April 28, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1340 | 28th April 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1340 | 28th April 2025
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Hello, Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's

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Jason Newland and welcome to let Me boil you to sleep.

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This is Monday's Boring Objects and today it's Monday, the

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twenty eighth of April twenty twenty five. And I'll tell

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you what right, it's eleven twenty.

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I don't know why.

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I mean, I haven't made a recording since the last

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recording I did was Friday.

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I think I can't remember. Do you do? I bought

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a dudd.

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Let me Boil your pain away recording in on Saturday. Possibly, Yeah,

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I did yad did so, I did Q and A

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Friday Friday. H that's weird, but yeah, so, but you

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know what, it's eleven eleven. At what time did it

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say it was? It's eleven twenty one. I've had one

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hundred and eighty five downloads today, like the whole day.

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And I don't know what's going on. I can't I

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can't believe. I can't believe it.

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Oh yeah, So I've got a website, Jasonnewland dot com.

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If you like, you can send me messages on there.

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The website's pretty good. It's all got all my latest recordings.

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Ultimately all my recordings.

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Are on there.

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Also, Jason Newland's boring group is my Facebook group, so

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that's pretty cool. And what else my YouTube channel at

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Jason Newland the YouTube channels again.

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It's.

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Ever since, right, ever since I've been just uploading the

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latest recordings on there, it's gone a bit. I mean,

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I've had a couple of new subscribers to day. But

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so I can't really complain.

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But it's just it's not what it was.

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But is it my fault? I don't want to be

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on screen. I don't want to be on a video.

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It's not my fault.

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Videos. Why for some reason, I.

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Was only a little lie down just now. Then he

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was on the window sill in the bedroom, was looking

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out and everything's peaceful. He's some bathing. I'm just having

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a little rest listening to an audio book.

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So I'm not really asleep.

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I'm just listening to an audio book, just laying down,

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rested my body, resting, my eyes, rested, my mind, and.

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Out of nowhere.

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Right right right like starts barking.

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I was.

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I get up and I say stop, stop, get down

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off there. And all I do is I touch him,

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I touch his back.

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I prodded him. I literally just put my hands on him.

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Get down.

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He's ground at me like it's like I can't.

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I know he's a dog, and I know the dog's

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bark Okay, I'm aware of that. I've been around the

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world and I've had him for two and a half years,

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so I know that he barks. However, I have to

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keep his barking to a minimum because there is a

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there's an after effect. There's consequences of him barking too much,

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and that is neighbors getting annoy Wait also other dogs

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barking as well, But none of that bothers me personally,

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I don't care, but it affects my neighbors.

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And then.

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The sound, you know, then maybe music's put on it's

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very loud to cover up the bark barking. Then someone

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else puts their music up to cover up it's like

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to try and cover up that music. And it can

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just be that role on effect. So if I can

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keep him quiet, It's not that I expect people not

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to have music on.

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It's to do what they want.

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But I don't want people to feel they have to

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drown out his barking. Do you know what I mean?

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In it you get me swear down. So I'm just

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trying to explain that I don't know. I'm not in

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one second moaning about my neighbors downstairs because they are

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brilliant neighbors, really brilliant. So yeah, I'm not not complaining.

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I mean, none of the neighbors really are an issue

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to me.

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They're all all right.

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So while we're while I'm being false, let's talk about

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what can I what my I thought about doing it

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like a three pronged thing.

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So what am I we could not do it together?

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Maybe what am I?

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Yeah, that's it, and I write it down because I

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remember it, but it's it's one of those weird things

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that I was thinking about this last night in bed.

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So three the three.

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I don't not to call them so so grateful one

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think I'm grateful about one thing I forgive and one

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thing I'm looking forward to. So I'm going to I'm

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going to just try and start doing that. In case

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I haven't already said it, please only listen to this

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when you can safely close your eyes.

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So I'm going to try.

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And this is just a new thing I used to do,

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the gratitude thing. Three things you're grateful for. I struggled

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to find one sometimes, so I thought, I know, when

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I'm feeling grateful, the list is endless. Okay, so I thought, okay,

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listen instead of putting, because this isn't supposed to be

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a test, This isn't supposed to be something that puts you.

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On the spot.

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It's just a relaxing, calm, chilled out thing. So one

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thing that we're grateful for, one thing that we're all

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that we all forgive. It might be something you've already forgiven.

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It might be something that you decide, yeah, I forgive that,

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I forgive that person, or I forgive whatever.

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It could just be.

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Something really small. But you know what, if we do

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a small thing every day, it means they're never build up.

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And then something we're looking forward to. And I know

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that the literal term of looking forward to something is

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you're thinking about something that's about it's going to happen

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in the future. That literally the term looking forward to,

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but it's not used in that way, is it in

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the English language. Generally it's something you may be not

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necessarily excited about, maybe excited, but something that you're feeling

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positive about, something.

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That you're feeling good.

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You know, you feel nice. You think about it and

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you feel nice. Maybe and I realized I've just explained

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the very simple term to people that know what it means.

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I'm sorry.

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Don't mean to be condescending, So I'm sorry about that.

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By the way, condescending is kind of it's like talking

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down to someone explaining to someone's explaining something to someone

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that maybe that they kind of obviously would understand. It's

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I guess being condescending is it's kind of expecting of

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a person not to be very very clever.

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Like that. Oh that makes me laugh.

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I'm sorry, sorry about being your don condescended. By the way,

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what condescending means is right grateful. So if you just

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think about this, what you're grateful for? What do you forgive?

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What you're looking forward to? So I'm want to say mine,

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you ain't got a joining with this, I mean it

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might be at home thinking shut up. I don't want

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to tell you what I'm grateful for. I don't want

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to tell you. I don't want to think about something

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I forgive. I don't want to look forward to anything.

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Just get on monkey boy and tell us about something boring.

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So that that might be.

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What you're thinking, which is fine, okay.

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So.

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What am I grateful for right this minute?

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I'm grateful that I'm sitting here and doing this because

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an hour ago I didn't want to, and all weekend

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I didn't want to. So yeah, I'm grateful that I

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actually am sitting here making this recording. So that's what

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I'm grateful for. What are you grateful for?

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Maybe you could just.

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Post on YouTube or whatever what you're grateful for on

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my I don't know, maybe on the Facebook, on Jason

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Leuland's boring group. Just maybe just put in what you're

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grateful if you want. If you don't, that's also fine.

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I don't mean like go and grab your phone and

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do it now, because this is chill out time. Something

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that you forget, something I forgive? Let me think I

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forgive one of my.

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Neighbors for.

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Yeah, I forgive her for borrowing money not paying it back. Yeah,

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I forgive that. It's actually someone I saw yesterday and

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I got really well for him, Like you know what,

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I don't care about it anymore, but you know I do.

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I forgive.

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I was holding on to it a bit, so I

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forgive that. And is there anything that you forgive? Maybe

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you could forgive me, forgive me for making all these recordings.

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So I'm trying to think next is something that we're

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looking forward to. I'm going to do this at the

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beginning of every recording, so you probably I don't unless

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you don't want me to, then I won't, Okay. So

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I'm not here to I'm not here to annoy people.

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I'm not here just to. It's not my only intention

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it's to annoy people. So something to look forward to?

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What am I?

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I want to do this genuinely rather than there might

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have to be things that I make up in a

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sense of like okay, or I might have to search

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for it rather than make it up. What am I

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looking forward to? Maybe you'd like to think of something

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that you're looking forward to, or maybe you've already done it,

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maybe it's already there, maybe it's in your mind. Anyway,

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something am I looking forward to? That's a good that's

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not supposed to be difficult?

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Is it is difficult?

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I'm looking for? This is what I'm looking forward to.

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I'm looking forward to getting myself some new glasses, going

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to the opticians, getting myself some new glasses, and then

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getting back to reading a bit more like I used to.

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That's what I'm looking forward to, because I realized, I mean,

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I do listen to a lot of audio books, so

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technically I am reading.

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In a sense, but.

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I yeah, I missed that because that used to be

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part of my identity as a child, not just as

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a child, but as an adult, you know, for decades,

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So reading something that are actually physically looking at her

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book reading rather than looking at a computer screen. And yeah,

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so that's what I'm looking forward to, which means I

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need to make an appointment at the opticians and get

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that sorted.

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But it's just.

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Even though I do get discounts and stuff decent frames,

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they are quite expensive and.

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I get a.

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For me, I don't care so much about the glasses

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that i'm reading with if I'm at home reading or

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even well that's the only place I would aladly be

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reading nowadays, but being out, you know, because I'm going

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to have separate gu I mean, he said separate glasses,

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Separate glasses for reading, separate glasses for day to day

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and maybe even ask if I can get some separate

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glasses for screenwork, because I think it's been affected my eyes.

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So I don't care what they look like, the ones

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I use to look at a computer, the ones I

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used to read with. I don't care. They can be

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pink and have little I don't know, little fireworks shooting

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at of them.

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I don't know.

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It doesn't matter to me. Little windmills, remember those little windmills.

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You get a sea sea fronts on a stick. They

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can have those sticking out. I don't care, because, Okay,

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I don't want them to have little windmills, but I

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wouldn't necessarily have that on my normal glasses that I

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was walking around in. But the reason it costs a

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bit for my normal glasses is because I think I'm

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going to be talking about glasses. This is the boring

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objects today. I probably talked about it before, but I'm

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going to do it again. Boring objects glasses.

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Here we go.

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See, I didn't know what I was going to talk about. Now, No,

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I'm going to talk about glasses, So I've kind of

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led into it and I by by discussing classes. So

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I need to have actor like glasses because I've got

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a heredity. There's a couple of hereditary things in my

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family on my dad's side. One is prostrate stuff, which

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i've so far been okay with got tested with that,

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but three of my family members haven't been or they've

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been affected by it, like you know, badly affected by it.

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So the other thing, I just don't like saying a word,

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to be honest with you, I just don't don't that's yeah.

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And then the other thing is osteoporosis. But that seems

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to be effected in the female side rather than the

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male side. But it can affect I mean, it's the

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percentage of male to female. I think it's higher for females.

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I'm going to check that, make sure I'm not osteo porosis.

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Did did it?

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Osteoporosis female to male two male ratio? Okay, here we go,

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here we go. So, although female to ratio was three

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was three in several studies from the US, more recent

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data from Canada and Europe indicated of ratio of one four.

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Oh no, whoa, I think she used to do with

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bone density.

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Really, it's nothing to do with sex. Well maybe it is,

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but not sex like so.

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I think in the old days it used to be

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called brittle bones. My nan had it really bad, and

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I think I think two of my aunties have got it.

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So but she was very old, elderly, my nan. She

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had to take this massive tablet. It's honestly, she had

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to like just suck on it for hours. Is it

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like vitmin d or something. Does she take like a

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calcium tablet? She take once once a once a week,

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I think. But so that's another thing. I don't know.

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It was questioned a bit of me because I've had

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so many breaks, so many broken bones over the last

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few years, that maybe there's some density issues. But then

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I spoke to my doctor about that. So I had

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to have a doctor's appointment on the phone, and he said, well,

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when you fractured your back falling down the stairs, that

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when you fractured your back trying to put your socks on,

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I don't think it's anything wrong with your back. Your

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back's fine, you know. No, when I fell down the

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stairs fractured my back and I had a CT scan.

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They we said they should sort of picked up on

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that if there were, you know, if there was an

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issue with your with your back, with you with your

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bones and stuffy, but they were if they're not looking

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for it, I don't know. Hopefully not, you know, I'm

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not bothered, but hopefully fine. But the other thing, let's

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talk about diseases. Yeah, no, it's macro degeneration, which is again.

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It's in the family, which is.

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My men had it, my dad's got it, which is

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an eye an eye thing, So macro degeneration, it's an

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eye condition or mecula. Not macro mecula. Sorry, is a

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it's a common idea eye disorder, especially among older dudes, adults,

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where the central part of the retina, the macula, deteriorates.

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So it's kind of a.

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What you're hustling me for?

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Vinnie? What is it? What do you want?

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He keeps trying to get into the window sill. Do

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you promise to behave if you go into the window sill? Right?

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Go on?

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Then go on, good boy.

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So he's gone.

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I put him. I told him, I said get out.

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But what I mean is, please go through.

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The door, all right? He doesn't. Vinnie, you can.

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I'm not leaving that door open. But if you want

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to go and go into the window sill in the bedroom,

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you can. But if you bark, you're gonna have to.

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Come in here. Nothing I do is good enough for him.

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It's not good enough, is it? I don't know what

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you want? Mate, I can open this window.

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Is that what you want from me to pull the

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curtains that you've got?

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Oh?

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Is that better?

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Is that more substantial?

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You've got a bit more bit more sun? Is that

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better for you?

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God?

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It's constantly moaning. Yes, it's it's just a nice thing.

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It's it's digit it's just aging. It's an aging thing.

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I think, maybe not always, but it's more common in

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more older people. But older could I mean it's I'm

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technically in the older group now and I am fifty four.

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So my optician did say that it looked like I

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might have the beginning of it.

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So what they did did? They started?

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I started having actor like glasses to sort of protect

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me from the sun and sunlight and stuff. So I

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will continue that, but it's expensive. It adds some fair

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bit of money to the lenses. And I have anti

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glow as well or anti shine, I don't know what

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the right word, but yeah, I have that on there,

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and it's like a coating thing. Although I think they

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might have actually come with them last time. I feel

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that I should maybe make an appointment that the the opticians. Now,

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shall I should I make an appointment?

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Should I do it?

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On the phone so you can hear, but then I

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don't want to.

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I don't know I could do it.

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I can make an appointment on the phone, So I'm

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just gonna.

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Yeah. I think reading because the glasses I've got.

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At the moment, it's got all. It's basically got all three.

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It's like three free lenses in one. So the middle

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is kind of I think the top the bottom is

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for reading, and I think the middle is the middle

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is for distance, and I think the top is for

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my computer. I'm not sure. Maybe it's only got two.

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It's a long time ago. It's been over three years

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since our last got my eyes tested. I need to

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get them tested again.

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I do who am I with eyes? Eyes? Not eyes?

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Are us eye spotters? Nope?

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Do you know I was actually in I was in Iceland,

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the store, not the country, and I didn't have a

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passport at the time, so the store was the closest

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I could get to that environment. And I think I

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basically there was a little QB on me. I'd put

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all my stuff through, and the I think I'd packed

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all my bags and the lady behind the counter, because

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one knows like lowered counters, I think it might have

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had a like all mechanical thing that pushes along. I

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forget what they called conveyor, conveyor belt or whatever. And

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she said, oh, you've forgotten something that I'm putting into

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the bag. I said, thanks, this lady, there's this lady.

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That lady, A lady who was waiting next to be said,

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shouted out, should have gone to Spec Shavers.

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And I thought, really, because.

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Bearing in mind, I was wearing glasses. So you know,

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it's a disability, isn't it, you know, eyesight and stuff.

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I'm not that. I'm just like I wasn't upset.

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Just just like, Okay, So if I was troubling, if

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I was in a wheelchair struggling to get upper upper ramp,

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should have gone to a different weight, should have got

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a better wheelchair.

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Like no, I said, I.

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Just it's a human error. I just didn't see it.

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How couldn't you see it as a big pack of cokes? Okay,

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perhaps I need to get me ice tested. Perhaps you're

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right I should have gone to Specsavers. I did go

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to Spec Savers. I meant lots of different vets opticians

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over the years. I get my luck between them. Two

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the looks I get and I just I just found

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it weird. It's one of those like she wasn't really

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I don't know, she just watched it too much TV.

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Because it's an advert should have gone to Spect savers.

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But it just seems weird to hear an advert being

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chucked out in a real life situation, especially as it's

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such an old phrase. It's like, what, thirty years old

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since I've been having their adverts. Should have gone to Spect.

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I'm like, okay, And I just I didn't know really

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what to do or what to say. I just wanted

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to move on with my life. I just wanted to

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just to I suppose I should have put her down

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as one of the people I forgive. I thought, I advocate.

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Let it go, man, let it go.

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It was fifteen years ago.

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I know, I know it was. It was a long

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time ago. Fifteen years maybe not fifteen years, probably nine years,

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eight years maybe since I've been wearing glasses.

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So yeah, i'd been.

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Wearing glasses since. Wre's the history. Here's the history of

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my glasses.

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I went to.

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I started getting headaches. Actually that's what it was. When

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I was about fifteen. It's about fifteen, and I was

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getting headaches so my mummy took me to the dentist

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because she was she wasn't too bright, took me to

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your doctors.

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Isn't it weird?

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I was fifteen, I was still going to the doctors

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with my mummy. That actually shows I just wasn't.

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I didn't.

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I just did.

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Yeah, I didn't go to the doctors on my own

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until I was sixteen. I don't even I don't even

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know if that's normal, but I didn't want to go immune.

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If I'm honest with you, still don't.

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Oh what my mama mama and I.

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The doctor said to me, you've got looks like it's

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your eyes, and I said, yeah, I know you're looking

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at my eyes, so they are my eyes. He said, no, no,

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I know they're your eyes. I said, well, you're looking

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at my eyes and saying it looks like it's your eyes.

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But if you're looking at my hand and said it

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looks like your eyes, that would be wonting, wouldn't it

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If my hand looked like my eyes. But if my

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eyes or my eyes looked like my hands, yeah, worrying.

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If my eyes looked like my eyes, then that's normal,

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isn't it. He looked at my mum, and she just

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shook her head as well. She said, I've had nine

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years of this. He said really, He said, yeah, nine years,

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so that coming he's fifteen, while I've had since he

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was seven. Okay, it must be hard work. She said,

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it don't matter. I found a way to escape from him.

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I'm moving away. You haven't told him yet. I'm moving away. Oh,

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it's going to be so lovely. And I'm like, I'm

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right here. I can hear what you're saying. It's my

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eyes that the problem, not me is And the doctor said,

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you are with them ears. I'm surprised you can't. There's

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nothing you can't hear. And they laughed, that's rude. Can't

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make fun of them. The size of my ears, he said,

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the size of your ears. The only reason no one

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mentions your is because your nose is so big. No

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one even notices your ears are massive.

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Wow.

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And I'm thinking, you're supposed to be my doctor, and

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he said, no, let me tell you something, Jason, I'm

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not your doctor. I'm your mum's doctor. She brings me,

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she brings you to me. When she moves away, I

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won't be seeing you again. You're gonna have to get

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your own doctor. I'm just seeing you as a favor

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to her. No one in this town wants to see you.

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I was like, wow, this is this is getting, this

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is getting why? He says, why all you do is

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fart everywhere you go? As far You're known famous in

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this town for farting everywhere you go, far far far far,

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far far far far. You know how expensive it is

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to have to fumigate the entire doctor's surgery every time

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you walk past.

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What this is? Where is it school coming from? Well?

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Your bum apparently? Okay. I just wanted to a headache,

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that's all. I just wanted to get Jack checked out.

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He said, yeah, and luckily you can now go and

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see an opticians. He's a number three opticians. Go and

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make an appointment with opticians. So you're talking to me,

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he said, no, I'm not talking to you and talking

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to her. If you can go and make an opticians appointment,

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because I think it's his eyes, that's okay. So I

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go to the opticians and they this is.

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A weird one.

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See, no one ever told me this apparently had a

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won key eye. Maybe I still do and no one

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tells me. But he said, see again, I don't know

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if he was just friends with the doctors and he

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thought the doctor said, just wind him up. You know

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you're going to meet for the first time. You're going

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to think lovely kid. But then he's going to let

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one go and it's going to stink the whole building out.

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So get in there first, make fun of him, do

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something like that, really get his self esteem down. So okay,

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So I think that's what happened, but that this is

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what happened. In the very first opticians I've ever been to,

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he said to me, right, you need glasses. I've realized

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over the years. I think that's the first thing people

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learn in optician college. It's the first thing I learned,

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is you need glass. Everyone, well, come to your first

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day of learning to be an optician. Now repeat after me,

484
00:35:53.280 --> 00:35:54.559
you need glasses.

485
00:35:55.480 --> 00:35:56.079
What do you mean?

486
00:35:56.440 --> 00:36:01.679
No, just everyone repeat you need glasses or you need

487
00:36:01.760 --> 00:36:07.119
new glasses. That's what you're going to have to say

488
00:36:07.119 --> 00:36:10.920
to every single person you see from now onwards. So

489
00:36:11.039 --> 00:36:15.039
when you're professional, when you're all qualified, whether they've already

490
00:36:15.079 --> 00:36:18.480
got glasses or whether they haven't got glasses, you need

491
00:36:18.519 --> 00:36:23.800
glasses or you need new glasses. What if they don't

492
00:36:23.840 --> 00:36:35.039
need them. Get out, get out. No, no, no, I've

493
00:36:35.079 --> 00:36:38.480
never ever ever known an oppetition to tell me that

494
00:36:38.519 --> 00:36:39.519
I didn't need glasses.

495
00:36:39.599 --> 00:36:39.840
Ever.

496
00:36:43.360 --> 00:36:48.840
I think that's it's just like what they're taught. So

497
00:36:48.880 --> 00:36:51.320
I went along. I didn't realize this at the time.

498
00:36:51.960 --> 00:36:53.719
I mean I did need glass think I did, but.

499
00:36:55.199 --> 00:36:55.599
I don't.

500
00:36:55.840 --> 00:36:58.280
I mean, I don't personally think I needed them all

501
00:36:58.320 --> 00:37:00.400
the time, but they He said, you need them all time.

502
00:37:01.199 --> 00:37:07.000
You definitely don't for reading. So he gave me. I

503
00:37:07.000 --> 00:37:10.800
think he gave me different glasses for reading, or did

504
00:37:10.800 --> 00:37:18.719
he I'm not sure, but he gave me glasses. Now,

505
00:37:18.719 --> 00:37:21.559
I'm not sure if I needed Oh, he gave me glasses. Anyway,

506
00:37:22.159 --> 00:37:24.960
it's such a long time ago. I might have had

507
00:37:24.960 --> 00:37:28.440
two pairs, one for reading, one for you know, day

508
00:37:28.480 --> 00:37:30.920
to day. Just get a bit of extra money out

509
00:37:30.920 --> 00:37:33.559
of me. Well, I say out of me. I didn't

510
00:37:33.559 --> 00:37:42.679
pay for it. My mama paid for it, and she yeah,

511
00:37:42.719 --> 00:37:43.840
So it was weird.

512
00:37:43.960 --> 00:37:44.360
He said.

513
00:37:44.400 --> 00:37:47.159
This dentist said to me, you got a one KEI.

514
00:37:48.599 --> 00:37:50.360
I said, you got bad breath. You know, we've all

515
00:37:50.360 --> 00:37:56.360
got that wrong with us, he said. He came up

516
00:37:56.440 --> 00:37:59.440
to me, he said, missus Newland, do you want to

517
00:37:59.440 --> 00:38:00.800
pop out the room for a minute.

518
00:38:01.599 --> 00:38:07.000
She said why. He said, I just want to just.

519
00:38:05.239 --> 00:38:08.719
I just want to punch your son. She said, really,

520
00:38:08.840 --> 00:38:11.760
you're going to punch him, she said, He said yeah.

521
00:38:11.880 --> 00:38:14.000
She said, okay, right, Anon, want me to wait outside

522
00:38:14.039 --> 00:38:18.400
for I'm like, wait a minute, excuse me, I'm fifteen.

523
00:38:19.760 --> 00:38:23.800
You know just what you're doing. Anyway, nothing bad happened

524
00:38:23.800 --> 00:38:31.320
in the end. They calmed down and I said, what

525
00:38:31.440 --> 00:38:36.159
do you mean I've got a wonky eye? Because I

526
00:38:36.159 --> 00:38:40.920
didn't really know what it meant. He said, well, okay,

527
00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:50.119
see I'm over here, right, and your right arm is

528
00:38:50.199 --> 00:38:54.920
looking over that. You're right arm, You're right, and well

529
00:38:55.559 --> 00:38:58.320
it was a funny moment. He really it cut through

530
00:38:58.320 --> 00:39:01.119
the attention to be fair, said, I didn't mean you're right,

531
00:39:01.440 --> 00:39:09.119
your right arm and you're so you're left. I is

532
00:39:09.199 --> 00:39:13.519
looking at me. Your right eye is looking through the

533
00:39:13.559 --> 00:39:20.199
window the other side of the room. I said, well, so,

534
00:39:22.159 --> 00:39:24.760
I mean that's quite a good thing. It's a safe

535
00:39:24.760 --> 00:39:27.440
thing to do. Isn't it be able to see three

536
00:39:27.559 --> 00:39:35.519
hundred and sixty degrees? That's quite a useful superpower. He said, yeah,

537
00:39:35.760 --> 00:39:37.840
if your eyes were at the side of your head,

538
00:39:38.000 --> 00:39:38.559
it would be.

539
00:39:39.000 --> 00:39:39.519
But they're not.

540
00:39:40.000 --> 00:39:45.280
They're both at the front of your head. So like, okay,

541
00:39:45.639 --> 00:39:49.960
so I've got a wonky eye. I said, which one

542
00:39:50.000 --> 00:39:53.119
is it? He said, it doesn't matter. I said, what

543
00:39:53.119 --> 00:39:57.840
do you mean it doesn't matter? He said, look for

544
00:39:57.880 --> 00:39:59.639
the sake of the podcast that you're going to be

545
00:39:59.639 --> 00:40:07.760
doing in forty years time, you won't even remember which

546
00:40:08.239 --> 00:40:12.039
I it was, so there's no point even remembering it.

547
00:40:13.079 --> 00:40:13.840
You can make one up.

548
00:40:13.880 --> 00:40:16.280
You can say right or left. There are two choices. Really,

549
00:40:18.559 --> 00:40:23.360
it doesn't matter. Yeah, it's gonna matter for now, isn't it.

550
00:40:23.599 --> 00:40:26.159
But you know, okay, it's not gonna matter in forty

551
00:40:26.199 --> 00:40:31.360
years time when I do the podcast, But it's it's

552
00:40:31.360 --> 00:40:36.199
going to matter now because this is now. This is

553
00:40:36.320 --> 00:40:41.280
nineteen ninety six or eighty five, eighty six, whatever year

554
00:40:41.280 --> 00:40:45.679
it was. And he said, you really don't know what

555
00:40:45.760 --> 00:40:48.960
year it is. At fifteen, you should know the year

556
00:40:49.000 --> 00:40:51.760
you're in. I said, come on, start having to go

557
00:40:51.840 --> 00:41:00.679
at me. And then I fighted and he changed his attitude.

558
00:41:02.039 --> 00:41:03.039
I think he was shocked.

559
00:41:04.480 --> 00:41:06.760
But anyway, what happened in the end, I was given

560
00:41:07.039 --> 00:41:11.880
a patch to wear. I think he was just making

561
00:41:11.920 --> 00:41:19.920
fun of me. He had me wearing a patch and

562
00:41:20.360 --> 00:41:22.400
not only was it a patch, it was a pink patch.

563
00:41:23.800 --> 00:41:26.400
So I think somewhere along the line they were just

564
00:41:26.440 --> 00:41:29.960
winding me up. So I had to wear a patch

565
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:34.559
over one eye, the normal eye, well was the one

566
00:41:34.559 --> 00:41:37.679
that wasn't one key, in order to get the other

567
00:41:37.800 --> 00:41:39.320
eye back to being.

568
00:41:41.480 --> 00:41:42.280
Where it should be.

569
00:41:47.119 --> 00:41:49.639
And I had to do these exercises where I'd look

570
00:41:49.639 --> 00:41:52.800
at a pencil with the patch on and I would

571
00:41:52.880 --> 00:41:56.760
just practice these exercises of following it. I feel I

572
00:41:56.800 --> 00:41:58.000
might have to do it with the other eye as well,

573
00:41:58.039 --> 00:41:58.719
I can't remember.

574
00:42:01.760 --> 00:42:06.239
And I went to school.

575
00:42:07.760 --> 00:42:13.920
See, I think I might have worn a patch at

576
00:42:13.920 --> 00:42:14.559
school as well.

577
00:42:14.559 --> 00:42:15.199
I don't think.

578
00:42:15.320 --> 00:42:17.199
I think I had to wear the patch at home,

579
00:42:18.639 --> 00:42:20.000
or you know, I didn't have to wear the patch

580
00:42:20.039 --> 00:42:22.840
when I went out, I think, but I had to

581
00:42:22.880 --> 00:42:28.000
wear the patch at home, but I had glasses to

582
00:42:28.039 --> 00:42:30.079
wear at school, So you know, bear in mind, I

583
00:42:30.119 --> 00:42:38.119
was fifteen, last year of school, probably either the end

584
00:42:38.159 --> 00:42:42.360
of the year nineteen eighty nineteen eighty five or the

585
00:42:42.400 --> 00:42:52.280
beginning of nineteen eighty six is around that kind of time. Yeah,

586
00:42:52.400 --> 00:42:57.480
around that time. And I so I wore glasses for

587
00:42:57.519 --> 00:43:02.320
the very first time, and I'm walking, I'm walking to school.

588
00:43:05.840 --> 00:43:09.280
Even people I'd never spoken to were making fun of me.

589
00:43:12.480 --> 00:43:17.159
People that didn't even notice me in the past were

590
00:43:17.239 --> 00:43:23.719
laughing at me. It was absolutely ridiculous. I mean, I

591
00:43:23.840 --> 00:43:28.760
thought maybe a little bit of ribbon, but you'd have

592
00:43:28.800 --> 00:43:34.360
thought i'd have walked in with like a I don't know,

593
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:38.159
a pizza on my head or something like that. The

594
00:43:38.199 --> 00:43:44.199
way everyone was like, oh, look that.

595
00:43:43.400 --> 00:43:44.719
That is wearing.

596
00:43:44.800 --> 00:43:51.679
It's wearing glasses. And it got to the point where

597
00:43:51.679 --> 00:43:52.599
I took them off.

598
00:43:54.719 --> 00:43:56.159
Because I didn't enjoy it.

599
00:43:56.199 --> 00:43:58.840
If I'm honest, I might have enjoyed it a little bit,

600
00:43:58.960 --> 00:44:01.559
like my friend's a bit of ribbing, like okay, that's cool,

601
00:44:03.320 --> 00:44:09.760
but then it goes on a bit too long. I

602
00:44:09.840 --> 00:44:13.039
still get phone calls even, you know, got a phone

603
00:44:13.039 --> 00:44:15.920
call last night for someone from school, just randomly.

604
00:44:16.440 --> 00:44:19.760
They said, you right, goggles and hung up. It's like,

605
00:44:20.159 --> 00:44:29.480
come on, So I didn't. I didn't. I thought it

606
00:44:29.559 --> 00:44:30.559
was right to wear glasses.

607
00:44:30.599 --> 00:44:35.679
I didn't really have an issue with it, but other

608
00:44:35.719 --> 00:44:37.239
people seem to have an issue with it.

609
00:44:38.719 --> 00:44:40.079
So I took them off.

610
00:44:42.119 --> 00:44:47.880
And I did wear them because I remember wearing them

611
00:44:53.360 --> 00:44:56.039
just before I left school, so I'm thinking it might

612
00:44:56.039 --> 00:45:01.360
have been nineteen eighty six. So I left school in

613
00:45:01.400 --> 00:45:07.199
April March April time, nineteen eighty six, So it might

614
00:45:07.199 --> 00:45:10.239
have been that period leading up because I got the

615
00:45:10.320 --> 00:45:15.400
chip shop shop, the chip shop job before I left school.

616
00:45:15.559 --> 00:45:19.199
I just remembered, this isn't it weird? I got the

617
00:45:19.360 --> 00:45:23.960
chip shop job before I left school, and I worked

618
00:45:24.079 --> 00:45:30.920
on a Saturday and maybe a couple of evenings, and

619
00:45:30.960 --> 00:45:35.360
then when I left school, I went full time, and

620
00:45:35.400 --> 00:45:42.039
then the September nineteen eighty six, I went onto the Yes.

621
00:45:43.400 --> 00:45:45.599
So when I was full time, I was earning sixty

622
00:45:45.639 --> 00:45:48.800
pird a week, which is more than I'd ever had

623
00:45:49.079 --> 00:45:53.000
who were like, yeah, never had sixty pounds a week.

624
00:45:55.480 --> 00:45:59.199
Cash. You know, I was still at school and I wasn't.

625
00:45:59.000 --> 00:46:03.440
Still it was technically still at school, as in I

626
00:46:03.480 --> 00:46:06.679
had to go and do my exams, at least I

627
00:46:06.679 --> 00:46:08.599
thought I did. I didn't realize I didn't have to

628
00:46:08.599 --> 00:46:10.960
do anything, because once you leaves school, you don't have

629
00:46:11.000 --> 00:46:11.559
to do any you know.

630
00:46:11.760 --> 00:46:13.679
I didn't have to go do my exams.

631
00:46:15.119 --> 00:46:20.960
There was no consequence for not doing them. And it

632
00:46:21.039 --> 00:46:23.440
was kind of weird because but I was still in

633
00:46:23.440 --> 00:46:28.079
that zone of being told what to do by schools.

634
00:46:29.360 --> 00:46:32.719
You know that kind of I remember right before I

635
00:46:32.800 --> 00:46:38.400
left school, there was this deputy head teacher. I'd never

636
00:46:38.440 --> 00:46:42.360
had a run in with him ever, but for some reason,

637
00:46:43.639 --> 00:46:47.280
and this was the last week of school, he decided

638
00:46:47.320 --> 00:46:49.360
to have a go at me and he came up

639
00:46:49.400 --> 00:46:54.639
to me and he started shouting in my face about something.

640
00:46:55.440 --> 00:46:57.800
I don't know what it was. He was used to

641
00:46:57.920 --> 00:47:03.519
teach French, so I didn't always understand what he was saying.

642
00:47:05.599 --> 00:47:08.119
I think he sometimes you forgot. He'd go in and

643
00:47:08.199 --> 00:47:11.840
out of French. And it was a deputy head and

644
00:47:11.880 --> 00:47:15.360
he was known for being really strict, and he was

645
00:47:15.599 --> 00:47:21.639
just chatting in my face, and I went from being oh,

646
00:47:22.119 --> 00:47:23.039
you know, like.

647
00:47:25.119 --> 00:47:26.400
To remember him. I only had.

648
00:47:26.320 --> 00:47:29.159
Three days left to school, and I just started laughing

649
00:47:29.159 --> 00:47:33.159
at him. I just walked off, like what are you

650
00:47:33.159 --> 00:47:40.320
gonna do? Literally, it's nothing. It's like, yeah, I could

651
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:42.599
walk out of school now and it would make no difference.

652
00:47:43.079 --> 00:47:47.280
I'm just sticking around because it's like the last three days.

653
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:50.639
Just to say goodbye to people I've been at school

654
00:47:50.639 --> 00:47:56.559
with for years, that's all it was. It wasn't say

655
00:47:56.559 --> 00:47:59.480
goodbye to some of the kids in the younger years

656
00:47:59.519 --> 00:48:01.719
that I was friends that I wasn't going to see

657
00:48:02.840 --> 00:48:09.239
regularly anymore. Oh, even the ones in the older years actually,

658
00:48:09.239 --> 00:48:12.079
because they had a levels back then, so there was

659
00:48:14.639 --> 00:48:17.960
some of my karate friends were in the higher levels

660
00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:26.199
as well. I remember, just like he was shing like okay.

661
00:48:26.880 --> 00:48:28.840
But then there was another weird thing happened, and I

662
00:48:28.880 --> 00:48:32.280
still to this day don't know what happened, why happened.

663
00:48:33.119 --> 00:48:35.920
But I went into my classroom. This is my my

664
00:48:38.880 --> 00:48:40.880
the room that we went to first thing in the morning,

665
00:48:40.960 --> 00:48:43.440
we stayed in at breaks if we wanted to, and

666
00:48:43.480 --> 00:48:44.840
then would go in there at the end of the

667
00:48:44.920 --> 00:48:47.199
day and you do the register.

668
00:48:47.559 --> 00:48:48.639
So it was my form room.

669
00:48:48.719 --> 00:48:50.880
That's what they used to call it, isn't it. So

670
00:48:50.920 --> 00:48:53.840
it was my classroom for the entire year, and I

671
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:55.280
had the same one for about three.

672
00:48:55.199 --> 00:48:55.840
Years in a row.

673
00:48:55.920 --> 00:49:01.039
I think, So I'm in there, I go in there

674
00:49:01.079 --> 00:49:03.719
in the last day. This is somewhere that I spend

675
00:49:04.119 --> 00:49:06.960
a fair bit of time on the time, in the

676
00:49:07.039 --> 00:49:09.199
times that I didn't want to go out or do anything,

677
00:49:09.239 --> 00:49:10.920
I wanted to be on my own, I'd go in

678
00:49:10.960 --> 00:49:14.239
there and there there's be a color of us maybe

679
00:49:14.320 --> 00:49:16.079
just sitting on our own, just doing our own thing.

680
00:49:16.119 --> 00:49:16.320
You know.

681
00:49:20.960 --> 00:49:22.440
So I went in there and there was a couple

682
00:49:22.440 --> 00:49:26.760
of there was three kids, all three that didn't really

683
00:49:26.840 --> 00:49:31.280
know very well that I didn't really they weren't from

684
00:49:31.280 --> 00:49:35.320
that they weren't even in that class, and they were

685
00:49:35.320 --> 00:49:39.800
just in there and they were playing some song. I

686
00:49:39.800 --> 00:49:44.239
remember it was something that was it done think Nothing

687
00:49:44.280 --> 00:49:48.800
then your Chicks for Free, I own nothing. Whatever that

688
00:49:48.880 --> 00:49:53.880
song is direstracted it, and I like, I went in there.

689
00:49:54.360 --> 00:49:56.840
I must have said something to annoy someone.

690
00:49:56.880 --> 00:49:59.360
I don't know what, but.

691
00:49:59.400 --> 00:50:02.400
Someone started on me and he was kicking me in

692
00:50:02.400 --> 00:50:06.639
the shins. I'm like, but it was surprised. I didn't

693
00:50:06.679 --> 00:50:08.719
know because he was I think this one was a

694
00:50:08.800 --> 00:50:09.480
judo man.

695
00:50:09.800 --> 00:50:10.599
We used to talk.

696
00:50:10.800 --> 00:50:14.519
Yeah, I didn't know him a little bit, and you know,

697
00:50:14.519 --> 00:50:17.000
I was interested because he did judo. I did karate,

698
00:50:17.199 --> 00:50:20.239
and you know he was I think he was more

699
00:50:20.239 --> 00:50:22.599
advanced than me, been doing judo a long time.

700
00:50:23.519 --> 00:50:24.280
But for some.

701
00:50:24.280 --> 00:50:27.280
Reason, you know, I kin't have had that mutual respect

702
00:50:27.400 --> 00:50:30.199
for him because we were both doing something. We both

703
00:50:30.280 --> 00:50:33.559
kind of understood what it was like to be passionate

704
00:50:33.599 --> 00:50:38.079
about a martial arts, you know, and he probably went

705
00:50:38.079 --> 00:50:40.760
through exactly the same thing of watching all the Bruce

706
00:50:40.840 --> 00:50:44.519
Lee movies and watching all the you know, all the

707
00:50:44.559 --> 00:50:47.760
kung Fu movies and stuff, because that's just natural for

708
00:50:47.840 --> 00:50:49.960
anyone that does martial arts, especially when.

709
00:50:49.800 --> 00:50:53.920
They're a kid. But he actually just kicked me in

710
00:50:53.960 --> 00:50:59.119
the shins and closed the door, slammed the door on me.

711
00:50:59.320 --> 00:51:05.800
Didn't want me in the class room, and I didn't understand.

712
00:51:06.039 --> 00:51:09.480
There was no one else around. I don't know where

713
00:51:09.480 --> 00:51:10.199
everyone else was.

714
00:51:10.280 --> 00:51:12.639
I think that was the very last day that I

715
00:51:12.719 --> 00:51:19.079
was there, and I was just like, I really didn't

716
00:51:19.159 --> 00:51:22.519
know this. Like to this day, I still not that

717
00:51:22.559 --> 00:51:25.480
it doesn't matter why, but it still bugged me, Like

718
00:51:25.760 --> 00:51:27.280
doesn't bug me now, but it bugged me for a

719
00:51:27.280 --> 00:51:32.960
long time. I never saw the kid again. Don't think

720
00:51:33.000 --> 00:51:38.519
I saw any of them again, and I didn't know why.

721
00:51:38.880 --> 00:51:45.559
And it was such a shock. I didn't get angry

722
00:51:45.599 --> 00:51:51.559
I did this. I was just confused. It didn't hurt. Well,

723
00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:53.719
probably a little bit, but it wasn't like they weren't.

724
00:51:53.719 --> 00:51:56.519
It wasn't like he was punching me or anything, but like,

725
00:51:56.920 --> 00:51:59.400
you're kicking me in the shin the hell are you doing?

726
00:52:03.480 --> 00:52:06.400
And yeah, that's weird. That's just a really weird ending

727
00:52:06.440 --> 00:52:08.320
to being being.

728
00:52:08.119 --> 00:52:09.000
At school.

729
00:52:14.800 --> 00:52:16.800
Unless I was in the other I might be maybe

730
00:52:16.840 --> 00:52:20.639
I was in the wrong room. Wait a minute, was

731
00:52:20.639 --> 00:52:26.920
that my school? I think it was my school? No me,

732
00:52:27.000 --> 00:52:28.920
I might have just gone into the wrong schooling into

733
00:52:28.960 --> 00:52:34.800
some random classroom and sat down and maybe that annoyed them.

734
00:52:35.119 --> 00:52:35.840
It's possible.

735
00:52:37.079 --> 00:52:43.760
So there's one really quite a vivid memory I had

736
00:52:43.760 --> 00:52:47.559
when I first got my classes. Boy was too actually

737
00:52:47.559 --> 00:52:49.960
my little brother, he was old enough to.

738
00:52:49.960 --> 00:52:55.360
Be really annoying, really annoying.

739
00:52:55.039 --> 00:52:58.719
And he kept coming up to me and putting his

740
00:52:59.480 --> 00:53:02.639
putting his finger and thumb together to make some little

741
00:53:02.960 --> 00:53:06.719
glasses and he'd like get right close to me and

742
00:53:06.800 --> 00:53:10.000
look look through them, he said, can you see me?

743
00:53:12.440 --> 00:53:14.400
I mean he was like seven I suppose at the time,

744
00:53:14.960 --> 00:53:20.280
And yeah, it was funny to start with, but he

745
00:53:20.400 --> 00:53:25.400
kept doing it, and he just like pick random objects up.

746
00:53:25.480 --> 00:53:31.639
Can you see this? That is quite funny when you

747
00:53:31.679 --> 00:53:34.639
think about it. But he just kept doing it, just

748
00:53:34.840 --> 00:53:39.840
it'd be random, and like we were all watching TV.

749
00:53:39.960 --> 00:53:42.480
I think we were watching I say.

750
00:53:42.360 --> 00:53:42.800
All of us.

751
00:53:42.880 --> 00:53:45.000
At that point, the family was a little bit split.

752
00:53:45.400 --> 00:53:47.360
One of my brothers had moved out. I think maybe

753
00:53:47.400 --> 00:53:48.880
the other one had moved out as well. So it

754
00:53:48.880 --> 00:53:54.440
was only really me and my little brother potentially at

755
00:53:54.480 --> 00:53:58.719
that time, and my little brother. I think we're just

756
00:53:58.760 --> 00:54:02.559
watching TV. My little brother gets up stands by a

757
00:54:02.599 --> 00:54:10.000
television and says, can you see this? Like it amused

758
00:54:10.039 --> 00:54:15.400
the family, Come on, leave me alone. I'm wearing glasses.

759
00:54:16.320 --> 00:54:20.840
It's not something to make fun of. And my dad

760
00:54:20.920 --> 00:54:27.000
was leave him alone. He's only seven. I said, who

761
00:54:27.079 --> 00:54:30.320
is He said, your brother? I said, no, I know,

762
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:33.760
I know he's only seven. And then then my dad

763
00:54:33.800 --> 00:54:35.360
said he's sitting over there.

764
00:54:35.920 --> 00:54:37.880
I said, I know where he's sitting. I can see

765
00:54:37.880 --> 00:54:39.039
where he.

766
00:54:39.079 --> 00:54:41.480
Was doing it. Now, like, can you see where it is?

767
00:54:43.280 --> 00:54:47.679
He asked me to wash his van. I said, okay.

768
00:54:49.039 --> 00:54:52.719
He said it's on the driveway. I said, and it's

769
00:54:52.719 --> 00:54:53.039
a van.

770
00:54:53.159 --> 00:54:56.119
I'm not going to not know where it is. It's like,

771
00:54:57.119 --> 00:54:57.719
it's just.

772
00:54:59.400 --> 00:55:01.400
So I don't know who started doing it, my dad

773
00:55:01.480 --> 00:55:06.239
or my little brother. But then I started getting a

774
00:55:06.239 --> 00:55:09.280
little bit touchy, because you know, some people do that

775
00:55:09.519 --> 00:55:14.199
they show you something, and I started to get a.

776
00:55:14.119 --> 00:55:14.760
Little bit.

777
00:55:16.239 --> 00:55:22.840
Oversensitive. Maybe we were the air show and I remember

778
00:55:22.840 --> 00:55:26.159
my auntie saying, oh that the red the red arrows

779
00:55:26.159 --> 00:55:28.480
are coming soon. So we're all waiting for the Red Arrows,

780
00:55:28.480 --> 00:55:33.760
but there's loads of other planes as well, and my

781
00:55:33.800 --> 00:55:37.159
Auntie said, the Red Arrows are coming. I said, okay,

782
00:55:37.480 --> 00:55:40.760
she said they're there. I was like, there there, Look,

783
00:55:41.119 --> 00:55:44.119
I said, I can see. I do have eyes, you know.

784
00:55:45.599 --> 00:55:48.000
But she wasn't being rude. She was just pointing where

785
00:55:48.039 --> 00:55:51.599
they were, and the fact is I couldn't see where

786
00:55:51.599 --> 00:55:52.000
they were.

787
00:55:52.400 --> 00:55:53.639
So I'm glad that she told me.

788
00:55:54.400 --> 00:55:57.840
It wasn't really you know, I only got hit by

789
00:55:57.840 --> 00:56:00.519
a car once because I was ignored and someone that

790
00:56:00.599 --> 00:56:02.440
was telling me that the car was coming towards me

791
00:56:04.360 --> 00:56:07.760
because it annoyed me. So I'm walking across a zebra

792
00:56:07.800 --> 00:56:11.199
crossing and someone showing, wait, look, look is a car coming.

793
00:56:11.239 --> 00:56:14.599
It's not stopping because it was speeding and maybe I

794
00:56:14.599 --> 00:56:16.880
think please were after it or something, and I'm like,

795
00:56:17.960 --> 00:56:21.760
can't you see it? Look like, shut up, I've got glasses.

796
00:56:21.800 --> 00:56:24.159
They're just glasses. And then I look over and I

797
00:56:24.159 --> 00:56:27.559
have to sort of jump out the way. Another time,

798
00:56:29.119 --> 00:56:32.440
I'm talking to a friend from karate and he's he's

799
00:56:32.480 --> 00:56:35.920
an adult, so he's working up above Tesco's in a

800
00:56:36.039 --> 00:56:38.920
shipping office. So I'm just looking at it really high

801
00:56:38.960 --> 00:56:42.320
build I'm just waving to him because saying.

802
00:56:42.079 --> 00:56:44.159
Alone, you know, because I just went my way home,

803
00:56:45.199 --> 00:56:45.480
and he.

804
00:56:45.480 --> 00:56:51.239
Started shouting look, look and pointing behind me. I was like, oh,

805
00:56:51.360 --> 00:56:53.920
you're don't start now, come on, we were getting on,

806
00:56:54.079 --> 00:56:57.079
so well, why have you got a start. It's bad

807
00:56:57.159 --> 00:57:00.920
enough it's at home, it's a school. Now it's karate

808
00:57:01.039 --> 00:57:06.519
people doing it. And he's like, well. It turned out

809
00:57:06.519 --> 00:57:10.960
it was a van backing and it bumped into me.

810
00:57:11.320 --> 00:57:15.400
Luckily it wasn't going fast, but it was backing study

811
00:57:15.440 --> 00:57:17.639
you know, when I go do do do do do

812
00:57:17.880 --> 00:57:20.039
like that, it was making a sound, but I didn't

813
00:57:20.599 --> 00:57:22.840
wasn't listening because I was focusing on what I was

814
00:57:23.039 --> 00:57:27.239
what I was talking about, and probably when he was talking,

815
00:57:27.320 --> 00:57:29.119
I was focusing on what I was going to say next.

816
00:57:29.199 --> 00:57:32.440
I wasn't really listening to what he was saying. But

817
00:57:32.480 --> 00:57:35.480
when he started pointing, hey, look, look like, I really

818
00:57:35.519 --> 00:57:40.159
took offence stopped saying, look like, I can't see anything,

819
00:57:41.559 --> 00:57:45.000
and yeah, So I had a band back a van

820
00:57:45.079 --> 00:57:47.559
back over me, but luckily it just hit my back

821
00:57:47.800 --> 00:57:50.320
and knocked me, kind of knocked me out of the way.

822
00:57:50.599 --> 00:57:57.199
But it wasn't moving particularly fast. But one of my

823
00:57:57.320 --> 00:58:03.159
memories of wearing glasses when I first got them, and

824
00:58:03.239 --> 00:58:07.280
this is just explain how I was. I've always been

825
00:58:07.440 --> 00:58:09.719
like this.

826
00:58:09.719 --> 00:58:10.880
This was a.

827
00:58:15.239 --> 00:58:18.719
It was one of them days, of one of them

828
00:58:18.840 --> 00:58:24.440
days where I had to get away. I had to

829
00:58:24.519 --> 00:58:29.960
remove myself from the situation. I had to be on

830
00:58:30.039 --> 00:58:34.679
my own. I was semi running away cat to be

831
00:58:34.760 --> 00:58:37.719
on my own. It was one of them things. And

832
00:58:38.000 --> 00:58:43.760
I walked to the next town on my own, wearing

833
00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:48.199
my glasses, and I just followed the bus route so

834
00:58:48.199 --> 00:58:51.480
I could get back again, which was actually quick. It

835
00:58:51.519 --> 00:58:54.360
was a much longer route actually, but it meant I

836
00:58:54.400 --> 00:58:59.480
knew how to get back. So it took me probably

837
00:59:03.480 --> 00:59:08.880
five hours to get there, and I maybe seven hours.

838
00:59:08.920 --> 00:59:14.840
I think I might just got the bus back, but

839
00:59:14.880 --> 00:59:19.119
it was a sunny day probably I'm saying. I'm thinking

840
00:59:19.199 --> 00:59:30.440
maybe April time, just after leaving school, possibly on a weekday,

841
00:59:31.559 --> 00:59:39.119
and I I mean, technically it's probably not a good idea,

842
00:59:39.199 --> 00:59:41.159
but I was walking at the side of the road

843
00:59:42.000 --> 00:59:45.639
on the grass verge. There wasn't any pavements most of

844
00:59:45.679 --> 00:59:48.480
the journey because once we got out of the town,

845
00:59:49.119 --> 00:59:52.239
a lot of countryside between or in England, it's just

846
00:59:52.320 --> 00:59:57.159
huge amounts of countryside surrounding everywhere, every town, every village,

847
00:59:57.239 --> 01:00:03.239
every city, it's the countryside. So I'm just following the route.

848
01:00:03.239 --> 01:00:09.239
I've done the route many times, many times, I've I've

849
01:00:09.239 --> 01:00:12.480
done the route a few times. I hadn't really gotten

850
01:00:12.480 --> 01:00:16.280
a bust that many times as a kid on my own. Well,

851
01:00:16.280 --> 01:00:17.519
I don't think I ever went on my own. I

852
01:00:17.559 --> 01:00:21.360
was also with her friend. So yeah, so I'm walking

853
01:00:21.440 --> 01:00:27.199
and it was very peaceful, very meditative, very.

854
01:00:30.559 --> 01:00:31.039
I don't know.

855
01:00:31.599 --> 01:00:36.119
I was just thinking about things and a real, real

856
01:00:36.159 --> 01:00:41.280
good think, real good. It was like a separation from

857
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:52.199
all the stuff that was going on, and it felt nice.

858
01:00:53.039 --> 01:00:57.119
I was hungry, though, but it felt nice. So it

859
01:00:57.159 --> 01:01:01.199
took me six six to seven hours walking in it,

860
01:01:01.400 --> 01:01:05.159
and probably got blisters and all that stuff, but got

861
01:01:05.159 --> 01:01:09.960
the bus home. No one knew I was gone, No

862
01:01:10.000 --> 01:01:14.119
one noticed I hadn't been around. But there was no

863
01:01:14.159 --> 01:01:17.159
reason for them too anyway, because at that time, the

864
01:01:17.199 --> 01:01:21.639
whole family was busy. People were just busy doing stuff,

865
01:01:22.960 --> 01:01:27.559
and two of my brothers weren't really around anymore. My

866
01:01:27.599 --> 01:01:34.760
little brother was what seven eight, yeah, seven or eight,

867
01:01:35.119 --> 01:01:37.840
so he was kind of doing his.

868
01:01:37.800 --> 01:01:38.719
Own thing as well.

869
01:01:41.679 --> 01:01:46.840
Both parents were working, So yeah, I was kind of

870
01:01:46.920 --> 01:01:50.599
just you know, I think kind of the family had

871
01:01:50.800 --> 01:01:54.880
pretty much at that point, the family had kind of

872
01:01:54.880 --> 01:01:57.119
come to an end.

873
01:01:57.519 --> 01:02:00.400
And then you know, by.

874
01:02:03.320 --> 01:02:07.760
By this summer, the summer, I don't know when it was.

875
01:02:07.880 --> 01:02:18.880
It might have been May, maytime, maybe June, we moved

876
01:02:18.920 --> 01:02:26.280
out and stayed in my step mom's mom's flat until

877
01:02:26.360 --> 01:02:31.960
she moved away. So that was, Yeah, that was kind

878
01:02:31.960 --> 01:02:35.960
of a weird, weird period. And I didn't wear my

879
01:02:35.960 --> 01:02:43.280
glasses at all after that, like never ever again, didn't

880
01:02:43.320 --> 01:02:49.519
wear them. And then I the next time I went

881
01:02:49.599 --> 01:02:54.039
to see if I needed glasses was again I was.

882
01:02:54.679 --> 01:02:58.480
This was nineteen eighty nine. It's a few years later,

883
01:02:58.960 --> 01:03:05.679
nineteen eighty nine in London, and I wanted to get

884
01:03:05.719 --> 01:03:08.400
back to reading again because i'd had a break from reading.

885
01:03:09.840 --> 01:03:11.840
We're not a completely break, but I hadn't really read

886
01:03:11.920 --> 01:03:14.159
much for a little while for a few months, and

887
01:03:14.199 --> 01:03:17.360
I thought, and I didn't have any hardly any of

888
01:03:17.400 --> 01:03:20.559
my belongings in London, because I'd left them at my

889
01:03:20.639 --> 01:03:29.039
dad's just store in storage and not they had much stuff,

890
01:03:29.079 --> 01:03:31.400
but I think it was under a bed. But there's

891
01:03:31.400 --> 01:03:35.360
a lot of the videos and some books and stuff

892
01:03:35.400 --> 01:03:39.559
you know. So what I did is I went to

893
01:03:39.599 --> 01:03:48.360
the opticians thinking, and they said, I just need glasses

894
01:03:48.400 --> 01:03:50.840
for reading. I don't need them all the time, just

895
01:03:51.239 --> 01:03:55.760
for reading. I said, okay, cool. So and that's when

896
01:03:55.760 --> 01:03:58.960
I started. I bought a couple of books and I

897
01:03:59.039 --> 01:04:03.039
got back into reading again because it was always a passion,

898
01:04:03.239 --> 01:04:08.199
and I not always of I was born reading, but

899
01:04:10.440 --> 01:04:14.079
I kind of taught myself to read. Really with my book,

900
01:04:15.400 --> 01:04:17.119
it's over there somewhere on the bookcase.

901
01:04:17.159 --> 01:04:18.320
It was a Jack and Ry.

902
01:04:20.079 --> 01:04:26.400
Still I've literally memorized. I memorized it. And this is

903
01:04:26.440 --> 01:04:28.519
bearing in mind I haven't watched I haven't read this

904
01:04:28.599 --> 01:04:33.119
book since I was a little kid, okay, but I

905
01:04:33.199 --> 01:04:37.440
learned to read with it. And in the first the

906
01:04:37.559 --> 01:04:41.440
first page is a little rhyme, I'll tell you a

907
01:04:41.519 --> 01:04:45.079
story about Jack and Ry, and now my story. I'll

908
01:04:45.079 --> 01:04:51.599
tell you story. When I said, I memorized it, I'll

909
01:04:51.599 --> 01:04:54.480
tell you a story about Jack and Ry, and now

910
01:04:54.519 --> 01:04:57.199
my story has begun. I'll tell you another about Jack

911
01:04:57.239 --> 01:05:02.960
and his brother, and now my story is done.

912
01:05:03.559 --> 01:05:04.519
I tried to look.

913
01:05:04.320 --> 01:05:05.840
For it the other day, I think while I was

914
01:05:05.840 --> 01:05:08.760
doing a recording, I could not find it. It's definitely

915
01:05:08.760 --> 01:05:14.679
there because I found it online. Because it's basically about Jack,

916
01:05:15.800 --> 01:05:18.119
Jack and the bean Stalk, and I think there's a

917
01:05:18.119 --> 01:05:23.079
few different stories about Jack, and that was what Jack

918
01:05:23.119 --> 01:05:26.159
and Noy was based on, which was a really famous

919
01:05:26.199 --> 01:05:30.880
TV show where people would just tell a story. They'd

920
01:05:30.920 --> 01:05:36.480
read out of a book and tell a story. And I,

921
01:05:36.480 --> 01:05:37.440
I said, taught.

922
01:05:37.239 --> 01:05:37.920
Myself to read.

923
01:05:38.000 --> 01:05:40.079
I mean, I'm sure that you know I did go

924
01:05:40.159 --> 01:05:45.800
to school and stuff at that time, but because I

925
01:05:45.920 --> 01:05:51.559
was what six, maybe six five or six, I moved

926
01:05:51.559 --> 01:05:57.119
around so much that I didn't I don't think I

927
01:05:57.199 --> 01:06:01.800
really had any kind of stable education as it were.

928
01:06:02.800 --> 01:06:07.679
And then when I moved to with my dad, I

929
01:06:07.840 --> 01:06:16.000
was seven and I was told by one of my

930
01:06:16.119 --> 01:06:21.719
parents that I was behind. Basically, I was behind because

931
01:06:22.440 --> 01:06:26.199
I was told I've been taught the wrong way. That's

932
01:06:26.440 --> 01:06:30.559
what the teachers told her. That it sounded like I've

933
01:06:30.599 --> 01:06:33.119
been told I've been taught the wrong way. I was behind.

934
01:06:33.760 --> 01:06:35.920
I mean, probably just being hind to me, trying to

935
01:06:35.920 --> 01:06:37.599
explain it to me in a way that I might

936
01:06:38.599 --> 01:06:48.960
understand it. So basically what it meant I was in

937
01:06:49.199 --> 01:06:56.679
educational terms. Now, I guess remedial or special needs educational terms.

938
01:06:56.719 --> 01:07:00.440
Back then, I was a dunce. You know, it was

939
01:07:00.440 --> 01:07:03.000
a little bit different back then. This is nineteen seventy seven.

940
01:07:05.639 --> 01:07:13.679
Someone that was behind educationally was called a dance. It's

941
01:07:13.760 --> 01:07:17.639
not good, really, it's not now, but that's what I

942
01:07:17.679 --> 01:07:22.000
was kind of classed as. But that's not how she

943
01:07:22.000 --> 01:07:24.280
she said that. She told me I was special. Now

944
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:27.960
I didn't realize that meant special needs. But when she

945
01:07:28.000 --> 01:07:32.199
said I was special, I felt special, like loved, like

946
01:07:32.280 --> 01:07:39.440
I was, you know, special. Maybe she was about to

947
01:07:39.440 --> 01:07:42.400
say needs, but I just like made such a big

948
01:07:43.119 --> 01:07:46.039
I was so gushy and smiling when she said special.

949
01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:53.760
She thought, perhaps I won't say the word needs. Had

950
01:07:53.760 --> 01:07:56.440
a conversation with my dad later in the evening. Probably

951
01:07:56.480 --> 01:08:00.559
didn't they. So did you have a chat with him? Yeah,

952
01:08:00.639 --> 01:08:02.199
did you tell him that he special needs?

953
01:08:02.199 --> 01:08:07.360
Well? I told him part of it. But he seems

954
01:08:07.360 --> 01:08:11.639
so happy, he said, yeah, but he's happy.

955
01:08:11.639 --> 01:08:13.320
All you've got to do is just wave a banana

956
01:08:13.360 --> 01:08:14.639
around and that gets his attention.

957
01:08:14.800 --> 01:08:15.280
He's happy.

958
01:08:16.760 --> 01:08:21.119
That's not true. I do like bananas, but not quite

959
01:08:21.119 --> 01:08:28.479
that distractable. Give him a cardboard but give him a

960
01:08:28.479 --> 01:08:29.359
cardboard box.

961
01:08:30.359 --> 01:08:33.800
That's all he needs. It's like, no.

962
01:08:35.640 --> 01:08:38.279
I mean, cardboard boxes were fun, but it's not all

963
01:08:38.279 --> 01:08:47.479
I needed. Also, I love television, so anyway, i'd kind

964
01:08:47.479 --> 01:08:50.119
of taught myself, I think, to read. Maybe I taught

965
01:08:50.119 --> 01:08:56.479
myself wrongly to read, but I think I ended up

966
01:08:56.560 --> 01:09:04.560
quite okay verbally. I think I was. I don't think

967
01:09:04.640 --> 01:09:11.159
I was behind verbally. And there's advantages to there's advantages

968
01:09:11.199 --> 01:09:11.760
to moving.

969
01:09:11.600 --> 01:09:12.720
Around a lot when you're little.

970
01:09:14.039 --> 01:09:16.279
From a verbal perspective, I think you get to learn

971
01:09:17.680 --> 01:09:20.720
quite you know, verbally, get to not always. But I

972
01:09:20.720 --> 01:09:23.800
think in my case, I think I became verbally quite

973
01:09:23.880 --> 01:09:26.680
competent being around adults a lot.

974
01:09:26.880 --> 01:09:27.640
That's another thing.

975
01:09:28.880 --> 01:09:31.479
Living in a kid's home with lots of other kids,

976
01:09:32.479 --> 01:09:36.000
there's lots of conversations all the time, you know, it's

977
01:09:36.680 --> 01:09:40.079
living in dormitories and stuff like that. So I didn't

978
01:09:40.359 --> 01:09:42.880
really get any time to myself, but there was a

979
01:09:42.920 --> 01:09:45.439
lot of conversations going on. So I was hearing a

980
01:09:45.439 --> 01:09:55.560
lot of verbal stuff and absorbing that. So I think,

981
01:09:55.720 --> 01:09:58.319
you know, I think that my verbal skills would probably

982
01:09:58.319 --> 01:10:03.159
be quite good, but everything else was may being not.

983
01:10:04.680 --> 01:10:05.720
So good.

984
01:10:06.279 --> 01:10:12.119
My mathematics skills was still Yeah, it was never really

985
01:10:12.119 --> 01:10:15.319
a thing for me, and it wasn't really it wasn't

986
01:10:15.359 --> 01:10:21.479
really my forte as it were, nor science, nor geography,

987
01:10:21.600 --> 01:10:28.279
nor history anything. Really the only subject I liked too

988
01:10:28.479 --> 01:10:35.279
Ari and English Ari because I suppose in a way

989
01:10:35.359 --> 01:10:39.159
I had a little bit of an advantage being part,

990
01:10:39.279 --> 01:10:41.479
you know, for a couple of years being raised by

991
01:10:41.560 --> 01:10:45.039
nuns kind of church every day. I kind of understood

992
01:10:46.840 --> 01:10:52.279
the groundings of like Christianity or Catholicism or.

993
01:10:52.159 --> 01:10:53.199
You know that kind of stuff.

994
01:10:53.439 --> 01:10:56.239
I guess I had a little bit more of an

995
01:10:56.319 --> 01:11:03.600
understanding of it, so it wasn't too difficult. Plus, both

996
01:11:03.640 --> 01:11:05.680
the IRA teachers I had, because I only had two

997
01:11:05.720 --> 01:11:10.399
IRA teachers this is religious education and throughout my high school.

998
01:11:10.720 --> 01:11:13.840
And they were both lovely. They're both to my best teachers.

999
01:11:15.279 --> 01:11:18.680
So I wasn't interested in the subject really, not to

1000
01:11:18.720 --> 01:11:23.720
start with. But it was, you know, it was more

1001
01:11:24.279 --> 01:11:27.560
they were lovely. I liked being in the class because

1002
01:11:27.560 --> 01:11:31.960
the teachers were lovely, And which is something that I

1003
01:11:31.960 --> 01:11:34.319
think a lot of teachers could learn from.

1004
01:11:34.600 --> 01:11:35.520
Is actually.

1005
01:11:37.119 --> 01:11:45.079
Sometimes just I think just being nice, just being nice.

1006
01:11:46.359 --> 01:11:49.359
In them days, there was a lot of strict teachers.

1007
01:11:50.159 --> 01:11:54.800
It was where I was, it wasn't.

1008
01:11:56.600 --> 01:11:58.800
I think it was kind of like children should be

1009
01:11:59.600 --> 01:12:04.159
seeing not heard kind of attitude. So it's a little

1010
01:12:04.159 --> 01:12:06.720
bit different to how it is now. I don't know

1011
01:12:06.720 --> 01:12:10.199
how it is now. I don't have kids and I

1012
01:12:10.279 --> 01:12:13.640
live on a council estate, so kids are definitely not

1013
01:12:13.760 --> 01:12:16.960
treated that they should be seen and not heard. They're

1014
01:12:17.000 --> 01:12:17.680
definitely heard.

1015
01:12:19.239 --> 01:12:20.199
So it's.

1016
01:12:21.840 --> 01:12:25.159
I don't know what it's like in the mainstream country

1017
01:12:25.199 --> 01:12:33.319
people around the country. But I'm talking about glasses and

1018
01:12:33.359 --> 01:12:38.039
I'm talking about reading now. It's just I was in

1019
01:12:38.159 --> 01:12:44.039
like a remedial class once a week.

1020
01:12:44.159 --> 01:12:45.399
I was just taken that.

1021
01:12:45.560 --> 01:12:47.079
And I've talked about this before, but I had my

1022
01:12:47.079 --> 01:12:53.920
maths teacher, mister Johnson. It was lovely, big beard, lovely man,

1023
01:12:54.960 --> 01:12:59.680
really friendly and he actually I think if I'd ever

1024
01:12:59.720 --> 01:13:04.239
had him as my masth teacher all the way through

1025
01:13:04.319 --> 01:13:09.880
high school. I'm not saying that I would have gone

1026
01:13:09.920 --> 01:13:12.319
on to do a level or anything like that, or

1027
01:13:12.359 --> 01:13:15.840
even well, I think I might have gone on to

1028
01:13:15.840 --> 01:13:19.680
do GCSA, which I didn't did. I wasn't even that

1029
01:13:19.800 --> 01:13:20.439
level to do.

1030
01:13:20.560 --> 01:13:20.960
I had to.

1031
01:13:21.279 --> 01:13:24.359
I did CS which is something you get like city

1032
01:13:24.359 --> 01:13:26.960
and guilds. That's the kinds of things you get for

1033
01:13:27.880 --> 01:13:34.000
block clearing, toilets, and stuff back then, and I think

1034
01:13:34.039 --> 01:13:36.319
it's a bit higher now, but it was very low

1035
01:13:36.359 --> 01:13:36.680
when it.

1036
01:13:36.640 --> 01:13:37.119
Comes to.

1037
01:13:38.680 --> 01:13:41.079
It's City and Gills as of people that are not academic.

1038
01:13:41.319 --> 01:13:46.439
Really back then it was it was the lowest level,

1039
01:13:48.239 --> 01:13:51.520
and it's different now. So I'm saying I'm not not

1040
01:13:51.680 --> 01:13:55.000
going to be rude against City and Gills because there's

1041
01:13:55.000 --> 01:13:57.560
going to be people probably taking City and Girls now.

1042
01:13:57.800 --> 01:14:02.079
But back then, City and Gills and Maths was not

1043
01:14:02.119 --> 01:14:06.920
an accomplishment. Necessarily it would have been for me because

1044
01:14:07.119 --> 01:14:09.159
I didn't pass it. So if I had passed the

1045
01:14:09.199 --> 01:14:12.600
City and Guilds, it would have been a really good accomplishment.

1046
01:14:14.039 --> 01:14:16.039
But I didn't get any qualifications.

1047
01:14:16.279 --> 01:14:16.920
I got.

1048
01:14:21.119 --> 01:14:27.520
You, which apparently is it stands for unclassified, so I

1049
01:14:27.600 --> 01:14:33.640
got unclassified for every single thing. I'm not sure if

1050
01:14:33.640 --> 01:14:40.880
I got a bit higher grade for English. If I'm honest,

1051
01:14:40.920 --> 01:14:43.079
I think I might have actually passed English or might

1052
01:14:43.079 --> 01:14:46.479
have been, but it still would have been low. Although

1053
01:14:46.520 --> 01:14:51.159
English was the only, probably the only.

1054
01:14:54.199 --> 01:14:57.720
Subject that I was adequate in.

1055
01:14:58.880 --> 01:15:02.399
But the problem with English is I didn't like it.

1056
01:15:04.399 --> 01:15:06.439
I did to start with when I was in junior school,

1057
01:15:06.560 --> 01:15:13.159
loved English, practicing, writing, practicing, handwriting, reading books, I would

1058
01:15:13.239 --> 01:15:17.079
take I got. I read every single book in the library.

1059
01:15:17.079 --> 01:15:20.960
They had a little library in the English room, and it.

1060
01:15:20.880 --> 01:15:22.159
Was just you know, little books.

1061
01:15:22.520 --> 01:15:24.319
But I'd take them home and i'd finish them, so

1062
01:15:24.359 --> 01:15:27.840
it would start reading them in class, would take turns

1063
01:15:27.920 --> 01:15:30.960
reading it out loud and things. I'd take the book

1064
01:15:30.960 --> 01:15:32.800
home with me and i'd read it overnight and bring

1065
01:15:32.840 --> 01:15:35.640
it back. And I did it to every single book.

1066
01:15:36.359 --> 01:15:38.439
Sometimes I take like two or three home at night

1067
01:15:38.520 --> 01:15:43.079
the weekend. I'd bring them back and i'd get permission.

1068
01:15:43.119 --> 01:15:46.079
I wouldn't just take them.

1069
01:15:45.159 --> 01:15:46.720
Because I was a good boy.

1070
01:15:48.680 --> 01:15:55.039
And this is possibly before I got my library card,

1071
01:15:58.279 --> 01:16:00.680
although it might not have been if I don't know.

1072
01:16:00.720 --> 01:16:06.279
Maybe it was because yeah, I was nine, I'm not sure.

1073
01:16:06.319 --> 01:16:09.119
I don't think I had my library card it nine,

1074
01:16:10.479 --> 01:16:17.560
and so I loved English. I was more interested in

1075
01:16:17.600 --> 01:16:21.119
crafts than doing other things. So I think like history,

1076
01:16:23.520 --> 01:16:25.279
you know, would be talking about Romans, and I'm thinking,

1077
01:16:25.279 --> 01:16:26.680
what are you telling me about Romans?

1078
01:16:26.680 --> 01:16:26.760
For?

1079
01:16:29.159 --> 01:16:31.039
What are you telling me about the Saxons? Are you

1080
01:16:31.119 --> 01:16:32.000
telling me about the.

1081
01:16:34.560 --> 01:16:38.079
Why? What are you talking about Napoleon? For?

1082
01:16:39.680 --> 01:16:43.560
It is just I think the only interesting thing about

1083
01:16:43.600 --> 01:16:47.920
history would be probably about if they'd done the history

1084
01:16:47.960 --> 01:16:50.039
of the town I was living in, or if they

1085
01:16:50.079 --> 01:16:55.000
had talked about the history of television or the history

1086
01:16:55.199 --> 01:17:02.520
of my family or something like that would have been

1087
01:17:02.560 --> 01:17:08.960
interesting to me, I guess. So I kind of went

1088
01:17:08.960 --> 01:17:11.079
along with it, and I just sat at the back

1089
01:17:11.159 --> 01:17:19.319
and and just hid really and then I I was

1090
01:17:19.359 --> 01:17:27.199
another thing. Oh yeah, that when I was eight, I

1091
01:17:27.439 --> 01:17:31.840
was I had my adnoids out because I was having

1092
01:17:31.880 --> 01:17:34.479
problems with my ears. I was getting earaches, and then

1093
01:17:34.520 --> 01:17:40.319
I had had my head hit. It turned out I

1094
01:17:40.359 --> 01:17:45.199
was partially deaf in one ear, so I had my

1095
01:17:45.640 --> 01:17:49.279
adnoids out because I was blocked. Basically, the ear was

1096
01:17:49.319 --> 01:17:55.439
blocked so to clear it out, so I should be okay.

1097
01:17:55.640 --> 01:17:58.000
So this is eight years old, so I was partially

1098
01:17:58.039 --> 01:18:02.279
deaf for however many years didn't even know it, didn't

1099
01:18:02.319 --> 01:18:07.199
even know it, didn't even show it. I remember being

1100
01:18:07.199 --> 01:18:11.000
in hospital and like listening to the and I had

1101
01:18:11.000 --> 01:18:16.520
to like tap every time, and I could like I

1102
01:18:16.640 --> 01:18:18.880
do it with both years. One ear was really clear,

1103
01:18:19.359 --> 01:18:22.680
which I think is my left ear still is right

1104
01:18:22.960 --> 01:18:25.279
right ear it's not so good as the left ear.

1105
01:18:26.119 --> 01:18:30.039
So the right ear was like, I mean, it's it's.

1106
01:18:29.920 --> 01:18:37.039
All it feels it's to me, it seems like the

1107
01:18:37.279 --> 01:18:40.800
volume is lower when I talk on on my right phone,

1108
01:18:40.960 --> 01:18:42.880
if I put my if I put my phone on

1109
01:18:42.880 --> 01:18:46.359
my right ear, it feels like the volume is lower.

1110
01:18:47.039 --> 01:18:48.960
But I did have an eye test a few years ago,

1111
01:18:49.159 --> 01:18:52.800
and eye test and ear test, but it wasn't Specsavers

1112
01:18:53.279 --> 01:18:56.079
had ear tests and they said, yeah, here's fine. So

1113
01:18:57.680 --> 01:19:01.920
it might just be psychological. I don't know, but anyway,

1114
01:19:02.039 --> 01:19:05.239
this was real. So I definitely had a like a

1115
01:19:05.279 --> 01:19:07.720
hearing issue, but it was fixable.

1116
01:19:09.600 --> 01:19:10.119
I remember.

1117
01:19:10.199 --> 01:19:15.199
It's so funny because after I'd had the op, came

1118
01:19:15.239 --> 01:19:21.800
home for the next year or so, whenever someone called

1119
01:19:21.840 --> 01:19:24.920
over to me and I said I didn't hear them.

1120
01:19:25.239 --> 01:19:28.239
Maybe I was focusing on something else. I didn't hear them.

1121
01:19:28.560 --> 01:19:30.960
My dad would shout out, that's it, we're going back

1122
01:19:31.000 --> 01:19:33.760
to the doctors. We're going to get his ears tested.

1123
01:19:33.800 --> 01:19:36.199
Like it's like.

1124
01:19:37.119 --> 01:19:39.359
Because I was in the house full of three four

1125
01:19:39.439 --> 01:19:45.760
kids including myself and two adults, I had to block

1126
01:19:45.920 --> 01:19:49.760
off that sound. It was too much. I had to

1127
01:19:49.880 --> 01:19:52.560
kind of go inside myself to block it off. So

1128
01:19:52.680 --> 01:19:57.000
when someone did shout out my name or I would

1129
01:19:57.319 --> 01:20:02.000
sometimes I wouldn't hear it because I had to in

1130
01:20:02.119 --> 01:20:04.239
order for me to watch TV in a room with

1131
01:20:05.920 --> 01:20:08.800
how many people was at three for five other people,

1132
01:20:10.880 --> 01:20:15.560
that's those three kids, four kids and two adults. So

1133
01:20:16.439 --> 01:20:21.000
three other kids, two adults watching the TV. Even if

1134
01:20:21.039 --> 01:20:23.720
they weren't talking, there was like rustling of bags and

1135
01:20:23.880 --> 01:20:29.840
food and fidgeting, and there was maybe traffic outside and

1136
01:20:30.199 --> 01:20:34.760
you know, just general sounds. I had to really zone

1137
01:20:34.840 --> 01:20:37.319
them out in order to watch the TV and hear it.

1138
01:20:39.680 --> 01:20:41.760
So they were talking to me and I wouldn't hear them.

1139
01:20:42.159 --> 01:20:44.720
It wasn't because I wasn't listening. It's just because I

1140
01:20:44.800 --> 01:20:50.560
was focused. I had the zoned them out. I'd removed

1141
01:20:50.560 --> 01:20:56.800
them from the situation, removed them from my peripheral vision,

1142
01:20:57.039 --> 01:21:01.680
removed them from my thoughts of just focused on the TV.

1143
01:21:02.920 --> 01:21:06.319
And this is the only way I could really watch it.

1144
01:21:06.560 --> 01:21:10.000
I mean, even now, it seems like I'm just talking

1145
01:21:10.000 --> 01:21:13.840
about my inadequacy, doesn't it, But maybe I am. Maybe

1146
01:21:13.880 --> 01:21:18.520
that's what it is. But wearing glasses is not an inadequacy.

1147
01:21:18.720 --> 01:21:22.000
Wearing glasses is just it's just a natural thing. Millions

1148
01:21:22.000 --> 01:21:25.000
and millions of people with them, including me, and there's

1149
01:21:25.039 --> 01:21:25.800
nothing wrong with it.

1150
01:21:26.960 --> 01:21:27.600
So but this.

1151
01:21:29.920 --> 01:21:34.399
For some reason, I can't have someone sitting next to me,

1152
01:21:38.920 --> 01:21:42.079
like if when I'm at home, bearing in mind, this

1153
01:21:42.159 --> 01:21:45.239
is the most relaxed place I'm going to be. Really

1154
01:21:45.399 --> 01:21:48.159
is being here a part of I mean the most

1155
01:21:48.199 --> 01:21:51.000
relaxed place I probably ever was before this was my name's.

1156
01:21:51.880 --> 01:21:53.279
If I was sitting in the room with my name,

1157
01:21:53.520 --> 01:21:54.840
I was relaxed.

1158
01:21:56.079 --> 01:21:59.279
In a way that probably I wasn't.

1159
01:21:59.520 --> 01:22:03.199
I mean, more safety thing, to be fair, emotionally, I

1160
01:22:03.239 --> 01:22:08.920
felt safe with her, but I was relaxed with her here.

1161
01:22:11.119 --> 01:22:12.800
It's probably the only place that I would say I'd

1162
01:22:12.840 --> 01:22:16.760
probably feel relaxed when that front door was locked and

1163
01:22:16.800 --> 01:22:19.359
I got a finny cudled up next to me and

1164
01:22:19.359 --> 01:22:22.399
I'm just stroking him or got my arm resting on him.

1165
01:22:22.680 --> 01:22:29.079
It's relaxing and relaxed. Put someone put up human beings

1166
01:22:29.119 --> 01:22:31.720
sitting next to me, and I will not feel relaxed.

1167
01:22:33.479 --> 01:22:37.880
And I'm not talking like some random stranger, just anyone,

1168
01:22:38.159 --> 01:22:40.439
anyone I know. I don't want them sitting next to me.

1169
01:22:40.560 --> 01:22:45.960
I cannot sit next to someone on a sofa, and

1170
01:22:46.000 --> 01:22:50.239
that includes even Luke, my friend downstairs. He'd always sit

1171
01:22:50.279 --> 01:22:54.039
on a different chair. I'd have a chair separate for him,

1172
01:22:54.479 --> 01:22:55.920
or he could sit on a sofa and I'd sit

1173
01:22:55.960 --> 01:22:58.680
on a chair. You know, I wouldn't like he'd have

1174
01:22:58.680 --> 01:23:01.520
a choice, so he'd sit on the sofa if I

1175
01:23:01.560 --> 01:23:03.479
was at the table. So if I was at my desk,

1176
01:23:04.560 --> 01:23:07.720
he'd sit on the sofa and we'd watch TV together,

1177
01:23:07.880 --> 01:23:12.359
or I'd be doing stuff and we'd chat. But if

1178
01:23:12.439 --> 01:23:15.079
I was sitting if we're watching TV together, which we

1179
01:23:15.159 --> 01:23:20.079
didn't do that much, but if we're watching boxing, I

1180
01:23:20.199 --> 01:23:22.439
like to be comfortable when I'm watching boxing, and I

1181
01:23:22.560 --> 01:23:25.199
like to be in the sofa with my legs up,

1182
01:23:25.319 --> 01:23:27.840
or in the chair with my legs up. Because I

1183
01:23:27.920 --> 01:23:31.880
used to have accl not recycling reclining chair.

1184
01:23:31.920 --> 01:23:32.279
That's it.

1185
01:23:32.439 --> 01:23:38.640
I used to have a reclining chair, and I had

1186
01:23:38.640 --> 01:23:41.159
that for a few years. I've had this one for

1187
01:23:43.279 --> 01:23:45.239
I probably had these world for a few years there

1188
01:23:45.279 --> 01:23:45.760
as well.

1189
01:23:48.159 --> 01:23:49.960
But the last few years he was.

1190
01:23:52.880 --> 01:23:56.760
With the boxing, he would sit on a chair while

1191
01:23:56.760 --> 01:23:59.159
I sat on the sofa because and I'd always make

1192
01:23:59.199 --> 01:24:01.560
sure that it was stuff on the other because there's

1193
01:24:01.680 --> 01:24:06.359
two chairs, two seats on the sofa. The other side

1194
01:24:06.359 --> 01:24:09.319
of the sofa, it's always got stuff on it. It's

1195
01:24:09.399 --> 01:24:16.800
never empty. This is before I got Vinnie. I used

1196
01:24:16.800 --> 01:24:19.840
to just keep that. That's where that's just stuff, where

1197
01:24:19.880 --> 01:24:22.159
it's a book where I can write stuff in a

1198
01:24:22.199 --> 01:24:25.800
book I'm reading, whether it's laptop, whatever, it's all stuff

1199
01:24:25.880 --> 01:24:29.800
that's my little like a little desk kind of People

1200
01:24:29.840 --> 01:24:35.560
don't sit there, and I can't sit next to someone.

1201
01:24:35.680 --> 01:24:36.159
I can't.

1202
01:24:38.399 --> 01:24:43.840
It's especially I mean TV or just it's about doable,

1203
01:24:44.079 --> 01:24:45.560
but I can't do it. I don't do it if

1204
01:24:45.600 --> 01:24:49.520
I don't have to. But having a conversation, it's too close.

1205
01:24:50.840 --> 01:24:53.560
I need distance when I'm talking to someone. I need distance.

1206
01:24:53.600 --> 01:24:57.399
I need at least maybe six to ten foot or

1207
01:24:57.479 --> 01:25:01.880
six foot probably just this not a far enough away

1208
01:25:01.960 --> 01:25:06.159
so that I need binoculars, but just you know, or

1209
01:25:06.199 --> 01:25:08.159
that they need to use a loud speaker.

1210
01:25:10.680 --> 01:25:11.199
But I do.

1211
01:25:12.680 --> 01:25:15.439
I need that distance because I struggle to focus with

1212
01:25:15.479 --> 01:25:17.840
my eyes if someone is too close, like.

1213
01:25:19.560 --> 01:25:25.399
I don't know what that is. Which makes being on.

1214
01:25:25.399 --> 01:25:29.560
A bus a little bit difficult. And it's great if

1215
01:25:29.600 --> 01:25:33.079
there's no one on the bus, but a busy bus

1216
01:25:33.279 --> 01:25:43.600
all I'd rather stand. I'd rather stand and pretty much

1217
01:25:44.279 --> 01:25:47.159
be sniffing someone's arm pit. And I don't want to

1218
01:25:47.159 --> 01:25:49.960
smith sniff someone's armp. I'm saying, I'd rather stand and

1219
01:25:50.079 --> 01:25:53.079
be like squashed standing up than have someone sitting next

1220
01:25:53.079 --> 01:25:59.039
to me. It's you know, I suppose it's because my

1221
01:25:59.119 --> 01:26:03.399
belly does give me distance. Someone might be in it

1222
01:26:03.560 --> 01:26:05.600
on my bum. We've got such a big bum, big

1223
01:26:05.600 --> 01:26:09.920
belly that people can't really get too close to me

1224
01:26:11.720 --> 01:26:16.800
if I'm standing up, which is good. Oh, I really

1225
01:26:16.840 --> 01:26:24.079
paint a terrible picture of my body, That's what I was.

1226
01:26:24.079 --> 01:26:29.720
Going to say. Oh yeah, So.

1227
01:26:31.239 --> 01:26:36.359
It turned out that after I had my ears thing done,

1228
01:26:37.000 --> 01:26:40.800
the teachers were saying they now, they said, oh, he's

1229
01:26:40.840 --> 01:26:43.279
so behind because he couldn't hear what was being said

1230
01:26:43.279 --> 01:26:45.920
in the classroom, and he was always sitting at the

1231
01:26:45.960 --> 01:26:48.319
back of the talking about me always sitting at the

1232
01:26:48.319 --> 01:26:57.680
back of the classroom and didn't didn't pretty much. I

1233
01:26:57.880 --> 01:27:01.520
wasn't able to hear what was going on well enough.

1234
01:27:03.199 --> 01:27:05.600
It's like they were trying to make excuses for me not.

1235
01:27:07.359 --> 01:27:09.800
Listening. But the fact is, I mean, it might.

1236
01:27:09.680 --> 01:27:11.000
Have been true, I might have been part of the

1237
01:27:11.000 --> 01:27:14.319
reason why I was so behind, but I genuinely wasn't

1238
01:27:14.359 --> 01:27:19.880
interested in what the teachers were talking about, and anything

1239
01:27:19.920 --> 01:27:25.239
that did interest me did it stuck you know, if

1240
01:27:25.279 --> 01:27:28.319
I'm interested in something, I'll look it up now, and

1241
01:27:28.439 --> 01:27:40.279
that information generally stays with me. I think sitting at

1242
01:27:40.319 --> 01:27:42.479
the back was a good place to be. I don't

1243
01:27:42.479 --> 01:27:45.119
want to be I never liked people being behind me.

1244
01:27:47.399 --> 01:27:50.439
I never really enjoyed that, even when I'll go to

1245
01:27:50.479 --> 01:27:56.760
a theater. When I was really little, I didn't care, Like,

1246
01:27:56.760 --> 01:27:58.359
if I go to the cinema, stud like go in

1247
01:27:58.359 --> 01:28:02.960
the front row. Because I was so little, I didn't

1248
01:28:03.039 --> 01:28:05.039
My head didn't even really fit to the top of

1249
01:28:05.119 --> 01:28:09.840
the headrest. So technically people were behind me, but it

1250
01:28:09.880 --> 01:28:12.840
didn't feel like they were because I was. They probably

1251
01:28:12.880 --> 01:28:16.159
didn't even know I was there. And I spread my

1252
01:28:16.279 --> 01:28:18.479
legs out and I was lovely, even though I had

1253
01:28:18.520 --> 01:28:21.359
little legs. I spread my legs out wherever I was

1254
01:28:21.399 --> 01:28:24.920
in the cinema, but it was I used to love

1255
01:28:24.960 --> 01:28:27.880
to sit at the front and had this big, massive screen,

1256
01:28:29.399 --> 01:28:34.359
And yeah, that's what.

1257
01:28:34.279 --> 01:28:35.000
I always used to do.

1258
01:28:35.079 --> 01:28:37.640
When I was older, i'd moved to the back.

1259
01:28:40.199 --> 01:28:40.600
Now.

1260
01:28:41.479 --> 01:28:44.560
I haven't been to cinema for a long time, but

1261
01:28:44.640 --> 01:28:50.079
now i'd probably choose, if possible, like a middle aisle,

1262
01:28:51.479 --> 01:28:54.359
but away from anyone. I don't want people sitting near me,

1263
01:28:54.960 --> 01:28:57.720
or in front of me or behind me. I just

1264
01:28:57.720 --> 01:29:03.920
want my I want my own cinema based but enough distance,

1265
01:29:05.319 --> 01:29:08.560
you know, I'm gonna actually have seat. In the past,

1266
01:29:08.560 --> 01:29:10.279
I'm sure I was in the cinema once and someone

1267
01:29:10.399 --> 01:29:18.119
just walked up and sat right next to me. And

1268
01:29:18.159 --> 01:29:22.039
I remember saying, why you are all these other seats

1269
01:29:22.479 --> 01:29:25.000
in this cinema is probably two hundred seats in the

1270
01:29:25.039 --> 01:29:28.079
cinema and there's only like five people in there.

1271
01:29:28.239 --> 01:29:31.439
Why did you come and sit next to me? You

1272
01:29:31.479 --> 01:29:33.079
know what I heard? You know what response was.

1273
01:29:34.359 --> 01:29:37.720
We came together. We came to what do you mean

1274
01:29:37.800 --> 01:29:40.600
why am I sitting next to you? I've just been

1275
01:29:40.600 --> 01:29:42.680
out to go and get some popcorn for us.

1276
01:29:43.880 --> 01:29:44.800
So that's the.

1277
01:29:44.760 --> 01:29:47.439
Point where I thought maybe the relationship wasn't gonna work out.

1278
01:29:49.119 --> 01:29:53.680
Just going to the cinema as someone doesn't it doesn't

1279
01:29:53.720 --> 01:30:00.600
mean that I want to sit with them.

1280
01:30:01.199 --> 01:30:01.920
That was weird.

1281
01:30:02.399 --> 01:30:04.560
So yeah, I had glasses.

1282
01:30:04.920 --> 01:30:05.600
Oh yeah, the.

1283
01:30:11.359 --> 01:30:16.319
Eighty nine got them again, started reading, started like using them.

1284
01:30:16.159 --> 01:30:21.880
To read a bit more. That was nice.

1285
01:30:22.239 --> 01:30:28.199
And really between nineteen eighty nine and two thy thirteen,

1286
01:30:29.199 --> 01:30:34.600
just reading glasses all those years, just reading glasses. I

1287
01:30:34.680 --> 01:30:39.880
go back, just need them for reading never mentioned a

1288
01:30:39.960 --> 01:30:42.079
one kei. Maybe I've still got one kei and no

1289
01:30:42.119 --> 01:30:45.800
one's told me, but I've had photographs taken. It doesn't

1290
01:30:45.800 --> 01:30:46.479
seem to be.

1291
01:30:47.640 --> 01:30:48.239
Well, you know what.

1292
01:30:48.359 --> 01:30:50.680
I've had enough people in my life that would tell me.

1293
01:30:51.439 --> 01:30:54.159
They just make fun of me to my face about

1294
01:30:54.199 --> 01:30:59.319
having a one kei. So maybe I do, but I'm

1295
01:30:59.319 --> 01:31:00.119
pretty sure.

1296
01:31:02.319 --> 01:31:02.920
They tell me.

1297
01:31:08.000 --> 01:31:11.880
I actually met someone who had a one kei and

1298
01:31:13.880 --> 01:31:17.760
there's a health spa thing, and she's one of the

1299
01:31:17.800 --> 01:31:21.119
people that have been most I was most attracted to

1300
01:31:21.279 --> 01:31:24.760
in my entire life was her. I didn't met her once.

1301
01:31:27.680 --> 01:31:29.520
I say, one kid, just like just looking in a

1302
01:31:29.560 --> 01:31:31.800
different direction. And I had a friend. I had a

1303
01:31:31.840 --> 01:31:35.560
friend who had like an eye like that, like who cares,

1304
01:31:36.720 --> 01:31:39.880
He's got to focus on one eye. But you can't

1305
01:31:39.920 --> 01:31:42.800
look You can't look at both eyes anyway, can you?

1306
01:31:43.640 --> 01:31:44.720
Or can you? I can't.

1307
01:31:47.159 --> 01:31:48.800
I'm not uglyzed over a little bit when I look

1308
01:31:48.800 --> 01:31:53.520
at people, but I can't unless it's a distance. I

1309
01:31:53.520 --> 01:31:55.359
need a real distance if I'm gonna be able to

1310
01:31:55.680 --> 01:31:59.560
get an idea of focusing on both eyes too close

1311
01:31:59.760 --> 01:32:08.800
and and I can't focus on either I so twoy

1312
01:32:09.000 --> 01:32:15.920
thirteen between. Actually, yeah, I wore I wore glasses for

1313
01:32:16.079 --> 01:32:22.119
reading a lot during the twenties, during my twenties, rather

1314
01:32:22.600 --> 01:32:27.000
not the nineteen twenties, because I was reading a lot.

1315
01:32:27.039 --> 01:32:30.560
I'd read a lot of books, had a lot of books.

1316
01:32:31.319 --> 01:32:33.439
That stupid flies in this room. It was in the

1317
01:32:33.520 --> 01:32:36.239
kitchen earlier. Now it's here unless it's just come in

1318
01:32:36.239 --> 01:32:38.720
the window and it's a different fly, or it's got

1319
01:32:38.760 --> 01:32:40.720
out of a window in the kitchen and coming this way.

1320
01:32:42.319 --> 01:32:46.880
It's harassing me. I'm being earth by a fly.

1321
01:32:48.960 --> 01:32:56.960
And I don't know why I went to the opticians

1322
01:32:57.000 --> 01:33:02.880
in twenty thirteen. I think I might have been getting

1323
01:33:02.880 --> 01:33:04.800
a bit of eyes strained cause I was working in

1324
01:33:04.800 --> 01:33:09.880
the call center, and yeah, I was told, yeah, you

1325
01:33:09.880 --> 01:33:12.640
need to wear glasses, and you need to need to

1326
01:33:12.680 --> 01:33:13.640
wear glasses.

1327
01:33:13.279 --> 01:33:15.760
All the time or act.

1328
01:33:15.920 --> 01:33:21.560
You know what they call them lenses?

1329
01:33:21.760 --> 01:33:23.119
You know what's your names?

1330
01:33:24.319 --> 01:33:28.000
Do you put in your eye? Them lenses things? I

1331
01:33:28.039 --> 01:33:30.119
can't remember the name because I will never wear them

1332
01:33:30.319 --> 01:33:33.960
ever contact lenses. No never, never.

1333
01:33:33.840 --> 01:33:34.560
Never never never.

1334
01:33:36.920 --> 01:33:42.039
And I never never never never know no, no, no no, no,

1335
01:33:43.079 --> 01:33:48.079
I mean for vanity. I understand why people do maybe

1336
01:33:48.680 --> 01:33:51.079
because glasses can cover up the face and if.

1337
01:33:50.920 --> 01:33:52.479
Someone's particularly.

1338
01:33:53.680 --> 01:33:57.079
You know, if I was particularly facially attractive, I didn't

1339
01:33:57.079 --> 01:33:59.399
want my face to be covered up, then maybe I

1340
01:33:59.399 --> 01:34:06.600
would wear contact lenses. I probably wouldn't have wanted to

1341
01:34:06.640 --> 01:34:08.079
wear glasses in my twenties.

1342
01:34:08.359 --> 01:34:12.119
I'll be honest with you. I wouldn't. I wouldn't know.

1343
01:34:12.199 --> 01:34:14.640
I wouldn't not have been happy wearing glasses all the

1344
01:34:14.680 --> 01:34:21.479
way through my twenties, and probably not even through my

1345
01:34:21.560 --> 01:34:26.880
thirties either. I didn't mind wearing them. I didn't mind

1346
01:34:26.920 --> 01:34:31.439
wearing reading glasses in front of people, but I don't

1347
01:34:31.479 --> 01:34:33.840
think I would have particularly wanted to be wearing glasses.

1348
01:34:36.520 --> 01:34:40.720
Yeah. Yeah, it wasn't really for me. I'm used to

1349
01:34:40.800 --> 01:34:41.119
it now.

1350
01:34:41.319 --> 01:34:48.159
It's been what twelve years now since I've been wearing them.

1351
01:34:48.279 --> 01:34:50.720
And it was really weird because the first paid glasses,

1352
01:34:50.880 --> 01:34:57.720
it was three lenses, and the reading one was more powerful.

1353
01:35:00.079 --> 01:35:02.560
I don't know what it is. It made me look taller.

1354
01:35:02.800 --> 01:35:06.720
I felt taller because the ground was further away. It

1355
01:35:06.760 --> 01:35:09.119
looked because that was the reading part, so they were

1356
01:35:09.159 --> 01:35:14.960
a bit more I don't know, but it just looked.

1357
01:35:15.319 --> 01:35:18.520
I felt that I was like at least five foot tall.

1358
01:35:19.840 --> 01:35:22.840
It was amazing, but at the same time. It was

1359
01:35:22.920 --> 01:35:25.479
trippy because I was literally I was tripping over.

1360
01:35:28.159 --> 01:35:29.800
The vet, not the vet.

1361
01:35:30.239 --> 01:35:37.680
And the optician did say, you're you know, you get

1362
01:35:37.760 --> 01:35:39.119
used to it, but it might be a bit weird

1363
01:35:39.119 --> 01:35:44.640
to start with. I said, thanks. She says, it's a

1364
01:35:44.680 --> 01:35:47.319
little bit like a prostate exam, you know. I said,

1365
01:35:47.359 --> 01:35:50.520
what I said, don't worry. So what are you talk

1366
01:35:50.560 --> 01:35:54.520
about prostate exams? She said, well, it's a bit weird.

1367
01:35:55.640 --> 01:35:59.960
So what's weird about prostate exam? She said, I'm an optician.

1368
01:36:01.399 --> 01:36:05.399
I'm not supposed to give them. I was, okay, that

1369
01:36:05.640 --> 01:36:07.880
is a going in a weird direction. I just left.

1370
01:36:09.119 --> 01:36:10.119
They came running after me.

1371
01:36:10.239 --> 01:36:12.119
You gotta pay, you gotta pay.

1372
01:36:13.960 --> 01:36:16.520
I said, okay, I'll pay. I don't want to come

1373
01:36:16.520 --> 01:36:17.880
back and just give you the money. She said, but

1374
01:36:17.920 --> 01:36:19.159
you got to come back. I said why.

1375
01:36:19.680 --> 01:36:22.520
She said, you left your trousers here. Okay.

1376
01:36:24.319 --> 01:36:27.399
But it was weird wearing glasses all the time to

1377
01:36:27.520 --> 01:36:31.520
start with. And I think some people because I've got

1378
01:36:31.520 --> 01:36:34.600
active lights or active lights so that it go dark

1379
01:36:34.680 --> 01:36:42.319
in the in the sun, sunlight all year round, so

1380
01:36:42.399 --> 01:36:44.680
I think some people think I'm walking around well, actually

1381
01:36:44.680 --> 01:36:46.319
a couple of people have said it in the past

1382
01:36:46.479 --> 01:36:48.840
a lot of other dog walkers, Why are you wearing

1383
01:36:48.880 --> 01:36:53.119
shades in the winter, I said, I'm not wearing shades.

1384
01:36:53.319 --> 01:36:58.760
These are my glasses. They just go they block out

1385
01:36:58.760 --> 01:37:02.359
the sunlight in my eyes to try and protect my eyes.

1386
01:37:04.680 --> 01:37:08.920
Oh okay, So.

1387
01:37:08.880 --> 01:37:11.720
I think some people think I'm walking around with sunglasses

1388
01:37:11.720 --> 01:37:16.399
on in the winter or when I first go into

1389
01:37:16.439 --> 01:37:18.600
a place. So if I go and listen, was going

1390
01:37:18.600 --> 01:37:23.640
to go into the pet shop in the winter, I

1391
01:37:23.640 --> 01:37:25.960
would look like I was wearing sunglasses because it takes

1392
01:37:25.960 --> 01:37:27.960
a while for the lens to go down from dark

1393
01:37:28.039 --> 01:37:32.399
to be clear again. So the whole time I'm in

1394
01:37:32.399 --> 01:37:37.800
that pet shop, they might be thinking he's wearing sunglasses

1395
01:37:39.199 --> 01:37:44.600
and it's December, strange and raining.

1396
01:37:48.319 --> 01:37:53.119
But they go dark. It's just what they do. So

1397
01:37:53.680 --> 01:37:54.520
I'm pretty.

1398
01:37:54.239 --> 01:37:58.520
Sure my first muma had some like this, our very

1399
01:37:58.600 --> 01:38:06.760
first mother. I have a memory of her wearing dark glasses.

1400
01:38:07.319 --> 01:38:10.479
Maybe they were just sunshades, but she definitely wore glasses.

1401
01:38:10.560 --> 01:38:14.840
So I don't know when when Okay, let me check

1402
01:38:15.720 --> 01:38:34.000
when did actor light Okay, did glasses have history of

1403
01:38:34.000 --> 01:38:44.399
people's glasses? So look, sempty star glasses acting like what

1404
01:38:44.600 --> 01:38:51.479
is actor like glasses through the decades. Oh, I can't

1405
01:38:51.479 --> 01:38:55.159
believe did act aviators not aviators?

1406
01:38:55.520 --> 01:38:56.359
What are they called?

1407
01:38:59.319 --> 01:39:06.680
Oh, I can't see the glass has been around what

1408
01:39:06.800 --> 01:39:09.880
since nineteen twenties? They around since before then?

1409
01:39:09.920 --> 01:39:10.239
Weren't the.

1410
01:39:11.960 --> 01:39:14.479
Eyeglasses history. I don't really want to go through the

1411
01:39:14.560 --> 01:39:20.039
whole eyeglasses history.

1412
01:39:18.239 --> 01:39:18.399
So.

1413
01:39:20.039 --> 01:39:23.239
History now, I'm just going to go for history history

1414
01:39:23.479 --> 01:39:35.880
of dark glasses. Dark glasses semi peppees an ingredient Samuel

1415
01:39:36.199 --> 01:39:41.039
Peppe Poor Peppe's has been credited with ordering the first

1416
01:39:41.319 --> 01:39:47.399
dark glasses made by English optian John Turlington, but, according

1417
01:39:47.439 --> 01:39:51.119
to his diary, used more for ogland women in church

1418
01:39:51.199 --> 01:39:59.079
than to shield his eyes from sunlight. Okay, I didn't

1419
01:39:59.159 --> 01:40:02.560
know that was going to be up the hinted as.

1420
01:40:05.359 --> 01:40:08.159
I suppose they would be called tinted. But like mine

1421
01:40:08.199 --> 01:40:13.479
aunt sunglasses, they just go dark. I might get some, really,

1422
01:40:16.039 --> 01:40:21.520
I might get some glasses just to annoy people go

1423
01:40:21.720 --> 01:40:26.319
down like a bit of you remember Elton John back

1424
01:40:26.359 --> 01:40:28.560
in Well, I'm not the same remember him. He's still around,

1425
01:40:28.560 --> 01:40:30.920
But remember when he was, like in the seventies and

1426
01:40:30.960 --> 01:40:36.760
the eighties. He'd be wearing really crazy glasses. And I

1427
01:40:36.840 --> 01:40:43.159
might do that or Danny LaRue was it Danny LaRue Liberaci. Yeah,

1428
01:40:43.840 --> 01:40:47.279
I might go down a Liberaci route just wear really

1429
01:40:47.479 --> 01:40:53.560
colorful spectacles, or I might just get some normal glasses.

1430
01:40:55.199 --> 01:41:02.359
I quite like these frames. But last time, because they've

1431
01:41:02.399 --> 01:41:05.600
got reading bits at the bottom, I got two pairs

1432
01:41:05.640 --> 01:41:09.039
of the same glasses. So this is the second pair.

1433
01:41:09.159 --> 01:41:11.600
Warn the other ones out. This is the second pair,

1434
01:41:12.600 --> 01:41:16.039
and needs are nearly worn out as well. It's been

1435
01:41:16.239 --> 01:41:20.359
I think three or four years, maybe four maybe longer

1436
01:41:20.439 --> 01:41:27.840
since I last had these. Yeah, I talked myself into it.

1437
01:41:28.079 --> 01:41:31.159
I'm going to go and get an eyeglass, eyeglass test,

1438
01:41:31.560 --> 01:41:39.199
eye test for glasses. It's not really much of a

1439
01:41:39.319 --> 01:41:43.279
history of my glasses, is it. But that's that's kind

1440
01:41:43.279 --> 01:41:45.359
of it. I remember that when I bought I got

1441
01:41:45.359 --> 01:41:48.640
my glasses nineteen eighty nine, and they were my first

1442
01:41:49.239 --> 01:41:55.840
reading only glasses, I think, And when I got them,

1443
01:41:56.239 --> 01:41:59.920
I was so excited, went in collected Duman. I think

1444
01:42:00.000 --> 01:42:01.920
I'd already bought a book to read, and I was

1445
01:42:01.960 --> 01:42:05.239
waiting for the to get the glasses to anoint the

1446
01:42:05.239 --> 01:42:08.039
book as it were, or anoint the glasses with the book,

1447
01:42:09.560 --> 01:42:15.640
and I sat on them. I put them on the

1448
01:42:15.680 --> 01:42:20.319
bed and I sat down and I basically, yeah, sat

1449
01:42:20.359 --> 01:42:23.239
on them. I had to take them back and get

1450
01:42:23.279 --> 01:42:29.760
them reshaped. And that's it for me.

1451
01:42:31.000 --> 01:42:31.760
So this is my.

1452
01:42:34.640 --> 01:42:40.640
Jason's was it Monday's boring objects glasses? So thank you

1453
01:42:40.640 --> 01:42:43.359
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you

1454
01:42:43.479 --> 01:42:47.880
do deserve to be happy, and be gentle with yourself,

1455
01:42:47.920 --> 01:42:55.199
because you do deserve to feel safe, lots of love.

1456
01:42:58.560 --> 01:43:04.600
Bye.

1457
01:43:05.119 --> 01:43:19.680
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1458
01:43:19.720 --> 01:43:25.279
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1459
01:43:26.640 --> 01:43:35.880
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1460
01:43:37.920 --> 01:43:43.600
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1461
01:43:43.640 --> 01:43:50.319
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1462
01:43:50.479 --> 01:44:05.399
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1463
01:44:05.479 --> 01:44:25.279
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1464
01:44:25.359 --> 01:44:35.960
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1465
01:44:38.840 --> 01:44:46.119
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1466
01:44:48.000 --> 01:45:02.000
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you find,

1467
01:45:03.319 --> 01:45:07.000
like some people do and myself as well, sometimes I

1468
01:45:07.119 --> 01:45:17.680
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1469
01:45:17.760 --> 01:45:22.479
I just listen to it over and over again every

1470
01:45:22.600 --> 01:45:35.479
morning every evening. There was this recording from We're Going

1471
01:45:35.520 --> 01:45:41.159
Back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but

1472
01:45:41.199 --> 01:45:46.399
it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1473
01:45:48.880 --> 01:45:54.079
and I managed to find it again and it still

1474
01:45:54.159 --> 01:46:00.239
has the same effect on me. And part of it was, yes,

1475
01:46:03.640 --> 01:46:16.840
the person's voice relaxed me, just felt so peaceful, and

1476
01:46:16.880 --> 01:46:23.760
I'd look forward to listening to her in the morning

1477
01:46:24.199 --> 01:46:35.279
and in the evening. And I knew before even pressing

1478
01:46:35.399 --> 01:46:43.319
the play button that since I've done that, pressed the

1479
01:46:43.359 --> 01:46:52.479
play button. This was in the days of CD players

1480
01:46:55.439 --> 01:47:00.960
pressed the play button. In fact, it might have even

1481
01:47:01.000 --> 01:47:05.479
been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed

1482
01:47:05.720 --> 01:47:22.359
and then even without necessarily listening to her words because

1483
01:47:24.279 --> 01:47:31.439
I had them memorized. Really, it was as if my

1484
01:47:31.560 --> 01:47:42.920
body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles just

1485
01:47:46.880 --> 01:48:06.159
almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind

1486
01:48:07.520 --> 01:48:08.439
would slow down.

1487
01:48:14.079 --> 01:48:14.479
Now.

1488
01:48:16.439 --> 01:48:23.119
Now I was listening to this recording in the early

1489
01:48:23.239 --> 01:48:31.079
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1490
01:48:31.600 --> 01:48:38.960
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1491
01:48:39.000 --> 01:48:52.760
doing that till two thousand and six, I knew, I

1492
01:48:52.880 --> 01:49:06.399
knew how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1493
01:49:09.399 --> 01:49:14.800
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1494
01:49:22.439 --> 01:49:31.960
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if.

1495
01:49:30.600 --> 01:49:31.319
Not more so.

1496
01:49:33.960 --> 01:49:40.960
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1497
01:49:47.319 --> 01:49:48.600
Some people.

1498
01:49:50.720 --> 01:50:03.079
Have been listening to me for over a decade, maybe

1499
01:50:03.159 --> 01:50:08.600
not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day, but

1500
01:50:10.720 --> 01:50:22.760
maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1501
01:50:26.800 --> 01:50:34.880
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1502
01:50:35.159 --> 01:50:50.119
by listening, is when I record these recordings.

1503
01:50:52.359 --> 01:50:52.760
Now.

1504
01:50:52.920 --> 01:51:05.439
For example, I also am affected by the words that

1505
01:51:05.560 --> 01:51:17.119
I say. So if I said to you, focus on

1506
01:51:17.159 --> 01:51:26.960
your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing

1507
01:51:27.079 --> 01:51:48.359
on my feet. I will be noticing my feet relaxing.

1508
01:51:49.520 --> 01:51:55.720
If I said focus on your hands, and maybe notice

1509
01:51:55.840 --> 01:52:07.840
the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the air in

1510
01:52:07.920 --> 01:52:12.880
the room, the temperature of the room. On the backs

1511
01:52:12.920 --> 01:52:24.800
of your hands, you may start to notice what almost

1512
01:52:24.800 --> 01:52:32.720
feels like a very light breeze, even though there may

1513
01:52:32.760 --> 01:52:37.760
not be any type of breeze at all where you

1514
01:52:37.880 --> 01:52:52.119
are right now. And as you become aware of your hands,

1515
01:52:56.920 --> 01:53:09.399
I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands our feeling

1516
01:53:11.239 --> 01:53:32.039
now and when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep,

1517
01:53:33.119 --> 01:53:45.720
which may be the reason you're listening. I also feel

1518
01:53:45.880 --> 01:54:00.199
drowsy when I make these recordings. I also notice my

1519
01:54:00.399 --> 01:54:16.680
mind drifting. In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep

1520
01:54:22.319 --> 01:54:36.800
without even noticing, and then I carry on talking. It's

1521
01:54:36.840 --> 01:54:45.880
only where I listen back to do the editing, I

1522
01:54:46.000 --> 01:54:55.279
hear snoring, and I think I don't remember snoring. I

1523
01:54:55.319 --> 01:55:06.399
remember talking. Snoring was a pick turned up. That's why

1524
01:55:06.399 --> 01:55:14.119
I sound like when I snore. How I get really

1525
01:55:14.279 --> 01:55:27.760
into the whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

1526
01:55:33.920 --> 01:55:40.520
How relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed

1527
01:55:44.319 --> 01:56:05.439
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

1528
01:56:05.640 --> 01:56:24.560
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1529
01:56:28.159 --> 01:56:44.319
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1530
01:56:47.479 --> 01:57:08.439
muscle relaxation. So this allows you to breathe easier without

1531
01:57:09.920 --> 01:57:40.760
necessarily focusing on your breath. However, being able to notice

1532
01:57:41.279 --> 01:57:42.680
the ease.

1533
01:57:45.600 --> 01:57:46.479
In which.

1534
01:57:53.680 --> 01:58:16.399
You breathe so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly.

1535
01:58:44.039 --> 01:59:02.960
Whenever I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1536
01:59:08.960 --> 01:59:21.840
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1537
01:59:22.079 --> 02:00:02.000
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice.

1538
02:00:02.319 --> 02:00:23.039
Two if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1539
02:00:34.359 --> 02:01:07.199
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1540
02:01:32.239 --> 02:01:57.760
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1541
02:02:03.640 --> 02:02:42.760
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1542
02:02:42.960 --> 02:03:54.640
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1543
02:03:55.640 --> 02:04:42.319
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1544
02:04:42.600 --> 02:04:58.720
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to dirip

1545
02:04:59.439 --> 02:05:09.199
out of you, your body to appear out of every

1546
02:05:12.600 --> 02:05:38.000
part of your body, and being released from your brain

1547
02:05:43.239 --> 02:06:35.319
in your mind slowly but surely, the muscle lex relax

1548
02:06:40.239 --> 02:07:30.479
rex so very deeply, rects so deeply, and the feelings,

1549
02:07:33.079 --> 02:07:57.960
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1550
02:07:58.359 --> 02:08:39.359
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine,

1551
02:08:39.680 --> 02:09:06.560
the feelings in the back of your neck, feelings in

1552
02:09:06.600 --> 02:09:56.039
your wrists, muscles, in front of your body. I all say,

1553
02:10:05.880 --> 02:10:45.199
feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense of peace spreads through

1554
02:10:46.680 --> 02:11:24.520
your fairy core. Even when you focus on your mind,

1555
02:11:36.399 --> 02:11:39.039
your mind becomes.

1556
02:11:45.680 --> 02:12:07.079
Be and slower. Heeven deep.

1557
02:12:22.199 --> 02:13:24.720
Relaxing so very slow, his stomach peace for in your stomach.

1558
02:13:46.800 --> 02:13:47.479
Look back.

1559
02:13:52.920 --> 02:14:06.479
Notice notice how relaxed.

1560
02:14:10.039 --> 02:14:49.199
You'd now feel in the hole of your back. You spy.

1561
02:14:52.960 --> 02:14:57.680
From your brain all the way down the middle of

1562
02:14:57.720 --> 02:15:21.960
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort,

1563
02:15:24.920 --> 02:16:41.600
increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, les, spreading those signals down

1564
02:16:41.719 --> 02:17:04.680
a spine or cord into air. Every part of your body,

1565
02:17:05.360 --> 02:17:53.520
your shins, and your half muscles. We are outbows, feelings

1566
02:17:53.559 --> 02:18:10.159
of peace and tranquility, spreading through your body, tips of

1567
02:18:10.239 --> 02:18:26.319
your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all the way

1568
02:18:26.520 --> 02:19:40.600
till you lower back, lettinger, retinker, peace, drifting mind, just

1569
02:19:41.079 --> 02:20:29.959
wandering away, happy to let go, let go completely, leo,

1570
02:20:32.559 --> 02:21:05.120
so tranquil your whole body, enjoying a censor.

1571
02:21:29.319 --> 02:21:30.000
Listing go.

1572
02:21:33.680 --> 02:23:33.680
Heven more peece, enjoy the space, this space of peace.

1573
02:23:36.879 --> 02:24:02.079
And safety. So fury.

1574
02:24:04.799 --> 02:26:03.479
He relaxed, let him go. Maybe we'll cank us focus

1575
02:26:03.639 --> 02:26:37.920
on the different parts of your body, just to notice

1576
02:26:38.360 --> 02:27:40.959
your forehead and your eyes mutual, so loose, noticing the

1577
02:27:41.159 --> 02:28:47.799
sense of complete freedom, absolute true, beat them Yes, damn

1578
02:28:59.120 --> 02:31:00.000
y day, peace for energy, peace to breathe so much easier. Yes,

1579
02:31:00.280 --> 02:31:12.159
you may have or may not have noticed your mind

1580
02:31:12.559 --> 02:32:14.879
drifting peaceful, move even more deeply in the direction of

1581
02:32:19.159 --> 02:34:14.719
total blissful pace, blissful pace to wrest total pace. Come

1582
02:34:20.399 --> 02:35:15.879
so calm, let him go. Peace of mind, relaxed, body,

1583
02:35:33.200 --> 02:36:29.959
so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so

1584
02:36:30.639 --> 02:37:39.600
very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so pa so like a fair

1585
02:37:50.319 --> 02:37:56.600
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1586
02:37:56.959 --> 02:38:08.200
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1587
02:38:09.120 --> 02:38:16.719
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1588
02:38:16.799 --> 02:38:25.959
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1589
02:38:30.879 --> 02:38:38.200
And that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1590
02:38:38.479 --> 02:38:51.000
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1591
02:38:52.639 --> 02:39:03.440
feel calmer just by listening to my voice. Yes, you

1592
02:39:03.479 --> 02:39:10.680
give yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1593
02:39:12.799 --> 02:39:20.319
take a break from your life as it is, and

1594
02:39:20.440 --> 02:39:28.200
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1595
02:39:28.280 --> 02:39:33.879
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

1596
02:39:35.559 --> 02:39:43.719
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1597
02:39:46.079 --> 02:39:51.159
releases the tension and he stresses that you had in

1598
02:39:51.200 --> 02:40:01.040
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1599
02:40:01.079 --> 02:40:13.120
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1600
02:40:13.120 --> 02:40:21.399
the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

1601
02:40:24.479 --> 02:40:29.120
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1602
02:40:30.719 --> 02:40:49.159
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1603
02:40:49.200 --> 02:41:06.319
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1604
02:41:06.360 --> 02:41:17.040
your body like a wave of comfort. And all this

1605
02:41:17.360 --> 02:41:29.440
comes from just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1606
02:41:29.479 --> 02:41:33.319
an hour, however long you want it to be, to

1607
02:41:33.639 --> 02:41:35.559
just rest.

1608
02:41:40.520 --> 02:41:41.520
And allow.

1609
02:41:43.680 --> 02:41:53.639
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1610
02:41:53.799 --> 02:42:10.000
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1611
02:42:10.159 --> 02:42:14.879
room for feelings of pleasure.

1612
02:42:17.040 --> 02:42:18.399
And happiness.

1613
02:42:21.840 --> 02:42:30.959
To move around your body and into your mind, almost

1614
02:42:31.479 --> 02:42:36.079
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1615
02:42:40.319 --> 02:42:51.520
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1616
02:42:55.079 --> 02:43:02.600
And it feels nice. It really does feel to know

1617
02:43:02.840 --> 02:43:11.760
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1618
02:43:11.959 --> 02:43:21.120
feel more comfort and to experience.

1619
02:43:22.719 --> 02:43:24.120
More of this.

1620
02:43:25.680 --> 02:43:41.079
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1621
02:43:42.399 --> 02:43:48.239
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1622
02:43:48.360 --> 02:44:05.440
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1623
02:44:05.440 --> 02:44:15.159
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1624
02:44:19.159 --> 02:44:25.280
And as I move down your body, starting at your head.

1625
02:44:27.600 --> 02:44:34.360
The parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1626
02:44:34.479 --> 02:44:42.159
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1627
02:44:42.200 --> 02:44:55.600
on or just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1628
02:44:55.959 --> 02:45:00.639
of even more comfort to come.

1629
02:45:06.120 --> 02:45:09.040
Now, I'm going.

1630
02:45:09.040 --> 02:45:15.959
To start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1631
02:45:16.280 --> 02:45:24.920
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1632
02:45:26.639 --> 02:45:31.559
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1633
02:45:31.680 --> 02:45:38.959
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1634
02:45:42.079 --> 02:45:48.040
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1635
02:45:50.879 --> 02:45:56.920
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1636
02:45:57.440 --> 02:46:07.959
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1637
02:46:08.200 --> 02:46:18.239
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1638
02:46:18.280 --> 02:46:27.920
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1639
02:46:27.959 --> 02:46:37.680
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1640
02:46:38.719 --> 02:46:48.399
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1641
02:46:48.440 --> 02:46:54.920
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1642
02:46:55.159 --> 02:47:09.639
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1643
02:47:10.040 --> 02:47:16.479
your tongue, your teeth, and your gumbs in the whole

1644
02:47:16.639 --> 02:47:31.239
of your mouth relaxing, calm and loose as you focus

1645
02:47:31.440 --> 02:47:39.000
now on your jaw, not just the part of your

1646
02:47:39.079 --> 02:47:43.600
jaw near your mouth and your chin, but all the

1647
02:47:43.680 --> 02:47:48.159
way up the side of your face to your ears,

1648
02:47:50.280 --> 02:48:08.319
the hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm.

1649
02:48:14.360 --> 02:48:23.520
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1650
02:48:23.559 --> 02:48:36.600
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1651
02:48:36.680 --> 02:48:42.000
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1652
02:48:44.920 --> 02:49:00.799
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1653
02:49:00.840 --> 02:49:13.719
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1654
02:49:13.879 --> 02:49:18.559
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1655
02:49:20.319 --> 02:49:34.440
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1656
02:49:34.680 --> 02:49:45.079
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1657
02:49:45.319 --> 02:49:52.120
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1658
02:49:53.200 --> 02:49:54.479
right from the top of.

1659
02:49:54.399 --> 02:49:58.840
Your back all the way down.

1660
02:49:59.079 --> 02:50:11.520
To the bottom of your back, down to your lower back.

1661
02:50:16.559 --> 02:50:23.639
And as you move up and down your spine, you

1662
02:50:23.719 --> 02:50:30.879
can feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing

1663
02:50:31.520 --> 02:50:44.959
even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense of

1664
02:50:45.200 --> 02:50:55.879
comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into both

1665
02:50:56.040 --> 02:51:03.280
sides of your back, the top of your back, the

1666
02:51:03.280 --> 02:51:11.680
middle and your lower back. And as you scan gently

1667
02:51:12.200 --> 02:51:19.559
and slowly up and down your back, there's the muscles

1668
02:51:19.719 --> 02:51:24.840
in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1669
02:51:29.159 --> 02:51:35.159
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1670
02:51:35.280 --> 02:51:44.799
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1671
02:51:50.559 --> 02:51:52.200
And in your lower back.

1672
02:51:55.680 --> 02:52:03.239
There seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort

1673
02:52:08.479 --> 02:52:14.600
that spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

1674
02:52:14.920 --> 02:52:22.920
into your hips, into the area where your cocksicks are,

1675
02:52:26.479 --> 02:52:34.159
and into your buttocks, and all those muscles that spread

1676
02:52:35.399 --> 02:52:45.159
from your lower back into your hip area start to melt,

1677
02:52:49.600 --> 02:53:03.079
start to really let go, and nowhere about to focus

1678
02:53:03.159 --> 02:53:12.000
on your shoulders. Your back and your spine will continue

1679
02:53:12.360 --> 02:53:30.840
to let go, continue to relax so calmly, and as

1680
02:53:30.879 --> 02:53:36.360
you focus on your shoulders, you may notice that they're

1681
02:53:36.399 --> 02:54:07.399
already feeding, really loose, they're already feeding car and fearing.

1682
02:54:11.559 --> 02:54:19.920
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders

1683
02:54:26.440 --> 02:54:55.920
feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1684
02:54:56.040 --> 02:55:08.920
the feeding in your shoulders seens to spread deep into

1685
02:55:08.959 --> 02:55:19.399
your shoulders. That sense of relaxation not just traveling deeply

1686
02:55:19.799 --> 02:55:36.760
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1687
02:55:36.879 --> 02:55:45.719
all away to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area

1688
02:55:45.879 --> 02:55:51.239
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1689
02:55:55.079 --> 02:55:57.239
He then.

1690
02:56:01.040 --> 02:56:01.799
You feel so.

1691
02:56:03.680 --> 02:56:17.760
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep

1692
02:56:18.559 --> 02:56:39.719
healing message into your arms. You may feel almost as

1693
02:56:39.719 --> 02:56:46.520
if your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1694
02:56:49.680 --> 02:57:35.680
so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1695
02:57:20.600 --> 02:57:35.879
So pose, not feeling.

1696
02:57:36.200 --> 02:57:52.879
Spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including.

1697
02:57:53.159 --> 02:57:54.559
Your elbows.

1698
02:57:59.799 --> 02:58:00.520
Hm hm.

1699
02:58:03.879 --> 02:58:21.280
Circumforts spreads or away into your rests of forearments induists

1700
02:58:28.079 --> 02:58:35.959
so heavy, yet at the same time.

1701
02:58:43.200 --> 02:59:17.680
So light and gentle. Frey. See now on.

1702
02:59:20.000 --> 03:00:13.680
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, there's

1703
03:00:13.680 --> 03:00:37.120
a sense of real peace. It just seems to feel

1704
03:00:39.360 --> 03:01:15.719
so familiar when your hands relax deeply feels a thing

1705
03:01:16.000 --> 03:02:52.680
is A thing is sadles you think it tips Moving

1706
03:02:53.000 --> 03:03:11.479
your attention to the front, to your body, so comfortable,

1707
03:03:22.360 --> 03:04:49.159
moving in your focus, your legs, why my souls in

1708
03:04:49.319 --> 03:05:43.200
your thighs, your knees, so relaxed, the carved mussels and

1709
03:05:43.479 --> 03:06:42.280
just chins compresedly four.

1710
03:07:48.959 --> 03:08:00.200
Fathing your faith sir peace so.

1711
03:08:02.360 --> 03:08:58.600
Sircom say peaceful sitcom su peaceful sitcom so.

1712
03:09:00.559 --> 03:09:12.360
Peace fall RelA sin.

1713
03:09:17.440 --> 03:09:19.719
Peace fall.

1714
03:09:22.520 --> 03:09:34.239
So calm.

1715
03:09:31.600 --> 03:09:39.200
Loveing that deep relaxation to spread your chest, in your stomach,

1716
03:09:42.959 --> 03:10:10.239
so RelA letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start

1717
03:10:10.280 --> 03:10:21.959
counting down now from twenty down to one. You can

1718
03:10:22.040 --> 03:10:25.639
imagine in a way it's like just walking down some

1719
03:10:25.760 --> 03:10:31.719
steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step

1720
03:10:31.920 --> 03:10:44.760
represents a level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening

1721
03:10:46.680 --> 03:10:57.079
of that comfort, and the furvies you walk down those

1722
03:10:57.159 --> 03:11:10.159
steps a deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1723
03:11:10.239 --> 03:15:43.000
with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen seasting hey fourteen

1724
03:16:42.479 --> 03:18:53.680
four two.

1725
03:17:49.559 --> 03:20:00.600
Two well five eight.

1726
03:21:05.600 --> 03:24:08.120
Nine hey seven.

1727
03:24:45.600 --> 03:26:00.440
Tho us.

1728
03:26:01.079 --> 03:31:55.440
Five four one No, as you focus on your eyes,

1729
03:32:04.959 --> 03:32:14.280
We're going to count down from ten down to one.

1730
03:32:14.639 --> 03:32:23.719
Focus in just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles

1731
03:32:23.840 --> 03:32:34.879
around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, a whole area

1732
03:32:35.719 --> 03:32:49.719
that makes up your eye. And as we count down

1733
03:32:49.879 --> 03:32:58.280
from ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1734
03:33:04.600 --> 03:33:16.600
you'll become twice is relaxed. With each number counting down

1735
03:33:19.600 --> 03:33:26.520
that you may find the all you want to.

1736
03:33:26.520 --> 03:33:27.799
Do is just.

1737
03:33:29.719 --> 03:33:36.920
Drift off to sleep. And if that's what you want,

1738
03:33:39.920 --> 03:33:53.000
then just allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on

1739
03:33:53.040 --> 03:34:01.000
your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down ten down

1740
03:34:01.079 --> 03:38:14.000
to one right now ten nine eight seven s five

1741
03:39:24.840 --> 03:43:29.079
four three two one. So counting down from ten to

1742
03:43:29.159 --> 03:43:36.200
one ten nine eight.

1743
03:43:38.639 --> 03:43:53.639
Seven six five four three two.

1744
03:43:55.479 --> 03:44:05.319
One. And maybe that was a bit too quick in

1745
03:44:05.440 --> 03:44:09.559
order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for

1746
03:44:09.600 --> 03:44:19.399
you to notice the calming of your body, maybe even

1747
03:44:19.600 --> 03:44:23.280
a little bit of pressure there, Like you're counting down

1748
03:44:23.360 --> 03:44:26.399
from ten to one. Would you expect me to do man,

1749
03:44:27.239 --> 03:44:31.840
expect me to stick go floppy just because you're counting down.

1750
03:44:37.360 --> 03:44:40.639
We could try it again, but this time I go.

1751
03:44:40.840 --> 03:44:48.239
It's slower this time, as you focus on the whole

1752
03:44:48.319 --> 03:44:54.600
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1753
03:44:54.799 --> 03:45:04.799
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1754
03:45:09.559 --> 03:45:29.239
with every number that I count down ten nine eight

1755
03:45:34.520 --> 03:46:58.760
seven six five four three two one. I just notice

1756
03:46:59.040 --> 03:47:11.000
how how you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's

1757
03:47:11.040 --> 03:47:21.639
not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1758
03:47:22.120 --> 03:47:37.520
It's that space that you have, that space between being

1759
03:47:39.079 --> 03:47:50.719
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1760
03:47:51.319 --> 03:47:56.120
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or

1761
03:47:57.000 --> 03:48:03.280
needing to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1762
03:48:04.239 --> 03:48:13.399
you know, a bit of a space, a gap, and

1763
03:48:13.479 --> 03:48:18.079
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1764
03:48:18.120 --> 03:48:26.360
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1765
03:48:27.520 --> 03:48:43.680
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1766
03:48:44.760 --> 03:48:52.760
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1767
03:48:54.280 --> 03:49:00.319
Away.

1768
03:49:01.440 --> 03:49:05.719
Allows you to just.

1769
03:49:08.639 --> 03:49:15.399
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1770
03:49:15.760 --> 03:49:26.040
and notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

1771
03:49:26.079 --> 03:49:32.159
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1772
03:49:32.200 --> 03:49:50.120
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1773
03:49:52.440 --> 03:49:58.000
Now ten.

1774
03:50:02.239 --> 03:51:47.239
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two one.

1775
03:51:59.079 --> 03:52:06.040
How did your body feel now?

1776
03:52:17.959 --> 03:52:33.280
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1777
03:52:33.680 --> 03:53:01.120
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1778
03:53:17.079 --> 03:53:37.239
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1779
03:53:37.319 --> 03:53:42.200
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1780
03:53:45.680 --> 03:53:48.280
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1781
03:53:48.440 --> 03:54:00.879
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1782
03:54:00.959 --> 03:54:07.399
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1783
03:54:07.520 --> 03:54:14.600
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1784
03:54:14.600 --> 03:54:19.520
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1785
03:54:19.639 --> 03:54:28.559
that leads into your hip and it goes down.

1786
03:54:28.360 --> 03:54:29.280
To your.

1787
03:54:30.840 --> 03:54:42.760
Knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's a

1788
03:54:42.879 --> 03:54:49.680
very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest muscles

1789
03:54:49.719 --> 03:55:02.680
in your body are in your thighs. But I don't

1790
03:55:02.680 --> 03:55:17.280
think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps

1791
03:55:17.399 --> 03:55:29.040
we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives,

1792
03:55:39.719 --> 03:55:50.280
how much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1793
03:55:56.280 --> 03:56:02.200
And it may seem sound really weird, but I think

1794
03:56:02.239 --> 03:56:09.159
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1795
03:56:09.319 --> 03:56:23.799
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

1796
03:56:26.280 --> 03:56:35.959
I thank you gratitude for our thighs do for us.

1797
03:56:42.159 --> 03:56:48.239
And I know this may sound is strange. Maybe you think,

1798
03:56:48.600 --> 03:56:51.559
why am I Surely I should be out in the

1799
03:56:51.639 --> 03:57:00.239
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1800
03:57:00.239 --> 03:57:03.440
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1801
03:57:03.479 --> 03:57:06.399
doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1802
03:57:07.520 --> 03:57:16.319
Now I can't see the television from the tree. If

1803
03:57:16.319 --> 03:57:22.520
you move down to your knees, gain such an important part,

1804
03:57:26.000 --> 03:57:31.159
and I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1805
03:57:33.559 --> 03:57:38.760
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for

1806
03:57:38.799 --> 03:57:44.680
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's

1807
03:57:44.719 --> 03:57:49.799
occasionally if I ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's

1808
03:57:49.959 --> 03:57:56.520
aching for some reason. It's then that I realize how

1809
03:57:56.639 --> 03:58:00.559
much it does. You know, the benefit of being able

1810
03:58:00.600 --> 03:58:09.159
to use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort

1811
03:58:10.760 --> 03:58:17.799
is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

1812
03:58:18.399 --> 03:58:27.840
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1813
03:58:27.879 --> 03:58:35.799
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1814
03:58:35.840 --> 03:58:41.719
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1815
03:58:41.760 --> 03:58:54.440
knees for all that they do for you. And you

1816
03:58:54.479 --> 03:58:58.399
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1817
03:58:58.520 --> 03:59:05.319
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1818
03:59:05.719 --> 03:59:23.559
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1819
03:59:23.559 --> 03:59:28.000
bottoms of your legs, your shins and your calf muscles

1820
03:59:28.319 --> 03:59:36.040
and the bones between your knees and your feet incorporate,

1821
03:59:36.120 --> 03:59:47.520
and of course, your ankles so important. Anyone that's had

1822
03:59:48.319 --> 03:59:54.040
even like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how

1823
03:59:55.440 --> 04:00:05.760
how much we take our ankles for granted. And it's

1824
04:00:05.840 --> 04:00:08.079
kind of strange in a way when you think that,

1825
04:00:10.479 --> 04:00:14.479
you know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

1826
04:00:14.559 --> 04:00:18.799
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

1827
04:00:19.200 --> 04:00:22.280
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

1828
04:00:22.360 --> 04:00:30.040
picking stuff up. But our ankles so much thinner than

1829
04:00:30.079 --> 04:00:39.200
the rest of our legs, and from a physics perspective

1830
04:00:40.399 --> 04:00:44.639
or logical even it doesn't really make sense that all

1831
04:00:44.680 --> 04:00:53.440
this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles then

1832
04:00:53.520 --> 04:01:06.680
leading to your feet, that thin area, a thin bone. Yeah,

1833
04:01:06.760 --> 04:01:12.479
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1834
04:01:12.559 --> 04:01:24.360
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps

1835
04:01:24.399 --> 04:01:37.040
you to get around and be mobile. And there's the

1836
04:01:37.120 --> 04:01:45.280
calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't

1837
04:01:45.280 --> 04:01:48.280
see the point in calf muscles. It didn't seem to

1838
04:01:48.319 --> 04:01:54.280
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

1839
04:01:54.440 --> 04:01:58.200
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

1840
04:01:58.239 --> 04:02:02.879
not true. The calf muscles being used whenever we use

1841
04:02:02.920 --> 04:02:17.079
our legs and your shins there to protect your lower legs,

1842
04:02:21.239 --> 04:02:28.159
shaped in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1843
04:02:34.000 --> 04:02:37.680
leading of course to your ankles.

1844
04:02:40.479 --> 04:02:41.200
And your feet.

1845
04:02:45.840 --> 04:02:47.840
But we're not going to focus on your feet we're

1846
04:02:47.879 --> 04:02:49.360
just going to focus on the legs.

1847
04:02:51.200 --> 04:02:52.639
And I realize.

1848
04:02:54.079 --> 04:02:58.200
That now that I've mentioned your feet, it probably focusing

1849
04:02:58.239 --> 04:03:01.360
on them anyway. For maybe Earth should focus on your

1850
04:03:01.360 --> 04:03:07.239
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1851
04:03:07.239 --> 04:03:13.799
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1852
04:03:14.520 --> 04:03:18.319
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1853
04:03:18.360 --> 04:03:29.360
a few minutes, we'll be focusing on your ankles. There's

1854
04:03:29.399 --> 04:03:44.479
still that sensation of comfort in your thighs and this

1855
04:03:44.719 --> 04:03:46.200
that movement.

1856
04:03:47.280 --> 04:03:48.440
Of energy.

1857
04:03:50.120 --> 04:03:57.159
Because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1858
04:03:57.200 --> 04:04:01.600
there's the muscles, the big st You're all muscles that

1859
04:04:01.719 --> 04:04:14.639
we have in our thighs. But the skin on the

1860
04:04:14.719 --> 04:04:20.200
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1861
04:04:20.239 --> 04:04:29.120
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1862
04:04:31.879 --> 04:04:45.840
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs the bones, there's

1863
04:04:46.239 --> 04:04:51.399
the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the ar trees, all

1864
04:04:51.520 --> 04:05:00.959
this stuff that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd

1865
04:05:01.000 --> 04:05:05.120
be nice if you could actually put your fingers inside

1866
04:05:05.159 --> 04:05:10.639
your thighs and a message, so you can message on

1867
04:05:10.680 --> 04:05:14.120
the outside, of course, but to be able to get

1868
04:05:14.159 --> 04:05:17.120
deep into the muscles and to be able to just

1869
04:05:17.399 --> 04:05:23.639
massage inside your thighs, message in the bones of your

1870
04:05:23.719 --> 04:05:34.799
leg massage in all the veins and just gently healing

1871
04:05:35.399 --> 04:05:44.520
your thighs, and you could move down message and inside

1872
04:05:44.559 --> 04:05:49.680
your knees, just a message in those bones, but with

1873
04:05:49.959 --> 04:05:57.399
healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy deep into the joints

1874
04:05:58.559 --> 04:06:06.639
of your knees. Of course, there's the back of your

1875
04:06:07.680 --> 04:06:12.440
your knee, you know, the inside crease where your knee is.

1876
04:06:14.040 --> 04:06:19.559
It's a very sensitive area. Very it feels very nice

1877
04:06:19.600 --> 04:06:24.239
when you stroke it. That might be because it's an

1878
04:06:24.239 --> 04:06:29.559
area that's not really touched very often. It's almost like

1879
04:06:29.639 --> 04:06:36.239
a hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's almost

1880
04:06:38.559 --> 04:06:43.200
like a part that has a sensitivity, which is a

1881
04:06:43.200 --> 04:06:54.200
little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs.

1882
04:07:01.440 --> 04:07:05.760
So you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1883
04:07:06.559 --> 04:07:15.520
in your legs, that fold in between your legs. You

1884
04:07:15.559 --> 04:07:20.440
can just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going

1885
04:07:20.600 --> 04:07:31.120
inside message in the muscle tissue. You can of course

1886
04:07:31.200 --> 04:07:39.360
field the bones of your knees, heading through your fingertips,

1887
04:07:45.280 --> 04:07:46.840
and then as you go down.

1888
04:07:49.319 --> 04:07:50.639
To your calf muscles.

1889
04:07:50.959 --> 04:07:52.799
Now that's the part I'd like to be able to

1890
04:07:53.520 --> 04:08:00.920
really put my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage

1891
04:08:00.959 --> 04:08:10.079
in every single tissue of that muscle, healing every part,

1892
04:08:16.000 --> 04:08:22.120
and then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1893
04:08:22.959 --> 04:08:30.000
gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in a

1894
04:08:30.040 --> 04:08:37.319
loving way, because they deserve to be treated as the

1895
04:08:37.360 --> 04:08:41.319
precious bones that they are, Because our legs are so

1896
04:08:41.479 --> 04:08:45.079
precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1897
04:08:47.520 --> 04:08:49.639
and more precious than any jure.

1898
04:08:51.959 --> 04:08:52.680
On the planet.

1899
04:09:01.239 --> 04:09:12.239
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1900
04:09:13.840 --> 04:09:20.520
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1901
04:09:23.600 --> 04:09:27.879
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1902
04:09:28.719 --> 04:09:38.760
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1903
04:09:38.879 --> 04:09:42.920
to be able to put your hands in your thighs

1904
04:09:44.719 --> 04:09:51.200
and massage the muscles and the bones, and to get

1905
04:09:51.239 --> 04:10:00.159
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show.

1906
04:10:01.879 --> 04:10:03.159
How much you care.

1907
04:10:06.280 --> 04:10:11.440
About your legs, how much you care for what your

1908
04:10:11.520 --> 04:10:23.559
legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles,

1909
04:10:25.479 --> 04:10:33.280
the strength of your ankles, considering how thin they are

1910
04:10:33.360 --> 04:10:41.079
compared to the rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah,

1911
04:10:41.159 --> 04:10:53.399
They're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles

1912
04:10:53.600 --> 04:11:02.879
are truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1913
04:11:08.159 --> 04:11:15.159
supporting all that weight. Regardless of how what weight you are,

1914
04:11:16.319 --> 04:11:21.120
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1915
04:11:21.120 --> 04:11:27.840
of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot

1916
04:11:28.040 --> 04:11:38.000
heavier than eat stone double down, yet my ankles support

1917
04:11:38.040 --> 04:11:45.399
my body all the time. Orthough they do give off

1918
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a sigh of relief when I sit down, as fact,

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my whole legs do. My feet, feet also go, my

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toes clap, they're so happy. Your legs really are amazing.

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And I know that talking about talking about your legs

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is probably possibly among the most most boring things you've

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ever heard anyone say. Possibly they're boring or not. Everything

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I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs

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deserve not just respect, They deserve to relax.

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Deeply.

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They deserve to take some time out of the day

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to just let go completely. Your legs.

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Really can relax.

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And because the legs are so such a most you know,

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very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

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the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

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journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

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My hips feel really loose, and also my lower.

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Back as well.

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My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

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I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

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as far as I'm aware that I'm doing, but it's

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almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so much

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that there is a natural stretch as the tension has

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reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count down

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from ten down to one, and you can continue to

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feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven six five four

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three two.

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One. Relax.

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So I'm just going to count down from five down

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to one, and as a countdown, if you just focus

1948
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on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and note

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this is how you feel in this moment as you

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hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1951
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down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1952
04:17:26.680 --> 04:17:35.159
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel

1953
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there's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

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to think about, starting with number five, four three two.

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One.

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Now, as you notice the gradual letting go of the

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tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1958
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and be aware of how your mind is starting to

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slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

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It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

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as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax,

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and the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1963
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It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there is

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that calmness that comes from relative quietness.

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You know, even even if there's.

1966
04:19:48.600 --> 04:19:55.920
Background sounds either your side or mind, it's still going

1967
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to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

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television on, there's no music in the background unless you're

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listening to the recording with music. Of course, you're very

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likely not going to be sitting in a room with

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04:20:16.120 --> 04:20:20.920
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

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more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1973
04:20:25.520 --> 04:20:35.680
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

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04:20:42.159 --> 04:20:52.479
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

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04:20:56.959 --> 04:21:03.680
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

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04:21:04.040 --> 04:21:15.799
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

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04:21:15.920 --> 04:21:26.159
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1978
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the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

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no effort into it. It's not something that you can

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really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

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the process of this recording and others is simply two

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04:22:01.079 --> 04:22:11.559
allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

1983
04:22:14.479 --> 04:22:25.600
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1984
04:22:26.000 --> 04:22:39.440
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1985
04:22:41.639 --> 04:22:53.120
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1986
04:22:54.280 --> 04:22:59.520
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1987
04:23:01.200 --> 04:23:16.319
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1988
04:23:17.520 --> 04:23:22.000
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1989
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part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

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relaxed do you become, the easier you find yourself drifting.

1991
04:23:52.399 --> 04:23:59.000
But you can also if you choose stay focused on

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04:23:59.079 --> 04:24:27.440
my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each

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04:24:27.879 --> 04:24:54.440
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation,

1994
04:25:00.079 --> 04:25:15.680
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

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04:25:15.840 --> 04:25:26.680
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

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04:25:28.680 --> 04:25:42.120
calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

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04:25:43.120 --> 04:25:46.719
feeling calm.

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And slow.

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And peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one, being aware

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04:28:47.360 --> 04:29:02.280
of how your mind to slow right down, sinking deeply

2001
04:29:05.040 --> 04:29:25.879
into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind, you

2002
04:29:25.920 --> 04:29:35.200
may notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

2003
04:29:35.319 --> 04:29:45.120
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

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04:29:52.000 --> 04:30:00.959
That's what you can do is send loved of those thoughts.

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04:30:04.200 --> 04:30:15.079
Sprinkle those thoughts with love, like all petals from a flower.

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04:30:16.079 --> 04:30:23.040
Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled with love towards

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04:30:23.120 --> 04:30:29.760
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

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04:30:29.799 --> 04:30:38.680
abandoned in them. You just need them. You require them

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04:30:38.719 --> 04:30:47.280
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

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For now.

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04:30:58.760 --> 04:31:03.799
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts. As we

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04:31:03.959 --> 04:31:09.239
count down this time from seven down to one. With

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04:31:09.360 --> 04:31:23.479
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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04:31:24.840 --> 04:31:36.719
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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04:31:38.079 --> 04:31:53.200
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

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04:31:53.280 --> 04:34:00.159
will become more and more relax starting with number seven, six, five, four, three,

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04:34:00.720 --> 04:34:52.560
two one the needing. Now, notice how relaxed you're feeling

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04:34:53.479 --> 04:35:09.119
in your body. We're going to focus on your hands,

2019
04:35:14.919 --> 04:35:21.319
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

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04:35:21.439 --> 04:35:42.479
your body and mind are. And you focus on your

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04:35:42.639 --> 04:35:52.840
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

2022
04:35:53.840 --> 04:35:58.919
There's no clenching of fists or tents in the fingers

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04:35:59.040 --> 04:36:12.720
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

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04:36:12.799 --> 04:36:21.639
your hands, noticing.

2025
04:36:21.360 --> 04:36:38.360
How they feel. Because the more.

2026
04:36:40.319 --> 04:36:51.000
Relaxed your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and

2027
04:36:51.080 --> 04:37:03.599
the more comfort you feel throughout your body.

2028
04:37:05.439 --> 04:37:23.360
You may have already noticed you.

2029
04:37:27.799 --> 04:37:35.959
Mind is starting.

2030
04:37:38.759 --> 04:37:39.880
To dress.

2031
04:37:53.240 --> 04:38:08.720
Fashim just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to

2032
04:38:11.200 --> 04:38:22.759
experience a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

2033
04:38:22.799 --> 04:38:24.599
and fingers.

2034
04:38:29.639 --> 04:38:30.840
More.

2035
04:38:33.159 --> 04:38:56.840
And more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one,

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04:38:57.680 --> 04:39:07.560
you can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

2037
04:39:08.720 --> 04:39:27.639
into your hands and fingers, becoming yeling more relaxing with

2038
04:39:28.119 --> 04:39:46.680
each number you hear, going down from eight down to one, drifting,

2039
04:39:50.360 --> 04:41:17.720
drifting again, starting with number eight, seven, six.

2040
04:41:52.159 --> 04:43:08.000
Five, four, three, two.

2041
04:43:57.000 --> 04:44:06.520
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2042
04:44:07.919 --> 04:44:22.000
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

2043
04:44:22.159 --> 04:44:29.880
is your natural state of being. This is how you

2044
04:44:30.040 --> 04:44:36.279
just normally feel when you take away all of that

2045
04:44:36.720 --> 04:44:44.119
other stuff that we add, you know, things like stress

2046
04:44:44.240 --> 04:44:59.799
and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking

2047
04:44:59.799 --> 04:45:00.759
of about stuff.

2048
04:45:02.680 --> 04:45:03.720
When you take that.

2049
04:45:03.799 --> 04:45:07.799
Away, which is what we do what we do now,

2050
04:45:14.080 --> 04:45:25.400
you're left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes

2051
04:45:25.479 --> 04:45:34.840
to you very quickly because ultimately it's just a feeling,

2052
04:45:39.200 --> 04:45:47.040
a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've gone

2053
04:45:47.040 --> 04:45:55.560
inside yourself and you've found a special place where everything

2054
04:45:58.880 --> 04:46:07.200
is peaceful, a place where you can feel relaxed and

2055
04:46:07.360 --> 04:46:16.159
your natural sense of comfort, a place where you can

2056
04:46:16.240 --> 04:46:25.759
be you, where you can accept yourself for who you are,

2057
04:46:28.279 --> 04:46:35.000
a place where you're not trying to please anybody else ever,

2058
04:46:38.959 --> 04:46:47.560
a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

2059
04:46:47.639 --> 04:46:53.159
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself

2060
04:46:55.599 --> 04:47:12.959
appreciate who you are. That sense of gratitude is in

2061
04:47:13.000 --> 04:47:24.159
the air all around you. That's also a place where

2062
04:47:24.200 --> 04:47:34.560
you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

2063
04:47:41.200 --> 04:47:52.599
Heathing energy soaking into your body, and that healing energy

2064
04:47:52.959 --> 04:48:03.279
spreads through your veins, traveling to each and every single

2065
04:48:03.639 --> 04:48:14.159
part of your body, and you start to realize that

2066
04:48:14.360 --> 04:48:21.720
actually that healing energy it's not just entered into your brain,

2067
04:48:24.520 --> 04:48:34.560
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

2068
04:48:36.680 --> 04:48:47.639
is now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you

2069
04:48:47.720 --> 04:48:55.759
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

2070
04:49:00.200 --> 04:49:09.680
but also you start to realize to actually, what's happening

2071
04:49:09.880 --> 04:49:18.400
now with that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body,

2072
04:49:20.319 --> 04:49:31.200
It's actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

2073
04:49:31.279 --> 04:49:36.720
you're going to feel, not just now, but to morrow

2074
04:49:37.799 --> 04:49:46.680
and the next day. As your health improves, not just

2075
04:49:46.759 --> 04:49:54.720
your physical health, but your mental health. Things that used

2076
04:49:54.759 --> 04:50:00.599
to bother you in the past, for some reason, no

2077
04:50:00.639 --> 04:50:08.639
longer have the effect that they used to because something

2078
04:50:08.759 --> 04:50:19.840
has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to

2079
04:50:22.080 --> 04:50:31.599
cause you to feel anger no longer have that power

2080
04:50:34.439 --> 04:50:39.520
to control you the way they seem to be able

2081
04:50:39.599 --> 04:50:50.599
to before. As you realize that you're the one who

2082
04:50:50.680 --> 04:51:05.599
decides what affects You're the one who decides to feel

2083
04:51:06.119 --> 04:51:19.479
relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these

2084
04:51:19.959 --> 04:51:34.400
natural developments of healing continuing to grow and improve your

2085
04:51:34.479 --> 04:51:47.360
life day by day, including of course, your ability to

2086
04:51:47.520 --> 04:51:51.919
relax so much easier.

2087
04:51:56.159 --> 04:51:57.200
And sleeping.

2088
04:52:01.759 --> 04:52:07.479
It's the most natural thing in the world to you,

2089
04:52:11.959 --> 04:52:19.200
because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

2090
04:52:19.319 --> 04:52:28.439
times in your life. And you know that you were born,

2091
04:52:28.639 --> 04:52:35.279
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

2092
04:52:39.479 --> 04:52:50.200
We were born with that ability to just drift off

2093
04:52:50.919 --> 04:53:04.119
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2094
04:53:04.159 --> 04:53:08.599
we'll fall asleep when we don't even want to try

2095
04:53:08.639 --> 04:53:12.919
to take a stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

2096
04:53:13.000 --> 04:53:17.119
the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something we

2097
04:53:17.279 --> 04:53:18.040
look forward to.

2098
04:53:18.479 --> 04:53:19.799
We don't want to go to sleep.

2099
04:53:21.959 --> 04:53:26.959
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

2100
04:53:27.159 --> 04:53:35.520
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

2101
04:53:36.159 --> 04:53:38.560
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in

2102
04:53:38.599 --> 04:53:51.639
a shape, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because

2103
04:53:51.639 --> 04:53:57.119
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

2104
04:53:58.799 --> 04:54:08.639
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

2105
04:54:08.759 --> 04:54:19.319
part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get older

2106
04:54:19.360 --> 04:54:32.880
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely.

2107
04:54:34.560 --> 04:54:58.599
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

2108
04:54:59.279 --> 04:55:06.639
It's very, very very easy to let go, because that's

2109
04:55:06.680 --> 04:55:07.240
all it is.

2110
04:55:07.319 --> 04:55:07.880
It's just.

2111
04:55:11.319 --> 04:55:22.840
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

2112
04:55:22.840 --> 04:55:33.119
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

2113
04:55:33.360 --> 04:55:41.479
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

2114
04:55:42.479 --> 04:55:50.919
you have given me permission for my words to affect

2115
04:55:53.400 --> 04:56:00.560
you in a positive only a positive to the way

2116
04:56:04.520 --> 04:56:28.040
opening up your mind two useful and healing suggestions that

2117
04:56:28.200 --> 04:56:39.520
can have such an amazing effect on how you feel

2118
04:56:40.119 --> 04:56:54.319
right now, as well as those changes that continue long

2119
04:56:54.680 --> 04:57:05.000
after the recording ends. Those changes within you to continue

2120
04:57:05.240 --> 04:57:18.479
to flourish and grow, transforming your life in a positive,

2121
04:57:20.319 --> 04:57:29.959
beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in your life

2122
04:57:31.400 --> 04:57:46.200
in the direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling,

2123
04:57:48.919 --> 04:57:57.080
this feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness,

2124
04:58:04.840 --> 04:58:18.799
just feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2125
04:58:26.680 --> 04:58:43.479
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2126
04:58:43.520 --> 04:58:53.319
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2127
04:58:55.639 --> 04:59:08.000
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2128
04:59:08.080 --> 04:59:13.639
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

2129
04:59:13.720 --> 04:59:25.599
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2130
04:59:25.680 --> 04:59:35.959
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2131
04:59:36.000 --> 04:59:46.880
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

2132
04:59:47.040 --> 05:00:01.759
just say stop, stop and that negativity turn around and

2133
05:00:01.919 --> 05:00:29.200
leave you alone. Stop and that negativity would disappear. And

2134
05:00:29.279 --> 05:00:37.200
as you notice that you feel way more relaxed than

2135
05:00:37.240 --> 05:00:52.880
you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because you're

2136
05:00:53.319 --> 05:00:59.319
the person that has done this. You are the one

2137
05:01:00.119 --> 05:01:08.119
has opened your mind up to the simple facts that

2138
05:01:08.240 --> 05:01:13.319
you can feel more relaxed in your body and in

2139
05:01:13.400 --> 05:01:25.479
your mind. You've opened your mind up to the birthright

2140
05:01:25.599 --> 05:01:34.240
of being able to just fall asleep easily when you choose.

2141
05:01:42.880 --> 05:01:50.040
And that's a nice feeling, don't you think it feels nice?

2142
05:01:50.159 --> 05:01:59.959
Doesn't it? To feel calm, all that healing energy spread

2143
05:02:00.279 --> 05:02:12.720
through your body and your mind, to spend time in

2144
05:02:10.840 --> 05:02:28.759
a special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity

2145
05:02:28.880 --> 05:02:37.880
is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't.

2146
05:02:37.919 --> 05:02:42.000
This doesn't deserve to be here. It doesn't belong here.

2147
05:02:45.639 --> 05:03:00.520
Negativity has no place in your life, which may room

2148
05:03:00.720 --> 05:03:31.720
for more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It

2149
05:03:31.759 --> 05:03:34.479
feels nice, doesn't it?

2150
05:03:34.919 --> 05:03:43.439
Just the let go with everything.

2151
05:03:57.080 --> 05:04:04.080
I'm going to count down now from twenty down to one.

2152
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You can continue to relax if you choose, You can

2153
05:04:14.560 --> 05:04:25.040
drift to sleep. With every number you hear me say,

2154
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you can feel twice as relaxed or if you choose,

2155
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you can feel twice to sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thteen, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

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Five.

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Ooh, this is your time to just take a break,

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your time to relax.

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Two.

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Allow your mind to slow down, to give yourself permission

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to take a break from everything. And you you're the

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05:08:30.599 --> 05:08:37.639
only person that can make that decision. You're the only

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05:08:37.720 --> 05:08:45.880
person that can actually tell your mind to just relax,

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05:08:54.000 --> 05:09:09.720
to just take some time off so that you can

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focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

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05:09:15.959 --> 05:09:32.840
feel physically, and in the process of this body scan,

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05:09:33.240 --> 05:09:43.799
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

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parts that you focus on and observe, even though you're

2169
05:09:51.240 --> 05:09:59.919
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relate,

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05:10:02.319 --> 05:10:08.759
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

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05:10:08.840 --> 05:10:21.560
my voice to feel more relaxed, naturally, because when you're

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05:10:21.599 --> 05:10:31.880
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

2173
05:10:36.759 --> 05:10:47.680
and as my words guide you to focus on those

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parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

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05:11:06.159 --> 05:11:26.319
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

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And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes, and

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even though we have not really started to focus on

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05:12:03.360 --> 05:12:16.840
your body, you can already feel that healing energy spreading

2179
05:12:17.000 --> 05:12:36.400
through your body, pushing out stress and tension, healing all

2180
05:12:36.439 --> 05:12:43.000
the parts of your body, including your skin, your bones,

2181
05:12:44.479 --> 05:12:50.720
your blood, all of your organs inside your body, all

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05:12:50.759 --> 05:12:57.319
of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

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05:12:59.119 --> 05:13:10.000
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

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05:13:13.360 --> 05:13:14.720
And when your brain.

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05:13:18.959 --> 05:13:32.319
Fills with that healing energy, the feeling of comfort and

2186
05:13:32.319 --> 05:13:59.159
relaxation increases deeply, increases in a way that your mind

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05:14:02.040 --> 05:14:15.639
start to feel perhaps a bit drowsy because it's not needed,

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05:14:18.959 --> 05:14:35.279
and it may start to drift if that's what's needed.

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So if you're listening to this and what you need

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05:14:43.240 --> 05:14:45.959
is deep relaxation, that's.

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05:14:45.720 --> 05:14:53.319
What you get. If what you need is to fall asleep.

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Naturally and easily as your mind drifts, that's also what

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05:15:03.599 --> 05:15:16.639
will happen. Because by pressing that play button on the

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05:15:16.720 --> 05:15:23.560
podcast and listening to me, you give permission for your

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05:15:23.599 --> 05:15:34.639
body and your mind. In fact, you give the command

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05:15:36.080 --> 05:15:47.000
to your body and your mind to relax deeply and

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05:15:47.159 --> 05:15:53.240
to drift off to sleep if that's what you want.

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05:15:56.360 --> 05:15:56.919
Or need.

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And as I focus on the different parts of your body.

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You may start to just drift, and then you come

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05:16:24.000 --> 05:16:29.279
back again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing

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05:16:29.439 --> 05:16:39.000
on a different parts of your body, and you may

2203
05:16:39.919 --> 05:16:48.919
find yourself drifting, but you don't realize you're drifting until

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05:16:48.959 --> 05:16:56.200
you stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice.

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05:16:56.880 --> 05:17:02.799
Focusing on a different part to your body, starts to

2206
05:17:02.959 --> 05:17:14.400
relax even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already.

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05:17:16.119 --> 05:17:22.919
In the sleep zone.

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05:17:23.880 --> 05:17:28.840
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

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05:17:28.959 --> 05:17:39.479
the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

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05:17:44.479 --> 05:17:46.840
and that's the last you remember.

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Until you wake up.

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05:17:53.799 --> 05:17:58.959
In your own time when you experience the right amount

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05:17:59.040 --> 05:18:05.439
of sleep for you, because when.

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05:18:05.279 --> 05:18:10.159
You do and if you do fall asleep.

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05:18:09.720 --> 05:18:24.959
It's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep healing.

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Sleep.

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05:18:36.759 --> 05:18:44.119
I'm going to feel so nice to relax into your

2218
05:18:44.200 --> 05:18:51.680
own body and mind as you as you feel that

2219
05:18:52.799 --> 05:18:59.680
healing energy is spreading through you, relaxing use so deep,

2220
05:19:05.520 --> 05:19:22.439
relaxing is so so deeply as we start to focus.

2221
05:19:23.360 --> 05:19:33.479
On your eyes, moving down.

2222
05:19:36.000 --> 05:20:19.119
To your jaw, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hand, fingers,

2223
05:20:26.240 --> 05:21:07.599
your chest, stomach, your back, your spine, your hips, your legs,

2224
05:21:15.080 --> 05:21:50.119
your feet, your toes, and the feeling iseings spreading and

2225
05:21:50.360 --> 05:22:04.439
growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus

2226
05:22:04.479 --> 05:22:14.279
again on parts of your body. Focus in this time

2227
05:22:14.360 --> 05:22:27.439
on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

2228
05:22:30.599 --> 05:22:46.840
the whole of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers.

2229
05:22:52.080 --> 05:22:56.680
Maybe you could move your fingers a little bit. You

2230
05:22:56.799 --> 05:23:08.520
can focus on each one individually, both hands.

2231
05:23:12.000 --> 05:23:14.479
And even though if you focus on both of.

2232
05:23:14.439 --> 05:23:25.200
Your hands now, they almost seemed to just melt into one,

2233
05:23:25.759 --> 05:23:29.240
where there is your right hand start and your left

2234
05:23:29.240 --> 05:23:34.599
hand end, almost as if.

2235
05:23:37.119 --> 05:23:38.439
Just mixed together.

2236
05:23:43.840 --> 05:24:12.279
Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees fell. Now,

2237
05:24:12.319 --> 05:24:19.639
focusing on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows,

2238
05:24:25.799 --> 05:25:01.560
just observing the feeling of your elbows. Now focusing absurding

2239
05:25:03.200 --> 05:25:18.599
the back of your neck, feeling that energy on the

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05:25:18.639 --> 05:26:08.639
back of your neck, absurd your ankles, being aware of

2241
05:26:08.880 --> 05:27:23.880
physical sensation's in your ankles, noticin now your toes, on

2242
05:27:24.119 --> 05:27:41.319
both of your feet, being aware how your toes feel

2243
05:27:44.560 --> 05:28:43.840
right now, m notice thin how you entire body feels, noticing.

2244
05:28:50.240 --> 05:28:54.959
Your mind feels.

2245
05:28:58.720 --> 05:29:52.080
Now letting go, letting go, letting go everything, letting go,

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05:29:58.360 --> 05:30:32.520
letting go, m letting go, huh everything everything. I'm going

2247
05:30:32.599 --> 05:30:36.279
to start now, and I would like you just, first

2248
05:30:36.319 --> 05:30:41.840
of all, just to see yourself lying down on that

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05:30:42.000 --> 05:30:48.000
message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

2250
05:30:48.400 --> 05:30:57.119
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing.

2251
05:30:57.240 --> 05:31:06.799
It's really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

2252
05:31:06.840 --> 05:31:09.080
how you look as well. So there's none of that

2253
05:31:09.200 --> 05:31:16.000
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

2254
05:31:17.159 --> 05:31:23.560
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

2255
05:31:23.680 --> 05:31:34.240
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

2256
05:31:34.279 --> 05:31:42.439
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

2257
05:31:42.520 --> 05:31:48.639
of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and

2258
05:31:48.720 --> 05:31:56.880
allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you by

2259
05:31:56.919 --> 05:32:05.439
a message your body. So I want to start off

2260
05:32:05.599 --> 05:32:10.520
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

2261
05:32:11.959 --> 05:32:16.080
just gently, just so you can feel, well, my hands

2262
05:32:17.040 --> 05:32:24.080
feel like really on you, so you can maybe feel

2263
05:32:24.080 --> 05:32:27.479
the warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

2264
05:32:29.799 --> 05:32:32.240
And with my hands to the side of your head,

2265
05:32:32.959 --> 05:32:39.599
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

2266
05:32:39.639 --> 05:32:43.360
your ears and a little bit on your face, just

2267
05:32:43.400 --> 05:32:46.040
so you can feel my hands.

2268
05:32:48.040 --> 05:33:00.000
So you can become accustomed to them.

2269
05:33:00.240 --> 05:33:02.439
And now put my hands on the back of your

2270
05:33:02.479 --> 05:33:09.919
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

2271
05:33:09.959 --> 05:33:27.000
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

2272
05:33:27.200 --> 05:33:34.200
stroking the back of your neck to start with, just

2273
05:33:34.240 --> 05:33:38.200
so you can get used to the the feeling of

2274
05:33:38.240 --> 05:33:45.799
my hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize that

2275
05:33:46.240 --> 05:33:56.360
you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine. And

2276
05:33:56.400 --> 05:34:00.560
I'm going to start gently messaging the muscle in the

2277
05:34:00.599 --> 05:34:16.520
back of your neck with both hands. Now, this is

2278
05:34:16.520 --> 05:34:22.840
a very trusting situation, really, because our necks is so

2279
05:34:23.119 --> 05:34:28.159
fragile and to have someone have their hands around your

2280
05:34:28.240 --> 05:34:33.200
neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2281
05:34:34.360 --> 05:34:38.880
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

2282
05:34:38.919 --> 05:34:49.520
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

2283
05:34:53.119 --> 05:35:05.040
to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a massage the

2284
05:35:05.319 --> 05:35:13.360
sides of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of

2285
05:35:13.400 --> 05:35:17.080
your neck. It would be sort of near where your

2286
05:35:17.119 --> 05:35:22.880
shoulders start, I guess, all the way up to your jaw,

2287
05:35:24.639 --> 05:35:28.200
your ears, kind of area that side of your neck.

2288
05:35:30.919 --> 05:35:33.520
Of course, it's a lot longer than the front of

2289
05:35:33.560 --> 05:35:49.680
your neck. And then massage in the back of your neck,

2290
05:35:53.479 --> 05:36:02.319
especially that area where perhaps we hold tension and as

2291
05:36:02.360 --> 05:36:07.080
that area's message, you can actually feel a sense of

2292
05:36:07.200 --> 05:36:15.240
release in the back of your neck and maybe you

2293
05:36:15.360 --> 05:36:20.720
can breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels,

2294
05:36:20.919 --> 05:36:33.599
Notice how you feel. And then moving down to that

2295
05:36:33.799 --> 05:36:41.040
area between your neck and your shoulders, that muscle area,

2296
05:36:41.840 --> 05:36:49.279
starting to message that area on both sides. I mean,

2297
05:36:49.319 --> 05:36:51.599
this would be the area that a lot of people

2298
05:36:51.639 --> 05:36:54.560
would message if they were going to give you, like

2299
05:36:54.639 --> 05:37:00.560
a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but

2300
05:37:00.680 --> 05:37:05.000
it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from

2301
05:37:05.000 --> 05:37:11.439
the neck, and again that can hold tension and stress.

2302
05:37:12.639 --> 05:37:17.680
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful.

2303
05:37:20.720 --> 05:37:36.159
And you decide how deep that message is, and just

2304
05:37:36.319 --> 05:37:43.279
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

2305
05:37:43.360 --> 05:37:53.439
those muscles and to really relaxed all the time being

2306
05:37:53.639 --> 05:38:11.200
firm yet gentle with you, and just stroking down the

2307
05:38:11.360 --> 05:38:19.919
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

2308
05:38:19.959 --> 05:38:21.319
your shoulders.

2309
05:38:26.639 --> 05:38:30.639
And maybe initially just pulling up the.

2310
05:38:30.639 --> 05:38:34.400
Shoulders a little bit off the table, just to give

2311
05:38:34.439 --> 05:38:38.520
you a little bit of a stretch, but very gently,

2312
05:38:44.919 --> 05:38:47.639
and you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2313
05:38:48.360 --> 05:38:59.319
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

2314
05:38:59.479 --> 05:39:04.880
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2315
05:39:04.880 --> 05:39:13.000
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

2316
05:39:14.799 --> 05:39:20.319
release the tension to really get into those muscles, and

2317
05:39:23.720 --> 05:39:27.080
you can let your fingers in there. They can feel

2318
05:39:27.240 --> 05:39:35.319
really nice. Sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

2319
05:39:36.759 --> 05:39:45.479
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the relaxation.

2320
05:39:50.560 --> 05:40:03.639
Put the muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down

2321
05:40:03.680 --> 05:40:14.159
your arms. We do one arm at a time, starting

2322
05:40:14.240 --> 05:40:23.080
with your right arm. Well I do is I just

2323
05:40:24.400 --> 05:40:27.599
lift your arm up, just hold it to the side

2324
05:40:27.639 --> 05:40:34.959
of you, the words still be attached, and I just

2325
05:40:35.319 --> 05:40:49.880
message the tops of your arms all the way down

2326
05:40:50.080 --> 05:41:14.520
to your forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that parts,

2327
05:41:17.040 --> 05:41:23.759
the softer part which is the underpart of the arm,

2328
05:41:23.799 --> 05:41:26.200
which leads to the crease in your elbow.

2329
05:41:26.759 --> 05:41:27.880
The inside.

2330
05:41:29.000 --> 05:41:43.880
It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

2331
05:41:46.439 --> 05:41:52.279
can feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing.

2332
05:42:01.000 --> 05:42:11.400
Now moving down to your right hand, just hold in

2333
05:42:11.439 --> 05:42:23.759
your hand in both of my hands, just pressing gently

2334
05:42:24.880 --> 05:42:26.520
on the back of your hand.

2335
05:42:26.400 --> 05:42:36.959
And stretching your fingers ever so lightly, at the same

2336
05:42:37.080 --> 05:42:52.400
time pressing down and massaging each finger and then starting

2337
05:42:52.520 --> 05:42:55.360
to massage the palms of the hand.

2338
05:43:02.040 --> 05:43:13.119
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

2339
05:43:13.159 --> 05:43:16.720
having your hand held can really be.

2340
05:43:18.040 --> 05:43:23.759
An emotional experience sometimes even if it is a stranger.

2341
05:43:25.680 --> 05:43:29.400
So when you don't know very well, like a massage

2342
05:43:29.639 --> 05:43:43.119
person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate and you

2343
05:43:43.200 --> 05:43:54.919
can feel nice, you can feel safe.

2344
05:43:55.560 --> 05:43:56.119
And as I.

2345
05:43:56.119 --> 05:44:05.159
Put that right arm back down where it was, did

2346
05:44:05.200 --> 05:44:16.880
the same with your left arm, exactly the same, massage

2347
05:44:16.959 --> 05:44:18.560
in the muscles.

2348
05:44:19.240 --> 05:44:21.279
In your arm all the way down.

2349
05:44:22.439 --> 05:44:34.799
Do you rest, stroking the inside of your arm, just

2350
05:44:34.880 --> 05:44:48.439
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

2351
05:44:48.560 --> 05:45:05.080
massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging the

2352
05:45:05.279 --> 05:45:23.720
palm of your left hand, and you can feel so

2353
05:45:23.720 --> 05:45:49.439
so relaxing, so comforting, and just rest your left arm

2354
05:45:49.599 --> 05:46:03.680
back down. Start to message your back, the biggest part

2355
05:46:03.720 --> 05:46:15.200
of your body, starting at the top, starting again where

2356
05:46:15.200 --> 05:46:18.720
we already have been, the area at the top in

2357
05:46:18.759 --> 05:46:26.080
between his shoulders, near your neck. Going back a massage

2358
05:46:26.080 --> 05:46:37.599
in that area again, but this time moving downwards, taking

2359
05:46:37.599 --> 05:46:45.880
a downward stroke to the middle of your back, working

2360
05:46:46.000 --> 05:46:53.799
from the outside inwards. It's a massage in the your back,

2361
05:46:53.880 --> 05:47:05.840
but the outsides of your back, the parts where your

2362
05:47:06.000 --> 05:47:19.159
arms will maybe rest against, almost the part that connects

2363
05:47:19.319 --> 05:47:36.520
your front to your back. Just messaging down firmly but gently,

2364
05:47:37.599 --> 05:47:43.759
as firm as you want, moving down.

2365
05:47:43.560 --> 05:47:47.479
And moving across a little bed, moving all the way

2366
05:47:47.520 --> 05:47:50.959
down again, being very gentle.

2367
05:47:52.240 --> 05:48:04.599
Yet firm as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

2368
05:48:04.799 --> 05:48:08.560
We can message the muscles and either side of your

2369
05:48:08.639 --> 05:48:12.520
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2370
05:48:12.639 --> 05:48:16.720
down to your lower back.

2371
05:48:22.919 --> 05:48:29.439
We can do that a few times. Sometimes people use.

2372
05:48:32.119 --> 05:48:38.279
The knuckle or the two fingers and just go your

2373
05:48:38.400 --> 05:48:43.479
side of the spine and almost just push down, go

2374
05:48:43.520 --> 05:48:47.040
all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2375
05:48:47.279 --> 05:48:56.959
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2376
05:48:58.119 --> 05:49:05.040
your body so that you feel more relaxed but at

2377
05:49:05.040 --> 05:49:21.400
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2378
05:49:21.479 --> 05:49:29.840
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2379
05:49:29.880 --> 05:49:35.360
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

2380
05:49:35.479 --> 05:49:42.200
massage that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2381
05:49:42.240 --> 05:49:47.040
other side and i will pull the muscles gently and

2382
05:49:47.240 --> 05:49:52.279
massage and push from one end that side or way

2383
05:49:52.319 --> 05:49:57.319
to my side in the middle of fact to where

2384
05:49:57.319 --> 05:50:03.720
your spine is massage and that sign of your spine

2385
05:50:03.959 --> 05:50:09.200
the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like

2386
05:50:09.400 --> 05:50:17.560
kneading bread. There's that big area which is firm yet

2387
05:50:18.400 --> 05:50:27.240
lots there to message. Potentially one of the most important

2388
05:50:27.319 --> 05:50:34.720
places to actually have a message because you really feel it.

2389
05:50:36.400 --> 05:50:41.439
You really feel the release and the pleasure of having

2390
05:50:41.479 --> 05:50:49.000
your lower back massaged. It releases so much from your

2391
05:50:49.040 --> 05:50:59.119
body that's not useful, starting a healing process which will

2392
05:50:59.159 --> 05:51:12.240
continue long after this recording is over. The message in

2393
05:51:12.319 --> 05:51:15.599
this part of your body not only feels really good

2394
05:51:16.200 --> 05:51:21.319
for you, it's actually fun to do because it is,

2395
05:51:21.759 --> 05:51:26.840
as I said, like kneading bread. It's a part that

2396
05:51:26.880 --> 05:51:32.119
you can really get hold of and really message deeply.

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05:51:34.360 --> 05:51:43.680
If that's your choice, they'n.

2398
05:51:43.720 --> 05:51:45.520
I'm going to move over to the other side of

2399
05:51:45.560 --> 05:51:52.319
your body and do the same with the opposite part

2400
05:51:54.919 --> 05:51:56.240
of your lawer bag.

2401
05:51:58.400 --> 05:52:07.319
Kneading and messaging from your sides or way to the

2402
05:52:07.319 --> 05:52:15.439
middle of your back where your spine is pressing and

2403
05:52:15.520 --> 05:52:26.520
kneading firm and gentle at the same time. It feels

2404
05:52:26.599 --> 05:52:39.159
so releasing. This mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation

2405
05:52:40.520 --> 05:52:50.479
or mixed together plus there's that feeling from your stomach

2406
05:52:50.959 --> 05:52:55.680
as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your stomach

2407
05:52:55.759 --> 05:52:59.880
now you can feel it being stretched because that whole

2408
05:53:00.080 --> 05:53:11.200
area has connected to your stomach. Now we're going to

2409
05:53:11.279 --> 05:53:16.680
move or move further up to your top of your body,

2410
05:53:17.240 --> 05:53:24.919
and I we do the same this time, starting with

2411
05:53:24.959 --> 05:53:30.439
your upper back. Put my hands forward over and mess

2412
05:53:30.479 --> 05:53:37.599
it massage in that area up to your spine, from

2413
05:53:37.639 --> 05:53:41.840
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2414
05:53:41.959 --> 05:53:48.279
some of that message area, the muscle tissue or whatever

2415
05:53:48.479 --> 05:53:54.159
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2416
05:53:54.240 --> 05:54:01.240
all connected the chest and the back connect together. I'm

2417
05:54:01.279 --> 05:54:04.479
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2418
05:54:04.720 --> 05:54:14.720
skin from your side up and massaging in that area

2419
05:54:15.400 --> 05:54:21.560
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2420
05:54:23.959 --> 05:54:26.200
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2421
05:54:26.799 --> 05:54:29.599
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

2422
05:54:29.639 --> 05:54:47.000
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now

2423
05:54:47.040 --> 05:54:50.880
I'll move or the other side again and do the

2424
05:54:51.000 --> 05:54:55.200
exact same thing with the top of your back on

2425
05:54:55.279 --> 05:55:04.560
the other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area

2426
05:55:04.680 --> 05:55:19.919
really to your spine, and then continuing that all the

2427
05:55:19.959 --> 05:55:24.680
way down including your lower your middle.

2428
05:55:24.439 --> 05:55:24.959
Of your back.

2429
05:55:38.639 --> 05:55:44.000
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

2430
05:55:46.479 --> 05:55:53.919
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg,

2431
05:55:56.040 --> 05:55:59.560
and massage in.

2432
05:55:58.319 --> 05:55:59.080
The back.

2433
05:56:01.200 --> 05:56:09.880
And the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's

2434
05:56:09.919 --> 05:56:13.319
a lot of muscles there. It's an area that can

2435
05:56:13.360 --> 05:56:17.720
be very tense at times and maybe needs a little

2436
05:56:17.720 --> 05:56:21.319
bit more pressure than the rest of the body that's

2437
05:56:21.400 --> 05:56:31.520
up to you. You can gently stroke the back of

2438
05:56:31.639 --> 05:56:37.159
your legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or

2439
05:56:37.279 --> 05:56:38.840
underneath your knee joint.

2440
05:56:39.680 --> 05:56:52.560
Very sensitive, gentle area. And then working down to your

2441
05:56:52.599 --> 05:56:59.159
calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles.

2442
05:56:59.279 --> 05:57:12.759
Thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands and fingers,

2443
05:57:13.119 --> 05:57:26.520
digging deep to your ankles, in the back of your

2444
05:57:27.360 --> 05:57:39.840
back of your ankles, just gently message in that area, maybe.

2445
05:57:41.880 --> 05:57:45.000
Lifting the leg and stretching out a little bit.

2446
05:57:55.119 --> 05:58:07.240
Moving to the right foot, massage in.

2447
05:58:09.680 --> 05:58:17.159
The bottom of your feet and the side of your feet.

2448
05:58:23.959 --> 05:58:33.200
Gn leep but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2449
05:58:33.360 --> 05:58:38.840
just allow the pleasure that you get from having your

2450
05:58:38.840 --> 05:58:48.240
feet massaged to just overtake you. As I continue to

2451
05:58:48.400 --> 05:58:54.759
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2452
05:58:57.400 --> 05:58:59.319
your arches.

2453
05:58:59.119 --> 05:58:59.799
Your heel.

2454
05:59:02.279 --> 05:59:04.520
You can put a lot of pressure into your heel

2455
05:59:05.279 --> 05:59:10.360
and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be

2456
05:59:10.400 --> 05:59:22.119
a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently and massage

2457
05:59:22.159 --> 05:59:28.240
in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each

2458
05:59:28.319 --> 05:59:42.000
one individually. Moving over to the left leg to do

2459
05:59:42.159 --> 05:59:50.959
exactly the same thing, starting at the top of the thighs,

2460
05:59:53.080 --> 05:59:55.639
work in the back of the thighs and the sides,

2461
05:59:57.279 --> 06:00:07.720
massaging deeply and gently that whole area, working all the

2462
06:00:07.759 --> 06:00:20.599
way down. And this is an area that maybe you

2463
06:00:20.639 --> 06:00:28.439
could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging. So

2464
06:00:28.520 --> 06:00:34.720
perhaps if you wanted like a bigger future recording, want's

2465
06:00:34.759 --> 06:00:37.319
spend more time on one particular area.

2466
06:00:43.040 --> 06:00:44.319
As you move down.

2467
06:00:46.880 --> 06:00:57.000
To your calf muscles, massage in your calf muscles.

2468
06:00:57.919 --> 06:01:07.880
Firmly and gently. Move down.

2469
06:01:09.840 --> 06:01:16.240
You aincor into your feet, Massage in the backs of

2470
06:01:16.319 --> 06:01:26.880
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes

2471
06:01:27.080 --> 06:01:33.400
and massage in each tone individually. And the feeling of

2472
06:01:33.560 --> 06:01:39.560
pleasure and release that you experience when you're having your

2473
06:01:39.560 --> 06:02:01.840
feet massaged feels really good. Now turn over in your mind.

2474
06:02:03.040 --> 06:02:13.200
Laying on your back, I'm just going to start again.

2475
06:02:16.040 --> 06:02:16.919
At your neck.

2476
06:02:16.840 --> 06:02:31.639
Area, in your shoulders, just to get back in touch

2477
06:02:31.759 --> 06:02:48.720
with that area. And as you move up, I can

2478
06:02:48.759 --> 06:02:53.599
clean my hands, make them more fresh, because now I'm

2479
06:02:53.599 --> 06:03:06.159
going to message your face gently, starting off with your forehead.

2480
06:03:10.080 --> 06:03:11.040
Your eyes are.

2481
06:03:10.919 --> 06:03:17.200
Closed and I can just stretch your eyes a little bit,

2482
06:03:18.200 --> 06:03:29.240
pushing up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp,

2483
06:03:34.919 --> 06:03:44.479
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chawl,

2484
06:03:45.599 --> 06:03:57.040
gently the sides of your neck, your chin.

2485
06:04:03.840 --> 06:04:04.240
M hmm.

2486
06:04:08.040 --> 06:04:09.799
Then just moving down.

2487
06:04:13.599 --> 06:04:21.119
From your neck down to your chest, starting by message

2488
06:04:21.159 --> 06:04:23.959
in the very top of your chest.

2489
06:04:27.360 --> 06:04:32.599
Where the collar phone is. Give a side of the collarbone.

2490
06:04:41.159 --> 06:04:53.840
Then just message in the hole of the chest, moving

2491
06:04:53.919 --> 06:05:07.560
the chest around, because it's quite a large area. You

2492
06:05:07.599 --> 06:05:15.360
can move from one side to the next. Moving my

2493
06:05:15.560 --> 06:05:26.319
hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2494
06:05:28.439 --> 06:05:31.520
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2495
06:05:36.799 --> 06:05:39.799
moving up over your chest.

2496
06:05:44.000 --> 06:05:45.479
And they're moving down again.

2497
06:05:58.159 --> 06:06:03.720
Then aloud my hands to just massage gently and slide

2498
06:06:03.959 --> 06:06:10.520
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2499
06:06:13.959 --> 06:06:20.639
and then gradually my hand's moving apart and massage in

2500
06:06:20.759 --> 06:06:29.880
and slide in at the same time, moving down to

2501
06:06:30.040 --> 06:06:45.759
just below your rib cage, moving down, then massaging up again,

2502
06:06:48.520 --> 06:06:49.840
giving your chest.

2503
06:06:51.040 --> 06:06:54.720
All the attention that it needs.

2504
06:06:56.360 --> 06:07:08.759
To feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also going to

2505
06:07:08.799 --> 06:07:14.400
be focusing on your sides as well, an area that

2506
06:07:14.680 --> 06:07:21.880
really doesn't get much attention but feels really good when

2507
06:07:21.919 --> 06:07:31.200
it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides of

2508
06:07:31.240 --> 06:07:38.319
your body, just below your arms, all way down to

2509
06:07:38.400 --> 06:07:53.400
your hips. Now moving to your stomach area. I'm going

2510
06:07:53.439 --> 06:07:57.040
to stand one side of you like I did when

2511
06:07:57.040 --> 06:08:01.959
I did your lower back. We're gonna do a similar

2512
06:08:02.000 --> 06:08:11.159
process of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently

2513
06:08:13.560 --> 06:08:25.360
massaging from one side to the next, move in the

2514
06:08:25.520 --> 06:08:29.919
whole area from below your ribs all the way down

2515
06:08:30.799 --> 06:08:40.639
to below your belly button, and then move around to

2516
06:08:40.680 --> 06:08:41.200
the other.

2517
06:08:41.080 --> 06:08:43.599
Side of you and repeat that.

2518
06:08:49.799 --> 06:09:05.639
Process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

2519
06:09:06.200 --> 06:09:11.319
And it's something about having your stomach massage that's different.

2520
06:09:11.000 --> 06:09:12.479
From any other part.

2521
06:09:15.680 --> 06:09:20.240
Because we do have a tendency of holding a different

2522
06:09:20.360 --> 06:09:24.400
kind of stress in our stomach that we may not

2523
06:09:24.520 --> 06:09:35.520
be aware of there's an our message your stomach, in

2524
06:09:35.639 --> 06:09:43.119
front of your stomach, making circles around your belly button,

2525
06:09:48.840 --> 06:09:58.520
and then going the other way around. There's a gentleness

2526
06:09:58.560 --> 06:10:04.599
and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling.

2527
06:10:10.119 --> 06:10:14.919
As I now move down the tops of your thighs,

2528
06:10:16.520 --> 06:10:22.360
the muscles, massaging them, and I can do this two

2529
06:10:22.479 --> 06:10:32.799
legs at the same time, pressing down, massaging deeply those

2530
06:10:32.919 --> 06:10:41.919
muscles in your thighs, at front of your thighs, and

2531
06:10:42.159 --> 06:10:53.400
moving down to your knees, gently massaging your knees, Sliding

2532
06:10:53.520 --> 06:10:59.040
down your shins, putting pressure on either side of your

2533
06:10:59.119 --> 06:11:16.720
shin gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles,

2534
06:11:16.880 --> 06:11:26.720
stroking the tops of your feet, and then with each

2535
06:11:27.880 --> 06:11:33.319
foot in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of

2536
06:11:33.400 --> 06:11:42.200
the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle,

2537
06:11:43.040 --> 06:11:54.840
your toes, messaging every part of your feet. Feels so

2538
06:11:55.080 --> 06:12:10.720
good to let go and enjoy the process, enjoy feeling.

2539
06:12:12.799 --> 06:12:15.439
So deeply relaxed.

2540
06:12:22.200 --> 06:12:28.959
So much comfort and so many feelings come just from

2541
06:12:29.560 --> 06:12:46.360
touching your skin, and you can just lie there for

2542
06:12:46.400 --> 06:12:55.680
as long as you choose, enjoying the feeling of deep

2543
06:12:56.000 --> 06:13:31.799
comfort massaged by me. Enjoy feeling deeply lights and all

2544
06:13:31.840 --> 06:13:40.599
we're going to do is blow out some candles. In

2545
06:13:40.720 --> 06:13:55.639
your mind, there are going to be a hundred candles,

2546
06:14:02.759 --> 06:14:08.560
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2547
06:14:08.880 --> 06:14:16.599
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down.

2548
06:14:21.479 --> 06:14:28.400
All the way down to one, and each time I

2549
06:14:28.639 --> 06:14:37.720
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

2550
06:14:37.759 --> 06:14:44.680
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically.

2551
06:14:48.400 --> 06:15:04.959
Generally blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

2552
06:15:05.000 --> 06:15:18.880
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2553
06:15:19.000 --> 06:15:26.240
I'll say the next number as we move down, and

2554
06:15:26.400 --> 06:15:38.720
you can just blow that one out as well. And

2555
06:15:38.880 --> 06:15:48.759
as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding

2556
06:15:49.200 --> 06:15:58.080
more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep, you'll

2557
06:15:58.080 --> 06:16:10.000
also find yourself become incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2558
06:16:10.080 --> 06:16:20.200
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2559
06:16:20.279 --> 06:16:38.759
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2560
06:16:45.400 --> 06:17:03.799
more and more deeply tired, And the further you go down,

2561
06:17:06.000 --> 06:17:19.680
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2562
06:17:20.040 --> 06:17:34.520
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2563
06:17:34.680 --> 06:17:39.000
even though there may be background sounds where you are.

2564
06:17:43.720 --> 06:17:44.639
You'll be aware of.

2565
06:17:44.639 --> 06:17:55.360
Those sounds at the moment, be me.

2566
06:17:58.880 --> 06:18:00.279
Start to just.

2567
06:18:03.840 --> 06:18:23.240
Not even notice them at all, because they're unimportant. Where

2568
06:18:23.279 --> 06:18:30.840
I am, I've got the sounds of the birds, there's horrors,

2569
06:18:31.000 --> 06:18:38.959
the pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and there's

2570
06:18:39.000 --> 06:18:49.360
the odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains

2571
06:18:49.639 --> 06:19:00.200
in the distance, But none of that scenes important.

2572
06:19:01.360 --> 06:19:02.159
Whatsoever.

2573
06:19:06.759 --> 06:19:16.360
More candles you blow out, the less important anything is.

2574
06:19:21.159 --> 06:19:30.479
More candles you blow out, the further you seem to.

2575
06:19:32.319 --> 06:19:34.040
Move away.

2576
06:19:39.560 --> 06:19:53.360
From sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems to just.

2577
06:19:55.319 --> 06:19:59.799
Move away on its own.

2578
06:20:05.040 --> 06:20:16.159
You feel more calma with every candle you blow out,

2579
06:20:25.919 --> 06:20:37.759
guiding you to the next number. Do you hear me say?

2580
06:20:43.119 --> 06:20:55.400
And then you blow that candle out too? So easy,

2581
06:21:00.240 --> 06:21:20.880
so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the first candle,

2582
06:21:24.319 --> 06:21:42.119
which is a hundred. First candles one hundred. When you

2583
06:21:43.000 --> 06:22:02.799
blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change

2584
06:22:03.159 --> 06:22:11.439
in how you feel, as well as a real sense

2585
06:22:11.599 --> 06:22:43.000
of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with.

2586
06:22:49.439 --> 06:22:55.720
One hundred, blow out back candle now.

2587
06:23:10.119 --> 06:24:37.439
Ninety nine, candle ninety eight, cand nine seven jem ninety

2588
06:24:37.919 --> 06:26:08.200
six candle ninety five, hand ninety four, candle ninety three,

2589
06:26:28.319 --> 06:27:03.279
ten ninety two.

2590
06:26:58.439 --> 06:27:15.080
And ninety one.

2591
06:27:26.799 --> 06:27:27.319
Ten to.

2592
06:27:30.279 --> 06:28:02.200
Ninety and eighty nine.

2593
06:28:19.159 --> 06:28:28.639
And eighty.

2594
06:28:29.919 --> 06:31:57.639
Eight, handle eighties, candle eighties eight five, han en en

2595
06:32:10.959 --> 06:35:31.040
eighty two and two one, candle seventy nine, candle seventy eight,

2596
06:35:39.880 --> 06:36:42.520
candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle

2597
06:36:45.319 --> 06:37:46.040
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one,

2598
06:38:03.159 --> 06:39:04.279
candle seventy one, candle seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight,

2599
06:39:14.000 --> 06:40:16.720
candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle

2600
06:40:18.880 --> 06:41:34.639
sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty sixty one, candle

2601
06:41:39.400 --> 06:43:20.799
sixty fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle

2602
06:43:26.759 --> 06:44:53.639
fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three,

2603
06:45:11.639 --> 06:46:57.400
candle fifty two, fifty two handleify two, candle fifty one,

2604
06:47:16.799 --> 06:49:06.000
candle fifty, candle foty nine, can foot he ate, candle

2605
06:49:09.840 --> 06:50:50.880
forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five and forty

2606
06:50:51.000 --> 06:53:34.959
two candle woo to candle forty candle thirven nine and

2607
06:53:39.080 --> 06:54:57.560
thirty eight, cant thirty seven, cant.

2608
06:54:58.639 --> 06:55:44.200
Thirty five and two.

2609
06:55:49.000 --> 06:58:59.159
Thirty four tenso thirty three candle, thirty one candle, thirty

2610
06:59:10.880 --> 07:01:38.439
candle twoentighteen nine candle, twenty eight candle, twenty seven, twenty six,

2611
07:02:19.360 --> 07:04:29.360
cant to twenty five hand toinenty four handle, twenty thirty

2612
07:04:29.360 --> 07:05:53.599
and twin deep bats and twenty wane and to winty.

2613
07:06:30.560 --> 07:06:55.799
Yen and.

2614
07:06:59.360 --> 07:09:37.959
Ninety candle seventeen chen sixteen, cancel.

2615
07:09:42.119 --> 07:12:09.560
Four se.

2616
07:10:59.400 --> 07:11:05.240
And well.

2617
07:12:02.000 --> 07:13:54.279
Chendle eleven hands, jame, do.

2618
07:13:58.720 --> 07:15:35.959
Nine ten t eight s.

2619
07:15:39.759 --> 07:20:40.680
Six cam came four and doy two two.

2620
07:20:09.799 --> 07:20:17.400
Candle or.

2621
07:20:23.240 --> 07:20:30.479
Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about

2622
07:20:30.520 --> 07:20:37.080
the past, thoughts about the future, and even things you've

2623
07:20:37.119 --> 07:20:44.880
been thinking about today. Just let it all go because

2624
07:20:44.919 --> 07:20:52.599
none of it is useful in this moment. This is

2625
07:20:53.560 --> 07:21:07.599
your opportunity. Did you just to focus on feeling relaxed,

2626
07:21:11.880 --> 07:21:18.319
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2627
07:21:20.360 --> 07:21:28.520
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2628
07:21:28.560 --> 07:21:33.479
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2629
07:21:33.560 --> 07:21:41.040
effort to set up the right time and place in

2630
07:21:41.200 --> 07:21:47.479
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2631
07:21:47.639 --> 07:21:55.439
do decide to let go and relax. That's what your

2632
07:21:55.479 --> 07:22:04.240
body starts to do is you've chosen, You've chosen to

2633
07:22:04.639 --> 07:22:11.759
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2634
07:22:11.840 --> 07:22:19.319
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2635
07:22:19.400 --> 07:22:23.680
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2636
07:22:24.119 --> 07:22:34.439
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2637
07:22:34.520 --> 07:22:43.040
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2638
07:22:43.040 --> 07:22:47.759
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2639
07:22:48.040 --> 07:22:57.319
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2640
07:22:57.520 --> 07:23:02.080
we're going from here to there, walking around, and we're

2641
07:23:02.119 --> 07:23:09.599
doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time or

2642
07:23:09.639 --> 07:23:18.360
space to really relax deeply. So it kind of waits

2643
07:23:18.400 --> 07:23:23.520
for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2644
07:23:27.840 --> 07:23:34.319
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2645
07:23:34.360 --> 07:23:38.639
the say so we need say okay, it's time.

2646
07:23:40.639 --> 07:23:41.680
For your body.

2647
07:23:42.919 --> 07:23:51.880
To let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2648
07:23:54.880 --> 07:24:00.360
It's like a breath of relief. Ah good, I can

2649
07:24:00.360 --> 07:24:07.400
now relax. That feeling at the end of a day,

2650
07:24:07.479 --> 07:24:11.240
of a very physical day that you may experience in

2651
07:24:11.319 --> 07:24:14.880
the past, but you get home and you just sit

2652
07:24:15.040 --> 07:24:19.000
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off,

2653
07:24:19.040 --> 07:24:25.680
and ah, feels so nice knowing that you don't have

2654
07:24:25.759 --> 07:24:29.279
to get up again for a little while at least,

2655
07:24:30.400 --> 07:24:33.080
if you choose, you can just sit there for maybe

2656
07:24:33.119 --> 07:24:33.840
an hour.

2657
07:24:33.720 --> 07:24:40.759
To It feels blissful.

2658
07:24:44.840 --> 07:24:49.799
And just by sitting down like that, your body knows

2659
07:24:50.080 --> 07:24:55.080
that it's time to relax. Your body has been given

2660
07:24:55.159 --> 07:25:02.680
permission from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind,

2661
07:25:05.400 --> 07:25:15.880
you're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

2662
07:25:17.040 --> 07:25:25.840
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any

2663
07:25:26.040 --> 07:25:29.159
tensions can just gradually.

2664
07:25:31.159 --> 07:25:37.799
Vanish.

2665
07:25:38.040 --> 07:25:49.799
It's almost like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation

2666
07:25:50.040 --> 07:25:56.119
in your body, it's a very natural state. It's not

2667
07:25:56.240 --> 07:26:01.080
something unusual. It may feel unusual when you first start

2668
07:26:01.159 --> 07:26:05.680
to relax, if you if you haven't really spent a

2669
07:26:05.720 --> 07:26:10.000
lot of time focusing and giving yourself this space to

2670
07:26:10.119 --> 07:26:15.439
let go completely and relax, they seem are most alien,

2671
07:26:17.279 --> 07:26:23.240
but it isn't. It's actually the most natural thing in

2672
07:26:23.279 --> 07:26:33.639
the world to let go completely, to relax totally, the

2673
07:26:33.639 --> 07:26:44.639
most natural thing in the world to allow yourself to

2674
07:26:44.880 --> 07:26:52.759
feel really calm in your mind. And it is almost

2675
07:26:53.279 --> 07:27:00.400
like a literal unwinding. It's like you press up button

2676
07:27:03.040 --> 07:27:09.479
and all the tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

2677
07:27:09.840 --> 07:27:14.080
like a cog, like the inside of a clock, just unwinding.

2678
07:27:14.680 --> 07:27:18.639
And it's almost like you could see the little wind

2679
07:27:18.720 --> 07:27:24.639
up knob that's used just going the opposite way that

2680
07:27:24.680 --> 07:27:30.639
you choose to wind it up, and the energy that

2681
07:27:30.840 --> 07:27:41.000
frenetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power,

2682
07:27:42.319 --> 07:27:50.560
losing its strength as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger.

2683
07:27:50.959 --> 07:27:56.360
And deeper, and you may.

2684
07:27:57.720 --> 07:28:04.680
Find a the more axed you feel, that your mind

2685
07:28:05.119 --> 07:28:14.599
starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop listening to me

2686
07:28:14.759 --> 07:28:20.479
for a while, and your mind goes somewhere else, and

2687
07:28:20.520 --> 07:28:26.360
then you realize you're listening to me again, and that

2688
07:28:26.560 --> 07:28:35.439
is just your mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural,

2689
07:28:36.880 --> 07:28:38.919
because sometimes.

2690
07:28:38.240 --> 07:28:39.000
When we're.

2691
07:28:41.319 --> 07:28:45.759
Stressed and tense, we're not I mean I actually be

2692
07:28:46.240 --> 07:28:51.119
aware of what we need or we physically, you're emotionally

2693
07:28:53.159 --> 07:29:01.119
need in this moment. But when you allow your body

2694
07:29:01.520 --> 07:29:04.680
and mind to relax completely.

2695
07:29:05.759 --> 07:29:08.000
And you let go of all.

2696
07:29:07.959 --> 07:29:17.400
Thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all letting them go, allow them

2697
07:29:17.439 --> 07:29:27.639
to drop onto the floor. When you start to get

2698
07:29:27.720 --> 07:29:38.919
in touch with the feelings of such relaxation, This feels

2699
07:29:39.000 --> 07:29:47.040
so nice to be in touch with the calmness of

2700
07:29:47.200 --> 07:29:55.959
the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2701
07:30:00.200 --> 07:30:12.360
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural effortless, as

2702
07:30:12.400 --> 07:30:17.639
that cool air enters through your mouth or nose into

2703
07:30:17.680 --> 07:30:28.599
your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then just

2704
07:30:28.720 --> 07:30:35.360
breathing out any excess remain intention or stress.

2705
07:30:36.479 --> 07:30:41.720
From every part of your body and mind.

2706
07:30:44.680 --> 07:30:49.639
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2707
07:30:49.799 --> 07:30:57.360
you notice that things have come to a standstill or

2708
07:30:57.400 --> 07:31:06.560
maybe just much much slower than before, because your mind

2709
07:31:06.720 --> 07:31:17.279
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

2710
07:31:17.319 --> 07:31:23.840
allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2711
07:31:26.560 --> 07:31:33.400
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation.

2712
07:31:33.279 --> 07:31:34.840
Of your body.

2713
07:31:34.759 --> 07:31:51.360
And relaxation of your mind. Let you know, feeling completely calm, loose,

2714
07:31:51.680 --> 07:32:05.919
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2715
07:32:06.159 --> 07:32:18.599
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind.

2716
07:32:18.599 --> 07:32:23.599
And your life. To be able to let go.

2717
07:32:25.119 --> 07:32:35.720
Everything and to relax completely in all parts of your

2718
07:32:35.759 --> 07:32:46.639
body and mind. Even your bones has arised, all your

2719
07:32:46.799 --> 07:33:00.680
muscles are arise, Even the skin that covers your body.

2720
07:33:02.759 --> 07:33:14.080
Is relaxed. Every hair that you have.

2721
07:33:15.479 --> 07:33:33.599
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain restarts to feel

2722
07:33:33.959 --> 07:33:47.279
the benefits of this healing relaxation. And as you focus

2723
07:33:49.240 --> 07:33:53.400
on the inside of your scalp where your brain is,

2724
07:33:55.119 --> 07:34:02.959
you can start to realize and notice the benefits of

2725
07:34:03.080 --> 07:34:14.799
your brain relaxing deeply. Then it's your brain continues to

2726
07:34:14.880 --> 07:34:25.040
relax sends those messages to the rest of your body

2727
07:34:26.959 --> 07:34:43.560
and to mind, to re relax e more deeply, relaxy

2728
07:34:45.560 --> 07:34:54.959
more completely, letting go of any.

2729
07:34:56.479 --> 07:34:58.639
Remaining force.

2730
07:35:00.400 --> 07:35:10.360
Or concerns, allowment just drop onto the floor because they're

2731
07:35:10.400 --> 07:35:18.919
no longer necessary in this moment, In this moment of

2732
07:35:19.240 --> 07:35:28.240
deep relaxation and calmness, filling.

2733
07:35:30.360 --> 07:35:31.439
Your brain.

2734
07:35:32.959 --> 07:35:55.759
With deep, concentrated healing, calming, relaxing every part of your

2735
07:35:55.799 --> 07:36:14.759
brain feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed.

2736
07:36:15.799 --> 07:36:28.959
And peaceful. Your brain feels so light and so healthy.

2737
07:36:31.560 --> 07:36:42.040
In that sense of deep deep comfort really does allow you.

2738
07:36:45.599 --> 07:36:47.000
To enjoy.

2739
07:36:48.639 --> 07:36:58.279
Those ever increase in sensations of comfort that are spreading

2740
07:36:59.720 --> 07:37:10.919
through arount your body, relaxing each and every muscle of

2741
07:37:10.959 --> 07:37:12.000
your body.

2742
07:37:14.000 --> 07:37:14.560
Eat.

2743
07:37:16.159 --> 07:37:35.720
Deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much.

2744
07:37:35.080 --> 07:37:38.840
More comforts.

2745
07:37:40.639 --> 07:37:53.919
Spreading through your body and your mind, be so peaceful

2746
07:37:54.319 --> 07:38:05.720
and calm, so very very peaceful.

2747
07:38:07.000 --> 07:38:15.400
In avery part of your body, letting him go.

2748
07:38:17.279 --> 07:38:35.479
Mm hm a everything aything, so peaceful time, So relax

2749
07:38:40.959 --> 07:38:44.040
a very second.

2750
07:38:44.240 --> 07:38:49.400
The passes you feel.

2751
07:38:51.200 --> 07:38:58.319
Dpath DPA, Relax.

2752
07:39:01.560 --> 07:39:05.240
Deeper and.

2753
07:39:07.000 --> 07:39:22.400
Deeper, relax, calm, so calm, peace for.

2754
07:39:25.200 --> 07:39:34.599
So very peace from your head down to your ties.

2755
07:39:37.599 --> 07:39:51.360
Such peace and comfort growing all the time, Such peace

2756
07:39:52.279 --> 07:40:05.759
and comfort spreading through your body, your mind deeper, deeper,

2757
07:40:08.639 --> 07:40:21.880
such comforts, spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle of

2758
07:40:22.080 --> 07:40:36.319
your body, so that you feel amazing, so laxed.

2759
07:40:38.720 --> 07:40:40.000
So piece, so.

2760
07:40:45.680 --> 07:41:05.159
Last and peace, So letting go. If you're going to

2761
07:41:05.159 --> 07:41:12.000
do a body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel

2762
07:41:12.840 --> 07:41:17.319
in your body, not trying to change how you feel,

2763
07:41:18.360 --> 07:41:23.400
not trying to relax, not trying to move away from

2764
07:41:23.439 --> 07:41:32.000
any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and

2765
07:41:32.159 --> 07:41:36.840
accepting how you feel in the different parts of your body,

2766
07:41:38.759 --> 07:41:47.880
Just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to notice,

2767
07:41:48.599 --> 07:41:56.759
to get in touch with how you actually feel in

2768
07:41:56.880 --> 07:42:06.840
this moment. I'm going to start off by focusing on

2769
07:42:06.959 --> 07:42:19.520
your hands. Just be aware of your hands. I'd like

2770
07:42:19.639 --> 07:42:22.759
you to move your hands around.

2771
07:42:22.840 --> 07:42:25.599
Just maybe move your fingers a little bit.

2772
07:42:28.040 --> 07:42:33.759
I've been and closing your hands very gently, just so

2773
07:42:34.159 --> 07:42:39.759
that you can gain in touch with how your hands

2774
07:42:42.159 --> 07:43:03.119
and your fingers feel, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2775
07:43:03.360 --> 07:43:10.599
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

2776
07:43:10.639 --> 07:43:15.400
of an equivalent with your feet is you've just done

2777
07:43:15.599 --> 07:43:23.560
with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your

2778
07:43:23.599 --> 07:43:31.080
feet around, moving your toes gently, but.

2779
07:43:31.000 --> 07:43:32.919
Only very.

2780
07:43:34.720 --> 07:43:46.479
Gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet fulfill in

2781
07:43:46.599 --> 07:44:00.000
this moment. Focusing now on your eyes, I like you

2782
07:44:00.159 --> 07:44:07.360
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2783
07:44:07.400 --> 07:44:11.759
and close your eyes a couple of times to really

2784
07:44:11.880 --> 07:44:15.520
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2785
07:44:15.639 --> 07:44:16.599
close your eyes.

2786
07:44:18.639 --> 07:44:21.040
The muscle changes.

2787
07:44:22.880 --> 07:44:28.759
In your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising

2788
07:44:28.880 --> 07:44:38.000
your eyebrows it stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps

2789
07:44:38.200 --> 07:44:46.159
squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so you

2790
07:44:46.200 --> 07:44:56.680
can hear it again, touch with all aspects of.

2791
07:44:55.639 --> 07:44:59.119
How your eyes feel.

2792
07:45:01.840 --> 07:45:04.000
Right now.

2793
07:45:11.680 --> 07:45:18.240
Now focusing on your thighs, and he just asks you

2794
07:45:18.319 --> 07:45:28.520
to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently, just

2795
07:45:28.759 --> 07:45:41.000
enough so you can become more attuned to the physical

2796
07:45:41.599 --> 07:45:49.000
sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2797
07:45:49.119 --> 07:46:00.200
in the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

2798
07:46:02.479 --> 07:46:17.599
your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus to the

2799
07:46:17.639 --> 07:46:24.560
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2800
07:46:26.000 --> 07:46:31.279
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2801
07:46:31.360 --> 07:46:35.520
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2802
07:46:35.560 --> 07:46:39.959
your back, which leads to your shoulders.

2803
07:46:41.479 --> 07:46:43.560
So as your focus.

2804
07:46:43.439 --> 07:46:49.200
On the back of your neck, maybe you can move

2805
07:46:49.240 --> 07:46:57.000
your head gently upwards, as if you're looking up. Maybe

2806
07:46:58.000 --> 07:47:02.040
moving your head down as if you were looking down.

2807
07:47:05.159 --> 07:47:09.720
Perhaps moving your headside to side, right to.

2808
07:47:09.759 --> 07:47:12.880
Left, only.

2809
07:47:14.240 --> 07:47:25.040
Very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2810
07:47:26.759 --> 07:47:35.959
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2811
07:47:36.119 --> 07:47:48.200
can be more in touch with the feelings, with the

2812
07:47:48.439 --> 07:47:59.240
sensations of physical sensations of hownd back of your neck feels.

2813
07:48:00.759 --> 07:48:16.159
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2814
07:48:16.240 --> 07:48:22.560
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2815
07:48:22.560 --> 07:48:30.680
are between your elbow and your shoulders. Should focus on

2816
07:48:30.919 --> 07:48:38.119
those parts, the tops of your arms. You may like

2817
07:48:38.200 --> 07:48:47.799
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2818
07:48:50.279 --> 07:48:58.360
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2819
07:48:59.200 --> 07:49:06.080
On your arms. It's just so that you can.

2820
07:49:07.720 --> 07:49:15.200
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2821
07:49:16.479 --> 07:49:28.439
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2822
07:49:30.560 --> 07:49:32.080
very gently.

2823
07:49:33.479 --> 07:49:40.240
And slowly tighten the muscles and then let go.

2824
07:49:44.400 --> 07:49:53.439
Notice how the tops of your arms feel right now.

2825
07:50:01.000 --> 07:50:04.080
As a now focus.

2826
07:50:06.680 --> 07:50:14.279
On your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below

2827
07:50:14.319 --> 07:50:24.119
your belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2828
07:50:24.200 --> 07:50:36.759
just above your grind. Maybe you're able to tense these muscles.

2829
07:50:38.040 --> 07:50:42.560
In the area very very.

2830
07:50:42.520 --> 07:50:55.599
Gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing to do,

2831
07:50:56.680 --> 07:51:04.959
and maybe you can just move your body, pushing your

2832
07:51:05.000 --> 07:51:09.880
stomach up and maybe moving a little bit to side

2833
07:51:10.479 --> 07:51:14.319
using your hips, just so.

2834
07:51:14.919 --> 07:51:17.439
You can get more.

2835
07:51:18.560 --> 07:51:25.560
In tune with how your lower aptomen area.

2836
07:51:28.959 --> 07:51:34.360
Is feeling in this moment.

2837
07:51:40.919 --> 07:51:45.400
Just noticing the physical.

2838
07:51:46.319 --> 07:52:06.840
Sensations or your lower abdomen. As you move your attention

2839
07:52:09.279 --> 07:52:17.599
to your mouth, notice in your lips.

2840
07:52:19.119 --> 07:52:32.520
And inside your mouth, the tea, your guns, your tongue.

2841
07:52:37.159 --> 07:52:45.840
Just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

2842
07:52:45.919 --> 07:52:55.000
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2843
07:52:55.040 --> 07:53:00.959
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently be against

2844
07:53:02.360 --> 07:53:06.919
the side of your mouth, and then to the right,

2845
07:53:08.439 --> 07:53:15.560
gently to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up

2846
07:53:15.599 --> 07:53:21.840
against the top of your mouth and then down gently

2847
07:53:23.759 --> 07:53:34.639
against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly, in

2848
07:53:34.759 --> 07:53:39.639
a very very gentle.

2849
07:53:44.000 --> 07:53:56.360
So that you can be aware of how you feel

2850
07:53:59.639 --> 07:54:01.119
in your mouth area.

2851
07:54:12.400 --> 07:54:18.919
Now I'm going to focus.

2852
07:54:20.400 --> 07:54:32.240
On your wrists, and.

2853
07:54:32.360 --> 07:54:41.159
I'll ask you to maybe just routine your wrists by

2854
07:54:41.200 --> 07:54:42.000
moving your.

2855
07:54:41.919 --> 07:54:56.439
Hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just

2856
07:54:56.599 --> 07:54:58.919
so you can.

2857
07:55:03.720 --> 07:55:15.360
Feel the sensations that you are currently.

2858
07:55:16.360 --> 07:55:31.319
Experiencing in your risks. Perhaps move in your hands up

2859
07:55:31.439 --> 07:55:56.680
and down again very very gently and slowly, very genteel

2860
07:56:00.880 --> 07:56:26.439
and slow, as you now start to observe your lower back.

2861
07:56:32.040 --> 07:56:42.479
The bad part is just above your hips, where your

2862
07:56:42.479 --> 07:56:43.720
coxis are.

2863
07:56:51.040 --> 07:56:57.159
A whole area which also really does include the signs

2864
07:56:58.080 --> 07:56:59.159
of your body.

2865
07:57:00.520 --> 07:57:10.639
Because those muscles are very much connected as those muscles

2866
07:57:11.040 --> 07:57:18.759
also move into your hiperia, connecting to your buttics.

2867
07:57:20.279 --> 07:57:35.119
The sides of your hips, And if you're physically able

2868
07:57:35.240 --> 07:57:44.479
to do so, maybe you can very gently just move

2869
07:57:44.880 --> 07:58:02.400
body evers slightly, very slowly from side to side, just enough.

2870
07:58:07.560 --> 07:58:09.000
Sa gauge.

2871
07:58:13.639 --> 07:58:27.439
How you feel in your lower back. Perhaps it even

2872
07:58:31.080 --> 07:58:43.000
move your hips gently up and down gently slowly.

2873
07:58:45.560 --> 07:58:52.639
In order to be in touch.

2874
07:58:54.919 --> 07:58:59.439
With the physical sensations.

2875
07:59:00.080 --> 07:59:01.159
Your law back.

2876
07:59:18.040 --> 07:59:25.560
As we know, to your attention.

2877
07:59:28.959 --> 07:59:36.759
To your jaw an area for your chin, all the

2878
07:59:36.799 --> 07:59:45.360
way up to near where your ears are. Oh, your jaw.

2879
07:59:55.599 --> 07:59:59.639
You can just if it's okay to this.

2880
08:00:00.040 --> 08:00:11.639
I gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just

2881
08:00:12.240 --> 08:00:25.840
very gently and slowly opening your mouth, closing your mouth

2882
08:00:28.119 --> 08:00:43.840
very gently and slowly, so you can.

2883
08:00:46.159 --> 08:01:26.560
Be in touch with how your jaw feels. Now. I

2884
08:01:26.840 --> 08:01:27.959
just sit down.

2885
08:01:30.560 --> 08:01:43.479
The chest area and you don't need to do anything

2886
08:01:45.400 --> 08:01:51.240
to move your chest because it moves every.

2887
08:01:51.040 --> 08:02:03.959
Time you breathe, and it moves very gently and slowly

2888
08:02:06.240 --> 08:02:12.319
automatically with each breath you take.

2889
08:02:19.439 --> 08:02:38.119
As you focus on how your chest feels when you breathe,

2890
08:03:07.040 --> 08:03:09.319
move in your focus.

2891
08:03:10.639 --> 08:03:23.439
To your forearms and your elbows. Maybe you're able to

2892
08:03:26.200 --> 08:03:31.599
very gently and slowly.

2893
08:03:33.240 --> 08:03:41.959
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2894
08:03:42.279 --> 08:03:43.680
you can feel.

2895
08:03:46.520 --> 08:03:58.479
Your elbows as well, very.

2896
08:03:58.479 --> 08:04:15.479
Gently and slowly, gently.

2897
08:04:18.319 --> 08:04:20.360
And softly.

2898
08:04:23.799 --> 08:04:32.119
Obsav your forums.

2899
08:04:33.799 --> 08:04:55.520
And delpoys. No focus.

2900
08:05:02.240 --> 08:05:14.319
The rest of your back, your upper back in the middle,

2901
08:05:15.840 --> 08:05:33.880
the middle of your back again, this part of your body.

2902
08:05:35.479 --> 08:05:47.720
News Also every time you pray. You may not notice

2903
08:05:47.759 --> 08:05:57.439
that usually makes you loop serve.

2904
08:06:00.080 --> 08:06:00.919
Half your back.

2905
08:06:01.279 --> 08:06:08.880
In the middle of your back, you can really feel

2906
08:06:11.319 --> 08:07:11.279
that shinto Endamn. Moving your focus into your hip area

2907
08:07:11.680 --> 08:07:23.560
of butties of grain, there's muscles and those bones in

2908
08:07:23.599 --> 08:08:04.959
your midsection. Just noticing how you're hips. Yeah, right now.

2909
08:08:11.680 --> 08:08:23.119
You can very very gently move your hips.

2910
08:08:26.279 --> 08:09:05.759
Maybe side to side very gently and slavery very gently softly.

2911
08:09:14.520 --> 08:09:21.200
No, everything.

2912
08:09:23.000 --> 08:09:38.080
Starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your mind,

2913
08:09:39.200 --> 08:09:49.360
and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't

2914
08:09:49.400 --> 08:09:56.959
have to be instant, but just gradually starting too. It's

2915
08:09:57.000 --> 08:10:06.080
almost like time is story Chin. It's a slower pace

2916
08:10:08.560 --> 08:10:13.759
to maybe what you're used to in your day to

2917
08:10:13.880 --> 08:10:40.560
day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very small

2918
08:10:40.840 --> 08:10:48.919
movements which make up the larger movements, which is always

2919
08:10:48.919 --> 08:10:49.400
the case.

2920
08:10:52.720 --> 08:10:57.159
And when you move your hand, it might seem like

2921
08:10:57.279 --> 08:11:03.720
it's one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving.

2922
08:11:05.439 --> 08:11:14.599
In accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2923
08:11:16.319 --> 08:11:31.040
space that we're sharing is we move from that big

2924
08:11:35.560 --> 08:11:52.720
movement into those smaller movements, starting to focus on how

2925
08:11:52.759 --> 08:11:59.080
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just

2926
08:11:59.799 --> 08:12:04.840
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling stressed or tense, or

2927
08:12:05.080 --> 08:12:10.319
I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm feeling this way, I'm

2928
08:12:10.319 --> 08:12:21.840
feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body begins

2929
08:12:21.880 --> 08:12:37.959
to present to you small feelings around your body, small

2930
08:12:38.439 --> 08:12:57.000
physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not. Maybe

2931
08:12:57.720 --> 08:13:05.759
resisting the temptation to lay all them or to judge them,

2932
08:13:05.799 --> 08:13:11.880
those feelings. Just thinking them, thinking about them is just

2933
08:13:12.080 --> 08:13:29.080
being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but just

2934
08:13:29.439 --> 08:13:32.599
noticing what your body.

2935
08:13:34.959 --> 08:13:48.880
Is telling you. Feelings in your arms instead of feeling

2936
08:13:49.000 --> 08:13:53.639
the whole of the arm, maybe notice those.

2937
08:13:55.319 --> 08:14:09.240
Individual feelings, all those different muscles and the skin, the

2938
08:14:09.479 --> 08:14:15.680
hairs of your arms, all the internal parts of your arms,

2939
08:14:15.759 --> 08:14:35.040
the veins, the bones, just being aware of maybe your

2940
08:14:35.159 --> 08:14:43.360
elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe

2941
08:14:43.599 --> 08:14:56.720
your left wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2942
08:15:09.119 --> 08:15:15.880
What about your forearm when you're right arm, you're right forearm,

2943
08:15:23.200 --> 08:15:26.240
there may not be any particular.

2944
08:15:27.439 --> 08:15:35.919
Feeling that you could even give a name to, may

2945
08:15:35.959 --> 08:15:41.080
not feel like anything other than just a feeling. You

2946
08:15:41.159 --> 08:15:42.240
know it's there.

2947
08:15:48.400 --> 08:15:54.159
The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you

2948
08:15:54.240 --> 08:15:57.959
think about them, kind of almost like they're the same,

2949
08:15:59.119 --> 08:16:04.680
you know, the same feeling. What it's like you both

2950
08:16:04.720 --> 08:16:06.759
of your shoulders are just one thing.

2951
08:16:08.599 --> 08:16:19.639
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2952
08:16:19.720 --> 08:16:27.959
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2953
08:16:28.119 --> 08:16:33.520
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2954
08:16:33.599 --> 08:16:59.040
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder when

2955
08:16:59.080 --> 08:17:14.560
you lower back. Yeah, the left side of your lower

2956
08:17:14.639 --> 08:17:16.799
back and the right.

2957
08:17:16.680 --> 08:17:18.119
Side of your lower back.

2958
08:17:25.959 --> 08:17:31.319
Of course, that connection to your buttocks and to your hips,

2959
08:17:38.799 --> 08:17:42.400
and also moving up into the middle of your back.

2960
08:17:52.319 --> 08:17:56.360
And sometimes like right now, actually I want to focus

2961
08:17:56.400 --> 08:18:00.159
on their part. When I focused on my buttock, yes,

2962
08:18:01.959 --> 08:18:05.720
and then I focused on the middle of my back,

2963
08:18:06.040 --> 08:18:08.799
it almost felt like the muscles in my lower back

2964
08:18:08.880 --> 08:18:18.759
were being stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit.

2965
08:18:20.680 --> 08:18:27.479
Even though I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch

2966
08:18:29.439 --> 08:18:33.799
your lower back, it just seemed to happen. The feeling

2967
08:18:34.439 --> 08:18:54.479
of very gently stretching your lower back comes along. I

2968
08:18:54.520 --> 08:19:19.439
have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations you

2969
08:19:20.080 --> 08:19:37.119
are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's so

2970
08:19:37.319 --> 08:19:41.759
much of the chest obviously there's the collar bone leading

2971
08:19:41.919 --> 08:19:48.360
to the chest. You've got the chest bone you've got

2972
08:19:48.360 --> 08:19:56.520
the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2973
08:19:57.200 --> 08:20:04.400
there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've got the

2974
08:20:07.200 --> 08:20:12.799
different well my not that different these days, but there

2975
08:20:12.840 --> 08:20:18.040
may be more muscles at the top of the chest,

2976
08:20:21.400 --> 08:20:25.680
but at the side underneath it's pretty much the same.

2977
08:20:26.439 --> 08:20:30.279
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

2978
08:20:30.840 --> 08:20:36.040
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

2979
08:20:36.080 --> 08:20:44.479
breast tissue. It stretches and moves into your back. To

2980
08:20:44.639 --> 08:21:04.080
just being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling

2981
08:21:04.200 --> 08:21:24.000
there is in your chest. When I noticed that, I

2982
08:21:24.159 --> 08:21:30.639
focus on my chest, I feel.

2983
08:21:30.360 --> 08:21:33.279
It in my back and my upper back.

2984
08:21:34.720 --> 08:21:37.799
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

2985
08:21:37.840 --> 08:21:47.799
you know, I'll breathe in in then it stretches my

2986
08:21:48.080 --> 08:21:59.360
chest and my back at the same time. It feels

2987
08:22:02.159 --> 08:22:10.560
it feels okay, doesn't.

2988
08:22:10.200 --> 08:22:15.479
Feel I got a little bit of pain in my right.

2989
08:22:17.159 --> 08:22:23.200
Chest, a little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe

2990
08:22:24.759 --> 08:22:33.720
stiffness possibly, I don't know. I noticed my shoulders are also.

2991
08:22:35.000 --> 08:22:39.279
Wanting to flex for some reason.

2992
08:22:41.439 --> 08:22:48.799
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

2993
08:22:49.000 --> 08:22:54.119
connection between my shoulders my op back, because I can

2994
08:22:54.159 --> 08:22:59.040
move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

2995
08:23:01.479 --> 08:23:02.880
moving the shoulders.

2996
08:23:02.439 --> 08:23:08.599
Backwards or up, which then moves. I think it's the

2997
08:23:08.720 --> 08:23:23.840
scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice.

2998
08:23:23.880 --> 08:23:32.639
Actually, a good thing about this is you can, if

2999
08:23:32.680 --> 08:23:35.680
you want to, you can just.

3000
08:23:39.119 --> 08:23:43.200
Flex or stimulate.

3001
08:23:46.119 --> 08:23:52.840
The various muscles in your body gently in order to

3002
08:23:52.919 --> 08:24:03.720
get more of the sense of how they feel. And

3003
08:24:03.799 --> 08:24:13.000
when you're relaxing, when you do tense and muscle and

3004
08:24:13.240 --> 08:24:18.360
you let it go and you let it relax, it relaxes.

3005
08:24:20.360 --> 08:24:23.840
Way more than it would normally.

3006
08:24:28.919 --> 08:24:34.279
You have to feel that you're able to do that.

3007
08:24:35.599 --> 08:24:40.720
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

3008
08:24:41.279 --> 08:24:42.880
with the per part of your body.

3009
08:24:46.360 --> 08:24:46.919
You need to.

3010
08:24:46.880 --> 08:24:57.319
Be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply,

3011
08:25:00.279 --> 08:25:15.560
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

3012
08:25:15.720 --> 08:25:26.840
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

3013
08:25:26.880 --> 08:25:45.599
we started this recording?

3014
08:25:45.919 --> 08:25:47.000
How came.

3015
08:25:50.599 --> 08:26:02.119
And peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing

3016
08:26:02.200 --> 08:26:07.759
to think about and just my voice to listen to.

3017
08:26:11.840 --> 08:26:20.439
Because you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation.

3018
08:26:23.159 --> 08:26:28.279
At the very least, for you to feel more relaxed

3019
08:26:29.599 --> 08:26:32.520
at the end of the recording than you did at

3020
08:26:32.520 --> 08:26:45.240
the beginning at the very least, for your mind to

3021
08:26:45.520 --> 08:26:47.599
slow down.

3022
08:26:49.919 --> 08:26:51.279
As your body.

3023
08:26:51.560 --> 08:27:06.840
Continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

3024
08:27:10.799 --> 08:27:26.319
That's what you expect to happen, for relaxation.

3025
08:27:28.599 --> 08:27:29.520
To fill.

3026
08:27:31.799 --> 08:27:44.799
Your body, maybe calm in your mind to the point

3027
08:27:44.959 --> 08:28:18.479
of boredom. When you start maybe to drift away, dresting,

3028
08:28:32.119 --> 08:28:40.279
it's almost as if you're moving further away from.

3029
08:28:41.720 --> 08:28:42.680
Your body in.

3030
08:28:42.680 --> 08:28:56.159
Your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking it

3031
08:28:56.560 --> 08:29:02.520
an escape pod in a spaceship a movie, a space movie.

3032
08:29:02.560 --> 08:29:04.439
You know, when they get into a little part in.

3033
08:29:04.520 --> 08:29:20.720
It sends the man far away from the spaceship save

3034
08:29:22.439 --> 08:30:19.759
to dream and continue to relax, drifting size slow.

3035
08:30:32.560 --> 08:30:50.959
And be so so rare.

3036
08:31:04.000 --> 08:31:05.080
And peace.

3037
08:31:25.919 --> 08:31:40.319
And focusing on the feeding of those individual parts of

3038
08:31:40.439 --> 08:31:57.080
your body. That's a relaxing. One by one, you may.

3039
08:31:58.759 --> 08:31:59.720
Find that.

3040
08:32:04.119 --> 08:32:13.799
Every now and then you realize that you aren't listening

3041
08:32:15.520 --> 08:32:25.840
to my voice because your mind started to imagine something different,

3042
08:32:27.240 --> 08:32:37.599
maybe started to almost move into some kind of a

3043
08:32:37.919 --> 08:32:46.840
dreamy state. And then you become aware of my voice again.

3044
08:32:50.439 --> 08:32:57.040
And even though you may want to focus on my voice,

3045
08:32:57.680 --> 08:33:05.159
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

3046
08:33:05.479 --> 08:33:25.360
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

3047
08:33:25.439 --> 08:33:40.159
you feel more, comfort spreading through your body.

3048
08:33:42.680 --> 08:33:44.720
Like a warm blanket.

3049
08:33:48.200 --> 08:34:02.799
Covering you gently, keeping your body at just the perfect temperature.

3050
08:34:13.200 --> 08:34:23.639
And even if you can hear background sounds, they just

3051
08:34:25.000 --> 08:34:30.080
don't seem to matter anymore.

3052
08:34:34.400 --> 08:34:43.799
There's that sensor peace spreads through your mind.

3053
08:34:50.560 --> 08:35:00.560
Like a gentle grease, yet strong enough to blow away

3054
08:35:01.279 --> 08:35:16.959
all negativity, strong enough to remove from your mind any

3055
08:35:17.040 --> 08:35:19.759
anxiety or stress.

3056
08:35:21.159 --> 08:35:22.279
That was there.

3057
08:35:22.080 --> 08:35:37.360
Before, and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that.

3058
08:35:39.720 --> 08:35:48.560
Just don't fit with the sense.

3059
08:35:55.680 --> 08:36:06.880
Relaxation. That it's a feeling your body.

3060
08:36:11.439 --> 08:36:21.479
And your mind.

3061
08:36:26.919 --> 08:36:32.240
Un As you focus on your mind and count down

3062
08:36:32.400 --> 08:36:39.119
from ten down to one, and with each number you hear,

3063
08:36:42.200 --> 08:37:08.200
your mind will become slightly more relaxed, just just slightly.

3064
08:37:10.680 --> 08:37:10.720
So.

3065
08:37:10.880 --> 08:37:13.319
From ten down to nine.

3066
08:37:13.759 --> 08:37:20.759
Just a slight movement, from nine down to eight, just

3067
08:37:20.840 --> 08:37:40.119
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

3068
08:37:40.680 --> 08:37:46.119
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

3069
08:37:46.439 --> 08:37:56.159
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

3070
08:37:56.319 --> 08:37:57.200
you used.

3071
08:37:56.959 --> 08:38:04.200
To have in your mind compared to the feelings you

3072
08:38:04.319 --> 08:38:15.680
have the growing now feelings of comfort and security and confidence,

3073
08:38:18.200 --> 08:38:24.400
and the gap becomes wider eight, down to seven, seven,

3074
08:38:24.520 --> 08:38:25.599
down to six.

3075
08:38:29.319 --> 08:38:34.439
When you get to five, the mind will start to

3076
08:38:35.720 --> 08:38:36.919
have a.

3077
08:38:36.439 --> 08:38:49.680
Certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

3078
08:38:49.720 --> 08:38:55.959
your head sucking the tension and the stress and any

3079
08:38:56.040 --> 08:39:02.919
remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them.

3080
08:39:02.639 --> 08:39:12.000
Out through your skull. And in down to four.

3081
08:39:13.360 --> 08:39:20.319
You can start to really experience that sense of not

3082
08:39:20.439 --> 08:39:36.279
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air, place.

3083
08:39:36.000 --> 08:39:37.840
Where you can stretch.

3084
08:39:41.200 --> 08:39:43.880
It's almost as if as you go down to four

3085
08:39:44.639 --> 08:39:53.520
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

3086
08:39:54.119 --> 08:39:58.479
peace and tranquility growing.

3087
08:40:01.080 --> 08:40:10.959
Let's move down to When you get to one, your mind.

3088
08:40:12.599 --> 08:40:25.720
Just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling,

3089
08:40:31.520 --> 08:40:36.479
maybe the sensation that.

3090
08:40:38.000 --> 08:40:39.520
You'd like to keep.

3091
08:40:42.400 --> 08:40:53.400
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

3092
08:41:04.959 --> 08:41:09.680
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

3093
08:41:09.799 --> 08:41:19.520
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

3094
08:41:20.400 --> 08:41:26.759
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind.

3095
08:41:28.000 --> 08:41:36.000
Just by counting ten down to one.

3096
08:41:37.400 --> 08:41:41.959
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3097
08:41:41.959 --> 08:41:49.279
you're on your own, the time when you can maybe

3098
08:41:49.439 --> 08:41:58.159
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes.

3099
08:42:01.639 --> 08:42:05.319
It just counts slowly from ten.

3100
08:42:07.919 --> 08:42:20.479
Down to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

3101
08:42:25.759 --> 08:42:29.680
And when you feel that way in your mind.

3102
08:42:29.919 --> 08:42:34.759
Your body copies.

3103
08:42:35.759 --> 08:42:47.200
Your mind, and a feeling is spread through your spine

3104
08:42:47.759 --> 08:42:53.720
and your nervous system into every part of your body,

3105
08:42:54.759 --> 08:43:09.159
travels through your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing every particle of

3106
08:43:09.279 --> 08:43:26.159
your existence. Now we can we can practice this a

3107
08:43:26.240 --> 08:43:34.360
few times before the end of the recording, and then

3108
08:43:34.400 --> 08:43:42.279
you can practice on your own. Each time you countfort

3109
08:43:42.439 --> 08:43:55.000
ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness, and deep

3110
08:43:56.959 --> 08:44:02.200
deep relaxation comes stronger.

3111
08:44:03.599 --> 08:44:04.479
Deeper.

3112
08:44:10.759 --> 08:44:19.959
Feeling your mind and your brain. With these positive chemicals,

3113
08:44:21.680 --> 08:44:31.840
the spread throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing

3114
08:44:31.959 --> 08:44:37.240
your whole body and mind, so.

3115
08:44:37.560 --> 08:44:53.919
Very, very easily just by counting damn down to one.

3116
08:44:55.840 --> 08:44:58.880
So we're going to do now. I'm going to count

3117
08:44:58.919 --> 08:45:03.360
from ten down to one. I'd like you to repeat

3118
08:45:03.520 --> 08:45:10.400
the number after me. So when I say ten, you

3119
08:45:10.439 --> 08:45:22.880
can just repeat to yourself ten. Just notice, be aware

3120
08:45:24.159 --> 08:45:25.919
of how you feel.

3121
08:45:29.680 --> 08:45:39.360
In your mind and your body. Then when I say nine,

3122
08:45:39.639 --> 08:45:55.240
you can repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase

3123
08:45:55.560 --> 08:46:03.799
in comfort and calm in your mind and in your body.

3124
08:46:09.759 --> 08:46:15.520
The same want to say eight, I want to say.

3125
08:46:15.400 --> 08:46:30.439
Seven, six, I want to say five, four, when I

3126
08:46:30.520 --> 08:46:41.560
say three, two, and lastly.

3127
08:46:41.240 --> 08:46:54.279
When I say one, can you beat that number? Now?

3128
08:46:54.360 --> 08:46:59.880
Of course, when you do this on your own without

3129
08:47:00.080 --> 08:47:05.200
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

3130
08:47:06.680 --> 08:47:15.159
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

3131
08:47:15.279 --> 08:47:21.080
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

3132
08:47:21.159 --> 08:47:27.040
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

3133
08:47:28.799 --> 08:47:30.240
then you go ahead and do that.

3134
08:47:31.000 --> 08:47:35.040
Or if you feel when you do it yourself, you'd

3135
08:47:35.240 --> 08:47:37.560
like to have more.

3136
08:47:38.479 --> 08:47:45.200
More space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer

3137
08:47:46.319 --> 08:47:52.200
to get from ten all the way down to one,

3138
08:47:56.360 --> 08:48:09.439
that's your choice also to do. So I'm gonna count

3139
08:48:09.520 --> 08:48:10.319
from ten.

3140
08:48:10.319 --> 08:48:19.279
Down to one, and when I get to one, that

3141
08:48:19.439 --> 08:48:24.880
will be the end of this recording. And let's, of

3142
08:48:24.880 --> 08:48:36.720
course you're listening to music, and the music will continue.

3143
08:48:37.080 --> 08:49:40.799
Ten ninety.

3144
08:50:14.000 --> 08:51:20.400
Foy assassa.

3145
08:51:12.880 --> 08:52:15.840
Al u.

3146
08:52:28.040 --> 08:52:52.919
U u u u u u u u.

3147
08:52:56.759 --> 08:53:49.759
U twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteen fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve

3148
08:53:54.279 --> 08:54:15.159
eleven nine, eight, seven.

3149
08:54:18.759 --> 08:54:55.880
Six, five, four, three two one. Now open your eyes,

3150
08:54:59.520 --> 08:55:00.080
notice and.

3151
08:55:02.319 --> 08:55:07.279
How you physically feel having counted down from twenty to one,

3152
08:55:10.560 --> 08:55:16.040
Allowing stress and tension to leave through your fingertips.

3153
08:55:15.479 --> 08:55:16.279
And your toes.

3154
08:55:17.840 --> 08:55:20.880
And as you focus on your fingertips.

3155
08:55:21.799 --> 08:55:27.919
Maybe they feel a little bit tingly, which is I

3156
08:55:27.959 --> 08:55:33.040
suppose quite understanding, considering the tension has been exiting your

3157
08:55:33.080 --> 08:55:42.040
body through your fingertips. So now I'm going to count

3158
08:55:42.080 --> 08:55:43.680
from twenty down to one again.

3159
08:55:44.159 --> 08:55:44.880
This time.

3160
08:55:48.959 --> 08:55:54.639
You're going to feel relief of tension and stress in

3161
08:55:54.759 --> 08:55:55.880
the anxiety that you.

3162
08:55:55.919 --> 08:55:56.240
May have.

3163
08:56:00.919 --> 08:56:04.319
Leaving through your stomach.

3164
08:56:06.959 --> 08:56:12.799
Just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just releasing.

3165
08:56:13.880 --> 08:56:19.240
The hole of your stomach. You'll enable to just above

3166
08:56:19.319 --> 08:56:23.360
your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding your

3167
08:56:23.400 --> 08:56:25.439
belly by an area, the whole area.

3168
08:56:27.560 --> 08:56:32.159
You can feel the tension of your body wherever it's left,

3169
08:56:32.439 --> 08:56:37.720
just releasing from that area, and you may notice that

3170
08:56:37.880 --> 08:56:38.840
your stomach.

3171
08:56:38.520 --> 08:56:40.680
Will become very relaxed.

3172
08:56:41.639 --> 08:56:46.319
As I count down from twenty down to one.

3173
08:56:48.000 --> 08:56:51.840
Now twenty.

3174
08:56:56.080 --> 08:57:37.479
Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven.

3175
08:57:41.560 --> 08:57:59.880
Ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

3176
08:58:02.880 --> 08:58:08.479
By oh.

3177
08:58:12.319 --> 08:58:17.520
Three two.

3178
08:58:22.720 --> 08:58:29.840
What And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

3179
08:58:30.400 --> 08:58:34.040
or you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

3180
08:58:36.360 --> 08:58:41.479
Just notice saying your stomach feels. Notice as your focus,

3181
08:58:41.759 --> 08:58:46.919
just do a little scan of your body. Just notice

3182
08:58:46.919 --> 08:58:58.319
saying your body feels focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms,

3183
08:58:59.200 --> 08:58:59.840
and be.

3184
08:59:03.159 --> 08:59:10.279
Just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel.

3185
08:59:12.560 --> 08:59:16.799
More a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

3186
08:59:16.840 --> 08:59:22.840
you listening to this according because you like to.

3187
08:59:24.479 --> 08:59:30.279
Let go completely of everything and dread.

3188
08:59:31.520 --> 08:59:36.720
All into a nice, natural, calm.

3189
08:59:36.720 --> 08:59:38.959
Relaxing sleep.

3190
08:59:46.520 --> 08:59:55.880
So now we're going to focus on your forehead, and

3191
08:59:56.000 --> 08:59:58.799
if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in this

3192
08:59:59.119 --> 09:00:05.759
focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes, it's that

3193
09:00:05.919 --> 09:00:11.080
whole area basically almost as if you were wearing a mask, you.

3194
09:00:11.159 --> 09:00:11.639
Know, like a.

3195
09:00:13.599 --> 09:00:16.759
I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or.

3196
09:00:18.840 --> 09:00:21.759
I'm trying to zorrow or something, you know, the kind

3197
09:00:21.799 --> 09:00:24.959
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

3198
09:00:24.959 --> 09:00:25.919
a lot of the forehead.

3199
09:00:29.560 --> 09:00:32.159
And focusing on that area because.

3200
09:00:31.840 --> 09:00:35.159
That's the area that we're now going to release tension

3201
09:00:35.400 --> 09:00:40.919
and stress from your mind and your brain, from your mind,

3202
09:00:41.040 --> 09:00:45.279
and any tension that you may have remaining your face,

3203
09:00:46.319 --> 09:00:51.000
in your neck and your jaw and your eyes, your

3204
09:00:51.119 --> 09:00:57.799
forehead or your scalp, so basically any tension within your

3205
09:00:57.959 --> 09:01:00.959
head area, including your mind.

3206
09:01:01.400 --> 09:01:02.400
And your brain.

3207
09:01:06.080 --> 09:01:10.599
That's going to be released through your forehead and your eyes.

3208
09:01:14.560 --> 09:01:16.279
As I count down again.

3209
09:01:16.080 --> 09:02:37.319
From twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

3210
09:02:41.159 --> 09:02:47.400
Five, four.

3211
09:02:51.479 --> 09:02:51.720
Three.

3212
09:03:01.240 --> 09:03:10.919
What noticing.

3213
09:03:12.799 --> 09:03:20.360
As you scan your face, jaw, your eyes, the cheap bones,

3214
09:03:20.599 --> 09:03:29.919
your ears, your forehead, your scalp, your neck, the back

3215
09:03:29.959 --> 09:03:33.000
of your neck, in the front of your neck, the

3216
09:03:33.279 --> 09:03:43.680
side of your neck, and the throat. H noticing being

3217
09:03:43.759 --> 09:03:45.880
aware of the comfort.

3218
09:03:47.759 --> 09:03:49.520
Increased, be in the.

3219
09:03:51.880 --> 09:03:58.279
Relaxation, not just in your head and neck and mind

3220
09:03:59.400 --> 09:04:07.319
orso the rest of your body, Just that it is.

3221
09:04:07.439 --> 09:04:15.400
How loose and calm you feel, and how easily it

3222
09:04:15.639 --> 09:04:35.439
is to just let go completely, let go completely, how easily.

3223
09:04:43.119 --> 09:04:44.799
That's what I'm going to do now, is.

3224
09:04:46.319 --> 09:04:53.880
To focus on the top of your head and am

3225
09:04:53.919 --> 09:05:02.159
We're going to allow every last piece of tension or

3226
09:05:02.360 --> 09:05:07.520
stress that might be lingering or hiding in your body

3227
09:05:08.799 --> 09:05:10.759
or mind, my head.

3228
09:05:12.080 --> 09:05:12.479
To just.

3229
09:05:14.200 --> 09:05:17.720
Be sucked out at the top of your head.

3230
09:05:20.080 --> 09:05:28.400
At least, And yeah, I wants sucked out into the clouds.

3231
09:05:31.000 --> 09:05:35.880
Imagine a being cloud of pop your head it's like

3232
09:05:36.000 --> 09:05:39.240
a whirlpool, and this can suck.

3233
09:05:39.119 --> 09:05:45.799
That tension out the top of your head and just

3234
09:05:45.919 --> 09:05:46.919
take away.

3235
09:05:48.560 --> 09:05:49.159
The good.

3236
09:05:52.200 --> 09:05:52.799
To focus.

3237
09:05:53.759 --> 09:05:57.680
Imagine an opening on the top of your head with

3238
09:05:57.880 --> 09:06:03.840
that tension, stress, and in remaining issues, maybe worries of

3239
09:06:04.040 --> 09:06:05.119
concerns that.

3240
09:06:05.279 --> 09:06:06.560
Have known used to you.

3241
09:06:06.720 --> 09:06:10.519
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

3242
09:06:10.559 --> 09:06:11.040
of your head.

3243
09:06:12.800 --> 09:06:18.800
I've taken away. As I count down again from twenty

3244
09:06:19.199 --> 09:06:54.120
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen.

3245
09:06:58.760 --> 09:06:59.720
Fifty.

3246
09:07:04.919 --> 09:07:20.199
Fourteen thirteen, weel.

3247
09:07:25.720 --> 09:07:39.440
Eleven nine.

3248
09:07:45.599 --> 09:07:52.959
Eight seven.

3249
09:07:57.199 --> 09:08:39.559
Six by four three wha bream, noticing how.

3250
09:08:39.480 --> 09:08:53.519
You feel, how relax and calm if physically and mentally

3251
09:08:53.760 --> 09:08:55.239
feel right.

3252
09:08:55.160 --> 09:09:06.959
Now, help bee, so your mind feels.

3253
09:09:09.279 --> 09:09:14.440
It feels so nice to just let go, to give

3254
09:09:14.480 --> 09:09:23.959
yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly.

3255
09:09:28.519 --> 09:09:33.639
Just to take a break from all that pointless worry,

3256
09:09:35.199 --> 09:09:39.480
concerns about things that you don't need to think about

3257
09:09:42.680 --> 09:09:50.000
right now, because this is your time to let go.

3258
09:09:51.400 --> 09:10:01.160
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3259
09:10:01.279 --> 09:10:08.559
in your mind, relaxed in your body. It can feel

3260
09:10:09.120 --> 09:10:19.400
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything.

3261
09:10:21.279 --> 09:10:30.160
To be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

3262
09:10:31.720 --> 09:10:44.760
of letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with being

3263
09:10:45.440 --> 09:10:56.760
in this peaceful space. And you can keep this sense

3264
09:10:56.919 --> 09:11:08.800
of calmness for as long as you choose, if you

3265
09:11:09.040 --> 09:11:15.680
choose to drift on into a deep, healing, natural sleep,

3266
09:11:16.959 --> 09:11:23.720
and you can do that, it's completely up to you,

3267
09:11:28.480 --> 09:11:33.239
and you can keep this feeling of calmness physically, mean,

3268
09:11:33.319 --> 09:11:39.239
in your mind, as long as you choose to feel

3269
09:11:39.480 --> 09:11:50.080
completely relaxed, completely relaxed.

3270
09:11:53.400 --> 09:11:59.199
I'd like you to make up your mind that you're

3271
09:11:59.239 --> 09:12:10.440
going to relax. I want to explore that with you.

3272
09:12:11.160 --> 09:12:13.360
But it feels like when you actually.

3273
09:12:14.720 --> 09:12:21.959
Decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but

3274
09:12:22.120 --> 09:12:28.440
giving yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really, isn't it.

3275
09:12:28.559 --> 09:12:36.199
When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm way,

3276
09:12:37.040 --> 09:12:40.239
that only you can really.

3277
09:12:41.599 --> 09:12:44.680
Tell you something in that way. You can't really have

3278
09:12:44.800 --> 09:12:49.480
someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax. You know.

3279
09:12:51.639 --> 09:12:52.160
It needs to be.

3280
09:12:52.239 --> 09:12:56.559
Gentle, but you can't. Someone else can't really have the same.

3281
09:13:00.360 --> 09:13:07.839
Kind of influence or power that you have over your

3282
09:13:08.000 --> 09:13:19.559
own physicality over how you feel, because when you say

3283
09:13:19.599 --> 09:13:20.800
it to yourself.

3284
09:13:22.080 --> 09:13:26.120
It means more, it's personal, and.

3285
09:13:27.720 --> 09:13:32.919
Your brain and your unconscious mind and your body listens

3286
09:13:33.160 --> 09:13:34.199
to what you say.

3287
09:13:36.519 --> 09:13:38.879
So for example, we'll test.

3288
09:13:38.680 --> 09:13:41.279
It out and do a little test, a few little

3289
09:13:41.360 --> 09:13:45.080
tests along the way, and you can get more of

3290
09:13:45.199 --> 09:13:51.720
an idea of the force, the positive force that you

3291
09:13:51.879 --> 09:13:59.400
can have in creating the sense of comfort and relaxation

3292
09:13:59.680 --> 09:14:00.000
and your.

3293
09:14:00.040 --> 09:14:07.239
Body and your mind quite quickly just by you telling

3294
09:14:07.319 --> 09:14:10.279
yourself to relax.

3295
09:14:14.919 --> 09:14:18.519
So I'm going to start by it's focus on your hands.

3296
09:14:22.199 --> 09:14:24.360
To focus on your hands and just tell your hands

3297
09:14:24.760 --> 09:14:30.720
to relax, and just say relax. As you focus on

3298
09:14:30.800 --> 09:14:37.720
your hands, you could say my hands are relaxed, or

3299
09:14:37.800 --> 09:14:39.279
I want my hands to relax.

3300
09:14:41.400 --> 09:14:47.160
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

3301
09:14:47.839 --> 09:14:52.040
and imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying.

3302
09:14:52.160 --> 09:14:53.480
You know, they've got little ears.

3303
09:14:54.279 --> 09:15:00.160
It's a little weird. So talking to your hands and

3304
09:15:00.400 --> 09:15:15.839
just say relax, you know, disin now your hands start

3305
09:15:15.919 --> 09:15:31.319
to relax. Now focus on your eyes and tell your

3306
09:15:31.400 --> 09:15:36.160
eyes to relax. You're just saying the same word relax.

3307
09:15:37.680 --> 09:15:44.440
And find the right tone for you. No, I might

3308
09:15:44.599 --> 09:15:54.000
say relax, but you you might say relax or relax.

3309
09:15:54.519 --> 09:15:58.559
You know, you might say it differently to yourself, and

3310
09:15:59.680 --> 09:16:05.680
that's important for you to gauge what feels right for you.

3311
09:16:07.559 --> 09:16:12.480
To just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing on

3312
09:16:12.559 --> 09:16:15.680
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your.

3313
09:16:15.639 --> 09:16:53.680
Eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now,

3314
09:16:53.720 --> 09:17:04.120
I just did that myself, And sometimes you may feel

3315
09:17:04.199 --> 09:17:06.239
that you need a bit more time.

3316
09:17:08.080 --> 09:17:11.440
For the different parts to relax, you know, because I

3317
09:17:11.559 --> 09:17:16.480
start talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully.

3318
09:17:17.440 --> 09:17:19.519
But what will happen is that it will just continue

3319
09:17:19.559 --> 09:17:21.160
to relax even though I'm talking.

3320
09:17:22.839 --> 09:17:28.599
And that's happening with my eyes. Something else I noticed

3321
09:17:28.720 --> 09:17:34.879
is when I started focusing on my eyes, that actually almost.

3322
09:17:34.680 --> 09:17:37.120
Became they got worse before they got better in a

3323
09:17:37.160 --> 09:17:38.519
way sort of, I.

3324
09:17:38.559 --> 09:17:43.199
Felt a degree of tension growing in my eyes and

3325
09:17:43.360 --> 09:17:47.800
then disappearing. So I think what that was really is

3326
09:17:47.919 --> 09:17:54.760
just me becoming more aware of the tension that was already.

3327
09:17:54.440 --> 09:18:00.800
There, but I wasn't focused on it before, wasn't really

3328
09:18:01.440 --> 09:18:03.080
acknowledging there or.

3329
09:18:05.360 --> 09:18:20.000
Really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still

3330
09:18:20.120 --> 09:18:26.760
continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually, my

3331
09:18:26.919 --> 09:18:32.440
hands have got a certain kind of energy like not.

3332
09:18:32.720 --> 09:18:34.400
I think that I can kind of.

3333
09:18:36.800 --> 09:18:38.919
Feel a degree of energy in my hands.

3334
09:18:42.160 --> 09:18:46.839
Maybe that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's

3335
09:18:46.879 --> 09:18:56.199
the cause, and that the next part I think we

3336
09:18:56.239 --> 09:18:57.000
should focus on.

3337
09:18:57.080 --> 09:18:57.879
The back of the neck.

3338
09:18:58.599 --> 09:19:03.760
That's the part was quite often well for me holds tension.

3339
09:19:03.800 --> 09:19:06.599
I don't know about it for yourself, I think it's

3340
09:19:06.720 --> 09:19:11.440
quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held.

3341
09:19:13.000 --> 09:19:18.000
So and I'm doing it exactly what you're doing as

3342
09:19:18.080 --> 09:19:21.199
you do it as well, So I'm telling my body

3343
09:19:21.319 --> 09:19:22.959
parts to relax as well.

3344
09:19:23.720 --> 09:19:25.800
So if you tell your neck at the back of your.

3345
09:19:25.839 --> 09:19:28.440
Neck, focus on the back of your neck, and just

3346
09:19:28.559 --> 09:19:35.760
say relax in your own words, in your own tone,

3347
09:19:36.120 --> 09:19:38.959
in your own voice. You can say out loud, or

3348
09:19:39.040 --> 09:19:44.080
you can just say it to yourself internally. But you're focusing,

3349
09:19:44.480 --> 09:19:46.639
and you're saying it literally.

3350
09:19:46.599 --> 09:19:49.919
To the back of your neck, as if the back

3351
09:19:49.959 --> 09:19:56.680
of your neck can actually hear what you're seeing. So

3352
09:19:56.879 --> 09:20:01.879
do that now, Just say relax back your neck, and

3353
09:20:02.000 --> 09:20:02.760
I'll do the same.

3354
09:20:41.559 --> 09:20:46.879
Now what I noticed, and you may have had similar thing. Yes,

3355
09:20:47.599 --> 09:20:50.199
even though I was focusing on the back of the neck,

3356
09:20:55.199 --> 09:21:02.040
other parts started to I don't know showed themselves to me,

3357
09:21:02.319 --> 09:21:03.760
or maybe.

3358
09:21:03.639 --> 09:21:06.279
Because they want to be relaxed as well. But I

3359
09:21:06.400 --> 09:21:10.519
started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attension in my

3360
09:21:10.639 --> 09:21:12.360
shoulders and in my upper back.

3361
09:21:15.480 --> 09:21:21.480
Whether that was because my back of my neck was saying, well,

3362
09:21:21.480 --> 09:21:26.480
I'm pretty much okay. It's the other parts that need attention,

3363
09:21:32.879 --> 09:21:34.839
but my low of my my back of my neck

3364
09:21:34.959 --> 09:21:39.199
is still relaxing. But I just became aware of other

3365
09:21:39.360 --> 09:21:47.080
parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not.

3366
09:21:48.680 --> 09:21:50.839
It doesn't mean that it's going any wrong. It just

3367
09:21:50.959 --> 09:21:52.400
means you're.

3368
09:21:52.360 --> 09:21:59.000
Being notified of more places but also wanted to feel relaxed.

3369
09:22:02.279 --> 09:22:06.599
So I'm going to focus on my upper back. So

3370
09:22:06.839 --> 09:22:10.480
you can do the same, even if you don't.

3371
09:22:10.400 --> 09:22:11.040
Have any.

3372
09:22:12.440 --> 09:22:17.879
Feelings of tension that rubious in your upper back, if

3373
09:22:17.879 --> 09:22:22.760
you just focus on your back and the whole area

3374
09:22:22.919 --> 09:22:24.800
from the shoulder blades.

3375
09:22:24.519 --> 09:22:29.120
Down to the middle of your back and your spine.

3376
09:22:30.599 --> 09:22:38.400
And with me, it's more the shoulder blades than yeah,

3377
09:22:38.480 --> 09:22:43.639
that's the parts they really sort of giving me.

3378
09:22:45.360 --> 09:22:46.040
The nod.

3379
09:22:47.599 --> 09:22:49.879
That it needs relax in. The soul's going to ask

3380
09:22:50.000 --> 09:22:53.519
that part to relax and you can do the same. Now,

3381
09:23:04.720 --> 09:23:06.040
relapsed up the back.

3382
09:23:18.440 --> 09:23:20.120
Something strange happened there.

3383
09:23:20.639 --> 09:23:20.879
And this.

3384
09:23:22.400 --> 09:23:28.599
Often happens, and I'm doing this for sixteen years or something,

3385
09:23:29.319 --> 09:23:38.160
and often I'm one surprised but amazed, really bad. There

3386
09:23:38.199 --> 09:23:39.120
can be a feeling.

3387
09:23:40.559 --> 09:23:43.400
So when I was focusing on the back of my neck,

3388
09:23:44.239 --> 09:23:48.400
my other back was starting to feel quite stressed and

3389
09:23:49.160 --> 09:23:54.720
in need of attention. As soon as I started talking

3390
09:23:54.879 --> 09:23:59.720
to you about my upper back and talking about, you know,

3391
09:24:00.279 --> 09:24:05.239
getting ready to ask the other bat to relax, why

3392
09:24:05.319 --> 09:24:11.000
the back already started to relax. It's almost as if

3393
09:24:11.040 --> 09:24:16.639
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs intention,

3394
09:24:21.440 --> 09:24:32.760
just needs to be noticed. And that is something that

3395
09:24:33.080 --> 09:24:40.040
often happens in this type of situation is when you

3396
09:24:40.319 --> 09:24:45.480
start to relax a couple of parts of your body,

3397
09:24:46.559 --> 09:24:47.440
as we've done with.

3398
09:24:47.559 --> 09:24:55.080
Our hands, the eyes and the eyelids, and now back

3399
09:24:55.160 --> 09:25:00.160
of the neck talk of about.

3400
09:25:02.239 --> 09:25:05.639
The bat, the rest of the body seems to just

3401
09:25:07.040 --> 09:25:16.879
take notice and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

3402
09:25:18.680 --> 09:25:24.120
Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

3403
09:25:28.879 --> 09:25:31.680
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

3404
09:25:31.879 --> 09:25:36.599
you know, the little ball starts rolling and before you

3405
09:25:36.720 --> 09:25:38.440
know it, the whole of your body.

3406
09:25:38.279 --> 09:25:40.239
Is completely relaxed and cool.

3407
09:25:49.480 --> 09:25:57.040
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3408
09:25:57.120 --> 09:26:05.480
your eyes, the eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles.

3409
09:26:05.400 --> 09:26:14.760
Around your eyes. Maybe he started to notice that your

3410
09:26:14.839 --> 09:26:20.120
forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face

3411
09:26:20.279 --> 09:26:21.160
is more relaxed.

3412
09:26:23.879 --> 09:26:27.639
I would say, my entire face is a lot more

3413
09:26:27.720 --> 09:26:28.800
relaxed than was.

3414
09:26:40.120 --> 09:26:45.919
So we're going to focus now on your shoulders the game,

3415
09:26:46.120 --> 09:26:51.319
just like before, just to your shoulders. You can't do

3416
09:26:51.440 --> 09:26:53.800
them in the You can do the right shoulder and

3417
09:26:53.879 --> 09:26:54.519
with shoulder.

3418
09:26:56.080 --> 09:26:58.239
I just generally do both at the same time.

3419
09:27:00.279 --> 09:27:03.519
Just tell your shoulders as you focus on thee in

3420
09:27:03.599 --> 09:27:10.360
your mind, focus somehow you feel maybe you can see

3421
09:27:10.440 --> 09:27:12.080
them in your mind's eye.

3422
09:27:15.639 --> 09:27:21.680
Just tell your shoulders to relax.

3423
09:27:58.839 --> 09:28:12.040
As nice as they were acts but I didn't notice.

3424
09:28:13.720 --> 09:28:20.480
I mean, especially with my back, is the connection between

3425
09:28:20.680 --> 09:28:25.519
the different parts, the bank, the show bus, the neck

3426
09:28:31.080 --> 09:28:35.519
being all connected and being such a large part of

3427
09:28:35.599 --> 09:28:40.160
your body, it's always hard to.

3428
09:28:40.279 --> 09:28:41.879
Separate them from each other.

3429
09:28:47.360 --> 09:28:50.239
And my lower back is starting to relax on the saying,

3430
09:28:56.400 --> 09:29:01.000
maybe you're going too slow, and that could be.

3431
09:29:01.000 --> 09:29:07.319
An issue because we all go at different speeds and

3432
09:29:08.559 --> 09:29:11.680
the idea of giving that this recording was for you

3433
09:29:11.879 --> 09:29:18.480
to be able to just say to yourself, relax.

3434
09:29:26.319 --> 09:29:27.720
Without focusing on.

3435
09:29:27.919 --> 09:29:30.279
Any particular part of your body.

3436
09:29:32.519 --> 09:29:38.879
Because when you know that tenning your hands to relax

3437
09:29:42.639 --> 09:29:51.000
and your hands relax, you tell your eyelids and your eyes,

3438
09:29:51.879 --> 09:29:58.440
the muscles around your eyes and your eyebrows to relax.

3439
09:30:02.239 --> 09:30:22.080
They relates until I could your neck relax, relaxes.

3440
09:30:29.440 --> 09:30:57.239
Until you're up the back relates in different relaxes, until

3441
09:30:57.319 --> 09:30:58.720
your shoulders.

3442
09:31:00.120 --> 09:31:12.279
To relax, and they raxed.

3443
09:31:35.919 --> 09:31:40.000
You told your hands to relax, They relaxed, and they

3444
09:31:40.120 --> 09:31:43.199
continued to relax.

3445
09:31:49.279 --> 09:31:50.760
You told your eyes its.

3446
09:31:53.040 --> 09:31:57.919
The muscles round your eyes, mine grows to relax.

3447
09:32:00.040 --> 09:32:07.680
They relaxed. The toteen to relax.

3448
09:32:14.040 --> 09:32:17.639
When you're told at the back of your neck, on

3449
09:32:17.760 --> 09:32:18.760
the back of your neck.

3450
09:32:22.239 --> 09:32:23.720
And told it to relax.

3451
09:32:28.000 --> 09:32:34.199
They relaxed and continued to relax.

3452
09:32:42.360 --> 09:32:51.440
And you told you I'll be back to relax. The relaxed,

3453
09:32:52.080 --> 09:33:05.599
the continued to relax. That's with your shoulders.

3454
09:33:08.199 --> 09:33:16.319
Tell your shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed and to.

3455
09:33:22.160 --> 09:33:22.599
Relax.

3456
09:33:28.239 --> 09:33:33.199
And it's not just that, it's.

3457
09:33:35.879 --> 09:33:42.040
But the rest of your body's also been listening, and

3458
09:33:42.239 --> 09:33:48.480
that relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes the

3459
09:33:48.639 --> 09:33:56.680
relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face, into your skin,

3460
09:33:57.879 --> 09:34:09.919
into your paw, into the front of the side of

3461
09:34:10.040 --> 09:34:15.080
the neck. Only damn chest and storing.

3462
09:34:21.720 --> 09:34:24.319
Lapsed the hands and shoulders.

3463
09:34:25.599 --> 09:34:26.319
And the tap.

3464
09:34:27.680 --> 09:34:37.319
For yours rent top no bads wrists.

3465
09:34:40.919 --> 09:34:41.440
Let you do.

3466
09:34:49.279 --> 09:34:50.080
Know a bad.

3467
09:34:53.519 --> 09:34:59.599
Hips that exploy. Just start to the nex.

3468
09:35:00.440 --> 09:35:08.080
Yeah, spreading through your legs.

3469
09:35:13.120 --> 09:35:21.760
The way down you go the top of your.

3470
09:35:21.839 --> 09:36:04.760
Feet, the sight, the bottoms, tools, and it's your body

3471
09:36:05.080 --> 09:36:21.400
rents is more to mind becomes slower. Peace of.

3472
09:36:29.400 --> 09:36:30.879
The point where.

3473
09:36:32.760 --> 09:36:51.559
If cheese the says.

3474
09:36:50.959 --> 09:36:54.440
He said to it the way.

3475
09:36:59.279 --> 09:37:01.800
Because it's I your mind.

3476
09:37:05.559 --> 09:37:49.080
Pays peaceful body teams. Thank you chteen.

3477
09:37:49.639 --> 09:37:52.000
What do you might say the word?

3478
09:37:53.480 --> 09:37:55.239
What do you say to yourself?

3479
09:37:57.800 --> 09:38:12.879
Yes, I see I need such just one just fight

3480
09:38:12.959 --> 09:38:13.720
the song.

3481
09:38:15.760 --> 09:38:40.319
Time saying the word nights it.

3482
09:38:46.919 --> 09:39:01.959
Sensentuals a complet spot lea say.

3483
09:39:11.639 --> 09:39:40.160
To m who just.

3484
09:39:42.040 --> 09:41:05.720
Tell yourself starting now Will nineteen ninety nineteen seventy six

3485
09:42:51.800 --> 09:45:47.800
Es attatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatt