July 8, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025

(no music) (10 hours) KARATE | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1389 | Jason Newland | 7th July 2025
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Hello, and welcome to jasonnew Land dot com. My name's

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close

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shop eyes. I'm here with little Vinnie. It's laying by

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my side, and I'm sitting in my well on the sofa.

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But it's basically it's it's a reclining sofa, but there's

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two parts that recline. I'm in one part that reclines,

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and he's next to me. So I'll give you I mean,

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this is going to be my days boring objects, but

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I'll give you an ud give you a little bit

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of an update on Uncle Sausages, my neighbor. Just let

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you know, I won't you know, I'm not going to

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talk about it for any length of time, but I'll

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just give you a basic update. So I'm still visiting

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him in hospital. He is now awaiting to find out

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if he's able to come home with some kind of

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care plan or whether he needs to go into a

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nursing home. So it's going to just you know, we're

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going to see I'm going to start clearing up his flat,

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not tidying up and cleaning it, making it a bit

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more ready if he does get the opportunity to return,

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and yeah, that's it. Really. I went there today, spoke

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to the pallative palliative nurse or palliative care nurse, spoke

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to the Oh do they call them therapist? Not universal,

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not unisex, you not ambilical. I'm trying to think what

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the name is. But basically, what they do is they

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check him, see what he's capable of physically, and to

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get a layer of the land. Really, I suppose. So

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hopefully he's been had those meetings today and I spoke

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to them this morning, but they're going to come back

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and see him later on in the day and I

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left just before one o'clock. So I'll give him a

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call tomorrow find out how he's getting on. It's not

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always easy to actually hear what he's saying because he

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wants to be private. So when he's talking to me

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about I guess serious things, he whispers and I can't

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hear him even in the hospital. I have to get

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really close to him because he talks so so quietly.

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So yeah, just just see, just wait and see tomorrow.

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Oh God, I will stop the ordering in a minute,

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don't I. Tomorrow I'll do a little bit on his flat.

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Just I want to organize some of his stuff. He's

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got lots of diaries from years ago. Some can put

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them into one drawer important stuff. Put all his letters

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into another place, you know, because there's things like darted

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all around the place. And might have to get rid

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of his chair in the setti. He needs a new chair.

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He needs a new bed. He hasn't slept in his

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bed for years, I don't think because it's I think

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it's broken, but he's been sleeping in his chair, which

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is also really really just it needs to be removed.

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He also needs a fridge because he hasn't got fridge.

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So there's a few little bits I need to try

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and organize for him. But I'll do it with him.

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I'm not just going to do it, you know myself.

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I'm gonna just confirm that that's what he wants as

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I go along. So I need to try and find

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him a fridge, freezer, a cheap one to put in

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his kitchen, and then once I've kind of tied it up,

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I'll then look at maybe trying to find him a chair,

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some kind of yeah, just some kind of chair that

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will be comfortable for him.

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Hmmm.

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It's going to be a bit weird though, because I

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don't know what he's gonna find comfortable, because it's not

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all not all chairs. It's nice to sit in the chair,

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isn't it first before buying it or you know, And

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it won't be a new chair, well it it live.

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It be a new chair which is cheap, like from

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Amazon or something. But then the problem with that is

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getting it into the flat though. The one he's got now,

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I'm not sure how he got it in cause it's

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quite a big thing. So I'm probably what I'll do

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is perhaps measure that chair and try and get one

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the same kind of size, perhaps from the second hand

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shop or something. And it's it's not gonna it's it's

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weird to say this, but it's not gonna be needed

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for long's it's weird to say that out loud. But

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and I'll ask him what he wants to do. He

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might want to buy a brand new chair, and I would,

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you know. Just one thinking of doing is if he

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does come out moving my TV into his flat so

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he has a big TV to watch because he loves

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watching sport, and I'll get all the sports packages that

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he wants that he needs so that he can pretty

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much watch whatever he wants, and he can still have

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his other TV there as well, which is very quite small,

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so he can watch I'd be like Granddad from Only

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Fools and Horses, I have more than one TV at

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the same time, so that might be something that he'd like.

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But I am thinking of doing that to moving my

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TV temporarily into his flat so he can watch the

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big TV. Get him a new chair or a second

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end chair, get him a new bed. Outside of that,

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it it's you know, it also depends what kind of

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bed he's gonna need, because at some point they're gonna

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need to have equipment in their hoists and he might

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have to have a special bed, you know. So it

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really I don't know at this point it's gonna it's

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it's just it's it's a guessing game at this point, really.

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But if he does come home rather than into a

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care home, then I'm gonna do everything I can to

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make it as comfortable and enjoyable, I suppose as possible

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so that you can have the best time. If that

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makes any sense, I don't know. It kind of makes

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sense when I say it out loud, but at the

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same time, it also seems like a ridiculous thing to say,

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just bearing considering the circumstances. I mean, but anyway, I'll

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do whatever I can to help. He did buy me.

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He bought me a sausage roll and a drink. Today

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we went into Costers and he brought his card down

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with him and he bought He sort of treated me,

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and he really felt good about it. He seemed to

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really be happy about that. And he brought me some chocolates,

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a couple of crunchy bars in wh Smith and he

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got himself a couple of chocolate bars. And he seemed

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in really good spirits today, really quite more energetic.

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Hmm.

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And another thing is we I said to him, well,

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you're gonna want to if you want to come home,

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then we've got to stop taking the lift and I

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have to start using the stairs now, because you need

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to prove to yourself as well as the people here, really,

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but you definitely need to prove to yourself that you

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can do the stairs. So we did walk up and

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down the stairs. It's only two little sets of stairs.

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I mean, there's probably there's more stairs here than it

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is in each little set, so there's probably one and

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a half the amount of stairs steps. So yeah, i'd

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say maybe fifty percent more steps than here. It's just

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not a lot. There's not a lot of steps here either.

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And he was cool and he did it fine. He's

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a little bit I think he's a bit unsteady on

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his feet anyway, just generally with age. It's a little bit.

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He's a little bit more careful than he used to be.

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But at the same time, I think because he's been

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off his feet pretty much, nearly solidly for over two weeks,

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he's you know, he hasn't had that circulation, that blood

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circulation and his legs that we all kind of get

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used to us, suppose when we're walking around a bit,

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and he's and plus he's on medication now, so yeah,

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it's just okay. I don't know how that's going to

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affect him, but it was. It was weird, weird figure

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we figured about it. It was pulling me out the

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way of people that were walking through. So he was.

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He was in a bit of a bossy mood today.

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It was funny. So yeah, that was quite good. I

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just figured, though, if you want to come home, you're

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gonna have to deal with the stairs, so we might

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as well do the stairs now. So when I see

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him next time I see him, we'll do the stairs again.

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If he's able to. I mean, I'm not I'm not

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forcing him. He can't force him to do anything. He

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only does what he wants to do. It just made sense,

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really to test it out for him. And I was

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there with him anyways, who wasn't going to fall? And

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there's there's a banister all the way around. See. Yeah,

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he had something for dinner today that was awful. It

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was really bad. It was just mush with It was

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supposed to be chicken and potatoes with gravy, and all

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you could see this is white stuff with gravy. And

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he'd had a hot sausage roll about an hour earlier,

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and he fowed me up later on, said, I'm so

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thankful we had that sausage roll, because at dinner was awful.

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And even the lady that delivered the sausage roll up

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the nights that delivered the meal, she bought the tray in,

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put it on to take the bedside table thing you

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know that they have, and and she she said to

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uncle sausages, She said, right, I don't know what you're

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going to think about this, really and she pulled the

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lid off because of a lot of metal lid thing

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pulled that off, the kind of things you see in

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like expensive restaurants that you pull it off. And she

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was on my laughing at the plate of the contents

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because she knew it was just wrong. She said, well,

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I'm allowed to be honest, like, wow, it was Yeah,

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it really wasn't good. I mean, I don't know what

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it tastes likes. I didn't eat it. It might have

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been fine, but if you yeah, it didn't look great.

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But then really, he's eating better than I am. He's

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getting he's eating four times a day, and they do

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have the calorie intake in the vitamins. They have it

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all very very well balanced meals as I don't know

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what they taste like. It's been a long time since

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I had a hospital food. I was twelve the last time.

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But yeah, I'll probably end up putting weight on. If

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I was eating four times a day cooked food. Well,

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I suppose breakfast is like cereal, but other than that

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it's cooked, and I was just sitting around or in bed,

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I'd probably put weight on. Yeah, probably, which in some

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situations is possibly needed with some people, perhaps putting a

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bit of weight on is a good thing, but it

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wouldn't be a good thing for me. I don't need

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extra weight. Of all the things I need, that's not

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at the top of the list right now. What else? Yeah,

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So that I sit. Really, I'm just waiting to see

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what happens, to find out what's happening with him. So

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at the moment, Uncle's Sausages is still in hospital, he's

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I realize this is going to sound weird, Like in

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most things I say, probably sound weird, but I kind

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of realized what it is about him that kind of

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grabs me a little bit emotionally. And I noticed this.

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I noticed this before, long before he was unwell, but

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I kind of ignored it. But what it is, he's

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got the same smile as my name. His eyes have

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the same smiley eyes as my name had. It's a weird,

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weird thing. I know they say smiling Irish eyes, smiling

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and that, but technically he's Scottish, but he's got the

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same kind of eyes as my name. It's it's weird,

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just as my name had. So maybe that's what it is.

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I kind of just west it looks at me the

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way my name used to look at me. You know

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that look was all of like, please leave me alone?

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Who are you? How did you get into my house?

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You know that that look? Stop eating all my biscuits? Right,

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So that's an update on there. I did a Q

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and A Friday, and I don't know if you realize,

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if you've listened to it or not, it was four

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four and a half hours long. The longest, Yeah, the

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longest recording I've ever done, I think, as in it

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was the whole episode was I think four nineteen minutes,

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nothing else added, just me doing the Q and A Friday.

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It's a long recording very much, so this will not

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be that. This will be a standard standard length recording. Oh,

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I think my I just did some laundry, did some

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laundry yesterday. I did some laundry, all my T shirts

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and my shirts and because I just kind of ran

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out because I didn't go in on Sunday, so I

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did them on Sunday. So I did my laundry. I've

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done my tracksuit bottoms because I've got seven pairs and underwear.

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I've done that now. So it's from the sounds of it,

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it's done. But it's weird because I'm sure, I only

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only put it on about an hour ago. It normally

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tastes longer than an hour to finish, but maybe not,

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maybe it was longer. Maybe Yeah, ah, because I think

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it's eight o'clock now and I put it on about

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quarter past six, so that I guess that would make sense.

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It's finished now, so I hang them up when I've

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done this, and that would pretty much be all the

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laundry've done now. And I told Uncle's Sausages that I

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was gonna to get some like start washing some of

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his stuff because he's got some clothes that have been

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in the closet for I don't know how long. So

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what I do is I sought through it and maybe

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wash it and just so it's there so when he

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comes back he can just choose to, you know, wear

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what he wants and it will be clean. So that's

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that's another thing I'll do. If we do that last, though,

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I'll leave that to the last last thing to do. Yeah. Yeah,

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he's got a brand new kitchen and they've got a

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brand new bathroom that he hasn't even seen yet, and

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he saw part of it because they were in the

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middle of doing it. I think they just finished the

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the first week he had the first week of doing

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the bathroom because they started on Tuesday and the Fridays

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when he went into hospital, and then he came back

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the next week doing stuff and they might have yeah,

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so they finished it last week. He didn't get to

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see the finished result. And he had a brand new

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kitchen done about two months ago, three months ago, and

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he's got new windows coming as well in the next

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few months. So it's hmmm, you need to get rid

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of that wallpaper. I'm not going to, but it's the

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war papers. I think the war paper was there before

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he moved in, because I think back in them days

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they didn't because when I moved in there everything was bare.

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You know, there's nothing in the walls. It was just

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white waves, no carpet, no furniture, which I think is

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standard anyway. But I think when he moved in, there

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was war paper already there and they just left the

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wallpaper as it was. And he's lived here for thirty years.

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I'm just thinking, imagine if that's me in twenty five

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years and I've got a neighbor coming into my flat

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looking for my stuff. I mean, I'm not looking for

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his stuff, but I had to look for something because

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he asked me to look for something. But I'm only

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in there because he asked me. I don't go into

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people's homes without them actually wanted me to do it,

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and I told him anytime I go in, I goes

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in there. Anytime I go in now and tell him

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and why. And he wanted me to look for some

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money because he had forty pound in cash he wanted

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me to get for him. It was in a I

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don't know where it was I found. I did find

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it in the end. But oh, I can hear a

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washing machine. It's doing the old tumble bit, you know,

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the like that is that the draining, draining the water out,

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something like that. I don't know, summit simula. Raining today

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was raining, proper raining. So I got a taxi there

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because it was raining. I just didn't want to get wet.

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But I got two buses back. So I got the

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busses back because I fortnight. This is just getting this

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is weird, Okay, this is this is just in trodding myself.

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Then the cost of a taxi to the hospital from

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where I live and back again, you know, so each

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journey either there or the journey back is around seventeen pound.

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At the weekend, it was more it's a Saturday, seventeen

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sixty and the other person wanted eighteen pound forty or something,

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so it varies on a Saturday. But I've just been

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given them twenty pound, you know, with a tip, twenty pound.

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And I've done that with every single taxi driver up

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till today. But today's taxi driver didn't want it. He

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wouldn't take it. So I was paying on a card

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and he said, no, it's seventeen pound and he wouldn't

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take a tip. He wasn't. He was like really friendly

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taxi driver, but he said he didn't want a tip.

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He didn't didn't. It's like, wow, okay, that was surprising

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because I've just automatically just said just take twenty pounds

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because just I don't know, it just seems the right

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thing to do. I'm not even going to work out

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how much. Oh Christine, just a big thank you to

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Christine for your PayPal gift. Thank you, thank you very much.

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I did send a message to you. Thank you. Well.

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Oh you know, as we again, a taxi towards the

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hospital went round a corner from where I lived, and

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the taxi slowed down, and this pigeon was in the

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middle of the road, just standing there looking at us.

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Had a right attitude, honestly, just like walked very slowly

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to the curb. Nothing wrong with it. It was just

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really like driver around me, Who do you think you are?

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I always here first. This is my manner, real, real

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attitude on it. This pigeon, It's like King of the

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Pigeons or something. Yeah, all right, I should do Monday's

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boring objects. I've only been talking for half an hour.

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I should get on of it, really shouldn't.

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I you.

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What have I not talked about though, because I've done

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so many of these, is there was so object that

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I've not talked about that maybe I could talk about.

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I'm going to talk about karate. I know I've talked

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about martial arts and different things I've done, but I

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want to talk about you. I wan to talk about karate,

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specifically the karate I did when I was at school

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and how I ended up doing it, and so I

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didn't do it for long, only a few years or

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cup two and a half years or something. But yeah,

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I'll go through that. Let's do that. Because I've never

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really I don't think I ever well, I probably have,

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but I don't recall going in depth into the karate situation,

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but saying that I probably have. But I'll do it

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again anyway. It'll be different this time. I'll be better.

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It'll be different. This time. It will work out. Okay,

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I've looked for my mistakes, so I don't actually remember

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which particularly year it was, but I'm guessing I was

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probably thirty. Yeah, thirty would be probably the age where

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I because I was in the Secredets from eleven to

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for about twelve and a half in fact, before I

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was eleven, and then I left there because I didn't

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like it, I started doing karate. So basically what happened

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is I was at school with my friend Stephan, and

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he was just saying, Oh, I'm going to go in tonight.

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I'm going to go and see the karate because his

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brother had started doing karate and loved it so and

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because his brother was so excited I think as Paul

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his name was. Because his brother was so excited enthusiastic

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in that, Stephan became a little bit interested because it

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was his younger brother that was doing it, like a

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year younger pretty much. So he said, I'm going to

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go because it was in a different high school to

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the one that we were going to. There was two

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high schools in that town. There was nothing at our

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high school those kind of sports or anything. I don't think, unless,

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of course there was. I don't think there was. There

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might have been. No. I think that I might have

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had judo there. I kind of wish i'd done judo

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as well. But hey, so it was on different nights

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of the week because karate was a Tuesday Thursday, and

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I think they had judo on Monday and Wednesday. So

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I said to Stephane Oi, Stephan, can I come along.

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All he was going to do is go there and

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just watch the evening. So his brother was already there.

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We rolled up. Unless we went I might have got

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a lift. I don't even know. I might have got

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a lift with him with his family and got dropped

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off there. Or I might have walked up there with

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him and his brother. I really am not sure. Or

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I might just rolled up on my own and him

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and his brother was already there. It's a little bit,

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but he did say it's okay for me to come along.

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I know, technically I could do what I wanted, but

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you know, it just seems a nice thing to do,

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just to say, you don't mind if I hang along,

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because I didn't. The thing is right, I wanted to

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do karate when I was a young kid, when I

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was younger, when I was like, I asked my dad

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and he said no, basically, and this is when I

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was twelve eleven. He said no. There was no ifs

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or buts, like nope. I don't know why, because he

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did judo when he was at school, so I don't

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know why he didn't want me to do martial arts. Anyway,

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at thirteen, I just did it. I didn't ask him.

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I just went along and he so. My friend Stephen

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was there. I still kind of remember it. We sat

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on these long do you know those long benches they're

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having gym gymnasiums. There are long seats like wooden, and

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maybe people sit on them when they're watching other people

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performing or whatever, doing football or whatever. I don't know,

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and sometimes you use them to jump over and stuff.

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I kind of can I know what I'm imagining in

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my head. I just don't know what the correct term

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is for them. Just benches probably probably they call them benches.

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And they were all stacked up on the well as

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you go into the door of the of the gym,

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because it was the big gym in the school. As

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you go into the doorway, on the left hand side

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was all the benches and the rest of the room,

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big old room was used for the karate. So me

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and Stephane were sitting on this on the benches, watching

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But I didn't even know whose brother was. I don't

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think I've ever met him before, even though I'd been

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to school with Stefann right from junior school, so I'd

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spent two years at junior school and then well was

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it what year would it be? Two thousand and No,

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not two thousand, well nineteen eighty No, nineteen seventy nine.

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So from nineteen seventy nine to nineteen eighty six I

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was at school with Stephan so I knew him that

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whole time, and I would say I was pretty good friends.

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We never hung out outside of school, but we always

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got on really well in school. It's just one of

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those things. So anyway, I went along with him. He

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was one of the toughest kids in the school in

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the year well, in fact, he probably I was best friends.

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I was good friends with two of the toughest kids,

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Carl and Stephan. They just happened to be I wasn't

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friends with them for that reason. They just one. I

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was one I was friends with because he was also

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in the I guess they used to call it the

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dances class, which was wrong. They shouldn't have done that.

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But we were taken out of Anyone that was disruptive

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or didn't do what they were supposed to do, or

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showed no sign of intelligence. In my case, was taken

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out of the normal classes and put into this special

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room with toys and stuff and we could just do

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whatever we wanted for a few hours, and we did

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do whatever we wanted. I mean, it's probably fair to

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say that we were going to do whatever we wanted anyway,

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but we got free reign to do that. And there

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was a probably about out of the whole year, Yeah,

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because I did it by year. I didn't have anyone

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in other years in now I don't think so. There's

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probably there might have been other people from other years,

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but this is in the first year. I think it

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only happened in the first year, so we had probably

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about I'm trying to remember the people. Mer her eight

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at least eight people that I could remember. There may

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have been sore. There's me. There was a pretty about

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eight maybe more of us, three girls and five boys,

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one two I don't know, maybe four boys. So there

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was about eight, maybe a little bit more. And so

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I got to know these people separately from the rest

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of the year. And because they were the well I

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say they, but they kind of were the most the

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biggest trouble makers. Technically they're all okay actually, but they

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because they didn't go along with what they were supposed

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to go along with. They were classes the rough kids,

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and but they weren't really they were tough, but they

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were just just kids just like me. And so I

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was in that group. So I got to know that

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I kind of became part of that group. It's the

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only group I really became part of. But that was

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just for the first year, and after that we all

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kind of separated, but still, you know, knew each other

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and I knew them, and some of them had known

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from junior school. Anyway, anyway, what was my point mentioning that?

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Oh yeah, just there was a point too, I can't remember.

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So I went to anyway, Stephan, I went to this

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to the Crier Club. It was either Tuesday or or

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a Thursday evening, and I think it was seven till nine.

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I think, or it might have been seven point thirty

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till nine. I don't recall if it was summer or winter,

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or spring or autumn. I don't know. It wouldn't have

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00:38:26.079 --> 00:38:28.880
been summer because they closed during the summer. When the

472
00:38:28.920 --> 00:38:34.280
school was closed, no karate, which meant we would train

473
00:38:34.800 --> 00:38:37.639
in a park. We'd all meet up and train in

474
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:46.079
the park and stuff. And also half term it was

475
00:38:46.079 --> 00:38:49.400
always nice to have a break, you know, have a

476
00:38:49.400 --> 00:38:58.920
bit of a break from it all. Yeah, so I

477
00:38:59.039 --> 00:39:04.320
was there. What was weird is, first of all, I

478
00:39:04.360 --> 00:39:07.760
was impressed. I mean, I supoke. It's obvious cause I

479
00:39:08.639 --> 00:39:12.559
went back, but I was really impressed at what I saw.

480
00:39:13.519 --> 00:39:17.639
But I also found it funny because there was a

481
00:39:17.719 --> 00:39:23.280
really tough kid there who was the toughest kid in

482
00:39:23.320 --> 00:39:27.239
the year below us. But he was known for every

483
00:39:27.400 --> 00:39:33.760
everyone was kind of he was. It was like a

484
00:39:33.800 --> 00:39:37.639
little Mike Tyson. That's before Mike Tyson was even famous,

485
00:39:38.559 --> 00:39:42.400
you know, so he was he was doing that. It

486
00:39:42.480 --> 00:39:50.360
was basically a little bit of a terror. And so

487
00:39:50.559 --> 00:39:53.000
this would be in probably the third year school, so

488
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:57.360
I'd known him for a couple of years or whatever,

489
00:40:02.440 --> 00:40:06.480
and he was there and he looked silly because he

490
00:40:06.599 --> 00:40:08.400
was just starting out, so we didn't know what he

491
00:40:08.440 --> 00:40:11.440
was doing. So I so used to him walking around

492
00:40:11.599 --> 00:40:17.519
flexing his muscles and trying to be a bully boy.

493
00:40:18.719 --> 00:40:24.280
And I saw him and he couldn't even punch properly

494
00:40:25.360 --> 00:40:27.960
in karate. I knew he could punch properly because I'd

495
00:40:27.960 --> 00:40:30.239
seen him, but he was more of a boxer. But

496
00:40:30.440 --> 00:40:33.480
the fact he was doing that, and I just it

497
00:40:33.480 --> 00:40:37.199
was quite amusing. And there's no reason why he would

498
00:40:37.239 --> 00:40:40.159
be any good because he was just starting, and no

499
00:40:40.199 --> 00:40:42.519
one's any good when they just start unless they've done

500
00:40:42.519 --> 00:40:46.679
it before. But it was quite I don't know, just

501
00:40:47.039 --> 00:40:50.000
I found it. It tickled me a little bit. I

502
00:40:50.039 --> 00:40:59.480
didn't tell him because because I'm not silly anyway, he

503
00:40:59.519 --> 00:41:04.039
didn't say it, but he went along. He was best

504
00:41:04.039 --> 00:41:08.920
friends with Stephan's brother, who was also one of the

505
00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:14.239
tough kids. The thing is with Stephan and his brother,

506
00:41:15.159 --> 00:41:20.920
they were tough, but they didn't act tough. They were

507
00:41:20.960 --> 00:41:25.280
almost like adults around kids, you know. They just didn't

508
00:41:25.320 --> 00:41:31.159
take any rubbish, and they they were very physically mature.

509
00:41:32.880 --> 00:41:37.360
They were literally like physically adults before most of the

510
00:41:37.400 --> 00:41:44.760
other kids were, and they were both be glad and

511
00:41:45.320 --> 00:41:49.320
they had their mentality was also quite adult as well,

512
00:41:50.280 --> 00:41:54.199
so they weren't really like kids. He was never Stephan

513
00:41:54.400 --> 00:41:57.360
was never like a kid really. He was also really

514
00:41:57.519 --> 00:42:01.039
always had his head on his shoulders, was very mature.

515
00:42:01.559 --> 00:42:04.440
We used to have a good old laugh. But at

516
00:42:04.440 --> 00:42:09.239
the same time he was very intelligent, as his brother

517
00:42:09.400 --> 00:42:12.800
was as well. They sort of they knew what they

518
00:42:12.840 --> 00:42:18.000
wanted to do. And yeah, I remember one once. I

519
00:42:18.119 --> 00:42:25.840
was in the school yard and the year below, so

520
00:42:26.000 --> 00:42:29.719
not the year below me, but the year below him.

521
00:42:29.840 --> 00:42:33.079
So two years below this kid who was the toughest

522
00:42:33.119 --> 00:42:35.599
kid in that year and also one of the toughest

523
00:42:35.679 --> 00:42:38.480
kids in the school, they gained another big one and

524
00:42:38.480 --> 00:42:41.679
grew bigger than everyone else in that he jumped on

525
00:42:41.800 --> 00:42:48.159
me and pinned me to the ground. To the ground. Now,

526
00:42:48.199 --> 00:42:51.760
this is where me and Stephan's brother and Stephan we

527
00:42:51.760 --> 00:42:55.960
were doing karate. At this point Stephane had left, so

528
00:42:56.119 --> 00:42:59.280
I got to know his brother really well from the karate.

529
00:43:01.159 --> 00:43:04.760
So this lad jumped on me and pinned my arms

530
00:43:04.800 --> 00:43:11.719
down and like I probably didn't weigh more than eight

531
00:43:11.840 --> 00:43:15.800
stone at the time. If that, he probably weighed about

532
00:43:18.920 --> 00:43:26.599
twelve thirteen stone. Probably he was a big, big, strong lad. Yeah,

533
00:43:26.760 --> 00:43:30.079
at least twelve stone, at least four stone heavyer than me.

534
00:43:33.360 --> 00:43:35.239
And I didn't know what to do. I mean, I

535
00:43:35.239 --> 00:43:37.920
could like because I was in shock, because I didn't

536
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:40.159
know who was going to do it. No one had

537
00:43:40.199 --> 00:43:43.480
ever done that to me before, I don't think, not

538
00:43:43.639 --> 00:43:51.559
recently anyway, And I'm like, oh, and then out of

539
00:43:51.559 --> 00:43:53.960
the corner of my eye, well, actually I was gonna say,

540
00:43:53.960 --> 00:43:55.480
I heard out the corner of my eye. You can't

541
00:43:55.559 --> 00:43:57.920
hear out of your eye, can you? Not? Even the

542
00:43:57.960 --> 00:44:03.960
corner his voice, And it was Stephan's brother that I

543
00:44:04.000 --> 00:44:06.800
was at Krete with. He just shouted out, get off

544
00:44:06.840 --> 00:44:10.639
him now, and he did. He just stood up, sorry

545
00:44:11.760 --> 00:44:14.840
and ran off. And that was the toughest kid in

546
00:44:14.880 --> 00:44:20.159
the whole of his year. But as soon as Paul

547
00:44:20.320 --> 00:44:25.760
said get off him, he did. It was weird, It's like,

548
00:44:27.000 --> 00:44:30.440
and both of them were younger than me, but I

549
00:44:30.679 --> 00:44:38.800
was like a little kid. I was so underdeveloped in

550
00:44:38.840 --> 00:44:43.239
a sense. When I left school at fifteen, I was

551
00:44:44.039 --> 00:44:46.920
eight and a half stone. I don't know what that

552
00:44:47.039 --> 00:44:51.960
is in pounds or kilos, but I do know what

553
00:44:51.960 --> 00:44:57.880
it is, Roughly in kilos, it's about fifty kilos ish.

554
00:44:58.400 --> 00:45:03.760
Sixteen stone is around one hundred kilos ish. So I

555
00:45:03.840 --> 00:45:06.800
was around like, I don't know, forty eight kilos, maybe

556
00:45:07.800 --> 00:45:14.320
fifty kilos, which burned in mind. Technically I was an adult,

557
00:45:14.920 --> 00:45:17.119
and I was probably the same weight when I was

558
00:45:19.920 --> 00:45:24.119
sixteen seventeen. I might got I think I went up

559
00:45:24.159 --> 00:45:28.519
to about nine stone when I was about eighteen, like

560
00:45:28.599 --> 00:45:36.239
you know, so I was very light, really reached super slim,

561
00:45:36.519 --> 00:45:40.880
but naturally didn't matter. Whatever I ate didn't make a difference.

562
00:45:40.960 --> 00:45:45.039
I just was slim, you know, just the way it was.

563
00:45:46.480 --> 00:45:51.280
And I looked nothing like my dad physically, because my

564
00:45:51.400 --> 00:45:59.639
dad's strong, broad, big bloke always was. But then in

565
00:45:59.679 --> 00:46:06.920
older age, once I hit thirty, I kind of almost

566
00:46:06.960 --> 00:46:11.400
grew into my father, and now I got the same

567
00:46:11.480 --> 00:46:14.960
and shape body as him. It's weird, isn't it. I

568
00:46:15.000 --> 00:46:17.400
don't quite show how. It's like it was always there.

569
00:46:17.400 --> 00:46:21.360
I just didn't like the bones were there, but there

570
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:24.519
was no There was no fat. I didn't have any

571
00:46:24.519 --> 00:46:27.280
fat on me at all when I was in my twenties,

572
00:46:28.519 --> 00:46:31.599
which is probably a good thing. You know. My BMI

573
00:46:31.880 --> 00:46:43.480
was probably like minus zero fat and then thirty. Yeah,

574
00:46:43.559 --> 00:46:46.519
well that's that's a whole new ball game.

575
00:46:50.000 --> 00:46:50.480
Yeah.

576
00:46:51.880 --> 00:46:54.719
Anyway, so that was weird. So so I went to it.

577
00:46:54.800 --> 00:46:57.280
So I went there the very first night of karate.

578
00:46:58.760 --> 00:47:00.440
I fell in love with the place. I fell in

579
00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:06.519
love with everything about it. Bearing in mind, I've loved

580
00:47:06.559 --> 00:47:12.320
martial arts since I was a little kid, from age

581
00:47:12.360 --> 00:47:18.400
of seven, having that picture of Bruce Lee on my

582
00:47:18.559 --> 00:47:21.519
wall in my little room, my very first room I

583
00:47:21.559 --> 00:47:24.559
ever had of my own, and a picture of Bruce

584
00:47:24.639 --> 00:47:30.920
Lee from Met a Dragon. From that, you know, from

585
00:47:30.920 --> 00:47:34.000
that moment on, I had to discover who he was.

586
00:47:34.079 --> 00:47:41.079
And I loved martial arts and kung fu the TV

587
00:47:41.199 --> 00:47:45.400
show was on. I mean, that was probably the closest

588
00:47:45.400 --> 00:47:47.800
thing I really got to see martial arts at that time,

589
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.840
and there was very little kung fu in it, but

590
00:47:52.199 --> 00:47:54.840
when it was in it, it was the most exciting

591
00:47:54.840 --> 00:48:01.800
thing in the world. I loved it, absolutely loved it.

592
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:07.679
So I kind of just you know this, this was

593
00:48:07.719 --> 00:48:13.920
like I'm home, I'm home, baby. But at the same time,

594
00:48:14.079 --> 00:48:20.079
I was nervous because it's new, But I was less

595
00:48:20.159 --> 00:48:25.519
nervous because I was with Stephan and he was joining

596
00:48:25.559 --> 00:48:28.920
with me, so I was kind of okay with that

597
00:48:28.920 --> 00:48:31.920
because I wasn't on my own. So we both went

598
00:48:32.000 --> 00:48:34.960
back the next even if it was if it was

599
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:37.599
a Tuesday that we went, then we both went back

600
00:48:37.639 --> 00:48:41.719
on a Thursday night. If it was a Thursday night

601
00:48:41.760 --> 00:48:44.159
that we went to watch that, we both went back

602
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:49.800
on the following Tuesday night. And we just had some

603
00:48:49.880 --> 00:48:53.840
tracksuit bottoms and a T shirt. Because I don't give you.

604
00:48:53.840 --> 00:48:57.079
You don't get a gee straight away. You kind of

605
00:48:57.639 --> 00:48:59.480
see how you get on and if you do like it,

606
00:48:59.519 --> 00:49:05.000
then you pay. We paid Paul was his name, the

607
00:49:05.039 --> 00:49:13.039
sense at the teacher. He got the geys then across

608
00:49:13.199 --> 00:49:16.039
like twenty quid or fifteen cred or twelve quid, I

609
00:49:16.039 --> 00:49:19.440
don't know how much it was back then. And there'd

610
00:49:19.440 --> 00:49:23.000
be a white belt and a gee which was a

611
00:49:23.119 --> 00:49:27.440
white like white trousers and a white top made of

612
00:49:28.320 --> 00:49:33.280
flannel kind of material. I think it might not be flannel,

613
00:49:33.280 --> 00:49:39.079
but it was white. And I do actually, I do

614
00:49:39.920 --> 00:49:43.239
have a picture of myself in my g my karate

615
00:49:43.320 --> 00:49:54.119
costume from when I was fourteen. It's in a photograph

616
00:49:54.239 --> 00:50:00.719
album that my dad and stepmom put together few years

617
00:50:00.719 --> 00:50:04.880
back just before just yeah, about two thousand and twenty

618
00:50:04.920 --> 00:50:10.800
two and there's a picture of me. I might have

619
00:50:10.840 --> 00:50:22.559
even had my nunchucks on me possibly, Wow, So it's strange.

620
00:50:22.679 --> 00:50:24.519
There's also a picture of me in my CI Caredet

621
00:50:24.559 --> 00:50:30.360
costume as well. So that's the kind of I think

622
00:50:30.440 --> 00:50:33.880
my dad was. He liked me being in the cic Cadets.

623
00:50:37.239 --> 00:50:40.000
I don't think he was interested in me being in karate.

624
00:50:40.880 --> 00:50:43.960
It didn't really suit what he wanted for me. I don't.

625
00:50:44.239 --> 00:50:47.599
I don't quite know why. Actually, even as an adult,

626
00:50:47.880 --> 00:50:51.320
when I told him I've started doing kung fu or

627
00:50:52.000 --> 00:50:59.559
boxing or what did I do? Kind of remember what

628
00:50:59.559 --> 00:51:09.239
I've done? What did I do? Another thing I did?

629
00:51:09.239 --> 00:51:11.119
Like it's got out of my head now, but I've

630
00:51:11.119 --> 00:51:14.079
done a few different martial arts and stuff, and every

631
00:51:14.119 --> 00:51:15.480
time I told him, he's like, oh, what are you

632
00:51:15.480 --> 00:51:18.360
doing that for? Can you find something else a bit

633
00:51:18.440 --> 00:51:24.840
less violent? Like it's not violent, it's it's just fun

634
00:51:25.880 --> 00:51:30.400
kicking and punching is it's a sport. It's just controlled.

635
00:51:31.480 --> 00:51:34.880
And although I can't do it anymore, I can't do

636
00:51:34.960 --> 00:51:38.159
the kicking taekwon do. That's what I was trying to

637
00:51:38.199 --> 00:51:41.440
think of. That's the last thing I did, or I

638
00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:44.880
did try and give jiu jitsu a go. I just

639
00:51:44.920 --> 00:51:52.199
don't have the bending capacity to do that anymore. It's yeah,

640
00:51:52.239 --> 00:52:00.400
it's just not physically up my road anymore, unfortunately. But

641
00:52:00.440 --> 00:52:02.320
there still know a few little moves that I can

642
00:52:02.360 --> 00:52:06.840
do if needed. So I think, if anything, i'd like

643
00:52:06.960 --> 00:52:11.519
to if I was going to go back to something boxing.

644
00:52:13.159 --> 00:52:16.159
The problem is because of my age. It's not a

645
00:52:16.199 --> 00:52:19.760
problem for me because I know I can. I can't

646
00:52:19.800 --> 00:52:29.039
do all like the super exercisey bit cardiovascular. I could

647
00:52:29.079 --> 00:52:31.719
do some of it, but you know, that's something I

648
00:52:31.800 --> 00:52:34.639
kind of have to be careful with. Just take it easy,

649
00:52:34.880 --> 00:52:40.880
take it slowly. But punching a bag or punching someone

650
00:52:40.920 --> 00:52:43.960
with their holding the midst up and punching the pads

651
00:52:44.000 --> 00:52:50.440
and stuff is something that would be fun. But unfortunately,

652
00:52:51.159 --> 00:52:54.719
when I went to the the amateur boxing club in

653
00:52:54.760 --> 00:52:57.840
about two thousand and nine, when I was at university,

654
00:52:58.639 --> 00:53:01.119
I went along to the local AID, which is the

655
00:53:01.159 --> 00:53:08.039
Amateur Boxing Association. They let me go. I was pretty

656
00:53:08.119 --> 00:53:12.360
much the oldest person there. I was pretty much one

657
00:53:12.400 --> 00:53:15.519
of the only adults there, so that wasn't I didn't

658
00:53:15.599 --> 00:53:20.440
like that. Actually, I wanted to be around, not bothered

659
00:53:20.440 --> 00:53:23.639
that there was kids there, But I'd rather have adults

660
00:53:23.639 --> 00:53:29.239
around me, just because I just don't look so silly,

661
00:53:30.119 --> 00:53:34.719
you know, because if you've got adults doing martial arts,

662
00:53:34.800 --> 00:53:38.440
you don't have people watching, you don't have families watching.

663
00:53:40.480 --> 00:53:43.320
But because there's so many kids there, a lot of

664
00:53:43.320 --> 00:53:46.440
their parents were sitting in the sidelines watching, and I'm

665
00:53:46.480 --> 00:53:49.599
sure they were laughing at me. If they weren't, they

666
00:53:49.599 --> 00:53:53.159
should have been, because I'd have a T shirt on

667
00:53:53.360 --> 00:53:58.840
and within about five minutes it would be soaked through.

668
00:54:00.599 --> 00:54:02.840
I lost a bit away of doing it. I did

669
00:54:02.840 --> 00:54:09.480
put on some muscle in that, but I just absolutely soaked.

670
00:54:08.639 --> 00:54:14.239
And but I enjoyed it. But I kept injuring myself

671
00:54:16.199 --> 00:54:19.559
they wouldn't let me spa That's the thing that kind

672
00:54:19.599 --> 00:54:22.079
of annoyed me a little bit. And I understand, of

673
00:54:22.079 --> 00:54:24.559
course I'm not going to spire a little kid, but

674
00:54:25.679 --> 00:54:28.639
a lot of those kids, especially something were as big

675
00:54:28.679 --> 00:54:32.119
as I was or tall wise, anyway, they would have

676
00:54:32.119 --> 00:54:33.960
just boxed my head off. I wouldn't have stood a

677
00:54:34.039 --> 00:54:38.000
chance because they were just out boxed me. I wouldn't

678
00:54:38.000 --> 00:54:43.519
be able to catch them, even though because I was

679
00:54:43.599 --> 00:54:49.519
too old, I wasn't allowed legally for them to be sparring,

680
00:54:50.840 --> 00:54:55.239
and I'd been okay just to stand there and not

681
00:54:55.360 --> 00:54:58.119
do anything, just move around the ring and block the

682
00:54:58.159 --> 00:55:01.320
punches if I could, and not throw many punches, just

683
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:04.440
to be a target almost that would have been fun

684
00:55:04.480 --> 00:55:08.920
for me. But they didn't even do that. And that's

685
00:55:09.000 --> 00:55:11.920
quite a good opportunity, isn't it to have have someone

686
00:55:12.079 --> 00:55:14.880
running jumping around. Because there was some lads there that

687
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:18.119
were much bigger than me, like six six two six

688
00:55:18.280 --> 00:55:26.079
three on five eight, so you know, technically, and they

689
00:55:26.079 --> 00:55:29.679
add something with young sort of late teens that were,

690
00:55:31.119 --> 00:55:35.239
you know, really cool adults really, so I could have

691
00:55:36.239 --> 00:55:38.960
happily just got in the ring with them and danced

692
00:55:38.960 --> 00:55:41.760
around a little bit and tried to avoid them punching me.

693
00:55:42.920 --> 00:55:44.400
I don't I'm not saying I wanted to be a

694
00:55:44.400 --> 00:55:48.199
punch bag, but it would have been a bit of fun,

695
00:55:53.440 --> 00:55:56.320
I don't know, just stuff. But they wouldn't wouldn't let me,

696
00:55:59.320 --> 00:56:04.440
And that's really I mean. I think if anyone goes

697
00:56:04.480 --> 00:56:09.480
to boxing, anyone starts boxing, I think they're probably telling

698
00:56:09.519 --> 00:56:11.800
FIBs if they say that they don't care whether or

699
00:56:11.840 --> 00:56:17.000
not they get to spa. I think most people that

700
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:19.800
go to boxing want to spa. It's kind of the

701
00:56:19.840 --> 00:56:25.960
point of the whole thing is being able to put

702
00:56:26.000 --> 00:56:34.119
it into action in a safe environment. And I didn't

703
00:56:34.119 --> 00:56:38.239
get a chance, mind you. I did do boxing when

704
00:56:38.239 --> 00:56:40.440
I was at school for the thing. I went once

705
00:56:40.559 --> 00:56:45.719
or twice, and they didn't have any rules. There was

706
00:56:45.800 --> 00:56:49.320
like a few sit ups, few press ups, go on

707
00:56:49.360 --> 00:56:51.840
the punch bag, and then start sparring with each other.

708
00:56:52.840 --> 00:56:55.079
And I ended up with this. Bearing in mind, I

709
00:56:55.119 --> 00:56:58.480
was like quite little. I ended up with someone that

710
00:56:58.679 --> 00:57:05.039
was probably a good six six for six two and

711
00:57:05.519 --> 00:57:10.239
twice twice my height and twice my weight rather and

712
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:12.920
it just kept punching me in the head like I

713
00:57:12.960 --> 00:57:17.960
couldn't like, can you just stop punching me please, which,

714
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:20.199
of course you can't really say when it comes down

715
00:57:20.239 --> 00:57:23.760
to boxing, please stop that. Could you just stop, give

716
00:57:23.800 --> 00:57:26.400
me a chance let me punch you, because it wouldn't

717
00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:32.639
so it can't put me off a little bit. Why

718
00:57:32.679 --> 00:57:37.239
did you stop doing boxing? Kept punching me? Yeah, pretty much.

719
00:57:41.480 --> 00:57:41.559
So.

720
00:57:41.679 --> 00:57:44.880
I can't remember the first time I went to karate

721
00:57:45.360 --> 00:57:50.679
as in the first lesson, but I know that I

722
00:57:50.719 --> 00:57:56.039
went every single Tuesday and Thursday. I had a pay

723
00:57:56.159 --> 00:58:00.960
per round. I think I had an early morning paper

724
00:58:01.039 --> 00:58:05.400
round at this point, so that's what paid for the

725
00:58:05.480 --> 00:58:15.760
karate and a few things, a few standout moments of

726
00:58:15.920 --> 00:58:20.880
going to that create club during those years. The first

727
00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:26.280
thing is every single grading I attended, I got a

728
00:58:26.360 --> 00:58:31.679
first class pass and that isn't the highest you can

729
00:58:31.840 --> 00:58:36.559
skip a grade. That's what Stephan's brother because we both

730
00:58:36.599 --> 00:58:42.360
had our first Yeah, we both had our first grade

731
00:58:42.400 --> 00:58:45.239
in at the same time because he had literally just started,

732
00:58:45.679 --> 00:58:50.639
I think the week before I did, and he skipped

733
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:52.960
right away through to the next belt because he was

734
00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:56.400
so good straight away. But I did get a first

735
00:58:56.400 --> 00:59:01.880
class passed, so that was okay. The weird thing about

736
00:59:01.920 --> 00:59:04.440
it though, because we did I did I think two

737
00:59:04.679 --> 00:59:11.480
possibly three contests competitions, and I didn't win. I I

738
00:59:11.519 --> 00:59:15.760
didn't win any awards or any prizes, but I did

739
00:59:15.760 --> 00:59:24.079
win a couple of fights. The like Stephan's brother, he

740
00:59:24.280 --> 00:59:29.440
was bearing in mind he was yeah, he was fourteen,

741
00:59:29.679 --> 00:59:33.079
so it was younger than me, so thirteen, let's say

742
00:59:33.800 --> 00:59:37.800
it's thirteen years old. They put him in with another

743
00:59:37.840 --> 00:59:48.239
thirteen year old. The size difference was ridiculous, and the

744
00:59:49.079 --> 00:59:53.639
other kid just started crying and there was a lot

745
00:59:53.639 --> 00:59:58.599
of cafore before kafore whatever about it? Parents saying, what

746
00:59:58.679 --> 01:00:00.599
have you put my kid in with a adult for

747
01:00:01.559 --> 01:00:03.599
and all this stuff, and they said, he's not an adult.

748
01:00:03.599 --> 01:00:08.519
It's thirteen. He can't be thirteen. He's bigger than me,

749
01:00:09.800 --> 01:00:14.880
and there was all that, but he was thirteen. I

750
01:00:14.920 --> 01:00:18.599
think it's a little They should have weight categories. They

751
01:00:18.599 --> 01:00:22.039
were just doing it by age. But with adults they

752
01:00:22.119 --> 01:00:24.280
do it by weight. With the kids, they were just

753
01:00:24.280 --> 01:00:27.440
doing it by age. That was a little bit didn't

754
01:00:27.440 --> 01:00:32.679
really seem very fair to put someone who probably weighed well,

755
01:00:34.719 --> 01:00:38.000
this thirteen year old he probably it was about my

756
01:00:38.119 --> 01:00:41.280
size because I was about the size of a thirteen

757
01:00:41.320 --> 01:00:45.280
year old, so it's about my size. So it's a

758
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:49.119
lot littler than this other kid who was probably at

759
01:00:49.199 --> 01:00:52.199
that time twelve stone if not more.

760
01:00:54.920 --> 01:00:55.000
So.

761
01:00:55.199 --> 01:00:59.679
Yeah, he won, he won his category, but there was

762
01:00:59.679 --> 01:01:08.119
a lot of a lot of neshing of teeth. He

763
01:01:08.199 --> 01:01:14.239
won a trophy. He was just naturally good. He just

764
01:01:14.519 --> 01:01:20.559
he took to it so quickly. It was, yeah, it's

765
01:01:20.679 --> 01:01:26.719
very very good. Stephan. He stayed for a while and

766
01:01:26.760 --> 01:01:30.280
then he stopped going. I never really he just I

767
01:01:30.320 --> 01:01:32.000
don't think he didn't want to do it anymore. He'd

768
01:01:32.039 --> 01:01:35.800
lost interest, which is, you know, I was still friends

769
01:01:35.840 --> 01:01:38.519
with him. I just but I liked it when he

770
01:01:38.599 --> 01:01:42.119
was coming because during break times we were practiced doing

771
01:01:42.199 --> 01:01:45.480
karate with each other, going down the hallway. And a

772
01:01:45.480 --> 01:01:47.719
good thing about it is if I'd have done it,

773
01:01:47.719 --> 01:01:51.000
if anyone else, I could have had other lads coming

774
01:01:51.079 --> 01:01:53.360
up to me and give me a hard time. Because

775
01:01:53.400 --> 01:01:55.280
I was doing it the toughest kid in one of

776
01:01:55.320 --> 01:01:57.440
the toughest kids in the school, and the toughest kid

777
01:01:57.519 --> 01:02:00.280
in the year. No one gave us a hard time,

778
01:02:01.079 --> 01:02:03.320
so it was quite cool. So we were like kicking each

779
01:02:03.320 --> 01:02:07.519
other and blocking and running around and it was brilliant.

780
01:02:08.599 --> 01:02:12.280
And then he stopped. He stopped going. It's not about

781
01:02:12.320 --> 01:02:16.199
being me embarrassing him or something. I don't know, so,

782
01:02:18.159 --> 01:02:20.679
but you know, we're still still friends. It just he

783
01:02:20.760 --> 01:02:23.599
didn't want to go anymore. So I continued because I

784
01:02:23.840 --> 01:02:30.000
loved karate. It was my life. Within a week, it

785
01:02:30.119 --> 01:02:37.280
was my entire life. There was nothing more important than

786
01:02:37.360 --> 01:02:42.920
karate to me in the entire world. Everything else was

787
01:02:43.079 --> 01:02:49.360
just in the background, a bit of a blur. And

788
01:02:50.599 --> 01:02:58.239
it was my new special interest above everything else. My

789
01:02:58.440 --> 01:03:07.039
previous special interest was I was very, very into this

790
01:03:07.119 --> 01:03:09.119
is going to sound a bit weird, bearing in mind

791
01:03:09.199 --> 01:03:14.079
I was like eleven. I didn't I never liked the Seecredts.

792
01:03:15.000 --> 01:03:19.280
I just went there when I was ten because I

793
01:03:19.360 --> 01:03:21.880
was there before. I wasn't even old enough to be there,

794
01:03:22.039 --> 01:03:24.400
but they let me go along because there was only

795
01:03:24.400 --> 01:03:30.239
a couple of months before my eleventh birthday, and I

796
01:03:30.320 --> 01:03:32.639
just didn't want to go home. I just wanted to

797
01:03:32.679 --> 01:03:36.320
go somewhere else. So me and my friend went there

798
01:03:36.360 --> 01:03:39.280
and we joined up, and it was just nice to

799
01:03:40.519 --> 01:03:45.360
I was never really particularly good at fitting in, and

800
01:03:46.360 --> 01:03:51.360
I think when you join a group, even if you

801
01:03:51.400 --> 01:03:53.840
don't fit in, you are still part of the group.

802
01:03:54.800 --> 01:03:57.679
So you might be like an odd ball in the group.

803
01:03:57.800 --> 01:04:00.239
Or made the same me I taught about myself. I

804
01:04:00.280 --> 01:04:04.480
was an odd ball in the Cycadets, but I was

805
01:04:04.519 --> 01:04:11.280
still one of them. I still wore to CEC that uniform. Yeah,

806
01:04:11.280 --> 01:04:17.320
that motorbike is in the garden just behind us. Way

807
01:04:17.360 --> 01:04:21.079
too late. Was it nearly nine o'clock? It's quarter past nine?

808
01:04:22.360 --> 01:04:26.960
A motorbike. I never used to be this mooning, you know,

809
01:04:27.320 --> 01:04:33.760
I didn't, So I think that's part of the reason.

810
01:04:34.039 --> 01:04:36.239
Another reason I kind of I didn't like it, but

811
01:04:36.360 --> 01:04:40.480
I felt a part of something when I was in

812
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:43.440
the Cycadets, as I did want to join the karate club.

813
01:04:45.719 --> 01:04:51.800
I preferred the karate club membership side of it because

814
01:04:52.559 --> 01:04:56.639
I was around adults as well as kids, and I

815
01:04:56.760 --> 01:05:00.880
respected all of the adults well, apart from one who

816
01:05:01.119 --> 01:05:03.599
he wasn't he was an adult. He was probably eighteen,

817
01:05:04.400 --> 01:05:10.280
but he was. It was a bit of a div really,

818
01:05:10.599 --> 01:05:13.480
that's a nice word for him. He used to try

819
01:05:13.519 --> 01:05:16.679
and bully me when we were sparring. He'd kicked me

820
01:05:16.800 --> 01:05:20.719
and he was like good six foot five, like really tall,

821
01:05:21.679 --> 01:05:24.559
and he was a brown belt, so he got his

822
01:05:24.599 --> 01:05:27.639
black belt as well, so he was very really good

823
01:05:28.400 --> 01:05:30.079
at what he did. He was one of the top

824
01:05:30.639 --> 01:05:33.800
karate people in there. But for some reason he enjoyed

825
01:05:35.159 --> 01:05:39.079
kicking me over on the floor and I got a

826
01:05:39.079 --> 01:05:43.559
bit fed up with it, so I just I started

827
01:05:43.599 --> 01:05:47.760
hurting him. What do you mean you hurt him? I

828
01:05:47.800 --> 01:05:51.119
mean he was so big. So the good thing about

829
01:05:51.119 --> 01:05:54.800
it is I could punch him in the stomach and

830
01:05:55.039 --> 01:05:58.760
accidentally miss his stomach and he'd be on the floor.

831
01:05:59.800 --> 01:06:02.800
So I did that a few times, or i'd hurt

832
01:06:02.800 --> 01:06:06.639
his leg and he started to kind of back down

833
01:06:06.679 --> 01:06:09.280
a little bit with me. He didn't sort of take

834
01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:13.360
so many liberties, as it were, but he seemed to

835
01:06:13.400 --> 01:06:16.079
really enjoy just tripping me up and kicking me over,

836
01:06:16.159 --> 01:06:18.519
and no one else did that. It was the only

837
01:06:18.599 --> 01:06:21.920
person who did it. Everyone else treated me with respect,

838
01:06:22.920 --> 01:06:30.239
including the adults. They always like the the instructor. He

839
01:06:30.280 --> 01:06:34.159
seemed to really like me, and it pushed me, but

840
01:06:34.239 --> 01:06:37.840
it would never ever hurt me. Let's face it, he

841
01:06:37.880 --> 01:06:40.480
could in a second have hurt me, but he didn't.

842
01:06:42.679 --> 01:06:46.000
And that's I respected that because that's kind of what

843
01:06:46.039 --> 01:06:48.679
I think the other lad should have done because he

844
01:06:48.719 --> 01:06:52.719
was an adult compared to me. It was eighteen, so

845
01:06:52.840 --> 01:06:55.760
technic key, I suppose he was an adult. He was

846
01:06:55.800 --> 01:06:59.559
in sixth form college, I think, or maybe left left

847
01:06:59.599 --> 01:07:04.679
his left sixth form college. I don't know, but he

848
01:07:04.800 --> 01:07:07.480
was just yeah, but I don't think he did it

849
01:07:07.519 --> 01:07:11.280
with anyone else. I don't know. Maybe he fancied me,

850
01:07:11.360 --> 01:07:16.239
I don't know, who knows. Maybe he's a way of flirting.

851
01:07:18.000 --> 01:07:21.119
But yeah, that's a few low punches and that kind

852
01:07:21.119 --> 01:07:24.800
of sort of down. I'd say a few, quite a few.

853
01:07:28.079 --> 01:07:38.280
Oh I did it again? Sorry, hmmm. I a few

854
01:07:38.320 --> 01:07:47.639
standout moments. Nice memories would be when one of the

855
01:07:47.679 --> 01:07:50.840
older men, I say older, it was old to me,

856
01:07:51.039 --> 01:07:57.280
probably in his twenties, to be fair, it's probably yeah, twenties. Yeah,

857
01:07:57.320 --> 01:08:03.039
in his twenties. I thought he was like old. Maybe

858
01:08:03.079 --> 01:08:08.000
he was late twenties. He was getting married, and he

859
01:08:08.119 --> 01:08:12.760
asked me and another of the young ones like me

860
01:08:13.639 --> 01:08:19.520
to go to his wedding in our Geese course, you know,

861
01:08:19.600 --> 01:08:24.479
karate uniforms, and stand as they walked out of the

862
01:08:24.560 --> 01:08:31.399
church after getting married. So we were standing outside. They

863
01:08:31.439 --> 01:08:37.680
had a cameraman filming or yeah, or taking pictures or whatever.

864
01:08:38.319 --> 01:08:43.520
As the newly married couple came out, and me and

865
01:08:43.560 --> 01:08:49.039
another lad were holding the swords above basically at the

866
01:08:49.239 --> 01:08:53.279
entrance or the exit of the church, just high enough

867
01:08:53.279 --> 01:08:57.840
so they could just walk through, of course, And I

868
01:08:58.319 --> 01:09:01.359
found it funny. For all, if I slip cut his

869
01:09:01.439 --> 01:09:04.600
head off, that would be funny. It won't go down

870
01:09:04.720 --> 01:09:09.279
very well. But it didn't happen, clearly, Otherwise I probably wouldn't.

871
01:09:09.880 --> 01:09:14.680
My whole life would have been different, wouldn't it. But

872
01:09:15.279 --> 01:09:18.359
how amazing. I'd love to see that picture. I never

873
01:09:18.399 --> 01:09:21.039
got to see the picture unless I did, and I forgot,

874
01:09:21.079 --> 01:09:25.920
and I got to see it. How cool is that?

875
01:09:27.960 --> 01:09:32.079
Got to just be a how many people get married

876
01:09:32.079 --> 01:09:36.119
and walk out to two people holding swords? I mean,

877
01:09:36.119 --> 01:09:39.239
I suppose the royal family do. But yeah, it was

878
01:09:39.479 --> 01:09:45.680
really cool and it was just really It was also

879
01:09:45.760 --> 01:09:50.039
cool that he asked me and the other lad I

880
01:09:50.920 --> 01:09:55.640
forget who it was, but just like out of all

881
01:09:55.680 --> 01:09:59.920
of us, I got to do it. So cool. Honestly,

882
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.079
it was brilliant. And I think I used to go

883
01:10:05.319 --> 01:10:08.479
up to the cry contests with him, so I suppose

884
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:12.000
you got to know me a little bit. What else?

885
01:10:16.000 --> 01:10:18.680
I used to love the sparring Apart from with that,

886
01:10:19.000 --> 01:10:24.960
you know, the big lanky, six foot nine bully boy,

887
01:10:25.119 --> 01:10:30.199
I didn't enjoy that, but everyone else I enjoyed sparring with.

888
01:10:31.319 --> 01:10:33.840
It was fun. I loved the sparring. That was kind

889
01:10:33.840 --> 01:10:37.680
of the whole point really is to practice what you're learning,

890
01:10:37.880 --> 01:10:40.560
is practice the blocking and the kicking and a punch

891
01:10:40.640 --> 01:10:50.279
in the sweeping and all that stuff. And we sparred

892
01:10:50.399 --> 01:10:54.680
every single time. So half the night or half the

893
01:10:54.720 --> 01:10:59.720
evening was based on practicing drills, practicing not drills as

894
01:10:59.760 --> 01:11:04.880
in not that kind of drill, and practicing the form,

895
01:11:05.000 --> 01:11:09.880
practicing kicks, punches, stuff like that. And then the next

896
01:11:09.880 --> 01:11:13.119
part of the evening was spiring, so it would all

897
01:11:13.199 --> 01:11:16.239
stand up in a line facing each other, so that

898
01:11:16.399 --> 01:11:19.079
if there was like there's twenty of us, there'd be

899
01:11:19.439 --> 01:11:25.680
one line of ten people all facing each other, and

900
01:11:25.720 --> 01:11:28.600
then they would spile with that person. We'd have pads

901
01:11:28.640 --> 01:11:33.039
on her hands, pads on her feet. I didn't have

902
01:11:33.079 --> 01:11:36.520
any pads on the head, didn't have a gum shield

903
01:11:36.600 --> 01:11:38.720
or anything like that. Oh yeah, pads on the groin.

904
01:11:39.319 --> 01:11:41.760
I probably didn't really need it, but you know I

905
01:11:41.800 --> 01:11:46.239
had it anyway. And if you get a good old punch,

906
01:11:46.319 --> 01:11:51.880
it doesn't stop it, as I found out when I

907
01:11:51.920 --> 01:11:58.840
did the Punch Days, and it was so much fun,

908
01:12:00.600 --> 01:12:03.720
just punching and kicking each other. It was great. And

909
01:12:03.760 --> 01:12:06.279
the thing is I could hardly reach anyone's head anyway,

910
01:12:06.279 --> 01:12:09.760
because everyone everyone was taller than me, apart from those

911
01:12:09.800 --> 01:12:15.960
that weren't, and and they generally were a fair bit younger.

912
01:12:17.479 --> 01:12:22.359
Because I started, Yeah, I think you could start twelve

913
01:12:23.000 --> 01:12:25.800
in the Create club. That was their limit, that was

914
01:12:25.840 --> 01:12:32.159
their oldest was twelve. So I remember the spar and

915
01:12:32.199 --> 01:12:36.039
that was great, which brings me on to my next thing.

916
01:12:36.279 --> 01:12:44.199
Of the most I actually changed the Create Club, and

917
01:12:44.239 --> 01:12:46.279
I'm never going to be remembered for it, that's the

918
01:12:46.319 --> 01:12:50.119
funny thing about it. But I changed the direction of

919
01:12:50.159 --> 01:13:00.520
that club because my little brother was Burr would be

920
01:13:01.479 --> 01:13:08.319
eighty five, so he would have been seven. My little

921
01:13:08.319 --> 01:13:14.680
brother was interested in doing karate and I kept asking

922
01:13:15.119 --> 01:13:20.760
if he could come along, and Paul, the instructor, said no,

923
01:13:20.840 --> 01:13:24.680
not till he's twelve. Can't do it. Won't do it,

924
01:13:24.880 --> 01:13:29.359
can't do it, won't do it. And I said to

925
01:13:29.439 --> 01:13:32.079
him one night and said, well, why don't we do

926
01:13:33.159 --> 01:13:39.000
a separate one, like on a Saturday, like a completely

927
01:13:39.000 --> 01:13:42.239
separate thing. You can have, you know, coming on a

928
01:13:42.239 --> 01:13:45.640
Saturday and have like an extra spiring session for the adults.

929
01:13:46.359 --> 01:13:51.920
But I have allowed some kids to come along under

930
01:13:51.920 --> 01:13:54.960
the age of twelve. Yeah, you can have a limit,

931
01:13:55.119 --> 01:14:02.680
maybe no one under five or something. And eventually I

932
01:14:02.720 --> 01:14:06.840
was I'm not saying I was hasslimit every day. I

933
01:14:06.880 --> 01:14:08.640
wasn't phoning them up in the middle of the night.

934
01:14:09.359 --> 01:14:15.279
It's me again. Please come my little brother, come on, please,

935
01:14:16.560 --> 01:14:20.680
just the kids. Please. So eventually he gave up and

936
01:14:20.720 --> 01:14:27.840
he said, okay, we'll try it. So I mean he

937
01:14:27.960 --> 01:14:31.439
gave up his own time to come in and I

938
01:14:31.439 --> 01:14:34.560
don't know if they even charge the kids. So they

939
01:14:35.039 --> 01:14:43.239
we came in on a Saturday, and he got me

940
01:14:44.279 --> 01:14:49.800
to teach the kids because it was just basically teaching

941
01:14:49.800 --> 01:14:53.600
them a little bit disciplined to line up, how to kick,

942
01:14:53.760 --> 01:14:58.199
how to punch, how none of it was like hard stuff.

943
01:14:58.239 --> 01:15:01.560
It's very basic stuff. So he got me to teach

944
01:15:01.600 --> 01:15:10.039
them and it went from there. So that's where it started,

945
01:15:10.600 --> 01:15:14.960
and then they progressed to doing it on having like

946
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:18.199
a separate group on a Tuesday and Thursday night at

947
01:15:18.239 --> 01:15:22.159
the back of the of the gym, so they wouldn't

948
01:15:22.199 --> 01:15:24.600
be part of the main thing, but they'd be doing

949
01:15:24.640 --> 01:15:28.760
they'd be taught by like me, and then when I left,

950
01:15:29.159 --> 01:15:35.960
someone else taught And so it went from that doing

951
01:15:35.960 --> 01:15:40.319
it every Saturday morning, to then do it then including

952
01:15:40.359 --> 01:15:45.560
it on a Tuesday and a Thursday evening, and that

953
01:15:45.840 --> 01:15:52.279
was blood how many block how many years ago? Is

954
01:15:52.319 --> 01:16:01.640
that forty years ago? And the amount of blot belts

955
01:16:02.920 --> 01:16:04.840
that have come out of those kids. They still do

956
01:16:04.920 --> 01:16:09.039
it now. I still got little kids training, not to

957
01:16:09.079 --> 01:16:12.159
say not the same little kids, but they've still got

958
01:16:12.199 --> 01:16:18.840
little kids training. So that was my idea, and it

959
01:16:18.920 --> 01:16:21.079
might be the greatest thing I've ever done in my life,

960
01:16:21.119 --> 01:16:25.840
which is kind of sad maybe, but it was my

961
01:16:26.000 --> 01:16:28.960
idea because I wanted my little brother to come along

962
01:16:29.079 --> 01:16:32.960
and do cry and because I've already taught him some karate,

963
01:16:34.199 --> 01:16:37.399
which came in handy because it's a little local. Bully

964
01:16:37.439 --> 01:16:43.119
started on him, and he sorted the bully out and

965
01:16:43.159 --> 01:16:45.239
it set him up for the rest of his school

966
01:16:45.960 --> 01:16:48.159
because he had confidence that he knew that he could

967
01:16:48.199 --> 01:16:55.720
deal with, you know, situations like that. And it was

968
01:16:56.560 --> 01:17:01.239
my little brother lost interest. He went for probably two months,

969
01:17:02.560 --> 01:17:05.279
three months. I don't know how long. He got his

970
01:17:05.359 --> 01:17:07.520
first grade in I know that, so he must have

971
01:17:07.600 --> 01:17:10.479
been there for at least three months because the gradings

972
01:17:10.640 --> 01:17:16.840
every three months, so he got his yellow belt. It

973
01:17:16.960 --> 01:17:19.000
might it might have been there six months, but then

974
01:17:19.239 --> 01:17:24.079
he left. He lost interest, but they kept the thing

975
01:17:24.159 --> 01:17:28.600
going because by then they had more kids joining it

976
01:17:28.680 --> 01:17:32.640
started off. I think I kind of got some of

977
01:17:32.640 --> 01:17:36.000
the neighbors' kids to come along, and it started off

978
01:17:36.079 --> 01:17:40.520
with maybe three kids, and then it grew to five,

979
01:17:40.800 --> 01:17:42.720
and then there was seven, and then there was ten,

980
01:17:43.640 --> 01:17:49.039
and ten's all you need, really, it's a good number.

981
01:17:50.560 --> 01:17:53.119
And then it grew and it just continued from nineteen

982
01:17:53.199 --> 01:18:01.720
eighty five to today. So tomorrow, tomorrow evening, Tuesday evening

983
01:18:03.640 --> 01:18:09.279
pretty much guaranteed that someone will walk into that gym,

984
01:18:09.680 --> 01:18:16.520
a kid, maybe ten years old, for example, nine years old.

985
01:18:16.880 --> 01:18:20.199
We'll walk in there for the first time with their

986
01:18:20.239 --> 01:18:26.239
parents or older brother or sister or whatever, and we'll,

987
01:18:26.399 --> 01:18:31.760
you know, learn to start kicking and punching for the

988
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:35.560
first time, and by the time they leave school, there

989
01:18:35.560 --> 01:18:42.399
will be a black belt. And that's all thanks to me.

990
01:18:43.600 --> 01:18:48.039
I'm responsible for the success of every single black belt ever. No,

991
01:18:48.119 --> 01:18:51.159
that's not what I'm saying. But it was quite a

992
01:18:51.279 --> 01:18:56.359
nice a nice memory, quite a nice thing, that a

993
01:18:56.439 --> 01:19:03.479
positive thing that I probably created because it was it

994
01:19:03.520 --> 01:19:09.359
wasn't allowed, not allowed, not allowed. But in the end

995
01:19:09.359 --> 01:19:11.239
he gave up and he said okay, because I kept

996
01:19:11.279 --> 01:19:16.039
going on about it, and he clearly must the instructor

997
01:19:16.119 --> 01:19:20.159
must have liked me, because he didn't tell me to

998
01:19:20.199 --> 01:19:22.560
stop hassling him, or he might have done, actually, but

999
01:19:22.600 --> 01:19:28.199
I just didn't give up. I was quite insistent because

1000
01:19:28.199 --> 01:19:31.800
I wanted my little brother to go to I think,

1001
01:19:31.880 --> 01:19:33.960
if I'm honest, I probably didn't care about the other kids.

1002
01:19:34.039 --> 01:19:38.800
I was just focusing on my little brother. But because

1003
01:19:39.720 --> 01:19:41.439
there had to be other kids as well, I kind

1004
01:19:41.439 --> 01:19:44.159
of got a few other kids from the neighborhood to

1005
01:19:44.239 --> 01:19:47.000
go along with some of his friends. Probably it's thinking

1006
01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:49.399
about it, yeah, I think it was. And maybe some

1007
01:19:49.479 --> 01:19:52.479
of the kids of the adults that were going there,

1008
01:19:53.760 --> 01:19:56.600
they brought them along just to kind of support that

1009
01:19:56.760 --> 01:20:07.720
new venture. Yeah, yeah, groovy. So I'm not going to remember.

1010
01:20:07.920 --> 01:20:10.359
I won't be remembered for it. I bet you. Not

1011
01:20:10.399 --> 01:20:14.800
one person remembers me ever, not even Paul, who was

1012
01:20:14.880 --> 01:20:18.000
my hero, he was the instructor, he won't remember me.

1013
01:20:19.000 --> 01:20:21.520
I mean, last time I saw him was probably about

1014
01:20:21.560 --> 01:20:24.560
nineteen eighty seven, and he said, when you're coming back?

1015
01:20:25.199 --> 01:20:33.520
I said soon. I never did, never went back. Yeah,

1016
01:20:33.560 --> 01:20:36.680
that's weird. It's at one of less school. I was

1017
01:20:36.720 --> 01:20:43.399
working in the evenings and I'd lost interest anyway. At

1018
01:20:43.439 --> 01:20:46.760
that point in everything, I had no interest in anything.

1019
01:20:47.319 --> 01:20:51.800
So karate was gone everything. I was just working in

1020
01:20:51.840 --> 01:20:55.479
a chip shop and that's it. That's what I did

1021
01:20:55.560 --> 01:20:58.119
for two years. There was nothing really else going on

1022
01:20:58.159 --> 01:21:05.119
in my life and what else. So with the karate,

1023
01:21:05.640 --> 01:21:15.039
I have nice memories of getting together equipment, so I

1024
01:21:15.239 --> 01:21:20.880
had the So yeah, I got some gym stuff like

1025
01:21:21.000 --> 01:21:26.840
you know, weights. And my dad had this big studio

1026
01:21:27.119 --> 01:21:29.800
thing at the botto of the garden, which was his

1027
01:21:29.920 --> 01:21:33.079
office because he was self employed, so his office but

1028
01:21:33.199 --> 01:21:37.239
also kept his equipment in part of it as well.

1029
01:21:37.840 --> 01:21:39.640
And there was a toilet down there, and I think

1030
01:21:39.640 --> 01:21:43.960
it was this his safe space, probably to be on

1031
01:21:44.000 --> 01:21:46.079
his own, have a bit of quiet piece and quiet

1032
01:21:46.079 --> 01:21:49.640
from all of us. But what he did, he did

1033
01:21:49.720 --> 01:21:51.159
he took a bit of interest in what I was

1034
01:21:51.199 --> 01:21:55.760
doing because he he let me put my weights down there.

1035
01:21:56.520 --> 01:21:59.319
So I was buying I was buying weights bit by bits,

1036
01:21:59.439 --> 01:22:02.159
up buying a bar bell one week. Then I was

1037
01:22:02.239 --> 01:22:04.760
buying the you know, the weights to put on the

1038
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:07.640
bar bell. Then I got a curl bar, put some

1039
01:22:07.640 --> 01:22:11.079
weights for the curl bar, got some dumb bells, a

1040
01:22:11.079 --> 01:22:13.640
little dumb bell set, and then I got another dumb

1041
01:22:13.640 --> 01:22:16.520
bell set, you know, to sort of match it. And

1042
01:22:21.039 --> 01:22:24.520
I can't think of any other things weights wise I had.

1043
01:22:26.000 --> 01:22:29.479
But I had like a you know, a varied weight collection.

1044
01:22:31.680 --> 01:22:34.000
And then I told my dad that I wanted to

1045
01:22:34.000 --> 01:22:38.680
get a punch bag. So what he did is he

1046
01:22:39.960 --> 01:22:44.760
found me a kit bag and he filled it with sawdust.

1047
01:22:45.880 --> 01:22:51.800
It's really heavy. Really heavy, and he attached it to

1048
01:22:51.840 --> 01:22:55.880
the ceiling. And then I got another punch bag, which

1049
01:22:55.920 --> 01:22:59.399
was already I think it was full of We put

1050
01:22:59.439 --> 01:23:01.560
just cloth in it. So I had a light bag

1051
01:23:02.399 --> 01:23:09.119
and a really heavy bag. I imagine the one full

1052
01:23:09.159 --> 01:23:12.279
of swordust was probably as heavy as me nearly. Anyway,

1053
01:23:12.279 --> 01:23:16.720
it was pretty sturdy stuff and a kit bag. If

1054
01:23:16.760 --> 01:23:18.920
you don't know what that is, it's the kind of

1055
01:23:18.960 --> 01:23:23.680
thing that people in the forces used to use, and

1056
01:23:23.720 --> 01:23:29.119
it's a big, long thing and they would just basically

1057
01:23:29.159 --> 01:23:33.119
have all their belongings in it. But it didn't have

1058
01:23:33.199 --> 01:23:39.760
handles for some reason, or maybe the handles had fallen off,

1059
01:23:40.399 --> 01:23:44.560
but it was just like a big punch bag. I'm

1060
01:23:44.600 --> 01:23:47.000
thinking it might have belonged to my granddad because he

1061
01:23:47.119 --> 01:23:52.119
used to be a boxer, and I think I might

1062
01:23:52.159 --> 01:23:55.760
have had my granddad's boxing gloves, but I did buy

1063
01:23:55.760 --> 01:24:02.159
some boxing gloves as well, and some bag gloves. But

1064
01:24:02.239 --> 01:24:05.399
I also like to punch without any gloves on as well,

1065
01:24:06.399 --> 01:24:10.600
so yeah, so so my dad helped me put all

1066
01:24:10.600 --> 01:24:15.520
that stuff up, so that was nice. I got all

1067
01:24:15.600 --> 01:24:21.640
happy memories of practicing karate in the garden, say happy memories,

1068
01:24:21.640 --> 01:24:24.680
but they're very vague. Memories. But I do remember I

1069
01:24:24.760 --> 01:24:27.680
used to practice my kicks and my punches and my forms.

1070
01:24:28.439 --> 01:24:32.239
That's when it's as a sequence of different moves. Some

1071
01:24:32.279 --> 01:24:36.399
people call it the carter, some people call it form.

1072
01:24:36.560 --> 01:24:42.079
But it's just like practicing kicks and punches and blocks

1073
01:24:42.119 --> 01:24:48.800
and stuff. And in the evenings, I used to go

1074
01:24:48.840 --> 01:24:54.119
and really really go on that punch bag proper, the

1075
01:24:54.159 --> 01:25:00.800
heavy one. More than anything, I loved it. I just

1076
01:25:00.880 --> 01:25:04.680
really loved it. Especially if one of my brothers was

1077
01:25:04.720 --> 01:25:10.239
annoying me, I'd go down the garden and just punch

1078
01:25:10.319 --> 01:25:18.520
the punch, punch the bag as it were. And yeah,

1079
01:25:18.560 --> 01:25:25.840
it was useful, really useful. Yeah. I like that punch bag,

1080
01:25:26.319 --> 01:25:31.520
the one that was heavy like that. The heavier the better,

1081
01:25:32.560 --> 01:25:36.560
Like a big, big, heavy punch bag. That's kind of

1082
01:25:36.600 --> 01:25:40.159
the perfect thing. You know, something that doesn't even move

1083
01:25:40.239 --> 01:25:44.279
when you punch it. That's like perfect. I don't want

1084
01:25:44.319 --> 01:25:49.800
something to start moving and swaying around. It's something really heavy,

1085
01:25:51.079 --> 01:25:56.159
like twenty stone or something that that'd be nice, although

1086
01:25:56.279 --> 01:26:00.319
my ceiling wouldn't take that. I do have a punch

1087
01:26:00.359 --> 01:26:03.840
bag in my bedroom, but it's one that's on a

1088
01:26:03.920 --> 01:26:06.920
it's got like got a water base with water. You

1089
01:26:06.920 --> 01:26:09.000
can put concrete or sand in there, but I just

1090
01:26:09.039 --> 01:26:12.520
put water in so I can punch you. It does

1091
01:26:12.600 --> 01:26:16.079
move around, and I just feel a little bit self

1092
01:26:16.119 --> 01:26:22.640
conscious that I'm gonna disrupt my neighbor downstairs because they're

1093
01:26:22.680 --> 01:26:27.720
going to hear it. How could they not hear it?

1094
01:26:27.720 --> 01:26:36.520
It's quite loud, you know what I mean. So ooh ooh,

1095
01:26:36.680 --> 01:26:44.239
ooh ooh. Trying to think of some other Yeah, in

1096
01:26:44.319 --> 01:26:47.560
the summers we used to well in wasn't that many summers,

1097
01:26:47.680 --> 01:26:51.560
was there, But I remember one summer we met up

1098
01:26:51.600 --> 01:26:53.640
in this park around the corner from where I lived

1099
01:26:54.439 --> 01:26:57.680
and would run around and then we'd spar and stuff.

1100
01:26:57.720 --> 01:27:02.560
It's brilliant because it wouldn't be something I would do myself.

1101
01:27:03.439 --> 01:27:06.399
I wouldn't go to a park and start practicing karate.

1102
01:27:07.720 --> 01:27:10.359
But when you've got a bunch of black belts with

1103
01:27:10.520 --> 01:27:13.960
you adults, it's kind of you do what you want really,

1104
01:27:14.760 --> 01:27:21.880
so it was nice. I'm trying to think other moments

1105
01:27:22.000 --> 01:27:25.840
of the karate. Getting my Yeah, getting my gradings was nice,

1106
01:27:26.000 --> 01:27:30.680
getting my first class gradings and getting the new belt.

1107
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:39.079
That was always good, feeling part of something that for

1108
01:27:39.159 --> 01:27:42.359
the first time I was quite good at I'm not

1109
01:27:42.479 --> 01:27:46.479
saying I was, but for the okay, for the first time,

1110
01:27:46.640 --> 01:27:53.720
I felt I wasn't really bad at something because previously

1111
01:27:53.800 --> 01:27:59.479
that I'd been in the cecredets. And it took me

1112
01:28:00.520 --> 01:28:07.600
over two years to get my first badge, and most

1113
01:28:07.640 --> 01:28:13.600
people get it within two or three months. And every Friday,

1114
01:28:13.880 --> 01:28:17.279
where every other Friday, they would read out who's got

1115
01:28:17.359 --> 01:28:20.399
the next badge? Sometimes people would get it in a

1116
01:28:20.479 --> 01:28:25.880
month or six weeks, and I got passed over every

1117
01:28:26.119 --> 01:28:30.840
single time. It got to the point where I was

1118
01:28:30.880 --> 01:28:36.399
a laughing stock they'd actually read out and not Newlan,

1119
01:28:38.279 --> 01:28:40.199
and it became a joke, like a running joke that

1120
01:28:40.279 --> 01:28:44.920
I didn't get promoted. I was like at the lowest

1121
01:28:45.000 --> 01:28:49.680
level for the whole time, pretty much, and then one

1122
01:28:49.840 --> 01:28:56.119
night they read my name out and the whole place

1123
01:28:56.399 --> 01:29:02.119
erupted because it was such a build up over a

1124
01:29:02.239 --> 01:29:05.840
long period of time. The fact that I finally got

1125
01:29:06.000 --> 01:29:10.159
my first was a junior seamen or something. I forget

1126
01:29:10.560 --> 01:29:15.239
the first badge, and I think I got demoted the

1127
01:29:15.319 --> 01:29:17.359
next week, but it still had it for a little while.

1128
01:29:18.880 --> 01:29:23.920
I was always getting in trouble, always in trouble at school,

1129
01:29:24.000 --> 01:29:27.079
in trouble at the Ciccredets because I just didn't. I

1130
01:29:27.159 --> 01:29:31.079
wasn't good with wasn't a big fan of people telling

1131
01:29:31.159 --> 01:29:40.239
me what to do really, and it was weird. It's

1132
01:29:40.319 --> 01:29:43.199
kind of such a weird thing because my dad wouldn't

1133
01:29:43.239 --> 01:29:48.279
let me leave the Ciccredets because there was a point

1134
01:29:48.319 --> 01:29:51.239
where I'm like, when I first got there, I found

1135
01:29:51.279 --> 01:29:54.119
it funny because they'd be shouting at me. And I

1136
01:29:54.239 --> 01:29:56.119
find it funny because I knew that I could just

1137
01:29:56.239 --> 01:30:01.760
walk out and I didn't have to do it, you know,

1138
01:30:01.880 --> 01:30:06.000
it is a choice. And then when I said I

1139
01:30:06.039 --> 01:30:12.239
wanted to leave, I was told no, and I got

1140
01:30:12.319 --> 01:30:18.359
this some weird man adult shouting in my face. I

1141
01:30:18.439 --> 01:30:25.920
was like, okay, I can't. This is not funny anymore. So, yeah,

1142
01:30:26.039 --> 01:30:28.720
I left my first opportunity, I got out of there,

1143
01:30:29.840 --> 01:30:35.119
and there was a family, a family thing, a little

1144
01:30:35.199 --> 01:30:39.880
family adventure between the parents, and that gave me the

1145
01:30:40.319 --> 01:30:43.800
opportunity to get out of the Cecretets. And then I

1146
01:30:43.880 --> 01:30:51.319
started doing karate, so yeah, well loved karates so much.

1147
01:30:53.159 --> 01:30:56.720
And I remember I had oh yeah, I'd also had

1148
01:30:56.760 --> 01:30:59.279
to really, I used to buy stuff and I had

1149
01:30:59.359 --> 01:31:03.079
the like the gym stuff, the bags, punch bags, the weights,

1150
01:31:04.399 --> 01:31:09.600
but I also had martial arts weapons as well, because

1151
01:31:09.720 --> 01:31:12.760
next to the way to do my grade, which was

1152
01:31:12.840 --> 01:31:16.000
in the next town, they had a martial arts shop

1153
01:31:16.560 --> 01:31:22.520
next to the karate center the club. Because our club

1154
01:31:22.680 --> 01:31:25.439
was just in a gym, they actually had a purpose

1155
01:31:25.520 --> 01:31:30.680
built club, so I went into the I used to

1156
01:31:30.800 --> 01:31:35.319
go into the martial arts shop and I'd buy Bruce

1157
01:31:35.399 --> 01:31:43.319
Lee magazines, nunchucks, throwing stars, stuff like that, or i'd

1158
01:31:43.359 --> 01:31:45.199
buy them. I was going to say buy them online,

1159
01:31:45.279 --> 01:31:48.159
but obviously you can't do that, but I would there.

1160
01:31:48.239 --> 01:31:52.640
Used to be like with the martial arts magazines. I

1161
01:31:52.680 --> 01:31:56.279
don't even remember what it's called, probably Martial Arts Monthly

1162
01:31:56.439 --> 01:32:01.000
or something, and you could order stuff through the post.

1163
01:32:02.239 --> 01:32:05.520
So that's what I would do from these martial arts

1164
01:32:05.560 --> 01:32:10.960
shops in London. So I had so I've got some nunchucks.

1165
01:32:13.319 --> 01:32:15.560
I might have had two pairs of nunchucks. I also

1166
01:32:15.640 --> 01:32:18.399
had a plastic pair of nunchucks, which is good for

1167
01:32:18.520 --> 01:32:23.840
practicing multiple throwing stars, which I used to play with

1168
01:32:23.960 --> 01:32:27.359
in the garden, which is weird because probably not a

1169
01:32:27.399 --> 01:32:29.720
good idea to let a kid play with throwing stars.

1170
01:32:31.960 --> 01:32:40.760
And what else did I have? I think it was

1171
01:32:40.920 --> 01:32:45.119
mainly books, so I had books on different kung fu styles,

1172
01:32:45.800 --> 01:32:48.680
teaching different kung fu moves, and I used to practice

1173
01:32:48.680 --> 01:32:55.760
all that stuff and exercise books martial art exercises to

1174
01:32:55.880 --> 01:32:58.920
help strengthen the body, and yeah, I had lots of

1175
01:32:58.960 --> 01:33:04.920
stuff like that to buy, and the regular monthly weekly

1176
01:33:05.600 --> 01:33:11.479
kung fu martial arts magazines Karate Monthly. I was also

1177
01:33:11.560 --> 01:33:15.319
got into boxing as well. Kind of a little bit

1178
01:33:15.439 --> 01:33:19.399
later than that, but I started buying ko which is

1179
01:33:19.520 --> 01:33:24.119
a knockout monthly, I think, and it kind of led

1180
01:33:24.199 --> 01:33:28.199
me towards the fitness side of things. I got into bodybuilding.

1181
01:33:30.079 --> 01:33:32.880
Never worked with me because my body would not build,

1182
01:33:35.159 --> 01:33:37.399
but I got interested in it and started to learn

1183
01:33:37.439 --> 01:33:41.199
all that bodybuilding dieet because I was into going to

1184
01:33:41.319 --> 01:33:43.880
the gym because the gym around the corners used to

1185
01:33:43.920 --> 01:33:50.039
go there as well. And the thing is, when I

1186
01:33:50.199 --> 01:33:54.359
was fifteen, I had a really good body, but no

1187
01:33:54.399 --> 01:33:56.000
one knew I had a good body because I was

1188
01:33:56.039 --> 01:34:01.800
so little. That might sound like a weird stay. I

1189
01:34:01.960 --> 01:34:09.199
kind of looked it was very muscular, but I was little.

1190
01:34:09.800 --> 01:34:13.760
It's hard to explain so because I'm obviously not explaining

1191
01:34:13.800 --> 01:34:17.199
it very well. When I started working at a chip shop,

1192
01:34:17.359 --> 01:34:22.479
I remember my my boss laughing at me. I was fifteen,

1193
01:34:23.079 --> 01:34:25.039
and I said I got muscles, and he said he

1194
01:34:25.079 --> 01:34:31.359
started laughing. So I pulled my top off, my sleeve

1195
01:34:31.439 --> 01:34:34.239
up and showed them like, oh wow, because I did.

1196
01:34:34.359 --> 01:34:37.960
I had muscles. I had biceps because I've been working

1197
01:34:38.039 --> 01:34:40.680
out for a couple of years. I'm not saying that

1198
01:34:40.760 --> 01:34:45.479
they were big, but they were fern you know, ferm muscles.

1199
01:34:46.319 --> 01:34:50.199
Chest I had six pack and all that stuff. I

1200
01:34:50.319 --> 01:34:56.039
was just one big, very sinewy muscle though, because I

1201
01:34:56.159 --> 01:35:02.880
was so little, so so light, and not particularly strong either,

1202
01:35:03.760 --> 01:35:08.319
but no faut on me at all. But I never

1203
01:35:08.439 --> 01:35:10.720
used to walk around the top off or anything because

1204
01:35:11.000 --> 01:35:13.640
if I had it done, people might have thought that

1205
01:35:13.720 --> 01:35:18.239
I looked okay. But I was embarrassed with how slim

1206
01:35:18.319 --> 01:35:30.520
I was, so I never did that. A strange one, really, Huh,

1207
01:35:30.600 --> 01:35:32.439
what say? I used to love doing I used to

1208
01:35:32.520 --> 01:35:37.119
love sort of having the magazines and the books. That's

1209
01:35:37.159 --> 01:35:39.600
always seems to be how I do things, or I

1210
01:35:39.680 --> 01:35:42.560
have done things over the years. When I get a

1211
01:35:42.600 --> 01:35:47.279
special interest, so before it used to be before karate,

1212
01:35:47.600 --> 01:35:59.119
it was it's really interested in like weales and vampires

1213
01:35:59.199 --> 01:36:02.359
and that kind of stuff. I just got really interested

1214
01:36:02.399 --> 01:36:07.600
in It just became something that I was passionate about,

1215
01:36:08.239 --> 01:36:11.199
and I'd go to the library on my day on

1216
01:36:11.600 --> 01:36:14.560
my days off at the weekend, on a Saturday, and

1217
01:36:14.640 --> 01:36:20.800
I'd study look through these big textbooks and encyclopedias and

1218
01:36:21.039 --> 01:36:24.079
copy stuff down, and I learned so much about it.

1219
01:36:26.760 --> 01:36:28.720
There was no reason for it other than I just

1220
01:36:28.800 --> 01:36:32.880
became interested and I learned more than I needed to

1221
01:36:33.000 --> 01:36:38.479
about the subject, and I started buying books about it,

1222
01:36:38.760 --> 01:36:41.520
and I learned quite a little bit, quite a lot

1223
01:36:41.560 --> 01:36:46.399
about all that whole thing. And then then I got

1224
01:36:46.399 --> 01:36:52.520
obsessed with karate. Yeah, so that was when I was

1225
01:36:52.520 --> 01:36:58.520
about eleven twelve, sort of same time possibly as the Secredets,

1226
01:36:59.479 --> 01:37:04.279
But I had no interest in the see Cadets. Didn't

1227
01:37:04.279 --> 01:37:07.680
even like it. I had to laugh while I was there,

1228
01:37:11.279 --> 01:37:15.880
but didn't enjoy being there. Really had to start with

1229
01:37:16.000 --> 01:37:19.399
it was a nice relief and being at home, and

1230
01:37:19.479 --> 01:37:25.439
then it became a chore. And then once I did karate,

1231
01:37:25.640 --> 01:37:27.319
that was nice because I was out of the house.

1232
01:37:27.880 --> 01:37:31.439
I was also doing something I enjoyed, and for the

1233
01:37:31.560 --> 01:37:35.640
first time my childhood, I had something to look forward to,

1234
01:37:36.680 --> 01:37:40.640
which was going to karate, and it's all I talked

1235
01:37:40.640 --> 01:37:47.560
about to anyone. I didn't talk about anything else, just karate. Seriously,

1236
01:37:47.640 --> 01:37:51.760
it must have been really boring for people. I mean,

1237
01:37:51.800 --> 01:37:53.640
you're probably going to get an idea of how boring

1238
01:37:53.680 --> 01:37:57.279
it is because you just listened to me talking about

1239
01:37:57.520 --> 01:38:06.520
it for the last and a half. Also, I love

1240
01:38:07.159 --> 01:38:11.039
the karate. I'm just trying to think, is there any

1241
01:38:11.279 --> 01:38:19.880
other aspects of karate that I remember that stand out? Hmmm?

1242
01:38:24.479 --> 01:38:39.239
So my little brother going no, oh, I'll tell you

1243
01:38:39.319 --> 01:38:43.479
what I did do. There's another one of the black

1244
01:38:43.560 --> 01:38:47.319
belts that, like the young Black belts in the Create club.

1245
01:38:48.119 --> 01:38:50.239
He left to start his own club on a Friday

1246
01:38:50.359 --> 01:38:51.439
night somewhere else.

1247
01:38:52.359 --> 01:38:52.439
And.

1248
01:38:56.039 --> 01:39:00.279
I basically talked him into having kids go straight way

1249
01:39:01.159 --> 01:39:04.840
as well as adults. So I got my little brother

1250
01:39:04.960 --> 01:39:09.399
to go and he was seven, so that whole his

1251
01:39:09.640 --> 01:39:13.880
club started off with little kids straight away and adults.

1252
01:39:15.920 --> 01:39:20.399
I don't know if he I don't think he continued

1253
01:39:21.359 --> 01:39:23.800
in that town, but he might have moved somewhere else

1254
01:39:23.920 --> 01:39:26.880
and did it. But he was It was a really cool.

1255
01:39:27.760 --> 01:39:32.720
He was a cool dude. Dude, cool dude. He was

1256
01:39:32.760 --> 01:39:40.439
about eighteen nineteen, and he was just the kind of

1257
01:39:40.520 --> 01:39:42.560
person that I'd want to be the kind of person

1258
01:39:42.600 --> 01:39:45.680
I'd still want to be now and never was, never

1259
01:39:45.800 --> 01:39:51.560
could be, never will be. He just almost like the

1260
01:39:51.680 --> 01:39:56.479
perfect person. He had everything, but I say, obviously didn't

1261
01:39:56.520 --> 01:39:59.720
have everything, but from the outside it looked like he

1262
01:39:59.760 --> 01:40:04.920
had everything. You know, he was or clearly very tough.

1263
01:40:05.439 --> 01:40:12.399
He was brilliant at karate. It was a good looking bloke.

1264
01:40:13.439 --> 01:40:13.760
He was.

1265
01:40:16.560 --> 01:40:21.800
Person great personality, extremely confident. But it's hard not to

1266
01:40:21.880 --> 01:40:24.399
be confident. I think if you're a black belt when

1267
01:40:24.399 --> 01:40:27.439
you're a teenager, you're going to have confidence there and

1268
01:40:27.560 --> 01:40:33.920
you So that's the one thing I would say to

1269
01:40:34.079 --> 01:40:38.359
any any parent that's got a kid, get him down

1270
01:40:38.439 --> 01:40:45.359
to some kind of martial arts because the confidence that

1271
01:40:45.439 --> 01:40:51.479
comes from it is pretty cool. And whether it's karate, judo,

1272
01:40:51.760 --> 01:40:57.640
jiu jitsu, whatever, it's just something so you know that

1273
01:40:57.720 --> 01:40:59.600
they can take care of themselves. But more than that,

1274
01:41:00.640 --> 01:41:03.600
it's people are confident quite often never ever need to

1275
01:41:03.760 --> 01:41:10.319
use it. The higher they get in the training, the

1276
01:41:10.439 --> 01:41:12.359
less chance they're ever going to need to use it,

1277
01:41:12.439 --> 01:41:18.960
because it's almost like an aura comes often the confidence.

1278
01:41:19.159 --> 01:41:23.760
Maybe now I know people have done martial arts for

1279
01:41:24.800 --> 01:41:31.000
decades and never ever had to use it. Yeah, man,

1280
01:41:34.039 --> 01:41:42.800
what else? What else? What else? What else? Because I'm

1281
01:41:42.840 --> 01:41:45.159
only talking about karates. I'm not talking about any of

1282
01:41:45.199 --> 01:41:48.119
the other martial arts I've done, so just about the karate.

1283
01:41:48.239 --> 01:41:52.319
When I was at school, trying to think of anything

1284
01:41:52.520 --> 01:42:09.319
else that happened, they are in that environment. M No,

1285
01:42:09.439 --> 01:42:10.479
I can't think of anything.

1286
01:42:10.560 --> 01:42:10.680
Now.

1287
01:42:10.800 --> 01:42:19.039
It's pretty much it. Yeah, I mean, I've got to

1288
01:42:20.000 --> 01:42:24.000
I quite like getting to know a few adults, because

1289
01:42:26.880 --> 01:42:28.399
I'll tell you, Okay, one of the things I liked

1290
01:42:28.439 --> 01:42:31.600
about the Charate Club I got to know some adults

1291
01:42:32.399 --> 01:42:34.840
that I would generally didn't know any adults other than

1292
01:42:35.279 --> 01:42:38.960
I suppose friends of the family and teachers, and I

1293
01:42:39.039 --> 01:42:43.560
didn't want to know them. So I got to know

1294
01:42:43.680 --> 01:42:45.479
a few adults that I could say he loo too.

1295
01:42:46.359 --> 01:42:48.880
And I was getting to the point of leaving school anyway,

1296
01:42:48.960 --> 01:43:00.279
you know, I was fourteen less school at fifteen, and yeah,

1297
01:43:00.319 --> 01:43:02.880
that was quite cool. Kind of go around and had

1298
01:43:02.920 --> 01:43:06.479
a neighbor and I'd go around his and would train

1299
01:43:06.560 --> 01:43:16.800
together sometimes because he was also doing judo. And another

1300
01:43:17.399 --> 01:43:22.000
good thing is I made some new friends. And there

1301
01:43:22.079 --> 01:43:29.279
was this rivalry between the two high schools, and there

1302
01:43:29.359 --> 01:43:36.000
was less rivalry for me because everything I did from

1303
01:43:36.039 --> 01:43:43.560
the age of eleven to leaving school, I did with

1304
01:43:43.720 --> 01:43:47.119
people from the other school as well, So in the Cycadets,

1305
01:43:48.119 --> 01:43:50.319
probably half of the kids in the Ciccadettes were from

1306
01:43:50.359 --> 01:43:53.680
the other school as well as my school, so I

1307
01:43:54.159 --> 01:43:57.720
knew them. And then when I did karate, the karate

1308
01:43:57.840 --> 01:44:01.000
club was actually at the other school, and so there

1309
01:44:01.079 --> 01:44:03.199
was more kids from that school than there was from

1310
01:44:03.239 --> 01:44:06.960
my own school, so I got to know them. So

1311
01:44:07.479 --> 01:44:10.319
it was kind of quite good because then that rivalry

1312
01:44:10.520 --> 01:44:13.760
wasn't there for me. I got to meet different people

1313
01:44:13.840 --> 01:44:17.840
from different both the schools, and there wasn't so much

1314
01:44:17.920 --> 01:44:24.399
of that like them and us when it came to me. Yeah,

1315
01:44:24.880 --> 01:44:30.199
I liked that. It was nice. Yeah, I made a

1316
01:44:30.239 --> 01:44:33.479
few friends that I used to hang out with. It

1317
01:44:33.600 --> 01:44:36.399
was one friend I thought he was a girl when

1318
01:44:36.439 --> 01:44:43.479
he first started, and there was a boy and his

1319
01:44:43.640 --> 01:44:46.479
mum was also there, and yeah, I just ended up

1320
01:44:46.920 --> 01:44:49.600
hanging around with room for a little bit. He was

1321
01:44:51.680 --> 01:44:54.600
probably about a year younger than me, I think, but

1322
01:44:54.720 --> 01:44:56.720
his mum was really cool and I'd go around and

1323
01:44:57.760 --> 01:45:08.239
she'd give me dinner and stuff. Trying to think what else. Yeah,

1324
01:45:08.239 --> 01:45:11.079
I didn't have any friends at my school. They did karate.

1325
01:45:11.760 --> 01:45:17.880
Other than Stephen's brother, I think nearly everyone else that

1326
01:45:18.039 --> 01:45:20.039
went to karate with me was from the other school,

1327
01:45:20.880 --> 01:45:22.840
which for some reason, I don't know why that was.

1328
01:45:24.640 --> 01:45:27.439
I suppose it's I guess if you've got karate in

1329
01:45:27.560 --> 01:45:34.399
your school, you'd more like to go there. But yeah, so,

1330
01:45:34.920 --> 01:45:43.760
I mean there was a couple, there was two, three, three,

1331
01:45:44.239 --> 01:45:47.039
three and me, so it was about four of us

1332
01:45:47.560 --> 01:45:51.520
were actually from my school, and everyone else was from

1333
01:45:52.680 --> 01:45:55.439
the school. It was in other than you know, the

1334
01:45:55.560 --> 01:45:59.319
kids up there and rather than adults, So there was

1335
01:45:59.399 --> 01:46:13.680
probably i'd say ten percent adults, like adult adults. Mmm,

1336
01:46:14.600 --> 01:46:21.079
maybe twenty percent adults, so people in their twenties plus,

1337
01:46:22.039 --> 01:46:28.119
and then maybe twenty percent of older teens you're like,

1338
01:46:28.319 --> 01:46:38.560
maybe seventeen to twenty kind of, and then maybe I

1339
01:46:38.640 --> 01:46:51.560
don't know, I would say the majority was hmm, yeah,

1340
01:46:51.600 --> 01:46:59.279
I'd say probably thirteen or twelve. Thirteen to sixteen there

1341
01:46:59.359 --> 01:47:02.079
seemed to be the main age group, but there was

1342
01:47:02.119 --> 01:47:04.279
a few older and a few even older than that.

1343
01:47:08.079 --> 01:47:12.119
When I started, and then when I left, there was

1344
01:47:12.159 --> 01:47:19.199
probably another ten percent of under under eleven or on

1345
01:47:19.520 --> 01:47:23.600
the other twelve whatever the rest of you know. The

1346
01:47:23.760 --> 01:47:32.039
former age limit was until my pestern allowed open the

1347
01:47:32.119 --> 01:47:35.119
gates for kids to go along, like really young kids

1348
01:47:35.800 --> 01:47:42.479
like my little brother. Yeah, I never realized that that

1349
01:47:42.600 --> 01:47:45.600
was the proudest moment in my life until this moment.

1350
01:47:47.760 --> 01:47:56.960
It's the only thing I've done my whole life. I'll

1351
01:47:57.000 --> 01:48:01.239
tell you. What's weird is it's now starting to get dark.

1352
01:48:03.880 --> 01:48:14.000
It's nearly ten o'clock, it's nine fifty six. It's dark inside,

1353
01:48:14.279 --> 01:48:19.039
not like dark dark as in like I can't see

1354
01:48:19.079 --> 01:48:25.119
anything dark, but it's still light outside. It's not light

1355
01:48:25.279 --> 01:48:29.640
light so you can see everything, but it's light enough

1356
01:48:29.800 --> 01:48:33.920
to go out and not need a torch, if that

1357
01:48:34.079 --> 01:48:39.760
makes sense. And what's weird is this is now the time,

1358
01:48:40.279 --> 01:48:45.920
even though this is technically probably the peak of the summer,

1359
01:48:46.760 --> 01:48:53.600
like beginning of July. Well maybe June is, but you know, roughly,

1360
01:48:54.079 --> 01:48:57.760
this is kind of a peak time. Last week is

1361
01:48:57.880 --> 01:49:03.159
very hot, this coming week'sposed to be very hot. But

1362
01:49:03.359 --> 01:49:06.720
now we've already had the longest stay, so it's starting

1363
01:49:06.760 --> 01:49:14.840
to get darker earlier and get lighter later. That might

1364
01:49:14.920 --> 01:49:21.079
it's only maybe, I don't know, a few minutes a week,

1365
01:49:24.520 --> 01:49:29.439
but it's really weird how quickly it starts to get darker,

1366
01:49:29.760 --> 01:49:35.199
because in a month's time it'll be completely pitch black

1367
01:49:35.399 --> 01:49:45.800
by now at ten o'clock, and then in September it'll

1368
01:49:45.840 --> 01:49:53.800
be dark probably by eight o'clock, if not earlier, possibly

1369
01:49:53.880 --> 01:50:05.680
seven o'clock, and then by November December is just dark

1370
01:50:05.760 --> 01:50:11.560
all the time. It feels like it sometimes like it never.

1371
01:50:12.159 --> 01:50:14.000
There are days when it just doesn't seem to get

1372
01:50:14.079 --> 01:50:18.640
much brighter than this how it is now. I mean,

1373
01:50:18.800 --> 01:50:22.479
it's this kind of light at three in the afternoon

1374
01:50:22.560 --> 01:50:31.560
sometimes in December, especially on like a cloudy day. You know,

1375
01:50:31.600 --> 01:50:33.920
I have to have the light on and look outside.

1376
01:50:34.239 --> 01:50:39.439
It's just, yeah, weird dark at four in the afternoon

1377
01:50:42.319 --> 01:50:46.960
in January. So we're not there yet, but it's kind

1378
01:50:47.000 --> 01:50:51.720
of weird that this is the kind of the peak,

1379
01:50:52.359 --> 01:50:56.920
the peak of the summer. It's a bit windy today.

1380
01:50:57.279 --> 01:51:01.359
Someone's put a brick in front of the the gate

1381
01:51:01.560 --> 01:51:06.159
that keeps slamming shut, so I'm guessing someone's been a

1382
01:51:06.199 --> 01:51:09.560
little bit mildly annoyed by it. So that was a

1383
01:51:09.640 --> 01:51:18.079
good idea. I'm surprised someone hasn't moved it. There's always

1384
01:51:18.520 --> 01:51:20.920
there's always like one person wants one thing and then

1385
01:51:20.960 --> 01:51:24.960
another person wants another thing. So someone wants it left open,

1386
01:51:25.039 --> 01:51:30.159
another postus wants it left closed. It's like, just leave

1387
01:51:30.279 --> 01:51:35.199
it be, man, Just chill out, chill out, and just

1388
01:51:35.439 --> 01:51:38.640
enjoy all the chocolate. That's what my NN used to say.

1389
01:51:41.239 --> 01:51:46.479
That's before the diabetes. But I can't think of any

1390
01:51:46.600 --> 01:51:54.000
other things connected to karate that I can talk about.

1391
01:51:54.199 --> 01:52:01.079
I can't. Hmm. You'd think that's something else, wouldn't you.

1392
01:52:04.560 --> 01:52:10.439
What else? What else? What else? What else? Kaaday kada?

1393
01:52:11.560 --> 01:52:15.479
I was the Karate Kid. I remember watching that and

1394
01:52:15.600 --> 01:52:20.039
it was I think it's the first time I was

1395
01:52:20.199 --> 01:52:28.479
in tune with what was going on. Like the Karate

1396
01:52:28.720 --> 01:52:34.520
Kid was so popular in the Western world, and loads

1397
01:52:34.560 --> 01:52:36.800
of people wanted to do karate because they wanted to

1398
01:52:36.840 --> 01:52:45.479
be a karate man. And I think at that time

1399
01:52:45.760 --> 01:52:48.399
I was already doing it. So I think the karate

1400
01:52:48.520 --> 01:52:51.399
called was eighty five, so I was already a karate

1401
01:52:51.520 --> 01:52:54.760
kid before the Karate Kid came out. It's like, yeah,

1402
01:52:55.600 --> 01:52:58.840
I was ahead of the curve, head of the curve,

1403
01:53:00.560 --> 01:53:05.560
which is cool. But there was a dream I'd had

1404
01:53:05.640 --> 01:53:08.239
for years, you know, ever since I was a little kid.

1405
01:53:08.600 --> 01:53:11.520
Wanted to do martial arts. I wanted to be kung

1406
01:53:11.680 --> 01:53:16.079
fu from a TV show Kung Fu. Technically his name

1407
01:53:16.159 --> 01:53:19.239
was Kane. But you know, that's why I wanted to be.

1408
01:53:19.399 --> 01:53:22.079
I wanted to be not just to be able to

1409
01:53:22.159 --> 01:53:26.079
do the moves, but also to be calm and peaceful

1410
01:53:26.720 --> 01:53:37.039
and not not react because he was so calmly just

1411
01:53:37.960 --> 01:53:40.960
he did what he needed to do, but he didn't

1412
01:53:41.920 --> 01:53:46.439
overreact to people trying to, you know, get him agitated.

1413
01:53:47.840 --> 01:53:50.319
I never learned that bit. That's a bit I never learned.

1414
01:53:50.800 --> 01:53:54.319
I kind of learned it now. It's taken me a

1415
01:53:54.439 --> 01:54:01.000
little while. I'm better than I used to be. Yeah,

1416
01:54:01.880 --> 01:54:05.279
but I did. I like the spiritual side of it

1417
01:54:06.760 --> 01:54:10.079
as well, and I guess I found that with maybe

1418
01:54:10.119 --> 01:54:13.760
Buddhism when I was older, reading Buddhism when I was

1419
01:54:13.800 --> 01:54:18.520
in my twenties and studying it, and Taoism as well,

1420
01:54:18.680 --> 01:54:23.159
and as well as that's the other thing I forget,

1421
01:54:27.720 --> 01:54:31.760
and that's it. Really. That was my little karate career

1422
01:54:34.880 --> 01:54:40.239
when I was at school. As I got older, like

1423
01:54:42.560 --> 01:54:54.640
moving towards leaving school, I started if you can hear

1424
01:54:54.720 --> 01:54:58.920
that someone is doing it in a garden, I started

1425
01:54:59.000 --> 01:55:02.239
kind of going out and doing stuff and kind of

1426
01:55:02.319 --> 01:55:06.680
moved away from it a bit. But that's kind of standard.

1427
01:55:06.720 --> 01:55:21.079
I think sounds like the motorbike's gone. Now what a

1428
01:55:21.199 --> 01:55:23.720
silly time to be riding a motorbike in a garden

1429
01:55:25.680 --> 01:55:31.600
three minutes past ten in the evening, My goodness. So

1430
01:55:32.119 --> 01:55:37.199
I started to move away from it, started to do

1431
01:55:37.439 --> 01:55:43.960
things with my friends, go to the cinema, hang out,

1432
01:55:44.199 --> 01:55:50.439
do things instead of going to karate. You know, this

1433
01:55:50.680 --> 01:55:55.159
was just pretty much just before I left school, and

1434
01:55:55.239 --> 01:55:57.079
then after I left school. That was kind of it

1435
01:55:58.479 --> 01:56:04.840
because I was working in a chip shop. For some reason.

1436
01:56:04.880 --> 01:56:08.680
I chose the job which didn't allow me to continue

1437
01:56:08.720 --> 01:56:16.119
doing karate. Possibly wasn't the best career move I ever made,

1438
01:56:16.199 --> 01:56:20.199
but it is what I did and I can't change that.

1439
01:56:20.439 --> 01:56:27.359
So there you go. But I'm glad I did the karate.

1440
01:56:27.600 --> 01:56:31.439
I'm glad I did that at school. I wish i'd

1441
01:56:31.439 --> 01:56:36.720
started earlier, but I wasn't allowed to say. Hey. I

1442
01:56:36.760 --> 01:56:40.680
also I wish i'd done boxing. The thing is, boxing

1443
01:56:40.800 --> 01:56:43.199
was in a different town, so I did go. So

1444
01:56:43.199 --> 01:56:47.680
I had a friend that went, but it was a

1445
01:56:47.760 --> 01:56:50.479
lot of I mean, it was expensive, the bus, I

1446
01:56:50.600 --> 01:56:53.880
was getting home late, and it just wasn't really practical,

1447
01:56:55.840 --> 01:56:58.199
so I didn't go. I did sort of stopped going.

1448
01:56:59.119 --> 01:57:01.319
I did a bit of kick boxing before I did

1449
01:57:01.359 --> 01:57:04.399
the karate as well. That was with a neighbor opposite

1450
01:57:05.039 --> 01:57:11.600
who was in the American Forces, and the kid next

1451
01:57:11.680 --> 01:57:16.520
door to me wanted he wanted to teach him kickboxing,

1452
01:57:16.840 --> 01:57:21.159
but needed someone else to teach him with. He needed

1453
01:57:21.199 --> 01:57:26.079
an opponent and someone to spar with. So the kid

1454
01:57:26.159 --> 01:57:28.159
asked me if I had come along, So I did.

1455
01:57:29.039 --> 01:57:31.119
There'd been my next door neighbor for a few years.

1456
01:57:33.279 --> 01:57:34.880
The thing I didn't like about that is a couple

1457
01:57:34.920 --> 01:57:37.920
of things. First, I didn't like the stretching. I never

1458
01:57:38.000 --> 01:57:43.039
stretched before. It was not fun and I felt it

1459
01:57:43.239 --> 01:57:47.880
for days afterwards. I know he still did stretching in karate,

1460
01:57:48.079 --> 01:57:52.039
but it was stretching in a kickboxing It was really

1461
01:57:52.159 --> 01:57:55.760
full on. And the other thing I didn't like is

1462
01:57:57.079 --> 01:58:00.960
but I didn't really appreciate it was the man teaching

1463
01:58:01.039 --> 01:58:06.560
us was so he had. It was only two of

1464
01:58:06.640 --> 01:58:10.119
us training, and so he talked to us heat. He

1465
01:58:10.159 --> 01:58:13.479
had taughts the basic punches, kicks and stuff, and then

1466
01:58:13.520 --> 01:58:17.920
he got a spa in but he was shouting in

1467
01:58:19.119 --> 01:58:23.680
like support of the other kid, not me. I didn't

1468
01:58:23.760 --> 01:58:28.199
like that. It bugged me. Still still bucks with me today.

1469
01:58:28.640 --> 01:58:33.920
It's just like what you're doing is he can't invite

1470
01:58:34.039 --> 01:58:37.800
two kids to come along and train them and then

1471
01:58:38.600 --> 01:58:42.640
side with one over the other, especially as neither of

1472
01:58:42.760 --> 01:58:47.560
us were really we were just neighbors. He hadn't known

1473
01:58:47.760 --> 01:58:51.800
he'd known us all the same length for time. He

1474
01:58:51.960 --> 01:58:56.319
knew my parents, the bloke he knew the parents next door,

1475
01:58:58.880 --> 01:59:03.880
so very strange. I knew his. I knew his his

1476
01:59:04.079 --> 01:59:08.520
son because his son was Yeah, I used to go

1477
01:59:08.680 --> 01:59:11.039
up in there and I used to hang around with

1478
01:59:11.119 --> 01:59:14.600
his son sometimes, so I'd been in his house a

1479
01:59:14.680 --> 01:59:19.319
few times, so he knew me. So I don't know

1480
01:59:20.279 --> 01:59:23.960
but decide maybe that's why, because he kind of got

1481
01:59:24.000 --> 01:59:28.560
to know me a bit and he thought, you know,

1482
01:59:28.880 --> 01:59:33.680
try and teach the other kid to win. But neither

1483
01:59:33.720 --> 01:59:38.439
of us won because we were both both the same size,

1484
01:59:38.439 --> 01:59:41.319
because he was younger than me, both pretty much the

1485
01:59:41.359 --> 01:59:43.760
same size. That's why I was picked to do it,

1486
01:59:44.039 --> 01:59:49.279
you know, probably the same kind of strength level, and

1487
01:59:51.000 --> 01:59:55.119
we couldn't hurt each other if we tried. We couldn't.

1488
01:59:55.359 --> 01:59:58.720
It was just we were padded up, really properly padded

1489
01:59:58.880 --> 02:00:07.159
up body, legs, feet, hands, maybe even elbows and head.

1490
02:00:07.720 --> 02:00:19.439
So there is. It's almost like it's, yeah, it be

1491
02:00:19.520 --> 02:00:24.760
a little bit like getting a little glass thimble, wrapping

1492
02:00:24.800 --> 02:00:31.439
it up in bubble rap, like a whole two hundred

1493
02:00:31.520 --> 02:00:35.279
foot bit of bubble rap, and tying it all together

1494
02:00:35.640 --> 02:00:41.159
all around, and then covering it in foam. So the

1495
02:00:41.239 --> 02:00:43.960
ball is probably about, you know, the size of a house,

1496
02:00:44.680 --> 02:00:50.800
and then just dropping it two inches. You're not You're

1497
02:00:50.840 --> 02:00:53.560
not going to make any difference to the little the

1498
02:00:53.640 --> 02:00:59.560
little glass thimble, the little glass the little tiny little

1499
02:00:59.600 --> 02:01:02.439
glass thing. It's not going to break because it's you know,

1500
02:01:02.640 --> 02:01:05.439
it's so protected. That's a little bit like what we were, like,

1501
02:01:05.920 --> 02:01:12.840
we've all a padding on. That seemed like a good

1502
02:01:12.880 --> 02:01:16.439
analogy until I started and I realized it was going

1503
02:01:16.520 --> 02:01:20.199
on a bit too far. And I also thought, I'm

1504
02:01:20.279 --> 02:01:23.399
saying glass thimble. Does anyone know what I mean when

1505
02:01:23.439 --> 02:01:27.520
I say glass thimble? And I'll explain what I meant

1506
02:01:27.720 --> 02:01:31.000
is because you can get metal thimbles. It's basically what

1507
02:01:31.119 --> 02:01:33.920
people use when they do sewing, because they use it

1508
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:39.399
to push the needle through through the cotton or whatever.

1509
02:01:40.039 --> 02:01:44.399
So it's kind of it just protects the thumb. But

1510
02:01:44.479 --> 02:01:46.479
you can also get glass ones, or at least you

1511
02:01:46.600 --> 02:01:48.680
used to be able to and have little dents in

1512
02:01:48.760 --> 02:01:54.079
them so that it would it would catch the needle

1513
02:01:54.199 --> 02:01:55.520
the end of the needle as you pushed it in.

1514
02:01:56.199 --> 02:02:06.319
So yeah, anyway, that's what i'd explain that. So this

1515
02:02:06.640 --> 02:02:12.760
brings me to the end of the recording again, La

1516
02:02:12.920 --> 02:02:17.760
la la la la. So thank you for listening. Remember

1517
02:02:18.119 --> 02:02:22.000
to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to

1518
02:02:22.199 --> 02:02:27.640
feel happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to

1519
02:02:27.720 --> 02:02:44.880
feel safe, lots of love, Bye bye bye. Relax in

1520
02:02:45.000 --> 02:02:55.720
a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

1521
02:02:55.880 --> 02:03:04.399
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

1522
02:03:05.600 --> 02:03:14.159
and throughout the time we spend together here, not just

1523
02:03:14.439 --> 02:03:20.039
relaxed at the end of the recording when it's finished

1524
02:03:20.119 --> 02:03:26.640
and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1525
02:03:31.439 --> 02:03:44.039
but also I think it would be nice to have

1526
02:03:44.760 --> 02:04:01.720
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1527
02:04:01.880 --> 02:04:15.239
is ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1528
02:04:16.159 --> 02:04:25.039
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1529
02:04:31.119 --> 02:04:38.960
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1530
02:04:39.119 --> 02:04:42.560
some people do and myself as well, I sometimes I

1531
02:04:42.720 --> 02:04:53.199
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1532
02:04:53.319 --> 02:04:58.520
I just listen to it over and over again, every morning,

1533
02:04:58.720 --> 02:05:11.279
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1534
02:05:11.319 --> 02:05:16.840
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1535
02:05:16.920 --> 02:05:21.920
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1536
02:05:24.439 --> 02:05:29.600
and I managed to find it again and it still

1537
02:05:29.720 --> 02:05:35.119
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1538
02:05:35.479 --> 02:05:50.159
was the person's voice relaxed me just felt so peaceful,

1539
02:05:52.319 --> 02:05:58.760
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1540
02:05:58.920 --> 02:06:09.560
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1541
02:06:10.359 --> 02:06:18.800
pressing the play button that since I've done that, pressed

1542
02:06:18.840 --> 02:06:27.359
the play button. This is in the days of CD

1543
02:06:27.600 --> 02:06:36.239
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

1544
02:06:36.319 --> 02:06:40.600
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1545
02:06:40.720 --> 02:06:54.199
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words,

1546
02:06:57.560 --> 02:07:06.840
because I had been memorized. Really, it was as if

1547
02:07:06.960 --> 02:07:18.159
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1548
02:07:18.439 --> 02:07:39.760
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my

1549
02:07:40.000 --> 02:07:53.880
mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to

1550
02:07:54.000 --> 02:08:00.359
this recording in the early days of learning Hidden Basis,

1551
02:08:03.159 --> 02:08:10.840
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1552
02:08:11.039 --> 02:08:15.600
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1553
02:08:15.840 --> 02:08:33.760
thousand and six I knew. I knew how helpful I

1554
02:08:35.239 --> 02:08:45.479
found being able to just let go, to have that

1555
02:08:45.880 --> 02:08:58.479
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1556
02:08:58.600 --> 02:09:06.880
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1557
02:09:09.560 --> 02:09:16.520
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1558
02:09:22.920 --> 02:09:29.920
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1559
02:09:38.359 --> 02:09:42.319
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1560
02:09:44.119 --> 02:09:50.640
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1561
02:09:50.720 --> 02:10:07.239
every day. That's something that I do which you may

1562
02:10:07.399 --> 02:10:28.159
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1563
02:10:28.520 --> 02:10:41.000
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1564
02:10:41.159 --> 02:10:52.600
I say. So if I said to you, focus on

1565
02:10:52.760 --> 02:11:02.520
your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing

1566
02:11:02.680 --> 02:11:15.159
on my feet. I will be noticing my feet relaxing.

1567
02:11:25.079 --> 02:11:31.279
If I said, focus on your hands, and maybe notice

1568
02:11:31.439 --> 02:11:42.840
the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the the air

1569
02:11:43.359 --> 02:11:47.960
in the room, the temperature of the room. On the

1570
02:11:48.079 --> 02:12:00.039
backs of your hands. You may start to notice it

1571
02:12:00.039 --> 02:12:07.279
almost feels like a very light breeze, even though there

1572
02:12:08.159 --> 02:12:13.199
may not be any type of breeze at all where

1573
02:12:13.279 --> 02:12:25.479
you are right now. And as you become aware of

1574
02:12:26.920 --> 02:12:40.239
your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands

1575
02:12:44.279 --> 02:13:06.560
are feeling now, and when it comes to potentially drifting

1576
02:13:06.720 --> 02:13:11.760
off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

1577
02:13:17.479 --> 02:13:32.039
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

1578
02:13:32.239 --> 02:13:50.640
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

1579
02:13:50.720 --> 02:14:05.119
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

1580
02:14:05.199 --> 02:14:16.840
on talking. It's only when I listen back to do

1581
02:14:17.000 --> 02:14:26.079
the editing I hear snoring and I think, I don't

1582
02:14:26.079 --> 02:14:36.560
remember snoring. I remember talking. It is snoring was a

1583
02:14:36.680 --> 02:14:42.880
pig turned up. That's why I sound like when I

1584
02:14:43.039 --> 02:15:01.720
snare and I get really into the whole experience. I

1585
02:15:01.800 --> 02:15:11.239
don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel in

1586
02:15:11.319 --> 02:15:36.880
your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands. I

1587
02:15:37.039 --> 02:15:51.199
have noticed more and more that the more relaxed, deeper

1588
02:15:56.279 --> 02:16:06.600
level of comfort you feel, well, the easier your breathing becomes.

1589
02:16:13.159 --> 02:16:29.840
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1590
02:16:29.920 --> 02:17:01.000
you the breath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1591
02:17:01.239 --> 02:17:30.000
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1592
02:17:30.239 --> 02:18:20.000
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1593
02:18:20.159 --> 02:18:38.479
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

1594
02:18:44.520 --> 02:18:57.399
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1595
02:18:57.680 --> 02:19:38.079
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too,

1596
02:19:39.680 --> 02:19:58.639
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1597
02:20:09.920 --> 02:20:42.479
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1598
02:21:07.840 --> 02:21:33.280
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1599
02:21:39.239 --> 02:22:18.360
so deeply, peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1600
02:22:18.559 --> 02:23:22.920
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1601
02:23:31.239 --> 02:24:17.600
Slowed down because nothing really required as your attention. You

1602
02:24:17.760 --> 02:24:32.239
can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to

1603
02:24:34.000 --> 02:24:44.760
drip out of your body, to appear out of every

1604
02:24:48.200 --> 02:25:18.879
part of your body being released from your brain in

1605
02:25:19.399 --> 02:25:54.639
your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs

1606
02:26:10.200 --> 02:27:06.000
relax so very deeply, res so deeply, and the feelings,

1607
02:27:08.639 --> 02:27:33.520
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1608
02:27:33.959 --> 02:28:12.040
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticine,

1609
02:28:15.280 --> 02:28:41.760
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1610
02:28:42.000 --> 02:29:30.799
in your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I

1611
02:29:31.040 --> 02:30:14.840
all say, feeling peaceful deeply, There's a sense of peace

1612
02:30:19.360 --> 02:30:20.920
spreads through.

1613
02:30:22.280 --> 02:30:55.479
Your very core, even when you.

1614
02:30:58.440 --> 02:31:23.239
Focus on your mind, and her mind becomes eeve and slower,

1615
02:31:39.079 --> 02:32:59.959
even deeper, relaxing, so very slow, his stomach, he's fallin's stuff.

1616
02:33:22.440 --> 02:33:56.479
You're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you now feel in

1617
02:33:56.680 --> 02:34:29.360
the hole of your back. Your spy from your brain

1618
02:34:29.879 --> 02:34:37.639
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

1619
02:34:38.000 --> 02:35:01.200
and receiving millions of messages every day, deep coomfort increasing

1620
02:35:11.760 --> 02:35:13.719
deeply rix.

1621
02:35:43.680 --> 02:35:44.440
You mes.

1622
02:36:10.040 --> 02:36:23.879
Relegs, spreading those signals down a spine or cord into air.

1623
02:36:24.079 --> 02:36:43.520
Every part of your body, your shins and your calf, muscles,

1624
02:37:10.760 --> 02:37:40.239
your elbows, Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1625
02:37:45.280 --> 02:38:01.559
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

1626
02:38:01.680 --> 02:38:47.319
wait till you lower back. Letting go, Rea, letting peace,

1627
02:39:03.200 --> 02:39:33.159
drifting mind just wandering away, happy to let go, let

1628
02:39:33.879 --> 02:40:39.200
go completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body enjoying

1629
02:40:39.360 --> 02:42:54.879
a sense of listing go he for more peace, for joy,

1630
02:43:00.680 --> 02:43:45.559
the space, this space of peace and safety, so fary, relaxed,

1631
02:45:15.440 --> 02:45:40.120
letting go. Maybe we can just focus on the different

1632
02:45:40.559 --> 02:46:15.319
parts of your body, just to notice a forehead and

1633
02:46:15.600 --> 02:47:17.200
your eyes, you too, so lose, noticing the sense of

1634
02:47:20.200 --> 02:49:25.000
complete freedom, absolute freedom PRIs pria pea'ce for energy peace

1635
02:49:25.680 --> 02:50:40.719
to breeze such EASi loose you may have you may

1636
02:50:40.879 --> 02:51:41.959
not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, move even more

1637
02:51:42.319 --> 02:52:05.840
deeply in the direction of total this for pace, bliss,

1638
02:52:06.079 --> 02:54:09.159
for pace terrefting, total peace. Come so calm, lett him

1639
02:54:09.239 --> 02:54:36.760
go peace with mind.

1640
02:54:46.040 --> 02:55:50.239
Rexed forty so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible,

1641
02:56:05.440 --> 02:56:43.520
So the very relaxed. I'm peaceful, So peace relax.

1642
02:56:49.959 --> 02:57:31.479
Liquors and you could start to notice that you are

1643
02:57:31.719 --> 02:57:43.239
feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your

1644
02:57:43.440 --> 02:57:51.799
mind upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing

1645
02:57:51.959 --> 02:58:00.799
within you throughout your body, and your mind starts to

1646
02:58:00.920 --> 02:58:10.959
slow down, And that could be almost in recognition of

1647
02:58:13.239 --> 02:58:25.319
I guess my speech not being particularly fast, and things

1648
02:58:25.719 --> 02:58:35.799
just generally feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice,

1649
02:58:38.879 --> 02:58:45.840
you give yourself an opportunity to take a break from

1650
02:58:45.879 --> 02:58:52.399
the day, take a break from your life as it is,

1651
02:58:55.840 --> 02:59:03.399
and to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to

1652
02:59:03.559 --> 02:59:08.799
take some time off, and to allow your body to

1653
02:59:08.959 --> 02:59:18.639
relax and allow your mind to slow down, which in

1654
02:59:18.799 --> 02:59:26.559
turn releases the tension and he stresses that you had

1655
02:59:26.639 --> 02:59:36.399
in your body. It's almost as if the parts of

1656
02:59:36.479 --> 02:59:48.399
your body just open up, allowing the negativity out and

1657
02:59:48.520 --> 02:59:56.959
at the same time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy,

1658
03:00:00.079 --> 03:00:04.639
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1659
03:00:06.280 --> 03:00:24.719
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1660
03:00:24.760 --> 03:00:41.879
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1661
03:00:41.959 --> 03:00:53.319
your body like a wave of comfort, and all this comes,

1662
03:00:53.520 --> 03:01:05.479
and just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour,

1663
03:01:05.959 --> 03:01:10.680
however long you want it to be, to just rest

1664
03:01:16.079 --> 03:01:24.920
and allow your mind and your body to almost reset

1665
03:01:25.639 --> 03:01:44.280
itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which

1666
03:01:44.360 --> 03:01:57.479
allows more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to

1667
03:01:57.799 --> 03:02:07.200
move around your body and into your mind, almost as

1668
03:02:07.239 --> 03:02:16.360
if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

1669
03:02:16.719 --> 03:02:30.719
mirroring each other, with that growing positivity and calmness. And

1670
03:02:30.840 --> 03:02:38.120
it feels nice. It really does feel nice to know

1671
03:02:38.399 --> 03:02:47.280
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1672
03:02:47.559 --> 03:03:01.520
feel more comfort and to experience more of this deep

1673
03:03:02.000 --> 03:03:18.040
relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on

1674
03:03:18.319 --> 03:03:24.000
each part of your body, you can notice that that

1675
03:03:24.360 --> 03:03:38.479
part becomes even more relaxed. Just by focusing on it.

1676
03:03:41.040 --> 03:03:50.680
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1677
03:03:54.760 --> 03:04:00.520
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1678
03:04:03.200 --> 03:04:09.879
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1679
03:04:10.079 --> 03:04:17.719
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1680
03:04:17.799 --> 03:04:31.120
on were just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1681
03:04:31.559 --> 03:04:44.559
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1682
03:04:44.639 --> 03:04:51.520
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1683
03:04:51.879 --> 03:05:00.479
of the feelings of your forehead and any backgrounds sounds.

1684
03:05:02.239 --> 03:05:07.079
But mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1685
03:05:07.280 --> 03:05:14.520
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1686
03:05:17.639 --> 03:05:23.000
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1687
03:05:26.440 --> 03:05:32.520
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1688
03:05:33.040 --> 03:05:43.520
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1689
03:05:43.799 --> 03:05:51.559
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1690
03:05:53.879 --> 03:05:58.360
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1691
03:06:03.520 --> 03:06:11.840
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1692
03:06:14.280 --> 03:06:24.000
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1693
03:06:24.040 --> 03:06:30.479
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1694
03:06:30.760 --> 03:06:45.159
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1695
03:06:45.639 --> 03:06:52.280
your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the whole of

1696
03:06:52.440 --> 03:07:07.200
your mouth relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1697
03:07:08.040 --> 03:07:14.879
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1698
03:07:15.040 --> 03:07:19.440
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1699
03:07:19.559 --> 03:07:25.920
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1700
03:07:26.200 --> 03:07:50.639
hole of your jaw feeding more relaxed and calm. Focusing

1701
03:07:54.159 --> 03:07:59.280
on your neck, the front of your neck and your

1702
03:07:59.440 --> 03:08:12.159
throat hm relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1703
03:08:12.280 --> 03:08:17.200
your neck, the right and the left side of your

1704
03:08:17.319 --> 03:08:36.120
neck relax and loose and calm. And now the back

1705
03:08:36.239 --> 03:08:42.959
of your neck, focusing on the back of your neck,

1706
03:08:48.920 --> 03:08:54.120
letting go of any tension that may have been there before,

1707
03:08:55.920 --> 03:09:10.000
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1708
03:09:10.239 --> 03:09:20.639
you can experience in the back of your neck. Moving

1709
03:09:20.920 --> 03:09:27.479
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1710
03:09:28.760 --> 03:09:33.479
right from the top of your back all the way

1711
03:09:33.719 --> 03:09:46.360
down to the bottom of your back, down to your

1712
03:09:46.479 --> 03:09:57.000
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1713
03:09:59.159 --> 03:10:03.559
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1714
03:10:05.799 --> 03:10:20.360
relaxing even more, and as those muscles relax that sense

1715
03:10:20.479 --> 03:10:30.920
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1716
03:10:31.159 --> 03:10:37.760
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1717
03:10:38.639 --> 03:10:44.879
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1718
03:10:46.600 --> 03:10:54.399
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1719
03:10:54.559 --> 03:10:59.680
muscles in the top of your back relax and become

1720
03:11:04.760 --> 03:11:10.719
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1721
03:11:10.840 --> 03:11:20.360
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting.

1722
03:11:26.159 --> 03:11:32.120
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1723
03:11:32.200 --> 03:11:46.399
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1724
03:11:48.680 --> 03:11:56.479
so down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1725
03:11:56.719 --> 03:12:05.440
area where your cosis are, and into your buttocks, and

1726
03:12:05.559 --> 03:12:14.760
all these muscles that spread from your lower back into

1727
03:12:14.840 --> 03:12:28.280
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go,

1728
03:12:35.000 --> 03:12:41.760
and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your

1729
03:12:41.959 --> 03:12:52.600
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1730
03:12:53.440 --> 03:13:08.319
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1731
03:13:10.079 --> 03:13:25.360
you may notice that they're already feeding, really loose, They're

1732
03:13:25.479 --> 03:13:52.159
already feeding calm and feeding. Those muscles then move from

1733
03:13:52.280 --> 03:14:07.799
your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1734
03:14:11.879 --> 03:14:33.479
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1735
03:14:40.840 --> 03:14:49.319
seens to spread deep into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation,

1736
03:14:50.559 --> 03:15:02.040
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1737
03:15:04.920 --> 03:15:14.760
the bones and moving all the way to underneath your arms,

1738
03:15:17.600 --> 03:15:23.559
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1739
03:15:24.879 --> 03:15:42.680
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1740
03:15:42.920 --> 03:15:58.479
comfortable in your shoulders. Who sends that deep healing message

1741
03:16:03.840 --> 03:16:15.479
into your arms? And you may feel almost as if

1742
03:16:15.559 --> 03:16:22.079
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1743
03:16:25.280 --> 03:17:11.440
so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose, not feeling

1744
03:17:11.799 --> 03:17:27.040
spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows, including

1745
03:17:28.760 --> 03:17:55.280
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into wrists, your forearments

1746
03:17:55.760 --> 03:18:11.200
and your wrists so heavy, yet at the same time

1747
03:18:18.799 --> 03:19:19.239
so light and gentle. Focus now on your hands, my hands,

1748
03:19:25.520 --> 03:19:55.120
so peaceful in your hands, the sense of real peace.

1749
03:20:06.879 --> 03:20:20.639
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1750
03:20:21.000 --> 03:21:58.000
relax deeply. E is your things? You things, sidles, you

1751
03:21:58.200 --> 03:22:31.680
think it's hips. Moving your attention to the front of

1752
03:22:31.840 --> 03:24:21.360
your body, so comfortable, moving your focus tu les lo

1753
03:24:21.879 --> 03:25:16.520
muscles in your thighs, your knees so relaxed, a carved

1754
03:25:16.719 --> 03:27:24.079
mussels and just shins what pusy a four mm and

1755
03:27:24.280 --> 03:27:45.520
the fathing and your feet so peaceful, so calm, so peaceful,

1756
03:27:52.639 --> 03:28:53.440
So calm, so peaceful, sycm so peace f relac peace

1757
03:28:54.200 --> 03:29:13.520
f s come allowing that deep relaxation to spread your chest,

1758
03:29:13.840 --> 03:29:45.399
in your stomach, letting go of everything. So I'm gonna

1759
03:29:45.440 --> 03:29:57.319
start counting down now from twenty down to one. You

1760
03:29:57.399 --> 03:30:01.040
can imagine in a way it's like walking down some

1761
03:30:01.360 --> 03:30:07.239
steps and each step or twenty steps, and each step

1762
03:30:07.479 --> 03:30:20.280
represents a level of comfort, each step represents a deepening

1763
03:30:22.280 --> 03:30:32.600
of that comfort, and the vervies you walk down those

1764
03:30:32.760 --> 03:30:45.680
steps a deeper and more relaxed you feel. So starting

1765
03:30:45.840 --> 03:35:18.479
with number twenty twenty nineteen, eighteen seventeen, sicksting three fourty

1766
03:36:18.040 --> 03:44:21.479
four two too well five eight nine hey seven four

1767
03:45:36.639 --> 03:51:30.239
five four two one. And now as you focus on

1768
03:51:30.360 --> 03:51:43.840
your eyes, we're going to count down from ten dout one,

1769
03:51:50.239 --> 03:51:59.760
focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around

1770
03:51:59.799 --> 03:52:11.360
your eyes, your eye waves themselves, our whole area that

1771
03:52:11.600 --> 03:52:25.680
makes up your eye. And as we count down from

1772
03:52:25.840 --> 03:52:33.840
ten down to one, whilst focus in on your eyes,

1773
03:52:40.159 --> 03:52:51.079
you'll become twice is relaxed with each number counting down

1774
03:52:55.200 --> 03:53:02.159
that you may find the all you want to do

1775
03:53:02.680 --> 03:53:11.639
is just drift off to sleep and If that's what

1776
03:53:11.920 --> 03:53:24.399
you want, then just allow yourself to do that. Now,

1777
03:53:27.399 --> 03:53:33.760
focusing on your eyes, I'm going to begin counting down

1778
03:53:35.280 --> 03:54:51.840
from ten down to one right now, ten nine eight

1779
03:55:45.360 --> 04:03:03.959
seven ye five four three two one two. Counting down

1780
04:03:04.040 --> 04:03:19.479
from ten to one ten nine eight seven six five

1781
04:03:21.840 --> 04:03:39.559
four three two one. And maybe that was a bit

1782
04:03:39.639 --> 04:03:43.719
too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit

1783
04:03:43.840 --> 04:03:50.319
too fast for you to notice the calming of your body,

1784
04:03:53.520 --> 04:03:58.079
maybe even a little bit of pressure there, Like you're

1785
04:03:58.159 --> 04:04:00.760
counting down from ten to one. What do you expect

1786
04:04:00.840 --> 04:04:03.680
me to do? Man, expect me to just STI go

1787
04:04:03.879 --> 04:04:13.520
with floppy just because you're counting down. We can try

1788
04:04:13.520 --> 04:04:19.879
it again, but this time I go this lower. This time,

1789
04:04:21.120 --> 04:04:26.079
as you focus on the whole of your body before

1790
04:04:26.200 --> 04:04:33.159
we focus on your legs. Just notice how your body

1791
04:04:33.280 --> 04:04:48.239
does start to feel more relaxed with every number that

1792
04:04:48.360 --> 04:05:39.360
I count down ten nine eight seven six five four

1793
04:05:46.799 --> 04:06:38.280
three two one. And just notice how how you feel generally,

1794
04:06:38.719 --> 04:06:53.000
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1795
04:06:53.159 --> 04:07:00.280
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1796
04:07:01.600 --> 04:07:20.079
that space between being active physically or mentally to just

1797
04:07:24.799 --> 04:07:30.000
sitting or lying down and just being there not doing anything,

1798
04:07:30.159 --> 04:07:36.799
not saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So

1799
04:07:37.479 --> 04:07:40.520
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

1800
04:07:40.559 --> 04:07:51.559
a space, a gap. And the more I came down

1801
04:07:51.600 --> 04:07:58.959
from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

1802
04:07:59.120 --> 04:08:11.520
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a

1803
04:08:11.639 --> 04:08:25.680
nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or discomforts physically

1804
04:08:25.879 --> 04:08:44.879
or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you to just slow down,

1805
04:08:48.520 --> 04:08:51.399
someone to count again from ten down to one, and

1806
04:08:51.639 --> 04:09:01.600
notice that gap widening, the gap. And as it widens,

1807
04:09:01.680 --> 04:09:07.680
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1808
04:09:07.799 --> 04:10:17.520
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1809
04:10:28.680 --> 04:11:40.840
four three two one. How does your body feel now?

1810
04:11:53.559 --> 04:12:09.840
Can you notice that you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

1811
04:12:32.319 --> 04:12:36.680
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1812
04:12:52.639 --> 04:13:12.799
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1813
04:13:12.920 --> 04:13:17.799
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1814
04:13:21.239 --> 04:13:23.879
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1815
04:13:24.040 --> 04:13:36.440
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1816
04:13:36.559 --> 04:13:42.959
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1817
04:13:43.120 --> 04:13:49.520
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer

1818
04:13:49.719 --> 04:13:54.760
thighs and your inner thighs, basically the whole of your

1819
04:13:54.879 --> 04:14:03.760
thigh that leads into your hip and it goes down

1820
04:14:03.959 --> 04:14:13.600
to your knee joint. Now this is a big area.

1821
04:14:18.079 --> 04:14:23.040
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the

1822
04:14:23.159 --> 04:14:37.840
strongest muscles in your body or in your thighs. But

1823
04:14:37.879 --> 04:14:46.319
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1824
04:14:52.239 --> 04:15:03.000
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1825
04:15:03.200 --> 04:15:23.799
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1826
04:15:23.920 --> 04:15:34.360
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1827
04:15:34.440 --> 04:15:42.840
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1828
04:15:42.959 --> 04:15:50.600
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1829
04:15:51.600 --> 04:16:09.520
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1830
04:16:09.680 --> 04:16:18.760
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1831
04:16:19.000 --> 04:16:25.719
sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I? Surely

1832
04:16:25.799 --> 04:16:28.600
I should be out in the garden hugging a tree

1833
04:16:28.760 --> 04:16:36.879
or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone up

1834
04:16:36.959 --> 04:16:40.280
on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise

1835
04:16:40.319 --> 04:16:43.680
I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I can't

1836
04:16:43.680 --> 04:16:52.479
see the television from the tree. If you move down

1837
04:16:52.520 --> 04:17:02.280
to your knees getting such an important part, and I

1838
04:17:02.360 --> 04:17:09.200
think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here, I

1839
04:17:09.280 --> 04:17:14.440
don't necessarily appreciate all that my nees do for me

1840
04:17:15.680 --> 04:17:20.879
until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1841
04:17:20.920 --> 04:17:25.920
if I ever maybe i'll bash it, or it's aching

1842
04:17:26.079 --> 04:17:32.440
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1843
04:17:32.600 --> 04:17:36.239
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1844
04:17:37.159 --> 04:17:46.360
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1845
04:17:47.200 --> 04:17:55.920
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1846
04:17:57.079 --> 04:18:04.040
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your knees,

1847
04:18:06.239 --> 04:18:11.879
regardless of how your knees feel, you can have that

1848
04:18:12.120 --> 04:18:18.280
sense of gratitude and love to your knees for all

1849
04:18:18.440 --> 04:18:30.639
that they do for you. And you can still have

1850
04:18:30.799 --> 04:18:34.959
that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how your

1851
04:18:35.040 --> 04:18:46.920
thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing more

1852
04:18:48.719 --> 04:19:00.360
deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of your eggs,

1853
04:19:00.799 --> 04:19:06.159
your shins and your calf muscles and the bones between

1854
04:19:06.399 --> 04:19:12.559
your knees and your feet incorporate, and of course your

1855
04:19:12.680 --> 04:19:25.760
ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like the slightest

1856
04:19:26.200 --> 04:19:32.239
sprain of an ankle. Knows how how much we take

1857
04:19:33.559 --> 04:19:42.360
our ankles for granted, And it's kind of strange in

1858
04:19:42.440 --> 04:19:47.639
a way when you think that. You know, logically, our

1859
04:19:47.719 --> 04:19:51.159
wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1860
04:19:52.280 --> 04:19:55.840
which is okay, it doesn't can't see any problem with

1861
04:19:55.920 --> 04:20:01.319
that because we're just picking stuff up. But her ankles

1862
04:20:03.159 --> 04:20:13.079
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1863
04:20:13.239 --> 04:20:17.719
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1864
04:20:17.799 --> 04:20:25.079
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1865
04:20:26.079 --> 04:20:36.079
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1866
04:20:37.559 --> 04:20:47.159
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1867
04:20:47.280 --> 04:20:57.239
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1868
04:20:59.559 --> 04:21:12.319
helps you to get her around and be mobile. And

1869
04:21:12.360 --> 04:21:20.040
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1870
04:21:20.440 --> 04:21:23.520
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. I didn't

1871
04:21:23.520 --> 04:21:28.840
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1872
04:21:29.639 --> 04:21:33.479
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1873
04:21:33.559 --> 04:21:37.680
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1874
04:21:37.799 --> 04:21:49.680
we use her legs, and your shins there to protect

1875
04:21:51.680 --> 04:22:00.360
your lower legs shaped in a way, almost as a

1876
04:22:00.399 --> 04:22:12.680
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1877
04:22:16.079 --> 04:22:22.639
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1878
04:22:22.760 --> 04:22:24.840
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1879
04:22:26.799 --> 04:22:31.399
And I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet,

1880
04:22:31.520 --> 04:22:36.120
it probably focuses on them anyway, So maybe I should

1881
04:22:36.239 --> 04:22:42.200
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1882
04:22:42.360 --> 04:22:47.559
them in your awareness the same as you have your

1883
04:22:47.680 --> 04:22:51.920
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1884
04:22:52.639 --> 04:22:57.399
on your thighs for a few minutes, we've been focusing

1885
04:22:57.520 --> 04:23:14.120
on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in

1886
04:23:14.280 --> 04:23:26.079
your thighs and this that movement of energy because the

1887
04:23:26.200 --> 04:23:33.799
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1888
04:23:34.399 --> 04:23:38.440
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs,

1889
04:23:47.200 --> 04:23:52.920
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1890
04:23:53.000 --> 04:23:57.520
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1891
04:23:57.799 --> 04:24:15.479
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

1892
04:24:15.639 --> 04:24:24.000
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1893
04:24:24.159 --> 04:24:29.959
the ar trees to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1894
04:24:34.280 --> 04:24:37.479
And I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1895
04:24:37.479 --> 04:24:42.840
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and a message,

1896
04:24:45.239 --> 04:24:48.760
so you can message on the outside, of course, but

1897
04:24:48.840 --> 04:24:51.959
to be able to get deep into the muscles and

1898
04:24:52.040 --> 04:24:57.200
to be able to just message inside your thighs, message

1899
04:24:57.239 --> 04:25:05.280
in the bones of your leg massage in all the

1900
04:25:05.440 --> 04:25:16.040
veins and just gently healing your thighs, and you could

1901
04:25:16.159 --> 04:25:23.079
move down message and inside your knees, just message in

1902
04:25:23.159 --> 04:25:30.520
those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy

1903
04:25:31.319 --> 04:25:41.040
deep into the joints of your knees. Of course, there's

1904
04:25:41.079 --> 04:25:44.959
the back of your your knee, you know, the inside

1905
04:25:45.159 --> 04:25:51.280
crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1906
04:25:53.319 --> 04:25:57.639
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1907
04:25:57.799 --> 04:26:01.520
might be because it's an air that's not really touched

1908
04:26:01.719 --> 04:26:08.280
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1909
04:26:10.399 --> 04:26:16.840
in your legs. It's almost like a part that has

1910
04:26:17.159 --> 04:26:27.920
a sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course,

1911
04:26:27.959 --> 04:26:38.479
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1912
04:26:39.360 --> 04:26:49.000
your fingers into that crease in your legs, that fold

1913
04:26:49.159 --> 04:26:53.280
in between your legs. You can just massage with your fingertips.

1914
04:26:54.440 --> 04:27:01.239
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1915
04:27:05.840 --> 04:27:10.120
You can of course, feel the bones of your knees

1916
04:27:11.600 --> 04:27:22.040
healing through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1917
04:27:24.920 --> 04:27:27.719
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1918
04:27:27.799 --> 04:27:32.520
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1919
04:27:33.280 --> 04:27:42.200
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1920
04:27:43.799 --> 04:27:53.719
healing every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

1921
04:27:56.920 --> 04:28:03.799
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1922
04:28:04.680 --> 04:28:08.840
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1923
04:28:09.000 --> 04:28:16.239
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1924
04:28:16.360 --> 04:28:19.879
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1925
04:28:19.959 --> 04:28:27.600
of our body, and more precious of any jure on

1926
04:28:27.760 --> 04:28:44.040
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1927
04:28:44.200 --> 04:28:55.319
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1928
04:28:55.520 --> 04:29:02.120
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1929
04:29:02.280 --> 04:29:10.440
idea of having love for your legs, shown appreciation for

1930
04:29:10.559 --> 04:29:16.600
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1931
04:29:17.600 --> 04:29:24.440
in your thighs and massage the muscles and the bones,

1932
04:29:26.319 --> 04:29:32.000
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1933
04:29:34.879 --> 04:29:43.520
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1934
04:29:44.399 --> 04:29:50.479
how much you care for what your legs do for you. Regularly,

1935
04:29:52.879 --> 04:30:03.040
your knees your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1936
04:30:06.000 --> 04:30:10.680
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1937
04:30:10.760 --> 04:30:20.520
your legs, especially your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible,

1938
04:30:24.319 --> 04:30:37.159
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

1939
04:30:37.200 --> 04:30:45.920
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1940
04:30:47.920 --> 04:30:52.319
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1941
04:30:52.440 --> 04:30:57.440
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1942
04:30:57.600 --> 04:31:04.319
these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier than eight

1943
04:31:04.399 --> 04:31:15.040
stone double down, Yet my ankles support my body all

1944
04:31:15.079 --> 04:31:21.520
the time. Whether they do give off a sigh of

1945
04:31:21.639 --> 04:31:26.920
relief when I sit down as you have my whole

1946
04:31:26.959 --> 04:31:36.479
legs do. My feet feet also go and my toes clap.

1947
04:31:37.680 --> 04:32:06.159
We're so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1948
04:32:06.319 --> 04:32:10.200
know that talk about talking about your legs is probably

1949
04:32:12.719 --> 04:32:17.399
possibly among the most most boring things I've ever heard

1950
04:32:17.440 --> 04:32:25.840
anyone say. Possibly they're boring or not. Everything I said

1951
04:32:25.959 --> 04:32:42.639
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1952
04:32:43.040 --> 04:33:01.479
just respect, they deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1953
04:33:01.639 --> 04:33:06.880
take some time out of the day to just let

1954
04:33:07.040 --> 04:33:43.000
go completely. Your legs really can relax. And because the

1955
04:33:43.119 --> 04:33:47.639
legs are so such a most you know, very important

1956
04:33:48.319 --> 04:33:52.799
part of your body. When you relax your legs, the

1957
04:33:52.959 --> 04:34:00.240
rest of your body also naturally follows in the at

1958
04:34:03.720 --> 04:34:14.560
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1959
04:34:15.959 --> 04:34:22.799
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

1960
04:34:22.919 --> 04:34:29.759
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1961
04:34:30.880 --> 04:34:33.919
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1962
04:34:34.000 --> 04:34:39.240
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1963
04:34:40.279 --> 04:34:42.919
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1964
04:34:43.159 --> 04:34:49.080
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1965
04:34:50.000 --> 04:35:11.240
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1966
04:35:11.319 --> 04:35:19.200
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1967
04:35:21.040 --> 04:35:47.319
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1968
04:35:51.959 --> 04:36:20.000
four three te why relaxed? So I'm just going to

1969
04:36:20.119 --> 04:36:25.479
count down from five down to one, and as a countdown,

1970
04:36:26.759 --> 04:36:31.520
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1971
04:36:33.159 --> 04:36:42.159
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1972
04:36:43.919 --> 04:36:48.319
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1973
04:36:48.479 --> 04:37:01.520
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1974
04:37:01.639 --> 04:37:09.959
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1975
04:37:10.040 --> 04:37:16.080
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1976
04:37:16.759 --> 04:37:33.799
there's nothing to think about starting with number five four

1977
04:37:43.319 --> 04:38:19.080
three two one. And as you notice the gradual letting

1978
04:38:19.200 --> 04:38:28.599
go the tension in your body, you may also begin

1979
04:38:28.919 --> 04:38:34.880
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1980
04:38:35.959 --> 04:38:43.799
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1981
04:38:44.279 --> 04:38:51.680
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1982
04:38:51.880 --> 04:38:58.080
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1983
04:38:58.119 --> 04:39:02.840
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1984
04:39:02.880 --> 04:39:08.119
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1985
04:39:14.159 --> 04:39:22.680
And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1986
04:39:22.840 --> 04:39:28.439
even even if there's background sounds either your side online,

1987
04:39:30.159 --> 04:39:36.080
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1988
04:39:36.159 --> 04:39:40.799
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1989
04:39:40.880 --> 04:39:44.080
background unless you're listening to the recording. With music, of course,

1990
04:39:49.000 --> 04:39:51.119
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1991
04:39:51.240 --> 04:39:54.360
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1992
04:39:55.680 --> 04:39:58.919
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1993
04:39:59.040 --> 04:40:10.360
your own, so no distractions. And when you stop thinking

1994
04:40:10.439 --> 04:40:27.599
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts

1995
04:40:27.680 --> 04:40:36.400
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1996
04:40:36.520 --> 04:40:48.639
something fantastical or something magical. This is just a natural process,

1997
04:40:51.000 --> 04:41:01.680
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1998
04:41:01.799 --> 04:41:08.680
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1999
04:41:08.840 --> 04:41:12.720
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

2000
04:41:12.799 --> 04:41:24.439
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

2001
04:41:24.880 --> 04:41:35.080
the process of this recording and others is simply two

2002
04:41:36.680 --> 04:41:47.040
allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

2003
04:41:50.439 --> 04:42:01.639
just let go, to just be here, to be in

2004
04:42:01.880 --> 04:42:17.279
tune with how you feel, yet with the intention of

2005
04:42:17.599 --> 04:42:28.680
wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

2006
04:42:29.880 --> 04:42:35.040
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

2007
04:42:36.799 --> 04:42:51.880
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

2008
04:42:53.119 --> 04:42:57.560
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

2009
04:42:57.639 --> 04:43:04.439
part is a tiny bit at the end. The deeper

2010
04:43:05.720 --> 04:43:28.040
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

2011
04:43:28.119 --> 04:43:34.720
you can also if you choose stay focused on my

2012
04:43:34.919 --> 04:44:02.919
voice and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each

2013
04:44:03.439 --> 04:44:30.000
muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation

2014
04:44:35.319 --> 04:44:50.959
of letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count

2015
04:44:51.040 --> 04:45:01.080
from six down to one, and you can notice your

2016
04:45:01.279 --> 04:45:11.599
mind calming down more with each number that you hear

2017
04:45:11.959 --> 04:45:34.119
me say naturally feeling calm and slow and peaceful sex

2018
04:46:00.319 --> 04:48:26.319
five four three two one, being aware of how your

2019
04:48:26.560 --> 04:48:55.639
mind to slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And

2020
04:48:55.799 --> 04:49:02.680
as you focus on your mind, you may notice that

2021
04:49:04.639 --> 04:49:12.400
there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

2022
04:49:12.599 --> 04:49:27.880
that for some reason perhaps need your attention. So what

2023
04:49:28.119 --> 04:49:40.400
you can do is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle

2024
04:49:41.080 --> 04:49:50.639
those thoughts with love like all petals from a flower.

2025
04:49:51.680 --> 04:49:58.560
Just sprinkle it over them, petals filled with love towards

2026
04:49:58.720 --> 04:50:05.279
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

2027
04:50:05.400 --> 04:50:11.520
abandoned in them. You just need them. You require them

2028
04:50:14.319 --> 04:50:22.400
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

2029
04:50:26.080 --> 04:50:26.479
For now.

2030
04:50:34.360 --> 04:50:39.360
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

2031
04:50:39.560 --> 04:50:44.759
count down this time from seven down to one with

2032
04:50:44.919 --> 04:50:58.799
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

2033
04:51:00.439 --> 04:51:12.279
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

2034
04:51:13.680 --> 04:51:28.720
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2035
04:51:28.840 --> 04:52:05.880
will become more and more relaxed, starting with number seven six,

2036
04:52:23.759 --> 04:54:13.119
five four three two one. Yeah, And as you now

2037
04:54:17.439 --> 04:54:38.639
notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body. We're going

2038
04:54:38.759 --> 04:54:52.439
to focus on your hands, because the more relaxed your

2039
04:54:52.639 --> 04:54:59.520
hands are, the more relaxed your body and mind are.

2040
04:55:14.439 --> 04:55:20.479
And there's you focus on your hands and your fingers.

2041
04:55:26.000 --> 04:55:30.759
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

2042
04:55:31.080 --> 04:55:35.400
fists or tents in the fingers or anything like that.

2043
04:55:42.840 --> 04:55:57.119
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing how

2044
04:55:57.200 --> 04:56:21.880
they feel, because the more relaxed your hands fell, the

2045
04:56:22.159 --> 04:56:31.560
calmer your mind feels, and the more comfort you feel

2046
04:56:33.639 --> 04:57:03.799
throughout your body. You may have already noticed your mind

2047
04:57:07.040 --> 04:57:36.840
is starting to drest faint, just on your hands and fingers,

2048
04:57:41.759 --> 04:57:55.560
allowing them to experience a real deepening of that relaxation

2049
04:57:57.319 --> 04:58:15.200
in your hands and fingers, more and more relaxed. With

2050
04:58:15.400 --> 04:58:34.040
each number from eight down to one, you can almost

2051
04:58:35.880 --> 04:58:45.479
feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading into your hands

2052
04:58:46.560 --> 04:59:07.759
and fingers, becoming year more relax with each number you hear,

2053
04:59:11.799 --> 04:59:27.000
going down from eight down to one, drifting drifting again,

2054
04:59:31.959 --> 05:02:43.560
starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two,

2055
05:03:32.599 --> 05:03:41.880
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2056
05:03:43.520 --> 05:03:57.439
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

2057
05:03:57.759 --> 05:04:05.319
is your natural stuff of being. This is how you

2058
05:04:05.639 --> 05:04:12.560
just normally feel when you take away all that other

2059
05:04:12.919 --> 05:04:19.880
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

2060
05:04:20.080 --> 05:04:36.279
worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

2061
05:04:38.479 --> 05:04:42.400
You take that away, which is what we do. What

2062
05:04:42.520 --> 05:04:54.919
we do now you're left with a real sense of

2063
05:04:55.840 --> 05:05:08.200
peacefulness which comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's

2064
05:05:08.479 --> 05:05:21.919
just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as

2065
05:05:21.959 --> 05:05:26.080
if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a special

2066
05:05:26.200 --> 05:05:39.840
place where everything is peaceful, a place where you can

2067
05:05:40.000 --> 05:05:50.639
feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a place

2068
05:05:50.680 --> 05:05:59.479
where you can be you, where you can accept yourself

2069
05:06:00.479 --> 05:06:05.560
for who you are, a place where you're not trying

2070
05:06:05.639 --> 05:06:16.000
to please anybody else ever, a place where you can

2071
05:06:17.720 --> 05:06:26.479
actually not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

2072
05:06:27.080 --> 05:06:44.159
you can like yourself appreciate who you are. That sense

2073
05:06:44.279 --> 05:06:57.919
of gratitude is in the air all around you. That's

2074
05:06:58.040 --> 05:07:06.400
also a place where you can actually feel the healing

2075
05:07:06.959 --> 05:07:21.840
energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body,

2076
05:07:26.799 --> 05:07:35.720
and that healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to

2077
05:07:36.080 --> 05:07:48.080
each and every single part of your body, and you

2078
05:07:48.240 --> 05:07:55.200
start to realize that actually that healing energy. It's not

2079
05:07:55.520 --> 05:08:02.959
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

2080
05:08:07.880 --> 05:08:14.520
and that spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

2081
05:08:19.799 --> 05:08:26.040
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

2082
05:08:28.119 --> 05:08:40.119
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

2083
05:08:40.279 --> 05:08:49.639
realize that actually, what's happening now with that healing, relaxing

2084
05:08:50.759 --> 05:08:58.639
energy spreading through your body, it's actually changing your life.

2085
05:09:03.799 --> 05:09:07.959
It's actually change in the way you're going to feel,

2086
05:09:08.880 --> 05:09:16.360
not just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As

2087
05:09:16.400 --> 05:09:23.919
your health improves, not just your physical health, but your

2088
05:09:24.040 --> 05:09:31.840
mental health. Things that used to bother you in the past,

2089
05:09:33.840 --> 05:09:39.639
for some reason, no longer have the effect that they

2090
05:09:39.880 --> 05:09:54.400
used to because something's changed deep within you. Maybe things

2091
05:09:54.720 --> 05:10:04.360
that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

2092
05:10:04.759 --> 05:10:14.400
have that power to control you the way they seem

2093
05:10:14.560 --> 05:10:23.400
to be able to before. As you realize that you're

2094
05:10:23.560 --> 05:10:36.200
the one who decides what affects you, you're the one

2095
05:10:36.840 --> 05:10:47.279
who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

2096
05:10:50.840 --> 05:11:05.360
to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to

2097
05:11:05.520 --> 05:11:19.919
grow and improve your life day by day, including of course,

2098
05:11:20.000 --> 05:11:37.400
your ability to relax so much easier and sleeping. It

2099
05:11:37.479 --> 05:11:43.040
is the most natural thing in the world to you,

2100
05:11:47.560 --> 05:11:54.720
because falling asleep is something that you've done so many

2101
05:11:54.919 --> 05:12:02.720
times in your life, and you know that you were born,

2102
05:12:04.240 --> 05:12:10.840
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

2103
05:12:15.040 --> 05:12:25.759
We were born with that ability to just drift off

2104
05:12:26.520 --> 05:12:39.639
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2105
05:12:39.720 --> 05:12:44.159
will fall asleep when we don't even want to try

2106
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to take us stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in

2107
05:12:48.520 --> 05:12:52.720
the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something we

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05:12:52.840 --> 05:12:55.279
look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

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But the more we want to stay awake, the more

2110
05:13:02.759 --> 05:13:11.080
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

2111
05:13:11.759 --> 05:13:14.599
the more you try to stop yourself and drift in asleep,

2112
05:13:16.759 --> 05:13:27.799
the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

2113
05:13:28.799 --> 05:13:34.599
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

2114
05:13:34.799 --> 05:13:44.639
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of

2115
05:13:44.759 --> 05:13:55.400
our DNA, and sometimes as we get older in life,

2116
05:13:56.759 --> 05:14:10.319
perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's

2117
05:14:10.439 --> 05:14:23.520
not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

2118
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It's very very easy to let go because that's all

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it is.

2120
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It's just.

2121
05:14:46.880 --> 05:14:58.319
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

2122
05:14:58.439 --> 05:15:08.680
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

2123
05:15:08.919 --> 05:15:17.040
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

2124
05:15:18.040 --> 05:15:26.479
you have given me permission for my words to affect

2125
05:15:28.959 --> 05:15:40.799
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

2126
05:15:46.000 --> 05:16:04.240
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

2127
05:16:08.799 --> 05:16:16.240
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2128
05:16:21.000 --> 05:16:30.840
as well as those changes that continue long after the

2129
05:16:30.959 --> 05:16:41.599
recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

2130
05:16:42.479 --> 05:16:57.040
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2131
05:17:00.159 --> 05:17:07.200
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2132
05:17:07.319 --> 05:17:24.560
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2133
05:17:24.880 --> 05:17:40.439
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This

2134
05:17:40.720 --> 05:17:54.360
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2135
05:18:02.240 --> 05:18:16.040
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

2136
05:18:19.119 --> 05:18:28.919
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2137
05:18:31.240 --> 05:18:43.560
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2138
05:18:43.639 --> 05:18:49.200
not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

2139
05:18:49.279 --> 05:19:01.159
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2140
05:19:01.279 --> 05:19:11.560
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2141
05:19:11.599 --> 05:19:22.439
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

2142
05:19:22.599 --> 05:19:36.560
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2143
05:19:37.159 --> 05:19:56.560
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

2144
05:20:04.680 --> 05:20:11.200
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2145
05:20:12.599 --> 05:20:27.959
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2146
05:20:28.159 --> 05:20:34.520
you're the person that has done this. You are the

2147
05:20:34.680 --> 05:20:39.759
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

2148
05:20:39.959 --> 05:20:47.840
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

2149
05:20:48.560 --> 05:20:57.840
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

2150
05:21:00.200 --> 05:21:06.759
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2151
05:21:07.799 --> 05:21:21.799
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2152
05:21:21.919 --> 05:21:33.479
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

2153
05:21:33.560 --> 05:21:38.560
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your mind.

2154
05:21:45.040 --> 05:21:55.680
To spend time in a special place where negativity can

2155
05:21:55.840 --> 05:22:08.560
no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's not

2156
05:22:08.639 --> 05:22:15.680
allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here,

2157
05:22:16.159 --> 05:22:25.159
doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in your life,

2158
05:22:35.159 --> 05:22:44.599
which makes room for more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation,

2159
05:22:49.479 --> 05:23:14.639
more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just let go

2160
05:23:16.599 --> 05:23:36.040
with everything. I'm going to count down now from twenty

2161
05:23:36.279 --> 05:23:45.959
down to one. You can continue to relax. If you choose,

2162
05:23:46.360 --> 05:24:00.200
you can drift to sleep. With every number, let me

2163
05:24:00.360 --> 05:24:12.279
say you can fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose,

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05:24:12.439 --> 05:25:31.840
you can feel twice a sleepy now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen.

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Twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight.

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Seven, six, five four. This is your time to just

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05:27:21.560 --> 05:27:36.240
take a break, your time to relax, to allow your

2168
05:27:36.560 --> 05:27:53.680
mind to slow down, to give yourself permission to take

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05:27:54.159 --> 05:28:07.159
a break from everything. And you you're the only person

2170
05:28:07.959 --> 05:28:13.840
that can make that decision. You're the only person that

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05:28:13.959 --> 05:28:29.959
can actually tell your mind to just relax, to just

2172
05:28:33.680 --> 05:28:46.560
take some time off so that you can focus on

2173
05:28:46.680 --> 05:28:53.959
your body, getting in touch with how you feel physically,

2174
05:29:02.840 --> 05:29:09.240
and in the process of this body scan, where you

2175
05:29:10.040 --> 05:29:20.479
focus on different parts of your body, those parts that

2176
05:29:20.599 --> 05:29:28.880
you focus on and observe. Even though you're not purposely

2177
05:29:30.080 --> 05:29:38.080
requesting for those parts of your body to relax, it's

2178
05:29:38.240 --> 05:29:44.479
kind of expected. You expect when you listen to my

2179
05:29:44.639 --> 05:29:57.560
voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening

2180
05:29:57.680 --> 05:30:12.400
to me, your attention is focused on my words, and

2181
05:30:12.560 --> 05:30:23.880
as my words guide you to focus on those parts

2182
05:30:24.040 --> 05:30:42.319
of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms your mind.

2183
05:30:50.279 --> 05:31:09.439
And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes. And

2184
05:31:09.599 --> 05:31:32.279
when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And even

2185
05:31:32.439 --> 05:31:39.479
though we've not really started the focus on your body,

2186
05:31:42.439 --> 05:31:53.520
you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

2187
05:31:58.400 --> 05:32:12.720
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

2188
05:32:12.799 --> 05:32:22.560
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

2189
05:32:22.639 --> 05:32:27.200
of your organs inside your body, all of the muscles,

2190
05:32:28.560 --> 05:32:35.680
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

2191
05:32:35.840 --> 05:32:49.240
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

2192
05:32:49.319 --> 05:33:05.599
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeling of

2193
05:33:05.799 --> 05:33:29.959
comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that

2194
05:33:33.439 --> 05:33:50.119
your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy because it's

2195
05:33:50.279 --> 05:33:56.599
not needed, and it may start.

2196
05:33:59.439 --> 05:33:59.720
To do.

2197
05:34:08.919 --> 05:34:15.560
If that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

2198
05:34:17.639 --> 05:34:21.880
and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you'll get.

2199
05:34:24.080 --> 05:34:25.560
If what you need is.

2200
05:34:27.240 --> 05:34:34.200
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

2201
05:34:36.759 --> 05:34:50.520
that's also but will happened because by pressing that play

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05:34:50.639 --> 05:34:56.000
button on the podcast and listening to me, you give

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05:34:56.319 --> 05:35:09.040
permission for your body and your mind. In fact, you

2204
05:35:09.200 --> 05:35:13.680
give the command to your body and your mind to

2205
05:35:13.840 --> 05:35:26.520
relax deeply and to drift off to sleep, if that's

2206
05:35:26.880 --> 05:35:28.759
what you want.

2207
05:35:31.919 --> 05:35:32.360
Or need.

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05:35:40.040 --> 05:35:45.720
And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

2209
05:35:50.680 --> 05:35:59.479
you may start to just drift. And then you come

2210
05:35:59.560 --> 05:36:04.880
back again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing

2211
05:36:05.040 --> 05:36:13.439
on a different part of your body, and you may

2212
05:36:15.520 --> 05:36:24.479
find yourself drifting, but you don't realize you're drifting until

2213
05:36:24.520 --> 05:36:31.040
you stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice.

2214
05:36:32.479 --> 05:36:38.360
Focusing on a different part of your body starts to

2215
05:36:38.520 --> 05:36:49.360
relax even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already

2216
05:36:51.680 --> 05:37:00.680
in the sleep zone. And the more where you drift,

2217
05:37:01.479 --> 05:37:09.599
the longer you drift, and the longer you drift, eventually

2218
05:37:11.400 --> 05:37:21.240
that drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last you

2219
05:37:21.400 --> 05:37:31.959
remember until you wake up in your own time when

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05:37:32.040 --> 05:37:40.599
you experience the right amount of sleep for you, because

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05:37:40.639 --> 05:37:45.520
when you do and if you do fall asleep, it's

2222
05:37:48.080 --> 05:38:12.560
extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep healing, mhm. Sleep. I'm

2223
05:38:12.560 --> 05:38:20.040
going to feel so nice to relax into your own

2224
05:38:20.200 --> 05:38:28.759
body and mind as you as you feel that heating

2225
05:38:29.040 --> 05:38:41.919
energy is spreading through it, relaxing us so deeply, relaxing,

2226
05:38:42.240 --> 05:38:59.000
use so so deeply as we start to focus on

2227
05:38:59.200 --> 05:39:21.159
your eye, Yes, moving down to your jaw, down to

2228
05:39:21.319 --> 05:40:09.680
your neck, your shoulders, palms, hands, fingers, you chest, stomach,

2229
05:40:17.000 --> 05:40:51.520
your back, your spine, you hips, your legs, your feet,

2230
05:41:00.360 --> 05:41:28.880
your toes, and then feeling, feeting, spreading and growing inside

2231
05:41:29.240 --> 05:41:42.880
your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again more

2232
05:41:42.959 --> 05:41:50.799
parts of your body. Focusing this time on your forehead.

2233
05:41:57.240 --> 05:42:06.639
Now on your mouth, lips, your tongue, the whole of

2234
05:42:06.720 --> 05:42:28.720
your mouth. Focus then on your fingers. Maybe you could

2235
05:42:30.319 --> 05:42:34.200
move your fingers a little bits. You can focus on

2236
05:42:34.439 --> 05:42:49.279
each one individually, both hands, and even though you focus

2237
05:42:49.400 --> 05:42:54.479
on both of your hands now they almost seem to

2238
05:42:54.720 --> 05:43:03.240
just melt into one. Where is your right hand, start

2239
05:43:03.400 --> 05:43:12.759
in your left hand end, almost as if we just

2240
05:43:13.040 --> 05:43:29.599
mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how

2241
05:43:29.680 --> 05:43:53.720
your knees fell. Now focusing on your elbows, focusing on

2242
05:43:53.919 --> 05:44:08.919
both of your elbows, just observing the feeling of your elbows.

2243
05:44:33.080 --> 05:44:50.240
Now focusing and observing the back of your neck, feeding

2244
05:44:50.599 --> 05:45:30.799
the energy on the back of your neck. Observing your ankles,

2245
05:45:40.279 --> 05:46:52.319
being aware of physical sensations in your ankles, not to sin, no,

2246
05:46:55.439 --> 05:47:13.919
you two's of your feet, being aware how your taste

2247
05:47:16.599 --> 05:48:08.279
feel right now, ninety sn how your entire body feels,

2248
05:48:17.919 --> 05:49:12.159
noticing your mind feels now, letting go, letting go, letting

2249
05:49:13.119 --> 05:50:01.560
go everything, letting go, letting go, letting go everything, every thing.

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05:50:07.799 --> 05:50:11.479
I'm going to start now, and i'd like you just,

2251
05:50:11.639 --> 05:50:17.279
first of all, just to see yourself lying down on

2252
05:50:17.400 --> 05:50:23.560
that message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

2253
05:50:23.959 --> 05:50:32.720
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing.

2254
05:50:32.799 --> 05:50:42.279
It's really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

2255
05:50:42.439 --> 05:50:44.599
how you look as well. So there's none of that

2256
05:50:44.799 --> 05:50:51.560
issue of body problems or shyness because I'm a professional

2257
05:50:52.720 --> 05:50:59.119
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

2258
05:50:59.240 --> 05:51:09.479
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

2259
05:51:09.880 --> 05:51:18.000
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

2260
05:51:18.080 --> 05:51:24.119
of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and

2261
05:51:24.319 --> 05:51:32.439
allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you by

2262
05:51:32.479 --> 05:51:40.959
a message your body. So I want to start off

2263
05:51:41.200 --> 05:51:46.080
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

2264
05:51:47.560 --> 05:51:52.880
just gently, just you can feel what my hands feel

2265
05:51:53.000 --> 05:51:59.720
like really on you, so you can maybe feel the

2266
05:51:59.759 --> 05:52:02.000
water pip my hands on the back of your head

2267
05:52:05.400 --> 05:52:07.560
and with my hands to the side of your head,

2268
05:52:08.560 --> 05:52:15.119
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

2269
05:52:15.200 --> 05:52:18.880
your ears and a little bit on your face, just

2270
05:52:18.959 --> 05:52:24.400
so you can feel my hands so you can become

2271
05:52:24.479 --> 05:52:37.479
accustomed to them. And now put my hands on the

2272
05:52:37.520 --> 05:52:42.240
back of your head again and gently let them slide

2273
05:52:42.319 --> 05:52:54.520
down onto the back of your neck. You can feel

2274
05:52:54.599 --> 05:53:04.599
my hands gently stroking the back of your neck to

2275
05:53:04.720 --> 05:53:11.200
start with, just so you can get used to the

2276
05:53:13.040 --> 05:53:16.599
feeling of my hands on your skin, get accustomed to

2277
05:53:20.599 --> 05:53:25.479
realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine.

2278
05:53:31.880 --> 05:53:35.959
And I'm going to start gently messaging the muscles in

2279
05:53:36.040 --> 05:53:51.880
the back of your neck with both hands. Now, this

2280
05:53:52.040 --> 05:53:58.279
is a very trusting situation, really, because our necks are

2281
05:53:58.360 --> 05:54:03.520
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

2282
05:54:03.599 --> 05:54:08.720
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2283
05:54:09.959 --> 05:54:14.400
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

2284
05:54:14.479 --> 05:54:24.439
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

2285
05:54:28.720 --> 05:54:40.599
to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a massage the

2286
05:54:40.919 --> 05:54:48.880
sides of your neck gently moving from the bottom of

2287
05:54:48.959 --> 05:54:52.680
your neck. It would be sort of near where your

2288
05:54:52.720 --> 05:54:58.439
shoulders start, I guess, all the way up to your jaw,

2289
05:55:00.200 --> 05:55:03.759
your ears kind of area that side of your neck,

2290
05:55:06.520 --> 05:55:09.080
of course, it's a lot longer than the front of

2291
05:55:09.159 --> 05:55:25.240
your neck. The message in the back of your neck,

2292
05:55:29.080 --> 05:55:37.880
especially that area where perhaps we hold tension, and as

2293
05:55:37.959 --> 05:55:42.599
that area's message, you can actually feel a sense of

2294
05:55:42.759 --> 05:55:50.799
release in the back of your neck and maybe you

2295
05:55:50.959 --> 05:55:56.279
can breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels.

2296
05:55:56.520 --> 05:56:09.159
Notice how you feel. And then moving down to that

2297
05:56:09.360 --> 05:56:14.680
area between your neck and your shoulders, that muscle area,

2298
05:56:17.400 --> 05:56:24.840
starting to message that area on both sides. I mean,

2299
05:56:24.880 --> 05:56:27.200
this would be the area that a lot of people

2300
05:56:27.240 --> 05:56:30.119
would message if they were going to give you, like

2301
05:56:30.240 --> 05:56:36.119
a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but

2302
05:56:36.279 --> 05:56:40.560
it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from

2303
05:56:40.599 --> 05:56:46.959
the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2304
05:56:48.200 --> 05:56:53.200
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful.

2305
05:56:56.279 --> 05:57:12.240
And you decide how deep that message, and just allow

2306
05:57:14.119 --> 05:57:19.200
my knuckles just to dig in to get to those

2307
05:57:19.360 --> 05:57:29.520
muscles and to really relaxed all the time being firm

2308
05:57:30.159 --> 05:57:47.279
yet gentle with you and just stroking down the area

2309
05:57:50.119 --> 05:57:55.680
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your

2310
05:57:55.720 --> 05:58:06.759
shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a

2311
05:58:06.799 --> 05:58:10.200
little bit off the table, just to give you a

2312
05:58:10.240 --> 05:58:20.799
little bit of a stretch, but very gently, and you've

2313
05:58:20.840 --> 05:58:24.000
got the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the

2314
05:58:24.240 --> 05:58:35.119
sides and the back. Again, this is a part that

2315
05:58:35.279 --> 05:58:40.520
can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a

2316
05:58:40.599 --> 05:58:50.799
bit of needing if if you wish to really release

2317
05:58:51.000 --> 05:58:59.360
the tension to really get into those muscles, and you

2318
05:58:59.400 --> 05:59:03.799
can leave fingers in there. I can feel really nice

2319
05:59:05.759 --> 05:59:13.279
sometimes just being stroked gently or being messaged quite strongly.

2320
05:59:17.000 --> 05:59:26.400
It can all be beneficial to the relaxation with the

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05:59:26.520 --> 05:59:39.959
muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down your arms,

2322
05:59:46.599 --> 05:59:50.119
we do one arm at a time, starting with your

2323
05:59:50.240 --> 06:00:00.959
right arm. Well ideas, I just lift your arm up,

2324
06:00:01.919 --> 06:00:07.119
just hold it to the side of you. The words

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06:00:07.159 --> 06:00:13.560
still be attached, and I just message the tops of

2326
06:00:13.680 --> 06:00:29.919
your arms all the way down to your forearms, into

2327
06:00:29.959 --> 06:00:53.880
your wrists, gently massaging that parts, the softer part which

2328
06:00:54.000 --> 06:01:00.240
is the under part of the arm, which leads it's

2329
06:01:00.319 --> 06:01:05.080
to the crease in your elbow. The inside. It's much

2330
06:01:05.639 --> 06:01:22.520
more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked, I feel

2331
06:01:22.680 --> 06:01:39.319
really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your

2332
06:01:39.439 --> 06:01:52.279
right hand, just holding your hand with both of my hands,

2333
06:01:58.119 --> 06:02:02.000
just pressing gently on the back of your hand and

2334
06:02:04.040 --> 06:02:12.919
stretching your fingers ever so lightly at the same time

2335
06:02:15.119 --> 06:02:28.159
pressing down and massaging each finger, and then starting to

2336
06:02:28.400 --> 06:02:39.680
massage the palms of the hand. Just turning the hand gently,

2337
06:02:41.439 --> 06:02:51.319
stretching it gently, and actually having your hand held can

2338
06:02:51.439 --> 06:02:58.240
really be an emotional experience sometimes even if it is

2339
06:02:58.479 --> 06:03:03.880
a stranger. So when you don't know very well, like

2340
06:03:04.040 --> 06:03:10.959
a massage person or a therapist, maybe because it's intimate

2341
06:03:18.520 --> 06:03:31.200
and you can feel nice, you can feel safe. And

2342
06:03:31.319 --> 06:03:34.479
as I put that right arm back down where it was,

2343
06:03:40.159 --> 06:03:47.080
we did the same with your left arm, exactly the same,

2344
06:03:51.799 --> 06:03:56.479
massage in the muscles in your arm, all the way

2345
06:03:56.599 --> 06:04:04.759
down to your wrist, stroking the inside of your arm,

2346
06:04:10.279 --> 06:04:23.759
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

2347
06:04:23.880 --> 06:04:40.319
then massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging

2348
06:04:40.560 --> 06:04:56.439
the palm of your left hand. You can feel so

2349
06:04:59.319 --> 06:05:24.599
so him, so comforting, and I just rest your left

2350
06:05:24.720 --> 06:05:38.840
down back down, start to message your back, the biggest

2351
06:05:39.000 --> 06:05:50.360
part of your body, starting at the top, starting again

2352
06:05:50.560 --> 06:05:53.840
where we already have been, an area at the top

2353
06:05:54.200 --> 06:06:01.000
in between his shoulders, near your neck. Going back a

2354
06:06:01.119 --> 06:06:06.360
massage in that area again, but this time moving downwards,

2355
06:06:12.840 --> 06:06:18.599
taking a downward stroke to the middle of your back,

2356
06:06:21.040 --> 06:06:26.479
working from the outside inwards. It's a massage in the

2357
06:06:28.799 --> 06:06:37.799
your back, but the the outsides of your back, the

2358
06:06:37.959 --> 06:06:53.520
parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the

2359
06:06:53.680 --> 06:07:06.919
part that connects your front to your back. Just messaging

2360
06:07:07.159 --> 06:07:18.919
down firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down,

2361
06:07:19.119 --> 06:07:22.720
and then moving across a little bed and moving all

2362
06:07:22.720 --> 06:07:28.599
the way down again. Be very gentle, you have firm

2363
06:07:28.799 --> 06:07:40.439
as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine. We

2364
06:07:40.560 --> 06:07:44.639
can massage the muscles and either side of your spine

2365
06:07:45.520 --> 06:07:48.520
from the top of your neck all the way down

2366
06:07:51.360 --> 06:07:59.959
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2367
06:08:03.319 --> 06:08:10.720
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, two

2368
06:08:10.880 --> 06:08:16.680
fingers and just go your side of the spine. Almost

2369
06:08:17.119 --> 06:08:20.159
just push down, go all the way down to the

2370
06:08:20.200 --> 06:08:28.799
bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening

2371
06:08:28.919 --> 06:08:37.959
up the body, stretching your body so that you feel

2372
06:08:38.759 --> 06:08:56.159
more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now

2373
06:08:56.240 --> 06:08:59.959
I'm going to move to one side, to your right side,

2374
06:09:04.919 --> 06:09:09.439
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis,

2375
06:09:10.520 --> 06:09:17.240
I'm gonna message that area of your back. I'll stretch

2376
06:09:17.360 --> 06:09:20.599
over the other side and i will pull the muscles

2377
06:09:21.200 --> 06:09:27.360
gently and massage and push from one end that side

2378
06:09:27.479 --> 06:09:31.479
or the way to my side to the middle of

2379
06:09:31.599 --> 06:09:37.159
fact to where your spine is. Massage in that side

2380
06:09:37.200 --> 06:09:41.560
of your spine, the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2381
06:09:43.959 --> 06:09:49.919
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

2382
06:09:50.040 --> 06:10:01.799
is firm yet lots there to massage. Potentially one of

2383
06:10:01.840 --> 06:10:08.479
the most important places to actually have a message because

2384
06:10:08.560 --> 06:10:14.400
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

2385
06:10:14.520 --> 06:10:22.720
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

2386
06:10:23.080 --> 06:10:31.360
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

2387
06:10:31.520 --> 06:10:37.599
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2388
06:10:46.959 --> 06:10:49.799
The message in this part of your body not only

2389
06:10:49.919 --> 06:10:54.680
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2390
06:10:56.159 --> 06:11:01.799
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2391
06:11:01.880 --> 06:11:05.720
a part that you can really get hold of and

2392
06:11:05.919 --> 06:11:19.560
really message deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going

2393
06:11:19.599 --> 06:11:21.599
to move over to the other side of your body

2394
06:11:22.119 --> 06:11:30.799
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2395
06:11:30.880 --> 06:11:37.959
lawer back, kneading and messaging from your sides all the

2396
06:11:38.040 --> 06:11:45.360
way to the middle of your back where your spine is.

2397
06:11:49.759 --> 06:11:59.040
Pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2398
06:12:01.000 --> 06:12:13.520
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2399
06:12:13.880 --> 06:12:25.520
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2400
06:12:25.599 --> 06:12:30.759
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2401
06:12:30.840 --> 06:12:35.119
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2402
06:12:35.279 --> 06:12:46.680
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2403
06:12:46.720 --> 06:12:51.639
to move or move further up to your top of

2404
06:12:51.720 --> 06:12:56.159
your body and I we do the same this time,

2405
06:12:57.479 --> 06:13:04.279
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

2406
06:13:05.599 --> 06:13:11.799
and mass massage in that area up to your spine,

2407
06:13:12.959 --> 06:13:15.560
from the side of your body up to your spine.

2408
06:13:17.360 --> 06:13:23.520
So some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or

2409
06:13:23.560 --> 06:13:27.560
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

2410
06:13:29.400 --> 06:13:36.799
because all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm

2411
06:13:36.880 --> 06:13:40.080
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2412
06:13:40.319 --> 06:13:51.000
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

2413
06:13:51.159 --> 06:13:59.560
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

2414
06:13:59.680 --> 06:14:02.400
then I'm move down a bit and I continue with

2415
06:14:02.560 --> 06:14:05.400
the middle of your back doing exactly the same thing

2416
06:14:09.319 --> 06:14:22.799
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'll

2417
06:14:22.880 --> 06:14:26.959
move or the other side again and do the exact

2418
06:14:27.159 --> 06:14:30.880
same thing with the top of your back on the

2419
06:14:31.000 --> 06:14:40.520
other side from pretty much underneath your arm area really

2420
06:14:45.959 --> 06:14:53.520
to your spine, and then continue.

2421
06:14:52.959 --> 06:14:53.200
In that.

2422
06:14:55.279 --> 06:15:00.080
All the way down, including your lower your middle of

2423
06:15:00.119 --> 06:15:18.680
your back. I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs

2424
06:15:18.720 --> 06:15:28.319
of your thighs, and the sides of your thighs, starting

2425
06:15:28.400 --> 06:15:37.000
with your right leg. Massage in the back and the

2426
06:15:37.200 --> 06:15:45.799
sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a lot

2427
06:15:45.840 --> 06:15:49.319
of muscles there. It's an area that can be very

2428
06:15:49.479 --> 06:15:53.680
tense at times and maybe needs a little bit more

2429
06:15:53.759 --> 06:15:57.439
pressure than the rest of the body that's up to you.

2430
06:16:02.360 --> 06:16:08.240
You can gently stroke the back of your legs where

2431
06:16:09.240 --> 06:16:14.119
you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath your knee joint,

2432
06:16:15.279 --> 06:16:27.400
very sensitive, gentle area. And then working down to your

2433
06:16:28.200 --> 06:16:36.479
calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply,

2434
06:16:37.639 --> 06:16:49.479
if you choose, using both hands and fingers, digging deep

2435
06:16:57.880 --> 06:17:03.119
to your ankles, h in the back of your back

2436
06:17:03.200 --> 06:17:14.720
of your ankles, just gently massage in that area, maybe

2437
06:17:17.479 --> 06:17:31.880
lifting the leg and stretching a little bit. Moving to

2438
06:17:32.080 --> 06:17:50.799
the right foot, massaging the bottom of your feet and

2439
06:17:50.959 --> 06:18:02.200
the size of your feet gently but firm enough so

2440
06:18:02.319 --> 06:18:13.040
they don't tickle, and just allow the pleasure that you

2441
06:18:13.240 --> 06:18:19.279
get from heaving your feet massaged to just overtake you.

2442
06:18:22.599 --> 06:18:28.200
As I continue to message your feet, the bottoms of

2443
06:18:28.279 --> 06:18:38.080
your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel. You can

2444
06:18:38.119 --> 06:18:41.119
put a lot of pressure into your heel and it

2445
06:18:41.279 --> 06:18:46.240
feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be a bit

2446
06:18:46.319 --> 06:18:58.000
more gentle. Stretching your toes gently, the message in the

2447
06:18:58.119 --> 06:19:06.159
bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each one individually,

2448
06:19:14.599 --> 06:19:18.439
moving her to the left leg to do exactly the

2449
06:19:18.560 --> 06:19:28.919
same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs, work

2450
06:19:28.959 --> 06:19:33.560
in the back of the thighs and the sides, massaging

2451
06:19:33.759 --> 06:19:43.919
deeply and gently that whole area, working all the way down.

2452
06:19:50.919 --> 06:19:56.680
And this is an area that maybe you could like

2453
06:19:56.840 --> 06:20:03.959
to spend more time relax seeing the message in. So

2454
06:20:04.119 --> 06:20:10.200
perhaps if you wanted like a bigger future recording where

2455
06:20:10.319 --> 06:20:19.200
spend more time on one particular area. As you move

2456
06:20:19.360 --> 06:20:33.959
down to your calf muscles, massage your calf muscles firmly

2457
06:20:36.000 --> 06:20:49.959
and gently, moving down your aincor into your feet, Massage

2458
06:20:50.080 --> 06:20:55.560
in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet,

2459
06:21:00.720 --> 06:21:07.759
stretching your toes and message in each tone individually, and

2460
06:21:07.880 --> 06:21:13.560
the feeling of pleasure and release that you experience when

2461
06:21:13.639 --> 06:21:35.560
your having your feet massaged feels really good. Now, she

2462
06:21:35.799 --> 06:21:47.159
turn over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm

2463
06:21:47.200 --> 06:21:59.680
just going to start again for your neck area and

2464
06:21:59.799 --> 06:22:08.159
you shoulders, just to get back in touch with that area.

2465
06:22:15.040 --> 06:22:25.400
And as you move up, I can clean my hands

2466
06:22:26.720 --> 06:22:30.520
make them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your

2467
06:22:30.599 --> 06:22:46.400
face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are

2468
06:22:46.520 --> 06:22:52.720
closed and I can just stretch your eyes a little bit,

2469
06:22:53.799 --> 06:23:04.799
pushing up on your eyebrows and just massaging around your scalp,

2470
06:23:10.520 --> 06:23:20.000
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw

2471
06:23:21.200 --> 06:23:39.759
gently the side of your neck, your chin m hm,

2472
06:23:43.599 --> 06:23:51.319
and just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2473
06:23:55.080 --> 06:23:59.119
starting by massage in the very top of your chest

2474
06:24:02.959 --> 06:24:08.200
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2475
06:24:16.680 --> 06:24:19.880
and then just message in the hole of the chest,

2476
06:24:29.080 --> 06:24:41.119
moving the chest around. Because it's quite a large area.

2477
06:24:43.040 --> 06:24:50.479
You can move from one side to the next, moving

2478
06:24:50.880 --> 06:25:01.880
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are, stretching up,

2479
06:25:04.040 --> 06:25:07.080
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2480
06:25:12.360 --> 06:25:21.040
moving up over your chest and then moving down again

2481
06:25:33.639 --> 06:25:38.439
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

2482
06:25:38.720 --> 06:25:45.439
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2483
06:25:45.560 --> 06:25:55.159
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2484
06:25:55.479 --> 06:26:01.080
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

2485
06:26:01.240 --> 06:26:19.759
down to just below your rib cage, moving down and

2486
06:26:19.840 --> 06:26:27.479
then messaging up again, giving your chest all the attention

2487
06:26:29.279 --> 06:26:43.599
that it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm

2488
06:26:43.639 --> 06:26:47.560
also going to be focusing on your sides as well,

2489
06:26:49.159 --> 06:26:55.360
an area that really doesn't get much attention but feels

2490
06:26:55.439 --> 06:27:05.840
really good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down

2491
06:27:06.000 --> 06:27:13.159
the sides of your body, just below your arms, all

2492
06:27:13.159 --> 06:27:25.680
the way down to your hips. Now move into your

2493
06:27:25.759 --> 06:27:31.200
stomach area. We're going to stand one side of you

2494
06:27:31.880 --> 06:27:36.400
like I did when I did your lower back. We're

2495
06:27:36.400 --> 06:27:41.880
gonna do a similar process of just stretching the muscles

2496
06:27:41.959 --> 06:27:55.599
from your side, gently massaging from one side to the next,

2497
06:27:57.919 --> 06:28:04.680
move in a whole area from below your ribs all

2498
06:28:04.799 --> 06:28:15.200
the way down to below your belly button, and then

2499
06:28:15.439 --> 06:28:18.639
move around to the other side of you and repeat

2500
06:28:18.720 --> 06:28:38.520
that process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you

2501
06:28:38.680 --> 06:28:44.639
feel free. And it's something about having your stomach message

2502
06:28:45.880 --> 06:28:52.560
that's different from any other part because we do have

2503
06:28:52.759 --> 06:28:57.159
a tendency of holding a different kind of stress in

2504
06:28:57.279 --> 06:29:06.799
our stomachs that we may not be aware of. There's

2505
06:29:06.840 --> 06:29:12.360
a now, massage your stomach. In front of your stomach.

2506
06:29:14.319 --> 06:29:24.919
They can circles around your belly button and then go

2507
06:29:25.240 --> 06:29:35.000
the other way around. There's a gentleness and a freedom

2508
06:29:35.119 --> 06:29:46.279
that comes from feeling how you're feeling as a Now,

2509
06:29:46.520 --> 06:29:54.360
move down the tops of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them,

2510
06:29:55.919 --> 06:29:59.319
and I can do this two legs at the same time,

2511
06:30:01.520 --> 06:30:10.919
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, at

2512
06:30:11.000 --> 06:30:19.680
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2513
06:30:20.639 --> 06:30:33.279
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2514
06:30:33.360 --> 06:30:41.119
on either side of your shin gently, softly but firmly,

2515
06:30:45.279 --> 06:30:54.959
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2516
06:31:01.119 --> 06:31:06.520
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2517
06:31:06.759 --> 06:31:15.080
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2518
06:31:15.880 --> 06:31:24.159
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2519
06:31:24.279 --> 06:31:34.639
your feet. Feels so good. Just let go and enjoy

2520
06:31:35.119 --> 06:31:59.159
the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed. So much comfort

2521
06:31:59.360 --> 06:32:06.319
and so many feelings come just from touching your skin.

2522
06:32:17.040 --> 06:32:23.000
And you can just lie there for as long as

2523
06:32:23.080 --> 06:32:35.639
you choose enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being

2524
06:32:35.799 --> 06:33:07.560
massaged by me, enjoy feeling deeply right. And all we're

2525
06:33:07.599 --> 06:33:16.759
going to do is blow out some candles. In your mind,

2526
06:33:28.360 --> 06:33:38.639
there are going to be a hundred candles, and you're

2527
06:33:38.639 --> 06:33:44.959
going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2528
06:33:47.599 --> 06:33:57.279
starting at one hundred. As I count down all the

2529
06:33:57.319 --> 06:34:05.119
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

2530
06:34:10.639 --> 06:34:17.479
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2531
06:34:17.520 --> 06:34:27.319
I'd like you to actually physically generally blow that candle out,

2532
06:34:33.639 --> 06:34:45.799
just so it's not big blows, just a gentle, and

2533
06:34:46.000 --> 06:34:55.560
that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the next

2534
06:34:55.680 --> 06:35:06.599
number to move down, and you can just blow that

2535
06:35:06.759 --> 06:35:16.720
one out as well. And as we move down the numbers,

2536
06:35:21.240 --> 06:35:29.840
you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed, and if

2537
06:35:29.880 --> 06:35:38.319
you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly

2538
06:35:38.840 --> 06:35:51.560
tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to blow

2539
06:35:51.599 --> 06:36:05.639
out all one hundred of these candles as you feel

2540
06:36:08.599 --> 06:36:32.279
more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired,

2541
06:36:36.599 --> 06:36:44.400
And the further you go down, the more your mind

2542
06:36:46.200 --> 06:36:58.520
starts to drift you may find that you stop listening

2543
06:36:58.759 --> 06:37:11.319
to me after a while, and even though there may

2544
06:37:11.400 --> 06:37:20.119
be background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of

2545
06:37:20.240 --> 06:37:25.439
those sounds at the moment.

2546
06:37:30.439 --> 06:37:30.919
Be me.

2547
06:37:34.439 --> 06:37:49.240
Start to just not even notice them at all because

2548
06:37:49.400 --> 06:38:02.959
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2549
06:38:03.080 --> 06:38:10.000
the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say

2550
06:38:10.080 --> 06:38:16.360
hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2551
06:38:19.400 --> 06:38:32.799
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, But none of

2552
06:38:32.880 --> 06:38:46.959
that scens important. Whatsoever? Are candles you blow out? The

2553
06:38:47.119 --> 06:39:03.919
less important? Anything is more candles you blow out the

2554
06:39:04.159 --> 06:39:20.680
further seemed to move away from sounds and from general

2555
06:39:24.119 --> 06:39:35.360
date days. Stuff seems to just move away on its own.

2556
06:39:40.639 --> 06:39:51.720
You feel more calm with every candle you blow out,

2557
06:40:01.520 --> 06:40:11.599
guiding you to the next number. Do you hear me say?

2558
06:40:18.680 --> 06:40:30.919
And then you blow that candle out to So easy,

2559
06:40:35.799 --> 06:40:56.439
so simple. We're gonna start by introducing the first candle,

2560
06:41:00.000 --> 06:41:12.240
which is one hundred. First candle, she is one hundred.

2561
06:41:17.119 --> 06:41:31.279
When you blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a

2562
06:41:31.919 --> 06:41:45.880
slight change in how you feel, as well as a

2563
06:41:46.040 --> 06:42:02.959
real sense of positivity growing within you. Relax say shin sleepiness,

2564
06:42:07.119 --> 06:42:30.720
expanding starting with one hundred blow out that candle now

2565
06:42:45.720 --> 06:44:02.720
ninety nine, candle ninety eight, can do ninety seven, CAMN

2566
06:44:12.479 --> 06:45:41.599
ninety six, ten ninety five, hand ninety four, candle ninety

2567
06:45:43.439 --> 06:47:03.000
three and ninety two and a NINETI one can to

2568
06:47:05.880 --> 06:49:22.000
ninety and eight nine and eighty eight and eighty cand

2569
06:49:33.520 --> 06:53:04.919
eighty eight five fen haen anden eighty two seven two one,

2570
06:54:40.799 --> 06:55:21.880
keen seventy nine and do seventy eight, candle seventy seven,

2571
06:55:33.240 --> 06:56:34.439
candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle

2572
06:56:38.560 --> 06:57:43.080
seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one,

2573
06:57:54.720 --> 06:58:50.159
candle seventy and do sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle

2574
06:58:52.279 --> 06:59:55.479
sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four,

2575
07:00:11.479 --> 07:01:15.560
candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one, candle sixty

2576
07:01:45.040 --> 07:02:56.360
and fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle

2577
07:03:02.360 --> 07:04:29.200
fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three,

2578
07:04:47.319 --> 07:06:26.560
candle fifty two, fifty two ten to fifty two, candle

2579
07:06:30.520 --> 07:08:03.599
fifty one, candle fifty candle fourty nine, candle forty eight,

2580
07:08:41.040 --> 07:10:21.240
candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five, no

2581
07:10:25.919 --> 07:10:26.919
forty two.

2582
07:11:07.080 --> 07:12:36.400
Candle what do you want? Candle forty ten, thirty nine,

2583
07:13:10.479 --> 07:14:31.799
can't do thirty eight, I can't do thirty seven, ten two,

2584
07:14:34.200 --> 07:16:37.680
thirty five, cant thirty four, can't do thirty three, handle

2585
07:16:41.080 --> 07:19:36.319
thirty one, chandle thirty and twoin ten nine ten, twenty

2586
07:19:36.520 --> 07:22:02.520
eights and twenty seven came twenty six, chendle twenty five.

2587
07:22:40.799 --> 07:24:09.520
And tif four ten, twenty three and twenty deep two

2588
07:24:42.240 --> 07:24:48.439
and twenty two one.

2589
07:25:23.119 --> 07:25:23.799
And to.

2590
07:25:28.040 --> 07:26:06.360
Wity en.

2591
07:26:31.279 --> 07:26:31.799
Can do.

2592
07:26:34.959 --> 07:31:37.639
Ninety haendle seventeen sixteen, chancel fourt endu well fo and

2593
07:31:39.040 --> 07:36:10.080
eleven and jame do nine ten eight n six, can't do,

2594
07:36:56.080 --> 07:40:00.639
can do four, can do seven two chant leque. Of

2595
07:40:00.880 --> 07:40:09.000
all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts

2596
07:40:09.080 --> 07:40:13.919
about the future, and even things you've been thinking about today,

2597
07:40:16.000 --> 07:40:21.119
just let it all go because none of it is

2598
07:40:21.360 --> 07:40:35.759
useful in this moment. This is your opportunity to just

2599
07:40:36.159 --> 07:40:50.520
focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch

2600
07:40:50.680 --> 07:40:59.880
with that natural sense of peace that we all have

2601
07:41:00.119 --> 07:41:07.040
have within us. It's available for everyone. It just sometimes

2602
07:41:07.240 --> 07:41:11.759
takes a little bit of effort to set up the

2603
07:41:11.959 --> 07:41:18.040
right time and place in order for you to just

2604
07:41:18.400 --> 07:41:27.000
let go. Because when you do decide to let go

2605
07:41:27.159 --> 07:41:35.799
and relax, that's what your body starts to do because

2606
07:41:35.880 --> 07:41:43.439
you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow your body to

2607
07:41:43.720 --> 07:41:51.840
unwind and your mind starts to slow down. And it's

2608
07:41:51.880 --> 07:41:56.520
a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at the beginning,

2609
07:41:56.759 --> 07:42:05.000
just to know that you have chosen to decide to

2610
07:42:05.680 --> 07:42:13.439
relax deeply, and because you've made that decision, your body

2611
07:42:14.680 --> 07:42:20.680
will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the muscles in

2612
07:42:20.799 --> 07:42:26.520
your body need is just permission from you to relax.

2613
07:42:30.560 --> 07:42:35.360
Because so often we're busy, we're going from here to there,

2614
07:42:35.520 --> 07:42:41.279
we're walking around and we're doing stuff, and the body

2615
07:42:41.319 --> 07:42:49.400
doesn't have any time or space to really relax deeply.

2616
07:42:52.880 --> 07:42:55.520
So it kind of waits for you to lead the way,

2617
07:42:57.639 --> 07:43:07.119
waits for your permission. And when you do give your

2618
07:43:07.200 --> 07:43:11.919
permission and you give the say so we need say okay,

2619
07:43:13.240 --> 07:43:20.279
it's time for your body to let go completely and

2620
07:43:20.400 --> 07:43:31.840
relax totally, your body just follows. It's like a breath

2621
07:43:31.919 --> 07:43:41.000
of relief. Ah, good, I can now relax that feeling

2622
07:43:42.000 --> 07:43:44.840
at the end of a day, of a very physical

2623
07:43:45.080 --> 07:43:48.799
day that you may experience in the past, where you

2624
07:43:48.919 --> 07:43:51.680
get home and you just sit down on a chair,

2625
07:43:52.759 --> 07:43:56.599
maybe you kick your shoes off and not ah, feels

2626
07:43:56.959 --> 07:44:03.639
so nice. You don't have to get up again for

2627
07:44:03.720 --> 07:44:07.159
a little while at least if you choose, you can

2628
07:44:07.360 --> 07:44:16.319
just sit there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful.

2629
07:44:20.400 --> 07:44:25.080
And just by sitting down like that, your body knows

2630
07:44:25.680 --> 07:44:30.599
that it's time to relax. Your body has been given

2631
07:44:30.720 --> 07:44:37.639
permission from you. Because it's a mindset in your mind.

2632
07:44:41.000 --> 07:44:51.439
You're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

2633
07:44:52.599 --> 07:45:01.400
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any

2634
07:45:01.639 --> 07:45:15.560
tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

2635
07:45:21.159 --> 07:45:28.200
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

2636
07:45:28.319 --> 07:45:34.759
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

2637
07:45:34.880 --> 07:45:38.520
unusual when you first start to relax, if you if

2638
07:45:38.560 --> 07:45:42.919
you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

2639
07:45:43.639 --> 07:45:48.119
giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax,

2640
07:45:49.119 --> 07:45:55.799
they seem more most alien, but it isn't. It's actually

2641
07:45:57.119 --> 07:46:02.279
the most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2642
07:46:04.000 --> 07:46:11.799
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

2643
07:46:14.439 --> 07:46:24.520
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind,

2644
07:46:27.119 --> 07:46:34.799
and it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2645
07:46:34.959 --> 07:46:42.520
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2646
07:46:43.880 --> 07:46:47.319
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2647
07:46:47.400 --> 07:46:51.319
inside of the clock, just unwinding, and it's almost like

2648
07:46:51.479 --> 07:46:56.080
you could see the little wind up knob that it's

2649
07:46:56.279 --> 07:47:01.000
used just going the opposite way that you choose to

2650
07:47:01.159 --> 07:47:09.240
wind it up, and the energy that frenetic stress for

2651
07:47:09.759 --> 07:47:19.200
energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength

2652
07:47:21.720 --> 07:47:30.959
as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

2653
07:47:31.319 --> 07:47:39.439
you may find a the more relaxed you feel, that

2654
07:47:39.560 --> 07:47:49.279
your mind starts to wonder. Maybe you seem to stop

2655
07:47:49.439 --> 07:47:53.560
listening to me for a while, and your mind goes

2656
07:47:53.720 --> 07:47:59.040
somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening to me again,

2657
07:48:01.759 --> 07:48:05.000
and that was just your mind to drifting to sleep,

2658
07:48:08.240 --> 07:48:18.400
which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense,

2659
07:48:19.680 --> 07:48:23.560
we're not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

2660
07:48:24.720 --> 07:48:33.159
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2661
07:48:33.319 --> 07:48:40.119
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely.

2662
07:48:41.319 --> 07:48:43.279
And you let go of all.

2663
07:48:43.560 --> 07:48:52.959
Thoughts concerns, worries, ideas all letting them go allow them

2664
07:48:53.040 --> 07:49:03.360
to drop onto the floor. You start to get in

2665
07:49:03.560 --> 07:49:14.639
touch with the feelings of such relaxation. This feels so

2666
07:49:15.000 --> 07:49:22.840
nice to be in touch with the calmness of the

2667
07:49:22.919 --> 07:49:36.080
different body parts as they become looser and looser. Even

2668
07:49:36.319 --> 07:49:48.040
your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as that

2669
07:49:48.400 --> 07:49:53.959
cool audenters through your mouth or nose into your lungs,

2670
07:49:56.639 --> 07:50:05.520
breathing in comforts relaxation, and then just breathing out any

2671
07:50:06.720 --> 07:50:14.119
excess remain intention or stress from every part of your

2672
07:50:14.200 --> 07:50:21.959
body and mind. And as you start to focus on

2673
07:50:22.119 --> 07:50:30.400
your mind, maybe you notice that things come to a

2674
07:50:30.599 --> 07:50:41.319
standstill or maybe just much much lower than before, because

2675
07:50:41.400 --> 07:50:48.720
your mind is not really needed when listening to my voice,

2676
07:50:52.599 --> 07:50:58.720
which allows your mind to relax just as deeply as

2677
07:50:58.840 --> 07:51:09.319
your body. And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your

2678
07:51:09.560 --> 07:51:19.439
body and relaxation of your mind. Let you know that

2679
07:51:21.639 --> 07:51:34.080
feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed really is a great

2680
07:51:35.040 --> 07:51:52.080
healing experience fear and has so many positive benefits for

2681
07:51:52.200 --> 07:51:58.319
your body, mind, and your life. To be able to

2682
07:51:58.560 --> 07:52:09.400
let go over everything and to relax completely in all

2683
07:52:10.040 --> 07:52:17.599
parts of your body and mind. Even your bones as

2684
07:52:17.759 --> 07:52:32.840
are axed, all your muscles are rexed, even the skin

2685
07:52:33.599 --> 07:52:45.759
that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2686
07:52:48.720 --> 07:52:49.279
That you have.

2687
07:52:51.040 --> 07:53:08.599
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really styles the

2688
07:53:08.880 --> 07:53:22.080
feel the benefits of this healing relaxation. And as you

2689
07:53:22.360 --> 07:53:28.880
focus on the inside of your scalp where your brain is,

2690
07:53:30.720 --> 07:53:38.520
you can start to realize and notice the benefits of

2691
07:53:38.680 --> 07:53:50.959
your brain relaxing deeply. And as your brain continues to relax,

2692
07:53:53.799 --> 07:54:00.560
it sends those messages to the rest of your body

2693
07:54:02.560 --> 07:54:24.840
and your mind to re reax more deeply, relaxy more completely,

2694
07:54:28.400 --> 07:54:40.279
letting go of any remaining thoughts or consers, allow them

2695
07:54:40.720 --> 07:54:46.520
just to drop onto the floor because they're no longer

2696
07:54:46.840 --> 07:54:58.080
necessary in this moment, In this moment of deep relaxation

2697
07:54:59.520 --> 07:55:26.520
and calmness, feeling your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing,

2698
07:55:29.000 --> 07:55:44.119
every part of your brain feeling so loose and comfortable,

2699
07:55:47.400 --> 07:56:04.080
so relaxed andeaceful. Your brain feels light. That's so healthy.

2700
07:56:07.119 --> 07:56:17.159
In that sense of deep, deep comfort really does allow

2701
07:56:17.479 --> 07:56:30.919
you to enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort

2702
07:56:32.639 --> 07:56:44.400
that are spreading throughout your body. Relax in each and

2703
07:56:45.040 --> 07:57:01.000
every muscle of your body. E deeper and deeper, much

2704
07:57:01.759 --> 07:57:20.479
more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading true your body,

2705
07:57:21.200 --> 07:57:37.919
your mind, be so peaceful and calm, so very very

2706
07:57:39.599 --> 07:57:58.759
peaceful in avery part of your body, letting go a everything, averything,

2707
07:58:02.439 --> 07:58:20.799
so peaceful, come so relax with very second the passes

2708
07:58:23.840 --> 07:58:24.759
you fell.

2709
07:58:26.799 --> 07:58:45.759
Dper, dper relax, dper and dper relax.

2710
07:58:48.159 --> 07:58:51.479
Came so.

2711
07:58:56.319 --> 07:58:57.959
Peace for.

2712
07:59:00.799 --> 07:59:10.040
So very peace from your head down to your toes.

2713
07:59:13.200 --> 07:59:26.840
Such peace and comfort throwing all the time, such peace

2714
07:59:27.840 --> 07:59:41.319
and comfort spreading through your body and mind deep and deeper,

2715
07:59:44.200 --> 07:59:58.319
Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into a muscle your body,

2716
08:00:01.959 --> 08:00:21.279
so that you feel amazing, so laxed, so peaceful, sol

2717
08:00:25.720 --> 08:00:42.080
and peaceful, letting go everything. I'm gonna do a body scan,

2718
08:00:43.840 --> 08:00:50.240
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, Not

2719
08:00:50.400 --> 08:00:55.799
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2720
08:00:57.080 --> 08:01:02.080
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2721
08:01:02.279 --> 08:01:09.720
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2722
08:01:10.720 --> 08:01:15.639
in the different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself

2723
08:01:17.040 --> 08:01:24.520
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

2724
08:01:24.560 --> 08:01:33.200
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2725
08:01:36.599 --> 08:01:43.200
So I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2726
08:01:47.759 --> 08:01:55.479
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2727
08:01:55.680 --> 08:02:00.639
move your hands around, just maybe move your goods a

2728
08:02:00.720 --> 08:02:07.080
little bit. I've been and closing your hands very gently,

2729
08:02:08.720 --> 08:02:09.840
just so that.

2730
08:02:10.080 --> 08:02:10.720
You can.

2731
08:02:12.439 --> 08:02:19.479
Get in touch with how your hands and your fingers fell,

2732
08:02:24.880 --> 08:02:43.799
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

2733
08:02:43.919 --> 08:02:47.799
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2734
08:02:48.000 --> 08:02:53.720
your feet is you've just done with your hands, Maybe

2735
08:02:55.159 --> 08:03:02.360
turn in your ankles, moving your feet around and moving

2736
08:03:02.439 --> 08:03:12.439
your toes gently, but only very gently and very slowly,

2737
08:03:15.400 --> 08:03:30.840
noticing how your feet fulfill in this moment. Focusing now

2738
08:03:31.040 --> 08:03:38.240
and your eyes, I'd like you to just focus on

2739
08:03:38.400 --> 08:03:44.159
your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your eyes

2740
08:03:44.319 --> 08:03:48.680
a couple of times to really get in touch with

2741
08:03:49.560 --> 08:03:54.240
how you feel when you do close your eyes. The

2742
08:03:54.400 --> 08:04:00.639
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2743
08:04:03.479 --> 08:04:09.840
maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes,

2744
08:04:13.080 --> 08:04:21.520
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so

2745
08:04:21.639 --> 08:04:30.040
you can hear it again. Touch with all aspects of

2746
08:04:31.240 --> 08:04:49.400
how your eyes feel. Right now, now focus in on

2747
08:04:49.560 --> 08:04:56.000
your thighs, and it just starts you to gently tense

2748
08:04:56.200 --> 08:05:06.119
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2749
08:05:06.279 --> 08:05:19.959
can become more attuned to the physical sensation of your

2750
08:05:20.040 --> 08:05:25.439
upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the backs

2751
08:05:25.520 --> 08:05:39.840
of your thigh noticing and observing how your thighs feel

2752
08:05:41.119 --> 08:05:54.080
right now, moving your focus to the back of your neck,

2753
08:05:57.799 --> 08:06:04.439
just noticing the back of your neck, the muscles, and

2754
08:06:04.560 --> 08:06:07.520
of course they lead to the side of your neck.

2755
08:06:09.000 --> 08:06:14.119
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2756
08:06:14.279 --> 08:06:19.680
lead to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

2757
08:06:19.840 --> 08:06:25.400
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

2758
08:06:26.360 --> 08:06:34.080
gently upwards as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your

2759
08:06:34.200 --> 08:06:41.799
head down as if you were looking down. Perhaps moving

2760
08:06:41.880 --> 08:06:48.000
your head side to side, right to left, but only

2761
08:06:49.840 --> 08:07:00.599
very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2762
08:07:02.360 --> 08:07:11.520
It has to be very very gentle, just so you

2763
08:07:11.680 --> 08:07:25.159
can be more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations,

2764
08:07:25.360 --> 08:07:34.560
the physical sensations of how the back of your neck feels.

2765
08:07:36.360 --> 08:07:51.720
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2766
08:07:51.840 --> 08:07:58.119
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2767
08:07:58.159 --> 08:08:07.439
are between your bowing your shoulders. Should focus on those parts,

2768
08:08:08.439 --> 08:08:14.119
the tops of your arms. You may like to just

2769
08:08:14.880 --> 08:08:26.200
tense them but very very gently and slowly, so you're

2770
08:08:26.639 --> 08:08:35.720
straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2771
08:08:38.400 --> 08:08:40.799
It's just so that you can.

2772
08:08:43.319 --> 08:08:50.479
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2773
08:08:52.080 --> 08:09:04.000
are feeling in this moment. And just noticing as you gently,

2774
08:09:06.119 --> 08:09:14.080
very gently and slowly tightening the muscles.

2775
08:09:14.919 --> 08:09:15.720
And then let go.

2776
08:09:20.000 --> 08:09:28.400
Notice how the tops of your arms feel right now

2777
08:09:36.599 --> 08:09:47.400
as a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2778
08:09:47.520 --> 08:09:53.840
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2779
08:09:53.919 --> 08:10:07.639
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2780
08:10:07.840 --> 08:10:15.479
you're able to tense these muscles in the area very

2781
08:10:17.720 --> 08:10:31.000
very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing to do,

2782
08:10:32.279 --> 08:10:40.479
and maybe you can just move your body, pushing your

2783
08:10:40.599 --> 08:10:45.439
stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to the side

2784
08:10:46.040 --> 08:10:54.200
using your hips, just so you can get more in

2785
08:10:54.599 --> 08:11:06.159
tune with how you're lower out an area is feeling

2786
08:11:08.959 --> 08:11:26.520
in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or your

2787
08:11:26.720 --> 08:11:45.639
lower abdomen. As you move your attention to your mouth,

2788
08:11:51.000 --> 08:11:59.200
notice in your lips and inside your mouth, the teeth,

2789
08:12:00.319 --> 08:12:16.479
your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your tongue in

2790
08:12:16.520 --> 08:12:26.200
your mouth feels. It may help by moving your tongue

2791
08:12:27.560 --> 08:12:34.520
around your mouth moving it to your left, maybe pressing

2792
08:12:34.599 --> 08:12:41.319
it gently against the side of your mouth, and then

2793
08:12:41.759 --> 08:12:46.599
to the right, gently to the side of your mouth,

2794
08:12:49.720 --> 08:12:55.240
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth, and

2795
08:12:55.360 --> 08:13:04.240
then down gently against the bottle of your mouth. Aways

2796
08:13:05.200 --> 08:13:20.200
very slowly and a very very gentle so that you

2797
08:13:20.439 --> 08:13:36.680
can be aware of how you feel in your mouth area.

2798
08:13:47.959 --> 08:14:07.880
Now I'm going to focus on your wrists, and I'm

2799
08:14:07.919 --> 08:14:17.119
gonna ask you to maybe just rotate yoursts by moving

2800
08:14:17.200 --> 08:14:30.479
your hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just.

2801
08:14:32.200 --> 08:14:33.560
So you can.

2802
08:14:39.279 --> 08:14:58.080
Feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your rests.

2803
08:15:02.400 --> 08:15:10.959
Perhaps move in your hands up and down the game

2804
08:15:12.200 --> 08:15:37.799
very very gently and slowly, very gent sol and slow.

2805
08:15:51.279 --> 08:15:52.319
As we now.

2806
08:15:54.720 --> 08:16:09.279
Start to serve your lower back. The bad part is

2807
08:16:10.959 --> 08:16:27.119
just above your hips where your coxis are a whole

2808
08:16:27.400 --> 08:16:34.360
area which also really does include the sides of your body,

2809
08:16:36.119 --> 08:16:45.720
because those muscles are very much connected as those muscles

2810
08:16:46.639 --> 08:16:52.759
also move into your hip aia connecting to your buttocks

2811
08:16:55.880 --> 08:17:10.639
the sides of your hips, and if you're physically able

2812
08:17:10.840 --> 08:17:20.799
to do so, maybe you can very gently just nevebody

2813
08:17:23.439 --> 08:17:37.000
ever so slightly, very slowly some side to side, just

2814
08:17:37.360 --> 08:17:53.799
enough to a gauge how you feel in your lower back.

2815
08:18:01.400 --> 08:18:16.119
Perhaps you could even move your hips gently up and down, gently,

2816
08:18:17.319 --> 08:18:34.959
slowly in order to be in touch with the physical sensations.

2817
08:18:35.319 --> 08:19:00.720
Of your lower back. As we now move, you tension

2818
08:19:04.560 --> 08:19:09.840
to your jaw, an area.

2819
08:19:09.840 --> 08:19:13.000
From your chin all the way up.

2820
08:19:14.360 --> 08:19:16.119
To near where your ears are.

2821
08:19:19.319 --> 08:19:31.880
Oh, your jaw, you can just.

2822
08:19:33.919 --> 08:19:40.639
If it's okay to do sid gently open your mouth,

2823
08:19:43.520 --> 08:19:55.119
not wide, no stretching, just very gently and slowly opening

2824
08:19:55.279 --> 08:20:08.319
your mouth I mean closing your mouth very gently and slowly,

2825
08:20:17.919 --> 08:20:35.200
so you can be in touch with how your jaw feels. Now.

2826
08:21:01.919 --> 08:21:17.880
I just sit now your chest area. You don't need

2827
08:21:18.080 --> 08:21:25.840
to do anything to move your chest because it moves

2828
08:21:26.240 --> 08:21:38.159
every time you breathe, and it moves very gently and

2829
08:21:38.840 --> 08:21:56.400
slowly automatically with each breath you take. As you focus

2830
08:21:56.959 --> 08:22:43.119
on how your chest feels when you breathe, move in

2831
08:22:43.360 --> 08:22:58.479
your focus to your forms your elbows. Maybe you're able

2832
08:22:58.959 --> 08:23:12.880
to very gently and slowly tense the muscles in your frogs,

2833
08:23:16.400 --> 08:23:23.040
and when you do that, you can feel your elbows

2834
08:23:23.319 --> 08:24:00.599
as well, very gently and slowly, gently and softly having

2835
08:24:04.799 --> 08:24:39.080
your forearms and delpas. Now focus the rest of your back,

2836
08:24:43.240 --> 08:24:53.119
your upper back in the middle, the middle of your back.

2837
08:25:05.040 --> 08:25:16.119
Again this part of your body news. Also every time

2838
08:25:16.360 --> 08:25:31.919
you pray, you may not notice that usually makes you

2839
08:25:32.119 --> 08:25:38.599
observe your upper back. In the middle of your back.

2840
08:25:42.279 --> 08:26:39.840
You can really feel that gentle and movement moving your focus.

2841
08:26:41.360 --> 08:26:42.040
Into your.

2842
08:26:43.560 --> 08:26:56.400
Area, the buttee, the grain. There's muscles and those bones

2843
08:26:59.000 --> 08:27:39.759
in your midstine. Just noticing how your hips feel. Right now,

2844
08:27:47.279 --> 08:28:03.080
you can very very gently move your hips, maybe side

2845
08:28:03.279 --> 08:28:50.479
to side, harry gently and harry gently, softly and slowly.

2846
08:28:55.880 --> 08:29:12.639
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2847
08:29:12.759 --> 08:29:24.560
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2848
08:29:24.639 --> 08:29:31.080
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2849
08:29:32.400 --> 08:29:41.200
It's almost like time is storing shin. It's a slower

2850
08:29:41.319 --> 08:29:49.200
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2851
08:29:49.279 --> 08:30:11.279
to day life. It's a slower movement and then very

2852
08:30:15.680 --> 08:30:24.119
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2853
08:30:24.159 --> 08:30:31.919
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2854
08:30:32.080 --> 08:30:34.799
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2855
08:30:35.599 --> 08:30:43.000
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2856
08:30:48.000 --> 08:31:00.319
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2857
08:31:00.560 --> 08:31:01.400
move from.

2858
08:31:04.080 --> 08:31:06.720
That big.

2859
08:31:11.159 --> 08:31:28.240
Movement into those smaller movements, starting to focus on how

2860
08:31:28.319 --> 08:31:35.599
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

2861
08:31:35.680 --> 08:31:39.919
i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2862
08:31:40.159 --> 08:31:45.599
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling this way,

2863
08:31:45.720 --> 08:31:52.599
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

2864
08:31:56.959 --> 08:32:06.560
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

2865
08:32:13.119 --> 08:32:25.200
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not.

2866
08:32:30.599 --> 08:32:39.680
Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge

2867
08:32:39.759 --> 08:32:47.200
them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is

2868
08:32:47.360 --> 08:33:04.319
just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, but

2869
08:33:04.560 --> 08:33:19.639
just noticing what your body is telling you, the feelings

2870
08:33:19.680 --> 08:33:26.000
in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2871
08:33:27.439 --> 08:33:36.639
maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2872
08:33:40.799 --> 08:33:49.959
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

2873
08:33:50.119 --> 08:34:06.279
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, Just being

2874
08:34:06.360 --> 08:34:15.159
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2875
08:34:15.240 --> 08:34:26.560
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

2876
08:34:26.680 --> 08:34:32.279
own individual physical sensation.

2877
08:34:44.720 --> 08:34:51.439
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2878
08:34:58.799 --> 08:35:00.000
there may not be any.

2879
08:35:00.400 --> 08:35:07.599
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2880
08:35:11.360 --> 08:35:15.720
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2881
08:35:16.639 --> 08:35:17.680
You know, it's there.

2882
08:35:24.000 --> 08:35:29.720
The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you

2883
08:35:29.840 --> 08:35:33.560
think about them, kind of almost like they're the same,

2884
08:35:34.720 --> 08:35:40.360
you know, the same feeling, almost like you both of

2885
08:35:40.439 --> 08:35:45.040
your shoulders are just one thing. Of course they're not.

2886
08:35:53.720 --> 08:35:59.040
And when you focus on your left shoulder and then

2887
08:35:59.119 --> 08:36:05.720
on your right order, maybe find that you move the

2888
08:36:05.880 --> 08:36:16.599
muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently, noticing

2889
08:36:17.919 --> 08:36:48.840
the difference in each shoulder, your lower back, the left

2890
08:36:49.000 --> 08:36:52.840
side of your lower back and the right side of

2891
08:36:52.959 --> 08:37:04.080
your lower back of course that connection to your buttocks

2892
08:37:05.279 --> 08:37:17.000
and to your hips, and also moving up into the

2893
08:37:17.119 --> 08:37:30.319
middle of your back. And sometimes like right now, actually

2894
08:37:31.200 --> 08:37:34.840
when I focus on their part, when I focused on

2895
08:37:34.959 --> 08:37:40.759
my buttocks and then I focused on the middle of

2896
08:37:40.840 --> 08:37:44.040
my back, I almost felt like the muscles.

2897
08:37:43.560 --> 08:37:54.400
In my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched.

2898
08:37:53.799 --> 08:38:00.319
A little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2899
08:38:01.720 --> 08:38:07.439
try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed to happen.

2900
08:38:08.680 --> 08:38:25.840
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes

2901
08:38:25.919 --> 08:38:53.279
along and feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2902
08:38:54.919 --> 08:39:12.560
you are experiencing in your chest right now, and there's

2903
08:39:12.639 --> 08:39:16.799
so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone

2904
08:39:16.959 --> 08:39:23.720
leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've

2905
08:39:23.759 --> 08:39:32.080
got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2906
08:39:32.759 --> 08:39:37.560
there's possibly the breasts. Your male.

2907
08:39:39.360 --> 08:39:40.000
You've got the.

2908
08:39:42.799 --> 08:39:45.919
Different well why not that different these days.

2909
08:39:45.959 --> 08:39:49.360
But there may be more.

2910
08:39:51.080 --> 08:39:57.400
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2911
08:39:57.560 --> 08:40:02.479
side underneath it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

2912
08:40:02.520 --> 08:40:07.560
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

2913
08:40:07.680 --> 08:40:12.639
out to your back, as well as breast tissue which

2914
08:40:12.720 --> 08:40:21.000
stretches and moves into your back. To just being aware

2915
08:40:21.080 --> 08:40:41.599
of your chest, being with whatever feeling there is in

2916
08:40:41.759 --> 08:41:00.919
your chest. When I noticed, I folk just on my chest.

2917
08:41:05.319 --> 08:41:08.840
I feel it in my back and my upper back.

2918
08:41:10.319 --> 08:41:13.360
I mean, I guess the obvious reason would be because

2919
08:41:13.439 --> 08:41:23.319
you know, I'll breathe in in and it stretches my

2920
08:41:23.639 --> 08:41:24.360
chest and.

2921
08:41:24.720 --> 08:41:25.919
My back at the same time.

2922
08:41:33.840 --> 08:41:49.080
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got

2923
08:41:49.080 --> 08:41:55.360
a little bit of pain in my right chest, a

2924
08:41:55.439 --> 08:42:01.520
little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2925
08:42:02.080 --> 08:42:11.200
I don't know. I noticed my shoulders also wanting to

2926
08:42:13.560 --> 08:42:18.240
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2927
08:42:18.400 --> 08:42:27.080
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders my upper

2928
08:42:27.159 --> 08:42:32.560
back because I can move my shoulders and stretch the

2929
08:42:32.720 --> 08:42:39.959
muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up,

2930
08:42:41.959 --> 08:42:45.840
which then moves I think it's the scapulous.

2931
08:42:47.720 --> 08:42:48.360
In your back.

2932
08:42:58.400 --> 08:43:06.080
It feels quite nice. Actually. If good thing about this

2933
08:43:06.360 --> 08:43:11.119
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2934
08:43:14.680 --> 08:43:26.400
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2935
08:43:27.840 --> 08:43:31.319
in order to get more of the sense of how

2936
08:43:31.400 --> 08:43:46.279
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you do tense

2937
08:43:46.400 --> 08:43:50.319
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2938
08:43:50.360 --> 08:43:59.360
it relax, it relaxes way more than it would normally.

2939
08:44:04.319 --> 08:44:06.599
That you have to feel.

2940
08:44:08.439 --> 08:44:12.279
That you're able to do that. There's no point doing

2941
08:44:12.360 --> 08:44:13.279
it if there's.

2942
08:44:14.319 --> 08:44:21.959
An issue with the per part of your body. You

2943
08:44:22.080 --> 08:44:31.279
need to be gentle with yourself at all times when

2944
08:44:31.400 --> 08:44:50.360
relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself. As

2945
08:44:50.400 --> 08:44:59.400
you notice your mind, how much does your mind slowed

2946
08:44:59.520 --> 08:45:27.040
down since we started this recording? How come and peaceful

2947
08:45:28.599 --> 08:45:38.119
is your mind right now? We have nothing to think

2948
08:45:38.200 --> 08:45:48.240
about and just my voice to listen to. Because you know,

2949
08:45:48.759 --> 08:45:59.240
the intention behind this recording is relaxation at the very

2950
08:45:59.439 --> 08:46:05.720
least for you to feel more relaxed at the end

2951
08:46:05.799 --> 08:46:14.119
of recording than you did at the beginning, at the

2952
08:46:14.279 --> 08:46:25.919
very least, for your mind to slow down because your

2953
08:46:26.040 --> 08:46:42.400
body continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

2954
08:46:46.400 --> 08:47:07.959
That's what you expect to happen, laxation, to fill your body,

2955
08:47:16.200 --> 08:47:21.319
maybe calm in your mind to the point of boredom.

2956
08:47:24.880 --> 08:48:08.680
When you start maybe to drift away. Drifting it's almost

2957
08:48:08.959 --> 08:48:18.159
as if you're moving further away from a body in

2958
08:48:18.279 --> 08:48:31.720
your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking it

2959
08:48:32.159 --> 08:48:38.080
an escape pod and a spaceship a movie, a space movie,

2960
08:48:38.159 --> 08:48:42.360
you know, when against that little part in it, since

2961
08:48:42.479 --> 08:49:08.000
the man far away from the spaceship safe to dreamtinue

2962
08:49:13.479 --> 08:50:40.319
to relax, terrifting so slow, empy so so and pa so,

2963
08:51:01.479 --> 08:51:15.919
and focusing on the feathing of those individual parts of

2964
08:51:16.040 --> 08:51:22.520
your body that are relaxing.

2965
08:51:23.759 --> 08:51:24.439
One by one.

2966
08:51:32.119 --> 08:51:44.479
You may find that every now and then you realize

2967
08:51:44.639 --> 08:51:55.520
that you aren't listening to my voice because your mind

2968
08:51:56.080 --> 08:52:10.840
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2969
08:52:11.040 --> 08:52:20.119
into some high of a dreamy state, and then you

2970
08:52:20.240 --> 08:52:27.040
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2971
08:52:28.040 --> 08:52:34.200
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2972
08:52:34.959 --> 08:52:48.799
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2973
08:52:48.919 --> 08:53:10.360
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2974
08:53:10.959 --> 08:53:24.240
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2975
08:53:24.360 --> 08:53:38.400
you gently, keeping your body at just the perfect temperature.

2976
08:53:48.799 --> 08:53:59.159
And even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2977
08:54:00.599 --> 08:54:17.520
don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sensor. Peace spreads

2978
08:54:18.080 --> 08:54:31.799
through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough

2979
08:54:32.040 --> 08:54:48.319
to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from

2980
08:54:48.400 --> 08:54:58.119
your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2981
08:55:06.439 --> 08:55:15.360
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2982
08:55:17.159 --> 08:55:41.560
don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your

2983
08:55:41.680 --> 08:56:04.520
body end your mind. Unless you focus on your mind

2984
08:56:06.799 --> 08:56:12.000
and count down from ten down to one, and with

2985
08:56:12.400 --> 08:56:38.279
each number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2986
08:56:41.040 --> 08:56:49.560
just just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a

2987
08:56:49.840 --> 08:56:59.119
slight movement, from nine down to eight, just another small

2988
08:57:03.680 --> 08:57:16.319
change in how you feel. Eight down to seven. That

2989
08:57:16.680 --> 08:57:22.560
feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

2990
08:57:22.919 --> 08:57:31.680
to get the wider, the gap between those feelings that

2991
08:57:31.919 --> 08:57:38.799
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2992
08:57:39.000 --> 08:57:46.520
feelings you have, the growing now feelings of comfort and

2993
08:57:46.799 --> 08:57:58.439
security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down

2994
08:57:58.560 --> 08:58:06.000
to seven, seven, down to six. When you get to five,

2995
08:58:08.360 --> 08:58:17.639
the mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2996
08:58:22.040 --> 08:58:27.720
most like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2997
08:58:28.639 --> 08:58:34.479
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2998
08:58:34.599 --> 08:58:39.840
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2999
08:58:45.639 --> 08:58:47.200
And in down to four.

3000
08:58:48.959 --> 08:58:55.720
You can start to really experience that sense of not

3001
08:58:56.040 --> 08:59:06.200
just emptiness, but space, a place full of fresh air,

3002
08:59:11.240 --> 08:59:18.000
place where you can stretch. It's almost as if as

3003
08:59:18.080 --> 08:59:23.240
you go down to four and three, your mind is expanding,

3004
08:59:23.880 --> 08:59:26.400
with this sense.

3005
08:59:29.000 --> 08:59:30.319
Of the peace.

3006
08:59:31.720 --> 08:59:42.279
And tranquility growing it moves down to when you get

3007
08:59:42.319 --> 08:59:52.119
to one, your mind just feels exactly how you want

3008
08:59:52.279 --> 09:00:11.959
to feel, almost effect of feeling, maybe the sensation that.

3009
09:00:13.560 --> 09:00:15.040
You'd like to keep.

3010
09:00:18.000 --> 09:00:28.840
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

3011
09:00:40.520 --> 09:00:45.279
and you can stay in there that space and comfort

3012
09:00:45.360 --> 09:00:55.080
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

3013
09:00:56.000 --> 09:01:02.000
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

3014
09:01:03.560 --> 09:01:06.159
just by counting ten.

3015
09:01:07.720 --> 09:01:08.400
Down to one.

3016
09:01:12.959 --> 09:01:17.520
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3017
09:01:17.560 --> 09:01:24.840
you're on your own, the time when you can maybe

3018
09:01:25.040 --> 09:01:33.639
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes,

3019
09:01:37.479 --> 09:01:49.119
just count slowly from ten down to one, and we

3020
09:01:49.400 --> 09:01:55.479
experience these feelings in your mind.

3021
09:02:01.319 --> 09:02:01.799
And when you.

3022
09:02:01.959 --> 09:02:11.880
Feel that way in your mind, your body copies your mind,

3023
09:02:17.759 --> 09:02:23.639
and the feeling its spread through your spine and your

3024
09:02:23.799 --> 09:02:31.639
nervous system into every part of your body, travels through

3025
09:02:31.680 --> 09:02:45.880
your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing every particle of your existence.

3026
09:02:58.599 --> 09:03:03.040
And we can we can practice this a few times.

3027
09:03:07.319 --> 09:03:09.520
Before the end of the recording.

3028
09:03:09.639 --> 09:03:10.400
And then you can.

3029
09:03:11.799 --> 09:03:18.240
Practice on your own. And each time you countfort ten

3030
09:03:19.240 --> 09:03:34.279
about one, the feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation

3031
09:03:35.520 --> 09:03:50.439
becomes stronger and deeper feeling your mind and your brain

3032
09:03:52.080 --> 09:04:01.680
with these positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing

3033
09:04:01.799 --> 09:04:10.080
you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind.

3034
09:04:12.680 --> 09:04:13.479
So very.

3035
09:04:15.040 --> 09:04:20.919
Very easily, just by counting.

3036
09:04:22.360 --> 09:04:26.279
Ten down to one.

3037
09:04:31.439 --> 09:04:32.680
So we're gonna do now.

3038
09:04:33.560 --> 09:04:37.479
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

3039
09:04:37.680 --> 09:04:42.000
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

3040
09:04:42.040 --> 09:04:50.639
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

3041
09:04:56.240 --> 09:05:01.319
Just notice, be aware how you feel.

3042
09:05:05.279 --> 09:05:12.840
In your mind and your body. Then when I say nine,

3043
09:05:15.200 --> 09:05:16.279
you can beat.

3044
09:05:17.240 --> 09:05:32.520
To yourself nine again, noticing the increase in comfort, and

3045
09:05:34.840 --> 09:05:45.840
calmness in your mind and in your body, the same

3046
09:05:46.119 --> 09:05:57.479
when I say eight, when I say seven, six, when

3047
09:05:57.560 --> 09:06:16.080
I say five, four, when I say three, two, and

3048
09:06:16.279 --> 09:06:17.720
lastly want to say one.

3049
09:06:20.120 --> 09:06:29.839
You can be that number now.

3050
09:06:29.959 --> 09:06:35.519
Of course, when you do this on your own without

3051
09:06:35.639 --> 09:06:40.639
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

3052
09:06:42.279 --> 09:06:50.720
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

3053
09:06:50.839 --> 09:06:56.639
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

3054
09:06:56.760 --> 09:07:02.599
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

3055
09:07:04.360 --> 09:07:06.919
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

3056
09:07:07.120 --> 09:07:11.120
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

3057
09:07:11.279 --> 09:07:19.720
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

3058
09:07:19.800 --> 09:07:23.239
lot longer to get from ten.

3059
09:07:25.199 --> 09:07:33.400
All the way down to one, that's your choice also

3060
09:07:33.720 --> 09:07:45.839
to do. So, I'm going to count from ten.

3061
09:07:45.879 --> 09:07:53.480
Down to one. I want to get to one.

3062
09:07:54.800 --> 09:08:01.000
That would be the end of this recording. Msicals. You're

3063
09:08:01.040 --> 09:08:25.879
listening to music, and the music will continue two nine.

3064
09:08:50.720 --> 09:11:51.959
Right, Assassa, Assassa, assassas.

3065
09:12:44.519 --> 09:13:54.959
Twenty ninety eighty sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

3066
09:14:00.040 --> 09:14:05.800
By four.

3067
09:14:09.879 --> 09:14:38.160
Three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

3068
09:14:38.279 --> 09:14:46.639
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

3069
09:14:47.440 --> 09:14:51.879
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toes.

3070
09:14:53.440 --> 09:14:58.120
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

3071
09:14:58.160 --> 09:15:05.519
a little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an understanding.

3072
09:15:05.080 --> 09:15:10.160
Considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

3073
09:15:16.639 --> 09:15:18.599
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

3074
09:15:18.720 --> 09:15:25.959
one again. This time you need to feel relief of

3075
09:15:26.120 --> 09:15:37.279
tension and stress and the anxiety that you may have leaving.

3076
09:15:39.080 --> 09:15:39.919
Through your stomach.

3077
09:15:42.519 --> 09:15:46.239
Just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

3078
09:15:47.279 --> 09:15:52.559
releasing the whole of your stomach and enable.

3079
09:15:53.720 --> 09:15:56.879
To just above your chest or below your chest rather.

3080
09:15:57.800 --> 09:16:03.440
So surrounding your beny binaria the whole area. You can

3081
09:16:03.639 --> 09:16:08.080
feel the tension of your body where it's left, just

3082
09:16:08.959 --> 09:16:14.440
releasing from the area, and you may notice that your stomach.

3083
09:16:14.120 --> 09:16:16.279
Will become very relaxed.

3084
09:16:17.239 --> 09:16:23.760
As I count down from twenty down to one now

3085
09:16:26.639 --> 09:17:53.160
twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two.

3086
09:17:58.279 --> 09:18:05.440
One, And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

3087
09:18:05.879 --> 09:18:06.120
but you.

3088
09:18:06.160 --> 09:18:12.000
Can just keep them closed because of girls relaxing. Just

3089
09:18:12.199 --> 09:18:17.400
notice saying your stomach. Girls, notice as your focus. Just

3090
09:18:18.199 --> 09:18:22.720
do a little scared of your body, not to say

3091
09:18:22.839 --> 09:18:33.440
your body fils. Focusing on the upper body, bag, chest, stomach, lags,

3092
09:18:33.599 --> 09:18:39.959
arms and feet, just noticing.

3093
09:18:43.720 --> 09:18:45.879
And you know, you may start to feel.

3094
09:18:48.120 --> 09:18:52.360
More a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

3095
09:18:53.080 --> 09:18:56.599
listening to this according because you.

3096
09:18:58.080 --> 09:19:05.720
Like to let go completely of everything and career.

3097
09:19:07.239 --> 09:19:12.319
Or into a nice natural, calm.

3098
09:19:12.319 --> 09:19:14.519
Relaxing sleep.

3099
09:19:22.120 --> 09:19:31.480
So now we're going to focus. I'm your forehead, and

3100
09:19:31.599 --> 09:19:34.400
if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in this

3101
09:19:34.720 --> 09:19:41.360
focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes. It's that

3102
09:19:41.519 --> 09:19:44.599
whole area basically almost as.

3103
09:19:44.480 --> 09:19:47.199
If you were wearing a mask, you know, like a

3104
09:19:49.199 --> 09:19:51.000
I don't know, a batman mask.

3105
09:19:50.879 --> 09:19:52.360
Or something, or.

3106
09:19:54.400 --> 09:19:57.440
I'm trying sorrow or something, you know, the kind of

3107
09:19:57.519 --> 09:19:58.879
mask that covers your eyes.

3108
09:19:59.400 --> 09:20:01.480
But also that was quite a lot of the forehead.

3109
09:20:05.160 --> 09:20:08.199
We're focusing on that area because that's the area that

3110
09:20:08.239 --> 09:20:12.080
we're now going to release tension and stress.

3111
09:20:12.000 --> 09:20:13.120
From your mind.

3112
09:20:14.760 --> 09:20:15.400
And your brain.

3113
09:20:15.680 --> 09:20:17.800
From your mind, and any.

3114
09:20:18.040 --> 09:20:22.199
Tension that you may have remaining your face in your

3115
09:20:22.319 --> 09:20:28.879
neck and mature your eyes and your forehead and your scalp.

3116
09:20:30.480 --> 09:20:36.559
So basically any tension within your head area, including your mind.

3117
09:20:37.000 --> 09:20:42.160
And your brain, and that's going to.

3118
09:20:42.199 --> 09:20:43.360
Be released.

3119
09:20:44.480 --> 09:20:46.199
Through your forehead and your eyes.

3120
09:20:50.160 --> 09:20:52.080
As I count down again from.

3121
09:20:52.440 --> 09:22:17.360
Twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

3122
09:22:27.080 --> 09:22:37.239
Three, one.

3123
09:22:45.400 --> 09:22:54.839
Medicine, the skin, your face, the jewel, your eyes, the

3124
09:22:55.120 --> 09:23:02.160
chickens is boyead, your scalp.

3125
09:23:03.559 --> 09:23:07.599
Neck, the back of your neck, in front of your neck,

3126
09:23:08.559 --> 09:23:11.199
the side of the neck, and the throat.

3127
09:23:17.160 --> 09:23:17.559
Lettice.

3128
09:23:19.040 --> 09:23:25.040
Being aware of the comfort increased in the.

3129
09:23:27.559 --> 09:23:33.839
Annexation, not just in your head and neck and mind,

3130
09:23:34.879 --> 09:23:36.800
also the rest of your body.

3131
09:23:42.120 --> 09:23:49.239
Just notice how loose and calm you feel, and how easily.

3132
09:23:50.959 --> 09:24:11.760
It is to just let go completely, Let go completely easily.

3133
09:24:19.559 --> 09:24:22.720
To balance. Want to focus on.

3134
09:24:22.800 --> 09:24:24.080
The top of your head.

3135
09:24:29.319 --> 09:24:30.639
And we can allow.

3136
09:24:32.000 --> 09:24:34.040
Every last.

3137
09:24:35.440 --> 09:24:38.720
Piece of tension or stress, the.

3138
09:24:38.879 --> 09:24:43.919
Mind, be angry or hiding anybody.

3139
09:24:44.559 --> 09:24:52.440
Mind hed to just be sucked out at the top

3140
09:24:52.480 --> 09:24:53.279
of your head.

3141
09:24:55.599 --> 09:24:56.160
At least.

3142
09:25:00.319 --> 09:25:07.160
Yeah, I want sat down into the clouds. Imagine to

3143
09:25:07.239 --> 09:25:13.279
be cloud above your head. It's like a whirlpool and

3144
09:25:13.360 --> 09:25:18.160
this this can suck that tension now the top of

3145
09:25:18.239 --> 09:25:22.199
your head and just take it away.

3146
09:25:24.360 --> 09:25:30.319
Did your focus imagine.

3147
09:25:29.879 --> 09:25:34.839
An opening on the top of your head with that tension.

3148
09:25:34.839 --> 09:25:40.680
Stress and in remaining issues, maybe ways of concerns that

3149
09:25:40.839 --> 09:25:41.239
have no.

3150
09:25:41.599 --> 09:25:45.480
Use to you. Now you can all be sucked down

3151
09:25:45.559 --> 09:25:51.720
at the top of your head, taken away. As I

3152
09:25:51.959 --> 09:25:55.919
count down again from twenty down to one.

3153
09:25:59.279 --> 09:26:29.319
Now twenty ninety eighteen seventeen sixty.

3154
09:26:34.360 --> 09:26:57.400
Fifty fourteeneen.

3155
09:26:55.319 --> 09:27:01.440
Wow e.

3156
09:27:14.360 --> 09:27:38.080
Nine eight, seven, six, five.

3157
09:27:43.279 --> 09:27:47.959
Four two.

3158
09:27:57.919 --> 09:28:08.800
One breath.

3159
09:28:13.879 --> 09:28:16.160
Noticing how you feel.

3160
09:28:22.360 --> 09:28:30.919
How relaxed and calm you physically and mentally fail right now,

3161
09:28:36.599 --> 09:28:45.760
help be pa so your mind feels. It feels so

3162
09:28:46.080 --> 09:28:51.400
nice to just let go, to give yourself some space

3163
09:28:53.080 --> 09:28:57.519
to breathe easily, to.

3164
09:28:57.720 --> 09:29:05.720
Think calmly, just to take a break from.

3165
09:29:07.279 --> 09:29:12.680
All that pointless worry, concerns about things.

3166
09:29:12.599 --> 09:29:21.839
That you don't need to think about right now, because

3167
09:29:23.480 --> 09:29:25.599
this is your time to let go.

3168
09:29:27.000 --> 09:29:36.760
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3169
09:29:36.879 --> 09:29:40.080
in your mind, relaxed.

3170
09:29:39.599 --> 09:29:49.120
In your body. I can feel so good, so nice

3171
09:29:49.480 --> 09:29:57.519
to just not have to do anything, to be able

3172
09:29:57.680 --> 09:29:59.720
to really.

3173
09:30:01.360 --> 09:30:06.319
Enjoy that serenity becomes.

3174
09:30:07.279 --> 09:30:09.519
Of letting go completely.

3175
09:30:11.080 --> 09:30:13.440
That peacefulness that comes with.

3176
09:30:20.120 --> 09:30:21.519
Being in this.

3177
09:30:23.279 --> 09:30:33.360
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3178
09:30:34.239 --> 09:30:36.120
for as long as you choose.

3179
09:30:44.160 --> 09:30:51.279
If you choose to drift into deep healing natural sleep,

3180
09:30:52.559 --> 09:30:59.279
and you can do that, it's completely up to you,

3181
09:31:04.120 --> 09:31:05.319
and you can keep.

3182
09:31:05.279 --> 09:31:12.040
This feeling calmness physically mean in your mind, it's long that.

3183
09:31:12.199 --> 09:31:25.559
You choose to feel them completely relaxed, completely relax.

3184
09:31:29.000 --> 09:31:32.559
They'd like you to make up your mind.

3185
09:31:34.519 --> 09:31:35.599
That you're going to relax.

3186
09:31:44.239 --> 09:31:47.480
I want to explore that with you. What it feels

3187
09:31:47.639 --> 09:31:54.480
like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

3188
09:31:56.120 --> 09:32:02.760
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. Yes, it is

3189
09:32:02.839 --> 09:32:07.800
a command, really, isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax

3190
09:32:10.000 --> 09:32:14.680
in a gentle but firm way, that only.

3191
09:32:14.720 --> 09:32:18.839
You can really tell you something in that way.

3192
09:32:19.720 --> 09:32:21.680
You can't really have someone else saying to you, now

3193
09:32:21.720 --> 09:32:27.639
it relax, relax, you know, and it needs to.

3194
09:32:27.639 --> 09:32:28.879
Be gentle, but you can't.

3195
09:32:29.040 --> 09:32:31.000
Someone else can't really have.

3196
09:32:31.319 --> 09:32:32.199
The same.

3197
09:32:35.319 --> 09:32:41.440
The same kind of influence or power that you have.

3198
09:32:42.599 --> 09:32:54.480
Over your own physicality over how you feel, because when

3199
09:32:54.639 --> 09:32:55.360
you say.

3200
09:32:55.239 --> 09:33:03.480
That to yourself, it means more. It's personal, and your

3201
09:33:03.599 --> 09:33:08.800
brain and your unconscious mind and your body listens to

3202
09:33:08.959 --> 09:33:14.599
what you say. So, for example, we'll test it out

3203
09:33:15.239 --> 09:33:17.760
and do little tests. Do little tests.

3204
09:33:17.400 --> 09:33:21.879
Along the way, and you can get more of an idea.

3205
09:33:21.720 --> 09:33:27.839
Of the force, the positive force that you can have

3206
09:33:29.199 --> 09:33:35.519
in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation in your

3207
09:33:35.599 --> 09:33:43.879
body and your mind quite quickly just by you telling yourself.

3208
09:33:45.239 --> 09:33:45.839
To relax.

3209
09:33:50.519 --> 09:33:54.120
So I'm going to start by it's focused on your hands.

3210
09:33:58.000 --> 09:34:00.959
Focus on your hands and just tell your hands to relax.

3211
09:34:02.000 --> 09:34:06.879
Would you say relax As you focus on my hands,

3212
09:34:09.160 --> 09:34:13.919
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want.

3213
09:34:13.760 --> 09:34:14.879
My hands to relax.

3214
09:34:16.959 --> 09:34:22.760
I think if you actually do it directly by focusing

3215
09:34:23.440 --> 09:34:27.599
and imagining that your hands, can you hear what you're saying?

3216
09:34:27.760 --> 09:34:30.760
You know, like they've got little ears. It's a little weird.

3217
09:34:33.360 --> 09:34:37.800
So talking to your hands and just say relax.

3218
09:34:43.720 --> 09:34:52.040
Me to sin now your hands start to relax.

3219
09:35:04.440 --> 09:35:07.919
Now focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3220
09:35:09.080 --> 09:35:14.279
You're saying the same word relax. And find the right

3221
09:35:15.400 --> 09:35:16.839
tone for you.

3222
09:35:19.400 --> 09:35:20.599
You know, I might say.

3223
09:35:21.040 --> 09:35:30.279
Relax, but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

3224
09:35:30.599 --> 09:35:36.239
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

3225
09:35:37.160 --> 09:35:43.199
for you to gauge what feels right for you. You

3226
09:35:43.440 --> 09:35:48.599
just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes,

3227
09:35:49.160 --> 09:35:53.839
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

3228
09:35:54.080 --> 09:35:56.800
just tell your eyes doc.

3229
09:36:02.199 --> 09:36:30.559
Yeah now I just did that myself.

3230
09:36:30.959 --> 09:36:40.000
And sometimes you may feel that you.

3231
09:36:40.199 --> 09:36:45.599
Need a bit more time or the different parts to relax,

3232
09:36:46.440 --> 09:36:50.319
you know, because I start talking again, and maybe that

3233
09:36:50.559 --> 09:36:54.120
pie hasn't relaxed fully. But what will happen is that

3234
09:36:54.160 --> 09:36:59.199
I will just continue to relax even darn that's happening

3235
09:36:59.360 --> 09:37:04.400
with my eye. Something else I noticed is.

3236
09:37:06.319 --> 09:37:10.120
When I started focused on my eyes, the actually almost

3237
09:37:10.279 --> 09:37:12.919
became They got worse before they got better in a way.

3238
09:37:13.639 --> 09:37:16.720
So I felt a degree of tension growing in my

3239
09:37:16.879 --> 09:37:22.800
eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that was

3240
09:37:22.919 --> 09:37:28.080
really is just me becoming more aware of the tension

3241
09:37:29.199 --> 09:37:33.480
that was already there, but I wasn't. I wasn't focused

3242
09:37:33.519 --> 09:37:41.239
on it before. I wasn't really acknowledging it or really

3243
09:37:42.839 --> 09:37:57.199
conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes still continuing to relax.

3244
09:37:57.440 --> 09:38:02.919
As well as my hands. Actually, my hands have.

3245
09:38:02.959 --> 09:38:08.959
Got a certain kind of energy, like not bothing, but

3246
09:38:09.279 --> 09:38:10.000
I can kind of.

3247
09:38:12.400 --> 09:38:18.000
In order to do with energy in my hands. Maybe

3248
09:38:18.080 --> 09:38:22.919
that's where the tension is being released. Maybe that's supports

3249
09:38:22.959 --> 09:38:23.199
on that.

3250
09:38:30.559 --> 09:38:32.680
And it's part I think you should focus on the

3251
09:38:32.760 --> 09:38:33.480
back of the neck.

3252
09:38:34.160 --> 09:38:38.120
That's a part of which quite often, or for me,

3253
09:38:38.599 --> 09:38:41.639
holds tension. I don't know about it for yourself, but

3254
09:38:41.760 --> 09:38:46.040
I think it's quite a standard place where tension is

3255
09:38:46.120 --> 09:38:52.680
sometimes held. So and I'm doing it exactly what you're

3256
09:38:52.760 --> 09:38:55.360
doing as you do it as well, so I'm telling

3257
09:38:55.480 --> 09:38:59.599
my body parts to relax as well. So if you

3258
09:38:59.680 --> 09:39:00.120
tell you a.

3259
09:39:00.199 --> 09:39:01.760
Neck, the back of the neck.

3260
09:39:02.160 --> 09:39:04.400
Focus on the back of the neck and just say

3261
09:39:07.199 --> 09:39:11.760
bullets in your own words and your own tone and

3262
09:39:11.879 --> 09:39:12.639
your own voice.

3263
09:39:13.279 --> 09:39:15.319
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3264
09:39:15.360 --> 09:39:17.720
it to yourself internally.

3265
09:39:18.639 --> 09:39:22.199
But you're focusing and you've seen it literally.

3266
09:39:22.199 --> 09:39:25.760
To the back of the neck, as if the backroom

3267
09:39:25.760 --> 09:39:28.839
of your neck can actually be here what you're seeing.

3268
09:39:32.239 --> 09:39:35.239
So you did that, Now just say b legs.

3269
09:39:35.440 --> 09:39:36.279
To the back of your neck.

3270
09:39:37.480 --> 09:39:38.319
And I did the same.

3271
09:40:17.160 --> 09:40:21.080
And what I noticed and it made that similar thing.

3272
09:40:22.400 --> 09:40:25.440
Is even though I was focusing on the back.

3273
09:40:25.279 --> 09:40:32.879
Of the neck, other parts started to.

3274
09:40:35.839 --> 09:40:38.000
I don't showed themselves to me, or.

3275
09:40:38.720 --> 09:40:40.919
Maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

3276
09:40:41.040 --> 09:40:45.800
But I started noticing the feelings in my shoulders, attention,

3277
09:40:45.959 --> 09:40:47.160
and my shoulders.

3278
09:40:47.000 --> 09:40:47.959
And in my upper back.

3279
09:40:51.040 --> 09:40:55.000
Whether that was because when my back of my neck

3280
09:40:55.160 --> 09:41:00.599
was saying, well, I'm pretty much okay, it's the other

3281
09:41:00.760 --> 09:41:10.040
parts don't need attention, but my love, my back of

3282
09:41:10.120 --> 09:41:14.360
my neck is still relaxing, but I just became aware

3283
09:41:14.400 --> 09:41:21.080
of other parts that needed attention. Now, this might happen,

3284
09:41:21.199 --> 09:41:26.120
and it's not. It doesn't mean that it's going wrong.

3285
09:41:26.199 --> 09:41:32.720
It just means you're being notified more places, but.

3286
09:41:32.879 --> 09:41:34.559
Also want to be relaxed.

3287
09:41:37.839 --> 09:41:40.800
So I'm going to focus on my upper band.

3288
09:41:42.160 --> 09:41:45.879
So you can do the same, even if you don't

3289
09:41:46.000 --> 09:41:51.519
have any feelings of tension that obvious in the upper band.

3290
09:41:53.480 --> 09:41:55.040
You just focus on your back and.

3291
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The whole area and you shoulder blades down so we

3292
09:42:02.599 --> 09:42:07.360
can go back and spine and my head's more to

3293
09:42:07.440 --> 09:42:17.559
shoulder face than Yeah, that's the parts that we to

3294
09:42:18.760 --> 09:42:24.400
given me the don't do it needs to relax in

3295
09:42:24.440 --> 09:42:28.319
the sounds for our staff past relax and you can

3296
09:42:28.360 --> 09:42:41.599
bet the same. Now relapse about the back.

3297
09:42:53.800 --> 09:42:56.480
But something strange happened there, and this.

3298
09:42:57.959 --> 09:42:58.839
Often happens.

3299
09:42:58.919 --> 09:43:00.040
And doing this well.

3300
09:43:02.400 --> 09:43:09.040
For sixteen years or something and not once twice.

3301
09:43:10.120 --> 09:43:14.720
Amazed being there. It can be a feeling.

3302
09:43:16.160 --> 09:43:16.879
So when I was.

3303
09:43:17.440 --> 09:43:20.160
Focusing in the back of my knee up.

3304
09:43:20.199 --> 09:43:24.760
The back was starting to feel quite stressed and in

3305
09:43:25.000 --> 09:43:30.199
need of the team. As soon as I started talking

3306
09:43:30.519 --> 09:43:36.160
to you about my upper back and talking about getting

3307
09:43:36.199 --> 09:43:41.000
ready to ask the upper back to relax, like the

3308
09:43:41.040 --> 09:43:46.559
back already started to relax. It's al much as if

3309
09:43:46.599 --> 09:43:52.239
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention,

3310
09:43:57.000 --> 09:44:09.040
just needs to be noticed. That is something that often

3311
09:44:09.239 --> 09:44:17.360
happens in this type of situation is we start to

3312
09:44:17.519 --> 09:44:22.559
relax a couple of parts of your body, as we've

3313
09:44:22.599 --> 09:44:26.319
done with the way it has the eyes that I

3314
09:44:26.599 --> 09:44:38.160
means and now after the name top of the bank, okay,

3315
09:44:39.480 --> 09:44:43.919
the rest of the body seems to just take notice.

3316
09:44:46.239 --> 09:44:52.440
And decide in its own way to start relaxing.

3317
09:44:54.279 --> 09:45:00.239
Other parts of your body start to just loca. Yeah,

3318
09:45:04.480 --> 09:45:09.279
it's it's like to be any lunch. You know, the

3319
09:45:09.680 --> 09:45:13.720
all starts rolling. Do you know all of your body

3320
09:45:13.839 --> 09:45:33.239
is relaxed? You fake you on your face take us yes,

3321
09:45:35.760 --> 09:45:47.599
nine nine, rounds the muscles around lines, and you start

3322
09:45:47.680 --> 09:45:55.720
to make this step before more relates have you face.

3323
09:45:59.519 --> 09:46:16.720
Let's say my entire basis relaxed. I want to focused

3324
09:46:16.800 --> 09:46:23.879
down on your shoulders, the game, just like before, just

3325
09:46:24.080 --> 09:46:25.040
to your shoulders.

3326
09:46:26.440 --> 09:46:27.400
You can't do the.

3327
09:46:28.959 --> 09:46:33.800
Shoulders should I just dint do bake the same time

3328
09:46:35.599 --> 09:46:42.559
I just told your shots at you focus on opening bill.

3329
09:46:43.319 --> 09:46:51.160
Maybe you can see them in the white time with

3330
09:46:51.400 --> 09:47:54.839
two shoulders. Yeah, it's also don't m S. It's its

3331
09:48:00.879 --> 09:48:33.319
m M sipt sipt No, M.

3332
09:48:36.239 --> 09:48:46.360
You didn't mistah given m

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M