July 22, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Not so Subtle Nurse | LMBYTS #1397 | Jason Newland | 22nd July 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Not so Subtle Nurse | LMBYTS #1397 | Jason Newland | 22nd July 2025
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Hello, and we'll welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My

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name is Jason new Land. Please only listen when you

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can safely close your eyes. And this is mm hmm,

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let me bore you to sleep. It is I don't

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know what it is. It's Tuesday again. I'm a little

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bit out of rhythm with the regular recordings that I

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have been doing for the past few months. You know,

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the Monday's boring objects, Trivia, Tuesday, Whisper, Wednesday Q and

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A Friday. Well though I've been doing a Q and

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A Friday, i'd see only one of really kind of

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stuck to as it were, so I thought I just

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do general general thing, just say hi, a little catch up,

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you know, not tomato as So, I'm sitting here in

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my living room, Venice coldled up to me by my side,

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my left side. I got the window open, but for

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now it's fairly quiet. There was hours and hours of

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loud chit chat in the garden earlier. It's seemed gone forever.

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I don't know how people find that much to talk about,

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which is a weird cover from me because I don't

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seem to run out of things to talk about. It

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just I prefer to do it on my own rather

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than with someone. I did well earlier. Actually, someone asked

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me how I was, and I asked them how they

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were back afterwards. See, I'm learning. I'm learning to communicate

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with humans. It's about time. So I give a little

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update on what's going on. My daddy has finished his

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treatment that he was having and RT, I think it's

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called it begins of R. The next next letter is

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T not hormone replacement. So he's had four weeks of that,

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five days a week, four weeks in a row. And

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I spoke. It was quite weird actually, because I spoke

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to him yesterday I think it was yesterday, yesterday afternoon,

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maybe it was Sunday, a loose track, and he he

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actually opened up about how he was feeling. And that

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was weird because he doesn't only do that normally. He

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just says, yeah, everything's fine, but that's it. There's not

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nowhere to go after that. But he actually went through

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how he's feeling and what he's been through the last

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four weeks, and yeah, wow, So I was quite surprised.

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It seems to be doing quite well. I'm very tired, though,

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very very tired, so that's kind of to be expected,

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and everything seems to be going to plan. So outside

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of that being going up to the hospital, went up

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yesterday to see uncle's sausages. Yeah, he's a lot of confusion,

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a lot of you know, it's it's difficult to try

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and explain to someone that the because the blood's not clearing,

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it's the toxines for the blood that it can affect

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a person's mind. But unfortunately, kind of in the same

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way as when I'm going through a should we say episode,

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it's hard to separate from that and realize that it's

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an episode rather than believe in it. So he was

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particularly agitated like yesterday, as he has been really for

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about two weeks, three weeks even. So I went and

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spoke to the nurse and I said, oh, nurse. She said, what,

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who are you? What do you want? And I said, oh,

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I want so many things right now, A big bar

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of chocolate. She said me too. I said I'd quite

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like to get on a cruise and she said me too.

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Should we run away together? And I said no, thanks,

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not really. She said, oh, oh, never mind. She said

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that anything else? I said, yeah, about uncle sausages. She

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said who, I said, Uncle sausage. And then I realized

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she didn't know who Uncle Sausages was, so I explained

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who I was talking about, and she said, why do

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you call him uncle sausages? And I said, because I've

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got a little dog called Vinnie, and he gives Vinni sausages.

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That's something they do. He gives it buys some sausages,

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and Vinny loves the sausages, and so Vinnie calls him

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Uncle sausages. And she said, but he's a dog. How

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can he call someone something he can't talk. I said, no,

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but it's just a bit of fun. She said, no,

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we don't have fun here. This is a this is

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a very serious place. I said, I don't know. It's

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a serious place. But we're still, you know, try and

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have a little bit of fun, little bit of verbal play.

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And in fact, he actually calls Vinie sausages now, so

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he's Uncle sausages and Vinnie's sausages. And she said, but

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what do you want? I said, Okay, if I'm BlimE me,

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I think it's because I didn't want to run away

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with her, but hey, it's just me. Maybe I'm just

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being a little bit egotistical. But I actually had that

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look at her eye when she said should run away together,

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almost like she had a bag packed already and it

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was hidden in the toilet. Why would it be hit

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not inside the toilet, but like maybe your little cabinet

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I lock her maybe anyway, So I said, well, here's

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a situation. Uncle's sausages. He's very, very agitated and anxious.

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Is there anything you can do? She said, oh, she said,

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we'll explain what you mean. So basically, when I go

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there and when he phones me up, he tells him

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all this stuff that he thinks is happening. Very I

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don't want to be rude about him, but it's like

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very conspiratorial, potentially hallucinatory, paranoy paranoiary, you know. So he's

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already been told in the past, you know that he's

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being paranoid, and he's got very angry with that. He said,

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I never want to hear that word again. I said, okay,

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So I'm speaking to the nurse outside the ward, you know,

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just she said, Well, he doesn't tell us any of

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this stuff. He just says everything's fine. I said, I know,

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he's just you know, it's hard to help someone if

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they don't tell you. She said, Well, I don't know

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what we can do. I said, well, is there any

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chance you can see get some kind of evaluation from

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the a psychiatrist to see whether it is if it's

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the condition he's got, or maybe it's a previous mental

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health issue that's a re arisen because I don't know

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his background. And you know, there's no judgment from my

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perspective because I've I'm a bit of a mental myself,

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and I so I do have something. I've got something

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to tell you later. It's I got I've got a

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letter through today from the council tax people. So the

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council tax is kind of like it used to be

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called rates, and it covers things like, I suppose everything

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that's done by the local council, roads and waste and

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all that kind of stuff. So I got let's saying

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that I was exempt from council tax for the next

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year due to being get this right, and this is

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because of the benefits agency contacted them or my doctor.

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They contented my contact with my doctor and my doctor.

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You know, I'm not sure quite how they got their information.

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It's really weird seeing this in print. This is what

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they said. I'm not going to get up and read

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it because it means disturbing a little one, but it's

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etched in my brain. You are exempt from paying counsel

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tax for the next year due to severe what was it,

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severe mental impairment? Severe mental impairment. That doesn't sound good,

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does it. That doesn't make me sound like a hero.

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I mean I kind of in a way. Rather pay

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fifteen pound a month to not hear those words or

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not to see that in writing, to not be called

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severely mentally impaired. I know it's just another way to

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explain my brain not working properly. But BlimE me, blimin neck.

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So I said to the nurse, I said, is there

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a chance she can go and have someone come and

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give him evaluation and see how he is or something

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else she can do? She said, well, legal with me.

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I'll go and find it out. I'm going to find out.

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And she walks away and she turns back and says,

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are you sure don't want to do the cruise? I

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said no, I want to say I'm fine, thanks, And

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she turned away just honestly stomped. She was just slamming

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her feet on the ground as she walked away. I'm

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going to get that a lot. You know, I don't

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am I saying this anyway, So go back into the

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room with mister sausages, mister Uncle's sausages, and we're just chatting.

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I managed to disrupt his flow and redirect him to

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something else other than what he was talking about, because

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I didn't I didn't really think it was much use

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to him getting angry, you know, so I thought, just

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distract him a little bit, focus on something different. And

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the nurse came back in probably about fifteen minutes later,

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bearing in mind that, well, he's a subtlety this is

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the subtlety, subtlety level of this nurse. She came in.

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She looked at me. First of all, she's talking about

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him in front of him. To me, didn't even look

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at him. I'm afraid, Uncle Sausages. He can't have a

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psychiatric review. They won't come and see him. I'm like,

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it's right there. It's like what's going on. It's like

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it's weird, very weird. And then she said, but we're

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going to give him some The doctors prescribed some medication

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to help him with the paranoia, and shouted that word

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out really loud again, directed just talking to me. He

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was not happy because it sounds like I was talking

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about it and being paranoid. And it was just they

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know his situation. They know that what is some of

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the stuff he said in the past. It's just the

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last few days he's been quiet, just telling me. So

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they said, we can give him some medication tonight. I

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won't give it during the day because it'll be tired.

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I don't know what it was. I thought they were

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going to give him something to help cle clear away

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that stuff, you know, clear away the toxins from his blood.

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I really don't know what it was. I'm not great

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with medication. And I said to Uncle Sausages, here, okay

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with that? He said, because he was hiding his medication before,

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he didn't want to take it. And I said, look,

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I wouldn't never let any want to hurt you. And

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he said, I know. I said, no, seriously, if this

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is if you know, this is a medication I would

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take if I had to, if it was going to help.

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The only medication they're going to give you is to

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help you. They're not here to do anything but help.

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That's his sole purpose, you know, when they come into

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your room, it's to help you, nothing else. And he

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kind of I think, pretended to agree with me, and

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then he was kind of cheered up for the rest

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of the day. The rest of the morning I was

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with him, cheered up. He was quite jovial. I went

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and got gotten some sort of stuff to eat from

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downstairs in the hospital, and we talked about the golf

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and he seemed all right. He seemed, you know, fairly okay,

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you know, all things considered. And I had a miss

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call for him yes late afternoon yesterday. I was probably

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having my mid afternoon nap. So I called him back.

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No answer. I called him back again, called him back

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again in Gooden back, called him back, called him back

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again quite a few times last night. Then I called

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him again this morning quite a few times, and he

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was not answering. Now either he had his phone on

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silent because his phone was on because it was ringing,

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or well, there's no way. It's really loud. Now. I

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know his hearing is not great, but it's very very loud.

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I mean, the whole hospital can hear it. I mean,

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in fact, if I stick my head out of the window,

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I can hear it. I can't. I don't know why

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I said that. I really stick my head out of

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the window. And while my giraffe, my head wouldn't fit

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out the window, we'd fit out the window. But there's

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a window there isn't there doesn't open that wide for

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me to just so. Eventually I called him up this

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afternoon and the answers the phone and I said, I've

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got sausages. He said, yeah, really quiet the way he

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was talking. I said, you're right, he said, I said,

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so you. I'll be trying to call you all morning.

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And last night he said, I was asleep. I'm al

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to you know. I said, wow, is that okay? You know?

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And of course you're allowed to sleep. I'm not saying

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you're not allowed to sleep. I'm just making sure that

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you're okay because I did find the hospital earlier. I

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didn't tell him this about to find the hospital area

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this area earlier early on, just to find out if

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he's okay. And they went into his room and they said, yeah,

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it's fine. I think he started barking. What was I

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talking about? Oh yeah, the nurses in there to telling

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me that just oh no, I would have done that,

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but oh yeah. So I'm talking to him on the

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phone and not only is he talking really quietly, it

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sounds like he's asleep, like he's almost half, well three

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quarters asleep, not even half asleep. Really, Oh yeah, you know,

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I'm thinking I kind of hope it's the medication, to

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be fair, But at the same time, because I was

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hoping that whatever medication they gave him would reduce his

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anxiety levels, that's it, and then maybe he he'd be

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because it's he's stuck in there and he's had enough,

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you know, he's had enough of being there, and he's

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waiting to be moved into a nursing home, and he's

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just you know, he's just bored, bored. But even yesterday

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he said he wasn't even bothered about He said, you

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can take the iPad back if you want. I never

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expected that, because you can watch movies and you can

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watch I realized, I'm not sure how much meaning that

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stuff would have to him. But still there is still

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sport on. There's always some kind of sport on around

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the world. And he did say yesterday he just needed

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some sleep. He says it a couple of times, because

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he said he's not getting much sleep. I just need

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some sleep. So I think he got it last night.

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He got a good night's sleep for the first time,

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possibly in weeks. And I think that in itself might

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have cleared his brain a little bit, might have made

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him a little bit more himself. I was gonna this

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is this is a day I don't go and see him.

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On Tuesday. I nearly went up there, nearly, but I

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thought I'll wait, just, you know, in case he does

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call me, And he did in the end. One night,

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he did answer in the end, and then he hung

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up while he was talking to me, And he phoned

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me about an hour ago, a half an hour ago.

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I answered, and there was nothing. I could just hear

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him but he wasn't hear him breathing, but I couldn't

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hear him. He didn't say anything to me, So I

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think he might have accidentally phoned me, just holding the

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phone or something. So I'll go and see him in

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the morning. And I want to speak to his nurse

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to see because he might not have actually had any table,

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because sometimes, you know, they're so busy in there, they

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might have just forgotten. Because he's in this little room

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on his zone. It's a little bit out the way.

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They might you know, they're busy with all the other

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people and it's you know, human error. Sometimes they forget stuff,

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so they might have forgotten to give him the medication.

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And because he's had twenty four hours, the staff are

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changing over, aren't they. So he's dealing with a different

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nurse at night, a different nurse during the day, and

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then maybe a different nurse a day after because all

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on different rotors and stuff. So I'm not sure if

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they do twelve hour shifts, so it might have three

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different nurses during the twenty four hours period. I mean,

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he hasn't had the same nurse three days in a row.

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I don't think it's different. Yeah, it's I've spoken to

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I think four different nurses so far in that ward,

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maybe five, and they've all been great. It's just it's

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I mean, one was a little bit. I don't know.

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There's something about talking about talking about the patient in

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front of the patient when the patient's actually looking at that.

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I don't know if I do. I'd enjoy that myself.

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I mean I've talked about him. I've asked questions to

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doctors when the doctor's been there and Uncle Sausages has

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been there and I'm there, and because Uncle Sausages won't

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ask any questions, I asked the questions, but I include

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Uncle Sausages in it. I don't just like talk about him.

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I'm kind of talking with him, if that makes sense,

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Like I'm another mouth. That was weird, I'm Uncle sausages

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second mouth. Yeah, that's very very strange, very strange visual.

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So I hope that when I see him tomorrow he's

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all right, because he sounded very It's like it wasn't there.

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And I know that different medication can have different effects

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in that, but just that was kind of well, I

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don't know. I don't know what to think. So I'll

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go and speak to his nurse tomorrow and ask what

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he's been given and whether or not that's normal for

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those side of things, or whether it's there's another reason

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for it. But yeah, that's kind of it really, Although

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he did he did say something about how he's jumper

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had been stolen this morning or this afternoon, so I

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don't know what's going on there. I said, I'll speak

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to you tomorrow and we'll work it out. And the

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other day I took in I bought him some tomato

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ketchup sachets because I took him in my tomato ketchup

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in a bottle. But that made a bit of a mess.

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So I thought. He said, I'd rather have them in

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sachets because that's what he's used to. So I ordered

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lots of sachets on nine on Amazon, took them in

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his big old bag of them, and he found that funny.

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And I think you thought I was just going to

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go into McDonald's and just grab a handful something like that.

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It's like, nah, no, no, no, no, no, no. Anyway

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I went. He did the same thing on for a Friday.

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He said, no, yesterday, Sorry, I've run out of sugar. No,

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he said the what did they say something about didn't

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have any sugar to put in his tea? Man? Was

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it his tea or just something? What else would you

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have sugar on? He had something, but he didn't have

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any sugar, and he said it ruined it. Not ice cream,

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because that would be unnecessary, wouldn't it? Mind you? It

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might taste nice bit of sugar on some ice cream.

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Not something that I would do because I'm not supposed

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to really have sugar. Not a hot dog. What was

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he needed sugar for? Maybe it was yeah, maybe it

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was for a cup of tea cover coffee or isn't

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another their plane's going past all day, can you hear that?

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I don't really know why, because I don't think there's

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any kind of celebrations. There's no d D double DD Eday,

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King's Birthday, celebrations, V Day, VD Day. There's none of

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those stuff because there's a lot of those different days.

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And we get all the aircraft flying over towards London

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and fly back, and they probably come from different parts

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of the country to do a big old flyover over

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London Trafalgar Square or wherever they do it, but or

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the Senotaph. I don't know where the Senotaph is. However,

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today I don't think there is a particular thing on.

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I mean it might be, I'm just not aware of it.

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There might well be a big celebration going on today.

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I don't know. I didn't know. Oh yes, anyways at all.

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She gave me tea but no sugar, so I thought, okay,

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and he asked for the sugar, but she didn't come back.

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So I thought, I'll sort you out some sugar, and

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so I bought him on Amazon again. They're not being

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delivered yet, No, they haven't. No one hundred and forty

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packs of sugar like the long ones that you get

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in cafes and you know, you open the end up

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and just pour it in. So you've got one hundred

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and forty of them come in. So I'll hopefully it

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should be delivered today and i'd take him to him

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tomorrow morning. I'm just trying to kind of give him

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what he needs, just to it's those little comforts because

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in his situation, I'm sure as heck would not be

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drinking tea without sugar. I would be having sugar with

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everything because I like sugar. I just unfortunately have to

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be a little bit careful with it, A little bit careful,

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not as careful as I should be. Probably, yeah, I'm not. Literally,

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I haven't bought a bag of sugar for well over

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a year now, yeah, well over probably a year and

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a half. Whenever it was that I was told that

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I had to cut down and loose some weight, and

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I stopped with the sugar. No more sugar and breakfast cereal,

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no more sugar and tea or coffee or though I

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don't drink coffee anymore, although I did drink coffee the

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other day, So I'm just pretty much just lied. Ton't know.

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I used to have coffee, used to have one cup

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of coffee every morning with my breakfast for quite some time,

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possibly years, and then the rest of the day I

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would have tea. This is when I stopped drinking coke.

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Before that old not really to you all, I just

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have cans of coke, but I stopped drinking coke. So

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can you know tea cups of tea and a fair

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bit of water. I do. I've always been quite an avid, avid,

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regular water drinker, and yeah, since since I was a kid.

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Really anyway, I ran out of coffee. This is even

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more boring that I wanted it to be. I do

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you ever stop yourself at heart, like midway in a

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sentence and think this is really boring? This is even

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this is too boring. I can't finish this sentence. It's

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just too I've got to do a U turn. This

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is really going to be tedious. Why am I even

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saying this? I'll think I'll continue, but I'm just just

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letting you know. I'm talking about coffee. What I talk

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about coffee? It's got to be more interesting things to

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talk about. Yeah, but it's supposed to be boring, isn't it.

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It's supposed to be bullying. Yeah, but there's a limit.

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There's a limit to boredom. I mean, I might as

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well just count how many times I've cut my toenails

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in the last ten years. It's on the same level

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of like complete tedium. Anyway, I finished the exciting story.

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So I was drinking coffee every day, one cup of day.

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That was my limit, A little bit of kickstart to

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today it was yeah, all right, and then dun I

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ran out of coffee and there was no coffee available. Basically,

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I have my delivery delivered, the coffee was missing. There

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was none available, so I just had tea bags and

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I thought, what am I going to do? A cup

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of tea is not going to solve the issue. It's

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not the same as a cup of coffee. Now, at

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this time, I was drinking coffee and tea with sugar,

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so that's when the coffee finished before I stopped with

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the sugar, which is just as well, because there's no

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way in the world I'm ever what I say never,

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but generally I wouldn't drink coffee without sugar. It ain't happening.

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And I had a cost as coffee the other day.

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First coffee in yeah, probably a year, well over a year.

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And I had a couple of at least one or

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two sugars in it. I can't have I can't have

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coffee without sugar. Ain't going to happen. But as I

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was only having one coffee, you know, one coffee a

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year is allowed, I would say I would hazard a

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gift that I'd be okay with that, although I did

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feel a bit weird having all like caffeine running through me,

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the buzz ah. So yeah, I haven't had coffee really

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other than you know, when I did have coffee. I

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never drink coffee apart from when I do drink coffee.

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That's just a weird sentence, very weird. You used to

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drink a lot of coffee. I've been through phases in

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my life where like between the ages of seven and fifteen,

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maybe sixteen, yeah, fifteen sixteen, I was drinking coffee regularly.

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I drinking tea regularly. Sorry, just part of that was

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the culture. I drink tea. I don't have the occasional coffee,

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but not that often, not in the evening. But i'd

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have a coffee sometimes eleven Z's with a cup of

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coffee and some biscuits, you know, on a weekend and stuff. Yeah,

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I have cups of tea that would be kind of normal.

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But then when I left school, I didn't really drink

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much in a way of tea. I mean, I did

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drink tea, but not a lot of tea. I think,

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you know, once I got sort of sixteen, seventeen eighteen,

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it was I suppose I had a bit more choice,

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didn't have to stick to tea because I was the

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one buying what I was drinking. And I think I

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started drinking more coke and more water, just trying to think,

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just you know, bits, just whatever. Really can't remember. Probably

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quite a bit of water because I was working in

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the hot environment, but definitely drinking coke other cans of drink. Lilt.

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I used to like lilt when I was about sixteen.

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Oh my goodness, lilt. It was lovely. It was gorgeous.

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Mm hmmm. It's a little bit like fencer really but

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lemon lemone, not lemon. But I don't know how to

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explain a bit. I liked it, and so I went

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quite a few years where probably the only time I'd

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drink tea would perhaps be first thing in the morning

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with my breakfast, So that was kind of a regular thing.

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I'd have a cup of tea my breakfast, and then

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during the nineties, i'd have a pint of milk with

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my evening meal and water. So that was all i'd

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have in the evening, milk and water unless I went out,

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and then i'd have For a lot of the nineties,

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I would never drunk alcohol, so i'd just be drinking.

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I'd order a coke, and I try and make the

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coke of coca glass, the glass of coke last as possible.

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So I'll try and get that sentence out properly. Now,

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I'd try and make a glass of coke last as

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long as possible. Because it wasn't just that I was tight,

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but I didn't have lots of money money, So I'd

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go out and i'd have like maybe ten pounds five

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or ten pounds to last me for the whole evening.

464
00:41:00.239 --> 00:41:02.639
You know that that was it. So what I did

465
00:41:03.000 --> 00:41:08.519
is I mean not all the time. There was periods

466
00:41:08.559 --> 00:41:10.760
when I had a bit more, a bit more cash

467
00:41:10.880 --> 00:41:16.599
than others, and maybe I would drink, you know, I

468
00:41:16.639 --> 00:41:25.119
think ninety four in the summer I started drinking, like

469
00:41:25.239 --> 00:41:28.360
going out drinking and stuff really like regularly. But that

470
00:41:28.480 --> 00:41:32.679
was like a for a summer eighty nine, I did

471
00:41:32.719 --> 00:41:37.760
as well, but I was just for the summer. Outside

472
00:41:37.760 --> 00:41:43.599
of that, during the whole of the nineties, other than

473
00:41:43.639 --> 00:41:45.559
when I was working and earn a cup of tea

474
00:41:46.360 --> 00:41:53.079
from the machine or a cup of coffee, I didn't

475
00:41:53.159 --> 00:41:56.239
drink you know, tear coffee, so that'd be maybe two

476
00:41:56.360 --> 00:41:59.039
or three a day. But there was like tiny little

477
00:41:59.239 --> 00:42:05.679
those tiny little plastic cups and yeah, so I didn't

478
00:42:06.639 --> 00:42:10.880
really bother with tea. And then in the two thousands,

479
00:42:12.920 --> 00:42:17.360
actually in two thousand, I got real really excited about

480
00:42:17.440 --> 00:42:25.039
tea again, which is weird, not excited, but I liked

481
00:42:25.119 --> 00:42:34.079
drinking tea, so I was getting through more tea during

482
00:42:34.119 --> 00:42:41.039
the day in two thousand and two thousand and one,

483
00:42:41.280 --> 00:42:45.360
and then two thousand and two, well, at the end

484
00:42:45.360 --> 00:42:49.239
of two thousand and one two thousand and two, I

485
00:42:49.320 --> 00:42:55.039
was drinking huge amounts of coffee at work and that

486
00:42:55.199 --> 00:43:01.840
didn't do me any good. In two thousand and three,

487
00:43:02.079 --> 00:43:05.639
I pretty much stopped drinking coffee. It came out from

488
00:43:05.639 --> 00:43:10.079
a machine, so that wasn't Yeah, it was a bit rubbish,

489
00:43:10.320 --> 00:43:17.559
so I stopped doing that. Didn't I think I really

490
00:43:17.639 --> 00:43:20.480
had much. I suppose I get the odd coffee or tea,

491
00:43:21.719 --> 00:43:26.840
you know, leading into two thousand and seven when I

492
00:43:26.840 --> 00:43:32.800
stopped working in insurance, So it was about now this

493
00:43:32.880 --> 00:43:37.960
time of the year. In two thousand and seven, I

494
00:43:38.119 --> 00:43:43.920
basically as my second insurance job, second out of three,

495
00:43:45.000 --> 00:43:51.599
and I was part time because i'd be nil in

496
00:43:51.760 --> 00:43:56.320
two thousand and six, nearing the I think it was

497
00:43:56.360 --> 00:44:01.360
September time two thousand and six, and I had some

498
00:44:01.519 --> 00:44:05.960
time off and they allowed me to go back part

499
00:44:05.960 --> 00:44:08.880
time after about a month off work, so I went

500
00:44:08.920 --> 00:44:15.920
back part time. That suited me perfectly because I could

501
00:44:15.920 --> 00:44:21.000
then do volunteering and I can do you know, the

502
00:44:21.039 --> 00:44:24.960
other stuff that I was doing. It's really good. And

503
00:44:25.000 --> 00:44:29.800
I was earning enough to get by just you know.

504
00:44:29.800 --> 00:44:31.639
It wasn't a lot, but I had enough to pay

505
00:44:31.679 --> 00:44:36.440
the rent and buy the food and have enough for

506
00:44:36.639 --> 00:44:44.800
just bits and bops, you know. But then in I

507
00:44:44.840 --> 00:44:50.440
think it was June two thousand and seven, they hauled

508
00:44:50.480 --> 00:44:54.400
me into the office by a haul. They didn't they

509
00:44:54.480 --> 00:45:00.239
just asked me to go in there and about seven

510
00:45:00.280 --> 00:45:03.039
footsteps from where my desk was, so it wasn't a

511
00:45:03.079 --> 00:45:09.719
big deal. Anyway. I walked in there and my boss said,

512
00:45:10.639 --> 00:45:15.559
we need you to go full time again. I said, no,

513
00:45:15.880 --> 00:45:19.440
I don't want to. He said, but we want you to.

514
00:45:19.960 --> 00:45:21.119
I said, I don't want.

515
00:45:20.960 --> 00:45:21.199
To do.

516
00:45:23.599 --> 00:45:31.320
Because, other than anything else I had, I liked that job. Now,

517
00:45:31.519 --> 00:45:37.079
you won't hear me say that about many of my

518
00:45:37.199 --> 00:45:40.199
jobs I've had in the past. And I've had a

519
00:45:40.320 --> 00:45:46.639
lot of jobs, like lots and lots and lots. That's

520
00:45:46.719 --> 00:45:56.920
one of the few jobs that I actually I didn't. Yeah,

521
00:45:57.159 --> 00:46:01.920
Sunday wasn't tarnished by thinking about going to work on

522
00:46:01.960 --> 00:46:05.920
a Monday. I didn't have that anymore because I was

523
00:46:06.000 --> 00:46:08.559
doing it part time. I liked the job full time

524
00:46:08.599 --> 00:46:17.039
as well, but I just I just struggled to keep

525
00:46:17.079 --> 00:46:20.559
it going. And I don't know how long i'd lasted

526
00:46:21.280 --> 00:46:25.480
part time, but I did quite well because I've been

527
00:46:25.519 --> 00:46:37.159
part time since probably October. Yes, I did like seven

528
00:46:37.239 --> 00:46:40.920
or eight months part time, so I was holding it together.

529
00:46:41.559 --> 00:46:43.519
I had a couple of weeks off, but other than that,

530
00:46:45.000 --> 00:46:53.599
I was doing all right. And I mean, chances are

531
00:46:54.039 --> 00:47:00.920
I I might still be there if dead let me.

532
00:47:02.079 --> 00:47:04.639
I mean, I wouldn't still be there because the whole

533
00:47:04.639 --> 00:47:11.480
place closed down. They made everyone redundant, so and that

534
00:47:11.679 --> 00:47:14.519
was kind of coming. I kind of knew that as well.

535
00:47:14.760 --> 00:47:16.320
I think that's part of the reason why I was

536
00:47:16.679 --> 00:47:25.480
not so well. But it was, yeah, all things being

537
00:47:26.360 --> 00:47:30.519
equal and being good, I liked the job. I was

538
00:47:30.559 --> 00:47:35.280
good at the job. This is I'd moved from working

539
00:47:35.280 --> 00:47:40.519
in sales to listening to people's phone calls to make

540
00:47:40.599 --> 00:47:43.119
sure that they were doing the job correctly. So I

541
00:47:43.199 --> 00:47:51.920
was in compliance and I was very good at listening, concentrating.

542
00:47:52.320 --> 00:47:56.199
I had headphones and stuff, and I wasn't actually, I

543
00:47:56.239 --> 00:48:00.639
wasn't sitting on the desk listening to people talking and

544
00:48:00.880 --> 00:48:03.840
you know it's actually recorded calls, because that would have

545
00:48:03.840 --> 00:48:10.360
been off putting, wouldn't it. Just sitting there one egg

546
00:48:10.400 --> 00:48:12.880
cup from the customer and when an a cup with

547
00:48:13.039 --> 00:48:22.280
strength from the the salesperson, a cup, yoga cup. Anyway,

548
00:48:22.320 --> 00:48:32.119
that's just a silly thing, silly visual And uh yeah,

549
00:48:32.599 --> 00:48:37.559
I was quite good at it. Not not sure, not

550
00:48:38.159 --> 00:48:42.199
playing my own trumpet or violin or whatever instrument. It's just,

551
00:48:42.360 --> 00:48:45.400
you know, it's a factual thing. Was for some reason,

552
00:48:45.440 --> 00:48:50.400
I was pretty good at doing that. So I didn't

553
00:48:50.400 --> 00:48:56.800
want to leave, But at the same time, I didn't

554
00:48:57.920 --> 00:49:02.360
feel like a go full time again. At that point,

555
00:49:02.440 --> 00:49:05.320
I didn't think I could go full time anywhere. I

556
00:49:05.400 --> 00:49:10.639
just didn't because I'd already Oh man, the amount of

557
00:49:10.639 --> 00:49:16.719
times I've had issues, you know, I had to have

558
00:49:16.760 --> 00:49:23.519
time off and stuff with different jobs. So I was like, Okay,

559
00:49:23.719 --> 00:49:28.239
I want to stay here. I like I like the company,

560
00:49:30.039 --> 00:49:33.800
I like the people I work with. I like the job.

561
00:49:34.599 --> 00:49:39.159
It's easy. It's challenging at times, but generally quite easy

562
00:49:39.239 --> 00:49:44.000
for me. And I got me really well with my

563
00:49:44.039 --> 00:49:51.559
little team, and I was in. But then yeah, it

564
00:49:51.679 --> 00:49:55.960
was a choice of like, go full time or leave.

565
00:49:56.320 --> 00:49:59.440
That was it. And I said, okay, I'll go back

566
00:49:59.480 --> 00:50:02.840
full time. And then I came back the next day.

567
00:50:02.840 --> 00:50:13.920
I said I'm leaving, and I had no idea what

568
00:50:13.960 --> 00:50:18.320
I was going to do. Well, I knew I was

569
00:50:18.360 --> 00:50:22.719
going to leave. That was it. I think I think

570
00:50:22.840 --> 00:50:28.280
I was sort of doing a little gamble. I was

571
00:50:28.360 --> 00:50:32.960
hoping that they would say, oh no, no, no, no,

572
00:50:33.639 --> 00:50:37.519
run after me. Oh no, juicy, jaj we need you.

573
00:50:37.639 --> 00:50:40.760
It's it's okay, you can, you can stay part time.

574
00:50:42.840 --> 00:50:45.159
I'll employ someone else to come in and I'll pay

575
00:50:45.239 --> 00:50:48.559
out my own wages, someone extra to do the extra work.

576
00:50:49.639 --> 00:50:56.199
We can't lose you. But no, that didn't happen. It

577
00:50:56.360 --> 00:51:03.519
was weird because when I left, I just said goodbye

578
00:51:03.639 --> 00:51:06.199
to But by this point my boss had orly left

579
00:51:08.159 --> 00:51:12.599
and all I had was the lady that I was

580
00:51:12.679 --> 00:51:14.320
sitting next to me, that I got really well with

581
00:51:15.119 --> 00:51:17.280
the people behind me, and I just said see her,

582
00:51:18.760 --> 00:51:24.480
and I was left. And it's almost like no one

583
00:51:24.559 --> 00:51:28.559
knew I was leaving, or no one cared. It's hard

584
00:51:28.599 --> 00:51:37.440
to believe. It's very strange. Yeah, I feel a bit

585
00:51:37.599 --> 00:51:42.000
cold because I knew people in different departments because I've

586
00:51:42.000 --> 00:51:44.400
been in the sales department. I knew everyone in the

587
00:51:44.440 --> 00:51:50.920
sales department, not just because i'd worked with most of them. Well,

588
00:51:50.960 --> 00:51:52.840
I hadn't worked with most of my worked at the time.

589
00:51:52.920 --> 00:51:56.559
I'd worked with everyone, and then they took on another

590
00:51:58.000 --> 00:52:03.239
probably twice as many different people, maybe three times. I

591
00:52:03.400 --> 00:52:08.559
never heard. They took on a lot more people, and

592
00:52:08.639 --> 00:52:10.199
I got to know them because I was listening to

593
00:52:10.280 --> 00:52:13.400
their calls, so I felt like I knew them and

594
00:52:13.519 --> 00:52:16.159
I would speak to them, you know, and give them

595
00:52:16.239 --> 00:52:22.000
feedback and stuff. So not everyone was in love with

596
00:52:22.119 --> 00:52:28.440
me because they sometimes lost money due to not doing

597
00:52:28.480 --> 00:52:31.400
the job properly, and that wasn't my fault, that was

598
00:52:31.480 --> 00:52:32.199
just the way it was.

599
00:52:33.840 --> 00:52:34.679
You know, just.

600
00:52:39.920 --> 00:52:41.519
There was I did thought I was going to get

601
00:52:41.519 --> 00:52:47.320
in trouble once some lad who was in renewals and

602
00:52:47.519 --> 00:52:54.639
he lost something like two hundred pounds from his bonus

603
00:52:55.960 --> 00:53:01.559
because he failed every single one of his compliance things.

604
00:53:06.199 --> 00:53:10.280
And I said, well, I only marked two of them,

605
00:53:10.760 --> 00:53:13.679
and what's her name next to me? Mark two? We

606
00:53:13.760 --> 00:53:18.079
didn't do all four, so was it six three? I

607
00:53:18.119 --> 00:53:21.519
think I had six, Either four or six, I can't remember,

608
00:53:22.599 --> 00:53:24.880
but I didn't do all of them, so it couldn't

609
00:53:24.880 --> 00:53:29.639
all be blamed on me. So the team leader he

610
00:53:30.000 --> 00:53:33.239
calls the big fuss. The team leader came up, wants

611
00:53:33.280 --> 00:53:36.159
to listen to the calls again and said, no, it

612
00:53:36.280 --> 00:53:38.880
was fine, And I said, I'd listened to it again,

613
00:53:39.400 --> 00:53:43.079
No it wasn't, and then my boss would listen to it.

614
00:53:43.239 --> 00:53:46.920
He said, no, it wasn't all these people listening to

615
00:53:47.000 --> 00:53:49.719
the call trying to trying to find a way to

616
00:53:50.000 --> 00:53:56.280
pay him. When I mean, when I listened back to

617
00:53:56.360 --> 00:54:00.199
the call, I didn't want myself to be wrong for

618
00:54:00.840 --> 00:54:03.920
because I quite I quite liked the idea that I

619
00:54:04.119 --> 00:54:06.679
was pretty good at a job. But at the same

620
00:54:06.800 --> 00:54:11.840
time i'd have been happy enough. Well I wouldn't really,

621
00:54:11.920 --> 00:54:14.119
but I wanted him to have his money. I didn't

622
00:54:14.119 --> 00:54:16.960
want him to lose money. I wouldn't have been happy

623
00:54:17.000 --> 00:54:21.360
if I'd been wrong, just because that brings up doubts

624
00:54:21.400 --> 00:54:24.199
in other people's minds. Then, so how many other ones

625
00:54:24.519 --> 00:54:27.599
as you've done wrong? I lost one hundred pounds last month.

626
00:54:28.239 --> 00:54:30.519
Maybe that was because me, he doesn't know what he's doing.

627
00:54:32.760 --> 00:54:35.840
But I really didn't know what I was doing, very

628
00:54:36.480 --> 00:54:38.599
very very rarely will you ever hear me say that

629
00:54:39.079 --> 00:54:41.760
I was pretty good at that job. It was very simple,

630
00:54:44.440 --> 00:54:47.760
but I knew exactly what or I knew what needed

631
00:54:47.800 --> 00:54:50.800
to be, how things needed to be asked, and as

632
00:54:50.840 --> 00:54:52.840
a certain way it was. I think it was ridiculous

633
00:54:53.679 --> 00:54:58.559
that the staff were made to do that. You know,

634
00:54:58.719 --> 00:55:01.320
I really did this, But it's just compliance. It's just

635
00:55:01.440 --> 00:55:10.760
the rules. It's the rules, it's the financial whatever organization.

636
00:55:14.440 --> 00:55:14.639
Ah.

637
00:55:17.960 --> 00:55:22.960
But yeah, it's weird because I left thinking all I

638
00:55:23.039 --> 00:55:26.840
did give the month's notice. So during that month I

639
00:55:27.000 --> 00:55:35.119
applied to go to university to do my counseling degree.

640
00:55:36.360 --> 00:55:40.000
I applied. I didn't get a result, I think until

641
00:55:41.840 --> 00:55:48.360
i'd left, because that would have been in the August

642
00:55:51.239 --> 00:55:52.840
or maybe it was in the July year and in

643
00:55:53.000 --> 00:56:01.000
August September. I started university in October, so I think

644
00:56:01.079 --> 00:56:09.880
I probably went for an interview in the July, because

645
00:56:09.880 --> 00:56:14.280
I think they did the interviews before the clothes. I

646
00:56:14.320 --> 00:56:16.360
don't know, Yeah, I think I did. It might have

647
00:56:16.400 --> 00:56:19.280
been June, blame me anyway. I think it was July.

648
00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:30.320
And then I got accepted. I went on to I

649
00:56:30.440 --> 00:56:35.880
got benefits housing benefit just for three months while I

650
00:56:36.039 --> 00:56:41.159
was unemployed waiting to go to university. I remember the

651
00:56:41.320 --> 00:56:44.400
they said another one. I remember the lady. It was

652
00:56:44.920 --> 00:56:48.320
a lady in this situation. It's not always a lady

653
00:56:48.400 --> 00:56:51.719
in my stories. It's quite often men as well. It

654
00:56:51.800 --> 00:56:54.719
was a man. It was a man. And she said

655
00:56:54.719 --> 00:56:59.159
to me, Yeah, you won't get any house and benefit

656
00:56:59.199 --> 00:57:02.360
because you're living in this shared accommodation. It's a religious

657
00:57:02.440 --> 00:57:07.880
house because I was living with Buddhists. There's no locks

658
00:57:07.960 --> 00:57:12.079
on the doors, because that's what makes it a multiple

659
00:57:12.199 --> 00:57:17.440
occupancy whatever. I said, Yeah, but we trust each other,

660
00:57:17.840 --> 00:57:20.519
so it don't matter there's no locks on the door.

661
00:57:20.559 --> 00:57:24.719
It's class as a family. I said, well, we do argue,

662
00:57:24.880 --> 00:57:30.840
so it's similar to be in her family, but I

663
00:57:30.920 --> 00:57:34.400
do pay rent. Well, it turns out she was wrong,

664
00:57:34.559 --> 00:57:36.840
and I did get paid, didn't get my rent paid,

665
00:57:37.840 --> 00:57:39.679
so that was good, and only for a few weeks.

666
00:57:40.159 --> 00:57:46.639
What's it probably two months? Really only two months, and

667
00:57:48.960 --> 00:57:54.559
so if I hadn't been told you either go full

668
00:57:54.679 --> 00:58:00.320
time or you leave, then I would never have probably

669
00:58:00.320 --> 00:58:05.960
gone to university because I was fairly kind of happy

670
00:58:06.840 --> 00:58:13.239
being there doing part time and then volunteering doing a

671
00:58:13.320 --> 00:58:18.559
free pain relief service. No, I'd stop doing that at

672
00:58:18.599 --> 00:58:20.159
this point. So I was doing that in two thousand

673
00:58:20.159 --> 00:58:23.280
and six. I was doing that when I was full time,

674
00:58:24.000 --> 00:58:27.960
the free pay relief service, and I was doing on Saturdays.

675
00:58:29.079 --> 00:58:35.280
But then two thousand and seven I was doing the

676
00:58:39.039 --> 00:58:43.519
the Rehab drug Rehab and Alcoholic Charity, so I was

677
00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:47.599
doing relaxation group sessions. I think I was doing two

678
00:58:47.719 --> 00:58:59.000
a week each one, and not while I was part time.

679
00:58:59.119 --> 00:59:00.960
I think I was doing one a week at each one,

680
00:59:01.800 --> 00:59:03.199
and then when I went.

681
00:59:04.920 --> 00:59:05.360
Or was I.

682
00:59:09.920 --> 00:59:17.719
I can't remember one two yeah, I think it was

683
00:59:17.880 --> 00:59:21.119
two a week, one a week, and then I went

684
00:59:21.239 --> 00:59:25.239
two a week for each one when I left my job.

685
00:59:28.360 --> 00:59:31.079
That was a shame. I'd again, I'd probably still be

686
00:59:31.199 --> 00:59:41.800
there doing that if it hadn't been for circumstances. It's

687
00:59:41.840 --> 00:59:46.039
a shame. That's weird, isn't it. I know, you know, life,

688
00:59:46.960 --> 00:59:51.079
just life is. It can be a bit unusual at

689
00:59:51.159 --> 00:59:57.800
times all the time, but there's certain in some ways.

690
01:00:00.920 --> 01:00:06.840
For a short period of time, everything was kind of

691
01:00:09.159 --> 01:00:20.360
going pretty well, even leading up to starting university, because

692
01:00:20.400 --> 01:00:27.119
I had everything planned very eloquently. I'm not sure if

693
01:00:27.119 --> 01:00:34.920
it's eloquent, but I had everything planned. So I had

694
01:00:35.119 --> 01:00:43.400
a part time job in a supermarket to start, and

695
01:00:43.519 --> 01:00:48.599
it was just going to be at weekends. I was

696
01:00:48.679 --> 01:00:56.119
starting university. Well i'd already started university, but it was

697
01:00:56.159 --> 01:00:59.320
in a different town, but that was okay, it was doable.

698
01:01:03.440 --> 01:01:07.280
I was still living at the Buddhist place again. That

699
01:01:07.519 --> 01:01:12.000
was what I wanted and it's fairly cheap to live there.

700
01:01:16.760 --> 01:01:20.760
I was still doing the voluntary work. I had to

701
01:01:21.000 --> 01:01:24.559
base it around, you know, university, but I was still

702
01:01:24.639 --> 01:01:27.239
managing to go twice a week, so I'll do at

703
01:01:27.320 --> 01:01:33.960
least one session per week at the the two charities

704
01:01:34.280 --> 01:01:40.719
doing group relaxation sessions. I was still making my recordings

705
01:01:40.760 --> 01:01:51.079
and my videos, and I had a new girlfriend, which

706
01:01:51.199 --> 01:01:54.559
came from me doing the voluntary work. She was in

707
01:01:54.679 --> 01:02:00.639
charge of the volunteers, volunteer coordinature or something. So everything

708
01:02:00.760 --> 01:02:07.480
was kind of going together quite nicely actually, And then,

709
01:02:10.559 --> 01:02:17.760
as sometimes happened, Hello for Anny, Hello Hello, as sometimes occurs,

710
01:02:19.199 --> 01:02:26.280
things went a little bit awry. So I ended up

711
01:02:26.679 --> 01:02:29.920
moving to the town I was going to university, yet

712
01:02:32.880 --> 01:02:37.000
moving away from that job, so I didn't even get

713
01:02:37.039 --> 01:02:44.639
to start the job, and moving away from my friends.

714
01:02:46.639 --> 01:02:50.840
My girlfriend wasn't I moved away from her and she

715
01:02:51.360 --> 01:02:57.000
didn't take that greatly, and I wasn't able to do

716
01:02:57.119 --> 01:03:06.000
the volunteer work anymore. So the only thing I continued

717
01:03:06.159 --> 01:03:11.119
when I moved was doing recordings and videos and going

718
01:03:11.159 --> 01:03:20.239
to university. But the way it worked out, it did

719
01:03:20.400 --> 01:03:24.639
take a lot out of me doing that course. So

720
01:03:24.719 --> 01:03:29.079
I'm not sure if I'd have been able to maintain

721
01:03:34.079 --> 01:03:37.440
all the other things at the same time, you know,

722
01:03:37.880 --> 01:03:48.239
a part time job, a girlfriend, the volunteer jobs, volunteer work. Yeah,

723
01:03:52.320 --> 01:03:54.280
I don't know if I could have. I mean, it

724
01:03:54.400 --> 01:03:58.559
might have been much better. I don't know, but I

725
01:03:58.679 --> 01:04:06.159
don't know, no way of knowing. But that was with Sainsbury's.

726
01:04:06.400 --> 01:04:08.440
I tell it's weird. I actually got a part time

727
01:04:08.519 --> 01:04:23.000
job again in Sainsbury's. In was it where was it. Yeah,

728
01:04:23.119 --> 01:04:25.599
when I moved here, I got a job, part time

729
01:04:25.719 --> 01:04:31.000
job at Sainsbury's, and again I didn't go. I got

730
01:04:31.039 --> 01:04:34.480
the job, I just didn't go. I just couldn't face it.

731
01:04:35.880 --> 01:04:46.320
It's weird. I couldn't get out of bed. And then yeah,

732
01:04:46.360 --> 01:04:50.760
I think I kind of I think that particular, that

733
01:04:50.960 --> 01:04:54.400
particular ladder has been shortened. I don't think I can

734
01:04:54.440 --> 01:05:02.679
get onto the ladder anymore. For that company, I was

735
01:05:02.760 --> 01:05:18.239
going to be on the vegetable section. Hm. It was weird,

736
01:05:18.320 --> 01:05:20.320
well not weird, but the bloke that showed me around

737
01:05:20.360 --> 01:05:23.280
and it was going to be my supervisor. He was

738
01:05:23.440 --> 01:05:28.000
so enthusiastic about all the apples, the fruits and the

739
01:05:28.119 --> 01:05:36.559
vegetables and the cabbages and the beetroot and really enthusiastic.

740
01:05:37.719 --> 01:05:46.679
He had a hat and everything. You really, I can't

741
01:05:46.719 --> 01:05:50.280
really express to you how enthusiastic he was about that

742
01:05:50.440 --> 01:05:54.599
particular section. Now, it's quite a large section in the supermarket,

743
01:05:54.679 --> 01:05:59.159
isn't it, The whole vegetable, fruit and veg area. It's

744
01:05:59.280 --> 01:06:03.599
quite a quite a big section of a large supermarket,

745
01:06:05.320 --> 01:06:09.039
so I'm guessing there'd be quite a few staff looking

746
01:06:09.119 --> 01:06:14.079
after that area. And he was I don't know if

747
01:06:14.119 --> 01:06:16.519
he was in charge overall in charge, or if he

748
01:06:16.679 --> 01:06:23.119
was I don't know, like a shift manager or something.

749
01:06:26.599 --> 01:06:30.280
Definitely loved his job, which was amazing. I always like

750
01:06:30.400 --> 01:06:33.719
that anyone. I've just got a thing about people enthusiastic

751
01:06:33.760 --> 01:06:38.679
about stuff, because I don't think I come across as

752
01:06:38.719 --> 01:06:45.920
being very enthusiastic. I hide it very well. I I

753
01:06:46.039 --> 01:06:50.480
just like that. I don't Yeah, whatever it is, as

754
01:06:50.519 --> 01:06:54.320
long as it's not hurting anyone else, and for me personally,

755
01:06:54.440 --> 01:06:59.440
it's useful. Just just for me personally. I mean, other

756
01:06:59.519 --> 01:07:03.000
people can be enthusiastic about whatever they want. That's up

757
01:07:03.039 --> 01:07:09.000
to them. I only really want to be enthusiastic about Well,

758
01:07:09.079 --> 01:07:15.360
actually it's not true because I'm enthusiastic about Let's try

759
01:07:15.400 --> 01:07:17.480
to say the word a little bit slower so it

760
01:07:17.599 --> 01:07:28.119
comes out more concisely and clearly enthusiastic. I am enthusiastic

761
01:07:28.159 --> 01:07:31.760
about boxing, and that's not helping anyone. The only one

762
01:07:31.800 --> 01:07:38.679
that's helping is to people that are getting paid. So

763
01:07:38.840 --> 01:07:47.559
I'm you know, I love watching the big fights. My

764
01:07:47.679 --> 01:08:02.119
stomach's hungry again. It don't stop being hungry. It's nearly

765
01:08:02.199 --> 01:08:05.559
time to take the little monkey out for a little

766
01:08:05.800 --> 01:08:14.239
climbing the trees, my little monk. So that's the end

767
01:08:14.440 --> 01:08:20.640
of this here recording. It's not you know, it's not

768
01:08:20.760 --> 01:08:28.439
in line with the regular Monday Tuesday kind of schedule

769
01:08:28.640 --> 01:08:33.279
that I've been building up over the last few months

770
01:08:34.560 --> 01:08:39.680
or I don't know how long it's been. But I

771
01:08:39.760 --> 01:08:43.720
will get back to that. I promise. I really do

772
01:08:44.000 --> 01:08:48.560
promise it. Just you know, it might take a little while.

773
01:08:49.680 --> 01:08:52.479
I will get back to it. There's a bit of

774
01:08:52.520 --> 01:08:55.560
a blip with the adverts as well, but that's sorted

775
01:08:55.640 --> 01:09:02.359
now thanks to someone let me know that, thank you

776
01:09:03.159 --> 01:09:06.359
that there was adverts playing mid role on some of

777
01:09:06.439 --> 01:09:10.319
the podcasts. They shouldn't have been. So that's all been

778
01:09:10.640 --> 01:09:19.199
sorted out. Yeah, it should should be sorted out. Please

779
01:09:19.520 --> 01:09:36.000
please please severely mentally deficient. Wow Yeah, I feel like

780
01:09:36.039 --> 01:09:38.239
I need to print that only I might put that

781
01:09:38.359 --> 01:09:45.520
as my screen as the image for this recording. It's

782
01:09:45.680 --> 01:09:53.000
like what wow. Anyway, I'm going to go. Thank you

783
01:09:53.439 --> 01:09:59.920
for listening. Please remember to be kind to yourself because

784
01:10:00.079 --> 01:10:04.199
you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself.

785
01:10:05.439 --> 01:10:19.800
You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye, Relax

786
01:10:23.439 --> 01:10:33.960
in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a

787
01:10:34.079 --> 01:10:41.439
way that can not just allow you to feel calmer

788
01:10:42.800 --> 01:10:52.159
now and throughout the time we spend together here, not

789
01:10:52.720 --> 01:10:58.000
just relaxed at the end of the recording when it's

790
01:10:58.159 --> 01:11:05.279
finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

791
01:11:10.039 --> 01:11:22.640
but also I think it would be nice to have

792
01:11:23.359 --> 01:11:40.359
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

793
01:11:40.399 --> 01:11:53.840
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

794
01:11:54.800 --> 01:12:03.640
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

795
01:12:09.720 --> 01:12:17.560
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

796
01:12:17.720 --> 01:12:21.159
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

797
01:12:21.319 --> 01:12:31.800
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

798
01:12:31.960 --> 01:12:37.119
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

799
01:12:37.319 --> 01:12:49.880
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

800
01:12:49.920 --> 01:12:55.159
to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it wasn't hypnosis,

801
01:12:55.279 --> 01:12:59.439
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was

802
01:12:59.560 --> 01:13:06.720
hypnosi is really and I managed to find it again

803
01:13:07.560 --> 01:13:12.960
and it still has the same effect on me. And

804
01:13:13.239 --> 01:13:26.720
part of it was the person's voice relaxed me, just

805
01:13:26.880 --> 01:13:33.920
felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening to

806
01:13:34.119 --> 01:13:46.319
her in the morning and in the evening. And I

807
01:13:46.520 --> 01:13:55.239
knew before even pressing the play button that as soon

808
01:13:55.239 --> 01:13:59.399
as I've done that, pressed the play button. This was

809
01:13:59.760 --> 01:14:14.520
in days of CD players press the play button. In fact,

810
01:14:14.560 --> 01:14:18.520
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

811
01:14:18.600 --> 01:14:28.319
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

812
01:14:29.479 --> 01:14:40.159
listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

813
01:14:44.880 --> 01:14:50.720
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

814
01:14:55.640 --> 01:15:17.319
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

815
01:15:17.600 --> 01:15:31.520
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

816
01:15:31.680 --> 01:15:37.840
was listening to this recording in the early days of

817
01:15:38.000 --> 01:15:48.560
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

818
01:15:48.840 --> 01:15:53.479
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

819
01:15:53.680 --> 01:16:08.000
till two thousand and six, I knew, I knew how

820
01:16:09.880 --> 01:16:23.640
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

821
01:16:23.760 --> 01:16:28.920
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

822
01:16:36.640 --> 01:16:43.399
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

823
01:16:44.800 --> 01:16:54.159
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

824
01:16:54.279 --> 01:17:05.840
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

825
01:17:05.960 --> 01:17:19.800
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not

826
01:17:19.920 --> 01:17:26.199
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

827
01:17:28.079 --> 01:17:41.880
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

828
01:17:43.159 --> 01:17:59.119
do which you may not realize. By listening is when

829
01:17:59.439 --> 01:18:14.880
I called these recordings now. For example, I also am

830
01:18:15.199 --> 01:18:26.039
affected by the words that I say. So if I

831
01:18:29.039 --> 01:18:36.359
set you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

832
01:18:39.880 --> 01:18:47.560
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

833
01:18:47.880 --> 01:19:05.960
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

834
01:19:08.760 --> 01:19:18.279
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, Perhaps notice

835
01:19:18.399 --> 01:19:24.439
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

836
01:19:26.359 --> 01:19:36.720
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

837
01:19:37.319 --> 01:19:45.359
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

838
01:19:45.439 --> 01:19:49.600
though there may not be any type of breeze at

839
01:19:49.720 --> 01:20:02.640
all where you are right now. And as you become

840
01:20:03.319 --> 01:20:17.680
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

841
01:20:18.000 --> 01:20:41.760
my hands our feeling now and when it comes to

842
01:20:43.319 --> 01:20:49.319
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

843
01:20:49.680 --> 01:21:05.880
you're listening, I also feel browsy when I make these recordings.

844
01:21:10.600 --> 01:21:27.000
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

845
01:21:29.079 --> 01:21:43.239
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

846
01:21:43.399 --> 01:21:54.960
carry on talking. It's only where I listen back to

847
01:21:55.399 --> 01:22:04.680
do the editing, hear snoring and I think I don't

848
01:22:04.720 --> 01:22:15.520
remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was a pig

849
01:22:15.680 --> 01:22:22.000
turned up. That's why I sound like when I snare

850
01:22:27.359 --> 01:22:40.640
and I get really into the whole experience, I don't

851
01:22:40.680 --> 01:22:49.840
know how you feel. How relaxed do you feel in

852
01:22:49.920 --> 01:23:15.479
your feet, how relaxed you feel in your ends. I

853
01:23:15.640 --> 01:23:29.800
have noticed more and more that the more relaxed, deeper

854
01:23:34.880 --> 01:23:45.199
level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

855
01:23:51.760 --> 01:24:07.800
It's almost like that additional HM muscle relaxation. So this

856
01:24:08.000 --> 01:24:39.600
allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

857
01:24:39.840 --> 01:25:08.600
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

858
01:25:08.840 --> 01:25:58.600
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

859
01:25:58.800 --> 01:26:17.119
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

860
01:26:23.159 --> 01:26:36.000
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

861
01:26:36.279 --> 01:27:16.560
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

862
01:27:18.279 --> 01:27:37.199
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

863
01:27:48.560 --> 01:28:21.079
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

864
01:28:46.439 --> 01:29:11.920
Time seems to just drip by so very slowly, relaxed,

865
01:29:17.840 --> 01:29:56.960
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

866
01:29:57.159 --> 01:31:01.520
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind slowed down,

867
01:31:09.840 --> 01:31:56.520
slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

868
01:31:56.800 --> 01:32:12.880
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to rip

869
01:32:13.640 --> 01:32:27.159
out of your body, to appear out of every part

870
01:32:33.439 --> 01:32:57.640
of your body, and being released from your brain. N

871
01:32:58.000 --> 01:33:34.199
your mind slowly but surely, the muscle slax.

872
01:33:48.800 --> 01:34:19.560
Relax rex hm really so very deeply, relas.

873
01:34:24.000 --> 01:34:49.359
So deeply, And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

874
01:34:49.680 --> 01:35:17.439
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

875
01:35:22.479 --> 01:35:55.760
and deeper and deeper. Noticing the feelings in the back

876
01:35:55.840 --> 01:36:58.159
of your neck, feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front

877
01:36:58.319 --> 01:37:52.119
of your body. I also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a

878
01:37:52.319 --> 01:38:33.840
sense of peace spreads through. You're very cool. Even when

879
01:38:34.000 --> 01:39:37.159
you focus on your mind. Your mind becomes beef and slowerven, deeper, relaxing,

880
01:40:01.000 --> 01:40:38.880
so very slow, his stomach pas for in your stomach,

881
01:41:01.039 --> 01:41:35.079
you're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now fear in

882
01:41:35.279 --> 01:42:07.960
the hole of your back. You spy from your brain

883
01:42:08.560 --> 01:42:16.239
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

884
01:42:16.640 --> 01:42:39.840
and receiving millions of messages every day deep comfort, increasing

885
01:42:50.399 --> 01:43:56.680
deeply relaxed your knees, spreading these signals down a spine

886
01:43:56.880 --> 01:44:19.640
or cord into air every part of your body, your

887
01:44:19.840 --> 01:44:50.960
sins and your calfmassles. We're outbos.

888
01:45:00.199 --> 01:45:00.239
H.

889
01:45:06.840 --> 01:45:24.239
Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body, tips

890
01:45:24.319 --> 01:45:40.199
of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the

891
01:45:40.279 --> 01:46:42.399
way to your lower back. M lettinger retinker peace, drifting

892
01:46:49.880 --> 01:47:08.119
mind just wand in a way happy to let go,

893
01:47:11.600 --> 01:48:12.880
let go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body

894
01:48:17.239 --> 01:50:33.520
enjoying a sensor letting go he even more pe enjoy

895
01:50:39.279 --> 01:51:15.880
the space, this space of peace and safety, so fury

896
01:51:19.000 --> 01:53:17.880
fy relaxed, lessing God. Maybe we can just focus on

897
01:53:18.039 --> 01:53:52.720
the different parts of your body, just to notice your

898
01:53:52.920 --> 01:54:55.159
forehead and your eyes uture, So Louise, notice in the

899
01:54:55.359 --> 01:56:27.880
sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, drift, drifting Pea's for

900
01:56:29.960 --> 01:58:15.399
energy peace to breathe much easier lest you may have

901
01:58:18.880 --> 01:59:19.600
You may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, moveingly,

902
01:59:19.720 --> 01:59:39.880
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

903
01:59:44.119 --> 02:01:47.920
blissful pace, Christ, total peace. Come so calm, letting go

904
02:02:12.800 --> 02:02:15.359
peace with mind.

905
02:02:24.640 --> 02:02:59.119
Rexed forty, so relaxed, so relaxed.

906
02:03:23.600 --> 02:03:50.439
Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

907
02:03:56.840 --> 02:05:04.560
so peace real liquor so peaceful sor fair face And

908
02:05:04.720 --> 02:05:12.000
you could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

909
02:05:15.039 --> 02:05:24.760
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

910
02:05:26.119 --> 02:05:32.199
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

911
02:05:32.319 --> 02:05:45.119
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

912
02:05:45.239 --> 02:05:52.720
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

913
02:05:53.000 --> 02:06:07.720
speech not being particularly fast and things just generally feel calmer.

914
02:06:11.279 --> 02:06:19.239
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

915
02:06:19.279 --> 02:06:27.239
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

916
02:06:27.359 --> 02:06:35.000
break from your life as it is, and to give

917
02:06:35.039 --> 02:06:43.439
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

918
02:06:45.720 --> 02:06:51.079
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

919
02:06:51.279 --> 02:07:01.880
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension

920
02:07:03.319 --> 02:07:12.439
any stresses that you had in your body. It's almost

921
02:07:12.520 --> 02:07:16.640
as if the parts of your body just open up,

922
02:07:17.960 --> 02:07:29.600
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

923
02:07:30.479 --> 02:07:39.960
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

924
02:07:40.039 --> 02:07:51.840
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

925
02:07:52.760 --> 02:08:11.119
those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling, positive healing,

926
02:08:14.319 --> 02:08:22.880
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

927
02:08:25.199 --> 02:08:37.319
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

928
02:08:40.159 --> 02:08:45.359
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

929
02:08:45.439 --> 02:08:58.000
want it to be to just rest and allow your

930
02:08:58.159 --> 02:09:08.039
mind and your body to almost reset itself to the

931
02:09:08.760 --> 02:09:24.640
settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more room

932
02:09:25.119 --> 02:09:38.159
for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around your

933
02:09:38.239 --> 02:09:46.640
body and into your mind, almost as if your mind

934
02:09:46.760 --> 02:09:57.359
and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other

935
02:09:58.399 --> 02:10:10.439
with that crow positivity and calmness. And it feels nice.

936
02:10:12.880 --> 02:10:18.880
It really does feel nice to know that you are

937
02:10:18.920 --> 02:10:29.079
the one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort

938
02:10:32.319 --> 02:10:45.800
and to experience more of this deep relaxation Spreading throughout

939
02:10:45.920 --> 02:10:58.119
your body, and as I focus on each part of

940
02:10:58.239 --> 02:11:10.399
your body, you can notice that that part becomes even

941
02:11:11.680 --> 02:11:20.960
more relaxed just by focusing on it. It becomes even

942
02:11:21.199 --> 02:11:33.880
more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And as I

943
02:11:34.119 --> 02:11:42.439
move down your body, starting at your head, the parts

944
02:11:42.560 --> 02:11:49.960
that you've already focused on will continue to relax deeply,

945
02:11:52.760 --> 02:11:58.800
and those parts that we've not yet focused on were

946
02:11:58.960 --> 02:12:10.720
just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation of even

947
02:12:11.159 --> 02:12:23.720
more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going to start

948
02:12:23.800 --> 02:12:30.840
by focusing on your forehead, just being aware of the

949
02:12:31.079 --> 02:12:42.039
feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert,

950
02:12:42.119 --> 02:12:47.600
the pigeon can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

951
02:12:51.520 --> 02:12:57.640
Just means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't

952
02:12:57.680 --> 02:13:05.680
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

953
02:13:05.760 --> 02:13:18.039
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around. So

954
02:13:18.159 --> 02:13:23.239
as you focus on your forehead, just notice how it

955
02:13:23.520 --> 02:13:33.439
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

956
02:13:33.720 --> 02:13:43.239
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

957
02:13:43.399 --> 02:13:56.319
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

958
02:13:56.600 --> 02:14:03.600
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

959
02:14:07.000 --> 02:14:17.640
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

960
02:14:17.800 --> 02:14:24.920
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

961
02:14:26.159 --> 02:14:34.079
your teeth, and your gumbs in the whole of your mouth, relaxing,

962
02:14:37.640 --> 02:14:47.840
calm and loose. As you focus now on your jaw,

963
02:14:50.920 --> 02:14:55.319
not just a part of your jawney, your mouth, and

964
02:14:55.439 --> 02:14:59.640
your chin, but all the way up the size of

965
02:14:59.760 --> 02:15:06.479
your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw,

966
02:15:09.119 --> 02:15:36.199
feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the

967
02:15:36.359 --> 02:15:43.840
front of your neck and your throat, relaxing and loose

968
02:15:44.600 --> 02:15:54.199
and calm. The sides of your neck, the right and

969
02:15:54.439 --> 02:16:00.399
left side of your neck, relax and.

970
02:16:01.920 --> 02:16:15.560
Loose and calm, and now the back of your neck.

971
02:16:18.840 --> 02:16:28.840
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

972
02:16:29.039 --> 02:16:35.920
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

973
02:16:36.319 --> 02:16:49.200
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can

974
02:16:49.360 --> 02:17:00.479
experience in the back of your neck, moving down your

975
02:17:00.600 --> 02:17:07.559
back and moving the either side of your spine right

976
02:17:07.719 --> 02:17:12.639
from the top of your back all the way down

977
02:17:13.280 --> 02:17:25.680
to the bottom of your back down to your lower back.

978
02:17:30.760 --> 02:17:37.799
And as you move up and down your spine, you

979
02:17:37.920 --> 02:17:45.040
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

980
02:17:45.719 --> 02:17:59.120
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

981
02:17:59.360 --> 02:18:10.040
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

982
02:18:10.239 --> 02:18:17.280
sides of your back, the top of your back, the

983
02:18:17.479 --> 02:18:25.840
middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

984
02:18:26.360 --> 02:18:33.719
and slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles

985
02:18:33.920 --> 02:18:39.000
in the top of your back relax and become looser.

986
02:18:43.360 --> 02:18:49.360
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

987
02:18:49.479 --> 02:18:58.959
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

988
02:19:04.719 --> 02:19:10.719
And in your lower back it seems to be an

989
02:19:10.799 --> 02:19:25.000
extra special feeling of comfort that spreads into your hips.

990
02:19:27.280 --> 02:19:35.120
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

991
02:19:35.319 --> 02:19:44.079
area where your cocksis are and into your buttocks, and

992
02:19:44.159 --> 02:19:53.360
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

993
02:19:53.440 --> 02:20:06.879
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

994
02:20:13.639 --> 02:20:20.360
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

995
02:20:20.559 --> 02:20:31.200
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

996
02:20:32.040 --> 02:20:46.920
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

997
02:20:48.719 --> 02:21:04.000
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose. They're

998
02:21:04.079 --> 02:21:30.799
already feeding, calm and feeding those muscles. Then move from

999
02:21:30.879 --> 02:21:46.399
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1000
02:21:50.520 --> 02:22:12.079
so smooth and calm, and the feeding in your shoulders

1001
02:22:19.440 --> 02:22:27.920
seens to spread deep into your shoulders, that sense of relaxation,

1002
02:22:29.159 --> 02:22:40.639
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1003
02:22:43.520 --> 02:22:53.399
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1004
02:22:56.200 --> 02:23:02.159
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1005
02:23:03.520 --> 02:23:21.280
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1006
02:23:21.520 --> 02:23:37.079
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1007
02:23:42.440 --> 02:23:54.319
into your arms? You may feel almost as if your

1008
02:23:54.680 --> 02:24:03.920
arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed, so

1009
02:24:05.520 --> 02:24:54.120
deeply relaxed, so so calm, so not feeling spreading all

1010
02:24:54.600 --> 02:24:56.959
the way down your arms.

1011
02:24:59.399 --> 02:25:00.520
To our was.

1012
02:25:04.280 --> 02:25:29.399
Including your elbows, circumforts spreads or away into your rests,

1013
02:25:32.280 --> 02:25:36.120
your forearments, and your wrists.

1014
02:25:42.280 --> 02:25:43.479
So heavy.

1015
02:25:46.760 --> 02:26:27.600
Yet at the same time so light and gentle. Fred,

1016
02:26:27.680 --> 02:26:31.559
you see now on.

1017
02:26:34.200 --> 02:27:04.200
Your hands, my hands, so.

1018
02:27:05.600 --> 02:27:33.719
Peaceful, in your hands, there's a sense of real peace.

1019
02:27:45.479 --> 02:27:58.520
It just seems to I feel so familiar when your

1020
02:27:58.760 --> 02:29:07.399
hands relaxeds deeply. Yes, the thing is a thing, is siles,

1021
02:29:36.600 --> 02:30:10.079
you think it tips. Moving your attention to the front

1022
02:30:10.239 --> 02:30:40.360
of your body, so comfortable, Moving your focus to your

1023
02:30:40.600 --> 02:32:27.120
legs like muscles in your thighs, your knees so relaxed,

1024
02:32:54.280 --> 02:35:14.440
your calved muscles, and just shins coprazyly, the fathing your feet, Sir, peaceful,

1025
02:35:16.559 --> 02:36:03.760
so calm, so peaceful, so calm, mhm mhm, so peaceful,

1026
02:36:07.440 --> 02:36:37.799
so calm, so peace fall RelA sin peace fall, so calm,

1027
02:36:45.799 --> 02:36:53.319
loving that deep relaxation to spread your chest in your stumm,

1028
02:36:57.159 --> 02:37:24.319
so relat letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start

1029
02:37:24.479 --> 02:37:36.120
counting down now, from twenty down to one. You can

1030
02:37:36.239 --> 02:37:39.639
imagine in a way it's like just walking down some

1031
02:37:39.959 --> 02:37:45.840
steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step

1032
02:37:46.079 --> 02:37:58.879
represents a level of comfort, each step represents a deepening

1033
02:38:00.879 --> 02:38:11.879
of that comfort. And the fervies you walk down those steps,

1034
02:38:12.040 --> 02:38:24.479
the deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting with

1035
02:38:24.719 --> 02:42:57.239
number twenty twenty, nineteen eight seventeen sixteen us fifteen fourteen

1036
02:43:56.680 --> 02:51:59.840
four two too well five eight nine hey seven yeah,

1037
02:52:00.079 --> 02:58:13.120
y five four two one.

1038
02:59:02.719 --> 02:59:03.399
And now.

1039
02:59:07.760 --> 02:59:20.440
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

1040
02:59:20.840 --> 02:59:32.000
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1041
02:59:35.719 --> 02:59:44.239
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1042
02:59:45.760 --> 03:00:02.760
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1043
03:00:02.879 --> 03:00:11.200
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1044
03:00:11.360 --> 03:00:24.079
in on your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed

1045
03:00:26.319 --> 03:00:39.360
with each number counting down that you may find the

1046
03:00:39.520 --> 03:00:46.000
all you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1047
03:00:49.000 --> 03:00:55.600
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1048
03:00:55.719 --> 03:01:10.360
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1049
03:01:10.479 --> 03:01:15.920
to begin counting down from ten down to one.

1050
03:01:19.920 --> 03:01:29.559
Right now, ten.

1051
03:01:55.520 --> 03:10:33.399
Nine eight seven, say five four three two one. So

1052
03:10:41.879 --> 03:10:53.200
counted down from ten to one ten nine eight seven

1053
03:10:55.280 --> 03:11:17.879
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

1054
03:11:17.959 --> 03:11:22.120
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

1055
03:11:22.120 --> 03:11:28.079
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

1056
03:11:28.319 --> 03:11:35.159
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1057
03:11:35.319 --> 03:11:38.879
like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1058
03:11:39.000 --> 03:11:42.159
expect me to do man, expect me to just to

1059
03:11:42.239 --> 03:11:51.879
go with floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1060
03:11:51.920 --> 03:11:55.639
try it again, but this time I go this lower.

1061
03:11:57.879 --> 03:12:04.680
This time, focus on the whole of your body before

1062
03:12:04.799 --> 03:12:11.760
we focus on your legs. Just notice how your body

1063
03:12:11.879 --> 03:12:26.840
does start to feel more relaxed with every number that

1064
03:12:26.959 --> 03:13:18.000
I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1065
03:13:25.399 --> 03:14:16.879
three two one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

1066
03:14:17.319 --> 03:14:31.639
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1067
03:14:31.760 --> 03:14:38.879
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1068
03:14:40.200 --> 03:14:58.680
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1069
03:15:03.399 --> 03:15:08.600
sitting or lying down and just being there, not doing anything,

1070
03:15:08.799 --> 03:15:15.399
not saying anything, not needing to think about anything. So

1071
03:15:16.079 --> 03:15:19.120
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1072
03:15:19.159 --> 03:15:30.159
a space, a gap. And the more I comed down

1073
03:15:30.200 --> 03:15:37.559
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1074
03:15:37.719 --> 03:15:50.120
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1075
03:15:50.239 --> 03:16:04.280
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1076
03:16:04.479 --> 03:16:23.479
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just slow down.

1077
03:16:27.120 --> 03:16:30.000
Someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1078
03:16:30.239 --> 03:16:40.200
notice that gap widening, the gap, and as it widens,

1079
03:16:40.280 --> 03:16:46.319
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1080
03:16:46.399 --> 03:17:04.239
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1081
03:17:06.639 --> 03:17:12.159
Now ten.

1082
03:17:16.440 --> 03:19:13.079
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one. Now,

1083
03:19:13.280 --> 03:19:17.319
how does your body feel.

1084
03:19:19.280 --> 03:19:19.440
Now?

1085
03:19:32.159 --> 03:19:47.440
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1086
03:19:47.879 --> 03:20:15.280
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1087
03:20:31.239 --> 03:20:51.399
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1088
03:20:51.520 --> 03:20:56.399
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1089
03:20:59.760 --> 03:21:02.520
I'm sure, like most of your body, there's not a

1090
03:21:02.639 --> 03:21:15.040
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1091
03:21:15.159 --> 03:21:21.559
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1092
03:21:21.719 --> 03:21:28.680
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1093
03:21:28.799 --> 03:21:33.719
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1094
03:21:33.840 --> 03:21:42.600
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1095
03:21:42.799 --> 03:21:56.840
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1096
03:21:56.879 --> 03:22:01.639
a very heavy area. It's a very strong Probably the

1097
03:22:01.760 --> 03:22:16.440
strongest muscles in your body are in your thighs. But

1098
03:22:16.479 --> 03:22:24.879
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1099
03:22:30.840 --> 03:22:41.600
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1100
03:22:41.799 --> 03:23:02.399
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1101
03:23:02.520 --> 03:23:12.280
through our lives. And it may see him to sound

1102
03:23:12.399 --> 03:23:18.040
really weird, but I think that all of our body parts,

1103
03:23:20.920 --> 03:23:29.200
especially our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shone,

1104
03:23:30.200 --> 03:23:48.399
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for our

1105
03:23:48.559 --> 03:23:57.879
thighs do for us. And I know this may sound

1106
03:23:57.959 --> 03:24:04.440
a strange. Maybe you think, why am I Surely I

1107
03:24:04.479 --> 03:24:09.639
should be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1108
03:24:13.799 --> 03:24:16.079
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1109
03:24:17.120 --> 03:24:19.319
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1110
03:24:19.399 --> 03:24:23.120
outside hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television

1111
03:24:23.159 --> 03:24:31.799
from the tree. If you move down to your knees

1112
03:24:33.680 --> 03:24:41.600
getting such an important part, and I think we don't

1113
03:24:41.719 --> 03:24:49.559
necessarily I'll speak for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate

1114
03:24:51.319 --> 03:24:56.399
all that my knees do for me until I have

1115
03:24:56.559 --> 03:25:00.200
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally if I have, yeah,

1116
03:25:01.520 --> 03:25:05.479
maybe i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

1117
03:25:07.200 --> 03:25:13.399
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1118
03:25:13.479 --> 03:25:19.440
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1119
03:25:21.200 --> 03:25:28.440
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1120
03:25:28.680 --> 03:25:37.079
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1121
03:25:41.159 --> 03:25:45.799
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1122
03:25:45.840 --> 03:25:53.360
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1123
03:25:54.879 --> 03:25:57.479
and love to your knees for all that they do

1124
03:25:57.680 --> 03:26:10.680
for you, And you can still have that attention on

1125
03:26:10.840 --> 03:26:17.000
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1126
03:26:17.319 --> 03:26:34.719
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1127
03:26:34.879 --> 03:26:40.079
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1128
03:26:40.959 --> 03:26:46.520
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees

1129
03:26:47.399 --> 03:26:55.120
and your feet incorporate, and of course your ankles so important.

1130
03:27:00.840 --> 03:27:05.600
Anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1131
03:27:05.639 --> 03:27:13.760
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1132
03:27:19.680 --> 03:27:21.639
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1133
03:27:21.760 --> 03:27:27.360
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1134
03:27:27.520 --> 03:27:32.319
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1135
03:27:32.440 --> 03:27:36.159
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1136
03:27:36.159 --> 03:27:42.200
we're just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much

1137
03:27:42.479 --> 03:27:52.120
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1138
03:27:52.200 --> 03:27:57.040
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense

1139
03:27:58.399 --> 03:28:05.760
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1140
03:28:05.840 --> 03:28:15.920
ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area, a

1141
03:28:16.159 --> 03:28:25.799
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1142
03:28:25.879 --> 03:28:35.840
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1143
03:28:38.079 --> 03:28:50.879
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1144
03:28:51.000 --> 03:28:58.639
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1145
03:28:59.040 --> 03:29:02.120
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. It didn't

1146
03:29:02.120 --> 03:29:07.440
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1147
03:29:08.239 --> 03:29:12.120
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1148
03:29:12.159 --> 03:29:16.280
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1149
03:29:16.399 --> 03:29:28.319
we use our legs and your shins there to protect

1150
03:29:30.280 --> 03:29:38.920
your lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a

1151
03:29:39.000 --> 03:29:51.280
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1152
03:29:54.680 --> 03:30:01.239
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1153
03:30:01.360 --> 03:30:03.440
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1154
03:30:05.520 --> 03:30:10.159
I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet, it

1155
03:30:10.280 --> 03:30:15.200
probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should focus

1156
03:30:15.280 --> 03:30:21.120
on your feet a little bit. You can have them

1157
03:30:21.159 --> 03:30:26.719
in your awareness the same as you have your thighs

1158
03:30:27.000 --> 03:30:31.280
in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing on

1159
03:30:31.440 --> 03:30:37.600
your thighs. A few minutes, we'll be focusing on your ankles.

1160
03:30:43.319 --> 03:30:58.520
There's still that sensation of comfort in your thighs and

1161
03:30:58.639 --> 03:31:08.079
this that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots

1162
03:31:08.079 --> 03:31:13.600
of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big

1163
03:31:14.000 --> 03:31:26.079
straw muscles that we have in our thighs. But the

1164
03:31:26.280 --> 03:31:32.239
skin on the outside of the thighs, as in the

1165
03:31:32.360 --> 03:31:37.959
outside of all of our body, can be very sensitive,

1166
03:31:41.840 --> 03:31:55.040
sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and inside your

1167
03:31:55.200 --> 03:32:02.639
thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1168
03:32:02.760 --> 03:32:08.600
the ar trees, it's all this stuff. It's inside your thighs.

1169
03:32:13.040 --> 03:32:16.399
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1170
03:32:16.440 --> 03:32:23.879
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1171
03:32:24.000 --> 03:32:27.520
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1172
03:32:27.559 --> 03:32:30.719
be able to get deep into the muscles, and to

1173
03:32:30.760 --> 03:32:35.879
be able to just massage inside your thighs, message in

1174
03:32:35.959 --> 03:32:44.559
the bones of your leg, massage in all the veins

1175
03:32:44.760 --> 03:32:55.000
and just gently heaving your thighs, and you could move

1176
03:32:55.200 --> 03:33:02.559
down message and inside your knees, just messaging those bones,

1177
03:33:03.559 --> 03:33:10.600
but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into

1178
03:33:10.719 --> 03:33:20.120
the joints of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1179
03:33:20.399 --> 03:33:25.319
of your your knee, you know, the inside crease where

1180
03:33:25.360 --> 03:33:32.799
your knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Very it

1181
03:33:32.840 --> 03:33:36.719
feels very nice when you stroke it. That might be

1182
03:33:36.879 --> 03:33:40.799
because it's an area that's not really touched very often.

1183
03:33:42.840 --> 03:33:49.719
It's almost like a hidden part, that crease in your legs.

1184
03:33:49.799 --> 03:33:57.159
It's almost like a part that has a sensitivity which

1185
03:33:57.200 --> 03:34:07.639
is a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by

1186
03:34:07.719 --> 03:34:19.159
your legs. So you can imagine putting your fingers into

1187
03:34:19.239 --> 03:34:28.920
that crease in your legs, that fold in between your legs.

1188
03:34:29.639 --> 03:34:34.239
You can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips

1189
03:34:34.360 --> 03:34:44.840
going inside, massage in the muscle tissue. You can of

1190
03:34:44.959 --> 03:34:52.079
course feel the bones of your knees heading through your fingertips.

1191
03:34:59.440 --> 03:35:04.760
And then if you go down to your calf muscles,

1192
03:35:05.159 --> 03:35:06.879
now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1193
03:35:07.719 --> 03:35:15.040
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1194
03:35:15.159 --> 03:35:24.239
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1195
03:35:30.200 --> 03:35:36.280
and then doing the same for my shins, Massage in

1196
03:35:36.440 --> 03:35:44.000
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1197
03:35:44.079 --> 03:35:51.280
a loving way. Because they deserve to be treated as

1198
03:35:51.360 --> 03:35:55.360
the precious bones that they are, because our legs are

1199
03:35:55.440 --> 03:35:59.200
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1200
03:36:01.719 --> 03:36:15.600
the more precious of any chul on the planet. When

1201
03:36:15.639 --> 03:36:23.440
you start to think about your legs in this way,

1202
03:36:28.040 --> 03:36:34.680
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1203
03:36:37.760 --> 03:36:42.040
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1204
03:36:42.920 --> 03:36:52.959
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1205
03:36:53.040 --> 03:36:56.959
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1206
03:36:58.920 --> 03:37:05.399
and massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1207
03:37:05.440 --> 03:37:13.719
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

1208
03:37:13.879 --> 03:37:23.319
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1209
03:37:23.399 --> 03:37:29.079
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1210
03:37:31.479 --> 03:37:41.639
your knees, your calves, your ankles. The strength of your ankles,

1211
03:37:44.600 --> 03:37:49.280
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1212
03:37:49.360 --> 03:37:59.120
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible,

1213
03:38:02.920 --> 03:38:15.760
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

1214
03:38:15.799 --> 03:38:24.520
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1215
03:38:26.520 --> 03:38:30.920
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1216
03:38:31.079 --> 03:38:36.079
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1217
03:38:36.200 --> 03:38:42.920
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than eight

1218
03:38:43.000 --> 03:38:53.639
stone double down. Yet my ankles support my body all

1219
03:38:53.719 --> 03:39:00.159
the time, although they do give off a SIGHTE have

1220
03:39:00.280 --> 03:39:05.959
relief when I sit down. That's my whole legs do.

1221
03:39:09.639 --> 03:39:16.479
My feet. Feet also go and my toes clap. They're

1222
03:39:16.520 --> 03:39:44.959
so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I know

1223
03:39:45.399 --> 03:39:51.799
that talking about talking about your legs is probably possibly

1224
03:39:52.040 --> 03:39:56.719
among the most most boring things you've ever heard anyone say.

1225
03:39:57.639 --> 03:40:05.120
Possibly they're boring or not. Everything I said is true.

1226
03:40:07.559 --> 03:40:22.440
Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect,

1227
03:40:28.239 --> 03:40:40.600
they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to take some

1228
03:40:40.799 --> 03:40:46.799
time out of the day to just let go completely.

1229
03:41:04.760 --> 03:41:22.559
The legs really can relax. And because the legs are

1230
03:41:22.760 --> 03:41:28.000
so such a most you know, very important part of

1231
03:41:28.159 --> 03:41:31.920
your body. When you relax your legs, the rest of

1232
03:41:32.040 --> 03:41:43.559
your body also naturally follows in that journey of comfort.

1233
03:41:51.719 --> 03:41:55.520
I can feel it in my hips. My hips feel

1234
03:41:56.200 --> 03:42:04.200
really loose, and also my lwer back as well. My

1235
03:42:04.360 --> 03:42:10.079
lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though I'm

1236
03:42:10.200 --> 03:42:16.399
just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching as

1237
03:42:16.440 --> 03:42:19.440
far as I'm aware that I'm doing. But it's almost

1238
03:42:19.479 --> 03:42:23.280
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1239
03:42:23.399 --> 03:42:30.440
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1240
03:42:31.879 --> 03:42:50.479
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

1241
03:42:51.120 --> 03:43:00.159
ten down to one, and you can continue to ye

1242
03:43:01.959 --> 03:43:34.440
wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three

1243
03:43:38.559 --> 03:43:59.280
two one relax. So I'm just going to count down

1244
03:44:00.840 --> 03:44:05.520
the fire down to one. And as a countdown, if

1245
03:44:05.559 --> 03:44:12.600
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1246
03:44:13.680 --> 03:44:22.799
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1247
03:44:22.959 --> 03:44:30.479
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1248
03:44:30.559 --> 03:44:40.719
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1249
03:44:40.879 --> 03:44:49.239
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1250
03:44:50.120 --> 03:44:56.040
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1251
03:44:56.159 --> 03:45:39.200
to think about. Starting with number five four three two one.

1252
03:45:48.840 --> 03:46:01.360
As you notice the gradual letting go the tension in

1253
03:46:01.479 --> 03:46:08.639
your body, you may also begin to notice and be

1254
03:46:08.799 --> 03:46:17.600
aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1255
03:46:20.120 --> 03:46:26.440
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1256
03:46:26.680 --> 03:46:31.840
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1257
03:46:33.159 --> 03:46:39.120
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

1258
03:46:39.239 --> 03:46:42.879
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1259
03:46:43.040 --> 03:46:53.200
just a continuous circle of relaxation, and there is that

1260
03:46:54.479 --> 03:47:02.360
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1261
03:47:02.399 --> 03:47:09.360
if there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still

1262
03:47:09.879 --> 03:47:15.120
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1263
03:47:15.200 --> 03:47:20.360
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1264
03:47:20.360 --> 03:47:27.799
you're listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're

1265
03:47:27.959 --> 03:47:30.079
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1266
03:47:30.159 --> 03:47:34.719
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1267
03:47:34.920 --> 03:47:38.000
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1268
03:47:39.719 --> 03:47:49.760
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1269
03:47:56.360 --> 03:48:06.639
relaxation automatic rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1270
03:48:11.159 --> 03:48:17.840
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1271
03:48:18.239 --> 03:48:29.959
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1272
03:48:30.120 --> 03:48:40.280
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1273
03:48:40.440 --> 03:48:47.280
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1274
03:48:47.440 --> 03:48:51.319
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1275
03:48:51.440 --> 03:49:03.040
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1276
03:49:03.479 --> 03:49:13.559
the process of this recording and others is simply to

1277
03:49:15.280 --> 03:49:25.639
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1278
03:49:28.680 --> 03:49:39.559
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1279
03:49:40.200 --> 03:49:53.600
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1280
03:49:55.879 --> 03:50:07.319
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1281
03:50:08.479 --> 03:50:13.639
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1282
03:50:15.440 --> 03:50:30.479
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1283
03:50:31.719 --> 03:50:36.159
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1284
03:50:36.239 --> 03:50:43.040
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1285
03:50:44.360 --> 03:51:06.760
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1286
03:51:06.879 --> 03:51:13.879
can also, if you choose, stay focused on my voice

1287
03:51:15.680 --> 03:51:42.479
and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle

1288
03:51:47.079 --> 03:52:13.959
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1289
03:52:14.200 --> 03:52:29.840
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1290
03:52:30.040 --> 03:52:40.239
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

1291
03:52:42.879 --> 03:52:50.600
calming down more with each number that you hear me

1292
03:52:50.879 --> 03:55:10.360
say naturally, feeling can't arm and slow and peaceful six, five, four, three, two.

1293
03:55:38.600 --> 03:55:38.840
One.

1294
03:56:00.079 --> 03:56:09.600
Being aware of how your mind has slowed right down,

1295
03:56:12.840 --> 03:56:36.239
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1296
03:56:36.520 --> 03:56:46.479
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1297
03:56:49.079 --> 03:56:58.600
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1298
03:56:58.680 --> 03:57:13.879
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

1299
03:57:14.120 --> 03:57:27.760
to those thoughts, sprinkle those thoughts with love, like all

1300
03:57:27.920 --> 03:57:33.520
petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals

1301
03:57:33.600 --> 03:57:40.799
filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1302
03:57:41.040 --> 03:57:47.840
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1303
03:57:49.079 --> 03:58:00.120
You require them to just calm down. Slow down that

1304
03:58:00.520 --> 03:58:16.479
down for now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts.

1305
03:58:17.719 --> 03:58:21.799
As we count down this time from seven down to one.

1306
03:58:23.319 --> 03:58:37.440
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1307
03:58:39.040 --> 03:58:50.879
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1308
03:58:52.280 --> 03:59:08.079
melt away and relax deeply renumber. The thoughts would become

1309
03:59:08.319 --> 04:00:16.079
more and more relaxed starting with number seven, six, five, four,

1310
04:00:42.040 --> 04:01:59.399
three two one. The need thing. Now, notice how relaxed

1311
04:02:03.200 --> 04:02:22.280
your feeling in your body. We're going to focus on

1312
04:02:22.479 --> 04:02:34.280
your hands, because the more relaxed your hands are, the

1313
04:02:34.479 --> 04:02:38.120
more relaxed your body and mind are.

1314
04:02:53.040 --> 04:02:53.360
And this.

1315
04:02:55.159 --> 04:03:05.360
You focus on your hands and your fingers. There's nothing

1316
04:03:05.879 --> 04:03:10.600
needed to be done. There's no clenching of fists or

1317
04:03:11.680 --> 04:03:21.959
dents in the fingers or anything like that. It's just

1318
04:03:22.440 --> 04:03:36.479
noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how they feel,

1319
04:03:51.120 --> 04:04:02.959
because the more relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind. Feels,

1320
04:04:04.840 --> 04:04:19.719
and the more comfort you feel throughout your body, you

1321
04:04:22.440 --> 04:04:53.719
may have already noticed your mind is starting to dress,

1322
04:05:07.479 --> 04:05:22.920
fixing just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

1323
04:05:25.399 --> 04:05:36.879
experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1324
04:05:37.000 --> 04:06:03.040
and fingers, more and more relaxed. With each number from

1325
04:06:03.239 --> 04:06:16.600
eight down to one. You can almost feel that healing

1326
04:06:18.040 --> 04:06:29.920
and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming

1327
04:06:34.399 --> 04:06:51.239
year more relaxing with each number you hear, going down

1328
04:06:52.799 --> 04:07:11.520
from eight down to one, drifting, drifting again, starting with

1329
04:07:16.120 --> 04:11:11.799
number eight, seven, six, five, four, three foo. Just being

1330
04:11:12.159 --> 04:11:22.479
here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing

1331
04:11:22.600 --> 04:11:36.399
to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this is

1332
04:11:37.520 --> 04:11:44.280
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1333
04:11:45.399 --> 04:11:51.920
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

1334
04:11:54.319 --> 04:11:59.200
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

1335
04:11:59.399 --> 04:12:14.879
and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1336
04:12:16.879 --> 04:12:20.200
When you take that away, which is what we do,

1337
04:12:20.959 --> 04:12:32.840
what we do now, you're left with a real sense

1338
04:12:33.479 --> 04:12:46.000
of peacefulness, which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately

1339
04:12:46.639 --> 04:13:00.319
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. All most

1340
04:13:00.479 --> 04:13:04.000
is if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a

1341
04:13:04.200 --> 04:13:18.120
special place where everything is peaceful, a place where you

1342
04:13:18.319 --> 04:13:28.840
can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a

1343
04:13:28.959 --> 04:13:37.479
place where you can be you, where you can accept

1344
04:13:37.559 --> 04:13:43.639
yourself for who you are, a place where you're not

1345
04:13:43.840 --> 04:13:54.239
trying to please anybody else ever, a place where you

1346
04:13:54.440 --> 04:14:04.000
can actually not just love yourself, but in some ways

1347
04:14:04.079 --> 04:14:13.200
more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1348
04:14:22.079 --> 04:14:28.680
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1349
04:14:36.319 --> 04:14:44.159
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1350
04:14:44.520 --> 04:14:59.719
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1351
04:14:59.799 --> 04:15:09.879
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1352
04:15:13.639 --> 04:15:20.520
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1353
04:15:26.440 --> 04:15:31.040
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy

1354
04:15:33.520 --> 04:15:39.920
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1355
04:15:40.440 --> 04:15:51.719
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1356
04:15:51.840 --> 04:16:02.959
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1357
04:16:03.200 --> 04:16:15.079
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1358
04:16:18.040 --> 04:16:25.520
you start to realize to actually, what's happening now with

1359
04:16:25.680 --> 04:16:35.319
that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body is actually

1360
04:16:35.760 --> 04:16:45.959
changing your life. It's actually changing the way you're going

1361
04:16:46.079 --> 04:16:52.840
to feel, not just now, but tomorrow and the next day.

1362
04:16:54.760 --> 04:17:02.239
As your health improves, not just your physical health but

1363
04:17:02.360 --> 04:17:09.799
your mental health, things that used to bother you in

1364
04:17:09.920 --> 04:17:17.479
the past, for some reason, no longer have the effect

1365
04:17:18.000 --> 04:17:26.920
that they used to because something has changed deep within you.

1366
04:17:32.000 --> 04:17:38.399
Maybe things that used to cause you to feel anger

1367
04:17:42.239 --> 04:17:52.319
no longer have that power to control you the way

1368
04:17:52.399 --> 04:17:59.959
they seem to be able to before. As you really

1369
04:18:00.159 --> 04:18:09.959
lies that you're the one who decides what affects you.

1370
04:18:13.639 --> 04:18:22.479
You're the one who decides to feel relaxed and calm

1371
04:18:24.040 --> 04:18:39.399
when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural developments of

1372
04:18:39.719 --> 04:18:51.280
healing continuing to grow and improve your life day by day,

1373
04:18:57.159 --> 04:19:05.399
including of course your ability to relax so much easier

1374
04:19:10.360 --> 04:19:19.959
and sleeping. It's the most natural thing in the world

1375
04:19:21.399 --> 04:19:29.719
to you, because falling asleep is something that you've done

1376
04:19:32.760 --> 04:19:40.440
so many times in your life, and you know that

1377
04:19:40.639 --> 04:19:45.879
you were born, as we all were, with the ability

1378
04:19:47.520 --> 04:19:57.799
to fall asleep naturally. We were born with that ability

1379
04:20:00.760 --> 04:20:15.000
the just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even

1380
04:20:15.079 --> 04:20:19.840
when we're kids. Sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't

1381
04:20:19.879 --> 04:20:25.840
even want to try to take you stay awake. Maybe

1382
04:20:25.920 --> 04:20:29.280
it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or

1383
04:20:30.120 --> 04:20:33.200
holiday or something we look forward to. We don't want

1384
04:20:33.239 --> 04:20:37.760
to go to sleep, But the more we want to

1385
04:20:37.799 --> 04:20:47.079
stay awake, the more we just start to drift. And

1386
04:20:47.200 --> 04:20:51.120
the more you fight drifting, the more you try and

1387
04:20:51.239 --> 04:20:56.239
stop yourself and drift in a safe the deeper and

1388
04:20:56.440 --> 04:21:08.040
stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

1389
04:21:08.239 --> 04:21:14.680
the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

1390
04:21:17.920 --> 04:21:31.239
but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And

1391
04:21:31.479 --> 04:21:36.959
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

1392
04:21:37.840 --> 04:21:50.840
we have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a

1393
04:21:51.120 --> 04:22:15.319
wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very, very

1394
04:22:15.840 --> 04:22:21.319
easy to let go, because that's all it is.

1395
04:22:21.520 --> 04:22:22.000
It's just.

1396
04:22:25.520 --> 04:22:36.920
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1397
04:22:37.040 --> 04:22:47.280
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1398
04:22:47.559 --> 04:22:55.639
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1399
04:22:56.639 --> 04:23:05.079
you have given me permission for my words to affect

1400
04:23:07.559 --> 04:23:19.399
you in a positive, only a positive way. Opening up

1401
04:23:24.639 --> 04:23:42.879
your mind two useful and healing suggestions that can have

1402
04:23:47.399 --> 04:23:54.840
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now

1403
04:23:59.559 --> 04:24:09.440
as now as those changes that continue long after the

1404
04:24:09.559 --> 04:24:20.200
recording ends, those changes within you to continue to flourish

1405
04:24:21.079 --> 04:24:35.639
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1406
04:24:38.760 --> 04:24:45.799
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1407
04:24:45.920 --> 04:25:03.920
direction that you choose for yourself. And this, this feeling

1408
04:25:04.200 --> 04:25:19.719
that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just feels

1409
04:25:19.840 --> 04:25:40.879
so nice. It's such a healthy place to be, and

1410
04:25:41.120 --> 04:25:58.879
that positivity grows within you each and every day. Moving forward,

1411
04:26:02.680 --> 04:26:13.639
you're going to find that you're more relaxed physically and

1412
04:26:13.879 --> 04:26:22.520
in your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that

1413
04:26:22.639 --> 04:26:28.200
you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind will be

1414
04:26:28.440 --> 04:26:40.239
less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

1415
04:26:40.920 --> 04:26:50.559
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1416
04:26:50.719 --> 04:27:07.600
start noticing when negativity arises and you can just say stop, stop,

1417
04:27:10.440 --> 04:27:17.200
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1418
04:27:25.200 --> 04:27:44.520
Stop and that negativity will disappear. And as you notice

1419
04:27:44.840 --> 04:27:53.159
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected,

1420
04:27:59.280 --> 04:28:08.840
you can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1421
04:28:09.000 --> 04:28:15.120
has done this. You are the one that has opened

1422
04:28:15.360 --> 04:28:23.040
your mind up to the simple facts that you can

1423
04:28:23.479 --> 04:28:28.079
feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1424
04:28:34.319 --> 04:28:40.200
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

1425
04:28:40.280 --> 04:28:57.120
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose, And

1426
04:28:57.239 --> 04:29:04.200
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

1427
04:29:04.319 --> 04:29:13.680
Doesn't it? To feel calm? All that healing energy is

1428
04:29:13.799 --> 04:29:24.680
spreading through your body and your mind to spend time

1429
04:29:24.920 --> 04:29:35.680
in a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1430
04:29:42.159 --> 04:29:51.360
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed entry. Doesn't

1431
04:29:51.639 --> 04:29:55.079
it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't

1432
04:29:55.280 --> 04:30:13.959
belong here. Nativity has no place in your life, which

1433
04:30:14.120 --> 04:30:28.879
makes room feel more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace.

1434
04:30:45.760 --> 04:30:57.600
It feels nice, doesn't it? Just let go with everything.

1435
04:31:11.280 --> 04:31:15.639
I'm going to count down now from twenty down to one.

1436
04:31:19.079 --> 04:31:25.559
You can continue to relax. If you choose, you can

1437
04:31:28.760 --> 04:31:39.200
drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

1438
04:31:43.559 --> 04:31:50.879
you can fell twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

1439
04:31:51.040 --> 04:32:58.879
you can feel twice a sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

1440
04:33:07.959 --> 04:34:15.479
thirteen toelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1441
04:34:22.080 --> 04:34:22.360
Four.

1442
04:34:55.759 --> 04:35:09.799
This is your time take a break, your time to relax,

1443
04:35:13.959 --> 04:35:26.319
to allow your mind to slow down, to give yourself

1444
04:35:26.479 --> 04:35:44.439
permission to take a break from everything, and you You're

1445
04:35:44.479 --> 04:35:51.520
the only person that can make that decision. You're the

1446
04:35:51.599 --> 04:35:59.919
only person that can actually tell your mind to just relax,

1447
04:36:08.200 --> 04:36:23.799
to just take some time off so that you can

1448
04:36:24.560 --> 04:36:30.000
focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

1449
04:36:30.159 --> 04:36:47.040
feel physically, and in the process of this body scan,

1450
04:36:47.439 --> 04:36:57.880
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1451
04:36:58.240 --> 04:37:05.360
parts that you focus on and observe, even though you're

1452
04:37:05.439 --> 04:37:14.279
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

1453
04:37:16.520 --> 04:37:22.880
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

1454
04:37:23.040 --> 04:37:35.720
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1455
04:37:35.759 --> 04:37:46.000
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

1456
04:37:50.959 --> 04:38:01.840
and as my words guide you to focus on those

1457
04:38:02.080 --> 04:38:20.200
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

1458
04:38:20.360 --> 04:38:40.439
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

1459
04:38:48.000 --> 04:39:09.919
And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

1460
04:39:10.240 --> 04:39:18.080
even though we've not really started the focus on your body,

1461
04:39:21.080 --> 04:39:32.119
you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

1462
04:39:37.000 --> 04:39:51.319
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

1463
04:39:51.439 --> 04:40:01.159
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

1464
04:40:01.240 --> 04:40:05.799
of your organs inside your body, all of the muscles,

1465
04:40:07.159 --> 04:40:14.279
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

1466
04:40:14.439 --> 04:40:27.840
your body is filled with that healing energy, and when

1467
04:40:27.919 --> 04:40:44.200
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

1468
04:40:44.400 --> 04:41:08.520
comfort and relaxation increases, deeper, increases in a way to

1469
04:41:12.040 --> 04:41:28.520
your mind starts to feel perhaps a bit drowsy because

1470
04:41:28.599 --> 04:41:47.680
it's not needed, and it may start to drift if

1471
04:41:47.799 --> 04:41:56.319
that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this and

1472
04:41:56.479 --> 04:42:00.479
what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

1473
04:42:02.680 --> 04:42:04.200
If what you need is.

1474
04:42:05.880 --> 04:42:12.840
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

1475
04:42:15.360 --> 04:42:29.119
that's also what will happen. Because by pressing that play

1476
04:42:29.240 --> 04:42:34.639
button on the podcast and listening to me, you give

1477
04:42:34.919 --> 04:42:47.639
permission for your body and your mind. In fact, you

1478
04:42:47.799 --> 04:42:52.279
give the command to your body and your mind to

1479
04:42:52.439 --> 04:43:05.119
relax deeply and to drift off to sleep, if that's

1480
04:43:05.479 --> 04:43:21.599
what you want or need. And as I focus on

1481
04:43:21.799 --> 04:43:32.040
the different parts of your body, you may start to

1482
04:43:32.439 --> 04:43:40.200
just drift. And then you come back again and you

1483
04:43:40.360 --> 04:43:45.000
hear me talking and I'm focusing on a different part

1484
04:43:45.200 --> 04:43:59.400
of your body, you may find yourself drifting. You don't

1485
04:43:59.520 --> 04:44:06.759
realize as you're drifting until you stop drifting and you're

1486
04:44:06.799 --> 04:44:14.119
alert again to my voice focusing on a different part

1487
04:44:14.240 --> 04:44:23.599
of your body starts to relax even deeper, because that

1488
04:44:23.840 --> 04:44:38.080
drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone. And

1489
04:44:38.080 --> 04:44:43.200
the more you drift, the longer you drift, and the

1490
04:44:43.360 --> 04:44:58.680
longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep, and

1491
04:44:58.840 --> 04:45:08.040
that's the last you remember until you wake up in

1492
04:45:08.159 --> 04:45:13.279
your own time, when you experience the right amount of

1493
04:45:13.439 --> 04:45:22.200
sleep for you, because when you do and if you

1494
04:45:22.319 --> 04:45:36.400
do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep,

1495
04:45:37.919 --> 04:45:55.919
healing sleep. I'm going to feel so nice to relax

1496
04:45:56.159 --> 04:46:04.880
into your own body and mind. Muh as you as

1497
04:46:04.959 --> 04:46:12.639
you feel that heathing energy is spreading through it, relaxing

1498
04:46:12.759 --> 04:46:33.919
news so deeply, relaxing news, so so deeply. As we

1499
04:46:34.360 --> 04:47:00.479
start to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw, down, neck,

1500
04:47:07.959 --> 04:47:56.240
your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, your chest, your stomach, your back,

1501
04:48:02.759 --> 04:48:39.919
your spine, your hips, your legs, your feet, your chas

1502
04:48:57.400 --> 04:49:10.759
and the feedings spreading and growing inside your body, feeling

1503
04:49:10.959 --> 04:49:22.520
you up. Now let's focus again on parts of your body,

1504
04:49:27.279 --> 04:49:37.119
focusing this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth,

1505
04:49:38.360 --> 04:49:58.479
your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focus

1506
04:49:58.599 --> 04:50:09.880
in on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers

1507
04:50:09.919 --> 04:50:15.040
a little bit, so you can focus on each one individually,

1508
04:50:21.279 --> 04:50:28.479
both hands, and even though as you focus on both

1509
04:50:28.520 --> 04:50:33.959
of your hands now they almost seem to just melt

1510
04:50:34.080 --> 04:50:42.040
into one, where there is your right hand start and

1511
04:50:42.159 --> 04:50:58.200
your left hand end, almost as if just mixed together. Now,

1512
04:50:58.400 --> 04:51:26.279
focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees feel. Now,

1513
04:51:26.520 --> 04:51:33.720
focusing on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows,

1514
04:51:40.000 --> 04:52:15.520
just observing the feeling of your elbows. Now, focusing absurding

1515
04:52:17.360 --> 04:52:32.720
the back of your neck, feeling that energy on the

1516
04:52:32.840 --> 04:53:22.840
back of your neck, obsurving your ankles, being aware of

1517
04:53:23.080 --> 04:54:38.080
physical sensations in your ankles, noticin now your toes, on

1518
04:54:38.319 --> 04:54:55.520
both of your feet, being aware how you to feel

1519
04:54:58.759 --> 04:56:04.599
right now, notice thin high entire body fails, noticing your

1520
04:56:04.959 --> 04:56:56.759
mind feels now, letting go, letting go, letting go everything,

1521
04:57:05.040 --> 04:57:46.720
letting go, letting go, letting go everything everything. I'm going

1522
04:57:46.759 --> 04:57:50.479
to start now, and I would like you just first

1523
04:57:50.520 --> 04:57:56.040
of all, just to see yourself lying down on that

1524
04:57:56.200 --> 04:58:02.159
message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

1525
04:58:02.599 --> 04:58:11.319
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable, and breathing

1526
04:58:11.520 --> 04:58:20.919
is really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

1527
04:58:21.040 --> 04:58:23.240
how you look as well, so there's none of that

1528
04:58:23.400 --> 04:58:30.159
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

1529
04:58:31.319 --> 04:58:37.720
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

1530
04:58:37.840 --> 04:58:48.080
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

1531
04:58:48.479 --> 04:58:56.599
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

1532
04:58:56.720 --> 04:59:02.720
of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and

1533
04:59:02.919 --> 04:59:11.040
allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you by

1534
04:59:11.080 --> 04:59:19.599
a message your body. So I want to start off

1535
04:59:19.799 --> 04:59:24.680
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

1536
04:59:26.159 --> 04:59:29.840
just gently, just so you can feel what my hands

1537
04:59:31.240 --> 04:59:38.279
feel like really on you. So you can maybe feel

1538
04:59:38.279 --> 04:59:40.599
the warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

1539
04:59:44.000 --> 04:59:46.159
And with my hands to the side of your head,

1540
04:59:47.159 --> 04:59:53.720
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

1541
04:59:53.799 --> 04:59:57.479
your ears, and a little bit on your face, just

1542
04:59:57.599 --> 05:00:03.000
so you can feel my hands so you can become

1543
05:00:03.040 --> 05:00:16.080
accustomed to them. And now put my hands on the

1544
05:00:16.119 --> 05:00:20.840
back of your head again and gently let them slide

1545
05:00:20.919 --> 05:00:33.119
down onto the back of your neck. You can feel

1546
05:00:33.200 --> 05:00:42.959
my hands gently stroke in the back of your neck

1547
05:00:43.159 --> 05:00:49.599
to start with, just so you can get used to

1548
05:00:49.759 --> 05:00:54.479
the the feeling with my hands on your skin, get

1549
05:00:54.479 --> 05:01:02.880
accustomed to realize that you're safe and it's all good.

1550
05:01:03.200 --> 05:01:12.759
It's all fine, and I'm going to start gently massaging

1551
05:01:13.520 --> 05:01:30.360
the muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

1552
05:01:30.439 --> 05:01:36.720
this is a very trusting situation really, because our necks

1553
05:01:36.759 --> 05:01:41.080
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

1554
05:01:41.759 --> 05:01:46.759
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

1555
05:01:46.880 --> 05:01:52.439
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

1556
05:01:52.479 --> 05:02:01.040
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

1557
05:02:01.279 --> 05:02:18.159
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

1558
05:02:18.279 --> 05:02:27.000
massage the sides of your neck gently moving from the

1559
05:02:27.080 --> 05:02:30.919
bottom of your neck, it would be sort of near

1560
05:02:30.959 --> 05:02:34.240
where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

1561
05:02:36.319 --> 05:02:41.799
to your jaw, your ears, kind of area that side

1562
05:02:41.799 --> 05:02:46.840
of your neck. Of course it's a lot longer than

1563
05:02:47.200 --> 05:03:03.200
the front of your neck. Then message in the back

1564
05:03:03.279 --> 05:03:11.919
of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we hold tension,

1565
05:03:16.159 --> 05:03:20.680
and there's that area's message. You can actually feel a

1566
05:03:20.840 --> 05:03:28.799
sense of release in the back of your neck, and

1567
05:03:28.959 --> 05:03:34.240
maybe you can breathe it out as well. Notice how

1568
05:03:34.319 --> 05:03:47.279
it feels. Notice how you feel. And then moving down

1569
05:03:47.520 --> 05:03:52.159
to that area between your neck and your shoulders, that

1570
05:03:52.439 --> 05:04:01.040
muscle area, starting to message that are on both sides.

1571
05:04:03.240 --> 05:04:05.479
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

1572
05:04:05.479 --> 05:04:07.639
of people would message if they were going to give

1573
05:04:07.720 --> 05:04:14.159
you like a shoulder message, even that's not technically the shoulders,

1574
05:04:14.680 --> 05:04:17.159
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

1575
05:04:19.000 --> 05:04:25.560
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

1576
05:04:26.799 --> 05:04:31.799
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful

1577
05:04:34.919 --> 05:04:50.319
and you decide how deep that message is and just

1578
05:04:50.520 --> 05:04:57.439
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

1579
05:04:57.560 --> 05:05:07.599
those muscles and to really relaxed, all the time being

1580
05:05:07.840 --> 05:05:25.360
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

1581
05:05:25.560 --> 05:05:34.119
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

1582
05:05:34.159 --> 05:05:45.319
your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

1583
05:05:45.319 --> 05:05:48.680
a little bit of the table just to give you

1584
05:05:48.759 --> 05:05:59.159
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently, and

1585
05:05:59.279 --> 05:06:01.799
you've got the muscle those at the front of your shoulders,

1586
05:06:02.560 --> 05:06:13.520
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

1587
05:06:13.680 --> 05:06:19.080
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

1588
05:06:19.080 --> 05:06:27.159
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

1589
05:06:29.000 --> 05:06:34.479
release the tension to really get into those muscles and

1590
05:06:37.919 --> 05:06:41.240
you can let your fingers in there. They can feel

1591
05:06:41.439 --> 05:06:49.520
really nice. Sometimes just being stroked gently or being messaged

1592
05:06:50.959 --> 05:06:59.639
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the relaxation

1593
05:07:04.759 --> 05:07:17.799
put the muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down

1594
05:07:17.880 --> 05:07:28.319
your arms. We do one arm at a time, starting

1595
05:07:28.439 --> 05:07:37.240
with your right arm. Well, I dear is, I just

1596
05:07:38.599 --> 05:07:41.799
lift your arm up, just hold it to the side

1597
05:07:41.840 --> 05:07:48.880
of you that way it still be attached, and I

1598
05:07:49.080 --> 05:08:03.639
just message the tops of your arms all the way

1599
05:08:03.759 --> 05:08:28.720
down to your forearms, into your wrists, gently massaging that parts,

1600
05:08:31.240 --> 05:08:34.919
the softer part which is the underpart of the arm,

1601
05:08:38.000 --> 05:08:41.720
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside

1602
05:08:43.159 --> 05:08:57.479
it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

1603
05:09:00.599 --> 05:09:16.279
can feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

1604
05:09:17.680 --> 05:09:30.040
to your right hand, just holding your hand in both

1605
05:09:30.119 --> 05:09:39.720
of my hands, just pressing gently on the back of

1606
05:09:39.799 --> 05:09:50.680
your hand and stretching your fingers ever so lightly, at

1607
05:09:50.720 --> 05:10:05.520
the same time pressing down and messaging each finger, and

1608
05:10:05.639 --> 05:10:16.279
then starting to massage the palms of the hand. Just

1609
05:10:16.520 --> 05:10:27.639
turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually having

1610
05:10:27.720 --> 05:10:34.919
your hand held can really be an emotional experience sometimes

1611
05:10:35.919 --> 05:10:40.560
even if it is a stranger. So when you don't

1612
05:10:40.680 --> 05:10:45.880
know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

1613
05:10:46.040 --> 05:11:01.000
maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice, you

1614
05:11:01.080 --> 05:11:11.680
can feel safe and as I put that right arm

1615
05:11:11.880 --> 05:11:20.040
back down where it was. We did the same with

1616
05:11:20.200 --> 05:11:32.240
your left arm, exactly the same. Massage in the muscles

1617
05:11:33.439 --> 05:11:37.200
in your arm all the way down. Do you rest,

1618
05:11:41.360 --> 05:11:51.159
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

1619
05:11:51.240 --> 05:12:05.200
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

1620
05:12:11.720 --> 05:12:21.759
stretching the fingers, gently massaging the palm of your left hand.

1621
05:12:33.840 --> 05:13:02.479
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and just rest

1622
05:13:02.639 --> 05:13:15.080
your left down, back down. Start to massage your back,

1623
05:13:16.799 --> 05:13:24.799
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

1624
05:13:28.040 --> 05:13:32.000
starting again where we already have been, the area at

1625
05:13:32.040 --> 05:13:38.479
the top in between his shoulders, near your neck. Going

1626
05:13:38.599 --> 05:13:43.279
back a message in that area again, but this time

1627
05:13:43.639 --> 05:13:56.639
moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to the middle of

1628
05:13:56.720 --> 05:14:04.080
your back, working and from the outside inwards. It's a

1629
05:14:04.240 --> 05:14:12.439
massage in the your back, but the outsides of your back.

1630
05:14:16.360 --> 05:14:17.439
The parts.

1631
05:14:19.680 --> 05:14:32.520
Where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the part

1632
05:14:32.639 --> 05:14:46.040
that connects your front to your back. Just messaging down

1633
05:14:48.240 --> 05:14:57.520
firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down

1634
05:14:57.720 --> 05:15:01.319
and moving across it's a little bed, and moving all

1635
05:15:01.360 --> 05:15:07.200
the way down again being very gentle. You have ferm

1636
05:15:07.439 --> 05:15:19.040
as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine we

1637
05:15:19.200 --> 05:15:23.240
can message the muscles and either side of your spine

1638
05:15:24.119 --> 05:15:27.119
from the top of your neck all the way down

1639
05:15:29.959 --> 05:15:38.880
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

1640
05:15:41.959 --> 05:15:49.319
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, two

1641
05:15:49.479 --> 05:15:55.279
fingers and just go your side of the spine almost

1642
05:15:55.720 --> 05:15:58.759
just push down, go all the way down to the

1643
05:15:58.799 --> 05:16:07.439
bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening

1644
05:16:07.560 --> 05:16:16.560
up the body, stretching your body so that you feel

1645
05:16:17.360 --> 05:16:34.799
more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now

1646
05:16:34.840 --> 05:16:38.680
I'm going to move to one side, to your right side,

1647
05:16:43.520 --> 05:16:48.080
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis,

1648
05:16:49.159 --> 05:16:55.360
I'm going to massage that area of your back. I'll

1649
05:16:55.479 --> 05:16:58.520
stretch over the other side and I will pull the

1650
05:16:58.639 --> 05:17:06.000
muscles and massage and push from one end that side

1651
05:17:06.119 --> 05:17:10.439
or way to my side to the middle of fact

1652
05:17:11.240 --> 05:17:16.040
to where your spine is massaging that side of your

1653
05:17:16.080 --> 05:17:23.159
spine the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost

1654
05:17:23.319 --> 05:17:30.560
like kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm

1655
05:17:31.360 --> 05:17:40.799
yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the most

1656
05:17:40.880 --> 05:17:48.040
important places to actually have a message, because you really

1657
05:17:48.279 --> 05:17:53.720
feel it. You really feel the release and the pleasure

1658
05:17:55.040 --> 05:18:02.279
of having your lower back massaged. It releases so much

1659
05:18:02.799 --> 05:18:11.200
from your body that's not useful, starting a healing process

1660
05:18:12.840 --> 05:18:25.599
which will continue long after this recording is over. The

1661
05:18:25.799 --> 05:18:28.880
message in this part of your body not only feels

1662
05:18:29.040 --> 05:18:35.080
really good for you, it's actually fun to do because

1663
05:18:35.119 --> 05:18:40.520
it is, as I said, like kneading bread it's a

1664
05:18:40.639 --> 05:18:44.799
part that you can really get hold of and really

1665
05:18:45.000 --> 05:18:58.240
message deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going to

1666
05:18:58.360 --> 05:19:00.919
move over to the other side of your body do

1667
05:19:01.119 --> 05:19:10.000
the same with the opposite part of your lower back,

1668
05:19:12.599 --> 05:19:21.279
kneading and messaging from your sides all the way to

1669
05:19:21.400 --> 05:19:28.840
the middle of your back where your spine is pressing

1670
05:19:29.240 --> 05:19:39.680
and kneading firm and gentle at the same time. It

1671
05:19:39.919 --> 05:19:52.119
feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1672
05:19:52.479 --> 05:20:04.119
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1673
05:20:04.200 --> 05:20:09.360
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1674
05:20:09.439 --> 05:20:13.720
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

1675
05:20:13.880 --> 05:20:25.279
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1676
05:20:25.360 --> 05:20:30.240
to move or move further up to your top of

1677
05:20:30.319 --> 05:20:34.759
your body and I we do the same this time,

1678
05:20:36.080 --> 05:20:42.880
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

1679
05:20:44.200 --> 05:20:50.400
and massive massage in that area up to your spine,

1680
05:20:51.560 --> 05:20:54.159
from the side of your body up to your spine.

1681
05:20:55.959 --> 05:21:02.119
So some of that message area, the muscle tissue or

1682
05:21:02.159 --> 05:21:06.159
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

1683
05:21:08.000 --> 05:21:12.119
because all connected the chest and the back connect together.

1684
05:21:15.240 --> 05:21:18.520
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

1685
05:21:18.639 --> 05:21:26.599
that skin from your side up and massaging that area

1686
05:21:29.599 --> 05:21:33.720
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

1687
05:21:38.119 --> 05:21:40.360
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

1688
05:21:41.000 --> 05:21:43.759
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

1689
05:21:43.840 --> 05:22:01.159
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now

1690
05:22:01.240 --> 05:22:05.560
I'll move the other side again and do the exact

1691
05:22:05.799 --> 05:22:09.479
same thing with the top of your back on the

1692
05:22:09.599 --> 05:22:19.119
other side from pretty much underneath your arm area really

1693
05:22:24.560 --> 05:22:34.080
to your spine, and then continue in that all the

1694
05:22:34.159 --> 05:22:39.119
way down including your lower your middle of your back.

1695
05:22:52.599 --> 05:22:57.360
Now I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of

1696
05:22:57.439 --> 05:23:07.040
your thighs, and the sides of your thighs, starting with

1697
05:23:07.159 --> 05:23:11.200
your right leg, and massage in.

1698
05:23:12.520 --> 05:23:13.200
The back.

1699
05:23:15.400 --> 05:23:24.040
And the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's

1700
05:23:24.080 --> 05:23:27.520
a lot of muscles there. It's an area that can

1701
05:23:27.560 --> 05:23:31.880
be very tense at times and maybe needs a little

1702
05:23:31.919 --> 05:23:35.360
bit more pressure than the rest of the body that's

1703
05:23:35.599 --> 05:23:45.720
up to you. You can gently stroke the back of

1704
05:23:45.840 --> 05:23:51.319
your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or

1705
05:23:51.439 --> 05:24:04.240
underneath your knee joint. It's very sensitive, gentle area. And

1706
05:24:04.279 --> 05:24:11.560
then working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your

1707
05:24:11.680 --> 05:24:21.040
calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both

1708
05:24:21.200 --> 05:24:39.799
hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles. In the

1709
05:24:39.919 --> 05:24:46.759
back of your back of your ankles, just gently massage

1710
05:24:46.840 --> 05:24:58.599
in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching it

1711
05:24:58.680 --> 05:25:21.319
a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in

1712
05:25:23.880 --> 05:25:30.639
the bottom of your feet and the size of your

1713
05:25:30.680 --> 05:25:41.759
feet gent leap, but firm enough so they don't tickle,

1714
05:25:47.319 --> 05:25:52.799
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

1715
05:25:52.880 --> 05:26:02.279
your feet massaged to just overtake you. As I continue

1716
05:26:02.360 --> 05:26:08.959
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

1717
05:26:11.599 --> 05:26:17.319
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

1718
05:26:17.400 --> 05:26:23.240
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

1719
05:26:23.479 --> 05:26:31.560
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

1720
05:26:31.680 --> 05:26:38.119
toes gently the message in the bottoms of your toes

1721
05:26:38.880 --> 05:26:54.159
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

1722
05:26:54.319 --> 05:27:03.720
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

1723
05:27:03.759 --> 05:27:08.200
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

1724
05:27:08.279 --> 05:27:15.840
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently that

1725
05:27:16.000 --> 05:27:30.040
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

1726
05:27:30.119 --> 05:27:36.240
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

1727
05:27:36.360 --> 05:27:45.000
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

1728
05:27:45.080 --> 05:27:50.400
a bigger future recording, want's spend more time on one

1729
05:27:50.479 --> 05:28:02.360
particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

1730
05:28:08.319 --> 05:28:21.720
massaging in your calf muscles firmly and gently, move down

1731
05:28:24.040 --> 05:28:30.400
your aincor into your feet, Massage in the backs of

1732
05:28:30.520 --> 05:28:40.919
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes

1733
05:28:41.279 --> 05:28:47.599
and massage in each tone individually. And then feeling of

1734
05:28:47.759 --> 05:28:53.680
pleasure and release that you experience when you're having your

1735
05:28:53.759 --> 05:29:15.240
feet massaged feels really good. Now, she turn over in

1736
05:29:15.360 --> 05:29:26.200
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just going to

1737
05:29:26.279 --> 05:29:43.319
start again for your neck area in your shoulders, just

1738
05:29:43.479 --> 05:29:54.000
to get back in touch with that area. And as

1739
05:29:54.040 --> 05:30:05.680
you move up, I can clean my hands make them

1740
05:30:05.720 --> 05:30:11.360
more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

1741
05:30:15.759 --> 05:30:25.840
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

1742
05:30:26.959 --> 05:30:32.799
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit pushing

1743
05:30:32.919 --> 05:30:49.759
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging

1744
05:30:50.000 --> 05:31:05.240
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, the

1745
05:31:05.439 --> 05:31:11.159
side of your neck, your chin.

1746
05:31:18.040 --> 05:31:18.400
Mm hmm.

1747
05:31:22.240 --> 05:31:29.919
Then just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

1748
05:31:33.720 --> 05:31:37.720
starting by message in the very top of your chest

1749
05:31:41.560 --> 05:31:46.799
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

1750
05:31:55.240 --> 05:31:58.479
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

1751
05:32:07.680 --> 05:32:19.720
moving the chest around. Because it's quite a large area,

1752
05:32:21.680 --> 05:32:29.119
you can move from one side to the next, moving

1753
05:32:29.479 --> 05:32:40.479
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

1754
05:32:42.639 --> 05:32:45.720
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

1755
05:32:51.000 --> 05:32:59.639
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

1756
05:33:12.240 --> 05:33:17.040
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

1757
05:33:17.360 --> 05:33:24.040
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

1758
05:33:24.200 --> 05:33:33.799
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

1759
05:33:34.080 --> 05:33:39.680
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

1760
05:33:39.840 --> 05:33:58.560
down to just below your rib cage, moving down, then

1761
05:33:58.720 --> 05:34:07.919
massaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

1762
05:34:08.080 --> 05:34:22.520
it needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also

1763
05:34:22.680 --> 05:34:27.919
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

1764
05:34:28.040 --> 05:34:34.319
area that really doesn't get much attention but feels really

1765
05:34:34.439 --> 05:34:44.639
good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the

1766
05:34:44.840 --> 05:34:51.799
sides of your body. Just blow your arms all the

1767
05:34:51.840 --> 05:35:05.279
way down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

1768
05:35:07.319 --> 05:35:10.680
We're going to stand one side of you like I

1769
05:35:10.799 --> 05:35:15.200
did when I did your lower back. We're going to

1770
05:35:15.240 --> 05:35:20.720
do a similar process of just stretching the muscles from

1771
05:35:20.799 --> 05:35:34.240
your side, gently massaging from one side to the next.

1772
05:35:36.520 --> 05:35:36.959
Move in.

1773
05:35:39.520 --> 05:35:43.720
The whole area from below your ribs all the way

1774
05:35:43.840 --> 05:35:54.680
down to below your belly button, and then move around

1775
05:35:54.759 --> 05:35:57.400
to the other side of you and repeat that.

1776
05:36:04.000 --> 05:36:18.040
Process of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free,

1777
05:36:20.400 --> 05:36:25.119
And it's something about having your stomach massage that's different

1778
05:36:25.159 --> 05:36:32.000
from any other part because we do have a tendency

1779
05:36:32.639 --> 05:36:36.599
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomachs

1780
05:36:37.919 --> 05:36:45.759
that we may not be aware of. As a now

1781
05:36:45.959 --> 05:36:54.159
massage your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

1782
05:36:55.639 --> 05:37:04.840
around your belly button, and then going the other way around.

1783
05:37:11.400 --> 05:37:17.119
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

1784
05:37:17.799 --> 05:37:28.080
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

1785
05:37:28.159 --> 05:37:34.919
of your thighs the muscles, massaging them, and I can

1786
05:37:35.040 --> 05:37:41.000
do this two legs at the same time pressing down,

1787
05:37:43.840 --> 05:37:49.959
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

1788
05:37:50.080 --> 05:38:01.080
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

1789
05:38:01.159 --> 05:38:12.439
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

1790
05:38:12.599 --> 05:38:24.759
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

1791
05:38:25.080 --> 05:38:39.799
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

1792
05:38:39.959 --> 05:38:46.080
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

1793
05:38:46.880 --> 05:38:55.159
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

1794
05:38:55.639 --> 05:39:03.400
your ankle, your toes, message in every part of your feet.

1795
05:39:08.200 --> 05:39:13.279
It feels so good just to let go and enjoy

1796
05:39:13.759 --> 05:39:37.759
the process, Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

1797
05:39:37.959 --> 05:39:44.919
and so many feelings that come just from touching your skin.

1798
05:39:55.680 --> 05:40:01.599
And you can just lie there for as long as

1799
05:40:01.680 --> 05:40:14.240
you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being

1800
05:40:14.400 --> 05:40:46.159
massaged by me. Enjoy fearing deeply rased. And all we're

1801
05:40:46.200 --> 05:40:55.360
gonna do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

1802
05:41:06.959 --> 05:41:17.240
there are going to be a hundred candles, and you're

1803
05:41:17.240 --> 05:41:23.599
going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

1804
05:41:26.200 --> 05:41:35.880
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

1805
05:41:35.919 --> 05:41:43.759
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

1806
05:41:49.240 --> 05:41:56.080
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

1807
05:41:56.119 --> 05:42:05.119
I'd like you to actually physically, yeah, gently blow that

1808
05:42:05.279 --> 05:42:19.919
candle out, just so it's not big blows, just a gentle,

1809
05:42:24.360 --> 05:42:33.799
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

1810
05:42:33.959 --> 05:42:41.080
next number as we move down, and you can just

1811
05:42:42.680 --> 05:42:53.360
h blow that one out as well. And as we

1812
05:42:53.599 --> 05:43:05.279
move down the numbers, find yourself feeling more and more relaxed.

1813
05:43:08.319 --> 05:43:14.279
If you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming

1814
05:43:16.040 --> 05:43:29.759
incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to

1815
05:43:29.880 --> 05:43:42.799
blow out all one hundred of these candles as you

1816
05:43:43.959 --> 05:44:00.880
feel more and more deeply relaxed, more more and more

1817
05:44:04.959 --> 05:44:20.720
deep tired, And the further you go down, the more

1818
05:44:22.400 --> 05:44:34.599
your mind starts to drift. You may find that you

1819
05:44:35.919 --> 05:44:49.400
stop listening to me after a while. And even though

1820
05:44:49.560 --> 05:44:58.639
there maybe background sounds where you are, you'll be aware

1821
05:44:58.680 --> 05:45:04.040
of those sounds at the moment.

1822
05:45:09.040 --> 05:45:09.560
Be me.

1823
05:45:13.040 --> 05:45:27.840
Start to just not even notice them at all because

1824
05:45:28.000 --> 05:45:41.560
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

1825
05:45:41.680 --> 05:45:48.599
the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say

1826
05:45:48.680 --> 05:45:54.959
hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

1827
05:45:58.000 --> 05:46:11.439
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but none of

1828
05:46:11.479 --> 05:46:25.599
that seems important whatsoever. More candles you blow out, the

1829
05:46:25.720 --> 05:46:42.520
less important anything is. More candles you blow out, the

1830
05:46:42.759 --> 05:46:58.479
further you seem to move away from sounds and from

1831
05:46:58.880 --> 05:47:13.240
general date days, stuff seems to just move away on

1832
05:47:13.439 --> 05:47:29.560
its own. You feel more calma with every candle you

1833
05:47:29.799 --> 05:47:49.560
blow out, guiding you the next number, do you hear

1834
05:47:49.720 --> 05:48:00.599
me say? And then you blow that candle out? Two?

1835
05:48:08.759 --> 05:48:32.240
So easy, so simple. I'm gonna start by introducing the

1836
05:48:32.560 --> 05:48:49.119
first candle, which is a hundred. The first candle this

1837
05:48:49.439 --> 05:49:06.000
is one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll

1838
05:49:06.200 --> 05:49:23.799
find immediately a slight change in how you feel, as

1839
05:49:23.880 --> 05:49:31.840
well as a real sense of positivity growing within you,

1840
05:49:37.919 --> 05:50:08.119
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred of my

1841
05:50:08.439 --> 05:51:18.560
candle now ninety nine candle, ninety eight, cand ninety seven,

1842
05:51:41.000 --> 05:53:13.959
can ninety six, tend ninety five, had ninety four candle,

1843
05:53:19.759 --> 05:54:41.520
ninety three, hand ninety two and ninety one, ten to

1844
05:54:44.479 --> 05:57:00.720
ninety and eighty nine and eighty eight and eighties candle

1845
05:57:12.159 --> 05:58:44.119
eighties and eighty five, two.

1846
05:59:00.040 --> 05:59:11.680
And and.

1847
05:59:25.200 --> 06:02:44.639
Eighty two and two one candle, seventy nine candle, seventy

1848
06:02:44.880 --> 06:03:37.279
eight candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five,

1849
06:03:56.159 --> 06:04:37.400
candle seventy twenty four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two,

1850
06:04:49.959 --> 06:06:02.439
candle seventy one, candle seventy one and seventy and sixty nine,

1851
06:06:12.319 --> 06:07:07.119
candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, sixty four,

1852
06:07:30.400 --> 06:08:25.479
candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one,

1853
06:08:48.159 --> 06:10:15.040
candle sixty, fifty nine and fifty eight, candle fifty seven,

1854
06:10:34.439 --> 06:12:02.720
candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle

1855
06:12:05.240 --> 06:12:52.080
fifty three, candle fifty two, candle.

1856
06:12:54.680 --> 06:13:32.919
Fifty two two ft.

1857
06:14:04.680 --> 06:15:42.240
Candle fifty one, candle fifty handle forty nine, candle forty eight,

1858
06:16:19.639 --> 06:18:05.360
candle forty seven, candle forty six, can't forty five, forty two,

1859
06:18:45.720 --> 06:20:55.360
candle forty one and forty candle thirty nine, handle thirty eight,

1860
06:21:24.759 --> 06:22:58.159
can't do thirty seven, can't do thirty five, can't do

1861
06:23:03.200 --> 06:25:08.959
thirty four, Pendo thirty three, hand thirty one, chendle thirty

1862
06:26:25.159 --> 06:28:13.439
and twoin teen nine, canned twenty eight, handle twenty seven,

1863
06:28:46.439 --> 06:30:28.560
candle twenty six, cant twenty five and join chief four

1864
06:31:02.680 --> 06:32:26.200
endle twenty three and twenty tap two and to to

1865
06:32:26.639 --> 06:35:53.799
want and to wite m and ninety candle, seventeen candle

1866
06:35:57.959 --> 06:40:00.520
sixteen cancel four see ten well chendle eleven hands yeah,

1867
06:41:07.319 --> 06:42:51.279
jame nine hm to eight shamdo.

1868
06:42:54.000 --> 06:43:48.720
Six jam.

1869
06:44:34.680 --> 06:47:37.720
Can fo and doy seven two candle or let go

1870
06:47:39.240 --> 06:47:45.400
of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past,

1871
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thoughts about the future, and even things you've been thinking

1872
06:47:51.799 --> 06:47:59.400
about today. Just let it all go because none of

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06:47:59.439 --> 06:48:09.319
it is you in this moment. This is your opportunity

1874
06:48:13.919 --> 06:48:28.520
to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get

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06:48:28.599 --> 06:48:38.000
in touch with that natural sense of peace that we

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all have within us. It's available for everyone. It just

1877
06:48:45.040 --> 06:48:50.200
sometimes takes a little bit of effort to set up

1878
06:48:50.319 --> 06:48:56.240
the right time and place in order for you to

1879
06:48:56.599 --> 06:49:05.479
just let go. Because when you do decide to let

1880
06:49:05.599 --> 06:49:10.759
go and relax, that's what your body starts to do

1881
06:49:14.040 --> 06:49:21.520
because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow your body

1882
06:49:21.959 --> 06:49:30.159
to unwind and your mind starts to slow down. And

1883
06:49:30.279 --> 06:49:34.599
it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at the

1884
06:49:34.680 --> 06:49:41.200
beginning just to know that you have chosen to decide

1885
06:49:44.040 --> 06:49:51.639
to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision, your

1886
06:49:51.720 --> 06:49:59.159
body will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the muscles

1887
06:49:59.240 --> 06:50:05.159
in your body need is just permission from you to relax.

1888
06:50:09.159 --> 06:50:13.959
Because so often we're busy, we're going from here to there,

1889
06:50:14.119 --> 06:50:19.880
we're walking around, and we're doing stuff, and the body

1890
06:50:19.959 --> 06:50:28.040
doesn't have any time or space to really relax deeply.

1891
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So it kind of waits for you to lead the way,

1892
06:50:36.279 --> 06:50:46.319
waits for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

1893
06:50:48.040 --> 06:50:50.520
when you give the say so we need say okay,

1894
06:50:51.840 --> 06:50:58.880
it's time for your body to let go completely and

1895
06:50:59.040 --> 06:51:10.439
relax totally, your body just follows. It's like a breath

1896
06:51:10.520 --> 06:51:19.639
of relief. Ah'm good, I can now relax. That feeling

1897
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at the end of a day of very physical day

1898
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that you may experience in the past. But you get

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home and you just sit down on a chair, maybe

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06:51:31.720 --> 06:51:36.200
you kick your shoes off, and ah, feels so nice

1901
06:51:38.279 --> 06:51:42.279
knowing that you don't have to get up again for

1902
06:51:42.319 --> 06:51:45.759
a little while at least, if you choose, you can

1903
06:51:45.959 --> 06:51:54.919
just sit there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful.

1904
06:51:59.040 --> 06:52:03.680
And just by sitting down like that, your body knows

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06:52:04.279 --> 06:52:09.240
that it's time to relax. Your body has been given

1906
06:52:09.360 --> 06:52:16.240
permission from you. Because it's a mindset. In your mind,

1907
06:52:19.599 --> 06:52:30.040
you're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

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06:52:31.240 --> 06:52:40.000
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any

1909
06:52:40.240 --> 06:52:54.200
tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic. Really,

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06:53:00.000 --> 06:53:06.799
there's that sense of relaxation in your body. It's a

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06:53:06.919 --> 06:53:13.360
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

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06:53:13.479 --> 06:53:17.119
unusual when you first start to relax, if you if

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you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

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giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax,

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they seem more most alien, but it isn't. It's actually

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the most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

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to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

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to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

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And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

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you press a button and all the tension just releases,

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and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

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inside of a clock, just unwinding. And it's almost like

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06:54:30.080 --> 06:54:35.159
you could see the little wind up knob that's used

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just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

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06:54:40.159 --> 06:54:48.680
it up, and the energy that frenetic stress for energy

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gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength, as

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06:55:00.560 --> 06:55:09.959
a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you

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may find a the more relaxed you feel, that your

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mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop listening to

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me for a while, and your mind goes somewhere else,

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and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

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that is just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

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quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're

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not I mean I actually be aware of what we need,

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what we physically, your emotionally need in this moment. But

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when you allow your body and mind to relax completely

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and you let go all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all

1938
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letting them go, allow them to drop onto the floor.

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When you start to get in touch with the feelings

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of such relaxation, and this feels so nice, to be

1941
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in touch with the calmness, the different body parts as

1942
06:57:03.439 --> 06:57:19.119
they become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier

1943
06:57:19.799 --> 06:57:29.000
and more natural, effortless, as that cool air enters through

1944
06:57:29.040 --> 06:57:38.360
your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts

1945
06:57:38.560 --> 06:57:46.840
and relaxation and in just breathing out any excess remain

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intention stress from every part of your body and mind.

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And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

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you noticed that things come to a standstill or maybe

1949
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just much much lower than before, because your mind is

1950
06:58:21.119 --> 06:58:31.959
not really needed when listening to my voice, which allows

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your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

1952
06:58:40.759 --> 06:58:49.000
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and

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06:58:51.759 --> 06:59:05.520
relaxation of your mind. Let you know, feeling completely calm, loose,

1954
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and relaxed.

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Real is.

1956
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A great healing experience fear and has so many positive

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benefits for your body, mind, and your life. To be

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able to let go everything and to relax completely in

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06:59:47.759 --> 06:59:55.759
all parts of your body and mind. Even your bones

1960
06:59:56.080 --> 07:00:11.439
has arised, all your muscles are relaxed, even the skin

1961
07:00:12.200 --> 07:00:24.439
that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

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That you have.

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07:00:29.680 --> 07:00:47.240
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

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07:00:47.479 --> 07:01:00.680
feel the benefits of this healing relaxation. And as you

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07:01:00.959 --> 07:01:07.479
focus on the inside of your scalp where your brain is,

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you can start to realize and notice the benefits of

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07:01:17.279 --> 07:01:28.919
your brain relaxing deeply. Then, as your brain continues to

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relax sends those messages to the rest of your body.

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And to your mind.

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To re relax more deeply, relax in me more more completely,

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letting go of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them

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just to drop onto the floor because they're no longer

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necessary in this moment, In this moment of deep relaxation

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07:02:38.159 --> 07:02:58.880
and calmness, filling your brain with deep, concentrated heaving, calming,

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relaxing every part of your brain, feeling so loose and comfortable,

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07:03:26.000 --> 07:03:39.159
so relaxed, and be peaceful. Your brain feels so light,

1977
07:03:41.479 --> 07:03:50.200
that's so healthy in that sense of deep deep comfort

1978
07:03:52.639 --> 07:04:06.639
really does allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations

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07:04:06.959 --> 07:04:21.319
of comfort that are spreading throughout your body. Relaxing each

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07:04:22.959 --> 07:04:36.240
and every muscle of your body, e deeper and deeper,

1981
07:04:39.360 --> 07:04:57.040
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

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07:04:58.439 --> 07:05:00.439
your body and your mind.

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07:05:03.439 --> 07:05:05.360
Be so.

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Peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part

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07:05:25.919 --> 07:05:41.080
of your body, letting go h a everything aything, so

1986
07:05:42.439 --> 07:05:59.400
peaceful and calm, so relax a very second the passes

1987
07:06:02.439 --> 07:06:03.439
you feel.

1988
07:06:05.400 --> 07:06:30.880
Deeper, deper relax, deeper and deeper, relax, calm, so calm,

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07:06:34.919 --> 07:06:47.759
peace for so very peace from your head down to

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07:06:47.880 --> 07:07:01.000
your ties. Such peace and comfort growing all the time,

1991
07:07:03.880 --> 07:07:15.000
Such peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind

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07:07:17.560 --> 07:07:33.919
deeper and deeper, Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into

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07:07:34.240 --> 07:07:45.200
airy muscle of your body, so that you feel amazing,

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07:07:48.200 --> 07:07:54.159
so laxed, so peace, so.

1995
07:07:58.959 --> 07:08:20.680
So peaceful. Letting go. I'm going to do a body scan,

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07:08:22.479 --> 07:08:28.840
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, Not

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07:08:29.000 --> 07:08:34.400
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

1998
07:08:35.680 --> 07:08:40.680
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

1999
07:08:40.919 --> 07:08:48.319
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2000
07:08:49.319 --> 07:08:54.240
in the different parts of your body, just allowing yourself

2001
07:08:55.639 --> 07:09:03.119
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

2002
07:09:03.200 --> 07:09:11.799
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2003
07:09:15.279 --> 07:09:21.799
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2004
07:09:26.400 --> 07:09:34.080
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2005
07:09:34.279 --> 07:09:39.240
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a

2006
07:09:39.319 --> 07:09:45.680
little bit. I've been and closing your hands very gently,

2007
07:09:47.360 --> 07:09:53.000
just so that you can get in touch with how

2008
07:09:53.119 --> 07:10:07.319
your hands and your fingers feel, very very slow movements.

2009
07:10:15.720 --> 07:10:23.479
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2010
07:10:23.639 --> 07:10:28.759
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2011
07:10:28.959 --> 07:10:35.159
just done with your hands. Maybe turn in your ankles,

2012
07:10:37.159 --> 07:10:46.880
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very

2013
07:10:48.919 --> 07:11:00.639
gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet fell in

2014
07:11:00.799 --> 07:11:14.080
this moment. Focusing now and your eyes. I'd like you

2015
07:11:14.319 --> 07:11:21.520
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2016
07:11:21.599 --> 07:11:25.919
and close your eyes a couple of times to really

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07:11:26.080 --> 07:11:29.560
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2018
07:11:29.840 --> 07:11:38.159
close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when

2019
07:11:38.200 --> 07:11:46.799
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches

2020
07:11:47.200 --> 07:11:58.000
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2021
07:11:58.119 --> 07:12:03.279
up your eyes so you can hear it again. Touch

2022
07:12:05.919 --> 07:12:13.560
with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2023
07:12:16.040 --> 07:12:16.520
Right now.

2024
07:12:25.880 --> 07:12:32.360
Now focusing on your thighs, and it just starts you

2025
07:12:32.520 --> 07:12:42.639
to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently, just

2026
07:12:42.959 --> 07:12:55.159
enough so you can become more attuned to the physical

2027
07:12:55.799 --> 07:13:03.040
sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2028
07:13:03.319 --> 07:13:14.360
on the backs of your thigh, noticing and observing how

2029
07:13:16.680 --> 07:13:31.720
your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the

2030
07:13:31.840 --> 07:13:38.360
back of your neck. Just noticing the back of your

2031
07:13:38.479 --> 07:13:44.840
neck the muscles, and of course they lead to the

2032
07:13:45.159 --> 07:13:49.560
side of your neck. They also lead to the top

2033
07:13:49.639 --> 07:13:55.959
of your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as

2034
07:13:56.000 --> 07:14:01.840
your focus on the back of your neck, maybe you

2035
07:14:02.000 --> 07:14:08.639
can move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up,

2036
07:14:10.599 --> 07:14:16.200
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2037
07:14:19.360 --> 07:14:24.240
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2038
07:14:26.279 --> 07:14:39.200
only very slowly, very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2039
07:14:40.959 --> 07:14:50.119
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2040
07:14:50.279 --> 07:15:03.759
can be more in touch with the feeling, with the sensations,

2041
07:15:04.000 --> 07:15:13.159
the physical sensations of how the back of your neck feels.

2042
07:15:14.959 --> 07:15:30.319
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2043
07:15:30.439 --> 07:15:36.720
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2044
07:15:36.759 --> 07:15:44.840
are between your elbow and your shoulders. Should focus on

2045
07:15:45.119 --> 07:15:52.279
those parts, the tops of your arms. You may like

2046
07:15:52.400 --> 07:16:01.959
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2047
07:16:04.479 --> 07:16:13.439
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on

2048
07:16:13.599 --> 07:16:14.319
your arms.

2049
07:16:17.000 --> 07:16:19.400
It's just so that you can.

2050
07:16:21.919 --> 07:16:29.119
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2051
07:16:30.680 --> 07:16:42.599
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2052
07:16:44.720 --> 07:16:54.319
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2053
07:16:58.599 --> 07:17:07.040
notice how the tops of your arms feel. Right now,

2054
07:17:15.200 --> 07:17:26.000
as we now focus on your stomach, the area the

2055
07:17:26.119 --> 07:17:32.439
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2056
07:17:32.520 --> 07:17:39.599
way down to your hips, just above of your grind.

2057
07:17:45.959 --> 07:17:52.479
Maybe you are able to tense these muscles in the

2058
07:17:52.799 --> 07:18:08.840
area very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult

2059
07:18:08.959 --> 07:18:15.720
thing to do, and maybe you can just move your body,

2060
07:18:18.400 --> 07:18:23.319
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to

2061
07:18:23.439 --> 07:18:30.439
the side using your hips, just so you can get

2062
07:18:30.880 --> 07:18:43.200
more in tune with how your lower cappedomen area is

2063
07:18:44.319 --> 07:19:04.880
feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or

2064
07:19:05.000 --> 07:19:24.279
your lower abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth,

2065
07:19:29.639 --> 07:19:37.799
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth,

2066
07:19:38.919 --> 07:19:55.080
your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your tongue in

2067
07:19:55.159 --> 07:20:06.599
your mouth feels. May help by moving your tongue around

2068
07:20:06.799 --> 07:20:13.240
your mouth, moving it to your left, maybe pressing it

2069
07:20:13.759 --> 07:20:20.400
gently against the side of your mouth, and then to

2070
07:20:20.560 --> 07:20:28.720
the right, gently to the side of your mouth, perhaps

2071
07:20:29.000 --> 07:20:34.119
pressing up against the top of your mouth, and then

2072
07:20:34.319 --> 07:20:45.279
down gently against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly,

2073
07:20:48.799 --> 07:21:03.040
in a very very gentle so that you can be

2074
07:21:03.159 --> 07:21:26.799
aware of how you feel in your mouth area now

2075
07:21:31.240 --> 07:21:47.400
and to focus on your wrists, and I'll ask you

2076
07:21:47.799 --> 07:21:56.599
to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your hands

2077
07:21:57.959 --> 07:22:10.880
in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just so

2078
07:22:11.639 --> 07:22:32.319
you can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing

2079
07:22:32.959 --> 07:22:45.680
in your wrists. Perhaps move in your hands up and

2080
07:22:46.119 --> 07:23:10.880
down again very very gently and slow, really very genzl

2081
07:23:15.080 --> 07:23:40.639
and slow. As we now start to observe your lower back.

2082
07:23:46.240 --> 07:23:56.560
The bad part is just above your hips, where your

2083
07:23:56.680 --> 07:24:09.720
cocksix are a whole area which also really does include

2084
07:24:10.479 --> 07:24:16.720
the side of your body because those muscles are very

2085
07:24:16.880 --> 07:24:28.119
much connected as those muscles also move into your hip

2086
07:24:28.200 --> 07:24:36.319
area connecting to your buttics the sides of your hips,

2087
07:24:44.880 --> 07:24:53.200
and if you're physically able to do so, maybe you

2088
07:24:53.360 --> 07:25:06.200
can very gently just move your body evice slightly, very

2089
07:25:06.560 --> 07:25:28.000
slowly from side to side, just enough to gauge how

2090
07:25:28.159 --> 07:25:29.119
you feel.

2091
07:25:31.200 --> 07:25:47.799
In your lower back, perhaps secutive. Even move your hips gently.

2092
07:25:49.680 --> 07:26:05.880
Up and down gently, slowly and ordered really be in

2093
07:26:06.200 --> 07:26:32.400
touch with the physical sensations of your lawer back as

2094
07:26:32.479 --> 07:26:47.520
we know live to your attention to your jaw, an

2095
07:26:47.759 --> 07:26:53.439
area from your chin all the way up to near

2096
07:26:53.520 --> 07:27:10.119
where your ears are. The ole of your jaw, you can,

2097
07:27:10.400 --> 07:27:19.240
just if it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth,

2098
07:27:22.119 --> 07:27:33.759
not wide, no stretching, just very gently and slowly opening

2099
07:27:33.880 --> 07:27:46.959
your mouth in closing your mouth very gently and slowly

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so you can.

2101
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Be in touch.

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With how your jaw feels.

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07:28:13.639 --> 07:28:13.840
Now.

2104
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Know to sit now the chest area, and you don't

2105
07:28:56.319 --> 07:29:03.560
need to do anything to move with your chest because

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07:29:03.639 --> 07:29:13.880
it moves every time you breathe, and it moves very

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07:29:14.319 --> 07:29:33.840
gently and slowly automatically with each breath you take. As

2108
07:29:33.959 --> 07:29:52.360
you focus on how your chest feels when you breathe,

2109
07:30:21.240 --> 07:30:36.119
move in your focus to your forearms, your elbows. Maybe

2110
07:30:36.439 --> 07:30:49.040
you're able to very gently and slowly tense the muscles

2111
07:30:50.360 --> 07:30:56.840
in your forearms, and when you do that, you can

2112
07:30:57.159 --> 07:31:29.040
feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently

2113
07:31:32.520 --> 07:32:16.439
and softly obsad your forearms and dilbours. Uh focus the

2114
07:32:16.599 --> 07:32:28.479
rest of your back, your upper back in the middle,

2115
07:32:30.040 --> 07:32:46.720
the middle of your back again this part of your body.

2116
07:32:49.720 --> 07:33:01.880
News Also every time you pray, you may not notice

2117
07:33:01.959 --> 07:33:15.720
that usually makes you observe your upper back in the

2118
07:33:15.959 --> 07:33:27.880
middle of your back. You can really feel that gentle

2119
07:33:33.759 --> 07:34:22.560
and slow movement. M moving your focus into your area,

2120
07:34:25.880 --> 07:34:37.680
your buttyes, your grain, there's muscles and those bones in

2121
07:34:37.799 --> 07:35:12.000
your midsection. Just noticing how your hips.

2122
07:35:14.200 --> 07:35:41.119
Feel right now, you can very very gently move your hips, maybe.

2123
07:35:41.319 --> 07:36:34.919
Side to side, very gently and softly, and now everything

2124
07:36:37.159 --> 07:36:51.680
starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your mind

2125
07:36:53.400 --> 07:37:03.520
and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't

2126
07:37:03.599 --> 07:37:11.159
have to be instant, but just gradually starting too. It's

2127
07:37:11.200 --> 07:37:20.240
almost like time is strength chin It's a slower pace

2128
07:37:22.759 --> 07:37:27.919
to maybe what you're used to in your day to

2129
07:37:28.080 --> 07:37:54.759
day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very small

2130
07:37:55.040 --> 07:38:02.720
movements which make up the low larger movements, which is

2131
07:38:02.799 --> 07:38:10.520
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2132
07:38:10.680 --> 07:38:13.400
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2133
07:38:14.200 --> 07:38:21.599
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2134
07:38:26.599 --> 07:38:38.919
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2135
07:38:39.159 --> 07:38:59.840
move from that big movement into those smaller movements, start

2136
07:39:00.119 --> 07:39:11.040
into focus on how your body feels, not just as

2137
07:39:11.080 --> 07:39:15.400
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

2138
07:39:15.479 --> 07:39:21.560
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm,

2139
07:39:22.880 --> 07:39:29.479
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2140
07:39:29.720 --> 07:39:40.919
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2141
07:39:42.040 --> 07:39:58.400
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

2142
07:40:01.159 --> 07:40:14.400
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

2143
07:40:14.479 --> 07:40:24.000
them or to judge them those feelings, just thinking them,

2144
07:40:24.919 --> 07:40:37.880
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

2145
07:40:38.119 --> 07:40:49.200
being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is

2146
07:40:49.319 --> 07:41:03.040
telling you, the feelings in your arms, instead of feeling

2147
07:41:03.200 --> 07:41:11.880
the whole of the arm, Maybe notice those individual feelings,

2148
07:41:13.319 --> 07:41:24.799
all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of

2149
07:41:24.919 --> 07:41:30.680
your arms, all the internal parts of your arms, the veins,

2150
07:41:40.799 --> 07:41:49.959
the bones, just being aware of maybe your elbow on

2151
07:41:50.080 --> 07:41:58.400
your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe you're left

2152
07:41:58.520 --> 07:42:10.880
wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2153
07:42:23.319 --> 07:42:30.040
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2154
07:42:37.400 --> 07:42:38.680
there may not be any.

2155
07:42:38.959 --> 07:42:46.200
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2156
07:42:49.959 --> 07:42:55.439
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

2157
07:42:55.599 --> 07:43:08.040
it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders,

2158
07:43:08.119 --> 07:43:11.360
when you think about them, you're kind of almost like

2159
07:43:11.520 --> 07:43:18.159
they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like

2160
07:43:18.639 --> 07:43:23.240
both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of course

2161
07:43:23.319 --> 07:43:34.639
they're not. And when you focus on your left shoulder

2162
07:43:37.360 --> 07:43:42.560
and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that you

2163
07:43:43.919 --> 07:43:48.479
move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles

2164
07:43:48.599 --> 07:44:14.080
gently noticing the difference in each shoulder and your lower back,

2165
07:44:26.959 --> 07:44:30.639
the left side of your lower back and the right

2166
07:44:30.880 --> 07:44:41.840
side of your lower back of course that connection to

2167
07:44:41.959 --> 07:44:54.439
your buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up

2168
07:44:55.200 --> 07:45:08.439
into the middle of your back. And sometimes like right now,

2169
07:45:08.599 --> 07:45:13.400
actually when I focus on their part, when I focused

2170
07:45:13.439 --> 07:45:19.279
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

2171
07:45:19.319 --> 07:45:22.200
of my back, it almost felt like the muscles in

2172
07:45:22.279 --> 07:45:32.319
my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched

2173
07:45:32.400 --> 07:45:38.959
a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2174
07:45:40.319 --> 07:45:46.080
try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed to happen.

2175
07:45:47.279 --> 07:46:04.880
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

2176
07:46:08.599 --> 07:46:31.919
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2177
07:46:33.520 --> 07:46:51.159
you are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's

2178
07:46:51.240 --> 07:46:55.400
so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone

2179
07:46:55.560 --> 07:47:02.319
leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've

2180
07:47:02.360 --> 07:47:10.680
got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2181
07:47:11.360 --> 07:47:21.759
there's possibly the breasts. You're male, you've got the different

2182
07:47:22.919 --> 07:47:27.159
well why not that different these days, but there may

2183
07:47:27.200 --> 07:47:35.639
be more muscles at the top of the chest, but

2184
07:47:35.799 --> 07:47:40.880
at the side underneath, it's pretty much the same. Whether

2185
07:47:40.880 --> 07:47:45.479
you're a man or a woman, there's muscles there muscles

2186
07:47:45.560 --> 07:47:50.560
that stretch out to your back, as well as breast

2187
07:47:50.599 --> 07:47:58.880
tissue which stretches and moves into your back, to just

2188
07:47:59.000 --> 07:48:18.560
being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there

2189
07:48:18.680 --> 07:48:38.759
is in your chest. When I noticed that, I focus

2190
07:48:38.880 --> 07:48:46.560
on my chest, I feel it in my back and

2191
07:48:46.639 --> 07:48:50.720
my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious reason

2192
07:48:50.759 --> 07:49:00.919
would be because you know, I breathe in in then

2193
07:49:00.959 --> 07:49:04.520
it stretches my chest and my back at the same time.

2194
07:49:12.479 --> 07:49:27.680
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got

2195
07:49:27.720 --> 07:49:33.959
a little bit of pain in my right chest, a

2196
07:49:34.040 --> 07:49:37.479
little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe.

2197
07:49:38.959 --> 07:49:47.479
Stiffness, possibly, I don't know. I noticed my shoulders also

2198
07:49:49.159 --> 07:49:49.840
wanting to.

2199
07:49:52.159 --> 07:49:56.840
Flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2200
07:49:57.040 --> 07:50:06.000
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders marper back.

2201
07:50:07.799 --> 07:50:11.840
Because I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles

2202
07:50:12.599 --> 07:50:20.799
in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which

2203
07:50:20.919 --> 07:50:24.439
then moves I think it's the scapulous.

2204
07:50:26.360 --> 07:50:26.959
In your back.

2205
07:50:37.000 --> 07:50:44.680
It feels quite nice. Actually, A good thing about this

2206
07:50:44.959 --> 07:50:49.759
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2207
07:50:53.319 --> 07:51:05.000
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2208
07:51:06.439 --> 07:51:09.919
in order to get more of the sense of how

2209
07:51:10.000 --> 07:51:24.919
they feel and when you're relaxing, When you do tense

2210
07:51:25.000 --> 07:51:28.919
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2211
07:51:28.959 --> 07:51:38.000
it relax, it relaxes way more than it would normally.

2212
07:51:43.119 --> 07:51:48.159
You have to feel that you're able to do that.

2213
07:51:49.799 --> 07:51:55.520
There's no point doing it if there's an issue with

2214
07:51:55.720 --> 07:52:01.119
the per part of your body. You need to be

2215
07:52:01.720 --> 07:52:14.680
gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply. It's

2216
07:52:14.759 --> 07:52:30.520
important to be kind to yourself. As you notice your mind.

2217
07:52:34.840 --> 07:52:41.840
How much has your mind slowed down since we started

2218
07:52:43.279 --> 07:52:44.080
this recording?

2219
07:53:00.159 --> 07:53:01.200
How came.

2220
07:53:04.799 --> 07:53:16.439
And peaceful is your mind right now with nothing to

2221
07:53:16.560 --> 07:53:26.400
think about and just my voice to listen to, Because

2222
07:53:26.520 --> 07:53:37.479
you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation. At

2223
07:53:37.520 --> 07:53:43.959
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

2224
07:53:44.000 --> 07:53:47.360
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning,

2225
07:53:52.479 --> 07:54:01.159
at the very least for your mind. Just look down.

2226
07:54:04.119 --> 07:54:16.840
If your body continues to relax, because that's what you

2227
07:54:18.479 --> 07:54:39.479
want to happen. That's what you expect to happen. For relaxation,

2228
07:54:42.799 --> 07:54:58.279
to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind to

2229
07:54:58.400 --> 07:55:17.799
the point of border when you start maybe to drift away.

2230
07:55:32.119 --> 07:55:54.159
Drifting it's almost as if you're moving further away from

2231
07:55:55.880 --> 07:56:09.680
your body in your mind, just leaving that there, kind

2232
07:56:09.720 --> 07:56:14.799
of liking it an escape pod in the spaceship a movie,

2233
07:56:15.599 --> 07:56:17.880
a space movie, you know, when they get into a

2234
07:56:17.959 --> 07:56:24.680
little part in it, since the man far away from

2235
07:56:24.759 --> 07:57:13.680
the spaceship, safe to dream and continue to relax, drifting

2236
07:57:32.400 --> 07:58:41.720
so slow and peace so so relax and peaceful, and focusing.

2237
07:58:41.439 --> 07:58:41.720
On the.

2238
07:58:43.959 --> 07:58:56.919
Feeding of those individual parts your body that's.

2239
07:58:59.639 --> 07:59:18.840
Really one by one. You may find that every now

2240
07:59:18.919 --> 07:59:29.959
and then you realize that you aren't listening to my

2241
07:59:30.159 --> 07:59:41.759
voice because your mind started to imagine something different, maybe

2242
07:59:44.319 --> 07:59:53.520
started to almost move into some kind of a dreamy state,

2243
07:59:58.360 --> 08:00:04.680
and then you become aware of my voice again. And

2244
08:00:04.799 --> 08:00:11.200
even though you may want to focus on my voice,

2245
08:00:11.880 --> 08:00:19.319
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

2246
08:00:19.680 --> 08:00:39.520
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

2247
08:00:39.639 --> 08:00:57.080
you feel more comfort spreading through your body like a

2248
08:00:57.319 --> 08:01:11.680
warm blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just

2249
08:01:14.400 --> 08:01:31.880
the perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

2250
08:01:37.479 --> 08:01:49.959
they just don't seem to matter anymore. As that sensor

2251
08:01:52.680 --> 08:02:09.520
peace spreads through your mind like a gentle grease, yet

2252
08:02:09.680 --> 08:02:21.959
strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong.

2253
08:02:21.720 --> 08:02:22.200
Enough to.

2254
08:02:25.599 --> 08:02:35.720
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2255
08:02:35.919 --> 08:02:51.000
there before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings

2256
08:02:51.400 --> 08:03:16.799
that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that is

2257
08:03:17.119 --> 08:03:42.159
feeling your body and your mind. And as you focus

2258
08:03:42.400 --> 08:03:49.000
on your mind and count down from ten down to one,

2259
08:03:50.400 --> 08:04:00.759
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2260
08:04:06.840 --> 08:04:26.400
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly so from ten down

2261
08:04:26.520 --> 08:04:33.599
to nine, just a slight movement. From nine down to eight,

2262
08:04:34.840 --> 08:04:45.319
just another small change in how you feel.

2263
08:04:50.720 --> 08:04:51.479
Eight down to.

2264
08:04:51.759 --> 08:04:59.919
Seven, that feeling is a gap, almost like a gap.

2265
08:05:00.319 --> 08:05:08.560
It starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings

2266
08:05:10.240 --> 08:05:17.200
that you used to have in your mind compared to

2267
08:05:17.400 --> 08:05:24.759
the feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort

2268
08:05:25.080 --> 08:05:36.680
and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight

2269
08:05:36.840 --> 08:05:43.759
down to seven, seven down to six, And when you

2270
08:05:43.840 --> 08:05:50.200
get to five, the mind will start to have a

2271
08:05:50.639 --> 08:06:03.799
certain physical sensation, almost like there's a magnet outside of

2272
08:06:03.919 --> 08:06:10.119
your head sucking the tension and the stress and any

2273
08:06:10.240 --> 08:06:17.759
remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through

2274
08:06:17.880 --> 08:06:28.439
your skull. And in down to four you can start

2275
08:06:28.560 --> 08:06:37.599
to really experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space,

2276
08:06:42.959 --> 08:06:50.560
a place full of fresh air, the place where you

2277
08:06:50.720 --> 08:06:57.360
can stretch. It's almost as if as you go down

2278
08:06:57.520 --> 08:07:02.959
to four and three, your mind is expanding, with this

2279
08:07:04.279 --> 08:07:16.319
sense of peace and tranquility growing as it moves down

2280
08:07:16.759 --> 08:07:27.680
to When you get to one, your mind just feels

2281
08:07:29.000 --> 08:07:39.880
exactly how you want to feel. It's almost perfect feeling,

2282
08:07:45.720 --> 08:07:50.599
maybe a sensation that.

2283
08:07:52.200 --> 08:07:53.639
It'd like to keep.

2284
08:07:56.639 --> 08:08:07.439
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2285
08:08:19.159 --> 08:08:23.840
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

2286
08:08:23.959 --> 08:08:33.680
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

2287
08:08:34.599 --> 08:08:40.599
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

2288
08:08:42.200 --> 08:08:52.119
just by counting ten down to one. And this is

2289
08:08:52.240 --> 08:08:56.680
something that you can do yourself when you're on your

2290
08:08:56.720 --> 08:09:05.520
own the time when you can maybe sit down, maybe

2291
08:09:05.680 --> 08:09:16.119
just for a few minutes, close your eyes. It just

2292
08:09:16.439 --> 08:09:30.919
counts slowly from ten down to one and reexperience these

2293
08:09:31.119 --> 08:09:41.479
feelings in your mind. And when you feel that way

2294
08:09:41.599 --> 08:09:56.599
in your mind, your body copies your mind, and that

2295
08:09:56.880 --> 08:10:03.400
feeling is spread through your spine and your nervous system

2296
08:10:04.080 --> 08:10:11.400
into every part of your body, travels through your blood stream,

2297
08:10:17.000 --> 08:10:37.479
healing and relaxing every particle of your existence. Now we

2298
08:10:37.599 --> 08:10:46.400
can we can practice this a few times before the

2299
08:10:46.560 --> 08:10:51.080
end of the recording, and then you can practice on

2300
08:10:51.200 --> 08:10:58.720
your own, and each time you count from ten about one,

2301
08:11:03.400 --> 08:11:15.599
the feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation becomes stronger

2302
08:11:16.959 --> 08:11:31.240
and deeper, filling your mind and your brain with these

2303
08:11:32.400 --> 08:11:43.240
positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly,

2304
08:11:45.279 --> 08:11:55.200
relaxing your whole body and mind so very very easily,

2305
08:11:57.759 --> 08:12:01.439
just by counting from ten.

2306
08:12:04.119 --> 08:12:11.319
Down to one. So we're gonna do now.

2307
08:12:12.159 --> 08:12:16.119
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2308
08:12:16.279 --> 08:12:20.599
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2309
08:12:20.680 --> 08:12:29.240
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2310
08:12:34.840 --> 08:12:44.200
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2311
08:12:44.360 --> 08:12:53.880
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2312
08:12:54.000 --> 08:13:09.400
can repeat to yourself nine a game, noticing the increase

2313
08:13:09.759 --> 08:13:17.959
in comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body.

2314
08:13:23.959 --> 08:13:33.400
The same want to say eight when I say seven, six,

2315
08:13:35.959 --> 08:13:50.240
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2316
08:13:54.639 --> 08:14:00.840
and lastly when I say one, it can repeat that number.

2317
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Now.

2318
08:14:08.560 --> 08:14:14.119
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2319
08:14:14.240 --> 08:14:19.240
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2320
08:14:20.880 --> 08:14:29.319
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2321
08:14:29.479 --> 08:14:35.400
can adapt so you feel you want to say the

2322
08:14:35.560 --> 08:14:43.119
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

2323
08:14:43.119 --> 08:14:46.040
you go ahead and do that, or if you feel

2324
08:14:46.880 --> 08:14:49.959
when you do it yourself, then you'd like to have

2325
08:14:50.560 --> 08:14:58.599
more more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot

2326
08:14:58.799 --> 08:15:06.360
longer to get from ten all the way down to one.

2327
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That's your choice also to do. So I'm going to count.

2328
08:15:23.680 --> 08:15:32.279
From ten down to one, and when I get to one.

2329
08:15:33.439 --> 08:15:39.360
That will be the end of this recording, unless, of course,

2330
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you're listening with music, and the music will continue. Ten

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nine eight fourte twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteen fifteen, fourteen,

2332
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thirteen twelve eleven ten nine eight seven, six, five, four,

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three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2334
08:22:16.880 --> 08:22:25.240
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2335
08:22:26.080 --> 08:22:30.479
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toes.

2336
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And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

2337
08:22:36.759 --> 08:22:43.520
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite understanding,

2338
08:22:43.680 --> 08:22:48.759
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2339
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So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2340
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one again. This time you get to feel relief of

2341
08:23:04.720 --> 08:23:10.400
tension and stress in the anxiety that you may have

2342
08:23:15.119 --> 08:23:23.479
leaving through your stomach just leaving through your stomach, almost

2343
08:23:23.520 --> 08:23:29.319
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach.

2344
08:23:30.119 --> 08:23:34.959
You'll navel to just above your chest or below your chest,

2345
08:23:35.119 --> 08:23:39.639
rather so surrounding your belly button area, the whole area.

2346
08:23:41.759 --> 08:23:46.360
You can feel the tension of your body wherever it's left,

2347
08:23:46.639 --> 08:23:51.919
just releasing from that area. And you may notice that

2348
08:23:52.080 --> 08:23:57.119
your stomach will become very relaxed as I count down

2349
08:23:58.159 --> 08:25:05.759
from twenty down now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight,

2350
08:25:09.840 --> 08:25:27.119
seven six, why oh three.

2351
08:25:31.360 --> 08:25:31.560
Two?

2352
08:25:36.880 --> 08:25:36.919
What?

2353
08:25:41.840 --> 08:25:42.799
And you can open your.

2354
08:25:42.759 --> 08:25:45.319
Eyes again if you choose, or you can just keep

2355
08:25:45.400 --> 08:25:51.560
them closed because it feels relaxing. Just notice how your

2356
08:25:51.639 --> 08:25:56.919
stomach feels. I notice there's your focus. Just do a

2357
08:25:56.959 --> 08:25:58.439
little scan of your body.

2358
08:26:00.560 --> 08:26:01.479
Just notice how.

2359
08:26:01.400 --> 08:26:14.319
Your body feels, focusing on your upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2360
08:26:17.319 --> 08:26:24.279
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2361
08:26:26.759 --> 08:26:30.520
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2362
08:26:30.639 --> 08:26:36.720
reason you're listening to this recording, because you would like

2363
08:26:36.959 --> 08:26:46.400
to let go completely of everything and drift off into

2364
08:26:46.520 --> 08:27:01.520
a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now We're going

2365
08:27:01.560 --> 08:27:11.000
to focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you

2366
08:27:11.119 --> 08:27:16.159
can incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. Your

2367
08:27:16.279 --> 08:27:22.799
forehead and your eyes. It's that whole area, basically, almost

2368
08:27:22.880 --> 08:27:25.639
as if you were wearing a mask, you know, like

2369
08:27:25.759 --> 08:27:30.919
a I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or

2370
08:27:33.040 --> 08:27:35.959
I'm trying to zorro or something, you know, the kind

2371
08:27:36.000 --> 08:27:39.159
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

2372
08:27:39.200 --> 08:27:45.240
a lot of the forehead. I'm focusing on that area

2373
08:27:45.759 --> 08:27:48.000
because that's the area that we're now going to release

2374
08:27:48.919 --> 08:27:51.680
tension and stress from your mind.

2375
08:27:53.319 --> 08:27:54.000
And your brain.

2376
08:27:54.319 --> 08:27:57.880
From your mind and any tension that you may have

2377
08:27:58.159 --> 08:28:02.319
remain in your face, in your neck and your jawel,

2378
08:28:03.599 --> 08:28:09.639
your eyes, your forehead and all your scalp. So basically

2379
08:28:09.799 --> 08:28:15.639
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2380
08:28:15.840 --> 08:28:23.439
your brain, and that's going to be released through your

2381
08:28:23.520 --> 08:28:30.479
forehead and your eyes. As I count down again from

2382
08:28:31.040 --> 08:29:51.200
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2383
08:29:55.360 --> 08:30:06.240
five or three.

2384
08:30:10.919 --> 08:30:15.479
Two, what.

2385
08:30:24.000 --> 08:30:33.439
Noticing and you scan your face, mature, your eyes, the

2386
08:30:33.720 --> 08:30:40.720
cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp.

2387
08:30:41.919 --> 08:30:45.599
Your neck, the back of your neck, in the front

2388
08:30:45.639 --> 08:30:47.240
of your neck, the.

2389
08:30:47.439 --> 08:30:56.319
Side of your neck, and your throat. Mm hmmm. Noticing

2390
08:30:57.639 --> 08:31:09.040
being aware of the comfort increased in the relaxation, not

2391
08:31:09.439 --> 08:31:14.400
just in your head and neck and mind, also the

2392
08:31:14.520 --> 08:31:24.479
rest of your body. Just notice how loose and calm

2393
08:31:24.639 --> 08:31:27.840
you feel, and how easily.

2394
08:31:29.560 --> 08:31:31.119
It is to just let go.

2395
08:31:33.919 --> 08:31:50.319
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

2396
08:31:57.319 --> 08:31:58.279
That's what I'm gonna do.

2397
08:31:58.479 --> 08:32:01.919
Now, is I wanted to focus on the top of

2398
08:32:02.000 --> 08:32:12.159
your head and am We're going to allow every last

2399
08:32:14.040 --> 08:32:20.119
piece of tension or stress that might be lingering or

2400
08:32:20.360 --> 08:32:24.959
hiding in your body or mind or head.

2401
08:32:26.279 --> 08:32:26.680
To just.

2402
08:32:28.400 --> 08:32:35.080
Be sucked out on the top of your head at least.

2403
08:32:38.520 --> 08:32:45.720
Into Yeah, I wants sucked out into the clouds. Imagine

2404
08:32:45.720 --> 08:32:51.080
a big cloud above your head. It's like a whirlpool,

2405
08:32:51.840 --> 08:32:53.400
and this is can suck that.

2406
08:32:53.799 --> 08:32:57.520
Tension our at the top of your head.

2407
08:32:59.639 --> 08:33:01.119
And just take away.

2408
08:33:02.759 --> 08:33:09.799
The goods your focus. Imagine an opening on the top

2409
08:33:09.880 --> 08:33:15.319
of your head with a tension and stress and any

2410
08:33:15.400 --> 08:33:19.840
remaining issues may be worries of concerns that have no

2411
08:33:20.200 --> 08:33:20.759
use to you.

2412
08:33:20.919 --> 08:33:24.680
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2413
08:33:24.720 --> 08:33:25.560
of your head.

2414
08:33:27.040 --> 08:33:33.000
And taken away. As I count down again from twenty

2415
08:33:33.400 --> 08:34:13.479
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, eighteen, sixteen fifty

2416
08:34:19.119 --> 08:35:16.479
fourteen thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten nine seven six by.

2417
08:35:21.880 --> 08:35:36.599
Four three two w.

2418
08:35:47.040 --> 08:36:03.159
Bree. I'm noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm

2419
08:36:05.159 --> 08:36:19.479
you physically and mentally feel right now, how peaceful your

2420
08:36:19.759 --> 08:36:26.040
mind feels. It feels so nice to just let go,

2421
08:36:28.319 --> 08:36:37.599
to give yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly,

2422
08:36:42.720 --> 08:36:47.840
just to take a break from all that pointless worry

2423
08:36:48.080 --> 08:36:53.279
and concerns about things that you don't need to think

2424
08:36:53.360 --> 08:37:04.200
about right now, because this is your time to let go.

2425
08:37:05.599 --> 08:37:15.360
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2426
08:37:15.479 --> 08:37:22.759
in your mind, relaxed in your body. I can feel

2427
08:37:23.319 --> 08:37:33.119
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2428
08:37:35.439 --> 08:37:44.360
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2429
08:37:45.919 --> 08:37:59.000
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with being

2430
08:37:59.560 --> 08:38:10.919
in this peaceful space. And you can keep this sense

2431
08:38:11.119 --> 08:38:13.880
of calmness for as long.

2432
08:38:13.680 --> 08:38:14.720
As you choose.

2433
08:38:22.759 --> 08:38:28.479
If you choose to drift off into a deep, healing,

2434
08:38:28.840 --> 08:38:37.599
natural sleep, then you can do that. It's completely up

2435
08:38:37.680 --> 08:38:45.599
to you, and you can keep this feeling of calmness

2436
08:38:46.560 --> 08:38:52.959
physically in your mind as long as you choose to

2437
08:38:53.159 --> 08:39:08.439
feel completely relaxed, completely relax. And I'd like you to

2438
08:39:08.959 --> 08:39:22.840
make up your mind that you're going to relax, and

2439
08:39:22.880 --> 08:39:26.080
I want to explore that with you. What it feels

2440
08:39:26.240 --> 08:39:33.080
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

2441
08:39:34.759 --> 08:39:41.360
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. Yes, it is

2442
08:39:41.439 --> 08:39:46.400
a command, really, isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax

2443
08:39:48.599 --> 08:39:53.880
in a gentle but firm way, that only you can

2444
08:39:53.959 --> 08:39:58.880
really tell yourself in that way. You can't really have

2445
08:39:59.000 --> 08:40:03.639
someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax, you know,

2446
08:40:04.639 --> 08:40:07.880
and it needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone

2447
08:40:07.919 --> 08:40:14.919
else can't really have the same the same kind of

2448
08:40:15.560 --> 08:40:24.520
influence or power that you have over your own physicality,

2449
08:40:25.319 --> 08:40:34.319
over how you feel, because when you say it to

2450
08:40:34.439 --> 08:40:42.840
yourself it means more. It's personal, and your brain and

2451
08:40:43.080 --> 08:40:50.759
your unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

2452
08:40:51.040 --> 08:40:54.799
for example, we'll test it out and do a little test,

2453
08:40:54.919 --> 08:40:58.560
a few little tests along the way, and you can

2454
08:40:58.680 --> 08:41:04.279
get more of an idea ear of the force, the

2455
08:41:04.400 --> 08:41:11.400
positive force that you can have in creating a sense

2456
08:41:11.520 --> 08:41:15.400
of comfort and relaxation in your body and your mind

2457
08:41:16.599 --> 08:41:29.159
quite quickly, just by you telling yourself to relax. So

2458
08:41:29.520 --> 08:41:32.759
I'm going to start by it's focus on your hands.

2459
08:41:36.400 --> 08:41:38.560
To focus on your hands and just tell your hands

2460
08:41:38.959 --> 08:41:44.919
to relax, and just say relax. As you focus on

2461
08:41:45.000 --> 08:41:51.959
your hands, you could say my hands are relaxed, or

2462
08:41:52.000 --> 08:41:56.080
I want my hands to relax. But I think if

2463
08:41:56.119 --> 08:42:02.799
you actually do it directly by focusing and imagining that

2464
08:42:02.919 --> 08:42:06.680
your hands can hear what you're saying, you know, like

2465
08:42:06.759 --> 08:42:12.000
they've got little ears, it is a little weird. So

2466
08:42:12.240 --> 08:42:29.080
talking to your hands and just say relax, noticin. Now

2467
08:42:29.159 --> 08:42:44.520
your hands start to relax. Now focus on your eyes

2468
08:42:45.040 --> 08:42:48.400
and tell your eyes to relax. You're just saying the

2469
08:42:48.479 --> 08:42:55.439
same word relax. And find the right tone for you.

2470
08:42:58.000 --> 08:43:02.400
You know, I might say relax, but you you might

2471
08:43:02.520 --> 08:43:09.880
say relax or relax. You know, you might say it

2472
08:43:10.000 --> 08:43:17.599
differently to yourself, and that's important for you to gauge

2473
08:43:17.880 --> 08:43:23.200
what feels right for you. To just tell your eyes

2474
08:43:24.439 --> 08:43:28.639
to relax whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids, the

2475
08:43:28.759 --> 08:43:34.240
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell your

2476
08:43:34.439 --> 08:43:38.919
eyes directly relax.

2477
08:43:40.799 --> 08:43:40.959
Now.

2478
08:44:07.759 --> 08:44:17.919
Now I just did that myself, and sometimes you may

2479
08:44:18.040 --> 08:44:22.720
feel that you need a bit more time for the

2480
08:44:22.799 --> 08:44:26.479
different parts to relax, you know, because I start talking

2481
08:44:26.560 --> 08:44:31.840
again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what

2482
08:44:31.919 --> 08:44:34.319
will happen is that it will just continue to relax

2483
08:44:34.439 --> 08:44:38.639
even though I'm talking. And that's happening with my eyes.

2484
08:44:41.599 --> 08:44:46.200
Something else I noticed is when I started focusing on

2485
08:44:46.279 --> 08:44:50.240
my eyes, that actually almost became They got worse before

2486
08:44:50.279 --> 08:44:53.080
they got better in a way. So I felt a

2487
08:44:53.200 --> 08:44:58.479
degree of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing.

2488
08:45:00.200 --> 08:45:02.360
So I think what that was really is just me

2489
08:45:02.560 --> 08:45:08.840
becoming more aware of the tension that was already there

2490
08:45:09.439 --> 08:45:14.560
that I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't

2491
08:45:14.720 --> 08:45:32.959
really acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah,

2492
08:45:33.119 --> 08:45:36.520
my eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as

2493
08:45:36.599 --> 08:45:42.520
my hands. Actually, my hands have got a certain kind

2494
08:45:42.560 --> 08:45:48.560
of energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of

2495
08:45:50.959 --> 08:45:56.840
fuel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

2496
08:45:56.919 --> 08:46:01.759
where the tension is being released. Yeah, that's causing that,

2497
08:46:09.159 --> 08:46:11.439
and it's part I think we should focus.

2498
08:46:11.119 --> 08:46:12.080
On the back of the neck.

2499
08:46:12.799 --> 08:46:17.959
That's a part which quite often well for me, holds tension.

2500
08:46:18.000 --> 08:46:20.799
I don't know about for yourself that. I think it's

2501
08:46:20.919 --> 08:46:25.639
quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held.

2502
08:46:27.200 --> 08:46:30.360
So and I'm doing.

2503
08:46:30.439 --> 08:46:33.080
Exactly what you're doing as you do it as well,

2504
08:46:33.240 --> 08:46:37.159
so I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

2505
08:46:37.919 --> 08:46:39.799
So if you tell your neck at the back of.

2506
08:46:39.840 --> 08:46:42.400
Your neck, focus on the back of your neck, and

2507
08:46:42.599 --> 08:46:49.959
just say relax in your own words, in your own tone,

2508
08:46:50.319 --> 08:46:53.159
in your own voice. You can say out loud, or

2509
08:46:53.240 --> 08:46:57.599
you can just say it to yourself internally. But you're

2510
08:46:57.720 --> 08:47:02.159
focusing and you're saying it actually to the back of

2511
08:47:02.200 --> 08:47:04.680
your neck. Is if the back of your.

2512
08:47:04.680 --> 08:47:06.040
Neck you can actually hear.

2513
08:47:06.720 --> 08:47:07.439
What you're saying.

2514
08:47:10.840 --> 08:47:14.439
So do that now, Just say relax to the back

2515
08:47:14.479 --> 08:47:16.959
of your neck, and I'll do the same.

2516
08:47:55.759 --> 08:47:59.279
Then what I noticed, and you may have had similar

2517
08:47:59.360 --> 08:48:03.840
thing is even though I was focusing on the back

2518
08:48:03.880 --> 08:48:14.799
of my neck, other parts started to I don't know,

2519
08:48:15.159 --> 08:48:18.560
show themselves to me or maybe because they want to

2520
08:48:18.599 --> 08:48:22.479
be relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings

2521
08:48:22.520 --> 08:48:25.919
in my shoulders, attention in my shoulders and in my

2522
08:48:26.080 --> 08:48:33.279
upper back. Whether that was because my back of my

2523
08:48:33.439 --> 08:48:38.919
neck was saying well, I'm pretty much okay, it's the

2524
08:48:39.040 --> 08:48:40.000
other parts.

2525
08:48:39.759 --> 08:48:40.680
That need attention.

2526
08:48:47.080 --> 08:48:50.080
But my low back of my neck is still relaxing,

2527
08:48:51.560 --> 08:48:54.040
but I just became more aware of other parts that

2528
08:48:54.279 --> 08:49:02.919
needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not. It

2529
08:49:03.000 --> 08:49:06.439
doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means you're

2530
08:49:06.560 --> 08:49:11.360
being notified of more places that.

2531
08:49:11.520 --> 08:49:13.200
Also want to feel relaxed.

2532
08:49:16.439 --> 08:49:20.799
So I'm going to focus on my upper back. So

2533
08:49:21.040 --> 08:49:24.639
you can do the same even if you don't have

2534
08:49:24.840 --> 08:49:30.159
any feelings of tension that obvious in your upper back,

2535
08:49:31.919 --> 08:49:36.560
if you just focus on your back and the whole

2536
08:49:36.680 --> 08:49:41.439
area from the shoulder blades down to the middle of

2537
08:49:41.520 --> 08:49:45.840
your back and the spine. And with me, it's more

2538
08:49:45.880 --> 08:49:54.279
the shoulder blades are more. Yeah, that's the parts that really.

2539
08:49:56.159 --> 08:49:57.840
Sort of giving me.

2540
08:49:59.520 --> 08:50:03.720
The no that it needs relaxing. And so it's going

2541
08:50:03.799 --> 08:50:05.639
to ask that part to relax.

2542
08:50:06.439 --> 08:50:07.880
And you can do the same now.

2543
08:50:18.919 --> 08:50:34.840
Relaxed up the back. There's something strange happened there, and

2544
08:50:35.000 --> 08:50:37.439
this often happens.

2545
08:50:37.520 --> 08:50:38.400
I've been doing this for.

2546
08:50:41.319 --> 08:50:49.279
Sixteen years or something, and often I'm one surprised but amazed.

2547
08:50:49.360 --> 08:50:55.240
Really bad, there can be a feeling. So when I

2548
08:50:55.439 --> 08:50:58.880
was focusing on the back of my neck, my upper

2549
08:50:58.959 --> 08:51:03.840
back was starting to feel quite stressed and in need

2550
08:51:04.000 --> 08:51:09.319
of attention. As soon as I started talking to you

2551
08:51:09.599 --> 08:51:14.759
about my upper back and talking about, you know, getting

2552
08:51:14.840 --> 08:51:19.560
ready to ask the upper back to relax, why the

2553
08:51:19.639 --> 08:51:25.279
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

2554
08:51:25.400 --> 08:51:35.680
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

2555
08:51:35.880 --> 08:51:47.680
needs to be noticed. And that is something that often

2556
08:51:47.880 --> 08:51:54.840
happens in this type of situation is when you start

2557
08:51:55.919 --> 08:52:00.919
to relax a couple of parts of your body, as

2558
08:52:00.959 --> 08:52:07.360
we've done with our hands, the eyes and eyelids, and

2559
08:52:07.639 --> 08:52:16.360
now back of the neck, top of the back, up

2560
08:52:16.439 --> 08:52:19.840
the back, the rest of the body seems to just

2561
08:52:21.240 --> 08:52:31.080
take notice and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

2562
08:52:32.919 --> 08:52:38.319
Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

2563
08:52:43.080 --> 08:52:45.880
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

2564
08:52:46.040 --> 08:52:50.799
you know, the little ball starts rolling, and before you

2565
08:52:50.919 --> 08:52:53.919
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

2566
08:52:53.959 --> 08:53:10.639
and can't And if you focus on your face, you

2567
08:53:10.759 --> 08:53:18.360
focus on your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrows, and the

2568
08:53:18.479 --> 08:53:26.880
muscles around your eyes, and maybe you start to notice

2569
08:53:27.040 --> 08:53:33.720
that your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe

2570
08:53:33.759 --> 08:53:39.360
your face is more relaxed. I would say my entire

2571
08:53:39.520 --> 08:53:54.319
face is a lot more relaxed than it was. So

2572
08:53:54.400 --> 08:54:01.080
we're going to focus now on your shoulders, just like before.

2573
08:54:02.479 --> 08:54:05.759
Just tell your shoulders. I mean, you can't do them

2574
08:54:05.799 --> 08:54:08.000
in the digity. You can do the right shoulder and

2575
08:54:08.080 --> 08:54:12.439
their shoulder. I just can't do both at the same time.

2576
08:54:14.479 --> 08:54:17.720
Just tell your shoulders as you focus on them in

2577
08:54:17.799 --> 08:54:23.919
your mind, focus on how I feel. Maybe you can

2578
08:54:24.279 --> 08:54:31.000
see them in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders

2579
08:54:34.799 --> 08:55:25.279
to relax as nice as they relax. But I do

2580
08:55:25.400 --> 08:55:33.279
you notice, I mean, especially with my back, is the

2581
08:55:33.479 --> 08:55:39.279
connection between the different parts the back, the shoulders, the

2582
08:55:39.520 --> 08:55:49.599
neck being all connected and being such a large part

2583
08:55:49.680 --> 08:55:55.680
of your body, it's almost hard to separate them from

2584
08:55:55.720 --> 08:56:03.759
each other. And my luwer back has started to relax

2585
08:56:03.840 --> 08:56:14.720
on the same Maybe I'm going too slow and that

2586
08:56:14.840 --> 08:56:19.240
could be an issue because we all go at different speeds.

2587
08:56:21.479 --> 08:56:25.560
And the idea at the beginning of this recording was

2588
08:56:25.639 --> 08:56:28.159
for you to be able to just say to yourself,

2589
08:56:31.720 --> 08:56:44.479
relax without focusing on any particular part of your body.

2590
08:56:46.720 --> 08:56:53.080
Because when you know that, tenning your hands to relax

2591
08:56:56.799 --> 08:57:04.439
and your hands relax, h you tell your eyelids and

2592
08:57:04.560 --> 08:57:10.919
your eyes, the muscles around your eyes, and your eyebrows

2593
08:57:11.959 --> 08:57:17.279
to relax, and they relax.

2594
08:57:23.040 --> 08:57:25.599
You tell the back of your neck.

2595
08:57:28.759 --> 08:57:44.840
To relax, and it relaxes. You tell your upper back

2596
08:57:51.479 --> 08:58:15.000
to relax, and the relaxis the telli you shoulders to relax,

2597
08:58:25.439 --> 08:58:51.840
and they relaxed. And you told your hands to relax,

2598
08:58:52.639 --> 08:58:54.040
they relaxed and.

2599
08:58:54.119 --> 08:58:55.759
They continued.

2600
08:58:56.840 --> 08:59:08.360
To relax. When you told your eyelids, the muscles around

2601
08:59:08.400 --> 08:59:15.360
your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed.

2602
08:59:18.439 --> 08:59:20.360
And continued.

2603
08:59:21.240 --> 08:59:29.959
To relax. When you told the back of your neck,

2604
08:59:31.319 --> 08:59:37.119
focused on the back of your neck and told it

2605
08:59:37.279 --> 08:59:43.479
to relax, the relaxed.

2606
08:59:45.319 --> 08:59:47.000
And continued.

2607
08:59:47.799 --> 09:00:02.840
To relax. And you told your alpa back to relax,

2608
09:00:04.840 --> 09:00:19.799
be relaxed and continued to relax. That's with your shoulders.

2609
09:00:22.240 --> 09:00:28.799
You told your shoulders to relax, in your shoulders relaxed

2610
09:00:29.319 --> 09:00:36.799
and continued to relax.

2611
09:00:42.479 --> 09:00:47.400
And it's not just that, It's.

2612
09:00:50.080 --> 09:00:54.520
That the rest of your body has also been listening,

2613
09:00:56.200 --> 09:01:02.319
and no relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

2614
09:01:02.639 --> 09:01:09.840
the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face.

2615
09:01:09.799 --> 09:01:22.880
Into your skin, into your jaw, into.

2616
09:01:22.680 --> 09:01:26.479
The front of the side of your neck, all the

2617
09:01:26.560 --> 09:01:37.159
way down your chest and stomach, your relaxed hands and

2618
09:01:37.400 --> 09:01:47.520
shoulders me up through your arms, relaxing the fearms your

2619
09:01:48.319 --> 09:01:51.959
upper arms, elbows, your wrists.

2620
09:01:55.119 --> 09:01:55.599
Letting go.

2621
09:02:03.200 --> 09:02:13.000
The lower back, the hips. But explain and just start

2622
09:02:13.159 --> 09:02:15.560
to relax and continue.

2623
09:02:16.439 --> 09:02:16.959
And love.

2624
09:02:18.319 --> 09:02:22.279
Comfort spreading through your legs.

2625
09:02:27.080 --> 09:02:29.360
All the way down to your.

2626
09:02:29.240 --> 09:02:38.599
Ankles, the tops of your feet, the side.

2627
09:02:38.400 --> 09:02:47.520
Of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet, real lexing.

2628
09:02:50.720 --> 09:02:51.799
Into your toes.

2629
09:02:55.599 --> 09:03:02.159
Each tone relaxing, come.

2630
09:03:05.240 --> 09:03:23.919
Please, And if your body relaxes more, your mind becomes

2631
09:03:28.720 --> 09:03:45.080
slower and more peaceful, to the point where.

2632
09:03:47.000 --> 09:03:50.439
If you choose to.

2633
09:03:50.599 --> 09:04:07.319
Fall asleep, it can easily do that. He said, really

2634
09:04:08.040 --> 09:04:15.840
the way, because there's nothing going on in your mind.

2635
09:04:19.520 --> 09:05:00.639
The phrase spaceful you body to tease writes with that

2636
09:05:00.919 --> 09:05:09.959
connection between your body relaxing, the word you say to yourself.

2637
09:05:11.919 --> 09:05:23.000
Relax means that you don't need to focus on just

2638
09:05:23.319 --> 09:05:31.240
one part. You can just focus on your entire body.

2639
09:05:37.400 --> 09:05:59.680
Saying the powerful word relas and there's a goose, a mini.

2640
09:06:01.159 --> 09:06:04.880
Sensations of comfort.

2641
09:06:06.159 --> 09:06:24.879
Spreading throughout your body, loosening and calming and healing, every

2642
09:06:25.160 --> 09:06:51.559
power to your body, eating more relaxed. So all you

2643
09:06:51.919 --> 09:06:56.959
need to do from now on is just telling yourself

2644
09:07:00.919 --> 09:07:55.239
right eving completely now starting now with number twenty nineteen eighteen.

2645
09:08:05.400 --> 09:08:54.519
Seven six fIF.

2646
09:09:00.080 --> 09:10:00.120
Foo you.

2647
09:10:05.879 --> 09:12:45.000
Well, y.

2648
09:14:28.800 --> 09:16:37.319
U attatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatata.

2649
09:15:50.480 --> 09:18:36.720
Sut why.

2650
09:18:50.319 --> 09:20:04.680
S y.

2651
09:21:24.959 --> 09:21:25.199
One?

2652
09:21:31.559 --> 09:21:53.760
So capt down for ten to one ten nine eight, seven, six,

2653
09:21:56.000 --> 09:22:16.160
five four three two one. And maybe that was a

2654
09:22:16.239 --> 09:22:20.760
bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's too

2655
09:22:21.080 --> 09:22:27.120
fast for you to notice the calming of your body,

2656
09:22:30.319 --> 09:22:34.879
maybe even a little bit of pressure there, Like you'll

2657
09:22:34.959 --> 09:22:37.080
count it down from ten to one. What do you

2658
09:22:37.160 --> 09:22:40.480
expect me to do? Man, expect me to stick go

2659
09:22:40.639 --> 09:22:50.279
with floppy just because you're counting down. If you try

2660
09:22:50.279 --> 09:22:56.639
it again, but this time, I'll go this slower this time,

2661
09:22:57.879 --> 09:23:02.879
and you focus on the whole of your body before

2662
09:23:02.959 --> 09:23:09.919
we focus on your legs. Just notice how your body

2663
09:23:10.080 --> 09:23:25.199
does start to feel more relaxed every number that I

2664
09:23:25.360 --> 09:24:16.160
count down ten nine, at eight, seven, six, five, four

2665
09:24:23.559 --> 09:24:37.680
three two.

2666
09:24:58.519 --> 09:24:58.720
One.

2667
09:25:10.120 --> 09:25:15.800
You just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

2668
09:25:15.800 --> 09:25:30.199
body feels. It's not necessarily even about yeah, counting down

2669
09:25:30.480 --> 09:25:37.040
from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

2670
09:25:38.400 --> 09:25:56.839
that space between being active physically or mentally, it's just

2671
09:26:01.599 --> 09:26:06.760
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

2672
09:26:06.959 --> 09:26:13.559
not saying anything, or deeding to think about anything. So

2673
09:26:14.279 --> 09:26:17.279
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

2674
09:26:17.360 --> 09:26:28.319
a space, the gap. And the more I camped down

2675
09:26:28.360 --> 09:26:32.680
for the tent of work, the bigger that gap becomes.

2676
09:26:35.720 --> 09:26:42.080
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort and relaxation.

2677
09:26:48.040 --> 09:27:00.400
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stressing or

2678
09:27:00.919 --> 09:27:03.959
discomforts physically or emotionally.

2679
09:27:04.080 --> 09:27:05.160
Moves them.

2680
09:27:06.680 --> 09:27:07.040
Away.

2681
09:27:13.839 --> 09:27:26.559
Allows you to just slow down. Someone to count again

2682
09:27:26.680 --> 09:27:32.839
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

2683
09:27:35.040 --> 09:27:39.440
the gap, And as it widens, it's almost like the

2684
09:27:41.199 --> 09:27:58.720
stress and tension falls into the gap. It gives you

2685
09:27:58.839 --> 09:28:02.400
that distance in space.

2686
09:28:04.800 --> 09:28:04.839
No.

2687
09:28:09.720 --> 09:30:11.639
Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five four three, And how

2688
09:30:11.720 --> 09:30:15.440
did you How do you feel.

2689
09:30:17.440 --> 09:30:17.599
Now?

2690
09:30:30.360 --> 09:30:42.239
Can you notice that? Do you feel in calmer? Are

2691
09:30:42.279 --> 09:30:46.599
you feeling more relaxed?

2692
09:31:09.120 --> 09:31:13.440
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

2693
09:31:29.440 --> 09:31:49.599
You're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2694
09:31:49.720 --> 09:31:52.959
it's not the most exciting thing to.

2695
09:31:53.000 --> 09:31:59.760
Be doing because I'm sure like most of your body,

2696
09:32:00.239 --> 09:32:02.040
there's not a lot going on right now.

2697
09:32:11.080 --> 09:32:17.400
Just focusing on the hole of your thighs, the tops

2698
09:32:17.440 --> 09:32:23.519
of your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms

2699
09:32:23.559 --> 09:32:30.639
of your thighs, the outer thighs and inner thighs. Basically

2700
09:32:30.879 --> 09:32:32.879
the hole of your thighs that leads.

2701
09:32:33.680 --> 09:32:34.760
Into your hip.

2702
09:32:38.599 --> 09:32:41.279
And it goes down to your.

2703
09:32:43.239 --> 09:32:55.080
Knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's a

2704
09:32:55.239 --> 09:33:02.160
very heavy area, face strong, probably the strongest muscles in

2705
09:33:02.239 --> 09:33:04.360
your body or in your thighs.

2706
09:33:14.559 --> 09:33:15.440
But I don't think we.

2707
09:33:17.239 --> 09:33:23.040
Perhaps will give enough attention to advives.

2708
09:33:29.040 --> 09:33:31.879
Perhaps we don't make.

2709
09:33:31.800 --> 09:33:40.559
The knowledge how important our thighs are to our lives,

2710
09:33:52.080 --> 09:34:01.519
how much they actually do to us work for our lives.

2711
09:34:09.360 --> 09:34:15.040
It may seem sound really weird. I need that all

2712
09:34:15.160 --> 09:34:22.720
of our body parts, especially advice needs some TLC.

2713
09:34:26.040 --> 09:34:27.639
I did love shame.

2714
09:34:35.279 --> 09:34:36.120
That nicely.

2715
09:34:38.919 --> 09:34:39.319
Thank you.

2716
09:34:42.400 --> 09:34:54.919
Gratitude for what advice do for us. And I know

2717
09:34:55.120 --> 09:35:01.160
this may sound as strange. And do you think why

2718
09:35:01.239 --> 09:35:04.360
am I sure? How should be out in the garden

2719
09:35:04.599 --> 09:35:12.800
hugging a tree or something. Oh it's hard to set

2720
09:35:12.919 --> 09:35:16.000
my crophone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing

2721
09:35:16.040 --> 09:35:18.680
this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

2722
09:35:20.120 --> 09:35:29.000
I can't see the television from the tree you move

2723
09:35:29.080 --> 09:35:38.360
down to your knees gain such an important part, and

2724
09:35:38.959 --> 09:35:42.680
I think we don't necessarily I want to speak to

2725
09:35:42.800 --> 09:35:50.480
myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that one needs

2726
09:35:50.480 --> 09:35:55.319
to do for me until I have a problem with

2727
09:35:55.480 --> 09:36:02.680
my knee occasionally, if either bash it or it's aching

2728
09:36:02.839 --> 09:36:09.239
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

2729
09:36:09.360 --> 09:36:13.000
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

2730
09:36:13.959 --> 09:36:20.080
use my legs without a kind.

2731
09:36:19.879 --> 09:36:25.000
Of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing.

2732
09:36:26.400 --> 09:36:34.000
That's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know

2733
09:36:34.160 --> 09:36:43.720
that's comfort. Don't you focus on your these regardless of

2734
09:36:43.839 --> 09:36:49.199
how your needs would feel. You can have that sense

2735
09:36:49.319 --> 09:36:52.319
of gratitude.

2736
09:36:53.080 --> 09:36:56.160
And love to your needs all that they do for it,

2737
09:37:06.559 --> 09:37:06.800
And you.

2738
09:37:06.839 --> 09:37:10.760
Can still have that attention on your thighs. Maybe you

2739
09:37:10.919 --> 09:37:12.639
notice how your thighs.

2740
09:37:12.400 --> 09:37:21.400
Feel, maybe you've noticed that they are your lexim.

2741
09:37:23.480 --> 09:37:26.239
More deeply.

2742
09:37:32.599 --> 09:37:36.839
As you focus now on the bottoms of your.

2743
09:37:36.800 --> 09:37:42.959
Legs machines, and you can't bottles with the bones between

2744
09:37:43.160 --> 09:37:49.319
your knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your

2745
09:37:49.440 --> 09:38:02.519
ankles so important can anyone's head, even like the slightest

2746
09:38:03.000 --> 09:38:04.199
sprain of an ankle.

2747
09:38:05.120 --> 09:38:11.680
Who knows how how much we take our ankles.

2748
09:38:11.279 --> 09:38:19.519
Are granted, and it's kind of strange in a way

2749
09:38:19.599 --> 09:38:25.239
when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists are

2750
09:38:25.239 --> 09:38:25.680
a lot.

2751
09:38:25.559 --> 09:38:30.519
Of inner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

2752
09:38:30.599 --> 09:38:34.319
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that, you know,

2753
09:38:34.559 --> 09:38:35.360
just picking.

2754
09:38:35.120 --> 09:38:35.720
Stuff up.

2755
09:38:37.559 --> 09:38:41.319
Winkles, there's so much thinner.

2756
09:38:42.279 --> 09:38:51.120
Than the rest of our legs. And from that visits.

2757
09:38:50.919 --> 09:38:57.120
Perspective logical even it doesn't really make sense that all.

2758
09:38:57.080 --> 09:39:05.080
This weight the ultimately be resting on your ankles.

2759
09:39:05.639 --> 09:39:07.080
Then leading to your feet.

2760
09:39:11.360 --> 09:39:13.239
And in area.

2761
09:39:14.400 --> 09:39:20.959
In bo Yeah, it does so much great work.

2762
09:39:23.120 --> 09:39:32.639
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

2763
09:39:33.360 --> 09:39:37.080
to balance, helps you to.

2764
09:39:41.040 --> 09:39:42.720
Get around and be mobile.

2765
09:39:49.120 --> 09:39:57.080
There's the card musters. Of course, I'm a younger man.

2766
09:39:57.239 --> 09:40:00.279
I couldn't see the point in clud musters. I didn't

2767
09:40:00.319 --> 09:40:05.639
think to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

2768
09:40:06.440 --> 09:40:08.400
then what car muscles get some work?

2769
09:40:09.760 --> 09:40:11.120
And of course that's not true.

2770
09:40:11.239 --> 09:40:15.800
The car muscles are being used whenever we use our legs.

2771
09:40:21.400 --> 09:40:22.720
And your shoes.

2772
09:40:25.559 --> 09:40:26.919
There to protect.

2773
09:40:28.440 --> 09:40:29.319
Your lower legs.

2774
09:40:33.639 --> 09:40:38.199
Shaped in a way, the most is a protector of

2775
09:40:38.319 --> 09:40:49.440
the bone, leading of course to your ankles.

2776
09:40:52.879 --> 09:41:00.360
In your feet, I'm not going to focus on your think, I'm.

2777
09:41:00.239 --> 09:41:06.800
Just going to focus on the next I realize now

2778
09:41:06.839 --> 09:41:12.000
that I've mentioned your feet cookie fus umblem anyway, so

2779
09:41:12.160 --> 09:41:13.760
maybe I should focus.

2780
09:41:13.440 --> 09:41:14.559
On your feet a little bit.

2781
09:41:18.559 --> 09:41:23.000
You can have them in your awareness the same as

2782
09:41:23.080 --> 09:41:25.279
you and your thighs.

2783
09:41:25.199 --> 09:41:28.040
In your awareness, even though we haven't.

2784
09:41:27.879 --> 09:41:33.319
Been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes and

2785
09:41:33.519 --> 09:41:48.120
you're focusing on your ankles. It's do that sensational comfort

2786
09:41:50.839 --> 09:42:03.800
in your fish's that movements energy because it dies.

2787
09:42:03.720 --> 09:42:11.959
Hold lots of different sensations. Of course, different muscles, the bakes,

2788
09:42:12.279 --> 09:42:15.239
the long muscles than we have in our eyes.

2789
09:42:24.000 --> 09:42:29.720
With the skin on the outside of the pies, as

2790
09:42:29.800 --> 09:42:31.760
in the outside.

2791
09:42:31.199 --> 09:42:34.879
Of all of our body, would be very.

2792
09:42:35.559 --> 09:42:45.639
Sensitive, sensitive to ther time, sensitive to temperature.

2793
09:42:52.239 --> 09:42:59.599
And inside your pies bones there's the muscle.

2794
09:42:59.519 --> 09:43:02.199
Of the like thistles, the arches.

2795
09:43:03.639 --> 09:43:13.080
All this stuff inside of thies. I guess sometimes it

2796
09:43:13.080 --> 09:43:15.080
would be nice if you can actually put your.

2797
09:43:15.120 --> 09:43:22.959
Fingers inside your eyes and message to a message on

2798
09:43:23.080 --> 09:43:28.360
the outside, of course, to get deep into the muscles.

2799
09:43:28.839 --> 09:43:34.400
To be able to just mess out inside your eyes message.

2800
09:43:33.959 --> 09:43:36.319
In the bones and your leg.

2801
09:43:38.519 --> 09:43:39.120
That's all you.

2802
09:43:41.800 --> 09:43:43.239
All the pins and just.

2803
09:43:46.760 --> 09:43:56.879
Ees and you can move it down. Message in inside

2804
09:43:56.919 --> 09:44:01.959
your knees. It's a message and a lands with.

2805
09:44:03.400 --> 09:44:17.559
The tips spread away. The choice m hm, of course

2806
09:44:17.680 --> 09:44:18.599
is the fact and.

2807
09:44:20.319 --> 09:44:23.400
Men inside preece in.

2808
09:44:26.760 --> 09:44:28.279
This sensitive.

2809
09:44:31.040 --> 09:44:32.800
That's like lances strip.

2810
09:44:34.360 --> 09:44:37.639
That might be because it's again it's not the wind

2811
09:44:37.720 --> 09:44:45.400
at touched the most that could be looking at a price.

2812
09:44:47.279 --> 09:44:49.040
Ms almost.

2813
09:44:50.839 --> 09:44:51.720
What part.

2814
09:44:53.480 --> 09:45:06.440
Has a sensitivity so different course is protected by ricks.

2815
09:45:14.160 --> 09:45:19.440
Will be tootings.

2816
09:45:17.279 --> 09:45:29.599
About pas the two lakes, but I'm just at the

2817
09:45:29.680 --> 09:45:37.239
tips and the tips going against side. That's that's a

2818
09:45:37.360 --> 09:45:38.319
lot of shoe.

2819
09:45:42.599 --> 09:45:44.080
You can post feel.

2820
09:45:48.360 --> 09:46:29.519
You don't think, I M keeps pat that's such say

2821
09:46:30.040 --> 09:47:13.720
sheep s m M