Aug. 25, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) How my brother ruined my 8th Birthday | LMBYTS #1422 | Jason Newland | 25th August 2025

(no music) (10 hours) How my brother ruined my 8th Birthday | LMBYTS #1422 | Jason Newland | 25th August 2025
Apple Podcasts podcast player icon Spotify podcast player icon
Apple Podcasts podcast player icon Spotify podcast player icon

In this special birthday edition of Let Me Bore You To Sleep (#1422), Jason Newland reflects on the day his younger brother was born—the day before his 8th birthday—and how it completely changed the spotlight on his big day. With his trademark mix of humor, rambling stories, and light-hearted complaints, Jason shares childhood memories, family anecdotes, and the unique way birthdays shaped his life. As always, the meandering storytelling is designed to relax, distract, and gently lull you into a calm, sleepy state. Perfect for anyone who enjoys a blend of nostalgia, silliness, and soothing background chatter before drifting off to sleep.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/hypnosis-for-sleeping-deeply--6340116/support.

WEBVTT

1
00:00:01.000 --> 00:00:09.519
Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason

2
00:00:10.119 --> 00:00:20.480
new Land. This is let me buoy to sleep LM

3
00:00:21.280 --> 00:00:29.079
LMB white Yes, LLMB white Yes, yeah, mis lebitz.

4
00:00:30.719 --> 00:00:30.920
Yeah.

5
00:00:31.359 --> 00:00:40.520
So it is Monday, the twenty fifth of August two

6
00:00:40.600 --> 00:00:51.200
thousand and twenty five. Hello, Hello, it's my brother's birthday

7
00:00:51.200 --> 00:00:59.439
today and tomorrow Tuesday, the twenty six of August twenty

8
00:00:59.520 --> 00:01:04.400
twenty five. It's my birthday, my.

9
00:01:06.040 --> 00:01:07.879
Mine, mine.

10
00:01:09.599 --> 00:01:17.000
So yeah, I will be tomorrow fifty five years old,

11
00:01:18.879 --> 00:01:28.439
fifty five, fifty fifty five, even if you say a

12
00:01:28.480 --> 00:01:34.719
quick least it sounds old, yep, fifty five. As I

13
00:01:34.760 --> 00:01:38.599
got my hand on top of my head, really feeling

14
00:01:38.680 --> 00:01:46.120
the temperature difference in my bald spot. It's weird and like, ugh,

15
00:01:46.879 --> 00:01:48.719
I wonder, I'm not sure if I wonder if I

16
00:01:48.840 --> 00:01:54.319
have any hair by the time I'm sixty five. So yeah,

17
00:01:55.560 --> 00:02:00.159
so it's my brother was born well now clearly was

18
00:02:00.159 --> 00:02:03.959
born the day before my birthday when I was I

19
00:02:04.000 --> 00:02:08.759
turned eight. So basically he was born the day before

20
00:02:08.840 --> 00:02:19.000
my eighth birthday. And I remember that quite clearly. Yeah,

21
00:02:19.360 --> 00:02:25.680
so I'll tell you about that in a minute. Oh yeah,

22
00:02:26.560 --> 00:02:33.080
I got uncle sausages funeral on Thursday at nine thirty,

23
00:02:34.120 --> 00:02:38.080
So that's going to be a weird one. But I

24
00:02:38.120 --> 00:02:40.479
do still intend to do a Q and A Friday

25
00:02:40.680 --> 00:02:45.400
This Friday. I need to post a question thing on

26
00:02:46.719 --> 00:02:52.319
faith book. I had a lot of questions last time

27
00:02:52.599 --> 00:02:56.960
last Friday, lots and lots of questions. So I'm gonna

28
00:02:57.159 --> 00:03:01.080
if I remember, I will post that. I could do

29
00:03:01.120 --> 00:03:03.400
it now while I'm thinking about No, I can't because

30
00:03:03.400 --> 00:03:06.639
there's no Internet on my phone because I always put

31
00:03:06.639 --> 00:03:16.360
it onto Yeah, I put it onto what's it called

32
00:03:18.120 --> 00:03:23.560
airplane boot mode so I don't get disturbed by all

33
00:03:23.560 --> 00:03:25.960
the millions of phone calls that I get on a

34
00:03:26.039 --> 00:03:34.560
daily basis me. So yeah, I'll do that after this.

35
00:03:36.719 --> 00:03:40.360
So it's bank Collored in Monday here in the British

36
00:03:40.400 --> 00:03:51.800
Isles of the UK England Commonwealth, and it's a nice

37
00:03:51.879 --> 00:03:57.199
day outside. It's really nice, little bit of wind which

38
00:03:57.240 --> 00:04:05.520
is good. It's fairly hot there, very sunny. What he

39
00:04:05.560 --> 00:04:15.439
took Vinnie out earlier about seven o'clock ish have call

40
00:04:15.639 --> 00:04:18.399
s He barked at a couple of dogs like he does.

41
00:04:20.240 --> 00:04:23.800
I missed the old days when he was really like

42
00:04:24.279 --> 00:04:26.560
when he was ten months old and I first got him.

43
00:04:27.399 --> 00:04:32.279
He was happy to see every single dog excited. He

44
00:04:32.360 --> 00:04:35.920
just wanted to run up to them and be friends.

45
00:04:36.519 --> 00:04:40.240
He's not like that anymore. He's got the dogs that

46
00:04:40.279 --> 00:04:46.439
he's friends with, and anyone new he's not particularly interested in,

47
00:04:48.399 --> 00:04:52.439
and especially the big dogs. He doesn't like big dogs,

48
00:04:52.560 --> 00:04:57.399
or generally black dogs. But he's got a couple of

49
00:04:57.399 --> 00:05:01.360
black dog friends, so he's not completely racist, but he's

50
00:05:01.399 --> 00:05:05.959
definitely you know, he's got a thing about sheep dogs,

51
00:05:06.439 --> 00:05:10.160
what they call colliers or whatever they're called. Yet one

52
00:05:10.160 --> 00:05:14.800
of his good friends is a collier. It's I can't

53
00:05:14.839 --> 00:05:21.879
figure him out, really, So I'm not a big fan

54
00:05:22.199 --> 00:05:24.680
of him doing it anytime, but not early in the

55
00:05:24.720 --> 00:05:29.800
morning or late at night. Just not not really don't

56
00:05:29.959 --> 00:05:34.920
really enjoy that. It's because some people like he did it.

57
00:05:35.040 --> 00:05:39.240
Yesterday we turned a corner and there was someone there

58
00:05:39.240 --> 00:05:42.639
have a dog and did he's barking, and both the

59
00:05:42.639 --> 00:05:46.240
people the dog would give me funny looks like it's

60
00:05:46.360 --> 00:05:49.000
just a dog. He's barking. That's what dogs do. Man.

61
00:05:51.000 --> 00:05:57.000
But you know, I could be responsible for him up

62
00:05:57.040 --> 00:06:00.120
to a limit. You know, he's on a lead, he

63
00:06:00.199 --> 00:06:03.800
can't do any mischief. But as far as barking. He's

64
00:06:03.879 --> 00:06:06.279
going to do that. He's a dog, that's what you know.

65
00:06:07.040 --> 00:06:10.319
I can't stop him from barking. I try and stop him,

66
00:06:12.319 --> 00:06:16.040
and I'm usually able to calm him down. But ultimately,

67
00:06:16.199 --> 00:06:19.319
if he decides to start barking, which I think is

68
00:06:19.399 --> 00:06:23.000
kind of automatic behavior, he doesn't plan it. He's not

69
00:06:23.040 --> 00:06:26.879
got a little alarm goes off on his on his

70
00:06:27.839 --> 00:06:32.680
watch that tells him all time to bark. No, it's

71
00:06:32.720 --> 00:06:40.920
just an automatic response to outside stimuli. I'm guessing I

72
00:06:40.920 --> 00:06:43.800
don't know where he is. He's on the floor somewhere.

73
00:06:44.480 --> 00:06:47.319
He came in licking his lips. So I've got some food,

74
00:06:47.480 --> 00:06:51.040
got some water or change his waterever because he was

75
00:06:51.040 --> 00:06:54.360
in a bedroom with his water in his food, did

76
00:06:54.439 --> 00:06:57.079
not touch his food from last night. So I've given

77
00:06:57.120 --> 00:07:00.800
him some new food. Put it out. I haven't got

78
00:07:00.839 --> 00:07:03.800
anywhere near it. And I think he's just done a

79
00:07:03.800 --> 00:07:12.680
big fart. Wit. No, it wasn't me, it was him.

80
00:07:12.959 --> 00:07:15.639
If it was me, it was a silent one. But

81
00:07:15.759 --> 00:07:18.360
normally even if it's silent, you know, just still feel

82
00:07:18.360 --> 00:07:25.079
the air. Bad, bad, bad. So yeah, it's another week,

83
00:07:25.680 --> 00:07:28.839
another week in August. It's the last week of August,

84
00:07:29.680 --> 00:07:34.839
I do believe. So what we've got twenty six tomorrow,

85
00:07:35.600 --> 00:07:42.879
just Tuesday, my birthday, fifty five, twenty seventh, on Wednesday,

86
00:07:43.000 --> 00:07:53.040
twenty third, on Thursday, twenty third, Wow, twenty six, twenty seven, Wednesday,

87
00:07:53.680 --> 00:08:01.439
twenty eighth, Thursday, twenty ninth, Friday, thirtieth, Saturday Day, very

88
00:08:01.560 --> 00:08:06.639
first Sunday, and the first of September will be next

89
00:08:06.720 --> 00:08:15.879
Monday in a week's time. So, yeah, that was a

90
00:08:15.879 --> 00:08:18.600
bit pointless, really, wasn't. I just reading out the numbers

91
00:08:18.639 --> 00:08:24.480
of the days. The weird thing is, I just really

92
00:08:24.600 --> 00:08:33.240
enjoyed doing it, and I don't know why. I don't know. Yeah,

93
00:08:33.279 --> 00:08:39.720
I haven't really done much today, although it's still fairly early.

94
00:08:39.799 --> 00:08:45.080
It's only eleven twenty five in the morning. I mean recently,

95
00:08:45.120 --> 00:08:47.799
I have been doing recordings a little bit earlier than this,

96
00:08:48.039 --> 00:08:54.240
but it's been relatively quiet outside, so I thought, oh,

97
00:08:55.720 --> 00:08:59.399
maybe i'll make a recording. There's not much screaming and shouting,

98
00:08:59.519 --> 00:09:03.919
and you know, ding dong was going on out there.

99
00:09:05.759 --> 00:09:13.559
Plus one two three four one two four Our six

100
00:09:13.639 --> 00:09:15.879
of the flats in this building are empty at the

101
00:09:15.919 --> 00:09:22.799
moment today. Anyway, one's on holiday. I think one's gone

102
00:09:22.799 --> 00:09:24.440
away for the weekend or so. I don't know. I

103
00:09:24.519 --> 00:09:27.279
haven't seen them because I put some black bags out

104
00:09:27.320 --> 00:09:30.080
there out the front for them. There's a little gift

105
00:09:30.120 --> 00:09:32.200
and they haven't brought it in, so I guess they're

106
00:09:32.200 --> 00:09:38.320
not around. And then one downstairs on a holiday, and

107
00:09:38.360 --> 00:09:40.879
then they have two flats that are empty anyway, So

108
00:09:40.919 --> 00:09:47.879
there's only me and downstairs that they're here today, So

109
00:09:50.559 --> 00:09:57.080
pretty quiet and I don't make much noise generally, I'm

110
00:09:57.440 --> 00:10:03.840
fairly fairly useful neighbor. I would, I would, I think,

111
00:10:04.000 --> 00:10:10.679
I hope. So I have asked intermittently my neighbor downstairs

112
00:10:10.759 --> 00:10:14.120
just to make sure that I'm being quiet enough, because

113
00:10:14.120 --> 00:10:15.759
I don't, you know, I don't want to be one

114
00:10:15.759 --> 00:10:20.759
of those noisy neighbors. That's alwayst like my worst scenario.

115
00:10:22.480 --> 00:10:27.960
Just yeah, other than having a really noisy neighbor has

116
00:10:28.080 --> 00:10:38.960
to that's that's up higher than that, you know, so hmmm, yeah,

117
00:10:39.080 --> 00:10:45.360
the weakerheads looking well, I don't really do anything on

118
00:10:45.399 --> 00:10:49.279
my birthday anymore. I used to. I used to celebrate

119
00:10:49.320 --> 00:10:56.039
my birthday every single year, not as in like having

120
00:10:56.080 --> 00:11:02.799
a birthday celebration like party or anything like that. I'm

121
00:11:02.799 --> 00:11:04.639
talking about as an adult when I was a kid,

122
00:11:04.720 --> 00:11:08.360
I used to have parties. I think, yeah, pretty much.

123
00:11:09.840 --> 00:11:14.159
But as an adult, most of the time, when I

124
00:11:14.200 --> 00:11:18.200
was in London, I would take the day off on

125
00:11:18.279 --> 00:11:24.639
my birthday. I'd go up to the West End and

126
00:11:24.759 --> 00:11:31.080
just chill out. I'll become I suppose, like a tourist

127
00:11:31.200 --> 00:11:35.120
for the day and I'd go and eat out, and

128
00:11:35.159 --> 00:11:38.799
I'd go and I'd be on my own every single time,

129
00:11:40.639 --> 00:11:43.240
and I'll just, you know, just go to the West End.

130
00:11:43.279 --> 00:11:47.559
I would look around, go into the bookshops, maybe buy

131
00:11:47.600 --> 00:11:54.360
a book, go and get McDonald's. I saw her an

132
00:11:54.399 --> 00:11:57.759
advert or saw an advert on TV for McDonald's. And

133
00:11:57.799 --> 00:12:04.720
now they're using the term Mackie d for McDonald's, which

134
00:12:04.759 --> 00:12:10.440
just shows you how how slow companies are to use

135
00:12:10.879 --> 00:12:13.879
because I heard that term when I like twenty five

136
00:12:13.960 --> 00:12:18.440
years ago, people talking about Macky D's. So now McDonald's

137
00:12:18.480 --> 00:12:22.559
just realized that people use that term. I personally don't

138
00:12:22.639 --> 00:12:30.080
use that term because it's McDonald's. I did the idea

139
00:12:30.159 --> 00:12:33.320
of actually making a cute name for something that's so

140
00:12:33.399 --> 00:12:38.039
harmful for me, you know, I mean McDonald's. Okay. I

141
00:12:38.120 --> 00:12:42.000
used to like McDonald's used to be a treat. Now

142
00:12:42.039 --> 00:12:45.960
it's I would have. I would go to McDonald's if

143
00:12:45.960 --> 00:12:48.759
there was nothing else to eat. It would be a

144
00:12:48.840 --> 00:12:54.120
last resort. I think i'd even choose a sausage roll

145
00:12:55.000 --> 00:13:03.639
over McDonald's meal. Generally, yes, it's if I'm in the

146
00:13:03.639 --> 00:13:06.759
middle of somewhere and I've got no other food. I'll

147
00:13:06.799 --> 00:13:13.759
go to McDonald's only if there's McDonald's there, because otherwise

148
00:13:13.759 --> 00:13:16.039
I wouldn't be able to go, would I.

149
00:13:16.120 --> 00:13:16.159
No.

150
00:13:19.440 --> 00:13:31.480
Oh, So my birthday, my birthday, my birthday, My my birthday,

151
00:13:32.039 --> 00:13:41.679
my birthday, my birthday, Oh fifty five? How many birthdays

152
00:13:41.679 --> 00:13:52.320
I can remember? I can't remember last year. Well, birthdays

153
00:13:52.840 --> 00:13:59.759
stand out in my life. Okay, the first birthday I

154
00:14:00.159 --> 00:14:05.320
call was when I was living in Newcastle in a

155
00:14:05.399 --> 00:14:09.639
children's home, and I come down. I've told this story before,

156
00:14:09.679 --> 00:14:15.000
but I come downstairs because my birthday was always during

157
00:14:15.000 --> 00:14:19.679
the summer holidays when I was at school, so right

158
00:14:19.759 --> 00:14:23.320
from being I don't know when I first went to school.

159
00:14:23.320 --> 00:14:26.200
I don't know what age I was, but I never

160
00:14:26.919 --> 00:14:31.919
had to do anything on my birthday until I started working.

161
00:14:34.360 --> 00:14:36.720
And then when I got to my twenties, I kind

162
00:14:36.720 --> 00:14:43.960
of decided I'm not working on my birthday. Anymore. So, Yeah,

163
00:14:44.120 --> 00:14:47.840
my first birthday recollection. Because I didn't know what my

164
00:14:47.840 --> 00:14:51.919
birthday was. I didn't know how old I was back then,

165
00:14:52.720 --> 00:14:56.679
so I guessed and I was probably about five. And

166
00:14:57.519 --> 00:15:02.600
I come downstairs. I'm late, must have slept in or something.

167
00:15:03.240 --> 00:15:10.960
I go into the canteen. Because the the Children's Home

168
00:15:11.200 --> 00:15:14.759
in Newcastle was a lot better than the Children's Home

169
00:15:14.759 --> 00:15:19.720
in South End where I ended up. It was it

170
00:15:19.799 --> 00:15:24.399
was just nicer though. The place was nicer as far

171
00:15:24.559 --> 00:15:28.039
as brighter and where we ate. It was like a

172
00:15:28.080 --> 00:15:31.679
conservatory thing and I don't know, it was just a

173
00:15:31.840 --> 00:15:35.320
nicer and it was all surrounded by fields and you

174
00:15:35.360 --> 00:15:43.840
know the play area, big play field with swings and stuff. Yeah. Anyway,

175
00:15:44.000 --> 00:15:49.519
I so I come down and I'm sitting at the

176
00:15:49.559 --> 00:15:56.159
table and someone says, oh, happy birthday. I said, okay,

177
00:15:56.679 --> 00:15:59.720
I had no idea it was my birthday. Neither did they.

178
00:16:01.279 --> 00:16:03.519
I mean obviously I did, because they just said happy birthday.

179
00:16:04.919 --> 00:16:07.200
And because I know I had that conversation with him.

180
00:16:07.200 --> 00:16:10.080
I said, how do you that's my birthday? And she

181
00:16:10.159 --> 00:16:14.000
said I didn't. I said, well, you just told me

182
00:16:14.039 --> 00:16:17.279
happy birthday. How can you say happy birthday if you

183
00:16:17.320 --> 00:16:20.519
didn't know it's my birthday. She said, well, I could

184
00:16:20.559 --> 00:16:23.840
just be making it up and I could say happy

185
00:16:23.879 --> 00:16:28.000
birthday to anyone at any time, you know. But I said,

186
00:16:28.039 --> 00:16:30.240
what are you you making up? And she said no,

187
00:16:30.559 --> 00:16:34.559
I'm not. I said, okay, well, how come how do

188
00:16:34.600 --> 00:16:37.519
you know it's my birthday? Then she said because your

189
00:16:37.559 --> 00:16:42.120
mom came around. I said really, I said, yeah, your

190
00:16:42.159 --> 00:16:46.679
mom turned up. I said, okay, where was she now?

191
00:16:46.799 --> 00:16:53.200
She didn't stop. Okay, she didn't stop, she did, why

192
00:16:53.200 --> 00:16:54.080
didn't you wake me up?

193
00:16:55.080 --> 00:16:55.240
Oh?

194
00:16:55.320 --> 00:16:59.559
She couldn't stop. Okay. So I said, okay, a lot

195
00:16:59.600 --> 00:17:04.559
back then, and I said all right, and she said

196
00:17:04.680 --> 00:17:07.160
then the lady said, well, she left you a present.

197
00:17:07.759 --> 00:17:11.359
I said, I really, and she gave it to me.

198
00:17:11.440 --> 00:17:13.640
It was a box of mare teesers, like one of

199
00:17:13.680 --> 00:17:17.599
the bigger boxes. And I love not what I love

200
00:17:17.640 --> 00:17:22.960
more teasers still do. So oh and that was it.

201
00:17:23.240 --> 00:17:27.440
That was my birthday, and that's her first birthday. I

202
00:17:27.559 --> 00:17:37.680
remember having really knowing what her birthday was. Now, the

203
00:17:37.759 --> 00:17:40.119
next time I had a birthday, I couldn't tell you.

204
00:17:40.480 --> 00:17:41.960
I mean, I know it was a year later, but

205
00:17:42.960 --> 00:17:48.440
I couldn't tell you. I don't remember a specific celebration

206
00:17:48.920 --> 00:18:02.359
of any particular birthday year, probably until I was eight,

207
00:18:02.960 --> 00:18:07.559
so I remember that birthday. So we'd been living we

208
00:18:07.799 --> 00:18:12.960
just moved into, not just moved in, but I hadn't

209
00:18:12.960 --> 00:18:16.640
been long. We've been living in this house, which was

210
00:18:16.680 --> 00:18:19.799
a new build on a council estate, which my nana

211
00:18:19.839 --> 00:18:24.759
Grande moved into as well. Once we moved out in

212
00:18:27.880 --> 00:18:33.599
I don't know, nineteen eighty eight or summer time. Yeah,

213
00:18:33.839 --> 00:18:36.359
just in time. Yeah, it's probably just in time for

214
00:18:36.400 --> 00:18:41.680
me to move into. We moved into new house and

215
00:18:41.720 --> 00:18:52.160
I started a new school in September. So yeah, that's it. Yeah,

216
00:18:52.200 --> 00:19:02.319
that's right. So the day before my eighth birthday, the

217
00:19:02.359 --> 00:19:07.319
twenty fifth, which is today, I don't even know how

218
00:19:07.359 --> 00:19:18.359
many years ago, forty something, forty three, No, forty seven

219
00:19:18.480 --> 00:19:22.599
years ago. So my little brother is now forty seven.

220
00:19:24.720 --> 00:19:28.440
He's getting old, an't he? So forty seven years ago

221
00:19:28.640 --> 00:19:37.000
today I was see in our house we had and

222
00:19:37.039 --> 00:19:40.680
I don't know why, and it's really it caused problems

223
00:19:40.680 --> 00:19:43.240
for my name as well. She fell down these steps

224
00:19:43.599 --> 00:19:47.000
that I fell down, and they put a ramp up

225
00:19:47.000 --> 00:19:51.200
in the end. My dad and whatever. It was ridiculous,

226
00:19:51.279 --> 00:19:56.160
like these big steps and each step was pretty much

227
00:19:56.160 --> 00:19:59.200
as high up up to my knee, and when I

228
00:19:59.200 --> 00:20:01.319
was only two inches tall at the time, but still

229
00:20:01.720 --> 00:20:09.119
big steps to get into the back door. And it's

230
00:20:09.359 --> 00:20:11.720
it's I think it's because the house was kind of

231
00:20:11.759 --> 00:20:15.240
on a bit of a slope and the ground hadn't

232
00:20:15.359 --> 00:20:18.400
settled yet, because it was on a new bit of land,

233
00:20:19.480 --> 00:20:21.480
well not on a new bit of land, and land's

234
00:20:21.480 --> 00:20:25.480
probably been there for millions of years, but depending on

235
00:20:25.519 --> 00:20:36.799
which book you read. And I I fell downstairs that

236
00:20:37.039 --> 00:20:41.359
my stepmom was heavily pregnant. I mean, the fact is

237
00:20:41.400 --> 00:20:42.960
she had a baby that day, so she must have

238
00:20:43.000 --> 00:20:47.519
been quite heavily pregnant. And she comes out to help me.

239
00:20:48.640 --> 00:20:53.400
So I falked down the stairs and I'm crying where

240
00:20:55.880 --> 00:20:58.519
my dad comes out and oh, you've had the baby already,

241
00:20:58.960 --> 00:21:03.359
and he realizes it's just me. I was still a baby,

242
00:21:03.400 --> 00:21:06.559
that's what. That's the day I stopped being a baby.

243
00:21:08.799 --> 00:21:11.039
It's kind of weird. I got to be a baby

244
00:21:11.240 --> 00:21:18.200
for a year pretty much. I had a whole year

245
00:21:18.240 --> 00:21:22.559
of being the baby, being the youngest. I know I

246
00:21:22.599 --> 00:21:26.039
was young. I was youngest for the first eight years,

247
00:21:26.440 --> 00:21:28.799
but that's it's only between seven and eight that I

248
00:21:28.920 --> 00:21:34.119
was actually treated like a human, I think. So I

249
00:21:34.119 --> 00:21:36.279
got to be a baby and act like a baby

250
00:21:36.480 --> 00:21:40.720
and be all I don't know, babyish, I guess I

251
00:21:40.759 --> 00:21:45.039
don't mean a baby baby. I wasn't like wearing nappies

252
00:21:45.079 --> 00:21:49.799
and going gega googo, not that babies generally go gega

253
00:21:49.839 --> 00:21:58.559
goo goo, BUTKA like that. I wasn't doing that, but

254
00:21:58.680 --> 00:22:03.400
I was, you know, I was. My dad would carry

255
00:22:03.440 --> 00:22:08.480
me on his shoulders and we were walking around and

256
00:22:09.640 --> 00:22:14.200
I would sit on my stepmom's lap and cuddle up

257
00:22:14.200 --> 00:22:17.279
to her like I was a little baby. Yeah, it

258
00:22:17.319 --> 00:22:20.359
was good. I liked it. But then my little brother

259
00:22:20.480 --> 00:22:26.200
was born and he ruined everything, absolutely ruined it, and

260
00:22:29.119 --> 00:22:32.279
I suddenly had to start acting I suppose my age

261
00:22:32.359 --> 00:22:35.319
really But it was good. It was good for a year,

262
00:22:37.119 --> 00:22:48.039
kind of, was it. Yeah. I remember once I was

263
00:22:48.079 --> 00:22:52.559
thinking because my dad said, oh, you get a bit

264
00:22:52.599 --> 00:22:55.359
too heavy now for me to carry you on my shoulders,

265
00:22:55.960 --> 00:22:57.920
so I'm probably not gonna be able to do it anymore.

266
00:22:58.279 --> 00:23:02.799
And I thought, hmmm, So what I did is I

267
00:23:02.839 --> 00:23:06.200
put super glue on my bum and my on my legs.

268
00:23:06.759 --> 00:23:09.359
Well I was wearing trousers but super clue on them,

269
00:23:09.640 --> 00:23:13.000
and I thought that'd work. But it didn't. He just

270
00:23:13.039 --> 00:23:23.319
took his shirt off and we didn't talk about it again. Yeah,

271
00:23:23.839 --> 00:23:30.200
the people in a restaurant weren't too pleased. That doesn't

272
00:23:30.240 --> 00:23:33.680
make sense. What do you mean the people in the restaurant.

273
00:23:34.519 --> 00:23:36.960
Why would you be on your dad's shoulders in a restaurant?

274
00:23:37.319 --> 00:23:39.200
I don't know. It makes sense when I said it,

275
00:23:39.240 --> 00:23:41.119
But then once I said that, I realized it didn't

276
00:23:41.119 --> 00:23:45.680
make sense, and instead of moving on, I actually highlighted

277
00:23:45.680 --> 00:23:49.400
the fact that what I just said made no no

278
00:23:49.519 --> 00:23:50.200
sense at all.

279
00:23:51.880 --> 00:23:54.599
You can't think of any other words that mean sense,

280
00:23:54.720 --> 00:23:57.920
can you? So you just keep using the same words sense.

281
00:24:00.599 --> 00:24:05.039
Yeah I noticed that as well. Thanks, it's okay. I'm

282
00:24:05.039 --> 00:24:13.119
here to help. Yeah, cheers didn't make any didn't seem relevant,

283
00:24:13.200 --> 00:24:16.160
didn't make any kind of sense. No, see, she'll keep

284
00:24:16.160 --> 00:24:21.279
coming back to words since anyway, I fell over, not

285
00:24:21.359 --> 00:24:23.400
on purpose, you know. I bashed my knee on the

286
00:24:23.480 --> 00:24:34.279
concrete floor. It hurts, and I cried like that, and

287
00:24:35.119 --> 00:24:40.039
probably about a lot louder. Although I got quite a

288
00:24:40.119 --> 00:24:48.319
quiet voice, I can shout really loud. You'd be surprised you. Honestly,

289
00:24:49.559 --> 00:24:53.200
I can really shout loud if I need to. But

290
00:24:53.440 --> 00:24:56.319
the whole estate would hear me if I showered my loudest.

291
00:24:57.680 --> 00:25:00.920
I don't know why. It's my little superpowered I keep quiet.

292
00:25:01.440 --> 00:25:05.400
I keep it to myself. Plus there's no apparent reason

293
00:25:06.160 --> 00:25:14.480
to use it. And yeah, so I've fallen. I've fallen

294
00:25:14.480 --> 00:25:19.880
over off the step, a very unsafe step. Really not

295
00:25:19.920 --> 00:25:24.039
a good idea to have us two steps, in fact,

296
00:25:24.680 --> 00:25:31.880
two concrete steps to get into the back door. It

297
00:25:32.200 --> 00:25:34.720
just I don't know, personally, I think it was a

298
00:25:34.720 --> 00:25:40.920
bad idea and a big fault in the building structure.

299
00:25:41.200 --> 00:25:45.079
It just wasn't It's a nice house. It was my

300
00:25:45.119 --> 00:25:48.799
favorite house of all time. And if I could live anywhere,

301
00:25:48.839 --> 00:25:54.680
it'd be there in that house. You know, it'd have

302
00:25:54.759 --> 00:25:56.759
to be like it was when my men lived there.

303
00:25:58.039 --> 00:26:01.519
I wouldn't change a thing. I keep it the same.

304
00:26:02.319 --> 00:26:04.759
But unfortunately she moved out. She had to move out,

305
00:26:04.799 --> 00:26:11.480
and yeah, into a care home, and not a care

306
00:26:11.559 --> 00:26:20.039
home that was sheltered them sheltered sheltered residential accommodation is

307
00:26:20.039 --> 00:26:27.599
that what it's called. She had her own flat and

308
00:26:27.759 --> 00:26:31.480
with I don't know how many other people, fifty sixty hundred,

309
00:26:31.480 --> 00:26:35.119
I don't know, everyone had their own flats, and she'd

310
00:26:35.200 --> 00:26:38.279
go in as you as you walked basically as you

311
00:26:38.359 --> 00:26:44.319
walk in the main thing. I think it was locked sometimes.

312
00:26:44.519 --> 00:26:49.799
But if you walk in and there's this big area

313
00:26:50.000 --> 00:26:54.400
room where sometimes they'd congregate and play big go and

314
00:26:54.480 --> 00:27:02.680
cricket or whatever else hopscotch, and I don't know why

315
00:27:02.759 --> 00:27:08.519
that's funny, And then turn right. It wasn't funny. Okay, stop,

316
00:27:08.559 --> 00:27:12.440
I don't need this. You're not helping anymore.

317
00:27:11.680 --> 00:27:12.359
Not trying to.

318
00:27:13.680 --> 00:27:18.039
Oh it's a turn right down there, one, two, three

319
00:27:18.240 --> 00:27:21.839
four on the right, that was where her door was.

320
00:27:23.480 --> 00:27:27.440
I couldn't tell you what number it was. I do

321
00:27:27.519 --> 00:27:28.000
what number?

322
00:27:28.000 --> 00:27:28.400
I do what?

323
00:27:28.559 --> 00:27:31.920
I didn't look. I remember the numbers of the two

324
00:27:32.000 --> 00:27:35.480
houses I lived in when I was a kid, to

325
00:27:35.480 --> 00:27:38.359
to of the houses. One was fifty six, one was

326
00:27:38.480 --> 00:27:49.000
nine ninety eight, Yeah, fifty six ninety eight, But this

327
00:27:49.039 --> 00:28:00.559
one I don't remember. And you go in on the

328
00:28:00.680 --> 00:28:07.440
left hand side, there was a cudboard. On top of

329
00:28:07.559 --> 00:28:14.480
that there was was it a cupboardal was in built?

330
00:28:14.480 --> 00:28:20.240
I don't know. But that's where my nan stored shoe

331
00:28:20.279 --> 00:28:25.400
boxes with photographs in and there were some photo albums

332
00:28:25.440 --> 00:28:28.039
up there as well, because every now and then we

333
00:28:28.200 --> 00:28:30.400
get them out and have a little look, it'll laugh,

334
00:28:31.759 --> 00:28:34.680
and she'd show me she had pictures of me when

335
00:28:34.680 --> 00:28:42.200
I was little before, like when I was like really little.

336
00:28:46.960 --> 00:28:54.200
I don't know how. That's kind of a little bit confusing.

337
00:28:54.279 --> 00:28:58.000
I don't know how because this is before I was

338
00:29:01.079 --> 00:29:06.680
I was like a toddler. I'm guessing when I was

339
00:29:06.720 --> 00:29:09.400
with the foster parents, my name was still visited and

340
00:29:09.759 --> 00:29:15.599
visiting us, maybe still taking us out, and maybe my

341
00:29:15.680 --> 00:29:19.880
dad was. I don't really don't know, but there there

342
00:29:19.880 --> 00:29:24.119
were some pictures of us where I was definitely older

343
00:29:24.160 --> 00:29:31.839
than a baby. Yeah, And it was before I was too,

344
00:29:31.880 --> 00:29:37.160
because that's when I moved to Newcastle. Anyways, Pictures of

345
00:29:37.440 --> 00:29:39.720
me and a pram and stuff.

346
00:29:39.400 --> 00:29:43.359
And my nan.

347
00:29:44.680 --> 00:29:53.680
And my brother, and there's a few pictures of me

348
00:29:53.839 --> 00:30:00.440
when I was younger, when I was like a kid,

349
00:30:00.599 --> 00:30:06.359
Christmases and stuff like that, and pictures of the family.

350
00:30:06.519 --> 00:30:09.799
Pictures of my nan when she was a kid, pictures

351
00:30:09.839 --> 00:30:14.960
of her when she got married, Pictures of my granddad.

352
00:30:15.000 --> 00:30:20.720
My grandad looked like Clark Gable seriously when he was older,

353
00:30:20.720 --> 00:30:23.599
I mean when he was like in his fifties sixties,

354
00:30:24.000 --> 00:30:30.680
looked like Clark Gable, very handsome man. I obviously take

355
00:30:30.759 --> 00:30:40.200
after him, and he had a mustache. I think he

356
00:30:40.200 --> 00:30:43.880
had a mustache all his life. I don't suit a

357
00:30:44.000 --> 00:30:50.079
mustache really. In fact, recently I've been shaving. I've not

358
00:30:50.200 --> 00:30:56.200
had a beard for a while. I just I'm not

359
00:30:56.519 --> 00:31:00.440
sure if having a gray beard really help helps me

360
00:31:00.880 --> 00:31:06.960
in life. I just don't know if it's advantageous on

361
00:31:07.160 --> 00:31:20.039
any level. You know, just see for me, I look

362
00:31:20.039 --> 00:31:22.039
at it. I look at pictures of me with beard.

363
00:31:22.119 --> 00:31:26.079
I think I look all right, But then I see

364
00:31:26.119 --> 00:31:29.559
other people with exactly the same kind of beard is

365
00:31:29.599 --> 00:31:34.680
what I've got, And I'm thinking, do I look like that?

366
00:31:35.880 --> 00:31:40.839
Because sometimes it looks really scraggly? And I don't know.

367
00:31:41.240 --> 00:31:45.759
I think I think beards look good from a distance,

368
00:31:47.119 --> 00:31:53.400
but as you get closer, maybe they don't look so good.

369
00:31:53.880 --> 00:32:01.400
I don't know. I might just I could dye my

370
00:32:01.559 --> 00:32:07.680
beard black and dye my hair black, dye my eyebrows black,

371
00:32:09.799 --> 00:32:18.000
and dye my ear hairs black. My arm hair is black.

372
00:32:19.000 --> 00:32:21.440
I don't know I could do I'd look silly, but

373
00:32:21.480 --> 00:32:30.799
I could do it. I look ridiculous, but or blonde.

374
00:32:31.000 --> 00:32:35.559
I used to be blonde, I did. I think I

375
00:32:35.640 --> 00:32:45.240
was born blonde, But gingery I say, born blonde. I

376
00:32:45.240 --> 00:32:47.839
don't know if I had much hair when I was born.

377
00:32:49.000 --> 00:32:56.279
That's what reverting back to being a baby again. Yeah,

378
00:32:56.279 --> 00:32:58.680
the aging process is a little bit like that, isn't it?

379
00:33:04.000 --> 00:33:07.839
Turning into a babby? See, that's why I used to

380
00:33:07.880 --> 00:33:09.200
call them when I was because I was lived in

381
00:33:09.279 --> 00:33:14.640
Newcastle called them babby's. I don't know, but I didn't

382
00:33:14.680 --> 00:33:20.880
know what baby was. I knew what babby was. So guys,

383
00:33:21.079 --> 00:33:23.799
remember that. Wow, I haven't heard that term for a

384
00:33:23.880 --> 00:33:27.960
long time, a babby unless, of course I'm gon getting

385
00:33:27.960 --> 00:33:32.279
it wrong. Maybe I was just pronouncing it incorrectly.

386
00:33:33.799 --> 00:33:41.039
It's baby, Jason's baby babby Babby. Why are you talking

387
00:33:41.160 --> 00:33:47.200
like that, Jason? You're twelve years old, babby Babby?

388
00:33:48.680 --> 00:33:52.839
No, I don't know. That was weird. Yeah, that was

389
00:33:52.880 --> 00:33:57.519
too weird for me. So I fall over and I

390
00:33:57.599 --> 00:34:00.759
banged my knee on the floor on the concrete. I'm crying.

391
00:34:01.000 --> 00:34:10.159
Where where I've heard MANGI mangey is so wow?

392
00:34:11.679 --> 00:34:14.400
To start with, I didn't make too much noise, but

393
00:34:14.440 --> 00:34:18.639
no one came, so I had to up it, you know,

394
00:34:18.639 --> 00:34:25.079
I had to make it louder, and you know, after

395
00:34:25.079 --> 00:34:29.360
about twenty minutes of no one taking any notice. That's

396
00:34:29.400 --> 00:34:33.599
when I used my super powerful loud voice, which I

397
00:34:33.639 --> 00:34:37.320
have hidden away. I'm not going to do an impression

398
00:34:37.320 --> 00:34:43.880
because that would be really loud. The microphone would break.

399
00:34:44.880 --> 00:34:55.880
And that's when my stepmom came running out and she tripped.

400
00:34:58.280 --> 00:35:01.519
I think she tripped on the step, but she came out.

401
00:35:01.559 --> 00:35:07.400
But the shock I know. She picked me up and

402
00:35:07.440 --> 00:35:15.239
her water broke, and it's really weird. Her water broke

403
00:35:15.599 --> 00:35:17.360
and I learned to swim at the same time. It

404
00:35:17.480 --> 00:35:20.719
was great. No, I think she picked me up and

405
00:35:20.719 --> 00:35:26.320
then she went to the kitchen and suddenly I just

406
00:35:26.360 --> 00:35:30.360
hear this splash and I'm thinking, oh, I don't have

407
00:35:30.400 --> 00:35:39.280
to clear that up. And she calls for help, and

408
00:35:39.320 --> 00:35:42.719
I'm thinking, what are you calling me for help? I'm

409
00:35:42.760 --> 00:35:46.159
the one that needs help. I'm waiting for that plaster.

410
00:35:46.320 --> 00:35:53.920
Where's the plast? Day woman? I never said that again. Wow, oh,

411
00:35:54.400 --> 00:35:57.519
but yeah, she's a woman. I've never said that to

412
00:35:57.599 --> 00:36:02.880
anyone ever in my life. I said, man, but yeah, man,

413
00:36:03.119 --> 00:36:06.000
white man, because I'm an old hippie in it. I

414
00:36:06.079 --> 00:36:08.519
used to be young hippie. Now I'm an old hippie.

415
00:36:09.159 --> 00:36:15.199
Still don't know what it means. Anyway, her waters broke,

416
00:36:16.159 --> 00:36:30.800
splashed everywhere, and I actually thought that my little brother

417
00:36:32.039 --> 00:36:34.400
was just going to pop out. And the reason he

418
00:36:34.440 --> 00:36:38.360
hadn't fallen on the floor is because she was wearing knickers.

419
00:36:39.559 --> 00:36:43.360
I didn't understand that the whole process of giving birth.

420
00:36:44.760 --> 00:36:47.079
I just figured that it just it'd come out with

421
00:36:47.119 --> 00:36:56.280
the water, you know, it'd flush out. And the next

422
00:36:56.320 --> 00:37:01.880
thing I know, she's my dad said, I'm not sure

423
00:37:01.880 --> 00:37:04.199
if my dad was. I think he was there, and

424
00:37:04.280 --> 00:37:07.679
he comes in and saying, who made this mess? You know,

425
00:37:08.519 --> 00:37:13.880
and my step one pointing to me, and so it's

426
00:37:13.960 --> 00:37:17.360
my fault. So I had to go and get them

427
00:37:17.480 --> 00:37:20.719
the mopping bucket. None of that happened. Someone cleared it up.

428
00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:21.360
They must have.

429
00:37:21.320 --> 00:37:25.079
Done, and.

430
00:37:27.119 --> 00:37:30.039
The two things they had to do. First of all,

431
00:37:31.000 --> 00:37:35.920
they had to leave us on their own, but they

432
00:37:36.000 --> 00:37:40.480
left us with I think I left us. They left

433
00:37:40.480 --> 00:37:44.280
the neighbor looking after us, and they been next door

434
00:37:44.320 --> 00:37:47.760
that we were very close with, so I stay close.

435
00:37:47.840 --> 00:37:49.880
But we liked them.

436
00:37:50.119 --> 00:37:52.880
They were really, really nice people, so I think we

437
00:37:53.079 --> 00:37:58.079
probably stayed or maybe her mum came around and looked

438
00:37:58.079 --> 00:38:02.719
after us. Who was my step name? Someone did anyway,

439
00:38:03.360 --> 00:38:09.719
and they went off to hospital to have the baby,

440
00:38:11.719 --> 00:38:15.800
and then a few hours later after they left, my

441
00:38:15.880 --> 00:38:20.320
nan and grandad turned up to look after us, and

442
00:38:20.360 --> 00:38:22.840
they were with us for about three days, three or

443
00:38:22.840 --> 00:38:28.920
four days while the baby was in hospital, because the

444
00:38:28.960 --> 00:38:33.199
baby was born, you know, within a few hours. I

445
00:38:33.239 --> 00:38:37.079
think I'm partially making this up because I don't know

446
00:38:37.119 --> 00:38:40.840
the full facts, but I think my little brother was born,

447
00:38:41.000 --> 00:38:52.760
you know, fairly quick, and I think she was quite lucky.

448
00:38:52.840 --> 00:38:57.000
She's got she had an extra large uterus, so I

449
00:38:57.079 --> 00:39:00.480
don't know what that was saying. It just lead out,

450
00:39:01.119 --> 00:39:04.760
no problems, no pain, it was just you know, didn't

451
00:39:04.760 --> 00:39:07.119
even realize you had baby, just like it was just

452
00:39:07.960 --> 00:39:10.239
she was sitting there eating some corn flakes and my

453
00:39:10.320 --> 00:39:15.199
dad popped out. It came back and my little brother

454
00:39:15.360 --> 00:39:19.840
was just lying on the on the bed sucking. It's fun.

455
00:39:20.280 --> 00:39:25.719
She didn't realize she'd give them birth. Would you believe

456
00:39:25.719 --> 00:39:38.119
any of this? So that was my I remember visiting.

457
00:39:39.159 --> 00:39:45.599
We couldn't visit until I think the day after, so

458
00:39:46.039 --> 00:39:53.000
probably went up there on my birthday, probably to visit

459
00:39:53.400 --> 00:39:58.199
the hospital. Things were a little bit different in the seventies.

460
00:39:58.239 --> 00:39:58.639
It was.

461
00:40:00.239 --> 00:40:03.719
You know, people stayed in hospital a lot longer for

462
00:40:03.880 --> 00:40:09.679
things that you wouldn't be in hospital for nowadays, if

463
00:40:09.719 --> 00:40:12.480
I had a lot of outpatient things are done that

464
00:40:12.599 --> 00:40:18.559
used to be in patient things. You know, So things

465
00:40:18.679 --> 00:40:23.239
like having a baby, you can be in and out

466
00:40:23.239 --> 00:40:27.320
of in a short period of time, providing everything's gone

467
00:40:27.559 --> 00:40:31.119
to plan, you know. But back then she was in

468
00:40:31.159 --> 00:40:35.639
hospital for about a week. I mean, I know people

469
00:40:35.639 --> 00:40:37.400
have had their appendix out and they're out of in

470
00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:42.079
about two days. I was in for at least what

471
00:40:42.480 --> 00:40:46.119
six seven days? When I have my appendix out, I

472
00:40:46.159 --> 00:40:50.199
did milk it. I loved I'd have my favorite time

473
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:53.719
of all. That was my favorite time my childhood was

474
00:40:53.760 --> 00:40:57.960
being in hospital. That's sad, isn't it? But I loved it.

475
00:40:58.039 --> 00:41:05.079
I did had the best time. And also I was

476
00:41:05.119 --> 00:41:09.199
in love with Nurse Nichols. So that was when I

477
00:41:09.239 --> 00:41:19.760
was about twelve though. Anyway, the most important thing, remember, yeah,

478
00:41:20.519 --> 00:41:25.000
I think we spoke to my stepmom on the phone

479
00:41:25.360 --> 00:41:30.400
and she said to me, this is like first thing

480
00:41:30.440 --> 00:41:32.440
in the I think it was first thing on the

481
00:41:32.480 --> 00:41:37.719
morning on my birthday and she says, happy birthday, Jason.

482
00:41:38.280 --> 00:41:42.960
I said thanks. She said, your little brothers. Isn't your

483
00:41:43.000 --> 00:41:45.679
little brother the best birthday present you could ever get?

484
00:41:50.000 --> 00:41:54.840
I didn't know what to do with that. I was like, okay,

485
00:41:54.960 --> 00:41:58.320
I want to say yes, just to make her feel

486
00:41:58.360 --> 00:42:03.079
better and to her feel that she's done something worthwhile.

487
00:42:09.719 --> 00:42:15.199
It's one that's funny, done something that actually mad. She

488
00:42:15.880 --> 00:42:18.199
meant something to me, which it didn't.

489
00:42:19.559 --> 00:42:24.039
I didn't care. It was a novelty, to be honest.

490
00:42:24.199 --> 00:42:26.719
He was a novelty when he first came along. It

491
00:42:26.840 --> 00:42:28.800
was like having a pet, Really, isn't it If you

492
00:42:28.800 --> 00:42:31.159
have a new brother, like having a new kitten or

493
00:42:31.199 --> 00:42:34.920
a new dog. The novelty's there, the novelty wears off.

494
00:42:35.719 --> 00:42:39.039
It's like, yeah, I'll take him for a walk every day, promise,

495
00:42:39.960 --> 00:42:43.360
And then after three weeks, oh, you all turn to

496
00:42:43.400 --> 00:42:48.760
take him out? Can't you take him out? So yeah,

497
00:42:48.800 --> 00:42:50.559
that's kind of what it was like having a brother.

498
00:42:51.920 --> 00:42:57.079
Plus I've already had. I've got two brothers already. I

499
00:42:57.159 --> 00:43:00.800
knew what to expect, and I didn't see much point

500
00:43:00.840 --> 00:43:03.880
in them, So to have another one didn't seem a

501
00:43:03.920 --> 00:43:07.079
lot of There was no logic in that. Really, my

502
00:43:07.199 --> 00:43:10.400
two pointless older ones, what's the point in another new one,

503
00:43:10.639 --> 00:43:14.960
a younger one. This is how I used to feel

504
00:43:15.000 --> 00:43:23.440
when I was eight, and so I'm on the phone

505
00:43:27.239 --> 00:43:29.639
and she's saying, yes, it is the best president you've

506
00:43:29.679 --> 00:43:31.760
ever had. Isn't it the best birthday present you could

507
00:43:31.760 --> 00:43:36.840
ever get? And I laughed, thinking she's joking, and she said,

508
00:43:36.840 --> 00:43:40.039
why are you laughing? I said, oh, no, nothing, no reason.

509
00:43:41.679 --> 00:43:44.119
I just thought of a joke that I saw in

510
00:43:44.119 --> 00:43:49.199
the Kenny Everette Show. She said, what was it? I said,

511
00:43:51.079 --> 00:44:00.480
it's basically he was. I don't remember. She said, did

512
00:44:00.519 --> 00:44:04.239
you make it up? I said, no, no, it's it

513
00:44:05.280 --> 00:44:08.000
did happen, and forget what it was now. But you

514
00:44:08.039 --> 00:44:10.000
remembered that when you were talking to me a second

515
00:44:10.000 --> 00:44:14.079
ago and started laughing. In fact, you remembering it while

516
00:44:14.119 --> 00:44:17.840
I was talking to you about the baby, about baby.

517
00:44:17.840 --> 00:44:20.360
It wasn't the baby baby? Do you ever see that?

518
00:44:20.840 --> 00:44:24.000
Do you hear people talk like nurses and stuff? Let's

519
00:44:24.039 --> 00:44:28.360
see how baby is today? How's baby?

520
00:44:28.639 --> 00:44:28.719
Like?

521
00:44:28.880 --> 00:44:28.960
What?

522
00:44:30.800 --> 00:44:31.679
Learn my name?

523
00:44:33.280 --> 00:44:39.280
My name's Jason, not baby? How's baby? Let's wait baby?

524
00:44:40.679 --> 00:44:40.800
Oh?

525
00:44:40.920 --> 00:44:44.360
But you're looking forward to baby being born, aren't you? Oh?

526
00:44:44.800 --> 00:44:53.199
Baby baby? I don't know. Do people what do they

527
00:44:53.280 --> 00:44:59.119
call not wet nurses? What is the nurses that help

528
00:45:00.079 --> 00:45:04.800
pull babies out of you know, help with that part

529
00:45:04.840 --> 00:45:12.760
of it? The birth part I don't know what they're

530
00:45:12.760 --> 00:45:20.360
called baby nurses for them people, So are they told

531
00:45:20.400 --> 00:45:23.639
to use a word word baby as often as possible,

532
00:45:26.320 --> 00:45:30.719
don't forget to feed baby? Like, yeah, I feel like

533
00:45:30.800 --> 00:45:35.079
to remember that one. It's like when you're doing a meditation,

534
00:45:35.199 --> 00:45:38.880
they said, don't forget to breathe, you know, I remember

535
00:45:38.920 --> 00:45:42.559
saying at the times, you know what, I actually interrupted

536
00:45:42.599 --> 00:45:50.599
the meditation and said, I've not been rude. And I'm

537
00:45:50.679 --> 00:45:55.400
thirty one years old, thirty two years old, as you

538
00:45:55.440 --> 00:45:57.719
are thirty two years old, not really relevant the age,

539
00:45:57.760 --> 00:46:01.760
but thirty two years old. Never once have I ever

540
00:46:01.800 --> 00:46:09.159
forgotten to breathe. And the meditation teacher thought I was

541
00:46:09.239 --> 00:46:14.159
being rude, rude, and I said, not being rude. It's

542
00:46:14.199 --> 00:46:17.199
just like I don't need to be told to remember

543
00:46:17.239 --> 00:46:21.960
to breeve. I've always breathed. I've never had to be

544
00:46:22.039 --> 00:46:31.280
reminded to breathe. Hmm, yeah, I didn't go down well.

545
00:46:32.719 --> 00:46:36.800
But anyway, baby, I said.

546
00:46:36.800 --> 00:46:39.199
When are we going to get to see baby? When

547
00:46:39.239 --> 00:46:42.880
can I meet baby? When are you bring baby home?

548
00:46:45.119 --> 00:46:51.280
Baby? Anyway? Yeah, so so she's saying, don't you think

549
00:46:51.320 --> 00:46:55.199
that's the best birthday present you could ever have? And

550
00:46:55.280 --> 00:46:59.360
I said, yeah, yeah. But seriously, though, she said, what,

551
00:47:00.599 --> 00:47:04.320
I'm actually getting a proper present, aren't they? And she laughed,

552
00:47:04.559 --> 00:47:11.480
And then I thought, well, you're laughing, but it doesn't

553
00:47:11.519 --> 00:47:13.320
mean it's a yes or a no. I don't know

554
00:47:13.320 --> 00:47:16.440
what does that mean you laughed at the question. But

555
00:47:16.480 --> 00:47:21.079
does that mean that it's funny what I said, but

556
00:47:21.159 --> 00:47:24.199
I'm not getting a present, or that I am getting

557
00:47:24.199 --> 00:47:29.480
a present, Because in answer to your question, step money,

558
00:47:30.199 --> 00:47:33.440
you pooon out A new baby, a new brother is

559
00:47:33.559 --> 00:47:39.960
not my idea of a good birthday present. It's not

560
00:47:40.360 --> 00:47:44.840
just not never will be, never has been. If anything,

561
00:47:45.000 --> 00:47:49.719
it's an inconvenience. If anything, I think, if we're all honest,

562
00:47:50.840 --> 00:47:56.400
it's spoilt my birthday. It's took the shine of my birthday.

563
00:47:57.800 --> 00:48:03.360
It's definitely taken the attention away from my birthday. And

564
00:48:03.400 --> 00:48:06.039
we all know how important the eighth birthday is for

565
00:48:06.079 --> 00:48:14.480
a boy eight years old. Oh, is anyone talking about

566
00:48:14.480 --> 00:48:18.880
how Jason's doing? Or it's Jason's birthday tomorrow, or it's

567
00:48:18.960 --> 00:48:25.920
Jason's birthday today? Or or no, what are they talking about? Baby?

568
00:48:26.519 --> 00:48:28.079
We're talking about baby?

569
00:48:28.480 --> 00:48:29.239
Oh?

570
00:48:29.760 --> 00:48:32.480
Baby, how's baby doing? Because of course he didn't have

571
00:48:32.480 --> 00:48:39.320
a name yet baby the new baby, Like, what about me?

572
00:48:40.880 --> 00:48:44.039
I used to be the baby yesterday I was the baby.

573
00:48:44.400 --> 00:48:44.960
Now I'm not.

574
00:48:46.960 --> 00:48:49.599
Yeah, I've only had a year of being a baby.

575
00:48:50.480 --> 00:48:54.840
Most people get like a few years, or you know,

576
00:48:55.039 --> 00:48:57.239
get quite a long time of being a baby, of

577
00:48:57.360 --> 00:49:00.519
being the babyish and growing up and being a loan

578
00:49:00.719 --> 00:49:06.679
I didn't get that, so come on. The reason I

579
00:49:06.679 --> 00:49:08.159
didn't get it is because I was five when I

580
00:49:08.199 --> 00:49:12.920
was born. But luckily my real mum also had a

581
00:49:12.960 --> 00:49:19.519
massive We didn't bother her. The birth didn't bother her

582
00:49:20.400 --> 00:49:23.920
filopian tube it is that the right word, filopian tube

583
00:49:24.000 --> 00:49:30.840
or uterusfra. Yeah, she had a large urefra. So I

584
00:49:30.960 --> 00:49:33.480
was when I was born. It didn't really affect her.

585
00:49:34.119 --> 00:49:36.400
Plus I was tiny when I was born. I was

586
00:49:36.519 --> 00:49:42.039
really very small, underdeveloped. Still am a bit really still

587
00:49:42.079 --> 00:49:50.760
waiting for parts to grow. So my nan and granddad

588
00:49:50.920 --> 00:49:55.440
are looking after us. I would talk about, you know,

589
00:49:55.639 --> 00:49:58.199
seeing my little brother for the first time, but it

590
00:49:58.239 --> 00:50:05.039
was completely unmemorable, so I won't bother It's like, how

591
00:50:05.079 --> 00:50:11.280
do people get all emotional about babies as it's so

592
00:50:12.320 --> 00:50:14.039
if it's your own baby, I understand it, but like

593
00:50:14.920 --> 00:50:19.599
as a as just another brother added on to the

594
00:50:19.639 --> 00:50:22.480
ones I've already got, which I didn't want anyway. I

595
00:50:22.480 --> 00:50:24.360
didn't want the ones. I didn't want the ones I had,

596
00:50:24.400 --> 00:50:27.199
so I definitely didn't want another one. Yeah, we get

597
00:50:27.239 --> 00:50:33.519
the idea. JJ, okay, inconvenience if anything, well, you know,

598
00:50:33.519 --> 00:50:40.760
it wasn't wasn't a special moment, and it was like,

599
00:50:41.480 --> 00:50:46.639
okay always my birthday cake didn't get to ice it

600
00:50:46.880 --> 00:50:55.079
because you were too busy giving birth to that thing. Yeah,

601
00:50:55.239 --> 00:50:58.000
I had a birthday cake that was just a sponge

602
00:50:58.519 --> 00:51:09.800
with some candles now icing. How is that acceptable? How

603
00:51:09.920 --> 00:51:16.559
is that in any way? It shouldn't be allowed. I

604
00:51:16.559 --> 00:51:19.840
mean that's neglect, isn't it. I mean, oh, you're having

605
00:51:19.840 --> 00:51:22.960
another baby? What about the ones you've got? What about us?

606
00:51:23.119 --> 00:51:25.800
I know we're not your real kids, but what anyway?

607
00:51:26.159 --> 00:51:30.239
What about my birthday cake? Forget that that silly little

608
00:51:30.280 --> 00:51:34.360
thing you just had? What about my birthday cake? Had

609
00:51:34.360 --> 00:51:36.840
a bit of an attitude on eight, didn't. I don't

610
00:51:36.840 --> 00:51:41.800
come across its very nice? Did I back then? Oh?

611
00:51:41.880 --> 00:51:44.239
Much nicer. It was much nicer by the time I

612
00:51:44.320 --> 00:51:49.840
got to ten. To be fair, the next year was

613
00:51:49.840 --> 00:51:53.079
all right because I just saw how much stray not

614
00:51:53.119 --> 00:51:56.679
getting any sleep, the effects it had on the parents.

615
00:51:57.440 --> 00:52:00.320
I was like, yeah, I get your back for me

616
00:52:00.360 --> 00:52:05.360
not having a proper birthday. Hmm. I think they must

617
00:52:05.360 --> 00:52:08.800
have aged about ten years in the first year of

618
00:52:08.920 --> 00:52:15.639
having a baby. It was great. So I none of

619
00:52:15.679 --> 00:52:23.480
this is true. I know, we went visited the baby,

620
00:52:23.920 --> 00:52:33.440
went and visited the baby. And I mean even back then,

621
00:52:33.719 --> 00:52:39.159
I thought, you know what the nurses in the hospital

622
00:52:39.519 --> 00:52:43.360
that back then they used to have nurses do the

623
00:52:43.480 --> 00:52:50.519
nurse's job, and now they've got care workers, care assistance,

624
00:52:50.599 --> 00:52:54.119
care workers doing the nurse's job. The nurses seemed to

625
00:52:54.119 --> 00:52:59.079
be doing the doctor's job, and the doctors, uh, just

626
00:53:00.039 --> 00:53:04.480
come and go and doing whatever. Probably doing the surgeon stop.

627
00:53:04.519 --> 00:53:10.159
I don't know, but I couldn't. Honestly, it's amazing. If

628
00:53:10.159 --> 00:53:12.440
you go to the hospital now, it's changed so much.

629
00:53:14.440 --> 00:53:17.119
No one seems to be getting paid for what they're doing,

630
00:53:17.679 --> 00:53:20.199
Like the level of what they're doing. The nurses are

631
00:53:20.199 --> 00:53:23.000
doing so much more than they used to do. The

632
00:53:23.119 --> 00:53:25.559
care workers are doing so much more than they used

633
00:53:25.559 --> 00:53:31.280
to It's I mean, I'm pretty sure I saw one

634
00:53:31.280 --> 00:53:35.960
of the cleaners doing a heart transplant on one of

635
00:53:36.000 --> 00:53:57.480
the patients. Oh, admittedly she did get arrested. Who's only

636
00:53:57.519 --> 00:54:04.920
in with a broken leg. So that was silly, I

637
00:54:05.039 --> 00:54:13.360
figured out because the baby was taken into this room

638
00:54:13.400 --> 00:54:17.960
of other babies and stuff, and the nurse said, oh,

639
00:54:18.159 --> 00:54:21.880
go and get your baby, can get baby. I can't

640
00:54:21.960 --> 00:54:27.519
get baby, and came in with a cot and this

641
00:54:27.559 --> 00:54:36.880
little scrunched up thing, little gargoyle. The I mean, the

642
00:54:36.960 --> 00:54:39.400
thing is, you know, sometimes you think, oh no, but

643
00:54:39.440 --> 00:54:41.960
if you actually looked at baby and said to someone,

644
00:54:42.639 --> 00:54:46.199
do you know what that's spent the last nine months underwater?

645
00:54:47.400 --> 00:54:50.679
You believe munya because it looks like it's spent the

646
00:54:50.760 --> 00:54:55.159
last nine months underwater without any air, without any light.

647
00:54:56.440 --> 00:55:01.199
I mean, they're basically like little sea creatures you'd expect

648
00:55:01.239 --> 00:55:04.920
to find at the bottom of a big ship. It's

649
00:55:07.400 --> 00:55:09.400
you know what I mean, if you if you woke

650
00:55:09.519 --> 00:55:13.159
up and okay, okay, I won't go any further. Just yeah,

651
00:55:13.239 --> 00:55:16.280
babies horrible looking things.

652
00:55:17.880 --> 00:55:20.880
There was there was years ago there was these baby

653
00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:24.760
doll things and they look like babies and they were

654
00:55:24.800 --> 00:55:30.079
the most ugliest things ever and the reason and they

655
00:55:30.199 --> 00:55:33.840
actually looked and I realized, like they look like babies,

656
00:55:33.920 --> 00:55:37.039
like real babies, you know, when they're first born, all

657
00:55:37.119 --> 00:55:44.239
crinkles and this. It's like they haven't become because it's

658
00:55:44.280 --> 00:55:47.400
not really until they become toddlers, and then they become

659
00:55:47.480 --> 00:55:52.239
like miniature humans, don't they. They look like humans almost,

660
00:55:53.679 --> 00:55:57.239
but with huge heads and little bodies.

661
00:55:58.039 --> 00:56:02.039
So alien humans. But but you know, gradually they grow

662
00:56:02.079 --> 00:56:04.320
into their head, don't they by the time they get

663
00:56:04.360 --> 00:56:10.920
to about seven or eight, maybe nine. I mean, that

664
00:56:11.079 --> 00:56:15.960
head's so big and the eyes like et it's ridiculous.

665
00:56:17.000 --> 00:56:20.159
The eyes are bigger than their head. I mean, how

666
00:56:20.239 --> 00:56:22.599
is that even possible? How can an eye be bigger

667
00:56:22.639 --> 00:56:29.039
than the head it's in. I mean, the eyes are

668
00:56:29.079 --> 00:56:34.480
definitely bigger than his mouth. His eyes wouldn't even fit

669
00:56:34.519 --> 00:56:36.960
in his mouth. I'm not I didn't try what I'm saying.

670
00:56:37.400 --> 00:56:42.360
It's just such a weird kind of organism and it

671
00:56:42.480 --> 00:56:46.079
was a mess. But I started thinking, well, how do

672
00:56:46.199 --> 00:56:50.239
you know that this is the baby bear? In the mind?

673
00:56:50.280 --> 00:56:54.119
You called and ward them baby? No one's got a

674
00:56:54.199 --> 00:56:58.000
name yet, so because this is back in the days

675
00:56:58.039 --> 00:57:01.599
when people didn't they'd wait days before giving a name

676
00:57:01.639 --> 00:57:08.159
to a kid. I've got a name straight away, but

677
00:57:08.280 --> 00:57:11.119
I recommended it and they didn't go for it. My

678
00:57:11.360 --> 00:57:15.360
mom was bastard, but no, or another one was you

679
00:57:15.480 --> 00:57:18.920
ruined our birthday. But they didn't want that either. They

680
00:57:18.920 --> 00:57:21.280
said that's a sentence. I said, no, if you put

681
00:57:21.280 --> 00:57:24.760
it all together, I said, no, you can't have a

682
00:57:24.840 --> 00:57:26.960
word that's really long like that. I said, if you've

683
00:57:26.960 --> 00:57:30.480
never been to India, they have names that are like

684
00:57:31.280 --> 00:57:35.920
longer than the alphabet some of their names. Or Thailand.

685
00:57:36.239 --> 00:57:39.239
It was like, honestly, some of the names are so long.

686
00:57:40.360 --> 00:57:42.800
And she said that's border on racism. I said, no,

687
00:57:42.880 --> 00:57:46.320
it's not bordering on race. It's actually true. Look it up.

688
00:57:47.760 --> 00:57:51.039
Look it up. I know that you've lost a lot

689
00:57:51.039 --> 00:57:53.760
of blood and a lot of liquid given birth and that,

690
00:57:53.920 --> 00:57:56.880
but I mean when you pulled him out, did you

691
00:57:56.920 --> 00:58:01.159
pull out your own brain as well? Apparently that's the

692
00:58:01.159 --> 00:58:03.960
line you shouldn't cross with your parents and say stuff

693
00:58:04.039 --> 00:58:15.719
like that. Oh dear, that's so ridiculous what I'm saying today,

694
00:58:16.599 --> 00:58:19.079
I don't mean any of it. I'm just in a

695
00:58:19.119 --> 00:58:25.480
weird mood. But yeah, god, he was ugly anyway, horrible,

696
00:58:26.760 --> 00:58:31.880
And I just thought, do they just randomly just dis

697
00:58:31.960 --> 00:58:34.519
grabbed the first baby that they see and bring it

698
00:58:34.519 --> 00:58:37.320
in because they all look the same. How do they

699
00:58:37.320 --> 00:58:38.039
tell the difference.

700
00:58:40.480 --> 00:58:44.719
Oh he's so pretty. Oh it's so beautiful, my little baby.

701
00:58:44.880 --> 00:58:47.559
No he's not, no offense, but no.

702
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:54.039
They look they're just crinkled. I don't know how to

703
00:58:54.079 --> 00:59:00.400
explain that. Don't look much different to like newborn mice.

704
00:59:01.480 --> 00:59:05.159
There's that look of like a little crinkled and or

705
00:59:05.199 --> 00:59:08.599
a little puppy or a little cat like really you know,

706
00:59:08.719 --> 00:59:11.840
newborn where they've got no hair and they just basically

707
00:59:11.880 --> 00:59:16.480
just pink. The difference is with a puppy they grow

708
00:59:16.639 --> 00:59:20.440
very quick, and a cat does as well. Humans I

709
00:59:21.039 --> 00:59:28.679
still look like that, still pink and bored. It's no fear.

710
00:59:30.760 --> 00:59:34.000
So yeah, babies are good. It's brilliant and so happy.

711
00:59:34.000 --> 00:59:38.719
When he was born, it changed my life. It did

712
00:59:38.800 --> 00:59:45.800
change my life actually because he stayed in the house.

713
00:59:46.400 --> 00:59:48.960
Obviously we had to have him in the house. I mean,

714
00:59:49.039 --> 00:59:52.280
unfortunately they brought him home. I thought it was just

715
00:59:52.320 --> 00:59:54.280
going to be they like send him off for adoption

716
00:59:54.440 --> 00:59:57.599
like they did me. But no, they brought him back

717
00:59:58.519 --> 01:00:05.280
and he stayed in my dad's room, their parents' room

718
01:00:05.400 --> 01:00:11.679
for probably about six months, so I still had my bedroom.

719
01:00:11.760 --> 01:00:14.800
We're just right next to their bedroom. Now I was tired.

720
01:00:15.880 --> 01:00:18.159
I think it used to keep the baby like wake

721
01:00:18.239 --> 01:00:21.880
me up and stuff. So it wasn't ideal because it

722
01:00:21.960 --> 01:00:23.760
was a small house. There's no way to get away

723
01:00:23.760 --> 01:00:31.960
from the screaming, and my brothers complained about it. My

724
01:00:32.079 --> 01:00:36.079
dad wasn't happy with it. Eventually sat me down and

725
01:00:36.119 --> 01:00:40.119
asked me to stop screaming, so I stopped. It's a

726
01:00:40.239 --> 01:00:46.800
joking there somewhere, And eventually we had to move out

727
01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:54.800
of there because he needed his own room. So he

728
01:00:54.880 --> 01:01:00.760
moved out into a big house and we all had

729
01:01:00.800 --> 01:01:03.119
our own rooms, and that's where it all kind of

730
01:01:03.960 --> 01:01:07.679
went wrong from there, really, but that was the nicest

731
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:09.639
house I ever lived in, that little house where my

732
01:01:09.719 --> 01:01:16.760
nanogrand had then moved in as well. The weird thing

733
01:01:16.800 --> 01:01:20.800
about my brother though, sort of once he sort of

734
01:01:20.840 --> 01:01:26.880
developed kind of a likeness to human, to a human,

735
01:01:27.400 --> 01:01:32.000
you know, he kind of had facial expressions and he looked, Yeah,

736
01:01:32.039 --> 01:01:35.159
he looked human. It was a toddler at this point.

737
01:01:37.119 --> 01:01:41.000
He's kept exactly the same face the whole life, his

738
01:01:41.079 --> 01:01:44.199
whole life. And you might think, well, yeah, everyone does

739
01:01:45.480 --> 01:01:49.480
unless you have surgery. Like, no, I look nothing like

740
01:01:49.599 --> 01:01:52.599
how I looked when I was a kid, not even

741
01:01:52.599 --> 01:01:56.480
when I was fifteen. Not even when I was eight twelve,

742
01:01:57.480 --> 01:01:59.840
not even when I was twenty. I don't look the same.

743
01:02:00.599 --> 01:02:07.039
He looks exactly the same. He looks older, of course,

744
01:02:07.239 --> 01:02:10.559
I'm going it'd be weird. And when he was two

745
01:02:10.679 --> 01:02:16.360
he looked forty seven, that would be strange. But he's

746
01:02:16.400 --> 01:02:20.880
still got the same features, still looks the same, same

747
01:02:20.960 --> 01:02:26.239
facial expression, my remover. I mean, he's got more than

748
01:02:26.280 --> 01:02:29.480
one facial expression. I'm sure I've seen at least two.

749
01:02:30.519 --> 01:02:37.599
So it's he's ruined my birthday, man, I mean eighth birthdays,

750
01:02:37.960 --> 01:02:41.440
it's supposed to be a special occasion. But what I

751
01:02:41.599 --> 01:02:43.360
did do I'll give you the next part of the

752
01:02:43.400 --> 01:02:47.039
story tomorrow. Actually i'll tell you about presents and stuff.

753
01:02:48.400 --> 01:02:55.639
But on my actual birthday, I did get some golf clubs,

754
01:02:55.679 --> 01:02:59.400
like a putt in set, but there weren't no crappy thing.

755
01:02:59.519 --> 01:03:07.000
These are like heavy steal golf clubs, and they were good.

756
01:03:07.199 --> 01:03:09.679
They were heavy. They were good, really, probably about heavy

757
01:03:09.719 --> 01:03:18.400
as I was actually, And I don't remember what else

758
01:03:18.480 --> 01:03:23.639
I got, but I think we were in the garden

759
01:03:23.719 --> 01:03:27.880
and I was trying to I was trying to endure

760
01:03:27.920 --> 01:03:34.480
my birthday. But things felt like they'd changed, you know,

761
01:03:35.960 --> 01:03:38.880
It's almost like I was turning. I was turning into

762
01:03:38.920 --> 01:03:45.840
an adult. And I suppose I knew that things were

763
01:03:45.840 --> 01:03:50.039
never going to be the same again, because when they

764
01:03:50.079 --> 01:03:52.400
came back, they were going to have this little alien

765
01:03:52.440 --> 01:03:57.559
with them. They're going to give it all this attention, which,

766
01:03:57.599 --> 01:04:00.960
as I said, is fun for the first couple of days,

767
01:04:02.119 --> 01:04:06.000
maybe three or four days even. I don't know how

768
01:04:06.039 --> 01:04:10.039
people may make that kind of how to keep the

769
01:04:10.079 --> 01:04:13.639
interest up, I don't know. I guess it's just lucky.

770
01:04:13.679 --> 01:04:17.119
I never became a parent, I suppose, but they managed

771
01:04:17.159 --> 01:04:26.639
to keep interest. And it's gotta be boring, is't it.

772
01:04:28.280 --> 01:04:34.440
So it's like what it does is just cry, go

773
01:04:34.559 --> 01:04:39.239
to the toilet and cry, and sleep and go to

774
01:04:39.280 --> 01:04:45.079
the toilet and sleep whilst going to the toilet. You know,

775
01:04:45.159 --> 01:04:48.599
It's just it's this. There's not a lot of points

776
01:04:48.599 --> 01:04:51.920
to them, is there. I mean, if that was a gift,

777
01:04:51.920 --> 01:04:54.360
if someone gave you a gift and that's all it did,

778
01:04:55.239 --> 01:05:00.239
pooed and cried and slept, you'd give it back. Say no, okay,

779
01:05:00.239 --> 01:05:01.880
it's can I change this? Please? Could I?

780
01:05:04.599 --> 01:05:07.440
Yeah?

781
01:05:07.760 --> 01:05:12.079
Can I have a television? Yeah? Can I?

782
01:05:12.239 --> 01:05:12.440
Yeah?

783
01:05:12.559 --> 01:05:18.039
Thanks? I'd like something different. This isn't. No, it's not

784
01:05:18.119 --> 01:05:22.559
all I ever hoped it would be. All it does

785
01:05:22.639 --> 01:05:28.519
is just cry and pooh and sleep. How's that supposed

786
01:05:28.519 --> 01:05:35.079
to be fun? No? No, I want to give it back,

787
01:05:36.920 --> 01:05:38.719
have you okay, well, have you got a different one?

788
01:05:39.960 --> 01:05:43.480
Can I Can I exchange it for a different baby

789
01:05:43.760 --> 01:05:48.760
when it doesn't make so much noise? And if you've

790
01:05:48.760 --> 01:05:50.280
got any of that pooh a little bit. They don't

791
01:05:50.280 --> 01:06:03.599
pooh much, you know, just a small amount. Okay, we'll

792
01:06:03.639 --> 01:06:04.159
take it back.

793
01:06:04.199 --> 01:06:04.360
Then.

794
01:06:07.599 --> 01:06:09.159
I don't know how long it was before they gave

795
01:06:09.199 --> 01:06:12.840
him a name. I didn't like any of my suggestions,

796
01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:22.960
as I already said, birthday ruiner. So yeah, ruined my birthday,

797
01:06:23.119 --> 01:06:31.519
my eighth birthday. And then see it was never never

798
01:06:31.599 --> 01:06:34.119
really like growing up from then on to the age

799
01:06:34.119 --> 01:06:39.039
of fifteen, we did celebrate birthdays. And that's the one really,

800
01:06:39.239 --> 01:06:41.880
you know thing I can never take away from my

801
01:06:41.960 --> 01:06:47.760
dad and his wife at the time. They really went

802
01:06:47.800 --> 01:06:51.239
all out for birthdays, Christmases things like that really did.

803
01:06:51.559 --> 01:06:54.639
Couldn't ask some more, And what I could ask some

804
01:06:54.719 --> 01:06:58.480
more is to not have a baby brother. But I'm

805
01:06:58.480 --> 01:07:00.480
going to send him a happy birthday tech stuff. Just

806
01:07:00.760 --> 01:07:04.719
after doing this I've just spend the hour slagging him off.

807
01:07:05.199 --> 01:07:07.639
But yeah, I will. I will say happy birthday, brother,

808
01:07:08.880 --> 01:07:16.159
Please don't listen to my podcast, please please don't. And

809
01:07:16.400 --> 01:07:20.800
sunny jokes, sony silliness, just a bit of h in

810
01:07:20.920 --> 01:07:27.159
it and ah, just messing about that's all, nothing serious,

811
01:07:28.159 --> 01:07:34.280
just having a laugh. So yeah, but it did really

812
01:07:34.400 --> 01:07:37.000
did with my birthday, but in reality it did. But

813
01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:40.760
it also kind of it was nice to have my

814
01:07:40.800 --> 01:07:49.119
birthday not directly after the day of my brother's birthday.

815
01:07:49.639 --> 01:07:51.199
You know, it's nice to have a few a little

816
01:07:51.199 --> 01:07:56.320
bit of time in between birthdays. So it's almost like

817
01:07:56.360 --> 01:08:00.159
it'd be a big celebration for him and then to

818
01:08:00.199 --> 01:08:04.920
be a celebration for me on my birthday. But it

819
01:08:05.000 --> 01:08:09.199
was kind of eclipsed by him because he was clearly

820
01:08:09.199 --> 01:08:14.760
the most important child in the world. I was like, Okay,

821
01:08:15.519 --> 01:08:18.880
if he really is that important, then.

822
01:08:20.760 --> 01:08:21.720
Shouldn't he be.

823
01:08:22.000 --> 01:08:24.640
I mean, honestly, it's like he was a second coming

824
01:08:24.800 --> 01:08:28.800
or something. I just thought, God, this is ridiculous. It

825
01:08:28.920 --> 01:08:30.880
makes such a big thing. He can't even read yet.

826
01:08:31.920 --> 01:08:33.520
I mean, we don't know if he's going to start

827
01:08:33.520 --> 01:08:36.680
preaching and stuff like that when he gets older, healing

828
01:08:36.720 --> 01:08:39.399
people we don't know he can't read yet. Well, he's

829
01:08:39.399 --> 01:08:42.439
still he's still dribbling, and you know it's hard. He

830
01:08:42.439 --> 01:08:45.600
won't even eat his food about spitting it out everywhere,

831
01:08:45.920 --> 01:08:49.159
which I do agree was quite funny that he did that.

832
01:08:52.800 --> 01:08:59.720
But yeah, he spoil my birthday. And I sometimes felt

833
01:08:59.760 --> 01:09:05.439
that because we had this ceremony thing where we'd go

834
01:09:05.520 --> 01:09:09.119
into no sacrifices or anything, just like that kind of ceremony.

835
01:09:10.079 --> 01:09:12.520
We'll go into the people's birth into their bedrooms and

836
01:09:12.960 --> 01:09:16.840
sort of seeing happy birthday, all that stuff, and give

837
01:09:16.920 --> 01:09:20.560
them presents. And it was lovely. It was really lovely.

838
01:09:20.640 --> 01:09:23.720
And I'm just joking about but it was nice. But

839
01:09:23.760 --> 01:09:27.640
I got the sense that everyone was birth dayed out

840
01:09:27.960 --> 01:09:32.159
by the end of the twenty fifth and then my

841
01:09:32.239 --> 01:09:36.279
birthday was in twenty six and it didn't seem as

842
01:09:36.279 --> 01:09:41.840
if the energy was there. I can imagine it's like

843
01:09:42.159 --> 01:09:45.920
going to see someone performing in the theater, but they're

844
01:09:45.960 --> 01:09:50.119
doing two shows, one at five o'clock and then one

845
01:09:50.159 --> 01:09:58.439
at eight o'clock, and maybe feels like you've gone to

846
01:09:58.520 --> 01:10:01.439
the last show, the second show, and they were a

847
01:10:01.479 --> 01:10:06.000
bit they're a bit tired, perhaps a little bit bored.

848
01:10:06.239 --> 01:10:09.279
Maybe they don't really feel in the mood to do

849
01:10:09.359 --> 01:10:17.079
a second show. Maybe perhaps the audience just that they

850
01:10:17.119 --> 01:10:18.680
just wanted to be over and done with so they

851
01:10:18.680 --> 01:10:22.039
can go home. I felt a little bit of that

852
01:10:22.119 --> 01:10:30.720
lackluster sometimes, but that was just from my parents, my brothers.

853
01:10:30.800 --> 01:10:32.479
I mean, they were just there because I had to be,

854
01:10:34.239 --> 01:10:36.720
not when none of us liked each other. So it

855
01:10:36.880 --> 01:10:40.359
was a case of like, Okay, here we go again, people,

856
01:10:40.359 --> 01:10:47.079
birthday two. It's just going through the like like wrote wrote,

857
01:10:47.159 --> 01:10:54.720
isn't it just going through the the the whatever? Going

858
01:10:55.039 --> 01:11:09.720
through going through Happy Birthday two? It was nice, though

859
01:11:10.000 --> 01:11:13.720
it got a bit weird when I got older. I

860
01:11:13.800 --> 01:11:17.760
don't want to kind of hit teenage years. It wasn't

861
01:11:17.760 --> 01:11:21.800
so much like bursting in happy birthday, you know, everyone

862
01:11:21.840 --> 01:11:24.319
burst in. It more like knock on the door, Jason,

863
01:11:25.359 --> 01:11:27.640
knock on the door again. We're going to come in

864
01:11:27.640 --> 01:11:35.079
and surprise your birthday presence. Are you awake, are you dressed? Yeah,

865
01:11:35.239 --> 01:11:39.119
you've got a big clothes over you. Okay, we're going

866
01:11:39.199 --> 01:11:47.800
to come in one and accounted one hundred, one, two, three,

867
01:11:48.119 --> 01:11:53.720
four five. And then they'd come in and they'd be like, oh, surprise,

868
01:11:54.880 --> 01:11:58.600
Well I pretend I was asleep. You know, it just

869
01:11:58.640 --> 01:12:02.800
says I'm walking into me kind of looking like I've

870
01:12:06.640 --> 01:12:11.600
sitting underneath a tent on the bedclothes over. So yeah,

871
01:12:11.640 --> 01:12:19.840
that was good. Yeah, I liked I liked birthdays. But

872
01:12:20.000 --> 01:12:24.079
for me, the main thing about birthdays was the presence,

873
01:12:26.439 --> 01:12:30.239
and it always was, I'll be honest, that's what it

874
01:12:30.319 --> 01:12:37.760
was about. It wasn't really bothered about the attention. You know,

875
01:12:37.960 --> 01:12:42.560
have an attention on me. What it wasn't always. I

876
01:12:42.600 --> 01:12:45.560
mean it was positive attention, but you know, throughout the

877
01:12:45.640 --> 01:12:48.600
year learned that I try and stay in the background.

878
01:12:49.159 --> 01:12:51.840
Don't want attention on me because then you don't know

879
01:12:51.840 --> 01:12:54.880
what's going to come up. I don't know what you know,

880
01:12:54.920 --> 01:12:57.840
what subject is going to be arisen. So I just like, okay,

881
01:12:58.520 --> 01:13:02.239
it's yeah, I like it, but let's just focus on

882
01:13:02.279 --> 01:13:08.439
something else now while I play with my new toys. Yeah,

883
01:13:08.479 --> 01:13:13.239
I did like. I like getting gifts. That's what birthdays

884
01:13:13.239 --> 01:13:26.279
are about. Yeah, it's been a long time since I don't. Yeah,

885
01:13:26.439 --> 01:13:31.840
I have had presents, but it's hardly I mean, I've

886
01:13:31.880 --> 01:13:35.760
got two birthday cards that I've been given, which is nice.

887
01:13:37.920 --> 01:13:45.119
So I've received those Thursday, I think, and that's for

888
01:13:45.239 --> 01:13:48.960
my dad and my brother. And that's it. So two

889
01:13:49.000 --> 01:13:57.680
birthday cards for this year. It's not that I want thousands,

890
01:13:57.760 --> 01:13:59.640
but you know, a couple of hundred to be nice,

891
01:14:02.239 --> 01:14:08.600
just a couple of hundred, even one hundred and eighty six.

892
01:14:10.119 --> 01:14:15.039
You know, I don't want much and this there is

893
01:14:15.039 --> 01:14:17.039
a fifty pound not in each one as well, you know,

894
01:14:17.439 --> 01:14:19.079
apart from now, I don't want much.

895
01:14:20.960 --> 01:14:24.920
No no, I don't no, no, no, no, no, no

896
01:14:24.920 --> 01:14:25.600
no now.

897
01:14:31.520 --> 01:14:35.479
And that I do believe is me talking a bunch

898
01:14:35.560 --> 01:14:43.560
of rubbish for about seventy five minutes and I don't

899
01:14:43.600 --> 01:14:49.199
know what I've talked about. It's a happy birthday little

900
01:14:49.199 --> 01:14:56.279
brother as well. It is happy birthday to you forty seven.

901
01:14:56.560 --> 01:15:00.359
It's amazing, it's great. It's the thing is you know,

902
01:15:00.439 --> 01:15:05.880
all seriousness. My little brother's you know, good bloke. He's yeah,

903
01:15:07.199 --> 01:15:12.119
he's a good one. So yeah, I wish him well.

904
01:15:14.199 --> 01:15:23.000
After all that BlimE me, I'm going to go. Oh

905
01:15:23.479 --> 01:15:27.159
I could eat I could eat an Obolet really eat

906
01:15:27.199 --> 01:15:34.000
an omelok right now? Mm hmmm, So I'm going to go.

907
01:15:34.640 --> 01:15:39.119
Thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself

908
01:15:39.159 --> 01:15:47.039
because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love, Bye,

909
01:15:52.600 --> 01:16:07.199
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

910
01:16:07.239 --> 01:16:12.800
a way that can not just allow you to feel

911
01:16:14.119 --> 01:16:23.359
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

912
01:16:25.399 --> 01:16:31.079
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

913
01:16:31.119 --> 01:16:37.800
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

914
01:16:37.960 --> 01:16:52.880
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

915
01:16:52.960 --> 01:17:12.800
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

916
01:17:12.840 --> 01:17:23.439
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

917
01:17:26.319 --> 01:17:33.600
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

918
01:17:35.520 --> 01:17:48.960
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

919
01:17:49.159 --> 01:17:53.840
find like some people do and myself as well. I

920
01:17:53.960 --> 01:18:00.359
sometimes I find one particular recording that really reson it's

921
01:18:00.399 --> 01:18:06.760
with me, and I just listened to it over and

922
01:18:06.800 --> 01:18:20.159
over again every morning, every evening. There was this recording

923
01:18:20.439 --> 01:18:27.319
from We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It

924
01:18:26.880 --> 01:18:32.039
was it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations.

925
01:18:32.119 --> 01:18:39.119
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

926
01:18:39.199 --> 01:18:42.720
find it again and it still has the same effect

927
01:18:43.199 --> 01:18:54.840
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

928
01:18:55.239 --> 01:19:05.960
relaxed me, felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to

929
01:19:06.119 --> 01:19:12.560
listening to her in the morning and in the evening,

930
01:19:19.000 --> 01:19:28.000
and I knew before even pressing the play button that

931
01:19:28.319 --> 01:19:32.720
since I've done that, pressed the play button. This is

932
01:19:33.079 --> 01:19:44.079
in the days of CD players, pressed the play button.

933
01:19:47.479 --> 01:19:50.319
I fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

934
01:19:51.600 --> 01:19:59.920
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

935
01:20:00.520 --> 01:20:13.479
necessarily listening to her words, because I had been memorized. Really,

936
01:20:18.159 --> 01:20:24.159
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

937
01:20:28.920 --> 01:20:50.760
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

938
01:20:50.920 --> 01:21:04.920
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now I

939
01:21:04.960 --> 01:21:11.199
was listening to this recording in the early days of

940
01:21:11.279 --> 01:21:22.000
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

941
01:21:22.119 --> 01:21:26.840
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

942
01:21:26.960 --> 01:21:41.439
till two thousand and six, I knew. I knew how

943
01:21:43.159 --> 01:21:56.960
helpful I found being able to just let go, to

944
01:21:57.079 --> 01:22:02.279
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

945
01:22:09.920 --> 01:22:16.680
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

946
01:22:18.079 --> 01:22:27.479
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

947
01:22:27.560 --> 01:22:39.239
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

948
01:22:39.279 --> 01:22:53.159
me for over a decade. Maybe not solidly, obviously, not

949
01:22:53.199 --> 01:22:59.520
twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

950
01:23:01.359 --> 01:23:15.039
Some people may be listen every day. That's something that

951
01:23:15.119 --> 01:23:28.119
I do which you may not realize by listening. Is

952
01:23:32.199 --> 01:23:47.439
when I record these recordings now, for example, I also

953
01:23:48.039 --> 01:23:59.279
am affected by the words that I say. So if

954
01:23:59.319 --> 01:24:08.439
I said to you, focus on your feet, notice your

955
01:24:08.520 --> 01:24:20.479
feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet. I

956
01:24:20.560 --> 01:24:38.319
will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus

957
01:24:38.399 --> 01:24:47.479
on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between each hand,

958
01:24:50.399 --> 01:24:57.159
perhaps notice the the air in the room, the temperature

959
01:24:57.239 --> 01:25:09.119
of the room. On the acts of your hands, you

960
01:25:09.199 --> 01:25:13.279
may start to notice what almost feels like a very

961
01:25:13.439 --> 01:25:21.800
light breeze, even though there may not be any type

962
01:25:21.840 --> 01:25:34.760
of breeze at all where you are right now. And

963
01:25:34.840 --> 01:25:46.039
as you become aware of your hands, I'm also aware

964
01:25:48.720 --> 01:26:14.119
of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And when

965
01:26:14.159 --> 01:26:21.119
it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which may

966
01:26:21.159 --> 01:26:37.520
be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy when

967
01:26:37.560 --> 01:26:52.520
I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

968
01:26:58.680 --> 01:27:10.199
In fact, at times names I've actually fallen asleep without

969
01:27:10.279 --> 01:27:24.279
even noticing, and then I carry on talking. And it's

970
01:27:24.319 --> 01:27:33.359
only when I listen back to do the editing I

971
01:27:33.479 --> 01:27:42.760
hear snoring and I think I don't remember snoring. I

972
01:27:42.800 --> 01:27:49.479
remember talking. Was this snoring was a pig turned up.

973
01:27:53.479 --> 01:28:00.920
That's why I sound like when I snare, how I

974
01:28:00.960 --> 01:28:14.479
get read into the whole experience. I don't know how

975
01:28:14.560 --> 01:28:23.800
you feel. How relaxed do you feel in your feet,

976
01:28:26.920 --> 01:28:49.840
how relaxed you feel in your hands. I have noticed

977
01:28:52.399 --> 01:29:08.520
more and more that the more more relaxed, deeper level

978
01:29:08.560 --> 01:29:25.359
of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's

979
01:29:25.399 --> 01:29:41.880
almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you

980
01:29:46.760 --> 01:30:12.920
the breath easier without necessarily h focusing on your breath, however,

981
01:30:13.159 --> 01:30:41.920
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

982
01:30:42.119 --> 01:31:32.000
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

983
01:31:32.079 --> 01:31:50.439
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

984
01:31:56.399 --> 01:32:09.319
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

985
01:32:09.560 --> 01:32:50.000
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too,

986
01:32:51.600 --> 01:33:10.560
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

987
01:33:21.840 --> 01:33:54.399
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

988
01:34:19.720 --> 01:34:45.239
Time seems to just drip by so very slowly, relaxed,

989
01:34:51.119 --> 01:35:30.279
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

990
01:35:30.439 --> 01:36:40.720
this moment, completely free noticing that your mind has slowed down.

991
01:36:43.119 --> 01:37:29.840
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

992
01:37:30.079 --> 01:37:46.199
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

993
01:37:46.920 --> 01:38:00.479
out of your body, to appear out of every heart

994
01:38:06.720 --> 01:38:30.800
of your body, and being released from your brain. In

995
01:38:31.279 --> 01:39:22.760
your mind slowly but surely, the muscle sing les, relax

996
01:39:27.720 --> 01:40:17.920
rex so very deeply, rex so deeply. And the feelings,

997
01:40:20.560 --> 01:40:45.479
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

998
01:40:45.840 --> 01:41:25.319
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing

999
01:41:27.159 --> 01:41:53.720
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1000
01:41:53.880 --> 01:42:42.720
in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body. I

1001
01:42:42.920 --> 01:43:26.800
all say, feeling peaceful deeply, there's a sense of peace

1002
01:43:31.279 --> 01:44:11.199
spreads through your fairy core. Even when you focus on

1003
01:44:11.279 --> 01:45:10.279
your mind, your mind becomes even slower, even deeper, relax

1004
01:45:34.279 --> 01:46:12.199
so very slow, his stomach peace full in your stomach,

1005
01:46:34.319 --> 01:47:08.399
you're back. Notice Notice how relaxed you'd now feel in

1006
01:47:08.560 --> 01:47:41.319
the hole of your back. You spy from your brain

1007
01:47:41.800 --> 01:47:49.600
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

1008
01:47:49.920 --> 01:48:13.119
and receiving millions of messages every day, deep comfort, increasing

1009
01:48:23.640 --> 01:49:30.239
deeply relaxed unslegs, spreading those signals down your spine or

1010
01:49:30.359 --> 01:49:53.680
cord into air. Every part of your body, your shins

1011
01:49:53.920 --> 01:50:44.680
and your calf muscles were elbows. Feelings of peace and

1012
01:50:44.800 --> 01:51:02.880
tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to

1013
01:51:02.960 --> 01:51:15.039
your eyes, your fingers, all the way till you lower back.

1014
01:51:26.840 --> 01:52:38.720
Lettinker read the tinker. Peace drifting mind just wandering away,

1015
01:52:39.439 --> 01:53:21.079
happy to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1016
01:53:45.239 --> 01:54:22.399
the whole body enjoying a sensor listening guy, he for

1017
01:54:22.720 --> 01:56:47.319
more peace, enjoying the space, this space of peace and safety,

1018
01:56:48.199 --> 01:58:46.640
so very fury relaxed, y y, letting go. Maybe we

1019
01:58:46.800 --> 01:58:54.319
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1020
01:58:58.439 --> 02:00:01.600
just to notice you fool head, and your eyes mutire,

1021
02:00:07.159 --> 02:00:47.840
so loose, noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom

1022
02:01:34.119 --> 02:02:45.279
esa today peace for energy, peace to breathe so much easier.

1023
02:03:26.159 --> 02:03:26.479
Loose.

1024
02:03:47.760 --> 02:04:00.640
You may have may not have noticed your mind drifting

1025
02:04:37.159 --> 02:05:07.159
peaceful man, even more deeply in the direction of total

1026
02:05:11.800 --> 02:07:09.239
blissful pace, blissful pace, terrefting out to pace. Come so calm,

1027
02:07:20.600 --> 02:08:32.439
letting go, peace with mind rex. Body so relaxed, so relaxed.

1028
02:08:56.880 --> 02:09:23.760
Your body feels almost invisible. So the very relaxed. I'm peaceful,

1029
02:09:30.119 --> 02:09:55.560
so peaceful, relax.

1030
02:10:00.039 --> 02:10:01.960
M like.

1031
02:10:37.800 --> 02:10:44.079
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1032
02:10:44.439 --> 02:10:55.680
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1033
02:10:56.600 --> 02:11:04.199
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1034
02:11:04.279 --> 02:11:13.479
you throughout your body, and your mind starts to slow down,

1035
02:11:18.359 --> 02:11:25.600
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1036
02:11:25.960 --> 02:11:38.520
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1037
02:11:40.159 --> 02:11:51.159
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1038
02:11:51.239 --> 02:11:58.159
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1039
02:12:00.279 --> 02:12:07.840
take a break from your life as it is, and

1040
02:12:07.920 --> 02:12:15.680
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1041
02:12:15.760 --> 02:12:21.359
some time off, and to allow your body to relax

1042
02:12:23.039 --> 02:12:31.239
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1043
02:12:33.560 --> 02:12:38.640
releases the tension and he stresses that you had in

1044
02:12:38.680 --> 02:12:48.520
your body. It's almost as if the parts of your

1045
02:12:48.560 --> 02:13:00.600
body just open up, allowing the negativity out and at

1046
02:13:00.600 --> 02:13:08.880
the same time replacing that nectivity with positive heathing energy,

1047
02:13:11.960 --> 02:13:16.600
which then fills your body up and your mind to

1048
02:13:18.199 --> 02:13:36.680
also starts to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an

1049
02:13:36.680 --> 02:13:53.800
almost uplifting feeling, positive healing, an energy that spreads through

1050
02:13:53.840 --> 02:14:04.720
your body like a wave of comfort, and all this

1051
02:14:04.840 --> 02:14:16.920
comes and just allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half

1052
02:14:16.960 --> 02:14:20.800
an hour however long you want it to be, to

1053
02:14:21.119 --> 02:14:34.960
just rest and allow your mind and your body to

1054
02:14:35.079 --> 02:14:52.159
almost reset itself to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness,

1055
02:14:55.960 --> 02:15:05.319
which allows more room for millions of pleasure and happiness

1056
02:15:09.359 --> 02:15:18.399
to move around your body and into your mind, almost

1057
02:15:18.960 --> 02:15:23.600
as if your mind and your body are sinking together,

1058
02:15:27.840 --> 02:15:37.560
almost mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness.

1059
02:15:42.600 --> 02:15:49.840
And it feels nice. It really does feel nice to

1060
02:15:50.000 --> 02:15:55.800
know that you are the one that has allowed yourself

1061
02:15:59.159 --> 02:16:08.600
to feel more comfort and to experience.

1062
02:16:10.199 --> 02:16:11.520
More of this.

1063
02:16:13.159 --> 02:16:28.600
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1064
02:16:29.880 --> 02:16:35.879
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1065
02:16:35.879 --> 02:16:55.559
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1066
02:16:53.120 --> 02:17:06.799
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1067
02:17:06.879 --> 02:17:12.719
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1068
02:17:15.120 --> 02:17:21.840
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1069
02:17:21.959 --> 02:17:29.639
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1070
02:17:29.680 --> 02:17:43.079
on were just automatically release any remaining tension in anticipation

1071
02:17:43.440 --> 02:17:56.440
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1072
02:17:56.520 --> 02:18:03.479
to start by focusing on your forehead, just being aware

1073
02:18:03.760 --> 02:18:12.760
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1074
02:18:14.120 --> 02:18:19.040
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1075
02:18:19.159 --> 02:18:26.440
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1076
02:18:29.559 --> 02:18:36.959
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1077
02:18:38.360 --> 02:18:44.399
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1078
02:18:44.920 --> 02:18:55.440
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1079
02:18:55.680 --> 02:19:04.040
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1080
02:19:05.760 --> 02:19:14.479
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1081
02:19:15.440 --> 02:19:23.760
Moving down to your eyes. Focusing on your eyes, noticing

1082
02:19:26.200 --> 02:19:35.920
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1083
02:19:35.920 --> 02:19:42.399
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1084
02:19:42.639 --> 02:19:57.120
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1085
02:19:57.520 --> 02:20:04.200
your tongue, your teeth, if new comes, the whole of

1086
02:20:04.319 --> 02:20:19.319
your mouth, relaxing, calm and lease. As you focus now

1087
02:20:19.920 --> 02:20:26.799
on your jaw, not just the parts of your jaw

1088
02:20:26.959 --> 02:20:31.319
near your mouth and your chin, but all the way

1089
02:20:31.479 --> 02:20:37.799
up the size of your face to your ears, the

1090
02:20:38.079 --> 02:20:49.600
hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1091
02:20:52.959 --> 02:21:00.440
And calm.

1092
02:21:01.840 --> 02:21:11.000
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1093
02:21:11.040 --> 02:21:24.079
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The side of

1094
02:21:24.159 --> 02:21:29.479
your neck, the right and left side of your neck,

1095
02:21:32.399 --> 02:21:48.239
relax and loose and calm, and now the back of

1096
02:21:48.319 --> 02:22:01.200
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1097
02:22:01.360 --> 02:22:06.040
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1098
02:22:07.799 --> 02:22:21.920
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1099
02:22:22.159 --> 02:22:32.559
you can experience in the back of your neck, moving

1100
02:22:32.799 --> 02:22:39.600
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1101
02:22:40.680 --> 02:22:45.399
right from the top of your back all the way

1102
02:22:45.600 --> 02:22:58.319
down to the bottom of your back down to your

1103
02:22:58.360 --> 02:23:10.319
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1104
02:23:11.040 --> 02:23:15.479
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1105
02:23:17.680 --> 02:23:32.280
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1106
02:23:32.360 --> 02:23:42.879
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1107
02:23:43.040 --> 02:23:49.719
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1108
02:23:50.520 --> 02:23:56.799
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1109
02:23:58.479 --> 02:24:06.319
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1110
02:24:06.440 --> 02:24:12.319
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1111
02:24:16.639 --> 02:24:22.639
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1112
02:24:22.760 --> 02:24:32.280
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1113
02:24:38.040 --> 02:24:44.040
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1114
02:24:44.079 --> 02:24:58.319
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips

1115
02:25:00.559 --> 02:25:08.520
sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1116
02:25:08.600 --> 02:25:17.399
area where your cocksix are and into your buttocks, and

1117
02:25:17.479 --> 02:25:26.680
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1118
02:25:26.719 --> 02:25:40.319
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1119
02:25:46.760 --> 02:25:51.840
I don't even know where about. To focus on your shoulders.

1120
02:25:53.479 --> 02:26:00.520
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1121
02:26:03.600 --> 02:26:19.280
continue to relax so calmly. And as you focus on

1122
02:26:19.319 --> 02:26:32.280
your shoulders, you may notice that they're already feeling really loose.

1123
02:26:37.040 --> 02:27:00.280
They're already feeding calm, and they're feeling those muscles us

1124
02:27:02.879 --> 02:27:15.239
the move from your neck into your shoulders feel so

1125
02:27:15.239 --> 02:27:44.239
soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and the feeding

1126
02:27:44.399 --> 02:27:57.319
in your shoulders sins to spread deep into your shoulders,

1127
02:27:59.319 --> 02:28:08.600
that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply into your muscles,

1128
02:28:12.040 --> 02:28:24.959
but also relaxing the bones and moving all the way

1129
02:28:25.159 --> 02:28:33.920
to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole area between the

1130
02:28:34.040 --> 02:28:48.600
tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing. You

1131
02:28:48.719 --> 02:29:02.239
feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sends

1132
02:29:02.520 --> 02:29:24.680
that deep healing message into your arms. You may feel

1133
02:29:26.399 --> 02:29:31.440
almost as if your arms are not even there, because

1134
02:29:31.559 --> 02:30:15.280
they're so relaxed, so deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose,

1135
02:30:22.639 --> 02:30:34.319
not feeling spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

1136
02:30:37.639 --> 02:31:09.000
including your elbows, circumforts, spreads all away, interists of forearments, induists,

1137
02:31:14.479 --> 02:31:31.319
being so heavy yet at the same time so light

1138
02:31:34.520 --> 02:32:31.200
and gentle. Freak. See now on your hands, my hands,

1139
02:32:37.440 --> 02:33:07.040
so peaceful in your hands, there's a sense of real peace.

1140
02:33:18.760 --> 02:33:32.559
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1141
02:33:32.879 --> 02:35:09.959
relax deeply feels a thing is you things, sidles, your

1142
02:35:10.079 --> 02:35:44.319
finger tips, moving your attention to the front of your body,

1143
02:35:57.440 --> 02:37:34.440
so comfortable, move in your focus your legs, a musculs

1144
02:37:36.600 --> 02:38:29.280
in your thighs, your knees, so rex to carve muscles

1145
02:38:30.600 --> 02:40:47.719
and just chins co pusy four and the feathing your feet. Sir, peaceful,

1146
02:40:49.840 --> 02:41:48.440
so calm, so peaceful, sircom so peaceful, sycom so peace

1147
02:41:49.079 --> 02:42:20.319
for rein yeah, peace for so calm. Allowing that deep

1148
02:42:20.520 --> 02:42:31.680
relaxation to spread your chest and your stomach so real,

1149
02:42:39.760 --> 02:42:58.840
letting go of everything. So I'm gonna start counting down now,

1150
02:43:01.520 --> 02:43:10.440
from twenty down to one. You can imagine in a way,

1151
02:43:10.559 --> 02:43:16.600
it's like just walking down some steps and each step

1152
02:43:17.000 --> 02:43:23.200
or twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort,

1153
02:43:26.680 --> 02:43:43.000
each step represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies.

1154
02:43:43.440 --> 02:43:48.959
You walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed

1155
02:43:49.239 --> 02:45:05.399
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen

1156
02:45:43.319 --> 02:52:47.719
seventeen sixty eight four four two two well five four

1157
02:53:53.079 --> 03:03:46.399
nine hey seven four five four four one.

1158
03:04:35.959 --> 03:04:36.680
And now.

1159
03:04:41.040 --> 03:04:53.360
As you focus on your eyes, we're going to count

1160
03:04:53.479 --> 03:05:05.280
down from ten douts one. Focus in just on your eyes,

1161
03:05:09.000 --> 03:05:17.520
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1162
03:05:19.040 --> 03:05:36.079
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1163
03:05:36.159 --> 03:05:44.479
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1164
03:05:44.639 --> 03:05:59.760
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed. We've

1165
03:06:00.120 --> 03:06:13.040
each number counting down and you may find the all

1166
03:06:13.200 --> 03:06:19.280
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1167
03:06:22.280 --> 03:06:28.879
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1168
03:06:29.000 --> 03:06:43.639
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1169
03:06:43.760 --> 03:06:53.399
to begin counting down from ten down to one right

1170
03:06:53.559 --> 03:07:29.360
now two nine.

1171
03:08:03.479 --> 03:08:58.079
Eight seven.

1172
03:09:56.760 --> 03:11:56.879
Four five.

1173
03:12:12.280 --> 03:16:16.360
Four three two f one. So counting down from ten

1174
03:16:16.479 --> 03:16:37.200
to one ten nine eight seven six five four three

1175
03:16:40.079 --> 03:16:52.120
two one. And maybe that was a bit too quick

1176
03:16:52.719 --> 03:16:56.600
in order to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast

1177
03:16:56.920 --> 03:17:05.719
for you to notice the calming of your body, maybe

1178
03:17:06.559 --> 03:17:10.399
even a little bit of pressure there like you're counting

1179
03:17:10.520 --> 03:17:13.000
down from ten to one. Would you expect me to

1180
03:17:13.239 --> 03:17:18.200
do man, expect me to stick go floppy just because

1181
03:17:18.200 --> 03:17:27.840
you're counting down. If you try it again, but this time,

1182
03:17:27.959 --> 03:17:34.360
I go this lower. This time, as you focus on

1183
03:17:35.239 --> 03:17:39.559
the whole of your body before we focus on your legs,

1184
03:17:42.000 --> 03:17:51.159
just notice how your body does start to feel more

1185
03:17:51.600 --> 03:18:31.840
relaxed with every number that I countdown ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1186
03:18:40.280 --> 03:19:46.760
five four three h two one, And just notice how

1187
03:19:49.120 --> 03:19:58.559
how you feel generally, how your body feels. It's not

1188
03:19:58.719 --> 03:20:09.760
necessarily even about counting down from ten to one. It's

1189
03:20:09.840 --> 03:20:27.000
that space that you have, that space between being active

1190
03:20:29.360 --> 03:20:38.840
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

1191
03:20:39.120 --> 03:20:45.000
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing

1192
03:20:45.280 --> 03:20:50.719
to think about anything. So that opens up a space,

1193
03:20:51.719 --> 03:21:00.840
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1194
03:21:00.959 --> 03:21:05.520
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1195
03:21:05.600 --> 03:21:13.600
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1196
03:21:15.000 --> 03:21:30.680
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1197
03:21:32.239 --> 03:21:42.159
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1198
03:21:48.920 --> 03:21:49.920
Allows you.

1199
03:21:52.600 --> 03:21:53.120
To just.

1200
03:21:56.120 --> 03:22:02.840
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one.

1201
03:22:03.239 --> 03:22:13.479
And notice that gap widening, the gap, and as it widens,

1202
03:22:13.559 --> 03:22:19.600
it's almost like the thestress and attention falls into the

1203
03:22:19.680 --> 03:23:16.360
gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1204
03:23:29.120 --> 03:24:47.319
five four three two one. And how did you look?

1205
03:24:49.399 --> 03:24:50.360
Body feel?

1206
03:24:52.559 --> 03:24:52.719
Now?

1207
03:25:05.440 --> 03:25:20.719
Can you notice that the feeling calmer, the feeling more

1208
03:25:21.159 --> 03:25:48.559
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1209
03:26:04.559 --> 03:26:09.399
We're just going to start with focusing on your thighs.

1210
03:26:24.200 --> 03:26:28.520
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1211
03:26:29.280 --> 03:26:35.680
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1212
03:26:35.760 --> 03:26:47.920
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1213
03:26:48.079 --> 03:26:54.120
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1214
03:26:54.440 --> 03:27:01.079
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1215
03:27:01.159 --> 03:27:06.479
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1216
03:27:06.559 --> 03:27:14.360
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1217
03:27:15.399 --> 03:27:25.479
down to your knee joints. Now, this is a big area.

1218
03:27:30.000 --> 03:27:34.920
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the

1219
03:27:35.040 --> 03:27:49.719
strongest muscles in your body are in your thighs. But

1220
03:27:49.760 --> 03:27:58.200
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1221
03:28:04.159 --> 03:28:14.920
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1222
03:28:15.079 --> 03:28:35.680
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1223
03:28:35.799 --> 03:28:46.239
through our lives. And it may seem sound really weird,

1224
03:28:46.360 --> 03:28:54.719
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1225
03:28:54.840 --> 03:29:02.479
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love, shone,

1226
03:29:03.479 --> 03:29:21.440
a bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for what

1227
03:29:21.559 --> 03:29:30.680
our thighs do for us. And I know this may

1228
03:29:30.879 --> 03:29:37.600
sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I surely

1229
03:29:37.639 --> 03:29:40.120
how I should be out in the garden hugging a

1230
03:29:40.239 --> 03:29:48.600
tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a microphone

1231
03:29:48.680 --> 03:29:51.719
up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1232
03:29:51.760 --> 03:29:55.239
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1233
03:29:55.360 --> 03:30:04.120
can't see the television from the tree. If you move

1234
03:30:04.200 --> 03:30:13.520
down to your knees gaining such an important part, and

1235
03:30:14.120 --> 03:30:18.559
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here,

1236
03:30:21.040 --> 03:30:26.159
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my knees do for

1237
03:30:26.280 --> 03:30:32.120
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's

1238
03:30:32.159 --> 03:30:37.239
occasionally if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's

1239
03:30:37.440 --> 03:30:43.920
aching for some reason. It's then that I realize how

1240
03:30:44.120 --> 03:30:48.000
much it does. You know, the benefit of being able

1241
03:30:48.079 --> 03:30:56.600
to use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort

1242
03:30:58.239 --> 03:31:05.280
is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

1243
03:31:05.879 --> 03:31:15.280
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1244
03:31:15.360 --> 03:31:23.239
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1245
03:31:23.319 --> 03:31:29.200
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1246
03:31:29.239 --> 03:31:41.879
knees for all that they do for you. And you

1247
03:31:41.959 --> 03:31:45.840
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1248
03:31:46.000 --> 03:31:53.360
notice how your thighs feel, maybe notice that they are

1249
03:31:55.200 --> 03:32:11.559
relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms

1250
03:32:11.600 --> 03:32:15.840
of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles, and

1251
03:32:15.959 --> 03:32:24.200
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of course,

1252
03:32:24.319 --> 03:32:36.760
your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even like the

1253
03:32:36.959 --> 03:32:43.760
slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how much we

1254
03:32:43.920 --> 03:32:54.159
take our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange

1255
03:32:54.239 --> 03:32:59.040
in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1256
03:32:59.360 --> 03:33:02.440
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1257
03:33:02.520 --> 03:33:07.399
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't can't see any

1258
03:33:07.399 --> 03:33:12.360
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up. But

1259
03:33:12.479 --> 03:33:18.520
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs.

1260
03:33:24.959 --> 03:33:29.360
And from a physics perspective or logical, even it doesn't

1261
03:33:29.399 --> 03:33:35.399
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1262
03:33:36.520 --> 03:33:46.520
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1263
03:33:47.120 --> 03:33:56.079
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1264
03:33:58.239 --> 03:34:07.760
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1265
03:34:08.440 --> 03:34:16.959
to balance, It helps you to get her around and

1266
03:34:17.120 --> 03:34:31.120
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when

1267
03:34:31.200 --> 03:34:34.280
I was younger, I couldn't see the point in calf muscles.

1268
03:34:35.079 --> 03:34:39.799
I didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked

1269
03:34:39.799 --> 03:34:43.520
around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1270
03:34:44.879 --> 03:34:47.440
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1271
03:34:47.520 --> 03:34:57.399
being used whenever we use her legs and your shins

1272
03:35:00.680 --> 03:35:09.680
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way,

1273
03:35:11.520 --> 03:35:23.639
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1274
03:35:23.719 --> 03:35:33.879
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1275
03:35:33.920 --> 03:35:36.079
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1276
03:35:36.159 --> 03:35:42.799
on the legs. I realize that now that I've mentioned

1277
03:35:42.840 --> 03:35:47.520
your feet, it probably focusing on them anyway. For maybe

1278
03:35:47.600 --> 03:35:53.719
I should focus on your feet a little bit. You

1279
03:35:53.799 --> 03:35:58.239
can have them in your awareness the same as you

1280
03:35:59.040 --> 03:36:02.959
have your thigh in your awareness, even though we haven't

1281
03:36:03.000 --> 03:36:08.600
been focusing on your thighs. For a few minutes we've

1282
03:36:08.639 --> 03:36:19.559
been focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation of

1283
03:36:22.760 --> 03:36:35.520
comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement of energy

1284
03:36:37.600 --> 03:36:44.600
because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1285
03:36:44.680 --> 03:36:49.440
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1286
03:36:49.639 --> 03:37:03.000
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1287
03:37:03.079 --> 03:37:08.360
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1288
03:37:09.159 --> 03:37:20.760
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1289
03:37:27.319 --> 03:37:34.840
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1290
03:37:34.879 --> 03:37:39.680
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, it's all this stuff

1291
03:37:39.840 --> 03:37:48.520
that's inside your thighs. And I guess sometimes it'd be

1292
03:37:48.639 --> 03:37:52.760
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1293
03:37:52.840 --> 03:37:59.040
thighs and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1294
03:37:59.280 --> 03:38:02.200
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1295
03:38:02.280 --> 03:38:07.079
the muscles, and to be able to just massage inside

1296
03:38:07.159 --> 03:38:14.159
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1297
03:38:14.239 --> 03:38:23.479
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1298
03:38:27.399 --> 03:38:32.639
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1299
03:38:34.120 --> 03:38:40.920
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1300
03:38:41.000 --> 03:38:46.760
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1301
03:38:52.159 --> 03:38:55.879
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1302
03:38:56.000 --> 03:39:02.000
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1303
03:39:02.200 --> 03:39:08.079
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1304
03:39:09.479 --> 03:39:12.840
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1305
03:39:13.040 --> 03:39:19.520
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1306
03:39:19.840 --> 03:39:26.760
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1307
03:39:28.559 --> 03:39:39.799
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1308
03:39:39.879 --> 03:39:50.360
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1309
03:39:51.239 --> 03:40:00.879
your fingers into that crease in your legs that fold

1310
03:40:01.040 --> 03:40:05.159
in between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1311
03:40:06.479 --> 03:40:13.120
Let your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue

1312
03:40:17.719 --> 03:40:23.920
you can cause field the bones of your knees healing

1313
03:40:24.159 --> 03:40:36.840
through your fingertips. And then as you go down to

1314
03:40:36.959 --> 03:40:39.760
your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like to

1315
03:40:39.799 --> 03:40:45.200
be able to really put my fingertips deep inside my

1316
03:40:45.399 --> 03:40:54.120
calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1317
03:40:55.719 --> 03:41:05.639
healing every part. And then doing the same for my shins,

1318
03:41:08.799 --> 03:41:17.000
massaging and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing

1319
03:41:17.239 --> 03:41:21.319
in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated

1320
03:41:24.399 --> 03:41:28.520
as the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1321
03:41:28.559 --> 03:41:31.920
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1322
03:41:32.000 --> 03:41:40.159
our body, and more precious than anyture on the planet.

1323
03:41:48.719 --> 03:41:56.719
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1324
03:42:01.319 --> 03:42:07.959
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1325
03:42:11.040 --> 03:42:15.319
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1326
03:42:16.200 --> 03:42:26.239
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1327
03:42:26.360 --> 03:42:30.239
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1328
03:42:32.479 --> 03:42:38.840
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1329
03:42:38.959 --> 03:42:47.479
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1330
03:42:49.360 --> 03:42:56.719
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1331
03:42:56.879 --> 03:43:05.440
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1332
03:43:05.680 --> 03:43:18.520
your calves, your ankles. The strength of your ankles, considering

1333
03:43:18.719 --> 03:43:23.200
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1334
03:43:23.360 --> 03:43:37.040
especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely

1335
03:43:37.319 --> 03:43:49.120
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1336
03:43:49.200 --> 03:44:00.479
what they do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless

1337
03:44:00.520 --> 03:44:04.559
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1338
03:44:04.959 --> 03:44:10.920
ate stone, still a lot of weight for these little ankles.

1339
03:44:14.559 --> 03:44:18.799
Now I'm a lot heavier than each stone double down,

1340
03:44:22.319 --> 03:44:31.399
Yet my ankles support my body all the time, although

1341
03:44:31.440 --> 03:44:34.200
they do give off a sigh of relief when I

1342
03:44:34.319 --> 03:44:44.959
sit down. That's my whole legs do. My feet feet

1343
03:44:45.040 --> 03:45:10.200
also go and my toes clap. We're so happy. Your

1344
03:45:10.360 --> 03:45:20.479
legs really are amazing. And I know that about talking

1345
03:45:20.520 --> 03:45:27.200
about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1346
03:45:27.319 --> 03:45:34.959
boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly, but boring

1347
03:45:35.120 --> 03:45:43.280
or not, everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing.

1348
03:45:52.200 --> 03:46:05.040
Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1349
03:46:12.360 --> 03:46:15.719
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1350
03:46:17.920 --> 03:46:46.639
to just let go completely. The legs really can relax.

1351
03:46:54.280 --> 03:46:58.399
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1352
03:46:58.639 --> 03:47:04.559
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1353
03:47:04.680 --> 03:47:11.879
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1354
03:47:15.639 --> 03:47:26.479
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1355
03:47:27.879 --> 03:47:34.680
My hips feel really loose, and also in my lower

1356
03:47:34.799 --> 03:47:41.639
back as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1357
03:47:42.760 --> 03:47:45.799
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1358
03:47:45.920 --> 03:47:51.159
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1359
03:47:52.159 --> 03:47:54.719
But it's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed

1360
03:47:54.799 --> 03:48:00.399
so much that there is a natural stretch as the

1361
03:48:00.559 --> 03:48:22.799
tension has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to

1362
03:48:22.879 --> 03:48:30.319
count down from ten down to one, and you can

1363
03:48:30.440 --> 03:48:59.520
continue to feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1364
03:49:03.840 --> 03:49:08.000
Four three.

1365
03:49:11.840 --> 03:49:32.559
Two one relax. So I'm just going to count down

1366
03:49:34.079 --> 03:49:38.799
from five down to one, and as a countdown, if

1367
03:49:38.840 --> 03:49:45.920
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1368
03:49:46.959 --> 03:49:56.079
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1369
03:49:56.239 --> 03:50:03.760
hear the numbers counting down, knowing the those numbers counting

1370
03:50:03.840 --> 03:50:14.000
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1371
03:50:14.159 --> 03:50:22.520
but also relax in your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1372
03:50:23.399 --> 03:50:29.319
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1373
03:50:29.440 --> 03:51:12.479
to think about, starting with number five four three two one.

1374
03:51:22.120 --> 03:51:34.639
As you notice the gradual letting go the tension in

1375
03:51:34.760 --> 03:51:41.920
your body, you may also begin to notice and be

1376
03:51:42.120 --> 03:51:50.879
aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1377
03:51:53.399 --> 03:51:59.680
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1378
03:51:59.799 --> 03:52:05.120
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1379
03:52:06.440 --> 03:52:12.440
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

1380
03:52:12.559 --> 03:52:16.159
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1381
03:52:16.319 --> 03:52:28.399
just a continuous circle of relaxation, and is that calmness

1382
03:52:28.600 --> 03:52:35.799
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1383
03:52:35.799 --> 03:52:42.639
there's background sounds either your side or mind, it's still

1384
03:52:43.159 --> 03:52:48.440
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1385
03:52:48.479 --> 03:52:53.639
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1386
03:52:53.639 --> 03:53:01.079
you're listening to the recording. With music, of course, you're

1387
03:53:01.239 --> 03:53:03.360
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1388
03:53:03.440 --> 03:53:08.000
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1389
03:53:08.200 --> 03:53:11.280
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1390
03:53:13.000 --> 03:53:23.040
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1391
03:53:29.639 --> 03:53:39.920
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1392
03:53:44.440 --> 03:53:51.120
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1393
03:53:51.520 --> 03:54:03.280
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1394
03:54:03.399 --> 03:54:13.559
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1395
03:54:13.719 --> 03:54:20.559
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1396
03:54:20.719 --> 03:54:24.600
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1397
03:54:24.719 --> 03:54:36.319
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1398
03:54:36.760 --> 03:54:47.000
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1399
03:54:48.559 --> 03:54:58.920
allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

1400
03:55:02.319 --> 03:55:13.520
just let go, to just be here, to be in

1401
03:55:13.799 --> 03:55:29.159
tune with how you feel, yet with the intention of

1402
03:55:29.520 --> 03:55:40.600
wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1403
03:55:41.760 --> 03:55:46.920
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1404
03:55:48.719 --> 03:56:03.760
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1405
03:56:05.000 --> 03:56:09.440
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1406
03:56:09.520 --> 03:56:16.319
part is a tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1407
03:56:17.639 --> 03:56:40.079
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. You

1408
03:56:40.159 --> 03:56:47.159
can also, if you choose, stay focused on my voice

1409
03:56:48.959 --> 03:57:15.760
and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle

1410
03:57:20.360 --> 03:57:47.239
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1411
03:57:47.479 --> 03:58:03.120
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1412
03:58:03.360 --> 03:58:13.520
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

1413
03:58:16.159 --> 03:58:29.559
calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1414
03:58:30.639 --> 04:01:12.159
feeling calm and slow and peaceful, six, five, four, three, two, one,

1415
04:01:33.280 --> 04:01:42.879
being aware of how your mind to slowed right down,

1416
04:01:46.120 --> 04:02:09.520
sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1417
04:02:09.840 --> 04:02:19.760
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1418
04:02:22.360 --> 04:02:31.879
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1419
04:02:32.000 --> 04:02:47.159
your attention. That's what you can do is send love

1420
04:02:47.399 --> 04:02:54.239
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts.

1421
04:02:58.360 --> 04:02:59.159
With love.

1422
04:03:00.639 --> 04:03:04.879
Like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

1423
04:03:06.319 --> 04:03:13.479
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

1424
04:03:13.719 --> 04:03:20.120
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them. You just

1425
04:03:20.600 --> 04:03:30.680
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

1426
04:03:33.000 --> 04:03:47.840
quiet down for now, so as you focus on those

1427
04:03:48.639 --> 04:03:53.520
remaining thoughts as we count down this time from seven

1428
04:03:54.399 --> 04:04:03.079
down to one. With each number, just imagine sprinkling those

1429
04:04:03.360 --> 04:04:22.799
flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts, which

1430
04:04:22.799 --> 04:04:28.799
will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

1431
04:04:32.959 --> 04:04:47.399
With every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

1432
04:04:53.000 --> 04:06:48.559
starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, two.

1433
04:07:07.159 --> 04:07:07.399
One.

1434
04:07:24.079 --> 04:07:41.000
And need you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in

1435
04:07:41.200 --> 04:08:02.760
your body. We're going to focus on your hands, because

1436
04:08:02.879 --> 04:08:09.079
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

1437
04:08:09.200 --> 04:08:29.920
body and mind are. And there's you focus on your

1438
04:08:30.120 --> 04:08:40.319
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1439
04:08:41.280 --> 04:08:46.360
There's no clenching of fists or tents in the fingers

1440
04:08:46.520 --> 04:09:00.120
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

1441
04:09:00.280 --> 04:09:28.440
your hands, noticing how they feel, because the more relaxed

1442
04:09:28.920 --> 04:09:38.600
your hands feel, the calm your mind feels, and the

1443
04:09:38.920 --> 04:09:55.879
more comfort you feel throughout your body, and you may

1444
04:09:58.360 --> 04:10:41.440
have already noticed your mind is starting to dressed fahim,

1445
04:10:45.520 --> 04:10:59.879
just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience.

1446
04:11:00.079 --> 04:11:10.159
It's a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands

1447
04:11:10.280 --> 04:11:36.319
and fingers, more and more relaxed with each number from

1448
04:11:36.520 --> 04:11:49.840
eight down to one. You can almost feel that healing

1449
04:11:51.319 --> 04:12:03.200
and relaxing energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming

1450
04:12:07.639 --> 04:12:24.520
yearn more relaxing with each number you hear going down

1451
04:12:26.079 --> 04:12:44.840
from eight down to one, drifting drifting again, starting with

1452
04:12:49.440 --> 04:16:45.079
number eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, just being

1453
04:16:45.440 --> 04:16:55.760
here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do, nothing

1454
04:16:55.879 --> 04:17:09.680
to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this is

1455
04:17:10.799 --> 04:17:17.559
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1456
04:17:18.680 --> 04:17:25.200
normally feel when you take away all that other stuff

1457
04:17:27.600 --> 04:17:32.479
that we add, you know, things like stress and worrying

1458
04:17:32.680 --> 04:17:48.159
and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1459
04:17:50.200 --> 04:17:53.479
When you take that away, which is what we do

1460
04:17:54.280 --> 04:18:06.120
what we do now, you're left with a real sense

1461
04:18:06.760 --> 04:18:19.280
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately

1462
04:18:19.920 --> 04:18:33.520
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost

1463
04:18:33.680 --> 04:18:37.280
as if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a

1464
04:18:37.479 --> 04:18:51.399
special place where everything is peaceful, a place where you

1465
04:18:51.600 --> 04:19:02.120
can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, A

1466
04:19:02.239 --> 04:19:10.760
place where you can be you, where you can accept

1467
04:19:10.879 --> 04:19:16.920
yourself for who you are, a place where you're not

1468
04:19:17.120 --> 04:19:27.520
trying to please anybody else ever, A place where you

1469
04:19:27.719 --> 04:19:37.280
can actually not just love yourself, but in some ways

1470
04:19:37.360 --> 04:19:46.479
more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1471
04:19:55.360 --> 04:20:01.959
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1472
04:20:09.639 --> 04:20:17.440
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1473
04:20:17.799 --> 04:20:33.079
healing energy soaking into your body. Heathing energy soaking into

1474
04:20:33.200 --> 04:20:43.159
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1475
04:20:46.920 --> 04:20:53.799
traveling to each and every single part of your body.

1476
04:21:00.159 --> 04:21:07.079
Start to realize that actually that healing energy it's not

1477
04:21:07.399 --> 04:21:14.840
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

1478
04:21:19.799 --> 04:21:26.440
and that spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

1479
04:21:31.680 --> 04:21:37.959
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

1480
04:21:40.000 --> 04:21:52.000
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1481
04:21:52.200 --> 04:22:01.520
realize that actually what's happening now with that healing, relaxing

1482
04:22:02.680 --> 04:22:15.879
energy spreading through your body's actually changing your life. It's

1483
04:22:15.959 --> 04:22:21.479
actually changing the way you're going to feel, not just now,

1484
04:22:23.319 --> 04:22:30.159
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1485
04:22:33.719 --> 04:22:41.079
not just your physical health but your mental health, things

1486
04:22:41.479 --> 04:22:46.680
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1487
04:22:47.879 --> 04:22:55.440
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1488
04:22:55.559 --> 04:23:06.639
something has changed deep with the you. Maybe things that

1489
04:23:07.040 --> 04:23:16.680
used to cause you to feel anger no longer have

1490
04:23:17.719 --> 04:23:26.479
that power to control you the way they seem to

1491
04:23:26.600 --> 04:23:35.479
be able to before. As you realize that you're the

1492
04:23:35.600 --> 04:23:48.879
one who decides what affects you, you're the one who

1493
04:23:49.040 --> 04:24:02.760
decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to

1494
04:24:03.120 --> 04:24:17.680
enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to grow

1495
04:24:20.479 --> 04:24:31.799
and improve your life day by day, including of course,

1496
04:24:31.879 --> 04:24:49.399
your ability to relax so much easier. And sleeping is

1497
04:24:49.479 --> 04:24:59.799
the most natural thing in the world to you, because

1498
04:25:00.120 --> 04:25:07.239
falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

1499
04:25:09.000 --> 04:25:14.600
in your life, and you know that you were born,

1500
04:25:16.120 --> 04:25:22.719
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

1501
04:25:26.959 --> 04:25:37.639
We were born with that ability to just drift off

1502
04:25:38.399 --> 04:25:51.520
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

1503
04:25:51.639 --> 04:25:56.040
will fall asleep when we don't even want to try

1504
04:25:56.120 --> 04:26:00.319
to take us stay awake. Maybe it's a birth day

1505
04:26:00.360 --> 04:26:04.479
in the morning, or it's Christmas, or holiday or something

1506
04:26:04.559 --> 04:26:07.159
we look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep,

1507
04:26:09.440 --> 04:26:14.440
but the more we want to stay awake, the more

1508
04:26:14.639 --> 04:26:22.959
we just start to drift. And the more you fight drifting,

1509
04:26:23.639 --> 04:26:26.479
the more you try and stop yourself and drift in asleep,

1510
04:26:28.639 --> 04:26:39.680
the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

1511
04:26:40.680 --> 04:26:46.520
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

1512
04:26:46.719 --> 04:26:56.559
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of

1513
04:26:56.639 --> 04:27:07.280
our DNA. And sometimes as we get older in life,

1514
04:27:08.639 --> 04:27:22.200
perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely is

1515
04:27:22.319 --> 04:27:35.399
not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1516
04:27:46.799 --> 04:27:54.280
It's very, very easy to let go, because that's all

1517
04:27:54.360 --> 04:27:54.600
it is.

1518
04:27:54.799 --> 04:27:55.280
It's just.

1519
04:27:58.799 --> 04:28:10.239
Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

1520
04:28:10.319 --> 04:28:20.559
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

1521
04:28:20.840 --> 04:28:28.920
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

1522
04:28:29.959 --> 04:28:38.360
you have given me permission for my words to affect

1523
04:28:40.879 --> 04:28:52.680
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

1524
04:28:57.920 --> 04:29:16.159
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

1525
04:29:20.680 --> 04:29:28.120
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1526
04:29:32.879 --> 04:29:42.719
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1527
04:29:42.840 --> 04:29:53.479
recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

1528
04:29:54.360 --> 04:30:08.920
and grow transfer forming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1529
04:30:12.040 --> 04:30:19.079
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1530
04:30:19.239 --> 04:30:36.440
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

1531
04:30:36.760 --> 04:30:52.360
feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just

1532
04:30:52.600 --> 04:31:06.239
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1533
04:31:14.159 --> 04:31:27.920
and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

1534
04:31:31.000 --> 04:31:40.799
Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1535
04:31:43.159 --> 04:31:55.479
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

1536
04:31:55.559 --> 04:32:01.079
not that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind

1537
04:32:01.200 --> 04:32:13.040
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

1538
04:32:13.159 --> 04:32:23.440
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

1539
04:32:23.520 --> 04:32:34.319
going to start noticing when negativity arises and you can

1540
04:32:34.520 --> 04:32:48.440
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

1541
04:32:49.079 --> 04:33:08.439
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity would disappear.

1542
04:33:16.599 --> 04:33:23.080
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1543
04:33:24.479 --> 04:33:39.840
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1544
04:33:40.040 --> 04:33:46.439
you're the person that has done this. You are the

1545
04:33:46.560 --> 04:33:51.639
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1546
04:33:51.880 --> 04:33:59.720
facts that you can feel more relaxed than your body

1547
04:34:00.520 --> 04:34:09.720
end in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1548
04:34:12.080 --> 04:34:18.639
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1549
04:34:19.680 --> 04:34:33.720
when you choose, And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

1550
04:34:33.799 --> 04:34:45.360
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

1551
04:34:45.439 --> 04:34:50.439
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your mind.

1552
04:34:56.919 --> 04:35:05.919
To spend time in that a special place where negativity

1553
04:35:07.439 --> 04:35:20.319
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

1554
04:35:20.400 --> 04:35:27.040
not allowed Entryue doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

1555
04:35:27.159 --> 04:35:35.200
be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

1556
04:35:36.240 --> 04:35:53.040
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

1557
04:35:55.200 --> 04:36:22.439
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it? Just

1558
04:36:25.919 --> 04:36:46.200
the leto with everything. I'm going to count down now

1559
04:36:46.520 --> 04:36:54.720
from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax.

1560
04:36:56.919 --> 04:37:08.400
If you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every

1561
04:37:08.639 --> 04:37:20.240
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

1562
04:37:23.319 --> 04:37:27.479
or if you choose, you can fill twice a sleeping

1563
04:37:34.360 --> 04:39:48.840
now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1564
04:39:55.360 --> 04:39:55.639
Four.

1565
04:40:29.040 --> 04:40:38.880
This is your time to just take a break, your

1566
04:40:39.040 --> 04:40:49.759
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1567
04:40:58.439 --> 04:41:12.479
to give yourself a person to take a break from everything.

1568
04:41:17.360 --> 04:41:24.720
Endu're the only person that can make that decision. You're

1569
04:41:24.759 --> 04:41:32.159
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

1570
04:41:32.479 --> 04:41:56.560
just relax, to just take some time off so that

1571
04:41:56.720 --> 04:42:01.680
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

1572
04:42:02.880 --> 04:42:19.200
how you feel physically, and in the process of this

1573
04:42:19.520 --> 04:42:24.439
body scan, where you focus on different parts of your body,

1574
04:42:30.880 --> 04:42:38.279
those parts that you focus on and observe, even though

1575
04:42:38.479 --> 04:42:46.639
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

1576
04:42:46.840 --> 04:42:55.279
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

1577
04:42:55.520 --> 04:43:08.560
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

1578
04:43:08.639 --> 04:43:18.400
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

1579
04:43:18.639 --> 04:43:30.159
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

1580
04:43:34.560 --> 04:43:49.439
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

1581
04:43:49.639 --> 04:44:05.560
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

1582
04:44:10.439 --> 04:44:32.520
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

1583
04:44:32.680 --> 04:44:49.520
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

1584
04:44:49.680 --> 04:45:02.360
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

1585
04:45:02.599 --> 04:45:17.080
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

1586
04:45:21.240 --> 04:45:28.520
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

1587
04:45:29.680 --> 04:45:36.560
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1588
04:45:38.000 --> 04:45:44.759
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

1589
04:45:46.599 --> 04:45:52.799
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy,

1590
04:46:00.840 --> 04:46:16.560
and when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

1591
04:46:16.799 --> 04:46:41.200
feeling of comfort and relaxation increases deeply, increases in a

1592
04:46:41.279 --> 04:46:56.200
way that your mind starts to fill perhaps bit drowsy

1593
04:47:01.479 --> 04:47:12.000
because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

1594
04:47:20.799 --> 04:47:27.479
if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

1595
04:47:29.560 --> 04:47:33.759
and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get.

1596
04:47:36.000 --> 04:47:37.439
If what you need is.

1597
04:47:39.159 --> 04:47:46.119
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

1598
04:47:48.639 --> 04:48:02.400
that's also for what happened, because by pressing that play

1599
04:48:02.520 --> 04:48:07.919
button on the podcast and listening to me, you give

1600
04:48:08.240 --> 04:48:21.279
permission your body and your mind. In fact, you give

1601
04:48:21.360 --> 04:48:26.279
the command to your body and your mind to relax

1602
04:48:30.040 --> 04:48:38.799
deeply and to drift off to sleep, if that's what

1603
04:48:39.200 --> 04:48:40.599
you want.

1604
04:48:43.840 --> 04:48:44.279
Or need.

1605
04:48:51.959 --> 04:48:57.599
And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

1606
04:49:02.599 --> 04:49:11.400
you may start to just drift. And then you come

1607
04:49:11.520 --> 04:49:16.759
back again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing

1608
04:49:16.919 --> 04:49:27.720
on a different part of your body, you may find

1609
04:49:27.880 --> 04:49:36.959
yourself drifting. You don't realize you're drifting until you stop

1610
04:49:37.119 --> 04:49:46.200
drifting and you're alert again to my voice focusing on

1611
04:49:46.360 --> 04:49:51.919
a different part of your body. Starts to relax even deeper,

1612
04:49:56.360 --> 04:50:04.799
because that drifting is basically you already in the sleep zone.

1613
04:50:11.319 --> 04:50:16.319
And the more you drift, the longer you drift, and

1614
04:50:16.439 --> 04:50:26.959
the longer you drift, eventually that drifting continues into sleep,

1615
04:50:31.959 --> 04:50:36.799
and that's the last you remember until you wake up

1616
04:50:41.279 --> 04:50:46.360
in your own time, when you experience the right amount

1617
04:50:46.520 --> 04:50:55.360
of sleep for you, because when you do and if

1618
04:50:55.439 --> 04:51:09.720
you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep,

1619
04:51:11.240 --> 04:51:29.200
healing sleep. I'm going to feel so nice to relax

1620
04:51:29.479 --> 04:51:38.959
into your own body and mind as you feel that

1621
04:51:40.279 --> 04:51:53.840
heathing energy is spreading through it, relaxing, Use so deeply, relaxing,

1622
04:51:54.119 --> 04:52:11.799
use so so deeply. We start to focus on your eyes,

1623
04:52:19.720 --> 04:53:06.400
moving down to your jaw, down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers,

1624
04:53:13.720 --> 04:53:54.680
your chest, stomach, your back, your spine, your hips, you legs,

1625
04:54:02.560 --> 04:54:38.279
your feet, your toes, and feeling heetings spreading and growing

1626
04:54:39.919 --> 04:54:52.319
inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again,

1627
04:54:54.599 --> 04:55:02.680
are parts of your body focusing this time on your forehead.

1628
04:55:09.159 --> 04:55:18.400
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

1629
04:55:18.520 --> 04:55:40.279
of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

1630
04:55:40.400 --> 04:55:44.439
could move your fingers a little bit so you can

1631
04:55:45.520 --> 04:56:00.599
focus on each one individually, both hands, and even as

1632
04:56:00.639 --> 04:56:05.880
you focus on both of your hands now they almost

1633
04:56:06.000 --> 04:56:14.159
seemed to just melt into one. Where is your right

1634
04:56:14.279 --> 04:56:21.840
hand start and your left hand end, almost as if

1635
04:56:24.599 --> 04:56:40.040
just mixed together. Now, focusing on your knees, just noticing

1636
04:56:41.319 --> 04:57:05.319
how your knees fell. Now, focusing on your elbows, focusing

1637
04:57:05.560 --> 04:57:19.840
on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling of

1638
04:57:20.040 --> 04:57:51.720
your elbows. Now focusing observing the back of your neck,

1639
04:58:01.680 --> 04:58:39.319
feeding the energy in the back of your neck, Observing

1640
04:58:41.680 --> 05:00:01.759
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in ancles. Noticing

1641
05:00:04.159 --> 05:00:20.639
now your toes on both of your feet, being aware

1642
05:00:22.520 --> 05:01:15.880
how your toes fear right now, notice thin hiw you

1643
05:01:16.520 --> 05:02:05.200
entire body feels, noticing your mind feels now letting go,

1644
05:02:14.000 --> 05:02:55.400
letting go, letting go everything, letting go, letting go, letting

1645
05:02:56.080 --> 05:03:22.400
go everything ever thing. I'm going to start now, And

1646
05:03:22.639 --> 05:03:24.319
I would like you just first of all, just to

1647
05:03:24.560 --> 05:03:32.520
see yourself lying down on that message table, lying on

1648
05:03:32.599 --> 05:03:37.560
your front. Your head is supported, your arms are supported,

1649
05:03:42.080 --> 05:03:48.319
and you feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy, and

1650
05:03:48.479 --> 05:03:55.279
you feel you feel confident in how you look as well.

1651
05:03:55.479 --> 05:03:59.880
So there's none of that issue of body problems or shining,

1652
05:04:01.000 --> 05:04:09.119
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

1653
05:04:09.919 --> 05:04:17.840
so none of that stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you.

1654
05:04:20.759 --> 05:04:26.479
This is about how you feel and how you can

1655
05:04:27.959 --> 05:04:33.560
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

1656
05:04:35.000 --> 05:04:40.639
letting go and allowing my hands, that my fingers to

1657
05:04:40.759 --> 05:04:52.200
relax you by a message your body. So I want

1658
05:04:52.240 --> 05:04:57.200
to start off just by placing my hands on the

1659
05:04:57.240 --> 05:05:01.720
back of your head, just generally, just so you can

1660
05:05:01.840 --> 05:05:10.759
feel my hands feel like really on you. So you

1661
05:05:10.840 --> 05:05:13.080
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

1662
05:05:13.119 --> 05:05:18.880
back of your head. With my hands to the side

1663
05:05:18.919 --> 05:05:23.520
of your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

1664
05:05:26.479 --> 05:05:29.479
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

1665
05:05:30.720 --> 05:05:35.959
just so you can feel my hands so you can

1666
05:05:36.040 --> 05:05:49.240
become accustomed to them. And now put my hands on

1667
05:05:49.319 --> 05:05:53.560
the back of your head again and gently let them

1668
05:05:53.720 --> 05:06:06.040
slide down onto the back of your neck. You can

1669
05:06:06.159 --> 05:06:16.240
feel my hands gently stroking the back of your neck

1670
05:06:16.439 --> 05:06:22.880
to start with, just so you can get used to

1671
05:06:23.040 --> 05:06:28.400
the feeling of my hands on your skin, get accustomed

1672
05:06:28.439 --> 05:06:36.639
to realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's

1673
05:06:36.680 --> 05:06:46.840
all fine, and I'm going to start gently messaging the

1674
05:06:47.040 --> 05:07:03.680
muscles in the back of your neck with both hands. Now,

1675
05:07:03.759 --> 05:07:10.000
this is a very trusting situation really, because our necks

1676
05:07:10.040 --> 05:07:14.400
are so fragile and to have someone have their hands

1677
05:07:15.040 --> 05:07:20.040
around your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic

1678
05:07:20.159 --> 05:07:25.720
for people, which is why massages are quite good, because

1679
05:07:25.759 --> 05:07:34.319
it allows you to relax and to get in touch

1680
05:07:34.599 --> 05:07:51.439
with trust, to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a

1681
05:07:51.560 --> 05:08:00.279
massage the sides of your neck gently moving from the

1682
05:08:00.360 --> 05:08:04.200
bottom of your neck. It would be sort of near

1683
05:08:04.240 --> 05:08:07.520
where your shoulders start, I guess, all the way up

1684
05:08:09.599 --> 05:08:15.080
to your jaw, your ears kind of area that side

1685
05:08:15.119 --> 05:08:20.119
of your neck, of course is a lot longer than

1686
05:08:20.479 --> 05:08:36.159
the front of your neck. And then message in the

1687
05:08:36.279 --> 05:08:44.000
back of your neck, especially that area where perhaps we

1688
05:08:44.200 --> 05:08:52.200
hold tension, and as that area's message, you can actually

1689
05:08:52.400 --> 05:08:56.200
feel a sense of release in the back of your

1690
05:08:56.279 --> 05:09:04.360
neck and maybe you can breathe it out as well.

1691
05:09:06.919 --> 05:09:19.639
Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel. And then

1692
05:09:19.759 --> 05:09:23.880
moving down to that area between your neck and your shoulders,

1693
05:09:25.439 --> 05:09:34.319
that muscle area, starting to message that area on both sides.

1694
05:09:36.520 --> 05:09:38.759
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

1695
05:09:38.759 --> 05:09:40.919
of people would message if they were going to give

1696
05:09:41.000 --> 05:09:47.439
you like a shoulder message even that's not technically the shoulders,

1697
05:09:47.959 --> 05:09:50.439
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

1698
05:09:52.279 --> 05:09:58.759
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

1699
05:10:00.119 --> 05:10:05.080
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

1700
05:10:08.200 --> 05:10:23.599
and you decide how deep that message is, and just

1701
05:10:23.799 --> 05:10:30.720
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

1702
05:10:30.880 --> 05:10:40.880
those muscles and to really relaxed all the time being

1703
05:10:41.119 --> 05:10:58.639
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down that

1704
05:10:58.840 --> 05:11:07.400
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

1705
05:11:07.439 --> 05:11:18.599
your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

1706
05:11:18.599 --> 05:11:21.959
a little bit of the table just to give you

1707
05:11:22.040 --> 05:11:32.439
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently. And

1708
05:11:32.560 --> 05:11:35.080
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

1709
05:11:35.840 --> 05:11:46.799
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

1710
05:11:46.959 --> 05:11:52.360
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

1711
05:11:52.360 --> 05:12:00.439
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

1712
05:12:02.279 --> 05:12:07.759
release the tension to really get into those muscles and

1713
05:12:11.200 --> 05:12:14.520
you can let your fingers in there. They can feel

1714
05:12:14.720 --> 05:12:22.799
really nice. Sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

1715
05:12:24.240 --> 05:12:32.919
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the reaxation.

1716
05:12:38.040 --> 05:12:50.720
Put the muscles in your shoulders. Now as we move

1717
05:12:50.880 --> 05:13:00.279
down your arms. We do one armor to tip. I'm

1718
05:13:01.159 --> 05:13:10.200
starting with your right arm. Well I do is I

1719
05:13:10.479 --> 05:13:14.639
just lift your arm up, just hold it to the

1720
05:13:14.799 --> 05:13:22.000
side of you by way it still be attached, and

1721
05:13:22.119 --> 05:13:36.720
I just message the tops of your arms all the

1722
05:13:36.759 --> 05:13:55.400
way down to your forearms into your wrists, gently messaging

1723
05:14:01.279 --> 05:14:07.639
that part, the softer part, which is the under part

1724
05:14:07.720 --> 05:14:13.680
of the arm, which leads to the crease in your elbow,

1725
05:14:14.279 --> 05:14:29.680
the inside it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having

1726
05:14:29.799 --> 05:14:48.639
that stroked I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now

1727
05:14:48.799 --> 05:14:59.560
moving down to your right hand, just holding your hand

1728
05:15:02.840 --> 05:15:12.599
in both of my hands, just pressing gently on the

1729
05:15:12.680 --> 05:15:19.959
back of your hand and stretching your fingers ever so

1730
05:15:20.119 --> 05:15:30.759
lightly at the same time pressing down and massaging each finger,

1731
05:15:38.759 --> 05:15:42.799
and then starting to massage the palms of the hand.

1732
05:15:49.520 --> 05:16:00.520
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

1733
05:16:00.639 --> 05:16:08.200
having your handheld can really be an emotional experience sometimes,

1734
05:16:09.200 --> 05:16:14.000
even if it is a stranger, someone you don't know

1735
05:16:14.279 --> 05:16:19.599
very well, like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe

1736
05:16:21.639 --> 05:16:34.479
because it's intimate and it can feel nice, you can

1737
05:16:34.560 --> 05:16:45.360
feel safe. And as I put that right arm back

1738
05:16:45.520 --> 05:16:53.319
down where it was, we're gonna do the same with

1739
05:16:53.479 --> 05:17:06.759
your left arm, exactly the same, massaging the muscles in

1740
05:17:06.880 --> 05:17:15.119
your arm all the way down. Do you rest, stroking

1741
05:17:15.200 --> 05:17:24.680
the inside of your arm, just being gentle or as

1742
05:17:24.919 --> 05:17:38.479
firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

1743
05:17:45.000 --> 05:17:55.040
stretching the fingers, gently massaging the palm of your left hand.

1744
05:18:06.959 --> 05:18:35.240
And you feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and just

1745
05:18:35.479 --> 05:18:48.319
rest your left arm back down. Start to message your back,

1746
05:18:50.080 --> 05:18:58.080
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

1747
05:19:01.319 --> 05:19:05.119
starting again where we already be have been, the area

1748
05:19:05.159 --> 05:19:09.759
at the top in between his shoulders k near your neck.

1749
05:19:11.520 --> 05:19:15.959
Going back, the massage in that area again, but this

1750
05:19:16.279 --> 05:19:29.880
time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to the middle

1751
05:19:29.919 --> 05:19:37.400
of your back, working from the outside inwards. It's a

1752
05:19:37.520 --> 05:19:44.919
massage in the your back, but the the outsides of

1753
05:19:45.040 --> 05:19:55.639
your back, the parts where your arms would maybe rest against,

1754
05:20:02.759 --> 05:20:08.240
almost the path that connects your front to your back,

1755
05:20:17.520 --> 05:20:25.919
and just messaging down firmly but gently, as firm as

1756
05:20:26.000 --> 05:20:33.959
you want, moving down and moving across a little bed

1757
05:20:34.000 --> 05:20:37.959
and moving all the way down again being very gentle

1758
05:20:39.720 --> 05:20:50.919
yet firm as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

1759
05:20:52.319 --> 05:20:56.000
We can massage the muscles and either side of your

1760
05:20:56.080 --> 05:20:59.799
spine from the top of your neck all the way

1761
05:21:00.159 --> 05:21:11.200
down to your lower back. We can do that a

1762
05:21:11.319 --> 05:21:21.959
few times. Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know,

1763
05:21:22.400 --> 05:21:26.880
two fingers and just go your side of the spine

1764
05:21:28.200 --> 05:21:31.919
almost just push down, go all the way down to

1765
05:21:32.000 --> 05:21:39.959
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

1766
05:21:40.279 --> 05:21:49.279
opening up the body, stretching your body so that you

1767
05:21:49.520 --> 05:22:07.759
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

1768
05:22:07.919 --> 05:22:11.240
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

1769
05:22:11.360 --> 05:22:20.400
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

1770
05:22:20.599 --> 05:22:26.520
your pelvis, I'm going to massage that area of your back.

1771
05:22:28.479 --> 05:22:31.599
I'll stretch over the other side and I will pull

1772
05:22:31.759 --> 05:22:38.200
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

1773
05:22:38.680 --> 05:22:43.240
that side or right to my side in the middle

1774
05:22:43.279 --> 05:22:49.040
of fact to where your spine is, massaging that side

1775
05:22:49.080 --> 05:22:53.439
of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

1776
05:22:55.840 --> 05:23:01.840
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

1777
05:23:01.919 --> 05:23:13.680
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

1778
05:23:13.759 --> 05:23:20.360
the most important places to actually have a message, because

1779
05:23:20.439 --> 05:23:26.279
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

1780
05:23:26.439 --> 05:23:34.599
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

1781
05:23:35.000 --> 05:23:43.240
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

1782
05:23:43.439 --> 05:23:49.520
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

1783
05:23:58.840 --> 05:24:01.680
The message in this part of your body no only

1784
05:24:01.840 --> 05:24:06.599
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

1785
05:24:08.040 --> 05:24:13.720
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread, it's

1786
05:24:13.759 --> 05:24:17.599
a part that you can really get hold of and

1787
05:24:17.799 --> 05:24:31.439
really message deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going

1788
05:24:31.520 --> 05:24:33.479
to move over to the other side of your body

1789
05:24:34.000 --> 05:24:42.680
and do the same with the opposite part of your

1790
05:24:42.799 --> 05:24:49.840
lawer back, kneading and messaging from your sides all the

1791
05:24:49.919 --> 05:24:57.040
way to the middle of your back where your spine

1792
05:24:57.200 --> 05:25:10.919
is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

1793
05:25:12.919 --> 05:25:25.400
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1794
05:25:25.759 --> 05:25:37.400
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1795
05:25:37.479 --> 05:25:42.639
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1796
05:25:42.720 --> 05:25:47.000
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

1797
05:25:47.159 --> 05:25:58.560
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1798
05:25:58.639 --> 05:26:03.439
to move or move first over up to your top

1799
05:26:03.479 --> 05:26:08.080
of your body, and I'm gonna do the same this time,

1800
05:26:09.360 --> 05:26:16.200
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

1801
05:26:17.479 --> 05:26:23.680
and massive massage in that area up to your spine,

1802
05:26:24.840 --> 05:26:27.439
from the side of your body up to your spine.

1803
05:26:29.240 --> 05:26:35.400
So some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or

1804
05:26:35.439 --> 05:26:39.439
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest.

1805
05:26:41.400 --> 05:26:48.720
There's all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm

1806
05:26:48.759 --> 05:26:51.959
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

1807
05:26:52.200 --> 05:27:00.240
skin from your side up and massaging that area yah

1808
05:27:02.880 --> 05:27:07.000
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

1809
05:27:11.400 --> 05:27:13.639
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

1810
05:27:14.279 --> 05:27:17.040
with the middle of your back, doing exactly the same

1811
05:27:17.159 --> 05:27:34.439
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now,

1812
05:27:34.560 --> 05:27:38.840
I'll move the other side again and do the exact

1813
05:27:39.080 --> 05:27:42.799
same thing with the top of your back on the

1814
05:27:42.880 --> 05:27:52.400
other side from pretty much underneath your arm area really

1815
05:27:57.840 --> 05:28:07.639
to your spine, and then continuing that all the way

1816
05:28:07.759 --> 05:28:26.279
down including your lower your middle of your back. I'm

1817
05:28:26.360 --> 05:28:31.279
gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

1818
05:28:33.959 --> 05:28:41.360
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg.

1819
05:28:43.680 --> 05:28:51.080
Massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

1820
05:28:53.520 --> 05:28:59.880
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

1821
05:29:00.040 --> 05:29:03.240
an area that can be very tense at times and

1822
05:29:03.439 --> 05:29:06.799
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

1823
05:29:06.880 --> 05:29:15.040
of the body that's up to you. You can gently

1824
05:29:15.159 --> 05:29:22.439
stroke the back of your legs where you know, opposite

1825
05:29:22.520 --> 05:29:28.080
your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

1826
05:29:28.319 --> 05:29:40.959
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles.

1827
05:29:43.880 --> 05:29:50.240
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

1828
05:29:53.720 --> 05:30:10.639
using both hands, finger of sticking deep to your ankles.

1829
05:30:12.919 --> 05:30:18.520
In the back of your back of your ankles, just

1830
05:30:18.840 --> 05:30:30.439
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

1831
05:30:31.319 --> 05:30:45.799
stretching it a little bit. Moving to the right foot,

1832
05:30:53.799 --> 05:31:03.720
massaging the bottom of your feet and the sides of

1833
05:31:03.799 --> 05:31:15.040
your feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

1834
05:31:20.599 --> 05:31:26.080
and just allow the pleasure that you get from having

1835
05:31:26.159 --> 05:31:35.520
your feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue

1836
05:31:35.639 --> 05:31:42.240
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

1837
05:31:44.880 --> 05:31:50.599
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

1838
05:31:50.680 --> 05:31:56.520
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, yet the

1839
05:31:56.759 --> 05:32:04.840
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

1840
05:32:04.959 --> 05:32:11.439
toes gently, the massage in the bottoms of your toes

1841
05:32:12.159 --> 05:32:27.479
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving over to the

1842
05:32:27.639 --> 05:32:37.000
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

1843
05:32:37.040 --> 05:32:41.479
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

1844
05:32:41.560 --> 05:32:49.119
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

1845
05:32:49.319 --> 05:33:03.319
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

1846
05:33:03.400 --> 05:33:09.520
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

1847
05:33:09.639 --> 05:33:18.279
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

1848
05:33:18.400 --> 05:33:23.680
a bigger future recording wants, spend more time on one

1849
05:33:23.759 --> 05:33:35.639
particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles.

1850
05:33:41.599 --> 05:33:55.000
Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down

1851
05:33:57.319 --> 05:34:03.680
your raincord into your feet. Massage in the backs of

1852
05:34:03.799 --> 05:34:14.200
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes,

1853
05:34:14.560 --> 05:34:20.880
and massage in each tone individually. And the feeling of

1854
05:34:21.040 --> 05:34:26.959
pleasure and release that you experience when your having your

1855
05:34:27.080 --> 05:34:48.520
feet massaged feels really good now should turn over in

1856
05:34:48.639 --> 05:34:59.479
your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just going to

1857
05:34:59.560 --> 05:35:12.560
start a again for your neck area and your shoulders,

1858
05:35:16.560 --> 05:35:27.000
just to get back in touch with that area. And

1859
05:35:27.159 --> 05:35:38.759
as you move up, I can clean my hands make

1860
05:35:38.840 --> 05:35:44.639
them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face gently,

1861
05:35:49.040 --> 05:35:59.119
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and

1862
05:36:00.240 --> 05:36:06.080
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

1863
05:36:06.200 --> 05:36:16.680
up on your eyebrows and just massaging around your scalp,

1864
05:36:22.439 --> 05:36:31.919
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw,

1865
05:36:33.080 --> 05:36:55.840
gently the sides of your neck chin mhmm, and just

1866
05:36:56.080 --> 05:37:07.479
moving down from your neck down to your chest, starting

1867
05:37:07.680 --> 05:37:15.040
by massage in the very top of your chest where

1868
05:37:15.080 --> 05:37:28.799
the collarbone is, either side of the collarbone, and then

1869
05:37:29.000 --> 05:37:41.439
just massage in the hole of the chest, moving the

1870
05:37:41.599 --> 05:37:55.200
chest around, because it's quite a large area, you can

1871
05:37:55.360 --> 05:38:03.439
move from one side to the next, moving my hands

1872
05:38:06.040 --> 05:38:16.439
underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up, stretching

1873
05:38:16.560 --> 05:38:19.000
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

1874
05:38:24.279 --> 05:38:32.919
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

1875
05:38:45.560 --> 05:38:50.360
and then allow my hands to just message gently and

1876
05:38:50.639 --> 05:38:57.360
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

1877
05:38:57.479 --> 05:39:07.040
your chest, and then gradually my hand's moving apart and

1878
05:39:07.360 --> 05:39:13.400
massage in and sliding at the same time, moving down

1879
05:39:17.279 --> 05:39:32.639
to just below your rib cage, moving down, then massaging

1880
05:39:32.759 --> 05:39:41.400
up again, giving your chest all the attention that it

1881
05:39:41.560 --> 05:39:56.080
needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going

1882
05:39:56.159 --> 05:40:01.680
to be focusing on your sides as well, an area

1883
05:40:01.799 --> 05:40:07.959
that really doesn't get much attention but feels really good

1884
05:40:09.200 --> 05:40:18.520
when it's massaged, just stroking my hands down the sides

1885
05:40:18.599 --> 05:40:25.319
of your body, just below your arms, all the way

1886
05:40:25.400 --> 05:40:38.560
down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

1887
05:40:40.599 --> 05:40:43.959
I'm going to stand one side of you like I

1888
05:40:44.080 --> 05:40:48.560
did when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do

1889
05:40:48.639 --> 05:40:54.680
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

1890
05:40:58.200 --> 05:41:10.200
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in

1891
05:41:12.799 --> 05:41:17.000
a whole area from below your ribs all the way

1892
05:41:17.119 --> 05:41:27.959
down to below your belly button, and then move around

1893
05:41:28.040 --> 05:41:37.919
to the other side of you and repeat that process

1894
05:41:38.240 --> 05:41:51.319
of relaxing, deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

1895
05:41:53.680 --> 05:41:58.400
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different

1896
05:41:58.479 --> 05:42:05.279
from any other part because we do have a tendency

1897
05:42:05.919 --> 05:42:09.759
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomach

1898
05:42:11.200 --> 05:42:19.040
that we may not be aware of. As a now

1899
05:42:19.240 --> 05:42:27.439
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

1900
05:42:28.919 --> 05:42:38.119
around your belly button, thing going the other way around.

1901
05:42:44.680 --> 05:42:50.439
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

1902
05:42:51.080 --> 05:43:01.360
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

1903
05:43:01.439 --> 05:43:08.200
of your thighs the muscles massaging them, and I can

1904
05:43:08.319 --> 05:43:14.279
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

1905
05:43:17.119 --> 05:43:23.279
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

1906
05:43:23.360 --> 05:43:34.360
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

1907
05:43:34.439 --> 05:43:45.720
your knees, sliding down your shins, put pressure on either

1908
05:43:45.880 --> 05:43:58.040
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

1909
05:43:58.400 --> 05:44:13.080
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

1910
05:44:13.240 --> 05:44:19.319
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

1911
05:44:20.159 --> 05:44:28.439
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

1912
05:44:28.919 --> 05:44:36.720
your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet.

1913
05:44:41.759 --> 05:44:47.799
Feels so good to select go and enjoy the process.

1914
05:44:53.439 --> 05:45:12.279
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort and so

1915
05:45:12.479 --> 05:45:29.240
many feelings come just from touching your skin. And you

1916
05:45:29.360 --> 05:45:35.560
can just lie there for as long as you choose,

1917
05:45:39.560 --> 05:45:49.040
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

1918
05:45:51.040 --> 05:45:51.360
By me.

1919
05:45:58.560 --> 05:46:20.520
Enjoy fear deeply. Right, and all we're gonna do is

1920
05:46:24.119 --> 05:46:40.639
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

1921
05:46:40.720 --> 05:46:51.080
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

1922
05:46:51.240 --> 05:47:01.040
each one out individually, one by one, starting and at

1923
05:47:01.080 --> 05:47:09.639
one hundred. As I count down all the way down

1924
05:47:09.720 --> 05:47:22.560
to one, and each time I say a number, you

1925
05:47:22.680 --> 05:47:29.639
can imagine that candle in front of you, and I'd

1926
05:47:29.799 --> 05:47:39.200
like you to actually physically gently blow that candle out,

1927
05:47:45.520 --> 05:47:53.200
just so it's not big blow, its just a gentle

1928
05:47:57.680 --> 05:48:07.119
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

1929
05:48:07.240 --> 05:48:14.360
next number as we move down, and you can just

1930
05:48:18.119 --> 05:48:27.159
blow that one out as well. And as we move

1931
05:48:27.560 --> 05:48:38.560
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeling more and more relaxed.

1932
05:48:41.599 --> 05:48:47.599
If you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming

1933
05:48:49.319 --> 05:49:00.200
incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may strike go

1934
05:49:03.000 --> 05:49:15.919
to blow out all one hundred of these candles as

1935
05:49:16.040 --> 05:49:34.200
you feel more and more deeply relaxed, more and more

1936
05:49:38.240 --> 05:49:54.000
deeply tired, And the further you go down, the more

1937
05:49:55.680 --> 05:50:07.560
your mind starts to drift. Yeah, you may find that

1938
05:50:07.840 --> 05:50:22.400
you stop listening to me after a while. And even

1939
05:50:22.520 --> 05:50:31.400
though there may be background sounds where you are, you'll

1940
05:50:31.439 --> 05:50:42.880
be aware of those sounds at the moment you may

1941
05:50:46.319 --> 05:50:53.200
start to just not even notice them.

1942
05:50:57.479 --> 05:50:58.159
At all.

1943
05:51:00.720 --> 05:51:14.720
Because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds

1944
05:51:14.799 --> 05:51:21.599
of the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to

1945
05:51:21.680 --> 05:51:28.240
say hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

1946
05:51:31.279 --> 05:51:44.720
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but none of

1947
05:51:44.799 --> 05:51:58.840
that scens important whatsoever. More candles you blow out, the

1948
05:51:59.000 --> 05:52:02.479
less important and anything.

1949
05:52:03.680 --> 05:52:03.720
Is.

1950
05:52:08.639 --> 05:52:17.840
More candles you blow out, the further you seem to

1951
05:52:19.799 --> 05:52:37.919
move away from sounds and from general date days. Stuff

1952
05:52:39.599 --> 05:52:53.599
seems to just move away on its own. You feel

1953
05:52:54.159 --> 05:53:14.319
more calm with every candle you blow out, guiding you

1954
05:53:17.599 --> 05:53:30.599
to the next number. Do you hear me say? And

1955
05:53:30.759 --> 05:53:48.639
then you blow that candle out too? So easy, so simple.

1956
05:53:58.200 --> 05:54:12.159
We're gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is

1957
05:54:12.279 --> 05:54:29.560
a hundred. The first candle is one hundred. When you

1958
05:54:30.479 --> 05:54:46.759
blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change

1959
05:54:50.639 --> 05:54:58.880
in how you feel, as well as a real sense

1960
05:54:59.080 --> 05:55:29.680
of positivity growing within you, relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting

1961
05:55:30.400 --> 05:55:58.799
with one hundred, blow out by candle now ninety nine,

1962
05:56:17.279 --> 05:58:00.360
candle ninety eight, candle ninety seven, ninety six and ninety five,

1963
05:58:15.880 --> 05:59:15.880
hand ninety four, candle ninety three mm hmm mhm, and

1964
05:59:27.439 --> 06:00:48.200
ninety two and ninety one hmm. Can to ninety eight,

1965
06:00:48.479 --> 06:03:40.040
ten nine and eighty eight and eight candle eighties, ten eight,

1966
06:03:40.799 --> 06:04:59.720
five and handle and eighty two.

1967
06:05:01.159 --> 06:06:07.000
Dat data USA USA, and.

1968
06:06:16.080 --> 06:06:17.040
Two one.

1969
06:07:52.680 --> 06:08:45.840
Jen seventy nine candle seventy eight candle seventy seven, Candle

1970
06:08:49.479 --> 06:09:51.840
seventy six, Candle seventy five, Candle seventy four, Candle seventy three,

1971
06:10:03.759 --> 06:11:07.159
candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one, Handle

1972
06:11:11.000 --> 06:12:05.400
seventy and sixty nine, Candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

1973
06:12:19.119 --> 06:13:23.880
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

1974
06:13:24.560 --> 06:14:27.439
sixty three, candle sixty two and sixty one. Candle sixty

1975
06:15:04.200 --> 06:16:15.319
fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle fifty six,

1976
06:16:44.040 --> 06:17:59.680
candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three, candle

1977
06:18:02.759 --> 06:20:09.639
fifty two, fifty two handify, candle fifty one, candle fifty,

1978
06:20:33.200 --> 06:22:27.880
candle foty nine, candle forty eight, candle forty seven, can

1979
06:22:31.080 --> 06:24:24.080
forty six, hand forty five and forty two. Candle Who

1980
06:24:24.520 --> 06:26:28.639
do you handle? Forty Candle thirty nine, can do thirty eight,

1981
06:26:58.040 --> 06:29:11.560
can't do thirty seven, Canto thirty five, thirty four, candle

1982
06:29:15.520 --> 06:31:58.680
thirty three, handle thirty one, chandle thirty n.

1983
06:32:02.080 --> 06:34:25.880
Twoinighteen nine, candle twenty eight and twenty seven. Came twenty six,

1984
06:35:06.799 --> 06:36:38.279
can do twenty five, can chief four, endle twenty thirty

1985
06:37:16.880 --> 06:37:59.720
and twin Deep two and twenty two.

1986
06:38:34.959 --> 06:38:35.720
And to.

1987
06:38:39.959 --> 06:43:47.720
Winty Yen and ninety Tendle seventeen, Canlo sixteen, Chancel fourteen, tend.

1988
06:43:51.720 --> 06:44:38.720
Tu four.

1989
06:44:49.560 --> 06:46:41.759
And eleven, Yeah, Game Do.

1990
06:46:46.200 --> 06:50:51.560
Nine and eight jo six camp, can do, Fool, can

1991
06:50:52.159 --> 06:53:12.959
do Yes, can two camp or let go of all

1992
06:53:13.080 --> 06:53:21.240
of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past, thoughts about

1993
06:53:21.319 --> 06:53:25.799
the future, and even things you've been thinking about today.

1994
06:53:27.919 --> 06:53:33.040
Just let it all go because none of it is

1995
06:53:33.240 --> 06:53:47.680
useful in this moment. This is your opportunity to just

1996
06:53:48.040 --> 06:54:01.919
focus on feeling relaxed, allowing you yourself to get in

1997
06:54:02.119 --> 06:54:11.680
touch with that natural sense of peace that we all

1998
06:54:11.959 --> 06:54:18.919
have within us. It's available for everyone. It just sometimes

1999
06:54:19.119 --> 06:54:23.639
takes a little bit of effort to set up the

2000
06:54:23.840 --> 06:54:29.919
right time and place in order for you to just

2001
06:54:30.279 --> 06:54:38.919
let go. Because when you do decide to let go

2002
06:54:39.040 --> 06:54:47.680
and relax, that's what your body starts to do because

2003
06:54:47.759 --> 06:54:55.279
you've chosen. You've chosen to just allow your body to

2004
06:54:55.599 --> 06:55:03.720
unwind and your mind starts to slow down. And it's

2005
06:55:03.759 --> 06:55:08.400
a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at the beginning,

2006
06:55:08.680 --> 06:55:17.360
just to know that you have chosen to decide to

2007
06:55:17.560 --> 06:55:25.319
relax deeply and because you've made that decision, your body

2008
06:55:26.560 --> 06:55:32.560
will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the muscles in

2009
06:55:32.680 --> 06:55:38.400
your body need is just permission from you to relax.

2010
06:55:42.439 --> 06:55:47.240
Because so often we're busy, we're going from here to there,

2011
06:55:47.400 --> 06:55:53.159
we're walking around, and we're doing stuff, and the body

2012
06:55:53.240 --> 06:56:01.319
doesn't have any time or space to really relax deeply.

2013
06:56:04.759 --> 06:56:07.439
So it kind of waits for you to lead the way,

2014
06:56:09.560 --> 06:56:19.599
waits for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

2015
06:56:21.319 --> 06:56:23.799
when you give the say so, we may say okay,

2016
06:56:25.119 --> 06:56:32.159
it's time for your body to let go completely and

2017
06:56:32.319 --> 06:56:43.720
relax totally, your body just follows. It's like a breath

2018
06:56:43.799 --> 06:56:52.919
of relief. Ah good, I can now relax. That feeling

2019
06:56:53.880 --> 06:56:56.759
at the end of a day, of a very physical

2020
06:56:56.959 --> 06:57:00.680
day that you may experience in the past, but you

2021
06:57:00.799 --> 06:57:03.560
get home and you just sit down on a chair,

2022
06:57:04.639 --> 06:57:09.520
maybe you kick your shoes off, and feels so nice

2023
06:57:11.560 --> 06:57:15.560
knowing that you don't have to get up again for

2024
06:57:15.599 --> 06:57:19.040
a little while at least, if you choose, you can

2025
06:57:19.240 --> 06:57:28.200
just sit there for maybe an hour to It feels blissful,

2026
06:57:32.319 --> 06:57:37.000
and just by sitting down like that, your body knows

2027
06:57:37.560 --> 06:57:42.520
that it's time to relax. Your body has been given

2028
06:57:42.639 --> 06:57:49.560
permission from you because it's a mindset. In your mind,

2029
06:57:52.880 --> 06:58:03.319
you're prepared to let go of everything and just completely

2030
06:58:04.520 --> 06:58:13.279
allow all the stress of your body to evaporate. Any

2031
06:58:13.520 --> 06:58:27.479
tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

2032
06:58:33.080 --> 06:58:40.080
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

2033
06:58:40.200 --> 06:58:46.639
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

2034
06:58:46.759 --> 06:58:50.400
unusual when you first start to relax, if you if

2035
06:58:50.439 --> 06:58:54.799
you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

2036
06:58:55.560 --> 06:58:59.880
giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax,

2037
06:59:01.000 --> 06:59:07.680
they seem are most alien, but it isn't. It's actually

2038
06:59:09.000 --> 06:59:14.159
the most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

2039
06:59:15.919 --> 06:59:23.680
to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

2040
06:59:26.360 --> 06:59:36.400
to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

2041
06:59:39.000 --> 06:59:46.680
And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

2042
06:59:46.840 --> 06:59:54.400
you press a button and all the tension just releases,

2043
06:59:55.799 --> 06:59:59.200
and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

2044
06:59:59.279 --> 07:00:03.240
inside of a clock, just unwinding. And it's almost like

2045
07:00:03.360 --> 07:00:08.479
you could see the little wind up knob that's used

2046
07:00:09.360 --> 07:00:13.400
just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

2047
07:00:13.439 --> 07:00:21.959
it up, and the energy that frenetic stress for energy

2048
07:00:23.479 --> 07:00:33.799
gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength. There's

2049
07:00:33.840 --> 07:00:43.240
a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and you

2050
07:00:43.439 --> 07:00:51.599
may find a the more relaxed you feel, that your

2051
07:00:51.759 --> 07:01:01.720
mind starts to wander, maybe just seem to stop listening

2052
07:01:01.799 --> 07:01:06.439
to me for a while, and your mind goes somewhere else,

2053
07:01:07.840 --> 07:01:13.680
And then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2054
07:01:13.799 --> 07:01:20.439
that was just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

2055
07:01:20.599 --> 07:01:31.759
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're

2056
07:01:31.840 --> 07:01:35.479
not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

2057
07:01:36.599 --> 07:01:45.040
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2058
07:01:45.200 --> 07:01:51.479
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely

2059
07:01:53.240 --> 07:01:59.759
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, I

2060
07:02:00.400 --> 07:02:05.919
is all letting them go, allow them to drop onto

2061
07:02:06.000 --> 07:02:16.040
the floor. When you start to get in touch with

2062
07:02:16.840 --> 07:02:29.200
the feelings of such relaxation, this feels so nice, to

2063
07:02:29.360 --> 07:02:35.599
be in touch with the calmness of the different body

2064
07:02:35.759 --> 07:02:49.000
parts as they become looser and looser. Even your breathing

2065
07:02:49.599 --> 07:03:01.000
seems easier and more natural, effortless, as a cool air

2066
07:03:01.520 --> 07:03:08.959
enters through your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing

2067
07:03:09.080 --> 07:03:17.400
in comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out any

2068
07:03:18.599 --> 07:03:26.000
excess remain intention or stress from every part of your

2069
07:03:26.080 --> 07:03:33.840
body and mind. And as you start to focus on

2070
07:03:34.000 --> 07:03:42.319
your mind, maybe you notice that things come to a

2071
07:03:42.520 --> 07:03:53.200
standstill or maybe just much much lower than before, because

2072
07:03:53.319 --> 07:04:00.599
your mind is not really needed when listening to my voice,

2073
07:04:04.479 --> 07:04:10.599
which allows your mind to relax just as deeply as

2074
07:04:10.720 --> 07:04:21.200
your body. And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your

2075
07:04:21.439 --> 07:04:31.319
body and relaxation of your mind. Let you know that

2076
07:04:33.520 --> 07:04:45.959
feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed really is a great

2077
07:04:46.919 --> 07:05:03.959
healing experience fear and has so many positive benefits for

2078
07:05:04.080 --> 07:05:10.200
your body, mind, and your life. To be able to

2079
07:05:10.439 --> 07:05:22.439
let go everything and to relax completely in all parts

2080
07:05:22.919 --> 07:05:33.840
of your body and mind. Even your boneses arised, all

2081
07:05:33.919 --> 07:05:46.840
your muscles are arised, even the skin that covers your

2082
07:05:46.959 --> 07:05:57.599
body is relaxed. Every hair.

2083
07:06:00.599 --> 07:06:01.200
That you have.

2084
07:06:02.959 --> 07:06:20.520
Is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts to

2085
07:06:20.759 --> 07:06:22.799
feel the benefits.

2086
07:06:24.119 --> 07:06:24.439
But this.

2087
07:06:26.080 --> 07:06:38.240
Healing relaxation. And then as you focus on the inside

2088
07:06:38.400 --> 07:06:43.639
of your scalp where your brain is, you can start

2089
07:06:44.200 --> 07:06:58.639
to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply. Then,

2090
07:06:58.720 --> 07:07:08.439
as your brain continues to relax. He sends those messages

2091
07:07:10.119 --> 07:07:18.840
to the rest of your body and dor mind to rely,

2092
07:07:19.319 --> 07:07:41.200
relax even more deeply, relaxy, more completely, letting go of

2093
07:07:41.799 --> 07:07:53.520
any remaining thoughts or consers, allow them just to drop

2094
07:07:53.799 --> 07:08:02.919
onto the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment,

2095
07:08:05.200 --> 07:08:18.000
In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling your

2096
07:08:18.159 --> 07:08:42.919
brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of

2097
07:08:43.080 --> 07:09:03.319
your brain, feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and

2098
07:09:03.639 --> 07:09:15.959
be peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy,

2099
07:09:19.040 --> 07:09:29.040
and that sense of deep, deep comfort really does allow

2100
07:09:29.360 --> 07:09:44.560
you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of comfort that

2101
07:09:44.720 --> 07:09:58.080
are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle

2102
07:09:58.279 --> 07:09:59.360
of your body.

2103
07:10:01.479 --> 07:10:02.040
Eat.

2104
07:10:03.639 --> 07:10:22.840
Deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before, much more

2105
07:10:24.880 --> 07:10:41.240
comfort spreading through your body. Your mind, be so peaceful

2106
07:10:41.799 --> 07:10:59.240
and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part of

2107
07:10:59.439 --> 07:11:10.639
your body. D lett him go mm hm a everything averything,

2108
07:11:14.319 --> 07:11:32.680
so peaceful time, so relax a very second the passes

2109
07:11:35.759 --> 07:11:36.720
you feel.

2110
07:11:38.680 --> 07:11:57.599
Dper, dper relax dper and dper relax.

2111
07:12:03.279 --> 07:12:04.560
So calm.

2112
07:12:08.200 --> 07:12:21.000
Peace for so very peace from your head down to

2113
07:12:21.200 --> 07:12:34.319
your toes. Such peace and comfort growing all all the time,

2114
07:12:37.159 --> 07:12:48.279
Such peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind

2115
07:12:50.840 --> 07:13:07.200
deeper and deeper, Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into

2116
07:13:07.560 --> 07:13:22.759
airy muscle your body, so that you feel amazing, so relaxed,

2117
07:13:26.200 --> 07:13:43.119
so piece, so so last and peace, letting go.

2118
07:13:47.040 --> 07:13:47.959
Everything.

2119
07:13:52.200 --> 07:13:58.759
We're gonna do a body scan, focusing on firstly how

2120
07:13:58.840 --> 07:14:04.159
you feel in your body, not trying to change how

2121
07:14:04.240 --> 07:14:10.040
you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to move

2122
07:14:10.119 --> 07:14:17.000
away from any discomfort or stress or tension, just accepting,

2123
07:14:18.520 --> 07:14:23.639
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2124
07:14:23.720 --> 07:14:30.360
of your body, just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2125
07:14:30.439 --> 07:14:41.919
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

2126
07:14:42.000 --> 07:14:48.959
you actually feel in this moment. So I'm going to

2127
07:14:49.080 --> 07:15:01.279
start off by focusing on your hands. We have your hands.

2128
07:15:06.639 --> 07:15:11.080
I'd like you to move your hands around, just maybe

2129
07:15:11.159 --> 07:15:17.000
move your fingers a little bit. I've been enclosing your

2130
07:15:17.119 --> 07:15:24.599
hands very gently, just so that you can get in

2131
07:15:24.799 --> 07:15:36.959
touch with how your hands and your fingers feel, very

2132
07:15:38.080 --> 07:15:55.959
very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and if

2133
07:15:56.040 --> 07:15:59.919
you can just do kind of an equivalent with your

2134
07:16:00.200 --> 07:16:07.279
feet is you've just done with your hands, maybe turn

2135
07:16:07.439 --> 07:16:15.680
in your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your toes gently,

2136
07:16:18.319 --> 07:16:30.479
but only very gently and very slowly, noticing how your

2137
07:16:30.680 --> 07:16:43.759
feet fulfill in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes,

2138
07:16:46.799 --> 07:16:53.880
I'd like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe

2139
07:16:54.000 --> 07:16:56.720
you can open and close your eyes a couple of

2140
07:16:56.840 --> 07:17:02.279
times to really get to much with how you feel

2141
07:17:02.400 --> 07:17:10.400
when you do close your eyes. The muscle changes in

2142
07:17:10.520 --> 07:17:17.360
your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows.

2143
07:17:19.119 --> 07:17:26.959
It stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps quinting your eyes,

2144
07:17:30.680 --> 07:17:36.040
scrunching up your eyes just so you can hear it again.

2145
07:17:36.319 --> 07:17:46.840
Touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2146
07:17:49.319 --> 07:17:49.799
Right now.

2147
07:17:59.159 --> 07:18:05.560
Now, focus in on your thighs, and it just starts

2148
07:18:05.599 --> 07:18:13.560
you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2149
07:18:15.880 --> 07:18:26.560
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

2150
07:18:27.840 --> 07:18:36.319
physical sensation of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2151
07:18:36.599 --> 07:18:47.599
in the backs of your thighs, noticing and observing how

2152
07:18:49.959 --> 07:19:05.040
your thighs feel right now, Moving your focus to the

2153
07:19:05.119 --> 07:19:11.680
back of your neck. Just noticing the back of your

2154
07:19:11.799 --> 07:19:18.159
neck the muscles, and of course they lead to the

2155
07:19:18.439 --> 07:19:22.840
side of your neck. They also lead to the top

2156
07:19:22.919 --> 07:19:29.240
of your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as

2157
07:19:29.279 --> 07:19:35.119
your focus on the back of your neck, maybe you

2158
07:19:35.279 --> 07:19:41.919
can move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up,

2159
07:19:43.880 --> 07:19:49.520
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2160
07:19:52.639 --> 07:19:57.520
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2161
07:19:59.400 --> 07:20:10.720
but only very slowly, very gently. I'm not trying to

2162
07:20:11.119 --> 07:20:22.720
force anything. It has to be very very gentle, just so.

2163
07:20:23.400 --> 07:20:27.080
You can be more.

2164
07:20:28.720 --> 07:20:38.119
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2165
07:20:39.520 --> 07:20:48.799
sensations of how the back of your neck feels right now.

2166
07:20:56.400 --> 07:20:56.759
As we.

2167
07:20:58.759 --> 07:21:07.400
Now focus on the tops of your arms, the parts

2168
07:21:07.479 --> 07:21:12.200
where your biceps and your triceps are between your elbow

2169
07:21:12.279 --> 07:21:20.919
and your shoulders. Should focus on those parts, the tops

2170
07:21:21.000 --> 07:21:27.520
of your arms. You may like to just tense them,

2171
07:21:28.439 --> 07:21:39.360
but very very gently and slowly, so you're not straining

2172
07:21:39.759 --> 07:21:45.759
or put in any pressure whatsoever.

2173
07:21:46.680 --> 07:21:52.680
On your arms. It's just so that you can.

2174
07:21:55.200 --> 07:22:04.119
Gain more of the sense are your upper arms are

2175
07:22:04.439 --> 07:22:15.880
feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2176
07:22:18.040 --> 07:22:27.639
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go,

2177
07:22:31.880 --> 07:22:37.240
notice how the tops of your arms feel.

2178
07:22:39.799 --> 07:22:40.319
Right now.

2179
07:22:48.479 --> 07:22:59.279
As in now focus on your stomach, the area the

2180
07:22:59.400 --> 07:23:05.599
lower to an area below your belly button, moving all

2181
07:23:05.680 --> 07:23:12.919
the way down to your hips, just above your grind.

2182
07:23:19.240 --> 07:23:26.439
Maybe you're able to tense these muscles in that area

2183
07:23:27.159 --> 07:23:42.439
very very gently and slowly, if that's a difficult thing

2184
07:23:42.639 --> 07:23:49.040
to do, and maybe you can just move your body,

2185
07:23:51.639 --> 07:23:56.599
pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a little bit to

2186
07:23:56.720 --> 07:24:03.720
the side using your hips, just so you can get

2187
07:24:04.119 --> 07:24:16.520
more in tune with how your lower abdomen area is

2188
07:24:17.639 --> 07:24:38.159
feeling in this moment. Just noticing the physical sensations or

2189
07:24:38.279 --> 07:24:57.520
your lower abdomen as you move your attention to your mouth,

2190
07:25:02.919 --> 07:25:12.959
noticing your lips and inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns,

2191
07:25:14.360 --> 07:25:30.200
your tongue, just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels.

2192
07:25:33.240 --> 07:25:40.599
It may help by moving your tongue around your mouth,

2193
07:25:42.119 --> 07:25:48.319
moving it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against

2194
07:25:49.880 --> 07:25:54.360
the side of your mouth, and then to the right,

2195
07:25:55.919 --> 07:26:03.000
gently to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up

2196
07:26:03.080 --> 07:26:09.279
against the top of your mouth, and then down gently

2197
07:26:11.240 --> 07:26:22.119
against the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly, in

2198
07:26:22.240 --> 07:26:36.919
a very very gentle so that you can be aware

2199
07:26:42.240 --> 07:27:04.439
of how you feel in your mouth area. Now I'm

2200
07:27:04.520 --> 07:27:20.439
going to focus on your wrists, and I'm gonna ask

2201
07:27:20.639 --> 07:27:29.200
you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your

2202
07:27:29.400 --> 07:27:42.360
hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just.

2203
07:27:44.119 --> 07:27:45.520
So that you can.

2204
07:27:51.159 --> 07:28:10.240
Feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your risks.

2205
07:28:14.279 --> 07:28:22.840
Perhaps move in your hands up and down the game

2206
07:28:24.080 --> 07:29:03.360
very very gently and slowly, very gentle and slow. As

2207
07:29:03.439 --> 07:29:20.159
you now start to observe your lower back. The bad

2208
07:29:20.520 --> 07:29:21.240
part is.

2209
07:29:22.840 --> 07:29:31.119
Just above your hips where your coxis are.

2210
07:29:38.479 --> 07:29:44.639
A whole area which also really does include the sides

2211
07:29:45.599 --> 07:29:51.080
of your body because those muscles are very much connected.

2212
07:29:56.319 --> 07:30:01.799
There's those muscles also move in to your hip area

2213
07:30:02.799 --> 07:30:18.200
connecting to your buttocks the side of your hips, and

2214
07:30:18.360 --> 07:30:26.799
if you're physically able to do so, maybe you can

2215
07:30:27.759 --> 07:30:40.439
very gently just move your body evers slightly, very slowly

2216
07:30:43.520 --> 07:31:01.479
from side to side, just enough to gauge how you

2217
07:31:01.759 --> 07:31:18.799
feel in your lower back. Perhaps it could even move

2218
07:31:19.000 --> 07:31:33.080
your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly in

2219
07:31:33.439 --> 07:31:47.279
order to be in touch with the physical sensations of

2220
07:31:47.520 --> 07:32:16.479
your lower back. As we now live, your attention to

2221
07:32:16.759 --> 07:32:24.439
your jaw, that area for your chin, all the way

2222
07:32:24.560 --> 07:32:32.080
up to near where your ears are. The hole of

2223
07:32:32.240 --> 07:32:47.159
your jaw, you can just if it's okay to do

2224
07:32:47.439 --> 07:32:59.080
sid gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just

2225
07:32:59.680 --> 07:33:12.919
very gently and slowly opening your mouth thing, closing your

2226
07:33:13.000 --> 07:33:33.959
mouth very gently and slowly, so you can be in

2227
07:33:34.240 --> 07:33:43.959
touch with how your jaw feels.

2228
07:33:46.919 --> 07:33:47.119
Now.

2229
07:34:13.799 --> 07:34:28.840
And I have to sit down your chest area, and

2230
07:34:29.040 --> 07:34:34.240
you don't need to do anything to move your chest

2231
07:34:36.479 --> 07:34:45.720
because it moves every time you breathe, and it moves

2232
07:34:46.919 --> 07:34:59.799
very gently and slowly automatically with each breath you take.

2233
07:35:06.880 --> 07:35:25.479
As you focus on how your chest feels. When you pray,

2234
07:35:54.520 --> 07:36:09.400
live in your focus to your forms, your elbows. Maybe

2235
07:36:09.720 --> 07:36:15.439
you're able to very gently.

2236
07:36:16.840 --> 07:36:19.000
And slowly.

2237
07:36:20.720 --> 07:36:29.279
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2238
07:36:29.759 --> 07:37:02.840
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2239
07:37:05.840 --> 07:37:07.759
And softly.

2240
07:37:11.279 --> 07:37:49.759
Of saving your forearms and delpos no focus of the

2241
07:37:49.919 --> 07:38:01.759
rest of your back. You're upper back in the middle,

2242
07:38:03.360 --> 07:38:19.520
the middle of your back again, this part of your

2243
07:38:19.680 --> 07:38:34.400
body news. Also every time you pray, you may not

2244
07:38:34.759 --> 07:38:48.840
notice that. Usually these you observe your upper back in

2245
07:38:49.000 --> 07:39:01.840
the middle of your back. You can really feel that gento.

2246
07:39:07.040 --> 07:39:08.799
And no.

2247
07:39:13.919 --> 07:39:51.799
Movement. Moving your focus.

2248
07:39:53.240 --> 07:39:54.000
Into your.

2249
07:39:55.479 --> 07:40:08.319
Area your body, your brain, those muscles, and those bones

2250
07:40:10.919 --> 07:40:51.639
in your midsection. Just noticing how you're hips feel right now.

2251
07:40:59.200 --> 07:41:14.959
You can very very gently move your hips, maybe side

2252
07:41:15.159 --> 07:42:02.040
to side, very gently and slo very, very gently, softly. No,

2253
07:42:07.799 --> 07:42:24.560
everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2254
07:42:24.680 --> 07:42:36.439
mind and your mind itself, just starts to gradually. It

2255
07:42:36.520 --> 07:42:42.880
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting to

2256
07:42:44.279 --> 07:42:53.080
It's almost like time is storing chin. It's a slower

2257
07:42:53.240 --> 07:43:01.119
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2258
07:43:01.159 --> 07:43:23.200
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2259
07:43:27.560 --> 07:43:36.000
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2260
07:43:36.080 --> 07:43:43.840
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2261
07:43:43.959 --> 07:43:46.680
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2262
07:43:47.520 --> 07:43:54.919
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2263
07:44:00.000 --> 07:44:12.240
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2264
07:44:12.479 --> 07:44:33.360
move from that big movement into those smaller movements. Starting

2265
07:44:33.520 --> 07:44:44.319
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

2266
07:44:44.360 --> 07:44:48.680
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

2267
07:44:48.759 --> 07:44:54.840
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm,

2268
07:44:56.159 --> 07:45:02.759
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2269
07:45:03.000 --> 07:45:14.200
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2270
07:45:15.360 --> 07:45:31.680
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

2271
07:45:34.479 --> 07:45:47.680
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

2272
07:45:47.759 --> 07:45:57.319
them or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them,

2273
07:45:58.200 --> 07:46:11.159
thinking about them as just being neutral, just feelings, not

2274
07:46:11.400 --> 07:46:22.479
being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is

2275
07:46:22.599 --> 07:46:36.319
telling you. The feelings in your arms, instead of feeling

2276
07:46:36.479 --> 07:46:45.159
the hole of the arm, maybe notice those individual feelings,

2277
07:46:46.599 --> 07:46:58.080
all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of

2278
07:46:58.200 --> 07:47:03.119
your arms, the all the internal parts of your arms,

2279
07:47:03.240 --> 07:47:22.479
the veins, the bones, just being aware of maybe your

2280
07:47:22.639 --> 07:47:30.759
elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe

2281
07:47:31.080 --> 07:47:44.159
your left wrist also has its own individual physical sensation.

2282
07:47:56.599 --> 07:48:03.360
What about your forearm on your right arm, you're right forearm.

2283
07:48:10.680 --> 07:48:16.759
There may not be any particular feeling that you could

2284
07:48:16.840 --> 07:48:24.720
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2285
07:48:25.720 --> 07:48:35.919
other than just a feeling. You know, it's there. The

2286
07:48:36.040 --> 07:48:41.880
feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think

2287
07:48:41.959 --> 07:48:46.759
about them, kind of almost like they're the same, you know,

2288
07:48:48.000 --> 07:48:53.119
the same feeling, almost like both of your shoulders are

2289
07:48:53.200 --> 07:49:06.000
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2290
07:49:06.200 --> 07:49:12.240
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2291
07:49:14.279 --> 07:49:18.759
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2292
07:49:20.279 --> 07:49:35.119
maybe tense the muscles, gently noticing the difference in each shoulder,

2293
07:49:46.560 --> 07:50:02.360
your lower back, the left side of your lower back,

2294
07:50:02.599 --> 07:50:14.000
and the right side of your lower back. Of course

2295
07:50:14.119 --> 07:50:26.319
that connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and

2296
07:50:26.479 --> 07:50:39.799
also moving up into the middle of your back. And

2297
07:50:40.040 --> 07:50:44.560
sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2298
07:50:45.959 --> 07:50:50.319
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2299
07:50:50.360 --> 07:50:54.479
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2300
07:50:54.720 --> 07:50:59.479
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2301
07:51:04.240 --> 07:51:09.520
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2302
07:51:09.599 --> 07:51:18.360
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2303
07:51:18.479 --> 07:51:30.759
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2304
07:51:30.840 --> 07:51:49.919
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2305
07:51:57.560 --> 07:52:10.959
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2306
07:52:11.200 --> 07:52:27.479
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously

2307
07:52:27.560 --> 07:52:31.159
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2308
07:52:31.240 --> 07:52:39.840
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest,

2309
07:52:42.479 --> 07:52:47.200
and of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts.

2310
07:52:48.720 --> 07:52:56.880
Your male you've got the different well why not that

2311
07:52:57.000 --> 07:53:04.479
different these days, but there may be more muscles at

2312
07:53:04.520 --> 07:53:10.759
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath

2313
07:53:11.919 --> 07:53:14.759
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2314
07:53:14.759 --> 07:53:21.200
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2315
07:53:21.319 --> 07:53:25.799
your back as well as breast tissue. It stretches and

2316
07:53:26.000 --> 07:53:33.680
moves into your back, to just being aware of your chest,

2317
07:53:42.599 --> 07:54:09.919
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. When

2318
07:54:09.959 --> 07:54:17.759
I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I feel

2319
07:54:17.840 --> 07:54:22.439
it in my back and my upper back. I mean,

2320
07:54:22.520 --> 07:54:25.479
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2321
07:54:25.479 --> 07:54:36.240
I'll breathe in in, and it stretches my chest and

2322
07:54:36.599 --> 07:54:50.479
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2323
07:54:57.040 --> 07:55:01.880
it doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain

2324
07:55:02.000 --> 07:55:08.599
in my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but

2325
07:55:08.680 --> 07:55:18.520
a little discomfort, maybe stiffness, possibly, I don't know. I

2326
07:55:18.680 --> 07:55:26.720
noticed my shoulders are also wanting to flex for some reason.

2327
07:55:28.919 --> 07:55:36.279
I think that's probably part of my upper back, that

2328
07:55:36.479 --> 07:55:41.400
connection between my shoulders and my other back. Because I

2329
07:55:41.439 --> 07:55:46.479
can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back,

2330
07:55:48.959 --> 07:55:55.520
moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves. I

2331
07:55:55.560 --> 07:56:11.680
think it's the scapulous in your act. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2332
07:56:17.040 --> 07:56:20.200
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2333
07:56:20.360 --> 07:56:34.279
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2334
07:56:34.479 --> 07:56:42.000
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2335
07:56:42.000 --> 07:56:52.319
of a sense of how they feel and when you're relaxing,

2336
07:56:57.119 --> 07:57:01.159
when you do tense and muscle and you let it

2337
07:57:01.319 --> 07:57:08.680
go and you let it relax, it relaxes way more

2338
07:57:10.360 --> 07:57:20.360
than it would normally. That you have to feel that

2339
07:57:20.479 --> 07:57:24.200
you're able to do that. There's no point in doing

2340
07:57:24.279 --> 07:57:29.799
it if there's an issue with the per part of

2341
07:57:29.880 --> 07:57:39.080
your body. You need to be gentle with yourself at

2342
07:57:39.360 --> 07:57:53.159
all times when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind

2343
07:57:53.880 --> 07:58:09.919
to yourself. As you notice your mind. How much has

2344
07:58:09.959 --> 07:58:33.599
your mind slowed down since we started this recording? How

2345
07:58:33.840 --> 07:58:49.080
came and peaceful is your mind right now? We have

2346
07:58:49.279 --> 07:58:55.159
nothing to think about and just my voice to listen to,

2347
07:58:59.319 --> 07:59:07.880
because you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation.

2348
07:59:10.639 --> 07:59:15.799
At the very least, for you to feel more relaxed

2349
07:59:17.080 --> 07:59:20.000
at the end of the recording than you did at

2350
07:59:20.000 --> 07:59:32.680
the beginning, at the very least, for your mind to

2351
07:59:33.000 --> 07:59:49.159
slow down because your body continues to relax, because that's

2352
07:59:49.599 --> 08:00:00.560
what you want to happen. That's what you exc respect

2353
08:00:04.840 --> 08:00:29.119
to happen, For relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm

2354
08:00:29.240 --> 08:00:37.080
in your mind to the point of boredom when you

2355
08:00:37.479 --> 08:01:21.279
start maybe to drift away drifting. It's almost as if

2356
08:01:21.400 --> 08:01:30.680
you're moving further away from your body in your mind,

2357
08:01:33.080 --> 08:01:44.959
just leaving that there, kind of liking it an escape

2358
08:01:45.040 --> 08:01:50.240
pod in the spaceship a movie. A space movie, you know,

2359
08:01:50.319 --> 08:01:54.240
when they get into a little pod in it. Since

2360
08:01:54.360 --> 08:02:10.439
the month far away from the spaceship, safe to dream,

2361
08:02:19.279 --> 08:03:07.159
continue to relax, drifting so slow.

2362
08:03:20.040 --> 08:03:20.919
And be so.

2363
08:03:37.200 --> 08:03:38.439
So rare.

2364
08:03:51.439 --> 08:03:52.439
And peace.

2365
08:04:13.400 --> 08:04:27.799
And focusing on the feeling of those individual parts of

2366
08:04:27.919 --> 08:04:34.400
your body. That's a relaxing.

2367
08:04:35.639 --> 08:04:44.560
One by one, you may.

2368
08:04:46.279 --> 08:05:00.159
Find that every now and then you realize that, who

2369
08:05:00.159 --> 08:05:08.759
aren't listening to my voice because your mind started to

2370
08:05:09.000 --> 08:05:24.200
imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into some

2371
08:05:24.520 --> 08:05:32.959
kind of a dreamy state, And then you become aware

2372
08:05:33.159 --> 08:05:42.400
of my voice again. And even though you may want

2373
08:05:42.599 --> 08:05:47.520
to focus on my voice, you may also wish to

2374
08:05:50.040 --> 08:06:01.639
allow your mind to just drift naturally into that space

2375
08:06:01.919 --> 08:06:25.919
of comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort spreading

2376
08:06:26.279 --> 08:06:39.040
through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

2377
08:06:43.080 --> 08:07:01.159
keeping your body at just the perfect temperature, and even

2378
08:07:01.319 --> 08:07:13.319
if you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem

2379
08:07:13.479 --> 08:07:30.240
to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace spreads through

2380
08:07:30.360 --> 08:07:43.959
your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to

2381
08:07:44.159 --> 08:08:00.439
blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your

2382
08:08:00.560 --> 08:08:18.400
mind any anxiety or stress that was there before, and

2383
08:08:18.680 --> 08:08:29.360
blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't

2384
08:08:29.680 --> 08:08:53.919
fit with the sense relaxation, that is feeling your body

2385
08:08:58.919 --> 08:09:18.639
and your mind. Unless you focus on your mind and

2386
08:09:19.000 --> 08:09:24.560
count down from ten down to one, and with each

2387
08:09:25.119 --> 08:09:50.159
number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2388
08:09:52.919 --> 08:10:01.279
just just slightly so. From ten down to nine, just

2389
08:10:01.400 --> 08:10:08.680
a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just another

2390
08:10:10.639 --> 08:10:25.360
small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven.

2391
08:10:28.159 --> 08:10:33.560
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2392
08:10:33.919 --> 08:10:43.599
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2393
08:10:43.759 --> 08:10:50.720
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2394
08:10:50.880 --> 08:10:58.400
feelings you have, the growing now feelings of comfort and

2395
08:10:58.680 --> 08:11:10.319
security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Eight down

2396
08:11:10.439 --> 08:11:17.919
to seven, seven down to six. When you get to five,

2397
08:11:20.240 --> 08:11:29.520
your mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2398
08:11:33.759 --> 08:11:39.639
almost like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2399
08:11:40.560 --> 08:11:46.400
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2400
08:11:46.479 --> 08:11:57.560
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull. And

2401
08:11:57.720 --> 08:12:04.119
in down to four you can start to really experience

2402
08:12:04.319 --> 08:12:16.759
that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a place

2403
08:12:17.000 --> 08:12:25.159
full of fresh air, the place where you can stretch.

2404
08:12:28.680 --> 08:12:31.319
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2405
08:12:32.119 --> 08:12:40.959
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense of

2406
08:12:41.599 --> 08:12:53.840
peace and tranquility growing as it moves down to When

2407
08:12:53.840 --> 08:13:03.240
you get to one, your mind just feels exactly how

2408
08:13:03.400 --> 08:13:23.319
you want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe the sensation

2409
08:13:23.799 --> 08:13:32.919
that you'd like to keep a place that's safe, where

2410
08:13:34.479 --> 08:13:53.479
nothing can affect you at all, and you can stay

2411
08:13:53.560 --> 08:14:02.319
in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident in

2412
08:14:02.439 --> 08:14:10.560
your own ability to create this space and this feeling

2413
08:14:10.880 --> 08:14:17.360
of comfort within your own mind just by counting from

2414
08:14:17.560 --> 08:14:26.400
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2415
08:14:26.560 --> 08:14:35.560
can do yourself when you're on your own, the time

2416
08:14:35.759 --> 08:14:39.240
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2417
08:14:39.360 --> 08:14:52.520
few minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly from ten

2418
08:14:55.439 --> 08:15:07.360
down to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

2419
08:15:13.240 --> 08:15:17.520
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2420
08:15:17.639 --> 08:15:32.159
body copies your mind, and that feeling is spread through

2421
08:15:32.360 --> 08:15:39.479
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

2422
08:15:39.599 --> 08:15:52.159
your body, travels through your blood stream, heathing and relaxing

2423
08:15:54.360 --> 08:16:12.319
every particle of your existence. Now we can we can

2424
08:16:12.479 --> 08:16:20.880
practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

2425
08:16:21.520 --> 08:16:27.360
and then you can practice on your own. And each

2426
08:16:27.639 --> 08:16:40.840
time you count for ten about one, the feelings of comforts, calmness,

2427
08:16:42.080 --> 08:17:01.159
deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your mind

2428
08:17:01.479 --> 08:17:10.720
and your brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout

2429
08:17:10.840 --> 08:17:20.639
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

2430
08:17:20.840 --> 08:17:34.080
and mind so very, very easily just by counting from

2431
08:17:34.279 --> 08:17:44.599
ten down to one. So we're going to do it now.

2432
08:17:45.439 --> 08:17:49.400
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2433
08:17:49.599 --> 08:17:53.880
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2434
08:17:53.919 --> 08:18:00.599
I say ten, you can just repeat to your self.

2435
08:18:02.279 --> 08:18:02.520
Ten.

2436
08:18:08.119 --> 08:18:17.479
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2437
08:18:17.639 --> 08:18:27.159
mind and your body. Then when I say nine, you

2438
08:18:27.279 --> 08:18:43.080
can repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in

2439
08:18:43.319 --> 08:18:51.240
comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body.

2440
08:18:57.240 --> 08:19:06.680
The same when I say eight, when I say seven, six,

2441
08:19:09.240 --> 08:19:23.520
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2442
08:19:27.919 --> 08:19:34.119
and lastly when I say one, you can repeat that number.

2443
08:19:41.599 --> 08:19:41.720
Now.

2444
08:19:41.840 --> 08:19:47.400
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2445
08:19:47.520 --> 08:19:52.520
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2446
08:19:54.159 --> 08:20:02.599
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2447
08:20:02.759 --> 08:20:08.560
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

2448
08:20:08.639 --> 08:20:14.479
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

2449
08:20:16.279 --> 08:20:18.799
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

2450
08:20:19.040 --> 08:20:23.000
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2451
08:20:23.240 --> 08:20:31.599
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

2452
08:20:31.680 --> 08:20:38.520
lot longer to get from ten all the way down

2453
08:20:39.119 --> 08:20:56.119
to one. That's your choice also to do. So I'm

2454
08:20:56.159 --> 08:21:04.599
going to count from ten down to one, and when

2455
08:21:04.680 --> 08:21:08.400
I get to one, they walk. At the end of

2456
08:21:08.560 --> 08:21:14.040
this recording, the less, of course, you're listening to music,

2457
08:21:15.240 --> 08:26:32.119
and the music will continue ten nine, five four, twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

2458
08:26:36.840 --> 08:27:22.040
twelve eleven, ten nine eight, seven, six, five, four three

2459
08:27:27.080 --> 08:27:50.680
two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically

2460
08:27:50.759 --> 08:27:59.759
feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress

2461
08:28:00.119 --> 08:28:05.360
tension to leave through your fingertips and your toes. And

2462
08:28:05.479 --> 08:28:10.080
as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel a

2463
08:28:10.119 --> 08:28:16.799
little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an understanding

2464
08:28:16.959 --> 08:28:22.040
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2465
08:28:28.520 --> 08:28:30.520
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2466
08:28:30.639 --> 08:28:37.840
one again. This time you're going to feel relief of

2467
08:28:38.040 --> 08:28:48.759
tension and stress. Any anxiety that you may have leaving

2468
08:28:50.959 --> 08:28:56.919
through your stomach. Just leaving through your stomach, almost as

2469
08:28:56.959 --> 08:29:03.639
if it's just releasing. The whole of your stomach will

2470
08:29:03.759 --> 08:29:08.240
naval to just above your chest or below your chest,

2471
08:29:08.400 --> 08:29:12.959
rather so surround in your belly button area, the whole area.

2472
08:29:15.040 --> 08:29:19.240
You can feel the tension of your body where there's

2473
08:29:19.360 --> 08:29:25.080
left just releasing from that area, and you may notice

2474
08:29:25.159 --> 08:29:30.159
that your stomach will become very relaxed. As I count

2475
08:29:30.240 --> 08:30:47.240
down from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2476
08:30:50.400 --> 08:31:00.479
five four read.

2477
08:31:04.680 --> 08:31:10.279
Two what.

2478
08:31:15.119 --> 08:31:17.360
And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

2479
08:31:17.880 --> 08:31:21.560
or you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2480
08:31:23.880 --> 08:31:28.959
Just notice how your stomach feels. Notice as your focus,

2481
08:31:29.240 --> 08:31:34.439
just do a little scan of your body. Just notice

2482
08:31:34.520 --> 08:31:47.560
how your body feels, focusing on your upper body, your back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2483
08:31:50.639 --> 08:31:57.520
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2484
08:32:00.080 --> 08:32:03.799
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2485
08:32:03.919 --> 08:32:10.279
reason listening to this according because you would like to

2486
08:32:11.959 --> 08:32:19.840
let go completely of everything and dread off into a

2487
08:32:20.000 --> 08:32:34.880
nice natural calm relaxing sleep. So now we're going to

2488
08:32:35.000 --> 08:32:44.520
focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you can

2489
08:32:44.639 --> 08:32:50.119
incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead

2490
08:32:50.200 --> 08:32:56.319
and your eyes, it's that whole area basically, almost as

2491
08:32:56.360 --> 08:32:59.119
if you were wearing a mask, you know, like a

2492
08:33:01.080 --> 08:33:06.479
I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or I'm

2493
08:33:06.560 --> 08:33:09.240
trying to fact zorro or something, you know, the kind

2494
08:33:09.279 --> 08:33:12.439
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

2495
08:33:12.479 --> 08:33:19.319
a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area because

2496
08:33:19.360 --> 08:33:22.639
that's the area that we're now going to release tension

2497
08:33:22.880 --> 08:33:28.400
and stress from your mind, from your brain, from your mind,

2498
08:33:28.520 --> 08:33:32.759
and any tension that you may have remaining in your face,

2499
08:33:33.799 --> 08:33:39.159
in your neck and your jaw, your eyes, your forehead,

2500
08:33:39.919 --> 08:33:46.240
or your scalp. So basically any tension within your head area,

2501
08:33:46.959 --> 08:33:54.040
including your mind and your brain, and that's going to

2502
08:33:54.080 --> 08:34:02.319
be released through your forehead and your eyes. If I

2503
08:34:02.439 --> 08:35:49.200
count down again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, one.

2504
08:35:57.279 --> 08:35:58.159
Ninety seen.

2505
08:36:00.279 --> 08:36:07.840
As you scan your face, draw your eyes, the cheap bones,

2506
08:36:08.080 --> 08:36:17.400
your ears, your forehead, your scalp, your neck, the back

2507
08:36:17.479 --> 08:36:20.479
of your neck, in the front of your neck, the

2508
08:36:20.759 --> 08:36:29.599
side of your neck, and your throat. Mm hmmm. Letice

2509
08:36:30.919 --> 08:36:40.119
being aware of the comfort increased, be in the relaxation,

2510
08:36:42.279 --> 08:36:47.159
not just in your head and neck and mind, also

2511
08:36:47.639 --> 08:36:57.159
the rest of your body. Just notice how loose and

2512
08:36:57.439 --> 08:37:03.799
calm you feel, and how easily it is to just

2513
08:37:04.040 --> 08:37:22.919
let go completely, Let go completely, how easily.

2514
08:37:30.639 --> 08:37:33.759
That's what I'm going to do now, is I wanted

2515
08:37:33.799 --> 08:37:41.520
to focus on the top of your head, and we're

2516
08:37:41.560 --> 08:37:42.599
going to allow.

2517
08:37:43.880 --> 08:37:52.279
Every last piece of tension or stress that might be

2518
08:37:52.599 --> 08:37:58.240
lingering or hiding in your body or mind or my head.

2519
08:37:59.520 --> 08:37:59.880
To just.

2520
08:38:01.720 --> 08:38:08.080
Be sucked out at the top of your head, released

2521
08:38:11.799 --> 08:38:19.000
into the air. Once sucked out into the clouds, imagine

2522
08:38:19.000 --> 08:38:24.360
a big cloud above your head, almost like a whirlpool,

2523
08:38:25.159 --> 08:38:27.959
and this can suck that tension.

2524
08:38:29.119 --> 08:38:30.840
How a the top of your head.

2525
08:38:32.919 --> 08:38:34.439
And just take it away.

2526
08:38:36.040 --> 08:38:36.639
The good.

2527
08:38:39.639 --> 08:38:43.759
You focus. Imagine an opening the top of your head

2528
08:38:45.119 --> 08:38:50.400
with that tension and stress and any remaining issues may

2529
08:38:50.439 --> 08:38:54.000
be worries or concerns that have no use to you.

2530
08:38:54.200 --> 08:38:57.959
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2531
08:38:58.040 --> 08:39:04.479
of your head. I've taken away. As I count down

2532
08:39:04.560 --> 08:40:45.000
again from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

2533
08:40:49.360 --> 08:41:27.720
five four two to wah, breathe. I'm noticing how you feel,

2534
08:41:34.240 --> 08:41:42.840
how relaxed and calm you physically and mentally feel right now,

2535
08:41:48.479 --> 08:41:58.279
how peace soul your mind feels. It feels so nice

2536
08:41:58.479 --> 08:42:05.000
to just let go, to give yourself some space to

2537
08:42:05.240 --> 08:42:16.599
breathe easily, to think calmly, and just to take a

2538
08:42:16.759 --> 08:42:24.240
break from all that pointless worry and concerns about things

2539
08:42:24.479 --> 08:42:33.720
that you don't need to think about right now, because

2540
08:42:35.360 --> 08:42:39.400
this is your time to let go. This is your

2541
08:42:39.599 --> 08:42:49.520
space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind,

2542
08:42:50.759 --> 08:43:01.319
relaxed in your body. They can feel so good, so nice.

2543
08:43:01.360 --> 08:43:01.840
To just.

2544
08:43:04.159 --> 08:43:11.279
Not have to do anything, to be able to really

2545
08:43:13.240 --> 08:43:23.000
enjoy that serenity that comes of letting go completely, that

2546
08:43:23.279 --> 08:43:25.319
peacefulness that comes with.

2547
08:43:32.040 --> 08:43:33.400
Being in this.

2548
08:43:35.200 --> 08:43:45.279
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2549
08:43:46.119 --> 08:43:57.240
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2550
08:43:57.520 --> 08:44:04.959
drift off into deep, healing natural sleep, then you can

2551
08:44:05.040 --> 08:44:11.000
do that. It's completely up.

2552
08:44:10.959 --> 08:44:11.240
To you.

2553
08:44:16.000 --> 08:44:20.720
And you can keep this feeling of calmness physically and

2554
08:44:20.799 --> 08:44:26.720
in your mind as long as you choose to feel

2555
08:44:26.959 --> 08:44:37.560
completely relaxed, completely relaxed.

2556
08:44:40.840 --> 08:44:46.439
And I'd like you to make up your mind that

2557
08:44:46.520 --> 08:44:56.639
you're going to relax, and I want.

2558
08:44:56.520 --> 08:44:59.919
To explore that with you. What it feels like when

2559
08:45:00.080 --> 08:45:09.279
you actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

2560
08:45:09.400 --> 08:45:15.560
but giving yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really,

2561
08:45:15.639 --> 08:45:22.560
isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

2562
08:45:22.680 --> 08:45:27.680
but firm way, that only you can really.

2563
08:45:29.080 --> 08:45:32.520
Tell yourself in that way. You can't really have someone

2564
08:45:32.560 --> 08:45:33.279
else saying.

2565
08:45:33.080 --> 08:45:39.200
To you, now it relax, relax, you know, and it

2566
08:45:39.279 --> 08:45:40.799
needs to be gentle, But you can't.

2567
08:45:40.919 --> 08:45:44.040
Someone else can't really have the same.

2568
08:45:47.240 --> 08:45:53.279
The same kind of influence or power that you have

2569
08:45:54.520 --> 08:46:06.360
over your own physicality, over how you feel, because when

2570
08:46:06.520 --> 08:46:13.200
you say it to yourself, it means more. It's personal,

2571
08:46:13.520 --> 08:46:19.159
and your brain and your unconscious mind and your body

2572
08:46:19.919 --> 08:46:26.119
listens to what you say. So, for example, we'll test

2573
08:46:26.159 --> 08:46:28.759
it out. We'll do a little test, a few little

2574
08:46:28.840 --> 08:46:32.560
tests along the way, and you can get more of

2575
08:46:32.680 --> 08:46:39.200
an idea of the force, the positive force that you

2576
08:46:39.360 --> 08:46:46.880
can have in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation

2577
08:46:47.159 --> 08:46:53.080
in your body and your mind quite quickly, just by

2578
08:46:53.279 --> 08:47:03.680
you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going to start

2579
08:47:03.799 --> 08:47:10.439
by it's focus on your hands. So focus on your

2580
08:47:10.479 --> 08:47:14.200
hands and just tell your hands to relax, and just

2581
08:47:14.279 --> 08:47:21.439
say relax. As you focus on your hands, you could

2582
08:47:21.680 --> 08:47:26.159
say my hands are relaxed, or I want my hands

2583
08:47:26.200 --> 08:47:30.840
to relax. I think if you actually do it directly

2584
08:47:33.759 --> 08:47:38.680
by focusing and imagining that your hands can hear what

2585
08:47:38.799 --> 08:47:42.040
you're saying. You know, they've got little ears, which is

2586
08:47:42.119 --> 08:47:47.880
a little weird. So talking to your hands and just

2587
08:47:48.000 --> 08:48:16.479
say relax. Noticing now your hands start to relax. Now

2588
08:48:16.599 --> 08:48:19.840
focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

2589
08:48:20.959 --> 08:48:25.680
You just say in the same word relax, and find

2590
08:48:25.759 --> 08:48:33.360
the right tone for you. You know, I might say relax,

2591
08:48:34.080 --> 08:48:42.159
but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

2592
08:48:42.479 --> 08:48:48.159
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

2593
08:48:49.040 --> 08:48:55.119
for you to gauge what feels right for you. To

2594
08:48:55.319 --> 08:49:00.479
just tell your eyes to relax whilst focused on your eyes,

2595
08:49:01.040 --> 08:49:05.720
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

2596
08:49:05.959 --> 08:49:12.200
just tell your eyes directly relax.

2597
08:49:14.080 --> 08:49:14.240
Now.

2598
08:49:41.040 --> 08:49:51.880
Now I just did that, myself, and sometimes you may feel.

2599
08:49:51.680 --> 08:49:53.639
That you need a bit more time.

2600
08:49:55.560 --> 08:49:58.959
For the different parts to relax, you know, because I

2601
08:49:59.040 --> 08:50:03.959
start talking again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully.

2602
08:50:04.919 --> 08:50:07.080
But what happened is that it would just continue to

2603
08:50:07.200 --> 08:50:11.919
relax even though I'm talking. And that's happened with my eyes.

2604
08:50:14.880 --> 08:50:19.479
Something else I noticed is when I started focusing on

2605
08:50:19.560 --> 08:50:23.119
my eyes, that actually almost became They got.

2606
08:50:23.040 --> 08:50:24.840
Worse before they got better in a way.

2607
08:50:25.520 --> 08:50:28.639
So I felt a degree of tension growing in my

2608
08:50:28.759 --> 08:50:34.680
eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that was

2609
08:50:34.799 --> 08:50:39.959
really was just me becoming more aware of the tension

2610
08:50:41.119 --> 08:50:45.360
that was already there that I wasn't. I wasn't focused

2611
08:50:45.400 --> 08:50:50.479
on it before, so I wasn't really acknowledging it or

2612
08:50:52.840 --> 08:51:07.520
really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still

2613
08:51:07.599 --> 08:51:14.279
continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually, my

2614
08:51:14.400 --> 08:51:20.599
hands have got a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing,

2615
08:51:20.840 --> 08:51:25.680
but I can kind of fewer a degree of energy

2616
08:51:25.759 --> 08:51:31.959
in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension is being released.

2617
08:51:33.840 --> 08:51:34.799
Maybe that's the cause.

2618
08:51:34.840 --> 08:51:35.080
In that.

2619
08:51:42.439 --> 08:51:44.520
The next part, I think we should focus on.

2620
08:51:44.560 --> 08:51:45.360
The back of the neck.

2621
08:51:46.080 --> 08:51:51.240
That's a part which quite often or for me, holds tension.

2622
08:51:51.279 --> 08:51:54.080
I don't know about for yourself, but I think it's

2623
08:51:54.200 --> 08:52:00.520
quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So

2624
08:52:02.639 --> 08:52:05.759
and I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do

2625
08:52:05.880 --> 08:52:09.439
it as well, so I'm telling my body parts to

2626
08:52:09.599 --> 08:52:10.439
relax as well.

2627
08:52:11.200 --> 08:52:12.639
So if you tell your neck at.

2628
08:52:12.560 --> 08:52:15.080
The back of your neck, focus on the back of

2629
08:52:15.119 --> 08:52:22.159
your neck, and just say relax in your own words,

2630
08:52:22.319 --> 08:52:25.439
in your own tone, in your own voice. You can

2631
08:52:25.520 --> 08:52:27.400
say out loud, or you can just say it to

2632
08:52:27.439 --> 08:52:33.680
yourself internally. But you're focusing, and you're saying it literally

2633
08:52:34.080 --> 08:52:35.439
to the back of.

2634
08:52:35.479 --> 08:52:38.400
Your neck, as if the back of your neck can

2635
08:52:38.479 --> 08:52:45.159
actually hear what you're saying. So do that now, Just

2636
08:52:45.279 --> 08:52:49.639
say relax to the back of your neck, and I'll

2637
08:52:49.720 --> 08:52:50.240
do the same.

2638
08:53:29.040 --> 08:53:32.560
And what I noticed, and you may have had similar

2639
08:53:32.639 --> 08:53:37.119
thing is even though I was focusing on the back

2640
08:53:37.200 --> 08:53:48.119
of my neck, other parts started to I don't know,

2641
08:53:48.439 --> 08:53:51.840
showed themselves to me, or maybe because they want to

2642
08:53:51.880 --> 08:53:55.759
be relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings

2643
08:53:55.799 --> 08:53:59.200
in my shoulders, attention in my shoulders and in my

2644
08:53:59.360 --> 08:54:06.560
upper back. Whether that was because my back of my

2645
08:54:06.720 --> 08:54:12.200
neck was saying, well, I'm pretty much okay, it's the

2646
08:54:12.319 --> 08:54:21.840
other parts that need attention. But my lobe, my back

2647
08:54:21.880 --> 08:54:25.680
of my neck is still relaxing, but I just became

2648
08:54:25.759 --> 08:54:32.080
more aware of other parts that needed attention. Now, this

2649
08:54:32.319 --> 08:54:37.200
might happen, and it's not. It doesn't mean that it's

2650
08:54:37.240 --> 08:54:41.599
going any wrong. It just means you're being notified of

2651
08:54:42.560 --> 08:54:46.479
more places that also want to feel relaxed.

2652
08:54:49.759 --> 08:54:52.720
So I'm going to focus on my upper back.

2653
08:54:54.040 --> 08:54:57.759
So you can do the same, even if you don't

2654
08:54:57.880 --> 08:55:03.439
have any feelings of tension that obvious in your upper back,

2655
08:55:05.200 --> 08:55:09.840
if you just focus on your back and the whole

2656
08:55:09.959 --> 08:55:14.720
area from the shoulder blades down to the middle of

2657
08:55:14.799 --> 08:55:19.119
your back and the spine. And with me, it's more

2658
08:55:19.200 --> 08:55:26.759
the shoulder blades that are more Yeah, that's the parts

2659
08:55:26.840 --> 08:55:35.119
that I really sort of giving me the nod that

2660
08:55:35.240 --> 08:55:37.240
it needs to relax in the sounds.

2661
08:55:36.919 --> 08:55:40.319
To ask that part to relax. And you can do

2662
08:55:40.439 --> 08:55:40.759
the same.

2663
08:55:40.840 --> 08:56:08.159
Now, relax your upper back. Something strange happened there, and

2664
08:56:08.319 --> 08:56:10.720
this often happens.

2665
08:56:10.799 --> 08:56:11.479
I've been doing this.

2666
08:56:11.599 --> 08:56:20.439
For sixteen years or something, and often no one'm surprised

2667
08:56:21.319 --> 08:56:28.119
but amazed. Really bad, there can be a feeling. So

2668
08:56:28.319 --> 08:56:30.880
when I was focusing on the back of my neck

2669
08:56:31.759 --> 08:56:35.880
my upper back was starting to feel quite stressed and

2670
08:56:36.639 --> 08:56:37.919
in need of attention.

2671
08:56:40.319 --> 08:56:42.639
As soon as I started talking to you.

2672
08:56:42.880 --> 08:56:48.040
About my upper back and talking about, you know, getting

2673
08:56:48.119 --> 08:56:52.880
ready to ask the upper back to relax, why the

2674
08:56:52.959 --> 08:56:58.560
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

2675
08:56:58.720 --> 08:57:08.959
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

2676
08:57:09.159 --> 08:57:20.959
needs to be noticed. And that is something that often

2677
08:57:21.159 --> 08:57:28.119
happens in this type of situation. Is when you start

2678
08:57:29.200 --> 08:57:34.200
to relax a couple of parts of your body, as

2679
08:57:34.279 --> 08:57:40.720
we've done with our hands, the eyes and eyelids, and.

2680
08:57:40.919 --> 08:57:49.720
Now back of the neck, top of the bag, up.

2681
08:57:49.720 --> 08:57:53.119
The back, the rest of the body seems to just

2682
08:57:54.520 --> 08:58:04.360
take notice and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

2683
08:58:06.200 --> 08:58:11.599
Other parts of your body start to just become looser.

2684
08:58:16.360 --> 08:58:19.159
I suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

2685
08:58:19.319 --> 08:58:24.080
you know, the little ball starts rolling and before you

2686
08:58:24.200 --> 08:58:27.200
know it, the whole of your body is completely relaxed

2687
08:58:27.240 --> 08:58:43.919
and can't And if you focus on your face, you

2688
08:58:44.080 --> 08:58:51.639
focus on your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the

2689
08:58:51.799 --> 08:59:00.159
muscles around your eyes, maybe you start to make is

2690
08:59:00.319 --> 08:59:07.000
that your forehead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe

2691
08:59:07.040 --> 08:59:12.680
your face is more relaxed. I would say my entire

2692
08:59:12.799 --> 08:59:27.599
face is a lot more relaxed than it was. So

2693
08:59:27.720 --> 08:59:33.680
we're going to focus now on your shoulders again, just

2694
08:59:33.840 --> 08:59:38.599
like before. Just to your shoulders. I mean you can

2695
08:59:38.759 --> 08:59:40.759
do them in the digitally. You can do the right

2696
08:59:40.840 --> 08:59:45.000
shoulder and left shoulder. I just gen do both at

2697
08:59:45.040 --> 08:59:50.479
the same time. Just tell your shoulders as you focus

2698
08:59:50.599 --> 08:59:54.479
on them in your mind, focus on them and feel

2699
08:59:55.200 --> 09:00:03.159
maybe you can see them in your mind's eye. Just

2700
09:00:03.319 --> 09:00:04.799
tell your shoulders.

2701
09:00:08.040 --> 09:00:59.520
To relax as nice as they relax. I do you notice.

2702
09:01:01.200 --> 09:01:07.959
I mean, especially with my back, is the connection between

2703
09:01:08.159 --> 09:01:18.799
the different parts the back, the shoulders, the neck being

2704
09:01:18.880 --> 09:01:23.560
all connected and being such a large part of your body,

2705
09:01:26.560 --> 09:01:27.479
it's almost.

2706
09:01:27.240 --> 09:01:35.520
Hard to separate them from each other. And my lower

2707
09:01:35.639 --> 09:01:44.360
back has started to relax on the same Maybe I'm

2708
09:01:44.400 --> 09:01:50.279
going too slow and that could be an issue because

2709
09:01:50.680 --> 09:01:56.840
we all go at different speeds. And the idea at

2710
09:01:56.840 --> 09:01:59.479
the beginning of this recording was for you to be

2711
09:01:59.560 --> 09:02:15.200
able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing on.

2712
09:02:15.400 --> 09:02:20.959
Any particular part of your body. Because when you know

2713
09:02:21.200 --> 09:02:31.759
that telling your hands to relax and your hand relax,

2714
09:02:34.319 --> 09:02:41.000
you tell your eyelids and your eyes, the muscles around

2715
09:02:41.119 --> 09:02:50.560
your eyes, and your eyebrows to relax, that they relax.

2716
09:02:56.319 --> 09:03:07.400
You tell the back of your neck to relax, and

2717
09:03:07.959 --> 09:03:36.599
it relaxes, until you're offer back to relax and it relaxes.

2718
09:03:44.279 --> 09:04:23.200
He'd tell your shoulders to relax, and they relax. And

2719
09:04:23.439 --> 09:04:27.319
you told your hands to relax. They relaxed, and.

2720
09:04:27.400 --> 09:04:29.040
They continued.

2721
09:04:30.159 --> 09:04:41.639
To relax. And you told your eyelids, the muscles around

2722
09:04:41.680 --> 09:04:53.639
your eyes, your eyebrows to relax. They relaxed, they continued.

2723
09:04:54.520 --> 09:04:55.080
To relax.

2724
09:05:01.479 --> 09:05:05.000
And you told the back of your neck, got this

2725
09:05:05.119 --> 09:05:10.599
on the back of your neck and told it to

2726
09:05:10.759 --> 09:05:30.520
relax and relaxed and continued to relax. And you told

2727
09:05:30.639 --> 09:05:43.520
your alca back to relax and relaxed and continued to relax.

2728
09:05:51.880 --> 09:05:57.439
That's with your shoulders. He told your shoulders to relax,

2729
09:05:57.759 --> 09:06:10.080
and your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

2730
09:06:15.760 --> 09:06:20.680
And it's not just that, it's.

2731
09:06:23.360 --> 09:06:27.800
That the rest of your body has also been listening,

2732
09:06:29.480 --> 09:06:35.599
and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

2733
09:06:35.919 --> 09:06:43.319
the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face, into

2734
09:06:43.440 --> 09:06:57.319
your skin, into your jaw, into the front and sides

2735
09:06:57.400 --> 09:07:08.959
of your neck, or down your chest and stomach, your

2736
09:07:09.040 --> 09:07:11.800
relaxed hands and shoulders.

2737
09:07:13.239 --> 09:07:22.160
Met up through your arms, relaxing and full arms, your upper.

2738
09:07:22.120 --> 09:07:37.360
Arms, elbows, your wrists, letting go out your lower bag,

2739
09:07:40.680 --> 09:07:47.160
your hips, but exploiting, and you just start to relax

2740
09:07:47.360 --> 09:08:00.519
and continue even the comfort spreading through your legs all

2741
09:08:00.599 --> 09:08:09.639
the way down to your ankles, the tops of your feet,

2742
09:08:10.760 --> 09:08:11.879
the side.

2743
09:08:11.680 --> 09:08:20.319
Of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet, relaxing

2744
09:08:24.000 --> 09:08:31.400
into your toes, each toe relaxing.

2745
09:08:34.720 --> 09:08:54.919
Because please. And if your body relaxes more, your mind

2746
09:08:56.559 --> 09:09:18.400
becomes slower or peaceful, to the point where.

2747
09:09:20.279 --> 09:09:32.839
If you choose to fall asleep, it can easily do that.

2748
09:09:38.519 --> 09:09:48.519
Easy drift the way because there's nothing going on in

2749
09:09:48.639 --> 09:10:09.559
your mind, the brains peaceful, your body continues to relate.

2750
09:10:33.400 --> 09:10:39.440
And with that connection between your body relaxing, the word

2751
09:10:41.120 --> 09:10:53.680
you say to yourself relates means that you don't need

2752
09:10:55.160 --> 09:11:00.559
to focus on just one part. You can just focus

2753
09:11:00.720 --> 09:11:27.519
on your entire body saying the powerful word wakes, and

2754
09:11:27.720 --> 09:11:42.239
there's a those the miniar sensations of comfort spreading throughout

2755
09:11:42.599 --> 09:11:58.720
your body, loosening and calming, and the healing every part

2756
09:11:59.160 --> 09:12:09.199
of your body feeding wlased.

2757
09:12:24.360 --> 09:12:30.639
A need to do now is just tell your something.

2758
09:12:34.199 --> 09:12:48.599
Rice absurd, feeding completely.

2759
09:12:49.599 --> 09:13:10.760
Out starting now the number twenty.

2760
09:13:17.839 --> 09:13:54.160
Nineteen eighteen seventeen sixteen.

2761
09:14:10.279 --> 09:15:39.480
Fourt you well.

2762
09:20:02.000 --> 09:27:04.919
Us why attatatatatatatatatatatatatatto So.

2763
09:27:13.360 --> 09:27:24.639
Counting down from ten to one, ten nine, eight, seven

2764
09:27:26.760 --> 09:27:49.360
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

2765
09:27:49.400 --> 09:27:53.599
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

2766
09:27:53.599 --> 09:27:59.519
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

2767
09:27:59.720 --> 09:28:06.599
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

2768
09:28:06.800 --> 09:28:10.080
Like you're count it down from ten to one. What

2769
09:28:10.199 --> 09:28:13.440
do you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

2770
09:28:13.480 --> 09:28:17.440
stick go all with floppy just because you're counting down.

2771
09:28:23.160 --> 09:28:26.559
You try it again, but this time I'll go this

2772
09:28:26.760 --> 09:28:34.199
slower this time, and you focus on behold of your

2773
09:28:34.279 --> 09:28:42.599
body before we focus on your legs. Just notice how

2774
09:28:42.720 --> 09:28:56.839
your body does start to feel more relaxed with every

2775
09:28:56.959 --> 09:29:30.040
number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six

2776
09:29:38.480 --> 09:29:49.680
five four.

2777
09:29:56.919 --> 09:30:22.360
Three hmm.

2778
09:30:31.720 --> 09:30:48.360
You are you Just notice how how you feel generally,

2779
09:30:48.800 --> 09:31:03.080
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

2780
09:31:03.199 --> 09:31:10.360
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

2781
09:31:11.680 --> 09:31:30.120
that or space between being active physically or mentally, just

2782
09:31:34.879 --> 09:31:40.040
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

2783
09:31:40.239 --> 09:31:44.959
not saying anything, not in deed, and to think about anything.

2784
09:31:46.800 --> 09:31:50.480
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

2785
09:31:50.559 --> 09:32:01.319
of a space, the gap. And the more I count

2786
09:32:01.440 --> 09:32:05.959
down for the tents to work, the bigger that gap becomes.

2787
09:32:09.000 --> 09:32:15.400
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort and relaxation.

2788
09:32:21.319 --> 09:32:33.639
It's a nice feeling. And it moves those stresses or

2789
09:32:34.199 --> 09:32:48.120
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

2790
09:32:50.760 --> 09:32:51.279
To just.

2791
09:32:54.279 --> 09:33:00.720
Slow down something to count again and ten down to

2792
09:33:00.839 --> 09:33:10.800
one and notice that gap widening, the gap, and this

2793
09:33:10.959 --> 09:33:17.440
it widens. It's almost like that the stress and tension falls.

2794
09:33:17.319 --> 09:33:18.080
Into the gap.

2795
09:33:31.599 --> 09:33:43.599
It gives you that distance, that space. Now ten.

2796
09:33:47.919 --> 09:34:27.919
Nine eight, seven, six, five.

2797
09:34:38.800 --> 09:34:57.879
Four three.

2798
09:35:32.639 --> 09:36:03.919
One. How did you what do you do? Can you

2799
09:36:04.080 --> 09:36:19.839
notice that? Do you feeling calm? Do you feel more relaxed?

2800
09:36:42.360 --> 09:37:03.040
As we now focus on alcs, just alix. You're just

2801
09:37:03.160 --> 09:37:22.879
going to start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

2802
09:37:23.000 --> 09:37:27.879
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

2803
09:37:31.319 --> 09:37:34.120
I'm sure like most of your body is not I'm

2804
09:37:34.160 --> 09:37:46.120
not going on the way now, just focusing on the

2805
09:37:46.239 --> 09:37:52.279
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

2806
09:37:52.599 --> 09:37:59.120
side of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, the

2807
09:37:59.360 --> 09:38:05.199
outer thigh in the thighs, basically the hole your fire

2808
09:38:05.279 --> 09:38:06.160
that leads.

2809
09:38:06.959 --> 09:38:08.040
Into your head.

2810
09:38:11.879 --> 09:38:14.599
And it goes down to your.

2811
09:38:16.519 --> 09:38:17.160
Knee joint.

2812
09:38:22.360 --> 09:38:23.680
Now this is a big area.

2813
09:38:28.160 --> 09:38:28.839
It's a very.

2814
09:38:28.879 --> 09:38:35.639
Heavy area based strong probably the strongest muscles in your

2815
09:38:35.720 --> 09:38:37.680
body and in your thighs.

2816
09:38:47.839 --> 09:38:48.760
But I don't think we.

2817
09:38:50.519 --> 09:39:03.440
Perhaps give enough attention to A five. Perhaps we think

2818
09:39:04.839 --> 09:39:10.080
they could knowledge how important outhis are.

2819
09:39:13.040 --> 09:39:29.839
To our lives, how much they actually do to us

2820
09:39:33.720 --> 09:39:44.400
water our lives, and man, may seems that really weird.

2821
09:39:47.480 --> 09:39:53.599
I think that all of our body parts, especially our eyes,

2822
09:39:54.599 --> 09:40:02.160
needs some TLC. But they've shame a bit of a.

2823
09:40:08.919 --> 09:40:12.599
Nice thank you.

2824
09:40:15.680 --> 09:40:20.959
Gratitude for what advice.

2825
09:40:20.639 --> 09:40:21.199
Do for us.

2826
09:40:27.839 --> 09:40:31.279
I don't know. This may sound this strange.

2827
09:40:33.000 --> 09:40:34.720
And make you think why am I?

2828
09:40:35.519 --> 09:40:38.680
Surely I should be in the garden hugging a tree

2829
09:40:38.839 --> 09:40:47.239
or something. M h, it's hard to set my crophone.

2830
09:40:46.879 --> 09:40:49.120
Up on a tree. That's what I do.

2831
09:40:49.400 --> 09:40:51.599
Seem toughs up was a would be upside.

2832
09:40:51.239 --> 09:40:54.319
Of hugging a tree And I can't see it. Turn

2833
09:40:54.519 --> 09:40:55.080
in the tree.

2834
09:41:01.959 --> 09:41:07.360
You move down to your knees, getting such an important part,

2835
09:41:11.599 --> 09:41:15.879
And I think we don't necessarily I want to speak

2836
09:41:15.959 --> 09:41:23.239
for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

2837
09:41:23.440 --> 09:41:28.599
means do for me until I have a problem with

2838
09:41:28.720 --> 09:41:33.839
my need occasion need I work. I not bash it

2839
09:41:34.040 --> 09:41:40.760
while it's aching for some reason. Then that I realize

2840
09:41:41.919 --> 09:41:46.279
how much it does have an I've been able to

2841
09:41:47.239 --> 09:41:54.760
use my legs without in the kind of physically discontent

2842
09:41:56.400 --> 09:42:03.440
is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

2843
09:42:04.080 --> 09:42:16.919
temporarily removed. That's comfort Down't you focus on needs regardless

2844
09:42:16.959 --> 09:42:22.480
of how your needs feel. We can have best sense

2845
09:42:22.599 --> 09:42:25.599
of conatitude.

2846
09:42:26.360 --> 09:42:28.919
And love to your needs they be.

2847
09:42:39.959 --> 09:42:40.959
You can still have that.

2848
09:42:41.080 --> 09:42:48.279
Attention and advise and notice how your buyers feel. They

2849
09:42:49.160 --> 09:43:06.720
notice that they are relaxing more deeply if you focus

2850
09:43:06.919 --> 09:43:12.639
now on the bottoms of the makes sis and the

2851
09:43:12.720 --> 09:43:19.000
card bottles of the piles between means and.

2852
09:43:19.239 --> 09:43:21.800
Fat were called ways.

2853
09:43:21.919 --> 09:43:22.720
Of course, your.

2854
09:43:22.760 --> 09:43:37.160
Ankles so important, and anyone's head, even like the slightest spray.

2855
09:43:36.839 --> 09:43:39.480
Of an enco is now.

2856
09:43:41.120 --> 09:43:51.400
How much we take now incurs the crint. And it's

2857
09:43:51.519 --> 09:43:57.199
kind of strange in a way when you think that, Yeah, logically,

2858
09:43:57.519 --> 09:44:01.160
are lists a lot of dinner. The rest of their arms,

2859
09:44:02.360 --> 09:44:06.040
which is okay, it doesn't don't see any cooking with that.

2860
09:44:07.440 --> 09:44:09.000
You just picking stuff up.

2861
09:44:10.879 --> 09:44:16.680
Locals so much dinner and the rest of our legs.

2862
09:44:23.120 --> 09:44:24.279
And for me a ps its.

2863
09:44:24.160 --> 09:44:26.879
Perspective we logical with.

2864
09:44:27.000 --> 09:44:28.839
It doesn't really make sense.

2865
09:44:30.080 --> 09:44:31.160
All this weight.

2866
09:44:32.599 --> 09:44:39.760
Would ultimately be resting with ankles then even to your

2867
09:44:39.839 --> 09:44:46.800
death in area.

2868
09:44:47.720 --> 09:44:54.480
In by Yeah, it does so much great work.

2869
09:44:56.400 --> 09:45:07.680
Supports us words, our body not dons to balance.

2870
09:45:09.680 --> 09:45:10.040
What you.

2871
09:45:14.319 --> 09:45:14.360
Do.

2872
09:45:14.519 --> 09:45:34.000
You can do what you feeling nothing to do.

2873
09:45:44.239 --> 09:45:59.879
Yeah. H