30:07.159 --> 04:30:19.280
is just a natural process, something that's easy to accomplish.

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04:30:19.920 --> 04:30:24.319
In fact, it's almost you know, the sense of relaxing

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04:30:25.120 --> 04:30:31.920
completely happens really when you put no effort into it.

1896
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It's not something that you can really force. It's something

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04:30:37.760 --> 04:30:48.520
that happens naturally. And part of the process of this

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recording and others is simply two allow you to take

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advantage of this space, this time, to just let go,

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04:31:18.799 --> 04:31:27.079
to just be here, to be in tune with how

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04:31:27.120 --> 04:31:40.520
you feel. Yet with the intention of wanting to relax

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04:31:40.639 --> 04:31:52.120
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep depending on what

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04:31:52.159 --> 04:31:58.360
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1904
04:32:05.280 --> 04:32:14.680
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

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04:32:14.760 --> 04:32:20.040
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is a

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tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed do you become,

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04:32:31.799 --> 04:32:49.799
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

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04:32:49.840 --> 04:33:05.799
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

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the process of gradually relaxing each muscle in your body

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04:33:34.959 --> 04:34:04.159
effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting go completely.

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This time, I'm going to count from six down to one,

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and you can notice your.

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Mind calming down.

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More with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

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feeling calm and slow and peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one,

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04:37:42.080 --> 04:37:51.720
being aware of how your mind to slow right down,

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sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

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you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1919
04:38:31.159 --> 04:38:40.720
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

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your attention. That's what you can do is send love

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04:38:56.200 --> 04:39:09.840
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love like all

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04:39:10.000 --> 04:39:15.680
petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them. Petals

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04:39:15.680 --> 04:39:22.959
filled with love, towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

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04:39:23.119 --> 04:39:30.000
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1925
04:39:31.159 --> 04:39:42.279
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

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04:39:42.599 --> 04:39:59.959
down for now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts.

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Count down this time from seven down to one. With

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each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

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will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

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Two.

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One.

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I need him now. Notice how relaxed you're feeling in

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your body. We can't have focus on your hands because

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the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

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04:44:18.000 --> 04:44:39.400
body and mind are. And you focus on your hands

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and your fingers, there's nothing needed to be done. There's

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no clenching of fists or tents in the fingers or

1940
04:44:55.400 --> 04:45:09.840
anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

1941
04:45:16.799 --> 04:45:39.040
noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel,

1942
04:45:42.520 --> 04:45:51.720
the calm your mind feels, and the more comfort you

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feel throughout your body. You may have already noticed you

1944
04:46:24.080 --> 04:46:55.560
mind is starting to dress faim just on your hands

1945
04:46:56.720 --> 04:47:14.799
and fingers, allowing them to experience a real deepening of

1946
04:47:14.840 --> 04:47:30.840
that relaxation in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed.

1947
04:47:35.880 --> 04:47:54.279
With each number from eight down to one. You can

1948
04:47:54.319 --> 04:48:05.599
almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your

1949
04:48:05.759 --> 04:48:25.560
hands and fingers, becoming yelling, more relaxing with each number

1950
04:48:27.919 --> 04:48:43.000
you hear, going down from eight down to one, drifting,

1951
04:48:46.639 --> 04:52:04.159
drifting again, starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two,

1952
04:52:53.279 --> 04:53:02.279
just being here now, nothing to think about out, nothing

1953
04:53:02.360 --> 04:53:13.479
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1954
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And this is your natural state of being. This is

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how you just normally feel when you take away all

1956
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that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

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04:53:39.880 --> 04:53:55.639
stress and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally

1958
04:53:55.759 --> 04:54:01.799
thinking about stuff. You take that a way, which is

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what we do. What we do now you're left with

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a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly,

1961
04:54:27.119 --> 04:54:37.959
because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort.

1962
04:54:41.560 --> 04:54:44.919
It's almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've

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04:54:45.000 --> 04:54:59.599
found a special place where everything is peaceful, a place

1964
04:54:59.720 --> 04:55:07.720
where you can feel relaxed, and your natural sense of comfort,

1965
04:55:10.880 --> 04:55:18.680
a place where you can be you, where you can

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04:55:19.000 --> 04:55:25.680
accept yourself for who you are, a place where you're

1967
04:55:25.680 --> 04:55:36.240
not trying to please anybody else ever, a place where

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you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

1969
04:55:45.840 --> 04:55:55.319
ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1970
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That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1971
04:56:18.439 --> 04:56:26.279
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

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04:56:26.599 --> 04:56:41.919
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

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04:56:42.000 --> 04:56:52.040
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

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04:56:55.720 --> 04:57:06.919
traveling to each and every single part art of your body,

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04:57:08.520 --> 04:57:13.159
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

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it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

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04:57:22.520 --> 04:57:33.840
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

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04:57:33.919 --> 04:57:45.080
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

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04:57:45.319 --> 04:57:57.240
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1980
04:58:00.119 --> 04:58:07.639
you start to realize to actually, what's happening now with

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04:58:07.799 --> 04:58:17.479
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, It's actually

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04:58:17.880 --> 04:58:28.080
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1983
04:58:28.159 --> 04:58:34.680
to feel not just now, but tomorrow and the next

1984
04:58:34.759 --> 04:58:44.200
day as your health improves, not just your physical health,

1985
04:58:44.279 --> 04:58:51.759
but your mental health. Things that used to bother you

1986
04:58:51.840 --> 04:58:59.000
in the past, for some reason, no longer have the

1987
04:58:59.119 --> 04:59:08.040
effect that they used to because something has changed deep

1988
04:59:08.520 --> 04:59:19.240
within you. Maybe things that used to cause you to

1989
04:59:19.319 --> 04:59:31.639
feel anger no longer have that power to control you

1990
04:59:34.119 --> 04:59:40.439
the way they seem to be able to before. As

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04:59:40.520 --> 04:59:55.720
you realize that you're the one who decides what affects you,

1992
04:59:55.720 --> 05:00:04.599
you're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

1993
05:00:06.159 --> 05:00:21.520
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of

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05:00:21.799 --> 05:00:34.080
healing continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1995
05:00:39.240 --> 05:00:47.520
including of course, your ability to relax so much easier

1996
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and sleeping is the most natural thing in the world

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to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

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so many times in your life, and you know that

1999
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you were born, as we all were, with the ability

2000
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to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability

2001
05:01:42.840 --> 05:01:57.159
to just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

2002
05:01:57.200 --> 05:02:01.919
when we're kids, sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't

2003
05:02:01.959 --> 05:02:08.360
even want to try to stay awake. Maybe it's a

2004
05:02:08.520 --> 05:02:13.000
birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or

2005
05:02:13.040 --> 05:02:15.439
something we look forward to. We don't want to go

2006
05:02:15.599 --> 05:02:20.560
to sleep, but the more we want to stay awake,

2007
05:02:22.720 --> 05:02:29.799
the more we just start to drift. And the more

2008
05:02:30.439 --> 05:02:34.159
you fight drifting, the more you try and stop yourself

2009
05:02:34.200 --> 05:02:39.240
and drift in a shape, the deeper and stronger that

2010
05:02:39.479 --> 05:02:50.959
drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the need

2011
05:02:52.200 --> 05:03:00.360
to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's

2012
05:03:00.439 --> 05:03:14.759
our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and sometimes as

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05:03:14.799 --> 05:03:20.439
we get older in life, perhaps at times we have

2014
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forgotten that relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

2015
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it's also really easy. It's very very easy to go

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because that's all it is. It's just deciding to let go.

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And when you press the play button on my recordings,

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you have given permission for my voice to relax you.

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When you press that play button, you have given me

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permission for my words to affect you in a positive,

2021
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only a positive way, opening up your mind to useful

2022
05:05:15.200 --> 05:05:31.680
and healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect

2023
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on how you feel right now, as well as those

2024
05:05:46.200 --> 05:05:55.759
changes that continue long after the recording ends. Those changes

2025
05:05:56.560 --> 05:06:10.319
within you to continue to flourish and grow, transforming your

2026
05:06:10.439 --> 05:06:23.319
life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

2027
05:06:24.639 --> 05:06:30.000
forward in your life in the direction that you choose

2028
05:06:31.439 --> 05:06:47.720
for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that you can

2029
05:06:47.759 --> 05:07:12.159
experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice. It's

2030
05:07:12.319 --> 05:07:26.560
such a healthy place to be, and that positivity grows

2031
05:07:27.759 --> 05:07:45.439
within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're going

2032
05:07:45.479 --> 05:07:56.279
to find that you're more relaxed physically and in your

2033
05:07:56.360 --> 05:08:06.479
mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're thinking slower.

2034
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It's just that your mind will be less clogged up

2035
05:08:13.400 --> 05:08:28.319
with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your mind rejects negativity.

2036
05:08:30.759 --> 05:08:38.240
From now on, you're going to start noticing when negativity

2037
05:08:38.319 --> 05:08:52.799
arises and you can just say stop, stop, and that

2038
05:08:53.000 --> 05:09:12.040
negativity will turn around and leave you alone. Stop and

2039
05:09:12.119 --> 05:09:27.279
that negativity would disappear. And as you notice that you

2040
05:09:28.599 --> 05:09:41.799
feel way more relaxed than you probably expected, you can

2041
05:09:42.119 --> 05:09:51.840
now congratulate yourself because you're the person that has done this.

2042
05:09:53.479 --> 05:09:59.000
You are the one that has opened your mind up

2043
05:09:59.599 --> 05:10:07.720
to this simple facts that you can feel more relaxed

2044
05:10:07.799 --> 05:10:17.479
in your body and in your mind. You've opened your

2045
05:10:17.599 --> 05:10:23.119
mind up to the birthright of being able to just

2046
05:10:25.799 --> 05:10:41.439
fall asleep easily when you choose, and that's a nice feeling.

2047
05:10:42.200 --> 05:10:53.680
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm?

2048
05:10:53.959 --> 05:10:58.599
All that healing energy is spreading through your body and

2049
05:10:58.720 --> 05:11:14.759
your mind to spend time a special place where negativity

2050
05:11:16.240 --> 05:11:29.159
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

2051
05:11:29.200 --> 05:11:35.919
not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2052
05:11:35.959 --> 05:11:44.080
be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

2053
05:11:45.040 --> 05:12:01.880
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

2054
05:12:04.000 --> 05:12:31.279
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

2055
05:12:34.720 --> 05:12:54.680
the let go with everything. I'm going to count down

2056
05:12:54.840 --> 05:13:03.560
now from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

2057
05:13:05.720 --> 05:13:17.279
If you choose, you can drift to sleep with every

2058
05:13:17.439 --> 05:13:29.119
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed.

2059
05:13:32.119 --> 05:13:36.279
Or if you choose, you can fill twice a sleeping

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now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven,

2061
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six five. Oh, this is your time to just take

2062
05:16:42.479 --> 05:16:57.599
a break, your time to relax, to allow your mind

2063
05:16:57.720 --> 05:17:15.040
to slow down, to give yourself permission to take a

2064
05:17:15.080 --> 05:17:28.720
break from everything. And you, you're the only person that

2065
05:17:28.880 --> 05:17:34.840
can make that decision. You're the only person that can

2066
05:17:34.880 --> 05:17:54.599
actually tell your mind to just relax, to just take

2067
05:17:54.680 --> 05:18:07.919
some time off so that you can focus on your body,

2068
05:18:08.840 --> 05:18:23.880
getting in touch with how you feel physically. And in

2069
05:18:23.880 --> 05:18:31.680
the process of this body scan, where you focus on

2070
05:18:31.880 --> 05:18:42.000
different parts of your body, those parts that you focus

2071
05:18:42.080 --> 05:18:53.880
on and observe, even though you're not purposely requesting for

2072
05:18:54.000 --> 05:18:59.919
those parts of your body to relax, it's kind of expected.

2073
05:19:01.639 --> 05:19:07.279
You expect when you listen to my voice to feel

2074
05:19:08.200 --> 05:19:21.919
more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me, your

2075
05:19:21.959 --> 05:19:34.279
attention is focused on my words, and as my words

2076
05:19:35.159 --> 05:19:45.400
guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

2077
05:19:49.159 --> 05:20:11.319
your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

2078
05:20:11.360 --> 05:20:30.720
your mind calms down, your body relaxes. And when your

2079
05:20:30.759 --> 05:20:54.560
body calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though we've

2080
05:20:54.680 --> 05:21:03.599
not really started the focus on your body, you can

2081
05:21:04.200 --> 05:21:19.560
already feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing

2082
05:21:19.799 --> 05:21:34.080
out stress and tension, healing all the parts of your body,

2083
05:21:35.959 --> 05:21:43.680
including your skin, your bones, your blood, all of your

2084
05:21:43.840 --> 05:21:49.560
organs inside your body, all of the muscles, all of

2085
05:21:49.639 --> 05:21:57.159
the fat, all of everything, every hair on your body

2086
05:21:59.240 --> 05:22:10.639
is filled with that healing energy. And when your brain

2087
05:22:15.240 --> 05:22:28.439
fills with that healing energy, The feeling of comfort and

2088
05:22:28.639 --> 05:22:55.439
relaxation increases deeply, increases in a way that your mind

2089
05:22:58.360 --> 05:23:11.919
starts to feel perhaps a bit drowsy because it's not needed,

2090
05:23:15.279 --> 05:23:31.560
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

2091
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So if you're listening to this and what you need

2092
05:23:39.560 --> 05:23:45.439
is deep relaxation, that's what you get. If what you

2093
05:23:45.680 --> 05:23:53.720
need is to fall asleep naturally and easily as your

2094
05:23:53.840 --> 05:24:10.360
mind drifts, that's also what happened because by pressing that

2095
05:24:10.959 --> 05:24:16.319
play button on the podcast and listening to me, you

2096
05:24:16.479 --> 05:24:24.840
give permission for your body and your mind. In fact,

2097
05:24:29.680 --> 05:24:34.040
you give the command to your body and your mind

2098
05:24:34.319 --> 05:24:46.759
to relax deeply and to drift off to sleep, if

2099
05:24:46.959 --> 05:25:02.639
that's what you want or need. And as I focus

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on the different parts of your body, you may start

2101
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to just drift. And then you come back again and

2102
05:25:22.240 --> 05:25:26.720
you hear me talking, and I'm focusing on a different

2103
05:25:26.799 --> 05:25:40.840
part of your body, and you may find yourself drifting,

2104
05:25:41.000 --> 05:25:46.400
but you don't realize you're drifting until you stop drifting

2105
05:25:48.279 --> 05:25:55.240
and you're alert again to my voice. Focusing on a

2106
05:25:55.400 --> 05:26:00.759
different part of your body starts to relax even deeper,

2107
05:26:05.159 --> 05:26:18.439
because that drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone,

2108
05:26:20.159 --> 05:26:25.159
and the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

2109
05:26:25.279 --> 05:26:35.759
the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

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and that's the last you remember until you wake up

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in your own time, when you experience the right amount

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of sleep for you, because when you do and if

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you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so

2114
05:27:18.240 --> 05:27:38.759
deep healing sleep. It feels so nice to relax into

2115
05:27:40.200 --> 05:27:49.520
your own body and mind as you feel that healing

2116
05:27:49.720 --> 05:28:03.119
energy is spreading through you, relaxing you so deeplyxing is

2117
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so so deeply. As we start to focus on your eyes,

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05:28:28.520 --> 05:29:15.240
moving down to your jaw, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers,

2119
05:29:22.520 --> 05:29:54.599
you chest, your stomach, your back, your spine, you heaps,

2120
05:30:02.479 --> 05:30:44.959
your legs, your feet, your toes, and the feelingeings spreading

2121
05:30:46.319 --> 05:31:00.279
and growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's

2122
05:31:00.279 --> 05:31:10.080
focus again on parts of your body. Focus in this

2123
05:31:10.279 --> 05:31:21.080
time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips,

2124
05:31:23.040 --> 05:31:42.200
your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focus in on

2125
05:31:42.319 --> 05:31:52.400
your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers a little

2126
05:31:52.400 --> 05:32:03.639
bit so you can focus on each one individually, both

2127
05:32:03.759 --> 05:32:10.720
hands and even though if you focus on both of

2128
05:32:10.720 --> 05:32:21.520
your hands now they almost seem to just melt into one.

2129
05:32:22.040 --> 05:32:26.200
Where does your right hand start in your left hand end,

2130
05:32:29.680 --> 05:32:41.840
almost as if just mixed together. Now, focusing on your knees,

2131
05:32:47.720 --> 05:33:10.840
just noticing how your knees fell. Now, focusing on your elbows,

2132
05:33:13.439 --> 05:33:28.319
focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

2133
05:33:28.599 --> 05:34:11.080
of your elbows. Now, focusing observing back your neck, feeding

2134
05:34:11.319 --> 05:34:51.520
that energy in the back of your neck, obsurving your ankles,

2135
05:35:00.959 --> 05:36:14.080
being aware of physical sensations in your ankles, noticin now

2136
05:36:16.080 --> 05:36:31.799
you toes on both of your feet, being aware how

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05:36:33.840 --> 05:37:14.040
you to feel right now, h m hm hm. Notice sin,

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05:37:24.200 --> 05:37:51.240
how your entire body feels. Noticing how your mind feels.

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05:37:55.000 --> 05:38:48.360
Now letting go, letting go, letting go everything, letting go,

2140
05:38:54.639 --> 05:39:29.599
letting go, letting go everything everything. I'm going to start now,

2141
05:39:31.159 --> 05:39:33.080
and I would like you just, first of all, just

2142
05:39:33.080 --> 05:39:41.200
to see yourself lying down on that message table, lying

2143
05:39:41.279 --> 05:39:46.400
on your front. Your head is supported, your arms are supported,

2144
05:39:50.880 --> 05:39:57.200
and you feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and

2145
05:39:57.319 --> 05:40:04.240
you feel you feel confident in how you look as well,

2146
05:40:04.279 --> 05:40:08.319
So there's none of that issue of body problems or

2147
05:40:08.360 --> 05:40:17.959
shyness because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

2148
05:40:18.720 --> 05:40:26.840
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

2149
05:40:29.560 --> 05:40:35.439
This is about how you feel and how you can

2150
05:40:36.759 --> 05:40:42.560
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

2151
05:40:43.799 --> 05:40:49.959
letting go and allowing my hands my fingers to relax

2152
05:40:50.040 --> 05:41:01.119
you by a message your body. So I want to

2153
05:41:01.119 --> 05:41:06.240
start off just by placing my hands on the back

2154
05:41:06.279 --> 05:41:11.000
of your head, just gently, just so you can feel

2155
05:41:11.319 --> 05:41:19.799
my hands feel like really on you. So you can

2156
05:41:19.840 --> 05:41:22.159
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

2157
05:41:22.200 --> 05:41:27.799
of your head. With my hands to the side of

2158
05:41:27.840 --> 05:41:32.360
your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

2159
05:41:35.279 --> 05:41:38.319
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2160
05:41:39.520 --> 05:41:44.799
just so you can feel my hands so you can

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05:41:44.840 --> 05:41:58.080
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

2162
05:41:58.119 --> 05:42:02.400
the back of your head again and gently let them

2163
05:42:02.520 --> 05:42:14.880
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

2164
05:42:14.919 --> 05:42:25.080
feel my hands gently stroking the back of your neck

2165
05:42:25.240 --> 05:42:31.759
to start with, just so you can get used to

2166
05:42:31.840 --> 05:42:37.240
the feeling with my hands on your skin, get accustomed

2167
05:42:37.279 --> 05:42:45.479
to realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's

2168
05:42:45.520 --> 05:42:55.680
all fine. And I'm going to start gently messaging the

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05:42:55.840 --> 05:43:06.759
muscles in the back of your neck with both hands.

2170
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And this is a very trusting situation really, because our

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05:43:18.520 --> 05:43:22.720
next is so fragile and to have someone have their

2172
05:43:22.799 --> 05:43:28.119
hands around your neck in that way can sometimes be

2173
05:43:28.200 --> 05:43:33.119
problematic for people, which is why massages are quite good,

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05:43:34.240 --> 05:43:42.720
because it allows you to relax and to get in

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05:43:42.840 --> 05:44:00.319
touch with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. There's a

2176
05:44:00.360 --> 05:44:09.119
massage the sides of your neck, gently moving from the

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05:44:09.159 --> 05:44:13.000
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

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05:44:13.040 --> 05:44:16.400
where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

2179
05:44:18.400 --> 05:44:23.880
to your jaw, your ears kind of area that side

2180
05:44:23.919 --> 05:44:28.959
of your neck. Of course, it's a lot longer than

2181
05:44:29.279 --> 05:44:45.000
the front of your neck. And then message in the

2182
05:44:45.080 --> 05:44:52.840
back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

2183
05:44:53.000 --> 05:45:01.119
hold tension, and there's that area's message. You can actually

2184
05:45:01.200 --> 05:45:05.319
feel a sense of release in the back of your neck,

2185
05:45:10.840 --> 05:45:16.159
and maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice

2186
05:45:16.200 --> 05:45:28.919
how it feels. Notice how you feel. And then moving

2187
05:45:29.080 --> 05:45:32.840
down to that area between your neck and your shoulders,

2188
05:45:34.240 --> 05:45:43.159
that muscle area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2189
05:45:45.319 --> 05:45:47.560
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2190
05:45:47.599 --> 05:45:49.759
of people would message if they were going to give

2191
05:45:49.799 --> 05:45:56.279
you like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2192
05:45:56.759 --> 05:45:59.319
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2193
05:46:01.080 --> 05:46:07.720
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2194
05:46:08.919 --> 05:46:13.959
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

2195
05:46:17.000 --> 05:46:32.439
and you decide how deep that message is, and just

2196
05:46:32.599 --> 05:46:39.560
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

2197
05:46:39.680 --> 05:46:49.720
those muscles and to ready relaxed all the time being

2198
05:46:49.959 --> 05:47:07.479
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

2199
05:47:07.680 --> 05:47:16.200
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

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05:47:16.240 --> 05:47:27.400
your shoulders, and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2201
05:47:27.400 --> 05:47:30.799
a little bit of the table just to give you

2202
05:47:30.880 --> 05:47:41.279
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently. And

2203
05:47:41.360 --> 05:47:43.959
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2204
05:47:44.639 --> 05:47:55.599
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

2205
05:47:55.759 --> 05:48:01.159
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

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05:48:01.159 --> 05:48:09.279
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

2207
05:48:11.080 --> 05:48:16.599
release the tension to really get into those muscles and

2208
05:48:20.000 --> 05:48:23.400
you can let your fingers in there. I can feel

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05:48:23.560 --> 05:48:31.599
really nice sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

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05:48:33.040 --> 05:48:41.720
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the reaxation.

2211
05:48:46.840 --> 05:48:59.840
Put the muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down

2212
05:48:59.880 --> 05:49:10.439
your arms, we do one arm at a time, starting

2213
05:49:10.520 --> 05:49:19.360
with your right arm. Well I do is I just

2214
05:49:20.680 --> 05:49:23.880
lift your arm up, just hold it to the side

2215
05:49:23.919 --> 05:49:30.959
of you that way it still be attached, and I

2216
05:49:31.159 --> 05:49:45.799
just message the tops of your arms all the way

2217
05:49:45.840 --> 05:50:10.720
down to your forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that part,

2218
05:50:13.319 --> 05:50:20.040
the softer part, which is the under part of the arm,

2219
05:50:20.080 --> 05:50:24.560
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside

2220
05:50:25.279 --> 05:50:40.159
it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

2221
05:50:42.720 --> 05:50:58.400
can feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

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05:50:59.680 --> 05:51:12.159
to your right hand, just holding your hand in both

2223
05:51:12.200 --> 05:51:21.840
of my hands, just pressing gently on the back of

2224
05:51:21.880 --> 05:51:32.799
your hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly at

2225
05:51:32.799 --> 05:51:47.680
the same time, pressing down and massaging each finger, and

2226
05:51:47.759 --> 05:51:58.479
then starting to massage the palms of the hand. Just

2227
05:51:58.599 --> 05:52:10.000
turning the hand, stretching it gently and actually having your

2228
05:52:10.119 --> 05:52:18.240
hand held can really be an emotional experience sometimes, even

2229
05:52:18.279 --> 05:52:22.880
if it is a stranger, so when you don't know

2230
05:52:23.080 --> 05:52:30.159
very well, like a massage person or a therapist, maybe

2231
05:52:30.439 --> 05:52:43.319
because it's intimate and you can feel nice, you can

2232
05:52:43.360 --> 05:52:54.200
feel safe. And as I put that right arm back

2233
05:52:54.319 --> 05:53:06.400
down where it was, did the same with your left arm,

2234
05:53:06.400 --> 05:53:16.240
exactly the same massage in the muscles in your arm

2235
05:53:16.720 --> 05:53:24.799
all the way down to your rest, stroking the inside

2236
05:53:24.880 --> 05:53:34.360
of your arm, just being gentle or as firm as

2237
05:53:34.479 --> 05:53:55.400
you require, and then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers,

2238
05:53:57.279 --> 05:54:15.959
gently massaging the palm of your left hand. And you

2239
05:54:16.000 --> 05:54:44.080
can feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and I just

2240
05:54:44.279 --> 05:54:57.200
rest your left arm back down. Start to massage your back,

2241
05:54:58.880 --> 05:55:06.919
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

2242
05:55:10.159 --> 05:55:14.080
starting again where we already bef been, the area at

2243
05:55:14.119 --> 05:55:21.040
the top in between your shoulders, near your neck. Going back,

2244
05:55:21.639 --> 05:55:27.439
a massage in that area again, but this time moving downwards,

2245
05:55:33.560 --> 05:55:39.319
taking a downward stroke to the middle of your back,

2246
05:55:41.720 --> 05:55:47.840
working from the outside inwards. It's a massage in the

2247
05:55:49.479 --> 05:55:58.520
your back, but the the outsides of your back, the

2248
05:55:58.639 --> 05:56:14.279
parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the

2249
05:56:14.360 --> 05:56:27.639
path that connects your front to your back. Just messaging

2250
05:56:27.840 --> 05:56:39.200
down firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving

2251
05:56:39.319 --> 05:56:43.439
down and moving across a little bed, and moving all

2252
05:56:43.439 --> 05:56:49.759
the way down again, be very gentle yet firm as

2253
05:56:49.799 --> 05:57:01.479
you choose. Eventually you get to the spine. We can

2254
05:57:01.560 --> 05:57:06.439
message the muscles and either side of your spine from

2255
05:57:06.479 --> 05:57:12.119
the top of your neck all the way down to

2256
05:57:12.200 --> 05:57:21.040
your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2257
05:57:24.040 --> 05:57:32.240
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the two fingers and

2258
05:57:32.400 --> 05:57:38.799
just go your side of the spine almost just push down,

2259
05:57:39.599 --> 05:57:43.319
go all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2260
05:57:43.560 --> 05:57:53.240
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2261
05:57:54.400 --> 05:58:01.279
your body so that you feel more relax but at

2262
05:58:01.319 --> 05:58:17.680
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2263
05:58:17.799 --> 05:58:26.119
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2264
05:58:26.159 --> 05:58:31.639
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

2265
05:58:31.759 --> 05:58:38.479
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2266
05:58:38.520 --> 05:58:43.360
other side and i will pull the muscles gently and

2267
05:58:43.520 --> 05:58:48.279
massage and push from one end that side or the

2268
05:58:48.319 --> 05:58:53.400
way to my side in the middle of fact to

2269
05:58:53.400 --> 05:58:58.159
where your spine is. Massage in that side of your

2270
05:58:58.200 --> 05:59:05.279
spine the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost

2271
05:59:05.400 --> 05:59:12.919
like kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm

2272
05:59:13.439 --> 05:59:22.959
yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the most

2273
05:59:23.000 --> 05:59:30.119
important places to actually have a message, because you really

2274
05:59:30.360 --> 05:59:35.799
feel it. You really feel the release and the pleasure

2275
05:59:37.159 --> 05:59:44.479
of having your lower back massaged. It releases so much

2276
05:59:44.919 --> 05:59:53.319
from your body that's not useful, starting a healing process

2277
05:59:54.919 --> 06:00:07.680
which will continue long after this recording is over, a

2278
06:00:07.880 --> 06:00:11.000
message in this part of your body not only feels

2279
06:00:11.159 --> 06:00:15.560
really good for you, but it's actually fun to do

2280
06:00:16.840 --> 06:00:22.520
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread, it's

2281
06:00:22.560 --> 06:00:26.520
a part that you can really get hold of and

2282
06:00:26.599 --> 06:00:40.240
really message deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going

2283
06:00:40.319 --> 06:00:42.360
to move over to the other side of your body

2284
06:00:42.799 --> 06:00:51.520
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2285
06:00:51.599 --> 06:00:58.639
lawer back, kneading and messaging from your sides all the

2286
06:00:58.720 --> 06:01:05.919
way to the middle of your back where your spine

2287
06:01:06.000 --> 06:01:19.759
is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2288
06:01:21.720 --> 06:01:34.360
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2289
06:01:34.560 --> 06:01:46.240
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2290
06:01:46.279 --> 06:01:51.479
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2291
06:01:51.520 --> 06:01:55.840
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2292
06:01:56.000 --> 06:02:07.360
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2293
06:02:07.439 --> 06:02:12.400
to move or move further up to your top of

2294
06:02:12.439 --> 06:02:17.000
your body and I we do the same this time,

2295
06:02:18.200 --> 06:02:25.040
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2296
06:02:26.279 --> 06:02:32.520
and mess it massage in that area up to your spine,

2297
06:02:33.639 --> 06:02:37.680
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2298
06:02:38.040 --> 06:02:44.200
So some of that message area, the muscle tissue or

2299
06:02:44.240 --> 06:02:48.279
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest.

2300
06:02:50.200 --> 06:02:57.520
There's all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm

2301
06:02:57.560 --> 06:03:00.759
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2302
06:03:01.000 --> 06:03:11.720
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

2303
06:03:11.840 --> 06:03:20.319
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2304
06:03:20.400 --> 06:03:23.159
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

2305
06:03:23.279 --> 06:03:26.159
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

2306
06:03:30.000 --> 06:03:43.560
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'll

2307
06:03:43.599 --> 06:03:47.720
move or the other side again and do the exact

2308
06:03:47.880 --> 06:03:51.639
same thing with the top of your back on the

2309
06:03:51.680 --> 06:04:01.279
other side, from pretty much underneath your our maria really

2310
06:04:06.639 --> 06:04:16.880
to your spine, and then continuing that all the way down,

2311
06:04:18.599 --> 06:04:35.720
including your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna

2312
06:04:36.240 --> 06:04:42.799
go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and

2313
06:04:42.919 --> 06:04:50.200
the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

2314
06:04:52.479 --> 06:04:59.880
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2315
06:05:02.319 --> 06:05:08.759
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2316
06:05:08.799 --> 06:05:12.080
an area that can be very tense at times and

2317
06:05:12.240 --> 06:05:15.639
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2318
06:05:15.680 --> 06:05:23.880
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

2319
06:05:23.959 --> 06:05:31.240
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

2320
06:05:31.319 --> 06:05:36.880
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2321
06:05:37.119 --> 06:05:49.799
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles.

2322
06:05:52.680 --> 06:05:59.119
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2323
06:06:02.520 --> 06:06:19.479
using both hands and fingers, sticking deep to your ankles,

2324
06:06:21.720 --> 06:06:27.360
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

2325
06:06:27.639 --> 06:06:39.279
gently message in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

2326
06:06:40.119 --> 06:07:03.279
stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage

2327
06:07:03.360 --> 06:07:12.560
in the bottom of your feet and the sides of

2328
06:07:12.599 --> 06:07:23.919
your feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2329
06:07:29.400 --> 06:07:34.919
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

2330
06:07:34.959 --> 06:07:44.360
your feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue

2331
06:07:44.439 --> 06:07:51.080
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2332
06:07:53.680 --> 06:07:59.439
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2333
06:07:59.479 --> 06:08:05.439
pressure to your heel and it feels amazing, yet the

2334
06:08:05.560 --> 06:08:13.680
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2335
06:08:13.759 --> 06:08:20.319
toes gently, a massage in the bottoms of your toes

2336
06:08:20.959 --> 06:08:36.279
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

2337
06:08:36.439 --> 06:08:45.840
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2338
06:08:45.880 --> 06:08:50.319
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2339
06:08:50.360 --> 06:08:57.919
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2340
06:08:58.119 --> 06:09:12.159
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2341
06:09:12.200 --> 06:09:18.360
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2342
06:09:18.439 --> 06:09:27.119
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

2343
06:09:27.200 --> 06:09:32.479
a bigger future recording wants, spend more time on one

2344
06:09:32.560 --> 06:09:44.479
particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

2345
06:09:50.400 --> 06:10:03.840
Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, move down

2346
06:10:06.119 --> 06:10:12.520
your aincord into your feet. Massage in the backs of

2347
06:10:12.599 --> 06:10:23.159
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes,

2348
06:10:23.360 --> 06:10:29.680
and massage in each tone individually. And the feeling of

2349
06:10:29.840 --> 06:10:35.840
pleasure and released that you experience when you're having your

2350
06:10:35.880 --> 06:10:57.119
feet massaged feels really good. Now, if you turn over

2351
06:10:57.279 --> 06:11:08.159
in your mind, laying on your back, I'm just going

2352
06:11:08.240 --> 06:11:21.400
to start again for your neck area, in your shoulders,

2353
06:11:25.360 --> 06:11:35.799
just to get back in touch with that area. And

2354
06:11:35.959 --> 06:11:47.560
as we move up, I can clean my hands make

2355
06:11:47.639 --> 06:11:51.240
them more fresh, because now I'm going to message your

2356
06:11:51.279 --> 06:12:07.159
face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are

2357
06:12:07.200 --> 06:12:13.479
closed and I can just stretch your eyes a little bit,

2358
06:12:14.479 --> 06:12:25.520
pushing up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp,

2359
06:12:31.240 --> 06:12:40.720
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears into your jaw

2360
06:12:41.880 --> 06:13:00.479
gently the sides of your neck, your chin mm hmm.

2361
06:13:04.319 --> 06:13:12.040
Then just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2362
06:13:15.799 --> 06:13:19.880
starting by message in the very top of your chest

2363
06:13:23.639 --> 06:13:28.880
where the collar phone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2364
06:13:37.360 --> 06:13:40.599
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

2365
06:13:49.759 --> 06:14:01.840
moving the chest around, because it's quite a large area,

2366
06:14:03.720 --> 06:14:11.200
you can move from one side to the next, moving

2367
06:14:11.560 --> 06:14:22.599
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2368
06:14:24.720 --> 06:14:27.840
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2369
06:14:33.080 --> 06:14:41.759
moving up over your chest, and they're moving down again.

2370
06:14:54.439 --> 06:14:59.840
Then aloud my hands. They just message gently and slide

2371
06:15:00.279 --> 06:15:06.799
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2372
06:15:10.240 --> 06:15:16.959
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massage in

2373
06:15:17.040 --> 06:15:26.439
and sliding at the same time, moving down to just

2374
06:15:26.520 --> 06:15:42.040
below your rib cage, moving down, then massaging up again,

2375
06:15:44.799 --> 06:15:52.720
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2376
06:15:52.880 --> 06:16:05.159
feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also going to be

2377
06:16:05.240 --> 06:16:11.319
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2378
06:16:11.520 --> 06:16:19.119
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

2379
06:16:24.040 --> 06:16:28.040
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2380
06:16:31.840 --> 06:16:35.279
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2381
06:16:44.880 --> 06:16:50.759
Now moving to your stomach area. I'm going to stand

2382
06:16:51.000 --> 06:16:53.560
one side of you like I did when I did

2383
06:16:53.599 --> 06:16:59.080
your lower back. I'm going to do a similar process,

2384
06:17:00.119 --> 06:17:14.919
just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging from

2385
06:17:14.959 --> 06:17:22.599
one side to the next, move in a whole area

2386
06:17:23.680 --> 06:17:27.639
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2387
06:17:27.680 --> 06:17:37.279
your belly button, and then move around to the other

2388
06:17:37.360 --> 06:17:53.200
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing deeply, calmly.

2389
06:17:56.319 --> 06:18:03.919
You feel, loose, you feel And it's something about having

2390
06:18:03.919 --> 06:18:12.319
your stomach massage that's different from any other part because

2391
06:18:12.319 --> 06:18:16.840
we do have a tendency of holding a different kind

2392
06:18:16.880 --> 06:18:20.880
of stress in our stomach that we may not be

2393
06:18:20.959 --> 06:18:32.240
aware of. As a now massage your stomach in front

2394
06:18:32.279 --> 06:18:45.400
of your stomach, making circles around your belly button, anything

2395
06:18:45.560 --> 06:18:55.080
going the other way around. There's a gentleness and a

2396
06:18:55.240 --> 06:19:07.040
freedom that comes from feeling you're feeling as I now

2397
06:19:07.200 --> 06:19:16.560
move down the tops of your thighs the muscles, massaging them,

2398
06:19:16.639 --> 06:19:20.080
and I can do this two legs at the same time,

2399
06:19:22.240 --> 06:19:31.639
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at

2400
06:19:31.680 --> 06:19:40.479
front of your thighs and moving down to your knees,

2401
06:19:41.319 --> 06:19:54.000
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2402
06:19:54.080 --> 06:20:01.840
on either side of your shin gently, softly but firmly,

2403
06:20:05.959 --> 06:20:15.840
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2404
06:20:21.840 --> 06:20:27.279
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2405
06:20:27.479 --> 06:20:35.840
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2406
06:20:36.560 --> 06:20:44.880
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2407
06:20:44.959 --> 06:20:54.720
your feet. Feels so good, just to let go and

2408
06:20:54.959 --> 06:21:19.880
enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

2409
06:21:20.080 --> 06:21:27.040
and so many feelings that come just from touching your skin.

2410
06:21:37.759 --> 06:21:43.720
And you can just lie there for as long as

2411
06:21:43.759 --> 06:21:57.200
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2412
06:22:00.159 --> 06:22:28.759
Me enjoy fear deeply light And all we're gonna do

2413
06:22:29.279 --> 06:22:49.599
is blow out some candles. In your mind, there're gonna

2414
06:22:49.599 --> 06:23:00.319
be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow each

2415
06:23:00.360 --> 06:23:10.479
one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2416
06:23:11.520 --> 06:23:22.240
As I count down all the way down to one,

2417
06:23:23.400 --> 06:23:32.360
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2418
06:23:32.360 --> 06:23:38.840
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2419
06:23:38.919 --> 06:23:58.279
to actually physically gently blow that candle out, just so

2420
06:23:58.319 --> 06:24:06.880
it's not a big blows just a gentle, and that

2421
06:24:07.119 --> 06:24:16.720
candle will extinguish, and then I'll say the next number

2422
06:24:18.200 --> 06:24:27.360
as we move down, and you can just blow that

2423
06:24:27.439 --> 06:24:37.439
one out as well. And as we move down the numbers,

2424
06:24:41.959 --> 06:24:50.639
you'll find yourself feeding more and more relaxed. If you

2425
06:24:50.799 --> 06:24:59.959
need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired

2426
06:25:00.000 --> 06:25:12.599
and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to blow out

2427
06:25:12.639 --> 06:25:29.560
all one hundred of these candles as you feel more

2428
06:25:29.680 --> 06:25:57.360
and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired. And

2429
06:25:57.799 --> 06:26:07.880
the further you go down, the more your mind starts

2430
06:26:07.959 --> 06:26:19.639
to drift. You may find that you stop listening to

2431
06:26:19.680 --> 06:26:33.680
me after a while. And even though there maybe background

2432
06:26:33.919 --> 06:26:41.799
sounds where you are, you'll be aware of those sounds

2433
06:26:45.159 --> 06:27:01.040
at the moment, be may start to just not even

2434
06:27:01.119 --> 06:27:22.200
notice them at all because they're unimportant. Where I am,

2435
06:27:22.520 --> 06:27:27.360
I've got the sounds of the birds, there's horrors, the

2436
06:27:27.400 --> 06:27:35.360
pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and there's the

2437
06:27:35.400 --> 06:27:45.959
odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains in

2438
06:27:46.080 --> 06:28:03.279
the distance, But none of that scens important whatsoever. More

2439
06:28:04.360 --> 06:28:19.119
candles you blow out less important. Anything is. More candles

2440
06:28:19.639 --> 06:28:29.919
you blow out, the further you seem to move away

2441
06:28:35.840 --> 06:28:49.240
from sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems to

2442
06:28:49.520 --> 06:29:03.599
just move away on its own. You feel more.

2443
06:29:05.759 --> 06:29:23.240
Calmer with every candle you blow out, guiding you.

2444
06:29:26.400 --> 06:29:39.520
To the next number. Do you hear me say? And

2445
06:29:39.560 --> 06:29:57.479
then you blow that candle out too? So easy, so simple.

2446
06:30:07.000 --> 06:30:21.040
We're gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is

2447
06:30:21.080 --> 06:30:39.840
a hundred. First candle is one hundred. When you blow

2448
06:30:39.880 --> 06:30:59.520
that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change in

2449
06:30:59.680 --> 06:31:07.959
how you feel, as well as a real sense of

2450
06:31:10.439 --> 06:31:39.240
positivity growing within you. Relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with

2451
06:31:45.720 --> 06:32:26.720
one hundred, blow out by candle now ninety nine, candle

2452
06:32:29.240 --> 06:34:06.319
ninety eight, cand ninety h seven, cham mighty six, can

2453
06:34:07.759 --> 06:35:53.560
ninety five, hand ninety four, candle ninety three, tenne two

2454
06:35:54.720 --> 06:37:26.560
and ninety one, ten ninety eight, nine and fifty eight

2455
06:37:56.720 --> 06:40:26.040
and eighties handle eighties eight five, n.

2456
06:40:42.159 --> 06:40:54.000
N en.

2457
06:41:07.279 --> 06:44:27.319
Eighty two and two one, can seventy nine, candle seventy eight,

2458
06:44:36.159 --> 06:45:38.799
candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle

2459
06:45:41.599 --> 06:46:42.319
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one.

2460
06:46:59.439 --> 06:47:44.560
Can do seventy one and UH seventy and UH sixty nine,

2461
06:47:54.360 --> 06:48:42.319
candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle

2462
06:48:47.880 --> 06:49:48.159
sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty

2463
06:50:03.279 --> 06:51:40.599
and sixty one, candle sixty fifty nine, handle fifty eight,

2464
06:51:51.439 --> 06:53:16.959
candle fifty seven, candle fifty six, candle fifty five, handle

2465
06:53:20.959 --> 06:55:09.159
fifty four, handle fifty three, end fifty two, fifty two

2466
06:55:10.159 --> 06:57:01.599
handleify two, candle fifty one, candle fifty, candle foty nine,

2467
06:57:18.400 --> 06:58:41.720
candle foot he ate, candle forty seven, candle forty six,

2468
06:59:09.720 --> 07:01:50.439
hand forty five and forty two candle who to candle forty,

2469
07:01:51.479 --> 07:03:52.479
candle thirty nine and thirty eight, candle thirty seven, candle

2470
07:03:54.919 --> 07:06:02.759
thirty five, two thirty four, handle thirty three, handle thirty one,

2471
07:06:45.919 --> 07:09:49.240
chandle thirty, candle twenty eighteen nine, candle twenty eight and

2472
07:09:53.919 --> 07:12:08.119
twenty seven, twenty six, cant twenty five and two, will

2473
07:12:09.520 --> 07:14:09.000
ty four, end twenty thirty and twine and twenty one

2474
07:14:43.799 --> 07:18:33.880
and to winy and ninety tend seventeen, can sixteen chance.

2475
07:18:38.400 --> 07:19:56.159
Four jen to.

2476
07:20:00.520 --> 07:21:33.560
True ooh.

2477
07:20:58.279 --> 07:20:58.959
And U.

2478
07:21:37.560 --> 07:25:30.560
H yeah, jame do nine and eight JO six can

2479
07:25:30.759 --> 07:29:19.720
you came four and doy two two candle, or let

2480
07:29:19.759 --> 07:29:27.479
go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past,

2481
07:29:29.360 --> 07:29:33.840
thoughts about the future, and even things you've been thinking

2482
07:29:33.880 --> 07:29:41.479
about today. Just let it all go because none of

2483
07:29:41.560 --> 07:29:51.400
it is useful in this moment. This is your opportunity

2484
07:29:56.040 --> 07:30:10.599
to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get

2485
07:30:10.680 --> 07:30:20.080
in touch with that natural sense of peace that we

2486
07:30:20.279 --> 07:30:27.000
all have within us. It's available for everyone. It just

2487
07:30:27.159 --> 07:30:32.279
sometimes takes a little bit of effort to set up

2488
07:30:32.400 --> 07:30:38.319
the right time and place in order for you to

2489
07:30:38.680 --> 07:30:47.599
just let go. Because when you do decide to let

2490
07:30:47.680 --> 07:30:52.840
go and relax, that's what your body starts to do

2491
07:30:56.119 --> 07:31:03.200
because you've chosen, You've chosen and to just allow your

2492
07:31:03.279 --> 07:31:08.880
body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2493
07:31:12.240 --> 07:31:16.639
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2494
07:31:16.680 --> 07:31:22.599
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2495
07:31:22.759 --> 07:31:31.799
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2496
07:31:33.599 --> 07:31:40.639
your body will just follow suit, because sometimes all the

2497
07:31:40.799 --> 07:31:45.520
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2498
07:31:46.599 --> 07:31:55.080
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2499
07:31:55.159 --> 07:31:59.119
here to there, we're walking around and we're doing stuff,

2500
07:32:01.439 --> 07:32:07.799
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2501
07:32:08.000 --> 07:32:14.959
really relax deeply, So it kind of waits for you

2502
07:32:15.279 --> 07:32:24.439
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2503
07:32:24.479 --> 07:32:31.200
you do give your permission, when you give the say so,

2504
07:32:31.439 --> 07:32:39.240
when you say okay, it's time for your body to

2505
07:32:39.400 --> 07:32:48.159
let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2506
07:32:51.159 --> 07:32:56.560
It's like a breath of relief. Ah good, I can

2507
07:32:56.680 --> 07:33:03.680
now relax. That feeling at the end of a day,

2508
07:33:03.759 --> 07:33:07.479
of a very physical day that you may experience in

2509
07:33:07.599 --> 07:33:11.119
the past, but you get home and you just sit

2510
07:33:11.319 --> 07:33:15.240
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off,

2511
07:33:15.319 --> 07:33:22.080
and feels so nice knowing that you don't have to

2512
07:33:22.159 --> 07:33:26.799
get up again for a little while at least if

2513
07:33:26.880 --> 07:33:29.520
you choose, you can just sit there for maybe an

2514
07:33:29.560 --> 07:33:42.799
hour to It feels blissful. And just by sitting down

2515
07:33:43.119 --> 07:33:47.799
like that, your body knows that it's time to relax.

2516
07:33:49.439 --> 07:33:55.279
Your body has been given permission from you. Because it's

2517
07:33:55.360 --> 07:34:05.520
a mindset. In your mind, you're prepared to let go

2518
07:34:05.720 --> 07:34:15.799
of everything and just completely allow all the stress of

2519
07:34:15.880 --> 07:34:27.799
your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually vanish.

2520
07:34:34.319 --> 07:34:46.000
It's almost like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation

2521
07:34:46.360 --> 07:34:52.319
in your body, it's a very natural state. It's not

2522
07:34:52.520 --> 07:34:57.360
something unusual. It may feel unusual when you first start

2523
07:34:57.439 --> 07:35:01.919
to relax, if you if you haven't really spend a

2524
07:35:02.000 --> 07:35:06.240
lot of time focusing and giving yourself this space to

2525
07:35:06.400 --> 07:35:11.720
let go completely and relax, they seem are most alien,

2526
07:35:13.560 --> 07:35:19.479
but it isn't. It's actually the most natural thing in

2527
07:35:19.560 --> 07:35:29.759
the world to let go completely, to relax totally, the

2528
07:35:29.959 --> 07:35:40.880
most natural thing in the world to allow yourself to

2529
07:35:41.159 --> 07:35:48.959
feel really calm in your mind. And it is almost

2530
07:35:49.599 --> 07:35:56.680
like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button

2531
07:35:59.319 --> 07:36:05.720
and all tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

2532
07:36:06.119 --> 07:36:10.319
like a cog, like the inside of a clock, just unwinding.

2533
07:36:10.959 --> 07:36:14.880
And it's almost like you could see the little wind

2534
07:36:15.000 --> 07:36:20.840
up knob that's used just going the opposite way that

2535
07:36:20.959 --> 07:36:26.880
you choose to wind it up, and the energy that

2536
07:36:27.119 --> 07:36:37.319
frenetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power,

2537
07:36:38.599 --> 07:36:46.040
losing its strength as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

2538
07:36:47.240 --> 07:36:56.759
and deeper, and you may find a the more relaxed

2539
07:36:58.159 --> 07:37:09.439
you feel, that your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem

2540
07:37:09.560 --> 07:37:13.400
to stop listening to me for a while, and your

2541
07:37:13.520 --> 07:37:19.040
mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening

2542
07:37:19.119 --> 07:37:24.759
to me again, and that is just your mind drifting

2543
07:37:25.159 --> 07:37:35.279
to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're.

2544
07:37:37.599 --> 07:37:40.720
Stressed and tense, we're.

2545
07:37:40.639 --> 07:37:44.279
Not I mean, I actually be aware of what we need,

2546
07:37:45.400 --> 07:37:53.840
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2547
07:37:54.000 --> 07:38:00.000
when you allow your body and mind to relax complete

2548
07:38:02.040 --> 07:38:09.200
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2549
07:38:10.720 --> 07:38:15.240
all letting them go, allow them to drop onto the floor.

2550
07:38:20.520 --> 07:38:26.520
When you start to get in touch with the feelings

2551
07:38:26.680 --> 07:38:38.400
of such relaxation, this feels so nice, to be in

2552
07:38:38.639 --> 07:38:45.400
touch with the calmness of the different body parts as

2553
07:38:45.520 --> 07:39:01.200
they become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier

2554
07:39:01.880 --> 07:39:11.720
and more natural, effortless, as that coolenters through your mouth

2555
07:39:11.880 --> 07:39:21.759
or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation,

2556
07:39:24.400 --> 07:39:30.319
and then just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2557
07:39:30.479 --> 07:39:35.520
stress from every part of your body.

2558
07:39:36.799 --> 07:39:37.360
And mind.

2559
07:39:40.959 --> 07:39:45.520
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2560
07:39:46.080 --> 07:39:54.000
you notice that things come to a standstill or maybe

2561
07:39:54.439 --> 07:40:03.040
just much much lower than before, because your mind is

2562
07:40:03.200 --> 07:40:14.040
not really needed when listening to my voice, which allows

2563
07:40:14.119 --> 07:40:20.080
your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2564
07:40:22.840 --> 07:40:31.080
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and

2565
07:40:33.840 --> 07:40:47.599
relaxation of your mind. Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

2566
07:40:47.959 --> 07:41:02.159
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2567
07:41:02.439 --> 07:41:14.959
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and

2568
07:41:15.080 --> 07:41:23.759
your life. To be able to let go everything and

2569
07:41:23.959 --> 07:41:34.360
to relax completely in all parts of your body and mind.

2570
07:41:36.720 --> 07:41:45.240
Even your bones has arised, all your muscles are arised.

2571
07:41:52.080 --> 07:42:05.520
Even the skin that covers your body his relif every

2572
07:42:06.119 --> 07:42:23.200
hair that you have is also deeply relaxed, and your

2573
07:42:23.360 --> 07:42:36.840
brain restarts to feel the benefits of this healing relaxation.

2574
07:42:42.119 --> 07:42:48.080
And as you focus on the inside of your scalp

2575
07:42:48.560 --> 07:42:54.360
where your brain is, you can start to realize and

2576
07:42:54.639 --> 07:43:07.720
notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then it's

2577
07:43:07.759 --> 07:43:18.959
your brain continues to relax, it sends those messages to

2578
07:43:19.759 --> 07:43:27.080
the rest of your body and your mind to re

2579
07:43:28.119 --> 07:43:50.919
relax more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting go of any

2580
07:43:52.759 --> 07:44:03.560
remaining forces or concerns allowment just drop onto the floor

2581
07:44:05.759 --> 07:44:14.200
because they're no longer necessary in this moment, in this

2582
07:44:14.560 --> 07:44:24.439
moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling.

2583
07:44:26.680 --> 07:44:27.599
Your brain.

2584
07:44:29.240 --> 07:44:52.400
With deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of your brain,

2585
07:44:56.880 --> 07:45:13.400
feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and be peaceful.

2586
07:45:16.680 --> 07:45:28.000
Your brain feels so light and so healthy in a

2587
07:45:28.400 --> 07:45:41.919
sense of deep deep comfort really does allow you to

2588
07:45:42.319 --> 07:45:53.560
enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort, that is,

2589
07:45:53.840 --> 07:46:07.080
spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle of

2590
07:46:07.240 --> 07:46:26.279
your body, eat deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before,

2591
07:46:30.000 --> 07:46:42.520
much more countifort, spreading through your body in your mind,

2592
07:46:45.520 --> 07:47:03.319
be so peaceful and calm, so fair, fair peaceful in

2593
07:47:03.599 --> 07:47:13.959
avery part of your body, letting him go mm hmm

2594
07:47:15.080 --> 07:47:38.040
a everything averything, so peaceful time, so relax A very

2595
07:47:39.360 --> 07:47:45.520
second the passes you feel.

2596
07:47:47.479 --> 07:48:18.680
Dpa, deper relax, dper and deperlax calm, so calm, peace, for.

2597
07:48:21.479 --> 07:48:30.759
So very peace, from your head down to your toes,

2598
07:48:33.880 --> 07:48:47.520
such peace and comfort throwing all the time, such peace

2599
07:48:48.520 --> 07:49:00.599
and comfort, spreading through your body and mind deep, deeper

2600
07:49:00.599 --> 07:49:17.080
and deeper, such comforts, spreading and sinking deeper into ay

2601
07:49:17.560 --> 07:49:31.560
muscle of your body, so that you feel amazing, so laxed,

2602
07:49:35.040 --> 07:49:56.720
so piece soul, so lax and peace, so letting go everything.

2603
07:50:01.000 --> 07:50:07.200
I'm going to do a body scan, focusing on firstly

2604
07:50:07.400 --> 07:50:12.119
how you feel in your body, Not trying to change

2605
07:50:12.799 --> 07:50:18.439
how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to

2606
07:50:18.639 --> 07:50:25.799
move away from any discomfort or stress or tension, just accepting,

2607
07:50:27.319 --> 07:50:32.439
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2608
07:50:32.520 --> 07:50:39.159
of your body, just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2609
07:50:39.240 --> 07:50:50.720
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

2610
07:50:50.799 --> 07:50:57.720
you actually feel in this moment. So I'm going to

2611
07:50:57.880 --> 07:51:09.159
start off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware

2612
07:51:09.240 --> 07:51:17.680
of your hands. I'd like you to move your hands around,

2613
07:51:19.119 --> 07:51:24.680
just maybe move your fingers a little bit. I've been

2614
07:51:24.840 --> 07:51:31.200
enclosing your hands very gently, just so that you can

2615
07:51:33.119 --> 07:51:40.159
get in touch with how your hands and your fingers feel,

2616
07:51:45.560 --> 07:52:04.520
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

2617
07:52:04.639 --> 07:52:08.520
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2618
07:52:08.680 --> 07:52:14.400
your feet is you've just done with your hands, maybe

2619
07:52:15.840 --> 07:52:23.279
turn in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your

2620
07:52:23.400 --> 07:52:37.360
toes gently, only very gently and very slowly, noticing how

2621
07:52:39.119 --> 07:52:52.599
your feet fell in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes,

2622
07:52:55.599 --> 07:53:02.680
I'd like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe

2623
07:53:02.799 --> 07:53:05.520
you can open and close your eyes a couple of

2624
07:53:05.639 --> 07:53:11.080
times to really get in touch with how you feel

2625
07:53:11.200 --> 07:53:19.200
when you do close your eyes. The muscle changes in

2626
07:53:19.319 --> 07:53:26.159
your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows.

2627
07:53:27.919 --> 07:53:35.759
It stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps quinting your eyes,

2628
07:53:39.479 --> 07:53:44.840
scrunching up your eyes just so you can hear it again,

2629
07:53:45.119 --> 07:53:55.639
touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2630
07:53:58.119 --> 07:53:58.599
Right now.

2631
07:54:07.959 --> 07:54:14.479
Now focusing on your thighs, and it just starts you

2632
07:54:14.639 --> 07:54:24.720
to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently, just

2633
07:54:25.040 --> 07:54:37.240
enough so you can become more attuned to the physical

2634
07:54:37.880 --> 07:54:45.119
sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2635
07:54:45.400 --> 07:54:56.400
in the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

2636
07:54:58.759 --> 07:55:13.840
your thighs feel. Right now, moving your focus to the

2637
07:55:13.919 --> 07:55:20.479
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your

2638
07:55:20.599 --> 07:55:26.959
neck the muscles, and of course they lead to the

2639
07:55:27.240 --> 07:55:31.639
side of your neck. They also lead to the top

2640
07:55:31.720 --> 07:55:38.040
of your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as

2641
07:55:38.080 --> 07:55:43.919
your focus on the back of your neck, maybe you

2642
07:55:44.080 --> 07:55:50.720
can move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up,

2643
07:55:52.680 --> 07:55:58.319
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2644
07:56:01.439 --> 07:56:07.880
Perhaps moving your headside to side, right to left, but

2645
07:56:08.240 --> 07:56:19.479
bindy very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to

2646
07:56:19.919 --> 07:56:30.799
force anything. It has to be very very gentle, just

2647
07:56:31.439 --> 07:56:32.720
so you can.

2648
07:56:34.279 --> 07:56:35.880
Be more.

2649
07:56:37.520 --> 07:56:46.959
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations of physical

2650
07:56:48.319 --> 07:56:57.599
sensations of how the back of your neck feels. Right now,

2651
07:57:05.159 --> 07:57:13.159
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2652
07:57:15.520 --> 07:57:20.360
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2653
07:57:20.400 --> 07:57:28.119
your elbow and your shoulders. Should focus on those parts

2654
07:57:29.119 --> 07:57:34.799
the tops of your arms. You may like to just

2655
07:57:35.599 --> 07:57:46.919
tense them, but very very gently and slowly. See you're

2656
07:57:46.919 --> 07:57:56.400
not straining or put in any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2657
07:57:59.080 --> 07:58:06.439
It's just soothly you can gain more of a sense

2658
07:58:06.720 --> 07:58:17.200
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

2659
07:58:20.200 --> 07:58:30.919
and just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly

2660
07:58:32.720 --> 07:58:43.639
tighten the muscles and then let go. Notice how the

2661
07:58:43.840 --> 07:58:58.639
tops of your arms feel right now. As a now

2662
07:58:59.319 --> 07:59:09.560
focus on your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area

2663
07:59:10.200 --> 07:59:18.599
below your belly button, moving all the way down to

2664
07:59:18.759 --> 07:59:29.319
your hips, just above your grind. Maybe you're able to

2665
07:59:30.759 --> 07:59:43.720
tense these muscles in the area very very gently and slowly.

2666
07:59:49.360 --> 07:59:53.520
If that's a difficult thing to do, and maybe you

2667
07:59:53.639 --> 08:00:04.159
can just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe

2668
08:00:04.319 --> 08:00:07.720
moving a little bit to a side, easing your hips,

2669
08:00:09.880 --> 08:00:18.040
just so you can get more in tune with how

2670
08:00:18.240 --> 08:00:27.279
your lower abdomen area is feeling.

2671
08:00:29.639 --> 08:00:30.599
In this moment.

2672
08:00:37.159 --> 08:00:49.240
Just noticing the physical sensations of your lower abdomen.

2673
08:00:59.560 --> 08:00:59.720
As.

2674
08:01:00.159 --> 08:01:03.639
Move your attention.

2675
08:01:05.560 --> 08:01:06.360
To your mouth.

2676
08:01:11.680 --> 08:01:19.919
Notice in your lips and inside your mouth, the teeth,

2677
08:01:21.040 --> 08:01:37.159
your guns, your tongue, Just noticing how your tongue and

2678
08:01:37.240 --> 08:01:38.959
your mouth feels.

2679
08:01:42.040 --> 08:01:43.479
It may help by.

2680
08:01:45.439 --> 08:01:52.680
Moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it to your left,

2681
08:01:54.439 --> 08:01:59.959
maybe pressing it gently against the side of your mouth,

2682
08:02:01.720 --> 08:02:06.680
and then to the right, gently to the side of

2683
08:02:06.799 --> 08:02:14.720
your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth,

2684
08:02:15.880 --> 08:02:21.720
and then down gently against the bottom of your mouth,

2685
08:02:24.439 --> 08:02:40.639
always very slowly and a very very gentle so that

2686
08:02:40.880 --> 08:02:56.319
you can be aware of how you feel in your

2687
08:02:56.439 --> 08:03:17.680
mouth area. Now I'm going to focus on your wrists,

2688
08:03:28.319 --> 08:03:33.520
and I'm going to ask you to maybe just routine.

2689
08:03:34.720 --> 08:03:35.840
Your wrists.

2690
08:03:37.279 --> 08:03:45.279
By moving your hands in a circular motion very gently

2691
08:03:47.240 --> 08:04:08.880
and slowly, just so you can feel the sensations that

2692
08:04:09.119 --> 08:04:24.560
you are currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in

2693
08:04:24.799 --> 08:04:42.279
your hands up and down again. Very very gently and slowly,

2694
08:04:51.279 --> 08:04:58.520
very gentle and slow.

2695
08:05:12.000 --> 08:05:12.959
As you now.

2696
08:05:15.439 --> 08:05:30.040
Start to observe your lower back. The bad part is

2697
08:05:31.639 --> 08:05:47.319
just above of your hips where your coxis are a

2698
08:05:47.520 --> 08:05:54.439
whole area which also really does include the signs of

2699
08:05:54.560 --> 08:06:05.360
your body because those muscles are very much connected. As

2700
08:06:05.439 --> 08:06:12.479
those muscles also move into your hip area connecting to

2701
08:06:12.639 --> 08:06:27.560
your buttocks the side of your hips, and if you're

2702
08:06:28.840 --> 08:06:37.599
physically able to do so, maybe you can very gently

2703
08:06:39.759 --> 08:06:53.119
just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly some side

2704
08:06:53.279 --> 08:07:10.880
to side just enough see s gauge how you feel

2705
08:07:13.279 --> 08:07:27.959
in your lower back. Perhaps it could even move your

2706
08:07:28.200 --> 08:07:42.799
hips gently up and down gently slowly in order to.

2707
08:07:47.319 --> 08:07:48.840
Be in touch.

2708
08:07:51.200 --> 08:08:14.599
With the physical sensations of your lawer back. As we

2709
08:08:14.919 --> 08:08:30.919
know your attention to your jaw, the area for your

2710
08:08:31.159 --> 08:08:36.799
chin all the way up to near where your ears are.

2711
08:08:40.000 --> 08:08:52.560
Oh, your jaw, you can just.

2712
08:08:54.639 --> 08:09:01.319
If it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth,

2713
08:09:04.240 --> 08:09:15.840
not wide, no stretching, just very gently and slowly opening

2714
08:09:15.959 --> 08:09:38.680
your mouthing, closing your mouth very gently and slowly so

2715
08:09:38.959 --> 08:09:55.919
you can be in touch with how your jaw feels now,

2716
08:10:22.599 --> 08:10:38.200
and I just sit down your chest area. You don't

2717
08:10:38.400 --> 08:10:45.759
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2718
08:10:46.000 --> 08:10:56.919
moves every time you breathe, and it moves very gently

2719
08:10:58.759 --> 08:11:16.080
and really automatically with each breath you take. As you

2720
08:11:16.520 --> 08:12:03.560
focus on how your chest feels when you breathe, move

2721
08:12:03.799 --> 08:12:18.720
in your focus to your forearms, your elbows. Maybe you're

2722
08:12:18.840 --> 08:12:32.479
able to very gently and slowly tense the muscles in

2723
08:12:32.639 --> 08:12:39.560
your forearms, and when you do that, you can feel

2724
08:12:42.799 --> 08:13:11.680
your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2725
08:13:14.639 --> 08:13:16.560
And softly.

2726
08:13:20.159 --> 08:13:59.000
Up saving your forearms and delbos. No focus the rest

2727
08:13:59.119 --> 08:13:59.759
of your back.

2728
08:14:00.040 --> 08:14:05.159
Yeah, your upper back.

2729
08:14:09.439 --> 08:14:26.159
In the middle, the middle of your back. And again

2730
08:14:26.840 --> 08:14:37.599
this part of your body. News Also every time you prey,

2731
08:14:42.599 --> 08:14:56.240
you may not notice that usually mas you observe your

2732
08:14:56.400 --> 08:15:03.599
upper back in the middle of your back, you can

2733
08:15:03.840 --> 08:16:02.439
really feel that gent end mov moving your foot to

2734
08:16:02.560 --> 08:16:16.040
your hip area, your butties, your brain, those muscles, and

2735
08:16:16.159 --> 08:16:56.560
those bones in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips feel.

2736
08:16:59.720 --> 08:17:17.560
Right now, you can very very gently move your hips,

2737
08:17:22.560 --> 08:18:02.880
maybe side to side, very gently and slo very very gently, softly.

2738
08:18:09.759 --> 08:18:09.840
And.

2739
08:18:16.599 --> 08:18:33.360
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2740
08:18:33.479 --> 08:18:45.240
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2741
08:18:45.319 --> 08:18:51.680
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting to

2742
08:18:53.080 --> 08:19:01.880
It's almost like time is straight chin. It's a slower

2743
08:19:02.040 --> 08:19:09.919
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2744
08:19:09.959 --> 08:19:10.759
to day life.

2745
08:19:13.919 --> 08:19:32.159
It's a slower movement of energy, very.

2746
08:19:36.360 --> 08:19:44.799
Small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2747
08:19:44.880 --> 08:19:52.639
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2748
08:19:52.759 --> 08:19:55.479
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2749
08:19:56.319 --> 08:20:03.720
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2750
08:20:08.680 --> 08:20:21.000
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2751
08:20:21.279 --> 08:20:42.159
move from that big movement into those smaller movements. Starting

2752
08:20:42.279 --> 08:20:53.119
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

2753
08:20:53.159 --> 08:20:57.479
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

2754
08:20:57.560 --> 08:21:03.639
I'm feeling stressed tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

2755
08:21:04.959 --> 08:21:11.560
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2756
08:21:11.799 --> 08:21:23.000
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2757
08:21:24.159 --> 08:21:40.479
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

2758
08:21:43.279 --> 08:21:56.479
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

2759
08:21:56.560 --> 08:22:06.119
them or to judge them those feelings, just thinking them,

2760
08:22:07.000 --> 08:22:19.959
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

2761
08:22:20.200 --> 08:22:31.279
being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is

2762
08:22:31.400 --> 08:22:45.319
telling you. Feelings in your arms. Instead of feeling the

2763
08:22:45.520 --> 08:22:55.599
whole of the arm, maybe notice those individual feelings, all

2764
08:22:55.639 --> 08:23:07.720
those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms,

2765
08:23:09.599 --> 08:23:23.680
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2766
08:23:26.560 --> 08:23:32.560
just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2767
08:23:32.799 --> 08:23:44.080
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has.

2768
08:23:47.080 --> 08:24:07.799
Its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on

2769
08:24:07.959 --> 08:24:12.159
your right arm, you're right forearm.

2770
08:24:19.479 --> 08:24:25.560
There may not be any particular feeling that you could

2771
08:24:25.639 --> 08:24:33.520
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2772
08:24:34.520 --> 08:24:36.400
other than just a feeling.

2773
08:24:37.319 --> 08:24:38.400
You know, it's there.

2774
08:24:44.680 --> 08:24:50.400
The feelings in your shoulders. Perhaps your shoulders when you

2775
08:24:50.520 --> 08:24:54.240
think about them, kind of almost like they're the same,

2776
08:24:55.400 --> 08:25:00.959
you know, the same feeling, wh just like you both

2777
08:25:01.000 --> 08:25:05.720
of your shoulders are just one thing. Of course they're not.

2778
08:25:14.400 --> 08:25:19.759
And when you focus on your left shoulder and then

2779
08:25:19.799 --> 08:25:26.400
on your right shoulder, maybe find that you move the

2780
08:25:26.560 --> 08:25:37.279
muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing

2781
08:25:38.639 --> 08:25:44.400
the difference in each shoulder.

2782
08:25:55.200 --> 08:26:10.799
And your lower back, the left side of your lower

2783
08:26:10.919 --> 08:26:13.560
back and the right side of.

2784
08:26:13.639 --> 08:26:24.759
Your lower back of course that connection to your buttocks

2785
08:26:25.959 --> 08:26:37.680
and to your hips, and also moving up into the

2786
08:26:37.799 --> 08:26:51.000
middle of your back and sometimes like right now, actually

2787
08:26:51.759 --> 08:26:55.439
I want to focus on their part. When I focused

2788
08:26:55.479 --> 08:27:00.959
on my buttocks and then I focused on my the

2789
08:27:01.080 --> 08:27:04.200
middle of my back, it almost felt like the muscles

2790
08:27:04.240 --> 08:27:13.080
in my lower back were being stretched very gently, just

2791
08:27:13.720 --> 08:27:18.840
stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything

2792
08:27:21.000 --> 08:27:27.599
to try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed

2793
08:27:27.639 --> 08:27:39.919
to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your lower

2794
08:27:40.000 --> 08:27:46.959
back comes along.

2795
08:27:50.680 --> 08:28:15.000
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations.

2796
08:28:15.599 --> 08:28:33.240
You are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's

2797
08:28:33.319 --> 08:28:37.520
so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone

2798
08:28:37.639 --> 08:28:44.439
leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've

2799
08:28:44.439 --> 08:28:52.799
got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2800
08:28:53.439 --> 08:29:03.840
there's possibly the breasts your male you've got the different

2801
08:29:05.000 --> 08:29:06.720
well might not that different these days, but.

2802
08:29:08.919 --> 08:29:10.000
There may be more.

2803
08:29:11.799 --> 08:29:18.080
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2804
08:29:18.240 --> 08:29:23.159
side underneath, it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

2805
08:29:23.240 --> 08:29:28.240
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

2806
08:29:28.360 --> 08:29:33.240
out to your back as well as breast tissue. It

2807
08:29:33.400 --> 08:29:41.720
stretches and moves into your back. To just being aware

2808
08:29:41.759 --> 08:30:02.319
of your chest being with whatever even there is in

2809
08:30:02.439 --> 08:30:21.599
your chest when I noticed that I focus on my chest,

2810
08:30:26.000 --> 08:30:29.520
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

2811
08:30:31.000 --> 08:30:34.040
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

2812
08:30:34.119 --> 08:30:44.040
you know, I'll breathe in in, and it stretches my

2813
08:30:44.360 --> 08:30:55.159
chest and my back at the same time. It feels

2814
08:30:58.439 --> 08:31:10.240
it feels okay, doesn't feel I got a little bit

2815
08:31:10.319 --> 08:31:17.200
of pain in my right chest, a little bit, not pain,

2816
08:31:17.360 --> 08:31:23.200
but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know.

2817
08:31:27.279 --> 08:31:34.799
I noticed my shoulders are also wanting to flex for

2818
08:31:34.919 --> 08:31:39.959
some reason. I think that's probably part of my upper back,

2819
08:31:45.080 --> 08:31:50.159
that connection between my shoulders and my other back, because

2820
08:31:50.159 --> 08:31:54.720
I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in

2821
08:31:54.880 --> 08:32:03.159
my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then

2822
08:32:03.279 --> 08:32:19.119
moves I think it's the scapulous in your back. It

2823
08:32:19.200 --> 08:32:27.119
feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this is

2824
08:32:27.240 --> 08:32:35.880
you can, if you want to, you can just flex

2825
08:32:36.560 --> 08:32:48.599
or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently in

2826
08:32:48.759 --> 08:32:52.599
order to get more of a sense of how they feel.

2827
08:33:00.000 --> 08:33:07.680
And when you're relaxing. When you do tense and muscle

2828
08:33:09.200 --> 08:33:11.759
and you let it go and you let it relax,

2829
08:33:12.959 --> 08:33:25.439
it relaxes way more than it would normally. You have

2830
08:33:25.720 --> 08:33:32.240
to feel that you're able to do that, there's no

2831
08:33:32.360 --> 08:33:37.840
point in doing it if there's an issue with the

2832
08:33:37.919 --> 08:33:44.240
per part of your body. You need to be gentle

2833
08:33:44.400 --> 08:33:57.479
with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply. It's important

2834
08:34:01.200 --> 08:34:12.599
to be kind to yourself. As you notice your mind.

2835
08:34:16.919 --> 08:34:20.759
How much has your mind slowed down.

2836
08:34:22.799 --> 08:34:49.360
Since we started this recording. How came and peaceful is

2837
08:34:49.439 --> 08:34:59.200
your mind right now? We have nothing to think about

2838
08:35:01.759 --> 08:35:08.919
and just my voice to listen to, Because you know,

2839
08:35:09.439 --> 08:35:20.400
the intention behind this recording is relaxation. At the very least,

2840
08:35:22.000 --> 08:35:26.520
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2841
08:35:26.560 --> 08:35:34.799
the recording than you did at the beginning. At the

2842
08:35:35.000 --> 08:35:47.119
very least, your mind to slow down as your body

2843
08:35:47.840 --> 08:36:03.080
continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

2844
08:36:07.080 --> 08:36:25.720
That's what you expect to happen, a relaxation to fill.

2845
08:36:28.080 --> 08:36:39.119
Your body, maybe calm in your mind.

2846
08:36:40.319 --> 08:36:47.799
To the point of boredom. When you start maybe to

2847
08:36:53.439 --> 08:37:35.200
drift away directing. It's almost as if you're moving further

2848
08:37:35.360 --> 08:37:43.599
away from a body in your mind, just leaving that there,

2849
08:37:51.599 --> 08:37:55.880
kind of liking it an escape pod in a spaceship,

2850
08:37:56.279 --> 08:38:00.279
a movie, a space movie, you know, and against little

2851
08:38:00.360 --> 08:38:07.599
pardon it since the man far away from the spaceship

2852
08:38:16.720 --> 08:38:55.759
safe to dream and continue to relax, to drift in

2853
08:39:14.479 --> 08:39:16.040
so slow.

2854
08:39:28.840 --> 08:39:29.759
And peace, so.

2855
08:39:46.840 --> 08:40:32.560
Ra and peace, and focusing on the feving of those

2856
08:40:34.000 --> 08:40:45.159
individual parts of your body that's or relaxing. One by one.

2857
08:40:52.799 --> 08:41:05.159
You may find that every now and then you realize

2858
08:41:05.319 --> 08:41:16.200
that you aren't listening to my voice because your mind

2859
08:41:16.759 --> 08:41:31.520
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2860
08:41:31.720 --> 08:41:40.799
into some kind of a dreamy state, and then you

2861
08:41:40.959 --> 08:41:47.720
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2862
08:41:48.759 --> 08:41:54.919
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2863
08:41:55.639 --> 08:42:05.759
wish to allow your mind and to just drift naturally

2864
08:42:09.240 --> 08:42:22.919
into that space of comfort and safety. As you feel

2865
08:42:30.720 --> 08:42:40.439
more comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket

2866
08:42:44.479 --> 08:42:59.080
covering you gently, keeping your body at just the perfect temperature,

2867
08:43:09.479 --> 08:43:19.880
and even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2868
08:43:21.279 --> 08:43:38.240
don't seem to matter anymore. As that sensor peace spreads

2869
08:43:38.799 --> 08:43:52.479
through your mind like a gentle grease, yet strong enough

2870
08:43:52.720 --> 08:44:09.000
to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from

2871
08:44:09.080 --> 08:44:15.840
your mind any anxiety or stress.

2872
08:44:17.479 --> 08:44:27.240
That was there before, and.

2873
08:44:27.479 --> 08:44:38.159
Blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't

2874
08:44:38.479 --> 08:45:02.720
fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your body

2875
08:45:07.680 --> 08:45:27.439
and your mind. Unless you focus on your mind and

2876
08:45:27.799 --> 08:45:33.360
count down from ten down to one, and with each

2877
08:45:33.919 --> 08:45:59.000
number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2878
08:46:01.720 --> 08:46:10.240
just just lightly, from ten down to nine, just a

2879
08:46:10.520 --> 08:46:19.880
slight movement. From nine down to eight, just another small

2880
08:46:24.360 --> 08:46:37.000
change in how you feel. Eight down to seven. That

2881
08:46:37.360 --> 08:46:43.279
feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

2882
08:46:43.599 --> 08:46:52.400
to get the wider, the gap between those feelings that

2883
08:46:52.599 --> 08:46:59.520
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2884
08:46:59.599 --> 08:47:07.200
feelings you have, the growing now feelings of comfort and

2885
08:47:07.479 --> 08:47:19.119
security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down

2886
08:47:19.240 --> 08:47:26.720
to seven, seven down to six. When you get to five,

2887
08:47:29.080 --> 08:47:38.319
the mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2888
08:47:42.720 --> 08:47:48.439
most like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2889
08:47:49.360 --> 08:47:55.200
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2890
08:47:55.279 --> 08:48:06.560
you don't want, sucking them out through skull. And in

2891
08:48:06.720 --> 08:48:13.159
down to four you can start to really experience that

2892
08:48:14.279 --> 08:48:26.000
sense of not just emptiness, but space, a place full

2893
08:48:26.040 --> 08:48:37.639
of fresh air, the place where you can stretch. It's

2894
08:48:37.680 --> 08:48:41.439
almost as if as you go down to four and three,

2895
08:48:41.959 --> 08:48:47.080
your mind is expanding with this sense.

2896
08:48:49.680 --> 08:48:51.040
Of peace.

2897
08:48:52.400 --> 08:49:02.959
And tranquility growing. It moves down to when you get

2898
08:49:03.040 --> 08:49:12.799
to one, your mind just feels exactly how you want

2899
08:49:13.000 --> 08:49:34.479
to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe a sensation that you'd

2900
08:49:34.680 --> 08:49:47.319
like to keep a place that's safe, where nothing can

2901
08:49:47.439 --> 08:50:02.560
affect you at all, and you can stay in that

2902
08:50:04.000 --> 08:50:11.759
that space of comfort and confidence, confident in your own

2903
08:50:11.840 --> 08:50:20.360
ability to create this space and this feeling of comfort

2904
08:50:20.919 --> 08:50:29.119
within your own mind just by counting ten down to one.

2905
08:50:33.680 --> 08:50:38.200
And this is something that you can do yourself when

2906
08:50:38.240 --> 08:50:45.520
you're on your own the time when you can maybe

2907
08:50:45.720 --> 08:50:54.319
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes,

2908
08:50:58.159 --> 08:51:09.799
just count slowly from ten down to one and re

2909
08:51:10.080 --> 08:51:22.959
experience these feelings in your mind. And when you feel

2910
08:51:23.080 --> 08:51:32.599
that way in your mind, your body copies your mind,

2911
08:51:38.439 --> 08:51:44.319
and the feeling is spread through your spine and your

2912
08:51:44.520 --> 08:51:52.319
nervous system into every part of your body, travels through

2913
08:51:52.360 --> 08:52:19.400
your bloodstream, heaving, relaxing every particle of your existence. Now

2914
08:52:19.520 --> 08:52:28.360
we can we can practice this a few times before

2915
08:52:28.439 --> 08:52:33.040
the end of the recording, and then you can practice

2916
08:52:33.119 --> 08:52:38.959
on your own and each time you count for ten

2917
08:52:39.919 --> 08:52:53.520
about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, and deep deep

2918
08:52:54.119 --> 08:53:12.799
relaxation becomes stronger feeling your mind and your brain with

2919
08:53:13.040 --> 08:53:22.560
these positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing you

2920
08:53:24.520 --> 08:53:34.040
so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind so very

2921
08:53:35.720 --> 08:53:52.159
very easily, just by counting ten down to one. So

2922
08:53:52.279 --> 08:53:55.759
we're gonna do now. I'm going to count from ten

2923
08:53:56.000 --> 08:54:01.119
down to one. I'd like you to repeat number after me.

2924
08:54:02.360 --> 08:54:09.720
So when I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

2925
08:54:11.080 --> 08:54:11.279
Ten.

2926
08:54:16.919 --> 08:54:26.759
Just notice, beware of how you feel in your mind

2927
08:54:27.119 --> 08:54:36.200
and your body. Then when I say nine, you can

2928
08:54:36.279 --> 08:54:52.759
repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in comfort

2929
08:54:53.159 --> 08:55:06.080
and calmness in your mind and in your body. The

2930
08:55:06.240 --> 08:55:11.639
same when I say eight, when I say.

2931
08:55:11.680 --> 08:55:26.720
Seven, six, when I say five, four, when.

2932
08:55:26.639 --> 08:55:38.400
I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2933
08:55:40.799 --> 08:55:42.919
you can beat that number.

2934
08:55:50.400 --> 08:55:50.520
Now.

2935
08:55:50.680 --> 08:55:56.200
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2936
08:55:56.319 --> 08:56:01.319
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2937
08:56:02.959 --> 08:56:11.400
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2938
08:56:11.560 --> 08:56:17.479
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

2939
08:56:17.680 --> 08:56:25.200
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

2940
08:56:25.240 --> 08:56:28.119
you go ahead and do that. Or if you feel

2941
08:56:28.959 --> 08:56:32.919
when you do it yourself, you'd like to have more

2942
08:56:34.759 --> 08:56:41.759
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer.

2943
08:56:42.599 --> 08:56:44.000
To get from ten.

2944
08:56:45.880 --> 08:56:54.080
All the way down to one, that's your choice also

2945
08:56:54.400 --> 08:57:06.000
to do. So I'm gonna count.

2946
08:57:05.799 --> 08:57:14.159
From ten down to one. I want to get to one.

2947
08:57:15.520 --> 08:57:21.439
That will at the end of this recording the musicals

2948
08:57:21.520 --> 08:58:37.080
you're listening to music, and the music will continue ten ninety.

2949
08:59:40.279 --> 09:01:58.799
Four assassa also USUS USA USA.

2950
09:02:05.200 --> 09:03:26.279
Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2951
09:03:30.599 --> 09:03:58.840
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2952
09:03:58.959 --> 09:04:07.319
physically film having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2953
09:04:08.159 --> 09:04:12.560
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toes.

2954
09:04:14.119 --> 09:04:18.840
And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

2955
09:04:18.840 --> 09:04:25.599
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an understanding,

2956
09:04:25.759 --> 09:04:30.840
considering attention has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2957
09:04:37.319 --> 09:04:39.319
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2958
09:04:39.439 --> 09:04:46.639
one again. This time you're going to feel relief of

2959
09:04:46.840 --> 09:04:52.479
tension and stress and the anxiety that you may have

2960
09:04:57.200 --> 09:05:05.720
leaving your stomach, just leading through your stomach, almost as

2961
09:05:05.759 --> 09:05:12.400
if it's just releasing the hold of your stomach will

2962
09:05:12.520 --> 09:05:17.040
naval to just above your chest or below your chest,

2963
09:05:17.200 --> 09:05:21.720
rather so surrounding your belly by an area the whole area.

2964
09:05:23.840 --> 09:05:28.439
You can feel the tension of your body wherever it's left,

2965
09:05:28.720 --> 09:05:34.000
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

2966
09:05:34.159 --> 09:05:40.400
your stomach can become very relaxed as I countdown from

2967
09:05:40.479 --> 09:06:33.720
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven.

2968
09:06:37.839 --> 09:06:48.040
Ten, nine, eight.

2969
09:06:51.919 --> 09:06:56.400
Seven six.

2970
09:06:59.199 --> 09:07:00.319
My h.

2971
09:07:04.319 --> 09:07:09.199
Oh three.

2972
09:07:13.480 --> 09:07:19.080
Two what.

2973
09:07:23.919 --> 09:07:26.120
And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

2974
09:07:26.599 --> 09:07:30.360
but you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2975
09:07:32.680 --> 09:07:37.800
Just notice saying your stomach els. Notice as your focus.

2976
09:07:38.040 --> 09:07:43.440
Just do a little scan of your body's notice saying

2977
09:07:43.519 --> 09:07:56.400
your body else, focusing up a body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2978
09:07:59.400 --> 09:08:06.319
Just notice, and you know you may start to feel

2979
09:08:08.839 --> 09:08:13.080
more a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

2980
09:08:13.760 --> 09:08:19.120
listening to this according because you would like to.

2981
09:08:20.720 --> 09:08:23.440
Let go completely of everything.

2982
09:08:25.440 --> 09:08:33.000
And dread all into a nice, natural, calm.

2983
09:08:33.040 --> 09:08:35.239
Relaxing sleep.

2984
09:08:42.800 --> 09:08:52.400
So now we're your focus on your forehead, and if

2985
09:08:52.440 --> 09:08:55.839
you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in this focus

2986
09:08:55.919 --> 09:09:02.440
as well. Your forehead and your eyes. It's that whole

2987
09:09:02.639 --> 09:09:07.120
area basically almost as if you were wearing a mask,

2988
09:09:07.279 --> 09:09:11.360
you know, like a I don't know, a Batman mask

2989
09:09:11.559 --> 09:09:17.639
or something, or I'm trying to zorrow or something, you know,

2990
09:09:17.760 --> 09:09:20.480
the kind of mask that covers your eyes but also

2991
09:09:20.680 --> 09:09:26.680
covers quite a lot of the forehead. I'm focusing on

2992
09:09:26.800 --> 09:09:29.519
that area because that's the area that we're now going

2993
09:09:29.599 --> 09:09:36.120
to release tension and stress from your mind and your brain,

2994
09:09:36.360 --> 09:09:39.959
from your mind, and any tension that you may have

2995
09:09:40.239 --> 09:09:44.319
remaining in your face, in your neck and your jaw,

2996
09:09:45.559 --> 09:09:51.720
and your eyes, your forehead or your scalp. So basically,

2997
09:09:51.919 --> 09:09:57.720
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2998
09:09:57.919 --> 09:10:06.120
your brain, that's going to be released through your forehead

2999
09:10:06.199 --> 09:10:12.559
in your eyes. As I count down a game from

3000
09:10:13.120 --> 09:11:43.559
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

3001
09:11:47.760 --> 09:12:14.120
three one, noticing as you scan your face, jure your eyes,

3002
09:12:15.480 --> 09:12:24.480
the cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp, your neck,

3003
09:12:25.800 --> 09:12:28.279
the back of your neck, in the front of your neck,

3004
09:12:29.239 --> 09:12:39.959
the sides of the neck, and the throat. Noticing being

3005
09:12:40.000 --> 09:12:42.160
aware of the comfort.

3006
09:12:44.000 --> 09:12:45.800
Increased in the.

3007
09:12:48.160 --> 09:12:54.559
Relaxation, not just in your head and neck and mind,

3008
09:12:55.559 --> 09:13:03.519
also the rest of your body. Just know it is

3009
09:13:03.720 --> 09:13:11.680
how loose and calm you feel, and how easily it

3010
09:13:11.959 --> 09:13:13.199
is to just let go.

3011
09:13:16.000 --> 09:13:31.720
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

3012
09:13:39.559 --> 09:13:43.199
So what I'm going to do now is to focus

3013
09:13:43.319 --> 09:13:51.040
on the top of your head and we can allow

3014
09:13:52.680 --> 09:14:01.199
every last piece of tension or stress and my being

3015
09:14:01.400 --> 09:14:05.959
lingering or hiding in your body, your mind.

3016
09:14:06.319 --> 09:14:07.040
My head.

3017
09:14:08.360 --> 09:14:08.760
To just.

3018
09:14:10.480 --> 09:14:16.879
Be sucked out the top of your head released.

3019
09:14:20.599 --> 09:14:22.440
It's yeah, I.

3020
09:14:22.519 --> 09:14:28.279
Want to sucked down into the clouds. Imagine a people

3021
09:14:28.440 --> 09:14:34.000
loud of put your head. It's like a whirlpool and

3022
09:14:34.080 --> 09:14:38.760
this is gonna suck down tension now at the top

3023
09:14:38.800 --> 09:14:49.080
of your head and just take it away. Good to focus.

3024
09:14:50.080 --> 09:14:53.959
Imagine an opening on the top of your head with

3025
09:14:54.160 --> 09:15:00.199
a tension, stress and in remaining issues maybe way sort

3026
09:15:00.199 --> 09:15:05.080
of consid storm no used to you now can all

3027
09:15:05.239 --> 09:15:09.319
be sucked down at the top of my head. I've

3028
09:15:09.440 --> 09:15:15.760
taken away as I count down again from twenty down

3029
09:15:15.959 --> 09:16:01.720
to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen fifty four.

3030
09:16:08.519 --> 09:16:16.480
Thir well.

3031
09:16:22.040 --> 09:16:35.639
Even nine.

3032
09:16:41.879 --> 09:17:09.000
Eight seven six five w three.

3033
09:17:18.599 --> 09:17:36.519
Wa huream, I'm noticing how you feel?

3034
09:17:43.080 --> 09:17:50.360
How relax do calm you physically and mentally felt?

3035
09:17:51.120 --> 09:17:51.599
Right now?

3036
09:17:57.279 --> 09:18:07.080
Help bec so your mind feels it feel so nice

3037
09:18:07.279 --> 09:18:13.800
to just let go, to give yourself some space to

3038
09:18:14.040 --> 09:18:25.400
breathe easily, to think calmly, and just to take a

3039
09:18:25.559 --> 09:18:33.319
break from all that pointless worry concerns about things that

3040
09:18:34.319 --> 09:18:44.199
you don't need to think about right now, because this

3041
09:18:44.440 --> 09:18:48.800
is your time to let go. This is your space

3042
09:18:49.519 --> 09:19:00.360
to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relating

3043
09:19:00.440 --> 09:19:10.199
your body. It can feel so good, so nice to

3044
09:19:10.559 --> 09:19:18.400
just not have to do anything, to be able to

3045
09:19:19.760 --> 09:19:29.599
really enjoy that serenity that comes and letting go completely,

3046
09:19:31.760 --> 09:19:46.160
that peacefulness that comes with being in this peaceful space.

3047
09:19:50.639 --> 09:19:55.199
And you can keep this sense of calmness for as

3048
09:19:55.360 --> 09:20:06.959
long as you choose, if you choose to drift on

3049
09:20:07.440 --> 09:20:14.080
into a deep, healing natural sleep, and you can do that,

3050
09:20:17.760 --> 09:20:26.000
it's completely up to you, and you can keep this

3051
09:20:26.360 --> 09:20:32.800
feeling of calmness physically meaning your mind, as long as

3052
09:20:32.879 --> 09:20:50.120
you choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relaxed. I'd like

3053
09:20:50.239 --> 09:20:56.279
you to make up your mind that you're going to relax.

3054
09:21:04.919 --> 09:21:08.199
I want to explore that with you. What it feels

3055
09:21:08.319 --> 09:21:15.160
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

3056
09:21:16.879 --> 09:21:23.440
not forcing yourself but giving yourself that yes, it is

3057
09:21:23.519 --> 09:21:28.480
a command, really, isn't it When you're telling yourself relax

3058
09:21:30.680 --> 09:21:35.360
in a gentle but firm way, that only.

3059
09:21:35.440 --> 09:21:36.480
You can really.

3060
09:21:37.879 --> 09:21:40.959
Tell you something in that way. You can't really have

3061
09:21:41.080 --> 09:21:45.720
someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax, you know,

3062
09:21:46.720 --> 09:21:49.959
and it needs to be gentle, But you can't someone

3063
09:21:50.000 --> 09:21:57.000
else can't really have the same the same kind of

3064
09:21:57.639 --> 09:22:07.639
influence or that you have over your own physicality, over

3065
09:22:07.879 --> 09:22:17.080
how you feel, because when you say it to yourself,

3066
09:22:18.360 --> 09:22:25.319
it means more. It's personal, and your brain and your

3067
09:22:25.760 --> 09:22:30.480
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say.

3068
09:22:32.800 --> 09:22:36.239
So for example, we'll test it out and do a

3069
09:22:36.279 --> 09:22:38.800
little test. I do you little tests along the way,

3070
09:22:40.160 --> 09:22:45.360
and you can get more of an idea of the force,

3071
09:22:46.319 --> 09:22:53.000
a positive force that you can have in creating a

3072
09:22:53.199 --> 09:22:57.160
sense of comfort and relaxation in your body and your

3073
09:22:57.199 --> 09:23:06.559
mind quite quickly. Just buy you telling yourself to relax.

3074
09:23:11.199 --> 09:23:14.800
So I'm going to start by it's focused on your hands.

3075
09:23:18.680 --> 09:23:21.680
Focus on your hands, and just tell your hands to relax,

3076
09:23:22.720 --> 09:23:27.599
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

3077
09:23:29.839 --> 09:23:34.400
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

3078
09:23:34.480 --> 09:23:38.760
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

3079
09:23:38.879 --> 09:23:46.879
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

3080
09:23:47.160 --> 09:23:49.760
hear what they're saying. You know, they've got little ears.

3081
09:23:50.559 --> 09:23:51.440
It's a little weird.

3082
09:23:54.040 --> 09:24:04.239
So talking to your hands and just say relax and

3083
09:24:04.400 --> 09:24:25.760
make you see your hands start to relax. Now focus

3084
09:24:25.839 --> 09:24:30.040
on your eyes until your eyes to relax. You're just

3085
09:24:30.120 --> 09:24:36.559
saying the same word, relax. And find the right tone

3086
09:24:37.199 --> 09:24:43.120
for you. You know, I might say relax, but you

3087
09:24:44.160 --> 09:24:51.599
you might say relax or relax. You know, you might

3088
09:24:51.680 --> 09:24:58.080
say it differently to yourself, and that's important for you

3089
09:24:58.959 --> 09:25:04.559
to gauge what feels right for you. I just tell

3090
09:25:04.599 --> 09:25:10.519
your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids,

3091
09:25:10.680 --> 09:25:16.040
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell

3092
09:25:16.160 --> 09:25:18.239
your eyes directly.

3093
09:25:20.519 --> 09:25:20.959
Relax.

3094
09:25:22.879 --> 09:25:59.720
Yeah. Now, I just did that myself. And sometimes you

3095
09:25:59.839 --> 09:26:04.559
may feel that you need a bit more time or

3096
09:26:04.760 --> 09:26:08.120
the different parts to relax, you know, because I start

3097
09:26:08.239 --> 09:26:13.760
talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But

3098
09:26:13.919 --> 09:26:16.720
what happened is that will just continue to relax even

3099
09:26:16.760 --> 09:26:23.959
though I'm talking. And that's happened with my eyes. Something

3100
09:26:24.040 --> 09:26:28.839
else I noticed is when I started focusing on my eyes,

3101
09:26:29.160 --> 09:26:32.639
that actually almost became they got worse before they got

3102
09:26:32.720 --> 09:26:35.599
better in a way, so that I felt a degree

3103
09:26:35.639 --> 09:26:42.319
of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So

3104
09:26:42.440 --> 09:26:45.120
I think what that was really was just me becoming

3105
09:26:45.279 --> 09:26:51.559
more aware of the tension that was already there, but

3106
09:26:51.680 --> 09:26:56.239
I wasn't I wasn't focused on it before, so I

3107
09:26:56.440 --> 09:27:15.040
wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah,

3108
09:27:15.199 --> 09:27:18.599
my eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as

3109
09:27:18.680 --> 09:27:24.599
my hands. Actually, my hands have got a certain kind

3110
09:27:24.639 --> 09:27:29.559
of energy, like not by thing.

3111
09:27:29.639 --> 09:27:30.680
But I can kind of.

3112
09:27:33.040 --> 09:27:38.919
Fuel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

3113
09:27:39.000 --> 09:27:43.680
where the tension is being released. Maybe that's supports and

3114
09:27:43.800 --> 09:27:53.440
that the next part I think we should focus on the.

3115
09:27:53.480 --> 09:27:54.160
Back of the neck.

3116
09:27:54.879 --> 09:27:59.959
That's a part was quite often, or for me, holds tension.

3117
09:28:00.040 --> 09:28:02.480
And I don't know about it for yourself, but I

3118
09:28:02.559 --> 09:28:09.319
think it's quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So,

3119
09:28:11.440 --> 09:28:14.400
and I'm doing it exactly what you're doing as you

3120
09:28:14.519 --> 09:28:17.959
do it as well, so I'm telling my body parts

3121
09:28:18.199 --> 09:28:21.080
to relax as well. So if you tell your neck

3122
09:28:21.360 --> 09:28:23.879
the back of your neck, focus on the back of

3123
09:28:23.919 --> 09:28:30.919
your neck and just say relax in your own words,

3124
09:28:31.120 --> 09:28:33.319
in your own tone, in your own voice.

3125
09:28:33.959 --> 09:28:34.879
You can say out.

3126
09:28:34.800 --> 09:28:38.440
Loud, or you can just say it to yourself internally.

3127
09:28:39.360 --> 09:28:43.839
But you're focusing, and you're saying it literally to the

3128
09:28:43.919 --> 09:28:46.680
back of your neck, as if the back of your

3129
09:28:46.760 --> 09:28:49.519
neck can actually hear what you're seeing.

3130
09:28:52.919 --> 09:28:53.400
So you do that.

3131
09:28:53.559 --> 09:28:57.000
Now, just say relax to the back of your neck,

3132
09:28:58.160 --> 09:29:39.360
and I'll do the same. And what I noticed, and

3133
09:29:39.800 --> 09:29:44.480
you may have that similar thing is even though I

3134
09:29:44.639 --> 09:29:52.279
was focusing on the back of the neck, other parts

3135
09:29:52.919 --> 09:30:00.319
started to show themselves to me, or maybe because they

3136
09:30:00.440 --> 09:30:03.120
want to be relaxed as well, but I started to

3137
09:30:03.279 --> 09:30:07.400
noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention in my shoulders

3138
09:30:07.680 --> 09:30:14.400
and in my upper back. Whether that was because my

3139
09:30:14.959 --> 09:30:18.839
back of my neck was saying and I'm pretty much okay,

3140
09:30:20.440 --> 09:30:29.800
it's the other parts that need attention, but my lobe,

3141
09:30:29.959 --> 09:30:33.680
my my back of my neck is still relaxing. But

3142
09:30:33.800 --> 09:30:38.400
I just became more aware of other parts that needed attention.

3143
09:30:40.680 --> 09:30:45.639
Now this might happen, and it's not. It doesn't mean

3144
09:30:45.720 --> 09:30:48.839
that it's going any wrong. It just means you're being

3145
09:30:49.599 --> 09:30:55.279
notified of more places but also wanted to be relaxed.

3146
09:30:58.519 --> 09:31:02.879
So I'm going to focus on my other back. So

3147
09:31:03.120 --> 09:31:06.720
you can do the same even if you don't have

3148
09:31:06.919 --> 09:31:12.239
any feelings of tension that obvious in your upper back,

3149
09:31:14.000 --> 09:31:18.639
if you just focus on your back and the whole

3150
09:31:18.760 --> 09:31:23.519
area from the shoulder blades down to the middle of

3151
09:31:23.599 --> 09:31:27.919
your back and the spine. And with me, it's more

3152
09:31:28.000 --> 09:31:36.319
the shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that really.

3153
09:31:38.239 --> 09:31:39.919
Sort of giving me.

3154
09:31:41.639 --> 09:31:45.800
The nod that it needs relax in the sounds, going

3155
09:31:45.879 --> 09:31:49.120
to ask that part to relax, and you can do

3156
09:31:49.239 --> 09:32:16.400
the same. Now relapse at upper back. Something strange happened there.

3157
09:32:16.919 --> 09:32:17.199
And this.

3158
09:32:18.680 --> 09:32:24.319
Often happens, and we're doing this for for sixteen years

3159
09:32:24.480 --> 09:32:31.919
or something, and often one surprised but amazed.

3160
09:32:31.440 --> 09:32:32.040
Really bad.

3161
09:32:34.319 --> 09:32:38.639
There can be a feeling. So when I was focusing

3162
09:32:38.720 --> 09:32:41.599
on the back of my neck, my other back was

3163
09:32:42.480 --> 09:32:46.720
starting to feel quite stressed and in need of attention.

3164
09:32:49.120 --> 09:32:49.800
As soon as I.

3165
09:32:49.839 --> 09:32:55.680
Started talking to you about my upper back and talking about,

3166
09:32:55.839 --> 09:32:59.680
you know, getting ready to ask the upper back to relax,

3167
09:33:01.400 --> 09:33:07.080
why the back already started to relax. It's almost as

3168
09:33:07.160 --> 09:33:12.919
if it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention,

3169
09:33:17.720 --> 09:33:29.760
just needs to be noticed. That is something that often

3170
09:33:29.959 --> 09:33:36.919
happens in this type of situation. Is when you start

3171
09:33:38.000 --> 09:33:43.000
to relax a couple of parts of your body, as

3172
09:33:43.080 --> 09:33:49.519
we've done with our hands, the eyes, the eyelids, and.

3173
09:33:49.720 --> 09:33:58.319
Now back of the neck, top of the bag of

3174
09:33:58.519 --> 09:33:58.879
the bag.

3175
09:34:00.199 --> 09:34:04.199
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

3176
09:34:06.919 --> 09:34:15.199
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

3177
09:34:15.319 --> 09:34:25.199
plants of your body start to just become looser. I

3178
09:34:25.279 --> 09:34:27.959
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3179
09:34:28.160 --> 09:34:32.879
you know, the little ball starts rolling, and before you

3180
09:34:33.000 --> 09:34:36.000
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

3181
09:34:36.040 --> 09:34:52.720
and can't And if you focus on your face, you

3182
09:34:52.879 --> 09:35:00.440
focus on your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrows, and the

3183
09:35:00.559 --> 09:35:08.959
muscles around your eyes, and then you start to notice

3184
09:35:09.120 --> 09:35:13.440
that your forehead is more relaxed than it was.

3185
09:35:15.519 --> 09:35:20.879
Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would say, my

3186
09:35:21.199 --> 09:35:25.080
entire face is a lot more relaxed than it was.

3187
09:35:36.360 --> 09:35:42.160
So you're going to focus now on your shoulders again,

3188
09:35:42.400 --> 09:35:47.839
just like before. Just tell your shoulders you can't do them.

3189
09:35:48.680 --> 09:35:51.199
You can do the right shoulder, your shoulder.

3190
09:35:52.360 --> 09:35:54.519
I just can do both at the same time.

3191
09:35:56.559 --> 09:36:00.360
Just tell your shoulders and you focus on them in mind,

3192
09:36:01.720 --> 09:36:07.599
hope somehow feel maybe you can see them on the

3193
09:36:07.760 --> 09:36:55.879
wine's just tell your shoulders to relax as nice as

3194
09:36:55.959 --> 09:37:12.120
they relax. But I didn't notice, especially with my bank,

3195
09:37:14.800 --> 09:37:21.239
is the connection between the different parts the bank, the shoulders,

3196
09:37:21.319 --> 09:37:31.319
the neck being all connected and being such a large

3197
09:37:31.440 --> 09:37:37.279
part of your body, it's always hard to separate them

3198
09:37:37.599 --> 09:37:45.279
from each other. And my lower back is starting to

3199
09:37:45.400 --> 09:37:56.800
relax on the same be going too slow, and that

3200
09:37:56.919 --> 09:38:01.279
could be an issue because we will at different speeds.

3201
09:38:03.559 --> 09:38:07.959
And the idea of giving the dis recordings for you

3202
09:38:08.160 --> 09:38:23.000
to be able to just say to yourself relax without

3203
09:38:23.160 --> 09:38:29.440
focusing on any particular part of the body, because when

3204
09:38:29.519 --> 09:38:40.559
you know that turning your hands to relax, your hands relax,

3205
09:38:43.120 --> 09:38:49.800
you tell your eyelids and your eyes, the muscles around

3206
09:38:49.919 --> 09:38:59.360
your eyes and your eyebrows to relapse. Can they relax

3207
09:39:05.160 --> 09:39:44.160
until back if your neck, until you out back in

3208
09:39:44.360 --> 09:39:55.000
different axis, until your shoulders.

3209
09:40:32.000 --> 09:40:35.440
And you tell your hands to the rats the next

3210
09:40:36.239 --> 09:40:37.760
it continue.

3211
09:40:38.919 --> 09:40:39.680
To let.

3212
09:40:45.480 --> 09:40:52.239
You told your eyes the muscles round your eyes, my

3213
09:40:52.599 --> 09:40:57.199
girls to the lex the next.

3214
09:41:00.800 --> 09:41:12.040
Tween two nights and told at the back of your neck.

3215
09:41:13.680 --> 09:41:14.839
You say back your neck.

3216
09:41:18.639 --> 09:41:28.839
You told it to the lights relaxed feteen.

3217
09:41:29.879 --> 09:41:30.760
Two lights.

3218
09:41:38.680 --> 09:41:46.959
And you told you all alcome back to relights the

3219
09:41:47.319 --> 09:42:04.839
lights thineteen two latsh as with your shoulders, tell your

3220
09:42:04.919 --> 09:42:11.319
shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed.

3221
09:42:12.519 --> 09:42:29.559
To to lax. And it's not just that, it's.

3222
09:42:32.160 --> 09:42:36.559
With the rest of your body is alls being listening.

3223
09:42:38.800 --> 09:42:45.680
Relaxation has been spreading. Look in your eyes to relaxation

3224
09:42:46.040 --> 09:42:52.440
spread to your whole head, around your face, into.

3225
09:42:52.239 --> 09:43:04.879
Your skin, into your jaw, into the.

3226
09:43:05.000 --> 09:43:20.040
Front aside the nack damn chest and stiles, hands and shoulders,

3227
09:43:22.000 --> 09:43:33.599
the ups up bad lists.

3228
09:43:37.199 --> 09:43:37.559
Lets you.

3229
09:43:45.519 --> 09:43:46.440
Little band.

3230
09:43:49.800 --> 09:43:52.839
It's but it's sponging.

3231
09:43:54.160 --> 09:43:55.319
Just to.

3232
09:44:02.480 --> 09:44:21.120
Speaking down the tops, the fat, the somnic.

3233
09:44:23.279 --> 09:44:33.839
Bottoms two.

3234
09:45:00.959 --> 09:45:29.480
The mind peaceful if.

3235
09:45:31.000 --> 09:46:03.519
Cheese sleep, ye way is peaceful.

3236
09:46:13.400 --> 09:47:01.319
Tears like, so what do you say to you sirs?

3237
09:47:01.760 --> 09:47:43.239
What the this win? Just by s S M S

3238
09:47:43.599 --> 09:49:17.680
same s s to m m M so much you

3239
09:49:18.440 --> 09:49:37.040
st n't she n see.

3240
09:49:47.440 --> 09:49:48.160
Set me

3241
09:50:00.040 --> 09:50:39.279
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