June 9, 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025

(no music) (10 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland.

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Who.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes.

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What else? M h? What do I normally say? Shall

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I say something? Oh? Itchy got itchy side? Hello? Pinny?

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So this is let be boy to sleep. Monday's boring objects?

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What could I talk about today?

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Well?

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You if you have you're not if you're not prepared, No,

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I haven't. Why not you should be prepared? You are

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you not a professional? No? Cat yourself a professional? No?

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Why are you? Don I don't know. You should know

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what you're doing. No, I don't know what I'm doing.

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I'm just plodding along hoping that I don't fall in

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a hole. Basically, So Monday's boring, op jets. I'm going

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to talk about something that I've never talked about before.

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It's a part of my life that I don't think

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I've ever even mentioned, which may surprise you that i'd

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done over one thousand and three hundred recordings. And how

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could I have not mentioned? How can I be at

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least one thing that I've not mentioned because I've not

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exactly had an interest in life. So but there is

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one thing, and I was thinking about this earlier when

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I was on the toilet. I don't know what what

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I thought about it then, But there's selfie that I

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wanted to be sot, this is what the subject is

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going to be then, but I'll be talking about myself.

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But the subject is entre entrepreneurship. That's the subject. That's

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the boring subject for today's Monday's boring object. So entrepreneurship

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or entrepreneurs Right from an early, quite an early age,

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I wanted to be successful in some kind of business.

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Clearly it never happened, but I kind of I don't

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know what it was. Maybe it was the idea of

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working for myself. I saw my dad, he was self employed,

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so he had a successful business. And I used to

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like watching del Boy on Only Fools and Horses, the

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duck in and dive in and arfur daily ducking and diving.

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And I wasn't so big on the con aspect of that,

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you know, selling people cars that didn't have any breaks.

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That wasn't you know, not really my style, but it

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made for a comedy show. So when I was in

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my I think my first delve into any kind of entrepreneurship,

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money making outside of working for someone else was probably

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when I was about thirteen, so yeah, I'm just trying

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to delve back to see probably thirteen. Yeah, so one

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of the things. So I started working, I think when

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I was twelve part time. I think twelve was the

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that was the minimum age to do a paper round.

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I think might have been eleven, but I think it

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was twelve, I think. And so, hmmm, I get a

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little bit modeled up because I had so many different

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paper rounds. I had a morning paper round, I hadn't

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eaten lot at different times, I had an evening paper round.

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I had a monthly delivering leaflets, and there was a

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fortnightly delivering these pamphlet things. I also worked in the

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bakery well as well as I also worked in the

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washing dishes in this restaurant, and then I worked in

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a bakery called a bakehouse they called it. So I

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started off working in the evenings just washing up, which

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is a cool job. Actually it was all right. So

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that was very busy, but it was okay, And I'd

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worked during the day, sometimes on a Saturday, and I

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think it was something like seventy five pence an hour,

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which may not seem a lot but when I was

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twenty one or twenty two, literally ten years later, I

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still was only getting about two pounds an hour, you know,

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so it was pretty you know, I was probably better

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off then than I was when I left school, so financially,

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I mean, but then I didn't have to pay rent

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or buy food, so I guess it was it was

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a little bit different. So forgetting the jobs I had,

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there was I don't know what it was, but I

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started to think, hmm, what can I do to earn

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some money. I don't know why I wanted to earn

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money because I knew I could do a paper around

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and I could I could get money. It wasn't a lot,

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but it was still you know, it was still okay.

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And I had multiple jobs going at the same time

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at times. Why I don't know why, but yeah, I

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just this this feeling, this.

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Need two.

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Do something too, I don't know, make something with myself

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kind of to be successful. It never happened, but you know,

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I kind of really was. I was going for it.

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So I'm not sure which order it happened. But I'll

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focus on what I did at school first, and then

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I'll talk about what I did outside of school when

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I was still at school, but what I did on

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the outside, and then I'll move into what I did

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once I left school. So this is how I worked

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this out in my brain. Okay, I categorized things, so

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I've broken it up into periods. So it's the period

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before I left school, those couple of years, three years

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or whatever before I left school. And then there's period

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when I was working at the chip shop and when

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I left the chip shop. So that's a little period

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on its own, can you hear that plane. Then there's

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another period, you know, So I broken up into periods.

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So the period before leaving school is then broken up

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into different periods. There's the period, it's the things I

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did at school and the things I did outside of school.

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And then I break it in again into those things

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that at school, those things that I was getting money for,

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and those things that I was owed money for. So

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at school there was a few trends. One thing I

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realized is people kept running out of pens. So I

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bought a bunch of pens and I would sell them

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and I made a profit, but it was just it

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was never going to buy me my new jet, you know.

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So that was a little bit boring I was walking around.

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I could walk to school with a whole satchel full

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of pens and come home and made like maybe fifty

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pence profit. It really wasn't worth it. And then but

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unfortunately the pens were rubbish as well, so that didn't

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really last. There was a reason they were so cheap.

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And then there was another trend. I mean, pens weren't

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a trend, but there was a couple of trends that

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I kind of jumped on. One was gobstoppers. Gob Stoppers

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became really, really really popular. And if you don't know

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what a gobstopper is is basically it just it's called

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a gob stopper because you can't talk when it's in

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your mouth. It's so big, and it's like a like

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a big ball at a Actually, when you suck the

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ball for long enough, it it's got like maybe different

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tastes and stuff, and probably a little bit like what's

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his name, Willy Wonka? It wasn't they had a gob stopper,

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didn't they? That was different flavors of dinner and stuff. Anyway,

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in the end, in the middle of right in the middle,

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there'd be like chewing them, but it would take ages

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to get through it, and the teachers would confiscate it.

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They'd make you spit it out if you had one

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in your mouth, and they saw it, which made it

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more attractive to the pupils.

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You know.

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It was like a challenge to be able to get

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away with spending the whole lesson forty five minutes with that,

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you know, something in your mouth. But what happened is people,

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I think, what happened to you hear that? Do you

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hear that? I don't think you hear that in a garden?

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It I distracted me, all right. So what it was

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is I noticed that when when one kid had something,

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all the other kids seem to want it, mainly the boys,

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to be fair, if one had it, others wanted it,

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but they couldn't have it because you know, they didn't

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sell god stoppers. The teacher didn't have a supply to

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sell to us. I probably would have gone against education

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standards possibly, But then I thought, hmmm, because I saw

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I had a friend who wanted who had one, and

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I said, can I have one? He said yeah, and

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he said it'd be a pound, And I think they

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cost like forty pence fifty pence to buy. Maybe twenty

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pence to buy, you know, so I was like okay,

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and I thought, hmmm, So what I did is I

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bought about ten of these and the sales technique was

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just to basically walk around sucking or be in a

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classroom break tom is good because people want stuff and

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it's easier to you know, exchange money and stuff during

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a break rather than at class time. So I made

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a few quid doing that. Another friend of mine was

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doing the same thing as well. Actually, so it wasn't

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I don't think it was really my It wasn't really

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my invention really. And then another thing happened where there

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was this trend where it was chucking coins at a wall.

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So let's say two people would chuck pound coins or

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fifty pence pieces against the wall and whichever one got

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closest to the wall would win the other person's money.

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That's the simplest way to explain it. Sometimes it yeah,

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it's exposed. It's it's a similar to bowls, you know,

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where you've got to get the closest to the ball,

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to the white ball. You've got to get your bowls,

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so you'd kind of knock the other the other person's

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ball out the way. So it's a little bit like that.

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So you might bounce off the wall, but not the

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other person's coined further away from the wall. And people

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were losing. What it nearly was every time someone lost,

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but then they'd like go double or nothing, double or nothing.

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And so I saw that people were getting they wanted

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to get their money back. And this is something that

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was happening every single break time, lunchtime, break two breaks

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and lunchtime every day for quite a while. I think

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it got banned in the end. Yeah. Yeah, that and

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the Ouiji board that got banned, and the gangs. They banned.

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The gangs as well, went through a little phase of

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having gangs, the Wanderers, the Warriors, the Wongs, just because

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of the Wanderers movie. And I started my own gang

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called the Silver Eagles, because no one wanted me to

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be in their gang. So I started my own gang.

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But I had I had the It was kind of

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like a misfits gang. And yeah, I went a bit wrong.

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So everything got banned because I had people in my

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gang that were actually acting like a gang. They didn't

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I don't think they realized it was just for fun. Yeah,

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So it's so then what I did is I thought

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people are losing their minds because they haven't got enough

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money to try and win back. So I started lending

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money because I had I had a couple of part

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time jobs, so I had I always had some cash.

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So I started taking like ten twenty pounds to scool

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with me. That's probably my life savings, to be fair.

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But and i'd always like one pound coins. And I

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started to lend people money. And I had a little

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book and I kept track of everything i'd had interest

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added on. I don't remember what the interest was. It's

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a long time ago, and I didn't realize how hard

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it is to do to be a money lender. Really,

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it's not an easy job. And I always thought, you know,

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you see these I mean it's many movies and TV

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shows and that I've seen, you know how money lenders

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operate in later years, you know, I sort of like

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how they can be quite quite naughty, you know, when

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it comes to getting their money back. But after doing

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it for a little while, I realized that people will

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make they will take the whatever you want to call it,

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as much as they can. They will avoid paying it.

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Sometimes they outright they like say nope, you're not getting

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it back and it leaves. You know, once one person

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does that, then the whole thing's gone. Now this happened

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to me. Someone decided they weren't going to pay me back.

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So I collected and I got a friend to come

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and he collected it for me. And I disliked the

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whole situation so much. It wasn't like awful, but it

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was very much. Yeah, I stopped it before it got

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our hand, and then that's when I realized that life

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is not for me. You know, a little bit of

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a little taste of that. It's like, no, over like

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two pound fifty, you know what I mean. It's like, no,

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it's really silly because my friend was my friend was saying,

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I'll give the money. You need to own the money.

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It was in the toilet at school, and this kid

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was saying, no, you ain't getting nothing, and he did

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end the pain. But it just wasn't wasn't It just

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wasn't for me. It wasn't for him, even my friend,

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because he's like, no, this isn't really what I want

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to be doing. So I think that's a good thing

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that it taught me that that sort of lifestyle was

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not for me. I'm a bit. I guess it's the

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word vanilla. I would be a little bit, a little

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bit peaceful. I think just had a bit of an interruption.

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Then someone knocked on No, they didn't knock on the door.

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They knocked on the phone. They rang on the door.

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They rang me up. That's it, oh key, When I

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was I talking about what was I talking about? When earlier?

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But what was it? It was something hmmm, pens, gobs, stoppers,

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coins against the wall, money lending. I didn't go really

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to plan change of mind with that stuff, and I

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think that was the end of my entrepreneurial career at school.

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That was it for the school thing. Outside of school,

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I had three different businesses that I started. And by businesses,

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I mean I put postcards in the local shop window.

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That's what I mean by businesses. With my telephone number,

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my home telephone number. The first one. There was three

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different ones. There was one for car cleaning, there was

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one for wait a minute, what was a car cleaning?

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Dog walking? And there was another one for looking after kids, babysitting. Now,

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I used to babysit my little brother, so I kind

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of knew my way around being a babysitter. So I thought, oh,

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maybe I can do this, maybe make some money out

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of it, because I was getting nothing for looking after

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my little brother all through the summer and in the

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evenings and like between school to say, evenings between school

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and like six o'clock. I was looking after him, and yeah,

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I just it was quite easy, well, yeah, generally, so

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I thought maybe I could make some money out of that.

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I didn't get any I might have even put an

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advert in the local paper as well. I didn't do

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any leaflets. Didn't make any leaflets at this point. I

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don't think I did. Maybe I did, but I think

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it was mainly just and if I remember rightly, it

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was just one news agents that I put my postcard

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in the window. Maybe I did it in two. I'm

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trying to think of the different places in town. There

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was definitely one place where I used to have my

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paper around anywhere else in town where was there another

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news agents? There was one down the seafront, and there

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was one on the way to my AND's house where

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I used to live when I was eight. Mm hm uh.

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That's the only ones I can remember. As far as

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the news agents go in that town. There probably was others,

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but not like within where I would go, Oh, no,

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that whara? Is that a news agent's. Yeah, there was

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a news agent's, of course there was, which was not

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near where I was talking about it. It was near

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where my dad moved to and I lived with him

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for a little while. It was opposite the co op,

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and it was it was kind of weird because it

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was it was next to a launderette, and then next

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the laundret was a hairdressers, and oppositely that was the

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co op. So it was like there was three shops,

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well the laundret to three buildings with three commercial businesses.

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So if you was standing outside the co op that

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I worked in, looked across the road on the left

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hand side, was was it Wagate road? BlimE me, I

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don't know if that's us that's come into our mind.

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It might be the road. So there's this news agent's

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quite a spacey shop actually, and then there was the laundrette,

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and then there was on the right hand side there

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was the women's. I think it was like a hairdresser's

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because in them days, you know, so a little while ago,

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would quite often just be for females. Barbers would be

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for men. But then some hairdressers would have different sections,

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one for men, one for women. Not It wasn't so

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much segregation. It's just unless it was because I went

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to a hairdressers that had a men's section and there

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was a women's section. It's yeah, for some reason, I

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got to get Yeah, I had my haircut and a

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women's section once because I had a PERM. I know

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it's at half perm. I was still at school, so

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I had a half perm because because I've got no idea,

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because I was fifteen, I guess fourteen fifteen seemed like

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a good idea. It was weird really, because I also

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dyed my hair dark brown. They might think, what's weird

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about dying your hair dark brown? And they having a

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half perm? These are two different, separate, different separate occasions. Well, firstly,

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my hair is already dark brown, so that was a

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bit pointless. And once my hair got past a certain length,

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it went curly. Anyway, I got naturally curly hair. I

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just I guess it has to get to a certain

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length before it goes curly curly. I'm talking about what

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when I used to have a full sexy head of hair. Yeah,

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the same hairdresses that I got my I think I

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did the coloring. I colored my hair from a box,

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you know, you know, from the soup. I don't know

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hair dye, I guess, so I did that myself, made

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a mess of it. I had a big Yeah. It

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was a bit weird going school that day, because it does.

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It doesn't just dye your hair if you leave it,

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it dyees your skin temporarily at least, And so I

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was going to I was, honestly, I was like. The

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teacher said, you can't come to school with black face.

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I said, I'm not, you know, because in that in

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that day, it wasn't it was okay to do that,

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but it was crowned upon even then. But I said,

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I'm not. I wouldn't do that stuff. It's so we'll

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take it off what you've got makeup on, so it's

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not it's dye. I've literally it dripped down my face.

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I was told to sit with it for an hour

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or whatever to let it soak in. So I thought

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I'd do it for two hours because it would definitely

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be done, and then rinse it off and then but

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it didn't say anything about my face. And the teacher said,

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were you not aware that it was all down in

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your face. I said, yeah, but I didn't. I was

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focusing on my hair. He said, don't you ever wash

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your face? I said this, yeah, I have done. It

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is what do you mean you have done? Do you

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not wash your face every day? And I said where

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you asked, I don't ask you personal questions. I don't

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ask you whether or not you flush. That's what do

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you mean, whether or not I flush? I said, I

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don't ask you if you flush a toilet when you've

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done a pooh. I said, well, everyone does, but I

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said so, I don't know if that's done if you do.

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He said, you just saying this, Jason, to distract the

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listeners from the fact that you said blackface earlier. I said, no,

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it's a term that people use. It's not a term

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I use, but it's a term that's used for someone

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that like puts like brown paint on their face, and

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it's not acceptable anymore. It was in the eighties. He said,

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we're in the eighties. I said, I know, but just

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getting confusing. You're talking about my listeners in thirty forty

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years time. But we're now in nineteen eighty four and

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things are different now. He said, yeah, I know, and

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I said, but that's not what I was doing. It

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literally it stained my face. He said, are you sure

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so you can see it? Try wiping it off? He said, nah,

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I don't want to touch you. I said, is it

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because of the healthy guidelines and child protection? He said no,

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you just look dirty. You just smell bad, and I

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don't want to I don't you look like you might

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have fleas. I said, well, you can't say that to me.

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You're a teacher and he said, I'm not a teacher.

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I said, what do you mean you're a teacher. You're

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here at the oh he said, I'm the janitor. Why

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would a teacher be cleaning the toilets? I said, oh,

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I did wonder about that, which brings me to the

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next question. Why are you asking me if I flush?

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You literally see me flush every day when you see me.

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Why are you hanging around the toilets anyway? And I said, well,

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that's what I was thinking about you now I know

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you're a cleaner. He said, what's your excuse? I said,

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I don't have one, And I said to him, be

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honest with me, mister janitor, do you feel we've managed

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to move away from you know what I said earlier,

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and he said, no, I'm not sure if it Maybe

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everyone's forgotten. I said, I don't know, because it wasn't

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used in a derogatory word way. It was literally just

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used in to someone thinking I was doing that when

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I wasn't doing that. I said, yeah, but it's the term.

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It's just not a nice term. I said, but I

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wasn't using that term. I don't use that term. But

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that's what the newspapers use. Well, that's what the news

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uses when a celebrity comes out and does something like that.

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I mean, you remember Ted Danson in the early nineties

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when he was dating Whoopi Goldberg. He painted He went

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to a fancy dress party and painted his face a

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different color and he got into a lot of a

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lot of trouble. Wow. The Jena said, how many people

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listening to this podcast do you think are going to

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actually remember that Whoopi Goldberg and Ted Danson used to date.

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That's a blast from the past. How do you remember

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things like that? Well, more importantly, why do you remember

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things like that? I said, it's always handy to get

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me out of trouble. I can use it as an

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example because of someone like Ted Danson, who was he

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was a legend. He is a legend, star of cheers,

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being in loads of movies, loads of TV shows. He

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is a legend, and he's still a legend now and

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he still makes good TV shows now even though he's

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sit in his nineties or whatever. And at the time,

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he was dating Woodpee Goldberg, who was also arguably one

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of the most famous actresses in Hollywood at that time,

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huge star, and she didn't obviously didn't care that he

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was putting makeup on. He said, ah, the janet. He said,

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what do you think about Woody Goldberg? Now? Then I said,

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what do you mean? Well, she seems to come up

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with quite a lot of criticism ever since doing that

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view show. We actually have a TV show based on

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that in the UK called Angry Women, Not Angry Women, Moaning,

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not moaning Women, Wicked Women. I told it's got a name.

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It's been shut down anyway, speak they've took it off air.

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Moaning not moaning it was. I used to watch. It

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was quite good. There's a few presenters on there that

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I really liked. Women Something Women, and it was kind

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of a copy of the view. I think the view

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was first, but it might not have been. But anyway

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that the Janet was say, or what do you think

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about Whoopie Goldberg? Now? I said, well, so, what you

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don't realize is I was a fan of Whoopi Goldberg

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before she was famous. He said, no, you wasn't You

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weren't a fan of it. I said, yes, I was.

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See Whoopi Goldberg did comedy before she was an actress,

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and she had a hit stage show on Broadway, which

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was one of the best shows I've ever seen. I

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wouldn't say I've seen them. I had it on video

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and I also had it on album as well. I

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still can't remember what it was called. But it was phenomenal.

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It was funny, it was insightful, intelligent, she did different characters.

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It's one as a one woman show, brilliant and I

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think she won Bafters or whatever. She were loads of

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awards for it, and that's what That's what got her

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into I guess, into being on TV and being in

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movies because I was such a big stand up fan

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and I collected albums and comedy video. I need to

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start doing that again, don't I. I just start collecting

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having a comedy collection. I like collecting things. I like

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looking at them. So if I had a row of

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comedy DVDs all along the wall, I'd look at them

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and think, oh, look at them. They're all comedy DVDs.

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I collected them. I spent ten years collecting them. And

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it'd have to be specific and don't have to be

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all stand up, and it'd be in groups. So maybe

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I'll have Maybe that's why I categorize things memories in groups,

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because it's a very librarian kind of way to do things,

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which means maybe I should have been a librarian. That

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didn't you know. I used to work in this children's charity.

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And this is when I was a counselor at the

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charity as well, and I couldn't work there anymore because

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of the It was just the working environment was not

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very nice. But I still stayed as a counselor. Part

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of my job when I was there for eight months

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I was there was to do admin pretty much, just

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to be on the reception. That was my job. There's

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more to it, I'll tell you one day. But it

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wasn't good. It was not good. But one of my

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roles was to alphab to organize is the files by

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alphabetic or order. Okay, So I left in two thousand

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00:39:08.119 --> 00:39:13.400
and eleven August. I went back probably about twenty sixteen,

469
00:39:13.719 --> 00:39:20.760
maybe two thousand seventeen, maybe twenty eighteen, it was around

470
00:39:20.840 --> 00:39:25.000
that time. Was quite a few years later looking at

471
00:39:25.000 --> 00:39:30.559
maybe doing some voluntary work there, because I did volunteer

472
00:39:30.559 --> 00:39:33.360
work before, and I like being a voluntary volunteer. Just

473
00:39:33.400 --> 00:39:39.679
didn't like working for them because if you volunteer, people can't.

474
00:39:40.320 --> 00:39:43.840
They might try, but they can't be rude here, you know,

475
00:39:43.960 --> 00:39:47.800
they can't. They dislike they have to. I say, they

476
00:39:47.840 --> 00:39:56.599
have to. But generally volunteers hold all the cards really,

477
00:39:59.400 --> 00:40:06.159
you know, so a manager, supervisor, they got no choice

478
00:40:06.159 --> 00:40:13.719
but to really be gentle and respectful. I'm not saying

479
00:40:13.719 --> 00:40:16.920
that's always the case, but you know, in my experience

480
00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:20.199
that seemed to be the case. And that's what it

481
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:22.480
was when I was as a volunteer there. As soon

482
00:40:22.519 --> 00:40:27.719
as I started working there, Wow, I was treated very differently.

483
00:40:29.239 --> 00:40:34.920
It was dark opposite. It's amazing considering it was a

484
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:40.760
charity for children. So anyway, I thought, oh maybe I'll

485
00:40:40.760 --> 00:40:44.800
go and volunteer again. I was looking for some volunteer places,

486
00:40:46.599 --> 00:40:52.280
get me out, you know, just to do something, and

487
00:40:53.599 --> 00:40:56.000
so I go into this building just out of interest,

488
00:40:56.119 --> 00:41:01.880
like half hoping that the manager would have gone moved on,

489
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:05.639
got a different job, you know that hopefully she wasn't

490
00:41:05.639 --> 00:41:09.920
there anymore. But she was there, unfortunately, but it was

491
00:41:09.960 --> 00:41:14.840
worth a try, so I went in there. I'm talking

492
00:41:14.880 --> 00:41:16.920
to a man I've never met before. He was in

493
00:41:17.000 --> 00:41:19.840
charge of the volunteers, so he was saying, or we

494
00:41:19.960 --> 00:41:27.199
might have some volunteer work. And then in through the

495
00:41:27.239 --> 00:41:30.880
door comes not the manager, she did turn up later on,

496
00:41:33.400 --> 00:41:35.360
but a lady that I used to work with that

497
00:41:35.480 --> 00:41:38.360
was in the counseling office. I used to go really

498
00:41:38.360 --> 00:41:43.159
well with her. She came in. She was the one

499
00:41:43.159 --> 00:41:45.719
that would give me, tell me what I needed to

500
00:41:45.800 --> 00:41:51.760
do with the client files and the alphabetical stuff, you know,

501
00:41:51.880 --> 00:41:54.639
where to put it and stuff. She came in telling

502
00:41:54.639 --> 00:41:58.159
me that I had completely ruined everything and put everything

503
00:41:58.280 --> 00:42:05.599
into the files in wrong alphabet unalphabetically, and all it

504
00:42:05.679 --> 00:42:10.639
was is by surname, so you know it. And it's like,

505
00:42:12.440 --> 00:42:14.400
and I said, what are you talking about it? She says, yeah, yeah,

506
00:42:14.480 --> 00:42:16.039
you just messed it all up. She made it a

507
00:42:16.079 --> 00:42:20.400
complete nightmare because every seven years, I think it was,

508
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:22.679
they had to go through all the files and get

509
00:42:22.760 --> 00:42:26.559
rid of anything that was over seven years old. So

510
00:42:26.639 --> 00:42:29.360
they were going they were now in that process again,

511
00:42:30.679 --> 00:42:34.039
having and I was going through that process when I

512
00:42:34.119 --> 00:42:36.840
was working there, so it was the next turn to

513
00:42:36.880 --> 00:42:39.719
do that. And she was saying, you've made such a mess.

514
00:42:41.400 --> 00:42:45.480
Everything's in the wrong order and under wrong alphabet and stuff.

515
00:42:47.440 --> 00:42:51.760
I said, well, first of all, hi, how are you? Yeah,

516
00:42:51.840 --> 00:42:57.679
maybe say hello first. So they just moaning at me,

517
00:42:59.559 --> 00:43:03.239
desperate women, wicked women. What was it called? I can't remember?

518
00:43:05.159 --> 00:43:08.239
And I said, are you sure that it was me

519
00:43:08.639 --> 00:43:14.159
and not one of the many, many, many people that

520
00:43:14.199 --> 00:43:19.199
have come and gone in the last seven years. I mean,

521
00:43:19.199 --> 00:43:24.599
come on, how can you bear it in mind that

522
00:43:24.639 --> 00:43:28.840
the files at the time, there's seven years worth of

523
00:43:28.960 --> 00:43:35.519
files would have been put in there. Okay, how can

524
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:37.760
But I'm the one to blame for the whole thing.

525
00:43:37.880 --> 00:43:42.400
It's like wow, And I was amazed. It's like really,

526
00:43:45.920 --> 00:43:50.320
And the one thing I can do, I can alphab

527
00:43:50.360 --> 00:43:57.400
better to lize this is that makes sense. I know

528
00:43:58.119 --> 00:44:00.800
I might have to do it in my head or

529
00:44:00.880 --> 00:44:03.159
do it all my fingers to figure out what comes before,

530
00:44:03.639 --> 00:44:07.119
but I know A comes first and know the z's

531
00:44:07.159 --> 00:44:13.559
at the end. Somewhere and M and then oh, they're

532
00:44:13.639 --> 00:44:16.480
kind of in the middle ish b QoS. Do you

533
00:44:16.519 --> 00:44:20.320
know I might have to work it out, but I

534
00:44:20.360 --> 00:44:26.000
know that the F is after B. Just things like that.

535
00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:30.800
You know, I don't need a chart on the wall

536
00:44:30.840 --> 00:44:32.960
for me to look at it, but I know the alphabet.

537
00:44:33.519 --> 00:44:35.760
I can't do it backwards. There's a lot of things

538
00:44:35.800 --> 00:44:41.159
I can't do backwards. I can't do a wee way backwards.

539
00:44:42.239 --> 00:44:44.360
You know, why would I what would do? I can

540
00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:50.440
walk backwards, but I will bang into things. Did you know?

541
00:44:50.440 --> 00:44:52.519
I don't ever tell you The only time I ever

542
00:44:53.719 --> 00:44:57.440
ever had a black eye in my whole life was

543
00:44:58.760 --> 00:45:06.280
when I was walking home from school this kid. So

544
00:45:06.360 --> 00:45:11.920
I'm like shouting at this kid, and he's looking at me,

545
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:17.719
and he bangs into a lamp post because he's distracted

546
00:45:17.760 --> 00:45:20.280
by me. And I'm laughing my head off and I

547
00:45:20.280 --> 00:45:24.440
turn around and I bang into a limp post. Now,

548
00:45:24.760 --> 00:45:28.599
back in them days, the lamp posts were concrete. They

549
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.840
weren't like metal like they are now. Not saying that

550
00:45:31.480 --> 00:45:36.159
banging into a metal lamp post wouldn't be problematic, but

551
00:45:37.079 --> 00:45:43.480
these were solid concrete lamposts, and my eye just so

552
00:45:47.679 --> 00:45:49.480
I dy's looking at me? Do you like that sound?

553
00:45:53.000 --> 00:45:56.039
I was so proud of my black eye, my shiner.

554
00:45:57.320 --> 00:46:00.800
Really really loved it. I don't know why it's called

555
00:46:00.800 --> 00:46:06.719
a shiner, but I loved it. It's and it was like, really,

556
00:46:06.719 --> 00:46:17.480
my whole eyebrow is like blulu, so proud, and I

557
00:46:17.559 --> 00:46:20.199
was like walking around like I've just been in a

558
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:23.320
big fight, and I was a big man. I was

559
00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:27.760
probably about twelve, thirteen or whatever at the time. It's

560
00:46:27.800 --> 00:46:31.400
like yeah, but unfortunately my friend was just going around

561
00:46:31.440 --> 00:46:36.039
telling everyone, Yeah, he walked into a lamp post. He'd

562
00:46:36.039 --> 00:46:38.239
already told everyone before I got to school the next day.

563
00:46:38.960 --> 00:46:45.719
So I'm walking around like the big I am, and

564
00:46:45.800 --> 00:46:52.039
everyone already knew. So people was saying, what happened to you?

565
00:46:52.280 --> 00:46:54.000
Are you okay? I said, oh, you should see the

566
00:46:54.039 --> 00:46:59.039
other person. And I said that a few times. Eventually

567
00:46:59.079 --> 00:47:02.719
someone said, what the post? Lamp post looked fine this morning,

568
00:47:03.639 --> 00:47:10.079
still standing up? Ah, how do you know? Dean told everyone?

569
00:47:10.440 --> 00:47:14.440
Really said yeah, we didn't tell everyone, but everyone then

570
00:47:14.519 --> 00:47:18.440
just spread it around because he said that you were

571
00:47:18.480 --> 00:47:21.280
going to brag about being in a fight and how

572
00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:27.440
you beat up ten people, and you know why, you've

573
00:47:27.440 --> 00:47:32.960
got a black eye because one of them got lucky.

574
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.559
I said, Okay, I walked into a lamp post. What's

575
00:47:35.599 --> 00:47:44.800
wrong with that? It's funny, but it's not hugely glamorous,

576
00:47:44.880 --> 00:47:53.400
is it. Yeah, it's the only time never I've been bruised.

577
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:55.639
I've had bruises and stuff, but I've never actually had

578
00:47:55.639 --> 00:48:00.960
a proper, full, proper shiner time in my life. I

579
00:48:00.960 --> 00:48:06.320
ever got one of them. So yeah, I had my

580
00:48:06.679 --> 00:48:12.599
hair dark brown half a perm. I never really understood

581
00:48:12.639 --> 00:48:19.639
what half a perm was, but I was intrigued, very intrigued.

582
00:48:20.760 --> 00:48:22.119
I didn't know if it was going to half my

583
00:48:22.159 --> 00:48:24.119
hair was gonna be permed in our half would just

584
00:48:24.159 --> 00:48:31.440
be left. See. I didn't realize when I was between

585
00:48:31.440 --> 00:48:37.840
the ages of twenty and twenty four. Summer twenty nineteen

586
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:41.840
ninety four, I grew my hair long. So I had

587
00:48:41.920 --> 00:48:45.119
long hair all the way down to my middle of

588
00:48:45.159 --> 00:48:51.119
my back for years. But because my hair is so curly,

589
00:48:52.519 --> 00:48:57.320
it was almost impossible to manage. I'd have it in

590
00:48:57.360 --> 00:49:01.960
a ponytail most of the time. I didn't know that

591
00:49:02.000 --> 00:49:05.559
it was possible to straighten the hair. I could have

592
00:49:05.599 --> 00:49:08.679
straightened it, it could have been lovely. I could have

593
00:49:08.760 --> 00:49:14.079
still well. I wouldn't still have it, because I imagine my

594
00:49:14.239 --> 00:49:16.920
hair would have fallen out much quicker if I'd have

595
00:49:17.000 --> 00:49:20.079
kept the ponytail, because it really pulls on the roots

596
00:49:20.119 --> 00:49:24.519
than it. So I did think about growing my hair

597
00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:27.960
long just for the for a laugh, really, just to

598
00:49:27.960 --> 00:49:33.800
see what it would look like now being a bit

599
00:49:35.719 --> 00:49:49.440
mildly slightly marginally bald, how it would work out. But

600
00:49:49.480 --> 00:49:52.280
I just never got around to it because for some reason,

601
00:49:52.480 --> 00:49:56.000
the longer my hair gets the border I look, which

602
00:49:56.039 --> 00:50:00.400
is weird because the size get very curly. So what

603
00:50:00.599 --> 00:50:04.519
very thick curly hair at the back at the sides,

604
00:50:06.880 --> 00:50:13.239
not so much at the front. There's there's it's kind

605
00:50:13.280 --> 00:50:19.199
of like looking down on a forest, you know, when

606
00:50:19.199 --> 00:50:21.920
you look down the forest and it's like really thick forest.

607
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:26.599
Then you get an opening and on the on one

608
00:50:26.679 --> 00:50:32.119
side there's the like bits of opening that's like the

609
00:50:32.119 --> 00:50:34.800
front of my hair, and on the crown on my

610
00:50:34.840 --> 00:50:38.800
head it's like a lake. Is that's just like an

611
00:50:38.800 --> 00:50:42.440
opening completely. That's that's kind of what my the top

612
00:50:42.440 --> 00:50:48.320
of my head looks like. Yeah, I don't know if

613
00:50:48.320 --> 00:50:56.400
that's a good visual. I did have my hair bleached

614
00:50:57.880 --> 00:51:07.920
in nineteen eighty nineteen eighty eight. So I wanted to

615
00:51:07.920 --> 00:51:11.880
be like Bross. So my hair bleached, both my ears pierced.

616
00:51:12.639 --> 00:51:15.519
I got a lot of attention. I wanted a lot

617
00:51:15.559 --> 00:51:19.159
of attention, and I was get in it, but not

618
00:51:19.239 --> 00:51:25.639
for women, and I couldn't understand it. I was with

619
00:51:25.719 --> 00:51:29.519
my friend and we were going into like I said, right,

620
00:51:29.559 --> 00:51:32.400
all these men are chatting me up, what's going on?

621
00:51:33.679 --> 00:51:35.159
And it turned out we was in a gay bar.

622
00:51:35.320 --> 00:51:37.519
Didn't know. I didn't know there was a gay bar

623
00:51:37.559 --> 00:51:42.559
in town. The reason I liked it in there because

624
00:51:42.559 --> 00:51:45.679
it was friendly and it wasn't like a gay nightclub.

625
00:51:45.679 --> 00:51:48.440
It was just a bar, but it was run by

626
00:51:48.480 --> 00:51:55.119
a gay bloke, and the atmosphere in there was really nice,

627
00:51:55.599 --> 00:52:00.079
really nice. There was no arguments of no, no, it

628
00:52:00.119 --> 00:52:03.519
was just really nice. So I'd go in there because

629
00:52:03.599 --> 00:52:05.440
some people I knew went in there and just to

630
00:52:05.480 --> 00:52:08.440
have a chat, and it was bright and it was lovely.

631
00:52:10.119 --> 00:52:12.400
I didn't know it was a gay club or a

632
00:52:12.400 --> 00:52:17.559
gay bar rather because back then it wasn't official in

633
00:52:17.599 --> 00:52:21.079
a sense. It wasn't like an official gay bite. It

634
00:52:21.159 --> 00:52:27.199
was just a bar run for I guess, for his

635
00:52:27.400 --> 00:52:30.599
people that he knew, and for people to feel comfortable

636
00:52:30.599 --> 00:52:34.559
going there. And that's one of the things about I

637
00:52:34.599 --> 00:52:36.079
didn't know I was going to talk about gay bars,

638
00:52:36.119 --> 00:52:40.000
but I've been lots of gay nightclubs over the years

639
00:52:40.039 --> 00:52:44.239
when I was younger. The one thing, the two things

640
00:52:44.280 --> 00:52:48.199
I noticed, one thing I liked, one thing I didn't like.

641
00:52:51.119 --> 00:52:57.039
I liked the atmosphere. It's just such a good atmosphere.

642
00:52:57.519 --> 00:53:01.400
Never ever seen trouble in a gay bar or gay club.

643
00:53:01.440 --> 00:53:03.719
I'm not saying that it never happened, but I never

644
00:53:03.760 --> 00:53:08.599
saw it. And you know in London, you go anywhere,

645
00:53:10.719 --> 00:53:14.000
you know what I Mean's there's usually something happens during

646
00:53:14.039 --> 00:53:18.280
the night. Nothing nothing happened ever when I was out,

647
00:53:19.320 --> 00:53:22.960
and they're probably all too busy checking me out. And

648
00:53:24.920 --> 00:53:29.320
then the thing I didn't wasn't so impressed with. And

649
00:53:29.400 --> 00:53:31.920
I don't know why this is. And I've been in

650
00:53:32.000 --> 00:53:38.840
quite a few nightclubs during that period. Every single gay

651
00:53:38.920 --> 00:53:41.760
club or gay nightclub rave I went to, there's no

652
00:53:41.840 --> 00:53:47.440
lights in the toilets. I couldn't figure it out, Like,

653
00:53:47.599 --> 00:53:49.360
how am I supposed to know where? I remember saying,

654
00:53:49.360 --> 00:53:52.800
how I'm supposed to know where everything is? And you

655
00:53:52.960 --> 00:53:56.039
just follow the follow the follow the sounds, follow the noises,

656
00:53:57.199 --> 00:53:59.840
So does anyone know where the cubicle is? Like, so

657
00:54:00.000 --> 00:54:09.840
over here, okay, I lead you there, like no, it's okay, No,

658
00:54:09.960 --> 00:54:11.880
I don't need you to hold my hat. Oh you

659
00:54:11.960 --> 00:54:18.280
got lovely hands. Okay, but it's yeah, I remember, yeah,

660
00:54:18.280 --> 00:54:20.760
I remember got a girlfriend from a gay bar once.

661
00:54:21.679 --> 00:54:25.960
It was brilliant because it's that old you can't you

662
00:54:26.039 --> 00:54:29.840
can't pick up women in a gay bar. It is like, actually,

663
00:54:31.159 --> 00:54:34.519
I think women were there the same reason I was there,

664
00:54:34.639 --> 00:54:38.800
because it was a nice atmosphere. It was safe, unthreatening,

665
00:54:38.880 --> 00:54:42.800
it was nice, just a lovely place. So I used

666
00:54:42.800 --> 00:54:48.360
to meet women, well, particularly met one particular female, and

667
00:54:48.920 --> 00:54:51.039
I'm sure she was there for exactly the same reason.

668
00:54:51.079 --> 00:54:55.199
And we got on and we ended up dating, and

669
00:54:55.239 --> 00:55:02.679
we had a lot in common, you know, just chilled out,

670
00:55:02.840 --> 00:55:06.760
didn't really want all that the hassle. You know, it's

671
00:55:06.840 --> 00:55:10.800
quite nice to just she didn't want to be somewhere

672
00:55:10.800 --> 00:55:12.679
where she's going to be hit on all the time,

673
00:55:12.880 --> 00:55:16.840
and I quite like being somewhere where I was being

674
00:55:16.880 --> 00:55:20.880
hit on all the time, you know. And we ended

675
00:55:20.920 --> 00:55:29.920
up going out, and it's yeah, I remember, she was it.

676
00:55:31.599 --> 00:55:35.119
We couldn't go out, we kind of we had the

677
00:55:35.199 --> 00:55:39.880
first night together on that night, but we did arrange

678
00:55:39.920 --> 00:55:43.159
to meetach other the next day, and she phoned me

679
00:55:43.199 --> 00:55:48.079
out and said, oh, she couldn't meet me until later

680
00:55:48.119 --> 00:55:51.039
on in the day because she had to get a

681
00:55:51.079 --> 00:55:54.320
prostate exam. So I thought, okay, well we'll meet up

682
00:55:54.440 --> 00:55:57.280
later on. And it was good. It was a nice

683
00:55:57.320 --> 00:56:10.320
fromantic time. Yeah. Yeah, So one other things I My

684
00:56:10.440 --> 00:56:18.119
next delve into entrepreneurship was probably when I was at

685
00:56:18.119 --> 00:56:23.559
the chip shop, because oh yeah, I did get a

686
00:56:23.599 --> 00:56:32.000
couple of phone calls for the child minding service or

687
00:56:32.079 --> 00:56:39.039
babysitting service, and they all said the same thing, your boy.

688
00:56:40.239 --> 00:56:45.519
It's like, okay, weird question. I said, yeah, all right,

689
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:48.880
never mind by it. In the end, after a few

690
00:56:48.880 --> 00:56:51.320
of these corps, I said, wait a minute, what's the problem.

691
00:56:51.800 --> 00:56:55.639
I'm not leaving my kid with a boy. We figured

692
00:56:55.639 --> 00:56:59.000
that you were if you're offering a babysitting service, that

693
00:56:59.039 --> 00:57:02.480
you'd be female. I said, what difference does it make?

694
00:57:04.960 --> 00:57:07.119
I said, I babysit my little brother all the time.

695
00:57:07.920 --> 00:57:11.599
And ironically I didn't say this to the person because

696
00:57:12.079 --> 00:57:14.360
I couldn't really predict the future to him, but I

697
00:57:14.400 --> 00:57:17.880
would have said to him what I want to say

698
00:57:17.920 --> 00:57:21.519
to you is I had multiple people asked me to

699
00:57:21.519 --> 00:57:25.960
babysit their kids as I got older, because you know,

700
00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:32.280
when I was in a chip shop there was one, two, three,

701
00:57:32.880 --> 00:57:38.320
three different people asked me to babysit for them, and

702
00:57:38.320 --> 00:57:40.719
they pay me. They give me five quid or whatever.

703
00:57:41.599 --> 00:57:43.400
And it meant that they could go out for a meal,

704
00:57:43.559 --> 00:57:46.920
they could go out and do something, and I just

705
00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:50.239
turn up when they were already in bed. So I'd

706
00:57:50.280 --> 00:57:54.639
just go watch TV, watch a big, big colored TV

707
00:57:54.840 --> 00:57:59.599
and stuff. It was easy just sitting there for a

708
00:57:59.599 --> 00:58:01.639
few hours. I said come back and I go home,

709
00:58:02.079 --> 00:58:04.880
or they give me a lift home if if I

710
00:58:05.159 --> 00:58:11.519
you know, was if they weren't drunk. So I did

711
00:58:11.599 --> 00:58:15.480
it a few times and I did it again when

712
00:58:15.519 --> 00:58:18.119
I worked in the co op. I looked after my

713
00:58:18.159 --> 00:58:24.320
friend's kids used to babysit. I think that was it,

714
00:58:24.440 --> 00:58:30.679
but no. I also I was actually a childminder for

715
00:58:30.920 --> 00:58:35.440
probably about four months five months when I was eighteen.

716
00:58:36.639 --> 00:58:39.519
Actually lived in like a live in nanny, but all

717
00:58:39.519 --> 00:58:42.880
my only job really was just to take her to school.

718
00:58:43.239 --> 00:58:46.360
The rest of the time I'd just be I'd be

719
00:58:46.360 --> 00:58:48.800
in the flat while she was in bed, so I'd

720
00:58:48.800 --> 00:58:50.280
have to just make sure that she was safe, and

721
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:53.920
she'd be asleep anyway, and they'd be doing a night shift.

722
00:58:56.159 --> 00:58:57.719
So I did that for a while and then i'd

723
00:58:57.760 --> 00:58:59.719
take Yeah, I'd take her to school in the morning.

724
00:58:59.760 --> 00:59:04.280
That's it, and that was it. I didn't I'm not sure.

725
00:59:04.559 --> 00:59:08.360
Maybe no, I didn't pick her up from school. I

726
00:59:08.360 --> 00:59:12.480
think the mother picked her up from school because she

727
00:59:12.599 --> 00:59:15.400
was up by then, so she'd be in bed by seven,

728
00:59:16.000 --> 00:59:19.280
and then she'd be up again, probably by two two

729
00:59:19.440 --> 00:59:23.320
or three two. Probably the school was only around the corner.

730
00:59:27.400 --> 00:59:30.760
But I couldn't really use that as a as a

731
00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:35.800
defense when I was a kid, saying to this person

732
00:59:35.840 --> 00:59:38.239
on the phone, what difference does it make for my

733
00:59:38.320 --> 00:59:43.239
boy or a girl? Just I didn't really get it,

734
00:59:43.239 --> 00:59:46.079
to be honest, I didn't understand. I didn't see what

735
00:59:46.119 --> 00:59:49.639
the difference would be. But yeah, I didn't get any

736
00:59:49.679 --> 00:59:54.599
work anyway. And then when I was at the chip shop,

737
00:59:55.519 --> 00:59:58.239
it it got a bit silly because I had literally

738
00:59:58.239 --> 01:00:01.559
I was selling my furniture just so I could get by,

739
01:00:02.800 --> 01:00:06.719
because my dad had all my furniture and storage from

740
01:00:06.719 --> 01:00:10.800
my bedroom. So when I got that flat, he moved in,

741
01:00:12.400 --> 01:00:14.880
you know, as far as the furniture goes. Probably the TV.

742
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:17.159
I'm thinking about it. I probably did get the TV,

743
01:00:17.239 --> 01:00:19.599
so it was in storage. I was wondering the other

744
01:00:19.679 --> 01:00:23.679
day what happened to that TV. I got my bed,

745
01:00:24.599 --> 01:00:43.920
I got my wardrobe and bed wardrobe. There probably wasn't

746
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:48.159
much more. Probably maybe a chair. That was about it. Really,

747
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:52.679
there wasn't like a lot of things. I didn't have,

748
01:00:52.760 --> 01:00:57.880
like huge amounts of belongings. I wonder where everything went.

749
01:00:58.599 --> 01:01:03.239
I must have had some stuff because it was in

750
01:01:03.400 --> 01:01:09.679
storage downstairs in the garage where at my step NaN's place.

751
01:01:12.880 --> 01:01:16.239
I mean all my weights and my punch bags and

752
01:01:16.280 --> 01:01:22.239
all that stuff I sold before I even moved into

753
01:01:22.239 --> 01:01:24.960
the flat of the chip shop. So I didn't have

754
01:01:25.000 --> 01:01:27.199
any of that stuff anymore because I wasn't able to

755
01:01:27.320 --> 01:01:28.880
use that. For was a point neving it if I

756
01:01:28.880 --> 01:01:31.840
can't use it, because at the time I didn't know

757
01:01:31.920 --> 01:01:40.679
I was ever going to find anywhere else to live. Yeah,

758
01:01:41.199 --> 01:01:43.239
So I got to the point where I was sleeping

759
01:01:43.280 --> 01:01:47.599
on the floor on a mattress in the living room,

760
01:01:49.239 --> 01:01:56.960
and I didn't really have any belongings. So I started

761
01:01:56.960 --> 01:02:00.760
to for what can I do? So I started to

762
01:02:00.800 --> 01:02:04.519
be a bit of a wheeler dealer, and I knew

763
01:02:04.559 --> 01:02:09.920
some people that had stuff to sell or stuff for

764
01:02:10.000 --> 01:02:13.440
me to buy to sell, and sometimes they'd let me

765
01:02:13.480 --> 01:02:16.800
have it and I'd pay them once I got the

766
01:02:16.840 --> 01:02:20.440
money from the person I was selling it to, which

767
01:02:20.480 --> 01:02:22.039
is quite a good deal for me because I didn't

768
01:02:22.039 --> 01:02:24.719
have any sort of cash to play with. So I

769
01:02:24.760 --> 01:02:26.679
did that for a bit, sold a few little bits

770
01:02:26.679 --> 01:02:31.320
and bobs sold a fridge freezer. That's probably my biggest sell.

771
01:02:31.599 --> 01:02:34.199
I think I made about forty five pounds for that,

772
01:02:35.559 --> 01:02:39.280
which was pretty much double what I was getting a

773
01:02:39.320 --> 01:02:43.000
week in my pocket, so that was quite a nice

774
01:02:43.039 --> 01:02:48.880
bit of money. What else then I got what I

775
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.719
started doing. I met a jeweler who was one of

776
01:02:51.719 --> 01:02:54.639
the customers, and he was telling me that there was

777
01:02:55.599 --> 01:03:00.320
money and jewelry, and I think he was kind of hired.

778
01:03:00.400 --> 01:03:05.119
He had a jewelry store, retired and he'd been in

779
01:03:05.159 --> 01:03:09.039
London or something, but he still kind of did a

780
01:03:09.039 --> 01:03:13.119
little bit on the side, you know. So I talked

781
01:03:13.119 --> 01:03:19.039
to him and I was like, oh, he sometimes he

782
01:03:19.119 --> 01:03:21.199
showed me catalogs. I'll be sitting on his lap and

783
01:03:21.199 --> 01:03:25.719
he showed me catalogs and bits of the jewelryes, and

784
01:03:25.760 --> 01:03:28.760
like said, well, you could the markup prices for that,

785
01:03:29.920 --> 01:03:34.719
so you can you can spend one hundred pounds on

786
01:03:34.800 --> 01:03:37.079
something to sell it for like maybe three point fifty

787
01:03:37.159 --> 01:03:42.920
four hundred because the more something costs, the more valuable

788
01:03:43.000 --> 01:03:47.039
it feels to the person buying it. But the markup

789
01:03:47.119 --> 01:03:54.880
is really high, and thought all so I kind of

790
01:03:55.000 --> 01:04:04.559
looked into it, and again this man decide he said

791
01:04:04.599 --> 01:04:09.840
he could sell me stuff, so he gave me a catalog. Again,

792
01:04:10.079 --> 01:04:12.679
I would buy the stuff, I would sell it, and

793
01:04:12.719 --> 01:04:16.960
then he would provide me with that and I would

794
01:04:17.000 --> 01:04:19.280
get the money for him. So that's kind of I

795
01:04:19.320 --> 01:04:24.559
would order from him and sell it to people. Now,

796
01:04:24.599 --> 01:04:28.199
I sold a couple of rings, but they didn't really

797
01:04:28.239 --> 01:04:33.440
go very far. It's only so much you can do

798
01:04:33.760 --> 01:04:38.440
when you work in a chip shop. Because it was

799
01:04:38.519 --> 01:04:47.079
quite hard for me to present myself as successful to

800
01:04:47.199 --> 01:04:49.400
the people on the other side of the counter, the

801
01:04:49.480 --> 01:04:57.119
customers successful enough to depart with their money for jewelry

802
01:04:58.679 --> 01:05:03.559
when I I stunk of fish and I was wearing

803
01:05:05.280 --> 01:05:09.480
just dirty were not dirty bit clothes that were just horrible,

804
01:05:09.519 --> 01:05:15.360
and I, yeah, I didn't I didn't really, I didn't

805
01:05:15.400 --> 01:05:19.639
fit the part. I got a couple of sales but

806
01:05:19.800 --> 01:05:23.880
you know, it didn't work great, but it was something,

807
01:05:24.000 --> 01:05:26.519
so I kind of made a little bit of money.

808
01:05:28.519 --> 01:05:33.159
My friend came around once with some a big black

809
01:05:33.239 --> 01:05:43.519
bag full of cigarettes, and that was he. He had

810
01:05:43.519 --> 01:05:46.079
a friend who had a friend and we were going

811
01:05:46.159 --> 01:05:50.360
to sell them in the pubs. So I stored them.

812
01:05:50.840 --> 01:05:52.639
This is before I moved into the flat, So this

813
01:05:52.719 --> 01:05:56.480
is a long time ago, before I moved into the

814
01:05:56.480 --> 01:05:58.559
the flat above the chip shops. So this is like

815
01:05:58.800 --> 01:06:10.480
forty wow, forty years ago. And so we're all ready

816
01:06:10.519 --> 01:06:13.079
to go out that night and you know, go into

817
01:06:13.119 --> 01:06:15.199
the pubs, and just so I couldn't even get served

818
01:06:15.199 --> 01:06:17.480
in the pubs. I was what fifteen at the time.

819
01:06:18.119 --> 01:06:21.199
So let's go around and sell these cigarettes to people.

820
01:06:22.000 --> 01:06:24.159
And he came around. I thought, but all right, let's

821
01:06:24.159 --> 01:06:27.119
get ready to go, and they said no, it's a problem.

822
01:06:27.440 --> 01:06:31.599
I said what And he showed me the newspaper and

823
01:06:32.760 --> 01:06:37.480
what He didn't know where the cigarettes had come from.

824
01:06:38.400 --> 01:06:41.639
So he sped the rest of the evening disposing of them,

825
01:06:42.800 --> 01:06:48.199
because you know, it was dodgy. It's like, I can't

826
01:06:48.199 --> 01:06:51.239
believe it. I really I didn't mind being a wheeler.

827
01:06:51.400 --> 01:06:53.639
I was trying to be a wheeler dealer. But I

828
01:06:53.719 --> 01:06:59.519
wasn't trying to be a criminal. I'm a criminal, So yeah,

829
01:06:59.559 --> 01:07:03.440
that wasn't It wasn't great, I mean ideally old. It

830
01:07:03.559 --> 01:07:07.559
just sort of it wasn't one hundred percent sure it

831
01:07:07.639 --> 01:07:10.039
was from there, but it just seemed a little bit

832
01:07:10.039 --> 01:07:13.760
of a coincidence. No one sort of knew, well, no

833
01:07:13.760 --> 01:07:16.800
one that did know would tell, which is probably the

834
01:07:16.880 --> 01:07:24.079
right thing anyway. But so we're walking around disposing of

835
01:07:24.119 --> 01:07:31.320
them for hours, literally taking them out of packets and

836
01:07:31.679 --> 01:07:34.360
breaking them up one by one. They must have been

837
01:07:36.119 --> 01:07:39.159
there was a lot, a lot as yeah, a lot,

838
01:07:42.800 --> 01:07:46.519
a lot of money's worth. Actually, in today's money, that

839
01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:55.519
would be worth probably a couple of thousand pounds worth

840
01:07:55.519 --> 01:08:00.360
of cigarettes. Now it was about twenty pounds a packets now,

841
01:08:00.440 --> 01:08:05.559
so yeah, at least one hundred packs, probably maybe even

842
01:08:05.559 --> 01:08:12.119
more than that. So yeah, it's after that I didn't

843
01:08:12.159 --> 01:08:16.439
I thought, no, I don't think I'm gonna I'm not

844
01:08:16.439 --> 01:08:19.439
going to sell contraband, not contraband, but I just the

845
01:08:19.520 --> 01:08:23.560
idea of I didn't want to sell stolen goods. I

846
01:08:23.600 --> 01:08:25.239
mean it might not have been, but I didn't want

847
01:08:25.239 --> 01:08:28.159
to do that anyway because I was in such a

848
01:08:28.159 --> 01:08:31.079
small town you couldn't get away with it. And I

849
01:08:31.079 --> 01:08:34.079
when I moved to London, I was buying stuff all

850
01:08:34.119 --> 01:08:40.159
the time that was snide or dodgy, stuff that had

851
01:08:40.159 --> 01:08:43.479
come in on the boats. I don't mean I wasn't

852
01:08:43.479 --> 01:08:50.159
buying immigrants. I wasn't buying illegals. No, there was like

853
01:08:51.960 --> 01:08:56.359
tapes that were what do you call them, like copies

854
01:08:56.399 --> 01:09:02.840
of stuff snids. I suppose that's what they call I

855
01:09:02.840 --> 01:09:05.720
forget what they call them. But yeah, So that was

856
01:09:05.720 --> 01:09:10.000
the end of that criminal empire, just wasn't for me.

857
01:09:13.439 --> 01:09:18.880
And then I traveled to London to the main place

858
01:09:18.960 --> 01:09:23.159
where they sell jewelry. And this is probably a little

859
01:09:23.199 --> 01:09:26.760
bit later, probably Yeah, that was a couple of years later,

860
01:09:26.800 --> 01:09:31.840
probably about nineteen eighty nine. I went to London and

861
01:09:31.880 --> 01:09:35.920
I bought I probably spent about one hundred pounds on jewelry,

862
01:09:36.479 --> 01:09:42.600
brought it back trying to sell it, and I was

863
01:09:42.640 --> 01:09:45.520
even walking through the train trying to sell it to

864
01:09:45.560 --> 01:09:50.319
people on the train. What was going on in my mind?

865
01:09:50.439 --> 01:09:54.439
I didn't sell anything, But I don't know where I

866
01:09:54.600 --> 01:10:03.479
got the the confidence should we say, maybe stupidity, but confidence?

867
01:10:03.479 --> 01:10:05.960
Where did I get that from to be able to

868
01:10:06.000 --> 01:10:08.439
walk up to complete strangers on the train that were

869
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:13.079
sitting there and try and sell them jewelry out of

870
01:10:13.119 --> 01:10:17.079
a carrier back. It didn't even know No, I don't

871
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:20.359
think they even had boxes, which was a bit silly.

872
01:10:22.079 --> 01:10:26.680
Like Yeah, in the end, I'm not sure. I think

873
01:10:26.720 --> 01:10:31.319
I did sell some, but I think I didn't sell many.

874
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:36.760
I did sell some, not on the train, but afterwards

875
01:10:37.479 --> 01:10:42.960
I might have given a few away. But another thing

876
01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:48.079
I did is I bought the Exchange and Mart, which

877
01:10:48.159 --> 01:10:53.680
was a magazine and very famous for it was very famous.

878
01:10:53.680 --> 01:10:56.840
I'm not sure if it's still around. It might be

879
01:10:56.880 --> 01:11:01.680
a website now, but people used to sell their cars

880
01:11:01.720 --> 01:11:06.199
on there. Buy and selling cars. They also had buying

881
01:11:06.239 --> 01:11:08.840
and selling number plates was a very that was a

882
01:11:08.920 --> 01:11:14.720
very kind of specialized thing. But there's also a business

883
01:11:14.760 --> 01:11:23.800
section where you could phone up or send off for

884
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:28.199
a business kit absolutely free, and it'd be a like

885
01:11:28.319 --> 01:11:31.039
free business idea and you go along and they just

886
01:11:31.079 --> 01:11:33.520
send it to you in the post and you'd give

887
01:11:33.560 --> 01:11:35.520
it go and see if you could, you know, make

888
01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:40.880
money from it. And I did that for every single

889
01:11:41.039 --> 01:11:46.479
business opportunity there was. And I remember I came downstairs

890
01:11:46.520 --> 01:11:52.720
one morning and I had about forty five. It was

891
01:11:52.760 --> 01:11:56.399
a brilliant day. I had about forty five packages or

892
01:11:56.600 --> 01:12:02.720
envelopes with stuff in with all these different things. It's different,

893
01:12:02.800 --> 01:12:04.880
you know, because I was just giving stuff away free,

894
01:12:05.119 --> 01:12:08.800
trying to get people to sell it, samples and stuff.

895
01:12:09.760 --> 01:12:14.199
It was so good. There was financial plans. There was

896
01:12:15.439 --> 01:12:20.439
even money lending, which perhaps wasn't a good thing to

897
01:12:20.439 --> 01:12:26.239
me get to get involved in again. But the one

898
01:12:26.279 --> 01:12:30.039
thing I did take up, I did sort of delve

899
01:12:30.039 --> 01:12:33.319
into the jewelry, try to start business as a jeweler

900
01:12:35.439 --> 01:12:39.760
kind of in person. I had this idea that i'd

901
01:12:39.800 --> 01:12:44.520
be I'd call myself mister Gold, and I'd travel. I'd

902
01:12:44.560 --> 01:12:49.199
go around the pubs and I'd wear lots of jewelry

903
01:12:49.399 --> 01:12:54.000
and a suit, and everyone would come to me for

904
01:12:54.119 --> 01:12:58.279
their jewelry requirements and I'd just be known in the

905
01:12:58.319 --> 01:13:01.479
local town. And that would be if someone got engaged,

906
01:13:02.640 --> 01:13:06.720
they'd come to me because I would get them a

907
01:13:06.800 --> 01:13:11.760
reduced rate than what they would get in jewelers, but

908
01:13:11.840 --> 01:13:18.439
it would still be the same quality. Didn't quite work out,

909
01:13:18.920 --> 01:13:24.119
that was the plan, And so I had leaflets made

910
01:13:24.199 --> 01:13:29.359
up and you know, all this stuff done, and yeah,

911
01:13:29.479 --> 01:13:38.239
I had necklaces and yeah, it didn't quite work. The

912
01:13:38.279 --> 01:13:43.119
next thing I tried was perfume. Now this company, I

913
01:13:43.119 --> 01:13:45.600
still feel a little bit giddy thinking about it because

914
01:13:45.600 --> 01:13:51.359
it was exciting. They sent me a whole pack of perfumes,

915
01:13:51.960 --> 01:13:57.079
a big sample pack, like big. You know, we would

916
01:13:57.119 --> 01:14:00.279
go through the letterbox. I mean, it might argue because

917
01:14:00.279 --> 01:14:02.840
it wouldn't go through letbox doesn't mean it doesn't mean

918
01:14:02.840 --> 01:14:07.600
it's like big, but it was big. It was kind

919
01:14:07.600 --> 01:14:14.880
of like suits, I don't know, not suitcase size, but

920
01:14:15.840 --> 01:14:21.960
briefcase size, maybe maybe a bit smaller than briefcase. And

921
01:14:22.000 --> 01:14:28.920
the samples were nice, really nice, and they'd be it

922
01:14:29.039 --> 01:14:34.039
was so I felt professional. So what I did I

923
01:14:34.079 --> 01:14:38.640
started going around to people I knew, and it'd be

924
01:14:39.560 --> 01:14:48.239
almost like an Ann Summer's party, but with perfume, but

925
01:14:48.399 --> 01:14:54.520
without any laughter or people. So I guess there's nothing

926
01:14:54.560 --> 01:14:59.119
like an n Summer's party. But I knew a few people,

927
01:14:59.159 --> 01:15:03.359
a few females, and I just like, try that because

928
01:15:03.359 --> 01:15:06.359
back in them days, perfume, you know, it's it's not

929
01:15:06.840 --> 01:15:12.319
things were different. There wasn't a lot of is it

930
01:15:12.399 --> 01:15:16.560
cologne that men wear, which is basically just perfume, isn't it?

931
01:15:16.560 --> 01:15:19.680
So that there wasn't a lot of really kind of

932
01:15:19.840 --> 01:15:25.720
men perfume like there is now. Not that I don't

933
01:15:25.760 --> 01:15:32.439
wear cologne. I just like and I like an old

934
01:15:32.439 --> 01:15:39.000
fashioned bio. I think that's perfect. Oh hm, I thought

935
01:15:39.039 --> 01:15:41.800
you were coming and could smell you from a block off,

936
01:15:42.399 --> 01:15:47.640
block off, block away, block away, a mile away, so

937
01:15:50.359 --> 01:15:56.000
I don't have bo It's weird though, because I've known

938
01:15:56.000 --> 01:15:58.720
a few people like really really bad bo in it.

939
01:15:59.479 --> 01:16:04.960
And I was sitting there. I was in there, working

940
01:16:05.000 --> 01:16:07.720
in the place, and the person's I wasn't far from

941
01:16:07.760 --> 01:16:14.079
their armpit. It just the working environment meant that perhaps

942
01:16:14.119 --> 01:16:16.800
I need to explain that, but you know, I could

943
01:16:16.840 --> 01:16:24.199
smell them. And I was also near the microwave, and

944
01:16:24.239 --> 01:16:30.039
the microwave was heating up a pie. And it was

945
01:16:30.079 --> 01:16:31.880
weird because I was kind of getting a little bit

946
01:16:31.920 --> 01:16:37.880
of a similar smell from both his armpit and the microwave,

947
01:16:38.359 --> 01:16:42.920
and they were almost like they were mixing together, really

948
01:16:43.079 --> 01:16:48.279
like having a little dance in the air. The two

949
01:16:48.359 --> 01:16:53.159
smells were. And if it's symbiotic whatever, like a little

950
01:16:53.199 --> 01:17:03.119
symbiotic bouncing on a symbiotic trampoline, I don't know, but

951
01:17:03.239 --> 01:17:10.920
I was like, oh, that's weird. And then I started

952
01:17:10.920 --> 01:17:18.800
to think, is the pie is smelling like his armpits?

953
01:17:19.359 --> 01:17:23.239
Or is the armpits smelling like that pie? Now I

954
01:17:23.239 --> 01:17:26.600
didn't know what kind of pie it was because I

955
01:17:26.640 --> 01:17:32.560
wasn't the one heating the pie up, so and the

956
01:17:32.600 --> 01:17:38.760
pies all had different bottoms of like tin foil. Obviously

957
01:17:38.760 --> 01:17:41.479
don't put the tin fold in the microwave, but they

958
01:17:41.520 --> 01:17:49.279
all had different So I'm standing there thinking what was

959
01:17:49.319 --> 01:17:52.279
I sitting down? Sometimes I sit down when I want

960
01:17:52.279 --> 01:17:54.680
to enjoy a smell and try and figure out what

961
01:17:54.840 --> 01:17:59.880
the substances, especially if there's two different smells. Sometimes I

962
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:04.239
to rest my legs. On this occasion, I think I

963
01:18:04.279 --> 01:18:09.039
was just standing. Yeah, because he was very tall. That's

964
01:18:09.039 --> 01:18:10.880
why I was able to get to the arm not

965
01:18:10.960 --> 01:18:13.000
get to the arm pits. But that's why the arm

966
01:18:13.000 --> 01:18:15.359
pits are a little bit closer to me. And I didn't

967
01:18:15.359 --> 01:18:18.239
actually have my nose in his armpit. That would have

968
01:18:18.279 --> 01:18:22.159
been inappropriate to do that when there was customers around.

969
01:18:23.279 --> 01:18:25.680
But the microwave was also to right at me, he

970
01:18:25.920 --> 01:18:29.399
was to left of me because we was in a

971
01:18:29.479 --> 01:18:39.199
like a food environment. I thought, I wonder what kind

972
01:18:39.199 --> 01:18:44.439
of pie it is? Then? Is it a chicken pie?

973
01:18:45.840 --> 01:18:49.159
Is it a vegetable pie. I don't know why I'm

974
01:18:49.159 --> 01:18:54.000
squeaking when I say the word pie pie. But they

975
01:18:54.039 --> 01:18:59.359
had different metal covers, like or not covers, but holders.

976
01:19:00.159 --> 01:19:07.560
So the chicken ones were yellow, the I think the

977
01:19:07.880 --> 01:19:18.680
steak ones were oblong with purple bombs purple aluminium or

978
01:19:19.279 --> 01:19:24.359
aluminium aluminium is the correct way to say that. But

979
01:19:24.479 --> 01:19:29.520
the bottom of the one with silver aluminium, which meant

980
01:19:29.560 --> 01:19:32.479
it was a beef and onion pie. And I thought

981
01:19:32.479 --> 01:19:44.600
to myself, beef and onion, beef an onion. But I

982
01:19:44.600 --> 01:19:47.239
didn't realize I was saying it out loud. The customers

983
01:19:47.239 --> 01:19:50.439
will looking at me a bit weird. The person I

984
01:19:50.479 --> 01:19:54.279
was working with was like, we're talking about But then

985
01:19:54.279 --> 01:19:56.520
when the customer shouted out, no, he's talking about my pie.

986
01:19:56.560 --> 01:19:59.279
It's in a microwave. It sounds it smells like it's ready,

987
01:19:59.720 --> 01:20:03.760
and it hasn't. It hasn't pinged yet, but not that

988
01:20:03.800 --> 01:20:06.560
I'm time in it. But I reckon it's probably ready

989
01:20:06.600 --> 01:20:09.920
because I can smell it. I said, are you sure, though,

990
01:20:10.119 --> 01:20:13.039
is it sure? That's what you can smell? And he said,

991
01:20:13.079 --> 01:20:15.199
what else could I be able to smell other than

992
01:20:15.279 --> 01:20:20.119
the beef and onion pie, and I said maybe, And

993
01:20:20.159 --> 01:20:22.439
I thought, no, I can't just say his armpits, can

994
01:20:22.479 --> 01:20:26.720
I because that would be I don't know. I don't

995
01:20:26.720 --> 01:20:29.960
think it would go down too well. I guess that's

996
01:20:29.960 --> 01:20:33.359
something you need to discuss with the person first, isn't it.

997
01:20:33.359 --> 01:20:40.319
It's like it could be an awkward conversation. So you're right, Tony, Yeah,

998
01:20:40.359 --> 01:20:45.000
you're right. Before we start our shift today tonight, I

999
01:20:45.039 --> 01:20:47.880
was just wondering if I can ask you something, Yeah,

1000
01:20:47.880 --> 01:20:52.000
what is it? Well? I just want to know just

1001
01:20:52.079 --> 01:20:59.840
in case I have to heat up a beef and

1002
01:21:00.000 --> 01:21:08.800
onion pie in a microwave and a customer asks, is

1003
01:21:08.840 --> 01:21:14.399
there a beef and onion pie being heated up? Or

1004
01:21:14.399 --> 01:21:16.840
maybe I haven't heated a beef nunion pie up? And

1005
01:21:16.880 --> 01:21:20.680
if the custom asks, is a beef and onion pie

1006
01:21:20.760 --> 01:21:23.439
being heated up? And if there isn't a beef and

1007
01:21:23.439 --> 01:21:26.239
onion pie being heated up? Is it okay? If I

1008
01:21:26.359 --> 01:21:31.800
tell them that it's your armpits that they're smelling. It's

1009
01:21:31.880 --> 01:21:35.239
weird to sort of bring that into a conversation, isn't it,

1010
01:21:35.359 --> 01:21:42.840
Especially when you've been talking about Star Trek. So I

1011
01:21:42.880 --> 01:21:50.000
was thinking they overlap. There's an overlapping smell. He intrigued me,

1012
01:21:50.840 --> 01:21:55.520
I didn't realize, but it seems to still be intriguing

1013
01:21:55.640 --> 01:22:00.760
me for a weird way. For some reason, my phone

1014
01:22:01.600 --> 01:22:11.039
keeps turning off. I don't trust that phone. And then

1015
01:22:11.079 --> 01:22:20.119
I started thinking beef an onion pie body odor? What

1016
01:22:20.199 --> 01:22:23.199
they've both got in common other than the smell bo?

1017
01:22:24.079 --> 01:22:31.119
Beef an onion bo body odor bo? So I started thinking,

1018
01:22:31.359 --> 01:22:35.399
is that why they call beef and onion pies beef

1019
01:22:35.399 --> 01:22:39.239
and onion pies because they smell like bo? Then I thought, no,

1020
01:22:39.359 --> 01:22:41.960
that doesn't make sense. Maybe that's why they call bo

1021
01:22:42.119 --> 01:22:47.600
bo because it smells like a beef and onion pie. Again,

1022
01:22:47.720 --> 01:22:52.760
I thought perhaps I should ask him, but that didn't

1023
01:22:52.800 --> 01:22:56.600
seem like how when is a good time? I suppose

1024
01:22:56.680 --> 01:22:59.239
directly after asking, if it's okay to point at his

1025
01:22:59.319 --> 01:23:02.840
armpits if a customer thinks they're smelling a beef onion

1026
01:23:02.920 --> 01:23:05.800
pie being heated up, that would be probably the ideal

1027
01:23:06.640 --> 01:23:19.880
entry into that part of the conversation. Yeah, so I

1028
01:23:19.960 --> 01:23:26.039
delved in jewelry and so that was okay. The perfume,

1029
01:23:26.079 --> 01:23:31.600
that's it. Perfume. I did sell a little bit of perfume,

1030
01:23:32.239 --> 01:23:35.840
not a lot a little bit but not a lot,

1031
01:23:36.800 --> 01:23:39.600
and I just thought, oh, so that didn't really work.

1032
01:23:41.119 --> 01:23:47.199
But I loved the whole planning, not the doing, but

1033
01:23:47.239 --> 01:23:52.000
the dreaming. Not the doing, but the thinking about it.

1034
01:23:52.439 --> 01:23:58.840
The idea of being an entrepreneur. It really appealed to me,

1035
01:23:59.359 --> 01:24:04.079
and getting all these new things through the post about,

1036
01:24:04.279 --> 01:24:09.760
you know, how to sell registration numbers and all things

1037
01:24:09.880 --> 01:24:19.640
like that, but ultimately never really made any any money.

1038
01:24:19.920 --> 01:24:21.840
I was probably at a loss with the amount of

1039
01:24:21.840 --> 01:24:25.640
money I paid out over the years with that, you know,

1040
01:24:25.720 --> 01:24:27.680
not that I paid out a lot, but I didn't

1041
01:24:27.760 --> 01:24:37.600
have a lot come in either. So that's my entrepreneurial period.

1042
01:24:41.720 --> 01:24:43.359
I think it kind of came to an end by

1043
01:24:43.399 --> 01:24:48.439
the time I was By the time I was nineteen,

1044
01:24:48.520 --> 01:24:52.239
I kind of kind of given up on that. I

1045
01:24:52.520 --> 01:24:55.760
just didn't really pursue it anymore. But for good like

1046
01:24:55.960 --> 01:25:00.960
five years was that fourteen, fifteen, six seven, In eighteen nineteen,

1047
01:25:01.520 --> 01:25:07.359
maybe six years I was really pursuing options, looking at

1048
01:25:07.399 --> 01:25:15.359
ways to maybe make some money as an entrepreneur. I

1049
01:25:15.359 --> 01:25:20.840
also tried this one. I think I was eighteen. I

1050
01:25:20.880 --> 01:25:25.800
was going to sell water filters as a self employed basis,

1051
01:25:27.560 --> 01:25:30.000
but that didn't really work. Because I didn't have a car,

1052
01:25:30.920 --> 01:25:35.159
and to carry around water filters is just yeah, it

1053
01:25:35.239 --> 01:25:38.680
was a big old suitcase. And I thought, oh, so

1054
01:25:38.760 --> 01:25:42.119
that didn't work. Plus I think they wanted money from me.

1055
01:25:43.399 --> 01:25:47.760
They wanted me to put down a deposit on or

1056
01:25:47.800 --> 01:25:50.479
to pay for the first water filter that I was

1057
01:25:50.520 --> 01:25:53.000
going to use as a demonstration, because they wouldn't be

1058
01:25:53.039 --> 01:25:55.039
able to use it again, they wouldn't be able to

1059
01:25:55.039 --> 01:25:57.800
sell it on. So I think they wanted me to

1060
01:25:57.840 --> 01:26:04.239
pay them that and I said okay, and then I

1061
01:26:04.279 --> 01:26:07.000
didn't speak to him again. I just like left it

1062
01:26:07.199 --> 01:26:10.680
like and it probably wasn't a lot of money, but

1063
01:26:10.960 --> 01:26:17.840
probably more than I had. Anyway, Perhaps that was their stick,

1064
01:26:18.760 --> 01:26:23.479
is that was their way of selling water if it

1065
01:26:23.640 --> 01:26:30.600
was by employing people on a self employed basis, which

1066
01:26:30.600 --> 01:26:35.520
didn't cost them anything, and then they'd sell a water

1067
01:26:35.560 --> 01:26:39.600
filler to them. I wonder how many interviews he did

1068
01:26:39.640 --> 01:26:44.159
a week, how many jobs he gave away a week? Ah,

1069
01:26:48.920 --> 01:26:53.239
So that was pretty much the That was that period.

1070
01:26:55.439 --> 01:26:59.560
There was I think what I would have liked to die.

1071
01:26:59.600 --> 01:27:02.640
Oh yeah, I did become a window cleaner. And it's

1072
01:27:02.680 --> 01:27:05.960
not so much I mean, it's it's entrepreneurial isn't it.

1073
01:27:06.000 --> 01:27:11.520
It's it's self employed. I became a window cleaner and

1074
01:27:11.600 --> 01:27:15.760
I cleaned one window. I think it was my landlord's,

1075
01:27:15.840 --> 01:27:19.840
my landlady's windows. And then I left the ladder and

1076
01:27:19.880 --> 01:27:25.479
all my equipment in her garage. Then I moved to Spain,

1077
01:27:27.960 --> 01:27:31.920
decided to move to Spain. Came back the same day

1078
01:27:32.560 --> 01:27:36.319
after going to Spain for the afternoon, and she evicted me,

1079
01:27:36.359 --> 01:27:39.479
and she wouldn't give me the I wouldn't give me

1080
01:27:39.560 --> 01:27:52.359
the ladder back. M So that's that's the end of

1081
01:27:52.520 --> 01:28:02.560
Monday's boring objects talking about being an entrepreneur or entrepreneurial ship,

1082
01:28:03.479 --> 01:28:05.640
being an entrepreneur. I don't know what I'm going to

1083
01:28:05.680 --> 01:28:08.720
call it. I can't even spell the word. I literally

1084
01:28:08.800 --> 01:28:12.399
can't say it either, can I. So I will see

1085
01:28:12.720 --> 01:28:17.159
see how this all comes out. But that's it for me.

1086
01:28:17.560 --> 01:28:22.359
So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to

1087
01:28:22.399 --> 01:28:25.319
yourself because you do deserve to be happy, and be

1088
01:28:25.399 --> 01:28:32.600
gentle of yourself because you deserve to feel safe. Lots

1089
01:28:32.600 --> 01:28:32.920
of love.

1090
01:28:35.439 --> 01:28:35.960
Bye.

1091
01:28:41.560 --> 01:28:56.159
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1092
01:28:56.199 --> 01:29:01.760
a way that can not just are you to feel

1093
01:29:03.119 --> 01:29:12.359
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1094
01:29:14.359 --> 01:29:20.079
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1095
01:29:20.079 --> 01:29:26.760
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1096
01:29:26.920 --> 01:29:41.840
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1097
01:29:41.960 --> 01:30:01.760
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1098
01:30:01.840 --> 01:30:12.399
the recording is ended, so that you can still benefit

1099
01:30:15.279 --> 01:30:22.560
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1100
01:30:24.479 --> 01:30:37.960
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1101
01:30:38.119 --> 01:30:42.800
find like some people do and myself as well. I

1102
01:30:42.920 --> 01:30:49.680
sometimes I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1103
01:30:54.039 --> 01:30:56.399
and I just listen to it over and over again

1104
01:30:58.680 --> 01:31:10.880
every morning, every year evening. There was this recording from

1105
01:31:11.520 --> 01:31:17.479
We're going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1106
01:31:17.560 --> 01:31:21.560
but it was a guided visualization, so it kind of

1107
01:31:21.680 --> 01:31:29.479
was hypnosis really, and I managed to find it again

1108
01:31:29.840 --> 01:31:35.319
and it still has the same effect on me. And

1109
01:31:35.520 --> 01:31:49.039
part of it was the person's voice relaxed me, just

1110
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:56.199
felt so peaceful, and I'd look forward to listening to

1111
01:31:56.359 --> 01:32:08.640
her in the more and in the evening. And I

1112
01:32:08.800 --> 01:32:17.920
knew before even pressing the play button that since I've

1113
01:32:17.960 --> 01:32:22.279
done that pressed the play button. This is in the

1114
01:32:22.399 --> 01:32:36.800
days of CD players pressed the play button in fact,

1115
01:32:36.800 --> 01:32:40.800
it might have even been a tape tape recorder. I'd

1116
01:32:40.880 --> 01:32:50.640
lie down on the bed and then even without necessarily

1117
01:32:51.760 --> 01:33:02.479
listening to her words because I had to memorized. Really,

1118
01:33:07.119 --> 01:33:13.119
it was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1119
01:33:17.920 --> 01:33:39.760
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1120
01:33:39.880 --> 01:33:53.520
I remember my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I

1121
01:33:53.920 --> 01:34:00.199
was listening to this recording in the early days of

1122
01:34:00.319 --> 01:34:10.960
learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made any videos

1123
01:34:11.079 --> 01:34:15.800
or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that

1124
01:34:15.960 --> 01:34:29.720
till two thousand and six. But I knew, I knew

1125
01:34:30.079 --> 01:34:42.840
how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1126
01:34:45.840 --> 01:34:51.239
to have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1127
01:34:58.920 --> 01:35:07.239
knowing that it's to be just as relaxing, if not

1128
01:35:07.359 --> 01:35:16.680
more so. Each time you hear my voice, you may

1129
01:35:16.720 --> 01:35:28.319
feel the same. Some people have been listening to me

1130
01:35:28.560 --> 01:35:42.479
for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty

1131
01:35:42.479 --> 01:35:50.479
four hours a day, but maybe people come back. Some

1132
01:35:50.520 --> 01:36:05.720
people maybe listen every day. That's something that I do

1133
01:36:07.319 --> 01:36:21.800
which you may not realize by listening, is when I

1134
01:36:22.079 --> 01:36:38.279
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

1135
01:36:38.720 --> 01:36:51.560
by the words that I say. So if I said

1136
01:36:51.600 --> 01:36:58.640
to you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing.

1137
01:37:02.159 --> 01:37:10.039
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1138
01:37:10.159 --> 01:37:28.239
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1139
01:37:31.039 --> 01:37:40.560
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1140
01:37:40.680 --> 01:37:46.760
the the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

1141
01:37:48.600 --> 01:37:59.000
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

1142
01:37:59.560 --> 01:38:07.640
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

1143
01:38:07.720 --> 01:38:11.920
though there may not be any type of breeze at

1144
01:38:11.960 --> 01:38:24.960
all where you are right now. And as you become

1145
01:38:25.600 --> 01:38:40.000
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

1146
01:38:40.279 --> 01:39:04.039
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

1147
01:39:05.560 --> 01:39:11.600
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1148
01:39:11.920 --> 01:39:28.239
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1149
01:39:32.880 --> 01:39:49.439
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1150
01:39:51.359 --> 01:40:05.520
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1151
01:40:05.680 --> 01:40:17.000
carry on talking. And it's only when I listen back

1152
01:40:17.199 --> 01:40:26.199
to do the editing I hear snoring and I think

1153
01:40:26.600 --> 01:40:36.800
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. This snoring was

1154
01:40:37.359 --> 01:40:43.680
a pig turned up. That's why I sound like when

1155
01:40:43.720 --> 01:40:54.640
I snare and I get really into the whole experience.

1156
01:41:02.560 --> 01:41:12.039
I don't know how you feel, how relaxed you feel

1157
01:41:12.039 --> 01:41:22.640
in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1158
01:41:37.720 --> 01:41:49.960
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1159
01:41:51.680 --> 01:42:07.880
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1160
01:42:14.039 --> 01:42:30.720
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1161
01:42:30.800 --> 01:43:01.880
you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1162
01:43:02.119 --> 01:43:30.920
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1163
01:43:31.079 --> 01:44:21.000
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1164
01:44:21.079 --> 01:44:39.399
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1165
01:44:45.399 --> 01:44:58.319
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1166
01:44:58.520 --> 01:45:38.840
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice to,

1167
01:45:40.560 --> 01:46:01.760
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1168
01:46:10.800 --> 01:46:43.359
enjoying that feeling of peace, serenity with a joyful heart.

1169
01:47:08.720 --> 01:47:34.199
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1170
01:47:40.119 --> 01:48:19.239
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1171
01:48:19.399 --> 01:49:31.119
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

1172
01:49:32.079 --> 01:50:18.520
Slowed down because nothing really he requires your attention. You

1173
01:50:18.640 --> 01:50:34.800
can enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to

1174
01:50:34.960 --> 01:50:45.680
rip out of your body. To appear out of every

1175
01:50:49.079 --> 01:51:19.920
part of your body being released from your brain, hung

1176
01:51:20.279 --> 01:51:55.720
your mind slowly but surely, the muscles in your legs

1177
01:52:11.079 --> 01:53:05.159
relax x really so very deeply, relax so deeply. And

1178
01:53:05.399 --> 01:53:33.159
the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders

1179
01:53:33.199 --> 01:53:57.720
deepening each part of your body further and deeper and deeper.

1180
01:54:12.239 --> 01:54:41.880
Noticin the feelings in the back of your neck, the

1181
01:54:42.079 --> 01:55:24.920
feelings in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body,

1182
01:55:31.640 --> 01:56:15.119
I all say, feeling peaceful deeply, There's a sense of

1183
01:56:15.399 --> 01:56:59.800
peace spreads through your very core. Even when you focus

1184
01:57:00.079 --> 01:57:59.479
on your mind, your mind becomes ee and slowerven, deeper, relaxing,

1185
01:58:23.279 --> 01:59:01.159
so ferries slow his stomach peas for in your stomach,

1186
01:59:23.279 --> 01:59:57.399
your back. Notice Notice how relaxed you now feel in

1187
01:59:57.560 --> 02:00:30.279
the hole of your back. Your spy from your brain

1188
02:00:30.760 --> 02:00:38.560
all the way down the middle of your back, sending

1189
02:00:38.880 --> 02:01:13.159
and receiving millions of messages every day, deepcomfort increasing deeply

1190
02:01:13.760 --> 02:02:19.000
ex you mes relegs, spreading those signals down a spine

1191
02:02:19.119 --> 02:02:42.000
or cord into air every part of your body, your

1192
02:02:42.159 --> 02:03:30.640
chins and your calf muscles, your elbows, feelings of peace

1193
02:03:33.560 --> 02:03:47.520
and tranquility spreading through your body tips of your toes,

1194
02:03:51.760 --> 02:04:04.000
to your eyes, your fingers all wait till you lower back,

1195
02:04:15.800 --> 02:05:28.840
letting go, retinker peace, drifting mind just wandering away, happy

1196
02:05:29.640 --> 02:06:10.119
to let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil,

1197
02:06:34.199 --> 02:07:11.359
the whole body enjoying a sense listening God he for

1198
02:07:11.720 --> 02:09:09.800
more peace, for joy the space, this space of peace

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02:09:13.359 --> 02:11:35.600
and safety. So firy fy relaxed, letting go. Maybe we

1200
02:11:35.800 --> 02:11:43.319
can just focus on the different parts of your body,

1201
02:11:47.399 --> 02:12:56.880
just to notice a forehead and your eyes ito so lose,

1202
02:13:16.560 --> 02:14:36.920
noticing the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom pref prifa

1203
02:14:49.319 --> 02:16:36.799
Pea's for energy, peace to breeze such easier loose. You

1204
02:16:37.000 --> 02:16:49.559
may have or may not have noticed your mind drifting

1205
02:17:26.120 --> 02:17:56.159
peaceful mon even more deeply in the direction of total

1206
02:18:00.760 --> 02:19:51.239
bliss for pace, bliss for pace, terrefting, total peace. Come

1207
02:19:56.879 --> 02:21:06.559
so calm, let him go, peace with mind rexed forty,

1208
02:21:09.680 --> 02:22:06.399
so relaxed, so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, So

1209
02:22:07.079 --> 02:23:27.079
very relaxed. I'm peaceful, so peace relax liquas and you

1210
02:23:27.120 --> 02:23:34.319
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1211
02:23:37.280 --> 02:23:47.120
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1212
02:23:48.399 --> 02:23:54.520
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1213
02:23:54.559 --> 02:24:07.440
your body and your mind starts to slow down, and

1214
02:24:07.520 --> 02:24:15.040
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1215
02:24:15.239 --> 02:24:30.120
speech not being particularly fast and things just generally feel calmer.

1216
02:24:33.559 --> 02:24:41.479
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1217
02:24:41.559 --> 02:24:49.559
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1218
02:24:49.600 --> 02:24:57.280
break from your life as it is, and to give

1219
02:24:57.319 --> 02:25:05.440
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1220
02:25:05.559 --> 02:25:13.000
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1221
02:25:13.200 --> 02:25:23.680
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1222
02:25:23.719 --> 02:25:33.000
tension and he stresses that you had in your body.

1223
02:25:34.159 --> 02:25:38.040
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1224
02:25:38.319 --> 02:25:50.040
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1225
02:25:50.120 --> 02:26:01.440
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy which then

1226
02:26:01.600 --> 02:26:10.879
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1227
02:26:10.920 --> 02:26:28.399
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1228
02:26:30.440 --> 02:26:44.479
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1229
02:26:44.600 --> 02:26:54.879
a wave of comfort, and all this comes and just

1230
02:26:58.440 --> 02:27:07.239
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1231
02:27:07.319 --> 02:27:17.040
long you want it to be, to just rest and

1232
02:27:17.200 --> 02:27:27.239
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1233
02:27:30.079 --> 02:27:45.879
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows

1234
02:27:46.200 --> 02:27:59.000
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1235
02:27:59.440 --> 02:28:08.120
around and your body and into your mind, almost as

1236
02:28:08.120 --> 02:28:17.280
if your mind and your body are sinking together, almost

1237
02:28:17.600 --> 02:28:31.639
mirroring each other with that growing positivity and calmness, And

1238
02:28:31.719 --> 02:28:39.040
it feels nice. It really does feel nice to know

1239
02:28:39.280 --> 02:28:48.200
that you are the one that has allowed yourself to

1240
02:28:48.440 --> 02:29:03.920
feel more comfort and to experience more this deep relaxation

1241
02:29:05.280 --> 02:29:19.520
spreading throughout your body. And as I focus on each

1242
02:29:19.879 --> 02:29:25.520
part of your body, you can notice that that part

1243
02:29:29.520 --> 02:29:42.000
becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1244
02:29:42.120 --> 02:29:55.799
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1245
02:29:55.879 --> 02:30:01.760
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1246
02:30:04.079 --> 02:30:10.799
the parts that you've already focused on will continue to

1247
02:30:10.959 --> 02:30:18.639
relax deeply, and those parts that we've not yet focused

1248
02:30:18.639 --> 02:30:32.040
on or just automatically release any remain intention in anticipation

1249
02:30:32.399 --> 02:30:45.440
of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm going

1250
02:30:45.479 --> 02:30:52.440
to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware

1251
02:30:53.040 --> 02:31:04.360
the feelings of your forehead background sounds like mister Herbert

1252
02:31:04.399 --> 02:31:09.920
the pigeon can just allow you to feel even more relaxed.

1253
02:31:13.799 --> 02:31:19.920
Just means you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't

1254
02:31:19.959 --> 02:31:27.959
a sterile environment. This is the world. I live in

1255
02:31:28.040 --> 02:31:40.360
the countryside, so there's lots of nature sounds around. So

1256
02:31:40.399 --> 02:31:45.639
as you focus on your forehead, just notice how it

1257
02:31:45.799 --> 02:31:55.719
becomes even more relaxed as you focus only on my

1258
02:31:56.000 --> 02:32:05.559
voice and that part of your body. Moving down to

1259
02:32:05.680 --> 02:32:18.799
your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids

1260
02:32:18.840 --> 02:32:26.079
feel so heavy yet so light at the same time,

1261
02:32:29.280 --> 02:32:39.959
and all the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving

1262
02:32:40.040 --> 02:32:47.239
your focus down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue,

1263
02:32:48.440 --> 02:32:56.399
your teeth, and your gumbs, the whole of your mouth relaxing,

1264
02:33:00.079 --> 02:33:10.159
alm and lease. As you focus now on your jawel

1265
02:33:13.200 --> 02:33:16.760
not just the parts of your jaw near your mouth

1266
02:33:17.559 --> 02:33:21.879
and your chin, but all the way up the size

1267
02:33:21.920 --> 02:33:28.760
of your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw,

1268
02:33:31.360 --> 02:33:38.559
feeding more relaxed.

1269
02:33:41.920 --> 02:33:50.760
And calm.

1270
02:33:50.799 --> 02:34:00.040
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1271
02:34:00.079 --> 02:34:13.040
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1272
02:34:13.159 --> 02:34:18.440
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1273
02:34:21.360 --> 02:34:37.239
relax and loose and calm. And now the back of

1274
02:34:37.280 --> 02:34:50.159
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1275
02:34:50.319 --> 02:34:55.040
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1276
02:34:56.799 --> 02:35:10.920
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that

1277
02:35:11.120 --> 02:35:21.520
you can experience in the back of your neck, moving

1278
02:35:21.760 --> 02:35:28.600
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1279
02:35:29.639 --> 02:35:34.399
right from the top of your back all the way

1280
02:35:34.559 --> 02:35:47.280
down to the bottom of your back down to your

1281
02:35:47.319 --> 02:35:59.719
lower back. And as you move up and down your spine,

1282
02:36:00.079 --> 02:36:06.200
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1283
02:36:06.680 --> 02:36:21.280
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1284
02:36:21.319 --> 02:36:31.879
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1285
02:36:32.040 --> 02:36:38.680
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1286
02:36:39.520 --> 02:36:45.760
the middle, and your lower back. And as you scan

1287
02:36:47.440 --> 02:36:55.319
gently and slowly up and down your back, there's the

1288
02:36:55.440 --> 02:37:01.440
muscles in the top of your back relax and become looser.

1289
02:37:05.639 --> 02:37:11.639
The muscles in the middle of your back also seem

1290
02:37:11.719 --> 02:37:21.239
to just almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting,

1291
02:37:27.040 --> 02:37:33.040
And in your lower back there seems to be an

1292
02:37:33.040 --> 02:37:47.319
extra special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips,

1293
02:37:49.559 --> 02:37:57.520
so down your lower back, into your hips, into the

1294
02:37:57.559 --> 02:38:06.360
area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks, and

1295
02:38:06.440 --> 02:38:15.680
all those muscles that spread from your lower back into

1296
02:38:15.719 --> 02:38:29.319
your hip area start to melt, start to really let go.

1297
02:38:35.879 --> 02:38:43.159
Don't even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders, your back,

1298
02:38:43.440 --> 02:38:54.399
and your spine will continue to let go, continue to

1299
02:38:54.639 --> 02:39:09.239
relax so calmly, and as you focus on your shoulders,

1300
02:39:10.959 --> 02:39:26.319
you may notice that they're already feeling really loose, They're

1301
02:39:26.399 --> 02:39:52.440
already feeling calm, and then feeling those muscles then move

1302
02:39:52.840 --> 02:40:08.680
from your neck into your shoulders feel so soft and gentle,

1303
02:40:12.760 --> 02:40:14.559
so smooth.

1304
02:40:20.079 --> 02:40:32.520
And calm, and.

1305
02:40:32.479 --> 02:40:45.399
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1306
02:40:45.440 --> 02:40:55.879
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1307
02:40:56.239 --> 02:41:13.200
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1308
02:41:13.319 --> 02:41:21.639
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1309
02:41:21.799 --> 02:41:26.799
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your

1310
02:41:26.959 --> 02:41:46.799
arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders.

1311
02:41:50.280 --> 02:42:12.399
Who sends that deep healing message into your arms and

1312
02:42:12.600 --> 02:42:17.719
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1313
02:42:17.799 --> 02:42:26.319
even there, because they're so relaxed, so.

1314
02:42:27.799 --> 02:42:40.879
Deeply relaxed, so so.

1315
02:42:41.600 --> 02:43:17.840
Calm, so loose, not feeling spreading all the way down

1316
02:43:18.000 --> 02:43:47.280
your arms, two elbows, including your elbows circumforts spreads or

1317
02:43:47.319 --> 02:44:03.840
away into wrists, your forearments and your wrists, yeh, being

1318
02:44:04.520 --> 02:44:24.840
so heavy yet at the same time so light and gentle.

1319
02:44:49.559 --> 02:45:28.719
Focus Now on your hands. M my hands, so peaceful

1320
02:45:30.280 --> 02:46:07.920
in your hands, there's a sense of real peace. It

1321
02:46:08.079 --> 02:46:22.520
just seems to feel so familiar when your hands relax

1322
02:46:23.719 --> 02:47:29.760
deeply el Your thing is a thing is said, lest

1323
02:47:58.840 --> 02:47:59.840
you think it's it.

1324
02:48:12.000 --> 02:48:20.479
M M.

1325
02:48:28.680 --> 02:48:47.879
Moving your attention to the front of your body, so comfortable,

1326
02:48:58.840 --> 02:50:26.799
moving your foot loocous tu les love, muscles in your thighs,

1327
02:50:43.360 --> 02:50:44.479
your knees.

1328
02:50:48.079 --> 02:51:21.399
So relaxed, the carved muscles and just shins.

1329
02:51:24.479 --> 02:53:36.879
Compresedly four and the fathing and your feet, sir, peaceful,

1330
02:53:38.799 --> 02:54:26.120
so calm, so peaceful, So calm, hm hm so peaceful,

1331
02:54:29.719 --> 02:55:08.399
sclm so peace f re sin peace for sc allowing

1332
02:55:08.520 --> 02:55:15.680
that deep relaxation to spread your chest and your stomach,

1333
02:55:19.440 --> 02:55:30.280
so letting go.

1334
02:55:33.840 --> 02:55:34.559
Everything.

1335
02:55:45.760 --> 02:55:51.799
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1336
02:55:51.840 --> 02:55:59.840
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1337
02:56:00.319 --> 02:56:07.239
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1338
02:56:07.280 --> 02:56:16.680
and each step represents a level of comfort. Each step

1339
02:56:16.959 --> 02:56:32.520
represents a deepening of that comfort. And the furvies you

1340
02:56:32.639 --> 02:56:38.760
walk down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1341
02:56:45.399 --> 02:59:20.200
So starting with number twenty twenty nineteen eighteen seventeen, sixte

1342
03:00:35.799 --> 03:07:44.840
eight four four two too well five eight nine eight

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seven four.

1344
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Five four fo one mm.

1345
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And now.

1346
03:17:30.040 --> 03:17:42.760
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

1347
03:17:43.120 --> 03:17:58.879
from ten douts one, focusing just on your eyes, your eyelids,

1348
03:17:59.319 --> 03:18:08.200
the muscle around your eyes, your eye walls themselves, our

1349
03:18:08.280 --> 03:18:25.200
whole area that makes up your eye. And as we

1350
03:18:25.399 --> 03:18:33.840
count down from ten down to one, whilst focus in

1351
03:18:33.920 --> 03:18:49.360
on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each

1352
03:18:49.719 --> 03:19:02.399
number counting down that you may find the all you

1353
03:19:02.479 --> 03:19:11.440
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1354
03:19:11.479 --> 03:19:18.120
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1355
03:19:18.200 --> 03:19:32.840
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1356
03:19:32.959 --> 03:19:42.879
begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1357
03:19:51.280 --> 03:28:56.639
ten nine eight seven four five four three two one two.

1358
03:29:04.120 --> 03:29:15.479
Counting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven

1359
03:29:17.559 --> 03:29:30.159
six five four three two.

1360
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One.

1361
03:29:39.200 --> 03:29:42.159
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1362
03:29:42.159 --> 03:29:46.120
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1363
03:29:46.440 --> 03:29:56.159
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1364
03:29:56.200 --> 03:30:00.000
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1365
03:30:00.120 --> 03:30:02.879
ten to one. Would you expect me to do? Man,

1366
03:30:03.680 --> 03:30:07.159
expect me to just to go with floppy just because

1367
03:30:07.200 --> 03:30:16.399
you're counting down. We could try it again, but this

1368
03:30:16.600 --> 03:30:22.280
time I go a bit slower this time, as you

1369
03:30:22.479 --> 03:30:27.799
focus on the whole of your body before we focus

1370
03:30:27.840 --> 03:30:36.520
on your legs. Just notice how your body does start

1371
03:30:38.319 --> 03:30:49.760
to feel more relaxed with every number that I count

1372
03:30:49.799 --> 03:32:33.639
down ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two one,

1373
03:32:34.159 --> 03:32:39.879
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1374
03:32:39.920 --> 03:32:54.799
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1375
03:32:54.840 --> 03:33:02.559
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1376
03:33:05.120 --> 03:33:26.079
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1377
03:33:26.280 --> 03:33:31.120
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1378
03:33:31.399 --> 03:33:38.440
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1379
03:33:38.520 --> 03:33:42.120
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1380
03:33:43.040 --> 03:33:52.920
a gap. And the more I comed down from ten

1381
03:33:52.959 --> 03:34:00.879
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. There's that gap

1382
03:34:00.959 --> 03:34:18.840
of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling, and

1383
03:34:18.920 --> 03:34:28.520
it moves those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves

1384
03:34:28.840 --> 03:34:39.360
them away. Allows you.

1385
03:34:41.559 --> 03:34:42.159
To just.

1386
03:34:45.079 --> 03:34:51.840
Slow down. Someone to count again from ten down to one,

1387
03:34:52.239 --> 03:35:02.479
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1388
03:35:02.520 --> 03:35:08.600
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1389
03:35:08.680 --> 03:36:18.479
gap and gives you that distance that space now ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1390
03:36:29.559 --> 03:37:38.040
four three two.

1391
03:37:23.399 --> 03:37:23.719
One.

1392
03:37:35.559 --> 03:37:39.600
How does your body feel.

1393
03:37:41.520 --> 03:37:53.200
Now?

1394
03:37:54.440 --> 03:38:09.719
Can you notice do you feeling calmer, the feeling more

1395
03:38:10.159 --> 03:38:37.600
relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1396
03:38:53.520 --> 03:39:13.719
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1397
03:39:13.799 --> 03:39:18.680
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing, because

1398
03:39:22.120 --> 03:39:24.840
I'm sure, like most of your body is not a

1399
03:39:24.879 --> 03:39:37.360
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1400
03:39:37.440 --> 03:39:43.840
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1401
03:39:43.959 --> 03:39:51.040
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1402
03:39:51.079 --> 03:39:55.959
and your inner thighs, basically the whole of your thigh

1403
03:39:56.079 --> 03:40:04.879
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1404
03:40:05.079 --> 03:40:19.120
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1405
03:40:19.159 --> 03:40:24.680
a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the strongest

1406
03:40:25.639 --> 03:40:38.879
muscles in your body are in your thighs. But I

1407
03:40:38.879 --> 03:40:47.319
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1408
03:40:53.120 --> 03:41:03.879
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our eyes are to

1409
03:41:04.079 --> 03:41:24.760
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1410
03:41:24.799 --> 03:41:35.280
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1411
03:41:35.319 --> 03:41:43.799
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1412
03:41:43.840 --> 03:41:51.479
our thighs, need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1413
03:41:52.479 --> 03:42:10.280
a bit of like none. I thank you gratitude for

1414
03:42:10.399 --> 03:42:19.399
what our thighs do for us. And I know this

1415
03:42:19.479 --> 03:42:26.159
may sound is strange. Maybe you think, why am I

1416
03:42:26.280 --> 03:42:29.000
sure that I should be out in the garden hugging

1417
03:42:29.040 --> 03:42:37.000
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1418
03:42:37.040 --> 03:42:40.719
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1419
03:42:40.760 --> 03:42:44.319
Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree. Now I

1420
03:42:44.319 --> 03:42:53.120
can't see the television from the tree. If you move

1421
03:42:53.200 --> 03:43:03.079
down to your knees gaining such an important part, and

1422
03:43:03.120 --> 03:43:07.600
I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1423
03:43:10.040 --> 03:43:15.159
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

1424
03:43:15.280 --> 03:43:21.799
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1425
03:43:21.799 --> 03:43:26.760
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1426
03:43:26.959 --> 03:43:33.399
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1427
03:43:33.479 --> 03:43:37.920
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1428
03:43:38.040 --> 03:43:47.280
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort is

1429
03:43:48.079 --> 03:43:56.879
a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed.

1430
03:43:57.920 --> 03:44:04.559
You know that's comfort. But as you focus on your

1431
03:44:04.639 --> 03:44:12.559
knees regardless of how your knees feel. You can have

1432
03:44:12.680 --> 03:44:18.799
that sense of gratitude and love to your knees for

1433
03:44:18.959 --> 03:44:31.399
all that they do for you, and you can still

1434
03:44:31.479 --> 03:44:35.639
have that attention on your thighs and maybe notice how

1435
03:44:35.680 --> 03:44:44.959
your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they are relaxing

1436
03:44:47.520 --> 03:45:00.639
more deeply as you focus now on the bottoms of

1437
03:45:00.680 --> 03:45:05.040
your legs, your shins and your calf muscles and the

1438
03:45:05.120 --> 03:45:12.840
bones between your knees and your feet incorporate, and of

1439
03:45:12.879 --> 03:45:25.159
course your ankles so important. Anyone that's had even the

1440
03:45:25.959 --> 03:45:32.840
slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how much we

1441
03:45:32.920 --> 03:45:43.159
take our ankles for granted. And it's kind of strange

1442
03:45:43.200 --> 03:45:48.079
in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1443
03:45:48.360 --> 03:45:51.479
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1444
03:45:51.479 --> 03:45:56.360
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't haven't see any

1445
03:45:56.360 --> 03:46:01.319
problem with that because we're just picking stuff up. But

1446
03:46:01.440 --> 03:46:07.520
our ankles so much thinner than the rest of our legs,

1447
03:46:12.479 --> 03:46:18.360
and from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't

1448
03:46:18.399 --> 03:46:24.559
really make sense that all this weight would ultimately be

1449
03:46:25.479 --> 03:46:35.559
resting on your ankles then leading to your feet. That

1450
03:46:36.079 --> 03:46:44.319
thin area, a thin bone. Yeah, it does so much

1451
03:46:44.399 --> 03:46:51.479
great work, supports us, supports our body for a lifetime,

1452
03:46:56.239 --> 03:47:06.000
helps us to balance, helps you to get around and

1453
03:47:06.079 --> 03:47:20.159
be mobile. And there's the calf muscles. Of course, when

1454
03:47:20.159 --> 03:47:23.319
I was younger, I couldn't see the point in calf muscles.

1455
03:47:24.040 --> 03:47:28.760
I didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if I walked

1456
03:47:28.760 --> 03:47:32.520
around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get some work.

1457
03:47:33.879 --> 03:47:36.479
But of course that's not true. The calf muscles are

1458
03:47:36.479 --> 03:47:46.399
being used whenever we use our legs, and your shins

1459
03:47:49.639 --> 03:47:58.680
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way,

1460
03:48:00.479 --> 03:48:12.639
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1461
03:48:12.680 --> 03:48:22.879
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1462
03:48:22.920 --> 03:48:25.079
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1463
03:48:25.120 --> 03:48:31.360
on the legs. And I realize that now that I've

1464
03:48:31.399 --> 03:48:36.079
mentioned your feet, it probably focuses on them anyway, So

1465
03:48:36.239 --> 03:48:38.680
maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1466
03:48:42.639 --> 03:48:47.120
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1467
03:48:47.159 --> 03:48:51.559
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1468
03:48:51.639 --> 03:48:55.639
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1469
03:48:57.399 --> 03:49:08.239
we've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1470
03:49:08.479 --> 03:49:23.840
of comfort in your thighs, and this that movement of

1471
03:49:24.159 --> 03:49:33.639
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1472
03:49:33.680 --> 03:49:38.479
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1473
03:49:38.639 --> 03:49:52.000
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1474
03:49:52.040 --> 03:49:57.399
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1475
03:49:58.159 --> 03:50:09.760
can be very sense sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1476
03:50:16.280 --> 03:50:23.840
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1477
03:50:23.879 --> 03:50:28.719
the blood, vessels, the arch trees, it's all this stuff.

1478
03:50:28.799 --> 03:50:37.520
It's inside your thighs, and I guess sometimes it'd be

1479
03:50:37.639 --> 03:50:41.799
nice if you could actually put your fingers inside your

1480
03:50:41.840 --> 03:50:48.079
thighs and message. So you can message on the outside,

1481
03:50:48.280 --> 03:50:51.239
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1482
03:50:51.280 --> 03:50:56.120
the muscles and to be able to just message inside

1483
03:50:56.159 --> 03:51:03.200
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1484
03:51:03.200 --> 03:51:12.600
in all the veins, and just gently healing your thighs,

1485
03:51:16.399 --> 03:51:21.719
and you could move down message and inside your knees,

1486
03:51:23.079 --> 03:51:29.920
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1487
03:51:30.000 --> 03:51:35.840
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1488
03:51:41.159 --> 03:51:44.879
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1489
03:51:44.959 --> 03:51:50.959
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1490
03:51:51.159 --> 03:51:57.159
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1491
03:51:58.479 --> 03:52:01.879
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1492
03:52:02.000 --> 03:52:08.639
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1493
03:52:08.840 --> 03:52:15.760
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1494
03:52:17.559 --> 03:52:28.799
has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1495
03:52:28.840 --> 03:52:39.399
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1496
03:52:40.239 --> 03:52:49.879
your fingers into that crease in your legs, that fold

1497
03:52:50.040 --> 03:52:54.200
in between your legs. You can just message with your fingertips.

1498
03:52:55.360 --> 03:53:04.760
Imagine your fingertips going inside message in the muscle tissue.

1499
03:53:06.719 --> 03:53:11.120
You can of course feel the bones of your knees

1500
03:53:12.479 --> 03:53:22.959
healing through your fingertips. And then as you go down

1501
03:53:25.799 --> 03:53:28.639
to your calf muscles. Now that's the part I'd like

1502
03:53:28.680 --> 03:53:33.399
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1503
03:53:34.120 --> 03:53:43.120
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1504
03:53:44.680 --> 03:53:54.639
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1505
03:53:57.799 --> 03:54:05.079
massage in and gently stroking the bones, gently stroking them,

1506
03:54:05.559 --> 03:54:09.799
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be

1507
03:54:09.879 --> 03:54:17.120
treated as the precious bones that they are. Because our

1508
03:54:17.200 --> 03:54:20.799
legs are so precious as in all the other parts

1509
03:54:20.840 --> 03:54:28.559
of our body, the more precious of any jure on

1510
03:54:28.600 --> 03:54:45.000
the planet. When you start to think about your legs

1511
03:54:45.079 --> 03:54:56.200
in this way, it can change your perspective. It might

1512
03:54:56.399 --> 03:55:03.000
sound a bit a bit silly to start with the

1513
03:55:03.159 --> 03:55:11.360
idea of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for

1514
03:55:11.440 --> 03:55:17.520
your thighs, wanting to be able to put your hands

1515
03:55:18.440 --> 03:55:25.399
in your thighs and massage the muscles and the bones,

1516
03:55:27.200 --> 03:55:32.920
and to get your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension,

1517
03:55:35.760 --> 03:55:44.680
just to show how much you care about your legs,

1518
03:55:45.280 --> 03:55:49.079
how much you care for what your legs do for

1519
03:55:49.200 --> 03:56:02.840
you regularly, your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength

1520
03:56:02.920 --> 03:56:11.000
of your ankles, considering how thin they are compared to

1521
03:56:11.120 --> 03:56:17.840
the rest of your legs, especially your thighs, yet they're

1522
03:56:17.959 --> 03:56:30.239
so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are

1523
03:56:34.079 --> 03:56:39.280
truly a gift because of what they do for you,

1524
03:56:44.639 --> 03:56:51.639
supporting all that weight, regardless of how what weight you are,

1525
03:56:52.760 --> 03:56:57.559
even if you only ate stone, there's still a lot

1526
03:56:57.600 --> 03:57:04.280
of weight for these little ankles. Now I'm a lot

1527
03:57:04.479 --> 03:57:14.479
heavier than eight stone double down, Yet my ankles support

1528
03:57:14.520 --> 03:57:21.879
my body all the time. Whether they do give off

1529
03:57:21.920 --> 03:57:27.159
a sigh of relief when I sit down as I

1530
03:57:27.319 --> 03:57:34.520
have my whole legs do my feet feet also go

1531
03:57:36.319 --> 03:58:00.120
and my toes clap. We're so happy. Your legs, yes,

1532
03:58:01.639 --> 03:58:09.840
really are amazing. And I know that about talking about

1533
03:58:09.920 --> 03:58:16.680
your legs is probably possibly among the most most boring

1534
03:58:16.760 --> 03:58:24.280
things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly they're boring or not,

1535
03:58:25.840 --> 03:58:41.360
everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1536
03:58:41.440 --> 03:58:54.079
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1537
03:59:01.319 --> 03:59:04.719
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1538
03:59:06.879 --> 03:59:35.639
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1539
03:59:43.239 --> 03:59:47.399
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1540
03:59:47.600 --> 03:59:53.600
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1541
03:59:53.639 --> 04:00:00.920
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1542
04:00:04.600 --> 04:00:15.479
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1543
04:00:16.840 --> 04:00:23.959
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1544
04:00:24.000 --> 04:00:30.639
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1545
04:00:31.719 --> 04:00:34.840
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1546
04:00:34.879 --> 04:00:40.159
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1547
04:00:41.159 --> 04:00:43.840
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1548
04:00:44.040 --> 04:00:50.000
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1549
04:00:50.840 --> 04:01:12.120
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1550
04:01:12.200 --> 04:01:21.200
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1551
04:01:21.920 --> 04:01:48.239
to fill wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five

1552
04:01:52.840 --> 04:02:20.879
four three two Why relax? So I'm just going to

1553
04:02:20.959 --> 04:02:26.399
count down from fire down to one. And as a countdown,

1554
04:02:27.639 --> 04:02:32.680
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

1555
04:02:34.040 --> 04:02:43.079
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1556
04:02:44.799 --> 04:02:49.200
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1557
04:02:49.360 --> 04:03:02.440
numbers counting down represent you feeling armor not just in

1558
04:03:02.479 --> 04:03:10.879
your body, but also relaxing your mind. I just notice

1559
04:03:10.920 --> 04:03:16.959
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1560
04:03:17.600 --> 04:03:34.760
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five four

1561
04:03:44.200 --> 04:04:20.000
three two one. And as you notice the gradual letting

1562
04:04:20.079 --> 04:04:29.479
go the tension in your body, you may also begin

1563
04:04:29.760 --> 04:04:36.719
to notice and be aware of how your mind is

1564
04:04:36.840 --> 04:04:44.680
starting to slow down. This is just a natural thing

1565
04:04:45.159 --> 04:04:52.559
that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's just

1566
04:04:52.719 --> 04:04:58.959
natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also starts

1567
04:04:59.000 --> 04:05:03.719
to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the more

1568
04:05:03.760 --> 04:05:09.040
your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1569
04:05:15.040 --> 04:05:23.600
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1570
04:05:23.719 --> 04:05:30.799
even even if there's background sounds either your side online,

1571
04:05:31.040 --> 04:05:37.000
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1572
04:05:37.000 --> 04:05:41.719
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the

1573
04:05:41.760 --> 04:05:45.040
background unless you're listening to the recording. With music, of course,

1574
04:05:49.840 --> 04:05:52.040
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1575
04:05:52.120 --> 04:05:55.280
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1576
04:05:56.520 --> 04:05:59.760
generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

1577
04:05:59.840 --> 04:06:11.280
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1578
04:06:11.319 --> 04:06:28.479
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1579
04:06:28.520 --> 04:06:37.360
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1580
04:06:37.399 --> 04:06:51.840
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1581
04:06:51.840 --> 04:07:02.639
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1582
04:07:02.680 --> 04:07:09.559
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1583
04:07:09.719 --> 04:07:13.639
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1584
04:07:13.680 --> 04:07:25.360
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1585
04:07:25.719 --> 04:07:36.639
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1586
04:07:37.559 --> 04:07:48.079
allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

1587
04:07:51.319 --> 04:08:06.200
just let go to just be, to be in tune

1588
04:08:06.799 --> 04:08:18.920
with how you feel, yet with the intention of wanting

1589
04:08:19.200 --> 04:08:31.319
to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep, depending

1590
04:08:31.520 --> 04:08:37.840
on what it is that you wish for yourself in

1591
04:08:37.879 --> 04:08:54.040
this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority of

1592
04:08:54.120 --> 04:08:58.879
the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep part

1593
04:08:58.959 --> 04:09:07.280
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1594
04:09:07.520 --> 04:09:29.079
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But you

1595
04:09:29.120 --> 04:09:37.280
can also if you choose, stay focused on my voice

1596
04:09:37.920 --> 04:10:04.760
and really enjoy the process of gradually relaxing each muscle

1597
04:10:09.319 --> 04:10:36.200
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1598
04:10:36.479 --> 04:10:52.120
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1599
04:10:52.319 --> 04:11:02.000
six down to one, and you can it is your

1600
04:11:02.159 --> 04:11:12.479
mind calming down more with each number that you hear

1601
04:11:12.840 --> 04:12:21.920
me say, naturally, feeling calm and slow and peaceful, sex five, four,

1602
04:12:53.840 --> 04:13:23.239
three f.

1603
04:14:00.879 --> 04:14:29.520
One, being aware of how your mind has slowed.

1604
04:14:31.120 --> 04:14:57.600
Right down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

1605
04:14:57.680 --> 04:15:05.799
on your mind, you you may notice that there are

1606
04:15:05.959 --> 04:15:16.200
some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for

1607
04:15:16.239 --> 04:15:29.399
some reason perhaps need your attention. That's what you can

1608
04:15:29.479 --> 04:15:42.879
do is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts

1609
04:15:47.360 --> 04:15:53.280
with love like all petals from a flower. Just sprinkle

1610
04:15:53.280 --> 04:16:00.440
it over them, petals filled with love towards those thoughts.

1611
04:16:01.000 --> 04:16:08.000
To let those thoughts know that you're not abandoned in them.

1612
04:16:08.760 --> 04:16:16.600
You just need them, you require them to just calm down,

1613
04:16:18.840 --> 04:16:36.280
slow down, quiet down for now. So as you focus

1614
04:16:36.360 --> 04:16:41.680
on those remaining thoughts as we count down this time

1615
04:16:41.760 --> 04:16:50.239
from seven down to one. With each number, just imagine

1616
04:16:50.360 --> 04:17:06.520
sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness, gratitude over those thoughts,

1617
04:17:11.559 --> 04:17:17.799
which will allow them to just melt away and relax deeply.

1618
04:17:21.920 --> 04:17:36.399
With every number, those thoughts will become more and more relaxed,

1619
04:17:41.959 --> 04:20:06.079
starting with number seven, six, five, four, three two one. Yeah,

1620
04:20:13.079 --> 04:20:30.040
And as you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in

1621
04:20:30.159 --> 04:20:51.760
your body, we're going to focus on your hands because

1622
04:20:51.840 --> 04:20:58.079
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

1623
04:20:58.159 --> 04:21:18.680
body and mine and are. And there's you focus on

1624
04:21:18.760 --> 04:21:29.360
your hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

1625
04:21:30.280 --> 04:21:35.399
There's no clenching of fists or tents in the fingers

1626
04:21:35.479 --> 04:21:49.200
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

1627
04:21:49.239 --> 04:22:17.559
your hands, noticing how they feel, because the more relaxed

1628
04:22:17.879 --> 04:22:27.600
your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and the

1629
04:22:27.920 --> 04:22:47.600
more comfort you feel throughout your body. You may have

1630
04:22:51.399 --> 04:23:30.440
already noticed you mind is starting to drest like since

1631
04:23:34.479 --> 04:23:49.120
just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience

1632
04:23:51.840 --> 04:24:01.600
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers.

1633
04:24:06.079 --> 04:24:07.360
More.

1634
04:24:09.600 --> 04:24:33.239
And more relaxed. With each number from eight down to one.

1635
04:24:34.120 --> 04:24:44.000
You can almost feel that healing and relaxing energy spreading

1636
04:24:45.200 --> 04:25:04.159
into your hands and fingers, becoming year more relaxing with

1637
04:25:04.559 --> 04:25:23.159
each number you hear, going down eight down to one, drifting,

1638
04:25:26.840 --> 04:28:27.799
drifting again starting with number eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

1639
04:28:44.319 --> 04:29:44.399
Fo.

1640
04:29:33.479 --> 04:29:42.959
Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1641
04:29:44.399 --> 04:29:58.360
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

1642
04:29:58.639 --> 04:30:06.360
is your natural state of being. This is how you

1643
04:30:06.479 --> 04:30:13.440
just normally feel when you take away all that other

1644
04:30:13.799 --> 04:30:20.879
stuff that we add, you know, things like stress and

1645
04:30:20.959 --> 04:30:37.200
worrying and overthinking and anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1646
04:30:39.159 --> 04:30:42.680
When you take that away, which is what we do

1647
04:30:43.239 --> 04:30:55.159
what we do now, you're left with a real sense

1648
04:30:55.719 --> 04:31:08.319
of peacefulness which comes to you very quickly because ultimately

1649
04:31:08.920 --> 04:31:22.600
it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost

1650
04:31:22.680 --> 04:31:26.280
as if you've gone inside yourself and you've found a

1651
04:31:26.479 --> 04:31:40.440
special place where everything is peaceful, a place where you

1652
04:31:40.559 --> 04:31:51.120
can feel relaxed and your natural sense of comfort, a

1653
04:31:51.200 --> 04:31:59.760
place where you can be you, where you can accept

1654
04:31:59.760 --> 04:32:06.040
your for who you are, a place where you're not

1655
04:32:06.120 --> 04:32:16.600
trying to please anybody else ever, a place where you

1656
04:32:16.719 --> 04:32:26.319
can actually not just love yourself, but in some ways

1657
04:32:26.360 --> 04:32:35.520
more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are.

1658
04:32:44.319 --> 04:32:51.000
That sense of gratitude is in the air all around you.

1659
04:32:58.600 --> 04:33:06.439
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

1660
04:33:06.759 --> 04:33:22.119
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1661
04:33:22.159 --> 04:33:32.200
your body, and that healing energy spreads through your veins,

1662
04:33:35.919 --> 04:33:47.200
traveling to each and every single part of your body,

1663
04:33:48.720 --> 04:33:53.319
and you start to realize that actually that healing energy,

1664
04:33:55.759 --> 04:34:02.200
it's not just entered into your brain, it's become part

1665
04:34:02.720 --> 04:34:14.000
of your brain, and that spinal fluid is now mixed

1666
04:34:14.080 --> 04:34:25.279
with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

1667
04:34:25.479 --> 04:34:37.400
much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but also

1668
04:34:40.279 --> 04:34:47.799
you start to realize that actually, what's happening now with

1669
04:34:47.959 --> 04:34:57.680
that heathing, relaxing energy spreading through your body is actually

1670
04:34:58.040 --> 04:35:07.639
changing your life. It's actually the change in the way

1671
04:35:07.720 --> 04:35:14.360
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1672
04:35:14.439 --> 04:35:23.400
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

1673
04:35:23.439 --> 04:35:31.279
physical health but your mental health. Things that used to

1674
04:35:31.400 --> 04:35:37.520
bother you in the past for some reason, no longer

1675
04:35:38.840 --> 04:35:46.439
have the effect that they used to because something's changed

1676
04:35:47.919 --> 04:35:59.200
deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause you

1677
04:35:59.279 --> 04:36:11.639
to feel anger no longer have that power to control

1678
04:36:11.759 --> 04:36:16.759
you the way they seem to be able to before.

1679
04:36:20.400 --> 04:36:31.360
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1680
04:36:31.520 --> 04:36:43.279
affects you, you're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1681
04:36:44.080 --> 04:36:57.000
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

1682
04:36:57.919 --> 04:37:11.319
developments of healing continuing to grow and improve your life

1683
04:37:12.680 --> 04:37:24.520
day by day, including of course, your ability to relax

1684
04:37:25.119 --> 04:37:40.520
so much easier and sleeping. It's the most natural thing

1685
04:37:40.959 --> 04:37:50.959
in the world to you, because falling asleep is something

1686
04:37:51.119 --> 04:38:02.000
that you've done so many times in your life, and

1687
04:38:02.119 --> 04:38:06.080
you know that you were born, as we all were,

1688
04:38:06.759 --> 04:38:16.680
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

1689
04:38:18.040 --> 04:38:28.479
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

1690
04:38:29.759 --> 04:38:41.560
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

1691
04:38:41.599 --> 04:38:45.599
when we don't even want to try to tell us

1692
04:38:45.720 --> 04:38:50.159
stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or

1693
04:38:50.159 --> 04:38:54.479
it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1694
04:38:54.959 --> 04:38:59.040
We don't want to go to sleep, But the more

1695
04:38:59.520 --> 04:39:04.520
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

1696
04:39:04.560 --> 04:39:12.919
to drift and the more you fight drifting. The more

1697
04:39:12.919 --> 04:39:15.479
you try and stop yourself and drift in a shape,

1698
04:39:17.599 --> 04:39:28.680
the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born

1699
04:39:29.639 --> 04:39:35.520
not just with the need to relax deeply and to

1700
04:39:35.680 --> 04:39:45.560
naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's part of

1701
04:39:45.639 --> 04:39:57.279
our DNA, and sometimes as we get older in life,

1702
04:39:57.639 --> 04:40:11.200
perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing completely. It's

1703
04:40:11.279 --> 04:40:33.959
not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1704
04:40:35.759 --> 04:40:43.279
It's very, very easy to let go, because that's all

1705
04:40:43.319 --> 04:40:57.759
it is. It's just deciding to let go. And when

1706
04:40:57.840 --> 04:41:05.639
you press the play button on my recordings, you have

1707
04:41:05.840 --> 04:41:16.479
given permission for my voice to relax you. When you

1708
04:41:16.560 --> 04:41:21.759
press that play button, you have given me permission for

1709
04:41:21.919 --> 04:41:36.080
my words to affect you in a positive, only a

1710
04:41:36.159 --> 04:41:57.520
positive way, opening up your mind too useful and healing

1711
04:41:59.040 --> 04:42:15.200
suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on how

1712
04:42:15.240 --> 04:42:27.360
you feel right now, as well as those changes that

1713
04:42:27.639 --> 04:42:37.680
continue long after the recording ends, those changes within you

1714
04:42:40.479 --> 04:42:53.759
that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in

1715
04:42:53.799 --> 04:43:05.759
a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in

1716
04:43:05.880 --> 04:43:12.439
your life in the direction that you choose for yourself.

1717
04:43:21.479 --> 04:43:32.040
And this feeling, this feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort,

1718
04:43:32.919 --> 04:43:54.240
calmness just feels so nice. It's such a healthy place

1719
04:43:55.000 --> 04:44:15.240
to be, and that positivity grows within you each and

1720
04:44:15.560 --> 04:44:28.639
every day. Moving forward, you're going to find that you're

1721
04:44:28.680 --> 04:44:40.319
more relaxed physically and in your mind is more relaxed.

1722
04:44:44.119 --> 04:44:49.439
And it's not that you're thinking slower, it's just that

1723
04:44:49.479 --> 04:45:00.680
your mind will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity

1724
04:45:01.400 --> 04:45:11.720
because from now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on,

1725
04:45:12.240 --> 04:45:23.119
you're going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you

1726
04:45:23.159 --> 04:45:36.959
can just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn

1727
04:45:37.080 --> 04:45:57.439
around and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity will disappear.

1728
04:46:05.560 --> 04:46:12.080
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

1729
04:46:13.479 --> 04:46:28.880
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

1730
04:46:29.040 --> 04:46:35.439
you're the person that has done this. You are the

1731
04:46:35.560 --> 04:46:40.639
one that has opened your mind up to the simple

1732
04:46:40.840 --> 04:46:48.759
facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

1733
04:46:49.439 --> 04:47:01.000
and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

1734
04:47:01.040 --> 04:47:07.680
the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

1735
04:47:08.680 --> 04:47:22.720
when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

1736
04:47:22.799 --> 04:47:34.400
think it feels nice? Doesn't it to feel calm? All

1737
04:47:34.439 --> 04:47:39.040
that healing energy is spreading through your body and your

1738
04:47:39.159 --> 04:47:54.919
mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

1739
04:47:56.400 --> 04:48:09.319
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

1740
04:48:09.400 --> 04:48:16.080
not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

1741
04:48:16.119 --> 04:48:24.240
be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

1742
04:48:25.240 --> 04:48:42.040
in your life, which makes room for more comfort, more heathing,

1743
04:48:44.159 --> 04:49:11.439
more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it. Just

1744
04:49:14.919 --> 04:49:35.400
the let go with everything. I'm gonna count down now

1745
04:49:35.479 --> 04:49:43.680
from twenty down to one. You can continue to relax,

1746
04:49:45.880 --> 04:49:57.439
if you choose, you can drift to sleep. With every

1747
04:49:57.599 --> 04:50:09.279
number you hear me say, you can fill twice as relaxed,

1748
04:50:12.279 --> 04:50:16.520
or if you choose, you can feel twice as sleepy.

1749
04:50:23.319 --> 04:52:37.880
Now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

1750
04:52:44.360 --> 04:52:44.759
Four.

1751
04:53:18.040 --> 04:53:27.880
This is your time to just take a break, your

1752
04:53:28.000 --> 04:53:44.119
time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1753
04:53:47.400 --> 04:54:01.520
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

1754
04:54:06.319 --> 04:54:06.479
End.

1755
04:54:06.520 --> 04:54:13.720
You're the only person that can make that decision. You're

1756
04:54:13.759 --> 04:54:21.159
the only person that can actually tell your mind to

1757
04:54:21.479 --> 04:54:45.639
just relax, to just take some time off so that

1758
04:54:45.720 --> 04:54:50.720
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

1759
04:54:51.840 --> 04:55:08.319
how you feel physically, and in the process of this

1760
04:55:08.520 --> 04:55:13.479
body scan, where you focus on different parts of your body,

1761
04:55:19.840 --> 04:55:27.400
those parts that you focus on and observe, even though

1762
04:55:27.439 --> 04:55:35.680
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

1763
04:55:35.799 --> 04:55:44.319
to relax, it's kind of expected. You expect when you

1764
04:55:44.479 --> 04:55:57.560
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

1765
04:55:57.599 --> 04:56:07.520
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

1766
04:56:07.639 --> 04:56:19.319
my words, and as my words guide you to focus

1767
04:56:23.560 --> 04:56:38.479
on those parts of your body, your focus increases, which

1768
04:56:38.599 --> 04:56:54.599
actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

1769
04:56:59.400 --> 04:57:21.520
your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

1770
04:57:21.639 --> 04:57:38.520
mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started the

1771
04:57:38.639 --> 04:57:51.400
focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

1772
04:57:51.599 --> 04:58:06.080
energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

1773
04:58:10.200 --> 04:58:17.520
healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

1774
04:58:18.639 --> 04:58:25.639
your bones, your blood, all of your organs inside your body,

1775
04:58:27.000 --> 04:58:33.759
all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

1776
04:58:35.599 --> 04:58:47.119
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

1777
04:58:49.799 --> 04:59:05.560
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

1778
04:59:05.759 --> 04:59:30.200
feeling of comfort and relaxation increases deeply increases in a

1779
04:59:30.279 --> 04:59:49.799
way that your mind starts to feel perhaps bit drowsy

1780
04:59:50.439 --> 05:00:01.000
because it's not needed, and it may start to drift

1781
05:00:09.799 --> 05:00:16.639
if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

1782
05:00:18.520 --> 05:00:22.799
and what you need is deep relaxation, that's what you'll get.

1783
05:00:24.959 --> 05:00:31.880
If what you need is to fall asleep naturally and

1784
05:00:32.040 --> 05:00:40.759
easily as your mind drifts, that's also what will happened.

1785
05:00:46.360 --> 05:00:54.080
Because by pressing that play button on the podcast and

1786
05:00:54.360 --> 05:01:01.439
listening to me, you give permission body and your mind.

1787
05:01:04.439 --> 05:01:13.560
In fact, you give the command to your body and

1788
05:01:13.599 --> 05:01:24.799
your mind to relax deeply and to drift off to

1789
05:01:24.959 --> 05:01:41.360
sleep if that's what you want or need. And as

1790
05:01:41.439 --> 05:01:51.639
I focus on the different parts of your body, you

1791
05:01:51.799 --> 05:02:00.720
may start to just drift. And then you come back

1792
05:02:00.759 --> 05:02:06.040
again and you hear me talking, and I'm focusing on

1793
05:02:06.080 --> 05:02:16.759
a different part of your body, and you may find

1794
05:02:16.880 --> 05:02:25.479
yourself drifting, but you don't realize you're drifting until you

1795
05:02:25.639 --> 05:02:34.000
stop drifting and you're alert again to my voice. Focusing

1796
05:02:35.159 --> 05:02:39.959
on a different part of your body starts to relax

1797
05:02:40.159 --> 05:02:52.639
even deeper, because that drifting is basically you already in

1798
05:02:52.759 --> 05:03:03.119
the sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer

1799
05:03:03.200 --> 05:03:13.040
you drift, and the longer you dreft. Eventually that drifting

1800
05:03:13.200 --> 05:03:25.080
continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember until

1801
05:03:25.119 --> 05:03:34.159
you wake up in your own time, when you experience

1802
05:03:34.400 --> 05:03:41.880
the right amount of sleep for you, because when you

1803
05:03:41.959 --> 05:03:51.119
do and if you do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant,

1804
05:03:53.840 --> 05:04:14.560
so relaxing, so deep healing sleep. I'm it feels so

1805
05:04:14.840 --> 05:04:26.319
nice to relax into your own body and mind as

1806
05:04:26.400 --> 05:04:31.919
you as you feel that healing energy is spreading through it,

1807
05:04:34.200 --> 05:04:56.080
relaxing use so deeply, relaxing us, so so deeply. As

1808
05:04:56.200 --> 05:05:13.240
we start to focus, your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

1809
05:05:21.159 --> 05:06:10.680
down to your neck, your shoulders, arms, hands, fingers, you chest, stomach,

1810
05:06:17.880 --> 05:06:52.400
your back, your spine, you hips, you, legs, your feet,

1811
05:07:01.240 --> 05:07:30.720
your toes, and feeling feeting, spreading and growing inside your body,

1812
05:07:32.639 --> 05:07:44.279
feeling you up. Now let's focus again on parts of

1813
05:07:44.319 --> 05:07:58.720
your body, focusing this time on your forehead. Now on

1814
05:07:58.840 --> 05:08:08.080
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth.

1815
05:08:20.279 --> 05:08:31.680
Focus in on your fingers. Maybe you could move your

1816
05:08:31.720 --> 05:08:37.360
fingers a little bit. You can focus on each one individually,

1817
05:08:43.560 --> 05:08:50.880
both hands, and even though you focus on both of

1818
05:08:50.919 --> 05:09:01.560
your hands now they almost seem to just melt into one.

1819
05:09:02.240 --> 05:09:06.840
Where is your right hand, start in your left hand, end,

1820
05:09:09.880 --> 05:09:21.400
almost as if we're just mixed together. Now, focusing on

1821
05:09:21.439 --> 05:09:49.400
your knees, just noticing how your knees fell. Now, focusing

1822
05:09:49.919 --> 05:10:02.360
on your elbows, focusing on both of your elbows, just

1823
05:10:02.560 --> 05:10:39.759
observing for feeling of your elbows. Now focusing, observing the

1824
05:10:39.799 --> 05:10:55.400
back of your neck, feeding the energy on the back

1825
05:10:55.439 --> 05:11:45.959
of your neck, Observing your ankles, being aware of physical

1826
05:11:46.400 --> 05:12:56.919
sensations in your ankles, not to say no, you two's

1827
05:13:00.319 --> 05:13:14.720
on both of your feet. Being aware how your toast

1828
05:13:17.479 --> 05:14:09.279
feel right now, ninety then how your entire body feels.

1829
05:14:18.799 --> 05:15:13.000
Noticing your mind feels now letting go, letting go, letting

1830
05:15:14.000 --> 05:16:02.439
go everything, letting go, letting go, letting go everything. Thing.

1831
05:16:08.680 --> 05:16:12.400
I'm going to start now, and I would like you just,

1832
05:16:12.520 --> 05:16:18.200
first of all, just to see yourself lying down on

1833
05:16:18.279 --> 05:16:24.479
that message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

1834
05:16:24.840 --> 05:16:33.599
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable and breathing.

1835
05:16:33.680 --> 05:16:43.240
It's really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

1836
05:16:43.319 --> 05:16:45.560
how you look as well. So there's none of that

1837
05:16:45.680 --> 05:16:53.479
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

1838
05:16:53.599 --> 05:16:59.919
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

1839
05:17:00.159 --> 05:17:10.479
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

1840
05:17:10.720 --> 05:17:18.880
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

1841
05:17:18.959 --> 05:17:25.119
of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and

1842
05:17:25.159 --> 05:17:33.319
allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you by

1843
05:17:33.319 --> 05:17:41.919
a message your body. So I want to start off

1844
05:17:42.080 --> 05:17:47.360
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

1845
05:17:48.400 --> 05:17:53.799
just gently, just you can feel what my hands feel

1846
05:17:53.880 --> 05:18:00.639
like really on you. So you can maybe feel the

1847
05:18:00.680 --> 05:18:02.919
warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

1848
05:18:06.240 --> 05:18:08.720
And with my hands to the side of your head,

1849
05:18:09.439 --> 05:18:16.040
not pressing, but just holding there very gently, maybe over

1850
05:18:16.080 --> 05:18:19.799
your ears, and a little bit on your face, just

1851
05:18:19.840 --> 05:18:25.319
so you can feel my hands so you can become

1852
05:18:25.319 --> 05:18:38.400
accustomed to them. And now put my hands on the

1853
05:18:38.400 --> 05:18:43.119
back of your head again and gently let them slide

1854
05:18:43.159 --> 05:18:55.439
down onto the back of your neck. You can feel

1855
05:18:55.479 --> 05:19:05.520
my hands gently stroking the back of your neck to

1856
05:19:05.560 --> 05:19:13.720
start with, just so you can get used to the

1857
05:19:13.919 --> 05:19:17.520
feeling with my hands on your skin, get accustomed to

1858
05:19:21.479 --> 05:19:31.200
realize that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine.

1859
05:19:32.759 --> 05:19:36.880
And I'm going to start gently messaging the muscles in

1860
05:19:36.919 --> 05:19:52.799
the back of your neck with both hands. Now, this

1861
05:19:52.880 --> 05:19:59.159
is a very trusting situation really, because our necks are

1862
05:19:59.200 --> 05:20:04.439
so fragile, and to have someone have their hands around

1863
05:20:04.479 --> 05:20:09.680
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

1864
05:20:10.840 --> 05:20:15.319
which is why massages are quite good because it allows

1865
05:20:15.360 --> 05:20:26.000
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

1866
05:20:29.599 --> 05:20:41.520
to feel peaceful and calm. And there's a massage the

1867
05:20:41.799 --> 05:20:49.799
sides of your neck gently moving from the bottom of

1868
05:20:49.840 --> 05:20:53.599
your neck, it would be sort of near where your

1869
05:20:53.599 --> 05:20:59.360
shoulders start, I guess, all the way up to your jaw,

1870
05:21:01.080 --> 05:21:04.680
your ears kind of area that side of your neck,

1871
05:21:07.360 --> 05:21:10.000
of course is a lot longer than the front of

1872
05:21:10.000 --> 05:21:26.159
your neck. And then message in the back of your neck,

1873
05:21:29.959 --> 05:21:38.759
especially that area where perhaps we hold tension, and as

1874
05:21:38.840 --> 05:21:43.520
that area's message, you can actually feel a sense of

1875
05:21:43.639 --> 05:21:51.720
release in the back of your neck and maybe you

1876
05:21:51.840 --> 05:21:57.200
can breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels.

1877
05:21:57.400 --> 05:22:10.040
Notice how you feel. And then moving down to that

1878
05:22:10.240 --> 05:22:17.720
area between your neck and your shoulders, that muscle area,

1879
05:22:18.279 --> 05:22:25.759
starting to message that area on both sides. I mean,

1880
05:22:25.759 --> 05:22:28.119
this would be the area that a lot of people

1881
05:22:28.119 --> 05:22:31.000
would message if they were going to give you like

1882
05:22:31.119 --> 05:22:37.040
a shoulder message. Even that's not technically the shoulders, but

1883
05:22:37.159 --> 05:22:41.439
it's all the muscles that lead to the shoulders from

1884
05:22:41.479 --> 05:22:47.880
the neck and again that can hold tension and stress,

1885
05:22:49.080 --> 05:22:54.159
and when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful,

1886
05:22:57.159 --> 05:23:13.119
and you decide how deep that messages, and just allow

1887
05:23:15.000 --> 05:23:20.080
my knuckles just to dig in, to get to those

1888
05:23:20.240 --> 05:23:30.439
muscles and to really relaxed all the time being firm

1889
05:23:31.040 --> 05:23:48.119
yet gentle with you and just stroking down that area

1890
05:23:50.959 --> 05:23:56.599
to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your

1891
05:23:56.599 --> 05:24:07.680
shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a

1892
05:24:07.680 --> 05:24:11.119
little bit off the table, just to give you a

1893
05:24:11.119 --> 05:24:21.680
little bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've

1894
05:24:21.720 --> 05:24:24.880
got the muscles at the front of your shoulders, the

1895
05:24:25.080 --> 05:24:36.000
sides and the back. Again, this is a part that

1896
05:24:36.119 --> 05:24:41.439
can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a

1897
05:24:41.439 --> 05:24:51.680
bit of needing if if you wish to really release

1898
05:24:51.840 --> 05:25:00.279
the tension to really get into those muscles, and you

1899
05:25:00.279 --> 05:25:06.200
can let your fingers in there if you feel really nice.

1900
05:25:06.599 --> 05:25:14.200
Sometimes just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly,

1901
05:25:17.880 --> 05:25:27.279
it can all be beneficial to the relaxation with the

1902
05:25:27.400 --> 05:25:40.959
muscles in your shoulders. Now, to move down your arms

1903
05:25:47.439 --> 05:25:51.000
would do one arm at a time, starting with your

1904
05:25:51.119 --> 05:26:01.360
right arm. What I do is I just lift your

1905
05:26:01.479 --> 05:26:04.279
arm up, just hold it to the side of you,

1906
05:26:07.520 --> 05:26:14.000
the world still be attached, and I just message the

1907
05:26:14.040 --> 05:26:27.840
tops of your arms all the way down to your forearms,

1908
05:26:30.520 --> 05:26:54.479
into your wrists, gently massaging that parts, the softer part,

1909
05:26:54.560 --> 05:27:01.080
which is the under part of the arm, which leads

1910
05:27:01.159 --> 05:27:06.080
to the crease in your elbow, the inside. It's much

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05:27:06.520 --> 05:27:23.400
more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked, I feel

1912
05:27:23.560 --> 05:27:40.240
really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your

1913
05:27:40.319 --> 05:27:53.279
right hand, just holding your hand in both of my hands,

1914
05:27:59.000 --> 05:28:04.639
just pressing gin on the back of your hand and

1915
05:28:04.919 --> 05:28:13.880
stretching your fingers ever so lightly at the same time,

1916
05:28:15.959 --> 05:28:29.080
pressing down and massaging each finger, and then starting to

1917
05:28:29.279 --> 05:28:40.599
massage the palms of the hand. Just turning the hand gently,

1918
05:28:42.319 --> 05:28:52.200
stretching it gently, and actually having your hand held can

1919
05:28:52.319 --> 05:28:59.159
really be an emotional experience sometimes, even if it is

1920
05:28:59.319 --> 05:29:03.799
a strain. Yeah, so when you don't know very well,

1921
05:29:04.720 --> 05:29:11.279
like a massage person or a therapist, maybe because it's

1922
05:29:11.279 --> 05:29:30.919
intimate and you can feel nice, you can feel safe.

1923
05:29:32.159 --> 05:29:35.439
As I put that right arm back down where it was,

1924
05:29:41.159 --> 05:29:48.000
go do the same with your left arm, exactly the same.

1925
05:29:52.639 --> 05:29:57.720
Massage in the muscles in your arm all the way down,

1926
05:29:58.880 --> 05:30:11.279
do your wrist, stroking the inside of your arm, just

1927
05:30:11.319 --> 05:30:24.919
being gentle or as firm as you require, and then

1928
05:30:25.040 --> 05:30:41.520
massaging your left hand, stretching the fingers, gently massaging the

1929
05:30:41.720 --> 05:31:01.159
palm of your left hand. You feel so so relaxing,

1930
05:31:08.840 --> 05:31:26.639
so comforting, and just rest your left down, back down.

1931
05:31:34.159 --> 05:31:44.959
Start to message your back, the biggest part of your body,

1932
05:31:45.880 --> 05:31:52.799
starting at the top, starting again where we already have been,

1933
05:31:53.560 --> 05:31:58.279
the area at the top in between your shoulders, near

1934
05:31:58.319 --> 05:32:03.479
your neck. Going back, the massage in that area again,

1935
05:32:04.599 --> 05:32:18.360
but this time moving downwards, taking a downward stroke to

1936
05:32:18.400 --> 05:32:26.319
the middle of your back, working from the outside inwards,

1937
05:32:26.319 --> 05:32:27.680
a massage.

1938
05:32:27.159 --> 05:32:29.000
In the.

1939
05:32:29.680 --> 05:32:38.680
Your back, but the the outside of your back, the

1940
05:32:38.840 --> 05:32:54.520
parts where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the

1941
05:32:54.560 --> 05:33:06.880
part that connects your front to your back, and just

1942
05:33:07.119 --> 05:33:15.599
messaging down firmly but gently, as firm as you want,

1943
05:33:19.000 --> 05:33:23.000
moving down, and then moving across a little bed and

1944
05:33:23.159 --> 05:33:28.880
moving all the way down again, being very gentle yet

1945
05:33:29.119 --> 05:33:39.919
firm as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

1946
05:33:41.279 --> 05:33:45.520
We can massage the muscles and either side of your spine,

1947
05:33:46.400 --> 05:33:49.439
from the top of your neck all the way down

1948
05:33:52.200 --> 05:34:01.200
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

1949
05:34:04.200 --> 05:34:11.639
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know two

1950
05:34:11.759 --> 05:34:17.599
fingers and just go your side of the spine almost

1951
05:34:18.000 --> 05:34:21.080
just push down, go all the way down to the

1952
05:34:21.080 --> 05:34:29.720
bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening

1953
05:34:29.799 --> 05:34:38.919
up the body, stretching your body so that you feel

1954
05:34:39.599 --> 05:34:57.080
more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now

1955
05:34:57.119 --> 05:35:03.880
I'm going to move to one side, your right side,

1956
05:35:05.799 --> 05:35:10.680
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis,

1957
05:35:11.400 --> 05:35:17.680
I'm going to massage that area of your back. I'll

1958
05:35:17.759 --> 05:35:20.799
stretch over the other side and i will pull the

1959
05:35:20.919 --> 05:35:27.759
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

1960
05:35:27.959 --> 05:35:32.240
side or the way to my side to the middle

1961
05:35:32.279 --> 05:35:38.040
of fact to where your spine is. Massaging that side

1962
05:35:38.040 --> 05:35:42.479
of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

1963
05:35:44.799 --> 05:35:50.840
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

1964
05:35:50.919 --> 05:36:02.720
is firm yet lots there to massage. Potentially one of

1965
05:36:02.720 --> 05:36:09.400
the most important places to actually have a message, because

1966
05:36:09.439 --> 05:36:15.360
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

1967
05:36:15.400 --> 05:36:23.599
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

1968
05:36:23.959 --> 05:36:32.360
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

1969
05:36:32.400 --> 05:36:38.560
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

1970
05:36:47.840 --> 05:36:50.680
The message in this part of your body not only

1971
05:36:50.799 --> 05:36:55.720
feels really good for you. It's actually fun to do

1972
05:36:57.000 --> 05:37:02.680
because it is, as I said, like needing bread. It's

1973
05:37:02.720 --> 05:37:06.720
a part that you can really get hold of and

1974
05:37:06.799 --> 05:37:20.400
really message deeply. If that's your choice, then I'm going

1975
05:37:20.479 --> 05:37:22.520
to move over to the other side of your body

1976
05:37:22.959 --> 05:37:31.680
and do the same with the opposite part of your

1977
05:37:31.759 --> 05:37:38.799
lawer back, kneading and messaging from your sides all the

1978
05:37:38.880 --> 05:37:46.080
way to the middle of your back where your spine

1979
05:37:46.200 --> 05:37:59.919
is pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

1980
05:38:01.880 --> 05:38:14.520
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1981
05:38:14.759 --> 05:38:26.439
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1982
05:38:26.479 --> 05:38:31.639
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1983
05:38:31.720 --> 05:38:36.000
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because the

1984
05:38:36.159 --> 05:38:47.520
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1985
05:38:47.599 --> 05:38:52.560
to move or move further up to your top of

1986
05:38:52.599 --> 05:38:58.919
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

1987
05:39:00.240 --> 05:39:06.479
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

1988
05:39:06.639 --> 05:39:14.040
mass massage in that area up to your spine, from

1989
05:39:14.080 --> 05:39:18.279
the side of your body up to your spine. So

1990
05:39:18.400 --> 05:39:24.759
some of that massage area, the muscle tissue or whatever

1991
05:39:24.959 --> 05:39:30.639
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

1992
05:39:30.680 --> 05:39:37.720
all connected, the chest and the back connect together. I'm

1993
05:39:37.720 --> 05:39:40.919
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

1994
05:39:41.200 --> 05:39:51.919
skin from your side up and massaging that area of

1995
05:39:52.000 --> 05:40:00.479
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

1996
05:40:00.560 --> 05:40:03.319
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

1997
05:40:03.439 --> 05:40:06.319
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

1998
05:40:10.159 --> 05:40:24.000
as gentle, as deep as you choose. Now, I'll move

1999
05:40:24.479 --> 05:40:28.720
the other side again and do the exact same thing

2000
05:40:29.360 --> 05:40:32.520
with the top of your back on the other side,

2001
05:40:33.520 --> 05:40:49.919
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

2002
05:40:52.720 --> 05:40:59.319
and then continue in that all the way down, including

2003
05:40:59.439 --> 05:41:16.639
your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2004
05:41:16.919 --> 05:41:23.200
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2005
05:41:23.360 --> 05:41:33.279
sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg. Massage

2006
05:41:33.400 --> 05:41:42.959
in the back and the sides of your thighs gently

2007
05:41:43.200 --> 05:41:49.119
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2008
05:41:49.159 --> 05:41:52.759
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2009
05:41:53.439 --> 05:41:55.919
needs a little bit more pressure than the rest of

2010
05:41:55.959 --> 05:42:04.560
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2011
05:42:04.639 --> 05:42:11.599
the back of your legs where you know, opposite your

2012
05:42:11.680 --> 05:42:17.080
knee joint or underneath your knee joint, a very sensitive

2013
05:42:17.279 --> 05:42:29.959
gentle area and then working down to your calf muscles.

2014
05:42:32.840 --> 05:42:39.319
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2015
05:42:42.680 --> 05:42:59.639
using both hands and fingers, digging deep to your ankles,

2016
05:43:01.880 --> 05:43:07.560
in the back of your back of your ankles, just

2017
05:43:07.799 --> 05:43:19.439
gently massage in the area, maybe lifting the leg and

2018
05:43:20.279 --> 05:43:43.599
stretching a little bit. Moving to the right foot, massaging

2019
05:43:46.159 --> 05:43:52.959
the bottom of your feet and the side of your

2020
05:43:52.959 --> 05:44:09.680
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2021
05:44:09.799 --> 05:44:15.279
just allow the pleasure that you get from having your

2022
05:44:15.319 --> 05:44:24.720
feet massaged to just overtake you as I continue to

2023
05:44:24.840 --> 05:44:31.200
message your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides,

2024
05:44:33.840 --> 05:44:39.639
your arches, your heel. You can put a lot of

2025
05:44:39.680 --> 05:44:45.560
pressure into your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the

2026
05:44:45.759 --> 05:44:53.880
arches need to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your

2027
05:44:53.959 --> 05:45:00.400
toes gently and massage in the bottoms of your those

2028
05:45:01.119 --> 05:45:16.479
with my fingers, each one individually. Moving her to the

2029
05:45:16.599 --> 05:45:26.000
left leg to do exactly the same thing, starting at

2030
05:45:26.040 --> 05:45:30.520
the top of the thighs, work in the back of

2031
05:45:30.560 --> 05:45:38.119
the thighs and the sides, massaging deeply and gently a

2032
05:45:38.279 --> 05:45:52.319
whole area, working all the way down. And this is

2033
05:45:52.360 --> 05:45:58.560
an area that maybe you could like to spend more

2034
05:45:58.639 --> 05:46:07.319
time relaxing and messaging. So perhaps if you wanted like

2035
05:46:07.360 --> 05:46:12.680
a bigger future recording, where's spend more time on one

2036
05:46:12.759 --> 05:46:24.639
particular area. As you move down to your calf muscles.

2037
05:46:30.599 --> 05:46:46.479
Massage your calf muscles firmly and gently, moving down your

2038
05:46:46.639 --> 05:46:53.319
encord into your feet. Massage in the backs of your feet,

2039
05:46:55.159 --> 05:47:04.439
the bottoms of your feet, stretching your toes and massage

2040
05:47:04.479 --> 05:47:11.919
in each tone individually, and then feeling of pleasure and

2041
05:47:12.159 --> 05:47:20.040
release the experience when your having your feet massaged feels

2042
05:47:20.119 --> 05:47:38.319
really good. Now, as you turn over in your mind,

2043
05:47:39.520 --> 05:47:49.240
laying on your back, I'm just going to start again

2044
05:47:52.520 --> 05:48:07.240
for your neck area in your shoulders, just to get

2045
05:48:07.279 --> 05:48:17.200
back in touch with that area. And as you move up,

2046
05:48:24.840 --> 05:48:29.680
I can clean my hands, make them more fresh, because

2047
05:48:29.720 --> 05:48:38.799
now I'm going to message your face gently, starting off

2048
05:48:38.840 --> 05:48:49.479
with your forehead. Your eyes are closed and I can

2049
05:48:49.639 --> 05:48:55.439
just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing up on

2050
05:48:55.560 --> 05:49:12.599
your eyebrows and just messaging around your scalp, massaging down

2051
05:49:13.479 --> 05:49:27.560
your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw, gently the

2052
05:49:27.720 --> 05:49:45.479
side of your neck, your chin mhmm, and just moving

2053
05:49:45.639 --> 05:49:56.840
down from your neck down to your chest starting by

2054
05:49:56.959 --> 05:50:04.119
message in the very top of your chest where the

2055
05:50:04.200 --> 05:50:17.560
collar bone is. Give a side to the collarbone, and

2056
05:50:17.639 --> 05:50:30.279
then just message in the hole of the chest, moving

2057
05:50:30.400 --> 05:50:44.000
the chest around. Because it's quite a large area, you

2058
05:50:44.040 --> 05:50:51.840
can move from one side to the next, moving my

2059
05:50:52.000 --> 05:51:02.840
hands underneath pretty much where your arms are, stretching up,

2060
05:51:04.919 --> 05:51:08.000
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2061
05:51:13.240 --> 05:51:21.919
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

2062
05:51:34.560 --> 05:51:39.319
and then allowing my hands to just massage gently and

2063
05:51:39.599 --> 05:51:46.360
slide down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of

2064
05:51:46.439 --> 05:51:56.080
your chest, and then gradually my hands moving apart and

2065
05:51:56.319 --> 05:52:02.759
massage in and sliding at the same time, moving down

2066
05:52:06.279 --> 05:52:20.880
to just below your rib cage, moving down and then

2067
05:52:20.959 --> 05:52:30.240
messaging up again, giving your chest all the attention that

2068
05:52:30.319 --> 05:52:44.840
it needs to feel completely relaxed, remembering them. I'm also

2069
05:52:44.959 --> 05:52:50.240
going to be focusing on your sides as well, an

2070
05:52:50.319 --> 05:52:56.639
area that really doesn't get much attention but feels really

2071
05:52:56.720 --> 05:53:07.080
good when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the

2072
05:53:07.119 --> 05:53:14.080
sides of your body, just below your arms, all the

2073
05:53:14.119 --> 05:53:27.560
way down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

2074
05:53:29.599 --> 05:53:33.000
We're going to stand one side of you like I

2075
05:53:33.040 --> 05:53:37.599
did when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do

2076
05:53:37.639 --> 05:53:46.919
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2077
05:53:47.159 --> 05:53:59.240
gently massaging from one side to the next, move in

2078
05:54:01.799 --> 05:54:06.040
a whole area from below your ribs all the way

2079
05:54:06.080 --> 05:54:17.000
down to below your belly button, and then move around

2080
05:54:17.040 --> 05:54:26.959
to the other side of you and repeat that process

2081
05:54:27.240 --> 05:54:40.360
of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, You feel free.

2082
05:54:42.680 --> 05:54:47.400
And it's something about having your stomach message that's different

2083
05:54:47.439 --> 05:54:54.319
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2084
05:54:54.880 --> 05:54:58.919
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomachs

2085
05:55:00.200 --> 05:55:08.040
that we may not be aware of. As I now

2086
05:55:08.200 --> 05:55:15.479
massage your stomach in front of your stomach, they can

2087
05:55:15.799 --> 05:55:26.159
circles around your belly button and then go in the

2088
05:55:26.240 --> 05:55:36.080
other way around. There's a gentleness and a freedom that

2089
05:55:36.279 --> 05:55:47.639
comes from feeling how you're feeling. As I now move

2090
05:55:48.159 --> 05:55:56.599
down the tops of your thighs, the muscles massaging them,

2091
05:55:56.799 --> 05:56:00.360
and I can do this two legs at the same time,

2092
05:56:02.400 --> 05:56:11.840
pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs at

2093
05:56:11.840 --> 05:56:20.680
front of your thighs, and moving down to your knees,

2094
05:56:21.479 --> 05:56:34.200
gently massaging your knees, sliding down your shins, putting pressure

2095
05:56:34.240 --> 05:56:42.040
on either side of your shin gently softly but firmly,

2096
05:56:46.159 --> 05:56:56.000
moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet,

2097
05:57:02.000 --> 05:57:07.439
and then with each foot in each hand, just gently

2098
05:57:07.639 --> 05:57:16.000
messaging the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom,

2099
05:57:16.720 --> 05:57:25.040
your heel, your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of

2100
05:57:25.159 --> 05:57:34.919
your feet. It feels so good. Just let go and

2101
05:57:35.159 --> 05:57:59.959
enjoy the process. Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort,

2102
05:58:01.200 --> 05:58:18.040
So many feelings become just from touching your skin. And

2103
05:58:18.200 --> 05:58:24.639
you can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2104
05:58:28.560 --> 05:58:40.360
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me.

2105
05:58:47.520 --> 05:59:09.560
Enjoy feeling deeply right. And all we're gonna do is

2106
05:59:13.119 --> 05:59:29.599
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

2107
05:59:29.680 --> 05:59:40.080
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

2108
05:59:40.240 --> 05:59:50.680
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2109
05:59:51.720 --> 06:00:02.439
As I count down all the way down to one,

2110
06:00:03.599 --> 06:00:12.520
and each time I say a number, you can imagine

2111
06:00:12.520 --> 06:00:19.000
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2112
06:00:19.119 --> 06:00:38.599
to actually physically gently blow that candle out, just it's

2113
06:00:38.680 --> 06:00:54.400
not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish.

2114
06:00:54.840 --> 06:00:59.040
And then I'll say the next number as we move

2115
06:00:59.159 --> 06:01:09.200
down and you can just blow that one out as well.

2116
06:01:15.119 --> 06:01:23.680
And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

2117
06:01:24.759 --> 06:01:33.439
feeling more and more relaxed, and if you need to sleep,

2118
06:01:34.279 --> 06:01:46.479
you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2119
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you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2120
06:01:56.759 --> 06:02:15.200
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2121
06:02:21.840 --> 06:02:26.159
more and more.

2122
06:02:27.240 --> 06:02:45.040
Deeply tired, And the further you go down, the more your.

2123
06:02:44.959 --> 06:02:58.560
Mind starts to drift. You may find that you stop

2124
06:02:58.840 --> 06:03:12.000
listening to me after a while. And even though there

2125
06:03:12.040 --> 06:03:20.919
may be background sounds where you are, you'll be aware

2126
06:03:20.959 --> 06:03:26.400
of those sounds at the moment.

2127
06:03:31.319 --> 06:03:31.799
Be me.

2128
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Start to just not even notice them at all, because

2129
06:03:50.279 --> 06:04:03.840
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2130
06:04:03.919 --> 06:04:10.919
the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say

2131
06:04:10.959 --> 06:04:17.240
hello sometimes, and there's the odd plane that goes by,

2132
06:04:20.279 --> 06:04:33.680
maybe traffic and trains in the distance, but none of

2133
06:04:33.759 --> 06:04:47.880
that scens important whatsoever. More candles you blow out, the

2134
06:04:48.000 --> 06:04:51.520
less important anything.

2135
06:04:52.639 --> 06:04:52.799
Is.

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06:04:57.599 --> 06:05:09.080
More candles you blow out, the further seemed to move

2137
06:05:09.680 --> 06:05:29.240
away from sounds and from general date days. Stuff seems

2138
06:05:29.279 --> 06:05:43.439
to just move away on its own. You feel more

2139
06:05:45.959 --> 06:06:06.599
calma with every candle you blow out, guiding you to

2140
06:06:06.799 --> 06:06:19.880
the next number. Do you hear me say? And then

2141
06:06:19.959 --> 06:06:37.639
you blow that candle out to So easy, So simple.

2142
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We're gonna start by introducing the first candles, a hundred

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06:07:06.360 --> 06:07:21.240
fast candles one hundred. When you blow that candle out,

2144
06:07:28.000 --> 06:07:40.840
you'll find immediately a slight change in how you feel,

2145
06:07:45.880 --> 06:07:54.159
as well as the real sense of positivity growing within you,

2146
06:08:00.200 --> 06:08:30.240
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred blow out

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06:08:30.319 --> 06:09:32.639
back candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, can do

2148
06:09:36.159 --> 06:11:10.200
ninety seven, caen ninety six and ninety five, hand ninety

2149
06:11:10.639 --> 06:12:50.279
four can do ninety three and ninety two and ninety one,

2150
06:13:03.240 --> 06:14:48.560
can to ninety and eighty nine and eight eight and

2151
06:14:48.560 --> 06:18:53.799
eighty end eighty eight five anden haen and eighty two

2152
06:18:55.840 --> 06:21:17.040
and two one jen seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle

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06:21:21.639 --> 06:22:22.880
seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four,

2154
06:22:34.639 --> 06:23:22.479
candle seventy three, candle seventy two, Yeah, candle seventy one,

2155
06:23:39.639 --> 06:24:35.159
candle seventy one, candle seventy and do sixty nine candle

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06:24:39.119 --> 06:25:29.520
sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four,

2157
06:25:52.680 --> 06:26:47.759
candle sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one,

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06:27:10.439 --> 06:28:39.479
candle sixty and fifty nine, handle fifty eight, candle fifty seven,

2159
06:28:56.680 --> 06:30:25.000
candle fifty six, candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle

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06:30:27.479 --> 06:32:25.919
fifty three, handle fifty two fifty two ten to fifty two,

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06:32:26.959 --> 06:34:04.520
candle fifty one, candle fifty candle fourty nine, candle forty eight,

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06:34:41.880 --> 06:37:07.000
candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle forty five, forty two,

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06:37:07.959 --> 06:39:12.080
candle for you, handle forty candle thirty nine, can't do

2164
06:39:15.560 --> 06:40:36.360
thirty eight, I can't do thirty seven, ten, two thirty five,

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06:41:19.840 --> 06:43:25.200
yen two thirty four, handle thirty three, handle thirty one,

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06:43:26.080 --> 06:46:29.400
chandle thirty and twoin teen nine ten, twenty eight and

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06:46:34.000 --> 06:48:50.040
twenty seven, cando twenty six, candle twenty five and tif

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06:48:50.599 --> 06:50:48.439
four end twenty thre and twenty deep two and twenty

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06:50:48.400 --> 06:54:21.000
two one and to witi en and ninety candle seventeen sixteen,

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chancel four, ten to well four and eleven, y Yeah,

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06:59:29.599 --> 07:02:58.200
jame do nine two eight s six, can't do, can do.

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Four and doy.

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Seven two.

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Chen four.

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Like of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past,

2176
07:06:09.520 --> 07:06:14.000
thoughts about the future, and even things you've been thinking

2177
07:06:14.040 --> 07:06:21.639
about today, just let it all go because none of

2178
07:06:21.720 --> 07:06:31.560
it is useful in this moment. This is your opportunity

2179
07:06:36.200 --> 07:06:50.799
to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get

2180
07:06:50.840 --> 07:07:00.279
in touch with that natural sense of peace that we

2181
07:07:00.479 --> 07:07:07.200
all have within us. It's available for everyone. It just

2182
07:07:07.319 --> 07:07:12.439
sometimes takes a little bit of effort to set up

2183
07:07:12.560 --> 07:07:18.479
the right time and place in order for you to

2184
07:07:18.880 --> 07:07:27.759
just let go. Because when you do decide to let

2185
07:07:27.840 --> 07:07:33.040
go and relax, that's what your body starts to do

2186
07:07:36.319 --> 07:07:43.799
because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow your body

2187
07:07:44.240 --> 07:07:52.439
to unwind, and your mind starts to slow down. And

2188
07:07:52.560 --> 07:07:57.400
it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at the beginning,

2189
07:07:57.639 --> 07:08:06.360
just to know that you have chosen to decide to

2190
07:08:06.520 --> 07:08:14.279
relax deeply, and because you've made that decision, your body

2191
07:08:15.560 --> 07:08:21.520
will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the muscles in

2192
07:08:21.639 --> 07:08:27.400
your body need is just permission from you to relax.

2193
07:08:31.400 --> 07:08:36.200
Because so often we're busy, we're going from here to there,

2194
07:08:36.400 --> 07:08:42.159
we're walking around and we're doing stuff and the body

2195
07:08:42.200 --> 07:08:50.279
doesn't have any time or space to really relax deeply,

2196
07:08:53.720 --> 07:08:56.400
so it kind of waits for you to lead the way,

2197
07:08:58.520 --> 07:09:08.599
waits for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

2198
07:09:10.279 --> 07:09:12.799
when you give the say so we need say okay,

2199
07:09:14.119 --> 07:09:21.119
it's time for your body to let go completely and

2200
07:09:21.279 --> 07:09:32.720
relax totally, your body just follows. It's like a breath

2201
07:09:32.759 --> 07:09:41.880
of relief. Ah. Good, I can now relax. That feeling

2202
07:09:42.840 --> 07:09:45.720
at the end of a day, of a very physical

2203
07:09:45.919 --> 07:09:49.680
day that you may experience in the past, where you

2204
07:09:49.799 --> 07:09:52.560
get home and you just sit down on a chair,

2205
07:09:53.639 --> 07:09:57.479
maybe you kick your shoes off and not ah, feels

2206
07:09:57.840 --> 07:10:02.680
so nice knowing that you don't have to get up

2207
07:10:02.720 --> 07:10:07.599
again for a little while at least if you choose,

2208
07:10:07.759 --> 07:10:10.200
you can just sit there for maybe an hour to

2209
07:10:12.479 --> 07:10:23.560
It feels blissful. And just by sitting down like that,

2210
07:10:25.040 --> 07:10:30.040
your body knows that it's time to relax. Your body

2211
07:10:30.720 --> 07:10:36.279
has been given permission from you. Because it's a mindset.

2212
07:10:37.799 --> 07:10:46.520
In your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything

2213
07:10:48.959 --> 07:10:56.639
and just completely allow all the stress of your body

2214
07:10:57.479 --> 07:11:15.119
to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost

2215
07:11:15.400 --> 07:11:26.759
like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation in your

2216
07:11:26.840 --> 07:11:33.840
body is a very natural state. It's not something unusual.

2217
07:11:34.919 --> 07:11:38.159
It may feel unusual when you first start to relax,

2218
07:11:38.279 --> 07:11:42.360
if you if you haven't really spent a lot of

2219
07:11:42.520 --> 07:11:46.880
time focusing and giving yourself this space to let go

2220
07:11:47.560 --> 07:11:54.319
completely and relax, they seem are most alien, but it isn't.

2221
07:11:55.880 --> 07:12:01.759
It's actually the most natural thing in the world to

2222
07:12:01.959 --> 07:12:11.759
let go completely, to relax totally, the most natural thing

2223
07:12:12.080 --> 07:12:24.240
in the world to allow yourself to feel really calm

2224
07:12:24.680 --> 07:12:31.680
in your mind. And it is almost like a literal unwinding.

2225
07:12:35.360 --> 07:12:40.840
It's like you press a button and all the tension

2226
07:12:41.200 --> 07:12:47.000
just releases, and it's like a wheel, like a cog,

2227
07:12:48.000 --> 07:12:51.520
like the inside of the clock, just unwinding. And it's

2228
07:12:51.599 --> 07:12:56.560
almost like you could see the little wind up knob

2229
07:12:56.680 --> 07:13:01.680
that's used just going the opposite way that you choose

2230
07:13:01.840 --> 07:13:09.639
to wind it up, and the energy that premetic stress

2231
07:13:10.080 --> 07:13:20.080
for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength.

2232
07:13:22.560 --> 07:13:31.880
As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and.

2233
07:13:32.200 --> 07:13:32.799
You may.

2234
07:13:34.159 --> 07:13:41.080
Find a the more relaxed you feel, that your mind

2235
07:13:41.560 --> 07:13:50.840
starts to wonder, maybe just seem to stop listening to

2236
07:13:50.959 --> 07:13:56.880
me for a while. Your mind goes somewhere else, and

2237
07:13:57.000 --> 07:14:02.840
then you realize you're listening to me again, and that

2238
07:14:03.000 --> 07:14:09.319
was just your mind to drift in to sleep, which

2239
07:14:09.400 --> 07:14:19.279
is quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense,

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we're not mean I actually be aware of what we need,

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07:14:25.560 --> 07:14:34.000
what we physically or emotionally need in this moment. But

2242
07:14:34.200 --> 07:14:40.439
when you allow your body and mind to relax completely

2243
07:14:42.159 --> 07:14:49.400
and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2244
07:14:50.880 --> 07:14:55.439
all letting them go allow them to drop onto the floor.

2245
07:15:00.680 --> 07:15:06.720
When you start to get in touch with the feelings

2246
07:15:06.880 --> 07:15:18.560
of such relaxation, this feels so nice, to be in

2247
07:15:18.840 --> 07:15:25.560
touch with the calmness of the different body parts as

2248
07:15:25.720 --> 07:15:41.360
they become looser and looser. Even your breathing seems easier

2249
07:15:42.040 --> 07:15:51.439
and more natural, effortless, as that cool audenters through your

2250
07:15:51.599 --> 07:16:01.919
mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing in effoots and relaxation,

2251
07:16:04.560 --> 07:16:10.479
and then just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2252
07:16:10.680 --> 07:16:21.159
stress from every part of your body and mind. And

2253
07:16:21.279 --> 07:16:26.279
as you start to focus on your mind, maybe you

2254
07:16:26.599 --> 07:16:34.200
notice that things have come to a standstill or maybe

2255
07:16:34.639 --> 07:16:43.200
just much much lower than before, because your mind is

2256
07:16:43.360 --> 07:16:54.240
not really needed when listening to my voice, which allows

2257
07:16:54.319 --> 07:17:03.040
your mind to relax just as deeply as your And

2258
07:17:03.159 --> 07:17:14.959
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body and relaxation

2259
07:17:15.959 --> 07:17:27.759
of your mind. Let you know that feeling completely calm, loose,

2260
07:17:28.119 --> 07:17:42.360
and relaxed really is a great healing experience fear and

2261
07:17:42.599 --> 07:17:55.119
has so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and

2262
07:17:55.240 --> 07:18:04.159
your life. To be able to lack everything and to

2263
07:18:04.439 --> 07:18:14.520
relax completely in all parts of your body and mind.

2264
07:18:16.880 --> 07:18:25.479
Even your boness are axed, all your muscles are rexed,

2265
07:18:32.279 --> 07:18:46.639
even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2266
07:18:49.599 --> 07:18:50.159
That you have.

2267
07:18:51.919 --> 07:19:09.479
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2268
07:19:09.759 --> 07:19:11.840
feel the benefits.

2269
07:19:13.080 --> 07:19:13.439
Of this.

2270
07:19:15.040 --> 07:19:27.200
Healing relaxation. And then as you focus on the inside

2271
07:19:27.360 --> 07:19:32.599
of your scalp where your brain is, you can start

2272
07:19:33.159 --> 07:19:42.959
to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deeply.

2273
07:19:47.319 --> 07:19:57.400
And as your brain continues to relax sends those messages

2274
07:19:59.080 --> 07:20:04.919
to the the rest of your body and your mind

2275
07:20:06.840 --> 07:20:29.639
to re relax even more deeply, relaxy more completely, letting

2276
07:20:29.880 --> 07:20:41.599
go of any remaining forces or consers, allow them just

2277
07:20:41.840 --> 07:20:48.400
to drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary.

2278
07:20:49.680 --> 07:21:04.639
In this moment, in this moment of deep relaxation and calmness, filling.

2279
07:21:06.840 --> 07:21:07.759
Your brain.

2280
07:21:09.439 --> 07:21:32.560
With deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part of your brain,

2281
07:21:37.040 --> 07:21:57.000
feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and peaceful. Your

2282
07:21:57.159 --> 07:21:59.639
brain feels.

2283
07:22:00.840 --> 07:22:01.680
So light.

2284
07:22:03.680 --> 07:22:12.479
And so healthy in that sense of deep deep comfort.

2285
07:22:14.880 --> 07:22:28.919
Really does allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations

2286
07:22:29.200 --> 07:22:43.599
of comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each

2287
07:22:45.240 --> 07:22:58.520
and every muscle of your body, e deeper and deeper,

2288
07:23:01.639 --> 07:23:19.279
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

2289
07:23:20.680 --> 07:23:21.319
your body.

2290
07:23:21.840 --> 07:23:25.799
In your mind, be.

2291
07:23:27.520 --> 07:23:44.680
So peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery

2292
07:23:45.240 --> 07:23:59.560
part of your body, letting go of a everything averything.

2293
07:24:00.040 --> 07:24:19.959
Mm hmm, so peaceful, cam so relax. With every second

2294
07:24:20.720 --> 07:24:22.279
the passes.

2295
07:24:24.720 --> 07:24:25.680
You feel.

2296
07:24:27.680 --> 07:24:46.639
Dper dper relax dper and deeper relax.

2297
07:24:49.040 --> 07:24:53.439
Come so calm.

2298
07:24:57.200 --> 07:25:10.000
Peace, for so very peace from your head down to

2299
07:25:10.159 --> 07:25:23.279
your toes. Such peace and comfort growing all all the time,

2300
07:25:26.159 --> 07:25:37.279
Such peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind,

2301
07:25:39.799 --> 07:25:56.159
deep and deeper, Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into

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07:25:56.520 --> 07:26:11.720
a muscle your body. So you feel amazing, so relaxed,

2303
07:26:15.200 --> 07:26:32.080
so peaceful. Sola and peaceful, letting go.

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07:26:36.000 --> 07:26:36.919
Everything.

2305
07:26:41.159 --> 07:26:47.720
I'm gonna do a body scan, focusing on firstly how

2306
07:26:47.840 --> 07:26:53.119
you feel in your body, not trying to change how

2307
07:26:53.200 --> 07:26:59.000
you feel, not trying to relax, not trying to move

2308
07:26:59.080 --> 07:27:05.959
away from it, discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting,

2309
07:27:07.520 --> 07:27:12.599
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2310
07:27:12.680 --> 07:27:19.319
of your body, just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2311
07:27:19.400 --> 07:27:30.880
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

2312
07:27:30.959 --> 07:27:37.919
you actually feel in this moment. So I'm going to

2313
07:27:38.040 --> 07:27:49.360
start off by focusing on your hands. Just be aware

2314
07:27:49.400 --> 07:27:57.840
of your hands. I'd like you to move your hands around.

2315
07:27:59.279 --> 07:28:04.639
Just maybe you move your fingers a little bit. I've

2316
07:28:04.720 --> 07:28:10.680
been and closing your hands very gently, just so that

2317
07:28:10.959 --> 07:28:18.680
you can get in touch with how your hands and

2318
07:28:18.880 --> 07:28:39.880
your fingers feel, very very slow movements. Focusing now on

2319
07:28:40.040 --> 07:28:47.119
your feet, and if you can just do kind of

2320
07:28:47.159 --> 07:28:52.080
an equivalent with your feet is you've just done with

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07:28:52.279 --> 07:29:00.880
your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles, moving your feet around,

2322
07:29:02.880 --> 07:29:13.319
moving your toes gently but only very gently and very slowly,

2323
07:29:16.279 --> 07:29:31.720
noticing how your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now

2324
07:29:31.919 --> 07:29:38.959
and your eyes, and I like you to just focus

2325
07:29:39.080 --> 07:29:44.560
on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close your

2326
07:29:44.639 --> 07:29:49.119
eyes a couple of times to really get in touch

2327
07:29:49.520 --> 07:29:52.919
with how you feel when you do close your eyes.

2328
07:29:55.080 --> 07:30:01.479
The muscle changes in your eye when you do close them,

2329
07:30:04.360 --> 07:30:10.720
maybe raising your eyebrows, it stretches the tops of your eyes,

2330
07:30:13.959 --> 07:30:22.360
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so

2331
07:30:22.520 --> 07:30:30.919
you can hear it again, touch with all aspects of

2332
07:30:32.119 --> 07:30:50.279
how your eyes feel. Right now, now, focus in on

2333
07:30:50.439 --> 07:30:56.840
your thighs, and it just starts you to gently tense

2334
07:30:57.080 --> 07:31:07.000
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2335
07:31:07.159 --> 07:31:20.799
can become more attuned to the physical sensation of your

2336
07:31:20.919 --> 07:31:26.319
upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the backs

2337
07:31:26.400 --> 07:31:40.680
of your thighs, noticing and observing how your thighs fear.

2338
07:31:42.000 --> 07:31:54.959
Right now, moving your focus to the back of your neck,

2339
07:31:58.680 --> 07:32:05.479
just noticing back of your neck, the muscles, and of

2340
07:32:05.599 --> 07:32:10.000
course they lead to the side of your neck. They

2341
07:32:10.040 --> 07:32:15.319
also lead to the top of your back, which lead

2342
07:32:15.439 --> 07:32:20.959
to your shoulders. So as your focus on the back

2343
07:32:21.040 --> 07:32:27.639
of your neck, maybe you can move your head gently

2344
07:32:28.080 --> 07:32:35.279
upwards as if you're looking up, Maybe moving your head

2345
07:32:35.439 --> 07:32:42.840
down as if you were looking down. Perhaps moving your

2346
07:32:42.919 --> 07:32:52.880
head side to side, right to left, only very slowly

2347
07:32:54.759 --> 07:33:03.279
and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything. It

2348
07:33:03.439 --> 07:33:12.720
has to be very very gentle, just so you can

2349
07:33:14.439 --> 07:33:26.040
be more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations,

2350
07:33:26.240 --> 07:33:33.400
the physical sensations of how the back of your neck

2351
07:33:34.959 --> 07:33:52.439
feels right now, as we now focus on the tops

2352
07:33:52.560 --> 07:33:58.159
of your arms, the parts where your biceps and your

2353
07:33:58.279 --> 07:34:06.639
triceps are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus

2354
07:34:07.080 --> 07:34:13.360
on those parts, the tops of your arms, you may

2355
07:34:14.520 --> 07:34:24.200
like to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly.

2356
07:34:26.759 --> 07:34:33.959
See you're not straining or put in any pressure whatsoever

2357
07:34:35.680 --> 07:34:41.680
on your arms. It's just so that you can.

2358
07:34:44.159 --> 07:34:45.959
Gain more of the.

2359
07:34:46.240 --> 07:34:57.360
Sense of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

2360
07:35:00.400 --> 07:35:11.119
and just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly

2361
07:35:12.880 --> 07:35:23.840
tighten the muscles and then let go. Notice how the

2362
07:35:24.040 --> 07:35:38.799
tops of your arms feel right now. As in now

2363
07:35:39.479 --> 07:35:49.720
focus on your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area

2364
07:35:50.400 --> 07:35:58.799
below your belly button, moving all the way down to

2365
07:35:58.919 --> 07:36:08.919
your hips, just a part of your grind. Maybe you're

2366
07:36:08.959 --> 07:36:18.759
able to tense these muscles in the area very very

2367
07:36:18.959 --> 07:36:31.880
gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do,

2368
07:36:33.319 --> 07:36:42.319
maybe you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

2369
07:36:44.040 --> 07:36:47.880
maybe moving a little bit to the side, using your hips,

2370
07:36:50.040 --> 07:36:58.200
just so you can get more in tune with how

2371
07:36:58.400 --> 07:37:07.400
you're lower abdomen area is feeling.

2372
07:37:09.840 --> 07:37:10.759
In this moment.

2373
07:37:17.360 --> 07:37:39.919
Just noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as

2374
07:37:39.959 --> 07:37:52.919
you move your attention to your mouth, notice in your

2375
07:37:53.119 --> 07:38:04.040
lips and inside your mouth, the tear, your guns, your tongue.

2376
07:38:13.599 --> 07:38:22.240
Just noticing how your tongue in your mouth feels. It

2377
07:38:22.400 --> 07:38:31.400
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2378
07:38:31.479 --> 07:38:38.880
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2379
07:38:39.159 --> 07:38:45.319
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2380
07:38:45.840 --> 07:38:52.520
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2381
07:38:52.639 --> 07:39:00.639
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2382
07:39:00.759 --> 07:39:11.240
the bottom of your mouth. Aways very slowly, in a

2383
07:39:11.799 --> 07:39:31.240
very very gentle so that you can be aware of

2384
07:39:31.479 --> 07:39:53.680
how you feel in your mouth area. Now I'm going

2385
07:39:53.840 --> 07:40:10.119
to focus on your wrists. I'm gonna ask you to

2386
07:40:10.360 --> 07:40:20.279
maybe just rotate your wrists by moving your hands in

2387
07:40:20.400 --> 07:40:33.919
a circular motion very gently and slowly, just so you

2388
07:40:34.119 --> 07:40:55.240
can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in

2389
07:40:58.279 --> 07:41:11.799
your rests. Perhaps smooth in your hands up and down again,

2390
07:41:13.080 --> 07:41:38.720
very very gently and slowly, very gent sol and slow.

2391
07:41:52.159 --> 07:42:08.560
As we now start to observe your lower back. The

2392
07:42:08.880 --> 07:42:19.680
bad part is just above your hips where your coxis

2393
07:42:19.799 --> 07:42:32.799
are a whole area which also really does include the

2394
07:42:33.159 --> 07:42:39.319
side of your body because those muscles are very much

2395
07:42:39.520 --> 07:42:50.799
connected as those muscles also move into your hip aia

2396
07:42:51.799 --> 07:43:07.159
connecting to your buttocks the sides of your hips, and

2397
07:43:07.319 --> 07:43:15.759
if you're physically able to do so, maybe you can

2398
07:43:16.720 --> 07:43:33.279
very gently just nevebody ever so slightly, very slowly some side,

2399
07:43:33.479 --> 07:43:53.799
decide just enough to gauge how you feel in your

2400
07:43:53.959 --> 07:44:09.639
lower back. Perhaps it could even move your hips gently

2401
07:44:11.959 --> 07:44:28.119
up and down gently, slowly in order to be in

2402
07:44:28.439 --> 07:44:54.680
touch with the physical sensations of your law back. As

2403
07:44:54.759 --> 07:44:56.080
we now move.

2404
07:45:00.560 --> 07:45:02.000
Your attention.

2405
07:45:05.439 --> 07:45:13.159
To your jaw, that area from your chin all the

2406
07:45:13.200 --> 07:45:21.080
way up to near where your ears are. All of

2407
07:45:21.200 --> 07:45:36.439
your jaw, you can, just if it's okay to do so,

2408
07:45:38.400 --> 07:45:48.880
gently open your mouth, not wide, no stretching, just very

2409
07:45:49.639 --> 07:46:02.279
gently and slowly opening your mouth in closing your mouth

2410
07:46:04.439 --> 07:46:23.520
lury gently and slowly, so you can be in touch

2411
07:46:30.319 --> 07:47:04.119
with how your jaw feels. Now, I just sit now

2412
07:47:07.040 --> 07:47:19.880
the chest area, and you don't need to do anything

2413
07:47:21.840 --> 07:47:28.720
to move your chest because it moves every time you breathe.

2414
07:47:33.840 --> 07:47:46.959
And it moves very gently and slowly automatically with each

2415
07:47:47.560 --> 07:48:02.560
breath you takee as you focus on how your chest

2416
07:48:07.759 --> 07:48:48.479
feels when you pray. Both in your focus two forms

2417
07:48:51.080 --> 07:49:10.080
your elbows. Maybe you're able very gently and slowly tense

2418
07:49:10.439 --> 07:49:18.240
the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2419
07:49:18.720 --> 07:49:42.279
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly,

2420
07:49:50.759 --> 07:50:22.159
gently and softly up saving your forearms and delpos Now

2421
07:50:31.000 --> 07:50:45.119
focus of the rest of your back, your upper back

2422
07:50:49.599 --> 07:51:07.040
in the middle, the middle of your back again, this

2423
07:51:07.720 --> 07:51:17.759
part of your body. News Also every time you pray.

2424
07:51:22.799 --> 07:51:36.400
You may not notice that. Usually as you observe your

2425
07:51:36.560 --> 07:51:43.759
upper back in the middle of your back, you can

2426
07:51:44.040 --> 07:51:50.799
really feel that gentle.

2427
07:51:56.040 --> 07:51:58.319
And slow.

2428
07:52:02.880 --> 07:52:40.720
Movement. Moving your focus.

2429
07:52:42.240 --> 07:52:42.959
Into your.

2430
07:52:44.439 --> 07:53:01.040
Area, the buttee, the grain, there's muscles, those bones, your midsection.

2431
07:53:28.680 --> 07:53:48.599
Just noticing how your hips feel. Right now, you can

2432
07:53:51.200 --> 07:54:04.840
very very gently move your hips, maybe side to side,

2433
07:54:06.200 --> 07:54:51.360
harry gently and sunlight y harry gently, softly and slowly.

2434
07:54:56.759 --> 07:55:13.520
Everything start to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2435
07:55:13.639 --> 07:55:25.400
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2436
07:55:25.520 --> 07:55:31.959
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2437
07:55:33.279 --> 07:55:42.040
It's almost like time is storing chin. It's a slower

2438
07:55:42.200 --> 07:55:50.080
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2439
07:55:50.159 --> 07:56:12.159
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2440
07:56:16.560 --> 07:56:25.000
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2441
07:56:25.040 --> 07:56:32.799
always the case. Now, when you move your hand, it

2442
07:56:32.919 --> 07:56:35.680
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2443
07:56:36.479 --> 07:56:43.880
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2444
07:56:48.840 --> 07:57:01.200
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2445
07:57:01.439 --> 07:57:22.319
move from that big movement into those smaller movements. Starting

2446
07:57:22.479 --> 07:57:33.279
to focus on how your body feels, not just as

2447
07:57:33.319 --> 07:57:37.639
a whole, not just oh, i'm feel in this way.

2448
07:57:37.720 --> 07:57:43.840
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

2449
07:57:45.119 --> 07:57:51.759
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2450
07:57:52.000 --> 07:58:03.200
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2451
07:58:04.319 --> 07:58:20.680
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

2452
07:58:23.439 --> 07:58:36.639
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

2453
07:58:36.759 --> 07:58:46.279
them or to judge them those feelings, just thinking them,

2454
07:58:47.159 --> 07:59:00.200
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

2455
07:59:00.400 --> 07:59:11.479
being particularly concerned, but just noticing what your body is

2456
07:59:11.599 --> 07:59:25.319
telling you, the feelings in your arms, instead of feeling

2457
07:59:25.439 --> 07:59:34.119
the whole of the arm. Maybe notice those individual feelings,

2458
07:59:35.599 --> 07:59:47.040
all those different muscles and the skin, the hairs of

2459
07:59:47.159 --> 07:59:52.919
your arms, all the internal parts of your arms, the veins,

2460
08:00:03.080 --> 08:00:12.200
the bones, just being aware of maybe your elbow on

2461
08:00:12.360 --> 08:00:20.680
your right arm has a certain feeling. Maybe your left

2462
08:00:20.799 --> 08:00:46.319
wrist also has its own individual physical sensation. What about your.

2463
08:00:46.319 --> 08:01:00.159
Forearm on your right arm, your right forearm, I not

2464
08:01:00.319 --> 08:01:00.880
be any.

2465
08:01:01.240 --> 08:01:08.479
Particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2466
08:01:12.240 --> 08:01:16.560
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2467
08:01:17.479 --> 08:01:29.560
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2468
08:01:29.639 --> 08:01:33.400
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2469
08:01:33.560 --> 08:01:40.279
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

2470
08:01:40.400 --> 08:01:45.040
like both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of

2471
08:01:45.200 --> 08:01:56.400
course they're not. And when you focus on your left

2472
08:01:56.479 --> 08:02:04.840
shoulder and then your right shoulder, maybe find that you

2473
08:02:06.200 --> 08:02:11.279
move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently,

2474
08:02:16.880 --> 08:02:49.240
noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your lower back, the

2475
08:02:49.400 --> 08:02:53.520
left side of your lower back and the right side

2476
08:02:53.680 --> 08:02:54.720
of your lower back.

2477
08:02:59.599 --> 08:02:59.919
M m.

2478
08:03:02.479 --> 08:03:07.759
Of course that connection to your buttocks and to your hips,

2479
08:03:15.240 --> 08:03:18.840
and also moving up into the middle of your back,

2480
08:03:28.720 --> 08:03:32.919
and sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on

2481
08:03:33.040 --> 08:03:38.639
their part, when I focused on my buttocks, and then

2482
08:03:38.680 --> 08:03:42.959
I focused on the middle of my back. I almost

2483
08:03:43.040 --> 08:03:45.759
felt like the muscles in my lower back were being

2484
08:03:46.119 --> 08:03:57.560
stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit. Even though

2485
08:03:57.639 --> 08:04:06.680
I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your lower back,

2486
08:04:07.080 --> 08:04:15.279
it just seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently

2487
08:04:16.759 --> 08:04:38.200
stretching your lower back comes along. I have feeling in

2488
08:04:38.319 --> 08:04:59.200
your chest, just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in

2489
08:04:59.360 --> 08:05:16.439
your chest right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2490
08:05:16.520 --> 08:05:20.159
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2491
08:05:20.200 --> 08:05:28.799
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2492
08:05:31.599 --> 08:05:37.680
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2493
08:05:37.720 --> 08:05:45.840
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2494
08:05:46.000 --> 08:05:47.040
different these days.

2495
08:05:46.840 --> 08:05:46.919
But.

2496
08:05:49.080 --> 08:05:54.479
There may be more muscles at the top of the chest,

2497
08:05:57.840 --> 08:06:02.119
but at the side underneath it's pretty much the same.

2498
08:06:02.919 --> 08:06:05.959
Whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

2499
08:06:07.319 --> 08:06:12.439
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

2500
08:06:12.560 --> 08:06:20.919
breast tissue. It stretches and moves into your back. To

2501
08:06:21.119 --> 08:06:40.479
just being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling

2502
08:06:40.680 --> 08:07:01.000
there is in your chest. When I noticed I focus

2503
08:07:01.119 --> 08:07:08.799
on my chest, I feel it in my back and

2504
08:07:08.919 --> 08:07:13.000
my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious reason

2505
08:07:13.040 --> 08:07:23.159
would be because you know, I'll breathe in in then

2506
08:07:23.240 --> 08:07:26.799
it stretches my chest and my back at the same time.

2507
08:07:34.720 --> 08:07:49.919
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel I got

2508
08:07:49.959 --> 08:07:56.240
a little bit of pain in my right chest, A

2509
08:07:56.279 --> 08:08:02.400
little bit, not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly,

2510
08:08:02.959 --> 08:08:11.840
I don't know. I noticed my shoulders are also wanting

2511
08:08:12.000 --> 08:08:19.000
to flex for some reason. I think that's probably part

2512
08:08:19.040 --> 08:08:27.479
of my upper back, that connection between my shoulders and

2513
08:08:27.560 --> 08:08:31.680
my upper back, because I can move my shoulders and

2514
08:08:32.799 --> 08:08:39.439
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

2515
08:08:40.439 --> 08:08:45.959
or up, which then moves I think it's the scapulous

2516
08:08:48.599 --> 08:09:06.319
in your back. It feels quite I Actually a good

2517
08:09:06.360 --> 08:09:09.680
thing about this is you can, if you want to,

2518
08:09:10.400 --> 08:09:25.319
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

2519
08:09:25.439 --> 08:09:31.159
your body gently in order to get more of a

2520
08:09:31.360 --> 08:09:46.240
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing. When

2521
08:09:46.279 --> 08:09:50.319
you do tense and muscle and you let it go

2522
08:09:50.680 --> 08:09:57.680
and you let it relax, it relaxes way more.

2523
08:09:59.319 --> 08:10:00.479
Then it would not money.

2524
08:10:05.200 --> 08:10:10.439
That you have to feel that you're able to do that.

2525
08:10:12.080 --> 08:10:17.799
There's no point doing it if there's an issue with

2526
08:10:17.959 --> 08:10:23.360
the per part of your body. You need to be

2527
08:10:24.000 --> 08:10:36.919
gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply. It's

2528
08:10:37.000 --> 08:10:52.759
important to be kind to yourself as you notice your mind.

2529
08:10:57.119 --> 08:11:04.119
How much is your minds low down since we started

2530
08:11:05.520 --> 08:11:31.040
this recording, How came and peaceful is your mind right now?

2531
08:11:37.959 --> 08:11:43.279
We have nothing to think about and just my voice

2532
08:11:43.520 --> 08:11:53.400
to listen to, because you know, the intention behind this

2533
08:11:53.720 --> 08:12:03.439
recording is relaxation that they released for you to feel

2534
08:12:03.720 --> 08:12:08.119
more relaxed at the end of the recording than you

2535
08:12:08.360 --> 08:12:20.240
did at the beginning, at the very least, for your

2536
08:12:20.439 --> 08:12:31.720
mind to slow down because your body continues to relax,

2537
08:12:37.159 --> 08:12:38.479
because that's.

2538
08:12:38.560 --> 08:12:39.119
What you.

2539
08:12:40.720 --> 08:13:00.560
Want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for

2540
08:13:00.759 --> 08:13:19.000
relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind

2541
08:13:20.479 --> 08:13:27.959
to the point of boredom when you start maybe to

2542
08:13:33.599 --> 08:14:15.360
drift away. Drifting it's almost as if you're moving further

2543
08:14:15.560 --> 08:14:23.799
away from your body in your mind, just leaving that there.

2544
08:14:31.759 --> 08:14:36.040
Kind of liking it. An escape pod and the spaceship

2545
08:14:36.439 --> 08:14:39.840
a movie, a space movie. You know when to get

2546
08:14:39.840 --> 08:14:45.840
into that little part in it. Since the man far

2547
08:14:46.080 --> 08:15:15.080
away from the spaceship safe to dream, continue to relax,

2548
08:15:35.319 --> 08:17:03.319
drifting so slow, empy so so copy so, and focusing

2549
08:17:03.720 --> 08:17:18.599
on the feeling of those individual parts your body that

2550
08:17:21.759 --> 08:17:40.840
are relaxing one by one. You may find that every

2551
08:17:40.959 --> 08:17:52.000
now and then you realize that you aren't listening to

2552
08:17:52.159 --> 08:18:02.279
my voice because your mind started to imagine something different,

2553
08:18:03.680 --> 08:18:14.040
maybe started to almost move into some kind of a

2554
08:18:14.400 --> 08:18:23.279
dreamy state, And then you become aware of my voice again.

2555
08:18:26.880 --> 08:18:33.439
And even though you may want to focus on my voice,

2556
08:18:34.159 --> 08:18:41.560
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

2557
08:18:41.919 --> 08:19:01.799
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

2558
08:19:01.880 --> 08:19:19.360
you feel more comfort spreading through your body like a

2559
08:19:19.560 --> 08:19:33.959
warm blanket covering you gently, keeping your body at just

2560
08:19:36.680 --> 08:19:54.119
the perfect temperature. And even if you can hear background sounds,

2561
08:19:59.639 --> 08:20:15.240
they don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense peace

2562
08:20:17.759 --> 08:20:32.279
spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, Yes, strong

2563
08:20:32.439 --> 08:20:48.439
enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove

2564
08:20:48.959 --> 08:20:58.959
from your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2565
08:21:07.319 --> 08:21:16.240
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2566
08:21:18.040 --> 08:21:42.439
don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your

2567
08:21:42.520 --> 08:22:05.400
body end your mind unless you focus on your mind

2568
08:22:07.560 --> 08:22:12.880
and count down from ten down to one, And with

2569
08:22:13.240 --> 08:22:39.159
each number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2570
08:22:41.919 --> 08:22:50.240
just just slightly so from ten down to nine, just

2571
08:22:50.400 --> 08:22:57.680
a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just another

2572
08:23:00.080 --> 08:23:14.360
all change in how you feel. Eight down to seven,

2573
08:23:17.119 --> 08:23:22.520
that feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2574
08:23:22.880 --> 08:23:32.560
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2575
08:23:32.759 --> 08:23:39.680
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2576
08:23:39.840 --> 08:23:47.360
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2577
08:23:47.639 --> 08:23:59.319
security and confidence. And that gap becomes wider eight down

2578
08:23:59.400 --> 08:24:06.040
to seven, and seven down to six. And when you

2579
08:24:06.080 --> 08:24:12.439
get to five, your mind will start to have a

2580
08:24:12.919 --> 08:24:26.080
certain physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of

2581
08:24:26.200 --> 08:24:32.400
your head sucking the tension and the stress and any

2582
08:24:32.479 --> 08:24:40.040
remaining feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through

2583
08:24:40.119 --> 08:24:50.680
your skull. And in down to four you can start

2584
08:24:50.840 --> 08:24:59.799
to really experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space,

2585
08:25:05.200 --> 08:25:14.159
a place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2586
08:25:17.639 --> 08:25:20.279
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2587
08:25:21.080 --> 08:25:29.919
and three, your mind is expanding with this sense of

2588
08:25:30.599 --> 08:25:42.880
peace and tranquility growing it moves down to when you

2589
08:25:43.000 --> 08:25:52.400
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2590
08:25:52.759 --> 08:26:12.840
want to feel almost a perfect feeling, maybe the sensation that.

2591
08:26:14.439 --> 08:26:15.840
You'd like to keep.

2592
08:26:18.880 --> 08:26:29.720
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

2593
08:26:41.400 --> 08:26:46.159
and you can stay in that that space of conform

2594
08:26:46.240 --> 08:26:55.959
and confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

2595
08:26:56.880 --> 08:27:02.880
space and this feeling of comfort within your own mind

2596
08:27:04.439 --> 08:27:14.080
just by counting from ten down to one. And this

2597
08:27:14.319 --> 08:27:18.680
is something that you can do yourself when you're on

2598
08:27:18.799 --> 08:27:26.520
your own, the time when you can maybe sit down,

2599
08:27:27.520 --> 08:27:38.400
maybe just for a few minutes, close your eyes, just

2600
08:27:38.720 --> 08:27:51.240
count slowly from ten down to one and re experience

2601
08:27:53.000 --> 08:28:03.319
these feelings in your mind. And when you feel that

2602
08:28:03.520 --> 08:28:18.639
way in your mind, your body copies your mind, and

2603
08:28:18.799 --> 08:28:25.119
the feeling is spread through your spine and your nervous

2604
08:28:25.240 --> 08:28:33.680
system into every part of your body, travels through your bloodstream,

2605
08:28:39.240 --> 08:28:46.759
heathing and relaxing every particle of your existence.

2606
08:28:59.639 --> 08:28:59.959
We can.

2607
08:29:01.439 --> 08:29:09.840
Practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

2608
08:29:10.479 --> 08:29:16.360
and then you can practice on your own. But each

2609
08:29:16.639 --> 08:29:29.799
time you count for ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2610
08:29:31.040 --> 08:29:50.119
deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, filling your mind

2611
08:29:50.479 --> 08:29:59.680
and your brain with these positive chemicals. The spread throughout

2612
08:29:59.759 --> 08:30:09.599
your body, relaxing you so quickly relaxing your whole body

2613
08:30:09.840 --> 08:30:23.040
and mind, so very very easily, just by counting from

2614
08:30:23.240 --> 08:30:27.159
ten down to one.

2615
08:30:32.159 --> 08:30:33.000
That's what we're going to do.

2616
08:30:33.400 --> 08:30:33.560
Now.

2617
08:30:34.439 --> 08:30:38.360
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2618
08:30:38.560 --> 08:30:42.880
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2619
08:30:42.919 --> 08:30:51.479
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2620
08:30:57.119 --> 08:31:06.959
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your mind,

2621
08:31:07.279 --> 08:31:16.400
in your body. Then when I say nine, you can

2622
08:31:16.439 --> 08:31:32.959
repeat to yourself nine again, noticing the increase in comfort

2623
08:31:33.360 --> 08:31:46.240
and calmness in your mind and in your body. The

2624
08:31:46.400 --> 08:31:55.639
same when I say eight, when I say seven, six,

2625
08:31:58.200 --> 08:32:12.520
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2626
08:32:16.919 --> 08:32:22.200
and lastly want to say one, you can be that

2627
08:32:22.720 --> 08:32:34.200
number now. Of course, when you do this on your

2628
08:32:34.279 --> 08:32:40.759
own without listening to me, you can say the numbers

2629
08:32:40.959 --> 08:32:49.560
or whatever speed that you feel is necessary for you,

2630
08:32:51.319 --> 08:32:56.360
so you can adapt. So you feel you want to

2631
08:32:57.279 --> 08:33:03.479
say the numbers ten down to all faster than I do,

2632
08:33:05.240 --> 08:33:07.759
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

2633
08:33:08.000 --> 08:33:12.000
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2634
08:33:12.200 --> 08:33:20.560
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

2635
08:33:20.639 --> 08:33:27.479
lot longer to get from ten all the way down

2636
08:33:28.119 --> 08:33:45.080
to one, that's your choice also to do so I'm

2637
08:33:45.119 --> 08:33:46.759
going to count from ten.

2638
08:33:46.759 --> 08:33:55.759
Down to one, and when I get to one, that.

2639
08:33:55.880 --> 08:34:01.840
Will be the end of this recording. The musicals are

2640
08:34:01.919 --> 08:34:26.520
listening to music, and the music will continue ten nine

2641
08:34:51.560 --> 08:39:21.080
eight Foy twenty ninety eighty seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

2642
08:39:25.799 --> 08:40:11.040
twelve eleven, ten nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three

2643
08:40:16.080 --> 08:40:39.639
two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically

2644
08:40:39.720 --> 08:40:48.759
feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress

2645
08:40:48.880 --> 08:40:52.759
and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toes.

2646
08:40:54.279 --> 08:40:59.000
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

2647
08:40:59.000 --> 08:41:05.799
a little bit, which is I suppose quite an understanding

2648
08:41:05.919 --> 08:41:11.040
considering attention has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2649
08:41:17.520 --> 08:41:19.479
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2650
08:41:19.599 --> 08:41:26.840
one again. This time you got to feel relief of

2651
08:41:27.000 --> 08:41:32.680
tension and stress in the anxiety that you may have

2652
08:41:37.360 --> 08:41:45.759
leaving through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost

2653
08:41:45.799 --> 08:41:51.560
as if it's just releasing the whole of your stomach

2654
08:41:52.360 --> 08:41:57.240
to enable to just above your chest or below your chest,

2655
08:41:57.360 --> 08:42:01.520
rather so surrounding your bed by an area, the whole

2656
08:42:01.639 --> 08:42:08.000
area you can feel the tension of your body where

2657
08:42:08.040 --> 08:42:13.520
there's left just releasing from the area, and you may

2658
08:42:13.639 --> 08:42:18.639
notice that your stomach will become very relaxed as I

2659
08:42:18.880 --> 08:42:55.000
countdown from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen,

2660
08:42:59.479 --> 08:43:49.400
bought thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

2661
08:43:53.639 --> 08:43:59.240
Two what.

2662
08:44:04.119 --> 08:44:06.319
And you can open your eyes again if you choose,

2663
08:44:06.880 --> 08:44:10.520
or you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2664
08:44:12.840 --> 08:44:17.959
Just notice how your stomach fels. I notice as your focus,

2665
08:44:18.200 --> 08:44:23.439
just do a little scan of your body. Just notice

2666
08:44:23.479 --> 08:44:36.560
how your body feels, focusing on your upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2667
08:44:39.599 --> 08:44:46.520
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2668
08:44:49.040 --> 08:44:52.799
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2669
08:44:52.919 --> 08:44:58.959
reason you're listening to this recording, because you would like

2670
08:44:59.200 --> 08:45:08.639
to let go completely of everything and dreapt off into

2671
08:45:08.759 --> 08:45:23.759
a nice, natural, calm, relaxing sleep. So now we're going

2672
08:45:23.799 --> 08:45:33.279
to focus on your forehead, and if you choose, you

2673
08:45:33.360 --> 08:45:38.439
can incorporate your eyes in this focus as well. Your

2674
08:45:38.520 --> 08:45:39.840
forehead and your eyes.

2675
08:45:41.919 --> 08:45:43.360
It's that whole area.

2676
08:45:43.279 --> 08:45:47.639
Basically almost as if you were wearing a mask, you know,

2677
08:45:47.840 --> 08:45:52.200
like a I don't know, a batman mask or something,

2678
08:45:53.119 --> 08:45:57.840
or I'm trying to fa zorro or something, you know,

2679
08:45:57.919 --> 08:46:00.680
the kind of mask that covers your eyes but also

2680
08:46:00.840 --> 08:46:06.840
covers quite a lot of the forehead. We're focusing on

2681
08:46:06.959 --> 08:46:09.680
that area because that's the area that we're now going

2682
08:46:09.799 --> 08:46:16.279
to release tension and stress from your mind and your brain,

2683
08:46:16.560 --> 08:46:20.119
from your mind, and any tension that you may have

2684
08:46:20.439 --> 08:46:26.479
remaining your face, in your neck and your jaw, your eyes,

2685
08:46:27.240 --> 08:46:33.080
and your forehead or your scalp. So basically any tension

2686
08:46:33.759 --> 08:46:38.599
within your head area, including your mind and your brain,

2687
08:46:42.400 --> 08:46:46.439
and that's going to be released through your forehead and

2688
08:46:46.520 --> 08:46:54.319
your eyes. As I count down again from twenty down

2689
08:46:54.400 --> 08:48:03.279
to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight,

2690
08:48:08.119 --> 08:48:50.319
seven six five W three what medicine. And she scanned

2691
08:48:50.520 --> 08:49:00.759
her face with jaw, your eyes, the cheapens, your ears, forehead,

2692
08:49:01.720 --> 08:49:07.279
your scalp, your neck, the back of your neck, in

2693
08:49:07.400 --> 08:49:10.799
the front of your neck, the side of your neck,

2694
08:49:11.000 --> 08:49:11.759
and the throat.

2695
08:49:14.319 --> 08:49:14.880
Mm hmmm.

2696
08:49:18.040 --> 08:49:29.119
Noticing being aware of the comfort, increased feeling that relaxation

2697
08:49:31.240 --> 08:49:36.159
not just in your head and neck and mind, also

2698
08:49:36.639 --> 08:49:46.119
the rest of your body. Just notice how loose and

2699
08:49:46.439 --> 08:49:50.119
calm you feel, and how easily.

2700
08:49:51.840 --> 08:49:53.360
It is to just let go.

2701
08:49:56.200 --> 08:50:22.479
Completely completely, how easily so I'm gonna do vows. I

2702
08:50:22.479 --> 08:50:30.200
wanted to focus on the top of your head, and

2703
08:50:30.240 --> 08:50:37.439
am we going to allow every last piece of tension

2704
08:50:38.560 --> 08:50:43.599
or stress that mind be lingering or hiding in your

2705
08:50:43.680 --> 08:50:47.200
body or mind or head.

2706
08:50:48.560 --> 08:50:48.919
To just.

2707
08:50:50.680 --> 08:50:53.560
Be sucked out at the top.

2708
08:50:53.360 --> 08:51:03.040
Of your head at least into Yeah, I want.

2709
08:51:03.000 --> 08:51:09.319
Sucked down into the clouds. Imagine a bit cloud above

2710
08:51:09.360 --> 08:51:15.639
your Head's like a whirlpool, and this is can suck that.

2711
08:51:16.040 --> 08:51:22.599
Tension out the top of your head and just take

2712
08:51:22.639 --> 08:51:25.680
it away the good.

2713
08:51:28.639 --> 08:51:32.400
You focus. Imagine an opening on the top of your

2714
08:51:32.479 --> 08:51:39.040
head with that tension and stress, and in remaining issues

2715
08:51:39.240 --> 08:51:42.119
may be ways of concerns that have no.

2716
08:51:42.479 --> 08:51:46.360
Use to you. Now you can all be sucked down

2717
08:51:46.400 --> 08:51:47.560
at the top of your head.

2718
08:51:49.279 --> 08:51:55.240
I've taken away. As I count down again from twenty

2719
08:51:55.639 --> 08:53:34.360
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, even, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

2720
08:53:38.319 --> 08:53:44.639
Five, four.

2721
08:53:48.560 --> 08:54:24.720
Three, one breathe, noticing how you feel, how relaxed and

2722
08:54:25.040 --> 08:54:39.080
calm you physically and mentally feel right now, how peace

2723
08:54:39.200 --> 08:54:47.799
so your mind feels it feels so nice to just

2724
08:54:47.959 --> 08:54:56.360
let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

2725
08:54:58.279 --> 08:55:08.319
to think calm, just to take a break from all

2726
08:55:08.400 --> 08:55:13.560
that pointless worry and concerns about things.

2727
08:55:13.479 --> 08:55:16.240
That you don't need to think about.

2728
08:55:19.119 --> 08:55:26.479
Right now, because this is your time to let go.

2729
08:55:27.840 --> 08:55:37.599
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

2730
08:55:37.759 --> 08:55:45.000
in your mind, relaxed in your body. I can feel

2731
08:55:45.599 --> 08:55:55.400
so good, so nice to just not have to do anything,

2732
08:55:57.720 --> 08:56:06.639
to be able to really enjoy that serenity that comes

2733
08:56:08.159 --> 08:56:21.240
with letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with being

2734
08:56:21.880 --> 08:56:33.200
in this peaceful space. And you can keep this sense

2735
08:56:33.400 --> 08:56:36.159
of calmness for as long.

2736
08:56:35.959 --> 08:56:37.000
As you choose.

2737
08:56:45.200 --> 08:56:52.159
You choose to drift on into deep, healing, natural sleep,

2738
08:56:53.439 --> 08:57:00.200
and you can do that. It's completely up to you.

2739
08:57:04.959 --> 08:57:09.680
And you can keep this feeling of calmness physically in

2740
08:57:09.919 --> 08:57:14.000
your mind as long as you choose.

2741
08:57:15.200 --> 08:57:26.919
To feel completely relaxed, completely relax.

2742
08:57:29.799 --> 08:57:35.400
And I'd like you to make up your mind that

2743
08:57:35.479 --> 08:57:46.439
you're going to relax, and I want to explore that

2744
08:57:46.680 --> 08:57:52.000
with you. What it feels like when you actually decide

2745
08:57:54.200 --> 08:57:58.880
that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving

2746
08:57:58.919 --> 08:58:04.919
yourself that yes, it is a command, really, isn't it.

2747
08:58:05.000 --> 08:58:12.639
When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm way,

2748
08:58:13.520 --> 08:58:19.720
that only you can really tell yourself in that way.

2749
08:58:20.599 --> 08:58:22.560
You can't really have someone else saying to you now

2750
08:58:22.599 --> 08:58:29.080
it relax, relax, you know, and it needs to be gentle,

2751
08:58:29.240 --> 08:58:32.759
But you can't someone else can't really have the same

2752
08:58:36.200 --> 08:58:42.279
the same kind of influence or power that you have

2753
08:58:43.479 --> 08:58:55.360
over your own physicality, over how you feel, because when

2754
08:58:55.520 --> 08:59:02.159
you say it to yourself it means more. It's personal,

2755
08:59:02.520 --> 08:59:08.119
and your brain and your unconscious mind and your body

2756
08:59:08.880 --> 08:59:15.119
listens to what you say. So, for example, we'll test

2757
08:59:15.159 --> 08:59:17.759
it out. We'll do a little test, a few little

2758
08:59:17.840 --> 08:59:21.560
tests along the way, and you can get more of

2759
08:59:21.639 --> 08:59:28.159
an idea of the force, a positive force that you

2760
08:59:28.360 --> 08:59:35.840
can have in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation

2761
08:59:36.159 --> 08:59:42.080
in your body and your mind quite quickly just by

2762
08:59:42.279 --> 08:59:52.639
you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going to start

2763
08:59:52.759 --> 08:59:59.680
by it's focus on your hands. To focus on your hands.

2764
08:59:59.840 --> 09:00:06.439
Just tell your hands to relax. Just say relax. As

2765
09:00:06.479 --> 09:00:12.400
you focus on your hands, you could say my hands

2766
09:00:12.599 --> 09:00:17.880
are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax. I

2767
09:00:17.959 --> 09:00:24.319
think if you actually do it directly by focusing and

2768
09:00:24.479 --> 09:00:28.479
imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying.

2769
09:00:28.639 --> 09:00:31.639
You know, they've got little ears, which is a little weird.

2770
09:00:34.200 --> 09:00:45.080
So talking to your hands and just say relax, noticin

2771
09:00:51.200 --> 09:01:06.319
now your hands start to relax. Now, focus on your

2772
09:01:06.439 --> 09:01:10.479
eyes and tell your eyes to relax. You just say

2773
09:01:10.520 --> 09:01:16.799
in the same word relax and find the right tone

2774
09:01:17.360 --> 09:01:23.319
for you. You know, I might say relax, but you

2775
09:01:24.319 --> 09:01:31.759
you might say relax or relax. You know, you might

2776
09:01:31.880 --> 09:01:38.240
say it differently to yourself, and that's important for you

2777
09:01:39.119 --> 09:01:44.720
to gauge what feels right for you. To just tell

2778
09:01:44.799 --> 09:01:50.720
your eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids,

2779
09:01:50.880 --> 09:01:56.200
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell

2780
09:01:56.319 --> 09:01:58.439
your eyes directly.

2781
09:02:00.720 --> 09:02:03.240
Relax now.

2782
09:02:30.040 --> 09:02:40.200
Now I just did that myself. And sometimes you may

2783
09:02:40.319 --> 09:02:44.959
feel that you need a bit more time or the

2784
09:02:45.080 --> 09:02:48.759
different parts to relax, you know, because I start talking

2785
09:02:48.840 --> 09:02:54.119
again and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what

2786
09:02:54.200 --> 09:02:56.880
will happen is that will just continue to relax even

2787
09:02:56.959 --> 09:03:04.159
though I'm talking. Let's happen and with my eyes. Something

2788
09:03:04.200 --> 09:03:09.040
else I noticed is when I started focusing on my eyes,

2789
09:03:09.319 --> 09:03:12.840
that actually almost became they got worse before they got

2790
09:03:12.919 --> 09:03:15.840
better in a way. So I felt a degree of

2791
09:03:16.080 --> 09:03:22.639
tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So I

2792
09:03:22.759 --> 09:03:25.639
think what that was really was just me becoming more

2793
09:03:25.759 --> 09:03:31.880
aware of the tension that was already there that I

2794
09:03:33.360 --> 09:03:37.279
I wasn't focused on it before, so I wasn't really

2795
09:03:38.040 --> 09:03:55.400
acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my

2796
09:03:55.560 --> 09:03:59.720
eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2797
09:04:03.200 --> 09:04:04.759
my hands have got a certain.

2798
09:04:04.599 --> 09:04:04.880
Kind of.

2799
09:04:07.759 --> 09:04:13.560
Energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of funeral

2800
09:04:13.720 --> 09:04:19.439
degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the

2801
09:04:19.599 --> 09:04:32.080
tension is being released. Maybe that's causing that. The next part,

2802
09:04:32.200 --> 09:04:33.639
I think we should focus.

2803
09:04:33.400 --> 09:04:34.319
On the back of the neck.

2804
09:04:35.040 --> 09:04:38.959
That's a part of which is quite often well for me,

2805
09:04:39.439 --> 09:04:42.479
holds tension. I don't know about it for yourself, but

2806
09:04:42.639 --> 09:04:46.880
I think it's quite a standard place where tension is

2807
09:04:47.000 --> 09:04:53.840
sometimes held. So, and I'm doing exactly what you're doing

2808
09:04:54.279 --> 09:04:56.400
as you do it as well, so I'm telling my

2809
09:04:57.360 --> 09:05:00.759
body parts to relax as well. So if you tell

2810
09:05:00.799 --> 09:05:03.599
your neck at the back of your neck, focus on

2811
09:05:03.720 --> 09:05:10.240
the back of your neck and just say relax in

2812
09:05:10.360 --> 09:05:13.479
your own words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

2813
09:05:14.159 --> 09:05:16.200
You can say out loud, or you can just say

2814
09:05:16.200 --> 09:05:21.720
it to yourself internally. But you're focusing and you're saying

2815
09:05:21.759 --> 09:05:24.639
it literally to the back of your.

2816
09:05:24.639 --> 09:05:27.759
Neck, as if the back of your neck can actually

2817
09:05:28.000 --> 09:05:34.439
hear what you're saying. So do that now, just say

2818
09:05:34.439 --> 09:05:38.639
it relax so the back of your neck and I'll

2819
09:05:38.680 --> 09:05:39.200
do the same.

2820
09:06:18.040 --> 09:06:21.559
And what I noticed, and you may have had similar

2821
09:06:21.639 --> 09:06:26.080
thing is even though I was focusing on the back

2822
09:06:26.160 --> 09:06:37.080
of my neck, other parts started to, I don't know,

2823
09:06:37.440 --> 09:06:40.839
show themselves to me or maybe because they want to

2824
09:06:40.879 --> 09:06:44.720
be relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings

2825
09:06:44.800 --> 09:06:48.080
in my shoulders at tension in my shoulders and in

2826
09:06:48.160 --> 09:06:55.440
my upper back. Whether that was because my back of

2827
09:06:55.519 --> 09:06:59.000
my neck was saying, well, I'm pretty much okay.

2828
09:07:00.599 --> 09:07:09.400
It's the other parts that need attention, but.

2829
09:07:09.519 --> 09:07:12.360
My low of my back of my neck is still relaxing.

2830
09:07:13.839 --> 09:07:16.279
But I just became more aware of other parts that

2831
09:07:16.519 --> 09:07:18.599
needed attention.

2832
09:07:20.839 --> 09:07:23.519
Now, this might happen, and it's not.

2833
09:07:25.160 --> 09:07:26.959
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong.

2834
09:07:27.080 --> 09:07:28.919
It just means you're.

2835
09:07:28.800 --> 09:07:35.440
Being notified of more places that also want to feel relaxed.

2836
09:07:38.720 --> 09:07:41.720
So I'm going to focus on my other back.

2837
09:07:43.040 --> 09:07:44.440
So you can do the same.

2838
09:07:45.959 --> 09:07:50.559
Even if you don't have any feelings of tension that

2839
09:07:50.800 --> 09:07:55.480
obvious in your upper back. You just focus on your

2840
09:07:55.559 --> 09:08:00.800
back and the whole area from the shock the blades

2841
09:08:01.000 --> 09:08:05.559
down to the middle of your back and your spine.

2842
09:08:07.040 --> 09:08:14.839
And with me, it's more the shoulder blades are more. Yeah,

2843
09:08:14.959 --> 09:08:16.040
that's the parts.

2844
09:08:15.839 --> 09:08:20.080
They really sort of given me.

2845
09:08:21.800 --> 09:08:22.120
The not.

2846
09:08:24.040 --> 09:08:26.480
That it needs relax in the sounds. Gonna ask that

2847
09:08:26.680 --> 09:08:29.919
part to relax, And you can do the same.

2848
09:08:29.800 --> 09:08:56.559
Now relaxing up the bank. There's something strange happened there.

2849
09:08:57.080 --> 09:08:57.360
And this.

2850
09:08:58.839 --> 09:09:00.480
Often happens, and doing.

2851
09:09:00.400 --> 09:09:00.680
This for.

2852
09:09:03.599 --> 09:09:11.559
Sixteen years or something, and often I'm one surprised but amazed.

2853
09:09:11.639 --> 09:09:17.519
Really bad, there can be a feeling. So when I

2854
09:09:17.680 --> 09:09:21.160
was focusing on the back of my neck, my upper

2855
09:09:21.239 --> 09:09:26.080
back was starting to feel quite stressed and in need

2856
09:09:26.239 --> 09:09:31.599
of attention. As soon as I started talking to you

2857
09:09:31.839 --> 09:09:37.040
about my upper back and talking about, you know, getting

2858
09:09:37.080 --> 09:09:41.839
ready to ask the other back to relax, why the

2859
09:09:41.919 --> 09:09:47.519
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

2860
09:09:47.680 --> 09:09:57.919
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs attention, just

2861
09:09:58.120 --> 09:10:10.599
needs to be noticed. That is something that often happens

2862
09:10:11.040 --> 09:10:18.239
in this type of situation is when you start to

2863
09:10:18.400 --> 09:10:23.400
relax a couple of parts of your body, as we've

2864
09:10:23.480 --> 09:10:29.680
done with our hands, the eyes and the eyelids, and.

2865
09:10:29.919 --> 09:10:38.639
Now back of the neck, top of the bag at

2866
09:10:38.680 --> 09:10:39.040
the back.

2867
09:10:40.360 --> 09:10:44.360
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

2868
09:10:47.120 --> 09:10:53.319
and decide in its own way to start relaxing.

2869
09:10:55.160 --> 09:10:56.239
Other parts of your.

2870
09:10:56.199 --> 09:11:06.680
Body start to just looser. I suppose it's kind of

2871
09:11:06.760 --> 09:11:10.480
like a bit of an avalanche, you know, the little

2872
09:11:10.519 --> 09:11:13.879
ball starts rolling, and before you know it, the whole

2873
09:11:13.959 --> 09:11:26.199
of your body is completely relaxed and can't And if

2874
09:11:26.239 --> 09:11:34.080
you focus on your face, you focus on your eyes,

2875
09:11:36.480 --> 09:11:42.800
the eyelids, your eyebrowns, and the muscles around your eyes.

2876
09:11:47.800 --> 09:11:52.519
Maybe you start to notice that your forehead is more

2877
09:11:52.599 --> 09:11:57.639
relaxed than it was. Maybe your face is more relaxed.

2878
09:12:00.360 --> 09:12:04.080
I would say my entire face is a lot more

2879
09:12:04.160 --> 09:12:17.839
relaxed than it was. So you're going to focus now

2880
09:12:18.080 --> 09:12:25.879
on your shoulders again, just like before. Just tell your shoulders.

2881
09:12:26.599 --> 09:12:28.639
I mean you can't do them in the digital.

2882
09:12:28.879 --> 09:12:31.360
You can do the right shoulder and the shoulder.

2883
09:12:32.559 --> 09:12:34.680
I just can't do both at the same time.

2884
09:12:36.760 --> 09:12:39.959
Just tell your shoulders and you focus on them in

2885
09:12:40.040 --> 09:12:46.199
your mind, focus on how you feel. Maybe you can

2886
09:12:46.559 --> 09:12:53.279
see them in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders

2887
09:12:57.040 --> 09:13:48.480
to relax as nice as they relax. But I didn't notice.

2888
09:13:50.199 --> 09:13:56.959
I mean, especially with my back. Is the connection between

2889
09:13:57.120 --> 09:14:01.599
the different parts the keep, the shoulders, the.

2890
09:14:01.760 --> 09:14:11.000
Neck being all connected and being such a.

2891
09:14:11.160 --> 09:14:17.199
Large part of your body, it's almost hard to separate

2892
09:14:17.279 --> 09:14:25.400
them from each other. And when lower back is starting

2893
09:14:25.440 --> 09:14:34.559
to relax on the sad, maybe I'm going too slow.

2894
09:14:36.760 --> 09:14:40.120
And that could be an issue because we will go

2895
09:14:40.239 --> 09:14:41.480
a different speeds.

2896
09:14:43.760 --> 09:14:47.839
And the idea of the beginning of this recording was

2897
09:14:47.919 --> 09:14:50.400
for you to be able to just say to yourself,

2898
09:14:53.959 --> 09:15:06.720
relax without focusing on any particular part of your body.

2899
09:15:09.000 --> 09:15:15.319
Because when you know that telling your hands to relax

2900
09:15:19.080 --> 09:15:27.480
and your hands relax, you tell your eyelids and your eyes,

2901
09:15:28.360 --> 09:15:34.879
the muscles around your eyes and your eyebrows to relax,

2902
09:15:38.680 --> 09:15:47.680
that they relax. You tell the back of your neck

2903
09:15:51.040 --> 09:15:58.480
to relax, and it relaxes.

2904
09:16:05.879 --> 09:16:07.279
Until you're out back.

2905
09:16:13.760 --> 09:16:15.040
To relax.

2906
09:16:24.279 --> 09:16:34.000
In different axes. I tell your.

2907
09:16:34.040 --> 09:16:37.639
Shoulders to relax.

2908
09:16:47.760 --> 09:16:49.120
If they relax.

2909
09:17:00.239 --> 09:17:00.360
Hm.

2910
09:17:12.199 --> 09:17:16.319
And you told your hands to relax, they relaxed.

2911
09:17:16.239 --> 09:17:19.720
And they continued to relax.

2912
09:17:25.559 --> 09:17:31.199
And you told your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

2913
09:17:32.239 --> 09:17:37.639
your eyebrows to relax. They relaxed.

2914
09:17:40.680 --> 09:17:42.480
And continue.

2915
09:17:43.480 --> 09:17:44.080
To relax.

2916
09:17:50.480 --> 09:17:54.120
And you told the back of your neck us on

2917
09:17:54.199 --> 09:17:59.959
the back of your neck and told you to relax.

2918
09:18:04.519 --> 09:18:19.839
It relaxed and continued to relax. And you told your

2919
09:18:20.160 --> 09:18:29.919
aulco back to relax. It relaxed and continued.

2920
09:18:31.839 --> 09:18:32.480
To relax.

2921
09:18:40.839 --> 09:18:46.400
That's what your shoulders. I told your shoulders to relax

2922
09:18:46.760 --> 09:18:59.080
in your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

2923
09:19:04.720 --> 09:19:09.680
And it's not just that, it's.

2924
09:19:12.360 --> 09:19:16.760
But the rest of your body is also been listening

2925
09:19:18.480 --> 09:19:24.559
that their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes,

2926
09:19:24.919 --> 09:19:32.040
the relaxation spread to your forehead, around your face.

2927
09:19:32.080 --> 09:19:45.160
Into your skin, into your jaw, into.

2928
09:19:44.959 --> 09:19:49.000
The front and sides of the neck, all the way

2929
09:19:49.080 --> 09:20:00.000
down your chest and stomach, relaxed, hands and shoulder.

2930
09:20:02.160 --> 09:20:12.800
It's up through your arms, breads, before arms, your upper arms, elbows,

2931
09:20:13.000 --> 09:20:13.760
your wrists.

2932
09:20:17.400 --> 09:20:17.879
Let you go.

2933
09:20:25.440 --> 09:20:30.279
With no bag hits.

2934
09:20:30.959 --> 09:20:36.080
That's explain, and just start to relax.

2935
09:20:36.319 --> 09:20:49.559
And the tenu in comfort spreading through your legs all

2936
09:20:49.559 --> 09:20:59.720
the way down to your ankles, top your feet, the

2937
09:21:00.080 --> 09:21:05.120
sight of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet.

2938
09:21:08.559 --> 09:21:14.040
Relaxing into your toes.

2939
09:21:17.839 --> 09:21:20.360
Each tone relaxing.

2940
09:21:23.680 --> 09:21:43.879
Became please and as your body relaxes more, your mind

2941
09:21:45.519 --> 09:22:07.440
becomes slower and peaceful, to the point where.

2942
09:22:09.239 --> 09:22:21.519
If you choose to all sight, he can easily do

2943
09:22:21.760 --> 09:22:37.519
that easy to join because there's nothing are all in

2944
09:22:37.639 --> 09:22:38.080
your mind.

2945
09:22:41.800 --> 09:22:44.239
The praise peaceful.

2946
09:22:52.080 --> 09:23:26.040
Your body will teased rises with that connection between.

2947
09:23:25.839 --> 09:23:32.279
Your body relaxing. The word you say to yourself.

2948
09:23:34.199 --> 09:23:45.239
Relax means that you don't need to focus on just

2949
09:23:45.599 --> 09:23:53.120
one part. You can just focus on your entire body.

2950
09:23:59.639 --> 09:24:21.800
Say the powerful word wolds and there's uh goods, familiar

2951
09:24:23.400 --> 09:24:39.839
sensations of comforts spreading throughout your body, using calming.

2952
09:24:41.839 --> 09:24:43.279
And the heaving.

2953
09:24:46.800 --> 09:24:52.720
Every poder to your body, eating.

2954
09:24:54.360 --> 09:25:15.720
More relaxed. So all you need to do from now

2955
09:25:16.559 --> 09:25:52.720
just telling yourself right evening beeping now so.

2956
09:25:57.440 --> 09:29:34.319
Starting now, Number twenty nineteen, nineteen seventeen, sixteen sixty foots.

2957
09:30:00.279 --> 09:36:03.800
Attatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatas attatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatt.

2958
09:36:58.400 --> 09:39:47.680
What one.

2959
09:39:53.760 --> 09:40:06.480
Se counting down from ten to one, ten.

2960
09:40:08.239 --> 09:40:38.160
Nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one, and maybe.

2961
09:40:38.040 --> 09:40:40.959
That was a bit too quick in order to relax,

2962
09:40:42.160 --> 09:40:42.800
and it's at.

2963
09:40:42.839 --> 09:40:49.360
Too fast for you to notice the calming of your body,

2964
09:40:52.559 --> 09:40:55.599
maybe even a little bit of pressure there.

2965
09:40:55.800 --> 09:40:59.239
Like you'll count it down from ten to one, would

2966
09:40:59.279 --> 09:41:02.440
you expect me to do? Man, it's for me just

2967
09:41:02.559 --> 09:41:06.639
to go all floy just because you're count down.

2968
09:41:12.120 --> 09:41:15.239
And try it again, but this time.

2969
09:41:15.080 --> 09:41:16.400
I'll go this lower.

2970
09:41:18.319 --> 09:41:23.199
This time, and you focus on the hold of your

2971
09:41:23.239 --> 09:41:25.440
body before.

2972
09:41:25.199 --> 09:41:32.519
We go every sing legs, just notice how your body.

2973
09:41:32.319 --> 09:41:39.319
Does start feel more relaxed.

2974
09:41:44.360 --> 09:41:48.360
H every number that I count down.

2975
09:41:51.599 --> 09:42:38.639
Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four.

2976
09:42:45.879 --> 09:43:20.839
Three, what.

2977
09:43:32.360 --> 09:43:38.800
I just notice how how you feel generally hoverybody feels.

2978
09:43:45.440 --> 09:43:53.800
It's not necessarily even about counting down with ten to one.

2979
09:43:56.720 --> 09:44:14.519
It's that space that you have, that space between being active.

2980
09:44:16.519 --> 09:44:26.040
Physically or mentally. It's just sitting and rying down, just

2981
09:44:26.279 --> 09:44:32.120
doing there, not doing anything, not saying anything, not needing

2982
09:44:32.440 --> 09:44:39.000
to think about anything. So things like the space. You know,

2983
09:44:39.160 --> 09:44:40.639
look at the space.

2984
09:44:41.239 --> 09:44:51.160
The gap, and the more I came down from tens

2985
09:44:51.160 --> 09:44:53.839
of monks, think of that gap.

2986
09:44:54.400 --> 09:45:04.360
Becomes so there's that gap of calmness and comfort, relaxation.

2987
09:45:10.319 --> 09:45:18.080
It's a nice feeling and it moves.

2988
09:45:19.360 --> 09:45:24.959
Those stresses or discomforts.

2989
09:45:24.239 --> 09:45:27.000
Physically or emotionally, moves.

2990
09:45:27.000 --> 09:45:37.080
Them away, allows you.

2991
09:45:39.760 --> 09:45:40.279
To just.

2992
09:45:43.279 --> 09:45:49.360
Slow down. So I'm going to count again and tend

2993
09:45:49.440 --> 09:45:59.599
down to work and notice that gap wide again. And

2994
09:45:59.720 --> 09:46:04.000
it is a wideness. It's almost like that the stress

2995
09:46:04.160 --> 09:46:21.919
of attention falls into the gap. It gives you that distance,

2996
09:46:23.919 --> 09:47:28.040
that space. Now ten nine fames seven six one four

2997
09:48:21.480 --> 09:48:34.599
m I you shure.

2998
09:48:36.800 --> 09:48:52.959
Y yeah mm ye.

2999
09:48:53.319 --> 09:48:53.559
It's