Aug. 28, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Goodbye Uncle Sausages | LMBYTS #1424 | Jason Newland | 28th August 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Goodbye Uncle Sausages | LMBYTS #1424 | Jason Newland | 28th August 2025
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Hello, Hello, it's me again. It's me again. Hello. Hello. Yes,

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ities that was the worst jingle. Yeah, it didn't rhyme.

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It sounded awful. Well. Actually, personally I thought this sounded

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quite nice, melodic but not harmonic. I don't know what

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that means. So hello, hello, hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland

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dot com. My name is Jason A new Land. Please

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only listen, do mirice, it's my cardigan. Only listen when

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you can safely close your eyes. A couple of quick

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shout outs, one to kill Cleo. You sent me a

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message via my website, I think, and somehow the message

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has gone missing, and it was to do with I

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think you're from China and you're telling me that it's

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something that I read it, and I was half asleep

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when I read it. I think I was in bed

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and I read it, and I thought i'll read that

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properly later, because sometimes I've read a message and I

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don't get huge amounts of messages. Although you can send

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me a personal message via my website if you want,

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or on Facebook or whatever, mind it's not a good

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advert because I might lose the message. But on this

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occasion I lost a message, so I didn't get a

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chance to reply, So I apologize to that apologize. I'm

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apologizing to you. I apologize, and who I don't know

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what else I was going to say. Well, I'll start off,

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I went to an uncle auntie uncle sausages, fair well

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ceremony today. And don't worry, I'm not going to be

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morbid or anything like that. I'm not going to go

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through that stuff. But it was kind of weird, you know,

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had to be done. It's a standard procedure in our

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society here. And then I did do a little video

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in a cemetery outside because I got there quite earlier.

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I got there. I ordered a taxi yesterday for eight

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point thirty this morning, because whether I was going to say,

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this show started at nine point thirty, not the show,

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but the ceremony started at nine point thirty. It's only

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for fifteen minutes, if that ten minutes, fifteen minutes. I

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think he's eating one of his treats. He's right off

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his food at the moment. But I think that's because

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I keep giving him treats. So it's kind of my

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own fault. But hey, I just sometimes think that he

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deserves treats, you know, I want him to be happy,

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and I want him to, you know, do things he

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enjoys doing, and he enjoys chomping on his treats to

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get a lot of pleasure from that. Now, I'm not

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giving him just treats and no food. You know, if

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he doesn't eat his food, then I won't give him

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any treats until he starts eating his food again. But

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he's been off his food for a day or so.

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But I have been given some of my food, which

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is just as good as the food he eats. So

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technically he's not really not been eating. And he's only

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a tiny little thing. He's the size of a parrot.

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He's not the size of a parrot. In fact, parrot's

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probably bigger than him. Parrots are big and the big

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old things, right right, that's my impression of a parrot.

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I didn't put a lot of effort into that. I'll

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admit what it would sound like if I actually did

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put some effort in right, Okay, right, right, No, that

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wasn't any better. So, yeah, So I ordered a taxi.

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This is a secret, a secret. This is it's kind

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of something I discovered about myself more recently. If I

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order a taxi, the day before. It gets me out

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of bed kind of forces me to get out of

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bed because if a taxi turns up, I'm going to

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have to pay with it. Then they take me where

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I'm going or not. So it's just if I'm lying

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in bed, which I do sometimes, that's probably the best

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place to lie, isn't it. Or lay? What's the difference

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between lying and laying because lying can also be telling

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fips on it. Laying so getting getting lied to? So

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getting lied that's being yeah, someone lying to you. But

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there's no you don't get laid A wait a minute,

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get okay. But anyway, I was once something in the morning.

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If I not have to be somewhere, it doesn't matter

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what it is, where it is, what it's for. For

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some reason, I I struggle a little bit getting out

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of bed, which is part of the reason why I

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really really try not to make appointments, including just meeting

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up with people, because once I make an appointment, I start,

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for some reason, to be a bit fretty about it,

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be to just start thinking about it, and I don't

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want to that's my own issue. And of course you

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know that I was that I didn't want to go

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to this thing. I don't like them or know what

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it likes them. Today, No one like wakes up or

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a looked at the weekend of their diary and thinks, oh,

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what have I got any of them things this month?

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Oh yeah, I've got one, got one in two weeks.

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Yeah.

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No, you know, the goodbye ceremonies are not something that

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anyone wants to really go to, but it's it's important.

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I guess I think it's fairly important. So anyway, I

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got up, got up this morning. I set my alarm

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for six o'clock. I went to bed about nine o'clock.

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So I wanted to make sure that I was. You know,

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normally I don't sleep for like twelve thirteen hours, but

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this would have been one of the nights where I

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probably would, you know, I'd wake up at half ten

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in the morning and feel so refreshed, but then also think, oh, no,

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I've missed. I've missed this event, which is important. So

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I wasn't going to allow that to happen. So I

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set my alarm on my phone. I don't have a clock.

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I don't have one clock. I don't have a watch

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that I wear. I do have two watches that I

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don't wear, but there were gifts, so I've kept them.

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I don't ever, I don't have. I don't have a

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clock on the wall. I don't have. I think he

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made a bit more noise. Please thanks. I don't have

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a digital clock, you know, like in the old days.

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I don't know if they still make them. I sid

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one of them. I tell you how. This is how

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old I am, all right. I had a digital clock

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that had pieces of card that used to flip over.

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No lights or maybe a background light, but a little

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piece of card that flipped over to change the time

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from like two fifty nine till three. It's weird, I'm

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explaining it, but just like on a spiral, I guess.

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And yeah, that's going back a few years. I can't

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I'm trying to think when was the last time I

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had an alarm like a digital clock. So I quite

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liked the radio ones, so the ones that had a

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radio one, and I definitely had one when I was

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a kid, when I was fourteen fifteen, that's for definite.

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I probably had one earlier than that as well, but

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I definitely had one then because I used to have

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paper rounds and I also worked in a bakery sort.

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I've had early starts. There's no way to got up

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without that, without the alarm. And I remember, actually this

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was or even going to school, to be fair, even

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without the alarm, without even if I didn't have to

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get up early and just gap at normal time, let's

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say seven or seven thirty or whatever, to get to

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be at school for court to nine, I would still

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need my alarm. You know. When I when I was

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very little, i'd just get woken up. But this was

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the point where I just kind of got up on

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my own. There comes a time in every teenager's life

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when they don't want anyone walking in the first thing

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in the morning. It's yeah, no one likes being called

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tent boy, do they, especially by the parents. So anyway,

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I went to went to and oh, I remember once right,

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I woke up to this song. This was when I

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was at school, probably about eighty three, nineteen eighty three

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or nineteen eighty four, one of them, but I'd say

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probably about nineteen eighty four, maybe eighty five, but I'm

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going to say eighty four as a guess. Everything's a guess, really,

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especially when it comes to memory. Men. And I woke

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up to this song that blew me away, like because

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it would be a radio station on. I don't know

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what it was. It was Radio one or who knows,

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so I can't remember, maybe just the local radio station.

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But I woke up to this song, and for some reason,

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for about a week, the same song was being played

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every time I woke up, a bit like Groundhog Day,

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which in some ways my whole was you could say

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my whole life is in it in some ways. But

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at school it did seem a little bit like that.

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Every day was like the same getting up the blahber,

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doing this, doing that, same kind of routine. But it

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was the same song. I didn't think that it was

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the same day, you know. I didn't like, oh no,

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I'm stuck in a time loop or I didn't have

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that issue. I wasn't worried about that. But I fell

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in love with this song and the song was dead

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ringer for love, meet Loaf and share since I worry

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about my joy?

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Do do do do Do Do Do Do Do Do

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Do Do do do baby baby er do do do

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you know what?

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I never ever, I've never got done for copywriting, like

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for having a copyright music in any of these recordings,

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like when it's on YouTube, which means that none of

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my songs that I do ever sound anything even similar

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to the original song. I could look, I could sing

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you the whole a whole song, Buddy Holly song that

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I'm memorized. I don't know why I just did. It's

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a new thing I've been doing, and no one didn't

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know what I was like, Ah, it's nice. What was it? Well,

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they might not say that was nice, but I imagine

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people are saying nice things. If you've got to imagine

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people are saying things, you might as well why not

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imagine them saying nice things. You know, it's the same things.

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Like if I'm going to imagine people talking about me,

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then let them say nice things about me. It's a

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different way to look at things. People are planning. Maybe

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they're planning to give me a surprise birthday party. Yeah, anyway,

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dead Ring for Love. I just couldn't get enough of it.

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I had not seen the video at this point, so

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this was like, Okay, I say all week, this was

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the Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday morning. I'm partially making this

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up as I always do, but you know, it was

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like the first four days of the week at school,

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Thursday evening we had Top of the Pops, which was

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on I do believe seven thirty seven or seven thirty

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and that was the one time of the week. It

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was one of the most important programs for you know,

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young people or anyone that liked music. Really, I mean

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I watched Top of the Pops from being a little

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kid all the way till when they stopped showing it.

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You know, I was because it was a good opportunity

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to see who was in the charts, what was relevant,

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what people were listening to, up to date music, which

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is a phrase I don't before I'd say out loud,

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I'm way out of I'm out of it completely now

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when it comes to music. The thing is, I liked

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music in the two thousand's twenty tens, just you know,

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I liked a lot of new music that was out

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sort of ten years before I moved here. I was

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watching video channels of music, and I was up to

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date with all of the latest music. It didn't stop

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me still loving the music that I loved before. It didn't.

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You know, I didn't like one new song I loved,

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didn't knock out another song from the past. It didn't

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erase that song you know. But more recent years, i've

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kind of, yeah, I have tried. I'm going to try again.

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I think it's easier with the videos than it is

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listening by hearing a song for the first time. I

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think it's more interesting to see the video because there's

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more going on. I think I know what I'm talking about.

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I think, yeah, I think it is. It just makes

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a bit more. But then there's that repetition, the repetition

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of hearing the same song over and over again, like

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on a radio. I remember, I don't know if I

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was listen did I hear this on the radio or

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I don't know, but it was I didn't like it,

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and it was Beyonce Drunken Love and I heard that,

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and I'm thinking, if I heard that on the radio,

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how did I hear it on the radio? Because I

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don't even listen to the radio, so I can't remember,

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you know, because a few years ago, unless it was

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just a music video thing that I was watching a

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music video channel and I genuinely thought it was the

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biggest pile. I just didn't The video is good, but

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I did not like the song. I thought, this is

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not even cohesive, it's all off killer it's this, it's

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not it's not a song, it's not melodic. It's really

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just like what was going on here? And then after

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hearing it a few times, I really liked it.

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Urban missings and and then missing.

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I mean, I do I've mentioned this before, but Beyonce,

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I mean, she is what a phenomenal voice. I think

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the thing is with her is she could have just

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as easily gone on and done kind of the same

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type of music or the same kind of I don't

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know what the correct term is, but it's like Mariah

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Carey or Whitney Houston or Celine Dion or that kind

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of like Balladish because of her voice, how good her

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voice is, And she would have been successful whatever she did.

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I think she'd have been successful because she's got such

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a great voice. But she chose to go in a

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completely different way. And I mean, as far as I

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don't know, she writes all the songs or she co

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writes her songs, but yeah, she's so many This wasn't

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supposed to be about Beyonce, But.

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What's that God I do with her?

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Uncle Banana's not uncle bananas, uncle sausages. Sorry, that's what

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one of the neighbors called him uncle Bananas banana man,

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which one of the neighbors kids saw him on that

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day before he went into hospital, and she started calling

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a banana man from then on. But you know, she's

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like nine years old, so I can't. It's this. Kids

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are innocent and they kind of, you know, in that way.

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She didn't. She just found it funny that he was.

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Not funny that he was because no one knew he

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was little bit because he was a different color. He

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was yellow, and she thought it was like he'd been

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eating too many bananas or something like that. Anyway, it

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was a lovely picture of him, uh in thing today

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and he had this is holding umbrella. And it's really

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weird because you know, when you meet someone when they're

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is it okay to say elderly someone when they're seventy eight,

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Sebastian calls me elderly. Ten years ago he was calleding

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me elderly. But if you don't know Sebastian is he's

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my arch enemy. He's listening to this right now that

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this will make him smile. Blimey, finny. That was really loud.

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Even I heard it. Even Uncle Sausages heard it. Let's

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stop it. And so yeah, I was, you know, it's loud.

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Wow, that that is really really noisy, was I saying, Beyonce.

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It was weird because she's so glamorous. She did an

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award show and I think she was singing on an

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award show, a big spectacular maybe it was the Oscars

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or one of those kind of places, and she's stared

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with this stunning dress. Not that I really appreciate stunning dresses,

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but it was even I could see it was. It

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was clearly a lot of work put into getting dressed up,

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playing dress up. So she looked probably like a billion

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dollars because she is a billion dollar are and she

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but she yeah, she looked. Imagine she took hours and

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hours and hours and hours and hours getting ready for thatformance.

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Just with the clothes. He probably took a whole team

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of people to put that together, because it was just

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it's quite outrageously fab Anyway, she's singing. She comes out singing,

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and all the audience are loving it, and the you know,

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being watched by millions, maybe billions of people around the world,

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this live event, and she's singing a song. Then it's

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time for her husband to come on and accompany her.

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With one of her songs, jay Z and he pops

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on and he eats ort of walks on in these

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I don't know what he was wearing. There were kind

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of like tracksuit bottoms that were half hanging down his bum,

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and I don't know, he kind of she looked like

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she was there. She looked like she was there to

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basically be crowned a princess, like it was a royal wedding.

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He looked like he'd lost his mop. He's like where

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I left it somewhere, you know. It's it's just the

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way he was dressed on me. Not I dress bad,

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but he probably everything he was wearing was probably one

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of his socks, probably costs more than my entire life's earnings.

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But I just did the biggest knees in the world

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just then. Even then, he stopped and looked at me

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like normally he'll have a look and he'll carry on,

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but this time he actually said, are you okay? You're right?

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Do you need help? And I don't know why, but

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it made me laugh. When I saw him come on stage,

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he hopped on stage and it was like grabbing his crotch,

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and I was ah, boat the Buddha Bet and I

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beat the Buddha Birth and I'm thinking, oh, I know,

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because he's about seventy now, and I don't know. See

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I'm I used to love Eminem and Minimi and Minimum

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back in the late nineties. You know, when he was

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I would argue, Sayso's peak was stand and you know

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that album. Really liked that album a lot. I'm listening

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to one hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of times. But

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he was in his twenties and he was dressing like that.

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It's now in his fifties and he's still dressing like that,

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and I don't know's it. He had a song recently

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and it was about basically getting slim Shady back or

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something like in this light video where he's got him

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and him when he was back in his twenties competing

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against each other or something, and it's I mean, there's

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no rule. It was like, okay, with someone in their

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fifties can't good. Clearly, I'm an example of someone in

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their fifties that are pretty amazing, but dumb, dumb, dumb,

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you can't see me if it's kind of like if

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I was, yeah, I think this is the thing I've got.

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There's an old saying, isn't it. You know someone say, oh,

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you've got a voice for radio. Well, I've got a

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face for radio. It's you know, it's the best place.

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Although this isn't radio, but this is the modern day

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version of radio in a way, isn't it. It's just

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you choose your own show. So instead of listening to

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me at nine o'clock in the evening on a Friday

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night or whatever, you can listen to me whenever you want. Yeah,

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and there's no news bulletins, there's no music there. You know,

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it's better in some ways, but also a lot worse

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in other ways. Maybe maybe anyway, I think jay Z

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was all right. I like some of his stuff. The

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stuff he did with Eminem was good, but.

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It just.

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I don't know. I think it's something about it would

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be because I think when Eminem is like in his seventies,

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is he still going to be is he still going

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to be doing this? He's still going to be dyeing

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his hair black, which he does now? And is he

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and you can see as black and his beards black

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dyed because you know he ain't. You just can tell.

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It's weird the amount of people I see who have

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got clearly jet black dyed beards. And you know how

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you can tell because the beards are jet black. That's

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how you can tell. Because generally anyone over the age

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of thirty is going to have the odd gray I

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know some people do like, you know, tweeze them out.

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I used to do that. I did. It's amazing. I

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used to do that at the front of my hair.

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And someone said to me, you shouldn't do that. You've

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only got a few gray hairs. Don't tweeze them out

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at the front of your hair or the back of

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your head because that part start to receive or go bald.

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And I laughed at them. Who's laughing now?

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Not me?

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No, I didn't, would you? Why would I? Why would

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I tweeze the hairs in the back of my head?

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I can't see them. It's really weird. Why would that part?

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Because that's a part on the baby's head, isn't it.

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That's the fragile part for the first few weeks or whatever.

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So why why why would that part go bored anyone?

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I reckon, I reckon. I'll probably I've still had hair

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in ten years, I do believe, And I don't mean just

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at the sights because I don't. I kin'd of. I

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don't see the point in doing that myself personally, just

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for me. If I'm going to be bored up as well,

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just be bored if I'm going to shave my head head.

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But then I'm starting to feel more attached to my

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hair now that it's going. Now it's leaving me. It's

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like at the end of a bad relationship. And I'm

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not begging, Oh please, I can change, don't leave me.

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I can change. I can start changing my underpants more

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than once a month. I can change. You know. It's like,

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but the hairs having none of it. No, we're leaving,

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but they don't. But it's not a quick like a

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quick leave, a quick gone. It's like we're going to

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leave you, but we're going to spend years doing it.

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Oh thanks. I've never really had any of those moments

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where I've been washing my hair and like a big

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amount comes out, thankfully. It's just it's like gradual, very gradual.

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I mean, I know I've had friends that had our

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alopecia where just like clumps of coming out. It's like

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they didn't know what the heck was going on. And yeah,

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I had a friend a year long time ago he

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had alopecia, and back then they didn't know what was

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causing it. I mean, I'm sure there's there's not like

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a specific only one thing that can cause it. But

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I know stress, and I know someone who's when he

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changes his lifestyle, the alopecia stops. Right, That's all I'm

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going to go into that. But he has a certain lifestyle.

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When he changes that lifestyle, when he stops doing what

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he's doing, is alopecia clears up. And some people, if

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they get out of the stressful situation, that can also help.

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But then there's other people that I think perhaps there's

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no reason for it, there's no logical explanation. I wonder,

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if I've got alopecia in the top of my head,

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maybe that's just a temporary board spot and it's going

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to grow back. Ah, I'm clutching it something. Oh guess

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what in my local fields. Then he got me walking.

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He basically went to the end of the road because

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I took him out. I took him out this morning

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before going to Uncle's Sausages Farewell, and so that was

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about six o'clock morning, and then I had to really

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I didn't want to get ready, he didn't want to

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go out, but I knew I had to have this

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is afterwards. So I'm out in the park at six,

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come back. It's light lights still at six in the morning,

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which is good. And then about half past seven, I

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go and have a shower. And as soon as I

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get up and go in the bathroom and start having

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a shower, Vinnie is very attentive to what I'm doing.

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He's watching me. I can't see him watching me because

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I'm in the shower and there's two doors closed, but

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I know he's listening. I mean, technically I can't know

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that he's listening, but just because I know him so well,

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he is. He seems to know when I'm going out,

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when I'm getting ned to leave him. And no, it's

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not the only time. It's not the only time I

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have a shower is when I leave him. Is that

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literally would be five four four, three times a year,

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So I'm not not quite that bad, but it's been

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more recently, more often recently because of Uncle Sausages. Last week,

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I had to go to to leave him Monday because

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I had a doctor's appointment. I still not received the

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results of the blood test and then on previous to that.

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The last time I went out was beginning of August.

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So yes, it's been a while. But he started to

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get used to me going out every day or every

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every other day, and he didn't, you know, he kind

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of got got used to it to the point where

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he didn't like it. Still caused a bit of a fuss,

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but he seemed to be accepted it. But now he's

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gone back to his old ways where he will not

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he would not put up with it, not even for

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me just to go and put a rubbish bag into

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the rubbish bin downstairs. I'm literally coming straight back. Then. Nope,

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you know you're not. You're never coming back. I am.

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So what I do is I leave the door open.

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I don't. I'm not. I don't leave the front door open,

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but I leave it so it doesn't close. You know,

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Well that's open then, isn't it. You know what I mean?

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It's not wide open, it's not pushed open, it's not

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kept open by a door opening device. It's but it's

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kind of of there's a gap, a little gap so

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you can hear me, so I can talk to him,

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so if he barks, I can talk to him as

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I go down the stairs, right, Vinnie, I'm just taking

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the first step now, I'm not leaving. I'm coming back.

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I'm halfway down the stairs now, Vinnie. I'm coming back.

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I promise. I'm near the bottom of the stairs now, Vinnie, Okay,

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just calm down. And then I shouted to him, I'm

467
00:38:32.639 --> 00:38:36.400
going out, ha, see you later, and I run off

468
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:43.280
and he doesn't like that. But he's quite cool if

469
00:38:43.280 --> 00:38:51.760
he can hear me. He's usually okay, usually, but today,

470
00:38:52.360 --> 00:38:53.880
what was I talking about, Vinnie?

471
00:38:53.920 --> 00:38:54.000
For?

472
00:38:54.760 --> 00:38:54.880
Oh?

473
00:38:54.960 --> 00:38:58.960
Yeah, this morning, I just couldn't but I was getting

474
00:38:59.000 --> 00:39:07.320
ready and he he caused a fuss, such a fuss.

475
00:39:09.719 --> 00:39:12.000
I just feel a little bit guilty leaving him because

476
00:39:13.760 --> 00:39:18.239
I know how much he doesn't want me to. Well,

477
00:39:18.320 --> 00:39:22.039
I know, yeah, he doesn't want me to, there's no question.

478
00:39:22.079 --> 00:39:23.920
I mean, yeah, I don't know what's going on in

479
00:39:23.960 --> 00:39:27.480
his mind, and I'm not. I can't. I've got no

480
00:39:29.199 --> 00:39:40.320
thermostat to check his emotional levels. But I've spent what

481
00:39:40.559 --> 00:39:43.480
nearly three years with him, twenty four hours a day

482
00:39:43.519 --> 00:39:46.320
pretty much, so I've kind of got to know him

483
00:39:47.320 --> 00:39:55.840
pretty well. I would say he don't like me leaving him, Yeah,

484
00:39:55.920 --> 00:39:58.800
I think that's pretty certain to say that doesn't like

485
00:39:58.840 --> 00:40:04.559
me leaving him. So I contended with that by I

486
00:40:04.679 --> 00:40:08.039
ordered the taxi and I was getting ready. A taxi

487
00:40:08.079 --> 00:40:11.079
got it early, so it was here about twenty past eight,

488
00:40:14.400 --> 00:40:17.400
or maybe twenty three minutes past eight, but it was early,

489
00:40:17.960 --> 00:40:25.039
but I thought, well, I'm ready. But I was still

490
00:40:25.079 --> 00:40:27.440
doing the last few little bits, putting stuff into a

491
00:40:27.559 --> 00:40:33.440
carrier bag and you know, things like that. Made sure

492
00:40:33.480 --> 00:40:37.840
I had a couple of bottles of water and had

493
00:40:37.920 --> 00:40:46.159
my phone or else on my wallet. I always had

494
00:40:46.199 --> 00:40:48.079
my keys because I have to. I always lock the

495
00:40:48.079 --> 00:40:52.599
door if I leave, so I can't leave without my keys, unless,

496
00:40:52.599 --> 00:40:54.559
of course, I mean if I lost my keys, and

497
00:40:55.119 --> 00:40:58.800
I'll be in trouble. But it's not something generally that happens.

498
00:40:59.760 --> 00:41:02.320
Or I did lose my wallet. I thought I lost

499
00:41:02.320 --> 00:41:06.400
what Technically, I thought i'd lost my wallet because I

500
00:41:06.400 --> 00:41:10.400
couldn't find it. But that is losing your wallet, isn't it.

501
00:41:10.440 --> 00:41:15.639
Isn't that literally the literal meaning of losing something not

502
00:41:15.719 --> 00:41:20.360
being able to find it. So I had indeed lost

503
00:41:20.400 --> 00:41:28.079
my wallet, but I also hadn't lost it because it

504
00:41:28.199 --> 00:41:32.960
was in here somewhere, and I did find it. But

505
00:41:33.039 --> 00:41:36.559
it took quite a bit of searching, and it was

506
00:41:36.639 --> 00:41:40.760
underneath a bunch of paperwork. I think it was either

507
00:41:40.840 --> 00:41:43.719
on that table over there or the other table, which

508
00:41:43.760 --> 00:41:47.800
is meaningless because you can't see where I'm pointing, can you. Oh? Well,

509
00:41:50.920 --> 00:41:55.039
but temporarily i'd lost it, and I didn't really think

510
00:41:55.079 --> 00:41:56.719
that I was going to have to phone the bank

511
00:41:57.000 --> 00:42:02.480
cancel the card. That's it, really, There's nothing really much

512
00:42:02.519 --> 00:42:08.639
else in there. My bus pass, I think that's it.

513
00:42:08.880 --> 00:42:16.119
There's nothing else in there. There might have been ten

514
00:42:16.199 --> 00:42:21.360
or twenty pounds in cash. I think it's always handed

515
00:42:21.360 --> 00:42:27.239
to at a little bit of cash for emergencies, just

516
00:42:27.519 --> 00:42:32.719
because I had a problem before this is during my

517
00:42:32.880 --> 00:42:38.079
traveling to the hospital every day where the credit card

518
00:42:38.199 --> 00:42:42.280
machine didn't work, or in the taxi and I tried

519
00:42:42.280 --> 00:42:45.920
it twice and it still didn't work. Luckily I had

520
00:42:46.920 --> 00:42:49.079
I think I had about one hundred pounds in cash

521
00:42:49.360 --> 00:42:52.119
in my wallet that I drawn out the day before

522
00:42:52.559 --> 00:42:56.000
from the cash machine because I knew it was going

523
00:42:56.079 --> 00:42:57.960
to be expensive. I was going to have to buy

524
00:42:58.000 --> 00:43:03.800
stuff in the hospital, drinks and food and stuff for

525
00:43:03.960 --> 00:43:09.280
me and Uncle, sausages. So I had this cash, but

526
00:43:09.320 --> 00:43:14.400
I wasn't going to use it in the taxi. I

527
00:43:14.440 --> 00:43:16.800
was just going to use the card in a taxi,

528
00:43:19.000 --> 00:43:21.599
so I paid the card. I say, I tried it twice,

529
00:43:21.679 --> 00:43:23.960
didn't work. It turns out it was the machine that

530
00:43:24.039 --> 00:43:27.079
was fault. You're not me. And I said, look, I

531
00:43:27.159 --> 00:43:31.599
literally just got paid yesterday and there's enough money in there.

532
00:43:32.559 --> 00:43:34.480
And I showed him, I like, look on my phone

533
00:43:34.719 --> 00:43:37.599
and I said, oh, is that all you got? I said,

534
00:43:37.880 --> 00:43:42.400
come on, that's rude. He said, you're rude. And he said,

535
00:43:42.400 --> 00:43:44.199
are you going to keep saying that when anyone says

536
00:43:44.199 --> 00:43:47.079
you're rude and then you say you're rude? Is that

537
00:43:47.559 --> 00:43:50.280
You've been doing that for seven years? Can't you try

538
00:43:50.320 --> 00:43:56.800
something different? I said, I'm always trying different things always.

539
00:43:58.039 --> 00:44:00.440
I mean, I'm going to talk about scraws again. Minute.

540
00:44:01.400 --> 00:44:03.280
Do you mean a game? Okay, not a game, but

541
00:44:04.119 --> 00:44:06.639
I haven't talked about squirrels for a while, and I

542
00:44:06.639 --> 00:44:08.920
was going to talk about squirrels and that was perhaps

543
00:44:08.920 --> 00:44:13.199
going to be my my new thing. What a new

544
00:44:13.960 --> 00:44:18.159
thing about squirrels? What is it? Then? I said, well,

545
00:44:18.159 --> 00:44:20.800
I can't tell you now. That's going to ruin it

546
00:44:20.840 --> 00:44:27.920
for everyone. I wanted to be a surprise. Okay, or

547
00:44:28.039 --> 00:44:30.320
is it a story? Is it a pun? Is it

548
00:44:30.440 --> 00:44:33.880
a joke? What's the story? It's just a little story,

549
00:44:34.719 --> 00:44:39.440
but it's something that will delight your world once you

550
00:44:39.519 --> 00:44:42.320
hear it. He said, really, well, told me now, and

551
00:44:42.360 --> 00:44:46.719
then I said no, no, So I paid him the cash,

552
00:44:46.960 --> 00:44:52.000
got out, and I ran home because I just thought

553
00:44:52.000 --> 00:44:54.239
he was going to chase me until I told him

554
00:44:54.239 --> 00:45:06.039
what the story was. And the next day, right, I

555
00:45:06.079 --> 00:45:12.320
get into a taxi, I try and use the the

556
00:45:12.440 --> 00:45:15.400
card debit card. I don't have any credit cards but

557
00:45:15.480 --> 00:45:19.440
a debit card, and it declined it again. I'm thinking

558
00:45:19.679 --> 00:45:28.960
what so I paid cash. I go into on the way. Yeah.

559
00:45:28.960 --> 00:45:34.920
I go into the petrol station. It declines. It declines

560
00:45:34.960 --> 00:45:43.719
my card and I put it in the code, still

561
00:45:43.760 --> 00:45:55.000
declines it. I go to the machine outside declines. Luckily

562
00:45:55.039 --> 00:45:57.119
I got my card back. It didn't steal my card.

563
00:45:58.199 --> 00:46:01.400
Start paid by cash in in the petro station because

564
00:46:01.440 --> 00:46:03.599
only to get a couple of drinks or something. It

565
00:46:03.679 --> 00:46:10.400
wasn't anything big, and I'm thinking, wow, this is not good.

566
00:46:10.800 --> 00:46:14.239
I get to the hospital. I go into Costas to

567
00:46:14.280 --> 00:46:17.079
buy some coffee, one for I think I might got

568
00:46:17.079 --> 00:46:23.679
one myself. The thing is, I don't drink coffee very much.

569
00:46:24.679 --> 00:46:27.599
And I realized now why I can't drink coffee. It

570
00:46:27.920 --> 00:46:32.159
makes me feel unwell. But I used to drink coffee.

571
00:46:32.199 --> 00:46:33.760
I used to have well, there was a time when

572
00:46:33.800 --> 00:46:40.079
I used to drink coffee, like really regularly, multiple times

573
00:46:40.119 --> 00:46:48.880
a day. And even going back many years, I've been

574
00:46:49.159 --> 00:46:52.199
on and off the coffee. I've gone years about drinking

575
00:46:52.199 --> 00:46:54.559
coffee and then I go period when I'm just drinking

576
00:46:54.559 --> 00:47:00.880
it a lot. I can't drink it really anymore and

577
00:47:01.920 --> 00:47:05.119
makes me feel ill, give him palpitations and stuff. It's

578
00:47:05.159 --> 00:47:17.719
just a bit too much. So anyway, I got this coffee.

579
00:47:18.000 --> 00:47:20.119
I think I got two cups of coffee because I

580
00:47:20.159 --> 00:47:27.519
thought I'll treat myself. I'm getting him a coffee. I

581
00:47:27.559 --> 00:47:29.079
think it was a bit of a cloudy day that

582
00:47:29.159 --> 00:47:33.239
day because this was during when Uncle Sausages first went

583
00:47:33.480 --> 00:47:39.039
to hospital. It was probably the hottest week on record

584
00:47:39.920 --> 00:47:46.000
in this country. Ever, it was not really really hot,

585
00:47:47.800 --> 00:47:54.119
you know, just really hot on those days. We didn't

586
00:47:54.159 --> 00:47:59.320
have coffee, or he didn't have coffee, but he did

587
00:47:59.360 --> 00:48:01.599
have air conditioning in his.

588
00:48:03.199 --> 00:48:03.559
Ward.

589
00:48:04.800 --> 00:48:07.159
It wasn't like a proper air conditioning. It's one of

590
00:48:07.199 --> 00:48:09.079
those things where they stick a big tube out of

591
00:48:09.079 --> 00:48:12.760
the window, one of those things. That's what I mean.

592
00:48:12.800 --> 00:48:15.199
It wasn't in built to the structure of the building,

593
00:48:15.239 --> 00:48:20.000
That's what I mean. It did the job, definitely, and

594
00:48:21.199 --> 00:48:25.480
if anything, they're probably better because they're dealing with direct air,

595
00:48:26.119 --> 00:48:28.960
so you're not just spreading all around the entire building,

596
00:48:29.599 --> 00:48:31.639
which I think is probably a good idea for a

597
00:48:31.639 --> 00:48:36.360
hospital not to have air conditioning. Spreading the air from

598
00:48:36.360 --> 00:48:39.880
one ward to another doesn't seem like a very good

599
00:48:39.880 --> 00:48:43.559
idea generally, if I think about it. Not that I'm

600
00:48:43.559 --> 00:48:53.039
an expert on ward air. So I've got small bottles

601
00:48:53.039 --> 00:48:58.159
of water delivered today, So I've now got one two

602
00:48:58.199 --> 00:49:05.280
through four. I found seven packs of twelve is it

603
00:49:05.400 --> 00:49:10.880
twelve or six? Possibly seven packs of six, I don't know,

604
00:49:11.719 --> 00:49:15.639
So I'm really and I've got some more face wipes,

605
00:49:17.039 --> 00:49:24.639
some more what else should I get, because I've been

606
00:49:24.760 --> 00:49:30.760
stocking up for the rest of the year, and I'm

607
00:49:30.800 --> 00:49:36.239
quite pleased with how it's gone, because okay, it's not food,

608
00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:40.280
and the closest thing to anything I've got there that's food. Well,

609
00:49:40.440 --> 00:49:44.119
water is the most important thing in the world, isn't

610
00:49:44.119 --> 00:49:49.159
it to have? But apart from okay, most of it's

611
00:49:49.239 --> 00:49:52.320
not going to be going into my mouth other than

612
00:49:52.360 --> 00:49:56.559
the water and the tea bags. I don't mean I

613
00:49:56.639 --> 00:49:58.639
eat the tea bacs. I mean, you know, for tea.

614
00:49:59.199 --> 00:50:01.880
And I've got enough to to last me for the

615
00:50:01.920 --> 00:50:05.719
rest of the year as well, so that's good. But

616
00:50:05.800 --> 00:50:10.840
everything else is just like mouth washed, toothpaste, deodorant, and

617
00:50:11.960 --> 00:50:22.880
toilet paper, washing up liquid. I'm just trying to think.

618
00:50:23.559 --> 00:50:29.760
I've also got quite a few Yeah, I got quite

619
00:50:29.760 --> 00:50:37.199
a few boxes of cereal now, so I've got like

620
00:50:37.840 --> 00:50:42.199
five or six boxes of ready bread, about six boxes

621
00:50:42.320 --> 00:50:50.000
of Mooseley, So you know, it's just getting stocked up

622
00:50:50.079 --> 00:50:55.840
ready so I can It wasn't really about getting stocked

623
00:50:55.920 --> 00:50:59.880
up on food, but that is. That's food, isn't it.

624
00:51:00.800 --> 00:51:03.719
But it's definitely going to be handy because if I

625
00:51:03.760 --> 00:51:08.639
suddenly didn't have a penny, I can still eat. I've

626
00:51:08.639 --> 00:51:11.639
got my breakfast cereal I can have that. I've got water,

627
00:51:11.920 --> 00:51:14.719
I've got you know, so I've got the bear of sentrals.

628
00:51:15.320 --> 00:51:17.639
I'm not going to run out of toilet paper anytime soon.

629
00:51:20.639 --> 00:51:23.079
The only thing that I need more of is shampoo.

630
00:51:24.000 --> 00:51:32.840
Don't laugh. When I get in a shower, I still

631
00:51:32.880 --> 00:51:38.639
shampooed my hair twice. I do. Do you know people

632
00:51:38.679 --> 00:51:41.159
always you know, people always looking those kind of people

633
00:51:41.199 --> 00:51:46.119
are always looking for a blame, always looking for a

634
00:51:46.159 --> 00:51:49.000
reason to blame. You know. It's because of that. It's

635
00:51:49.000 --> 00:51:51.400
because you do this, because you do that. They are

636
00:51:51.400 --> 00:51:53.920
the ones I be thinking. It's because you're back your

637
00:51:53.920 --> 00:51:57.039
shampoo your hair twice a day, that's why. That's why

638
00:51:57.079 --> 00:52:02.800
it's falling out. It's not why. Trust me, I've gone periods, well,

639
00:52:02.800 --> 00:52:06.480
I've not washed my hair for periods of time and

640
00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:10.039
it's still falling out. It's not because of that. Besides,

641
00:52:10.760 --> 00:52:13.880
I've had a shaven head most of my life. Really,

642
00:52:17.239 --> 00:52:20.159
I don't shampoo my hair. When I've got a shaven head.

643
00:52:20.519 --> 00:52:23.159
I might give it little a little bit of shampoo

644
00:52:23.320 --> 00:52:26.159
just but that's it, just for the scalp. But I

645
00:52:27.360 --> 00:52:33.519
I don't have to do much when it's shaven. And

646
00:52:33.559 --> 00:52:38.519
my hair has been really really short or shaven most

647
00:52:38.559 --> 00:52:45.000
of the time since two thousand and two. And there's

648
00:52:45.000 --> 00:52:48.920
been periods when it's been really long and bushy, but

649
00:52:49.320 --> 00:52:53.440
generally that's when I look baldest. It's when it's long,

650
00:52:55.320 --> 00:53:00.000
that's when you can see the big gaps between follicles.

651
00:53:00.039 --> 00:53:09.199
It really stands out tht. Wow, it's almost like Ian.

652
00:53:09.280 --> 00:53:12.960
It was so it was so frizzy and long. I

653
00:53:12.960 --> 00:53:17.760
remember my friend Luke. He said, hold on a second.

654
00:53:18.559 --> 00:53:21.039
I said, Well, he just walked over to me and

655
00:53:21.079 --> 00:53:25.280
he parted because I used to have my hair kind

656
00:53:25.320 --> 00:53:29.079
of back but sort of standing up. He didn't like it.

657
00:53:29.159 --> 00:53:32.920
He said, just shave it off. I said no. I said,

658
00:53:32.920 --> 00:53:36.960
you're just jealous because I've got hair. I didn't like

659
00:53:37.000 --> 00:53:39.480
that because he was border than me. That's why I

660
00:53:39.519 --> 00:53:43.159
said it. Anyway, he came and I said, wait a second.

661
00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:48.360
The thing is he suited being bored. That's the problem.

662
00:53:49.199 --> 00:53:51.440
He looked good, he would it didn't matter if he

663
00:53:51.480 --> 00:53:54.000
had hair or not hair. He looked good. It was

664
00:53:54.039 --> 00:53:56.840
a good looking bloke. And he had the right face

665
00:53:56.880 --> 00:54:05.760
structure for being bald. I don't have. Yeah, I don't

666
00:54:05.840 --> 00:54:12.239
have the right face for balderedness. It's not fair. Anyway,

667
00:54:12.239 --> 00:54:14.559
he came up to me and he said, I stay still.

668
00:54:15.719 --> 00:54:19.880
I thought there was a spider in my hair. That's

669
00:54:19.920 --> 00:54:23.000
what I thought, like a little money spider. Because he

670
00:54:23.079 --> 00:54:28.280
was very superstitious and he's you know, apparently if you

671
00:54:28.280 --> 00:54:34.360
get a money spider, you was it you don't you

672
00:54:34.440 --> 00:54:36.960
like put it? You did? You swing it around your

673
00:54:37.039 --> 00:54:40.159
head twice or something, and then money will come into

674
00:54:40.199 --> 00:54:47.360
your life. Yeah, he's one of these people that used

675
00:54:47.360 --> 00:55:01.519
to salute magpies. Seriously. He once said to me, right, okay,

676
00:55:02.679 --> 00:55:06.519
oh don't because I think my hair was. I grew

677
00:55:06.639 --> 00:55:09.400
my hair really it was. It was really out of control.

678
00:55:09.960 --> 00:55:13.280
And he said, I don't want it that. We've got

679
00:55:13.400 --> 00:55:15.239
to go out. I said, because you want to go

680
00:55:15.280 --> 00:55:18.800
to the petro station. He said, kind of do some

681
00:55:18.960 --> 00:55:21.360
with your hair? Said what he said? I don't want

682
00:55:21.360 --> 00:55:25.599
to be seeing in public with you like that? All right,

683
00:55:25.679 --> 00:55:30.599
So he was embarrassed by me. So on the main road,

684
00:55:32.840 --> 00:55:35.719
all these cars going fast, he's worried about me. I

685
00:55:35.719 --> 00:55:37.840
think I'm wearing a hat just to cover my hair up.

686
00:55:38.760 --> 00:55:41.880
What does he do? He stops and start He salutes

687
00:55:46.159 --> 00:55:49.119
a bird. What did I call him? Not pigeons? The

688
00:55:49.159 --> 00:55:57.119
ones that steal stuff. He actually salutes one of them.

689
00:55:57.320 --> 00:56:04.639
And he's worried about embarrassing me. And I said, you're embarrassing.

690
00:56:05.960 --> 00:56:10.440
I said, that was embarrassing my hair. You're you're you're

691
00:56:10.440 --> 00:56:15.559
saluting magpies while there's traffic. It's people on the bus

692
00:56:15.639 --> 00:56:20.880
going past looking at us, We're looking at you. And

693
00:56:20.920 --> 00:56:27.360
he said, well, what's weird about saluting about a magpie? Well,

694
00:56:27.360 --> 00:56:32.840
there's two things. First of all, you're saluting a magpie

695
00:56:32.880 --> 00:56:35.719
in itself. That's weird. And it's the kind of salute

696
00:56:35.760 --> 00:56:41.480
you were doing that. No, no, dumb jacket. So that's

697
00:56:41.519 --> 00:56:45.360
been illegal for seventy years, that kind of salute. So yeah, no,

698
00:56:45.800 --> 00:56:48.800
I think. Oh, because he walked up to me, so

699
00:56:48.840 --> 00:56:52.800
I'm sitting here and he said, wait a second, and

700
00:56:52.840 --> 00:56:54.880
I think he's a lot of money spider or something

701
00:56:54.920 --> 00:56:58.599
so or because it was in the summer, I thought

702
00:56:58.599 --> 00:57:02.880
maybe something that got the He pied my hair and

703
00:57:02.880 --> 00:57:05.280
he said, I can't believe it what I found. I thought,

704
00:57:06.559 --> 00:57:10.880
here he goes, he's gonna make some joke about you know,

705
00:57:11.039 --> 00:57:16.840
he's Daddy's long leg or something, you know. And he said,

706
00:57:17.280 --> 00:57:22.079
I've just discovered a new rainforest tribe in your hair

707
00:57:23.039 --> 00:57:25.360
and have made up like this whole and he was

708
00:57:25.400 --> 00:57:28.400
going on about how they'd like, you know, build this

709
00:57:28.840 --> 00:57:37.360
new little settlement on my bald patch, very very rude,

710
00:57:38.920 --> 00:57:41.280
and I thought, this is ridiculous, the weird thing. But

711
00:57:41.360 --> 00:57:46.519
then right, get this, I'm sitting there, the smoke alarm

712
00:57:46.639 --> 00:57:50.320
goes off. I'm like, why has the smoke alarm gone off?

713
00:57:50.360 --> 00:57:57.079
I'm not cooking anything. It's weird. I go out. I

714
00:57:57.119 --> 00:57:59.800
could I turn it off? I had to put a stick.

715
00:58:00.119 --> 00:58:02.480
I'm not tall enough to reach it, but Luke was

716
00:58:02.519 --> 00:58:05.360
tall enough. So I did it a couple of times

717
00:58:05.400 --> 00:58:08.039
and I was like, it kept coming back on again.

718
00:58:08.360 --> 00:58:09.639
So I called him up and said, can you have

719
00:58:09.639 --> 00:58:15.480
a look at my fire alarm? My smoke alarm? Because

720
00:58:15.480 --> 00:58:17.559
it was quite good with stuff like that. The way

721
00:58:17.599 --> 00:58:20.840
I was thinking is just take the thing off, disconnect it,

722
00:58:21.320 --> 00:58:23.920
or see if it needs new batteries or something like that.

723
00:58:24.199 --> 00:58:27.880
Because this is I can't. It's like, well, well, well

724
00:58:27.960 --> 00:58:33.719
continuously he came up and I said, look, well if

725
00:58:33.480 --> 00:58:36.480
the first thing he said is for the full first

726
00:58:36.519 --> 00:58:38.960
thing he said, is it's a smoke alarm. I said,

727
00:58:39.000 --> 00:58:41.559
I know, I know what it is. I can I

728
00:58:41.559 --> 00:58:45.280
can hear it. He said, all right. I said, well

729
00:58:45.440 --> 00:58:47.719
that's why I called you up to help me with that,

730
00:58:47.880 --> 00:58:50.280
because I don't know what to do with it. He said,

731
00:58:50.360 --> 00:58:53.159
he tried turning it off. There's a button you press.

732
00:58:54.119 --> 00:58:56.800
I said, I know, there's a button. I have done that.

733
00:58:56.960 --> 00:59:02.000
I've used the broom handle, I said. He said, well,

734
00:59:02.039 --> 00:59:06.719
don't use the mop handle. I said, jay Z's lost it.

735
00:59:08.119 --> 00:59:09.840
Oh that's good. And the way I kind of connected

736
00:59:09.840 --> 00:59:16.519
it back to earlier anyway, Beyonce's fuming, fuman and furious,

737
00:59:17.719 --> 00:59:19.840
and he said what I said, don't worry about it?

738
00:59:20.880 --> 00:59:24.400
And I said, can you sort it out? He said,

739
00:59:24.400 --> 00:59:28.840
all right, He turned it off. He just like pressed it.

740
00:59:28.840 --> 00:59:30.840
Because he was a lot taller than me, he was

741
00:59:30.840 --> 00:59:34.480
about nine foot tall. He bent, he had to bend

742
00:59:34.559 --> 00:59:41.320
down to press it. And he came on again and

743
00:59:41.320 --> 00:59:43.880
he said, well, you've got something. Obviously you've got something

744
00:59:43.960 --> 00:59:47.480
setting it off. Are you cooking something? And I said no,

745
00:59:47.559 --> 00:59:50.440
and he opened his no nothing. He looked at the

746
00:59:50.880 --> 00:59:54.880
kitchen and nothing. He looked in the bathroom. I said,

747
00:59:54.880 --> 00:59:57.920
I don't cook in the bathroom, do I? He said,

748
00:59:57.960 --> 01:00:01.719
I don't know? With you? Just what does that mean?

749
01:00:03.239 --> 01:00:06.239
That it doesn't matter? But you know, you do some

750
01:00:06.280 --> 01:00:15.239
weird things sometimes, Jay, It's okay, And so I just

751
01:00:15.239 --> 01:00:16.800
turned my back on him. I'm like, I don't what

752
01:00:16.920 --> 01:00:22.239
to do next. The alarm goes off again and he's

753
01:00:22.320 --> 01:00:27.119
like presses a button. At this point, he starts laughing

754
01:00:29.039 --> 01:00:33.119
and pointing at me, which is a little bit rude.

755
01:00:33.559 --> 01:00:38.800
And I said, were you laughing? And he couldn't stop laughing.

756
01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:40.760
He's like he couldn't talk, he was laughing so much.

757
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:44.679
I said, why are you laughing? He said, I've just

758
01:00:44.719 --> 01:00:50.760
seen where the smoke's coming from. I said, what he said,

759
01:00:50.760 --> 01:00:52.719
do you like a little tribe on your board patch?

760
01:00:53.840 --> 01:01:02.159
They started a fire. They're having a little bonfire, having

761
01:01:02.199 --> 01:01:08.119
a big cookout or something. That's when I knew perhaps

762
01:01:08.159 --> 01:01:15.559
I needed to shave my head because it's I think

763
01:01:15.599 --> 01:01:21.400
it's bad right because I actually at the hospital. There

764
01:01:21.480 --> 01:01:25.400
was an emergency. Because this was in the summer, there's

765
01:01:25.480 --> 01:01:28.760
lots of emergencies, I'm sure, but there was a serious thing.

766
01:01:28.719 --> 01:01:33.039
And the helicopter came down. Everyone was watching looking at

767
01:01:33.079 --> 01:01:38.440
the sky. But everyone as like an ambulance, emergency ambulance

768
01:01:38.960 --> 01:01:39.440
somewhere there.

769
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:39.760
It is.

770
01:01:41.880 --> 01:01:48.679
Ambulance, helicopter ambulance is that what they call them. So

771
01:01:48.760 --> 01:01:51.840
it's coming, it's like coming down. Everyone had their phones

772
01:01:51.920 --> 01:01:56.800
out looking at everything, and they were looking at that

773
01:01:57.119 --> 01:01:59.519
up in the sky and I'm looking at thinking, okay,

774
01:02:00.039 --> 01:02:04.599
well this is interesting. I've never seen helicopter. I've seen

775
01:02:04.599 --> 01:02:08.800
one land in the field a couple of times, but

776
01:02:08.840 --> 01:02:13.960
I've never seen one land at the actual hospital. And

777
01:02:14.000 --> 01:02:17.199
they're all looking up with their phones, and I'm thinking

778
01:02:17.239 --> 01:02:20.559
of just like coming, you're seeing a helicopter before. Why

779
01:02:21.159 --> 01:02:24.760
And I'm sure the people getting out of the helicopter

780
01:02:25.119 --> 01:02:27.039
don't want to be filmed. They don't want you all

781
01:02:27.119 --> 01:02:35.000
staring at them. And I kind of mumbled that, and

782
01:02:35.159 --> 01:02:40.880
suddenly one person points their phone at me, and another

783
01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:43.719
person points their phone at me, and I got about

784
01:02:43.880 --> 01:02:47.119
fifteen people pointing their phone at me, and I'm thinking

785
01:02:47.440 --> 01:02:54.320
I said that too loud, and I said I didn't

786
01:02:54.320 --> 01:02:57.519
know what to say. I was a bit embarrassed. Well,

787
01:02:57.559 --> 01:03:01.320
it turned out what actually happened, and they didn't hear

788
01:03:01.360 --> 01:03:04.320
me say that. It turned out that helicopter was trying

789
01:03:04.320 --> 01:03:11.360
to land on my board patch. That was very long winded,

790
01:03:11.440 --> 01:03:20.039
wasn't it. I think if I made it shorter me, Ah, there,

791
01:03:20.679 --> 01:03:22.880
I don't I do. I don't do short, really do.

792
01:03:23.239 --> 01:03:26.360
Everything I do is long winded. It's kind of supposed

793
01:03:26.400 --> 01:03:32.800
to be. So I get I get there early to

794
01:03:32.960 --> 01:03:38.639
the hot to the the farewell ceremony, and I see

795
01:03:38.679 --> 01:03:44.199
these squirrels. So there's this whole green area like trees

796
01:03:44.599 --> 01:03:50.800
and shrubbery and flowers, and it's really lovely. I mean,

797
01:03:52.280 --> 01:03:57.400
it'd make a lovely garden to walk around in, you know,

798
01:03:57.559 --> 01:04:01.159
if I was in a I was in a residential

799
01:04:01.280 --> 01:04:05.400
care home or something in my older years. That's something

800
01:04:05.559 --> 01:04:11.239
quite like to walk around because it's it's nature, but

801
01:04:11.320 --> 01:04:16.719
it's it's contained. It's not huge, but it's definitely big

802
01:04:16.800 --> 01:04:19.119
enough to go for a nice walk. You kind of

803
01:04:19.119 --> 01:04:27.880
go in a circle. And having a cemetery there be

804
01:04:27.960 --> 01:04:32.360
quite handy, wouldn't it as well? Save traveling? So but

805
01:04:32.440 --> 01:04:35.679
I'm walking around and I see these two things. I'm

806
01:04:35.800 --> 01:04:37.719
huge and rustling, and I'm trying to figure out where

807
01:04:37.719 --> 01:04:41.159
it's coming from. Now you already know it's coming from

808
01:04:41.159 --> 01:04:43.840
the squirrels because I mentioned the squirrels too soon, didn't I.

809
01:04:44.400 --> 01:04:48.639
But let's forget that I mentioned the squirrels. Let's just

810
01:04:48.840 --> 01:04:54.639
it erased that. So I'm walking through this like covering.

811
01:04:56.920 --> 01:05:00.360
It was like a wooden structure that was built and

812
01:05:00.400 --> 01:05:05.199
it looks like it's being built to commemorate a specific person,

813
01:05:06.480 --> 01:05:08.400
and so it's a lovely little structure. I think there

814
01:05:08.480 --> 01:05:11.760
might be some seats in there, So walking through they're

815
01:05:11.920 --> 01:05:17.679
really really being careful with my feeting, my feeting, my footing,

816
01:05:17.880 --> 01:05:21.039
my walking, trying to be calm and quiet. That's what

817
01:05:21.079 --> 01:05:25.039
I'm trying to say. And I'm not sure what I'm

818
01:05:25.039 --> 01:05:26.960
gonna I'm gonna turn in the corner. I don't know

819
01:05:27.000 --> 01:05:30.000
what I'm going to see that. You know, it's squirrels.

820
01:05:30.920 --> 01:05:32.679
So I don't know why I'm even going through this

821
01:05:33.079 --> 01:05:36.639
part of the story. But anyway I turn around, I'm

822
01:05:36.639 --> 01:05:42.199
looking and thinking, I wonder if it's another gardener. I

823
01:05:42.280 --> 01:05:46.840
wonder if someone asleep. I don't know. I don't when

824
01:05:46.840 --> 01:05:53.199
I say asleep, not buried, and not someone trying to

825
01:05:53.239 --> 01:05:56.599
dig themselves out noly like that. It's not zombies, but

826
01:05:56.679 --> 01:06:02.239
I wondered, and I thought, maybe it's someone pitched a

827
01:06:02.320 --> 01:06:06.519
tent and they're sleeping there. And I thought, I don't

828
01:06:06.519 --> 01:06:10.280
want to disturb them. If they are, it does look

829
01:06:10.320 --> 01:06:13.119
like somewhere that maybe someone would climb over the fence

830
01:06:13.639 --> 01:06:18.159
set a tent up because it's quite it's quiet, it's

831
01:06:18.239 --> 01:06:26.440
quite quiet and secluded. But I imagine they'd be asked

832
01:06:26.440 --> 01:06:33.679
to leave, you know, if there was seen during the day.

833
01:06:34.480 --> 01:06:36.679
And I thought, maybe it's birds. I mean, you know,

834
01:06:36.760 --> 01:06:38.679
it's squirrels or I don't know why I'm going for

835
01:06:38.800 --> 01:06:44.599
all the different particular what it might have been. It

836
01:06:44.679 --> 01:06:45.880
might have been a ufo.

837
01:06:47.159 --> 01:06:47.239
No.

838
01:06:48.119 --> 01:06:50.880
Anyway, I turned around and I see these squirrels running

839
01:06:50.920 --> 01:06:55.280
along the grass. And because with neely in autumn, there's

840
01:06:55.360 --> 01:07:00.599
quite a few leaves on the ground already, and a

841
01:07:00.639 --> 01:07:03.599
lot of the fruits dropping off the trees, the nuts

842
01:07:03.679 --> 01:07:07.000
off the hazel nut trees. And I think they have

843
01:07:07.039 --> 01:07:12.480
hazel nuts, don't they and different things like that. So

844
01:07:12.519 --> 01:07:14.559
I see these things running across the ground and I'm

845
01:07:14.559 --> 01:07:18.960
thinking what they are? But we all know as squirrels.

846
01:07:19.719 --> 01:07:25.840
But there were gray squirrels. Now, I don't know. I

847
01:07:25.880 --> 01:07:34.199
think I'm correct in saying that in England, no is

848
01:07:34.239 --> 01:07:37.360
it a gray squirrels? Is it a red squirrels that

849
01:07:37.400 --> 01:07:41.079
we don't see anymore much? Anyway, these were gray squirrels,

850
01:07:42.039 --> 01:07:47.400
and they really matched the tree that they were climbing

851
01:07:47.440 --> 01:07:50.079
up and down. But they were climbing up and down backwards,

852
01:07:51.000 --> 01:07:59.679
like climbing down the tree forward. It's like how I

853
01:08:00.119 --> 01:08:01.760
like going up and said, how do you do that?

854
01:08:02.320 --> 01:08:04.199
But I suppose the answer would be where you need

855
01:08:04.239 --> 01:08:06.760
to be a squirrel, mate, don't you you need to

856
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:10.119
be a squirrel. You can't do this in the same

857
01:08:10.159 --> 01:08:15.719
way as I can't walk around in Then weird shoes

858
01:08:15.719 --> 01:08:20.399
are yours? I said, But shoes aren't weird. What's weird

859
01:08:20.439 --> 01:08:26.479
about them? They just laughed and ran off. Sometimes that's

860
01:08:26.520 --> 01:08:29.399
the worst insult, isn't it When you don't get an explanation,

861
01:08:30.359 --> 01:08:35.119
but it doesn't seem any logic behind the insult. So

862
01:08:35.199 --> 01:08:39.600
if someone laughs at my pink crocs, okay, fair enough.

863
01:08:40.239 --> 01:08:45.800
Maybe to some people, bright pink crocs look like a

864
01:08:45.840 --> 01:08:52.479
weird thing for an adult male to be a very young, handsome,

865
01:08:54.439 --> 01:08:59.920
particularly sexy adult male like myself, to be wearing in public.

866
01:09:03.359 --> 01:09:07.159
But I happen to like the color pink. I do.

867
01:09:07.760 --> 01:09:14.039
I like pink. When I was in my thirties, early thirties,

868
01:09:14.039 --> 01:09:19.760
what about thirty four, I was walking around in pink

869
01:09:19.920 --> 01:09:24.119
and white like pastoral kind of pink and white like

870
01:09:24.279 --> 01:09:30.199
pink tops, almost daring someone to say something, which is

871
01:09:30.199 --> 01:09:36.000
a bit silly really, But it's like I looked awful.

872
01:09:37.840 --> 01:09:41.079
I really did, because because I shaved my head and

873
01:09:41.359 --> 01:09:44.079
there's a picture of me in the newspaper. When I

874
01:09:44.119 --> 01:09:46.800
was doing the free paymently service in two thousand and six,

875
01:09:50.039 --> 01:09:56.760
I looked really bad. You know, I wasn't because I'd

876
01:09:56.800 --> 01:10:01.039
gone from being slim to putting a bit more weight on.

877
01:10:02.880 --> 01:10:05.920
Because in two yeah, two thousand and four, I lost weight.

878
01:10:06.840 --> 01:10:10.760
Two thousand and five, two thousand and six, I put

879
01:10:10.800 --> 01:10:18.319
the weight back on, so I did not have a

880
01:10:18.399 --> 01:10:21.439
six pack. So the old joker, I don't have a

881
01:10:21.479 --> 01:10:24.319
six pack. I now have a keg something like that.

882
01:10:25.560 --> 01:10:36.039
I had a whole pub and I just I had

883
01:10:36.079 --> 01:10:45.720
a degree of confidence for no reason. I was like, well,

884
01:10:45.760 --> 01:10:47.399
you know what, I'm just going to I'm going to

885
01:10:47.439 --> 01:10:53.279
wear some nice clothes, but at the same time, I'm

886
01:10:53.279 --> 01:10:56.760
going to look ridiculous and I'm not going to care.

887
01:10:59.800 --> 01:11:04.239
And some of the stuff I wore wasn't Maybe it was.

888
01:11:05.319 --> 01:11:07.920
It might have been too young for me even then.

889
01:11:10.560 --> 01:11:12.399
I mean, I'm not talking about I wasn't walking around

890
01:11:12.399 --> 01:11:15.800
in school uniform, but it might have been. Maybe what

891
01:11:15.880 --> 01:11:22.159
I was I've never been. I've never been particularly I've

892
01:11:22.159 --> 01:11:24.680
never I would say, and I'm not saying this in

893
01:11:24.680 --> 01:11:28.199
a negative way, but just from my experience of myself,

894
01:11:29.479 --> 01:11:35.119
my eye for fashion is a little bit shortsighted. It

895
01:11:35.159 --> 01:11:42.319
needs glasses, you know, it needs a telescope. I can't really,

896
01:11:44.039 --> 01:11:47.520
I never really had that. I've had a little help

897
01:11:47.520 --> 01:11:50.720
with fashion in the past, a few little like being

898
01:11:50.800 --> 01:11:56.439
took shopping to get clothes. But even then, I'm thinking, really,

899
01:11:56.479 --> 01:12:01.840
you want me to wear that? And I remember I

900
01:12:01.880 --> 01:12:06.000
had like two dates ninety five. One said to me,

901
01:12:07.119 --> 01:12:09.479
because I was wearing I got so yeah, she took

902
01:12:09.520 --> 01:12:14.720
me shopping, took me shopping and bought me some clothes.

903
01:12:15.000 --> 01:12:17.800
And she said, because I was always I was used

904
01:12:17.800 --> 01:12:22.039
to have my shirt hanging out on the outside. But

905
01:12:22.199 --> 01:12:25.640
this is when I was really slim. She said, tuck

906
01:12:25.680 --> 01:12:27.840
it in. Need to tuck it in. So I started

907
01:12:27.880 --> 01:12:31.600
tucking it in. And then the next female I want

908
01:12:31.640 --> 01:12:34.039
a date on, went with a date on, went to

909
01:12:34.079 --> 01:12:38.960
a date on, had a date with She's because I

910
01:12:39.000 --> 01:12:42.039
was always tucking everything in. From then, I'm thinking that

911
01:12:42.119 --> 01:12:46.119
every woman on the whole planet loves shirts tucked in,

912
01:12:46.479 --> 01:12:49.800
which is a silly way to think. I think it's

913
01:12:49.800 --> 01:12:54.760
only about ninety two per So this next lady I dated,

914
01:12:55.079 --> 01:12:58.279
she said, do us a favor. I said, well, I'm

915
01:12:58.399 --> 01:13:05.239
tuck your shirt. So I untucked my shirt. Now, if

916
01:13:05.279 --> 01:13:12.399
you do have your shirt tucked in, don't is a

917
01:13:12.399 --> 01:13:19.760
little bit. Don't tuck it into your underpents, because she

918
01:13:19.840 --> 01:13:22.279
was saying, why is it all damn at the front.

919
01:13:22.720 --> 01:13:27.359
Don't worry about it. But oh, I'm gurgling my stomachs girdled.

920
01:13:28.119 --> 01:13:35.039
I had a fried breakfast this morning after the the ceremony,

921
01:13:37.760 --> 01:13:40.760
went and had a fried breakfast. So basically the people

922
01:13:40.840 --> 01:13:44.520
it was there as me, there was more. There was

923
01:13:44.560 --> 01:13:50.199
more pall bearers than there was audience members. Okay, technically

924
01:13:51.359 --> 01:13:54.600
technically we weren't audience members because it wasn't a show.

925
01:13:55.600 --> 01:14:00.239
Oh dear, I'm using the wrong words. I did that

926
01:14:00.279 --> 01:14:02.880
when I was in the hospital, kept saying, it's all

927
01:14:02.920 --> 01:14:07.319
about customers, like their patients. They're paid, They're not customers

928
01:14:07.359 --> 01:14:14.319
their patients. It's like okay. So there was one, two, three, four, five, six.

929
01:14:14.960 --> 01:14:23.640
Seven of those six were carrying the the thing to

930
01:14:23.720 --> 01:14:26.800
the altar who was the altar to the figure at

931
01:14:26.800 --> 01:14:32.800
the front, ready for the sacrifice, so they want And

932
01:14:32.920 --> 01:14:35.000
there was someone in church who was walking in chart

933
01:14:35.119 --> 01:14:41.279
in front. So there was seven of them. There was me,

934
01:14:44.319 --> 01:14:47.159
There was his old friend that he's had for years,

935
01:14:48.079 --> 01:14:51.399
his old friend's husband that he's also known, probably a

936
01:14:51.640 --> 01:14:56.319
baby as long as he's known her, and then her father,

937
01:14:58.399 --> 01:15:05.800
who is like ninety four four of us seven people

938
01:15:05.880 --> 01:15:11.880
working in the church. Bit whatever, it is four of us,

939
01:15:12.960 --> 01:15:16.079
and one of those was doing the ceremony. He was

940
01:15:16.119 --> 01:15:20.920
holding the ceremony because he's a pastor or. I don't

941
01:15:20.960 --> 01:15:35.760
know whatever. So we left, went to a carvery and

942
01:15:35.880 --> 01:15:39.399
had a cook breakfast. Now here's we're all in a

943
01:15:39.399 --> 01:15:43.800
bit wrong. Not wrong in a bad way. But when

944
01:15:43.840 --> 01:15:45.680
she said yesterday, all going to go and get some

945
01:15:45.720 --> 01:15:50.359
breakfast afterwards, I said, cool, I'm up for that. So

946
01:15:50.680 --> 01:15:53.439
it gave me a lift to there. I gave me

947
01:15:53.520 --> 01:15:55.720
left home as well, which is lovely. But we went

948
01:15:55.760 --> 01:15:58.920
to this place and I'm thinking, good, we'll just order

949
01:15:58.920 --> 01:16:03.760
a breakfast and they'll bring us a breakfast. But no,

950
01:16:03.960 --> 01:16:10.079
it was self service. Now I didn't realize this. So

951
01:16:10.119 --> 01:16:13.880
I go in and the first thing we do is

952
01:16:13.920 --> 01:16:20.680
just go to the bar and order some drinks. And

953
01:16:20.760 --> 01:16:23.600
I said, I think I have a coke please, And

954
01:16:23.640 --> 01:16:25.720
I think two of us had cokes. Two of us

955
01:16:25.800 --> 01:16:29.680
had lemonades or something like that or fruit juice. I forget,

956
01:16:31.359 --> 01:16:36.119
and the lady behind the cara said, yeah, it's all

957
01:16:36.159 --> 01:16:40.800
you can refeel. I said, okay. I didn't like that idea.

958
01:16:41.000 --> 01:16:45.319
I wanted a bottle. I wanted something from behind the bar.

959
01:16:45.800 --> 01:16:47.319
I didn't want to have to walk over there and

960
01:16:47.359 --> 01:16:53.439
get it. I felt lazy. I felt particularly lazy. Plus

961
01:16:54.800 --> 01:16:58.279
I didn't want to walk around when other people were eating.

962
01:16:59.359 --> 01:17:01.119
I just want to it down at the table and

963
01:17:01.159 --> 01:17:04.479
just sort of stay there until we left, walking around

964
01:17:04.600 --> 01:17:10.119
like it's my new living room or something. You know,

965
01:17:11.560 --> 01:17:17.000
it's all these people doing in my home. So I thought,

966
01:17:17.520 --> 01:17:19.960
it's what all you can me feel?

967
01:17:20.000 --> 01:17:20.199
Yeah?

968
01:17:20.319 --> 01:17:24.760
All you can me feel like, well, in no world

969
01:17:24.800 --> 01:17:27.840
am I going to drink more than one pint of

970
01:17:27.960 --> 01:17:34.359
coke pretty much in a day. I don't drink coke anymore.

971
01:17:34.359 --> 01:17:38.279
It's like I have a little bit. And I thought,

972
01:17:38.279 --> 01:17:42.640
I treat myself. And then she and then she said, okay,

973
01:17:43.399 --> 01:17:51.039
fair enough. She gave me a glass, and then someone mentioned, yeah,

974
01:17:51.079 --> 01:17:55.479
that it's over there. It's the pepsi. I said, pepsi.

975
01:17:55.800 --> 01:18:01.279
That's not coke, is it? And she said what I mean?

976
01:18:01.319 --> 01:18:04.239
This is someone that works beyond the bar telling me

977
01:18:04.399 --> 01:18:06.319
I asked for coke, and she points me towards a

978
01:18:06.319 --> 01:18:10.840
pepsi machine. I was like, no, I didn't want PEPSI.

979
01:18:10.880 --> 01:18:16.920
I wanted coke. I'm terrible, and I, I am so precious,

980
01:18:18.520 --> 01:18:23.479
and I said I didn't really, I'm not really a

981
01:18:23.479 --> 01:18:26.159
big fan of PEPSI I'll have it if there's nothing else.

982
01:18:26.199 --> 01:18:28.720
But I said, if you've got coke beyond the bar,

983
01:18:28.840 --> 01:18:31.640
she said, we've got them bottles, not on tap. I said,

984
01:18:32.000 --> 01:18:36.479
could I have a bottle please? She said okay, and

985
01:18:36.520 --> 01:18:40.359
the bloke next to me, the other what's her name is, father,

986
01:18:40.600 --> 01:18:43.279
said I'd have a bottle as well. See he clearly

987
01:18:43.319 --> 01:18:46.600
also didn't fancy going up and waited in a queue

988
01:18:47.239 --> 01:18:49.920
to get his you know, refill law to get that.

989
01:18:52.000 --> 01:18:55.960
So we got a bottle each. As she gets the glasses,

990
01:18:56.039 --> 01:18:58.720
as she starts putting ice in the glass, I said,

991
01:18:58.760 --> 01:19:02.000
no ice please. I really felt like I was being

992
01:19:02.000 --> 01:19:05.399
one of those annoying customers, and I genuinely wasn't trying

993
01:19:05.439 --> 01:19:09.920
to be annoying. If I told her that, I said it,

994
01:19:09.960 --> 01:19:13.239
I hope when everyone left, and when I said I

995
01:19:13.279 --> 01:19:15.680
wasn't trying to be awkward, then I just she said,

996
01:19:15.800 --> 01:19:19.359
I don't worry. She said I wasn't listening anyway. I

997
01:19:19.399 --> 01:19:26.560
said okay. But again the man actually said I know

998
01:19:26.680 --> 01:19:29.880
I should be either. So she seemed to get the

999
01:19:29.880 --> 01:19:34.239
alp with that that the lady beyond the bar. I

1000
01:19:34.279 --> 01:19:37.560
don't know. I mean it was, you know, it's quite

1001
01:19:37.560 --> 01:19:39.920
a nice day. I don't know if it's just standard

1002
01:19:40.600 --> 01:19:43.600
to have ice, but I never, and I do mean,

1003
01:19:43.720 --> 01:19:50.039
never have ice in my drinks ever. It's just something

1004
01:19:50.079 --> 01:19:53.319
I've learned, not since I was like in my twenties.

1005
01:19:54.119 --> 01:19:56.159
It's just one of the things I don't. I don't.

1006
01:19:57.319 --> 01:20:01.359
They're the same way I don't drink tap water. I

1007
01:20:01.399 --> 01:20:04.680
was a bottled water. It's one of my little idiosyncrasies.

1008
01:20:04.720 --> 01:20:13.199
Maybe maybe baby, maybe baby ahead you. So then all right,

1009
01:20:13.520 --> 01:20:19.439
I'm thinking, okay, well great, where's the menu. There's no menu?

1010
01:20:20.319 --> 01:20:23.800
What do you mean? So I've taken the drinks down,

1011
01:20:24.640 --> 01:20:28.159
it would put them on the tables. She said, there's

1012
01:20:28.159 --> 01:20:33.800
no menu. You just go and help yourself. Really self service?

1013
01:20:37.039 --> 01:20:39.600
What's next? Do I have to actually cut the food

1014
01:20:39.680 --> 01:20:42.600
up myself and put it in my own mouth? I

1015
01:20:42.680 --> 01:20:45.960
was like, what's going on here? The world's changing? Baby?

1016
01:20:46.479 --> 01:20:48.520
I mean, I know I don't get out much, but

1017
01:20:48.600 --> 01:20:53.239
come on, it's some going there. It's like, what's going

1018
01:20:54.479 --> 01:21:03.399
self service food? I've never it just uh uh yeah.

1019
01:21:03.960 --> 01:21:07.039
Most of it was cold, not cold wasn't hot, it

1020
01:21:07.119 --> 01:21:09.399
was kind of warm. I'm not moaning. I guess I

1021
01:21:09.399 --> 01:21:14.079
am moaning, and I really but I had a few bits.

1022
01:21:14.119 --> 01:21:17.199
I grabbed a sausage for Vinnie to bring back. He

1023
01:21:17.279 --> 01:21:21.359
was being all grumpy with me. I wonder where we

1024
01:21:21.359 --> 01:21:23.800
get it from he is he got grumpy for me,

1025
01:21:23.920 --> 01:21:27.520
or if I got grumpy from him, I don't know.

1026
01:21:30.319 --> 01:21:32.399
I think he was grumpy before he even got here.

1027
01:21:33.239 --> 01:21:38.479
He's very temperamental, unlike me. So I had I was

1028
01:21:38.600 --> 01:21:40.840
lasting a queue, so I had my breakfast. I just

1029
01:21:41.399 --> 01:21:43.560
let everyone do their thing first, and then I got

1030
01:21:43.800 --> 01:21:50.399
a few bits for me, and and I'm just like, okay.

1031
01:21:51.439 --> 01:21:55.920
There was a Yorkshire pudding, like a breakfast Yorkshire pudding,

1032
01:21:56.399 --> 01:22:00.279
and I had one because I don't think in my

1033
01:22:00.479 --> 01:22:05.039
entire lifespan, I've ever eaten a Yorkshire pudding with a

1034
01:22:05.159 --> 01:22:12.039
cook breakfast ever. And then a couple came behind me,

1035
01:22:12.680 --> 01:22:15.960
and the lady said, why were a Yorkshire put in there?

1036
01:22:17.199 --> 01:22:20.199
And he said, it's a breakfast Yorkshire pud.

1037
01:22:20.199 --> 01:22:20.279
It.

1038
01:22:22.640 --> 01:22:25.279
I think he was probably chrya like because he saw

1039
01:22:25.279 --> 01:22:27.439
that I had one of my plate Perhaps he was thinking,

1040
01:22:27.479 --> 01:22:30.359
let's not just let's not making fun of this person

1041
01:22:31.880 --> 01:22:33.800
not yet, wait till he's gone, nor will make fun

1042
01:22:33.840 --> 01:22:37.319
of him. They're probably sitting at home now tending their kids.

1043
01:22:37.760 --> 01:22:44.159
He's all this man, Oh cook breakfast. He only had

1044
01:22:44.159 --> 01:22:48.720
a Yorkshire put it on his plate. Well they're we're

1045
01:22:48.720 --> 01:22:53.399
talking about it for years. But yeah, it was quite

1046
01:22:53.479 --> 01:23:01.880
nice because you know it's it was unusual now, Yorkshire

1047
01:23:01.880 --> 01:23:11.039
putting in some egg, very unusual. So we have to

1048
01:23:11.039 --> 01:23:18.159
dinner the breakfast rather, I'm guessing at about ten o'clock, No,

1049
01:23:18.279 --> 01:23:22.239
probably half ten, about half ten we got that, I'd

1050
01:23:22.319 --> 01:23:30.279
say half nine year probably caught past ten, half ten.

1051
01:23:31.640 --> 01:23:41.079
I got here back here before eleven, No, did I.

1052
01:23:43.199 --> 01:23:43.279
No?

1053
01:23:43.319 --> 01:23:47.399
I think I got back here about half eleven something

1054
01:23:47.479 --> 01:23:49.680
like that. So we were probably in there about an

1055
01:23:49.720 --> 01:23:56.319
hour and we were just talking about uncle's sausages, and

1056
01:23:56.359 --> 01:23:58.479
they were telling me stuff that I'd not heard before,

1057
01:23:58.520 --> 01:24:00.560
and I was telling the stuff that they had not before.

1058
01:24:00.640 --> 01:24:05.399
Because I had a lot more contact with him than

1059
01:24:05.439 --> 01:24:08.399
anyone else. I was the only person that had regular

1060
01:24:08.439 --> 01:24:13.319
contact with him, as in face to face, because he

1061
01:24:13.399 --> 01:24:18.199
was always when it was like a little school kid,

1062
01:24:18.319 --> 01:24:21.159
sometimes like a little naughty boy, because whenever he did

1063
01:24:21.199 --> 01:24:25.279
something that was a bit I don't know, Okay, it

1064
01:24:25.399 --> 01:24:30.159
do something and it's say, don't tell her. That was

1065
01:24:30.199 --> 01:24:34.439
his do the other the other lady, and she looked

1066
01:24:34.479 --> 01:24:36.520
out for him. She bought him, used to get him

1067
01:24:36.520 --> 01:24:42.119
food once a month and water him, and had over Christmas.

1068
01:24:42.199 --> 01:24:44.079
So she'd known him for a long time, or he'd

1069
01:24:44.119 --> 01:24:47.119
known her for a long time, about thirty odd years.

1070
01:24:49.520 --> 01:24:52.119
But whenever he did anything that was like that, he

1071
01:24:52.199 --> 01:24:53.760
knew that she'd disapprove of.

1072
01:24:55.399 --> 01:24:55.439
It.

1073
01:24:55.560 --> 01:25:00.359
Swear me to secrecy, don't tell her. She'd tell me off,

1074
01:25:01.880 --> 01:25:05.520
I'll be in trouble. It's like you're seventy eight years old,

1075
01:25:05.520 --> 01:25:08.000
which mean you'd be in trouble. You can literally do

1076
01:25:08.039 --> 01:25:12.079
pretty much anything you want and get away with it,

1077
01:25:12.199 --> 01:25:15.319
you know, within a reason. And just like, oh sorry,

1078
01:25:15.399 --> 01:25:19.560
I'm old. I didn't realize what I was doing. Oh sorry,

1079
01:25:21.239 --> 01:25:27.000
he's evening in hospital. It's like, well, when something happened,

1080
01:25:27.319 --> 01:25:31.680
don't tell her, don't tell her, don't tell her. It's like,

1081
01:25:31.840 --> 01:25:34.800
what do you mean, don't tell her? Well, she's on holiday's,

1082
01:25:35.319 --> 01:25:38.520
she's she's it was her birthday today, and I don't

1083
01:25:38.520 --> 01:25:41.399
want her to be upset. I mean, this is when

1084
01:25:41.479 --> 01:25:45.520
he was given some really really bad news I don't

1085
01:25:45.520 --> 01:25:48.680
tell her. Don't let her know because she's her birthday

1086
01:25:48.720 --> 01:25:52.439
today and I don't want to ruin her birthday. So

1087
01:25:52.720 --> 01:26:00.680
I kept my promise and he told her days later.

1088
01:26:03.520 --> 01:26:07.399
It turns out it wasn't her birthday. Her birthday was

1089
01:26:07.439 --> 01:26:14.279
like three weeks ago, and she was I think she's

1090
01:26:14.319 --> 01:26:16.199
a little bit annoyed at me because I didn't tell her.

1091
01:26:16.760 --> 01:26:19.279
But he probably he'd like, Eve like, don't tell her.

1092
01:26:19.319 --> 01:26:22.359
If you tell her, I know you told her, Oh yeah,

1093
01:26:22.359 --> 01:26:25.319
but she needs to know you've he's only know he'd

1094
01:26:25.359 --> 01:26:27.119
known me for ten years, but he'd known her for

1095
01:26:27.159 --> 01:26:33.119
a lot longer. And I don't tell her if you

1096
01:26:33.199 --> 01:26:35.359
had it like a bit of difficulty during the night,

1097
01:26:36.079 --> 01:26:43.520
don't tell her. It's between me and you. What in

1098
01:26:43.600 --> 01:26:49.840
the end? I mean, I say in the end. But

1099
01:26:50.079 --> 01:26:52.800
after a couple of weeks of this, I just decided

1100
01:26:52.880 --> 01:26:55.520
just to tell her stuff. I said, Oh, this is

1101
01:26:55.520 --> 01:26:59.600
something else he told me not to tell you, And

1102
01:26:59.640 --> 01:27:03.880
it's because sometimes she say to me, yeah, he said

1103
01:27:03.920 --> 01:27:06.800
the same to me, don't tell you. So he's tell

1104
01:27:06.880 --> 01:27:08.840
us a both say the same thing and then saying

1105
01:27:08.880 --> 01:27:16.159
don't tell them. Don't tell Jason what happened? So yeah,

1106
01:27:16.239 --> 01:27:20.399
it's weird when I talk about I'm missing it's such

1107
01:27:20.439 --> 01:27:26.279
a character really, And I nearly made a podcast episode

1108
01:27:26.359 --> 01:27:30.039
with him, and he wants to do something in the hospital,

1109
01:27:31.880 --> 01:27:34.760
and I thought it'd be good to do. But then

1110
01:27:34.960 --> 01:27:38.399
I also knew that we were going to be interrupted continuously,

1111
01:27:39.439 --> 01:27:42.119
which is not anyone's fault. It's just you know, the

1112
01:27:42.119 --> 01:27:49.760
hospital wasn't there as a recording studio for me and him.

1113
01:27:49.920 --> 01:27:52.199
And then also I said, well, yeah, I can bring

1114
01:27:52.239 --> 01:27:55.039
a recorder in and we can do something. He said, well,

1115
01:27:55.119 --> 01:27:58.439
go home and write a script. I said, I don't.

1116
01:27:58.640 --> 01:28:01.800
I don't write scripts for these let me boy the

1117
01:28:01.840 --> 01:28:05.760
Sleep podcast. I just he said, oh, come on, put

1118
01:28:05.760 --> 01:28:08.399
your head, put your thinking head on. It's like, I'm

1119
01:28:08.439 --> 01:28:12.720
not words or gummage. Go on, you can, you can.

1120
01:28:13.600 --> 01:28:16.880
But it was like, really, it's almost like it was

1121
01:28:16.880 --> 01:28:22.279
in the middle of being rude and being complimentary at

1122
01:28:22.319 --> 01:28:28.319
the same time. So on one level saying pull your

1123
01:28:28.319 --> 01:28:30.840
finger out, just put a bit of effort in, but

1124
01:28:30.880 --> 01:28:34.479
at the same time saying you can do it. You can.

1125
01:28:34.560 --> 01:28:37.000
You can write a very clever script and then make

1126
01:28:37.039 --> 01:28:41.560
it funny. And it's like, that's not how I do things.

1127
01:28:42.399 --> 01:28:44.520
It has to be organic and it has to be

1128
01:28:45.640 --> 01:28:52.520
just go with it and see what happens. And that

1129
01:28:52.720 --> 01:29:00.279
was I mean literally the last time we talked about

1130
01:29:00.319 --> 01:29:04.560
that was just before I got COVID and had to

1131
01:29:04.560 --> 01:29:06.359
have a week off, and when I came back, he

1132
01:29:06.399 --> 01:29:12.760
was asleep all the time. So I kind of just

1133
01:29:12.800 --> 01:29:15.239
wish i'd just done it. I pulled it in and

1134
01:29:15.319 --> 01:29:19.000
said to him, look, I'll just edit it or do it.

1135
01:29:19.159 --> 01:29:23.159
Just talk about your life, talk about you know whatever,

1136
01:29:23.920 --> 01:29:28.960
just so that because at this point I've been talking

1137
01:29:29.000 --> 01:29:33.680
about him, you know, since he since he went in there,

1138
01:29:34.039 --> 01:29:39.000
I've been talking about him, and I kind of feel

1139
01:29:39.039 --> 01:29:42.439
that maybe some listeners get a sense of what he

1140
01:29:42.600 --> 01:29:51.000
was like, and you know, but it'd be I think

1141
01:29:51.039 --> 01:29:55.479
it'd be nice to have a voice to listen to, to

1142
01:29:55.359 --> 01:30:09.119
hear him, you know. Yeah, Oh well, how do you

1143
01:30:09.199 --> 01:30:12.720
think about that? With like Luke, I didn't have his voice.

1144
01:30:12.800 --> 01:30:18.279
And I had one video of him with Andre always

1145
01:30:18.319 --> 01:30:20.800
he with Vinnie. I don't know, but he was I

1146
01:30:20.840 --> 01:30:23.560
think it might have been Vinnie, and that he was

1147
01:30:23.600 --> 01:30:25.920
there and he was like playing with him and stuff,

1148
01:30:26.119 --> 01:30:28.640
and I had some videos of him with Andre and

1149
01:30:28.720 --> 01:30:32.319
pictures and stuff, but I didn't really have his voice

1150
01:30:32.359 --> 01:30:36.159
on there. I had nothing of his voice on and

1151
01:30:36.199 --> 01:30:39.239
there's a specific reason for that, because he didn't want

1152
01:30:40.079 --> 01:30:42.840
He never wanted to be on camera, didn't want me

1153
01:30:42.920 --> 01:30:47.760
filming him or recording him. I said to him, why

1154
01:30:47.760 --> 01:30:51.039
don't we just do a podcast, you know, one time,

1155
01:30:51.239 --> 01:30:54.840
just like just a one off. No, one hundred percent

1156
01:30:55.279 --> 01:30:57.920
did not want It's almost that he didn't want any

1157
01:30:57.960 --> 01:31:05.960
record of himself on any type of digital format. And

1158
01:31:06.000 --> 01:31:09.600
it's a shame because it would have been nice because

1159
01:31:09.600 --> 01:31:15.439
the thing about him and Uncle Sausages when they smiled,

1160
01:31:16.119 --> 01:31:22.319
they really smiled, you know. It was as you could

1161
01:31:22.319 --> 01:31:24.760
say that about anyone really couldn't, I suppose, But there

1162
01:31:24.840 --> 01:31:29.479
was a there was a brightness to it. There was

1163
01:31:29.520 --> 01:31:35.239
a real uplift to their smile that was genuine. It

1164
01:31:35.319 --> 01:31:39.079
was never fake. I never saw Luke put a fake

1165
01:31:39.159 --> 01:31:43.479
smile on the whole time, and knew him and Uncle

1166
01:31:43.520 --> 01:31:47.479
Sausages are the same. You know, it didn't have to.

1167
01:31:48.279 --> 01:31:50.560
They were never in scenarios where they had to put

1168
01:31:50.560 --> 01:31:54.880
on a fake smile. So when they did smile, I

1169
01:31:54.880 --> 01:31:57.600
mean Uncle Sausages was smiling a lot because he loved sport.

1170
01:31:57.800 --> 01:32:07.199
He's always excited about the next sporting event Luke. He

1171
01:32:07.359 --> 01:32:13.159
smiled when it was just genuinely a smile, if that

1172
01:32:13.239 --> 01:32:21.000
makes sense. The one thing that Uncle sausages. I noticed

1173
01:32:21.000 --> 01:32:23.680
this when I was in hospital. Actually it wasn't only

1174
01:32:24.000 --> 01:32:27.600
I noticed it, probably because last year we got a

1175
01:32:27.600 --> 01:32:36.800
lot closer the last year anyway, And I noticed that

1176
01:32:36.840 --> 01:32:39.000
when he looked at me sometimes he reminded me of

1177
01:32:39.000 --> 01:32:42.640
my Nan. His eyes. He had the sort of same

1178
01:32:42.720 --> 01:32:44.920
kind of look in his eyes, like smiley eyes that

1179
01:32:45.000 --> 01:32:50.840
my Nan had. And I noticed that in hospital that

1180
01:32:50.960 --> 01:32:53.079
he had he had that look, and he kept reminding

1181
01:32:53.159 --> 01:32:58.359
me of my Nan, that kind of looking up at

1182
01:32:58.439 --> 01:33:03.680
me with that smile. The eyes. It didn't need to

1183
01:33:03.680 --> 01:33:06.119
be smile of his face, it's his eyes were smiling.

1184
01:33:07.279 --> 01:33:16.760
And yeah, yeah, So I had my breakfast, came back,

1185
01:33:18.920 --> 01:33:22.119
gave Viny the sausage. He didn't want it. It was

1186
01:33:22.640 --> 01:33:29.920
really grumpy. He turned his nose up at it was

1187
01:33:30.000 --> 01:33:33.479
that many thing. I don't want that. So I literally

1188
01:33:33.600 --> 01:33:37.359
stole the sausage from the restaurant for him, put it

1189
01:33:37.359 --> 01:33:42.039
in a napkin to be It wasn't really stealing, because

1190
01:33:42.039 --> 01:33:45.359
I've been very loud of it, Like I can't believe

1191
01:33:45.399 --> 01:33:51.079
I've never stole a sausage before I paid for the sausage.

1192
01:33:51.199 --> 01:33:53.880
I don't think it's really stealing, is it. I don't

1193
01:33:53.920 --> 01:33:59.880
think so. If you go into McDonald's and you shove

1194
01:34:00.680 --> 01:34:09.119
you got a quarter pounder with cheese, fries and and McMuffin,

1195
01:34:11.279 --> 01:34:15.239
and you shoved the McMuffin down your pants, it's not steel,

1196
01:34:15.279 --> 01:34:24.159
is it, because you bought it already. So I bought

1197
01:34:24.199 --> 01:34:27.840
the sausage back and he didn't want it. He had

1198
01:34:27.880 --> 01:34:30.039
the help with me. He really was grumpy with me,

1199
01:34:32.399 --> 01:34:34.920
so I had I didn't have anything to eat, so

1200
01:34:35.159 --> 01:34:38.920
I wasn't hungry at that point. I sat down for

1201
01:34:38.960 --> 01:34:40.840
a little while and then I went to bed, had

1202
01:34:40.840 --> 01:34:43.600
a idea did to go and never lie down. So

1203
01:34:43.640 --> 01:34:45.640
he came into the bedroom me still didn't want a

1204
01:34:45.680 --> 01:34:49.960
sausage because I bought the sausage into the bedroom with me.

1205
01:34:52.239 --> 01:34:55.199
And so when I go into the bedroom, I take

1206
01:34:55.239 --> 01:34:57.359
his food and his water in the bedroom with me

1207
01:34:58.039 --> 01:35:00.239
and I bring it back in here. So wherever whatever

1208
01:35:00.359 --> 01:35:02.279
room we're in, I make sure it's always goes water

1209
01:35:02.359 --> 01:35:07.800
in his food. And I was probably had about half

1210
01:35:07.880 --> 01:35:11.279
hour an hour little kip for about half hour to

1211
01:35:11.319 --> 01:35:20.119
an hour, maybe an hour listening to some music Radio three.

1212
01:35:20.319 --> 01:35:24.439
It is my go to at the moment. A lot

1213
01:35:24.439 --> 01:35:30.840
of classical sound music on the orchestras and stuff like that.

1214
01:35:31.640 --> 01:35:38.560
And I've really kind of fallen in love with Chindler's

1215
01:35:38.600 --> 01:35:43.720
List album, the music for the movie. It's something about

1216
01:35:43.760 --> 01:35:45.079
that do Do.

1217
01:35:44.640 --> 01:35:48.199
Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do Do.

1218
01:35:47.880 --> 01:35:50.399
Do Do Do Do Do.

1219
01:35:50.159 --> 01:35:52.960
Do Do Do Do Do do do.

1220
01:35:55.000 --> 01:35:58.880
Oh. It's chips. It's chips. I don't know. I can't

1221
01:35:58.880 --> 01:36:01.279
remember what the song is, but it's it's a good song.

1222
01:36:02.479 --> 01:36:11.680
And I still think the bon Jovi's greatest song. While

1223
01:36:11.680 --> 01:36:14.800
we're talking about songs, bon Jovi's great song was Living

1224
01:36:14.800 --> 01:36:18.039
on a Prayer because that was out at the same

1225
01:36:18.039 --> 01:36:20.720
time as The Final Countdown by Europe. I do believe

1226
01:36:21.840 --> 01:36:26.520
it's the Final Cowtown because I used that in a joke.

1227
01:36:30.279 --> 01:36:34.760
It's kind of ruined because I've said it. But when

1228
01:36:34.800 --> 01:36:37.640
I was doing my last job, they were making loads

1229
01:36:37.640 --> 01:36:41.279
of redundancies and stuff like that, and that the man

1230
01:36:42.000 --> 01:36:45.640
who was representing the company, the financial company that just

1231
01:36:45.760 --> 01:36:48.680
bought the company I was working for, they didn't know

1232
01:36:48.680 --> 01:36:50.640
what they were going to do with it. They were

1233
01:36:50.640 --> 01:36:53.359
looking for buyers and they just bought it for the money.

1234
01:36:53.479 --> 01:36:58.039
You bought it for the probably the building and whatever else.

1235
01:36:59.079 --> 01:37:03.159
So he said, well, we're going to try and get

1236
01:37:03.199 --> 01:37:08.439
a buyer for this insurance company. We're going to be

1237
01:37:08.439 --> 01:37:10.159
splitting things up, but we're going to try and get

1238
01:37:10.159 --> 01:37:17.359
a buyer for the for the car insurance side. But

1239
01:37:18.039 --> 01:37:19.920
what we're going to do, we'll be honest with you. You know,

1240
01:37:20.399 --> 01:37:25.840
we don't know what's going to happen. And he said,

1241
01:37:27.359 --> 01:37:31.399
but we want to stay positive. We appreciate you, and

1242
01:37:31.720 --> 01:37:35.439
you know all that stuff. And he played a little

1243
01:37:35.520 --> 01:37:41.119
video like showing the company that he belonged to, because

1244
01:37:41.159 --> 01:37:44.119
they were like one of these acquisition companies, so they'd

1245
01:37:44.119 --> 01:37:47.119
buy something and sometimes they just all they do is

1246
01:37:47.119 --> 01:37:51.439
because they wanted the business, the customers, and then they

1247
01:37:51.439 --> 01:37:58.560
could just sell those customers to a different insurance company.

1248
01:37:59.159 --> 01:38:01.239
So he had this it's like little video, this is

1249
01:38:01.279 --> 01:38:04.760
what we do, and this is you know, and then

1250
01:38:04.800 --> 01:38:10.279
he said he played some music and he said, well

1251
01:38:11.039 --> 01:38:12.720
we're going to end this now. We going to end

1252
01:38:12.720 --> 01:38:16.680
this little session because they shut all the phones off

1253
01:38:16.680 --> 01:38:19.279
and everything. So it was probably about one hundred and

1254
01:38:19.279 --> 01:38:22.520
fifty of us in there, maybe less, I don't maybe

1255
01:38:22.520 --> 01:38:26.119
one hundred and fifty, maybe one hundred, I don't know.

1256
01:38:26.159 --> 01:38:31.239
I didn't count everyone. And he had this CD player

1257
01:38:31.279 --> 01:38:35.720
and he said, so we just we'll end this now

1258
01:38:35.800 --> 01:38:40.079
with a song, and what would be a suitable song

1259
01:38:40.960 --> 01:38:44.359
to end this little session with? And I shouted out

1260
01:38:44.520 --> 01:38:51.800
the final countdown? And it got a good laugh because

1261
01:38:51.840 --> 01:38:54.359
it was like, you know, it was the final countdown

1262
01:38:54.399 --> 01:38:59.560
for the company, literally because I did close. He didn't

1263
01:38:59.560 --> 01:39:06.079
find it funny, and neither did my supervisor. But I

1264
01:39:06.119 --> 01:39:09.159
thought it was quite quick of me, bearing in mind

1265
01:39:09.239 --> 01:39:11.479
the situation. I think it was a scenario. I think

1266
01:39:11.479 --> 01:39:18.359
I was quite quick, but it was ruined by me

1267
01:39:18.399 --> 01:39:21.039
telling you right at the beginning pretty much that I

1268
01:39:21.079 --> 01:39:23.960
was going to shout out it was the final countdown,

1269
01:39:23.960 --> 01:39:27.920
because I've already mentioned it. But living on a prayer,

1270
01:39:30.279 --> 01:39:35.279
I mean, bon jovid. Did they really became absolutely massive

1271
01:39:35.319 --> 01:39:40.760
in the early nineties, didn't they like huge axel rows?

1272
01:39:40.880 --> 01:39:44.560
It was like the biggest thing in the world. But

1273
01:39:44.600 --> 01:39:49.680
I still think like a prayer in nineteen eighty five,

1274
01:39:50.039 --> 01:39:56.600
was it still the best thing they did? So good,

1275
01:39:56.800 --> 01:40:02.560
such a great song. In fact, I don't even remember

1276
01:40:02.560 --> 01:40:11.720
anything they did in the nineties. Don't you give love

1277
01:40:11.760 --> 01:40:16.520
a bad name. That was also in the eighties, but

1278
01:40:16.600 --> 01:40:19.479
they were like a supergroup, weren't They are absolutely massive

1279
01:40:19.479 --> 01:40:28.640
in the nineties. Huh. And then I got up, I

1280
01:40:28.680 --> 01:40:34.600
took Vinny for another wander around the park. Oh yeah,

1281
01:40:35.319 --> 01:40:39.920
that's when we're going through the field. It's a cornfield,

1282
01:40:40.119 --> 01:40:44.119
united sweet corn on a cop sweet corn. They're growing

1283
01:40:44.159 --> 01:40:53.640
sweet corn. I'm talking millions of sweet corns, probably hundreds

1284
01:40:53.680 --> 01:40:58.760
of thousands of sweet corns, maybe millions, I don't know.

1285
01:40:58.920 --> 01:41:02.000
It's too many to count or too many for me

1286
01:41:02.039 --> 01:41:05.880
to count. And they're like four or five fields, absolutely

1287
01:41:06.000 --> 01:41:09.720
huge amounts. And I didn't know it was a sweet corn,

1288
01:41:11.079 --> 01:41:13.199
and I saw one on the floor. I said, what

1289
01:41:13.239 --> 01:41:16.680
if someone dropped a sweet corn on the floor? And

1290
01:41:16.720 --> 01:41:21.119
I saw that what it is is someone had clearly

1291
01:41:21.199 --> 01:41:25.399
just picked one off and stripped it off, and it

1292
01:41:25.439 --> 01:41:33.039
wasn't ripe, but it was definitely a sweet corn. And

1293
01:41:33.079 --> 01:41:35.560
I'm thinking, how much did this sweet corns cost in

1294
01:41:35.560 --> 01:41:39.359
the shop? About two pounds per sweet corn or something.

1295
01:41:41.239 --> 01:41:48.119
And I'm literally walking through a field millions of pounds

1296
01:41:48.119 --> 01:41:54.840
worth of sweet corns, and it was just really for

1297
01:41:54.880 --> 01:41:57.640
the first time, it's really weird because I've never really

1298
01:41:57.640 --> 01:42:01.800
felt that way about because I don't know much about crops.

1299
01:42:01.840 --> 01:42:04.359
I don't know much about you know, what things are worth.

1300
01:42:06.960 --> 01:42:09.840
But I do like sweet corns, and I know that

1301
01:42:09.880 --> 01:42:18.279
they're not cheap until literally just pass thousands. I can

1302
01:42:18.399 --> 01:42:21.600
just put my hand out and touch thousands as I

1303
01:42:21.680 --> 01:42:32.159
walked up a sweet corns, and I'm like, hmm, but

1304
01:42:32.199 --> 01:42:35.560
I'm thinking when they're right, maybe I'll just take a

1305
01:42:35.600 --> 01:42:43.600
few for myself and maybe the rest of the country

1306
01:42:44.239 --> 01:42:46.800
take all of them. Maybe just maybe just take one

1307
01:42:46.840 --> 01:42:51.399
and see if it's if, you know, if I'm able

1308
01:42:51.399 --> 01:42:56.319
to actually eat it, and if i am, then next

1309
01:42:56.439 --> 01:42:59.319
year I'll do the same thing and just maybe put

1310
01:42:59.319 --> 01:43:03.560
a few in the free or something. I mean, is

1311
01:43:03.600 --> 01:43:08.439
it stealing, it's technically it's it's coming out of the earth,

1312
01:43:09.920 --> 01:43:13.800
our earth that we all share, and it's in a

1313
01:43:13.840 --> 01:43:22.119
public place. I don't know, is it It's not that

1314
01:43:22.159 --> 01:43:25.079
I want to I mean to me, is that any

1315
01:43:25.119 --> 01:43:32.239
different from just taking raspberries, you know, picking raspberries or

1316
01:43:33.680 --> 01:43:36.319
take you know, picking bananas off a tree or apples

1317
01:43:36.359 --> 01:43:41.119
off a tree. I mean, there's this tree, it's an

1318
01:43:41.199 --> 01:43:47.239
apple tree in the park. It's inside someone's garden, but

1319
01:43:47.279 --> 01:43:50.119
there's a fence, so half the apples are dropping on

1320
01:43:50.119 --> 01:43:55.199
the field. You're on the park every day. I'd say

1321
01:43:55.199 --> 01:44:02.479
probably at least ten fifteen twenty apple falling down. I'm

1322
01:44:02.520 --> 01:44:05.159
exaggerating for a fact, but a good few at least,

1323
01:44:07.439 --> 01:44:11.920
probably a handful a bowl full of apples falling down

1324
01:44:12.439 --> 01:44:17.439
into the park. It's free apples. What do I do?

1325
01:44:17.479 --> 01:44:25.680
I kicked them. I kicked them. I kicked them, and

1326
01:44:25.720 --> 01:44:28.640
then I forget how to say the word kicked them

1327
01:44:28.760 --> 01:44:34.000
or the sentence I kick him along because Vinnie loves

1328
01:44:34.079 --> 01:44:39.840
chasing them and he eats them. And for some reason,

1329
01:44:39.960 --> 01:44:46.920
because they're in a tree, I kind of think, oh,

1330
01:44:47.079 --> 01:44:52.600
there's gotta be something wrong with them. But the fact

1331
01:44:52.760 --> 01:44:55.760
is they're falling out of the tree because they're ripe

1332
01:44:55.960 --> 01:45:00.880
and they're ready. It's nothing's forced am out of the tree.

1333
01:45:01.359 --> 01:45:04.000
It's not being it wasn't windy or anything. It's just

1334
01:45:04.479 --> 01:45:07.239
it's time for them to fall out. And I could

1335
01:45:07.239 --> 01:45:11.000
have literally just picked them up, brought them home and

1336
01:45:11.039 --> 01:45:15.720
eaten them, clean them off first, got with the skin,

1337
01:45:16.439 --> 01:45:19.920
because you know, check make sure there's nothing in them.

1338
01:45:19.920 --> 01:45:26.239
But I could have had an apple, I could have

1339
01:45:26.239 --> 01:45:29.199
put more in the freeze freezer with my sweet corn.

1340
01:45:31.279 --> 01:45:33.399
Put in the freezer with a sweet corn. I must

1341
01:45:33.439 --> 01:45:41.840
have a huge freezer. I did see these these sweet corns.

1342
01:45:43.359 --> 01:45:50.399
I would say that about ten fifteen foot high. Not

1343
01:45:50.439 --> 01:45:56.560
the sweet corns themselves, but the the plants really way

1344
01:45:56.720 --> 01:46:01.880
way taller than me. Maybe not fifty but probably good

1345
01:46:01.960 --> 01:46:07.720
ten foot i'd say, yeah, well taller than me. A

1346
01:46:07.720 --> 01:46:14.880
lot taller than me, and I'm eight foot. So it's

1347
01:46:15.000 --> 01:46:18.000
quite a good place for animals to sort of hang

1348
01:46:18.039 --> 01:46:20.720
out and hide. And the other day I saw a

1349
01:46:20.760 --> 01:46:24.800
bambi run through, like run right out of one and

1350
01:46:24.840 --> 01:46:27.720
then into another one out of one field and into

1351
01:46:27.760 --> 01:46:34.640
another field because they're like really close together. Made me jump,

1352
01:46:34.680 --> 01:46:47.600
it did. That's the whole story. There isn't anything else.

1353
01:46:48.600 --> 01:46:56.560
I can't see nothing else. That was everything. Sorry. Sorry.

1354
01:46:57.000 --> 01:47:03.479
Then I came home again, had those deliveries. I also

1355
01:47:03.600 --> 01:47:12.640
got a few grocery deliveries between two and four, but

1356
01:47:12.720 --> 01:47:16.199
they weren't groceries. It was but it was just like

1357
01:47:16.319 --> 01:47:20.640
bottles of water, some breakfast cereals, and a couple of

1358
01:47:20.680 --> 01:47:26.920
packets of villeage treats. No food. I mean breakfast cereal

1359
01:47:26.960 --> 01:47:30.600
is food, but no food food. I got my fridge

1360
01:47:30.680 --> 01:47:33.359
is empty apart from milk. I've got some milk as well.

1361
01:47:33.920 --> 01:47:38.159
So I with the milk, some butter and some margarine

1362
01:47:38.560 --> 01:47:41.199
and half a tin of dog food. There's nothing in

1363
01:47:41.199 --> 01:47:52.119
my fridge. Loads of breakfast cereal. Yeah, so what I'll

1364
01:47:52.159 --> 01:47:54.640
do tomorrow i''ll have to try and get some groceries

1365
01:47:54.680 --> 01:48:03.039
and mutual food in. I'll figure that out tomorrow. I

1366
01:48:03.039 --> 01:48:07.119
could get something tonight, but I don't need to. I

1367
01:48:07.159 --> 01:48:08.800
don't need to get anything. I've got enough for my

1368
01:48:08.840 --> 01:48:16.680
breakfast in the morning. Yeah, that's fine, and I have

1369
01:48:16.720 --> 01:48:20.079
some breakfast. I have a bowl of breakfast cereal now

1370
01:48:20.680 --> 01:48:23.880
because I had a cooked breakfast earlier, cooked dinner whatever,

1371
01:48:26.359 --> 01:48:33.479
and it's more. I'll probably order get some I don't know,

1372
01:48:34.960 --> 01:48:38.319
I don't I'm not sure, but get a few groceries

1373
01:48:38.960 --> 01:48:46.159
to get them delivered tomorrow morning when I'm up and

1374
01:48:46.199 --> 01:48:51.520
that and then then I did this recording. And that's

1375
01:48:51.560 --> 01:48:57.239
that's kind of what I've done today. Although the council

1376
01:48:57.279 --> 01:48:59.319
called me yesterday to say have I got the key?

1377
01:48:59.640 --> 01:49:02.560
I still got the key to Uncle Sausages Flat And

1378
01:49:02.600 --> 01:49:04.960
I said yeah, And I said, you're going to bring

1379
01:49:04.960 --> 01:49:10.479
it into us to the office. I said, no, that's

1380
01:49:10.600 --> 01:49:13.479
like that's going to cost people forty quid to get

1381
01:49:13.520 --> 01:49:16.319
them back. It's like, no, I'm not proud not doing that.

1382
01:49:16.800 --> 01:49:18.840
I said, you want the key, come and get it.

1383
01:49:19.960 --> 01:49:22.840
Or I'd said I can do I can just leave

1384
01:49:22.880 --> 01:49:25.680
the key in the door in the lock, you know,

1385
01:49:25.760 --> 01:49:28.359
for you, so then when you come around you can

1386
01:49:28.399 --> 01:49:31.039
just let yourself in. And she said, no, I can't

1387
01:49:31.079 --> 01:49:37.800
do that because someone might come in and basically, what

1388
01:49:37.840 --> 01:49:44.159
do they call it? Live there for free? I said, well,

1389
01:49:44.399 --> 01:49:47.600
it's up to you. But and then she said, if

1390
01:49:47.600 --> 01:49:49.560
you entered it, if you if you cleared all the

1391
01:49:49.600 --> 01:49:54.279
stuff out. I said no, no, because I did try,

1392
01:49:54.319 --> 01:49:56.079
and at first of all, I was told that we

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01:49:56.159 --> 01:49:58.720
needed to do that. So I offered to help to

1394
01:49:59.560 --> 01:50:01.920
bags stuff up put it outside, and I did. I

1395
01:50:01.960 --> 01:50:07.920
did about fifty sixty bags, and then when I was

1396
01:50:07.920 --> 01:50:10.720
a little bit unwell, I went in there just and

1397
01:50:11.239 --> 01:50:14.760
bagged up and put about another fifty bags of stuff.

1398
01:50:15.760 --> 01:50:21.279
So I've cleared most of the stuff apart from the furniture,

1399
01:50:21.840 --> 01:50:24.840
so most of it is actually bagged up. I've left

1400
01:50:24.840 --> 01:50:28.479
about fifty bags in there, and the council can come

1401
01:50:28.479 --> 01:50:32.279
and take that. The reason I didn't put those outside

1402
01:50:32.319 --> 01:50:34.039
is because the council told me I didn't need to.

1403
01:50:34.800 --> 01:50:36.920
They said, I don't worry about it, we'll sort it out.

1404
01:50:38.199 --> 01:50:39.960
And then she calls up and says, have I done it?

1405
01:50:40.079 --> 01:50:46.520
Like no? So and then the council they were here

1406
01:50:46.720 --> 01:50:55.520
today emptying the flat downstairs, and I went down. I said,

1407
01:50:56.319 --> 01:50:59.760
I just checking. Do you want the key for of

1408
01:50:59.760 --> 01:51:05.640
course sausages flat? And they said no. I said, I'm

1409
01:51:05.680 --> 01:51:08.880
just asking because the council phone yesterday and they said,

1410
01:51:08.880 --> 01:51:11.800
you're going to be coming around and she said no.

1411
01:51:11.960 --> 01:51:14.560
He said, I don't know anything about it. I said, okay,

1412
01:51:14.560 --> 01:51:19.479
I don't worry. So it might be a different crew

1413
01:51:19.720 --> 01:51:23.760
that come around next week or tomorrow, whenever they come,

1414
01:51:24.039 --> 01:51:26.760
I don't know. But I can't guarantee I'm going to

1415
01:51:26.760 --> 01:51:29.920
be in It's not that I go out a lot,

1416
01:51:29.960 --> 01:51:32.279
but I might, you know, I might be in bed,

1417
01:51:32.600 --> 01:51:39.640
might be asleep, I might be taking Vinie to the park.

1418
01:51:41.520 --> 01:51:43.439
So yeah, it's not that I'm going to be out

1419
01:51:43.560 --> 01:51:51.359
raving reval revol Tell me. Tell me I got Buddy

1420
01:51:51.399 --> 01:51:59.079
Holly in my head recently. Do you ever like sit

1421
01:51:59.159 --> 01:52:03.439
around thinking? I wonder what Buddy Holly would have done

1422
01:52:04.479 --> 01:52:11.520
if he'd been around for a long time, you know,

1423
01:52:11.600 --> 01:52:14.720
because he was young. He's like twenty two years old.

1424
01:52:14.760 --> 01:52:18.920
I think when he kind of he did his fame

1425
01:52:19.000 --> 01:52:25.880
and he was gone, and he was so prolific in

1426
01:52:26.039 --> 01:52:29.800
such a short time. Imagine what he could have accomplished

1427
01:52:29.840 --> 01:52:39.239
between by the time he got to thirty. Musically, he

1428
01:52:39.279 --> 01:52:46.039
could have been I just he could have been the

1429
01:52:46.119 --> 01:52:47.880
big I mean he was big, but he could have

1430
01:52:47.960 --> 01:52:52.399
been like but you think now, I mean he'd been

1431
01:52:52.479 --> 01:52:56.560
his Wow. So he was in his early twenties, in

1432
01:52:56.600 --> 01:53:06.439
the fifties, maybe it's nineties now, I guess, but he

1433
01:53:07.359 --> 01:53:09.960
might have been a lot of starting in this one today.

1434
01:53:09.960 --> 01:53:13.520
Have you noticed that he might have been like the

1435
01:53:13.560 --> 01:53:19.319
most prolific songwriter of all time. There's a few really

1436
01:53:19.319 --> 01:53:25.600
prolific songwriters, but he might have been the number one. Wow.

1437
01:53:31.079 --> 01:53:35.279
I remember, like in the nineties, I serenaded a lady

1438
01:53:35.439 --> 01:53:47.520
that I met and I sung true Love Ways. She said,

1439
01:53:47.520 --> 01:53:52.920
I really, I said, are you I'm not going to

1440
01:53:52.920 --> 01:53:57.600
be rude of I said, I said, so, I'm never

1441
01:53:57.600 --> 01:54:01.159
really sure when a woman's turned on. And she said,

1442
01:54:01.199 --> 01:54:06.439
you know what I'm turned on? I said why? She said, well,

1443
01:54:06.479 --> 01:54:11.000
you know, if I'm enjoying. I like getting serenaded too,

1444
01:54:14.359 --> 01:54:17.479
And when I was serenaded too, that turns me on

1445
01:54:17.520 --> 01:54:21.079
more than anything in the world. I said, really. She

1446
01:54:21.119 --> 01:54:27.079
said yeah, so I someun true love ways to her.

1447
01:54:29.720 --> 01:54:33.479
Never saw her again after that, I mean after I

1448
01:54:33.520 --> 01:54:40.159
saund the song, she said, I get out. I thought

1449
01:54:40.159 --> 01:54:45.479
it went quite well. I saw her a few years later,

1450
01:54:46.000 --> 01:54:49.640
right because she was like on around the comedy scene,

1451
01:54:50.199 --> 01:54:56.439
and I said, do you remember that night? She said yeah.

1452
01:54:56.640 --> 01:54:58.880
I said, what did I do wrong? He said, you

1453
01:54:59.079 --> 01:55:05.119
liked buddy Hole and you're like being serenaded. She said yeah.

1454
01:55:05.760 --> 01:55:08.279
I said, what you didn't I sung it and then

1455
01:55:08.279 --> 01:55:11.239
you kind of didn't want me if you asked me

1456
01:55:11.279 --> 01:55:15.119
to leave sort of straight away, and she said yeah.

1457
01:55:15.319 --> 01:55:18.199
I said, well, I'm just wondering for the future. What

1458
01:55:18.359 --> 01:55:23.039
can I have done different? She said, well, it was

1459
01:55:23.079 --> 01:55:29.720
a nice song. I said yeah. She said it was

1460
01:55:29.800 --> 01:55:32.439
sung nicely. You know it's a song I like it

1461
01:55:32.680 --> 01:55:36.680
was sung nicely. I said, okay, So where did I

1462
01:55:36.720 --> 01:55:45.279
go wrong? She said the strip tease? If you didn't

1463
01:55:45.279 --> 01:55:48.239
need that, didn't need you to be stripping off while

1464
01:55:48.319 --> 01:55:53.960
singing it. I said, I can't know what strip tease is.

1465
01:55:54.720 --> 01:55:57.880
She said, also that attitude of yours okay, fair enough,

1466
01:55:59.399 --> 01:56:06.479
So learn something new. I try and learn something new

1467
01:56:06.520 --> 01:56:08.520
every day, but I don't try, but I think I

1468
01:56:08.560 --> 01:56:11.960
probably do learn something new. I don't know what I've

1469
01:56:12.039 --> 01:56:18.720
learned today. I think I'm trying to learn about myself.

1470
01:56:21.000 --> 01:56:23.479
How do I tick? Why do I tick? What I

1471
01:56:24.279 --> 01:56:32.960
really feel about things? Who am I really? Who am

1472
01:56:33.039 --> 01:56:39.359
I really? Where am I going? What am I doing?

1473
01:56:39.399 --> 01:56:45.880
And why? So On that note, this has been quite

1474
01:56:45.920 --> 01:56:50.239
a long recording, but I think I needed to do

1475
01:56:50.279 --> 01:56:52.640
a long recording because I haven't done one for a while.

1476
01:56:54.119 --> 01:56:57.479
Tomorrow I will be doing the Q and A Friday,

1477
01:56:58.439 --> 01:57:02.079
so there's still time. If you go to my Facebook group,

1478
01:57:02.319 --> 01:57:07.159
Jason Newland's Boring Group, there's a link on my website

1479
01:57:08.680 --> 01:57:14.000
you can leave me a question underneath the image that

1480
01:57:14.039 --> 01:57:17.960
I posted, which basically says, if you any questions for

1481
01:57:18.039 --> 01:57:20.720
this week's Q and A Friday, and there's a date,

1482
01:57:20.800 --> 01:57:26.199
which is the twenty ninth of August. There's a few

1483
01:57:26.279 --> 01:57:30.680
questions already, but you're welcome to add more. Ideally, I

1484
01:57:30.720 --> 01:57:36.359
would say try and do it before lunchtime UK time

1485
01:57:37.880 --> 01:57:41.760
tomorrow because I've got a tendency of donies normally in

1486
01:57:41.800 --> 01:57:51.159
about afternoon time, sometimes the morning. Generally maybe afternoon because

1487
01:57:51.199 --> 01:57:55.600
it's if it was just for like half hour forty

1488
01:57:55.600 --> 01:57:58.560
five minutes an hour, I might do it in the morning,

1489
01:57:58.600 --> 01:58:02.000
but because they longer recording the Q and A Fridays,

1490
01:58:02.920 --> 01:58:04.920
I generally I like to give myself a bit of

1491
01:58:05.000 --> 01:58:12.439
time and space. So that's me done for today. Thank

1492
01:58:12.479 --> 01:58:16.680
you for listening, and remember to be kind to yourself

1493
01:58:16.760 --> 01:58:28.680
because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.

1494
01:58:29.359 --> 01:58:43.960
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1495
01:58:44.000 --> 01:58:49.560
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1496
01:58:50.920 --> 01:59:01.399
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here. Yeah,

1497
01:59:02.159 --> 01:59:07.880
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1498
01:59:07.880 --> 01:59:14.560
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1499
01:59:14.720 --> 01:59:29.640
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1500
01:59:29.760 --> 01:59:49.560
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1501
01:59:49.640 --> 02:00:00.000
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1502
02:00:00.119 --> 02:00:09.600
it from listening to my voice maybe in a few

1503
02:00:09.640 --> 02:00:25.399
hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially

1504
02:00:25.479 --> 02:00:29.960
if you find like some people do and myself as well.

1505
02:00:30.119 --> 02:00:37.119
I sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates

1506
02:00:37.159 --> 02:00:43.520
with me, and I just listen to it over and

1507
02:00:43.600 --> 02:00:56.960
over again every morning, every evening. There was this recording

1508
02:00:57.199 --> 02:01:03.760
from We're Going back about nineteen ninety nine. It was

1509
02:01:04.079 --> 02:01:09.000
it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations. It

1510
02:01:09.079 --> 02:01:16.279
kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to find

1511
02:01:16.319 --> 02:01:20.359
it again and it still has the same effect on me.

1512
02:01:23.000 --> 02:01:32.720
And part of it was the person's voice relaxed me

1513
02:01:36.720 --> 02:01:43.399
just felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening

1514
02:01:43.920 --> 02:01:56.279
to her in the morning and in the evening. And

1515
02:01:56.359 --> 02:02:05.479
I knew before even pressing the place button that since

1516
02:02:05.560 --> 02:02:09.960
I've done that, pressed the play button. This is in

1517
02:02:10.039 --> 02:02:24.600
the days of CD players, pressed the play button, ifact

1518
02:02:24.600 --> 02:02:28.600
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

1519
02:02:28.680 --> 02:02:38.439
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

1520
02:02:39.560 --> 02:02:50.960
listening to her words because I had them memorized. Really,

1521
02:02:54.960 --> 02:03:00.920
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1522
02:03:05.720 --> 02:03:27.560
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1523
02:03:27.680 --> 02:03:41.680
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1524
02:03:41.720 --> 02:03:47.960
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1525
02:03:48.079 --> 02:03:58.800
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1526
02:03:58.880 --> 02:04:03.479
or audio record budens myself, because I didn't start doing

1527
02:04:03.520 --> 02:04:17.039
that till two thousand and six. But I knew, I

1528
02:04:17.119 --> 02:04:30.640
knew how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1529
02:04:33.640 --> 02:04:39.039
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1530
02:04:46.720 --> 02:04:54.800
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1531
02:04:54.880 --> 02:05:00.239
not more so, each time you hear my voice. Yes,

1532
02:05:04.199 --> 02:05:15.800
you may feel the same. Some people have been listening

1533
02:05:15.840 --> 02:05:29.800
to me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously

1534
02:05:29.840 --> 02:05:36.279
not twenty four hours a day, but maybe people come back.

1535
02:05:38.119 --> 02:05:53.159
Some people maybe listen every day. That's something that I

1536
02:05:53.239 --> 02:06:09.239
do which you may not realize by listening, is when

1537
02:06:09.520 --> 02:06:25.000
I record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am

1538
02:06:25.279 --> 02:06:39.079
affected by the words that I say. So if I

1539
02:06:39.119 --> 02:06:46.439
said to you, focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing,

1540
02:06:49.960 --> 02:06:57.840
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1541
02:06:57.960 --> 02:07:16.039
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1542
02:07:18.840 --> 02:07:28.359
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

1543
02:07:28.479 --> 02:07:34.560
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1544
02:07:36.399 --> 02:07:46.840
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1545
02:07:47.399 --> 02:07:55.439
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1546
02:07:55.520 --> 02:07:59.680
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1547
02:07:59.720 --> 02:08:12.760
all where you are right now. And as you become

1548
02:08:13.399 --> 02:08:27.800
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1549
02:08:28.079 --> 02:08:51.840
my hands, our feeling now, and when it comes to

1550
02:08:53.399 --> 02:08:59.399
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1551
02:08:59.680 --> 02:09:16.039
you'll listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1552
02:09:20.720 --> 02:09:37.119
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1553
02:09:39.159 --> 02:09:53.319
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1554
02:09:53.479 --> 02:10:05.439
carry on talking. It's only when I listen back to

1555
02:10:05.479 --> 02:10:14.520
do the editing I hear snoring and I think, I

1556
02:10:14.520 --> 02:10:25.239
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was a

1557
02:10:25.359 --> 02:10:31.600
pick turned up. That's why I sound like when I

1558
02:10:31.720 --> 02:10:50.439
snare and I get really into the whole experience. I

1559
02:10:50.479 --> 02:10:59.880
don't know how you feel, how relaxed do you feeling

1560
02:10:59.880 --> 02:11:25.680
your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands. I

1561
02:11:25.680 --> 02:11:39.920
have noticed more and more that the more relaxed, deeper

1562
02:11:44.960 --> 02:11:55.319
level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1563
02:12:01.880 --> 02:12:18.520
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1564
02:12:18.600 --> 02:12:49.680
you the breath easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

1565
02:12:49.920 --> 02:13:18.720
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1566
02:13:18.880 --> 02:14:08.720
so naturally, you breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1567
02:14:08.880 --> 02:14:27.199
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

1568
02:14:33.199 --> 02:14:46.119
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1569
02:14:46.319 --> 02:15:26.640
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1570
02:15:28.359 --> 02:15:47.319
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1571
02:15:58.600 --> 02:16:31.279
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1572
02:16:56.520 --> 02:17:22.040
Time seems to just to rip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1573
02:17:27.920 --> 02:18:07.040
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1574
02:18:07.200 --> 02:19:18.920
this moment, completely free. Notice that your mind has slowed down.

1575
02:19:19.879 --> 02:20:06.600
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1576
02:20:06.840 --> 02:20:24.000
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress drip out

1577
02:20:24.040 --> 02:20:43.559
of your body, to appear out of every part of

1578
02:20:43.719 --> 02:21:09.479
your body and being released from your brain your mind

1579
02:21:27.360 --> 02:22:11.559
slowly but surely, the muscles slax, relax h r really

1580
02:22:16.680 --> 02:22:57.399
so very deeply, rights so deeply, and the feelings, the

1581
02:22:57.600 --> 02:23:22.239
pleasant feelings in your arm us and shoulders, deepening each

1582
02:23:22.639 --> 02:23:59.760
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. M

1583
02:24:00.079 --> 02:24:06.559
I to sine the feelings in the back of your neck,

1584
02:24:29.639 --> 02:25:18.079
the feelings in your wrists, muscles in front of your body.

1585
02:25:19.440 --> 02:26:02.959
I all say, feeling peaceful, deep there's a sense of

1586
02:26:03.200 --> 02:26:25.479
peace spreads through your very core.

1587
02:26:42.680 --> 02:27:03.319
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes.

1588
02:27:09.920 --> 02:28:32.799
Eve and slower, even deeper, relaxing, so very slow. His stomach,

1589
02:28:46.879 --> 02:29:34.600
PA's fin's stomach, your back. Notice, Notice how relaxed you'd

1590
02:29:34.760 --> 02:30:13.120
never fear in the hole of your back. You spy

1591
02:30:17.200 --> 02:30:21.920
from your brain all the way down the middle of

1592
02:30:21.959 --> 02:30:33.719
your back, sending and receiving millions of messages every day.

1593
02:30:44.719 --> 02:31:02.600
Deep comfort increasing deeply ries.

1594
02:31:32.360 --> 02:31:32.719
You n.

1595
02:31:58.760 --> 02:32:07.440
R yeah, spreading those signals down your spine or cord

1596
02:32:11.840 --> 02:32:30.719
into air. Every part of your body, your shins and

1597
02:32:30.840 --> 02:33:25.479
your calf muscles well el burs feelings of peace and tranquility,

1598
02:33:26.360 --> 02:33:40.479
spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1599
02:33:44.760 --> 02:33:53.840
your fingers, all the way to your lower back. M

1600
02:34:03.280 --> 02:35:06.719
on I thinker, Rea, thinker, peace, drifting mind just wandering away,

1601
02:35:16.200 --> 02:35:23.159
happy to let go, Let go.

1602
02:35:27.440 --> 02:36:23.360
Completely, let go, so tranquil, the whole body.

1603
02:36:27.280 --> 02:37:00.000
Enjoying a sensor listening go he even more.

1604
02:37:03.319 --> 02:37:28.159
Usa as.

1605
02:37:31.639 --> 02:37:57.079
USA, as a.

1606
02:38:08.200 --> 02:39:24.120
Peace fur enjoy the space, this space of peace and safety.

1607
02:39:24.920 --> 02:41:23.760
So fary, relaxed, ye, ye, letting go. Maybe we can

1608
02:41:24.040 --> 02:41:35.319
just focus on the different parts of your body, just

1609
02:41:35.760 --> 02:42:44.639
to notice a forehead in your eyes ure so lose

1610
02:43:04.360 --> 02:44:24.280
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, drif drif

1611
02:44:37.120 --> 02:45:22.559
Pea's for energy peace to breathe such easier.

1612
02:46:02.920 --> 02:46:03.280
Loose.

1613
02:46:24.520 --> 02:46:36.159
You may have or may not have noticed your mind

1614
02:46:36.840 --> 02:47:38.600
drifting peaceful, moveingly, even more deeply in the direction of

1615
02:47:43.399 --> 02:49:14.200
total blissful pace, blissful pace to total peace.

1616
02:49:38.600 --> 02:49:45.000
Com.

1617
02:49:44.680 --> 02:50:40.120
So calm, let him go peace with mind relaxed forty

1618
02:50:57.440 --> 02:51:54.200
so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so

1619
02:51:54.879 --> 02:53:14.639
very relaxed, peaceful, so peaceful, real licka, so peaceful. And

1620
02:53:14.799 --> 02:53:22.079
you could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1621
02:53:25.079 --> 02:53:34.840
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1622
02:53:36.200 --> 02:53:42.280
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1623
02:53:42.360 --> 02:53:55.159
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, And

1624
02:53:55.319 --> 02:54:02.799
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1625
02:54:03.040 --> 02:54:17.799
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1626
02:54:21.360 --> 02:54:29.280
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1627
02:54:29.360 --> 02:54:37.319
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1628
02:54:37.399 --> 02:54:45.040
break from your life as it is, and to give

1629
02:54:45.120 --> 02:54:53.200
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1630
02:54:53.360 --> 02:55:00.200
off and to allow your body to relax, and to

1631
02:55:00.399 --> 02:55:10.920
allow your mind to slow down, which in turn releases

1632
02:55:11.280 --> 02:55:15.959
the tension and he stresses that you had in your body.

1633
02:55:21.959 --> 02:55:25.840
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1634
02:55:26.120 --> 02:55:37.799
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1635
02:55:37.920 --> 02:55:49.200
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1636
02:55:49.399 --> 02:55:58.520
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1637
02:55:58.719 --> 02:56:16.159
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1638
02:56:18.239 --> 02:56:32.280
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1639
02:56:32.399 --> 02:56:42.639
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1640
02:56:46.239 --> 02:56:55.000
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1641
02:56:55.120 --> 02:57:04.799
long you want it to be, to just rest and

1642
02:57:05.000 --> 02:57:15.000
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1643
02:57:17.879 --> 02:57:33.639
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows

1644
02:57:34.000 --> 02:57:46.719
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1645
02:57:47.280 --> 02:57:56.079
around your body and into your mind, almost as if

1646
02:57:56.120 --> 02:58:05.879
your mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring

1647
02:58:06.719 --> 02:58:19.559
each other, with that growing positivity and calmness. And it

1648
02:58:19.680 --> 02:58:27.120
feels nice. It really does feel nice to know that

1649
02:58:27.440 --> 02:58:36.559
you are the one that has allowed yourself to feel

1650
02:58:37.079 --> 02:58:51.639
more comfort and to experience more of this deep relaxation

1651
02:58:53.079 --> 02:59:07.239
spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on each

1652
02:59:07.680 --> 02:59:13.319
part of your body, you can notice that that part

1653
02:59:17.319 --> 02:59:29.760
becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1654
02:59:29.879 --> 02:59:43.440
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1655
02:59:43.680 --> 02:59:49.159
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1656
02:59:51.879 --> 02:59:58.559
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1657
02:59:58.760 --> 03:00:06.399
relax deep and those parts that we've not yet focused

1658
03:00:06.440 --> 03:00:19.760
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1659
03:00:20.200 --> 03:00:33.239
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1660
03:00:33.319 --> 03:00:40.200
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1661
03:00:40.559 --> 03:00:49.120
of the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds

1662
03:00:50.920 --> 03:00:55.760
like mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to

1663
03:00:55.959 --> 03:01:03.200
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1664
03:01:06.319 --> 03:01:11.680
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1665
03:01:15.120 --> 03:01:21.159
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1666
03:01:21.680 --> 03:01:32.159
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1667
03:01:32.440 --> 03:01:40.239
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1668
03:01:42.520 --> 03:01:47.000
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1669
03:01:52.200 --> 03:01:59.799
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, no

1670
03:02:00.200 --> 03:02:10.840
to sin how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so

1671
03:02:11.239 --> 03:02:18.479
light at the same time, and all the muscles around

1672
03:02:18.559 --> 03:02:31.239
your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

1673
03:02:33.120 --> 03:02:40.120
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, and your gums, the

1674
03:02:40.360 --> 03:02:54.879
whole of your mouth relaxing, calm and loose as you

1675
03:02:55.040 --> 03:03:02.959
focus now on your jewel, not just the part of

1676
03:03:03.079 --> 03:03:07.719
your jaw near your mouth and your chin, but all

1677
03:03:07.799 --> 03:03:12.319
the way up the size of your face to your ears,

1678
03:03:14.559 --> 03:03:26.280
the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1679
03:03:29.719 --> 03:03:30.440
And calm.

1680
03:03:38.600 --> 03:03:47.680
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1681
03:03:47.840 --> 03:04:01.399
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. Sides of your neck,

1682
03:04:03.479 --> 03:04:09.879
the right and the left side of your neck relax

1683
03:04:10.360 --> 03:04:25.600
and loose and calm. And now the back of your neck,

1684
03:04:28.920 --> 03:04:38.920
focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1685
03:04:39.120 --> 03:04:46.000
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1686
03:04:46.360 --> 03:05:00.000
that sense of increasing comfort and release that you can experience.

1687
03:05:00.120 --> 03:05:10.920
It's in the back of your neck, moving down your back,

1688
03:05:13.399 --> 03:05:18.079
and moving either side of your spine right from the

1689
03:05:18.239 --> 03:05:23.559
top of your back all the way down to the

1690
03:05:23.639 --> 03:05:40.879
bottom of your back, down to your lower back. And

1691
03:05:41.000 --> 03:05:48.120
as you move up and down your spine, you can

1692
03:05:48.280 --> 03:05:56.520
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1693
03:06:04.000 --> 03:06:10.760
And as those muscles relax that sense of comfort starts

1694
03:06:10.879 --> 03:06:20.959
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1695
03:06:21.079 --> 03:06:28.040
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1696
03:06:28.200 --> 03:06:37.680
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1697
03:06:38.920 --> 03:06:44.159
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1698
03:06:44.319 --> 03:06:54.120
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1699
03:06:54.319 --> 03:06:59.840
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1700
03:07:00.159 --> 03:07:09.040
to almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1701
03:07:14.799 --> 03:07:20.799
And in your lower back it seems to be an

1702
03:07:20.840 --> 03:07:35.040
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips.

1703
03:07:37.360 --> 03:07:45.159
Sit down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1704
03:07:45.360 --> 03:07:54.120
area where your cosis are, and into your buttocks, and

1705
03:07:54.239 --> 03:08:03.639
all those muscles that spread in lower back into your

1706
03:08:03.760 --> 03:08:16.959
hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1707
03:08:23.680 --> 03:08:30.399
Don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders. Your

1708
03:08:30.639 --> 03:08:41.280
back and your spine will continue to let go, continue

1709
03:08:42.120 --> 03:08:57.000
to relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1710
03:08:58.760 --> 03:09:14.040
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose. They're

1711
03:09:14.159 --> 03:09:40.239
already feeling calm, and they're feeling Those muscles then move

1712
03:09:40.639 --> 03:09:56.479
from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft and gentle,

1713
03:10:00.559 --> 03:10:22.159
so smooth and calm, and the feeling in your shoulders

1714
03:10:29.479 --> 03:10:38.000
seens to spread deep into your shoulders. That sense of relaxation,

1715
03:10:39.239 --> 03:10:50.680
not just traveling deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing

1716
03:10:53.559 --> 03:11:03.440
the bones and moving all away to underneath your arms,

1717
03:11:06.280 --> 03:11:12.239
relaxing that whole area between the tops of your shoulders

1718
03:11:13.559 --> 03:11:31.319
and underneath your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and

1719
03:11:31.600 --> 03:11:47.159
comfortable in your shoulders, which sends that deep healing message

1720
03:11:52.520 --> 03:12:04.360
into your arms. You may feel almost as if your

1721
03:12:04.760 --> 03:12:14.000
arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed, so

1722
03:12:15.600 --> 03:13:00.159
deeply relaxed, so so calm, so loose that fear and

1723
03:13:00.479 --> 03:13:15.719
spreading all the way down your arms two elbows, including

1724
03:13:17.440 --> 03:13:42.479
your elbows circumforts spreads or away into your wrists, your

1725
03:13:42.760 --> 03:13:57.639
forearments and your wrists being so heavy. Yet at the

1726
03:13:58.000 --> 03:14:45.319
same time, sunlight and gentle folks now on your hands,

1727
03:15:07.040 --> 03:15:38.639
my hands, so peaceful in your hands. There's a sense

1728
03:15:38.799 --> 03:16:04.719
of real peace. It just seems to feel so familiar

1729
03:16:08.200 --> 03:17:13.120
when your hands relax deeply. Is your things A thing?

1730
03:17:13.479 --> 03:18:19.440
Is slidle a thing? It tips Moving your attention to

1731
03:18:19.559 --> 03:18:48.239
the front of your body, so comfortable, Moving your focus

1732
03:18:50.200 --> 03:20:31.799
to your legs, love muscles in your thighs, your knees

1733
03:20:35.879 --> 03:22:06.239
so relaxed, a carved muscles, and just shins copusedly four

1734
03:23:12.719 --> 03:23:27.399
and the faathing and your feet so peaceful, so calm,

1735
03:23:33.159 --> 03:24:22.799
so peaceful, so calm, hm hm so peaceful, so calm, so.

1736
03:24:24.799 --> 03:24:26.360
Peace fall.

1737
03:24:34.799 --> 03:24:36.559
RelA sin.

1738
03:24:41.719 --> 03:24:56.520
Peace fall, so calm, loving.

1739
03:24:56.319 --> 03:25:03.479
That deep relaxation, just spread your chest and your stomach,

1740
03:25:16.559 --> 03:25:35.319
letting go everything. So I'm going to start counting down

1741
03:25:35.440 --> 03:25:46.879
now from twenty down to one. You can imagine in

1742
03:25:46.959 --> 03:25:52.520
a way it's like just walking down some steps and

1743
03:25:52.680 --> 03:25:58.159
each step or twenty steps, and each step represents a

1744
03:25:58.399 --> 03:26:11.959
level of comfort. Each step represents a deepening of that comfort,

1745
03:26:18.600 --> 03:26:24.319
and the firvies you walk down those steps, the deeper

1746
03:26:24.719 --> 03:28:21.000
and more relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

1747
03:29:07.280 --> 03:37:32.639
sixteen eight fourteen fourteen too well five two nine eight

1748
03:37:33.159 --> 03:44:02.760
seven s five four two.

1749
03:45:21.879 --> 03:46:23.200
One.

1750
03:47:12.760 --> 03:47:29.719
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

1751
03:47:29.799 --> 03:47:42.040
count down from ten dout one, focusing just on your eyes,

1752
03:47:45.799 --> 03:47:54.280
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1753
03:47:55.799 --> 03:48:12.840
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1754
03:48:12.920 --> 03:48:21.280
we count down from ten down to one, whilst focus

1755
03:48:21.440 --> 03:48:36.440
in on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1756
03:48:36.799 --> 03:48:49.799
each number counting down, and you may find the all

1757
03:48:49.920 --> 03:48:56.079
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1758
03:48:59.040 --> 03:49:05.079
And it's that that's what you want, then just allow

1759
03:49:05.200 --> 03:49:20.159
yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm

1760
03:49:20.239 --> 03:49:25.799
going to begin counting down from ten down to one

1761
03:49:30.000 --> 03:56:02.959
right now, ten nine eight seven, yay, five four three

1762
03:57:08.600 --> 03:58:53.639
two one. So count and down from ten to one

1763
03:58:55.680 --> 03:59:27.040
ten nine seven six five four three two one. And

1764
03:59:27.239 --> 03:59:30.600
maybe that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1765
03:59:31.799 --> 03:59:36.040
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1766
03:59:36.319 --> 03:59:44.399
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1767
03:59:44.440 --> 03:59:48.520
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1768
03:59:48.639 --> 03:59:52.040
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1769
03:59:52.040 --> 03:59:56.040
just to go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1770
04:00:01.639 --> 04:00:04.920
We can try it again, but this time I go

1771
04:00:05.079 --> 04:00:12.479
bit slower this time, as you focus on the whole

1772
04:00:12.559 --> 04:00:18.799
of your body before we focus on your legs. Just

1773
04:00:19.079 --> 04:00:29.040
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1774
04:00:33.799 --> 04:00:53.440
with every number that I count down ten nine eight

1775
04:00:58.799 --> 04:02:22.959
seven six five four three two one. And just notice

1776
04:02:23.280 --> 04:02:35.280
how how you feel generally, how your body feels. It's

1777
04:02:35.319 --> 04:02:43.399
not necessarily even about counting down from ten to one.

1778
04:02:46.360 --> 04:02:59.760
It's that space that you have that space between being

1779
04:03:03.360 --> 04:03:14.920
active physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down,

1780
04:03:15.600 --> 04:03:20.399
just being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, or

1781
04:03:21.200 --> 04:03:27.520
needing to think about anything. So it opens up a space,

1782
04:03:28.479 --> 04:03:37.639
you know, a bit of a space, a gap. And

1783
04:03:37.760 --> 04:03:42.319
the more I came down from ten to one, the

1784
04:03:42.399 --> 04:03:50.360
bigger that gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness,

1785
04:03:51.799 --> 04:04:07.440
of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and it moves

1786
04:04:09.040 --> 04:04:18.920
those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

1787
04:04:25.719 --> 04:04:26.680
Allows you.

1788
04:04:29.399 --> 04:04:29.879
To just.

1789
04:04:32.879 --> 04:04:39.280
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to

1790
04:04:39.440 --> 04:04:49.520
one and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as

1791
04:04:49.559 --> 04:04:55.639
it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention falls

1792
04:04:55.920 --> 04:05:14.319
into the gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1793
04:05:16.680 --> 04:07:11.440
Now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one.

1794
04:07:23.360 --> 04:07:43.440
How does your body feel now? Can you notice the

1795
04:07:44.799 --> 04:08:22.079
feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed as we now focus

1796
04:08:22.200 --> 04:08:42.879
on your legs, just your legs. We're just gonna start

1797
04:08:43.000 --> 04:09:02.040
with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not the

1798
04:09:02.159 --> 04:09:10.680
most exciting thing to be doing because I'm sure like

1799
04:09:10.799 --> 04:09:13.319
most of your body is not a lot going on

1800
04:09:13.559 --> 04:09:25.959
right now. Just focusing on the whole of your thighs,

1801
04:09:28.760 --> 04:09:32.479
the tops of your thighs, the sides of your thighs,

1802
04:09:34.719 --> 04:09:39.159
the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs, and your

1803
04:09:39.280 --> 04:09:44.520
inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh that leads

1804
04:09:45.559 --> 04:10:01.120
into your hip and it goes down to your knee joint. Now,

1805
04:10:01.200 --> 04:10:08.200
this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1806
04:10:08.719 --> 04:10:14.680
It's very strong. Probably the strongest muscles in your body

1807
04:10:15.280 --> 04:10:29.680
are in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1808
04:10:31.680 --> 04:10:44.399
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1809
04:10:45.079 --> 04:11:04.479
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1810
04:11:07.079 --> 04:11:20.600
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1811
04:11:20.719 --> 04:11:26.399
it may seem to sound really weird, but I think

1812
04:11:26.479 --> 04:11:33.399
that all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need

1813
04:11:33.600 --> 04:11:48.040
some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement.

1814
04:11:50.559 --> 04:12:00.120
I thank you gratitude for our thighs do for us. Yes,

1815
04:12:06.399 --> 04:12:12.040
And I know this may sound a bit strange. Maybe

1816
04:12:12.079 --> 04:12:15.120
you think, why am I Surely I should be out

1817
04:12:15.200 --> 04:12:24.040
in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's

1818
04:12:24.120 --> 04:12:27.360
hard to set a microphone up on a tree. That's

1819
04:12:27.360 --> 04:12:29.840
why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside

1820
04:12:29.920 --> 04:12:33.399
hugging a tree. Now I can't see the television from

1821
04:12:33.399 --> 04:12:44.040
the tree. If you move down to your knees gaining

1822
04:12:44.280 --> 04:12:52.399
such an important part, and I think we don't necessarily

1823
04:12:53.920 --> 04:13:01.559
I'll speak for myself here, I don't necessarily appreciate all

1824
04:13:01.680 --> 04:13:06.639
that my knees do for me until I have a

1825
04:13:06.760 --> 04:13:11.840
problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever maybe

1826
04:13:11.840 --> 04:13:17.440
i'll bash it, or it's aching for some reason. It's

1827
04:13:17.719 --> 04:13:23.440
then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1828
04:13:23.559 --> 04:13:29.520
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1829
04:13:31.280 --> 04:13:38.520
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1830
04:13:38.760 --> 04:13:47.120
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1831
04:13:51.200 --> 04:13:55.840
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1832
04:13:55.920 --> 04:14:03.440
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1833
04:14:04.959 --> 04:14:07.559
and love to your knees for all that they do

1834
04:14:07.760 --> 04:14:20.760
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1835
04:14:20.879 --> 04:14:27.079
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1836
04:14:27.360 --> 04:14:44.799
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1837
04:14:44.959 --> 04:14:50.159
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins

1838
04:14:51.040 --> 04:14:56.600
and your calf muscles and the bones between your knees.

1839
04:14:57.479 --> 04:15:05.200
And your feet. Breton. Of course, your ankles so important.

1840
04:15:10.719 --> 04:15:15.319
You know, anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain

1841
04:15:15.440 --> 04:15:22.399
of an ankle knows how how much we take our

1842
04:15:22.600 --> 04:15:31.159
ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange in a

1843
04:15:31.239 --> 04:15:36.799
way when you think that. You know, logically, our wrists

1844
04:15:36.959 --> 04:15:39.840
are a lot thinner than the rest of our arms,

1845
04:15:40.959 --> 04:15:44.440
which is okay, it doesn't I can't see any problem

1846
04:15:44.479 --> 04:15:49.360
with that because we're just picking stuff up. But our

1847
04:15:49.479 --> 04:15:55.280
ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1848
04:16:01.719 --> 04:16:06.120
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1849
04:16:06.200 --> 04:16:12.200
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1850
04:16:13.280 --> 04:16:23.319
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet, that

1851
04:16:23.920 --> 04:16:32.840
thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work.

1852
04:16:35.040 --> 04:16:44.559
Supports us, supports our body for a lifetime, helps us

1853
04:16:45.239 --> 04:16:54.559
to balance, helps you to get around and be mobile.

1854
04:17:00.920 --> 04:17:08.719
And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1855
04:17:09.079 --> 04:17:12.159
I couldn't see the point in calf muscles. I didn't

1856
04:17:12.200 --> 04:17:17.520
seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes,

1857
04:17:18.319 --> 04:17:22.159
then my calf muscles get some work. But of course

1858
04:17:22.239 --> 04:17:26.360
that's not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever

1859
04:17:26.440 --> 04:17:38.360
we use her legs and your shins there to protect

1860
04:17:40.360 --> 04:17:49.000
your lower legs, shaped in a way almost as a

1861
04:17:49.079 --> 04:18:01.319
protector for the bone, leading of course to your ankles

1862
04:18:04.760 --> 04:18:11.319
and your feet. But we're not going to focus on

1863
04:18:11.399 --> 04:18:13.520
your feet. We're just going to focus on the legs.

1864
04:18:15.479 --> 04:18:20.079
And I realize that now that I've mentioned your feet,

1865
04:18:20.200 --> 04:18:24.799
it probably focusing on them anyway, So maybe I should

1866
04:18:24.920 --> 04:18:30.879
focus on your feet a little bit. You can have

1867
04:18:31.040 --> 04:18:36.239
them in your awareness the same as you have your

1868
04:18:36.360 --> 04:18:40.600
thighs in your awareness. Even though we haven't been focusing

1869
04:18:41.280 --> 04:18:46.079
on your thighs for a few minutes, we've been focusing

1870
04:18:46.200 --> 04:19:02.760
on your ankles, there's still that sensation of comfort in

1871
04:19:02.920 --> 04:19:14.760
your thighs and this that movement of energy because the

1872
04:19:14.879 --> 04:19:22.479
thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles,

1873
04:19:23.079 --> 04:19:27.120
the big straw muscles that we have in our thighs,

1874
04:19:35.879 --> 04:19:41.600
but the skin on the outside of the thighs, as

1875
04:19:41.680 --> 04:19:46.200
in the outside of all of our body, can be

1876
04:19:46.440 --> 04:20:04.120
very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature, and

1877
04:20:04.319 --> 04:20:12.680
inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels,

1878
04:20:12.840 --> 04:20:18.639
the arch trees, it's all this stuff that's inside your thighs,

1879
04:20:22.959 --> 04:20:26.159
and I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could

1880
04:20:26.159 --> 04:20:33.920
actually put your fingers inside your thighs and message, so

1881
04:20:34.040 --> 04:20:37.559
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1882
04:20:37.600 --> 04:20:40.760
be able to get deep into the muscles, and to

1883
04:20:40.840 --> 04:20:45.959
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

1884
04:20:46.000 --> 04:20:54.600
the bones of your leg message in all the veins,

1885
04:20:54.840 --> 04:21:04.719
and just gently healing your thigh eyes, and you could

1886
04:21:04.840 --> 04:21:11.760
move down message and inside your knees, just message in

1887
04:21:11.840 --> 04:21:19.200
those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading that healing energy

1888
04:21:19.959 --> 04:21:29.680
deep into the joints of your knees. Of course, there's

1889
04:21:29.760 --> 04:21:33.639
the back of your your knee, you know, the inside

1890
04:21:33.840 --> 04:21:39.959
crease where your knee is. It's a very sensitive area.

1891
04:21:42.000 --> 04:21:46.319
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1892
04:21:46.479 --> 04:21:50.159
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1893
04:21:50.399 --> 04:21:56.959
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1894
04:21:59.079 --> 04:22:05.520
in your legs. It's almost like a part that has

1895
04:22:05.840 --> 04:22:16.600
a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1896
04:22:16.639 --> 04:22:27.120
it's protected by your legs, so you can imagine putting

1897
04:22:28.040 --> 04:22:37.879
your fingers into that crease in your legs, that folding

1898
04:22:37.959 --> 04:22:41.920
between your legs. You can just massage with your fingertips.

1899
04:22:43.120 --> 04:22:49.879
Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the muscle tissue.

1900
04:22:54.520 --> 04:22:58.760
You can of course feel the bones of your knees

1901
04:23:00.280 --> 04:23:10.719
healing through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1902
04:23:13.600 --> 04:23:16.399
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1903
04:23:16.479 --> 04:23:21.159
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1904
04:23:21.959 --> 04:23:31.280
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle.

1905
04:23:32.479 --> 04:23:34.319
Healing every part.

1906
04:23:40.280 --> 04:23:46.360
And then doing the same for my shins, massage in

1907
04:23:46.520 --> 04:23:54.040
and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them, healing in

1908
04:23:54.159 --> 04:24:01.319
a loving way, because they deserve to be treated as

1909
04:24:01.440 --> 04:24:05.440
the precious bones that they are. Because our legs are

1910
04:24:05.479 --> 04:24:09.280
so precious as in all the other parts of our body,

1911
04:24:11.760 --> 04:24:25.760
and more precious of anyture on the planet. When you

1912
04:24:25.959 --> 04:24:38.120
start to think about your legs in this way, it

1913
04:24:38.239 --> 04:24:47.879
can change your perspective. It might sound a bit a

1914
04:24:48.000 --> 04:24:53.239
bit silly to start with the idea of having love

1915
04:24:53.799 --> 04:25:03.159
for your legs, showing appreciation for your thigh, wanting to

1916
04:25:03.239 --> 04:25:09.040
be able to put your hands in your thighs and

1917
04:25:09.280 --> 04:25:15.639
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1918
04:25:15.760 --> 04:25:24.239
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1919
04:25:26.159 --> 04:25:33.520
how much you care about your legs. How much you

1920
04:25:33.639 --> 04:25:36.440
care for what your legs do.

1921
04:25:36.760 --> 04:25:37.040
For you.

1922
04:25:38.639 --> 04:25:50.760
Regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of

1923
04:25:50.879 --> 04:25:58.920
your ankles considering how thin they are compared to the

1924
04:25:59.040 --> 04:26:06.719
rest of your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, they're so strong,

1925
04:26:08.280 --> 04:26:22.719
so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a

1926
04:26:22.879 --> 04:26:33.680
gift because of what they do for you, supporting all

1927
04:26:33.920 --> 04:26:40.760
that weight, regardless of how what weight you are, even

1928
04:26:40.799 --> 04:26:45.440
if you're only ate stone, there's still a lot of

1929
04:26:45.559 --> 04:26:52.600
weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot heavier

1930
04:26:52.680 --> 04:27:02.360
than eight stone doubled out, yet my ankle support my

1931
04:27:02.479 --> 04:27:09.760
body all the time, or they do give off a

1932
04:27:09.879 --> 04:27:15.559
sigh of relief when I sit down. That's my whole

1933
04:27:15.639 --> 04:27:25.159
legs do. My feet feet also go and my toes clap.

1934
04:27:26.360 --> 04:27:54.840
They're so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1935
04:27:54.959 --> 04:27:58.879
know that talking about talking about your legs is probably

1936
04:28:01.399 --> 04:28:06.079
possibly among the most most boring things I've ever heard

1937
04:28:06.120 --> 04:28:14.520
anyone say. Possibly, but boring or not, everything I said

1938
04:28:14.639 --> 04:28:31.280
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1939
04:28:31.680 --> 04:28:50.159
just respect, They deserve to relax deeply. They deserve to

1940
04:28:50.280 --> 04:28:55.520
take some time out of the day to just let

1941
04:28:55.760 --> 04:29:31.680
go completely. The legs really can relax. And because the

1942
04:29:31.799 --> 04:29:36.280
legs are so such a most, you know, very important

1943
04:29:36.959 --> 04:29:41.479
part of your body. When you relax your legs, the

1944
04:29:41.639 --> 04:29:52.799
rest of your body also naturally follows in that journey

1945
04:29:52.959 --> 04:30:04.680
of comfort. I can feel it in my hips. My

1946
04:30:04.879 --> 04:30:12.159
hips feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

1947
04:30:14.239 --> 04:30:19.959
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1948
04:30:20.000 --> 04:30:23.639
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1949
04:30:26.319 --> 04:30:29.520
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1950
04:30:29.520 --> 04:30:33.319
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1951
04:30:33.440 --> 04:30:40.520
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1952
04:30:41.959 --> 04:31:00.559
a lot. And I'm now going to count out from

1953
04:31:01.200 --> 04:31:10.239
ten down to one, and you can continue to fill

1954
04:31:12.040 --> 04:31:44.520
wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight, seven, six, five, four three

1955
04:31:48.600 --> 04:32:09.360
two one really, So I'm just going to count down

1956
04:32:10.879 --> 04:32:15.559
from five down to one, And as I countdown, if

1957
04:32:15.600 --> 04:32:22.680
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1958
04:32:23.719 --> 04:32:32.879
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1959
04:32:33.040 --> 04:32:40.559
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1960
04:32:40.639 --> 04:32:50.760
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1961
04:32:50.959 --> 04:32:59.319
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1962
04:33:00.200 --> 04:33:06.080
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1963
04:33:06.240 --> 04:33:49.279
to think about. Starting with number five four three two one.

1964
04:33:58.919 --> 04:34:11.439
As you notice the gradual letting go the tension in

1965
04:34:11.520 --> 04:34:18.720
your body, you may also begin to notice and be

1966
04:34:18.880 --> 04:34:27.680
aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1967
04:34:30.159 --> 04:34:36.520
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1968
04:34:36.720 --> 04:34:41.919
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1969
04:34:43.240 --> 04:34:49.200
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax, and the

1970
04:34:49.319 --> 04:34:52.919
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1971
04:34:53.119 --> 04:35:05.159
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And there's that calmness

1972
04:35:05.400 --> 04:35:12.560
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1973
04:35:12.599 --> 04:35:20.159
there's background sounds either your side, online, it's still going

1974
04:35:20.279 --> 04:35:25.279
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1975
04:35:25.439 --> 04:35:30.599
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

1976
04:35:30.599 --> 04:35:38.159
listening to the recording. With music. Of course, you're very

1977
04:35:38.360 --> 04:35:40.240
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1978
04:35:40.360 --> 04:35:45.159
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1979
04:35:45.840 --> 04:35:48.080
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1980
04:35:49.799 --> 04:35:59.799
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1981
04:36:06.439 --> 04:36:16.680
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow

1982
04:36:21.200 --> 04:36:27.880
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1983
04:36:28.279 --> 04:36:40.040
or something magical. This is just a natural process, something

1984
04:36:40.200 --> 04:36:51.159
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost the sense

1985
04:36:51.279 --> 04:36:58.080
of relaxing completely happens really when you put no effort

1986
04:36:58.439 --> 04:37:05.119
into it, not something that you can really force. It's

1987
04:37:05.200 --> 04:37:14.759
something that happens naturally. And part of the process of

1988
04:37:16.439 --> 04:37:28.360
this recording and others is simply two allow you to

1989
04:37:28.520 --> 04:37:43.639
take advantage of this space this time, to just let go,

1990
04:37:46.799 --> 04:37:55.000
to just be here, to be in tune with how

1991
04:37:55.080 --> 04:38:08.479
you feel, yet with the intention of wanting to relax

1992
04:38:08.599 --> 04:38:19.959
deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending on what

1993
04:38:20.159 --> 04:38:26.279
it is that you wish for yourself in this moment.

1994
04:38:33.240 --> 04:38:42.599
As we know, relaxing is the majority of the process

1995
04:38:42.759 --> 04:38:47.919
of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part is the

1996
04:38:48.040 --> 04:38:55.840
tiny bit of the end. The deeper relaxed you become,

1997
04:38:59.759 --> 04:39:17.759
the easier you find yourself drifting. You can also if

1998
04:39:17.799 --> 04:39:28.639
you choose stay focused on my voice and really enjoy

1999
04:39:34.599 --> 04:40:03.720
the process gradually relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly

2000
04:40:10.840 --> 04:40:38.720
and just observing the sensation of letting go completely. This time,

2001
04:40:38.840 --> 04:40:47.040
I'm going to count from six down to one, and

2002
04:40:47.279 --> 04:40:56.840
you can notice your mind calming down more with each

2003
04:40:57.439 --> 04:41:10.799
number that you hear me say naturally, feeling calm and

2004
04:41:11.080 --> 04:44:10.360
slow and peaceful, six, five four three two one, being

2005
04:44:10.720 --> 04:44:23.400
aware of how your mind has slowed right down, sinking

2006
04:44:26.000 --> 04:44:46.279
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

2007
04:44:46.599 --> 04:44:56.520
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

2008
04:44:59.119 --> 04:45:08.279
maybe some s dubblen thoughts that for some reason, perhaps

2009
04:45:08.520 --> 04:45:23.439
need your attention. So what you can do is send

2010
04:45:23.720 --> 04:45:37.479
love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love like

2011
04:45:37.639 --> 04:45:41.680
all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

2012
04:45:43.119 --> 04:45:50.240
petals filled with love towards those thoughts, to let those

2013
04:45:50.479 --> 04:45:56.880
thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them. You just

2014
04:45:57.400 --> 04:46:07.439
need them. You require them to just calm down, slow down,

2015
04:46:09.799 --> 04:46:11.080
quiet down.

2016
04:46:14.759 --> 04:46:15.159
For now.

2017
04:46:23.040 --> 04:46:28.040
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts, as we

2018
04:46:28.240 --> 04:46:33.439
count down this time from seven down to one. With

2019
04:46:33.599 --> 04:46:47.479
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

2020
04:46:49.080 --> 04:47:00.599
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow help them to

2021
04:47:00.880 --> 04:47:16.799
just melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those

2022
04:47:17.000 --> 04:47:34.479
thoughts will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number

2023
04:47:34.639 --> 04:48:00.319
seven six mm.

2024
04:48:12.439 --> 04:48:26.439
Five four.

2025
04:48:52.080 --> 04:50:13.439
Three one, And as you now notice how relaxed your

2026
04:50:13.639 --> 04:50:33.360
feeling in your body, we're going to focus on your hands,

2027
04:50:39.200 --> 04:50:45.520
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

2028
04:50:45.720 --> 04:51:06.720
your body and mind are. And you focus on your

2029
04:51:06.919 --> 04:51:17.119
hands and your fingers, there's nothing needed to be done.

2030
04:51:18.080 --> 04:51:23.159
There's no clenching of fists or dents in the fingers

2031
04:51:23.279 --> 04:51:36.840
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

2032
04:51:37.040 --> 04:52:05.240
your hands, noticing how they feel, because the more relaxed

2033
04:52:05.680 --> 04:52:15.360
your hands fell, the calmer your mind feels, and the

2034
04:52:15.720 --> 04:52:35.159
more comfort you feel throughout your body. You may have

2035
04:52:39.200 --> 04:53:18.240
already noticed your mind is starting to dress like since

2036
04:53:22.279 --> 04:53:36.919
just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience

2037
04:53:39.639 --> 04:53:48.400
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers.

2038
04:53:53.880 --> 04:53:54.520
More.

2039
04:53:57.400 --> 04:54:16.840
And more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one,

2040
04:54:21.959 --> 04:54:31.759
you can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

2041
04:54:33.000 --> 04:54:51.919
into your hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with

2042
04:54:52.360 --> 04:55:06.080
each number you hear, going down from eight down to one,

2043
04:55:10.400 --> 04:58:01.479
drifting drifting again, starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

2044
04:58:32.080 --> 04:59:30.240
fo just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

2045
04:59:30.319 --> 04:59:41.319
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer

2046
04:59:45.919 --> 04:59:53.360
and this is your natural state of being. This is

2047
04:59:53.639 --> 05:00:00.319
how you just normally feel when you take away all

2048
05:00:00.360 --> 05:00:07.319
of that other stuff that we add, you know, things

2049
05:00:07.400 --> 05:00:22.720
like stress and worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just

2050
05:00:23.080 --> 05:00:29.639
generally thinking about stuff. When you take that away, which

2051
05:00:29.720 --> 05:00:38.880
is what we do what we do now, you're left

2052
05:00:39.040 --> 05:00:49.919
with a real sense of peacefulness which comes to you

2053
05:00:50.200 --> 05:01:04.159
very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling

2054
05:01:05.200 --> 05:01:12.479
of comfort, almost as if you've gone inside yourself and

2055
05:01:12.639 --> 05:01:27.080
you've found a special place where everything is peaceful, a

2056
05:01:27.240 --> 05:01:34.880
place where you can feel relaxed and your natural sense

2057
05:01:34.959 --> 05:01:45.840
of comfort, a place where you can be you, where

2058
05:01:45.880 --> 05:01:53.000
you can accept yourself for who you are, a place

2059
05:01:53.080 --> 05:02:03.279
where you're not trying to please anybody else ever, a

2060
05:02:03.400 --> 05:02:11.959
place where you can actually not just love yourself, but

2061
05:02:13.400 --> 05:02:20.680
in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate

2062
05:02:22.240 --> 05:02:37.319
who you are. That sense of gratitude is in the

2063
05:02:37.520 --> 05:02:48.479
air all around you. That's also a place where you

2064
05:02:50.840 --> 05:02:58.799
can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

2065
05:03:05.439 --> 05:03:16.840
Healing energy soaking into your body, and that healing energy

2066
05:03:17.200 --> 05:03:27.479
spreads through your veins, traveling to each and every single

2067
05:03:27.919 --> 05:03:38.319
part of your body. And you start to realize that

2068
05:03:38.639 --> 05:03:45.959
actually that healing energy, it's not just entered into your brain,

2069
05:03:48.759 --> 05:03:58.240
it's become part of your brain, and that spinal fluid

2070
05:04:00.919 --> 05:04:11.680
is now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you

2071
05:04:12.000 --> 05:04:20.000
to feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

2072
05:04:24.479 --> 05:04:33.919
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

2073
05:04:34.119 --> 05:04:42.680
now with that healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body,

2074
05:04:44.560 --> 05:04:55.400
it's actually changing your life. It's actually changing the way

2075
05:04:55.520 --> 05:05:02.119
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

2076
05:05:02.240 --> 05:05:11.159
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

2077
05:05:11.240 --> 05:05:19.040
physical health, but your mental health. Things that used to

2078
05:05:19.200 --> 05:05:25.279
bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

2079
05:05:26.639 --> 05:05:33.159
have the effect that they used to because something has

2080
05:05:33.639 --> 05:05:46.680
changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause

2081
05:05:46.759 --> 05:05:58.720
you to feel anger no longer have that power to

2082
05:05:58.880 --> 05:06:04.520
control you the way they seem to be able to before.

2083
05:06:08.200 --> 05:06:19.000
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

2084
05:06:19.319 --> 05:06:31.040
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

2085
05:06:31.880 --> 05:06:44.680
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

2086
05:06:45.720 --> 05:06:59.040
developments of healing, continuing to grow and improve your life

2087
05:07:00.439 --> 05:07:12.279
day by day, including of course, your ability to relax

2088
05:07:12.919 --> 05:07:27.400
so much easier and sleep in. It's the most natural

2089
05:07:27.639 --> 05:07:38.159
thing in the world to you, because falling asleep is

2090
05:07:38.279 --> 05:07:46.439
something that you've done so many times in your life,

2091
05:07:49.720 --> 05:07:53.759
and you know that you were born, as we all were,

2092
05:07:54.560 --> 05:08:05.880
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We're born with

2093
05:08:06.400 --> 05:08:18.840
that ability the just drift off into a deep, healing sleep.

2094
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Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep when we

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don't even want to try to us stay awake. Maybe

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it's a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or

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holiday or something we look forward to. We don't want

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to go to sleep. But the more we want to

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stay awake, the more we just start to drift. And

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the more you fight drifting, more we try to stop

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05:09:01.680 --> 05:09:07.200
yourself and drift in asleep, the deeper and stronger that

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drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the need

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to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's

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our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And sometimes as

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we get older in life, perhaps at times we have

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05:09:48.799 --> 05:10:04.439
forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience,

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05:10:10.200 --> 05:10:28.080
it's also really easy. It's very very easy to let

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05:10:28.200 --> 05:10:39.479
go because that's all it is. It's just deciding to

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let go. And when you press the play button on

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my recordings, you have given permission for my voice to

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05:10:59.680 --> 05:11:07.000
rely at you. When you press that play button, you've

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05:11:07.080 --> 05:11:18.400
given me permission for my words to affect you in

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05:11:18.520 --> 05:11:35.279
a positive, only a positive way, opening up your mind

2114
05:11:37.119 --> 05:11:57.880
too useful and healing suggestions that can have such an

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amazing effect on how you feel right now, as well

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as those changes that continue long after the recording ends,

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Those changes within you to continue to flourish and grow,

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transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you

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to move forward in your life in the direction that

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you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this feeling that

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you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, just feels so nice.

2122
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It's such a healthy place to be, and that positivity

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05:13:54.040 --> 05:14:13.040
grows within you each and every day. Moving forward, you're

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05:14:13.159 --> 05:14:23.959
going to find that you're more relaxed physically and in

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05:14:24.119 --> 05:14:32.880
your mind is more relaxed. And it's not that you're

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thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be less

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05:14:39.560 --> 05:14:51.159
clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on, your

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05:14:51.360 --> 05:15:01.080
mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to start

2129
05:15:01.319 --> 05:15:17.639
noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

2130
05:15:20.520 --> 05:15:27.279
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

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Stop and that negativity will disappear. And as you notice

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05:15:54.880 --> 05:16:03.200
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

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You can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

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05:16:19.080 --> 05:16:25.159
has done this. You are the one that has opened

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05:16:25.400 --> 05:16:33.880
your mind up to the simple facts. You can feel

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05:16:34.799 --> 05:16:44.560
more relaxed in your body and in your mind. You've

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05:16:44.680 --> 05:16:50.560
opened your mind up to the birthright of being able

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05:16:50.639 --> 05:17:07.479
to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's

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05:17:07.560 --> 05:17:14.759
a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it?

2140
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To feel calm? All that healing energy is spreading through

2141
05:17:24.799 --> 05:17:37.080
your body and your mind to spend time in a

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05:17:37.279 --> 05:17:53.759
special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity is banned.

2143
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It's bad, it's not allowed. Entrigue doesn't it doesn't. This

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05:18:02.799 --> 05:18:10.599
doesn't deserve to be here, It doesn't belong here. Negativity

2145
05:18:10.880 --> 05:18:25.200
has no place in your life, which makes room feel

2146
05:18:25.360 --> 05:18:56.840
more comfort, more heathing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice,

2147
05:18:56.959 --> 05:19:21.799
doesn't it? Just the let go with everything. I'm gonna

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05:19:21.880 --> 05:19:29.479
count down now from twenty down to one. You can

2149
05:19:29.799 --> 05:19:40.479
continue to relax. If you choose, you can drift to

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05:19:40.680 --> 05:19:53.919
sleep With every number you hear me say, you can

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05:19:54.159 --> 05:20:01.439
fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you can

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05:20:01.560 --> 05:20:59.439
fill twice sleepy now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, mm,

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fifteen fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

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Four.

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This is your time to just take a break, your

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05:23:15.799 --> 05:23:26.520
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

2157
05:23:35.200 --> 05:23:49.279
to give yourself a permission to take a break from everything.

2158
05:23:54.000 --> 05:23:58.479
And you you're the only person that can make that decision.

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05:24:01.360 --> 05:24:04.080
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

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05:24:08.880 --> 05:24:33.119
to just relax, to just take some time off so

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05:24:33.279 --> 05:24:38.119
that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

2162
05:24:38.439 --> 05:24:53.119
with how you feel physically, and in the process of

2163
05:24:55.919 --> 05:25:00.560
this body scan where you focus on dif from parts

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05:25:00.599 --> 05:25:11.520
of your body, those parts that you focus on and observe.

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05:25:14.520 --> 05:25:22.840
Even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

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05:25:22.919 --> 05:25:30.439
your body to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect

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05:25:31.799 --> 05:25:39.479
when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

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05:25:45.000 --> 05:25:53.400
because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

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05:25:55.159 --> 05:26:06.360
on my words, and as my words guide you to

2170
05:26:06.520 --> 05:26:18.880
focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

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05:26:26.000 --> 05:26:42.319
which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

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05:26:47.240 --> 05:27:09.279
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

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05:27:09.439 --> 05:27:26.319
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

2174
05:27:26.439 --> 05:27:39.119
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

2175
05:27:39.400 --> 05:27:53.840
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

2176
05:27:58.000 --> 05:28:05.279
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

2177
05:28:06.479 --> 05:28:13.360
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

2178
05:28:14.759 --> 05:28:21.520
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

2179
05:28:23.400 --> 05:28:29.599
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

2180
05:28:37.599 --> 05:28:45.319
And when your brain it fills with that healing energy,

2181
05:28:53.279 --> 05:29:17.799
the feeling of comfort and relaxation increases, deeply increases in

2182
05:29:17.919 --> 05:29:31.880
a way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit

2183
05:29:32.360 --> 05:29:48.159
drowsy because it's not needed, and it may start to

2184
05:29:48.400 --> 05:30:04.000
drift if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to

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05:30:04.200 --> 05:30:10.040
this and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what

2186
05:30:10.159 --> 05:30:10.560
you get.

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05:30:12.759 --> 05:30:14.240
If what you need is.

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05:30:15.919 --> 05:30:22.880
To fall asleep naturally and easily as your mind drifts,

2189
05:30:25.439 --> 05:30:39.200
that's also what will happen. Because by pressing that play

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05:30:39.319 --> 05:30:44.680
button on the podcast and listening to me, you give

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05:30:45.000 --> 05:30:57.720
permission for your body and your mind. In fact, you

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05:30:57.840 --> 05:31:02.319
give the command to your body and your mind to

2193
05:31:02.520 --> 05:31:15.200
relax deeply and to drift off to sleep, if that's

2194
05:31:15.560 --> 05:31:17.439
what you want.

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05:31:20.599 --> 05:31:21.040
Or need.

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05:31:28.720 --> 05:31:34.400
And as I focus on the different parts of your body,

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05:31:39.360 --> 05:31:48.159
you may start to just drift. And then you come

2198
05:31:48.279 --> 05:31:53.520
back again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing

2199
05:31:53.680 --> 05:32:02.119
on a different part of your body, and you may

2200
05:32:04.200 --> 05:32:13.240
find yourself drifting. You don't realize you're drifting until you

2201
05:32:13.439 --> 05:32:21.799
stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice. Focusing

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05:32:22.959 --> 05:32:27.720
on a different part of your body starts to relax

2203
05:32:27.959 --> 05:32:40.400
even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already in

2204
05:32:40.560 --> 05:32:50.919
the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer

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05:32:51.000 --> 05:33:00.799
you drift, and the longer you drift, eventually that drifting

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05:33:01.000 --> 05:33:12.880
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

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05:33:12.919 --> 05:33:21.919
you wake up in your own time, when you experience

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05:33:22.200 --> 05:33:29.560
the right amount of sleep for you, because when you

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05:33:29.759 --> 05:33:38.880
do and if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant,

2210
05:33:41.639 --> 05:34:02.119
so relaxing, so deep, healing sleep. I'm going it feels

2211
05:34:02.279 --> 05:34:10.040
so nice to relax into your own body and mind

2212
05:34:13.880 --> 05:34:19.720
as you feel that heating energy is spreading through you,

2213
05:34:22.000 --> 05:34:31.639
relaxing us so deeply. Relaxing, use so.

2214
05:34:33.759 --> 05:34:35.360
So deeply.

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As we start to focus on your eyes, moving down

2216
05:35:00.279 --> 05:35:43.159
to you joel down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, vegus,

2217
05:35:50.520 --> 05:36:22.560
your chest, the stomach, your back, your spine, you hips,

2218
05:36:30.439 --> 05:37:14.319
your legs, your feet, your choice and feelingeeing, spreading and

2219
05:37:14.639 --> 05:37:29.080
growing inside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again,

2220
05:37:31.400 --> 05:37:39.439
are parts of your body? Focusing this time on your forehead.

2221
05:37:45.919 --> 05:37:55.200
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole

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05:37:55.279 --> 05:38:17.040
of your mouth. Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you

2223
05:38:17.200 --> 05:38:22.720
could move your fingers a little bit. You can focus

2224
05:38:22.840 --> 05:38:37.360
on each one individually, both hands and even though if

2225
05:38:37.400 --> 05:38:42.680
you focus on both of your hands now they almost

2226
05:38:42.759 --> 05:38:50.639
seem to just melt into one where there is your

2227
05:38:50.759 --> 05:38:58.400
right hand start in your left hand end, almost as

2228
05:38:58.479 --> 05:39:09.799
if you just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees,

2229
05:39:15.720 --> 05:39:38.680
just noticing how your knees feel. Now, focusing on your elbows,

2230
05:39:41.439 --> 05:39:53.880
focusing on both of your elbows, just observing the feeling

2231
05:39:56.560 --> 05:40:28.479
of your elbows. Now focusing absurding the back of your neck,

2232
05:40:38.439 --> 05:41:16.119
feeding the energy on the back of your neck. Observing

2233
05:41:18.439 --> 05:41:37.799
your ankles, being aware of physical sensations in your ankles,

2234
05:42:37.799 --> 05:42:56.759
noticin now your toes on both of your feet, being

2235
05:42:57.000 --> 05:43:42.000
aware now your toast fear right now, not too thin

2236
05:43:52.240 --> 05:44:23.200
high you entire body fails noticing your mind feels now

2237
05:44:41.279 --> 05:45:16.040
letting go, letting go, letting go, h everything, letting go,

2238
05:45:22.639 --> 05:45:56.799
letting go, leting go, h h everything everything. I'm at

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05:45:56.840 --> 05:46:00.759
the start now, and I'd like you just, first of all,

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05:46:00.919 --> 05:46:07.119
just to see yourself lying down on that message table,

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05:46:08.959 --> 05:46:13.319
lying on your front. Your head is supported, your arms

2242
05:46:13.639 --> 05:46:22.799
are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing. It's really easy,

2243
05:46:25.040 --> 05:46:31.639
and you feel you feel confident in how you look

2244
05:46:31.680 --> 05:46:35.279
as well. So there's none of that issue of body

2245
05:46:35.400 --> 05:46:44.159
problems or shyness because I'm a professional and this is

2246
05:46:44.759 --> 05:46:49.919
a therapy session, so none of that stuff matters whatsoever.

2247
05:46:53.840 --> 05:47:00.360
This is about you. This is about how you feel

2248
05:47:00.959 --> 05:47:07.759
and how you can enjoy that sense of comfort and

2249
05:47:07.880 --> 05:47:15.159
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands,

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05:47:15.959 --> 05:47:23.520
that my fingers to relax you by a message your body.

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05:47:28.639 --> 05:47:33.959
Soone starts off just by placing my hands on the

2252
05:47:34.040 --> 05:47:38.919
back of your head, just gently, just you can feel

2253
05:47:39.080 --> 05:47:47.520
what my hands feel like really on you, so you

2254
05:47:47.599 --> 05:47:49.840
can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the

2255
05:47:49.919 --> 05:47:55.240
back of your head, and with my hands to the

2256
05:47:55.400 --> 05:47:59.560
side of your head, not pressing, but just holding their

2257
05:47:59.639 --> 05:48:05.639
very maybe over your ears, and a little bit on

2258
05:48:05.759 --> 05:48:12.319
your face, just so you can feel my hands so

2259
05:48:12.479 --> 05:48:25.439
you can become accustomed to them. And now put my

2260
05:48:25.599 --> 05:48:28.360
hands on the back of your head again and gently

2261
05:48:30.000 --> 05:48:34.959
let them slide down onto the back of your neck.

2262
05:48:42.560 --> 05:48:52.400
You can feel my hands gently stroke in the back

2263
05:48:52.439 --> 05:48:58.880
of your neck to start with, just so you can

2264
05:48:58.959 --> 05:49:03.159
get used to the the feeling of my hands on

2265
05:49:03.279 --> 05:49:11.159
your skin, get accustomed to it. Realize that you're safe

2266
05:49:12.200 --> 05:49:20.919
and it's all good, it's all fine, And I'm going

2267
05:49:21.000 --> 05:49:25.159
to start gently massaging the muscles in the back of

2268
05:49:25.240 --> 05:49:41.080
your neck with both hands. Now, this is a very

2269
05:49:41.200 --> 05:49:49.279
trusting situation, really, because our necks are so fragile and

2270
05:49:49.439 --> 05:49:53.520
to have someone have their hands around your neck in

2271
05:49:53.639 --> 05:49:58.919
that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which is

2272
05:49:59.000 --> 05:50:03.400
why messages are quite good, because it allows you to

2273
05:50:03.520 --> 05:50:17.799
relax and to get in touch with trust, to feel

2274
05:50:17.919 --> 05:50:30.119
peaceful and calm. And there's a message the sides of

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05:50:30.200 --> 05:50:38.080
your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck,

2276
05:50:39.799 --> 05:50:42.319
it would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

2277
05:50:42.400 --> 05:50:49.040
I guess, all the way up to your jaw. Your

2278
05:50:49.159 --> 05:50:55.639
ears kind of area that side of your neck. Of course,

2279
05:50:55.680 --> 05:50:58.200
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

2280
05:51:11.240 --> 05:51:18.279
The message in the back of your neck, especially that

2281
05:51:18.479 --> 05:51:27.959
area where perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message,

2282
05:51:28.319 --> 05:51:32.360
you can actually feel a sense of release in the

2283
05:51:32.479 --> 05:51:40.319
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

2284
05:51:40.439 --> 05:51:46.400
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2285
05:51:56.279 --> 05:52:00.680
Then moving down to that area between your neck and shoulders,

2286
05:52:02.200 --> 05:52:11.119
that musty area, starting to message that area on both sides.

2287
05:52:13.319 --> 05:52:15.520
I mean, this would be the area that a lot

2288
05:52:15.560 --> 05:52:17.799
of people would message if they were going to give you,

2289
05:52:18.759 --> 05:52:24.200
like a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders,

2290
05:52:24.759 --> 05:52:27.200
but it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders

2291
05:52:29.040 --> 05:52:35.639
from the neck and again that can hold tension and stress.

2292
05:52:36.880 --> 05:52:41.880
And when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

2293
05:52:44.959 --> 05:53:00.400
and you decide how deep that message is, and just

2294
05:53:00.560 --> 05:53:07.520
allow my knuckles just to dig in to get to

2295
05:53:07.639 --> 05:53:17.639
those muscles and to really relaxed all the time being

2296
05:53:17.919 --> 05:53:35.439
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

2297
05:53:35.639 --> 05:53:44.159
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

2298
05:53:44.240 --> 05:53:55.360
your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2299
05:53:55.400 --> 05:53:58.720
a little bit off the table, just to give you

2300
05:53:58.840 --> 05:54:09.240
a little bit of a stresh, but very gently. And

2301
05:54:09.319 --> 05:54:11.880
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders

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05:54:12.639 --> 05:54:23.599
the sides of the back. Again, this is a part

2303
05:54:23.759 --> 05:54:29.119
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2304
05:54:29.159 --> 05:54:37.200
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

2305
05:54:39.080 --> 05:54:44.520
release the tension to really get into those muscles, and

2306
05:54:47.959 --> 05:54:51.319
you can let your fingers in there. They can feel

2307
05:54:51.520 --> 05:54:59.560
really nice. Sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged

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05:55:01.000 --> 05:55:09.680
quite strongly, it can all be beneficial to the relaxation

2309
05:55:14.799 --> 05:55:27.880
with the muscles in your shoulders. Now to move down

2310
05:55:27.959 --> 05:55:38.400
your arms, we do one arm at a time, Starting

2311
05:55:38.479 --> 05:55:48.919
with your right arm. What idea is I just lift

2312
05:55:49.000 --> 05:55:51.919
your arm up, just hold it to the side of

2313
05:55:52.040 --> 05:55:59.200
you that way it still be attached, and I just

2314
05:55:59.520 --> 05:56:13.479
mess up much the tops of your arms all the

2315
05:56:13.560 --> 05:56:32.200
way down to your forearms, into your wrists, gently massaging

2316
05:56:38.040 --> 05:56:44.400
that parts, the softer part which is the under part

2317
05:56:44.479 --> 05:56:50.479
of the arm, which leads to the crease in your elbow,

2318
05:56:51.040 --> 05:57:06.479
the inside. It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having

2319
05:57:06.560 --> 05:57:25.439
that stroked I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now

2320
05:57:25.599 --> 05:57:36.319
moving down to your right hand, just holding your hand

2321
05:57:39.599 --> 05:57:49.360
in both of my hands, just pressing gently on the

2322
05:57:49.439 --> 05:57:56.759
back of your hand and stretching your fingers ever so

2323
05:57:56.919 --> 05:58:07.520
lightly at the same time, pressing down and massaging each finger,

2324
05:58:15.560 --> 05:58:19.599
and then starting to massage the palms of the hand.

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05:58:26.279 --> 05:58:37.319
Just turning the hand gently, stretching it gently, and actually

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having your hand held can really be an emotional experience

2327
05:58:44.319 --> 05:58:50.319
sometimes even if it is a stranger, So when you

2328
05:58:50.400 --> 05:58:55.959
don't know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

2329
05:58:56.119 --> 05:59:11.040
maybe because it's intimate and you can feel nice, you

2330
05:59:11.119 --> 05:59:21.720
can feel safe. And as I put that right arm

2331
05:59:21.919 --> 05:59:30.119
back down where it was, we did the same with

2332
05:59:30.240 --> 05:59:42.319
your left arm, exactly the same. Massage in the muscles

2333
05:59:43.520 --> 05:59:47.240
in your arm all the way down. Do you rest,

2334
05:59:51.400 --> 06:00:00.159
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2335
06:00:01.319 --> 06:00:15.240
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2336
06:00:21.759 --> 06:00:31.840
stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

2337
06:00:43.880 --> 06:01:12.040
You can feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and just

2338
06:01:12.240 --> 06:01:25.119
rest your left down back down. Start to massage your back,

2339
06:01:26.840 --> 06:01:34.880
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

2340
06:01:38.119 --> 06:01:42.040
starting again where we already have been, the area at

2341
06:01:42.080 --> 06:01:46.520
the top in between your shoulders and near your neck.

2342
06:01:48.279 --> 06:01:52.720
Going back a message in that area again, but this

2343
06:01:53.080 --> 06:02:06.639
time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to the middle

2344
06:02:06.680 --> 06:02:14.159
of your back, working from the outside inwards. It's a

2345
06:02:14.319 --> 06:02:22.240
massage in the your back, but the outsides of your back,

2346
06:02:26.400 --> 06:02:40.000
the parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost

2347
06:02:42.159 --> 06:02:54.360
the part that connects your front to your back, and

2348
06:02:54.599 --> 06:03:03.360
just massaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

2349
06:03:06.799 --> 06:03:10.799
moving down, and then moving across a little bit, and

2350
06:03:10.959 --> 06:03:16.680
moving all the way down again, being very gentle yet

2351
06:03:16.919 --> 06:03:27.680
firm as you choose. Eventually we get to the spine.

2352
06:03:29.080 --> 06:03:32.799
We can message the muscles and either side of your

2353
06:03:32.880 --> 06:03:36.759
spine from the top of your neck all the way

2354
06:03:36.919 --> 06:03:48.000
down to your lower back. We can do that a

2355
06:03:48.119 --> 06:03:58.720
few times. Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know,

2356
06:03:59.159 --> 06:04:03.639
two fingers and just go your side of the spine

2357
06:04:04.959 --> 06:04:08.680
almost just push down, go all the way down to

2358
06:04:08.799 --> 06:04:16.759
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

2359
06:04:17.040 --> 06:04:26.040
opening up the body, stretching your body so that you

2360
06:04:26.319 --> 06:04:44.560
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

2361
06:04:44.680 --> 06:04:48.040
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

2362
06:04:48.119 --> 06:04:57.200
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

2363
06:04:57.400 --> 06:05:01.880
your pelvis, I'm going to mess up mug that area

2364
06:05:02.680 --> 06:05:07.680
of your back. I'll stretch over the other side and

2365
06:05:07.799 --> 06:05:12.759
I will pull the muscles gently and massage and push

2366
06:05:14.279 --> 06:05:17.360
from one end that side or way to my side

2367
06:05:19.400 --> 06:05:22.279
to the middle of fact to where your spine is.

2368
06:05:23.680 --> 06:05:29.319
Massaging that side of your spine the opposite side to

2369
06:05:29.400 --> 06:05:37.240
where I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread. There's that

2370
06:05:37.439 --> 06:05:44.360
big area which is firm yet lots there to message.

2371
06:05:49.520 --> 06:05:53.840
Potentially one of the most important places to actually have

2372
06:05:54.400 --> 06:06:02.040
a message because you feel it. You really feel the

2373
06:06:02.200 --> 06:06:07.360
release and the pleasure of having your lower back massaged.

2374
06:06:10.560 --> 06:06:16.159
It releases so much from your body that's not useful,

2375
06:06:19.400 --> 06:06:24.959
starting a healing process which will continue long after this

2376
06:06:25.159 --> 06:06:37.240
recording is over. The message in this part of your

2377
06:06:37.319 --> 06:06:42.680
body not only feels really good for you, it's actually

2378
06:06:42.799 --> 06:06:46.840
fun to do because it is, as I said, like

2379
06:06:47.040 --> 06:06:52.159
kneading bread. It's a part that you can really get

2380
06:06:52.360 --> 06:06:59.759
hold of and really massage deeply. If that's your choice,

2381
06:07:07.799 --> 06:07:09.680
then I'm going to move over to the other side

2382
06:07:09.720 --> 06:07:16.159
of your body and do the same with the opposite

2383
06:07:16.279 --> 06:07:25.599
part of your lawer back, kneading and messaging from your

2384
06:07:25.799 --> 06:07:33.240
sides all way to the middle of your back where

2385
06:07:33.279 --> 06:07:46.919
your spine is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at

2386
06:07:46.959 --> 06:08:02.159
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, y, calmness,

2387
06:08:02.560 --> 06:08:14.200
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2388
06:08:14.279 --> 06:08:19.400
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2389
06:08:19.520 --> 06:08:23.799
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2390
06:08:23.959 --> 06:08:35.319
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2391
06:08:35.400 --> 06:08:40.319
to move or move further up to your top of

2392
06:08:40.400 --> 06:08:46.680
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

2393
06:08:48.040 --> 06:08:54.279
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2394
06:08:54.479 --> 06:09:01.840
messing massage in that area up to your spine, from

2395
06:09:01.880 --> 06:09:06.080
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2396
06:09:06.200 --> 06:09:12.520
some of that massage area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2397
06:09:12.759 --> 06:09:18.439
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2398
06:09:18.479 --> 06:09:25.639
all connected chest and the back connect together. I'm going

2399
06:09:25.720 --> 06:09:29.279
to be massaging and just pulling some of that skin

2400
06:09:30.599 --> 06:09:39.919
from your side up and massaging that area of your

2401
06:09:40.040 --> 06:09:48.479
upper back all the way to your spine. And then

2402
06:09:48.520 --> 06:09:51.279
I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with the

2403
06:09:51.400 --> 06:09:58.159
middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing as

2404
06:09:58.319 --> 06:10:12.319
gentle or as deep you choose. Now I'll move the

2405
06:10:12.400 --> 06:10:17.200
other side again and do the exact same thing with

2406
06:10:17.479 --> 06:10:21.560
the top of your back on the other side, from

2407
06:10:26.720 --> 06:10:35.400
pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2408
06:10:40.520 --> 06:10:47.119
and then continue in that all the way down, including

2409
06:10:47.240 --> 06:11:04.240
the lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2410
06:11:04.720 --> 06:11:10.959
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2411
06:11:11.159 --> 06:11:20.360
sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg, and

2412
06:11:20.439 --> 06:11:27.840
massage in the back and the sides of your thighs

2413
06:11:30.279 --> 06:11:36.720
gently and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's

2414
06:11:36.759 --> 06:11:40.000
an area that can be very tense at times and

2415
06:11:40.200 --> 06:11:43.599
maybe needs a little bit more pressure than the rest

2416
06:11:43.639 --> 06:11:51.279
of the body. That's up to you, and you can

2417
06:11:51.400 --> 06:11:58.080
gently stroke the back of your legs where you know,

2418
06:11:58.759 --> 06:12:04.840
opposite your knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive,

2419
06:12:05.080 --> 06:12:17.720
gentle area. And then working down to your calf muscles.

2420
06:12:20.639 --> 06:12:27.000
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2421
06:12:30.479 --> 06:12:47.400
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles,

2422
06:12:49.680 --> 06:12:55.279
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

2423
06:12:55.639 --> 06:13:07.200
gently massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and

2424
06:13:08.080 --> 06:13:31.240
stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage

2425
06:13:31.360 --> 06:13:40.479
in the bottom of your feet and the side of

2426
06:13:40.599 --> 06:13:51.840
your feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle,

2427
06:13:57.360 --> 06:14:02.840
and just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving

2428
06:14:02.919 --> 06:14:12.319
your feet massage to just overtake you. As I continue

2429
06:14:12.439 --> 06:14:19.040
to message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2430
06:14:21.680 --> 06:14:27.360
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2431
06:14:27.479 --> 06:14:33.319
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2432
06:14:33.560 --> 06:14:41.599
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2433
06:14:41.759 --> 06:14:48.200
toes gently, the message in the bottoms of your toes

2434
06:14:48.959 --> 06:15:04.240
with my fingers, each one individually, moving her to the

2435
06:15:04.400 --> 06:15:13.799
left leg to do exactly the same thing. Starting at

2436
06:15:13.840 --> 06:15:18.279
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2437
06:15:18.319 --> 06:15:25.919
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently the

2438
06:15:26.080 --> 06:15:40.080
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2439
06:15:40.159 --> 06:15:46.319
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2440
06:15:46.439 --> 06:15:55.080
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted, like

2441
06:15:55.119 --> 06:16:00.439
a bigger future recording wants, spend more time on one

2442
06:16:00.560 --> 06:16:12.400
particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles,

2443
06:16:18.400 --> 06:16:31.759
Massage in your calf muscles, firmly and gently, moving down

2444
06:16:34.119 --> 06:16:40.360
your ain coord into your feet, Massage in the backs

2445
06:16:40.400 --> 06:16:50.439
of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching your

2446
06:16:50.599 --> 06:16:57.439
toes and massage in each tone individually. And the feeling

2447
06:16:57.599 --> 06:17:02.799
of pleasure and least that you experience when your having

2448
06:17:03.560 --> 06:17:24.680
your feet massaged feels really good. Now, if you turn

2449
06:17:24.840 --> 06:17:35.919
over in your mind, laying on your back, I'm just

2450
06:17:36.040 --> 06:17:49.360
gonna start again for your neck area, in your shoulders,

2451
06:17:53.360 --> 06:18:03.759
just to get back in touch with that area. And

2452
06:18:03.919 --> 06:18:15.560
as you move up, I can clean my hands, make

2453
06:18:15.599 --> 06:18:19.159
them more fresh, because now I'm going to massage your

2454
06:18:19.279 --> 06:18:35.080
face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are

2455
06:18:35.200 --> 06:18:41.400
closed and I can just stretch your eyes a little bit,

2456
06:18:42.439 --> 06:18:53.479
pushing up on your eyebrows, just massaging around, just scalp,

2457
06:18:59.200 --> 06:19:08.680
massaging down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw,

2458
06:19:09.880 --> 06:19:21.159
gently the side of your neck, your chin.

2459
06:19:28.080 --> 06:19:28.439
M hm.

2460
06:19:32.279 --> 06:19:39.959
And just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2461
06:19:43.759 --> 06:19:47.799
starting by massage in the very top of your chest

2462
06:19:51.639 --> 06:19:56.840
where the collar bone is, either side of the collarbone.

2463
06:20:05.400 --> 06:20:18.080
Then just message in the whole of the chest, moving

2464
06:20:18.200 --> 06:20:31.759
the chest around, because it's quite a large area. You

2465
06:20:31.840 --> 06:20:39.599
can move from one side to the next, moving my

2466
06:20:39.799 --> 06:20:50.560
hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2467
06:20:52.720 --> 06:20:55.759
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2468
06:21:01.040 --> 06:21:09.680
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2469
06:21:22.319 --> 06:21:27.080
and then allow my hands to just massage gently and

2470
06:21:27.400 --> 06:21:34.119
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2471
06:21:34.240 --> 06:21:43.840
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2472
06:21:44.119 --> 06:21:49.759
massage in and slide in at the same time, moving

2473
06:21:49.919 --> 06:22:08.560
down to just below your red cage, moving down the

2474
06:22:08.759 --> 06:22:18.000
messaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

2475
06:22:18.159 --> 06:22:32.599
it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm also

2476
06:22:32.759 --> 06:22:37.959
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

2477
06:22:38.119 --> 06:22:44.400
area that really doesn't get much attention but feels really

2478
06:22:44.520 --> 06:22:54.720
good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the

2479
06:22:54.919 --> 06:23:01.840
sides of your body, just below your arms, all the

2480
06:23:01.919 --> 06:23:15.319
way down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

2481
06:23:17.400 --> 06:23:20.759
I'm going to stand one side of you like I

2482
06:23:20.840 --> 06:23:25.319
did when I did your lower back. We're gonna do

2483
06:23:25.400 --> 06:23:31.479
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from the side,

2484
06:23:34.959 --> 06:23:47.040
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in.

2485
06:23:49.599 --> 06:23:53.759
A whole area from below your ribs all the way

2486
06:23:53.880 --> 06:24:04.520
down to below your belly button, and then move.

2487
06:24:04.439 --> 06:24:07.439
Around to the other side of you and repeat that

2488
06:24:14.080 --> 06:24:28.080
process of relaxing, deeply, calmly, feel loose, You feel free,

2489
06:24:30.479 --> 06:24:35.159
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different

2490
06:24:35.240 --> 06:24:42.080
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2491
06:24:42.680 --> 06:24:46.560
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomach

2492
06:24:48.000 --> 06:24:55.799
that we may not be aware of. As I now

2493
06:24:56.000 --> 06:25:06.159
message your stomach onto your stomach, they can circles around

2494
06:25:06.479 --> 06:25:14.919
your belly button and then go in the other way around.

2495
06:25:21.479 --> 06:25:27.200
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2496
06:25:27.880 --> 06:25:38.159
how you're feeling as a now move down the tops

2497
06:25:38.200 --> 06:25:44.959
of your thighs, the muscles, massaging them, and I can

2498
06:25:45.119 --> 06:25:51.040
do this two legs at the same time, pressing down,

2499
06:25:53.919 --> 06:25:59.919
messaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

2500
06:26:00.159 --> 06:26:11.119
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2501
06:26:11.200 --> 06:26:22.479
your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2502
06:26:22.639 --> 06:26:34.799
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2503
06:26:35.159 --> 06:26:49.840
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2504
06:26:50.040 --> 06:26:56.119
then with each foot in each hand, just gently massaging

2505
06:26:56.919 --> 06:27:05.200
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

2506
06:27:05.720 --> 06:27:13.080
your ankle, your toes, message in every part of your

2507
06:27:13.200 --> 06:27:24.560
feet feels so good. Just let go and enjoy the process.

2508
06:27:30.200 --> 06:27:49.080
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so

2509
06:27:49.279 --> 06:28:06.040
many feelings come just from touching your skin, and you

2510
06:28:06.159 --> 06:28:12.360
can just lie there for as long as you choose

2511
06:28:16.360 --> 06:28:28.159
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort and being massaged by me.

2512
06:28:35.319 --> 06:28:57.279
Enjoy feeling deeply rax And all we're gonna do is

2513
06:29:00.919 --> 06:29:02.279
blow out some candles.

2514
06:29:04.799 --> 06:29:19.880
In your mind, there are going to be a hundred candles,

2515
06:29:27.000 --> 06:29:32.759
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2516
06:29:33.159 --> 06:29:38.439
by one, starting at one hundred.

2517
06:29:39.520 --> 06:29:46.880
As I count down all the way down to one,

2518
06:29:51.360 --> 06:30:00.400
and each time I say a number, you can that

2519
06:30:00.599 --> 06:30:06.959
candle in front of you, and I'd like you to

2520
06:30:07.080 --> 06:30:26.439
actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so it's

2521
06:30:26.439 --> 06:30:37.959
not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish.

2522
06:30:42.639 --> 06:30:47.240
And then I'll say the next number to move down,

2523
06:30:50.479 --> 06:30:57.000
and you can just blow that one out as well.

2524
06:31:02.919 --> 06:31:11.439
And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

2525
06:31:12.560 --> 06:31:21.200
feeling more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep,

2526
06:31:22.080 --> 06:31:34.200
you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2527
06:31:34.360 --> 06:31:44.400
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2528
06:31:44.560 --> 06:32:02.959
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2529
06:32:09.680 --> 06:32:27.880
more more deep tired, and the further you go down.

2530
06:32:30.279 --> 06:32:31.000
The more.

2531
06:32:32.439 --> 06:32:44.639
Your mind starts to drift. You may find that you

2532
06:32:46.000 --> 06:32:59.479
stop listening to me after a while. And even though

2533
06:32:59.560 --> 06:33:08.279
they me be background sounds where you are, you'll be

2534
06:33:08.360 --> 06:33:23.520
aware of those sounds at the moment, be me start

2535
06:33:23.880 --> 06:33:39.200
to just not even notice them at all, because they're unimportant.

2536
06:33:47.200 --> 06:33:52.400
Where I am. I've got the sounds of the birds,

2537
06:33:54.279 --> 06:33:59.799
there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes,

2538
06:34:02.840 --> 06:34:11.200
and there's the odd plane that goes by, maybe traffic

2539
06:34:11.520 --> 06:34:22.400
and trains in the distance, But none of that seems

2540
06:34:22.599 --> 06:34:39.240
important whatsoever. More candles you blow out, the less important anything.

2541
06:34:40.439 --> 06:34:40.479
Is.

2542
06:34:45.400 --> 06:34:54.599
More candles you blow out, the further you seem to

2543
06:34:56.560 --> 06:35:14.720
move away from sounds and from general date days. Stuff

2544
06:35:16.360 --> 06:35:30.400
seems to just move away on its own. You feel

2545
06:35:30.919 --> 06:35:51.080
more calmer with every candle you blow out, guiding you

2546
06:35:54.599 --> 06:36:07.680
the next number, do you hear me say? And then

2547
06:36:07.759 --> 06:36:25.400
you blow that candle out to So easy, so simple.

2548
06:36:34.959 --> 06:36:48.959
We're gonna start by introducing the first candle, which is

2549
06:36:49.040 --> 06:37:07.919
a hundred. First candles, one hundred. When you blow that

2550
06:37:08.319 --> 06:37:27.840
candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change in how

2551
06:37:27.959 --> 06:37:39.319
you feel, as well as a real sense of positivity

2552
06:37:40.240 --> 06:38:13.919
growing within you. Relaxation and sleepiness expanding starting with one

2553
06:38:14.200 --> 06:38:57.680
hundred flow out by candle now ninety nine, candle ninety

2554
06:38:58.759 --> 06:40:37.119
eight can do nine seven, can ninety six and ninety five,

2555
06:40:52.639 --> 06:40:59.000
hand ninety four.

2556
06:41:23.479 --> 06:41:24.000
Can do.

2557
06:41:29.840 --> 06:42:55.000
Ninety three, ten, ninety two and ninety one, candle ninety

2558
06:43:14.279 --> 06:43:26.360
and eighty nine.

2559
06:43:29.759 --> 06:43:30.319
Mm HM.

2560
06:43:43.439 --> 06:46:17.880
And fifty eight and eighty endo eighty ten, eighty five,

2561
06:46:53.880 --> 06:50:35.240
two four, four, eighty two and two one can seventy nine,

2562
06:50:48.360 --> 06:51:27.639
can do seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2563
06:51:41.520 --> 06:52:41.040
candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle

2564
06:52:46.279 --> 06:53:43.759
seventy two, handle seventy one M, candle seventy one, hand

2565
06:53:47.759 --> 06:54:42.159
seventy and do sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2566
06:54:55.880 --> 06:55:44.119
candle sixty five, candle sixty four mm HM, candle sixty four,

2567
06:56:00.159 --> 06:56:58.919
candle sixty three, candle sixty two and sixty one candle

2568
06:57:03.680 --> 06:58:45.040
sixty fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle

2569
06:58:51.000 --> 07:00:17.880
fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, hand fifty three,

2570
07:00:35.959 --> 07:02:15.240
handle fifty two fifty two ten to fifty two, candle

2571
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fifty one, candle fifty candle foty nine, candle forty eight,

2572
07:04:29.720 --> 07:06:09.959
chen forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five, candle

2573
07:06:14.639 --> 07:08:19.919
voughty two candle who do you are? And forty candle

2574
07:08:23.840 --> 07:09:05.720
thirty nine and thirty eight.

2575
07:09:34.799 --> 07:09:35.279
Can't do.

2576
07:09:39.759 --> 07:11:53.240
Thirty seven, canto thirty five, candle thirty four, candle thirty three,

2577
07:12:25.880 --> 07:15:25.479
hand thirty one, chendle thirty and twoinighteen nine ten twenty eight,

2578
07:16:16.880 --> 07:18:29.560
candle twenty seven, candle twenty six, candle twenty five, yam

2579
07:18:35.400 --> 07:19:58.159
to win, chief, endle twenty three, hand to twenty two,

2580
07:20:31.319 --> 07:21:17.919
to it you want and to wity.

2581
07:21:54.799 --> 07:22:20.319
Me can.

2582
07:22:23.599 --> 07:26:29.439
Ninety candle seventeen sixteen chance fourteen ten well.

2583
07:27:15.000 --> 07:27:26.319
Wo and.

2584
07:28:05.680 --> 07:31:58.840
Y yeah, shame do nine two eight candle six cancel,

2585
07:32:44.720 --> 07:34:43.479
can do four doy seven two.

2586
07:35:00.200 --> 07:35:34.439
H can.

2587
07:35:41.599 --> 07:35:55.479
Or lego. All of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past,

2588
07:35:57.319 --> 07:36:01.799
thoughts about the future, and even things you've been thinking

2589
07:36:01.840 --> 07:36:09.439
about today, just let it all go because none of

2590
07:36:09.520 --> 07:36:19.360
it is useful in this moment. This is your opportunity

2591
07:36:24.000 --> 07:36:38.599
to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get

2592
07:36:38.639 --> 07:36:48.040
in touch with that natural sense of peace that we

2593
07:36:48.279 --> 07:36:55.000
all have within us. It's available for everyone it just

2594
07:36:55.119 --> 07:37:00.000
sometimes takes a little bit of effort to set up

2595
07:37:00.159 --> 07:37:05.959
up the right time and place in order for you

2596
07:37:06.240 --> 07:37:15.279
to just let go. Because when you do decide to

2597
07:37:15.439 --> 07:37:20.680
let go and relax, that's what your body starts to

2598
07:37:20.799 --> 07:37:31.159
do because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow your

2599
07:37:31.240 --> 07:37:36.840
body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2600
07:37:40.200 --> 07:37:44.599
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2601
07:37:44.639 --> 07:37:50.560
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2602
07:37:50.720 --> 07:37:59.759
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2603
07:38:01.599 --> 07:38:08.639
your body or just follow suit, because sometimes all the

2604
07:38:08.759 --> 07:38:13.479
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2605
07:38:14.599 --> 07:38:23.040
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2606
07:38:23.159 --> 07:38:27.119
here to there, we're walking around and we're doing stuff,

2607
07:38:29.439 --> 07:38:35.759
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2608
07:38:35.959 --> 07:38:42.919
really relax deeply. So it kind of waits for you

2609
07:38:43.240 --> 07:38:52.400
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2610
07:38:52.439 --> 07:38:59.040
you do give your permission, when you give the say

2611
07:38:59.159 --> 07:39:05.520
so we need, say okay, it's time for your body

2612
07:39:07.159 --> 07:39:16.119
to let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2613
07:39:19.119 --> 07:39:24.560
It's like a breath of relief. Ah, good, I can

2614
07:39:24.639 --> 07:39:31.680
now relax that feeling at the end of a day,

2615
07:39:31.720 --> 07:39:35.439
of a very physical day that you may experience in

2616
07:39:35.560 --> 07:39:39.119
the past. But you get home and you just sit

2617
07:39:39.319 --> 07:39:43.200
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off

2618
07:39:43.319 --> 07:39:49.119
and not ah, feels so nice knowing that you don't

2619
07:39:49.799 --> 07:39:53.159
have to get up again for a little while at

2620
07:39:53.240 --> 07:39:56.919
least if you choose, You can just sit there for

2621
07:39:57.080 --> 07:40:09.439
maybe an hour to and it feels blissful. And just

2622
07:40:09.639 --> 07:40:14.680
by sitting down like that, your body knows that it's

2623
07:40:14.799 --> 07:40:20.479
time to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2624
07:40:22.720 --> 07:40:33.000
Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to

2625
07:40:33.200 --> 07:40:42.759
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2626
07:40:43.040 --> 07:40:51.840
stress of your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just

2627
07:40:52.240 --> 07:41:11.599
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2628
07:41:11.880 --> 07:41:18.119
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2629
07:41:20.000 --> 07:41:24.639
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2630
07:41:24.759 --> 07:41:28.040
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2631
07:41:29.479 --> 07:41:33.360
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2632
07:41:33.560 --> 07:41:38.599
space to let go completely and relax, they seem are

2633
07:41:38.759 --> 07:41:47.040
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2634
07:41:47.159 --> 07:41:55.720
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally.

2635
07:41:57.720 --> 07:42:05.000
The most natural thing in the world to allow yourself.

2636
07:42:08.840 --> 07:42:09.799
To feel.

2637
07:42:11.000 --> 07:42:17.599
Really calm in your mind, and it is almost like

2638
07:42:17.759 --> 07:42:27.360
a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button and

2639
07:42:27.520 --> 07:42:33.720
all the tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

2640
07:42:34.080 --> 07:42:38.319
like a cog, like the inside of a clock, just unwinding.

2641
07:42:38.959 --> 07:42:42.880
And it's almost like you could see the little wind

2642
07:42:43.000 --> 07:42:48.799
up knob that's used just going the opposite way that

2643
07:42:48.919 --> 07:42:54.840
you choose to wind it up, and the energy that

2644
07:42:55.080 --> 07:43:05.279
fremetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power,

2645
07:43:06.599 --> 07:43:14.000
losing its strength as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

2646
07:43:15.200 --> 07:43:24.720
and deeper, and you may find a the more relaxed

2647
07:43:26.119 --> 07:43:37.479
you feel, that your mind starts to wonder, maybe seemed

2648
07:43:37.520 --> 07:43:41.400
to stop listening to me for a while, and your

2649
07:43:41.479 --> 07:43:47.000
mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening

2650
07:43:47.080 --> 07:43:52.759
to me again, and that was just your mind drifting

2651
07:43:53.119 --> 07:44:03.000
to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're

2652
07:44:05.560 --> 07:44:10.959
stressed and tense, we're not may not actually be aware

2653
07:44:11.279 --> 07:44:17.599
of what we need, what we physically or emotionally need

2654
07:44:18.119 --> 07:44:25.840
in this moment. But when you allow your body and

2655
07:44:26.080 --> 07:44:31.759
mind to relax completely and you let go of all

2656
07:44:32.240 --> 07:44:41.639
thoughts concerns, worries, ideas all letting them go allow them

2657
07:44:41.720 --> 07:44:51.880
to drop onto the floor. When you start to get

2658
07:44:51.959 --> 07:45:03.000
in touch with the feelings of such relaxation, this feels

2659
07:45:03.240 --> 07:45:11.279
so nice to be in touch with the calmness of

2660
07:45:11.439 --> 07:45:20.200
the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2661
07:45:24.360 --> 07:45:36.599
Even your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as

2662
07:45:36.680 --> 07:45:42.639
that cool enters through your mouth or nose into your lungs,

2663
07:45:45.319 --> 07:45:53.680
breathing in comforts and relaxation, and in just breathing out

2664
07:45:53.919 --> 07:46:03.520
any excess remain intentional stress from every part of your body.

2665
07:46:04.759 --> 07:46:05.360
And mind.

2666
07:46:08.919 --> 07:46:13.479
And as you start to focus on your mind, maybe

2667
07:46:14.040 --> 07:46:21.520
you notice that things have come to a standstill or

2668
07:46:21.680 --> 07:46:30.759
maybe just much much lower than before, because your mind

2669
07:46:30.959 --> 07:46:41.479
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

2670
07:46:41.599 --> 07:46:48.040
allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

2671
07:46:50.799 --> 07:47:02.799
And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation

2672
07:47:03.759 --> 07:47:04.560
of your mind.

2673
07:47:06.919 --> 07:47:08.159
Let you know that.

2674
07:47:10.279 --> 07:47:22.720
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed really is a great

2675
07:47:23.720 --> 07:47:27.799
healing experience fear.

2676
07:47:30.119 --> 07:47:30.880
And has.

2677
07:47:35.119 --> 07:47:43.560
So many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2678
07:47:46.240 --> 07:47:52.799
To be able to let go everything and to relax

2679
07:47:54.080 --> 07:48:05.040
completely in all parts of your body and mind. Even

2680
07:48:05.119 --> 07:48:13.279
your bones as are rexed, all your muscles are relaxed,

2681
07:48:20.080 --> 07:48:34.479
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2682
07:48:37.400 --> 07:48:37.919
That you have.

2683
07:48:39.599 --> 07:48:56.919
It is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts

2684
07:48:57.240 --> 07:48:59.639
to feel the benefits.

2685
07:49:00.880 --> 07:49:01.240
But this.

2686
07:49:02.840 --> 07:49:15.200
Healing relaxation, and as you focus on the inside of

2687
07:49:15.319 --> 07:49:21.000
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

2688
07:49:21.319 --> 07:49:30.799
realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply.

2689
07:49:35.119 --> 07:49:43.840
And then as your brain continues to relax sends those

2690
07:49:44.599 --> 07:49:52.720
messages to the rest of your body and your mind

2691
07:49:54.639 --> 07:50:17.720
to re reax more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting go

2692
07:50:17.959 --> 07:50:29.680
of any remaining thoughts or concens allow them just to

2693
07:50:30.000 --> 07:50:37.479
drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary in

2694
07:50:38.200 --> 07:50:49.279
this moment, In this moment of deep relaxation and calmness,

2695
07:50:51.639 --> 07:51:18.840
filling your brain with deep, constant rated heathing, calming, relaxing, every.

2696
07:51:18.919 --> 07:51:20.639
Part of your brain.

2697
07:51:24.840 --> 07:51:44.799
Feething so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and peaceful. Your

2698
07:51:44.959 --> 07:51:56.759
brain feels so light, that's so healthy, in that sense

2699
07:51:56.880 --> 07:52:09.919
of deep, deep come that really does allow you to

2700
07:52:10.319 --> 07:52:21.599
enjoy those ever increase in sensations of comfort that is

2701
07:52:21.840 --> 07:52:35.080
spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle of

2702
07:52:35.200 --> 07:52:35.799
your body.

2703
07:52:38.279 --> 07:52:41.279
E deeper.

2704
07:52:45.400 --> 07:53:01.959
And deeper, much more deeper than before, much more comp

2705
07:53:04.919 --> 07:53:18.000
spreading true your body in your mind, be so peaceful

2706
07:53:18.560 --> 07:53:36.040
and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part of

2707
07:53:36.279 --> 07:53:36.959
your body.

2708
07:53:38.639 --> 07:53:39.479
Lett him go.

2709
07:53:41.520 --> 07:53:43.119
Mm hm a.

2710
07:53:43.639 --> 07:54:05.240
Everything and everything so peaceful, calm, so real, last a

2711
07:54:05.759 --> 07:54:21.919
very second, the passes you feel d PA, DPA relax,

2712
07:54:25.840 --> 07:54:37.400
dper and dper relax, come.

2713
07:54:40.040 --> 07:54:45.040
So calm, p.

2714
07:54:46.599 --> 07:54:58.720
Fall, so very peace from your head down to your ties.

2715
07:55:01.880 --> 07:55:14.279
Such peace and comfort throwing all all the time, Such

2716
07:55:15.040 --> 07:55:27.919
peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind deep

2717
07:55:28.520 --> 07:55:44.360
and deeper, Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into a

2718
07:55:45.520 --> 07:55:47.000
muscle of your body.

2719
07:55:50.639 --> 07:55:52.240
So they feel.

2720
07:55:54.439 --> 07:56:19.840
Amazing, so relaxed, so peaceful, so and peaceful, letting go

2721
07:56:23.799 --> 07:56:33.759
every You're going to do a body scan, focusing on

2722
07:56:34.759 --> 07:56:39.479
firstly how you feel in your body, not trying to

2723
07:56:39.680 --> 07:56:46.279
change how you feel, not trying to relax, not trying

2724
07:56:46.360 --> 07:56:51.560
to move away from any discomfort or stress or tension.

2725
07:56:52.840 --> 07:56:59.520
Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel in the

2726
07:56:59.599 --> 07:57:05.919
different parts of your body, Just allowing yourself to be

2727
07:57:06.240 --> 07:57:13.720
exactly as you are, to notice to get in touch

2728
07:57:18.319 --> 07:57:25.599
with how you actually feel in this moment. I'm going

2729
07:57:25.680 --> 07:57:36.680
to start off by focusing on your hands. Just be

2730
07:57:36.759 --> 07:57:44.799
aware of your hands. I'd like you to move your

2731
07:57:44.880 --> 07:57:49.840
hands around, just maybe move your fingers a little bit.

2732
07:57:52.319 --> 07:57:58.000
I've been and closing your hands very gently, just so

2733
07:57:58.439 --> 07:58:03.959
that you can get in touch with how your hands

2734
07:58:06.439 --> 07:58:26.759
and your fingers fell, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2735
07:58:27.639 --> 07:58:34.880
on your feet, and if you can just do kind

2736
07:58:34.880 --> 07:58:39.599
of an equivalent with your feet is you've just done

2737
07:58:39.840 --> 07:58:47.759
with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your

2738
07:58:47.880 --> 07:59:01.119
feet around, moving your toes gently only very gently, very slowly,

2739
07:59:04.080 --> 07:59:19.520
noticing how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now

2740
07:59:19.720 --> 07:59:26.759
and your eyes, and I like you to just focus

2741
07:59:26.880 --> 07:59:32.360
on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your

2742
07:59:32.439 --> 07:59:36.919
eyes a couple of times to really get in touch

2743
07:59:37.319 --> 07:59:40.759
with how you feel when you do close your eyes.

2744
07:59:42.880 --> 07:59:49.279
The muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2745
07:59:52.159 --> 07:59:58.520
maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes,

2746
08:00:01.759 --> 08:00:10.159
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes, just so

2747
08:00:10.319 --> 08:00:13.639
you can really again touch.

2748
08:00:16.000 --> 08:00:18.759
With all aspects of.

2749
08:00:19.919 --> 08:00:38.080
How your eyes feel. Right now, now focus in on

2750
08:00:38.240 --> 08:00:44.639
your thighs, and it just starts you to gently tense

2751
08:00:44.880 --> 08:00:54.799
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2752
08:00:54.959 --> 08:01:08.599
can become more atchune to the physical sensation of your

2753
08:01:08.720 --> 08:01:14.119
upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the backs

2754
08:01:14.200 --> 08:01:28.520
of your thine noticing and observing how your thighs feel

2755
08:01:29.799 --> 08:01:42.759
right now, moving your focus to the back of your neck,

2756
08:01:46.479 --> 08:01:53.080
just noticing the back of your neck, the muscles, and

2757
08:01:53.240 --> 08:01:55.840
of course they lead to the side.

2758
08:01:55.599 --> 08:01:56.200
Of your neck.

2759
08:01:57.680 --> 08:02:02.759
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2760
08:02:02.959 --> 08:02:08.360
leads to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

2761
08:02:08.520 --> 08:02:14.080
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

2762
08:02:15.000 --> 08:02:22.759
gently upwards, as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your

2763
08:02:22.880 --> 08:02:30.479
head down as if you were looking down. Perhaps moving

2764
08:02:30.520 --> 08:02:38.720
your head side to side, right to left, pony very

2765
08:02:40.119 --> 08:02:49.240
slowly and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything.

2766
08:02:51.040 --> 08:02:52.720
It has to be very.

2767
08:02:54.840 --> 08:03:00.279
Very gentle, just so you.

2768
08:03:00.360 --> 08:03:03.919
Can be more.

2769
08:03:05.479 --> 08:03:14.919
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2770
08:03:16.319 --> 08:03:25.560
sensations of how the back of your neck feels. Right now,

2771
08:03:33.159 --> 08:03:41.119
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2772
08:03:43.479 --> 08:03:48.319
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2773
08:03:48.360 --> 08:03:56.080
your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on those parts

2774
08:03:57.119 --> 08:04:02.799
the tops of your arms, you may like to just

2775
08:04:03.560 --> 08:04:14.880
tense them, but very very gently and slowly. See you're

2776
08:04:14.919 --> 08:04:22.520
not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2777
08:04:23.439 --> 08:04:29.479
On your arms. It's just so that you can.

2778
08:04:32.000 --> 08:04:39.159
Gain more of a sense of how your upper arms

2779
08:04:40.759 --> 08:04:52.639
are feeling in this moment, and just noticing as you gently,

2780
08:04:54.799 --> 08:05:04.400
very gently and slowly tighten the muscles and then let go.

2781
08:05:08.680 --> 08:05:14.000
Notice how the tops of your arms feel.

2782
08:05:16.599 --> 08:05:17.240
Right now.

2783
08:05:25.279 --> 08:05:36.080
As a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2784
08:05:36.200 --> 08:05:42.479
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2785
08:05:42.560 --> 08:05:56.319
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2786
08:05:56.520 --> 08:06:04.159
you're able to tense these bustles in the area very

2787
08:06:06.400 --> 08:06:19.680
very gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do,

2788
08:06:21.119 --> 08:06:30.119
maybe you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

2789
08:06:31.840 --> 08:06:35.680
maybe moving a little bit to the side using your hips,

2790
08:06:37.840 --> 08:06:46.000
just so you can get more in tune with how

2791
08:06:46.240 --> 08:06:55.240
you're lower up to an area is feeling.

2792
08:06:57.639 --> 08:06:58.560
In this moment.

2793
08:07:05.159 --> 08:07:16.599
Just noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen.

2794
08:07:27.560 --> 08:07:31.560
As you move your attention.

2795
08:07:33.520 --> 08:07:45.000
To your mouth, notice in your lips and inside your mouth,

2796
08:07:47.279 --> 08:08:04.479
the teeth, your guns, your tongue. Just noticing how your

2797
08:08:04.680 --> 08:08:13.880
tongue in your mouth feels. It may help by moving

2798
08:08:14.200 --> 08:08:20.680
your tongue around your mouth, moving it to your left,

2799
08:08:22.439 --> 08:08:28.119
maybe pressing it gently against the side of your mouth,

2800
08:08:29.680 --> 08:08:35.279
and then to the right gently to decide of your mouth,

2801
08:08:38.400 --> 08:08:43.919
perhaps pressing up against the top of your mouth and

2802
08:08:44.040 --> 08:08:52.880
then down gently against the bottom of your mouth, allys

2803
08:08:53.880 --> 08:09:03.799
very slowly in a very very gentle.

2804
08:09:08.279 --> 08:09:09.439
So that you can.

2805
08:09:13.080 --> 08:09:25.360
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area

2806
08:09:36.639 --> 08:09:57.200
now and to focus on your wrists, and I'll ask

2807
08:09:57.400 --> 08:10:06.000
you to maybe just routine your wrists by moving your

2808
08:10:06.200 --> 08:10:19.159
hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just.

2809
08:10:20.880 --> 08:10:22.240
So that you can.

2810
08:10:27.959 --> 08:10:46.720
Feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your wrists.

2811
08:10:51.080 --> 08:10:54.080
Perhaps move in your hands.

2812
08:10:55.279 --> 08:10:56.680
Up and down.

2813
08:10:59.159 --> 08:11:21.880
Again very very gently and slowly, very gentzl.

2814
08:11:25.159 --> 08:11:40.919
And slow as you now.

2815
08:11:43.400 --> 08:11:57.880
Start to observe you lower back. The bay part is

2816
08:11:59.599 --> 08:12:07.720
just the bum of your hips where your coxis are

2817
08:12:15.279 --> 08:12:21.400
a whole area which also really does include the side

2818
08:12:22.360 --> 08:12:27.840
of your body because those muscles are very much connected

2819
08:12:33.159 --> 08:12:40.119
there's those muscles also move into your hip area connecting

2820
08:12:40.400 --> 08:12:55.279
to your buttocks the sides of your hips, and if

2821
08:12:55.360 --> 08:13:05.599
you're physically able to do so, maybe eating very gently,

2822
08:13:07.759 --> 08:13:21.319
just movebody ever so slightly, very slowly some side to

2823
08:13:21.599 --> 08:13:33.200
side just enough ye gauge.

2824
08:13:37.919 --> 08:13:42.479
How you feel in your lower back.

2825
08:13:50.080 --> 08:14:04.799
Perhaps you could even move your hips gently down, gently,

2826
08:14:06.000 --> 08:14:10.720
slowly in order to.

2827
08:14:15.279 --> 08:14:16.840
Be in touch.

2828
08:14:19.200 --> 08:14:42.599
With the physical sensations of your law back. As we

2829
08:14:42.919 --> 08:14:58.560
now live, your attention to your jewel, that area for

2830
08:14:58.759 --> 08:15:04.000
your chin, all the way out to near where your

2831
08:15:04.200 --> 08:15:04.799
ears are.

2832
08:15:08.799 --> 08:15:23.680
Of your jaw, you can just yeah, it's okay to

2833
08:15:23.880 --> 08:15:24.279
do so.

2834
08:15:26.200 --> 08:15:36.720
Gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

2835
08:15:37.439 --> 08:15:52.599
gently and slowly opening your mouthing, closing your mouth very

2836
08:15:52.919 --> 08:15:57.000
gently and slowly.

2837
08:16:06.599 --> 08:16:11.639
Se can be in touch.

2838
08:16:18.119 --> 08:16:20.759
With how you jure feels.

2839
08:16:23.680 --> 08:16:52.080
Now I sit now.

2840
08:16:54.840 --> 08:17:09.680
The chest area. You don't need to do anything to

2841
08:17:09.919 --> 08:17:16.479
move your chest because it moves every time you breathe.

2842
08:17:21.799 --> 08:17:35.720
It moves very gently and slowly automatically with each breath

2843
08:17:36.119 --> 08:17:56.080
you tache. As you focus on how your chest feels

2844
08:18:01.319 --> 08:18:36.319
when you pray, move in your focus to your forearms,

2845
08:18:38.919 --> 08:18:55.000
your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently that's slowly

2846
08:18:57.479 --> 08:19:06.040
tense the muscles in your forms, and when you do that,

2847
08:19:06.520 --> 08:19:39.680
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2848
08:19:42.599 --> 08:19:49.319
And softly am sad.

2849
08:19:53.479 --> 08:20:27.119
Your forearms and elbows, HM. No. Focus the rest of

2850
08:20:27.240 --> 08:20:40.880
your back, your upper back in the middle, the middle

2851
08:20:41.080 --> 08:20:59.799
of your back. Again, this part of your body m M.

2852
08:21:00.319 --> 08:21:12.040
Is also every time you breed. You may not notice that.

2853
08:21:14.279 --> 08:21:26.360
Usually these you observe your upper back in the middle

2854
08:21:26.479 --> 08:21:46.119
of your back. You can really feel that gentle and slow.

2855
08:21:50.720 --> 08:22:30.799
Movement moving your focus into your.

2856
08:22:32.240 --> 08:22:45.080
Area of buttex the gray, there's muscles and those bones

2857
08:22:47.680 --> 08:23:22.080
in your midsection. Just noticing how your hips.

2858
08:23:24.279 --> 08:23:24.560
Feel.

2859
08:23:27.759 --> 08:23:45.560
Right now, you can very very gently move your hips,

2860
08:23:50.560 --> 08:23:56.159
maybe side to side, very gently.

2861
08:23:55.919 --> 08:24:30.000
And yeah, softly.

2862
08:24:37.759 --> 08:25:01.080
M Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in

2863
08:25:01.200 --> 08:25:11.200
your mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually.

2864
08:25:13.200 --> 08:25:19.759
It doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2865
08:25:21.080 --> 08:25:29.840
It's almost like time is storing Chin. It's a slower

2866
08:25:30.000 --> 08:25:37.880
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2867
08:25:37.959 --> 08:25:59.560
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, the

2868
08:26:04.360 --> 08:26:12.759
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2869
08:26:12.840 --> 08:26:20.599
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2870
08:26:20.720 --> 08:26:23.479
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2871
08:26:24.279 --> 08:26:31.680
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2872
08:26:36.680 --> 08:26:43.680
what happens in this space that we're sharing is.

2873
08:26:48.959 --> 08:26:50.040
We move from.

2874
08:26:52.759 --> 08:27:11.000
That big movement into those smaller movements, starting to focus

2875
08:27:11.319 --> 08:27:21.560
on how your body feels, not just as a whole,

2876
08:27:22.959 --> 08:27:26.080
not just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling

2877
08:27:27.159 --> 08:27:33.119
stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm

2878
08:27:33.240 --> 08:27:40.240
feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice

2879
08:27:40.479 --> 08:27:52.680
that your body begins to present to you small feelings

2880
08:27:54.279 --> 08:28:11.520
around your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether

2881
08:28:11.919 --> 08:28:24.720
pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them

2882
08:28:27.599 --> 08:28:35.240
or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking

2883
08:28:35.279 --> 08:28:48.439
about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being

2884
08:28:49.520 --> 08:28:59.799
particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is telling you,

2885
08:29:07.639 --> 08:29:13.799
the feelings in your arms, instead of feeling the whole

2886
08:29:14.040 --> 08:29:23.560
of the arm. Maybe you notice those individual feelings, all

2887
08:29:23.599 --> 08:29:35.680
those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms,

2888
08:29:37.639 --> 08:29:51.639
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones,

2889
08:29:54.560 --> 08:30:00.560
just being aware of Maybe your elbow on your right

2890
08:30:00.799 --> 08:30:11.360
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also

2891
08:30:11.680 --> 08:30:20.959
has its own individual physical sensation.

2892
08:30:33.400 --> 08:30:40.119
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2893
08:30:47.479 --> 08:30:48.680
there may not be any.

2894
08:30:49.040 --> 08:30:56.279
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2895
08:31:00.080 --> 08:31:04.360
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling,

2896
08:31:05.279 --> 08:31:17.360
you know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2897
08:31:17.439 --> 08:31:21.159
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2898
08:31:21.360 --> 08:31:28.080
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

2899
08:31:28.200 --> 08:31:31.000
like you both of your shoulders are just one thing.

2900
08:31:32.840 --> 08:31:43.919
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2901
08:31:44.000 --> 08:31:52.200
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2902
08:31:52.400 --> 08:31:57.759
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2903
08:31:57.880 --> 08:32:23.439
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your

2904
08:32:23.520 --> 08:32:39.400
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

2905
08:32:40.240 --> 08:32:50.919
the right side of your lower back of course that

2906
08:32:51.119 --> 08:33:03.560
connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and also

2907
08:33:03.759 --> 08:33:17.479
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

2908
08:33:17.880 --> 08:33:21.360
like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2909
08:33:22.720 --> 08:33:27.119
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2910
08:33:27.159 --> 08:33:31.279
on the middle of my back, it almost felt like

2911
08:33:31.479 --> 08:33:36.240
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2912
08:33:41.000 --> 08:33:46.279
just stretched a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing

2913
08:33:46.360 --> 08:33:55.159
anything to try to stretch your lower back, it just

2914
08:33:55.240 --> 08:34:07.520
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2915
08:34:07.599 --> 08:34:26.720
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2916
08:34:34.319 --> 08:34:47.720
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2917
08:34:48.000 --> 08:35:04.240
right now, and there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2918
08:35:04.319 --> 08:35:07.959
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2919
08:35:08.000 --> 08:35:16.599
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2920
08:35:19.400 --> 08:35:26.240
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. Your male.

2921
08:35:28.040 --> 08:35:28.639
You've got the.

2922
08:35:31.479 --> 08:35:34.599
Different well why not that different these days.

2923
08:35:34.639 --> 08:35:38.040
But there may be more.

2924
08:35:39.759 --> 08:35:46.040
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2925
08:35:46.240 --> 08:35:51.119
side underneath, it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a

2926
08:35:51.200 --> 08:35:56.200
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

2927
08:35:56.319 --> 08:36:02.599
out to your back. Well, there's breast tissue stretches and

2928
08:36:02.759 --> 08:36:10.439
moves into your back. To just being aware of your chest,

2929
08:36:19.360 --> 08:36:46.720
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. Well,

2930
08:36:46.720 --> 08:36:54.639
I noticed I focus on my chest, I feel it

2931
08:36:54.919 --> 08:36:59.360
in my back and my upper back. I mean, I

2932
08:36:59.439 --> 08:37:02.439
guess the obvious reason would be because you know, I'll

2933
08:37:02.520 --> 08:37:02.959
breathe in.

2934
08:37:08.080 --> 08:37:13.919
In then it stretches my chest and my back at

2935
08:37:13.959 --> 08:37:14.599
the same time.

2936
08:37:22.520 --> 08:37:37.759
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got

2937
08:37:37.759 --> 08:37:44.040
a little bit of pain in my right chest, a

2938
08:37:44.080 --> 08:37:50.200
little bit not pain, but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2939
08:37:50.759 --> 08:37:59.840
I don't know. I notice my shoulders also wanting to

2940
08:38:02.240 --> 08:38:06.880
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2941
08:38:07.080 --> 08:38:15.400
my upper back that connection between my shoulders and my

2942
08:38:15.479 --> 08:38:21.040
other back. Because I can move my shoulders and stretch

2943
08:38:21.159 --> 08:38:28.599
the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up,

2944
08:38:30.639 --> 08:38:34.520
which then moves I think it's the scapulous.

2945
08:38:36.400 --> 08:38:54.119
In your back. It feels quite nice. Actually, a good

2946
08:38:54.159 --> 08:38:57.520
thing about this is you can, if you want to.

2947
08:38:58.240 --> 08:38:59.799
You can just.

2948
08:39:03.360 --> 08:39:15.080
Flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2949
08:39:16.520 --> 08:39:20.000
in order to get more of the sense of how

2950
08:39:20.080 --> 08:39:34.959
they feel. And when you're relaxing and you do tense

2951
08:39:35.040 --> 08:39:38.959
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2952
08:39:39.040 --> 08:39:48.040
it relax, it relaxes way more than they would normally.

2953
08:39:53.000 --> 08:39:55.319
And you have to feel.

2954
08:39:57.119 --> 08:40:00.680
That you're able to do that. There's no point of

2955
08:40:00.759 --> 08:40:06.479
doing it if there's an issue with the per part

2956
08:40:06.520 --> 08:40:13.040
of your body. You need to be gentle with yourself

2957
08:40:15.720 --> 08:40:29.360
at all times when relaxing deeply. It's important to be

2958
08:40:29.599 --> 08:40:45.360
kind to yourself. As you notice your mind. How much

2959
08:40:46.520 --> 08:40:54.159
has your mind slowed down since we started this recording?

2960
08:41:10.159 --> 08:41:25.799
How came and peaceful is your mind right now with

2961
08:41:26.040 --> 08:41:31.959
nothing to think about and just my voice to listen to,

2962
08:41:36.080 --> 08:41:44.680
Because you know the intention behind this recording is relaxation.

2963
08:41:47.400 --> 08:41:52.560
At the very least for you to feel more relaxed

2964
08:41:53.880 --> 08:41:57.400
at the end of recording than you did at the beginning,

2965
08:42:02.560 --> 08:42:11.240
at the very least, with your mind to slow down

2966
08:42:14.080 --> 08:42:26.279
because your body continues to relax, because that's.

2967
08:42:26.360 --> 08:42:26.919
What you.

2968
08:42:28.520 --> 08:42:49.520
Want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for relaxation,

2969
08:42:52.840 --> 08:43:08.319
to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind to

2970
08:43:08.479 --> 08:43:27.840
the point of boredom. When you start maybe to drift away.

2971
08:43:56.360 --> 08:44:06.040
It's warmost as if you're moving further away from a

2972
08:44:06.200 --> 08:44:19.840
body in your mind, just leaving that there, kind of

2973
08:44:19.919 --> 08:44:24.840
liking it. An escape pod and the spaceship a movie,

2974
08:44:25.639 --> 08:44:28.240
a space movie, you know when it gets a little

2975
08:44:28.319 --> 08:44:34.840
part in it since the man far away from the

2976
08:44:34.959 --> 08:45:42.520
spaceship save to dream and continue to relax, terrifting so

2977
08:45:43.360 --> 08:46:50.159
slow and be so, I love mo be so, and

2978
08:46:50.439 --> 08:47:05.360
focusing on that feeving those individual parts of your body

2979
08:47:06.360 --> 08:47:10.439
that relaxing.

2980
08:47:12.439 --> 08:47:21.360
One by one. You may.

2981
08:47:23.040 --> 08:47:24.040
Find that.

2982
08:47:28.360 --> 08:47:38.479
Every now and then you realize that you aren't listening.

2983
08:47:39.759 --> 08:47:50.040
To my voice because your mind started to imagine something different,

2984
08:47:51.479 --> 08:48:01.880
maybe started to almost move into some kind of a

2985
08:48:02.200 --> 08:48:11.080
dreamy state, and then you become aware of my voice again.

2986
08:48:14.680 --> 08:48:21.279
And even though you may want to focus on my voice,

2987
08:48:21.959 --> 08:48:29.360
You may also wish to allow your mind to just

2988
08:48:29.720 --> 08:48:49.599
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

2989
08:48:49.680 --> 08:49:04.279
you feel more comfort, that spreading through your body.

2990
08:49:06.959 --> 08:49:08.000
Like a warm.

2991
08:49:07.880 --> 08:49:24.520
Blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just the

2992
08:49:24.840 --> 08:49:41.959
perfect temperature. And even if you can hear background sounds,

2993
08:49:47.520 --> 08:49:59.799
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

2994
08:50:00.080 --> 08:50:19.560
to peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, Yes,

2995
08:50:19.759 --> 08:50:31.959
strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong.

2996
08:50:31.799 --> 08:50:32.240
Enough to.

2997
08:50:35.639 --> 08:50:45.799
Remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that was

2998
08:50:46.000 --> 08:51:01.520
there before, and blow away any other thoughts, feelings that.

2999
08:51:04.000 --> 08:51:06.959
Just don't fit.

3000
08:51:10.840 --> 08:51:35.880
With the sense relaxation that is feeling your body, end

3001
08:51:36.040 --> 08:51:56.439
your mind, let's your focus on your mind. We countdown

3002
08:51:56.639 --> 08:52:03.360
from ten down to one, and with each number you hear,

3003
08:52:06.479 --> 08:52:07.520
your mind.

3004
08:52:10.200 --> 08:52:11.159
Will become.

3005
08:52:16.880 --> 08:52:37.240
Slightly more relaxed, just just slightly, from ten down to nine,

3006
08:52:38.000 --> 08:52:39.959
just a slight movement.

3007
08:52:42.040 --> 08:52:43.959
From nine down to eight.

3008
08:52:44.919 --> 08:53:01.360
Just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

3009
08:53:01.479 --> 08:53:09.360
to seven. That feeling is a gap, almost like a

3010
08:53:09.840 --> 08:53:15.720
gap that starts to get the wider, the gap between

3011
08:53:16.840 --> 08:53:23.319
those feelings that you used to have in your mind

3012
08:53:26.639 --> 08:53:33.919
compared to the feelings you have there growing now, feelings

3013
08:53:33.959 --> 08:53:44.880
of comfort and security and confidence, and the gap becomes wider.

3014
08:53:46.560 --> 08:53:53.840
Eight down to seven, seven, down to six. When you

3015
08:53:53.919 --> 08:54:01.159
get to five, the mind will start have a certain

3016
08:54:02.560 --> 08:54:14.119
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

3017
08:54:14.240 --> 08:54:23.159
head sucking atension and stress and any remaining feelings that

3018
08:54:23.279 --> 08:54:28.520
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

3019
08:54:34.319 --> 08:54:35.880
And in down to four.

3020
08:54:37.599 --> 08:54:44.400
You can start to really experience that sense of not

3021
08:54:44.720 --> 08:55:00.240
just emptiness, but space, place full of fresh air, place

3022
08:55:00.319 --> 08:55:06.799
where you can stretch. It's almost as if as you

3023
08:55:06.959 --> 08:55:11.919
go down to four and three, your mind is expanding

3024
08:55:12.520 --> 08:55:15.040
with this sense.

3025
08:55:17.680 --> 08:55:19.040
Of the peace.

3026
08:55:20.360 --> 08:55:23.119
And tranquility growing.

3027
08:55:25.759 --> 08:55:33.840
Moves down to When you get to one, your mind.

3028
08:55:36.880 --> 08:55:56.400
Just feels exactly how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe.

3029
08:55:59.159 --> 08:56:03.680
The sense that you'd like to keep.

3030
08:56:06.680 --> 08:56:17.520
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

3031
08:56:29.200 --> 08:56:33.959
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

3032
08:56:34.040 --> 08:56:43.759
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

3033
08:56:44.680 --> 08:56:50.680
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

3034
08:56:52.240 --> 08:56:54.799
just by counting ten.

3035
08:56:56.400 --> 08:56:57.080
Down to one.

3036
08:57:01.639 --> 08:57:06.200
And this is something that you can do yourself when

3037
08:57:06.240 --> 08:57:13.479
you're on your own, the time when you can maybe

3038
08:57:13.720 --> 08:57:22.319
sit down, maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes,

3039
08:57:26.159 --> 08:57:37.799
just count slowly from ten down to one, and we

3040
08:57:38.040 --> 08:57:42.319
experience these feelings.

3041
08:57:43.360 --> 08:57:44.119
In your mind.

3042
08:57:50.000 --> 08:57:54.319
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

3043
08:57:54.400 --> 08:58:08.919
body copies your mind, and the feeling is spread through

3044
08:58:09.159 --> 08:58:16.279
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

3045
08:58:16.400 --> 08:58:28.919
your body, travels through your blood stream, heathing and relaxing

3046
08:58:31.119 --> 08:58:49.080
every particle of your existence. Now we can we can

3047
08:58:49.279 --> 08:58:58.400
practice this a few times before the end of the recording, and.

3048
08:58:58.439 --> 08:58:59.119
Then you can.

3049
08:59:00.479 --> 08:59:06.919
Practice on your own. And each time you confort ten

3050
08:59:07.919 --> 08:59:22.959
about one, the feelings of comforts, calmness, deep deep relaxation

3051
08:59:24.200 --> 08:59:40.799
becomes stronger, deeper feeling your mind and your brain. With

3052
08:59:41.040 --> 08:59:50.520
these positive chemicals, the spread throughout your body, relaxing you

3053
08:59:52.520 --> 09:00:02.000
so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind so very,

3054
09:00:03.720 --> 09:00:09.599
very easily, just by counting.

3055
09:00:11.000 --> 09:00:22.400
Ten down to one. So we can do Now, I'm

3056
09:00:22.439 --> 09:00:26.400
going to count from ten down to one. I'd like

3057
09:00:26.560 --> 09:00:26.919
you to.

3058
09:00:27.080 --> 09:00:31.520
Repeat the number after me. So when I say ten,

3059
09:00:34.599 --> 09:00:45.759
you can just repeat to yourself ten and just notice,

3060
09:00:46.400 --> 09:00:55.159
be aware of how you feel in your mind and

3061
09:00:55.240 --> 09:01:04.639
your body. Then when I say nine, you can beat

3062
09:01:05.880 --> 09:01:21.200
to yourself. Nine became noticing the increase in comfort and

3063
09:01:23.479 --> 09:01:34.520
calmness in your mind and in your body the same

3064
09:01:34.759 --> 09:01:46.159
when I say eight, when I say seven, six, when

3065
09:01:46.200 --> 09:01:50.680
I say five, four.

3066
09:01:54.400 --> 09:02:05.759
When I say three, two, and lastly you want to

3067
09:02:05.799 --> 09:02:19.720
say one, be that number. Now. Of course, when you

3068
09:02:21.000 --> 09:02:22.520
do this on your own.

3069
09:02:23.840 --> 09:02:28.799
Without listening to me, you can say the numbers or

3070
09:02:28.880 --> 09:02:37.360
whatever speed that you feel it is necessary for you,

3071
09:02:39.119 --> 09:02:44.040
so you can adapt. So if you feel you want

3072
09:02:44.119 --> 09:02:50.959
to say the numbers ten down to one faster than

3073
09:02:51.040 --> 09:02:55.279
I do, then you go ahead and do that. Or

3074
09:02:55.319 --> 09:02:59.520
if you feel when you do it yourself, you'd like

3075
09:02:59.680 --> 09:03:08.240
to have more more space between the numbers, maybe take

3076
09:03:08.319 --> 09:03:11.919
a lot longer to get from ten.

3077
09:03:13.840 --> 09:03:21.040
All the way down to one, that's.

3078
09:03:21.000 --> 09:03:33.639
Your choice also to do. So I'm going to count

3079
09:03:33.799 --> 09:03:42.159
from ten down to one. I'm when I get to one,

3080
09:03:43.479 --> 09:03:49.000
that will be the end of this recording. And less,

3081
09:03:49.040 --> 09:03:53.599
of course, you're listening with music, and the music will continue.

3082
09:04:01.319 --> 09:04:14.599
He noine.

3083
09:04:39.360 --> 09:05:15.279
Ey four.

3084
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Huts twenty ninety eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

3085
09:09:48.680 --> 09:10:24.319
Five, four, three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing

3086
09:10:26.559 --> 09:10:27.800
how you physically feel.

3087
09:10:29.279 --> 09:10:37.120
Happen counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress intention

3088
09:10:37.760 --> 09:10:42.400
to leave through your fingertips and your toes, and as

3089
09:10:42.440 --> 09:10:47.120
you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel a little

3090
09:10:47.199 --> 09:10:54.239
bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an understanding considering

3091
09:10:54.360 --> 09:10:58.839
attention has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

3092
09:11:05.319 --> 09:11:07.279
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

3093
09:11:07.360 --> 09:11:07.919
one again.

3094
09:11:08.400 --> 09:11:16.879
This time you need to feel relief of tension and

3095
09:11:17.040 --> 09:11:20.120
stress and the anxiety that you.

3096
09:11:20.199 --> 09:11:28.599
May have leaving through your stomach.

3097
09:11:31.199 --> 09:11:34.919
Just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

3098
09:11:35.919 --> 09:11:41.239
releasing the hold your stomach and enable.

3099
09:11:42.400 --> 09:11:46.559
To just above your chest or below your chest rather so.

3100
09:11:46.720 --> 09:11:51.879
Surrounding your beny by an area, the whole area. You

3101
09:11:51.959 --> 09:11:56.400
can feel the tension of your body where there's left,

3102
09:11:56.680 --> 09:12:02.000
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

3103
09:12:02.120 --> 09:12:08.400
your stomach will become very relaxed. As I countdown from

3104
09:12:08.480 --> 09:13:06.279
twenty down to one. Yeah twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, dad.

3105
09:13:10.480 --> 09:13:16.080
Nine eight.

3106
09:13:19.919 --> 09:13:24.360
Seven six.

3107
09:13:27.160 --> 09:13:52.760
Fe ooh three two what And you can open your

3108
09:13:52.800 --> 09:13:55.720
eyes again if you choose, and you can just keep them.

3109
09:13:55.680 --> 09:14:02.599
Closed because it feels relaxing. Just notice, say your stomach. Girls,

3110
09:14:04.199 --> 09:14:07.959
notice as your focus just do a little scared of

3111
09:14:08.040 --> 09:14:08.519
your body.

3112
09:14:10.599 --> 09:14:12.720
Just notice, say your body of girls.

3113
09:14:13.839 --> 09:14:24.360
Focusing and up a body bag, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

3114
09:14:27.400 --> 09:14:34.319
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

3115
09:14:36.800 --> 09:14:41.040
all the sense of tiredness, which may be the reason

3116
09:14:41.760 --> 09:14:47.120
listening to this according because you like to.

3117
09:14:48.720 --> 09:14:54.480
Let go completely of everything and dread.

3118
09:14:55.919 --> 09:15:00.959
Or into a nice, natural, calm.

3119
09:15:00.959 --> 09:15:12.680
Relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus.

3120
09:15:15.239 --> 09:15:22.040
On your forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate

3121
09:15:22.120 --> 09:15:27.000
your eyes in this focus as well. Your forehead and

3122
09:15:27.120 --> 09:15:33.279
your eyes. It's that whole area basically almost.

3123
09:15:32.959 --> 09:15:35.680
As if you were in a mask, you know, like

3124
09:15:35.839 --> 09:15:41.000
a I don't know, a Batman mask or something, or.

3125
09:15:43.120 --> 09:15:46.040
I'm trying to zorrow or something, you know, the kind

3126
09:15:46.080 --> 09:15:49.239
of mask that covers your eyes but also covers quite

3127
09:15:49.239 --> 09:15:56.080
a lot of the forehead. Focusing on that area because

3128
09:15:56.120 --> 09:15:59.599
that's the area that we're now going to release tensions

3129
09:16:00.080 --> 09:16:01.160
dress from your.

3130
09:16:01.160 --> 09:16:04.760
Mind, your brain, from.

3131
09:16:04.599 --> 09:16:08.639
Your mind, and any tension that you may have remain

3132
09:16:08.760 --> 09:16:14.239
in your face, in your neck and your jewel, your eyes,

3133
09:16:15.120 --> 09:16:21.839
your forehead, or your scalp. So basically any tension within

3134
09:16:21.919 --> 09:16:25.239
your head area, including your mind.

3135
09:16:25.680 --> 09:16:31.959
And your brain that's going to be released.

3136
09:16:33.160 --> 09:16:34.279
Through your forehead and.

3137
09:16:34.319 --> 09:16:41.519
Your eyes as I count down a game from twenty

3138
09:16:41.919 --> 09:16:42.720
down to one.

3139
09:16:45.040 --> 09:18:05.959
Now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

3140
09:18:15.720 --> 09:18:25.599
Three. Yeah, what.

3141
09:18:34.040 --> 09:18:42.120
Maicin And she scanned her face, the jure, your eyes,

3142
09:18:43.480 --> 09:18:54.160
the cheap things, your ears, avoihead, your scalp, your neck, back,

3143
09:18:54.319 --> 09:18:57.959
your neck in the front of your name, the signs

3144
09:18:58.080 --> 09:19:01.480
of your neck and the throat hm mm hmm.

3145
09:19:05.800 --> 09:19:06.360
Ltice.

3146
09:19:07.720 --> 09:19:10.040
Being aware of the comfort.

3147
09:19:12.000 --> 09:19:13.800
Increased in the.

3148
09:19:16.160 --> 09:19:19.599
Rennexation, not just.

3149
09:19:19.720 --> 09:19:24.800
In my head and neck and mind, also the rest

3150
09:19:24.879 --> 09:19:25.480
of your body.

3151
09:19:30.800 --> 09:19:37.839
Just notice how loose and calm you feel, and how easily.

3152
09:19:39.639 --> 09:19:41.160
It is to just let go.

3153
09:19:43.959 --> 09:20:00.319
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

3154
09:20:07.559 --> 09:20:09.040
So do bounce.

3155
09:20:10.239 --> 09:20:12.519
I want to focus on the top of your head

3156
09:20:17.919 --> 09:20:22.680
and we can allowed every last.

3157
09:20:24.120 --> 09:20:30.160
Piece of tension or stress of mind be lingering or

3158
09:20:30.360 --> 09:20:35.000
hiding your body mind head.

3159
09:20:36.360 --> 09:20:36.720
To just.

3160
09:20:38.480 --> 09:20:49.199
Be sucked out at the top of your head at least. Yeah,

3161
09:20:50.360 --> 09:20:57.120
I wanna sat down into the clouds people, cloud about

3162
09:20:57.160 --> 09:21:04.720
your head's like a whirlpool and this can suck that tension.

3163
09:21:05.919 --> 09:21:07.599
Now at the top of your head.

3164
09:21:09.680 --> 09:21:17.080
And just take it away. Did so focus.

3165
09:21:18.040 --> 09:21:21.919
Imagine an opening on the top of your head with

3166
09:21:22.160 --> 09:21:27.959
a tension, stress and in the maining issues maybe ways

3167
09:21:28.080 --> 09:21:30.800
of concerns that have no use to you.

3168
09:21:30.959 --> 09:21:34.760
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

3169
09:21:34.839 --> 09:21:41.680
of your head, taken away. It's like count down again

3170
09:21:42.319 --> 09:21:44.680
from twenty down to work.

3171
09:21:47.959 --> 09:22:17.919
Now twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen sixty.

3172
09:22:23.000 --> 09:22:46.080
Fifty fourteeneen.

3173
09:22:43.680 --> 09:23:26.760
Wow eleven two nine eight seven six five.

3174
09:23:31.919 --> 09:23:46.839
Four two one.

3175
09:24:02.559 --> 09:24:13.559
Noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm.

3176
09:24:15.199 --> 09:24:27.199
You physically and mentally feel right now, how peace or.

3177
09:24:29.400 --> 09:24:30.879
Your mind feels.

3178
09:24:33.599 --> 09:24:38.720
It feels so nice to just let go, to give

3179
09:24:38.760 --> 09:24:52.800
yourself some space to breathe easily, to think calmly, just

3180
09:24:52.919 --> 09:24:59.919
to take a break from all that pointless worry consern

3181
09:25:00.199 --> 09:25:01.360
about things.

3182
09:25:01.279 --> 09:25:10.480
That you don't need to think about right now, because

3183
09:25:12.120 --> 09:25:14.279
this is your time to let go.

3184
09:25:15.639 --> 09:25:25.400
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3185
09:25:25.559 --> 09:25:28.760
in your mind, relaxed.

3186
09:25:28.279 --> 09:25:37.800
In your body. I can feel so good, so nice

3187
09:25:38.120 --> 09:25:46.199
to just not have to do anything, to be able

3188
09:25:46.360 --> 09:25:58.239
to really enjoy that serenity becomes and letting go completely.

3189
09:26:00.120 --> 09:26:02.080
Peacefulness that comes with.

3190
09:26:08.800 --> 09:26:20.199
Being in this peaceful space, and you can keep this

3191
09:26:20.639 --> 09:26:33.000
sense of calmness for as long as you choose. If

3192
09:26:33.040 --> 09:26:39.919
you choose to drift off into deep healing natural sleep,

3193
09:26:41.239 --> 09:26:47.959
and you can do that, it's completely up to you,

3194
09:26:52.760 --> 09:26:54.040
and you can keep.

3195
09:26:53.959 --> 09:26:57.760
This feeling of calmness physically, mean.

3196
09:26:57.599 --> 09:27:05.879
In your mind, if you choose to field and completely relaxed,

3197
09:27:11.680 --> 09:27:20.959
completely relax. They'd like you to make up your mind

3198
09:27:23.199 --> 09:27:34.239
that you're going to relax, and want to explore that

3199
09:27:34.480 --> 09:27:37.639
with you what it feels like when you actually.

3200
09:27:38.959 --> 09:27:46.199
Decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but

3201
09:27:46.400 --> 09:27:52.720
giving yourself that. Yes, it is a commander, isn't it.

3202
09:27:52.800 --> 09:27:54.440
When you're telling yourself.

3203
09:27:56.040 --> 09:28:04.279
Relax in a gentle way that only you can really

3204
09:28:05.839 --> 09:28:09.279
tell yourself in that way. You can't really have someone

3205
09:28:09.319 --> 09:28:13.360
else saying to you, now it relax, relax.

3206
09:28:13.519 --> 09:28:17.599
You know, and it needs to be gentle, but you can't.

3207
09:28:17.720 --> 09:28:20.879
Someone else can't really have the same.

3208
09:28:24.000 --> 09:28:30.120
The same kind of influence or power that you have.

3209
09:28:31.279 --> 09:28:43.160
Over your own physicality over how you feel, because when

3210
09:28:43.319 --> 09:28:50.400
you say it to yourself it means more. It's personal, and.

3211
09:28:52.000 --> 09:28:57.199
Your brain and your unconscious mind and your body listens

3212
09:28:57.440 --> 09:29:03.000
to what you say. So, for example, we'll test it

3213
09:29:03.080 --> 09:29:06.800
out and do little test do little tests along the way,

3214
09:29:08.199 --> 09:29:09.400
and you can get more of.

3215
09:29:09.440 --> 09:29:10.440
An idea of.

3216
09:29:11.919 --> 09:29:17.919
The force, the positive force that you can have in

3217
09:29:18.919 --> 09:29:25.000
creating a sense of comfort and relaxation in your body.

3218
09:29:24.800 --> 09:29:27.400
And your mind quite quickly.

3219
09:29:29.239 --> 09:29:39.879
Just buy you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

3220
09:29:39.959 --> 09:29:40.879
to start by.

3221
09:29:40.800 --> 09:29:47.760
It's focus on your hands. Focus on your hands. Just

3222
09:29:47.879 --> 09:29:54.319
tell your hands to relax. Just say relax. As you

3223
09:29:54.480 --> 09:30:01.120
focus on your hands, you could say, my hand are relaxed,

3224
09:30:01.959 --> 09:30:06.120
or I want my hands to relax. I think if

3225
09:30:06.160 --> 09:30:08.160
you actually do it directly.

3226
09:30:10.519 --> 09:30:15.319
By focusing and imagining that your hands, can you hear

3227
09:30:15.440 --> 09:30:16.279
what they're saying?

3228
09:30:16.440 --> 09:30:17.760
You know, like they've got little ears.

3229
09:30:18.559 --> 09:30:19.400
It's a little weird.

3230
09:30:22.040 --> 09:30:32.879
So talking to your hands and just say relax. Notice

3231
09:30:39.040 --> 09:30:54.120
and your hands start to relax. Don't focus on your

3232
09:30:54.239 --> 09:30:58.360
eyes and tell your eyes to relax. You're just saying

3233
09:30:58.400 --> 09:31:05.519
the same word relax. And find the right tone for you.

3234
09:31:08.040 --> 09:31:12.480
You know, I might say relax, but you you might

3235
09:31:12.599 --> 09:31:18.239
say relax or relax.

3236
09:31:18.800 --> 09:31:22.839
You know, you might say it differently to yourself, and

3237
09:31:23.959 --> 09:31:29.959
that's important for you to gauge what feels right for you.

3238
09:31:31.839 --> 09:31:36.760
Did just tell your eyes to relax whilst focusing on

3239
09:31:36.839 --> 09:31:41.919
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows,

3240
09:31:42.480 --> 09:31:46.279
and just tell your eyes directly.

3241
09:31:48.480 --> 09:31:48.959
Relax.

3242
09:31:50.839 --> 09:31:51.040
Yeah.

3243
09:32:17.839 --> 09:32:28.000
Now I just did that myself. And sometimes you may

3244
09:32:28.120 --> 09:32:32.760
feel that you need a bit more time or the

3245
09:32:32.879 --> 09:32:36.559
different parts to relax, you know, because I start talking

3246
09:32:36.639 --> 09:32:41.919
again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what

3247
09:32:42.000 --> 09:32:44.760
will happen is that will just continue to relax.

3248
09:32:44.519 --> 09:32:45.440
Even go on to me.

3249
09:32:47.239 --> 09:32:53.000
That's happened with my eyes. Something else I've noticed is

3250
09:32:54.959 --> 09:32:58.800
when I started focused on my eyes, that actually almost

3251
09:32:58.919 --> 09:33:01.599
became they got work before they got better in a way.

3252
09:33:02.319 --> 09:33:05.519
So I felt a degree of tension growing in where

3253
09:33:05.559 --> 09:33:11.480
eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that was

3254
09:33:11.599 --> 09:33:16.720
really was just me becoming more aware of the tension

3255
09:33:17.879 --> 09:33:18.919
that was already there.

3256
09:33:19.480 --> 09:33:21.839
But I wasn't I wasn't.

3257
09:33:21.680 --> 09:33:27.319
Focused on the people. I wasn't really acknowledging it or.

3258
09:33:29.599 --> 09:33:44.879
Really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes still continuing

3259
09:33:44.919 --> 09:33:45.879
to relax.

3260
09:33:46.120 --> 09:33:51.760
As well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

3261
09:33:51.839 --> 09:33:58.000
a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing, but I

3262
09:33:58.080 --> 09:34:02.480
can kind of if you want to do with energy

3263
09:34:02.519 --> 09:34:08.760
in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension is being released.

3264
09:34:10.599 --> 09:34:20.279
Maybe that's supports in that and it's part I think

3265
09:34:20.440 --> 09:34:23.040
you should focus on the back of the neck. That's

3266
09:34:23.080 --> 09:34:26.760
a part of it is quite often, or for me,

3267
09:34:27.239 --> 09:34:30.480
holds tension. I don't know about for yourself, but I

3268
09:34:30.519 --> 09:34:35.680
think it's quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held.

3269
09:34:37.239 --> 09:34:41.319
So and I'm doing it exactly.

3270
09:34:41.000 --> 09:34:43.839
What you're doing as you do it as well, so I'm.

3271
09:34:43.760 --> 09:34:48.239
Telling my body parts to relax as well. So if

3272
09:34:48.239 --> 09:34:50.279
you tell your neck at the back of your neck,

3273
09:34:50.839 --> 09:34:53.040
focus on the back of your neck and just say

3274
09:34:55.919 --> 09:35:00.080
relax in your own words, in your own tone, in

3275
09:35:00.120 --> 09:35:03.279
your own voice. You can say out loud, or you

3276
09:35:03.400 --> 09:35:06.400
can just say it to yourself internally.

3277
09:35:07.319 --> 09:35:12.360
But you're focusing and you're seeing it literally to the bacon.

3278
09:35:13.599 --> 09:35:20.959
Is it the back you're year what you're saying, So

3279
09:35:21.120 --> 09:35:25.000
do that now, just say thanks to the back unique

3280
09:35:26.120 --> 09:35:27.120
And I did the say.

3281
09:36:05.839 --> 09:36:06.480
And what I.

3282
09:36:06.720 --> 09:36:12.120
Noticed and you made have had similar thing is even

3283
09:36:12.199 --> 09:36:14.440
though I was focusing on the back of the neck,

3284
09:36:19.480 --> 09:36:26.120
other parts started to I don't know, showed themselves to

3285
09:36:26.279 --> 09:36:29.599
me or maybe because they want to be relaxed as well.

3286
09:36:29.720 --> 09:36:32.760
But I started need to send the feelings in my

3287
09:36:32.919 --> 09:36:36.639
shoulders attention and my shoulders and in my upper back,

3288
09:36:39.720 --> 09:36:44.239
whether that was because my back of my neck was saying,

3289
09:36:45.720 --> 09:36:50.720
I'm pretty much kay, it's the other parts don't need attention,

3290
09:36:57.120 --> 09:36:59.959
but my load, my back of my neck is still relaxed,

3291
09:37:01.639 --> 09:37:08.760
but I just became aware of other parts that needed attention. Now,

3292
09:37:08.839 --> 09:37:13.760
this might happen, and it's not. It doesn't mean that

3293
09:37:13.839 --> 09:37:19.519
it's going wrong. It just means you're being notified more

3294
09:37:19.639 --> 09:37:27.279
places but also wants to be relaxed. So I'm going

3295
09:37:27.360 --> 09:37:29.480
to focus on my other bank.

3296
09:37:30.839 --> 09:37:32.000
So you can do the same.

3297
09:37:33.760 --> 09:37:35.360
Even if you don't have any.

3298
09:37:36.720 --> 09:37:40.199
Feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper bank.

3299
09:37:42.120 --> 09:37:47.040
You're just focus on your back and the whole area

3300
09:37:47.199 --> 09:37:51.680
and the shoulder blades down to the middle of your

3301
09:37:51.760 --> 09:37:55.959
back and the spine. And with me, it's more of

3302
09:37:55.959 --> 09:37:57.360
the shoulder blades.

3303
09:37:57.080 --> 09:38:04.360
Than yeah, that's the parts that really.

3304
09:38:06.199 --> 09:38:12.919
Sort of given me the want that it needs relax

3305
09:38:13.040 --> 09:38:15.760
In sounds to ask out what's relax.

3306
09:38:16.519 --> 09:38:17.519
And need can get the same.

3307
09:38:17.599 --> 09:38:44.919
Now that's about the bank. Something strange happened there, and

3308
09:38:45.080 --> 09:38:47.519
this often happens.

3309
09:38:47.599 --> 09:38:48.919
And I'm doing this work.

3310
09:38:51.080 --> 09:38:52.639
For sixteen years.

3311
09:38:52.440 --> 09:38:54.239
Or something, and I do.

3312
09:38:56.239 --> 09:39:03.400
Want surprised a maze bringing better It can be a feeling.

3313
09:39:04.839 --> 09:39:07.639
So when I was focusing in the back of my neck.

3314
09:39:08.559 --> 09:39:12.639
My op back was starting to feel quite stressed and

3315
09:39:13.400 --> 09:39:18.959
in need of attention. As soon as I started talking

3316
09:39:19.160 --> 09:39:24.000
to you about my alphabet and talking about, you know,

3317
09:39:24.519 --> 09:39:29.519
getting ready to ask the other bank to relax, why

3318
09:39:29.639 --> 09:39:35.239
the back already started to relax. It's almost as if

3319
09:39:35.279 --> 09:39:40.919
it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention,

3320
09:39:45.720 --> 09:39:57.720
just needs to be noticed. That is something that often

3321
09:39:57.959 --> 09:40:04.919
happens in this type of situation is when you start

3322
09:40:06.000 --> 09:40:06.919
to relax.

3323
09:40:08.239 --> 09:40:11.519
A couple of parts of your body as we're done

3324
09:40:11.720 --> 09:40:12.279
where it and.

3325
09:40:13.760 --> 09:40:20.199
The eyes that eyelids, and now after the next.

3326
09:40:23.680 --> 09:40:28.680
Talk of the bag, the bag, the rest of.

3327
09:40:28.680 --> 09:40:36.080
The body seems to just take notice and decide in

3328
09:40:36.120 --> 09:40:41.120
its own way to start relaxing.

3329
09:40:42.959 --> 09:40:44.559
Other parts of your body.

3330
09:40:45.000 --> 09:40:54.480
Start to just and loser. I suppose it's kind of

3331
09:40:54.559 --> 09:40:58.279
like a bit of an avalanche, you know, a little

3332
09:40:58.319 --> 09:40:59.519
balls starts rolling.

3333
09:41:00.440 --> 09:41:02.639
Before you know it, the whole of your body.

3334
09:41:02.559 --> 09:41:21.199
Is completely relaxed. In time, focus on your face, Focus

3335
09:41:21.279 --> 09:41:29.080
on your eyes, eye leaves, your eyebrowns, and the muscles

3336
09:41:29.680 --> 09:41:38.919
around your eyes. Maybe you start to notice that the

3337
09:41:39.120 --> 09:41:44.400
bullhead is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face

3338
09:41:44.559 --> 09:41:45.400
is more relaxed.

3339
09:41:48.120 --> 09:41:52.040
I would say my entire face is a lot more.

3340
09:41:51.959 --> 09:42:06.720
Relaxed than once. You're going to focus now on your

3341
09:42:06.879 --> 09:42:13.720
shoulders the game just like before. Just till your shoulders.

3342
09:42:15.080 --> 09:42:16.360
You can't do with the ditch.

3343
09:42:16.959 --> 09:42:21.199
Do my shoulder and you shoulder. I just did do

3344
09:42:21.360 --> 09:42:26.360
both at the same time. Just tell your shoulders and

3345
09:42:26.599 --> 09:42:32.559
you've focused on your mind, focus on how build Maybe.

3346
09:42:33.680 --> 09:42:36.360
You can see them in one's eyes.

3347
09:42:39.919 --> 09:42:41.639
Just tell your shoulders.

3348
09:42:44.839 --> 09:42:45.480
To relax.

3349
09:43:23.040 --> 09:43:24.599
Its nice as they were nights.

3350
09:43:35.040 --> 09:43:44.720
I didn't notice especially that bad is the connection between

3351
09:43:44.839 --> 09:43:49.919
the different parts the bank shoulders.

3352
09:43:49.279 --> 09:43:59.919
Then, being such a large part.

3353
09:43:59.720 --> 09:44:05.480
Of body, soon's hard to separate.

3354
09:44:05.080 --> 09:44:06.160
The work from each other.

3355
09:44:11.599 --> 09:44:14.080
And when lower back is started to react in the

3356
09:44:14.199 --> 09:44:22.360
same you're going to be slow.

3357
09:44:24.720 --> 09:44:32.879
Net to be issued bec spren different speeds. And the

3358
09:44:33.040 --> 09:44:36.160
idea of giving that this recordings you need.

3359
09:44:36.160 --> 09:44:37.000
To be able to just.

3360
09:44:37.279 --> 09:44:52.360
Say to yourself relapse without focusing.

3361
09:44:51.879 --> 09:44:54.480
On any particular what arts of the good?

3362
09:44:56.800 --> 09:44:57.559
Because when you.

3363
09:44:57.680 --> 09:45:00.919
Know that everyone el ants.

3364
09:45:02.480 --> 09:45:11.680
Two nuts two nights, I'll tell.

3365
09:45:11.519 --> 09:45:19.040
You islands, eyes, muscles around the pines.

3366
09:45:20.559 --> 09:45:22.760
Down two nights.

3367
09:45:33.319 --> 09:45:53.800
So back to the name, two nights. Mm hmm, I'll

3368
09:45:53.839 --> 09:46:22.919
tell your opa two shots.

3369
09:47:00.080 --> 09:47:17.559
M m.

3370
09:47:20.199 --> 09:47:46.839
Mon sh

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H h, I'm su